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<h1>
HEATHER AND SNOW
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<b>BY GEORGE MACDONALD</b>
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CONTENTS
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<a href="#ch001">I. A RUNAWAY RACE</a>
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<a href="#ch002">II. MOTHER AND SON</a>
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<a href="#ch003">III. AT THE FOOT OF THE HORN</a>
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<a href="#ch004">IV. DOG-STEENIE</a>
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<a href="#ch005">V. COLONEL AND SERGEANT</a>
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<a href="#ch006">VI. MAN-STEENIE</a>
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<a href="#ch007">VII. CORBYKNOWE</a>
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<a href="#ch008">VIII. DAVID AND HIS DAUGHTER</a>
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<a href="#ch009">IX. AT CASTLE WEELSET</a>
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<a href="#ch010">X. DAVID AND FRANCIS</a>
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<a href="#ch011">XI. KIRSTY AND PHEMY</a>
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<a href="#ch012">XII. THE EARTH-HOUSE</a>
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<a href="#ch013">XIII. A VISIT FROM FRANCIS GORDON</a>
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<a href="#ch014">XIV. STEENIE'S HOUSE</a>
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<a href="#ch015">XV. PHEMY CRAIG</a>
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<a href="#ch016">XVI. SHAM LOVE</a>
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<a href="#ch017">XVII. A NOVEL ABDUCTION</a>
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<a href="#ch018">XVIII. PHEMY'S CHAMPION</a>
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<a href="#ch019">XIX. FRANCIS GORDON'S CHAMPION</a>
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<a href="#ch020">XX. MUTUAL MINISTRATION</a>
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<a href="#ch021">XXI. PHEMY YIELDS PLACE</a>
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<a href="#ch022">XXII. THE HORN</a>
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<a href="#ch023">XXIII. THE STORM AGAIN</a>
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<a href="#ch024">XXIV. HOW KIRSTY FARED</a>
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<a href="#ch025">XXV. KIRSTY'S DREAM</a>
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<a href="#ch026">XXVI. HOW DAVID FARED</a>
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<a href="#ch027">XXVII. HOW MARION FARED</a>
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<a href="#ch028">XXVIII. HUSBAND AND WIFE</a>
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<a href="#ch029">XXIX. DAVID, MARION, KIRSTY, SNOOTIE, AND
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<a href="#ch030">XXX. FROM SNOW TO FIRE</a>
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<a href="#ch031">XXXI. KIRSTY SHOWS RESENTMENT</a>
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<a href="#ch032">XXXII. IN THE WORKSHOP</a>
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<a href="#ch033">XXXIII. A RACE WITH DEATH</a>
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<a href="#ch034">XXXIV. BACK FROM THE GRAVE</a>
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<a href="#ch035">XXXV. FRANCIS COMES TO HIMSELF</a>
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<a href="#ch036">XXXVI. KIRSTY BESTIRS HERSELF</a>
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<a href="#ch037">XXXVII. A GREAT GULF</a>
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<a href="#ch038">XXXVIII. THE NEIGHBOURS</a>
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<a href="#ch039">XXXIX. KIRSTY GIVES ADVICE</a>
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<a href="#ch040">XL. MRS. GORDON</a>
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<a href="#ch041">XLI. TWO HORSEWOMEN</a>
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<a href="#ch042">XLII. THE LAIRD AND HIS MOTHER</a>
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<a href="#ch043">XLIII. THE CORONATION</a>
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<a href="#ch044">XLIV. KIRSTY'S TOCHER</a>
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<a href="#ch045">XLV. KIRSTY'S SONG</a>
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CHAPTER I
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A RUNAWAY RACE
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Upon neighbouring stones, earth-fast, like two islands of an
archipelago, in an ocean of heather, sat a boy and a girl,
the girl knitting, or, as she would have called it,
<i>weaving</i> a stocking, and the boy, his eyes fixed on her
face, talking with an animation that amounted almost to
excitement. He had great fluency, and could have talked just
as fast in good English as in the dialect in which he was now
pouring out his ambitions—the broad Saxon of Aberdeen.
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He was giving the girl to understand that he meant to be a
soldier like his father, and quite as good a one as he. But
so little did he know of himself or the world, that, with
small genuine impulse to action, and moved chiefly by the
anticipated results of it, he saw success already his, and a
grateful country at his feet. His inspiration was so purely
ambition, that, even if, his mood unchanged, he were to
achieve much for his country, she could hardly owe him
gratitude.
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'I'll no hae the warl' lichtly (<i>make light of</i>) me!' he
said.
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'Mebbe the warl' winna tribble itsel aboot ye sae muckle as
e'en to lichtly ye!' returned his companion quietly.
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'<i>Ye</i> do naething ither!' retorted the boy, rising, and
looking down on her in displeasure. 'What for are ye aye
girdin at me? A body canna lat his thouchts gang, but ye're
doon upo them, like doos upo corn!'
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'I wadna be girdin at ye, Francie, but that I care ower
muckle aboot ye to lat ye think I haud the same opingon o' ye
'at ye hae o' yersel,' answered the girl, who went on with
her knitting as she spoke.
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'Ye'll never believe a body!' he rejoined, and turned half
away. 'I canna think what gars me keep comin to see ye! Ye
haena a guid word to gie a body!'
</p>
<p>
'It's nane ye s' get frae me, the gait ye're gaein, Francie!
Ye think a heap ower muckle o' yersel. What ye expec, may
some day a' come true, but ye hae gien nobody a richt to
expec it alang wi' ye, and I canna think, gien ye war fair to
yersel, ye wad coont yersel ane it was to be expeckit o'!'
</p>
<p>
'I tauld ye sae, Kirsty! Ye never lay ony weicht upo what a
body says!'
</p>
<p>
That depen's upo the body. Did ye never hear maister Craig
p'int oot the differ atween believin a body and believin
<i>in</i> a body, Francie?'
</p>
<p>
'No—and I dinna care.'
</p>
<p>
'I wudna like ye to gang awa thinking I misdoobtit yer word,
Francie! I believe onything ye tell me, as far as <i>I</i>
think ye ken, but maybe no sae far as <i>ye</i> think ye ken.
I believe ye, but I confess I dinna believe <i>in</i>
ye—yet. What hae ye ever dune to gie a body ony richt
to believe in ye? Ye're a guid rider, and a guid shot for a
laddie, and ye rin middlin fest—I canna say like a
deer, for I reckon I cud lick ye mysel at rinnin! But, efter
and a',—'
</p>
<p>
'Wha's braggin noo, Kirsty?' cried the boy, with a touch of
not ill-humoured triumph.
</p>
<p>
'Me,' answered Kirsty; '—and I'll do what I brag o'!'
she added, throwing her stocking on the patch of green sward
about the stone, and starting to her feet with a laugh. 'Is't
to be uphill or alang?'
</p>
<p>
They were near the foot of a hill to whose top went the
heather, but along whose base, between the heather and the
bogland below, lay an irregular belt of moss and grass,
pretty clear of stones. The boy did not seem eager to accept
the challenge.
</p>
<p>
'There's nae guid in lickin a lassie!' he said with a shrug.
</p>
<p>
'There mith be guid in tryin to du't though—especially
gien ye war lickit at it!' returned the girl.
</p>
<p>
'What guid <i>can</i> there be in a body bein lickit at
onything?'
</p>
<p>
'The guid o' haein a body's pride ta'en doon a wee.'
</p>
<p>
'I'm no sae sure o' the guid o' that! It wud only hand ye ohn
tried (<i>from trying</i>) again.'
</p>
<p>
'Jist there's what yer pride dis to ye, Francie! Ye maun aye
be first, or ye'll no try! Ye'll never du naething for fear
o' no bein able to gang on believin ye cud du 't better nor
ony ither body! Ye dinna want to fin' oot 'at ye're naebody
in particlar. It's a sair pity ye wunna hae yer pride ta'en
doon. Ye wud be a hantle better wantin aboot three pairts o'
't.—Come, I'm ready for ye! Never min' 'at I'm a
lassie: naebody 'ill ken!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye hae nae sheen (<i>shoes</i>)!' objected the boy.
</p>
<p>
'Ye can put aff yer ain!'
</p>
<p>
'My feet's no sae hard as yours!'
</p>
<p>
'Weel, I'll put on mine. They're here, sic as they are. Ye
see I want them gangin throuw the heather wi' Steenie; that's
some sair upo the feet. Straucht up hill throuw the heather,
and I'll put my sheen on!'
</p>
<p>
'I'm no sae guid uphill.'
</p>
<p>
'See there noo, Francie! Ye tak yersel for unco courteous,
and honourable, and generous, and k-nichtly, and a'
that—oh, I ken a' aboot it, and it's a' verra weel sae
far as it gangs; but what the better are ye for 't, whan, a'
the time ye're despisin a body 'cause she's but a quean, ye
maun hae ilka advantage o' her, or ye winna gie her a chance
o' lickin ye!—Here! I'll put on my sheen, and rin ye
alang the laich grun'! My sheen's twice the weicht o' yours,
and they dinna fit me!'
</p>
<p>
The boy did not dare go on refusing: he feared what Kirsty
would say next. But he relished nothing at all in the
challenge. It was not fit for a man to run races with a girl:
there were no laurels, nothing but laughter to be won by
victory over her! and in his heart he was not at all sure of
beating Kirsty: she had always beaten him when they were
children. Since then they had been at the parish school
together, but there public opinion kept the boys and girls to
their own special sports. Now Kirsty had left school, and
Francis was going to the grammar-school at the county-town.
They were both about fifteen. All the sense was on the side
of the girl, and she had been doing her best to make the boy
practical like herself—hitherto without much success,
although he was by no means a bad sort of fellow. He had not
yet passed the stage—some appear never to pass it in
this world—in which an admirer feels himself in the
same category with his hero. Many are content with themselves
because they side with those whose ways they do not endeavour
to follow. Such are most who call themselves Christians. If
men admired themselves only for what they did, their conceit
would be greatly moderated.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty put on her heavy tacketed (<i>hob-nailed</i>)
shoes—much too large for her, having been made for her
brother—stood up erect, and putting her elbows back,
said,
</p>
<p>
'I'll gie ye the start o' me up to yon stane wi' the heather
growin oot o' the tap o' 't.'
</p>
<p>
'Na, na; I'll hae nane o' that!' answered Francis.
</p>
<p>
'Fairplay to a'!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye'd better tak it!'
</p>
<p>
'Aff wi' ye, or I winna rin at a'!' cried the boy,—and
away they went.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty contrived that he should yet have a little the start
of her—how much from generosity, and how much from
determination that there should be nothing doubtful in the
result, I cannot say—and for a good many yards he kept
it. But if the boy, who ran well, had looked back, he might
have seen that the girl was not doing her best—that she
was in fact restraining her speed. Presently she quickened
her pace, and was rapidly lessening the distance between
them, when, becoming aware of her approach, the boy quickened
his, and for a time there was no change in their relative
position. Then again she quickened her pace—with an
ease which made her seem capable of going on to accelerate it
indefinitely—and was rapidly overtaking him. But as she
drew near, she saw he panted, not a little distressed;
whereupon she assumed a greater speed still, and passed him
swiftly—nor once looked round or slackened her pace
until, having left him far behind, she put a shoulder of the
hill between them.
</p>
<p>
The moment she passed him, the boy flung himself on the
ground and lay. The girl had felt certain he would do so, and
fancied she heard him flop among the heather, but could not
be sure, for, although not even yet at her speed, her blood
was making tunes in her head, and the wind was blowing in and
out of her ears with a pleasant but deafening accompaniment.
When she knew he could see her no longer, she stopped
likewise and threw herself down while she was determining
whether she should leave him quite, or walk back at her
leisure, and let him see how little she felt the run. She
came to the conclusion that it would be kinder to allow him
to get over his discomfiture in private. She rose, therefore,
and went straight up the hill.
</p>
<p>
About half-way to the summit, she climbed a rock as if she
were a goat, and looked all round her. Then she uttered a
shrill, peculiar cry, and listened. No answer came. Getting
down as easily as she had got up, she walked along the side
of the hill, making her way nearly parallel with their late
racecourse, passing considerably above the spot where her
defeated rival yet lay, and descending at length a little
hollow not far from where she and Francis had been sitting.
</p>
<p>
In this hollow, which was covered with short, sweet grass,
stood a very small hut, built of turf from the peat-moss
below, and roofed with sods on which the heather still stuck,
if, indeed, some of it was not still growing. So much was it,
therefore, of the colour of the ground about it, that it
scarcely caught the eye. Its walls and its roof were so thick
that, small as it looked, it was much smaller inside; while
outside it could not have measured more than ten feet in
length, eight in width, and seven in height. Kirsty and her
brother Steenie, not without help from Francis Gordon, had
built it for themselves two years before. Their father knew
nothing of the scheme until one day, proud of their success,
Steenie would have him see their handiwork; when he was so
much pleased with it that he made them a door, on which he
put a lock:—
</p>
<p>
'For though this be na the kin' o' place to draw
crook-fingered gentry,' he said, 'some gangrel body micht
creep in and mak his bed intil 't, and that lock 'ill be
eneuch to haud him oot, I'm thinkin.'
</p>
<p>
He also cut for them a hole through the wall, and fitted it
with a window that opened and shut, which was more than could
be said of every window at the farmhouse.
</p>
<p>
Into this nest Kirsty went, and in it remained quiet until it
began to grow dark. She had hoped to find her brother waiting
for her, but, although disappointed, chose to continue there
until Francis Gordon should be well on his way to the castle,
and then she crept out, and ran to recover her stocking.
</p>
<p>
When she got home, she found Steenie engrossed in a young
horse their father had just bought. She would fain have
mounted him at once, for she would ride any kind of animal
able to carry her; but, as he had never yet been backed, her
father would not permit her.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER II
</h2>
<h3>
MOTHER AND SON
</h3>
<p>
Francis lay for some time, thinking Kirsty sure to come back
to him, but half wishing she would not. He rose at length to
see whether she was on the way, but no one was in sight. At
once the place was aghast with loneliness, as it must indeed
have looked to anyone not at peace with solitude. Having sent
several ringing shouts, but in vain, after Kirsty, he turned,
and, in the descending light of an autumn afternoon, set out
on the rather long walk to his home, which was the wearier
that he had nothing pleasant at hand to think about.
</p>
<p>
Passing the farm where Kirsty lived, about two miles brought
him to an ancient turreted house on the top of a low hill,
where his mother sat expecting him, ready to tyrannize over
him as usual, and none the less ready that he was going to
leave her within a week.
</p>
<p>
'Where have you been all day, Frank?' she said.
</p>
<p>
'I have been a long walk,' he answered.
</p>
<p>
'You've been to Corbyknowe!' she returned. 'I know it by your
eyes. I know by the very colour of them you're going to
deceive me. Now don't tell me you haven't been there. I shall
not believe you.'
</p>
<p>
'I haven't been near the place, mother,' said Francis; but as
he said it his face glowed with a heat that did not come from
the fire. He was not naturally an untruthful boy, and what he
said was correct, for he had passed the house half a mile
away; but his words gave, and were intended to give the
impression that he had not been that day with any of the
people of Corbyknowe. His mother objected to his visiting the
farmer, but he knew instinctively she would have objected yet
more to his spending half the day with Kirsty, whom she never
mentioned, and of whom she scarcely recognized the existence.
Little as she loved her son, Mrs. Gordon would have scorned
to suspect him of preferring the society of such a girl to
her own. In truth, however, there were very few of his
acquaintance whose company Francis would not have chosen
rather than his mother's—except indeed he was ill, when
she was generally very good to him.
</p>
<p>
'Well, this once I shall believe you,' she answered, 'and I
am glad to be able. It is a painful thought to me, Frank,
that son of mine should feel the smallest attraction to low
company. I have told you twenty times that the man was
nothing but a private in your father's regiment.'
</p>
<p>
'He was my father's friend!' answered the boy.
</p>
<p>
'He tells you so, I do not doubt,' returned his mother. 'He
was not likely to leave that mouldy old stone unturned.'
</p>
<p>
The mother sat, and the son stood before her, in a
drawing-room whose furniture of a hundred years old must once
have looked very modern and new-fangled under windows so
narrow and high up, and within walls so thick: without a fire
it was always cold. The carpet was very dingy, and the
mirrors were much spotted; but the poverty of the room was
the respectable poverty of age: old furniture had become
fashionable just in time to save it from being metamorphosed
by its mistress into a show of gay meanness and costly
ugliness. A good fire of mingled peat and coal burned bright
in the barrel-fronted steel grate, and shone in the brass
fender. The face of the boy continued to look very red in the
glow, but still its colour came more from within than from
without: he cherished the memory of his father, and did not
love his mother more than a little.
</p>
<p>
'He has told me a great deal more about my father than ever
you did, mother!' he answered.
</p>
<p>
'Well he may have!' she returned. 'Your father was not a
young man when I married him, and they had been together
through I don't know how many campaigns.'
</p>
<p>
'And you say he was not my father's friend!'
</p>
<p>
'Not his <i>friend</i>, Frank; his servant—what do they
call them?—his orderly, I dare say; certainly not his
friend.'
</p>
<p>
'Any man may be another man's friend!'
</p>
<p>
'Not in the way you mean; not that his son should go and see
him every other day! A dog may be a man's good friend, and so
was sergeant Barclay your father's—very good friend
that way, I don't doubt!'
</p>
<p>
'You said a moment ago he was but a private, and now you call
him sergeant Barclay!'
</p>
<p>
'Well, where's the difference?'
</p>
<p>
'To be made sergeant shows that he was not a common man. If
he had been, he would not have been set over others!'
</p>
<p>
'Of course he was then, and is now, a very respectable man.
If he were not I should never have let you go and see him at
all. But you must learn to behave like the gentleman you are,
and that you never will while you frequent the company of
your inferiors. Your manners are already almost
ruined—fit for no place but a farmhouse! There you are,
standing on the side of your foot again!—Old Barclay, I
dare say, tells you no end of stories about your mother!'
</p>
<p>
'He always asks after you, mother, and then never mentions
you more.'
</p>
<p>
She knew perfectly that the boy spoke the truth.
</p>
<p>
'Don't let me hear of your being there again before you go to
school!' she said definitively. 'By the time you come home
next year I trust your tastes will have improved. Go and make
yourself tidy for dinner. A soldier's son must before
everything attend to his dress.'
</p>
<p>
Francis went to his room, feeling it absolutely impossible to
have told his mother that he had been with Kirsty Barclay,
that he had run a race with her, and that she had left him
alone at the foot of the Horn. That he could not be open with
his mother, no one that knew her unreasoning and stormy
temper would have wondered; but the pitiful boy, who did not
like lying, actually congratulated himself that he had got
through without telling a downright falsehood. It would not
have bettered matters in the least had he disclosed to her
the good advice Kirsty gave him: she would only have been
furious at the impudence of the hussey in talking so to
<i>her</i> son.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
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</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER III
</h2>
<h3>
AT THE FOOT OF THE HORN
</h3>
<p>
The region was like a waste place in the troubled land of
dreams—a spot so waste that the dreamer struggles to
rouse himself from his dream, finding it too dreary to dream
on. I have heard it likened to 'the ill place, wi' the fire
oot;' but it did not so impress me when first, after long
desire, I saw it. There was nothing to suggest the silence of
once roaring flame, no half-molten rocks, no huge,
honey-combed scoriae, no depths within depths glooming
mystery and ancient horror. It was the more desolate that it
moved no active sense of dismay. What I saw was a wide
stretch of damp-looking level, mostly of undetermined or of
low-toned colour, with here and there a black spot, or, on
the margin, the brighter green of a patch of some growing
crop. Flat and wide, the eye found it difficult to rest upon
it and not sweep hurriedly from border to border for lack of
self-asserted object on which to alight. It looked low, but
indeed lay high; the bases of the hills surrounding it were
far above the sea. These hills, at this season a ring of
dull-brown high-heaved hummocks, appeared to make of it a
huge circular basin, miles in diameter, over the rim of which
peered the tops and peaks of mountains more distant. Up the
side of the Horn, which was the loftiest in the ring, ran a
stone wall, in the language of the country a dry-stane-dyke,
of considerable size, climbing to the very top—an ugly
thing which the eye could not avoid. There was nothing but
the grouse to have rendered it worth the proprietor's while
to erect such a boundary to his neighbour's property,
plentiful as were the stones ready for that poorest use of
stones—division.
</p>
<p>
The farms that border the hollow, running each a little way
up the side of the basin, are, some of them at least, as well
cultivated as any in Scotland, but Winter claims there the
paramountcy, and yields to Summer so few of his rights that
the place must look forbidding, if not repulsive, to such as
do not live in it. To love it, I think one must have been
born there. In the summer, it is true, it has the character
of <i>bracing</i>, but can be such, I imagine, only to those
who are pretty well braced already; the delicate of certain
sorts, I think it must soon brace with the bands of death.
</p>
<p>
The region is in constant danger of famine. If the snow come
but a little earlier than usual, the crops lie green under
it, and no store of meal can be laid up in the cottages.
Then, if the snow lie deep, the difficulty in conveying
supplies of the poor fare which their hardihood counts
sufficient, will cause the dwellers there no little
suffering. Of course they are but few. A white cottage may be
seen here and there on the southerly slopes of the basin, but
hardly one in its bottom.
</p>
<p>
It was now summer, and in a month or two the landscape would
look more cheerful; the heather that covered the hills would
no longer be dry and brown and in places black with fire, but
a blaze of red purple, a rich mantle of bloom. Even now,
early in July, the sun had a little power. I cannot say it
would have been warm had there been the least motion in the
air, for seldom indeed could one there from the south grant
that the wind had no keen edge to it; but on this morning
there was absolute stillness, and although it was not easy
for Kirsty to imagine any summer air other than warm, yet the
wind's absence had not a little to do with the sense of
luxurious life that now filled her heart. She sat on her
favourite grassy slope near the foot of the cone-shaped Horn,
looking over the level miles before her, and knitting away at
a ribbed stocking of dark blue whose toe she had nearly
finished, glad in the thought, not of rest from her labour,
but of beginning the yet more important fellow-stocking. She
had no need to look close at her work to keep the loops
right; but she was so careful and precise that, if she lived
to be old and blind, she would knit better then than now. It
was to her the perfect glory of a summer day; and I imagine
her delight in the divine luxury greater than that of many a
poet dwelling in softer climes.
</p>
<p>
The spot where she sat was close by the turf-hut which I have
already described. At every shifting of a needle she would
send a new glance all over her world, a glance to remind one
somehow of the sweep of a broad ray of sunlight across earth
and sea, when, on a morning of upper wind, the broken clouds
take endless liberties with shadow and shine. What she saw I
cannot tell; I know she saw far more than a stranger would
have seen, for she knew her home. His eyes would, I believe,
have been drawn chiefly to those intense spots of live white,
opaque yet brilliant, the heads of the cotton-grass here and
there in thin patches on the dark ground. For nearly the
whole of the level was a peat-moss. Miles and miles of peat,
differing in quality and varying in depth, lay between those
hills, the only fuel almost of the region. In some spots it
was very wet, water lying beneath and all through its
substance; in others, dark spots, the sides of holes whence
it had been dug, showed where it was drier. His eyes would
rest for a moment also on those black spaces on the hills
where the old heather had been burned that its roots might
shoot afresh, and feed the grouse with soft young sprouts,
their chief support: they looked now like neglected spots
where men cast stones and shards, but by and by would be
covered with a tenderer green than the rest of the hill-side.
He would not see the moorland birds that Kirsty saw; he would
only hear their cries, with now and then perhaps the bark of
a sheep-dog.
</p>
<p>
My reader will probably conclude the prospect altogether
uninteresting, even ugly; but certainly Christina Barclay did
not think it such. The girl was more than well satisfied with
the world-shell in which she found herself; she was at the
moment basking, both bodily and spiritually, in a full sense
of the world's bliss. Her soul was bathed in its own content,
calling none of its feelings to account. The sun, the air,
the wide expanse; the hill-tops' nearness to the heavens
which yet they could not invade; the little breaths which
every now and then awoke to assert their existence by
immediately ceasing; doubtless also the knowledge that her
stocking was nearly done, that her father and mother were but
a mile or so away, that she knew where Steenie was, and that
a cry would bring him to her feet;—all these things
bore each a part in making Kirsty quiet with satisfaction.
That there was, all the time, a deeper cause of her peace,
Kirsty knew well-the same that is the root of life itself;
and if it was not, at this moment or at that, filled with
conscious gratitude, her heart was yet like a bird ever on
the point of springing up to soar, and often soaring high
indeed. Whether it came of something special in her
constitution that happiness always made her quiet, as nothing
but sorrow will make some, I do not presume to say. I only
know that, had her bliss changed suddenly to sadness, Kirsty
would have been quiet still. Whatever came to Kirsty seemed
right, for there it was!
</p>
<p>
She was now a girl of sixteen. The only sign she showed of
interest in her person, appeared in her hair and the covering
of her neck. Of one of the many middle shades of brown, with
a rippling tendency to curl in it, her hair was parted with
nicety, and drawn back from her face into a net of its own
colour, while her neckerchief was of blue silk, covering a
very little white skin, but leaving bare a brown throat. She
wore a blue print wrapper, nowise differing from that of a
peasant woman, and a blue winsey petticoat, beyond which
appeared her bare feet, lovely in shape, and brown of hue.
Her dress was nowise trim, and suggested neither tidiness nor
disorder. The hem of the petticoat was in truth a little
rent, but not more than might seem admissible where the rough
wear was considered to which the garment was necessarily
exposed: when a little worse it would receive the proper
attention, and be brought back to respectability! Kirsty
grudged the time spent on her garments. She looked down on
them as the moon might on the clouds around her. She made or
mended them to wear them, not think about them.
</p>
<p>
Her forehead was wide and rather low, with straight eyebrows.
Her eyes were of a gentle hazel, not the hazel that looks
black at night. Her nose was strong, a little irregular, with
plenty of substance, and sensitive nostrils. A decided and
well-shaped chin dominated a neck by no means slender, and
seemed to assert the superiority of the face over the whole
beautiful body. Its chief expression was of a strong repose,
a sweet, powerful peace, requiring but occasion to pass into
determination. The sensitiveness of the nostrils with the
firmness in the meeting of the closed lips, suggested a
faculty of indignation unsparing toward injustice; while the
clearness of the heaven of the forehead gave confidence that
such indignation would never show itself save for another.
</p>
<p>
I wish, presumptuous wish! that I could see the mind of a
woman grow as she sits spinning or weaving: it would reveal
the process next highest to creation. But the only hope of
ever understanding such things lies in growing oneself. There
is the still growth of the moonlit night of reverie; cloudy,
with wind, and a little rain, comes the morning of thought,
when the mind grows faster and the heart more slowly; then
wakes the storm in the forest of human relation, tempest and
lightning abroad, the soul enlarging by great bursts of
vision and leaps of understanding and resolve; then floats up
the mystic twilight eagerness, not unmingled with the dismay
of compelled progress, when, bidding farewell to that which
is behind, the soul is driven toward that which is before,
grasping at it with all the hunger of the new birth. The
story of God's universe lies in the growth of the individual
soul. Kirsty's growth had been as yet quiet and steady.
</p>
<p>
Once more as she shifted her needle her glance went flitting
over the waste before her. This time there was more life in
sight. Far away Kirsty descried something of the nature of
man upon horse: to say how far would have been as difficult
for one unused to the flat moor as for a landsman to reckon
distances at sea. Of the people of the place, hardly another,
even under the direction of Kirsty, could have contrived to
see it. At length, after she had looked many times, she could
clearly distinguish a youth on a strong, handsome hill-pony,
and remained no longer in the slightest doubt as to who he
might be.
</p>
<p>
They came steadily over the dark surface of the moor, and it
was clear that the pony must know the nature of the ground
well; for now he glided along as fast as he could gallop, now
made a succession of short jumps, now halted, examined the
ground, and began slowly picking his way.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty watched his approach with gentle interest, while every
movement of the youth indicated eagerness. Gordon had seen
her on the hillside, probably long before she saw him, had
been coming to her in as straight a line as the ground would
permit, and at length was out of the boggy level, and
ascending the slope of the hillfoot to where she sat. When he
was within about twenty yards of her she gave him a little
nod, and then fixed her eyes on her knitting. He held on till
within a few feet of her, then pulled up and threw himself
from his pony's back. The creature, covered with foam, stood
a minute panting, then fell to work on the short grass.
</p>
<p>
Francis had grown considerably, and looked almost a young
man. He was a little older than Kirsty, but did not appear
so, his expression being considerably younger than hers.
Whether self-indulgence or aspiration was to come out of his
evident joy in life, seemed yet undetermined. His countenance
indicated nothing bad. He might well have represented one at
the point before having to choose whether to go up or down
hill. He was dressed a little showily in a short coat of dark
tartan, and a highland bonnet with a brooch and feather, and
carried a lady's riding-whip—his mother's, no
doubt—its top set with stones—so that his
appearance was altogether a contrast to that of the girl. She
was a peasant, he a gentleman! Her bare head and yet more her
bare feet emphasized the contrast. But which was by nature
and in fact the superior, no one with the least insight could
have doubted.
</p>
<p>
He stood and looked at her, but neither spoke. She cast at
length a glance upward, and said,
</p>
<p>
'Weel?'
</p>
<p>
Francis did not open his mouth. He seemed irresolute. Nothing
in Kirsty's look or carriage or in the tone of her one word
gave sign of consciousness that she was treating him, or he
her, strangely. With complete self-possession she left the
initiative to the one who had sought the interview: let him
say why he had come!
</p>
<p>
In his face began to appear indication of growing
displeasure. Two or three times he turned half away with a
movement instantly checked which seemed to say that in a
moment more, if there came no change, he would mount and
ride: was this all his welcome?
</p>
<p>
At last she appeared to think she must take mercy on him: he
used to say thirty words to her one!
</p>
<p>
'That's a bonny powny ye hae,' she remarked, with a look at
the creature as he fed.
</p>
<p>
'He's a' that,' he answered dryly.
</p>
<p>
'Whaur did ye get him?' she asked.
</p>
<p>
'My mither coft (<i>bought</i>) him agen my hame-comin,' he
replied.
</p>
<p>
He prided himself on being able to speak the broadest of the
dialect.
</p>
<p>
'She maun hae a straucht e'e for a guid beast!' returned
Kirsty, with a second glance at the pony.
</p>
<p>
'He's a bonny cratur and a willin,' answered the youth.
'He'll gang skelp throuw onything—watter
onygait;—I'm no sae sure aboot fire.'
</p>
<p>
A long silence followed, broken this time by the youth.
</p>
<p>
'Winna ye gie me luik nor word, and me ridden like mad to hae
a sicht o' ye?' he said.
</p>
<p>
She glanced up at him.
</p>
<p>
'Weel ye hae that!' she answered, with a smile that showed
her lovely white teeth: 'ye're a' dubs (<i>all bemired</i>)!
What for sud ye be in sic a hurry? Ye saw me no three days
gane!'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, I saw ye, it's true; but I didna get a word o' ye!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye was free to say what ye likit. There was nane by but my
mither!'
</p>
<p>
'Wud ye hae me say a'thing afore yer mither jist as I wud til
ye yer lane (<i>alone</i>)?' he asked.
</p>
<p>
Ay wud I,' she returned. 'Syne she wad ken, 'ithoot my haein
to tell her sic a guse as ye was!'
</p>
<p>
Had he not seen the sunny smile that accompanied her words he
might well have taken offence.
</p>
<p>
'I wuss ye war anither sic-like!' he answered simply.
</p>
<p>
'Syne there wud be twa o' 's!' she returned, leaving him to
interpret.
</p>
<p>
Silence again fell.
</p>
<p>
'Weel, what wud ye hae, Francie?' said Kirsty at length.
</p>
<p>
'I wud hae ye promise to merry me, Kirsty, come the time,' he
answered; 'and that ye ken as well as I du mysel!'
</p>
<p>
'That's straucht oot ony gait!' rejoined Kirsty. 'But ye see,
Francie,' she went on, 'yer father, whan he left ye a kin' o'
a legacy, as ye may ca' 't, to mine, hed no intention that
<i>I</i> was to be left oot; neither had <i>my</i> father
whan he acceppit o' 't!'
</p>
<p>
'I dinna unerstan ye ae styme (<i>one atom</i>)!' interrupted
Gordon.
</p>
<p>
'Haud yer tongue and hearken,' returned Kirsty. 'What I'm
meanin 's this: what lies to my father's han' lies to mine as
weel; and I'll never hae 't kenned or said that, whan my
father pu't (<i>pulled</i>) ae gait, I pu't anither!'
</p>
<p>
'Sakes, lassie! what <i>are</i> ye haverin at? Wud it be
pu'in agen yer father to merry me?'
</p>
<p>
'It wud be that.'
</p>
<p>
'I dinna see hoo ye can mak it oot! I dinna see hoo, bein sic
a freen' o' my father's, he sud objeck to my father's son!'
</p>
<p>
'Eh, but laddies <i>ir</i> gowks!' cried Kirsty. 'My father
was your father's freen' for <i>his</i> sake, no for his ain!
He thinks o' what wud be guid for you, no for himsel!'
</p>
<p>
'Weel, but,' persisted Gordon, 'it wud be mair for my guid
nor onything ither he cud wuss for, to hae you for my wife!'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty's nostrils began to quiver, and her lip rose in a
curve of scorn.
</p>
<p>
'A bonnie wife ye wud hae, Francie Gordon, wha, kennin her
father duin ilk mortal thing for the love o' his auld maister
and comrade, tuik the fine chance to mak her ain o' 't, and
haud her grip o' the callan til hersel!—Think ye aither
o' the auld men ever mintit at sic a thing as fatherin baith?
That my father had a lass-bairn o' 's ain shawed mair nor
onything the trust your father pat in 'im! Francie, the verra
grave wud cast me oot for shame 'at I sud ance hae thoucht o'
sic a thing! Man, it wud maist drive yer leddy-mither
dementit!'
</p>
<p>
'It's my business' Kirsty, wha I merry!'
</p>
<p>
'And I houp yer grace 'll alloo it's pairt <i>my</i> business
wha ye sail <i>not</i> merry—and that's me, Francie!'
</p>
<p>
Gordon sprang to his feet with such a look of wrath and
despair as for a moment frightened Kirsty who was not easily
frightened. She thought of the terrible bog-holes on the way
her lover had come, sprang also to her feet, and caught him
by the arm where, his foot already in the stirrup, he stood
in the act of mounting.
</p>
<p>
'Francie! Francie!' she cried, 'hearken to rizzon! There's no
a body, man or wuman, I like better nor yersel to du ye ony
guid or turn o' guid—'cep' my father, of coorse, and my
mither, and my ain Steenie!'
</p>
<p>
'And hoo mony mair, gien I had the wull to hear the lang
bible-chapter o' them, and see mysel comin in at the tail o'
them a', like the hin'most sheep, takin his bite as he cam?
Na, na! it's time I was hame, and had my slip
(<i>pinafore</i>) on, and was astride o' a stick! Gien ye had
a score o' idiot-brithers, ye wud care mair for ilk are o'
them nor for me! I canna bide to think o' 't.'
</p>
<p>
'It's true a' the same, whether ye can bide to think o' 't or
no, Francie!' returned the girl, her face, which had been
very pale, now rosy with indignation. 'My Steenie's mair to
me nor a' the Gordons thegither, Bow-o'-meal or Jock-and-Tam
as ye like!'
</p>
<p>
She drew back, sat down again to the stocking she was
knitting for Steenie, and left her lover to mount and ride,
which he did without another word.
</p>
<p>
'There's mair nor ae kin' o' idiot,' she said to herself,
'and Steenie's no the kin' that oucht to be ca'd ane. There's
mair in Steenie nor in sax Francie Gordons!'
</p>
<p>
If ever Kirsty came to love a man, it would be just nothing
to her to die for him; but then it never would have been
anything to her to die for her father or her mother or
Steenie!
</p>
<p>
Gordon galloped off at a wild pace, as if he would drive his
pony straight athwart the terrible moss, taking hag and
well-eye as it came. But glancing behind and seeing that
Kirsty was not looking after him, he turned the creature's
head in a safer direction, and left the moss at his back.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER IV
</h2>
<h3>
DOG-STEENIE
</h3>
<p>
She sat for some time at the foot of the hill, motionless as
itself, save for her hands. The sun shone on in silence, and
the blue butterflies which haunted the little bush of
bluebells, that is harebells, beside her, made no noise; only
a stray bee, happy in the pale heat, made a little music to
please itself—and perhaps the butterflies. Kirsty had
an unusual power of sitting still, even with nothing for her
hands to do. On the present occasion, however, her hands and
fingers went faster than usual—not entirely from
eagerness to finish her stocking, but partly from her
displeasure with Francis. At last she broke her 'worset,'
drew the end of it through the final loop, and, drawing it,
rose and scanned the side of the hill. Not far off she spied
the fleecy backs of a few feeding sheep, and straightway sent
out on the still air a sweet, strong, musical cry. It was
instantly responded to by a bark from somewhere up the hill.
She sat down, clasped her hands over her knees, and waited.
</p>
<p>
She had not to wait long. A sound of rushing came through the
heather, and in a moment or two, a fine collie, with long,
silky, wavy coat of black and brown, and one white spot on
his face, shot out of the heather, sprang upon her, and,
setting his paws on her shoulders, began licking her face.
She threw her arms round him, and addressed him in words of
fondling rebuke:—
</p>
<p>
'Ye ill-mennered tyke!' she said; 'what richt hae ye to tak
the place o' yer betters? Gang awa doon wi' ye, and wait.
What for sud ye tak advantage o' your fower legs to his twa,
and him the maister o' ye! But, eh man, ye're a fine doggie,
and I canna bide the thoucht 'at yer langest day maun be sae
short, and tak ye awa hame sae lang afore the lave o' 's!'
</p>
<p>
While she scolded, she let him caress her as he pleased.
Presently he left her, and going a yard or two away, threw
himself on the grass with such <i>abandon</i> as no animal
but a weary dog seems capable of reaching. He had made haste
to be first that he might caress her before his master came;
now he heard him close behind, and knew his opportunity over.
</p>
<p>
Stephen came next out of the heather, creeping to Kirsty's
feet on all-fours. He was a gaunt, longbacked lad, who, at
certain seasons undetermined, either imagined himself the
animal he imitated, or had some notion of being required, or,
possibly, compelled to behave like a dog. When the fit was
upon him, all the day long he would speak no word even to his
sister, would only bark or give a low growl like the collie.
In this last he succeeded much better than in running like
him, although, indeed, his arms were so long that it was
comparatively easy for him to use them as forelegs. He let
his head hang low as he went, throwing it up to bark, and
sinking it yet lower when he growled, which was seldom, and
to those that loved him indicated great trouble. He did not
like Snootie raise himself on his hindlegs to caress his
sister, but gently subsided upon her feet, and there lay
panting, his face to the earth, and his fore-arms crossed
beneath his nose.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty stooped, and stroked and patted him as if he were the
dog he seemed fain to be. Then drawing her feet from under
him, she rose, and going a little way up the hill to the hut,
returned presently with a basin full of rich-looking milk,
and <i>a quarter</i> of thick oat-cake, which she had brought
from home in the morning. The milk she set beside her as she
resumed her seat. Then she put her feet again under the
would-be dog, and proceeded to break small pieces from the
oat-cake and throw them to him. He sought every piece eagerly
as it fell, but with his mouth only, never moving either
hand, and seemed to eat it with a satisfaction worthy of his
simulated nature. When the oat-cake was gone, she set the
bowl before him, and he drank the milk with care and
neatness, never putting a hand to steady it.
</p>
<p>
'Now you must have a sleep, Steenie!' said his sister.
</p>
<p>
She rose, and he crawled slowly after her up the hill on his
hands and knees. All the time he kept his face down, and, his
head hanging toward the earth, his long hair hid it quite. He
strongly suggested a great Skye-terrier.
</p>
<p>
When they reached the hut, Kirsty went in, and Steenie crept
after her. They had covered the floor of it with heather, the
stalks set upright and close packed, so that, even where the
bells were worn off, it still made a thick long-piled carpet,
elastic and warm. When the door was shut, they were snug
there even in winter.
</p>
<p>
Inside, the hut was about six feet long, and four wide. Its
furniture was a little deal table and one low chair. In the
turf of which the wall consisted, at the farther end from the
door, Kirsty had cut out a small oblong recess to serve as a
shelf for her books. The hut was indeed her library, for in
that bole stood, upright with its back to the room, in proper
and tidy fashion, almost every book she could call her own.
They were about a dozen, several with but one board and some
with no title, one or two very old, and all well used. Most
of her time there, when she was not knitting, Kirsty spent in
reading and thinking about what she read; many a minute, even
when she was knitting, she managed to read as well. She had
read two of sir Walter's novels, and several of the
Ettrick-shepherd's shorter tales, which the schoolmaster had
lent her; but on her shelf and often in her hands were a
Shakspere, a Milton, and a translation of Klopstock's
<i>Messiah</i>—which she liked far better than the
<i>Paradise Lost</i>, though she did not admire it nearly so
much. Of the latter she would say, 'It's unco gran', but it
never maks my hert grit (<i>great</i>), meaning that it never
caused her any emotion. Among her treasures was also a
curious old book of ghost-stories, concerning which the sole
remark she was ever heard to make was, that she would like to
know whether they were true: she thought Steenie could tell,
but she would not question him about them. Ramsay's <i>Gentle
Shepherd was</i> there too, which she liked for the good
sense in it. There was a thumbed edition of Burns also, but I
do not think much of the thumbing was Kirsty's, though she
had several of his best poems by heart.
</p>
<p>
Between the ages of ten and fifteen, Kirsty had gone to the
parish school of the nearest town: it looked a village, but
they always called it <i>the town</i>. There a sister of her
father lived, and with her she was welcome to spend the
night, so that she was able to go in most weathers. But when
she staid there, her evening was mostly spent at the
schoolmaster's.
</p>
<p>
Mr. Craig was an elderly man, who had married late, and lost
his wife early. She had left him one child, a delicate,
dainty, golden-haired thing, considerably younger than
Kirsty, who cherished for her a love and protection quite
maternal. Kirsty was one of the born mothers, who are not
only of the salt, but are the sugar and shelter of the world.
I doubt if little Phemie would have learned anything but for
Kirsty. Not to the day of her death did her father see in her
anything but the little girl his wife had left him. He
spoiled her a good deal, nor ever set himself to instruct
her, leaving it apparently to the tendency of things to make
of her a woman like her mother.
</p>
<p>
He was a real student and excellent teacher. When first he
came as schoolmaster to Tiltowie, he was a divinity student,
but a man so far of thought original that he saw lions in the
way of becoming a minister. Such men as would be servants of
the church before they are slaves of the church's Master will
never be troubled with Mr. Craig's difficulties. For one
thing, his strong poetic nature made it impossible for him to
believe in a dull, prosaic God: when told that God's thoughts
are not as our thoughts, he found himself unable to imagine
them inferior to ours. The natural result was that he
remained a schoolmaster—to the advantage of many a
pupil, and very greatly to the advantage of Kirsty, whose
nature was peculiarly open to his influences. The dominie
said he had never had a pupil that gave him such satisfaction
as Kirsty; she seemed to anticipate and catch at everything
he wanted to make hers. There was no knowledge, he declared,
that he could offer her, which the lassie from Corbyknowe
would not take in like her porridge. Best thing of all for
her was that, following his own predilections, he paid far
more attention, in his class for English, to poetry than to
prose. Colin Craig was himself no indifferent poet, and was
even a master of the more recondite forms of verse. If, in
some measure led astray by the merit of the form, he was
capable of admiring verse essentially inferior, he yet
certainly admired the better poetry more. He had, besides,
the faculty of perceiving whether what he had written would
or would not <i>convey</i> his thought—a faculty in
which even a great poet may be deficient.
</p>
<p>
In a word, Kirsty learned everything Mr. Craig brought within
her reach; and long after she left school, the Saturday on
which she did not go to see him was a day of disappointment
both to the dominie and to his little Phemie.
</p>
<p>
When she had once begun to follow a thing, Kirsty would never
leave the trail of it. Her chief business as well as delight
was to look after Steenie, but perfect attention to him left
her large opportunity of pursuing her studies, especially at
such seasons in which his peculiar affection, whatever it
really was, required hours of untimely sleep. For, although
at all times he wandered at his will without her, he
invariably wanted to be near her when he slept; while she,
satisfied that so he slept better, had not once at such a
time left him. During summer, and as long before and after as
the temperature permitted, the hut was the place he preferred
when his necessity was upon him; and it was Kirsty's especial
delight to sit in it on a warm day, the door open and her
brother asleep on her feet, reading and reading while the sun
went down the sky, to fill the hut as he set with a glory of
promise; after which came the long gloamin, like a life out
of which the light but not the love has vanished, in which
she neither worked nor read, but brooded over many things.
</p>
<p>
Leaving the door open behind them, Kirsty took a book from
the bole, and seated herself on the low chair; instantly
Steenie, who had waited motionless until she was settled,
threw himself across her feet on the carpet of heather, and
in a moment was fast asleep.
</p>
<p>
There they remained, the one reading, the other sleeping,
while the hours of the warm summer afternoon slipped away,
ripples on the ocean of the lovely, changeless eternity, the
consciousness of God. For a time the watching sister was
absorbed in King Lear; then she fell to wondering whether
Cordelia was not unkindly stiff toward her old father, but
perceived at length that, with such sisters listening, she
could not have spoken otherwise. Then she wondered whether
there could be women so bad as Goneril and Regan, concluding
that Shakspere must know better than she. At last she drew
her bare feet from under Steenie, and put them on his back,
where the coolness was delightful. Then first she became
aware that the sun was down and the gloamin come, and that
the whole world must be feeling just like her feet. The long
clear twilight, which would last till morning, was about her,
the eerie sleeping day, when the lovely ghosts come out of
their graves in the long grass, and walk about in the cool
world, with little ghosty sighs at sight of the old places,
and fancy they are dreaming. Kirsty was always willing to
believe in ghosts: awake in the dark nights she did not; but
in her twilight reveries she grew very nearly a ghost
herself.
</p>
<p>
It was a wonder she could sit so long and not feel worn out;
but Kirsty was exceptionally strong, in absolute health, and
specially gifted with patience. She had so early entertained
and so firmly grasped the idea that she was sent into the
world expressly to take care of Steenie, that devotion to him
had grown into a happy habit with her. The waking mind gave
itself up to the sleeping, the orderly to the troubled brain,
the true heart to the heart as true.
</p>
<p>
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER V
</h2>
<h3>
COLONEL AND SERGEANT
</h3>
<p>
There was no difference of feeling betwixt the father and
mother in regard to this devotion of Kirsty's very being to
her Steenie; but the mother in especial was content with it,
for while Kirsty was the apple of her eye, Steenie was her
one loved anxiety.
</p>
<p>
David Barclay, a humble unit in the widespread and
distinguished family of the Barclays or Berkeleys, was born,
like his father and grandfather and many more of his
ancestors, on the same farm he now occupied. While his father
was yet alive, with an elder son to succeed him, David
<i>listed</i>—mainly from a strong desire to be near a
school-friend, then an ensign in the service of the East
India Company. Throughout their following military career
they were in the same regiment, the one rising to be colonel,
the other sergeant-major. All the time, the
schoolboy-attachment went on deepening in the men; and, all
the time, was never man more respectfully obedient to orders
than David Barclay to those of the superior officer with whom
in private he was on terms of intimacy. As often as they
could without attracting notice, the comrades threw aside all
distinction of rank, and were again the Archie Gordon and
Davie Barclay of old school-days—as real to them still
as those of the hardest battles they had fought together. In
more primitive Scotland, such relations are, or were more
possible than in countries where more divergent habits of
life occasion wider social separations; and then these were
sober-minded men, who neither made much of the shows of the
world, nor were greedy after distinction, which is the mere
coffin wherein Duty-done lies buried.
