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You may copy it, give it away or -re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included -with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org - - -Title: Dreams - -Author: Olive Schreiner - -Posting Date: August 16, 2008 [EBook #1439] -Release Date: August, 1998 -Last Updated: October 12, 2016 - -Language: English - -Character set encoding: UTF-8 - -*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK DREAMS *** - - - - -Produced by Sue Asscher - - - - - -DREAMS - -By Olive Schreiner - - - To a small girl-child, who may live to grasp somewhat of - that which for us is yet sight, not touch. - - - Note. - - These Dreams are printed in the order in which they were - written. - - In the case of two there was a lapse of some years between - the writing of the first and last parts; these are placed - according to the date of the first part. - - Olive Schreiner. - - - Matjesfontein, - Cape Colony, - South Africa. - November, 1890. - - - - -CONTENTS. - - I. The Lost Joy. - - II. The Hunter (From “The Story of of an African Farm”). - - III. The Gardens of Pleasure. - - IV. In a Far-off World. - - V. Three Dreams in a Desert. - - VI. A Dream of Wild Bees (Written as a letter to a friend). - - VII. In a Ruined Chapel. - - VIII. Life’s Gifts. - - IX. The Artist’s Secret. - - X. “I Thought I Stood.” - - XI. The Sunlight Lay across My Bed. - - - - - -I. THE LOST JOY. - -All day, where the sunlight played on the sea-shore, Life sat. - -All day the soft wind played with her hair, and the young, young face -looked out across the water. She was waiting--she was waiting; but she -could not tell for what. - -All day the waves ran up and up on the sand, and ran back again, and the -pink shells rolled. Life sat waiting; all day, with the sunlight in her -eyes, she sat there, till, grown weary, she laid her head upon her knee -and fell asleep, waiting still. - -Then a keel grated on the sand, and then a step was on the shore--Life -awoke and heard it. A hand was laid upon her, and a great shudder passed -through her. She looked up, and saw over her the strange, wide eyes of -Love--and Life now knew for whom she had sat there waiting. - -And Love drew Life up to him. - -And of that meeting was born a thing rare and beautiful--Joy, First-Joy -was it called. The sunlight when it shines upon the merry water is not -so glad; the rosebuds, when they turn back their lips for the sun’s -first kiss, are not so ruddy. Its tiny pulses beat quick. It was -so warm, so soft! It never spoke, but it laughed and played in the -sunshine: and Love and Life rejoiced exceedingly. Neither whispered it -to the other, but deep in its own heart each said, “It shall be ours for -ever.” - -Then there came a time--was it after weeks? was it after months? (Love -and Life do not measure time)--when the thing was not as it had been. - -Still it played; still it laughed; still it stained its mouth with -purple berries; but sometimes the little hands hung weary, and the -little eyes looked out heavily across the water. - -And Life and Love dared not look into each other’s eyes, dared not say, -“What ails our darling?” Each heart whispered to itself, “It is nothing, -it is nothing, tomorrow it will laugh out clear.” But tomorrow and -tomorrow came. They journeyed on, and the child played beside them, but -heavily, more heavily. - -One day Life and Love lay down to sleep; and when they awoke, it -was gone: only, near them, on the grass, sat a little stranger, with -wide-open eyes, very soft and sad. Neither noticed it; but they walked -apart, weeping bitterly, “Oh, our Joy! our lost Joy! shall we see you no -more for ever?” - -The little soft and sad-eyed stranger slipped a hand into one hand of -each, and drew them closer, and Life and Love walked on with it between -them. And when Life looked down in anguish, she saw her tears reflected -in its soft eyes. And when Love, mad with pain, cried out, “I am weary, -I am weary! I can journey no further. The light is all behind, the dark -is all before,” a little rosy finger pointed where the sunlight lay upon -the hill-sides. Always its large eyes were sad and thoughtful: always -the little brave mouth was smiling quietly. - -When on the sharp stones Life cut her feet, he wiped the blood upon his -garments, and kissed the wounded feet with his little lips. When in the -desert Love lay down faint (for Love itself grows faint), he ran over -the hot sand with his little naked feet, and even there in the desert -found water in the holes in the rocks to moisten Love’s lips with. He -was no burden--he never weighted them; he only helped them forward on -their journey. - -When they came to the dark ravine where the icicles hang from the -rocks--for Love and Life must pass through strange drear places--there, -where all is cold, and the snow lies thick, he took their freezing hands -and held them against his beating little heart, and warmed them--and -softly he drew them on and on. - -And when they came beyond, into the land of sunshine and flowers, -strangely the great eyes lit up, and dimples broke out upon the face. -Brightly laughing, it ran over the soft grass; gathered honey from the -hollow tree; and brought it them on the palm of its hand; carried them -water in the leaves of the lily, and gathered flowers and wreathed them -round their heads, softly laughing all the while. He touched them as -their Joy had touched them, but his fingers clung more tenderly. - -So they wandered on, through the dark lands and the light, always with -that little brave smiling one between them. Sometimes they remembered -that first radiant Joy, and whispered to themselves, “Oh! could we but -find him also!” - -At last they came to where Reflection sits; that strange old woman who -has always one elbow on her knee, and her chin in her hand, and who -steals light out of the past to shed it on the future. - -And Life and Love cried out, “O wise one! tell us: when first we met, a -lovely radiant thing belonged to us--gladness without a tear, sunshine -without a shade. Oh! how did we sin that we lost it? Where shall we go -that we may find it?” - -And she, the wise old woman, answered, “To have it back, will you give -up that which walks beside you now?” - -And in agony Love and Life cried, “No!” - -“Give up this!” said Life. “When the thorns have pierced me, who will -suck the poison out? When my head throbs, who will lay his tiny hands -upon it and still the beating? In the cold and the dark, who will warm -my freezing heart?” - -And Love cried out, “Better let me die! Without Joy I can live; without -this I cannot. Let me rather die, not lose it!” - -And the wise old woman answered, “O fools and blind! What you once had -is that which you have now! When Love and Life first meet, a radiant -thing is born, without a shade. When the roads begin to roughen, when -the shades begin to darken, when the days are hard, and the nights cold -and long--then it begins to change. Love and Life WILL not see it, WILL -not know it--till one day they start up suddenly, crying, ‘O God! O God! -we have lost it! Where is it?’ They do not understand that they could -not carry the laughing thing unchanged into the desert, and the frost, -and the snow. They do not know that what walks beside them still is the -Joy grown older. The grave, sweet, tender thing--warm in the coldest -snows, brave in the dreariest deserts--its name is Sympathy; it is the -Perfect Love.” - -South Africa. - - - - -II. THE HUNTER. - -In certain valleys there was a hunter. Day by day he went to hunt for -wild-fowl in the woods; and it chanced that once he stood on the shores -of a large lake. While he stood waiting in the rushes for the coming -of the birds, a great shadow fell on him, and in the water he saw a -reflection. He looked up to the sky; but the thing was gone. Then a -burning desire came over him to see once again that reflection in the -water, and all day he watched and waited; but night came and it had not -returned. Then he went home with his empty bag, moody and silent. His -comrades came questioning about him to know the reason, but he answered -them nothing; he sat alone and brooded. Then his friend came to him, and -to him he spoke. - -“I have seen today,” he said, “that which I never saw before--a vast -white bird, with silver wings outstretched, sailing in the everlasting -blue. And now it is as though a great fire burnt within my breast. It -was but a sheen, a shimmer, a reflection in the water; but now I desire -nothing more on earth than to hold her.” - -His friend laughed. - -“It was but a beam playing on the water, or the shadow of your own head. -Tomorrow you will forget her,” he said. - -But tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow the hunter walked alone. -He sought in the forest and in the woods, by the lakes and among the -rushes, but he could not find her. He shot no more wild fowl; what were -they to him? - -“What ails him?” said his comrades. - -“He is mad,” said one. - -“No; but he is worse,” said another; “he would see that which none of us -have seen, and make himself a wonder.” - -“Come, let us forswear his company,” said all. - -So the hunter walked alone. - -One night, as he wandered in the shade, very heartsore and weeping, an -old man stood before him, grander and taller than the sons of men. - -“Who are you?” asked the hunter. - -“I am Wisdom,” answered the old man; “but some men call me Knowledge. -All my life I have grown in these valleys; but no man sees me till he -has sorrowed much. The eyes must be washed with tears that are to behold -me; and, according as a man has suffered, I speak.” - -And the hunter cried: - -“Oh, you who have lived here so long, tell me, what is that great wild -bird I have seen sailing in the blue? They would have me believe she is -a dream; the shadow of my own head.” - -The old man smiled. - -“Her name is Truth. He who has once seen her never rests again. Till -death he desires her.” - -And the hunter cried: - -“Oh, tell me where I may find her.” - -But the old man said: - -“You have not suffered enough,” and went. - -Then the hunter took from his breast the shuttle of Imagination, and -wound on it the thread of his Wishes; and all night he sat and wove a -net. - -In the morning he spread the golden net upon the ground, and into it -he threw a few grains of credulity, which his father had left him, and -which he kept in his breast-pocket. They were like white puff-balls, and -when you trod on them a brown dust flew out. Then he sat by to see what -would happen. The first that came into the net was a snow-white -bird, with dove’s eyes, and he sang a beautiful song--“A human-God! a -human-God! a human-God!” it sang. The second that came was black and -mystical, with dark, lovely eyes, that looked into the depths of your -soul, and he sang only this--“Immortality!” - -And the hunter took them both in his arms, for he said-- - -“They are surely of the beautiful family of Truth.” - -Then came another, green and gold, who sang in a shrill voice, like one -crying in the marketplace,--“Reward after Death! Reward after Death!” - -And he said-- - -“You are not so fair; but you are fair too,” and he took it. - -And others came, brightly coloured, singing pleasant songs, till all the -grains were finished. And the hunter gathered all his birds together, -and built a strong iron cage called a new creed, and put all his birds -in it. - -Then the people came about dancing and singing. - -“Oh, happy hunter!” they cried. “Oh, wonderful man! Oh, delightful -birds! Oh, lovely songs!” - -No one asked where the birds had come from, nor how they had been -caught; but they danced and sang before them. And the hunter too was -glad, for he said: - -“Surely Truth is among them. In time she will moult her feathers, and I -shall see her snow-white form.” - -But the time passed, and the people sang and danced; but the hunter’s -heart grew heavy. He crept alone, as of old, to weep; the terrible -desire had awakened again in his breast. One day, as he sat alone -weeping, it chanced that Wisdom met him. He told the old man what he had -done. - -And Wisdom smiled sadly. - -“Many men,” he said, “have spread that net for Truth; but they have -never found her. On the grains of credulity she will not feed; in the -net of wishes her feet cannot be held; in the air of these valleys she -will not breathe. The birds you have caught are of the brood of Lies. -Lovely and beautiful, but still lies; Truth knows them not.” - -And the hunter cried out in bitterness-- - -“And must I then sit still, to be devoured of this great burning?” - -And the old man said, - -“Listen, and in that you have suffered much and wept much, I will tell -you what I know. He who sets out to search for Truth must leave these -valleys of superstition forever, taking with him not one shred that has -belonged to them. Alone he must wander down into the Land of Absolute -Negation and Denial; he must abide there; he