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diff --git a/8899.txt b/8899.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..fce68cd --- /dev/null +++ b/8899.txt @@ -0,0 +1,6368 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of Three Weeks, by Elinor Glyn + +This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere at no cost and with +almost no restrictions whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or +re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included +with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org + + +Title: Three Weeks + +Author: Elinor Glyn + +Posting Date: August 5, 2012 [EBook #8899] +Release Date: September, 2005 +First Posted: August 21, 2003 + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + +*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THREE WEEKS *** + + + + +Produced by Distributed Proofreaders + + + + + + + + + +THREE WEEKS + +BY +ELINOR GLYN + +1907 + + + +INTRODUCTION TO +MY AMERICAN READERS + +I feel now, when my "Three Weeks" is to be launched in a new land, +where I have many sympathetic friends, that, owing to the +misunderstanding and misrepresentation it received from nearly the +entire press and a section of the public in England, I would like to +state my view of its meaning. (As I wrote it, I suppose it could be +believed I know something about that!) For me "the Lady" was a deep +study, the analysis of a strange Slav nature, who, from circumstances +and education and her general view of life, was beyond the ordinary +laws of morality. If I were making the study of a Tiger, I would not +give it the attributes of a spaniel, because the public, and I myself, +might prefer a spaniel! I would still seek to portray accurately +every minute instinct of that Tiger, to make a living picture. Thus, +as you read, I want you to think of her as such a study. A great +splendid nature, full of the passionate realisation of primitive +instincts, immensely cultivated, polished, blase. You must see her at +Lucerne, obsessed with the knowledge of her horrible life with her +brutal, vicious husband, to whom she had been sacrificed for political +reasons when almost a child. She suddenly sees this young Englishman, +who comes as an echo of something straight and true in manhood which, +in outward appearance at all events, she has met in her youth in the +person of his Uncle Hubert. She perceives in him at once the Soul +sleeping there; and it produces in her a strong emotion. Then I want +you to understand the effect of Love on them both. In her it rose from +caprice to intense devotion, until the day at the Farm when it reached +the highest point--a desire to reproduce his likeness. How, with the +most passionate physical emotion, her mental influence upon Paul was +ever to raise him to vast aims and noble desires for future +greatness. In him love opened the windows of his Soul, so that he saw +the fine in everything. + +The immense rush of passion in Venice came from her knowledge that +they soon must part. Notice the effect of the two griefs on Paul. The +first, with its undefined hope, making him do well in all things--even +his prowess as a hunter--to raise himself to be more worthy in her +eyes; the second and paralysing one of death, turning him into adamant +until his soul awakens again with the returning spring of her spirit +in his heart, and the consolation of the living essence of their love +in the child. + +The minds of some human beings are as moles, grubbing in the earth for +worms. They have no eyes to see God's sky with the stars in it. To +such "Three Weeks" will be but a sensual record of passion. But those +who do look up beyond the material will understand the deep pure love, +and the Soul in it all, and they will realise that to such a nature as +"the Lady's," passion would never have run riot until it was +sated--she would have daily grown nobler in her desire to make her +Loved One's son a splendid man. + +And to all who read, I say--at least be just! and do not skip. No line +is written without its having a bearing upon the next, and in its +small scope helping to make the presentment of these two human beings +vivid and clear. + +The verdict I must leave to the Public, but now, at all events, you +know, kind Reader, that _to me_, the "Imperatorskoye" appears a +noble woman, because she was absolutely faithful to the man she had +selected as her mate, through the one motive which makes a union moral +in ethics--Love.--ELINOR GLYN. + + + + +THREE WEEKS + + +CHAPTER I + + +Now this is an episode in a young man's life, and has no real +beginning or ending. And you who are old and have forgotten the +passions of youth may condemn it. But there are others who are +neither old nor young who, perhaps, will understand and find some +interest in the study of a strange woman who made the illumination of +a brief space. + +Paul Verdayne was young and fresh and foolish when his episode +began. He believed in himself--he believed in his mother, and in a +number of other worthy things. Life was full of certainties for +him. He was certain he liked hunting better than anything else in the +world--for instance. He was certain he knew his own mind, and +therefore perfectly certain his passion for Isabella Waring would last +for ever! Ready to swear eternal devotion with that delightful +inconsequence of youth in its unreason, thinking to control an emotion +as Canute's flatterers would have had him do the waves. + +And the Creator of waves--and emotions--no doubt smiled to Himself--if +He is not tired by now of smiling at the follies of the moles called +human beings, who for the most part inhabit His earth! + +Paul was young, as I said, and fair and strong. He had been in the +eleven at Eton and left Oxford with a record for all that should turn +a beautiful Englishman into a perfect athlete. Books had not worried +him much! The fit of a hunting-coat, the pace of a horse, were things +of more importance, but he scraped through his "Smalls" and his +"Mods," and was considered by his friends to be anything but a +fool. As for his mother--the Lady Henrietta Verdayne--she thought him +a god among men! + +Paul went to London like others of his time, and attended the +theatres, where perfectly virtuous young ladies display nightly their +innocent charms in hilarious choruses, arrayed in the latest +_modes_. He supped, too, with these houris--and felt himself a +man of the world. + +He had stayed about in country houses for perhaps a year, and had +danced through the whole of a season with all the prettiest +_debutantes_. And one or two of the young married women of forty +had already marked him out for their prey. + +By all this you can see just the kind of creature Paul was. There are +hundreds of others like him, and perhaps they, too, have the latent +qualities which he developed during his episode--only they remain as +he was in the beginning--sound asleep. + +That fall out hunting in March, and being laid up with a sprained +ankle and a broken collar-bone, proved the commencement of the +Isabella Waring affair. + +She was the parson's daughter--and is still for the matter of +that!--and often in those days between her games of golf and hockey, +or a good run on her feet with the hounds, she came up to Verdayne +Place to write Lady Henrietta's letters for her. Isabella was most +amiable and delighted to make herself useful. + + +And if her hands were big and red, she wrote clearly and well. The +Lady Henrietta, who herself was of the delicate Later Victorian +Dresden China type, could not imagine a state of things which +contained the fact that her god-like son might stoop to this daughter +of the earthy earth! + +Yet so it fell about. Isabella read aloud the sporting papers to +him--Isabella played piquet with him in the dull late afternoons of +his convalescence--Isabella herself washed his dog Pike--that king of +rough terriers! And one terrible day Paul unfortunately kissed the +large pink lips of Isabella as his mother entered the room. + +I will draw a veil over this part of his life. + +The Lady Henrietta, being a great lady, chanced to behave as such on +the occasion referred to--but she was also a woman, and not a +particularly clever one. Thus Paul was soon irritated by opposition +into thinking himself seriously in love with this daughter of the +middle classes, so far beneath his noble station. + +"Let the boy have his fling," said Sir Charles Verdayne, who was a +coarse person. "Damn it all! a man is not obliged to marry every woman +he kisses!" + +"A gentlemen does not deliberately kiss an unmarried girl unless he +intends to make her his wife!" retorted Lady Henrietta. "I fear the +worst!" + +Sir Charles snorted and chuckled, two unpleasant and annoying habits +his lady wife had never been able to break him of. So the affair grew +and grew! Until towards the middle of April Paul was advised to travel +for his health. + +"Your father and I can sanction no engagement, Paul, before you +return," said Lady Henrietta. "If, in July, on your twenty-third +birthday, you still wish to break your mother's heart--I suppose you +must do so. But I ask of you the unfettered reflection of three months +first." + +This seemed reasonable enough, and Paul consented to start upon a tour +round Europe--not having spoken the final fatal and binding words to +Isabella Waring. They made their adieux in the pouring rain under a +dripping oak in the lane by the Vicarage gate. + +Paul was six foot two, and Isabella quite six foot, and broad in +proportion. They were dressed almost alike, and at a little distance, +but for the lady's scanty petticoat, it would have been difficult to +distinguish her sex. + +"Good-bye, old chap," she said, "We have been real pals, and I'll not +forget you!" + +But Paul, who was feeling sentimental, put it differently. + +"Good-bye, darling," he whispered with a suspicion of tremble in his +charming voice. "I shall never love any woman but you--never, never in +my life." + +Cuckoo! screamed the bird in the tree. + +And now we are getting nearer the episode. Paris bored Paul--he did +not know its joys and was in no mood to learn them. He mooned about +and went to the races. His French was too indifferent to make theatres +a pleasure, and the attractive ladies who smiled at his blue eyes were +for him _defendues_. A man so recently parted from the only woman +he could ever love had no right to look at such things, he thought. How +young and chivalrous and honest he was--poor Paul! + +So he took to visiting Versailles and Fontainebleau and Compiegne with +a guide-book, and came to the conclusion it was all "beastly rot." + +So he turned his back upon France and fled to Switzerland. + +Do you know Switzerland?--you who read. Do you know it at the +beginning of May? A feast of blue lakes, and snow-peaks, and the +divinest green of young beeches, and the sombre shadow of dark firs, +and the exhilaration of the air. + +If you do, I need not tell you about it. Only in any case now, you +must see it through the eyes of Paul. That is if you intend to read +another page of this bad book. + +It was pouring with rain when he drove from the station to the +hotel. His temper was at its worst. Pilatus hid his head in mist, the +Buergenstock was invisible--it was chilly, too, and the fire smoked in +the sitting-room when Paul had it lighted. + +His heart yearned for his own snug room at Verdayne Place, and the +jolly voice of Isabella Waring counting point, quint and quatorze. +What nonsense to send him abroad. As if such treatment could be +effectual as a cure for a love like his. He almost laughed at his +mother's folly. How he longed to sit down and write to his +darling. Write and tell how he hated it all, and was only getting +through the time until he saw her six feet of buxom charms again--only +Paul did not put it like that--indeed, he never thought about her +charms at all--or want of them. He analysed nothing. He was sound +asleep, you see, to _nuances_ as yet; he was just a splendid +English young animal of the best class. + +He had promised not to write to Isabella--or, if he _must_, at +least not to write a love-letter. + +"Dear boy," the Lady Henrietta had said when giving him her fond +parting kiss, "if you are very unhappy and feel you greatly wish to +write to Miss Waring, I suppose you must do so, but let your letter be +about the scenery and the impressions of travel, in no way to be +interpreted into a declaration of affection or a promise of future +union--I have your word, Paul, for that?" + +And Paul had given his word. + +"All right, mother--I promise--for three months." + +And now on this wet evening the "must" had come, so he pulled out some +hotel paper and began. + +"MY DEAR ISABELLA: + +"I say--you know--I hate beginning like this--I have arrived at this +beastly place, and I am awfully unhappy. I think it would have been +better if I had brought Pike with me, only those rotten laws about +getting the little chap back to England would have been hard. How is +Moonlighter? And have they really looked after that strain, do you +gather? Make Tremlett come down and report progress to you daily--I +told him to. My rooms look out on a beastly lake, and there are +mountains, I suppose, but I can't see them. There is hardly any one in +the hotel, because the Easter visitors have all gone back and the +summer ones haven't come, so I doubt even if I can have a game of +billiards. I am sick of guide-books, and I should like to take the +next train home again. I must dress for dinner now, and I'll finish +this to-night." + +Paul dressed for dinner; his temper was vile, and his valet +trembled. Then he went down into the restaurant scowling, and was +ungracious to the polite and conciliating waiters, ordering his food +and a bottle of claret as if they had done him an injury. +"_Anglais_," they said to one another behind the serving-screen, +pointing their thumbs at him--"he pay but he damn." + +Then Paul sent for the _New York Herald_ and propped it up in +front of him, prodding at some olives with his fork, one occasionally +reaching his mouth, while he read, and awaited his soup. + +The table next to him in this quiet corner was laid for one, and had a +bunch of roses in the centre, just two or three exquisite blooms that +he was familiar with the appearance of in the Paris shops. Nearly all +the other tables were empty or emptying; he had dined very late. Who +could want roses eating alone? The _menu_, too, was written out +and ready, and an expression of expectancy lightened the face of the +head waiter--who himself brought a bottle of most carefully decanted +red wine, feeling the temperature through the fine glass with the air +of a great connoisseur. + +"One of those over-fed foreign brutes of no sex, I suppose," Paul said +to himself, and turned to the sporting notes in front of him. + +He did not look up again until he heard the rustle of a dress. + +The woman had to pass him--even so close that the heavy silk touched +his foot. He fancied he smelt tuberoses, but it was not until she sat +down, and he again looked at her, that he perceived a knot of them +tucked into the front of her bodice. + +A woman to order dinner for herself beforehand, and have special wine +and special roses--special attention, too! It was simply disgusting! + +Paul frowned. He brought his brown eyebrows close together, and glared +at the creature with his blue young eyes. + +An elderly, dignified servant in black livery stood behind her +chair. She herself was all in black, and her hat--an expensive, +distinguished-looking hat--cast a shadow over her eyes. He could just +see they were cast down on her plate. Her face was white, he saw that +plainly enough, startlingly white, like a magnolia bloom, and +contained no marked features. No features at all! he said to +himself. Yes--he was wrong, she had certainly a mouth worth looking at +again. It was so red. Not large and pink and laughingly open like +Isabella's, but straight and chiselled, and red, red, red. + +Paul was young, but he knew paint when he saw it, and this red was +real, and vivid, and disconcerted him. + +He began his soup--hers came at the same time; she had only toyed with +some caviare by way of _hors d'oeuvre_, and it angered him to +notice the obsequiousness of the waiters, who passed each thing to the +dignified servant to be placed before the lady by his hand. Who was +she to be served with this respect and rapidity? + +Only her red wine the _maitre d'hotel_ poured into her glass +himself. She lifted it up to the light to see the clear ruby, then she +sipped it and scented its bouquet, the _maitre d'hotel_ anxiously +awaiting her verdict the while. "_Bon_," was all she said, and +the weight of the world seemed to fall from the man's sloping +shoulders as he bowed and moved aside. + +Paul's irritation grew. "She's well over thirty," he said to +himself. "I suppose she has nothing else to live for! I wonder what +the devil she'll eat next!" + +She ate a delicate _truite bleu_, but she did not touch her wine +again the while. She had almost finished the fish before Paul's +_sole au vin blanc_ arrived upon the scene, and this angered him +the more. Why should he wait for his dinner while this woman feasted? +Why, indeed. What would her next course be? He found himself +unpleasantly interested to know. The tenderest _selle d'agneau au +lait_ and the youngest green peas made their appearance, and again +the _maitre d'hotel_ returned, having mixed the salad. + +Paul noticed with all these things the lady ate but a small portion of +each. And it was not until a fat quail arrived later, while he himself +was trying to get through two mutton chops _a l'anglaise_, that +she again tasted her claret. Yes, it was claret, he felt sure, and +probably wonderful claret at that. Confound her! Paul turned to the +wine list. What could it be? Chateau Latour at fifteen francs? Chateau +Margaux, or Chateau Lafite at twenty?--or possibly it was not here at +all, and was special, too--like the roses and the attention. He called +his waiter and ordered some port--he felt he could not drink another +drop of his modest St. Estephe! + +All this time the lady had never once looked at him; indeed, except +that one occasion when she had lifted her head to examine the wine +with the light through it, he had not seen her raise her eyes, and +then the glass had been between himself and her. The white lids with +their heavy lashes began to irritate him. What colour could they be? +those eyes underneath. They were not very large, that was +certain--probably black, too, like her hair. Little black eyes! That +was ugly enough, surely! And he hated heavy black hair growing in +those unusual great waves. Women's hair should be light and fluffy +and fuzzy, and kept tidy in a net--like Isabella's. This looked so +thick--enough to strangle one, if she twisted it round one's +throat. What strange ideas were those coming into his head? Why should +she think of twisting her hair round a man's throat? It must be the +port mounting to his brain, he decided--he was not given to +speculating in this way about women. + +What would she eat next? And why did it interest him what she ate or +did not eat? The _maitre d'hotel_ again appeared with a dish of +marvellous-looking nectarines. The waiter now handed the dignified +servant the finger-bowl, into which he poured rose-water. Paul could +just distinguish the scent of it, and then he noticed the lady's +hands. Yes, they at least were faultless; he could not cavil at +_them_; slender and white, with that transparent whiteness like +mother-of-pearl. And what pink nails! And how polished! Isabella's +hands--but he refused to think of them. + +By this time he was conscious of an absorbing interest thrilling his +whole being--disapproving irritated interest. + +The _maitre d'hotel_ now removed the claret, out of which the +lady had only drunk one glass. + +(What waste! thought Paul.) + +And then he returned with a strange-looking bottle, and this time the +dignified servant poured the brilliant golden fluid into a tiny +liqueur-glass. What could it be? Paul was familiar with most +liqueurs. Had he not dined at every restaurant in London, and supped +with houris who adored _creme de menthe_? But this was none he +knew. He had heard of Tokay--Imperial Tokay--could it be that? And +where did she get it? And who the devil was the woman, anyway? + +She peeled the nectarine leisurely--she seemed to enjoy it more than +all the rest of her dinner. And what could that expression mean on +her face? Inscrutable--cynical was it? No--absorbed. As absolutely +unconscious of self and others as if she had been alone in the room. +What could she be thinking of never to worry to look about her? + +He began now to notice her throat, it was rounded and intensely white, +through the transparent black stuff. She had no strings of pearls or +jewels on--unless--yes, that was a great sapphire gleaming from the +folds of gauze on her neck. Not surrounded by diamonds like ordinary +brooches, but just a big single stone so dark and splendid it seemed +almost black. There was another on her hand, and yet others in her +ears. + +Her ears were not anything so very wonderful! Not so _very!_ +Isabella's were quite as good--and this thought comforted him a +little. As far as he could see beyond the roses and the table she was +a slender woman, and he had not noticed on her entrance if she were +tall or short. He could not say why he felt she must be well over +thirty--there was not a line or wrinkle on her face--not even the +slight nip in under the chin, or the tell-tale strain beside the ears. + +She was certainly not pretty, _certainly_ not. Well +shaped--yes--and graceful as far as he could judge; but pretty--a +thousand times No! + +Then the speculation as to her nationality began. French? assuredly +not. English? ridiculous! Equally so German. Italian? perhaps. +Russian? possibly. Hungarian? probably. + +Paul had drunk his third glass of port and was beginning his +fourth. This was far more than his usual limit. Paul was, as a rule, +an abstemious young man. Why he should have deliberately sat and drank +that night he never knew. His dinner had been moderate--distinctly +moderate--and he had watched a refined feast of Lucullus partaken of +by a woman who only _tasted_ each _plat!_ + +"I wonder what she will have to pay for it all?" he thought to +himself. "She will probably sign the bill, though, and I shan't see." + +But when the lady had finished her nectarine and dipped her slender +fingers in the rose-water she got up--she had not smoked, she could +not be Russian then. Got up and walked towards the door, signing no +bill, and paying no gold. + +Paul stared as she passed him--rudely stared--he knew it afterwards +and felt ashamed. However, the lady never so much as noticed him, nor +did she raise her eyes, so that when she had finally disappeared he +was still unaware of their colour or expression. + +But what a figure she had! Sinuous, supple, rounded, and yet very +slight. + +"She must have the smallest possible bones," Paul said to himself, +"because it looks all curvy and soft, and yet she is as slender as a +gazelle." + +She was tall, too, though not six feet--like Isabella! + +The waiters and _maitre d'hotel_ all bowed and stood aside as she +left, followed by her elderly, stately, silver-haired servant. + +Of course it would have been an easy matter to Paul to find out her +name, and all about her. He would only have had to summon Monsieur +Jacques, and ask any question he pleased. But for some unexplained +reason he would not do this. Instead of which he scowled in front of +him, and finished his fourth glass of port. Then his head swam a +little, and he went outside into the night. The rain had stopped and +the sky was full of stars scattered in its intense blue. It was warm, +too, there, under the clipped trees, Paul hoped he wasn't drunk--such +a beastly thing to do! And not even good port either. + +He sat on a bench and smoked a cigar. A strange sense of loneliness +came over him. It seemed as if he were far, far away from any one in +the world he had ever known. A vague feeling of oppression and coming +calamity passed through him, only he was really as yet too material +and thoroughly, solidly English to entertain it, or any other subtle +mental emotion for more than a minute. But he undoubtedly felt strange +to-night; different from what he had ever done before. He would have +said "weird" if he could have thought of the word. The woman and her +sinuous, sensuous black shape filled the space of his mental +vision. Black hair, black hat, black dress--and of course black +eyes. Ah! if he could only know their colour really! + +The damp bench where he sat was just under the ivy hanging from the +balustrade of the small terrace belonging to the ground-floor suite at +the end. + +There was a silence, very few people passed, frightened no doubt by +the recent rain. He seemed alone in the world. + +The wine now began to fire his senses. Why should he remain alone? He +was young and rich and--surely even in Lucerne there must be--. And +then he felt a beast, and looked out on to the lake. + +Suddenly his heart seemed to swell with some emotion, a faint scent of +tuberoses filled the air--and from exactly above his head there came a +gentle, tender sigh. + +He started violently, and brusquely turned and looked up. Almost +indistinguishable in the deep shadow he saw the woman's face. It +seemed to emerge from a mist of black gauze. And looking down into his +were a pair of eyes--a pair of eyes. For a moment Paul's heart felt as +if it had stopped beating, so wonderful was their effect upon +him. They seemed to draw him--draw something out of him--intoxicate +him--paralyse him. And as he gazed up motionless the woman moved +noiselessly back on to the terrace, and he saw nothing but the night +sky studded with stars. + +Had he been dreaming? Had she really bent over the ivy? Was he mad? +Yes--or drunk, because now he had seen the eyes, and yet he did not +know their colour! Were they black, or blue, or grey, or green? He did +not know, he could not think--only they were eyes--eyes--eyes. + +The letter to Isabella Waring remained unfinished that night. + + + + +CHAPTER II + + +Paul's head ached a good deal next morning and he was disinclined to +rise. However, the sun blazed in at his windows, and a bird sang in a +tree. + +His temper was the temper of next day--sodden, and sullen, and +ashamed. He even resented the sunshine. + +But what a beautiful creature he looked, as later he stepped into a +boat for a row on the lake! His mother, the Lady Henrietta, had truly +reason to be proud of him. So tall and straight, and fair and +strong. And at the risk of causing a second fit among some of the +critics, I must add, he probably wore silk socks, and was "beautifully +groomed," too, as all young Englishmen are of his class and age. And +how supple his lithe body seemed as he bent over the oars, while the +boat shot out into the blue water. + +The mountains were really very jolly, he thought, and it was not too +hot, and he was glad he had come out, even though he had eaten no +breakfast and was feeling rather cheap still. Yes, very glad. + +After he had advanced a few hundred yards he rested on his oars, and +looked up at the hotel. Then wonder came back to him, where was she +to-day--the lady with the eyes? Or had he dreamed it--and was there no +lady at all? + +It should not worry him anyway--so he rowed ahead, and ceased to +speculate. + +The first thing he did when he came in for lunch was to finish his +letter to Isabella. + +"P. S.