</p>
<p>
When they returned to their country, both somewhat disabled,
the one retired to his inherited estate, the other to the
family farm upon that estate, where his brother had died
shortly before; so that Archie was now Davie's landlord. But
no new relation would ever destroy the friendship which
school had made close, and war had welded. Almost every week
the friends met and spent the evening together—much
oftener, by and by, at Corbyknowe than at Castle Weelset. For
both married soon after their return, and their wives were of
different natures.
</p>
<p>
'My colonel has the glory,' Barclay said once, and but once,
to his sister, 'but, puir fallow, I hae the wife!' And truly
the wife at the farm had in her material enough, both moral
and intellectual, for ten ladies better than the wife at the
castle.
</p>
<p>
David's wife brought him a son the first year of their
marriage, and the next year came a son to the colonel and a
daughter to the sergeant. One night, as the two fathers sat
together at the farm, some twelve hours after the birth of
David's girl, they mutually promised that the survivor would
do his best for the child of the other. Before he died the
colonel would gladly have taken his boy from his wife and
given him to his old comrade.
</p>
<p>
As to Steenie, the elder of David's children, he was yet
unborn when his father, partly in consequence of a wound from
which he never quite recovered, met with rather a serious
accident through a young horse in the harvest-field, and the
report reached his wife that he was killed. To the shock she
thus received was generally attributed the peculiarity of the
child, prematurely born within a month after. He had long
passed the age at which children usually begin to walk,
before he would even attempt to stand, but he had grown
capable of a speed on all-fours that was astonishing. When at
last he did walk, it was for more than two years with the air
of one who had learned a trick; and throughout his childhood
and a great part of his boyhood, he continued to go on
all-fours rather than on his feet.
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER VI
</h2>
<h3>
MAN-STEENIE
</h3>
<p>
The sleeping youth began at length to stir: it was more than
an hour before he quite woke up. Then all at once he started
to his feet with his eyes wide open, putting back from his
forehead the long hair which fell over them, and revealing a
face not actually looking old, but strongly suggesting age.
His eyes were of a pale blue, with a hazy, mixed, uncertain
gleam in them, reminding one of the shifty shudder and shake
and start of the northern lights at some heavenly version of
the game of Puss in the Corner. His features were more than
good; they would have been grand had they been large, but
they were peculiarly small. His head itself was very small in
proportion to his height, his forehead, again, large in
proportion to his head, while his chin was such as we are in
the way of calling strong. Although he had been all day
acting a dog in charge of sheep, and treating the collie as
his natural companion, there was, both in his countenance and
its expression, a remarkable absence of the animal. He had a
kind of exaltation in his look; he seemed to expect
something, not at hand, but sure to come. His eyes rested for
a moment, with a love of absolute devotion, on the face of
his sister; then he knelt at her feet, and as if to receive
her blessing, bowed his head before her. She laid her hand
upon it, and in a tone of unutterable tenderness said,
'Man-Steenie!' Instantly he rose to his feet. Kirsty rose
also, and they went out of the hut.
</p>
<p>
The sunlight had not left the west, but had crept round some
distance toward the north. Stars were shining faint through
the thin shadow of the world. Steenie stretched himself up,
threw his arms aloft, and held them raised, as if at once he
would grow and reach toward the infinite. Then he looked down
on Kirsty, for he was taller than she, and pointed straight
up, with the long lean forefinger of one of the long lean
arms that had all day been legs to the would-be
dog—into the heavens, and smiled. Kirsty looked up,
nodded her head, and smiled in return. Then they started in
the direction of home, and for some time walked in silence.
At length Steenie spoke. His voice was rather feeble, but
clear, articulate, and musical.
</p>
<p>
'My feet's terrible heavy the nicht, Kirsty!' he said. 'Gien
it wasna for them, the lave o' me wud be up and awa. It's
terrible to be hauden doon by the feet this gait!'
</p>
<p>
'We're a' hauden doon the same gait, Steenie. Maybe it's some
waur for you 'at wud sae fain gang up, nor for the lave o' 's
'at's mair willin to bide a wee; but it 'll be the same at
the last whan we're a' up there thegither.'
</p>
<p>
'I wudna care sae muckle gien he didna grip me by the queets
(<i>ankles</i>), like! I dinna like to be grippit by the
queets! He winna lat me win at the thongs!'
</p>
<p>
'Whan the richt time comes,' returned Kirsty solemnly, 'the
bonny man 'll lowse the thongs himsel.'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, ay! I ken that weel. It was me 'at tellt ye. He tauld me
himsel! I'm thinkin I'll see him the nicht, for I'm sair
hauden doon, sair needin a sicht o' 'im. He's whiles lang o'
comin!'
</p>
<p>
'I dinna won'er 'at ye're sae fain to see 'im, Steenie!' 'I
<i>am</i> that; fain, fain!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye'll see 'im or lang. It's a fine thing to hae patience.'
</p>
<p>
'Ye come ilka day, Kirsty: what for sudna he come ilka
nicht?'
</p>
<p>
'He has reasons, Steenie. He kens best.'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, he kens best. I ken naething but him—and you,
Kirsty!'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty said no more. Her heart was too full.
</p>
<p>
Steenie stood still, and throwing back his head, stared for
some moments up into the great heavens over him. Then he
said:
</p>
<p>
'It's a bonny day, the day the bonny man bides in! The ither
day—the day the lave o' ye bides in—the day whan
I'm no mysel but a sair ooncomfortable collie—that
day's ower het—and sometimes ower cauld; but the day he
bides in is aye jist what a day sud be! Ay, it's that! it's
that!'
</p>
<p>
He threw himself down, and lay for a minute looking up into
the sky. Kirsty stood and regarded him with loving eyes.
</p>
<p>
'I hae a' the bonny day afore me!' he murmured to himself.
'Eh, but it's better to be a man nor a beast Snootie's a fine
beast, and a gran' collie, but I wud raither be mysel—a
heap raither—aye at han' to catch a sicht o' the bonny
man! Ye maun gang hame to yer bed, Kirsty!— Is't the
bonny man comes til ye i' yer dreams and says, "Gang til him,
Kirsty, and be mortal guid til him"? It maun be surely that!'
</p>
<p>
'Willna ye gang wi' me, Steenie, as far as the door?'
rejoined Kirsty, almost beseechingly, and attempting no
answer to what he had last said.
</p>
<p>
It was at times such as this that Kirsty knew sadness. When
she had to leave her brother on the hillside all the long
night, to look on no human face, hear no human word, but
wander in strangest worlds of his own throughout the slow
dark hours, the sense of a separation worse than death would
wrap her as in a shroud. In his bodily presence, however far
away in thought or sleep or dreams his soul might be, she
could yet tend him with her love; but when he was out of her
sight, and she had to sleep and forget him, where was
Steenie, and how was he faring? Then he seemed to her as one
forsaken, left alone with his sorrows to an existence
companionless and dreary. But in truth Steenie was by no
means to be pitied. However much his life was apart from the
lives of other men, he did not therefore live alone. Was he
not still of more value than many sparrows? And Kirsty's love
for him had in it no shadow of despair. Her pain at such
times was but the indescribable love-lack of mothers when
their sons are far away, and they do not know what they are
doing, what they are thinking; or when their daughters seem
to have departed from them or ever the silver cord be loosed,
or the golden bowl broken. And yet how few, when the air of
this world is clearest, ever come into essential contact with
those they love best! But the triumph of Love, while most it
seems to delay, is yet ceaselessly rushing hitherward on the
wings of the morning.
</p>
<p>
'Willna ye gang as far as the door wi' me, Steenie?' she
said.
</p>
<p>
'I wull do that, Kirsty. But ye're no feart, are ye?'
</p>
<p>
'Na, no a grain! What would I be feart for?'
</p>
<p>
'Ow, naething! At this time there's naething oot and aboot to
be feart at. In what ye ca' the daytime, I'm a kin' o' in
danger o' knockin mysel again things; I never du that at
nicht.'
</p>
<p>
As he spoke he sprang to his feet, and they walked on.
Kirsty's heart seemed to swell with pain; for Steenie was at
once more rational and more strange than usual, and she felt
the farther away from him. His words were very quiet, but his
eyes looked full of stars.
</p>
<p>
'I canna tell what it is aboot the sun 'at maks a dog o' me!'
he said. 'He's hard-like, and hauds me oot, and gars me hing
my heid, and feel as gien I wur a kin' o' ashamed, though I
ken o' naething. But the bonny nicht comes straucht up to me,
and into me, and gangs a' throuw me, and bides i' me; and
syne I luik for the bonny man!'
</p>
<p>
'I wuss ye wud lat me bide oot the nicht wi' ye, Steenie!'
</p>
<p>
'What for that, Kirsty? Ye maun sleep, and I'm better my
lane.'
</p>
<p>
'That's jist hit!' returned Kirsty, with a deep-drawn sigh.
'I canna bide yer bein yer lane, and yet, do what I like, I
canna, whiles, even i' the daytime, win a bit nearer til ye!
Gien only ye was as little as ye used to be, whan I cud carry
ye aboot a' day, and tak ye intil my ain bed a' nicht! But
noo we're jist like the sun and the mune!-whan ye're oot' I'm
in; and whan ye're in—well I'm no oot' but my sowl's
jist as blear-faced as the mune i' the daylicht to think
ye'll be awa again sae sune!—But it <i>canna</i> gang
on like this to a' eternity, and that's a comfort!'
</p>
<p>
'I ken naething aboot eternity. I'm thinkin it'll a' turn
intil a lown starry nicht, wi' the bonny man intil't. I'm
sure o' ae thing, and that only—'at something 'ill be
putten richt 'at's far frae richt the noo; and syne, Kirsty,
ye'll hae yer ain gait wi' me, and I'll be sae far like ither
fowk: idiot 'at I am, I wud be sorry to be turnt a'thegither
the same as some! Ye see I ken sae muckle they ken naething
aboot, or they wudna be as they are! It maybe disna become
<i>me</i> to say't, ony mair nor Gowk Murnock 'at sits o' the
pu'pit stair,—but eh the styte (<i>nonsense</i>) oor
minister dings oot o' his ain heid, as gien it war the stoor
oot o' the bible-cushion! It's no possible he's ever seen the
bonny man as I hae seen him!'
</p>
<p>
'We'll a' hae to come ower to you, Steenie, and learn frae ye
what ye ken. We'll hae to mak <i>you</i> the minister,
Steenie!'
</p>
<p>
'Na, na; I ken naething for ither fowk—only for mysel;
and that's whiles mair nor I can win roun', no to say gie
again!' 'Some nicht ye'll lat me bide oot wi' ye a' nicht? I
wud sair like it, Steenie!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye sail, Kirsty; but it maun be some nicht ye hae sleepit a'
day.'
</p>
<p>
'Eh, but I cudna do that, tried I ever sae hard!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye cud lie i' yer bed ony gait, and mak the best o' 't!
<i>Ye</i> hae naebody, I ken, to <i>gar</i> you sleep!'
</p>
<p>
They went all the rest of the way talking thus, and Kirsty's
heart grew lighter, for she seemed to get a little nearer to
her brother. He had been her live doll and idol ever since
his mother laid him in her arms when she was little more than
three years old. For though Steenie was nearly a year older
than Kirsty, she was at that time so much bigger that she was
able, not indeed to carry him, but to nurse him on her knees.
She thought herself the elder of the two until she was about
ten, by which time she could not remember any beginning to
her carrying of him. About the same time, however, he began
to grow much faster, and she found before long that only upon
her back could she carry him any distance.
</p>
<p>
The discovery that he was the elder somehow gave a fresh
impulse to her love and devotion, and intensified her pitiful
tenderness. Kirsty's was indeed a heart in which the whole
unhappy world might have sought and found shelter. She had
the notion, notwithstanding, that she was harder-hearted than
most, and therefore better able to do things that were right
but not pleasant.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER VII
</h2>
<h3>
CORBYKNOWE
</h3>
<p>
'Ye'll come in and say a word to mother, Steenie?' said
Kirsty, as they came near the door of the house.
</p>
<p>
It was a long, low building, with a narrow paving in front
from end to end, of stones cast up by the plough. Its walls,
but one story high, rough-cast and white-washed, shone dim in
the twilight. Under a thick projecting thatch the door stood
wide open, and from the kitchen, whose door was also open,
came the light of a peat-fire and a fish-oil-lamp. Throughout
the summer Steenie was seldom in the house an hour of the
twenty-four, and now he hesitated to enter. In the winter he
would keep about it a good part of the day, and was generally
indoors the greater part of the night, but by no means
always.
</p>
<p>
While he hesitated, his mother appeared in the doorway of the
kitchen. She was a tall, fine-looking woman, with soft gray
eyes, and an expression of form and features which left
Kirsty accounted for.
</p>
<p>
'Come awa in by, Steenie, my man!' she said, in a tone that
seemed to wrap its object in fold upon fold of tenderness,
enough to make the peat-smoke that pervaded the kitchen seem
the very atmosphere of the heavenly countries. 'Come and hae
a drappy o' new-milkit milk, and a piece (<i>a piece of
bread</i>)'.
</p>
<p>
Steenie stood smiling and undecided on the slab in front of
the doorstep.
</p>
<p>
'Dreid naething, Steenie,' his mother went on. 'There's no
are to interfere wi' yer wull, whatever it be. The hoose is
yer ain to come and gang as ye see fit. But ye ken that, and
Kirsty kens that, as weel's yer father and mysel.'
</p>
<p>
'Mother, I ken what ye say to be the trowth, and I hae a
gran' pooer o' believin the trowth. But a'body believes their
ain mither: that's i' the order o' things as they war first
startit! Still I wud raither no come in the nicht. I wud
raither hand awa and no tribble ye wi' mair o' the sicht o'
me nor I canna help—that is, till the cheenge come, and
things be set richt. I dinna aye ken what I'm aboot, but I
aye ken 'at I'm a kin' o' a disgrace to ye, though I canna
tell hoo I'm to blame for 't. Sae I'll jist bide theroot wi'
the bonny stars 'at's aye theroot, and kens a' aboot it, and
disna think nane the waur o' me.'
</p>
<p>
'Laddie! laddie! wha on the face o' God's yerth thinks the
waur o' ye for a wrang dune ye?—though wha has the wyte
o' that same I daurna think, weel kennin 'at a'thing's aither
ordeent or allooed, makin muckle the same. Come winter, come
summer, come richt, come wrang, come life, come deith, what
are ye, what can ye be, but my ain, ain laddie!'
</p>
<p>
Steenie stepped across the threshold and followed his mother
into the kitchen, where the pot was already on the fire for
the evening's porridge. To hide her emotion she went straight
to it, and lifted the lid to look whether boiling point had
arrived. The same instant the stalwart form of her husband
appeared in the doorway, and there stood for a single moment
arrested.
</p>
<p>
He was a good deal older than his wife, as his long gray
hair, among other witnesses, testified. He was six feet in
height, and very erect, with a rather stiff, military
carriage. His face wore an expression of stern goodwill, as
if he had been sent to do his best for everybody, and knew
it.
</p>
<p>
Steenie caught sight of him ere he had taken a step into the
kitchen. He rushed to him, threw his arms round him, and hid
his face on his bosom.
</p>
<p>
'Bonny, bonny man!' he murmured, then turned away and went
back to the fire.
</p>
<p>
His mother was casting the first handful of meal into the
pot. Steenie fetched a <i>three-leggit creepie</i> and sat
down by her, looking as if he had sat there every night since
first he was able to sit.
</p>
<p>
The farmer came forward, and drew a chair to the fire beside
his son. Steenie laid his head on his father's knee, and the
father laid his big hand on Steenie's head. Not a word was
uttered. The mother might have found them in her way had she
been inclined, but the thought did not come to her, and she
went on making the porridge in great contentment, while
Kirsty laid the cloth. The night was as still in the house as
in the world, save for the bursting of the big blobs of the
porridge. The peat fire made no noise.
</p>
<p>
The mother at length took the heavy pot from the fire, and,
with what to one inexpert might have seemed wonderful skill,
poured the porridge into a huge wooden bowl on the table.
Having then scraped the pot carefully that nothing should be
lost, she put some water into it, and setting it on the fire
again, went to a hole in the wall, took thence two eggs, and
placed them gently in the water.
</p>
<p>
She went next to the dairy, and came back with a jug of the
richest milk, which she set beside the porridge, whereupon
they drew their seats to the table—all but Steenie.
</p>
<p>
'Come, Steenie,' said his mother, 'here's yer supper.'
</p>
<p>
'I dinna care aboot ony supper the nicht, mother,' answered
Steenie.
</p>
<p>
'Guidsake, laddie, I kenna hoo ye live!' she returned in an
accent almost of despair,
</p>
<p>
'I'm thinkin I dinna need sae muckle as ither fowk,' rejoined
Steenie, whose white face bore testimony that he took far
from nourishment enough. 'Ye see I'm no a' there,' he added
with a smile, 'sae I canna need sae muckle!'
</p>
<p>
'There's eneuch o' ye there to fill my hert unco fou,'
answered his mother with a deep sigh. 'Come awa, Steenie, my
bairn!' she went on coaxingly. 'Yer father winna ate a moufu'
gien ye dinna: ye'll see that!—Eh, Steenie,' she broke
out, 'gien ye wad but tak yer supper and gang to yer bed like
the lave o' 's! It gars my hert swall as gien 't wud burst
like a blob to think o' ye oot i' tho mirk nicht! Wha's to
tell what michtna be happenin ye! Oor herts are whiles that
sair, yer father's and mine, i' oor beds, 'at we daurna say a
word for fear the tane set the tither greetin.'
</p>
<p>
'I'll bide in, gien that be yer wull,' replied Steenie; 'but
eh, gien ye kent the differ to me, ye wudna wuss 't. I seldom
sleep at nicht as ye ken, and i' the hoose it's jist as gien
the darkness wan inside o' me and was chokin me.'
</p>
<p>
'But it's as dark theroot as i' the hoose—whiles,
onygait!'
</p>
<p>
'Na, mother; it's never sae dark theroot but there's licht
eneuch to ken I'm theroot and no i' the hoose. I can aye draw
a guid full breath oot i' the open.'
</p>
<p>
'Lat the laddie gang his ain gait, 'uman,' interposed David.
'The thing born in 'im 's better for him nor the thing born
in anither. A man maun gang as God made him.'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, whether he be man or dog!' assented Steenie solemnly.
</p>
<p>
He drew his stool close to his father where he sat at the
table, and again laid his head on his knee. The mother sighed
but said nothing. She looked nowise hurt, only very sad. In a
minute, Steenie spoke again:
</p>
<p>
'I'm thinkin nane o' ye kens,' he said, 'what it's like whan
a' the hillside 's gien up to the ither anes!'
</p>
<p>
'What ither anes?' asked his mother. 'There can be nane there
but yer ain lane sel!'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, there 's a' the lave o' 's,' he rejoined, with a wan
smile.
</p>
<p>
The mother looked at him with something almost of fear in her
eyes of love.
</p>
<p>
'Steenie has company we ken little aboot,' said Kirsty. 'I
whiles think I wud gie him my wits for his company.'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, the bonny man!' murmured Steenie. '—I maun be
gauin!'
</p>
<p>
But he did not rise, did not even lift his head from his
father's knee: it would be rude to go before the supper was
over—the ruder that he was not partaking of it!
</p>
<p>
David had eaten his porridge, and now came the almost nightly
difference about the eggs. Marion had been 'the perfect spy
o' the time' in taking them from the pot; but when she would
as usual have her husband eat them, he as usual declared he
neither needed nor wanted them. This night, however, he did
not insist, but at once proceeded to prepare one, with which,
as soon as it was nicely mixed with salt, he began to feed
Steenie. The boy had been longer used to being thus fed than
most children, and having taken the first mouthful
instinctively, now moved his head, but without raising it
from his knee, so that his father might feed him more
comfortably. In this position he took every spoonful given
him, and so ate both the eggs, greatly to the delight of the
rest of the company.
</p>
<p>
A moment more and Steenie got up. His father rose also.
</p>
<p>
'I'll convoy ye a bit, my man,' he said.
</p>
<p>
'Eh, na! ye needna that, father! It's near-ban' yer bedtime!
I hae naegait to be convoyt. I'll jist be aboot i' the
nicht—maybe a stane's-cast frae the door, maybe the
tither side o' the Horn. Here or there I'm never frae ye. I
think whiles I'm jist like are o' them 'at ye ca' deid: I'm
no awa; I'm only deid! I'm aboot somegait!'
</p>
<p>
So saying, he went. He never on any occasion wished them
good-night: that would be to leave them, and he was not
leaving them! he was with them all the time!
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER VIII
</h2>
<h3>
DAVID AND HIS DAUGHTER
</h3>
<p>
The instant he was gone, Kirsty went a step or two nearer to
her father, and, looking up in his face, said:
</p>
<p>
'I saw Francie Gordon the day, father.'
</p>
<p>
'Weel, lassie, I reckon that wasna ony ferly (<i>strange
occurrence</i>)! Whaur saw ye him?'
</p>
<p>
'He cam to me o' the Hornside, whaur I sat weyvin my stockin,
ower the bog on 's powny—a richt bonny thing, and
clever—a new are he's gotten frae 's mither. And it's
no the first time he's been owre there to see me sin' he cam
hame!'
</p>
<p>
'Whatfor gaed he there? That wasna the best o' places to gang
ridin in!'
</p>
<p>
'He kenned whaur he was likest to see me: it was me he
wantit.'
</p>
<p>
'He wantit you, did he? And he's been mair nor ance efter
ye?—Whatfor didna ye tell me afore, Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
'We war bairns thegither, ye ken, father, and I never ance
thoucht the thing worth fashin ye aboot till the day. We've
aye been used to Francie comin and gaein! I never tellt my
mither onything, he said, and I tell her a'thing worth
tellin, and mony a thing forby. I aye leuch at him as I wud
at a bairn till the day. He spak straucht oot the day, and I
did the same, and angert him; and syne he angert me.'
</p>
<p>
'And whatfor are ye tellin me the noo?'
</p>
<p>
'Cause it cam intil my heid 'at maybe it would be
better—no 'at it maks ony differ I can see.'
</p>
<p>
During this conversation Marion was washing the
supper-things, putting them away, and making general
preparation for bed. She heard every word, and went about her
work softly that she might hear, never opening her mouth to
speak.
</p>
<p>
'There's something ye want to tell me and dinna like,
lassie!' said David. 'Gien ye be feart at yer father, gang
til yer mither.'
</p>
<p>
'Feart at my father! I wad be, gien I bed onything to be
ashamet o'. Syne I micht gang to my mither, I daursay—I
dinna ken.'
</p>
<p>
'Ye wud that, lassie. Fathers maun sometimes be fearsome to
lass-bairns!'
</p>
<p>
'Whan I'm feart at you, father, I'll be a gey bit on i' the
ill gait!' returned Kirsty, with a solemn face, looking
straight into her father's eyes.
</p>
<p>
'Than it'll never be, or I maun hae a heap to blame mysel
for. I think whiles, gien bairns kenned the terrible wyte
their fathers micht hae to dree for no duin better wi' them,
they wud be mair particlar to hand straucht. I hae been ower
muckle taen up wi' my beasts and my craps— mair, God
forgie me! nor wi' my twa bairns; though, he kens, ye're mair
to me, the twa, than oucht else save the mither o' ye!'
</p>
<p>
'The beasts and the craps cudna weel du wi' less; and there
was aye oor mither to see efter hiz!'
</p>
<p>
'That's true, lassie! I only houp it wasna greed at the hert
o' me! At the same time, wha wud I be greedy for but
yersels?—Weel, and what's it a' aboot? What garred ye
come to me aboot Francie? I'm some feart for him whiles, noo
'at he's sae muckle oot o' oor sicht. The laddie's no by
natur an ill laddie—far frae 't! but it's a sore pity
he cudna hae been a' his father's, and nane o' him his
mither's!'
</p>
<p>
'That wudna hae been sae weel contrived, I doobt!' remarked
Kirsty. 'There wudna hae been the variety, I'm thinkin!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye're richt there, lass!—But what's this aboot
Francie?' 'Ow naething, father, worth mentionin! The daft
loon wud hae bed me promise to merry him—that's a'!'
</p>
<p>
'The Lord preserve's!—Aff han'?'
</p>
<p>
'There's no tellin what micht hae been i' the heid o' 'im: he
didna win sae far as to say that onygait!'
</p>
<p>
'God forbid!' exclaimed her father with solemnity, after a
short pause.
</p>
<p>
'I'm thinkin God's forbidden langsyne!' rejoined Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'What said ye til 'im, lassie?'
</p>
<p>
'First I leuch at him—as weel as I can min' tho
nonsense o' 't—and ca'd him the gowk he was; and syne I
sent him awa wi' a flee in 's lug: hadna he the impidence to
fa' oot upo' me for carin mair aboot Steenie nor the likes o'
him! As gien ever <i>he</i> cud come 'ithin sicht o'
Steenie!'
</p>
<p>
Her father looked very grave.
</p>
<p>
'Are ye no pleased, father? I did what I thoucht richt.'
</p>
<p>
'Ye cudna hae dune better, Kirsty. But I'm sorry for the
callan, for eh but I loed his father! Lassie, for his
father's sake I cud tak Francie intil the hoose, and work for
him as for you and Steenie—though it's little guid
Steenie ever gets o' me, puir sowl!'
</p>
<p>
'Dinna say that, father. It wud be an ill thing for Steenie
to hae onybody but yersel to the father o' 'im! A muckle
pairt o' the nicht he wins ower in loein at you and his
mother.'
</p>
<p>
'And yersel, Kirsty.'
</p>
<p>
'I'm thinkin I hae my share i' the daytime.'
</p>
<p>
'And hoo, think ye, gangs the lave o' the nicht wi' 'im?'
</p>
<p>
'The bonny man has the maist o' 't, I dinna doobt, and what
better cud we desire for 'im!—But, father, gien Francie
come back wi' the same tale—I dinna think he wull efter
what I telled him, but he may—what wud ye hae me say
til 'im?'
</p>
<p>
'Say what ye wull, lassie, sae lang as ye dinna lat him for a
moment believe there's a grain o' possibility i' the thing.
Ye see, Kirsty,—'
</p>
<p>
'Ye dinna imagine, father, I cud for ae minute think
itherwise aboot it nor ye du yersel! Div I no ken 'at his
father gied him in chairge to you? and haena I therefore to
luik efter him? Didna ye tell me a' aboot yer gran' freen'
and hoo, and hoo lang ye had loed him? and didna that mak
Francie my business as weel's yer ain? I'm verra sure his
father wud never appruv o' ony gaeins on atween him and a
lassie sic like's mysel; and fearna ye, father, but I s' hand
him weel ootby. No that it's ony tyauve (<i>struggle</i>) to
me, though I aye likit Francie! Haena I my ain Steenie?'
</p>
<p>
'Glaidly wud I shaw Francie the ro'd to sic a wife as ye wud
mak him, my bonny Kirsty! But ye see clearly the thing
itsel's no to be thoucht upon.—Eh, Kirsty, but it's
gran' to an auld father's hert to hear ye tak yer pairt in
his devours efter sic a wumanly fashion!'
</p>
<p>
'Am I no yer ain lass-bairn, father? Whaur wud I be wi' a
father 'at didna keep his word? and what less cud I du nor
help ony man to keep his word? Gien breach o' the
faimily-word cam throuw me, my life wud gang frae
me.—Wad ye hae me tell the laddie's mither? I wudna
like to expose the folly o' him, but gien ye think it
necessar, I'll gang the morn's mornin.'
</p>
<p>
'I dinna think that wud be weel. It wad but raise a strife
atween the twa, ohn dune an atom o' guid. She wud only rage
at the laddie, and pit him in sic a reid heat as wad but wald
thegither him and his wull sae 'at they wud maist never come
in twa again. And though ye gaed and tauld her yer ain sel,
my leddy wad lay a' the wyte upo' you nane the less. There's
no rizzon, tap nor tae, i' the puir body, and ye're naewise
b'und to her farther nor to du richt by her.'
</p>
<p>
'I'm glaid ye dinna want me to gang,' answered Kirsty. 'She
carries hersel that gran' 'at ye're maist driven to the
consideration hoo little she's worth; and that's no the richt
speerit anent onybody or thing God thoucht worth makin.'
</p>
<p>
</p>
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</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER IX
</h2>
<h3>
AT CASTLE WEELSET
</h3>
<p>
Francie's anger had died down a good deal by the time he
reached home. He was, as his father's friend had just said,
by no means a bad sort of fellow, only he was full of
himself, and therefore of little use to anybody. His mother
and he, when not actually at strife, were constantly on the
edge of a quarrel. The two must have their own way, each of
them. Francie's way was sometimes good, his mother's
sometimes not bad, but both were usually selfish. The boy had
fits of generosity, the woman never, except toward her son.
If she thought of something to please him, good and well! if
he wanted anything of her, it would never do! The idea must
be her own, or meet with no favour. If she imagined her son
desired a thing, she felt it one she never could grant, and
told him so: thereafter Francis would not rest until he had
compassed the thing. Sudden division and high words would
follow, with speechlessness on the mother's part in the rear,
which might last for days. Becoming all at once tired of it,
she would in the morning appear at breakfast looking as if
nothing had ever come between them, and they would be the
best of friends for a few days, or perhaps a week, seldom
longer. Some fresh discord, nowise different in character
from the preceding, would arise between them, and the same
weary round be tramped again, each always in the right, and
the other in the wrong. Every time they made it up, their
relation seemed unimpaired, but it was hardly possible things
should go on thus and not at length quite estrange their
hearts.
</p>
<p>
In matters of display, to which Francis had much tendency,
his mother's own vanity led her to indulge and spoil him,
for, being hers, she was always pleased he should look his
best. On his real self she neither had nor sought any
influence. Insubordination or arrogance in him, her dignity
unslighted, actually pleased her: she liked him to show his
spirit: was it not a mark of his breeding?
</p>
<p>
She was a tall and rather stout woman, with a pretty,
small-featured, regular face, and a thin nose with the
nostrils pinched.
</p>
<p>
Castle Weelset was not much of a castle: to an ancient round
tower, discomfortably habitable, had been added in the last
century a rather large, defensible house. It stood on the
edge of a gorge, crowning one of its stony hills of no great
height. With scarce a tree to shelter it, the situation was
very cold in winter, and it required a hardy breeding to live
there in comfort. There was little of a garden, and the
stables were somewhat ruinous. For the former fact the
climate almost sufficiently accounted, and for the latter, a
long period of comparative poverty.
</p>
<p>
The young laird did not like farming, and had no love for
books: in this interval between school and college, he found
very little to occupy him, and not much to amuse him. Had
Kirsty and her family proved as encouraging as he had
expected, he would have made use of his new pony almost only
to ride to Corbyknowe in the morning and back to the castle
at night.
</p>
<p>
His mother knew old Barclay, as she called him, well
enough—that is, not at all, and had never shown him any
cordiality, anything, indeed, better than condescension. To
treat him like a gentleman, even when he sat at her own
table, she would have counted absurd. He had never been to
the castle since the day after her husband's funeral, when
she received him with such emphasized superiority that he
felt he could not go again without running the risk either of
having his influence with the boy ruined, or giving occasion
to a nature not without generosity to take David's part
against his mother. Thenceforward, therefore, he contented
himself with giving Francis invariable welcome, and doing
what he could to make his visits pleasant. Chiefly, on such
not infrequent occasions, the boy delighted in drawing from
his father's friend what tales about his father, and
adventures of their campaigns together, he had to tell; and
in this way David's wife and children heard many things about
himself which would not otherwise have reached them.
Naturally, Kirsty and Francie grew to be good friends; and
after they went to the parish school, there were few days
indeed on which they did not walk at least as far homeward
together as the midway divergence of their roads permitted.
It was not wonderful, therefore, that at length Francis
should be, or should fancy himself in love with Kirsty. But I
believe all the time he thought of marrying her as a heroic
deed, in raising the girl his mother despised to share the
lofty position he and that foolish mother imagined him to
occupy. The anticipation of opposition from his mother
naturally strengthened his determination; of opposition on
the part of Kirsty, he had not dreamed. He took it as of
course that, the moment he stated his intention, Kirsty would
be charmed, her mother more than pleased, and the stern old
soldier overwhelmed with the honour of alliance with the son
of his colonel. I do not doubt, however, that he had an
affection for Kirsty far deeper and better than his notion of
their relations to each other would indicate. Although it was
mainly his pride that suffered in his humiliating dismissal,
he had, I am sure, a genuine heartache as he galloped home.
When he reached the castle, he left his pony to go where he
would, and rushed to his room. There, locking the door that
his mother might not enter, he threw himself on his bed in
the luxurious consciousness of a much-wronged lover. An
uneducated country girl, for as such he regarded her, had
cast from her, not without insult, his splendidly generous
offer of himself!
</p>
<p>
Poor king Cophetua did not, however, shed many tears for the
loss of his recusant beggar-maid. By and by he forgot
everything, found he had gone to sleep, and, endeavouring to
weep again, did not succeed.
</p>
<p>
He grew hungry soon, and went down to see what was to be had.
It was long past the usual hour for dinner, but Mrs. Gordon
had not seen him return, and had had it put back—so to
make the most of an opportunity of quarrel not to be
neglected by a conscientious mother. She let it slide
nevertheless.
</p>
<p>
'Gracious, you've been crying!' she exclaimed, the moment she
saw him.
</p>
<p>
Now certainly Francis had not cried much; his eyes were,
notwithstanding, a little red.
</p>
<p>
He had not yet learned to lie, but he might then have made
his first assay had he had a fib at his tongue's end; as he
had not, he gloomed deeper, and made no answer.
</p>
<p>
'You've been fighting!' said his mother.
</p>
<p>
'I haena,' he returned with rude indignation. 'Gien I had
been, div ye think I wud hae grutten?'
</p>
<p>
'You forget yourself, laird!' remarked Mrs. Gordon, more
annoyed with his Scotch than the tone of it. 'I would have
you remember I am mistress of the house!'
</p>
<p>
'Till I marry, mother!' rejoined her son.
</p>
<p>
'Oblige me in the meantime,' she answered, 'by leaving vulgar
language outside it.'
</p>
<p>
Francis was silent; and his mother, content with her victory,
and in her own untruthfulness of nature believing he had
indeed been fighting and had had the worse of it, said no
more, but began to pity and pet him. A pot of his favourite
jam presently consoled the love-wounded hero—in the
acceptance of which consolation he showed himself far less
unworthy than many a grown man, similarly circumstanced, in
the choice of his.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER X
</h2>
<h3>
DAVID AND FRANCIS
</h3>
<p>
One day there was a market at a town some eight or nine miles
off, and thither, for lack of anything else to do, Francis
had gone to display himself and his pony, which he was riding
with so tight a curb that the poor thing every now and then
reared in protest against the agony he suffered.
</p>
<p>
On one of these occasions Don was on the point of falling
backward, when a brown wrinkled hand laid hold of him by the
head, half pulling the reins from his rider's hand, and ere
he had quite settled again on his forelegs, had unhooked the
chain of his curb, and fastened it some three links looser.
Francis was more than indignant, even when he saw that the
hand was Mr. Barclay's: was he to be treated as one who did
not know what he was about!
</p>
<p>
'Hoots, my man!' said David gently, 'there's no occasion to
put a water-chain upo' the bonny beastie: he has a mou like a
leddy's! and to hae 't linkit up sae ticht is naething less
nor tortur til 'im!—It's a won'er to me he hasna broken
your banes and his ain back thegither, puir thing!' he added,
patting and stroking the spirited little creature that stood
sweating and trembling. 'I thank you, Mr. Barclay,' said
Francis insolently, 'but I am quite able to manage the brute
myself. You seem to take me for a fool!'
</p>
<p>
''Deed, he's no far aff ane 'at cud ca' a bonny cratur like
that a brute!' returned David, nowise pleased to discover
such hardness in one whom he would gladly treat like a child
of his own. It was a great disappointment to him to see the
lad getting farther away from the possibility of being helped
by him. 'What 'ud yer father say to see ye illuse ony
helpless bein! Yer father was awfu guid til 's horse-fowk.'
</p>
<p>
The last word was one of David's own: he was a great lover of
animals.
</p>
<p>
'I'll do with my own as I please!' cried Francis, and spurred
the pony to pass David. But one stalwart hand held the pony
fast, while the other seized his rider by the ankle. The old
man was now thoroughly angry with the graceless youth.
</p>
<p>
'God bless my sowl!' he cried, 'hae ye the spurs on as weel?
Stick ane o' them intil him again, and I'll cast ye frae the
seddle. I' the thick o' a fecht, the lang blades playin aboot
yer father's heid like lichts i' the north, he never stack
spur intil 's chairger needless!'
</p>
<p>
'I don't see,' said Francis, who had begun to cool down a
little, 'how he could have enjoyed the fight much if he never
forgot himself! I should forget everything in the delight of
the battle!'
</p>
<p>
'Yer father, laddie, never forgot onything but himsel.
Forgettin himsel left him free to min' a'thing forbye.
<i>Ye</i> wud forget ilka thing but yer ain rage! Yer father
was a great man as weel's a great soger, Francie, and a
deevil to fecht, as his men said. I hae mysel seen by the set
mou 'at the teeth war clinched i' the inside o' 't, whan a'
the time on the broo o' 'im sat never a runkle. Gien ever
there was a man 'at cud think o' twa things at ance, your
father cud think o' three; and thae three war God, his enemy,
and the beast aneath him. Francie, Francie, i' the name o'
yer father I beg ye to regaird the richts o' the neebour ye
sit upo'. Gien ye dinna that, ye'll come or lang to think
little o' yer human neebour as weel, carin only for what ye
get oot o' 'im!'
</p>
<p>
A voice inside Francis took part with the old man, and made
him yet angrier. Also his pride was the worse annoyed that
David Barclay, his tenant, should, in the hearing of two or
three loafers gathered behind him, of whose presence the old
man was unaware, not only rebuke him, but address him by his
name, and the diminutive of it. So when David, in the appeal
that burst from his enthusiastic remembrance of his officer
in the battle-field, let the pony's head go, Francis dug his
spurs in his sides, and darted off like an arrow. The old man
for a moment stared open-mouthed after him. The fools around
laughed: he turned and walked away, his head sunk on his
breast.
</p>
<p>
Francis had not ridden far before he was vexed with himself.
He was not so much sorry, as annoyed that he had behaved in
fashion undignified. The thought that his childish behaviour
would justify Kirsty in her opinion of him, added its sting.
He tried to console himself with the reflection that the sort
of thing ought to be put an end to at once: how far,
otherwise, might not the old fellow's interference go! I am
afraid he even said to himself that such was a consequence of
familiarity with inferiors. Yet angry as he was at his
fault-finding, he would have been proud of any approval from
the lips of the old soldier. He rode his pony mercilessly for
a mile or so, then pulled up, and began to talk pettingly to
him, which I doubt if the little creature found consoling,
for love only makes petting worth anything, and the love here
was not much to the front.
</p>
<p>
About halfway home, he had to ford a small stream, or go
round two miles by a bridge. There had been much rain in the
night, and the stream was considerably swollen. As he
approached the ford, he met a knife-grinder, who warned him
not to attempt it: he had nearly lost his wheel in it, he
said. But Francis always found it hard to accept advice. His
mother had so often predicted from neglect of hers evils
which never followed, that he had come to think counsel the
one thing not to be heeded.
</p>
<p>
'Thank you,' he said; 'I think we can manage it!' and rode
on.
</p>
<p>
When he reached the ford, where of all places he ought to
have left the pony's head free, he foolishly remembered the
curb-chain, and getting off, took it up a couple of links.
</p>
<p>
But when he remounted, whether from dread of the rush of the
brown water, or resentment at the threat of renewed torture,
the pony would not take the ford, and a battle royal arose
between them, in which Francis was so far victorious that,
after many attempts to run away, little Don, rendered
desperate by the spur, dashed wildly into the stream, and
went plunging on for two or three yards. Then he fell, and
Francis found himself rolling in the water, swept along by
the current.
</p>
<p>
A little way lower down, at a sharp turn of the stream under
a high bank, was a deep pool, a place held much in dread by
the country lads and lasses, being a haunt of the kelpie.
Francis knew the spot well, and had good reason to fear that,
carried into it, he must be drowned, for he could not swim.
Roused by the thought to a yet harder struggle, he succeeded
in getting upon his feet, and reaching the bank, where he lay
for a while, exhausted. When at length he came to himself and
rose, he found the water still between him and home, and
nothing of his pony to be seen. If the youth's good sense had
been equal to his courage, he would have been a fine fellow:
he dashed straight into the ford, floundered through it, and
lost his footing no more than had Don, treated properly. When
he reached the high ground on the other side, he could still
see nothing of him, and with sad heart concluded him carried
into the Kelpie's Hole, never more to be beheld
alive:—what would his mother and Mr. Barclay say?
Shivering and wretched, and with a growing compunction in
regard to his behaviour to Don, he crawled wearily home.
</p>
<p>
Don, however, had at no moment been much in danger. Rid of
his master, he could take very good care of himself. He got
to the bank without difficulty, and took care it should be on
the home-side of the stream. Not once looking behind him
after his tyrant, he set off at a good round trot, much
refreshed by his bath, and rejoicing in the thought of his
loose box at castle Weelset.
</p>
<p>
In a narrow part of the road, however, he overtook a cart of
Mr. Barclay's; and as he attempted to pass between it and the
steep brae, the man on the shaft caught at his bridle, made
him prisoner, tied him to the cart behind, and took him to
Corbyknowe. When David came home and saw him, he conjectured
pretty nearly what had happened, and tired as he was set out
for the castle. Had he not feared that Francis might have
been injured, he would not have cared to go, much as he knew
it must relieve him to learn that his pony was safe.
</p>
<p>
Mrs. Gordon declined to see David, but he ascertained from
the servants that Francis had come home half-drowned, leaving
Don in the Kelpie's Hole.
</p>
<p>
David hesitated a little whether or not to punish him for his
behaviour to the pony by allowing him to remain in ignorance
of his safety, and so leaving him to the <i>agen-bite</i> of
conscience; but concluding that such was not his part, he
told them that the animal was safe at Corbyknowe, and went
home again.
</p>
<p>
But he wanted Francis to fetch the pony himself, therefore
did not send him, and in the meantime fed and groomed him
with his own hands as if he had been his friend's charger.
Francis having just enough of the grace of shame to make him
shrink from going to Corbyknowe, his mother wrote to David,
asking why he did not send home the animal. David, one of the
most courteous of men, would take no order from any but his
superior officer, and answered that he would gladly give him
up to the young laird in person.
</p>
<p>
The next day Mrs. Gordon drove, in what state she could
muster, to Corbyknowe. Arrived there, she declined to leave
her carriage, requesting Mrs. Barclay, who came to the door,
to send her husband to her. Mrs. Barclay thought it better to
comply.
</p>
<p>
David came in his shirt-sleeves, for he had been fetched from
his work.
</p>
<p>
'If I understand your answer to my request, Mr. Barclay, you
decline to send back Mr. Gordon's pony. Pray, on what
grounds?'
</p>
<p>
'I wrote, ma'am, that I should be glad to give him over to
Mr. Francis himself.'
</p>
<p>
'Mr. Gordon does not find it convenient to come all this way
on foot. In fact he declines to do it, and requests that you
will send the pony home this afternoon.'
</p>
<p>
'Excuse me, mem, but it's surely enough done that a man make
known the presence o' strays, and tak proper care o' them
until they're claimt! I was fain forbye to gie the bonny
thing a bit pleesur in life: Francie's ower hard upon him.'
</p>
<p>
'You forget, David Barclay, that Mr. Gordon is your
landlord!'
</p>
<p>
'His father, mem, was my landlord, and his father's father
was my father's landlord; and the interests o' the landlord
hae aye been oors. Ither nor Francie's herty freen I can
never be!'
</p>
<p>
'You presume on my late husband's kindness to you, Barclay!'
</p>
<p>
'Gien devotion be presumption, mem, I presume. Archibald
Gordon was and is my freen, and will be for ever. We hae been
throuw ower muckle thegither to change to are anither. It was
for his sake and the laddie's ain that I wantit him to come
to me. I wantit a word wi' him aboot that powny o' his. He'll
never be true man 'at taks no tent (<i>care</i>) o' dumb
animals! You 'at's sae weel at hame i' the seddle yersel,
mem, micht tak a kin'ly care o' what's aneth his!'
</p>
<p>
'I will have no one interfere with my son. I am quite capable
of teaching him his duty myself.'
</p>
<p>
'His father requestit me to do what I could for him, mem.'
</p>
<p>
'His <i>late</i> father, if you please, Barclay!'
</p>
<p>
'He s' never be Francie's <i>late</i> father to Francie, gien
I can help it, mem! He may be your <i>late</i> husband, mem,
but he's my cornel yet, and I s' keep my word til him! It'll
no be lang noo, i' the natur o' things, till I gang til him;
and sure am I his first word 'll be aboot the laddie: I wud
ill like to answer him, "Archie, I ken naething aboot him but
what I cud weel wuss itherwise!" Hoo wud ye like to gie sic
an answer yersel, mem?'
</p>
<p>
'I'm surprised at a man of your sense, Barclay, thinking we
shall know one another in heaven! We shall have to be content
with God there!'
</p>
<p>
'I said naething about h'aven, mem! Fowk may ken are anither
and no be in ae place. I took note i' the kirk last Sunday
'at Abrahaam kent the rich man, and the rich man him, and
they warna i' the same place.—But ye'll lat the yoong
laird come and see me, mem?' concluded David, changing his
tone and speaking as one who begged a favour; for the thought
of meeting his old friend and having nothing to tell him
about his boy, quenched his pride.
</p>
<p>
'Home, Thomas!' cried her late husband's wife to her
coachman, and drove away.
</p>
<p>
'Dod! they'll hae to gie that wife a hell til hersel!' said
David, turning to the door discomfited.
</p>
<p>
'And maybe she'll no like it whan she hes't!' returned his
wife, who had heard every word. 'There's fowk 'at's no fit
company for onybody! and I'm thinkin she's ane gien there
bena anither!'
</p>
<p>
'I'll sen' Jeamie hame wi' the powny the nicht,' said David.
'A body canna insist whaur fowk are no frien's. That weud
grow to enmity, and the en' o' a' guid. Na, we maun sen' hame
the powny; and gien there be ony grace i' the bairn, he canna
but come and say thank ye!'
</p>
<p>
Mrs. Gordon rejoiced in her victory; but David's yielding
showed itself the true policy. Francis did call and thank him
for taking care of Don. He even granted that perhaps he had
been too hard on the pony.
</p>
<p>
'Ye cud richteously expeck naething o' a powny o' his size
that that powny o' yours cudna du, Francie!' said David.
'But, in God's name, dear laddie, be a richteous man. Gien ye
requere no more than's fair frae man or beast, ye'll maistly
aye get it. But gien yer ootluik in life be to get a'thing
and gie naething, ye maun come to grief ae w'y and a' w'ys.
Success in an ill attemp is the warst failyie a man can mak.'
</p>
<p>
But it was talking to the wind, for Francis thought, or tried
to think David only bent, like his mother, on finding fault
with him. He made haste to get away, and left his friend with
a sad heart.
