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+                           THE DIARY AND LETTERS
+                                    OF
+                              MADAME D'ARBLAY
+                             (FRANCES BURNEY.)
+
+                         WITH NOTES BY W. C. WARD,
+                  AND PREFACED BY LORD MACAULAY'S ESSAY.
+
+                             IN THREE VOLUMES.
+
+                                  VOL. 2.
+                               (1787-1792.)
+
+
+            WITH AN ENGRAVING OF GEORGE III., QUEEN CHARLOTTE,
+                            AND THEIR FAMILY.
+
+
+              LONDON: VIZETELLY & CO., 16, HENRIETTA STREET,
+                              COVENT GARDEN.
+                                   1891.
+
+                PRINTED BY J. S. VIRTUE & COMPANY, LONDON,
+                                CITY ROAD.
+
+
+
+
+
+10. (1787) COURT DUTIES AT ST. JAMES'S AND WINDSOR --9-48
+
+The Queen's Birthday Drawing Room--A Serious Dilemma--Counsels of
+a Court Official--Mr. Turbulent's Anxiety to Introduce Mr.
+Wellbred--Colonel Wellbred is received at Tea--Eccentric Mr.
+Bryant--Mr. Turbulent in a New Character--Bantering a Princess-
+-Mr. Turbulent meets with a Rebuff--A Surprise at the Play--The
+King's Birthday--The Equerries: Colonel Manners--The Duchess de
+Polignac at Windsor--Colonel Manners' Musical Accomplishments-
+-Mrs. Schwellenberg's "Lump of Leather"--Mrs. Schwellenberg's
+Frogs--Mr. Turbulent's Antics.
+
+11 (1787-8) COURT DUTIES: SOME VARIATIONS IN THEIR ROUTINE--49-85
+
+ Meeting of the two Princes--Bunbury, the Caricaturist--Mrs.
+Siddons proves disappointing on near acquaintance--Mr. Fairly's
+Bereavement--Troublesome Mr. Turbulent--A Conceited Parson--Mr.
+Turbulent becomes a Nuisance--Dr. Herschel and his Sister--Gay
+and Entertaining Mr. Bunbury--The Prince of Wales at Windsor
+again--False Rumours of Miss Burney's Resignation--Tyrannical
+Mrs. Schwellenberg--Mrs. Schwellenberg's Capriciousness--New
+Year's Day--Chatty Mr. Bryant again--Dr. Johnson's Letters to
+Mrs. Thrale discussed--A Pair of Paragons--Mr. Turbulent's Self
+Condemnation--Miss Burney among her Old Friends--Some Trivial
+Court Incidents.
+
+12 (1788) THE TRIAL OF WARREN HASTINGS--86-153
+
+Westminster Hall at the opening of the Hastings Trial--Warren
+Hastings appears at the Bar--The Lord Chancellor's Speech--The
+Reading of the Charges commenced--An Old Acquaintance--William
+Windham, Esq., M.P.--Windham inveighs against Warren Hastings-
+-Miss Burney Battles for the Accused--A Wearied M.P.--Mr.
+Crutchley reappears--Mr. Windham discusses the Impeachment-
+-Windham affects to commiserate Hastings--Miss Burney is again
+present at Hastings's Trial--Burke's Speech in support of the
+Charges--Further Conversation with Mr. Windham--Miss Fuzilier
+likely to become Mrs. Fairly--The Hastings Trial again: Mr. Fox
+in a Rage--Mrs. Crewe, Mr. Burke and Mr. Windham--Miss Burney's
+Unbiassed Sentiments--Burke and Sheridan meet with Cold
+Receptions--At Windsor again--Death of Mrs. Delany--The
+
+page vi
+
+Hastings Trial and Mr. Windham again--"The Queen is so kind"--
+Personal Resemblance between Windham and Hastings--Death of Young
+Lady Mulgrave--Again at Windsor--Another Meeting with Mr.
+Crutchley--Mr. Turbulent's troublesome Pleasantries--Colonel
+Fairly and Second Attachments.
+
+13. (1788) ROYAL VISIT TO CHELTENHAM--154--219
+
+The Royal Party and their Suite--Loyalty not Damped by the Rain-
+-Arrival at Fauconberg Hall--The Tea-Table Difficulty--A
+t`ete-`a-t`ete wit" Colonel Fairly--The King's
+Gentlemen and the Queen's Ladies--Royalty Crowded at Fauconberg
+Hall--At the wells--Conversation and Flirtation with Colonel
+Fairly--Miss Burney meets an old Friend--Colonel Fairly again--A
+Visit to miss Palmer--"Original Love Letters"--The Founder of
+Sunday Schools criticised--On the Walks--An Unexpected Visitor--
+Courts and Court Life--The Vindictive Baretti--speculations upon
+Colonel Fairly's Re-marrying--Colonel Fairly again presents
+Himself--The Colonel and the "Original Love Letters"--The Gout
+and the Love Letters again--A Dinner with Colonel Fairly and Miss
+Planta--Royal Concern for the Colonel's Gout--young Republicans
+Converted--The Princes' Animal Spirits--The Duke of York: Royal
+Visit to the Theatre--An uncourtly visitor--Mr. Fairly reads
+"Akenside" to Miss Burney--The Doctor's Embarrassment--From Grave
+to Gay--A Visit to Worcester--The Queen and Mr. Fairly--Mr.
+Fairly Moralizes--Major Price is tired of Retirement--The Return
+to Windsor--At Windsor again: The Canon and Mrs. Schwellenberg--
+Compliments from a famous Foreign Astronomer--The Prince eyes
+miss Burney curiously--Colonel manners's Beating--mr. Fairly is
+Discussed by his Brother Equerries--Baron Trenck: Mr. Turbulent's
+Raillery--Amiable Mrs. Schwellenberg again--A Royal Joke--Colonel
+Goldsworthy's Breach of Etiquette--Illness of Mrs. Schwellenberg-
+-General Grenville's Regiment at Drill.
+
+14. (1788-9) THE KING'S ILLNESS--220-299
+
+Uncertain State of the King's Health--The King complains
+of Want of Sleep--Distress of the Queen--First Outburst of the
+King's Delirium--An Anxious Night--The King's Delirious
+Condition-The King refuses to see Dr. Warren--The Queen's anxiety
+to hear Dr. Warren's opinion--The Queen removes to more distant
+Apartments--A Visit from Mr. Fairly--The King's Night Watchers--A
+Change in Miss Burney's Duties--Mr. Fairly Succeeds in Soothing
+the King--New Arrangements--The Princess Augusta's Birthday--
+Strange Behaviour of the First Gentleman in Europe--Stringent New
+Regulations--Mrs. Schwellenberg is back again--Public Prayers for
+the King decided upon--Sir Lucas Pepys On the King's Condition-
+Further Changes at the Lodge--Mr. Fairly and the Learned Ladies--
+Reports on the King's Condition--Mr. Fairly thinks the King
+
+Page vii
+
+needs Stricter Management--Mr. Fairly wants a Change--Removal of
+the King to Kew determined upon--A Privy Council held--The
+Removal to Kew--A Mysterious Visitor--The King's Arrival--The
+Arrangements at Kew Palace--A Regency hinted at--Mr. Fairly's
+Kind Offices--Mrs. Schwellenberg's Parlour--A new Physician
+Summoned--Mrs. Schwellenberg's Opinion of Mr. Fairly--The King's
+varying Condition--Dr. Willis and his Son--Learning in Women--The
+Queen and Mr. Fairly's Visits-A Melancholy Birthday--Mr. Fairly
+on Fans--Mr. Fairly continues his Visits: the Queen again Remarks
+upon them--The Search for Mr. Fairly--Miss Burney's Alarm on
+being chased by the King--A Royal Salute and Royal Confidences--
+Curiosity regarding Miss Burney's meeting with the King--The
+Regency Bill--Infinitely Licentious!--Miss Burney is taxed with
+Visiting Gentlemen--Improvement in the King's Health--Mr. Fairly
+and Mr. Windham--The King continues to improve--The King's Health
+is completely Restored.
+
+15. (1789) THE KING'S RECOVERY: ROYAL VISIT TO WEYMOUTH--300-333
+
+ The King's Reappearance--An Airing and its Consequences--
+Illuminations on the King's Recovery--Mr. Fairly on Miss Burney's
+Duties--A Visit from Miss Fuzilier--A Command from Her Majesty-
+-Colonel Manners mystifies Mrs. Schwellenberg--The Sailor
+Prince--Loyal Reception of the King in the New Forest--The Royal
+journey to Weymouth--Welcome to Weymouth--The Royal Plunge with
+Musical honours--"You must Kneel, Sir!"--Royal doings in and
+about Weymouth--A Patient Audience--A Fatiguing but Pleasant
+Day--Lulworth Castle--The Royal Party at the Assembly Rooms--A
+journey to Exeter and Saltram--May "One" come in?--An Excursion
+to Plymouth Dockyard--A Visit to a Seventy-four--A Day at Mount
+Edgecumbe--Mr. Fairly on a Court Life--A Brief Sojourn at
+Longleat--Tottenham Court: Return to Windsor.
+
+16. (1789-90) MR. FAIRLY'S MARRIAGE: THE HASTINGS TRIAL--334-365
+
+Rumours of Mr. Fairly's impending Marriage--A Royal Visit to the
+Theatre: jammed in the Crowd--In the Manager's Box--Mr. Fairly's
+Marriage imminent--Court Duties discussed--Mr. Fairly's Strange
+Wedding--Renewal of the Hastings Trial: A Political Impromptu--An
+Illbred Earl of Chesterfield--Miss Burney in a New Capacity--The
+long-forgotten Tragedy: Miss Burnei again as Reader--Colonel
+Manners in his Senatorial Capacity--A Conversation with Mr.
+Windham at the Hastings Trial--A Glimpse of Mrs. Piozzi--Captain
+Burney wants a Ship to go to Court--Captain Burney and Mr.
+Windham--Mr. Windham speaks on a Legal Point--An Emphatic
+Peroration-An Aptitude for Logic and for Greek--More Talk with
+Mr. Windham.
+
+
+Page viii
+
+17. (1790-1) MISS BURNEY RESIGNS HER PLACE AT COURT--366-409
+
+A Melancholy Confession--Captain Burney's Laconic Letter and
+Interview--Burke's Speech on the French Revolution--An Awkward
+Meeting--A New Visit from Mrs. Fairly--One Tragedy Finished and
+Another Commenced--Miss Burney's Resignation Memorial--Mr.
+Windham Intervenes--An Amusing Interview with Mr. Boswell--Ill,
+Unsettled, and Unhappy--A Medical Opinion on Miss Burney's
+Condition--Miss Burney breaks the Matter to the Queen--The
+Memorial and Explanatory Note--The Keeper of the Robes'
+Consternation--Leave of Absence is Suggested--A Royal Gift to the
+Master of the Horse--Conferences with the Queen--Miss Burney
+determines on Seclusion--The Hastings Trial Resumed: The Accused
+makes his Defence--Mr. Windham is Congratulated on his Silence--
+Miss Burney makes her Report--Prince William insists on the
+King's Health being Drunk--The Queen's Health--The Procession to
+the Ball-room: Absence of the Princes--Boswell's Life of
+johnson--The Close of Miss Burney's Court Duties--Miss Burney's
+Successor: A Pension from the Queen--Leavetakings--Farewell to
+Kew--The Final Parting.
+
+18. (1791-2) REGAINED LIBERTY--410-468
+
+Released from Duty--A Western journey: Farnham Castle--A Party of
+French Fugitives--Winchester Cathedral--Stonehenge, Wilton, and
+Milton Abbey--Lyme and Sidmouth--Sidmouth Loyalty--Powderham
+Castle and Collumpton Church--Glastonbury Abbey--Wells
+Cathedral--Bath Revisited--A Visit from Lady Spencer--Bath Sunday
+Schools--Georgiana, Duchess of Devonshire--Bishop Percy--The
+Duchess of Devonshire again--Dr. Burney's Conversation with Mr.
+Burke: Remarks by Miss Burney--Literary Recreation--Sir Joshua
+Reynoldsls Blindness--Among Old Friends--A Summons from the
+Queen--Mr. Hastings's Defence--Diverse Views--Mr. Law's Speech
+Discussed--Mr. Windham on the French National Assembly--"A
+Barbarous Business!"--Death of Sir Joshua Reynolds--Mr. Windham
+twitted on his Lack of Compassion--A Point of Ceremonial--Mrs.
+Schwellenberg and Mlle. Jacobi--A Long Talk with the King and
+Queen--Madame de Genlis: a Woeful Change--The Weeping Beauty
+Again--Madame de la Fite and Mrs. Hastings--The Impetuous Orator-
+-Mimicry of Dr. Johnson--The King's Birthday--Mr. Hastings's
+Speech--A Well-preserved Beauty--The Burkes--Burke's
+Conversational Powers--A Wild Irish Girl--Erskine's Egotism--
+Caen-wood---An Adventure with Mrs. Crewe--An Invitation from
+Arthur Young.
+
+
+
+
+                               SECTION 10.
+                                  (1787)
+
+                 COURT DUTIES AT ST. JAMES'S AND WINDSOR.
+
+THE QUEEN'S BIRTHDAY DRAWING ROOM.
+
+January. Go back to the 16th, when I went to town, accompanied
+only by Mr. de Luc.  I saw my dear father the next morning, who
+gave me a poem on the queen's birthday, to present.  It was very
+pretty; but I felt very awkward in offering it to her, as it was
+from so near a relation, and without any particular reason or
+motive.  Mr. Smelt came and stayed with me almost all the
+morning, and soothed and solaced me by his charming converse.
+The rest of the day was devoted to milliners, mantua-makers, and
+such artificers, and you may easily conjecture how great must be
+my fatigue.  Nevertheless, when, in the midst of these wasteful
+toils, the Princess Augusta entered my room, and asked me, from
+the queen, if I should wish to see the ball the next day, I
+preferred running the risk of that new fatigue, to declining an
+honour so offered: especially as the Princess Augusta was herself
+to open the ball.
+
+A chance question this night from the queen, whom I now again
+attended as usual, fortunately relieved me from my embarrassment
+about the poem.  She inquired of me if my father was still
+writing?  "A little," I answered, and the next morning, Thursday,
+the 18th, when the birth-day was kept, I found her all sweetness
+and serenity; mumbled out my own little compliment, which she
+received as graciously as if she had understood and heard it; and
+then,
+
+Page 10
+
+when she was dressed, I followed her through the great rooms, to
+get rid of the wardrobe woman, and there taking the poem from my
+pocket, I said "I told your majesty that my father had written a
+little!--and here--the little is!"
+
+She took it from me with a smile and a curtsey, and I ran off.
+She never has named it since; but she has spoken of my father
+with much sweetness and complacency.  The modest dignity of the
+queen, upon all subjects of panegyric, is truly royal and noble.
+
+I had now, a second time, the ceremony of being entirely new
+dressed.  I then went to St. James's, where the queen gave a very
+gracious approbation of my gewgaws, and called upon the king to
+bestow the same; which his constant goodhumour makes a matter of
+great ease to him.
+
+The queen's dress, being for her own birthday, was extremely
+simple, the style of dress considered.  The king was quite
+superb, and the Princesses Augusta and Elizabeth were ornamented
+with much brilliancy.
+
+Not only the princess royal was missed at this exhibition, but
+also the Prince of Wales.  He wrote, however, his congratulations
+to the queen, though the coldness then subsisting between him and
+his majesty occasioned his absence from Court.  I fear it was
+severely felt by his royal mother, though she appeared composed
+and content.
+
+The two princesses spoke very kind words, also, about my frippery
+on this festival; and Princess Augusta laid her positive commands
+upon me that I should change my gown before I went to the lord
+chamberlain's box, where only my head could be seen.  The counsel
+proved as useful as the consideration was amiable.
+
+When the queen was attired, the Duchess of Ancaster was admitted
+to the dressing room, where she stayed, in conversation with
+their majesties and the princesses, till it was time to summon
+the bed-chamber women.  During this, I had the office of holding
+the queen's train.  I knew, for me, it was a great honour, yet it
+made me feel, once more, so like a mute upon the stage, that I
+could scarce believe myself only performing my own real
+character.
+
+Mrs. Stainforth and I had some time to stand upon the stairs
+before the opening of the doors.  We joined Mrs. Fielding and her
+daughters, and all entered together, but the crowd parted us -
+they all ran on, and got in as they could, and I
+Page 11
+
+remained alone by the door.  They soon found me out, and made
+signs to me, which I saw not, and then they sent me messages that
+they had kept room for me just by them.  I had received orders
+from the queen to go out at the end of the second country dance ;
+I thought, therefore, that as I now was seated by the door, I had
+better be content, and stay where I could make my exit in a
+moment, and without trouble or disturbance.  A queer-looking old
+lady sat next me, and I spoke to her now and then, by way of
+seeming to belong to somebody.  She did not appear to know
+whether it were advisable for her to answer me or not, seeing me
+alone, and with high head ornaments; but as I had no plan but to
+save appearances to the surrounders, I was perfectly satisfied
+that my very concise propositions should meet with yet more
+laconic replies.
+
+Before we parted, however, finding me quiet and inoffensive, she
+became voluntarily sociable, and I felt so much at home, by being
+still in a part of the palace, that I needed nothing further than
+just so much notice as not to seem an object to be avoided.
+
+The sight which called me to that spot perfectly answered all my
+expectations: the air, manner, and countenance of the queen, as
+she goes round the circle, are truly graceful and engaging: I
+thought I could understand, by the motion of her lips, and the
+expression of her face, even at the height and distance of the
+chamberlain's box, the gracious and pleasant speeches she made to
+all whom she approached.  With my glass, you know, I can see just
+as other people see with the naked eye.
+
+The princesses looked extremely lovely, and the whole Court was
+in the utmost splendour.
+
+
+                            A SERIOUS DILEMMA.
+
+At the appointed moment I slipped through the door, leaving my
+old lady utterly astonished at my sudden departure, and I passed,
+alone and quietly, to Mr. Rhamus's apartment, which was
+appropriated for the company to wait in.  Here I desired a
+servant I met with to call my man: he was not to be found.  I
+went down the stairs, and made them call him aloud, by my name;
+all to no purpose.  Then the chairmen were called, but called
+also in vain!
+
+What to do I knew not ; though I was still in a part of the
+Page 12
+
+palace, it was separated by many courts, avenues, passages, and
+alleys, from the queen's or my own apartments- and though I had
+so lately passed them, I could not remember the way, nor at that
+late hour could I have walked, dressed as I then was, and the
+ground wet with recent rain, even if I had had a servant: I had
+therefore ordered the chair allotted me for these days; but chair
+and chairmen and footmen were alike out of the way.
+
+My fright lest the queen should wait for me was very serious.  I
+believe there are state apartments through which she passes, and
+therefore I had no chance to know when she retired from the
+ball-room.  Yet could I not stir, and was forced to return to the
+room whence I came, in order to wait for John, that I might be
+out of the way of the cold winds which infested the hall.
+
+I now found a young clergyman, standing by the fire.  I suppose
+my anxiety was visible, for he instantly inquired if he could
+assist me.  I declined his offer, but walked up and down, making
+frequent questions about my chair and John.
+
+He then very civilly said, "You seem distressed, ma'am; would you
+permit me the honour to see for your chair, or, if it is not
+come, as you seem hurried, would you trust me to see you home?"
+
+I thanked him, but could not accept his services.  He was sorry,
+he said, that I refused him, but could not wonder, as he was a
+stranger.  I made some apologising answer, and remained in that
+unpleasant situation till, at length, a hackneychair was procured
+me.  My new acquaintance would take no denial to handing me to
+the chair.  When I got in, I told the men to carry me to the
+palace.
+
+"We are there now!" cried they; "what part of the palace?"
+
+I was now in a distress the most extraordinary : I really knew
+not my own direction! I had always gone to my apartment in a
+chair, and had been carried by chairmen officially appointed;
+and, except that it was in St. James's palace, I knew nothing of
+my own situation.
+
+"Near the park," I told them, and saw my new esquire look utterly
+amazed at me.
+
+"Ma'am," said he, " half the palace is in the park."
+
+"I don't know how to direct," cried I, in the greatest
+embarrassment, "but it is somewhere between Pall Mall and the
+park."
+Page 13
+
+"I know where the lady lives well enough," cried one of the
+chairmen, "'tis in St. James's street."
+
+"No, no," cried I, "'tis in St. James's palace."
+
+"Up with the chair!" cried the other man, "I know best--'tis in
+South Audley-street; I know the lady well enough."
+
+Think what a situation at the moment! I found they had both been
+drinking the queen's health till they knew not what they said and
+could with difficulty stand.  Yet they lifted me up, and though I
+called in the most terrible fright to be let out, they carried me
+down the steps.
+
+I now actually screamed for help, believing they would carry me
+off to South Audley-street; and now my good genius, who had
+waited patiently in the crowd, forcibly stopped the chairmen, who
+abused him violently, and opened the door himself, and I ran back
+to the hall.
+
+You may imagine how earnestly I returned my thanks for this most
+seasonable assistance, without which I should almost have died
+with terror, for where they might have taken or dropped me, or
+how or where left me, who could say?
+
+He begged me to go again upstairs, but my apprehension about the
+queen prevented me.  I knew she was to have nobody but me, and
+that her jewels, though few, were to be intrusted back to the
+queen's house to no other hands.  I must, I said, go, be it in
+what manner it might.  All I could devise was to summon Mr.
+Rhamus, the page.  I had never seen him, but my attendance upon
+the queen would be an apology for the application, and I
+determined to put myself under his immediate protection.
+
+Mr. Rhamus was nowhere to be found ; he was already supposed to
+be gone to the queen's house, to wait the arrival of his majesty.
+This news redoubled my fear; and now my new acquaintance desired
+me to employ him in making inquiries for me as to the direction I
+wanted.
+
+It was almost ridiculous, in the midst of my distress, to be thus
+at a loss for an address to myself!  I felt averse to speaking my
+name amongst so many listeners, and only told him he would much
+oblige me by finding out a direction to Mrs. Haggerdorn's rooms.
+He went upstairs ; and returning, said he could now direct the
+chairmen, if I did not fear trusting them.
+
+I did fear--I even shook with fear; yet my horror of
+disappointing the queen upon such a night prevailed over all my
+reluctance, and I ventured once more into the chair, thanking
+this excellent Samaritan, and begging him to give the direction
+very particularly.
+
+Page 14
+
+Imagine, however, my gratitude and my relief, when, instead of
+hearing the direction, I heard only these words, " Follow me."
+And then did this truly benevolent young man himself play the
+footman, in walking by the side of the chair till we came to an
+alley, when he bid them turn; but they answered him with an oath,
+and ran on with me, till the poles ran against a wall, for they
+had entered a passage in which there was no outlet!  I would fain
+have got out, but they would not hear me; they would only pull
+the chair back, and go on another way.  But my guardian angel
+told them to follow him, or not, at their peril ; and then walked
+before the chair.
+
+We next came to a court where we were stopped by the sentinels.
+They said they had orders not to admit any hackney chairs.  The
+chairmen vowed they would make way; I called out aloud to be set
+down; the sentinels said they would run their bayonets through
+the first man that attempted to dispute their orders.  I then
+screamed out again to be set down, and my new and good friend
+peremptorily forced them to stop, and opening the door with
+violence, offered me his arm, saying, "You had better trust
+yourself with me, ma'am!"
+
+Most thankfully I now accepted what so fruitlessly I had
+declined, and I held by his arm, and we walked on together, but
+neither of us knew whither, nor the right way from the wrong 1 It
+was really a terrible situation.
+
+The chairmen followed us, clamorous for money, and full of abuse.
+They demanded half a crown - my companion refused to listen to
+such an imposition : my shaking hand could find no purse, and I
+begged him to pay them what they asked, that they might leave us.
+He did ; and when they were gone, I shook less, and was able to
+pay that one part of the debt I was now contracting.
+
+We wandered about, heaven knows where, in a way the most alarming
+and horrible to myself imaginable: for I never knew where I
+was.--It was midnight.  I concluded the queen waiting for me.--It
+was wet.  My head was full dressed.  I was under the care of a
+total stranger; and I knew not which side to take, wherever we
+came.  Inquiries were vain.  The sentinels alone were in sight,
+and they are so continually changed that they knew no more of
+Mrs.  Haggerdorn than if she had never resided here.
+
+At length I spied a door open, and I begged to enter it at a
+venture, for information.  Fortunately a person stood in the
+passage who instantly spoke to me by my name; I never
+
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+
+heard that sound with more glee: to me he was a stranger, but I
+suppose he had seen me in some of the apartments.  I begged him
+to direct me straight to the queen's rooms: he did ; and I then
+took leave of my most humane new friend, with a thousand
+acknowledgments for his benevolence and services.
+
+Was it not a strange business ? I can never say what an agony Of
+fright it cost me at the time, nor ever be sufficiently grateful
+for the kind assistance, so providentially afforded me.'
+
+
+COUNSELS OF A COURT OFFICIAL.
+
+The general directions and counsel of Mr. Smelt, which I have
+scrupulously observed ever since, were, in abridgment, these:-
+
+That I should see nobody at all but by appointment.  This, as he
+well said, would obviate, not only numerous personal
+inconveniences to myself, but prevent alike surprises from those
+I had no leave to admit, and repetitions of visits from others
+who might inadvertently come too often.  He advised me to tell
+this to my father, and beg it might be spread, as a settled part
+of my situation, among all who inquired for me.
+
+That I should see no fresh person whatsoever without an immediate
+permission from the queen, nor any party, even amongst those
+already authorised, without apprising her of such a plan.
+
+That I should never go out without an immediate application to
+her, so that no possible inquiry for me might occasion surprise
+or disappointment.
+
+These, and other similar ties, perhaps, had my spirits been
+better, I might less readily have acceded to : as it was, I would
+have bound myself to as many more.
+
+At length, however, even then, I was startled when Mr. Smelt,
+with some earnestness, said, "And, with respect to your parties,
+such as you may occasionally have here, you have but one rule for
+keeping all things smooth, and all partisans unoffended, at a
+distance--which is, to have no men--none!
+
+I stared a little, and made no answer.
+
+"Yes," cried he, "Mr. Locke may be admitted; but him only.  Your
+father, you know, is of course."
+
+Still I was silent: after a pause of some length, he plumply Yet
+with an evidently affected unmeaningness, said, "Mr. Cambridge--
+as to Mr. Cambridge--"
+
+I stopped him short at once; I dared not trust to what
+
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+
+might follow, and eagerly called Out, "Mr. Cambridge, Sir, I
+cannot exclude! So much friendship and kindness I owe, and have
+long owed him, that he would go about howling at my ingratitude,
+could I seem so suddenly to forget it!"
+
+My impetuosity in uttering this surprised, but silenced him; he
+said not a word more, nor did I.
+
+
+            MR. TURBULENT's ANXIETY TO INTRODUCE MR. WELLBRED.
+Windsor, Sunday, Jan. 28.-I was too ill to go to church.  I was
+now, indeed, rarely well enough for anything but absolute and
+unavoidable duties ; and those were still painfully and forcibly
+performed.
+
+I had only Miss Planta for my guest, and when she went to the
+princesses I retired for a quiet and solitary evening to my own
+room.  But here, while reading, I was interrupted by a tat-tat at
+my door.  I opened it and saw Mr. Turbulent. . . . He came
+forward, and began a gay and animated conversation, with a flow
+of spirits and good humour which I had never observed in him
+before.
+
+His darling colonel(230) was the subject that he still harped
+upon; but it was only with a civil and amusing raillery, not, as
+before, with an overpowering vehemence to conquer.  Probably,
+however, the change in myself might be as observable as in him,--
+since I now ceased to look upon him with that distance and
+coldness which hitherto he had uniformly found in me.
+
+I must give you a little specimen of him in this new dress.
+
+After some general talk,
+
+"When, ma'am," he said, "am I to have the honour of introducing
+Colonel Wellbred to you?"
+
+"Indeed, I have not settled that entirely!"
+
+"Reflect a little, then, ma'am, and tell me.  I only wish to know
+when."
+
+"Indeed to tell you that is somewhat more than I am able to do; I
+must find it out myself, first."
+
+" Well, ma'am, make the inquiry as speedily as possible, I beg.
+What say you to now? shall I call him up?
+
+"No, no,--pray let him alone."
+
+"But will you not, at least, tell me your reasons for this
+conduct?"
+
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+
+"Why, frankly, then, if you will hear them and be quiet, I will
+confess them."
+
+I then told him, that I had so little time to myself, that to
+gain even a single evening was to gain a treasure; and that I had
+no chance but this.  "Not," said I, "that I wish to avoid him,
+but to break the custom of constantly meeting with the
+equerries."
+
+"But it is impossible to break the custom, ma'am; it has been so
+always: the tea-table has been the time of uniting the company,
+ever since the king came to Windsor."
+
+" Well, but everything now is upon a new construction.  I am not
+positively bound to do everything Mrs. Haggerdorn did, and his
+having drank tea with her will not make him conclude he must also
+drink tea with me."
+
+No, no, that is true, I allow.  Nothing that belonged to her can
+bring conclusions round to you.  But still, why begin with
+Colonel Wellbred? You did not treat Colonel Goldsworthy so?"
+
+"I had not the power of beginning with him.  I did what I could,
+I assure you."
+
+"Major Price, ma'am?--I never heard you avoided him."
+
+"No; but I knew him before I came, and he knew much of my family,
+and indeed I am truly sorry that I shall now see no more of him.
+But Colonel Wellbred and I are mutually strangers."
+
+"All people are so at first, every acquaintance must have a
+beginning."
+
+"But this, if you are quiet, we are most willing should have
+none."
+
+"Not he, ma'am--he is not so willing; he wishes to come.  He
+asked me, to-day, if I had spoke about it."
+
+I disclaimed believing this; but he persisted in asserting it,
+adding "For he said if I had spoke he would come."
+
+"He is very condescending," cried I, "but I am satisfied he would
+not think of it at all, if you did not put it in his head."
+
+"Upon my honour, You are mistaken; we talk just as much of it
+down there as up here."
+
+"you would much oblige me if you would not talk of it,- neither
+there nor here."
+
+"Let me end it, then, by bringing him at once!"
+
+"No, no, leave us both alone: he has his resources and his
+engagements as much as I have; we both are best as we now are."
+
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+
+"But what can he say, ma'am? Consider his confusion and disgrace!
+ It is well known, in the world, the private life that the royal
+family live at Windsor, and who are the attendants that belong to
+them; and when Colonel Wellbred quits his waiting--three months'
+waiting and is asked how he likes Miss Burney, he must answer he
+has never seen her! And what, ma'am, has Colonel Wellbred done to
+merit such a mortification?"
+
+It was impossible not to laugh at such a statement of the case;
+and again he requested to bring him directly.  "One quarter of an
+hour will content me ; I only wish to introduce him--for the sake
+of his credit in the world; and when once you have met, you need
+meet no more; no consequences whatever need be drawn to the
+detriment of your solitude."
+
+I begged him to desist, and let us both rest.
+
+"But have you, yourself, ma'am, no curiosity--no desire to see
+Colonel Wellbred?"
+
+"None in the world."
+
+"If, then, hereafter you admit any other equerry--"
+
+"No, no, I intend to carry the new construction throughout."
+
+"Or if you suffer anyone else to bring you Colonel Wellbred."
+
+"Depend upon it I have no such intention."
+
+"But if any other more eloquent man prevails--"
+
+" Be assured there is no danger."
+
+"Will you, at least, promise I shall be present at the meet--?"
+
+" There will be no meeting."
+
+"You are certainly, then, afraid of him?"
+
+I denied this, and, hearing the king's supper called, he took his
+leave ; though not before I very seriously told him that, however
+amusing all this might be as pure badinage, I Should
+be very earnestly vexed if he took any steps in the matter
+without my consent.
+
+
+
+COLONEL WELLBRED IS RECEIVED AT TEA.
+
+Feb. 2.-MISS Planta came to tea, and we went together to the
+eating-parlour, which we found quite empty.  Mr. Turbulent's
+studious table was all deserted, and his books laid waste; but in
+a very few minutes he entered again, with his arms spread wide,
+his face all glee, and his voice all triumph, calling out,
+
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+
+"Mr. Smelt and Colonel Wellbred desire leave to wait upon miss
+Burney to tea!"
+
+A little provoked at this determined victory over my will and my
+wish, I remained silent,- but Miss Planta broke forth into open
+upbraidings:
+
+"Upon my word, Mr. Turbulent, this is really abominable it is all
+your own doing--and if I was Miss Burney I would not bear it!"
+and much more, till he fairly gave her to understand she had
+nothing to do with the matter.
+
+Then, turning to me, "What am I to say, ma'am? am I to tell
+Colonel Wellbred you hesitate?"  He protested he came upon the
+embassy fairly employed.
+
+"Not fairly, I am sure, Mr. Turbulent The whole is a device and
+contrivance of your own! Colonel Wellbred would have been as
+quiet as myself, had you left him alone."
+
+"Don't throw it all upon me, ma'am; 'tis Mr. Smelt.  But what are
+they to think of this delay? are they to suppose it requires
+deliberation whether or not you can admit a gentleman to your
+tea-table?"
+
+I begged him to tell me, at least, how it had passed, and in what
+manner he had brought his scheme about.  But he would give me no
+satisfaction; he only said "You refuse to receive him, ma'am?--
+shall I go and tell him you refuse to receive him?"
+
+"O No,
+
+This was enough -.  he waited no fuller consent, but ran off.
+Miss Planta began a good-natured repining for me.  I determined
+to fetch some work before they arrived; and in coming for it to
+my own room, I saw Mr. Turbulent, not yet gone downstairs.  I
+really believe, by the strong marks of laughter on his
+countenance, that he had stopped to compose himself before he
+could venture to appear in the equerryroom!
+
+I looked at him reproachfully, and passed on; he shook his head
+at me in return, and hied downstairs.  I had but just time to
+rejoin Miss Planta when he led the way to the two Other
+gentlemen: entering first, with the most earnest curiosity, to
+watch the scene.  Mr. Smelt followed, introducing the colonel.
+
+I could almost have laughed, so ridiculous had the behaviour of
+Mr. Turbulent, joined to his presence and watchfulness, rendered
+this meeting; and I saw in Colonel Wellbred the most evident
+marks of similar sensations: for he coloured
+
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+
+violently on his entrance, and seemed in an embarrassment that,
+to any one who knew not the previous tricks of Mr. Turbulent,
+must have appeared really distressing.  And, in truth, Mr. Smelt
+himself, little imagining what had preceded the interview, was so
+much struck with his manner and looks, that he conceived him to
+be afraid of poor little me, and observed, afterwards, with what
+"blushing diffidence" he had begun the acquaintance!
+
+I, who saw the true cause through the effect, felt more provoked
+than ever with Mr. Turbulent, since I was now quite satisfied he
+had been as busy with the colonel about me, as with me about the
+colonel.
+
+He is tall, his figure is very elegant, and his face very
+handsome: he is sensible, well-bred, modest, and intelligent.  I
+had always been told he was very amiable and accomplished, and
+the whole of his appearance confirmed the report.
+
+The discourse was almost all Mr. Smelt's, the colonel was silent
+and reserved, and Mr. Turbulent had resolved to be a mere
+watchman.  The king entered early and stayed late, and took away
+with him, on retiring, all the gentlemen.
+
+Feb. 3.-As the tea hour approached, to-day, Mr. Turbulent grew
+very restless.  I saw what was passing in his mind, and therefore
+forbore ordering tea; but presently, and suddenly, as if from
+some instant impulse, he gravely came up to me, and said
+
+"Shall I go and call the colonel, ma'am?"
+
+"No, sir!" was my johnsonian reply.
+
+"What, ma'am!--won't you give him a little tea?"
+"No, no, no!--I beg you will be at rest!"
+
+He shrugged his shoulders, and walked away; and Mr. Smelt,
+smiling, said, "Will you give us any?"
+
+"O yes, surely cried I, and was going away to ring for the man.
+
+I believe I have already mentioned that I had no bell at all,
+except in my bedroom, and that only for my maid, whom I was
+obliged to summon first, like Smart's monkey--
+
+"Here, Betty!--Nan!--
+Go, call the maid, to call the man!"
+
+For Mrs. Haggerdorn had done without, twenty-six years, by always
+keeping her servant in waiting at the door.  I could never endure
+inflicting such a hardship, and therefore had always to run to my
+bedroom, and wait the progress of the maid's arrival, and then of
+her search of the man, ere ever
+
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+
+I could give him an order.  A mighty tiresome and inconvenient
+ceremony.  Mr Turbulent insisted upon saving me this trouble, and
+went 'out himself to speak to John.  But you will believe me a
+little amazed, when, in a very few minutes, he returned again,
+accompanied by his colonel!  My surprise brought the colour both
+into my own cheeks and those of my guests.  Mr. Smelt looked
+pleased; and Mr. Turbulent, though I saw he was half afraid of
+what he was doing, could by no means restrain a most exulting
+smile, which was constantly in play during the whole evening.
+
+Mr. Smelt instantly opened a conversation, with an ease and good
+breeding which drew every one into sharing it.  The colonel was
+far less reserved and silent, and I found him very pleasing, very
+unassuming, extremely attentive, and sensible and obliging.  The
+moment, however, that we mutually joined in the discourse, Mr.
+Turbulent came to my side, and seating himself there, whispered
+that he begged my pardon for the step he had taken.  I made him
+no answer, but talked on with the colonel and Mr. Smelt.  He.
+then whispered me again, "I am now certain of your forgiveness,
+since I see your approbation!" And when still
+I said nothing, he interrupted every speech to the colonel with
+another little whisper, saying that his end was obtained, and he
+was now quite happy, since he saw he had obliged me!
+
+At length he proceeded so far, with so positive a determination
+to be answered, that he absolutely compelled me to say I forgave
+him, lest he should go on till the colonel heard him.
+
+
+
+                           ECCENTRIC MR. BRYANT.
+
+Feb. 9-This morning, soon after my breakfast, the princess royal
+came to fetch me to the queen.  She talked of Mrs. Delany all the
+way, and in terms of affection that can never fail to raise her
+in the minds of all who hear her.  The queen was alone; and told
+me she had been so much struck with the Duke of Suffolk's letter
+to his son, in the Paston collection,(231)
+
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+
+that she wished to hear my opinion of it.  She then condescended
+to read it to me.  It is indeed both instructive and interesting.
+She was so gracious, when she dismissed me, as to lend me the
+book, desiring me to have it sent back to her apartment when I
+went to dinner.
+
+I had invited Mr. Bryant to dinner.  He came an hour before, and
+I could not read "Paston," but rejoiced the more in his living
+intelligence.  We talked upon the "Jew's Letters,"
+which he had lent me.  Have    I mentioned them?  They are a
+mighty well written defence        of the Mosaic law and mission,
+and as orthodox for Christians as for Jews, with regard to their
+main tenor, which is to refute the infidel doctrine of Voltaire
+up to the time of our Saviour.
+
+Before our dinner we were joined by 'Mr. Smelt ; and the
+conversation was then very good.  The same subject was continued,
+except where it was interrupted by Mr. Bryant's speaking of his
+own works, which was very frequently, and with a droll sort of
+simplicity that had a mixture of nature and of humour extremely
+amusing.  He told us, very frankly his manner of writing; he
+confessed that what        he first committed to paper seldom
+could be printed without variation or correction, even to a
+single line: he copied everything over, he said, himself, and
+three transcribings were the fewest he could ever make do; but,
+generally, nothing went from him to the press under seven.
+
+Mr. Turbulent and Miss Planta came to dinner, and it was very
+cheerful.  Ere it was over John told me somebody wanted me.  I
+desired they might be shewn to my room till the things were
+removed; but, as these were some time taking away, I called John
+to let me know who it was.  "The princess royal, ma'am," was his
+answer, with perfect ease.
+
+Up I started, ashamed and eager, and flew to her royal highness
+instantly : and I found her calmly and quietly waiting, shut up
+in my room, without any candles, and almost wholly in the dark,
+except from the light of the fire!                  I made all
+possible apologies, and doubled and trebled them upon her
+Smilingly saying "I would not let them tell you who it was, nor
+hurry you, for I know 'tis so disagreeable to be called
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+
+away in the middle of dinner."  And then, to reconcile me to the
+little accident, she took hold of both my hands.
+
+She came to me from the queen, about the "Paston Letters," which
+John had not carried to the right page.
+
+Very soon after came the king, who entered into a gay
+disquisition with Mr. Bryant upon his school achievements to
+which he answered with a readiness and simplicity highly
+entertaining.
+
+"You are an Etonian, Mr. Bryant," said the king, "but pray, for
+what were you most famous at school?"
+
+We all expected, from the celebrity of his scholarship, to hear
+him answer his Latin Exercises but no such thing.
+
+"Cudgelling, Sir.  I was most famous for that."
+
+While a general laugh followed this speech, he very gravely
+proceeded to particularize his feats though unless you could see
+the diminutive figure, the weak, thin, feeble, little frame,
+whence issued the proclamation of his prowess, you can but very
+Inadequately judge the comic effect of his big talk.
+
+"Your majesty, sir, knows General Conway?  I broke his head for
+him, sir."
+
+The shout which ensued did not at all interfere with the
+steadiness of his further detail.
+
+"And there's another man, Sir, a great stout fellow, Sir, as ever
+you saw--Dr. Gibbon, of the Temple: I broke his head too, sir.--I
+don't know if he remembers it."
+
+The king, afterwards, inquired after his present family, meaning
+his dogs, which he is famed for breeding and preserving.
+
+"Why, sir," he answered, "I have now only twelve.  Once, I
+recollect, when your majesty was so gracious as to ask me about
+them, I happened to have twenty-two; and so I told you, sir.
+Upon my word, Sir, it made me very uneasy afterwards when I came
+to reflect upon it: I was afraid your majesty might think I
+presumed to joke!"
+
+The king then asked him for some account of the Marlborough
+family, with which he is very particularly connected and desired
+to know which among the young Lady Spencers was his favourite.
+
+"Upon my word, sir, I like them all! Lady Elizabeth is a charming
+young lady--I believe, Sir, I am most in her favour; I don't know
+why, Sir.  But I happened to write a letter to the duke, sir,
+that she took a fancy to; I don't know the reason, sir, but she
+begged it.  I don't know what was in the letter,
+
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+
+sir-I could never find out; but she took a prodigious fancy to
+it, sir."
+
+The king laughed heartily, and supposed there might be some
+compliments to herself in it.
+
+"Upon my word' sir," cried he, "I am afraid your majesty will
+think I was in love with her! but indeed, sir, I don't know what
+was in the letter."
+
+The converse went on in the same style, and the king was so much
+entertained by Mr. Bryant, that he stayed almost the whole
+evening,
+
+
+                     MR TURBULENT IN A NEW CHARACTER.
+
+Friday, Feb. 16.-The instant I was left alone with Mr. Turbulent
+he demanded to know my "project for his happiness;" and he made
+his claim in a tone so determined, that I saw it would be
+fruitless to attempt evasion or delay.
+
+"Your captivity, then, sir," cried I-"for such I must call your
+regarding your attendance to be indispensable is at an end: the
+equerry-coach is now wholly in your power.  I have spoken myself
+upon the subject to the queen, as you bid--at least, braved me to
+do; and I have now her consent to discharging you from all
+necessity of travelling in our coach."(232)
+
+He looked extremely provoked, and asked if I really meant to
+inform him I did not choose his company?  I laughed the question
+off, and used a world of civil argument to persuade him I had
+only done him a good office: but I was fain to make the whole
+debate as sportive as possible, as I saw him disposed to be
+seriously affronted.
+
+A long debate ensued.  I had been, he protested, excessively
+ill-natured to him.  "What an impression," cried he, "must this
+make upon the queen! After travelling, with apparent content, six
+years With that oyster Mrs. Haggerdorn--now--now that travelling
+is become really agreeable--in that coach --I am to be turned out
+of it! How must it disgrace me in her opinion!"
+
+She was too partial, I said, to "that oyster," to look upon the
+matter in such a degrading light nor would she think of it
+
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+
+at all, but as an accidental matter.  I then added, that the
+reason that he had hitherto been destined to the female coach
+was, that Mrs. Schwellenberg and Mrs. Haggerdorn were always
+afraid of travelling by themselves; but that as I had more
+courage, there was no need of such slavery.
+
+"Slavery!"--repeated he, with an emphasis that almost startled
+me,--"Slavery is pleasure--is happiness--when directed by our
+wishes!"
+
+And then, with a sudden motion that made me quite jump, he cast
+himself at my feet, on both his knees--
+
+"Your slave," he cried, "I am content to be! your slave I am
+ready to live and die!"
+
+I begged him to rise, and be a little less rhapsodic.  "I have
+emancipated you," I cried; "do not, therefore, throw away the
+freedom you have been six years sighing to obtain.  You are now
+your own agent--a volunteer--"
+
+"If I am," cried he, impetuously, "I dedicate myself to you!--A
+volunteer, ma'am, remember that!  I dedicate myself to you,
+therefore, of my own accord, for every journey!  You shall not
+get rid of me these twenty years."
+
+I tried to get myself away-but he would not let me move and he
+began, with still increasing violence of manner, a most fervent
+protestation that he would not be set aside, and that he devoted
+himself to me entirely.  And, to say the simple truth, ridiculous
+as all this was, I really began to grow a little frightened by
+his vehemence and his posture - till, at last, in the midst of an
+almost furious vow, in which he dedicated himself to me for ever,
+he relieved me, by suddenly calling upon Jupiter, Juno, Mars, and
+Hercules, and every god, and every goddess, to witness his oath.
+And then, content with his sublimity, he arose.
+
+Was it not a curious scene? and have I not a curious fellow
+traveller for my little journeys?
+Monday, Feb. 19.-This morning I Proposed to my fellow travellers
+that we should begin our journey on foot.  The wonderment with
+which they heard a proposal so new was diverting : but they all
+agreed to it; and though they declared that my predecessor, Mrs.
+Haggerdorn, would have thought the person fit for Bedlam who
+should have suggested such plan, no one could find any real
+objection, and off we set, ordering the coach to proceed slowly
+after us.
+
+The weather was delightful, and the enterprise served to shorten
+and enliven the expedition, and pleased them all,
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+
+Mr. Turbulent began, almost immediately, an attack about his
+colonel : upon quite a new ground, yet as restless and earnest as
+upon the old one.  He now reproached my attention to him,
+protesting I talked to him continually, and spun out into an
+hour's discourse what might have been said in three minutes.
+
+"And was it my spinning?" I could not forbear saying.
+
+"Yes, ma'am: for you might have dropped it."
+
+"How?--by not answering when spoken to?"
+
+"by not talking to him, ma'am, more than to any one else."
+
+"And pray, Mr. Turbulent, solve me, then, this difficulty; what
+choice has a poor female with whom she may converse? Must she
+not, in company as in dancing, take up with those Who choose to
+take up with her?"
+
+He was staggered by this question, and while he wavered how to
+answer it, I pursued my little advantage--
+
+"No man, Mr. Turbulent, has any cause to be flattered that a
+woman talks with him, while it is only in reply; for though he
+may come, go, address or neglect, and do as he will,-- she, let
+her think and wish what she may, must only follow as he leads."
+
+He protested, with great warmth, he never heard any thing so
+proudly said in Ins life.  But I would not retract.
+
+"And now, ma'am," he continued, "how wondrous intimate you are
+grown!  After such averseness to a meeting--such struggles to
+avoid him; what am I to think of the sincerity of that pretended
+reluctance?"
+
+"You must think the truth," said I, "that it was not the colonel,
+but the equerry, I wished to avoid; that it was not the
+individual, but the official necessity of receiving company, that
+I wished to escape."
+
+
+                           BANTERING A PRINCESS.
+
+March 1.- With all the various humours in which I had already
+seen Mr. Turbulent, he gave me this evening a surprise, by his
+behaviour to one of the princesses, nearly the same that I had
+experienced from him myself.  The Princess Augusta came, during
+coffee, for a knotting shuttle of the queen's.  While she was
+speaking to me, he stood behind and exclaimed, `a demi voix, as
+if to himself, "Comme elle est jolie ce soir, son Altesse
+Royale!" And then, seeing her blush extremely, he clasped his
+hands, in high pretended confusion,
+
+
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+
+and hiding his head, called Out, "Que ferai-je? The princess has
+heard me!"
+
+"Pray, Mr. Turbulent," cried she, hastily, "what play are you to
+read to-night?"
+
+"You shall choose, ma'am; either 'La Coquette corrigée,' or--"
+[he named another I have forgotten.]
+
+"O no!" cried she, "that last is shocking! don't let me hear
+that!"
+
+"I understand you, ma'am.  You fix, then, upon 'La Coquette?'
+'La Coquette' is your royal highness's taste?"
+
+"No, indeed, I am sure I did not say that."
+
+"Yes, ma'am, by implication.  And certainly, therefore, I will
+read it, to please your royal highness!"
+
+"No, pray don't; for I like none of them."
+
+"None of them, ma'am?"
+
+"No, none;--no French plays at all!"  And away she was running,
+with a droll air, that acknowledged she had said something to
+provoke him.
+
+"This is a declaration, ma'am, I must beg you to explain!" cried
+he, gliding adroitly between the princess and the door, and
+shutting it With his back.
+
+"No, no, I can't explain it;--so pray, Mr. Turbulent, do open the
+door."
+
+"Not for the world, ma'am, with such a stain uncleared upon your
+royal highness's taste and feeling!"
+
+She told him she positively could not stay, and begged him to let
+her pass instantly.  But he would hear her no more than he has
+heard me, protesting he was too much shocked for her, to suffer
+her to depart without clearing her own credit!
+
+He conquered at last, and thus forced to speak, she turned round
+to us and said, "Well--if I must, then--I will appeal to these
+ladies, who understand such things far better than I do, and ask
+them if it is not true about these French plays, that they are
+all so like to one another, that to hear them in this manner
+every night is enough to tire one?"
+
+"Pray, then, madam," cried he, "if French plays have the
+misfortune to displease you, what national plays have the honour
+Of your preference?"
+
+I saw he meant something that she understood better than me, for
+she blushed again, and called out "Pray open the door at once!  I
+can stay no longer; do let me go, Mr. Turbulent!"
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+
+"Not till you have answered that question, ma'am' what country
+has plays to your royal highness's taste?"
+
+"Miss Burney," cried she impatiently, yet laughing, "pray do you
+take him away!--Pull him!"
+
+He bowed to me very invitingly for the office but I frankly
+answered her, "Indeed, ma'am, I dare not undertake him!  I cannot
+manage him at all."
+
+"The country! the country! Princess Augusta! name the happy
+country!"  was all she could gain.
+
+"Order him away, Miss Burney," cried she.  "It is your room:
+order him away from the door."
+
+"Name it, ma'am, name it!" exclaimed he; "name but the chosen
+nation!"
+
+And then, fixing her with the most provoking eyes, "Est-ce la
+Danemarc?" he cried.
+
+She coloured violently, and quite angry with him, called out,
+"Mr. Turbulent, how can you be such a fool!"  And now I found . .
+. the prince royal of Denmark was in his meaning, and in her
+understanding!
+
+He bowed to the ground, in gratitude for the term "fool," but
+added with pretended Submission to her will, "Very well, ma'am,
+s'il ne faut lire que les comédies Danoises."
+
+" Do let me go!" cried she, seriously; and then he made way, with
+a profound bow as she passed, saying, "Very well, ma'am, 'La
+Coquette,' then? your royal highness chooses 'La Coquette
+corrigée?'"
+
+"Corrigée? That never was done!" cried she, with all her sweet
+good-humour, the moment she got out - and off she ran, like
+lightning, to the queen's apartments.
+
+What say you to Mr. Turbulent now?
+
+For my part, I was greatly surprised.  I had not imagined any
+man, but the king or Prince of Wales, had ever ventured at a
+badinage of this sort with any of the princesses; nor do I
+suppose any other man ever did.  Mr. Turbulent is so great a
+favourite with all the royal family that he safely ventures upon
+whatever he pleases, and doubtless they find, in his courage and
+his rhodomontading, a novelty extremely amusing to them.
+
+
+                    MR. TURBULENT MEETS WITH A REBUFF.
+
+March--I must now, rather reluctantly I own, come to recite a
+quarrel, a very serious quarrel, in which I have been involved
+with my most extraordinary fellow-traveller.  One evening at
+Windsor Miss Planta left the room, while I was
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+winding some silk.  I was content to stay and finish the skein,
+though my remaining companion was in a humour too flighty to
+induce me to continue with him a moment longer.  Indeed I had
+avoided pretty successfully all tête-à-têetes with him since the
+time when his eccentric genius led to such eccentric conduct in
+our long conference in the last month.
+
+This time, however, when I had done my work, he protested I
+should stay and chat with him.  I pleaded business--letters--
+hurry--all in vain: he would listen to nothing, and when I tried
+to move was so tumultuous in his opposition, that I was obliged
+to re-seat myself to appease him.
+
+A flow of compliments followed, every one of which I liked less
+and less; but his spirits seemed uncontrollable, and, I suppose,
+ran away with all that ought to check them.  I laughed and
+rallied as long as I possibly could, and tried to keep him in
+order, by not seeming to suppose he wanted aid for that purpose:
+yet still, every time I tried to rise, he stopped me, and uttered
+at last Such expressions of homage--so like what Shakspeare says
+of the school-boy, who makes "a sonnet on his mistress' eyebrow,"
+which is always his favourite theme--that I told him his real
+compliment was all to my temper, in imagining it could brook such
+mockery.
+
+This brought him once more on his knees, with such a volley of
+asseverations of his sincerity, uttered with such fervour and
+eloquence, that I really felt uneasy, and used every possible
+means to get away from him, rallying him however all the time,
+and disguising the consciousness I felt of my inability to quit
+him.  More and more vehement, however, he grew, till I could be
+no longer passive, but forcibly rising, protested I would not
+stay another minute.  But you may easily imagine my astonishment
+and provocation, when, hastily rising himself, he violently
+seized hold of me, and compelled me to return to my chair, with a
+force and a freedom that gave me as much surprise as offence.
+
+All now became serious.  Raillery, good-humour, and even
+pretended ease and unconcern, were at an end.  The positive
+displeasure I felt I made positively known; and the voice
+manner, and looks with which I insisted upon an immediate'
+release were so changed from what he had ever heard or observed
+in me before, that I saw him quite thunderstruck with the
+alteration; and all his own violence subsiding, he begged my
+pardon with the mildest humility.
+
+He had made me too angry to grant it, and I only desired
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+him to let me instantly go to my room.  He ceased all personal
+opposition, but going to the door, planted himself before it, and
+said, "Not in wrath! I cannot let you go away in wrath!"
+
+"You must, sir," cried I, "for I am in wrath!"
+He began a thousand apologies, and as many promises of the most
+submissive behaviour in future; but I stopped them all, with a
+peremptory declaration that every minute he detained me made me
+but the more seriously angry.  His vehemence now was all changed
+into strong alarm, and he opened the door, profoundly bowing, but
+not speaking, as I passed him.
+
+I am sure I need not dwell upon the uncomfortable sensations I
+felt, in a check so rude and violent to the gaiety and
+entertainment of an acquaintance which had promised me my best
+amusement during our winter campaigns.  I was now to begin upon
+quite a new system, and instead of encouraging, as hitherto I had
+done, everything that could lead to vivacity and spirit, I was
+fain to determine upon the most distant and even forbidding
+demeanour with the only life of our parties, that he might not
+again forget himself.
+
+This disagreeable conduct I put into immediate practice.  I
+stayed in my own room till I heard every one assembled in the
+next : I was then obliged to prepare for joining them, but before
+I opened the door a gentle rap at it made me call out "Who's
+there?" and Mr. Turbulent looked in.
+
+I hastily said I was coming instantly, but he advanced softly
+into the room, entreating forgiveness at every step.  I made no
+other answer than desiring he would go, and saying I should
+follow.  He went back to the door, and, dropping on one knee,
+said, "Miss Burney! surely you cannot be seriously angry?-'tis so
+impossible you should think I meant to offend you!"
+
+I said nothing, and did not look near him, but opened the door,
+from which he retreated to make way for me, rising a little
+mortified, and exclaiming, "Can you then have such real
+ill-nature? How little I suspected it in you!"
+
+"'Tis you," cried I, as I passed on, "that are ill-natured!"
+
+I meant for forcing me into anger; but I left him to make the
+meaning out, and walked into the next room.  He did not
+immediately follow, and he then appeared so much disconcerted
+that I saw Miss Planta incessantly eyeing him, to find out what
+was the matter.  I assumed an unconcern I did not
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+feel for I was really both provoked and sorry, foreseeing what a
+breach this folly must make in the comfort of my Windsor
+expeditions,
+
+He sat down a little aloof, and entered into no
+                                   conversation all the evening;
+but just as tea was over, the hunt of    the next being mentioned
+ he suddenly, asked Miss Planta to request leave for him of the
+queen to ride out with the party.
+
+"I shall not see the queen," cried she; "you had much better ask
+Miss Burney."
+
+This was very awkward.  I was in no humour to act for him at this
+time, nor could he muster courage to desire it; but upon Miss
+Planta's looking at each of us with some surprise, and repeating
+her amendment to his proposal, he faintly said, "Would Miss
+Burney be so good as to take that trouble?"
+
+An opportunity offering favourably, I spoke at night to the
+queen, and she gave leave for his attending the chase.        I
+intended to send this permission to Miss Planta, but I had scarce
+returned to my own room from her majesty, before a rap at my door
+was followed by his appearance.           He stood quite aloof,
+looking grave and contrite.      I Immediately called out "I have
+spoken, sir, to the queen, and you have her leave to go."
+He bowed very profoundly, and thanked me, and was retreating, but
+came back again, and advancing, assumed an air of less humility,
+and exclaimed, "Allons donc, Mademoiselle, j'espère que vous
+n'êtes plus si méchante qu'hier au soir!"
+
+I said nothing; he came nearer, and, bowing upon his own hand,
+held it out for mine, with a look of most respectful
+Supplication. I had no intention of cutting the matter so short,
+yet from shame to sustain resentment, I was compelled to hold out
+a finger: he took it with a look of great gratitude, and very
+reverently touching the tip of my glove with his lip, instantly
+let it go, and very solemnly said, "Soyez sûr que  je n'ai
+jamais eu la moindre idée de vous offenser." and then he thanked
+me again for his licence, and went his way.
+
+
+                          A SURPRISE AT THE PLAY.
+
+I had the pleasure of two or three visits from Mr. Bryant, whose
+loyal regard for the king and queen makes him eagerly accept
+every invitation, from the hope of seeing them in my room; and
+one of the days they both came in to speak to him, and were
+accompanied by the two eldest princesses, who stood
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+chatting with me by the door the whole time, and saying comical
+things upon royal personages in tragedies, particularly Princess
+Augusta, who has a great deal of sport in her disposition.  She
+very gravely asserted she thought some of those princes on the
+stage looked really quite as well as some she knew off it.
+
+Once about this time I went to a play myself, which surely I may
+live long enough and never forget.  It was "Seduction," a very
+clever piece, but containing a dreadful picture of vice and
+dissipation in high life, written by Mr. Miles Andrews, with an
+epilogue--O, such an epilogue! I was listening to it with
+uncommon attention, from a compliment paid in it to Mrs. Montagu,
+among other female writers; but imagine what became of my
+attention when I suddenly was struck with these lines, or
+something like them:--
+
+Let sweet Cecilia gain your just applause, Whose every passion
+yields to Reason's laws."
+
+To hear, wholly unprepared and unsuspicious, such lines in a
+theatre--seated in a royal box--and with the whole royal family
+and their suite immediately opposite me--was it not a singular
+circumstance?  To describe my embarrassment would be impossible.
+My whole head was leaning forward, with my opera glass in my
+hand, examining Miss Farren, who spoke the epilogue.  Instantly I
+shrank back, so astonished and so ashamed of my public situation,
+that I was almost ready to take to my heels and run, for it
+seemed as if I were there purposely in that conspicuous place--
+
+"To list attentive to my own applause."
+
+The king immediately raised his opera-glass to look at me,
+laughing heartily--the queen's presently took the same
+direction--all the princesses looked up, and all the attendants,
+and all the maids of honour!
+
+I protest I was never more at a loss what to do with myself:
+nobody was in the front row with me but Miss Goldsworthy, who
+instantly seeing how I was disconcerted, prudently and
+good-naturedly forbore taking any notice of me.  I sat as far
+back as I could, and kept my fan against the exposed profile for
+the rest of the night, never once leaning forward, nor using my
+glass.
+
+None of the royal family spoke to me on this matter till a few
+days after; but I heard from Mrs. Delany they had all declared
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+
+themselves sorry for the confusion it had caused me.  And some
+time after the queen could not forbear saying, "I hope, Miss
+Burney, YOU minded the epilogue the other night?"
+
+And the king, very comically, said, "I took a peep at you!--I
+could not help that.  I wanted to see how you looked when your
+father first discovered your writing--and now I think I know!"
+
+
+                           THE KING's BIRTHDAY.
+
+St. James's Palace, June 4-Take a little of the humours of this
+day, with respect to myself, as they have arisen.  I quitted my
+downy pillow at half-past six o'clock, for bad habits in sickness
+have lost me half an hour of every morning; and then, according
+to an etiquette I discovered but on Friday night, I was quite new
+dressed: for I find that, on the king's birthday, and on the
+queen's, both real and nominal, two new attires, one half, the
+other full dressed, are expected from all attendants that come
+into the royal presence.
+
+This first labour was happily achieved in such good time, that I
+was just seated to my breakfast--a delicate bit of roll
+half-eaten, and a promising dish of tea well stirred--when I
+received my summons to attend the queen.
+
+She was only with her wardrobe-woman, and accepted most
+graciously a little murmuring congratulation upon the- day, which
+I ventured to whisper while she looked another way.  Fortunately
+for me, she is always quick in conceiving what is meant, and
+never wastes time in demanding what is said.  She told me she had
+bespoke Miss Planta to attend at the grand toilette at St.
+James's, as she saw my strength still diminished by my late
+illness.  Indeed it still is, though in all other respects I am
+perfectly well.
+
+The queen wore a very beautiful dress, of a new manufacture, of
+worked muslin, thin, fine, and clear, as the chambery gauze.  I
+attended her from the blue closet, in which she dresses, through
+the rooms that lead to the breakfast apartment.  In One of these
+while she stopped for her hair-dresser to finish her head-dress,
+the king joined her.  She spoke to him in German, and he kissed
+her hand.
+
+The three elder princesses came in soon after: they all went up,
+with congratulatory smiles and curtsies, to their royal father,
+who kissed them very affectionately; they then, as usual every
+Morning, kissed the queen's hand.  The door was thrown open
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+to the breakfast-room, which is a noble apartment, fitted up with
+some of Vandyke's best works; and the instant the king, who led
+the way, entered, I was surprised by a sudden sound of music, and
+found that a band of musicians were stationed there to welcome
+him.  The princesses followed, but Princess Elizabeth turned
+round to me to say she could hardly bear the sound: it was the
+first morning of her coming down to breakfast for many months, as
+she had had that repast in her own room ever since her dangerous
+illness.  It overcame her, she said, more than the dressing, more
+than the early rising, more than the whole of the hurry and
+fatigue of all the rest of a public birthday.  She loves the king
+most tenderly; and there is a something in receiving any person
+who is loved, by sudden music, that I can easily conceive to be
+very trying to the nerves.
+
+Princess Augusta came back to cheer and counsel her; she begged
+her to look out at the window, to divert her thoughts, and said
+she would place her where the sound might be less affecting to
+her.
+
+A lively "How d'ye do, Miss Burney? I hope you are quite well
+now?" from the sweet Princess Mary, who was entering the
+ante-room, made me turn from her two charming sisters; she passed
+on to the breakfast, soon followed by Princess Sophia, and then a
+train of their governesses, Miss Goldsworthy, Mademoiselle
+Montmoulin, and Miss Gomme, all in full dress, with fans.  We
+reciprocated little civilities, and I had then the pleasure to
+see little Princess Amelia, with Mrs. Cheveley, who brought up
+the rear.  Never, in tale or fable, were there six sister
+princesses more lovely.
+
+As I had been extremely distressed upon the queen's birthday, in
+January, where to go or how to act, and could obtain no
+information from my coadjutrix, I now resolved to ask for
+directions from the queen herself; and she readily gave them, in
+a manner to make this day far more comfortable to me than the
+last.  She bade me dress as fast as I could, and go to St.
+James', by eleven o'clock; but first come into the room to her.
+Then followed my grand toilette.  The hair-dresser was waiting
+for me, and he went to work first, and I second, with all our
+might and main.  When my adorning tasks were accomplished, I went
+to the blue closet.  No one was there, I then hesitated whether
+to go back or seek the queen.  I have a dislike insuperable to
+entering a royal presence, except by an
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+
+immediate Summons: however, the directions I had had prevailed,
+and I- went into the adjoining apartment.  There stood Madame de
+la Fite! she was talking in a low voice with M. de Luc.  They
+told me the queen was in the next room, and on I went.
+
+She was seated at a glass, and the hair-dresser was putting on
+her jewels, while a clergyman in his canonicals was standing
+near and talking to her.  I imagined him some bishop unknown to
+me, and stopped; the queen looked round, and called out "it's
+Miss Burney!--come in, Miss Burney." in I came, curtseying
+respectfully to a bow from the canonicals, but I found not out
+till he answered something said by the queen, that it was no
+other than Mr. Turbulent.
+
+Madame de la Fite then presented herself at the door (which was
+open for air) of the ante-room.  The queen bowed to her, and said
+she would see her presently: she retired, and her majesty, in a
+significant low voice, said to me, "Do go to her, and keep her
+there a little!"  I obeyed, and being now in no fright nor hurry,
+entered into conversation with her sociably and comfortably.
+
+I then went to St. James's.  The queen was most brilliant in
+attire; and when she was arrayed, Mr. West(233) was allowed to
+enter the dressing-room, in order to give his opinion of the
+disposition -of her jewels, which indeed were arranged with great
+taste and effect.
+
+The three princesses, Princess Royal, Augusta, and Elizabeth,
+were all very splendidly decorated, and looked beautiful.  They
+are indeed uncommonly handsome, each in their different Way-the
+princess royal for figure, the Princess Augusta for countenance,
+and the Princess Elizabeth for face.
+
+
+                      THE EQUERRIES: COLONEL MANNERS.
+
+
+Friday, June 8-This day we came to Windsor for the Summer, during
+which we only go to town for a Drawing-room once a fortnight, and
+to Kew in the way.  Mrs. Schwellenberg remained in town, not well
+enough to move.
+
+The house now was quite full, the king having ordered a party to
+it for the Whitsun holidays.  This party was Colonel
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+Manners, the equerry in waiting; Colonel Ramsden, a good-humoured
+and well-bred old officer of the king's household; Colonels
+Wellbred and Goldsworthy, and General Budé.
+
+Colonel Ramsden is gentle and pleasing, but very silent; General
+Budé is always cheerful, but rises not above a second; Colonel
+Hotham has a shyness that looks haughty, and therefore distances;
+Colonel Goldsworthy reserves his sport and humour for particular
+days and particular favourites; and Colonel Wellbred draws back
+into himself unless the conversation promises either instruction
+or quiet pleasure; nor would any one of these, during the whole
+time, speak at all, but to a next neighbour, nor even then,
+except when that neighbour suited his fancy.
+
+You must not, however, imagine we had no public speakers; M. del
+Campo harangued aloud to whoever was willing to listen, and
+Colonel Manners did the same, without even waiting for that
+proviso.  Colonel Manners, however, I must introduce to you by a
+few specimens: he is so often, in common with all the equerries,
+to appear on the scene, that I wish you to make a particular
+acquaintance with him.
+
+One evening, when we were all, as usual, assembled, he began a
+discourse upon the conclusion of his waiting, which finishes with
+the end of June:--"Now I don't think," cried he, "that it's well
+managed: here we're all in waiting for three months at a time,
+and then for nine months there's nothing!"
+
+"Cry your mercy!" cried Colonel Goldsworthy, "if three months-
+-three whole months--are not enough for you, pray take a few more
+from mine to make up your market!"
+
+"No, no, I don't mean that;--but why can't we have our waitings
+month by month?--would not that be better?"
+
+"I think not!--we should then have no time unbroken."
+
+"Well, but would not that be better than what it is now?  Why,
+we're here so long, that when one goes away nobody knows one!--
+one has quite to make a new acquaintance!  Why, when I first come
+out of waiting, I never know where to find anybody!"
+
+The Ascot races were held at this time; the royal family were to
+be at them one or two of the days.  Colonel Manners earnestly
+pressed Miss Port to be there.  Colonel Goldsworthy said it was
+quite immaterial to him who was there, for when he was attending
+royalty he never presumed to think of any private comfort.
+
+"Well, I don't see that!" cried Colonel Manners,--"for if
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+I was you, and not in my turn for waiting, I should go about just
+as I liked;--but now, as for me, as it happens to be my own turn,
+Why I think it right to be civil to the king."
+
+We all looked round;--but Colonel Goldsworthy broke forth aloud--
+"Civil, quotha?" cried he; "Ha! ha! civil, forsooth!--You're
+mighty condescending!--the first equerry I ever heard talk of his
+civility to the king!--'Duty,' and 'respect,' and 'humble
+reverence,'--those are words we are used to,--but here come you
+with Your civility!----Commend me to such affability!"
+
+ you see he is not spared; but Colonel Goldsworthy is the wag
+professed of their community, and privileged to say what he
+pleases.  The other, with the most perfect good-humour, accepted
+the joke, without dreaming of taking offence at the sarcasm.
+
+Another evening the king sent for Colonel Ramsden to play at
+backgammon.
+
+"Happy, happy man!" exclaimed Colonel Goldsworthy, exultingly;
+but scarce had he uttered the words ere he was summoned to follow
+himself.  "What! already!" cried he,--"without even my tea!  Why
+this is worse and worse!--no peace in Israel!--only one half hour
+allowed for comfort, and now that's swallowed!  Well, I must
+go;--make my complaints aside, and my bows and smiles in full
+face!"
+
+Off he went, but presently, in a great rage, came back, and,
+while he drank a hot dish of tea which I instantly presented him,
+kept railing at his stars for ever bringing him under a royal
+roof.  "If it had not been for a puppy," cried he, "I had never
+got off even to scald my throat in this manner But they've just
+got a dear little new ugly dog: so one puppy gave Way to t'other,
+and I just left them to kiss and hug it, while I stole off to
+drink this tea!  But this is too much!---no peace for a moment!--
+no peace in Israel!"
+
+When this was passed, Colonel Wellbred renewed some of the
+conversation of the preceding day with me; and, just as he named
+Dr. Herschel Colonel Manners broke forth with his dissenting
+opinions.  "I don't give up to Dr. Herschel at all," cried he;
+"he is all system; and so they are all: and if they can but make
+out their systems, they don't care a pin for anything else.  As
+to Herschel, I liked him well enough till he came to his
+volcanoes in the moon, and then I gave him up, I saw he was just
+like the rest.  How should he know anything Of the matter?
+There's no such thing as pretending to measure, at such a
+distance as that?"
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+Colonel Wellbred, to whom I looked for an answer, instead of
+making any, waited in quiet silence till he had exhausted all he
+had to say upon the subject, and then, turning to me, made some
+inquiry about the Terrace, and went on to other general matters.
+But, some time after, when all were engaged, and this topic
+seemed quite passed, he calmly began, in general terms, to lament
+that the wisest and best of people were always so little honoured
+or understood in their own time, and added that he had no doubt
+but Sir Isaac Newton had been as much scoffed and laughed at
+formerly as Herschel was now; but concluded, in return,
+Herschel, hereafter, would be as highly reverenced as Sir Isaac
+was at present. . . .
+
+We had then some discourse upon dress and fashions.  Virtuosos
+being next named, Colonel Manners inveighed against them quite
+violently, protesting they all wanted common honour and honesty;
+and to complete the happy subject, he instanced, in particular,
+Sir William Hamilton, who, he declared, had absolutely robbed
+both the king and state of Naples!
+
+After this, somebody related that, upon the heat in the air being
+mentioned to Dr.   Heberden, he had answered that he supposed it
+proceeded from the last eruption in the volcano in the moon:
+"Ay," cried Colonel Manners, "I suppose he knows as much of the
+matter as the rest of them: if you put a candle at the end of a
+telescope, and let him look at it, he'll say, what an eruption
+there is in the moon! I mean if Dr, Herschel would do it to him;
+I don't say he would think so from such a person as me."
+
+"But Mr. Bryant himself has seen this volcano from the
+telescope."
+
+"Why, I don't mind Mr. Bryant any more than Dr. Heberden: he's
+just as credulous as t'other."
+
+I wanted to ask by what criterion he settled these points in so
+superior a manner:--but I thought it best to imitate the silence
+of Colonel Wellbred, who constantly called a new subject, upon
+every pause, to avoid all argument and discussion while the
+good-humoured Colonel Manners was just as ready to start forward
+in the new subject, as he had been in that which had been set
+aside.
+
+One other evening I invited Madame de la Fite: but it did not
+prove the same thing; they have all a really most undue dislike
+of her, and shirk her conversation and fly to one another, to
+discourse on hunting and horses.
+
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+
+                    THE DUCHESS DE POLIGNAC AT WINDSOR.
+
+The following Sunday, June 17, I was tempted to go on the
+Terrace, in order to se the celebrated Madame de Polignac,(234)
+and her daughter, Madame de Guiche.  They were to be presented,
+with the Duke de Polignac, to their majesties, upon the Terrace.
+Their rank entitled them to this distinction; and the Duchess of
+Ancaster, to whom they had been extremely courteous abroad, came
+to Windsor to introduce them.  They were accompanied to the
+Terrace by Mrs. Harcourt and the general 'with whom they were
+also well acquainted.
+
+They went to the place of rendezvous at six o'clock; the royal
+party followed about seven, and was very brilliant upon the
+occasion.  The king and queen led the way, and the Prince of
+Wales, who came purposely to honour the interview, appeared at it
+also, in the king's Windsor uniform.  Lady Weymouth was in
+waiting upon the queen.  The Duchess of Ancaster, Lady Charlotte
+Bertie, and Lady Elizabeth Waldegrave, with some other ladies, I
+think, attended: but the two eldest princesses, to the very great
+detriment of the scenery, were ill, and remained at home.
+Princess Elizabeth and Mary were alone in the queen's suite.
+
+I went with Miss Port and Mrs.  and Miss Heberden.  The crowd was
+so great, it was difficult to move.  Their majesties and their
+train occupied a large space, and their attendants
+
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+
+had no easy task in keeping them from being incommoded by the
+pressing of the people.  They stopped to converse with these
+noble travellers for more than an hour.  Madame la Duchesse de
+Polignac is a very well-looking woman, and Madame de Guiche is
+very pretty.  There were other ladies and gentlemen in their
+party.  But I was much amused by their dress, which they meant
+should be entirely `a l'Angloise--for which purpose they had put
+on plain undress gowns, with close ordinary black silk bonnets! I
+am sure they must have been quite confused when they saw the
+queen and princesses, with their ladies, who were all dressed
+with uncommon care, and very splendidly.
+
+But I was glad, at least, they should all witness, and report,
+the reconciliation of the king and the Prince of Wales, who
+frequently spoke together, and were both in good spirits.
+
+
+COLONEL MANNERS' MUSICAL ACCOMPLISHMENTS.
+
+Miss Port and myself had, afterwards, an extremely risible
+evening with Colonels Goldsworthy, Wellbred, and Manners the rest
+were summoned away to the king, or retired to their own
+apartments.  Colonel Wellbred began the sport, undesignedly, by
+telling me something new relative to Dr. Herschel's volcanoes.
+This was enough for Colonel Manners, who declared aloud his utter
+contempt for such pretended discoveries.  He was deaf to all that
+could be said in answer, and protested he wondered how any man of
+common sense could ever listen to such a pack of stuff.
+
+Mr. de Luc's opinion upon the subject being then mentioned--he
+exclaimed, very disdainfully, "O, as to Mr. de Luc, he's another
+man for a system himself, and I'd no more trust him than anybody:
+if you was only to make a little bonfire, and put it upon a hill
+a little way off, you might make him take it for a volcano
+directly!--And Herschel's not a bit better.  Those sort of
+philosophers are the easiest taken in in the world."
+Our next topic was still more ludicrous.  Colonel Manners asked
+me if I had not heard something, very harmonious at church in the
+morning?  I answered I was too far off, if he meant from himself.
+
+"Yes," said he; "I was singing with Colonel Wellbred; and he said
+he was my second.--How did I do that song?"
+
+"Song?--Mercy!" exclaimed Colonel Goldsworthy, "a song at
+church!--why it was the 104th Psalm!"
+
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+
+"But how did I do it, Wellbred; for I never tried at it before?"
+
+"why--pretty well," answered Colonel Wellbred, very composedly;
+"Only now and then you run me a little into 'God save the king.'"
+
+This dryness discomposed every muscle but of Colonel Manners, who
+replied, with great simplicity, "Why, that's because that's the
+tune I know best!"
+
+"At least," cried I, "'twas a happy mistake to make so near their
+majesties."
+
+"But: pray, now, Colonel Wellbred, tell me sincerely)--could you
+really make out what I was singing?"
+
+"O yes," answered Colonel Wellbred; "with the words."
+
+"Well, but pray, now, what do you call my voice?"
+
+"Why--a--a--a counter-tenor."
+
+"Well, and is that a good voice?"
+
+There was no resisting,-even the quiet Colonel Wellbred could not
+resist laughing out here.  But Colonel Manners, quite at his
+ease, continued his self-discussion.
+
+"I do think, now, if I was to have a person to play over a thing
+to me again and again, and then let me sing it, and stop me every
+time I was wrong, I do think I should be able to sing 'God save
+the king' as well as some ladies do, that have always people to
+show them."
+
+"You have a good chance then here," cried I, "of singing some
+pieces of Handel, for I am sure you hear them again and again!"
+
+"Yes, but that is not the thing for though I hear them do it' so
+often over, they don't stop for me to sing it after them, and
+then to set me right.  Now I'll try if you'll know what this is."
+
+He then began humming aloud, "My soul praise," etc., so very
+horribly, that I really found all decorum at an end, and laughed,
+with Miss Port, `a qui mieux mieux.  Too much engaged to mind
+this, he very innocently, when he had done, applied to us all
+round for our opinions.
+
+Miss Port begged him to sing another, and asked for that he had
+spouted the other day, "Care, thou bane of love and joy."
+
+He instantly complied; and went on, in such shocking, discordant
+and unmeaning sounds, that nothing in a farce could be more
+risible: in defiance however of all interruptions, he Continued
+till he had finished one stanza; when Colonel Goldsworthy loudly
+called out,--"There,--there's enough!--have mercy!"
+
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+
+"Well, then, now I'll try something else."
+
+"O, no!" cried Colonel Goldsworthy, hastily, "thank you, thank
+you for this,-but I won't trouble you for more--I'll not bear
+another word."
+
+Colonel Wellbred then, with an affected seriousness, begged to
+know, since he took to singing, what he should do for a shake,
+which was absolutely indispensable.
+
+"A shake?" he repeated, "what do you mean?"
+
+"Why--a shake with the voice, such as singers make."
+
+"Why, how must I do it?"
+
+"O, really, I cannot tell you."
+
+"Why, then, I'll try myself--is it so?"
+
+And he began such a harsh hoarse noise, that Colonel Goldsworthy
+exclaimed, between every other sound,--"No, no,--no more!"  While
+Colonel Wellbred professed teaching him, and gave such ridiculous
+lessons and directions,-now to stop short, now to swell,-now to
+sink the voice, etc., etc., that, between the master and the
+scholar, we were almost demolished.
+
+
+                 MRS. SCHWELLENBERG'S "LUMP OF LEATHER."
+
+Tuesday, June 19.-We were scarcely all arranged at tea when
+Colonel Manners eagerly said, "Pray, Mrs. Schwellenberg, have you
+lost anything?"
+
+"Me?--no, not I
+
+"No?--what, nothing?"
+
+"Not I!"
+
+"Well, then, that's very odd! for I found something that had your
+name writ upon it."
+
+"My name? and where did you find that?"
+
+"Why--it was something I found in my bed."
+
+"In your bed?--O, very well! that is reelly comeecal?"
+
+"And pray what was it?" cried Miss Port.
+
+"Why--a great large, clumsy lump of leather."
+
+
+"Of leadder, sir?--of leadder? What was that for me?"
+
+"Why, ma'am, it was so big and so heavy, it was as much as I
+could do to lift it!"
+
+"Well, that was nothing from me! when it was so heavy, you might
+let it alone!"
+
+"But, ma'am, Colonel Wellbred said it was somewhat of yours."
+
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+
+"Of mine?--O, ver well! Colonel Wellbred might not say such
+thing!  I know nothing, Sir, from your leadder, nor from your
+bed, sir,--not I!"
+
+"Well, ma'am, then your maid does.  Colonel Wellbred says he
+supposes it was she."
+
+"Upon my vord! Colonel Wellbred might not say such things from my
+maid!  I won't not have it so!"
+
+"O yes, ma'am; Colonel Wellbred says she often does SO.  He says
+she's a very gay lady."
+
+She was quite too much amazed to speak: one of her maids, Mrs.
+Arline, is a poor humble thing, that would not venture to jest, I
+believe, with the kitchen maid, and the other has never before
+been at Windsor.
+
+"But what was it?" cried Miss Port.
+
+"Why, I tell you--a great, large lump of leather, with 'Madame
+Schwellenberg' wrote upon it.  However, I've ordered it to be
+sold."
+
+"To be sold? How will you have it sold, Sir? You might tell me
+that, when you please."
+
+"Why, by auction, ma'am."
+
+"By auction, Sir? What, when it had my name upon it? Upon my
+vord!--how come you to do dat, sir? Will you tell me, once?"
+
+"Why, I did it for the benefit of my man, ma'am, that he might
+have the money."
+
+"But for what is your man to have it, when it is mine?"
+
+"Because, ma'am, it frightened him so."
+
+"O, ver well! Do you rob, sir?  Do you take what is not your own,
+but others', sir, because your man is frightened?"
+
+"O yes, ma'am! We military men take all we can get!"
+
+"What! in the king's house, Sir!"
+
+"Why then, ma'am, what business had it in my bed? My room's my
+castle: nobody has a right there.  My bed must be my treasury;
+and here they put me a thing into it big enough to be a bed
+itself."----
+
+"O! vell! (much alarmed) it might be my bed-case, then!"
+(Whenever Mrs. Schwellenberg travels, she carries her bed in a
+large black leather case, behind her servants' carriage.)
+
+" Very likely, ma'am."
+
+"Then, sir," very angrily, "how Come you by it?"
+
+"Why, I'll tell you, ma'am.  I was just going to bed; so MY
+servant took one candle, and I had the other.  I had just had my
+hair done, and my curls were just rolled up, and he
+
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+
+was going away; but I turned about, by accident, and I saw a
+great lump in my bed; so I thought it was my clothes.
+'What do you put them there for?' says I.  'Sir,' says he, 'it
+looks as if there was a drunken man in the bed.'  'A drunken
+man?' says I; 'Take the poker, then, and knock him on the head!'"
+
+"Knock him on the head?" interrupted Mrs. Schwellenberg, "What!
+when it might be some innocent person?  Fie! Colonel Manners.  I
+thought you had been too good-natured for such thing--to poker
+the people in the king's house!"
+
+"Then what business have they to get into my bed, ma'am?  So then
+my man looked nearer, and he said, 'Sir, why, here's your
+night-cap and here's the pillow!--and here's a great, large lump
+of leather!'  'Shovel it all out!' says I.  'Sir,' says he, 'It's
+Madame Schwellenberg's!  here's her name on it.'  'Well, then,'
+says I, 'sell it, to-morrow, to the saddler.'"
+
+"What! when you knew it was mine, sir? Upon my vord, you been ver
+good!" (bowing very low).
+"Well, ma'am, it's all Colonel Wellbred, I dare say; so, suppose
+you and I were to take the law of him?"
+
+"Not I, sir!" (Scornfully).
+
+"Well, but let's write him a letter, then, and frighten him:
+let's tell him it's sold, and he must make it good.  You and I'll
+do it together."
+
+"No, sir; you might do it yourself.  I am not so familiar to
+write to gentlemens."
+
+"Why then, you shall only sign it, and I'll frank it."
+
+Here the entrance of some new person stopped the discussion.
+
+Happy in his success, he began, the next day, a new device: he
+made an attack in politics, and said, he did not doubt but Mr.
+Hastings would come to be hanged; though, he assured us,
+afterwards, he was firmly his friend, and believed no such
+thing.(236)
+
+Even with this not satisfied, he next told her that he had just
+heard Mr. Burke was in Windsor.  Mr. Burke is the name
+
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+
+in the world most obnoxious, both for his Reform bill,(237) which
+deeply affected all the household, and for his prosecution of Mr.
+Hastings; she therefore declaimed against him very warmly.
+
+"Should you like to know him, ma'am?" cried he.
+"Me?--No; not I."
+
+"Because, I dare say, ma'am, I have interest enough with him to
+procure you his acquaintance.  Shall I bring him to the Lodge to
+see you?"
+
+"When you please, sir, you might keep him to yourself!"
+
+Well, then, he shall come and dine with me,'and after it drink
+tea with you."
+
+"No, no, not I! You might have him all to yourself."
+
+"but if he comes, you must make his tea."
+
+"There is no such 'must,' sir!  I do it for my pleasure--only
+when I please, sir!"
+
+At night, when we were separating, he whispered Miss Port that he
+had something else in store for the next meeting, when he
+intended to introduce magnetising.
+
+
+
+                        MRS. SCHWELLENBERG's FROGS.
+
+July 2.-What a stare was drawn from our new equerry(238) by Major
+Price's gravely asking Mrs. Schwellenberg, after the health of
+her frogs?  She answered they were very well, and the major said,
+" You must know, Colonel Gwynn, Mrs. Schwellenberg keeps a pair
+of frogs,"
+
+"Of frogs?--pray what do they feed upon?"
+
+"Flies, sir," she answered.
+
+"And pray, ma'am, what food have they in winter?"
+
+"Nothing other."
+
+The stare was now still wider.
+
+"But I can make them croak when I will," she added, "when I only
+go so to my snuff-box, knock, knock, knock, they croak all what I
+please."
+
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+
+"Very pretty, indeed!" exclaimed Colonel Goldsworthy.
+
+"I thought to have some spawn," she continued; "but then Maria
+Carlton, what you call Lady Doncaster, came and frightened them;
+I was never so angry!"
+
+"I am sorry for that," cried the major, very seriously, "for else
+I should have begged a pair."
+
+"So you meant, ma'am, to have had a breed of them," cried Colonel
+Goldsworthy; "a breed of young frogs? Vastly clever, indeed!;
+
+Then followed a formal enumeration of their virtues and endearing
+little qualities, which made all laugh except the new equerry,
+who sat in perfect amaze.
+
+Then, suddenly, she stopped short, and called out, "There! now I
+have told you all this, you might tell something to me.  I have
+talked enoff; now you might amuse me."
+
+July 19.-In the afternoon, while I was working in Mrs.
+Schwellenberg's room, Mr. Turbulent entered, to summon Miss
+Planta to the princesses; and, in the little while of executing
+that simple commission, he made such use of his very ungovernable
+and extraordinary eyes, that the moment he was gone, Mrs.
+Schwellenberg demanded "for what he looked so at me?"
+
+I desired to know what she meant.
+"Why, like when he was so cordial with you? Been you acquainted?"
+
+"O, yes!" cried I, "I spent three hours twice a-week upon the
+road with him and Miss Planta, all the winter; and three or four
+dinners and afternoons besides."
+
+"O that's nothing! that's no acquaintance at all.  I have had
+people to me, to travel and to dine, fourteen and fifteen years,
+and yet they been never so cordial!"
+
+This was too unanswerable for reply; but it determined me to try
+at some decided measure for restraining or changing looks and
+behaviour that excited such comments.  And I thought my safest
+way would be fairly and frankly to tell him this very inquiry.
+It might put him upon his guard from such foolishness, without
+any more serious effort.
+
+
+July 20.-This evening Mrs. Schwellenberg was not well, and sent
+to desire I would receive the gentlemen to tea, and make her
+apologies.  I immediately summoned my lively, and lovely young
+companion, Miss Port, who hastens at every call with
+good-humoured delight.
+
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+
+We had really a pleasant evening, though simply from the absence
+of spleen and jealousy, which seemed to renew and invigorate the
+spirits of all present: namely, General Budé, Signor del Campo,
+and Colonel Gwynn.  They all stayed very late but when they made
+their exit, I dismissed my gay assistant and thought it incumbent
+on me to show myself upstairs; a reception was awaiting me!--so
+grim! But, what O heaven!  how depressing, how cruel, to be
+fastened thus on an associate so exigeante, so tyrannical, and so
+ill-disposed!
+
+I feared to blame the equerries for having detained me, as they
+were already so much out of favour.  I only, therefore, mentioned
+M. del Campo, who, as a foreign minister, might be allowed so
+much civility as not to be left to himself: for I was openly
+reproached- that I had not quitted them to hasten to her!
+Nothing, however, availed; and after vainly trying to appease
+her, I was obliged to go to my own room, to be in attendance for
+my royal summons.
+
+July 21.-I resolved to be very meek and patient, as I do, now and
+then, when I am good, and to bear this hard trial of causeless
+offence without resentment; and, therefore, I went this afternoon
+as soon as I had dined, and sat and worked, and forced
+conversation, and did my best, but with very indifferent success;
+when, most perversely, who should be again announced -but Mr.
+Turbulent.  As I believe the visit was not, just after those
+"cordial" looks, supposed to be solely for the lady of the
+apartment, his reception was no better than mine had been the
+preceding days!  He did not, however, regard it, but began a
+talk, in which he made it his business to involve me, by
+perpetual reference to my opinion.  This did not much conciliate
+matters; and his rebuffs, from time to time, were so little
+ceremonious, that nothing but the most confirmed contempt could
+have kept off an angry resentment.  I could sometimes scarcely
+help laughing at his utterly careless returns to an imperious
+haughtiness, vainly meant to abash and distance him.  I took the
+earliest moment in my power to quit the room and the reproach
+with which he looked at my exit, for leaving him to such a
+tête-à-tête, was quite risible.  He knew he could not, in
+decency, run away immediately, to and he seemed ready to commit
+some desperate act for having drawn himself into such a
+difficulty.  I am always rejoiced when his flights and follies
+bring their own punishment.
+
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+
+                          MR. TURBULENT'S ANTICS.
+
+July 25-Mr. Turbulent amused himself this morning with giving me
+yet another panic.  He was ordered to attend the queen during her
+hair-dressing, as was Mr. de Luc.  I remained in the room the
+queen conversed with us all three, as occasions arose, with the
+utmost complacency; but this person, instead of fixing there his
+sole attention, contrived, by standing behind her chair, and
+facing me, to address a language of signs to me the whole time,
+casting up his eyes, clasping ],is hands, and placing himself in
+various fine attitudes, and all with a humour so burlesque, that
+it was impossible to take it either ill or seriously.  Indeed,
+when I am on the very point of the most alarmed displeasure with
+him, he always falls upon some such ridiculous devices of
+affected homage, that I grow ashamed of my anger, and hurry it
+over, lest he should perceive it, and attribute it to a
+misunderstanding he might think ridiculous in his turn.
+
+How much should I have been discountenanced had her majesty
+turned about and perceived him!
+
+(230) Colonel Greville, called in the "Diary" "Colonel Wellbred,"
+one of the king's equerries, whom M. de Guiffardiere ("Mr.
+Turbulent") was particularly anxious to introduce to Miss
+Burney.-ED.
+
+(231) I "The Paston Letters" were first published, from the
+original manuscripts, in 1787.  They were chiefly written by or
+to members of the Paston family in Norfolk during the reigns of
+Henry VI., Edward IV., Richard III., and Henry VII.  The letter
+above alluded to is No. 91 in the collection.  It is a letter of
+good Counsel to his young son, written in a very tender and
+religious strain, by the Duke of Suffolk, on the 30th of April,
+1450, the day on which he quitted England to undergo his five
+years' banishment.  The duke had been impeached of high treason,
+and condemned to this term of banishment, through the king's
+interposition, to save him from a worse fate.  But his fate was
+not to be eluded.  He set sail on the 30th of April, was taken on
+the sea by his enemies, and beheaded on the 2nd of May
+following.-ED.
+
+(232) Miss Burney had obtained the tacit consent of the queen
+that M. de Guiffardiere should travel occasionally with the
+equerries, instead of taking his usual place in the coach
+assigned to the keepers of the robes.  Her real motive in making
+the application had been a desire to see less of this boisterous
+gentleman, but she had put it upon his attachment to Colonel
+Greville-ED.
+
+(233) Benjamin -west, R.A., who succeeded Reynolds as President
+of the Royal Academy, on the death of the latter in 1792.  This
+mediocre painter was a prodigious favourite with George III., for
+whom many of his works were executed.-ED.
+
+(234) The Duchess Jules de Polignac, the celebrated favourite of
+Marie Antoinette.  She and her husband, who had been raised by
+the queen from a condition of positive poverty, were hated in
+France, both as Court favourites, and on account of the wealth
+which, it was believed, they had taken advantage of their
+position to amass.  "Mille 6cus," cried Mirabeau, "A la famille
+d'Assas pour avoir sauv6 l'etat; un million a la famille Polignac
+pour l'avoir perdu!"
+
+The ostensible object of the duches,'s visit to England was to
+drink the Bath Waters, but there are good grounds for believing
+that her real purpose was to make an arrangement with M. de la
+Motte for the suppression of some scurrilous Memoirs which it was
+rumoured his wife had written, and in which, among other things,
+Marie Antoinette was accused of being the principal culprit in
+the notorious Diamond Necldace fraud.  M. de la Motte states in
+his autobiography that he met the Duchess Jules and her
+Sister-in-law, the Countess Diane, at the Duchess of Devonshire's
+(the beautiful Georgiana), at the request of the latter, when
+certain overtures were made to him, and trustworthy authorities
+assert that a large sum of money was afterwards paid to the De la
+Mottes, to suppress the Memoirs which were however eventually
+published.  When the French Revolution broke out the Polignacs
+were among the first to emigrate.  The duchess died at Vienna in
+December, 1793, a few months after Marie Antoinette had perished
+on the scaffold.-ED.
+
+(235) Mrs. Schwellenberg had returned to Windsor the day
+before.-ED.
+
+(236) The storm had been gathering round Hastings ever since his
+return to England in June, 1785, within a week of which Burke had
+given notice in the House of Commons of a motion affecting the
+conduct of the late Governor-General in India.  His impeachment
+was voted in May, 1787, and preparations for his trial were now
+going actively forward.  We shall find hereafter, in the Diary,
+some sketches, from Fanny's point of view, of scenes in this
+famous trial, which commenced in February, 1788.-ED.
+
+(237) This was an old grievance.  In 1780 Burke had introduced a
+hill "for the better regulation of his majesty's civil
+establishments, and of certain public offices; for the limitation
+of pensions, and the suppression of sundry useless, expensive and
+inconvenient places; and for applying the monies saved thereby to
+the public service."  The bill was defeated at the time, but was
+re-introduced with certain alterations, and finally passed both
+houses by a large majority in 1782.-ED.
+
+(238) Colonel Gwynn who had just arrived at Windsor to succeed
+Colonel Manners in the office of equerry in waiting to the King.
+Colonel Gwynn was the husband of Mary Horneck, Goldsmith's
+"Jessamy Bride."-ED.
+
+
+
+
+
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+
+                               SECTION 11.
+                                 (1787-8.)
+
+
+              COURT DUTIES: SOME VARIATIONS IN THEIR ROUTINE.
+
+                        MEETING OF THE TWO PRINCES.
+
+To-day, after a seven years' absence, arrived the Duke of York.
+I saw him alight from his carriage, with an eagerness, a
+vivacity, that assured me of the affectionate joy with which he
+returned to his country and family.  But the joy of his excellent
+father!-O, that there is no describing It was the glee of the
+first youth--nay, of ai ardent and innocent infancy,--so pure it
+seemed, so warm, so open, so unmixed! Softer joy was the
+queen's--mild, equal, and touching while all the princesses were
+in one universal rapture.
+
+To have the pleasure of seeing the royal family in this happy
+assemblage, I accompanied Miss Port on the Terrace.  It was
+indeed an affecting sight to view the general content; but that
+of the king went to my very heart, so delighted he looked-so
+proud Of his son--so benevolently pleased that every one should
+witness his satisfaction.  The Terrace was very full; all Windsor
+and its neighbourhood poured in upon it, to see the prince whose
+whole demeanour seemed promising to merit his flattering
+reception--gay yet grateful--modest, yet unembarrassed......
+
+Early the next morning arrived the Prince of Wales, who had
+travelled all night from Brighthelmstone.  The day was a day Of
+complete happiness to the whole of the royal family; the king was
+in one transport of delight, unceasing, invariable;
+
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+
+and though the newly-arrived duke was its source and Support the
+kindness of his heart extended and expanded to his eldest' born,
+whom he seemed ready again to take to his paternal breast;
+indeed, the whole world seemed endeared to him by the happiness
+he now felt in it.
+
+Sunday, Aug. 5.-General Grenville brought in the duke this
+evening to the tea-room.  I was very much pleased with his
+behaviour, which was modest, dignified, and easy.  Might he but
+escape the contagion of surrounding examples, he seems promising
+of all his fond father expects and merits. . . .
+
+Kew, Aug. 7-The next day the now happy family had the delight of
+again seeing the two princes in its circle.  They dined
+here; and the Princess Augusta, who came to Mrs. Schwellenberg's
+room in the evening, on a message, said, "There never had been so
+happy a dinner since the world was created," The king, In the
+evening, again drove out the queen and princesses.  The Prince of
+Wales, seeing Mr. Smelt in our room (which, at Kew, is in the
+front of the house, as well as at Windsor), said he would come in
+and ask him how he did.  Accordingly, in he came, and talked to
+Mr. Smelt for about a quarter of an hour; his subjects almost
+wholly his horses and his rides.  He gave some account of his
+expedition to town to meet his brother.  He was just preparing,
+at Brighton, to give a supper entertainment to Madame La
+Princesse de Lamballe,--when he perceived his courier.  "I dare
+say," he cried, "my brother's come!" set off instantly to excuse
+himself to the princess, and arrived at Windsor by the time of
+early prayers, at eight o'clock the next morning.
+
+"To-day, again," he said, "I resolved to be in town to meet my
+brother; we determined to dine somewhere together, but had not
+settled where; so hither we came.  When I went last to Brighton,
+I rode one hundred and thirty miles, and then danced at the
+ball,.  I am going back directly; but I shall ride to Windsor
+again for the birthday, and shall stay there till my brother's,
+and then back on Friday.  We are going now over the way: my
+brother wants to see the old mansion."
+
+The Prince of Wales's house is exactly opposite to the Lodge
+
+The duke then came in, and bowed to every one present, very
+attentively; and presently after, they went over the way, arm in
+arm; and thence returned to town.
+
+I had a long and painful discourse afterwards with Mr. Smelt,
+deeply interested in these young princes , upon the many dangers
+awaiting the newly-arrived, who seemed alike
+
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+
+unfitted and unsuspicious for encountering them.  Mr. Smelt's
+heart ached as if he had been their parent, and the regard
+springing from his early and long care of them seemed all revived
+in his hopes and fears of what might ensue from this reunion.
+
+I rejoiced at the public reconciliation with the Prince of Wales,
+which had taken place during my illness, and which gave the
+greater reason for hope that there might not now be a division!
+
+
+                        BUNBURY, THE CARICATURIST.
+
+Windsor, Aug. 14.-General Budé came in, with two strangers, whom
+he introduced to us by the names of Bunbury and Crawfurd.  I was
+very curious to know if this was the Bunbury;(239) and I
+conjectured it could be no other.  When Colonel Gwynn joined us,
+he proposed anew the introduction; but nothing passed to
+ascertain my surmise.  The conversation was general And
+good-humoured, but without anything striking, or bespeaking
+character or genius.  Almost the whole consisted of inquiries
+what to do, whither to go, and how to proceed; which, though
+natural and sensible for a new man, were undistinguished by any
+humour, or keenness of expression or manner.
+
+Mr. Crawfurd spoke not a word.  He is a very handsome young man,
+just appointed equerry to the Duke of York.
+
+I whispered my inquiry to Colonel Gwynn as soon as I found an
+opportunity, and heard, "Yes,--'tis Harry Bunbury, sure enough!"
+
+So now we may all be caricatured at his leisure!  He is made
+another of the equerries to the Duke.  A man with such a turn,
+and with talents so inimitable in displaying it, was rather a
+dangerous character to be brought within a Court!
+
+Aug. 15.-My sole conversation this evening was with Mr.
+Bunbury, who drew a chair next mine, and chatted incessantly,
+with great good humour, and an avidity to discuss the subjects he
+started, which were all concerning plays and Players.
+
+Presently the voice of the Duke of York was heard, calling aloud
+for Colonel Goldsworthy.  Off he ran.  Mr. Bunbury laughed, but
+declared he would not take the hint: "What," cried
+ he, "if I lose the beginning?(240)--I think I know it pretty
+
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+
+well by heart'-'Why did I marry' '"--And then he began to spout,
+and act, and rattle away, with all his might,-till the same voice
+called out "Bunbury !--you'll be too late!"--And off he flew,
+leaving his tea untasted--so eager had he been in discourse.
+
+
+
+          MRS. SIDDONS PROVES DISAPPOINTING ON NEAR ACQUAINTANCE.
+Wednesday, Aug. 15.-Mrs. Schwellenberg's illness occasioned my
+attending the queen alone; and when my official business was
+ended, she graciously detained me, to read to me a new paper
+called "Olla Podrida," which is now Publishing periodically.
+Nothing very bright--nothing very deficient.
+
+In the afternoon, while I was drinking coffee with Mrs.
+Schwellenberg,--or, rather, looking at it, since I rarely,
+swallow any,--her majesty came Into the room, and soon after a
+little German discourse with Mrs. Schwellenberg told me Mrs.
+Siddons had been ordered to the Lodge, to read a play, and
+desired I would receive her in my room
+
+I felt a little queer in the office ; I had only seen her twice
+or thrice, in large assemblies, at Miss Monckton's, and at Sir
+Joshua Reynolds's, and never had been introduced to her, nor
+spoken with her.  However, in this dead and tame life I now lead,
+such an interview was by no means undesirable.
+
+I had just got to the bottom of the stairs, when she entered the
+passage gallery.  I took her into the tea-room, and endeavoured
+to make amends for former distance and taciturnity, by an open
+and cheerful reception.  I had heard from sundry people (in old
+days) that she wished to make the acquaintance; but I thought it
+then one of too conspicuous a sort for the quietness I had so
+much difficulty to preserve in my ever increasing connections.
+Here all was changed; I received her by the queen's commands, and
+was perfectly well inclined to reap some pleasure from the
+meeting.
+
+But, now that we came so near, I was much disappointed in my
+expectations.  I know not if my dear Fredy has met with her in
+private, but I fancy approximation is not highly in her favour.
+I found her the heroine of a tragedy,--sublime, elevated, and
+solemn.  In face and person truly noble and commanding; in
+manners quiet and stiff; in voice deep and dragging; and in
+conversation, formal, sententious, calm, and
+
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+
+dry.  I expected her to have been all that is interesting; the
+delicacy and sweetness with which she seizes every opportunity to
+strike and to captivate upon the stage had persuaded me that her
+mind was formed with       that peculiar susceptibility which, in
+different modes, must give equal powers to attract and to delight
+in common life.  But I was very much mistaken.  As a stranger I
+must have admired her noble appearance and beautiful countenance,
+and have regretted that nothing in her conversation kept pace
+with their promise         and, as a celebrated actress I had
+still only to do the same.
+
+Whether fame and success have spoiled her, or whether she only
+possesses the skill of representing and embellishing materials
+with which she is furnished by others, I know not but still I
+remain disappointed.
+
+She was scarcely seated, and a little general discourse begun,
+before she told me--at once--that "There was no part she had ever
+so much wished to act as that of Cecilia."
+
+I made some little acknowledgment, and hurried to ask when she
+had seen Sir Joshua Reynolds, Miss Palmer, and others with whom I
+knew her acquainted.
+
+The play she was to read was "The Provoked Husband."  She
+appeared neither alarmed nor elated by her summons, but calmly to
+look upon it as a thing of course, from her celebrity.
+
+I should very much have liked to have heard her read the play,
+but my dearest Mrs. Delany spent the whole evening with me, and I
+could therefore take no measures for finding out a convenient
+adjoining room.  Mrs. Schwellenberg, I heard afterwards, was so
+accommodated, though not well enough for the tea-table.
+
+
+MR. FAIRLY'S BEREAVEMENT.
+
+Aug. 23.-At St. James's I read in the newspapers a paragraph that
+touched me much for the very amiable Mr. Fairly: it was the death
+of his wife, which happened on the Duke of York's birth-day, the
+16th.(242)  Mr. Fairly has devoted his whole time, strength,
+thoughts, and cares solely          to nursing and attending her
+during a long and most painful illness which she sustained.  They
+speak of her here as being amiable, but so
+
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+
+cold and reserved, that she was little known, and by no means in
+equal favour with her husband, who stands, upon the whole the
+highest in general esteem and regard of any individual of the
+household.  I find every mouth open to praise and pity, love and
+honour him.
+
+
+                        TROUBLESOME MR. TURBULENT.
+
+Upon returning to Kew, I had a scene for which I was little
+enough, indeed, prepared, though willing, and indeed, earnest to
+satisfy Mr. Turbulent, I wished him to make an alteration of
+behaviour.  After hastily changing my dress, I went, as usual, to
+the parlour, to be ready for dinner; but found there no Mrs.
+Schwellenberg; she was again unwell; Miss Planta was not ready,
+and Mr. Turbulent was reading by himself.
+
+Away he flung his book in a moment, and hastening to shut the
+door lest I should retreat, he rather charged than desired me to
+explain my late "chilling demeanour."
+
+Almost startled by his apparent entire ignorance of deserving it,
+I found an awkwardness I had not foreseen in making myself
+understood.  I wished him rather to feel than be told the
+improprieties I meant to obviate - and I did what was possible by
+half evasive, half expressive answers, to call back his own
+recollection and consciousness.  In vain, however, was the
+attempt; he protested himself wholly innocent, and that he would
+rather make an end of his existence than give me offence.
+
+He saw not these very protestations were again doing it, and he
+grew so vehement in his defence, and so reproachful in his
+accusation of unjust usage, that I was soon totally in a
+perplexity how to extricate myself from a difficulty I had
+regarded simply as his own.  The moment he saw I grew
+embarrassed, he redoubled his challenges to know the cause of my
+"ill-treatment."  I assured him, then, I could never reckon
+silence ill-treatment.
+
+"Yes," he cried, "yes, from you it is ill-treatment, and it has
+given me the most serious uneasiness."
+"I am sorry," I said, "for that, and did not mean it."
+
+"Not mean it?" cried be.  "Could you imagine I should miss your
+conversation, your ease, your pleasantness, your gaiety, and take
+no notice of the loss?"
+
+Then followed a most violent flow of compliments, ending with a
+fresh demand for an explanation, made with an energy
+
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+
+that, to own the truth, once more quite frightened me.  I
+endeavoured to appease him, by general promises of becoming more
+voluble - and I quite languished to say to him the truth at once;
+that his sport, his spirit, and his society would all be
+acceptable to me, would he but divest them of that redundance of
+-gallantry which rendered them offensive : but I could only think
+how to say this--I could not bring it out.
+
+This promised volubility, though it softened him, he seemed to
+receive as a sort of acknowledgment that I owed him some
+reparation for the disturbance I had caused him.  I stared enough
+at such an interpretation, which I could by no means allow; but
+no sooner did I disclaim it than all his violence was resumed,
+and he urged me to give in my charge against him with an
+impetuosity that almost made me tremble.
+
+I made as little answer as possible, finding everything I said
+seemed but the more to inflame his violent spirit; but his
+emotion was such, and the cause so inadequate, and my uncertainty
+so unpleasant what to think of him altogether, that I was seized
+with sensations so nervous, I Could almost have cried.  In the
+full torrent of his offended justification against my displeasure
+towards him, he perceived my increasing distress how to proceed,
+and, suddenly stopping, exclaimed in quite another tone, "Now,
+then, ma'am, I see your justice returning; you feel that you have
+used me very ill!"
+
+To my great relief entered Miss Planta.  He contrived to say,
+"Remember, you promise to explain all this."
+
+I made him no sort of answer, and though he frequently, in the
+course of the evening, repeated, "I depend upon your promise! I
+build upon a conference," I sent his dependence and his building
+to Coventry, by not seeming to hear him.
+
+I determined, however, to avoid all tête-à-têtes with him
+whatsoever, as much as was in my power.  How very few people are
+fit for them, nobody living in trios and quartettos can imagine!
+
+
+                            A CONCEITED PARSON.
+
+Windsor.-Who should find me out now but Dr. Shepherd.(243)  He is
+here as canon, and was in residence.  He told me he had long
+wished to come, but had never been able to find the
+
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+
+way of entrance before.  He made me an immense length of visit,
+and related to me all the exploits of his life,-so far as they
+were prosperous.  In no farce did a man ever more floridly open
+upon his own perfections.  He assured me I should be delighted to
+know the whole of his life; it was equal to anything; and
+everything he had was got by his own address and ingenuity.
+
+"I could tell the king," cried he, "more than all the chapter.  I
+want to talk to him, but he always gets out of my way; he does
+not know me; he takes me for a mere common person, like the rest
+of the canons here, and thinks of me no more than if I were only
+fit for the cassock;--a mere Scotch priest!  Bless 'em!--they
+know nothing about me.  You have no conception what things I have
+done! And I want to tell 'em all this;--It's fitter for them to
+hear than what comes to their ears.  What I want is for somebody
+to tell them what I am."
+
+They know it already, thought I.
+
+Then, when he had exhausted this general panegyric, he descended
+to some few particulars; especially dilating upon his preaching,
+and applying to me for attesting its excellence.
+
+"I shall make one sermon every year, precisely for you!" he
+cried; "I think I know what will please you.  That on the
+creation last Sunday was just to your taste.  You shall have such
+another next residence.  I think I preach in the right tone--not
+too slow, like that poor wretch Grape, nor too fast like Davis
+and the rest of 'em; but yet fast enough never to tire them.
+That's just my idea of good preaching."
+
+Then he told me what excellent apartments he had here and how
+much he should like my opinion in fitting them up.
+
+
+                     MR. TURBULENT BECOMES A NUISANCE.
+
+Aug.30.-Mrs. Schwellenberg invited Mr. Turbulent to dinner, for
+she said he had a large correspondence, and might amuse her.  He
+came early; and finding nobody in the eating-parlour, begged to
+wait in mine till Mrs. Schwellenberg came downstairs.  This was
+the last thing I wished; but he required no answer, and instantly
+resumed the Kew discussion, entreating me to tell him what he had
+done.  I desired him to desist--in vain, he affirmed I had
+promised him an explanation, and he had therefore a right to it.
+
+"You fully mistook me, then," cried I, "for I meant no
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+
+such thing then; I mean no such thing now; and I never shall mean
+any such thing in future.  Is this explicit?  I think it best to
+tell you so at once, that you may expect nothing more, but give
+over the subject, and talk of something else.  What is the news?"
+
+"I'll talk of nothing else!--it distracts me;--pray No, no, tell
+Me!--I call upon your good-nature!"
+
+"I have none--about this! "
+
+"Upon your goodness of heart!"
+
+"'Tis all hardness here!"
+
+"I will cast myself at your feet,--I will kneel to you!"  And he
+was preparing his immense person for prostration, when Goter(244)
+opened the door.  Such an interruption to his heroics made me
+laugh heartily; nor could he help joining himself; though the
+moment she was gone he renewed his importunity with unabated
+earnestness.
+
+"I remember," he cried, "it was upon the Terrace you first shewed
+me this disdain; and there, too, you have shown it me repeatedly
+since, with public superciliousness. . . .  You well know you
+have treated me ill,--you know and have acknowledged it!"
+
+"And when?" cried I, amazed and provoked; "when did I do what
+could never be done?"
+
+"At Kew, ma'am, you were full of concern--full of remorse for the
+treatment you had given me!--and you owned it!"
+
+"Good heaven, Mr.  Turbulent, what can induce you to say this?"
+
+"Is it not true?"
+
+"Not a word of it! You know it is not!"
+
+"Indeed," cried he, "I really and truly thought so--hoped so;--I
+believed you looked as if you felt your own ill-usage,- and it
+gave to me a delight inexpressible!"
+
+This was almost enough to bring back the very same supercilious
+Distance of which he complained; but, in dread of fresh
+explanations, I forbore to notice this flight, and only told him
+he might be perfectly satisfied, since I no longer Persevered in
+the taciturnity to which he objected.
+
+"But how," cried he, "do you give up, without deigning to assign
+one reason for It"?
+
+"The greater the compliment!"  cried I, laughing; "I give up to
+your request."
+
+"Yes, ma'am, upon my speaking,-but why did you keep Me so long in
+that painful suspense?"
+
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+
+"Nay," cried I, "could I well be quicker? Till you spoke could I
+know if you heeded it?"
+
+"Ah, ma'am--is there no language but of words?  Do you pretend to
+think there is no other?'--Must I teach it you,,--teach it to
+Miss Burney who speaks, who
+understands it so well?--who is never silent, and never can b
+silent?"
+
+And then came his heroic old homage to the poor eyebrows
+vehemently finishing with, "Do you, can you affect to know no
+language but speech?"
+
+" Not," cried I, coolly, " without the trouble of more
+investigation than I had taken here."
+
+He called this "contempt," and, exceedingly irritated, de sired
+me, once more, to explain, from beginning to end, how he had ever
+offended me.
+
+"Mr. Turbulent," cried I, "will you be satisfied if I tell you it
+shall all blow over?"
+
+"Make me a vow, then, you will never more, never while you live,
+resume that proud taciturnity."
+
+"No, no,--certainly not; I never make vows; it is a rule with me
+to avoid them."
+
+"Give me, then, your promise,--your solemn promise,--at least I
+may claim that?"
+
+"I have the same peculiarity about promises; I never make them."
+
+He was again beginning to storm, but again I assured him I would
+let the acquaintance take its old course, if he would but be
+appeased, and say no more; and, after difficulties innumerable,
+he at length gave up the point: but to this he was hastened, if
+not driven, by a summons to dinner.
+
+
+                       DR. HERSCHEL AND HIS SISTER.
+
+Sept.-Dr. Herschel is a delightful man; so unassuming with his
+great knowledge, so willing to dispense it to the ignorant, and
+so cheerful and easy in his general manners, that were he no
+genius it would be impossible not to remark him as a pleasing and
+sensible man.  I was equally pleased with his sister, whom I had
+wished to see very much, for her great celebrity in her brother's
+science.  She is very little, very gentle, very modest, and very
+ingenious; and her manners are those of a person unhackneyed and
+unawed by the world, yet desirous to meet
+
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+
+and to return its smiles.  I love not the philosophy that braves
+it.  This brother and sister seem gratified with its favour, at
+the same time that their own pursuit is all-sufficient to them
+without it.
+
+I inquired of Miss Herschel if she was still comet-hunting, or
+content now with the moon?  The brother answered that he had the
+charge of the moon, but he left to his sister to sweep the
+heavens for comets.
+
+Their manner of working together is most ingenious and curious.
+While he makes his observations without-doors, he has a method of
+communicating them to his sister so immediately, that she can
+instantly commit them to paper, with the precise moment in which
+they are made.  By this means he loses not a minute, when there
+is anything particularly worth observing, by writing it down, but
+can still proceed, yet still have his accounts and calculations
+exact.  The methods he has contrived to facilitate this commerce
+I have not the terms to explain, though his simple manner of
+showing them made me, fully, at the time, comprehend them.
+
+The night, unfortunately, was dark, and I could not see the moon
+with the famous new telescope.  I mean not the great telescope
+through which I had taken a walk, for that is still incomplete,
+but another of uncommon powers.  I saw Saturn, however, and his
+satellites, very distinctly, and their appearance was very
+beautiful.
+
+
+                     GAY AND ENTERTAINING MR. BUNBURY.
+
+Sept.-I saw a great deal of Mr. Bunbury in the course of this
+month, as he was in waiting upon the Duke of York, who spent
+great part of it at Windsor, to the inexpressible delight of his
+almost idolising father.  Mr. Bunbury did not open upon me with
+that mildness and urbanity that might lead me to forget the
+strokes of his pencil, and power of his caricature: he early
+avowed a general disposition to laugh at, censure, or despise all
+around him.  He began talking of everybody and everything about
+us, with the decisive freedom of a confirmed old intimacy.
+
+"I am in disgrace here, already!" he cried almost exultingly.
+
+"In disgrace?" I repeated.
+
+"Yes,--for not riding out this morning!--I was asked--what Could
+I have better to do?--Ha! ha!"
+
+The next time that I saw him after your departure from
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+Windsor,(245) he talked a great deal of painting and painters,
+and then said, "The draftsman of whom I think the most highly of
+any in the world was in this room the other day, and I did not
+know it, and was not introduced to him!"
+
+I immediately assured him I never held the honours of the room
+when its right mistress was in it, but that I would certainly
+have named them to each other had I known he desired it.
+"O, yes,"' cried he, "of all things I wished to know him.  He
+draws like the old masters.  I have seen fragments in the style
+of many of the very best and first productions of the greatest
+artists of former times.  He could deceive the most critical
+judge.  I wish greatly for a sight of his works, and for the
+possession of one of them, to add to my collection, as I have
+something from almost everybody else and a small sketch of his I
+should esteem a greater curiosity than all the rest put
+together."(246)
+
+Moved by the justness of' this praise, I            fetched him
+the sweet little cadeaux so lately left me by Mr. William's
+kindness.  He was very much     pleased, and perhaps thought I
+might bestow them.  O, no--not one stroke of that pencil could I
+relinquish!
+
+Another     evening  he gave us the history, of his way of life
+at Brighthelmstone.  He spoke highly of the duke, but with much
+satire of all   else, and that incautiously, and evidently with
+an innate defiance of consequences, from a consciousness of
+secret powers to overawe their hurting him.
+
+Notwithstanding      the general reverence I pay to extraordinary
+talents, which lead  me to think it even a species of
+impertinence to dwell upon small failings in their rare
+possessors, Mr. Bunbury did not gain my good-will.  His serious
+manner is supercilious and haughty, and his easy conversation
+wants rectitude in its principles.  For the rest, he is
+entertaining and gay, full of talk, sociable, willing to enjoy
+what is going forward, and ready to speak his opinion with
+perfect unreserve.
+
+Plays and players seem his darling theme; he can rave about them
+from morning to night, and yet be ready to rave again when
+morning returns,         He acts as he talks, spouts as
+
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+he recollects, and seems to give his whole soul to dramatic
+feeling and expression.  This is not, however, his only subject
+Love and romance are equally clear to his discourse, though they
+cannot be introduced with equal frequency.  Upon these topics he
+loses himself wholly--he runs into rhapsodies that discredit him
+at once as a father, a husband, and a moral man.  He asserts that
+love Is the first principle of life, and should take place of
+every other; holds all bonds and obligations as nugatory that
+would claim a preference; and advances such doctrines of exalted
+sensations in the tender passion as made me tremble while I heard
+them.
+
+He adores Werter, and would scarce believe I had not read it-
+-still less that I had begun It and left it off, from distaste at
+its evident tendency.  I saw myself sink instantly in his
+estimation, though till this little avowal I had appeared to
+Stand in it very honourably.
+
+
+
+                   THE PRINCE OF WALES AT WINDSOR AGAIN.
+
+One evening, while I was sitting with Mrs. Delany, and her fair
+niece, when tea was over, and the gentlemen all withdrawn, the
+door was Opened, and a star entered, that I perceived presently
+to be the Prince of Wales.  He was here to hunt with his royal
+father and brother.  With great politeness he made me his first
+bow, and then advancing to Mrs. Delany, insisted, very
+considerately, on her sitting still, though he stood himself for
+half an hour--all the time he stayed.  He entered into discourse
+very good-humouredly, and with much vivacity; described to her
+his villa at Brighthelmstone, told several anecdotes of
+adventures there, and seemed desirous to entertain both her and
+myself  . . . . .
+
+NOV. 8.-At near one o'clock in the morning, while the wardrobe
+woman was pinning up the queen's hair, there was a sudden rap-tap
+at the dressing-room door.  Extremely surprised, I looked at the
+queen, to see what should be done; she did not speak.  I had
+never heard such a sound before, for at the royal doors there
+Is always a peculiar kind of scratch used, instead of tapping.  I
+heard it, however, again,--and the queen called out, "What  is
+that?" I Was really startled, not conceiving who could take so
+strange a liberty as to come to the queen's apartment without the
+announcing of a page - and no page, I was very sure, would make
+such a noise.
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+Again the sound was repeated, and more smartly.  I grew quite
+alarmed, imagining some serious evil at hand--either regarding
+the king or some of the princesses.  The queen, however, bid me
+open the door.  I did--but what was MY surprise to see there a
+large man, in an immense wrapping great coat, buttoned up round
+his chin, so that he was almost hid between cape and hat!
+
+I stood quite motionless for a moment--but he, as if also
+surprised, drew back; I felt quite sick with sudden terror--I
+really thought some ruffian had broke into the house, or a
+madman.
+
+"Who is it?" cried the queen.
+
+"I do not know, ma'am," I answered.
+
+"Who is it?" she called aloud; and then, taking off his hat,
+entered the Prince of Wales!
+
+The queen laughed very much, so did I too, happy in this
+unexpected explanation.
+
+He told her, eagerly, he merely came to inform her there were the
+most beautiful northern lights to be seen that could possibly be
+imagined, and begged her to come to the gallery windows.
+
+
+                FALSE RUMOURS OF Miss BURNEY'S RESIGNATION.