--Monday," he added. "It is finer to-day, and I have had some +exercise. The view isn't bad now the mist has gone. I shall do some +climbing, I think. Take care of yourself, dear girl. Good-bye. + +"Love from + +"PAUL." + +It was with a feeling of excitement that he entered the restaurant for +_dejeuner_. Would she be there? How would she seem in daylight? + +But the little table where she had sat the night before was +unoccupied. There were the usual cloth and glass and silver, but no +preparations for any specially expected guest upon it. Paul felt +annoyed with himself because his heart sank. Had she gone? Or did she +only dine in public? Perhaps she lunched in the sitting-room beyond +the terrace, where he had seen her eyes the night before. + +The food was really very good, and the sun shone, and Paul was young +and hungry, so presently he forgot about the lady and enjoyed his +meal. + +The appearance of the Buergenstock across the lake attracted him, as +afterwards he smoked another cigar under the trees. He would hire an +electric launch and go there and explore the paths. If only Pike were +with him--or--Isabella! + +This idea he put into execution. + +What a thing was a funicular railway. How steep and unpleasant, but +how quaint the tree-tops looked when one was up among them. Yes--Lucerne +was a good deal jollier than Paris. And he roamed about among +the trees, never noticing their beautiful colours. Presently he paused +to rest. He was soothed--even peaceful. If he had Pike he could +really be quite happy, he thought. + +What was that rustle among the leaves above him? He looked up, and +started then as violently almost as he had done the night +before. Because there, peeping at him from the tender green of the +young beeches, was the lady in black. She looked down upon him through +the parted boughs, her black hat and long black veil making a sharp +silhouette against the vivid verdure, her whole face in tender shadow +and framed in the misty gauze. + +Paul's heart beat violently. He felt a pulse in his throat--for a few +seconds. + +He knew he was gazing into her eyes, and he thought he knew they were +green. They looked larger than he had imagined them to be. They were +set so beautifully, too, just a suspicion of rise at the corners. And +their expression was mocking and compelling--and--But she let go the +branches and disappeared from view. + +Paul stood still. He was thrilling all over. Should he bound in among +the trees and follow her? Should he call out and ask her to come back? +Should he--? But when he had decided and gained the spot where she +must have stood, he saw it was a junction of three paths, and he was +in perfect ignorance which one she had taken. He rushed down the +first of them, but it twisted and turned, and when he had gone far +enough to see ahead--there was no one in sight. So he retraced his +steps and tried the second. This, too, ended in disappointment. And +the third led to an opening where he could see the descending +_funiculaire_, and just as it sank out of view he caught sight of +a black dress, almost hidden by a standing man's figure, whom he +recognised as the elderly silver-haired servant. + +Paul had learnt a number of swear-words at Eton and Oxford. And he let +the trees hear most of them then. + +He could not get down himself until the train returned, and by that +time where would she be? To go by the paths would take an +eternity. This time circumstance had fairly done him. + +Presently he sauntered back to the little hotel whose terrace commands +the lake far below, and eagerly watching the craft upon it, he thought +he caught sight of a black figure reclining in an electric launch +which sped over the blue water. + +Then he began to reason with himself. Why should the sight of this +woman have caused him such violent emotion? Why? Women were jolly +things that did not matter much--except Isabella. She mattered, of +course, but somehow her mental picture came less readily to his mind +than usual. The things he seemed to see most distinctly were her +hands--her big red hands. And then he unconsciously drifted from all +thought of her. + +"She certainly looks younger in daylight," he said to himself. "Not +more than thirty perhaps. And what strange hats with that shadow over +her eyes. What is she doing here all alone? She must be somebody from +the people in the hotel making such a fuss--and that servant--Then why +alone?" He mused and mused. + +She was not a _demi-mondaine_. The English ones he knew were very +ordinary people, but he had heard of some of the French ladies as +being quite _grande dame_, and travelling _en prince_. Yet he was +convinced this was not one of them. Who _could_ she be? He must know. + +To go back to the hotel would be the shortest way to find out, and so +by the next descending train he left the Buergenstock. + +He walked up and down under the lime-trees outside the terrace of her +rooms for half an hour, but was not rewarded in any way for his pains. +And at last he went in. He, too, would have a dinner worth eating, he +thought. So he consulted the _maitre d'hotel_ on his way up to +dress, and together they evolved a banquet. Paul longed to question +the man about the unknown, but as yet he was no actor, and he found he +felt too much about it to do it naturally. + +He dressed with the greatest care, and descended at exactly half-past +eight. Yes, the table was laid for her evidently--but there were giant +carnations, not roses, in the silver vase to-night. How quickly the +waiters seemed to bring things! And what a frightful lot there was to +eat! And dawdle as he would, by nine o'clock he had almost +finished. Perhaps it would be as well to send for a newspaper +again. Anything to delay his having to rise and go out. An anxious, +uncomfortable gnawing sense of expectancy dominated him. How +ridiculous for a woman to be so late! What cook could do justice to +his dishes if they were thus to be kept waiting? She couldn't possibly +have _ordered_ it for half past nine, surely! Gradually, as that +hour passed and his second cup of coffee had been sipped to its +finish, Paul felt a sickening sense of anger and disappointment. He +got up abruptly and went out. In the hall, coming from the corridor of +her rooms, he met the lady face to face. + +Then rage with himself seized him. Why had he not waited? For no +possible reason could he go back now. And what a chance to look at her +missed--and all thrown away. + +He sat sullenly down in the hall, resisting the temptation to go into +the beautiful night. At least he would see her on her way back. But he +waited until nearly eleven, and she never appeared, and then the +maddening thought came to him--she had probably passed to her rooms +along the terrace outside, under the lime-tree. + +He bounded up, and stalked into the starlight. He could see through +the windows of the restaurant, and no one was there. Then he sat on +the bench again, under the ivy--but all was darkness and silence; and +thoroughly depressed, Paul at last went to bed. + +Next day was so gloriously fine that youth and health sang within +him. He was up and away quite early. Not a thought of this strange +lady should cross his mind for the entire day, he determined as he ate +his breakfast. And soon he started for the Rigi in a launch, taking +the English papers with him. Intense joy, too! A letter from Isabella! + +Such a nice letter. All about Pike and Moonlighter, and the other +horses--and Isabella was going to stay with a friend at Blackheath, +where she hoped to get better golf than at home--and Lady Henrietta +had been gracious to her, and given her Paul's address, and there had +been a "jolly big party" at Verdayne Place for Sunday, but none of his +"pals." At least if there were, they were not in church, she added +naively. + +All this Paul read in his launch on the way to the Rigi, and for some +unexplained reason the information seemed about things a long way off, +and less thrilling than usual. He had a splendid climb, and when he +got back to Lucerne in the evening he was thoroughly tired, and so +hungry he flew down to his dinner. + +It was nearly nine o'clock; at least if she came to-night he would be +there to see her. But of course it did not matter if she came or not, +he had conquered that ridiculous interest. He would hardly look until +he reached his table. Yes, there she was, but dipping her white +fingers in the rosewater at the very end of her repast. + +And again, in spite of himself, a strange wild thrill ran through +Paul, and he knew it was what he had been subconsciously hoping for +all day--and oh, alas! it mattered exceedingly. + +The lady never glanced at him. She swept from the room, her stately +graceful movements delighting his eye. He could understand and +appreciate movement--was he not accustomed to thoroughbreds, and able +to judge of their action and line? + +How blank the space seemed when she had gone--dull and unspeakably +uninteresting. He became impatient with the slowness of the waiters, +who had seemed to hurry unnecessarily the night before. But at last +his meal ended, and he went out under the trees. The sky was so full +of stars it hardly seemed dark. The air was soft, and in the distance +a band played a plaintive valse tune. + +There were numbers of people walking about, and the lights from the +hotel windows lit up the scene. Only the ivy terrace was in shadow as +he again sat down on the bench. + +How had she got in last night? That he must find out--he rose, and +peered about him. Yes, there was a little gate, a flight of steps, a +private entrance into this suite, just round the corner. + +And as he looked at it, the lady, wrapped in a scarf of black gauze, +passed him, and standing aside while the silver-haired servant opened +the little door with a key, she then entered and disappeared from +view. + +It seemed as if the stars danced to Paul. His whole being was +quivering with excitement, and now he sat on the bench again almost +trembling. + +He did not move for at least half an hour; then the clocks chimed in +the town. No, there was no hope; he would see her no more that night. +He rose listlessly to go back to bed, tired out with his day's +climb. And as he stood up, there, above the ivy again, he saw her face +looking down upon him. + +How had she crossed the terrace without his hearing her? How long had +she been there? But what matter? At least she was there. And those +eyes looking into his out of the shadow, what did they say? Surely +they smiled at him. Paul jumped on to the bench. Now he was almost +level with her face--almost--and his was raised eagerly in +expectation. Was he dreaming, or did she whisper something? The sound +was so soft he was not quite sure. He stretched out his arms to her in +the darkness, pulling himself by the ivy nearer still. And this time +there was no mistake. + +"Come, Paul," she said. "I have some words to say to you." + +And round to the little gate Paul flew. + + + + +CHAPTER III + + +Paul was never quite sure of what happened that evening--everything +was so wonderful, so unusual, so unlike his ordinary life. The gate +was unlocked he found when he got there, but no one appeared to be +inside, and he bounded up the steps and on to the terrace. Silence and +darkness--was she fooling him then? No, there she was by one of the +windows; he could dimly see her outline as she passed into the room +beyond, through some heavy curtains. That was why no light came +through to the terrace. He followed, dropping them after him also, and +then he found himself in a room as unlike a hotel as he could +imagine. It may have had the usual brocade walls and gilt chairs of +the "best suite," but its aspect was so transformed by her subtle +taste and presence, it seemed to him unique, and there were masses of +flowers--roses, big white ones--tuberoses--lilies of the valley, +gardenias, late violets. The light were low and shaded, and a great +couch filled one side of the room beyond the fireplace. Such a couch! +covered with a tiger-skin and piled with pillows, all shades of rich +purple velvet and silk, embroidered with silver and gold--unlike any +pillows he had ever seen before, even to their shapes. The whole thing +was different and strange--and intoxicating. + +The lady had reached the couch, and sank into it. She was in black +still, but gauzy, clinging black, which seemed to give some gleam of +purple underneath. And if he had not been sure that in daylight he had +thought they were green, he would have sworn the eyes which now looked +into his were deepest violet, too. + +"Come," she said. "You may sit here beside me and tell me what you +think." + +And her voice was like rich music--but she had hardly any accent. She +might have been an Englishwoman almost, for that matter, and yet he +somehow knew that she was not. Perhaps it was she pronounced each +word; nothing was slurred over. Without her hat she looked even more +attractive, and certainly younger. But what was age or youth? And what +was beauty itself, when a woman whose face was neither young nor +beautiful could make him feel he was looking at a divine goddess, and +thrilling as he had never dreamt of doing in his short life? + +If any one had told Paul this was going to happen to him, this +experience, he would have laughed them to scorn. To begin with, he was +rather shy with ladies as a rule, and had not learnt a trick of +_entreprenance_. It took him quite a while to know one well +enough to even talk at ease. And yet here he was, embarked upon an +adventure which savoured of the Arabian Nights. + +He came forward and sat down, and he could feel the pulse beating in +his throat. It all seemed perfectly natural at the time, but +afterwards he wondered how she had known his name was Paul--and how it +had all come to pass. + +"For three days you have thought of me, Paul--is it not so?" she said, +half closing her lids. + +But he could only blurt out "Yes!" while he devoured her with his +eyes. + +"We are both--how shall I say--drifting--holiday-making--trying to +forget. And we must talk a little together, _n'est-ce pas_? Tell +me?" + +"Oh, yes!" said Paul. + +"You are beautiful, you know, Paul," she went on. "So tall and +straight like you English, with curly hair of gold. Your mother must +have loved you as a baby." + +"I suppose she did," said Paul. + +"She is well? Your mother, the stately lady?" + +"Very well--do you know her?" he asked, surprised. + +"Long ago I have seen her, and I knew you at once, so like you +are--and to your uncles, especially the Lord Hubert." + +"Uncle Hubert is a rotter!" + +"A--rotter?" inquired the lady. "And what is that?" And she smiled a +divine smile. + +Paul felt ashamed. "Oh! well, it _is_ a rotter, you know--that +_is_--like Uncle Hubert, I mean." + +She laughed again. "You do not explain well, but I understand you. And +so you only resemble the Uncle Hubert on the outside--that is good." + +Paul felt jealous. Lord Hubert Aldringham's reputation--for some +things--was European. "I hope so," he said with emphasis. "And you +knew him well then, too?" + +"I never said so," replied the lady. "I saw him once--twice +perhaps--years ago--at the marriage of a princess. There, it has made +you frown, we will speak no more of the Uncle Hubert!" and she leant +back and laughed. + +Paul felt very young. He wanted to show her he was grown up, and he +wanted a number of things which had never even formed themselves in +his imagination before. But she went on talking. + +"And your _cotelettes_ were tough, Paul, and you were so cross +that first evening, and hated me! And oh! Paul, you had far too much +wine for a boy like you!" + +He reddened to the roots of his fair wavy hair, and then he hung his +head. + +"I know I did--it was beastly of me--but I was so--upset--I--" + +"Look at me," she said, and she bent forward over him--a gliding +feline movement infinitely sinuous and attractive. + +Then he looked, his big blue eyes still cloudy with a mist of shame. + +"You must tell me why you were upset, baby--Paul!" + +How often she said his name! lingering over it as if it were music. It +thrilled him every time. + +Then he gained courage. + +"But how did you know anything about it--or what I had--or what I +drank? You never once raised your eyelids all the time!" + +"Perhaps I can see through them when I want to--who knows!" and she +laughed. + +"And you wanted to--wanted to see through them?" + +He was gazing at her now, and she suddenly looked down, while the most +beautiful transparent pink flushed her soft white cheeks, turning her +into a tender girl almost. The change was so sudden, it startled Paul, +and emboldened him. + +"You wanted to!" he repeated in a glad voice. "You wanted to see me?" + +"Yes," she whispered, and she looked up at him, but this time there +was mischief in her eyes. + +"Is that why you sighed then among the ivy? What made you sigh?" + +She paused a moment, and then she said slowly: "A number of +things. You seemed so young, and so beautiful, and so--asleep." + +"Indeed I wasn't asleep!" Paul exclaimed. "It would take a great deal +more port than that to make me go to sleep. I was thinking of--" And +then he saw she had not meant that kind of sleep, and felt a fool--and +wondered. + +She helped him out. + +"All this time you have not told me why you were upset--upset enough +to drink bad port. That was naughty of you, Paul." + +"I was upset--over you. I was angry because I was so interested--" and +he reddened again. + +She leant back among the purple cushions, her figure so supple in its +lines, it made him think of a snake. She half closed her eyes +again--and she spoke low in a dreamy voice: + +"It was fate, Paul. I knew it when I entered the room. I felt it again +among the green trees, and so I ran from you--but to-night it is +_plus fort que moi_--so I called you to come in." + +"I am so glad--so _glad_," said Paul. + +She remained silent. Her eyes in their narrowed lids gleamed at him, +seeming to penetrate into his very soul. And now he noticed her mouth +again. It neither drooped nor smiled, it was straight, and chiselled +and strong, and small rather, and the lower lip was rounded and +slightly cleft in the centre. A most appetising red flower of a mouth. + +By this time Paul was more or less intoxicated with excitement, he had +lost all sense of time and place. It seemed as if he had known her +always--that there never had been a moment when she had not filled the +whole of his horizon. + +They were both silent for a couple of minutes. As far as he could +gather from her inscrutable face, she was weighing things--what +things? + +Suddenly she sprang up, one of those fine movements of hers full of +cat-like grace. + +"Paul," she said, "listen," and she spoke rather fast. "You are so +young, so young--and I shall hurt you--probably. Won't you go +now--while there is yet time? Away from Lucerne, back to Paris--even +back to England. Anywhere away from me." + +She put her hand on his arm, and looked up into his eyes. And there +were tears in hers. And now he saw that they were grey. + +He was moved as never yet in all his life. + +"I will not!" he said. "I may be young, but to-night I know--I want to +live! And I will chance the hurt, because I know that only you can +teach me--just how--"' + +Then his voice broke, and he bent down and covered her hand with +kisses. + +She quivered a little and drew away. She picked up a great bunch of +tuberoses, and broke off all their tops. "There, take them!" she said, +pressing them into his hands, and those against his heart. "Take them +and go--and dream of me. You have chosen. Dream of me to-night and +remember--there is to-morrow." + +Then she glided back from him, and before he realised it she had gone +noiselessly away through another door. + +Paul stood still. The room swam; his head swam. Then he stumbled out +on to the terrace, under the night sky, the white blossoms still +pressed against his heart. + +He must have walked about for hours. The grey dawn was creeping over +the silent world when at last he went back to the hotel and to his +bed. + +There he slept and dreamt--never a dream! For youth and health are +glorious things. And he was tired out. + +The great sun was high in the heavens when next he awoke. And the room +was full of the scent of tuberoses, scattered on the pillow beside +him. Presently, when his blue eyes began to take in the meaning of +things, he remembered and bounded up. For was not this the +commencement of his first real day? + + + + +CHAPTER IV + + +The problem which faced Paul, when he had finished a very late +breakfast, was how he should see her soon--the lady in black. + +He could not go and call like an ordinary visitor, because he did not +know her name! That was wonderful--did not even know her name, or +anything about her, only that his whole being was thrilling with +anxiety to see her again. + +The simplest thing to do seemed to descend into the hall and look at +the Visitors' List, which he promptly did. + +There were only a few people in the hotel; it was not hard, therefore, +guessing at the numbers of the rooms, to arrive at the conviction that +"Mme. Zalenska and suite" might be what he was searching +for. Zalenska--she was possibly Russian after all. And what was her +christian name? That he longed to know. + +As he stood staring, his fair forehead puckered into a frown of +thought, the silver-haired servant came up behind him and said, with +his respectful, dignified bearing: + +"_De la part de Madame_," handing Paul a letter the while. + +What could it contain? + +But this was not the moment for speculation--he would read and see. + +He turned his back on the servant, and walked towards the light, while +he tore open the envelope. It had the most minute sphinx in the +corner, and the paper was un-English, and rather thin. + +This was what he read: + +"_Morning_. + +"Paul, I am young to-day, and we must see the blue lake and the green +trees. Come to the landing towards the station, and I will call for +you in my launch. And you shall be young, too, Paul--and teach me! +Give Dmitry the answer." + +"The answer is, 'Yes, immediately'--tell Madame," Paul said. + +And then he trod on air until he arrived at the landing she had +indicated. Soon the launch glided up, he saw her there reclining under +an awning of striped green. + +It was a well-arranged launch, the comfortable deck-chairs were in the +bows, and the steering took place from a raised perch behind the +cabin, so the two were practically alone. The lady was in grey to-day, +and it suited her strangely. Her eyes gleamed at him, full of +mischief, under her large grey hat. + +Paul drew his chair a little forward, turning it so that he could look +at her without restraint. + +"How good of you to send for me," he said delightedly. + +She smiled a radiant smile. "Was it? I am capricious, I did not think +of the good for you, only I wanted you--to please myself. I wish to be +foolish to-day, Paul, and see your eyes dance, and watch the light on +your curls." + +Paul frowned; it was as if she thought him a baby. + +Then the lady leant back and laughed, the sound was of golden bells. + +"Yes, you are a baby!" she said, answering his thoughts. "A great, +big, beautiful baby, Paul." + +If Paul had been a girl he would have pouted. + +She turned from him and gazed over the lake; it was looking +indescribably beautiful, with the colours of the springtime. + +"Do you see the green of those beeches by the water, Paul? Look at +their tenderness, next the dark firs--and then the blue beyond--and +see, there is a copper beech, he is king of them all! I would like to +build a chalet up in some part like that, and come there each year in +May--to read fairy-tales." + +For the first time in his life Paul saw with different eyes--just the +beauty of things--and forgot to gauge their sporting possibilities. An +infinite joy was flooding his being, some sensation he had not dreamed +about even, of happiness and fulfilment. + +She appeared to him more alluring than ever, and young and gay--as +young as Isabella! And then his thoughts caused him to take in his +breath with a hiss--Isabella--how far away she seemed. Of course he +could never love any one else--but-- + +"Don't think of it, then," the lady whispered. "Be young like me, and +live under the blue sky." + +How was it she knew his thoughts always? He blushed while he +stammered: "No--I won't think of it--or anything but you--Princess." + +"Daring one!" she said, "who told you to call me that? The hotel +people have been talking, I suppose." + +"No," said Paul, surprised, "I called you Princess just because you +seem like one to me--but now I guess from what you say, you are not +plain Madame Zalenska." + +Her eyes clouded for a second. "Madame Zalenska does to travel +with--but you shall call me what you like." + +He grew emboldened. + +"I suddenly feel I want so much--I want to know why your eyes were so +mocking through the trees on the Buergenstock? They drove me nearly +mad, you know, and I raced about after you like a dog after a hare!" + +"I thought you would--you did not control the expression when you +gazed up at me! And so I was the true hare--and ran away!" + +She looked down suddenly and was silent for some moments, then she +turned the conversation from these personal things. She led his +thoughts into new channels--made him observe the trees and sky, and +the wonderful beauty of it all, and with lightning flashes took him +into unknown speculations on emotions and the meaning of things. + +A new existence seemed to open to Paul's view. And all the while she +lay back in her chair almost motionless, only her wonderful eyes lit +up the strange whiteness of her face. There was not a touch of +_mauvaise honte_, or explanation of the unusualness of this +situation in her manner. It had a perfect, quiet dignity, as if to +look into the eyes of an unknown young man at night over an ivy +terrace, and then spend a day with him alone, were the most natural +things in the world to do. + +Paul felt she was a queen whose actions must be left unquestioned. + +Presently they came to a small village, and here she would land and +lunch. And from somewhere behind the cabin Dmitry appeared, and was +sent on ahead, so that when they walked into the little hotel a simple +repast was waiting for them. + +By this time Paul was absolutely enthralled. Never in his whole life +had he spent such a morning. His imagination was expanded. He saw new +vistas. His brain almost whirled. Was it he--Paul Verdayne--who was +seated opposite this divine woman, drinking in her voice, and +listening to her subtle curious thoughts? + +And what were the commonplace, ordinary things which had hitherto +occupied his mind? How had he ever wasted a moment on them? + +It was his first awakening. + +When it came to the end--this delightful repast--he called the waiter, +and wanted to pay the bill; small enough in all conscience. But a new +look appeared round the lady's mouth--imperious, with an instantaneous +flash in her eyes--a pure, steel-grey they were to-day. + +"Leave it to Dmitry," she said quickly. "I never occupy myself with +money. They displease me, these details--and why spoil my day?" + +But Paul was an Englishman, and resented any woman's paying for his +food. His mouth changed, too, and looked obstinate. + +"I say, you know--" he began. + +Then she turned upon him. + +"Understand at once," she said haughtily. "Either you leave me +unjarred by your English conventionalities, or you pay these miserable +francs and go back to Lucerne alone!" + +Paul shrugged his shoulders. He was angry, but could not insist +further. + +When they got outside, her voice grew caressing again as she led the +way to a path up among the young beeches. + +"Paul--foolish one!" she said. "Do you not think I understand and know +you--and your quaint English ways? But imagine how silly it is. I am +quite aware that you have ample money to provide me with a feast of +Midas--all of gold--if necessary, and you shall some day, if you +really wish. But to stop over paltry sums of francs, to destroy the +thread of our conversation and thoughts--to make it all banal and +everyday! That is what I won't have. Dmitry is there for nothing else +but to _eviter_ for me these details. It is my holiday, my +pleasure-day, my time of joy. I felt young, Paul. You would not make +one little shadow for me--would you, _ami?