</p>
<p>
He rode on to the foot of the Horn, to the spot where Kirsty
was usually at that season to be found; but she saw him
coming, and went up the hill. Soon after, his mother
contrived that he should pay a visit to some relatives in the
south, and for a time neither the castle nor the Horn saw
anything of him. Without returning home he went in the winter
to Edinburgh, where he neither disgraced nor distinguished
himself. David was to hear no ill of him. To be beyond his
mother's immediate influence was perhaps to his advantage,
but as nothing superior was substituted, it was at best but
little gain. His companions were like himself, such as might
turn to worse or better, no one could tell which.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XI
</h2>
<h3>
KIRSTY AND PHEMY
</h3>
<p>
During the first winter which Francis spent at college, his
mother was in England, and remained there all the next summer
and winter. When at last she came home, she was even less
pleasant than before in the eyes of her household, no one of
which had ever loved her. Throughout the summer she had a
succession of visitors, and stories began to spread
concerning strange doings at the castle. The neighbours
talked of extravagance, and the censorious among them of
riotous living; while some of the servants more than hinted
that the amount of wine and whisky consumed was far in excess
of what served when the old colonel was alive.
</p>
<p>
One of them who, in her mistress's frequent fits of laziness,
acted as housekeeper, had known David Barclay from his
boyhood, and understood his real intimacy with her late
master: it was not surprising, therefore, that she should
open her mind to him, while keeping toward everyone else a
settled silence concerning her mistress's affairs: none of
the stories current in the country-side came from her. David
was to Mrs. Bremner the other side of a deep pit, into the
bottom of which whatever was said between them dropped.
</p>
<p>
'There'll come a catastrophe or lang,' said Mrs. Bremner one
evening when David Barclay overtook her on the road to the
town, 'and that'll be seen! The property's jist awa to the
dogs! There's Maister Donal, the factor, gaein aboot like are
in a dilemm as to cuttin 's thro't or blawin his harns oot!
He daursna say a word, ye see! The auld laird trustit him,
and he's feart 'at he be blamit, but there's nae duin
onything wi' that wuman: the siller maun be forthcomin whan
she's wantin 't!'
</p>
<p>
'The siller's no hers ony mair nor the Ian'; a' 's the yoong
laird's!' remarked David.
</p>
<p>
'That's true; but she's i' the pooer o' 't till he come o'
age; and Maister Donal, puir man, mony's the time he 's jist
driven to are mair to get what's aye wantit and wantit! What
comes o' the siller it jist blecks me to think: there's no a
thing aboot the hoose to shaw for 't! And hearken, David, but
latna baith lugs hear 't, for dreid the tane come ower't
again to the tither—I'm doobtin the drink's gettin a
sair grup o' her!'
</p>
<p>
''Deed I wudna be nane surprised!' returned David. 'Whatever
micht want in at her door, there's naething inside to baud it
oot. Eh, to think o' Archie Gordon takin til himsel sic a
wife! that a man like him, o' guid report, and come to years
o' discretion—to think o' brains like his turnin as
fozy as an auld neep at sicht o' a bonny front til an ae wa'
hoose (<i>a house of but one wall</i>)! It canna be 'at
witchcraft's clean dune awa wi'!'
</p>
<p>
'Bonny, Dawvid! Ca'd ye the mistress bonny?'
</p>
<p>
'She used to be—bonny, that is, as a button or a buckle
micht be bonny. What she may be the noo, I dinna ken, for I
haena set ee upon her sin' she cam to the Knowe orderin me to
sen' back Francie's powny: she was suppercilly eneuch than
for twa cornels and a corporal, but no ill luikin. Gien she
hae a spot o' beaouty left, the drink 'll tak it or it hae
dune wi' her!'
</p>
<p>
'Or she hae dune wi' hit, Dawvid! It's ta'en ae colour frae
her a'ready, and begud to gie her anither! But it concerns me
mair aboot Francie nor my leddy: what's to come o' him when
a' 's gane? what'll there be for him to come intil?'
</p>
<p>
Gladly would David have interfered, but he was helpless; he
had no legal guardianship over or for the boy! Nothing could
be done till he was a man!—'gien ever he be a man!'
said David to himself with a sigh, and the thought how much
better off he was with his half-witted Steenie than his
friend with his clever Francie.
</p>
<p>
Mrs. Bremner was sister-in-law to the schoolmaster, and was
then on her way to see him and his daughter Phemy. From
childhood the girl had been in the way of going to the castle
to see her aunt, and so was well known about the place. Being
an engaging child, she had become not only welcome to the
servants but something of a favourite with the mistress, whom
she amused with her little airs, and pleased with her winning
manners. She was now about fourteen, a half-blown beauty of
the red and white, gold and blue kind. She had long been a
vain little thing, approving of her own looks in the glass,
and taking much interest in setting them off, but so simple
as to make no attempt at concealing her self-satisfaction.
Her pleased contemplation of this or that portion of her
person, and the frantic attempts she was sometimes espied
making to get a sight of her back, especially when she wore a
new frock, were indeed more amusing than hopeful, but her
vanity was not yet so pronounced as to overshadow her better
qualities, and Kirsty had not thought it well to take notice
of it, although, being more than anyone else a mother to her,
she was already a little anxious on the score of it, and the
rather that her aunt, like her father, neither saw nor
imagined fault in her.
</p>
<p>
That the child had no mother, drew to her the heart of the
girl whose mother was her strength and joy; while gratitude
to the child's father, who, in opening for her some doors of
wisdom and more of knowledge, had put her under eternal
obligations, moved her to make what return she could. It
deepened her sense of debt to Phemy that the schoolmaster did
not do for his daughter anything like what he had years long
been doing for his pupil, whence she almost felt as if she
had diverted to her own use much that rightly belonged to
Phemy. At the same time she knew very well that had she never
existed the relation between the father and the daughter
would have been the same. The child of his dearly loved wife,
the schoolmaster was utterly content with his Phemy; for he
felt as if she knew everything her mother knew, had the same
inward laws of being and the same disposition, and was
simply, like her, perfect.
</p>
<p>
That she should ever do anything wrong was an idea
inconceivable to him. Nor was there much chance of his
discovering it if she did. When not at work, he was
constantly reading. Most people close a book without having
gained from it a single germ of thought; Mr. Craig seldom
opened one without falling directly into a brown study over
something suggested by it. But I believe that, even when thus
absorbed, Phemy was never far from his thought. At the same
time, like many Scots, while she was his one joy, he seldom
showed her sign of affection, seldom made her feel, and never
sought to make her feel how he loved her. His love was taken
by him for understood by her, and was to her almost as if it
did not exist.
</p>
<p>
That his child required to be taught had scarcely occurred to
the man who could not have lived without learning, or enjoyed
life without teaching—as witness the eagerness with
which he would help Kirsty along any path of knowledge in
which he knew how to walk. The love of knowledge had grown in
him to a possessing passion, paralyzing in a measure those
powers of his life sacred to life—that is, to God and
his neighbour.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty could not do nearly what she would to make up for his
neglect. For one thing, the child did not take to learning,
and though she loved Kirsty and often tried to please her,
would not keep on doing anything without being more
frequently reminded of her duty than the distance between
their two abodes permitted. Kirsty had her to the farm as
often as the schoolmaster would consent to her absence, and
kept her as long as he went on forgetting it; while Phemy was
always glad to go to Corbyknowe, and always glad to get away
again. For Mrs. Barclay thought it her part to teach her
household matters, and lessons of that sort Phemy relished
worse than some of a more intellectual nature. If left with
her, the moment Kirsty appeared again, the child would fling
from her whatever might be in her hand, and flee as to her
deliverer from bondage and hard labour. Then would Kirsty
always insist on her finishing what she had been at, and
Phemy would obey, with the protest of silent tears, and the
airs of a much injured mortal. Had Kirsty been backed by the
child's father, she might have made something of her; but it
grew more and more painful to think of her future, when her
self-constituted guardian should have lost what influence she
had over her.
</p>
<p>
Phemy was rather afraid of Steenie. Her sunny nature shrank
from the shadow, as of a wall, in which Steenie appeared to
her always to stand. From any little attention he would offer
her, she, although never rude to him, would involuntarily
recoil, and he soon learned to leave her undismayed. That the
child's repugnance troubled him, though he never spoke of it,
Kirsty saw quite plainly, for she could read his face like a
book, and heard him sigh when even his mother did not. Her
eyes were constantly regarding him, like sheep feeding on the
pasture of his face:—I think I have used a figure of
sir Philip Sidney's. But say rather—the thoughts that
strayed over his face were the sheep to which all her life
she had been the devoted shepherdess.
</p>
<p>
At Corbyknowe things went on as hitherto. Kirsty was in no
danger of tiring of the even flow of her life. Steenie's
unselfish solitude of soul made him every day dearer to her.
Books she sought in every accessible, and found occasionally
in an unhopeful quarter. She had no thought of distinguishing
herself, no smallest ambition of becoming learned; her soul
was athirst to understand, and what she understood found its
way from her mind into her life. Much to the advantage of her
thinking were her keen power and constant practice of
observation. I utterly refuse the notion that we cannot think
without words, but certainly the more forms we have ready to
embody our thoughts, the farther we shall be able to carry
our thinking. Richly endowed, Kirsty required the more mental
food, and was the more able to use it when she found it. To
such of the neighbours as had no knowledge of any diligence
save that of the hands, she seemed to lead an idle life; but
indeed even Kirsty's hands were far from idle. When not with
Steenie she was almost always at her mother's call, who, from
the fear that she might grow up incapable of managing a
house, often required a good deal of her. But the mother did
not fail to note with what alacrity she would lay her book
aside, sometimes even dropping it in her eagerness to answer
her summons. Dismissed for the moment, she would at once take
her book again and the seat nearest to it: she could read
anywhere, and gave herself none of the student-airs that make
some young people so pitifully unpleasant. At the same time
solitude was preferable for study, and Kirsty was always glad
to find herself with her books in the little hut, Steenie
asleep on the heather carpet on her feet, and the assurance
that there no one would interrupt her.
</p>
<p>
It was not wonderful that, in the sweet absence of selfish
cares, her mind full of worthy thoughts, and her heart going
out in tenderness, her face should go on growing in beauty
and refinement. She was not yet arrived at physical full
growth, and the forms of her person being therefore in a
process of change were the more easily modelled after her
spiritual nature. She seemed almost already one that would
not die, but live for ever, and continue to inherit the
earth. Neither her father nor her mother could have imagined
anything better to be made of her.
</p>
<p>
Steenie had not changed his habits, neither seemed to grow at
all more like other people. He was now indeed seldom so much
depressed as formerly, but he showed no sign of less
dependence on Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XII
</h2>
<h3>
THE EARTH-HOUSE
</h3>
<p>
About a year after Francis Gordon went to Edinburgh, Kirsty
and Steenie made a discovery.
</p>
<p>
Between Corbyknowe and the Horn, on whose sides David Barclay
had a right of pasturage for the few sheep to which Steenie
and Snootie were the shepherds, was a small glen, through
which, on its way to join the little river with the
kelpie-pot, ran a brook, along whose banks lay two narrow
breadths of nice grass. The brother and sister always crossed
this brook when they wanted to go straight to the top of the
hill.
</p>
<p>
One morning, having each taken the necessary run and jump,
they had began to climb on the other side, when Kirsty, who
was a few paces before him, turned at an exclamation from
Steenie.
</p>
<p>
'It's a' the weicht o' my muckle feet!' he cried, as he
dragged one of the troublesome members out of a hole. 'Losh,
I dinna ken hoo far it michtna hae gane doon gien I hadna
gotten a haud o' 't in time and pu'd it oot!'
</p>
<p>
How much of humour, how much of silliness, and how much of
truth were wrapt up together in some of the things he said,
it was impossible to determine. I believe Kirsty came pretty
near knowing, but even she was not always sure where wilful
oddity and where misapprehension was at the root of a remark.
</p>
<p>
'Gien ye set yer fit upon a hole,' said Kirsty, 'what can the
puir thing du but gang doon intil 't? Ye maunna be
oonrizzonable wi' the craturs, Steenie! Ye maun be fair til
them.'
</p>
<p>
'But there was nae hole!' returned Steenie. 'There cudna hae
been. There's the hole noo! My fit made it, and there it'll
hae to bide! It's a some fearsome thing, divna ye think, 'at
what aiven the fit o' a body dis, bides? What for disna the
hole gang awa whan the fit lifts? Luik ye there! Ye see thae
twa stanes stan'in up by themsels, and there's the
hole—atween the twa! There cudna hae been a hole there
afore the weicht o' my fit cam doon upo' the spot and ca'd it
throuw! I gaed in maist til my knee!'
</p>
<p>
'Lat's luik!' said Kirsty, and proceeded to examine the
place.
</p>
<p>
She thought at first it must be the burrow of some animal,
but the similarity in shape of the projecting stones
suggesting that their position might not be fortuitous, she
would look a little farther, and began to pull away the
heather about the mouth of the opening. Steenie set himself,
with might and main, to help her. Kirsty was much the
stronger of the two, but Steenie always did his best to
second her in anything that required exertion.
</p>
<p>
They soon spied the lump of sod and heather which Steenie's
heavy foot had driven down, and when they had pulled that
out, they saw that the hole went deeper still, seeming a very
large burrow indeed—therefore a little fearsome. Having
widened the mouth of it by clearing away a thick growth of
roots from its sides, and taken out a quantity of soft earth,
they perceived that it went sloping into the ground still
farther. With growing curiosity they leant down into it,
lying on the edge, and reaching with their hands removed the
loose earth as low as they could. This done, the descent
showed itself about two feet square, as far down as they had
cleared it, beyond which a little way it was lost in the
dark.
</p>
<p>
What were they to do next? There was yet greater inducement
to go on, but considerations came which were not a little
deterrent. Although Steenie had worked well, Kirsty knew he
had a horror of dark places, associating them somehow with
the weight of his feet: whether such places had for him any
suggestion of the grave, I cannot tell; certainly to get rid
of his feet was the form his idea of the salvation he needed
was readiest to take. Then might there not be some animal
inside? Steenie thought not, for there was no opening until
he made it! and Kirsty also thought not, on the ground that
she knew no wild animal larger than fox or badger, neither of
which would have made such a big hole. One moment, however,
her imagination was nearly too much for her: what if some
huge bear had been asleep in it for hundreds of years, and
growing all the time! Certainly he could not get out, but if
she roused him, and he got a hold of her! The next instant
her courage revived, for she would have been ashamed to let
what she did not believe influence any action. The passage
must lead somewhere, and it was large enough for her to
explore it!
</p>
<p>
Because of her dress, she must creep in head
foremost—in which lay the advantage that so she would
meet any danger face to face! Telling Steenie that if he
heard her cry out, he must get hold of her feet and pull, she
laid herself on the ground and crawled in. She thought it
must lead to an ancient tomb, but said nothing of the
conjecture for fear of horrifying Steenie, who stood
trembling, sustained only by his faith in Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
She went down and down and quite disappeared. Not a foot was
left for Steenie to lay hold of. Terrible and long seemed the
time to him as he stood there forsaken, his darling out of
sight in the heart of the earth. He knew there were wolves in
Scotland once; who could tell but a she-wolf had been left,
and a whole clan of them lived there underground, never
issuing in the daytime! there might be the open mouth of a
passage, under a rock and curtained with heather, in some
other spot of the hill! What if one of them got Kirsty by the
throat before she had time to cry out! Then he thought she
might have gone till she could go no father, and not having
room to turn, was trying to creep backward, but her clothes
hindered her. Forgetting his repugnance in over-mastering
fear, the faithful fellow was already half inside the hole to
go after her, when up shot the head of Kirsty, almost in his
face. For a moment he was terribly perplexed: he had been
expecting to come on her feet, not her head: how could she
have gone in head foremost, and not come back feet foremost?
</p>
<p>
'Eh, wuman,' he said in a fear-struck whisper, 'it's awfu' to
see ye come oot o' the yird like a muckle worm!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye saw me gang in, Steenie, ye gowk!' returned Kirsty,
dismayed herself at sight of his solemn dread.
</p>
<p>
'Ay,' answered Steenie, 'but I didna see ye come oot! Eh,
Kirsty, wuman, hae ye a heid at baith en's o' ye?'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty's laughter blew Steenie's discomposure away, and he
too laughed.
</p>
<p>
'Come back hame,' said Kirsty; 'I maun get haud o' a can'le!
Yon's a place maun be seen intil. I never saw, or raither
faun' (<i>felt</i>) the like o' 't, for o' seein there's
nane, or next to nane. There's room eneuch; ye can see that
wi' yer airms!'
</p>
<p>
'What is there room eneuch for?' asked Steenie.
</p>
<p>
'For you and me, and twenty or thirty mair, mebbe—I
dinna ken,' replied Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'I s' mak ye a present o' my room intil 't,' returned
Steenie. 'I want nane o' 't.'
</p>
<p>
'Ill gang doon wi' the can'le,' said Kirsty, 'and see whether
't be a place for ye. Gien I cry oot, "Ay is't," wull ye
come?'
</p>
<p>
'That I wull, gien 't war the whaul's belly!' replied
Steenie.
</p>
<p>
They set out for the house, and as they walked they talked.
</p>
<p>
'I div won'er what the place cud ever hae been for!' said
Kirsty, more to herself than Steenie. 'It's bigger nor ony
thoucht I had o' 't.'
</p>
<p>
'What is 't like, Kirsty?' inquired Steenie.
</p>
<p>
'Hoo can I tell whan I saw naething!' replied Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'But,' she added thoughtfully, 'gien it warna that we're in
Scotlan', and they're nigh-han' Rom', I wud hae been 'maist
sure I had won intil ane o' the catacombs!'
</p>
<p>
'Eh, losh, lat me awa to the hill!' cried Steenie, stopping
and half turning. 'I canna bide the verra word o' the
craturs!'
</p>
<p>
'What word than?' asked Kirsty, a little surprised; for how
did Steenie know anything about the catacombs?
</p>
<p>
'To think,' he went on, 'o' a haill kirk o' cats aneath the
yird—a' sittin kaimin themsels wi' kaims!—Kirsty,
ye <i>winna</i> think it a place for <i>me</i>? Ye see I'm no
like ither fowk, and sic a thing micht ca (<i>drive</i>) me
oot o' a' the sma' wits ever I hed!'
</p>
<p>
'Hoots!' rejoined Kirsty, with a smile, 'the catacombs has
naething to du wi' cats or kaims!'
</p>
<p>
'Tell me what are they, than.'
</p>
<p>
'The catacombs,' answered Kirsty, 'was what in auld times,
and no i' this cuintry ava, they ca'd the places whaur they
laid their deid.'
</p>
<p>
'Eh, Kirsty, but that's waur!' returned Steenie. 'I wudna
gang intil sic a place wi' feet siclike's my ain—na, no
for what the warl cud gie me!—no for lang Lowrie's
fiddle and a' the tunes intil't! I wud never get my feet oot
o' 't! They'd haud me there!'
</p>
<p>
Then Kirsty began to tell him, as she would have taught a
child, something of the history of the catacombs, knowing how
it must interest him.
</p>
<p>
'I' the days langsyne,' she said, 'there was fowk, like you
and me, unco fain o' the bonny man. The verra soun o' the
name o' 'im was eneuch to gar their herts loup wi' doonricht
glaidness. And they gaed here and there and a' gait, and
tellt ilka body aboot him; and fowk 'at didna ken him, and
didna want to ken him, cudna bide to hear tell o' him, and
they said, "Lat's hae nae mair o' this! Hae dune wi' yer
bonny man! Haud yer tongues," they cryit. But the ithers,
they wadna hear o' haudin their tongues. A'body maun ken
aboot him! "Sae lang's we <i>hae</i> tongues, and can wag
them to the name o' him," they said, "we'll no haud them!"
And at that they fell upo' them, and ill-used them sair; some
o' them they tuik and burnt alive—that is, brunt them
deid; and some o' them they flang to the wild beasts, and
they bitit them and tore them to bits. And—,
</p>
<p>
'Was the bitin o' the beasts terrible sair?' interrupted
Steenie.
</p>
<p>
'Ay, I reckon it was some sair; but the puir fowk aye said
the bonny man was wi' them; and lat them bite!—they
didna care!'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, of coorse, gien he was wi' them they wadna min' 't a
hair, or at least, no twa hairs! Wha wud! Gien he be in yon
hole, Kirsty, I'll gang back and intil't my lee lane. I wull
noo!'
</p>
<p>
Steenie turned and had run some distance before Kirsty
succeeded in stopping him. She did not run after him.
</p>
<p>
'Steenie! Steenie!' she cried, 'I dinna doobt he's there, for
he's a'gait; but ye ken yersel ye canna aye see him, and
maybe ye wudna see him there the noo, and micht think he
wasna there, and turn fleyt. Bide till we hae a licht, and I
gang doon first.'
</p>
<p>
Steenie was persuaded, and turned and came back to her. To
father, mother, and sister he was always obedient, even on
the rare occasions when it cost him much to be so.
</p>
<p>
'Ye see, Steenie,' she continued, 'yon's no the place! I
dinna ken yet what place yon is. I was only gaein to tell ye
aboot the places it min't me o'! Wud ye like to hear aboot
them?'
</p>
<p>
'I wad that, richt weel! Say awa, Kirsty.'
</p>
<p>
'The fowk, than, ye see, 'at lo'ed the bonny man, gethert
themsels aye thegither to hae cracks and newses wi' ane
anither aboot him; and, as I was tellin ye, the fowk 'at
didna care aboot him war that angert 'at they set upo' them,
and jist wud hae nane o' them nor him. Sae to hand oot o'
their grip, they coonselled thegither, and concludit to
gether in a place whaur naebody wud think o' luikin for
them—whaur but i' the booels o' the earth, whaur they
laid their deid awa upo' skelfs, like in an aumry!'
</p>
<p>
'Eh, but that was fearsome!' interposed Steenie. 'They maun
hae been sair set!—Gien I had been there, wud they hae
garred me gang wi' them?'
</p>
<p>
'Na, no gien ye didna like. But ye wud hae likit weel to
gang. It wasna an ill w'y to beery fowk, nor an ill place to
gang til, for they aye biggit up the skelf, ye ken. It was
howkit oot—whether oot o' hard yird or saft stane, I
dinna ken; I reckon it wud be some no sae hard kin' o' a
rock—and whan the deid was laid intil 't, they biggit
up the mou o' the place, that is, frae that same skelf to the
ane 'at was abune 't, and sae a' was weel closed in.'
</p>
<p>
'But what for didna they beery their deid mensefulike i'
their kirkyairds?'
</p>
<p>
''Cause theirs was a great muckle toon, wi' sic a heap o'
hooses that there wasna room for kirkyards; sae they tuik
them ootside the toon, and gaed aneth wi' them a'thegither.
For there they howkit a lot o' passages like trances, and
here and there a wee roomy like, wi' ither trances gaein frae
them this gait and that. Sae, whan they tuik themsels there,
the freens o' the bonny man wud fill ane o' the roomies, and
stan' awa in ilk ane o' the passages 'at gaed frae 't; and
that w'y, though there cudna mony o' them see ane anither at
ance, a gey lottie wud hear, some a', and some a hantle o'
what was said. For there they cud speyk lood oot, and a body
abune hear naething and suspec naething. And jist think,
Steenie, there's a pictur o' the bonny man himsel paintit
upo' the wa' o' ane o' thae places doon aneth the grun'!'
</p>
<p>
'I reckon it'll be unco like him!'
</p>
<p>
'Maybe: I canna tell aboot that.'
</p>
<p>
'Gien I cud see 't, I cud tell; but I'm thinkin it'll be some
gait gey and far awa?'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, it 's far, far.—It wud tak a body—lat me
see—maybe half a year to trevel there upo' 's ain fit,'
answered Kirsty, after some meditation.
</p>
<p>
'And me a hantle langer, my feet's sae odious heavy!'
remarked Steenie with a sigh.
</p>
<p>
As they drew near the house, their mother saw them coming,
and went to the door to meet them.
</p>
<p>
'We're wantin a bit o' a can'le, and a spunk or twa, mother,'
said Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'Ye s' get that,' answered Marion. 'But what want ye a can'le
for i' the braid mids o' the daylicht?'
</p>
<p>
'We want to gang doon a hole,' replied Steenie with flashing
eyes, 'and see the pictur o' the bonny man.'
</p>
<p>
'Hoot, Steenie! I tellt ye it wasna there,' interposed
Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'Na,' returned Steenie; 'ye only said yon hole wasna that
place. Ye said the bonny man <i>was</i> there, though I
michtna see him. Ye didna say the pictur wasna there.'
</p>
<p>
'The pictur 's no there, Steenie.—We've come upon a
hole, mother, 'at we want to gang doon intil and see what
it's like,' said Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'The weicht o' my feet brak throu intil 't,' added Steenie.
</p>
<p>
'Preserve 's, lassie! tak tent whaur ye cairry the bairn!'
cried the mother. 'But, eh, tak him whaur ye like,' she
substituted, correcting herself. 'Weel ken I ye'll tak him
naegait but whaur it's weel he sud gang! The laddie needs twa
mithers, and the Merciful has gien him the twa! Ye're full
mair his mither nor me, Kirsty!'
</p>
<p>
She asked no more questions, but got them the candle and let
them go. They hastened back, Steenie in his most jubilant
mood, which seemed always to have in it a touch of deathly
frost and a flash as of the primal fire. What could be the
strange displacement or maladjustment which, in the brain
harbouring the immortal thing, troubled it so, and made it
yearn after an untasted liberty? The source of his jubilance
now was easy to tell: the idea of the bonny man was
henceforth, in that troubled brain of his, associated with
the place into which they were about to descend.
</p>
<p>
The moment they reached the spot, Kirsty, to the renewed
astonishment of Steenie, dived at once into the ground at her
feet, and disappeared.
</p>
<p>
'Kirsty! Kirsty!' he cried out after her, and danced like a
terrified child. Then he shook with a fresh dismay at the
muffled sound that came back to him in answer from the unseen
hollows of the earth.
</p>
<p>
Already Kirsty stood at the bottom of the sloping tunnel, and
was lighting her candle. When it burned up, she found herself
looking into a level gallery, the roof of which she could
touch. It was not an excavation, but had been trenched from
the surface, for it was roofed with great slabs of stone. Its
sides, of rough stones, were six or seven feet apart at the
floor, which was paved with small boulders, but sloped so
much toward each other that at the top their distance was
less by about two and a half feet. Kirsty was, as I have
said, a keen observer, and her power of seeing had been
greatly developed through her constant conscientious
endeavour to realize every description she read.
</p>
<p>
She went on about ten or twelve yards, and came to a bend in
the gallery, succeeded by a sort of chamber, whence branched
a second gallery, which soon came to an end. The place was in
truth not unlike a catacomb, only its two galleries were
built, and much wider than the excavated thousands in the
catacombs. She turned back to the entrance, there left her
candle alight, and again startled Steenie, still staring into
the mouth of the hole, with her sudden reappearance.
</p>
<p>
'Wud ye like to come doon, Steenie?' she said. 'It's a queer
place.'
</p>
<p>
'Is 't awfu' fearsome?' asked Steenie, shrinking.
</p>
<p>
His feeling of dismay at the cavernous, the terrene dark, was
not inconsistent with his pleasure in being out on the wild
waste hillside, when heaven and earth were absolutely black,
not seldom the whole of the night, in utter loneliness to eye
or ear, and his never then feeling anything like dread. Then
and there only did he seem to have room enough. His terror
was of the smallest pressure on his soul, the least hint at
imprisonment. That he could not rise and wander about among
the stars at his will, shaped itself to him as the heaviness
of his feet holding him down. His feet were the loaded gyves
that made of the world but a roomy prison. The limitless was
essential to his conscious wellbeing.
</p>
<p>
'No a bittock,' answered Kirsty, who felt awe
anywhere—on hilltop, in churchyard, in sunlit silent
room—but never fear. 'It's as like the place I was
tellin ye aboot—'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, the cat-place!' interrupted Steenie.
</p>
<p>
'The place wi' the pictur,' returned Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
Steenie darted forward, shot head-first into the hole as he
had seen Kirsty do, and crept undismayed to the bottom of the
slope. Kirsty followed close behind, but he was already on
his feet when she joined him. He grasped her arm eagerly, his
face turned from her, and his eyes gazing fixedly into the
depth of the gallery, lighted so vaguely by the candle on the
floor of its entrance.
</p>
<p>
'I think I saw him!' he said in a whisper full of awe and
delight. 'I think I did see him!—but, Kirsty, hoo am I
to be sure 'at I saw him?'
</p>
<p>
'Maybe ye did and maybe ye didna see him,' replied Kirsty;
'but that disna metter sae muckle, for he's aye seem you; and
ye'll see him, and be sure 'at ye see him, whan the richt
time comes.'
</p>
<p>
'Ye div think that, Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
'Ay div I,' returned Kirsty, confidently.
</p>
<p>
'I s' wait,' answered Steenie, and in silence followed Kirsty
along the gallery.
</p>
<p>
This was Steenie's first, and all but his last descent into
the <i>earth-house,</i> or <i>Picts' House</i>, or
<i>weem</i>, as a place of the sort is called: there are many
such in the east of Scotland, their age and origin objects of
merest conjecture. The moment he was out of it, he fled to
the Horn.
</p>
<p>
The next Sunday he heard read at church the story of the
burial and resurrection of the Lord, and unavoidably after
their talk about the catacombs, associated the chamber they
had just discovered with the tomb in which 'they laid him,'
at the same time concluding the top of the hill, where he
had, as he believed, on certain favoured nights met the bonny
man, the place whence he ascended—to come again as
Steenie thought he did! The earth-house had no longer any
attraction for Steenie: the bonny man was not there; he was
risen! He was somewhere above the mountain-top haunted by
Steenie, and that he sometimes descended upon it Steenie
already knew, for had he not seen him there!
</p>
<p>
Happy Steenie! Happier than so many Christians who, more in
their brain-senses, but far less in their heart-senses than
he, haunt the sepulchre as if the dead Jesus lay there still,
and forget to walk the world with him who dieth no more, the
living one!
</p>
<p>
But his sister took a great liking to the place, nor was
repelled by her mistaken suspicion that there the people of
the land in times unknown had buried some of their dead. In
the hot days, when the earth-house was cool, and in the
winter when the thick blanket of the snow lay over it, and it
felt warm as she entered it from the frosty wind, she would
sit there in the dark, sometimes imagining herself one of the
believers of the old time, thinking the Lord was at hand,
approaching in person to fetch her and her friends. When the
spring came, she carried down sod and turf, and made for
herself a seat in the central chamber, there to sit and
think. By and by she fastened an oil lamp to the wall, and
would light its rush-pith-wick, and read by it. Occasionally
she made a good peat fire, for she had found a chimney that
went sloping into the upper air; and if it did not always
draw well, peat-smoke is as pleasant as wholesome, and she
could bear a good deal of its smothering. Not unfrequently
she carried her book there when no one was likely to want
her, and enjoyed to the full the rare and delightful sense of
absolute safety from interruption. Sometimes she would make a
little song there, with which as she made it its own music
would come, and she would model the air with her voice as she
wrote the words in a little book on her knee.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XIII
</h2>
<h3>
A VISIT FROM FRANCIS GORDON
</h3>
<p>
The summer following Gordon's first session at college,
castle Weelset and Corbyknowe saw nothing of him. No one
missed him much, and but for his father's sake no one would
have thought much about him. Kirsty, as one who had told him
the truth concerning himself, thought of him oftener than
anyone except her father.
</p>
<p>
The summer after, he paid a short visit to castle Weelset,
and went one day to Corbyknowe, where he left a favourable
impression upon all, which impression Kirsty had been the
readier to receive because of the respect she felt for him as
a student. The old imperiousness which made him so unlike his
father had retired into the background; his smile, though not
so sweet, came oftener; and his carriage was full of
courtesy. But something was gone which his old friends would
gladly have seen still. His behaviour in the old time was not
so pleasant, but he had been as one of the family. Often
disagreeable, he was yet loving. Now, he laid himself out to
make himself acceptable as a superior. Freed so long from his
mother's lowering influences, what was of his father in him
might by this time have come more to the surface but for
certain ladies in Edinburgh, connections of the family, who,
influenced by his good looks and pleasant manners, and
possibly by his position in the Gordon country, sought his
favour by deeds of flattery, and succeeded in spoiling him
not a little.
</p>
<p>
Steenie happening to be about the house when he came, Francis
behaved to him so kindly that the gentle creature, overcome
with grateful delight, begged him to go and see a house he
and Kirsty were building.
</p>
<p>
In some families the games of the children mainly consist in
the construction of dwellings, of this kind or
that—castle, or ship, or cave, or nest in the
treetop—according to the material attainable. It is an
outcome of the aboriginal necessity for shelter, this
instinct of burrowing: Welbeck Abbey is the development of a
<i>weem</i> or <i>Picts' house</i>. Steenie had very early
shown it, probably from a vague consciousness of weakness,
and Kirsty came heartily to his aid in following it, with the
reaction of waking in herself a luxurious idea of sheltered
safety. Northern children cherish in their imaginations the
sense of protection more, I fancy, than others. This is
partly owing to the severity of their climate, the snow and
wind, the rain and sleet, the hail and darkness they
encounter. I doubt whether an English child can ever have
such a sense of protection as a Scots bairn in bed on a
winter night, his mother in the nursery, and the wind howling
like a pack of wolves about the house.
</p>
<p>
Francis consented to go with Steenie to see his house, and
Kirsty naturally accompanied them. By this time she had
gathered the little that was known, and there is very little
known yet, concerning <i>Picts' houses</i>, and as they went
it occurred to her that it would be pleasant to the laird to
be shown a thing on his own property of which he had never
heard, and which, in the eyes of some, would add to its
value. She took the way, therefore, that led past the weem.
</p>
<p>
She had so well cleared out its entrance, that it was now
comparatively easy of access, else I doubt if the young laird
would have risked the spoiling of his admirably fitting
clothes to satisfy the mild curiosity he felt regarding
Kirsty's discovery. As it was, he pulled off his coat before
entering, despite her assurance that he 'needna fear blaudin
onything.'
</p>
<p>
She went in before him to light her candle and he followed.
As she showed him the curious place, she gave him the results
of her reading about such constructions, telling him who had
written concerning them, and what they had written. 'There's
mair o' them, I gether,' she said, 'and mair remarkable anes,
in oor ain coonty nor in ony ither in Scotlan'. I hae mysel
seen nane but this.' Then she told him how Steenie had led
the way to its discovery. By the time she ended, Gordon was
really interested—chiefly, no doubt, in finding himself
possessor of a thing which many men, learned and unlearned,
would think worth coming to see.
</p>
<p>
'Did you find this in it?' he asked, seating himself on her
little throne of turf.
</p>
<p>
'Na; I put that there mysel,' answered Kirsty. 'There was
naething intil the place, jist naething ava! There was
naething ye cud hae pickit aff o' the flure. Gien it hadna
been oot o' the gait o' the win', ye wud hae thoucht it had
sweepit it clean. Ye cud hae tellt by naething intil't what
ever it was meant for, hoose or byre or barn, kirk or
kirkyard. It had been jist a hidy-hole in troubled times,
whan the cuintry wud be swarmin wi' stravaguin marauders!'
</p>
<p>
'What made ye the seat for, Kirsty?' asked Gordon, calling
her by her name for the first time, and falling into the
mother tongue with a flash of his old manner.
</p>
<p>
'I come here whiles,' she answered, 'to be my lane and read a
bit. It's sae quaiet. Eternity seems itsel to come and hide
in 't whiles. I'm tempit whiles to bide a' nicht.'
</p>
<p>
'Isna 't awfu' cauld?'
</p>
<p>
'Na, no aften that. It's fine and warm i' the winter. And I
can licht a fire whan I like.—But ye hae na yer coat
on, Francie! I oucht na to hae latten ye bide sae lang!'
</p>
<p>
He shivered, rose, and made his way out. Steenie stood in the
sunlight waiting for them.
</p>
<p>
'Why, Steenie,' said Gordon, 'you brought me to see your
house: why didn't you come in with me?'
</p>
<p>
'Na, na! I'm feart for my feet: this is no <i>my</i> hoose!'
answered Steenie. 'I'm biggin ane. Kirsty's helpin me: I
cudna big a hoose wantin Kirsty! That's what I wud hae ye
see, no this ane. This is Kirsty's hoose. It was Kirsty
wantit ye to see this ane.—Na, it's no mine,' he added
reflectively. 'I ken I maun come til 't some day, but I s'
bide oot o' 't as lang's I can. I like the hill a heap
better.'
</p>
<p>
'What <i>does</i> he mean?' asked Francis, turning to Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'Ow, he has a heap o' notions o' 's ain!' answered Kirsty,
who did not care, especially in his presence, to talk about
her brother save to those who loved him.
</p>
<p>
When Francis turned again, he saw Steenie a good way up the
hill.
</p>
<p>
'Where does he want to take me, Kirsty? Is it far?' he asked.
</p>
<p>
'Ay, it's a gey bitty; it's nearhan' at the tap o' the Horn,
a wee ayont it.'
</p>
<p>
'Then I think I shall not go,' returned Francis. 'I will come
another day.'
</p>
<p>
'Steenie! Steenie!' cried Kirsty, 'he'll no gang the day. He
maun gang hame. He says he'll come anither time. Haud ye awa
on to yer hoose; I s' be wi' ye by and by.'
</p>
<p>
Steenie went up the hill, and Kirsty and Francis walked
toward Corbyknowe.
</p>
<p>
'Has no young man appeared yet to put Steenie's nose out of
joint, Kirsty?' asked Gordon.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty thought the question rude, but answered, with quiet
dignity, 'No ane. I never had muckle opinion o' <i>yoong</i>
men, and dinna care aboot their company.—But what are
ye thinkin o' duin yersel—I mean, whan ye're throu wi'
the college?' she continued. 'Ye'll surely be comin hame to
tak things intil yer ain han'? My father says whiles he's
some feart they're no bein made the maist o'.'
</p>
<p>
'The property must look after itself, Kirsty. I will be a
soldier like my father. If it could do without him when he
was in India, it may just as well do without me. As long as
my mother lives, she shall do what she likes with it.'
</p>
<p>
Thus talking, and growing more friendly as they went, they
walked slowly back to the house. There Francis mounted his
horse and rode away, and for more than two years they saw
nothing of him.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XIV
</h2>
<h3>
STEENIE'S HOUSE
</h3>
<p>
Steenie seemed always to experience a strange sort of terror
while waiting for anyone to come out of the weem, into which
he never entered; and it was his repugnance to the place that
chiefly moved him to build a house of his own. He may have
also calculated on being able, with such a refuge at hand, to
be on the hill in all weathers. They still made use of their
little hut as before, and Kirsty still kept her library in
it, but it was at the root of the Horn, and Steenie loved the
peak of it more than any other spot in his narrow world.
</p>
<p>
I have already said that when, on the occasion of its
discovery, Steenie, for the first and the last time, came out
of the weem, he fled to the Horn. There he roamed for hours,
possessed with the feeling that he had all but lost Kirsty
who had taken possession of a house into which he could never
accompany her. For himself he would like a house on the very
top of the Horn, not one inside it!
</p>
<p>
Near the top was a little scoop out of the hill, sheltered on
all sides except the south, which, the one time I saw it,
reminded me strongly of Dante's <i>grembo</i> in the
purgatorial hill, where the upward pilgrims had to rest
outside the gate, because of the darkness during which no man
could go higher. Here, it is true, were no flowers to weave a
pattern upon its carpet of green; true also, here were no
beautiful angels, in green wings and green garments, poised
in the sweet night-air, watchful with their short, pointless,
flaming swords against the creeping enemy; but it was,
nevertheless, the loveliest carpet of grass and moss, and as
to the angels, I find it impossible to imagine, even in the
heavenly host, one heart more guardant than that of Kirsty,
one truer, or more devoted to its charge. The two were
together as the child of earth, his perplexities and terrors
ever shot through with flashes of insight and hope, and the
fearless, less imaginative, confident angel, appointed to
watch and ward and see him safe through the loose-cragged
mountain-pass to the sunny vales beyond.
</p>
<p>
On the northern slope of the hollow, full in the face of the
sun, a little family of rocks had fallen together, odd in
shapes and positions but of long stable equilibrium, with
narrow spaces between them. The sun was throwing his last red
rays among these rocks when Steenie the same evening wandered
into the little valley. The moment his eyes fell upon them,
he said in his heart, 'Yon's the place for a hoose! I'll get
Kirsty to big ane, and mebbe she 'll come and bide in 't wi'
me whiles!'
</p>
<p>
In his mind there were for some years two conflicting ideas
of refuge, one embodied in the heathery hut with Kirsty, the
other typified by the uplifted loneliness, the air and the
space of the mountain upon which the bonny man sometimes
descended: for the last three years or more the latter idea
had had the upper hand: now it seemed possible to have the
two kinds of refuge together, where the more material would
render the more spiritual easier of attainment! Such were not
Steenie's words; indeed he used none concerning the matter;
but such were his vague thoughts—feelings rather, not
yet thoughts.
</p>
<p>
The spot had indeed many advantages. For one thing, the group
of rocks was the ready skeleton of the house Steenie wanted.
Again, if the snow sometimes lay deeper there than in other
parts of the hill, there first it began to melt. A third
advantage was that, while, as I have said, the valley was
protected by higher ground everywhere but on the south, it
there afforded a large outlook over the boggy basin and over
the hills beyond its immediate rim, to a horizon in which
stood some of the loftier peaks of the highland mountains.
</p>
<p>
When Steenie's soul was able for a season to banish the
nameless forms that haunt the dim borders of insanity, he
would sit in that valley for hours, regarding the
wider-spread valley below him, in which he knew every height
and hollow, and, with his exceptionally keen sight, he could
descry signs of life where another would have beheld but an
everyway dead level. Not a live thing, it seemed almost,
could spread wing or wag tail, but Steenie would become
thereby aware of its presence. Kirsty, boastful to her
parents of the faculty of Steenie, said to her father one
day,
</p>
<p>
'I dinna believe, father, wi' Steenie on the bog, a reid worm
cud stick up his heid oot o' 't ohn him seen 't!'
</p>
<p>
'I'm thinkin that's no sayin over muckle, wuman!' returned
David. 'I never jist set mysel to luik, but I dinna think I
ever did tak notice o' a worm settin up that heid o' his oot
o' a bog. I dinna think it's a sile they care aboot. I kenna
what they would get to please them there. It's the yerd they
live upo'. Whaur craps winna grow, I doobt gien worms can
live.'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty laughed: she had made herself ridiculous, but the
ridicule of some is sweeter than the praise of others.
</p>
<p>
Steenie set about his house-building at once, and when he had
got as far as he could without her, called for help from
Kirsty, who never interfered with, and never failed him.
Divots he was able to cut, and of them he provided a good
quantity, but when it came to moving stones, two pairs of
hands were often wanted. Indeed, before the heavier work of
'Steenie's hoosie' was over, the two had to beg the help of
more—of their father, and of men from the farm.
</p>
<p>
During its progress, Phemy Craig paid rather a lengthened
visit to Corbyknowe, and often joined the two in their labour
on the Horn. She was not very strong, but would carry a good
deal in the course of the day; and through this association
with Steenie, her dread of him gradually vanished, and they
became comrades.
</p>
<p>
When Steenie's design was at length carried out, they had
built up with stone and lime the open spaces between several
of the rocks; had cased these curtain-walls outside and lined
them inside with softer and warmer walls of fells or divots
cut from the green sod of the hill; and had covered in the
whole as they found it possible—very irregularly no
doubt, but smoothing up all the corners and hollows with turf
and heather. This done, one of the men who was a good
thatcher, fastened the whole roof down with strong lines, so
that the wind should not get under and strip it off. The
result was a sort of burrow, consisting of several irregular
compartments with open communication—or rather,
perhaps, of a single chamber composed of recesses. One small
rock they included quite: Steenie would make it serve for a
table, and some of its inequalities for shelves. In one of
the compartments or recesses, they contrived a fireplace, and
in another a tolerably well concealed exit; for Steenie, like
a trap-door-spider, could not endure the thought of only one
way out: one way was enough for getting in, but two were
needful for getting out, his best refuge being the open hill.
</p>
<p>
The night came at length when Steenie, in whose heart was a
solemn, silent jubilation, would take formal possession of
his house. It was soft and warm, in the middle of the month
of July. The sun had been set about an hour when he got up to
leave the parlour, where the others always sat in the summer,
and where Steenie would now and then appear among them. As
usual he said goodnight to no one of them, but stole gently
out.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty knew what was in his mind, but was careful not to show
that she took any heed of his departure. As soon as her
father and mother retired, however, when he had been gone
about half an hour, she put aside her work, and hastened out.
She felt a little anxious about him, though she could not
have said why. She had no dread of displeasing by rejoining
him; nothing, but a sight of the bonny man could, she knew,
give him more delight than having her to share his
night-watch with him. This she had done several times, and
they were the only occasions on which, so far as he could
tell, he had slept any part of the night.
</p>
<p>
Folded in the twilight, Earth lay as still and peaceful as if
she had never done any wrong, never seen anything wrong in
one of her children. There was light everywhere, and darkness
everywhere to make it strange. A pale green gleam prevailed
in the heavens, as if the world were a glow-worm that sent
abroad its home-born radiance into space, and coloured the
sky. In the green light rested a few small solid clouds with
sharp edges, and almost an assertion of repose. Throughout
the night it would be no darker! The sun seemed already to
have begun to rise, only he would be all night about it. From
the door she saw the point of the Horn clear against the
green sky: Steenie would be up there soon! he was hurrying
thither! Sometimes he went very leisurely, stopping and
gazing, or sitting down to meditate: he would not do so that
night! A special solemnity in his countenance made her sure
that he would go straight to his new house. But she could
walk faster than he, and would not be long behind him!
</p>
<p>
The sky was full of pale stars, and Kirsty amused herself, as
she went, with arranging them—not into their
constellations, though she knew the shapes and names of most
of them, but into mathematical figures. The only star Steenie
knew by name was the pole star, which, however, he always
called <i>The bonny man's lantern.</i> Kirsty believed he had
thoughts of his own about many another, and a name for it
too.
</p>
<p>
She had climbed the hill, and was drawing near the house,
when she was startled by a sound of something like singing,
and stopped to listen. She had never heard Steenie attempt to
sing, and the very thought of his doing so moved her greatly:
she was always expecting something marvellous to show itself
in him. She drew nearer. It was not singing, but it was
something like it, or something trying to be like it—a
succession of broken, harsh, imperfect sounds, with here and
there a tone of brief sweetness. She thought she perceived in
it an attempt at melody, but the many notes that refused to
be made, prevented her from finding the melody intended, or
the melody, rather, after which he was feeling. The broken
music ceased suddenly, and a different kind of sound
succeeded. She went yet nearer. He could not be reading: she
had tried to teach him to read, but the genuine effort he put
forth to learn made his head ache, and his eyes feel wild, he
said, and she at once gave up the endeavour. When she reached
the door, she could plainly hear him praying.
</p>
<p>
He had been accustomed to hear his father pray—always
extempore. To the Scots mind it is a perplexity how prayer
and reading should ever seem one. Kirsty went a little deeper
into the matter when she said:—
</p>
<p>
'The things that I want, I ken; and I maun hae them! There's
nae necessity ava to tell me what I want. The buik may wauk a
sense o' want, I daursay, I dinna ken, but it maistly pits
intil me the thoucht o' something a body micht weel want,
withoot makin me awaur o' wantin 't at that preceese moment.'