+Wednesday, Sept. 14--We went to town for the drawing-room, and I
+caught a most severe cold, by being oblige to have the glass down
+on my side, to suit Mrs. Schwellenberg, though the sharpest wind
+blew in that ever attacked a poor phiz.  However, these are the
+sort of desagremens I can always best bear; and for the rest, I
+have now pretty constant civility.
+
+My dear father drank tea with me - but told me of a paragraph in
+"The World," that gave me some uneasiness; to this effect:--"We
+hear that Miss Burney has resigned her place about the queen, and
+is now promoted to attend the princesses, an office far more
+suited to her character and abilities, which will now be called
+forth as they merit."--Or to that purpose.  As "The World" is not
+taken in here, I flattered myself it would not be known; for I
+knew how little pleasure such a paragraph would give, and was
+very sorry for it.
+
+The next day, at St. James's, Miss Planta desired to speak to me,
+before the queen arrived.  She acquainted me Of the same "news,"
+and said, "Everybody spoke of it;" and the queen might receive
+twenty letters of recommend, to
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+
+my place before night.  Still I could only be sorry.  Another
+paragraph had now appeared, she told me, contradicting the first,
+and saying, "The resignation of Miss Burney is premature; it only
+arose from an idea of the service the education of the princesses
+might reap from her virtues and accomplishments."
+
+I was really concerned - conscious how little gratified my royal
+mistress would be by the whole :-and, presently, Miss Planta came
+to me again, and told me that the princesses had mentioned it!
+They never read any newspapers; but they had heard of it from the
+Duke of York.
+I observed the queen was most particularly gracious with me,
+softer, gentler, more complacent than ever; and, while dressing,
+she dismissed her wardrobe-woman, and, looking at me very
+steadfastly, said, "Miss Burney, do you ever read newspapers?"
+
+"Sometimes," I answered, "but not often: however.  I believe I
+know what your majesty means!"
+
+I could say no less; I was so sure of her meaning.
+
+"Do you?" she cried.
+
+"Yes, ma'am, and I have been very much hurt by it: that is, if
+your majesty means anything relative to myself?"
+
+"I do!" she answered, still looking at me with earnestness.
+"My father, ma'am," cried I, "told me of it last night, with a
+good deal of indignation."
+
+"I," cried she, "did not see it myself: you know how little I
+read the newspapers."
+
+"Indeed," cried I, "as it was in a paper not taken in here, I
+hoped it would quite have escaped your majesty."
+
+".So it did: I only heard of it."
+
+I looked a little curious, and she kindly explained herself.
+
+"When the Duke of York came yesterday to dinner, he said almost
+immediately, 'Pray, ma'am, what has Miss Burney left You for?'
+'Left me?'  'Yes, they say she's gone; pray what's the reason?'
+'Gone?'  'Yes, it's at full length in all the newspapers: is not
+she gone?'  'Not that I know of.'"
+
+"All the newspapers" was undoubtedly a little flourish of the
+duke; but we jointly censured and lamented the unbridled liberty
+of the press, in thus inventing, contradicting, and bringing on
+and putting off, whatever they pleased.
+
+I saw, however, she had really been staggered: she concluded, I
+fancy, that the paragraph arose from some latent Muse, which
+might end in matter of fact; for she talked to me of Mrs.
+Dickenson, and of all that related to her retreat, and
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+dwelt upon the    subject with a sort of solicitude that seemed
+apprehensive--if I may here use such a word-of a similar action.
+It appeared to me that she rather expected some further assurance
+on my part that no such view or intention had given rise to this
+pretended report; and therefore, when I had again the honour of
+her conversation alone, I renewed the subject, and mentioned that
+my father had had some thoughts of  contradicting the paragraph
+himself.
+
+"And has he done it ? " cried she quite eagerly.
+
+"No, ma'am; for, upon further consideration, he feared it might
+only excite fresh paragraphs, and that the whole would sooner
+die, if neglected."
+
+"So," said she, "I have been told; for, some years ago,  there
+was a paragraph in the papers I wanted myself to have had
+contradicted, but they acquainted me it was best to be patient,
+and it would be forgot the sooner."
+
+"This, however, ma'am, has been contradicted this morning."
+"By your father?" cried she, again speaking eagerly.
+
+"No, ma'am; I know not by whom."
+
+She then asked how it was done. This was very distressing but I
+was forced to repeat It as well as I could, reddening enough,
+though omitting, you may believe, the worst.
+
+just then there happened an interruption; which was vexatious, as
+it prevented a concluding speech, disclaiming all thoughts of
+resignation, which I saw was really now become necessary for the
+queen's satisfaction;  and since it was true--why not say it?
+And, accordingly, the next day, when she was most excessively
+kind to me, I seized an opportunity, by attending her through the
+apartments to the breakfast-room, to beg, permission to speak to
+her. It was smilingly granted me.
+
+"I have now, ma'am, read both the paragraphs."
+
+"Well?" with a look of much curiosity.
+
+"And indeed I thought them both very impertinent.          They
+say that the idea arose from a notion of my being promoted to a
+place about the princesses!"
+
+"I have not seen either of the paragraphs," she answered, "but
+the Prince of Wales told me of the second yesterday."
+
+"They little know me, ma'am," I cried, "who think I should regard
+any other place as a promotion that removed me from your
+majesty."
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+"I did not take it ill, I assure you," cried she, gently.
+
+"Indeed, ma'am, I am far from having a wish for any such
+promotion--far from it! your majesty does not bestow a smile upon
+me that does not secure and confirm my attachment."
+
+one of her best smiles followed this, with a very condescending
+little bow, and the words, "You are very good," uttered in a most
+gentle Voice; and she went on to her breakfast.
+
+I am most glad this complete explanation passed.  Indeed it is
+most true I would not willingly quit a place about the queen for
+any place; and I was glad to mark that her smiles were to me the
+whole estimate of its value.
+
+This little matter has proved, in the end, very gratifying to me
+for it has made clear beyond all doubt her desire of retaining
+me, and a considerably increased degree of attention and
+complacency have most flatteringly shown a wish I should be
+retained by attachment.
+
+
+                      TYRANNICAL MRS. SCHWELLENBERG.
+
+Nov. 27-I had a terrible journey indeed to town, Mrs.
+Schwellenberg finding it expedient to have the glass down on my
+side, whence there blew in a sharp wind, which so painfully
+attacked my eyes that they were inflamed even before we -arrived
+in town.
+
+Mr. de Luc and Miss Planta both looked uneasy, but no one durst
+speak; and for me, it was among the evils that I can always best
+bear yet before the evening I grew so ill that I could not
+propose going to Chelsea, lest I should be utterly unfitted for
+Thursday's drawing-room.
+
+The next day, however, I received a consolation that has been
+some ease to my mind ever since.  My dear father spent the
+evening with me, and was so incensed at the state of my eyes,
+which were now as piteous to behold as to feel, and at the
+relation of their usage, that he charged me, another time, to
+draw up my 'glass in defiance of all opposition, and to abide by
+all consequences, since my place was wholly immaterial when put
+in competition with my health.
+
+I was truly glad of this permission to rebel, and it has given Me
+an internal hardiness in all similar assaults, that has at least
+relieved my mind from the terror of giving mortal offence where
+most I owe implicit obedience, should provocation overpower my
+capacity of forbearance.
+
+When we assembled to return to Windsor, Mr. de Luc was
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+in real consternation at sight of my eyes; and I saw an indignant
+glance at my coadjutrix, that could scarce content itself without
+being understood.  Miss Planta ventured not at such a glance, but
+a whisper broke out, as we were descending the stairs, expressive
+of horror against the same poor person--poor person indeed--to
+exercise a power productive only of abhorrence, to those who view
+as well as to those who feel it!
+
+Some business of Mrs. Schwellenberg's occasioned a delay of the
+journey, and we all retreated back; and when I returned to my
+room, Miller, the old head housemaid, came to me, with a little
+neat tin saucepan in her hand, saying, "Pray, ma'am, use this for
+your eyes; 'tis milk and butter, much as I used to make for
+Madame Haggerdorn when she travelled in the winter with Mrs.
+Schwellenberg."
+
+Good heaven! I really shuddered when she added, that all that
+poor woman's misfortunes with her eyes, which, from inflammation
+after inflammation, grew nearly blind, were attributed by herself
+to these journeys, in which she was forced to have the glass down
+at her side in all weathers, and frequently the glasses behind
+her also! Upo n my word this account of my predecessor was the
+least exhilarating intelligence I could receive!  Goter told me,
+afterwards, that all the servants in the house had remarked I was
+going just the same way!
+
+Miss Planta presently ran into my room, to say she had hopes we
+should travel without this amiable being; and she had left me but
+a moment when Mrs. Stainforth succeeded her, exclaiming, "O, for
+heaven's sake, don't leave her behind; for heaven's sake, Miss
+Burney, take her with you!"
+
+'Twas impossible not to laugh at these opposite' interests, both,
+from agony of fear, breaking through all restraint.  Soon after,
+however, we all assembled again, and got into the coach.  Mr.' de
+Luc, who was my vis-`a-vis, instantly pulled up the glass.
+
+"Put down that glass!" was the immediate order.
+
+He affected not to hear her, and began conversing.  She enraged
+quite tremendously, calling aloud to be obeyed without delay.  He
+looked compassionately at me, and shrugged his shoulders, and
+said, "But, ma'am-"
+
+"Do it, Mr. de Luc, when I tell you!  I will have it!  When you
+been too cold, you might bear it!"
+
+""It is not for me, ma'am, but poor Miss Burney."
+
+"O, poor Miss Burney might bear it the same! put it down, Mr. de
+Luc!  without, I will get out! put it down, when I tell
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+you!  It is my coach!  I will have it selfs!  I might go alone in
+it, or with one, or with what you call nobody, when I please!"
+
+Frightened for good Mr. de Luc, and the more for being much
+obliged to him, I now interfered, and begged him to let down the
+glass.  Very reluctantly he complied, and I leant back in the
+coach, and held up my muff to my eyes.  What a journey ensued!
+To see that face when lighted up with fury is a sight for horror!
+I was glad to exclude it by my muff.
+
+Miss Planta alone attempted to speak.  I did not think it
+incumbent on me to "make the agreeable," thus used; I was
+therefore wholly dumb : for not a word, not an apology, not one
+expression of being sorry for what I suffered, was uttered.  The
+most horrible ill-humour, violence, and rudeness, were all that
+were shown.  Mr. de Luc was too much provoked to take his usual
+method of passing all off by constant talk and as I had never
+seen him venture to appear provoked before, I felt a great
+obligation to his kindness.  When we were about half way, we
+stopped to water the horses.  He then again pulled up the glass,
+as if from absence.  A voice of fury exclaimed, "Let it down!
+without I won't go!"
+
+"I am sure," cried he, "all Mrs. de Luc's plants will be killed
+by this frost For the frost was very severe indeed.
+
+Then he proposed my changing places with Miss Planta, who sat
+opposite Mrs. Schwellenberg, and consequently on the sheltered
+side.  "Yes!" cried Mrs. Schwellenberg, "MISS Burney might sit
+there, and so she ought!"
+
+I told her, briefly, I was always sick in riding backwards.
+
+"O, ver well! when you don't like it, don't do it.  You might
+bear it when you like it? what did the poor Haggerdorn bear it!
+when the blood was all running down from her eyes!"
+
+This was too much!  "I must take, then," I cried, "the more
+warning!" After that I spoke not a word.  I ruminated all the
+rest of the way upon my dear father's recent charge and
+permission.  I was upon the point continually of availing myself
+of both, but alas! I felt the deep disappointment I should give
+him, and I felt the most cruel repugnance to owe a resignation to
+a quarrel.
+
+These reflections powerfully forbade the rebellion to which this
+unequalled arrogance and cruelty excited me; and after revolving
+them again and again, I----accepted a bit of cake which she
+suddenly offered me as we reached Windsor, and
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+determined, since I submitted to my monastic destiny from motives
+my serious thoughts deemed right, I would not be prompted to
+oppose it from mere feelings of resentment to one who, strictly,
+merited only contempt. . . .
+
+I gulped as well as I could at dinner; but all civil fits are
+again over.  Not a word was said to me: yet I was really very ill
+all the afternoon; the cold had seized my elbows, from holding
+them up so long, and I was stiff and chilled all over.
+
+In the evening, however, came my soothing Mrs. Delany.  Sweet
+soul ! she folded me in her arms, and wept over my shoulder!  Too
+angry to stand upon ceremony she told Mrs. Schwellenberg, after
+our public tea, she must retire to my room, that she might speak
+with me alone.  This was highly resented, and I was threatened,
+afterwards, that she would come to tea no more, and we might talk
+our secrets always.
+
+Mr. de Luc called upon me next morning, and openly avowed his
+indignation, protesting it was an oppression he could not bear to
+see used, and reproving me for checking him when he would have
+run all risks.  I thanked him most cordially; but assured him the
+worst of all inflammations to me was that of a quarrel, and I
+entreated him, therefore, not to interfere.  But we have been
+cordial friends from that time forward.
+
+Miss Planta also called, kindly bringing me some eye-water, and
+telling me she had "Never so longed to beat anybody in her life;
+and yet, I assure you," she added, "everybody remarks that she
+behaves, altogether, better to you than to any body!"
+
+O heavens!
+
+
+
+                   MRS. SCHWELLENBERG'S CAPRICIOUSNESS.
+
+Saturday, Dec. 1.-'Tis strange that two feelings so very opposite
+as love and resentment should have nearly equal power in
+inspiring courage for or against the object that excites them yet
+so it is.  In former times I have often, on various occasions,
+felt it raised to anything possible, by affection, and now I have
+found it mount to the boldest height, by disdain For, be it
+known, such gross and harsh usage I experienced at the end of
+last month, since the inflammation of the eyes which I bore much
+more composedly than sundry personal indignities that followed,
+that I resolved upon a new mode of
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+conduct--namely, to go out every evening, in Order to show that I
+by no means considered myself as bound to stay at home after
+dinner, if treated very ill; and this most courageous plan I
+flattered myself must needs either procure me a liberty of
+absence, always so much wished, or occasion a change of behaviour
+to more decency and endurability.  I had received for to-day an
+invitation to meet Lady Bute and Lady Louisa Stuart at my dearest
+Mrs. Delany's, and I should have wished it at all times, so much
+I like them both.  I had no opportunity to speak first to my
+royal mistress, but I went to her at noon, rather more dressed
+than usual, and when I saw her look a little surprised, I
+explained my reason.  She seemed very well satisfied with it, but
+my coadjutrix appeared in an astonishment unequalled, and at
+dinner, when we necessarily met again, new testimonies of conduct
+quite without example were exhibited: for when Mrs. Thackeray and
+Miss Planta were helped, she helped herself, and appeared
+publicly to send me to Coventry--though the sole provocation was
+intending to forego her society this evening!
+
+I sat quiet and unhelped a few minutes, considering what to do:
+for so little was my appetite, I was almost tempted to go without
+dinner entirely.  However, upon further reflection, I concluded
+it would but harden her heart still more to have this fresh
+affront so borne, and so related, as it must have been, through
+Windsor, and therefore I calmly begged some greens from Miss
+Planta.
+
+The weakness of my eyes, which still would not bear the light,
+prevented me from tasting animal food all this time.
+
+A little ashamed, she then anticipated Miss Planta's assistance,
+by offering me some French beans.  To curb my own displeasure, I
+obliged myself to accept them.  Unfortunately, however, this
+little softening was presently worn out, by some speeches which
+it encouraged from Mrs. Thackeray, who seemed to seize the moment
+of permission to acknowledge that I was in the room, by telling
+me she had lately met some of my friends in town, among whom Mrs.
+Chapone and the Burrows family had charged her with a thousand
+regrets for My Seclusion from their society, and as many kind
+compliments and good wishes.
+
+This again sent me to Coventry for the rest of the dinner.  When
+it was over, and we were all going upstairs to coffee, I spoke to
+Columb,(247) in passing, to have a chair for me at seven o'clock.
+
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+"For what, then," cried a stern voice behind me, "for What go you
+upstairs at all, when you don't drink coffee?
+
+Did she imagine I should answer "For your society, ma'am"?  No--I
+turned back quick as lightning, and only saying, "Very well,
+ma'am," moved towards my own room.
+
+Again a little ashamed of herself, she added, rather more
+civilly, "For what should you have that trouble?"
+
+I simply repeated my "Very well, ma'am," in a voice of, I
+believe, rather pique than calm acquiescence, and entered my own
+apartment, unable to enjoy this little release, however speedy to
+obtain it, from the various, the grievous emotions of my mind,
+that this was the person, use me how she might, with whom I must
+chiefly pass my time!
+
+So unpleasant were the sensations that filled me, that I could
+recover no gaiety, even at the house of my beloved friend, though
+received there by her dear self, her beautiful niece, and Lady
+Bute and Lady Louisa, in the most flattering manner.  . . .
+
+The behaviour of my coadjutrix continued in the same strain--
+-really shocking to endure.  I always began, at our first
+meeting, some little small speech, and constantly received so
+harsh a rebuff at the second word, that I then regularly seated
+myself by a table, at work, and remained wholly silent the rest
+of the day.  I tried the experiment of making my escape; but I
+was fairly conquered from pursuing it.  The constant black
+reception depressed me out of powers to exert for flight; and
+therefore I relinquished this plan, and only got off, as I could,
+to my own room, or remained dumb in hers.
+
+To detail the circumstances of the tyranny and the grossieret`e I
+experienced at this time would be afflicting to my beloved
+friends, and oppressive to myself, I am fain, however, to confess
+they vanquished me.  I found the restoration of some degree of
+decency quite necessary to my quiet, since such open and horrible
+ill-will from one daily in my sight even affrighted me: it
+pursued me in shocking visions even when I avoided her presence;
+and therefore I was content to put upon myself the great and
+cruel force of seeking to conciliate a person who had no
+complaint against me, but that she had given me an inflammation
+of the eyes, which had been witnessed and resented by her
+favourite Mr. de Luc.  I rather believe that latter circumstance
+was what incensed her so inveterately.
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+The next extraordinary step she took was one that promised me
+amends for all: she told me that there was no occasion we should
+continue together after coffee, unless by her invitation.  I
+eagerly exclaimed that this seemed a most feasible way of
+producing some variety in our intercourse, and that I would adopt
+it most readily.  She wanted instantly to call back her words :
+she had expected I should be alarmed, and solicit her leave to be
+buried -with her every evening! When she saw me so eager in
+acceptance, she looked mortified and disappointed ; but I would
+not suffer her to retract, and I began, at once, to retire to my
+room the moment coffee was over.
+
+This flight of the sublime, which, being her own, she could not
+resent, brought all round: for as she saw me every evening
+prepare to depart with the coffee, she constantly began, at that
+period, some civil discourse to detain me.  I always suffered it
+to succeed, while civil, and when there was a failure, or a
+pause, I retired.
+
+By this means I recovered such portion of quiet as is compatible
+with a situation like mine: for she soon returned entirely to
+such behaviour as preceded the offence of my eyes; and I
+obtained a little leisure at which she could not repine, as a
+caprice of her own bestowed it. . . .
+
+To finish, however, with respect to the présidente, I must now
+acquaint you that, as my eyes entirely grew -well, her incivility
+entirely wore off, and I became a far greater favourite than I
+had ever presumed to think myself till that time!  I was obliged
+to give up my short-lived privilege of retirement, and live on as
+before, making only my two precious little visits to my beloved
+comforter and supporter, and to devote the rest of my wearisome
+time to her presence--better satisfied, however, since I now saw
+that open war made me wretched, even When a victor, beyond what
+any subjection could do that had peace for its terms.
+
+This was not an unuseful discovery, for it has abated all
+propensity to experiment in shaking off a yoke which, however
+hard to bear, is so annexed to my place, that I must take one
+with the other, and endure them as I can.
+
+My favour, now, was beyond the favour of all others; I was "good
+Miss Berner," at every other word, and no one else was listened
+to if I would speak, and no one else was Accepted for a partner
+if I would play!  I found no cause to Which I could attribute
+this change.  I believe the whole mere Matter of caprice.
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+                              New YEAR's DAY.
+
+Queen's Lodge, Windsor, Tuesday, Jan. 1, 1788-I began the new
+year, as I ended the old one, by seizing the first moment it
+presented to my own disposal, for flying to Mrs. Delany, and
+begging her annual benediction.  She bestowed it with the
+sweetest affection, and I spent, as usual all the time with her I
+had to spare. . . .
+
+In the evening, by long appointment, I was to receive Mr. Fisher
+and his bride.(248) Mrs. Schwellenberg, of her own accord desired
+me to have them in my room, and said she would herself make tea
+for the equerries in the eating-parlour.  Mrs. Delany and Miss
+Port came to meet them.  Mrs. Fisher seems good-natured,
+cheerful, and obliging, neither well nor ill in appearance, and,
+I fancy, not strongly marked in any way.  But she adores Mr.
+Fisher, and has brought him a large fortune.
+
+The Princess Amelia was brought by Mrs. Cheveley, to fetch Mrs.
+Delany to the queen.  Mrs. Fisher was much delighted in seeing
+her royal highness, who, when in a grave humour, does 'the
+honours of her rank with a seriousness extremely entertaining.
+She commands the company to sit down, holds out her little fat
+hand to be kissed, and makes a distant courtesy, with an air of
+complacency and encouragement that might suit any princess of
+five times her age.
+
+I had much discourse, while the rest were engaged, with Mr.
+Fisher, about my ever-valued, ever-regretted Mrs. Thrale.  Can I
+call her by another name, loving that name so long, so well, for
+her and her sake?  He gave me concern by information that she is
+now publishing, not only the "Letters " of Dr. Johnson, but her
+own.  How strange!
+
+Jan. 4.-In the morning, Mrs. Schwellenberg presented me, from the
+queen, with a new year's gift.  It is plate, and very elegant.
+The queen, I find, makes presents to her whole household every
+year: more or less, according to some standard of their claims
+which she sets up, very properly, in her own mind.
+
+
+                         CHATTY MR. BRYANT AGAIN.
+
+Jan. 8.-I met Mr. Bryant, who came, by appointment to give me
+that pleasure.  He was in very high spirits, full Of anecdote and
+amusement.  He has as much good-humoured
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+chit-chat and entertaining gossiping as if he had given no time
+to the classics and his studies, instead of having nearly devoted
+his life to them.  One or two of his little anecdotes I will try
+to recollect.
+
+in the year thirty-three of this century, and in his own memory,
+there was a cause brought before a judge, between two highwaymen,
+who had quarrelled about the division of their booty; and these
+men had the effrontery to bring their dispute to trial.  "In the
+petition of the plaintiff," said Mr. Bryant, "he asserted that he
+had been extremely ill-used by the defendant: that they had
+carried on a very advantageous trade together, upon Black-heath,
+Hounslow-heath, Bagshot-heath, and other places; that their
+business chiefly consisted in watches, wearing apparel, and
+trinkets of all sorts, as well as large concerns between them in
+cash; that they had agreed to an equitable partition of all
+profits, and that this agreement had been violated.  So impudent
+a thing, the judge said, was never before brought out in a court,
+and so he refused to pass sentence in favour of either of them,
+and dismissed them from the court."
+
+Then he told us a great number of comic slip-slops, of the first
+Lord Baltimore, who made a constant misuse of one word for
+another: for instance, "I have been," says he, "upon a little
+excoriation to see a ship lanced; and there is not a finer going
+vessel upon the face of God's earth: you've no idiom how well it
+sailed."
+
+Having given us this elegant specimen of the language of one
+lord, he proceeded to give us one equally forcible of the
+understanding of another.  The late Lord Plymouth, meeting in a
+country town with a puppet-show, was induced to see it; and, from
+the high entertainment he received through Punch, he determined
+to buy him, and accordingly asked his price, and paid it, and
+carried the puppet to his country-house, that he might be
+diverted with him at any odd hour.  Mr. Bryant protests he met
+the same troop Just as the purchase had been made, and went
+himself to the puppet-show, which was exhibited senza punch!
+
+Next he spoke upon the Mysteries, or origin of our theatrical
+entertainments, and repeated the plan and conduct Of several Of
+these strange compositions, in particular one he remembered which
+was called "Noah's Ark," and in which that patriarch and his
+sons, just previous to the Deluge, made it all their delight to
+speed themselves into the ark without Mrs. Noah,
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+
+whom they wished to escape; but she surprised them just as they
+had embarked, and made so prodigious a racket against the door
+that, after a long and violent contention, she forced them to
+open it, and gained admission, having first content, them by
+being kept out till she was thoroughly wet to the skin.  These
+most eccentric and unaccountable dramas filled up the chief of
+our conversation.
+
+
+              DR. JOHNSON's LETTERS To MRS. THRALE DISCUSSED.
+Wednesday, Jan. 9.-To-day Mrs. Schwellenberg did me a real
+favour, and with real good nature; for she sent me the "Letters"
+of my poor lost friends, Dr. Johnson and Mrs. Thrale,(249) which
+she knew me to be almost pining to procure.  The book belongs to
+the Bishop of Carlisle, who lent it to Mr. Turbulent, from whom
+it was again lent to the queen, and so passed on to Mrs.
+Schwellenberg.  It is still unpublished.(249)
+
+With what a sadness have I been reading!--what scenes in it
+revived!--what regrets renewed!  These letters have not been more
+improperly published in the whole, than they are injudiciously
+displayed in their several parts.  She has all--every word--and
+thinks that, perhaps, a justice to Dr. Johnson, which, in fact,
+is the greatest injury to his memory.  The few she has selected
+of her own do her, indeed, much credit; she has discarded all
+that were trivial and merely local, and given only such as
+contain something instructive, amusing, or ingenious.
+
+About four of the letters, however, of my ever-revered Dr.
+Johnson are truly worthy his exalted powers: one is upon death,
+in considering its approach as we are surrounded, or not by
+mourners; another, upon the sudden and premature loss of poor
+Mrs. Thrale's darling and only son.(250)
+
+Our name once occurs: how I started at its sight It is to mention
+the party that planned the first visit to our house: Miss Owen,
+Mr. Seward, Mrs. and Miss Thrale, and Dr. Johnson.  How well
+shall we ever, my Susan, remember that morning!
+
+I have had so many attacks upon her subject, that at last I
+fairly begged quarter,--and frankly owned to Mrs. Schwellenberg
+that I could not endure to speak any more upon the matter,
+endeavouring, at the same time, to explain to her my
+
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+
+long and intimate connection with the family.  Yet nothing I
+could say put a stop to "How can you defend her in this?--how can
+you justify her in that?"" etc.  Alas! that I cannot defend her
+is precisely the reason I can so ill bear to speak of her.  How
+differently and how sweetly has the queen conducted herself -upon
+this occasion!  Eager to see the "Letters," she began reading
+them with the utmost avidity : a natural curiosity arose to be
+informed of several names and several particulars, which she knew
+I could satisfy; yet, when she perceived how tender a string she
+touched, she soon suppressed her inquiries, or only made them
+with so much gentleness towards the parties mentioned, that I
+could not be distressed in my answers; and even In a short time I
+found her questions made so favourable a disposition, that I
+began secretly to rejoice in them, as the means by which I reaped
+opportunity of clearing several points that had been darkened by
+calumny, and of softening others that had been viewed wholly
+through false lights.
+
+Jan. 10.-When we were summoned to the tea-room I met Miss de Luc
+coming out.  I asked if she did not stay tea? "O How can I,"
+cried she, in a voice of distress, "when already, as there is
+company here without me, Mrs. Schwellenberg has asked me what I
+came for?"  I was quite shocked for her, and could only shrug in
+dismay and let her pass.  When there is no one else she is
+courted to stay!
+
+Mr. and Mrs. Fisher came soon after; and the Princesses Augusta
+and Amelia fetched away Mrs. Delany.
+
+Soon after Colonel Wellbred came, ushering in Mr. Fairly and his
+young son, who is at Eton school.  I had seen Mr. F. but once
+since his great and heavy loss, though now near half a year had
+elapsed.  So great a personal alteration in a few months I have
+seldom seen: thin, haggard, worn with care, grief, and watching--
+his hair turned grey--white, rather, and some of his front teeth
+vanished.  He seemed to have suffered, through his feelings, the
+depredations suffered by Others through age and time.  His
+demeanour, upon this trying occasion, filled me with as much
+admiration as his countenance did with compassion : calm,
+composed, and gentle, he seemed bent on appearing not only
+resigned, but cheerful.  I might even have supposed him verging
+on being happy, had not the havoc of grief on his face, and the
+tone of deep melancholy in his voice, assured me his Solitude was
+all sacred to his sorrows.
+
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+
+Mr. Fisher was very sad himself, grieving at the death of Dr.
+Harley, Dean of Windsor and Bishop of Hereford.  He began,
+however, talking to me of these "Letters," and, with him, I could
+speak of them, and of their publisher, without reserve: but the
+moment they were named Mrs. Schwellenberg uttered such hard and
+harsh things, that I could not keep my seat and the less,
+because, knowing my strong friendship there in former days, I was
+sure it was meant I should be hurt, I attempted not to speak,
+well aware all defence is irritation, where an attack is made
+from ill-nature, not justice.
+
+The gentle Mr. Fisher, sorry for the cause and the effect of this
+assault, tried vainly to turn it aside: what began with censure
+soon proceeded to invective; and at last, being really sick from
+crowding recollections of past scenes, where the person now thus
+vilified had been dear and precious to my very heart, I was
+forced, abruptly, to walk out of the room.
+
+It was indifferent to me whether or not my retreat was noticed.
+I have never sought to disguise the warm friendship that once
+subsisted between Mrs. Thrale and myself, for I always hoped
+that, where it was known, reproach might be spared to a name I
+can never hear without a secret pang, even when simply mentioned.
+Oh, then, how severe a one is added, when its sound is
+accompanied by the hardest aspersions!
+
+I returned when I could, and the subject was over.
+When all were gone Mrs. Schwellenberg said, "I have told it Mr.
+Fisher that he drove you out from the room, and he says he won't
+not do it no more."
+
+She told me next--that in the second volume I also was mentioned.
+Where she may have heard this I cannot gather, but it has given
+me a sickness at heart inexpressible.  It is not that I expect
+severity: for at the time of that correspondence--at all times,
+indeed, previous to the marriage with Piozzi, if Mrs. Thrale
+loved not F. B., where shall we find faith in words, or give
+credit to actions?  But her present resentment, however unjustly
+incurred, of my constant disapprobation of her conduct, may
+prompt some note, or other mark, to point out her change of
+sentiments--but let me try to avoid such painful expectations; at
+least, not to dwell upon them.
+
+O, little does she know how tenderly at this moment I could run
+again into her arms, so often opened to receive me with a
+cordiality I believed inalienable.  And it was sincere then, I am
+satisfied: pride, resentment of disapprobation, and consciousness
+of unjustifiable proceedings --- these have now
+
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+
+changed her: but if we met, and she saw and believed my faithful
+regard, how would she again feel all her own return!
+
+Well, what a dream am I making!
+
+Jan. 11.-Upon this ever-interesting subject, I had to-day a very
+sweet scene with the queen.  While Mrs. Schwellenberg and myself
+were both in our usual attendance at noon, her majesty inquired
+of Mrs. Schwellenberg if she had yet read any of the "Letters"?
+
+"No," she answered, "I have them not to read."
+
+I then said she had been so obliging as to lend them to me, to
+whom they were undoubtedly of far greater personal value.
+
+"That is true," said the queen; "for I think there is but little
+in them that can be of much consequence or value to the public at
+large."
+
+"Your majesty, you will hurt Miss Burney if you speak about that;
+poor Miss Burney will be quite hurt by that."
+
+The queen looked much surprised, and I hastily exclaimed, "O,
+no!--not with the gentleness her majesty names it."
+
+Mrs. Schwellenberg then spoke in German; and, I fancy, by the
+names she mentioned, recounted how Mr. Turbulent and Mr. Fisher
+had "driven me out of the room."
+
+The queen seemed extremely astonished, and I was truly vexed at
+this total misunderstanding; and that the goodness she has
+exerted upon this occasion should seem so little to have
+succeeded.  But I could not explain, lest it should seem to
+reproach what was meant as kindness in Mrs. Schwellenberg, who
+had not yet discovered that it was not the subject, but her own
+manner of treating it, that was so painful to me.
+
+However, the instant Mrs. Schwellenberg left the room, and we
+remained alone, the queen, approaching me in the softest manner,
+and looking earnestly in my face, said, "You could not be
+offended, surely, at what I said."
+
+"O no, ma'am," cried I, deeply indeed penetrated by such
+unexpected condescension.  "I have been longing to make a speech
+to your majesty upon this matter; and it was but yesterday that I
+entreated Mrs. Delany to make it for me, and to express to your
+majesty the very deep sense I feel of the lenity with which this
+Subject has been treated in my hearing."
+
+"Indeed," cried she, with eyes strongly expressive of the
+complacency with which she heard me, "I have always spoke as
+little as possible upon this affair.  I remember but twice that I
+have named it: once I said to the Bishop of Carlisle,
+
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+
+that I thought most of these letters had better have been spared
+the printing; and once to Mr. Langton, at the Drawing-room, I
+said, 'Your friend Dr. Johnson, sir, has had many friends busy to
+publish his books, and his memoirs, and his meditations, and his
+thoughts; but I think he wanted one friend more.'  'What for?
+ma'am,' cried he; 'A friend to suppress them,' I answered.  And,
+indeed, this is all I ever said about the business."
+
+
+                            A PAIR OF PARAGONS.
+
+.....I was amply recompensed in spending an evening the most to
+my natural taste of any I have spent officially under the royal
+roof.  How high Colonel Wellbred stands with me you know; Mr.
+Fairly., with equal gentleness, good breeding, and delicacy, adds
+a far more general turn for conversation, and seemed not only
+ready, but pleased, to open upon subjects of such serious import
+as were suited to his state of mind, and could not but be
+edifying, from a man of such high moral character, to all who
+heard him.
+
+Life and death were the deep themes to which he .led; and the
+little space between them, and the little value of that space
+were the subject of his comments.  The unhappiness of man at
+least after the ardour of his first youth, and the near
+worthlessness of the world, seemed so deeply impressed on his
+mind, that no reflection appeared to be consolatory to it, save
+the necessary shortness of our mortal career. . . .
+
+"Indeed," said he, "there is no time--I know of none--in which
+life is well worth having.  The prospect before us is never such
+as to make it worth preserving, except from religious motives."
+
+I felt shocked and sorry.  Has he never tasted happiness, who so
+deeply drinks of sorrow? He surprised me, and filled me, indeed,
+with equal wonder and pity.  At a loss how to make an answer
+sufficiently general, I made none at all, but referred to Colonel
+Wellbred: perhaps he felt the same difficulty, for he said
+nothing; and Mr. Fairly then gathered an answer for himself, by
+saying, "Yes, it may, indeed, be attainable in the only actual as
+well as only right way to seek it,--that of doing good!"
+
+"If," cried Colonel Wellbred, afterwards, "I lived always in
+London, I should be as tired of life as you are: I always sicken
+of it there, if detained beyond a certain time."
+
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+
+They then joined in a general censure of dissipated life, and a
+general distaste of dissipated characters, which seemed, however,
+to comprise almost all their acquaintance; and this presently
+occasioned Mr. Fairly to say,
+
+"It is, however, but fair for you and me to own, Wellbred, that
+if people in general ,'are bad, we live chiefly amongst those who
+are the worst."
+
+Whether he meant any particular set to which they belong, or
+whether his reflection went against people in high life, such 'as
+constitute their own relations and connexions in general, I
+cannot say, as he did not explain himself.
+
+Mr. Fairly, besides the attention due to him from all, in
+consideration of his late loss, merited from me peculiar
+deference, in return for a mark I received of his disposition to
+think favourably of me from our first acquaintance: for not more
+was I surprised than pleased at his opening frankly upon the
+character of my coadjutrix, and telling me at once, that when
+first he saw me here, just before the Oxford expedition, he had
+sincerely felt for and pitied me. . . .
+
+Sunday, Jan. 13.-There is something in Colonel Wellbred so
+elegant, so equal, and so pleasing, it is impossible not to see
+him with approbation, and to speak of him with praise.  But I
+found in Mr. Fairly a much greater depth of understanding, and
+all his sentiments seem formed upon the most perfect basis of
+religious morality.
+
+During the evening, in talking over plays and players, we all
+three united warmly in panegyric of Mrs. Siddons; but when Mrs.
+Jordan was named, Mr. Fairly and myself were left to make the
+best of her.  Observing the silence of Colonel Wellbred, we
+called upon him to explain it.
+
+"I have seen her," he answered, quietly, "but in one part."
+
+"Whatever it was," cried Mr. Fairly, "it must have been well
+done."
+
+"Yes," answered the colonel, "and so well that it seemed to be
+her real character: and I disliked her for that very reason, for
+it was a character that, off the stage or on, is equally
+distasteful to me--a hoyden."
+
+I had had a little of this feeling myself when I saw her in "The
+Romp,"(251) where she gave me, in the early part, a real disgust;
+but afterwards she displayed such uncommon humour that it brought
+me to pardon her assumed vulgarity, in favour of a representation
+of nature, which, In its particular class, seemed to me quite
+perfect.
+
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+
+                    MR. TURBULENT'S SELF CONDEMNATION.
+
+At the usual tea-time I sent Columb, to see if anybody had come
+upstairs.  He brought me word the eating-parlour was empty.  I
+determined to go thither at once, with my work, that there might
+be no pretence to fetch me when the party assembled; but upon
+opening the door I saw Mr. Turbulent there, and alone!
+
+I entered with readiness into discourse with him, and showed a
+disposition to placid good-will, for with so irritable a spirit
+resentment has much less chance to do good than an appearance of
+not supposing it deserved.  Our conversation was in the utmost
+gravity.  He told me he was not happy, though owned he had
+everything to make him so; but he was firmly persuaded that
+happiness in this world was a real stranger.  I combated this
+misanthropy in general terms; but he assured me that such was his
+unconquerable opinion of human life.
+
+How differently did I feel when I heard an almost similar
+sentiment from Mr. Fairly!  In him I imputed it to unhappiness of
+circumstances, and was filled with compassion for his fate: in
+this person I impute it to something blameable within, and I
+tried by all the arguments I could devise to give him better
+notions.  For him, however, I soon felt pity, though not of the
+same composition : for he frankly said he was good enough to be
+happy-that he thought human frailty incompatible with happiness,
+and happiness with human frailty, and that he had no wish so
+strong as to turn monk!
+
+I asked him if he thought a life of uselessness and of goodness
+the same thing?
+
+"I need not be useless," he said; "I might assist by my counsels.
+I might be good in a monastery--in the world I cannot!  I am not
+master of my feelings: I am run away by passions too potent for
+control!"
+
+This was a most unwelcome species of confidence, but I affected
+to treat it as mere talk, and answered it only slightly, telling
+him he spoke from the gloom of the moment.
+
+"No," he answered, "I have tried in vain to conquer them.  I have
+made vows--resolutions--all in vain!  I cannot keep them!"
+
+"Is not weakness," cried I, "sometimes fancied, merely to save
+the pain and trouble of exerting fortitude."
+
+"No, it is with me inevitable.  I am not formed for success in
+self-conquest.  I resolve--I repent--but I fall!  I blame--
+
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+
+reproach--I even hate myself--I do everything, in short, yet
+cannot save myself! Yet do not," he continued, seeing me shrink,
+"think worse of me than I deserve: nothing of injustice, of
+ill-nature, of malignancy--I have nothing of these to reproach
+myself with."
+
+"I believe you," I cried, "and surely, therefore, a general
+circumspection, an immediate watchfulness---"
+
+"No, no, no--'twould be all to no purpose."
+
+"'Tis that hopelessness which is most your enemy.  If you would
+but exert your better reason--"
+
+"No, madam, no!--'tis a fruitless struggle.  I know myself too
+well--I can do nothing so right as to retire--to turn monk--
+hermit."
+
+"I have no respect," cried I, "for these selfish seclusions.  I
+can never suppose we were created in the midst of society, in
+order to run away to a useless solitude.  I have not a doubt but
+you may do well, if you will do well."
+
+Some time after he suddenly exclaimed, "Have you--tell me--have
+you, ma'am, never done what you repent?"
+
+O "yes!--at times."
+
+"You have?" he cried, eagerly.
+
+"O yes, alas!--yet not, I think, very often--for it is not very
+often I have done anything!"
+
+"And what is it has saved you?"
+
+I really did not know well what to answer him; I could say
+nothing that would not sound like parade, or implied superiority.
+I suppose he was afraid himself of the latter ; for, finding me
+silent, he was pleased to answer for me.
+
+"Prejudice, education, accident!--those have saved you."
+
+"Perhaps so," cried I. "And one thing more, I acknowledge myself
+obliged to, on various occasions--fear.  I run no risks that I
+see--I run--but it is always away from all danger that I
+perceive."
+
+"You do not, however, call that virtue, ma'am--you do not call
+that the rule of right?"
+
+"No--I dare not--I must be content that it is certainly not the
+rule of wrong."
+
+He began then an harangue upon the universality of depravity and
+frailty that I heard with much displeasure; for, it seems to me,
+those most encourage such general ideas of
+general worthlessness who most wish to found upon them partial
+excuses for their own.
+
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+
+                    MISS BURNEY AMONG HER OLD FRIENDS.
+
+Jan. 31.--And now I must finish my account of this month by my
+own assembly at my dear Mrs. Ord's.
+
+I passed through the friendly hands of Miss Ord to the most
+cordial ones of Mrs. Garrick,(252) who frankly embraced me,
+saying, "Do I see you, once more, before I die, my tear little
+spark? for your father is my flame, all my life, and you are a
+little spark of that flame!"
+
+She added how much she had wished to visit me at the queen's
+house, when she found I no longer came about the world; but that
+she was too discreet, and I did not dare say "Do come!"
+unauthorized.
+
+Then came Mr. Pepys, and he spoke to me instantly, of the
+'Streatham Letters.'  He is in agony as to his own fate, but said
+there could be no doubt of my faring well.  Not, I assured him,
+to my own content, if named at all.
+
+We were interrupted by Sir Joshua Reynolds.  I was quite glad to
+see him; and we began chatting with all our old spirit,
+and he quite raved against my present life of confinement, an the
+invisibility it had occasioned, etc., etc.
+
+The approach of Mrs. Porteus stopped this.  She is always most
+obliging and courteous, and she came to inquire whether now she
+saw I really was not wholly immured, there was any chance of a
+more intimate cultivation of an acquaintance long begun, but
+stopped in its first progress.  I could only make a general
+answer of acknowledgment to her kindness.  Her bishop, whom I had
+not seen since his preferment from Chester to London, joined us,
+and most good-naturedly entered into discourse upon my health.
+
+I was next called to Mrs. Montagu, who was behind with no one in
+kind speeches, and who insisted upon making me a visit at the
+queen's house, and would take no denial to my fixing my own time,
+whenever I was at leisure, and sending her word; and she promised
+to put off any and every engagement for that Purpose.  I could
+make no other return to such
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+
+civility, but to desire to postpone it till my dear Mr. and Mrs.
+Locke came to town, and could meet her.
+
+Mrs. Boscawen(253) was my next little t`ete-`a-t`ete, but I had
+only begun it when Mr. Cambridge came to my side.
+
+"I can't get a word!" cried he, with a most forlorn look, "and
+yet I came on purpose!" I thanked him, and felt such a real
+pleasure in his sight, from old and never-varying regard, that I
+began to listen to him with my usual satisfaction.  He related to
+me a long history of Lavant, where the new-married Mrs. Charles
+Cambridge is now very unwell: and then he told me many good
+things of his dear and deserving daughter; and I showed him her
+muff, which she had worked for me, in embroidery, and we were
+proceeding a little in the old way, when I saw Mrs. Pepys leaning
+forward to hear us; and then Lady Rothes, who also seemed all
+attention to Mr. Cambridge and his conversation.
+
+The sweet Lady Mulgrave came for only a few words, not to take
+me, she said, from older claimants; the good and wise Mrs.
+Carter(254) expressed herself with equal kindness and goodness on
+our once more meeting; Miss Port, looking beautiful as a little
+angel, only once advanced to shake hands, and say, "I can see you
+another time, so I won't be unreasonable now."
+
+Mr. Smelt, who came from Kew for this party, made me the same
+speech, and no more, and I had time for nothing beyond a "how do
+do " with Mr. Langton, his Lady Rothes,(255) Mr. Batt, Mr.
+Cholmondoley, Lord Mulgrave, Sir Lucas Pepys, and Lady Herries.
+
+Then up came Mrs. Chapone, and, after most cordially shaking
+hands with me, "But I hope," she cried, "you are not always to
+appear only as a comet, to be stared at, and then vanish?  If you
+are, let me beg at least to be brushed by your tail, and not hear
+you have disappeared before my telescope is ready for looking at
+you!"
+When at last I was able to sit down, after a short conference
+with every one, it was next to Mr. Walpole,(256) who had secured
+
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+me a place by his side ; and with him was my longest
+conversation, for he was in high spirits, polite, ingenious,
+entertaining, quaint, and original.
+
+But all was so short!--so short!--I was forced to return home so
+soon! 'Twas, however, a very great regale to me, and the sight of
+so much kindness, preserved so entire after so long an absence,
+warmed my whole heart with pleasure and satisfaction.  My dearest
+father brought me home.
+
+
+
+                       SOME TRIVIAL COURT INCIDENTS.
+
+Friday, Feb. 1.-To-day I had a summons in the morning to Mrs.
+Schwellenberg, who was very ill; so ill as to fill me with
+compassion.  She was extremely low-spirited, and spoke to me with
+quite unwonted kindness of manner, and desired me to accept a
+sedan-chair, which had been Mrs. Haggerdorn's, and now devolved
+to her, saying, I might as well have it while she lived as when
+she was dead, which would soon happen.
+
+I thanked her, and wished her, I am sure very sincerely, better.
+Nor do I doubt her again recovering, as I have frequently seen
+her much worse.  True, she must die at last, but who must not?
+
+Feb. 2.-The king always makes himself much diversion with Colonel
+Goldsworthy, whose dryness of humour and pretended servility of
+submission, extremely entertain him.  He now attacked him upon
+the enormous height of his collar, which through some mistake of
+his tailor, exceeded even the extremity of fashion.  And while
+the king, who was examining and pulling it about, had his back to
+us, Colonel Wellbred had the malice to whisper me, "Miss Burney,
+I do assure you it is nothing to what it was; he has had two
+inches cut off since morning!
+
+Fortunately, as Colonel Wellbred stood next me, this was not
+heard for the king would not easily have forgotten.  He soon
+after went away, but gave no summons to his gentlemen.
+
+And now Colonel Wellbred gave me another proof of his
+extraordinary powers of seeing.  You now know, my dear friends,
+that in the king's presence everybody retreats back, as far as
+they can go, to leave him the room to himself.  In all this,
+through the disposition of the chairs, I was placed so much
+behind Colonel Wellbred as to conclude myself out of his sight;
+but the moment the king retired, he said, as
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+we all dropped on Our seats, "Everybody is tired--Miss Burney the
+most--for she has stood the stillest.  Miss Planta has leant on
+her chair, Colonel Goldsworthy against the wall, myself
+occasionally on the screen, but Miss Burney has stood perfectly
+still--I perceived that without looking."
+
+'Tis, indeed, to us standers, an amazing addition to fatigue to
+keep still.
+
+We returned to town next day.  In the morning I had had a very
+disagreeable, though merely foolish, embarrassment.  Detained, by
+the calling in of a poor woman about a subscription, from
+dressing myself, I was forced to run to the queen, at her
+summons, without any cap.  She smiled, but said nothing.  Indeed,
+she is all indulgence in those points of externals, which rather
+augments than diminishes my desire of showing apparent as well as
+my feeling of internal respect but just as I had assisted her
+with her peignoir, Lady Effingham was admitted, and the moment
+she sat down, and the hair-dresser began his office, a page
+announced the Duke of York, who instantly followed his name.
+
+I would have given the world to have run away, but the common
+door of entrance and exit was locked, unfortunately, on account
+of the coldness of the day; and there was none to pass, but that
+by which his royal highness entered, and was standing.  I was
+forced.  therefore, to remain, and wait for dismission.
+
+Yet I was pleased, too, by the sight of his affectionate manner
+to his royal mother.  He flew to take and kiss her hand, but she
+gave him her cheek; and then he began a conversation with her, so
+open and so gay, that he seemed talking to the most intimate
+associate.
+
+His subject was Lady Augusta Campbell's elopement from.  the
+masquerade.  The Duchess of Ancaster had received masks at her
+house on Monday, and sent tickets to all the queen's household.
+I, amongst the rest, had one; but it was impossible I could be
+spared at such an hour, though the queen told me that she had
+thought of my going, but could not manage it, as Mrs.
+Schwellenberg was so ill.  Miss Planta went, and I had the entire
+equipment of her.  I started the Project of dressing her at Mrs.
+Delany's, in all the most antique and old-fashioned things we
+could borrow; and this was Put very happily in execution, for she
+was, I have heard, one of the best and most grotesque figures in
+the room.
+
+(239) Henry William Bunbury, the well-known caricaturist.  He was
+connected by marriage with Colonel Gwynn, having married, in
+1771, Catherine, the "Little Comedy," sister of the "Jessamy
+Bride."-ED.
+
+(240) i.e., of the Play which was to be read by Mrs. Siddons.
+See P- 55.-ED.
+
+(241) This excellent comedy was completed by Colley Cibber, from
+an unfinished play of Sir John Vanbrugh's.-ED.
+
+(242) See note 210, ante, vol. 1, P. 370.-ED.
+
+(243) Mr.  Anthony Shepherd, Plumian Professor of Astronomy at
+Cambridge.  We meet with him occasionally in the "Early Diary:"
+"dullness itself" Fanny once calls him (in 1774).-ED.
+
+(244) Fanny's maid.-ED.
+
+(245) Susan Phillips and the Lockes had stayed at Windsor from
+the 10th to the 17th of September.-ED.
+
+(246) This magnificent panegyric relates to a young amateur,
+William Locke, the son of Fanny's friends, Mr. and Mrs. Locke.
+But      there was more than a little of the amateur about Mr.
+Bunbury himself.  His works bear no comparison with those of the
+great masters of caricatured Rowlandson and Gulray.-ED.
+
+(247) Fanny's man-servant, a Swiss.-ED.
+
+(248) Mr. Fisher was a canon at Windsor, and an amateur
+landscape-painter.  He had recently married.-ED.
+
+(249) "Letters to and from Dr. Johnson," published by Mrs. Piozzi
+in 1788.-ED.
+
+(250) Thrale's only son died, a child, in March, 1776.--ED.
+
+(251) A farce, adapted from Bickerstaff's opera, "Love in the
+City."-ED.
+
+(252) Eva Maria Feigel, a Viennese dancer, whom Garrick married
+in 1749.  Fanny writes of her in 1771: "Mrs. Garrick is the most
+attentively polite and perfectly well-bred woman in the world;
+her speech is all softness; her manners all elegance; her smiles
+all sweetness.  There is something so peculiarly graceful in her
+motion, and pleasing in her address, that the most trifling words
+have weight and power, when spoken by her, to oblige and even
+delight."  ("Early Diary," vol. i. p. 111.)  She died in 1822;
+her husband in 1779.-ED.
+
+(253) The Hon. Mrs. Boscawen, widow of Admiral Boscawen.-ED.
+
+(254) Elizabeth Carter, the celebrated translator of Epictetus.
+She was now in her seventieth year, and had been for many years
+an esteemed friend of Dr. Johnson.  She died in 1806.-ED. , '
+
+(255) Mr. Langton's wife was the Countess dowager of Rothes,
+widow of the eighth earl.  Lady Jane Leslie, who married Sir
+Lucas Pepys, the physician, also enjoyed, in her own right, the
+title of Countess of Rothes.-ED.
+
+(256) Horace Walpole. -E D.
+
+
+
+
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+                                SECTION 12.
+                                  (1788.)
+
+                       THE TRIAL OF WARREN HASTINGS.
+
+
+[Probably few events in the history of England are more familiar
+to the general reader than the trial of Warren Hastings.  If
+nowhere else, at least in the best known and, perhaps, most
+brilliant of Macaulay's essays every one has read of the career
+of that extraordinary man, and of the long contest in Westminster
+Hall, from which he came forth acquitted, after an ordeal of
+seven years' duration.  We shall, accordingly, confine our
+remarks upon this subject within the narrowest limits consistent
+with intelligibility: Fanny's experiences of the trial, recorded
+in the following pages, rendering some review of the proceedings
+which caused it here indispensable.
+
+Warren Hastings was a lad of seventeen when, in 1750, he was
+first sent out to India as a writer in the East India Company's
+service.  His abilities attracted the notice of Clive, and, after
+the downfall of the Nawab Suraj-u-Dowlah, Hastings was chosen to
+represent the Company at the Court of Mir Jafir, the new Nawab of
+Bengal.  In 1761 he was appointed Member of Council at Calcutta,
+and he returned to England in 1765, unknown as yet to fame, but
+with an excellent reputation both for efficiency and integrity.
+He left Bengal in a state of anarchy.  The actual power was in
+the possession of a trading company, whose objects were at once
+to fill their coffers, and to avoid unnecessary political
+complications.  The show of authority was invested in a Nawab who
+was a mere puppet in the hands of the English company.  Disorder
+was rampant throughout the provinces, and the unhappy Hindoos,
+unprotected by their native princes, were left a helpless prey to
+the rapacity of their foreign tyrants.
+
+At a time when to enrich himself with the plunder of the natives
+was the aim of every servant of the East India Company, it is
+much to the honour of Hastings that he returned home a
+comparatively poor man.  In England he indulged his taste for
+literary society, busied himself with a scheme for introducing at
+
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+oxford the study of the Persian language and literature, and made
+the acquaintance of Dr. Johnson.  But generosity and imprudence
+together soon reduced his small means.  He applied to the
+Directors of the Company for employment, was appointed to a seat
+on the Council at Madras, and made his second voyage to India in
+1769.  Among his fellow-passengers on board the "Duke of Grafton"
+was Madame Imhoff, whom he afterwards married.
+
+At Madras Hastings managed the export business of the Company
+with conspicuous success, and so completely to the satisfaction
+of the Directors, that, two years later, he was promoted to the
+governorship of Bengal, and sent to exercise his administrative
+ability and genius for reform -%N here they were then 'greatly
+needed-at Calcutta.  With this appointment his historic career
+may be said to commence.  He found himself at the outset in a
+situation of extreme difficulty.  He was required to establish
+something- resembling a stable government in place of the
+prevailing anarchy, and, above all things, with disordered
+finances, to satisfy the expectations of his' employers by
+constant remittances of money.  Both these tasks he accomplished,
+but the difficulties in the way of the latter led him to the
+commission of those acts for which he was afterwards denounced by
+his enemies as a monster of injustice and barbarity.
+Hastings's conduct with respect to the Great Mogul has been
+sketched by Macaulay in words which imply a reprehension in
+reality undeserved.  Little remained at this time of the
+magnificent empire of Aurungzebe beyond a title and a palace at
+Delhi.  In 1765 Lord Clive had ceded to the titular master of the
+Mogul empire the districts of Corah and Allahabad, lying to the
+south of Oude, and westwards of Benares.  The cession had been
+made in pursuance of the same policy which Hastings afterwards
+followed; that, namely, of sheltering the British possessions
+behind a barrier of friendly states, which should be sufficiently
+strong to withstand the incursions of their hostile neighbours,
+and particularly of the Mahrattas, the most warlike and dreaded
+of the native powers.  But Clive's purpose had been completely
+frustrated; for the Mogul, far from shielding the English, had
+not been able to hold his own against the Mahrattas, to whom he
+had actually ceded the very territories made over to him by the
+Company.  Under these circumstances the English authorities can
+hardly be blamed for causing their troops to re-occupy the
+districts in question, nor can it fairly be imputed as a crime to
+Hastings that in September, 1773, he concluded with the Vizier of
+Oude the treaty of Benares, by which he sold Allahabad and Corah
+to that friendly potentate for about half a million sterling.
+
+But the next act of foreign policy on the part of the Governor of
+Bengal--his share in the subjugation of the Rohillas--does not
+admit of so favourable an interpretation.  The Rohillas occupied
+territory lying under the southern slopes of the Himalayas, to
+the north-west of Oude.  The dominant race in Rohilcund was of
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+
+Afghan origin, although the majority of the population was
+Hindoo.  Of the rulers of Rohilcund Hastings himself wrote, in
+terms which we may accept as accurate, "They are a tribe of
+Afghans or Pathans, freebooters who conquered the country about
+sixty years ago, and have ever since lived upon the fruits of it,
+without contributing either to its cultivation or manufactures,
+or even mixing with the native inhabitants."(257)
+
+In 1772, the Rohillas, hard pressed by their foes, the Mahrattas,
+sought the assistance of the Vizier of Oude, Shuja-u-Dowlah, to
+whom they agreed to pay, in return for his aid, a large sum of
+money.  This agreement was signed in the presence of an English
+general, and an English brigade accompanied the vizier's army,
+which co-operated with the Rohilla forces, and obliged the
+Mahrattas to withdraw.  But when Shula-u-Dowlah demanded his
+promised hire, he received from the Rohillas plenty of excuses
+but no money.  Hereupon he resolved to annex Rohilcund to his own
+dominions, and, to ensure success, he concerted measures with
+Hastings, who, willing at once to strengthen a friendly power and
+to put money into his own exchequer, placed an English brigade at
+the vizier's disposal for a consideration Of 400,000 pounds.  In
+the spring of 1774 the invasion took place.  The desperate
+bravery of the Rohillas was of no avail against English
+discipline, and the country was so reduced to submission.
+Macaulay's stirring account of the barbarities practised by the
+invaders has been proved to be greatly exaggerated.  Disorders,
+however, there were: the people were plundered, and some of the
+villages were burnt by the vizier's troops.  Many of the Rohilla
+families were exiled, but the Hindoo inhabitants of Rohilcund
+were left to till their fields as before, and were probably not
+greatly affected by their change of master.
+
+Hastings's conduct in this affair is, from the most favourable
+point of view, rather to be excused than applauded.  It may have
+been politic under the circumstances, but it was hardly in
+accordance with a high standard of morality to let out on hire an
+English force for the subjugation of a people who, whatever
+grounds of complaint the Vizier of Oude might have had against
+them, had certainly given no provocation whatsoever to the
+English Government.  As to the plea which has been put forward in
+his favour, that the Rohillas were merely the conquerors, and not
+the original owners of Rohilcund, it is sufficiently answered, by
+Macaulay's query, "What were the English themselves?"
+
+In 1773 Lord North's "Regulating Act" introduced considerable
+changes in the constitution of the Indian government, and marked
+the first step in the direction of a transfer of the control over
+Indian affairs from the Company to the Crown.  By this act "the
+governorship of Bengal, Bahar, and Orissa was vested in the
+Governor-General, with four Councillors, having authority over
+
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+
+
+Madras and Bombay ; and all correspondence relating to civil
+government or military affairs was to be laid by the Directors of
+the Company in London before his -Majesty's Ministers, who Could
+disapprove or cancel any rules or orders.  A Supreme Court of
+judicature, appointed by the Crown, was established in
+Calcutta."(258)  The Governor-General was appointed for a term of
+five years, and the first Governor-General was Hastings.  Of the
+four councillors with whom he was associated, three were sent out
+from England to take their places at the board, and landed at
+Calcutta, together with the judges of the Supreme Court, in
+October, 1771.  Indisputably the ablest, and, as it proved,
+historically the most noteworthy of these three, was Philip
+Francis, the supposed author of "Junius's Letters."
+
+Even before the council commenced its duties dissensions arose.
+The newcomers, Francis, Clavering, and Monson, were in constant
+opposition to the Governor-General.  Indeed, the hostility
+between Hastings and Francis rose by degrees to such a height
+that, some years later, they met in a duel, in which Francis was
+severely wounded.  For the present, however, the opponents of
+Hastings formed a majority on the council, and his authority was
+in eclipse.  His ill-wishers in the country began to bestir
+themselves, and a scandalous and, there is no doubt, utterly
+untrue charge of accepting bribes was brought against him by an
+old enemy, the Maharajah Nuncomar.  Hastings replied by
+prosecuting Nuncomar and his allies for conspiracy.  The accused
+were admitted to bail, but a little later Nuncomar was arrested
+on a charge of having forged a bond some years previously, tried
+before an English jury, condemned to death, and hanged, August 5,
+1775, his application for leave to appeal having been rejected by
+the Chief justice, Sir Elijah Impey.  Hastings solemnly declared
+his innocence of any share in this transaction, nor is there any
+evidence directly implicating him.  On the other hand, it must he
+remembered that Nuncomar had preferred a most serious charge
+against Hastings; that the majority on the council were only too
+ready to listen to any charge, well or ill founded, against the
+Governor-General; and that Nuncomar's triumph would, in all
+probability, have meant Hastings's ruin.  Even Mr. Forrest admits
+that "it is extremely probable, as Francis stated, that if
+Nuncomar had never stood forth in politics, his other offences
+would not have hurt him."(259)  Macaulay comments upon the
+scandal of this stringent enforcement Of the English law against
+forgery under circumstances so peculiar, and in a country where
+the English law was totally unknown.(260) That Nuncomar was
+fairly tried and convicted
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+
+in the ordinary course of law is now beyond doubt, but we still
+hold that it was Impey's clear duty to respite his prisoner.
+That he did not do so is a fact which, beyond all others, gave
+colour to the assertion of Hastings's enemies, that the execution
+of Nuncomar was the result of a secret understanding between the
+Governor-General of Bengal and the Chief justice of the Supreme
+Court.  But, however brought about, the death of Nuncomar was to
+the opponents of Hastings a blow from which they never recovered.
+The death of Monson, in September, 1776, and that of Clavering, a
+year later, placed him in a majority on the council ; his
+authority was more undisputed than ever ; and at the expiration
+of his term he was re-appointed Governor-General.
+
+During the years 1780 and 1781 British rule in India passed
+through the most dangerous crisis that had befallen it since the
+days of Clive.  A formidable confederacy had been formed between
+the Nizam, the Mahrattas, and the famous Hyder Ali, Sultan of
+Mysore, with the object of crushing their common enemy, the
+English.  The hostility of these powerful states had been
+provoked by the blundering and bad faith of the governments of
+Bombay and Madras, which had made, and broken, treaties with each
+of them in turn.  "As to the Mahrattas," to quote the words of
+Burke, "they had so many cross treaties with the states general
+of that nation, and with each of the chiefs, that it was
+notorious that no one of these agreements could be kept without
+grossly violating the rest."(261)  The war in which the Bombay
+Government had engaged with the Mahrattas had been as
+unsuccessful in its prosecution as it was impolitic in its
+commencement, until, early in 1780, a force under General Goddard
+was dispatched from Bengal to co-operate with the Bombay troops.
+Goddard's arrival turned the tide of events.  The province of
+Gujerat was reduced, the Mahratta chiefs, Sindia and Holkar, were
+defeated, and everything portended a favourable termination of
+the war, when the whole face of affairs was changed by news from
+the south.
+
+Hyder Ali, the most able and warlike of the native princes, swept
+down upon the Carnatic in July, 1780, at the head of a
+disciplined army of nearly 100,000 men.  He was now an old man,
+but age had not broken his vigour.  He rapidly overran the
+country; an English force, under Colonel Baillie, which opposed
+him, was cut to pieces, and Madras itself was threatened.  The
+prompt measures adopted by Hastings on this occasion saved the
+colony.  Reinforcements were hurried to Madras; the veteran, Sir
+Eyre Coote, was entrusted with the command of the army; and the
+triumphant
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+career of Hyder Ali was checked by the victory of Porto Novo,
+July 1st, 1781.  The end of the war, however, was yet far off.
+Peace was concluded with the Mahrattas, on terms honourable to
+them, in 1782, but in the south the struggle was still maintained
+by Hyder Ali and his French allies, and after Hyder Ali's death,
+in December of that year, by his son Tippoo; nor was it brought
+to a termination until after the general peace Of 1783.
+
+To support the financial strain of these wars Hastings had
+recourse to measures which, with the colouring given to them by
+his enemies, gave subsequent rise to two of the heaviest charges
+brought forward by the managers of his impeachment.  His first
+victim was Cheyt Sing, the Rajah of Benares, a tributary of the
+English Government.  Cheyt Sing had been formerly a vassal of the
+Vizier of Oude, and when, in 1775, the vizier transferred his
+sovereign rights over Benares to the English, the Bengal
+Government confirmed the possession of the city and its
+dependencies to Cheyt Sing and his heirs for ever, stipulating
+only for the payment of an annual tribute, and undertaking that
+the regular payment of this tribute should acquit the Rajah of
+further obligations.  It was afterwards contended on behalf of
+Hastings that this undertaking did not annul the right of the
+superior power to call upon its vassal for extraordinary aid on
+extraordinary occasions, and this view was upheld by Pitt.
+
+Hastings began operations in 1778 by demanding of the Rajah, in
+addition to his settled tribute, a large contribution towards the
+war expenses.  The sum was paid, but similar requisitions in the
+following years were met with procrastination or evasion, and a
+demand that the Rajah should furnish a contingent of cavalry was
+not complied with.  This conduct on the part of Cheyt Sing
+appeared to the Governor-General and his Council "to require
+early punishment, and, as his wealth was great and the Company's
+exigencies pressing," in 1781 a fine of fifty lakhs, of rupees
+(500,000 pounds) was laid upon the unlucky Rajah; Hastings
+himself proceeding to Benares, with a small escort, to enforce
+payment.  Cheyt Sing received his unwelcome visitor with due
+respect, but with ambiguous answers, and Hastings, most
+imprudently, gave the order for the Rajah's arrest.  The Rajah
+submitted, but his troops and the population of Benares rose to
+the rescue : a portion of Hastings's little force was massacred,
+the Rajah regained his liberty, and the Governor-General found
+safety only in flight.  The insurrection rapidly spread to the
+country around, and assumed dangerous proportions, but the
+promptitude and vigour of-Hastings soon restored order.  Cheyt
+Sing was deposed, compelled to flee his country, his estates were
+confiscated, and a new Rajah of Benares was appointed in his
+stead.
+
+The charge subsequently preferred against Hastings in connection
+with this affair turned upon the question whether Cheyt Sing Was,
+as the prosecutors affirmed, a sovereign prince who owed no duty
+to the Bengal government beyond the payment (which he
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+had regularly performed) of a fixed annual tribute; or as
+Hastings contended, a mere feudal vassal, bound to furnish aid
+when called upon by his over-lord.  Pitt, as we have said, took
+the latter view, yet he gave his support to the charge on the
+ground that the fine imposed upon the Rajah of Benares was
+excessive., Upon the whole, it would appear that Hastings was
+acting within his rights in demanding an extraordinary subsidy
+from the Rajah but the enormous amount of the fine, and the
+harshness and in' dignity with which Cheyt Sing was treated,
+point to a determination on the part of the Governor-General to
+ruin a subject prince, with whom, moreover, it was known he had
+personal grounds of pique.
+
+The deposition of Cheyt Sing was followed by an act on which was
+afterwards founded the most sensational of all the charges
+brought against Warren Hastings.  Shuja-u-Dowlah, the Nawab
+Vizier of Oude, to whom Hastings had sold the Rohillas, died in
+1775, and was succeeded by his son Asaph-u-Dowlah.  At the time
+of his death Shuja-u-Dowlah was deeply in debt, both to his own
+army and to the Bengal Government.  The treasure which he left
+was estimated at two millions sterling, but this vast sum of
+money and certain rich estates were appropriated by his mother
+and widow, the begums, or princesses, of Oude, under the pretence
+of a will which may possibly have existed, but was certainly
+never Produced.  With this wealth at their disposal the begums
+enjoyed a practical independence of the new vizier, who was no
+match in energy and resolution for his mother and grandmother.  A
+small portion, however, of the money was paid over to the vizier,
+on the understanding, guaranteed by the Bengal Government, that
+the begums should be left in undisturbed enjoyment of the
+remainder of their possessions.  Hastings believed, and, it would
+seem, on good grounds, that the younger begum had busied herself
+actively in fomenting the insurrection which broke out upon the
+arrest of Cheyt Sing at Benares.  He conceived a plan by which he
+might at once punish the rebellious princesses, and secure for
+the exchequer at Calcutta the arrears of debt due from the
+Government of Oude.  He withdrew the guarantee, and urged the
+Vizier to seize upon the estates possessed by the begums.
+Asaph-u-Dowlah came willingly into the arrangement, but, when it
+became necessary to act, his heart failed him.  Hastings,
+however, was not to be trifled with.  English troops were
+employed: the begums were closely confined in their palace at
+Fyzabad; and, to the lasting disgrace of Hastings, their personal
+attendants were starved and even tortured, until they consented
+to surrender their money and estates.  Hastings's conduct in
+withdrawing the guarantee was not without justification ; the
+means which he suffered to be employed in carrying out his
+purpose, and for the employment of which he must be held
+primarily responsible, were utterly indefensible.
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+Long before his return to England, the Governor-General's
+proceedings had engaged no little share of public attention in
+this country.  In Parliament
+the attack was led by Burke and Fox;
+
+Hastings's chief defender was one Major Scott, an Indian officer
+whom he had sent over to England as his agent in 1780, and who
+maintained his patron's cause by voice and pen, in Parliament and
+in the press, with far more energy than discretion.  In 1784 Mrs.
+Hastings arrived in England, bringing home with her, says
+Wraxall, "about 40,000 pounds, acquired without her husband's
+privity or approval;" and a year later her husband followed her,
+having
+resigned his Governor-Generalship.  The fortune which he now
+possessed was moderate, his opportunities considered, and had
+been honourably acquired; for his motives had never been
+mercenary, and the money which he had wrung from Indian princes
+had invariably been applied to the service of the Company or the
+necessities of his administration.  He was received with honour
+by the Directors and with favour by the Court.  There was talk of
+a peerage for him, and he believed himself not only beyond
+danger, but in the direct road to reward and distinction.  But
+all this was the calm which preceded the storm.  The enemies of
+Hastings were active and bitterly in earnest, and they were
+receiving invaluable assistance from his old opponent in council,
+Francis, who had returned to England in 1781.  In April, 1786,
+the charges, drawn up by Burke, were laid on the table of the
+House of Commons.  The first charge, respecting the Rohilla war,
+was thrown out by the House, ministers siding with the accused.
+But on the second charge, relating to the Rajah of Benares, the
+Prime Minister, Pitt, declared against Hastings on the ground
+that, although the Governor-General had the right to impose a
+fine upon his vassal, the amount of the fine was excessive, and
+the motion was affirmed by a majority of forty votes.  Early the
+next session, in February, 1787, Sheridan moved the third charge,
+touching the begums of Oude, in a speech which was pronounced the
+most brilliant ever delivered in the House of Commons.  The
+majority against Hastings was on this occasion increased to one
+hundred and seven, Pitt, as before, supporting the motion.  Other
+charges of oppression and corruption were then gone into and
+affirmed, and in May, by order of the House, Burke formally
+impeached Warren Hastings of high crimes and misdemeanours at the
+bar of the House of Lords.  The accused was admitted to bail,
+himself in 20,000 pounds, and two sureties in 10,000 pounds each.
+The Committee of Management, elected by the Commons to conduct
+the impeachment, included Burke and Fox, Sheridan and Windham,
+and the trial was opened before the Lords, in Westminster Hall,
+on the 13th of February, 1788.
+
+After two days occupied in reading the charges and the
+defendant's replies, Burke arose and opened the case for the
+prosecution in a speech full of eloquent exaggeration and
+honourable
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+zeal in the cause of an oppressed people.  He spoke during days,
+after which the Benares charge was brought forward by Fox and
+Grey (afterwards Earl Grey), the youngest of the managers, and
+that relating to the Begums by Adam and Sheridan.  The court then
+adjourned to the next session.  But it is unnecessary here to
+follow the details of this famous trial which "dragged its slow
+length along" for seven years.  In the spring of 1795 Hastings
+was acquitted, by a large majority, on all counts; and, although
+his conduct had, in some particulars, been far from faultless,
+and the sincerity of his principal accusers was beyond question,
+his acquittal must be owned as just as it was honourable,
+especially when we remember that his action had been entirely
+uninfluenced by considerations of private advantage, that he had
+endured for so many anxious years the burden of an impeachment,
+that he was ruined in fortune by the expenses of the trial, and
+that his great services to his country had been left wholly
+without reward.
+
+His poverty, however, was relieved by the Directors of the East
+India Company, who bestowed upon him a pension of 4,000 a year,
+and he passed the remainder of his long life in honourable
+retirement.  He died in 1818, his wife, to whom he was always
+devotedly attached, surviving him by a few Years.
+
+The following section contains little besides the account of
+Fanny's visits to Westminster Hall during the early days of the
+trial.  One other event, however, it relates, of sorrowful
+significance to the diarist.  By the death of Mrs. Delany, on the
+11th of April, 17; she lost at once a dear and venerated friend,
+and her only occasional refuge from the odious tyranny of Court
+routine.-ED.]
+
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+
+          WESTMINSTER HALL AT THE OPENING OF THE HASTINGS TRIAL.
+February 13th.
+O what an interesting transaction does this day open! a day,
+indeed, of strong emotion to me, though all upon matters foreign
+to any immediate concern of my own--if anything may be called
+foreign that deeply interests us, merely because it is not
+personal.
+
+The trial, so long impending, of Mr. Hastings, opened to-day.
+
+The queen yesterday asked me if I wished to be present at the
+beginning, or had rather take another day.  I was greatly obliged
+by her condescension, and preferred the opening.  I thought it
+would give me a general view of the court, and the manner of
+proceeding, and that I might read hereafter the speeches and
+evidence.  She then told me she had six tickets from Sir Peter
+Burrell, the grand chamberlain, for every day; that three were
+for his box, and three for his gallery.  She asked me who I would
+go with, and promised me a box-ticket not only for myself, but my
+companion.  Nor was this consideration all she showed me for she
+added, that as I might naturally wish for my father, she would
+have me send him my other ticket.
+
+I thanked her very gratefully, and after dinner went to St.
+Martin's-street; but all there was embarrassing: my father could
+not go; he was averse to be present at the trial, and he was a
+little lame from a fall.  In the end I sent an express to
+Hammersmith, to desire Charles(262) to come to me the next
+morning by eight o'clock.  I was very sorry not to have my
+father, as he had been named by the queen; but I was glad to have
+Charles.
+
+I told her majesty at night the step I had ventured to take, and
+she was perfectly content with it.  "But I must trouble you," she
+said, "with Miss Gomme, who has no other way to go."
+
+This morning the queen dispensed with all attendance from me
+after her first dressing, that I might haste away.  Mrs.
+Schwellenberg was fortunately well enough to take the whole duty,
+and the sweet queen not only hurried me off, but sent me some
+cakes from her own breakfast-table, that I might
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+
+carry them, in my pocket, lest I should have no time for eating
+before I went.
+
+Charles was not in time, but we all did well in the end We got to
+Westminster Hall between nine and ten O'clock; and, as I know my
+dear Susan, like my-self, was never at a trial, I will
+give some account of the place and arrangements'; and whether the
+description be new to her or old, my partial Fredy will not blame
+it.
+
+The grand chamberlain's box Is in the centre of the upper end of
+the Hall: there we sat, Miss Gomme and myself, immediately behind
+the chair placed for Sir Peter Burrell.  To the left, on the same
+level, were the green benches for the House of Commons, which
+occupied a third of the upper end of the Hall, and the whole of
+the left side: to the right of us, on the same level, was the
+grand chamberlain's gallery.
+
+The right side of the Hall, opposite to the green benches for the
+commons, was appropriated to the peeresses and peers' daughters.
+The bottom of the Hall contained the royal family's box and the
+lord high steward's, above which was a large gallery appointed
+for receiving company with peers' tickets.
+
+A gallery also was run along the left side of the Hall, above the
+green benches, which is called the Duke of Newcastle's box, the
+centre of which was railed off into a separate apartment for the
+reception of the queen and four eldest princesses, who were then
+incog., not choosing to appear in state, and in their own box.
+
+Along the right side of the Hall ran another gallery, over the
+seats of the peeresses, and this was divided into boxes for
+various people--the lord chamberlain, (not the great
+chamberlain,) the surveyor, architect, etc.
+
+So much for all the raised buildings ; now for the disposition of
+the Hall itself, or ground.  In the middle was placed a large
+table, and at the head of it the seat for the chancellor, and
+round it seats for the judges, the masters in chancery, the
+clerks, and all who belonged to the law; the upper end, and the
+right side of the room, was allotted to the peers in their robes;
+the left side to the bishops and archbishops.
+
+Immediately below the great chamberlain's box was the place
+allotted for the prisoner.  On his right side was a box for his
+own counsel, on his left the box for the managers, or committee,
+for the prosecution; and these three most important of all the
+divisions in the Hall were all directly adjoining to where I was
+seated.
+
+Almost the moment I entered I was spoken to by a lady I
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+did not recollect, but found afterwards to be Lady Claremont and
+this proved very agreeable, for she took Sir Peter's place: and
+said she would occupy it till he claimed it; and then, when just
+before me, she named to me all the order of the buildings, and
+all the company, pointing out every distinguished person, and
+most obligingly desiring me to ask her any questions I wanted to
+have solved, as she knew, she said, "all those creatures that
+filled the green benches, looking so little like gentlemen, and
+so much like hair-dressers," These were the Commons.  In truth,
+she did the honours of the Hall to me with as much good nature
+and good breeding as if I had been a foreigner of distinction, to
+whom she had dedicated her time and attention.  My acquaintance
+with her had been made formerly at Mrs. Vesey's.
+
+The business did not begin till near twelve o'clock.  The opening
+to the whole then took place, by the entrance of the managers of
+the prosecution; all the company were already long in their boxes
+or galleries.  I shuddered, and drew Involuntarily back, when, as
+the doors were flung open, I saw Mr. Burke, as head of the
+committee, make his solemn entry.  He held a scroll in his hand,
+and walked alone, his brow knit with corroding care and deep
+labouring thought,---a brow how different to that which had
+proved so alluring to my warmest admiration when first I met him!
+so highly as he had been my favourite, so captivating as I had
+found his manners; and conversation in our first acquaintance,
+and so much as I had owed to his zeal and kindness to me and my
+affairs in its progress! How did I grieve to behold him now the
+cruel prosecutor (such to me he appeared) of an injured and
+innocent man!
+
+Mr. Fox followed next, Mr. Sheridan, Mr. Windham, Messrs.
+Anstruther, Grey, Adam, Michael Angelo Taylor, Pelham, Colonel
+North, Mr. Frederick Montagu, Sir Gilbert Elliot, General
+Burgoyne, Dudley Long, etc.  They were all named over to me by
+Lady Claremont, or I should not have recollected even those of my
+acquaintance, from the shortness of my sight,
+
+When the committee box was filled the House of Commons at large
+took their seats on their green benches, which stretched, as I
+have said, along the whole left side of the Hall, and, taking in
+a third of the upper end, joined to the great Chamberlain's box,
+from which nothing separated them but a Partition of about two
+feet in height.
+
+Then began the procession, the clerks entering first, then
+
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+
+the lawyers according to their rank, and the peers, bishops, and
+officers, all in their coronation robes; concluding with the
+princes of the blood,--Prince William, son to the Duke of
+Gloucester, coming first, then the Dukes of Cumberland,
+Gloucester, and York, then the Prince of Wales; and the whole
+ending by the chancellor, with his train borne.  They then all
+took their seats.
+
+
+                    WARREN HASTINGS APPEARS AT THE BAR.
+
+A sergeant-at- arms arose, and commanded silence in court, on
+pain of imprisonment.  Then some other officer, in a loud voice,
+called out, as well as I can recollect, words to this purpose:--
+"Warren Hastings, esquire, come forth! Answer to the charges
+brought against you; save your bail, or forfeit your
+recognizance."
+
+ Indeed I trembled at these words, and hardly Could
+keep my place when I found Mr. Hastings was being brought to the
+bar.  He came forth from some place immediately under the great
+chamberlain's box, and was preceded by Sir Francis Molyneux,
+gentleman-usher of the black rod; and at each side of him walked
+his bail, Messrs. Sulivan and Sumner.
+
+The moment he came in sight, which was not for full ten minutes
+after his awful summons, he made a low bow to the chancellor and
+court facing him.  I saw not his face, as he was directly under
+me.  He moved on slowly, and, I think, supported between his two
+bails, to the opening of his own box; there, lower still, he
+bowed again; and then, advancing to the bar, he leant his hands
+upon it, and dropped on his knees; but a voice in the same minute
+proclaiming he had leave to rise, he stood up almost
+instantaneously, and a third time, profoundly bowed to the court.
+
+What an awful moment this for such a man!--a man fallen from such
+height of power to a situation so humiliating--from the almost
+unlimited command of so large a part of the eastern World to be
+cast at the feet of his enemies, of the great tribunal of his
+country, and of the nation at large, assembled thus in a body to
+try and to judge him!  Could even his prosecutors at that moment
+look on--and not shudder at least, if they did not blush?
+
+The crier, I think it was, made, in a loud and hollow voice, a
+public proclamation, "That Warren Hastings, esquire, late
+governor-general of Bengal, was now on his trial for high
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+crimes and misdemeanours, with which he was charged by the
+commons of Great Britain; and that all persons whatsoever who had
+aught to allege against him were now to stand forth."
+
+
+A general silence followed, and the chancellor, Lord Thurlow, now
+made his speech.  I will give it you to the best of my power from
+memory; the newspapers have printed it far less accurately than I
+have retained it, though I am by no means exact or secure.
+
+
+
+THE LORD CHANCELLOR'S SPEECH.
+
+Warren Hastings, you are now brought into this court to answer to
+the charge, brought against you by the knights, esquires,
+burgesses, and commons of Great Britain--charges now standing
+only as allegations, by them to be legally proved, or by you to
+be disproved.  Bring forth your answer and defence, with that
+seriousness, respect, and truth, due to accusers so respectable.
+Time has been allowed you for preparation, proportioned to the
+intricacies in which the transactions are involved, and to the
+remote distances whence your documents may have been searched and
+required.  You will be allowed bail, for the better forwarding
+your defence, and-whatever you can require will still be yours,
+of time, witnesses, and all things else you may hold necessary.
+This is not granted you as any indulgence: it is entirely your
+due: it is the privilege which every British subject has a right
+to claim, and which is due to every one who is brought before
+this high tribunal."
+
+This speech, uttered in a calm, equal, solemn manner, and in a
+voice mellow and penetrating, with eyes keen and black, yet
+softened into some degree of tenderness while fastened full upon
+the prisoner--this speech, its occasion, its portent, and its
+object, had an effect upon every hearer of producing the most
+respectful attention, and, out of the committee box at least, the
+strongest emotions in the cause of Mr. Hastings.  Again Mr.
+Hastings made the lowest reverence to the court, and, leaning
+over the bar answered, with much agitation, through evident
+efforts to suppress it, "My lords --Impressed--deeply impressed--
+I come before your lordships, equally confident in my own
+integrity, and in the justice of the court before which I am to
+clear it."
+
+"Impressed" and "deeply impressed," too, was my mind, by this
+short yet comprehensive speech, and all my best wishes
+
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+
+for his clearance and redress rose warmer than ever in my heart.
+
+
+                   THE READING OF THE CHARGES COMMENCED.
+
+A general silence again ensued, and then one of the lawyers
+opened the cause.  He began by reading from an immense roll of
+parchment the general charges against Mr. Hastings, but he read
+in so monotonous a chant that nothing more could I hear or
+understand than now and then the name of Warren Hastings.
+
+During this reading, to which I vainly lent all my attention, Mr.
+Hastings, finding it, I presume, equally impossible to hear a
+word, began to cast his eyes around the house, and having taken a
+survey of all in front and at the sides, he turned about and
+looked up; pale looked his face--pale, ill, and altered.  I was
+much affected by the sight of that dreadful harass which
+was written on his countenance.  Had I looked at him without
+restraint, it could not have been without tears.  I felt shocked,
+too, shocked and ashamed, to be seen by him in that place.  I had
+wished to be present from an earnest interest in the business,
+joined to a firm confidence in his powers of defence; but his
+eyes were not those I wished to meet in Westminster Hall.  I
+called upon Miss Gomme and Charles to assist me in looking
+another way, and in conversing with me as I turned aside, and I
+kept as much aloof as possible till he had taken his survey, and
+placed himself again in front.
+
+>From this time, however, he frequently looked round, and I was
+soon without a doubt that he must see me. . . . In a few minutes
+more, while this reading was still continued, I perceived Sir
+Joshua Reynolds in the midst of the committee.  He, at the same
+moment, saw me also, and not only bowed, but smiled and nodded
+with his usual good-humour and
+intimacy, making at the same time a sign to his ear, by which I
+understood he had no trumpet; whether he had forgotten or lost it
+I know not.
+
+I would rather have answered all this dumb show anywhere else, as
+my last ambition was that of being noticed from such a box.  I
+again entreated aid in turning away; but Miss Gomme, who is a
+friend of Sir Gilbert Elliot, one of the managers and an
+ill-wisher, for his sake, to the opposite cause, would only
+laugh, and ask why I should not be owned by them.
+
+I did not, however, like it, but had no choice from my near
+
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+
+situation; and in a few seconds I had again a bow, and a
+profound one, and again very ridiculously I was obliged to
+inquire of Lady Claremont who my own acquaintance might be.  Mr.
+Richard Burke, senior, she answered.  He is a brother of the
+great--great in defiance of all drawbacks--Edmund Burke.
+
+Another lawyer now arose, and read so exactly in the same manner,
+that it was utterly impossible to discover even whether it was a
+charge or an answer.  Such reading as this, you may well suppose,
+set every body pretty much at their ease and but for the interest
+I took in looking from time to time at Mr. Hastings, and watching
+his countenance, I might as well have been away.  He seemed
+composed after the first half-hour, and calm; but he looked with
+a species of indignant contempt towards his accusers, that could
+not, I think, have been worn had his defence been doubtful.  Many
+there are who fear for him; for me, I own myself wholly confident
+in his acquittal.
+
+
+                           AN OLD ACQUAINTANCE.
+
+Soon after, a voice just by my side, from the green benches,
+said, "Will Miss Burney allow me to renew my acquaintance with
+her?"  I turned about and saw Mr. Crutchley.
+
+All Streatham rose to my mind at sight of him.  I have never
+beheld him since the Streatham society was abolished.  We entered
+instantly upon the subject of that family, a Subject ever to me
+the most Interesting.  He also had never seen poor Mrs.  Thrale
+since her return to England; but he joined with me very earnestly
+in agreeing that, since so unhappy a step
+was now past recall, it became the duty, however painful a one,
+of the daughters, to support, not cast off and contemn, one who
+was now as much their mother as when she still bore their own
+name.
+
+"But how," cried he, "do you stand the fiery trial of this
+Streatham book that is coming upon us?"
+
+I acknowledged myself very uneasy about it, and he assured me all
+who had ever been at Streatham were in fright and consternation.
+We talked all these matters over more at length, till I was
+called away by an "How d'ye do, Miss Burney?" from the committee
+box! And then I saw young Mr. Burke, who had jumped up on the
+nearest form to speak to me.
+
+Pleasant enough!  I checked my vexation as well as I was able,
+since the least shyness on my part to those with whom
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+
+formerly I had been social must instantly have been attributed to
+Court influence; and therefore, since I could not avoid the
+notice, I did what I could to talk with him as heretofore.  He is
+besides so amiable a young man that I could not be sorry to see
+him again, though I regretted it should be Just In that place,
+and at this time.
+
+While we talked together, Mr. Crutchley went back to his more
+distant seat, and the moment I was able to withdraw from young
+Mr. Burke, Charles, who sat behind me, leant down and told me a
+gentleman had just desired to be presented to me.
+
+"Who?" quoth I.
+
+" Mr. Windham," he answered.
+
+I really thought he was laughing, and answered accordingly, but
+he assured me he was in earnest, and that Mr. Windham had begged
+him to make the proposition.  What could I do? There was no
+refusing; yet a planned meeting with another of the committee,
+and one deep in the prosecution, and from whom one of the hardest
+charges has come(263)--could anything be less pleasant as I was
+then situated?  The great chamberlain's box is the only part of
+the Hall that has any communication with either the committee box
+or the House of Commons, and it is also the very nearest to the
+prisoner.
+
+
+                        WILLIAM WINDHAM) ESQ., M.P.
+
+Mr. Windham I had seen twice before-both times at Miss
+Monckton's; and anywhere else I should have been much gratified
+by his desire of a third meeting, as he is one of the most
+agreeable, spirited, well-bred, and brilliant conversers I have
+ever spoken with.  He is a neighbour, too, now, of
+
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+
+Charlotte's.  He is member for Norwich, and a man of family and
+fortune, with a very pleasing though not handsome face, a very
+elegant figure, and an air of fashion and vivacity.
+
+The conversations I had had with him at Miss Monckton's had been,
+wholly- by his own means, extremely spirited and entertaining.  I
+was sorry to see him make one of a set that appeared so
+inveterate against a man I believe so injuriously treated; and my
+concern was founded upon the good thoughts I had conceived of
+him, not merely from his social talents, which are yet very
+uncommon, but from a reason clearer to my remembrance.  He loved
+Dr. Johnson,-and Dr. Johnson returned his affection.  Their
+political principles and connexions were opposite, but Mr.
+Windham respected his venerable friend too highly to discuss any
+points that could offend him ; and showed for him so true a
+regard, that, during all his late illnesses, for the latter part
+of his life, his carriage and himself were alike at his service,
+to air, visit, or go out, whenever he was disposed to accept
+them.
+
+Nor was this all; one tender proof he gave of warm and generous
+regard, that I can never forget, and that rose instantly to my
+mind when I heard his name, and gave him a welcome in my eyes
+when they met his face : it is this: Dr. Johnson, in his last
+visit to Lichfield, was taken ill, and waited to recover strength
+for travelling back to town in his usual vehicle, a stage-coach--
+as soon as this reached the ears of Mr. Windham, he set off for
+Lichfield in his own carriage, to offer to bring hint back to
+town in it, and at his own time.
+
+For a young man of fashion, such a trait towards an old, however
+dignified philosopher, must surely be a mark indisputable of an
+elevated mind and character; and still the more strongly it
+marked a noble way of thinking, as it was done in favour of a
+person in open opposition to his own party, and declared
+prejudices.
+
+Charles soon told me he was it my elbow.  He had taken the place
+Mr. Crutchley had just left.  The abord was, oil my , part, very
+awkward, from the distress I felt lest Mr. Hastings should look
+up, and from a conviction that I must not name
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+
+that gentleman, of whom alone I could then think, to a person in
+a committee against him.
+
+He, however, was easy, having no embarrassing thoughts, since the
+conference was of his own seeking.  'Twas so long since I had
+seen him, that I almost wonder he remembered me.  After the first
+compliments he looked around him, and exclaimed "What an assembly
+is this!  How striking a spectacle! I had not seen half its
+splendour down there.  You have it here to great advantage; you
+lose some of the lords, but you gain all the ladies.  You have a
+very good place here,"
+
+"Yes and I may safely say I make a very impartial use of it for
+since here I have sat, I have never discovered to which side I
+have been listening!"
+
+He laughed, but told me they were then running through the
+charges.
+
+"And is it essential," cried I, "that they should so run them
+through that nobody can understand them?  Is that a form of law?"
+
+He agreed to the absurdity - and then, looking still at the
+spectacle, which indeed is the most splendid I ever saw, arrested
+his eyes upon the chancellor.
+
+"He looks very well from hence," cried he; "and how well he
+acquits himself on these solemn occasions! With what dignity,
+what loftiness, what high propriety, he comports himself!"
+
+This praise to the chancellor, who is a known friend to Mr.
+Hastings, though I believe he would be the last to favour him
+unjustly now he is on trial, was a pleasant sound to my ear, and
+confirmed my original idea of the liberal disposition of my new
+associate.  i joined heartily in the commendation, and warmly
+praised his speech.
+
+"Even a degree of pompousness," cried I, "in such a court as
+this, seems a propriety."
+
+"Yes," said he "but his speech had one word that might as well
+have been let alone: 'mere allegations' he called the charges;
+the word 'mere,' at least, might have been spared, especially as
+it is already strongly suspected on which side he leans!"
+
+I protested, and with truth, I had not heard the word in his
+speech; but he still affirmed it.
+
+"Surely," I said, "he was as fair and impartial as possible: he
+called the accusers 'so respectable!'"
+
+"Yes, but 'mere--mere' was no word for this occasion and it could
+not be unguarded, for he would never come to
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+speak in such a court as this, without some little thinking
+beforehand.  However, he is a fine fellow,--a very fine fellow!
+and though, in his private life, guilty of so many inaccuracies,
+in his public capacity I really hold him to be unexceptionable."
+
+This fairness, from an oppositionist professed, brought me at
+once to easy terms with him.  I begged him to inform me for what
+reason, at the end of the chancellor's speech, there had been a
+cry of "Hear! hear! hear him!" which had led me to expect another
+speech, when I found no other seemed intended.  He laughed very
+much, and confessed that, as a parliament man, he was so used to
+that absurdity, that he had ceased to regard it; for that it was
+merely a mark of approbation to a speech already spoken; "And, in
+fact, they only," cried he, "say 'Hear!' when there is nothing
+more to be heard!"  Then, still looking at the scene before him,
+he suddenly laughed, and said, "I must not, to Miss Burney, make
+this remark, but-it is observable that in the king's box sit the
+Hawkesbury family, while, next to the Speaker, who is here as a
+sort of representative of the king, sits Major Scott!"
+
+I knew his inference, of Court influence in favour of Mr.
+Hastings, but I thought it best to let it pass quietly.  I knew,
+else, I should only be supposed under the same influence myself.
+Looking still on, he next noticed the two archbishops. "And see,"
+cried he, "the Archbishop of York, Markham,--see how he affects
+to read the articles of impeachment, as if he was still open to
+either side!  My good lord archbishop! your grace might, with
+perfect safety, spare your eyes, for your mind has been made up
+upon this subject before ever it was investigated.  He holds
+Hastings to be the greatest man in the world--for Hastings
+promoted the interest of his son in the East Indies!"
+
+
+                 WINDHAM INVEIGHS AGAINST WARREN HASTINGS.
+Somewhat sarcastic, this - but I had as little time as power for
+answering, since now, and suddenly, his eye dropped down upon
+poor Mr. Hastings; the expression of his face instantly lost the
+gaiety and ease with which it had addressed me; he stopped short
+in his remarks; he fixed his eyes steadfastly on this new, and
+but too interesting object, and after viewing him
+
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+
+some time in a sort of earnest silence, he suddenly exclaimed as
+if speaking to himself, and from an impulse irresistible
+"What a sight is that! to see that man, that small portion of
+human clay, that poor feeble machine of earth, enclosed now in
+that little space, brought to that bar, a prisoner in a spot six
+foot square--and to reflect on his late power!  Nations at his
+command!  Princes prostrate at his feet!--What a change! how Must
+he feel it!--"
+
+He stopped, and I said not a word.  I was glad to see him thus
+impressed; I hoped it might soften his enmity.  I found, by his
+manner, that he had never, from the committee box, looked at him.
+He broke forth again, after a pause of Some length,--"Wonderful
+indeed! almost past credibility, is such a reverse!  He that, so
+lately, had the Eastern world nearly at his beck; he, under whose
+tyrant power princes and potentates sunk and trembled; he, whose
+authority was without the reach of responsibility!--"
+
+Again he stopped, seeming struck, almost beyond the power of
+speech, with meditative commiseration ; but then, suddenly
+rousing himself, as if recollecting his "almost blunted purpose,"
+he passionately exclaimed, "Oh could those--the thousands, the
+millions, who have groaned and languished under the iron rod of
+his oppressions- -could they but--whatever region they inhabit--
+be permitted one dawn of light to look into this Hall, and see
+him there!  There--where he now stands--It might prove, perhaps,
+some recompense for their sufferings!"
+
+I can hardly tell you, my dearest Susan, how shocked I felt at
+these words! words so hard, and following sensations so much more
+pitying and philosophic!  I cannot believe Mr. Hastings guilty; I
+feel in myself a strong internal evidence of his innocence, drawn
+from all I have seen of him; I can only regard the prosecution as
+a party affair; but yet, since his adversaries now openly stake
+their names, fame, and character against him, I did not think it
+decent to intrude such an opinion.  I could only be sorry, and
+silent.
+
+Still he looked at him, earnest in rumination, and as if unable
+to turn away his eyes; and presently he again exclaimed, "How
+wonderful an instance of the instability of mortal power is
+presented ]In that object!  From possessions so extensive, from a
+despotism so uncontrolled.  to see him, now there, in that small
+circumference!  In the history Of human nature how memorable will
+be the records of this day!
+
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+
+a day that brings to the great tribunal of the nation a man whose
+power, so short a time since, was of equal magnitude with his
+crimes!"
+
+Good heaven! thought I, and do you really believe all this? Can
+Mr. Hastings appear to you such a monster? and are you not merely
+swayed by party? I could not hear him without shuddering, nor see
+him thus in earnest without alarm.  I thought myself no longer
+bound to silence, since I saw, by the continuance as well as by
+the freedom of his exclamations, he conceived me of the same
+sentiments with himself; and therefore I hardily resolved to make
+known to him that mistake, which, indeed, was a liberty that
+seemed no longer impertinent, but a mere act of justice and
+honesty.
+
+His very expressive pause, his eyes still steadfastly fixed on
+Mr. Hastings, gave me ample opportunity for speaking - though I
+had some little difficulty how to get out what I wished to say.
+However, in the midst of his reverie, I broke forth, but not
+without great hesitation, and, very humbly, I said, "Could you
+pardon me, Mr. Windham, If I should forget, for a moment, that
+you are a committee man, and speak to you frankly?"
+
+He looked surprised, but laughed at the question, and very
+eagerly called out "Oh yes, yes, pray speak out, I beg it!"
+
+"Well, then, may I venture to say to you that I believe it
+utterly impossible for any one, not particularly engaged on the
+contrary side, ever to enter a court of justice, and not
+instantly, and involuntarily, wish well to the prisoner!"
+
+His surprise subsided by this general speech, which I had not
+courage to put in a more pointed way, and he very readily
+answered, "'Tis natural, certainly, and what must almost
+unavoidably be the first impulse; yet, where justice--"
+
+I stopped him; I saw I was not comprehended, and thought else he
+might say something to stop me.
+
+"May I," I said, " go yet a little farther ?
+
+"Yes," cried he, with a very civil smile, "and I feel an assent
+beforehand."
+
+" Supposing then, that even you, if that may be supposed, could
+be divested of all knowledge of the particulars of this affair,
+and in the same state of general Ignorance that I confess myself
+to be, and could then, like me, have seen Mr. Hastings make his
+entrance into this court, and looked at him when he was brought
+to that bar; not even you, Mr. Windham, could then have reflected
+on such a vicissitude for him, on all he has
+
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+
+left and all he has lost, and not have given him, like me, all
+your best wishes the moment you beheld him."
+
+The promised assent came not, though he was too civil to
+contradict me ; but still I saw he Understood me only in a
+general sense.  I feared going farther : a weak advocate is apt
+to be a mischievous one and, as I knew nothing, it was not to a
+professed enemy I could talk of what I only believed.
+Recovering, now, from the strong emotion with which the sight of
+Mr. Hastings had filled him, he looked again around the court,
+and pointed out several of the principal characters present, with
+arch and striking remarks upon each of them, all uttered with
+high spirit, but none with ill-nature.
+
+("Pitt," cried he, "is not here!--a noble stroke that for the
+annals of his administration!  A trial is brought on by the whole
+House of Commons In a body, and he is absent at the very opening!
+However," added he, with a very meaning laugh, "I'm glad of it,
+for 'tis to his eternal disgrace!"
+
+Mercy! thought I, what a friend to kindness Is party!
+
+"Do you see Scott?" cried he.
+
+"No, I never saw him; pray show him to me,"
+
+"There he is, in green; just now by the Speaker, now moved by the
+committee; in two minutes more he will be somewhere else,
+skipping backwards and forwards; what a grasshopper it is!"
+
+"I cannot look at him," cried I, "without recollecting a very
+extraordinary letter from him, that I read last summer in the
+newspaper, where he answers some attack that he says has been
+made upon him, because the term is used of 'a very insignificant
+fellow,' and he printed two or three letters in 'The Public
+Advertiser,' in following days, to prove, with great care and
+pains, that he knew it was all meant as an abuse of himself, from
+those words!"
+
+"And what," cried he, laughing, "do you say to that notion now
+you see him?"
+
+"That no one," cried I, examining him with my glass, "can
+possibly dispute his claim!"
+
+What pity that Mr. Hastings should have trusted his cause to so
+frivolous an agent!  I believe, and indeed it is the general
+belief, both of foes and friends, that to his officious and
+injudicious zeal the present prosecution is wholly owing.
+
+Next, Mr. Windham pointed out Mr. Francis to me.  'TIS a singular
+circumstance, that the friend who most loves and the enemy Who
+most hates Mr. Hastings should bear the same
+
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+
+name!(264)  Mr. Windham, with all the bias of party, gave me then
+the highest character of this Mr. Francis, whom he called one of
+the most ill-used of men.  Want of documents how to answer forced
+me to be silent, oppositely as I thought.  But it was a very
+unpleasant situation to me, as I saw that Mr. Windham still
+conceived me to have no other interest than a common, and
+probably to his mind, a weak compassion for the prisoner--that
+prisoner who, frequently looking around, saw me, I am certain,
+and saw with whom I was engaged.
+
+The subject of Mr. Francis again drew him back to Mr. Hastings,
+but with more severity of mind.  "A prouder heart," cried he, "an
+ambition more profound, were never, I suppose, lodged in any
+mortal mould than in that man! With what a port he entered!  did
+you observe him? his air!  I saw not his face, but his air his
+port!"
+
+"Surely there," cried I, "he could not be to blame! He comes upon
+his defence; ought he to look as if he gave himself up?"
+
+"Why no; 'tis true he must look what vindication to himself he
+can; we must not blame him there."
+
+Encouraged by this little concession, I resolved to venture
+farther, and once more said "May I again, Mr. Windham, forget
+that you are a committee-man, and say something not fit for a
+committee man to hear?"
+
+"O yes!" cried he, laughing very much, and looking extremely
+curious.
+
+"I must fairly, then, own myself utterly ignorant upon this
+subject, and--and--may I go on?"
+
+"I beg you will!"
+
+"Well, then,--and originally prepossessed in favour of the
+object!"
+
+He quite started, and with a look of surprise from which all
+pleasure was separated, exclaimed--"Indeed!"
+
+"Yes!"  cried I, "'tis really true, and really out, now!"
+
+"For Mr. Hastings, prepossessed!" he repeated, in a tone that
+seemed to say--do you not mean Mr. Burke?
+
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+
+"Yes," I said, "for Mr. Hastings!  But I should not have presumed
+to own it just at this time,--so little as I am able to do honour
+to my prepossession by any materials to defend it,--but that you
+have given me courage, by appearing so free from all malignity in
+the business.  Tis, therefore, Your own fault!"
+
+"But can you speak seriously," cried he, " "when You say you know
+nothing of this business?"
+
+"Very seriously: I never entered into it at all; it was always
+too intricate to tempt me."
+
+"But, surely you must have read the charges?"
+
+"No; they are so long, I had never the courage to begin."
+
+The conscious look with which he heard this, brought--all too
+late--to my remembrance, that one of them was drawn up, and
+delivered in the House, by himself! I was really very sorry to
+have been so unfortunate; but I had no way to call back the
+words, so was quiet, perforce.
+
+"Come then," cried he, emphatically, "to hear Burke! come and
+listen to him, and you will be mistress of the whole.  Hear
+Burke, and read the charges of the Begums, and then you will form
+your judgment without difficulty."
+
+I would rather (thought I) hear him upon any other subject: but I
+made no answer; I only said, "Certainly, I can gain nothing by
+what is going forward to-day.  I meant to come to the opening
+now, but it seems rather like the shutting up!"
+
+He was not to be put off.  "You will come, however, to hear
+Burke?  To hear truth, reason, justice, eloquence!  You will then
+see, in other colours, 'That man!' There is more cruelty, more
+oppression, more tyranny, in that little machine, with an
+arrogance, a self-confidence, unexampled, unheard of!"
+
+
+                   MISS BURNEY BATTLES FOR THE ACCUSED.
+
+"Indeed, sir!" cried I; "that does not appear, to those who know
+him and--I--know him a little."
+
+"Do you?" cried he earnestly; "personally, do you know him?"
+
+"Yes; and from that knowledge arose this prepossession I have
+confessed."
+
+"Indeed, what you have seen of him have you then so much
+approved?"
+
+"Yes, very much! I must own the truth!"
+
+"But you have not seen much of him?"
+
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+
+"No, not lately.  My first knowledge of him was almost
+immediately upon his coming from India; I had heard nothing of
+all these accusations; I had never been in the way of hearing
+them, and knew not even that there were any to be heard.  I saw
+him, therefore, quite without prejudice, for or against him ; and
+indeed, I must own, he soon gave me a strong interest in his
+favour."
+
+The surprise with which he heard me must have silenced me on the
+subject, had it not been accompanied with an attention so earnest
+as to encourage me still to proceed.  It is evident to me that
+this committee live so much shut Lip with one another, that they
+conclude all the world of the same opinions with themselves, and
+universally imagine that the tyrant they think themselves
+pursuing is a monster in every part of his life, and held in
+contempt and abhorrence by all mankind.  Could I then be sorry,
+seeing this, to contribute my small mite towards clearing, at
+least, so very wide a mistake? On the contrary, when I saw he
+listened, I was most eager to give him all I could to hear,
+
+"I found him," I continued, "so mild, so gentle, so extremely
+pleasing in his manners--"
+
+"Gentle!" cried he, with quickness.
+
+"Yes, Indeed; gentle even to humility--"
+
+"Humility?  Mr. Hastings and humility!"
+
+"Indeed it is true; he is perfectly diffident in the whole of his
+manner, when engaged in conversation; and so much struck was I,
+at that very time, by seeing him so simple, so unassuming, when
+just returned from a government that had accustomed him to a
+power superior to our monarchs here, that it produced an effect
+upon my mind in his favour which nothing can erase!"
+
+"Yes, Yes!" cried he, with great energy, "you will give it up!
+you must lose it, must give it up! it will be plucked away,
+rooted wholly out of your mind ."
+
+"Indeed, sir," cried I, steadily, "I believe not!"
+
+"You believe not?" repeated he, with added animation; "then there
+will be the more glory in making you a convert!"
+
+If "conversion" is the word, thought I, I would rather make than
+be made.
+
+"But --Mr. Windham," cried I, "all my amazement now is at your
+condescension in speaking to me upon this business at all, when I
+have confessed to you my total ignorance of the subject, and my
+original prepossession in favour of the object.  Why
+
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+
+do you not ask me when I was at the play ? and how I liked the
+last opera?"
+
+He laughed; and we talked on a little while in that strain, till
+again, suddenly fixing his eyes on poor Mr. Hastings, his gaiety
+once more vanished, and he gravely and severely examined his
+countenance.  "'Tis surely," cried he, "an unpleasant one.  He
+does not know, I suppose, 'tis reckoned like his own!"
+
+"How should he," cried I, "look otherwise than unpleasant here?"
+
+"True," cried he; "yet still, I think, his features, his look,
+his whole expression, unfavourable to him.  I never saw him but
+once before; that was at the bar of the House of Commons and
+there, as Burke admirably said, he looked, when first he glanced
+an eye against him, like a hungry tiger, ready to howl for his
+prey!"
+
+"Well," cried I, "I am sure he does not look fierce now!
+Contemptuous, a little, I think he does look!"
+
+I was sorry I used this word; yet its truth forced it to escape
+me.  He did not like it; he repeated it; he could not but be sure
+the contempt could only be levelled at his prosecutors.  I feared
+discussion, and flew off as fast as I could, to softer ground.
+"It was not," cried I, "with that countenance he gave me my
+prepossession! Very differently, indeed, he looked then!"
+
+"And can he ever look pleasant? can that face ever obtain an
+expression that is pleasing?"
+
+"Yes, indeed and in truth, very pleasant!  It was in the country
+I first saw him, and without any restraint on his part; I saw
+him, therefore, perfectly natural and easy.  And no one, let me
+say, could so have seen him without being pleased with him--his
+quietness and serenity, joined to his intelligence and
+information--"
+
+"His information?--in what way?"
+
+"In such a way as suited his hearer: not upon committee
+business--of all that I knew nothing.  The only conversation in
+which I could mix was upon India, considered simply as, a country
+in which he had travelled; and his communications upon the
+people, the customs, habits, cities, and whatever I could name,
+were so instructive as well as entertaining, that I think I never
+recollect gaining more intelligence, or more pleasantly conveyed,
+from any conversation in which I ever have been engaged."
+
+
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+
+To this he listened with an attention that, but for the secret
+zeal which warmed me must have silenced and shamed me.  I am
+satisfied this committee have concluded Mr. Hastings a mere man
+of blood, with slaughter and avarice for his sole ideas!  The
+surprise with which he heard this just testimony to his social
+abilities was only silent from good-breeding, but his eyes
+expressed what his tongue withheld; something that satisfied me
+he concluded
+
+I had undesignedly been duped by him.  I answered this silence by
+saying "There was no object for hypocrisy, for it was quite in
+retirement I met with him : it was not lately ; it is near two
+years since I have seen him; he had therefore no point to gain
+with me, nor was there any public character, nor any person
+whatever, that Could induce him to act a part; yet was he all I
+have said-informing, Communicative, instructive, and at the same
+time, gentle and highly pleasing."
+
+"Well," said he, very civilly, "I begin the less to wonder, now,
+that You have adhered to his side; but--"
+
+"To see him, then," cried I, stopping his 'but,'--"to see him
+brought to that bar! and kneeling at it!--indeed, Mr. Windham, I
+must own to you, I could hardly keep my seat--hardly forbear
+rising and running out of the Hall."
+
+"Why, there," cried he, "I agree with you!  'Tis certainly a
+humiliation not to be wished or defended: it is, indeed, a mere
+ceremony, a mere formality; but it is a mortifying one, and so
+obsolete, so unlike the practices of the times, so repugnant from
+a gentleman to a gentleman, that I myself
+looked another way: it hurt me, and I wished it dispensed with."
+
+"O, Mr. Windham," cried I, surprised and pleased, "and can you be
+so liberal?"
+
+"Yes," cried he, laughing, "but 'tis only to take you in!"
+
+Afterwards he asked what his coat was, whether blue Or purple;
+and said, "is it not customary for a prisoner to come black?"
+
+"Whether or not," quoth I, "I am heartily glad he has not done
+it; why should he seem so dismal, so shut out from hope?"
+
+"Why, I believe he is in the right.  I think he has judged that
+not ill."
+
+"O, don't be so candid," cried I, "I beg you not."
+
+"Yes, yes, I must; and you know the reason," cried he, gaily; but
+presently exclaimed, "one unpleasant thing belong-
+
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+
+ing to being a manager is that I must now go and show myself in
+the committee."
+And then he very civilly bowed, and went down to his box, leaving
+me much persuaded that I had never yet been engaged in a
+conversation so curious, from its circumstances, in my life.  The
+warm well-wisher myself of the prisoner, though formerly the
+warmest admirer of his accuser, engaged, even at his trial and in
+his presence, in so open a discussion with one of his principal
+prosecutors; and the queen herself in full view, unavoidably
+beholding me in close and eager conference with an avowed member
+of the opposition!
+
+These circumstances made me at first enter into discourse with
+Mr. Windham with the utmost reluctance ; but though I wished to
+shun him, I could not, when once attacked, decline to converse
+with him.  It would but injure the cause of Mr. Hastings to seem
+to fear hearing the voice of his accusers; and it could but be
+attributed to undue court-influence had I avoided any intercourse
+with an acquaintance so long ago established as a member of the
+opposition.
+
+
+                  A WEARIED M.P.-MR. CRUTCHLEY REAPPEARS.
+
+In the midst of the opening of a trial such as this, so important
+to the country as well as to the individual who is tried, what
+will you say to a man--a member of the House of Commons who kept
+exclaiming almost perpetually, just at my side, "What a bore!-
+-when will it be over?--Must one come any more?--I had a great
+mind not to have come at all.--Who's that?--Lady Hawkesbury and
+the Copes?--Yes.--A pretty girl, Kitty.--Well, when will they
+have done?--I wish they'd call the question--I should vote it a
+bore at once!
+
+just such exclamations as these were repeated, without
+intermission, till the gentleman departed: and who should it be
+that spoke with so much legislative wisdom but Mr. W---!
+
+In about two or three hours--this reading still lasting--Mr.
+Crutchley came to me again.  He, too, was so wearied, that he was
+departing; but he stayed some time to talk over our constant
+topic--my poor Mrs. Thrale.  How little does he suspect the
+interest I unceasingly take in her--the avidity with which I
+seize every opportunity to gather the smallest intelligence
+concerning her!
+
+One little trait of Mr. Crutchley, so characteristic of that
+queerness which distinguishes him, I must mention.  He said
+
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+
+he questioned whether he should comme any more: I told him I had
+imagined the attendance of every member to be indispensable.
+"No," cried he, "ten to one if another day they are able to make
+a house!"
+
+"The Lords, however, I suppose, must come?"
+
+"Not unless they like it."
+
+" But I hear if they do not attend they have no tickets."
+
+"Why, then, Miss Primrose and Miss Cowslip must stay away too!"
+
+I had the pleasure to find him entirely for Mr. Hastings, and to
+hear he had constantly voted on his side through every stage of
+the business.  He is a very independent man, and a man of real
+good character, and, with all his oddity, of real understanding.
+We compared notes very amicably upon this subject, and both
+agreed that those who looked for every flaw in the conduct of a
+man in so high and hazardous a station, ought first to have
+weighed his merits and his difficulties.
+
+
+                  MR. WINDHAM DISCUSSES THE IMPEACHMENT.
+
+A far more interesting conference, however, was now awaiting me.
+Towards the close of the day Mr. Windham very unexpectedly came
+again from the committee-box, and seated himself by my side.  I
+was glad to see by this second visit that my frankness had not
+offended him.  He began, too, in so open and social a manner,
+that I was satisfied he forgave it.
+
+"I have been," cried he, "very busy since I left you.--writing--
+reading--making documents."
+
+I saw he was much agitated ; the gaiety which seems natural to
+him was flown, and had left in its place the most evident and
+unquiet emotion.  I looked a little surprised, and rallying
+himself, in a few moments he inquired if I wished for any
+refreshment, and proposed fetching me some.  But, well as I liked
+him for a conspirator, I could not break bread with him!
+
+I thought now all was over of communication between us, but I was
+mistaken.  He spoke for a minute or two upon the crowd--early
+hour of coming--hasty breakfasting and such general nothings; and
+then, as    if involuntarily, he returned to the sole subject on
+his mind.
+
+"Our plan," cried he, "is all changing: we have all been busy--we
+are coming into a new method.  I have been making preparations--I
+did not intend speaking for a considerable time--not till after
+the circuit, but now, I may be called upon, I know not how soon."
+
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+
+Then he stopped--ruminating--and I let him ruminate without
+interruption for some minutes, when he broke forth with these
+reflections: "How strange, how infatuated a frailty has man with
+respect to the future!  Be our views, our designs, our
+anticipations what they may, we are never prepared for it!--It
+always takes us by surprise--always comes before we look for it!"
+
+He stopped; but I waited his explanation without speaking, and,
+after pausing thoughtfully for some time, he went on:
+
+"This day--for which we have all been waiting so anxiously, so
+earnestly--the day for which we have fought, for which we have
+struggled--a day, indeed, of national glory, in bringing to this
+great tribunal a delinquent from so high an office--this day, so
+much wished, has seemed to me, to the last moment, so distant,
+that now--now that it Is actually arrived, it takes me as if I
+had never thought of it before--it comes upon me all unexpected,
+and finds me unready!"
+
+Still I said nothing, for I did not fully comprehend him, till he
+added, "I will not be so affected as to say to you that I have
+made no preparation--that I have not thought a little upon what I
+have to do; yet now that the moment is actually come--"
+
+Again he broke off.  but a generous sentiment was, bursting from
+him, and would not be withheld.
+
+"It has brought me," he resumed, "a feeling of which I am not yet
+quite the master! What I have said hitherto, when I have spoken
+in the house, has been urged and stimulated by the idea of
+pleading for the injured and the absent, and that gave me spirit.
+Nor do I tell you (with a half-conscious smile) that the ardour
+of the prosecution went for nothing--a prosecution in favour of
+oppressed millions! But now,.  when I am to speak here, the
+thought of that man, close to my side--culprit as he is--that man
+on whom all the odium is to fall--gives me, I own, a sensation
+that almost disqualifies me beforehand!" . . .
+
+"That this day was ever brought about," continued he, "must ever
+remain a noble memorial of courage and perseverance in the
+Commons.  Every possible obstacle has been thrown in our way--
+every art of government has been at work to impede us--nothing
+has been left untried to obstruct us--every check and clog of
+power and influence."
+
+"Not by him," cried I, looking at poor Mr. Hastings; "he has
+raised no impediments--he has been wholly careless."
+
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+
+"Come," cried he, with energy, "come and hear Burke!--Come but
+and hear him!--'tis an eloquence irresistible!--a torrent that
+sweeps all before it with the force of a whirlwind!  It will Cure
+You, indeed, of your prepossession, but it will give you truth
+and right in its place.  What discoveries has he not made!--what
+gulfs has he not dived into! Come and hear him, and your conflict
+will end!"
+I could hardly stand this, and, to turn it off', asked him if Mr.
+Hastings was to make his own defence?
+
+"No," he answered, "he will only speak by counsel.  But do not
+regret that, for his own sake, as he is not used to public
+speaking, and has some impediment in his speech besides.  He
+writes wonderfully--there he shines--and with a facility quite
+astonishing.  Have you ever happened to see any of his writings?"
+
+"No: only one short account, which he calls 'Memoirs relative to
+some India transactions,' and that struck me to be extremely
+unequal--in some places strong and finely expressed, In others
+obscure and scarce intelligible."
+
+"That is just the case--that ambiguity runs through him in
+everything. Burke has found an admirable word for it in the
+Persian tongue, for which we have no translation, but it means an
+intricacy involved so deep as to be nearly unfathomable--an
+artificial entanglement."
+
+I inquired how it was all to end--whether this reading was to
+continue incessantly, or any speaking was to follow it?
+
+"I have not inquired how that is," he answered, "but I believe
+you will now soon be released."
+
+"And will the chancellor speak to adjourn?"
+
+"I cannot tell what the form may be, or how we are to be
+dissolved.  I think myself there is nothing more difficult than
+how to tell people they may go about their business.  I remember,
+when I was in the militia, it was just what I thought the most
+awkward, when I had done with my men.  Use gives one the habit;
+and I found, afterwards, there was a regular mode for it: but, at
+first, I found it very embarrassing how to get rid of them."
+
+Nothing excites frankness like frankness ; and I answered him in
+return with a case of my own.  "When first I came to my present
+residence I was perpetually," I said, "upon the point of making a
+blunder with the queen; for when, after she had honoured me with
+any conversation, she used to say 'Now I won't keep you--now I
+will detain you no longer,'                           .
+
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+I was always ready to answer, 'Ma'am, I am in no haste,- ma'am, I
+don't wish to go!' for I was not, at first, aware that it was
+only her mode of dismissing people from her presence."
+
+
+
+WINDHAM AFFECTS TO COMMISERATE HASTINGS.
+
+Again he was going: but glancing his eyes once more down upon Mr.
+Hastings, he almost sighed--he fetched, at least, a deep breath,
+while he exclaimed with strong emotion, "What a place for a man
+to stand in to hear what he has to hear!--'tis almost too much!"
+
+It would not be easy to tell you how touching at such a time was
+the smallest concession from an avowed opponent, and I could not
+help exclaiming again, "O, Mr. Windham, you must not be so
+liberal!"
+
+"O!" cried he, smiling, and recovering himself, "'tis all the
+deeper malice, only to draw you in!"
+
+Still, however, he did not go : he kept gazing upon Mr. Hastings
+till he seemed almost fascinated to the spot; and presently
+after, growing more and more open in his discourse, he began to
+talk to me of Sir Elijah Impey.  I presume my dearest friends,
+little as they hear of politics and state business, must yet know
+that the House of Commons is threatening Sir Elijah with an
+impeachment, to succeed that of Mr. Hastings, and all upon East
+India transactions of the same date.(265)
+
+When he had given me his sentiments upon this subject, which I
+had heard with that sort of quietness that results from total
+ignorance of the matter, joined to total ignorance of the person
+concerned, he drew a short comparison, which, nearly, from him,
+and at such a moment, drew the tears from my eyes--nearly do I
+say?--Indeed more than that!
+
+"Sir Elijah," cried he, "knows how to go to work, and by getting
+the lawyers to side with him professionally, has set
+
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+
+about his defence in the most artful manner.  He is not only
+wicked, but a very pitiful fellow.  Let him but escape fine or
+imprisonment, and he will pocket all indignity, and hold himself
+happy in getting off: but Hastings (again looking steadfastly at
+him)--Hastings has feeling--'tis a proud feeling, an ambitious
+feeling--but feeling he has!  Hastings--come to him what may--
+fine, imprisonment, whatsoever is inflicted--all will be nothing.
+The moment of his punishment--I think it, upon my honour!--was
+the moment that brought him to that bar!"
+
+When he said "I think it, upon my honour," he laid his hand on
+his breast, as if he implied, "I acquit him henceforward."
+
+Poor Mr. Hastings!  One generous enemy he has at least, who
+pursues him with public hate, but without personal malignity! yet
+sure I feel he can deserve neither!
+
+I did not spare to express my sense of this liberality from a
+foe; for, indeed, the situation I was in, and the sight of Mr.