_" + +No voice that he had ever dreamt of possessed so many tones in it as +hers--even one of pathos, as she lingered over the word "shadow," All +his annoyance melted. He only felt he would change the very mainspring +of his life if necessary to give her pleasure and joy. + +"Of course I would not make a shadow,--surely you know that," he +said, moved. "Only you see a man generally pays for a woman's food." + +"When she belongs to him--but I don't belong to you, baby Paul. You, +for the day, belong to me--and are my guest!" + +"Very well, then, we won't talk about it," he said, resigned by the +caress in her words. To belong to her! That was something, if but for +one day. + +"Only it must never come up again, this question", she +insisted. "Should we spend more hours on this lake, or other lakes--or +mountains, or rivers, or towns--let us speak never of money, or +paying. If you only knew of how I hate it! the cruel yellow gold! I +have heaps of it--heaps of it! and for it human beings have always +paid so great a price. Just this once in life let it bring happiness +and peace." + +He wondered at the concentrated feeling she expressed. What could the +price be? And what was her history?" + +"So it is over, our little breeze," she said gently, after a +pause. "And you will tease me no more, Paul?" + +"I would never tease you!" he exclaimed tenderly. And, if he had +dared, he would have taken her hand. + +"You English are so wonderful! Full of your prejudices," she said in a +contemplative way. "Bulldog tenacity of purpose, whether you are +right or wrong. Things are a custom, and they must be done, or it is +not 'playing the game,'" and she imitated a set English voice, her +beautiful mouth pursed up, until Paul had to use violent restraint +with himself to keep from kissing it. "A wonderful people--mostly +gentlemen and generally honest, but of a common sense that is +disastrous to sentiment or romance. If you were not so polished, and +lazy and strong--and beautiful to look at, one would not consider you +much beyond the German." + +"Not consider us beyond a beastly German!" exclaimed Paul +indignantly. + +And the lady laughed like a child. + +"Oh! you darling Paul!" she said. "You dear, insular, arrogant +Englishman! You have no equal in the world!" + +Paul was offended. + +"If you had said an Austrian now--but a German--" he growled sulkily. + +"The Austrians are charming," allowed the lady, "but they err the +other way; they have not enough common sense, they are only great +gentlemen. Also, they are naturally awake, whereas you English are +naturally asleep, and you yourself are the Sleeping Beauty, Paul." + +They had climbed up the path now some two hundred feet, and all around +them were stripling beeches of an unnaturally exquisite green, as +fresh and pure and light almost as leaves of the forced lily of the +valley. + +The whole world throbbed with youth and freshness, and here and there, +wide of the path, by a mossy stone, a gentian raised its azure head, +"small essences of sky;" the lady called them. + +"Let us sit down on this piece of rock," Paul said. "I want to hear +why I am the Sleeping Beauty. It is so long since I read the story. +But wasn't it about a girl, not a man--and didn't she get wakened up +by a--kiss?" + +"She did!" said the lady, leaning back against a tree behind her; "but +then it was just her faculties which were asleep, not her soul. Could +a kiss wake a soul?" + +"I think so," Paul whispered. He was seated on a part of the rock +which jutted out a little lower than her resting-place, and he was so +close as to be almost touching her. He could look up under the brim of +that tantalising hat, which so often hid her from his view as they +walked. He was quivering with excitement at this moment, the result of +the thought of a kiss--and his blue eyes blazed with desire as they +devoured her face. + +"Yes--it is so," said the lady, a low note in her voice. "Because +Huldebrand gave Undine a soul with a kiss." + +"Tell me about it," implored Paul. "I am so ignorant. Who was +Huldebrand, and what did he do?" + +So she began in a dreamy voice, and you who have read De la Motte +Fouque's dry version of this exquisite legend would hardly have +recognised the poetry and pathos and tender sentiment she wove round +those two, and the varied moods of Undine, and the passion of her +knight. And when she came to the evening of their wedding, when the +young priest had placed their hands together, and listened to their +vows--when Undine had found her soul at last, in Huldebrand's +arms--her voice faltered, and she stopped and looked down. + +"And then?" said Paul, and his breath came rather fast. "And then?" + +"He was a man, you see, Paul; so when he had won her love, he did not +value it--he threw it away." + +"Oh, no! I don't believe it!" Paul exclaimed vehemently. "It was just +this brute Huldebrand. But you don't know men--to think they do not +value what they win--you don't know them, indeed!" + +She looked down straight into his face, as he gazed up at her, and to +his intense surprise he could have sworn her eyes were green now! as +green as emeralds. And they held him and fascinated him and paralysed +him, like those of a snake. + +"I do not know men?" she said softly. "You think not, Paul?" + +But Paul could hardly speak, he buried his face in her lap, like a +child, and kept it there, kissing her gloved hands. His straw hat, +with its Zingari ribbon, lay on the grass beside him, and a tiny shaft +of sunlight glanced through the trees, gilding the crisp waves of his +brushed-back hair into dark burnished gold. + +The lady moved one hand from his impassioned caress, and touched the +curl with her finger-tips. She smiled with the tenderness a mother +might have done. + +"There--there!" she said. "Not yet." Then she drew her hand away from +him and leant back, half closing her eyes. + +Paul sat up and stared around. Each moment of the day was providing +new emotions for him. Surely this was what Columbus must have felt, +nearing the new world. He pulled himself together. She was not angry +then at his outburst, and his caress--though something in her face +warned him not to err again. + +"Tell me the rest," he said pleadingly. "Why did he not value Undine's +love, and what made the fool throw it away?" + +"Because he possessed it, you see," said the lady. "That was reason +enough, surely." + +Then she told him of the ceasing of Undine's wayward moods after she +had received her soul--of her docility--of her tenderness--of +Huldebrand's certainty of her love. Then of his inevitable +weariness. And at last of the Court, and the meeting again with +Hildegarde, and of all the sorrow that followed, until the end, when +the fountains burst their stoppings and rushed upwards, wreathing +themselves into the figure of Undine, to take her Love to death with +her kiss. + +"Oh! he was wise!" Paul said. "He chose to die with her kiss. He knew +at last then--what he had thrown away." + +"That one learns often, Paul, when it has grown--too late! Come, let +us live in the sunshine. Live while we may." + +And the lady rose, and giving him her hand, she almost ran into the +bright light of day, where even no tender shadows fell. + + + + +CHAPTER V + + +Their return journey was one of quiet. The lady talked little, she +leant back and looked away across the blue lake, often apparently +unconscious of his presence. This troubled Paul. Had he wearied her? +What should he do? He was growing aware of the fact that she was not a +bit like his mother, or Isabella, or any of the other women whom he +knew--people whose moods he had never even speculated about--if they +had any--which he doubted. + +Why wouldn't she speak? Had she forgotten him? He felt chilled and +saddened. + +At last, as they neared a small bay where another tempting little +chalet-hotel mirrored itself in the clear water, he spoke. A note in +his voice--his charming young voice--as of a child in distress. + +"Are--are you cross with me?" + +Then she came back from her other world. "Cross with you? Foolish +one! No, I am dreaming. And I forgot that you could not know yet, or +understand. English Paul! who would have me make conversation and +chatter commonplaces or he feels a _gene!_ See, I will take you +where I have been into this infinite sky and air"--she let her hand +fall on his arm and thrilled him--"look up at Pilatus. Do you see his +head so snowy, and all the delicate shadows upon him, and his look of +mystery? And those dark pines--and the great chasms, and the wild +anger the giants were in when they hurled these huge rocks about? I +have been with them, and you and I seem such little people, Paul. We +cannot throw great rocks about--we are only two small ants in this +grand world." + +Paul's face was puzzled, he did not believe in giants. His mind was +not accustomed yet to these flights of speech, he felt stupid and +irritated with himself, and in some way humiliated. The lady leant +over him, her face playfully tender. + +"Great blue eyes!" she said. "So pretty, so pretty! What matter +whether they can see or no?" And she touched his lids with her slender +fingers. + +Paul quivered in his chair. + +"You know!" he gasped. "You make me mad--I----But won't you teach me +to see? No one wants to be blind! Teach me to see with your eyes, +lady--my lady." + +"Yes, I will teach you!" she said. "Teach you a number of +things. Together we will put on the hat of darkness and go down into +Hades. We shall taste the apples of the Hesperides--we will rob +Mercure of his sandals--and Gyges of his ring. And one day, Paul--when +together we have fathomed the meaning of it all--what will happen +then, _enfant?_" + +Her last word, "_enfant,_" was a caress, and Paul was too +bewildered with joy to answer her for a moment. + +"What will happen?" he said at last. "I shall just love you--that's +all!" + +Then he remembered Isabella Waring, and suddenly covered his face with +his hands. + +They stopped for tea at the quaint chalet-hotel, and after it they +wandered to pick gentians. The lady was sweet and sympathetic and gay; +she ceased startling him with wild fancies; indeed, she spoke of +simple everyday things, and got him to tell her of his home and +Oxford, and his horses and his dogs. And when they arrived at the +subject of Pike, her sympathy drew Paul nearer to her than ever. Of +course she would love Pike if she only knew him! Who could help loving +a dog like Pike? And his master waxed eloquent. Then, when he looked +away, the lady's weird chameleon eyes melted upon him in that strange +tenderness which might have been a mother's watching the gambols of +her babe. + +The shadows were quite deep when at last they decided to return to +Lucerne--a small bunch of heaven's own blue flower the only trophy of +the day. + +Paul had never enjoyed himself so much in his twenty-three years of +life. And what would the evening bring? Surely more joy. This parting +at the landing could not be good-night! + +But as the launch glided nearer and nearer his heart fell, and at last +he could bear the uncertainty no longer. + +"And for dinner?" he said. "Won't you dine me, my Princess? Let me be +your host, as you have been mine all to-day." + +But a stiffness seemed to fall upon her suddenly--she appeared to have +become a stranger again almost. + +"Thank you, no. I cannot dine," she said. "I must write letters--and +go to sleep." + +Paul felt an ice-hand clutching his heart. His face became so blank as +to almost pale before her eyes. + +She leant forward, and smiled. "Will you be lonely, Paul? Then at ten +o'clock you must come under the ivy and wish me good-night." + +And this was all he could gain from her. She landed him to walk back +to the hotel at the same place from which they had embarked, and the +launch struck out again into the lake. + +He walked fast, just to be near enough to see her step ashore on to +the hotel wharf, but he could not arrive in time, and her grey figure +disappearing up the terrace steps was all his hungry eyes were +vouchsafed. + +The weariness of dinner! What did it matter what the food was? What +did it matter that a new family of quite nice English people had +arrived, and sat near? A fresh young girl and a youth, and a father +and mother. People who would certainly play billiards and probably +bridge. What did anything matter in the world? Time must be got +through, simply got through until ten o'clock--that was all. + +At half-past nine he strode out and sat upon the bench. His thoughts +went back in a constant review of the day. How she had looked, where +they had sat, what she had said. Why her eyes seemed green in the wood +and blue on the water. Why her voice had all those tones in it. Why +she had been old and young, and wise and childish. Then he thought of +the story of Undine and the lady's strange, snake's look when she had +said: "I do not know men?--You think not, Paul?" + +His heart gave a great bound at the remembrance. He permitted himself +no speculation as to where he was drifting. He just sat there +thrilling in every limb and every sense and every quality of his +brain. + +As the clocks chimed the hour something told him she was there above +him, although he heard no sound. + +Not a soul was in sight in this quiet corner. He bounded on to the +bench to be nearer--if she should come. If she were there hiding in +the shadows. This was maddening--unbearable. He would climb the +balustrade to see. Then out of the blackest gloom came a laugh of +silver. A soft laugh that was almost a caress. And suddenly she crept +close and leant down over the ivy. + +"Paul," she whispered. "I have come, you see, to wish +you--good-night!" + +Paul stood up to his full height. He put out his arms to draw her to +him, but she eluded him and darted aside. + +He gave a great sigh of pain. + +Slowly she came back and bent over and over of her own accord--so low +that at last she was level with his face. And slowly her red lips +melted into his young lips in a long, strange kiss. + +Then, before Paul could grasp her, or murmur one pleading word, she +was gone. + +And again he found himself alone, intoxicated with emotion under the +night sky studded with stars. + + + + +CHAPTER VI + + +Rain, rain, rain! That was not an agreeable sound to wake to when one +had not had more than a few hours' sleep, and one's only hope of the +day was to see one's lady again. + +So Paul thought despairingly. What would happen? No lake, or mountain +climb, was possible--but see her he must. After that kiss--that +divine, enthralling, undreamed-of kiss. What did it mean? Did she +love him? He loved her, that was certain. The poor feeble emotion he +had experienced for Isabella was completely washed out and gone now. + +He felt horribly ashamed of himself when he thought about it. His +parents were perfectly right, of course; they had known best, and +fortunately Isabella had not perhaps believed him, and was not a +person of deep feeling anyway. + +But the extreme discomfort of the thought of her made him toss in his +bed. What ought he to do? Rush away from Lucerne? To what good? The +die was cast, and in any case he was not bound to Isabella in any +way. But at least he ought to write to her and tell her he had made a +mistake. That was the only honest thing to do. A terrible duty, and +he must brace himself up to accomplish it. + +He breakfasted in his sitting-room, his thoughts scourging him the +while, and afterwards, with a bulldog determination, he faced the +writing-table and began. + +He tore up at least three sheets to start with--no Greek lines of +punishment in his boyhood had ever appeared such a task as this. He +found himself scribbling profiles on the paper, chiselled profiles +with inky hair--but no words would come. + +"Dear Isabella," he wrote at last. No--"My dear Isabella," then he +paused and bit the pen. "I feel I ought to tell you something has +happened to me. I see my parents were right when--" "Oh! dash it all," +he said to himself, "it's a beastly sneaking thing to do to put it +like that," and he scratched the paragraph out and began again. "I +have made a mistake in my feelings for you; I know now that they were +those of a brother--" "O Lord, what am I to say next, it does sound +bald, this!" The poor boy groaned and ran his hands through his curly +hair, then seized the pen again, and continued--"as such I shall love +you always, dear Isabella. Please forgive me if I have caused you any +pain. It was all my fault, and I feel a beastly cad.--Your very +unhappy PAUL." + +This was not a masterpiece! but it would have to do. So he copied it +out on a fresh piece of paper. Then, when it was all finished and +addressed he ran down and posted it himself in the hall, with some of +the emotions Alexander may have experienced when he burnt his ships. + +The clock struck eleven. At what time would he see the +lady--_his_ lady he called her now. Some instinct told him she +did not wish the hotel people to be aware of their acquaintance. He +felt it wiser not to send a note. He must wait and hope. + +Rain or not, he was too English to stay indoors all day. So out he +went and into the town. The quaint bridge pleased him; he tried to +think how she would have told him to use his eyes. He must not be +stupid, he said to himself, and already he began to perceive new +meanings in things. Coming back, he chanced to stop and look in at +the fur shop under the hotel. There were some nice skins there, and +what caught his attention most was a really splendid tiger. A +magnificent creature the beast must have been. The deepest, most +perfectly marked, largest one he had ever seen. He stood for some time +admiring it. An infinitely better specimen than his lady had over her +couch. Should he buy it for her? Would she take it? Would it please +her to think he had remembered it might be what she would like? + +He went into the shop. It was not even dear as tigers go, and his +parents had given him ample money for any follies. + +"Confound it, Henrietta! The boy must have his head!" Sir Charles +Verdayne had said. "He's my son, you know, and you can't expect to +cure him of one wench unless you provide him with shekels to buy +another." Which crudely expressed wisdom had been followed, and Paul +had no worries where his banking account was concerned. + +He bought the tiger, and ordered it to be sent to his rooms +immediately. + +Then there was lunch to be thought of. She would not be there +probably, but still he had a faint hope. + +She was not there, nor were any preparations made for her; but when +one is twenty-three and hungry, even if deeply in love, one must +eat. The English people had the next table beyond the sacred one of +the lady. The girl was pretty and young, and laughing. But what a +doll! thought Paul. What a meaningless wax doll! Not worth--not worth +a moment's glancing at. + +And the pink and white fluffy girl was saying to herself: "There is +Paul Verdayne again. I wish he remembered he had met me at the De +Courcys', though we weren't introduced. I must get Percy to scrape up +a conversation with him. I wish mamma had not made me wear this green +alpaca to-day." But Paul's blue eyes gazed through and beyond her, and +saw her not. So all this prettiness was wasted. + +And directly after lunch he returned to his sitting room. The tiger +would probably have arrived, and he wanted to further examine it. Yes, +it was there. He pulled it out and spread it over the floor. What a +splendid creature--it reminded him in some way of her--his lady. + +Then he went into his bedroom and fetched a pair of scissors, and +proceeded to kneel on the floor and pare away the pinked-out black +cloth which came beyond the skin. It looked banal, and he knew she +would not like that. + +Oh! he was awaking! this beautiful young Paul. + +He had scarcely finished when there was a tap at the door, and Dmitry +appeared with a note. The thin, remembered paper thrilled him, and he +took it from the servant's hand. + +"Paul--I am in the devil's mood to-day. About 5 o'clock come to me by +the terrace steps." + +That was all--there was no date or signature. But Paul's heart beat +in his throat with joy. + +"I want the skin to go to Madame," he said. "Have you any means of +conveying it to her without the whole world seeing it go?" + +The stately servant bowed. "If the Excellency would help him to fold +it up," he said, "he would take it now to his own room, and from +thence to the _appartement numero 3_." + +It is not a very easy thing to fold up a huge tiger-skin into a brown +paper parcel tied with string. But it was accomplished somehow and +Dmitry disappeared noiselessly with it and an answer to the note: + +"I will be there, sweet lady. + +"Your own PAUL." + +And he was. + +A bright fire burnt in the grate, and some palest orchid-mauve silk +curtains were drawn in the lady's room when Paul entered from the +terrace. And loveliest sight of all, in front of the fire, stretched +at full length, was his tiger--and on him--also at full +length--reclined the lady, garbed in some strange clinging garment of +heavy purple crepe, its hem embroidered with gold, one white arm +resting on the beast's head, her back supported by a pile of the +velvet cushions, and a heap of rarely bound books at her side, while +between her red lips was a rose not redder than they--an almost +scarlet rose. Paul had never seen one as red before. + +The whole picture was barbaric. It might have been some painter's +dream of the Favourite in a harem. It was not what one would expect to +find in a sedate Swiss hotel. + +She did not stir as he stepped in, dropping the heavy curtains after +him. She merely raised her eyes, and looked Paul through and through. +Her whole expression was changed; it was wicked and dangerous and +_provocante_. It seemed quite true, as she had said--she was +evidently in the devil's mood. + +Paul bounded forward, but she raised one hand to stop him. + +"No! you must not come near me, Paul. I am not safe to-day. Not +yet. See, you must sit there and we will talk." + +And she pointed to a great chair of Venetian workmanship and wonderful +old velvet which was new to his view. + +"I bought that chair in the town this morning at the curiosity shop on +the top of Weggisstrasse, which long ago was the home of the Venetian +envoy here--and you bought me the tiger, Paul. Ah! that was good. My +beautiful tiger!" And she gave a movement like a snake, of joy to feel +its fur under her, while she stretched out her hands and caressed the +creature where the hair turned white and black at the side, and was +deep and soft. + +"Beautiful one! beautiful one!" she purred. "And I know all your +feelings and your passions, and now I have got your skin--for the joy +of my skin!" And she quivered again with the movements of a snake. + +It is not difficult to imagine that Paul felt far from calm during +this scene--indeed he was obliged to hold on to his great chair to +prevent himself from seizing her in his arms. + +"I'm--I'm so glad you like him," he said in a choked voice. "I thought +probably you would. And your own was not worthy of you. I found this +by chance. And oh! good God! if you knew how you are making me +feel--lying there wasting your caresses upon it!" + +She tossed the scarlet rose over to him; it hit his mouth. + +"I am not wasting them," she said, the innocence of a kitten in her +strange eyes--their colour impossible to define to-day. "Indeed not, +Paul! He was my lover in another life--perhaps--who knows?" + +"But I," said Paul, who was now quite mad, "want to be your lover in +this!" + +Then he gasped at his own boldness. + +With a lightning movement she lay on her face, raised her elbows on +the tiger's head, and supported her chin in her hands. Perfectly +straight out her body was, the twisted purple drapery outlining her +perfect shape, and flowing in graceful lines beyond--like a serpent's +tail. The velvet pillows fell scattered at one side. + +"Paul--what do you know of lovers--or love?" she said. "My baby Paul!" + +"I know enough to know I know nothing yet which is worth knowing," he +said confusedly. "But--but--don't you understand, I want you to teach +me--" + +"You are so sweet, Paul! when you plead like that I am taking in every +bit of you. In your way as perfect as this tiger. But we must +talk--oh! such a great, great deal--first." + +A rage of passion was racing through Paul, his incoherent thoughts +were that he did not want to talk--only to kiss her--to devour her--to +strangle her with love if necessary. + +He bit the rose. + +"You see, Paul, love is a purely physical emotion," she continued. "We +could speak an immense amount about souls, and sympathy, and +understanding, and devotion. All beautiful things in their way, and +possible to be enjoyed at a distance from one another. All the things +which make passion noble--but without love--which _is_ passion--these +things dwindle and become duties presently, when the hysterical +exaltation cools. Love is _tangible_--it means to be close--close--to +be clasped--to be touching--to be One!" + +Her voice was low--so concentrated as to be startling in contrast to +the drip of the rain outside, and her eyes--half closed and +gleaming--burnt into his brain. It seemed as if strange flames of +green darted from their pupils. + +"But that is what I want!" Paul said, unsteadily. + +"Without counting the cost? Tears and--cold steel--and blood!" she +whispered. "Wait a while, beautiful Paul!" + +He started back chilled for a second, and in that second she changed +her position, pulling the cushions around her, nestling into them and +drawing herself cosily up like a child playing on a mat in front of +the fire, while with a face of perfect innocence she looked up as she +drew one of her great books nearer, and said in a dreamy voice: + +"Now we will read fairy-tales, Paul." + +But Paul was too moved to speak. These rapid changes were too much for +him, greatly advanced though he had become in these short days since +he had known her. He leant back in his chair, every nerve in his body +quivering, his young fresh face almost pale. + +"Paul," she cooed plaintively, "to-morrow I shall be reasonable again, +perhaps, and human, but to-day I am capricious and wayward, and +mustn't be teased. I want to read about Cupid and Psyche from this +wonderful 'Golden Ass' of Apuleius--just a simple tale for a wet +day--and you and--me!" + +"Read then!" said Paul, resigned. + +And she commenced in Latin, in a chanting, tender voice. Paul had +forgotten most of the Latin he knew, but he remembered enough to be +aware that this must be as easy as English to her as it flowed along +in a rich rhythmic sound. + +It soothed him. He seemed to be dreaming of flowery lands and running +streams. After a while she looked up again, and then with one of her +sudden movements like a graceful cat, she was beside him leaning from +the back of his chair. + +"Paul!" she whispered right in his ear, "am I being wicked for you +to-day? I cannot help it. The devil is in me--and now I must sing." + +"Sing then!" said Paul, maddened with again arising emotion. + +She seized a guitar that lay near, and began in a soft voice in some +language he knew not--a cadence of melody he had never heard, but one +whose notes made strange quivers all up his spine. An exquisite +pleasure of sound that was almost pain. And when he felt he could bear +no more, she flung the instrument aside, and leant over his chair +again--caressing his curls with her dainty fingers, and purring +unknown strange words in his ear. + +Paul was young and unlearned in many things. He was completely +enthralled and under her dominion--but he was naturally no weakling of +body or mind. And this was more than he could stand. + +"_You_ mustn't be teased. My God! it is you who are maddening +me!" he cried, his voice hoarse with emotion. "Do you think I am a +statue, or a table, or chair--or inanimate like that tiger there? I am +not, I tell you!" and he seized her in his arms, raining kisses upon +her which, whatever they lacked in subtlety, made up for in their +passion and strength. "Some day some man will kill you, I suppose, but +I shall be your lover--first!" + +The lady gasped. She looked up at him in bewildered surprise, as a +child might do who sets a light to a whole box of matches in +play. What a naughty, naughty toy to burn so quickly for such a little +strike! + +But Paul's young, strong arms held her close, she could not struggle +or move. Then she laughed a laugh of pure glad joy. + +"Beautiful, savage Paul," she whispered. "Do you love me? Tell me +that?" + +"Love you!" he said. "Good God! Love you! Madly, and you know it, +darling Queen." + +"Then," said the lady in a voice in which all the caresses of the +world seemed melted, "then, sweet Paul, I shall teach you many things, +and among them I shall teach you how--to--LIVE." + +And outside the black storm made the darkness fall early. And inside +the half-burnt logs tumbled together, causing a cloud of golden +sparks, and then the flames leapt up again and crackled in the grate. + + + + +CHAPTER VII + + +At dinner that night the lady came in after Paul was seated. She was +all in black velvet, stately and dignified