</p>
<p>
Prayer, with Steenie, as well as with Kirsty, was the
utterance, audible or silent, in the ever open ear, of what
was moving in him at the time. This was what she now heard
him say:—
</p>
<p>
'Bonny man, I ken ye weel: there's naebody in h'aven or earth
'at's like ye! Ye ken yersel I wad jist dee for ye; or gien
there be onything waur to bide nor deein, that's what I would
du for ye—gien ye wantit it o' me, that is, for I'm
houpin sair 'at ye winna want it, I'm that awfu cooardly! Oh
bonny man, tak the fear oot o' my hert, and mak me ready just
to walk aff o' the face o' the warl', weichty feet and a', to
du yer wull, ohn thoucht twise aboot it! And eh, bonny man,
willna ye come doon sometime or lang, and walk the hill here,
that I may luik upo' ye ance mair—as i' the days of
old, whan the starlicht muntain shook wi' the micht o' the
prayer ye heavit up til yer father in h'aven? Eh, gien ye war
but ance to luik in at the door o' this my hoose that ye hae
gien me, it wud thenceforth be to me as the gate o' paradise!
But, 'deed, it's that onygait, forit's nigh whaur ye tak yer
walks abro'd. But gien ye <i>war</i> to luik in at the door,
and cry, <i>Steenie</i>! sune wud ye see whether I was in the
hoose or no!—I thank ye sair for this hoose: I'm gaein
to hae a rich and a happy time upo' this hill o' Zion, whaur
the feet o' the ae man gangs walkin!—And eh, bonny man,
gie a luik i' the face o' my father and mither i' their bed
ower at the Knowe; and I pray ye see 'at Kirsty's gettin a
fine sleep, for she has a heap o' tribble wi' me. I'm no
worth min'in', yet ye min' me: she is worth
min'in'!—and that clever!—as ye ken wha made her!
And luik upo' this bit hoosie, 'at I ca' my ain, and they a'
helpit me to bigg, but as a lean-to til the hoose at hame,
for I'm no awa frae it or them—jist as that hoose and
this hoose and a' the hooses are a' jist but bairnies'
hooses, biggit by themsels aboot the big flure o' thy kitchie
and i' the neuks o' the same—wi' yer ain truffs and
stanes and divots, sir.'
</p>
<p>
Steenie's voice ceased, and Kirsty, thinking his prayer had
come to an end, knocked at the door, lest her sudden
appearance should startle him. From his knees, as she knew by
the sound of his rising, Steenie sprang up, came darting to
the door with the cry, 'It's yersel! It's yersel, bonny man!'
and seemed to tear it open. Oh, how sorry was Kirsty to stand
where the loved of the human was not! She had almost turned
and fled.
</p>
<p>
'It's only me, Steenie!' she faltered, nearly crying.
</p>
<p>
Steenie stood and stared trembling. Neither, for a moment or
two, could speak.
</p>
<p>
'Eh, Steenie,' said Kirsty at length, 'I'm richt sorry I
disapp'intit ye! I didna ken what I was duin. I oucht to hae
turnt and gane hame again!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye cudna help it,' answered Steenie. 'Ye cudna be him, or ye
wud! But ye're the neist best, and richt welcome. I'm as
glaid as can be to see ye, Kirsty. Come awa ben the hoose.'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty followed him in silence, and sat down dejected. The
loving heart saw it.
</p>
<p>
'Maybe ye're him efter a'!' said Steenie. 'He can tak ony
shape he likes. I wudna won'er gien ye was him! Ye're unco
like him ony gait!'
</p>
<p>
'Na, na, Steenie! I'm far frae that! But I wud fain be what
he wud hae me, jist as ye wud yersel. Sae ye maun tak me,
what I am, for his sake, Steenie!'
</p>
<p>
This was the man's hour, not the dog's, yet Steenie threw
himself at her feet.
</p>
<p>
'Gang oot a bit by yersel, Steenie,' she said, caressing him
with her hand. 'That's what ye'll like best, I ken! Ye needna
min' me! I only cam to see ye sattlet intil yer ain hoose.
I'll bide a gey bit. Gang ye oot, an ken 'at I'm i' the
hoose, and that ye can come back to me whan ye like. I hae my
bulk, and can sit and read fine.'
</p>
<p>
'Ye're aye richt, Kirsty!' answered Steenie, rising. 'Ye aye
ken what I'm needin. I maun win oot, for I'm some chokin
like.—But jist come here a minute first,' he went on,
leading the way to the door. There he pointed up into the
wild of stars, and said, 'Ye see yon star o' the tap o' that
ither ane 'at's brichter nor itsel?'
</p>
<p>
'I see 't fine, and ken 't weel,' answered Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'Weel, whan that starnie comes richt ower the white tap o'
yon stane i' the mids o' that side o' the howe, I s' be here
at the door.'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty looked at the stone, saw that the star would arrive at
the point indicated in about an hour, and said, 'Weel, I'll
be expeckin ye, Steenie!' whereupon he departed, going
farther up the hill to court the soothing of the silent
heaven.
</p>
<p>
In conditions of consciousness known only to himself and
incommunicable, the poor fellow sustained an all but
continuous hand-to-hand struggle with insanity, more or less
agonized according to the nature and force of its varying
assault; in which struggle, if not always victorious, he had
yet never been defeated. Often tempted to escape misery by
death, he had hitherto stood firm. Some part of every
solitary night was spent, I imagine, in fighting that or
other evil suggestion. Doubtless, what kept him lord of
himself through all the truth-aping delusions that usurped
his consciousness, was his unyielding faith in the bonny man.
</p>
<p>
The name by which he so constantly thought and spoke of the
saviour of men was not of his own finding. The story was well
known of the idiot, who, having partaken of the Lord's
supper, was heard, as he retired, murmuring to himself, 'Eh,
the bonny man! the bonny man!' And persons were not wanting,
sound in mind as large of heart, who thought the idiot might
well have seen him who came to deliver them that were bound.
Steenie took up the tale with most believing mind. Never
doubting the man had seen the Lord, he responded with the
passionate desire himself to see <i>the bonny man</i>. It
awoke in him while yet quite a boy, and never left him, but,
increasing as he grew, became, as well it might, a fixed
idea, a sober, waiting, unebbing passion, urging him to
righteousness and lovingkindness.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty took from her pocket an old translation of Plato's
Phaedo, and sat absorbed in it until the star, unheeded of
her, attained its goal, and there was Steenie by her side!
She shut the book and rose.
</p>
<p>
'I'm a heap better, Kirsty,' said Steenie. 'The ill colour's
awa doon the stair, and the saft win' 's made its w'y oot o'
the lift, an' 's won at me. I 'maist think a han' cam and
clappit my heid. Sae noo I'm jist as weel 's there's ony need
to be o' this side the mist. It helpit me a heap to ken 'at
ye was sittin there: I cud aye rin til ye!—Noo gang awa
to yer bed, and tak a guid sleep. I'm some thinkin I'll be
hame til my br'akfast.'
</p>
<p>
'Weel, mother's gaein to the toon the morn, and I'll be
wantit fell air; I may as weel gang!' answered Kirsty, and
without a goodnight, or farewell of any sort, for she knew
how he felt in regard to leave-takings, Kirsty left him, and
went slowly home. The moon was up and so bright that every
now and then she would stop for a moment and read a little
from her book, and then walk on thinking about it.
</p>
<p>
From that night, even in the stormy dark of winter, Kirsty
was not nearly so anxious about Steenie away from the house:
on the Horn he had his place of refuge, and she knew he never
ventured on the bog after sunset. He always sought her when
he wanted to sleep in the daytime, but he was gradually
growing quieter in his mind, and, Kirsty had reason to think,
slept a good deal more at night.
</p>
<p>
But the better he grew the more had he the look of one
expecting something; and Kirsty often heard him saying to
himself—'It's comin! it's comin!'
</p>
<p>
'And at last,' she said, telling his story many years after,
'at last it cam; and ahint it, I doobtna! cam the face o' the
bonny man!'
</p>
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CHAPTER XV
</h2>
<h3>
PHEMY CRAIG
</h3>
<p>
Things went on in the same way for four years more, the only
visible change being that Kirsty seldomer went about
bare-footed. She was now between two and three and twenty.
Her face, whose ordinary expression had always been of quiet,
was now in general quieter still; but when heart or soul was
moved, it would flash and glow as only such a face could.
Live revelation of deeps rarely rippled save by the breath of
God, how could it but grow more beautiful! Cloud or shadow of
cloud was hardly ever to be seen upon it. Her mother, much
younger than her father, was still well and strong, and
Kirsty, still not much wanted at home, continued to spend the
greater part of her time with her brother and her books. As
to her person, she was now in the first flower of harmonious
womanly strength. Nature had indeed done what she could to
make her a lady, but Nature was not her mother, and Kirsty's
essential ladyhood came from higher-up, namely, from the
Source itself of Nature. Simple truth was its crown, and
grace was the garment of it. To see her walk or run was to
look on the divine idea of Motion.
</p>
<p>
As for Steenie, he looked the same loose lank lad as before,
with a smile almost too sad to be a smile, and a laugh in
which there was little hilarity. His pleasures were no doubt
deep and high, but seldom, even to Kirsty, manifested
themselves except in the afterglow.
</p>
<p>
Phemy was now almost a woman. She was rather little, but had
a nice figure, which she knew instinctively how to show to
advantage. Her main charm lay in her sweet
complexion—strong in its contrast of colours, but
wonderfully perfect in the blending of them: the gradations
in the live picture were exquisite. She was gentle of temper,
with a shallow, birdlike friendliness, an accentuated
confidence that everyone meant her well, which was very
taking. But she was far too much pleased with herself to be a
necessity to anyone else. Her father grew more and more proud
of her, but remained entirely independent of her; and Kirsty
could not help wondering at times how he would feel were he
given one peep into the chaotic mind which he fancied so
lovely a cosmos. A good fairy godmother would for her
discipline, Kirsty imagined, turn her into the prettiest wax
doll, but with real eyes, and put her in a glass case for the
admiration of all, until she sickened of her very
consciousness. But Kirsty loved the pretty doll, and
cherished any influence she had with her against a possible
time when it might be sorely needed. She still encouraged
her, therefore, to come to Corbyknowe as often as she felt
inclined. Her father never interfered with any of her goings
and comings. At the present point of my narrative, however,
Kirsty began to notice that Phemy did not care so much for
being with her as hitherto.
</p>
<p>
She had been, of course, for some time the cynosure of many
neighbouring eyes, but had taken only the more pleasure in
the cynosure, none in the persons with the eyes, all of whom
she regarded as much below her. To herself she was the only
young lady in Tiltowie, an assurance strengthened by the fact
that no young man had yet ventured to make love to her, which
she took as a general admission of their social inferiority,
behaving to all the young men the more sweetly in
consequence.
</p>
<p>
The tendency of a weakly artistic nature to occupy itself
much with its own dress was largely developed in her. It was
wonderful, considering the smallness of her father's income,
how well she arrayed herself. She could make a poor and
scanty material go a great way in setting off her
attractions. The judicial element of the neighbourhood, not
content with complaining that she spent so much of her time
in making her dresses, accused her of spending much money
upon them, whereas she spent less than most of the girls of
the neighbourhood, who cared only for a good stuff, a fast
colour, and the fashion: fit to figure and fitness to
complexion they did not trouble themselves about. The
possession of a fine gown was the important thing. As to how
it made them look, they had not imagination enough to
consider that.
</p>
<p>
She possessed, however, another faculty on which she prided
herself far more, her ignorance and vanity causing her to
mistake it for a grand accomplishment—the faculty of
verse-making. She inherited a certain modicum of her father's
rhythmic and riming gift; she could string words almost as
well as she could string beads, and many thought her clever
because she could do what they could not. Her aunt judged her
verses marvellous, and her father considered them full of
promise. The minister, on the other hand, held them
unmistakably silly—as her father would had they not
been hers and she his. Only the poorest part of his poetic
equipment had propagated in her, and had he taught her
anything, she would not have overvalued it so much. Herself
full of mawkish sentimentality, her verses could not fail to
be foolish, their whole impulse being the ambition that
springs from self-admiration. She had begun to look down on
Kirsty, who would so gladly have been a mother to the
motherless creature; she was not a lady! Neither in speech,
manners, nor dress, was she or her mother genteel! Their
free, hearty, simple bearing, in which was neither smallest
roughness nor least suggestion of affected refinement, was
not to Phemy's taste, and she began to assume condescending
ways.
</p>
<p>
It was of course a humiliation to Phemy to have an aunt in
Mrs. Bremner's humble position, but she loved her after her
own feeble fashion, and, although she would willingly have
avoided her upon occasion, went not unfrequently to the
castle to see her; for the kindhearted woman spoiled her. Not
only did she admire her beauty, and stand amazed at her
wonderful cleverness, but she drew from her little store a
good part of the money that went to adorn the pretty
butterfly. She gave her at the same time the best of advice,
and imagined she listened to it; but the young who take
advice are almost beyond the need of it. Fools must
experience a thing themselves before they will believe it;
and then, remaining fools, they wonder that their children
will not heed their testimony. Faith is the only charm by
which the experience of one becomes a vantage-ground for the
start of another.
</p>
<p>
</p>
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</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XVI
</h2>
<h3>
SHAM LOVE
</h3>
<p>
One day Phemy went to Castle Weelset to see her aunt, and,
walking down the garden to find her, met the young laird.
</p>
<p>
Through respect for the memory of his father, he had just
received from the East India Company a commission in his
father's regiment; and having in about six weeks to pass the
slight examination required, and then sail to join it, had
come to see his mother and bid her goodbye. He was a youth no
longer, but a handsome young fellow, with a pale face and a
rather weary, therefore what some would call an interesting
look. For many months he had been leading an idle life.
</p>
<p>
He lifted his hat to Phemy, looked again, and recognised her.
They had been friends when she was a child, but since he saw
her last she had grown a young woman. She was gliding past
him with a pretty bow, and a prettier blush and smile, when
he stopped and held out his hand.
</p>
<p>
'It's not possible!' he said; 'you can't be little
Phemy!—Yet you must be!—Why, you're a grown lady!
To think how you used to sit on my knee, and stroke my face!
How is your father?'
</p>
<p>
Phemy murmured a shy answer, a little goose but blushing a
very flamingo. In her heart she saw before her the very man
for her hero. A woman's hero gives some measure, not of what
she is, hardly of what she would like to be, but of what she
would like to pass for: here was the ideal for which Phemy
had so long been waiting, and wherein consisted his glory? In
youth, position, and good looks! She gazed up at him with a
mixture of shyness and boldness not uncommon in persons of
her silly kind, and Francis not only saw but felt that she
was an unusually pretty girl: although he had long ceased to
admire his mother, he still admired the sort of beauty she
once had. He saw also that she was very prettily dressed,
and, being one of those men who, imagining themselves
gentlemen, feel at liberty to take liberties with women
socially their inferiors, he plucked a pheasant-eye-narcissus
in the border, and said—at the same time taking the
leave he asked,—
</p>
<p>
'Let me finish your dress by adding this to it! Have you got
a pin?—There!—all you wanted to make you just
perfect!'
</p>
<p>
Her face was now in a very flame. She saw he was right in the
flower he had chosen, and he saw, not his artistic success
only, but her recognition of it as well, and was gratified.
He had a keen feeling of harmony in form and colour, and
flattered women, while he paraded his own insight, by
bringing it to bear on their dress.
</p>
<p>
The flower, in its new position, seemed radiant with
something of the same beauty in which it was set; it was
<i>like</i> the face above it, and hinted a sympathetic
relation with the whole dainty person of the girl. But in
truth there was more expression in the flower than was yet in
the face. The flower expressed what God was thinking of when
he made it; the face what the girl was thinking of herself.
When she ceased thinking of herself then, like the flower,
she would show what God was thinking of when he made her.
</p>
<p>
Francis, like the man he was, thought what a dainty little
lady she would make if he had the making of her, and at once
began talking as he never would have talked had she been what
is conventionally called a lady—with a familiarity,
namely, to which their old acquaintance gave him no right,
and which showed him not his sister's keeper. She, poor
child, was pleased with his presumption, taking it for a sign
that he regarded her as a lady; and from that moment her head
at least was full of the young laird. She had forgotten all
she came about. When he turned and walked down the garden,
she walked alongside of him like a linnet by a tall stork,
who thought of her as a very pretty green frog. Lost in
delight at his kindness, and yet more at his admiration, she
felt as safe in his hands as if he had been her guardian
angel: had he not convinced her that her notion of herself
was correct! Who should know better whether she was a lady,
whether she was lovely or not, than this great, handsome,
perfect gentleman! Unchecked by any question of propriety,
she accompanied him without hesitation into a little arbour
at the bottom of the garden, and sat down with him on the
bench there provided for the weary and the idle—in this
case a going-to-be gallant officer, bored to death by a week
at home with his mother, and a girl who spent the most of her
time in making, altering, and wearing her dresses.
</p>
<p>
'How good it was of you, Phemy,' he said, 'to come and see
me! I was ready to cut my throat for want of something pretty
to look at. I was thinking it the ugliest place with the
ugliest of people, wondering how I had ever been able to live
in it. How unfair I was! The whole country is beautiful now!'
</p>
<p>
'I am so glad,' answered poor Phemy, hardly knowing what she
said: it was to her the story of a sad gentleman who fell in
love at first sight with a beautiful lady who was learning to
love him through pity.
</p>
<p>
Her admiration of him was as clear as the red and white on
her face; and foolish Francis felt in his turn flattered, for
he too was fond of himself. There is no more pitiable sight
to lovers of their kind, or any more laughable to its haters,
than two persons falling into the love rooted in self-love.
But possibly they are neither to be pitied nor laughed at;
they may be plunging thus into a saving hell.
</p>
<p>
'You would like to make the world beautiful for me, Phemy?'
rejoined Francis.
</p>
<p>
'I should like to make it a paradise!' returned Phemy.
</p>
<p>
'A garden of Eden, and you the Eve in it?' suggested Francis.
</p>
<p>
Phemy could find no answer beyond a confused look and a yet
deeper blush.
</p>
<p>
Talk elliptical followed, not unmingled with looks bold and
shy. They had not many objects of thought in common,
therefore not many subjects for conversation. There was no
poetry in Gordon, and but the flimsiest sentiment in Phemy.
Her mind was feebly active, his full of tedium. Hers was open
to any temptation from him, and his to the temptation of
usurping the government of her world, of constituting himself
the benefactor of this innocent creature, and enriching her
life with the bliss of loving a noble object. Of course he
meant nothing serious! Equally of course he would do her no
harm! To lose him would make her miserable for a while, but
she would not die of love, and would have something to think
about all her dull life afterward!
</p>
<p>
Phemy at length got frightened at the thought of being found
with him, and together they went to look for her aunt.
Finding her in an outhouse that was used for a laundry,
Francis told Mrs. Bremner that they had been in the garden
ever so long searching for her, and he was very glad of the
opportunity of hearing about his old friend, Phemy's father!
The aunt was not quite pleased, but said little.
</p>
<p>
The following Sunday she told the schoolmaster what had taken
place, and came home in a rage at the idiocy of a man who
would not open his eyes when his house was on fire. It was
all her sister's fault, she said, for having married such a
book-idiot! She felt indeed very uncomfortable, and did her
best in the way of warning; but Phemy seemed so incapable of
understanding what ill could come of letting the young laird
talk to her, that she despaired of rousing in her any sense
of danger, and having no authority over her was driven to
silence for the present. She would have spoken to her
mistress, had she not plainly foreseen that it would be of no
use, that she would either laugh, and say young men must have
their way, or fly into a fury with Phemy for trying to entrap
her son, and with Mrs. Bremner for imagining he would look at
the hussey; while one thing was certain—that, if his
mother opposed him, Francis would persist.
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XVII
</h2>
<h3>
A NOVEL ABDUCTION
</h3>
<p>
Phemy went seldom to the castle, but the young laird and she
met pretty often: there was solitude enough in that country
for an army of lovers. Once or twice Gordon, at Phemy's
entreaty, went and took tea with her at her father's, and was
cordially received by the schoolmaster, who had no sense of
impropriety in their strolling out together afterward,
leaving him well content with the company of his books.
Before this had happened twice, all the town was talking
about it, and predicting evil. Phemy heard nothing and feared
nothing; but if feeling had been weather and talk tempest,
she would have been glad enough to keep within. So rapidly,
however, did the whirlwind of tongues extend its giration
that within half a week it reached Kirsty, and cast her into
great trouble: her poor silly defenceless Phemy, the child of
her friend, was in danger from the son of her father's
friend! Her father could do nothing, for Francis would not
listen to him, therefore she herself must do something! She
could not sit still and look on at the devil's work! Having
always been on terms of sacred intimacy with her mother, she
knew more of the dangers of the world, while she was far
safer from them, than such girls as their natural guardians
watch instead of fortifying, and understood perfectly that an
unwise man is not to be trusted with a foolish girl. She
felt, therefore, that inaction on her part would be
faithlessness to the teaching of her mother, as well as
treachery to her father, whose friend's son was in peril of
doing a fearful wrong to one to whom he owed almost a
brother's protection for his schoolmaster's sake. She did not
believe that Francis <i>meant</i> Phemy any harm, but she was
certain he thought too much of himself ever to marry her, and
were the poor child's feelings to go for nothing? She had no
hope that Phemy would listen to expostulation from her, but
she must in fairness, before she <i>did</i> anything, have
some speech with her!
</p>
<p>
She made repeated efforts, therefore, to see her, but without
success. She tried one time of the day after another, but,
now by accident and now by clever contrivance, Phemy was not
to be come at. She had of late grown tricky. One of the
windows of the schoolmaster's house commanded the street in
both directions, and Phemy commanded the window. When she saw
Kirsty coming, she would run into the garden and take refuge
in the summer-house, telling the servant on her way that she
was going out, and did not know what time she would be in. On
more occasions than one Kirsty said she would wait, when
Phemy, learning she was not gone, went out in earnest, and
took care she had enough of waiting. Such shifts of cunning
no doubt served laughter to the lovers when next they met,
but they showed that Phemy was in some degree afraid of
Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
Had Kirsty known the schoolmaster no better than his
sister-in-law knew him, she would, like her, have gone to
him; but she was perfectly certain that it would be almost
impossible to rouse him, and that, once convinced that his
confidence had been abused, he would be utterly furious, and
probably bear himself in such fashion as to make Phemy
desperate, perhaps make her hate him. As it was, he turned a
deaf ear and indignant heart to every one of the reports that
reached him. To listen to it would be to doubt his child! Why
should not the young laird fall in love with her? What more
natural? Was she not worth as much honour as any man, be he
who he might, could confer upon her? He cursed the gossips of
the town, and returned to his book.
</p>
<p>
Convinced at length that Phemy declined an interview, Kirsty
resolved to take her own way. And her way was a somewhat
masterful one.
</p>
<p>
About a mile from castle Weelset, in the direction of
Tiltowie, the road was, for a few hundred yards,
close-flanked by steep heathery braes. Now Kirsty had heard
of Phemy's being several times seen on this road of late; and
near the part of it I have just described, she resolved to
waylay her. From the brae on the side next Corbyknowe she
could see the road for some distance in either direction.
</p>
<p>
For a week she watched in vain. She saw the two pass together
more than once, and she saw Francis pass alone, but she had
never seen Phemy alone.
</p>
<p>
One morning, just as she arrived at her usual outlook, she
saw Mrs. Bremner in the road below, coming from the castle,
and ran down to speak to her. In the course of their
conversation she learned that Francis was to start for London
the next morning. When they parted, the old woman resuming
her walk to Tiltowie, Kirsty climbed the brae and sat down in
the heather. She was more anxious than ever. She had done her
best, but it had come to nothing, and now she had but one
chance more! That Francis Gordon was going away so soon was
good news, but what might not happen even yet before he went!
At the same time she could think of nothing better than keep
watch as hitherto, firm as to her course if she saw Phemy
alone, but now determined to speak to both if Francis was
with her, and all but determined to speak to Francis alone,
if an opportunity of doing so should be given her.
</p>
<p>
All the morning and afternoon she watched in vain, eating
nothing but a piece of bread that Steenie brought her. At
last, in the evening—it was an evening in September,
cold and clear, the sun down, and a melancholy glory hanging
over the place of his vanishing—she spied the solitary
form of Phemy hastening along the road in the direction of
the castle. Although she had been on the outlook for her all
day, she was at the moment so taken up with the sunset, that
Phemy was almost under where she stood before she saw her.
She ran at full speed a hundred yards, then slid down a part
of the brae too steep to climb, and leaped into the road a
few feet in front of Phemy—so suddenly that the girl
started with a cry, and stopped. The moment she saw who it
was, however, she drew herself up, and would have passed with
a stiff greeting. But Kirsty stood in front of her, and would
not permit her.
</p>
<p>
'What do you want, Kirsty Barclay?' demanded Phemy, who had
within the last week or two advanced considerably in
confidence of manner; 'I am in a hurry!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye're in a waur hurry nor ye ken, for yer hurry sud be the
ither gait!' answered Kirsty; 'and I'm gaein to turn ye, or
at least no gaein to lat ye gang, ohn heard a bit o' the
trowth frae a woman aulder nor yersel! Lassie, ye seem to
think naebody worth hearkenin til a word frae 'cep ae man,
but I mean ye to hearken to me! Ye dinna ken what ye're
aboot! I ken Francie Gordon a heap better nor you, and though
I ken nae ill o' him, I ken as little guid: he never did
naething yet but to please himsel, and there never cam
salvation or comfort to man, woman, or bairn frae ony puir
cratur like <i>him</i>!'
</p>
<p>
'How dare you speak such lies of a gentleman behind his
back!' cried Phemy, her eyes flashing. 'He is a friend of
mine, and I will not hear him maligned!'
</p>
<p>
'There's sma' hairm can come to ony man frae the trowth,
Phemy!' answered Kirsty. 'Set the man afore me, and I'll say
word for word intil his face what I'm sayin to you ahint his
back.'
</p>
<p>
'Miss Barclay,' rejoined Phemy, with a rather pitiable
attempt at dignity, 'I can permit no one to call me by my
Christian name who speaks ill of the man to whom I am
engaged!'
</p>
<p>
'That s' be as ye please, Miss Craig. But I wud lat you ca'
me a' the ill names in the dictionar to get ye to heark to
me! I'm tellin ye naething but what's true as death.'
</p>
<p>
'I call no one names. I am always civil to my neighbours
whoever they may be! I will not listen to you.'
</p>
<p>
'Eh, lassie, there's but feow o' yer neebours ceevil to yer
name, whatever they be to yersel! There's hardly ane has a
guid word for ye, Phemy!—Miss Craig—I beg yer
pardon!'
</p>
<p>
'Their lying tongues are nothing to me! I know what I am
about! I will not stay a moment longer with you! I have an
important engagement.'
</p>
<p>
Once more, as several times already, she would have passed
her, but Kirsty stepped yet again in front of her.
</p>
<p>
'I can weel tak yer word,' replied Kirsty, ''at ye hae an
engagement; but ye said a minute ago 'at ye was engaged til
him: tell me in ae word—has Francie Gordon promised to
merry ye?'
</p>
<p>
'He has as good as asked me,' answered Phemy, who had fits of
apprehensive recoil from a downright lie.
</p>
<p>
'Noo there I cud 'maist believe ye! Ay, that wud be ill
eneuch for Francie! He never was a doonricht leear, sae
lang's I kenned him—ony mair nor yersel! But, for God's
sake, Phemy, dinna imagine he'll ever merry ye, for that he
wull not.'
</p>
<p>
'This is really insufferable!' cried Phemy, in a voice that
began to tremble from the approach of angry tears. 'Pray,
have <i>you</i> a claim upon him?'
</p>
<p>
'Nane, no a shedow o' ane,' returned Kirsty. 'But my father
and his father war like brithers, and we hae a' to du what we
can for his father's son. I wud fain hand him ohn gotten into
trouble wi' you or ony lass.'
</p>
<p>
'<i>I</i> get him into trouble! Really, Miss Barclay, I do
not know how to understand you!'
</p>
<p>
'I see I maun be plain wi' ye: I wudna hae ye get him into
trouble by lattin him get you into trouble!—and that's
plain speykin!'
</p>
<p>
'You insult me!' said Phemy.
</p>
<p>
'Ye drive me to speyk plain!' answered Kirsty. 'That lad,
Francie Gordon,—'
</p>
<p>
'Speak with respect of your superiors,' interrupted Phemy.
</p>
<p>
'I'll speyk wi' respec o' ony body I hae respec for!'
answered Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'Let me pass, you rude young woman!' cried Phemy, who had of
late been cultivating in her imagination such speech as she
thought would befit Mrs. Gordon of castle Weelset.
</p>
<p>
'I winna lat ye pass,' answered Kirsty; '—that is, no
til ye hear what I hae to say to ye.'
</p>
<p>
'Then you must take the consequences!' rejoined Phemy, and,
in the hope that her lover would prove within earshot, began
a piercing scream.
</p>
<p>
It roused something in Kirsty which she could not afterward
identify: she was sure it had nothing to do with anger. She
felt, she said, as if she had to deal with a child who
insisted on playing with fire beside a barrel of gunpowder.
At the same time she did nothing but what she had beforehand,
in case of the repulse she expected, resolved upon. She
caught up the little would-be lady, as if she had been that
same naughty child, and the suddenness of the action so
astonished her that for a moment or two she neither moved nor
uttered a sound. The next, however, she began to shriek and
struggle wildly, as if in the hug of a bear or the coils of
an anaconda, whereupon Kirsty closed her mouth with one hand
while she held her fast with the other. It was a violent
proceeding, doubtless, but Kirsty chose to be thus far an
offender, and yet farther.
</p>
<p>
Bearing her as she best could in one arm, she ran with her
toward Tiltowie until she reached a place where the road was
bordered by a more practicable slope; there she took to the
moorland, and made for Corbyknowe. Her resolve had been from
the first, if Phemy would not listen, to carry her, like the
unmanageable child she was, home to the mother whose voice
had always been to herself the oracle of God. It was in a
loving embrace, though hardly a comfortable one, and to a
heart full of pity, that she pressed the poor little runaway
lamb: her mother was God's vicar for all in trouble: she
would bring the child to reason! Her heart beating mightily
with love and labour, she waded through the heather, hurrying
along the moor.
</p>
<p>
It was a strange abduction; but Kirsty was divinely simple,
and that way strange. Not until they were out of sight of the
road did she set her down.
</p>
<p>
'Noo, Phemy,' she said, panting as she spoke, 'haud yer
tongue like a guid lassie, and come awa upo' yer ain feet.'
</p>
<p>
Phemy took at once to her heels and her throat, and ran
shrieking back toward the road, with Kirsty after her like a
grayhound. Phemy had for some time given up struggling and
trying to shriek, and was therefore in better breath than
Kirsty whose lungs were pumping hard, but she had not a
chance with her, for there was more muscle in one of Kirsty's
legs than in Phemy's whole body. In a moment she had her in
her arms again, and so fast that she could not even kick. She
gave way and burst into tears. Kirsty relaxed her hold.
</p>
<p>
'What are you gaein to du wi' me?' sobbed Phemy.
</p>
<p>
'I'm takin ye to the best place I ken—hame to my
mother,' answered Kirsty, striding on for home-heaven as
straight as she could go.
</p>
<p>
'I winna gang!' cried Phemy, whose Scotch had returned with
her tears.
</p>
<p>
'Ye <i>are</i> gaein,' returned Kirsty dryly; '—at
least I'm takin ye, and that's neist best.'
</p>
<p>
'What for? I never did ye an ill turn 'at I ken o'!' said
Phemy, and burst afresh into tears of self-pity and sense of
wrong.
</p>
<p>
'Na, my bonny doo,' answered Kirsty, 'ye never did me ony ill
turn! It wasna in ye. But that's the less rizzon 'at I sudna
du you a guid ane. And yer father has been like the Bountiful
himsel to me! It's no muckle I can du for you or for him, but
there's ae thing I'm set upo', and that's haudin ye frae
Francie Gordon the nicht. He'll be awa the morn!'
</p>
<p>
'Wha tellt ye that?' returned Phemy with a start.
</p>
<p>
'Jist yer ain aunt, honest woman!' answered Kirsty, 'and sair
she grat as she telled me, but it wasna at his gaein!'
</p>
<p>
'She micht hae held the tongue o' her till he was gane! What
was there to greit about!'
</p>
<p>
'Maybe she thocht o' her sister's bairn in a tribble 'at
silence wadna hide!' answered Kirsty. 'Ye haena a notion,
lassie, what ye're duin wi' yersel! But my mither 'll lat ye
ken, sae that ye gangna blinlins intil the tod's hole.'
</p>
<p>
'Ye dinna ken Frank, or ye wudna speyk o' 'im that gait!'
</p>
<p>
'I ken him ower weel to trust you til him.'
</p>
<p>
'It's naething but ye're eenvious o' me, Kirsty, 'cause ye
canna get him yersel! He wud never luik at a lass like you!'
</p>
<p>
'It's weel a'body sees na wi' the same een, Phemy! Gien I had
yer Francie i' the parritch-pat, I wudna pike him oot, but
fling frae me pat and parritch. For a' that, I hae a haill
side o' my hert saft til him: my father and his lo'd like
brithers.'
</p>
<p>
'That canna be, Kirsty—and it's no like ye to blaw!
Your father was a common so'dier and his was cornel o' the
regiment!'
</p>
<p>
'Allooin!' was all Kirsty's answer. Phemy betook herself to
entreaty.
</p>
<p>
'Lat me gang, Kirsty! Please! I'll gang doon o' my knees til
ye! I canna bide him to think I've played him fause.'
</p>
<p>
'He'll play you fause, my lamb, whatever ye du or he think!
It maks my hert sair to ken 'at no guid will your hert get o'
his.—He s' no see ye the nicht, ony gait!'
</p>
<p>
Phemy uttered a childish howl, but immediately choked it with
a proud sob.
</p>
<p>
'Ye're hurtin me, Kirsty!' she said, after a minute or so of
silence. 'Lat me doon, and I'll gang straucht hame to my
father. I promise ye.'
</p>
<p>
'I'll set ye doon,' answered Kirsty, 'but ye maun come hame
to my mither.'
</p>
<p>
'What'll my father think?'
</p>
<p>
'I s' no forget yer father,' said Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
She sent out a strange, piercing cry, set Phemy down, took
her hand in hers, and went on, Phemy making no resistance. In
about three minutes there was a noise in the heather, and
Snootie came rushing to Kirsty. A few moments more and
Steenie appeared. He lifted his bonnet to Phemy, and stood
waiting his sister's commands.
</p>
<p>
'Steenie,' she said, 'tak the dog wi' ye, and rin doon to the
toon, and tell Mr. Craig 'at Phemy here's comin hame wi' me,
to bide the nicht. Ye winna be langer nor ye canna help, and
ye'll come to the hoose afore ye gang to the hill?'
</p>
<p>
'I'll du that, Kirsty. Come, doggie,'
</p>
<p>
Steenie never went to the town of his own accord, and Kirsty
never liked him to go, for the boys were rude, but to-night
it would be dark before he reached it.
</p>
<p>
'Ye're no surely gaun to gar me bide a' nicht!' said Phemy,
beginning again to cry.
</p>
<p>
'I am that—the nicht, and maybe the morn's nicht, and
ony nummer o' nichts till we're sure he's awa!' answered
Kirsty, resuming her walk.
</p>
<p>
Phemy wept aloud, but did not try to escape.
</p>
<p>
'And him gaein to promise this verra nicht 'at he would merry
me!' she cried, but through her tears and sobs her words were
indistinct.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty stopped, and faced round on her.
</p>
<p>
'He promised to merry ye?' she said.
</p>
<p>
'I didna say that; I said he was gaein to promise the nicht.
And noo he'll be gane, and never a word said!'
</p>
<p>
'He promised, did he, 'at he would promise the
nicht?—Eh, Francie! Francie! ye're no yer father's
son!—He promised to promise to merry ye! Eh, ye puir
gowk o' a bonny lassie!'
</p>
<p>
'Gien I met him the nicht—ay, it cam to that.'
</p>
<p>
All Kirsty's inborn motherhood awoke. She turned to her, and,
clasping the silly thing in her arms, cried out—
</p>
<p>
'Puir wee dauty! Gien he hae a hert ony bigger nor Tod
Lowrie's <i>(the fox's)</i> ain, he'll come to ye to the
Knowe, and say what he has to say!'
</p>
<p>
'He winna ken whaur I am!' answered Phemy with an agonized
burst of dry sobbing.
</p>
<p>
'Will he no? I s' see to that—and this verra nicht!'
exclaimed Kirsty. 'I'll gie him ilka chance o' doin the richt
thing!'
</p>
<p>
'But he'll be angert at me!'
</p>
<p>
'What for? Did he tell ye no to tell?'
</p>
<p>
'Ay did he.'
</p>
<p>
'Waur and waur!' cried Kirsty indignantly. 'He wad hae ye a'
in his grup! He tellt ye, nae doobt, 'at ye was the bonniest
lassie 'at ever was seen, and bepraised ye 'at yer ain minnie
wouldna hae kenned ye! Jist tell me, Phemy, dinna ye think a
hantle mair o' yersel sin' he took ye in han'?'
</p>
<p>
She would have Phemy see that she had gathered from him no
figs or grapes, only thorns and thistles. Phemy made no
reply: had she not every right to think well of herself? He
had never said anything to her on that subject which she was
not quite ready to believe.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty seemed to divine what was passing in her thought.
</p>
<p>
'A man,' she said, ''at disna tell ye the trowth aboot himsel
's no likly to tell ye the trowth aboot <i>your</i>sel! Did
he tell ye hoo mony lassies he had said the same thing til
afore ever he cam to you? It maitered little sae lang as they
war lasses as hertless and toom-heidit as himsel, and ower
weel used to sic havers; but a lassie like you, 'at never
afore hearkent to siclike, she taks them a' for trowth, and
the leein sough o' him gars her trow there was never on earth
sic a won'erfu cratur as her! What pleesur there can be i'
leein 's mair nor I can faddom! Ye're jist a gey bonnie
lassie, siclike as mony anither; but gien ye war a' glorious
within, like the queen o' Sheba, or whaever she may happen to
hae been, there wad be naething to be prood o' i' that, seem
ye didna contrive yersel. No ae stane, to bigg yersel, hae
<i>ye</i> putten upo' the tap o' anither!'
</p>
<p>
Phemy was nowise capable of understanding such statement and
deduction. If she was lovely, as Frank told her, and as she
saw in the glass, why should she not be pleased with herself?
If Kirsty had been made like her, she would have been just as
vain as she!
</p>
<p>
All her life the doll never saw the beauty of the woman.
Beside Phemy, Kirsty walked like an Olympian goddess beside
the naiad of a brook. And Kirsty was a goddess, for she was
what she had to be, and never thought about it.
</p>
<p>
Phemy sank down in the heather, declaring she could go no
farther, and looked so white and so pitiful that Kirsty's
heart filled afresh with compassion. Like the mother she was,
she took the poor girl yet again in her arms, and, carrying
her quite easily now that she did not struggle, walked with
her straight into her mother's kitchen.
</p>
<p>
Mrs. Barclay sat darning the stocking which would have been
Kirsty's affair had she not been stalking Phemy. She took it
out of her mother's hands, and laid the girl in her lap.
</p>
<p>
'There's a new bairnie til ye, mother! Ye maun daut her a
wee, she's unco tired!' she said, and seating herself on a
stool, went on with the darning of the stocking.
</p>
<p>
Mistress Barclay looked down on Phemy with such a face of
loving benignity that the poor miserable girl threw her arms
round her neck, and laid her head on her bosom. Instinctively
the mother began to hush and soothe her, and in a moment more
was singing a lullaby to her. Phemy fell fast asleep. Then
Kirsty told what she had done, and while she spoke, the
mother sat silent brooding, and hushing, and thinking.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XVIII
</h2>
<h3>
PHEMY'S CHAMPION
</h3>
<p>
When she had told all, Kirsty rose, and laying aside the
stocking, said,
</p>
<p>
'I maun awa to Weelset, mother. I promised the bairn I would
lat Francie ken whaur she was, and gie him the chance o'
sayin his say til her.'
</p>
<p>
'Verra weel, lassie! ye ken what ye're aboot, and I s' no
interfere wi' ye. But, eh, ye'll be tired afore ye win to yer
bed!'
</p>
<p>
'I'll no tramp it, mother; I'll tak the gray mear.'
</p>
<p>
'She's gey and fresh, lassie; ye maun be on yer guaird.'
</p>
<p>
'A' the better!' returned Kirsty. 'To hear ye, mother, a body
wud think I cudna ride!'
</p>
<p>
'Forbid it, bairn! Yer father says, man or wuman, there's no
ane i' the countryside like ye upo' beast-back.'
</p>
<p>
'They tak to me, the craturs! It was themsels learnt me to
ride!' answered Kirsty, as she took a riding whip from the
wall, and went out of the kitchen.
</p>
<p>
The mare looked round when she entered the stable, and
whinnied. Kirsty petted and stroked her, gave her two or
three handfuls of oats, and while she was eating strapped a
cloth on her back: there was no side-saddle about the farm.
Kirsty could ride well enough sideways on a man's, but she
liked the way her father had taught her far better. Utterly
fearless, she had, in his training from childhood until he
could do no more for her, grown a horsewoman such as few.
</p>
<p>
The moment the mare had finished her oats she bridled her,
led her out, and sprang on her back; where sitting as on a
pillion, she rode quietly out of the farm-close. The moment
she was beyond the gate, she leaned back, and, throwing her
right foot over the mare's crest, rode like an Amazon, at
ease, and with mastery. The same moment the mare was away, up
hill and down dale, almost at racing speed. Had the coming
moon been above the horizon, the Amazon farm-girl would have
been worth meeting! So perfectly did she yield her lithe,
strong body to every motion of the mare, abrupt or undulant,
that neither ever felt a jar, and their movements seemed the
outcome of a vital force common to the two. Kirsty never
thought whether she was riding well or ill, gracefully or
otherwise, but the mare knew that all was right between them.
Kirsty never touched the bridle except to moderate the mare's
pace when she was too much excited to heed what she said to
her.
</p>
<p>
Doubtless, to many eyes, she would have looked better in a
riding habit, but she would have felt like an eagle in a
nightgown. She wore a full winsey petticoat, which she
managed perfectly, and stockings of the same colour.
</p>
<p>
On her head she had nothing but the silk net at that time and
in that quarter much worn by young unmarried women. In the
rush of the gallop it slipped, and its content escaped: she
put the net in her pocket, and cast a knot upon her long hair
as if it had been a rope. This she did without even
slackening her speed, transferring from her hand to her teeth
the whip she carried. It was one colonel Gordon had given her
father in remembrance of a little adventure they had
together, in which a lash from it in the dark night was
mistaken for a sword-cut, and did them no small service.
</p>
<p>
By the time they reached the castle, the moon was above the
horizon. Kirsty brought the mare to a walk, and resuming her
pillion-seat, remanded her hair to its cage, and readjusted
her skirt; then, setting herself as in a side-saddle, she
rode gently up to the castle-door.
</p>
<p>
A manservant, happening to see her from the hall-window,
saved her having to ring the bell, and greeted her
respectfully, for everybody knew Corbyknowe's Kirsty. She
said she wanted to see Mr. Gordon, and suggested that perhaps
he would be kind enough to speak to her at the door. The man
went to find his master, and in a minute or two brought the
message that Mr. Gordon would be with her presently. Kirsty
drew her mare back into the shadow which, the moon being yet
low, a great rock on the crest of a neighbouring hill cast
upon the approach, and waited.
</p>
<p>
It was three minutes before Francis came sauntering
bare-headed round the corner of the house, his hands in his
pockets, and a cigar in his mouth. He gave a glance round,
not seeing his visitor at once, and then with a nod, came
toward her, still smoking. His nonchalance, I believe, was
forced and meant to cover uneasiness. For all that had passed
to make him forget Kirsty, he yet remembered her
uncomfortably, and at the present moment could not help
regarding her as an angelic <i>bete noir</i>, of whom he was
more afraid than of any other human being. He approached her
in a sort of sidling stroll, as if he had no actual business
with her, but thought of just asking whether she would sell
her horse. He did not speak, and Kirsty sat motionless until
he was near enough for a low-voiced conference.
</p>
<p>
'What are ye aboot wi' Phemy Craig, Francie?' she began,
without a word of greeting.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty was one of the few who practically deny time; with
whom what was, is; what is, will be. She spoke to the tall
handsome man in the same tone and with the same forms as when
they were boy and girl together.
</p>
<p>
He had meant their conversation to be at arm's length, so to
say, but his intention broke down at once, and he answered
her in the same style.
</p>
<p>
'I ken naething aboot her. What for sud I?' he answered.
</p>
<p>
'I ken ye dinna ken whaur she is, for I div,' returned
Kirsty. 'Ye answer a queston I never speired! What are ye
aboot wi' Phemy, I challenge ye again! Puir lassie, she has
nae brither to say the word!'
</p>
<p>
'That's a' verra weel; but ye see, Kirsty,' he
began—then stopped, and having stared at her a moment
in silence, exclaimed, 'Lord, what a splendid woman you've
grown!'—He had probably been drinking with his mother.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty sat speechless, motionless, changeless as a soldier on
guard. Gordon had to resume and finish his sentence.
</p>
<p>
'As I was going to say, <i>you</i> can't take the place of a
brother to her, Kirsty, else I should know how to answer
you!—It's awkward when a lady takes you to task,' he
added with a drawl.
</p>
<p>
'Dinna trouble yer heid aboot that, Francie: hert ye hae
little to trouble aboot onything!' rejoined Kirsty. Then
changing to English as he had done, she went on: 'I claim no
consideration on that score.'
</p>
<p>
Francis Gordon felt very uncomfortable. It was deuced hard to
be bullied by a woman!
</p>
<p>
He stood silent, because he had nothing to say.
</p>
<p>
'Do you mean to marry my Phemy?' asked Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'Really, Miss Barclay,' Francis began, but Kirsty interrupted
him.
</p>
<p>
'Mr. Gordon,' she said sternly, 'be a man, and answer me. If
you mean to marry her, say so, and go and tell her
father—or my father, if you prefer. She is at the
Knowe, miserable, poor child! that she did not meet you
to-night. That was my doing; she could not help herself.
</p>
<p>
Gordon broke into a strained laugh.
</p>
<p>
'Well, you've got her, and you can keep her!' he said.
</p>
<p>
'You have not answered my question!'
</p>
<p>
'Really, Miss Barclay, you must not be too hard on a man! Is
a fellow not to speak to a woman but he must say at once
whether or not he intends to marry her?'
</p>
<p>
'Answer my question.'
</p>
<p>
'It is a ridiculous one!'
</p>
<p>
'You have been trystin' with her almost every night for
something like a month!' rejoined Kirsty, 'and the question
is not at all ridiculous.'
</p>
<p>
'Let it be granted then, and let the proper person ask me the
question, and I will answer it. You, pardon me, have nothing
to do with the matter in hand.'
</p>
<p>
'That is the answer of a coward,' returned Kirsty, her cheek
flaming at last. 'You know the guileless nature of your old
schoolmaster, and take advantage of it! You know that the
poor girl has not a man to look to, and you will not have a
woman befriend her! It is cowardly, ungrateful, mean,
treacherous. You are a bad man, Francie! You always were a
fool, but now you are a wicked fool! If I were her
brother—if I were a man, I would thrash you!'
</p>
<p>
'It's a good thing you're not able, Kirsty! I should be
frightened!' said Gordon, with a laugh and a shrug, thinking
to throw the thing aside as done with.
</p>
<p>
'I said, if I was a man!' returned Kirsty. 'I did not say, if
I was able. I <i>am</i> able.'
</p>
<p>
'I don't see why a woman should leave to any man what she's
able to do for herself!' said Kirsty, as if communing with
her own thoughts.— 'Francie, you're no gentleman; you
are a scoundrel and a coward!' she immediately added aloud.