must resist temptation; -when the light breaks he must arise and follow it into the country of -dry sunshine. The mountains of stern reality will rise before him; he -must climb them; beyond them lies Truth.” - -“And he will hold her fast! he will hold her in his hands!” the hunter -cried. - -Wisdom shook his head. - -“He will never see her, never hold her. The time is not yet.” - -“Then there is no hope?” cried the hunter. - -“There is this,” said Wisdom: “Some men have climbed on those mountains; -circle above circle of bare rock they have scaled; and, wandering there, -in those high regions, some have chanced to pick up on the ground one -white silver feather, dropped from the wing of Truth. And it shall come -to pass,” said the old man, raising himself prophetically and pointing -with his finger to the sky, “it shall come to pass, that when enough of -those silver feathers shall have been gathered by the hands of men, and -shall have been woven into a cord, and the cord into a net, that in that -net Truth may be captured. Nothing but Truth can hold Truth.” - -The hunter arose. “I will go,” he said. - -But wisdom detained him. - -“Mark you well--who leaves these valleys never returns to them. Though -he should weep tears of blood seven days and nights upon the confines, -he can never put his foot across them. Left--they are left forever. Upon -the road which you would travel there is no reward offered. Who goes, -goes freely--for the great love that is in him. The work is his reward.” - -“I go” said the hunter; “but upon the mountains, tell me, which path -shall I take?” - -“I am the child of The-Accumulated-Knowledge-of-Ages,” said the man; “I -can walk only where many men have trodden. On these mountains few feet -have passed; each man strikes out a path for himself. He goes at his own -peril: my voice he hears no more. I may follow after him, but cannot go -before him.” - -Then Knowledge vanished. - -And the hunter turned. He went to his cage, and with his hands broke -down the bars, and the jagged iron tore his flesh. It is sometimes -easier to build than to break. - -One by one he took his plumed birds and let them fly. But when he came -to his dark-plumed bird he held it, and looked into its beautiful eyes, -and the bird uttered its low, deep cry--“Immortality!” - -And he said quickly: “I cannot part with it. It is not heavy; it eats -no food. I will hide it in my breast; I will take it with me.” And he -buried it there and covered it over with his cloak. - -But the thing he had hidden grew heavier, heavier, heavier--till it lay -on his breast like lead. He could not move with it. He could not leave -those valleys with it. Then again he took it out and looked at it. - -“Oh, my beautiful! my heart’s own!” he cried, “may I not keep you?” - -He opened his hands sadly. - -“Go!” he said. “It may happen that in Truth’s song one note is like -yours; but I shall never hear it.” - -Sadly he opened his hand, and the bird flew from him forever. - -Then from the shuttle of Imagination he took the thread of his wishes, -and threw it on the ground; and the empty shuttle he put into his -breast, for the thread was made in those valleys, but the shuttle came -from an unknown country. He turned to go, but now the people came about -him, howling. - -“Fool, hound, demented lunatic!” they cried. “How dared you break your -cage and let the birds fly?” - -The hunter spoke; but they would not hear him. - -“Truth! who is she? Can you eat her? can you drink her? Who has ever -seen her? Your birds were real: all could hear them sing! Oh, fool! vile -reptile! atheist!” they cried, “you pollute the air.” - -“Come, let us take up stones and stone him,” cried some. - -“What affair is it of ours?” said others. “Let the idiot go,” and went -away. But the rest gathered up stones and mud and threw at him. At last, -when he was bruised and cut, the hunter crept away into the woods. And -it was evening about him. - -He wandered on and on, and the shade grew deeper. He was on the borders -now of the land where it is always night. Then he stepped into it, and -there was no light there. With his hands he groped; but each branch -as he touched it broke off, and the earth was covered with cinders. At -every step his foot sank in, and a fine cloud of impalpable ashes flew -up into his face; and it was dark. So he sat down upon a stone and -buried his face in his hands, to wait in the Land of Negation and Denial -till the light came. - -And it was night in his heart also. - -Then from the marshes to his right and left cold mists arose and closed -about him. A fine, imperceptible rain fell in the dark, and great drops -gathered on his hair and clothes. His heart beat slowly, and a numbness -crept through all his limbs. Then, looking up, two merry wisp lights -came dancing. He lifted his head to look at them. Nearer, nearer they -came. So warm, so bright, they danced like stars of fire. They stood -before him at last. From the centre of the radiating flame in one looked -out a woman’s face, laughing, dimpled, with streaming yellow hair. In -the centre of the other were merry laughing ripples, like the bubbles on -a glass of wine. They danced before him. - -“Who are you,” asked the hunter, “who alone come to me in my solitude -and darkness?” - -“We are the twins Sensuality,” they cried. “Our father’s name is -Human-Nature, and our mother’s name is Excess. We are as old as the -hills and rivers, as old as the first man; but we never die,” they -laughed. - -“Oh, let me wrap my arms about you!” cried the first; “they are soft -and warm. Your heart is frozen now, but I will make it beat. Oh, come to -me!” - -“I will pour my hot life into you,” said the second; “your brain is -numb, and your limbs are dead now; but they shall live with a fierce -free life. Oh, let me pour it in!” - -“Oh, follow us,” they cried, “and live with us. Nobler hearts than yours -have sat here in this darkness to wait, and they have come to us and we -to them; and they have never left us, never. All else is a delusion, but -we are real, we are real, we are real. Truth is a shadow; the valleys of -superstition are a farce: the earth is of ashes, the trees all rotten; -but we--feel us--we live! You cannot doubt us. Feel us how warm we are! -Oh, come to us! Come with us!” - -Nearer and nearer round his head they hovered, and the cold drops melted -on his forehead. The bright light shot into his eyes, dazzling him, and -the frozen blood began to run. And he said: - -“Yes, why should I die here in this awful darkness? They are warm, they -melt my frozen blood!” and he stretched out his hands to take them. - -Then in a moment there arose before him the image of the thing he had -loved, and his hand dropped to his side. - -“Oh, come to us!” they cried. - -But he buried his face. - -“You dazzle my eyes,” he cried, “you make my heart warm; but you cannot -give me what I desire. I will wait here--wait till I die. Go!” - -He covered his face with his hands and would not listen; and when he -looked up again they were two twinkling stars, that vanished in the -distance. - -And the long, long night rolled on. - -All who leave the valley of superstition pass through that dark land; -but some go through it in a few days, some linger there for months, some -for years, and some die there. - -At last for the hunter a faint light played along the horizon, and he -rose to follow it; and he reached that light at last, and stepped into -the broad sunshine. Then before him rose the almighty mountains of -Dry-facts and Realities. The clear sunshine played on them, and the tops -were lost in the clouds. At the foot many paths ran up. An exultant cry -burst from the hunter. He chose the straightest and began to climb; -and the rocks and ridges resounded with his song. They had exaggerated; -after all, it was not so high, nor was the road so steep! A few days, a -few weeks, a few months at most, and then the top! Not one feather only -would he pick up; he would gather all that other men had found--weave -the net--capture Truth--hold her fast--touch her with his hands--clasp -her! - -He laughed in the merry sunshine, and sang loud. Victory was very near. -Nevertheless, after a while the path grew steeper. He needed all his -breath for climbing, and the singing died away. On the right and left -rose huge rocks, devoid of lichen or moss, and in the lava-like earth -chasms yawned. Here and there he saw a sheen of white bones. Now too the -path began to grow less and less marked; then it became a mere trace, -with a footmark here and there; then it ceased altogether. He sang no -more, but struck forth a path for himself, until it reached a mighty -wall of rock, smooth and without break, stretching as far as the eye -could see. “I will rear a stair against it; and, once this wall climbed, -I shall be almost there,” he said bravely; and worked. With his shuttle -of imagination he dug out stones; but half of them would not fit, and -half a month’s work would roll down because those below were ill chosen. -But the hunter worked on, saying always to himself, “Once this wall -climbed, I shall be almost there. This great work ended!” - -At last he came out upon the top, and he looked about him. Far below -rolled the white mist over the valleys of superstition, and above him -towered the mountains. They had seemed low before; they were of an -immeasurable height now, from crown to foundation surrounded by walls of -rock, that rose tier above tier in mighty circles. Upon them played -the eternal sunshine. He uttered a wild cry. He bowed himself on to -the earth, and when he rose his face was white. In absolute silence he -walked on. He was very silent now. In those high regions the rarefied -air is hard to breathe by those born in the valleys; every breath he -drew hurt him, and the blood oozed out from the tips of his fingers. -Before the next wall of rock he began to work. The height of this seemed -infinite, and he said nothing. The sound of his tool rang night and day -upon the iron rocks into which he cut steps. Years passed over him, -yet he worked on; but the wall towered up always above him to heaven. -Sometimes he prayed that a little moss or lichen might spring up on -those bare walls to be a companion to him; but it never came. - -And the years rolled on; he counted them by the steps he had cut--a few -for a year--only a few. He sang no more; he said no more, “I will do -this or that”--he only worked. And at night, when the twilight settled -down, there looked out at him from the holes and crevices in the rocks -strange wild faces. - -“Stop your work, you lonely man, and speak to us,” they cried. - -“My salvation is in work, if I should stop but for one moment you would -creep down upon me,” he replied. And they put out their long necks -further. - -“Look down into the crevice at your feet,” they said. “See what lie -there--white bones! As brave and strong a man as you climbed to these -rocks.” And he looked up. He saw there was no use in striving; he would -never hold Truth, never see her, never find her. So he lay down here, -for he was very tired. He went to sleep forever. He put himself to -sleep. Sleep is very tranquil. You are not lonely when you are asleep, -neither do your hands ache, nor your heart. And the hunter laughed -between his teeth. - -“Have I torn from my heart all that was dearest; have I wandered alone -in the land of night; have I resisted temptation; have I dwelt where the -voice of my kind is never heard, and laboured alone, to lie down and be -food for you, ye harpies?” - -He laughed fiercely; and the Echoes of Despair slunk away, for the laugh -of a brave, strong heart is as a death blow to them. - -Nevertheless they crept out again and looked at him. - -“Do you know that your hair is white?” they said, “that your hands begin -to tremble like a child’s? Do you see that the point of your shuttle is -gone?