+Hastings, made it very affecting to me.  He was affected too,
+himself; but presently, rising, he said with great quickness, "I
+must shake all.  this off; I must have done with it--dismiss it--
+forget that he is there."
+
+"O, no," cried I, earnestly, "do not forget it!"
+
+"Yes, yes; I must."
+
+" No, remember it rather," cried I; "I could almost (putting up
+my hands as if praying) do thus and then, like poor Mr. Hastings
+just now to the house, drop down on my knees to you, to call out
+'Remember it.'"
+
+"Yes, Yes," cried he, precipitately, "how else shall I go on?  I
+must forget that he is there, and that you are here."  And then
+he hurried down to his committee.
+
+Was it not a most singular scene ?
+
+I had afterwards to relate great part of this to the queen
+herself.  She saw me engaged in such close discourse, and with
+such apparent interest on both sides, with Mr. Windham, that I
+knew she must else form conjectures innumerable.  So candid, so
+liberal is the mind of the queen, that she not only heard me with
+the most favourable attention towards Mr. Windham, but was
+herself touched even to tears by the relation.
+
+We stayed but a short time after this last conference ; for
+nothing more was attempted than reading on the charges and
+answers, in the same useless manner,
+
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+
+           MISS BURNEY IS AGAIN PRESENT AT HASTINGS'S TRIAL..
+The interest of this trial was so much upon my mind, that I have
+not kept even a memorandum of what passed from the 13th of
+February to the day when I went again to Westminster Hall; nor,
+except renewing the Friday Oratorios with Mrs. Ord, do I
+recollect one circumstance.
+
+The second time that the queen, who saw my wishes, indulged me
+with one of her tickets, and a permission of absence for the
+trial, was to hear Mr. Burke, for whom my curiosity and my
+interest stood the highest.  One ticket, however, would not do; I
+could not go alone, and the queen had bestowed all her other'
+tickets before she discovered that this was a day in my
+particular wishes.  She entered into my perplexity with a
+sweetness the most gracious, and when I knew not how to obviate
+it, commanded me to write to the Duchess of Ancaster, and beg
+permission to be put under the wing of her grace, or any of her
+friends that were going to the Hall.
+
+The duchess, unluckily, did not go, from indisposition, nor any
+of her family; but she sent me a very obliging letter, and
+another ticket from Sir Peter Burrell, to use for a companion.
+
+I fixed upon James, who, I knew, wished to hear Mr. Burke for
+once, and we went together very comfortably.  When the managers,
+who, as before, made the first procession, by entering their box
+below us, were all arranged, one from among them, whom I knew
+not, came up into the seats of the House of Commons by our side,
+and said, "Captain Burney, I am very glad to see you."
+
+"How do you do, sir ?" answered James; "here I am, come to see
+the fine show."
+
+Upon this the attacker turned short upon his heel, and abruptly
+walked away, descending into the box, which he did not quit any
+more.  I inquired who he was; General Burgoyne, James told me.
+"A manager!" cried I, "and one of the chargers! and you treat the
+business of the Hall with such contempt to his face!"
+
+James laughed heartily at his own uncourtly address, but I would
+not repent, though he acknowledged he saw the offence his slight
+and slighting speech had given.
+
+Fearful lest he should proceed in the same style with my friend
+Mr. Windham, I kept as aloof as possible, to avoid his notice,
+entreating James at the same time to have the complaisance to be
+silent upon this subject, should he discover me
+
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+
+and approach.  My own sentiments were as opposite to those of the
+managers as his, and I had not scrupled to avow honestly my
+dissent; but I well knew Mr. Windham might bear, and even
+respect, from a female, the same openness of opposition that
+might be highly offensive to him from a man.  But I could obtain
+no positive promise; he would only compromise with my request,
+and agree not to speak unless applied to first.  This, however,
+contented me, as Mr. Windham was too far embarked in his
+undertaking to solicit any opinion upon it from accidentally
+meeting any common acquaintance.
+
+>From young Burke and his uncle Richard I had bows from the
+committee box.  Mr. Windham either saw me not, or was too much
+engaged in business to ascend.
+
+
+
+                BURKE'.S SPEECH IN SUPPORT OF THE CHARGES.
+At length the peers' procession closed, the prisoner was brought
+in, and Mr. Burke began his speech.  It was the second day of his
+harangue;(266) the first I had not been able to attend.
+
+All I had heard of his eloquence, and all I had conceived of his
+great abilities, was more than answered by his performance.
+Nervous, clear, and striking was almost all that he uttered: the
+main business, indeed, of his coming forth was frequently
+neglected, and not seldom wholly lost , but his excursions were
+so fanciful, so entertaining, and so ingenious, that no
+miscellaneous hearer, like myself, could blame them.  It is true
+he was unequal, but his inequality produced an effect which, in
+so long a speech, was perhaps preferable to greater consistency
+since, though it lost attention in its falling off, it recovered
+it with additional energy by some ascent unexpected and
+wonderful.  When he narrated, he was easy, flowing, and natural;
+when he declaimed, energetic, warm, and brilliant.  The
+sentiments he interspersed were as nobly conceived as they were
+highly coloured; his satire had a poignancy of wit that made it
+as entertaining as it was penetrating; his allusions and
+quotations, as far as they were English and within my reach, were
+apt and ingenious - and the wild and sudden flights of his fancy,
+bursting forth from his creative imagination in language fluent,
+forcible, and varied, had a charm for my ear and my attention
+wholly new and perfectly irresistible.
+
+Were talents such as these exercised in the service of truth,
+
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+
+unbiased by party and prejudice, how could we sufficiently
+applaud their exalted possessor?  But though frequently he made
+me tremble by his strong and horrible representations,
+his own violence recovered me, by stigmatizing his assertions
+with personal ill-will and designing illiberality.  Yet, at times
+I confess, with all that I felt, wished, and thought concerning
+Mr. Hastings, the whirlwind of his eloquence nearly drew me into
+its vortex.  I give no particulars of the speech, because they
+will all be printed.
+
+The observations and whispers of our keen as well as honest
+James, during the whole, were highly characteristic and
+entertaining.
+
+"When will he come to the point?"-"These are mere words!"--"This
+is all sheer detraction!"--"All this is nothing to the purpose!"
+etc., etc.
+
+"Well, ma'am, what say you to all this?  how have you been
+entertained?" cried a voice at my side; and I saw Mr. Crutchley,
+who came round to speak to me.
+
+"Entertained?" cried I, "indeed, not at all, it is quite too
+serious and too horrible for entertainment: you ask after my
+amusement as if I were at an opera or a comedy."
+
+"A comedy?" repeated he, contemptuously, "no, a farce! It is not
+high enough for a comedy.  To hear a man rant such stuff.  But
+you should have been here the first day he spoke; this is milk
+and honey to that.  He said then, ' His heart was as black--as--
+black!' and called him the captain-general of iniquity."
+
+"Hush! hush!" cried I, for he spoke very loud; "that young man
+you see down there, who is looking up, is his son."
+
+"I know it," cried he, "and what do I care?"
+How I knew Mr. Crutchley again, by his ready talent of defiance,
+and disposition to contempt !  I was called aside from him by
+James.
+
+Mr. Crutchley retired, and Mr. Windham quitted his den, and
+approached me, with a smile of good-humour and satisfaction that
+made me instantly exclaim, "No exultation, Mr. Windham, no
+questions; don't ask me what I think of the speech; I can bear no
+triumph just now."
+
+"No, indeed," cried he, very civilly, "I will not, I promise you,
+and you may depend upon me."
+
+He then spoke to James, regretting with much politeness that he
+had seen so little of him when he was his neighbour in Norfolk,
+and attributing it to the load of India business he had carried
+into the country to study.  I believe I have mentioned
+
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+
+that Felbrig, Mr. Windham's seat, is within a few miles of my
+brother-in-law, Mr. Francis's house at Aylsham.
+
+After this, however, ere we knew where we were, we began
+commenting upon the speech.  It was impossible to refuse applause
+to its able delivery and skilful eloquence; I, too, who so long
+had been amongst the warmest personal admirers of Mr. Burke,
+could least of all withhold from him the mite of common justice.
+In talking over the speech, therefore, while I kept clear of its
+purpose, I gave to its execution the amplest praise; and I
+secretly grieved that I held back more blame than I had
+commendation to bestow.
+
+He had the good breeding to accept it just as I offered it,
+without claiming more, or endeavouring to entangle me in my
+approbation.  He even checked himself, voluntarily, when he was
+asking me some question of my conversion, by stopping short, and
+saying, "But, no, it is not fair to press you; I must not do
+that."
+
+"You cannot," cried I, "press me too much, with respect to my
+admiration of the ability of the speaker; I never more wished to
+have written short-hand.  I must content myself, however, that I
+have at least a long memory."
+
+He regretted very much that I had missed the first opening of the
+speech, and gave me some account of it, adding, I might judge
+what I had lost then by what I had heard now.
+
+I frankly confessed that the two stories which Mr. Burke had
+narrated had nearly overpowered me; they were pictures of cruelty
+so terrible.
+
+"But General Caillot," cried he, smiling, "the hero of one of
+them, you would be tempted to like: he is as mild, as meek, as
+gentle in his manners--"
+
+I saw he was going to say "As your Mr. Hastings;" but I
+interrupted him hastily, calling out, "Hush! hush! Mr. Windham;
+would you wish me in future to take to nothing but lions?
+
+
+                  FURTHER CONVERSATION WITH MR. WINDHAM.
+
+We then went into various other particulars of the speech, till
+Mr. Windham observed that Mr. Hastings was looking up, and, after
+examining him some time, said he did not like his countenance.  I
+could have told him that he is generally reckoned extremely like
+himself but after such an observation I would not venture, and
+only said, "Indeed, he is cruelly altered: it
+
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+
+was not so he looked when I conceived for him that prepossession
+I have owned to you."
+
+"Altered, is he?" cried he, biting his lips and looking somewhat
+shocked.
+
+"Yes, and who can wonder?  Indeed, it is quite affecting to see
+him sit there to hear such things."
+
+"I did not see him," cried he, eagerly "I did not think it right
+to look at him during the speech, nor from the committeebox; and,
+therefore, I constantly kept my eyes another way."
+
+I -had a great inclination to beg he would recommend a little of
+the same decency to some of his colleagues, among whom are three
+or four that even stand on the benches to examine him, during the
+severest strictures, with opera-glasses.  Looking at him again
+now, myself, I could not see his pale face and haggard eye
+without fresh concern, nor forbear to exclaim, "Indeed, Mr.
+Windham, this is a dreadful business!" He seemed a little struck
+with this exclamation; and, lest it should offend him, I hastened
+to add, in apology, "You look so little like a bloody-minded
+prosecutor, that I forget I ought not to say these things to
+you."
+
+"Oh!" cried he, laughing, "we are only prosecutors
+there--(pointing to the committee-box), we are at play up here."
+. . .
+
+I wished much to know when he was himself to speak, and made
+sundry inquiries relative to the progress of the several
+harangues, but all without being comprehended, till at length I
+cried, "In short, Mr. Windham, I want to know when everybody
+speaks."
+
+He started, and cried with precipitancy, "Do you mean me?"
+
+"Yes."
+
+"No, I hope not; I hope you have no wants about my miserable
+speaking?"
+
+I Only laughed, and we talked for some time of other things; and
+then, suddenly, he burst forth with, "But you have really made me
+a little uneasy by what you dropped just now."
+
+"And what was that?"
+
+"Something like an intention of hearing me."
+
+"Oh, if that depended wholly on myself, I should certainly do
+it."
+
+"No, I hope not! I would not have you here on any account.  If
+you have formed any expectations, it will give me great concern."
+
+"Pray don't be uneasy about that; for whatever expectations
+
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+
+I may have formed, I had much rather have them disappointed."
+
+" Ho! ho!--you come, then," cried he, pointedly, "to hear me, by
+way of soft ground to rest upon, after the hard course you will
+have been run with these higher-spirited speakers?" . . . He
+desired me not to fail to come and hear Fox.  My chances, I told
+him, were very uncertain, and Friday was the earliest of them.
+"He speaks on Thursday," cried he, "and indeed you should hear
+him."
+
+"Thursday is my worst chance of all," I answered, "for it is the
+Court-day."
+
+"And is there no dispensation ? " cried he ; and then,
+recollecting himself, and looking very archly at Mr. Fox, who was
+just below us, he added, "No,--true--not for him!"
+
+"Not for any body!" cried I; "on a Court-day my attendance is as
+necessary, and I am dressed out as fine, and almost as stiff, as
+those heralds are here."  I then told him what were my Windsor
+days, and begged he would not seize one of them to speak himself.
+
+"By no means," cried he, quite seriously, "would I have you
+here!--stay away, and only let me hope for your good wishes."
+
+" I shall be quite sincere," cried I, laughing, "and own to you
+that stay away I shall not, if I can possibly come; but as to my
+good wishes, I have not, in this case, one to give you!"
+
+He heard this with a start that was almost a jump.  "What!" he
+exclaimed, "would you lay me under your judgment without your
+mercy?--Why this is heavier than any penal statute."
+
+He spoke this with an energy that made Mr. Fox look up, to see to
+whom he addressed his speech: but before I could answer it, poor
+James, tired of keeping his promised circumspection, advanced his
+head to join the conversation; and so much was I alarmed lest he
+should burst forth into some unguarded expression of his vehement
+hatred to the cause, which could not but have irritated its
+prosecutors, that the moment I perceived his motion and
+intention, I abruptly took my leave of Mr. Windham, and surprised
+poor James into a necessity of following me.
+
+Indeed I was now most eager to depart, from a circumstance that
+made me feel infinitely awkward.  Mr. Burke himself was just come
+forward, to speak to a lady a little below me; Mr. Windham had
+instantly turned towards me, with a look of congratulation that
+seemed rejoicing for me, that the orator
+
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+
+of the day, and of the cause, was approaching,; but I retreated
+involuntarily back, and shirked meeting his eyes.  He perceived
+in an instant the mistake he was making, and went on with his
+discourse as if Mr. Burke was out of the Hall.  In a minute,
+however, Mr. Burke himself saw me, and he bowed with the most
+marked civility of manner; my courtesy was the most ungrateful,
+distant, and cold ; I could not do otherwise ; so hurt I felt to
+see him the head of such a cause, so impossible I found it to
+titter one word of admiration for a performance whose nobleness
+was so disgraced by its tenour, and so conscious was I the whole
+time that at such a moment to say nothing must seem almost an
+affront, that I hardly knew which way to look, or what to do with
+myself.(267)
+'
+In coming downstairs I met Lord Walsingham and Sir Lucas Pepys.
+"Well, Miss Burney," cried the first, "what say you to a
+governor-general of India now?"
+
+"Only this," cried I, "that I do not dwell much upon any question
+till I have heard its answer!"
+
+Sir Lucas then attacked me too.  All the world against poor Mr.
+Hastings, though without yet knowing what his materials may be
+for clearing away these aspersions!
+
+
+
+               Miss FUZILIER LIKELY TO PECONIE MRS, FAIRLY,
+February.-Her majesty at this time was a little indisposed, and
+we missed going to Windsor for a fortnight, during which I
+received visits of inquiry from divers of her ladies--Mrs.
+Brudenell, bed-chamber woman; Miss Brudenell, her daughter, and a
+maid of honour elect, would but one of that class please to marry
+or die; Miss Tryon and Miss Beauclerk, maids of honour, neither
+of them in a firm way to oblige Miss Brudenell, being nothing
+approaching to death, though far advanced from marriage; and
+various others.
+
+Miss Brudenell's only present hope is said to be in Miss
+Fuzilier,(268) who is reported, with what foundation I know not,
+
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+
+to be likely to become Mrs. Fairly.  She is pretty, learned, and
+accomplished ; yet, from the very little I have seen of her, I
+should not think she had heart enough to satisfy Mr. Fairly, in
+whose character the leading trait is the most acute sensibility,
+However, I have heard he has disclaimed all such intention, with
+high indignation at the report, as equally injurious to the
+delicacy both of Miss Fuzilier and himself, so recently after his
+loss.
+
+
+
+               THE HASTINGS TRIAL AGAIN: MR. FOX IN A RAGE.
+And now for my third Westminster Hall, which, by the queen's own
+indulgent order, was with dear Charlott and Sarah.  It was also
+to hear Mr. Fox, and I was very glad to let Mr. Windham see a
+"dispensation" was attainable, though the cause was accidental,
+since the queen's cold prevented the Drawing-room.(269)
+
+We went early, yet did not get very good places.  The managers at
+this time were all in great wrath at a decision made the night
+before by the Lords, upon a dispute between them and the counsel
+for Mr. Hastings, which turned entirely in favour of the
+latter.(270) When they entered their committee-box, led on as
+usual by Mr. Burke, they all appeared in the extremest and most
+angry emotion.
+
+When they had caballed together some time, Mr. Windham came up
+among the Commons, to bow to some ladies of his acquaintance, and
+then to speak to me ; but he was so agitated and so disconcerted,
+he could name nothing but their recent provocation from the
+Lords.  He seemed quite enraged, and broke forth with a vehemence
+I should not much have liked to have excited.  They had
+experienced, he said, in the late decision, the Most injurious
+treatment that could be offered them: the Lords had resolved upon
+saving Mr. Hastings, and
+the chancellor had taken him under the grossest protection.
+
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+
+"In short," said he, "the whole business is taken out of our
+hands, and they have all determined to save him."
+
+"Have they indeed?" cried I, with Involuntary eagerness.
+
+"Yes," answered he, perceiving how little I was shocked for him,
+"it is now all going your way."
+
+I could not pretend to be sorry, and only inquired if Mr. Fox was
+to speak.
+
+"I know not," cried he, hastily, "what is to be done, who will
+speak, or what will be resolved. Fox is in a rage! Oh, a rage!"
+
+"But yet I hope he will speak.  I have never heard him."
+
+"No? not the other day?"
+
+"No; I was then at Windsor."
+
+"Oh yes, I remember you told me you were going.  You have lost
+every thing by it! To-day will be nothing, he is all rage! On
+Tuesday he was great indeed.  You should have heard him then.
+And Burke, You should have heard the conclusion of Burke's
+speech; 'twas the noblest ever uttered by man!"
+
+"So I have been told."
+
+"To-day you will hear nothing--know nothing,--there will be no
+opportunity,- Fox is all fury."
+
+I told him he almost frightened me; for he spoke in a tremor
+himself that was really unpleasant.
+
+"Oh!" cried he, looking at me half reproachfully, half
+goodhumouredly, "Fox's fury is with the Lords--not there!"
+pointing to Mr. Hastings.
+
+I saw by this he entered into my feelings in the midst of his
+irritability, and that gave me courage to cry out, "I am glad of
+that at least!:
+
+Mr. Fox spoke five hours, and with a violence that did not make
+me forget what I had heard of his being in such a fury but I
+shall never give any account of these speeches, as they will all
+be printed.  I shall only say a word of the speakers as far as
+relates to my own feelings about them, and that briefly will be
+to say that I adhere to Mr. Burke, whose oratorical powers appear
+to me far more gentleman-like, scholar-like, and fraught with
+true genius than those of Mr. Fox.  it may be I am prejudiced by
+old kindnesses of Mr. Burke, and it may be that the countenance
+of Mr. Fox may have turned me against him, for it struck me to
+have a boldness in it quite hard and callous.  However, it is
+little matter how much my judgment in this point may err.  With
+you, my dear friends, I have
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+
+nothing further to do than simply to give it ; and even should it
+be wrong, it will not very essentially injure you in your
+politics.
+
+
+
+                  MRS. CREWE, MR. BURKE, AND MR. WINDHAM.
+
+Again, on the fourth time of my attendance at Westminster Hall,
+honest James was my esquire.
+
+We were so late from divers accidents that we did not enter till
+the same moment with the prisoner.  In descending the steps I
+heard my name exclaimed with surprise, and looking before me, I
+saw myself recognised by Mrs. Crewe.  "Miss Burney," she cried,
+"who could have thought of seeing you here!"
+
+Very obligingly she made me join her immediately, which, as I was
+with no lady, was a very desirable circumstance; and though her
+political principles are well known, and, of course, lead her to
+side with the enemies of Mr. Hastings, she had the
+good sense to conclude me on the other side, and the delicacy
+never once to distress me by any discussion of the prosecution.
+
+I was much disappointed to find nothing intended for this day's
+trial but hearing evidence; no speaker was preparing; all the
+attention was devoted to the witnesses.
+
+Mr. Adam, Mr. Dudley Long, and others that I know not, Came from
+the committee to chat with Mrs. Crewe; but soon after one came
+not so unknown to me--Mr. Burke; and Mrs. Crewe, seeing him
+ascend, named him to me, but was herself a little surprised to
+see it was his purpose to name himself, for he immediately made
+up to me, and with an air of such frank kindness that, could I
+have forgot his errand in that Hall, would have made me receive
+him as formerly, when I was almost fascinated with him.  But far
+other were my sensations.  I trembled as he approached me, with
+conscious change of sentiments, and with a dread of his pressing
+from me a disapprobation he might resent, but which I knew not
+how to disguise.
+
+"Near-sighted as I am," cried he, "I knew you immediately.  I
+knew you from our box the moment I looked up; yet how long it is,
+except for an instant here, since I have seen you!"
+
+"Yes," I hesitatingly answered, "I live in a monastery now."
+
+He said nothing to this.  He felt, perhaps, it was meant to
+express my inaccessibility.
+
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+
+I inquired after Mrs. Burke.  He recounted to me the particulars
+of his sudden seizure when he spoke last, from the cramp in his
+stomach, owing to a draught of cold water which he drank in the
+midst of the heat of his oration.
+
+I could not even wear a semblance of being sorry for him on this
+occasion; and my cold answers made him soon bend down to speak
+with Mrs. Crewe.
+
+I was seated in the next row to her, just above.
+
+Mr. Windham was now talking with her.  My whole curiosity and
+desire being to hear him, which had induced me to make a point of
+coming this time, I was eager to know if my chance was wholly
+gone.  "You are aware," I cried, when he spoke to me, "what
+brings me here this morning
+
+No;" he protested he knew not.
+
+Mrs. Crewe, again a little surprised, I believe, at this second
+opposition acquaintance, began questioning how often I had
+attended this trial.
+
+Mr. Windham, with much warmth of regret, told her very seldom,
+and that I had lost Mr. Burke on his best day.
+
+I then turned to speak to Mr. Burke, that I might not seem
+listening, for they interspersed various civilities upon my
+peculiar right to have heard all the great speeches, but Mr.
+Burke was in so profound a reverie he did not hear me.
+
+I wished Mr. Windham had not either, for he called upon him
+aloud, "Mr. Burke, Miss Burney speaks to you!"
+
+He gave me his immediate attention with an air so full of respect
+that it quite shamed me.
+
+"Indeed," I cried, " I had never meant to speak to Mr. Burke
+again after hearing him in Westminster Hall.  I had meant to keep
+at least that " geographical timidity."
+
+I alluded to an expression in his great speech of "geographical
+morality" which had struck me very much.
+
+He laughed heartily, instantly comprehending me, and assured me
+it was an idea that had occurred to him on the moment he had
+uttered it, wholly without study.
+
+A little general talk followed; and then, one of the lords rising
+to question some of the evidence, he said he must return to his
+committee and business,-very flatteringly saying, in quitting his
+post, "This is the first time I have played truant from the
+manager's box."
+
+However I might be obliged to him, which sincerely I felt, I was
+yet glad to have him go.  My total ill will to all he was about
+made his conversation merely a pain to me.
+
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+
+I did not feel the same With regard to Mr. Windham.  He is not
+the prosecutor, and seems endowed with so much liberality and
+candour that it not Only encourages me to speak to him what I
+think, but leads me to believe he will one day or other reflect
+upon joining a party so violent as a stain to the independence of
+his character.
+
+Almost instantly he came forward, to the place Mr. Burke had
+vacated.
+
+"Are you approaching," I cried, "to hear my upbraidings?"
+
+"Why--I don't know," cried he, looking half alarmed.
+
+"Oh! I give you warning, if you come you must expect them; so my
+invitation is almost as pleasant as the man's in 'Measure for
+Measure,' who calls to Master Barnardine, 'Won't you come down to
+be hanged?'"
+
+"But how," cried he, "have I incurred your upbraidings?"
+"
+By bringing me here," I answered, "only to disappoint me."
+
+"Did I bring you here?"
+
+"Yes, by telling me you were to speak to-day."
+
+He protested he could never have made such an assertion.  I
+explained myself, reminding him he had told me he was certainly
+to speak before the recess; and that, therefore, when I was
+informed this was to be the last day of trial till after the
+recess, I concluded I should be right, but found myself so
+utterly wrong as to hear nothing but such evidence as I Could not
+even understand, because it was so uninteresting I could not even
+listen to it.
+
+"How strangely," he exclaimed, "are we all moulded, that nothing
+ever in this mortal life, however pleasant in itself, and however
+desirable from its circumstances, can come to us without alloy--
+not even flattery; for here, at this moment, all the high
+gratification I should feel, and I am well disposed to feel it
+thoroughly in supposing you could think it worth your while to
+come hither in order to hear me, is kept down and subdued by the
+consciousness how much I must disappoint you."
+
+"Not at all," cried I; "the worse you speak, the better for my
+side of the question."
+
+He laughed, but confessed the agitation of his spirits was so
+great in the thought of that speech, whenever he was to make it,
+that it haunted him in fiery dreams in his sleep.
+
+"Sleep!" cried I; "do you ever sleep?"
+
+He stared a little, but I added with pretended dryness, "Do any
+of you that live down there in that prosecutor's den ever sleep
+in your beds?  I should have imagined that, had you
+
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+
+even attempted it, the anticipating ghost of Mr. Hastings would
+have appeared to you in the dead of the night, and have drawn
+your curtains, and glared ghastly in your eyes.  I do heartily
+wish Mr. Tickell would send You that 'Anticipation' at once!"
+
+This idea furnished us with sundry images, till, looking down
+upon Mr. Hastings, with an air a little moved, he said, "I am
+afraid the most insulting thing we do by him is coming up hither
+to show ourselves so easy and disengaged, and to enter into
+conversation with the ladies."
+
+"But I hope," cried I, alarmed, "he does not see that."
+
+"Why your caps," cried he, "are much in your favour for
+concealment; they are excellent screens to all but the first
+row!"
+
+I saw him, however, again look at the poor, and, I sincerely
+believe, much-injured prisoner, and as I saw also he still bore
+With my open opposition, I could not but again seize a favourable
+moment for being more serious With him.
+
+"Ah, Mr. Windham," I cried, "I have not forgot what dropped from
+you on the first day of this trial."
+
+He looked a little surprised.  "You," I continued, "probably have
+no remembrance of it, for you have been living ever since down
+there; but I was more touched with what you said then, than with
+all I have since heard from all the others, and probably than
+with all I shall hear even from you again when you mount the
+rostrum."
+
+"You conclude," cried he, looking very sharp, "I shall then be
+better steeled against that fatal candour?"
+
+"In fact," cried I, "Mr. Windham, I do really believe your
+steeling to he factitious; notwithstanding you took pains to
+assure me your candour was but the deeper malice; and yet I will
+own, when once I have heard your speech, I have little
+expectation of ever having the honour of conversing with you
+again."
+
+"And why?" cried- he, starting back "what am I to say that you
+denounce such a forfeit beforehand?"
+
+I could not explain; I left him to imagine; for, should he prove
+as violent and as personal as the rest, I had no objection to his
+previously understanding I could have no future pleasure in
+discoursing with him.
+
+"I think, however," I continued, with a laugh, "that since I have
+settled this future taciturnity, I have a fair right in the
+meanwhile to say whatever comes uppermost."
+
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+
+He agreed to this with great approvance.
+
+"Molière, you know, in order to obtain a natural opinion of his
+plays, applied to an old woman: you upon the same principle, to
+obtain a natural opinion of political matters, should apply to an
+ignorant one--for you will never, I am sure, gain it down there."
+
+He smiled, whether he would or not, but protested this was the
+severest stricture upon his committee that had ever yet been
+uttered.
+
+
+                    MISS BURNEY'S UNBIASED SENTIMENTS.
+
+I told him as it was the last time he was likely to hear unbiased
+sentiments upon this subject, it was right they should be spoken
+very intelligibly.  " And permit me," I said, " to begin with
+what strikes me the most.  Were Mr. Hastings really the culprit
+he is represented, he would never stand there."
+
+"Certainly," cried he, with a candour he could not suppress,
+"there seems something favourable in that; it has a Pod look; but
+assure yourself he never expected to see this day."
+
+"But would he, if guilty, have waited its chance? Was not all the
+world before him?  Could he not have chosen any other place of
+residence ?"
+
+"Yes--but the shame, the disgrace of a flight?"
+
+"What is it all to the shame and disgrace of convicted guilt?"
+He made no answer.
+
+"And now," I continued, "shall I tell you, just in the same
+simple style, how I have been struck with the speakers and
+speeches I have yet heard?"  He eagerly begged me to go on.
+
+"The whole of this public speaking is quite new to me.  I was
+never in the House of Commons.  It is all a new creation to me."
+
+"And what a creation it is he exclaimed.  "how noble, how
+elevating! and what an inhabitant for it!"
+
+I received his compliment with great courtesy, as an
+encouragement.  for me to proceed.  I then began upon Mr. Burke;
+but I must give you a very brief summary of my speech, as it
+could only be intelligible at full length from your having heard
+his.  I told him that his opening had struck me with the highest
+admiration of his powers, from the eloquence, the imagination,
+the fire, the diversity of expression, and the ready flow of
+language, with which he seemed gifted, in a most superior manner,
+for any and every purpose to which rhetoric
+
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+
+could lead.  "And when he came to his two narratives," I
+continued, "whence he related the particulars of those dreadful
+murders, he interested, he engaged, he at last overpowered me; I
+felt my cause lost.  I Could hardly keep on my seat.  My eyes
+dreaded a single glance towards a man so accused as Mr. Hastings;
+I wanted to sink on the floor, that they might be saved so
+painful a sight.  I had no hope he could clear himself; not
+another wish in his favour remained.  But When from this
+narration Mr. Burke proceeded to his own comments and
+declamation--when the charges of rapacity, cruelty, tyranny were
+general, and made with all the violence of personal detestation,
+and continued and aggravated without any further fact or
+illustration; then there appeared more of study than of truth,
+more of invective than of justice; and, in short, so little of
+proof to so much of passion, that in a very short time I began to
+lift up my head, my seat was no longer uneasy, my eyes were
+indifferent which way they looked, or what object caught them;
+and before I was myself aware of the declension of Mr. Burke's
+powers over my feelings, I found myself a mere spectator in a
+public place, and looking all around it, with my opera-glass in
+my hand."
+
+His eyes sought the ground on hearing this, and with no other
+comment than a rather uncomfortable shrug of the shoulders, he
+expressively and concisely said--"I comprehend you perfectly!"
+
+This was a hearing too favourable to stop me; and Mr. Hastings
+constantly before me was an animation to my spirits which nothing
+less could have given me, to a manager of such a committee.
+
+I next, therefore, began upon Mr. Fox; and I ran through the
+general matter of his speech, with such observations as had
+occurred to me in hearing it.  "His violence," I said, "had that
+sort of monotony that seemed to result from its being factitious,
+and I felt less pardon for that than for any extravagance in Mr.
+Burke, whose excesses seemed at least to be unaffected, and, if
+they spoke against his judgment, spared his probity.  Mr. Fox
+appeared to have no such excuse; he looked all good humour and
+negligent ease the instant before he began a speech of
+uninterrupted passion and vehemence, and he wore the same
+careless and disengaged air the very instant he had finished.  A
+display of talents in which the inward man took so little share
+could have no powers of persuasion to those who saw them in that
+light and therefore.
+
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+
+however their brilliancy might be admired, they were useless to
+their cause, for they left the mind of the hearer in the same
+state that they found it."
+
+After a short vindication of his friends, he said, "You have
+never heard Pitt?  You would like him beyond any other
+competitor."
+
+And then he made his panegyric in very strong terms, allowing him
+to be equal, ready, splendid, wonderful!--he was in constant
+astonishment himself at his powers and success;--his youth and
+inexperience never seemed against him: though he mounted to his
+present height after and in opposition to such a vortex of
+splendid abilities, yet, alone and unsupported, he coped with
+them all!  And then, with conscious generosity, he finished a
+most noble éloge with these words: "Take--you may take--the
+testimony of an enemy--a very confirmed enemy of Mr. Pitt's!"
+
+Not very confirmed, I hope!  A man so liberal can harbour no
+enmity of that dreadful malignancy that sets mitigation at
+defiance for ever.
+
+He then asked me if I had heard Mr. Grey?
+
+" No," I answered ; " I can come but seldom, and therefore I
+reserved myself for to-day."
+
+"You really fill me with compunction,"  he cried.  "But if,
+indeed, I have drawn you into so cruel a waste of your time, the
+only compensation I can make you will be carefully to keep from
+you the day when I shall really speak."
+
+"No," I answered, "I must hear you; for that is all I now wait
+for to make up my final opinion."
+
+"And does it all rest with me?--'Dreadful responsibility'--as Mr.
+Hastings powerfully enough expresses himself in his narrative."
+
+"And can you allow an expression of Mr. Hastings's to be
+powerful?--That is not like Mr. Fox, who, in acknowledging some
+one small thing to be right, in his speech, checked himself for
+the acknowledgment by hastily saying 'Though I am no great
+admirer of the genius and abilities of the gentleman at the
+bar;'--as if he had pronounced a sentence in a parenthesis,
+between hooks,--so rapidly he flew off to what he could
+positively censure."
+
+" And hooks they were indeed he cried.
+
+ "Do not inform against me," I continued, "and I will give you a
+little more of Molière's old woman."
+
+He gave me his parole, and looked very curious,
+
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+
+"Well then,--amongst the things most striking to an unbiased
+spectator was that action of the orator that led him to look full
+at the prisoner upon every hard part of the charge.  There was no
+courage in it, since the accused is so situated he must make no
+answer; and, not being courage, to Molière's old woman it could
+only seem cruelty!"
+
+He quite gave up this point without a defence, except telling me
+it was from the habit of the House of Commons, as Fox, who
+chiefly had done this, was a most good-humoured man, and by
+nothing but habit would have been betrayed into such an error.
+
+"And another thing," I cried, "which strikes those ignorant of
+senatorial licence, is this,--that those perpetual repetitions,
+from all the speakers, of inveighing against the power, the
+rapacity, the tyranny, the despotism of the gentleman at the bar,
+being uttered now, when we see him without any power, without
+even liberty-con fined to that spot, and the only person in this
+large assembly who may not leave it when he will--when we see
+such a contrast to all we hear we think the simplest relation
+would be sufficient for all purposes of justice, as all that goes
+beyond plain narrative, instead of sharpening indignation, only
+calls to mind the greatness of the fall, and raises involuntary
+commiseration!"
+
+"And you wish," he cried, "to hear me? How you add to my
+difficulties!--for now, instead of thinking of Lords, Commons,
+bishops, and judges before me, and of the delinquent and his
+counsel at my side, I shall have every thought and faculty
+swallowed up in thinking of who is behind me!"
+
+This civil speech put an end to Molière's old woman and her
+comments; and not to have him wonder at her unnecessarily, I
+said, "Now, then, Mr. Windham, shall I tell you fairly what it is
+that induced me to say all this to you?--Dr. Johnson!--what I
+have heard from him of Mr. Windham has been the cause of all this
+hazardous openness."
+
+"'Twas a noble cause," cried he, well pleased, "and noble has
+been its effect!  I loved him, indeed, sincerely.  He has left a
+chasm in my heart-a chasm in the world !  There was in him what I
+never saw before, what I never shall find again! I lament every
+moment as lost, that I might have spent in his society, and yet
+gave to any other."
+
+How it delighted me to hear this just praise, thus warmly
+uttered!--I could speak from this moment upon no other subject.
+I told him how much it gratified me; and we agreed
+
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+
+in comparing notes upon the very few opportunities his real
+remaining friends could now meet with of a similar indulgence,
+since so little was his intrinsic worth understood, while so
+deeply all his foibles had been felt, that in general it was
+merely a matter of pain to hear him even named.
+
+How did we then emulate each other in calling to mind all his
+excellences!
+
+"His abilities," cried Mr. Windham, "were gigantic, and always at
+hand no matter for the subject, he had information ready for
+everything.  He was fertile,--he was universal."
+
+My praise of him was of a still more solid kind,--his principles,
+his piety, his kind heart under all its rough coating: but I need
+not repeat what I said,--my dear friends know every word.
+
+I reminded him of the airings, in which he gave his time with his
+carriage for the benefit of Dr. Johnson's health.  "What an
+advantage!" he cried, "was all that to myself!  I had not merely
+an admiration, but a tenderness for him,--the more I knew him,
+the stronger it became.  We never disagreed ; even in politics, I
+found it rather words than things in which we differed."
+
+"And if you could so love him," cried I, "knowing him only in a
+general way, what would you have felt for him had you known him
+at Streatham?"
+
+I then gave him a little history of his manners and way of life,
+there,--his good humour, his sport, his kindness, his
+sociability, and all the many excellent qualities that, in the
+world at large, were by so many means obscured.
+
+He was extremely interested in all I told him, and regrettingly
+said he had only known him in his worst days, when his health was
+upon its decline, and infirmities were crowding- fast upon him.
+
+"Had he lived longer," he cried, "I am satisfied I should have
+taken to him almost wholly.  I should have taken him to my heart!
+have looked up to him, applied to him, advised with him in all
+the most essential occurrences of my life! I am sure, too,--
+though it is a proud assertion,--he would have liked me, also,
+better, had we mingled more.  I felt a mixed fondness and
+reverence growing so strong upon me, that I am satisfied the
+closest union would have followed his longer life."
+
+I then mentioned how kindly he had taken his visit to him at
+Lichfield during a severe illness, "And he left you," I said, "a
+book ? "
+
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+
+"Yes," he answered, "and he gave me one, also, just before he
+died.  'You will look into this Sometimes,' he said, 'and not
+refuse to remember whence you had it.' "(271)
+
+And then he added he had heard him speak of me,--and with so much
+kindness, that I was forced not to press a recapitulation: yet
+now I wish I had heard it.
+
+just before we broke up, "There Is nothing," he cried, with
+energy, "for which I look back upon myself with severer
+discipline than the time I have thrown away in other pursuits,
+that might else have been devoted to that wonderful man!"
+He then said he must be gone,--he was one in a committee of the
+House, and could keep away no longer.
+
+
+               BURKE AND SHERIDAN MEET WITH COLD RECEPTIONS.
+I then again joined in with Mrs. Crewe, who, meantime, had had
+managers without end to converse with her.
+But, very soon after, Mr. Burke mounted to the House of
+Commons(272) again, and took the place left by Mr. Windham.
+I inquired very much after Mrs. Burke, and we talked
+of the spectacle, and its fine effect; and I ventured to
+mention, allusively, some of the digressive parts of the great
+speech in which I had heard him: but I saw him anxious for
+speaking more to the point, and as I could not talk to him--the
+leading prosecutor--with that frankness of opposing sentiments
+which I used to Mr. Windham, I was anxious only to avoid talking
+at all; and so brief was my speech, and so long my silences,
+that, of course, he was soon wearied into a retreat.  Had he not
+acted such a part, with what pleasure should I have exerted
+myself to lengthen his stay!
+
+Yet he went not in wrath: for, before the close, he came yet a
+third time, to say "I do not pity you for having to sit there so
+long, for, with you, sitting can now be no punishment."
+
+"No," cried I, "I may take rest for a twelvemonth back."  His son
+also came to speak to me; but, not long after,
+
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+
+Mrs. Crewe called upon me to say, "Miss Burney, Mr. Sheridan begs
+me to introduce him to you, for he thinks you have forgot him."
+
+I did not feel very comfortable in this; the part he acts would
+take from me all desire for his notice, even were his talents as
+singular as they are celebrated.  Cold, therefore, was my
+reception of his salutations, though as civil as I could make it.
+ He talked a little over our former meeting at Mrs.
+Cholmondeley's, and he reminded me of what he had there urged and
+persuaded with all his might, namely, that I would write a
+comedy; and he now reproached me for my total disregard of his
+counsel and opinion.
+
+I made little or no answer, for I am always put out by such sort
+of discourse, especially when entered upon with such abruptness.
+Recollecting, then, that "Cecilia" had been published since that
+time, he began a very florid flourish, saying he was in my debt
+greatly, not only for reproaches about what I had neglected, but
+for fine speeches about what I had performed.  I hastily
+interrupted him with a fair retort, exclaiming,--"O if fine
+speeches may now be made, I ought to begin first---but know not
+where I should end!"  I then asked after Mrs. Sheridan, and he
+soon after left me.
+
+Mrs. Crewe was very obligingly solicitous our renewed
+acquaintance should not drop here; she asked me to name any day
+for dining with her, or to send to her at any time when I could
+arrange a visit: but I was obliged to decline it, on the general
+score of wanting time.
+
+In the conclusion of the day's business there was much speaking,
+and I heard Mr. Fox, Mr. Burke, and several others; but the whole
+turned extremely in favour of the gentleman at the bar, to the
+great consternation of the accusers, whose own witnesses gave
+testimony, most unexpectedly, on the side of Mr. Hastings.
+
+We came away very late; my dear James quite delighted with this
+happy catastrophe.
+
+
+AT WINDSOR AGAIN.
+
+March.-In our first journey to Windsor this month Mrs.
+Schwellenberg was still unable to go, and the party was Miss
+Planta, Colonel Wellbred, Mr. Fairly, Sir Joseph Banks, and Mr.
+Turbulent.
+
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+
+Sir Joseph was so exceedingly shy that we made no sort of
+acquaintance.  If instead of going round the world he had only
+fallen from the moon, he could not appear less versed in the
+usual modes of a tea-drinking party.  But what, you will say, has
+a tea-drinking party to do with a botanist, a man of science, a
+president of the Royal Society?
+
+I left him , however, to the charge of Mr. Turbulent, the two
+colonels becoming, as usual, my joint supporters.  And Mr.
+Turbulent, in revenge, ceased not one moment to watch Colonel
+Wellbred, nor permitted him to say a word, or to hear an answer,
+without some most provoking grimace.  Fortunately, upon this
+subject he cannot confuse me; I have not a sentiment about
+Colonel Wellbred, for or against, that shrinks from examination.
+
+To-night, however, my conversation was almost wholly with him.  I
+would not talk with Mr. Turbulent; I could not talk with Sir
+Joseph Banks - and Mr. Fairly did not talk with me : he had his
+little son with him; he was grave and thoughtful, and seemed
+awake to no other pleasure than discoursing with that sweet boy.
+
+I believe I have forgotten to mention that Mrs. Gwynn had called
+upon me one morning, in London, and left me a remarkably fine
+impression of Mr. Bunbury's "Propagation of a Lie," which I had
+mentioned when she was at Windsor, with regret at having never
+seen it.  This I had produced here a month ago, to show to our
+tea-party, and just as it was in the hands of Colonel Wellbred,
+his majesty entered the room; and, after looking at it a little
+while, with much entertainment, he took it away to show it to the
+queen and princesses.  I thought it lost; for Colonel Wellbred
+said he concluded it would be thrown amidst the general hoard of
+curiosities, which, when once seen, are commonly ever after
+forgotten, yet which no one has courage to name and to claim.
+
+This evening, however, the colonel was successful, and recovered
+me my print.  It is so extremely humorous that I was very glad to
+receive it, and in return I fetched my last
+sketches, which Mr. William Locke had most kindly done for me
+when here last autumn, and indulged Colonel Wellbred with looking
+at them, charging him at the same time to guard them from a
+similar accident.  I meant to show them myself to my royal
+mistress, who is all care, caution, and delicacy, to restore to
+the right owner whatever she receives with a perfect knowledge
+who the right owner is,
+
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+
+The second volume of the "Letters" of my reverenced Dr. Johnson
+was now lent me by her majesty; I found in them very frequent
+mention of our name, but nothing to alarm in the reading it.
+
+
+                           DEATH OF MRS. DELANY.
+
+April.-I have scarce a memorandum of this fatal month, in which I
+was bereft of the most revered of friends, and, perhaps, the most
+perfect of women.(273)  I am yet scarce able to settle whether to
+glide silently and resignedly--as far as I can--past all this
+melancholy deprivation, or whether to go back once more to the
+ever-remembered, ever-sacred scene that closed the earthly
+pilgrimage of my venerable, my sainted friend.
+
+I believe I heard the last words she uttered : I cannot learn
+that she spoke after my reluctant departure.  She finished with
+that cheerful resignation, that lively hope, which always broke
+forth when this last--awful--but, to her, most happy change
+seemed approaching.
+
+Poor Miss Port and myself were kneeling by her bedside.  She had
+just given me her soft hand; without power to see either of us,
+she felt and knew us.  O, never can I cease to cherish the
+remembrance of the sweet, benign, holy voice with which she
+pronounced a blessing upon us both!  We kissed her--and, with a
+smile all beaming--I thought it so--of heaven, she seemed then to
+have taken leave of all earthly solicitudes.  Yet then, even
+then, short as was her time on earth, the same soft human
+sensibility filled her for poor human objects.  She would not bid
+us farewell--would not tell us she should speak with us no more--
+she only said, as she turned gently away from us, "And now--I'll
+go to sleep!"--But, O, in what a voice she said it! I felt what
+the sleep would be; so did poor Miss Port.
+
+Poor, sweet, unfortunate girl! what deluges of tears did she shed
+over me! I promised her in that solemn moment my eternal regard,
+and she accepted this, my first protestation of any kind made to
+her, as some solace to her sufferings.  Sacred shall I hold
+it!--sacred to my last hour.  I believe, indeed, that angelic
+being had no other wish equally fervent.
+
+How full of days and full of honours was her exit!  I should
+blush at the affliction of my heart in losing her, could I ever
+
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+
+believe excellence was given us here to love and to revere, yet
+gladly to relinquish.  No, I cannot think it: the deprivation may
+be a chastisement, but not a joy.  We may submit to it with
+patience; but we cannot have felt it with warmth where we lose it
+without pain, Outrageously to murmur, or sullenly to refuse
+consolation--there, indeed, we are rebels against the
+dispensations of providence--and rebels yet more weak than
+wicked; for what and whom is it we resist? what and who are we
+for such resistance ?
+
+She bid me--how often did she bid me not grieve to lose her! Yet
+she said, in my absence, she knew I must, and sweetly regretted
+how much I must miss her.  I teach myself to think of her
+felicity; and I never dwell upon that without faithfully feeling
+I would not desire her return.  But, in every other channel in
+which my thoughts and feelings turn, I miss her with so sad a
+void!  She was all that I dearly loved that remained within my
+reach; she was become the bosom repository of all the livelong
+day's transactions, reflections, feelings, and wishes.  Her own
+exalted mind was all expanded when we met.  I do not think she
+concealed from me the most secret thought of her heart; and while
+every word that fell from her spoke wisdom, piety, and
+instruction, her manner had an endearment, her spirits a native
+gaiety, and her smile, to those she loved, a tenderness so
+animated.
+
+Blessed spirit! sweet, fair, and beneficent on earth!--O, gently
+mayest thou now be at rest in that last home to which fearfully I
+look forward, yet not hopeless; never that--and sometimes with
+fullest, fairest, sublimest expectations!  If to her it be given
+to plead for those she left, I shall not be forgotten in her
+prayer.  Rest to her sweet soul! rest and everlasting peace to
+her gentle spirit!
+
+I saw my poor lovely Miss Port twice in every day, when in town,
+till after the last holy rites had been performed.  I had no
+peace away from her; I thought myself fulfilling a wish of that
+sweet departed saint, in consigning all the time I had at my own
+disposal to solacing and advising with her beloved niece, who
+received this little offering with a sweetness that once again
+twined her round my heart. . . .
+
+Poor Mrs. Astley, the worthy humble friend, rather than servant,
+of the most excellent departed, was the person whom, next to the
+niece, I most pitied.  She was every way to be lamented: unfit
+for any other service, but unprovided for in this, by the
+ utter and most regretted inability of her much
+
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+
+attached mistress, who frequently told me that leaving poor
+Astley unsettled hung heavy on her mind.
+
+My dearest friends know, the success I had in venturing to
+represent her worth and situation to my royal mistress.  In the
+moment when she came to my room to announce his majesty's
+gracious intention to pension Mrs. Astley here as housekeeper to
+the same house, I really could scarce withhold myself from
+falling prostrate at her feet : I never felt such a burst of
+gratitude but where I had no ceremonials to repress it.  Joseph,
+too, the faithful footman, I was most anxious to secure in some
+good service-- and I related my wishes for him to General Cary,
+who procured for him a place with his daughter, Lady Amherst.
+
+I forget if I have ever read you the sweet words that accompanied
+to me the kind legacies left me by my honoured friend.  I believe
+not.  They were ordered to be sent me with the portrait of
+Sacharissa, and two medallions of their majesties: they were
+originally written to accompany the legacy to the Bishop of
+Worcester, Dr. Hurd, as you may perceive by the style, but it was
+desired they might also be copied:--
+
+"I take this liberty, that my much esteemed and respected friend
+may sometimes recollect a person who was so sensible of the
+honour of her friendship and who delighted so much in her
+conversation and works."
+
+Need I--O, I am sure I need not say with what tender, grateful,
+sorrowing joy I received these sweet pledges of her invaluable
+regard!
+
+To these, by another codicil, was added the choice of one of her
+mosaic flowers.  And verbally, on the night but one before she
+died, she desired I might have her fine quarto edition of
+Shakespeare, sweetly saying she had never received so much
+pleasure from him in any other way as through my reading.
+
+
+
+                 THE HASTINGS TRIAL AND MR. WINDHAM AGAIN.
+The part of this month in which my Susanna was in town I kept no
+journal at all.  And I have now nothing to add but to copy those
+memorandums I made of the trial on the day I went to Westminster
+Hall with my two friends,(274) previously to
+
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+
+the deep calamity on which I have dwelt.  They told me they could
+not hear what Mr. Windham said; and there is a spirit in his
+discourse more worth their hearing than any other thing I have
+now to write.
+
+You may remember his coming straight from the managers, in their
+first procession to their box, and beginning at once a most
+animated attack--scarcely waiting first to say "How do!"--before
+he exclaimed "I have a great quarrel with you--I am come now
+purposely to quarrel with you--you have done me mischief
+irreparable--you have ruined me!"
+
+"Have I?"
+
+"Yes: and not only with what passed here, even setting that
+aside, though there was mischief enough here; but you have quite
+undone me since!"
+
+I begged him to let me understand how.
+
+"I will," he cried.  "When the trial broke up for the recess I
+went into the country, purposing to give my whole time to study
+and business; but, most unfortunately, I had just sent for a new
+set of 'Evelina;' and intending only to look at it, I was so
+cruelly caught that I could not let it out of my hands, and have
+been living with nothing but the Branghtons ever since."
+
+I could not but laugh, though on this subject 'tis always
+awkwardly.
+
+"There was no parting with it," he continued.  "I could not shake
+it off from me a moment!--see, then, every way, what mischief you
+have done me!"
+
+He ran on to this purpose much longer, with great rapidity, and
+then, suddenly, stopping, again said, "But I have yet another
+quarrel with you, and one you must answer.  How comes it that the
+moment you have attached us to the hero and the heroine--the
+instant you have made us cling to them so that there is no
+getting disengaged--twined, twisted, twirled them round our very
+heart-strings--how is it that then you make them undergo such
+persecutions? There is really no enduring their distresses, their
+Suspenses, their perplexities.  Why are you so cruel to all
+around--to them and their readers?"
+
+I longed to say--Do you object to a persecution?--but I know he
+spells it prosecution.
+
+I could make no answer: I never can.  Talking over one's own
+writings seems to me always ludicrous, because it cannot be
+impartially, either by author or commentator; one feeling,
+
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+
+the other fearing, too much for strict truth and unaffected
+candour.
+
+When we found the subject quite hopeless as to discussion, he
+changed it, and said "I have lately seen some friends of yours,
+and I assure you I gave you an excellent character to them: I
+told them you were firm, fixed, and impenetrable to all
+conviction."
+
+An excellent character, indeed!  He meant to Mr. Francis and
+Charlotte.
+
+Then he talked a little of the business of the day and he told me
+that Mr. Anstruther was to speak.
+
+"I was sure of it," I cried,, "by his manner when he entered the
+managers' box.  I shall know when you are to speak, Mr. Windham,
+before I hear you.,"
+
+He shrugged his shoulders a little uncomfortably.  I asked him to
+name to me the various managers.  He did ; adding, "Do you not
+like to sit here, where you can look down upon the several
+combatants before the battle?"
+
+When he named Mr. Michael Angelo Taylor, I particularly desired
+he might be pointed out to me, telling him I had long
+wished to see him, from the companion given to him in one of the
+"Probationary Odes," where they have coupled him with my dear
+father, most impertinently and unwarrantably.
+
+"That, indeed," he cried, "is a licentiousness in the press quite
+intolerable--to attack and involve private characters in their
+public lampoons! To Dr. Burney they could have no right; but Mr.
+Michael Angelo Taylor is fair game enough, and likes that or any
+other way whatever of obtaining notice.  You know what Johnson
+said to Boswell of preserving fame?"
+
+"No."
+
+"There were but two ways," he told him, "of preserving; one was
+by sugar, the other by salt.  'Now,' says he, 'as the sweet way,
+Bozzy, you are but little likely to attain, I would have you
+plunge into vinegar, and get fairly pickled at once.'  And such
+has been the plan of Mr. Michael Angelo Taylor.  With the sweet
+he had, indeed, little chance, so he soused into the other, head
+over ears."
+
+We then united forces in repeating passages from various of the
+"Probationary Odes," and talking over various of the managers,
+till Mr. Anstruther was preparing to speak, and Mr. Windham went
+to his cell.
+
+I am sure you will remember that Mr. Burke came also,
+
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+
+and the panic with which I saw him, doubled by my fear lest he
+should see that panic.
+
+When the speech was over, and evidence was filling up the day's
+business, Mr. Windham returned.  Some time after, but I have
+forgotten how, we were agreeing in thinking suspense, and all
+obscurity, in expectation or in opinion, almost the thing's most
+trying to bear in this mortal life, especially where they lead to
+some evil construction.
+
+"But then," cried he, "on the other hand, there is nothing so
+pleasant as clearing away a disagreeable prejudice; nothing SO
+exhilarating as the dispersion of a black mist, and seeing all
+that had been black and gloomy turn out bright and fair."
+
+"That, Sir," cried I, "is precisely what I expect from thence,"
+pointing to the prisoner.
+
+What a look he gave me, yet he laughed irresistibly.
+
+"However," I continued, "I have been putting my expectations from
+your speech to a kind of test."
+
+"And how, for heaven's sake?"
+
+"Why, I have been reading--running over, rather--a set of
+speeches, in which almost the whole House made a part, upon the
+India bill ; and in looking over those I saw not one that had not
+in it something positively and pointedly personal, except Mr.
+Windham's."
+
+"O, that was a mere accident."
+
+"But it was just the accident I expected from Mr. Windham.  I do
+not mean that there was invective in all the others, for in some
+there was panegyric--plenty! but that panegyric was always so
+directed as to convey more of severe censure to one party than of
+real praise to the other.  Yours was all to the business, and
+hence I infer you will deal just so by Mr. Hastings."
+
+"I believe," cried he, looking at me very sharp, "you only want
+to praise me down.  You know what it is to skate a man down?"
+
+"No, indeed."
+
+"Why, to skate a man down is a very favourite diversion among a
+certain race Of wags.  It is only to praise, and extol, and
+stimulate him to double and treble exertion and effort, till, in
+order to show his desert of such panegyric, the poor dupe makes
+so many turnings and windings, and describes circle after circle
+with such hazardous dexterity, that, at last, down he drops in
+the midst of his flourishes, to his own eternal disgrace, and
+their entire content."
+
+
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+
+I gave myself no vindication from this charge but a laugh; and we
+returned to discuss speeches and speakers, and I expressed again
+my extreme repugnance against all personality in these public
+harangues, except in simply stating facts.
+" What say you, then," cried he, " to Pitt?"  He then repeated a
+warm and animated praise of his powers and his eloquence, but
+finished with this censure: "He takes not," cried he, "the grand
+path suited to his post as prime minister, for he is personal
+beyond all men ; pointed, sarcastic, cutting ; and it is in him
+peculiarly unbecoming.  The minister should be always
+conciliating; the attack, the probe, the invective, belong to the
+assailant."
+Then he instanced Lord North, and said much more on these
+political matters and maxims than I can possibly write, or could
+at the time do more than hear; for, as I told him, I not only am
+no politician, but have no ambition to become one, thinking it by
+no means a female business.
+
+
+
+"THE QUEEN IS so KIND."
+
+When he went to the managers' box, Mr. Burke again took his
+place, but he held it a very short time, though he was in high
+good humour and civility.  The involuntary coldness that results
+from internal disapprobation must, I am sure, have been seen, so
+thoroughly was it felt.  I can only talk on this matter with Mr.
+Windham, who, knowing my opposite principles, expects to hear
+them, and gives them the fairest play by his good humour,
+candour, and politeness.  But there is not one other manager with
+whom I could venture such openness.
+
+That Mr. Windham takes it all in good part is certainly amongst
+the things he makes plainest, for again, after Mr. Burke's return
+to the den, he came back.
+
+"I am happy," cried I, "to find you have not betrayed me."
+
+"Oh, no; I would not for the world."
+
+"I am quite satisfied you have kept my counsel; for Mr. Burke has
+been with me twice, and speaking with a good humour I could not
+else have expected from him.  He comes to tell me that he never
+pities me for sitting here, whatever is going forward, as the
+sitting must be rest; and, indeed, it seems as if my coming
+hither was as much to rest my frame as to exercise my mind."
+
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+
+"That's a very good idea, but I do not like to realize it ; I do
+not like to think of you and fatigue together.  Is it so? Do you
+really want rest?"
+
+"O, no."
+
+"O, I am well aware yours is not a mind to turn complainer but
+yet I fear, and not for your rest only, but your time.  How is
+that; have you it, as you Ought, at your own disposal?"
+
+"Why not quite," cried I, laughing.  Good heaven! what a
+question, in a situation like mine!
+
+"Well, that is a thing I cannot bear to think of--that you should
+want time."
+
+"But the queen," cried I, is so kind."
+
+"That may be," interrupted he, "and I am very glad of it but
+still, time--and to you!"
+
+"Yet, after all, in the whole, I have a good deal, though always
+Uncertain.  for, if sometimes I have not two minutes when I
+expect two hours, at other times I have two hours where I
+expected only two minutes."
+
+"All that is nothing, if you have them not with certainty.  Two
+hours are of no more value than two minutes, if you have them not
+at undoubted command."
+
+Again I answered, "The queen is so kind;"  determined to sound
+that sentence well and audibly into republican ears.
+
+"Well, well," cried he, "that may be some compensation to you,
+but to us, to all others, what compensation is there for
+depriving you of time?"
+
+"Mrs. Locke, here," cried I, "always wishes time could be bought,
+because there are so many who have more than they know what to do
+with, that those who have less might be supplied very
+reasonably."
+
+"'Tis an exceeding good idea," cried he, "and I am sure, if it
+could be purchased, it ought to be given to YOU by act of
+parliament, as a public donation and tribute."  There was a fine
+flourish!
+
+
+            PERSONAL RESEMBLANCE BETWEEN WINDHAM AND HASTINGS.
+A little after, while we were observing Mr. Hastings, Mr. Windham
+exclaimed, "He's looking up; I believe he is looking for you."
+
+I turned hastily away, fairly saying, "I hope not."
+
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+
+"Yes, he is; he seems as if he wanted to bow to you."  I shrank
+back.      "No, he looks off; he thinks you in too bad company!"
+"Ah, Mr. Windham," cried I, "you should not be          so
+hardhearted towards him, whoever else may; and I could
+tell you, and I will tell you if you please, a very forcible
+reason."  He assented.  "You must know, then, that people there
+are in this world who scruple not to assert that there is a very
+strong personal resemblance between Mr. Windham and Mr. Hastings;
+nay, in the profile, I see it myself at this moment and therefore
+ought not you to be a little softer than the rest, if merely in
+sympathy?"
+
+He laughed very heartily; and owned he had heard of the
+resemblance before.
+
+"I could take him extremely well," I cried, "for your uncle."
+"No, no; if he looks like my elder brother, I aspire at no more."
+
+"No, no; he is more like your uncle; he has just that air; he
+seems just of that time of life.       Can You then be so
+unnatural as to prosecute him with this eagerness?"
+
+And then, once again, I ventured to give him a little touch of
+Molière's old woman, lest he should forget that good and honest
+dame; and I told him there was one thing she particularly
+objected to in all the speeches that had yet been made, and hoped
+his speech would be exempt from.
+
+He inquired what that was.
+
+"Why, she says she does not like to hear every orator compliment
+another; every fresh speaker say, he leaves to the superior
+ability of his successor the prosecution of the business."
+"O, no," cried he, very readily, "I detest all that sort of
+adulation.    I hold it in the utmost contempt."
+
+"And, indeed, it will be time to avoid it when your turn comes,
+for I have heard it in no less than four speeches already."
+And then he offered his assistance about servants and carriages,
+and we all came away, our different routes; but my Fredy and
+Susan must remember my meeting with Mr. Hastings in coming out,
+and his calling after me, and saying, with a very comic sort of
+politeness, "I must come here to have the pleasure of seeing Miss
+Burney, for I see her nowhere else."
+
+What a strange incident would have been formed had this rencontre
+happened thus if I had accepted Mr. Windham's offered services !
+I am most glad I had not ; I should have felt myself a
+conspirator, to have been so met by Mr. Hastings.
+
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+
+                       DEATH OF YOUNG LADY MULGRAVE.
+
+May.-On the 17th of this month Miss Port bade her sad reluctant
+adieu to London.  I gave what time I could command from Miss
+Port's departure to my excellent and maternal Mrs. Ord, who
+supported herself with unabating fortitude and resignation.  But
+a new calamity affected her much, and affected me greatly also,
+though neither she nor I were more than distant spectators in
+comparison with the nearer mourners; the amiable and lovely Lady
+Mulgrave gave a child to her lord, and died, in the first dawn of
+youthful beauty and sweetness, exactly a year after she became
+his wife.  'Twas, indeed, a tremendous blow.  It was all our
+wonder that Lord Mulgrave kept his senses, as he had not been
+famed for patience or piety; but I believe he was benignly
+inspired with both, from his deep admiration of their excellence
+in his lovely wife.
+
+
+                             AGAIN AT WINDSOR.
+
+I must mention a laughable enough circumstance.  Her majesty
+inquired of me if I had ever met with- Lady Hawke? "Oh yes," I
+cried, "and Lady Say and Sele too."  " She has just desired
+permission to send me a novel of her own Writing," answered her
+majesty.
+
+"I hope," cried I, "'tis not the 'Mausoleum of Julia!'"
+
+But yes, it proved no less ! and this she has now published and
+sends about.  You must remember Lady Say and Sele's quotation
+from it.(275)  Her majesty was so gracious as to lend it me, for
+I had some curiosity to read it.  It is all of a piece: all love,
+love, love, unmixed and unadulterated with any more worldly
+materials.
+
+I read also the second volume of the "Paston Letters," and found
+their character the same as in the first, and therefore read them
+with curiosity and entertainment.
+
+The greater part of the month was spent, alas! at Windsor, with
+what a dreary vacuity of heart and of pleasure I need not say.
+The only period of it in which my spirits could be commanded to
+revive was during two of the excursions in which Mr. Fairly was
+of the party; and the sight of him, calm, mild, nay cheerful,
+under such superior sorrows-- --struck me with that sort of
+edifying admiration that led me, perforce, to the best
+
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+
+exertion in my power for the conquest of my deep depression.  If
+I did this from conscience in private, from a sense of obligation
+to him in public I reiterated my efforts, as I received from him
+all the condoling softness and attention he could possibly have
+bestowed upon me had my affliction been equal or even greater
+than his own.
+
+
+
+                    ANOTHER MEETING WITH MR. CRUTCHLEY.
+
+On one of the Egham race days the queen sent Miss Planta and me
+on the course, in one of the royal coaches, with Lord Templeton
+and Mr. Charles Fairly,(276) for our beaux.  Lady Templeton was
+then at the Lodge, and I had the honour of two or three
+conferences with er during her stay.  On the course, we were
+espied by Mr. Crutchley, who instantly devoted himself to my
+service for the morning--taking care of our places, naming
+jockeys, horses, bets, plates, etc., and talking between times of
+Streatham and all the Streathamites.  We were both, I believe,
+very glad of this discourse.  He pointed out to me where his
+house stood, in a fine park, within sight of the race-ground, and
+proposed introducing me to his sister, who was his housekeeper,
+and asking me if, through her invitation, I would come to Sunning
+Hill park.  I assured him I lived so completely in a monastery
+that I could make no new acquaintance.  He then said he expected
+soon Susan and Sophy Thrale on a visit to his sister, and he
+presumed I would not refuse coming to see them.  I truly answered
+I should rejoice to do it if in my power, but that most probably
+I must content myself with meeting them on the Terrace.  He
+promised to bring them there with his sister, though he had given
+up that walk these five years.
+
+It will give me indeed great pleasure to see them again.
+
+
+
+                 MR. TURBULENT'S TROUBLESOME PLEASANTRIES.
+My two young beaux Stayed dinner with us, and I afterwards
+strolled upon the lawn with them till tea-time.  I could not go
+on the Terrace, nor persuade them to go on by themselves.  We
+backed as the royal party returned home; and when they had all
+entered the house, Colonel Wellbred, who had stood aloof, quitted
+the train to join our little society.  "Miss
+
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+
+Burney," he cried, "I think I know which horse you betted upon!
+Cordelia!"
+
+"For the name's sake you think it," I cried; and he began some
+questions and comments upon the races, when suddenly the window
+of the tea-room opened, and the voice of Mr. Turbulent, with a
+most sarcastic tone, called out, "I hope Miss Burney and Colonel
+Wellbred are well!"
+
+We could neither Of us keep a profound gravity, though really he
+deserved it from us both.  I turned from the Colonel, and said I
+was coming directly to the tea-room.
+
+Colonel Wellbred would have detained me to finish Our race
+discourse, for he had shut the window when he had made his
+speech, but I said it was time to go in.
+
+"Oh no," cried he, laughing a little, "Mr. Turbulent only wants
+his own tea, and he does not deserve it for this!"
+
+In, however, I went, and Colonel Manners took the famous chair
+the instant I was seated.  We all began race talk, but Mr.
+Turbulent, approaching very significantly, said, "Do you want a
+chair On the other side, ma'am? Shall I tell the colonel-to bring
+one?"
+
+"No, indeed cried I, half seriously, lest he should do it. . . .
+
+Colonel Wellbred, not knowing what had passed, came to that same
+other side, and renewed his conversation.  In the midst of all
+this Mr. Turbulent hastily advanced with a chair, saying,
+"Colonel Wellbred, I cannot bear to see you standing so long."
+
+I found it impossible not to laugh under My hat, though I really
+wished to bid him stand in a corner for a naughty boy.  The
+colonel, I suppose, laughed too, whether he would or not, for I
+heard no answer.  However, he took the chair, and finding me
+wholly unembarrassed by this polissonnerie, though not wholly
+unprovoked by it, he renewed his discourse, and kept his seat
+till the party, very late, broke up; but Colonel Manners, who
+knew not what to make of all this, exclaimed, "Why, ma'am, you
+cannot keep Mr. Turbulent in much order."
+
+June.-Mrs. Schwellenberg came to Windsor with us after the
+birthday, for the rest of the summer.
+
+Mr. Turbulent took a formal leave of me at the same time, as his
+wife now came to settle at Windsor, and he ceased to belong to
+our party.  He only comes to the princesses at stated hours, and
+then returns to his own home.  He gave me many serious thanks for
+the time passed with me, spoke in flourishing
+
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+
+terms of its contrast to former times, and vowed no compensation
+could ever be made him for the hours he had thrown away by
+compulsion on "The Oyster."(277)  His behaviour altogether was
+very well--here and there a little eccentric, but, in the main,
+merely good-humoured and high-spirited.
+
+
+                  COLONEL FAIRLY AND SECOND ATTACHMENTS.
+
+I am persuaded there is no manner of truth in the report relative
+to Mr. Fairly and Miss Fuzilier, for he led me into a long
+conversation with him one evening when the party was large, and
+all were otherwise engaged, upon subjects of this nature, in the
+course of which he asked me if I thought any second attachment
+could either be as strong or as happy as a first.
+
+I was extremely surprised by the question, and quite unprepared
+how to answer it, as I knew not with what feelings or intentions
+I might war by any unwary opinions.  I did little, therefore, but
+evade and listen, though he kept up the discourse in a very
+animated manner, till the party all broke up.
+
+Had I spoken without any consideration but what was general and
+genuine, I should have told him that my idea was simply this,
+that where a first blessing was withdrawn by providence, not lost
+by misconduct, it seemed to me most consonant to reason, nature,
+and mortal life, to accept what could come second, in this as in
+all other deprivations.  Is it not a species of submission to the
+divine will to make ourselves as happy as we can in what is left
+us to obtain, where bereft of what we had sought?  My own
+conflict for content in a life totally adverse to my own
+inclinations, is all built on this principle, and when it
+succeeds, to this owes its success.
+
+I presumed not, however, to talk in this way to Mr. Fairly, for I
+am wholly ignorant in what manner or to what degree his first
+attachment may have rivetted his affections; but by the whole of
+what passed it seemed to me very evident that he was not merely
+entirely without any engagement, but entirely at this time
+without any plan or scheme of forming any; and probably he never
+may.
+
+(257) "Selections from the State Papers preserved in the Foreign
+Department of the Government of India, 1772-1785," Edited by G.
+W. Forrest, VOL i. P, 178.
+
+(258) "Warren Hastings," by Sir Alfred Lyall, p. 54.
+
+(259) Selections from State Papers," vol. i. p. xlviii.
+
+(260) In his defence at the bar of the House of Commons, (Feb.
+4th, 1788) Sir Elijah Impey attempted to justify his conduct by
+precedent, but the single precedent on which he relied does not
+prove much in his favour.  A Hindoo, named Radachund Metre, was
+condemned to death for forgery in 1765, but was pardoned on this
+very ground, that capital punishment for such a crime was unheard
+of in India.
+
+(261) Speech on Mr. Fox's East India Bill, Dec. 1st, 1783,
+
+(262) Fanny's brother, the scholar. He was, at this time, master
+of a school at Hammersmith-ED.
+
+(263) Windham had introduced and carried through the House of
+Commons the charge respecting Fyzoolla Khan, the Nawab of
+Rampore; but this charge, with many others of the original
+articles of impeachment, was not proceeded upon at the trial.
+Fyzoolla Khan was one of the Rohilla chiefs, who, more fortunate
+than the rest, had been permitted by treaty, after the conquest
+of Rohilcund in 17 74, to retain possession of Rampore as a
+vassal of the Vizier of Oude.  By this treaty the Nawab of
+Rampore was empowered to maintain an army of 5,000 horse and foot
+in all and in return he bound himself to place from 2,000 to
+3,000 troops at the disposal of the Vizier whenever that
+assistance might be required.  In November, 1780, the Vizier, or
+rather, Hastings, speaking by the mouth of the Vizier, called
+upon Fyzoolla Khan to furnish forthwith a contingent of 5,000
+horse.  The unhappy Nawab offered all the assistance in his
+power, but not only Was the demand unwarranted by the terms of
+the treaty, but the number of horse required was far greater than
+he had the means to furnish.  Thereupon Mr. Hastings gave
+permission to the Vizier to dispossess his vassal of his
+dominions.  This iniquitous scheme, however, was never carried
+out, and in 1782, Fyzoolla Khan made his peace with the
+Governor-General, and procured his own future exemption from
+military service, by payment of a large sum of money.-ED.
+
+(264) Mr. Hastings's enemy was Mr. afterwards Sir Philip Francis,
+by some people supposed to have been the author of "Junius's
+Letters."  The best friend of Mr. Hastings here alluded to was
+Clement Francis, Esq. of Aylsham, in Norfolk, who married
+Charlotte, fourth daughter of Dr. Burney. [Francis, though an
+active supporter of the impeachment, was not one of the
+"managers."  He had been nominated to the committee by Burke, but
+rejected by the House, on the ground of his well-known animosity
+to Hastings.-ED.)
+
+(265) After all, Impey escaped impeachment.  In December, 1787,
+Sir Gilbert Elliot, one of the managers of Hastings' impeachment,
+brought before the House of Commons six charges against Impey, of
+which the first, and most serious, related to the death of
+Nuncomar.  The charges were referred to a committee, before which
+Impey made his defence, February 4, 1788.  On May 9, a division
+was taken on the first charge, and showed a majority of eighteen
+in favour of Impey.  The subject was resumed, May 27, and finally
+disposed of by the rejection of sir Gilbert Elliot's motion
+without a division-ED.
+
+(266) Saturday, February 16, 1788.-ED.
+
+(267) Macaulay attributes perhaps too exclusively to Court
+influence Fanny's prepossession in favour of Hastings.  It should
+be remembered that her family and many of her friends were,
+equally with herself, partisans of Hastings, to whom, moreover,
+she had been first introduced by a much valued friend, Mr.
+Cambridge (see ante, vol. i., P. 326).-ED.
+
+(268) "Miss Fuzilier" is the name given in the "Diary" to Miss
+Charlotte Margaret Gunning, daughter of Sir Robert Gunning.  She
+married Colonel Digby ("Mr. Fairly") in 1790.-ED.
+
+(269)  This would seem to fix the date as Thursday, February 21,
+Thursday being mentioned by Fanny as the Court-day (see ante, p.
+125).  According, however, to Debrett's "History of the Trial,"
+Fox spoke on the charge relating to Cheyt Sing on Friday,
+February 22, the first day of the Court's sitting since the
+preceding Tuesday.-ED.                                '
+
+(270) The managers had desired that each charge should be taken
+separately, and replied to, before proceeding to the next.
+Hastings's counsel, on the other hand, demanded that all the
+charges should be presented before the defence was opened.  The
+Lords, by a large majority, decided against the managers.-ED.
+
+(271) Windham relates that when he called upon Dr. Johnson, six
+days before his death, Johnson put into his hands a copy of the
+New Testament, saying "Extremum hoc mumus morientis habeto."  See
+the extracts from Windham's journal in Croker's "Boswell," v.,
+326.         In a codicil to Johnson's will, dated Dec. 9, 1784,
+we find, among other bequests of books, "to Mr. Windham, Poete
+Greci Henrici per Henriculum Stephanum."-ED.
+
+(272) i.e. to the benches assigned to the Commons in Westminster
+Hall. These immediately adjoined the chamberlain's box in which
+Miss Burney was seated.-ED.
+
+(273) Mrs. Delany died on the 15th of April, 1788.-ED.
+
+(274)  Her sister Susan and Mrs. Locke.  The day referred to must
+have been Friday, April 11th, on which day Mr.  Anstruther spoke
+on the charge relating to Cheyt Sing.-ED.
+(275) See ante, vol. 1, p. 220.-ED.
+
+(276) The young son of Colonel Digby.-ED.
+
+(277) Mrs. Haggerdorn, Fanny's predecessor in office.  See ante,
+p. 26.-ED.
+
+
+
+Page 154
+                                SECTION 13
+                                  (1788.)
+
+
+                        ROYAL VISIT TO CHELTENHAM.
+
+(Since her establishment at Court we have not yet found Fanny so
+content with her surroundings as she shows herself in the
+following section of the " Diary." The comparative quiet of
+country life at Cheltenham was far more to her taste than the
+tiresome splendours of Windsor and St. James's.  She had still,
+it is true, her official duties to perform : it was Court life
+still, but Court life en déshabille.  But her time was otherwise
+more at her own disposal, and, above all things, the absence of
+"Cerbera," as she nicknamed the amiable Mrs. Schwellenberg and
+the presence of Colonel Digby, contributed to restore to her
+harassed mind that tranquillity which is so pleasantly apparent
+in the following pages.
+
+In the frequent society of Colonel Digby Fanny seems to have
+found an enjoyment peculiarly adapted to her reserved and
+sensitive disposition.  The colonel was almost equally retiring
+and sensitive with herself, and his natural seriousness was
+deepened by sorrow for the recent loss of his wife.       A
+similarity of tastes, as well as (in some respects) of
+disposition, drew him continually to Fanny's tea-table, and the
+gentleness of his manners, the refined and intellectual character
+of his conversation, so unlike the Court gossip to which she was
+usually condemned to remain a patient listener, caused her more
+and more to welcome his visits and to regret his departure. "How
+unexpected an indulgence," she writes, "a luxury, I may say, to
+me, are these evenings now becoming!" The colonel reads to her-
+-poetry, love-letters, even sermons, and while she listens to
+such reading, and such a reader, her work goes on with an
+alacrity that renders it all pleasure. The friendship which grew
+up between them was evidently, at least on the part of Fanny, of
+a more than ordinarily tender description. Whether, had
+circumstances permitted, it might have ripened into a feeling yet
+more tender, must remain a matter of speculation. Circumstances
+did not permit, and in after years both married elsewhere.-ED.]
+Page 155
+
+                     THE ROYAL PARTY AND THEIR SUITE.
+
+July.-Early  in this month the king's indisposition occasioned
+the plan of his going to Cheltenham, to try the effect of the
+waters drank upon the spot.  It was settled that the party should
+be the smallest that was possible, as his majesty was to inhabit
+the house of Lord Fauconberg, vacated for that purpose, which was
+very small.  He resolved upon only taking his equerry in waiting
+and pages, etc.  Lord Courtown, his treasurer of the household,
+was already at Cheltenham, and therefore at   hand to attend.
+The queen agreed to carry her lady of the bedchamber in waiting,
+with Miss Planta and F. B., and none others but wardrobe-women
+for herself and the princesses.
+
+Mr. Fairly was here almost all the month previously to our
+departure.  At first it was concluded he and Colonel Gwynn, the
+equerry in waiting, were to belong wholly to the same table with
+Miss Planta and me, and Mr. Fairly threatened repeatedly how well
+we should all know one another, and how well he would study and
+know us all au fond.
+
+But before we set out the plan was all changed, for the king
+determined to throw aside all state, and make the two gentlemen
+dine at his own table.  "We shall have, therefore," said Mr.
+Fairly, with a very civil regret, "no tea-meetings at
+Cheltenham."
+
+This, however, was an opening-        to me of time and leisure
+such as I had never yet enjoyed.
+
+Now, my dearest friends, I open an account which promises at
+least all the charms of novelty, and which, if it fulfils its
+promise, will make this month rather an episode than a
+continuation of my prosaic performance.  So now for yesterday,
+Saturday, July 12.
+
+We were all up at five o'clock; and the noise and confusion
+reigning through the house, and resounding all around it, from
+the quantities of people stirring, boxes nailing, horses
+neighing, and dogs   barking, was tremendous.
+
+I must now tell you the party:--Their majesties; the princesses
+Royal,   Augusta, and Elizabeth; Lady Weymouth, Mr. Fairly,
+Colonel Gwynn, Miss Planta, and a person you have sometimes met;
+pages for king, queen, and princesses, ward-
+
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+
+robe-women for ditto, and footmen for all.  A smaller party for a
+royal excursion cannot well be imagined.  How we shall all manage
+heaven knows.  Miss Planta and myself are allowed no maid; the
+house would not hold one.
+
+
+The royal party set off first, to stop and breakfast at Lord
+Harcourt's at Nuneham.  You will easily believe Miss Planta and
+myself were not much discomfited in having orders to proceed
+straight forward.  You know we have been at Nuneham!
+
+Mrs. Sandys, the queen's wardrobe-woman, and Miss Macentomb, the
+princesses', accompanied us.  At Henley-on-Thames, at an inn
+beautifully situated, we stopped to breakfast, and at Oxford to
+take a sort of half dinner.
+
+
+                      LOYALTY NOT DAMPED BY THE RAIN.
+
+The crowd gathered together upon the road, waiting for the king
+and queen to pass, was immense, and almost unbroken from Oxford
+to Cheltenham.  Every town and village within twenty miles seemed
+to have been deserted, to supply all the pathways with groups of
+anxious spectators.  Yet, though so numerus, so quiet were they,
+and so new to the practices of a hackneyed mob, that their
+curiosity never induced them to venture within some yards of the
+royal carriage, and their satisfaction never broke forth into
+tumult and acclamation.
+
+In truth, I believe they never were aware of the moment in which
+their eagerness met its gratification.  Their majesties travelled
+wholly without guards or state; and I am convinced, from the time
+we advanced beyond Oxford, they were taken only for their own
+attendants.
+
+All the towns through which we passed were filled with people, as
+closely fastened one to another as they appear in the pit of the
+playhouse.  Every town seemed all face; and all the way upon the
+road we rarely proceeded five miles without encountering a band
+of most horrid fiddlers, scraping "God save the king" with all
+their might, out of tune, out of time, and all in the rain; for,
+most unfortunately, there were continual showers falling all the
+day.  This was really a subject for serious regret, such numbers
+of men, women, and children being severely sufferers; yet
+standing it all through with such patient loyalty, that I am
+persuaded not even a hail or thunder storm would have dispersed
+them.
+
+The country, for the most part, that we traversed, was ex-
+
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+
+tremely pretty; and, as we advanced nearer to our place Of
+destination, it became quite beautiful.
+
+
+                        ARRIVAL AT FAUCONBERG HALL.
+
+When we arrived at Cheltenham, which is almost all one street,
+extremely long, clean and well paved, we had to turn out of the
+public way about a quarter of a mile, to proceed to Fauconberg
+Hall, which my Lord Fauconberg has lent for the king's use during
+his stay at this place.
+
+it is, indeed, situated on a most sweet spot, surrounded with
+lofty  hills beautifully variegated, and bounded, for the
+principal          object, with the hills of Malvern, Which, here
+barren, and there cultivated, here all chalk, and there all
+verdure, reminded  me of How hill, and gave Me an immediate
+sensation of reflected as well as of visual pleasure, from giving
+to my new habitation
+some resemblance of NorbUry park.
+
+When we had mounted the gradual                   ascent on which
+the house stands,
+     the crowd all around it was as one head!  We stopped within
+twenty yards of the door, uncertain how to proceed.  All the
+royals were at the windows; and to pass this multitude--to wade
+through it, rather,--was a most
+disagreeable operation.  However, we had no choice: we therefore
+got out, and, leaving the wardrobe-women to find the way to the
+back-door, Miss Planta and I glided on to the front one, where we
+saw the two gentlemen and where, as soon as we got up the steps,
+we encountered the king.  He                         inquired
+most graciously concerning our journey; and Lady Weymouth came
+down-stairs to summon me to the queen, who was in excellent
+spirits, and said she would show me her room.
+
+"This, ma'am!" cried I, as I entered it--"is this little room for
+your majesty?"
+
+"O stay,"  cried she, laughing, "till you see your own before you
+call it 'little'."
+
+Soon after, she sent me upstairs for that purpose ; and then, to
+be sure, I began to think less diminutively of that I had just
+quitted.
+
+Mine, with one window, has just space to crowd in a bed, a chest
+of drawers, and three small chairs.  The prospect
+                from the window, is extremely pretty, and all IS
+new and clean.  So I doubt not being very comfortable, as I am
+senza Cerbera,(278)--though having no          maid
+          is a real evil to
+
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+
+one so little her own mistress as myself.  I little wanted the
+fagging of my own clothes and dressing, to add to my daily
+fatigues.
+
+I began a little unpacking and was called to dinner.  Columb,
+happily, is allowed me, and he will be very useful, I am sure.
+Miss alone dined with me, and we are to be companions constant at
+all meals, and t`ete-`a-t`ete, during this sejour.  She is
+friendly and well disposed, and I am perfectly content; and the
+more, as I know she will not take up my leisure Unnecessarily,
+for she finds sauntering in the open air very serviceable to her
+health, and she has determined to make that her chief occupation.
+Here, therefore, whenever I am not in attendance, or at meals, I
+expect the singular comfort of having my time wholly unmolested,
+and at my own disposal.
+
+
+                         THE TEA-TABLE DIFFICULTY.
+
+A little parlour, which formerly had belonged to Lord
+Fauconberg's housekeeper, is now called mine, and here Miss
+Planta and myself are to breakfast and dine.  But for tea we
+formed a new plan: as Mr. Fairly had himself told me he
+understood there would be no tea-table at Cheltenham, I
+determined to stand upon no ceremony with Colonel Gwynn, but
+fairly and at once take and appropriate my afternoons to my own
+inclinations.  To prevent, therefore, any surprise or alteration,
+we settled to have our tea upstairs.
+
+But then a difficulty arose as to where ?  We had each equally
+small bed-rooms, and no dressing-room; but, at length, we fixed
+on the passage, near a window looking over Malvern hills and much
+beautiful country.
+
+This being arranged, we went mutually on with our unpackings,
+till we were both too thirsty to work longer.  Having no maid to
+send, and no bell to ring for my man, I then made out my way
+downstairs, to give Columb directions for our teaequipage.
+
+After two or three mistakes, of peering into royal rooms, I at
+length got safe to my little parlour, but still was at a loss
+where to find Columb; and while parading in and out, in hopes of
+meeting with some assistant, I heard my name inquired for from
+the front door.  I looked out, and saw Mrs.  Tracy, senior
+bedchamber-woman to the queen.  She is at Cheltenham for her
+health, and came to pay her duty in inquiries, and so forth.
+
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+
+I conducted her to my little store-room, for such it looks, from
+its cupboards and short checked window curtains; and we chatted
+upon the place and the expedition, till Columb came to tell me
+that Mr. Fairly desired to speak with me.  I waited upon him
+immediately, in the passage leading to the kitchen stairs, for
+that was my salle d'audience.
+
+He was with Lord Courtown; they apologised for disturbing me, but
+Mr. Fairly said he came to solicit leave that they might join my
+tea-table for this night only, as they would give orders to be
+supplied in their own apartments the next day, and not intrude
+upon me any more, nor break into my time and retirement.
+
+This is literally the first instance I have met, for now two
+whole years, of being understood as to my own retiring
+inclinations; and it is singular I should first meet with it from
+the only person who makes them waver.
+
+I begged them to come in, and ordered tea.  They are well
+acquainted with Mrs. Tracy, and I was very glad she happened to
+stay.
+
+Poor Miss Planta, meanwhile, I was forced to leave in the lurch;
+for I could not propose the bed-room passage to my present
+company, and she was undressed and unpacking.
+
+Very soon the king, searching for his gentlemen, found out my
+room, and entered.  He admired It prodigiously, and inquired
+concerning all our accommodations.  He then gave Mr. Fairly a
+commission to answer an address, or petition, or some such thing
+to the master of the ceremonies, and, after half an hour's chat,
+retired.
+
+Colonel Gwynn found us out also, but was eager to find out more
+company, and soon left us to go and look over the books at the
+rooms, for the list of the company here.
+
+
+A TETE-A-TETE WITH COLONEL FAIRLY.
+
+After tea Mrs. Tracy went, and the king sent for Lord Courtown.
+Mr. Fairly was going too, and I was preparing to return upstairs
+to my toils; but he presently changed his design, and asked leave
+to stay a little longer, if I was at leisure.  At leisure I
+certainly was not but I was most content to work double tides for
+the pleasure of his company, especially where given thus
+voluntarily, and not accepted officially.
+
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+
+What creatures are we all for liberty and freedom!  Rebels
+partout!
+"Soon as the life-blood warms the heart,
+The love of liberty awakes!"
+
+Ah, my dear friends! I wrote that with a sigh that might have
+pierced through royal walls!
+
+>From this circumstance we entered into discourse with no little
+spirit.  I felt flattered, and he knew he had given me de quoi:
+so we were both in mighty good humour.  Our sociability, however,
+had very soon an interruption.  The king re-entered ; he started
+back at sight of our diminished party, and exclaimed, with a sort
+of arch surprise, "What! only You two?"
+
+Mr. Fairly laughed a little, and Ismiled ditto!  But I had rather
+his majesty had made such a comment on any other of his
+establishment, if make it he must; since I am sure Mr. Fairly's
+aversion to that species of raillery is equal to my Own.
+
+The king gave some fresh orders about the letter, and instantly
+went away.  As soon as he was gone, Mr. Fairly,--perhaps to show
+himself superior to that little sally,--asked me whether he might
+write his letter in my room?
+
+"O yes," cried I, with all the alacrity of the same superiority.
+
+He then went in search of a page, for pen and ink, and told me,
+on returning, that the king had just given orders for writing
+implements for himself and Colonel Gwynn to be placed in the
+dining-parlour, of which they were, henceforth, to have the use
+as soon as the dinner-party had separated; and after to-night,
+therefore, he should intrude himself upon me no
+more.  I had half a mind to say I was very sorry for it!  I
+assure you I felt so.
+
+He pretended to require my assistance in his letter, and
+consulted and read over all that he writ.  So I gave my opinion
+as he went on, though I think it really possible he might have
+done without me!
+
+Away then he went with it, to dispatch it by a royal footman; and
+I thought him gone, and was again going myself, when he
+returned,--surprising me not a little by saying.  as he held the
+door in his hand, "Will there be any--impropriety--in my staying
+here a little logger?"
+I must have said no, if I had thought yes; but it would not have
+been so plump and ready a no! and I should not, with
+
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+
+quite so courteous a grace, have added that his stay could do me
+nothing but honour.
+
+On, therefore, we sat, discoursing on various subjects, till the
+twilight made him rise to take leave.  He was in much better
+spirits than I have yet seen him, and I know not when I have
+spent an hour more socially to my taste.  Highly cultivated by
+books, and uncommonly fertile in stores of internal resource, he
+left me nothing to wish, for the time I spent with him, but that
+"the Fates, the Sisters Three, and suchlike branches of
+learning," would interfere against the mode of future separation
+planned for the remainder of our expedition.  Need I more
+strongly than this mark the very rare pleasure I received from
+his conversation?
+
+Not a little did poor Miss Planta marvel what had become of me;
+and scarce less was her marvel when she had heard my adventures.
+She had told me how gladly the gentlemen would seize the
+opportunity of a new situation, to disengage themselves from the
+joint tea-table, and we had mutually agreed to use all means
+possible for seconding this partition; but I had been too well
+satisfied this night, to make any further efforts about the
+matter, and I therefore inwardly resolved to let the future take
+care of itself--certain it could not be inimical to me, since
+either it must give me Mr. Fairly in a party, or time for my own
+disposal in solitude.
+
+This pleasant beginning has given a spirit to all my expectations
+and my fatigues in this place; and though it cost me near two
+hours from my downy pillow to recover lost time, I stole them
+without repining, and arose--dead asleep--this morning, without a
+murmur.
+
+
+               THE KING's GENTLEMEN AND THE QUEEN's LADIES.
+Sunday, July 13--I was obliged to rise before six o'clock, that I
+might play the part of dresser to myself, before I played it to
+the queen; so that did not much recruit the fatigues of
+yesterday's rising and journey!  Not a little was I surprised to
+be told, this morning, by her majesty, that the gentlemen were to
+breakfast with Miss Planta and me, every morning, by the king's
+orders.
+
+When I left the queen, I found them already in my little parlour.
+ Mr. Fairly came to the door to meet me, and hand me into the
+room, telling me of the new arrangement of the king, with an air
+of very civil satisfaction.  Colonel Gwynn
+
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+
+appeared precisely as I believe he felt,-perfectly indifferent to
+the matter. Miss Planta joined us, and Columb was hurried to get
+ready, lest the king should summon his esquires before they had
+broken their fast. Mr. Fairly undertook to settle our seats, and
+all the etiquette of the tea-table; and I was very well content,
+for when he had placed me where he conceived I should be most
+commodiously situated, he fixed upon the place next me for
+himself, and desired we might all keep to our posts. It was next
+agreed, that whoever came first to the room should order and make
+the tea; for I must often be detained by my waiting, and the king
+is so rapid in his meals, that whoever attends him must be rapid
+also, or follow fasting.          Mr. Fairly said he should
+already have hastened Columb, had he not apprehended it might be
+too great a liberty ; for they had waited near half an hour, and
+expected a call every half minute.   I set him perfectly at his
+ease upon this subject, assuring him I should be very little at
+mine if he had ever the same scruple again. He had been in
+waiting, he said, himself, ever since a quarter after five
+o'clock in the morning, at which time he showed himself under the
+king's window, and walked before the house till six!  I was
+beginning to express my compassion for this harass, but he
+interrupted me with shrewdly saying, "
+
+"O, this will save future fatigue, for it will establish me such
+a character for early rising and punctuality, that I may now do
+as I will: 'tis amazing what privileges a man obtains for taking
+liberties, when once his character is established for taking
+none."
+
+Neither Miss Planta nor myself could attempt going to church, we
+had both so much actual business to do for ourselves, in
+unpacking, and fitting up our rooms, etc. The rest of the day was
+all fasting, till the evening, and then--who should enter my
+little parlour, after all the speechifying Of only one night,"
+made yesterday, but Mr. Fairly, Colonel Gwynn, and Lord Courtown!
+Whether this, again, is by the king's command, or in consequence
+of the morning arrangement, I know not: but not a word more has
+dropped of "no evening tea-table;" so, whether we are to unite,
+or to separate, in future, I know not, and, which is far more
+extraordinary, I care not!     Nobody but you could imagine what
+a compliment that is, from me!  I had made Miss Planta promise,
+in case such a thing should happen, to come down; and she was
+very ready, and
+
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+
+we had a very cheerful evening.  Great difficulties, however,
+arose about our tea-equipage, So few things are brought, or at
+least are yet arrived, that Columb is forced to be summoned every
+other moment, and I have no bell, and dare not, for this short
+time, beg for one, as my man herds with the King's men; besides,
+I have no disposition to make a fuss here, where every body takes
+up with every thing that they get.
+
+In lamenting, however, the incessant trouble I was obliged to
+give the gentlemen, of running after Columb, I told Mr. Fairly my
+obligation, at Windsor, to Colonel Wellbred, for my bell there.
+
+"O yes," cried he, laughing, "I am not surprised; Colonel
+Wellbred is quite the man for a 'belle!'"
+
+"Yes," cried I, "that he is indeed, and for a 'beau' too."
+
+"O ho! you think him so, do you?" quoth he: to which my prompt
+assent followed.
+
+
+                    ROYALTY CROWDED AT FAUCONBERG HALL.
+
+The royal family had all been upon the walks.  I have agreed with
+myself not to go thither till they have gone through the news-
+mongers' drawing up of them and their troop.  I had rather avoid
+all mention and after a few days, I may walk there as if not
+belonging to them, as I am not of place or rank to follow in
+their train.
+
+But let me give you, now, an account of the house and
+accommodation.
+
+On the ground-floor there is one large and very pleasant room,
+which is made the dining-parlour.  The king and royal family also
+breakfast in it, by themselves, except the lady-in-waiting, Lady
+Weymouth.  They sup there also, in the same manner.  The
+gentlemen only dine with them, I find.  They are to breakfast
+with us, to drink tea where they will, and to sup--where they
+can; and I rather fancy, from what I have yet seen, it will be
+commonly with good Duke Humphrey.
+
+A small, but very neat dressing-room for his majesty is on the
+other side of the hall, and my little parlour is the third and
+only other room on the ground-floor: so you will not think our
+monarch, his consort and offspring, take up too much of the land
+called their own !
+
+Over this eating- parlour, on the first floor, is the queen's
+drawing-room, in which she is also obliged to dress and to un-
+
+
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+
+dress for she has no toilette apartment!  Who, after that, can
+repine at any inconvenience here for the household? Here, after
+breakfast, she sits, with her daughters and her lady and Lady
+Courtown, who, with her lord, is lodged in the town of
+Cheltenham.  And here they drink tea, and live till suppertime.
+
+Over the king's dressing-room is his bed-room, and over my
+store-room is the bed-room of the princess-royal.  And here ends
+the first floor.
+
+The second is divided and sub-divided into bed-rooms, which are
+thus occupied:--Princess Augusta and Princess Elizabeth sleep in
+two beds, in the largest room.  Lady Weymouth occupies that next
+in size.  Miss Planta and myself have two little rooms, built
+over the king's bed-room and Mrs. Sandys and Miss Macentomb, and
+Lady Weymouth's maid, have the rest.
+
+This is the whole house! Not a man but the king sleeps In it.
+
+A house is taken in the town for Mr. Fairly and Colonel Gwynn,
+and there lodge several of the servants, and among them Columb.
+The pages sleep in outhouses.  Even the house-maids lodge in the
+town, a quarter of a mile or more from the house!
+
+Lord Courtown, as comptroller of the household, acts here for the
+king, in distributing his royal bounty to the Wells, rooms,
+library, and elsewhere.  He has sent around very magnificently.
+
+We are surrounded by pleasant meadows, in which I mean to walk a
+great deal.  They are so quiet and so safe, I can go quite alone;
+and when I have not a first-rate companion, my second best is-
+-none at all! But I expect, very soon, my poor Miss Port, and I
+shall have her with me almost constantly.
+
+
+                               AT THE WELLS.
+
+Monday, July 14-This morning I was again up at five o'clock, Miss
+Planta having asked me to accompany her to the wells.  The queen
+herself went this morning, at six o'clock, with his majesty.  It
+is distant about a quarter of a mile from Lord Fauconberg's.  I
+tasted the water, for once; I shall
+spare myself any such future regale, for it is not prescribed to
+me, and I think it very unpleasant.
+
+This place and air seem very healthy; but the very early
+
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+
+hours, and no maid! I almost doubt how this will do.  The fatigue
+is very great indeed.
+
+We were too soon for the company, except the royals.  We met them
+all, and were spoken to most graciously by every one.  We all
+came back to breakfast much at the same time, and it was very
+cheerful.
+
+I spent all the rest of the day in hard fagging, at work and
+business, and attendance; but the evening amply recompensed it
+all.  Lord Courtown, Mr. Fairly, Colonel Gwynn, and Miss Planta,
+came to tea.  My Lord and Colonel Gwynn retired after it, to go
+to the rooms; Mr. Fairly said he Would wait to make his bow to
+his majesty, and see if there were any commands for him.
+
+
+             CONVERSATION AND FLIRTATION WITH COLONEL FAIRLY.
+And then we had another very long conversation, and if I did not
+write in so much haste, my dear friends would like to read it.
+
+Our subject to-night--his subject, rather--was, the necessity of
+participation, to every species of happiness.  "His" subject, you
+may easily believe; for to him should I never have dared touch on
+one so near and so tender to him.  Fredy, however, could join
+With him more feelingly--though he kept perfectly clear of all
+that was personal, to which I Would not have led for a thousand
+worlds.  He seems born with the tenderest social affections; and,
+though religiously resigned to his loss--which, I have been told,
+the hopeless sufferings of Lady - rendered, at last, even a
+release to be desired--he thinks life itself, single and
+unshared, a mere melancholy burthen, and the wish to have done
+with it appears the only wish he indulges.
+I could not perceive this without the deepest commiseration, but
+I did what was possible to conceal it; as it is much more easy,
+both to the hearer and the speaker, to lead the discourse to
+matters more lively, under an appearance of being ignorant of the
+state of a sad heart, than with a betrayed consciousness.
+
+We talked of books, and not a little I astonished him by the
+discovery I was fain to make, of the number of authors I have
+never yet read.  Particularly he instanced Akenside, and quoted
+from him some passages I have heard selected by Mr, Locke.
+
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+
+Then we talked of the country, of landscapes, of walking, and
+then, again, came back the favourite proposition,--participation!
+That, he said, could make an interest in anything,--everything;
+and O, how did I agree with him!  There is sympathy enough,
+heaven knows, in our opinions on this subject
+
+But not in what followed.  I am neither good nor yet miserable
+enough to join with him in what he added, -that life, taken all
+in all, was of so little worth and value, it could afford its
+thinking possessor but one steady wish,--that its duration might
+be short!
+
+Alas! thought I, that a man so good should be so unhappy!
+
+We then came back again to books, and he asked us if we had read
+a little poem called the "Shipwreck"?(279)  Neither of us had
+even heard of it.  He said it was somewhat too long, and somewhat
+too technical, but that it contained many beautiful passages.  He
+had it with him, he said, and proposed sending Columb for it, to
+his house, if we should like to read it.  We thanked him, and off
+marched Columb.  It is in a very small duodecimo volume, and he
+said he would leave it with me.
+
+Soon after, Miss Planta said she would stroll round the house for
+a little exercise.  When she was gone, he took up the book, and
+said, "Shall I read some passages to you? I most gladly assented,
+and got my work,--of which I have no small store, believe me!--
+morning caps, robins, etc., all to prepare from day to day;
+which, with my three constant and long attendances, and other
+official company ceremonies, is no small matter.
+
+The passages he selected were really beautiful: they were chiefly
+from an episode, of Palemon and Anna, excessively delicate, yet
+tender in the extreme, and most touchingly melancholy.
+
+One line he came to, that he read with an emotion extremely
+affecting-- 'tis a sweet line--
+
+"He felt the chastity of silent woe."
+
+He stopped upon it, and sighed so deeply that his sadness quite
+infected me.
+
+Then he read various characters of the ship's company,
+
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+
+which are given with much energy and discrimination.  I could not
+but admire every passage he chose, and I was sensible each of
+them owed much obligation to his reading, which was full of
+feeling and effect.
+
+
+How unwillingly did I interrupt him, to go upstairs and wait my
+night's summons! But the queen has no bell for me, except to my
+bed-room.
+
+He hastily took the hint, and rose to go.  "Shall I leave the
+poem," he cried, "or take it with me, in case there should be any
+leisure to go on with it to-morrow?"
+
+"Which you please," cried I, a little stupidly, for I did not, at
+the moment, comprehend his meaning which, however, he immediately
+explained by answering, "Let me take it, then;--let me make a
+little interest in it to myself, by reading it with you."
+
+And then he put it in his pocket, and went to his home in the
+town, and up stairs went I to my little cell, not a little
+internally simpering to see a trait so like what so often I have
+done myself,--carrying off a favourite book, when I have begun it
+with my Susanna, that we might finish it together, without
+leaving her the temptation to peep beforehand,
+
+
+                     MISS BURNEY MEETS AN OLD FRIEND.
+
+Tuesday, July 15--While the royals were upon the walks, Miss
+Planta and I strolled in the meadows, and who should I meet
+there--but Mr. Seward!  This was a great pleasure to me.  I had
+never seen him since the first day of my coming to St. jades's,
+when he handed me into my father's coach, in my sacque and long
+ruffles.  You may think how much we had to talk over.  He had a
+gentleman with him, fortunately, who was acquainted with Miss
+Planta's brother, so that we formed two parties, without
+difficulty.  All my aim was to inquire about Mrs. Piozzi,--I
+must, at last, call her by her now real name!--and of her we
+conversed incessantly.  He told me Mr. Baretti's late attack upon
+her, which I heard with great concern.(280)  It seems he has
+broken off all intercourse with her, and
+
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+
+not from his own desire, but by her evident wish to drop him.
+This is very surprising ; but many others of her former friends,
+once highest in her favour, make the same complaint.
+
+We strolled so long, talking over this ever- interesting subject,
+that the royals were returned before us, and we found Mr. Fairly
+waiting in my parlour.  The rest soon joined.  Mr. Seward had
+expected to be invited; but it is impossible for me to invite any
+body while at Cheltenham, as there is neither exit nor entrance
+but by passing the king's rooms, and as I have no place but this
+little common parlour in which I can sit, except my own room.
+
+Neither could I see Mr. Seward anywhere else, as my dear friends
+will easily imagine, when they recollect all that has passed, on
+the subject of my visitors, with her majesty and with Mr. Smelt.
+He told me he had strolled in those meadows every day, to watch
+if I were of the party.
+
+
+                           COLONEL FAIRLY AGAIN.
+
+Mr. Fairly again out-stayed them all.  Lord Courtown generally is
+summoned to the royal party after tea, and Colonel Gwynn goes to
+the town in quest of acquaintance and amusement.  Mr. Fairly has
+not spirit for such researches ; I question, indeed, if he ever
+had taste for them.
+
+When Miss Planta, went off for her exercise, he again proposed a
+little reading, which again I thankfully accepted.  He took out
+the little poem, and read on the mournful tale of Anna, with a
+sensibility that gave pathos to every word.
+
+How unexpected an indulgence--a luxury, I may say, to me, are
+these evenings now becoming!  While I listen to such reading and
+such a reader, all my work goes on with an alacrity that renders
+it all pleasure to me.  I have had no regale like this for many
+and many a grievous long evening ! never since I left Norbury
+park,-never since my dear Fredy there read Madame de S6vign6.
+And how little could I expect, in a royal residence, a relief of
+this sort!  Indeed, I much question if there is one other person,
+in the whole establishment, that, in an equal degree, could
+afford it.  Miss Planta, though extremely friendly, is almost
+wholly absorbed in the cares of her royal duties, and the
+solicitude
+
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+
+of her ill-health : she takes little interest in anything else,
+whether for conversation or action.  We do together perfectly
+well, for she is good, and sensible, and prudent, and ready for
+any kind office: but the powers of giving pleasure are not widely
+bestowed: we have no right to repine that they are wanting where
+the character that misses them has intrinsic worth but, also, we
+have no remedy against weariness, where that worth is united with
+nothing attractive.
+
+I was forced again, before ten o'clock, to interrupt his
+interesting narrative, that I might go to my room.  He now said
+he would leave me the book to look over and finish at my leisure,
+upon one condition, which he begged me to observe: this was, that
+I would read with a pen or pencil In my hand, and mark the
+passages that pleased me most as I went on.  I readily promised
+this.
+
+He then gave it me, but desired I would keep it to myself,
+frankly acknowledging that he did not wish to have it seen by any
+other, at least not as belonging to him.  There was nothing, he
+said of which he had less ambition than a character for bookism
+and pedantry, and he knew if it was spread that he was guilty of
+carrying a book from one house to another, it would be a
+circumstance sufficient for branding him with these epithets.
+
+I could not possibly help laughing a little at this caution, but
+again gave him my ready promise.
+
+
+                          A VISIT TO MISS PALMER.
+
+Wednesday, July 16.-This morning we had the usual breakfast, and
+just as it was over I received a note from Miss Palmer, saying
+she was uncertain whether or not I was at Cheltenham, by not
+meeting me on the walks or at the play, but wrote to mention that
+she was with Lady D'Oyley, and hoped, if I was one of the royal
+suite, my friends might have some chance to see me here, though
+wholly denied it in town.  I sent for answer that I would call
+upon her; and as no objection was made by her majesty, I went to
+Sir John D'Oyley's as soon as the royal party rode out.
+
+I found Miss Palmer quite thoroughly enraged.  We had never met
+since I left the paternal home, though I am always much indebted
+to her warm zeal.  Sir John and Lady D'Oyley are a mighty gentle
+pair.  Miss Palmer could make them no better present than a
+little of her vivacity.  Miss Elizabeth
+
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+
+Johnson, her cousin, is of their party : She is pretty, soft, and
+pleasing; but, unhappily, as deaf as her uncle, Sir Joshua which,
+in a young female, is a real misfortune.
+To quiet Miss Palmer as much as I was able, I agreed tonight that
+I would join her on the walks.  Accordingly, at the usual time I
+set out with Miss Planta, whom I was to introduce to the
+D'Oyleys.  Just as we set out we perceived the king and his three
+gentlemen, for Lord Courtown is a constant attendant every
+evening.  We were backing on as well as we Could, but his majesty
+perceived us, and called to ask whither we were going.  We met
+Mr. Seward, who joined us.
+
+There is nothing to describe in the walks : they are straight,
+clay, and sided by common trees, without any rich foliage, or one
+beautiful opening.  The meadows, and all the country around, are
+far preferable: yet here everybody meets.  All the D'Oyley party
+came, and Miss Planta slipped away.
+
+The king and queen walked in the same state as on the Terrace at
+Windsor, followed by the three princesses and their attendants.
+Everybody stopped and stood up as they passed, or as they stopped
+themselves to speak to any of the company.
+
+In one of these stoppings, Lord Courtown backed a little from the
+suite to talk with us, and he said he saw what benefit I reaped
+from the waters!  I told him I Supposed I might be the better for
+the excursion, according to the definition of a water-drinking
+person by Mr. Walpole, who says people go to those places well,
+and then return cured! Mr. Fairly afterwards also joined us a
+little while, and Miss Palmer said she longed to know him more,
+there was something so fine in his countenance.
+
+They invited me much to go home with them to tea, but I was
+engaged.  We left the walks soon after the royal family, and they
+carried me near the house in Sir John D'Oyley's coach.  I walked,
+however, quietly in by myself; and in my little parlour I found
+Mr. Fairly.  The others were gone off to the play without tea,
+and the moment it was over Miss Planta hurried to her own stroll.
+
+
+                         "ORIGINAL LOVE LETTERS."
+
+This whole evening I spent t`ete-`a-t`ete with Mr. Fairly.  There
+is something singular in the perfect trust he seems to have in my
+discretion, for he speaks to me when we are alone with a
+frankness unequalled and something very flattering in the
+
+
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+apparent relief he seems to find in dedicating what time he has
+to dispose of to my little parlour.  In the long conference of
+this evening I found him gifted with the justest way of thinking
+and the most classical taste.  I speak that word only as I may
+presume 'to judge it by English literature.
+
+"I have another little book," he said, "here, which I am sure you
+would like, but it has a title so very silly that nobody reads or
+names it: 'Original Love-Letters;(281)--from which you might
+expect mere nonsense and romance, though, on the contrary, you
+would find in them nothing but good sense, moral reflections, and
+refined ideas, clothed in the most expressive and elegant
+language."
+
+How I longed to read a book that had such a character!--yet,
+laughable and prudish as it may seem to you, I could not bring
+myself to accept the half-offer, or make any other reply than to
+exclaim against the injudiciousness of the title-page.
+
+Yet, whatever were our subjects, books, life, or persons, all
+concluded with the same melancholy burthen--speed to his
+existence here, and welcome to that he is awaiting! I fear he has
+been unfortunate from his first setting out.'
+
+
+
+                 THE FOUNDER OF SUNDAY SCHOOLS CRITICIZED.
+July 19.--The breakfast missed its best regale Mr. Fairly was
+ill, and confined to his room all day.
+
+The royal party went to Lord Bathurst's, at Cirencester, and the
+queen commanded Miss Planta and me to take an airing to
+Gloucester, and amuse ourselves as well as we could.  Miss Planta
+had a previous slight acquaintance with Mr. Raikes and to his
+house, therefore, we drove.
+
+Mr. Raikes(282) was the original founder of the Sunday-school, an
+institution so admirable, so fraught, I hope, with future good
+and mercy to generations yet unborn, that I saw almost with
+reverence the man who had first suggested it.  He lives at
+
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+
+Gloucester with his wife and a large family.     They all
+received us with open arms.        I was quite amazed, but soon
+found some of the pages had been with them already, and announced
+our design; and as we followed the pages, perhaps they concluded
+we also were messengers, or avant-courieres, of what else might
+be expected. Mr. Raikes is not a man that, without a previous
+disposition towards approbation, I should greatly have admired.
+He is somewhat too flourishing, somewhat too forward, somewhat
+too voluble ; but he is worthy, benevolent, good-natured, and
+good-hearted, and therefore the overflowing of successful spirits
+and delighted vanity must meet with some allowance. His wife is a
+quiet and unpretending woman: his daughters common sort of
+country misses. They       seem to live with great hospitality,
+plenty, and good cheer. They gave us a grand breakfast, and then
+did the honours of their city to us with great patriotism. They
+carried us to their fine old cathedral, where we saw the tomb of
+poor Edward II., and many more ancient.    Several of the Saxon
+princes were buried in the original cathedral, and their
+monuments are preserved. Various of the ancient nobility, whose
+names and families were extinct from the Wars of the Roses, have
+here left their worldly honours and deposited their last remains.
+    It was all interesting to see, though I will not detail it,
+for any "Gloucester guide" would beat me hollow at that work.
+Next they carried us to the jail, to show in how small a space, I
+suppose, human beings can live, as well as die or be dead.  This
+jail is admirably constructed for its proper purposes--
+confinement and punishment. Every culprit is to have a separate
+cell; every cell is clean, neat, and small, looking towards a
+wide expanse of country, and, far more fitted to his speculation,
+a wide expanse of the heavens.        Air, cleanliness, and
+health seem all considered, but no other indulgence.            A
+total seclusion of all commerce from accident, and an absolute
+impossibility of all intercourse between themselves, must needs
+render the captivity secure from all temptation to further guilt,
+and all Stimulus to hardihood in past crimes, and makes the
+solitude become so desperate that it not only seems to leave no
+opening, for any comfort save in repentance, but to make that
+almost unavoidable.
+
+After this they carried us to the Infirmary, where I was yet more
+pleased, for the sick and the destitute awaken an interest far
+less painful than the wicked and contemned.  We went
+
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+
+entirely over the house, and then over the city, which has little
+else to catch notice.  The pin manufactory we did not see, as
+they discouraged us by an account of its dirt.
+
+Mr. Raikes is a very principal man in all these benevolent
+institutions; and while I poured forth my satisfaction in them
+very copiously and warmly, he hinted a question whether I could
+name them to the queen.  "Beyond doubt," I answered; "for these
+were precisely the things which most interested her majesty's
+humanity." The joy with which he heard this was nothing short of
+rapture.
+
+
+                               ON THE WALKS.
+
+Sunday, July 20-Colonel Gwynn again brought but a bad account of
+his companion, who was now under the care of the Cheltenham
+apothecary, Mr. Clerke.
+
+I had appointed in the evening to go on the walks with Miss
+Palmer.  I scarce ever passed so prodigious a crowd as was
+assembled before the house when I went out.  The people of the
+whole county seemed gathered together to see their majesties; and
+so quiet, so decent, so silent, that it was only by the eye they
+could be discovered, though so immense a multitude.  How unlike a
+London mob!
+
+The king, kindly to gratify their zealous and respectful
+curiosity, came to his window, and seeing me go out, he called me
+to speak to him, and give an account of my intentions.  The
+people, observing this graciousness, made way for me on every
+side, so that I passed through them with as much facility as if
+the meadows had been empty.
+
+The D'Oyleys and Miss Johnson and Miss Palmer made the walking
+party, and Mr. Seward joined us.  Mr. Raikes and all his family
+were come from Gloucester to see the royal family on the walks,
+which were very much crowded, but with the same respectful
+multitude, who never came forward, but gazed and admired at the
+most humble distance,
+
+Mr. Raikes introduced me to the Bishop of Gloucester, Dr.
+Halifax, and afterwards, much more to my satisfaction, to the
+Dean of Gloucester, Dr. Tucker, the famous author of "Cui
+bono."(283)  I was very glad to see him: he is past eighty, and
+has a most shrewd and keen old face.
+
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+
+I went afterwards to tea with the D'Oyleys and Miss Palmer, and
+Mr. Seward again accompanied us.  Miss Palmer brought me home in
+Sir John's carriage, making it drive as near as possible to the
+house.
+
+But just before we quitted the walks I was run after by a quick
+female step :--"Miss Burney, don't you know me? have you forgot
+Spotty?"--and I saw Miss Ogle.  She told me she had longed to
+come and see me, but did not know if she might.  She is here with
+her mother and two younger sisters.  I promised to wait on them.
+Mrs. Oake was daughter to the late Bishop of Winchester, who was
+a preceptor of the king's: I knew, therefore, I might promise
+with approbation.
+
+
+                          AN UNEXPECTED VISITOR.
+
+Monday, July 21.-I was very much disappointed this morning to see
+Colonel Gwynn come again alone to breakfast, and to hear from him
+that his poor colleague was still confined.
+
+The royal party all went at ten o'clock to Tewkesbury.  About
+noon, while I was writing a folio letter to my dear father, of
+our proceedings, Mr.  Alberts, the queen's page, came into my
+little parlour, and said "If you are at leisure, ma'am, Mr.
+Fairly begs leave to ask you how you do."
+
+I was all amazement, for I had concluded his confinement
+irremediable for the present.  I was quite happy to receive him;
+he looked very ill, and his face is still violently swelled.  He
+had a handkerchief held to it, and was muffled up in a great
+coat; and indeed he seemed unfit enough for coming out.
+
+He apologised for interrupting me.  I assured him I should have
+ample time for my letter.
+
+"What a letter!" cried he, looking at its size, "it is just such
+a one as I should like to receive, and not--"
+
+"Read," cried I.
+
+"No, no !--and not answer!"
+
+ He then sat down, and I saw by his manner he came with design to
+make a sociable visit to me.  He was serious almost to sadness,
+but with a gentleness that could not but raise in whomsoever he
+had addressed an implicit sympathy.  He led almost immediately to
+those subjects on which he loves to
+
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+
+dwell--Death and Immortality, and the assured misery of all
+stations and all seasons in this vain and restless world.
+
+I ventured not to contradict him with my happier sentiments, lest
+I should awaken some fresh pain.  I heard him, therefore, in
+quiet and meditative silence, or made but such general answers as
+could hazard no allusions.  Yet, should I ever see him in better
+spirits, I shall not scruple to discuss, in such a way as I can,
+this point, and to vindicate as well as I am able my opposite
+opinion.
+
+He told me he had heard a fifth week was to be now added to this
+excursion, and he confessed a most anxious solicitude to be gone
+before that time.  He dropped something, unexplained, yet very
+striking, of a peculiar wish to be away ere some approaching
+period.
+
+I felt his meaning, though I had no key to it; I felt that he
+coveted to spend in quiet the anniversary of the day on which he
+lost his lady.  You may believe I could say nothing to it; the
+idea was too tender for discussion; nor can I divine whether or
+not he wishes to open more on this subject, or is better pleased
+by my constant silence to his own allusions.  I know not, indeed,
+whether he thinks I even understand them.
+
+
+                          COURTS AND COURT LIFE.
+
+We then talked over Cheltenham and our way of life, and then ran
+into discourse upon Courts and Court life in general.  I frankly
+said I liked them not, and that, if I had the direction of any
+young person's destination, I would never risk them into such a
+mode of living; for, though Vices may be as well avoided there as
+anywhere 'and in this Court particularly, there were mischiefs of
+a smaller kind, extremely pernicious to all nobleness of
+character, to which this Court, with all its really bright
+examples, was as liable as any other,--the mischiefs of jealousy,
+narrowness, and selfishness.
+
+He did not see, he said, when there was a place of settled income
+and appropriated business why it might not be filled both with
+integrity and content in a Court as well as elsewhere.  Ambition,
+the desire of rising, those, he said, were the motives that envy
+which set such little passions in motion.  One situation,
+however, there was, he said, which he looked upon as truly
+dangerous, and as almost certain to pervert the fairest
+disposition- it was one in which he would not place any person
+for whom he had the smallest regard, as he looked upon it to
+
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+
+be the greatest hazard a character could run.  This was, being
+maid of honour.
+
+
+                          THE VINDICTIVE BARETTI.
+
+Tuesday, July 22-To-day, at noon, I had a surprise with which I
+was very well pleased.  His majesty opened the door of my little
+parlour, called out, "Come, Come in -," and was followed by Major
+Price.  He was just arrived from his little farm in
+Herefordshire, and will stay here some days.  It is particularly
+fortunate just now, when another gentleman was really required to
+assist in attendance upon the royal party.
+
+Mr. Seward, with a good-humoured note, sent me the magazine with
+Baretti's strictures on Mrs.  Thrale.  Good heaven, how abusive!
+It can hardly hurt her--it is so palpably meant to do it.  I
+could not have suspected him, with all his violence, of a
+bitterness of invective so cruel, so ferocious!
+
+I well remember his saying to me, when first I saw him after the
+discovery of "Evelina"......  I see what it is you can do, you
+little witch--it is, that you can hang us all up for laughing-
+stocks; but hear me this one thing--don't meddle with me.  I see
+what they are, your powers; but remember, when you provoke an
+Italian you run a dagger into your own breast!"
+
+I half shuddered at the fearful caution from him, because the
+dagger was a word of unfortunate recollection:(284) but, good
+heaven! it could only be a half Shudder when the caution was
+against an offence I could sooner die than commit, and which, I
+may truly say, if personal attack was what he meant, never even
+in sport entered my mind, and was ever, in earnest, a thing I
+have held in the deepest abhorrence.
+
+I must do, however, the justice to his candour to add, that upon
+a newer acquaintance with me, which immediately followed, he
+never repeated his admonition; and when "Cecilia" came out, and
+he hastened to me with every species of extravagant encomium, he
+never hinted at any similar idea, and it seemed evident he
+concluded me, by that time, incapable
+
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+
+meriting such a suspicion; though, to judge by his own conduct, a
+proceeding of this sort may to him appear in a very different
+light.  He thinks, at least, a spirit of revenge may authorize
+any attack, any insult.  How unhappy and how strange! to join to
+so much real good nature as this man possesses when pleased, a
+disposition so savagely vindictive when offended.
+
+
+              SPECULATIONS UPON COLONEL FAIRLY'S RE-MARRYING.
+Thursday, July 24--"Pray, Miss Burney," cried Colonel Gwynn, "do
+you think Mr. Fairly will ever marry again?"
+
+"I think it very doubtful," I answered, "but I hope he will, for,
+whether he is happy or not in marrying, I am sure he will be
+wretched in singleness; the whole turn of his mind is so social
+and domestic.  He is by no means formed for going always abroad
+for the relief of society; he requires it more at hand."
+
+"And what do you think of Miss Fuzilier?"
+
+"That he is wholly disengaged with her and with everybody."
+
+"Well, I think it will be, for I know they correspond ; and what
+should he correspond with her for else?"
+
+"Because, I suppose, he has done it long before this could be
+suggested as the motive.  And, indeed, the very quickness of the
+report makes me discredit it; 'tis so utterly impossible for a
+man whose feelings are so delicate to have taken any steps
+towards a second connexion at so early a period."
+
+"Why, I know he's very romantic,--but I should like to know your
+opinion."
+
+"I have given it you," cried I, "very exactly."
+
+
+                  COLONEL FAIRLY AGAIN PRESENTS HIMSELF.