</p>
<p>
'Very well,' returned Francis angrily; 'since you choose to
be treated as a man, and tell me I am no gentleman, I tell
you I wouldn't marry the girl if the two of you went on your
knees to me!—A common, silly, country-bred
flirt!—ready for anything a man—'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty's whip descended upon him with a merciless lash. The
hiss of it, as it cut the air with all the force of her
strong arm, startled her mare, and she sprang aside, so that
Kirsty, who, leaning forward, had thrown the strength of her
whole body into the blow, could not but lose her seat. But it
was only to stand upright on her feet, fronting her—
call him enemy, antagonist, victim, what you will. Gordon was
grasping his head: the blow had for a moment blinded him. She
gave him another stinging cut across the hands.
</p>
<p>
'That's frae yer father! The whup was his, and his swoord
never did fairer wark!' she said.—'I hae dune for him
what I cud!' she added in a low sorrowful voice, and stepped
back, as having fulfilled her mission.
</p>
<p>
He rushed at her with a sudden torrent of evil words. But he
was no match for her in agility as, I am almost certain, he
would have proved none in strength had she allowed him to
close with her: she avoided him as she had more than once
<i>jinkit</i> a charging bull, every now and then dealing him
another sharp blow from his father's whip. The treatment
began to bring him to his senses.
</p>
<p>
'For God's sake, Kirsty,' he cried, ceasing his attempts to
lay hold of her, 'behaud, or we'll hae the haill hoose oot,
and what'll come o' me than I daurna think! I doobt I'll
never hear the last o' 't as 'tis!'
</p>
<p>
'Am I to trust ye, Francie?'
</p>
<p>
'I winna lay a finger upo' ye, damn ye!' he said in mingled
wrath and humiliation.
</p>
<p>
Throughout, Kirsty had held her mare by the bridle, and she,
although behaving as well as she could, had, in the fright
the laird's rushes and the sounds of the whip caused her,
added not a little to her mistress's difficulties. Just as
she sprang on her back, the door opened, and faces looked
peering out; whereupon with a cut or two she encouraged a few
wild gambols, so that all the trouble seemed to have been
with the mare. Then she rode quietly through the gate.
</p>
<p>
Gordon stood in a motionless fury until he heard the soft
thunder of the mare's hoofs on the turf as Kirsty rode home
at a fierce gallop; then he turned and went into the house,
not to communicate what had taken place, but to lie about it
as like truth as he might find possible.
</p>
<p>
About half-way home, on the side of a hill, across which a
low wind, the long death-moan of autumn, blew with a
hopeless, undulant, but not intermittent wail among the
heather, Kirsty broke into a passionate fit of weeping, but
ere she reached home all traces of her tears had vanished.
</p>
<p>
Gordon did not go the next day, nor the day after, but he
never saw Phemy again. It was a week before he showed
himself, and then he was not a beautiful sight. He attributed
the one visible wale on his cheek and temple to a blow from a
twig as he ran in the dusk through the shrubbery after a
strange dog. Even at the castle they did not know exactly
when he left it. His luggage was sent after him.
</p>
<p>
The domestics at least were perplexed as to the wale on his
face, until the man to whom Kirsty had spoken at the door
hazarded a conjecture or two, which being not far from the
truth, and as such accepted, the general admiration and
respect which already haloed Corbyknowe's Kirsty, were
thenceforward mingled with a little wholesome fear.
</p>
<p>
When Kirsty told her father and mother what she had done at
castle Weelset, neither said a word. Her mother turned her
head away, but the light in her father's eyes, had she had
any doubt as to how they would take it, would have put her
quite at her ease.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XIX
</h2>
<h3>
FRANCIS GORDON'S CHAMPION
</h3>
<p>
Poor little Phemy was in bed, and had cried herself asleep.
Kirsty was more tired than she had ever been before. She went
to bed at once, but, for a long time, not to sleep.
</p>
<p>
She had no doubt her parents approved of the chastisement she
had given Gordon, and she herself nowise repented of it; yet
the instant she lay down, back came the same sudden something
that set her weeping on the hillside. As then, all un-sent
for, the face of Francie Gordon, such as he was in their
childhood, rose before her, but marred by her hand with
stripes of disgrace from his father's whip; and with the
vision came again the torrent of her tears, for, if his
father had then struck him so, she would have been bold in
his defence. She pressed her face into the pillow lest her
sobs should be heard. She was by no means a young woman ready
to weep, but the thought of the boy-face with her blows upon
it, got within her guard, and ran her through the heart. It
seemed as if nevermore would she escape the imagined sight.
It is a sore thing when a woman, born a protector, has for
protection to become an avenger, and severe was the revulsion
in Kirsty from an act of violence foreign to the whole habit,
though nowise inconsistent with the character, of the calm,
thoughtful woman. She had never struck even the one-horned
cow that would, for very cursedness, kick over the milk-pail!
Hers was the wrath of the mother, whose very presence in a
calm soul is its justification—for how could it be
there but by the original energy? The wrath was gone, and the
mother soul turned against itself—not in judgment at
all, but in irrepressible feeling. She did not for one moment
think, I repeat, that she ought not to have done it, and she
was glad in her heart to know that what he had said and she
had done must keep Phemy and him apart; but there was the
blow on the face of the boy she had loved, and there was the
reflex wound in her own soul! Surely she loved him yet with
her mother-love, else how could she have been angry enough
with him to strike him! For weeks the pain lasted keen, and
it was ever after ready to return. It was a human type of the
divine suffering in the discipline of the sinner, which with
some of the old prophets takes the shape of God's repenting
of the evils he has brought on his people; and was the only
trouble she ever kept from her mother: she feared to wake her
own pain in the dearer heart. She could have told her father;
for, although he was, she knew, just as loving as her mother,
he was not so soft-hearted, and would not, she thought,
distress himself too much about an ache more or less in a
heart that had done its duty; but as she could not tell her
mother, she would not tell her father. But her father and
mother saw that a change had passed upon her, and partially,
if not quite, understood the nature of it. They perceived
that she left behind her on that night a measure of her
gaiety, that thereafter she was yet gentler to her parents,
and if possible yet tenderer to her brother.
</p>
<p>
For all the superiority constantly manifested by her in her
relations with Francis, the feeling was never absent from her
that he was of a race above her own; and now the visage of
the young officer in her father's old regiment never, any
more than that of her play-fellow, rose in her mind's eye
uncrossed by the livid mark of her whip from the temple down
the cheek! Whether she had actually seen it so, she did not
certainly remember, but so it always came to her, and the
face of the man never cost her a tear; it was only that of
the boy that made her weep.
</p>
<p>
Another thing distressed her even more: the instant ere she
struck the first, the worst blow, she saw on his face an
expression so meanly selfish that she felt as if she hated
him. That expression had vanished from her visual memory, her
whip had wiped it away, but she knew that for a moment she
had all but hated him—if it was indeed <i>all but</i>!
</p>
<p>
All the house was careful the next morning that Phemy should
not be disturbed; and when at length the poor child appeared,
looking as if her colour was not 'ingrain,' and so had been
washed out by her tears, Kirsty made haste to get her a nice
breakfast, and would answer none of her questions until she
had made a proper meal.
</p>
<p>
'Noo, Kirsty,' said Phemy at last, 'ye maun tell me what he
said whan ye loot him ken 'at I cudna win til him 'cause ye
wudna lat me!'
</p>
<p>
'He saidna muckle to that. I dinna think he had been sair
missin ye.'
</p>
<p>
'I see ye're no gaein to tell me the trowth, Kirsty! I ken by
mysel he maun hae been missin me dreidfu'!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye can jeedge nae man by yersel, Phemy. Men's no like hiz
lass-fowk!'
</p>
<p>
Phemy laughed superior.
</p>
<p>
'What ken ye aboot men, Kirsty? There never cam a man near
ye, i' the w'y o' makin up til ye!'
</p>
<p>
'I'm no preten'in to ony exparience,' returned Kirsty; 'I wad
only hae ye tak coonsel wi' common sense. Is 't likly, Phemy,
'at a man wi gran' relations, and gran' notions, a man wi' a
fouth o' grit leddies in 's acquantance to mak a fule o' him
and themsel's thegither, special noo 'at he's an offisher i'
the Company's service—is 't ony gait likly, I say, 'at
he sud be as muckle ta'en up wi' a wee bit cuintry lassie as
she cudna but be wi' him?'
</p>
<p>
'Noo, Kirsty, ye jist needna gang aboot to gar me mistrust
ane wha's the verra mirror o' a' knichtly coortesy,' rejoined
Phemy, speaking out of the high-flown, thin atmosphere she
thought the region of poetry, 'for ye canna! Naething ever
onybody said cud gar me think different o' <i>him</i>!'
</p>
<p>
'Nor naething ever he said himsel?' asked Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'Naething,' answered Phemy, with strength and decision.
</p>
<p>
'No gien it was 'at naething wud ever gar him merry ye?'
</p>
<p>
'That he micht weel say, for he winna need garrin!—But
he never said it, and ye needna try to threpe it upo' me!'
she added, in a tone that showed the very idea too painful.
</p>
<p>
'He did say't, Phemy.'
</p>
<p>
'Wha tellt ye? It's lees! Somebody's leein!'
</p>
<p>
'He said it til me himsel. Never a lee has onybody had a
chance o' puttin intil the tale!'
</p>
<p>
'He never said it, Kirsty!' cried Phemy, her cheeks now
glowing, now pale as death. 'He daurna!'
</p>
<p>
'He daured; and he daured to <i>me</i>! He said, "I wudna
merry her gien baith o' ye gaed doon upon yer knees to me!"'
</p>
<p>
'Ye maun hae sair angert him, Kirsty, or he wudna hae said
it! Of coorse he wasna to be guidit by you! He <i>cud</i>na
hae meaned what he said! He wad never hae said it to me! I
wuss wi' a' my hert I hadna latten ye til 'im! Ye hae ruined
a'!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye never loot me gang, Phemy! It was my business to gang.'
</p>
<p>
'I see what's intil't!' cried Phemy, bursting into tears. 'Ye
tellt him hoo little ye thoucht o' me, and that gart him
change his min'!'
</p>
<p>
'Wud he be worth greitin about gien that war the case, Phemy?
But ye ken it wasna that! Ye ken 'at I jist cudna du onything
o' the sort!— I'm jist ashamed to deny't!'
</p>
<p>
'Hoo am I to ken? There's nae a wuman born but wad fain hae
him til hersel!'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty held her peace for pity, thinking what she could say
to convince her of Gordon's faithlessness.
</p>
<p>
'He didna say he hadna promised?' resumed Phemy through her
sobs.
</p>
<p>
'We camna upo' that.'
</p>
<p>
'That's what I'm thinkin!'
</p>
<p>
'I kenna what ye're thinking, Phemy!'
</p>
<p>
'What did ye gie him, Kirsty, whan he tauld ye—no 'at I
believe a word o' 't—'at he wud nane o' me?'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty laughed with a scorn none the less clear that it was
quiet.
</p>
<p>
'Jist a guid lickin,' she answered.
</p>
<p>
'Ha, ha!' laughed Phemy hysterically. 'I tellt ye ye was
leein! Ye hae been naething but leein—a' for fun, of
coorse, I ken that—to mak a fule o' me for bein fleyt!'
</p>
<p>
Despair, for a moment, seemed to overwhelm Kirsty. Was it for
this she had so wounded her own soul! How was she to make the
poor child understand? She lifted up her heart in silence. At
last she said,—
</p>
<p>
'Ye winna see mair o' him this year or twa onygait, I'm
thinkin! Gien ever ye get a scart o' 's pen, it'll surprise
me. But gien ever ye hae the chance, which may God forbid,
tell him I said I had gien him his licks, and daured him to
come and deny't to my face. He winna du that, Phemy! He kens
ower weel I wad jist gie him them again!'
</p>
<p>
'He wud kill ye, Kirsty! <i>You</i> gie him his licks!'
</p>
<p>
'He micht kill me, but he'd hae a pairt o' his licks
first!—And noo gien ye dinna believe me I winna answer
a single question mair ye put to me. I hae been tellin
ye—no God's trowth, it's true, but the
deevil's—and it's no use, for ye winna believe a word
o' 't!'
</p>
<p>
Phemy rose up a pygmy Fury.
</p>
<p>
'And ye laid han' to cheek o' that king o' men, Kirsty
Barclay? Lord, haud me ohn killt her! Little hauds me frae
riven ye to bits wi' my twa han's!'
</p>
<p>
'I laidna han' to cheek o' Francie Gordon, Phemy; I jist
throosh him wi' his father's ain ridin whup 'at my hert's
like to brak to think o' 't. I doobt he'll carry the marks
til's grave!'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty broke into a convulsion of silent sobs and tears.
</p>
<p>
'Kirsty Barclay, ye're a deevil!' cried Phemy in a hoarse
whisper: she was spent with passion.
</p>
<p>
The little creature stood before Kirsty, her hands clenched
and shaking with rage, blue flashes darting about in her
eyes. Kirsty, at once controlling the passion of her own
heart, sat still as a statue, regarding her with a sad pity.
A sparrow stood chattering at a big white brooding dove; and
the dove sorrowed for the sparrow, but did not know how to
help the fluttering thing.
</p>
<p>
'Lord!' cried Phemy, 'I'll be cursin a' the warl' and God
himsel, gien I gang on this gait!—Eh, ye fause wuman!'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty sprang upon her at one bound from her seat, threw her
arms round her so that she could not move hers, and sitting
down with her on her lap, said—
</p>
<p>
'Phemy, gien I was yer mither, I wad gie ye yer licks for
sayin what ye didna i' yer hert believe! A' the time ye was
keepin company wi' Francie Gordon, ye ken i' yer ain sowl ye
was never richt sure o' him! And noo I tell ye plainly that,
although I strack him times and times wi' my whup—and
saired him weel!-I div not believe him sae ill-contrived as
ye wad gar me think him. Him and me was bairns thegither, and
I ken the natur o' him, and tak his pairt again ye, for, oot
o' pride and ambition, ye're an enemy til him: I div not
believe ever he promised to merry ye! He's behaved ill eneuch
wantin that—lattin a gowk o' a lassie like you believe
what ye likit, and him only carryin on wi' ye for the ploy o'
't, haeing naething to du, and sick o' his ain toom heid and
still toomer hert; but a man's word's his word, and Francie's
no sae ill as your tale wud mak him! There, Phemy, I hae said
my say!'
</p>
<p>
She loosened her arms. But Phemy lay still, and putting her
arms round Kirsty's neck, wept in a bitter silence.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XX
</h2>
<h3>
MUTUAL MINISTRATION
</h3>
<p>
In a minute or so the door opened, and Steenie coming one
step into the kitchen, stood and stared with such a face of
concern that Kirsty was obliged to speak. I do not believe he
had ever before seen a woman weeping. He shivered visibly.
</p>
<p>
'Phemy's no that weel,' she said. 'Her hert's sae sair it
gars her greit. She canna help greitin, puir dauty!'
</p>
<p>
Phemy lifted her face from Kirsty's bosom, where, like a
miserable child, she had been pressing it hard, and, seeming
to have lost in the depth of her grief all her natural
shyness, looked at Steenie with the most pitiful look ever
countenance wore: her rage had turned to self-commiseration.
The cloud of mingled emotion and distress on the visage of
Steenie wavered, shifted, changed, and settled into the
divinest look of pity and protection. Kirsty said she never
saw anything so unmistakably Godlike upon human countenance.
Involuntarily she murmured, 'Eh, the bonny man!' He turned
away from them, and, his head bent upon his breast, stood for
a time utterly motionless. Even Phemy, overpowered and
stilled by that last look he cast upon her, gazed at him with
involuntary reverence. But only Kirsty knew that the
half-witted had sought and found audience with the Eternal,
and was now in his presence.
</p>
<p>
He remained in this position, Kirsty thought, about three
minutes. Then he lifted his head, and walked straight from
the house, nor turned nor spoke. Kirsty did not go after him:
she feared to tread on holy ground uninvited. Nor would she
leave Phemy until her mother came.
</p>
<p>
She got up, set the poor girl on the chair, and began to get
ready the mid-day meal, hoping Phemy would help her, and gain
some comfort from activity. Nor was she disappointed. With a
childish air of abstraction, Phemy rose and began, as of old
in the house, to busy herself, and Kirsty felt much relieved.
</p>
<p>
'But, oh,' she said to herself, 'the sairness o' that wee
herty i' the inside o' her!'
</p>
<p>
Phemy never spoke, and went about her work mechanically. When
at length Mrs. Barclay came into the kitchen, Kirsty thought
it better to leave them together, and went to find Steenie.
She spent the rest of the day with him. Neither said a word
about Phemy, but Steenie's countenance shone all the
afternoon, and she left him at night in his house on the
Horn, still in the after-glow of the mediation which had
irradiated him in the morning.
</p>
<p>
When she came home, Kirsty found that her mother had put
Phemy to bed. The poor child had scarcely spoken all day, and
seemed to have no life in her. In the evening an attack of
shivering, with other symptoms, showed she was physically
ill. Mrs. Barclay had sent for her father, but the girl was
asleep when he came. Aware that he would not hear a word
casting doubt on his daughter's discretion, and fearing
therefore that, if she told him how she came to be there, he
would take her home at any risk, where she would not be so
well cared for as at the Knowe, she had told him nothing of
what had taken place; and he, thinking her ailment would
prove but a bad cold, had gone back to his books without
seeing her. At Mrs. Barclay's entreaty he had promised to
send the doctor, but never thought of it again.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty found her very feverish, breathing with difficulty,
and in considerable pain. She sat by her through the night.
She had seen nothing of illness, but sympathetic insight is
the first essential endowment of a good nurse.
</p>
<p>
All the night long—and Kirsty knew he was
near—Steenie was roving within sight of the window
where the light was burning. He did not know that Phemy was
ill; pity for her heart-ache drew him thither. As soon as he
thought his sister would be up, he went in: the door was
never locked. She heard him, and came to him. The moment he
learned Phemy's condition, he said he would go for the
doctor. Kirsty in vain begged him to have some breakfast
first: he took a piece of oatcake in his hand and went.
</p>
<p>
The doctor returned with him, and pronounced the attack
pleurisy. Phemy did not seem to care what became of her. She
was ill a long time, and for a fortnight the doctor came
every day.
</p>
<p>
There was now so much to be done, that Kirsty could seldom go
with Steenie to the hill. Nor did Steenie himself care to go
for any time, and was never a night from the house. When all
were in bed, he would generally coil himself on a bench by
the kitchen-fire, at any moment ready to answer the lightest
call of Kirsty, who took pains to make him feel himself
useful, as indeed he was. Although now he slept considerably
better at night and less in the day, he would start to his
feet at the slightest sound, like the dog he had almost
ceased to imagine himself except in his dreams. In carrying
messages, or in following directions, he had always shown
himself perfectly trustworthy.
</p>
<p>
Slowly, very slowly, Phemy recovered. But long before she was
well, his family saw that the change for the better which had
been evident in Steenie's mental condition for some time
before Phemy's illness, was now manifesting itself plainly in
his person. The intense compassion which, that memorable
morning, roused his spirit even to the glorifying of his
visage, seemed now settling in his looks and clarifying them.
His eyes appeared to shine less from his brain, and more from
his mind; he stood more erect; and, as encouraging a symptom,
perhaps, as any, he had grown more naturally conscious of his
body and its requirements. Kirsty, coming upon him one
morning as he somewhat ruefully regarded his trowsers,
suggested a new suit, and was delighted to see his face shine
up, and hear him declare himself ready to go with her and be
measured for it. She found also soon after, to her joy, that
he had for some time been enlarging with hammer and chisel a
certain cavity in one of the rocks inside his house on the
Horn, that he might use it for a bath.
</p>
<p>
In all these things she saw evident signs of a new start in
the growth of his spiritual nature; and if she spied danger
ahead, she knew that the God whose presence in him was making
him grow, was ahead with the danger also.
</p>
<p>
Steenie not only now went attired as befitted David Barclay's
son, but to an ordinary glance would have appeared nowise
remarkable. Kirsty ceased to look upon him with the pity
hitherto colouring all her devotion; pride had taken its
place, which she buttressed with a massive hope, for Kirsty
was a splendid hoper. People in the town, where now he was
oftener seen, would remark on the wonderful change in
him.—'What's come to fule Steenie?' said one of a group
he had just passed. 'Haith, he's luikin 'maist like ither
fowk!'—'I'm thinkin the deevil maun hae gane oot o'
him!' said another, and several joined in with their
remarks.—'Nae muckle o' a deevil was there to gang oot!
He was aye an unco hairmless cratur!'—'And that
saft-hertit til a' leevin thing!'—'He was that! I saw
him ance face a score o' laddies to proteck a poddick they
war puttin to torment, whan, the Lord kens, he had need o' a'
his wits to tak care o' himsel!'—'Aye, jist like
him!'—'Weel, the Lord taks care o' him, for he's ane o'
his ain innocents!'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty, before long, began to teach him to sit on a horse,
and, after but a few weeks of her training, he could ride
pretty well.
</p>
<p>
It was many weeks before Phemy was fit to go home. Her father
came to see her now and then, but not very often: he had his
duties to attend to, and his books consoled him.
</p>
<p>
As soon as Phemy was able to leave her room, Steenie
constituted himself her slave, and was ever within her call.
He seemed always to know when she would prefer having him in
sight, and when she would rather be alone. He would sit for
an hour at the other end of the room, and watch her like a
dog without moving. He could have sat so all day, but, as
soon as she was able to move about, nothing could keep Phemy
in one place more than an hour at the utmost. By this time
Steenie could read a little, and his reading was by no means
as fruitless as it was slow; he would sit reading, nor at all
lose his labour that, every other moment when within sight of
her, he would look up to see if she wanted anything. To this
mute attendance of love the girl became so accustomed that
she regarded it as her right, nor had ever the spoiled little
creature occasion to imagine that it was not yielded her; and
if at a rare moment she threw him glance or small
smile—a crumb from her table to her dog—Steenie
would for one joyous instant see into the seventh heaven, and
all the day after dwell in the fifth or sixth. On fine clear
noontides she would walk a little way with him and Snootie,
and then he would talk to her as he had never done except to
Kirsty, telling her wonderful things about the dog and the
sheep, the stars and the night, the clouds and the moon; but
he never spoke to her of the bonny man. When, on their
return, she would say they had had a pleasant walk together,
his delight would be unutterable; but all the time Steenie
had not once ventured a word belonging to any of the deeper
thoughts in which his heart was most at home. Was it that in
his own eyes he was but a worm glorified with the boon of
serving an angel? was it that he felt as if she knew
everything of that kind, and he had nothing to tell her but
the things that entered at his eyes and ears? or was it that
a sacred instinct of her incapacity for holy things kept him
silent concerning such? At times he would look terribly sad,
and the mood would last for hours.
</p>
<p>
Not once since she began to get better, had Phemy alluded to
her faithless lover. In its departure her illness seemed to
have carried with it her unwholesome love for him; and
certainly, as if overjoyed at her deliverance, she had become
much more of a child. Kirsty was glad for her sake, and
gladder still that Francie Gordon had done her no irreparable
injury—seemed not even to have left his simulacrum in
her memory and imagination. As her strength returned, she
regained the childish merriment which had always drawn
Kirsty, and the more strongly that she was not herself
light-hearted. Kirsty's rare laugh was indeed a merry one,
but when happiest of all she hardly smiled. Perhaps she never
would laugh her own laugh until she opened her eyes in
heaven! But how can any one laugh his real best laugh before
that! Until then he does not even know his name!
</p>
<p>
Phemy seemed more pleased to see her father every time he
came; and Kirsty began to hope she would tell him the trouble
she had gone through. But then Kirsty had a perfect faith in
her father, and a girl like Phemy never has! Her father,
besides, had never been father enough to her. He had been
invariably kind and trusting, but his books had been more to
his hourly life than his daughter. He had never drawn her to
him, never given her opportunity of coming really near him.
No story, however, ends in this world. The first volume may
have been very dull, and yet the next be full of delight.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XXI
</h2>
<h3>
PHEMY YIELDS PLACE
</h3>
<p>
It was the last week in November when the doctor came himself
to take Phemy home to her father. The day was bright and
blue, with a thin carpet of snow on the ground, beneath which
the roads were in good condition. While she was getting
ready, old David went out and talked to the doctor who would
not go in, his wrinkled face full of light, and his heart
glad with the same gladness as Kirsty's.
</p>
<p>
Mrs. Barclay and Kirsty busied themselves about Phemy, who
was as playful and teasing as a pet kitten while they dressed
her, but Steenie kept in the darkest corner, watching every
thing, but offering no unneeded help. Without once looking or
asking for him, never missing him in fact, Phemy climbed,
with David's aid, into the gig beside the doctor, at once
began talking to him, and never turned her head as they drove
away. The moment he heard the sound of the horse's hoofs,
Steenie came quietly from the gloom and went out of the
back-door, thinking no eye was upon him. But his sister's
heart was never off him, and her eyes were oftener on him
than he knew.
</p>
<p>
Of late he had begun again to go to the hill at night, and
Kirsty feared his old trouble might be returning. Glad as she
was to serve Phemy, and the father through the daughter, she
was far from regretting her departure, for now she would have
leisure for Steenie and her books, and now the family would
gather itself once more into the perfect sphere to which drop
and ocean alike desires to shape itself!
</p>
<p>
'I thoucht ye wud be efter me!' cried Steenie, as she opened
the door of his burrow, within an hour of his leaving the
house.
</p>
<p>
Now Kirsty had expected to find him full of grief because of
Phemy's going, especially as the heartless girl, for such
Steenie's sister could not help thinking her, never said
good-bye to her most loving slave. And she did certainly
descry on his countenance traces of emotion, and in his eyes
the lingering trouble as of a storm all but overblown. There
was however in his face the light as of a far sunk aurora,
the outmost rim of whose radiance, doubtfully visible, seemed
to encircle his whole person. He was not lost in any gloom!
She sat down beside him, and waited for him to speak.
</p>
<p>
Never doubting she would follow him, he had already built up
a good peat-fire on the hearth, and placed for her beside it
a low settle which his father had made for him, and he had
himself covered with a sheepskin of thickest fleece. They sat
silent for a while.
</p>
<p>
'Wud ye say noo, Kirsty, 'at I was ony use til her?' he asked
at length.
</p>
<p>
'Jist a heap,' answered Kirsty. 'I kenna what ever she or I
wud hae dune wantin ye! She nott (<i>needed</i>) a heap o'
luikin til!'
</p>
<p>
'And ye think mebbe she'll be some the better, some way or
ither, for 't?'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, I div think that, Steenie. But to tell the trowth, I'm
no sure she'll think verra aft aboot what ye did for her!'
</p>
<p>
'Ow, na! What for sud she? There's no need for that! It was
for hersel, no for her think-aboot-it, I tried. I was jist
fain to du something like wash the feet o' her. Whan I cam in
that day—the day efter ye broucht her hame, ye
ken—the luik of her puir, bonny, begrutten facy jist
turnt my hert ower i' the mids o' me. I maist think, gien I
hadna been able to du onything for her afore she gaed, I wud
hae come hame here to my ain hoose like a deein sheep, and
lain doon. Yon face o' hers comes back til me noo like the
face o' a lost lammie 'at the shepherd didna think worth
gaein oot to luik for. But gien I had sic a sair hert for
her, the bonny man maun hae had a sairer, and he'll du for
her what he can—and that maun be muckle—muckle!
They ca' 'im the gude Shepherd, ye ken!'
</p>
<p>
He sat silent for some minutes, and Kirsty's heart was too
full to let her speak. She could only say to
her-self—'And folk ca's him half-wuttit, div they!
Weel, lat them! Gien he be half-wuttit, the Lord's made up
the ither half wi' better!'
</p>
<p>
'Ay!' resumed Steenie, 'the gude shepherd tynes
(<i>loses</i>) no ane o' them a'! But I'll miss her dreidfu'!
Eh, but I likit to watch the wan bit facy grow and grow till
't was roon' and rosy again! And, eh, sic a bonny reid and
white as it was! And better yet I likit to see yon
hert-brakin luik o' the lost are weirin aye awa and awa till
't was clean gane!—And noo she's back til her father,
bricht and licht and bonny as the lown starry
nicht!—Eh, but it maks me happy to think o' 't!'
</p>
<p>
'Sae it maks me!' responded Kirsty, feeling, as she regarded
him, like a glorified mother beholding her child walking in
the truth.
</p>
<p>
'And noo,' continued Steenie, 'I'm richt glaid she's gane,
and my min' 'll be mair at ease gien I tell ye what
for:—I maun aye tell you a'thing 'at 'll bide tellin,
Kirsty, ye ken!—Weel, a week or twa ago, I began to be
troubled as I never was troubled afore. I canna weel say what
was the cause o' 't, or the kin' o' thing it was, but
something had come that I didna want to come, and couldna
keep awa. Maybe ye'll ken what it was like whan I tell ye 'at
I was aye think-thinkin aboot Phemy. Noo, afore she cam, I
was maist aye thinkin aboot the bonny man; and it wasna that
there was ony sic necessity for thinkin aboot Phemy, for by
that time she was oot o' her meesery, whatever that was, or
whatever had the wyte (<i>blame</i>) o' 't. I' the time afore
her, whan my min' wud grow a bit quaiet, and the pooers o'
darkness wud draw themsels awa a bit, aye wud come the face
o' the bonny man intil the toom place, and fill me fresh up
wi' the houp o' seein him or lang; but noo, at ilka moment,
up wud come, no the face o' the bonny man, but the face o'
Phemy; and I didna like that, and I cudna help it. And a
scraichin fear grippit me, 'at I was turnin fause to the
bonny man. It wisna that I thoucht he wud be vext wi' me, but
that I cudna bide onything to come atween me and him. I teuk
mysel weel ower the heckles, but I cudna mak oot 'at I cud
a'thegither help it. Ye see, somehoo, no bein made
a'thegither like ither fowk, I cudna think aboot twa things
at ance, and I bude to think aboot the ane that cam o' 'tsel
like. But, as I say, it troubled me. Weel, the day, my hert
was sair at her gangin awa, for I had been lang used to seein
her ilka hoor, maist ilka minute; and the ae wuss i' my hert
at the time was to du something worth duin for her, and syne
dee and hae dune wi' 't—and there, I doobt, I clean
forgot the bonny man! Whan she got intil the doctor's gig and
awa they drave, my hert grew cauld; I was like ane deid and
beginnin to rot i' the grave. But that minute I h'ard, or it
was jist as gien I h'ard—I dinna mean wi' my lugs, but
i' my hert, ye ken—a v'ice cry, "Steenie! Steenie!" and
I cried lood oot, "Comin, Lord!" but I kent weel eneuch the
v'ice was inside o' me, and no i' my heid, but i' my
hert—and nane the less i' me for that! Sae awa at ance
I cam to my closet here, and sat doon, and hearkent i' the
how o' my hert. Never a word cam, but I grew quaiet—eh,
sae quaiet and content like, wi'oot onything to mak me sae,
but maybe 'at he was thinkin aboot me! And I'm quaiet yet.
And as sune 's it's dark, I s' gang oot and see whether the
bonny man be onywhaur aboot. There's naething atween him and
me noo; for, the moment I begin to think, it's him 'at comes
to be thoucht aboot, and no Phemy ony mair!'
</p>
<p>
'Steenie,' said Kirsty, 'it was the bonny man sent Phemy til
ye—to gie ye something to du for him, luikin efter ane
o' his silly lambs.'
</p>
<p>
'Ay,' returned Steenie; 'I ken she wasna wiselike, sic as you
and my mither. She needit a heap o' luikin efter, as ye
said.'
</p>
<p>
'And wi' haein to luik efter her, he kenned that the thouchts
that troubled ye wudna sae weel win in, and wud learn to bide
oot. Jist luik at ye noo! See hoo ye hae learnt to luik efter
yersel! Ye saw it cudna be agreeable to her to hae ye aboot
her no that weel washed, and wi' claes ye didna keep tidy and
clean! Sin' ever ye tuik to luikin efter Phemy, I hae had
little trouble luikin efter you!'
</p>
<p>
'I see't, Kirsty, I see't! I never thoucht o' the thing
afore! I micht du a heap to mak mysel mair like ither fowk! I
s' no forget, noo 'at I hae gotten a grip o' the thing. Ye'll
see, Kirsty!'
</p>
<p>
'That's my ain Steenie!' answered Kirsty. 'Maybe the bonny
man cudna be aye comin to ye himsel, haein ither fowk a heap
to luik til, and sae sent Phemy to lat ye ken what he would
hae o' ye. Noo 'at ye hae begun, ye'll be growin mair and
mair like ither fowk.'
</p>
<p>
'Eh, but ye fleg me! I may grow ower like ither fowk! I maun
awa oot, Kirsty! I'm growin fleyt.'
</p>
<p>
'What for, Steenie?' cried Kirsty, not a little frightened
herself, and laying her hand on his arm. She feared his old
trouble was returning in force.
</p>
<p>
''Cause ither fowk never sees the bonny man, they tell me,'
he replied.
</p>
<p>
'That's their ain wyte,' answered Kirsty. 'They micht a' see
him gien they wud—or at least hear him say they sud see
him or lang.'
</p>
<p>
'Eh, but I'm no sure 'at ever I did see him, Kirsty!'
</p>
<p>
'That winna haud ye ohn seen him whan the hoor comes. And the
like's true o' the lave.'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, for I canna du wantin him—and sae nouther can
they!'
</p>
<p>
'Naebody can. A' maun hae seen him, or be gaein to see him.'
</p>
<p>
'I hae as guid as seen him, Kirsty! He was there! He helpit
me whan the ill folk cam to pu' at me!—Ye div think
though, Kirsty, 'at I'm b'un' to see him some day?'
</p>
<p>
'I'm thinkin the hoor's been aye set for that same!' answered
Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'Kirsty,' returned Steenie, not quite satisfied with her
reply, 'I'll gang clean oot the wuts I hae, gien ye tell me
I'm never to see him face to face!'
</p>
<p>
'Steenie,' rejoined Kirsty solemnly, 'I wud gang oot o' my
wuts mysel gien I didna believe that! I believe 't wi' a' my
heart, my bonny man.'
</p>
<p>
'Weel, and that's a' richt! But ye maunna ca' me yer bonny
man, Kirsty; for there's but ae bonny man, and we 're a'
brithers and sisters. He said it himsel!'
</p>
<p>
'That's verra true, Steenie; but whiles ye're sae like him I
canna help ca'in ye by his name.'
</p>
<p>
'Dinna du't again, Kirsty. I canna bide it. I'm no bonny! No
but I wud sair like to be bonny—bonny like him,
Kirsty!—Did ye ever hear tell 'at he had a father? I
h'ard a man ance say 'at he bed. Sic a bonny man as that
father maun be! Jist think o' his haein a son like
<i>him</i>!— Dauvid Barclay maun be richt sair
disappintit wi' sic a son as me—and him sic a man
himsel! What for is't, Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
'That 'll be are o' the secrets the bonny man's gaein to tell
his ain fowk whan he gets them hame wi' him!'
</p>
<p>
'His ain fowk, Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, siclike's you and me. Whan we gang hame, he'll tell's a'
aboot a heap o' things we wad fain ken.'
</p>
<p>
'His ain fowk! His ain fowk!' Steenie went on for a while
murmuring to himself at intervals. At last he said,
</p>
<p>
'What maks them his ain fowk, Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
'What maks me your fowk, Steenie?' she rejoined.
</p>
<p>
'That's easy to tell! It's 'cause we hae the same father and
mither; I hae aye kenned that!' answered Steenie with a
laugh.
</p>
<p>
She had been trying to puzzle him, he thought, but had
failed!
</p>
<p>
'Weel, the bonny man and you and me, we hae a' the same
father: that's what maks us his ain fowk!—Ye see noo?'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, I see! I see!' responded Steenie, and again was silent.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty thought he had plenty now to meditate upon.
</p>
<p>
'Are ye comin hame wi' me,' she asked, 'or are ye gaein to
bide, Steenie?'
</p>
<p>
'I'll gang hame wi' ye, gien ye like, but I wud raither bide
the nicht,' he answered. 'I'll hae jist this ae nicht mair
oot upo' the hill, and syne the morn I'll come hame to the
hoose, and see gien I can help my mither, or maybe my father.
That's what the bonny man wud like best, I'm sure.'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty went home with a glad heart: surely Steenie was now in
a fair way of becoming, as he phrased it, 'like ither fowk'!
'But the Lord's gowk's better nor the warl's prophet!' she
said to herself.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XXII
</h2>
<h3>
THE HORN
</h3>
<p>
The beginning of the winter had been open and warm, and very
little snow had fallen. This was much in Phemy's favour, and
by the new year she was quite well. But, notwithstanding her
heartlessness toward Steenie, she was no longer quite like
her old self. She was quieter and less foolish; she had had a
lesson in folly, and a long ministration of love, and knew
now a trifle about both. It is true she wrote nearly as much
silly poetry, but it was not so silly as before, partly
because her imagination had now something of fact to go upon,
and poorest fact is better than mere fancy. So free was her
heart, however, that she went of herself to see her aunt at
the castle, to whom, having beheld the love between David and
his daughter, and begun to feel injured by the little notice
her father took of her, she bewailed his indifference.
</p>
<p>
At Mrs. Bremner's request she had made an appointment to go
with her from the castle on a certain Saturday to visit a
distant relative, living in a lonely cottage on the other
side of the Horn—a woman too old ever to leave her
home. When the day arrived, both saw that the weather gave
signs of breaking, but the heavy clouds on the horizon seemed
no worse than had often shown themselves that winter, and as
often passed away. The air was warm, the day bright, the
earth dry, and Phemy and her aunt were in good spirits. They
had purposed to return early to Weelset, but agreed as they
went that Phemy, the days being so short, should take the
nearer path to Tiltowie, over the Horn. By this arrangement,
their visit ended, they had no great distance to walk
together, Mrs. Bremner's way lying along the back of the
hill, and Phemy's over the nearer shoulder of it.
</p>
<p>
As they took leave of each other a little later than they had
intended, Mrs. Bremner cast a glance at the gathering clouds,
and said,
</p>
<p>
'I doobt, lassie, it's gaein to ding on afore the nicht! I
wuss we war hame the twa o' 's! Gien it cam on to snaw and
blaw baith, we micht hae ill winnin there!'
</p>
<p>
'Noucht's to fear, auntie,' returned Phemy. 'It's a heap ower
warm to snaw. It may rain—I wudna won'er, but there'll
be nae snaw—no afore I win hame, onygait.'
</p>
<p>
'Weel, min', gien there be ae drap o' weet, ye maun change
ilka stic the minute ye're i' the hoose. Ye're no that stoot
yet!'
</p>
<p>
'I'll be sure, auntie!' answered Phemy, and they parted
almost at a right angle.
</p>
<p>
Before Phemy got to the top of the hill-shoulder, which she
had to cross by a path no better than a sheep-track, the wind
had turned to the north, and was blowing keen, with gathering
strength, from the regions of everlasting ice, bringing with
it a cold terrible to be faced by such a slight creature as
Phemy; and so rapidly did its force increase that in a few
minutes she had to fight for every step she took; so that,
when at length she reached the top, which lay bare to the
continuous torrent of fierce and fiercer rushes, her strength
was already all but exhausted. The wind brought up heavier
and heavier snow-clouds, and darkness with them, but before
ever the snow began to fall, Phemy was in evil case—in
worse case, indeed, than she could know. In a few minutes the
tempest had blown all energy out of her, and she sat down
where was not a stone to shelter her. When she rose, afraid
to sit longer, she could no more see the track through the
heather than she could tell without it in which direction to
turn. She began to cry, but the wind did not heed her tears;
it seemed determined to blow her away. And now came the snow,
filling the wind faster and faster, until at length the
frightful blasts had in them, perhaps, more bulk of blinding
and dizzying snowflakes than of the air which drove them.
They threatened between them to fix her there in a pillar of
snow. It would have been terrible indeed for Phemy on that
waste hillside, but that the cold and the tempest speedily
stupefied her.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty always enjoyed the winter heartily. For one thing, it
roused her poetic faculty—oh, how different in its
outcome from Phemy's!—far more than the summer. That
very afternoon, leaving Steenie with his mother, she paid a
visit to the weem, and there, in the heart of the earth, made
the following little song, addressed to the sky-soaring
lark:—
</p>
<pre>
What gars ye sing sae, birdie,
As gien ye war lord o' the lift?
On breid ye're an unco sma' lairdie,
But in hicht ye've a kingly gift!
A' ye hae to coont yersel rich in,
'S a wee mawn o' glory-motes!
The whilk to the throne ye're aye hitchin
Wi' a lang tow o' sapphire notes!
Ay, yer sang's the sang o' an angel
For a sinfu' thrapple no meet,
Like the pipes til a heavenly braingel
Whaur they dance their herts intil their feet!
But though ye canna behaud, birdie,
Ye needna gar a'thing wheesht!
I'm noucht but a herplin herdie,
But I hae a sang i' my breist!
Len' me yer throat to sing throuw,
Len' me yer wings to gang hie,
And I'll sing ye a sang a laverock to cow,
And for bliss to gar him dee!
</pre>
<p>
Long before she had finished writing it, the world was dark
outside. She had heard but little heeded the roaring of the
wind over her: when at length she put her head up out of the
earth, it seized her by the hair as if it would drag it off.
It took her more than an hour to get home.
</p>
<p>
In the meantime Steenie had been growing restless. Coming
wind often affected him so. He had been out with his father,
who expected a storm, to see that all was snug about byres
and stables, and feed the few sheep in an outhouse; now he
had come in, and was wandering about the house, when his
mother prevailed on him to sit down by the fireside with her.
The clouds had gathered thick, and the afternoon was very
dark, but all was as yet still. He called his dog, and
Snootie lay down at his feet, ready for what might come.
Steenie sat on a stool, with his head on his mother's knee,
and for a while seemed lost in thought. Then, without moving
or looking up, he said, as if thinking aloud,—
</p>
<p>
'It maun be fine fun up there amang thae cloods afore the
flauks begin to spread!'
</p>
<p>
'What mean ye by that, Steenie, my man?' asked his mother.
</p>
<p>
'They maun be packit sae close, sae unco close i' their
muckle pocks, like the feathers in a feather-bed! and syne,
whan they lat them a' oot thegither, like haudin the bed i'
their twa ban's by the boddom corners, they maun be smorin
thick till they begin to spread!'
</p>
<p>
'And wha think ye shaks oot the muckle pocks, Steenie?'
</p>
<p>
'I dinna ken. I hae aften thoucht aboot it. I dinna think
it's likly to be the angels. It's mair like wark for the
bairnies up yoner at the muckle ferm at hame, whaur ilk ane,
to the littlest littlin, kens what he's aboot, and no ane o'
them's like some o' 's doon here, 'at gangs a' day in a
dream, and canna get oorsels waukent oot o' 't. I wud be
surer but that I hae thoucht whiles I saw the muckle angels
themsels gaein aboot, throu and throu the ondingin flauchter
o' the snaw—no mony o' them, ye ken, but jist whiles
ane and whiles anither, throu amo' the cauld feathers, gaein
aye straught wi' their heids up, walkin comfortable, as gien
they war at hame in't. I'm thinkin at sic a time they'll be
efter helpin some puir body 'at the snaw's like to be ower
muckle for. Eh me! gien I cud but get rid o' my feet, and win
up to see!'
</p>
<p>
'What for yer feet, Steenie? What ails ye aye at yer feet?
Feet's gey usefu' kin o' thing's to craturs, whether gien
them in fours or twas!'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, but mine's sic a weicht! It's them 'at's aye haudin me
doon! I wad hae been up and awa lang syne gien it hadna been
for them!'
</p>
<p>
'And what wud hae been comin o' hiz wantin ye, Steenie?'
</p>
<p>
'Ye wad be duin sae weel wantin me, 'at ye wud be aye wantin
to be up and efter me! A body's feet's nae doobt usefu to
hand a body steady, and ohn gane blawin aboot, but eh,
they're unco cummarsum! But syne they're unco guid tu to hand
a body ohn thoucht owre muckle o' himsel! They're fine
heumblin things, a body's feet! But, eh, it'll be fine wantin
them!'
</p>
<p>
'Whaur on earth gat ye sic notions aboot yer feet? Guid kens
there's naething amiss wi' yer feet! Nouther o' ye hes ony
rizzon to be ashamit o' yer feet. The fac is, your feet's by
ordinar sma', Steenie, and can add but unco little to yer
weicht!'
</p>
<p>
'It's a' 'at ye ken, mother!' answered Steenie with a smile.
'But, 'deed, I got my information aboot the feet o' fowk frae
naegate i' this warl'! The bonny man himsel sent word aboot
them. He tellt the minister 'at tellt me, ance I was at the
kirk wi' you, mother—lang, lang syne— twa or
three hun'er years, I'm thinkin'. The bonny man tellt his ain
fowk first that he was gaein awa in order that they michtna
be able to do wantin him, and bude to stir themselves and
come up efter him. And syne he slippit aff his feet, and gaed
awa up intil the air whaur the snaw comes frae. And ever sin
syne he comes and gangs as he likes. And efter that be telled
the minister to tell hiz 'at we was to lay aside the weicht
that sae easy besets us, and rin. Noo by <i>rin</i> he maun
hae meaned <i>rin up</i>, for a body's no to rin frae the
deevil but resist him; and what is't that hauds onybody frae
rinnin up the air but his feet? There!—But he's
promised to help me aff wi' my feet some day: think o'
that!—Eh, gien I cud but get my feet aff! Eh, gien they
wad but stick i' my shune, and gang wi' them whan I pu' them
aff! They're naething efter a', ye ken, but the shune o' my
sowl!'
</p>
<p>
A gust of wind drove against the house, and sank as suddenly.
</p>
<p>
'That'll be ane o' them!' said Steenie, rising hastily.
'He'll be wantin me! It's no that aften they want onything o'
me ayont the fair words a' God's craturs luik for frae ane
anither, but whiles they do want me, and I'm thinkin they
want me the nicht. I maun be gaein!'
</p>
<p>
'Hoots, laddie!' returned his mother, 'what can they be
wantin, thae gran' offishers, o' siclike as you? Sit ye doon,
and bide till they cry ye plain. I wud fain hae ye safe i'
the hoose the nicht!'
</p>
<p>
'It's a' his hoose, mother! A' theroot's therein to him. He's
in's ain hoose a' the time, and I'm jist as safe atween his
wa's as atween yours. Didna naebody ever tell ye that,
mother? Weel, I ken it to be true! And for wantin sic like as
me, gien God never has need o' a midge, what for dis he mak
sic a lot o' them?'
</p>
<p>
''Deed it's true eneuch ye say!' returned his mother. 'But I
div won'er ye're no fleyt!'
</p>
<p>
'Fleyt!' rejoined Steenie; 'what for wud I be fleyt? What is
there to be fleyt at? I never was fleyt at face o' man or
wuman—na, nor o' beast naither!—I was ance, and
never but that ance, fleyt at the face o' a bairn!'
</p>
<p>
'And what for that, Steenie?
</p>
<p>
'He was rinnin efter his wee sister to lick her, and his face
was the face o' a deevil. He nearhan' garred me hate him, and
that wud hae been a terrible sin. But, eh, puir laddie, he
bed a richt fearsome wife to the mither o' him! I'm thinkin
the bonny man maun hae a heap o' tribble wi' siclike, be they
bairns or mithers!'
</p>
<p>
'Eh, but ye're i' the richt there, laddie!—Noo hearken
to me: ye maunna gang the nicht!' said his mother anxiously.
'Gien yer father and Kirsty wad but come in to persuaud ye!