--it is cracked already. If you should ever climb this stair,” they -said, “it will be your last. You will never climb another.” - -And he answered, “I know it!” and worked on. - -The old, thin hands cut the stones ill and jaggedly, for the fingers -were stiff and bent. The beauty and the strength of the man was gone. - -At last, an old, wizened, shrunken face looked out above the rocks. It -saw the eternal mountains rise with walls to the white clouds; but its -work was done. - -The old hunter folded his tired hands and lay down by the precipice -where he had worked away his life. It was the sleeping time at last. -Below him over the valleys rolled the thick white mist. Once it broke; -and through the gap the dying eyes looked down on the trees and fields -of their childhood. From afar seemed borne to him the cry of his own -wild birds, and he heard the noise of people singing as they danced. And -he thought he heard among them the voices of his old comrades; and -he saw far off the sunlight shine on his early home. And great tears -gathered in the hunter’s eyes. - -“Ah! they who die there do not die alone,” he cried. - -Then the mists rolled together again; and he turned his eyes away. - -“I have sought,” he said, “for long years I have laboured; but I have -not found her. I have not rested, I have not repined, and I have not -seen her; now my strength is gone. Where I lie down worn out other men -will stand, young and fresh. By the steps that I have cut they will -climb; by the stairs that I have built they will mount. They will never -know the name of the man who made them. At the clumsy work they will -laugh; when the stones roll they will curse me. But they will mount, and -on my work; they will climb, and by my stair! They will find her, and -through me! And no man liveth to himself and no man dieth to himself.” - -The tears rolled from beneath the shrivelled eyelids. If Truth had -appeared above him in the clouds now he could not have seen her, the -mist of death was in his eyes. - -“My soul hears their glad step coming,” he said; “and they shall mount! -they shall mount!” He raised his shrivelled hand to his eyes. - -Then slowly from the white sky above, through the still air, came -something falling, falling, falling. Softly it fluttered down, and -dropped on to the breast of the dying man. He felt it with his hands. It -was a feather. He died holding it. - - - - -III. THE GARDENS OF PLEASURE. - -She walked upon the beds, and the sweet rich scent arose; and she -gathered her hands full of flowers. Then Duty, with his white clear -features, came and looked at her. Then she ceased from gathering, but -she walked away among the flowers, smiling, and with her hands full. - -Then Duty, with his still white face, came again, and looked at her; but -she, she turned her head away from him. At last she saw his face, and -she dropped the fairest of the flowers she had held, and walked silently -away. - -Then again he came to her. And she moaned, and bent her head low, and -turned to the gate. But as she went out she looked back at the sunlight -on the faces of the flowers, and wept in anguish. Then she went out, and -it shut behind her for ever; but still in her hand she held of the buds -she had gathered, and the scent was very sweet in the lonely desert. - -But he followed her. Once more he stood before her with his still, -white, death-like face. And she knew what he had come for: she unbent -the fingers, and let the flowers drop out, the flowers she had loved -so, and walked on without them, with dry, aching eyes. Then for the last -time he came. And she showed him her empty hands, the hands that held -nothing now. But still he looked. Then at length she opened her bosom -and took out of it one small flower she had hidden there, and laid it on -the sand. She had nothing more to give now, and she wandered away, and -the grey sand whirled about her. - - - - -IV. IN A FAR-OFF WORLD. - -There is a world in one of the far-off stars, and things do not happen -here as they happen there. - -In that world were a man and woman; they had one work, and they walked -together side by side on many days, and were friends--and that is a -thing that happens now and then in this world also. - -But there was something in that star-world that there is not here. -There was a thick wood: where the trees grew closest, and the stems were -interlocked, and the summer sun never shone, there stood a shrine. In -the day all was quiet, but at night, when the stars shone or the moon -glinted on the tree-tops, and all was quiet below, if one crept here -quite alone and knelt on the steps of the stone altar, and uncovering -one’s breast, so wounded it that the blood fell down on the altar steps, -then whatever he who knelt there wished for was granted him. And all -this happens, as I said, because it is a far-off world, and things often -happen there as they do not happen here. - -Now, the man and woman walked together; and the woman wished well to the -man. One night when the moon was shining so that the leaves of all the -trees glinted, and the waves of the sea were silvery, the woman walked -alone to the forest. It was dark there; the moonlight fell only in -little flecks on the dead leaves under her feet, and the branches were -knotted tight overhead. Farther in it got darker, not even a fleck of -moonlight shone. Then she came to the shrine; she knelt down before it -and prayed; there came no answer. Then she uncovered her breast; with a -sharp two-edged stone that lay there she wounded it. The drops dripped -slowly down on to the stone, and a voice cried, “What do you seek?” - -She answered, “There is a man; I hold him nearer than anything. I would -give him the best of all blessings.” - -The voice said, “What is it?” - -The girl said, “I know not, but that which is most good for him I wish -him to have.” - -The voice said, “Your prayer is answered; he shall have it.” - -Then she stood up. She covered her breast and held the garment tight -upon it with her hand, and ran out of the forest, and the dead leaves -fluttered under her feet. Out in the moonlight the soft air was blowing, -and the sand glittered on the beach. She ran along the smooth shore, -then suddenly she stood still. Out across the water there was something -moving. She shaded her eyes and looked. It was a boat; it was sliding -swiftly over the moonlit water out to sea. One stood upright in it; the -face the moonlight did not show, but the figure she knew. It was passing -swiftly; it seemed as if no one propelled it; the moonlight’s shimmer -did not let her see clearly, and the boat was far from shore, but it -seemed almost as if there was another figure sitting in the stern. -Faster and faster it glided over the water away, away. She ran along the -shore; she came no nearer it. The garment she had held closed fluttered -open; she stretched out her arms, and the moonlight shone on her long -loose hair. - -Then a voice beside her whispered, “What is it?” - -She cried, “With my blood I bought the best of all gifts for him. I have -come to bring it him! He is going from me!” - -The voice whispered softly, “Your prayer was answered. It has been given -him.” - -She cried, “What is it?” - -The voice answered, “It is that he might leave you.” - -The girl stood still. - -Far out at sea the boat was lost to sight beyond the moonlight sheen. - -The voice spoke softly, “Art thou contented?” - -She said, “I am contented.” - -At her feet the waves broke in long ripples softly on the shore. - - - - -V. THREE DREAMS IN A DESERT. - -Under a Mimosa-Tree. - -As I travelled across an African plain the sun shone down hotly. Then I -drew my horse up under a mimosa-tree, and I took the saddle from him and -left him to feed among the parched bushes. And all to right and to left -stretched the brown earth. And I sat down under the tree, because the -heat beat fiercely, and all along the horizon the air throbbed. And -after a while a heavy drowsiness came over me, and I laid my head down -against my saddle, and I fell asleep there. And, in my sleep, I had a -curious dream. - -I thought I stood on the border of a great desert, and the sand blew -about everywhere. And I thought I saw two great figures like beasts of -burden of the desert, and one lay upon the sand with its neck stretched -out, and one stood by it. And I looked curiously at the one that lay -upon the ground, for it had a great burden on its back, and the sand was -thick about it, so that it seemed to have piled over it for centuries. - -And I looked very curiously at it. And there stood one beside me -watching. And I said to him, “What is this huge creature who lies here -on the sand?” - -And he said, “This is woman; she that bears men in her body.” - -And I said, “Why does she lie here motionless with the sand piled round -her?” - -And he answered, “Listen, I will tell you! Ages and ages long she has -lain here, and the wind has blown over her. The oldest, oldest, oldest -man living has never seen her move: the oldest, oldest book records that -she lay here then, as she lies here now, with the sand about her. But -listen! Older than the oldest book, older than the oldest recorded -memory of man, on the Rocks of Language, on the hard-baked clay of -Ancient Customs, now crumbling to decay, are found the marks of her -footsteps! Side by side with his who stands beside her you may trace -them; and you know that she who now lies there once wandered free over -the rocks with him.” - -And I said, “Why does she lie there now?” - -And he said, “I take it, ages ago the Age-of-dominion-of-muscular-force -found her, and when she stooped low to give suck to her young, and her -back was broad, he put his burden of subjection on to it, and tied it -on with the broad band of Inevitable Necessity. Then she looked at the -earth and the sky, and knew there was no hope for her; and she lay down -on the sand with the burden she could not loosen. Ever since she has -lain here. And the ages have come, and the ages have gone, but the band -of Inevitable Necessity has not been cut.” - -And I looked and saw in her eyes the terrible patience of the centuries; -the ground was wet with her tears, and her nostrils blew up the sand. - -And I said, “Has she ever tried to move?” - -And he said, “Sometimes a limb has quivered. But she is wise; she knows -she cannot rise with the burden on her.” - -And I said, “Why does not he who stands by her leave her and go on?” - -And he said, “He cannot. Look--” - -And I saw a broad band passing along the ground from one to the other, -and it bound them together. - -He said, “While she lies there he must stand and look across the -desert.” - -And I said, “Does he know why he cannot move?” - -And he said, “No.” - -And I heard a sound of something cracking, and I looked, and I saw the -band that bound the burden on to her back broken asunder; and the burden -rolled on to the ground. - -And I said, “What is this?” - -And he said, “The Age-of-muscular-force is dead. The -Age-of-nervous-force has killed him with the knife he holds in his hand; -and silently and invisibly he has crept up to the woman, and with that -knife of Mechanical Invention he has cut the band that bound the burden -to her back. The Inevitable Necessity it broken. She might rise now.” - -And I saw that she still lay motionless on the sand, with her eyes open -and her neck stretched out. And she seemed to look for something on the -far-off border of the desert that never came. And I wondered if she were -awake or asleep. And as I looked her body quivered, and a light came -into her eyes, like when a sunbeam breaks into a dark room. - -I said, “What is it?” - -He whispered “Hush! the thought has come to her, ‘Might I not rise?’” - -And I looked. And she raised her head from the sand, and I saw the dent -where her neck had lain so long. And she looked at the earth, and she -looked at the sky, and she looked at him who stood by her: but he looked -out across the desert. - -And I saw her body quiver; and she pressed her front knees to the earth, -and veins stood out; and I cried; “She is going to rise!” - -But only her sides heaved, and she lay still where she was. - -But her head she held up; she did not lay it down again. And he beside -me said, “She is very weak. See, her legs have been crushed under her so -long.” - -And I saw the creature struggle: and the drops stood out on her. - -And I said, “Surely he who stands beside her will help her?” - -And he beside me answered, “He cannot help her: she must help herself. -Let her struggle till she is strong.” - -And I cried, “At least he will not hinder her! See, he moves farther -from her, and tightens the cord between them, and he drags her down.” - -And he answered, “He does not understand. When she moves she draws the -band that binds them, and hurts him, and he moves farther from her. The -day will come when he will understand, and will know what she is doing. -Let her once stagger on to her knees. In that day he will stand close to -her, and look into her eyes with sympathy.” - -And she stretched her neck, and the drops fell from her. And the -creature rose an inch from the earth and sank back. - -And I cried, “Oh, she is too weak! she cannot walk! The long years have -taken all her strength from her. Can she never move?” - -And he answered me, “See the light in her eyes!” - -And slowly the creature staggered on to its knees. - -And I awoke: and all to the east and to the west stretched the barren -earth, with the dry bushes on it. The ants ran up and down in the red -sand, and the heat beat fiercely. I looked up through the thin branches -of the tree at the blue sky overhead. I stretched myself, and I mused -over the dream I had had. And I fell asleep again, with my head on my -saddle. And in the fierce heat I had another dream. - -I saw a desert and I saw a woman coming out of it. And she came to the -bank of a dark river; and the bank was steep and high. (The banks of -an African river are sometimes a hundred feet high, and consist of deep -shifting sands, through which in the course of ages