and fine. She passed his +chair and took her seat, not the faintest sign of recognition on her +face. And although he was prepared for this, for some reason his +heart sank for a moment. Her demeanour was the same as on the first +night he had seen her, hardly raising her eyes, eating little of the +most exquisite food, and appearing totally unconscious of her +neighbours or their ways. + +She caused a flutter of excitement at the English table, the only +other party, except two old men in a corner, who had dined so late, +and they were half-way through their repast before she began +hers. Paul was annoyed to see how they stared--stared at _his_ +lady. But what joy it was to sit there and realise that she was +his--his very own! And only four nights ago he had been a rude +stranger, too, criticising her every movement, and drinking too much +port with annoyance over it all. And now his whole life was changed. +He saw with new eyes, and heard with new ears, even his casual +observation was altered and sharpened, so that he noticed the texture +of the cloth and the quality of the glass, and the shape of the room +and its decoration. + +And how insupportably commonplace the good English family seemed! That +bread-and-butter miss with her pink cheeks and fluffy hair, without a +hat! Women's hair should be black and grow in heavy waves. He was +certain of that now. How like them to come into a foreign restaurant +hatless, just because they were English and must impose their customs! +He sat and mused on it all, as he looked at his velvet-clad Queen. A +sense of complete joy and satisfaction stealing over him, his wild +excitement and emotion calmed for the time. + +The delightful sensation of sharing a secret with her--a love-secret +known only to themselves. Think, if these Philistines guessed at it +even! their faces. And at this thought Paul almost laughed aloud. + +With passionate interest he absorbed every little detail about his +lady. How exactly she knew what suited her. How refined and _grande +dame_ and quiet it all was, and what an air of breeding and command +she had in the poise of her little Greek head. + +What did it matter what age she was, or of what nation? What did +anything matter since she was his? And at that thought his heart began +to beat again and cause him to speculate as to his evening. + +Would she let him come back to the terrace room after dinner, or must +he get through the time as best he could? When he had left her, half +dazed with joy and languor, no arrangements had been made--no definite +plans settled. But of course she could not mean him not to wish her +good-night--not _now_. For one second before she left the room +their eyes met, she raised a red rose, which she had taken from the +silver vase, casually to her lips, and then passed out, but Paul knew +she had meant the kiss for him, and his whole being was uplifted. + +It was still pouring with rain. No possible excuse to smoke on the +terrace. It might be wiser to stay in the hall. Surely Dmitry would +come with some message before very long, if he was patient and waited +her pleasure. But ten o'clock struck and there was no sign. Only the +English youth, Percy Trevellian, had got into conversation with him, +and was proposing billiards to pass the time. + +Paul loved billiards--but not to-night. Heavens! what an idea! Go off +to the billiard-room--now--to-night! + +He said he had a headache, and answered rather shortly in fact, and +then, to escape further importunity, went up to his sitting-room, +there to await the turn of events, leaving poor little Mabel +Trevellian gazing after him with longing eyes. + +"Did you see at dinner how he stared at that foreign person, mamma?" +she said. "Men are such fools! Clarkson told me, as she fastened my +dress to-night, she'd heard she was some Grand Duchess, or Queen, +travelling incognito for her health. Very plain and odd-looking, +didn't you think so, mamma? And quite old!" + +"No, dear. Most distinguished. Not a girl, of course, but quite the +appearance of a Princess," said Mabel's mother, who had seen the +world. + +Paul meanwhile paced his room--an anxious excitement was now his +portion. Surely, surely she could not mean him not to see her--not to +say one little good-night. What should he do? What possible plan +invent? As eleven chimed he could bear it no longer. Rain or no, he +must go out on the terrace! + +"Those mad English!" the porter said to himself, as he watched Paul's +tall figure disappear in the dripping night. + +And there till after twelve he paced the path under the trees. But no +light showed; the terrace gate was locked. It was chilly and wet and +miserable, and at last he crept back utterly depressed, to bed. But +not to sleep. Even his youth and health were not proof against the mad +emotions of the day. He tossed and turned, a thousand questions +singing in his brain. Was it really he who had been chosen by this +divine woman for her lover? And if so, why was he alone now instead of +holding her in his arms? What did it all mean? Who was she? Where +would it end? But here he refused to think further. He was living at +all events--living as he had never dreamed was possible. + +And yet, poor Paul, he was only on the rim of all that he was soon to +know of life. + +At last he fell asleep, one sentence ringing in his ears--"Tears +and--cold steel--and blood!" But if he was young, he was a gallant +gentleman, and Fear had no place in his dreams. + + + + +CHAPTER VIII + + +Next day they went to the Buergenstock to stay. It was all arranged with +consummate simplicity. Paul was to start for a climb, he told his valet, +and for a week they would leave Lucerne. Mme. Zalenska was not very well, +it appeared, and consented to try, at the suggestion of the amiable +manager--inspired by Dmitry--a few days in higher air. There would not be +a soul in their hotel on top of the Buergenstock probably, and she could +have complete rest. + +They did not arrive together, Paul was the first. He had not seen her. +Dmitry had given him his final instructions, and he awaited her coming +with passionate impatience. + +He had written to her, on awaking, a coherent torrent of love, +marvellously unlike the letter which had gone to poor Isabella only a few +days before. In this to his lady he had said he could not bear it _now_, +the uncertainty of seeing her, and had suggested the Buergenstock crudely, +without any of the clever details which afterwards made it possible. + +He--Paul Verdayne, not quite twenty-three years old, and English--to +suggest without a backward thought or a qualm that a lady whom he had +known five days should come and live with him and be his love! None of his +friends accustomed to his bashful habits would have believed it. Only his +father perhaps might have smiled. + +As for the Lady Henrietta, she would have fainted on the spot. But fortune +favoured him--they did not know. + +No excitement of the wildest day's hunting had ever made his pulses bound +like this! Dmitry had arranged everything. Paul was a young English +secretary to Madame, who had much writing to do. And in any case it is not +the affair of respectable foreign hotels to pry into their clients' +relationship when a large suite has been engaged. + +Paul's valet, the son of an old retainer of the family, was an honest +fellow, and devoted to his master--but Sir Charles Verdayne had decided to +make things doubly sure. + +"Tompson," he had said, the morning before they left, "however Mr. +Verdayne may amuse himself while you are abroad, your eyes and mouth are +shut, remember. No d----d gossip back to the servants here, or in hotels, +or houses--and, above all, no details must ever reach her Ladyship. If he +gets into any thundering mess let me know--but mum's the word, d'y +understand, Tompson?" + +"I do, Sir Charles," said Tompson, stolidly. + +And he did, as events proved. + +The rooms on the Buergenstock looked so simple, so unlike the sitting-room +at Lucerne! Just fresh and clean and primitive. Paul wandered through +them, and in the one allotted to himself he came upon Anna--Madame's maid, +whom Dmitry had pointed out to him--putting sheets as fine as gossamer on +his bed; with the softest down pillows. How dear of his lady to think thus +of him!--her secretary. + +The tiger--his tiger--had arrived in the sitting-room, and some simple +cushions of silk; sweet-peas and spring flowers decorated the vases--there +were no tuberoses, or anything hot-house, or forced. + +The sun blazed in at the windows, the green trees all washed and fresh +from the rain gladdened his eye, and down below, a sapphire lake reflected +the snow-capped mountains. What a setting for a love-dream. No wonder Paul +trod on air! + + +The only possible crumpled rose-leaves were some sentences in the lady's +reply to his impassioned letter of the morning: + +"Yes, I will come, Paul--but only on one condition, that you never ask me +questions as to who I am, or where I am going. You must promise me to take +life as a summer holiday--an episode--and if fate gives us this great joy, +you must not try to fetter me, now or at any future time, or control my +movements. You must give me your word of honour for this--you will never +seek to discover who or what was your loved one--you must never try to +follow me. Yes, I will come for now--when I have your assurance--but I +will go when I will go--in silence." + +And Paul had given his word. He felt he could not look ahead. He must just +live in this gorgeous joy, and trust to chance. So he awaited her, +thrilling in all his being. + +About tea time she drove up in a carriage--she and Dmitry having come the +long way round. + +And was it not right that her secretary should meet and assist her out, +and conduct her to her apartments? + +How beautiful she looked, all in palest grey, and somehow the things had a +younger shape. Her skirt was short, and he could see her small and slender +feet, while a straw hat and veil adorned her black hair. Everything was +simple, and as it should be for a mountain top and unsophisticated +surroundings. + +Tea was laid out on the balcony, fragrant Russian tea, and when Dmitry had +lit the silver kettle lamp he retired and left them alone in peace. + +"Darling!" said Paul, as he folded her in his arms--"darling!--darling!" + +And when she could speak the lady cooed back to him: + +"So sweet a word is that, my Paul. Sweeter in English than in any other +language. And you are glad I have come, and we shall live a little and be +quite happy here in our pretty nest, all fresh and not a bit too grand--is +it not so? Oh! what joys there are in life; and oh! how foolish just to +miss them." + +"Indeed, _yes_," said Paul. + +Then they played with the tea, and she showed him how he was to drink it +with lemon. She was sweet as a girl, and said no vague, startling things; +it was as if she were a young bride, and Paul were complete master and +lord! Wild happiness rushed through him. How had he ever endured the time +before he had met her? + +When they had finished they went out. She must walk, she said, and Paul, +being English, must want exercise! Oh! she knew the English and their +exercise! And of course she must think of everything that would be for the +pleasure of her lover Paul. + +And he? You old worn people of the world, who perhaps are reading, think +what all this was to Paul--his young strong life vibrating to passionate +joys, his imagination kindled, his very being uplifted and thrilled with +happiness! His charming soul expanded, he found himself saying gracious +tender phrases to her. Every moment he was growing more passionately in +love, and in each new mood she seemed the more divine. Not one trace of +her waywardness of the day before remained. Her eyes, as they glanced at +him from under her hat, were bashful and sweet, no look of the devil to +provoke a saint. She talked gently. + +He must take her to the place where she had peeped at him through the +trees. And-- + +"Oh! Paul!" she said. "If you had known that day, how you tempted me, +looking up at me, your whole soul in your eyes! I had to run, run, run!" + +"And now I have caught you, darling mine," said Paul. "But you were wrong. +I had no soul--it is you who are giving me one now." + +They sat on the bench where he had sat. She was getting joy out of the +colour of the moss, the tints of the beeches, every little shade and shape +of nature, and letting Paul see with her eyes. + +And all the while she was nestling near him like a tender ring-dove to her +mate. Paul's heart swelled with exultation. He felt good, as if he could +be kind to every one, as if his temper were a thing to be ashamed of, and +all his faults, as if for ever he must be her own true knight and +defender, and show her he was worthy of this great gift and joy. And ah! +how could he put into words his tender worshipping love? + +So the afternoon faded into evening, and the young crescent moon began to +show in the sky--a slender moon of silver, only born the night before. + +"See, this is our moon," said the lady, "and as she waxes, so will our +love wax--but now she is young and fresh and fair, like it. Come, my Paul. +Let us go to our house; soon we shall dine, and I want to be beautiful for +you." + +So they went in to their little hotel. + +She was all in white when Paul found her in their inner salon, where they +were to dine alone, waited on only by Dmitry. Her splendid hair was bound +with a fillet of gold, and fell in two long strands, twisted with gold, +nearly to her knees. Her garment was soft and clinging, and unlike any +garment he had ever seen. They sat on a sofa together, the table in front +of them, and they ate slowly and whispered much--and before Paul could +taste his wine, she kissed his glass and sipped from it and made him do +the same with hers. The food was of the simplest, and the only things +exotic were the great red strawberries at the end. + +Dmitry had left them, placing the coffee on the table as he went, and a +bottle of the rare golden wine. + +Then this strange lady grew more tender still. She must lie in Paul's +arms, and he must feed her with strawberries. And the thought came to him +that her mouth looked as red as they. + +To say he was intoxicated with pleasure and love is to put it as it was. +It seemed as if he had arrived at a zenith, and yet he knew there would be +more to come. At last she raised herself and poured out the yellow +wine--into one glass. + +"My Paul," she said, "this is our wedding might, and this is our wedding +wine. Taste from this our glass and say if it is good." + +And to the day of his death, if ever Paul should taste that wine again, a +mad current of passionate remembrance will come to him--and still more +passionate regret. + +Oh! the divine joy of that night! They sat upon the balcony presently, and +Elaine in her worshipping thoughts of Lancelot--Marguerite wooed by +Faust--the youngest girl bride--could not have been more sweet or tender +or submissive than this wayward Tiger Queen. + +"Paul," she said, "out of the whole world tonight there are only you and I +who matter, sweetheart. Is it not so? And is not that your English word +for lover and loved--'sweetheart'?" + +And Paul, who had never even heard it used except in a kind of joke, now +knew it was what he had always admired. Yes, indeed, it was +"sweetheart"--and she was his! + +"Remember, Paul," she whispered when, passion maddening him, he clasped +her violently in his arms--"remember--whatever happens--whatever +comes--for now, to-night, there is no other reason in all of this but +just--I love you--I love you, Paul!" + +"My Queen, my Queen!" said Paul, his voice hoarse in his throat. + +And the wind played in softest zephyrs, and the stars blazed in the sky, +mirroring themselves in the blue lake below. + +Such was their wedding night. + +Oh! glorious youth! and still more glorious love! + + + + +CHAPTER IX + + +Who can tell the joy of their awakening? The transcendent pleasure to +Paul to be allowed to play with his lady's hair, all unbound for him to do +with as he willed? The glory to realise she was his--his own--in his arms? +And then to be tenderly masterful and give himself lordly airs of +possession. She was almost silent, only the history of the whole world of +passion seemed written in her eyes--slumbrous, inscrutable, their heavy +lashes making shadows on her soft, smooth cheeks. + +The ring-dove was gone, a thing of mystery lay there instead--unresisting, +motionless, white. Now and then Paul looked at her half in fear. Was she +real? Was it some dream, and would he wake in his room at Verdayne Place +among the sporting prints and solid Chippendale furniture to hear Tompson +saying, "Eight o'clock, sir, and a fine day"? + +Oh, no, no, she was real! He raised himself, and bent down to touch her +tenderly with his forefinger. Yes, all this fascination was indeed his, +living and breathing and warm, and he was her lover and lord. Ah! + +The same coloured orchid-mauve silk curtains as at Lucerne were drawn over +the open windows, so the sun in high heaven seemed only as dawn in the +room, filtering though the _jalousies_ outside. But what was time? Time +counts as one lives, and Paul was living now. + +It was twelve o'clock before they were ready for their dainty breakfast, +laid out under the balcony awning. + +And the lady talked tenderly and occupied herself with the fancies of her +lord, as a new bride should. + +But all the time the mystery stayed in her eyes. And the thought came to +Paul that were he to live with her for a hundred years, he would never be +sure of their real meaning. + +"What shall we do with our day, my Paul?" she said presently. "See, you +shall choose. Shall we climb to the highest point on this mountain and +look at our kingdom of trees and lake below? Or shall we rest in the +launch and glide over the blue water, and dream sweet dreams? Or shall we +drive in the carriage far inland to a quaint farmhouse I know, where we +shall see people living in simple happiness with their cows and their +sheep? Decide, sweetheart--decide!" + +"Whatever you would wish, my Queen," said Paul. + +Then the lady frowned, and summer lightnings flashed from her eyes. + +"Of course, what I shall wish! But I have told you to choose, feeble Paul! +There is nothing so irritates me as these English answers. Should I have +asked you to select our day had I decided myself? I would have commanded +Dmitry to make the arrangements, that is all. But no! to-day I am thy +obedient one. I ask my Love to choose for me. To-morrow I may want my own +will; to-day I desire only thine, beloved," and she leant forward and +looked into his eyes. + +"The mountain top, then!" said Paul, "because there we can sit, and I can +gaze at you, and learn more of life, close to your lips. I might not touch +you in the launch, and you might look at others at the farm--and it seems +as if I could not bear one glance or word turned from myself today!" + +"You have chosen well. _Mylyi moi._" + +The strange words pleased him; he must know their meaning, and learn to +pronounce them himself. And all this between their dainty dishes took +time, so it was an hour later before they started for their walk. + +Up, up those winding paths among the firs and larches--up and up to the +top. They dawdled slowly until they reached their goal. There, aloof from +the beaten track, safe from the prying eyes of some chance stranger, they +sat down, their backs against a giant rock, and all the glory of their +lake and tree-tops to gaze at down below. + +Paul had carried her cloak, and now they spread it out, covering their +couch of moss and lichen. A soft languor was over them both. Passion was +asleep for the while. But what exquisite bliss to sit thus, undisturbed in +their eyrie--he and she alone in all the world. + +Her words came back to him: "Love means to be clasped, to be close, to be +touching, to be One!" Yes, they were One. + +Then she began to talk softly, to open yet more windows in his soul to joy +and sunshine. Her mind seemed so vast, each hour gave him fresh surprises +in the perception of her infinite knowledge, while she charmed his fancy +by her delicate modes of expression and un-English perfect pronunciation, +no single word slurred over. + +"Paul," she said presently, "how small seem the puny conventions of the +world, do they not, beloved? Small as those little boats floating like +scattered flower-leaves on the great lake down there. They were invented +first to fill the place of the zest which fighting and holding one's own +by the strength of one's arm originally gave to man. Now, he has only laws +to combat, instead of a fiercer fellow creature--a dull exchange forsooth! +Here are you and I--mated and wedded and perfectly happy--and yet by these +foolish laws we are sinning, and you would be more nobly employed yawning +with some bony English miss for your wife--and I by the side of a mad, +drunken husband. All because the law made us swear a vow to keep for ever +stationary an emotion! Emotion which we can no more control than the trees +can which way the wind will blow their branches! To love! Oh! yes, they +call it that at the altar--'joined together by God!' As likely as not two +human creatures who hate each other, and are standing there swearing those +impossibilities for some political purpose and advantage of their family. +They desecrate the word love. Love is for us, Paul, who came together +because our beings cried, 'This is my mate!' I should say nothing of +it--oh no! if it had no pretence--marriage. If it were frankly a +contract--'Yes, I give you my body and my dowry.' 'Yes, you give me your +name and your state.' It is of the coarse, horrible things one must pass +through in life--but to call the Great Spirit's blessing upon it, as an +exaltation! To stand there and talk of love! Ah--that is what must make +God angry, and I feel for Him." + +Paul noticed that she spoke as if she had no realisation of the lives of +lesser persons who might possibly wed because they were "mated" as +well--not for political reasons or ambition of family. Her keen senses +divined his thought. + +"Yes, beloved, you would say--?" + +"Only that supposing you were not married to any one else, we should be +swearing the truth if we swore before God that we loved. I would make any +vows to you from my soul, in perfect honesty, for ever and ever, my +darling Queen." + +His blue eyes, brimming with devotion and conviction of the truth of his +thought, gazed up at her. And into her strange orbs there came that same +look of tenderness that once before had made them as a mother's watching +the gambols of her babe. + +"There, there," she said. "You would swear them and hug your chains of +roses--but because they were chains they would turn heavy as lead. Make no +vows, sweetheart! Fate will force you to break them if you do, and then +the gods are angry and misfortune follows. Swear none, and that fickle one +will keep you passionate, in hopes always to lure you into her +pitfalls--to vow and to break--pain and regret. Live, live, Paul, and +love, and swear nothing at all." + +Paul was troubled. "But, but," he said, "don't you believe I shall love +you for ever?" + +The lady leant back against the rock and narrowed her eyes. + +"That will depend upon me, my Paul," she said. "The duration of love in a +being always depends upon the loved one. I create an emotion in you, as +you create one in me. You do not create it in yourself. It is because +something in my personality causes an answering glow in yours that you +love me. Were you to cease to do so, it would be because I was no longer +able to call forth that answer in you. It would not be your fault any more +than when you cease to please me it will be mine. That is where people are +unjust." + +"But surely," said Paul, "it is only the fickle who can change?" + +"It is according to one's nature; if one is born a steadfast gentleman, +one is more likely to continue than if one is a _farceur_--prince or +no--but it depends upon the object of one's love--whether he or she can +hold one or not. One would not blame a needle if it fell from a magnet, +the attraction of the magnet being in some way removed, either by a +stronger at the needle's side, or by some deadening of the drawing quality +in the magnet itself--and so it is in love. Do you follow me, Paul?" + +"Yes." said Paul gloomily. "I must try to please you, or you will throw me +away." + +"You see," she continued, "the ignorant make vows, and being +weaklings--for the most part--vanity and fate easily remove their +inclination from the loved one; it may not be his fault any more than a +broken leg keeping him from walking would be his fault, beyond the fact +that it was _his_ leg; but we have to suffer for our own things--so there +it is. We will say the weakling's inclination wants to make him break his +vows; so he does, either in the letter or spirit--or both! And then he +feels degraded and cheap and low, as all must do who break their sacred +word given of their own free will when inclination prompted them to. So +how much better to make no vow; then at least when the cord of attraction +snaps, we can go free, still defying the lightning in our untarnished +pride." + +"Oh! darling, do not speak of it," cried Paul, "the cord of attraction +between us can never snap. I worship, I adore you--you are just my life, +my darling one, my Queen!" + +"Sweet Paul!" she whispered, "oh! so good, so good is love, keep me loving +you, my beautiful one--keep my desire long to be your Queen." + +And after this they melted into one another's arms, and cooed and kissed, +and were foolish and incoherent, as lovers always are and have been from +the beginning of old time. More concentrated--more absorbed--than the +sternest Eastern sage--absorbed in each other. + +The spirit of two natures vibrating as One. + + + + +CHAPTER X + + +That evening it was so warm and peaceful they dined at the wide-open +balcony windows. They could see far away over the terrace and down to the +lake, with the distant lights towards Lucerne. The moon, still slender and +fine, was drawing to her setting, and a few cloudlets floated over the +sky, obscuring the stars here and there. + +The lady was quiet and tender, her eyes melting upon Paul, and something +of her ring-dove mood was upon her again. Not once, since they had been on +the Buergenstock, had she shown any of the tigerish waywardness that he had +had glimpses of at first. It seemed as if her moods, like her chameleon +eyes, took colour from her surroundings, and there all was primitive +simplicity and nature and peace. + +Paul himself was in a state of ecstasy. He hardly knew whether he trod on +air or no. No siren of old Greek fable had ever lured mortal more under +her spell than this strange foreign woman thing--Queen or Princess or what +you will. Nothing else in the world was of any consequence to him--and it +was all the more remarkable because subjection was in no way part of his +nature. Paul was a masterful youth, and ruled things to his will in his +own home. + +The lady talked of him--of his tastes--of his pleasures. There was not an +incident in his life, or of his family, that she had not fathomed by now. +All about Isabella even--poor Isabella! And she told him how she +sympathised with the girl, and how badly he had behaved. + +"Another proof, my Paul, of what I said today--no one must make vows about +love." + +But Paul, in his heart, believed her not. He would worship her for ever, +he knew. + +"Yes," she said, answering his thoughts. "You think so, beloved, and it +may be so because you do not know from moment to moment how I shall be--if +I shall stay here in your arms, or fly far away beyond your reach. You +love me because I give you the stimulus of uncertainty, and so keep bright +your passion, but once you were sure, I should become a duty, as all women +become, and then my Paul would yawn and grow to see I was no longer young, +and that the expected is always an _ennui_ when it comes!" + +"Never, never!" said Paul, with fervour. + +Presently their conversation drifted to other things, and Paul told her +how he longed to see the world and its people and its ways. She had been +almost everywhere, it seemed, and with her talent of word-painting, she +took him with her on the magic carpet of her vivid description to east and +west and north and south. + +Oh! their _entr'actes_ between the incoherence of just lovers' love were +not banal or dull. And never she forgot her tender ways of insinuated +caresses--small exquisite touches of sentiment and grace. The note ever of +One--that they were fused and melted together into one body and soul. + +Through all her talk that night Paul caught glimpses of the life of a +great lady, surrounded with state and cares, and now and then there was a +savage echo which made him think of things barbaric, and wonder more than +ever from whence she had come. + +It was quite late before the chill of night airs drove them into their +salon, and here she made him some Russian tea, and then lay in his arms, +and purred love-words to him, and nestled close like a child who wants +petting to cure it of some imaginary hurt. Only, in her tenderest caresses +he seemed at last to feel something of danger. A slumbering look of +passion far under the calm exterior, but ready to break forth at any +moment from its studied control. + +It thrilled and maddened him. + +"Beloved, beloved!" he cried, "let us waste no more precious moments. I +want you--I want you--my sweet!" + + * * * * * + +At the first glow of dawn, he awoke, a strange sensation, almost of +strangling and suffocation, upon him. There, bending over, framed in a +mist of blue-black waves, he saw his lady's face. Its milky whiteness lit +by her strange eyes--green as cats' they seemed, and blazing with the +fiercest passion of love--while twisted round his throat he felt a great +strand of her splendid hair. The wildest thrill as yet his life had known +then came to Paul; he clasped her in his arms with a frenzy of mad, +passionate joy. + + + + +CHAPTER XI + + +The next day was Sunday, and even through the silk blinds they could hear +the rain drip in monotonous fashion. Of what use to wake? Sleep is +blissful and calm when the loved one is near. + +Thus it was late when Paul at last opened his eyes. He found himself +alone, and heard his lady's voice singing softly from the sitting-room +beyond, and through the open door he could perceive her stretched on the +tiger, already dressed, reclining among the silk pillows, her guitar held +in her hands. + +"Hasten, hasten, lazy one. Thy breakfast awaits thee," she called, and +Paul bounded up without further delay. + +This day was to be a day of books, she said, and she read poetry to him, +and made him read to her--but she would not permit him to sit too near +her, or caress her--and often she was restless and moved about with the +undulating grace of a cat. She would peep from the windows, and frown at +the scene. The lake was hidden by mist, the skies cried, all nature was +weeping and gloomy. + +And at last she flung the books aside, and crept up to Paul, who was +huddled on the sofa, feeling rather morose from her decree that he must +not touch or kiss her. + +"Weeping skies, I hate you!" she said. Then she called Dmitry in a sharp +voice, and when he appeared from the passage where he always awaited her +pleasure, she spoke to him in Russian, or some language Paul knew not, a +fierce gleam in her eyes. Dmitry abased himself almost to the floor, and +departing quickly, returned with sticks and lit a blazing pine-log fire in +the open grate. Then he threw some powder into it, and with stealthy haste +drew all the orchid-silk curtains, and departed from the room. A strange +divine scent presently rose in the air, and over Paul seemed to steal a +spell. The lady crept still nearer, and then with infinite sweetness, all +her docility of the first hours of their union returned, she melted in his +arms. + +"Paul--I am so wayward to-day, forgive me," she said in a childish, +lisping voice. "See, I will make you forget the rain and damp. Fly with me +to Egypt where the sun always shines." + +And Paul, like a sulky, hungry baby, who had been debarred, and now +received its expected sweetmeat, clasped her and kissed her for a few +minutes before he would let her speak. + +"See, we are getting near Cairo," she said, her eyes half closed, while +she settled herself among the cushions, and drew Paul down to her until +his head rested on her breast, and her arms held him like a mother with a +child. + +Her voice was a dream-voice as she whispered on. "Do you not love those +minarets and towers against the opal sky, and the rose-pink granite hills +beyond? And look, Paul, at this peep of the Nile--those are the +water-buffaloes--those strange beasts--you see they are pulling that +ridiculous water-drawer--just the same as in Pharaoh's time. Ah! I smell +the scent of the East. Look at the straight blue figures, the lines so +pleasing and long. The dignity, the peace, the forever in it all.... Now +we are there. See the brilliant crowd all moving with little haste, and +listen to the strange noise. Look at the faces of the camels, disdainful +and calm, and that of an old devil-man with tangled hair.... + +"Come--come from this; I want the desert and the Sphinx! + +"Ah! it is bright day again, and we have all the green world between us +and the great vast brown tract of sand. And those are the Pyramids +clear-cut against the turquoise sky, and soon we shall be there, only you +must observe this green around us first, my Paul--the green of no other +country in all the world--pure emerald--nature's supreme concentrated +effort of green for miles and miles. No, I do not want to live in that +small village in a brown mud hut, shared with another wife to that gaunt +blue linen-clad man; I would kill them all and be free. I want to go on, +beloved--on to the desert for you and me alone, with its wonderful passion, +and wonderful peace...." + +Her voice became still more dreamy; there was a cadence in it now as if +some soul within were forcing her to chant it all, with almost the lilt of +blank verse. + +"Oh! the strange drug of the glorious East, flooding your senses with +beauty and life. 'Tis the spell of the Sphinx, and now we are there, close +in her presence. Look, the sun has set.... + +"Hush! hush! beloved! we are alone, the camels and guides afar off--we are +alone, sweetheart, and we go on together, you and I and the moon. See, she +is rising all silver and pure, and blue is the sky, and scented the night. +Look, there is the Sphinx! Do you see the strange mystery of her smile and +the glamour of her eyes? She is a goddess, and she knows men's souls, and +their foolish unavailing passion and pain--never content with the _Is_ +which they have, always regretting the _Was_ which has passed, and +building false hopes on the phantom _May be._ But you and I, my lover, my +sweet, have fathomed the riddle which is hid in the smile of our goddess, +our Sphinx--we have guessed it, and now are as high gods too. For we know +it means to live in the present, and quaff life in its full. Sweetheart, +beloved--joy and life in its full----".... + +Her voice grew faint and far away, like the echo of some exquisite song, +and the lids closed over Paul's blue eyes, and he slept. + +The light of all the love in the world seemed to flood the lady's face. +She bent over and kissed him, and smoothed his cheek with her velvet +cheek, she moved so that his curly lashes might touch her bare neck, and +at last she slipped from under him, and laid his head gently down upon the +pillows. + +Then a madness of tender caressing seized her. She purred as a tiger might +have done, while she undulated like a snake. She touched him with her +finger-tips, she kissed his throat, his wrists, the palms of his hands, +his eyelids, his hair. Strange, subtle kisses, unlike the kisses of women. +And often, between her purrings, she murmured love-words in some strange +fierce language of her own, brushing his ears and his eyes with her lips +the while. + +And through it all Paul slept on, the Eastern perfume in the air still +drugging his sense. + +It was quite dark when he awoke again, and beside him--seated on the +floor, all propped with pillows, his lady reclined her head against his +shoulder. And as he looked down at her in the firelight's flickering +gleam, he saw that her wonderful eyes were wet with great glittering +tears. + +"My soul, my soul!" he said tenderly, his heart wrung with emotion. "What +is it, sweetheart--why have you these tears? Oh! what have I +done--darling, my own?" + +"I am weary," she said, and fell to weeping softly, and refused to be +comforted. + +Paul's distress was intense--what could have happened? What terrible thing +had he done? What sorrow had fallen upon his beloved while he selfishly +slept? But all she would say was that she was weary, while she clung to +him in a storm of passion, as if some one threatened to take her out of +his arms. Then she left him abruptly and went off to dress. + +But later, at dinner, it seemed as if a new and more radiant light than +ever glowed on her face. She was gay and caressing, telling him merry +tales of Paris and its plays. It was as if she meant to efface all +suggestion of sorrow or pain--and gradually the impression wore off in +Paul's mind, and ere it came to their sipping the golden wine, all was +brightness and peace. + +"See," she said, looking from the window just before they retired to rest, +"the sky has stopped crying, and there are our stars, sweetheart, come out +to wish us good-night. Ah! for us tomorrow once more will be a glorious +day." + +"My Queen," said Paul; "rain or fine, all days are glorious to me, so long +as I have you to clasp in my arms. You are my sun, moon and stars--always, +for ever." + +She laughed a laugh, the silver echo of satisfaction and joy. + +"Sweet Paul," she lisped mischievously, "so good you have been, so gentle +with my moods. You must have some reward. Listen, beloved while I tell it +to you." + +But what she said is written in his heart! + + + + +CHAPTER XII + + +His lady was so intensely _soignee_--that is what pleased Paul. He had +never thought about such things, or noticed them much in other women, but +she was a revelation. + +No Roman Empress with her bath of asses' milk could have had a more +wonderful toilet than she. And ever she was illusive, and he never quite +got to the end of her mystery. Always there was a veil, when he least +expected it, and so these hours for the most part were passed at the +boiling-point of excitement and bliss. The experiences of another man's +whole lifetime Paul was going through in the space of days. + +It was the Monday following the wet Sunday when an incident happened which +soon came back to him, and gave him food for reflection. + +They would spend the day in the launch, she decided, going whither they +wished, stopping here to pick gentians, going there under the shadow of +trees--landing where and when they desired--even sleeping at Flueclen if +the fancy took them to. Anna was sent on with their things in case this +contingency occurred. And earth, water and sky seemed smiling them a +welcome. + +Just before they started, Dmitry, after the gentlest tap, noiselessly +entered Paul's room. Paul was selecting some cigars from a box, and looked +up in surprise as the stately servant cautiously closed the door. + +"Yes, Dmitry, what is it?" he said half impatiently. + +Dmitry advanced, and now Paul saw that he carried something in his hand. +He bowed low with his usual courtly respect. Then he stammered a little as +he began to speak. + +The substance of his sentence, Paul gathered, was that the Excellency +would not be inconveniencing himself too much, he hoped, if he would +consent to carry this pistol. A very good pistol, he assured him, which +would take but little room. + +Paul's surprise deepened. Carry a pistol in peaceful Switzerland! It +seemed too absurd. + +"What on earth for, my friend?" he said. + +But Dmitry would give no decided answer, only that it was wiser, when away +from one's home and out with a lady, never to go unarmed. Real anxiety +peeped from his cautious grey eyes. + +Did Paul know how to shoot? And would he be pardoned for asking the +Excellency such a question?--but in England, he heard, they dealt little +with revolvers--and this was a point to be assured of. + +Yes, Paul knew how to shoot! The idea made him laugh. But now he came to +think of it, he had not had great practice with a revolver, and might not +do so well as with a gun or rifle. But the whole thing seemed so absurd, +he did not think it of much consequence. + +"Of course I'll take it to please you, Dmitry," he said, "though I wish +you would tell me why." + +However, Dmitry escaped from the room without further words, his finger +upon his lips. + +The lady was looking more exquisitely white than usual; she wore soft pale +mauve, and appeared in Paul's eyes a thing of joy. + +When they were seated on the launch in their chairs, she let him hold her +hand, but she did not talk much at first; only now he understood her +silences, and did not worry over them--so great a teacher is love to +quicken the perception of man. + +He sat there, and gazed at her, and tried to realise that it was really he +who was experiencing all this happiness. This wonderful, wonderful +woman--and he was her lover. + +At last something in her expression of sadness caught his watchful eye, +and an ache came into his mind to know where hers had gone. + +"Darling," he said tenderly, "mayn't I come there, too?" + +She turned towards him--a shadow was in her eyes. + +"No, Paul," she said. "Not there. It is a land of rocks and +precipices--not for lovers." + +"But if you can go--where is the danger for me, my Queen? Or, if there is +danger, then it is my place to stand by your side." + +"Paul, my sweet Paul," she whispered, while her eyes filled with mist, "I +was thinking how fair the world could be, perhaps, if fate allowed one to +meet one's mate while there was yet time. Surely two souls together, like +you and I, might climb to Paradise doing deeds of greatness by the way. +But so much of life is like a rushing torrent tearing along making a +course for itself, without power to choose through what country it will +pass, until it meets the ocean and is swallowed up and lost. If one could +only see--only know in time--could he change the course? Alas! who can +tell?" + +Her voice was sad, and as ever it wrung Paul's heart. + +"My darling one," he said, "don't think of those odd things. Only remember +that I am here beside you, and that I love you, love you so--" + +"My Paul!" she murmured, and she smiled a strange, sweet smile, "do you +know, I find you like a rare violin which hitherto has been used by +ordinary musicians to play their popular airs upon, but which is now +highly strung and being touched by the bow of an artist who loves it. And +oh! the exquisite sounds which are coming, and will yet come forth to +enchant the ear, and satisfy the sense. All the capacity is there, Paul, +in you, beautiful one--only I must bring it out with my bow of love! And +what a progress you have made already--a great, great progress. Think, +only a few days ago you had never noticed the colours of this lake, or +even these great mountains, they said nothing to you at all except as +places to take your exercise upon. Life, for you, was just eating and +sleeping and strengthening your muscles." And she laughed softly. + +"I know I was a Goth," said Paul. "I can hardly realise it myself, the +change that has happened to me. Everything now seems full of joy." + +"Your very phrases are altered, Paul, and will alter more yet, while our +moon waxes and our love grows." + +"Can it grow? Can I possibly love you more intensely than I do now--surely +no!" he exclaimed passionately. "And yet--" + +"And yet?" + +"Ah! yes, I know it. Yes, it can grow until it is my life--my very life." + +"Yes, Paul," she said, "your life"--and her strange eyes narrowed again, +the Sphinx's inscrutable look of mystery in their chameleon depths. + +Then her mood altered, she became gay and laughing, and her wit sparkled +like dry champagne, while the white launch glided through the blue waters +with never a swirl of foam. + +"Paul," she said presently, "to-morrow we will go up the Rigi to the +Kaltbad, and look from the little kiosk over the world, and over the +Bernese Oberland. It gives me an emotion to stand so high and see so vast +a view--but to-day we will play on the water and among the trees." + +He had no desires except to do what she would do, so they landed for lunch +at one of the many little inviting hotels which border the lake in +sheltered bays. All through the meal she entertained him with subtle +flattery, drawing him out, and making him shine until he made flint for +her steel. And when they came to the end she said with sudden, tender +sweetness: + +"Paul--it is my caprice--you may pay the bill to-day--just for +to-day--because--Ah! you must guess, my Paul! the reason why!" + +And she ran out into the sunlight, her cheeks bright pink. + +But Paul knew it was because now she _belonged_ to him. His heart swelled +with joy--and who so proud as he? + +She had gone alone up a mountain path when he came out to join her, and +stood there laughing at him provokingly from above. He bounded up and +caught her, and would walk hand in hand, and made her feel that he was +master and lord through the strength of his splendid, vigorous youth. He +pretended to scold her if she stirred from him, and made her stand or walk +and obey him, and gave himself the airs of a husband and prince. + +And the lady laughed in pure ecstatic joy. "Oh! I love you, my Paul--like +this, like this! Beautiful one! Just a splendid primitive savage beneath +the grace, as a man should be. When I feel how strong you are my heart +melts with bliss!" + +And Paul, to show her it was true, seized her in his arms, and ran with +her, placing her on a high rock, where he made her pay him with kisses and +tell him she loved him before he would lift her down. + +And it was his lady's caprice, as she said, that this state of things +should last all day. But by night time, when they got to Flueelen, the +infinite mastery of her mind, and the uncertainty of his hold over her, +made her his Queen again, and Paul once more her worshipping slave. + + * * * * * + +Now, although his master was quite oblivious of posts, Tompson was not, +and that Monday he took occasion to go into Lucerne, whence he returned +with a pile of letters, which Paul found on again reaching the +Buergenstock, after staying the night at Flueelen in a little hotel. + +That had been an experience! His lady quite childish in her glee at the +smallness and simplicity of everything. + +"Our picnic," she called it to Paul--only it was a wonderfully _recherche_ +picnic, as Anna of course had brought everything which was required by +heart of sybarite for the passing of a night. + +Ah! they had been happy. The Queen had been exquisitely gracious to her +slave, and entranced him more deeply than ever. And here at the +Buergenstock, when he got into his room, his letters stared him in the +face. + +"Damned officiousness!" he said to himself, thinking of Tompson. + +He did not want to be reminded of any existence other than the dream of +heaven he was now enjoying. + +Oh! they were all very real and material, these epistles--quite of earth! +One was from his mother. He was enjoying Lucerne, she hoped, and she was +longing for his return. She expected he also was craving for his home and +horses and dogs. All were well. They--she and his father--were moving up +to the town house in Berkeley Square the following week until the end of +June, and great preparations were already in contemplation for his +twenty-third birthday in July at Verdayne Place. There was no mention of +Isabella except a paragraph at the end. Miss Waring was visiting friends +at Blackheath, he was informed. Ah, so far away it all seemed! But it +brought him back from heaven. The next was his father's writing. Laconic, +but to the point. This parent hoped he was not wasting his time--d--d +short in life! and that he was cured of his folly for the parson's girl, +and found other eyes shone bright. If he wanted more money he was +to say so. + +Several were from his friends, banal and everyday. And one was from +Tremlett, his own groom, and this was full of Moonlighter and--Pike! That +gave him just a moment's feeling--Pike! Tremlett had "made so bold" as to +have some snapshots done by a friend, and he ventured to send one to his +master. The "very pictur'" of the dog, he said, and it was true. Ah! this +touched him, this little photograph of Pike. + +"Dear little chap," he said to himself as he looked. "My dear little +chap." + +And then an instantaneous desire to show it to his lady came over him, and +he went back to the sitting-room in haste. + +There she was--the post had come for her too, it seemed, and she looked up +with an expression of concentrated fierceness from a missive she was +reading as he entered the room. Her marvellous self-control banished all +but love from her eyes after they had rested on him for an instant, but +his senses--so fine now--had remarked the first glance, just as his eye +had seen the heavy royal crown on the paper as she hastily folded it and +threw it carelessly aside. + +"Darling!" he said "Oh! look! here is a picture of Pike!" + +And if it had been the most important document concerning the fate of +nations the lady could not have examined it with more enthralled interest +and attention than she did this snapshot photograph of a rough terrier +dog. + +"What a sweet fellow!" she said. "Look at his eye! so intelligent; look at +that _patte_! See, even he is asking one to love him--and I do--I do--" + +"Darling!" said Paul in ecstasy, "oh, if we only had him here, wouldn't +that be good!" + +And he never knew why his lady suddenly threw her arms round his neck, and +kissed him with passionate tenderness and love, her eyes soft as a dove's. + +"Oh, my Paul," she said, a break in her wonderful voice, whose tones said +many things, "my young, darling, English Paul!" + +Presently they would drive to see that quaint farm she wanted to show him. +The day was very warm, and to rest in the comfortable carriage would be +nice. Paul thought so, too. So after a late lunch they started. And once +or twice on the drive through the most peaceful and beautiful scenery, a +flash of the same fierceness came into the lady's eyes, gazing away over +distance as when she had read her letter, and it made Paul wonder and long +to ask her why. He never allowed himself to speculate in coherent thought +words even as to who she was, or her abode in life. He had given his word, +and was an Englishman and would keep it, that was all. But in his +subconsciousness there dwelt the conviction that she must be some Queen or +Princess of a country south in Europe--half barbaric, half advanced. That +she was unhappy and hated it all, he more than divined. It was a proof of +the strength of his character that he did not let the terrible thought of +inevitable parting mar the bliss of the tangible now. He had promised her +to live while the sun of their union shone, and he had the force to keep +his word. + +But oh! he wished he could drive all care from her path, and that this +glorious life should go on for ever. + +When they got to the farm in the soft late afternoon light, the most +gracious mood came over his lady. It was just a Swiss farmhouse of many +storeys, the lower one for the cows and other animals, and the rest for +the family and industries. All was clean and in order, with that wonderful +outside neatness which makes Swiss chalets look like painted toy houses +popped down on the greensward without yard or byre. And these people were +well-to-do, and it was the best of its kind. + +The _Baeuerin_, a buxom mother of many little ones, was nursing another not +four weeks old, a fat, prosperous infant in its quaint Swiss clothes. Her +broad face beamed with pride as she welcomed the gracious lady. Old +acquaintances they appeared, and they exchanged greetings. Foreign +languages were not Paul's strong point, and he caught not a word of +meaning in the German _patois_ the good woman talked. But his lady was +voluble, and seemed to know each flaxen-haired child by name, though it +was the infant which longest arrested her attention. She held it in her +arms. And Paul had never seen her look so young or so beautiful. + +The good woman left them alone while she prepared some coffee for them in +the adjoining kitchen, followed by her troop of _kinder_. Only the little +one still lay in the lady's arms. She spoke not a word--she sang to it a +cradle-song, and the thought came to Paul that she seemed as an angel, and +this must be an echo of his own early heaven before his life had descended +to earth. + +A strange peace came over him as he sat there watching her, his thoughts +vague and dreamy of some beautiful sweet tenderness--he knew not what. + +Ere the woman returned with the coffee the lady looked up from her +crooning and met his eyes--all her soul was aglow in hers--while she +whispered as he bent over to meet her lips: + +"Yes, some day, my sweetheart--yes." + +And that magic current of sympathy which was between them made Paul know +what she meant. And the gladness of the gods fell upon him and exalted +him, and his blue eyes swam with tears. + +Ah! that was a thought, if that could ever be! + +All the way back in the carriage he could only kiss her. Their emotion +seemed too deep for words. + +And this night was the most divine of any they had spent on the +Buergenstock. But there was in it an essence about which only the angels +could write. + + + + +CHAPTER XIII + + +Do you know the Belvedere at the Rigi Kaltbad, looking over the corner to +a vast world below, on a fair day in May, when the air is clear as crystal +and the lake ultra-marine? When the Bernese Oberland undulates away in +unbroken snow, its pure whiteness like cold marble, the shadows grey-blue? + +Have you seen the tints of the beeches, of the pines, of the firs, +clinging like some cloak of life to the hoary-headed mountains, a reminder +that spring is eternal, and youth must have its day, however grey beards +and white heads may frown? + +Ah--it is good! + +And so is the air up there. Hungry and strong and--young. + +Paul and his lady stood and looked down in rapt silence. It was giving +her, as she said, an emotion, but of what sort he was not sure. They were +all alone. No living soul was anywhere in view. + +She had been in a mood, all day when she seldom raised her eyes. It +reminded him of the first time he had seen her, and wonder grew again in +his mind. All the last night her soul had seemed melted into his in a +fusion of tenderness and trust, exalted with the exquisite thought of the +wish which was between them. And he had felt at last he had fathomed its +inmost recess. + +But to-day, as he gazed down at her white-rose paleness, the heavy lashes +making their violet shadow on her cheek--her red mouth mutinous and +full--the conviction came back to him that there were breadths and depths +and heights about which he had no conception even. And an ice hand +clutched his heart. Of what strange thing was she thinking? leaning over +the parapet there, her delicate nostrils quivering now and then. + +"Paul," she said at last, "did you ever want to kill any one? Did you ever +long to have them there at your mercy, to choke their life out and throw +them to hell?" + +"Good God, no!" said Paul aghast. + +Then at last she looked up at him, and her eyes were black with hate. +"Well, I do, Paul. I would like to kill one man on earth--a useless, +vicious weakling, too feeble to deserve a fine death--a rotting carrion +spoiling God's world and encumbering my path! I would kill him if I +could--and more than ever today." + +"Oh, my Queen, my Queen!" said Paul, distressed. "Don't say such +things--you, my own tender woman and love--" + +"Yes, that is one side of me, and the best--but there is another, which he +draws forth, and that is the worst. You of calm England do not know what +it means--the true passion of hate." + +"Can I do nothing for you, beloved?" Paul asked. Here was a phase which he +had not yet seen. + +"Ah!" she said, bitterly, and threw up her head. "No! his high place +protects him. But for his life I would conquer all fate." + +"Darling, darling--" said Paul, who knew not what to say. + +"But, Paul, if a hair of your head should be hurt, I would kill him myself +with these my own hands." + +Once Paul had seen two tigers fight in a travelling circus-van which came +to Oxford, and now the memory of the scene returned to him when he looked +at his lady's face. He had not known a human countenance could express +such fierce, terrible rage. A quiver ran through him. Yes, this was no +idle boast of an angry woman--he felt those slender hands would indeed be +capable of dealing death to any one who robbed her of her mate. + +But what passion was here! What force! He had somehow never even dreamt +such feelings dwelt in women--or, indeed, in any human creatures out of +sensational books. Yet, gazing there at her, he dimly understood that in +himself, too, they could rise, were another to take her from him. Yes, he +could kill in suchlike case. + +They were silent for some moments, each vibrating with passionate +thoughts; and then the lady leant over and laid her cheek against the +sleeve of his coat. + +"Heart of my heart," she said, "I frighten and ruffle you. The women of +your country are sweet and soft, but they know not the passion I know, my +Paul--the fierceness and madness of love--" + +Paul clasped her in his arms. + +"It makes me worship you more, my Queen," he said. "Englishwomen would +seem like wax dolls now beside you and your exquisite face--they will +never again be anything but shadows in my life. It can only hold you, the +one goddess and Queen." + +Her eyes were suffused with a mist of tenderness, the passion was gone; +her head was thrown back against his breast, when suddenly her hand +inadvertently touched against the pocket where Dmitry's pistol lay. She +started violently, and before he could divine her purpose she snatched the +weapon out, and held it up to the light. + +Her face went like death, and for a second she leant against the parapet +as if she were going to faint. + +"Paul," she gasped with white lips, "this is Dmitry's pistol. I know it +well. How did you come by it?