+
+Not long after, when all the party was broke up from my little
+parlour, though not yet set out for Gloucester, who should again
+surprise me by entering but Mr. Fairly! I was quite rejoiced by
+his sight.  He was better, though not well.  His face is almost
+reduced to its natural size.  He had a letter for her majesty
+from Lord Aylesbury, and had determined to venture bringing it
+himself.
+
+He said he would carry it in to the queen, and then return to my
+parlour, if I would give him some breakfast.
+
+You may suppose I answered "No!"  But, afterwards, fearing he
+might
+
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+
+be detained and fatigued, he asked me to present it for him, and
+only say he was waiting in my room for commands.  I was forced to
+say "Yes," though I had rather not.
+
+Her majesty was much surprised to hear he was again out so
+unexpectedly, and asked if he thought of going to Gloucester?
+
+"No," I said, "I believed he was not equal to that."
+
+She bid me tell him she would see him before she went.
+
+I returned with this message, and would then have ordered him
+fresh breakfast; but he declared if I was fidgety he should have
+no comfort, and insisted on my sitting quietly down, while he
+drew a chair by my side, and made his own cold tea, and drank it
+weak and vapid, and eat up all the miserable scraps, without
+suffering me to call for plate, knife, bread, butter, or anything
+for replenishment.  And when he had done, and I would have made
+some apology, he affected me for him a good deal by gravely
+saying, "Believe me, this is the pleasantest breakfast I have
+made these six days."
+
+He then went on speaking of his late confinement, and its
+comfortless circumstances, in very strong terms, dwelling on its
+solitude and its uselessness, as if those only formed its
+disagreeability, and the pain went for nothing.  Social and kind
+is his heart, and finely touched to the most exquisite sensations
+of sympathy; and, as I told Colonel Gwynn, I must needs wish he
+may yet find some second gentle partner fitted to alleviate his
+sorrows, by giving to him an object whose happiness would become
+his first study.
+
+He brought me back the few books I had procured him but I had no
+fresh supply.  He spoke again of the favourite "Letters," and
+said he felt so sure I should be pleased with them, that he was
+desirous I should look at them, adding There is no person into
+whose hands I would not put them not even my daughter's."
+
+It was now impossible to avoid saying I should be glad to see
+them: it would seem else to doubt either his taste or his
+delicacy, while I have the highest opinion of both.  In talking
+them over he told me he believed them to be genuine; "But the
+woman," he said, "throughout the whole correspondence, is too
+much the superior.  She leaves the man far behind.  She is so
+collected, so composed, so constantly mistress of herself, so
+unbiased by her passions, so rational, and so dignified, that I
+would even recommend her as an example to any young woman in
+similar circumstances to follow."
+
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+He was summoned to her majesty, in the dining-parlour.  But when
+they were all set out on the Gloucester expedition, he returned
+to my little parlour, and stayed with me a considerable time.
+
+Grave he came back--grave quite to solemnity, and almost wholly
+immersed in deep and sad reflections, He spoke little, and that
+little with a voice so melancholy, yet so gentle, that it filled
+me with commiseration.
+
+At length, after much silence and many pauses, which I never
+attempted to interrupt or to dissipate, continuing my work as if
+not heeding him, he led himself distantly, yet intelligibly--to
+open upon the immediate state of his mind.
+
+I now found that the king's staying on at Cheltenham a fifth week
+was scarcely supportable to him; that the 16th of next month was
+the mournful anniversary of his loss, and that he had planned to
+dedicate it in some peculiar manner to her memory, with his four
+children.  Nothing of this was positively said; for
+
+"He feels the chastity of silent woe."
+
+But all of it was indubitably comprised in the various short but
+pointed sentences which fell from him.
+
+
+THE COLONEL AND THE "ORIGINAL LOVE LETTERS."
+
+Friday, July 25.-Again, to a very late breakfast came Mr. Fairly,
+which again he made for himself, when the rest were dispersed, of
+all the odd remnants, eatable and drinkable.  He was much better,
+and less melancholy.  He said he should be well enough to join
+the royal party to-morrow, who were to dine and spend the whole
+day at Lord Coventry's at Coombe. . . .
+
+In the afternoon, while Miss Planta and myself were Sitting over
+our dessert, a gentle rap at the parlour-door preceded Mr.
+Fairly.  How we both started! He was muffled up in a great coat,
+and said he came quite incog., as he was not well enough to dine
+anywhere but in his private apartment, nor to attend the royals
+to the walks, whither they go every evening.  He had only
+strolled out for a walk by himself.
+
+I could not persuade him to sit down; he said he must be gone
+immediately, lest he should be seen, and the king, not aware of
+his unfitness, should order his attendance.
+
+Miss Planta, presently, was obliged to go to the princesses,
+
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+
+and wait with them till the promenade took place.  Quietly, then,
+he drew a chair to the table, and I saw he had something to say;
+but, after a little general talk he rose and was going : when,
+hearing by the dogs the royal family were just in motion, he
+pulled off his great coat and seated himself again.
+
+And then, he took from his pocket a small volume, which he said
+he had taken this opportunity to bring me.  You Will be sure it
+was the "Original Letters.;"
+
+I took them, and thanked him: he charged me with a very grave air
+to keep them safe, and I put them into my work-box--my dear
+Fredy's work-box--which here is my universal repository of small
+goods and chattels, and useful past all thanks.
+
+By the time they Were set off, however, we were entered into
+conversation, and he said he would venture to stay tea; "though,
+as I tell you," he added, "what I do not tell everybody, I must
+confess I have upon me some certain symptoms that make me a
+little suspect these Cheltenham waters are going to bring me to a
+fit of the gout."
+
+And then he told me that that dreadful disorder had been
+frequently and dangerously in his family, though he had himself
+never had it but once, which was after a very bad fall from his
+horse when hunting with the king.
+
+Miss Planta now joined us, looking not a little surprised to find
+Mr. Fairly still here, and I ordered tea.  After it was over, she
+went to take her usual evening exercise; and then Mr. Fairly,
+pointing to my work-box, said, "Shall I read a little to you?"
+
+Certainly, I said, if it would not too much fatigue him; and
+then, with the greatest pleasure in renewing again a mode in
+which I had taken so much delight, I got my work and gave him his
+book.  Unluckily, however, it was the second volume; the first,
+having read, he had left in town.  "It is quite, however," he
+said, "immaterial whether You begin with the first volume or the
+second; the story is nothing; the language and the sentiments are
+all you can care for."
+
+I did not quite agree in this, but would not say so, lest he
+should think of me as Colonel Gwynn does of him, "that I am very
+romantic which, however, I am not, though I never like to
+anticipate an end ere I know a beginning.
+
+Indeed, he had not praised them too highly, nor raised my
+expectations beyond what could answer them, They are full
+
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+
+of beauties-moral, elegant, feeling, and rational.  He seemed
+most unusually gratified by seeing me so much pleased with them.
+I am so glad," he cried, "You like them, for I thought you
+would!"  But we began so late that he could only, get through two
+letters, when the time of my retiring arrived.  I was sorry also
+to have him out so late after his long confinement; but he
+wrapped himself up in his great coat, and did not seem to think
+he should suffer from it.
+
+Miss Planta came to my room upstairs, to Inquire how long Mr.
+Fairly had stayed, and I was quite happy to appease her
+astonishment that he should come without sending in to the king,
+by assuring her he was only nursing for the next day, when he
+meant to attend the Coombe party.
+
+I thought it so absolutely right to mention his visit to the
+queen, lest, hearing of it from the princesses through Miss
+Planta, she Should wonder yet more, that I put aside the
+disagreeable feel of exciting that wonder myself, and told her he
+had drank tea here, when I attended her at night.  She seemed
+much more surprised than pleased, till I added that he was
+preparing and hardening himself for the Coombe expedition the
+next day, and then she was quite satisfied.(285)
+
+
+                   THE GOUT AND THE LOVE LETTERS, AGAIN.
+
+Saturday, July 26.-The royal party were to be Out the whole day,
+and I had her majesty's permission to go to the play at night
+with Miss Port and her friends, and to introduce MISS Planta to
+them for the same purpose.  The breakfast was at seven o'clock ;
+we were all up at half after five.  How sorry was I to see
+Colonel Gwynn enter alone, and to hear that Mr. Fairly was again
+ill
+
+Soon after the king came into the room and said, "So, no Mr.
+Fairly again?"
+
+"No, sir; he's very bad this morning."
+
+"What's the matter? His face?"
+
+"No, sir; he has got the gout.  These waters., he thinks, have
+brought it on."
+
+"What, in his foot?"
+
+"Yes, sir; he is quite lame, his foot is swelled prodigiously."
+
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+
+"So he's quite knocked up! Can't he come out?"
+
+"No, sir; he's obliged to order a gouty shoe and stay at home and
+nurse."
+
+The king declared the Cheltenham waters were admirable friends to
+the constitution, by bringing disorders out of the habit.  Mr.
+Fairly, he said, had not been well some time, and a smart fit of
+the gout might set him all to rights again.  Alas,
+thought I, a smart fit of the gout in a lonely lodging at a
+water-drinking place!
+
+They all presently set off; and so fatigued was my poor little
+frame, I was glad to go and lie down; but I never can sleep when
+I try for it in the daytime; the moment I cease all employment,
+my thoughts take such an ascendance over my morphetic faculty,
+that the attempt always ends in a deep and most Wakeful
+meditation.
+
+About twelve o'clock I was reading In my private loan book, when,
+hearing the step of Miss Planta on the stairs, I put it back in
+my work-box, and Was just taking thence some other employment,
+when her voice struck my ear almost in a scream "Is it possible?
+Mr. Fairly!"
+
+My own with difficulty refrained echoing it when I heard his
+voice answer her, and in a few minutes they parted, and he rapped
+at the door and entered my little parlour.  He came in hobbling,
+leaning on a stick, and with a large cloth shoe over one of his
+feet, which was double the size of the other.
+
+We sat down together, and he soon inquired what I had done with
+his little book.  I had only, I answered, read two more letters.
+
+"Have you read two?" he cried, in a voice rather disappointed;
+and I found he was actually come to devote the morning, which he
+knew to be unappropriated on my part, to reading it on to me
+himself.  Then he took up the book and read on from the fifth
+letter.  But he read at first with evident uneasiness, throwing
+down the book at every noise, and stopping to listen at every
+sound.  At last he asked me if anybody was likely to come?
+
+Not a soul, I said, that I knew or expected.
+
+He laughed a little at his question and apparent anxiety but with
+an openness that singularly marks his character, he frankly
+added, I must put the book away, pure as it is, if any one comes
+or, without knowing a word of the contents, they will run away
+with the title alone, exclaiming, 'Mr. Fairly
+
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+
+reading love letters to Miss Burney!'  A fine story that would
+make!"
+
+'Pon honour, thought I, I would not hear such a tale for the
+world.  However, he now pursued his reading more at his ease.
+
+I will not tell you what we said of them in talking them over.
+Our praise I have chiefly given--our criticism must wait till you
+have read them yourselves.  They are well worth your seeking.  I
+am greatly mistaken if you do not read them with delight.
+
+in the course of the discussion he glided, I know not how, upon
+the writings of another person, saying he never yet had talked
+them over with me.
+
+"It is much kinder not," cried I hastily. . . .
+
+"Well, but," cried he laughing, "may I find a fault?  Will you
+hear a criticism, if nothing of another sort?" I was forced to
+accede to this.
+
+He told me, then, there was one thing he wholly disallowed and
+wished to dispute, which was, Cecilia's refusing to be married on
+account of the anonymous prohibition to the ceremony.  He could
+not, he said, think such an implied distrust of Delvile, after
+consenting to be his, was fair or generous.
+
+"To that," cried I, "I cannot judge what a man may think, but I
+will own it is what most precisely and indubitably I could not
+have resisted doing myself.  An interruption so mysterious and so
+shocking I could never have had the courage to pass over."
+
+This answer rather silenced him from politeness than convinced
+him from reason, for I found he thought the woman who had given
+her promise was already married, and ought to run every risk
+rather than show the smallest want of confidence in the man of
+her choice.
+
+Columb now soon came in to inquire what time I should dine, but a
+ghost could not have made him stare more than Mr. Fairly, whose
+confinement with the gout had been spread all over the house by
+Colonel Gwynn.
+
+I ordered an early dinner on account of the play."
+
+"Will you invite me," cried Mr. Fairly, laughing, "to dine with
+you?"
+
+"Oh yes!" I cried, "with the greatest pleasure." and he said he
+would go to his home and dress, and return to my hour.
+
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+
+
+               A DINNER WITH COLONEL FAIRLY AND MISS PLANTA,
+As he was at leisure, I had bespoke the queen's hairdresser, on
+account of the play; but Miss Planta came to inform me that she
+could not be of that party, as she had received a letter from
+Lady Charlotte Finch, concerning Princess Mary, that she must
+stay to deliver herself.
+
+I told her she would have a beau at dinner.  "Well," she
+exclaimed, "'tis the oddest thing in the world He should come so
+when the king and queen are away!  I am sure, if I was you, I
+would not mention it."
+
+"Oh yes, I shall," cried I; "I receive no visitors in private;
+and I am sure if I did, Mr. Fairly is the last who would
+condescend to make one of them."  Such was my proud, but true
+speech, for him and for myself.
+
+At dinner we all three met; Mr. Fairly in much better spirits
+than I have yet seen him at Cheltenham.  He attacks Miss Planta
+upon all her little prejudices, and rallies her into a defence of
+them, in a manner so sportive 'tis impossible to hurt her, yet so
+nearly sarcastic that she is frequently perplexed whether to take
+it in good or ill part.  But his intentions are so decidedly
+averse to giving pain, that even when she is most alarmed at
+finding the laugh raised against her, some suddenly good-humoured
+or obliging turn sets all to rights, and secures any sting from
+remaining, even where the bee has been most menacing to fix
+itself.
+
+I believe Mr. Fairly to possess from nature high animal spirits,
+though now curbed by misfortune - and a fine vein of satire,
+though constantly kept in order by genuine benevolence.  He is
+still, in mixed company, gay, shrewd, and arch ; foremost in
+badinage, and readiest for whatever may promote general
+entertainment.  But in chosen society his spirits do not rise
+above cheerfulness; he delights in moral discourse, on grave and
+instructive subjects, and though always ready to be led to the
+politics or business of the day, in which he is constantly well
+versed and informing I never observe him to lead but to themes of
+religion, literature, or moral life.
+
+When dinner and a very sociable dessert were over, we proposed
+going to the king's dining-parlour, while the servants removed
+the things, etc., against tea.  But the weather was so very fine
+we were tempted by the open door to go out into the air.  Miss
+Planta said she would take a walk; Mr. Fairly could not, but all
+without was so beautiful he would not go into the
+
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+
+parlour, and rather risked the fatigue of standing, as he leant
+against the porch, to losing the lovely prospect of sweet air.
+
+And here, for near two hours, on the steps of Fauconberg Hall, we
+remained; and they were two hours of such pure serenity, without
+and within, as I think, except in Norbury park, with its loved
+inhabitants and my Susan, I scarce ever remember to have spent.
+Higher gaiety and greater happiness many and many periods of my
+life have at different times afforded me; but a tranquillity more
+perfect has only, I think, been lent to me in Norbury park,
+where, added to all else that could soothe and attract, every
+affection of my heart could be expanded and indulged.  But what
+have I to do with a comparison no longer cherished but by memory
+
+The time I have mentioned being past, Miss Planta returned from
+her walk, and we adjourned to the little parlour, where I made
+tea, and then I equipped myself for the play.
+
+The sweet Miss Port received me with her usual kind joy, and
+introduced me to her friends, who are Mr. Delabere, the master of
+the house, and chief magistrate of Cheltenham, and his family.
+
+We all proceeded to the play-house, which is a very pretty little
+theatre.  Mrs. Jordan played the "Country Girl," most admirably;
+but the play is so disagreeable in Its whole plot and tendency,
+that all the merit of her performance was insufficient to ward
+off disgust.(286) My principal end, however, was wholly answered,
+in spending the evening with my poor M-----. . . .
+
+Lady Harcourt is come to take the place of Lady Weymouth, whose
+waiting is over; and Lord Harcourt will lodge in the town of
+Cheltenham.  We have no room here for double accommodations.
+
+
+                   ROYAL CONCERN FOR THE COLONEL's GOUT.
+
+Sunday, July 27.-This morning in my first attendance I seized a
+moment to tell her majesty of yesterday's dinner.
+
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+
+"So I hear!" she cried; and I was sorry any one had anticipated
+my information, nor can I imagine who it might be.
+
+"But pray, ma'am," very gravely, how did it happen ? I understood
+Mr. Fairly was confined by the gout."
+
+"He grew better, ma'am, and hoped by exercise to prevent a
+serious fit."
+
+She said no more, but did not seem pleased.  The fatigues of a
+Court attendance are so little comprehended, that persons known
+to be able to quit their room and their bed are Instantly
+concluded to be qualified for all the duties of their office.
+
+We were again very early, as their majesties meant to go to the
+cathedral at Gloucester, where the Bishop of Gloucester, Dr.
+Halifax, was to Preach to them.  But I -was particularly glad,
+before our breakfast, was over, to see Mr. Fairly enter my little
+parlour.  He was Still In his gouty Shoe, and assisted by a
+stick, but he had not suffered from his yesterday's exertion.
+
+Before the things were removed, a page opened the door, and all
+the royal family--king, queen, and three princesses--came into
+the room to see Mr. Fairly and Inquire how he did.  I hardly know
+with which of the five he is most in favour, or by which most
+respected, and they all expressed their concern for this second
+attack, in the kindest terms.
+
+The king, however, who has a flow of spirits at this time quite
+unequalled, would fain have turned the whole into ridicule, and
+have persuaded him he was only fanciful.
+
+"Fanciful, Sir?" he repeated, a little displeased; and the good
+king perceiving it, graciously and good-humouredly drew back his
+words, by saying "Why I should wonder indeed if you were to be
+that!"
+
+When they all decamped I prepared for church.  I had appointed to
+go with Miss Port, and to meet her on the road.  Mr. Fairly said,
+if I would give him leave, he would stay and write letters in my
+little parlour.  I supplied him with materials, and emptied my
+queen's writing-box for a desk, as we possess nothing here but a
+low dining-table.  So away went journals, letters, memorandums,
+etc., into the red portfolio given me by my dear father.
+
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+
+As soon as I presented him with this, not at all aware of the
+goods and chattels removed for the occasion, he said it was so
+very comfortable he should now write all his letters here, for at
+his lodgings he had such a miserable low table he had been forced
+to prop it up by brick-bats!
+
+Mr. Fairly sealed and made up his dispatches, and then said he
+would stroll a little out to put his foot in motion.  "And what,"
+he asked, "shall you do?"
+
+I had a great mind to say, Why, stroll with you; for that, I
+think, was the meaning OF his question; but I feared it might
+prevent my being dressed against the return Of the queen, and I
+do not think she would have thought it an adequate excuse.
+
+
+                       YOUNG REPUBLICANS CONVERTED.
+
+
+Monday, July 28.--Miss Ogle acquainted me that this was the last
+day of her remaining at Cheltenham, and I promised to drink tea
+with her in the afternoon; and the queen honoured me with a
+commission to bring Mrs. Ogle on the walks, as his majesty wished
+again to see her. . . .
+
+I found Mrs. Ogle and her daughters all civility and good humour.
+ Poor Mrs. Ogle has lately (by what means I do not know) wholly
+lost her eye-sight; but she is perfectly resigned to this
+calamity, and from motives just such as suit a bishop's daughter.
+ When I told her who desired her to be on the walks, she was
+extremely gratified.  Spotty is a complete rebel, according to
+the principles of her republican father, and protested it would
+only be a folly and fuss to go, for their notice.  The younger
+sisters are bred rebels too; but the thought of guiding their
+mother, when such royal distinction was intended her, flattered
+and fluctuated them.  There was another lady with them, who told
+me that Dr. Warton, of Winchester, had desired her to make
+acquaintance with me; but I have forgotten her name, and have no
+time to refresh my memory with it.
+
+To the walks we went, the good and pious Mrs. Ogle between her
+two young daughters, and Spotty and I together.  Spotty begged me
+to go to the ball with her, but I had neither licence nor
+inclination.
+
+The queen immediately espied Mrs. Ogle, by seeing me, as I heard
+her say to the king; and they approached the spot where we stood,
+in the most gracious manner.  The king spoke with such kindness
+to Mrs. Ogle, and with such great regard
+
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+
+of her late father, that the good lady was most deeply affected
+with pleasure.  I believe they stayed half an hour with her,
+talking over old scenes and circumstances.  Spotty kept pulling
+me all the time, to decamp; but I kept "invincible,"--not quite
+like Mr. Pitt, yet "invincible."  At last the king spoke
+to her: this confused her so much, between the pleasure of the
+notice, and the shame of feeling that pleasure, that she knew not
+what she either did or said, answered everything wrong, and got
+out of the line, and stood with her back to the queen, and turned
+about she knew not why, and behaved like one who had lost her
+wits.
+
+When they left us, Mrs. Ogle expressed her grateful sense of the
+honour done her, almost with tears ; the two young ones said,
+they had never conceived the king and queen could be such sweet
+people and poor Spotty was so affected and so constrained in
+denying them praise, and persisting that she thought it "all a
+bore," that I saw the republican heart was gone, though the
+tongue held its ground.
+
+A second time, after a few more turns, the same gracious party
+approached, with fresh recollections and fresh questions
+concerning interesting family matters.  This was more than could
+be withstood; Mrs. Ogle was almost overpowered by their
+condescension; the young ones protested they should never bear to
+hear anything but praise of them all their lives to come and poor
+Spotty was quite dumb! She could not, for shame, join the chorus
+of praise, and to resist it she had no longer any power.
+
+We did not, however, stop here; for still a third time they
+advanced, and another conference ensued, in which Mrs. Ogle's
+sons were inquired for, and their way of life, and designs and
+characters.  This ended and completed the whole; Mrs. Ogle no
+longer restrained the tears of pleasure from flowing; her little
+daughters declared, aloud, the king and queen were the two most
+sweet persons in the whole world, and they would say so as long
+as they lived; and poor Spotty, colouring and conscious, said--
+"But I hope I did not behave so bad this time as the first?" Nay,
+so wholly was she conquered, that, losing her stubbornness more
+and more by reflection, she would not let me take leave till she
+obliged me to promise I would either call the next morning,
+before their departure, or write her a little note, to say if
+they found out or mentioned her ungraciousness.
+
+I was too well pleased in the convert to refuse her this satis-
+
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+
+action; and so full was her mind of her new loyalty, that when
+she found me steady in declining to go with her to the ball, she
+gave it up herself, and said she would go home with her mother
+and sisters, to talk matters over.
+
+
+
+                       THE PRINCES' ANIMAL SPIRITS.
+
+July 31.---Miss Planta said the Duke of York was expected the
+next day.  This led to much discourse on the princes, in which
+Mr. Fairly, with his usual but Most uncommon openness, protested
+there was something in the violence of their animal spirits that
+Would make him accept no post and no pay to live with them.
+Their very voices, he said, had a loudness and force that wore
+him.
+
+Immediately after he made a little attack--a gentle one, Indeed--
+upon me, for the contrary extreme, of hardly speaking, among
+strangers at least, so as to be heard.  "And why," cried he, "do
+you speak so low? I used formerly not to catch above a word in a
+sentence from you."  In talking about the princes, he asked me
+how I managed with them.
+
+Not at all, I said, for since I had resided under the royal roof
+they were rarely there, and I had merely seen them two or three
+times.
+
+He congratulated me that I had not been in the family in earlier
+days, when they all lived together; and Miss Planta enumerated
+various of their riots, and the distresses and difficulties they
+caused in the household.
+
+I was very glad, I said, to be out of the way, though I did not
+doubt but I might have kept clear of them had I been even then a
+resident.
+
+"O no, no," cried Mr. Fairly; "they would have come to you, I
+promise you; and what could you have done--what would have become
+of you?--with Prince William in particular? Do you not think,
+Miss Planta, the Prince of Wales and Prince William would have
+been quite enough for Miss Burney? Why she would have been quite
+subdued."
+
+I assured him I had not a fear but I might always have avoided
+them.
+
+"Impossible! They would have come to your tea-room."
+
+"I would have given up tea."
+
+"Then they would have followed you--called for you--sent for
+you--the Prince of Wales would have called about him, 'Here !
+where's Miss Burney?"'
+
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+
+"O, no, no, no!" cried I; "I would have kept wholly out of the
+way, and then they would never have thought about me."
+"O, ho!" cried he, laughing, "never think of seeing Miss Burney
+ Prince William, too! what say you to that, Miss Planta?
+
+She agreed there was no probability of such escape.  I was only
+the more glad to have arrived in later times.
+
+Here a page came to call Mr. Fairly to backgammon with his
+majesty.
+
+
+               THE DUKE OF YORK: ROYAL VISIT TO THE THEATRE.
+Friday, Aug. 1.-This was a very busy day; the Duke of York was
+expected, and his fond father had caused a portable wooden house
+to be moved from the further end of Cheltenham town up to join to
+Fauconber, Hall.  The task had employed twenty or thirty men
+almost ever since our arrival, and so laborious, slow, difficult,
+and all but impracticable had it proved, that it was barely
+accomplished before it was wanted.  There was no room, however,
+in the king's actual dwelling, and he could not endure not to
+accommodate his son immediately next himself.
+
+His joy upon his arrival was such joy as I have only seen here
+when he arrived first from Germany; I do not mean it was equally
+violent, or, alas! equally unmixed, but yet it was next and
+nearest to that which had been most perfect.
+
+Mr. Bunbury attended his royal highness.  We had all dispersed
+from breakfast, but the king came in, and desired me to make him
+some.  Mr. Fairly had brought him to my little parlour, and,
+having called Columb, and assisted in arranging a new breakfast,
+he left us, glad, I suppose, of a morning to himself, for his
+majesty was wholly engrossed by the duke.
+
+We talked over his usual theme--plays and players--and he
+languished to go to the theatre and see Mrs. Jordan.  Nor did he
+languish in vain: his royal master, the duke, imbibed his wishes,
+and conveyed them to the king; and no sooner were they known than
+an order was hastily sent to the play-house, to prepare a royal
+box.  The queen was so gracious as to order Miss Planta and
+myself to have the same entertainment.
+
+The delight of the people that their king and queen should visit
+this country theatre was the most disinterested I ever witnessed;
+for though they had not even a glance of their royal
+countenances, they shouted, huzzaed, and clapped, for
+
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+
+many minutes.  The managers had prepared the front boxes for
+their reception, and therefore the galleries were over them.
+They made a very full and respectable appearance in this village
+theatre.  The king, queen, Duke of York, and three princesses,
+were all accommodated with front seats ; Lord Harcourt stood
+behind the king, Lady Harcourt and Mr. Fairly behind the queen;
+Lord and Lady Courtown and Lady Pembroke behind the princesses;
+and at the back, Colonel Gwynn and Mr. Bunbury; Mr. Boulby and
+Lady Mary were also in the back group.
+
+I was somewhat taken up in observing a lady who sat opposite to
+me, Miss W---.  My Susanna will remember that extraordinary young
+lady at Bath, whose conduct and conversation I have either
+written or repeated to her.(287)
+
+I could not see her again without being much struck by another
+recollection, of more recent and vexatious date.  Mrs. Thrale, in
+one of the letters she has published, and which was written just
+after I had communicated to her my singular rencontre with this
+lady, says to Dr. Johnson, "Burney has picked up an infidel, and
+recommended to her to read 'Rasselas.'
+
+This has a strange sound, but when its circumstances are known,
+its strangeness ceases; it meant Miss W--- and I greatly fear,
+from the date and the book, she cannot but know the "infidel" and
+herself are one.  I was truly Concerned in reading it, and I now
+felt almost ashamed as well as concerned in facing her, though
+her infidelity at that time, was of her own public avowal.  Mr.
+Bunbury is particularly intimate with her, and admires her beyond
+all women.
+
+
+                          AN UN-COURTLY VISITOR.
+
+Miss Planta and myself, by the queen's direction, went in a
+chaise to see Tewkesbury.  We were carried to several very
+beautiful points of view, all terminating with the noble hills of
+Malvern; and we visited the cathedral. . . . The pews seem the
+most unsafe, strange, and irregular that were ever constructed;
+they are mounted up, story after story, without any order, now
+large, now small, now projecting out wide, now almost indented in
+back, nearly to the very roof of the building.  They look as if,
+ready-made, they had been thrown up, and stuck wherever they
+could, entirely by chance.
+
+We returned home just in time to be hastily dressed before
+
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+
+the royals came back.  I was a little, however, distressed on
+being told, as I descended to dinner, that Mr. Richard
+Burney(288) was in my parlour.  The strict discipline observed
+here, in receiving no visits, made this a very awkward
+circumstance, for I as much feared hurting him by such a hint, as
+concurring in an impropriety by detaining him.  Miss Planta
+suffers not a soul to approach her to this house ; and Lady
+Harcourt has herself told me she thinks it would be wrong to
+receive even her sisters, Miss Vernons, so much all-together is
+now the house and household!
+
+My difficulty was still increased, when, upon entering the
+parlour, I found him in boots, a riding dress, and hair wholly
+without curl or dressing.  Innocently, and very naturally, he had
+called upon me in his travelling garb, never suspecting that in
+visiting me he was at all in danger of seeing or being seen by
+any one else.  Had that indeed been the case, I should have been
+very glad to see him; but I knew, now, his appearance must prove
+every way to his disadvantage, and I felt an added anxiety to
+acquaint him with my situation.
+
+Miss Planta looked all amazement; but he was himself all ease and
+sprightly unconsciousness.
+
+We were obliged to sit down to dinner; he had dined.  I was quite
+in a panic the whole time, lest any of the royals should come in
+before I could speak - but, after he had partaken of our dessert,
+as much en badinage as I could, I asked him if he felt stout
+enough to meet the king? and then explained to him, as concisely
+as I had power, that I had here no room whatsoever at my own
+disposal, in such a manner as to enable my having the happiness
+to receive any of my private friends even Miss Port, though known
+to all the royal family,, I could never venture to invite, except
+when they were abroad: such being, at present, the universal
+practice and forbearance of all the attendants in this tour.
+
+He heard me with much surprise, and much laughter at his own
+elegant equipment for such encounters as those to which he now
+found himself liable; but he immediately proposed decamping, and
+I could not object, Yet, to soften this disagreeable explanation,
+I kept him a few minutes longer, settling concerning our further
+meeting at the concerts- at Worcester, and, in this little
+interval, we were startled by a rap at my door.  He laughed, and
+started back; and I, alarmed,
+
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+
+also retreated.  Miss Planta opened the door, and called out
+"'Tis Mr. Fairly."
+
+I saw him in amaze at sight of a gentleman; and he was himself
+immediately retiring, concluding, I suppose, that nothing less
+than business very urgent could have induced me to break through
+rules so rigidly observed by himself and all
+others.  I would not, however, let him go .  but as I continued
+talking with Richard about the music meeting and my cousins, he
+walked up to the window with Miss Planta.  I now kept Richard as
+long as I well could, to help off his own embarrassment at this
+interruption; at length he went.
+
+
+
+                MR. FAIRLY READS "AKENSIDE" TO MISS BURNEY.
+Hearing now the barking of the dogs, I knew the royals must be
+going forth to their promenade; but I found Mr. Fairly either did
+not hear or did not heed them.  While I expected him every moment
+to recollect himself, and hasten to the walks, he quietly said,
+"They are all gone but me.  I shall venture, to-night, to
+shirk;--though the king will soon miss me.  But what will follow?
+He will say--'Fairly is tired! How shabby!'  Well! let him say
+so; I am tired!"  Miss Planta went off, soon after, to her walk.
+He then said, "Have you done with my little book?"
+
+"O yes!" I cried, "and this morning I have sent home the map of
+Gloucester you were so good as to send us.  Though, I believe, I
+have kept both so long, You will not again be in any haste to
+lend me either a map of the land, or a poem of the sea."  I then
+gave him back "The Shipwreck."
+
+"Shall I tell you," cried I, "a design I have been forming upon
+you?"
+
+"A design upon me?"
+
+"Yes; and I may as well own it, for I shall be quite as near
+success as if I disguise it."  I then went to my little drawer
+and took out Akenside."
+
+"Here," I cried, "I intended to have had this fall in your way,
+by pure accident, on the evening you were called to the conjurer,
+and I have planned the same ingenious project every evening
+since, but it has never taken, and so now I produce it fairly!"
+
+"That," cried he, taking it, with a very pleased smile, "is the
+only way in all things!"
+
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+
+He then began reading "The Pleasures of the Imagination," and I
+took some work, for which I was much in haste, and my imagination
+was amply gratified.  He only looked out for favourite passages,
+as he has the poem almost by heart, and he read them with a
+feeling and energy that showed his whole soul penetrated with
+their force and merit.
+
+After the first hour, however, he grew uneasy'; he asked me when
+I expected the king and queen from their walk, and whether they
+were likely to come into my room?
+
+"All," I said, "was uncertain."
+
+"Can nobody," he cried, "let you know when they are coming?"
+
+"Nobody," I answered, "would know till they were actually
+arrived."
+
+"But," cried he, "can you not bid somebody watch?"
+
+'Twas rather an awkward commission, but I felt it would be an
+awkwardness still less pleasant to me to decline it, and
+therefore I called Columb, and desired he would let me know when
+the queen returned.
+
+He was then easier, and laughed a little, while he explained
+himself, "Should they come in and find me reading here before  I
+could put away my book, they would say we were two blue
+stockings!"
+
+At tea Miss Planta again joined us, and instantly behind him went
+the book.  He was very right; for nobody would
+have thought it more odd--or more blue.
+
+During this repast they returned home, but all went straight
+upstairs, the duke wholly occupying the king - and Mr. Bunbury
+went to the play.  When Miss Planta, therefore, took her evening
+stroll, "Akenside" again came forth, and with more security.
+
+"There is one ode here," he cried, "that I wish to read to you,
+and now I think I can."
+
+I told him I did not in general like Akenside's odes, at least
+what I had chanced to read, for I thought they were too inflated,
+and filled with "liberty cant."
+
+"But this, however," cried he, "I must read to you, it is so
+pretty, though it is upon love!"
+
+'Tis addressed to Olympia: I dare say my dearest Fredy recollects
+it.(289)  It is, indeed, most feelingly written; but we
+
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+
+had only got through the first stanza when the door Suddenly
+opened, and enter Mr. Bunbury.
+
+After all the precautions taken, to have him thus appear at the
+very worst moment! Vexed as I was, I could really have laughed;
+but Mr. Fairly was ill disposed to take it so merrily.  He
+started, threw the book forcibly behind him, and instantly took
+up his hat, as if decamping.  I really believe he was afraid Mr.
+Bunbury would caricature us "The sentimental readers!" or what
+would he have called us? Luckily this confusion passed unnoticed.
+Mr. Bunbury had run away from the play to see after the horses,
+etc., for his duke, and was fearful of coming too late.
+
+plays and players now took up all the discourse, with Miss W--,
+till the duke was ready to go.  They then left me together, Mr.
+Fairly smiling drolly enough in departing, and looking at
+"Akenside" with a very arch shrug, as who should say "What a
+scrape you had nearly drawn me into, Mr. Akenside!"
+
+
+                        THE DOCTOR's EMBARRASSMENT.
+
+Sunday, Aug. 3.-This morning I was so violently oppressed by a
+cold, which turns out to be the influenza, it was with the utmost
+difficulty I could dress myself.  I did indeed now want some
+assistant most wofully.
+
+The princess royal has already been some days disturbed with this
+influenza.  When the queen perceived it in me she told his
+majesty, who came into the room just as she was going to
+breakfast.  Without making any answer, he himself went
+immediately to call Mr. Clerk, the apothecary, who was then with
+the princess royal.
+
+"Now, Mr. Clerk," cried he, "here's another patient for you."
+
+Mr. Clerk, a modest, sensible man, concluded, by the king himself
+having called him, that it was the queen he had
+
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+
+now to attend, and he stood bowing profoundly before her but soon
+observing she did not notice him, he turned in some confusion to
+the Princess Augusta, who was now in the group.
+
+"No, no! it's not me, Mr. Clerk, thank God!" cried the gay
+Princess Augusta.
+
+Still more confused, the poor man advanced to Princess Elizabeth.
+
+"No, no; it's not her!" cried the king.
+
+I had held back, having scarce power to open my eyes, from a
+vehement head-ache, and not, indeed, wishing to go through my
+examination till there were fewer witnesses.  But his majesty now
+drew me out.
+
+"Here, Mr. Clerk," he cried, "this is your new patient!"
+
+He then came bowing up to me, the king standing close by, and the
+rest pretty near.
+
+
+"You--you are not well, ma'am?" he cried in the greatest
+embarrassment,
+
+"No, sir, not quite," I answered in ditto.
+
+"O, Mr. Clerk will cure you!" cried the king.
+
+"Are-are you feverish, ma'am?"
+
+"Yes, sir, a little."
+
+"I--I will send you a saline draught, ma'am."
+
+"If you please."
+
+And then he bowed and decamped.
+
+Did you ever hear a more perfectly satisfactory examination? The
+poor modest man was overpowered by such royal listeners and
+spectators, and I could not possibly relieve him, for I was
+little better myself.
+
+I went down to breakfast, but was so exceedingly oppressed I
+could not hold up my head, and as soon as I could escape I went
+to my own room, and laid down till my noon attendance, which I
+performed with so much difficulty I was obliged to return to the
+same indulgence the moment I was at liberty.
+
+
+                            FROM GRAVE TO GAY.
+
+Down at last I went, slow and wrapped up.  I found Mr. Fairly
+alone in the parlour, reading letters with such intentness that
+he did not raise his head, and with an air of the deepest
+dejection.  I remained wholly unnoticed a considerable time; but
+at last he looked up, and with some surprise, but a voice  OF
+
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+
+of extreme sadness, he said, "Is that Miss Burney? I thought it
+had been Miss Planta."
+
+I begged him to read on, and not mind me; and I called for tea.
+When we had done tea, "See, ma'am," he cried, "I have brought You
+'Carr,' and here is a sermon upon the text I mean, when I preach,
+to choose 'Keep innocency, and take heed to the thing that is
+right; for that will bring a man peace at the last.'"
+
+Sincerely I commended his choice ; and we had a most solemn
+discussion of happiness, not such as coincides with gaiety here,
+but hope of salvation hereafter.  His mind has so religious a
+propensity, that it seems to me, whenever he leaves it to its
+natural bent, to incline immediately and instinctively to
+subjects of that holy nature.
+
+Humility, he said, in conclusion, humility was all in all for
+tranquillity of mind; with that, little was expected and much was
+borne, and the smallest good was a call for gratitude and
+content.  How could this man be a soldier? Might one not think he
+was bred in the cloisters?
+
+"Well," cried he, again taking up the volume of "Carr," "I will
+just sit and read this sermon, and then quietly go home."
+
+He did so, feelingly, forcibly, solemnly; it is an excellent
+sermon; yet so read--he so sad, and myself so ill--it was almost
+too much for me, and I had some difficulty to behave with proper
+propriety.  To him subjects of this sort, ill or well, bring
+nothing, I believe, but strength as well as comfort.  The voice
+of dejection with which he began changed to one of firmness ere
+he had read three pages.
+
+Something he saw of unusual sinking, notwithstanding what
+I hid; and, with a very kind concern, when he had finished the
+sermon, he said, "Is there anything upon your spirits?"
+
+"No," I assured him, "but I was not well; and mind and body
+seemed to go together sometimes, when they did not."
+
+"But they do go together," cried he, "and will."
+
+However, he took no further- notice: he is like me, for myself,
+in that--that whatever he thinks only bodily is little worth
+attention; and I did not care to risk explaining to his strong
+and virtuous mind the many fears and mixed sensations of mine,
+when brought to a close disquisition of awaiting eternity.
+
+I never, but with Mrs. Delany and Dr. Johnson, have entered so
+fully and so frequently upon this awful subject as
+
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+with Mr. Fairly.  My dear and most revered Mrs. Delany dwelt upon
+it continually, with joy, and pure, yet humble hope.  My
+ever-honoured Dr. Johnson recurred to it perpetually, with a
+veneration compounded of diffidence and terror, and an incessant,
+yet unavailing plan, of amending all errors, and rising into
+perfection.  Mr. Fairly leans upon it as the staff of his
+strength--the trust, the hope, the rest of his soul--too big for
+satisfaction in aught this world has given, or can reserve for
+him.                                                   '
+
+He did not, however, "go quietly home," when he had finished the
+sermon; on the contrary, he revived in his spirits, and animated
+in his discourse, and stayed on.
+
+In speaking of the king he suddenly recollected some very fine
+lines of Churchill, made on his accession to the throne.  I wish
+I could transcribe them, they are so applicable to that good
+king, from that moment of promise to the present of performance.
+But I know not in what part of Churchill's works they may be
+found.
+
+Finding me unacquainted with his poems he then repeated several
+passages, all admirably chosen ; but among them his memory called
+forth some that were written upon Lord H--, which were of the
+bitterest severity I ever heard:--whether deserved or not, Heaven
+knows; but Mr. Fairly said he would repeat them, for the merit of
+the composition.  There was no examining his opinion of their
+veracity, and he made no comments; but this: Lord H-- was the
+famous man so often in the House of Commons accused of expending,
+or retaining, unaccounted millions
+
+Having run through all he could immediately recollect, he said,
+with a very droll smile, "Come, now I'll finish our ode," and
+went to my drawer for "Akenside."
+
+His fears of surprise, however, again came upon him so strongly
+while reading it, that he flung away the book in the utmost
+commotion at every sound, lest any one was entering, always
+saying in excuse, "We must not be called two blue stockings;"
+and, "They are so glad to laugh; the world is so always on the
+watch for ridicule." . . .
+
+I know not by what means, but after this we talked over Mr.
+Hastings's trial.  I find he is very much acquainted with Mr.
+Windham, and I surprised him not a little, I saw, by what I told
+him of part Of My conferences with that gentleman.
+
+This matter having led us from our serious subjects, he took
+
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+
+up "Akenside" once more, and read to me the first book
+throughout, What a very, very charming poem is the "Pleasures of
+the Imagination!" He stayed to the last moment, and left me all
+the better for the time he thus rescued from feverish lassitude
+and suffering.
+
+
+                           A VISIT TO WORCESTER.
+
+Tuesday, Aug. 5-The journey to Worcester was very pleasant, and
+the country through which we passed extremely luxuriant and
+pretty.  We did not go in by the Barborne road ; but all the
+road, and all avenues leading to it, were lined with people, and
+when we arrived at the city we could see nothing but faces ; they
+lined the windows from top to bottom, and the pavement from end
+to end.
+
+We drove all through the city to come to the palace of Bishop
+Hurd, at which we were to reside.  Upon stopping there, the king
+had an huzza that seemed to vibrate through the whole town ; the
+princess royal's carriage had a second, and the equerries a
+third; the mob then, as ours drew on in succession, seemed to
+deliberate whether or not we also should have a cheer: but one of
+them soon decided the matter by calling out, "These are the maids
+of honour!" and immediately they gave us an huzza that made us
+quite ashamed, considering its vicinity.
+
+Mr. Fairly and Colonel Goldsworthy having performed the royal
+attendance, waited to hand us out of the carriage ; and then the
+former said he believed he should not be wanted, and would go and
+make a visit in the town.  I should have much liked walking off
+also, and going to my cousins at Barborne Lodge; but I was no
+free agent, and obliged to wait for commands.
+
+The house is old and large; part of it looks to the Severn but
+the celebrated "Fair Sabrina" was so thick and muddy, that at
+this time her vicinity added but little to the beauty of the
+situation.
+
+My bed-room is pleasant, with a view of the distant country and
+the Severn beneath it; but it is through that of the princess
+royal; which is an inconvenience her royal highness submits to
+with a grace that would make me ashamed to call it one to myself.
+The parlour for our eating is large and dark, and old-fashioned.
+I made tea in it to-night for Lord Courtown and the two colonels,
+and Miss Planta, and was so much the
+
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+
+better for my journey, that I felt the influenza nearly
+conquered.
+
+Wednesday, Aug. 6.-I had the pleasure to arrange going to the
+music meeting with my own family.  Notes were immediately
+interchanged from and to Barborne Lodge, and the queen was very
+well pleased that I should have this opportunity of joining my
+friends.  Mr. and Mrs. Hawkins and Betsy called for me at the
+bishop's.
+
+I was heartily glad to see Betsy and Mrs. Hawkins I introduced
+Miss Planta to them, who was of our party.  We sat in what are
+called the steward's places, immediately under their majesties.
+The performance was very long, and tolerably tedious, consisting
+of Handel's gravest pieces and fullest choruses, and concluding
+with a sermon concerning the institution of the charity, preached
+by Dr. Langhorne.  I was, however, so glad to be with my cousins,
+that the morning was very comfortable and pleasant to me.
+Richard and James joined us occasionally.; the rest of the family
+are at Shrewsbury.
+
+It was over very late, and we then went about the church, to see
+King John's tomb, etc, They were very earnest with me to go to
+Barborne but it was impossible.  I promised, however, to
+accompany them to the concert at night, and be of their party to
+all the morning meetings at the cathedral. '
+
+My parlour at the bishop's afforded me a good deal of
+entertainment, from observing the prodigious concourse of people
+from all the tops of houses, and looking over the walls to watch
+his majesty's entrance into the court-yard.  Poor Lord Courtown,
+on account of his star, was continually taken for the king, and
+received so many huzzas and shouts, that he hardly dared show
+himself except when in attendance.
+
+
+                         THE QUEEN AND MR. FAIRLY.
+
+Saturday, Aug. 9.-Her majesty this morning a little surprised me
+by gravely asking me what were Mr. Fairly's designs with regard
+to his going away ? I could not tell her I did not know what I
+was really acquainted with; yet I feared it might seem odd to her
+that I should be better informed than herself, and it was truly
+unpleasant to me to relate anything he had told me without his
+leave.  Her question, therefore, gave me a painful sensation; but
+it was spoken with an air so strongly denoting a belief that I
+had power to answer it, that I felt no choice in making a plain
+reply.  Simply, then, "I understand,
+
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+
+ma'am," I said, "that he means to go to-morrow morning
+early."
+
+"Will he stay on to-night, then, at Worcester?"
+
+"N-o, ma'am, I believe not."
+
+"I thought he meant to leave us to-day?  He said so."
+
+"He intended it, ma'am,--he would else not have said it."
+
+"I know I understood so, though he has not spoke to me of his
+designs this great while."
+
+I saw an air bordering upon displeasure as this was said and how
+sorry I felt!--and how ashamed of being concluded the person
+better informed!  Yet, as he had really related to me his plan,
+and I knew it to be what he had thought most respectful to
+herself, I concluded it best, thus catechised, to speak it all,
+and therefore, after some hesitation uninterrupted by her, I
+said, "I believe, ma'am, Mr. Fairly had intended fully to begin
+his journey to-day, but, as Your majesty is to go to the play
+to-night, he thinks it his duty to defer setting out till
+to-morrow, that he may have the honour to attend your majesty as
+usual."
+
+This, which was the exact truth, evidently pleased her.
+
+Here the inquiry dropped; but I was very uneasy to relate it to
+Mr. Fairly, that the sacrifice I knew he meant to make of another
+day might not lose all its grace by wanting to be properly
+revealed.
+
+
+                           MR. FAIRLY MORALIZES.
+
+Our journey back to Cheltenham was much more quiet than it had
+been to Worcester, for the royal party too], another route to see
+Malvern hills, and we went straight forward.
+
+Miss Planta having now caught the influenza, suffered very much
+all the way, and I persuaded her immediately to lie down when we
+got to Fauconberg Hall.  She could not come down to dinner, which
+I had alone.  The Princess Elizabeth came to me after it, with
+her majesty's permission that I might go to the play with my
+usual party ; but I declined it, that I might make some tea for
+poor Miss Planta, as she had no maid, nor any creature to help
+her.  The princess told me they were all going first upon the
+walks, to promener till the play time.
+
+I sat down to make my solitary tea, and had just sent up a basin
+to Miss Planta, when, to my equal surprise and pleasure, Mr.
+Fairly entered the room.  "I come now," he said, "to take my
+leave."
+
+They were all, he added, gone to the walks, whither he must
+
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+
+in a few minutes follow them, and thence attend to the play, and
+the next morning, by five o'clock, be ready for his post-chaise.
+Seeing me, however, already making tea, with his Usual and
+invariable sociability he said he would venture to stay and
+partake, though he was only come, he gravely repeated, to take
+his leave.
+
+"And I must not say," cried I, "that I am sorry you are going,
+because I know so well you wish to be gone that it makes me wish
+it for you myself."
+
+"No," answered he, "you must not be sorry; when our friends are
+going to any joy.  We must think of them, and be glad to part
+with them."
+
+Readily entering the same tone, with similar plainness of truth I
+answered, No, I will not be sorry you go, though miss you at
+Cheltenham I certainly must."
+
+"Yes," was his unreserved assent, "you will miss me here, because
+I have spent my evenings with you; but You Will not long remain
+at Cheltenham."
+
+Oim`e!" thought I, you little think how much Worse will be the
+quitting it.  He owned that the bustle and fatigue of this life
+was too much both for his health and his spirits.
+
+I told him I Wished it might be a gratification to him, in his
+toils, to hear how the queen always spoke of him; With what
+evident and constant complacency and distinction.  "And you may
+credit her sincerity," I added, "Since it is to so little a
+person as me she does this, and when no one else is present."
+
+He was not insensible to this, though he passed it over without
+much answer.  He showed me a letter from his second son, very
+affectionate and natural.  I congratulated him, most sincerely,
+on his approaching happiness in collecting them all together.
+"Yes he answered, "my group will increase, like a snow-ball, as I
+roll along, and they will soon all four be as happy as four
+little things know how to be."
+
+This drew him on into some reflections upon affection and upon
+happiness.  "There is no happiness," he said, "without
+participation; no participation without affection.  There is,
+indeed, in affection a charm that leaves all things behind it,
+and renders even every calamity that does not interfere with it
+inconsequential and there is no difficulty, no toil, no labour,
+no exertion, that will not be endured where there is a view of
+reaping it."
+
+He ruminated some time, and then told me of a sermon he had heard
+preached some months ago, sensibly demonstrating
+
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+
+the total vanity and insufficiency, even for this world, of all
+our best affections, and proving their fallibility from our most
+infirm humanity.
+
+My concurrence did not here continue: I cannot hold this doctrine
+to be right, and I am most sure it is not desirable.  our best
+affections, I must and do believe, were given us for the best
+purposes, for every stimulation to good, and every solace in
+evil.
+
+But this was not a time for argument.  I said nothing, while he,
+melancholy and moralizing, continued in this style as long as he
+could venture to stay.  He then rose and took his hat, saying, "
+Well, so much for the day; what may come to-morrow I know not;
+but, be it what it may, I stand prepared."
+
+I hoped, I told him, that his little snowball would be all he
+could wish it, and I was heartily glad he would so soon collect
+it.
+
+"We will say," cried he, "nothing of any regrets," and bowed, and
+was hastening off.
+
+The "we," however, had an openness and simplicity that drew from
+me an equally open and simple reply.  "No," I cried, "but I will
+say-for that you will have pleasure in hearing that you have
+lightened my time here in a manner that no one else could have
+done, of this party."
+
+To be sure this was rather a circumscribed compliment, those he
+left considered - but it was strict and exact truth, and
+therefore like his own dealing.  He said not a word of answer,
+but bowed, and went away, leaving me firmly impressed with a
+belief that I shall find in him a true, an honourable, and even
+an affectionate friend, for life.
+
+
+                    MAJOR PRICE IS TIRED OF RETIREMENT.
+
+Sunday, Aug. 10.-Major Price was of the breakfast party this
+morning, to my great contentment.  I heartily wish he was again
+in the king's household, he is so truly attached to his majesty,
+and he so earnestly himself wishes for a restoration, not to the
+equerryship, which is too laborious an office, but to any
+attendance upon the king's person of less fatigue.
+
+He opened to me very much upon his situation and wishes.  he has
+settled himself in a small farm near the house of his eldest
+brother, but I could see too plainly he has not found there the
+contentment that satisfies him.  He sighs for society ; he owns
+books are insufficient for everything, and his evenings
+
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+begin already to grow wearisome.  He does not wish it to be
+talked of publicly, but he is solicitous to return to the king,
+in any place attached to his person, of but mild duty.  Not only
+the king, he said, he loved, but all his society, and the way of
+life in general; and he had no tie whatsoever to Herefordshire
+that would make him hesitate a moment in quitting it, if another
+place could be made adequate to his fortune.  His income was
+quite too small for any absence from his home of more than a few
+weeks, in its present plight; and therefore it could alone be by
+some post under government that he must flatter himself with ever
+returning to the scenes he had left.
+
+How rarely does a plan of retirement answer the expectations upon
+which it is raised!  He fears having this suspected, and
+therefore keeps the matter to himself; but I believe he so much
+opened it to me, in the hope I might have an opportunity to make
+it known where it might be efficacious; for he told me, at the
+same time, he apprehended his majesty had a notion his fondness
+for Herefordshire, not his inability to continue equerry, had
+occasioned his resignation.
+
+I shall certainly make it my business to hint this to the queen.
+So faithful and attached a servant ought not to be thrown aside,
+and, after nine years' service, left unrewarded, and seem
+considered as if superannuated.
+
+
+                         MR. FAIRLY'S LITTLE NOTE.
+
+When I came from her majesty, just before she went down to
+dinner, I was met by a servant who delivered me a letter, which
+he told me was just come by express.  I took it in some alarm,
+fearing that ill news alone could bring it by such haste, but,
+before I could open it, he said, "'Tis from Mr. Fairly, ma'am."
+
+I hastened to read, and will now copy it:-
+
+"Northleach, Aug. 10, 1788.
+"Her majesty may possibly not have heard that Mr. Edmund Waller
+died on Thursday night.  He was master of St. Catherine's, which
+is in her majesty's gift.  It may be useful to her to have this
+early intelligence of this circumstance, and you will have the
+goodness to mention it to her.  Mr. W. was at a
+house upon his own estate within a mile and a half of this place,
+Very truly and sincerely yours,
+"S. Fairly."
+"Miss Burney, Fauconberg Hall."
+
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+
+How to communicate this news, however, was a real distress to me.
+I know her majesty is rather scrupulous that all messages
+immediately to herself should be conveyed by the highest
+channels, and I feared she would think this ought to have been
+sent through her lady then in waiting, Lady Harcourt.  Mr.
+Fairly, too, however superior to such small matters for himself,
+is most punctiliously attentive to them for her.  I could
+attribute this only to haste.  But my difficulty was not alone to
+have received the intelligence-the conclusion of the note I was
+sure would surprise her.  The rest, as a message to herself,
+being without any beginning, would not strike her; but the words
+"very truly and sincerely yours," come out with such an abrupt
+plainness, and to her, who knows not with what intimacy of
+intercourse we have lived together so much during this last
+month, I felt quite ashamed to show them.
+
+While wavering how to manage, a fortunate circumstance seemed to
+come to my relief; the Princess Elizabeth ran up hastily to her
+room, which is just opposite to mine, before she followed the
+queen down to dinner; I flew after her, and told her I had just
+heard of the death of Mr. Waller, the Master of St. Catherine's,
+and I begged her to communicate it to her majesty.
+
+She undertook it, with her usual readiness to oblige, and I was
+quite delighted to have been so speedy without producing my note,
+which I determined now not even to mention unless called upon,
+and even then not to produce; for now, as I should not have the
+first telling, it might easily be evaded by not having it in my
+pocket.
+
+The moment, however, that the dinner was over, Princess Elizabeth
+came to summon me to the queen.  This was very unexpected, as I
+thought I should not see her till night; but I locked up my note
+and followed.
+
+She was only with the princesses.  I found the place was of
+importance, by the interest she took about it.  She asked me
+several questions relative to Mr. Waller.  I answered her all I
+could collect from my note, for further never did I hear; but the
+moment I was obliged to stop she said, "Pray have you known him
+long?"
+
+"I never knew him at all, ma'am."
+
+"No? Why, then, how came you to receive the news about his
+death?"
+
+Was not this agreeable? I was forced to say, "I heard of it only
+from Mr. Fairly, ma'am."
+
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+Nothing Could exceed the surprise with which she now lifted up
+her eyes to look at me.  "From Mr. Fairly?--Why did he not tell
+it me?"
+
+O, worse and worse! I was now compelled to answer, "He did not
+know It when he was here, ma'am; he heard it at Northleach, and,
+thinking it might be of use to your majesty to have the account
+immediately, he sent it over express."
+
+A dead silence so uncomfortable ensued, that I thought it best
+presently to go on further, though unasked.
+"Mr. Fairly, ma'am, wrote the news to me, on such small paper,
+and in such haste, that it is hardly fit to he shown to your
+majesty; but I have the note upstairs."
+
+No answer; again all silent; and then Princess Augusta said,
+"Mamma, Miss Burney says she has the note upstairs."
+
+"If your majesty pleases to see it"--
+
+She looked up again, much more pleasantly, and said, "I shall be
+glad to see it," with a little bow.
+
+Out I went for it, half regretting I had not burned it, to make
+the producing it impossible.  When I brought it to her, she
+received it with the most gracious smile, and immediately read it
+aloud, with great complacency, till she came to the end and then,
+with a lowered and somewhat altered tone, the "very truly and
+sincerely yours," which she seemed to look at for a moment with
+some doubt if it were not a mistake, but in returning it she
+bowed again, and simply said, "I am very much obliged to Mr.
+Fairly."
+
+You will be sure how much I was pleased during this last week to
+hear that the place of the Master of St. Catherine's was given by
+her majesty to Mr. Fairly.  It is reckoned the best in her gift,
+as a sinecure.  What is the income I know not: reports differ
+from 400 to 500 per annum.
+
+
+                          THE RETURN TO WINDSOR.
+
+Saturday, Aug. 16.-We left Cheltenham early this morning.  Major
+Price breakfasted with us, and was so melancholy at the king's
+departure he could hardly speak a word.  All Cheltenham was drawn
+out into the High-street, the gentles on one side and the commons
+on the other, and a band, and "God save the king," playing and
+singing.
+
+My dear Port, with all her friends, was there for a last look,
+and a sorrowful one we interchanged; Mr. Seward also, whom again
+I am not likely to meet for another two years at least.
+
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+
+The journey was quite without accident or adventure.
+
+And thus ends the Cheltenham episode.  May I not justly call it
+so, different as it is to all the mode of life I have hitherto
+lived here, or alas I am in a way to live henceforward?
+
+melancholy--most melancholy-was the return to Windsor destitute
+of all that could solace, compose, or delight ; replete with
+whatever could fatigue, harass, and depress! Ease, leisure,
+elegant society, and interesting communication, were now to give
+place to arrogant manners, contentious disputation, and arbitrary
+ignorance!  Oh, heaven! my dearest friends, what scales could
+have held and have weighed the heart of your F.B. as she drove
+past the door of her revered, lost comforter, to enter the
+apartment inhabited by such qualities!
+
+But before I quit this journey let me tell one very pleasant
+anecdote.  When we stopped to change horses at Burford I alighted
+and went into the inn, to meet Mrs. Gast, to whom I had sent by
+Mrs. Frodsham a request to be there as we passed through the
+town.  I rejoiced indeed to see again the sister of our first and
+wisest friend.  My Susanna, who knows her too enthusiastic
+character, will easily suppose my reception.  I was folded in her
+arms, and bathed in her tears all my little stay, and my own,
+from reflected tenderness for her ever-honoured, loved, and
+lamented brother, would not be kept quite back; 'twas a species
+of sorrowful joy--painful, yet pleasing--that seemed like a fresh
+tribute to his memory and my affection, and made the meeting
+excite an emotion that occupied my mind and reflections almost
+all the rest of my journey.
+
+She inquired most kindly after my dear father and my Susanna, and
+separately and with interest of all the rest of the family; but
+her surprise to see me now, by this most un expected journey,
+when she had concluded me inevitably shut up from her sight for
+the remainder of her life, joined to the natural warmth of her
+disposition, seemed almost to suffocate her.  I was very sorry to
+leave her, but my time was unavoidably short and hurried.  I
+inquired after Chesington, and heard very good accounts.
+
+
+
+            AT WINDSOR AGAIN  THE CANON AND MRS. SCHWELLENBERG.
+Windsor, Sunday, Aug. 17.-This day, after our arrival, began
+precisely the same as every day preceding our journey.  The
+Sleeping Beauty in the Wood could not awake more completely to
+the same scene; yet I neither have been asleep, nor
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+
+am quite a beauty! O! I wish I were as near to the latter as the
+former at this minute!
+
+We had all the set assembled to congratulate his majesty on his
+return--generals and colonels without end.  I was very glad while
+the large party lasted, its diminution into a solitary pair
+ending in worse than piquet--a tête-à-tête!--and such a one,
+too! after being so spoiled!
+
+Monday, Aug. 18.-Well, now I have a new personage to introduce to
+you, and no small one; ask else the stars, moon and planets!
+While I was surrounded with bandboxes, and unpacking, Dr.
+Shepherd was announced.  Eager to make his compliments on the
+safe return, he forced a passage through the back avenues and
+stairs, for he told me he did not like being seen coming to me at
+the front door, as it might create some jealousies amongst the
+other canons! A very commendable circumspection! but whether for
+my sake or his own he did not particularize.
+
+M. de Lalande, he said, the famous astronomer,(290) was just
+arrived in England, and now at Windsor, and he had expressed a
+desire to be introduced to me.
+
+Well, while he was talking this over, and I was wondering and
+evading, entered Mr. Turbulent.  What a surprise at sight of the
+reverend canon!  The reverend canon, also, was interrupted and
+confused, fearing, possibly, the high honour he did me might now
+transpire amongst his brethren, notwithstanding his generous
+efforts to spare them its knowledge.
+
+Mr. Turbulent, who looked big with heroics, was quite provoked to
+see he had no chance of giving them vent.  They each outstayed
+the patience of the other, and at last both went off together.
+
+Some hours after, however, while I was dressing, the canon
+returned.  I could not admit him, and bid Goter tell him at the
+door I was not visible.  He desired he might wait till I was
+ready, as he had business of importance.  I would not let him
+into the next room, but said he might stay in the eating-parlour.
+
+When I was dressed I sent Goter to bring him in.  She came back,
+grinning and colouring,; she had not found him, she said, but
+only Mrs. Schwellenberg, who was there alone, and had
+
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+
+called her in to know what she wanted.  She answered she came to
+seek for a gentleman.
+
+"There's no gentleman," she cried, "to come into my parlour.  it
+is not permit.  When he comes I will have it locked up."
+
+O, ho, my poor careful canon! thought I.  However, soon after a
+tap again at my door introduced him.  He said he had been waiting
+below in the passage, as he saw Madame Schwellenberg in the
+parlour, and did not care to have her know him; but his business
+was to settle bringing M. de Lalande to see me in the evening.  I
+told him I was much honoured, and so forth, but that I received
+no evening company, as I was officially engaged.
+
+He had made the appointment, he said, and could not break it
+without affronting him; besides, he gave me to understand it
+would be an honour to me for ever to be visited by so great an
+astronomer.  I agreed as to that, and was forced, moreover, to
+agree to all the rest, no resource remaining
+
+I mentioned to her majesty the state of the case.  She thought
+the canon very officious, and disapproved the arrangement, but
+saw it was unavoidable.
+
+But when the dinner came I was asked by the présidente, "What for
+send you gentlemen to my parlour?"
+
+" I was dressing, ma'am, and could not possibly receive company
+in mine, and thought the other empty."
+
+"Empty or full is the same! I won't have it.  I will lock up the
+room when it is done so.  No, no, I won't have no gentlemen here;
+it is not permit, perticklere when they Nvon't not speak to me!"
+
+I then heard that "a large man, what you call," had entered that
+sacred domain, and seeing there a lady, had quitted it "bob
+short!"
+
+I immediately explained all that had passed, for I had no other
+way to save myself from an imputation of favouring the visits and
+indiscretion of this most gallant canon.
+
+"Vell, when he comes so often he might like you.  For what won't
+you not marry him?"
+
+This was coming to the point, and so seriously, I found myself
+obliged to be serious in answer, to avoid misconstruction, and to
+assure her, that were he Archbishop of Canterbury, and actually
+at my feet, I would not become archbishopess.
+
+"Vell, you been right when you don't not like him; I don't not
+like the men neither: not one from them!"
+
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+
+So this settled us very amicably till tea-time, and in the midst
+of that, with a room full of people, I was called out by
+Westerhaults to Dr. Shepherd!
+
+Mrs. Schwellenberg herself actually te-he'd at this, and I could
+not possibly help laughing myself, but I hurried into the next
+room, where I found him with his friend, M. de Lalande.  What a
+reception awaited me! how unexpected a one from a famed and great
+astronomer.
+
+
+               COMPLIMENTS FROM A FAMOUS FOREIGN ASTRONOMER.
+M. de Lalande advanced to meet me---I will not be quite positive
+it was on tiptoe, but certainly with a mixture of jerk and strut
+that could not be quite flat-footed.  He kissed my hand with the
+air of a petit-maître, and then broke forth into such an harangue
+of éloges, so solemn with regard to its own weight and
+importance, and so fade(291) with respect to the little personage
+addressed, that I could not help thinking it lucky for the
+planets, stars, and sun, they were not bound to hear his
+comments, though obliged to undergo his calculations.
+
+On my part sundry profound reverences, with now and then an "O,
+monsieur!" or "c'est trop d'honneur," acquitted me so well, that
+the first harangue being finished, on the score of general and
+grand reputation, éloge the second began, on the excellency with
+which "cette célèbre demoiselle" spoke French!
+
+This may surprise you, my dear friends; but You must consider M.
+de Lalande is a great discoverer.
+
+Well, but had you seen Dr. Shepherd! he looked lost in sleek
+delight and wonder, that a person to whom he had introduced M. de
+Lalande should be an object for such fine speeches.
+
+This gentleman's figure, meanwhile, corresponds no better with
+his discourse than his scientific profession, for he is an ugly
+little wrinkled old man, with a fine showy waistcoat, rich  lace
+ruffles, and the grimaces of a dentist.  I believe he chose  to
+display that a Frenchman of science could be also a man of
+gallantry.
+
+I was seated between them, but the good doctor made no greater
+interruption to the florid professor than I did myself; he only
+grinned applause, with placid, but ineffable satisfaction.
+
+Nothing therefore intervening, éloge the third followed, after a
+pause no longer than might be necessary for due admiration
+
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+
+of éloge the second.  This had for sujet the fair female sex; how
+the ladies were now all improved; how they could write, and read,
+and spell; how a man now-a-days might talk with them and be
+understood, and how delightful it was to see such pretty
+creatures turned rational!
+
+And all this, of course, interspersed with particular
+observations and most pointed applications; nor was there in the
+whole string of compliments which made up the three bouquets, one
+single one amongst them that might have disgraced any petit
+maître to utter, or any petite maîtresse to hear.
+
+The third being ended, a rather longer pause ensued.  I believe
+he was dry, but I offered him no tea.  I would not voluntarily be
+accessory to detaining such great personages from higher
+avocations.  I wished him next to go and study the stars: from
+the moon he seemed so lately arrived there was little occasion
+for another journey.
+
+I flatter myself he was of the same opinion, for the fourth éloge
+was all upon his unhappiness in tearing himself away from so much
+merit, and ended in as many bows as had accompanied his entrance.
+
+I suppose, in going, he said, with a shrug, to the canon, "M. le
+docteur, c'est bien gênant, mais il faut dire des jolies choses
+aux dames!"(293)
+
+He was going the next day to see Dr. Maskelyne's observatory.
+Well! I have had him first in mine!
+
+I was obliged on my return to the tea-room to undergo much dull
+raillery from my fair companion, and Much of wonder that "since
+the canon had such good preferment" I did not "marry him at
+once," for he "would not come so often if he did not want it."
+
+
+                  THE PRINCE EYES MISS BURNEY CURIOUSLY.
+
+Tuesday, Aug. 18.--The Duke of York's birthday was kept this day,
+instead of Saturday, that Sunday morning might not interfere with
+the ball.
+
+The Prince of Wales arrived early, while I was yet with the
+queen.  He kissed her hand, and she sent for the princesses.
+Only Princess Elizabeth and Princess Sophia were dressed.  Her
+majesty went into the next room with Mrs. Sandys, to have her
+shoes put on, with which she always finishes.  The prince and
+princesses then chatted away most fluently.
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+
+Princess Elizabeth frequently addressed me with great sweetness
+but the prince only with curious eyes.  Do not, however,
+understand that his looks were either haughty or impertinent far
+from it ; they were curious, however, in the extreme.
+
+
+                        COLONEL MANNERS'S BEATING.
+
+Colonel Manners made me laugh as If I had been at a farce, by his
+history of the late Westminster election, in which Lord John
+Townshend conquered Lord Hood.  Colonel Manners is a most eager
+and active partisan on the side of the government, but so
+indiscreet, that he almost regularly gets his head broke at every
+contested election; and he relates it as a thing of course.
+I inquired if he pursued his musical studies, so happily begun
+with Colonel Wellbred?  "Why," answered he, "not much, because of
+the election; but the thing is, to get an ear: however, I think I
+have got one, because I know a tune when I hear it, if it's one
+that I've heard before a good many times so I think that's a
+proof.  but I can never get asked to a concert, and that keeps me
+a little behind."
+
+"Perhaps," cried I, "your friends conclude you have music enough
+in your three months' waiting to satisfy you for all the year?"
+
+"O, ma'am, as to that, I'd just as lief hear so many pots and
+pans rattled together; one noise is just as well as another to
+me."
+
+I asked him whether his electioneering with so much activity did
+not make his mother, Lady Robert, a little uneasy?--N.B.  She is
+a methodist.
+
+"O, it does her a great deal of good," cried he;"for I could
+never get her to meddle before ; but when I'd had my head broke,
+it provoked her so, she went about herself canvassing among the
+good people,--and she got us twenty votes."
+
+"So then," cried Colonel Goldsworthy, "there are twenty good
+people in the world?  That's your calculation, is it?"
+
+Mr. Fisher, who just then came in, and knew nothing of what had
+passed, starting the election, said to Colonel Manners, "So, sir,
+you have been beat, I hear!"
+
+He meant only his party ; but his person having shared the same
+fate, occasioned a violent shout among the rest at this innocent
+speech, and its innocent answer - for Colonel Man-
+
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+ners, looking only a little surprised, simply said, "Yes, I was
+beat, a little."
+
+"A little, sir?" exclaimed Mr. Fisher, "no, a great deal you were
+shamefully beat--thrashed thoroughly."
+In the midst of a violent second shout, Colonel Manners only
+said, "Well, I always hated all that party, and now I hate them
+worse than ever."
+
+"Ay, that I'll be bound for you," cried Colonel Goldsworthy.
+
+"Yes  for having been so drubbed by them," cried Mr. Fisher.
+
+As I   now, through all his good humour, saw Colonel Manners
+colour a little, I said in a low voice to Mr. Fisher, "Pray is it
+in innocence, or in malice, that you use these terms."
+
+I saw his innocence by his surprise, and I whispered him the
+literal state of all he said; he was quite shocked, and coloured
+in his turn, apologising instantly to Colonel Manners, and
+protesting he had never heard of his personal ill usage, but only
+meant the defeat of his party.
+
+
+             MR. FAIRLY IS DISCUSSED BY HIS BROTHER EQUERRIES.
+Everybody was full of Mr. Fairly's appointment, and spoke of it
+with pleasure.  General Budé had seen him in town, where he had
+remained some days, to take the oaths, I believe, necessary for
+his place.  General Budé has long been intimate with him, and
+spoke of his character exactly as it has appeared to me; and
+Colonel Goldsworthy, who was at Westminster with him, declared he
+believed a better man did not exist.  "This, in particular,"
+cried General Budé, "I must say of Fairly: whatever he thinks
+right he pursues straightforward and I believe there is not a
+sacrifice upon earth that he would not make, rather than turn a
+moment out of the path that he had an opinion it was his duty to
+keep in."
+
+They talked a good deal of his late lady; none of them knew her
+but very slightly, as she was remarkably reserved.  "More than
+reserved," cried General Budé, "she was quite cold.  Yet she
+loved London and public life, and Fairly never had any taste for
+them; in that they were very mal assortis, but in all other
+things very happy."
+
+"Yes," cried Colonel Goldsworthy, "and how shall we give praise
+enough to a man that would be happy himself, and make
+
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+
+his wife so too, for all that difference of opinion ? for it was
+all his management, and good address, and good temper.  I hardly
+know such another man."
+
+General Budé then related many circumstances of his most
+exemplary conduct during the illness of his poor suffering wife,
+and after her loss; everybody, indeed, upon the occasion of this
+new appointment, has broke forth to do justice to his deserving
+it.  Mrs. Ariana Egerton, who came twice to drink tea with me on
+my being sensa Cerbera, told me that her brother-in-law, Colonel
+Masters, who had served with him at Gibraltar, protested there
+was not an officer in the army of a nobler and higher character,
+both professional and personal.
+
+She asked me a thousand questions of what I thought about Miss
+Fuzilier?  She dislikes her so very much, she cannot bear to
+think of her becoming Mrs. Fairly.  She has met with some marks
+of contempt from her in their official meetings at St. James's,
+that cannot be pardoned.  Miss Fuziller, indeed, seemed to me
+formerly, when I used to meet her in company, to have an
+uncertainty of disposition that made her like two persons; now
+haughty, silent, and supercilious--and then gentle, composed, and
+interesting.  She Is, however, very little liked, the worst being
+always what most spreads abroad.
+
+
+BARON TRENCK: MR. TURBULENT"S RAILLERY.
+
+Sept. 1.-Peace to the manes of the poor slaughtered partridges!
+
+I finished this morning the "Memoirs of Baron Trenck," which have
+given me a great deal of entertainment; I mean in the first
+volume, the second containing not more matter than might fill
+four pages.  But the singular hardiness, gallantry, ferocity, and
+ingenuity of this copy of the knights of ancient times, who has
+happened to be born since his proper epoch, have wonderfully
+drawn me on, and I could not rest without finishing his
+adventures.  They are reported to be chiefly of his own
+invention; but I really find an air of self-belief in his
+relations, that inclines me to think he has but narrated what he
+had persuaded himself was true.  His ill-usage is such as to
+raise the utmost indignation in every reader and if it really
+affected his memory and imagination, and became thence the parent
+of some few embellishments and episodes, I can neither wonder nor
+feel the interest of his narrative diminished.
+
+Sept. 2.-Mr. Turbulent was in high rage that I was utterly
+
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+invisible since my return from Cheltenham; he protested he had
+called seven times at my door without gaining admission, and
+never was able to get in but when " Dr.  Shepherd had led the
+way.
+
+He next began a mysterious attack upon the proceedings of
+Cheltenham.  He had heard, he said, strange stories of
+flirtations there.  I could not doubt what he meant, but I would
+not seem to understand him: first, because I know not from whom
+he has been picking up this food for his busy spirit, since no
+one there appeared collecting it for him ; and secondly, because
+I would not degrade an acquaintance which I must hope will prove
+as permanent as it is honourable, by conceiving the word
+flirtation to be possibly connected with it.
+
+By every opportunity, in the course of the day, he renewed this
+obscure raillery; but I never would second it, either by question
+or retort, and therefore it cannot but die away unmeaningly as it
+was born.  Some effect, however, it seems to have had upon him,
+who has withdrawn all his own heroics, while endeavouring to
+develop what I have received elsewhere.
+
+
+                     AMIABLE MRS. SCHWELLENBERG AGAIN.
+
+Sept. 4.-To-day there was a Drawing-room, and I had the blessing
+of my dearest father while it lasted; but not solus; he was
+accompanied by my mother; and my dear Esther and her little
+innocent Sophy spent part of the time with us.  I am to be
+god-mother to the two little ones, Esther's and James's.  Heaven
+bless them!
+
+We returned to Kew to a late dinner; and, indeed, I had one of
+the severest evenings I ever passed, where my heart took no share
+in unkindness and injustice.  I was wearied in the extreme, as I
+always am on these drawing-room days, which begin with full
+hair-dressing at six o'clock in the morning, and hardly ever
+allow any breakfast time, and certainly only standing, except
+while frizzing, till the drawing-room commences; and then two
+journeys in that decked condition--and then another dressing,
+with three dressing attendances--and a dinner at near seven
+o'clock.
+
+Yet, not having power to be very amusing after all this, I was
+sternly asked by Mrs. Schwellenberg, "For what I did not talk?"
+
+I answered simply, "Because I was tired."
+
+"You tired!--what have you done?  when I used to do so much more-
+-you tired! what have you to do but to be happy:
+
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+
+--have you the laces to buy? have you the wardrobe to part? have
+you--you tired? Vell, what will become next, when you have every
+happiness!--you might not be tired.  No, I can't bear It."
+
+This, and so much more than it would be possible to write, all
+uttered with a haughtiness and contempt that the lowest servant
+could not have brooked receiving, awoke me pretty completely,
+though before I was scarce able to keep my eyelids a moment open;
+but so sick I turned, that indeed it was neither patience nor
+effort that enabled me to hear her; I had literally hardly
+strength, mental or bodily, to have answered her.  Every
+happiness mine!--O gracious heaven! thought I, and is this the
+companion of my leisure--the associate of my life!  Ah, my dear
+friends, I will not now go on--I turn sick again.
+
+
+                               A ROYAL JOKE.
+
+Sept. 29.-The birth-day of our lovely eldest princess.
+  It happens to be also the birth-day of Miss Goldsworthy; and
+her majesty, in a sportive humour, bid me, as soon as she
+was dressed, go and bring down the two "Michaelmas geese."
+    I told the message to the Princess Augusta, who repeated It
+in its proper words.  I attended them to the queen's dressing-
+room, and there had the pleasure to see the cadeaux
+presentations.  The birth-days in this house are made extremely
+interesting at the moment, by the reciprocations of presents and
+congratulations in this affectionate family.  Were they but
+attended with less of toil (I hate to add ette, for I am sure it
+is not little toil), I should like them amazingly.
+
+
+                COLONEL GOLDSWORTHY'S BREACH OF ETIQUETTE.
+Mrs. Schwellenberg has become both colder and fiercer.  I cannot
+now even meet her eyes-they are almost terrifying.  Nothing upon
+earth having passed between us, nor the most remote subject of
+offence having occurred, I have only one thing on which to rest
+my conjectures, for the cause of this newly-awakened evil spirit,
+and this is from the gentlemen.  They had all of late been so
+wearied that they could not submit even for a quarter of an hour
+to her society : they had swallowed a dish of tea and quitted the
+room all in five minutes, and Colonel Goldsworthy in particular,
+when without any companion in his waiting, had actually always
+fallen asleep,
+
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+
+even during that short interval, or at least shut his
+eyes, to save himself the toil of speaking.
+
+This she brooked very ill, but I was esteemed innocent, and
+therefore made, occasionally, the confidant of her complaints.
+But lately, that she has been ill, and kept upstairs every night,
+she has always desired me to come to her as soon as tea was over,
+which, she observed, "need not keep me five minutes." On the
+contrary, however, the tea is now at least an hour, and often
+more.
+
+I have been constantly received with reproaches for not coming
+sooner, and compelled to declare I had not been sooner at
+liberty.  This has occasioned a deep and visible resentment, all
+against them, yet vented upon me, not in acknowledged
+displeasure--pride there interfered--but in constant ill-humour,
+ill-breeding, and ill-will.
+
+At length, however, she has broken out into one inquiry, which,
+if favourably answered, might have appeased all; but truth was
+too strongly in the way.  A few evenings after her confinement
+she very gravely said, "Colonel Goldsworthy always sleeps with
+me! sleeps he with you the same?"
+
+In the midst of all my irksome discomfort, it was with difficulty
+I could keep my countenance at this question, which I was forced
+to negative.
+
+The next evening she repeated it.  "Vell, sleeps he yet with you-
+-Colonel Goldsworthy?"
+
+"Not yet, ma'am," I hesitatingly answered.
+
+"O! ver vell! he will sleep with nobody but me!  O, i von't come
+down."
+
+And a little after she added, "I believe he vill marry you."
+
+"I believe not, ma'am," I answered.
+
+And then, very gravely,, she proposed him to me, saying he only
+wanted a little encouragement, for he was always declaring he
+wished for a wife, and yet wanted no fortune-" so for what won't
+you not have him?"
+
+I assured her we were both perfectly well satisfied apart, and
+equally free from any thoughts of each other.
+
+"Then for what," she cried, "won't you have Dr.  Shepherd?"  She
+Is now in the utmost haste to dispose of me! And then she added
+she had been told that Dr.  Shepherd would marry me!
+
+She is an amazing woman ! Alas, I might have told her I knew too
+well what it was to be tied to a companion ill-assorted and
+unbeloved, where I could not help myself, to
+
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+
+make any such experiment as a volunteer!
+
+If she asks me any more about Colonel Goldsworthy and his
+sleeping, I think I will answer I am too near-sighted to be sure
+if he is awake or not!
+
+However, I cannot but take this stroke concerning the table
+extremely ill; for though amongst things of the very least
+consequence in itself, it is more openly designed as an affront
+than any step that has been taken with me yet.
+
+I have given the colonel a hint, however,-that he may keep awake
+in future. . . .
+
+
+                      ILLNESS OF MRS. SCHWELLENBERG.
+
+Oct. 2.-Mrs. Schwellenberg, very ill indeed, took leave of the
+queen at St. James's, to set off for Weymouth, in company with
+Mrs. Hastings.  I was really very sorry for her; she was truly in
+a situation Of suffering, from bodily pain, the most pitiable.  I
+thought, as I looked at her, that if the ill-humours I so often
+experience could relieve her, I would consent to bear them
+unrepining, in preference to seeing or knowing her so ill.  But
+it is just the contrary; spleen and ill-temper only aggravate
+disease, and while they involve others in temporary participation
+of their misery, twine it around themselves in bandages almost
+stationary.  She was civil, too, poor woman.  I suppose when
+absent she could not well tell why she had ever been otherwise.
+
+
+                  GENERAL GRENVILLE'S REGIMENT AT DRILL.
+
+Oct. 9.-I go on now pretty well; and I am so much acquainted with
+my party, that when no strangers are added, I begin to mind
+nothing but the first entree of my male visitants.  My royal
+mistress is all sweetness to me; Miss Planta is most kind and
+friendly; General Budé is ever the same, and ever what I do not
+wish to alter; Colonel Goldsworthy seems coming round to
+good-humour; and even General Grenville begins to grow sociable.
+He has quitted the corner into which he used to cast his long
+figure, merely to yawn and lounge ; and though yawn and lounge he
+does still, and must, I believe, to the end of the chapter, he
+yet does it in society, and mixes between it loud sudden laughter
+at what is occasionally said, and even here and there a question
+relative to what is going forward.  Nay-yesterday he even seated
+himself at the tea
+
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+
+table, and amused himself by playing with my work-box, and making
+sundry inquiries about its contents.
+
+Oct. 10.-This evening, most unwittingly, I put my new neighbour's
+good-humour somewhat to the test.  He asked me whether I had
+walked out in the morning? Yes, I answered, I always walked.
+"And in the Little park?" cried he.  Yes, I said, and to Old
+Windsor, and round the park wall, and along the banks of the
+Thames, and almost to Beaumont Lodge, and in the avenue of the
+Great park, and in short, in all the vicinage of Windsor.  "But
+in the Little park?" he cried.
+
+Still I did not understand him, but plainly answered, "Yes, this
+morning,; and indeed many mornings."
+
+"But did you see nothing--remark nothing there?
+
+No, not that I recollect, except some soldiers drilling."
+You never heard such a laugh as now broke forth from all for,
+alas for my poor eyes, there had been in the Little park General
+Grenville's whole regiment, with all his officers, and himself at
+their head!  Fortunately it is reckoned one of the finest in the
+king's service : this I mentioned, adding that else I could never
+again appear before him.
+
+He affected to be vehemently affronted, but hardly knew how, even
+in joke, to appear so ; and all the rest helped the matter on, by
+saying that they should know now how to distinguish his regiment,
+which henceforth must always be called " the drill."
+
+The truth is, as soon as I perceived a few red-coats I had turned
+another way, to avoid being marched at, and therefore their
+number and splendour had all been thrown away upon me.
+
+(278) "Cerbera" was Fanny's not inappropriate name for
+Mrs. Schwellenberg.-ED.
+
+(279) By William Falconer, born at Edinburgh in 1730.  His poem,
+"The Shipwreck," was suggested by his own experience at sea, and
+was first published in 1762.  Falconer sailed for Bengal in 1769,
+the vessel touched at the Cape in December, and was never heard
+of more.-ED.
+
+(280) In the "European Magazine" for May 1788, appeared an
+article from the pen of Baretti, headed "On Signora Piozzi's
+publication of Dr. Johnson's Letters, Stricture the First."  It
+is filled with coarse, personal abuse of the lady, whom the
+author terms "the frontless female, who goes now by the mean
+appellation of Piozzi."  "Stricture the Second," in the same
+tone, appeared the following month, and the "Third," which closed
+the series, in August of the same year.  In the last number
+Baretti comments, with excessive bitterness, on Mrs. Piozzi's
+second marriage.-ED.
+
+(281) "Original Love-letters between a Lady of Quality and a
+Person of Inferior Station." Dublin, 1784.  Though by no means
+devoid of "nonsense and romance," the little book is not
+altogether undeserving of Colonel Digby's encomium.  The story is
+very slight, and concludes, quite unnecessarily and rather
+unexpectedly, with the death of the gentleman, just as his good
+fortune seems assured.-ED.
+
+(282) Robert Raikes, who was born at Gloucester in 1735, was a
+printer and the son of a printer.  His father was proprietor of
+the "Gloucester journal."  In conjunction with the Rev.  Mr.
+Stocks, Raikes founded the institution of Sunday Schools in 1781.
+He died at Gloucester in 1811.-ED.
+
+(283) "Cui Bono? or, an Inquiry what Benefits can arise either to
+the English or the Americans, the French, Spaniards, or Dutch,
+from the greatest victories, or successes, in the present War,
+being a Series of Letters, addressed to Monsieur Necker, late
+Controller- General of the Finances of France," By Josiah Tucker,
+D.D., published at Gloucester, 1781.  The pamphlet was written in
+the advocacy of a general peace, and attracted much attention.
+The third edition appeared in 1782.-ED,
+
+(284) Fanny alludes to an old adventure of Baretti's.  He was
+accosted in the Haymarket by a prostitute, October 6, 1769.  The
+woman was importunate, and the irritable Italian struck her on
+the hand; upon which three men came up and attacked him.  He then
+drew a dagger in self defence, and mortally wounded one of his
+assailants.  Baretti was tried at the Old Bailey for murder,
+October 20, and acquitted; Johnson, Burke, and Garrick appearing
+as witnesses to his character.-ED.
+
+(285) With all Fanny's partiality for the "sweet queen," the
+evidences of that sweet creature's selfishness keep turning up in
+a very disagreeable manner-ED.
+
+(286)) "The Country Girl," Which is still occasionally performed,
+is an adaptation by Garrick of one of the most brilliant, and
+most indecent, of Restoration comedies--Wycherley's "Country
+Wife." Mrs. Jordan played the part of "Peggy," the "Margery
+Punchwife" of Wycherley's play.  It was in this part that she
+made her first appearance in London, at Drury Lane, October 18,
+1785.  She was one of the most admired actresses of her time.
+Genest, who saw her, writes of her, "As an actress she never had
+a superior in her proper line Mrs. Jordan's Country Girl, Romp,
+Miss Hoyden, and all characters of that description were
+exquisite--in breeches parts no actress can be put in competition
+with her but Mrs. Woffington, and to Mrs. Woffington she was as
+superior in point of voice as Mrs. Woffington was superior to her
+in beauty" (viii. p. 430).  Mrs. Jordan died at St. Cloud, July
+5, 1816, aged fifty.  There is an admirable portrait of her by
+Romney in the character of the "Country Girl."-ED.
+
+(287) See ante, vol. i., p. 151.-ED.
+
+(288) Fanny's cousin, the son of Dr. Burney's brother, Richard
+Burney of Worcester.-ED.
+
+(289) The poem in question is the "Ode to the Evening Star," the
+fifteenth of the first hook of Odes.  Mr. Akenside, having paid
+his tear on fair Olympia's virgin tomb, roams in quest of
+Philomela's bower, and desires the evening star to send its
+golden ray to guide him.  it is pretty, however.  The first
+stanza runs as follows:--
+
+"To night retired, the queen of heaven
+With young Endymion strays;
+And now to Hesper it is given
+Awhile to rule the vacant sky,
+Till she shall to her lamp supply
+A stream of lighter rays."-ED.
+
+(290) Joseph jérome le Français de Lalande, one of the most
+distinguished of French astronomers.  He was born in 1732, and
+died in 1807.-ED.
+
+(291) Silly: insipid.
+
+(292) 'Tis too much honour."
+
+(293) "'Tis very troublesome, but one must say pretty things to
+ladies."
+
+
+
+
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+                               SECTION 14
+                                 (1788-9.)
+
+
+                            THE KING'S ILLNESS.
+
+
+[Fanny's vivid account of the king's illness, from the autumn of
+1788 to the spring of 1789, needs no recommendation to the
+reader.  It requires only to be supplemented by a very brief
+sketch of the consequent proceedings in Parliament, which excited
+so much foolish indignation in the royal household, and in Fanny
+herself.  That she should display more feeling than judgment
+under circumstances so affecting, was, perhaps, only to be
+expected, but it is none the less evident, from certain passages
+in the " Diary, that the tainted Court atmosphere had already
+clouded, to some extent, her naturally clear understanding.  The
+insanity of a sovereign is, to her, a purely private and personal
+matter, with respect to which the only business of the public is
+to offer up prayers for his majesty's speedy recovery.  That
+ministers should take steps to provide for the performance of the
+royal functions in government, during the period of the king's
+incapacity, is an act of effrontery at which she wants words to
+express her indignation.  Mrs. Schwellenberg, who thought it
+treason to say that the King was ever at all indisposed, was
+scarcely more unreasonable in this particular than Miss Fanny
+Burney, who shuddered, with sentimental horror, at the mention of
+a Regency Bill.
+
+About the commencement of November, 1788, there was no longer any
+doubt as to the serious nature of the king's malady.  At the
+meeting of Parliament the prime minister, Mr. Pitt, Moved that a
+committee be appointed to examine the physicians attendant upon
+his majesty.  This motion was agreed to, and on the 10th of
+December the report of the committee was laid upon the table of
+the House.  The physicians agreed that his Majesty was then
+totally incapable of attending to public business.  They agreed
+also in holding Out strong hopes of his ultimate recovery, but
+none of them would venture to give any opinion as to the probable
+duration of his derangement.  Upon this, Mr. Pitt
+
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+
+moved for a committee to examine and report upon such precedents
+as might be found of proceedings in cases of the interruption,
+from any cause, of the personal exercise of the royal authority.
+The motion was strenuously resisted by the opposition, headed by
+Mr. Fox, who argued that whenever the sovereign was incapacitated
+from performing the functions of his office, the heir-apparent,
+if of full age and capacity, had an inalienable right to act as
+his substitute.  This doctrine seems certainly inconsistent with
+the liberal principles professed by the opposition, but it will
+be remembered that at this time the Prince of Wales was
+politically in alliance with that party, and that he was on terms
+of friendship with Mr. Fox himself.  On the other hand, Pitt
+protested that in such circumstances the heir-apparent had no
+more claim to exercise, as a matter of right, the royal
+functions, than any other Subject of the crown ; and that it
+belonged only to the two Houses of Parliament to make such
+provision for supplying the deficiency in the government as they
+should think proper.  As to the person of the Regent there was no
+dispute ; the question was, simply, whether the Prince of Wales
+should assume the Regency in his own right, or by the authority
+of Parliament.
+
+Pitt's motion being carried, the committee was accordingly
+appointed, and proceeded at once to make their examination and
+report.  The prime minister then (December 16) moved two
+resolutions, declaring, firstly, that the king was incapable of
+performing the functions of his office, and, secondly, that it
+was the duty of Parliament to provide for the exercise of those
+functions.  In spite of Fox's opposition both resolutions were
+carried, and a third resolution was moved by Pitt, and passed
+(December 23), empowering the lord chancellor to affix the great
+seal to the intended Regency Bill.
+
+Early in January, 1789, a fresh examination of the physicians Was
+voted, but gave no more definite hopes of an early recovery. Pitt
+now wrote to the Prince of Wales, informing him of the plan
+intended to be pursued : that the prince should be invested with
+the authority of Regent, under certain restrictions, regarding
+especially the granting of peerages, offices, or pensions ; and
+that the care of the king's person and the control of the royal
+household should remain with the queen.  The prince, in reply,
+expressed his readiness to accept the Regency, while protesting
+strongly against the proposed limitations of his authority ; and
+on the 16th of January, a bill, in which the prime ministers
+scheme was embodied, was introduced into the House.  The question
+was actively debated in both Houses, until, in the latter part of
+February, the king's recovery put a stop to further
+proceedings.-ED.]
+
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+                   UNCERTAIN STATE OF THE KING's HEALTH.
+
+Kew, Friday, Oct. 17.-Our return to Windsor is postponed till to-
+morrow.  The king is not well; he has not been quite well some
+time, yet nothing I hope alarming, though there is an uncertainty
+as to his complaint not very satisfactory; so precious, too, is
+his health.
+
+Oct. 18.-The king was this morning better.  My royal mistress
+told me Sir George Baker(294) was to settle whether we returned
+to Windsor to-day or to-morrow.
+
+Sunday, Oct. 19.-The Windsor journey is again postponed, and the
+king is but very indifferent.  Heaven preserve him! there is
+something unspeakably alarming in his smallest indisposition.  I
+am very much with the queen, who, I see, is very uneasy, but she
+talks not of it.
+
+We are to stay here some time longer, and so unprepared were we
+for more than a day or two, that our distresses are prodigious,
+even for clothes to wear; and as to books, there are not three
+amongst us; and for company only Mr. de Luc and Miss Planta; and
+so, in mere desperation for employment, I have just begun a
+tragedy.(295)  We are now in so spiritless a situation that my
+mind would bend to nothing less sad, even in fiction.  But I am
+very glad something of this kind has occurred to me; it may while
+away the tediousness of this unsettled, unoccupied, unpleasant
+period.
+
+Oct. 20.-The king was taken very ill in the night, and we have
+all been cruelly frightened - but it went off, and, thank heaven!
+he is now better.
+
+I had all my morning devoted to receiving inquiring visits.  Lady
+Effingham, Sir George Howard, Lady Frances Howard, all came from
+Stoke to obtain news of the king; his least illness spreads in a
+moment.  Lady Frances Douglas came also.  She is wife of the
+Archibald Douglas who caused the famous Hamilton trial in the
+House of Peers, for his claim to the Douglas name.(296)  She is
+fat, and dunch, and heavy, and ugly; otherwise, they say,
+agreeable enough.
+
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+
+Mr. Turbulent has been sent for, and he enlivens the scene
+somewhat.  He is now all he should be, and so altered ! scarce a
+flight left.
+
+Oct. 21.-The good and excellent king is again better, and we
+expect to remove to Windsor in a day or two.
+
+Oct. 23.-The king continues to mend, thank God!  Saturday we hope
+to return to Windsor.  Had not this composition fit seized me,
+societyless, and bookless, and viewless as I am, I know not how I
+could have whiled away my being; but my tragedy goes on, and
+fills up all vacancies.
+
+Oct. 25.-Yesterday was so much the same, I have not marked it;
+not so to-day.  The king was so much better that our Windsor
+journey at length took place, with permission of Sir George
+Baker, the only physician his majesty will admit.  Miss Cambridge
+was with me to the last moment.
+
+I have been hanging up a darling remembrance of my revered,
+incomparable Mrs. Delany.  Her "Sacharissa" is now over my
+chimney.  I could not at first bear it, but now I look at it, and
+call her back to my eye's mind perpetually.  This, like the
+tragedy I have set about, suits the turn of things in this
+habitation.
+
+I had a sort of conference with his Majesty, or rather I was the
+object to whom he spoke, with a manner so uncommon, that a high
+fever alone could account for it, a rapidity, a hoarseness of
+voice, a volubility, an earnestness--a vehemence, rather--it
+startled me inexpressibly; yet with a graciousness exceeding even
+all I ever met with before--it was almost kindness!
+
+Heaven--Heaven preserve him! The queen grows more
+
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+
+and more uneasy.  She alarms me sometimes for herself, at other
+times she has a sedateness that wonders me still more.
+
+Sunday, Oct. 26-The king was prevailed upon not to go to chapel
+this morning.  I met him in the passage from the queen's room; he
+stopped me, and conversed upon his health near half-an-hour,
+still with that extreme quickness of Speech and manner that
+belongs to fever; and he hardly sleeps, he tells me, one minute
+all night; indeed, if he recovers not his rest, a most delirious
+fever seems to threaten him.  He is all agitation, all emotion,
+yet all benevolence and goodness, even to a degree that makes it
+touching to hear him speak.  He assures everybody of his health;
+he seems only fearful to give uneasiness to others, yet certainly
+he is better than last night.  Nobody speaks of his illness, nor
+what they think of it.
+
+Oct. 29.-The dear and good king again gains ground, and the queen
+becomes easier.
+
+To-day Miss Planta told me she heard Mr. Fairly was confined at
+Sir R- F--'s, and therefore she would now lay any wager he was to
+marry Miss F--.(297)
+
+In the evening I inquired what news of him of General Bude: he
+told me he was still confined at a friend's house, but avoided
+naming where--probably from suggesting that, however little truth
+there may yet have been in the report, more may belong to it from
+this particular intercourse.
+
+
+
+                   THE KING COMPLAINS OF WANT OF SLEEP.
+
+Nov. 1.-Our king does not advance in amendment; he grows so weak
+that he walks like a gouty man, yet has such spirits that he has
+talked away his voice, and is so hoarse it is painful to hear
+him.  The queen is evidently in great uneasiness.  God send him
+better!
+
+She read to me to-day a lecture of Hunter's.  During the reading,
+twice, at pathetic passages, my poor queen shed tears.  "How
+nervous I am?" she cried; "I am quite a fool! Don't you think
+so?"
+
+No, ma'am," was all I dared answer.
+
+She revived, however, finished the lecture, and went upstairs and
+played upon the Princess Augusta's harpsichord.
+
+The king was hunting.  Her anxiety for his return was
+
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+
+greater than ever.  The moment he arrived he sent a page to
+desire to have coffee and take his bark in the queen's dressing-
+room.  She said she would pour it out herself, and sent to
+inquire how he drank it.
+
+The king is very sensible of the great change there is in
+himself, and of her disturbance at it.  It seems, but heaven
+avert it! a threat of a total breaking up of the constitution.
+This, too, seems his own idea.  I was present at his first seeing
+Lady Effingham on his return to Windsor this last time.  "My dear
+Effy," he cried, "you see me, all at once, an old man."
+I was so much affected by this exclamation, that I wished to run
+out of the room.  Yet I could not but recover when Lady
+Effingham, in her well-meaning but literal way, composedly
+answered, "We must all grow old, sir,- -I am sure I do."
+
+He then produced a walking-stick which he had just ordered.  "He
+could not," he said, "get on without it; his strength seemed
+diminishing hourly."
+
+He took the bark, he said But the queen," he cried, "is my
+physician, and no man need have a better; she is my friend, and
+no Man can have a better."
+
+How the queen commanded herself I cannot conceive; but there was
+something so touching in this speech, from his hoarse voice and
+altered countenance, that it overset me very much.
+
+Nor can I ever forget him in what passed this night.  When I came
+to the queen's dressing-room he was still with her.  He
+constantly conducts her to it before he retires to his own.  He
+was begging her not to speak to him when he got to his room, that
+he might fall asleep, as he felt great want of that refreshment.
+He repeated this desire, I believe, at least a hundred times,
+though, far enough from need Ing it, the poor queen never uttered
+one syllable! He then applied to me, saying he was really very
+well, except in that one particular, that he could not sleep.
+
+The kindness and benevolence of his manner all this time was most
+penetrating: he seemed to have no anxiety but to set the queen at
+rest, and no wish but to quiet and give pleasure to all around
+him, To me, he never yet spoke with such excess of benignity: he
+appeared even solicitous to satisfy me that he should do well,
+and to spare all alarm; but there was a hurry in his manner and
+voice that indicated sleep to be
+
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+
+indeed wanted.  Nor could I, all night, forbear foreseeing "He
+sleeps now, or to-morrow he will be surely delirious!"
+
+Sunday, Nov. 2.-The king was better, and prevailed upon to give
+up going to the early prayers.  The queen and princesses went.
+After they were gone, and I was following towards my room, the
+king called after me, and he kept me in discourse a full half
+hour nearly all the time they were away.
+
+It was all to the same purport; that he was well, but wanted more
+rest ; yet he said he had slept the last night like a child.  But
+his manner, still, was so touchingly kind, so softly
+gracious, that it doubled my concern to see him so far from well.
+
+
+                          DISTRESS OF THE QUEEN.
+
+Nov. 3.--We are all here in a most uneasy state.  The king is
+better and worse so frequently, and changes so, daily, backwards
+and forwards, that everything is to be apprehended, if his nerves
+are not some way quieted.  I dreadfully fear he is on the eve of
+some severe fever.  The queen is almost overpowered with some
+secret terror.  I am affected beyond all expression in her
+presence, to see what struggles she makes to support serenity.
+To-day she gave up the conflict when I was alone with her, and
+burst into a violent fit of tears.  It was very, very terrible to
+see!  How did I wish her a Susan or a Fredy!  To unburthen her
+loaded mind would be to relieve it from all but inevitable
+affliction.  O, may heaven in its mercy never, never drive me to
+that solitary anguish more!- I have tried what it would do; I
+speak from bitter recollection of past melancholy experience.
+
+Sometimes she walks up and down the room without uttering a word,
+but shaking her head frequently, and in evident distress and
+irresolution.  She is often closeted with Miss Goldsworthy, of
+whom, I believe, she makes inquiry how her brother has found the
+king, from time to time.
+
+The princes both came to Kew, in several visits to the king.  The
+Duke of York has also been here, and his fond father could hardly
+bear the pleasure of thinking him anxious for his health.  "So
+good," he says "is Frederick!"
+
+To-night, indeed, at tea-time, I felt a great shock, in hearing,
+from General Budé, that Dr, Heberden had been called in.  It is
+true more assistance seemed much wanting, yet the king's rooted
+aversion to physicians makes any new-comer tremen-
+
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+
+dous.  They said, too, it was merely for counsel, not that his
+majesty was worse.
+
+Nov. 4.-Passed much the same as the days preceding it, the queen
+in deep distress, the king in a state almost incomprehensible,
+and all the house uneasy and alarmed.  The Drawing-room was again
+put off, and a steady residence seemed fixed at Windsor.
+
+Nov. 5.-I found my poor royal mistress, in the morning, sad and
+sadder still; something horrible seemed impending, and I saw her
+whole resource was in religion.  We had talked lately much upon
+solemn Subjects, and she appeared already preparing herself to be
+resigned for whatever might happen.
+
+I was still wholly unsuspicious of the greatness of the cause she
+had for dread.  Illness, a breaking up of the constitution, the
+payment of sudden infirmity and premature old age for the waste
+of unguarded health and strength,--these seemed to me the threats
+awaiting her; and great and grievous enough, yet how short of the
+fact!
+
+I had given up my walks some days; I was too uneasy to quit the
+house while the queen remained at home, and she now never left
+it.  Even Lady Effingham, the last two days, could not obtain
+admission; She Could only hear from a page how the royal family
+went on.
+
+At noon the king went out in his chaise, with the princess royal,
+for an airing.  I looked from my window to see him; he was all
+smiling benignity, but gave so many orders to the postilions, and
+got in and out of the carriage twice, with such agitation, that
+again my fear of a great fever hanging over him grew more and
+more powerful.  Alas! how little did I imagine I should see him
+no more for so long--so black a period!
+
+When I went to my poor queen, still worse and worse I found her
+spirits.  She had been greatly offended by some anecdote in a
+newspaper--the "Morning Herald"--relative to the king's
+indisposition.  She declared the printer should be called to
+account.  She bid me burn the paper, and ruminated upon who could
+be employed to represent to the editor that he must answer at his
+peril any further such treasonable paragraphs.  I named to her
+Mr. Fairly, her own servant, and one so peculiarly fitted for any
+office requiring honour and discretion.  "Is he here, then?" she
+cried.  "No," I answered, but he was expected in a few days.
+
+I saw her concurrence with this proposal.  The princess royal
+soon returned.  She came in cheerfully, and gave, in
+
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+
+German, a history of the airing, and one that seemed Comforting.
+Soon after, suddenly arrived the Prince of Wales.  He came into
+the room.- He had just quitted Brighthelmstone.  Something
+passing within seemed to render this meeting awfully distant on
+both sides.  She asked if he should not return to
+Brighthelmstone?         He answered yes, the next day, He
+desired to speak with her          they retired together.
+
+
+                  FIRST OUTBURST OF THE KING's DELIRIUM.
+
+I had but just reached my own room, deeply musing on the state
+of' things, when a chaise stopped at the rails; and I saw Mr.
+Fairly and his son Charles alight, and enter the house.  He
+walked lamely, and seemed not yet recovered from his late attack.
+Though most happy to see him at this alarming time, when I
+knew he could be most useful, as there is no one to whom the
+queen opens so confidentially upon her affairs, I had yet a fresh
+stair to see, by his anticipated arrival, though still lame, that
+he must have been sent for, and hurried hither.
+
+Only Miss Planta dined with me.  We were both nearly silent: I
+was shocked at I scarcely knew what, and she seemed to know too
+much for speech.  She stayed with me till six o'clock, but
+nothing passed, beyond general solicitude that the king might get
+better.
+
+Meanwhile, a stillness the most uncommon reigned over the whole
+house.  Nobody stirred ; not a voice was heard - not a step, not
+a motion.  I could do nothing but watch, without knowing for what
+: there seemed a strangeness in the house most extraordinary.
+
+At seven o'clock     Columb came to tell me that the music was
+all forbid, and      the musicians ordered away !          This
+was the last step to be expected, so fond as his majesty is -of
+his concert, and I thought it might have rather soothed him: I
+could not understand the prohibition; all seemed stranger and
+stranger.
+
+Very late came General Budé.  He looked extremely uncomfortable.
+ Later still came Colonel Goldsworthy: his countenance all gloom,
+and his voice scarce articulating no or yes.  General Grenville
+was gone to town.  General Bud  asked me if I had seen Mr.
+Fairly; and last Of all, at length, he also entered.  How grave
+he looked, how shut up in himself! A silent bow was his only
+salutation
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+
+how changed I thought it,--and how fearful a meeting, SO long
+expected as a solace!
+
+Colonel Goldsworthy was called away: I heard his voice whispering
+some time in the passage, but he did not return.  Various small
+speeches now dropped, by which I found the house was all in
+disturbance, and the king in some strange way worse, and the
+queen taken ill!
+
+At length, General Budé said he would go and see if any one was
+in the music-room.  Mr. Fairly said he thought he had better not
+accompany him, for as he had not yet been seen, his appearance
+might excite fresh emotion.  The general agreed, and went.
+
+We were now alone.  But I could not speak: neither did Mr.
+Fairly.  I worked---I had begun a hassock for my Fredy.  A long
+and serious pause made me almost turn sick with anxious wonder
+and fear, and an inward trembling totally disabled me from asking
+the actual situation of things; if I had not had my work, to
+employ my eyes and hands, I must have left the room to quiet
+myself.
+
+I fancy he penetrated into all this, though, at first, he had
+concluded me informed of everything; but he now, finding me
+silent, began an inquiry whether I was yet acquainted how bad
+all was become, and how ill the king? I really had no utterance
+for very alarm, but my look was probably sufficient; he kindly
+saved me any questions, and related to me the whole of the
+mysterious horror!
+
+O my dear friends, what a history! The king, at dinner, had
+broken forth into positive delirium, which long had been menacing
+all who saw him most closely; and the queen was so overpowered as
+to fall into violent hysterics.  All the princesses were in
+misery, and the Prince of Wales had burst into tears.  No one
+knew what was to follow-- no one could conjecture the event.
+
+He spoke of the poor queen, in terms of the most tender
+compassion; he pitied her, he said, from the bottom of his soul;
+and all her sweet daughters, the lovely princesses--there was no
+knowing to what we might look forward for them all!
+
+I was an almost silent listener ; but, having expressed himself
+very warmly for all the principal sufferers, he kindly, and with
+interest, examined me.  "How," he cried, "are You? Are you
+strong? are you stout? can you go through such scenes as these?
+you do not look much fitted for them."
+
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+"I shall do very well," I cried, "for, at a time such as this, I
+shall surely forget myself utterly.  The queen will be all to me.
+ I shall hardly, I think, feel myself at liberty to be unhappy!"
+. . .
+
+
+
+                             AN ANXIOUS NIGHT.
+
+Mr. Fairly stayed with me all the evening, during which we heard
+no voice, no sound! all was deadly still!
+
+At ten o'clock I said, " I must go to my own room, to be in
+waiting." He determined upon remaining downstairs, in the
+equerries' apartment, there to wait some intelligence.  We parted
+in mutual expectation of dreadful tidings.  In separating, he
+took my hand, and earnestly recommended me to keep myself stout
+and firm.
+
+If this beginning of the night was affecting, what did it not
+grow afterwards Two long hours I waited-alone, in silence, in
+ignorance, in dread! I thought they would never be over; at
+twelve o'clock I seemed to have spent two whole days in waiting.
+I then opened my door, to listen, in the passage, if anything
+seemed stirring.
+Not a sound could I hear.  My apartment seemed wholly separated
+from life and motion.  Whoever was in the house kept at the other
+end, and not even a servant crossed the stairs or passage by my
+rooms.
+
+I would fain have crept on myself, anywhere in the world, for
+some inquiry, or to see but a face, and hear a voice, but I did
+not dare risk losing a sudden summons.  I re-entered my room and
+there passed another endless hour, in conjectures too horrible to
+relate.
+
+A little after one, I heard a step--my door opened--and a page
+said I must come to the queen.  I could hardly get along--hardly
+force myself into the room.  dizzy I felt, almost to falling.
+But, the first shock passed, I became more collected.  Useful,
+indeed, proved the previous lesson of the evening : it had
+stilled, If not fortified my mind, which had else, in a scene
+Such is this, been all tumult and emotion.
+
+My poor royal mistress! never can I forget her countenance--pale,
+ghastly pale she looked; she was seated to be undressed, and
+attended by Lady Elizabeth Waldegrave and Miss Goldsworthy ; her
+whole frame was disordered, yet she was still and quiet.  These
+two ladies assisted me to undress her, or rather I assisted them,
+for they were firmer, from being
+
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+
+longer present; my shaking hands and blinded eyes could scarce be
+of any use.  I gave her some camphor julep, which had been
+ordered her by Sir George Baker.  "How cold I am!" she cried, and
+put her hand on mine; marble it felt! and went to my heart's
+core!
+
+The king, at the instance of Sir George Baker, had consented to
+sleep in the next apartment, as the queen was ill.  For himself,
+he would listen to nothing.  Accordingly, a bed was put up for
+him, by his own order, in the queen's second dressing-room,
+immediately adjoining to the bed-room.  He would not be further
+removed.  Miss Goldsworthy was to sit up with her, by the king's
+direction.
+
+I would fain have remained in the little dressing-room, on the
+other side the bed-room, but she would not permit it.  She
+ordered Sandys, her wardrobe-woman, in the place of Mrs.
+Thielky, to sit up there.  Lady Elizabeth also pressed to stay;
+but we were desired to go to our own rooms.
+
+How reluctantly did I come away ! how hardly to myself leave her!
+Yet I went to bed, determined to preserve my strength to the
+utmost of my ability, for the service of my unhappy mistress.  I
+could not, however, sleep. I do not suppose an eye was closed in
+the house all night.
+
+Nov. 6.-I rose at six, dressed in haste by candle-light, and
+unable to wait for my summons in a suspense so awful, I stole
+along the passage in the dark, a thick fog intercepting all faint
+light, to see if I could meet with Sandys, or any one, to tell me
+how the night had passed.
+
+When I came to the little dressing-room, I stopped, irresolute
+what to do.  I heard men's voices; I was seized with the most
+cruel alarm at such a sound in her majesty's dressing-room.  I
+waited some time, and then the door opened, and I saw Colonel
+Goldsworthy and Mr. Batterscomb.(298)  I was relieved from my
+first apprehension, yet shocked enough to see them there at this
+early hour.  They had both sat up there all night, as well as
+Sandys.  Every page, both of the king and queen, had also sat up,
+dispersed in the passages and ante-rooms! and O what horror in
+every face I met! I waited here, amongst them, till Sandys was
+ordered by the queen to carry her a pair of gloves.  I could not
+resist
+
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+
+the opportunity to venture myself before her.  I glided into the
+room, but stopped at the door: she was in bed, sitting up; Miss
+Goldsworthy was on a stool by her side! I feared approaching
+without permission, yet could not prevail with myself to retreat.
+ She was looking down, and did not see me.  Miss Goldsworthy,
+turning round, said, "'Tis Miss Burney, ma'am."
+
+She leaned her head forward, and in a most soft manner, said,
+"Miss Burney, how are you?"
+
+Deeply affected, I hastened up to her, but, in trying to speak,
+burst into an irresistible torrent of tears.
+
+My dearest friends, I do it at this moment again, and can hardly
+write for them; yet I wish you to know all this piercing history
+right.
+
+She looked like death--colourless and wan; but nature is
+infectious; the tears gushed from her own eyes, and a perfect
+agony of weeping ensued, which, once begun, she could not stop;
+she did not, indeed, try; for when it subsided, and she wiped her
+eyes, she said, "I thank you, Miss Burney--you have made me cry--
+it is a great relief to me--I had not been able to cry before,
+all this night long." O, what a scene followed! what a scene was
+related! The king, in the middle of the night, had insisted upon
+seeing if his queen was not removed from the house and he had
+come into her room, with a candle in his hand, opened the bed-
+curtains, and satisfied himself she was there, and Miss
+Goldsworthy by her side.  This observance of his directions had
+much soothed him; but he stayed a full half hour, and the depth
+of terror during that time no words can paint.  The fear of such
+another entrance was now so strongly upon the nerves of the poor
+queen, that she could hardly support herself.
+
+
+                      THE KING'S DELIRIOUS CONDITION.
+
+The king-the royal sufferer-was still in the next room, attended
+by Sir George Baker and Dr. Heberden, and his pages, with Colonel
+Goldsworthy occasionally, and as he called for him. He kept
+talking unceasingly; his voice was so lost in hoarseness and
+weakness, it was rendered almost inarticulate; but its tone was
+still all benevolence--all kindness--all touching graciousness.
+
+It was thought advisable the queen should not rise, lest the king
+should be offended that she did not go to him; at present
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+
+he was content, because he conceived her to be nursing for her
+illness.
+
+But what a situation for her!  She would not let me leave her
+now; she made me remain In the room, and ordered me to sit down.
+I was too trembling to refuse.  Lady Elizabeth soon joined us.
+We all three stayed with her; she frequently bid me listen, to
+hear what the king was saying or doing.  I did, and carried the
+best accounts I could manage, without deviating from truth,
+except by some omissions.  Nothing could be so afflicting as this
+task; even now, it brings fresh to my ear his poor exhausted
+voice.  "I am nervous," he cried; "I am not ill, but I am
+nervous: if you would know what is the matter with me, I am
+nervous.  But I love you both very well; if you would tell me
+truth: I love Dr. Heberden best, for he has not told me a lie:
+Sir George has told me a lie--a white lie, he says, but I hate a
+white lie.  If you will tell me a lie, let it be a black lie!"
+
+This was what he kept saying almost constantly, mixed in with
+other matter, but always returning, and in a voice that truly
+will never cease vibrating in my recollection.
+
+The queen permitted me to make her breakfast and attend her, and
+was so affectingly kind and gentle in her distress, that I felt a
+tenderness of sorrow for her that almost devoted my whole mind to
+her alone! Miss Goldsworthy was a fixture at her side; I,
+therefore, provided her breakfast also.
+
+Lady Elizabeth was sent out on inquiries of Colonel Goldsworthy,
+and Mr. Batterscomb, and the pages, every ten minutes; while I,
+at the same intervals, was ordered to listen to what passed in
+the room, and give warning if anything seemed to threaten another
+entrance. . .     .
+
+The queen bid me bring the prayer book and read the morning
+service to her.  I could hardly do it, the poor voice from the
+next room was so perpetually in my ears.
+
+When I came to my room, about twelve o'clock, for some breakfast,
+I found a letter from Lady Carmarthen.  It was an answer to my
+congratulation upon her marriage, and written with honest
+happiness and delight.  She frankly calls herself the luckiest of
+all God's creatures ; and this, if not elegant, is sincere, and I
+hope will be permanently her opinion.
+
+While swallowing my breakfast, standing and in haste, and the
+door ajar, I heard Mr. Fairly's voice, saying, "Is Miss Burney
+there? is she alone?" and then he sent in Columb, to inquire if
+he might come and ask me how I did.
+
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+I received him with as much gladness as I could then feel, but it
+was a melancholy reception.  I consulted with him upon many
+points in which I wanted counsel : he is quick and deep at once
+in expedients where anything, is to be done, and simple and clear
+in explaining himself where he thinks it is best to do nothing.
+Miss Goldsworthy herself had once stolen out to Consult with him.
+He became, indeed, for all who belonged to the queen, from this
+moment the oracle.
+
+
+                    THE KING REFUSES TO SEE DR. WARREN.
+
+Dr. Warren(299) had been sent for express, in the middle of the
+night, at the desire of Sir George Baker, because he had been
+taken ill himself, and felt unequal to the whole toll.
+
+I returned speedily to the room of woe.  The arrival of the
+physicians was there grievously awaited, for Dr.  Heberden and
+Sir George would now decide upon nothing till Dr. Warren came.
+The poor queen wanted something very positive to pass, relative
+to her keeping away, which seemed thought essential at this time,
+though the courage to assert it was wanting In everybody.
+
+The princesses sent to ask leave to come to their mother.  She
+burst into tears, and declared she could neither see them, nor
+pray, while in this dreadful situation, expecting every moment to
+be broken in upon, and quite uncertain in what manner, yet
+determined not to desert her apartment, except by express
+direction from the physicians.  Who could tell to what height the
+delirium might rise? There was no constraint, no power: all
+feared the worst, yet none dared take any measures for security.
+
+The princes also sent word they were at her majesty's command,
+but she shrunk still more from this Interview: it filled her with
+a thousand dreadful sensations, too obvious to be wholly hid.
+
+At length news was brought that Dr. Warren was arrived.  I never
+felt so rejoiced: I could have run out to welcome him with
+rapture.  With what cruel impatience did we then wait to hear his
+sentence! An impatience how fruitless!  It ended in information
+that he had not seen the king, who refused him admittance.
+
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+
+This was terrible.  But the king was never so despotic; no one
+dared oppose him.  He would not listen to a word, though, when
+unopposed, he was still all gentleness and benignity to every one
+around him.  Dr. Warren was then planted where he could hear his
+voice, and all that passed, and receive Intelligence concerning
+his pulse, etc., from Sir George Baker.
+
+
+
+            THE QUEEN'S ANXIETY TO HEAR DR. WARREN'S OPINION.
+We now expected every moment Dr. Warren would bring her majesty
+his opinion ; but he neither came nor sent.  She waited in dread
+incessant.  She sent for Sir George--he would not speak alone:
+she sent for Mr. Hawkins, the household surgeon; but all referred
+to Dr. Warren.
+
+Lady Elizabeth and Miss Goldsworthy earnestly pressed her to
+remove to a more distant apartment, where he might not hear the
+unceasing voice of the unhappy king ; but she would only rise and
+go to the 'little dressing-room, there to wait in her
+night-clothes Dr. Warren's determination what step she should
+take.
+
+At length Lady Elizabeth learnt among the pages that Dr. Warren
+had quitted his post of watching.  The poor queen now, in a
+torrent of tears, prepared herself for seeing him.
+
+He came not.
+
+All astonished and impatient, Lady Elizabeth was sent out on
+inquiries.  She returned, and said Dr. Warren was gone.
+
+"Run! stop him!" was the queen's next order.  "Let him but let me
+know what I am to do."
+
+Poor, poor queen! how I wept to hear those words!
+
+Abashed and distressed, poor Lady Elizabeth returned.  She had
+seen Colonel Goldsworthy, and heard Dr. Warren, -with the other
+two physicians, had left the house too far to be recalled they
+were gone over to the Castle, to the Prince of Wales.
+
+I think a deeper blow I have never witnessed.  Already to become
+but second, even for the king! The tears were now wiped;
+indignation arose, with pain, the severest pain, of every
+species.
+
+
+              THE QUEEN REMOVES TO MORE DISTANT APARTMENTS.
+In about a quarter of an hour Colonel Goldsworthy sent in to beg
+an audience.  It was granted, a long cloak only being thrown over
+the queen.  He now brought the opinion of all the physicians in
+consultation, " That her majesty would re-
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+
+move to a more distant apartment, since the king would
+undoubtedly be worse from the agitation of seeing her, and there
+Could be no possibility to prevent it while she remained so
+near."
+
+She instantly agreed, but with what bitter anguish!  Lady
+Elizabeth, Miss Goldsworthy, and myself attended her; she went to
+an apartment in the same row, but to which there Was no entrance
+except by its own door.  It consisted of only two rooms, a
+bed-chamber and a dressing-room.  They are appropriated to the
+lady-in-waiting, when she is here.
+
+At the entrance into this new habitation the poor wretched queen
+once more gave way to a perfect agony of grief and affliction;
+while the words "What will become of me!  What will become of me
+! " uttered with the most piercing lamentation, struck deep and
+hard into all our hearts.  Never can I forget their desponding
+sound ; they implied such complicated apprehensions.