I'm clean lost wi'oot them!'
</p>
<p>
'For the puir idiot hasna the sense to ken what's wantit o'
him!' supplemented Steenie, with a laugh almost merry.
</p>
<p>
'Daur ye,' cried his mother indignantly, 'mint at sic a word
and my bairn thegither? He's my bonny man!'
</p>
<p>
'Na, mother, na! <i>He's</i> the bonny man at wha's feet I
sall ae day sit, clothed and i' my richt min'. He <i>is</i>
the bonny man!'
</p>
<p>
'Thank the Lord,' continued his mother, still harping on the
outrage of such as called her child an idiot,' 'at ye're no
an orphan—'at there's three o' 's to tak yer part!'
</p>
<p>
'Naebody can be an orphan,' said Steenie, 'sae lang's God's
nae deid.'
</p>
<p>
'Lord, and they ca' ye an idiot, div they!' exclaimed Marion
Barclay.— 'Weel, be ye or no, ye're ane o' the babes in
wha's mooth he perfecteth praise!'
</p>
<p>
'He'll du that some day, maybe!' answered Steenie.
</p>
<p>
'But! eh, Steenie,' pursued his mother, 'ye winna gang the
nicht!'
</p>
<p>
'Mother,' he answered, 'ye dinna ken, nor yet do I, what to
mak o' me— what wits I hae, and what wits I haena; but
this ye'll alloo, that, for onything ye ken, the bonny man
may be cryin upon me to gang efter some puir little yowie o'
his, oot her lane i' the storm the nicht!'
</p>
<p>
With these words he walked gently from the kitchen, his dog
following him.
</p>
<p>
A terrible blast rushed right into the fire when he opened
the door. But he shut it behind him easily, and his mother
comforted herself that she had known him out in worse
weather. Kirsty entered a moment after, and when her father
came in from the loft he called his workshop, they had their
tea, and sat round the fire after it, peacefully talking, a
little troubled, but nowise uneasy that their Steenie, the
darling of them all, was away on the Horn: he knew every foot
of its sides better than the collie who, a moment ago asleep
before the fire, was now following at his master's heel.
</p>
<p>
The wind, which had fallen immediately after the second gust
as after the first, now began to blow with gathering force,
and it took Steenie much longer than usual to make his way
over height and hollow from his father's house to his own.
But he was in no hurry, not knowing where he was wanted. I do
not think he met any angels as he went, but it was a pleasure
to think they might be about somewhere, for they were sorry
for his heavy feet, and always greeted him kindly. Not that
they ever spoke to him, he said, but they always made a
friendly gesture—nodding a stately head, waving a
strong hand, or sending him a waft of cool air as they went
by, a waft that would come to him through the fiercest
hurricane as well as through the stillest calm.
</p>
<p>
Before, strong-toiling against the wind, man and dog reached
their refuge among the rocks, the snow had begun to fall, and
the night seemed solid with blackness. The very flakes might
have been black as the snow of hell for any gleam they gave.
But they arrived at last, and Steenie, making Snootie go in
before him, entered the low door with bent head, and closed
it behind them. The dog lay down weary, but Steenie set about
lighting the peats ready piled between the great stones of
the hearth. The wind howled over the waste hill in
multitudinous whirls, and swept like a level cataract over
the ghastly bog at its foot, but scarce a puff blew against
the door of their burrow.
</p>
<p>
When his fire was well alight, Steenie seated himself by it
on the sheepskin settle, and fell into a reverie. How long he
had sat thus he did not know, when suddenly the wind fell,
and with the lull master and dog started together to their
feet: was it indeed a cry they had heard, or but a moan
between wind and mountain? The dog flew to the door with a
whine, and began to sniff and scratch at the crack of the
threshold; Steenie, thinking it was still dark, went to get a
lantern Kirsty had provided him with, but which he had never
yet had occasion to use. The dog ran back to him, and began
jumping upon him, indicating thus in the dark recess where he
found him that he wanted him to open the door. A moment more
and they were in the open universe, in a night all of snow,
lighted by the wide swooning gleam of a hidden moon, whose
radiance, almost absorbed, came filtering through miles of
snow-cloud to reach the world. Nothing but snow was to be
seen in heaven or earth, but for the present no more was
falling. Steenie set the lighted lantern by the door, and
followed Snootie, who went sniffing and snuffing about.
</p>
<p>
Steenie always regarded inferior animals, and especially
dogs, as a lower sort of angels, with ways of their own, into
which it would be time to inquire by and by, when either they
could talk or he could bark intelligently and
intelligibly—in which it used to annoy him that he had
not yet succeeded. It was in part his intense desire to enter
into the thoughts of his dog, that used to make him imitate
him the most of the day. I think he put his body as nearly
into the shape of the dog's as he could, in order thus to aid
his mind in feeling as the dog was feeling.
</p>
<p>
As the dog seemed to have no scent of anything, Steenie,
after considering for a moment what he must do, began to walk
in a spiral, beginning from the door, with the house for the
centre. He had thus got out of the little valley on to the
open hill, and the wind had begun to threaten reawaking, when
Snootie, who was a little way to one side of him, stopped
short, and began scratching like a fury in the snow. Steenie
ran to him, and dropped on his knees to help him: he had
already got a part of something clear! It was the arm of a
woman. So deep was the snow over her, that the cry he and the
dog had heard, could not surely have been uttered by her! He
was gently clearing the snow from the head, and the snow-like
features were vaguely emerging, when the wind gave a wild
howl, the night grew dark again, and in bellowing blackness
the death-silent snow was upon them. But in a moment or two
more, with Snootie's vigorous aid, he had drawn the body of a
slight, delicately formed woman out of it's cold, white
mould. Somehow, with difficulty, he got it on his back, the
only way he could carry it, and staggered away with it toward
his house. Thus laden, he might never have found it, near as
it was, for he was not very strong, and the ground was very
rough as well as a little deep in snow, but they had left
such a recent track that the guidance of the dog was sure.
The wise creature did not, however, follow the long track,
but led pretty straight across the spiral for the hut.
</p>
<p>
The body grew heavy on poor Steenie's back, and the cold of
it came through to his spine. It was so cold that it must be
a dead thing, he thought. His breathing grew very short,
compelling him, several times, to stop and rest. His legs
became insensible under him, and his feet got heavier and
heavier in the snow-filled, entangling, impeding heather.
</p>
<p>
What if it were Phemy! he thought as he struggled on. Then he
would have the beautiful thing all to himself! But this was a
dead thing, he feared—only a thing, and no woman at
all! Of course it couldn't be Phemy! She was at home, asleep
in her father's house! He had always shrunk from death; even
a dead mouse he could not touch without a shudder; but this
was a woman, and might come alive! It belonged to the bonny
man, anyhow, and he would stay out with it all night rather
than have it lie there alone in the snow! He would not be
afraid of her: he was nearly dead himself, and the dead were
not afraid of the dead! She had only put off her shoes! But
she might be alive, and he must get her into the house! He
would like to put off his feet, but most people would rather
keep them on, and he must try to keep hers on for her!
</p>
<p>
With fast failing energy he reached the door, staggered in,
dropped his burden gently on his own soft heather-bed, and
fell exhausted. He lay but a moment, came to himself, rose,
and looked at the lovely thing he had laboured to redeem from
'cold obstruction.' It lay just as it had fallen from his
back, its face uppermost: it <i>was</i> Phemy!
</p>
<p>
For a moment his blood seemed to stand still; then all the
divine senses of the half-witted returned to him. There was
no time to be sorrowful over her: he must save the life that
might yet be in that frozen form! He had nothing in the house
except warmth, but warmth more than aught else was what the
cold thing needed! With trembling hands he took off her
half-thawed clothes, laid her in the thick blankets of his
bed, and covered her with every woollen thing in the hut.
Then he made up a large fire, in the hope that some of its
heat might find her.
</p>
<p>
She showed no sign of life. Her eyes were fast shut: those
who die of cold only sleep into a deeper sleep. Not a trace
of suffering was to be seen on her countenance. Death alone,
pure, calm, cold, and sweet, was there. But Steenie had never
seen Death, and there was room for him to doubt and hope. He
laid one fold of a blanket over the lovely white face, as he
had seen a mother do with a sleeping infant, called his dog,
made him lie down on her feet, and told him to watch; then
turned away, and went to the door. As he passed the fire, he
coughed and grew faint, but recovering himself, picked up his
fallen stick, and set out for Corbyknowe and Kirsty. Once
more the wind had ceased, but the snow was yet falling.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XXIII
</h2>
<h3>
THE STORM AGAIN
</h3>
<p>
Kirsty woke suddenly out of a deep, dreamless sleep. A white
face was bending over her—Steenie's—whiter than
ever Kirsty had seen it. He was panting, and his eyes were
huge. She started up.
</p>
<p>
'Come; come!' was all he was able to say.
</p>
<p>
'What's the metter, Steenie?' she gasped. For a quarter of a
minute he stood panting, unable to speak.
</p>
<p>
'I'm no thinkin onything's gane wrong,' he faltered at length
with an effort, recovering breath and speech a little. 'The
bonny man—'
</p>
<p>
He burst into tears and turned his head away. A vision of the
white, lovely, motionless thing, whose hand had fallen from
his like a lump of lead, lying alone at the top of the Horn,
with the dog on her feet, had overwhelmed him suddenly.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty was sore distressed. She dreaded the worst when she
saw him thus lose the self-restraint hitherto so remarkable
in him. She leaned from her bed, threw her arms round him,
and drew him to her, kneeled, laid his head on her bosom, and
wept as she had never known him weep.
</p>
<p>
'I'll tak care o' ye, Steenie, my man!' she murmured. 'Fear
ye naething.'
</p>
<p>
It is amazing how much, in the strength of its own divinity,
love will dare promise!
</p>
<p>
'Ay, Kirsty, I ken ye wull, but it's no me!' said Steenie.
</p>
<p>
Thereupon he gave a brief, lucid account of what had occurred
in the night.
</p>
<p>
'And noo 'at I hae telt ye,' he added, 'it luiks a' sae
strange 'at maybe I hae been but dreamin, efter a'! But it
maun be true, for that maun hae been what the angels cam
cryin upo' me for. I'm thinkin they wud hae broucht me
straucht til her themsels—they maistly gang aboot in
twas, as whan they gaed and waukent the bonny man—gien
it hadna been 'at the guid collie was aiqual to that!'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty told him to go and rouse the kitchen fire, and she
would be with him in a minute. She sprang out of bed, and
dressed as fast as she could, thinking what she had best take
with her. 'The puir lassie,' she said to herself, 'may be
growin warm, and sleepin deith awa; and by the time we win
there she'll be needin something, like the lassie 'at the
Lord liftit!' But in her heart she had little hope: it would
be a sad day for the schoolmaster.
</p>
<p>
She went to her father and mother's room, found them awake,
and told them Steenie's tale.
</p>
<p>
'It's time we war up, wuman!' said David.
</p>
<p>
'Ay,' returned his wife, 'but Kirsty canna bide for 's. Ye
maun be aff, lassie! Tak a wee whusky wi' ye; but min' it's
no that safe wi' frozen fowk. Het milk's the best thing. Tak
a drappie o' that wi' ye. I s' be efter ye wi' mair. And
dinna forget a piece to uphaud ye as ye gang; it'll be ill
fechtin the win'. Dinna lat Steenie gang back wi' ye; he
canna be fit. Sen' him to me, and I'll persuaud
him.—Dauvid, man, ye'll hae to saiddle and ride; the
doctor maun gang wi' ye straught to Steenie's hoose.'
</p>
<p>
'Lat me up,' said David, making a motion to free himself of
the bedclothes.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty went, and got some milk to make it hot. But when she
reached the kitchen, Steenie was not there, and the fire,
which he had tried to wake up, was all but black. The
house-door was open, and the snow drifting in. Steenie was
gone into the storm again! She hurriedly poured the milk into
a small bottle, and thrust it into her bosom to grow warm as
she went. Then she lighted a lantern, chiefly that Steenie
might catch sight of it, and set out.
</p>
<p>
She started running, certain, she thought, to overtake him.
The wind was up again, but it was almost behind her, and the
night was not absolutely dark, for the moon was somewhere.
She was far stronger than Steenie, and could walk faster,
but, keen as was her outlook on all sides, for the snow was
not falling too thick to let her see a little way through it,
she was at length near the top of the Horn without having
caught a glimpse of him. Had he dropped on the way? Had she
in her haste left him after all in the house? She might have
passed him; that was easy to do. One thing she was sure
of—he could not have got to his house before her!
</p>
<p>
As she drew near the door she heard a short howl, and knew it
for Snootie's. Perhaps Phemy had revived! But no! it was a
desolate, forsaken cry! The next moment came a glad bark: was
it the footstep of Kirsty it greeted, or the soul of Phemy?
</p>
<p>
With steady hand, and heart prepared, she opened the door and
went in. The dog came bounding to her: either he counted
himself relieved, or could bear it no longer. He cringed at
her feet; he leaped upon her; he saw in her his saviour from
the terrible silence and cold and motionlessness. Then he
stood still before her, looking up to her, and wagging his
tail, but his face said plainly: <i>It is there</i>!
</p>
<p>
Kirsty hesitated a moment; a weary sense of uselessness had
overtaken her, and she shrank from encountering the
unchanging and unchangeable; but she cast off the oppression,
and followed the dog to the bedside. He jumped up, and lay
down where his master had placed him, as if to say he knew
his duty, had been lying there all the time, and had only got
up the moment she came. It was the one warm spot in all the
woollen pile; the feet beneath it were cold as the snow
outside, and the lovely form lay motionless as a thing that
would never move again. Kirsty lifted the blanket: there was
Phemy's face, blind with the white death! It did not look at
her, did not recognise her: Phemy was there and not there!
Phemy was far away! Phemy could not move from where she lay!
</p>
<p>
Hopeless, Kirsty yet tried her best to wake her from her
snow-sleep, shrinking from nothing, except for the despair of
it. But long ere she gave up the useless task, she was
thinking far more about Steenie than Phemy.
</p>
<p>
He did not come! 'He must be safe with his mother!' she kept
saying in her heart; but she could not reassure herself. The
forsaken fire, the open door haunted her. She would succeed
for a moment or two in quieting her fears, calling them
foolish; the next they would rush upon her like a cataract,
and almost overwhelm her. While she was busy with the dead,
he might be slowly sinking into the sleep from which she
could not wake Phemy!
</p>
<p>
She laid the cold snow-captive straight, and left her to
sleep on. Then, calling the dog, she left the hut, in the
hope of meeting her mother, and learning that Steenie was at
home.
</p>
<p>
Now and then, while at her sad task, she had been reminded of
the wind by its hollow roaring all about the hill, but not
until she opened the door had she any notion how the snow was
falling; neither until she left the hollow for the bare
hill-side did she realize how the wind was raging. Then
indeed the world looked dangerous! If Steenie was out, if her
mother had started, they were lost! She would have gone back
into the hut with the dead, but that she might get home in
time to prevent her mother from setting out, or might meet
her on the way. At the same time the tempest between her and
her home looked but a little less terrible to her than a sea
breaking on a rocky shore.
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CHAPTER XXIV
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<h3>
HOW KIRSTY FARED
</h3>
<p>
It was quite dark, and round her swept as it were a whirlpool
of snow. The swift fakes struck at her eyes and ears like a
swarm of vicious flies. In such a wind, the blows of the soft
thin snow, beating upon her face, now from one quarter, now
from another, were enough to bewilder even a strong woman
like Kirsty. They were like hail to a horse. After trying for
a while to force her way, she suddenly became aware of utter
ignorance as to the direction in which she was going, and,
for the first time in her life, a fell terror possessed
her—not for herself, but for Steenie and her father and
mother. To herself, Kirsty was nobody, but she belonged to
David and Marion Barclay, and what were they and Steenie to
do without her! They would go on looking for her till they
too died, and were buried yards deep in the snow!
</p>
<p>
She kept struggling on, her head bent, and her body leaning
forward, forcing herself against, it hardly seemed through,
the snow-filled wind—but whither? It was only by the
feel of the earth under her feet, that she could tell, and at
times she was by no means sure, whether she was going up or
down hill. She kept on and on, almost hopeless of getting
anywhere, certain of nothing but that, if once she sat down,
she would never rise again. Fatigue that must not yield, and
the in-roads of the cold sleep, at length affected her brain,
and her imagination began to take its own way with her. She
thought herself condemned to one of those awful dust-towers,
for she had read Prideaux, specially devilish invention of
the Persians, in which by the constant stirring of the dust
so that it filled the air, the lungs of the culprit were at
length absolutely choked up. Dead of the dust, she revived to
the snow: it was fearfully white, for it was all dead faces;
she crushed and waded through those that fell, while
multitudes came whirling upon her from all sides. Gladly
would she have thrown herself down among them, but she must
walk, walk on for ever!
</p>
<p>
All the time, she felt in her dim suffering as if not she but
those at home suffered: she had deserted them in trouble, and
do what she might she would never get back to them! She
could, she thought, if she but put forth the needful energy,
but the last self-exhaustive effort never would come!
</p>
<p>
Where was the dog? He had left her! he was nowhere near her!
She tried to call him, but the storm choked every sound in
her very throat. He would never have left her to save
himself! He who makes the dogs must be at least as faithful
as they! So she was not left comfortless!
</p>
<p>
Then she heard, or thought she heard the church-bell, and
that may have had something to do with the strange dream out
of which she came gradually to herself.
</p>
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CHAPTER XXV
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<h3>
KIRSTY'S DREAM
</h3>
<p>
Her dream was this:—
</p>
<p>
She sat at the communion-table in her own parish-church, with
many others, none of whom she knew. A man with piercing eyes
went along the table, examining the faces of all to see if
they were fit to partake. When he came to Kirsty, he looked
at her for a moment sharply, then said, 'That woman is dead.
She has been in the snow all night. Lay her in the vault
under the church.' She rose to go because she was dead, and
hands were laid upon her to guide her as she went. They
brought her out of the church into the snow and wind, and
turned away to leave her. But she remonstrated: 'The man with
the eyes,' she said, 'gave the order that I should be taken
to the vault of the church!'—'Very well,' answered a
voice, 'there is the vault! creep into it.' She saw an
opening in the ground, at the foot of the wall of the church,
and getting down on her hands and knees, crept through it,
and with difficulty got into the vault. There all was still.
She heard the wind raving, but it sounded afar off. Who had
guided her thither? One of Steenie's storm-angels, or the
Shepherd of the sheep? It was all one, for the storm-angels
were his sheep-dogs! She had been bewildered by the terrible
beating of the snow-wind, but her own wandering was another's
guiding! Beyond the turmoil of life and unutterably glad, she
fell asleep, and the dream left her. In a little while,
however, it came again.
</p>
<p>
She was lying, she thought, on the stone-floor of the
church-vault, and wondered whether the examiner,
notwithstanding the shining of his eyes, might not have made
a mistake: perhaps she was not so very dead! Perhaps she was
not quite unfit to eat of the bread of life after all! She
moved herself a little; then tried to rise, but failed; tried
again and again, and at last succeeded. All was dark around
her, but something seemed present that was known to
her—whether man, or woman, or beast, or thing, she
could not tell. At last she recognised it; it was a familiar
odour, a peculiar smell, of the kind we call earthy:—it
was the air of her own earth-house, in days that seemed far
away! Perhaps she was in it now! Then her box of matches
might be there too! She felt about and found it. With
trembling hands she struck one, and proceeded to light her
lamp.
</p>
<p>
It burned up. Something seized her by the heart.
</p>
<p>
A little farther in, stretched on the floor, lay a human form
on its face. She knew at once that it was Steenie's. The feet
were toward her, and between her and them a pair of shoes: he
was dead!—he had got rid of his feet!—he was gone
after Phemy—gone to the bonny man! She knelt, and
turned the body over. Her heart was like a stone. She raised
his head on her arm: it was plain he was dead. A small stream
of blood had flowed from his mouth, and made a little pool,
not yet quite frozen. Kirsty's heart seemed about to break
from her bosom to go after him; then the eternal seemed to
descend upon her like a waking sleep, a clear consciousness
of peace. It was for a moment as if she saw the Father at the
heart of the universe, with all his children about his knees:
her pain and sorrow and weakness were gone; she wept glad
tears over the brother called so soon from the nursery to the
great presence chamber. 'Eh, bonny man!' she cried; 'is 't
possible to expec ower muckle frae your father and mine!'
</p>
<p>
She sat down beside what was left of Steenie, and ate of the
oatcake, and drink of the milk she had carried forgotten
until now.
</p>
<p>
'I won'er what God 'll du wi' the twa!' she said to herself.
'Gien <i>I</i> lo'ed them baith as I did, <i>he</i> lo'es
them better! <i>I</i> wud hae dee'd for them; <i>he</i> did!'
</p>
<p>
She rose and went out.
</p>
<p>
Light had come at last, but too dim to be more than gray. The
world was one large white sepulchre in which the earth lay
dead. Warmth and hope and spring seemed gone for ever. But
God was alive; his hearth-fire burned; therefore death was
nowhere! She knew it in her own soul, for the Father was
there, and she knew that in his soul were all the loved. The
wind had ceased, but the snow was still falling, here and
there a flake. A faint blueness filled the air, and was
colder than the white. Whether the day was at hand or the
night, she could not distinguish. The church bell began to
ring, sounding from far away through the silence: what
mountains of snow must yet tower unfallen in the heavens,
when it was nearly noon, and still so dark! But Steenie was
out of the snow—that was well! Or perhaps he was beside
her in it, only he could leave it when he would! Surely
anyhow Phemy must be with him! She could not be left all
alone and she so silly! Steenie would have her to teach! His
trouble must have gone the moment he died, but Phemy would
have to find out what a goose she was! She would be very
miserable, and would want Steenie! Kirsty's thoughts cut
their own channels: she was as far ahead of her church as the
woman of Samaria was ahead of the high priest at Jerusalem.
</p>
<p>
Thus thinking, thinking, she kept on walking through the snow
to weep on her mother's bosom. Suddenly she remembered, and
stood still: her mother was going to follow her to Steenie's
house! She too must be dead in the snow!—Well, let
Heaven take all! They were born to die, and it was her turn
now to follow her mother! She started again for home, and at
length drew near the house.
</p>
<p>
It was more like a tomb than a house. The door looked as if
no one had gone in there or out for ages. Had she slept in
the snow like the seven sleepers in the cave? Were the need
and the use of houses and doors long over? Or was she a ghost
come to have one look more at her old home in a long dead
world? Perhaps her father and mother might have come back
with like purpose, and she would see and speak to them! Or
was she, alas! only in a dream, in which the dead would not
speak to her? But God was not dead, and while God lived she
was not alone even in a dream!
</p>
<p>
A dark bundle lay on the door-step: it was Snootie. He had
been scratching and whining until despair came upon him, and
he lay down to die.
</p>
<p>
She lifted the latch, stepped over the dog, and entered. The
peat-fire was smouldering low on tho hearth. She sat down and
closed her eyes. When she opened them, there lay Snootie,
stretched out before the fire! She rose and shut the door,
fed and roused the fire, and brought the dog some milk, which
he lapped up eagerly.
</p>
<p>
Not a sound was in the house. She went all over it. Father
nor mother was there. It was Sunday, and all the men were
away. A cow lowed, and in her heart Kirsty blessed her: she
was a live creature! She would go and milk her!
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CHAPTER XXVI
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<h3>
HOW DAVID FARED
</h3>
<p>
David Barclay got up the moment Kirsty was out of the room,
dressed himself in haste, swallowed a glass of whisky,
saddled the gray mare, gave her a feed of oats, which she ate
the faster that she felt the saddle, and set out for Tiltowie
to get the doctor. Threatening as the weather was, he was
well on the road before the wind became so full of snow as to
cause him any anxiety, either for those on the hill or for
himself. But after the first moment of anxiety, a very few
minutes convinced him that a battle with the elements was at
hand more dangerous than he had ever had to fight with armed
men. For some distance the road was safe enough as yet, for
the storm had not had time to heap up the snow between the
bordering hills; but by and by he must come out upon a large
track recovered by slow degrees and great labour from the
bog, and be exposed to the full force of the now furious
wind, where in many places it would be far easier to wander
off than to stay upon a road level with the fields, and not
even bounded by a ditch the size of a wheel-track. When he
reached the open, therefore, he was compelled to go at a
footpace through the thick, blinding, bewildering
tempest-driven snow; and was not surprised when, in spite of
all his caution, he found, by the sudden sinking and
withdrawing of one of his mare's legs with a squelching
noise, that he had got astray upon the bog, nor knew any more
in what direction the town or other abode of humanity lay.
The only thing he did know was the side of the road to which
he had turned; and that he knew only by the ground into which
he had got: no step farther must in that direction be
attempted. His mare seemed to know this as well as himself,
for when she had pulled her leg out, she drew back a pace,
and stood; whereupon David cast a knot on the reins, threw
them on her neck, and told her to go where she pleased. She
turned half round and started at once, feeling her way at
first very carefully. Then she walked slowly on, with her
head hanging low. Again and again she stopped and snuffed,
diverged a little, and went on.
</p>
<p>
The wind was packed rather than charged with snow. Men said
there never was a wind of the strength with so much snow in
it. David began to despair of ever finding the road again,
and naturally in such strait thought how much worse would
Kirsty and Steenie be faring on the open hill-side. His wife,
he knew, could not have started before the storm rose to
tempest, and would delay her departure. Then came the
reflection, how little at any time could a father do for the
wellbeing of his children! The fact of their being children
implied their need of an all-powerful father: must there not
then be such a father? Therewith the truth dawned upon him,
that first of truths, which all his church-going and
Bible-reading had hitherto failed to disclose, that, for life
to be a good thing and worth living, a man must be the child
of a perfect father, and know him. In his terrible
perturbation about his children, he lifted up his
heart—not to the Governor of the world; not to the God
of Abraham or Moses; not in the least to the God of the Kirk;
least of all to the God of the Shorter Catechism; but to the
faithful creator and Father of David Barclay. The aching soul
which none but a perfect father could have created capable of
deploring its own fatherly imperfection, cried out to the
father of fathers on behalf of his children, and as he cried,
a peace came stealing over him such as he had never before
felt.
</p>
<p>
Then he knew that his mare had been for some time on hard
ground, and was going with purpose in her gentle trot. In
five minutes more, he saw the glimmer of a light through the
snow. Near as it was, or he could not have seen it, he failed
repeatedly in finding his way to it. The mare at length fell
over a stone wall out of sight in the snow, and when they got
up they found themselves in a little garden at the end of a
farmhouse. Not, however, until the farmer came to the door,
wondering who on such a morning could be their visitor, did
he know to what farm the mare had brought him. Weary, and
well aware that no doctor in his senses would set out for the
top of the Horn in such a tempest of black and white, he
gratefully accepted the shelter and refreshment of which his
mare and he stood by this time in much need, and waited for a
lull in the storm.
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CHAPTER XXVII
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<h3>
HOW MARION FARED
</h3>
<p>
In the meantime the mother of the family, not herself at the
moment in danger, began to suffer the most. It dismayed her
to find, when she came down, that Steenie had, as she
thought, insisted on accompanying Kirsty, but it was without
any great anxiety that she set about preparing food with
which to follow them.
</p>
<p>
She was bending over her fire, busy with her cooking, when
all at once the wind came rushing straight down the chimney,
blew sleet into the kitchen, blew soot into the pot, and
nearly put out the fire. It was but a small whirlwind,
however, and presently passed.
</p>
<p>
She went to the door, opened it a little way, and peeped out:
the morning was a chaos of blackness and snow and wind. She
had been born and brought up in a yet wilder region, but the
storm threatened to be such as in her experience was
unparalleled.
</p>
<p>
'God preserve 's!' cried the poor woman, 'can this be the en'
o' a'thing? Is the earth turnin intil a muckle snaw-wreath,
'at whan a' are deid, there may be nae miss o' fowk to beery
them? Eh, sic a sepulchrin! Mortal wuman cudna carry a basket
in sic a leevin snaw-drift! Losh, she wudna carry hersel far!
I maun bide a bit gien I wad be ony succour till them! It's
my basket they'll be wantin', no me; and i' this drift,
basket may flee but it winna float!'
</p>
<p>
She turned to her cooking as if it were the one thing to save
the world. Let her be prepared for the best as well as for
the worst! Kirsty might find Phemy past helping, and bring
Steenie home! Then there was David, at that moment fighting
for his life, perhaps!—if he came home now, or any of
the three, she must be ready to save their lives! they must
not perish on her hands. So she prepared for the possible
future, not by brooding on it, but by doing the work of the
present. She cooked and cooked, until there was nothing more
to be done in that way, and then, having thus cleared the way
for it, sat down and cried. There was a time for tears: the
Bible said there was! and when Marion's hands fell into her
lap, their hour—and not till then, was come. To go out
after Kirsty would have been the bare foolishness of suicide,
would have been to abandon her husband and children against
the hour of their coming need: one of the hardest demands on
the obedience of faith is—to do nothing; it is often so
much easier to do foolishly!
</p>
<p>
But she did not weep long. A moment more and she was up and
at work again, hanging a great kettle of water on the crook,
and blowing up the fire, that she might have hot bottles to
lay in every bed. Then she assailed the peat-stack in spite
of the wind, making to it journey after journey, until she
had heaped a great pile of peats in the corner nearest the
hearth.
</p>
<p>
The morning wore on; the storm continued raging; no news came
from the white world; mankind had vanished in the whirling
snow. It was well the men had gone home, she thought: there
would only have been the more in danger, the more to be
fearful about, for all would have been abroad in the drift,
hopelessly looking for one another! But oh Steenie, Steenie!
and her ain Kirsty!
</p>
<p>
About half-past ten o'clock the wind began to abate its
violence, and speedily sank to a calm, wherewith the snow
lost its main terror. She looked out; it was falling in
straight, silent lines, flickering slowly down, but very
thick. She could find her way now! Hideous fears assailed
her, but she banished them imperiously: they should not sap
the energy whose every jot would be wanted! She caught up the
bottle of hot milk she had kept ready, wrapped it in flannel,
tied it, with a loaf of bread, in a shawl about her waist,
made up the fire, closed the door, and set out for Steenie's
house on the Horn.
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CHAPTER XXVIII
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<h3>
HUSBAND AND WIFE
</h3>
<p>
Two hours or so earlier, David, perceiving some Assuagement
in the storm, and his host having offered to go at once to
the doctor and the schoolmaster, had taken his mare, and
mounted to go home. He met with no impediment now except the
depth of the snow, which made it so hard for the mare to get
along that, full of anxiety about his children, he found the
distance a weary one to traverse.
</p>
<p>
When at length he reached the Knowe, no one was there to
welcome him. He saw, however, by the fire and the food, that
Marion was not long gone. He put up the gray, clothed her and
fed her, drank some milk, caught up a quarter of cakes, and
started for the hill.
</p>
<p>
The snow was not falling so thickly now, but it had already
almost obliterated the footprints of his wife. Still he could
distinguish them in places, and with some difficulty
succeeded in following their track until it was clear which
route she had taken. They indicated the easier, though longer
way—not that by the earth-house, and the father and
daughter passed without seeing each other. When Kirsty got to
the farm, her father was following her mother up the hill.
</p>
<p>
When David reached the Hillfauld, the name he always gave
Steenie's house, he found the door open, and walked in. His
wife did not hear him, for his iron-shod shoes were balled
with snow. She was standing over the body of Phemy, looking
down on the white sleep with a solemn, motherly, tearless
face. She turned as he drew near, and the pair, like the
lovers they were, fell each in the other's arms. Marion was
the first to speak.
</p>
<p>
'Eh Dauvid! God be praised I hae yersel!'
</p>
<p>
'Is the puir thing gane?' asked her husband in an awe-hushed
tone, looking down on the maid that was not dead but
sleeping.
</p>
<p>
'I doobt there's no doobt aboot that,' answered Marion.
'Steenie, I was jist thinkin, wud be sair disapp'intit to
learn 'at there was. Eh, the faith o' that laddie! H'aven to
him's sic a rale place, and sic a hantle better nor this
warl', 'at he wad not only fain be there himsel, but wad hae
Phemy there—ay, gie it war ever sae lang afore himsel!
Ye see he kens naething aboot sin and the saicrifeece, and he
disna un'erstan 'at Phemy was aye a gey wull kin' o' a
lassie!'
</p>
<p>
'Maybe the bonny man, as Steenie ca's him,' returned David,
'may hae as muckle compassion for the puir thing i' the hert
o' 'im as Steenie himsel!'
</p>
<p>
'Ow ay! Whatfor no! But what can the bonny man himsel du, a'
bein sattlet?'
</p>
<p>
'Dinna leemit the Almichty, wuman—and that i' the verra
moment whan he's been to hiz—I wunna say mair gracious
nor ord'nar, for that cudna be—but whan he's latten us
see a bit plainer nor common that he is gracious! The Lord o'
mercy 'ill manage to luik efter the lammie he made, ae w'y or
ither, there as here. Ye daurna say he didna du his best for
her here, and wull he no du his best for her there as weel?'
</p>
<p>
'Doobtless, Dauvid! But ye fricht me! It souns jist rank
papistry— naither mair nor less! What <i>can</i> he du?
He canna dee again for ane 'at wudna turn til 'im i' this
life! The thing's no to be thoucht!'
</p>
<p>
'Hoo ken ye that, wuman? Ye hae jist thoucht it yersel! Gien
I was you, I wudna daur to say what he cudna du! I' the
meantime, what he maks me able to houp, I'm no gaein to fling
frae me!'
</p>
<p>
David was a true man: he could not believe a thing with one
half of his mind, and care nothing about it with the other.
He, like his Steenie, believed in the bonny man about in the
world, not in the mere image of him standing in the precious
shrine of the New Testament.
</p>
<p>
After a brief silence—
</p>
<p>
'Whaur's Kirsty and Steenie?' he said.
</p>
<p>
'The Lord kens; I dinna.'
</p>
<p>
'They'll be safe eneuch.'
</p>
<p>
'It's no likly.'
</p>
<p>
'It's sartin,' said David.
</p>
<p>
And therewith, by the side of the dead, he imparted to his
wife the thoughts that drove misery from his heart as he sat
on his mare in the storm with the reins on her neck, nor knew
whither she went.
</p>
<p>
'Ay, ay,' returned his wife after a pause, 'ye're unco richt,
Dauvid, as aye ye are! And I'm jist conscience-stricken to
think 'at a' my life lang I hae been ready to murn ower the
sorrow i' <i>my</i> hert, never thinkin o' the glaidness i'
God's! What call hed I to greit ower Steenie, whan God maun
hae been aye sair pleased wi' him! What sense is there in
lamentation sae lang's God's eident settin richt a'! His
hert's the safity o' oors. And eh, glaid sure he maun be, wi
sic a lot o' his bairns at hame aboot him!'
</p>
<p>
'Ay,' returned David with a sigh, thinking of his old comrade
and the son he had left behind him, 'but there's the prodigal
anes!'
</p>
<p>
'Thank God, we hae nae prodigal!'
</p>
<p>
'Aye, thank him!' rejoined David; 'but <i>he</i> has
prodigals that trouble him sair, and we maun see til't 'at we
binna thankless auld prodigals oorsels!'
</p>
<p>
Again followed a brief silence.
</p>
<p>
'Eh, but isna it strange?' said Marion. 'Here's you and me
stanin murnin ower anither man's bairn, and naewise kennin
what's come o' oor ain twa!—Dauvid, what can hae come
o' Steenie and Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
'The wull o' God's what's come o' them; and God hand me i'
the grace o' wussin naething ither nor that same!'
</p>
<p>
'Haud to that, Dauvid, and hand me till't: we kenna what's
comin!'
</p>
<p>
'The wull o' God's comin,' insisted David. 'But eh,' he
added, 'I'm concernt for puir Maister Craig!'
</p>
<p>
'Weel, lat's awa hame and see whether the twa bena there
afore 's!—Eh, but the sicht o' the bonny corp maun hae
gien Steenie a sair hert! I wudna won'er gien he never wan
ower't i' this life!'
</p>
<p>
'But what'll we du aboot it or we gang? It's the storm may
come on again waur nor ever, and mak it impossible to beery
her for a month!'
</p>
<p>
'We cudna carry her hame atween's, Dauvid—think ye?'
</p>
<p>
'Na, na; it's no as gien it was hersel! And cauld's a fine
keeper— better nor a' the embalmin o' the Egyptians!
Only I'm fain to hand Steenie ohn seen her again!'
</p>
<p>
'Weel, lat's hap her i' the bonny white snaw!' said Marion.
'She'll keep there as lang as the snaw keeps, and naething
'ill disturb her till the time comes to lay her awa!'
</p>
<p>
'That's weel thoucht o'!' answered David. 'Eh, wuman, but
it's a bonny beerial compared wi' sic as I hae aften gien
comrade and foe alike!'
</p>
<p>
They went out and chose a spot close by the house where the
snow lay deep. There they made a hollow, and pressed the
bottom of it down hard. Then they carried out and laid in it
the death-frozen dove, and heaped upon her a firm, white,
marble-like tomb of heavenly new-fallen snow.
</p>
<p>
Without re-entering it, they closed the door of Steenie's
refuge, and leaving the two deserted houses side by side,
made what slow haste they could, with anxious hearts, to
their home. The snow was falling softly, for the wind was
still asleep.
</p>
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CHAPTER XXIX
</h2>
<h3>
DAVID, MARION, KIRSTY, SNOOTIE, AND WHAT WAS LEFT OF STEENIE
</h3>
<p>
Kirsty saw their shadows darken the wall, and turning from
her work at the dresser, ran to the door to meet them.
</p>
<p>
'God be thankit!' cried David.
</p>
<p>
Marion gave her daughter one loving look, and entering cast a
fearful, questioning glance around the kitchen.
</p>
<p>
'Whaur's Steenie?' she said.
</p>
<p>
'He's wi' Phemy, I'm thinkin,' faltered Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'Lassie, are ye dementit?' her mother almost screamed. 'We're
this minute come frae there!'
</p>
<p>
'He <i>is</i> wi' Phemy, mother. The Lord canna surely hae
pairtit them, gangin in maist haudin hans!'
</p>
<p>
'Kirsty, I haud ye accoontable for my Steenie!' cried Marion,
sinking on a chair, and covering her face with her hands.
</p>
<p>
'It's the wull o' God 'at's accoontable for him, wuman!'
answered David, sitting down beside her, and laying hold of
her arm.
</p>
<p>
She burst into terrible weeping.
</p>
<p>
'He maun be sair at hame wi' the bonny man!' said Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'Lassie,' said David, 'you and me and yer mither, we hae
naething left but be better bairns, and gang the fester to
the bonny man!—Whaur's what's left o' the laddie,
Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
'Lyin i' my hoose, as he ca'd it. Mine was i' the yerd, his
i' the air, he said. He was awa afore I wan to the kitchen.
He had jist killt himsel savin at Phemy, rinnin and fechtin
on, upo' the barest chance o' savin her life; and sae whan he
set off again to gang til her, no bidin for me, he was that
forfouchten 'at he hed a bluid-brak in 's breist, and was
jist able, and nae mair, to creep intil the weem oot o' the
snaw. He didna like the place, and yet had a kin' o' a notion
o' the bonny man bein there whiles. I'm thinkin Snootie maun
hae won til him, and run hame for help, for I faund him maist
deid upo' the door-step.'
</p>
<p>
David stooped and patted the dog.
</p>
<p>
'Na, that cudna be,' he said, 'or he wud never hae left him,
I'm thinkin.—Ye're a braw dog,' he went on to the
collie, 'and I'm thankfu' yer no lyin wi yer tongue
oot!—But guid comes to guid doggies!' he added,
fondling the creature, who had risen, and feebly set his paws
on his knee.
</p>
<p>
'And ye left him lyin there! Hoo hed ye the hert, Kirsty?'
sobbed the mother reproachfully.
</p>
<p>
'Mother, he was better aff nor ony ither ane o' 's! I winna
say, mother, 'at I lo'ed him sae weel as ye lo'ed him, for
maybe that wudna be natur—I dinna ken; and I daurna say
'at I lo'e him as the bonny man lo'es his brithers and
sisters a'; but I hae yet to learn hoo to lo'e him better.
Onygait, the bonny man wantit him, and he has him! And whan I
left him there, it was jist as gien I hield him oot i' my
airms and said, "Hae, Lord; tak him: he's yer ain!"'
</p>
<p>
'Ye're i' the richt, Kirsty, my bonny bairn!' said David.
'Yer mither and me, we was never but pleased wi' onything 'at
ever ye did.—Isna that true, Mar'on, my ain wuman?'
</p>
<p>
'True as his word!' answered the mother, and rose, and went
to her room.
</p>
<p>
David sought the yard, saw that all was right with the
beasts, and fed them. Thence he made his way to his workshop
over the cart-shed, where in five minutes he constructed,
with two poles run through two sacks, a very good stretcher,
carrying it to the kitchen, where Kirsty sat motionless,
looking into the fire.
</p>
<p>
'Kirsty,' he said, 'ye're 'maist as strong's a man, and I
wudna wullinly ony but oor ain three sels laid finger upo'
what's left o' Steenie: are ye up to takin the feet o' 'im to
fess him hame? Here's what'll mak it 'maist easy!'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty rose at once.
</p>
<p>
'A drappy o' milk, and I'm ready,' she answered. 'Wull ye no
tak a moofu' o' whusky yersel' father?'
</p>
<p>
'Na, na; I want naething,' replied David.
</p>
<p>
He had not yet learned what Kirsty went through the night
before, when he asked her to help him carry the body of her
brother home through the snow. Kirsty, however, knew no
reason why she should not be as able as her father.
</p>
<p>
He took the stretcher, and they set out, saying nothing to
the mother: she was still in her own room, and they hoped she
might fall asleep.
</p>
<p>
'It min's me o' the women gauin til the sepulchre!' said
David. 'Eh, but it maun hae been a sair time til
them!—a heap sairer nor this hert-brak here!' 'Ye see
they didna ken 'at he wasna deid,' assented Kirsty, 'and we
div ken 'at Steenie's no deid! He's maybe walkin aboot wi the
bonny man—or maybe jist ristin himsel a wee efter the
uprisin! Jist think o' his heid bein a' richt, and his een as
clear as the bonny man's ain! Eh, but Steenie maun be in grit
glee!'
</p>
<p>
Thus talking as they went, they reached and entered the
earth-house. They found no angels on guard, for Steenie had
not to get up again.
</p>
<p>
David wept the few tears of an old man over the son who had
been of no use in the world but the best use—to love
and be loved. Then, one at the head and the other at the
feet, they brought the body out, and laid it on the bier.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty went in again, and took Steenie's shoes, tying them in
her apron.
</p>
<p>
'His feet's no sic a weicht noo!' she said, as together they
carried their burden home.
</p>
<p>
The mother met them at the door.
</p>
<p>
'Eh!' she cried, 'I thoucht the Lord had taen ye baith, and
left me my lane 'cause I was sae hard-hertit til him! But noo
'at he 's broucht ye back—and Steenie, what there is o'
him, puir bairn!—I s' never say anither word, but jist
lat him du as he likes.—There, Lord, I hae dune! Pardon
thoo me wha canst.'
</p>
<p>
They carried the forsaken thing up the stair, and laid it on
Kirsty's bed, looking so like and so unlike Steenie asleep.
Marion was so exhausted, both mind and body, that her husband
insisted on her postponing all further ministration till the
morning; but at night Kirsty unclothed the untenanted, and
put on it a long white nightgown. When the mother saw it
lying thus, she smiled, and wept no more; she knew that the
bonny man had taken home his idiot.
</p>
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CHAPTER XXX
</h2>
<h3>
FROM SNOW TO FIRE
</h3>
<p>
My narrative must now go a little way back in time, and a
long way from the region of heather and snow, to India in the
year of the mutiny. The regiment in which Francis Gordon
served, his father's old regiment, had lain for months
besieged in a well known city by the native troops, and had
begun to know what privation meant, its suffering aggravated
by that of not a few women and children. With the other
portions of the Company's army there shut up, it had behaved
admirably. Danger and sickness, wounds and fatigue, hunger
and death, had brought out the best that was in the worst of
them: when their country knew how they had fought and
endured, she was proud of them. Had their enemies, however,
been naked Zulus, they would have taken the place within a
week.
</p>
<p>
Francis Gordon had done his part, and well.
</p>
<p>
It would be difficult to analyze the effect of tho punishment
Kirsty had given him, but its influence was upon him through
the whole of the terrible time—none the less beneficent
that his response to her stinging blows was indignant rage. I
dare hardly speculate what, had she not defended herself so
that he could not reach her, he might not have done in the
first instinctive motions of natural fury. It is possible
that only Kirsty's skill and courage saved him from what he
would never have surmounted the shame of—taking revenge
on a woman avenging a woman's wrong: from having deserved to
be struck by a woman, nothing but repentant shame could save
him.
</p>
<p>
When he came to himself, the first bitterness of the thing
over, he could not avoid the conviction, that the playmate of
his childhood, whom once he loved best in the world, and who
when a girl refused to marry him, had come to despise him,
and that righteously. The idea took a firm hold on him, and
became his most frequently recurrent thought. The wale of
Kirsty's whip served to recall it a good many nights; and
long after that had ceased either to smart or show, the
thought would return of itself in the night-watches, and was
certain to come when he had done anything his conscience
called wrong, or his judgment foolish.
</p>
<p>
The officers of his mess were mostly men of character with
ideas better at least than ordinary as to what became a man;
and their influence on one by no means of a low, though of an
unstable nature, was elevating. It is true that a change into
a regiment of jolly, good-mannered, unprincipled men would
within a month have brought him to do as they did; and in
another month would have quite silenced, for a time at least,
his poor little conscience; but he was at present rising.
Events had been in his favour; after reaching India, he had
no time to be idle; the mutiny broke out, he must bestir
himself, and, as I have said, the best in him was called to
the front.
</p>
<p>
He was specially capable of action with show in it. Let eyes
be bent upon him, and he would go far. The presence of his
kind to see and laud was an inspiration to him. Left to act
for himself, undirected and unseen, his courage would not
have proved of the highest order. Throughout the siege,
nevertheless, he was noted for a daring that often left the
bounds of prudence far behind. More than once he was
wounded—once seriously; but even then he was in four
days again at his post. His genial manners, friendly
carriage, and gay endurance rendered him a favourite with
all.
</p>
<p>
The sufferings of the besieged at length grew such, and there
was so little likelihood of the approaching army being able
for some time to relieve the place, that orders were issued
by the commander-in-chief to abandon it: every British person
must be out of the city before the night of the day
following. The general in charge thereupon resolved to take
advantage of the very bad watch kept by the enemy, and steal
away in silence the same night.
</p>
<p>
The order was given to the companies, to each man
individually, to prepare for the perilous attempt, but to
keep it absolutely secret save from those who were to
accompany them; and so cautious was the little English colony
as well as the garrison, that not a rumour of the intended
evacuation reached the besiegers, while, throughout the lines
and in the cantonments, it was thoroughly understood that, at
a certain hour of the night, without call of bugle or beat of
drum, everyone should be ready to march. Ten minutes after
that hour the garrison was in motion. With difficulty, yet
with sufficing silence, the gates were passed, and the
abandonment effected.
</p>
<p>
The first shot of the enemy's morning salutation, earlier
than usual, went tearing through a bungalow within whose
shattered walls lay Francis Gordon. In a dining-room, whose
balcony and window-frame had been smashed the day before, he
still slumbered wearily, when close past his head rushed the
eighteen-pounder with its infernal scream. He started up, to
find the blood flowing from a splinter wound on his temple
and cheek-bone. A second shot struck the foot of his long
chair. He sprang from it, and hurried into his coat and
waistcoat.