the river has worn -its gigantic bed.) And on it an old man met her, who had a long white -beard; and a stick that curled was in his hand, and on it was written -Reason. And he asked her what she wanted; and she said “I am woman; and -I am seeking for the land of Freedom.” - -And he said, “It is before you.” - -And she said, “I see nothing before me but a dark flowing river, and -a bank steep and high, and cuttings here and there with heavy sand in -them.” - -And he said, “And beyond that?” - -She said, “I see nothing, but sometimes, when I shade my eyes with my -hand, I think I see on the further bank trees and hills, and the sun -shining on them!” - -He said, “That is the Land of Freedom.” - -She said, “How am I to get there?” - -He said, “There is one way, and one only. Down the banks of Labour, -through the water of Suffering. There is no other.” - -She said, “Is there no bridge?” - -He answered. “None.” - -She said, “Is the water deep?” - -He said, “Deep.” - -She said, “Is the floor worn?” - -He said, “It is. Your foot may slip at any time, and you may be lost.” - -She said, “Have any crossed already?” - -He said, “Some have tried!” - -She said, “Is there a track to show where the best fording is?” - -He said, “It has to be made.” - -She shaded her eyes with her hand; and she said, “I will go.” - -And he said, “You must take off the clothes you wore in the desert: they -are dragged down by them who go into the water so clothed.” - -And she threw from her gladly the mantle of Ancient-received-opinions -she wore, for it was worn full of holes. And she took the girdle from -her waist that she had treasured so long, and the moths flew out of it -in a cloud. And he said, “Take the shoes of dependence off your feet.” - -And she stood there naked, but for one white garment that clung close to -her. - -And he said, “That you may keep. So they wear clothes in the Land of -Freedom. In the water it buoys; it always swims.” - -And I saw on its breast was written Truth; and it was white; the sun had -not often shone on it; the other clothes had covered it up. And he said, -“Take this stick; hold it fast. In that day when it slips from your hand -you are lost. Put it down before you; feel your way: where it cannot -find a bottom do not set your foot.” - -And she said, “I am ready; let me go.” - -And he said, “No--but stay; what is that--in your breast?” - -She was silent. - -He said, “Open it, and let me see.” - -And she opened it. And against her breast was a tiny thing, who drank -from it, and the yellow curls above his forehead pressed against it; -and his knees were drawn up to her, and he held her breast fast with his -hands. - -And Reason said, “Who is he, and what is he doing here?” - -And she said, “See his little wings--” - -And Reason said, “Put him down.” - -And she said, “He is asleep, and he is drinking! I will carry him to the -Land of Freedom. He has been a child so long, so long, I have carried -him. In the Land of Freedom he will be a man. We will walk together -there, and his great white wings will overshadow me. He has lisped one -word only to me in the desert--‘Passion!’ I have dreamed he might learn -to say ‘Friendship’ in that land.” - -And Reason said, “Put him down!” - -And she said, “I will carry him so--with one arm, and with the other I -will fight the water.” - -He said, “Lay him down on the ground. When you are in the water you will -forget to fight, you will think only of him. Lay him down.” He said, -“He will not die. When he finds you have left him alone he will open his -wings and fly. He will be in the Land of Freedom before you. Those who -reach the Land of Freedom, the first hand they see stretching down the -bank to help them shall be Love’s. He will be a man then, not a child. -In your breast he cannot thrive; put him down that he may grow.” - -And she took her bosom from his mouth, and he bit her, so that the blood -ran down on to the ground. And she laid him down on the earth; and she -covered her wound. And she bent and stroked his wings. And I saw the -hair on her forehead turned white as snow, and she had changed from -youth to age. - -And she stood far off on the bank of the river. And she said, “For what -do I go to this far land which no one has ever reached? Oh, I am alone! -I am utterly alone!” - -And Reason, that old man, said to her, “Silence! What do you hear?” - -And she listened intently, and she said, “I hear a sound of feet, a -thousand times ten thousand and thousands of thousands, and they beat -this way!” - -He said, “They are the feet of those that shall follow you. Lead on! -make a track to the water’s edge! Where you stand now, the ground will -be beaten flat by ten thousand times ten thousand feet.” And he said, -“Have you seen the locusts how they cross a stream? First one comes down -to the water-edge, and it is swept away, and then another comes and -then another, and then another, and at last with their bodies piled up a -bridge is built and the rest pass over.” - -She said, “And, of those that come first, some are swept away, and are -heard of no more; their bodies do not even build the bridge?” - -“And are swept away, and are heard of no more--and what of that?” he -said. - -“And what of that--” she said. - -“They make a track to the water’s edge.” - -“They make a track to the water’s edge--.” And she said, “Over that -bridge which shall be built with our bodies, who will pass?” - -He said, “The entire human race.” - -And the woman grasped her staff. - -And I saw her turn down that dark path to the river. - -And I awoke; and all about me was the yellow afternoon light: the -sinking sun lit up the fingers of the milk bushes; and my horse stood by -me quietly feeding. And I turned on my side, and I watched the ants run -by thousands in the red sand. I thought I would go on my way now--the -afternoon was cooler. Then a drowsiness crept over me again, and I laid -back my head and fell asleep. - -And I dreamed a dream. - -I dreamed I saw a land. And on the hills walked brave women and brave -men, hand in hand. And they looked into each other’s eyes, and they were -not afraid. - -And I saw the women also hold each other’s hands. - -And I said to him beside me, “What place is this?” - -And he said, “This is heaven.” - -And I said, “Where is it?” - -And he answered, “On earth.” - -And I said, “When shall these things be?” - -And he answered, “IN THE FUTURE.” - -And I awoke, and all about me was the sunset light; and on the low hills -the sun lay, and a delicious coolness had crept over everything; and the -ants were going slowly home. And I walked towards my horse, who stood -quietly feeding. Then the sun passed down behind the hills; but I knew -that the next day he would arise again. - - - - -VI. A DREAM OF WILD BEES. - -A mother sat alone at an open window. Through it came the voices of the -children as they played under the acacia-trees, and the breath of the -hot afternoon air. In and out of the room flew the bees, the wild bees, -with their legs yellow with pollen, going to and from the acacia-trees, -droning all the while. She sat on a low chair before the table and -darned. She took her work from the great basket that stood before her -on the table: some lay on her knee and half covered the book that rested -there. She watched the needle go in and out; and the dreary hum of the -bees and the noise of the children’s voices became a confused murmur -in her ears, as she worked slowly and more slowly. Then the bees, the -long-legged wasp-like fellows who make no honey, flew closer and closer -to her head, droning. Then she grew more and more drowsy, and she laid -her hand, with the stocking over it, on the edge of the table, and -leaned her head upon it. And the voices of the children outside grew -more and more dreamy, came now far, now near; then she did not hear -them, but she felt under her heart where the ninth child lay. Bent -forward and sleeping there, with the bees flying about her head, she had -a weird brain-picture; she thought the bees lengthened and lengthened -themselves out and became human creatures and moved round and round her. -Then one came to her softly, saying, “Let me lay my hand upon thy side -where the child sleeps. If I shall touch him he shall be as I.” - -She asked, “Who are you?” - -And he said, “I am Health. Whom I touch will have always the red blood -dancing in his veins; he will not know weariness nor pain; life will be -a long laugh to him.” - -“No,” said another, “let me touch; for I am Wealth. If I touch him -material care shall not feed on him. He shall live on the blood and -sinews of his fellow-men, if he will; and what his eye lusts for, his -hand will have. He shall not know ‘I want.’” And the child lay still -like lead. - -And another said, “Let me touch him: I am Fame. The man I touch, I -lead to a high hill where all men may see him. When he dies he is not -forgotten, his name rings down the centuries, each echoes it on to his -fellows. Think--not to be forgotten through the ages!” - -And the mother lay breathing steadily, but in the brain-picture they -pressed closer to her. - -“Let me touch the child,” said one, “for I am Love. If I touch him he -shall not walk through life alone. In the greatest dark, when he puts -out his hand he shall find another hand by it. When the world is against -him, another shall say, ‘You and I.’” And the child trembled. - -But another pressed close and said, “Let me touch; for I am Talent. I -can do all things--that have been done before. I touch the soldier, the -statesman, the thinker, and the politician who succeed; and the writer -who is never before his time, and never behind it. If I touch the child -he shall not weep for failure.” - -About the mother’s head the bees were flying, touching her with their -long tapering limbs; and, in her brain-picture, out of the shadow of -the room came one with sallow face, deep-lined, the cheeks drawn into -hollows, and a mouth smiling quiveringly. He stretched out his hand. And -the mother drew back, and cried, “Who are you?” He answered nothing; and -she looked up between his eyelids. And she said, “What can you give the -child--health?” And he said, “The man I touch, there wakes up in his -blood a burning fever, that shall lick his blood as fire. The fever that -I will give him shall be cured when his life is cured.” - -“You give wealth?” - -He shook his head. “The man whom I touch, when he bends to pick up gold, -he sees suddenly a light over his head in the sky; while he looks up to -see it, the gold slips from between his fingers, or sometimes another -passing takes it from them.” - -“Fame?” - -He answered, “likely not. For the man I touch there is a path traced -out in the sand by a finger which no man sees. That he must follow. -Sometimes it leads almost to the top, and then turns down suddenly into -the valley. He must follow it, though none else sees the tracing.” - -“Love?” - -He said, “He shall hunger for it--but he shall not find it. When he -stretches out his arms to it, and would lay his heart against a thing -he loves, then, far off along the horizon he shall see a light play. -He must go towards it. The thing he loves will not journey with him; -he must travel alone. When he presses somewhat to his burning heart, -crying, ‘Mine, mine, my own!’ he shall hear a voice--‘Renounce! -renounce! this is not thine!’” - -“He shall succeed?” - -He said, “He shall fail. When he runs with others they shall reach the -goal before him. For strange voices shall call to him and strange lights -shall beckon him, and he must wait and listen. And this shall be the -strangest: far off across the burning sands where, to other men, there -is only the desert’s waste, he shall see a blue sea! On that sea the sun -shines always, and the water is blue as burning amethyst, and the foam -is white on the shore. A great land rises from it, and he shall see upon -the mountain-tops burning gold.” - -The mother said, “He shall reach it?” - -And he smiled curiously. - -She said, “It is real?” - -And he said, “What IS real?” - -And she looked up between his half-closed eyelids, and said, “Touch.” - -And he leaned forward and laid his hand upon the sleeper, and whispered -to it, smiling; and this only she heard--“This shall be thy reward--that -the ideal shall be real to thee.” - -And the child trembled; but the mother slept on heavily and her -brain-picture vanished. But deep within her the antenatal thing that -lay here had a dream. In those eyes that had never seen the day, in that -half-shaped brain was a sensation of light! Light--that it never had -seen. Light--that perhaps it never should see. Light--that existed -somewhere! - -And already it had its reward: the Ideal was real to it. - -London. - - - - -VII. IN A RUINED CHAPEL. - -“I cannot forgive--I love.” - -There are four bare walls; there is a Christ upon the walls, in red, -carrying his cross; there is a Blessed Bambino with the face rubbed out; -there is Madonna in blue and red; there are Roman soldiers