--tell me, beloved. If he gave it to you, +then it means danger, Paul--danger--" + +"My darling," said Paul, in his strong young pride "fear nothing, I shall +never leave you. I will protect you from any danger in the world, only +depend upon me, sweetheart. Nothing can hurt you while I am here." + +"Do you think I care a _sou_ for my life?" she said, while she stood +straight up again with the majesty of a queen. "Do you think I feared for +me--for myself? Oh! no, my own lover, never that! They can kill me when +they choose, but they won't; it is you for whom I fear. Only your danger +could make me cower, no other in the whole world." + +Paul laughed with joy at her speech. "There is nothing to fear at all +then, darling," he said. "I can take care of myself, you know. I am an +Englishman." + +And even in the tumult of her thoughts the lady found time to smile with +tender amusement at the young insular arrogance of his last words. An +Englishman, forsooth! Of course that meant a kind of god untouched by the +failings of other nations. A great rush of pride in him came over her and +gladdened her. He was indeed a splendid picture of youth and strength, as +he stood there, the sunlight gilding his fair hair, and all the +magnificent proportions of his figure thrown into relief against the +background of grey stone and sky, an _insouciante_ smile on his lips, and +all the light of love and self-confidence in his fine blue eyes. + +She responded to the fire in them, and appeared to grow comforted and at +peace. But all the way back through the wood to the Kalibad Hotel she +glanced furtively into the shadows, while she talked gaily as she held +Paul's arm. + +And he never asked her a question as to where she expected the danger to +come from. No anxiety for his own safety troubled him one jot--indeed, an +unwonted extra excitement flooded his veins, making him enjoy himself with +an added zest. + +Dmitry as usual awaited them at the hotel; his face was serene, but when +Paul's back was turned for a moment while he lit a cigarette, the lady +questioned her servant with whispered fierceness in the Russian tongue. +Apparently his answer was satisfactory, for she looked relieved, and +presently, seated on the terrace, they had a merry tea--the last they +would have on mountain tops, for she broke it gently to Paul that on the +morrow she must return to Lucerne. Paul felt as if his heart had stopped +beating. Return to Lucerne! O God! not to part--surely not to part--so +soon! + +"No, no," she said, the thought making her whiten too. "Oh no! my Paul, +not that--yet!" + +Ah--he could bear anything if it did not mean parting, and he used no +arguments to dissuade her. She was his Queen and must surely know best. +Only he listened eagerly for details of how matters could be arranged +there. Alas! they could never be the same as this glorious time they had +had. + +"You must wait two days, sweetheart," she said, "before you follow me. +Stay still in our nest if you will, but do not come on to Lucerne." + +"I could not stand it," said Paul. "Oh! darling, don't kill me with aching +for your presence two whole days! It is a lifetime! not to be endured--" + +"Impatient one!" she laughed softly. "No--neither could I bear not to see +you, sweetheart, but we must not be foolish. You must stay on in our rooms +and each morning I will meet you somewhere in the launch. Dmitry knows +every inch of the lake, and we can pass most of days thus, +happy at last--" + +"But the nights!" said Paul, deep distress in his voice. "What on earth do +you think I can do with the nights?" + +"Spend them in sleep, my beloved one," the lady said, while she smiled a +soft fine smile. + +But to Paul this idea presented the poorest compensation--and in spite of +his will to the contrary his thoughts flew ahead for an instant to the +inevitable days and nights when--Ah! no, he could not face the picture. +Life would be finished for him when that time came. + +The thought of only a temporary parting on the morrow made them cling +together for this, their last evening, with almost greater closeness and +tenderness than usual. Paul could hardly bear his lady out of his sight, +even while she dressed for dinner, when they got back to the Buergenstock, +and twice he came to the door and asked plaintively how long she would be, +until Anna took pity on him, and implored to be allowed to ask him to come +in while she finished her mistress's hair. And that was a joy to Paul! He +sat there by the dressing-table, and played with the things, opening the +lids of gold boxes, and sniffing bottles of scent with an air of right and +possession which made his lady smile like a purring cat. Then he tried on +her rings, but they would only go on to the second joint of his little +finger, as he laughingly showed her--and finally he pushed Anna aside, and +insisted upon putting the last touches himself to the glorious waves of +black hair. + +And all the while he teased the maid, and chaffed her in infamous French, +to her great delight, while his lady looked at him, whole wells of +tenderness deep in her eyes. Paul had adorable ways when he chose. No +wonder both mistress and maid should worship him. + +The moon was growing larger, her slender contours more developed, and the +stars seemed fainter and farther off. Nothing more exquisite could be +dreamed of, thought Paul, than the view from their balcony windows, the +light on the silver snows. And he would let no thought that it was the +last night they would see it together mar the passionate joy of the hours +still to be. His lady had never been more sweet; it was as if this wayward +Undine had at last found her soul, and lay conquered and unresisting in +her lover's strong arms. + +Thus in perfect peace and happiness they; passed their last night on the +Buergenstock. + + + + +CHAPTER XIV + + +The desolation which came over Paul when next day before lunch time he +found himself alone on the terrace, looking down vainly trying to +distinguish his lady's launch as it glided over the blue waters, seemed +unendurable. An intense depression filled his being. It was as if a limb +had been torn from him; he felt helpless and incomplete, and his whole +soul drawn to Lucerne. + +The green trees and the exquisite day seemed to mock him. Alone, +alone--with no prospect of seeing his Queen until the morrow, when at +eleven he was to meet her at the landing-steps at the foot +of the _funiculaire_. + +But that was to-morrow, and how could he get through to-day? + +After an early lunch he climbed to their rock at the summit, and sat there +where they had sat together--alone with his thoughts. + +And what thoughts! + +What was this marvellous thing which had happened to him? A fortnight ago +he was in Paris, disgusted with everything around him, and fancying +himself in love with Isabella Waring. Poor Isabella! How had such things +ever been possible? Why, he was a schoolboy then--a child--an infant! and +now he was a man, and knew what life meant in its greatest and best. That +was part of the wonder of this lady, with all her intense sensuousness and +absence of what European nations call morality; there was yet nothing low +or degrading in her influence, its tendency was to exalt and elevate into +broad views and logical reasonings. Nothing small would ever again appeal +to Paul. His whole outlook was vaster and more full of wide thoughts. + +And then among the other emotions in his breast came one of deep gratitude +to her. For, apart from her love, had she not given him the royalest gift +which mankind could receive--an awakened soul? Like her story of Undine it +had truly been born with that first long kiss. + +Then his mind flew to their after-kisses, the immense divine bliss of +these whole six days. + +Was it only six days since they had come there? Six days of Paradise. And +surely fate would not part them now. Surely more hours of joy lay in store +for them yet. The moon was seven days old--and his lady had said, "While +she waxes our love will wax." Thus, even by that calculation, there was +still time to live a little longer. + +Paul's will was strong. He sternly banished all speculations as to the +future. He remembered her counsel of the riddle which lay hidden in the +eyes of the Sphinx--to live in the present and quaff life in its full. + +He was in a mood of such worship that he could have kissed the grey rock +because she had leant against it. And to himself he made vows that, come +what might, he would ever try to be worthy of her great spirit and +teaching. Dmitry's pistol still lay in his pocket; he took it out and +examined it--all six chambers were loaded. A deadly small thing, with a +finely engraved stock made in Paris. There was a date scratched. It was +about a year old. + +What danger could they possibly have dreaded for him?--he almost laughed. +He stayed up on the highest point until after the sun had set; somehow he +dreaded going back to the rooms where they had been so happy--going back +alone! But this was weakness, and he must get over the feeling. After +dinner he would spend the evening writing his letters home. But when this +solitary meal was over, the moon tempted him out on to the terrace, and +there he stayed obsessed with passionate thoughts until he crept in to his +lonely couch. + +He could not sleep. It had no memories there to comfort him. He got up, +and went across the sitting-room to the room his lady had left so lately. +Alas! it was all dismantled of her beautiful things. The bed unmade and +piled with uncovered hotel pillows, and a large German eiderdown, on top +of folded blankets, it all looked ghastly and sad and cold. And more +depressed than ever he crept back to his own bed. + +Next morning was grey--not raining, but dull grey clouds all over the sky. +Not a tempting prospect to spend it in a launch on the lake. A wind, too, +swept the water into small rough wavelets. Would she come? The uncertainty +was almost agony. He was waiting long before the time appointed, and +walked up and down anxiously scanning the direction towards Lucerne. + +Yes, that was the launch making its way along, not a moment late. Oh! what +joy thrilled his being! He glowed all over--in ten minutes or less he +could clasp her hands. + +But when the launch came in full view, he perceived no lady was +there--only Dmitry's black form stood alone by the chairs. + +Paul's heart sank like lead. He could hardly contain his anxiety until the +servant stepped ashore and handed him a letter, and this was its contents: + +"My beloved one--I am not well to-day--a foolish chill. Nothing of +consequence, only the cold wind of the lake I could not face. At one +o'clock, when Lucerne is at lunch, come to me by the terrace gate. Come to +me, I cannot live without you, Paul." + +"What is it, Dmitry?" he said anxiously. "Madame is not ill, is she? Tell +me--" + +"Not ill--oh no!" the servant said, only Paul must know Madame was of a +delicacy at times in the cold weather, and had to be careful of herself. +He added, too, that it would be wiser if Paul would lunch early before +they started, because, as he explained, it was not for the people of the +hotel to know he was there, and how else could he eat? + +All of which advice was followed, and at one o'clock they landed at +Lucerne, and Paul walked quickly towards his goal, Dmitry in front to see +that the way was clear. Yes--there was no one about for the moment, and +like ghosts they glided through the little terrace door, and Paul went +into the room by the window, while Dmitry held the heavy curtains, and +then disappeared. + +It was empty--the fact struck a chill note, in spite of the great bowls of +flowers and the exquisite scent. His tiger was there, and the velvet +pillows of old. All was warm and luxurious, as befitting the shrine of his +goddess and Queen. Only he was alone--alone with his thoughts. + +An incredible excitement swept through him, his heart beat to suffocation +in the longing for her to come. Was it possible--was it true that soon she +would be in his arms? A whole world of privation and empty hours to make +up for in their first kiss. + +Then from behind the screen of the door to her room she came at last--a +stately figure in long black draperies, her face startlingly white, and +her head wrapped in a mist of black veil. But who can tell of the note of +gladness and welcome she put into the two words, "My Paul!"? + +And who can tell of the passionate joy of their long, tender embrace, or +of their talk of each one's impossible night? His lady, too, had not +slept, it appeared. She had cried, she said, and fought with her pillow, +and been so wicked to Anna that the good creature had wept. She had torn +her fine night raiment, and bitten a handkerchief through! But now he had +come, and her soul was at rest. What wonder, when all this was said in his +ear with soft, broken sighs and kisses divine, that Paul should feel like +a god in his pride! + +Then he held her at arms'-length and looked at her face. Yes, it was very +pale indeed, and the violet shadows lay under her black lashes. Had she +suffered, his darling--was she ill? But no, the fire in her strange eyes +gave no look of ill-health. + +"I was frightened, my own," he said, "in case you were really not well. I +must pet and take care of you all the day. See, you must lie on the sofa +among the cushions, and I will sit beside you and soothe you to rest." And +he lifted her in his strong arms and carried her to the couch as if she +had been a baby, and settled her there, every touch a caress. + +His lady delighted in these exhibitions of his strength. He had grown to +understand that he could always affect her when he pretended to dominate +her by sheer brute force. She had explained it to him thus one day: + +"You see, Paul, a man can always keep a woman loving him if he kiss her +enough, and make her feel that there is no use struggling because he is +too strong to resist. A woman will stand almost anything from a passionate +lover. He may beat her and pain her soft flesh; he may shut her up and +deprive her of all other friends--while the motive is raging love and +interest in herself on his part, it only makes her love him the more. The +reason why women become unfaithful is because the man grows casual, and +having awakened a taste for passionate joys, he no longer gratifies +them--so she yawns and turns elsewhere." + +Well, there was no fear of her doing so if he could help it! He was more +than willing to follow this receipt. Indeed, there was something about her +so agitating and alluring that he knew in his heart all men would feel the +same towards her in a more or less degree, and wild jealousy coursed +through his veins at the thought. + +"My Paul," she said, "do you know I have a plan in my head that we shall +go to Venice?" + +"To Venice!" said Paul in delight. "To Venice!" + +"Yes--I cannot endure any more of Lucerne, parted from you, with only the +prospect of snatched meetings. It is not to be borne. We shall go to that +home of strange joy, my lover, and there for a space at least we can live +in peace." + +Paul asked no better gift of fate. Venice he had always longed to see, and +now to see it with her! Ah! the very thought was ecstasy to him, and made +the blood bound in his veins. + +"When, when, my darling?" he asked. "Tomorrow? When?" + +"To-day is Friday," she said. "One must give Dmitry time to make the +arrangements and take a palace for us. Shall we say Sunday, Paul? I shall +go on Sunday, and you can follow the next day--so by Tuesday evening we +shall be together again, not to part until--the end." + +"The end?" said Paul, with sinking heart. + +"Sweetheart," she whispered, while she drew his face down to hers, "think +nothing evil. I said the end--but fate alone knows when that must be. Do +not let us force her hand by speculating about it. Remember always to live +while we may." + +And Paul was more or less comforted, but in moments of silence all through +the day he seemed to hear the echo of the words--The End. + + + + +CHAPTER XV + + +It was a beautiful apartment that Dmitry had found for them on the Grand +Canal in Venice, in an old palace looking southwest. A convenient door in +a side canal cloaked the exit and entry of its inhabitants from curious +eyes--had there been any to indulge in curiosity; but in Venice there is a +good deal of the feeling of live and let live, and the _dolce far niente_ +of the life is not conducive to an over-anxious interest in the doings of +one's neighbours. + +Money and intelligence can achieve a number of things in a short space of +time, and Dmitry had had both at his command, so everything, including a +_chef_ from Paris and a retinue of Italian servants, was ready when on the +Tuesday evening Paul arrived at the station. + +What a wonderland it seemed to him, Venice! A wonderland where was +awaiting him his heart's delight--more passionately desired than ever +after three days of total abstinence. + +As after the Friday afternoon he had spent more or less in hiding in the +terrace-room, his lady had judged it wiser for him not to come at all to +Lucerne, and on the Saturday had met him at a quiet part of the shore of +the lake, beyond the landing-steps of the _funiculaire,_ and for a few +short hours they had cruised about on the blue waters--but her sweetest +tenderness and ready wit had not been able entirely to eliminate the +feeling of unrest which troubled them. And then there were the nights, the +miserable evenings and nights of separation. On the Sunday she had +departed to Venice, and after she had gone, Paul had returned for one day +to Lucerne, leaving again on the Monday, apparently as unacquainted with +Madame Zalenska as he had been the first night of his arrival. + +He had not seen her since Saturday. Three whole days of anguishing +longing. And now in half an hour at least she would be in his arms. The +journey through the beautiful scenery from Lucerne had been got through at +night--all day from Milan a feverish excitement had dominated him, and +prevented his taking any interest in outward surroundings. A magnetic +attraction seemed drawing him on--on--to the centre of light and joy--his +lady's presence. + +Dmitry and an Italian servant awaited his arrival; not an instant's delay +for luggage called a halt. Tompson and the Italian were left for that, and +Paul departed with his trusty guide. + +It was about seven o'clock, the opalescent lights were beginning to show +in the sky, and their reflection in the water, as he stooped his tall head +to enter the covered gondola. It was all too beautiful and wonderful to +take in at once, and then he only wanted wings the sooner to arrive, not +eyes to see the passing objects. Afterwards the strange soft cry of the +gondoliers and the sights appealed to him; but on this first evening every +throb of his being was centred upon the one moment when he should hold his +beloved one to his heart. + +He could hardly contain his impatience, and walk sedately beside Dmitry +when they ascended the great stone staircase--he felt like bounding up +three steps at a time. Dmitry had been respectfully silent. Madame was +well--that was all he would say. He opened the great double door with a +latch-key, and Paul found himself in vast hall almost unfurnished but for +some tapestry on the walls, and a huge gilt marriage-chest, and a couple +of chairs. It was ill lit, and there was something of decay and gloom in +its aspect. + +On they went, through other doors to a salon, vast and gloomy too, and +then the glory and joy of heaven seemed to spring upon Paul's view when +the shrine of the goddess was reached--a smaller room, whose windows faced +the Grand Canal, now illuminated by the setting sun in all its splendour, +coming in shafts from the balcony blinds. And among the quaintest and most +old-world surroundings, mixed with her own wonderful personal notes of +luxury, his lady rose from the tiger couch to meet him. + +His lady! His Queen! + +And, indeed, she seemed a queen when at last he held her at arms'-length +to look at her. She was garbed all ready for dinner in a marvellous +garment of shimmering purple, while round her shoulders a scarf of +brilliant pale emerald gauze, all fringed with gold, fell in two long +ends, and on her neck and in her ears great emeralds gleamed--a +pear-shaped one of unusual brilliancy fell at the parting of her waves +of hair on to her white smooth forehead. But the colour of her eyes he +could not be sure of--only they were two wells of love and passion +gazing into his own. + +All the simplicity of the Buergenstock surroundings was gone. The flowers +were in the greatest profusion, rare and heavy-scented; the pillows of the +couch were more splendid than ever; cloths of gold and silver and +wonderful shades of orange and green velvet were among the purple ones he +already knew. Priceless pieces of brocade interwoven with gold covered the +screens and other couches; and, near enough to pick up when she wanted +them, stood jewelled boxes of cigarettes and bonbons, and stands of +perfume. + +Her expression, too, was altered. A new mood shone there; and later, when +Paul learnt the history of the wonderful women of _cinquecento_ Venice, it +seemed as if something of their exotic voluptuous spirit now lived in her. + +This was a new queen to worship--and die for, if necessary. He dimly felt, +even in these first moments, that here he would drink still deeper of the +mysteries of life and passionate love. + +_"Beztzenny-moi,"_ she said, "my priceless one. At last I have you again +to make me _live_. Ah! I must know it is really you, my Paul!" + +They were sitting on the tiger by now, and she undulated round and all +over him, feeling his coat, and his face, and his hair, as a blind person +might, till at last it seemed as if she were twined about him like a +serpent. And every now and then a narrow shaft of the glorious dying +sunlight would strike the great emerald on her forehead, and give forth +sparks of vivid green which appeared reflected again in her eyes. Paul's +head swam, he felt intoxicated with bliss. + +"This Venice is for you and me, my Paul," she said. "The air is full of +love and dreams; we have left the slender moon behind us in Switzerland; +here she is nearing her full, and the summer is upon us with all her +richness and completeness--the spring of our love has passed." +Her voice fell into its rhythmical cadence, as if she were whispering a +prophecy inspired by some presence beyond. + +"We will drink deep of the cup of delight, my lover, and bathe in the +wine of the gods. We shall feast on the tongues of nightingales, and rest +on couches of flowers. And thou shalt cede me thy soul, beloved, and I +will give thee mine--" + +But the rest was lost in the meeting of their lips. + + * * * * * + +They dined on the open loggia, its curtains drawn, hiding them from the +view of the palaces opposite, but not preventing the soft sounds of the +singers in the gondolas moored to the poles beneath from reaching their +ears. And above the music now and then would come the faint splash of +water, and the "Stahi"--"Preme" of some moving gondolier. + +The food was of the richest, beginning with strange fishes and quantities +of _hors d'oeuvres_ that Paul knew not, accompanied by _vodka_ in several +forms. And some of the _plats_ she would just taste, and some send +instantly away. + +And all the while a little fountain of her own perfume played from a group +of sportive cupids in silver, while the table in the centre was piled with +red roses. Dmitry and two Italian footmen waited, and everything was done +with the greatest state. A regal magnificence was in the lady's air and +mien. She spoke of the splendours of Venice's past, and let Paul feel the +atmosphere of that subtle time of passion and life. Of here a love-scene, +and there a murder. Of wisdom and vice, and intoxicating emotion, all +blended in a kaleidoscope of gorgeousness and colour. + +And once again her vast knowledge came as a fresh wonder to Paul--no +smallest detail of history seemed wanting in her talk, so that he lived +again in that old world and felt himself a Doge. + +When they were alone at last, tasting the golden wine, she rose and drew +him to the loggia balustrade. Dmitry had drawn back the curtains and +extinguished the lights, and only the brilliant moon lit the scene; a +splendid moon, two nights from the full. There she shone straight down +upon them to welcome them to this City of Romance. + +What loveliness met Paul's view! A loveliness in which art and nature +blended in one satisfying whole. + +"Darling," he said, "this is better than the Buergenstock. Let us go out on +the water and float about, too." + +It was exceedingly warm these last days of May, and that night not a +zephyr stirred a ripple. A cloak and scarf of black gauze soon hid the +lady's splendour, and they descended the staircase hand in hand to the +waiting open gondola. + +It was a new experience of joy for Paul to recline there, and drift away +down the stream, amidst the music and the coloured lanterns, and the +wonderful, wonderful spell of the place. + +The lady was silent for a while, and then she began to whisper passionate +words of love. She had never before been thus carried away--and he must +say them to her--as he held her hand--burning words, inflaming the +imagination and exciting the sense. It seemed as if all the other nights +of love were concentrated into this one in its perfect joy. + +Who can tell of the wild exaltation which filled Paul? He was no longer +just Paul Verdayne, the ordinary young Englishman; he was a god--and this +was Olympus. + +"Look, Paul!" she said at last. "Can you not see Desdemona peeping from +the balcony of her house there? And to think she will have no happiness +before her Moor will strangle her to-night! Death without joys. Ah! that +is cruel. Some joys are well worth death, are they not, my lover, as you +and I should know?" + +"Worth death and eternity," said Paul. "For one such night as this with +you a man would sell his soul." + +It was not until they turned at the opening of the Guidecca to return to +their palazzo that they both became aware of another gondola following +them, always at the same distance behind--a gondola with two solitary +figures in it huddled on the seats. + +The lady gave a whispered order in Italian to her gondolier, who came to a +sudden stop, thus forcing the other boat to come much nearer before it, +too, arrested its course. There a moonbeam caught the faces of the men as +they leant forward to see what had occurred. One of them was Dmitry, and +the other a younger man of the pure Kalmuck type whom Paul had never seen. + +"Vasili!" exclaimed the lady, in passionate surprise. "Vasili! and they +have not told me!" + +She trembled all over, while her eyes blazed green flames of anger and +excitement. "If it is unnecessary they shall feel the whip for this." + +Her cloak had fallen aside a little, disclosing a shimmer of purple +garment and flashing emeralds. She looked barbaric, her raven brows knit. +It might have been Cleopatra commanding the instant death of an offending +slave. + +It made Paul's pulses bound, it seemed so of the picture and the night. +All was a mad dream of exotic emotion, and this was just an extra note. + +But who was Vasili? And what did his presence portend? Something fateful +at all events. + +The lady did not speak further, only by the quiver of her nostrils and the +gleam in her eyes he knew how deeply she was stirred. + +Yes, one or the other would feel the whip, if they had been over-zealous +in their duties! + +It seemed out of sheer defiance of some fate that she decided to go on +into the lagoon when they passed San Georgio. It was growing late, and +Paul's thoughts had turned to greater joys. He longed to clasp her in his +arms, to hold her, and prove her his own. But she sat there, her small +head held high, and her eyes fearless and proud--thus he did not dare to +plead with her. + +But presently, when she perceived the servants were no longer following, +her mood changed, the sweetness of the serpent of old Nile fell upon her, +and all of love that can be expressed in whispered words and tender +hand-clasps, she lavished upon Paul, after ordering the gondolier to +hasten back to the palazzo. It seemed as if she, too, could not contain +her impatience to be again in her lover's arms. + +"I will not question them to-night," she said when they arrived, and she +saw Dmitry awaiting her on the steps. "To-night we will live and love at +least, my Paul. Live and love in passionate bliss!" + +But she could not repress the flash of her eyes which appeared to +annihilate the old servant. He fell on his knees with the murmured words +of supplication: + +_"O Imperatorskoye!"