</p>
<p>
But how was all so still inside? Not one gun answered! Firing
at such an hour, he thought, the rebels must have got wind of
their intended evacuation. It was too late for that, but why
did not the garrison reply? Between the shots he seemed to
<i>hear</i> the universal silence. Heavens! were their guns
already spiked? If so, all was lost!—But it was
daylight! He had overslept himself! He ought to have been
with his men—how long ago he could not tell, for the
first shot had taken his watch. A third came and broke his
sword, carrying the hilt of it through the wall on which it
hung. Not a sound, not a murmur reached him from the
fortifications. Could the garrison be gone? Was the hour
past? Had no one missed him? Certainly no one had called him!
He rushed into the compound. Not a creature was there! He was
alone—one English officer amid a revolted army of
hating Indians!
</p>
<p>
But they did not yet know that their prey had slid from their
grasp, for they were going on with their usual gun-reveille,
instead of rushing on flank and rear of the retreating
column! He might yet elude them and overtake the garrison!
Half-dazed, he hurried for the gate by which they were to
leave the city. Not a live thing save two starved dogs did he
meet on his way. One of them ran from him; the other would
have followed him, but a ball struck the ground between them,
raising a cloud of dust, and he saw no more of the dog.
</p>
<p>
He found the gate open, and not one of the enemy in sight.
Tokens of the retreat were plentiful, making the track he had
to follow plain enough.
</p>
<p>
But now an enemy he had never encountered before—a
sense of loneliness and desertion and helplessness, rising to
utter desolation, all at once assailed him. He had never in
his life congratulated himself on being alone—not that
he loved his neighbour, but that he loved his neighbour's
company, making him less aware of an uneasy self. And now
first he realized that he had seen his sword-hilt go off with
a round shot, and had not caught up his revolver—that
he was, in fact, absolutely unarmed.
</p>
<p>
He quickened his pace to overtake his comrades. On and on he
trudged through nothing but rice-fields, the day growing
hotter and hotter, and his sense of desolation increasing.
Two or three natives passed him, who looked at him, he
thought, with sinister eyes. He had eaten no breakfast, and
was not likely to have any lunch. He grew sick and faint, but
there was no refuge: he must walk, walk until he fell and
could walk no more! With the heat and his exertion, his
hardly healed wound began to assert itself; and by and by he
felt so ill, that he turned off the road, and lay down. While
he lay, the eyes of his mind began to open to the fact that
the courage he had hitherto been so eager to show, could
hardly have been of the right sort, seeing it was
gone—evaporated clean.
</p>
<p>
He rose and resumed his walk, but at every smallest sound
started in fear of a lurking foe. With vainest regret he
remembered the long-bladed dagger-knife he had when a boy
carried always in his pocket. It was exhaustion and illness,
true, that destroyed his courage, but not the less was he a
man of fear, not the less he felt himself a coward. Again he
got into a damp brake and lay down, in a minute or two again
got up and went on, his fear growing until, mainly through
consciousness of itself, it ripened into abject terror.
Loneliness seemed to have taken the shape of a watching
omnipresent enemy, out of whose diffusion death might at any
moment break in some hideous form.
</p>
<p>
It was getting toward night when at length he saw dust ahead
of him, and soon after, he descried the straggling rear of
the retreating English. Before he reached it a portion had
halted for a little rest, and he was glad to lie down in a
rough cart. Long before the morning the cart was on its way
again, Gordon in it, raving with fever, and unable to tell
who he was. He was soon in friendly shelter, however, under
skilful treatment, and tenderly nursed.
</p>
<p>
When at length he seemed to have almost recovered his health,
it was clear that he had in great measure lost his reason.
</p>
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CHAPTER XXXI
</h2>
<h3>
KIRSTY SHOWS RESENTMENT
</h3>
<p>
Things were going from bad to worse at castle Weelset.
Whether Mrs. Gordon had disgusted her friends or got tired of
them, I do not know, but she remained at home, seldom had a
visitor, and never a guest. Rumour, busy in country as in
town, said she was more and more manifesting herself a slave
to strong drink. She was so tired of herself, that, to escape
her double, she made it increasingly a bore to her. She never
read a book, never had a newspaper sent her, never inquired
how things were going on about the place or in any part of
the world, did nothing for herself or others, only ate,
drank, slept, and raged at those around her.
</p>
<p>
One morning David Barclay, having occasion to see the factor,
went to the castle, and finding he was at home ill, thought
he would make an attempt to see Mrs. Gordon, and offer what
service he could render: she might not have forgotten that in
old days he had been a good deal about the estate. She
received him at once, but behaved in such extraordinary
fashion that he could not have any doubt she was at least
half-drunk: there was no sense, David said, either to be got
out of her, or put into her.
</p>
<p>
At Corbyknowe they heard nothing of the young laird. The
papers said a good deal about the state of things in India,
but Francis Gordon was not mentioned.
</p>
<p>
In the autumn of the year 1858, when the days were growing
short and the nights cold in the high region about the Horn,
the son of a neighbouring farmer, who had long desired to
know Kirsty better, called at Corbyknowe with his sister,
ostensibly on business with David. They were shown into the
parlour, and all were sitting together in the early gloamin,
the young woman bent on persuading Kirsty to pay them a visit
and see the improvements they had made in house and garden,
and the two farmers lamenting the affairs of the property on
which they were tenants.
</p>
<p>
'But I hear there's new grief like to come to the auld
lairdship,' said William Lammie, as he sat with an elbow on
the tea-table whence Kirsty was removing the crumbs.
</p>
<p>
'And what may the wisdom o' the country-side be puttin furth
the noo?' asked David in a tone of good-humoured irony.
'Weel, as I hear, Mistress Comrie's been to Embro' for a week
or twa, and's come hame wi' a gey queer story concernin the
young laird—awa oot there whaur there's been sic a
rumpus wi' the h'athen so'diers. There's word come, she says,
'at he's fa'en intil the verra glaur o' disgrace, funkin at
something they set him til: na, he wudna! And they hed him
afore a coort-mairtial as they ca' 't, and broucht it in, she
says, bare cooardice, and jist broke him. He'll hae ill
shawin the face o' 'm again i' 's ain calf-country!'
</p>
<p>
'It's a lee,' said Kirsty. 'I s' tak my aith o' that, whaever
took the tellin o' 't. There never was mark o' cooard upo'
Francie Gordon. He hed his fauts, but no ane o' them luikit
that gait. He was a kin' o' saft-like whiles, and unco easy
come ower, but, haein little fear mysel, I ken a cooard whan
I see him. Something may hae set up his pride—he has
eneuch o' that for twa deevils—but Francie was never
nae cooard!'
</p>
<p>
'Dinna lay the lee at my door, I beg o' ye, Miss Barclay. I
was but tellin ye what fowk was saying.'
</p>
<p>
'Fowk's aye sayin, and seldom sayin true. The warst o' 't is
'at honest fowk's aye ready to believe leears! They dinna lee
themsel's, and sae it's no easy to them to think anither wad.
Thereby the fause word has free coorse and is glorifeed!
They're no a' leears 'at spreads the lee; but for them 'at
maks the lee, the Lord silence them!'
</p>
<p>
'Hoots, Kirsty,' said her mother, 'it disna become ye to
curse naebody! It's no richt o' ye.'
</p>
<p>
'It's a guid Bible-curse, mother! It's but a w'y o' sayin
"His wull be dune!"'
</p>
<p>
'Ye needna be sae fell aboot the laird, Miss Barclay! He was
nae partic'lar frien o' yours gien a' tales be true!'
remarked her admirer.
</p>
<p>
'I'm tellin ye tales is maistly lees. I hae kenned the laird
sin' he was a wee laddie—and afore that; and I'm no
gaein to hear him leed upo' and haud my tongue! A lee's a lee
whether the leear be a leear or no!—I hae dune.'
</p>
<p>
She did not speak another word to him save to bid him
good-night.
</p>
<p>
In the beginning of the year, a rumour went about the country
that the laird had been seen at the castle, but it died away.
</p>
<p>
David pondered, but asked no questions, and Mrs. Bremner
volunteered no information.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty of course heard the rumour, but she never took much
interest in the goings on at the castle. Mrs. Gordon's doings
were not such as the angels desire to look into; and Kirsty,
not distantly related to them, and inheriting a good many of
their peculiarities, minded her own business.
</p>
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CHAPTER XXXII
</h2>
<h3>
IN THE WORKSHOP
</h3>
<p>
One night in the month of January, when the snow was falling
thick, but the air, because of the cloud-blankets overhead,
was not piercing, Kirsty went out to the workshop to tell her
father that supper was ready. David was a
Jack-of-all-trades—therein resembling a sailor rather
than a soldier, and by the light of a single dip was busy
with some bit of carpenter's work.
</p>
<p>
He did not raise his head when she entered, and heard her as
if he did not hear. She wondered a little and waited. After a
few moments of silence, he said quietly, without looking
up—
</p>
<p>
'Are ye awaur o' onything by ord'nar, Kirsty?
</p>
<p>
'Na, naething, father,' answered Kirsty, wondering still.
</p>
<p>
'It's been beirin 'tsel in upo' me at my bench here, 'at
Steenie's aboot the place the nicht. I canna help imaiginin
he's been upo' this verra flure ower and ower again sin' I
cam oot, as gien he wad fain say something, but cudna, and
gaed awa again.'
</p>
<p>
'Think ye he's here at this moment, father?'
</p>
<p>
'Na, he's no.'
</p>
<p>
'He used to think whiles the bonny man was aboot!' said
Kirsty reflectively.
</p>
<p>
'My mother was a hielan wuman, and hed the second sicht;
there was no mainner o' doobt aboot it!' remarked David, also
thoughtfully.
</p>
<p>
'And what wad ye draw frae that, father?' asked Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'Ow, naething verra important, maybe, but just 'at possibly
it micht be i' the faimily!'
</p>
<p>
'I wud like to ken yer verra thoucht, father!'
</p>
<p>
'Weel, it's jist this: I'm thinkin 'at some may be nearer the
deid nor ithers.'
</p>
<p>
'And, maybe,' supplemented Kirsty, 'some o' the deid may win
nearer the livin nor ithers!'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, that's it! that's the haill o' 't!' answered David.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty turned her face toward the farthest corner. The place
was rather large, and everywhere dark except within the
narrow circle of the candle-light. In a quiet voice, with a
little quaver in it, she said aloud:
</p>
<p>
'Gien ye be here, Steenie, and hae the pooer, lat's ken gien
there be onything lyin til oor han' 'at ye wuss dune. I'm
sure, gien there be, it's for oor sakes and no for yer ain,
glaid as we wud a' be to du onything for ye: the bonny man
lats ye want for naething; we're sure o' that!'
</p>
<p>
'Ay are we, Steenie,' assented his father.
</p>
<p>
No voice came from the darkness. They stood silent for a
while. Then David said:
</p>
<p>
'Gang in, lassie; yer mother 'll be won'erin what's come o'
ye. I'll be in in a meenit. I hae jist the last stroke to gie
this bit jobby.'
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
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CHAPTER XXXIII
</h2>
<h3>
A RACE WITH DEATH
</h3>
<p>
Without a word, but with disappointment in her heart that
Steenie had not answered them, Kirsty obeyed. But she went
round through the rickyard that she might have a moment's
thought with herself. Not a hand was laid upon her out of the
darkness, no faintest sound came to her ears through the
silently falling snow. But as she took her way between two
ricks, where was just room for her to pass, she
felt—felt, however, without the slightest sense of
<i>material</i> opposition, that she could not go through.
Endeavouring afterward to describe what rather she was aware
of than felt, she said the nearest she could come to it, but
it was not right, was to say that she seemed to encounter the
ghost of solidity. Certainly nothing seemed to touch her. She
made no attempt to overcome the resistance, and the moment
she turned, knew herself free to move in any other direction.
But as the house was still her goal, she tried another space
between two of the ricks. There again she found she could not
pass. Making a third essay in yet another interval, she was
once more stopped in like fashion. With that came the
conviction that she was wanted elsewhere, and with it the
thought of the Horn. She turned her face from the house and
made straight for the hill, only that she took, as she had
generally done with Steenie, the easier and rather longer
way.
</p>
<p>
The notion of the presence of Steenie, which had been with
her all the time, naturally suggested his house as the spot
where she was wanted, and thither she sped. But the moment
she reached, almost before she entered it, she felt as if it
were utterly empty—as if it had not in it even air
enough to give her breath.
</p>
<p>
When a place seems to repel us, when we feel as if we could
not live there, what if the cause be that there are no souls
in it making it comfortable to the spiritual sense? That the
<i>knowledge</i> of such presence would make most people
uneasy, is no argument against the fancy: truth itself, its
intrinsic, essential, necessary trueness unrecognised, must
be repellent.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty did not remain a moment in Steenie's house, but set
her face to go home by the shorter and rougher path leading
over the earth-house and across the little burn.
</p>
<p>
The night continued dark, with an occasional thinning of the
obscurity when some high current blew the clouds aside from a
little nest of stars. Just as Kirsty reached the descent to
the burn, the snow ceased, the clouds parted, and a faint
worn moon appeared. She looked just like a little old lady
too thin and too tired to go on living more than a night
longer. But her waning life was yet potent over Kirsty, and
her strange, wasted beauty, dying to rise again, made her
glad as she went down the hill through the snow-crowned
heather. The oppression which came on her in Steenie's house
was gone entirely, and in the face of the pale ancient moon
her heart grew so light that she broke into a silly song
which, while they were yet children, she made for Steenie,
who was never tired of listening to it:
</p>
<pre>
Willy, wally, woo!
Hame comes the coo—
Hummle, bummle, moo!—
Widin ower the Bogie,
Hame to fill the cogie!
Bonny hummle coo,
Wi' her baggy fu'
O' butter and o' milk,
And cream as saft as silk,
A' gethered frae the gerse
Intil her tassly purse,
To be oors, no hers,
Gudewillie, hummle coo!
Willy, wally, woo!
Moo, Hummlie, moo!
</pre>
<p>
Singing this childish rime, dear to the slow-waking soul of
Steenie, she had come almost to the bottom of the hill, was
just stepping over the top of tho weem, when something like a
groan startled her. She stopped and sent a keen-searching
glance around. It came again, muffled and dull. It must be
from the earth-house! Somebody was there! It could not be
Steenie, for why should Steenie groan? But he might be
calling her, and the weem changing the character of the
sound! Anyhow she must be wanted! She dived in.
</p>
<p>
She could scarcely light the candle, for the trembling of her
hand and the beating of her heart. Slowly the flame grew, and
the glimmer began to spread. She stood speechless, and
stared. Out of the darkness at her feet grew the form, as it
seemed, of Steenie, lying on his face, just as when she found
him there year before. She dropped on her knees beside him.
</p>
<p>
He was alive at least, for he moved! 'Of course,' thought
Kirsty, 'he's alive: he never was anything else!' His face
was turned from her, and his arm was under it. The arm next
her lay out on the stones, and she took the ice-cold hand in
hers: it was not Steenie's! She took the candle, and leaned
across to see the face. God in heaven! there was the mark of
her whip: it was Francie Gordon! She tried to rouse him. She
could not; he was cold as ice, and seemed all but dead. But
for the groan she had heard she would have been sure he was
dead. She blew out the light, and, swift as her hands could
move, took garment after garment off, and laid it, warm from
her live heart, over and under him—all save one which
she thought too thin to do him any good. Last of all, she
drew her stockings over his hands and arms, and, leaving her
shoes where Steenie's had lain, darted out of the cave. At
the mouth of it she rose erect like one escaped from the
tomb, and sped in dim-gleaming whiteness over the snow,
scarce to have been seen against it. The moon was but a
shred—a withered autumn leaf low fallen toward the dim
plain of the west. As she ran she would have seemed to one of
Steenie's angels, out that night on the hill, a newly
disembodied ghost fleeing home. Swift and shadowless as the
thought of her own brave heart, she ran. Her sense of power
and speed was glorious. She felt—not
thought—herself a human goddess, the daughter of the
Eternal. Up height and down hollow she flew, running her race
with death, not an open eye, save the eyes of her father and
mother, within miles of her in a world of sleep and snow and
night. Nor did she slacken her pace as she drew near the
house, she only ran more softly. At last she threw the door
to the wall, and shot up the steep stair to her room, calling
her mother as she went.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
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CHAPTER XXXIV
</h2>
<h3>
BACK FROM THE GRAVE
</h3>
<p>
When David came in to supper, he said nothing, expecting
Kirsty every moment to appear. Marion was the first to ask
what had become of her. David answered she had left him in
the workshop.
</p>
<p>
'Bless the bairn! what can she be aboot this time o' nicht?'
said her mother.
</p>
<p>
'I kenna,' returned David.
</p>
<p>
When they had sat eating their supper for ten minutes, vainly
expecting her, David went out to look for her. Returning
unsuccessful, he found that Marion had sought her all over
the house with like result. Then they became uneasy.
</p>
<p>
Before going to look for her, however, David had begun to
suspect her absence in one way or another connected with the
subject of their conversation in the workshop, to which he
had not for the moment meant to allude. When now he told his
wife what had passed, he was a little surprised to find that
immediately she grew calm.
</p>
<p>
'Ow, than, she'll be wi' Steenie!' she said.
</p>
<p>
Nor did her patience fail, but revived that of her husband.
They could not, however, go to bed, but sat by the fire,
saying a word or two now and then. The slow minutes passed,
and neither of them moved save David once to put on peats.
</p>
<p>
The house-door flew open suddenly, and they heard Kirsty cry,
'Mother, mother!' but when they hastened to the door, no one
was there. They heard the door of her room close, however,
and Marion went up the stair. By the time she reached it,
Kirsty was in a thick petticoat and buttoned-up cloth-jacket,
had a pair of shoes on her bare feet, and was glowing a
'celestial rosy-red.' David stood where he was, and in half a
minute Kirsty came in three leaps down the stair to him, to
say that Francie was lying in the weem. In less than a minute
the old soldier was out with the stable-lantern, harnessing
one of the horses, the oldest in the stable, good at
standing, and not a bad walker. He called for no help, yet
was round at the door so speedily as to astonish even Kirsty,
who stood with her mother in the entrance by a pile of
bedding. They put a mattress in the bottom of the cart, and
plenty of blankets. Kirsty got in, lay down and covered
herself up, to make the rough ambulance warm, and David drove
off. They soon reached the <i>weem</i> and entered it.
</p>
<p>
The moment Kirsty had lighted the candle,
</p>
<p>
'Lassie,' cried David, 'there's been a wuman here!'
</p>
<p>
'It luiks like it,' answered Kirsty: 'I was here mysel,
father!'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, ay! of coorse, but here's claes—woman's claes!
Whaur cam they frae? Wha's claes can they be?'
</p>
<p>
'Wha's but mine?' returned Kirsty, as she stooped to remove
from his face the garment that covered his head.
</p>
<p>
'The Lord preserve 's!—to the verra stockins upo' the
han's o' 'm!'
</p>
<p>
'I had no dreid, father, o' the Lord seem me as he made me!'
</p>
<p>
'Lassie,' cried David, with heartfelt admiration, 'ye sud hae
been dother til a field-mershall.'
</p>
<p>
'I wudna be dother til a king!' returned Kirsty. 'Gien I bed
to be born again, I wudna be born 'cep it was to Dauvid
Barclay.'
</p>
<p>
'My ain lassie!' murmured her father. 'But, eh,' he added,
interrupting his own thoughts, 'we maun hand oor tongues till
we've dune the thing we're sent to du!'
</p>
<p>
They bent at once to their task.
</p>
<p>
David was a strong man still, and Kirsty was as good at a
lift as most men. They had no difficulty in raising Gordon
between them, David taking his head and Kirsty his feet, but
it was not without difficulty they got him through the
passage. In the cart they covered him so that, had he been a
new-born baby, he could have taken no harm except it were by
suffocation, and then, Kirsty sitting with his head in her
lap, they drove home as fast as the old horse could step out.
</p>
<p>
In the meantime Marion had got her best room ready, and warm.
When they reached it, Francie was certainly still alive, and
they made haste to lay him in the hot feather-bed. In about
an hour they thought he swallowed a little milk. Neither
Kirsty nor her parents went to bed that night, and by one or
other of them the patient was constantly attended.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty took the first watch, and was satisfied that his
breathing grew more regular, and by and by stronger. After a
while it became like that of one in a troubled sleep. He
moved his head a little, and murmured like one dreaming
painfully. She called her father, and told him he was saying
words she could not understand. He took her place and sat
near him, when presently his soldier-ears, still sharp, heard
indications of a hot siege. Once he started up on his elbow,
and put his hand to the side of his head. For a moment he
looked wildly awake, then sank back and went to sleep again.
</p>
<p>
As Marion was by him in the morning, all at once he spoke
again, and more plainly.
</p>
<p>
'Go away, mother!' he said. 'I am not mad. I am only troubled
in my mind. I will tell my father you killed me.'
</p>
<p>
Marion tried to rouse him, telling him his mother should not
come near him. He did not seem to understand, but apparently
her words soothed him, for he went to sleep once more.
</p>
<p>
He was gaunt and ghastly to look at. The scar on his face,
which Kirsty had taken for the mark of her whip, but which
was left by the splinter that woke him, remained red and
disfiguring. But the worst of his look was in his eyes, whose
glances wandered about uneasy and searching. It was clear all
was not right with his brain. I doubt if any other of his
tenants would have recognized him.
</p>
<p>
For a good many days he was like one awake yet dreaming,
always dreading something, invariably starting when the door
opened, and when quietest would lie gazing at the one by his
bedside as if puzzled. He took in general what food they
brought him, but at times refused it quite. They never left
him alone for more than a moment.
</p>
<p>
So far were they from giving him up to his mother, that the
mere idea of letting her know he was with them never entered
the mind of one of them. To the doctor, whom at once they had
called in, there was no need to explain the right by which
they constituted themselves his guardians: anyone would have
judged it better for him to be with them than with her. David
said to himself that when Francie wanted to leave them he
should go; but he had sought refuge with them, and he should
have it: nothing should make him give him up except legal
compulsion.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
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CHAPTER XXXV
</h2>
<h3>
FRANCIS COMES TO HIMSELF
</h3>
<p>
One morning, Kirsty sitting beside him, Francis started to
his elbow as if to get up, then seeing her, lay down again
with his eyes fixed upon her. She glanced at him now and
then, but would not seem to notice him much. He gazed for two
or three minutes, and then said, in a low, doubtful, almost
timid, voice,
</p>
<p>
'Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
'Ay; what is't, Francie?' returned Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'Is't yersel, Kirsty?' he said.
</p>
<p>
'Ay, wha ither, Francie!'
</p>
<p>
'Are ye angry at me, Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
'No a grain. What gars ye speir sic a queston?'
</p>
<p>
'Eh, but ye gae me sic a are wi' yer whup—jist here
upo' the haffit! Luik.'
</p>
<p>
He turned the side of his head toward her, and stroked the
place, like a small, self-pitying child. Kirsty went to him,
and kissed it like a mother. She had plainly perceived that
such a scar could not be from her blow, but it added
grievously to her pain at the remembrance of it that the poor
head which she had struck, had in the very same place been
torn by a splinter—for so the doctor said. If her whip
left any mark, the splinter had obliterated it.
</p>
<p>
'And syne,' he resumed, 'ye ca'd me a cooard!'
</p>
<p>
'Did I du that, ill wuman 'at I was!' she returned, with
tenderest maternal soothing.
</p>
<p>
He laid his arms round her neck, drew her feebly toward him,
hid his head on her bosom, and wept.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty put her arm round him, held him closer, and stroked
his head with her other hand, murmuring words of much meaning
though little sense. He drew back his head, looked at her
beseechingly, and said,
</p>
<p>
'<i>Div</i> ye think me a cooard, Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
'No wi' men,' answered the truthful girl, who would not lie
even in ministration to a mind diseased.
</p>
<p>
'Maybe ye think I oucht to hae strucken ye back whan ye
strack me? I <i>wull</i> be a cooard than, lat ye say what ye
like. I never did, and I never will hit a lassie, lat her
kill me!'
</p>
<p>
'It wasna that, Francie. Gien I ca'd ye a cooard, it was 'at
ye behaved sae ill to Phemy.'
</p>
<p>
'Eh, the bonny little Phemy! I had 'maist forgotten her! Hoo
is she, Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
'She's weel—and verra weel,' answered Kirsty; 'she's
deid.'
</p>
<p>
'Deid!' echoed Gordon, with a cry, again raising himself on
his elbow. 'Surely it wasna—it wasna 'at the puir wee
thing cudna forget me! The thing's no possible! I wasna worth
it!'
</p>
<p>
'Na, na; it wasna ae grain that! Her deein had naething to du
wi that— nor wi you in ony w'y. I dinna believe she was
a hair waur for ony nonsense ye said til her—shame o'
ye as it was! She dee'd upo' the Horn, ae awfu' tempest o' a
nicht. She cudna hae suffert lang, puir thing! She hadna the
stren'th to suffer muckle. Sae awa she gaed!—and
Steenie efter her!' added Kirsty in a lower tone, but Francis
did not seem to hear, and said no more for awhile.
</p>
<p>
'But I maun tell ye the trowth, Kirsty,' he resumed: 'forby
yersel, there's them 'at says I'm a cooard!'
</p>
<p>
'I h'ard ae man say't, only ane, and him only ance.'
</p>
<p>
'And ye said til 'im, "Ay, I hae lang kenned that!"
</p>
<p>
'I tellt him whaever said it was a leear!'
</p>
<p>
'But ye believt it yersel, Kirsty!'
</p>
<p>
'Wad ye hae me leear and hypocrite forby, to ca' fowk ill
names for sayin what I believt mysel!'
</p>
<p>
'But I <i>am</i> a cooard, Kirsty!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye are <i>not</i>, Francie. I wunna believe't though yersel
say 't! It's naething but a dist o' styte and nonsense 'at's
won in throu the cracks ye got i' yer heid, fechtin. Ye was
aye a daft kin' o' a cratur, Francie! Gien onybody ever said
it, mak ye speed and get yer health again, and syne ye can
shaw him plain 'at he's a leear.'
</p>
<p>
'But I tell ye, Kirsty, I ran awa!'
</p>
<p>
'I fancy ye wud hae been naething but a muckle idiot gien ye
hadna!—Ye didna ley onybody in trouble!—did ye
noo?'
</p>
<p>
'No a sowl 'at I ken o'. Na, I didna do that. The fac
was—but nae blame to them—they a' gaed awa and
left me my lane, sleepin. I maun hae been terrible tired.'
</p>
<p>
'I telled ye sae!' cried Kirsty. 'Jist gang ower the story to
me, Francie, and I s' tell ye whether ye're a cooard or no. I
dinna believe a stime o' 't! Ye never was, and never was
likly to be a cooard. I s' be at the boddom o' 't wi' whaever
daur threpe me sic a lee!'
</p>
<p>
But Francis showed such signs of excitement as well as
exhaustion, that Kirsty saw she must not let him talk longer.
</p>
<p>
'Or I'll tell ye what!' she added: '—ye'll tell father
and mother and me the haill tale, this verra nicht, or maybe
the morn's mornin. Ye maun hae an egg noo, and a drappy o'
milk—creamy milk, Francie! Ye aye likit that!'
</p>
<p>
She went and prepared the little meal, and after taking it he
went to sleep.
</p>
<p>
In the evening, with the help of their questioning, he told
them everything he could recall from the moment he woke to
find the place abandoned, not omitting his terrors on the
way, until he overtook the rear of the garrison.
</p>
<p>
'I dinna won'er ye was fleyt, Francie,' said Kirsty. 'I wud
hae been fleyt mysel, wantin my swoord, and kennin nae God to
trust til! Ye maun learn to ken <i>him</i>, Francie, and syne
ye'll be feart at naething!'
</p>
<p>
After that, his memory was only of utterly confused shapes,
many of which must have been fancies. The only things he
could report were the conviction pervading them all that he
had disgraced himself, and the consciousness that everyone
treated him as a deserter, and gave him the cold shoulder.
</p>
<p>
His next recollection was of coming home to, or rather
finding himself with his mother, who, the moment she saw him,
flew into a rage, struck him in the face, and called him
coward. She must have taken him, he thought, to some place
where there were people about him who would not let him
alone, but he could remember nothing more until he found
himself creeping into a hole which he seemed to know,
thinking he was a fox with the hounds after him.
</p>
<p>
'What's my claes like, Kirsty?' he asked at this point.
</p>
<p>
'They war no that gran',' answered Kirsty, her eyes smarting
with the coming tears; 'but ye'll ne'er see a stick
(<i>stitch</i>) o' them again: I pat them awa.'
</p>
<p>
'What w'y 'ill I win up, wantin' them?' he rejoined, with a
tremor of anxiety in his voice.
</p>
<p>
'We'll see aboot that, time eneuch,' answered Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'But my mither may be efter me! I wud fain be up! There's no
sayin what she michtna be up til! She canna bide me!'
</p>
<p>
'Dreid ye naething, Francie. Ye're no a match for my leddy,
but I s' be atween ye and her. She's no sae fearsome as she
thinks! Onygait, she disna fleg <i>me</i>.'
</p>
<p>
'I left some guid eneuch claes there whan I gaed awa, and I
daursay they're i' my room yet—gien only I kenned hoo
to win at them!'
</p>
<p>
'I s' gang and get them til ye—the verra day ye're fit
to rise. But ye maunna speyk a word mair the nicht.'
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
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CHAPTER XXXVI
</h2>
<h3>
KIRSTY BESTIRS HERSELF
</h3>
<p>
They held a long consultation that night as to what they must
do. Plainly the first and most important thing was to rid
Francis of the delusion that he had disgraced himself in the
eyes of his fellow-officers. This would at once wake him as
from a bad dream to the reality of his condition: convinced
of the unreality of the idea that possessed him, he would at
once, they believed, resume his place in the march of his
generation through life. To find means, then, for the
attainment of this end, they set their wits to work; and it
was almost at once clear to David that the readiest way would
be to enter into communication with any they could reach of
the officers under whom he had served. His regiment having by
this time, however, with the rest of the Company's soldiers,
passed into the service of the Queen, a change doubtless
involving many other changes concerning which Francis, even
were he fit to be questioned, could give no information,
David resolved to apply to sir Haco Macintosh, who had
succeeded Archibald Gordon in the command, for assistance in
finding those who could bear the testimony he desired to
possess.
</p>
<p>
'Divna ye think, father,' said Kirsty, 'it wud be the surest
and speediest w'y for me to gang mysel to sir Haco?'
</p>
<p>
''Deed it wud be that, Kirsty!' answered David. 'There's
naething like the bodily presence o' the leevin sowl to gar
things gang!'
</p>
<p>
To this Marion, although at first not a little appalled at
the thought of Kirsty alone in such a huge city as Edinburgh,
could not help assenting, and the next morning Kirsty
started, bearing a letter from her father to his old officer,
in which he begged for her the favour of a few minutes'
conference on business concerning her father and the son of
the late colonel Gordon.
</p>
<p>
Sir Haco had retired from the service some years before the
mutiny, and was living in one of the serenely gloomy squares
of the Scots capital. Kirsty left her letter at the door, and
calling the next day, was shown to the library, where lady
Macintosh as well as sir Haco awaited, with curious and
kindly interest, the daughter of the man they had known so
well, and respected so much.
</p>
<p>
When Kirsty entered the room, dressed very simply in a gown
of dark cloth and a plain straw bonnet, the impression she at
once made was more than favourable, and they received her
with a kindness and courtesy that made her feel herself
welcome. They were indeed of her own kind.
</p>
<p>
Sir Haco was one of the few men who, regarding constantly the
reality, not the show of things, keep throughout their life,
however long, great part of their youth, and all their
childhood. Deeper far in his heart than any of the honours he
had received, all unsought but none undeserved, lay the
memory of a happy and reverential boyhood. Sprung from a
peasant stock, his father was a man of 'high erected thought
seated in a heart of courtesy.'
</p>
<p>
He was well matched with his wife, who, though born to a far
higher social position in which simplicity is rarer, was,
like him, true and humble and strong. They had one daughter,
who grew up only to die: the moment they saw Kirsty, their
hearts went out to her.
</p>
<p>
For there was in Kirsty that unassumed, unconscious dignity,
that simple propriety, that naturalness of a carriage neither
trammeled nor warped by thought of self, which at once awakes
confidence and regard; while her sweet, unaffected 'book
English,' in which appeared no attempt at speaking like a
fine lady, no disastrous endeavour to avoid her country's
utterance, revealed at once her genuine cultivation. Sir Haco
said afterward that when she spoke Scotch it was good and
thorough, and when she spoke English it was Wordsworthian.
</p>
<p>
Listening to her first words, and reminded of the solemn
sententious way in which sergeant Barclay used to express
himself, his face rose clear in his mind's eye, he saw it as
it were reflected in his daughter's, and broke out
with—
</p>
<p>
'Eh, lassie, but ye're like yer father!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye min' upon him, sir?' rejoined Kirsty, with her perfect
smile.
</p>
<p>
'Min' upon him! Naebody worth <i>his</i> min'in upo' could
ever forget him! Sit ye doon, and tell's a' aboot him!'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty did as she was told. She began at the beginning, and
explained first, what doubtless sir Haco knew at least
something of before, the relation between her father and
colonel Gordon, whence his family as well as himself had
always felt it their business to look after the young laird.
Then she told how, after a long interval, during which they
could do nothing, a sad opportunity had at length been given
them of at least attempting to serve him; and it was for aid
in this attempt that she now sought sir Haco, who could
direct her toward the procuring of certain information.
</p>
<p>
'And what sort of information do you think I can give or get
for you, Miss Barclay?' asked sir Haco.
</p>
<p>
'I'll explain the thing to ye, sir, in as feow words as I
can,' answered Kirsty, dropping her English. 'The young laird
has taen 't intil his heid that he didna carry himsel like a
man i' the siege, and it's grown to be in him what they ca' a
fixt idea. He was left, ye see, sir, a' himlane i' the
beleaguert toon, and I fancy the suddent waukin and the
discovery that he was there his lee lane, jist pat him beside
himsel.'
</p>
<p>
Here she told the whole story, as they had gathered it from
Francis, mingling it with some elucidatory suggestions of her
own, and having ended her narration, went on thus:—
</p>
<p>
'Ye see, sir, and my leddy, he was little better nor a
laddie, and fowk 'at sair needs company, like Francie, misses
company ower sair. Men's no able—<i>some</i> men, my
leddy—to tak coonsel wi' their ain herts, as women
whiles learns to du. And sae, whan he cam oot o' the fricht,
he was ower sair upon himsel for bein i' the fricht. For it
seems to me there's no shame in bein frichtit, sae lang as ye
dinna serve and obey the fricht, but trust in him 'at sees,
and du what ye hae to du. Naebody 'at kenned Francie as I
did, cud ever believe he faun' mair fear in 's hert nor was
lawfu' and rizzonable—sae lang, that is, as he was in
his richt min': ayont that nane but his maker can jeedge him.
I dinna mean Francie was a pettern, but, sir, he was no
cooard—and that I ken, for I 'm no cooard mysel, please
God to keep me as he 's made me. But the laddie—the
man, I suld say—he's no to be persuaudit oot o' the
fancy o' his ain cooardice; and I dinna believe he'll ever
win oot o' 't wantin the testimony o' his fellow-officers,
wha o' them may be left to grant the same. And I canna but
think, gien ye'll excuse me, sir, that, for his father's
sake, it wud be a gracious ac' to tak him intil the queen's
service, and lat him baud on fechtin for 's country,
whaurever it may please her mejesty to want him.—Oot
whaur he was afore micht be best for him—I dinna ken.
It wad be to put his country's seal upo' their word.'
</p>
<p>
'Surely, Miss Barclay, you wouldn't set the poor lad in the
forefront of danger again!' said lady Macintosh.
</p>
<p>
'I wud that, my lady! I canna but think the airmy, savin for
this misadventur—gien there be ony sic thing as
misadventur—hed a fair chance o' makin a man o'
Francie; and whiles I canna help doobtin gien onything less
'ill ever restore him til himsel but restorin him til 's
former position. It wud ony gait gie him the best chance o'
shawin til himsel 'at there wasna a hair o' the cooard upon
him.'
</p>
<p>
'But,' said sir Haco, 'would her majesty be justified in
taking the risk involved? Would it not be to peril many for a
doubtful good to one?'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty was silent for a moment, with downcast eyes.
</p>
<p>
I'm answert, sir—as to that p'int,' she said, looking
up.
</p>
<p>
'For my part,' said lady Macintosh, 'I can't help thinking
that the love of a good woman like yourself must do more for
the poor fellow than the approval of all the soldiers in the
world.—Pardon me, Haco.'
</p>
<p>
'Indeed, my lady, you're perfectly right!' returned her
husband with a smile.
</p>
<p>
But lady Macintosh hardly heard him, so startled, almost so
frightened was she at the indignation instantly on Kirsty's
countenance.
</p>
<p>
'Putna things intil ony held, my leddy, 'at the hert wud
never put there. It wad be an ill fulfillin o' my father's
duty til his auld colonel, no to say his auld frien, to
coontenance sic a notion!'
</p>
<p>
'I beg your pardon, Miss Barclay; I was wrong to venture the
remark. But may I say in excuse, that it is not unnatural to
imagine a young woman, doing so much for a young man, just a
little bit in love with him?'
</p>
<p>
'I wud fain hae yer leddyship un'erstaun,' returned Kirsty,
'that my father, my mother, and mysel, we're jist are and nae
mair. No are o' 's hes a wuss that disna belang to a' three.
The langest I can min', it's been my ae ambition to help my
father and mother to du what they wantit. I never desirit
merriage, my leddy, and gien I did, it wudna be wi' sic as
Francie Gordon, weel as I lo'e him, for we war bairnies, and
laddie and lassie thegither: I wudna hae a man it was for me
to fin' faut wi'! 'Deed, mem, what fowk ca's love, hes
neither airt nor pairt i' this metter!'
</p>
<p>
Not to believe the honest glow in Kirsty's face, and the
clear confident assertion of her eyes, would have shown a
poor creature in whom the faculty of belief was undeveloped.
</p>
<p>
Sir Haco and lady Macintosh insisted on Kirsty's taking up
her abode with them while she was in Edinburgh; and Kirsty,
partly in the hope of expediting the object of her mission
thereby, and partly because her heart was drawn to her new
friends, gladly consented. Before a week was over, like
understanding like, her hostess felt as if she were a
daughter until now long waiting for her somewhere in the
infinite.
</p>
<p>
The self-same morning, sir Haco sat down to his study-table,
and began writing to every officer alive who had served with
Francis Gordon, requesting to know his feeling, and that of
the regiment about him. Within three days he received the
first of the answers, which kept dropping in for the next six
months. They all described Gordon as rather a scatterbrain,
as not the less a favourite with officers and men, and as
always showing the courage of a man, or rather of a boy,
seeing he not unfrequently acted with a reprehensible
recklessness that smacked a little of display.
</p>
<p>
'That's Francie himsel!' cried Kirsty, with the tears in her
eyes, when her host read, to this effect, the first result of
his inquiry.
</p>
<p>
Within a fortnight he received also, from one high in office,
the assurance that, if Mr. Gordon, on his recovery, wished to
enter her majesty's service, he should have his commission.
</p>
<p>
While her husband was thus kindly occupied, lady Macintosh
was showing Kirsty every loving attention she could think of,
and, in taking her about Edinburgh and its neighbourhood,
found that the country girl knew far more of the history of
Scotland than she did herself.
</p>
<p>
She would gladly have made her acquainted with some of her
friends, but Kirsty shrank from the proposal: she could not
forget how her hostess had herself misinterpreted the
interest she took in Francie Gordon. As soon as she felt that
she could do so without seeming ungrateful, she bade her new
friends farewell, and hastened home, carrying with her copies
of the answers which sir Haco had up to that time received.
</p>
<p>
When she arrived it was with such a glad heart that, at sight
of Francis in her father's Sunday clothes, she laughed so
merrily that her mother said 'The lassie maun be fey!'
Haggard as he looked, the old twinkle awoke in his eye
responsive to her joyous amusement; and David, coming in the
next moment from putting up the gray mare with which he had
met the coach to bring Kirsty home, saw them all three
laughing in such an abandonment of mirth as, though unaware
of the immediate motive, he could not help joining.
</p>
<p>
The same evening Kirsty went to the castle, and Mrs. Bremner
needed no persuasion to find the suit which the young laird
had left in his room, and give it to her to carry to its
owner; so that, when he woke the next morning, Francis saw
the gray garments lying by his bed-side in place of David's
black, and felt the better for the sight.
</p>
<p>
The letters Kirsty had brought, working along, with returning
health, and the surrounding love and sympathy most potent of
all, speedily dispelled his yet lingering delusion. It had
occasionally returned in force while Kirsty was away, but now
it left him altogether.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XXXVII
</h2>
<h3>
A GREAT GULF
</h3>
<p>
It was now midsummer, and Francis Gordon was well, though
thin and looking rather delicate. Kirsty and he had walked
together to the top of the Horn, and there sat, in the heart
of old memories. The sun was clouded above; the boggy basin
lay dark below, with its rim of heathery hills not yet in
bloom, and its bottom of peaty marsh, green and black, with
here and there a shining spot; the growing crops of the
far-off farms on the other side but little affected the
general impression the view gave of a waste world; yet the
wide expanse of heaven and earth lifted the heart of Kirsty
with an indescribable sense of presence, purpose, promise.
For was it not the country on which, fresh from God, she
first opened the eyes of this life, the visible region in
which all her efforts had gone forth, in which all the food
of her growth had been gathered, in which all her joys had
come to her, in which all her loves had had their scope, the
place whence by and by she would go away to find her brother
with the bonny man!
</p>
<p>
Francis saw without heeding. His heart was not uplifted. His
earthly future, a future of his own imagining, drew him.
</p>
<p>
'This winna du ony langer, Kirsty!' he said at length. 'The
accusin angel 'll be upo' me again or I ken! I maunna be idle
'cause I'm happy ance mair—thanks to you, Kirsty!
Little did I think ever to raise my heid again! But noo I
maun be at my wark! I'm fit eneuch!'
</p>
<p>
'I'm richt glaid to hear't!' answered Kirsty. 'I was jist
thinkin lang for a word o' the sort frae ye, Francie. I didna
want to be the first to speyk o' 't.'
</p>
<p>
'And I was just thinkin lang to hear ye speyk o' 't!'
returned Francis. 'I wantit to du't as the thing ye wad hae
o' me!'
</p>
<p>
'Even than, Francie, ye wudna, it seems, hae been doin 't to
please me, and that pleases me weel! I wud be nane pleast to
think ye duin 't for me! It wud gie me a sair hert, Francie!'
</p>
<p>
'What for that, Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
''Cause it wud shaw ye no a man yet! A man's a man 'at dis
what's richt, what's pleasin to the verra hert o' richt.
Ye'll please me best by no wantin to please me; and ye'll
please God best by duin what he's putten intil yer hert as
the richt thing, and the bonny thing, and the true thing,
though ye suld dee i' the duin o' 't.—Tell me what
ye're thinkin o' duin.'
</p>
<p>
'What but gaeing efter this new commission they hae promised
me? There's aye a guid chance o' fechtin upo' the
borders—the frontiers, as they ca' them!'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty sat silent. She had been thinking much of what Francis
ought to do, and had changed her mind on the point since the
time when she talked about him with sir Haco.
</p>
<p>
'Isna that what ye wud hae me du, Kirsty?' he said, when he
found she continued silent. 'A body's no a fule for wantin
guid advice!'
</p>
<p>
'No, that's true eneuch! What for wad ye want to gang
fechtin?'
</p>
<p>
'To shaw the warl' I'm nane o' what my mither ca'd me.'
</p>
<p>
'And shawn that, hoo muckle the better man wud ye be for 't?
Min' ye it's ae thing to be, and anither to shaw. Be ye maun;
shaw ye needna.'
</p>
<p>
'I dinna ken; I micht be growin better a' the time!'
</p>
<p>
'And ye micht be growin waur.—What the better wud ony
neebour be for ye gane fechtin? Wudna it be a' for yersel? Is
there naething gien intil yer ban' to du—naething
nearer hame nor that? Surely o' twa things, are near and are
far, the near comes first!'
</p>
<p>
'I dinna ken. I thoucht ye wantit me to gang!'
</p>
<p>
'Ay, raither nor bide at hame duin naething; but michtna
there be something better to du?'
</p>
<p>
'I dinna ken. I thoucht to please ye, Kirsty, but it seems
naething wull!'
</p>
<p>
'Ay; that's whaur the mischief lies. Ye thoucht to please
me!'
</p>
<p>
'I did think to please you, Kirsty! I thoucht, ance dune weel
afore the warl as my father did, I micht hae the face to come
hame to you, and say—"Kirsty, wull ye hae me?"'
</p>
<p>
'Aye the same auld Francie!' said Kirsty, with a deep sigh.
</p>
<p>
'Weel?'
</p>
<p>
'I tell ye, Francie, i' the name o' God, I'll never hae ye on
nae sic terms!—Suppose I was to merry some-body whan ye
was awa pruvin to yersel, and a' the lave 'at never
misdoobted ye, 'at ye was a brave man—what wud ye du
whan ye cam hame?'
</p>
<p>
'Naething o' mortal guid! Tak to the drink, maybe.'
</p>
<p>
'Ye tell me that! and ye think, wi' my een open to ken 'at ye
say true, I wud merry ye?—a man like you! Eh, Francie,
Francie! ye're no worth my takin' and ye're no like to be
worth the takin o' ony honest wuman!—Can ye possibly
imegine a wuman merryin a man 'at she kenned wud drive her to
coontless petitions to be hauden ohn despisit him? Ye mak my
hert unco sair, Francie! I hae dune my best wi' ye, and the
en' o' 't is, 'at ye're no worth naething!'
</p>
<p>
'For the life o' me, Kirsty, I dinna ken what ye're drivin
at, or what ye wud hae o' me! I canna but think ye're usin me
as ye wudna like to be used yersel!'
</p>
<p>
''Deed I wud not like it gien I was o' your breed, Francie!
Man, did ye never ance i' yer life think what ye hed to
du—what was gien ye to du—what it was yer duty to
du?'
</p>
<p>
'No sae aften, doobtless, as I oucht. But I'm ready to hear
ye tell me my duty; I'm no past reasonin wi'!'
</p>
<p>
'Did ye never hear 'at ye're to lo'e yer neebour as yersel?'
</p>
<p>
'I'm duin that wi' a' my hert, Kirsty—and that ye ken
as weel as I du mysel!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye mean me, Francie! And ye ca' that lo'in me, to wull me
merry a man 'at 's no a man ava! But it's nae me 'at 's yer
neebour, Francie!'
</p>
<p>
'Wha is my neebour, Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
'The queston's been speirt afore—and answert.'
</p>
<p>
'And what's the answer til't?'
</p>
<p>
''At yer neebour's jist whaever lies neist ye i' need o' yer
help. Gien ye read the tale o' the guid Sameritan wi' ony
sort o' gumption, that's what ye'll read intil 't and noucht
else. The man or wuman ye can help, ye hae to be neebour
til.'
</p>
<p>
'I want to help you.'
</p>
<p>
'Ye canna help me. I'm in no need o' yer help. And the
queston's no whar's the man I <i>micht</i> help, but whaur's
the man I <i>maun</i> help. I wantit to be <i>your</i>
neebour, but I cudna win at ye for the thieves; ye <i>wad</i>
stick to them, and they wudna lat me du naething.'
</p>
<p>
'What thieves, i' the name o' common sense, Kirsty?'