+
+Instantly now the princesses were sent for.  The three elder
+hastened down.  O, what a meeting!  They all, from a habit that
+has become a second nature, struggling to repress all outward
+grief, though the queen herself, wholly overcome, wept even
+aloud.  They all went into the bedroom, and the queen made a
+slight dressing, but only wore a close gauze cap, and her long
+dressing gown, which is a dimity chemise.
+
+I was then sent back to the little dressing-room, for something
+that was left; as I opened the door, I almost ran against a
+gentleman close to it in the passage.
+
+"Is the queen here?" he cried, and I then saw the Prince of
+Wales.
+
+"Yes," I answered, shuddering at this new scene for her "should I
+tell her majesty your royal highness is here?"
+
+This I said lest he should surprise her.  But he did not intend
+that: he was profoundly respectful, and consented to wait at the
+door while I went in, but called me back, as I turned away, to
+add, "You will be so good to say I am come by her orders."
+
+She wept a deluge of tears when I delivered my commission, but
+instantly admitted him.  I then retreated.  The other two ladies
+went to Lady Elizabeth's room, which is next the queen's new
+apartments.
+
+In the passage I was again stopped; it was by Mr. Fairly.  I
+would have hurried on, scarce able to speak, but he desired to
+know how the queen did.  "Very bad," was all I could say,
+
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+and on I hastened to my own room, which, the next minute, I would
+as eagerly have hastened to quit, from its distance from all that
+was going forward ; but now once the prince had entered the
+queen's rooms, I could go thither no more unsummoned.
+
+Miserable, lonely, and filled with dreadful conjectures, I
+remained here till a very late dinner brought Miss Planta to the
+dining-parlour, where I joined her.  After a short and dismal
+meal we immediately parted : she to wait in the apartments of the
+princesses above-stairs, in case of being wanted; I to my own
+solitary parlour.
+
+The Prince of Wales and Duke of York stayed here all the day, and
+were so often in and out of the queen's rooms that no one could
+enter them but by order.  The same etiquette is observed when the
+princes are with the queen as when the king is there-no
+interruption whatever is made.  I now, therefore, lost my only
+consolation at this calamitous time, that of attending my poor
+royal mistress.
+
+
+                         A VISIT FROM MR. FAIRLY.
+
+Alone wholly, without seeing a human being, or gathering any, the
+smallest intelligence of what was going forwards, I remained till
+tea-time.  Impatient then for information, I planted myself in
+the eating-parlour; but no one came.  Every minute seemed an
+hour.  I grew as anxious for the tea society as heretofore I had
+been anxious to escape it; but so late it grew, and so hopeless,
+that Columb came to propose bringing in the water.
+
+No; for I could swallow nothing voluntarily.
+
+In a few minutes he came again, and with the compliments of Mr.
+Fairly, who desired him to tell me he would wait Upon me to tea
+whenever I pleased.
+
+A little surprised at this single message, but most truly
+rejoiced, I returned my compliments, with an assurance that all
+time was the same to me.  He came directly, and indeed his very
+sight, at this season of still horror and silent suspense, was a
+repose to my poor aching eyes.
+
+"You will see," he said, "nobody else.  The physicians being now
+here, Colonel Goldsworthy thought it right to order tea for the
+whole party in the music-room, which we have now agreed to make
+the general waiting-room for us all.  It is near the king, and we
+ought always to be at hand."
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+
+Our tea was very sad.  He gave me no hope Of a short seizure ; he
+saw it, in perspective, as long as it was dreadful : perhaps even
+worse than long, he thought it--but that he said not.  He related
+to me the whole of the day's transactions, but my most dear and
+most honourable friends will be the first to forgive me when I
+promise that I shall commit nothing to paper on this terrible
+event that is told me in confidence.
+
+He did not stay long--he did not think it right to leave his
+waiting friends for any time, nor could I wish it, valued as I
+know he is by them all, and much as they need his able counsel.
+He left me plunged in a deep gloom, yet he was not gloomy
+himself; he sees evils as things of course, and bears them,
+therefore, as things expected.  But he was tenderly touched for
+the poor queen and the princesses.
+
+
+                        THE KING'S NIGHT WATCHERS.
+
+Not till one in the morning did I see another face, and then I
+attended my poor unhappy queen.  She was now fixed in her new
+apartments, bed-room and dressing-room, and stirred not a step
+but from one to the other.  Fortunately all are upon the
+ground-floor, both for king and queen; so are the two Lady
+Waldegraves' and mine; the princesses and Miss Planta, as usual,
+are upstairs, and the gentlemen lodge above them.
+
+Miss Goldsworthy had now a bed put up in the queen's new
+bed-room.  She had by no means health to go on sitting up, and it
+had been the poor king's own direction that she should remain
+with the queen.  It was settled that Mrs. Sandys and Mrs.
+Macenton should alternately sit up in the dressing-room.
+
+The queen would not permit me to take that office, though most
+gladly I would have taken any that would have kept me about her.
+But she does; not think my strength sufficient. She allowed me
+however to stay with her till she was in bed, which I had never
+done till now; I never, indeed, had even seen her in her bed-room
+till the day before.  She has always had the kindness and
+delicacy, to dismiss me from her dressing-room as soon as I have
+assisted her with her night-clothes; the wardrobe-woman then was
+summoned, and I regularly
+made my courtesy.  it was a satisfaction to me, however, now to
+leave her the last, and to come to her the first.
+
+Her present dressing-room is also her dining-room, her
+
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+
+drawing-room, her sitting-room; she has nothing else but her
+bed-room!
+
+I left her with my fervent prayers for better times, and saw her
+nearer to composure than I had believed possible in such a
+calamity.  She called to her aid her religion, and without it
+what, indeed, must have become of her? It was near two in the
+morning when I quitted her.
+
+In passing through the dressing-room to come away, I found Miss
+Goldsworthy in some distress how to execute a commission of the
+queen's: it was to her brother, who was to sit up in a room
+adjoining to the king's ; and she was undressed, and knew not how
+to go to him, as the princes were to and fro everywhere.  I
+offered to call him to her she thankfully accepted the proposal.
+I cared not, just then, whom I encountered, so I could make
+myself of any use.
+
+When I gently opened the door of the apartment to which I was
+directed, I found it was quite filled with gentlemen and
+attendants, arranged round it on chairs and sofas in dead
+silence.  It was a dreadful start, with which I retreated; for
+anything more alarming and shocking could not be conceived! the
+poor king within another door, unconscious any one was near him,
+and thus watched, by dread necessity, at such an hour of the
+night!  I pronounced the words "Colonel Goldsworthy," however,
+before I drew back, though I could not distinguish one gentleman
+from another, except the two princes, by their stars.
+
+I waited in the next room; but instead of Colonel Goldsworthy, my
+call was answered by Mr. Fairly.  I acquainted him with my
+errand.  He told me he had himself insisted that Colonel
+Goldsworthy should go to bed, as he had sat up all the preceding
+night and he had undertaken to supply his place.
+
+I went back to Miss Goldsworthy with this account.  She begged me
+to entreat Mr. Fairly would come to her, as she must now make the
+commission devolve on him, and could less than ever appear,
+herself, as they were all assembled in such a party.
+
+Mr. Fairly, most considerately, had remained in this quiet room
+to see if anything more might be wanted, which spared me the
+distress of again intruding into the public room.  I begged him
+to follow, and we were proceeding to the dressing-room, when I
+was stopped by a gentleman, who said, "Does the queen want
+anybody?"
+
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+
+It was the Prince of Wales.  "Not the queen, sir," I answered, "
+but Miss Goldsworthy, has desired to see Mr. Fairly."
+
+He let me pass, but stopped Mr. Fairly; and, as he seemed
+inclined to detain him some time, I only told Miss Goldsworthy
+what had retarded him, and made off to my own room, and soon
+after two o'clock, I believe, I was in bed.
+
+
+                     A CHANGE IN MISS BURNEYs DUTIES.
+
+Friday, Nov. 7.-I was now arrived at a sort of settled regularity
+of life more melancholy than can possibly be described.  I rose
+at six, dressed, and hastened to the queen's apartments,
+uncalled, and there waited in silence and in the dark till I
+heard her move or speak with Miss Goldsworthy, and then presented
+myself to the sad bedside of the unhappy queen.  She sent Miss
+Goldsworthy early every morning, to make inquiry what sort of
+night his majesty had passed; and in the middle of the night she
+commonly Also sent for news by the wardrobe-woman, or Miss
+Macenton, whichever sat up.
+
+She dismissed Miss Goldsworthy, on my arrival, to dress herself.
+Lady Elizabeth Waldegrave accommodated her with her own room for
+that purpose.  I had then a long conference with this most
+patient sufferer - and equal forbearance and quietness during a
+period of suspensive unhappiness never have I seen, never could I
+have imagined.
+
+At noon now I never saw her, which I greatly regretted but she
+kept on her dressing-gown all day, and the princes were
+continually about the passages, so that no one unsummoned dared
+approach the queen's apartments.  It was only therefore at night
+and morning I could see her - but my heart was with her the
+livelong day.  And how long, good heaven! how long that day
+became!  Endless I used to think it, for
+nothing could I do--to wait and to watch--starting at every
+sound, yet revived by every noise.
+
+                 MR. FAIRLY SUCCEEDS IN SOOTHING THE KING.
+While I was yet with my poor royal sufferer this morning the
+Prince of Wales came hastily into the room.  He apologized for
+his intrusion, and then gave a very energetic history of the
+preceding night.  It had been indeed most affectingly dreadful !
+The king had risen in the middle of the night, and
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+
+would take no denial to walking into the next room.  There he saw
+the large congress I have mentioned : amazed and in
+consternation, he demanded what they did there--Much followed
+that I have heard since, particularly the warmest éloge on his
+dear son Frederick--his favourite, his friend.  "Yes," he cried,
+"Frederick is my friend!" and this son was then present amongst
+the rest, but not seen!
+
+Sir George Baker was there, and was privately exhorted by the
+gentlemen
+
+to lead        the king back to his room; but he had not courage:
+he attempted only to speak, and the king penned him in a corner,
+told him he was a mere old woman--that he wondered he had ever
+followed his advice, for he knew nothing of his complaint, which
+was only nervous!
+
+The Prince of Wales, by signs and whispers, would have urged
+others to have drawn him away, but no one dared approach him, and
+he remained there a considerable time.  "Nor do I know when he
+would have been got back," continued the prince, "if at last Mr.
+Fairly had not undertaken him.      I am extremely obliged to Mr.
+Fairly indeed. He came boldly up to him, and took him by the arm,
+and begged him to go to bed, and then drew him along,      and
+said he must go. Then he said he would not, and cried    'Who are
+you?'  'I am Mr. Fairly, sir,' he answered, 'and your majesty has
+been very good to me often, and now I am going to be very good to
+you, for you must come to bed, sir: it is necessary to your
+life.' And then he was so surprised,      that he let himself be
+drawn along just like a child; and so they got him to bed. I
+believe else he would have stayed all night.
+
+Mr. Fairly has had some melancholy experience in a case of this
+sort, with a very near connexion of his own.       How fortunate
+he was present!
+
+
+                             NEW ARRANGEMENTS.
+
+At noon I had the most sad pleasure of receiving Mr. and Mrs.
+Smelt. They had heard in York of the illness of the king, and had
+travelled -post to Windsor. Poor worthy, excellent couple!--Ill
+and infirm, what did they not suffer from an attack like this--so
+wonderfully unexpected upon a patron so adored!
+
+They wished the queen to be acquainted with their arrival, yet
+would not let me risk meeting the princes in carrying the news.
+Mr. Smelt I saw languished to see his king: he was
+
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+
+persuaded he might now repay a part of former benefits, and he
+wished to be made his page during his illness, that he might
+watch and attend him hourly.
+
+I had had a message in the morning by Mr. Gorton, the clerk of
+the kitchen, to tell me the Prince of Wales wished our
+dining-parlour to be appropriated to the physicians, both for
+their dinner and their consultations.  I was therefore obliged to
+order dinner for Miss Planta, and myself in my own
+Sitting-parlour, which was now unmaterial, as the equerries did
+not come to tea, but continued +altogether in the music-room.
+
+In the evening, of course, came Mr. Fairly, but then it was only
+to let me know it would be of course no longer.  He then rang the
+bell for my tea-urn, finding I had waited, though he 0 declined
+drinking tea with me; but he sat down, and staved half an hour,
+telling me the long story he had promised which Was a full detail
+of the terrible preceding night.  The transactions of the day
+also he related to me, and the designs for the future.  How
+alarming were they all!  yet many particulars, he said, he
+omitted, merely because they were yet more affecting, and could
+be dwelt upon to no purpose.
+
+
+                     THE PRINCESS AUGUSTA'S BIRTHDAY.
+
+Saturday, Nov. 8-This was, if possible, the saddest day yet
+passed: it was the birthday of Princess Augusta, and Mrs. Siddons
+had been invited to read a play, and a large party of company to
+form the audience.  What a contrast from such an intention was
+the event!
+
+When I went, before seven o'clock in the morning, to my most
+unhappy royal mistress, the princes were both in the room.  I
+retreated to the next apartment till they had finished their
+conference.  The Prince of Wales upon these occasions has always
+been extremely well-bred and condescending in his manner, which,
+in a situation such as mine, is no immaterial circumstance.
+
+The poor queen then spoke to me of the birthday present she had
+designed for her most amiable daughter.  She hesitated a little
+whether or not to produce it, but at length meekly said, "Yes, go
+to Miss Planta and bring it.  Do you think there can be any harm
+in giving it now?"
+
+"O, no!" I said, happy to encourage whatever was a little less
+gloomy, and upstairs I flew.  I was met by all the poor
+princesses and the Duke of York, who inquired if he might go
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+
+again to the queen.  I begged leave first to execute my
+commission.  I did; but so engrossed was my mind with the whole
+of this living tragedy, that I so little noticed what it was I
+carried as to be now unable to recollect it.  I gave it, however,
+to the queen, who then sent for the princesses, and carried her
+gift to her daughter, weeping, who received it with a silent
+courtesy, kissing and wetting with her gentle tears the hand of
+her afflicted mother.
+
+
+            STRANGE BEHAVIOUR OF THE FIRST GENTLEMAN IN EUROPE.
+During my mournful breakfast poor Mr. Smelt arrived from Kew,
+where he had now settled himself.  Mr. de Luc also joined us, and
+they could neither prevail upon themselves to go away all the
+morning.  Mr. Smelt had some thoughts of taking up his abode in
+Windsor till the state of things should be more decisive.  The
+accounts of the preceding night had been most cruel, and to quit
+the spot was scarce supportable to him.  Yet he feared the
+princes might disapprove his stay, and he well knew his influence
+and welcome at Court was all confined to the sick-room: thence,
+there could now issue no mandate.
+
+Yet I encouraged him to stay; so did Mr. de Luc; and while he was
+still wavering he saw Dr. Warren in the courtyard, and again
+hastened to speak with him.  Before he returned the Prince of
+Wales went out and met him; and you may imagine how much I was
+pleased to observe from the window that he took him by the arm,
+and walked up and down with him.
+
+When he came to us he said the prince had told him he had better
+stay, that he might see the queen. He determined, therefore, to
+send off an express to Mrs. Smelt, and go and secure an apartment
+at the inn.  This was very soothing to me, who so much needed
+just such consolation as he could bestow - and I begged he would
+come back to dinner, and spend the whole day in my room, during
+his stay.
+
+What, however, was my concern and amaze, when, soon after,
+hastily returning, he desired to speak to me alone, and, as Mr.
+de Luc moved off, told me he was going back immediately to Kew!
+He spoke with a tremor that alarmed me. I entreated to know why
+such a change?  He then informed
+me that the porter, Mr. Humphreys, had refused him re-entrance,
+and sent him his great coat ! He had resented this
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+
+impertinence, and was told it was by the express order of the
+prince!  In utter astonishment he then only desired admittance
+for one moment to my room, and having acquainted me with this
+circumstance, he hurried off, in a state of distress, and
+indignation that left me penetrated with both.
+
+>From this time, as the poor king grew worse, general hope seemed
+universally to abate; and the Prince of Wales now took the
+government of the house into his own hands.  Nothing was done but
+by his orders, and he was applied to in every difficulty.  The
+queen interfered not in anything - she lived entirely in her two
+new rooms, and spent the whole day in patient sorrow and
+retirement with her daughters.
+
+
+
+                        STRINGENT NEW REGULATIONS.
+
+The next news that reached me, through Mr. de Luc, was, that the
+prince had sent his commands to the porter, to admit only four
+persons into the house on any pretence whatever these were Mr.
+Majendie, Mr. Turbulent, General Harcourt, and Mr. de Luc
+himself; and these were ordered to repair immediately to the
+equerry-room below stairs, while no one whatsoever was to be
+allowed to go to any other apartment.
+
+>From this time commenced a total banishment from all intercourse
+out of the house, and an unremitting confinement within its
+walls.
+
+Poor Mr. de Luc, however, could not forego coming to my room.  He
+determined to risk that, since he was upon the list of those who
+might enter the house.  I was glad, because he is a truly good
+man, and our sentiments upon this whole melancholy business were
+the same.  But otherwise, the weariness of a great length of
+visit daily from a person so slow and methodical in discourse, so
+explanatory of everything and of nothing, at this agitating
+period, was truly painful to endure.  He has often talked to me
+till my poor burthened head has seemed lost to all understanding.
+
+I had now, all tea-meetings being over, no means of gaining any
+particulars of what was passing, which added so much to the
+horror of the situation, that by the evening I was almost
+petrified.  Imagine, then, alike my surprise and satisfaction at
+a visit from Mr. Fairly.  He had never come to me so
+unexpectedly.  I eagerly begged an account of what was going on,
+and, with his usual readiness and accuracy, he gave it me in full
+detail.  And nothing could be more tragic than all the
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+particulars every species of evil seemed now hanging over this
+unhappy family.
+
+He had had his son with him in his room upstairs; "And I had a
+good mind," he said, "to have brought him to visit YOU."
+
+I assured him he would have been a very welcome guest; and when
+he added that he could no longer have him at the Equerry table to
+dinner, as the Prince of Wales now presided there, I invited him
+for the next day to mine.
+
+He not only instantly accepted the proposal, but cried, with
+great vivacity, "I wish you would invite me too."
+
+I thought he was laughing, but said, "Certainly, if such a thing
+might be allowed;" and then, to my almost speechless surprise, he
+declared, If I would give him permission, he would dine with me
+next day.
+He then proceeded to say that the hurry, and fatigue, and violent
+animal spirits of the other table quite overpowered him, and a
+respite of such a quiet sort would be of essential service to
+him.  Yet he paused a little afterwards, upon the propriety of
+leaving the Prince of Wales's table, and said "He would first
+consult with General Budé, and hear his opinion."
+Sunday, Nov. 9.-No one went to church - not a creature now quits
+the house: but I believe devotion never less required the aid and
+influence of public worship.  For me, I know, I spent almost my
+whole time between prayer and watching.  Even my melancholy
+resource, my tragedy, was now thrown aside ; misery so actual,
+living, and present, was knit too closely around me to allow my
+depressed imagination to fancy any woe beyond what my heart felt.
+
+In coming early from the queen's apartment this morning I was
+addressed by a gentleman who inquired how I did, by my name; but
+my bewilderment made him obliged to tell his own before I could
+recollect him.  It was Dr. Warren.
+
+I eagerly expressed my hopes and satisfaction in his attendance
+upon the poor king, but he would not enter upon that subject.  I
+suppose he feared, from my zeal, some indiscreet questions
+concerning his opinion of the case; for he passed by all I could
+start, to answer only with speeches relative to myself-of his
+disappointment in never meeting me, though residing under the
+same roof, his surprise in not dining with me when told he was to
+dine in my room, and the strangeness of never seeing me when so
+frequently he heard my name.
+
+I could not bring myself to ask him to my apartment, when
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+I saw, by his whole manner, e held it imprudent to speak with me
+about the only subject on which I wished to talk--the king; and
+just then seeing the Duke of York advancing, I hastily retreated.
+
+While I was dressing, Mr. Fairly rapped at my door.  I sent out
+Goter, who brought me his compliments, and, if it would not be
+inconvenient to me, he and his son would have the pleasure of
+dining with me.
+
+I answered, I should be very glad of their company, as would Miss
+Planta.  Miss Goldsworthy had now arranged herself with the Lady
+Waldegraves.
+
+Our dinner was as pleasant as a dinner at such a season could be.
+Mr. Fairly holds cheerfulness as a duty in the midst of every
+affliction that can admit it; and, therefore,, whenever his
+animal spirits have a tendency to rise, he encourages and
+sustains them, So fond, too, is he of his son, that his very
+sight is a cordial to him - and that mild, feeling, amiable boy
+quite idolizes his father, looking up to him, hanging on his arm,
+and watching his eye to smile and be smiled upon, with a fondness
+like that of an infant to its maternal nurse.
+
+Repeatedly Mr. Fairly exclaimed, "What a relief is this, to dine
+thus quietly!"
+
+What a relief should I, too, have found it, but for a little
+circumstance, which I will soon relate,
+
+
+                     MRS. SCHWELLENBERG IS BACK AGAIN.
+
+We were still at table, with the dessert, when Columb entered and
+announced the sudden return from Weymouth of Mrs. Schwellenberg.
+
+Up we all started; Miss Planta flew out to receive her, and state
+the situation of the house; Mr. Fairly, expecting, I believe, she
+was coming into my room, hastily made his exit without a word;
+his son eagerly scampered after him, and I followed Miss Planta
+upstairs.
+My reception, however, was such as to make me deem it most proper
+to again return to my room.  What an addition this to the gloom
+of all ! and to begin at once with harshness and rudeness! I
+could hardly tell how to bear it.
+
+Nov. 10.-This was a most dismal day.  The dear and most suffering
+king was extremely ill, the queen very wretched, poor Mrs.
+Schwellenberg all spasm and horror, Miss Planta all restlessness,
+the house all mystery, and my only informant and
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+comforter distanced.  Not a word, the whole day through, did I
+hear of what was passing or intending.  Our dinner was worse than
+an almost famished fasting; we parted after it, and met no more.
+Mrs.  Schwellenberg, who never drinks tea herself, hearing the
+general party was given up, and never surmising there had ever
+been any particular one, neither desired me to come to her, nor
+proposed returning to me.  She took possession of the poor
+queen's former dressing-room, and between that and the adjoining
+apartments she spent all the day, except during dinner.
+
+Nov. 11.-This day passed like the preceding; I only saw her
+majesty in the morning, and not another human being from that
+hour till Mrs. Schwellenberg and Miss Planta came to dinner.  Nor
+could I then gather any information of the present state of
+things, as Mrs. Schwellenberg announced that nothing must be
+talked of.
+
+To give any idea of the dismal horror of passing so many hours in
+utter ignorance, where every interest of the mind was sighing for
+intelligence, would not be easy: the experiment alone could give
+it its full force; and from that, Heaven ever guard my loved
+readers!
+
+Nov. 12.-To-day a little brightened upon us some change appeared
+in the loved royal sufferer, and though it was not actually for
+the better in itself, yet any change was pronounced to be
+salutary, as, for some days pas'' there had been a monotonous
+continuation of the same bad symptoms, that had doubly depressed
+us all.  My spirits rose immediately ; indeed, I thank God, I
+never desponded, though many times I stood nearly alone in my
+hopes.
+
+In the passage, in the morning, I encountered Colonel Gwynn.  I
+had but just time to inform him I yet thought all would do well,
+ere the princes appeared.  All the equerries are now here except
+Major Garth, who is ill; and they have all ample employment in
+watching and waiting.  From time to time they have all
+interviews; but it is only because the poor king will not be
+denied seeing them: it is not thought light.  But I must enter
+into nothing of this sort-it is all too closely connected with
+private domestic concerns for paper.
+After dinner, my chief guest, la Présidente, told me, " If my
+room was not so warm, she would stay a little with me." I felt
+this would be rather too superlative an obligation; and therefore
+I simply answered that "I was too chilly to sit in a
+
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+
+cold room;" and I confess I took no pains to temper it according
+to this hint.
+
+
+
+PUBLIC PRAYERS FOR THE KING DECIDED UPON.
+
+Finding there was now no danger Of disagreeable interviews, Mr.
+Fairly renewed his visits as usual.  He came early this evening,
+and narrated the state of things; and then, with a laugh, he
+Inquired What I had done With my head companion, and how I got
+rid of her?  I fairly told him my malice about the temperature.
+
+He could not help laughing, though he instantly remonstrated
+against an expedient that might prove prejudicial to my health.
+"You had better not," he cried, "try any experiments of this
+sort: if you hurt Your nerves, it may prove a permanent evil;
+this other can only be temporary."
+
+He took up the "Task"  again; but he opened, by ill luck, upon
+nothing striking or good; and soon, with distaste, flung the book
+down, and committed himself wholly to conversation.
+
+He told me he wished  much he had been able to consult with me on
+the preceding morning, when he had the queen's orders to write,
+in her majesty's name, to the Archbishop of Canterbury, to issue
+out public prayers for the poor king, for all the churches.
+
+I assured him I fancied it might do very well without my aid.
+There was to be a privy council summoned, in consequence of the
+letter, to settle the mode of compliance.
+
+How right a step in my ever-right royal mistress is this! If you
+hear less of her now, my dearest friends, and of the internal
+transactions, it is only because I now rarely saw her but alone,
+and all that passed, therefore, was in promised confidence.  And,
+for the rest, the whole of my information concerning the princes,
+and the plans and the proceedings of the house, was told me in
+perfect reliance on my secrecy and honour.
+
+I know this is saying enough to the most honourable of all
+confidants and friends to whom I am writing.  All that passes
+with regard to myself is laid completely before them.
+
+Nov. 13- This was the fairest day we have passed since the first
+seizure of the most beloved of monarchs.  He was considerably
+better.  O what a ray of joy lightened us, and how mildly did my
+poor queen receive it
+
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+
+Nov. 14--Still all was greatly amended, and better
+spirits reigned throughout the house.
+
+Mr. Fairly--I can write of no one else, for no one else did I
+see--called early, to tell me he had received an answer relative
+to the prayer for his majesty's recovery, in consequence of which
+he had the queen's commands for going to town the next day, to
+see the archbishop.  This was an employment so suited to the
+religious cast of his character, that I rejoiced to see it fall
+into his hands.
+
+He came again in the evening, and said he had now got the prayer.
+He did not entirely approve it, nor think it sufficiently warm
+and animated.  I petitioned to hear it, and he readily complied,
+and read it with great reverence, but very unaffectedly and
+quietly.  I was very, very much touched by It ; yet not, I own,
+quite so much as once before by another, which was read to me by
+Mr. Cambridge, and composed by his son, for the sufferings of his
+excellent daughter Catherine.  It was at once so devout, yet so
+concise--so fervent, yet so simple, and the many tender relations
+concerned in it--father, brother, sister,--so powerfully affected
+me, that I had no command over the feelings then excited, even
+though Mr. Cambridge almost reproved me for want of fortitude;
+but there was something so tender in a prayer of a brother for a
+sister.
+
+Here, however, I was under better control - for though my whole
+heart was filled with the calamitous state of this unhappy
+monarch, and with deepest affliction for all his family, I yet
+knew so well my reader was one to severely censure all failure in
+calmness and firmness, that I struggled, and not ineffectually,
+to hear him with a steadiness like his own.  But, fortunately for
+the relief of this force, he left the room for a few minutes to
+see if he was wanted, and I made use of his absence to give a
+little vent to those tears which I had painfully restrained in
+his presence.
+
+When he returned we had one of the best (on his part)
+conversations in which I have ever been engaged, upon the highest
+and most solemn of all subjects, prayers and supplications to
+heaven.  He asked my opinion with earnestness, and gave his own
+with unbounded openness.
+
+Nov. 15-This morning my poor royal mistress herself presented me
+with one of the prayers for the king.  I shall always keep it --
+how--how fervently did I use it!
+
+Whilst I was at breakfast Mr. Fairly once more called before he
+set off for town and he brought me also a copy of the
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+
+prayer.  He had received a large packet of them from the
+archbishop, Dr. Moore, to distribute in the house.
+
+The whole day the king continued amended.
+
+Sunday, Nov. 16.-This morning I ventured out to church.  I did
+not like to appear abroad, but yet I had a most irresistible
+earnestness to join the public congregation in the prayer for the
+king.  Indeed nothing could be more deeply moving: the very sound
+of the cathedral service, performed in his own chapel, overset me
+at once; and every prayer in the service in which he was
+mentioned brought torrents of tears from all the suppliants that
+joined in them.  I could scarcely keep my place, scarce command
+my voice from audible sobs.  To come to the House of prayer from
+such a house of woe!  I ran away when the service was over, to
+avoid inquiries.  Mrs. Kennedy ran after me, with swollen eyes; I
+could not refuse her a hasty answer, but I ran the faster after
+it, to avoid any more.
+
+The king was worse.  His night had been very bad ; all the fair
+promise of amendment was shaken; he had now some symptoms even
+dangerous to his life.  O good heaven, what a day did this prove!
+I saw not a human face, save at dinner and then, what faces!
+gloom and despair in all, and silence to every species of
+intelligence. . . .
+
+It was melancholy to see the crowds of former welcome visitors
+who were now denied access.  The prince reiterated his former
+orders; and I perceived from my window those who had ventured to
+the door returning back in deluges of tears.  Amongst them to-day
+I perceived poor Lady Effingham, the Duchess of Ancaster, and Mr.
+Bryant ; the last sent me In, afterwards, a mournful little
+letter, to which he desired no answer.  Indeed I was not at
+liberty to write a word.
+
+
+                 SIR LuCAS PEPYS ON THE KING's CONDITION.
+
+Nov. 19.-The account of the dear king this morning was rather
+better.
+
+Sir Lucas Pepys was now called in, and added to Dr. Warren, Dr.
+Heberden, and Sir George Baker.  I earnestly wished to see him,
+and I found my poor royal mistress was secretly anxious to know
+his opinion.  I sent to beg to speak with him, as soon as the
+consultation was over; determined, however, to make that request
+no more if he was as shy of giving information as Dr. Warren,
+
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+
+poor Mr. de Luc was with me wen he came ; but it was
+necessary I should see Sir Lucas alone, that I might have a
+better claim upon his discretion : nevertheless I feared he would
+have left me, without the smallest intelligence, before I was
+able to make my worthy, but most slow companion comprehend the
+necessity of his absence.
+
+The moment we were alone, Sir Lucas opened upon the subject in
+the most comfortable manner.  He assured me there was nothing
+desponding in the case, and that his royal patient would
+certainly recover, though not immediately.
+
+Whilst I was in the midst of the almost speechless joy with which
+I heard this said, and ready to kiss the very feet of Sir Lucas
+for words of such delight, a rap at my door made me open it to
+Mr. Fairly, who entered, saying, "I must come to ask you how you
+do, though I have no good news to bring you; but--"
+
+He then, with the utmost amaze, perceived Sir Lucas.  In so very
+many visits he had constantly found me alone, that I really
+believe he had hardly thought it possible he should see me in any
+other way.
+
+They then talked over the poor king's situation, and Sir Lucas
+was very open and comforting.  How many sad meetings have I had
+with him heretofore ; first in the alarming attacks of poor Mr.
+Thrale, and next in the agonizing fluctuations of his unhappy
+widow!
+
+Sir Lucas wished to speak with me alone, as he had something he
+wanted, through me, to communicate to the queen; but as he saw
+Mr. Fairly not disposed to retire first, by his manner of saying
+"Sir Lucas, you will find all the breakfast ready below stairs,"
+he made his bow, and said he would see me again.
+
+Mr. Fairly then informed me he was quite uneasy at the recluse
+life led by the queen and the princesses, and that he was anxious
+to prevail with them to take a little air, which must be
+absolutely necessary to their health.  He was projecting a scheme
+for this purpose, which required the assistance of the Duke of
+York, and he left me, to confer upon it with his royal highness,
+promising to return and tell its success.
+
+Sir Lucas soon came back, and then gave me such unequivocal
+assurances of the king's recovery, that the moment he left me I
+flew to demand a private audience of the queen, that I might
+relate such delightful prognostics.
+
+The Duke of York was with her, I waited in the passage,
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+where I met Lady Charlotte Finch, and tried what I could to
+instil into her mind the hopes I entertained: this, however, was
+not possible; a general despondency prevailed throughout the
+house, and Lady Charlotte was infected by it very deeply.
+
+At length I gained admission and gave my account, which was most
+meekly received by the most patient of sorrowers.
+
+At night came Mr. Fairly again; but, before he entered into any
+narrations he asked "DO you expect Sir Lucas?"
+
+"No," I said, "he had been already."
+
+"I saw him rise early from table," he added, "and I thought he
+was coming to YOU."
+
+He has taken no fancy to poor Sir Lucas, and would rather,
+apparently, avoid meeting him.  However, it is to me so essential
+a comfort to hear his opinions, that I have earnestly entreated
+to see him by every opportunity.
+
+
+                       FURTHER CHANGES AT THE LODGE.
+
+The equerries now had their own table as usual, to which the
+physicians were regularly invited, downstairs, and our
+eating-party was restored.  The princes established a table of
+their own at the Castle, to which they gave daily invitations to
+such as they chose, from time to time, to select from the Lodge.
+
+The noise of so large a party just under the apartment of the
+queen occasioned this new regulation, which took place by her
+majesty's own direction.
+
+Nov. 20.-Poor Miss Goldsworthy was now quite ill, and forced to
+retire and nurse.  No wonder, for she had suffered the worst sort
+of fatigue, that of fearing to sleep, from the apprehension the
+queen might speak, and want her.  Lady Elizabeth Waldegrave now
+took her place Of sleeping in the queen's room, but the office of
+going for early intelligence how his majesty had passed the night
+devolved upon me.
+
+Exactly at seven o'clock I now went to the queen's apartment -
+Lady Elizabeth then rose and went to her own room to dress, and I
+received the queen's commands for my inquiries.  I could not,
+however, go myself into the room where they assembled, which Miss
+Goldsworthy, who always applied to her brother, had very properly
+done : I sent in a message to beg to speak with General Bud, or
+whoever could bring an account.
+
+Mr. Charles Hawkins came; he had sat up.  O, how terrible a
+narrative did he drily give of the night!--short, abrupt,
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+peremptorily bad, and indubitably hopeless!  I did not dare
+alter, but I greatly softened this relation, in giving it to my
+poor queen.  I had been, indeed, too much shocked by the hard way
+in which I had been told it, to deliver it in the same manner;
+neither did I, in my own heart, despair.
+
+I saw Sir Lucas afterwards, who encouraged all my more sanguine
+opinions.  He told me many new regulations had been made.  His
+majesty was to be kept as quiet as possible, and see only
+physicians, except for a short and stated period in every day,
+during which he might summon such among his gentlemen as he
+pleased.
+
+Mr. Fairly came also early, and wrote and read letters of great
+consequence relative to the situation of affairs ; and he told me
+he was then to go to the king, who had refused his assent to the
+new plan, and insisted upon seeing him when he came in from his
+ride, which, to keep him a little longer quiet, they had made him
+believe he was then taking.  The gentlemen had agreed to be
+within call alternately, and he meant to have his own turn always
+in the forenoon, that his evenings might have some chance for
+quiet, The rest of the day was comfortless; my coadjutrix was now
+grown so fretful and affronting that, though we only met at
+dinner, it was hard to support her most unprovoked harshness.
+
+
+
+                    MR. FAIRLY AND THE LEARNED LADIES.
+
+At night, while I was just sealing a short note to my dear Miss
+Cambridge, who had an anxiety like that of my own Susan and Fredy
+lest I should suffer from my present fatigues, I heard the
+softest tap at my door, which, before I could either put down my
+letter or speak, was suddenly but most gently opened.
+
+I turned about and saw a figure wrapped up in a great, coat, with
+boots and a hat on, who cautiously entered, and instantly closed
+the door.  I stared, and looked very hard, but the face was much
+hid by the muffling of the high collar to the great coat.  I
+wondered, and could not conceive who it could be.  The figure
+then took off his hat and bowed, but he did not advance, and the
+light was away from him.  I courtsied, and wondered more, and
+then a surprised voice exclaimed, "Don't you know me?" and I
+found it was Mr. Fairly.
+
+"I cannot," he said, "stop now, but I will come again; however,
+you know it, perhaps, already?
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+
+"Know what?"
+
+"Why--the--news."
+
+"What news?"
+
+"Why--that the king is much better, and--"
+
+"Yes, Sir Lucas said so, but I have seen nobody since."
+
+"No?  And have you heard nothing more?"
+
+"Nothing at all; I cannot guess what you mean."
+
+"What, then, have not you heard--how Much the king has talked?
+And--and have not you heard the charge."
+
+"No; I have heard not a word of any charge."
+
+"Why, then, I'll tell you."
+
+A long preamble, uttered very rapidly, of "how much the king had
+been talking," seemed less necessary to introduce his
+intelligence than to give him time to arrange it; and I was so
+much struck with this, that I could not even listen to him, from
+impatience to have him proceed.
+
+Suddenly, however, breaking off, evidently from not knowing how
+to go on, he exclaimed, "Well, I shall tell it you all by and by;
+you come in for your share!"
+
+Almost breathless now with amaze, I could hardly cry,
+
+"Do I?"
+
+"Yes, I'll tell you," cried he; but again he stopped, and,
+hesitatingly, said, "You--you won't be angry?"
+
+"No," I answered, still more amazed, and even almost terrified,
+at what I had now to expect.
+
+"Well, then," cried he, instantly resuming his first gay and
+rapid manner, "the king has been calling them all to order for
+staying so long away from him.  'All the equerries and gentlemen
+here,' he said, 'lost their whole time at the table, by drinking
+so much wine and sitting so long over their bottle, which
+constantly made them all so slow in returning to their waiting,
+that when he wanted them in the afternoon they were never ready;
+and-and-and Mr. Fairly,' says he, 'is as bad as any of them; not
+that he stays so long at table, or is so fond of wine, but he's
+just as late as the rest; for he's so fond of the company of
+learned ladies, that he gets to the tea-table with Miss Burney,
+and there he stays and spends his whole time.'"
+
+He spoke all this like the velocity of lightning- but, had it
+been with the most prosing slowness, I had surely never
+interrupted him, so vexed I was, so surprised, so completely
+disconcerted.  Finding me silent, he began again, and as rapidly
+as ever; "I know exactly," he cried, "what it all means--what
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+the king has in his head--exactly what has given rise to the
+idea--'tis Miss Fuzilier."
+
+Now, indeed, I stared afresh, little expecting to hear her named
+by him.  He went on in too much hurry for me to recollect his
+precise words, but he spoke of her very highly, and mentioned her
+learning, her education, and her acquirements, with great praise,
+yet with that sort of general commendation that disclaims all
+peculiar interest; and then, with some degree of displeasure
+mixed in his voice, mentioned the report that had been spread
+concerning- them, and its having reached the ears of the king
+before his Illness.  He then lightly added something I could not
+completely hear, of its utter falsehood, in a way that seemed to
+hold even a disavowal too important for it, and then concluded
+with saying, "And this in the present confused state of his mind
+is altogether, I know, what he means by the learned ladies."
+
+When he had done he looked earnestly for my answer, but finding I
+made none, he said, with some concern, "You won't think any more
+of it?"
+
+"No," I answered, rather faintly.
+
+In a lighter manner then, as if to treat the whole as too light
+for a thought, he said, as he was leaving the room to change his
+dress, "Well, since I have now got the character of being so fond
+of such company, I shall certainly"--he stopped short, evidently
+at a loss how to go on; but quickly after, with a laugh, he
+hastily added, "come and drink tea with you very often;" and
+then, with another laugh, which he had all to himself, he hurried
+away.
+
+He left me, however, enough to think upon and the predominant
+thought was an immediate doubt whether or not, since his visits
+had reached the king, his majesty's observation upon them ought
+to stop their continuance?
+
+Upon the whole, however, when I summed up all, I found not cause
+sufficient for any change of system.  No raillery had passed upon
+me; and, for him, he had stoutly evinced a determined contempt of
+it.  Nothing of flirtation had been mentioned for either; I had
+merely been called a learned lady, and he had merely been accused
+Of liking such company.  I had no other social comfort left me
+but Mr. Fairly, and I had discomforts past all description or
+suggestion.  Should I drive him from me, what would pay me, and
+how had he deserved it? and which way could it be worth while?
+His friendship offered me a solace without hazard; it was held
+out to me
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+when all else was denied me; banished from every friend, confined
+almost to a state of captivity, harrowed to the very soul with
+surrounding afflictions, and without a glimpse of light as to
+when or how all might terminate, it seemed to me, in this
+situation, that providence had benignly sent in my way a
+character of so much worth and excellence, to soften the rigour
+of my condition, by kind sympathy and most honourable confidence.
+
+This idea was sufficient; and I thence determined to follow as he
+led, in disdaining any further notice, or even remembrance, if
+possible, of this learned accusation.
+
+Nov. 21.-All went better and better to-day, and I received from
+the king's room a more cheering account to carry to my poor
+queen.  We had now hopes of a speedy restoration :
+
+the king held long conferences with all his gentlemen, and,
+though far from composed, was so frequently rational as to- make
+any resistance to his will nearly impossible.  Innumerable
+difficulties attended this state, but the general promise it gave
+of a complete recovery recompensed them all.
+
+Sir Lucas Pepys came to me in the morning and acquainted me with
+the rising hopes of amendment.  But he disapproved the admission
+of so many gentlemen, and would have limited the license to only
+the equerry in waiting, Colonel Goldsworthy, and Mr. Fairly, who
+was now principal throughout the house, in universal trust for
+his superior judgment.
+
+The king, Sir Lucas said, now talked of everybody and everything
+he could recollect or suggest.
+
+So I have heard, thought I.
+
+And, presently after, he added, "No one escapes; you will have
+your turn."
+
+Frightened lest he knew I had had it, I eagerly exclaimed, "O,
+no; I hope not."
+
+"And why?" cried he, good-humouredly; "what need you care? He can
+say no harm of you."
+
+I ventured then to ask if yet I had been named? He believed not
+yet.
+
+This doubled my curiosity to know to whom the "learned ladies"
+had been mentioned, and whether to Mr. Fairly himself, or to
+someone who related it; I think the latter, but there is no way
+to inquire.
+
+Very early in the evening I heard a rap at my door.  I was in my
+inner room, and called out, "Who's there?" The door opened and
+Mr, Fairly appeared.
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+He had been so long in attendance this morning with our poor sick
+monarch, that he was too much fatigued to join the dinner-party.
+He had stood five hours running, besides the concomitant
+circumstances of attention.  He had instantly laid down when he
+procured his dismission, and had only risen to eat some cold
+chicken before he came to my room.  During that repast he had
+again been demanded, but he charged the gentleman to make his
+excuse, as he could go through nothing further.
+
+I hope the king did not conclude him again with the learned; This
+was the most serene, and even cheerful evening,, I had passed
+since the poor king's first seizure.
+
+
+
+                     REPORTS ON THE KING'S CONDITION.
+
+Nov. 22.-When I went for my morning inquiries, Colonel Manners
+came out to me.  He could give me no precise account, as the
+sitters-up had not yet left the king, but he feared the night had
+been bad.  We mutually bewailed the mournful state of the house.
+He is a very good creature at heart, though as unformed as if he
+had just left Eton or Westminster.  But he loves his master with
+a true and faithful heart, and is almost as ready to die as to
+live for him, if any service of that risk was proposed to him.
+
+While the queen's hair was dressing, though only for a close cap,
+I was sent again.  Colonel Manners came out to me, and begged I
+would enter the music-room, as Mr. Keate, the surgeon, had now
+just left the king, and was waiting to give me an account before
+he laid down.
+
+I found him in his night-cap: he took me up to a window, and gave
+me but a dismal history : the night had been very unfavourable,
+and the late amendment very transient.  I heard nothing further
+till the evening, when my constant companion came to me.  All, he
+said, was bad: he had been summoned and detained nearly all the
+morning, and had then rode to St. Leonard's to get a little rest,
+as he would not return till after dinner.
+
+He had but just begun his tea when his name was called aloud in
+the passage: up he started, seized his hat, and with a hasty bow,
+decamped.  I fancy it was one of the princes; and the more, as he
+did not come back.
+
+Sunday, Nov. 23.-A sad day this! I was sent as usual for
+
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+
+the night account, which I had given to me by Mr. Fairly, and a
+very dismal one indeed.  Yet I never, upon this point, yield
+implicitly to his opinion, as I see him frequently of the
+despairing side, and as for myself, I thank God, my hopes never
+wholly fall.  A certain faith in his final recovery has uniformly
+supported my spirits from the beginning. . .
+
+In the evening, a small tap at my door, with, "Here I am again,"
+ushered in Mr. Fairly.  He seemcd much hurried and disturbed, and
+innately uncomfortable; and very soon he entered into a detail of
+the situation of affairs that saddened me in the extreme.  The
+poor king was very ill indeed, and so little aware of his own
+condition, that he would submit to no rule, and chose to have
+company with him from morning till night, sending out for the
+gentlemen one after another without intermission, and chiefly for
+Mr. Fairly, who, conscious it was hurtful to his majesty, and
+nearly worn out himself, had now no chance of respite or escape
+but by leaving the house and riding out. . . .
+
+I have never seen him so wearied, or so vexed, I know not which.
+"How shall I rejoice," he cried, "when all this is over, and I
+can turn my back to this scene!"
+
+I should rejoice, I said, for him when he could make his escape;
+but his use here, in the whole round, is infinite; almost nothing
+is done without consulting him.
+
+"I wish," he cried, while he was making some memorandums, "I
+could live without sleep; I know not now how to spare my night."
+He then explained to me various miscellaneous matters of
+occupation, and confessed himself forced to break from the
+confused scene of action as much as possible, where the tumult
+and bustle were as overpowering, as the affliction, in the more
+quiet apartments, was dejecting.  Then, by implication, what
+credit did he not give to my Poor still room, which he made me
+understand was his only refuge and consolation in this miserable
+house!
+
+
+           MR. FAIRLY THINKS THE KING NEEDS STRICTER MANAGEMENT.
+Nov. 24.-Very bad again was the night's account, which
+I received at seven o'clock this morning from Mr. DUndas.  I
+returned with it to my Poor royal mistress, who heard it with her
+usual patience.
+
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+
+While I was still with her, Lady Elizabeth came with a
+request from Mr. Fairly, for an audience before her majesty's
+breakfast.  As soon as she was ready she ordered me to tell Lady
+Elizabeth to bring him. . . .
+
+Soon after,--with a hasty rap, came Mr. Fairly.  He brought his
+writing to my table, where I was trying to take off impressions
+of plants.  I Saw he meant to read me his letter; but before he
+had finished it Lady Charlotte Finch came in search of him.  It
+was not for the queen, but herself; she wished to speak and
+consult with him upon the king's seeing his children, which was
+now his vehement demand.
+
+He was writing for one of the king's messengers, and could not
+stop till he had done.  Poor Lady Charlotte, overcome with
+tenderness and compassion, wept the whole time he was at his pen;
+and when he had put it down, earnestly remonstrated on the
+cruelty of the present regulations, which debarred his majesty
+the sight of the princesses.  I joined with her, though more
+firmly, believe me; my tears I suppress for my solitude.  I have
+enough of that to give them vent, and, with all my suppression,
+my poor aching eyes can frequently scarce see one object from
+another.
+
+When Mr. Fairly left off writing he entered very deeply into
+argument with Lady Charlotte.  He was averse to her request; he
+explained the absolute necessity of strong measures, and of the
+denial of dangerous indulgences, while the poor king was in this
+wretched state.  The disease, he said, was augmented by every
+agitation, and the discipline of forced quiet was necessary till
+he was capable of some reflection.  At present he spoke
+everything that occurred to him, and in a manner so wild,
+unreasonable, and dangerous, with regard to future constructions,
+that there could be no kindness so great to him as to suffer him
+only to see those who were his requisite attendants.
+
+He then enumerated many instances very forcibly, in which he
+showed how much more properly his majesty might have been
+treated, by greater strength of steadiness in his management.  He
+told various facts which neither of us had heard, and, at last,
+in speaking of the most recent occurrences, he fell into a
+narrative relating to himself.
+
+The king, he said, had almost continually demanded him of late,
+and with the most extreme agitation; he had been as much with him
+as it was possible for his health to bear.  "Five hours,,,
+continued he, "I spent with him on Friday, and four
+
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+
+on Saturday, and three and a half yesterday; yet the moment I
+went to him last night, he accused me of never coming near him.
+He said I gave him up entirely; that I was always going out,
+always dining out, always going to Mrs. Harcourt's--riding to St.
+Leonard's; but he knew why--'twas to meet Miss Fuzilier." . . .
+
+Poor Lady Charlotte was answered, and, looking extremely sorry,
+went away.
+
+He then read me his messenger's letter.  'Twas upon a very
+delicate affair, relative to the Prince of Wales, in whose
+service, he told me, he first began his Court preferment.
+
+When he had made up his packet he returned to the subject of the
+king's rage, with still greater openness.  He had attacked him,
+he said, more violently than ever about Miss Fuzilier which,
+certainly, as there had been such a report, was very unpleasant.
+"And when I seriously assured him," he added, "that there was
+nothing in it, he said 'I had made him the happiest of men."'
+
+Nov. 25.---My morning account was from General Bud, and
+a very despairing one.  He has not a ray of hope for better days.
+
+My poor queen was so much pleased with a sort of hymn for the
+king, which she had been reading In the newspapers, that I
+scrupled not to tell her of one in manuscript, which, of course,
+she desired to read; but I stipulated for its return, though I
+could not possibly stay in the room while she looked at it.
+
+
+                        MR. FAIRLY WANTS A CHANGE.
+
+In the evening Mr. Fairly came, entering with a most gently civil
+exclamation of "How long it is since I have seen you!"
+
+I could not answer, it was only one evening missed; for, in
+truth, a day at this time seems liberally a week, and a very slow
+one too.  He had been to town, suddenly sent by the queen last
+night, and had returned only at noon.
+
+he gave me a full account of all that was passing and projecting;
+and awfully critical everything seemed.  "He should now soon," he
+said, "quit the tragic scene, and go to relax and recruit, with
+his children, in the country.  He regarded his service here as
+nearly over, since an entirely new regulation was planning, in
+which the poor king was no longer to be allowed the sight of any
+of his gentlemen.  His continual long conversations with them
+were judged utterly improper, and
+
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+he was only to be attended by the medical people and his pages."
+
+He then gave into my hands the office of hinting to the queen his
+intention, if he could be dispensed with by her majesty, to go
+into the Country on the 12th of next month (December), with his
+boy Charles, who then left Eton for the Christmas holidays.  I
+knew this would be unwelcome intelligence, but I wished to
+forward his departure, and would not refuse the commission.  When
+this was settled he said he would go and take a circuit, and see
+how matters stood; and then, if he could get away after showing
+himself, return--if I would give him leave to drink his tea with
+me.
+
+He had not been gone ten minutes before Lady Charlotte came in
+search of him.  She had been told, she said, that he was with me.
+I laughed, but could not forbear asking if I passed for his
+keeper, since whenever he was missing I was always called to
+account for him.  Again, however, he came and drank his tea, and
+stayed an hour, in most confidential discourse.
+
+When the new regulation is established, only one gentleman is to
+remain--which will be the equerry in waiting.  This is now
+Colonel Goldsworthy.  The rest will disperse.
+
+
+                REMOVAL OF THE KING To KEW DETERMINED UPON.
+Nov. 26.-I found we were all speedily to remove to Kew.  This was
+to be kept profoundly secret till almost the moment of departure.
+The king will never consent to quit Windsor and to allure him
+away by some stratagem occupies all the physicians, who have
+proposed and enforced this measure.  Mr. Fairly is averse to it:
+the king's repugnance he thinks insurmountable, and that it ought
+not to be opposed.  But the princes take part with the
+physicians.
+
+He left me to ride out, but more cordial and with greater
+simplicity of kindness than ever, he smilingly said in going,
+"Well, good bye, and God bless you."
+
+"Amen," quoth I, after he had shut the door.
+
+Nov. 27.-This morning and whole day were dreadful My early
+account was given me by Mr. Charles Hawkins, and with such
+determined decision of incurability, that I left him quite in
+horror.  All that I dared, I softened to my poor queen, who was
+now harassed to death with state affairs, and impending storms of
+state dissensions, I would have given
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+the world to have spent the whole day by her side, and poured in
+what balm of hope I could, since it appeared but too Visibly she
+scarce received a ray from any other.
+
+Universal despondence now pervaded the whole house.  Sir Lucas,
+indeed, sustained his original good opinion, but he was nearly
+overpowered by standing alone, and was forced to let the stream
+take its course with but little opposition.  Even poor Mr. de Luc
+was silenced ; Miss Planta easily yields to fear; and Mrs.
+Schwellenberg--who thinks it treason to say the king is ever at
+all indisposed--not being able to say all was quite well, forbade
+a single word being uttered upon the subject
+The dinners, therefore, became a time of extremest pain; all was
+ignorance, mystery, and trembling expectation of evil.
+
+In the evening, thank heaven! came again my sole relief, Mr.
+Fairly.  He brought his son.  and they entered with such serene
+aspects, that I soon shook off a little of my gloom; and I heard
+there was no new cause, for though all was bad, nothing was
+worse.  We talked over everything; and that always opens the
+mind, and softens the bitterness of sorrow.
+
+The prospect before us, with respect to Kew, is indeed terrible.
+There is to be a total seclusion from all but those within the
+walls, and those are to be contracted to merely necessary
+attendants.  Mr. Fairly disapproved the scheme, though a gainer
+by it of leisure and liberty.  Only the equerry in waiting Is to
+have a room in the house; the rest of the gentlemen are to take
+their leave.  He meant, therefore, himself, to go into the
+country with all speed.
+
+Nov. 28.-How woful-how bitter a day, in every part, was this!
+
+My early account was from the king's page, Mr. Stillingfleet, and
+the night had been extremely bad.  I dared not sink the truth to
+my poor queen, though I mixed in it whatever I Could devise of
+cheer and hope; and she bore it with the most wonderful calmness.
+
+Dr. Addington was now called in: a very old physician, but
+peculiarly experienced in disorders such as afflicted our poor
+king, though not professedly a practitioner in them.
+
+Sir Lucas made me a visit, and informed me of all the medical
+proceedings; and told me, in confidence, we were to go to Kew
+to-morrow, though the queen herself had not yet concurred in the
+measure; but the physicians joined to desire
+
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+it, and they were supported by the princes.  The difficulty how
+to get the king away from his favourite abode was all that
+rested.  If they even attempted force, they had not a doubt but
+his smallest resistance would call up the whole country to his
+fancied rescue!  Yet how, at such a time, prevail by persuasion?
+
+He moved me even to tears,
+by telling me that none of their own lives would be safe if the
+king did not recover so Prodigiously high ran the tide of
+affection and loyalty.  All the physicians received threatening
+letters daily to answer for the safety of their monarch with
+their lives!  Sir George Baker had already been Stopped in his
+carriage by the mob to give an account of the king; and when he
+said it Was a bad one, they had furiously exclaimed, "The more
+shame for you!"
+
+
+                           A PRIVY COUNCIL HELD.
+
+After he left me, a privy council was held at the Castle, with
+the Prince of Wales; the chancellor,(300) Mr. Pitt, and all the
+officers of state were summoned, to sign a Permission for the
+king's removal.  The poor queen gave an audience to the
+chancellor--it was necessary to sanctify their proceedings.  The
+princess royal and Lady Courtown attended her.  It was a tragedy
+the most dismal!
+
+The queen's knowledge of the king's aversion to Kew made her
+consent to this measure with the extremest reluctance yet it was
+not to be opposed: It Was stated as much the best for him, on
+account of the garden: as here there is none but what Is Public
+to spectators from the terrace or tops of houses.  I believe they
+were perfectly right though the removal was so tremendous.  The
+physicians were summoned to the privy Council, to give their
+Opinions, upon oath, that this step was necessary.
+
+Inexpressible was the alarm of everyone, lest the king, if he
+recovered, should bear a lasting resentment against the authors
+and promoters of this Journey.  To give it, therefore, every
+possible sanction it was decreed that he should be seen, both by
+the chancellor and Mr. Pitt.
+
+The chancellor went in to his presence with a tremor such as,
+before, he had been only accustomed to inspire; and when he came
+out, he was so extremely affected by the state in which he
+
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+
+saw his royal master and patron that the tears ran down his
+cheeks, and his feet had difficulty to support him.  Mr. Pitt was
+more composed, but expressed his grief with so much respect and
+attachment, that it added new weight to the universal admiration
+with which he is here beheld.
+
+All these circumstances, with various others, of equal sadness
+which I must not relate, came to my knowledge from Sir Lucas, Mr.
+de Luc, and my noon attendance upon her majesty, who was
+compelled to dress for her audience of the chancellor.  And,
+altogether, with the horror of the next day's removal, an([ the
+gloom of the ensuing Kew residence, I was so powerfully
+depressed, that when Mr. Fairly came in the evening, not all my
+earnestness to support my firmness could re-animate me, and I
+gave him a most solemn reception, and made the tea directly, and
+almost in silence.
+
+He endeavoured, at first, to revive me by enlivening discourse,
+but finding that fail, he had recourse to more serious means.  He
+began his former favourite topic-the miseries of life-the
+inherent miseries, he thinks them, to which we are so universally
+born and bred, that it was as much consonant with our reason to
+expect as with our duty to support them.
+
+I heard him with that respect his subject and his character alike
+merited; but I could not answer--my heart was sunk--my spirits
+were all exhausted: I knew not what to expect next, nor how I
+might be enabled to wade through the dreadful winter. . . .
+
+He had not, I saw, one ray of hope to offer me of better times,
+yet he recommended me to cheer myself; but not by more sanguine
+expectations--simply and solely by religion.  To submit, he said,
+to pray and to submit, were all we had to do.  . . .
+
+The voice of the Prince of Wales, in the passage, carried him
+away.  They remained together, in deep conference, all the rest
+of the evening, consulting upon measures for facilitating the
+king's removal, and obtaining his consent.
+
+I went very late to the queen, and found her in deep sorrow but
+nothing confidential passed: I found her not alone, nor alone did
+I leave her.  But I knew what was passing in her mind--the
+removing the king!-Its difficulty and danger at present, and the
+dread of his permanent indignation hereafter.
+
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+                            THE REMOVAL To KEW.
+
+Nov. 29.-Shall I ever forget the varied emotions of this dreadful
+day!  I rose with the heaviest of hearts, and found my poor royal
+mistress in the deepest dejection: she told me now of our
+intended expedition to Kew.  Lady Elizabeth hastened away to
+dress, and I was alone with her for some time.  Her mind, she
+said, quite misgave her about Kew: the king's dislike was
+terrible to think of, and she could not foresee in what it might
+end.  She would have resisted the measure herself, hut that she
+had determined not to have upon her own mind any opposition to
+the opinion of the physicians.
+
+The account of the night was still more and more discouraging: it
+was related to me by one of the pages, Mr. Brawan; and though a
+little I softened or omitted particulars, I yet most sorrowfully
+conveyed it to the queen.
+
+Terrible was the morning!--uninterruptedly terrible! all spent in
+hasty packing up, preparing for we knew not what, nor for how
+long, nor with what circumstances, nor scarcely with what view!
+We seemed preparing for captivity, without having committed any
+offence; and for banishment, without the least conjecture when we
+might be recalled from it.
+
+The poor queen was to get off in private: the plan settled,
+between the princes and the physicians, was, that her majesty and
+the princesses should go away quietly, and then that the king
+should be told that they were gone, which was the sole method
+they could devise to prevail with him to follow.  He was then to
+be allured by a promise of seeing them at Kew again, as they knew
+he would doubt their assertion, he was to go through the rooms
+and examine the house himself.
+
+I believe it was about ten o'clock when her majesty departed
+drowned in tears, she glided along the passage, and got softly
+into her carriage, with two weeping princesses, and Lady
+Courtown, who was to be her lady-in-waiting during this dreadful
+residence.  Then followed the third princess, With Lady Charlotte
+Finch.  They went off without any state or parade, and a more
+melancholy Scene cannot be imagined.  There was not a dry eye in
+the house.  The footmen, the house-maids, the porter, the
+sentinels--all cried even bitterly as they looked on.
+
+The three younger princesses were to wait till the event was
+known.  Lady Elizabeth Waldegrave and Miss Goldsworthy had their
+royal highnesses in charge,
+
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+It was settled the king was to be attended by three of his
+gentlemen, in the carriage, and to be followed by the physicians,
+and preceded by his pages.  But all were to depart on his arrival
+at Kew, except his own equerry-in-waiting.  It Was not very
+pleasant to these gentlemen to attend his majesty at such a time,
+and upon such a plan, so adverse to his inclination, without any
+power of assistance : however, they would rather have died than
+refused, and it was certain the king would no other way travel
+but by compulsion, which no human being dared even mention.
+Miss Planta and I were to go as soon as the packages could be
+ready, with some of the queen's things.  Mrs. Schwellenberg was
+to remain behind, for one day, in order to make arrangements
+about the jewels.
+
+In what a confusion was the house!  Princes, equerries,
+physicians, pages--all conferring, whispering, plotting, and
+caballing, how to induce the king to set off!
+
+At length we found an opportunity to glide through the passage to
+the coach; Miss Planta and myself, with her maid and Goter.  But
+the heaviness of heart with which we began this journey, and the
+dreadful prognostics of the duration of misery to which it led
+us--who can tell?
+
+We were almost wholly silent all the way.  When we arrived at
+Kew, we found the suspense with which the king was awaited truly
+terrible.  Her majesty had determined to return to Windsor at
+night, if he came not.  We were all to forbear unpacking in the
+mean while.
+
+The house was all now regulated by express order of the Prince of
+Wales, who rode over first, and arranged all the apartments, and
+writ, with chalk, the names of the destined inhabitants on each
+door.  My own room he had given to Lady Courtown ; and for me, he
+had fixed on one immediately adjoining to Mrs. Schwellenberg's; a
+very pleasant room, looking into the garden, but by everybody
+avoided, because the partition is so thin of the next apartment,
+that not a word can be spoken in either that is not heard in
+both.
+
+
+
+                           A MYSTERIOUS VISITOR.
+
+While I was surveying this new habitation, the princess royal
+came into it, and, with a cheered countenance, told me that the
+queen had just received intelligence that the king was rather
+better, and would come directly, and therefore I was
+
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+
+commissioned to issue orders to Columb to keep out of sight, and
+to see that none of the servants were in the way when the king
+passed.
+
+Eagerly, and enlivened, downstairs I hastened, to speak to
+Columb.  I flew to the parlour to ring the bell for him, as In my
+new room I had no bell for either man or maid; but judge my
+surprise, when, upon opening the door, and almost rushing in, I
+perceived a Windsor uniform!  I was retreating with equal haste,
+when the figure before me started, in so theatric an attitude of
+astonishment, that it forced me to look again.  The arms were
+then wide opened, while the figure fell back, in tragic paces.
+
+
+Much at a loss, and unable to distinguish the face, I was again
+retiring, when the figure advanced, but in such measured steps as
+might have suited a march upon a stage.  I now suspected it was
+Mr. Fairly; yet so unlikely I thought it, I could not believe it
+without speech.  "Surely," I cried, " it is not--it is not--" I
+stopped, afraid to make a mistake.
+
+With arms yet more sublimed, he only advanced, in silence and
+dumb heroics.  I now ventured to look more steadily at the face,
+and then to exclaim-" "Is it Mr. Fairly?"
+
+The laugh now betrayed him: he could hardly believe I had really
+not known him.  I explained that my very little expectation of
+seeing him at Kew had assisted my near-sightedness to perplex me.
+
+But I was glad to see him so sportive, which I found was Owing to
+the good spirits of bringing good news; he had mounted his horse
+as soon as he had heard the king had consented to the journey,
+and he had galloped to Kew, to acquaint her majesty with the
+welcome tidings.
+
+I rang and gave my orders to Columb and he then begged me not to
+hurry away, and to give him leave to wait, in this parlour, the
+king's arrival.  He then explained to me the whole of the
+intended proceedings and arrangements, with details innumerable
+and most interesting.
+
+He meant to go almost immediately into the country--all was
+settled with the queen.  I told him I was most cordially glad his
+recruit was so near at hand.
+
+"I shall, however," he said, "be in town a few days longer, and
+come hither constantly to pay you all a little visit."
+
+Miss Planta then appeared.  A more general conversation now took
+place, though in its course Mr. Fairly had the malice to give me
+a start I little expected from him.  We were talk-
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+ing of our poor king, and wondering at the delay of his arrival,
+when Mr. Fairly said, "The king now, Miss Planta, mentions
+everybody and everything that he knows or has heard mentioned in
+his whole life.  Pray does he know any Of your secrets? he'll
+surely tell them if he does!"
+
+"So I hear," cried she, "but I'm sure he can't tell anything of
+Me!  But I wonder what he says of everybody?"
+
+"Why, everything,"  cried he.  "Have you not heard of yourself?"
+
+"Dear, no! Dear me, Mr. Fairly!"
+
+"And, dear Miss Planta! why should not you have your share?  Have
+you not heard he spares nobody?"
+
+"Yes, I have; but I can't think what he says of them!"
+
+Fearful of anything more, I arose and looked at the Window to see
+if any sign of approach appeared, but he dropped the subject
+without coming any nearer, and Miss Planta dropped it too.
+
+I believe he wished to discover if she had heard of his learned
+ladies!
+
+
+                            THE KING's ARRIVAL.
+
+Dinner went on, and still no king.  We now began to grow very
+anxious, when Miss Planta exclaimed that she thought she heard a
+carriage.  We all listened.  "I hope!" I cried.  "I see you do!"
+cried he, "you have a very face of hope at this moment!"--and it
+was not disappointed.  The sound came nearer, and presently a
+carriage drove into the front court.  I could see nothing, it was
+so dark; but I presently heard the much-respected voice of the
+dear unhappy king, speaking rapidly to the porter, as he alighted
+from the coach.  Mr. Fairly flew instantly upstairs, to acquaint
+the queen with the welcome tidings.
+
+The poor king had been prevailed upon to quit Windsor with the
+utmost difficulty: he was accompanied by General Harcourt, his
+aide-de-camp, and Colonels Goldsworthy and Wellbred--no one else!
+He had passed all the rest with apparent composure, to come to
+his carriage, for they lined the passage, eager to see him once
+more! and almost all Windsor was collected round the rails, etc.
+to witness the mournful spectacle of his departure, which left
+them in the deepest despondence, with scarce a ray of hope ever
+to see him again.
+
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+
+The bribery, however, which brought, was denied him!--he was by
+no means to see the queen
+
+When I went to her at night, she was all graciousness, and kept
+me till very late.  I had not seen her alone so long, except for
+a few minutes in the morning, that I had a thousand things I
+wished to say to her.  You may be sure they were all, as far as
+they went, consolatory.
+
+Princess Augusta had a small tent-bed put up in the queen's
+bed-chamber: I called her royal highness when the queen dismissed
+me.  She undressed in an adjoining apartment.
+
+
+                      THE ARRANGEMENTS AT KEW PALACE.
+
+I must now tell you how the house is disposed. The whole of the
+ground-floor that looks towards the 'garden is appropriated to
+the king, though he is not indulged with its range.  In the side
+wing is a room for the physicians, destined to their
+consultations; adjoining to that is the equerry's dining-room.
+Mrs. Schwellenberg's parlours, which are in the front of the
+house, one for dining, the other for coffee and tea, are still
+allowed us.  The other front rooms below are for the pages to
+dine, and the rest of the more detached buildings are for the
+servants of various sorts.
+
+All the rooms immediately over those which are actually occupied
+by the king are locked up; her majesty relinquishes them, that he
+may never be tantalized by footsteps overhead.  She has retained
+only the bed-room, the drawing-room, which joins to it, and the
+gallery, in which she eats.  Beyond this gallery are the
+apartments of the three elder princesses, in one .of which rooms
+Miss Planta sleeps.  There is nothing more on the first floor.
+
+On the second a very large room for Mrs. Schwellenberg, and a
+very pleasant one for myself, are over the queen's rooms.
+Farther on are three bed-rooms, one for the surgeon or apothecary
+in waiting, the next for the equerry, and the third, lately mine,
+for the queen's lady--all written thus with chalk by the prince.
+
+Then follows a very long dark passage, with little bed-rooms on
+each side, for the maids, and one of the pages.  These look like
+so many little cells of a convent.
+
+Mrs. Sandys has a room nearer the queen's, and Goter has one
+nearer to mine.  At the end of this passage there is a larger
+room, formerly appropriated to Mr. de Luc, but now
+
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+
+chalked "The physicians'."  One physician, one equerry, and one
+surgeon or apothecary, are regularly to sleep in the house.  This
+is the general arrangement.
+
+The prince very properly has also ordered that one of his
+majesty's grooms of' the bedchamber should be in constant
+waiting; he is to reside in the prince's house, over the way,
+which is also fitting up for some others.  This gentleman is to
+receive all inquiries about the king's health.  The same
+regulation had taken place at Windsor, in the Castle, where the
+gentlemen waited in turn.  Though, as the physicians send their
+account to St. James's, this is now become an almost useless
+ceremony, for everybody goes thither to read the bulletin.
+
+The three young princesses are to be in a house belonging to the
+king on Kew green, commonly called Princess Elizabeth's, as her
+royal highness has long inhabited it in her illness.  There will
+lodge Miss Goldsworthy, Mlle. Montmoulin, and Miss Gomme.  Lady
+Charlotte Finch is to be at the Prince of Wales's.
+
+I could not sleep all night----I thought I heard the poor king.
+He was under the same range of apartments, though far distant,
+but his indignant disappointment haunted me.  The queen, too, was
+very angry at having promises made in her
+name which could not be kept.  What a day altogether was this!
+
+
+                           A REGENCY HINTED AT.
+
+Sunday, Nov. 30.-Here, in all its dread colours, dark as its
+darkest prognostics, began the Kew campaign.  I went to my poor
+queen at seven o'clock: the Princess Augusta arose and went away
+to dress, and I received her majesty's commands to go down for
+inquiries.  She had herself passed a wretched night, and already
+lamented leaving Windsor.
+
+I waited very long in the cold dark passages below, before I
+could find any one of whom to ask intelligence.  The parlours
+were without fires, and washing.  I gave directions afterwards,
+to have a fire in one of them by seven o'clock every morning.
+
+At length I procured the speech of one of the pages, and heard
+that the night had been the most violently bad of any yet
+passed!--and no wonder!
+
+I hardly knew how to creep upstairs, frozen both within and
+without, to tell such news; but it was not received as if
+unexpected, and I omitted whatever was not essential to be known.
+
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+
+Afterwards arrived Mrs: Schwellenberg, so oppressed
+between her spasms and the house's horrors, that the oppression
+she inflicted ought perhaps to be pardoned.  It was, however,
+difficult enough to bear!  Harshness, tyranny, dissension, and
+even insult, seemed personified.    I cut short details upon this
+subject-they would but make you sick. . . .
+
+My dear Miss Cambridge sent to me immediately.             I saw
+she had a secret hope she might come and sit with me now and then
+in this confinement. It would have been my greatest possible
+solace in this dreary abode: but I hastened to acquaint her of
+the absolute seclusion, and even to beg she would not send her
+servant to the house - for I found it was much desired to keep
+off all who might carry away any intelligence.
+
+She is ever most reasonable, and never thenceforward hinted upon
+the subject.  But she wrote continually long letters, and filled
+with news and anecdotes of much interest, relating to anything
+she could gather of "out-house proceedings," which now became
+very important--the length of the malady threatening a regency!--
+a Word which I have not yet been able to articulate.
+
+
+                        MR. FAIRLY'S KIND OFFICES.
+
+Kew, Monday, Dec. 1.-Mournful was the opening of the month!  My
+account of the night from Gezewell, the page, was very alarming,
+and my poor royal mistress began to sink more than I had ever yet
+seen.         No wonder; the length of the malady so uncertain,
+the steps which seemed now requisite so shocking: for new advice,
+and such as suited only disorders that physicians in general
+relinquish, was now proposed, and compliance or refusal were
+almost equally tremendous.
+
+In sadness I returned from her, and, moping and unoccupied, I was
+walking up and down my room, when Columb came to say Mr. Fairly
+desired to know if I could see him.
+
+Certainly, I said, I would come to him in the parlour.        He
+was not at all well, nor did he seem at all comfortable.       He
+had undertaken, by his own desire, to purchase small carpets for
+the princesses, for the house is in a state of cold and
+discomfort past all imagination.      It has never been a winter
+residence, and there was nothing prepared for its becoming one.
+He could not, he told me, look at the rooms of their royal
+highnesses without shuddering for them; and he longed, he said,
+to cover all the naked, cold boards, to render them
+
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+
+more habitable.  He had obtained permission to execute this as a
+commission: for so miserable is the house at present that no
+general orders to the proper people are either given Or thought
+about; and every one is so absorbed in the general calamity, that
+they would individually sooner perish than offer up complaint or
+petition.  I Should never end were I to explain the reasons there
+are for both.
+
+What he must next, he said, effect, was supplying them with
+sand-bags for windows and doors, which he intended to fill and to
+place himself.  The wind which blew in upon those lovely
+princesses, he declared, was enough to destroy them.
+
+When he had informed me of these kind offices, he began an
+inquiry into how I was lodged.  Well enough, I said; but he would
+not accept so general an answer.  He insisted upon knowing what
+was my furniture, and in particular if I had any carpet; and when
+I owned I had none, he smiled, and said he would bring six,
+though his commission only extended to three.
+
+He did not at all like the parlour, which, indeed, is wretchedly
+cold and miserable: he wished to bring it a carpet, and
+new fit it up with warm winter accommodations.  He reminded me of
+my dearest Fredy, when she brought me a decanter of barley-water
+and a bright tin saucepan, under her hoop.  I Could not tell him
+that history in detail, but I rewarded his good-nature by hinting
+at the resemblance it bore, in its active zeal, to my sweet Mrs.
+Locke. . . .
+
+The queen afterwards presented me with a very pretty little new
+carpet; only a bed-side slip, but very warm.  She knew not how
+much I was acquainted with its history, but I found she had
+settled for them all six.  She gave another to Mrs.
+Schwellenberg.
+
+
+                       MRS. SCHWELLENBERG'S PARLOUR.
+
+Dec. 3.-Worse again to-day was the poor king: the little fair
+gleam, how soon did it pass away!
+
+I was beginning to grow ill myself, from the added fatigue of
+disturbance in the night, unavoidably occasioned by the
+neighbourhood to an invalid who summoned her maids at all hours;
+and my royal mistress issued orders for a removal to take place.
+
+My new apartment is at the end of the long dark passage
+mentioned, with bed-room cells on each side it.  It is a
+
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+
+very comfortable room, carpeted all over, with one window
+looking- to the front of the house and two into a court-yard.  It
+is the most distant from the queen, but in all other respects is
+very desirable.
+
+I must now relate briefly a new piece of cruelty.  I happened to
+mention to la première présidente my waiting for a page to bring
+the morning accounts.
+
+"And where do you wait?"
+
+"In the parlour, ma'am."
+
+"In my parlour?  Oh, ver well!  I will see to that!"
+
+"There is no other place, ma'am, but the cold passages, which, at
+that time in the morning, are commonly wet as well as dark."
+
+"O, ver well! When everybody goes to my room I might keep an
+inn--what you call hotel."
+
+All good humour now again vanished; and this morning, when I made
+my seven o'clock inquiry, I found the parlour doors both locked!
+I returned so shivering to my queen, that she demanded the cause,
+which I simply related; foreseeing inevitable destruction from
+continuing to run such a hazard.  She instantly protested there
+should be a new arrangement.
+
+Dec. 4.-No opportunity offered yesterday for my better security,
+and therefore I was again exposed this morning to the cold dark
+damp of the miserable passage.  The account was tolerable, but a
+threat of sore-throat accelerated the reform.
+
+It was now settled that the dining-parlour should be made over
+for the officers of state who came upon business to the house,
+and who hitherto had waited in the hall; and the room which was
+next to Mrs. Schwellenberg's, and which had first been mine, was
+now made our salle à manger.  By this means, the parlour being
+taken away for other people, and by command relinquished, I
+obtained once again the freedom of entering it, to 'gather my
+account for her majesty.  But the excess of ill-will awakened by
+my obtaining this little privilege, which was actually necessary
+to my very life, was so great, that more of personal offence and
+harshness could not have been shown to the most guilty of
+culprits.
+
+One of the pages acquainted me his majesty was not worse, and the
+night had been as usual.  As usual, too, was my day sad and
+solitary all the morning--not solitary but worse during dinner
+and coffee.
+
+just after it, however, came the good and sweet Mr. Smelt.
+
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+
+The Prince of Wales sent for him, and condescended to apologise
+for the Windsor transaction, and to order he might regain
+admission.
+
+How this was brought about I am not clear: I only know it is
+agreed by all parties that the prince has the faculty of making
+his peace, where he wishes it, with the most captivating grace In
+the world.
+
+
+                         A NEW PHYSICIAN SUMMONED.
+
+Mr. Fairly told me this evening that Dr. Willis, a physician of
+Lincoln, of peculiar skill and practice in intellectual maladies,
+had been sent for by express.  The poor queen had most painfully
+concurred in a measure which seemed to fix the nature of the
+king's attack in the face of the world; but the necessity and
+strong advice had prevailed over her repugnance.
+
+Dec. 6.-Mr. Fairly came to me, to borrow pen and ink for a few
+memorandums.  Notwithstanding much haste.  he could not, he said,
+go till he had acquainted me with the opening of Dr. Willis with
+his royal patient.  I told him there was nothing I more anxiously
+wished to hear.
+
+He then gave me the full narration, interesting, curious,
+extraordinary; full of promise and hope.  He is extremely pleased
+both with the doctor and his son, Dr. John, he says they are
+fine, lively, natural, independent characters.
+
+Sunday, Dec. 7.-Very bad Was this morning's account.   Lady
+Charlotte Finch read prayers to the queen and princess, and Lady
+Courtown, and the rest for themselves.  M r. Fairly wishes her
+majesty would summon a chaplain, and let the house join in
+congregation.  I think he is right, as far as the house extends
+to those who are still admitted into her majesty's presence.
+
+Dec. 8.-The accounts began mending considerably, and hope broke
+in upon all.
+
+Dec. 9.---All gets now into a better channel, and the dear royal
+invalid gives every symptom of amendment.  God be praised!
+
+Dec. 11.-To-day We have had the fairest hopes: the king took his
+first walk in Kew garden! There have been impediments to this
+trial hitherto, that have been thought insurmountable, though, in
+fact, they were most frivolous.  The walk seemed to do him good,
+and we are all in better
+
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+
+spirits about him than for this many and many a long day past.
+
+
+
+                      MRS. SCHWELLENBERG'S OPINION OF MR. FAIRLY.
+Dec. 12.-This day passed in much the same manner.  Late in the
+evening, after Mr. Smelt was gone, Mrs. Schwellenberg began
+talking about Mr. Fairly, and giving free vent to all her strong
+innate aversion to him.  She went back to the old history of the
+"newseepaper," and gave to his naming it every unheard motive of
+spite, disloyalty, and calumny! three qualities which I believe
+equally and utterly unknown to him.  He was also, she said, "very
+onfeeling, for she had heard him laugh prodigious with the Lady
+Waldegraves, Perticleer with lady Carlisle, what you call Lady
+Elizabeth her sister, and this in the king's illness."  And, in
+fine, she could not bear him.
+
+Such gross injustice I could not hear quietly.  I began a warm
+defence, protesting I knew no one whose heart was more feelingly
+devoted to the royal family, except, perhaps, Mr. Smelt; and that
+as to his laughing, it must have been at something of passing and
+accidental amusement, since he was grave even to melancholy,
+except when he exerted his spirits for the relief or
+entertainment of others.
+
+Equally amazed and provoked, she disdainfully asked me what I
+knew of him?
+
+I made no answer.  I was not quite prepared for the
+interrogatory, and feared she might next inquire when and where I
+had seen him?
+
+My silence was regarded as self-conviction of error, and she
+added, "I know you can't not know him; I know he had never seen
+you two year and half ago; when you came here he had not heard
+your name."
+
+"Two years and a half," I answered coolly, "I did not regard as a
+short time for forming a judgment of any one's character."
+
+"When you don't not see them ? You have never seen him, I am
+sure, but once, or what you call twice."
+
+I did not dare let this pass, it was so very wide from the truth;
+but calmly said I had seen him much oftener than once or twice.
+"And where? when have you seen him?"
+
+"Many times; and at Cheltenham constantly; but never to observe
+in him anything but honour and goodness."
+
+"O ver well! you don't not know him like me, you can't
+
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+not know him; he is not from your acquaintance--I know that ver
+well!"
+
+She presently went on by herself.  "You could not know such a
+person--he told me the same himself: he told me he had not never
+seen you when you first came.  You might see him at Cheltenham,
+that is true; but nothing others, I am
+sure.  At Windsor there was no tea, not wonce, so you can't not
+have seen him, only at Cheltenham."
+
+I hardly knew whether to laugh or be frightened at this width of
+error; nor, indeed, whether it was not all some artifice to draw
+me out, from pique, into some recital: at all events I thought it
+best to say nothing, for she was too affronting to deserve to be
+set right.
+
+She went on to the same purpose some time, more than insinuating
+that a person such as Mr. Fairly could never let him self down to
+be acquainted with me; till finding me too much offended to think
+her assertions worth answering, she started, at last, another
+subject.  I then forced myself to talk much as usual.  But how
+did I rejoice when the clock struck ten--how wish it had been
+twelve!
+
+
+                       THE KING'S VARYING CONDITION.
+
+Dec. 15.-This whole day was passed in great internal agitation
+throughout the house, as the great and important business of the
+Regency was to be discussed to-morrow in Parliament.  All is now
+too painful and intricate for writing a word.  I begin to confine
+my memorandums almost wholly to my own personal proceedings.
+
+Dec. 16.-Whatsoever might pass in the House on this momentous
+subject, it sat so late that no news could arrive. Sweeter and
+better news, however, was immediately at hand than any the whole
+senate could transmit; the account from the pages was truly
+cheering.  With what joy did I hasten with it to the queen, who
+immediately ordered me to be its welcome messenger to the three
+princesses.  And when Mr. Smelt came to my breakfast, with what
+rapture did he receive it! seizing and kissing my hand, while his
+eyes ran over, and joy seemed quite to bewitch him.  He flew away
+in a very few minutes, to share his happiness with his faithful
+partner.
+
+After breakfast I had a long conference in the parlour with Sir
+Lucas Pepys, who justly gloried in the advancement of his
+original prediction; but there had been much dissension
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+
+amongst the physicians, concerning the bulletin to go to St.
+James's, no two agreeing in the degree of better to be announced
+to the world.
+
+Dr. Willis came in while we were conversing, but instantly
+retreated, to leave us undisturbed.  He looks a very fine old
+man.  I wish to be introduced to him.  Mr. Smelt and Mr. Fairly
+are both quite enchanted with all the family; for another son
+now, a clergyman, Mr.  Thomas Willis, has joined their forces.
+
+Dec. 17.-MY account this morning was most afflictive once more:
+it was given by Mr. Hawkins, and was cruelly subversive of all
+our rising hopes.  I carried it to the queen in trembling but she
+bore it most mildly.  What resignation is hers!
+
+Dec. 22.-With what joy did I carry, this morning, an exceeding
+good account of the king to my royal mistress!  It was trebly
+welcome., as much might depend upon it in the resolutions of the
+House concerning the Regency, which was of to-day's discussion.
+
+Mr. Fairly took leave, for a week, he said, wishing me my health,
+while I expressed my own wishes for his good journey But, in
+looking forward to a friendship the most permanent, saw the
+eligibility of rendering it the most open.  I therefore went back
+to Mrs. Schwellenberg; and the moment I received a reproach for
+staying so long, I calmly answered, "Mr. Fairly had made me a
+visit, to take leave before he went into the country."
+
+Amazement was perhaps never more indignant.  Mr. Fairly to take
+leave of me! while not once he even called upon her! This offence
+swallowed up all other comments upon the communication.  I seemed
+not to understand it; but we had a terrible two hours and a-half.
+Yet to such, now, I may look forward without any mixture, any
+alleviation, for evening after evening in this sad abode.
+
+N.B.  My own separate adventures for this month, and year,
+concluded upon this day.
+
+The king went on now better, now worse, in a most fearful manner;
+but Sir Lucas Pepys never lost sight of hope, and the management
+of Dr. Willis and his two sons was most wonderfully acute and
+successful.  Yet so much were they perplexed and tormented by the
+interruptions given to their plans and methods, that they were
+frequently almost tempted to resign the undertaking from anger
+and confusion.
+
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+
+                          DR. WILLIS AND His SON.
+
+Kew Palace, Thursday, Jan. 1, 1789.-The year opened with an
+account the most promising of our beloved king.  I saw Dr,
+Willis, and he told me the night had been very tranquil and he
+sent for his son, Dr. John Willis, to give me a history of the
+morning.  Dr. John's narration was in many parts very affecting:
+the dear and excellent king had been praying for his own
+restoration!  Both the doctors told me that such strong symptoms
+of true piety had scarce ever been discernible through so
+dreadful a malady.
+
+How I hastened to my queen!--and with what alacrity I besought
+permission to run next to the princesses!  It was so sweet, so
+soothing, to open a new year with the solace of anticipated good!
+
+Jan. 3.-I have the great pleasure, now, of a change in my
+morning's historiographers; I have made acquaintance with Dr.
+Willis and his son, and they have desired me to summon one of
+them constantly for my information.  I am extremely struck with
+both these physicians.  Dr. Willis is a man of ten thousand;
+open, holiest, dauntless, lighthearted, innocent, and high
+minded: I see him impressed with the most animated reverence and
+affection for his royal patient; but it is wholly for his
+character,--not a whit for his rank.
+
+Dr. John, his eldest son, is extremely handsome, and inherits, in
+a milder degree, all the qualities of his father; but living
+more in the general world, and having his fame and fortune still
+to settle, he has not yet acquired the same courage, nor is he,
+by nature, quite so sanguine in his opinions.  The manners of
+both are extremely pleasing, and they both proceed completely
+their own way, not merely unacquainted with court etiquette, but
+wholly, and most artlessly, unambitious to form any such
+acquaintance.
+
+Jan. 11.-This morning Dr. John gave me but a bad account of the
+poor king.  His amendment is not progressive; it fails, and goes
+back, and disappoints most grievously; yet it would be nothing
+were the case and its circumstances less discussed,
+and were expectation more reasonable.
+
+Jan. 12.-A melancholy day: news bad both at home and abroad.  At
+home the dear unhappy king still worse--abroad new examinations
+voted of the physicians!  Good heaven! what an insult does this
+seem from parliamentary power, to investigate and bring forth to
+the world every circumstance Of
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+such a malady as is ever held sacred to secrecy in the most
+private families!  How indignant we all feel here no words can
+say.
+
+
+                            LEARNING IN WOMEN.
+
+Jan. 13.-The two younger Willises, Dr. John and Mr.  Thomas, came
+upstairs in the afternoon, to make a visit to Mrs. Schwellenberg.
+I took the opportunity to decamp to my own room, where I found
+Mr. Fairly in waiting.
+
+In the course of conversation that followed, Mrs. Carter was
+named: Mr. Smelt is seriously of opinion her ode is the best in
+our language.(301)  I spoke of her very highly, for indeed I
+reverence her.
+
+Learning in women was then Our theme.  I rather wished to hear
+than to declaim upon this subject, yet I never seek to disguise
+that I think it has no recommendation of sufficient value to
+compensate its evil excitement of envy and satire.
+
+He spoke with very uncommon liberality on the female powers and
+intellects, and protested he had never, in his commerce with the
+world, been able to discern any other inferiority in their parts
+than what resulted from their Pursuits -and yet, with all this,
+he doubted much whether he had ever seen any woman who might not
+have been rather better without than with the learned languages,
+one only excepted.
+
+He was some time silent, and I could not but suppose he meant his
+correspondent, Miss Fuzilier; but, with a very tender sigh, he
+said, "And she was my mother,--who neglected nothing else, while
+she cultivated Latin, and who knew it very well, and would have
+known it very superiorly, but that her brother disliked her
+studying, and one day burnt all her books!"
+
+This anecdote led to one in return, from myself.  I told him,
+briefly the history of Dr. Johnson's most kind condescension, in
+desiring to make me his pupil, and beginning to give me regular
+lessons of the Latin language, and i proceeded to the speedy
+conclusion--my great apprehension,-- conviction rather,--that
+what I learnt of so great a man could never be private, and that
+he himself would contemn concealment, if any
+
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+
+progress should be made; which to Me was sufficient motive for
+relinquishing the scheme, and declining the honour, highly as I
+valued it, of obtaining Such a master--"and this," I added,
+"though difficult to be done without offending,
+was yet the better effected, as my father himself likes and
+approves all accomplishments for women better than the dead
+languages."
+
+
+
+                    THE QUEEN AND MR. FAIRLY'S VISITS.
+
+Jan. 14.-I must now mention a rather singular conversation.  I
+had no opportunity last night to name, as usual, my visitor; but
+I have done it so often, so constantly indeed, that I was not
+uneasy In the omission.
+
+But this morning, while her hair was dressing, my royal Mistress
+suddenly said, "Did you see any body yesterday?" I could not but
+be sure of her meaning, and though vexed to be anticipated in my
+avowal, which had but waited the departure of the wardrobe-woman,
+Sandys, I instantly answered, "Yes, ma'am; Mr, Smelt in the
+morning and Mr. Fairly in the evening."
+
+"O! Mr. Fairly was here, then?"
+
+I was now doubly sorry she should know this only from me!  He had
+Mentioned being just come from town, but I had concluded Lady
+Charlotte Finch, as usual, knew of his arrival, and had made it
+known to her Majesty.  A little while after,--"Did he go away
+from you early?" she said.
+
+"No, ma'am," I Immediately answered, "not early: he drank tea
+with Me, as he generally does, I believe, when he is here for the
+night."
+
+"Perhaps," cried she after a pause, "the gentlemen below do not
+drink tea."
+
+"I cannot tell, ma'am, I never heard him say; I only know he
+asked me if I would give him some, and I told him yes, with great
+pleasure."
+
+Never did I feel so happy in unblushing consciousness of internal
+liberty as in this little catechism!  However, I soon found I had
+Mistaken the Motive of the catechism: it was not on account of
+Mr. Fairly and his visit; it was all for Mrs. Schwellenberg and
+her no visits; for she soon dropped something of "poor Mrs.
+Schwellenberg" and her Miserable state, that opened her whole
+meaning.
+
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+
+                          A MELANCHOLY BIRTHDAY.
+
+Sunday, Jan. 18.-The public birthday of my poor royal mistress.
+How sadly did she pass it; and how was I filled With sorrow for
+her reflections upon this its first anniversary for these last
+twenty-eight years in which the king and the nation have not
+united in its celebration!  All now was passed over in silence
+and obscurity; all observance of the day was prohibited, both
+abroad and at home.
+
+The poor king whose attention to times and dates is unremittingly
+exact, knew the day, and insisted upon seeing the queen and three
+of the princesses; but--it was not a good day.
+
+
+                           MR. FAIRLY ON FANS.
+
+
+Jan. 21.-I came to my room; and there, in my own corner, sat poor
+Mr. Fairly, looking a little forlorn, and telling me he had been
+there near an hour.  I made every apology that could mark in the
+strongest manner how little I thought his patience worth such
+exertion. . . .
+
+He was going to spend the next day at St. Leonard's, where he was
+to meet his son; and he portrayed to me the character of Mrs.
+Harcourt so fairly and favourably, that her flightiness sunk away
+on the rise of her good qualities.  He spoke of his chapel of St.
+Catherine's, its emoluments, chaplain, brothers, sisters, and
+full establishment.
+
+Finding I entered into nothing, he took up a fan which lay on my
+table, and began playing off various imitative airs with it,
+exclaiming, "How thoroughly useless a toy!"
+
+"No," I said; "on the contrary, taken as an ornament, it was the
+most useful ornament of any belonging to full dress, occupying
+the hands, giving the eyes something to look at, and taking away
+stiffness and formality from the figure and deportment."
+
+"Men have no fans," cried he, "and how do they do?"
+
+"Worse," quoth I, plumply.
+
+He laughed quite out, saying, "That's ingenuous, however; and,
+indeed, I must confess they are reduced, from time to time, to
+shift their hands from one pocket to another."
+
+"Not, to speak of lounging about in their chairs from one side to
+another."
+
+"But the real use of a fan," cried he, "if there is any, is it
+not--to hide a particular blush that ought not to appear?"
+
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+
+"O, no; it Would rather make it the sooner noticed."
+"Not at all; it may be done under pretence of absence--rubbing
+the cheek, or nose--putting it up accidentally to the eye--in a
+thousand ways."
+
+He went through all these evolutions comically enough, and then,
+putting aside his toy, came back to graver matters.
+
+
+                     MR. FAIRLY CONTINUES HIS VISITS:
+                    THE QUEEN AGAIN REMARKS UPON THEM.
+
+Jan. 26.-In the evening Mr. Fairly came to tea.  He was grave,
+and my reception did not make him gayer.  General discourse took
+place till Mrs. Dickenson happened to be named.  He knew her very
+well as Miss Hamilton.  Her conjugal conduct, in displaying her
+Superior power over her husband, was our particular theme, till
+in the midst of it he exclaimed, "How well you will be trained in
+by Mrs. Schwellenberg--if you come to trial!"
+
+Ah! thought I, the more I suffer through her, the less and less
+do I feel disposed to run any new and more lasting risk, But I
+said not this.  I only protested I was much less her humble
+servant than might be supposed.
+
+"How can that be," cried he, "when you never contest any one
+point with her?"
+
+Not, I said, in positive wrangling, which could never answer its
+horrible pain; but still I refused undue obedience when exacted
+with indignity, and always hastened to retire when offended and
+affronted.
+
+He took up Mrs. Smith's "Emmeline,"(302) which is just lent me by
+the queen; but he found it not piquant and putting it down,
+begged me to choose him a Rambler." I had a good deal of
+difficulty In my decision, as he had already seen almost all I
+could particularly wish to recommend; and, when he saw me turn
+over leaf after leaf with some hesitation, he began a serious
+reproach to me of inflexible reserve.  And then away he went.
+
+I hastened immediately to Mrs. Schwellenberg; and found all in a
+tumult.  She had been, she said, alone all the evening, and was
+going to have sent for me, but found I had my company.  She sent
+for Mlle. Montmoulin but she had a cold; for Miss Gomme, but she
+could not come because of the snow;
+
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+
+for Miss Planta but she was ill with a fever, "what you call
+head-ache:" she had then "sent to princess royal, who had been to
+her, and pitied her ver moch, for princess royal was really
+sensible."
+
+And all this was communicated with a look of accusation, and a
+tone of menace, that might have suited an attack upon some
+hardened felon. . . .
+
+I made no sort of apology nor any other answer than that I had
+had the honour of Mr. Fairly's company to tea, which was always a
+pleasure to me.
+
+I believe something like consciousness whispered her here, that
+it might really be possible his society was as pleasant as I had
+found hers, for she then dropped her lamentation, and said she
+thanked God she wanted nobody, not one; she could always amuse
+herself, and was glad enough to be alone.
+
+Were it but true!
+
+I offered cards: she refused, because it was too late, though we
+yet remained together near two hours.
+
+If this a little disordered me, You will not think what followed
+was matter of composure.  While the queen's hair was rolling up,
+by the wardrobe woman, at night, Mrs. Schwellenberg happened to
+leave the room, and almost instantly her majesty, in a rather
+abrupt manner, said "Is Mr. Fairly here to-night?"
+
+"Yes, ma'am."
+
+"When did he come back?"
+
+I could not recollect.
+
+"I did not know he was here."
+
+This thunderstruck me; that he should come again, or stay, at
+least, without apprising his royal mistress, startled me
+inwardly, and distressed me outwardly.
+
+"I knew, indeed," she then added, "he was here in the morning,
+but I understood he went away afterwards."
+
+The idea of connivance now struck me with a real disdain, that
+brought back my courage and recollection in full force, and I
+answered, "I remember, ma'am, he told me he had rode over to
+Richmond park at noon, and returned here to dinner with Colonel
+Wellbred, and in the evening he drank tea with me, and said he
+should sup with General Harcourt."
+
+All this, spoken with an openness that rather invited than
+shunned further investigation, seemed to give an immediate
+satisfaction ; the tone of voice_ changed to its usual com-
+
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+placency, and she inquired various things concerning the Stuart
+family, and then spoke upon more common topics.
+
+I concluded it now all over; but soon after Mrs. Sandys went
+away, and then, very unexpectedly, the queen renewed the subject.
+"The reason," she said, "that I asked about Mr. Fairly was that
+the Schwellenberg sent to ask Miss Planta to come to her, because
+Mr. Fairly was--no, not with her--he never goes to her."
+
+She stopped; but I was wholly silent.  I felt instantly with how
+little propriety I could undertake either to defend or to excuse
+Mr. Fairly, whom I determined to consider as a visitor,, over
+whom, having no particular influence, I could be charged with no
+particular responsibility.
+
+After waiting a few minutes,-"With you," she said, "Mr. Fairly
+was and the Schwellenberg was alone."
+
+My spirits quite panted at this moment to make a full Confession
+of the usage I had endured from the person thus compassionated;
+but I had so frequently resolved, in moments Of cool
+deliberation, not even to risk doing mischief to a favourite old
+servant, that I withstood the impulse ; but the inward conflict
+silenced me from saying anything else.
+
+I believe she was surprised but she added, after a long pause, "I
+believe--he comes to you every evening when here."
+
+"I do not know, ma'am, always, when he is here or away; but I am
+always very glad to see him, for indeed his visits make all the
+little variety that--"
+
+I hastily stopped, lest she should think me discontented with
+this strict confinement during this dreadful season ; and that I
+can never be, when it is not accompanied by tyranny and
+injustice.
+
+She immediately took up the word, but without the slightest
+displeasure.  "Why here there might be more variety than
+anywhere, from the nearness to town, except for--"
+
+" The present situation of things."  I eagerly interrupted her to
+say, and went on: "Indeed, ma'am, I have scarce a wish to break
+into the present arrangement, by seeing anybody while the house
+is in this state; nor have I, from last October, seen one human
+being that does not live here, except Mr. Smelt, Mr. Fairly, and
+Sir Lucas Pepys; and they all come upon their own calls, and not
+for me."
+
+"The only objection," she gently answered, "to seeing anybody, is
+that every one who comes carries some sort of information away
+with them."
+
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+
+I assured her I was perfectly content to wait for better
+times, Here the matter dropped ; she appeared satisfied with what
+I said, and became soft and serene as before the little attack.
+
+Jan. 27.-The intelligence this morning was not very pleasant.  I
+had a conference afterwards with Sir Lucas Pepys, who keeps up
+undiminished hope.  We held our council in the physicians' room,
+which chanced to be empty; but before it broke up Colonel
+Wellbred entered.  It was a pleasure to me to see him, though
+somewhat an embarrassment to hear him immediately lament that we
+never met, and add that he knew not in what manner to procure
+himself that pleasure.  I joined in the lamentation, and its
+cause, which confined us all to our cells.  Sir Lucas declared my
+confinement menaced my health, and charged me to walk out, and
+take air and exercise very sedulously, if I would avoid an
+illness.
+
+Colonel Wellbred instantly offered me a key of Richmond gardens,
+which opened into them by a nearer door than what was used in
+common.  I accepted his kindness, and took an hour's walk,-for
+the first time since last October; ten minutes in Kew gardens are
+all I have spent without doors since the middle of that month.
+
+
+                        THE SEARCH FOR MR. FAIRLY.
+
+Jan. 30.-To-day my poor royal mistress received the address of
+the Lords and Commons, of condolence, etc., upon his majesty's
+illness.  What a painful, but necessary ceremony!  It was most
+properly presented by but few members, and those almost all
+chosen from the household: a great propriety.
+
+Not long after came Mr. Fairly, looking harassed.  "May I," he
+cried, "come in?--and-for an hour?  Can you allow me entrance and
+room for that time?"
+
+Much Surprised, for already it was three o'clock, I assented: he
+then told me he had something to copy for her majesty, which was
+of the highest importance, and said he could find no quiet room
+in the house but mine for such a business.  I gave him every
+accommodation in my power.  When he had written a few lines, he
+asked if I was very busy, or could help him ? Most readily I
+offered my services, and then I read to him the original,
+sentence by sentence, to facilitate his copying; receiving his
+assurances of my "great assistance" every two lines.  In the
+midst of this occupation,
+
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+
+a tap at my door made me precipitately put down the paper to
+receive-lady Charlotte Finch!
+
+"Can you," she cried, "have the goodness to tell me any thing of
+Mr. Fairly?"
+
+The screen had hidden him; but, gently,--though, I believe ill
+enough pleased,--he called out himself, "Here is Mr. Fairly."
+
+She flew up to him, crying, "O, Mr. Fairly, what a search has
+there been for you, by the queen's orders !  She has wanted you
+extremely, and no one knew where to find you.  They have been to
+the waiting-room, to the equerries', all over the garden, to the
+prince's house, in your own room, and could find you nowhere, and
+at last they thought you were gone back to town."
+
+He calmly answered, while he still wrote on, he was sorry they
+had had so much trouble, for he had only been executing her
+majesty's commands.
+
+She then hesitated a little, almost to stammering, in adding
+"So--at last--I said--that perhaps--you might be here!"
+
+He now raised his head from the paper, and bowing it towards me,
+"Yes," he cried, "Miss Burney is so good as to give me leave, and
+there is no other room in the house in Which I can be at rest."
+
+"So I told her majesty," answered Lady Charlotte, "though she
+said she was sure you could not be here ; but I said there was
+really no room of quiet here for any business, and so then I came
+to see."
+
+"Miss Burney," he rejoined, "has the goodness also to help me--
+she has taken the trouble to read as I go on, which forwards me
+very much."
+
+Lady Charlotte stared, and I felt sorry at this confession of a
+confidence she could not but think too much, and I believe he
+half repented it, for he added, "This, however, you need not
+perhaps mention, though I know where I trust!"
+
+He proceeded again with his writing, and she then recollected her
+errand.  She told him that what he was copying was to be carried
+to town by Lord Aylesbury, but the queen desired to see it first.
+ She then returned to her majesty.
+
+She soon, however, returned again.  She brought the queen's seal,
+and leave that he might make up the packet, and give it to Lord
+Aylesbury, without showing it first to her majesty, who was just
+gone to dinner.  With her customary good-humour
+
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+
+and good-breeding, she then chatted with me some time, and again
+departed.
+
+We then went to work with all our might, reading and copying.
+The original was extremely curious--I am sorry I must make it
+equally secret.
+
+
+             Miss BURNEY's ALARM ON BEING CHASED BY THE KING.
+Kew Palace, Monday, Feb. 2.-What an adventure had I this morning!
+one that has occasioned me the severest personal terror I ever
+experienced in my life.
+
+Sir Lucas Pepys still persisting that exercise and air were
+absolutely necessary to save me from illness, I have continued my
+walks, varying my gardens from Richmond to Kew, according to the
+accounts I received of the movements of the king.  For this I had
+her majesty's permission, on the representation of Sir Lucas.
+This morning, when I received my intelligence of the king from
+Dr. John Willis, I begged to know where I might walk in safety?
+"In Kew gardens," he said, "as the king would be in Richmond."
+
+"Should any unfortunate circumstance," I cried, "at any time,
+occasion my being seen by his majesty, do not mention my name,
+but let me run off without call or notice." This he promised.
+Everybody, indeed, is ordered to keep out of sight.  Taking,
+therefore, the time I had most at command, I strolled into the
+gardens.  I had proceeded, in my quick way, nearly half the
+round, when I suddenly perceived, through some trees, two or
+three figures.  Relying on the instructions of Dr. John, I
+concluded them to be workmen and gardeners; yet tried to look
+sharp, and in so doing, as they were less shaded, I thought I saw
+the person of his majesty!
+
+Alarmed past all possible expression, I waited not to know more,
+but turning back, ran off with all my might.  But what was my
+terror to hear myself pursued!--to hear the voice of the king
+himself loudly and hoarsely calling after me, "MISS Burney! Miss
+Burney!
+
+I protest I was ready to die.  I knew not in what state he might
+be at the time; I only knew the orders to keep out of his way
+were universal; that the queen would highly disapprove any
+unauthorized meeting, and that the very action of my running away
+might deeply, in his present irritable state,
+offend him.  Nevertheless, on I ran, too terrified to stop, and
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+
+In search Of some short passage, for the g)arden is full of
+labyrinths, by which I might escape.
+
+The steps still pursued me, and Still the poor hoarse and altered
+voice rang in my ears:--more and more footsteps sounded
+frightfully behind me,--the attendants all running to catch their
+eager master, and the voices of the two Doctor Willises loudly
+exhorting him not to heat himself so unmercifully.
+
+Heavens, how I ran!  I do not think I should have felt the hot
+lava from Vesuvius--at least not the hot cinders--hadd I so run
+during its eruption.  My feet were not sensible that they even
+touched the ground.
+
+Soon after, I heard other voices, shriller, though less nervous,
+call out "Stop! stop! stop!"
+
+I could by no means consent: I knew not what was purposed, but I
+recollected fully my agreement with Dr. John that very morning,
+that I should decamp if Surprised, and not b named.  My own fears
+and repugnance, also, after a flight and disobedience like this,
+were doubled in the thought of not
+escaping; I knew not to what I might be exposed, should the
+malady be then high, and take the turn of resentment.  Still,
+therefore, on I flew; and such was my speed, so almost incredible
+to relate or recollect, that I fairly believe no one of the whole
+party could have overtaken me, if these words, from one of the
+attendants, had not reached me, "Doctor Willis begs you to stop!"
+
+
+"I cannot! I cannot!" I answered, still flying on, when he called
+out, "You must, ma'am; it hurts the king to run."
+
+Then, indeed, I stopped--in a state of fear really amounting to
+agony.  I turned round, I saw the two doctors had got the king
+between them, and three attendants of Dr. Willis's were hovering
+about.  They all slackened their pace, as they saw me stand
+still; but such was the excess of my alarm, that I was wholly
+insensible to the effects of a race which, at any other time,
+would have required an hour's recruit.
+
+As they approached, some little presence of mind happily came to
+my command it occurred to me that, to appease the wrath of my
+flight, I must now show some confidence: I therefore faced them
+as undauntedly as I was able, only charging the nearest of the
+attendants to stand by my side.
+
+When they were within a few yards of me, the king called out,
+"Why did you run away?"
+
+Shocked at a question impossible to answer, yet a little
+
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+
+assured by the mild tone of his voice, I instantly forced myself
+forward, to meet him, though the internal sensation which
+satisfied me this was a step the most proper, to appease his
+suspicions and displeasure, was so violently combated by the
+tremor of my nerves, that I fairly think I may reckon it the
+greatest effort of personal courage-I have ever made.
+
+
+
+                   A ROYAL SALUTE AND ROYAL CONFIDENCES.
+
+The effort answered : I looked up, and met all his wonted
+benignity of countenance, though something still of wildness in
+his eyes.  Think, however, of my surprise, to feel him put both
+his hands round my two shoulders, and then kiss my cheek ! * I
+wonder I did not really sink, so exquisite was my affright when I
+saw him spread out his arms! Involuntarily, I concluded he meant
+to crush me: but the Willises, who have never seen him till this
+fatal illness, not knowing how very extraordinary an action this
+was from him, simply smiled and looked pleased, supposing,
+perhaps, it was his customary salutation!
+
+I believe, however, it was but the joy of a heart unbridled, now,
+by the forms and proprieties of established custom and sober
+reason.  To see any of his household thus by accident, seemed
+such a near approach to liberty and recovery, that who can wonder
+it should serve rather to elate than lessen what yet remains of
+his disorder!
+
+He now spoke in such terms of his pleasure in seeing me, that I
+soon lost the whole of my terror; astonishment to find him so
+nearly well, and gratification to see him so pleased, removed
+every uneasy feeling, and the joy that succeeded, in my
+conviction of his recovery, made me ready to throw myself at his
+feet to express it.
+
+What conversation followed! When he saw me fearless, he grew more
+and more alive, and made me walk close by his side, away from the
+attendants, and even the Willises themselves, who, to indulge
+him, retreated.  I own myself not completely composed, but alarm
+I could entertain no more.
+
+Everything that came uppermost in his mind he mentioned; he
+seemed to have just such remains of his flightiness as heated his
+imagination without deranging his reason, and robbed him of all
+control over his speech, though nearly in his perfect state Of
+mind as to his opinions.  What did he not say !--He opened
+
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+
+his whole heart to me,--expounded all his sentiments, and
+acquainted me with all his intentions.
+
+The heads of his discourse I must give you briefly, as I am sure
+you will be highly curious to hear them, and as no accident can
+render of much consequence what a man says in such a state of
+physical intoxication.  He assured me he was quite well--as well
+as he had ever been in his life ; and then inquired how I did,
+and how I went on? and whether I was more comfortable?  If these
+questions, in their implications, surprised me, imagine how that
+surprise must increase when he proceeded to explain them!  He
+asked after the coadjutrix, laughing, and saying "Never mind
+her!--don't be oppressed--I am your friend! don't let her cast
+you down!--I know you have a hard time of it--but don't mind
+her!"
+
+Almost thunderstruck with astonishment, I merely curtsied to his
+kind "I am your friend," and said nothing.  Then presently he
+added, "Stick to your father--stick to your own family--let them
+be your objects."
+
+How readily I assented!
+Again he repeated all I have just written, nearly in the same
+words, but ended it more seriously: He suddenly stopped, and held
+me to stop too, and putting his hand on his breast.  in the most
+solemn manner, he gravely and slowly said, "I will protect you!--
+I promise you that--and therefore depend upon me!"
+
+I thanked him ; and the Willises, thinking him rather too
+elevated, came to propose my walking on.  "No, no, no!" he cried,
+a hundred times in a breath and their good humour prevailed, and
+they let him again walk on with his new Companion.
+
+He then gave me a history of his pages, animating almost into a
+rage, as he related his subjects of displeasure with them,
+particularly with Mr. Ernst, who he told me had been brought up
+by himself.  I hope his ideas upon these men are the result of
+the mistakes of his malady.
+
+Then he asked me some questions that very greatly &stressed me,
+relating to information given him in his illness, from various
+motives, but which he suspected to be false, and which I knew he
+had reason to suspect: yet was It most dangerous to set anything
+right, as I was not aware what might be the views of their having
+been stated wrong.  I was as discreet as I knew how to be, and I
+hope I did no mischief; but this was the worst part of the
+dialogue.
+
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+
+He next talked to me a great deal of my dear father, and
+made a thousand inquiries concerning his "History of Music."
+This brought him to his favourite theme, Handel; and he told  me
+innumerable anecdotes of him, and particularly that celebrated
+tale of Handel's saying of himself, when a boy, "While that boy
+lives, my music will never want a protector." And this, he said,
+I might relate to my father.  Then he ran over
+most of his oratorios, attempting to sing the subjects of several
+airs and choruses, but so dreadfully hoarse that the sound was
+terrible.
+
+Dr. Willis, quite alarmed at this exertion, feared he would do
+himself harm, and again proposed a separation.  " "No! no! no!"
+he exclaimed, "not yet; I have something I must just mention
+first."
+
+Dr. Willis, delighted to comply, even when uneasy at compliance,
+again gave way.  The good king then greatly affected me.  He
+began upon my revered old friend, Mrs. Delany and he spoke of her
+with such warmth--such kindness!  "She was my friend!" he cried,
+"and I loved her as a friend!  I have made a memorandum when I
+lost her--I will show it YOU."
+
+He pulled out a pocket-book, and rummaged some time, but to no
+purpose.  The tears stood in his eyes--he wiped them, and Dr.
+Willis again became very anxious.  "Come, sir," he cried, "now do
+you come in and let the lady go on her walk,-come, now you have
+talked a long while,-so we'll go in,--if your majesty pleases."
+
+"No, no!" he cried, "I want to ask her a few questions ; --I have
+lived so long out of the world, I know nothing!"
+
+This touched me to the heart.  We walked on together, and he
+inquired after various persons, particularly Mrs. Boscawen,
+because she was Mrs. Delany's friend!  Then, for the same reason,
+after Mr. Frederick Montagu,(303) of whom he kindly said,  "I
+know he has a great regard for me, for all he joined the
+opposition." Lord Grey de Wilton, Sir Watkin Wynn, the Duke of
+Beaufort, and various others, followed.  He then told me he was
+very much dissatisfied with several of his state officers, and
+meant to form an entire new establishment.  He took a paper out
+of his pocket-book, and showed me his new list.
+
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+
+This was the wildest thing that passed ; and Dr. John Willis now
+seriously urged our separating; but he would not consent he had
+only three more words to say, he declared, and again he
+conquered.
+
+He now spoke of my father, with still more kindness, and told me
+he ought to have had the post of master of the band, and not that
+little poor musician Parsons, who was not fit for it: "But Lord
+Salisbury," he cried, "used your father vary ill in that
+business, and so he did me!  However, I have dashed out his name,
+and I shall put your father's in,--as soon as I
+get loose again!"
+
+This again--how affecting was this!
+
+"And what," cried he,"has your father got, at last?  nothing but
+that poor thing at Chelsea?(304) O fie! fie! fie! But never mind!
+I will take care of him.  I will do it myself!"  Then presently
+he added, "As to Lord Salisbury, he is out already, as this
+memorandum will Show you, and so are many more.  I shall be much
+better served and when once I get away, I shall rule with a rod
+of iron!"
+
+This was very unlike himself, and startled the two good doctors,
+who could not bear to cross him, and were exulting at seeing his
+great amendment, but yet grew quite uneasy at his earnestness and
+volubility.  Finding we now must part, he stopped to take leave,
+and renewed again his charges about the coadjutrix.  "Never mind
+her!" he cried, "depend upon me! I will be your friend as long as
+I live--I here pledge myself to be your friend!"  And then he
+saluted me again just as at the meeting, and suffered me to go
+on.
+
+What a scene! how variously was I affected by it! but, upon the
+whole, how inexpressibly thankful to see him so nearly himself--
+so little removed from recovery!
+
+
+         CURIOSITY REGARDING Miss BURNEY'S MEETING WITH THE KING.
+
+I went very soon after to the queen to whom I was most eager to
+avow the meeting, and how little I could help it.  Her
+astonishment, and her earnestness to hear every particular, were
+very great.  I told her almost all.  Some few things relating to
+the distressing questions I could not repeat nor
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+
+many things said of Mrs. Schwellenberg, which would much, very
+needlessly, have hurt her.
+
+This interview, and the circumstances belonging to it, excited
+general curiosity, and all the house watched for opportunities to
+beg a relation of it.  How delighted was I to tell them all my
+happy prognostics!
+
+But the first to hasten to hear of it was Mr. Smelt; eager and
+enchanted was the countenance and attention of that truly loyal
+and most affectionate adherent to his old master.  He wished me
+to see Lady Harcourt and the general, and to make them a brief
+relation of this extraordinary rencounter but for that I had not
+effort enough left.
+
+I did what I Could, however, to gratify the curiosity of Colonel
+Wellbred, which I never saw equally excited.  I was passing him
+on the stairs, and he followed me, to say he had heard what had
+happened--I imagine from the Willises.  I told him, with the
+highest satisfaction, the general effect produced upon my mind by
+the accident, that the king seemed so nearly, himself, that
+patience itself could have but little longer trial.  He wanted to
+hear more particulars: I fancy the Willises had vaguely related
+some: "Did he not," he cried, "promise to do something for you?"
+I only laughed, and answered, "O yes! if you want any thing,
+apply to me;--now is my time!"
+
+Feb. 3.--I had the great happiness to be assured this morning, by
+both the Dr. Willises, that his majesty was by no means the worse
+for our long conference.  Those good men are inexpressibly happy
+themselves in the delightful conviction given me, and by me
+spread about, of the near recovery of their royal patient.
+
+While I was dressing came Mr. Fairly: I could not admit him, but
+he said he would try again in the evening.  I heard by the tone
+of his voice a peculiar eagerness, and doubted not he was
+apprized of my adventure.
+
+He came early, before I could leave my fair companion, and sent
+on Goter.  I found him reading a new pamphlet of Horne Tooke:
+"How long," he cried, "it is since I have been here!"
+
+I was not flippantly disposed, or I would have said I had thought
+the time he spent away always short, by his avowed eagerness to
+decamp.
+
+He made so many inquiries of how I had gone on and what I had
+done since I saw him, that I was soon satisfied he was
+
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+not uninformed of yesterday's transaction.  I told him so; he
+could not deny it, but wished to hear the whole from myself.
+
+I most readily complied.  He listened with the most eager, nay,
+anxious attention, scarce breathing: he repeatedly ex_ claimed,
+when I had finished, "How I wish I had been there! how I should
+have liked to have seen you!"
+
+I assured him he would not wish that, if he knew the terror I had
+suffered.  He was quite elated with the charges against Cerberic
+tyranny, and expressed himself gratified by the promises of
+favour and protection.
+
+
+                             THE REGENCY BILL.
+
+Feb. 6.-These last three days have been spent very unpleasantly
+indeed: all goes hardly and difficultly with my poor royal
+mistress.
+
+Yet his majesty is now, thank heaven, so much better, that he
+generally sees his gentlemen in some part of the evening; and Mr.
+Fairly, having no particular taste for being kept in waiting
+whole hours for this satisfaction of a few minutes, yet finding
+himself, if in the house, indispensably required to attend with
+the rest, has changed his Kew visits from nights to mornings.
+
+He brought me the "Regency Bill!"--I shuddered to hear it named.
+It was just printed, and he read it to me, with comments and
+explanations, which took up all our time, and in a manner, at
+present, the most deeply interesting in which it could be
+occupied.
+
+'Tis indeed a dread event!--and how it may terminate who can say?
+My poor royal mistress is much disturbed.  Her daughters behave
+like angels - they seem content to reside in this gloomy solitude
+for ever, if it prove of comfort to their mother, or mark their
+duteous affection for their father.
+
+
+                          INFINITELY LICENTIOUS!
+
+Feb. 9.-I now walk on the road-side, along the park-wall, every
+fair morning, as I shall venture no more into either of the
+gardens.  In returning this morning, I was overtaken by Mr.
+Fairly, who rode up to me, and, dismounting, gave his horse to
+his groom, to walk on with me.
+
+About two hours after I was, however, surprised by a visit from
+him in my own room, He came, he said, only to ask
+
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+me a second time how I did, as he should be here now less and
+less, the king's amendment rendering his services of smaller and
+smaller importance.
+
+He brought me a new political parody of Pope's "Eloisa to
+Abelard," from Mr. Eden to Lord Hawkesbury.  It is a most daring,
+though very clever imitation.  It introduces many of the present
+household.  Mrs. Schwellenberg is now in eternal abuse from all
+these scribblers; Lady Harcourt, and many others, less notorious
+to their attacks, are here brought forward.  How infinitely
+licentious!
+
+
+              MISS BURNEY IS TAXED WITH VISITING GENTLEMEN.
+Feb. 10.-The amendment of the king is progressive, and without
+any reasonable fear, though not without some few drawbacks.  The
+Willis family were surely sent by heaven to restore peace, and
+health, and prosperity to this miserable house
+
+Lady Charlotte Finch called upon me two days ago, almost
+purposely, to inquire concerning the report of my young friend's
+marriage; and she made me promise to acquaint her when I received
+any further news: at noon, therefore, I went to her apartment at
+the Prince of Wales's, with this information.  Mr. Fairly, I
+knew, was with the equerries in our lodge.  Lady Charlotte had
+the Duchess of Beaufort and all the Fieldings with her, and
+therefore I only left a message, by no means, feeling spirits for
+encountering any stranger.
+
+At noon, when I attended her majesty, she inquired if I had
+walked?--Yes.--Where?--In Richmond gardens.--And nowhere else?--
+No.  She looked thoughtful,--and presently I recollected my
+intended visit to Lady Charlotte, and mentioned it.  She cleared
+up, and said, "O!--you.  went to Lady Charlotte?"
+
+"Yes, ma'am," I answered, thinking her very absent,--which I
+thought with sorrow, as that is so small a part of her character,
+that I know not I ever saw any symptom of it before.  Nor, in
+fact, as I found afterwards, did I see it now.  It was soon
+explained.  Miss Gomme, Mlle. Montmoulin, and Miss Planta, all
+dined with Mrs. Schwellenberg to-day.  The moment I joined them,
+Mrs. Schwellenberg called out,--"Pray,
+Miss Berner, for what visit you the gentlemen?"
+
+"Me?"
+
+"Yes, you,--and for what, I say?"
+
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+
+Amazed, I declared I did not know what she meant.
+
+"O," cried she, scoffingly, "that won't not do!--we all saw
+you,--princess royal the same,--so don't not say that."
+
+I stared,-and Miss Gomme burst out in laughter, and then Mrs.
+Schwellenberg added,--"For what go you over to the Prince of
+Wales his house?--nobody lives there but the gentlemen,--nobody
+others."
+
+I laughed too, now, and told her the fact.
+
+"O," cried she, "Lady Charlotte!--ver true.  I had forgot Lady
+Charlotte!"
+
+"O, very well, imagine," cried I,--"so only the gentlemen were
+remembered!"
+
+I then found this had been related to the queen; and Mlle.
+Montmoulin said she supposed the visit had been to General
+Gordon!--He is the groom now in waiting.
+
+Then followed an open raillery from Mlle. Montmoulin of Mr.
+Fairly's visits; but I stood it very well, assuring her I should
+never seek to get rid of my two prison-visitors, Mr. Smelt and
+Mr. Fairly, till I Could replace them by better, or go abroad for
+others
+
+
+                    IMPROVEMENT IN THE KING'S, HEALTH.