and a Christ -with tied hands. All the roof is gone; overhead is the blue, blue -Italian sky; the rain has beaten holes in the walls, and the plaster is -peeling from it. The chapel stands here alone upon the promontory, and -by day and by night the sea breaks at its feet. Some say that it was -set here by the monks from the island down below, that they might bring -their sick here in times of deadly plague. Some say that it was set here -that the passing monks and friars, as they hurried by upon the roadway, -might stop and say their prayers here. Now no one stops to pray here, -and the sick come no more to be healed. - -Behind it runs the old Roman road. If you climb it and come and sit -there alone on a hot sunny day you may almost hear at last the clink of -the Roman soldiers upon the pavement, and the sound of that older time, -as you sit there in the sun, when Hannibal and his men broke through the -brushwood, and no road was. - -Now it is very quiet. Sometimes a peasant girl comes riding by between -her panniers, and you hear the mule’s feet beat upon the bricks of the -pavement; sometimes an old woman goes past with a bundle of weeds upon -her head, or a brigand-looking man hurries by with a bundle of sticks -in his hand; but for the rest the Chapel lies here alone upon the -promontory, between the two bays and hears the sea break at its feet. - -I came here one winter’s day when the midday sun shone hot on the bricks -of the Roman road. I was weary, and the way seemed steep. I walked into -the chapel to the broken window, and looked out across the bay. Far off, -across the blue, blue water, were towns and villages, hanging white and -red dots, upon the mountain-sides, and the blue mountains rose up into -the sky, and now stood out from it and now melted back again. - -The mountains seemed calling to me, but I knew there would never be a -bridge built from them to me; never, never, never! I shaded my eyes with -my hand and turned away. I could not bear to look at them. - -I walked through the ruined Chapel, and looked at the Christ in red -carrying his cross, and the Blessed rubbed-out Bambino, and the Roman -soldiers, and the folded hands, and the reed; and I went and sat down -in the open porch upon a stone. At my feet was the small bay, with its -white row of houses buried among the olive trees; the water broke in a -long, thin, white line of foam along the shore; and I leaned my elbows -on my knees. I was tired, very tired; tired with a tiredness that seemed -older than the heat of the day and the shining of the sun on the bricks -of the Roman road; and I lay my head upon my knees; I heard the breaking -of the water on the rocks three hundred feet below, and the rustling of -the wind among the olive trees and the ruined arches, and then I fell -asleep there. I had a dream. - -A man cried up to God, and God sent down an angel to help him; and the -angel came back and said, “I cannot help that man.” - -God said, “How is it with him?” - -And the angel said, “He cries out continually that one has injured him; -and he would forgive him and he cannot.” - -God said, “What have you done for him?” - -The angel said, “All--. I took him by the hand, and I said, ‘See, when -other men speak ill of that man do you speak well of him; secretly, in -ways he shall not know, serve him; if you have anything you value share -it with him, so, serving him, you will at last come to feel possession -in him, and you will forgive.’ And he said, ‘I will do it.’ Afterwards, -as I passed by in the dark of night, I heard one crying out, ‘I have -done all. It helps nothing! My speaking well of him helps me nothing! -If I share my heart’s blood with him, is the burning within me less? I -cannot forgive; I cannot forgive! Oh, God, I cannot forgive!’ - -“I said to him, ‘See here, look back on all your past. See from your -childhood all smallness, all indirectness that has been yours; look well -at it, and in its light do you not see every man your brother? Are you -so sinless you have right to hate?’ - -“He looked, and said, ‘Yes, you are right; I too have failed, and I -forgive my fellow. Go, I am satisfied; I have forgiven;’ and he laid him -down peacefully and folded his hands on his breast, and I thought it was -well with him. But scarcely had my wings rustled and I turned to come up -here, when I heard one crying out on earth again, ‘I cannot forgive! I -cannot forgive! Oh, God, God, I cannot forgive! It is better to die -than to hate! I cannot forgive! I cannot forgive!’ And I went and stood -outside his door in the dark, and I heard him cry, ‘I have not sinned -so, not so! If I have torn my fellows’ flesh ever so little, I have -kneeled down and kissed the wound with my mouth till it was healed. I -have not willed that any soul shall be lost through hate of me. If they -have but fancied that I wronged them I have lain down on the ground -before them that they might tread on me, and so, seeing my humiliation, -forgive and not be lost through hating me; they have not cared that -my soul should be lost; they have not willed to save me; they have not -tried that I should forgive them!’ - -“I said to him, ‘See here, be thou content; do not forgive: forget this -soul and its injury; go on your way. In the next world perhaps--’ - -“He cried, ‘Go from me, you understand nothing! What is the next world -to me! I am lost now, today. I cannot see the sunlight shine, the dust -is in my throat, the sand is in my eyes! Go from me, you know nothing! -Oh, once again before I die to see that the world is beautiful! Oh, God, -God, I cannot live and not love. I cannot live and hate. Oh, God, God, -God!’ So I left him crying out and came back here.” - -God said, “This man’s soul must be saved.” - -And the angel said “How?” - -God said, “Go down you, and save it.” - -The angel said, “What more shall I do?” - -Then God bent down and whispered in the angel’s ear, and the angel -spread out its wings and went down to earth. - -And partly I woke, sitting there upon the broken stone with my head on -my knee; but I was too weary to rise. I heard the wind roam through the -olive trees and among the ruined arches, and then I slept again. - -The angel went down and found the man with the bitter heart and took him -by the hand, and led him to a certain spot. - -Now the man wist not where it was the angel would take him nor what he -would show him there. And when they came the angel shaded the man’s eyes -with his wing, and when he moved it the man saw somewhat on the earth -before them. For God had given it to that angel to unclothe a human -soul; to take from it all those outward attributes of form, and colour, -and age, and sex, whereby one man is known from among his fellows and is -marked off from the rest, and the soul lay before them, bare, as a man -turning his eye inwards beholds himself. - -They saw its past, its childhood, the tiny life with the dew upon it; -they saw its youth when the dew was melting, and the creature raised its -Lilliputian mouth to drink from a cup too large for it, and they saw how -the water spilt; they saw its hopes that were never realized; they saw -its hours of intellectual blindness, men call sin; they saw its hours of -all-radiating insight, which men call righteousness; they saw its hour -of strength, when it leaped to its feet crying, “I am omnipotent;” its -hour of weakness, when it fell to the earth and grasped dust only; they -saw what it might have been, but never would be. - -The man bent forward. - -And the angel said, “What is it?” - -He answered, “It is I! it is myself!” And he went forward as if he would -have lain his heart against it; but the angel held him back and covered -his eyes. - -Now God had given power to the angel further to unclothe that soul, -to take from it all those outward attributes of time and place and -circumstance whereby the individual life is marked off from the life of -the whole. - -Again the angel uncovered the man’s eyes, and he looked. He saw before -him that which in its tiny drop reflects the whole universe; he saw that -which marks within itself the step of the furthest star, and tells how -the crystal grows under ground where no eye has seen it; that which is -where the germ in the egg stirs; which moves the outstretched fingers -of the little newborn babe, and keeps the leaves of the trees pointing -upward; which moves where the jelly-fish sail alone on the sunny seas, -and is where the lichens form on the mountains’ rocks. - -And the man looked. - -And the angel touched him. - -But the man bowed his head and shuddered. He whispered--“It is God!” - -And the angel re-covered the man’s eyes. And when he uncovered them -there was one walking from them a little way off;--for the angel had -re-clothed the soul in its outward form and vesture--and the man knew -who it was. - -And the angel said, “Do you know him?” - -And the man said, “I know him,” and he looked after the figure. - -And the angel said, “Have you forgiven him?” - -But the man said, “How beautiful my brother is!” - -And the angel looked into the man’s eyes, and he shaded his own face -with his wing from the light. He laughed softly and went up to God. - -But the men were together on earth. - -I awoke. - -The blue, blue sky was over my head, and the waves were breaking below -on the shore. I walked through the little chapel, and I saw the Madonna -in blue and red, and the Christ carrying his cross, and the Roman -soldiers with the rod, and the Blessed Bambino with its broken face; -and then I walked down the sloping rock to the brick pathway. The olive -trees stood up on either side of the road, their black berries and -pale-green leaves stood out against the sky; and the little ice-plants -hung from the crevices in the stone wall. It seemed to me as if it must -have rained while I was asleep. I thought I had never seen the heavens -and the earth look so beautiful before. I walked down the road. The old, -old, old tiredness was gone. - -Presently there came a peasant boy down the path leading his ass; she -had two large panniers fastened to her sides; and they went down the -road before me. - -I had never seen him before; but I should have liked to walk by him and -to have held his hand--only, he would not have known why. - -Alassio, Italy. - - - - -VIII. LIFE’S GIFTS. - -I saw a woman sleeping. In her sleep she dreamt Life stood before her, -and held in each hand a gift--in the one Love, in the other Freedom. And -she said to the woman, “Choose!” - -And the woman waited long: and she said, “Freedom!” - -And Life said, “Thou hast well chosen. If thou hadst said, ‘Love,’ I -would have given thee that thou didst ask for; and I would have gone -from thee, and returned to thee no more. Now, the day will come when I -shall return. In that day I shall bear both gifts in one hand.” - -I heard the woman laugh in her sleep. - -London. - - - - -IX. THE ARTIST’S SECRET. - -There was an artist once, and he painted a picture. Other artists had -colours richer and rarer, and painted more notable pictures. He painted -his with one colour, there was a wonderful red glow on it; and the -people went up and down, saying, “We like the picture, we like the -glow.” - -The other artists came and said, “Where does he get his colour from?” - They asked him; and he smiled and said, “I cannot tell you”; and worked -on with his head bent low. - -And one went to the far East and bought costly pigments, and made a rare -colour and painted, but after a time the picture faded. Another read in -the old books, and made a colour rich and rare, but when he had put it -on the picture it was dead. - -But the artist painted on. Always the work got redder and redder, and -the artist grew whiter and whiter. At last one day they found him dead -before his picture, and they took him up to bury him. The other men -looked about in all the pots and crucibles, but they found nothing they -had not. - -And when they undressed him to put his grave-clothes on him, they found -above his left breast the mark of a wound--it was an old, old wound, -that must have been there all his life, for the edges were old and -hardened; but Death, who seals all things, had drawn the edges together, -and closed it up. - -And they buried him. And still the people went about saying, “Where did -he find his colour from?” - -And it came to pass that after a while the artist was forgotten--but the -work lived. - -St. Leonards-on-Sea. - - - - -X. “I THOUGHT I STOOD.” - -I thought I stood in Heaven before God’s throne, and God asked me what I -had come for. I said I had come to arraign my brother, Man. - -God said, “What has he done?” - -I said, “He has taken my sister, Woman, and has stricken her, and -wounded her, and thrust her out into the streets; she lies there -prostrate. His hands are red with blood. I am here to arraign him; that -the kingdom be taken from him, because he is not worthy, and given unto -me. My hands are pure.” - -I showed them. - -God said, “Thy hands are pure.