</p>
<p>
'Love o' yer ain gait, and love o' makin a show, and want o'
care for what's richt. Aih, Francie, I doobt something a heap
waur 'll hae to come upo' ye! A' my labour's lost, and I
dearly grudge it—no the labour, but the loss o' 't! I
grudge that sair.'
</p>
<p>
'Kirsty, i' the name o' God, wha <i>is</i> my neebour?'
</p>
<p>
'Yer ain mither.'
</p>
<p>
'My ain mither!—<i>her</i> oot o' a' the warl'?—I
never cam upo' spark o' rizzon intil her!'
</p>
<p>
'Michtna she be that are, oot o' a' the warl', ye never
shawed spark o' rizzon til?'
</p>
<p>
'There's nae place in her for reason to gang til!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye never tried her wi' 't! Ye wud arguy wi' her mair nor
plenty, but did ye ever shaw her rizzon i' yer behaviour?'
</p>
<p>
'Weel ye <i>are</i> turnin agen me—you 'at 's saved my
life frae her! Diana I tell you hoo, whan I wan hame at last
and gaed til her, for she was aye guid to me when I wasna
weel, she fell oot upo' me like a verra deevil, ragin and
ca'in me ill names, 'at I jist ran frae the hoose— and
ye ken whaur ye faun' me! Gien it hadna been for you, I wud
have been deid: I was waur nor deid a'ready! What w'y
<i>can</i> I be neebour to <i>her</i>! It wud be naething but
cat and dog atween's frae mornin to nicht!'
</p>
<p>
'Ae body canna be cat and dog baith! And the dog's as ill's
the cat— whiles waur!'
</p>
<p>
'Ony dog wud yowl gien ye threw a kettle o' bilin watter ower
him!'
</p>
<p>
'Did she that til ye?'
</p>
<p>
'She mintit at it. I ran frae her. She bed the toddy-kettle
in her ban', and she splasht it in her ain face tryin to
fling't at me.'
</p>
<p>
'Maybe she didna ken ye!'
</p>
<p>
'She kenned me weel eneuch. She ca'd me by my ain as weel 's
ither names.'
</p>
<p>
'Ye're jist croonin my arguyment, Francie! Yer mither's jist
perishin o' drink! She drinks and drinks, and, by what I
hear, cares for noucht else. A' 's upo' the ro'd to ruin in
her and aboot her. She hasna the brains noo, gien ever she
bed them, to guide hersel. Is Satan to grip her 'cause ye
winna be neebour til her and hand him aff o' her? I ken ye're
a guid son sae far as lat her du as she likes and tak 'maist
a' the siller, but that's what greases the exle o' the cairt
the deevil's gotten her intil! I ken weel she hesna been
muckle o' a mither til ye, but ye're her son whan a' 's said.
And there can be naething ye're callt upon to du, sae lang as
she's i' the grup o' the enemy, but rugg her oot o' 't. Gien
ye dinna that, ye'll never be oot o' 's grup yersel. Ye come
oot thegither, or ye bide thegither.'
</p>
<p>
Gordon sat speechless.
</p>
<p>
'It's <i>im</i>possible!' he said at length.
</p>
<p>
'Francie,' rejoined Kirsty, very quietly and solemnly, 'ye're
yer mother's keeper; ye're her neist neebour: are ye gauin to
du yer duty by her, or are ye not?' 'I canna; I daurna; I'm a
cooard afore her.'
</p>
<p>
'Gien ye lat her gang on to disgrace yer father, no to say
yersel—and that by means o' what's yours and no hers,
I'll say mysel 'at ye're a cooard.'
</p>
<p>
'Come hame wi' me and tak my pairt, and I'll promise ye to du
my best.'
</p>
<p>
'Ye maun tak yer ain pairt; and ye maun tak her pairt tu
against hersel.'
</p>
<p>
'It's no to be thoucht o', Kirsty!'
</p>
<p>
'Ye winna?'
</p>
<p>
'I canna my lane. I winna try 't. It wud be waur nor
useless.'
</p>
<p>
Kirsty rose, turning her face homeward. Gordon sprang to his
feet. She was already three yards from him.
</p>
<p>
'Kirsty! Kirsty!' he cried, going after her.
</p>
<p>
She went straight for home, never showing by turn of head, by
hesitation of step, or by change of carriage, that she heard
his voice or his feet behind her.
</p>
<p>
When they had thus gone two or three hundred yards, he
quickened his pace, and laid his hand on her arm.
</p>
<p>
She stopped and faced him. He dropped his hand, grew yet
whiter, and said not a word. She walked on again. Like one in
a dream he followed, his head hanging, his eyes on the
heather. She went on faster. He was falling behind her, but
did not know it. Down and down the hill he followed, and only
at the earth-house lifted his head: she was nearly over the
opposite brae! He had let her go! He might yet have overtaken
her, but he knew that he had lost her.
</p>
<p>
He had no home, no refuge! Then first, not when alone in the
beleaguered city, he knew desolation. He had never knocked at
the door of heaven, and earth had closed hers! An angel who
needed no flaming sword to make her awful, held the gate of
his lost paradise against him. None but she could open to
him, and he knew that, like God himself, Kirsty was
inexorable. Left alone with that last terrible look from the
eyes of the one being he loved, he threw himself in despair
on the ground. True love is an awful thing, not to the untrue
only, but sometimes to the growing-true, for to everything
that can be burned it is a consuming fire. Never more, it
seemed, would those eyes look in at his soul's window without
that sad, indignant repudiation in them! He rose, and crept
into the earth-house.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty lost herself in prayer as she went. 'Lord, I hae dune
a' I can!' she said. 'Until thou hast dune something by
thysel, I can do naething mair. He's i' thy han's still, I
praise thee, though he's oot o' mine! Lord, gien I hae dune
him ony ill, forgie me; a puir human body canna ken aye the
best! Dinna lat him suffer for my ignorance, whether I be to
blame for 't or no. I will try to do whatever thou makest
plain to me.'
</p>
<p>
By the time she reached home she was calm. Her mother saw and
respected her solemn mood, gave her a mother's look, and said
nothing: she knew that Kirsty, lost in her own thoughts, was
in good company.
</p>
<p>
What was passing in the soul of Francis Gordon, I can only
indicate, I cannot show. The most mysterious of all vital
movements, a generation, a transition, was there—how
initiated, God only knows. Francis knew neither whence it
came nor whither it went. He was being re-born from above.
The change was in himself; the birth was that of his will. It
was his own highest action, therefore all God's. He was
passing from death into life, and knew it no more than the
babe knows that he is being born. The change was into a new
state of being, of the very existence of which most men are
incredulous, for it is beyond preconception, capable only of
being experienced. Thorough as is the change, the man knows
himself the same man, and yet would rather cease to be, than
return to what he was. The unknown germ in him, the root of
his being, yea, his very being itself, the holy thing which
is his intrinsic substance, hitherto unknown to his
consciousness, has begun to declare itself, and the worm is
passing into the butterfly, the creeping thing into the
Psyche. It is a change in which God is the potent presence,
but which the man must <i>will</i>, or remain the gaoler who
prisons in loathsomeness his own God-born self, and chokes
the fountain of his own liberty.
</p>
<p>
Francis knew nothing of all this; he only felt he must knock
at the door behind which Kirsty lived. Kirsty could not open
the door to him, but there was one who could, and Francis
could knock! 'God help me!' he cried, as he lay on his face
to live, where once he had lain on his face to die. For the
rising again is the sepulchre. The world itself is one vast
sepulchre for the heavenly resurrection. We are all busy
within the walls of our tomb burying our dead, that the
corruptible may perish, and the incorruptible go free.
Francis Gordon came out of that earth-house a risen man: his
will was born. He climbed again to the spot where Kirsty and
he had sat together, and there, with the vast clear heaven
over his head, threw himself once more on his face, and
lifted up his heart to the heart whence he came.
</p>
<p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XXXVIII
</h2>
<h3>
THE NEIGHBOURS
</h3>
<p>
He had eaten nothing since the morning, and felt like one in
a calm ethereal dream as he walked home to Weelset in the
soft dusk of an evening that would never be night, but die
into the day. No one saw him enter the house, no one met him
on the ancient spiral stair, as, with apprehensive
anticipation, he sought the drawing-room.
</p>
<p>
He had just set his foot on the little landing by its door
when a wild scream came from the room. He flung the door open
and darted in. His mother rushed into his arms, enveloped
from foot to head in a cone of fire. She was making, in wild
flight, for the stair, to reach which would have been death
to her. Francis held her fast, but she struggled so wildly
that he had actually to throw her on the floor ere he could
do anything to deliver her. Then he flung on her the rug, the
table-cover, his coat, and one of the window-curtains,
tearing it fiercely from the rings. Having got all these
close around her, he rang the bell with an alarum-peal, but
had to ring three times, for service in that house was
deadened by frequent fury of summons. Two of the
maids—there was no manservant in the house
now—laid their mistress on a mattress, and carried her
to her room. Gordon's hands and arms were so severely burned
that he could do nothing beyond directing: he thought he had
never felt pain before.
</p>
<p>
The doctor was sent for, and came speedily. Having examined
them, he said Mrs. Gordon's injuries would have caused him no
anxiety but for her habits: their consequences might be very
serious, and every possible care must be taken of her.
</p>
<p>
Disabled as he was, Francis sat by her till the morning; and
the night's nursing did far more for himself than for his
mother. For, as he saw how she suffered, and interpreted her
moans by what he had felt and was still feeling in his own
hands and arms, a great pity awoke in him. What a lost life
his mother's had been! Was this to be the end of it? The old
kindness she had shown him in his childhood and youth,
especially when he was in any bodily trouble, came back upon
him, and a new love, gathering up in it all the intermittent
love of days long gone by, sprang to life in his heart, and
he saw that the one thing given him to do was to deliver his
mother.
</p>
<p>
The task seemed, if not easy, yet far from irksome, so long
as she continued incapable of resisting, annoying, or
deceiving him; but the time speedily came when he perceived
that the continuous battle rather than war of duty and
inclination must be fought and in some measure won in himself
ere he could hope to stir up any smallest skirmish of sacred
warfare in the soul of his mother. What added to the
acerbities of this preliminary war was, that the very nature
of the contest required actions which showed not only
unbecoming in a son, but mean and disgraceful in themselves.
There was no pride, pomp, or circumstance of glorious war in
this poor, domestic strife, this seemingly sordid and
unheroic, miserably unheroic, yet high, eternal contest! But
now that Francis was awake to his duty, the best of his
nature awoke to meet its calls, and he drew upon a growing
store of love for strength to thwart the desires of her he
loved. 'Entire affection hateth nicer hands,' and Francis
learned not to mind looking penurious and tyrannical,
selfish, heartless, and unsympathetic, in the endeavour to be
truly loving and lovingly true. He had not Kirsty to support
him, but he could now go higher than to Kirsty for the help
he needed; he went to the same fountain from which Kirsty
herself drew her strength. At the same time frequent thought
of her filled him with glad assurance of her sympathy, which
was in itself a wondrous aid. He neither saw nor sought to
see her: he would not go near her before at least she already
knew from other sources what would give her the hope that he
was trying to do right.
</p>
<p>
The gradually approaching strife between mother and son burst
out the same moment in which the devilish thirst awoke to its
cruel tyranny. It was a mercy to both of them that it
re-asserted itself while yet the mother was helpless toward
any indulgence of her passion. Francis was no longer afraid
of her, but it was the easier because of her condition,
although not the less painful for him to frustrate her
desire. Neither did it make it the less painful that already
her countenance, which the outward fire had not half so much
disfigured as that which she herself had applied inwardly,
had begun to remind him of the face he had long ago loved a
little, but this only made him, if possible, yet more
determined that not one shilling of his father's money should
go to the degradation of his mother. That she lusted and
desired to have, was the worst of reasons why she should
obtain! A compelled temperance was of course in itself
worthless, but that alone could give opportunity for the
waking of what soul was left her. Puny as it was, that might
then begin to grow; it might become aware of the bondage to
which it had been subjected, and begin to long for liberty.
</p>
<p>
In carrying out his resolution, Francis found it specially
hard to fight, along with the bad in his mother, the good in
himself: the lower forms of love rose against the higher, and
had to be put down. To see the scintillation of his mother's
eyes at the sound of any liquid, and know how easily he could
give her an hour of false happiness, tore his heart, while
her fierce abuse hardly passed the portals of his brain. Her
condition was so pitiful that her words could not make him
angry. She would declare it was he who set her clothes on
fire, and as soon as she was up again she would publish to
the world what a coward and sneak he showed himself from
morning to night. Had Francis been what he once was, his
mother and he must soon have come as near absolute hatred as
is possible to the human; but he was now so different that
the worst answer he ever gave her was,
</p>
<p>
'Mother, you <i>know</i> you don't mean it!'
</p>
<p>
'I mean it with all my heart and soul, Francis,' she replied,
glaring at him.
</p>
<p>
He stooped to kiss her on the forehead, she struck him on the
face so that the blood sprang. He went back a step, and stood
looking at her sadly as he wiped it away.
</p>
<p>
'Crying!' she said. 'You always were a coward, Francis!'
</p>
<p>
But the word had no more any sting for him.
</p>
<p>
'I'm all right, mother. My nose got in the way!' he answered,
restoring his handkerchief to his pocket.
</p>
<p>
'It's the doctor puts him up to it!' said Mrs. Gordon to
herself. 'But we shall soon be rid of him now! If there's any
more of this nonsense then, I shall have to shut Francis up
again! That will teach him how to behave to his mother!'
</p>
<p>
When at length Mrs. Gordon was able to go about the house
again, it was at once to discover that things were not to be
as they had been. Then deepened the combat, and at the same
time assumed aspects and occasioned situations which in the
eye of the world would have seemed even ludicrously
unbecoming. The battle of the warrior is with confused noise
and garments rolled in blood, but how much harder and
worthier battles are fought, not in shining armour, but amid
filth and squalor physical as well as moral, on a field of
wretched and wearisome commonplace!
</p>
<p>
It was essential to success that there should be no traitor
among the servants, and Francis had made them understand what
his measures were. Nor was there in this any betrayal of a
mother's weakness, for Mrs. Gordon's had long been more than
patent to all about her. When, therefore, he one day found
her, for the first time, under the influence of strong drink,
he summoned them and told them that, sooner than fail of his
end, he would part with the whole house-hold, and should be
driven to it if no one revealed how the thing had come to
pass. Thereupon the youngest, a mere girl, burst into tears,
and confessed that she had procured the whisky. Hardly
thinking it possible his mother should have money in her
possession, so careful was he to prevent it, he questioned,
and found that she had herself provided the half-crown
required, and that her mistress had given her in return a
valuable brooch, an heirloom, which was hers only to wear,
not to give. He took this from her, repaid her the
half-crown, gave her her wages up to the next term, and sent
Mrs. Bremner home with her immediately. Her father being one
of his own tenants, he rode to his place the next morning,
laid before him the whole matter, and advised him to keep the
girl at home for a year or two.
</p>
<p>
This one evil success gave such a stimulus to Mrs. Gordon's
passion that her rage with her keeper, which had been abating
a little, blazed up at once as fierce as at first. But,
miserable as the whole thing was, and trying as he found the
necessary watchfulness, Gordon held out bravely. At the end
of six months, however, during which no fresh indulgence had
been possible to her, he had not gained the least ground for
hoping that any poorest growth of strength, or even any
waking of desire toward betterment, had taken place in her.
</p>
<p>
All this time he had not been once to Corbyknowe. He had
nevertheless been seeing David Barclay three or four times a
week. For Francis had told David how he stood with Kirsty,
and how, while refusing him, she had shown him his duty to
his mother. He told him also that he now saw things with
other eyes, and was endeavouring to do what was right; but he
dared not speak to her on the subject lest she should think,
as she would, after what had passed between them, be well
justified in thinking, that he was doing for her sake what
ought to be done for its own. He said to him that, as he was
no man of business, and must give his best attention to his
mother, he found it impossible for the present to acquaint
himself with the state of the property, or indeed attend to
it in any serviceable manner; and he begged him, as his
father's friend and his own, to look into his affairs, and,
so far as his other duties would permit, place things on at
least a better footing.
</p>
<p>
To this petition, David had at once and gladly consented.
</p>
<p>
He found everything connected with the property in a sad
condition. The agent, although honest, was weak, and had so
given way to Mrs. Gordon that much havoc had been made, and
much money wasted. He was now in bad health, and had lost all
heart for his work. But he had turned nothing to his own
advantage, and was quite ready, under David's supervision, to
do his best for the restoration of order, and the curtailment
of expenses.
</p>
<p>
All that David now saw in his intercourse with the young
laird, went to convince him that he was at length a man of
conscience, cherishing steady purposes. He reported at home
what he saw, and said what he believed, and his wife and
daughter perceived plainly that his heart was lighter than it
had been for many a day. Kirsty listened, said little, asked
a question here and there, and thanked God. For her father
brought her not only the good news that Francis was doing his
best for his mother, but that he had begun to open his eyes
to the fact that he had his part in the wellbeing of all on
his land; that the property was not his for the filling of
his pockets, or for the carrying out of schemes of his own,
but for the general and individual comfort and progress.
</p>
<p>
'I do believe,' said David, 'the young laird wud fain mak o'
the lan's o' Weelset a spot whauron the e'en o' the bonny man
micht rist as he gaed by!'
</p>
<p>
Mrs. Gordon's temper seemed for a time to have changed from
fierce to sullen, but by degrees she began to show herself
not altogether indifferent to the continuous attentions of
her inexorable son. It is true she received them as her
right, but he yielded her a right immeasurably beyond that
she would have claimed. He would play draughts or cribbage
with her for hours at a time, and every day for months read
to her as long as she would listen—read Scott and
Dickens and Wilkie Collins and Charles Reade.
</p>
<p>
One day, after much entreaty, she consented to go out for a
drive with him, when round to the door came a beautiful new
carriage, and such a pair of horses as she could not help
expressing satisfaction with. Francis told her they were at
her command, but if ever she took unfair advantage of them,
he would send both carriage and horses away.
</p>
<p>
She was furious at his daring to speak so to <i>her</i>, and
had almost returned to her room, but thought better of it and
went with him. She did not, however, speak a word to him the
whole way. The next morning he let her go alone. After that,
he sometimes went with her, and sometimes not: the desire of
his heart was to behold her a free woman.
</p>
<p>
She was quite steady for a while, and her spirits began to
return. The hopes of her son rose high; he almost ceased to
fear.
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XXXIX
</h2>
<h3>
KIRSTY GIVES ADVICE
</h3>
<p>
It was again midsummer, and just a year since they parted on
the Horn, when Francis appeared at Corbyknowe, and found
Kirsty in the kitchen. She received him as if nothing had
ever come between them, but at once noting he was in trouble,
proposed they should go out together. It was a long way to be
silent, but they had reached the spot, whence they started
for the race recorded in my first chapter, ere either of them
said a word.
</p>
<p>
'Will ye no sit, Kirsty?' said Francis at length.
</p>
<p>
For answer she dropped on the same stone where she was
sitting when she challenged him to it, and Francis took his
seat on its neighbour.
</p>
<p>
'I hae had a some sair time o' 't sin' I shawed ye plain hoo
little I was worth yer notice, Kirsty!' he began.
</p>
<p>
'Ay,' returned Kirsty, 'but ilka hoor o' 't hes shawn what
the rael Francie was!'
</p>
<p>
'I kenna, Kirsty. A' I can say is—'at I dinna think
nearhan sae muckle o' mysel as I did than.'
</p>
<p>
'And I think a heap mair o' ye,' answered Kirsty. 'I canna
but think ye upo' the richt ro'd noo, Francie!'
</p>
<p>
'I houp I am, but I'm aye fin'in' oot something 'at 'ill
never du.'
</p>
<p>
'And ye'll keep fin'in' oot that sae lang 's there 's
onything left but what 's like himsel.'
</p>
<p>
'I un'erstan ye, Kirsty. But I cam to ye the day, no to say
onything aboot mysel, but jist 'cause I cudna du wantin yer
help. I wudna hae presumed but that I thoucht, although I
dinna deserve 't, for auld kin'ness ye wud say what ye wud
advise.'
</p>
<p>
'I'll du that, Francie—no for auld kin'ness, but for
kin'ness never auld. What's wrang wi' ye?'
</p>
<p>
'Kirsty, wuman, she's brocken oot again!'
</p>
<p>
'I dinna won'er. I hae h'ard o' sic things.'
</p>
<p>
'It's jist taen the pith oot o' me! What <i>am</i> I to du?'
</p>
<p>
'Ye canna du better nor weel; jist begin again.'
</p>
<p>
'I had coft her a bonny cairriage, wi' as fine a pair as ever
ye saw, Kirsty, as I daursay yer father has telled ye. And
they warna lost upon her, for she had aye a gleg ee for a
horse. Ye min' yon powny?—And up til yesterday, a' gaed
weel, till I was thinkin I cud trust her onygait. But i' the
efternune, as she was oot for an airin, are o' the horses
cuist a shue, and thinkin naething o' the risk til a human
sowl, but only o' the risk til the puir horse, the fule
fallow stoppit at a smithy nae farrer nor the neist door frae
a public, and tuik the horse intil the smithy, lea'in the
smith's lad at the held o' the ither horse. Sae what suld my
leddy but oot upo' the side <i>frae</i> the smithy, and awa
roon the back o' the cairriage to the public, and in! Whether
she took onything there I dinna ken, but she maun hae broucht
a bottle hame wi her, for this mornin she was fou—fou
as e'er ye saw man in market!'
</p>
<p>
He broke down, and wept like a child.
</p>
<p>
'And what did ye du?' asked Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'I said naething. I jist gaed to the coachman and gart him
put his horses tu, and tak his denner wi' him, and m'unt the
box, and drive straucht awa til Aberdeen, and lea' the
carriage whaur I boucht it, and du siclike wi' the horses,
and come hame by the co'ch.'
</p>
<p>
As he ended the sad tale, he glanced up at Kirsty, and saw
her regarding him with a look such as he had never seen,
imagined, or dreamed of before. It lasted but a moment; her
eyes dropt, and she went on with the knitting which, as in
the old days, she had brought with her.
</p>
<p>
'Noo, Kirsty, what am I to du neist?' he said.
</p>
<p>
'Hae ye naething i' yer ain min'?' she asked.
</p>
<p>
'Naething.'
</p>
<p>
'Weel, we'll awa hame!' she returned, rising. 'Maybe, as we
gang, we'll get licht!'
</p>
<p>
They walked in silence. Now and then Francis would look up in
Kirsty's face, to see if anything was coming, but saw only
that she was sunk in thought: he would not hurry her, and
said not a word. He knew she would speak the moment she had
what she thought worth saying.
</p>
<p>
Kirsty, recalling what her father had repeatedly said of Mrs.
Gordon's management of a horse in her young days, had fallen
awondering how one who so well understood the equine nature,
could be so incapable of understanding the human; for
certainly she had little known either Archibald Gordon or
David Barclay, and quite as little her own son. Having come
to the conclusion that the incapacity was caused by
overpowering affection for the one human creature she ought
not to love, Kirsty found her thoughts return to the sole
faculty her father yielded Mrs. Gordon—that of riding a
horse as he ought to be ridden. Thereupon came to her mind a
conclusion she had lately read somewhere— namely, that
a man ought to regard his neighbour as specially
characterized by the possession of this or that virtue or
capacity, whatever it might be, that distinguished him; for
that was as the door-plate indicating the proper entrance to
his inner house. A moment more and Kirsty thought she saw a
way in which Francis might gain a firmer hold on his mother,
as well as provide her with a pleasure that might work toward
her redemption.
</p>
<p>
Francie,' she said, 'I hae thoucht o' something. My father
has aye said, and ye ken he kens, 'at yer mother was a by
ordinar guid rider in her young days, and this is what I wud
hae ye du: gang straucht awa, whaurever ye think best, and
buy for her the best luikin, best tempered, handiest, and
easiest gaein leddy's-horse ye can lay yer ban's upo'. Ye hae
a gey fair beast o' yer ain, my father says, and ye maun jist
ride wi' her whaurever she gangs.'
</p>
<p>
'I'll du 't, Kirsty. I canna gang straucht awa, I doobt,
though; I fear she has whusky left, and there's no sayin what
she micht du afore I wan back. I maun gang hame first.'
</p>
<p>
'I'm no clear upo' that. Ye canna weel gang and rype
(<i>search</i>) a' the kists and aumries i' the hoose she
ca's her ain! That wud anger her terrible. Nor can ye weel
lay ban's upon her, and tak frae her by force. A wuman micht
du that, but a man, and special a wuman's ain ae son, canna
weel du 't—that is, gien there's ony ither coorse 'at
can be followt. It seems to me ye maun tak the risk o' her
bottle. And it may be no ill thing 'at she sud disgrace
hersel oot and oot. Onygait wi' bein awa, and comin back wi'
the horse i' yer ban' ye'll come afore her like bringin wi'
ye a fresh beginnin, a new order o' things like, and that w'y
av'ide words wi' her, and words maun aye be av'idit.'
</p>
<p>
Francis remained in thoughtful silence.
</p>
<p>
'I hae little fear,' pursued Kirsty, 'but we'll get her frae
the drink a'thegither, and the houp is we may get something
better putten intil her. Bein fou whiles, isna the main
difficulty. But I beg yer pardon, Francie! I maunna forget
'at she's your mother!'
</p>
<p>
'Gien ye wud but tak her and me thegither, Kirsty, it wud be
a gran' thing for baith o' 's! Wi' you to tak the half o' 't,
I micht stan' up un'er the weicht o' my responsibility!'
</p>
<p>
'I'm takin my share o' that, onygait, daurin to advise ye,
Francie!—Noo gang, laddie; gang straucht awa and buy
the horse.'
</p>
<p>
'I maun rin hame first, to put siller i' my pooch! I s' hand
oot o' her gait.'
</p>
<p>
'Gang til my faither for't. I haena a penny, but he has aye
plenty!'
</p>
<p>
'I maun hae my horse; there's nae co'ch till the morn's
mornin.'
</p>
<p>
'Gangna near the place. My father 'ill gie ye the gray
mear—no an ill are ava! She'll tak ye there in four or
five hoors, as <i>ye</i> ride. Only, min' and gie her a
pickle corn ance, and meal and watter twise upo' the ro'd.
Gien ye seena the animal yere sure 'ill please her, gang
further, and comena hame wantin 't.'
</p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XL
</h2>
<h3>
MRS. GORDON
</h3>
<p>
When Mrs. Gordon came to herself, she thought to behave as if
nothing had happened, and rang the bell to order her
carriage. The maid informed her that the coachman had driven
away with it before lunch, and had not said where he was
going.
</p>
<p>
'Driven away with it!' cried her mistress, starting to her
feet; 'I gave him no orders!'
</p>
<p>
'I saw the laird giein him directions, mem,' rejoined the
maid.
</p>
<p>
Mrs. Gordon sat down again. She began to remember what her
son had said when first he gave her the carriage.
</p>
<p>
'Where did he send him?' she asked.
</p>
<p>
'I dinna ken, mem.'
</p>
<p>
'Go and ask the laird to step this way.'
</p>
<p>
'Please, mem, he's no i' the hoose. I ken, for I saw him
gang—hoors ago.'
</p>
<p>
'Did he go in the carriage?'
</p>
<p>
'No, mem; he gaed upo' 's ain fit.'
</p>
<p>
'Perhaps he's come home by this time!'
</p>
<p>
'I'm sure he's no that, mem.'
</p>
<p>
Mrs. Gordon went to her room, all but finished the bottle of
whisky, and threw herself on her bed.
</p>
<p>
Toward morning she woke with aching head and miserable mind.
Now dozing, now tossing about in wretchedness, she lay till
the afternoon. No one came near her, and she wanted no one.
</p>
<p>
At length, dizzy and despairing, her head in torture, and her
heart sick, she managed to get out of bed, and, unable to
walk, literally crawled to the cupboard in which she had put
away the precious bottle:—joy! there was yet a glass in
it! With the mouth of it to her lips, she was tilting it up
to drain the last drop, when the voice of her son came
cheerily from the drive, on which her window looked down:
</p>
<p>
'See what I've brought you, mother!' he called.
</p>
<p>
Fear came upon her; she took the bottle from her mouth, put
it again in the cupboard, and crept back to her bed, her
brain like a hive buzzing with devils.
</p>
<p>
When Francis entered the house, he was not surprised to learn
that she had not left her room. He did not try to see her.
</p>
<p>
The next morning she felt a little better, and had some tea.
Still she did not care to get up. She shrank from meeting her
son, and the abler she grew to think, the more unwilling she
was to see him. He came to her room, but she heard him
coming, turned her head the other way, and pretended to be
asleep. Again and again, almost involuntarily, she half rose,
remembering the last of the whisky, but as often lay down
again, loathing the cause of her headache.
</p>
<p>
Stronger and stronger grew her unwillingness to face her son:
she had so thoroughly proved herself unfit to be trusted! She
began to feel towards him as she had sometimes felt toward
her mother when she had been naughty. She began to see that
she could make her peace, with him or with herself, only by
acknowledging her weakness. Aided by her misery, she had
begun to perceive that she could not trust herself, and ought
to submit to be treated as the poor creature she was. She had
resented the idea that she could not keep herself from drink
if she pleased, for she knew she could; but she had not
pleased! How could she ever ask him to trust her again!
</p>
<p>
What further passed in her, I cannot tell. It is an unfailing
surprise when anyone, more especially anyone who has hitherto
seemed without strength of character, turns round and
changes. The only thing Mrs. Gordon then knew as helping her,
was the strong hand of her son upon her, and the
consciousness that, had her husband lived, she could never
have given way as she had. But there was another help which
is never wanting where it can find an entrance; and now first
she began to pray, 'Lead me not into temptation.'
</p>
<p>
There was one excuse which David alone knew to make for
her—that her father was a hard drinker, and his father
before him.
</p>
<p>
Doubtless, during all the period of her excesses, the soul of
the woman in her better moments had been ashamed to know her
the thing she was. It could not, when she was at her worst,
comport with her idea of a lady, poor as that idea was, to
drink whisky till she did not know what she did next. And
when the sleeping woman God made, wakes up to see in what a
house she lives, she will soon grasp at besom and bucket, nor
cease her cleansing while spot is left on wall or ceiling or
floor.
</p>
<p>
How the waking comes, who can tell! God knows what he wants
us to do, and what we can do, and how to help us. What I have
to tell is that, the next morning, Mrs. Gordon came down to
breakfast, and finding her son already seated at the table,
came up behind him, without a word set the bottle with the
last glass of whisky in it before him, went to her place at
the table, gave him one sorrowful look, and sat down.
</p>
<p>
His heart understood, and answered with a throb of joy so
great that he knew it first as pain.
</p>
<p>
Neither spoke until breakfast was almost over. Then Francis
said,
</p>
<p>
'You've grown so much younger, mother, it is quite time you
took to riding again! I've been buying a horse for you.
Remembering the sort of pony you bought for me, I thought I
should like to try whether I could not please you with a
horse of my buying.'
</p>
<p>
'Silly boy!' she returned, with a rather pitiful laugh, 'do
you suppose at my age I'm going to make a fool of myself on
horseback? You forget I'm an old woman!'
</p>
<p>
'Not a bit of it, mother! If ever you rode as David Barclay
says you did, I don't see why you shouldn't ride still. He's
a splendid creature! David told me you liked a big fellow.
Just put on your habit, mammy, and we'll take a gallop
across, and astonish the old man a bit.'
</p>
<p>
'My dear boy, I have no nerve! I'm not the woman I was! It's
my own fault, I know, and I'm both sorry and ashamed.'
</p>
<p>
'We are both going to try to be good, mother dear!' faltered
Francis.
</p>
<p>
The poor woman pressed her handkerchief with both hands to
her face, and wept for a few moments in silence, then rose
and left the room. In an hour she was ready, and out looking
for Francis. Her habit was a little too tight for her, but
wearable enough. The horses were sent for, and they mounted.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XLI
</h2>
<h3>
TWO HORSEWOMEN
</h3>
<p>
There was at Corbyknowe a young, well-bred horse which David
had himself reared: Kirsty had been teaching him to carry a
lady. For her hostess in Edinburgh, discovering that she was
fond of riding and that she had no saddle, had made her a
present of her own: she had not used it for many years, but
it was in very good condition, and none the worse for being a
little old-fashioned. That same morning Kirsty had put on a
blue riding-habit, which also lady Macintosh had given her,
and was out on the highest slope of the farm, hoping to catch
a sight of the two on horseback together, and so learn that
her scheme was a success. She had been on the outlook for
about an hour, when she saw them coming along between the
castle and Corbyknowe, and went straight for a certain point
in the road so as to reach it simultaneously with them. For
she had just spied a chance of giving Gordon the opportunity
which her father had told her he was longing for, of saying
something about her to his mother.
</p>
<p>
'Who can that be?' said Mrs. Gordon as they trotted gently
along, when she spied the lady on horseback. 'She rides well!
But she seems to be alone! Is there really nobody with her?'
</p>
<p>
As she spoke, the young horse came over a
<i>dry-stane-dyke</i> in fine style.
</p>
<p>
'Why, she's an accomplished horsewoman!' exclaimed Mrs.
Gordon. 'She must be a stranger! There's not a lady within
thirty miles of Weelset can ride like that!'
</p>
<p>
'No such stranger as you think, mother!' rejoined Francis.
'That's Kirsty Barclay of Corbyknowe.'
</p>
<p>
'Never, Francis! The girl rides like a lady!'
</p>
<p>
Francis smiled, perhaps a little triumphantly. Something like
what lay in the smile the mother read in it, for it roused at
once both her jealousy and her pride. <i>Her</i> son to fall
in love with a girl that was not even a lady! A Gordon of
Weelset to marry a tenant's daughter! Impossible!
</p>
<p>
Kirsty was now in the road before them, riding slowly in the
same direction. It was the progress, however, not the horse
that was slow: his frolics, especially when the other horses
drew near, kept his rider sufficiently occupied.
</p>
<p>
Mrs. Gordon quickened her pace, and passed without turning
her head or looking at her, but so close, and with so sudden
a rush that Kirsty's horse half wheeled, and bounded over the
dyke by the roadside. Her rudeness annoyed her son, and he
jumped his horse into the field and joined Kirsty, letting
his mother ride on, and contenting himself with keeping her
in sight. After a few moments' talk, however, he proposed
that they should overtake her, and cutting off a great loop
of the road, they passed her at speed, and turned and met
her. She had by this time got a little over her temper, and
was prepared to behave with propriety, which meant—the
dignity becoming her.
</p>
<p>
'What a lovely horse you have, Miss Barclay!' she said,
without other greeting. 'How much do you want for him?'
</p>
<p>
'He is but half-broken,' answered Kirsty, 'or I would offer
to change with you. I almost wonder you look at him from the
back of your own!'
</p>
<p>
'He is a beauty—is he not? This is my first trial of
him. The laird gave me him only this morning. He is as quiet
as a lamb.'
</p>
<p>
'There, Donal,' said Kirsty to her horse, 'tak example by yer
betters! Jist luik hoo he stan's!—The laird has a true
eye for a horse, ma'am,' she went on, 'but he always says you
gave it him.'
</p>
<p>
'Always! hm!' said Mrs. Gordon to herself, but she looked
kindly at her son.
</p>
<p>
'How did you learn to ride so well, Kirsty?' she asked.
</p>
<p>
'I suppose I got it from my father, ma'am! I began with the
cows.'
</p>
<p>
'Ah, how is old David?' returned Mrs. Gordon. 'I have seen
him once or twice about the castle of late, but have not
spoken to him.'
</p>
<p>
'He is very well, thank you.—Will you not come up to
the Knowe and rest a moment? My mother will be very glad to
see you.'
</p>
<p>
'Not to-day, Kirsty. I haven't been on horseback for years,
and am already tired. We shall turn here. Good-morning!'
</p>
<p>
'Good-morning, ma'am! Good-bye, Mr. Gordon!' said Kirsty
cheerfully, as she wheeled her horse to set him straight at a
steep grassy brae.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p><a name="ch042"><!--Marker--></a>
<h2>
CHAPTER XLII
</h2>
<h3>
THE LAIRD AND HIS MOTHER
</h3>
<p>
The laird and his mother sat and looked at Kirsty as her
horse tore up the brae.
</p>
<p>
'She can ride—can't she, mother?' said Francis.
</p>
<p>
'Well enough for a hoiden,' answered Mrs. Gordon.
</p>
<p>
'She rides to please her horse now, but she'll have him as
quiet as yours before long,' rejoined her son, both a little
angry and a little amused at her being called a hoiden who
was to him like an angel grown young with aeonian life.
</p>
<p>
'Yes,' resumed his mother, as if she <i>would</i> be fair,
'she does ride well! If only she were a lady, that I might
ask her to ride with me! After all it's none of my business
what she is—so long as <i>you</i> don't want to marry
her!' She concluded, with an attempt at a laugh.
</p>
<p>
'But I do want to marry her, mother!' rejoined Francis.
</p>
<p>
A short year before, his mother would have said what was in
her heart, and it would not have been pleasant to hear; but
now she was afraid of her son, and was silent. But it added
to her torture that she must be silent. To be dethroned in
castle Weelset by the daughter of one of her own tenants, for
as such she thought of them, was indeed galling. 'The
impudent quean!' she said to herself, 'she's ridden on her
horse into the heart of the laird!' But for the wholesome
consciousness of her own shame, which she felt that her son
was always sparing, she would have raged like a fury.
</p>
<p>
'You that might have had any lady in the land!' she said at
length.
</p>
<p>
'If I might, mother, it would be just as vain to look for her
equal.'
</p>
<p>
'You might at least have shown your mother the respect of
choosing a lady to sit in her place! You drive me from the
house!'
</p>
<p>
'Mother,' said Francis, 'I have twice asked Kirsty Barclay to
be my wife, and she has twice refused me.'
</p>
<p>
'You may try her again: she had her reasons! She never meant
to let you slip! If you got disgusted with her afterwards,
she would always have her refusal of you to throw in your
teeth.'
</p>
<p>
Francis laid his hand on his mother's, and stopped her horse.
</p>
<p>
'Mother, you compel me!' he said. 'When I came home ill, and,
as I thought, dying, you called me bad names, and drove me
from the house. Kirsty found me in a hole in the earth,
actually dying then, and saved my life.'
</p>
<p>
'Good heavens, Francis! Are you mad still? How dare you tell
such horrible falsehoods of your own mother? You never came
near me! You went straight to Corbyknowe!'
</p>
<p>
'Ask Mrs. Bremner if I speak the truth. She ran out after me,
but could not get up with me. You drove me out; and if you do
not know it now, you do not need to be told how it is that
you have forgotten it.'
</p>
<p>
She knew what he meant, and was silent.
</p>
<p>
'Then Kirsty went to Edinburgh, to sir Haco Macintosh, and
with his assistance brought me to my right mind. If it were
not for Kirsty, I should be in my grave, or wandering the
earth a maniac. Even alive and well as I am, I should not be
with you now had she not shown me my duty'
</p>
<p>
'I thought as much! All this tyranny of yours, all your late
insolence to your mother, comes from the power of that
low-born woman over you! I declare to you, Francis Gordon, if
you marry her, I will leave the house.'
</p>
<p>
He made her no answer, and they rode the rest of the way in
silence. But in that silence things grew clearer to him. Why
should he take pains to persuade his mother to a consent
which she had no right to withhold? His desire was altogether
reasonable: why should its fulfilment depend on the unreason
of one who had not strength to order her own behaviour? He
had to save her, not to please her, gladly as he would have
done both!
</p>
<p>
When he had helped her from the saddle, he would have
remounted and ridden at once to Corbyknowe, but feared
leaving her. She shut herself in her room till she could bear
her own company no longer, and then went to the drawing-room,
where Francis read to her, and played several games of
backgammon with her. Soon after dinner she retired, saying
her ride had wearied her; and the moment Francis knew she was
in bed, he got his horse, and galloped to the Knowe.
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XLIII
</h2>
<h3>
THE CORONATION
</h3>
<p>
When he arrived, there was no light in the house: all had
gone to rest. Unwilling to disturb the father and mother, he
rode quietly to the back of the house, where Kirsty's room
looked on the garden. He called her softly. In a moment she
peeped out, then opened her window.
</p>
<p>
'Cud ye come doon a minute, Kirsty?' said Francis.
</p>
<p>
'I'll be wi' ye in less time,' she replied; and he had hardly
more than dismounted, when she was by his side.
</p>
<p>
He told her what had passed between him and his mother since
she left them.
</p>
<p>
'It's a rael bonny nicht!' said Kirsty, 'and we'll jist tak
oor time to turn the thing ower—that is, gien ye bena
tired, Francie. Come, we'll put the beastie up first.'
</p>
<p>
She led the horse into the dark stable, took his bridle off,
put a halter on him, slackened his girths, and gave him a
feed of corn—all in the dark; which things done, she
and her lover set out for the Horn.
</p>
<p>
The whole night seemed thinking of the day that was gone. All
doing seemed at an end, yea God himself to be resting and
thinking. The peace of it sank into their bosoms, and filled
them so, that they walked a long way without speaking. There
was no wind, and no light but the starlight. The air was like
the clear dark inside some diamonds. The only sound that
broke the stillness as they went was the voice of Kirsty,
sweet and low—and it was as if the dim starry vault
thought, rather than she uttered, the words she
quoted:—
</p>
<pre>
'Summer Night, come from God,
On your beauty, I see,
A still wave has flowed
Of Eternity!'
</pre>
<p>
At a certain spot on the ridge of the Horn, Francis stopped.
</p>
<p>
'This is whaur ye left me this time last year, Kirsty,' he
said;'—left me wi' my Maker to mak a man o' me. It was
'maist makin me ower again!'
</p>
<p>
There was a low stone just visible among the heather; Kirsty
seated herself upon it. Francis threw himself among the
heather, and lay looking up in her face.
</p>
<p>
'That mother o' yours is 'maist ower muckle for ye, Francie!'
said Kirsty.
</p>
<p>
'It's no aften, Kirsty, ye tell me what I ken as weel 's
yersel!' returned Francis.
</p>
<p>
'Weel, Francie, ye maun tell <i>me</i> something the
night!—Gien it wudna mismuve ye, I wad fain ken hoo ye
wan throu that day we pairtit here.'
</p>
<p>
Without a moment's hesitation, Francis began the
tale—giving her to know, however, that in what took
place there was much he did not understand so as to tell it
again.
</p>
<p>
When he made an end, Kirsty rose and said,
</p>
<p>
'Wad ye please to sit upo' that stane, Francie!'
</p>
<p>
In pure obedience he rose from the heather, and sat upon the
stone.
</p>
<p>
She went behind him, and clasped his head, round the temples,
with her shapely, strong, faithful hands.
</p>
<p>
'I ken ye noo for a man, Francis. Ye hae set yersel to du
<i>his</i> wull, and no yer ain: ye're a king; and for want
o' a better croon, I croon ye wi my twa ban's.'
</p>
<p>
Little thought Kirsty how near she came, in word and deed, to
the crowning of Dante by Virgil, as recorded toward the close
of the Purgatorio.
</p>
<p>
Then she came round in front of him, he sitting bewildered
and taking no part in the solemn ceremony save that of
submission, and knelt slowly down before him, laying her head
on his knees, and saying,—
</p>
<p>
'And here's yer kingdom, Francis—my heid and my hert!
Du wi' me what ye wull.'
</p>
<p>
'Come hame wi' me, and help save my mother,' he answered, in
a voice choked with emotion.
</p>
<p>
'I wull,' she said, and would have risen; but he laid his
hands on her head, and thus they remained for a time in
silence. Then they rose, and went.
</p>
<p>
They had gone about half-way to the farm before either spoke.
Then Kirsty said,—
</p>
<p>
'Francie, there's ae thing I maun beg o' ye, and but
ane—'at ye winna desire me to tak the heid o' yer
table. I canna but think it an ungracious thing 'at a young
wuman like me, the son's wife, suld put the man's ain mother,
his father's wife, oot o' the place whaur his father set her.
I'm layin doon no prenciple; I'm sayin only hoo it affecs me.
I want to come hame as her dochter, no as mistress o' the
hoose in her stead. And ye see, Francie, that'll gie ye
anither haud o' her, agen disgracin o' hersel! Promise me,
Francie, and I'll sune tak the maist pairt o' the trouble o'
her aff o' yer han's.'
</p>
<p>
'Ye're aye richt, Kirsty!' answered Francis. 'As ye wull.'
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XLIV
</h2>
<h3>
KIRSTY'S TOCHER
</h3>
<p>
The next morning, Kirsty told her parents that she was going
to marry Francie.
</p>
<p>
'Ye du richt, my bairn,' said her father. 'He's come in sicht
o' 's high callin, and it's no possible for ye langer to
refuse him.'
</p>
<p>
'But, eh! what am I to du wantin ye, Kirsty?' moaned her
mother. 'Ye min', mother,' answered Kirsty, 'hoo I wad be oot
the lang day wi' Steenie, and ye never thoucht ye hadna me!'
</p>
<p>
'Na, never. I aye kenned I had the twa o' ye.'
</p>
<p>
'Weel, it's no a God's-innocent but a deil's-gowk I'll hae to
luik efter noo, and I maun come hame ilka possible chance to
get hertenin frae you and my father, or I winna be able to
bide it. Eh, mother, efter Steenie, it'll be awfu' to spen'
the day wi' <i>her</i>! It's no 'at ever she'll be fou: I s'
see to that!—it's 'at she'll aye be toom!— aye
ringin wi' toomness!'
</p>
<p>
Here Kirsty turned to her father, and said,—
</p>
<p>
'Wull ye gie me a tocher, father?'
</p>
<p>
'Ay wull I, lassie,—what ye like, sae far as I hae 't
to gie.'
</p>
<p>
'I want Donal—that's a'. Ye see I maun ride a heap wi'
the puir thing, and I wud fain hae something aneth me 'at ye
gae me! The cratur'll aye hing to the Knowe, and whan I gie
his wull he'll fess me hame o' himsel.—I wud hae likit
things to bide as they are, but she wud hae worn puir Francie
to the verra deid!'
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
</p>
<p>
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<h2>
CHAPTER XLV
</h2>
<h3>
KIRSTY'S SONG
</h3>
<p>
Mrs. Gordon manages the house and her reward is to sit at the
head of the table. But she pays Kirsty infinitely more for
the privilege than any but Kirsty can know, in the form of
leisure for things she likes far better than
housekeeping—among the rest, for the discovery of such
songs as this, the last of hers I have seen:—
</p>
<pre>
LOVE IS HOME.
Love is the part, and love is the whole;
Love is the robe, and love is the pall;
Ruler of heart and brain and soul,
Love is the lord and the slave of all!
I thank thee, Love, that thou lovest me;
I thank thee more that I love thee.
Love is the rain, and love is the air;
Love is the earth that holdeth fast;
Love is the root that is buried there,
Love is the open flower at last!
I thank thee, Love all round about,
That the eyes of my love are looking out.
Love is the sun, and love is the sea;
Love is the tide that comes and goes;
Flowing and flowing it comes to me;
Ebbing and ebbing to thee it flows!
Oh my sun, and my wind, and tide!
My sea, and my shore, and all beside!
Light, oh light that art by showing;
Wind, oh wind that liv'st by motion;
Thought, oh thought that art by knowing;
Will, that art born in self-devotion!
Love is you, though not all of you know it;
Ye are not love, yet ye always show it!
Faithful creator, heart-longed-for father,
Home of our heart-infolded brother,
Home to thee all thy glories gather—
All are thy love, and there is no other!
O Love-at-rest; we loves that roam—
Home unto thee, we are coming home!
</pre>
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