+
+Feb. 14.-The king is infinitely better.  O that there were
+patience in the land ! and this Regency Bill postponed Two of the
+princesses regularly, and in turn, attend their royal mother in
+her evening visits to the king.  Some of those who stay behind
+now and then spend the time in Mrs. Schwellenberg's room.  They
+all long for their turn of going to the king, and count the hours
+till it returns.  Their dutiful affection is truly beautiful to
+behold.
+
+This evening the Princesses Elizabeth and Mary came into Mrs.
+Schwellenberg's room while I was yet there.  They sang songs in
+two parts all the evening, and vary prettily in point of voice.
+Their good humour, however, and inherent condescension and
+sweetness of manners, would make a much worse performance
+pleasing.
+
+Feb. 16-All well, and the king is preparing for an interview with
+the chancellor Dr. Willis now confides in me all his schemes and
+notions; we are growing the best of friends and his son Dr. John
+is nearly as trusty.  Excellent people! how I love and honour
+them all!
+
+I had a visit at noon from Mr. Fairly.  He hastened to tell
+
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+
+me the joyful news that the king and queen were just gone out, to
+walk in Richmond gardens, arm in arm.--what a delight to all the
+house!
+
+When I came to tea, I found Mr. Fairly waiting in my room.  He
+had left Kew for Richmond park, but only dined there.  We had
+much discussion of state business.  The king is SO much himself,
+that he is soon to be informed of the general situation of the
+kingdom.  O what an information!--how we all tremble in looking
+forward to it., Mr. Fairly thinks Mr. Smelt the fittest man for
+this office; Mr. Smelt thinks the same of Mr. Fairly: both have
+told me this.
+
+
+                        MR. FAIRLY AND MR. WINDHAM.
+
+Mr. Fairly began soon to look at his watch, complaining very much
+of the new ceremony imposed, of this attendance of handing the
+Queen, which, he said, broke into his whole evening.  Yet he does
+as little as possible.  "The rest of them," he said, " think it
+necessary to wait in an adjoining apartment during the whole
+interview, to be ready to show themselves when it is over!
+
+He now sat with his watch in his hand, dreading to pass his time,
+but determined not to anticipate its occupation, till half past
+nine o'clock, when he drew on his white gloves, ready for action.
+But then, stopping short, he desired me to guess whom, amongst my
+acquaintance, he had met in London this last time of his going
+thither.  I could not guess whom he meant--but I saw it was no
+common person, by his manner.  He then continued--"A tall, thin,
+meagre, sallow, black-eyed, penetrating, keen-looking figure."
+
+I could still not guess,-and he named Mr. Windham.
+
+"Mr. Windham!" I exclaimed, "no, indeed,--you do not describe him
+fairly,-he merits better colouring."
+
+He accuses me of being very partial to him: however, I am  angry
+enough with him just now, though firmly persuaded still, that
+whatever has fallen from him, that is wrong and unfeeling on the
+subject of the Regency, has been the effect of his
+enthusiastic friendship for Mr. Burke: for he has never risen, on
+this cruel business, but in Support of that most misguided of
+Vehement and wild orators.  This I have observed in the debates,
+and felt that Mr. Burke was not more run away with by violence of
+temper, and passion, than Mr. Windham by excess of friendship and
+admiration.
+
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+Mr. Fairly has, I fancy, been very intimate with him, for he told
+me he observed he was passing him, in Queen Anne Street, and
+stopped his horse, to call out, "O ho, Windham! so I see you will
+not know me with this servant!"  He was on business of the
+queen's, and had one of the royal grooms with him.
+
+Mr. Windham laughed, and said he was very glad to see who it was,
+for, on looking at the royal servant, he had just been going to
+make his lowest bow.
+
+"O, I thank you!" returned Mr. Fairly, "you took me, then, for
+the Duke of Cumberland,"
+
+
+                      THE KING CONTINUES TO IMPROVE.
+
+Feb. 17.-The times are now most interesting and critical.  Dr.
+Willis confided to me this morning that to-day the king is to see
+the chancellor.  How important will be the result of his
+appearance!--the whole national fate depends upon it!
+
+Feb. 18.-I had this morning the highest gratification, the purest
+feelings of delight, I have been regaled with for many months: I
+saw, from the road, the king and queen, accompanied by Dr.
+Willis, walking in Richmond gardens, near the farm, arm in arm!--
+It was a pleasure that quite melted me, after a separation so
+bitter, scenes so distressful-to witness such harmony and
+security! Heaven bless and preserve them was all I could
+incessantly say while I kept in their sight.  I was in the
+carriage with Mrs. Schwellenberg at the time.  They saw us also,
+as I heard afterwards from the queen.
+
+In the evening Mrs. Arline, Mrs. Schwellenberg's maid, came into
+Mrs. Schwellenberg's room, after coffee, and said to me, "If you
+please, ma'am, somebody wants you." I concluded this somebody my
+shoemaker, or the like; but in my room I saw Mr. Fairly.  He was
+in high spirits.  He had seen his majesty; Dr. Willis had carried
+him in.  He was received with open arms, and embraced; he found
+nothing now remaining of the disorder, but too in much hurry of
+spirits.  When he had related the particulars of the interview,
+he suddenly exclaimed, "How amazingly well you have borne all
+this!"
+
+I made some short answers, and would have taken-refuge in some
+other topic: but he seemed bent upon pursuing his own, and
+started various questions and surmises, to draw me on, In vain,
+however; I gave but general, or evasive answers,
+
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+
+           THE KING'S HEALTH IS COMPLETELY            RESTORED.
+This was a sweet, and will prove a most      memorable day:
+Regency was put off, in the House    of Lords, by a motion from
+the chancellor!--huzza! huzza!
+And this evening,  for the first time, the king came upstairs, to
+drink tea with the queen and princesses in the drawing-room!   My
+heart was so full of joy and thankfulness, I could hardly
+breathe!  Heaven--heaven be praised! What a different house is
+this house become!--sadness and terror, that wholly occupied it
+so lately, are now flown away, or rather are now driven out ; and
+though anxiety still forcibly prevails, 'tis in so small a
+proportion to joy and thankfulness, that it is borne as if scarce
+an ill!
+
+Feb. 23.-This morning opened wofully to me, though gaily to the
+house; for as my news of his majesty was perfectly comfortable, I
+ventured, in direct words, to ask leave to receive my dear
+friends Mr. and Mrs. Locke, who were now in town:--in understood
+sentences, and open looks, I had already failed again and again.
+My answer was-" I have no particular objection, only you'll keep
+them to your room." Heavens!--did they ever, unsummoned, quit it?
+or have they any wish to enlarge their range of visit?  I was
+silent, and then heard a history of some imprudence in Lady
+Effingham, who had received some of her friends.  My resolution,
+upon this, I need not mention: I preferred the most lengthened
+absence to such a permission.         But I felt it acutely! and
+I hoped, at least, that by taking no steps, something more
+favourable might soon pass. . . .
+
+The king I have seen again in the queen's dressing-room.  On
+opening    the door, there he stood!     He smiled at my start,
+and saying he had waited on purpose to see me, added, "I am quite
+well now,--I was nearly so when I saw you before, but I could
+overtake you better now."           And then he left the room. I
+was quite melted with joy and thankfulness at this so entire
+restoration.
+
+End of February, 1789. Dieu merci!
+
+(294) Physician-in-ordinary to the king-ED.
+
+(295) Her tragedy of "Edwy and Elgiva," which was produced at
+Drury Lane in 1795.  See note ante, vol. i., p. xlv.--ED.
+
+(296) The "Douglas cause" was one of the causes celebres of its
+tine.  Its history is briefly as follows.  In 1746 Lady Jane
+Douglas married Sir John Stewart.  At Paris, in July, 1748, she
+gave birth to twins, Archibald and Sholto, of whom the latter
+died an infant.  Lady Jane herself died in 1753.  The surviving
+child, Archibald, was always recognized as their son by Lady Jane
+and Sir John.  In 1760 the Duke of Douglas, the brother of Lady
+Jane, being childless, recognised his sister's son as his heir,
+and bequeathed to him by will the whole of the Douglas estates,
+revoking, for that purpose, a previous testament which he had
+made in favour of the Hamilton family.  The Duke died in 1761,
+and Archibald, who had assumed his mother's, name of Douglas,
+duly succeeded to the estates.  His right, however, Was disputed
+at law by the Duke of Hamilton, on the pretence, which he sought
+to establish, that Archibald Douglas was not in fact the son of
+his reputed mother.  The Lords of Session in Scotland decided in
+favour of the Duke of Hamilton, whereupon Mr. Douglas appealed to
+the House of Lords, which reversed the decision of the Scottish
+court (February 2-, 1769), 1, "thereby confirming to Mr. Douglas
+his Filiation and his Fortune."-ED.
+
+(297) "Miss Fuzilier," the Diary-name for Miss Gunning, whom
+Colonel Digby did subsequently marry.  "Sir R- F-" is her father,
+Sir Robert Gunning.-ED,
+
+(298) One of the apothecaries to the royal household.-ED.
+
+(299) Dr. Richard Warren, one of the physicians in ordinary to
+the king and the Prince of Wales.-ED.
+
+(300) The Lord chancellor Thurlow.-ED.
+
+(301) Mrs. Elizabeth Carter's "Ode to Wisdom," printed in
+"Clarissa Harlowe" (vol. ii., letter x.), with a musical setting,
+given as the composition of Clarisa herself.  The Ode is by no
+means without merit of a modest kind, but can scarcely be ranked
+the production of a genuine poet.-ED.
+
+(302) "Emmeline, the Orphan of the Castle," a novel in four
+volumes, by Charlotte Smith. Published 1788.-ED.
+
+(303) Mr. Frederick Montagu was not only a member of the
+opposition but One of the managers of the impeachment of Warren
+Hastings.-ED.
+
+(304) Burke's last act before quitting office at the close of
+1783, had been to procure for Dr. Burney the post of organist to
+Chelsea hospital, to which was attached a salary of fifty pounds
+a year.-ED.
+
+
+
+
+
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+
+
+                                SECTION 15.
+                                  (1789-)
+
+
+                           THE KING'S RECOVERY:
+                         ROYAL VISIT To WEYMOUTH.
+
+                         THE KING'S REAPPEARANCE.
+
+Kew Palace, Sunday, March 1.-What a pleasure was mine this
+morning! how solemn, but how grateful! The queen gave me the
+"Prayer of Thanksgiving" upon the king's recovery.  It was this
+morning read in all the churches throughout the metropolis, and
+by this day week it will reach every church in the kingdom.  It
+kept me in tears all the morning,--that such a moment should
+actually arrive! after fears so dreadful, scenes so terrible.
+
+The queen gave me a dozen to distribute among the female
+servants: but I reserved one of them for dear Mr. Smelt, who took
+it from me in speechless extacy--his fine and feeling eyes
+swimming in tears of joy.  There is no describing--and I will not
+attempt it--the fullness, the almost overwhelming fullness of
+this morning's thankful feelings!
+
+I had the great gratification to see the honoured object of this
+joy, for a few minutes, in the queen's dressing-room.  He was all
+calmness and benevolent graciousness.  I fancied my strong
+emotion had disfigured me; or perhaps the whole of this long
+confinement and most affecting winter may have somewhat marked my
+countenance; for the king presently said to me, "Pray, are you
+quite well to-day?"
+
+" I think not quite, sir," I answered,
+
+
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+
+"She does not look well," said he to the queen; "she looks a
+little yellow, I think."
+
+How kind, to think of anybody and their looks, at this first
+moment of reappearance!
+
+
+                      AN AIRING AND ITS CONSEQUENCES.
+
+Wednesday, March 4.-A message from Mrs. Schwellenberg this
+morning, to ask me to air with her, received my most reluctant
+acquiescence; for the frost is so severe that any air, without
+exercise, is terrible to me; though, were her atmosphere milder,
+the rigour of the season I might not regard.
+
+When we came to the passage the carriage was not ready. She
+murmured most vehemently; and so bitterly cold was I, I could
+heartily have joined, had it answered any purpose. In this cold
+passage we waited in this miserable manner a full quarter of an
+hour; Mrs. Schwellenberg all the time scolding the servants,
+threatening them With exile, sending message after message,
+repining, thwarting, and contentious.
+
+Now we were to go, and wait in the king's rooms--now in the
+gentlemen's--now in Dr. Willis's--her own--and this, in the end,
+took place.
+
+In our way we encountered Mr. Fairly. He asked where we were
+going.    "To my own parlour!" she answered.
+
+He accompanied us in; and, to cheer the gloom, seized some of the
+stores of Dr. Willis,--sandwiches, wine and water, and other
+refreshments,--and brought them to us, one after another in a
+sportive manner, recommending to us to break through common
+rules, on such an occasion, and eat and drink to warm ourselves.
+Mrs. Schwellenberg stood in stately silence, and bolt upright,
+scarce deigning to speak even a refusal; till, upon his saying,
+while he held a glass of wine in his hand, "Come, ma'am, do
+something eccentric for once--it will warm you," she angrily
+answered, "You been reely--what you call--too much hospital!"
+
+Neither of us could help laughing.  "Yes," cried he, "with the
+goods of others;--that makes a wide difference in hospitality!"
+Then he rattled away upon the honours the room had lately
+received, of having had Mr. Pitt, the Chancellor, Archbishop of
+Canterbury, etc., to wait in it. This she resented highly, as
+seeming to think it more honoured in her absence than presence.
+
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+
+At length we took our miserable airing, in which I was treated
+with as much fierce harshness as if I was being conveyed to some
+place of confinement for the punishment Of some dreadful offence!
+
+She would have the glass down on my side; the piercing wind cut
+my face; I put my muff up to it: this incensed her so much, that
+she vehemently declared "she never, no never would trobble any
+won to air with her again but go always selfs."--And who will
+repine at that? thought I.
+
+Yet by night I had caught a violent cold, which flew to my face,
+and occasioned me dreadful pain.
+
+March 10.-I have been in too much pain to write these last five
+days; and I became very feverish, and universally ill, affected
+with the fury of the cold.
+
+My royal mistress, who could not but observe me very unwell,
+though I have never omitted my daily three attendances, which I
+have performed with a difficulty all but insurmountable,
+concluded I had been guilty of some imprudence: I told the simple
+fact of the glass,--but quite simply, and without one
+circumstance.  She instantly said she was surprised I could catch
+cold in an airing, as it never appeared that it disagreed with me
+when I took it with Mrs. Delany.
+
+"No, ma'am," I immediately answered, "nor with Mrs, Locke; nor
+formerly with Mrs. Thrale:--but they left me the regulation of
+the glass on my own side to myself; or, if they interfered, it
+was to draw it up for me."
+
+This I could not resist.  I can be silent; but when challenged to
+speak at all, it must be plain truth.
+
+I had no answer.  Illness here--till of late--has been so
+unknown, that it is commonly supposed it must be wilful, and
+therefore meets little notice, till accompanied by danger, or
+incapacity of duty.  This is by no means from hardness of
+heart-far otherwise ; there is no hardness of heart in any one of
+them ; but it is prejudice and want of personal experience.
+
+
+                   ILLUMINATIONS ON THE KING's RECOVERY.
+
+March 10.-This was a day of happiness indeed!---a day of such
+heartfelt public delight as Could not but suppress all private
+disturbance.  The general illumination of all London proved the
+universal joy of a thankful and most affectionate people, who
+have shown so largely, on this trying occasion, how well they
+merited the monarch thus benignantly preserved.
+
+
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+The queen, from the privy purse, gave private orders for a
+Splendid illumination at this palace.(305)  The King--
+Providence--Health--and Britannia, were displayed with elegant
+devices; the queen and princesses, all but the youngest, went to
+town to see the illumination there; and Mr. Smelt was to conduct
+the surprise.--It was magnificently beautiful.
+
+When it was lighted and prepared, the Princess Amelia went to
+lead her papa to the front window: but first she dropped on -her
+knees, and presented him a paper with these lines-which, at the
+queen's desire, I had scribbled in her name, for the happy
+occasion:--
+
+                               TO THE KING.
+
+Amid a rapt'rous nation's praise
+That sees Thee to their prayers restor'd,
+Turn gently from the gen'ral blaze,--
+Thy Charlotte woos her bosom's lord.
+
+Turn and behold where, bright and clear,
+Depictur'd with transparent art,
+The emblems of her thoughts appear,
+The tribute of a grateful heart.
+
+O! small the tribute, were it weigh'd
+With all she feels--or half she owes!
+But noble minds are best repaid
+>From the pure spring whence bounty flows.
+
+PS. The little bearer begs a kiss
+>From dear papa for bringing this.
+
+I need not, I think, tell you, the little bearer begged not in
+vain.  The king was extremely pleased.  He came into a room
+belonging to the princesses, in which we had a party to look at
+the illuminations, and there he stayed above an hour; cheerful,
+composed, and gracious! all that could merit the great national
+testimony to his worth this day paid him.
+
+
+                    MR FAIRLY ON MISS BURNEY's DUTIES.
+
+Windsor, March 18.-A little rap announced Mr. Fairly, who came
+in, saying, "I am escaped for a little while, to have some quiet
+conversation with you, before the general assemblage and storm of
+company." He then gravely said, "Tomorrow I shall take leave of
+you--for a long time
+
+
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+
+He intended setting off to-morrow morning for town, by the
+opportunity of the equerries' coach, which would convey him to
+Kew, where his majesty was to receive an address.
+
+He told me, with a good deal of humour, that he suspected me of
+being rather absent in my official occupation, from little
+natural care about toilettes and such things.  I could not
+possibly deny this,--on the contrary, I owned I had, at first,
+found my attention unattainable, partly from flutter and
+embarrassment, and partly from the reasons he so discerningly
+assigned.  "I have even," I added, "and not seldom, handed her
+fan before her gown, and her gloves before her cap but I am
+better in all that now!"
+
+"I should think all that very likely," cried he, smiling; "yet it
+is not very trifling with her majesty, who is so exact and
+precise, such things seem to her of moment."
+
+This is truth itself.
+
+I said, "No,--she is more gracious, more kind, indeed, to me than
+ever: she scarce speaks, scarce turns to me without a smile."
+
+" Well," cried he, extremely pleased, "this must much soften your
+employment and confinement.  And, indeed, it was most natural to
+expect this time of distress should prove a cement."
+
+
+
+                        A VISIT FROM MISS FUZILIER.
+
+I think I need not mention meeting my beloved Fredy in town, on
+our delightful excursion thither for the grand restoration
+Drawing-room, in which the queen received the compliments and
+congratulations of almost all the Court part of the nation.  Miss
+Cambridge worked me, upon this occasion, a suit, in silks upon
+tiffany, most excessively delicate and pretty, and much admired
+by her majesty.
+
+All I shall mention of this town visit is, that, the day after
+the great Drawing-room, Miss Fuzilier, for the first time since I
+have been in office, called upon me to inquire after the queen.
+Miss Tryon, and Mrs. Tracey, and Mrs. Fielding were with her.
+
+She looked serious, sensible, interesting. I thought instantly of
+the report concerning Mr. Fairly, and of his disavowal : but it
+was singular that the only time she opened her mouth to speak was
+to name him!  Miss Tryon, who chatted incessantly, had spoken of
+the great confusion at the Drawing-room, from the crowd: "It was
+intended to be better regulated," said Miss
+
+
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+
+ F., "Mr. Fairly told me."  She dropped her eye the moment she
+had spoken his name.  After this, as before it, she said nothing.
+. . .
+
+Mr. George Villiers, a younger brother of Lord Clarendon, was now
+here as groom of the bedchamber.  He is very clever, somewhat
+caustigue, but so loyal and vehement in the king's cause, that he
+has the appellation, from his party, of "The Tiger."
+
+He would not obtain it for his person, which is remarkably slim,
+slight, and delicate.
+
+
+                        A COMMAND FROM HER MAJESTY.
+
+Kew, April, 1789. My dearest friends, - I have her majesty's
+commands to inquire--whether you have any of a certain breed of
+poultry?
+
+N.B. What breed I do not remember.
+
+And to say she has just received a small group of the same
+herself.
+
+N.B. The quantity I have forgotten.
+
+And to add, she is assured they are something very rare and
+scarce, and extraordinary and curious.
+
+N.B. By whom she was assured I have not heard.
+
+And to subjoin, that you must send word if you have any of the
+same sort.
+
+N.B. How you are to find that out, I cannot tell.
+
+And to mention, as a corollary, that, if you have none of them,
+and should like to have some, she has a cock and a hen she can
+spare, and will appropriate them to Mr. Locke and my dearest
+Fredy.
+
+This conclusive stroke so pleased and exhilarated me, that
+forthwith I said you would both be enchanted, and so forgot all
+the preceding particulars.  And I said, moreover, that I knew you
+would rear them, and cheer them, and fondle them like your
+children.
+
+So now-pray write a very fair answer fairly, in fair hand, and to
+her fair purpose.
+
+
+
+
+               COLONEL MANNERS MYSTIFIES MRS. SCHWELLENBERG.
+
+Queen's Lodge, Windsor, April.-Mrs. Schwellenberg is softened
+into nothing but civility and courtesy to me.  To what the change
+is owing I cannot conjecture; but I do all that in me lies
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+
+to support it, preferring the entire sacrifice of every moment,
+from our dinner to twelve at night, to her harshness and horrors.
+Nevertheless, a lassitude of existence creeps sensibly upon me.
+
+Colonel Manners, however, for the short half-hour of tea-time, is
+irresistibly diverting.  He continues my constant friend and
+neighbour, and, while he affects to play off the coadjutrix to
+advantage, he nods at me, to draw forth my laughter or
+approbation, with the most alarming undisguise.  I often fear her
+being affronted ; but naturally she admires him very much for his
+uncommon share of beauty, and makes much allowance for his
+levity.  However, the never-quite-comprehended affair of the
+leather bed-cover,(306) has in some degree intimidated her ever
+since, as she constantly apprehends that, if he were provoked, he
+would play her some trick.
+
+He had been at White's ball, given in town upon his majesty's
+recovery.  We begged some account of it: he ranted away with
+great fluency, uttering little queer sarcasms at Mrs,
+Schwellenberg by every opportunity, and colouring when he had
+done, with private fear of enraging her.  This, however, she
+suspected not, or all his aim had been lost; for to alarm her is
+his delight.
+
+"I liked it all," he said, in summing up his relation, "very
+well, except the music, and I like any caw-caw-caw, better than
+that sort of noise,--only you must not tell the king I say that,
+ma'am, because the king likes it."
+
+She objected to the words " must not," and protested she would
+not be directed by no one, and would tell it, if she pleased.
+
+Upon this, he began a most boisterous threatening of the evil
+consequences which would accrue to herself, though in so
+ludicrous a manner, that how she could suppose him serious was my
+wonder.  "Take care of yourself, ma'am," he cried, holding up his
+finger as if menacing a child; "take care of yourself! I am not
+to be provoked twice!"
+
+This, after a proud resistance, conquered her - and, really
+frightened at she knew not what, she fretfully exclaimed, "Ver
+well, sir!--I wish I had not come down!  I won't no more! you
+might have your tea when you can get It."
+
+Returning to his account, he owned he had been rather a little
+musical himself for once, which was when they all sang "God save
+the king," after the supper; for then he joined in
+
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+the chorus, as well and as loud as any of them, "though some of
+the company," he added, "took the liberty to ask me not to be so
+loud, because they pretended I was out of tune; but it was In
+such a good cause that I did not mind that."
+
+She was no sooner recovered than the attack became personal
+again; and so it has continued ever since: he seems bent upon
+"playing her off" in all manners; he braves her, then compliments
+her, assents to her opinion, and the next moment contradicts her;
+pretends uncommon friendship for her, and then laughs in her
+face.  But his worst manoeuvre is a perpetual application to me,
+by looks and sly glances, which fill me with terror of passing
+for an accomplice; and the more, as I find it utterly impossible
+to keep grave during these absurdities.  And yet, the most
+extraordinary part of the story is that she really likes him!
+though at times she is so angry, she makes vows to keep to her
+own room.
+
+Mr. George Villiers, with far deeper aim, sneers out his own more
+artful satire, but is never understood ; while Colonel Manners
+domineers with so high a hand, he carries all before him; and
+whenever Mrs. Schwellenberg, to lessen her mortification, draws
+me into the question, he instantly turns off whatever she begins
+into some high-flown compliment, so worded also as to convey some
+comparative reproach.  This offends more than all.
+
+When she complains to me of him, in his absence, I answer he is a
+mere schoolboy, for mischief, without serious design of
+displeasing: but she tells me she sees he means to do her some
+harm, and she will let the king know, if he goes on at that rate,
+for she does not choose such sort of familiarness.
+
+Once she apologised suddenly for her English, and Colonel Manners
+said, "O, don't mind that, ma'am, for I take no particular notice
+as to your language."
+
+"But," says she, "Miss Berner might tell me, when I speak it
+sometimes not quite right, what you call."
+
+"O dear no, ma'am!" exclaimed he; "Miss Burney is of too mild a
+disposition for that: she could not correct you strong enough to
+do you good."
+
+"Oh!-ver well, sir!" she cried, confounded by his effrontery.
+
+One day she lamented she had been absent when there was so much
+agreeable company in the house; "And now," she
+
+
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+added, "now that I am comm back, here is nobody.--not one!--no
+society!"                                             .
+
+He protested this was not to be endured, and told her that to
+reckon all us nobody was so bad, he should resent it.
+
+"What will you do, my good colonel?" she cried.
+
+"O ma'am, do?--I will tell Dr. Davis."
+
+"And who bin he?"
+
+"Why, he's the master of Eton school, ma'am," with a thundering
+bawl in her ears, that made her stop them.
+
+"No, sir!" she cried, indignantly, "I thank you for that, I won't
+have no Dr. schoolmaster, what you call!  I bin too old for
+that."
+
+"But, ma'am, he shall bring you a Latin oration upon this
+subject, and you must hear it!"
+
+"O, 'tis all the same!  I shan't not understand it, so I won't
+not hear it."
+
+"But you must, ma'am.  If I write it, I shan't let you off so:--
+you must hear it!"
+
+"No, I won't!--Miss Berner might,--give it her."
+
+"Does Miss Burney know Latin?" cried Mr. G. Villiers.
+
+"Not one word," quoth I.
+
+"I believe that cried she "but she might hear it the sam!"
+
+
+                            THE SAILOR PRINCE.
+
+On the 2nd of May I met Colonel Manners, waiting at the corner of
+a passage leading towards the queen's apartments.  "Is the king,
+ma'am," he cried, "there? because Prince William(307) is come."
+
+I had heard he was arrived in town,-and with much concern, since
+it was without leave of the king.  It was in the illness, indeed,
+of the king he sailed to England, and when he had probably all
+the excuse of believing his royal father incapable of further
+governance.  How did I grieve for the feelings of that royal
+father, in this idea! yet it certainly offers for Prince William
+his best apology.
+
+In the evening, while Mrs. Schwellenberg, Mrs. Zachary and myself
+were sitting in the eating parlour, the door was suddenly opened
+by Mr. Alberts, the queen's page, and "prince William" was
+announced.
+
+He came to see Mrs. Schwellenberg.  He is handsome, as
+
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+
+are all the royal family, though he is not     of a height to be
+called a good figure.  He looked very       hard at the two
+strangers, but made us all sit, very civilly, and drew a chair
+for himself, and began to discourse with the most unbounded
+openness and careless ease, of everything that Occurred to him.
+
+Mrs. Schwellenberg said she had pitied him for the grief he must
+have felt at the news of the king's illness : "Yes," cried he, "I
+was very sorry, for his majesty, very sorry indeed, -no man loves
+the king better ; of that be assured.  but all sailors
+love their king.  And I felt for the queen, too,--I did, faith.
+I was horridly agitated when I saw the king first.  I could
+hardly stand."
+
+Then Mrs. Schwellenberg suddenly said, "Miss Berner, now you
+might see his royal highness; you wanted it so moch, and now you
+might do it.  Your royal highness, that is Miss Berner."
+
+He rose very civilly, and bowed, to this strange freak of an
+introduction; and, of course, I rose and Curtsied low, and waited
+his commands to sit again; which were given instantly, with great
+courtesy.
+
+"Ma'am," cried he, "you have a brother in the service?"  "Yes,
+sir," I answered, much pleased with this professional attention.
+He had not, he civilly said, the pleasure to know him, but he had
+heard of him.
+
+Then, turning suddenly to Mrs. Schwellenberg, "Pray," cried he, "
+what is become of Mrs.--Mrs.--Mrs. Hogentot?"
+
+"O, your royal highness!" cried she, stifling much offence, "do
+you mean the poor Haggerdorn?--O your royal highness! have you
+forgot her?"
+
+"i have, upon my word!" cried he, plumply "upon my soul, I have!"
+
+Then turning again to me, "I am very happy, ma'am," he cried, "to
+see you here; it gives me great pleasure the queen should appoint
+the sister of a sea-officer to so eligible a situation.  As long
+as she has a brother in the service, ma'am,, cried he to Mrs.
+Schwellenberg, "I look upon her as one of us.  O, faith I do!  I
+do indeed! she is one of the corps."
+
+Then he said he had been making acquaintance with a new princess,
+one he did not know nor remember-Princess Amelia.  "Mary, too,"--
+he said, "I had quite forgot; and they did not tell me who she
+was; so I went up to her, and, without in the least recollecting
+her, she's so monstrously grown, I said, 'Pray, ma'am, are you
+one of the attendants?'"
+
+Princess Sophia is his professed favourite.  "I have had the
+
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+
+honour," he cried, "of about an hour's conversation with that
+young lady, in the old style; though I have given up my mad
+frolics now.  To be sure, I had a few in that style formerly;
+upon my word I am almost ashamed;--Ha! ha! ha!"
+
+Then, recollecting particulars, he laughed vehemently; but Mrs.
+Schwellenberg eagerly interrupted his communications.  I fancy
+some of them might have related to our own sacred person!
+
+"Augusta," he said "looks very well,--a good face and
+countenance,--she looks interesting,--she looks as if she knew
+more than she Would say; and I like that character."
+
+He stayed a full hour, chatting in this good-humoured and
+familiar manner.
+
+
+              LOYAL RECEPTION OF THE KING IN THE NEW FOREST.
+
+Thursday, June 25.-This morning I was called before five o'clock,
+though various packages and business had kept me up till near
+three.
+
+The day was rainy, but the road was beautiful; Windsor great
+park, in particular, is charming.  The crowds increased as we
+advanced, and at Winchester the town was one head.  I saw Dr.
+Warton, but could not stop the carriage.  The king was everywhere
+received with acclamation.  His popularity is greater than ever.
+Compassion for his late sufferings seems to have endeared him now
+to all conditions of men.
+
+At Romsey, on the steps of the town-hall, an orchestra was
+formed, and a band of musicians, in common brown coarse cloth and
+red neckcloths, and even in carters' loose gowns, made a chorus
+of "God save the king," In which the countless multitude joined,
+in such loud acclamation, that their loyalty and heartiness, and
+natural joy, almost surprised me into a sob before I knew myself
+at all affected by them.
+
+The New Forest Is all beauty, and when we approached Lyndhurst
+the crowds wore as picturesque an appearance as the landscapes ;
+They were all in decent attire, and, the great space giving them
+full room, the cool beauty of the verdure between the groups took
+away all idea of inconvenience, and made their live gaiety a
+scene to joy beholders.
+
+Carriages of all sorts lined the road-side :-chariots, chaises,
+landaus, carts, waggons, whiskies, gigs, phatons--mixed and
+intermixed, filled Within and surrounded without by faces all
+glee and delight.
+
+
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+
+Such was the scenery for miles before we reached Lyndhurst.  The
+old law of the forest, that his majesty must be presented with
+two milk-white greyhounds, peculiarly decorated, upon his
+entrance into the New Forest, gathered together multitudes to see
+the show.  A party, also, of foresters, habited in green, and
+each with a bugle-horn, met his majesty at the same time.
+
+Arrived at Lyndhurst, we drove to the Duke of Gloucester's.  The
+royal family were just before us, but the two colonels came and
+handed us through the crowd.  The house, intended for a mere
+hunting-seat, was built by Charles II., and seems quite
+unimproved and unrepaired from its first foundation.  It is the
+king's, but lent to the Duke of Gloucester.  It is a straggling,
+inconvenient, old house, but delightfully situated, in a
+village,--looking, indeed, at present, like a populous town, from
+the amazing concourse of people that have crowded into it.
+
+The bow-men and archers and bugle-horns are to attend the king
+while he stays here, in all his rides.
+
+The Duke of Gloucester was ready to receive the royal family, who
+are all in the highest spirits and delight.
+
+I have a small old bed-chamber, but a large and commodious
+parlour, in which the gentlemen join Miss Planta and me to
+breakfast and to drink tea.  They dine at the royal table.  We
+are to remain here some days.
+
+During the king's dinner, which was in a parlour looking into the
+garden, he permitted the people to come to the window; and their
+delight and rapture in seeing their monarch at table, with the
+evident hungry feeling it occasioned, made a contrast of
+admiration and deprivation, truly comic.  They crowded, however,
+so excessively, that this can be permitted them no more.  They
+broke down all the paling, and much of the hedges, and some of
+the windows, and all by eagerness and multitude, for they were
+perfectly civil and well-behaved.
+
+In the afternoon the royal party came into my parlour; and the
+moment the people saw the star, they set up such a shout as made
+a ring all around the village; for my parlour has the same view
+with the royal rooms into the garden, where this crowd was
+assembled, and the new rapture was simply at seeing the king in a
+new apartment!
+
+They all walked out, about and around the village, in the
+evening, and the delighted mob accompanied them.  The
+
+
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+
+moment they stepped out of the house, the people, With voice,
+struck up "God save the king!"  I assure you I cried like a child
+twenty times in the day, at the honest and rapturous effusions of
+such artless and disinterested loyalty.  The king's illness and
+recovery make me tender, as Count Mannuccia said, upon every
+recollection.
+
+These good villagers continued singing this loyal song during the
+whole walk, without any intermission, except to shout "huzza!" at
+the end of every stanza.  They returned so hoarse, that I longed
+to give them all some lemonade.  Probably they longed for
+something they would have called better!  'Twas well the king
+could walk no longer; I think, if he had, they would have died
+singing around him.
+
+June 30.-We continued at Lyndhurst five days and the tranquillity
+of the life, and the beauty of the country, would have made it
+very regaling to me indeed, but for the fatigue of having no
+maid, yet being always in readiness to play the part of an
+attendant myself.
+
+I went twice to see the house of Sir Phillip Jennings Clerke, my
+old acquaintance at Streatham.  I regretted he was no more; he
+would so much have prided and rejoiced in shewing his place.  His
+opposition principles would not have interfered with that private
+act of duty from a subject to a sovereign.  How did I call to
+mind Mrs. Thrale, upon this spot! not that I had seen it with
+her, or ever before; but that its late owner was one of her
+sincerest admirers.
+
+Miss Planta and myself drove also to Southampton, by the queen's
+direction.  It is a pretty clean town, and the views from the
+Southampton water are highly picturesque : but all this I had
+seen to far greater advantage, with Mr. and Mrs. and Miss Thrale.
+Ah, Mrs. Thrale!--In thinking her over, as I saw again the same
+spot, how much did I wish to see with it the same--once so dear--
+companion!
+
+On the Sunday we all went to the parish church ; and after the
+service, instead of a psalm, imagine our surprise to hear the
+whole congregation join in "God save the king!"  Misplaced as
+this was in a church, its intent was so kind, loyal, and
+affectionate, that I believe there was not a dry eye amongst
+either singers or hearers.  The king's late dreadful illness has
+rendered this song quite melting to me.
+This day we quitted Lyndhurst; not without regret, for so private
+is its situation, I could stroll about in its beautiful
+neighbourhood quite alone.
+
+
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+
+                      THE ROYAL JOURNEY TO WEYMOUTH.
+
+The journey to Weymouth was one scene of festivity and rejoicing.
+The people were everywhere collected, and everywhere delighted.
+We passed through Salisbury, where a magnificent arch was
+erected, of festoons of flowers, for the king's carriage to pass
+under, and mottoed with "The king restored," and "Long live the
+king," in three divisions.  The green bowmen accompanied the
+train thus far; and the clothiers and manufacturers here met it,
+dressed out in white loose frocks, flowers, and ribbons, with
+sticks or caps emblematically decorated from their several
+manufactories.  And the acclamations with which the king was
+received amongst them--it was a rapture past description.  At
+Blandford there was nearly the same ceremony.
+
+At every gentleman's seat which we passed, the owners and their
+families stood at the gate, and their guests Or neighbours were
+in carriages all round.
+
+At Dorchester the crowd seemed still increased.  The city had so
+antique an air, I longed to investigate its old buildings.  The
+houses have the most ancient appearance of any that are inhabited
+that I have happened to see: and inhabited they were indeed!
+every window-sash was removed, for face above face to peep Out,
+and every old balcony and all the leads of the houses seemed
+turned into booths for fairs.  It seems, also, the most populous
+town I have seen; I judge by the concourse of the young and
+middle-aged--those we saw everywhere alike, as they may gather
+together from all quarters-but from the amazing quantity of
+indigenous residers; old women and young children.  There seemed
+families of ten or twelve of the latter in every house; and the
+old women were so numerous, that they gave the whole scene the
+air of a rural masquerade.
+
+Girls, with chaplets, beautiful young creatures, strewed the
+entrance of various villages with flowers.
+
+
+                           WELCOME TO WEYMOUTH.
+
+Gloucester House, which we now inhabit, at Weymouth, is Situated
+in front of the sea, and the sands of the bay before it are
+perfectly smooth and soft.  The whole town, and Melcomb Regis,
+and half the county of Dorset, seemed assembled to
+welcome their majesties.
+
+I have here a very good parlour, but dull, from its aspect.
+
+
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+
+Nothing but the sea at Weymouth affords any life Or Spirit.  My
+bed-room is in the attics.  Nothing like living at a Court for
+exaltation.  Yet even with this gratification, which extends to
+Miss Planta, the house will only hold the females of the party.
+The two adjoining houses are added, for the gentlemen, an(] the
+pages, and some other of the suite, cooks, etc.--but the footmen
+are obliged to lodge still farther off.
+
+The bay is very beautiful, after its kind; a peninsula shuts out
+Portland island and the broad ocean.
+
+The king, and queen, and princesses, and their suite, walked out
+in the evening; an immense crowd attended them--sailors bargemen,
+mechanics, countrymen; and all united with so vociferous a volley
+of "God save the king," that the noise was stunning.
+
+At near ten o'clock Lord Courtown came into my parlour, as it is
+called, and said the town was all illuminated, and invited Miss
+Planta and me to a walk upon the sands.  Their majesties were
+come in to supper.  We took a stroll under his escort, and found
+it singularly beautiful, the night being very fine, and several
+boats and small vessels lighted up, and in motion upon the sea.
+The illumination extended through Melcomb Regis and Weymouth.
+Gloucester-row, in which we live, is properly in Melcomb Regis;
+but the two towns join each other, and are often confounded.
+
+The preparations of festive loyalty were universal.  Not a child
+could we meet that had not a bandeau round its head, cap, or hat,
+of "God save the king;" all the bargemen wore it in cockades and
+even the bathing-women had it in large coarse girdles round their
+waists.  It is printed in golden letters upon most of the
+bathing-machines, and in various scrolls and devices it adorns
+every shop and almost every house in the two towns.
+
+
+                  THE ROYAL PLUNGE WITH MUSICAL HONOURS.
+                          "YOU MUST KNEEL, SIR!"
+
+ Gloucester House, Weymouth, Wednesday, July 9.-We are settled
+here comfortably enough.  Miss Planta and I breakfast as well as
+dine together alone; the gentlemen have a breakfast parlour in
+the adjoining house, and we meet only at tea, and seldom then.
+They have all acquaintance here, in this Gloucester-row, and
+stroll from the terrace or the sands, to visit them during the
+tea vacation time.
+
+
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+
+I like this much: I see them just enough to keep up sociability,
+without any necessary constraint; for I attend the     tea-table
+only at my own hour, and they come,         or not, according to
+chance or their convenience.
+
+The king bathes, and with great success; a machine follows the
+royal one into the sea, filled with fiddlers, who play "God save
+the king," as his majesty takes his plunge!
+
+I am delighted with the soft air and soft footing upon the sands,
+and stroll up and down them morning, noon, and night.  As they
+are close before the house, I can get to and from them in a
+moment.
+
+Her majesty has graciously hired a little maid between Miss
+Planta and me, who comes for the day.  We have no accommodation
+for her sleeping here; but it is an unspeakable relief to our
+personal fatigues.
+
+Dr. Gisburne is here, to attend his majesty; and the queen has
+ordered me to invite him to dine at my table.  He comes
+regularly.
+
+(Fanny Burney to Dr. Burney.)
+Gloucester Rowe, Weymouth, July 13, 1789.
+My dearest padre's kind letter was most truly welcome to me.
+When I am so distant, the term of absence or of silence seems
+always doubly long to me.
+
+The bay here is most beautiful; the sea never rough, generally
+calm and gentle, and the sands perfectly smooth and pleasant.  I
+have not bathed, for I have had a cold in my head, which I caught
+at Lyndhurst, and which makes me fear beginning; but I have hopes
+to be well enough to-morrow, and thenceforward to ail nothing
+more.  It is my intention to cast away all superfluous complaints
+into the main ocean, which I think quite sufficiently capacious
+to hold them ; and really my little frame will find enough to
+carry and manage without them. . . .
+
+His majesty is in delightful health, and much-improved spirits.
+All agree he never looked better.  The loyalty of all this place
+is excessive; they have dressed out every street with labels of
+"God save the king:" all the shops have it over the doors: all
+the children wear it in their caps, all the labourers in their
+hats, and all the sailors in their voices, for they never
+approach the house without shouting it aloud, nor see the king,
+or his shadow, without beginning to huzza, and going on to three
+cheers.
+
+
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+
+The bathing-machines make it their motto over the windows; and
+those bathers that belong to the royal dippers wear it in
+bandeaus on their bonnets, to go into the sea; and have it again,
+in large letters, round their waists, to encounter the waves.
+Flannel dresses, tucked up, and no shoes nor stockings, with
+bandeaus and girdles, have a most singular appearance, and when
+first I surveyed these loyal nymphs it was with some difficulty I
+kept my features in order.  Nor is this all.  Think but Of the
+Surprise of his majesty when, the first time of his bathing, he
+had no sooner popped his royal head under water than a band of
+music, concealed in a neighbouring machine, struck up "God save
+great George our king."
+
+One thing, however, was a little unlucky ,--when the mayor and
+burgesses came with the address, they requested leave to kiss
+hands: this was graciously accorded; but, the mayor advancing, in
+a common way, to take the queen's hand, as he might that of any
+lady mayoress, Colonel Gwynn, who stood by, whispered, "You must
+kneel, sir!"  He found, however, that he took no notice of this
+hint, but kissed the queen's hand erect.  As he passed him, in
+his way back, the colonel Said, "You should have knelt, Sir!"
+
+"Sir," answered the poor mayor, "I cannot."
+
+"Everybody does, sir."
+
+"Sir,--I have a wooden leg!"
+
+Poor man! 'twas such a surprise!  and such an excuse as no one
+could dispute.  But the absurdity of the matter followed--all the
+rest did the same; taking the same privilege, by the example,
+without the same or any cause!
+
+
+                    ROYAL DOINGS IN AND ABOUT WEYMOUTH.
+
+
+July 15.-The Magnificent, a man-of-war Of 74 guns, commanded by
+an old captain of James's (Onslow), is now stationed at the
+entrance of the bay, for the security at once and pleasure of the
+king; and a fine frigate, the Southampton, Captain Douglas, is
+nearer in, and brought for the king to cruise about.  Captain
+Douglas is nephew to Sir Andrew Snape Hammond, who married a
+cousin of our Mr. Crisp.  The king and royal party have been to
+visit the frigate.  Miss Planta and myself went to see the
+ceremony from a place called the Look-out,--a beautiful spot.
+But I have not much taste for sea receptions and honours: the
+firing a salute is SO strange a mode of hospitality and
+politeness. . . .
+
+
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+
+Mrs. Gwynn(308) is arrived, and means to spend the royal
+season here.  She lodges at the hotel just by, and we have met
+several times.  She is very soft and pleasing, and still as
+beautiful as an angel.  We have had two or three long tête-Š-
+têtes and talked over, with great pleasure, anecdotes Of Our
+former mutual acquaintances--Dr. Johnson, Sir Joshua Reynolds,
+Mrs. Thrale, Baretti, Miss Reynolds, Miss Palmer, and her old
+admirer, Dr. Goldsmith, of whom she relates--as who does not?--a
+thousand ridiculous traits.
+
+The queen is reading Mrs. Piozzi's tour(309) to me, instead of my
+reading it to her.  She loves reading aloud, and in this work
+finds me an able commentator.  How like herself, how
+characteristic is every line--Wild, entertaining, flighty,
+inconsistent, and clever!
+
+July 16.-Yesterday we all wen to the theatre.  The king has taken
+the centre front box for himself, family, and attendants.  The
+side boxes are too small.  The queen ordered places for Miss
+Planta and me, which are in the front row of a box next but one
+to the royals.  Thus, in this case, Our want of rank to be in
+their public suite gives us better seats than those high enough
+to stand behind them,
+
+Lady Sydney, Lady Courtown's sister, and Miss Townshend, her
+daughter, are in the intermediate box, and were very sociable.  I
+have met them here occasionally, and like them very well.
+
+'Tis a pretty little theatre: but its entertainment was quite in
+the barn style a mere medley,--songs, dances, imitations,- and
+all very bad.  But Lord Chesterfield, who is here, and who seems
+chief director, promises all will be better.
+
+This morning the royal party went to Dorchester, and I strolled
+upon the sands with Mrs. Gwynn.  We overtook a lady, of a very
+majestic port and demeanour, who solemnly returned Mrs. Gwynn's
+salutation, and then addressed herself to me with similar
+gravity.  I saw a face I knew, and of very
+uncommon beauty; but did not immediately recollect it was Mrs.
+Siddons.  She is come here, she says, solely for her health : she
+has spent some days with Mrs. Gwynn, at General Harcourt's.  Her
+husband was with her, and a sweet child.  I wished to have tried
+if her solemnity would have worn away
+
+
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+by length of conversation ; but I was obliged to hasten home.
+But my dearest Fredy's opinion, joined to that of my Sister
+Esther, satisfies me I was a loser by this necessary forbearance.
+
+Sunday, July 26.-Yesterday we wen again to the play, and saw "The
+Midnight Hour" and "The Commissary."  The latter from the
+"Bourgeois Gentilhomme," is comic to convulsion and the burlesque
+of Quick and Mrs.  Wells united made ne laugh quite
+immoderately.(310)
+
+July 29.-We went to the play, and saw Mrs. Siddons in Rosalind.
+She looked beautifully, but too large for that shepherd's dress;
+and her gaiety sits not naturally upon her,--it seems more like
+disguised gravity.  I must own my admiration for her confined to
+her tragic powers; and there it is raised so high that I feel
+mortified, in a degree, to see her so much fainter attempts and
+success in comedy.
+
+
+                            A PATIENT AUDIENCE.
+
+Monday, Aug. 3.-The whole royal party went to see Lulworth
+Castle, intending to be back to dinner, and go to the play at
+night, which their majesties had ordered, with Mrs. Siddons to
+play Lady Townly.(311)  Dinner-time, however, came and passed,
+and they arrived not.  They went by sea, and the wind proved
+contrary; and about seven o'clock a hobby groom was despatched
+thither by land, with intelligence that they had only reached
+Lulworth Castle at five o'clock.  They meant to be certainly back
+by eight ; but sent their commands that the farce might be
+performed first, and the play wait them.
+
+The manager repeated this to the audience,--already waiting and
+wearied but a loud applause testified their agreeability to
+whatever could be proposed.  The farce, however, was much sooner
+over than the passage from Lulworth Castle.  It was ten o'clock
+when they landed!  And all this time the audience--spectators
+rather--quietly waited!
+
+They landed, just by the theatre, and went to the house of Lady
+Pembroke, who is now here in attendance upon the queen : and
+there they Sent home for the king's page, with
+
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+
+a wig, etc.; and the queen's wardrobe woman, with similar
+decorations; and a message to Miss Planta and me, that we might
+go at once to the theatre.
+
+We obeyed; and soon after they appeared, and were received with
+the most violent gusts of joy and huzzas, even from the galleries
+over their heads, whose patience had not the reward of seeing
+them at last.  Is not this a charming trait of provincial
+popularity?
+
+Mrs. Siddons, in her looks, and the tragic part, was exquisite.
+
+
+                       A FATIGUING BUT PLEASANT DAY.
+
+Aug. 4.-To-day all the royals went to Sherborne Castle.  My day
+being perfectly at liberty, Mrs. Gwynn stayed and spent it with
+me.  The weather was beautiful; the sea-breezes here keep off
+intense heat in the warmest season.  We walked first to see the
+shrubbery and plantation of a lady, Mrs. B--, who has a very
+pretty house about a mile and a half out of the town.  Here we
+rested, and regaled ourselves with sweet flowers, and then
+proceeded to the old castle,-its ruins rather,- which we most
+completely examined, not leaving one stone' untrod, except such
+as must have precipitated us into the sea.  This castle is built
+almost in the sea, upon a perpendicular rock, and its situation,
+therefore, is nobly bold and striking.  It is little more now
+than walls, and a few little winding staircases at its four
+corners.
+
+I had not imagined my beautiful companion could have taken so
+much pleasure from an excursion so romantic and ,lonely ; but she
+enjoyed it very much, clambered about as unaffectedly as if she
+had lived in rural scenes all her life, and left nothing
+unexamined.
+
+We then prowled along the sands at the foot of the adjoining
+rocks, and picked up sea-weeds and shells - but I do not think
+they were such as to drive Sir Ashton Lever,(312) or the Museum
+keepers, to despair!  We had the queen's two little dogs, Badine
+and Phillis, for our guards and associates.  We returned home to
+a very late tea, thoroughly tired, but very much pleased.  To me
+it was the only rural excursion I had taken for more than three
+years.
+
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+The royal party came not home till past eleven o'clock.  The
+queen was much delighted with Sherborne Castle, which abounds
+with regal curiosities, honourably acquired by the family.
+
+
+
+                             LULWORTH CASTLE.
+
+Aug. 8.--To-day we went to Lulworth Castle; but not with Mrs.
+Gwynn.  Her majesty ordered our royal coach and four, and
+directed me to take the two De Lucs.
+
+Lulworth Castle is beautifully situated, with a near and noble
+view of the sea, It has a spacious and very fine park, and
+commands a great extent of prospect.  It is the property of Mr.
+Weld, a Roman Catholic, whose eldest brother was first husband of
+Mrs. Fitzherbert.(313)  A singular circumstance, that their
+majesties should visit a house in which, so few years ago, she
+might have received them.
+
+There is in it a Roman Catholic chapel that is truly elegant,--a
+Pantheon in miniature,--and ornamented with immense expense and
+richness.  The altar is all of finest variegated marbles, and
+precious stones are glittering from every angle.  The priests'
+vestments, which are very superb, and all the sacerdotal array,
+were shown us as particular favours: and Colonel Goldsworthy
+comically said he doubted not they had incense and oblations for
+a week to come, by way of purification for our heretical
+curiosity.
+
+The castle is built with four turrets.  It is not very ancient,
+and the inside is completely modern, and fitted up with great
+elegance.  It abounds in pictures of priests, saints, monks, and
+nuns, and is decorated with crosses and Roman Catholic devices
+without end.  They show one room in which two of our kings have
+slept; Charles II. and poor James II.
+
+We returned home to dinner, and in the evening went to the
+
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+play.  Mrs. Siddons performed Mrs. Oakley.(313)  What pity thus
+to throw away her talents !  but the queen dislikes tragedy, and
+the honour to play before the royal family blinds her to the
+little credit acquired by playing comedy.
+
+
+                  THE ROYAL PARTY AT THE ASSEMBLY Rooms.
+
+Sunday, Aug 9.-The king had a council yesterday, which brought
+most of the great officers of state to Weymouth.
+
+In the evening, her majesty desired Miss Planta and me to go to
+the rooms, whither they commonly go themselves on Sunday
+evenings, and, after looking round them, and speaking where they
+choose, they retire to tea in an inner apartment with their own
+party, but leave the door wide open, both to see and be seen.
+
+The rooms are convenient and spacious : we found them very full.
+As soon as the royal party came, a circle was formed, and they
+moved round it, just as before the ball at St. James's, the king
+one way with his chamberlain, the new-made Marquis of Salisbury,
+and the queen the other with the princesses, Lady Courtown, etc.
+The rest of the attendants planted themselves round in the
+circle.
+
+I had now the pleasure, for the first time, to see Mr. Pitt but
+his appearance is his least recommendation ; it is neither noble
+nor expressive.  Lord Chatham, the Duke of Richmond, Mr.
+Villiers, Lord Delawarr, etc., were in the circle, and spoken to
+a long time each.
+
+
+                     A JOURNEY To EXETER AND SALTRAM.
+
+Thursday, Aug. 13.-We began our Western tour.  We all went in the
+same order as we set out from Windsor.  We arrived at Exeter to a
+very late dinner.  We were lodged at the Deanery; and Dr.
+Buller, the dean, desired a conference with me, for we came
+first, leaving the royals at Sir George Young's.  He was very
+civil, and in highest glee: I had never seen him before; but he
+told me he introduced himself, by this opportunity, at the
+express desire of Mrs. Chapone and Mrs. Castle, who were both his
+relations, as well as of Dr. Warton.  I was glad to hear myself
+yet remembered by them.
+
+The crowds, the rejoicings, the hallooing, and singing, and
+garlanding, and decorating of all the inhabitants of this old
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+
+city, and of all the country through which we passed, made the
+journey quite charming : such happy loyalty as beamed from all
+ranks and descriptions of men carried close to the heart in
+sympathetic joy.
+
+We passed all the next day at the Deanery, which was insufficient
+to our party, that not only the gentlemen, one an(l all, lodged
+at the hotel, but even Lady Courtown and the two Lady
+Waldegraves.  I saw nothing of any of them while we stayed at
+Exeter.  I strolled with Miss Planta about the town, which is
+populous and busy enough, but close and ugly.  The principal
+parade for company, however, takes in a fine view of the country;
+and the cathedral is old and curious.
+
+The next morning, Saturday the 15th, we quitted Exeter, in which
+there had been one constant mob surrounding the Deanery from the
+moment of our entrance.  We proceeded through a country the most
+fertile, varied, rural, and delightful, in England, till we came
+to the end of our aim, Saltram.  We passed through such beautiful
+villages, and so animated a concourse of people, that the whole
+journey proved truly delectable.  Arches of flowers were-erected
+for the royal family to pass under at almost every town, with
+various loyal devices, expressive of their satisfaction in this
+circuit.  How happy must have been the king!-how deservedly ! The
+greatest conqueror could never pass through his dominions with
+fuller acclamations of joy from his devoted subjects than George
+III. experienced, simply from having won their love by the even
+tenor of an unspotted life, which, at length, has vanquished all
+the hearts of all his subjects.
+
+Our entrance at Saltram was, personally to Miss Planta and me,
+very disagreeable: we followed immediately after the royals and
+equerries and so many of the neighbouring gentry, the officers,
+etc., were assembled to receive them, that we had to make our way
+through a crowd of starers the most tremendous, while the royals
+all stood at the windows, and the other attendants in the hall.
+
+The house is one of the most magnificent in the kingdom.  It
+accommodated us all, even to every footman, without by any means
+filling the whole.  The state apartments on the ground floor are
+superb, hung with crimson damask, and ornamented with pictures,
+some few of the Spanish school, the rest by Sir Joshua Reynolds,
+Angelica, and some few by other artists.
+
+Its view is noble; it extends to Plymouth, Mount-Edge-
+
+
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+
+cumbe, and the neighbouring fine country.  The sea at times fills
+up a part of the domain almost close to the house, and then its
+prospect is Complete.
+
+
+                            MAY "ONE" COME IN?
+
+Sunday, Aug. 16.-Lord Courtown brought me a very obliging message
+from Lady Mount-Edgecumbe, who had been here at noon to kiss
+hands, on becoming a countess from a baroness.  She sent to
+invite me to see her place, and contrive to dine and spend the
+day there.  Her majesty approves the Mount-Edgecumbe invitation.
+
+Aug. 18.-This morning the royals were all at a grand naval
+review.  I spent the time very serenely in my favourite wood,
+which abounds in seats of all sorts - and then I took a fountain
+Pen, and wrote my rough journal for copying to my dear
+Sorelle.(314)
+
+In the evening, Lord Courtown, opening my parlour door, called
+out, "May one come in?"
+
+"May one?" exclaimed Colonel Goldsworthy; "may two, may
+three,--may four?--I like your one, indeed!"
+
+And in they all entered, and remained in sociable conversation
+till they were all called, late, to cards.
+
+
+                    AN EXCURSION To PLYMOUTH DOCKYARD.
+
+Aug. 19.-Again this morning was spent by the royals at Plymouth
+dock--by me in strolls round the house.  The wood here is truly
+enchanting--the paths on the slant down to the water resemble
+those of sweet Norbury park.
+
+The tea, also, was too much the same to be worth detailing.  I
+will only mention a speech which could not but divert me, of Mr.
+Alberts, the queen's page.  He said nobody dared represent to the
+king the danger of his present continual exertion in this hot
+weather,--"unless it is Mr. Fairly," he added, "who can say
+anything, in his genteel roundabout way."
+
+Aug. 21.-To-day the royals went to Mount-Edgecumbe, and her
+majesty had commissioned Lady Courtown to arrange a plan for Miss
+Planta and me to see Plymouth Dock.  According, therefore, to her
+ladyship's directions, we set off for that place, and, after a
+dull drive of about five miles, arrived at the house of the
+commissioner, Admiral La Forey.  Here
+
+
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+Mrs.  La Forey and her daughters were prepared to expect us, and
+take the trouble of entertaining us for the day.
+
+Three large and populous towns, Plymouth, Stockton, and
+Dock,(315) nearly join each other.        Plymouth is long,
+dirty, ill built, and wholly unornamented with any edifice worth
+notice. Stockton is rather neater,-nothing more.          Dock
+runs higher and Is newer, and looks far cleaner and more
+habitable.           The commissioner's is the best-situated
+house in Dock: it is opposite a handsome quay, on an arm of the
+sea, with a pretty paved walk, or terrace, before the house,
+which seems used as a mall by the inhabitants, and is stored with
+naval offices innumerable.
+
+The two ladies received us very pleasantly. Mrs. La Forey Is well
+bred, in the formal way ; but her eldest daughter, Mrs. Molloy,
+is  quite free from stiffness, yet perfectly obliging, very easy,
+very  modest, and very engaging, and, when dressed for a ball in
+the evening, very handsome.        She does not become a
+déshabille, but cannot look otherwise than pleasing and
+agreeable, from  her manners and countenance.
+
+Captain Molloy, her husband, was gone to attend in the naval
+procession that conducted the royals to Mount-Edgecumbe, where he
+expected to dine ; but he had left a younger officer, Lieutenant
+Gregory, to do the honours of the naval show to us.
+
+The commissioner himself is yet more formal than his lady, but
+equally civil. An unmarried daughter appeared next, who seems
+sensible and good humoured, but very plain.
+
+We sallied forth to the dockyard, with these two daughters, and
+Lieutenant Gregory, a very pleasing and well-bred young officer.
+How often I wished my dear James had happened to be here, in any
+employment, at this time!
+
+The dockyard you will dispense with my describing. It is a noble
+and tremendous sight, and we were shown it with every advantage
+of explanation.       It was a sort of sighing satisfaction to
+see such numerous stores of war's alarms !-ropes, sails, masts,
+anchors,--and all in the finest symmetry, divided and subdivided,
+as if placed only for show, The neatness and exactness of all the
+arrangement of those stores for tempest, filled me with
+admiration; so did the whole scene--though not with pleasure.
+All assurances, however well to be depended upon, of safety, are
+but so many indications of danger.
+
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+
+While we were seeing the anchor business,--which seemed
+performed by Vulcanic demons, so black they looked, so savage was
+their howl in striking the red-hot iron, and so coarse and slight
+their attire,--we were saluted with three cheers, from the
+accidental entrance of Lord Stopford, Lord Courtown's son, and
+Mr. Townshend, his nephew, a son of Lord Sydney, just made a lord
+of the Admiralty.  And the sound, in those black regions, where
+all the light was red-hot fire, had a Very fine demoniac effect.
+In beating the anchor they all strike at the same instant, giving
+about three quick strokes to one slow stroke; and were they not
+to time them with the most perfect conformity, they must
+inevitably knock out one another's brains.  The sight of this
+apparently continual danger gave to the whole the appearance of
+some wild rite performed from motives of superstition in some
+uncivilised country.
+
+While we were yet ]it the dockyard we were joined by two
+sea-captains, Captain Molloy and Captain Duckworth.  Captain
+Molloy is a sensible and agreeable man, but somewhat haughty, and
+of conscious consequence.  Captain Duckworth is both sensible and
+amiable in his style of conversation, and has a most perfect and
+kind openness of manner and countenance; but he greatly amused me
+by letting me see how much I amused him.  I never surprised him
+looking near me, without seeing on his face so irresistible a
+simper, that I expected him every moment to break forth; never
+even trying to keep a grave face, except when I looked at him in
+full front.  I found he knew "Burney, of the Bristol," as he
+called our James, and I named and conversed about him by every
+opportunity.                                              .
+
+
+                        A VISIT TO A SEVENTY-FOUR.
+
+Captain Molloy invited us, when we had exhausted the show on
+land, to see his ship.  I dislike going anywhere beyond the reach
+of the Humane society, but could not be left without breaking up
+the party: this was my first water-excursion, though two had been
+proposed to me at Weymouth, which I had begged leave to decline.
+
+All, however, was smooth and calm, and we had the best possible
+navigators.  We went to the ship in Captain Molloy's large boat,
+which was very trim and neat, and had all its rowers new dressed
+and smart for royal attendance, as it followed the king in all
+his water-excursions.
+
+
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+
+The Ship is the Bombay Castle, of seventy-four guns.  It had the
+Admiralty flag hoisted, as Lord Chatham had held a board there in
+the morning.  It is a very fine ship, and I was truly edified by
+the sight of all its accommodations, ingenuity, utility,
+cleanliness, and contrivances.  A man-of-war, fitted out and
+manned,- is a glorious and a fearful sight!
+
+In going over the ship we came to the midshipmen's mess, and
+those young officers were at dinner, but we were taken in: they
+were lighted by a few candles fastened to the wall in sockets.
+Involuntarily I exclaimed, "Dining by candle-light at noon-day!"
+A midshipman, starting forward, said, "Yes', ma'am, and Admiral
+Lord Hood did the same for seven years following!"
+
+ I liked his spirit so much that I turned to him, and said I was
+very glad they looked forward to such an example, for I had a
+brother in the service, which gave me a warm interest in its
+prosperity.  This made the midshipman so much my friend, that we
+entered into a detailed discourse upon the accommodations of
+their cabin, mess, etc., and various other matters.  I liked him
+much, though I know not his name; but my constant Captain
+Duckworth kept me again wholly to his own cicerone-ing, when I
+turned out of the cabin.
+
+A little, however, he was mortified to find me a coward upon the
+water.  I assured him he should cure me if he could convince me
+there was no reason for fear.  He would not allow of any, but
+could not disprove it.
+
+"Tell me," I said, "and honestly,--should we be overturned in the
+boat while out at sea, what would prevent our being drowned?"  He
+would not suppose such an accident possible.
+
+I pressed him, however, upon the possibility it might happen once
+in a century, and he could not help laughing, and answered, "O,
+we should pick you all up!" --I desired to know by what means.
+"Instruments," he said.  I forced him, after a long and comic
+resistance, to show me them.  Good heaven! they were
+three-pronged iron forks,--very tridents of Neptune!
+
+I exclaimed with great horror, "These!---why, they would tear the
+body to pieces!"
+
+"O," answered he calmly, "one must not think of legs and arms
+when life is in danger."
+
+I would not, however, under such protection, refuse sailing round
+Mount-Edgecumbe, which we did in Captain Molloy's boat, and just
+at the time when the royals, in sundry garden-
+
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+chairs, were driving about the place.  It was a beautiful view
+the situation is delightful.  But Captain Molloy was not in the
+best harmony with its owners, as they had disappointed his
+expectations of an Invitation to dinner.
+
+
+                         A DAY AT MOUNT-EDGECUMBE.
+
+Aug. 24.-To-day the royals went to Marystow, Colonel Heywood's,
+and Miss Planta and myself to Mount-Edgecumbe.  The queen had
+desired me to take Miss Planta, and I had written to prepare Lady
+Mount-Edgecumbe for a companion.
+
+We went in a chaise to the ferry, and thence in a boat.  I did
+not like this part of the business, for we had no pilot we knew,
+nor any one to direct us.  They would hardly believe, at
+Mount-Edgecumbe, we had adventured in so unguarded a manner: but
+our superior is too high to discover difficulties, or know common
+precautions ; and we fare, therefore, considerably worse in all
+these excursions, from belonging to crowned heads, than we should
+do in our own private stations, if visiting at any part of the
+kingdom.
+
+Safe, however, though not pleasantly, we arrived on the opposite
+shore ; when we found a gardener and a very commodious
+garden-chair waiting for us.  We drove through a sweet park to
+the house, at the gate of which stood Lord and Lady
+Mount-Edgecumbe, who told us that they had just heard an
+intention of their majesties to sail the next day up the River
+Tamer, and therefore they thought it their duty to hasten off to
+a seat they have near its banks, Coteil, with refreshments and
+accommodations, in case they should be honoured with a visit to
+see the place, which was very ancient and curious.  They should
+leave Lord Valletort to do the honours, and expressed much civil
+regret in the circumstance: but the distance was too great to
+admit of the journey, over bad roads, if they deferred it till
+after dinner.
+
+We then proceeded, in the chair, to see the place: it is truly
+noble; but I shall enter into no description from want of time:
+take a list simply of its particular points.  The sea, in some
+places, shows itself in its whole vast and unlimited expanse; at
+others, the jutting land renders it merely a beautiful basin or
+canal: the borders down to the sea are in some parts flourishing
+with the finest evergreens and most vivid verdure, and in others
+are barren, rocky, and perilous.  In one moment you might suppose
+yourself cast on a desert island,
+
+
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+
+and the next find yourself in the most fertile and luxurious
+country.  In different views we were shown Cawsand bay, the
+Hamoaze, the rocks called "the Maker," etc.,--Dartmoor hills,
+Plymouth, the dockyard, Saltram, and St. George's channel.
+Several noble ships, manned and commissioned -were in the Hamoaze
+amongst them our Weymouth friends' the Magnificent and
+Southampton.
+
+A very beautiful flower-garden is enclosed in one part of the
+grounds ; and huts, seats, and ornaments in general, were well
+adapted to the scenery of the place.  A seat is consecrated to
+Mrs. Damer,(316) with an acrostic on her name by Lord Valletort.
+It is surprising to see the state of vegetation at this place, so
+close to the main.  Myrtles, pomegranates, everg.reens, and
+flowering shrubs, all thrive, and stand the cold blast, when
+planted in a southern aspect, as safely as in an inland country.
+As it is a peninsula, it has all aspects, and the plantations and
+dispositions of the ground are admirably and skilfully assorted
+to them.
+
+The great open view, however, disappointed me : the towns it
+shows have no prominent features, the country is as flat as it is
+extensive, and the various branches of the sea which run into it
+give, upon their retreat, a marshy, muddy, unpleasant appearance.
+There is, besides, a want of some one striking object to arrest
+the eye, and fix the attention, which wearies from the general
+glare.  Points, however, there are, both of the sublime and
+beautiful, that merit all the fame which this noble place has
+acquired.
+
+In our tour around it we met Lord Stopford, Mr.  Townshend, and
+Captain Douglas ; and heard a tremendous account of the rage of
+the sea-captains, on being disappointed of a dinner at the royal
+visit to Mount-Edgecumbe.
+
+We did not quit these fine grounds till near dinner-time.  The
+housekeeper then showed us the house, and a set of apartments
+newly fitted up for the royals, had they chosen to sleep at
+Mount-Edgecumbe.  The house is old, and seems pleasant and
+convenient.
+
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+
+In a very pretty circular parlour, which had the appearance of
+being the chief living room, I saw amongst a small collection of
+books, "Cecilia."  I immediately laid a wager with myself the
+first volume would open upon Pacchierotti; and I won it very
+honestly, though I never expect to be paid it.  The chapter, "An
+Opera Rehearsal," was so well read, the leaves always flew apart
+to display it.
+
+The library is an exceeding good room, and seems charmingly
+furnished.  Here Lord Valletort received us.  His lady was
+confined to her room by indisposition.  He is a most neat little
+beau, and his face has the roses and lilies as finely blended as
+that of his pretty young wife.  He was extremely civil and
+attentive, and appears to be really amiable in his disposition.
+
+Mr. Brett, a plain, sensible, conversible man, who has an estate
+in the neighbourhood, dined with us; and a young Frenchman.  The
+dinner was very cheerful: my lord, at the head of the table,
+looked only like his lady in a riding-dress.  However, he
+received one mortifying trial of his temper - he had sent to
+request sailing up the Tamer next day with Sir Richard Bickerton;
+and he had a blunt refusal, in a note, during our repast.  Not an
+officer in the fleet would accommodate him; their resentment of
+the dinner slight is quite vehement.
+
+We returned home the same way we came; the good-natured little
+lord, and Mr. Brett also, quite shocked we had no better guard or
+care taken of us.
+
+
+                        MR. FAIRLY ON A COURT LIFE.
+
+Weymouth, Sunday, Sept. 6.-This evening, the royals and their
+train all went again to the rooms to drink their tea.  Miss
+Planta and myself were taking ours quietly together, and I was
+finishing a charming sermon of Blair while she was running over
+some old newspapers, when, suddenly, but very gently, the
+room-door was opened, and then I heard, "Will Miss Burney permit
+me to come in, and give me a dish of tea?"  'Twas Mr. Fairly.
+
+He said we were to go on Monday se'nnight to Lord Bath's, on
+Wednesday to Lord Aylesbury's, and on Friday to return to
+Windsor.  He was himself to be discharged some days sooner, as he
+should not be wanted on the road.  He said many things relative -
+to Court lives and situations: with
+respect, deference, and regard invariable, mentioned the leading
+individuals ; but said nothing could be so weak as to
+
+
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+
+look there, in such stations, for such impossibilities as
+sympathy, friendship, or cordiality !  And he finished with
+saying, "People forget themselves who look for them!"
+
+Such, however, is not my feeling ; and I am satisfied he has met
+with some unexpected coldness.  Miss Planta being present, he
+explained only in generals.
+
+
+                       A BRIEF SOJOURN AT LONGLEAT.
+
+Monday, Sept. 14.-We all left Weymouth.  All possible honours
+were paid the king on his departure; lords, ladies, and sea-
+officers, lined the way that he passed, the guns of the
+Magnificent and Southampton fired the parting salute, and the
+ships were under sail.
+
+We all set out as before, but parted on the road.  The royals
+went to breakfast at Redlinch, the seat of Lord Ilchester, where
+Mr, Fairly(317) was in waiting for them, and thence proceeded to
+a collation at Sherborne Castle, whither he was to accompany
+them, and then resign his present attendance, which has been long
+and troublesome and irksome, I am sure.
+
+Miss Planta and myself proceeded to Longleat, the seat of the
+Marquis of Bath, late Lord Weymouth; where we were all to dine,
+sleep, and spend the following day and night.  Longleat was
+formerly the dwelling of the Earl of Lansdowne, uncle to Mrs.
+Delany; and here, at this seat, that heartless uncle, to promote
+some political views, sacrificed his incomparable niece, at the
+age of seventeen, marrying her to an unwieldly, uncultivated,
+country esquire, near sixty years of age, and scarce ever sober--
+his name Pendarves.
+
+With how sad an awe, in recollecting her submissive unhappiness,
+did I enter these doors!--and with what indignant hatred did I
+look at the portrait of the unfeeling earl, to whom her gentle
+repugnance, shown by almost incessant tears, was thrown away, as
+if she, her person, and her existence were nothing in the scale,
+where the disposition of a few boroughs opposed them! Yet was
+this the famous Granville--the poet, the fine gentleman, the
+statesman, the friend and patron of Pope, of whom he wrote--
+
+"What Muse for Granville can refuse to sing?"
+
+Mine, I am sure, for one.
+
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+
+Lady Bath showed us our rooms, to which we repaired immediately,
+to dress before the arrival of the royals.
+
+
+We dined with the gentlemen, all but the marquis, who was
+admitted, in his own house, to dine with the king and queen, as
+were all the ladies of his family.  Lord Weymouth, the eldest
+son, was our president; and two of his brothers, Lords George and
+John, with Lord Courtown and the two colonels, made the party.
+The Weymouths, Thynnes rather, are silent, and we had but little
+talk or entertainment.
+
+The house is very magnificent, and of in immense magnitude.  It
+seems much out of repair, and by no means cheerful or
+comfortable.  Gloomy grandeur seems the proper epithet for the
+building and its fitting-up.  It had been designed for a
+monastery, and as such was nearly completed when Henry VIII.
+dissolved those seminaries.  It was finished as a- dwelling-house
+in the reign of his son, by one of the Thynnes, who
+ was knighted in a field of battle by the protector
+Somerset.(318)
+
+Many things in the house, and many queer old portraits, afforded
+me matter of Speculation, and would have filled up more time than
+I had to bestow.  There are portraits of Jane Shore and Fair
+Rosamond, which have some marks of originality, being miserable
+daubs, yet from evidently beautiful subjects.  Arabella Stuart is
+also at full length, and King Charleses and Jameses in abundance,
+with their queens, brethren, and cousins.  There are galleries in
+this house of the dimensions of college halls.
+
+The state rooms on the ground floor are very handsome but the
+queer antique little old corners, cells, recesses, "passages that
+lead to nothing," unexpected openings, and abrupt stoppages, with
+the quaint devices of various old-fashioned ornaments, amused me
+the most.
+
+     Page 332
+
+My bed-room was furnished with crimson velvet, bed included, yet
+so high, though only the second story, that it made me giddy to
+look into the park, and tired to wind up the flight of stairs.
+It was formerly the favourite room, the housekeeper told me, of
+Bishop Ken, who put on his shroud in it before he died.  Had I
+fancied I had seen his ghost, I might have screamed my voice
+away, unheard by any assistant to lay it; for so far was I from
+the rest of the habitable part of the mansion, that not the lungs
+of Mr. Bruce could have availed me.(319)
+
+The park is noble and spacious.  It was filled with country
+folks, permitted to enter that they might see their sovereigns,
+and it looked as gay without as it seemed gloomy within.  The
+people were dressed in their best, as if they came to a fair ;
+and such shouts and hallooings ensued, whenever the king appeared
+at a window, that the whole building rang again with the
+vibration.  Nothing upon earth can be more gratifying than the
+sight of this dear and excellent king thus loved and received by
+all descriptions of his subjects.
+
+
+                    TOTTENHAM COURT: RETURN TO WINDSOR.
+
+Sept. 16.-We set out, amidst the acclamations of a multitude,
+from Longleat for Tottenham park, the seat of Lord Aylesbury.
+The park is of great extent and moderate beauty.  The house is
+very well.
+
+We had only our own party, the three gentlemen, at dinner and
+breakfast.  These gentlemen only dine with the king when he keeps
+house, and keeps it incog. himself.  At Tottenham park, only my
+Lord Aylesbury, as master of the house, was admitted.  He and his
+lady were both extremely desirous to make all their guests
+comfortable ; and Lady Aylesbury very politely offered me the use
+of her own collection of books.  But I found, at the top of the
+house, a very large old library, in which there were sundry
+uncommon and curious old English tracts, that afforded me much
+entertainment.  'Tis a library of long standing.
+
+Here are many original portraits also, that offer enough for
+speculation.  A "Bloody Mary," by Sir Anthony More, which I saw
+with much curiosity, and liked better than I expected.  The
+beautiful Duchesses of Cleveland and Portsmouth, I fancy
+
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+
+by Kneller; but we had no cicerone.  A very fine picture of a
+lady in black, that I can credit to be Vandyke, but who else can
+I know not.  Several portraits by Sir Peter Lely, extremely soft
+and pleasing, and of subjects uncommonly beautiful; many by Sir
+Godfrey Kneller, well enough; and many more by Sir Something
+Thornhill,(320) very thick and heavy.
+
+The good lord of the mansion put up a new bed for the king and
+queen that cost him nine hundred pounds.
+
+Two things I heard here with concern-that my godmother, Mrs.
+Greville, was dead; and that poor Sir Joshua Reynolds had lost
+the sight of one of his eyes.(321)
+
+Sept. 18.-We left Tottenham Court, and returned to Windsor.  The
+royals hastened to the younger princesses, and I to Mrs.
+Schwellenberg.  I was civilly received, however.  But deadly dead
+sunk my heart as I entered her apartment.
+
+The next day I had a visit from my dear brother Charles full of
+business, letters, etc.  I rejoiced to see him, and to confab
+over all his affairs, plans, and visions, more at full length
+than for a long time past.  I was forced to introduce him to Mrs.
+Schwellenberg, and he flourished away successfully enough; but it
+was very vexatious, as he had matters innumerable for discussion.
+
+(305) The palace of Kew.-ED.
+
+(306) See ante, p. 44.-ED.
+
+(307) The Duke of Clarence, third son of George III.; afterwards
+William IV.-ED.
+
+(308) The Jessamy Bride."  See ante, vol. i, p. 111.-ED.
+
+(309) "Observations and Reflections made in the course of a
+Journey through France, Italy, and Germany," by published in
+1789.
+
+(310) "The Midnight Hour," a comedy by Mrs. Inchbald, well known
+as the authoress of "A Simple Story," and "Nature and Art," was
+originally produced at Covent Garden, May 22, 1787.  "The
+Commissary," a comedy by Samuel Foote, partly taken from "Le
+Bourgeois Gentilhomme," was first performed at the Haymarket in
+June, 1765.  Mr. Quick and Mrs. Wells were popular comedians of
+the time.-ED.
+
+(311) In "The Provoked Husband," by Vanbrugh and Cibber.-ED.
+
+(312) Sir Ashton Lever was noted for his extensive and valuable
+collection of objects of natural history.  In 1775 he opened a
+museum in Leicester Square, in which his collection was shown to
+the public; but ten years later he was compelled to dispose of
+it.  The new proprietor exhibited the collection for some years,
+but it was finally sold and dispersed.-ED.
+
+(312) Maria Anne Smythe was born in 1756, and married, in 1775,
+Edward Weld of Lulworth Castle.  He died within a year, and she
+married, in 1778, Thomas Fitzherbert of Swinnerton,
+Staffordshire, who died in 1781.  In December, 1785, Mrs.
+Fitzherbert was privately married to the Prince of Wales.  The
+marriage was never publicly recognised, and its legality was
+perhaps disputable: for by the Act of 1772 the marriage of any
+member of the Royal family under the age of twenty-five without
+the king's consent, was declared invalid, and at the date of his
+marriage with the beautiful Mrs Fitzherbert, the Prince was but
+twenty-three years of age.  he always treated her as his wife,
+however, and she was received in society.  She continued to live
+with him even after his marriage with the Princess Caroline, and
+finally parted from him in 1803, retiring with an allowance of
+6,000 pounds a year to Brighton, where she died in 1837.-ED.
+
+(313) A character in Colman's comedy of "The Jealous Wife."-ED.
+
+(314) Sisters--the Italian word.-ED.
+
+(315) Dock is now called Devonport.-ED.
+
+(316) The lady-sculptor, the Hon. Mrs. Damer, daughter of General
+Conway and kinswoman of Horace Walpole, who bequeathed to her,
+for the term of her life, his villa at Strawberry Hill.  Her
+performances in sculpture were of no great merit, but were
+prodigiously admired by Horace Walpole, who had a notorious
+weakness for the works of persons of quality.  Mrs. Damer was a
+staunch whig, and canvassed Westminster on behalf of Charles Fox
+at the election of 1784, in company with the Duchess of
+Devonshire and Mrs. Crewe.-ED.
+
+(317) His late wife, it will be remembered, was a daughter of
+Lord Ilchester.-ED.
+
+(318) Longleat, in Wiltshire, was never intended for a monastery,
+but Was built from a design, it is said, by John of Padua, for
+Sir John Thynne, who was knighted by Somerset on the field, after
+the battle of Pinkie.  Sir John's descendant, Thomas Thynne,
+Esq., of Longleat, the wealthy friend of Monmouth, and the "wise
+Issachar" of Dryden's "Absalom and Achitophel," was murdered in
+his coach in Pall-Mall (February 12, 1682), by the contrivance of
+Count Koenigsmark, who was tried for the murder and acquitted,
+although his confederates, the actual perpetrators of the crime,
+were hanged for it.  Thomas Thynne was succeeded in his estates
+by his cousin, Sir Thomas Thynne, who was the same year created
+Baron Thynne and Viscount Weymouth, titles which have descended
+in the family, and to which that of Marquis of Bath has since
+been added." (See "Count Koenigsmark and Tom of Ten Thousand," by
+H. Vizetelly, London, 1890.)-ED.
+
+(319) James Bruce, the famous African traveller, made the
+acquaintance of the Burney family in 1775.  He was about seven
+feet in height.  In her early letters to Mr. Crisp, Fanny calls
+him the "man-mountain."-ED.
+
+(320) Sir James Thornhill, the father-in-law of Hogarth.-ED.
+
+(321) "One day, in the month of July, 1789, while finishing the
+portrait of the Marchioness of Hereford, he felt a sudden decay
+of sight in his left eye.  He laid down the pencil, sat a little
+while in mute consideration, and never lifted it more.  His sight
+gradually darkened, and within ten weeks of the first attack his
+left eye was wholly blind." (Allan Cunningham.) For some time
+after this he attended to his duties as President of the Royal
+Academy, and he delivered his last address to the students in
+1790.  Sir Joshua died in his sixty-ninth year, February 23,
+1792-ED.
+
+
+
+
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+                                SECTION 16.
+                                (1789-90.)
+
+                MR. FAIRLY'S'MARRIAGE: THE HASTINGS TRIAL,
+
+                RUMOURS OF MR. FAIRLY'S IMPENDING MARRIAGE.
+
+Colonel Gwynn told us, at tea-time, of the wonderful
+recovery of Colonel Goldsworthy, who has had an almost desperate
+illness; and then added that he had dined the preceding day with
+him, and met Mr. Fairly, who was coming to Windsor, and all
+prepared, when he was suddenly stopped, on the very preceding
+evening, by a fresh attack of the gout.
+
+I heard this with much concern, and made many inquiries, which
+were presently interrupted by an exclamation of Major Garth, who
+was now in waiting: "The gout?" he cried: "nay, then, it is time
+he should get a nurse; and, indeed, I hear he has one in view."
+Colonel Gwynn instantly turned short, with a very significant
+smile of triumph, towards me, that seemed to confirm this
+assertion, while it exulted in his own prediction at Cheltenham.
+
+
+The following morning, while I was alone with my royal mistress,
+she mentioned Mr. Fairly for the first time since we left
+Weymouth.  It was to express much displeasure against him: e had
+misled Lord Aylesbury about the ensuing Drawing-room, by
+affirming there would be none this month.  After saying how wrong
+this was, and hearing me venture to answer I could not doubt but
+he must have had some reason, which, if known, might account for
+his mistake, she suddenly, and with some severity of accent,
+said, "He will not come
+
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+
+here!  For some reason or other he does not choose it!  He cannot
+bear to come!"
+
+How was I amazed! and silenced pretty effectually
+
+She then added, "He has set his head against coming.  I know he
+has been in town some considerable time, but he has desired it
+may not be told here.  I know, too, that when he has been met in
+the streets, he has called out, 'For heaven's sake, if you are
+going to Windsor, do not say you have seen me.'"
+
+Nov. 18.-We were to go to town: but while I was taking my hasty
+breakfast Miss Planta flew into the room, eagerly exclaiming,
+"Have you heard the news?"  I saw, instantly, by her eyes and
+manner, what she meant and therefore answered, "I believe so."
+
+"Mr. Fairly is going to be married!  I resolved I would tell
+you."
+
+I heard the rumour," I replied, "the other day, from Colonel
+Gwynn."
+
+"O, it's true!" she cried; "he has written to ask leave; but for
+heaven's sake don't say so!"
+
+I gave her my ready promise, for I believed not a syllable of the
+matter; but I would not tell her that.
+
+
+            A ROYAL VISIT TO THE THEATRE: JAMMED IN THE CROWD.
+
+We went to town not only for the Drawing-room on the next day,
+but also for the play on this Wednesday night,(322) and the party
+appointed to sit in the queen's private box, as, on these
+occasions, the balcony-box opposite to the royals is called,
+dined with Mrs. Schwellenberg,--namely, Mrs. Stainforth, Miss
+Planta, Mr. de Luc, and Mr. Thomas Willis,
+
+When we arrived at the playhouse(323) we found the lobby and all
+the avenues so crowded, that it was with the utmost difficulty we
+forced our way up the stairs.  It was the first appearance of the
+good king at the theatre since his illness.
+
+When we got up stairs, we were stopped effectually: there was not
+room for a fly ; and though our box was not only taken and kept,
+but partitioned off, to get to it was wholly impracticable.
+
+Mr. Willis and Miss Planta protested they would go down
+
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+again, and remonstrate with Mr. Harris, the manager; and I must
+own the scene that followed was not unentertaining.  Mrs.
+Stainforth and myself were fast fixed in an angle at the corner
+of the stairs, and Mr. de Luc stood in the midst of the crowd,
+where he began offering so many grave arguments, with such
+deliberation and precision, every now and then going back in his
+reasoning to correct his own English, representing our right to
+proceed, and the wrong of not making way for us, that it was
+irresistibly comic to see the people stare, as they pushed On,
+and to see his unconscious content in their passing him, so long
+as he completed his expostulations on their indecorum.
+
+Meanwhile, poor Mrs. Stainforth lost her cloak, and in her loud
+lamentations, and calls upon all present to witness her distress
+(to which, for enhancing its importance, she continually added,
+"Whoever has found it should bring it to the Queen's house"), she
+occupied the attention of all upon the stairs as completely as it
+was occupied by Mr. de Luc for all in 'the passages : but, alas!
+neither the philosophic harangue of the one, nor the royal
+dignity of the other, prevailed; and while there we stood,
+expecting an avenue to be formed, either for our eloquence or our
+consequence, not an inch of ground did we gain, and those who had
+neither made their way, and got on in multitudes.
+
+Offended, at length, as well as tired, Mrs. Stainforth proposed
+our going down, and waiting in the lobby, till Mr. Harris
+arrived.  Here we were joined by a gentleman, whose manner of
+fixing me showed a half-recollection of my face, which I
+precisely returned him, without being able to recollect where I
+had seen him before.  He spoke to Mrs. Stainforth, who answered
+as if she knew him, and then he came to me and offered to assist
+in getting me to my box.  I told him the manager had already been
+sent to.  He did not, however, go off, but entered into
+conversation upon the crowd, play, etc., with the ease of an old
+acquaintance.  I took the first opportunity to inquire of Mrs.
+Stainforth who he was, and heard--Lord Mountmorres, whom you may
+remember I met with at the theatre at Cheltenham.
+
+What, however, was ridiculous though was, that, after a
+considerable length of time, he asked me who Mrs. Stainforth was,
+and I afterwards heard he had made the same inquiry of herself
+about me!  The difference of a dressed and undressed head had
+occasioned, I suppose, the doubt.  The moment,
+
+
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+
+however, he had completely satisfied himself in this, he fairly
+joined me, as if he had naturally belonged to our party.  And it
+turned out very acceptable, for we were involved in all such sort
+of difficulties as our philosopher was the least adapted to
+remove.
+
+We now went about, in and out, up and down, but without any power
+to make way, the crowd every instant thickening.  We then were
+fain to return to our quiet post, behind the side-boxes in the
+lobby, where we remained till the arrival of the king, and then
+were somewhat recompensed for missing the sight of his entrance,
+by hearing the sound of his reception: for so violent an huzzaing
+commenced, such thundering clapping, knocking with sticks, and
+shouting, and so universal a chorus of "God save the king," that
+not all the inconveniences of my situation could keep my heart
+from beating with joy, nor my eyes from running over with
+gratitude for its occasion.
+
+Lord Mountmorres, who joined in the stick part of the general
+plaudit, exclaimed frequently, "What popularity is this! how fine
+to a man's feelings! yet he Must find it embarrassing."  Indeed I
+should suppose he could with difficulty bear it, 'Twas almost
+adoration! How much I lament that I lost the sight of his benign
+countenance, during such glorious moments as the most favoured
+monarchs can scarce enjoy twice in the longest life!
+
+Miss Planta and Mr. Willis now returned: they had had no success;
+Mr. Harris said they might as well stem the tide of the ocean as
+oppose or rule such a crowd.  The play now began ; and Lord
+Mountmorres went away to reconnoitre, but, presently returning,
+said, "If you will trust yourselves with me I will show you your
+chance."  And then he conducted me to the foot of the stairs
+leading to our box, which exhibited such a mass of living
+creatures, that the insects of an ant-hill could scarce be more
+compact.
+
+We were passed by Lord Stopford, Captain Douglas, and some other
+of our acquaintance, who told us of similar distresses; and in
+this manner passed the first act!  The boxkeeper came and told
+Lord Mountmorres he could now give his lordship one seat: but the
+humours of the lobby he now preferred, and refused the place:
+though I repeatedly begged that we might not detain him.  But he
+was determined to see us safe landed before he left us.
+
+
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+Mr. Harris now came again, and proposed taking us another way, to
+try to get up some back-stairs.  We then went behind the scenes
+for this purpose : but here Mr. Harris was called away, and we
+were left upon the stage.  Lord Mountmorres led me to various
+peep-holes, where I could at least have the satisfaction of
+seeing the king and royal family, as well as the people, and the
+whole was a sight most grateful to my eyes.
+
+So civil, however, and so attentive he was, that a new perplexity
+now occurred to me : he had given up his place, and had taken so
+much trouble, that I thought, if we at last got to our box, he
+would certainly expect to be accommodated.  in it.  And to take
+any one, without previous permission, into the queen's private
+box, and immediately facing their majesties, was a liberty I knew
+not how to risk ; and, in truth, I knew not enough of his present
+politics to be at all sure if they might not be even peculiarly
+obnoxious.  This consideration, therefore, began now so much to
+reconcile me to this emigrant evening, that I ceased even to wish
+for recovering our box.
+
+
+                           IN THE MANAGER's Box.
+
+When Mr. Harris came back, he said he had nothing to propose but
+his own box, which was readily accepted.  To this our access was
+easy, as it was over the king and queen, and consequently not
+desirable to those who came to see them.  I too now preferred it,
+as it was out of their sight, and enabled me to tell Lord
+Mountmorres, who led me to it through the crowd with unceasing
+trouble and attention, that till he could get better accommodated
+a place was at his service.
+
+He closed instantly with the offer, placing himself behind me ;
+but said he saw some of his relations in the opposite stage-box,
+Lady Mornington and her beautiful daughter Lady Ann Wellesley,
+and, as soon as the act was over, he would go down and persuade
+them to make room for him.
+
+I was shocked, however, after all this, to hear him own himself
+glad to sit down, as he was still rather lame, from a dreadful
+overturn in a carriage, in which his leg had been nearly crushed
+by being caught within the coach-door, which beat down upon it,
+and almost demolished it.
+
+This anecdote, however, led to another more pleasant; for it
+brought on a conversation which showed me his present principles,
+at least, were all on the government side.  The accident had
+happened during a Journey to Chester, in his way to
+
+
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+
+Ireland, whither he was hastening upon the Regency business, last
+winter: and he went to the Irish House of Peers the first time he
+quitted his room, after a confinement of three weeks from this
+terrible bruise.
+
+"But how," cried I, "could you stand?"
+
+"I did not stand," he answered; "they indulged me with leave to
+speak sitting."
+
+"What a useful opening, then, my lord," cried I, "did you lose
+for every new paragraph!" I meant, the cant of "Now I am upon my
+legs." He understood it instantly, and laughed heartily,
+protesting it was no small detriment to his oratory.
+
+The play was the "Dramatist,"(324) written with that species of
+humour in caricature that resembles O'Keefe's performances; full
+of absurdities, yet laughable in the extreme.  We heard very ill,
+and, missing the beginning, we understood still worse: so that,
+in fact, I was indebted to my new associate for all the
+entertainment I received the whole evening.
+
+When the act was over, the place on which he had cast his eye,
+near Lady Mornington, was seized; he laughed, put down his hat,
+and composed himself quietly for remaining where he was.  He must
+be a man of a singular character, though of what sort I know not:
+but in his conversation he showed much information, and a
+spirited desire of interchanging ideas with those who came in his
+way.
+
+We talked a great deal of France, and he related to me a variety
+of anecdotes just fresh imported thence.  He was there at the
+first assembling of the Notables, and he saw, he said impending
+great events from that assemblage.  The two most remarkable
+things that had struck him, he told me, in this wonderful
+revolution, were--first, that the French guards should ever give
+up their king; and secondly, that the chief spirit and capacity
+hither-to shown amongst individuals had come from the
+ecclesiastics.
+
+He is very much of the opinion the spirit of the times will come
+round to this island.  In what, I asked, could be its pretence?--
+The game-laws, he answered, and the tithes.  He told me, also, a
+great deal of Ireland, and enlarged my political knowledge
+abundantly,--but I shall not be so generous, my dear friends, as
+to let you into all these state matters.
+
+But I must tell you a good sort of quirk of Mr.  Wilkes, who,
+when the power of the mob and their cruelty were first reciting,
+
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+
+quarrelled with a gentleman for saying the French government was
+become a democracy and asserted it was rather a mobocracy.  The
+pit, he said, reminded him of a sight he once saw in Westminster
+Hall,--a floor of faces.
+
+He was a candidate for Westminster at that time, with Charles
+Fox!--thus do we veer about.
+
+At the end of the farce, "God save the king" was most
+vociferously called for from all parts of the theatre, and all
+the singers of the theatre came on the stage to sing it, joined
+by the whole audience, who kept it up till the sovereign of his
+people's hearts left the house.  It was noble and heart-melting
+at once to hear and see such loyal rapture, and to feel and know
+it so deserved.
+
+
+                      MR. FAIRLY'S MARRIAGE IMMINENT.
+
+NOV. 20.-Some business sent me to speak with Miss Planta before
+our journey back to Windsor.  When it was executed and I was
+coming away, she called out, "O! Špropos--it's all declared, and
+the princesses wished Miss Fuzilier joy yesterday in the
+Drawing-room.  She looked remarkably well ; but said Mr. Fairly
+had still a little gout, and could not appear."
+
+Now first my belief followed assertion;--but it was only because
+it was inevitable, since the princesses could not have proceeded
+so far without certainty. . . . . .
+
+We returned to Windsor as usual, and there I was, just as usual,
+obliged to finish every evening with picquet !--and to pass all
+and every afternoon, from dinner to midnight, in picquet company.
+
+Nov. 28.-The queen, after a very long airing, came * in to dress,
+and summoned me immediately; and in two minutes the princess
+royal entered, and said something in German, and then added, "And
+Mr. Fairly, ma'am, begs he may see you a moment, now, if
+possible."
+
+This is his first coming to the house since her royal highness's
+birthday, just two months ago.
+
+"I am very sorry," was answered coolly, "but I am going to
+dress."
+
+"He won't keep you a moment, mamma, only he wants to get on to
+St. Leonards to dinner,"
+
+Miss Fuzilier is now there."
+
+"Well, then," she answered, "I'll slip on my powdering-gown, and
+see him."
+
+
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+
+I found, however, they had already met, probably in the
+passage, for the queen added, "How melancholy he looks, does not
+he, princess royal?"
+
+"Yes, indeed, mamma!"--They then again talked ' German.
+
+The princess then went to call him ; and I hastened into the next
+room, with some caps just then inspecting.
+
+Mr. Turbulent again dined with us, and said, "I find Mr. Fairly
+is here to-day? when is he to be married?"
+
+Mrs. Schwellenberg reproved him for talking of "soch things:" she
+holds it petty treason to speak of it, as they are both in office
+about the Court; though she confessed it would be in a fortnight.
+
+At tea, when the gentlemen--General Budé, Majors Price and Garth,
+and Mr. Willis--appeared, she said, "Where be Mr. Fairly?" They
+all exclaimed, "Is he here?"
+
+"O, certain, if he ben't gone!"
+
+I then said he had gone on to St. Leonards.
+
+They all expressed the utmost surprise that he should come, and
+go, and see none of them.
+
+When they retired, Mrs. Schwellenberg exclaimed, "For what not
+stay one night? For what not go to the gentlemen? It looks like
+when he been ashamed.--O fie! I don't not like soch ting.  And
+for what always say contrarie?--always say to everybody he won't
+not have her!--There might be something wrong in all that--it
+looks not well."
+
+I saw a strong desire to have me enter into the merits of the
+case; but I constantly answer to these exclamations, that these
+sort of situations are regarded in the world as licensing denials
+first, and truancy from all others afterwards.
+
+
+                          COURT DUTIES DISCUSSED.
+
+December.-Let me now, to enliven you a little, introduce to you a
+new acquaintance, self-made, that I meet at the chapel, and who
+always sits next me when there is room,-- Mrs. J--, wife to the
+Bishop of K--: and before the service begins, she enters into
+small talk, with a pretty tolerable degree of frankness, not much
+repressed by scruples of delicacy.
+
+Take a specimen.  She opened, the other morning, upon my
+situation and occupation, and made the most plump inquiries into
+its particulars, with a sort of hearty good humour
+
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+
+that removed all impertinence, whatever it left of inelegance and
+then began her comments.
+
+"Well; the queen, to be sure, is a great deal better dressed than
+she used to be; but for all that, I really think it is but an odd
+thing for you!--Dear! I think it's something so out of the way
+for you!--I can't think how you set about it.  It must have been
+very droll to you at first.  A great deal of honour, to be sure,
+to serve a queen, and all that: but I dare say a lady's-maid
+could do it better,--though to be called about a queen, as I say,
+is a great deal of honour: but, for my part, I should not like
+it; because to be always obliged to go to a person, whether one
+was in the humour or not, and to get up in a morning, if one was
+never so sleepy!--dear! it must be a mighty hurry-skurry life!
+you don't look at all fit for it, to judge by appearances, for
+all its great honour, and all that."
+
+Is not this a fit bishop's wife? is not here primitive candour
+and veracity? I laughed most heartily,--and we have now commenced
+acquaintance for these occasional meetings.
+
+If this honest dame does not think me fit for this part of my
+business, there is another person, Mlle. Montmoulin, who, with
+equal simplicity, expresses her idea of my unfitness for another
+part.-- How you bear it," she cries, "living with Mrs.
+Schwellenberg!--I like it better living in prison!--'pon
+m'honneur, I prefer it bread and water; I think her so cross
+never was.  If I you, I won't bear it--poor Miss Burney!--I so
+sorry!--'pon m'honneur, I think to you oftens!--you so confined,
+you won't have no pleasures!--"
+
+Miss Gomme, less plaintive, but more solemn, declared the other
+day, "I am sure you must go to heaven for living this
+life!"---So, at least, you see, though in a court, I am not an
+object of envy.
+
+
+                       MR. FAIRLY'S STRANGE WEDDING.
+
+January, 1790.-Mr. Fairly was married the 6th--I must wish
+happiness to smile on that day, and all its anniversaries, it
+gave a happiness to me unequalled, for it was the birthday of my
+Susanna!
+
+One evening, about this time, Mr. Fisher, now Doctor, drank tea
+with us at Windsor, and gave me an account of Mr. Fairly's
+marriage that much amazed me.  He had been called upon to perform
+the ceremony.  It was by special licence, and at the house of Sir
+R- G-.(325)  @
+
+
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+
+So religious, so strict in all ceremonies, even, of religion, as
+he always appeared, his marrying out of a church was to me very
+unexpected.  Dr. Fisher was himself surprised, when called upon,
+and said he supposed it must be to please the lady.
+
+Nothing, he owned, could be less formal or solemn than the whole.
+Lady C., Mrs. and Miss S., and her father and brother and sister,
+were present.  They all dined together at the usual hour,'and
+then the ladies, as usual, retired.  Some time after, the clerk
+was sent for, and then, with the gentlemen, joined the ladies,
+who were in the drawing-room, seated on sofas, just as at any
+other time, Dr. Fisher says he is not sure they were working, but
+the air of common employment was such, that he rather thinks it,
+and everything of that sort was spread about as on any common
+day--workboxes, netting-cases, etc.  Mr. Fairly then asked Dr.
+Fisher what they were to do?  He answered, he could not tell; for
+he had never married anybody in a room before.
+
+Upon this, they agreed to move a table to the upper end of the
+room, the ladies still sitting quietly, and then Put on it
+candles and a prayer-book.  Dr. Fisher says he hopes it was not a
+card-table, and rather believes it was only a Pembroke
+work-table.  The lady and Sir R. then came forward, and Dr.
+Fisher read the service.
+
+So this, methinks, seems the way to make all things easy!
+
+Yet--with so little solemnity-without even a room prepared and
+empty--to go through a business of such portentous seriousness!--
+'Tis truly amazing from a man who seemed to delight so much in
+religious regulations and observances.  Dr. Fisher himself was
+dissatisfied, and wondered at his compliance, though he
+attributed the plan to the lady.
+
+The bride behaved extremely well, he said, and was all smile and
+complacency.  He had never seen her to such advantage, or in such
+soft looks, before; and perfectly serene, though her sister was
+so much moved as to go into hysterics.
+
+Afterwards, at seven o'clock, the bride and bride-groom set off
+for a friend's house in Hertfordshire by themselves, attended by
+servants with white favours.  The rest of the party, father,
+sister, and priest included, went to the play, which happened to
+be Benedict.
+
+
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+
+                          A VISIT FROM THE BRIDE.
+
+I shall say nothing of the queen's birthday, but that I had a
+most beautiful trimming worked me for it by Miss Cambridge, who
+half fatigued herself to death, for the kind pleasure that I
+should have my decorations from her hands.  If in some points my
+lot has been unenviable, what a constant solace, what sweet and
+soft amends, do I find and feel in the almost unexampled union of
+kindness and excellence in my chosen friends!
+
+The day after the birthday produced a curious scene.  To soften
+off, by the air, a violent headache, I determined upon walking to
+Chelsea to see my dear father.  I knew I should thus avoid
+numerous visitors of the household, who might pay their devoirs
+to Mrs. Schwellenberg.
+
+I missed my errand, and speedily returned, and found many cards
+from bed-chamber women and maids of honour; and, while still
+reading them, I was honoured with a call from the Bishop of
+Salisbury; and in two minutes my dear father came himself.
+
+A pleasant conversation was commencing, when Columb opened the
+door, and said, "Colonel Fairly begs leave to ask you how you
+do."  He had been married but a week before he came into the
+midst of all the Court bustle, which he had regularly attended
+ever since!
+
+It was a good while before the door opened again - and I heard a
+buzz of voices in the passage: but when it was thrown open, there
+appeared--the bride herself--and alone!  She looked quite
+brilliant in smiles and spirits.  I never saw a countenance so
+enlivened.  I really believe she has long cherished a passionate
+regard for Mr. Fairly, and brightens now from its prosperity.
+
+I received her with all' the attention in my power, immediately
+wishing her joy: she accepted it with a thousand dimples, and I
+seated her on the sofa, and myself by her side.  Nobody followed;
+and I left the bishop to my father, while we entered into
+conversation, upon the birthday, her new situation in being
+exempt from its fatigues, and other matters of the time being.
+
+I apologised to Mrs. Fairly for my inability to return the honour
+of her visit, but readily undertook to inform her majesty of her
+inquiries, which she earnestly begged from me,
+
+
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+
+                      RENEWAL OF THE HASTINGS TRIAL:
+                           A POETICAL IMPROMPTU.
+
+Feb. 16-Mr. Hastings's trial re-commenced; and her majesty
+graciously presented me with tickets for Mr. Francis, Charlotte,
+and myself.  She acknowledged a very great curiosity to know
+whether my old friends amongst the managers would renew their
+intercourse with a Court friend, or include me in the distaste
+conceived against herself, and drop their visits.  I had not once
+been to the trial the preceding year, nor seen any of the set
+since the king's illness.
+
+We were there hours before they entered, all spent in a harmony
+of converse and communication I never for three hours following
+can have elsewhere: no summons impending--no fear of accidental
+delay drawing off attention to official solicitude.
+
+At the stated time they entered in the usual form, Mr. Burke
+first.  I felt so grieved a resentment of his late conduct,(326)
+that I was glad to turn away from his countenance.  I looked
+elsewhere during the whole procession, and their subsequent
+arrangement, that I might leave totally to themselves and their
+consciences whether to notice a friend from Court or not.  Their
+consciences said not.  No one came; I only heard through
+Charlotte that Mr. Windham was of the set.
+
+Mr. Anstruther spoke, and all others took gentle naps!  I don't
+believe he found it out.  When all was concluded, I saw one of
+them ascending towards our seats : and presently heard the voice
+of Mr. Burke.
+
+I wished myself many miles off! 'tis so painful to see with utter
+disapprobation those faces we have met, with joy and pleasure! He
+came to speak to some relations of Mr. Anstruther.  I was next
+them, and, when recovered from my first repugnance, I thought it
+better to turn round, not to seem leading the way myself to any
+breach.  I met his eyes immediately, and curtsied.  He only said,
+"O! is it you?"  then asked how I did, said something in praise
+of Mr. Anstruther, partly to his friends and partly to me--heard
+from me no reply--and hurried away, coldly, and with a look
+dissatisfied and uncordial.  I was much concerned; and we came
+away soon after.
+
+Here is an impromptu, said to have been written by Mr.
+
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+
+Hastings during Mr. Grey's speech, which was a panegyric on Mr,
+Philip Francis:--
+
+"It hurts me not, that Grey,, as Burke's assessor,
+Proclaims me Tyrant, Robber, and Oppressor,
+Tho' for abuse alone meant:
+For when he call'd himself the bosom friend,
+The Friend of Philip Francis,--I con'end
+He made me full atonement."
+
+I was called upon, on my return, to relate the day's business.
+Heavy and lame was the relation - but their majesties were
+curious, and nothing better suited truth.
+
+
+                     AN ILLBRED EARL OF CHESTERFIELD.
+
+Our tea-party was suddenly enlarged by the entrance of the Lords
+Chesterfield, Bulkley, and Fortescue.  Lord Chesterfield brought
+in the two latter without any ceremony, and never introduced nor
+named them, but chatted off with them apart, as if they were in a
+room to themselves: and Colonel Wellbred, to whom all gentlemen
+here belong, was out of the room ]if search of a curious
+snuff-box that he had promised to show to us.  Major Price, who
+by great chance was seated next me, jumped up as if so many wild
+beasts had entered, and escaped to the other side of the room,
+and Mr. Willis was only a sharp looker-on.
+
+This was awkward enough for a thing so immaterial, as I could not
+even ask them to have any tea, from uncertainty how to address
+them; and I believe they were entirely ignorant whither Lord
+Chesterfield was bringing them, as they came In only to wait for
+a royal summons.
+
+How would that quintessence of high ton, the late Lord
+Chesterfield, blush to behold his successor! who, with much share
+of humour, and of good humour also, has as little good breeding
+as any mail I ever met with.
+
+Take an instance.-Lord Bulkley, who is a handsome man, is
+immensely tall; the major, who is middle-sized, was standing by
+his chair, in close conference with him--"Why, Bulkley," cried
+Lord Chesterfield, "you are just the height sitting that Price is
+standing."
+
+Disconcerted a little, they slightly laughed; but Lord Bulkley
+rose, and they walked off to a greater distance.  Lord
+Chesterfield, looking after them, exclaimed, "What a
+
+
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+walking steeple he is!--why, Bulkley, you ought to cut off your
+legs to be on a level with society!"
+
+When they were all summoned away, except Mr. Willis, who has
+never that honour but in private, he lifted up his hands and
+eyes, and called out, "I shall pity those men when the book comes
+out!--I would not be in their skins!"
+
+I understood him perfectly,--and answered, truly, that I was
+never affronted more than a minute with those by whom I could
+never longer be pleased.
+
+
+                      Miss BURNEY IN A NEW CAPACITY.
+
+March 2.- In one of our Windsor excursions at this time, while I
+was in her majesty's dressing-room, with only Mr. de Luc present,
+she suddenly said, "Prepare yourself, Miss Burney, with all your
+spirits, for to-night you must be reader."
+
+She then added that she recollected what she had been told by my
+honoured Mrs. Delany, of my reading- Shakspeare to her, and was
+desirous that I should read a play to herself and the princesses;
+and she had lately heard, from Mrs. Schwellenberg, "nobody could
+do it better, when I would."
+
+I assured her majesty it was rather when I could, as any reading
+Mrs. Schwellenberg had heard must wholly have been better or
+worse according to my spirits, as she had justly seemed to
+suggest.
+
+The moment coffee was over the Princess Elizabeth came for me.  I
+found her majesty knotting, the princess royal drawing, Princess
+Augusta spinning, and Lady Courtown I believe in the same
+employment, but I saw none of them perfectly well.
+
+"Come, Miss Burney," cried the queen, " how are your spirits?--
+How is your voice?"                                       '
+
+"She says, ma'am," cried the kind Princess Elizabeth, "she shall
+do her best!"
+
+This had been said in attending her royal highness back.  I could
+only confirm it, and that cheerfully-to hide fearfully.
+
+I had not the advantage of choosing my play, nor do I know what
+would have been my decision had it fallen to my lot.  Her
+majesty, had just begun Colman's works, and "Polly Honeycomb" was
+to open my campaign.
+
+"I think," cried the queen most graciously, "Miss Burney will
+read the better for drawing a chair and sitting down,".
+
+
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+" yes, mamma! I dare say so!" cried Princess Augusta and Princess
+Elizabeth, both in a moment.
+
+The queen then told me to draw my chair close to her side.  I
+made no scruples.  Heaven knows I needed not the addition of
+standing!  but most glad I felt in being placed thus near, as it
+saved a constant painful effort of loud reading.
+
+"Lady Courtown," cried the queen, "you had better draw nearer,
+for Miss Burney has the misfortune of reading rather low at
+first."
+
+Nothing could be more amiable than this opening.  Accordingly, I
+did, as I had promised, my best; and, indifferent as that was, it
+would rather have surprised you, all things considered, that it
+was not yet worse.  But I exerted all the courage I possess, and,
+having often read to the queen, I felt how much it behoved me not
+to let her surmise I had any greater awe to surmount.
+
+It is but a vulgar performance; and I was obliged to omit, as
+well as I could at sight, several circumstances very unpleasant
+for reading, and ill enough fitted for such hearers.  it went off
+pretty flat.  Nobody is to comment, nobody is to interrupt; and
+even between one act and another not a moment's pause is expected
+to be made.
+
+I had been already informed of this etiquette by Mr.  Turbulent
+and Miss Planta; nevertheless, it is not only oppressive to the
+reader, but loses to the hearers so much spirit and satisfaction,
+that I determined to endeavour, should I again be called upon, to
+introduce a little break into this tiresome and unnatural
+profundity of respectful solemnity.  My own embarrassment,
+however, made it agree with me for the present uncommonly well.
+
+Lady Courtown never uttered one single word the whole time; yet
+is she one of the most loquacious of our establishment.  But such
+is the settled etiquette.
+
+The queen has a taste for conversation, and the princesses a
+good-humoured love for it, that doubles the regret of such an
+annihilation of all nature and all pleasantry.  But what will not
+prejudice and education inculcate?  They have been brought up to
+annex silence to respect and decorum: to talk, therefore, unbid,
+or to differ from any given opinion even when called upon, are
+regarded as high improprieties, if not presumptions.
+
+They none of them do justice to their own minds, while they
+enforce this subjection upon the minds of others.  I had not
+
+
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+
+experienced it before ; for when reading alone with the queen, or
+listening to her reading to me, I have always frankly spoken
+almost whatever has occurred to me.  But there I had no other
+examples before me, and therefore I might inoffensively be guided
+by myself; and her majesty's continuance of the same honour has
+shown no disapprobation of my proceeding.  But here it was not
+easy to make any decision for myself: to have done what Lady
+Courtown forbore doing would have been undoubtedly a liberty.
+
+So we all behaved alike - and easily can I now conceive the
+disappointment and mortification of poor Mr. Garrick when he read
+"Lethe" to a royal audience.  Its tameness must have tamed even
+him, and I doubt not he never acquitted himself so ill.
+
+
+         THE LONG-FORGOTTEN TRAGEDY: MISS BURNEY AGAIN AS READER.
+
+On Easter Sunday, the 4th of April, when I left my beloved Susan
+at St. James's, I left with her all spirit for any voluntary
+employment, and it occurred to me I could best while away the
+leisure allowed me by returning to my long-forgotten tragedy.
+This I have done, in those moments as yet given to my journal,
+and it is well I had so sad a resource, since any merrier I must
+have aimed at in vain.
+
+It was a year and four months since I had looked at or thought of
+it.  I found nothing but unconnected speeches, and hints, and
+ideas, though enough in quantity, perhaps, for a whole play.  I
+have now begun planning and methodising, and have written three
+or four regular scenes.  I mention all these particulars of my
+progress, in answer to certain queries in the comments of my
+Susan and Fredy, both of old date.
+
+
+Well (for that is my hack, as "however" is my dear Susanna's), we
+set off rather late for Windsor,-Mr. de Luc, Miss Planta, and
+myself; Mrs. Schwellenberg stayed in town. . . .
+
+I invited my old beau, as her majesty calls Mr. Bryant, to
+dinner, and he made me my best day out of the ten days of our
+Windsor sojourn.  He has insisted upon lending me some more
+books, all concerning the most distant parts of the earth, or on
+subjects the most abstruse.  His singular simplicity in
+constantly conceiving that, because to him such books alone are
+new, they must have the same recommendation to me, is
+
+
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+
+extremely amusing; and though I do all that is possible to clear
+up the distinction, he never remembers it.
+
+The king, for which I was very sorry, did not come Into the room.
+He made it but one visit, indeed, during this week.  He then
+conversed almost wholly with General Grenville upon the affairs
+of France; and in a manner so unaffected, open and manly, so
+highly superior to all despotic principles, even while most
+condemning the unlicensed fury of the Parisian mob, that I wished
+all the nations of the world to have heard him, that they might
+have known the real existence of a patriot king.
+
+Another reading took place, and much more comfortably; it was to
+the queen and princesses, without any lady-in-waiting.  The
+queen, as before, condescended to order me to sit close to her
+side; and as I had no model before me, I scrupled much less to
+follow the bent of my own ideas by small occasional comments.
+And these were of use both to body and mind; they rested the
+lungs from one invariable exertion, as much as they saved the
+mind from one strain of attention.
+
+Our play was "The Man of Business," a very good comedy, but too
+local for long life.  And another of Colman's which I read
+afterwards has the same defect.  Half the follies and
+peculiarities it satirises are wholly at an end and forgotten.
+Humour springing from mere dress, or habits, or phraseology, is
+quickly obsolete; when it sinks deeper, and dives into character,
+it may live for ever.
+
+I dedicated my Wednesday evening to a very comfortable visit to
+our dear James, whose very good and deserving wife, and fine
+little fat children, with our Esther and her fair Marianne and
+Fanny, all cordially conspired to make me happy.  We read a good
+deal of Captain Bligh's interesting narrative,(327)
+
+Page  351
+
+every word Of which James has taken as much to heart as if it
+were his own production.
+
+I go on, occasionally, with my tragedy.  It does not much
+enliven, but it soothes me.
+
+
+                COLONEL MANNERS IN HIS SENATORIAL CAPACITY.
+
+April 23.--I shall add nothing at present to my Journal but the
+summary of a conversation I have had with Colonel Manners, who,
+at our last excursion, was here without any other gentleman.
+
+Knowing he likes to be considered as a senator, I thought the
+best subject for our discussion would be the House of Commons; I
+therefore made sundry political inquiries, so foreign to My Usual
+mode, that you would not a little have smiled to have heard them.
+I had been informed he had once made an attempt to speak, during
+the Regency business, last winter ; I begged to know how the
+matter stood, and he made a most frank display of its whole
+circumstances.  "Why, they were speaking away," he cried, "upon
+the Regency, and so,---and they were saying if the king could not
+reign, and recover; and Burke was making some of his eloquence,
+and talking; and, says he, 'hurled from his throne,'---and so I
+put out my finger in this manner, as if I was in a great passion,
+for I felt myself very red, and I was in a monstrous passion I
+suppose, but I was only going to say 'Hear! Hear!' but I happened
+to lean one hand down upon my knee, in this way, just as Mr. Pitt
+does when he wants to speak.- and I stooped forward, just as if I
+was going to rise up and begin but just then I caught Mr. Pitt's
+eye, looking at me so pitifully; he thought I was going to speak,
+and he was frightened to death, for he thought--for the thing
+was, he got up himself, and he said over all I wanted to say; and
+the thing is, he almost always does; for just as I have something
+particular to say, Mr. Pitt begins, and goes through it all, so
+that he don't leave anything more to be said about it; and so, I
+suppose, as he looked at me so pitifully, he thought I should say
+it first, or else that I
+
+
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+
+should get into some scrape, because I was so warm and looking so
+red."
+
+Any comment would disgrace this; I will therefore only tell you
+his opinion, in his own words, of one of our late taxes.
+
+"There's only one tax, ma'am, that ever I voted for against my
+conscience, for I've always been very particular about that; but
+that is the bacheldor's tax, and that I hold to be very
+unconstitutional, and I am very sorry I voted for it, because
+it's very unfair; for how can a man help being a bacheldor, if
+nobody will have him? and besides, it's not any fault to be taxed
+for, because We did not make ourselves bacheldors, for we were
+made so by God, for nobody was born married, and so I think it's
+a very unconstitutional tax."
+
+
+
+          A CONVERSATION WITH MR. WINDHAM AT THE HASTINGS TRIAL.
+
+April 27.-I had the happiness of my dearest Fredy's society in
+Westminster Hall--if happiness and that place may be named
+together.
+
+The day was mixed: Evidence and Mr. Anstruther weighing it down,
+and Mr. Burke speaking from time to time, and lighting it up.  O,
+were his purpose worthy his talents, what an effect would his
+oratory produce!  I always hear him with so much concern, I can
+scarce rejoice even in being kept awake by him.
+
+The day was nearly passed, and I was eating a biscuit to prevent
+an absolute doze while Mr. Anstruther was talking, when, raising
+myself from a listening bend, I turned to the left, and perceived
+Mr. Windham, who had quietly placed himself by my side without
+speaking.
+
+My surprise was so great, and so totally had I given up all idea
+of renewing our conferences, that I could scarce refrain
+expressing it.  Probably it was visible enough, for he said, as
+if apologising for coming up, that so to do was the only regale
+their toils allowed them.  He then regretted that it was a stupid
+day, and, with all his old civility about me and my time,
+declared he was always sorry to see me there when nothing worth
+attention was going forward.
+
+This soon brought us round to our former intimacy of converse ;
+and, the moment I was able, I ventured at my usual inquiry about
+his own speaking, and if it would soon take place.
+
+
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+"No," he answered, with a look of great pleasure, "I shall now
+not speak at all.--I have cleared myself from that task, and
+never with such satisfaction did I get rid of any!"
+
+Amazed, yet internally glad, I hazarded some further inquiry into
+the reason of this change of plan.
+
+They were drawing, he said, to a conclusion, and the particular
+charge which he had engaged himself to open was
+relinquished.(328)  "I have therefore," he cried, "washed my
+hands of making a speech, yet satisfied my conscience, my honour,
+my promises, and my intentions; for I have declined undertaking
+anything new, and no claim therefore remains upon me."
+
+"Well," quoth I, "I am at a loss whether to be glad or sorry."
+
+He comprehended instantly,--glad for Mr. Hastings, or sorry for
+not hearing him.  He laughed, but said something a little
+reproachful, upon my continued interest for that gentleman.  I
+would not pretend it was diminished; I determined he should find
+me as frank as heretofore, and abscond, or abide, as his nerves
+stood the firmness.
+
+"You are never, then" (I said afterwards), "to speak here?"
+
+"Once," he answered, "I said a few words--"
+
+"O when?" I cried; "I am very sorry I did not know it, and hear
+you,--as you did speak!"
+
+"O," cried he, laughing, "I do not fear this flattery now, as I
+shall speak no more."
+
+"But what," cried I, "was the occasion that drew you forth?"
+
+"Nothing very material but I saw Burke run hard, and I wished to
+help him."
+
+"That was just," cried I, "what I should have expected from you--
+and just what I have not been able not to honour, on some other
+occasions, even where I have most blamed the matter that has
+drawn forth the assistance."
+
+This was going pretty far:--he could not but instantly feel I
+meant the Regency discussions.  He neither made me any answer,
+nor turned his head, even obliquely, my way.
+
+I was not sorry, however.  'Tis always best to be sincere.
+Finding him quite silent, to soften matters as well as I could
+with honesty, I began an éloge of Mr.  Burke, both warm and true,
+as far as regards his wonderful abilities.  But he soon
+
+
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+
+distinguished the rigorous precision with which, Involuntarily, I
+praised the powers without adverting to their Use.
+
+Suddenly then, and with a look of extreme keenness, he turned his
+eyes upon me, and exclaimed, "Yes,--and he has very highly, also
+the faculty of being right!"  I would the friendship that
+dictated this assertion were as unwarped as it is animated.
+
+I could not help saying rather faintly, "Has he?"
+
+Not faintly he answered, "He has!--but not the world alone, even
+his friends, are apt to misjudge him.  What he enters upon,
+however with earnestness, YOU will commonly find turn out as he
+represents it."