--Lift up thy robe.” - -I raised it; my feet were red, blood-red, as if I had trodden in wine. - -God said, “How is this?” - -I said, “Dear Lord, the streets on earth are full of mire. If I should -walk straight on in them my outer robe might be bespotted, you see how -white it is! Therefore I pick my way.” - -God said, “On what?” - -I was silent, and I let my robe fall. I wrapped my mantle about my head. -I went out softly. I was afraid that the angels would see me. - - -II. - -Once more I stood at the gate of Heaven, I and another. We held fast by -one another; we were very tired. We looked up at the great gates; the -angels opened them, and we went in. The mud was on our garments. We -walked across the marble floor, and up to the great throne. Then the -angels divided us. Her, they set upon the top step, but me, upon the -bottom; for, they said, “Last time this woman came here she left red -foot-marks on the floor; we had to wash them out with our tears. Let her -not go up.” - -Then she, with whom I came, looked back, and stretched out her hand to -me; and I went and stood beside her. And the angels, they, the shining -ones who never sinned and never suffered, walked by us to and fro and -up and down; I think we should have felt a little lonely there if it had -not been for one another, the angels were so bright. - -God asked me what I had come for; and I drew my sister forward a little -that he might see her. - -God said, “How is it you are here together today?” - -I said, “She was upon the ground in the street, and they passed over -her; I lay down by her, and she put her arms around my neck, and so I -lifted her, and we two rose together.” - -God said, “Whom are you now come to accuse before me?” - -I said, “We are come to accuse no man.” - -And God bent, and said, “My children--what is it that ye seek?” - -And she beside me drew my hand that I should speak for both. - -I said, “We have come to ask that thou shouldst speak to Man, our -brother, and give us a message for him that he might understand, and -that he might--” - -God said, “Go, take the message down to him!” - -I said, “But what is the message?” - -God said, “Upon your hearts it is written; take it down to him.” - -And we turned to go; the angels went with us to the door. They looked at -us. - -And one said--“Ai! but their dresses are beautiful!” - -And the other said, “I thought it was mire when they came in, but see, -it is all golden!” - -But another said, “Hush, it is the light from their faces!” - -And we went down to him. - -Alassio, Italy. - - - - -XI. THE SUNLIGHT LAY ACROSS MY BED. - -In the dark one night I lay upon my bed. I heard the policeman’s feet -beat on the pavement; I heard the wheels of carriages roll home from -houses of entertainment; I heard a woman’s laugh below my window--and -then I fell asleep. And in the dark I dreamt a dream. I dreamt God took -my soul to Hell. - -Hell was a fair place; the water of the lake was blue. - -I said to God, “I like this place.” - -God said, “Ay, dost thou!” - -Birds sang, turf came to the water-edge, and trees grew from it. Away -off among the trees I saw beautiful women walking. Their clothes were of -many delicate colours and clung to them, and they were tall and graceful -and had yellow hair. Their robes trailed over the grass. They glided -in and out among the trees, and over their heads hung yellow fruit like -large pears of melted gold. - -I said, “It is very fair; I would go up and taste the--” - -God said, “Wait.” - -And after a while I noticed a very fair woman pass: she looked this way -and that, and drew down a branch, and it seemed she kissed the fruit -upon it softly, and went on her way, and her dress made no rustle as she -passed over the grass. And when I saw her no more, from among the stems -came another woman fair as she had been, in a delicate tinted robe; she -looked this way and that. When she saw no one there she drew down the -fruit, and when she had looked over it to find a place, she put her -mouth to it softly, and went away. And I saw other and other women come, -making no noise, and they glided away also over the grass. - -And I said to God, “What are they doing?” - -God said, “They are poisoning.” - -And I said, “How?” - -God said, “They touch it with their lips, when they have made a tiny -wound in it with their fore-teeth they set in it that which is under -their tongues: they close it with their lip--that no man may see the -place, and pass on.” - -I said to God, “Why do they do it?” - -God said, “That another may not eat.” - -I said to God, “But if they poison all then none dare eat; what do they -gain?” - -God said, “Nothing.” - -I said, “Are they not afraid they themselves may bite where another has -bitten?” - -God said, “They are afraid. In Hell all men fear.” - -He called me further. And the water of the lake seemed less blue. - -Then, to the right among the trees were men working. And I said to God, -“I should like to go and work with them. Hell must be a very fruitful -place, the grass is so green.” - -God said, “Nothing grows in the garden they are making.” - -We stood looking; and I saw them working among the bushes, digging -holes, but in them they set nothing; and when they had covered them with -sticks and earth each went a way off and sat behind the bushes watching; -and I noticed that as each walked he set his foot down carefully looking -where he trod. I said to God, “What are they doing?” - -God said, “Making pitfalls into which their fellows may sink.” - -I said to God, “Why do they do it?” - -God said, “Because each thinks that when his brother falls he will -rise.” - -I said to God, “How will he rise?” - -God said, “He will not rise.” - -And I saw their eyes gleam from behind the bushes. - -I said to God, “Are these men sane?” - -God said, “They are not sane; there is no sane man in Hell.” - -And he told me to come further. - -And I looked where I trod. - -And we came where Hell opened into a plain, and a great house stood -there. Marble pillars upheld the roof, and white marble steps let up to -it. The wind of heaven blew through it. Only at the back hung a thick -curtain. Fair men and women there feasted at long tables. They danced, -and I saw the robes of women flutter in the air and heard the laugh of -strong men. What they feasted with was wine; they drew it from large -jars which stood somewhat in the background, and I saw the wine sparkle -as they drew it. - -And I said to God, “I should like to go up and drink.” And God said, -“Wait.” And I saw men coming in to the Banquet House; they came in from -the back and lifted the corner of the curtain at the sides and crept in -quickly; and they let the curtain fall behind them; they bore great jars -they could hardly carry. And the men and women crowded round them, and -the new-comers opened their jars and gave them of the wine to drink; -and I saw that the women drank even more greedily than the men. And when -others had well drunken they set the jars among the old ones beside the -wall, and took their places at the table. And I saw that some of the -jars were very old and mildewed and dusty, but others had still drops of -new must on them and shone from the furnace. - -And I said to God, “What is that?” For amid the sound of the singing, -and over the dancing of feet, and over the laughing across the wine-cups -I heard a cry. - -And God said, “Stand a way off.” - -And he took me where I saw both sides of the curtain. Behind the house -was the wine-press where the wine was made. I saw the grapes crushed, -and I heard them cry. I said, “Do not they on the other side hear it?” - -God said, “The curtain is thick; they are feasting.” - -And I said, “But the men who came in last. They saw?” - -God said, “They let the curtain fall behind them--and they forget!” - -I said, “How came they by their jars of wine?” - -God said, “In the treading of the press these are they who came to the -top; they have climbed out over the edge, and filled their jars from -below, and have gone into the house.” - -And I said, “And if they had fallen as they climbed--?” - -God said, “They had been wine.” - -I stood a way off watching in the sunshine, and I shivered. - -God lay in the sunshine watching too. - -Then there rose one among the feasters, who said, “My brethren, let us -pray!” - -And all the men and women rose: and strong men bowed their heads, and -mothers folded their little children’s hands together, and turned their -faces upwards, to the roof. And he who first had risen stood at the -table head, and stretched out both his hands, and his beard was long -and white, and his sleeves and his beard had been dipped in wine; and -because the sleeves were wide and full they held much wine, and it -dropped down upon the floor. - -And he cried, “My brothers and my sisters, let us pray.” - -And all the men and women answered, “Let us pray.” - -He cried, “For this fair banquet-house we thank thee, Lord.” - -And all the men and women said “We thank thee, Lord.” - -“Thine is this house, dear Lord.” - -“Thine is this house.” - -“For us hast thou made it.” - -“For us.” - -“Oh, fill our jars with wine, dear Lord.” - -“Our jars with wine.” - -“Give peace and plenty in our time, dear Lord.” - -“Peace and plenty in our time”--I said to God, “Whom is it they are -talking to?” God said, “Do I know whom they speak of?” And I saw they -were looking up at the roof; but out in the sunshine, God lay. - -“--dear Lord!” - -“Dear Lord.” - -“Our children’s children, Lord, shall rise and call thee blessed.” - -“Our children’s children, Lord.”--I said to God, “The grapes are -crying!” God said, “Still! I hear them”--“shall call thee blessed.” - -“Shall call thee blessed.” - -“Pour forth more wine upon us, Lord.” - -“More wine.” - -“More wine.” - -“More wine!” - -“Wine!!” - -“Wine!!” - -“Wine!!!” - -“Dear Lord!” - -Then men and women sat down and the feast went on. And mothers poured -out wine and fed their little children with it, and men held up the -cup to women’s lips and cried, “Beloved! drink,” and women filled their -lovers’ flagons and held them up; and yet the feast went on. - -And after a while I looked, and I saw the curtain that hung behind the -house moving. - -I said to God, “Is it a wind?” - -God said, “A wind.” - -And it seemed to me, that against the curtain I saw pressed the forms -of men and women. And after a while the feasters saw it move, and they -whispered, one to another. Then some rose and gathered the most worn-out -cups, and into them they put what was left at the bottom of other -vessels. Mothers whispered to their children, “Do not drink all, save -a little drop when you have drunk.” And when they had collected all the -dregs they slipped the cups out under the bottom of the curtain without -lifting it. After a while the curtain left off moving. - -I said to God, “How is it so quiet?” - -He said, “They have gone away to drink it.” - -I said, “They drink it--their own!” - -God said, “It comes from this side of the curtain, and they are very -thirsty.” - -Then the feast went on, and after a while I saw a small, white hand -slipped in below the curtain’s edge along the floor; and it motioned -towards the wine jars. - -And I said to God, “Why is that hand so bloodless?” - -And God said, “It is a wine-pressed hand.” - -And men saw it and started to their feet; and women cried, and ran to -the great wine jars, and threw their arms around them, and cried, “Ours, -our own, our beloved!” and twined their long hair about them. - -I said to God, “Why are they frightened of that one small hand?” - -God answered, “Because it is so white.” - -And men ran in a great company towards the curtain, and struggled there. -I heard them strike upon the floor. And when they moved away the curtain -hung smooth and still; and there was a small stain upon the floor. - -I said to God, “Why do they not wash it out?” - -God said, “They cannot.” - -And they took small stones and put them down along the edge of the -curtain to keep it down. Then the men and women sat down again at the -tables. - -And I said to God, “Will those stones keep it down?” - -God said, “What think you?” - -I said, “If the wind blew?” - -God said, “If the wind blew?” - -And the feast went on. - -And suddenly I cried to God, “If one should rise among them, even of -themselves, and start up from the table and should cast away his -cup, and cry, ‘My brothers and my sisters, stay! what is it that we -drink?’--and with his sword should cut in two the curtain, and holding -wide the fragments, cry, ‘Brothers, sisters, see! it is not wine, not -wine! not wine! My brothers, oh, my sisters!’ and he should overturn -the--” - -God said, “Be still!