+
+His genius, his mental faculties, and the natural goodness of his
+heart, I then praised as warmly as Mr. Windham could have praised
+them himself; but the subject ran me aground a second time, as,
+quite undesignedly, I concluded my panegyric with declaring that
+I found it impossible not to admire,--nay, love him, through all
+his wrong.  Ending another total silence and averted head, I
+started something more general upon the trial.
+
+His openness then returned, with all its customary vivacity, and
+he expressed himself extremely irritated upon various matters
+which had been carried against the managers by the judges.
+
+"But, Mr. Windham!" exclaimed I, "the judges!--is it possible you
+can enter into such a notion as to suppose Mr. Hastings capable
+of bribing them?"
+
+"O, for capable," cried he, "I don't know--"
+
+"Well, leave that word out, and suppose him even willing--can you
+imagine all the judges and all the lords--for they must concur--
+disposed to be bribed?"
+
+"No; but I see them all determined to acquit Mr. Hastings."
+
+"Determined?--nay, that indeed is doing him very little honour."
+
+"O, for honour!--if he is acquitted--"  He stopped,--as if that
+were sufficient.
+
+I ventured to ask why the judges and the lords-should make such a
+determination.
+
+"From the general knavery and villainy of mankind." was his hard
+answer, "which always wishes to abet successful guilt."
+
+"Well!" cried I, shaking my head, "you have not,
+
+
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+
+relinquished your speech from having nothing to say.  But I am
+glad you have relinquished it, for I have always been most afraid
+of you ; and the reason is, those who know how to hold back will
+not for nothing come forward.  There is one down there, who, if
+he knew how ever to hold back, would be great indeed!"
+
+He could not deny this, but would not affirm it.  Poor Mr.
+Burke!--so near to being wholly right, while yet wholly wrong!
+
+When Mr. Burke mounted the rostrum, Mr. Windham stopped short,
+saying, "I won't interrupt you-" and, in a moment, glided back to
+the managers' box; where he stood behind Mr. Burke, evidently at
+hand to assist in any difficulty.  His affection for him seems to
+amount to fondness.  This is not for me to wonder at.  Who was so
+captivated as myself by that extraordinary man, till he would no
+longer suffer me to reverence the talents I must still ever
+admire?
+
+
+                         A GLIMPSE OF MRS. PIOZZI.
+
+Sunday, May 2.-This morning, in my way to church, just as I
+arrived at the iron gate of our courtyard, a well-known voice
+called out, "Ah, there's Miss Burney!"
+
+I started, and looked round--and saw--Mrs. Piozzi!  I hastened up
+to her; she met my held-out hand with both hers: Mr. Piozzi an
+Cecilia(329) were with her--all smiling and good-humoured.
+
+"You are going," she cried, "to church?--so, am I.  I must run
+first to the inn: I suppose one--may sit--anywhere one pleases?"
+
+"Yes," I cried, "but you must be quick, or you will sit nowhere,
+there will be such a throng."  This was all;--she hurried on,--so
+did I.
+
+I received exceeding great satisfaction in this little and
+unexpected meeting.  She had been upon the Terrace, and was going
+to change her hat, and haste on both sides prevented awkwardness
+on either.
+
+Yet I saw she had taken in good part my concluding hand-
+presentation at my dear Mr. Locke's:(330) she met me no more
+
+ 356
+with that fiert`e of defiance: it was not-nor can it ever be with
+her old cordiality, but it was with some degree of pleasure, and
+that species of readiness which evinces a consciousness of
+meeting with a good reception.
+
+
+              CAPTAIN BURNEY WANTS A SHIP AND TO GO TO COURT.
+
+May 6.-This being the last Pantheon, I put in my long intended
+claim; and it was greatly facilitated by the circumstance of a
+new singer, Madame Benda, making her first appearance.  My
+dearest father fetched me from the Queen's house.  Esther and
+Marianne kept me places between them.  Marianne never looked so
+pretty; I saw not a face there I thought equally lovely.  And,
+oh, how Pacchierotti sung!--How -with what exquisite feeling,
+what penetrating pathos! I could almost have cried the whole
+time, that this one short song was all I should be able to hear !
+
+At the beginning of the second act I was obliged to decamp.
+James, who had just found me out, was my esquire.  "Well," he
+cried, in our way to the chair, "will there be war with Spain?"
+I assured him I thought not.
+
+"So I am afraid!" answered the true English tar.  " "However, if
+there is, I should be glad of a frigate of thirty-two guns.  Now,
+if you ask for it, don't say a frigate, and get me one of
+twenty-eight!"
+
+Good heaven!--poor innocent James!--
+
+And just as I reached the chair--"But how shall you feel," he
+cried, "when I ask you to desire a guard-ship for me, in about
+two years' time?"
+
+
+I could make no precise answer to that!  He then added that he
+intended coming to Court!  Very much frightened, I besought him
+first to come and drink tea with me--which he promised.
+
+In my way home, as I went ruminating upon this apparently but
+just, though really impracticable demand, I weighed well certain
+thoughts long revolving, and of late nearly bursting forth and
+the result was this--to try all, while yet there is time.
+Reproach else may aver, when too late, greater courage Would
+have had greater success.  This idea settled my resolutions, and
+they all bent to one point, risking all risks.
+
+
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+ May 10.-This evening, by appointment came our good James and his
+wife, and soon afterwards, to my great pleasure, Captain Phillips
+joined us.  I take it, therefore, for granted, he will have told
+all that passed in the business way.  I was very anxious to
+gather more intelligibly the wishes and requests of poor James,
+and to put a stop to his coming to Court without taking such
+previous steps as are customary.  I prevailed, and promised, in
+return, to make known his pretensions.
+
+You may believe, my dear friends, this promise was the result of
+the same wish of experiment, and sense of claim upon me of my
+family to make it while I may, that I have mentioned.  I did--
+this very evening.  I did it gaily, and in relating such
+anecdotes as were amusingly characteristic of a sailor's honest
+but singular notions of things: yet I have done it completely;
+his wishes and his claims are now laid open--Heaven knows to what
+effect!  The Court scheme I have also told; and my royal mistress
+very graciously informed me, that if presented by some superior
+officer there could be no objection; but otherwise, unless he had
+some promotion, it was not quite usual.
+
+
+
+                      CAPTAIN BURNEY AND MR. WINDHAM.
+
+May 11.-This morning my royal mistress had previously arranged
+for me that I should go to the trial, and had given me a ticket
+for my little Sarah(331) to accompany me; and late last night, I
+believe after twelve o'clock, she most graciously gave me another
+for James.  just at this time she could not more have gratified
+me than by a condescension to my dear brother.  Poor Columb was
+sent with the intelligence, and directions for our meeting at
+seven o'clock this morning, to Norton-street.
+
+Sarah came early; but James was so late we were obliged to leave
+word for him to follow us.  He did,--two hours afterwards! by way
+of being our esquire; and then told me he knew it would be in
+good time, and so he had stopped to breakfast at Sir Joseph
+Banks's.  I suppose the truth is, it saved him a fresh puff of
+powder for some other day.
+
+We talked over all affairs, naval and national, very comfortably.
+The trial is my only place for long dialogues!  I gave him a new
+and earnest charge that he would not speak home concerning the
+prosecution to Mr. Winndham, should he join
+
+358
+
+us.  He made me a less reluctant promise than heretofore, for
+when last with Charlotte at Aylsham he had frequently visited Mr.
+Windham, and had several battles at draughts or backgammon with
+him; and there is no Such good security against giving offence as
+seeing ourselves that our opponents are worth pleasing.  Here,
+too, as I told James, however we might think all the managers in
+the wrong, they were at least open enemies, and acting a public
+part, and therefore they must fight it Out, as he would do with
+the Spaniards, if, after all negotiation, they came to battle.
+
+He allowed this; and promised to leave him to the attacks of the
+little privateer, without falling foul of him with a broadside.
+
+Soon after the trial began Mr. Windham came up to us, and after a
+few minutes' chat with me addressed himself to James about the
+approaching war.  "Are you preparing," he cried, "for a
+campaign?"
+
+"Not such one," cried James, "as we had last summer at Aylsham!"
+
+"But what officers you are!" he cried, "you men of Captain Cook;
+you rise upon us in every trial!  This Captain Bligh,--what
+feats, what wonders he has performed!  What difficulties got
+through!  What dangers defied!  And with such cool, manly skill!"
+
+They talked the narrative over as far as Mr. Windham had in
+Manuscript seen its sketch; but as I had not read it, I could not
+enter into its detail.
+
+
+                   MR. WINDHAM SPEAKS ON A LEGAL POINT.
+
+Mr. Windham took his seat by my elbow, and renewed one of his old
+style of conversations about the trial ; each of us firmly
+maintaining our original ground.  I believe he has now
+relinquished his expectation of making me a convert.  He
+surprised me soon by saying, "I begin to fear, after all, that
+what you have been talking about to me will come to pass."
+
+I found he meant his own speaking upon a new charge, which, when
+I last saw him, he exultingly told me was given up.  He explained
+the apparent inconsistency by telling me that some new change of
+plan had taken place, and that Mr. Burke was extremely urgent
+with him to open the next charge: "And I cannot," he cried
+emphatically, "leave Burke in the lurch!"  I both believed and
+applauded him so far; but why
+
+
+)Page 59
+are either of them engaged in a prosecution so uncoloured by
+necessity?
+
+One chance he had still of escaping this tremendous task, he told
+me, which was that it might devolve upon Grey but Burke, he did
+not disavow, wished it to be himself.  "However," he laughingly
+added, "I think we may toss up In that case, how I wish he may
+lose! not only from believing him the abler enemy, but to reserve
+his name from amongst the active list in such a cause.
+
+He bewailed,---with an arch look that showed his consciousness I
+should like the lamentation,--that he was now all unprepared,--
+all fresh to begin in documents and materials, the charge being
+wholly new and unexpected, and that which he had considered
+relinquished.
+
+"I am glad, however," cried I, "your original charge is given up;
+for I well remember what you said of it."
+
+"I might be flattered," cried he, "and enough, that you should
+remember anything I say--did I not know it was only for the sake
+of its subject,"--looking down upon Mr. Hastings.
+
+I could not possibly deny this but added that I recollected he
+had acknowledged his charge was to prove Mr. Hastings mean,
+pitiful, little, and fraudulent."
+
+The trial this day consisted almost wholly in dispute upon
+evidence - the managers offered such as the counsel held
+improper, and the judges and lords at last adjourned to debate
+the matter in their own chamber.  Mr. Burke made a very fine
+speech upon the rights of the prosecutor to bring forward his
+accusation, for the benefit of justice, in such mode as appeared
+most consonant to his own reason and the nature of things,
+according to their varying appearances as fresh and fresh matter
+Occurred.
+
+The counsel justly alleged the hardship to the client, if thus
+liable to new allegations and suggestions, for which he came
+unprepared, from a reliance that those publicly given were all
+against which he need arm himself, and that, if those were
+disproved, he was cleared; while the desultory and shifting
+charges of the managers put him out in every method of defence,
+by making it impossible to him to discern where he might be
+attacked.
+
+In the course of this debate I observed Mr. Windham so agitated
+and so deeply attentive, that it prepared me for what soon
+followed : he mounted the rostrum-for the third time only since
+this trial commenced.
+
+
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+
+His speech was only to a point Of law respecting evidence he kept
+close to his subject, with a clearness and perspicuity very
+uncommon indeed amongst these orators.  His voice, however, is
+greatly in his disfavour ; for he forces it so violently, either
+from earnestness or a fear of not being heard, that, though it
+answered the purpose of giving the most perfect distinctness to
+what he uttered, its sound had an unpleasing and crude quality
+that amazed and disappointed me.  The command of his language and
+fluency of his delivery, joined to the compact style of his
+reasoning and conciseness of his arguments, were all that could
+answer my expectations: but his manner--whether from energy or
+secret terror--lost all its grace, and by no means seemed to
+belong to the elegant and high-bred character that had just
+quitted me.
+
+In brief,--how it may happen I know not,--but he certainly does
+not do justice to his own powers and talents in public.  He was
+excessively agitated: when he had done and dismounted, I saw his
+pale face of the most fiery red.  Yet he had uttered nothing in a
+passion.  It must have been simply from internal effort.
+
+The counsel answered him, and he mounted to reply.  Here, indeed,
+he did himself honour; his readiness of answer, the vivacity of
+his objections, and the instantaneous command of all his
+reasoning faculties, were truly striking.  Had what he said not
+fallen in reply to a speech but that moment made, I must have
+concluded it the result Of Study, and all harangue learnt by
+heart.   He was heard with the most marked attention.
+
+The second speech, like the first, was wholly upon the laws of
+evidence, and Mr. Hastings was not named in either.  He is
+certainly practising against his great day.  And, in truth, I
+hold still to my fear of it; for, however little his manner in
+public speaking may keep pace with its promise in private
+conversation, his matter was tremendously pointed and severe.
+
+The trial of the day concluded by an adjournment to consult upon
+the evidence in debate, with the judges, in the House of Lords.
+
+Mr. Windham came up to the seats of the Commons in my
+neighbourhood, but not to me; he spoke to the Misses
+Francis,--daughters of Mr. Hastings's worst foe,--and hurried
+down.
+
+On my return I was called upon to give an account of the
+
+
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+trial to their majesties and the princesses, and a formidable
+business, I assure you, to perform.
+
+
+                          AN EMPHATIC PERORATION.
+
+May 18.-This morning I again went to the trial of poor Mr.
+Hastings.  Heavens! who can see him sit there unmoved? not even
+those who think him guilty,--if they are human.
+
+I took with me Mrs. Bogle.  She had long since begged a ticket
+for her husband, which I could never before Procure.  We now went
+all three.  And, indeed, her original speeches and remarks made a
+great part of my entertainment.
+
+Mr. Hastings and his counsel were this day most victorious.  I
+never saw the prosecutors so dismayed.  Yet both Mr. Burke and
+Mr. Fox spoke, and before the conclusion so did Mr. Windham.
+They were all in evident embarrassment.  Mr. Hastings's counsel
+finished the day, with a most noble appeal to justice and
+innocence, protesting that, if his client did not fairly claim
+the one, by proving the other, he wished himself that the
+prosecutors-that the lords--that the nation at large--that the
+hand of God--might fall heavy upon him!
+
+This had a great and sudden effect,-- not a word was uttered.
+The prosecutors looked dismayed and astonished ; and the day
+closed.
+
+Mr. Windham came up to speak to Misses Francis about a dinner:
+but he only, bowed to me, and with a look so conscious---so much
+saying, "'TiS your turn to triumph now!: that I had not the spite
+to attack him.
+
+But when the counsel had uttered this animated speech, Mrs. Bogle
+was so much struck, she hastily arose, and, clapping her hands,
+called out audibly, in a broad Scotch accent, "O, charming!"  I
+could hardly, quiet her till I assured her we should make a
+paragraph for the newspapers.  I had the pleasure to deliver this
+myself to their majesties, and the princesses--and as I was
+called upon while it was fresh in my memory, I believe but little
+of the general energy was forgotten.
+
+It gave me great pleasure to repeat so striking an affirmation of
+the innocence of so high, so injured I believe, a character.  The
+queen eagerly declared I should go again the next sitting.
+
+Wednesday, May 19.--The real birthday of my royal mistress, to
+whom may Heaven grant many, many and prosperous!  Dressing, and
+so forth, filled up all the morning
+
+
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+
+and at night I had a t`ete-`a-t`ete with Charles, till twelve.  I
+got to bed about five in the morning.  The sweet princesses had a
+ball, and I could not lament my fatigue.
+
+
+                   AN APTITUDE FOR LOGIC AND FOR GREEK.
+
+May 20.-To-day again to the trial, to which I took MISS Young,
+her majesty having given me two tickets very late overnight.
+Miss Young is singularly, as far as I can see, the reverse of her
+eccentric parents she is moderation personified.
+
+Mr. Windham again spoke in the course of this morning's business,
+which was chiefly occupied in debating on the admissibility of
+the evidence brought forward by the prosecutors.  The quickness
+and aptness of his arguments, with the admirable facility and
+address with which he seized upon those of his opponents, the
+counsel, were strong marks of that high and penetrating capacity
+so strikingly his characteristic.  The only defect in his
+speaking is the tone of his voice, which, from exertion, loses
+all its powers of modulation, and has a crude accent and
+expression very disagreeable.
+
+During the examination of Mr. Anderson, one of Mr. Hastings's
+best friends,--a sensible, well-bred, and gentlemanlike man,--Mr.
+Windham came up to my elbow.
+
+"And can this man," cried he, presently, "this man--so
+gentle---be guilty?"
+
+I accused him of making a point to destroy all admiration of
+gentleness in my opinion.  "But you are grown very good now!" I
+added, "No, very bad I mean!"  He knew I meant for speaking ; and
+I then gave him burlesqued, various definitions of good, which
+had fallen from Mr. Fox in my hearing, the most contradictory,
+and, taken out of their place, the most ridiculous imaginable.
+
+He laughed very much, but seriously confessed that technical
+terms and explanations had better have been wholly avoided by
+them all, as the counsel were sure to out-technicalise them, and
+they were then exposed to greater embarrassments than by steering
+clear of the attempt, and resting only upon their common forces.
+
+"There is one praise," I cried, "which I am always sure to meet
+in the newspapers whenever I meet with your name; and I begin to
+quite tire of seeing it for you,-your skill in logic!"
+
+
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+
+"O, I thank you," he cried, earnestly "I am indeed quite ashamed
+of the incessant misappropriation of that word."
+
+"No, no," cried I; "I only tire of it because they seem to think,
+when once the word logic and your name are combined, they have
+completely stated all.  However, in what little I have heard, I
+could have suspected you to have been prepared with a speech
+ready written, had I not myself heard just before all the
+arguments which it answered."
+
+I then added that I was the less surprise(! at this facility of
+language, from having heard my brother declare he knew no man who
+read Greek with that extraordinary rapidity--no, not Dr. Parr,
+nor any of the professed Grecians, whose peculiar study it had
+been through life.
+
+This could be nothing, he said, but partiality.
+
+"Not mine, at least," cried I, laughing, "for Greek excellence is
+rather Out Of my sphere of panegyric!"
+
+"
+Well," cried he, laughing too at my disclaiming, "'Tis' your
+brother's partiality.  However, 'tis one I must try not to lose.
+I must take to my Greek exercises again."
+
+They will do you a world of good, thought I, if they take you but
+from your prosecution-exercises.
+
+
+                       MORE TALK WITH MR. WINDHAM.
+
+We then talked of Mr. Burke.  "How finely," I cried, "he has
+spoken! with what fullness of intelligence, and what fervour!"
+He agreed, with delighted concurrence.  "Yet,--so much so long!"
+I added.
+
+
+"True!"  cried he, ingenuously, yet concerned.  "What pity he can
+never stop!"
+
+And then I enumerated some of the diffuse and unnecessary
+paragraphs which had weakened his cause, as well as his speech.
+
+He was perfectly candid, though always with some reluctance.
+"But a man who speaks in public," he said, "should never forget
+what will do for his auditors: for himself alone, it is not
+enough to think ; but for what is fitted, and likely to be
+interesting to them."
+
+"He wants nothing," cried I, "but a flapper."
+
+
+"Yes, and he takes flapping inimitably."
+
+"You, then," I cried, "should be his flapper."
+
+"And sometimes," said he, smiling, "I am."
+
+"O, I often see," said I, "of what use you are to him.  I
+
+
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+
+see you watching him,--reminding, checking him in turn,--at
+least, I fancy all this as I look into the managers' box, which
+is no small amusement to me,--when there is any commotion there!"
+
+He bowed; but I never diminished from the frank unfriendliness to
+the cause with which I began.  But I assured him I saw but too
+well how important and useful he was to them, even without
+speaking.
+
+"Perhaps," cried he, laughing, "more than with speaking."
+
+"I am not meaning to talk Of that now," said I, "but yet, one
+thing I will tell you: I hear you more distinctly than any one;
+the rest I as often miss as catch, except when they turn this
+way,--a favour Which you never did me!"
+
+"No, no, indeed!" cried he; "to abstract myself from all, is all
+that enables me to get on."  And then, with his native candour,
+he cast aside prejudice, and very liberally praised several
+points in this poor persecuted great man.
+
+I had seen, I said, an initiation from Horace, which had
+manifested, I presumed, his scholarship."
+
+"O, ay," cried he, "an Ode to Mr. Shore, who is one of the next
+witnesses.  Burke was going to allude to it, but I begged him
+not.  I do not like to make their lordships smile in this grave
+business."
+
+"That is so right!: cried I: "Ah, you know it IS you and your
+attack I have feared most all along!"
+
+"This flattery"--cried he.
+
+"Do not use that word any more, Mr. Windham," interrupted I; "if
+you do, I shall be tempted to make a very shocking speech to
+you--the very reverse of flattery, I assure you."  He stared,--
+and I went on.  "I shall say,--that those who think themselves
+flattered--flatter themselves.!"
+
+"What?--hey?--How?" cried he.
+
+"Nay, they cannot conclude themselves flattered, without
+concluding they have de quoi to make it worth while!"
+
+"Why, there--there may be something In that but not here!--no,
+here it must flow simply front general benevolence,--from a wish
+to give comfort or pleasure."
+
+I disclaimed all and turned his attention again to Mr. Hastings.
+"See!" I cried, "see but how thin--how ill--looks that poor
+little uncle of yours!"(332)  Again I upbraided him with being
+unnatural; and lamented Mr. Hastings's
+
+Page 365
+
+change since I had known him in former days.  "And shall I tell
+you," I added, "something in which you had nearly been involved
+with him?"
+
+"Me?--with Mr. Hastings?"
+
+"Yes ! and I regret it did not happen ! You may recollect my
+mentioning my original acquaintance with him, before I lived
+where I now do."                                      '
+
+"Yes, but where you now....I understand you,--expect ere long you
+may see him!"
+
+He meant from his acquittal, and reception at the Queen's house.
+And I would not contradict him.
+
+But, however," I continued, "my acquaintance and regard began
+very fairly while I lived at home at my father's and indeed I
+regret you could not then and so have known him, as I am
+satisfied you would have been pleased with him, which now you
+cannot judge.  He is so gentle-mannered, so intelligent, so
+unassuming, yet so full-minded."
+
+I have Understood that," he answered; "yet 'tis amazing how
+little unison there may be between mariners and characters, and
+how softly gentle a man may appear without, whose nature within
+is all ferocity and cruelty.  This is a part of mankind of which
+you cannot judge--of which, indeed, you can scarce form an idea."
+
+After a few comments I continued what I had to say, which, in
+fact, was nothing but another malice of my own against him.  I
+reminded him of one day in a former year of this trial, when I
+had the happiness of sitting at it with my dearest Mrs. Locke, in
+which he had been so obliging, with reiterated offers, as to
+propose seeing for my servant, etc.-" "Well," I continued, "I was
+afterwards extremely sorry I had not accepted your kindness; for
+just as we were going away, who should be passing, and turn back
+to speak to me, but Mr. Hastings!"
+'O!' he cried, 'I must come here to see you, I find!'  Now, had
+you but been with me at that moment! I own it would have been the
+greatest pleasure to me to have brought you together though I am
+quite at a loss to know whether I ought, in that case, to have
+presented you to each other."
+
+He laughed most heartily,-half, probably, with joy at his escape;
+but he had all his wits about him in his answer.  "If you," he
+cried, "had been between US, we might, for once, have coalesced--
+in both bowing to the same shrine!"
+
+(322) Wednesday, November 18.-ED.
+
+(323) Covent Garden.-ED.
+
+(324) A comedy by Reynolds, originally produced at Covent Garden,
+May 15, 1789.-ED.
+
+(325) Sir Robert Gunning, the bride's father.-ED.
+
+(326) Fanny refers to Burke's attitude during the Regency
+debates, in which, as a member of the opposition, he had
+supported Mr. Fox.-ED,
+
+(327) "A Narrative of the mutiny on board his majesty's ship
+Bounty; and the subsequent Voyage of part of the Crew, in the
+ship's boat, from Tofoa, one of the Friendly Islands, to Timor, a
+Dutch settlement in the East Indies.  Written by Lieutenant
+William Bligh."  London, 1790.  Lieutenant (afterwards Admiral)
+Bligh was appointed to the command of the Bounty in August, 1787.
+He sailed from England in December, and arrived at Otaheite,
+October 26, 1788, the object of his voyage being to transplant
+the bread fruit tree from the South Sea Islands to the British
+colonies in the West Indies, with a view to its acclimatisation
+there.  A delay of more than five months at Otaheite demoralized
+the crew, to whom the dolce far mente of life in a Pacific
+island, and the Charms of the Otaheitan women, offered greater
+attractions than the toils of sea-faring under a somewhat
+tyrannical captain.  The Bounty left Otaheite April 4, 1789, and
+on the 28th of the same month a mutiny broke out under the
+leadership of the mater's mate, Fletcher Christian.  Captain
+Bligh and eighteen of his men were set adrift in the ship's boat,
+in which they sailed for nearly three months, undergoing terrible
+privations, and reaching the Dutch settlement at Timor, an island
+off the east coast of Java, June 14.  Bligh arrived in England,
+March 14, 1790.  The mutineers finally settled in Pitcairn's
+island, where their descendants are still living.-ED.
+
+(328) See note ante 263, p. 102.-ED.
+
+(329) Mrs. Piozzi's youngest daughter, who had accompanied her
+mother and step-father abroad.-ED. 2 It appears from a note in
+(330) It appears from a note in the "Memoirs of Dr. Burney" (vol.
+iii. p. 199), that Fanny had once before met Mrs Piozzi since her
+marriage, at an assembly at Mrs. Locke's.  This meeting must have
+taken place Soon after the marriage, as Mrs. Piozzi went abroad
+              with her husband shortly afterwards.-ED.
+
+(331) Fanny's half-sister.-ED.
+
+(332) An allusion to the personal resemblance between Windham and
+Hastings.  See ante, p. 149.-ED.
+
+
+
+
+Page 366
+                                SECTION 17.
+                                 (1790-1)
+
+
+                  MISS BURNEY RESIGNS HER PLACE AT COURT.
+
+
+[The following section concludes the story of Fanny's life at
+Court.  Her entire unfitness for the position which she there
+occupied had been, from the commencement, no secret to herself;
+but her tenderness for her father had determined her to endure to
+the utmost before resigning a place to which her appointment had
+been to him, in his short-sighted folly, a source of such extreme
+gratification.  But now she could endure no longer.  The
+occasional relief which she had found in the society of Mrs.
+Delany and Colonel Digby had been brought to an end by the death
+of the one and the marriage of the other ; her spirits were
+broken, her state of health was becoming daily more alarming and
+she at last summoned up courage to consult her father on the
+subject, and to make known to him her desire of resigning.  Blind
+as he had shown himself to the true interests of his daughter,
+Dr. Burney was still the most affectionate of parents.  He heard
+Fanny's complaint with grief and disappointment, but with instant
+acquiescence in her wishes.  His consent to her plan being
+obtained, Fanny for some months took no further steps in the
+matter.  She was willing to remain at her post so long as she was
+capable, with whatever difficulty, of supporting its fatigues.
+But her health failed more and more, and the memorial was at last
+(December, 1790) presented to the queen.  Even yet the day of
+release was far distant.  The "sweet queen" was in no hurry to
+part with so faithful a servant, and although she had accepted
+the resignation, she did not conceal her displeasure at being
+reminded of it.  Meanwhile the unfortunate victim of royal
+selfishness was growing daily weaker.  Her friends were seriously
+alarmed: even her fellow-slaves at Court commiserated her, and
+urged her retirement.  A successor was at length appointed, and
+on the 7th of July, 1791, Fanny found herself once more free.
+
+
+Page 367
+
+During the interval which elapsed between the consultation with
+Dr. Burney and the presentation of the memorial, an incident
+occurred which occasioned to Fanny much distress and not a little
+annoyance.  Her own narrative of the affair we have not thought
+it necessary to include in our selection from the "Diary," but
+here a few words on the subject may be not unacceptable.  Fanny's
+man-servant, a Swiss named Jacob Columb, had fallen dangerously
+ill in the summer of 1790, and was sent, in August, to St.
+George's Hospital.  He was much attached to his mistress, who, he
+said, had treated him with greater kindness than father, mother,
+or any of his relatives, and on leaving Windsor he begged her to
+hold in trust for him the little money in his possession,
+amounting to ten guineas.  She offered him a receipt for the
+money, but he refused it, and when she insisted, exclaimed, "No,
+ma'am, I won't take it!  You know what it is, and I know what it
+is; and if I live I'm sure you won't wrong me: and if I don't,
+nobody else sha'n't have it!"  Moved to tears by the poor
+fellow's earnestness, Fanny complied with his request.  In the
+following month he died at the hospital, desiring, in his last
+moments, to leave everything to his sisters in Switzerland.  "He
+certainly meant," writes Fanny, "everything of his wearing
+apparel, watches, etc., for what money he had left in my hands he
+would never tell anybody." She was preparing, accordingly, to
+transmit Columb's effects, including, of course, the ten guineas,
+to Switzerland, when a claimant appeared in the person of Peter
+Bayond, a countryman of the deceased.  This man produced a will,
+purporting to be Columb's, by which the property was left to be
+divided between Bayond himself and James Columb, a cousin of the
+pretended testator, then in service with Horace Walpole.  Fanny's
+instant conviction was that the will was a forgery, and the
+appearance and behaviour of Bayond confirmed her in this belief.
+James Columb, moreover, concurred in her opinion, and she had
+decided to ignore this new claim, when she received an attorney's
+letter, desiring her to pay to Bayond the sum in her hands of the
+late Jacob Columb.  She then wrote to Walpole, who offered her
+his assistance, with many expressions of warm regard.  But
+finally, after much trouble, and threats of a lawsuit, she was
+advised that her best plan would be to let the will take its
+course, and to pay over to the claimant the sum in question ; and
+thus the matter was settled, "in a manner," she writes, "the most
+mortifying to Mr. Walpole and myself."-ED.)
+
+
+Page 368
+
+               A MELANCHOLY CONFESSION.
+
+ May 25.-The Princess Augusta condescended to bring me a most
+gracious message from the king, desiring to know if I wished to
+go to Handel's Commemoration, and if I should like the "Messiah,"
+or prefer any other day?
+
+With my humble acknowledgments for his goodness, I fixed
+instantly on the "Messiah" and the very amiable princess came
+smiling back to     me, bringing me my ticket from the king.
+This would not, indeed, much have availed me, but that I
+fortunately knew my dear father meant to go to the Abbey.  I
+despatched Columb to Chelsea, and he promised to call for me the
+next morning.
+
+My "Visions" I had meant to produce in a few days; and to know
+their chance before I left town for the summer.(333) But I
+thought the present opportunity not to be slighted, for some
+little opening, that might lighten the task of the exordium upon
+the day of attempt.  He was all himself--all his native self-
+-kind, gay, open, and full fraught with converse.
+
+Chance favoured me: we found so little room, that we were fain to
+accept two vacant places at once, though they separated us from
+my uncle, Mr. Burney, and his brother James, who were all there,
+and all meant to be of the same party.
+
+I might not, at another time, have rejoiced in this disunion, but
+it was now most opportune: it gave me three hours' conference
+with my dearest father--the only conference of that length I have
+had in four years.
+
+Fortune again was kind ; for my father began relating various
+anecdotes of attacks made upon him for procuring to sundry
+strangers some acquaintance with his daughter,(334) particularly
+with the Duchesse de Biron, and the Mesdames de Boufflers(335) to
+whom he answered, he had no power; but was somewhat
+
+Page 369
+
+struck by the question of Madame de B.  in return, who exclaimed,
+"Mais, monsieur, est-ce possible! Mademoiselle votre fille n'a-t-
+elle point de vacance?"(336)
+
+This led to much interesting discussion, and to many confessions
+and explanations on my part, never made before; which induced him
+to enter more fully into the whole of the situation, and its
+circumstances, than he had ever yet had the leisure or the
+spirits to do; and he repeated sundry speeches of discontent at
+my seclusion from the world.
+
+All this encouraged me to much detail: I spoke my high and
+constant veneration for my royal mistress, her merits, her
+virtues, her condescension, and her even peculiar kindness
+towards me.  But I owned the species of life distasteful to me; I
+was lost to all private comfort, dead to all domestic endearment;
+I was worn with want of rest, and fatigued with laborious
+watchfulness and attendance.  My time was devoted to official
+duties; and all that in life was dearest to me--my friends, my
+chosen society, my best affections--lived now in my mind only by
+recollection, and rested upon that with nothing but bitter
+regret.  With relations the most deservedly dear, with friends of
+almost unequalled goodness, I lived like an orphan-like one who
+had no natural ties, and must make her way as she could by those
+that were factitious.  Melancholy was the existence where
+happiness was excluded, though not a complaint could be made!
+where the illustrious personages who were served possessed almost
+all human excellence, yet where those who were their servants,
+though treated with the most benevolent condescension, could
+never, in any part of the live-long day, command liberty, or
+social intercourse, or repose.
+
+The silence of my dearest father now silencing myself, I turned
+to look at him; but how was I struck to see his honoured head
+bowed down almost into his bosom with dejection and discomfort!--
+we were both perfectly still a few moments; but when he raised
+his head I could hardly keep my seat, to see his eyes filled with
+tears!--"I have long," he cried, "been uneasy, though I have not
+spoken; but if you wish to resign, my house, my purse, my arms,
+shall be open to receive you, back;"
+
+Page 370
+
+The emotion of my whole heart at this speech-this sweet, this
+generous speech--O my dear friends, I need not say it
+
+We were mutually forced to break up Our conference.  I could only
+instantly accept his paternal offer, and tell him it was my
+guardian angel, it was Providence in its own benignity, that
+inspired him with such goodness.  I begged him to love the day in
+which he had given me such comfort, and assured him it would rest
+upon my heart with grateful pleasure till it ceased to beat.
+
+He promised to drink tea with me before I left town, and settle
+all our proceedings.  I acknowledged my intention to have
+ventured to solicit this very permission of resigning.- "But I,"
+cried he, smiling with the sweetest kindness, "have spoken first
+myself."
+
+What a joy to me, what a relief, this very circumstance! it will
+always lighten any evil that may, unhappily, follow this proposed
+step.
+
+
+              CAPTAIN BURNEY's LACONIC LETTER AND INTERVIEW.
+
+
+June.-I went again to the trial of poor Mr. Hastings : Mrs. Ord
+received from me my companion ticket, kindly giving up the Duke
+of Newcastle's box to indulge me with her company.
+
+But I must mention an extraordinary circumstance that happened in
+the last week.  I received in a parcel--No, I will recite it you
+as I told it to Mr. Windham, who, fortunately, saw and came up to
+me--fortunately, I say, as the business of the day was very
+unedifying, and as Mrs. Ord much wished to hear some of his
+conversation.
+
+He inquired kindly about James and his affairs, and if he had yet
+a ship; and, to let him see a person might reside in a Court, and
+yet have no undue influence, I related his proceedings with Lord
+Chatham, and his laconic letter and interview.  The first running
+thus:--
+
+"My Lord,--I should be glad of an audience; if your Lordship will
+be so good to appoint a time, I will wait upon you.  I am, my
+Lord, your humble servant,
+"James Burney."
+
+"And pray," quoth I to James, when he told me this, "did you not
+say the honour of an audience?"
+
+
+Page 371
+"No," answered he, "I was civil enough without that; I said, If
+you will be so good--that was very civil--and honour is quite
+left off now."
+
+How comic! to run away proudly from forms and etiquettes, and
+then pretend it was only to be more in the last mode.  Mr.
+Windham enjoyed this characteristic trait very much; and he likes
+James so well that he deserved it, as well as the interview which
+ensued.
+
+"How do you do, Captain Burney?"
+
+"My lord, I should be glad to be employed."
+
+" You must be sensible, Captain Burney, we have many claimants
+just now, and more than it is possible to satisfy immediately."
+
+"I am very sensible of that, my lord; but, at the same time, I
+wish to let your lordship know what I should like to have--a
+frigate of thirty-two guns."
+
+"I am very glad to know what you wish, sir."
+
+He took out his pocket-book, made a memorandum, and wished James
+a good morning.
+
+Whether or not it occurred to Mr. Windham, while I told this,
+that there seemed a shorter way to Lord Chatham, and one more in
+his own style, I know not: he was too delicate to let such a hint
+escape, and I would not for the world intrust him with my
+applications and disappointments.
+
+
+                 BURKE'S SPEECH ON THE FRENCH REVOLUTION.
+
+But I have found," cried I afterwards, "another newspaper praise
+for you now, 'Mr. Windham, with his usual vein of irony."'
+
+"O, yes," cried he, "I saw that!  But what can it mean?--I use no
+'vein of irony;'--I dislike it, except for peculiar purposes,
+keenly handled, and soon passed over."
+
+" Yet this is the favourite panegyric you receive continually,--
+this, or logic, always attends your name in the newspapers."
+
+"But do I use it?"
+
+"Nay, not to me, I own.  As a manner, I never found it out, at
+least.  However, I am less averse now than formerly to the other
+panegyric--close logic,--for I own the more frequently I come
+hither the more convinced I find myself that that is no character
+of commendation to be given universally."
+
+
+He could say nothing to this; and really the dilatory,
+
+Page 372
+
+desultory style of these prosecutors in general deserved a much
+deeper censure.
+
+"If a little closeness of logic and reasoning were observed by
+one I look at now, what a man would he be, and who could compare
+with him!"  Mr. Burke you are sure was here my object; and his
+entire, though silent and unwilling, assent was obvious.
+
+"What a speech," I continued, "has he lately made!(337)  how
+noble, how energetic, how enlarged throughout!"
+
+"O," cried he, very unaffectedly, "upon the French Revolution?"
+
+"Yes; and any party might have been proud of it, for liberality,
+for feeling, for all in one--genius.  I, who am only a reader of
+detached speeches, have read none I have thought its equal."
+
+"Yet, such as you have seen it, it does not do him justice.  I
+was not in the House that day ; but I am assured the actual
+speech, as he spoke it at the moment, was highly superior to what
+has since been printed.  There was in it a force--there were
+shades of reflection so fine--allusions so quick and so happy--
+and strokes of satire and observation so pointed and so apt,--
+that it had ten times more brilliancy when absolutely extempore
+than when transmitted to paper."
+
+"Wonderful, wonderful! He is a truly wonderful creature!"  And,
+alas, thought I, as wonderful in inconsistency as in greatness!
+
+In the course of a discussion more detailed upon faculties, I
+ventured to tell him what impression they had made upon James,
+who was with me during one of the early long speeches.  "I was
+listening," I said, " with the most fer-
+
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+
+vent attention to such strokes of eloquence as, while I heard
+them, carried all before them, when my brother pulled me by the
+sleeve to exclaim, 'When will he come to the point?"'
+
+The justness, notwithstanding his characteristic conciseness, of
+this criticism, I was glad thus to convey.  Mr. Windham however,
+would not subscribe to it; but, with a significant smile, coolly
+said, "Yes, 'tis curious to hear a man of war's ideas of
+rhetoric."
+
+"Well," quoth I, to make a little amends, "shall I tell you a
+compliment he paid you?"
+
+
+"Me?"
+
+"Yes.  'He speaks to the purpose,' he cried."
+
+
+
+                            AN AWKWARD MEETING.
+
+Some time after, with a sudden recollection, he eagerly
+exclaimed, "O, I knew I had something I wished to tell you!  I
+was the other day at a place to see Stuart's Athenian
+architecture, and whom do you think I met in the room?"
+
+I could not guess.
+
+"Nay, 'tis precisely what you will like--Mr. Hastings!"
+
+"Indeed!" cried I, laughing; "I must own I am extremely glad to
+hear it.  I only wish you could both meet without either knowing
+the other."
+
+"Well, we behaved extremely well, I assure you ; and looked each
+as if we had never seen one another before.  I determined to let
+you know it." . . .
+
+
+                       A NEW VISIT FROM MRS. FAIRLY.
+
+The day after the birthday I had again a visit from Mrs. Fairly.
+I was in the midst of packing, and breakfasting, and confusion -
+for we left town immediately, to return no more till next year,
+except to St. James's for the Drawing-room.  However, I made her
+as welcome as I was able, and she was more soft and ingratiating
+in her manners than I ever before observed her.  I apologised two
+or three times for not waiting upon her, representing my confined
+abilities for visiting.
+
+
+                ONE TRAGEDY FINISHED AND ANOTHER COMMENCED.
+
+August.-As I have only my almanac memorandums for this month, I
+shall hasten immediately to what I think my dear partial
+lecturers will find most to their taste in the course of it.
+
+
+Page 374
+
+Know then, fair ladies, about the middle of this August, 17 90,
+the author finished the rough first draft and copy of her first
+tragedy.  What species of a composition it may prove she is very
+unable to tell; she only knows it was an almost spontaneous work,
+and soothed the melancholy of imagination for a while, though
+afterwards it impressed it with a secret sensation of horror, so
+like real woe, that she believes it contributed to the injury her
+sleep received about this period.
+
+Nevertheless, whether well or ill, she is pleased to have done
+something at last, she had so long lived in all ways as nothing.
+
+You will smile, however, at my next trust; but scarce was this
+completed,-as to design and scenery I mean, for the whole is in
+its first rough state, and legible only to herself,- scarce,
+however, had this done with imagination, to be consigned over to
+correction, when imagination seized upon another subject for
+another tragedy.
+
+The first therefore I have deposited in my strong-box, in all its
+imperfections, to attend to the other; I well know correction may
+always be summoned, Imagination never will come but by choice.  I
+received her, therefore, a welcome guest,--the best adapted for
+softening weary solitude, where only coveted to avoid irksome
+exertion.
+
+
+                    MISS BURNEY's RESIGNATION MEMORIAL.
+
+October.-I now drew up my memorial, or rather, showed it to my
+dearest father.  He so much approved it, that he told me he would
+not have a comma of it altered.  I will copy it for you.  It is
+as respectful and as grateful as I had words at command to make
+it, and expressive of strong devotion and attachment; but it
+fairly and firmly states that my strength is inadequate to the
+duties of my charge, and, therefore, that I humbly crave
+permission to resign it and retire into domestic life.  It was
+written in my father's name and my own.  I had now that dear
+father's desire to present it upon the first auspicious moment:
+and O! with what a mixture of impatience and dread unspeakable
+did I look forward to such an opportunity!
+
+The war was still undecided : still I inclined to wait its issue,
+as I perpetually brought in my wishes for poor James, though
+without avail.  Major Garth, our last equerry, was raised to a
+high post in the West Indies, and the rank of colonel, I
+recommended James to his notice and regard if
+
+
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+they met; and a promise most readily and pleasantly made to seek
+him out and present him to his brother, the general, if they ever
+served in the same district, was all, I think, that my Court
+residence obtained for my marine department of interest!
+
+Meanwhile, one morning at Kew, Miss Cambridge was so much alarmed
+at my declining state of health that she would take no denial to
+my seeing and consulting Mr. Dundas.  He ordered me the bark, and
+it strengthened me so much for awhile, that I was too much
+recruited for presenting my sick memorial, which I therefore cast
+aside.
+
+Mrs. Ord spent near a week at Windsor in the beginning of this
+month.  I was ill, however, the whole time, and suffered so much
+from my official duties, that my good Mrs. Ord, day after day,
+evidently lost something more and more of her partiality to my
+station, from witnessing fatigues of which she had formed no
+idea, and difficulties and disagreeabilities in carrying on a
+week's intercourse, even with so respectable a friend, which I
+believe she had thought impossible.
+
+Two or three times she burst forth into ejaculations strongly
+expressive of fears for my health and sorrow at its exhausting
+calls.  I could not but be relieved in my own mind that this
+much-valued, most maternal friend should thus receive a
+conviction beyond all powers of representation, that my place was
+of a sort to require a strength foreign to my make.
+
+She left me in great and visible uneasiness, and wrote to me
+continually for bills of health, I never yet so much loved her,
+for, kind as I have always found her, I never yet saw in her so
+much true tenderness.
+
+
+                          MR. WINDHAM INTERVENES.
+
+In this month, also, I first heard of the zealous exertions and
+chivalrous intentions of Mr. Windham.  Charles told me they never
+met without his demounting the whole thunders of his oratory
+against the confinement by which he thought my health injured;
+with his opinion that it must be counteracted speedily by
+elopement, no other way seeming effectual.
+
+But with Charlotte he came more home to the point.  Their
+vicinity in Norfolk occasions their meeting, though very seldom
+at the house of Mr. Francis, who resents his prosecution of Mr.
+Hastings, and never returns his visits; but at assemblies at
+Aylsham and at Lord Buckingham's dinners they are certain of now
+and then encountering.
+
+
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+
+This summer, when Mr. Windham went to Felbrig, his Norfolk seat,
+they soon met at an assembly, and he immediately opened upon his
+disapprobation of her sister's monastic life, adding, "I do not
+venture to speak thus freely upon this subject to everybody, but
+to you I think I may; at least, I hope it."
+
+Poor dear Charlotte was too full-hearted for disguise, and they
+presently entered into a confidential cabal, that made her quite
+disturbed and provoked when hurried away.  From this time,
+whenever they met, they were pretty much of a mind.  "I cannot
+see you," he always cried, "without recurring to that painful
+subject--your sister's situation."  He then broke forth in an
+animated offer of his own services to induce Dr. Burney to finish
+such a captivity, if he could flatter himself he might have any
+influence.
+
+Charlotte eagerly promised him the greatest, and he gave her his
+promise to go to work.
+
+O What a noble Quixote! How much I feel obliged to him!  How
+happy, when I may thank him!
+
+He then pondered upon ways and means.  He had already sounded my
+father: "but it is resolution," he added, "not inclination, Dr.
+Burney wants."  After some further reflection, he then fixed upon
+a plan : "I will set the Literary Club(338) upon him!" he cried:
+"Miss Burney has some very true admirers there, and I am sure
+they will all eagerly assist.  We will present him a petition--an
+address."
+
+Much more passed: Mr. Windham expressed a degree of interest and
+kindness so cordial, that Charlotte says she quite longed to
+shake hands with him; and if any success ever accrues, she
+certainly must do it.
+
+Frightened, however, after she returned home, she feared our
+dearest father might unfairly be overpowered, and frankly wrote
+him a recital of the whole, counselling him to see Mr. Windham in
+private before a meeting at the club should take place.
+
+
+                  AN AMUSING INTERVIEW WITH MR. BOSWELL.
+
+And now for a scene a little surprising.
+
+The beautiful chapel of St. George, repaired and finished by the
+best artists at an immense expense, which was now opened after a
+very long shutting up for its preparations, brought in-
+
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+
+numerable strangers to Windsor, and, among others, Mr. Boswell.
+
+This I heard, in my way to the chapel, from Mr. Turbulent, who
+overtook me, and mentioned having met Mr. Boswell at the Bishop
+of Carlisle's the evening, before.  He proposed bringing him to
+call upon me; but this I declined, certain how little
+satisfaction would be given here by the entrance of a man so
+famous for compiling anecdotes.  But yet I really wished to see
+him again, for old acquaintance sake, and unavoidable amusement
+from his oddity and good humour, as well as respect for the
+object of his constant admiration, my revered Dr. Johnson.  I
+therefore told Mr. Turbulent I should be extremely glad to speak
+with him after the service was over.
+
+Accordingly, at the gate of the choir, Mr. Turbulent brought him
+to me.  We saluted With mutual glee: his comic-serious face and
+manner have lost nothing of their wonted singularity nor yet have
+his mind and language, as you will soon confess.
+
+"I am extremely glad to see you indeed," he cried, "but very
+sorry to see you here.  My dear ma'am, why do you stay ?--it
+won't do, ma'am!  You must resign!--we can put up with it no
+longer.  I told my good host the bishop so last night; we are all
+grown quite outrageous!"
+
+Whether I laughed the most, or stared the most, I am at a loss to
+say, but i hurried away from the cathedral, not to have such
+treasonable declarations overheard, for We Were surrounded by a
+multitude.
+
+He accompanied me, however, not losing one moment in continuing
+his exhortations: "If you do not quit, ma'am, very soon, some
+violent measures, I assure you, will be taken.  We shall address
+Dr. Burney in a body; I am ready to make the harangue myself.  We
+shall fall upon him all at once."
+
+I stopped him to inquire about Sir Joshua; he said he saw him
+very often, and that his spirits were very good.  I asked about
+Mr. Burke's book.(339)  "O," cried he "it Will come Out next
+week: 'tis the first book in the World, except my own, and that's
+coming out also very soon; only I want your help."
+
+"My help?"
+
+"Yes, madam,--you must give me some of your choice little notes
+of the doctor's; we have seen him long enough upon
+
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+
+stilts; I want to show him in a new light.  Grave Sam, and great
+Sam, and solemn Sam, and learned Sam,--all these he has appeared
+over and over.  Now I want to entwine a wreath of the graces
+across his brow; I want to show him as gay Sam, agreeable Sam,
+pleasant Sam; so you must help me with some
+of his beautiful billets to yourself."
+
+I evaded this by declaring I had not any stores at hand.  He
+proposed a thousand curious expedients to get at them, but I was
+invincible.
+
+Then I was hurrying on, lest I should be too late.  He followed
+eagerly, and again exclaimed, "But, ma'am, as I tell you, this
+won't do; you must resign off hand!  Why, I would farm you out
+myself for double, treble the money! I wish I had the regulation
+of such a farm,--yet I am no farmer-general.  But I should like
+to farm you, and so I will tell Dr. Burney.  I mean to address
+him; I have a speech ready for the first opportunity."
+
+He then told me his " Life of Dr. Johnson " was nearly printed,
+and took a proof-sheet out of his pocket to show me; with crowds
+passing and repassing, knowing me well, and staring well at him:
+for we were now at the iron rails of the Queen's lodge.
+
+
+I stopped; I could not ask him in : I saw he expected it, and was
+reduced to apologise, and tell him I must attend the queen
+immediately.
+
+He uttered again stronger and stronger exhortations for my
+retreat, accompanied by expressions which I was obliged to check
+in their bud.  But finding he had no chance for entering, he
+stopped me again at the gate, and said he would read me a part of
+his work.
+
+There was no refusing this: and he began with a letter of Dr.
+Johnson's to himself.  He read it in strong imitation of the
+doctor's manner, very well, and not caricature.  But Mrs.
+Schwellenberg was at her window, a crowd was gathering to stand
+round the rails, and the king and queen and royal family now
+approached from the Terrace.  I made a rather quick apology, and,
+with a step as quick as my now weakened limbs have left in my
+power, I hurried to my apartment.
+
+You may suppose I had inquiries enough, from all around, of "Who
+was the gentleman I was talking to at the rails? And an
+injunction rather frank not to admit him beyond those limits.
+
+However, I saw him again the next morning, in coming
+
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+
+from early prayers, and he again renewed his remonstrances, and
+his petition for my letters of Dr. Johnson.  I cannot consent to
+print private letters, even of a man so justly celebrated, when
+addressed to myself: no, I shall hold sacred those revered and
+but too scarce testimonies of the high honour his kindness
+conferred upon me.  One letter I have from him that is a
+masterpiece of elegance and kindness united.  'Twas his last,
+
+
+                       ILL, UNSETTLED, AND UNHAPPY.
+
+November.-This month will be very brief of annals; I was so ill,
+so unsettled, so unhappy during every day, that I kept not a
+memorandum.  All the short benefit I had received from the bark
+was now at an end : languor, feverish nights, and restless days
+were incessant.  My memorial was always in my mind ; my courage
+never rose to bringing it from my letter-case.  Yet the war was
+over, the hope of a ship for my brother demolished, and my health
+required a change of life equally with my spirits and my
+happiness.
+
+The queen was all graciousness; and her favour and confidence and
+smiles redoubled my difficulties.  I saw she had no suspicion but
+that I was hers for life ; and, unimportant as I felt myself to
+her, in any comparison with those for whom I quitted her, I yet
+knew not how to give her the unpleasant surprise of a resignation
+for which I saw her wholly unprepared. .
+
+It is true, my depression of spirits and extreme alteration of
+person might have operated as a preface; for I saw no one, except
+my royal mistress and Mrs. Schwellenberg, who noticed not the
+change, or who failed to pity and question me upon my health and
+my fatigues; but as they alone saw it not, or mentioned it not,
+that afforded me no resource.  And thus, with daily intention to
+present my petition and conclude this struggle, night always
+returned with the effort unmade, and the watchful morning arose
+fresh to new purposes that seemed only formed for demolition.
+And the month expired as it began, with a desire the most
+strenuous of liberty and peace, combated by reluctance
+unconquerable to give pain, displeasure, or distress to my very
+gracious royal mistress.
+
+December.-My loss of health was now so notorious, that no part of
+the house could wholly avoid acknowledging it; yet was the
+terrible picquet the catastrophe of every evening,
+
+
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+
+though frequent pains in my side forced me, three or four times
+in a game, to creep to my own room for hartshorn and for rest.
+And so weak and faint I was become, that I was compelled to put
+my head out into the air, at all hours, and in all weathers, from
+time to time, to recover the power of breathing, which seemed not
+seldom almost withdrawn.
+
+Her majesty was very kind during this time, and the princesses
+interested themselves about me with a sweetness very grateful to
+me; indeed, the whole household showed compassion and regard, and
+a general opinion that I was falling into a decline ran through
+the establishment. . . .  Thus there seemed about my little
+person a universal commotion ; and it spread much farther,
+amongst those I have never or slightly mentioned.  There seemed,
+indeed, but one opinion, that resignation of place or of life was
+the only remaining alternative.
+
+There seemed now no time to be lost - when I saw my dear father
+he recommended to me to be speedy,, and my mother was very kind
+in urgency for immediate measures.  I could
+not, however, summon courage to present my memorial; my heart
+always failed me, from seeing the queen's entire freedom from
+such an expectation: for though I was frequently so ill in her
+presence that I could hardly stand, I saw she concluded me, while
+life remained, inevitably hers.
+
+
+               A MEDICAL OPINION ON MISS BURNEY'S CONDITION.
+
+Finding my inability unconquerable, I at length determined upon
+consulting Mr. Francis.  I wrote to Charlotte a faithful and
+Minute account of myself', with all my attacks--cough, pain In
+the side, weakness, sleeplessness, etc.,--at full length, and
+begged Mr. Francis's opinion how I must proceed.  Very kindly he
+wrote directly to my father, exhorting instantaneous resignation,
+as all that stood before me to avert some dangerous malady.
+
+The dear Charlotte at the same time wrote to me conjuring my
+prompt retreat with the most affecting earnestness.
+
+The uneasiness that preyed upon my spirits in a task so difficult
+to perform for myself, joined to my daily declension in health,
+was now so apparent, that, though I could go no farther, I paved
+the way for an opening, by owning to the queen that Mr. Francis
+had been consulted upon my health.
+
+The queen now frequently inquired concerning his answer;
+
+
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+
+but as I knew he had written to my father, I deferred giving the
+result till I had had a final conference with that dear parent.
+I told her majesty my father Would show me the letter when I saw
+him.  This I saw raised for the first time a surmise that
+something was in agitation, though I am certain the suspicion did
+not exceed an expectation that leave would be requested for a
+short absence to recruit.
+
+My dearest father, all kindness and goodness, yet all alarm,
+thought time could never be more favourable; and when next I saw
+him at Chelsea, I wrote a second memorial to enclose the original
+one.  With a beating heart, and every pulse throbbing, I returned
+thus armed to the Queen's house.
+
+Mrs. Schwellenberg sent for me to her room.  I could hardly
+articulate a word to her.  My agitation was so great that I was
+compelled to acknowledge something very awful was impending in my
+affairs, and to beg she would make no present inquiries.  I had
+not meant to employ her in the business, nor to name it to her,
+but I was too much disturbed for concealment or evasion.  She
+seemed really sorry, and behaved with a humanity I had not had
+much reason to expect.
+
+I spent a terrible time till I went to the queen at night,
+spiriting myself up for my task, and yet finding apprehension
+gain ground every moment.  Mrs. Schwellenberg had already been
+some time with her majesty when I was summoned.  I am sure she
+had already mentioned the little she had gathered.  I could
+hardly perform my customary offices from excess of trepidation.
+The queen looked at me with the most inquisitive solicitude.
+When left with her a moment I tried vainly to make an opening: I
+could not.  She was too much impressed herself by my manner to
+wait long.  She soon inquired what answer had arrived from Mr.
+Francis?
+
+That he could not, I said, prescribe at a distance.
+
+I hoped this would be understood, and said no more.  The queen
+looked much perplexed, but made no answer.
+
+
+                MISS BURNEY BREAKS THE MATTER TO THE QUEEN.
+
+The next morning      I was half dead with real illness,
+excessive nervousness, and    the struggle of what I had to force
+myself to perform.  The queen again was struck with my
+appearance, which I believe    indeed to have been shocking.
+When I was alone with her, she began upon Mr. Francis with more
+inquiry.  I then tried to articulate that I had something of
+
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+
+deep consequence to myself to lay before her majesty; but that I
+was so unequal in my weakened state to speak it, that I had
+ventured to commit it to Writing, and entreated Permission to
+produce it.
+
+She could hardly hear me, yet understood enough to give immediate
+consent.
+
+I then begged to know if I might present it -myself, or whether I
+should give it to Mrs. Schwellenberg.
+
+"O, to me! to me!" she cried, with kind eagerness.  She added,
+however, not then; as she was going to breakfast.
+
+This done was already some relief, terrible as was all that
+remained; but I now knew I must go on, and that all my fears and
+horrors were powerless to stop me.
+
+This was a Drawing-room day.  I saw the king at St. James's, and
+he made the most gracious inquiries about my health: so did each
+of the princesses.  I found they were now all aware of its
+failure.  The queen proposed to me to see Dr. Gisburne: the king
+seconded the proposition.  There was no refusing; yet, just now,
+it was distressing to comply.
+
+The next morning, Friday, when again I was alone with the queen,
+she named the subject, and told me she would rather I should give
+the paper to the Schwellenberg, who had been lamenting to her my
+want of confidence in her, and saying I confided and told
+everything to the queen.  "I answered," continued her majesty,
+"that you were always very good; but that, with regard to
+confiding, you seemed so happy with all your family, and to live
+so well together, that there was nothing to say."
+
+I now perceived Mrs. Schwellenberg suspected some dissension at
+home was the cause of my depression.  I was sorry not to deliver
+my memorial to the Principal person, and yet glad to have it to
+do where I felt so much less compunction in giving pain.
+
+
+                    THE MEMORIAL AND EXPLANATORY NOTE.
+
+I now desired an audience of Mrs. Schwellenberg.  With what
+trembling agitation did I deliver her my paper, requesting her to
+have the goodness to lay it at the feet of the queen before her
+majesty left town ! We were then to set out for Windsor before
+twelve o'clock.  Mrs. Schwellenberg herself remained in town.
+
+Here let me copy the memorial.
+
+
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+
+
+Most humbly presented to Her Majesty.
+
+"Madam,
+"With the deepest sense of your Majesty's goodness and
+condescension, amounting even to sweetness--to kindness who can
+wonder I should never have been able to say what I know not how
+to write--that I find my strength and health unequal to my duty?
+
+"Satisfied that I have regularly been spared and favoured by your
+Majesty's humane consideration to the utmost, I could never bring
+myself to the painful confession of my secret disquietude ; but I
+have long felt creeping upon me a languor, a feebleness, that
+makes, at times, the most common attendance a degree of capital
+pain to me, and an exertion that I could scarce have made, but
+for the revived alacrity with which your Majesty's constant
+graciousness has inspired me, and would still, I believe, inspire
+me, even to my latest hour, while in your Majesty's immediate
+presence.  I kept this to myself while I thought it might wear
+away,-or, at least, I only communicated it to obtain some medical
+advice: but the weakness, though it comes only in fits, has of
+late so much Increased, that I have hardly known how, many days,
+to keep myself about--or to rise up in the morning, or to stay up
+at night.
+
+"At length, however, as my constitution itself seems slowly, yet
+surely, giving way, my father became alarmed.
+
+"I must not enter, here, upon his mortification and
+disappointment: the health and preservation of his daughter could
+alone be more precious to him than your Majesty's protection.
+
+"With my own feelings upon the subject it would ill become me to
+detain your Majesty, and the less, as I am fully sensible my
+place, in point of its real business, may easily he far better
+supplied;--In point of sincere devotion to your majesty, I do not
+so readily yield.  I can only, therefore, most humbly entreat
+that your Majesty will deign to accept from my father and myself
+the most dutiful acknowledgments for the uniform benignity so
+graciously shown to me during the whole of my attendance.  My
+father had originally been apprehensive of my inability, with
+regard to strength, for sustaining any but the indulgence of a
+domestic life : but your Majesty's justice and liberality will
+make every allowance for the flattered feelings of a parent's
+heart, which could not endure, untried, to relinquish for his
+daughter so high an honour as a personal office about your
+Majesty.
+
+
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+
+I dare not, Madam, presume to hope that Your Majesty's
+condescension will reach to the smallest degree of concern at
+parting with me; but permit me, Madam, humbly, earnestly, and
+fervently, to solicit that I may not be deprived of the mental
+benevolence of your Majesty, which so thankfully I have
+experienced, and so gratefully must for ever remember.
+
+That every blessing, every good, may light upon your Majesties
+here, and await a future and happier period hereafter, will be
+always amongst the first prayers of,
+
+"Madam, your Majesty's ever devoted, ever grateful, most
+attached, and most dutiful subject and servant,
+"Frances Burney."
+
+With this, though written so long ago, I only wrote an
+explanatory note to accompany it, which I will also copy:--
+
+"Madam,
+"May I yet humbly presume to entreat your Majesty's patience for
+a few added lines, to say that the address which I now most
+respectfully lay at your Majesty's feet was drawn up two months
+ago, when first I felt so extreme a weakness as to
+render the smallest exertion a fatigue?  While I waited, however,
+for firmness to present it, I took the bark, and found myself,
+for some time, so much amended, that I put it aside, and my
+father, perceiving me better, lost his anxious uneasiness for my
+trying a new mode of life.  But the good effect has, of late, so
+wholly failed, that an entire change of air and manner of living
+are strongly recommended as the best chance for restoring my
+shattered health.  We hold it, therefore, a point of that
+grateful duty we owe to your Majesty's goodness and graciousness,
+to make this melancholy statement at once, rather than to stay
+till absolute incapacity might disable me from offering one small
+but sincere tribute of profound respect to your Majesty,--the
+only one in my power--that of continuing the high honour of
+attending your Majesty, till your Majesty's own choice, time, and
+convenience nominate a successor."
+
+
+                  THE KEEPER OF THE ROBES' CONSTERNATION.
+
+Mrs. Schwellenberg took the memorial, and promised me her
+services, but desired to know its contents.  I begged vainly to
+be excused speaking them.  She persisted, and I then was
+compelled to own they contained my resignation.
+
+How aghast she looked!--how inflamed with wrath!--how
+
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+
+
+Petrified with astonishment!  It was truly a dreadful moment to
+me.  She expostulated on such a step, as if it led to destruction
+: she offered to save me from it, as if the peace of my life
+depended on averting it and she menaced me with its bad
+consequences, as it life itself, removed from these walls, would
+become an evil.
+
+I plainly recapitulated the suffering state in which I had lived
+for the last three months; the difficulty with which I had waded
+through even the most common fatigues of the day; the constraint
+of attendance, however honourable, to an invalid; and the
+impracticability of pursuing such a life, when thus enfeebled,
+with the smallest chance of ever recovering the health and
+strength which it had demolished.
+
+To all this she began a vehement eulogium on the superior
+happiness and blessing of my lot, while under such a protection ;
+and angrily exhorted me not to forfeit what I could never regain.
+
+I then frankly begged her to forbear SO painful a discussion, and
+told her that the memorial was from my father as well as
+myself--that I had no right or authority to hesitate in
+delivering it--that the queen herself was prepared to expect it
+-and that I had promised my father not to go again to Windsor
+till it was presented.  I entreated her, therefore, to have the
+goodness to show it at once.
+
+This was unanswerable, and she left me with the paper in her
+hand, slowly conveying it to its place of destination.
+
+just as she was gone, I was called to Dr. Gisburne or, rather,
+without being called, I found him in my room, as I returned to
+it.
+
+Think If my mind, now, wanted not medicine the most I told him,
+however, my corporeal complaints and he ordered me opium and
+three glasses of wine in the day, and recommended rest to me, and
+an application to retire to my friends for some weeks, as freedom
+from anxiety was as necessary to my restoration as freedom from
+attendance.
+
+
+                      LEAVE OF ABSENCE IS SUGGESTED.
+
+During this consultation I was called to Mrs. Schwellenberg.  Do
+you think I breathed as I went along?--No!  She received me,
+nevertheless, with complacency and smiles; she began a laboured
+panegyric of her own friendly zeal and goodness, and then said
+she had a proposal to make to me, which she con-
+
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+
+sidered as the most fortunate turn my affairs could take, and a,,
+a proof that I should find her the best friend I had in the
+world.  She then premised that she had shown the paper,--that the
+queen had read it, and said it was very modest, and nothing
+improper.
+
+Her proposal was, that I should have leave of absence for six
+weeks, to go about and change the air, to Chelsea, and Norbury
+Park, and Capitan Phillips, and Mr. Francis, and Mr. Cambrick,
+which would get me quite well; and, during that time, she would
+engage Mlle. Montmoulin to perform my office.
+
+I was much disturbed at this; and though rejoiced and relieved to
+understand that the queen had read my memorial without
+displeasure, I was grieved to see it was not regarded as final.
+I only replied I would communicate her plan to my father.  Soon
+after this we set out for Windsor.
+
+Here the first presenting myself before the queen was a task the
+heaviest, if possible, of any.  Yet I was ill enough, heaven
+knows, to carry the apology of my retreat in my countenance.
+However, it was a terrible effort.  I could hardly enter her
+room.  She spoke at once, and with infinite softness, asking me
+how I did after my journey ? "Not well, indeed," I simply
+answered.  "But better?" she cried; "are you not a little
+better?"
+
+I only shook my head; I believe the rest of my frame shook
+without my aid.
+
+"What! not a little?--not a little bit better?" she cried, in the
+most soothing voice.
+
+"To-day, ma'am," I said, "I did indeed not expect to be better."
+I then muttered something indistinctly enough, of the pain I had
+suffered in what I had done: she opened, however, upon another
+subject immediately, and no more was said upon this.  But she was
+kind, and sweet, and gentle, and all consideration with respect
+to my attendance.
+
+I wrote the proposal to my poor father, I received by return of
+post, the most truly tender letter he ever wrote me.  He returns
+thanks for the clemency With which my melancholy memorial has
+been received, and is truly sensible of the high honour shown me
+In the new proposition; but he sees my health so impaired, my
+strength so decayed, my whole frame so nearly demolished, that he
+apprehends anything short of a permanent resignation, that would
+ensure lasting rest and recruit, might prove fatal.  He quotes a
+letter from Mr. Francis,
+
+
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+
+containing his opinion that I must even be speedy in my retiring
+or risk the utmost danger - and he finishes a letter filled with
+gratitude towards the queen and affection to his daughter, with
+his decisive opinion that I cannot go on, and his prayers and
+blessings on my retreat.
+
+The term "speedy," in Mr. Francis's opinion, deterred me from
+producing this letter, as it seemed indelicate and unfair to
+hurry the queen, after offering her the fullest time.  I
+therefore waited till Mrs. Schwellenberg came to Windsor before I
+made any report of my answer.
+
+A scene almost horrible ensued, when I told Cerbera the offer was
+declined.  She was too much enraged for disguise, and uttered the
+most furious expressions of indignant contempt at our
+proceedings.  I am sure she would gladly have confined us both in
+the Bastille, had England such a misery, as a fit place to bring
+us to ourselves, from a daring so outrageous against imperial
+wishes.
+
+(Fanny Burney to Dr. Burney)
+January, 1791-......I thank heaven, there was much softness in
+the manner of naming you this morning.  I see no ill-will mixed
+with the reluctance, which much consoles me.  I do what is
+possible to avoid all discussion; I see its danger still so
+glaring.  How could I resist, should the queen condescend to
+desire, to ask, that I would yet try another year?--and another
+year would but be uselessly demolishing me; for never could I
+explain to her that a situation which unavoidably casts all my
+leisure into the presence of Mrs. Schwellenberg must necessarily
+be subversive of my health, because incompatible with my peace,
+my ease, my freedom, my spirits, and my affections.
+
+The queen is probably kept from any suspicion Of the true nature
+of the case, by the praises of Mrs. Schwellenberg, who, with all
+her asperity and persecution, is uncommonly partial to my
+society; because, in order to relieve myself from sullen gloom,
+or apparent dependency, I generally make my best exertions to
+appear gay and chatty; for when I can do this, she forbears both
+rudeness and imperiousness.  She then, I have reason to believe,
+says to the queen, as I know She does to some others, "The Bernan
+bin reely agribble"; and the queen, not knowing the incitement
+that forces my elaborate and painful efforts, may suppose I am
+lively at heart, when she hears I am so in discourse.  And there
+is no developing this without giving the queen the severest
+embarrassment as well as chagrin.
+
+
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+
+I would not turn Informer for the world.  Mrs. Schwellenberg too,
+with all her faults, is heart and soul devoted to her roil
+mistress, with the truest faith and loyalty.  I hold, therefore,
+silence on this subject to be a sacred duty.  To return to you,
+my dearest padre, is the only road that has open for my return to
+strength and comfort, bodily and mental.  I m inexpressibly
+grateful to the queen, but I burn to be delivered from Mrs.
+Schwellenberg, and I pine to be again in the arms of my padre.
+
+
+
+                 A ROYAL GIFT TO THE MASTER OF THE HORSE.
+
+What will you give me, fair ladies, for a copy of verse, written
+between the Queen of Great Britain and your most small little
+journalist?
+
+The morning of the ball the queen sent for me, and said she had a
+fine pair of old-fashioned gloves, white, with stiff tops and a
+deep gold fringe, which she meant to send to her new master of
+the horse, Lord Harcourt, who was to be at the dance, She wished
+to convey them in a copy of verses, of which she had composed
+three lines, but could not get on.  She told me her ideas, and I
+had the honour to help her in the metre and now I have the honour
+to copy them from her own royal hand:--
+
+"TO THE EARL OF HARCOURT.
+
+"Go, happy gloves, bedeck Earl Harcourt's hand,
+And let him know they come from fairy-land,
+Where ancient customs still retain their reign;
+To modernize them all attempts were vain.
+Go, cries Queen Mab, some noble owner seek,
+Who has a proper taste for the antique."
+
+Now, no criticising, fair ladies !-the assistant was neither
+allowed a pen nor a moment, but called upon to help finish, as
+she might have been to hand a fan.  The earl, you may suppose,
+was sufficiently enchanted.
+
+
+                        CONFERENCES WITH THE QUEEN.
+
+April.-In the course of this month I had two conferences with my
+royal mistress upon my resignation, in which I spoke with all
+possible openness upon its necessity.  She condescended to speak
+very honourably of my dear father to me,--and, in a long
+discourse upon my altered health with Mrs. de
+
+
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+
+Luc, she still further condescended to speak most graciously of
+his daughter, saying in particular, these strong words, in answer
+to something kind uttered by that good friend in my favour.  "O,
+as to character, she is what we call in German 'true as gold'
+and, in point of heart, there is not, all the world over, one
+better"--and added something further upon sincerity very
+forcibly.  This makes me very happy.
+
+She deigned, also, in one of these conferences, to consult with
+me openly upon my successor, stating her difficulties, and making
+me enumerate various requisites.  It would be dangerous, she
+said, to build upon meeting in England with one who would be
+discreet in point of keeping off friends and acquaintances from
+frequenting the palace; and she graciously implied much
+commendation of my discretion, in her statement of what she
+feared from a new person.
+
+May.-As no notice whatever was taken, all this time, of my
+successor, or my retirement, after very great harass of suspense,
+and sundry attempts to conquer it, I had at length again a
+conference with my royal mistress.  She was evidently displeased
+at again being called upon, but I took the courage to openly
+remind her that the birthday was her majesty's own time, and that
+my father conceived it to be the period of my attendance by her
+especial appointment.  And this was a truth which flashed its own
+conviction on her recollection.  She paused, and then,
+assentingly, said, "Certainly."  I then added, that as, after the
+birthday, their majesties went to Windsor, and the early prayers
+began immediately, I must needs confess I felt myself wholly
+unequal to encountering the fatigue of rising for them in my
+present weakened state.  She was now very gracious again,
+conscious all this was fair and true.  She told me her own
+embarrassments concerning the successor, spoke confidentially of
+her reasons for not engaging an Englishwoman, and acknowledged a
+person was fixed upon, though something yet remained unarranged.
+She gave me, however, to understand that all would be expedited:
+and foreign letters were despatched, I know, immediately.
+
+
+MISS BURNEY DETERMINES ON SECLUSION.
+
+>From Sunday, May 15 to May 22.-The trial of the poor persecuted
+Mr.  Hastings being now again debating and arranging for
+continuance, all our house, I found, expected me now to come
+forth, and my royal mistress and Mrs. Schwellenberg
+
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+
+thought I should find it irresistible.  indeed it nearly was so,
+from my anxious interest in the approaching defence; but when I
+considered the rumours likely to be raised after my retreat, by
+those terrifying watchers of Court transactions who inform the
+public of their conjectures, I dreaded the probable assertion
+that I must needs be disgusted or discontented, for health could
+not be the true motive of my resignation, since I was in public
+just before it took place.  I feared, too, that even those who
+promoted the enterprise might reproach me with my ability to do
+what I wished.  These considerations determined me to run no
+voluntary risks - especially as I should so ill know how to parry
+Mr. Windham, should he now attack me upon a subject concerning
+which he merits thanks so nobly, that I am satisfied my next
+interview with him must draw them forth from me.  Justice,
+satisfaction in his exertions, and gratitude for their spirited
+willingness, all call upon me to give him that poor return.  The
+danger of it, however, now, is too great to be tried, if
+avoidable : and I had far rather avoid seeing him, than either
+gratify myself by expressing my sense of his kindness, or
+unjustly withhold from him what I think of it.
+
+These considerations determined me upon relinquishing all public
+places, and all private visits, for the present.
+
+The trial, however, was delayed, and the Handelian Commemoration
+came on.  My beloved Mr. and Mrs. Locke will have told my Susan
+my difficulties in this business, and I will now tell all three
+how they ended.
+
+The queen, unexpectedly, having given me a ticket, and enjoined
+me to go the first day, that I might have longer time to recruit
+against the king's birthday, I became, as you will have heard,
+much distressed what course to pursue.
+
+I took the first moment I was alone with her majesty to express
+my father's obligation to her for not suffering me to sit up on
+her own birthday, in this week, and I besought her permission to
+lay before her my father's motives for hitherto wishing me to
+keep quiet this spring, as well as my own, adding I was sure her
+majesty would benignly wish this business to be done as peaceably
+and unobserved as possible.  She looked extremely earnest, and
+bid me proceed.
+
+I then briefly stated that whoever had the high honour of
+belonging to their majesties were liable to comments upon all
+their actions, that, if the comment was only founded in truth, we
+had nothing to fear, but that, as the world was much less
+
+
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+
+addicted to veracity, than to mischief, my father and myself had
+an equal apprehension that, if I should now be seen in public so
+quickly before the impending change, reports might be spread, as
+soon as I went home, that it could not be for health I resigned.
+She listened very attentively and graciously, and instantly,
+acquiesced.
+
+When the trial actually recommenced, the queen grew anxious for
+my going to it : she condescended to intimate that my accounts of
+it were the most faithful and satisfactory she received, and to
+express much Ill-will to giving them up.  The motives I had
+mentioned, however, were not merely personal she could not but
+see any comments must involve more than myself, and therefore I
+abided steadily by her first agreement to my absenting myself
+from all public places, and only gently joined in her regret,
+which I forcibly enough felt in this instance, Without venturing
+any offer of relinquishing the prudential plan previously
+arranged.  She gave me tickets for Charles for every day that the
+hall was opened, and I collected what I could of information from
+him for her satisfaction.
+
+
+       THE HASTINGS TRIAL RESUMED: 'THE ACCUSED MAKES HIS
+DEFENCE.
+
+Queen's House, London, June.-the opening of this month her
+majesty told me that the next day Mr. Hastings was to make his
+defence, and warmly added, "I would give the world you could go
+to it!"
+
+This was an expression so unusual in animation, that I instantly
+told her I would write to my father, who could not possibly, in
+that case, hesitate.
+
+"Surely," she cried, "you may wrap up, so as not to catch cold
+that once?"
+
+I told her majesty that, as my father had never thought going out
+would be really prejudicial to my health, he had only wished to
+have his motive laid fairly before her majesty, and then to leave
+it to her own command.  Her majesty accepted this mode of
+consent, and gave me tickets for Charles and Sarah to accompany
+me, and gave leave and another ticket for Mr. de Luc to be of the
+party.
+Thursday, June 2.-I went once more to Westminster Hall.  Charles
+and Sarah came not to their time, and I left directions and
+tickets, and set off with only Mr. de Luc, to secure our
+
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+
+own, and keep places for them.  The Hall was more crowded than on
+any day since the trial commenced, except the first.  Peers,
+commoners, and counsel, peeresses, commoneresses, and the
+numerous indefinites crowded every part, with a just and fair
+curiosity to hear one day's defence, after seventy-three of
+accusation.
+
+Unfortunately I sat too high up to hear the opening, and when,
+afterwards, the departure of some of my obstacles removed me
+lower, I was just behind some of those unfeeling enemies who have
+not even the decorum due to themselves, of appearing to listen to
+what is offered against their own side.  I could only make out
+that this great and persecuted man upon a plan all his own, and
+at a risk impossible to ascertain) was formally making his own
+defence, not with retaliating declamation, but by a simple,
+concise, and most interesting statement of facts, and of the
+necessities accompanying them in the situation to which the House
+then impeaching had five times called him.  He spoke with most
+gentlemanly temper of his accusers, his provocation considered,
+yet with a firmness of disdain of the injustice with which he had
+been treated in return for his services, that was striking and
+affecting, though unadorned and manly.
+
+His spirit, however, and the injuries which raised it, rested not
+quietly upon his particular accusers: he arraigned the late
+minister, Lord North, of ingratitude and double-dealing, and the
+present minister, Mr. Pitt, of unjustifiably and unworthily
+forbearing to Sustain him.
+
+Here Mr. Fox, artfully enough, interrupted to say the king's
+ministers were not to be arraigned for what passed in the House
+of Parliament.  Mr. Burke arose also' to enter his protest.
+
+But Mr. Hastings then lost his patience and his temper: he would
+not suffer the interruption; he had never, he said, interrupted
+their long speeches; and when Mr. Burke again attempted to speak,
+Mr. Hastings, in an impassioned but affecting manner, extended
+his arms, and called out loudly, "I throw myself Upon the
+protection of your lordships:--I am not used to public speaking,
+and cannot answer them.  what I wish to submit to your lordships
+I have committed to paper; but, if I am punished for what I say,
+I must insist upon being heard--I call upon you, my lords, to
+protect me from this violence!"
+
+This animated appeal prevailed; the managers were silenced by an
+almost universal cry of "Hear, hear, hear!" from the
+
+
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+
+lords; and by Lord Kenyon, who represented the chancellor, and
+said, "Mr. Hastings, proceed."
+
+The angry orators, though with a very ill grace, were then
+silenced.  They were little aware what a compliment this
+intemperate eagerness was paying to Mr. Hastings, who for so many
+long days manifested that fortitude against attack, and that
+patience against abuse, which they could not muster, Without any
+parallel in provocation, even for three short hours.  I rejoiced
+with all my heart to find Mr. Windham was not in their box.  He
+did not enter with them in procession, nor appear as a manager or
+party concerned, further than as a member of the House of
+Commons.  I could not distinguish him in so large a group, and he
+either saw not, or knew not, me.
+
+The conclusion of the defence I heard better, as Mr. Hastings
+spoke considerably louder from this time; the spirit of
+indignation animated his manner and gave strength to his voice.
+You will have seen the chief parts of his discourse In the
+newspapers and you cannot, I think, but grow more and more his
+friend as you peruse it.  He called pathetically and solemnly for
+instant judgment; but the Lords, after an adjournment decided to
+hear his defence by evidence, and order, the next sessions.  How
+grievous such continual delay to a man past sixty, and sighing
+for such a length of time for redress from a prosecution as yet
+unparalleled in our annals.
+
+When it was over, Colonel Manners came round to speak to -me and
+talk over the defence.  He is warmly for Mr. Hastings.  He
+inquired about Windsor; I should have made him stare a little had
+I told him I never expected to see him there again.
+
+
+MR. WINDHAM IS CONGRATULATED ON HIS SILENCE.
+
+When he came down-stairs into the large waiting-hall, Mr. de Luc
+went in search of William and chairs.  Sally then immediately
+discerned Mr. Windham with some ladies.  He looked at me without
+at first knowing me. . . . Sarah whispered me Mr. Windham was
+looking harder and harder; and presently he came up to me, and in
+a tone of very deep concern, and with a look that fully concurred
+with 'it, he said, "Do I see Miss Burney?"
+
+I could not but feel the extent of the interrogation, and my
+assent acknowledged my comprehension.
+
+"Indeed," he cried, "I was going to make a speech--not Very
+gallant!"
+
+
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+
+,
+"But it is what I should like better," I cried, " for it is kind
+if you were going to say I look miserably ill, as that is but a
+necessary consequence of feeling so,--and miserably ill enough I
+have felt this long time past."
+
+He would not allow quite that, he said; but I flew from the
+subject, to tell him I had been made very happy by him.  HE gave
+me one of his starts,--but immediately concluded it was by no
+good, and therefore would not speak in inquiry.
+
+"Why, I did not see you in the box," I cried, "and I had been
+very much afraid I should have seen you there.  But now my fears
+are completely over, and you have made me completely happy!"
+
+He protested, with a comic but reproachful smile, he knew not how
+to be glad, if it was still only in the support of a bad cause,
+and if still I really supported it.  And then he added he had
+gone amongst the House of Commons instead of joining the
+managers, because that enabled him to give his place to a friend,
+who was not a member.
+
+"You must be sure," said I, "you would see me here to-day."
+
+I had always threatened him with giving fairest play to the
+defence, and always owned I had been most afraid Of his harangue;
+therefore to find the charges end without his making it saved me
+certainly a shake,--either for Mr. Hastings or himself,--for one
+of them must thenceforth have fallen in my estimation.  I
+believe, however, this was a rather delicate point, as he made me
+no answer, but a grave smile; but I am sure he instantly
+understood his relinquishing his intended charge was my subject
+of exultation.  And, to make it plainer, I then added, "I am
+really very generous to be thus made happy, considering how great
+has been my curiosity."
+
+"But, to have gratified that curiosity," cried he, "would have
+been no very particular inducement with me; though I have no
+right to take it for a compliment, as there are two species of
+curiosity,--yours, therefore, you leave wholly ambiguous."
+
+"O, I am content with that," cried I so long as I am gratified, I
+give you leave to take it which way you please."
+
+He murmured something I could not distinctly hear, of concern at
+my continued opinion upon this subject; but I do not think, by
+his manner, it much surprised him.
+
+"You know," cried I, "why, as well as what, I feared--that fatal
+candour, of which so long ago you warned me to beware.
+
+
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+
+to the very last moment And, indeed, I was kept n alarm
+for at every figure I saw start up, just now,--Mr. Fox, Mr.
+Burke, Mr. Grey,--I concluded yours would be the next."
+
+"You were prepared, then," cried he, with no little malice, "for
+a voice issuing from a distant pew."(340)
+
+
+                       Miss BURNEY MAKES HER REPORT.
+
+When we came home I was immediately summoned to her majesty, to
+whom I gave a full and fair account of all I had heard of the
+defence; and it drew tears from her expressive eyes as I repeated
+Mr. Hastings's own words, upon the hardship and injustice of the
+treatment he had sustained.
+
+Afterwards, at night, the king called upon me to repeat my
+account and I was equally faithful, sparing nothing of what had
+dropped from the persecuted defendant relative to his majesty's
+ministers.  I thought official accounts might be less detailed
+there than against the managers, who, as open enemies, excite not
+so much my "high displeasure" as the friends of government, who
+so insidiously elected and panegyrised him while they wanted his
+assistance, and betrayed and deserted him when he was no longer
+in a capacity to serve them.  Such, at least, is the light in
+which the defence places them.
+
+The king listened with much earnestness and a marked compassion.
+He had already read the account sent him officially, but he was
+as eager to hear all I could recollect, as if still uninformed of
+what had passed.  The words may be given to the eye, but the
+impression they make can only be conveyed by the ear; and I came
+back so eagerly interested, that my memory was not more stored
+with the very words than my voice with the intonations of all
+that had passed.
+
+With regard to My bearing this sole unofficial exertion since my
+illness, I can only say the fatigue I felt bore not any parallel
+with that of every Drawing--room day, because I was seated.
+
+
+PRINCE WILLIAM INSISTS ON THE KING'S HEALTH BEING DRUNK.
+
+June 4.-Let me now come to the 4th, the last birthday of the
+good, gracious, benevolent king I shall ever, in all human
+probability, pass under his royal roof.
+
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+
+The thought was affecting to me, in defiance of MY volunteer
+conduct, and I could scarce speak to the queen when I first went
+to her, and wished to say something upon a day So interesting.
+The king was most gracious and kind when he came into the state
+dressing-room at St. James's, and particularly inquired about my
+health and strength, and if they would befriend me for the day.
+I longed again to tell him how hard I would work them, rather
+than let them, on such a day, drive me from my office; but I
+found it better suited me to be quiet; It was safer not to trust
+to any expression of loyalty, with a mind so full, and on a day
+so critical.
+
+At dinner Mrs. Schwellenberg presided, attired magnificently.
+Miss Goldsworthy, Mrs. Stainforth, Messrs. de Luc and Stanhope
+dined with us; and, while we were still eating fruit, the Duke of
+Clarence entered.  He was just risen from the king's table, and
+waiting for his equipage to go home and prepare for the ball.  To
+give you an idea of the energy of his royal highness's language,
+I ought to set apart a "general objection to writing, or rather
+intimating, certain forcible words, and beg leave to show you, in
+genuine colours, a royal sailor.
+
+We all rose, of course, upon his entrance, and the two gentlemen
+placed themselves behind their chairs while the footmen left the
+room ; but he ordered us all to sit down, and called the men back
+to hand about some wine.  He was in exceeding high spirits and in
+the utmost good humour.  He placed himself at the head of the
+table, next Mrs. Schwellenberg, and looked remarkably well, gay,
+and full of sport and mischief, yet clever withal as well as
+comical.
+
+"Well, this is the first day I have ever dined with the king at
+St. James's on his birthday.  Pray, have you all drunk his
+majesty's health?"
+
+"No, your roy'l highness: your roy'l highness might make dem do
+dat," said Mrs. Schwellenberg.
+
+"O, by --- will I!  Here, you (to the footman), bring champagne!
+I'll drink the king's health again, if I die for it Yet, I have
+done pretty well already: so has the king, I promise you!  I
+believe his majesty was never taken such good care of before.  We
+have kept his spirits up, I promise you: we have enabled him to
+go through his fatigues; and I should have done more still, but
+for the ball and Mary--I have promised to dance with Mary!"
+
+Princess Mary made her first appearance at Court to-day
+She looked most interesting and unaffectedly lovely - she is a
+
+
+Page 397,
+
+Sweet creature, and perhaps, in point of beauty, the first of
+this truly beautiful race, of which Princess Mary may be called
+pendant to the Prince of Wales.
+
+Champagne being now brought for the duke, he ordered it all
+round.  When it came to me I whispered to Westerhaults to carry
+it on: the duke slapped his hand violently on the table, and
+called out, "O, by ----, you shall drink it!"
+
+There was no resisting this.  We all stood up, and the duke
+sonorously gave the royal toast.  "And now," cried he, making us
+all sit down again, "where are my rascals of servants?  I sha'n't
+be in time for the ball; besides, I've got a deuced tailor
+waiting to fix on my epaulette!  Here, you, go and see for my
+servants! d'ye hear?  Scamper off!"
+
+Off ran William.
+
+"Come, let's have the king's health again.  De Luc, drink it.
+Here, champagne to De Luc!"
+
+I wish you could have seen Mr. de Luc's mixed simper half
+pleased, half alarmed.  However, the wine came and he drank it,
+the duke taking a bumper for himself at the same time."
+
+Poor Stanhope!"  cried he; "Stanhope shall have a glass too.
+Here, champagne!  what are you all about? Why don't YOU give
+champagne to poor Stanhope?"
+
+Mr. Stanhope, with great pleasure, complied, and the
+  duke again accompanied him.
+
+"Come hither, do you hear?" cried the duke to the servants; and
+on the approach, slow and submissive, of                 Mrs.
+Stainforth's man, he hit him a violent slap on the back, calling
+out, "Hang you! why don't you see for my rascals?"
+
+Away flew the man, and then he called out to Westerhaults,
+"Hark'ee! bring another glass of champagne to Mr. de Luc!"
+
+Mr. de Luc knows these royal youths too well to venture at so
+vain an experiment as disputing with them, so he only shrugged
+his shoulders and drank the wine.  The duke did the same.
+
+"And now, poor Stanhope," cried the duke,                 "give
+another glass to poor Stanhope, d'ye hear?"
+
+"Is not your royal highness afraid," cried Mr. Stanhope,
+displaying the full circle of his borrowed teeth, "I shall be apt
+to be rather up in the world, as the folks say, if I tope on at
+this rate?"
+
+
+"Not at all! you can't get drunk in a better cause,
+I'd get
+
+
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+
+drunk myself' if it was not for the ball.  Here, champagne!
+another glass for the philosopher!  I keep sober for Mary."
+
+"O, your royal highness cried Mr. de Luc, gaining courage as he
+drank, "you will make me quite droll Of it if you make me go
+on,--quite droll!"
+
+"So much the better! so much the better! it will do you a
+monstrous deal of good.  Here, another glass of- champagne for
+the queen's philosopher!"
+
+Mr. de Luc obeyed, and the duke then addressed Mrs.
+Schwellenberg's George.  "Here! you! you! why, where is my
+carriage? run and see, do you hear?"
+
+Off hurried George, grinning irrepressibly.
+
+"If it was not for that deuced tailor, I would not stir.  I shall
+dine at the Queen's house on Monday, Miss Goldsworthy; I shall
+come to dine with the princess royal.  I find she does not go to
+Windsor with the queen."
+
+The queen meant to spend one day at Windsor, on account of a
+review which carried the king that way.
+
+Some talk then ensued upon the duke's new carriage, which they
+all agreed to be the most beautiful that day, at court.  I had
+not seen it, which, to me, was some impediment against praising
+it.
+
+
+                            THE QUEEN's HEALTH.
+
+He then said it was necessary to drink the queens health.  The
+gentlemen here made no demur, though Mr. de Luc arched his
+eyebrows in expressive fear of consequences.
+
+"A bumper," cried the duke, "to the queen's gentleman-usher."
+
+They all stood up and drank the queen's health.
+
+"Here are three of us," cried the duke, "all belonging to the
+queen: the queen's philosopher, the queen's gentlemanusher, and
+the queen's son; but, thank heaven, I'm the nearest!"
+
+"Sir," cried Mr. Stanhope, a little affronted, "I am not now the
+queen's gentleman-usher; I am the queen's equerry, sir."
+
+"A glass more of champagne here! What are you all so slow for?
+Where are all my rascals gone? They've put me in one passion
+already this morning.  Come, a glass of champagne for the queen's
+gentleman-usher!" laughing heartily.
+
+"No, sir," repeated Mr. Stanhope; "I am equerry, sir."
+
+"And another glass to the queen's philosopher!"
+
+Neither gentleman objected; but Mrs. Schwellenberg, who
+
+
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+had sat laughing and happy all this time, now grew alarmed, and
+said, "Your royal highness, I am afraid for the ball!"
+
+"Hold your potato-jaw, my dear," cried the duke, patting her -
+but, recollecting himself, he took her hand and pretty abruptly
+kissed it, and then, flinging it away hastily, laughed aloud, and
+called out, "There, that will make amends for anything, so now I
+may say what I will.  So here! a glass of champagne for the
+queen's philosopher and the queen's gentleman-usher!  Hang me if
+it will not do them a monstrous deal of good!"
+
+Here news was brought that the equipage was in order.  He started
+up, calling out, "Now, then, for my deuced tailor."
+
+"O, your royal highness,"  cried Mr. de Luc, in a tone of
+expostulation, "now you have made us droll, you go!"
+
+Off!  however, he went.  And is it not a curious scene? All my
+amaze is, how any of their heads bore such libations.
+
+
+                     THE PROCESSION TO THE BALL-ROOM:
+                         ABSENCE OF THE PRINCES.
+
+In the evening I had by no means strength to encounter the
+ball-room.  I gave my tickets to Mrs.  and Miss Douglas.  Mrs.
+Stainforth was dying to see the Princess Mary in her Court dress.
+Mr. Stanhope offered to conduct her to a place of prospect.  She
+went with him.  I thought this preferable to an unbroken evening
+with my fair companion, and Mr. de Luc, thinking the same, we
+both left Mrs. Schwellenberg to unattire, and followed.  But we
+were rather in a scrape by trusting to Mr. Stanhope after all
+this champagne: he had carried Mrs. Stainforth to the very door
+of the ball-room, and there fixed her--in a place which the king,
+queen, and suite must brush past in order to enter the ball-room.
+I had followed, however, and the crowds of beef-eaters, officers,
+and guards that lined all the state-rooms through which we
+exhibited ourselves, prevented my retreating alone.  I stood,
+therefore, next to Mrs. Stainforth, and saw the ceremony.
+
+The passage was made so narrow by attendants, that they were all
+forced to go one by one.  First, all the king's great
+state-officers, amongst whom I recognised Lord Courtown, a
+treasurer of the household; Lord Salisbury carried a candle!--
+'tis an odd etiquette.--These being passed, came the king--he saw
+us and laughed; then the queen's master of the horse, Lord
+Harcourt, who did ditto; then some more.
+
+
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+
+The vice-chamberlain carries the queen's candle, that she may
+have the arm of the lord chamberlain to lean on; accordingly,
+Lord Aylesbury, receiving that honour, now preceded the queen:
+she looked amazed at sight of us.  The kind princesses one by one
+acknowledged us.  I spoke to sweet Princess Mary, wishing her
+royal highness joy: she looked in a delight and an alarm nearly
+equal.  She was to dance her first minuet.  Then followed the
+ladies of the bedchamber, and Lady Harcourt was particularly
+civil.  Then the maids of honour, every one of whom knew and
+spoke to us.  I peered vainly for the Duke of Clarence, but none
+of the princes passed us.(341)  What a crowd brought up the rear!
+I was vexed not to see the Prince of Wales.
+
+Well, God bless the king! and many and many such days may he
+know!
+
+I was now so tired as to be eager to go back; but the queen's
+philosopher, the good and most sober and temperate of men, was
+really a little giddy with all his bumpers, and his eyes, which
+were quite lustrous, could not fix any object steadily; while the
+poor gentleman-usher--equerry, I mean--kept his Mouth so wide
+open with one continued grin,-I suppose from the sparkling
+beverage,--that I was every minute afraid its pearly ornaments,
+which never fit their case, would have fallen at our feet.  Mrs.
+Stainforth gave me a significant look of making the same
+observation, and, catching me fast by the arm, said, "Come, Miss
+Burney, let's you and I take care of one another"; and then she
+safely toddled me back to Mrs. Schwellenberg, who greeted us with
+saying, "Vell! bin you Much amused? Dat Prince Villiam--oders de
+Duke de Clarrence--bin raelly ver merry--oders vat you call
+tipsy!"
+
+
+                        BOSWELL's LIFE OF JOHNSON.
+
+Mr, Turbulent had been reading, like all the rest of the world,
+Boswell's "Life of Dr. Johnson," and the preference there
+expressed of Mrs. Lenox to all other females had filled
+
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+
+him with astonishment, as he had never even heard her name.(342)
+
+These occasional sallies of Dr. Johnson, uttered from local
+causes and circumstances, but all retailed verbatim by Mr.
+Boswell, are filling all sort of readers with amaze, except the
+small part to whom Dr. Johnson was known, and who, by
+acquaintance with the power of the moment over his unguarded
+conversation, know how little of his solid opinion was- to be
+gathered from his accidental assertions.
+
+The king, who was now also reading this work, applied to me for
+explanations without end.  Every night at his period he entered
+the queen's dressing-room, and detained her majesty's proceedings
+by a length of discourse with me upon this subject.  All that
+flowed from himself was constantly full of the goodness and
+benevolence of his character - and I was never so happy as in the
+opportunity thus graciously given me of vindicating, in instances
+almost innumerable, the serious principles and various
+excellences of my revered Dr. Johnson from the clouds so
+frequently involving and darkening them, in narrations so little
+calculated for any readers who were strangers to his intrinsic
+worth, and therefore worked upon and struck by what was faulty in
+his temper and manners.
+
+I regretted not having strength to read this work to her majesty
+myself.  It was an honour I should else have certainly received
+_; for so much wanted clearing! so little was understood!
+However, the queen frequently condescended to read over passages
+and anecdotes which perplexed or offended her; and there were
+none I had not a fair power to soften or to justify.
+
+
+                 THE CLOSE OF MISS BURNEY'S COURT DUTIES.
+
+Her majesty, the day before we left Windsor, gave me to
+understand my attendance Would be yet one more fortnight
+
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+
+requisite, though no longer.  I heard this with a fearful
+presentiment I should surely never go through another fortnight
+in so weak and languishing and painful a state of health.
+However, I could but accede, though I fear with no very Courtly
+grace.  So melancholy indeed was the state of my mind, from the
+weakness of my frame, that I was never alone but to form scenes
+of "foreign woe," where my own disturbance did not occupy me
+wholly.  I began--almost whether I would or not--another tragedy!
+The other three all unfinished! not one read! and one of them,
+indeed, only generally sketched as to plan and character.  But I
+could go on With nothing; I could only suggest and invent.
+
+The power of composition has to me indeed proved a
+blessing!  When incapable of all else, that, unsolicited,
+unthought of, has presented itself to my solitary leisure, and
+beguiled me of myself, though it has not of late regaled me with
+gayer associates.
+
+July.-I come now to write the last week of my royal residence.
+The queen honoured me with the most uniform graciousness, and
+though, as the time of separation approached, her cordiality
+rather diminished, and traces of internal displeasure appeared
+sometimes, arising from an opinion I ought rather to have
+struggled on, live or die, than to quit her, yet I am sure she
+saw how poor was my own chance, except by a change in the mode of
+life, and at least ceased to wonder, though she could not
+approve.
+
+The king was more Courteous, more communicative, more amiable, at
+very meeting: and he condescended to hold me in conversation with
+him by every opportunity, and with an air of such benevolence and
+goodness, that I never felt such ease and pleasure in his notice
+before.  He talked over all Mr. Boswell's book, and I related to
+him sundry anecdotes of Dr. Johnson, all highly to his honour,
+and such as I was eager to make known, He always heard me with
+the utmost complacency and encouraged me to proceed in my
+accounts by every mark of attention and interest.
+
+He told me once, laughing heartily, that, having seen my name in
+the index, he was eager to come to what was said of me, but which
+he found so little, he was surprised and disappointed.
+
+I ventured to assure him how much I had myself been rejoiced at
+this very circumstance, and with what satisfaction had reflected
+upon having very seldom met Mr. Boswell, as
+
+I
+
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+
+new there was no other security against all manner of risks in
+his relations.
+
+About this time Mr. Turbulent made me a visit at tea-time when
+the gentlemen were at the Castle and the moment William left the
+room he eagerly said, "Is this true, Miss Burney, that I hear?
+Are we going to lose you?"
+
+I was much surprised, but Could not deny the charge.  He, very
+good-naturedly, declared himself much pleased at a release which
+he protested he thought necessary to my life's preservation.  I
+made him tell me the channel through which a business I had
+guarded SO scrupulously Myself had reached him; but it Is too
+full of windings for writing.
+
+ With Mr. de Luc I was already in confidence upon my resignation,
+and with the knowledge of the queen, as he had received the
+intelligence from Germany, whence my successor was now arriving.
+I then also begged the indulgence of writing to Mr. Smelt upon
+the subject, which was accorded me.
+
+My next attack was from Miss Planta.  She expressed herself in
+the deepest concern at my retiring, though she not only
+acknowledged its necessity, but confessed she had not thought I
+could have performed my official duty even one year!  She broke
+from me while we talked, leaving me abruptly in a violent passion
+of tears.
+
+
+                         MISS BURNEY'S SUCCESSOR.
+A PENSION FROM THE QUEEN.
+
+I had soon the pleasure to receive Mlle. jacobi.(343)  She
+brought with her a young German, as her maid, who proved to be
+her niece, but so poor she could not live when her aunt left
+Germany!  Mr. Best, a messenger of the king's, brought her to
+Windsor, and Mrs. Best, his wife, accompanied him.
+
+I was extremely pleased with Mlle. Jacobi, who is tall, well
+made, and nearly handsome, and of a humour so gay, an
+understanding so lively, and manners so frank and ingenuous, that
+I felt an immediate regard for her, and we grew mutual good
+friends.  She is the daughter of a dignified clergyman of
+Hanover, high in theological fame.
+
+They all dined with me, - and, indeed, Mlle. Jacobi, wanting a
+thousand informations in her new situation, which I was most
+happy to give her, seldom quitted me an instant.
+
+Tuesday morning I had a conversation, very long and very
+affecting to me, with her majesty.  I cannot pretend to detail
+
+
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+
+it.  I will only tell you she began by speaking of Mlle. Jacobi,
+whom I had the satisfaction to praise, as far as had appeared,
+very warmly and then she led me to talk at large upon the nature
+and requisites and circumstances of the situation I was leaving.
+I said whatever I could suggest that would tend to render my
+Successor more comfortable, and had the great happiness to
+represent with success the consolation and very innocent pleasure
+she might reap from the society of the young relation she had
+brought over, if she might be permitted to treat her at once as a
+companion, and not as a servant.  This was heard with the most
+humane complacency, and I had leave given me to forward the plan
+in various ways.  She then conversed upon sundry Subjects, all of
+them confidential in their nature, for near an hour; and then,
+after a pause, said, "Do I owe you anything, my dear Miss
+Burney?"
+
+I acquainted her with a debt or two amounting to near seventy
+pounds.  She said she would settle it in the afternoon, and then
+paused again, after which, with a look full of benignity, she
+very expressively said, "As I don't know your plan, or what you
+propose, I cannot tell what Would make you comfortable, but you
+know the size of my family."
+
+I comprehended her, and was immediately interrupting her with
+assurances of my freedom from all expectation or claim; but she
+stopped me, saying, "You know what you now have from me:--the
+half of that I mean to continue."
+
+Amazed and almost overpowered by a munificence I had so little
+expected or thought of, I poured forth the most earnest
+disclaimings of such a mark of her graciousness, declaring I knew
+too well her innumerable calls to be easy in receiving it and
+much more I uttered to this purpose, with the unaffected warmth
+that animated me at the moment.  She heard me almost silently;
+but, in conclusion, Simply, yet strongly, said, "I shall
+certainly do that"  with a stress on the that that seemed to
+kindly mean she would rather have done more.
+
+The conference was in this stage when the Princess Elizabeth came
+into the room.  The queen then retired to the antechamber.  My
+eyes being full, and my heart not very empty, I could not then
+forbear saying to her royal highness how much the goodness of the
+queen had penetrated me.  The sweet princess spoke feelings I
+could not expect, by the immediate glistening of her soft eyes.
+She condescended to express her concern At my retiring; but most
+kindly added, "However,
+
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+
+Miss Burney, go when you will, that you have this to comfort you,
+your behaviour has been most perfectly honourable."
+
+
+
+                              LEAVE-TAKINGS.
+
+This, my last day at Windsor, was filled with nothing but
+packing, leave-taking, bills-paying, and lessoning to Mlle.
+Jacobi, who adhered to my side through everything, and always
+with an interest that made its own way for her.  All the people I
+had to Settle With poured forth for my better health good wishes
+without end; but amongst the most unwilling for my retreat stood
+poor Mrs.  Astley.(344)  Indeed she quite saddened me by her
+sadness, and by the recollections of that sweet and angelic being
+her mistress, who had so solaced my early days at that place.
+
+Mr. Bryant, too, came this same morning; he had an audience of
+the queen: he knew nothing previously of my design.  He seemed
+thunderstruck.  "Bless me!" he cried, in his short and simple but
+expressive manner, "so I shall never see you again, never have
+the honour to dine in that apartment with you more!" etc.  I
+would have kept him to dinner this last day, but he was not well,
+and would not be persuaded.  He would not, however, bid me adieu,
+but promised to endeavour to see me some time at Chelsea.
+
+I had then a little note from Miss Gomme, desiring to see me in
+the garden.  She had just gathered the news.  I do not believe
+any one Was more disposed to be sorry, if the Sight and sense of
+my illness had not checked her concern.  She highly approved the
+step I was taking, and was most cordial and kind.  Miss Planta
+came to tell me she must decline dining with me, as she felt she
+should cry all dinner-time, in reflecting upon its being our last
+meal together at Windsor, and this might affront Mlle. Jacobi.
+
+The queen deigned to come once more to my apartment this
+afternoon.  She brought me the debt.  It was a most mixed feeling
+with which I now saw her.
+
+In the evening came Madame de la Fite, I need not tell you, I
+imagine, that her expressions were of "la plus vife douleur,";
+yet she owned she could not wonder my father should try what
+another life would do for me.  My dear Mrs. de Luc came next;
+She, alone, knew of this while impending.  She rejoiced the time
+of deliverance was arrived, for she had
+
+
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+
+often feared I should outstay my strength, and sink while the
+matter was arranging.  She rejoiced, however, with tears in her
+kind eyes; and, indeed, I took leave of her With true regret.
+
+It was nine o'clock before I could manage to go down the garden
+to the lower Lodge, to pay my duty to the younger princesses,
+whom I Could not else see at all, as they never go to town for
+the Court-days.  I went first up-stairs to Gomme, and had the
+mortification to learn that the sweet Princess Amelia was already
+gone to bed.  This extremely grieved me.  When or how I may see
+her lovely little highness more, Heaven only knows!  Miss Gomme
+kindly accompanied me to Miss Goldsworthy's apartment, and
+promised me a few more words before I set out the next morning.
+
+I found Mrs. Cheveley, at whose door, and at Miss Neven, her
+sister's, I had tapped and left my name, with Miss Goldsworthy
+and Dr. Fisher: that pleasing and worthy man has just taken a
+doctor's degree.  I waited with Miss Goldsworthy till the
+princesses Mary and Sophia came from the upper Lodge, which is
+when the king and queen go to supper.  Their royal highnesses,
+were gracious even to kindness; they shook my hand again and
+again, and wished me better health, and all happiness, with the
+sweetest earnestness.  Princess Mary repeatedly desired to see me
+whenever I came to the Queen's house, and condescended to make me
+as repeatedly promise that I would not fail.  I was deeply
+touched by their goodness, and by leaving them.
+
+Wednesday.-In the morning Mrs.  Evans, the housekeeper, came to
+take leave of me; and the housemaid of my apartment, who, poor
+girl, cried bitterly that I was going to give place to a
+foreigner, for Mrs. Schwellenberg's severity with servants has
+made all Germans feared in the house.
+
+O, but let me first mention that, when I came from the lower
+Lodge, late as it was, I determined to see my old friends the
+equerries, and not quit the place without bidding them adieu.  I
+had never seen them since I had dared mention my designed
+retreat.  I told William, therefore, to watch their return from
+the castle, and to give my compliments to either Colonel Gwynn or
+Colonel Goldsworthy, and an invitation to my apartment.
+
+Colonel Goldsworthy came instantly.  I told him I could not think
+of leaving Windsor without offering first my good
+
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+
+wishes to all the household.  He said that, when my intended
+departure had been published, he and all the gentlemen then with
+him had declared it ought to have taken place six months ago.  He
+was extremely courteous, and I begged him to bring to me, the
+rest of his companions that were known to me.
+
+He immediately fetched Colonel Gwynn, General Grenville, Colonel
+Ramsden, and Colonel Manners.  This was the then party.  I told
+him I sent to beg their blessing upon my departure.  They were
+all much pleased, apparently, that I had not made my exit without
+seeing them: they all agreed on the Urgency of the measure, and
+we exchanged good wishes most cordially.
+
+My Wednesday morning's attendance upon the queen was a melancholy
+office.  Miss Goldsworthy as well as Miss Gomme came early to
+take another farewell.  I had not time to make any visits in the
+town, but left commissions with Mrs. de Luc and Madame de la
+Fite.  Even Lady Charlotte Finch I could not Call upon, though
+she had made me many kind visits since my illness.  I wrote to
+her, however, by Miss Gomme, to thank her, and bid her adieu.
+
+
+                             FAREWELL TO KEW.
+
+Thursday, July 7.-This, my last day of office, was big and busy,-
+-joyful, yet affecting to me in a high degree.
+
+In the morning, before I left Kew, I had my last interview with
+Mrs. Schwellenberg.  She was very kind in it, desiring to see me
+whenever I could in town, during her residence at the Queen's
+house, and to hear from me by letter meanwhile.  She then much
+Surprised me by an offer of succeeding to her own place,--when it
+was vacated either by her retiring or her death.  This was,
+indeed, a mark of favour and confidence I had not expected.  I
+declined, however, to enter upon the subject, as the manner in
+which she opened it made it very solemn, and, to her, very
+affecting.  She would take no leave of me, but wished me better
+hastily, and saying we should soon meet, she hurried suddenly out
+of the room.  Poor woman!  If her temper were not so irascible, I
+really believe her heart would be by no means wanting in
+kindness.
+
+I then took leave of Mrs. Sandys, giving her a token of
+remembrance in return for her constant good behaviour, and
+
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+she showed marks of regard, and of even grief, I was sorry to
+receive, as I could so little return.
+
+But the tragedy of tragedies was parting with Goter;(345) that
+poor girl did nothing but cry incessantly from the time she knew
+of our separation.  I was very sorry to have no place to
+recommend her to, though I believe she may rather benefit by a
+vacation that carries her to her excellent father and Mother, who
+teach her nothing but good.  I did what I could to soften the
+blow, by every exertion in my power in all ways; for it was
+impossible to be unmoved at her violence of sorrow.
+
+I then took leave of Kew Palace--the same party again
+accompanying me, for the last time, in a royal vehicle going by
+the name of Miss Burney's coach.
+
+
+                            THE FINAL PARTING.
+
+I come now near the close of my Court career.
+
+At St. James's all was graciousness; and my royal mistress gave
+me to understand she would have me stay to assist at her toilet
+after the Drawing-room; and much delighted me by desiring my
+attendance on the Thursday fortnight, when she came again to
+town.  This lightened the parting in the pleasantest manner
+possible.  When the queen commanded me to follow her to her
+closet I was, indeed, in much emotion; but I told her that, as
+what had passed from Mrs. Schwellenberg in the morning had given
+me to understand her majesty was fixed in her munificent
+intention, notwithstanding- what I had most unaffectedly urged
+against it--
+
+"Certainly," she interrupted, "I shall certainly do it."
+
+"Yet so little," I continued, "had I thought it right to dwell
+upon such an expectation, that, in the belief your majesty would
+yet take it into further consideration, I had not even written It
+to my father."
+
+"Your father," she again interrupted me, "has nothing to do with
+it; it is solely from me to you."
+
+"Let me then humbly entreat," I cried, "still in some measure to
+be considered as a servant of your majesty, either as reader, or
+to assist occasionally if Mlle. Jacobi should be ill."
+
+She looked most graciously pleased, and Immediately closed in
+with the proposal, saying, "When your health is restored,--
+perhaps sometimes."
+
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+
+I then fervently poured forth my thanks for all her goodness, and
+my prayers for her felicity.
+
+She had her handkerchief in her hand or at her eyes the whole
+time.  I was so much moved by her condescending kindness, that as
+soon as I got out of the closet I nearly sobbed.  I went to help
+Mlle. Jacobi to put up the jewels, that my emotion might the less
+be observed.  The king then came into the room.  He immediately
+advanced to the window, where I stood, to speak to me.  I was not
+then able to comport myself steadily.  I was forced to turn my
+head away from him.  He stood still and silent for some minutes,
+waiting to see if I should turn about; but I could not recover
+myself sufficiently to face him, strange as it was to do
+otherwise; and Perceiving me quite overcome he walked away, and I
+saw him no more.  His kindness, his goodness, his benignity,
+never shall I forget--never think of but with fresh gratitude and
+reverential affection.
+
+They were now all going--I took, for the last time, the cloak of
+the queen, and, putting It over her shoulders, slightly ventured
+to press them, earnestly, though in a low voice, saying, "God
+Almighty bless your majesty!"
+
+She turned round, and, putting her hand upon my ungloved arm,
+pressed it with the greatest kindness, and said, "May you be
+happy!"
+
+She left me overwhelmed with tender gratitude.
+
+The three eldest princesses were in the next room: they ran in to
+me the moment the queen went onward.  Princess Augusta and
+Princess Elizabeth each took a hand, and the princess royal put
+hers over them.  I could speak to none of them; but they
+repeated, "I wish you happy!--I wish you health!" again and
+again, with the Sweetest eagerness.
+
+They then set off for Kew.
+
+Here, therefore, end my Court annals; after having lived in the
+service of her majesty five years within ten days--from July 17,
+1786, to July 7, 1791.
+
+(333) By her "Visions" Fanny apparently means her desire of
+resigning her place at Court, and her hope of her father's
+concurrence.-ED.
+
+(334) i.e., Attempts to induce him to procure for sundry
+strangers some acquaintance with his daughter.-ED.
+
+(335) The Comtesse de Bouflers-Rouvrel and, probably, her
+daughter-in-law, the Comtesse Amélie de Bouflers.  Madame de
+Bouflers-Rouvrel was distinguished in Parisian society as a
+bel-esbrit, and corresponded for many years with Rousseau.  Left
+a widow in 1764, she became the mistress of the Prince de Conti.
+Her first visit to England was in 1763, when she was taken by
+Topham Beauclerk to see Dr. Johnson.  She revisited this country
+at the time of the emigration, but returning to France, was
+imprisoned by the Revolutionists.  The fall of Robespierre (July,
+1794) restored her to liberty.  Am6lie de Bouflers, less
+fortunate than her mother-in-law, perished by the guillotine,
+June 27, 1794.-ED.
+
+(336) But is it possible, sir, that your daughter has no
+holidays?
+
+
+(337)  Burke's speech, delivered February 9, in a debate on the
+army estimates, in which he took occasion to denounce, with great
+vehemence, the principles and conduct of the French Revolution,
+which he contrasted, much to its disadvantage, with the English
+Revolution of 1688.  "The French," he said, "had shown themselves
+the ablest architects of ruin that had hitherto appeared in the
+world." The sentiments uttered by Burke on this occasion
+delighted the ministerialists and friends of the Court as much as
+they dismayed his own party.  As the debate proceeded he found
+himself in the strange position of a chief of opposition enduring
+the compliments of the prime minister and the attacks of Fox and
+Sheridan, who took a broader and juster view of the great events
+in France, though condemning equally with Burke the Excesses of
+the Revolutionists. Fox declared His grief at hearing, "from the
+lips of a man whom he loved and revered," Sentiments "so hostile
+to the general principles of liberty." This speech of Burke's may
+be said to mark the commencement of that disagreement between
+himself and Fox, which culminated in the total breach of their
+friendship.-ED.
+
+(338) Dr. Burney was a member of this famous club, having been
+elected in 1784.  Mr. Windham had been a member since 1778.-ED.
+
+(339) "Reflections on the Revolution in France," published
+November 1, 1790.  it was received by the public with avidity,
+and went through eleven editions within a year-ED.
+
+(340) An allusion to the imperious interruption of the marriage
+of Cecilia, and young Delvile.  See "Cecilia," book vii., ch.
+7.-ED.
+
+(341) Some weeks later Fanny has the following allusion to the
+ball: "The Princess Mary chatted with me over her own adventures
+on the queen's birthday, when she first appeared at Court.  The
+history of her dancing at the ball, and the situation of her
+partner and brother, the Duke of Clarence, she spoke of with a
+sweet ingenuousness and artless openness which makes her very
+amiable character.  And not a little did I divert her when I
+related the duke's visit to our party!  'O,' cried she,  'he told
+me of it himself the next morning, and said, "You may think how
+far I was gone, for I kissed the Schwellenberg's hand!"'"-ED.
+
+(342) "On the evening of Saturday May 15 [1784), he [Dr. Johnson]
+was in fine spirits at our Essex Head Club.  He told us, 'I dined
+yesterday at Patrick's with Mrs. Carter, Miss Hannah More, and
+Fanny Burney.  Three such women are not to be found: I know not
+where I could find a fourth, except Mrs. Lennox, who is superior
+to them all.' " (Boswell.) This "occasional sally" cannot, of
+course, be taken as expressing Johnson's deliberate opinion of
+the relative merits of Fanny Burney and Mrs. Lenox.  He was an
+old friend of Charlotte Lenox, and had written in 1752 the
+dedication for her "Female Quixote," a novel of singular charm
+and humour, though scarcely to be placed on a par with "Evelina"
+or "Cecilia."-ED.
+
+(343) Fanny's successor in office.-ED.
+
+344) The old servant of Mrs. Delany.-ED.
+
+(345) Fanny's maid.-ED.
+
+
+
+
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+
+                                SECTION 18.
+                                 (1791-2.)
+
+
+                             REGAINED LIBERTY.
+
+
+[Fanny's rambling journey to the west with  Mrs. Ord was a
+pleasant restorative, to mind and body, and bore good fruit
+hereafter in the pages, of " The Wanderer."  At Bath, in the
+course of this journey, she formed an acquaintance equally
+interesting and unlooked-for.  It was certainly singular, to use
+her own words, "that the first visit I should make after leaving
+the queen should be to meet the head of the opposition public,
+the Duchess of Devonshire!"  The famous Whig duchess was then in
+her thirty-fifth year.   Fanny's description of her personal
+charms tallies exactly with the impression which we derive from
+her portraits by Reynolds and Gainsborough: that their celebrity
+was due rather to expressiveness and animation than to a
+countenance regularly beautiful.      But the charming duchess,
+like most other people, had a skeleton in her closet.
+Notwithstanding her high spirits, and "native. cheerfulness,"
+"she appeared to me not happy," writes our penetrating Diarist.
+What was the skeleton?  Not gambling debts, although the duchess
+followed the fashion of the day, and Sheridan declared that he
+had handed her into her carriage when she was literally sobbing
+at her losses. Fanny gives us a hint, slight but unmistakeable.
+At their first meeting the duchess was accompanied by another
+lady--a beautiful, alluring woman, with keen dark eyes, who
+smiled, some one said, "like Circe."  Lady Spencer introduced her
+daughter to Miss Burney with warm pleasure, and then, "slightly
+and as if unavoidably," named the beautiful enchantress--Lady
+Elizabeth Foster.  It is only necessary to add that in 1809, some
+three years after the death of his first wife, the Duchess
+Georgiana, the Duke of Devonshire married again, and his second
+wife was Lady Elizabeth Foster.-ED.]
+
+
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+
+                            RELEASED FROM DUTY.
+
+Chelsea College, July.-My dear father was waiting for me in my
+apartment at St. James's when their majesties and their fair
+royal daughters were gone.  He brought me home, and welcomed me
+most sweetly.  My heart was a little sad, in spite of its
+contentment.  My joy in quitting my place extended not to
+quitting the king and queen; and the final marks of their benign
+favour had deeply impressed me.  My mother received me according
+to my wishes, and Sarah Most cordially.
+
+My dear James and Charles speedily came to see me; and one
+precious half-day I was indulged with my kind Mr. Locke and his
+Fredy.  If i had been stouter and stronger in health, I should
+then have been almost flightily happy; but the Weakness of the
+frame still kept the rest in order.  My ever-kind Miss Cambridge
+was also amongst the foremost to hasten with congratulations on
+my return to my old ways and to make me promise to visit
+Twickenham after my projected tour with Mrs. Ord.
+
+I could myself undertake no visiting at this time; rest and quiet
+being quite essential to my recovery.  But my father did the
+honours for me amongst those who had been most interested in my
+resignation.  He called instantly upon Sir Joshua Reynolds and
+Miss Palmer, and Mr. Burke; and he wrote to Mr. Walpole, Mr.
+Seward, Mrs. Crewe, Mr. Windham, and my Worcester uncle.  Mr.
+Walpole wrote the most charming of answers, In the gallantry of
+the old Court, and with all its wit, concluding with a warm
+invitation to Strawberry Hill. Sir Joshua and Miss Palmer Sent me
+every species of kind exultation.  Mr. Burke was not in town.
+Mr. Seward wrote very heartily and cordially, and came also when
+my Susanna was here.  Mrs. Crewe immediately pressed me to come
+and recruit at Crewe Hall in Cheshire, where she promised me
+repose, and good air, and good society.
+
+
+                    A WESTERN JOURNEY: FARNHAM CASTLE.
+
+Sidmouth, Devonshire, Monday, Aug. 1.-I have now been a week out
+upon my travels, but have not had the means or the time, till
+this moment, to attempt their brief recital.
+
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+
+Mrs. Ord called for me about ten in the morning.  I left my
+dearest father with the less regret, as his own journey to Mrs.
+crewe was very soon to take place.  It was a terribly rainy
+morning, but I was eager not to postpone the excursion.  As we
+travelled on towards Staines, I could scarcely divest myself of
+the idea that I was but making again my usual journey to Windsor;
+and I could with difficulty forbear calling Mrs. Ord Miss Planta
+during the whole of that well-known road.  I did not, indeed,
+take her maid, who was our third in the coach, for Mr. de Luc, or
+Mr. Turbulent; but the place she occupied made me think much more
+of those I so long had had for my vis-`a-vis than of herself.