--, see there.” - -I looked: before the banquet-house, among the grass, I saw a row of -mounds, flowers covered them, and gilded marble stood at their heads. I -asked God what they were. - -He answered, “They are the graves of those who rose up at the feast and -cried.” - -And I asked God how they came there. - -He said, “The men of the banquet-house rose and cast them down -backwards.” - -I said, “Who buried them?” - -God said, “The men who cast them down.” - -I said, “How came it that they threw them down, and then set marble over -them?” - -God said, “Because the bones cried out, they covered them.” - -And among the grass and weeds I saw an unburied body lying; and I asked -God why it was. - -God said, “Because it was thrown down only yesterday. In a little while, -when the flesh shall have fallen from its bones, they will bury it also, -and plant flowers over it.” - -And still the feast went on. - -Men and women sat at the tables quaffing great bowls. Some rose, and -threw their arms about each other, and danced and sang. They pledged -each other in the wine, and kissed each other’s blood-red lips. - -Higher and higher grew the revels. - -Men, when they had drunk till they could no longer, threw what was left -in their glasses up to the roof, and let it fall back in cascades. Women -dyed their children’s garments in the wine, and fed them on it till -their tiny mouths were red. Sometimes, as the dancers whirled, they -overturned a vessel, and their garments were bespattered. Children sat -upon the floor with great bowls of wine, and swam rose-leaves on it, for -boats. They put their hands in the wine and blew large red bubbles. - -And higher and higher grew the revels, and wilder the dancing, and -louder and louder the singing. But here and there among the revellers -were those who did not revel. I saw that at the tables here and there -were men who sat with their elbows on the board and hands shading their -eyes; they looked into the wine-cup beneath them, and did not drink. And -when one touched them lightly on the shoulder, bidding them to rise -and dance and sing, they started, and then looked down, and sat there -watching the wine in the cup, but they did not move. - -And here and there I saw a woman sit apart. The others danced and sang -and fed their children, but she sat silent with her head aside as though -she listened. Her little children plucked her gown; she did not see -them; she was listening to some sound, but she did not stir. - -The revels grew higher. Men drank till they could drink no longer, and -lay their heads upon the table sleeping heavily. Women who could dance -no more leaned back on the benches with their heads against their -lovers’ shoulders. Little children, sick with wine, lay down upon the -edges of their mothers’ robes. Sometimes, a man rose suddenly, and as he -staggered struck the tables and overthrew the benches; some leaned upon -the balustrades sick unto death. Here and there one rose who staggered -to the wine jars and lay down beside them. He turned the wine tap, but -sleep overcame him as he lay there, and the wine ran out. - -Slowly the thin, red stream ran across the white marbled floor; it -reached the stone steps; slowly, slowly, slowly it trickled down, from -step to step, from step to step: then it sank into the earth. A thin -white smoke rose up from it. - -I was silent; I could not breathe; but God called me to come further. - -And after I had travelled for a while I came where on seven hills lay -the ruins of a mighty banquet-house larger and stronger than the one -which I had seen standing. - -I said to God, “What did the men who built it here?” - -God said, “They feasted.” - -I said, “On what?” - -God said, “On wine.” - -And I looked; and it seemed to me that behind the ruins lay still a -large circular hollow within the earth where a foot of the wine-press -had stood. - -I said to God, “How came it that this large house fell?” - -God said, “Because the earth was sodden.” - -He called me to come further. - -And at last we came upon a hill where blue waters played, and white -marble lay upon the earth. I said to God, “What was here once?” - -God said, “A pleasure house.” - -I looked, and at my feet great pillars lay. I cried aloud for joy to -God, “The marble blossoms!” - -God said, “Ay, ‘twas a fairy house. There has not been one like to it, -nor ever shall be. The pillars and the porticoes blossomed; and the -wine cups were as gathered flowers: on this side all the curtain was -broidered with fair designs, the stitching was of gold.” - -I said to God, “How came it that it fell?” - -God said, “On the side of the wine-press it was dark.” - -And as we travelled, we came where lay a mighty ridge of sand, and a -dark river ran there; and there rose two vast mounds. - -I said to God, “They are very mighty.” - -God said, “Ay, exceeding great.” - -And I listened. - -God asked me what I was listening to. - -And I said, “A sound of weeping, and I hear the sound of strokes, but I -cannot tell whence it comes.” - -God said, “It is the echo of the wine-press lingering still among the -coping-stones upon the mounds. A banquet-house stood here.” - -And he called me to come further. - -Upon a barren hill-side, where the soil was arid, God called me to stand -still. And I looked around. - -God said, “There was a feasting-house here once upon a time.” - -I said to God, “I see no mark of any!” - -God said, “There was not left one stone upon another that has not been -thrown down.” And I looked round; and on the hill-side was a lonely -grave. - -I said to God, “What lies there?” - -He said, “A vine truss, bruised in the wine-press!” - -And at the head of the grave stood a cross, and on its foot lay a crown -of thorns. - -And as I turned to go, I looked backward. The wine-press and the -banquet-house were gone; but the grave yet stood. - -And when I came to the edge of a long ridge there opened out before me -a wide plain of sand. And when I looked downward I saw great stones lie -shattered; and the desert sand had half covered them over. - -I said to God, “There is writing on them, but I cannot read it.” - -And God blew aside the desert sand, and I read the writing: “Weighed in -the balance, and found--” but the last word was wanting. - -And I said to God, “It was a banquet-house?” - -God said, “Ay, a banquet-house.” - -I said, “There was a wine-press here?” - -God said, “There was a wine-press.” - -I asked no further question. I was very weary; I shaded my eyes with my -hand, and looked through the pink evening light. - -Far off, across the sand, I saw two figures standing. With wings -upfolded high above their heads, and stern faces set, neither man nor -beast, they looked out across the desert sand, watching, watching, -watching! I did not ask God what they were, for I knew what the answer -would be. - -And, further and yet further, in the evening light, I looked with my -shaded eyes. - -Far off, where the sands were thick and heavy, I saw a solitary pillar -standing: the crown had fallen, and the sand had buried it. On the -broken pillar sat a grey owl-of-the-desert, with folded wings; and in -the evening light I saw the desert fox creep past it, trailing his brush -across the sand. - -Further, yet further, as I looked across the desert, I saw the sand -gathered into heaps as though it covered something. - -I cried to God, “Oh, I am so weary.” - -God said, “You have seen only one half of Hell.” - -I said, “I cannot see more, I am afraid of Hell. In my own narrow little -path I dare not walk because I think that one has dug a pitfall for -me; and if I put my hand to take a fruit I draw it back again because I -think it has been kissed already. If I look out across the plains, the -mounds are burial heaps; and when I pass among the stones I hear them -crying aloud. When I see men dancing I hear the time beaten in with -sobs; and their wine is living! Oh, I cannot bear Hell!” - -God said, “Where will you go?” - -I said “To the earth from which I came; it was better there.” - -And God laughed at me; and I wondered why he laughed. - -God said, “Come, and I will show you Heaven.” - -... - -And partly I awoke. It was still and dark; the sound of the carriages -had died in the street; the woman who laughed was gone; and the -policeman’s tread was heard no more. In the dark it seemed as if a great -hand lay upon my heart, and crushed it. I tried to breathe and tossed -from side to side; and then again I fell asleep, and dreamed. - -God took me to the edge of that world. It ended. I looked down. The -gulf, it seemed to me, was fathomless, and then I saw two bridges -crossing it that both sloped upwards. - -I said to God, “Is there no other way by which men cross it?” - -God said, “One; it rises far from here and slopes straight upwards.” - -I asked God what the bridges’ names were. - -God said, “What matter for the names? Call them the Good, the True, the -Beautiful, if you will--you will yet not understand them.” - -I asked God how it was I could not see the third. - -God said, “It is seen only by those who climb it.” - -I said, “Do they all lead to one heaven?” - -God said, “All Heaven is one: nevertheless some parts are higher than -others; those who reach the higher may always go down to rest in the -lower; but those in the lower may not have strength to climb to the -higher; nevertheless the light is all one.” - -And I saw over the bridge nearest me, which was wider than the other, -countless footmarks go. I asked God why so many went over it. - -God said, “It slopes less deeply, and leads to the first heaven.” - -And I saw that some of the footmarks were of feet returning. I asked God -how it was. - -He said, “No man who has once entered Heaven ever leaves it; but some, -when they have gone half way, turn back, because they are afraid there -is no land beyond.” - -I said, “Has none ever returned?” - -God said, “No; once in Heaven always in Heaven.” - -And God took me over. And when we came to one of the great doors--for -Heaven has more doors than one, and they are all open--the posts rose up -so high on either side I could not see the top, nor indeed if there were -any. - -And it seemed to me so wide that all Hell could go in through it. - -I said to God, “Which is the larger, Heaven or Hell?” - -God said, “Hell is as wide, but Heaven is deeper. All Hell could be -engulfed in Heaven, but all Heaven could not be engulfed in Hell.” - -And we entered. It was a still great land. The mountains rose on every -hand, and there was a pale clear light; and I saw it came from the rocks -and stones. I asked God how it was. - -But God did not answer me. - -I looked and wondered, for I had thought Heaven would be otherwise. And -after a while it began to grow brighter, as if the day were breaking, -and I asked God if the sun were not going to rise. - -God said, “No; we are coming to where the people are.” - -And as we went on it grew brighter and brighter till it was burning -day; and on the rock were flowers blooming, and trees blossomed at the -roadside; and streams of water ran everywhere, and I heard the birds -singing; I asked God where they were. - -God said, “It is the people calling to one another.” - -And when we came nearer I saw them walking, and they shone as they -walked. I asked God how it was they wore no covering. - -God said, “Because all their body gives the light; they dare not cover -any part.” - -And I asked God what they were doing. - -God said, “Shining on the plants that they may grow.” - -And I saw that some were working in companies, and some alone, but most -were in twos, sometimes two men and sometimes two women; but generally -there was one man and one woman; and I asked God how it was. - -God said, “When one man and one woman shine together, it makes the most -perfect light. Many plants need that for their growing. Nevertheless, -there are more kinds of plants in Heaven than one, and they need many -kinds of light.” - -And one from among the people came running towards me; and when he came -near it seemed to me that he and I had played together when we were -little children, and that we had been born on the same day. And I told -God what I felt; God said, “All men feel so in Heaven when another comes -towards them.” - -And he who ran towards me held my hand, and led me through the bright -lights. And when we came among the trees he sang aloud, and his -companion answered, and it was a woman, and he showed me to her. She -said, “He must have water”; and she took some in her hands, and fed me -(I had been afraid to drink of the water in Hell), and they gathered -fruit for me, and gave it me to eat. They said, “We shone long to make -it ripen,” and they laughed together as they saw me eat it. - -The man said, “He is very weary; he must sleep” (for I had not dared to -sleep in Hell), and he laid my head on his companion’s knee and spread -her hair out over me. I slept, and all the while in my sleep I thought -I heard the birds calling across me. And when I woke it was like early -morning, with the dew on everything. - -And the man took my hand and led me to a hidden spot among the rocks. -The ground was very hard, but out of it were sprouting tiny plants, and -there was a little stream running. He said, “This is a garden we are -making, no one else knows of it. We shine here every day; see, the -ground