+
+We went on no farther than to Bagshot: thirty miles was the
+extremity of our powers; but I bore them very tolerably, though
+variably.  We put up at the best inn, very early, and then
+inquired what we could see In the town and neighbourhood.
+"Nothing!" was the concise answer of a staring maid.  We
+determined, therefore, to prowl to the churchyard, and read the
+tombstone inscriptions: but when we asked the way, the same
+woman, staring still more wonderingly, exclaimed, "Church!
+There's no church nigh here!--There's the Prince Of Wales'S, just
+past the turning.  You may go and see that, if you will."
+
+So on we walked towards this hunting Villa: but after toiling up
+a long unweeded avenue, we had no sooner opened the gate to the
+parks than a few score of dogs, which were lying in ambush, Set
+Up so prodigious a variety of magnificent barkings, springing
+forward at the same time, that, content with having caught a
+brief view of the seat, we left them to lord it over the domain
+they regarded as their own, and, with all due Submission, pretty
+hastily shut the gate, without troubling them to give us another
+salute.  We returned to the inn, and read B---'s "Lives of the
+Family of the Boyles."
+
+Aug. 2.-We proceeded to Farnham to breakfast, and thence walked
+to the castle.  The Bishop of Winchester, Mrs. North.  and the
+whole family are gone abroad.  The castle is a good old building,
+with as much of modern elegance and fashion intermixed in its
+alterations and fitting up as Mrs. North could possibly contrive
+to weave into its ancient grandeur. . . . I wished I could have
+climbed to the top of an old tower, much out of repair, but so
+high, that I fancied I could thence have espied the hills of
+Norrbury.  However, I was ready to fall already, from only
+ascending the slope to reach the castle.
+
+
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+
+                       A PARTY OF FRENCH FUGITIVES.
+
+We arrived early at Winchester; but the town was so full, as the
+judges were expected next morning, that we could only get one
+bed-chamber, in which Mrs. Ord, her maid, and myself reposed.
+
+just after we had been obliged to content ourselves with this
+scanty accommodation, we saw a very handsome coach and four
+horses, followed by a chaise and outriders, stop at the gate, and
+heard the mistress of the house declare she- could not receive
+the company; and the postilions, at the same time, protested the
+horses could go no farther.  They inquired for fresh horses;
+there were none to be had in the whole city; and the party were
+all forced to remain in their carriages, without horses, at the
+inn-gate, for the chance of what might pass on the road.  We
+asked who they were, and our pity was doubled in finding them
+foreigners.
+
+We strolled about the upper part of the city, leaving the
+cathedral for the next morning.  We saw a large, uniform,
+handsome palace, which is called by the inhabitants "The king's
+house," and which was begun by Charles II.  We did not,
+therefore, expect the elegant architecture of his father's days.
+One part, they particularly told us, was designed for Nell Gwynn.
+It was never finished, and neglect has taken place of time in
+rendering it a most ruined structure, though, as it bears no
+marks of antiquity, it has rather the appearance of owing its
+destruction to a fire than to the natural decay of age.  It is so
+spacious, however, and stands so magnificently to overlook the
+city, that I wish it to be completed for an hospital or
+infirmary.  I have written Mrs. Schwellenberg an account of its
+appearance and state, which I am sure will be read by her
+majesty.
+
+When we returned to the Inn, still the poor travellers were in
+the same situation: they looked so desolate, and could so
+indifferently make themselves understood, that Mrs. Ord good-
+naturedly invited them to drink tea with us.  They most
+thankfully accepted the offer, and two ladies and two gentlemen
+ascended the stairs with us to our dining-room.  The chaise had
+the female servants.
+
+The elder lady was so truly French--so vive and so triste in
+turn--that she seemed formed from the written character of a
+Frenchwoman, such, at least, as we English write them.  She was
+very forlorn in her air, and very sorrowful in her counte-
+
+
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+
+nance; yet all action and gesture, and of an animation when
+speaking nearly fiery in its vivacity: neither pretty nor young,
+but neither ugly nor old; and her smile, which was rare, had a
+finesse very engaging; while her whole demeanour announced a
+person Of consequence, and all her discourse told that she was
+well-informed, well-educated, and well-bred.
+
+The other lady, whom they called mademoiselle, as the first
+madame, was young, dark but clear and bright in her eyes and
+complexion, though without good features, or a manner of equal
+interest with the lady she accompanied.  She proved, however,
+sensible, and seemed happy in the general novelty around her.
+She spoke English pretty well, and was admired without mercy by
+the rest of the party, as a perfect mistress of the language.
+The madame spoke it very ill indeed, but pleasantly.
+
+Of the two gentlemen, one they called only monsieur, and the
+other the madame addressed as her brother.  The monsieur was
+handsome, rather tonnish, and of the high haughty ton, and seemed
+the devoted attendant or protector of the madame, who sometimes
+spoke to him almost with asperity, from eagerness, and a tinge of
+wretchedness and impatience, which coloured all she said; and, at
+other times, softened off her vehemence with a smile the most
+expressive, and which made its way to the mind immediately, by
+coming with sense and meaning, and not merely from good humour
+and good spirits as the more frequent smiles of happier persons.
+The brother seemed lively and obliging, and entirely at the
+devotion of his sister, who gave him her commands with an
+authority that would not have brooked dispute.
+
+They told us they were just come from Southampton, which they had
+visited in their way from viewing the fleet at the Isle of Wight
+and Portsmouth, and they meant to go on now to Bath.
+
+We soon found they were aristocrats, which did better for them
+with Mrs. Ord and me than it would have done with you republicans
+of Norbury and Mickleham; yet I wish you had all met the madame,
+and heard her Indignant unhappiness.  They had been in England
+but two months.  They all evidently belonged to madame, who
+appeared to me a fugitive just before the flight of the French
+king,(346) or in consequence of his having been taken.
+
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+
+She entered upon her wretched situation very soon, lamenting that
+he was, in fact, no king, and bewailing his want of courage for
+his trials.  the queen she never mentioned.  She spoke once or
+twice of son mari, but did not say who or what he was, nor where.
+
+"They say," she cried, "In France they have now liberty! Who has
+liberty, le peuple, or the mob?  Not les honn`etes gens; for
+those whose principles are known to be aristocratic must fly, or
+endure every danger and indignity.  Ah! est-ce l`a la libert`e?"
+
+The monsieur said he had always been the friend of liberty, such
+as it was in England; but in France it was general tyranny.
+"In England," he cried, "he was a true democrat, though bien
+aristocrate in France."
+
+"At least," said the poor madame, "formerly, in all the sorrows
+of life, we had nos terres to which we could retire, and there
+forget them, and dance, and sing, and laugh, and fling them all
+aside, till forced back to Paris.  But now our villas are no
+protection: we may be safe, but the first offence conceived by le
+peuple is certain destruction; and, without a moment's warning,
+we may be forced to fly our own roofs, and see them and all we
+are worth burnt before our eyes in horrible triumph."
+
+This was all said in French.  But the anguish of her Countenance
+filled me with compassion, though it was scarcely possible to
+restrain a smile when, the moment after, she" said she Might be
+very wrong, but she hoped I would forgive her if she owned she
+preferred Paris incomparably to London and pitied me very
+unreservedly for never having seen that first of cities.
+
+Her sole hope, she said, for the overthrow of that anarchy in
+which the Unguarded laxity of the king had plunged the first
+Country in the world,--vous me pardonnec, Mademoiselle,--was now
+from the German princes, who, she flattered herself, Would rise
+In their own defence.
+
+She told me, the next moment, of les spectacles I should find at
+Southampton, and asked me what she might expect at Bath of public
+amusement and buildings.
+
+I was travelling I said, for my health, and Should visit no
+theatres, ball-rooms, etc., and could recommend none.
+
+She did not seem to comprehend me; yet, in the midst of
+
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+
+naming these places, she sighed as deeply from the bottom of her
+heart as if she had been forswearing the world for ever in
+despair.  But it was necessary, , she said, when unhappy, to go
+abroad the more, pour se distraire.  In parting, they desired
+much to renew acquaintance with us when we returned to London.
+Mrs. Ord gave her direction to the monsieur, who in return, wrote
+theirs--"The French ladies, NO. 30, Gerrard-street, Soho."
+
+They stayed till our early hour Of retiring made Mrs. Ord suffer
+them to go.  I was uneasy to know what would become of them.  I
+inquired of a waiter: he unfeelingly laughed, and said, "O! they
+do well enough; they've got a room."  I asked if he could yet let
+them have beds to stay, or horses to proceed?  "No," answered he,
+sneeringly: "but it don't matter for, now they've got a room,
+they are as merry and capering as if they were going to dance."
+
+just after this, Mrs. Stephenson, Mrs. Ord's maid, came running
+in.  "La! ma'am," she cried, "I've been so frightened, you can't
+think: the French folks sent for me on purpose, to ask t'other
+lady's name, they said, and they had asked William before, so
+they knew it; but they said I must write it down, and where she
+lived; so I was forced to write, 'Miss Burney, Chelsea,' and they
+fell a smiling so at one another."
+
+'Twas impossible to help laughing; but we desired her, in return,
+to send for one of their maids and ask their names also.  She
+came back, and said she could not understand the maids, and so
+they had called one of the gentlemen, and he had written down
+"Madame la Comtesse de Menage, et Mlle. de Beaufort."
+
+We found, afterwards, they had sat up till two in the morning,
+and then procured horses and journeyed towards Oxford.
+
+                           WINCHESTER CATHEDRAL.
+
+Aug. 3.-We walked to the cathedral, and saw it completely.  Part
+of it remains from the original Saxon building, though neglected,
+except by travellers, as the rest of the church is ample for all
+uses, and alone kept in repair.  The bones of eleven Saxon kings
+are lodged in seven curious old chests, in which they were
+deposited after being dug up and disturbed in the civil wars and
+ensuing confusions.  The small number of chests is owing to the
+small proportion remaining of some of the skeletons, which
+occasioned their being united with others.
+
+
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+The Saxon characters are in many inscriptions preserved, though
+in none entire.  They were washing a plaster from the walls, to
+discern some curious old painting, very miserable, but very
+entertaining, of old legends, which some antiquaries are now
+endeavouring to discover.
+
+William of Wykham, by whom the cathedral was built in its present
+form, lies buried, with his effigy and whole monument in very
+fine alabaster, and probably very like, as it was done, they
+aver, before he died.  Its companion, equally superb, is Cardinal
+Beaufort, uncle of Harry VI.  William Rufus, slain in the
+neighbouring forest, is buried in the old choir: his monument is
+of plain stone, without any inscription or ornament, and only
+shaped like a coffin.  Hardyknute had a much more splendid
+monument preserved for him; but Harry I. had other business to
+attend, I presume, than to decorate the tomb of one brother while
+despoiling of his kingdom another.  An extremely curious old
+chapel and monument remain of Archbishop Langton, of valuable
+gothic workmanship.  The altar, which is highly adorned with
+gold, was protected in Cromwell's time by the address and skill
+of the Winton inhabitants, who ran up a slight wall before it,
+and deceived the reformists, soi-disants.  I could hardly quit
+this poor dear old building, so much I was interested with its
+Saxon chiefs, its little queer niches, quaint images, damp cells,
+mouldering walls, and mildewed pillars.  One chest contains the
+bones entire of Egbert, our first king.  Edred, also.  I
+distinguished.
+
+The screen was given to this church by King Charles, and is the
+work of Inigo Jones.  It is very simple in point of ornament,
+very complete in taste and elegance; nevertheless, a screen of
+Grecian architecture in a cathedral of gothic workmanship was
+ill, I think, imagined.
+
+
+                   STONEHENGE, WILTON, AND MILTON ABBEY.
+
+Aug. 5.-We went to Stonehenge.  Here I was prodigiously
+disappointed, at first, by the huge masses of stone so
+unaccountably piled at the summit of Salisbury Plain.  However,
+we alighted, and the longer I surveyed and considered them, the
+more augmented my wonder and diminished my disappointment.
+
+We then went on to Wilton, where I renewed my delight over the
+exquisite Vandykes, and with the statues, busts, and pictures,
+which again I sighingly quitted, with a longing wish
+
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+
+I might ever pass under that roof time enough to see them more
+deliberately.  We stopped in the Hans Holbein Porch, and upon the
+Inigo Jones bridge, as long as we Could stand, after standing and
+staring and straining our eyes till our guide was quite fatigued.
+'Tis a noble collection; and how might it be enjoyed if, as an
+arch rustic Old labouring man told u, fine folks lived as they
+ought to do!
+
+Sunday, Aug. 7.-After an early dinner we set off for Milton
+Abbey, the seat of Lord Milton, partly constructed from the old
+abbey and partly new.  There is a magnificent gothic hall in
+excellent preservation, of evident Saxon workmanship, and
+extremely handsome, though not of the airy beauty of the chapel.
+The situation of this abbey is truly delicious: it is in a vale
+of extreme fertility and richness, surrounded by hills of the
+most exquisite form, and mostly covered with hanging woods, but
+so varied in their growth and groups, that the eye is perpetually
+fresh caught with objects of admiration.  'Tis truly a lovely
+place.
+
+
+                            LYME AND SIDMOUTH.
+
+Aug. 8.-We proceeded to Bridport, a remarkably clean town, with
+the air so clear and pure, it seemed a new climate.  Hence we set
+out, after dinner, for Lyme, and the road through which we
+travelled is the most beautiful to which my wandering destinies
+have yet sent me.  It is diversified with all that can compose
+luxuriant scenery, and with just as much of the approach to
+sublime as is in the province of unterrific beauty.  The hills
+are the highest, I fancy, in the south of this county--the
+boldest and noblest; the vales of the finest verdure, wooded and
+watered as if only to give ideas of finished landscapes; while
+the whole, from time to time, rises into still superior grandeur,
+by openings between the heights that terminate the View With the
+Splendour of the British channel.
+
+There was no going on in the carriage through such enchanting
+scenes; we got out upon the hills, and walked till we could walk
+no longer.  The descent down to Lyme is uncommonly steep; and
+indeed is very striking, from the magnificence of the ocean that
+washes its borders.  Chidiock and Charmouth, two villages between
+Bridport and Lyme, are the very prettiest I have ever seen.
+During the whole of this post I was fairly taken away, not only
+from the world but from myself, and completely wrapped up and
+engrossed by the
+
+
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+
+pleasures, wonders, and charms of animated nature, thus seen in
+fair perfection.  Lyme.  however, brought me to myself; for the
+part by the sea, where we fixed our abode, was so dirty and fishy
+that I rejoiced when we left it.
+
+Aug. 9.- We travelled to Sidmouth.  And here we have taken up our
+abode for a week.  It was all devoted to rest and sea-air.
+
+Sidmouth is built in a vale by the sea-coast, and the terrace for
+company is nearer to the ocean than any I have elsewhere seen,
+and therefore both more pleasant and more commodious.  The little
+bay is of a most peaceful kind, and the sea was as calm and
+gentle as the Thames.  I longed to bathe, but I am in no state
+now to take liberties with myself, and, having no advice at hand,
+I ran no risk.
+
+
+
+                             SIDMOUTH LOYALTY.
+
+Nothing has given me so much pleasure since I came to this place
+as our landlady's account of her own and her town's loyalty.  She
+is a baker, a poor widow woman, she told us, who lost her husband
+by his fright in thinking he saw a ghost, just after her mother
+was drowned.  She carries on the business, with the help of her
+daughter, a girl about fifteen.
+
+I inquired of her if she had seen the royal family when they
+visited Devonshire?  "Yes, sure, ma'am!" she cried; there was
+ne'er a soul left in all this place for going Out to See 'em.  My
+daughter and I rode a double horse, and we went to Sir George
+Young's, and got into the park, for we knew the housekeeper, and
+she gave my daughter a bit to taste of the king's dinner when
+they had all done, and she said she might talk on it when she was
+a old woman."
+
+I asked another good woman, who came in for some flour, if she
+had been of the party?  "No," she said, "she was ill, but she had
+had holiday enough upon the king's recovery, for there was such a
+holiday then as the like was not in all England."
+
+"Yes, sure, ma'am," cried the poor baker-woman, "we all did our
+best then for there was ne'er a town in all England like Sidmouth
+for rejoicing.  Why, I baked a hundred and ten penny loaves for
+the poor, and so did every baker in town, and there's three, and
+the gentry subscribed for it.  And the gentry roasted a bullock
+and cut it all up, and we all eat it, in the midst of the
+rejoicing.  And then we had such a fine
+
+
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+sermon, it made us all cry; there was a more tears shed than ever
+was known, all for over-joy.  And they had the king drawed, and
+dressed up all in gold and laurels, and they put un in a coach
+and eight horses, and carried un about; and all the grand
+gentlemen in the town, and all abouts, come in their own
+carriages to join.  And they had the finest band of music in all
+England singing 'God save the king,' and every Soul joined in the
+chorus, and all not so much because he was a king, but because
+they said a was such a worthy gentleman, and that the like of him
+was never known in this nation before: so we all subscribed for
+the illuminations for that reason, some a shilling, some a
+guinea, and some a penny,--for no one begrudged it, as a was such
+a worthy person."
+
+This good Mrs. Dare has purchased images of all the royal family,
+in her great zeal, and I had them in my apartment--King, Queen,
+Prince of Wales, Dukes of York, Clarence, Kent, Sussex,
+Cumberland, and Cambridge; Princess Royal, and Princesses
+Augusta, Eliza, Mary, Sophia, and Amelia, God bless them all!
+
+
+                  POWDERHAM CASTLE AND COLLUMPTON CHURCH.
+
+Aug. 16.-We quitted Sidmouth, and proceeded through the finest
+country possible to Exmouth, to see that celebrated spot of
+beauty.  The next morning we crossed the Ex and visited Powderham
+Castle.  Its appearance, noble and antique without, loses all
+that character from French finery and minute elegance and gay
+trappings within.  The present owner, Lord Courtney, has fitted
+it up in the true Gallic taste, and every room has the air of
+being ornamented for a gala.  The housekeeper did not let us see
+half the castle; she only took us to those rooms which the
+present lord has modernized and fitted up in the sumptuous French
+taste ; the old part of the castle she doubtless thought would
+disgrace him; forgetting or rather never knowing--that the old
+part alone was worth a traveller's curiosity, since the rest
+might be anticipated by a visit to any celebrated cabinet-maker.
+
+Thence we proceeded to Star Cross to dine; and saw on the
+opposite coast the house Of Sir Francis Drake, which was built by
+his famous ancestor.  Here we saw a sight that reminded me of the
+drawings of Webber from the South Sea Isles; women scarce clothed
+at all, with feet and legs entirely naked, straw bonnets of
+uncouth Shapes tied on their heads, a
+
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+sort of man's jacket on their bodies, and their short coats
+pinned up in the form of concise trousers, very succinct! and a
+basket on each arm, strolling along with wide mannish strides to
+the borders of the river, gathering cockles.  They looked,
+indeed, miserable and savage.
+
+Hence we went, through very beautiful roads, to Exeter.  That
+great old city is too narrow, too populous, too dirty, and too
+ill-paved, to meet with my applause.  Next morning we breakfasted
+at Collumpton, and visited its church.  Here we saw the remains
+of a once extremely rich gothic structure, though never large.
+There is all the appearance of its having been the church of an
+abbey before the Reformation.  It is situated in a deep but most
+fertile vale; its ornaments still retain so much of gilding,
+painting, and antique splendour, as could never have belonged to
+a mere country church.  The wood carving, too, though in ruins,
+is most laboriously well done; the roof worked in blue and gold,
+lighter, but in the style of the royal chapel at St. James's.We
+were quite    surprised to find such a structure in a town so
+little known or named.  One aisle was added by a clothier of the
+town in             the reign of Edward VI.; probably upon its
+first being used as a protestant and public place of worship.
+This is still perfect, but very clumsy and inelegant compared
+with the ancient part.  The man,  to show he   gloried in the
+honest profession whence he derived wealth for this good purpose,
+has his arms at one corner, with his name, J.  Lane, in gothic
+characters, and on the opposite corner his image, terribly worked
+in the wall, with a pair of shears in one hand, so large as to
+cut across the figure downwards almost obscuring all but his
+feet.  Till the cicerone explained this, I took the idea for a
+design of Death, placed where most conspicuously he might show
+himself, ready to cut in two the poor objects that entered the
+church.
+
+
+                            GLASTONBURY ABBEY.
+
+Aug. 19.-To vary the scenery we breakfasted at Bridgewater, in as
+much dirt and noise, from the judges filling the town, as at
+Taunton we had enjoyed neatness and quiet.  We walked beside the
+river, which is navigable from the Bristol channel ; and a stream
+more muddy, and a quay more dirty and tarry and pitchy, I would
+not covet to visit again.  It is here called the Perrot.
+
+
+Thence, however, we proceeded to what made amends
+
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+
+all--the ruins of Glastonbury Abbey.  These are the most elegant
+remains of monkish grandeur I have ever chanced to see,--the
+forms, designs, ornaments,---all that is left is in the highest
+perfection of gothic beauty.  Five hundred souls, the people told
+us, were supported in this abbey and its cloisters.
+
+A chapel of Joseph of Arimathea has the outworks nearly entire,
+and I was quite bewitched with their antique beauty.  But the
+entrance into the main front of the abbey is stupendous; its
+height is such that the eye aches to look up at it, though it is
+now curtailed, by no part of its arch remaining except the first
+inclination towards that form, which shows it to have been the
+entrance.  Not a bit of roof remains in any part.  All the
+monuments that Were not utterly decayed or destroyed have been
+removed to Wells.  Mere walls alone are left here, except the
+monks' kitchen.  This is truly curious: it is a circular
+building, with a dome as high--higher I fancy--than the
+Pantheon's; four immense fireplaces divide it Into four parts at
+the bottom, and an oven still is visible.  One statue is left in
+one niche, which the people about said was of the abbot's chief
+cook!
+
+If this monastery was built by the famous old cruel hypocrite
+abbot, Dunstan, I shall grieve so much taste was bestowed on such
+a wretch.(347)  We had only labourers for our informants.  But
+one boy was worth hearing: he told me there was a well of
+prodigious depth, which he showed me, and this well had long been
+dried up, and so covered over as to be forgotten, till his
+grandfather dreamed a dream that the water of this well would
+restore him from a bad state of health to good; so he dug, and
+the well was found, and he drank the water and was cured!  And
+since then the poor came from all parts who were afflicted with
+diseases, and drank the water and were cured.  One woman was now
+at Glastonbury to try it, and already almost well!  What strange
+inventions and superstitions even the ruins of what had belonged
+to St. Dunstan can yet engender!  The Glastonbury thorn we forgot
+to ask for.
+
+
+                             WELLS CATHEDRAL.
+
+Hence we proceeded to Wells.  Here we waited, as usual, upon the
+cathedral, which received our compliments with but
+
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+small return of civility.  There was little to be seen without,
+except old monuments of old abbots removed from Glastonbury, so
+inferior in workmanship and design to the abbey once containing
+them, that I was rather displeased than gratified
+by the sight.  They have also a famous clock, brought from the
+abbey at Its general demolition.  This exhibits a set of horses
+with riders, who curvet a dance round a bell by the pulling a
+string, with an agility comic enough, and fitted to serve for a
+puppet-show; which, in all probability, was its design, in order
+to recreate the poor monks at their hours of play.
+
+There is also a figure of St. Dunstan, who regularly strikes the
+quarters of every hour by clock-work, and who holds in his hand a
+pair of tongs--the same I suppose as those with which he was wont
+to pull the devil by the nose, in their nocturnal interviews.
+
+The old castle of Wells is now the palace for the bishop.  It is
+moated still, and looks dreary, Secluded, and in the bad old
+style.
+
+At night, upon a deeply deliberate investigation in the medical
+way, it was suddenly resolved that we should proceed to Bath
+instead of Bristol, and that I should try there first the stream
+of King BladUd.  So now, at this moment, here we are.
+
+
+BATH REVISITED.
+
+Queen Square, Bath, Aug. 20.--Bath is extremely altered since
+I last visited it.  Its circumference is perhaps trebled but its
+buildings are so unfinished, so spread, so everywhere beginning
+and nowhere ending, that it looks rather like a space of ground
+lately fixed upon for erecting a town, than a town itself, of so
+many years' duration.  It is beautiful and wonderful throughout.
+The hills are built up and down, and the vales so stocked with
+streets and houses, that, in some places, from the ground-floor
+on one side a street, you cross over to the attic of your
+opposite neighbour.  The white stone, where clean, has a
+beautiful effect, and, even where worn, a grand one.  But I must
+not write a literal Bath guide, and a figurative one Anstey (348)
+has all to himself.  I will only tell you in brief, yet in truth,
+it looks a city of palaces, a town of hills, and a hill of towns.
+
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+
+O how have I thought, in patrolling it, Of my poor Mrs, Thrale!
+I went to look (and sigh at the sight) at the house on the North
+parade where we dwelt, and almost every Old place brings to my
+mind some scene in which we were engaged.  Besides the constant
+sadness of all recollections that bring fresh to my thoughts a
+breach with a friend once so loved, how are most of the families
+altered and dispersed in these absent ten Years!  From Mrs.
+Montagu's, Miss Gregory by a marriage disapproved, is removed for
+ever; from Mrs. Cholmley's, by the severer blow of death, Lady
+Mulgrave is separated; Mrs. Lambart, by the same blow, has lost
+the brother, Sir Philip Clerke, who brought us to her
+acquaintance; Mr. Bowdler and his excellent eldest daughter have
+yielded to the same stroke; Mrs. Byron has followed.  Miss Leigh
+has been married and widowed; Lord Mulgrave has had the same hard
+lot; and, besides these, Mrs. Cotton, Mrs. Thrale's aunt, Lady
+Miller, and Mr. Thrale himself, are no more.
+
+
+                        A VISIT FROM LADY SPENCER.
+
+Aug. 31.-I found I had no acquaintance here, except Mr.
+Harrington, who is ill, Mrs. Hartley, who is too lame for
+visiting, and the Vanbrughs; and though Mrs. Ord, from her
+frequent residence here, knows many of the settled inhabitants,
+she has kindly complied with my request of being dispensed from
+making new visits.
+
+Soon after we came, while I was finishing some letters, and quite
+alone, Mrs. Ord's servant brought me word Lady Spencer would ask
+me how I did, if I was well enough to receive her.  Of course I
+begged she might come up-stairs.  I have met her two or three
+times at my dearest Mrs. Delany's, where I met, also, with marked
+civilities from her.  I knew she was here, with her unhappy
+daughter,--Lady Duncannon,(349) whom she assiduously nurses,
+aided by her more celebrated other daughter, the Duchess of
+Devonshire.
+
+She made a very flattering apology for coming, and then began to
+converse upon my beloved Mrs. Delany, and thence to subjects more
+general.  She is a sensible and sagacious character, intelligent,
+polite, and agreeable, and she spends her life in such exercises
+of active charity and zeal, that she
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+
+would be one of the most exemplary women of rank of the age, had
+she less of show in her exertions, and more of forbearance in
+publishing them.  My dear oracle, however, once said, vainglory
+must not be despised or discouraged, when it operated but as a
+human engine for great or good deeds.
+
+She spoke of Lady Duncannon's situation with much sorrow, and
+expatiated upon her resignation to her fate, her prepared state
+for death, and the excellence of her principles, with an
+eagerness and feeling that quite overwhelmed me with surprise and
+embarrassment.  Her other daughter she did not mention; but her
+grand-daughter, Lady Georgiana Cavendish, she spoke of with
+rapture.  Miss Trimmer, also, the eldest daughter of the
+exceeding worthy Mrs. Trimmer, she named with a regard that
+seemed quite affectionate.  She told me she had the care of the
+young Lady Cavendishes, but was in every respect treated as if
+one of themselves.
+
+
+                           BATH SUNDAY SCHOOLS.
+
+The name of Mrs. Trimmer led us to talk of the Sunday schools and
+Schools of Industry.  They are both in a very flourishing state
+at Bath, and Lady Spencer has taken one school under her own
+immediate patronage.  The next day, of course, I waited on her -
+she was out.  But the following day, which was Sunday,, she sent
+me a message up-stairs to say she would take me to see the
+Sunday-school, if I felt well enough to desire it.  She waited
+below for my answer, which, of course, I carried down in my
+proper person, ready hatted and cloaked.
+
+It was a most interesting sight.  Such a number of poor innocent
+children, all put into a way of right, most taken immediately
+from every way of wrong, lifting Up their little hands, and
+joining in those prayers and supplications for mercy and grace,
+which, even if they understand not, must at least impress them
+with a general idea of religion, a dread of evil, and a love of
+good ; it was, indeed, a sight to expand the best hopes of the
+heart.
+
+I felt very much obliged to my noble conductress, with whom I had
+much talk upon the subject in our walk back.  Her own little
+school, of course, engaged us the most.  She told me that the
+next day six of her little girls were to be new clothed, by
+herself, in honour of the birthday of the Duke of Devonshire's
+second daughter, Lady Harriot Cavendish, who
+
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+
+was to come to her grandmamma's house to see the
+ceremony.  To this sight she also Invited me, and I accepted her
+kindness with pleasure.
+
+The following day, therefore, Monday, I obeyed Lady Spencer's
+time, and at six o'clock was at her house in Gay-street.  Lady
+Spencer had Mrs. Mary Pointz and Miss Trimmer with her; and the
+six children, just prepared for Lady Harriot, in their new gowns,
+were dismissed from their examination, upon my arrival, and sent
+down-stairs to Wait the coming of her little ladyship, who,
+having dined with her mamma, was later than her appointment.
+
+Lady Georgiana is just eight Years old.  She has a fine,
+animated, sweet, and handsome countenance, and the form and
+figure of a girl of ten or twelve years of age.  Lady Harriot,
+who this day was six Years old, is by no means so handsome, but
+has an open and pleasing countenance, and a look of the most
+happy disposition.  Lady Spencer brought her to me immediately.
+I inquired after the young Marquis of Hartington.  Lady Spencer
+told me they never trusted him from the Upper walks, near his
+house, in Marlborough-buildings.  He has a house of his own near
+the duke's, and a carriage entirely to himself; but YOU will see
+the necessity of these appropriations, when I remind You he is
+now fourteen months old.
+
+Lady Spencer had now a lottery--without blanks, you Will suppose-
+-of playthings and toys for the children.  She distributed the
+prizes, and Lady Duncannon held the tickets.  During this entered
+Lord Spencer, the son of Lady Spencer, who was here only for
+three days, to see his sister Duncannon.  They had all dined with
+the little Lady Harriot.  The duke is now at Chatsworth, in
+Derbyshire.
+
+I thought of Lord Spencer's kindness to Charles, and I
+recollected he was a favourite of Mr. Windham.  I saw him,
+therefore, with very different ideas to those raised by the sight
+of his poor sister Duncannon, to whom he made up with every mark
+of pitying affection; she, meanwhile, receiving him with the most
+expressive pleasure, though nearly silent.  I could not help
+feeling touched, in defiance of all obstacles.
+
+Presently followed two ladies.  Lady Spencer, with a look and
+manner warmly announcing pleasure in what she was doing, then
+introduced me to the first of them, saying, "Duchess of
+Devonshire, Miss Burney."
+
+She made me a very civil compliment upon hoping my
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+
+health was recovering, and Lady Spencer then, shortly, and as if
+unavoidably, said, "Lady Elizabeth Foster."
+
+I have neglected to mention, in its place, that the six poor
+little girls had a repast in the garden, and Lady Georgiana
+earnestly begged leave to go down and see and speak with them.
+She applied to Lady Spencer.  "O grandmamma," she cried, "pray
+let me go!  Mamma says it all depends upon you."  The duchess
+expressed some fear lest there might be any illness or disorder
+among the poor things: Lady Spencer answered for them; and Lady
+Georgiana, with a sweet delight, flew down into the garden, all
+the rest accompanying, and Lady Spencer and the duchess soon
+following.  It was a beautiful sight, taken in all its
+dependencies, from the windows.  Lord Spencer presently joined
+them,
+
+
+                     GEORGIANA, DUCHESS OF DEVONSHIRE
+
+To return to the duchess.  I did not find so much beauty in her
+as I expected, notwithstanding the variations of accounts; but I
+found far more of manner, politeness, and gentle quiet.  She
+seems by nature to possess the highest animal spirits, but she
+appeared to me not happy.  I thought she looked oppressed within,
+though there is a native cheerfulness about her which I fancy
+scarce ever deserts her.  There is in her face, especially when
+she speaks, a sweetness of good-humour and obligingness, that
+seem to be the natural and instinctive qualities of her
+disposition; joined to an openness of countenance that announces
+her endowed, by nature, with a character intended wholly for
+honesty, fairness, and good purposes.
+
+She now conversed with me wholly, and in so soberly sensible and
+quiet a manner, as I had imagined incompatible with her powers.
+Too much and too little credit have variously been given her.
+About me and my health she was more civil than I can well tell
+you; not from prudery--I have none, in these records, methinks!-
+-but from its being mixed into all that passed.  We talked over
+my late tour, Bath waters, and the king's illness.  This, which
+was led to by accident, was here a tender Subject, considering
+her heading the Regency squadron; however, I have only one line
+to pursue, and from that I can never vary.  I spoke of my own
+deep distress from his sufferings without reserve, and of the
+distress of the queen with the most avowed compassion and
+respect.  She was extremely well-bred in all she said herself,
+and seemed willing
+
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+
+to keep up the subject.  I fancy no one has just in the same way
+treated it with her grace before; however, she took all in good
+part, though to have found me retired in discontent had perhaps
+been more congenial to her.  But I have been sedulous to make
+them all know the contrary.  Nevertheless, as I am eager to be
+considered apart from all party, I was much pleased, after all
+this, to have her express herself very desirous to keep up Our
+acquaintance, ask many questions as to the chance of my remaining
+in Bath, most politely hope to profit from it, and, finally,
+inquire my direction.
+
+Lady Elizabeth (Foster] has the character of being so alluring
+that Mrs. Holroyd told me it was the opinion Of Mr. Gibbon no man
+could withstand her, and that, if she chose to beckon the lord
+chancellor from his woolsack, in full sight of the world, he
+could not resist obedience!(350)
+
+
+                               BISHOP PERCY.
+
+Not long after our settling at Bath, I found, upon returning from
+the Pump-room, cards left for me of the Bishop of Dromore (Dr.
+Percy), Mrs. and the Miss Percys.  I had met them formerly once
+at Miss Reynolds's, and once Visited them when Dr. Percy was Dean
+of Carlisle.  The collector and editor of the beautiful reliques
+of ancient English poetry, I could not but be happy to again see.
+I returned the visit: they were out; but the bishop soon after
+came when I was at home.  I had a pleasant little chat with him.
+The bishop is perfectly easy and unassuming, very communicative,
+and, though not very entertaining because too prolix, he is
+otherwise intelligent and of good commerce.  Mrs. Percy is ill,
+and cannot make visits, though she sends her name and receives
+company at home.  She is very uncultivated and ordinary in
+manners and conversation, but a good creature and much delighted
+to talk over the royal family, to one of whom she was formerly a
+nurse.
+
+
+                     THE DUCHESS OF DEVONSHIRE AGAIN.
+
+Three days before we left Bath, as I was coming with Mrs. Ord
+from the Pump-room, we encountered a chair from
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+
+which a lady repeatedly kissed her hand and bowed to me.  I was
+too nearsighted to distinguish who she was, till, coming close,
+and a little stopped by more people, she put her face to the
+glass, and said "How d'ye do?  How d'ye do?" and I recollected
+the Duchess of Devonshire.
+
+
+About an hour after I had again the honour of a visit from her,
+and with Lady dowager Spencer.  I was luckily at home alone, Mrs
+Ord having dedicated the rest of the morning to her own visits.
+I received them, therefore, with great pleasure.  I now saw the
+duchess far more easy and lively in her spirits, and,
+consequently, far more lovely in her person.  Vivacity is so much
+her characteristic, that her style of beauty requires it
+indispensably; the beauty, indeed, dies away without it.  I now
+saw how her fame for personal charms had been obtained; the
+expression of her smiles is so very sweet, and has an
+ingenuousness and openness so singular, that, taken in those
+moments, not the most rigid critic could deny the justice of her
+personal celebrity.  She was quite gay, easy, and charming:
+indeed, that last epithet might have been coined for her.
+
+This has certainly been a singular acquaintance for me that the
+first visit I should make after leaving the queen should be to
+meet the head of the opposition public, the Duchess of
+Devonshire!
+
+
+    DR. BURNEY'S CONVERSATION WITH MR. BURKE: REMARKS BY Miss
+BURNEY.
+
+"I [Dr. Burney] dined with Sir Joshua last week, and met Mr.
+Burke, his brother, Mr. Malone, the venerable Bishop of St. Pol
+de L`eonn, and a French abb`e or chevalier.  I found Mr. Burke in
+the room on my arrival, and after the first very cordial
+civilities were over, he asked me, with great eagerness, whether
+I thought he might go in his present dress to pay his respects to
+Miss Burney, and was taking up his hat, till I told him you were
+out of town.  He imagined, I Suppose, you were in St.
+Martin's-street, where he used to call upon you.  In talking over
+your health, the recovery of your liberty and of society, he
+said, if Johnson had been alive, your history would
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+
+have furnished him with an additional and interesting article to
+his 'Vanity of Human Wishes.'  He said he had never been more
+mistaken in his life.  He thought the queen had never behaved
+more amiably, or shown more good sense, than in appropriating you
+to her service; but what a service had it turned out!--a
+confinement to such a companion as Mrs. Schwellenberg!--Here
+exclamations of severity and kindness in turn lasted a
+considerable time."
+
+If ever I see Mr. Burke where he speaks to me upon the subject, I
+will openly confide to him how impossible it was that the queen
+should conceive the subserviency expected, unjustly and
+unwarrantably, by Mrs. Schwellenberg: to whom I ought only to
+have belonged officially, and at official hours, unless the
+desire of further intercourse had been reciprocal.  The queen had
+imagined that a younger and more lively colleague would have made
+her faithful old servant happier and that idea was merely amiable
+in her majesty, who could not Suspect the misery inflicted on
+that poor new colleague,
+
+
+                           LITERARY RECREATION.
+
+Chelsea College, October-.-I have never been so pleasantly
+situated at home since I lost the sister of my heart and my most
+affectionate Charlotte.  My father is almost constantly Within.
+Indeed, I now live with him wholly ; he has himself appropriated
+me a place, a seat, a desk, a table, and every convenience and
+comfort, and he never seemed yet so earnest to keep me about him.
+We read together, write together,- chat, compare notes,
+communicate projects, and diversify each other's employments.  He
+is all goodness, gaiety, and affection; and his society and
+kindness are more precious to Me than ever.
+Fortunately, in this season of leisure and comfort, the spirit of
+composition proves active.  The day is never long enough, and I
+Could employ two pens almost incessantly, in my scribbling what
+will not be repressed.  This is a delight to my dear father
+inexpressibly great and though I have gone no further than to let
+him know, from time to time, the species of matter that occupies
+me, he is perfectly contented, and patiently waits till something
+is quite finished, before he insists upon reading a word.  This
+"suits my humour well," as my own industry is all gone when once
+its intent is produced.
+
+For the rest I have been going on with my third tragedy.
+
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+
+ I have two written, but never yet have had opportunity to read
+them; which, of course, prevents their being corrected to the
+best of my power, and fitted for the perusal of less indulgent
+eyes; or rather of eyes less prejudiced.
+
+Believe me, my dear friends, in the present composed and happy
+state of my mind, I Could never have suggested these tales; but,
+having only to correct, combine, contract, and finish, I will not
+leave them undone.  Not, however, to sadden myself to the same
+point in which I began them, I read more than I write, and call
+for happier themes from others, to enliven my mind from the
+dolorous sketches I now draw of my Own.
+
+The library or study, in which we constantly sit, supplies such
+delightful variety of food, that I have nothing to wish.  Thus,
+my beloved sisters and friends, you see me, at length, enjoying
+all that peace, ease, and chosen recreation and employment, for
+which so long I sighed in vain, and which, till very lately, I
+had reason to believe, even since attained, had been allowed me
+too late.  I am more and more thankful every night, every
+morning, for the change in my destiny, and present blessings of
+my lot ; and you, my beloved Susan and Fredy, for whose prayers I
+have so often applied in my sadness, suffering, and despondence,
+afford me now the same community of thanks and acknowledgments.
+
+
+                     SIR JOSHUA REYNOLDs's BLINDNESS.
+
+November.-Another evening my father took me to Sir Joshua
+Reynolds.  I had long languished to see that kindly zealous
+friend, but his ill health had intimidated me rom making the
+attempt; and now my dear father went up stairs alone, and
+inquired of Miss Palmer if her uncle was well enough to admit me.
+He returned for me immediately.  I felt the utmost pleasure in
+again mounting his staircase.
+
+Miss Palmer hastened forward and embraced me most cordially.  I
+then shook hands with Sir Joshua.  He had a bandage over one eye,
+and the other shaded with a green halfbonnet.  He seemed serious
+even to sadness, though extremely kind.  "I am very glad," he
+said, in a meek voice and dejected accent, "to see you again, and
+I wish I could see you better! but I have only one eye now,--and
+hardly that."
+
+I was really quite touched.  The expectation of total blind-
+
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+
+ness depresses him inexpressibly; not, however, inconceivably I
+hardly knew how to express either my concern for his altered
+situation since our meeting, or my joy in again being with him:
+but my difficulty was short; Miss Palmer eagerly drew me to
+herself, and recommended to Sir Joshua to go on with his cards.
+He had no spirit to oppose; probably, indeed, no inclination.
+
+One other time we called again, in a morning.  Sir Joshua and his
+niece were alone, and that invaluable man was even more dejected
+than before.  How grievous to me It is to see him thus
+changed!(352)
+
+
+                            AMONG OLD FRIENDS.
+
+December.-I most gladly accepted an invitation to my good Mrs.
+Ord, to meet a circle of old friends.  The day proved extremely
+pleasant.  We went to dinner, my father and I, and met Mrs.
+Montagu, in good spirits, and very unaffectedly agreeable.  No
+one was there to awaken ostentation, no new acquaintance to
+require any surprise from her powers; she was therefore natural
+and easy, as well as informing and entertaining.
+
+Mrs. Garrick embraced me again and again, to express a
+satisfaction in meeting me once more in this social way, that she
+would have thought it indecorous to express by words.  I thanked
+her exactly in the same language ; and, without a syllable being
+uttered, she said, "I rejoice you are no longer a courtier!" and
+I answered, "I love you dearly for preferring me in my old
+state!"
+
+In the evening we were joined by Lady Rothes,(353) with whom I
+had my peace to make for a long-neglected letter upon my
+
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+
+"restoration to society," as she termed it, and who was very
+lively and pleasant. . . .
+
+Mr. Pepys, who came just at that instant from Twickenham, which
+he advanced eagerly to tell me, talked of Mr. Cambridge, and his
+admirable wit and spirits, and Miss Cambridge, and her fervent
+friendship for me, and the charm and agreeability of the whole
+house, with an ardour so rapid, there scarce needed any reply.
+
+Mr. Batt gave me a most kindly congratulatory bow upon his
+entrance.  I knew his opinion of my retreat, and understood it:
+but I was encircled till the concluding part of the evening by
+the Pepys and Lady Rothes, etc.; and then Mr. Batt seated himself
+by my elbow, and began.  "How I rejoice," he cried, "to see you
+at length out of thraldom!"
+
+"Thraldom?" quoth I, "that's rather a strong word!  I assure you
+'tis the first time I have heard it pronounced full and plumply."
+
+"O, but," cried he, laughing, "I may be allowed to say so,
+because you know my principles.  You know me to be loyal; you
+could not stand it from an opposition-man--but saints may do
+much!"
+
+He is a professed personal friend of Mr. Pitt.
+
+I then began some exculpation of my late fatigues, assuring him
+they were the effect of a situation not understood, and not of
+any hardness of heart.
+
+"Very probably," cried he; "but I am glad you have ended them: I
+applaud--I honour the step you have taken.  Those who suffer, yet
+still continue in fetters, I never pity;--there is a want of
+integrity, as well as spirit, in such submission."
+
+"Those they serve," cried I, "are not the persons to blame; they
+are commonly uninformed there is anything to endure, and believe
+all is repaid by the smiles so universally solicited."
+
+"I know it," cried he; "and it is that general base subservience
+that makes me struck with your opposite conduct."
+
+"My conduct," quoth I, "was very simple; though I believe it did
+not the less surprise; but it all consisted in not pretending,
+when I found myself sinking, to be swimming."
+
+He said many other equally good-natured things, and finished them
+with "But what a pleasure it is to me to see you here in this
+manner, dressed no more than other people! I have not seen you
+these five years past but looking dressed out for the
+Drawing-room, or something as bad!"
+
+
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+                         A SUMMONS FROM THE QUEEN.
+
+January.-I had a very civil note from Mrs. Schwellenberg telling
+me that Miss Goldsworthy was ill, which made Miss Gomme necessary
+to the princesses, and therefore, as Mlle. Jacobi was still lame,
+her majesty wished for my attendance On Wednesday noon.  I
+received this little summons with very sincere pleasure, and sent
+a warm acknowledgment for its honour.  I was engaged for the
+evening to Mr. Walpole, now Lord Orford, by my father, who
+promised to call for me at the Queen's house.
+
+At noon I went thither, and saw, by the carriages, their
+majesties were just arrived from Windsor.  In my way upstairs I
+encountered the Princess Sophia.  I really felt a pleasure at her
+sight, so great that I believe I saluted her ; I hardly know ;
+but she came forward, with her hands held out, so good humoured
+and so sweetly, I was not much on my guard.  How do I wish I had
+gone that moment to my royal mistress, while my mind was fully
+and honestly occupied with the most warm satisfaction in being
+called again into her presence!
+
+The Princess Sophia desired me to send her Miss Gomme, whom she
+said I should find in my own room.  Thither I went, and we
+embraced very cordially; but she a little made me stare by
+saying, "Do you sleep in your old bed?"  "No," I answered, "I go
+home after dinner," and she said no more, but told me she must
+have two hours conference alone with me, from the multiplicity of
+things she had to discuss with me.
+
+We parted then, and I proceeded to Mrs. Schwellenberg.  There I
+was most courteously received, and told I was to go at night to
+the play.  I replied I was extremely sorry, but I was engaged.
+She looked deeply displeased, and I was forced to offer to send
+an excuse.  Nothing, however, was settled; she went to the queen,
+whither I was most eager to follow, but I depended upon her
+arrangement, and could not go uncalled.
+
+I returned to my own room, as they still call it, and Miss Gomme
+and Miss Planta both came to me.  We had a long discourse upon
+matters and things.  By and by Miss Gomme was called out to
+Princesses Mary and Amelia; she told them who was in the old
+apartment, and they instantly entered it.  Princess Mary took my
+hand, and said repeatedly, "My dear Miss Burney, how glad I am to
+see you again!" and the lovely little Princess Amelia kissed me
+twice, with the sweetest air of
+
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+
+affection.  This was a very charming meeting to me, and I
+expressed my real delight in being thus allowed to come amongst
+them again, in the strongest and truest terms.
+
+I had been but a short time alone, when Westerhaults came to ask
+me if I had ordered my father's carriage to bring me from the
+play.  I told him I was engaged but would give up that
+engagement, and endeavour to secure being fetched home after the
+play.
+
+Mrs. Schwellenberg then desired to see me.  "What you mean by
+going home?" cried she, somewhat deridingly: "know you not you
+might sleep here?"
+
+I was really thunderstruck; so weak still, and so unequal as I
+feel to undertake night and morning attendance, which I now saw
+expected.  I was obliged, however, to comply; and I wrote a note
+to Sarah, and another note to be given to my father, when he
+called to take me to Lord Orford.  But I desired we might go in
+chairs, and not trouble him for the carriage.
+
+This arrangement, and my dread of an old attendance I was so
+little fitted for renewing, had so much disturbed me before I was
+summoned to the queen, that I appeared before her without any of
+the glee and spirits with which I had originally obeyed her
+commands.  I am still grieved at this circumstance, as it must
+have made me seem cold and insensible to herself, when I was
+merely chagrined at the peremptory mismanagement of her agent.
+Mr. de Luc was with her.  She was gracious, but by no means
+lively or cordial.  She was offended, probably,--and there was no
+reason to wonder, and yet no means to clear away the cause.  This
+gave me much vexation, and the more I felt it the less I must
+have appeared to merit her condescension.
+
+Nevertheless, after she was dressed she honoured me with a
+summons to the White closet, where I presently felt as much at
+home as if I had never quitted the royal residence.  She inquired
+into my proceedings, and I began a little history of my
+south-west tour,- which she listened to till word was brought the
+king was come from the levee: dinner was then ordered, and I was
+dismissed.
+
+At our dinner, the party, in the old style, was -Mr. de Luc, Miss
+Planta, Mrs. Stainforth, and Miss Gomme; Mrs. Schwellenberg was
+not well enough to leave her own apartment, except to attend the
+queen.  We were gay enough, I own my spirits were not very low in
+finding myself a guest at that table, where
+
+
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+
+I was so totally unfit to be at home, and whence, nevertheless,;
+I should have been very much and deeply concerned to have found
+myself excluded, since the displeasure of the queen could alone
+have procured such a banishment.  Besides, to visit, I like the
+whole establishment, however inadequate I found them for
+supplying the place of all I quitted to live among them.  O, who
+could succeed there?
+
+During the dessert the Princess Elizabeth came into the T
+room.  I was very glad, by this means, to see all this lovely
+female tribe.  As soon as she was gone I made off to prepare for
+the play, with fan, cloak-, and gloves.  At the door of my new
+old room who should I encounter but Mr. Stanhope? He was all
+rapture, in his old way, at the meeting, and concluded me, I
+believe, reinstated.  I got off as fast as Possible, and had just
+shut myself in, and him out, when I heard the voice of the king,
+who passed my door to go to the dining-room.
+
+I was quite chagrined to have left it so unseasonably, as my
+whole heart yearned to see him.  He stayed but a minute, and I
+heard him stop close to my door, and speak with Mr. de Luc.  The
+loudness of his voice assuring me he was saying nothing he meant
+to be unheard, I could not resist softly opening my door.  I
+fancy he expected this, for he came up to me immediately, and
+with a look of goodness almost amounting to pleasure--I believe I
+may say quite--he inquired after my health, and its restoration,
+and said he was very glad to see me again.  Then turning gaily to
+Mr. de Luc, "And you, Mr. de Luc," he cried, "are not you, too,
+very glad to see Miss Beurni again?"
+
+I told him, very truly, the pleasure with which I had reentered
+his roof.--He made me stand near a lamp, to examine me, and
+pronounced upon my amended looks with great benevolence: and,
+when he was walking away, said aloud to Mr. de Luc, who attended
+him, "I dare say she was very willing to come!"
+
+Our party in the box for the queen's attendants consisted of Lady
+Catherine Stanhope, Miss Planta, Major Price, Greville Upton, and
+Mr. Frank Upton.  The king and queen and six princesses sat
+opposite.  It was to me a lovely and most charming sight.  The
+Prince of Wales, and the Duke of York and his bride, with the
+Duke of Clarence, sat immediately under us.  I saw the duchess
+now and then, and saw that she has a very sensible and marked
+countenance, but no beauty.
+
+
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+She was extremely well received by the people, and smiled at in
+the most pleasing manner by her opposite new relations.
+
+At night I once more attended the queen, and it seemed as strange
+to me as if I had never done it before.  The next day, Thursday,
+the queen gave up the Drawing-room, on account of a hurt on her
+foot.  I had the honour of another very long conference in the
+White closet, in which I finished the account of my late travels,
+and during which, though she was very gracious, she was far less
+communicative than heretofore, saying little herself, and making
+me talk almost all.  When I attended the queen again to-night,
+the strangeness was so entirely worn away, that it seemed to me
+as if I had never left my office! And so again on Friday morning
+
+At noon the royal family set off for Windsor.
+
+The queen graciously sent for me before she went, to bid me good-
+bye, and condescended to thank me for my little services.  I
+would have offered repetition with all my heart, but I felt my
+frame unequal to such business.  Indeed I was half dead with only
+two days' and nights' exertion.  'Tis amazing how I ever went
+through all that is passed.
+
+
+                          MR. HASTINGS'S DEFENCE.
+
+
+Feb. 13.-I found a note from Mrs. Schwellenberg, with an offer of
+a ticket for Mr. Hastings's trial, the next day, if I wished to
+go to it.  I did wish it exceedingly, no public subject having
+ever so deeply interested me; but I could not recollect any party
+I could join, and therefore I proposed to Captain Phillips to
+call on his Court friend, and lay before her my difficulty.  He
+readily declared he would do more, for he would frankly ask her
+for a ticket for himself, and stay another day, merely to
+accompany me.  You know well the kind pleasure and zeal with
+which he is always ready to discover and propose expedients in
+distress.  His visit prospered, and we went to Westminster Hall
+together.
+
+All the managers attended at the opening, but the attendance of
+all others was cruelly slack.  To hear the attack, the people
+came in crowds; to hear the defence, they scarcely came in t`ete-
+`a-t`etes!  'Tis barbarous there should be so much more pleasure
+given by the recital of guilt than by the vindication of
+innocence!
+
+Mr. Law(354)  spoke the whole time; he made a general harangue
+
+
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+
+in answer to the opening general harangue of Mr. Burke, and he
+spoke many things that brought forward conviction in favour of
+Mr. Hastings; but he was terrified exceedingly, and this timidity
+Induced him to so frequently beg quarter from his antagonists,
+both for any blunders and any deficiencies, that I felt angry
+with even modest egotism, when I considered that it was rather
+his place to come forward with the shield and armour of truth,
+undaunted, and to have defied, rather than deprecated, the force
+of talents when without such support.
+
+None of the managers quitted their box, and I am uncertain
+whether or not any of them saw me.  Mr. Windham, in particular, I
+feel satisfied either saw me not, or was so circumstanced, as
+manager, that he could not come to speak with me; for else, this
+my first appearance from the parental roof under which he has so
+largely contributed to replace me would have been the last time
+for his dropping my acquaintance.  Mr. Sheridan I have no longer
+any ambition to be noticed by; and Mr. Burke, at this place, I am
+afraid I have already displeased, so unavoidably cold and frigid
+did I feel myself when he came here to me formerly.  Anywhere
+else, I should bound forward to meet him, with respect, and
+affection, and gratitude.
+
+In the evening I went to the queen's house.  I found Mrs,
+Schwellenberg, who instantly admitted me, at cards with Mr. de
+Luc.  Her reception was perfectly kind; and when I would have
+given up the tickets, she told me they were the queen's, who
+desired, if I wished it, I would keep them for the season.  This
+was a pleasant hearing upon every account, and I came away in
+high satisfaction.
+
+A few days after, I went again to the trial, and took another
+captain for my esquire--my good and ever-affectionate James.  The
+Hall was still more empty, both of Lords and Commons, and of
+ladies too, than the first day of this session.  I am quite
+shocked at the little desire there appears to hear Mr. Hastings's
+defence.
+
+
+                              DIVERSE VIEWS.
+
+When the managers entered, James presently said, "Here's Mr.
+Windham coming to speak to you." And he broke from the
+procession, as it was descending to its cell, to give me that
+pleasure.
+
+His inquiries about my health were not, as he said, merely common
+inquiries, but, without any other answer to them than a bow, I
+interrupted their course by quickly saying, "You
+
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+
+
+have been excursioning and travelling all the world o'er since I
+saw you last."
+
+He paid me in my own coin with only a bow, hastily going back to
+myself: "But your tour," he cried, "to the west, after all that-"
+
+I saw what was following, and, again abruptly stopping him, "But
+here you are returned," I cried, "to all your old labours and
+toils again."
+
+"No, no," cried he, half laughing, "not labours and toils always;
+they are growing into pleasures now."
+
+"That's being very good, very liberal, indeed," quoth I,
+supposing him to mean hearing the defence made the pleasure but
+he stared at me with so little concurrence, that, soon
+understanding he only meant bringing their charges home to the
+confusion of the culprit, I stared again a little while, and then
+said, "You sometimes accuse me of being ambiguous; I think you
+seem so yourself, now!"
+
+"To nobody but you," cried he, with a rather reproachful accent.
+"O, now," cried I, "you are not ambiguous, and I am all the less
+pleased."
+
+"People," cried James, bonnement, "don't like to be convinced."
+
+"Mr. Hastings," said Mr. Windham, "does not convince, he
+does not bring conviction home."
+
+"Not to you," quoth I, returning his accent pretty fully,
+
+"Why, true," answered he very candidly; "there may be something
+in that."
+
+"How is it all to be?" cried James.  "Is the defence to go on
+long, and are they to have any evidence; or how?"
+
+"We don't know this part of the business," said Mr. Windham,
+smiling a little at such an upright downright question "it is Mr.
+Hastings's affair now to settle it: however, I understand he
+means to answer charge after charge as they were brought against
+him, first by speeches, then by evidence: however, this is all
+conjecture."
+
+
+
+                        MR. LAW'S SPEECH DISCUSSED.
+
+We then spoke of Mr. Law, Mr. Hastings's first counsel, and I
+expressed some dissatisfaction that such attackers should not
+have had abler and more equal opponents.
+
+
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+
+"But do you not think Mr. Law spoke well?" cried he, "clear,
+forcible? "
+
+"Not forcible," cried I.  I would not say not clear.
+
+"He was frightened," said Mr. Windham, "he might not do himself
+justice.  I have heard him elsewhere, and been very well
+satisfied with him; but he looked pale and alarmed, and his voice
+trembled."
+
+"I was very well content with his materials," quoth I, "which I
+thought much better than the use he made of them; and once or
+twice, he made an opening that, with a very little skill, might
+most adroitly and admirably have raised a laugh against you all."
+
+He looked a little askew, I must own, but he could not help
+smiling. . . I gave him an instance in point, which -was the
+reverse given by Mr. Law to the picture drawn by Mr. Burke of
+Tamerlane, in which he said those virtues and noble qualities
+bestowed upon him by the honourable manager were nowhere to be
+found but on the British stage.
+
+Now this, seriously, with a very little ingenuity, might have
+placed Mr. Burke at the head of a company of comedians.  This
+last notion I did not speak, however; but enough was understood,
+and Mr. Windham looked straight away from me, without answering;
+nevertheless, his profile, which he left me, showed much more
+disposition to laugh than to be incensed.
+
+Therefore I proceeded ; pointing out another lost opportunity
+that, well saved, might have proved happily ridiculous against
+them; and this was Mr. Law's description of the real state of
+India, even from its first discovery by Alexander, opposed to Mr.
+Burke's flourishing representation, of its golden age, its lambs
+and tigers associating, etc.
+
+Still he looked askew ; but I believe he is truth itself, for he
+offered no defence, though, of course, he would not enter into
+the attack. And surely at this critical period I must not spare
+pointing out all he will submit to hear, on the side of a man of
+whose innocence I am so fully persuaded.
+
+"I must own, however," continued I, finding him still attentive,
+though silent, "Mr. Law provoked me in one point--his apologies
+for his own demerits.  Why should he contribute his humble mite
+to your triumphs? and how little was it his place to extol your
+superior talents, as if you were not self-sufficient enough
+already, without his aid."
+
+'Unless you had heard the speech of Mr. Law, you can hardly
+
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+
+imagine with what timid flattery he mixed every exertion he
+ventured to make in behalf of his client ; and I could not
+forbear this little observation, because I had taken notice with
+what haughty derision the managers had perceived the fears of
+their importance, which were felt even by the very counsel of
+their prisoner.  Mr. Windham, too, who himself never looks either
+insolent or deriding, must be sure what I meant for his
+associates could not include himself.  He did not, however,
+perfectly welcome the remark; he still only gave me his profile,
+and said not a word,-so I went on.  Mr. Hastings little thinks
+what a pleader I am become in his cause, against one of his most
+powerful adversaries.
+
+"There was still another thing," quoth I, "in which I felt vexed
+with Mr. Law: how could he be so weak as to beg quarter from you,
+and to humbly hope that, if any mistake, any blunder, any
+improvident word escaped him, you would have the indulgence to
+spare your ridicule? O yes, to be sure! when I took notice at the
+moment of his supplication, and before any error committed, that
+every muscle of every face, amongst you was at work from the bare
+suggestion."
+
+He could not even pretend to look grave now, but, turning frankly
+towards me, said, "Why, Mr. Fox most justly observed upon that
+petition, that, if any man makes a blunder, a mistake, 'tis very
+well to apologize: but it was singular to hear a man gravely
+preparing for his blunders and mistakes, and wanting to make
+terms for them beforehand."
+
+"I like him for this," cried James again bonnement, "that he
+seems so much interested for his client."
+
+"Will you give me leave to inquire," quoth I, "one thing? You
+know my old knack of asking strange questions."
+
+He only bowed--archly enough, I assure you.
+"
+
+Did I fancy, or was it fact, that you were a flapper to Mr.
+Burke, when Mr. Law charged him with disingenuity, in not having
+recanted the accusation concerning Devy Sing?  He appeared to me
+in much perturbation, and I thought by his see-saw he was going
+to interrupt the speech: did you prevent him?"
+
+"No, no," he answered, "I did not: I did not think him in any
+danger."
+
+He rubbed his cheek, though, as he spoke, as if he did not much
+like that circumstance.  O that Mr. Burke--so great, so noble a
+creature--can in this point thus have been warped.
+
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+
+
+MR. WINDHAM ON THE FRENCH NATIONAL ASSEMBLY.
+
+I ran off to another scene, and inquired how he had been amused
+abroad, and, in particular, at the National Assembly?
+
+"Indeed," he answered, "it was extremely curious for a short
+time; but there is little variety in it, and therefore it will
+not do long."
+
+I was in a humour to be just as sincere here, as about the trial;
+so you democrats must expect no better.
+
+"I understand," quoth I, "there is a great dearth of abilities in
+this new Assembly; how then should there be any variety?"
+
+"No, I cannot say that: they do not want abilities; but they have
+no opportunity to make their way."
+
+"O!" quoth I, shaking my wise head, "abilities, real abilities,
+make their own way."
+
+"Why, that's true; but, in that Assembly, the noise, the tumult--
+"
+
+"Abilities," again quoth I, " "have power to quell noise and
+tumult."
+
+"Certainly, in general; but not in France.  These new legislative
+members are so solicitous to speak, so anxious to be heard, that
+they prefer uttering any tautology to listening to others; and
+when once they have begun, they go on with what speed they may,
+and without selection, rather than stop.  They see so many ready
+to seize their first pause, they know they have so little chance
+of a second hearing, that I never entered the Assembly without
+being reminded of the famous old story of the man who patiently
+bore hearing a tedious harangue, by saying the whole time to
+himself, 'Well, well, 'tis his turn now; but let him beware how
+he sneezes."'
+
+
+
+                          "A BARBAROUS BUSINESS!"
+
+James now again asked some question of their intentions with
+regard to the progress of the trial.  He answered, "We have
+nothing to do with its present state.  We leave Mr. Hastings now
+to himself, and his own set.  Let him keep to his cause, and he
+may say what he will.  We do not mean to interfere, nor avail
+ourselves of our privileges."
+
+Mr. Hastings was just entered; I looked down at him, and saw his
+half-motion to kneel; I could not bear it, and, turning suddenly
+to my neighbour, "O, Mr. Windham," I cried, "after
+
+
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+
+all, 'tis, indeed, a barbarous business!"  This was rather
+further than I meant to go, for I said it with serious
+earnestness; but it was surprised from me by the emotion always
+excited at sight of that unmerited humiliation.
+
+He looked full at me upon this solemn attack, and with a look of
+chagrin amounting to displeasure, saying, "It is a barbarous
+business we have had to go through."
+
+I did not attempt to answer this, for, except through the medium
+of sport and raillery, I have certainly no claim upon his
+patience.  But, in another moment, in a tone very flattering, he
+said, "I do not understand, nor can any way imagine, how you can
+have been thus perverted!"
+
+"No, no!" quoth I, "it is you who are perverted!"
+
+Here Mr. Law began his second oration, and Mr. Windham ran down
+to his cell.  I fancy this was not exactly the conversation he
+expected upon my first enlargement.  However, though it would
+very seriously grieve me to hurt or offend him, I cannot refuse
+my own veracity, nor Mr. Hastings's injuries, the utterance of
+what I think truth.
+
+Mr. Law was far more animated and less frightened, and acquitted
+himself so as to merit almost as much `eloge as, in my opinion,
+he had merited censure at the opening.  It was all in answer to
+Mr. Burke's general exordium and attack.
+
+
+                       DEATH OF SIR JOSHUA REYNOLDS.
+
+Upon the day of Sir Joshua Reynolds's death(355) I was in my bed,
+with two blisters, and I did not hear of it till two days after.
+I shall enter nothing upon this Subject here; our current letters
+mentioned the particulars, and I am not desirous to retrace them.
+His loss is as universally felt as his merit is universally
+acknowledged, and, joined to all public motives, I had myself
+private ones of regret that cannot subside.  He was always
+peculiarly kind to me, and he had worked at my deliverance from a
+life he conceived too laborious for me as if I had been his own
+daughter; yet, from the time of my coming forth, I only twice saw
+him.  I had not recovered strength for visiting before he was
+past receiving me.  I grieve inexpressibly never to have been
+able to make him the small tribute of thanks for his most kind
+exertions in my cause.  I little thought the second time I saw
+him would be my last opportunity, and my intention was to wait
+some favourable opening.
+
+
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+
+Miss Palmer is left heiress,(356) and her unabating attendance
+upon her inestimable uncle in his sickroom makes everybody
+content with her great acquisition.  I am sure she loved and
+admired him with all the warmth of her warm heart.  I wrote her a
+few lines of condolence, and she has sent me a very kind answer.
+She went immediately to the Burkes, with whom she will chiefly, I
+fancy, associate.
+
+March.-Sad for the loss of Sir Joshua, and all of us ill
+ourselves, we began this month.  Upon its 3rd day was his
+funeral.(357)  My dear father could not attend; but Charles was
+invited and went.  All the Royal Academy, professors and
+students, and all the Literary club, attended as family,
+mourners.  Mr. Burke, Mr. Malone, and Mr. Metcalf, are executors.
+Miss Palmer has spared nothing, either in thought or expense,
+that could render the last honours splendid and grateful.  It was
+a very melancholy day to us; though it had the alleviation and
+softening of a letter from our dear Charlotte, promising to
+arrive the next day.
+
+
+              MR. WINDHAM TWITTED ON His LACK OF COMPASSION.
+
+April 23.--I thought myself equal to again going to the
+trial, which recommenced, after six or seven weeks' cessation, on
+account of the judges going the circuit.  Sarah went with me: I
+am now so known in the chamberlain's box that the door-keepers
+and attendants make way for me without looking at my ticket.  And
+to be sure, the managers on one side, and Mr. Hastings's friends
+and counsel on the other, must pretty well have my face by heart.
+        I have the faces of all them, most certainly, in full
+mental possession; and the figures of many whose names I know not
+are so familiar to my eyes, that should I chance hereafter to
+meet them, I shall be apt to take them for old acquaintances.
+
+There was again a full appearance of managers to accompany
+
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+
+Mr. Burke in his entry; and again Mr. Windham quitted the
+procession, as it descended to the box, and filed off to speak
+with me.
+
+He made the most earnest inquiries after the health of my dearest
+father, as well as after my own.  He has all the semblance of
+real regard and friendship for us, and I am given to believe he
+wears no semblance that has not a real and sympathetic substance
+couched beneath.  His manner instantly revived in my mind my
+intent not to risk, with him, the loss of making those poor
+acknowledgments for his kindness, that I so much regret omitting
+to Sir Joshua Reynolds.  In return to his inquiries about my
+renovating health, I answered that I had again been very ill
+since I saw him last, and added, "Indeed, I believe I did not
+come away too soon."
+
+" And now," cried I, "I cannot resist giving myself the pleasure
+of making my acknowledgments for what I owe to you upon this
+subject.  I have been, indeed, very much obliged, by various
+things that have come round to me, both to you and Sir Joshua.--O
+what a loss is that!"
+
+"What a wretched loss!" cried he: and we then united our warmest
+suffrages in his favour, with our deepest regret for our
+deprivation.  Here I observed poor Mr. Hastings was brought in.
+I saw he was fixing him.
+
+"And can you," I cried, fixing him, "can you have so much
+compassion for one captive, and still have none for another?"
+
+"Have you, then, still," cried he, "the same sentiments?"
+
+"Have you," cried I, "heard all thus far of the defence, and are
+you still unmoved?"
+
+"Unmoved?" cried he, emphatically; "shall I be moved by a lion?
+You see him there in a cage, and pity him; look back to when you
+might have seen him with a lamb in his claws!"
+
+I could only look dismayed for a moment.  "But, at least," I
+said, "I hope what I hear is not true, though I now grow afraid
+to ask?"
+
+"If it is anything about me," he answered, "it is certainly not
+true."
+
+"I am extremely glad, indeed," cried I, "for it has been buzzed
+about in the world that you were to draw up the final charge.
+This I thought most cruel of all; You, who have held back all
+this time--"
+
+"Yes! pretty completely," interrupted he, laughing.
+
+
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+
+"No, not completely," I continued; "but Yet YOU have made no
+direct formal speech, nor have come forward in any positive and
+formidable manner; therefore, as we have now heard all the
+others, and--almost enough--"
+
+I was obliged to stop a moment, to see how this adventurous
+plainness was taken; and he really, though my manner showed me
+only rallying, looked I don't know how, at such unexampled
+disrespect towards his brother orators.  But I soon went quietly
+on: "To come forth now, after all that has passed, with the eclat
+of novelty, and,-for the most cruel part of all,--that which
+cannot be answered."
+
+"You think," cried he, "'tis bringing a fresh courser into the
+field of battle, just as every other is completely jaded?"
+
+"I think," cried I, "that I am very generous to wish against what
+I should so much wish for, but for other considerations."
+
+"O, what a flattering way," cried he, "of stating it! however, I
+can bear to allow you a little waste of compliments, which you
+know so well how to make; but I cannot bear to have you waste
+your compassion."
+
+
+                          A POINT OF CEREMONIAL.
+
+May.-The 1st of this month I went again to Westminster Hall, with
+our cousin Elizabeth.  Evidence was brought forward by the
+counsel for Mr. Hastings, and Lord Stormont was called upon as a
+witness.  This produced some curious debating among the Lords,
+and with the chancellor.  They spoke only for the ears of one
+another, as it was merely to settle some ceremonial, whether he
+was to be summoned to the common place where the witnesses stood,
+or had the claim of a peer to speak in his place, robed.  This
+latter prevailed: and then we expected his speech; but no, a new
+debate ensued, which, as we gathered from the rumour about us,
+was that his lordship should have the prayer book, for his oath,
+belonging to the House of Peers.  Here, also, his dignity was
+triumphant, though it cost the whole assembly a full quarter of
+an hour; while another prayer book was officially at hand, in the
+general post for plebeian witnesses.
+
+Well! aristocrat as I am, compared with you, I laughed heartily
+at all this mummery, and yet it was possibly wise, at this period
+of pulling down all law and order, all privilege and
+subordination, however frivolous was its appearance.
+
+
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+His testimony was highly favourable to Mr. Hastings, with
+regard to authenticating the intelligence he had received of an
+opening war with France, upon which hung much justification
+of the measures Mr. Hastings had pursued for raising supplies.
+
+
+                   MRS. SCHWELLENBERG AND MLLE. JACOBI.
+
+Thence I went to the Queen's house, where -I have a most cordial
+general invitation from Mrs. Schwellenberg to go by all
+opportunities; and there is none so good as after the trial, that
+late hour exactly according With her dinner-time.
+
+She is just as she Was with respect to health; but in all other
+respects, how amended! all civility, all obligingness, all
+courtesy! and so desirous to have me visit her, that she presses
+me to come incessantly.
+
+During coffee, the princess royal came into the room.  She
+condescended to profess herself quite glad to see me; and she had
+not left the room five minutes before, again returning, she said,
+"Mrs. Schwellenberg, I am come to plague you, for I am come to
+take away Miss Burney." I give you leave to guess whether this
+plagued me.
+
+May 2.-The following week I again went to Westminster Hall.
+Mlle. Jacobi had made a point of accompanying me, that she might
+see the show, as James called it to General Burgoyne, and I had
+great pleasure in taking her, for she is a most ingenuous and
+good creature, though--alas!--by no means the same undaunted,
+gay, open character as she appeared at first.  Sickness,
+confinement, absence from her friends, submission to her
+coadjutrix, and laborious watching have much altered her.
+
+The trial of this day was all written evidence in favour of Mr.
+Hastings, and violent quarrelling as to its admissibility on the
+part of Mr. Burke.  Mr. Windham took his place, during some part
+of the controversy, and spoke ably and clearly as to the given
+point in dispute, but with the most palpable tremor and internal
+struggle.
+
+
+A LONG TALK WITH THE KING AND QUEEN.
+
+I attended Mlle. Jacobi to the Queen's house, where I dined ; and
+great indeed was my pleasure, during coffee, to see the Princess
+Elizabeth, who, In the most Pleasing manner
+
+
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+
+and the highest spirits, came to summon me to the queen.  I found
+her majesty again with all her sweet daughters but the youngest.
+She was gracious and disposed to converse.
+
+We had a great deal of talk upon public concerns, and she told me
+a friend Of mine had spoken very well the day before, and so had
+Mr. Burke.  She meant Mr. Windham.  It was against the new
+associates, and in favour of the proclamation.(358)  Mr. Burke,
+of course, would here come forth in defence of his own
+predictions and opinions; but Mr. Windham, who had rather abided
+hitherto with Charles Fox, in thinking Mr. Burke too extreme,
+well as he loves him personally, was a new convert highly
+acceptable.  He does not, however, go all lengths with Mr. Burke;
+he is only averse to an unconstitutional mode of reform, and to
+sanctioning club powers, so as to enable them, as in France, to
+overawe the state and senate.(359)
+
+Soon after, to my infinite joy, the king entered.  O, he spoke to
+me so kindly!--he congratulated me on the better looks which his
+own presence and goodness gave me, repeatedly declaring he had
+never seen me in such health.  He asked me after my father, and
+listened with interest when I mentioned his depression, and told
+him that all he had done of late to soothe his retirement and
+pain had been making canons to solemn words, and with such
+difficulties of composition as, in better health and spirits,
+would have rather proved oppressive and perplexing than a relief
+to his feelings.
+
+"I, too," said the king, after a very serious pause, "have myself
+sometimes found, when ill or disturbed, that some grave and even
+difficult employment for my thoughts has tended more to compose
+me than any of the supposed usual relaxations."
+
+He also condescended to ask after little Norbury, taking off the
+eager little fellow while he spoke, and his earnest manner of
+delivery.  He then Inquired about my friends Mr. and Mrs. Locke,
+and their expectations of the return of
+
+
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+William.  He inquired how I live, whom I saw, what sort of
+neighbours I had in the college, and many other particulars, that
+seemed to desire to know how I went on, and whether I was
+comfortable.  His looks, I am sure, said so, and most sweetly and
+kindly.
+
+They kept me till they went to the Japan room, where they meet
+the officers and ladies who attend them in public.  They were
+going to the Ancient Music.
+
+This dear king, nobly unsuspicious where left to himself, and
+where he has met no doubleness, spoke also very freely of some
+political matters before me--of the new association in
+particular.  It gratified me highly.
+
+
+                    MADAME DE GENLIS: A WOEFUL CHANGE.
+
+I got home to dinner to meet Mrs. and Miss Mary Young,(360) who
+are in town for a few weeks.  Miss Mary is sensible, and quick,
+and agreeable.
+
+They give a very unpleasant account of Madame de Genlis, or de
+Sillery, or Brulard, as she is now called.(361)  They say she has
+established herself at Bury, in their neighbourhood, with Mlle.
+la Princesse d'Orleans and Pamela, and a Circe, and another
+
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+
+young girl under her care.  They have taken a house, the master
+of which always dines with them, though Mrs.  Young says he is
+such a low man he should not dine with her daughter.  They form
+twenty with themselves and household.  They keep a botanist, a
+chemist, and a natural historian always with them.  These are
+supposed to have been common servants of the Duke of Orleans in
+former days, as they always walk behind the ladies when abroad;
+but, to make amends in the new equalising style, they all dine
+together at home.  They visit at no house but Sir Thomas Gage's,
+where they carry their harps, and frequently have music.  They
+have been to Bury ball, and danced all night Mlle. d'Orl`eans
+with anybody, known or unknown to Madame Brulard.
+
+What a woeful change from that elegant, amiable, high-bred Madame
+de Genlis I knew six years ago! the apparent pattern of female
+perfection in manners, conversation, and delicacy.
+
+There are innumerable democrats assembled in Suffolk; among them
+the famous Tom Paine, who herds with all the farmers that will
+receive him, and there propagates his pernicious doctrines.
+
+
+                         THE WEEPING BEAUTY AGAIN.
+
+May 25.-This morning I went to a very fine public breakfast,
+given by Mrs. Montagu. . . . The crowd of company was such that
+we could only slowly make way, in any part.  There could not be
+fewer than four or five hundred people.  It was like a full
+Ranelagh by daylight.
+
+We now met Mrs. Porteus, and who should be with her but the poor
+pretty S.S., whom so long I had not seen, and who has now lately
+been finally given up by her long-sought and very injurious
+lover, Dr. Vyse?  She is sadly faded, and looked disturbed and
+unhappy; but still beautiful, though no longer blooming; and
+still affectionate, though absent and evidently absorbed.  We had
+a little chat together about the Thrales.  In mentioning our
+former intimacy with them, "Ah, those," she cried, "were happy
+times!"  and her eyes glistened.  poor thing! hers has been a
+lamentable story!---Imprudence and vanity have rarely been mixed
+with so much sweetness, and good-humour, and candour, and
+followed with more reproach and ill success.  We agreed to renew
+acquaintance next winter; at present she will be little more in
+town.
+
+
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+
+                   MADAME DE LA FITE AND MRS. HASTINGS.
+
+We went then round the rooms, which were well worth examination
+and admiration ; and we met friends and acquaintance every other
+step. . . . While we were examining the noble pillars in the new
+room, I heard an exclamation of "Est-ce possible? suis-je si
+heureuse?--Est-ce ma ch`ere Mlle. Beurni que je vois?"(362)
+
+
+Need I say this was Madame de la, Fite ? or Mrs. Fitt, as, since
+the French Revolution, of which she is a favourer, she is called
+by some of the household to which I belonged.
+
+I spoke so as to moderate this rapture into something less
+calling for attention, which her voice and manner were engaging,
+not unwillingly.  I had not seen her since my retreat, and, if
+she had been less pompous, I should have been glad of the
+meeting.  She kept my hand close grasped between both her own,
+(though her fan nipped one of my fingers till I was ready to make
+faces,) with a most resolute empressement, to the great
+inconvenience of those who wanted to pass, for we were at one of
+the entrances into the great new room; and how long she might
+have continued this fond detention I know not, if a lady, whose
+appearance vied for show and parade with Madame de la Fite's
+manner and words, had not called out aloud, "I am extremely happy
+indeed to see Miss Burney!"
+
+This was Mrs. Hastings; and to answer her I was let loose.
+
+I have always been very sorry that Mrs. Hastings, who is a
+pleasing, lively, and well-bred woman, with attractive manners
+and attentions to those she wishes to oblige, should have an
+indiscretion so peculiarly unsuited to her situation, as to aim
+always at being the most conspicuous figure wherever she appears.
+Her dress now was like that of an Indian princess, according to
+our ideas of such ladies, and so much the most splendid, from its
+ornaments, and style, and fashion, though chiefly of muslin, that
+everybody else looked under-dressed in her presence.  It is for
+Mr. Hastings I am sorry when I see this inconsiderate vanity, in
+a woman who would so much better manifest her sensibility of his
+present hard disgrace, by a modest and quiet appearance and
+demeanour.
+
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+                           THE IMPETUOUS ORATOR.
+
+Wednesday, May 30.-To-day I went to Westminster Hall again, to
+hear the evidence of Mr. Markham, which is so pleasantly in
+favour of Mr. Hastings, that all the friends of that persecuted
+man are gratified by all he deposes.  Miss Ord accompanied me.
+
+When the impetuous and ungovernable Mr. Burke was Interrupting
+the chancellor, in order to browbeat Mr. Hastings's evidence, Mr.
+Windham involuntarily exclaimed, "Hist!" just as if he had been
+at his elbow, and playing the kind part of a flapper.  I could
+not help laughing, and half joining him: he echoed back my laugh,
+and with a good humour that took in all its meaning and
+acknowledged its sympathy with regard to Mr. Burke, nevertheless,
+he spoke not a word.  Afterwards, however, he spoke when I had
+far rather he had been silent, for he went to the assistance of
+Mr. Burke.
+
+Michael Angelo Taylor spoke also; but I observed with pleasure a
+distinction the chancellor made to Mr. Windham; for, when he
+answered their arguments, he singled him out as the person who
+had said what alone he meant upon that question to notice, by
+saying, "The honourable manager who spoke second."
+
+But I am sure--I think so, at least--Mr. Windham as little
+approves the violence of Mr. Burke in this trial as I do myself.
+I see him evidently and frequently suffer great pain and
+mortification when he is so obstreperous.
+
+
+                     BOSWELL'S MIMICRY OF DR. JOHNSON.
+
+June 1.-This day had been long engaged for breakfasting with Mrs.
+Dickenson and dining with Mrs. Ord.  The breakfast guests were
+Mr. Langton, Mr. Foote, Mr. Dickenson, jun., a cousin, and a very
+agreeable and pleasing man; Lady Herries, Miss Dickenson, another
+cousin, and Mr. Boswell.
+
+This last was the object of the morning.  I felt a strong
+sensation of that displeasure which his loquacious communications
+of every weakness and infirmity of the first and greatest good
+man of these times has awakened in me, at his first sight; and,
+though his address to me was courteous in the extreme, and he
+made a point of sitting next me, I felt an indignant disposition
+to a nearly forbidding reserve and silence.  How
+
+
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+
+many starts of passion and prejudice has he blackened into
+record, that else might have sunk, for ever forgotten, under the
+preponderance of weightier virtues and excellences!
+
+Angry, however, as I have long been with him, he soon insensibly
+conquered, though he did not soften me: there is so little of
+ill-design or ill-nature in him, he is so open and forgiving for
+all that is said in return, that he soon forced me to consider
+him in a less serious light, and change my resentment against his
+treachery into something like commiseration of his levity ; and
+before we parted we became good friends.  There is no resisting
+great good humour, be what will in the opposite scale.
+
+He entertained us all as if hired for that purpose, telling
+stories of Dr. Johnson, and acting them with incessant
+buffoonery.  I told him frankly that, if he turned him into
+ridicule by caricature, I should fly the premises: he assured me
+he would not, and indeed his imitations, though comic to excess,
+were so far from caricature that he omitted a thousand
+gesticulations which I distinctly remember.
+
+Mr. Langton told some stories himself in imitation of Dr.
+johnson; but they became him less than Mr. Boswell, and only
+reminded me of what Dr. Johnson himself once said to me--"Every
+man has, some time in his life, an ambition to be a wag." If Mr.
+Langton had repeated anything from his truly great friend
+quietly, it would far better have accorded with his own serious
+and respectable character.
+
+
+                           THE KING'S BIRTHDAY.
+
+June 4.-The birthday of our truly good king.
+
+As his majesty had himself given me, when I saw him after the
+queen's birthday, an implied reproach for not presenting myself
+at the palace that day, I determined not to incur a similar
+censure on this, especially as I hold my admission on such a
+national festival as a real happiness, as well as honour, when it
+is to see themselves.
+
+How different was my attire from every other such occasion the
+five preceding years!  It was a mere simple dressed undress,
+without feathers, flowers, hoop, or furbelows.
+
+When I alighted at the porter's lodge I was stopped from crossing
+the court-yard by seeing the king with his three sons, the Prince
+of Wales, Duke of York, and Duke of Clarence, who were standing
+there after alighting from their horses, to
+
+
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+gratify the people who encircled the iron rails.  It was a
+pleasant and goodly sight, and I rejoiced in such a detention.
+
+I had a terrible difficulty to find a friend who would make known
+to her majesty that I was come to pay my devoirs.  At length,
+while watching in the passages to and fro, I heard a step upon
+the princesses' stairs, and, venturing forward, I encountered the
+Princess Elizabeth.  I paid my respectful congratulations on the
+day, which she most pleasantly received, and I intimated my great
+desire to see her majesty.  I am Sure the amiable princess
+communicated my petition, for Mr, de Luc came out in a few
+minutes and ushered me into the royal presence.
+
+The queen was in her state dressing-room, her head attired for
+the Drawing-room superbly; but her Court-dress, as usual,
+remaining to be put on at St. James's.  She had already received
+all her early complimenters, and was prepared to go to St.
+James's: the princess royal was seated by her side, and all the
+other princesses, except the Princess Amelia, were in the room,
+with the Duchess of York.  Mr. de Luc, Mrs. Schwellenberg, Madame
+de la Fite, and Miss Goldsworthy were in the background.
+
+The queen smiled upon me most graciously, and every princess came
+up separately to speak with me.  I thanked her majesty warmly for
+admitting me upon such an occasion, "O!" cried she, "I resolved
+to see you the moment I knew you were here."
+
+She then inquired when I went into Norfolk, and conversed upon my
+summer plans, etc., with more of her original sweetness of manner
+than I have seen since my resignation.  What pleasure this gave
+me ! and what pleasure did I feel in being kept by her till the
+further door opened, and the king entered, accompanied by the
+Dukes of York and Clarence.
+
+I motioned to retreat, but calling out, "What, Miss Burney," the
+king came up to me and inquired how I did,- and began talking to
+me so pleasantly, so gaily, so kindly even, that I had the
+satisfaction of remaining and of gathering courage to utter my
+good wishes and warm fervent prayers for this day.  He deigned to
+hear me very benignly; or make believe he did, for I did not make
+my harangue very audibly; but he must be sure of its purport.
+
+He said I was grown "quite fat" since he had seen me, and
+appealed to the Duke of York: he protested my arm was half as big
+again as heretofore, and then he measured it with his
+
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+spread thumbs and forefingers; and the whole of his manner showed
+his perfect approbation of the step I had taken, of presenting
+myself in the royal presence on this auspicious day.
+
+The queen soon after walked up to me, and asked if I should like
+to see the ball at night.  I certainly should much like to have
+seen them "in all their glory," after seeing them thus in all
+their kindness, as well as to have been present at the first
+public appearance at Court of the Princess Sophia : but I had no
+means to get from and to Chelsea so late at night, and was,
+therefore, forced to excuse myself, and decline her gracious
+proposition of giving me tickets.
+
+
+                          MR. HASTINGS'S SPEECH.
+
+Two days after, I went again to Westminster Hall with Miss Ord.
+Her good mother has a ticket for the Duke of Newcastle's box, in
+which she was seated.  This -day's business consisted of
+examining witnesses: it was meant for the last meeting.  during
+this session - but when it was over, Mr. Hastings arose and
+addressed the Lords in a most noble and pathetic speech, praying
+them to continue their attendance till his defence was heard
+throughout, or, at least, not to deny him the finishing his
+answer to the first charge.
+
+He spoke, I believe, to the hearts of everybody, except his
+prosecutors : the whole assembly seemed evidently affected by
+what he urged, upon the unexampled delay of justice In his trial:
+silence was never more profound than that which his voice
+instantly commanded.  Poor unhappy, injured gentleman!  How, how
+can such men practise cruelty so glaring as is manifested in the
+whole conduct of this trial!
+
+>From hence, as usual, I went to dine at the Queen's house.  Mrs.
+Schwellenberg took me to the queen after coffee.
+
+She was writing to Lady Cremorne: she talked with me while she
+finished her letter, and then read it to me, exactly as in old
+times.  She writes with admirable facility, and peculiar elegance
+of expression, as well as of handwriting.
+
+She asked me, somewhat curiously, if I had seen any of my old
+friends?  I found she meant oppositionists.  I told her only at
+the trial.  She kept me in converse till the dear king came into
+the room: he had a grandson of Lord Howe's with him, a little boy
+in petticoats, with whom he was playing, and whom he thought
+remembered me, I had seen him frequently
+
+
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+at Weymouth, and the innocent little fellow insisted upon Making
+me his bows and reverences, when told to Make them to the queen.
+
+The king asked me what had been doing at Westminster Hall?  I
+repeated poor Mr. Hastings's remonstrance, particularly a part of
+it in which he had mentioned that he had already "appealed to his
+majesty, whose justice he could not doubt."  The king looked a
+little queer, but I was glad of the opportunity of putting in a
+word for poor Mr. Hastings.
+
+I went on regularly to the trial till it finished for this year.
+Mr. Dallas closed his answer to the first charge, with great
+spirit and effect, and seemed to make numerous Proselytes for Mr.
+Hastings.
+
+
+                         A WELL-PRESERVED BEAUTY.
+
+Thursday, June 18.-After many invitations and regulations, it was
+settled I was to accompany my father on a visit of three days to
+Mrs. Crewe at Hampstead.  The villa at Hampstead is small, but
+commodious.  We were received by Mrs. Crewe with much kindness.
+The room was rather dark, and she had a veil to her bonnet, half
+down, and with this aid she looked still in a full blaze of
+beauty.  I was wholly astonished.  Her bloom, perfectly natural,
+is as high as that of Augusta Locke when in her best looks, and
+the form of her face is so exquisitely perfect that my eye never
+Met it without fresh admiration.  She is certainly, in my eyes,
+the most completely a beauty of any woman I ever saw.  I know
+not, even now, any female in her first youth who could bear the
+comparison.              She uglifies everything near her.
+
+Her son was with her.  He is just of age, and looks like her
+elder brother! He is a heavy old-looking young Man.  He is going
+to China with Lord Macartney.(363)
+
+
+                                THE BURKES.
+
+My former friend, young Burke, was also there.  I was glad to
+renew acquaintance with him though I could see some little
+strangeness in him: this, however, completely wore off.
+
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+
+before the day was over.  Soon after entered Mrs. Burke, Miss
+F.,(364) a niece, and Mr. Richard Burke, the comic, humorous,
+bold, queer brother of the Mr. Burke, who, they said, was soon
+coming, with Mr. Elliot.  The Burke family were invited by Mrs.
+Crewe to meet us.
+
+
+Mrs. Burke was just what I have always seen her, soft, gentle,
+reasonable, and obliging; and we met, I think, upon as good terms
+as if so many years had not parted us.
+
+At length Mr. Burke appeared, accompanied by Mr. Elliot.  He
+shook hands with my father as soon as he had paid his devoirs to
+Mrs. Crewe, but he returned my curtsey with so distant a bow,
+that I Concluded myself quite lost with him, from my evident
+solicitude in poor Mr. Hastings's cause.  I could not wish that
+less obvious, thinking as I think of it; but I felt infinitely
+grieved to lose the favour of a man whom in all other articles, I
+so much venerate, and whom, Indeed, I esteem and admire as the
+very first man of true genius now living in this Country.
+
+Mrs. Crewe introduced me to Mr. Elliot: I am Sure we were already
+personally known to each other, for I have seen him perpetually
+in the managers' box, whence, as often, he must have seen me in
+the great chamberlain's.  He is a tall, thin young man, plain in
+face, dress, and manner, but sensible, and possibly much besides;
+he was reserved, however, and little else appeared.
+
+The moment I was named, to my great joy I found Mr. Burke had not
+recollected me.  He is more near-sighted, considerably,- than
+myself.  "Miss Burney!"  he now exclaimed, coming forward, and
+quite kindly taking my hand, "I did not see you;" and then he
+spoke very sweet words of the meeting, and of my looking far
+better than "while I was a courtier," and of how he rejoiced to
+see that I so little suited that station.  "You look," cried he,
+"quite renewed, revived, disengaged; you seemed, when I conversed
+with you last, at the trial, quite altered; I never saw such a
+change for the better as quitting a Court has brought about!"
+
+Ah! thought I, this is simply a mistake, from reasoning according
+to your own feelings.  I only seemed altered for the worse at the
+trial, because I there looked coldly and distantly, from distaste
+and disaffection to your proceedings; and I here
+
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+.
+
+look changed for the better, only because I here meet You without
+the chill of disapprobation, and with the glow of my first
+admiration of you and your talents!
+
+
+                      BURKE'S CONVERSATIONAL POWERS.
+
+Mrs. Crewe gave him her place, and he sat by me, and entered into
+a most animated conversation upon Lord Macartney and his Chinese
+expedition, and the two Chinese youths who were to accompany it.
+These last he described minutely and spoke of the extent of the
+undertaking in high, and perhaps fanciful, terms, but with
+allusions and anecdotes intermixed, so full of general
+information and brilliant ideas, that I soon felt the whole of my
+first enthusiasm return, and with it a sensation of pleasure that
+made the day delicious to me.
+
+After this my father joined us, and politics took- the lead.  He
+spoke then with an eagerness and a vehemence that instantly
+banished the graces, though it redoubled the energies, of his
+discourse.  "The French Revolution," he said, "which began by
+authorising and legalising Injustice, and which by rapid steps
+had proceeded to every species of despotism except owning a
+despot, was now menacing all the universe and all mankind with
+the most violent concussion of principle and order."  My father
+heartily joined, and I tacitly assented to his doctrines, though
+I feared not with his fears.
+
+One Speech I Must repeat, for it is explanatory of his conduct,
+and nobly explanatory.  When lie had expatiated upon the present
+dangers, even to English liberty and property, from the contagion
+of havoc and novelty, he earnestly exclaimed, "This it is that
+has made ME an abettor and supporter of kings!  Kings are
+necessary, and if we would preserve peace and prosperity, we must
+preserve THEM we must all put our shoulders to the work!  Ay, and
+stoutly, too!"
+
+This subject lasted till dinner.
+
+At dinner Mr. Burke sat next Mrs. Crewe, and I had the happiness
+to be seated next Mr. Burke, and my other neighbour was his
+amiable son.
+
+The dinner, and the dessert when the servants were removed, were
+delightful.  How I wish my dear Susanna and Fredy could meet this
+wonderful man when he is easy, happy, and with people he
+cordially likes!  But politics, even on his own
+
+
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+
+side, must always be excluded; his irritability Is so terrible on
+that theme that it gives immediately to his face the expression
+of a man who is going to defend himself from murderers.  I can
+give you only a few little detached traits of what passed, as
+detail would be endless.
+
+Charles Fox being mentioned, Mrs. Crewe told us that he had
+lately said, upon being shown some passage in Mr. Burke's book
+which he had warmly opposed, but which had, in the event, made
+its own justification, very candidly, "Well! Burke is right--but
+Burke is often right, only he is right too soon."
+
+"Had Fox seen some things in that book," answered Mr. Burke, "as
+soon, he would at this moment, in all probability, be first
+minister of this country."
+
+"What!" cried Mrs. Crewe, "with Pitt?--No!--no!--Pitt won't go
+out, and Charles Fox will never make a coalition with Pitt."
+
+"And why not?" said Mr. Burke, dryly; "why not this coalition as
+well as other coalitions?"
+
+Nobody tried to answer this.
+
+"Charles Fox, however," said Mr. Burke afterwards, "can never
+internally like the French Revolution.  He is entangled; but, in
+himself, if he should find no other objection to it, he has at
+least too much taste for such a revolution."
+
+Mr. Elliot related that he had lately been in a company of some
+of the first and most distinguished men of the French nation, now
+fugitives here, and had asked them some questions about the new
+French ministry; they had answered that they knew them not even
+by name till now!  "Think," cried he, "what a ministry that must
+be!  Suppose a new administration formed here of Englishmen of
+whom we had never before heard the names! what statesmen they
+must be! how prepared and fitted for government!  To begin by
+being at the helm!"
+
+Mr. Richard Burke related, very comically, various censures cast
+upon his brother, accusing him of being the friend of despots,
+and the abettor of slavery, because he had been shocked at the
+imprisonment of the king of France, and was anxious to preserve
+our own limited monarchy in the same state in which it so long
+had flourished.
+
+Mr. Burke looked half alarmed at his brother's opening, but,
+
+
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+
+when he had finished, he very good-humouredly poured out a glass
+of wine, and, turning to me, said, "Come then--here's slavery for
+ever!"
+
+This was well understood, and echoed round the table with hearty
+laughter.
+
+
+"This would do for you completely, Mr. Burke," said Mrs. Crewe,
+"if it could get into a newspaper!  Mr. Burke, they would say,
+has now spoken out; the truth has come to light unguardedly, and
+his real defection from the cause Of true liberty is
+acknowledged.  I should like to draw up the paragraph!"
+
+"And add," said Mr. Burke, "the toast was addressed to Miss
+Burney, in order to pay court to the queen!"
+
+This sport went on till, upon Mr. Elliot's again mentioning
+France and the rising jacobins, Mr. Richard Burke loudly gave a
+new toast--"Come!" cried he, "here's confusion to Confusion!"
+
+Mr. Windham, who Was gone into Norfolk for the summer, was
+frequently mentioned, and always with praise.  Mr. Burke, upon
+Mr. Elliot's saying something of his being very thin, warmly
+exclaimed, "He is just as he should be!  If I were Windham this
+minute, I Should not wish to be thinner, nor fatter, nor taller,
+nor shorter, nor any way, nor in anything, altered."
+
+Some time after, speaking of former days, you may believe I was
+struck enough to hear Mr. Burke say to Mrs. Crewe, "I wish you
+had known Mrs. Delany!  She was a pattern of a perfect fine lady,
+a real fine lady, of other days!  Her manners were faultless; her
+deportment was all elegance, her speech was all sweetness, and
+her air and address all dignity.  I always looked up to her as
+the model of an accomplished woman of former times."
+
+Do you think I heard such a testimony to my most revered and
+beloved departed friend unmoved?
+
+Afterwards, still to Mrs. Crewe, he proceeded to say, she had
+been married to Mr. Wycherley, the author.(365)  There I ventured
+to interrupt him, and tell him I fancied that must he some
+
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+
+great mistake, as I had been well acquainted with her history
+from her own mouth.  He seemed to have heard it from some good
+authority; but I could by no means accede my belief, as her real
+life and memoirs had been so long in my hands,
+written by herself to a certain period, and, for some way,
+continued by me.  This, however, I did not mention.
+
+
+                            A WILD IRISH GIRL.
+
+When we left the dining-parlour to the gentlemen, Miss F- seized
+my arm, without the smallest previous speech, and, with a
+prodigious Irish brogue, said "Miss Burney, I am so glad you
+can't think to have this favourable opportunity of making an
+intimacy with you!  I have longed to know you ever since I became
+rational!"
+
+I was glad, too, that nobody heard her!  She made me walk off
+with her in the garden, whither we had adjourned for a stroll, at
+a full gallop, leaning upon my arm, and putting her face close to
+mine, and sputtering at every word from excessive eagerness.
+
+"I have the honour to know some of your relations in Ireland,"
+she continued; "that is, if they an't yours, which they are very
+sorry for, they are your sister's, which is almost the same
+thing.  Mr. Shirley first lent me 'Cecilia,' and he was so
+delighted to hear my remarks!  Mrs. Shirley's a most beautiful
+creature; she's grown so large and so big! and all her daughters
+are beautiful; so is all the family.  I never saw Captain
+Phillips, but I dare say he's beautiful."
+
+ She is quite a wild Irish girl.  Presently she talked of Miss
+Palmer.  "O, she loves you!" she cried; "she says she saw you
+last Sunday, and she never was so happy in her life.  She said
+you looked sadly."
+
+This Miss F- is a handsome girl, and seems very good humoured.  I
+imagine her but just imported, and I doubt not but the
+soft-mannercd, and well-bred, and quiet Mrs. Burke will soon
+subdue this exuberance of loquacity.
+
+I gathered afterwards from Mrs. Crewe, that my curious new
+acquaintance made innumerable inquiries concerning my employment
+and office under the queen.  I find many people much disturbed to
+know whether I had the place of the Duchess of Ancastor, on one
+side, or of a chamber-maid, on the other.  Truth is apt to lie
+between conjectures.
+
+
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+
+                            ERSKINE's EGOTISM.
+
+The party returned with two very singular additions to its
+number--Lord Loughborough,(366) and Mr. and Mrs. Erskine.(367)
+They have villas at Hampstead, and were met in the walk; Mr.
+Erskine else would not, probably, have desired to meet Mr. Burke,
+who openly in the House of Commons asked him if he knew what
+friendship meant, when he pretended to call him, Mr. Burke, his
+friend?
+
+There was an evident disunion of the cordiality of the party from
+this time.  My father, Mr. Richard Burke, his nephew, and Mr.
+Elliot entered into some general discourse; Mr.
+
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+
+Burke took up a volume Of Boileau, and read aloud, though to
+himself, and with a pleasure that soon made him seem to forget
+all intruders; Lord Loughborough joined Mrs. Burke and Mr.
+Erskine, seating himself next to Mrs. Crewe, engrossed her
+entirely, yet talked loud enough for all to hear who were not
+engaged themselves.
+
+For me, I sat next Mrs. Erskine, who seems much a woman
+of the world, for she spoke with me just as freely, and readily,
+and easily as if we had been old friends.
+
+Mr. Erskine enumerated all his avocations to Mrs. Crewe, and,
+amongst others, mentioned, very calmly, having to plead against
+Mr. Crewe upon a manor business in Cheshire.  Mrs. Crewe hastily
+and alarmed interrupted him, to inquire what he meant, and what
+might ensue to Mr. Crewe?  O, nothing but the loss of the
+lordship upon that spot," he coolly answered; "but I don't know
+that it will be given against him: I only know I shall have three
+hundred Pounds for it."
+
+Mrs. Crewe looked thoughtful; and Mr. Erskine then began to speak
+of the new Association for Reform, by the friends of the people,
+headed by Messrs. Grey and Sheridan, and sustained by Mr. Fox,
+and openly opposed by Mr. Windham, as well as Mr. Burke.  He said
+much of the use they had made of his name, though he had never
+yet been to the society; and I began to understand that he meant
+to disavow it; but presently he added, "I don't know whether I
+shall ever attend--I have so much to do--so little time: however,
+the people must be supported."(368)
+
+"PRAY, will you tell me," said Mrs. Crewe, drily, "what you mean
+by the people?  I never knew."
+
+He looked surprised, but evaded any answer and soon after took
+his leave, with his wife, who seems by no means to admire him as
+much as he admires himself, if I may judge by short odd speeches
+which dropped from her.  The eminence of Mr. Erskine seems all
+for public life; in private, his excessive egotisms undo him.
+
+
+Lord Loughborough instantly took his seat next to Mrs. Crewe; and
+presently related a speech which Mr. Erskine has lately made at
+some public meeting, and which he opened to this effect:--"As to
+me, gentlemen, I have some title to give my opinions freely.
+Would you know what my title is derived from?  I challenge any
+man to inquire!  If he ask my
+
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+
+birth,--its genealogy may dispute with kings!  If my wealth, it
+is all for which I have time to hold out my hand!  If my
+talents,--No! of those, gentlemen, I leave you to judge for
+yourselves."(369)
+
+
+                                CAEN-WOOD.
+
+June 22.-Mrs. Crewe took my father and myself to see the
+Hampstead lions.  We went to Caen-wood, to see the house and
+pictures.  Poor Lord Mansfield(370) has not been downstairs, the
+housekeeper told us, for the last four years; yet she asserts he
+is by no means superannuated, and frequently sees his very
+intimate friends, and seldom refuses to be consulted by any
+lawyers.  He was particularly connected with my revered Mrs.
+Delany, and I felt melancholy upon entering his house to
+recollect how often that beloved lady had planned carrying
+thither Miss Port and myself, and how often we had been invited
+by Miss Murrays, my lord's nieces.  I asked after those ladies,
+and left them my respects.  I heard they were up-stairs with Lord
+Mansfield, whom they never left.
+
+Many things in this house were interesting, because historical
+but I fancy the pictures, at least, not to have much other
+recommendation.  A portrait Of Pope, by himself, I thought
+extremely curious.  It is very much in the style of most of
+jervas's own paintings.  They told us that, after the burning of
+Lord Mansfield's house in town, at the time of Lord G. Gordon's
+riots, thousands came to inquire, if this original portrait was
+preserved.  Luckily it was at Caen-wood.
+
+We spent a good deal of time in the library,--and saw first
+editions of almost all Queen Anne's classics; and lists of
+subscribers to Pope's "Iliad," and many such matters, all
+enlivening to some corner or other of the memory.
+
+
+                       AN ADVENTURE WITH MRS. CREWE.
+
+We next proceeded to the Shakspeare gallery,(371) which I had
+
+
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+
+never seen.  And here we met with an adventure that finished our
+morning's excursions.
+
+There was a lady in the first room, dressed rather singularly,
+quite alone, and extremely handsome, who was parading about with
+a nosegay in her hand, which she frequently held to her nose, in
+a manner that was evidently calculated to attract notice.  We
+therefore passed on to the inner room, to avoid her.  Here we had
+but just all taken our stand opposite different pictures, when
+she also entered, and, coming pretty close to my father, sniffed
+at her flowers with a sort of extatic eagerness, and then let
+them fall.  My father picked them up, and gravely presented them
+to her.  She curtsied to the ground in receiving them, and
+presently crossed over the room, and,, brushing past Mrs. Crewe,
+seated herself immediately by her elbow.  Mrs. Crewe, not
+admiring this familiarity, moved away, giving her at the same
+time a look of dignified distance that was almost petrifying.
+
+It did not prove so to this lady, who presently followed her to
+the next picture, and, sitting as close as she could to where
+Mrs. Crewe stood, began singing various quick passages, without
+words or connexion.  I saw Mrs. Crewe much alarmed, and advanced
+to stand by her, meaning to whisper her that we had better leave
+the room; and this idea was not checked by seeing that the
+flowers were artificial.  By the looks we interchanged we soon
+mutually said, "This is a mad woman." We feared irritating her by
+a sudden flight, but gently retreated, and soon got quietly into
+the large room when she bounced up with a great noise, and,
+throwing the veil of her bonnet violently back, as if fighting
+it, she looked after us, pointing at Mrs. Crewe.
+
+Seriously frightened, Mrs. Crewe seized my father's arm, and
+hurried up two or three steps into a small apartment.  Here Mrs.
+Crewe, addressing herself to an elderly gentleman, asked if he
+could inform the people below that a mad woman was terrifying the
+company ; and while he was receiving her commission with the most
+profound respect, and with an evident air of admiring
+astonishment at her beauty, we heard a rustling, and, looking
+round, saw the same figure hastily striding after us, and in an
+instant at our elbows.
+
+Mrs. Crewe turned quite pale ; it was palpable she was the object
+pursued, and she most civilly and meekly articulated, "I beg your
+pardon, ma'am," as she hastily passed her, and hurried down the
+steps.  We were going to run for our lives,
+
+
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+when Miss Townshend whispered Mrs. Crewe it was Only Mrs. Wells
+the actress, and said she was certainly Only performing vagaries
+to try effect, which she was quite famous for doing.
+
+It would have been food for a painter to have seen Mrs. Crewe
+during this explanation.  All her terror instantly gave way to
+indignation; and scarcely any pencil could equal the high vivid
+glow of her cheeks.  To find herself made the object of game to
+the burlesque humour of a bold player, was an indignity she could
+not brook, and her mind was immediately at work how to assist
+herself against such unprovoked and unauthorized effrontery.
+
+The elderly gentleman who, with great eagerness, had followed
+Mrs. Crewe, accompanied by a young man who was of his party,
+requested more particularly her commands ; but before Mrs.
+Crewe's astonishment and resentment found words, Mrs. Wells,
+singing, and throwing herself into extravagant attitudes, again
+rushed down the steps, and fixed her eyes on Mrs. Crewe.  This,
+however, no longer served her purpose.  Mrs. Crewe fixed her in
+return, and with a firm, composed, commanding air and look that,
+though it did not make this strange creature retreat, somewhat
+disconcerted her for a few minutes.  She then presently affected
+a violent coughing such a one as almost shook the room; though
+such a forced and unnatural noise as rather resembled howling
+than a cold.
+
+This over, and perceiving Mrs, Crewe still steadily keeping
+her ground, she had the courage to come up to us, and, with a
+flippant air, said to the elderly gentleman, "Pray, sir, will you
+tell me what it is o'clock?"
+
+He looked vexed to be called a moment from looking at Mrs. Crewe,
+and, with a forbidding gravity, answered her, "About two."
+
+"No offence, I hope, sir?" cried she, seeing him turn eagerly
+from her.  He bowed without looking at her, and she strutted
+away, still, however, keeping in sight, and playing various
+tricks, her eyes perpetually turned towards Mrs. Crewe, who as
+regularly, met them, with an expression such as might have turned
+a softer culprit to stone.
+
+Our cabal was again renewed, and Mrs. Crewe again told this
+gentleman to make known to the proprietors of the gallery that
+this person was a nuisance to the company, when, suddenly
+re-approaching as, she called out, "Sir! sir!" to the younger of
+our new protectors.
+
+He coloured, and looked much alarmed, but only bowed.
+
+
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+
+"Pray, sir," cried she, "what's o'clock?"
+
+He looked at his watch, and answered.
+
+"You don't take it ill, I hope, sir?" she cried.
+
+He only bowed.
+
+"I do no harm, sir," said she; "I never bite."
+
+ The poor young man looked aghast, and bowed lower; but Mrs.
+Crewe, addressing herself to the elder, said aloud, "I beg you,
+sir, to go to Mr. Boydell; you may name me to him--Mrs. Crewe."
+
+Mrs. Wells at this walked away, yet still in sight.
+"You may tell him what has happened, sir, in all our names.  You
+may tell him Miss Burney--"
+
+"O no!" cried I, in a horrid fright, "I beseech I may not be
+named! And, indeed, ma'am, it may be better to let it all alone.
+It will do no good; and it may all get into the newspapers."
+
+"And if it does," cried Mrs. Crewe, "what is it to us?  We have
+done nothing; we have given no offence, and made no disturbance.
+This person has frightened us all wilfully, and Utterly without
+provocation; and now she can frighten us no longer, she would
+brave us.    Let her tell her own story, and how will it harm
+us?"
+
+"Still," cried I, "I must always fear being brought into any
+newspaper cabals.  Let the fact be ever so much against her, she
+will think the circumstances all to her honour if a paragraph
+comes out beginning 'Mrs. Crewe and Mrs. Wells.'"
+
+Mrs. Crewe liked this sound as little as I should have liked it
+in placing my own name where I put hers.  She hesitated a little
+what to do, and we all walked down-stairs, where instantly this
+bold woman followed us, paraded Up and down the long shop with a
+dramatic air while our group was in conference, and then, sitting
+down at the clerk's desk, and calling in a footman, she desired
+him to wait while she wrote a note.
+
+She scribbled a few lines, and read aloud her direction, "To Mr.
+Topham;" and giving the note to the man, said, "Tell your master
+that is something to make him laugh.  Bid him not send to the
+press till I see him."
+
+Now as Mr. Topham is the editor of "The World," and notoriously
+her protector, as her having his footman acknowledged, this
+looked rather serious, and Mrs. Crewe began to partake of my
+alarm.  She therefore, to my infinite satisfaction, told her new
+friend that she desired he would name no names, but merely
+mention that some ladies had been frightened. . . .
+
+
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+
+We then got into Mrs. Crewe's carriage, and not till then would
+this facetious Mrs. Wells quit the shop.  And she walked in
+sight, dodging us, and playing antics of a tragic sort of
+gesture, till we drove out of her power to keep up with us.  What
+a strange creature!
+
+
+
+             AN INVITATION FROM ARTHUR YOUNG.
+
+(Mr. Arthur Young to Fanny Burney.)
+Bradfield Farm, June 18, 1792.
+WHAT a plaguy business 'tis to take up one's pen to write to a
+person who is constantly moving in a vortex of pleasure,
+brilliancy, and wit,--whose movements and connections are, as it
+were, in another world! One knows not how to manage the matter
+with such folks, till you find by a little approximation and
+friction of tempers and things that they are mortal, and no more
+than good sort of people in the main, only garnished with
+something we do not possess ourselves.  Now then, the
+consequence.
+
+Only three pages to write, and one lost in introduction!  To the
+matter at last.
+
+It seemeth that you make a journey to Norfolk.  Now do ye see, if
+you do not give a call on the farmer, and examine his ram (an old
+acquaintance), his bull, his lambs, calves, and crops, he will
+say but one thing of you--that you are fit for a court, but not
+for a farm; and there is more happiness to be found among my
+rooks than in the midst of all the princes and princesses of
+Golconda.  I would give an hundred pound to see you married to a
+farmer that never saw London, with plenty of poultry ranging in a
+few green fields, and flowers and shrubs disposed where they
+should be, around a cottage, and not around a breakfast-room in
+Portman-square, fading in eyes that know not to admire them.  In
+honest truth now, let me request your company here.  It will give
+us all infinite pleasure.  You are habituated to admiration, but
+you shall have here what is much better--the friendship of those
+who loved you long before the world admired you.  Come, and make
+old friends happy!
+
+
+(346) The flight of the king and his family from Paris, on the
+night of  June 20-21.  They reached Varennes in safety the
+following night, but were there recognised and stopped, and the
+next day escorted back to Paris.-ED.
+
+(347) The reader will find in Green's "History of the English
+People," a widely different view of' the character of Dunstan.
+But Fanny knew only the old stories, and had, moreover, written a
+tragedy, "Edwy and Elgiva," in which Dunstan, in accordance with
+those old stories, appears as the villain.-ED.
+
+(348) Author of the "New Bath Guide."-ED.
+
+(349) Henrietta Frances, second daughter of John, first Earl
+Spencer, and younger sister of Georgiana, Duchess of Devonshire,
+married Viscount Duncannon in 1780.  She died in 1821.-ED.
+
+
+(350) Gibbon had good reason for his opinion of the power of Lady
+Elizabeth's charms.  In 1787, he met her at Lausanne, a young
+widow of twenty-eight, and found her allurements so irresistible
+that he proposed marriage to her, and was rejected.-ED.
+
+(351) Mrs. Ord was a yet more violent Tory than Fanny herself,
+and would believe no good of the Duchess of Devonshire, the queen
+of the Whigs.-ED.
+
+(352) In the "Memoirs of Dr. Burney," Fanny writes in more detail
+of this her last visit to Sir Joshua.  "He was still more deeply
+depressed; though Miss Palmer good-humouredly drew a smile from
+him, by gaily exclaiming, 'Do, pray, now, uncle, ask Miss Burney
+to write another book directly! for we have almost finished
+Cecilia again--and this is our sixth reading of it!'"
+
+"The little occupation, Miss Palmer said, of which Sir joshua was
+then capable, was carefully dusting the paintings in his picture
+gallery, and placing them in different points of view.
+
+"This passed at the conclusion Of 1791; on the February of the
+following year, this friend, equally amiable and eminent, was no
+more! (Memoirs, vol. iii. P. 144).-ED.
+
+(353) The wife of Sir Lucas Pepys.-ED.
+
+(354) Afterwards Lord Ellenborough: the leading counsel for
+Hastings.-ED.
+
+(355) February 23, 1792.-ED.
+
+(356) The greater part of Sir joshua's large fortune was left to
+his unmarried niece, Mary Palmer.  Considerable legacies were
+left to his niece, Mrs. Gwatkin (Offy Palmer), and to his friend
+Edmund Burke.  In addition to these legacies, his will provided
+for a number of small bequests, including one of a thousand
+pounds to his old servant, Ralph Kirkley.  In the following
+summer Mary Palmer married the Earl of Inchiquin, afterwards
+Marquis of Thomond.  "He is sixty-nine," Fanny writes about that
+time of Lord Inchiquin; "but they say he is remarkably pleasing
+in his manners, and soft and amiable in his disposition."-ED.
+
+(357) He was buried in the crypt of St. Paul's Cathedral, near
+the tomb of Sir Christopher Wren.-ED.
+
+(358) The recent proclamation by the Government against the
+publication and sale of seditious writings.  The "new associates"
+were members of the societies of sympathisers with the principles
+of the French Revolution, which, under such titles as "Friends of
+the People." "Corresponding Society," etc., were now spreading
+all over England.-ED.
+
+(359) The revolutionary clubs of Paris, the Jacobins' Club in
+particular, gradually acquired such power as enabled them to
+overawe the Legislative Assembly, and even, at a later date, the
+Convention itself.  Their influence only ceased with the
+overthrow and death of their leader, Robespièrre, in 1794.-ED.
+(360) The wife and eldest daughter of Arthur Young, the
+well-known writer on agriculture.  Mrs.  Young was the sister of
+Dr. Burney's second Wife.-ED.
+(361) "Madame de Genlis's husband, the Count de Genlis, had
+become Marquis of Sillery by the death of his elder brother.  He
+was a Revolutionist and member of the Girondin party: one of the
+twenty-two Girondins who perished by the guillotine, October 31,
+1793.  Madame de Genlis (or Brulard) had come to England in
+October, 1791, with her young pupil, Mlle. d'Orléans
+(Egalité), the daughter of Philippe Egalité, Duke of Orleans,
+whose physicians had ordered her to take the waters at Bath.
+They remained in England until November, 1792, when they were
+recalled to Paris by Egalité.  Arriving there, they found
+themselves proscribed as emigrants, and obliged to quit Paris
+within eight-and-forty hours.  They then took refuge in Flanders,
+and settled at Tournay where Pamela was married to Lord Edward
+Fitzgerald, subsequently one of the leaders in the Irish
+Rebellion of 1798.  In Flanders Madame de Genlis enjoyed the
+protection of General Dumontiez, but when he became suspected,
+with too good reason, by the Convention, she was obliged again to
+take flight, and found safety at last with Mlle. d'Orléans, in
+Switzerland.
+
+Pamela was the adopted daughter of Madame de Genlis; some said
+her actual daughter by the Duke of Orleans; but this is at least
+doubtful.  "Circe," or "Henrietta Circe," as Fanny afterwards
+calls her, was Madame de Genlis's niece, Henriette de Sercey (!),
+who subsequently married a rich merchant of Hamburg.-ED. VOL. 11.
+
+(362) "Is it possible?  Am I so happy?  Do I see my dear Miss
+Burney?"
+
+(363) Earl Macartney was sent as ambassador to China in 1793, for
+the purpose of concluding a commercial treaty with that power.
+He was unsuccessful, however, and, after spending some months in
+China, the embassy returned to England.-ED.
+
+(364) "Miss French, a lively niece of Mr. Burke's." (.Memoirs of
+Dr. Burney, vol. iii, p. 157.)-ED.
+
+(365) Burke was, of course, mistaken.  When Wycherley died, at
+seventy-five (December, 1715), Mary Granville (afterwards Mrs.
+Delany) was in her sixteenth year.  Wycherley, it is true,
+married a young wife on his deathbed, but it is certain that this
+was not Mary Granville; indeed, if Pope's account, given in
+Spence's "Anecdotes," may be trusted, it was a woman of very
+different character.-ED.
+
+(366) Alexander Wedderburn, afterwards Lord Loughborough, was
+born in or near Edinburgh in 1733.  He attained distinction at
+the bar, and entered Parliament early in the reign of George III.
+As a politician he was equally notorious for his skill in debate
+and his want of public principle.  Previously a member of the
+opposition, he ratted to the Government in 1771, and was rewarded
+by Lord North with the Solicitor-Generalship.  He defended Lord
+Clive in 1773.  When Thurlow became Lord Chancellor (in 1778),
+Wedderburn succeeded him in the office of Attorney-General.  In
+1786 he was made Chief justice of the Court of Common Pleas, and
+called to the House of Peers by the title of Baron Loughborough.
+After this we find him acting as a follower of Charles Fox, and
+leader of the Whig party in the House of Lords.  He supported
+Fox's views on the Regency question in 1788-9, but when the split
+in the Whig party on the subject of the French Revolution took
+place, Loughborough, like Burke, gave his support to the
+government.  In January, 1793, he obtained the long coveted post
+of Lord Chancellor.  He died January 1, 1805.  A story goes that
+when the news of Loughborough's death was brought to George III.,
+"his majesty was graciously pleased to exclaim, 'Then he has not
+left a greater knave behind him in my dominions.'" (Campbell's
+"Lives of the Chancellors," vol. vi., p. 334.)-ED.
+
+(367) Thomas Erskine (born 1750, died 1823), "If less eminent in
+the law, was a far more respectable politician than Loughborough,
+although his parliamentary career was by no means so brilliant.
+He was a consistent Whig, with the courage of his convictions.
+He lost his post of Attorney-General to the Prince of Wales
+through his defence of Thomas Paine, author of the famous "Rights
+of Man," in December, 1792.  Fired by the example of the French
+Revolutionists, the friends of liberty in England were, about
+this time, everywhere forming themselves into political
+associations, for the purpose of promoting Parliamentary reform,
+and generally "spreading the principles of freedom." By the
+government these societies were regarded as seditious.  Erskine
+was a member of one or more of these associations, and one of his
+most brilliant triumphs at the bar was connected with the
+prosecution by government (October, 1794), of Hardy Thelwall and
+Horne Tooke for high treason, as members of one of these supposed
+seditious societies.  The prisoners were defended by Erskine and
+acquitted.  Erskine became Lord Chancellor in 1806 after the
+death of Pitt.-ED.
+
+(368) On his own admission Erskine was a member of the Society of
+Friends of the People about the end of 1792-ED.
+
+(369) With all his talents Erskine was always noted for his
+inordinate vanity.-ED.
+
+(370) The famous Lord Chief justice.  He died in 1793, aged
+eighty-eight years.-ED.
+
+(371) Alderman Boydell's celebrated "Shakspeare Gallery" in Pall
+Mall, contained paintings illustrative of Shakspeare by Reynolds,
+Romney, Fuseli, and many others of the most distinguished
+painters of the day.  The entire collection, comprising one
+hundred and seventy works, was sold by auction by Christie, in
+May, 1805.-ED.
+
+(372) For Arthur Young, see postea, vol. iii., p. 17.  Bradfield
+Farm, his home was in Suffolk, in the neighbourhood of Bury St.
+Edmunds.-ED.
+
+
+
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