has cracked with our shining, and this little stream is bursting -out. See, the flowers are growing.” - -And he climbed on the rocks and picked from above two little flowers -with dew on them, and gave them to me. And I took one in each hand; my -hands shone as I held them. He said, “This garden is for all when it is -finished.” And he went away to his companion, and I went out into the -great pathway. - -And as I walked in the light I heard a loud sound of much singing. And -when I came nearer I saw one with closed eyes, singing, and his fellows -were standing round him; and the light on the closed eyes was brighter -than anything I had seen in Heaven. I asked one who it was. And he said, -“Hush! Our singing bird.” - -And I asked why the eyes shone so. - -And he said, “They cannot see, and we have kissed them till they shone -so.” - -And the people gathered closer round him. - -And when I went a little further I saw a crowd crossing among the trees -of light with great laughter. When they came close I saw they carried -one without hands or feet. And a light came from the maimed limbs so -bright that I could not look at them. - -And I said to one, “What is it?” - -He answered, “This is our brother who once fell and lost his hands and -feet, and since then he cannot help himself; but we have touched the -maimed stumps so often that now they shine brighter than anything in -Heaven. We pass him on that he may shine on things that need much heat. -No one is allowed to keep him long, he belongs to all;” and they went on -among the trees. - -I said to God, “This is a strange land. I had thought blindness and -maimedness were great evils. Here men make them to a rejoicing.” - -God said, “Didst thou then think that love had need of eyes and hands!” - -And I walked down the shining way with palms on either hand. I said to -God, “Ever since I was a little child and sat alone and cried, I have -dreamed of this land, and now I will not go away again. I will stay here -and shine.” And I began to take off my garments, that I might shine as -others in that land; but when I looked down I saw my body gave no light. -I said to God, “How is it?” - -God said, “Is there no dark blood in your heart; is it bitter against -none?” - -And I said, “Yes--“; and I thought--“Now is the time when I will tell -God, that which I have been, meaning to tell him all along, how badly my -fellow-men have treated me. How they have misunderstood me. How I have -intended to be magnanimous and generous to them, and they--.” And I -began to tell God; but when I looked down all the flowers were withering -under my breath, and I was silent. - -And God called me to come up higher, and I gathered my mantle about me -and followed him. - -And the rocks grew higher and steeper on every side; and we came at -last to a place where a great mountain rose, whose top was lost in the -clouds. And on its side I saw men working; and they picked at the -earth with huge picks; and I saw that they laboured mightily. And some -laboured in companies, but most laboured singly. And I saw the drops of -sweat fall from their foreheads, and the muscles of their arms stand out -with labour. And I said, “I had not thought in heaven to see men -labour so!” And I thought of the garden where men sang and loved, and -I wondered that any should choose to labour on that bare mountain-side. -And I saw upon the foreheads of the men as they worked a light, and the -drops which fell from them as they worked had light. - -And I asked God what they were seeking for. - -And God touched my eyes, and I saw that what they found were small -stones, which had been too bright for me to see before; and I saw that -the light of the stones and the light on the men’s foreheads was the -same. And I saw that when one found a stone he passed it on to his -fellow, and he to another, and he to another. No man kept the stone he -found. And at times they gathered in great company about when a large -stone was found, and raised a great shout so that the sky rang; then -they worked on again. - -And I asked God what they did with the stones they found at last. Then -God touched my eyes again to make them stronger; and I looked, and at my -very feet was a mighty crown. The light streamed out from it. - -God said, “Each stone as they find it is set here.” - -And the crown was wrought according to a marvellous pattern; one pattern -ran through all, yet each part was different. - -I said to God, “How does each man know where to set his stone, so that -the pattern is worked out?” - -God said, “Because in the light his forehead sheds each man sees faintly -outlined that full crown.” - -And I said, “But how is it that each stone is joined along its edges to -its fellows, so that there is no seam anywhere?” - -God said, “The stones are alive; they grow.” - -And I said, “But what does each man gain by his working?” - -God said, “He sees his outline filled.” - -I said, “But those stones which are last set cover those which were -first; and those will again be covered by those which come later.” - -God said, “They are covered, but not hid. The light is the light of all. -Without the first, no last.” - -And I said to God, “When will this crown be ended?” - -And God said, “Look up!” - -I looked up; and I saw the mountain tower above me, but its summit I -could not see; it was lost in the clouds. - -God said no more. - -And I looked at the crown: then a longing seized me. Like the passion -of a mother for the child whom death has taken; like the yearning of -a friend for the friend whom life has buried; like the hunger of dying -eyes for a life that is slipping; like the thirst of a soul for love at -its first spring waking, so, but fiercer was the longing in me. - -I cried to God, “I too will work here; I too will set stones in the -wonderful pattern; it shall grow beneath MY hand. And if it be that, -labouring here for years, I should not find one stone, at least I will -be with the men that labour here. I shall hear their shout of joy when -each stone is found; I shall join in their triumph, I shall shout among -them; I shall see the crown grow.” So great was my longing as I looked -at the crown, I thought a faint light fell from my forehead also. - -God said, “Do you not hear the singing in the gardens?” - -I said, “No, I hear nothing; I see only the crown.” And I was dumb with -longing; I forgot all the flowers of the lower Heaven and the singing -there. And I ran forward, and threw my mantle on the earth and bent to -seize one of the mighty tools which lay there. I could not lift it from -the earth. - -God said, “Where hast THOU earned the strength to raise it? Take up thy -mantle.” - -And I took up my mantle and followed where God called me; but I looked -back, and I saw the crown burning, my crown that I had loved. - -Higher and higher we climbed, and the air grew thinner. Not a tree or -plant was on the bare rocks, and the stillness was unbroken. My breath -came hard and quick, and the blood crept within my finger-tips. I said -to God, “Is this Heaven?” - -God said, “Yes; it is the highest.” - -And still we climbed. I said to God, “I cannot breathe so high.” - -God said, “Because the air is pure?” - -And my head grew dizzy, and as I climbed the blood burst from my -finger-tips. - -Then we came out upon a lonely mountain-top. - -No living being moved there; but far off on a solitary peak I saw a -lonely figure standing. Whether it were man or woman I could not tell; -for partly it seemed the figure of a woman, but its limbs were the -mighty limbs of a man. I asked God whether it was man or woman. - -God said, “In the least Heaven sex reigns supreme; in the higher it is -not noticed; but in the highest it does not exist.” - -And I saw the figure bend over its work, and labour mightily, but what -it laboured at I could not see. - -I said to God, “How came it here?” - -God said, “By a bloody stair. Step by step it mounted from the lowest -Hell, and day by day as Hell grew farther and Heaven no nearer, it hung -alone between two worlds. Hour by hour in that bitter struggle its limbs -grew larger, till there fell from it rag by rag the garments which it -started with. Drops fell from its eyes as it strained them; each step it -climbed was wet with blood. Then it came out here.” - -And I thought of the garden where men sang with their arms around one -another; and the mountain-side where they worked in company. And I -shuddered. - -And I said, “Is it not terribly alone here?” - -God said, “It is never alone!” - -I said, “What has it for all its labour? I see nothing return to it.” - -Then God touched my eyes, and I saw stretched out beneath us the plains -of Heaven and Hell, and all that was within them. - -God said, “From that lone height on which he stands, all things are -open. To him is clear the shining in the garden, he sees the flower -break forth and the streams sparkle; no shout is raised upon the -mountain-side but his ear may hear it. He sees the crown grow and the -light shoot from it. All Hell is open to him. He sees the paths mount -upwards. To him, Hell is the seed ground from which Heaven springs. He -sees the sap ascending.” - -And I saw the figure bend over its work, and the light from its face -fell upon it. - -And I said to God, “What is it making?” - -And God said, “Music!” - -And he touched my ears, and I heard it. - -And after a long while I whispered to God, “This is Heaven.” - -And God asked me why I was crying. But I could not answer for joy. - -And the face turned from its work, and the light fell upon me. Then it -grew so bright I could not see things separately; and which were God, -or the man, or I, I could not tell; we were all blended. I cried to God, -“Where are you?” but there was no answer, only music and light. - -Afterwards, when it had grown so dark again that I could see things -separately, I found that I was standing there wrapped tight in my little -old, brown, earthly cloak, and God and the man were separated from each -other, and from me. - -I did not dare say I would go and make music beside the man. I knew I -could not reach even to his knee, nor move the instrument he played. -But I thought I would stand there on my little peak and sing an -accompaniment to that great music. And I tried; but my voice failed. It -piped and quavered. I could not sing that tune. I was silent. - -Then God pointed to me, that I should go out of Heaven. - -And I cried to God, “Oh, let me stay here! If indeed it be, as I know -it is, that I am not great enough to sing upon the mountain, nor strong -enough to labour on its side, nor bright enough to shine and love within -the garden, at least let me go down to the great gateway; humbly I will -kneel there sweeping; and, as the saved pass in, I will see the light -upon their faces. I shall hear the singing in the garden, and the shout -upon the hillside--” - -God said, “It may not be;” he pointed. - -And I cried, “If I may not stay in Heaven, then let me go down to Hell, -and I will grasp the hands of men and women there; and slowly, holding -one another’s hands, we will work our way upwards.” - -Still God pointed. - -And I threw myself upon the earth and cried, “Earth is so small, so -mean! It is not meet a soul should see Heaven and be cast out again!” - -And God laid his hand on me, and said, “Go back to earth: that which you -seek is there.” - -I awoke: it was morning. The silence and darkness of the night were -gone. Through my narrow attic window I saw the light of another day. I -closed my eyes and turned towards the wall: I could not look upon the -dull grey world. - -In the streets below, men and women streamed past by hundreds; I heard -the beat of their feet on the pavement. Men on their way to business; -servants on errands; boys hurrying to school; weary professors pacing -slowly the old street; prostitutes, men and women, dragging their -feet wearily after last night’s debauch; artists with quick, impatient -footsteps; tradesmen for orders; children to seek for bread. I heard the -stream beat by. And at the alley’s mouth, at the street corner, a broken -barrel-organ was playing; sometimes it quavered and almost stopped, then -went on again, like a broken human voice. - -I listened: my heart scarcely moved; it was as cold as lead. I could -not bear the long day before me; and I tried to sleep again; yet still I -heard the feet upon the pavement. And suddenly I heard them cry loud as -they beat, “We are seeking!--we are seeking!--we are seeking!” and the -broken barrel-organ at the street corner sobbed, “The Beautiful!--the -Beautiful!--the Beautiful!” And my heart, which had been dead, cried out -with every throb, “Love!--Truth!--the Beautiful!--the Beautiful!” It was -the music I had heard in Heaven that I could not sing there. - -And fully I awoke. - -Upon the faded quilt, across my bed a long yellow streak of pale London -sunlight was lying. It fell through my narrow attic window. - -I laughed. 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