_ And Paul guessed it meant Imperial Highness, and a +great wonder grew in his mind. + +Their supper was laid in the loggia again, and under the windows the +musicians still played and sang a gentle accompaniment to their sighs of +love. + +But later still Paul learnt what fiercest passion meant, making other +memories as moonlight unto sunlight--as water unto wine. + + + + +CHAPTER XVI + + +To some natures security hath no charm--the sword of Damocles suspended +over their heads adds to their enjoyment of anything. Of such seemed Paul +and his lady. It was as if they were snatching astonishing pleasures from +the very brink of some danger, none the less in magnitude because unknown. + +They did not breakfast until after one o'clock the next day, and then she +bade him sleep--sleep on this other loggia where they sat, which gave upon +the side canal obliquely, while looking into a small garden of roses and +oleanders below. Here were shade and a cool small breeze. + +"We are so weary, my beloved one," the lady said. "Let us sleep on these +couches of smooth silk, sleep the heavy hours of the afternoon away, and +go to the Piazza when the heat of the sun has lessened in measure." + +An immense languor was over Paul--he asked nothing better than to rest +there in the perfumed shade, near enough to his loved one to be able to +stretch out his arm and touch her hair. And soon a sweet sleep claimed +him, and all was oblivion and peace. + +The lady lay still on her couch for a while, her eyes gleaming between +their half-closed lids. But at last, when she saw that Paul indeed slept +deeply, she rose stealthily and crept from the place back to the room, the +gloomy vast room within, where she summoned Dmitry, and ordered the man +she had called Vasili the night before into her presence. He came with +cringing diffidence, prostrating himself to the ground before her, and +kissing the hem of her dress, mute adoration in his dark eyes, like those +of a faithful dog--a great scar showing blue on his bronzed cheek and +forehead. + +She questioned him imperiously, while he answered humbly in fear. Dmitry +stood by, an anxious, strained look on his face, and now and then he put +in a word. + +Of what danger did they warn her, these two faithful servants? One came +from afar for no other purpose, it seemed. Whatever it was she received +the news in haughty defiance. She spoke fiercely at first, and they +humbled themselves the more. Then Anna appeared, and joined her +supplications to theirs, till at last the lady, like a pettish child +chasing a brood of tiresome chickens, shooed them all from the room, +'twixt laughter and tears. Then she threw up her arms in rage for a +moment, and ran back to the loggia where Paul still slept. Here she sat +and looked at him with burning eyes of love. + +He was certainly changed in the eighteen days since she had first seen +him. His face was thinner, the beautiful lines of youth were drawn with a +finer hand. He was paler, too, and a shadow lay under his curly lashes. +But even in his sleep it seemed as if his awakened soul had set its seal +upon his expression--he had tasted of the knowledge of good and evil now. + +The lady crept near him and kissed his hair. Then she flung herself on her +own couch, and soon she also slept. + +It was six o'clock before they awoke, Paul first--and what was his joy to +be able to kneel beside her and watch her for a few seconds before her +white lids lifted themselves! An attitude of utter weariness and _abandon_ +was hers. She was as a child tired out with passionate weeping, who had +fallen to sleep as she had flung herself down. There was something even +pathetic about that proud head laid low upon her clasped arms. + +Paul gazed and gazed. How he worshipped her! Wayward, tigerish, beautiful +Queen. But never selfish or small. And what great thing had she not done +for him--she who must have been able to choose from all the world a +lover--and she had chosen him. How poor and narrow were all the thoughts +of his former life, everywhere hedged in with foolish prejudice and +ignorant certainty. Now all the world should be his lesson-book, and some +day he would show her he was worthy of her splendid teaching and belief in +him, and her gift of an awakened soul. He bent still lower on his knees, +and kissed her feet with deepest reverence. She stirred not. She was so +very pale--fear came to him for an instant--and then he kissed her mouth. + +Her wonderful eyes unclosed themselves with none of the bewildered stare +people often wake with when aroused suddenly. It seemed that even in her +sleep she had been conscious of her loved one's presence. Her lips parted +in a smile, while her heavy lashes again swept her cheeks. + +"Sweetheart," she said, "you could awake me from the dead, I think. But we +are living still, my Paul--waste we no more time, in dreams." + +They made haste, and were soon in the gondola on their way to the Piazza. + +"Paul," she said, with a wave of her hand which included all the beauty +around, "I am so glad you only see Venice now, when your eyes can take it +in, sweetheart. At first it would have said almost nothing to you," and +she smiled playfully. "In fact, my Paul would have spent most of his time +in wondering how he could get exercise enough, there being so few places +to walk in! He would have bought a nigger boy with a dish for his father, +and some Venetian mirrors for his aunts, and perhaps--yes--a piece of Mr. +Jesurum's lace for his mother, and some blown glass for his friends. He +would have walked through St. Mark's, and thought it was a tumble-down +place, with uneven pavements, and he would have noticed there were a +'jolly lot of pigeons' in the square! Then he would have been captious +with the food at his hotel, grumbled at the waiters, scolded poor +Tompson--and left for Rome!" + +"Oh! darling!" said Paul, laughing too, in spite of his protest. "Surely, +surely, I never was so bad as that--and yet I expect it is probably true. +How can I ever thank you enough for giving me eyes and an understanding?" + +"There--there, beloved," she said. + +They walked through the Piazza; the pigeons amused Paul, and they stopped +and bought corn for them, and fed the greedy creatures, ever ready for the +unending largess of strangers. One or two, bolder than the rest, alighted +on the lady's hat and shoulder, taking the corn from between her red lips, +and Paul felt jealous even of the birds, and drew her on to see the +Campanile, still standing then. They looked at it all, they looked at the +lion, and finally they entered St. Mark's. + +And here Paul held her arm, and gazed with bated breath. It was all so +beautiful and wonderful, and new to his eyes. He had scarcely ever been in +a Roman Catholic church before, and had not guessed at the gorgeous beauty +of this half-Byzantine shrine. They hardly spoke. She did not weary him +with details like a guide-book--that would be for his after-life +visits--but now he must see it just as a glorious whole. + +"They worshipped here, and endowed their temple with gold and jewels," she +whispered, "and then they went into the Doge's Palace, and placed a word +in the lion's mouth which meant death or destruction to their best +friends! A wonderful people, those old Venetians! Sly and fierce--cruel +and passionate--but with ever a shrewd smile in their eye, even in their +love-affairs. I often ask myself, Paul, if we are not too civilised, we of +our time. We think too much of human suffering, and so we cultivate the +nerves to suffer more, instead of hardening them. Picture to yourself, in +my grandfather's boyhood we had still the serfs! I am of his day, though +it is over--I have beaten Dmitry--" + +Then she stopped speaking abruptly, as though aware she had localised her +nation too much. A strange imperious expression came into her eyes as they +met Paul's--almost of defiance. + +Paul was moved. He began as if to speak, then he remembered his promise +never to question her, and remained silent. + +"Yes, my Paul--you have promised, you know," she said. "I am for you, your +love--your love--but living or dead you must never seek to know more!" + +"Ah!" he cried, "you torture me when you speak like that. 'Living or +dead.' My God! that means us both--we stand or fall together." + +"Dear one"--her voice fell softly into a note of intense +earnestness--"while fate lets us be together--yes--living or dead--but +if we must part, then either would be the cause of the death of the other +by further seeking--never forget that, my beloved one. Listen"--her eyes +took a sudden fierceness--"once I read your English book, 'The Lady and +the Tiger.' You remember it, Paul? She must choose which she would give +her lover to--death and the tiger, or to another and more beautiful woman. +One was left, you understand, to decide the end one's self. It caused +question at the moment; some were for one choice, some for the other--but +for me there was never any hesitation. I would give you to a thousand +tigers sooner than to another woman--just as I would give my life a +thousand times for your life, my lover." + +"Darling," said Paul, "and I for yours, my fierce, adorable Queen. But why +should we speak of terrible things? Are we not happy today, and now, and +have you not told me to live while we may?" + +"Come!" she said, and they walked on down to the gondola again, and +floated away out to the lagoon. But when they were there, far away from +the world, she talked in a new strain of earnestness to Paul. He must +promise to do something with his life--something useful and great in +future years. + +"You must not just drift, my Paul, like so many of your countrymen do. You +must help to stem the tide of your nation's decadence, and be a strong +man. For me, when I read now of England, it seems as if all the hereditary +legislators--it is what you call your nobles, eh?--these men have for +their motto, like Louis XV., _Apres moi le deluge_--It will last my time. +Paul, wherever I am, it will give me joy for you to be strong and great, +sweetheart. I shall know then I have not loved just a beautiful shell, +whose mind I was able to light for a time. That is a sadness, Paul, +perhaps the greatest of all, to see a soul one has illuminated and +awakened to the highest point gradually slipping back to a browsing sheep, +to live for _la chasse_ alone, and horses, and dogs, with each day no +higher aim than its own mean pleasure. Ah, Paul!" she continued with +sudden passion, "I would rather you were dead--dead and cold with me, than +I should have to feel you were growing a _rien du tout_--a thing who will +go down into nothingness, and be forgotten by men!" + +Her face was aflame with the _feu sacre_. The noble brow and line of her +throat will ever remain in Paul's memory as a thing apart in womankind. +Who could have small or unworthy thoughts who had known her--this splendid +lady? + +And his worship grew and grew. + + + + +CHAPTER XVII + + +That night, as they looked from the loggia on the Grand Canal after +dinner, the moonlight making things almost light as day, Dmitry begged +admittance from the doorway of the great salon. The lady turned +imperiously, and flashed upon him. How dared he interrupt their happy hour +with things of earth? Then she saw he was loth to speak before Paul, and +that his face was grey with fear. + +Paul realised the situation, and moved aside, pretending to lean from the +wide windows and watch the passing gondolas, his wandering attention, +however, fixing itself upon one which was moored not far from the palazzo, +and occupied by a solitary figure reclining motionless in the seats. It +had no coloured lights, this gondola, or merry musicians; it was just a +black object of silence, tenanted by one man. + +Dmitry whispered, and the lady listened, a quiver of rage going through +her lithe body. Then she turned and surveyed the moored gondola, the same +storm of passion and hate in her eyes as once before had come there, at +the Rigi Kaltbad Belvedere. + +"Shall I kill the miserable spy? Vasili would do it this night," she +hissed between her clenched teeth. "But to what end? A day's respite, +perhaps, and then another, and another to face." + +Dmitry raised an imploring hand to draw her from the wide arched opening, +where she must be in full view of those watching below. She motioned him +furiously aside, and took Paul's hand. "Come, my lover," she said, "we +will look no more on this treacherous stream! It is full of the ghosts of +past murders and fears. Let us return to our shrine and shut out all jars; +we will sit on our tiger and forget even the moon. Beloved one--come!" + +And she led him to the open doorway, but the hand which held his was cold +as ice. + +A tumult of emotion was dominating Paul. He understood now that danger was +near--he guessed they were being watched--but by whom? By the orders +of--her husband? Ah! that thought drove him mad with rage--her husband! +She--his own--the mate of his soul--of his body and soul--was the legal +belonging of somebody else! Some vile man whom she hated and loathed, a +"rotting carrion spoiling God's earth." And he--Paul--was powerless to +change this fact--was powerless altogether except to love her and die for +her if that would be for her good. + +"Queen," he said, his voice hoarse with passion and pain, "let us leave +Venice--leave Europe altogether--let me take you away to some far land of +peace, and live there in safety and joy for the rest of our lives. You +would always be the empress of my being and soul." + +She flung herself on the tiger couch, and writhed there for some moments, +burying her clenched fists in the creature's deep fur. Then she opened +wide her arms, and drew Paul to her in a close, passionate embrace. + +"_Moi-Lioubimyi_--My beloved--my darling one!" she whispered in anguish. +"If we were lesser persons--yes, we could hide and live for a time in a +tent under the stars--but we are not They would track me, and trap us, and +sooner or later there would be the end, the ignominious, ordinary end of +disgrace--" Then she clasped him closer, and whispered right in his ear in +her wonderful voice, now trembling with love. + +"Sweetheart--listen! Beyond all of this there is that thought, that hope, +ever in my heart that one day a son of ours shall worthily fill a throne, +so we must not think of ourselves, my Paul, of the Thou, and the I, and +the Now, beloved. A throne which is filled most ignobly at present, and +only filled at all through my birth and my family's influence. Think not I +want to plant a cheat. No! I have a right to find an heir as I will, a +splendid heir who shall redeem the land--the spirit of our two selves +given being by love, and endowed by the gods. Ah! think of it, Paul. Dream +of this joy and pride, it will help to still the unrest we are both +suffering now. It must quiet this wild, useless rage against fate. Is it +not so, my lover?" + +Her voice touched his very heartstrings, but he was too deeply moved to +answer her for a moment. The renewal of this thought exalted his very +soul. All that was noble and great in his nature seemed rising up in one +glad triumph-song. + +A son of his and hers to fill a throne! Ah! God, if that were so! + +"I love the English," she whispered. "I have known the men of all +nations--but I love the English best. They are straight and just--the +fine ones at least. They are brave and fair--and fearless. And our baby +Paul shall be the most splendid of any. Beloved one, you must not think me +a visionary--a woman dreaming of what might never be--I see it--I know it. +This will come to pass as I say, and then we shall both find consolation +and rest." + +Thus she whispered on until Paul was intoxicated with joy and glory, and +forgot time and place and danger and possible parting. A host of +triumphant angels seemed singing in his ears. + +Then she read him poetry, and let him caress her, and smiled in his arms. + +But towards morning, if he had awakened, he would have found his lady +prostrate with silent weeping. The intense concentrated grief of a strong +nature taking its farewell. + + + + +CHAPTER XVIII + + +Now this Thursday was the night of the full moon. A cloudless morning sky +promised a glorious evening. + +The lovers woke early, and had their breakfast on the loggia overlooking +the oleander garden. The lady was in an enchanting mood of sunshine, and +no one could have guessed of the sorrow of her dawn vigil thoughts. She was +wayward and playful--one moment petting Paul with exquisite sweetness, the +next teasing his curls and biting the lobes of his ears. She never left him +for one second--it seemed she must teach him still more subtle caresses, +and call forth even new shades of emotion and bliss. All fear was banished, +only a brilliant glory remained. She laughed and half-closed her eyes with +provoking smiles. She undulated about, creeping as a serpent over her +lover, and kissing his eyelids and hair. They were so infinitely happy it +was growing to afternoon before they thought of leaving their loggia, and +then they started in the open gondola, and glided away through quaint, +narrow canals until they came to the lagoon. + +"We shall not stay in the gondola long, my Paul," she said. "I cannot bear +to be out of your arms, and our palace is fair. And oh! my beloved, +to-night I shall feast you as never before. The night of our full moon! +Paul, I have ordered a bower of roses and music and song. I want you to +remember it the whole of your life." + +"As though I could forget a moment of our time, my sweet," said Paul. "It +needs no feasts or roses--only whatever delights you to do, delights me +too." + +"Paul," she cooed after a while, during which her hand had lain in his and +there had been a soft silence, "is not this a life of joy, so smooth and +gliding, this way of Venice? It seems far from ruffles and storms. I shall +love it always, shall not you? and you must come back in other years and +study its buildings and its history, Paul--with your new, fine eyes." + +"We shall come together, my darling," he answered. "I should never want +anything alone." + +"Sweetheart!" she cooed again in his ears; and then presently, "Paul," she +said, "some day you must read 'Salammbo,' that masterpiece of Flaubert's. +There is a spirit of love in that which now you would understand--the love +which looked out of Matho's eyes when his body was beaten to jelly. It is +the love I have for you, my own--a love 'beyond all words or sense'--as one +of your English poets says. Do you know, with the strange irony of things, +when a woman's love for a man rises to the highest point there is in it +always an element of _the wife_? However wayward and tigerish and +undomestic she may be, she then desires to be the acknowledged possession +and belonging of the man, even to her own dishonour. She desires to +reproduce his likeness, she wants to compass his material good. She will +think of his food, and his raiment, and his well-being, and never of her +own--only, if she is wise she will hide all these things in her heart, for +the average man cannot stand this great light of her sweetness, and when +her love becomes selfless, his love will wane." + +"The average man's--yes, perhaps so," agreed Paul. "But then, what does the +average person of either sex know of love at all?" + +"They think they know," she said. "Really think it, but love like ours +happens perhaps once in a century, and generally makes history of some +sort--bad or good." + +"Let it!" said Paul. "I am like Antony in that poem you read me last +night. I must have you for my own, 'Though death, dishonour, anything you +will, stand in the way.' He knew what he was talking about, Antony! so did +the man who wrote the poem!" + +"He was a great sculptor as well as a poet," the lady said. "And yes, he +knew all about those wonderful lovers better far than your Shakespeare did, +who leaves me quite cold when I read his view of them. Cleopatra was to me +so subtle, so splendid a queen." + +"Of course she was just you, my heart," said Paul. "You are her soul living +over again, and that poem you must give me to keep some day, because it +says just what I shall want to say if ever I must be away from you for a +time. See, have I remembered it right? + +"'Tell her, till I see Those eyes, I do not live--that Rome to me Is +hateful,--tell her--oh!--I know not what--That every thought and feeling, +space and spot, Is like an ugly dream where she is not; All persons +plagues; all living wearisome; All talking empty...'. + +"Yes, that is what I should say--I say it to myself now even in the short +while I am absent from you dressing!" + +The lady's eyes brimmed with tenderness. "Paul!--you do love me, my own!" +she said. + +"Oh, why can't we go on and travel together, darling?" Paul continued. "I +want you to show me the world--at least the best of Europe. In every +country you would make me feel the spirit of the place. Let us go to +Greece, and see the temples and worship those old gods. They knew about +love, did they not?" + +The lady leant back and smiled, as if she liked to hear him talk. + +"I often ask myself did they really know," she said. "They knew the whole +material part of it at any rate. They were perhaps too practical to have +indulged in the mental emotions we weave into it now--but they were wise, +they did not educate the wives and daughters, they realised that to perform +well domestic duties a woman's mind should not be over-trained in learning. +Learning and charm and grace of mind were for the others, the _hetaerae_ of +whom they asked no tiresome ties. And in all ages it is unfortunately not +the simple good women who have ruled the hearts of men. Think of Pericles +and Aspasia--Antony and Cleopatra--Justinian and Theodora--Belisarius and +Antonina--and later, all the mistresses of the French kings--even, too, +your English Nelson and Lady Hamilton! Not one of these was a man's ideal +of what a wife and mother ought to be. So no doubt the Greeks were right in +that principle, as they were right in all basic principles of art and +balance. And now we mix the whole thing up, my Paul--domesticity and +learning--nerves and art, and feverish cravings for the impossible new--so +we get a conglomeration of false proportions, and a ceaseless unrest." + +"Yes," said Paul, and thought of his mother. She was a perfectly domestic +and beautiful woman, but somehow he felt sure she had never made his +father's heart beat. Then his mind went back to the argument in what the +lady had said--he wanted to hear more. + +"If this is so, that would prove that all the very clever women of history +were immoral--do you mean that?" he asked. + +The lady laughed. + +"Immoral! It is so quaint a word, my Paul! Each one sees it how they +will. For me it is immoral to be false, to be mean, to steal, to cheat, to +stoop to low actions and small ends. Yet one can be and do all those +things, and if one remains as well the faithful beast of burden to one man, +one is counted in the world a moral woman! But that shining light of +hypocrisy and virtue--to judge by her sentiments in her writings--your +George Eliot, must be classed as immoral because, having chosen her mate +without the law's blessing, she yet wrote the highest sentiments of British +respectability! To me she was being immoral _only_ because she was +deliberately doing what--, again I say, judging by her writings--she felt +must be a grievous wrong. That is immoral--deliberately to still one's +conscience and indulge in a pleasure against it. But to live a life with +one's love, if it engenders the most lofty aspirations, to me is highly +moral and good. I feel myself ennobled, exalted, because you are my lover, +and our child, when it comes to us, will have a noble mind." + +The thought of this, as ever, made Paul thrill; he forgot all other +arguments, and a quiver ran through him of intense emotion; his eyes swam +and he clasped more tightly her hand. The lady, too, leant back and closed +her eyes. + +"Oh! the beautiful dream!" she said, "the beautiful, beautiful--certainly! +Sweetheart, let us have done with all this philosophising and go back to +our palace, where we are happy in the temple of the greatest of all +Gods--the God of Love!" + +Then she gave the order for home. + +But on the way they stopped at Jesurum's, and she supervised Paul's +purchases for his mother, and allowed him to buy herself some small gifts. +And between them they spent a good deal of money, and laughed over it like +happy children. So when they got back to the palazzo there was joy in +their hearts like the sunlight of the late afternoon. + +She would not let Paul go on to the loggia overlooking the Grand Canal. He +had noticed as they passed that some high screens of lilac-bushes had been +placed in front of the wide arched openings. No fear of prying eyes from +opposite houses now! And yet they were not too high to prevent those in the +loggia from seeing the moon and the sky. Their feast was preparing +evidently, and he knew it would be a night of the gods. + +But from then until it was time to dress for dinner his lady decreed that +they should rest in their rooms. + +"Thou must sleep, my Paul," she said, "so that thy spirit may be fresh for +new joys." + +And it was only after hard pleading she would allow him to have it that +they rested on the other loggia couches, so that his closing eyes might +know her near. + + + + +CHAPTER XIX + + +No Englishwoman would have thought of the details which made the Feast of +the Full Moon so wonderful in Paul's eyes. It savoured rather of other +centuries and the days of Imperial Rome, and indeed, had his lady been one +of Britain's daughters, he too might have found it a little _bizarre_. As +it was, it was all in the note--the exotic note of Venice and her spells. + +The lady had gone to her room when he woke on the loggia, and he had only +time to dress before the appointed moment when he was to meet her in the +little salon. + +She was seated on the old Venetian chair she had bought in Lucerne when +Paul entered--the most radiant vision he had yet seen. Her garment was +pale-green gauze. It seemed to cling in misty folds round her exquisite +shape; it was clasped with pearls; the most magnificent ones hung in a row +round her throat and fell from her ears. A diadem confined her glorious +hair, which descended in the two long strands twisted with chains of +emeralds and diamonds. Her whole personality seemed breathing magnificence +and panther-like grace. And her eyes glowed with passion, and mystery, and +force. + +Paul knelt like a courtier, and kissed her hand. Then he led her to their +feast. + +Dmitry raised the curtain of the loggia door as they approached, and what a +sight met Paul's view! + +The whole place had been converted into a bower of roses. The walls were +entirely covered with them. A great couch of deepest red ones was at one +side, fixed in such masses as to be quite resisting and firm. From the roof +chains of roses hung, concealing small lights--while from above the screen +of lilac-bushes in full bloom the moon in all her glory mingled with the +rose-shaded lamps and cast a glamour and unreality over the whole. + +The dinner was laid on a table in the centre, and the table was covered +with tuberoses and stephanotis, surrounding the cupid fountain of perfume. +The scent of all these flowers! And the warm summer night! No wonder Paul's +senses quivered with exaltation. No wonder his head swam. + +They had scarcely been seated when from the great salon, whose open doors +were hidden by falling trellises of roses, there came the exquisite sounds +of violins, and a boy's plaintive voice. A concert of all sweet airs played +softly to further excite the sense. Paul had not thought such musicians +could be obtained in Venice, and guessed, and rightly, that, like the cook +and the artist who had designed it, they hailed from Paris, to beautify +this night. + +Throughout the repast his lady bewildered him with her wild fascination. +Never before had she seemed to collect all her moods into one subtle whole, +cemented together by passionate love. It truly was a night of the gods, and +the exaltation of Paul's spirit had reached its zenith. + +"My Paul," she said, when at last only the rare fruits and the golden wine +remained, and they were quite alone--even the musicians had retired, and +their airs floated up from a gondola below. "My Paul, I want you never to +forget this night--never to think of me but as gloriously happy, clasped in +your arms amid the roses. And see, we must drink once more together of our +wedding wine, and complete our souls' delight." + +An eloquence seemed to come to Paul and loosen his tongue, so that he +whispered back paeans of worship in language as fine as her own. And the +moon flooded the loggia with her light, and the roses gave forth their +scent. It was the supreme effort of art and nature to cover them with +glorious joy. + +"My darling one," the lady whispered in his ear, as she lay in his arms on +the couch of roses, crushed deep and half buried in their velvet leaves, +"this is our souls' wedding. In life and in death they can never part +more." + + * * * * * + +Dawn was creeping through the orchid blinds of their sleeping chamber when +this strange Queen disengaged herself from her lover's embrace, and bent +over him, kissing his young curved lips. He stirred not--the languor of +utter prostration was upon him, and held him in its grasp. In the uncertain +light his sleep looked pale as death. + +The lady gazed at him, an anguish too deep for tears in her eyes. For was +not this the end--the very end? Fierce, dry sobs shook her. There was +something terrible and tigerish in her grief. And yet her will made her +not linger--there was still one thing to do. + +She rose and turned to the writing-table by the window, then drawing the +blind aside a little she began rapidly to write. When she had finished, +without reading the missive over, she went and placed it with a flat +leather jewel-case on her pillow beside Paul. And soon she commenced a +madness of farewells--all restrained and gentle for fear he should awake. + +"My love, my love," she wailed between her kisses, "God keep you +safe--though He may never bring you back to me." + +Then with a wild, strangled sob, she fled from the room. + + + + +CHAPTER XX + + +A hush was over everything when Paul first awoke--the hush of a hot, drowsy +noontide. + +He stretched out his arm to touch his loved one, as was his custom, to draw +her near and envelop her with caresses and greeting--an instinct which came +to him while yet half asleep. + +But his arm met empty space. What was this? He opened his eyes wide and sat +up in bed. He was alone--where had she gone? He had slept so late, that was +it. She was playing one of her sweet tricks upon him. Perhaps she was even +hiding behind the curtain which covered the entrance to the side loggia +where they were accustomed to breakfast. He would look and see. He rose +quickly and lifted the heavy drapery. No--the loggia was untenanted, and +breakfast was laid for one! That was the first chill--for one! Was she +angry at his drowsiness? Good God! what could it mean? He staggered a +little, and sat on the bed, clutching the fine sheet. And as he did so it +disclosed the letter and the flat leather case, which had fallen from the +pillow and become hidden in the clothes. + +A deadly faintness came over Paul. For a few seconds he trembled so his +shaking fingers refused to hold the paper. Then with a mighty effort he +mastered himself, and tearing the envelope open began to read. + +It was a wonderful letter. The last passionate cry of her great loving +heart. It passed in review their glorious days in burning words--from the +first moment of their meeting. And then, towards the end, "My Paul," she +wrote, "that first night you were my caprice, and afterwards my love, but +now you are my life, and for this I must leave you, to save that life, +sweet lover. Seek me not, heart of my heart. Believe me, I would not go if +there were any other way. Fate is too strong for us, and I must bow my +head. Were I to remain even another hour, all Dmitry's watching could not +keep you safe. Darling, while I thought they menaced me alone, it only +angered me, but now I know that you would pay the penalty, I can but go. If +you follow me, it will mean death for us both. Oh! Paul, I implore you, by +our great love, go into safety as soon as you can. You must leave Venice, +and return straight to England, and your home. Darling--beloved--lover--if +we never meet again in this sad world let this thought stay with you +always, that I love you--heart and mind--body and soul--I am utterly and +forever YOURS." + +As he read the last words the room became dark for Paul, and he fell back +like a log on the bed, the paper fluttering to the floor from his nerveless +fingers. + +She was gone--and life seemed over for him. + +Here, perhaps an hour later, Tompson found him still unconscious, and in +terrified haste sent off for a doctor, and telegraphed to Sir Charles +Verdayne: + +"Come at once, TOMPSON." + +But ere his father could arrive on Sunday, Paul was lying 'twixt life and +death, madly raving with brain fever. + +And thus ended the three weeks of his episode. + + + + +CHAPTER XXI + + +Have any of you who read crept back to life from nearly beyond the grave? +Crept back to find it shorn of all that made it fair? After hours of +delirium to awaken in great weakness to a sense of hideous anguish and +loss--to the prospect of days of aching void and hopeless longing, to the +hourly, momentary sting of remembrance of things vaster than death, more +dear than life itself? If you have come through this valley of the shadow, +then you can know what the first days of returning consciousness meant to +Paul. + +He never really questioned the finality of her decree, he _sensed_ it meant +parting for ever. And yet, with that spring of eternal hope which animates +all living souls, unbidden arguings and possibilities rose in his enfeebled +brain, and deepened his unrest. Thus his progress towards convalescence was +long and slow. + +And all this time his father and Tompson had nursed him in the old Venetian +palazzo with tenderest devotion. + +The Italian servants had been left, paid up for a month, but the lady and +her Russian retinue had vanished, leaving no trace. + +Both Tompson and Sir Charles knew almost the whole story now from Paul's +ravings, and neither spoke of it--except that Tompson supplied some links +to complete Sir Charles' picture. + +"She was the most splendid lady you could wish to see, Sir Charles," the +stolid creature finished with. "Her servants worshipped her--and if +Mr. Verdayne is ill now, he is ill for no less than a Queen." + +This fact comforted Tompson greatly, but Paul's father found in it no +consolation. + +The difficulty had been to prevent his mother from descending upon +them. She must ever be kept in ignorance of this episode in her son's life. +She belonged to the class of intellect which could never have +understood. It would have been an undying shock and horrified grief to the +end of her life--excellent, loving, conventional lady! + +So after the first terrible danger was over, Sir Charles made light of +their son's illness. Paul and he were enjoying Venice, he said, and would +soon be home. "D--d hard luck the boy getting fever like this!" he wrote +in his laconic style, "but one never could trust foreign countries' +drains!" + +And the Lady Henrietta waited in unsuspecting, well-bred patience. + +Those were weary days for every one concerned. It wrung his father's heart +to see Paul prostrate there, as weak as an infant. All his splendid youth +and strength conquered by this raging blast. It was sad to have to listen +to his ever-constant moan: + +"Darling, come back to me--darling, my Queen." + +And even after he regained consciousness, it was equally pitiful to watch +him lying nerveless and white, blue shadows on his once fresh skin. And +most pitiful of all were his hands, now veined and transparent, falling +idly upon the sheet. + +But at least the father realised it could have been no ordinary woman whose +going caused the shock which--even after a life of three weeks' continual +emotion--could prostrate his young Hercules. She must have been worth +something--this tiger Queen. + +And one day, contrary to his usual custom, he addressed Tompson: + +"What sort of a looking woman, Tompson?" + +And Tompson, although an English valet, did not reply, "Who, Sir +Charles?"--he just rounded his eyes stolidly and said in his monotonous +voice: + +"She was that forcible-looking, a man couldn't say when he got close, she +kind of dazzled him. She had black hair, and a white face, +and--and--witch's eyes, but she was very kind and overpowering, haughty +and generous. Any one would have known she was a Queen." + +"Young?" asked Sir Charles. + +Tompson smoothed his chin: "I could not say, Sir Charles. Some days about +twenty-five, and other days past thirty. About thirty-three to thirty-five, +I expect she was, if the truth were known." + +"Pretty?" + +The eyes rounded more and more. "Well, she was so fascinatin', I can't say, +Sir Charles--the most lovely lady I ever did see at times, Sir Charles." + +"Humph," said Paul's father, and then relapsed into silence. + +"She'd a beast of a husband; he might have been a King, but he was no +gentleman," Tompson ventured to add presently, fearing the "Humph" perhaps +meant disapprobation of this splendid Queen. "Her servants were close, and +did not speak good English, so I could not get much out of them, but the +man Vasili, who came the last days, did say in a funny lingo, which I had +to guess at, as how he expected he should have to kill him some time. +Vasili had a scar on his face as long as your finger that he'd got +defending the Queen from her husband's brutality, when he was the worse for +drink, only last year. And Mr. Verdayne is so handsome. It is no wonder, +Sir Charles--" + +"That will do, Tompson," said Sir Charles, and he frowned. + +The fatal letter, carefully sealed up in a new envelope, and the leather +case were in his despatch-box. Tompson had handed them to him on his +arrival. And one day when Paul appeared well enough to be lifted into a +long chair on the side loggia, his father thought fit to give them to him. + +Paul's apathy seemed paralysing. The days had passed, since the little +Italian doctor had pronounced him out of danger, in one unending languid +quietude. He expressed interest in no single thing. He was polite, and +indifferent, and numb. + +"He must be roused now," Sir Charles said to the doctor. "It is too hot for +Venice, he must be moved to higher air," and the little man had nodded his +head. + +So this warm late afternoon, as he lay under the mosquito curtains--which +the coming of June had made necessary in this paradise--his father said to +him: + +"I have a letter and a parcel of yours, Paul: you had better look at +them--we hope to start north in a day or two--you must get to a more +bracing place." + +Then he had pushed them under the net-folds, and turned his back on the +scene. + +The blood rushed to Paul's face, but left him deathly pale after a few +moments. And presently he broke the seal. The minute Sphinx in the corner +of the paper seemed to mock at him. Indeed, life was a riddle of anguish +and pain. He read the letter all over--and read it again. The passionate +words of love warmed him now that he had passed the agony of the farewell. +One sentence he had hardly grasped before, in particular held balm. +"Sweetheart," it said, "you must not grieve--think always of the future +and of our hope. Our love is not dead with our parting, and one day +there will be the living sign--" Yes, that thought was comfort--but how +should he know? + +Then he turned to the leather case. His fingers were still so feeble that +with difficulty he pressed the spring to open it. + +He glanced up at his father's distinguished-looking back outlined against +the loggia's opening arches. It appeared uncompromising. A fixed +determination to stare at the oleanders below seemed the only spirit +animating this parent. + +Yes--he must open the box. It gave suddenly with a jerk, and there lay a +dog's collar, made of small flexible plates of pure beaten gold, mounted on +Russian leather, all of the finest workmanship. And on a slip of paper in +his darling's own writing he read: + +"This is for Pike, my beloved one; let him wear it always--a gift from me." + +On the collar itself, finely engraved, were the words, "Pike, belonging to +Paul Verdayne." + +Then the floodgates of Paul's numbed soul were opened, a great sob rose in +his breast. He covered his face with his hands, and cried like a child. + +Oh! her dear thought! her dear, tender thought--for Pike! His little +friend! + +And Sir Charles made believe he saw nothing, as he stole from the place, +his rugged face twitching a little, and his keen eyes dim. + + + + +CHAPTER XXII + + +They did not go north, as Sir Charles intended, an unaccountable reluctance +on Paul's part to return through Switzerland changed their plans. Instead, +by a fortunate chance, the large schooner yacht of a rather eccentric old +friend came in to Venice, and the father eagerly accepted the invitation to +go on board and bring his invalid. + +The owner, one Captain Grigsby, had been quite alone, so the three men +would be in peace, and nothing could be better for Paul than this warm sea +air. + +"Typhoid fever?" Mark Grigsby had asked. + +"No," Sir Charles had replied, "considerable mental tribulation over a +woman." + +"D--d kittle cattle!" was Captain Grigsby's polite comment. "A fine boy, +too, and promising--" + +"Appears to have been almost worth while," Sir Charles added, "from what I +gather--and, confound it, Grig, we'd have done the same in our day." + +But Captain Grigsby only repeated: "D--d kittle cattle!" + +And so they weighed anchor, and sailed along the Italian shores of the +sun-lit Adriatic. + +These were better days for Paul. Each hour brought him back some health and +vigour. Youth and strength were asserting their own again, and the absence +of familiar objects, and the glory of the air and the blue sea helped +sometimes to deaden the poignant agony of his aching heart. But there it +was underneath, an ever-present, dull anguish. And only when he became +sufficiently strong to help the sailors with the ropes, and exert physical +force, did he get one moment's respite. The two elder men watched him with +kind, furtive eyes, but they never questioned him, or made the slightest +allusion to his travels. + +And the first day they heard him laugh Sir Charles looked down at the white +foam because a mist was in his eyes. + +They had coasted round Italy and Sicily, and not among the Ionian Isles, as +had been Captain Grigsby's intention. + +"I fancy the lady came from some of those Balkan countries," Sir Charles +had said. "Don't let us get in touch with even the outside of one of them." + +And Mark Grigsby had grunted an assent. + +"The boy is a fine fellow," he said one morning as they looked at Paul +hauling ropes. "He'll probably never get quite over this, but he is +fighting like a man, Charles--tell me as much as you feel inclined to of +the story." + +So Sir Charles began in his short, broken sentences: + +"Parson's girl to start with--sympathy over a broken collar-bone. The wife +behaved unwisely about it, so the boy thought he was in love. We sent him +to travel to get rid of that idea. It appears he met this lady in +Lucerne--seems to have been an exceptional person--a Russian, Tompson +says--a Queen or Princess _incog.,_ the fellow tells me--but I can't spot +her as yet. Hubert will know who she was, though--but it does not +matter--the woman herself was the thing. Gather she was quite a remarkable +woman--ten years older than Paul." + +"Always the case," growled Captain Grigsby. + +Sir Charles puffed at his pipe--and then: "They were only together three +weeks," he said. "And during that time she managed to cram more knowledge +of everything into the boy's head than you and I have got in a +lifetime. Give you my word, Grig, when he was off his chump in the fever, +he raved like a poet, and an orator, and he was only an ordinary sportsman +when he left home in the spring! Cleopatra, he called her one day, and I +fancy that was the keynote--she must have been one of those exceptional +women we read of in the sixth form." + +"And fortunately never met!" said Captain Grigsby. + +"I don't know," mused Sir Charles. "It might have been good to live as +wildly even at the price. We've both been about the world, Grig, since the +days we fastened on our cuirasses together for the first time, and each +thought himself the devil of a fine fellow--but I rather doubt if we now +know as much of what is really worth having as my boy there--just +twenty-three years old." + +"Nonsense!" snapped Captain Grigsby--but there was a tone of regret in his +protest. + +"Lucky to have got off without a knife or a bullet through him--dangerous +nations to grapple with," he said. + +"Yes--I gather some pretty heavy menace was over their heads, and that is +what made the lady decamp, so we've much to be thankful for," agreed Sir +Charles. + +"Had she any children?" the other asked. + +"Tompson says no. Rotten fellow the husband, it appears, and no heir to the +throne, or principality, or whatever it is--so when I have had a talk with +Hubert--Henrietta's brother, you know--the one in the Diplomatic Service, +it will be easy to locate her--gathered Paul doesn't know himself." + +"Pretty romance, anyway. And what will you do with the boy now, Charles?" + +Paul's father puffed quite a long while at his meerschaum before he +answered, and then his voice was gruffer than ever with tenderness +suppressed. + +"Give him his head, Grig," he said. "He's true blue underneath, and he'll +come up to the collar in time, old friend--only I shall have to keep his +mother's love from harrying him. Best and greatest lady in the world, my +wife, but she's rather apt to jog the bridle now and then." + +At this moment Paul joined them. His paleness showed less than usual +beneath the sunburn, and his eyes seemed almost bright. A wave of thankful +gladness filled his father's heart. + +"Thank God," he said, below his breath. "Thank God." + +The weather had been perfection, hardly a drop of rain, and just the +gentlest breezes to waft them slowly along. A suitable soothing idle life +for one who had but lately been near death. And each day Paul's strength +returned, until his father began to hope they might still be home for his +birthday the last day of July. They had crept up the coast of Italy now, +when an absolute calm fell upon them, and just opposite the temple of +Paestum they decided to anchor for the night. + +For the last evenings, as the moon had grown larger, Paul had been +strangely restless. It seemed as if he preferred to tire himself out with +unnecessary rope-pulling, and then retire to his berth the moment that +dinner was over, rather than go on deck. His face, too, which had been +controlled as a mask until now, wore a look of haunting anguish which was +grievous to see. He ate his dinner--or rather, pretended to play with the +food--in absolute silence. + +Uneasiness overcame Sir Charles, and he glanced at his old friend. But +Paul, after lighting a cigar, and letting it out once or twice, rose, and +murmuring something about the heat, went up on deck. + +It was the night of the full moon--eight weeks exactly since the joy of +life had finished for him. + +He felt he could not bear even the two kindly gentlemen whose unspoken +sympathy he knew was his. He could not bear anything human. To-night, at +least, he must be alone with his grief. + +All nature was in a mood divine. They were close enough inshore to see the +splendid temples clearly with the naked eye. The sky and the sea were of +the colour only the Mediterranean knows. + +It was hot and still, and the moon in her pure magnificence cast her +never-ending spell. + +Not a sound of the faintest ripple met his ear. The sailors supped +below. All was silence. On one side the vast sea, on the other the shore, +with this masterpiece of man's genius, the temple of the great god +Poseidon, in this vanished settlement of the old Greeks. How marvellously +beautiful it all was, and how his Queen would have loved it! How she would +have told him its history and woven round it the spirit of the past, until +his living eyes could almost have seen the priests and the people, and +heard their worshipping prayers! + +His darling had spoken of it once, he remembered, and had told him it was a +place they must see. He recollected her very words: + +"We must look at it first in the winter from the shore, my Paul, and see +those splendid proportions outlined against the sky--so noble and so +perfectly balanced--and then we must see it from the sea, with the +background of the olive hills. It is ever silent and deserted and calm, and +death lurks there after the month of March. A cruel malaria, which we must +not face, dear love. But if we could, we ought to see it from a yacht in +safety in the summer time, and then the spell would fall upon us, and we +would know it was true that rose-trees really grew there which gave the +world their blossoms twice a year. That was the legend of the Greeks." + +Well, he was seeing it from a yacht, but ah, God! seeing it +alone--alone. And where was she? + +So intense and vivid was his remembrance of her that he could feel her +presence near. If he turned his head, he felt he should see her standing +beside him, her strange eyes full of love. The very perfume of her seemed +to fill the air--her golden voice to whisper in his ear--her soul to +mingle with his soul. Ah yes, in spirit, as she had said, they could never +be parted more. + +A suppressed moan of anguish escaped his lips, and his father, who had come +silently behind him, put his hand on his arm. + +"My poor boy," he said, his gruff voice hoarse in his throat, "if only to +God I could do something for you!" + +"Oh, father!" said Paul. + +And the two men looked in each other's eyes, and knew each other as never +before. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIII + + +Next day there was a fresh breeze, and they scudded before it on to Naples. +Here Paul seemed well enough to take train, and so arrive in England in +time for his birthday. He owed this to his mother, he and his father both +felt. She had been looking forward to it for so long, as at the time of his +coming of age the festivities had been interrupted by the sudden death of +his maternal grandfather, and the people had all been promised a +continuance of them on this, his twenty-third birthday. So, taking the +journey by sufficiently easy stages, sleeping three nights on the way, they +calculated to arrive on the eve of the event. + +The Lady Henrietta would have everything in readiness for them, and her +darling Paul was not to be over-hurried. Only guests of the most congenial +kind had been invited, and such a number of nice girls! + +The prospect was perfectly delightful, and ought to cause any young man +pure joy. + +It was with a heart as heavy as lead Paul mounted the broad steps of his +ancestral home that summer evening, and was folded in his mother's +arms. (The guests were all fortunately dressing for dinner.) + +Captain Grigsby had been persuaded to abandon his yacht and accompany them +too. + +"Yes, I'll come, Charles," he said. "Getting too confoundedly hot in these +seas; besides, the boy will want more than one to see him through among +those cackling women." + +So the three had travelled together through Italy and France--Switzerland +had been strictly avoided. + +"Paul! darling!" his mother exclaimed, in a voice of pained surprise as she +stood back and looked at him. "But surely you have been very ill. My +darling, darling son--" + +"I told you he had had a sharp attack of fever, Henrietta," interrupted Sir +Charles quickly, "and no one looks their best after travelling in this +grilling weather. Let the boy get to his bath, and you will see a different +person." + +But his mother's loving eyes were not to be deceived. So with infinite +fuss, and terms of endearment, she insisted upon accompanying her offspring +to his room, where the dignified housekeeper was summoned, and his every +imaginable and unimaginable want arranged to be supplied. + +Once all this would have irritated Paul to the verge of bearish rudeness, +but now he only kissed his mother's white jewelled hand. He remembered his +lady's tender counsel to him, given in one of their many talks: "You must +always reverence your mother, Paul, and accept her worship with love." So +now he said: + +"Dear mother, it is so good of you, but I'm all right--fever does knock one +over a bit, you know. You'll see, though, being at home again will make me +perfectly well in no time--and I'll be as good as you like, and eat and +drink all Mrs. Elwyn's beef-teas and jellies, and other beastly stuff, if +you will just let me dress now, like a darling." + +However, his mother was obliged to examine and assure herself that his +beautiful hair was still thick and waving--and she had to pause and sigh +over every sharpened line of his face and figure--though the thought of +being permitted to lavish continuous care for long days to come held a +certain consolation for her. + +At last Paul was left alone, and there came a moment he had been longing +for. He had sent written orders that Tremlett should bring Pike, and leave +him in his dressing-room beyond--and all the while his mother had talked he +had heard suppressed whines and scratchings. Somehow he had not wanted to +see his dog before any of the people; the greeting between himself and his +little friend must be in solitude, for was there not a secret link between +them in that golden collar given by his Queen? + +And Pike would understand--he certainly would understand! + +If short, passionate barks, and a madness of wagging tail-stump, +accompanied by jumps of crazy joy, could comfort any one--then Paul had his +full measure when the door was opened, and this rough white terrier bounded +in upon him, and, frantic with welcome and ecstasy, was with difficulty +quieted at last in his master's fond arms. + +"Oh! Pike, Pike!" Paul said, while tears of weakness flowed down his +cheeks. "I can talk to you--and when you wear her collar you will know my +Queen--our Queen." + +And Pike said everything of sympathy a dog could say. But it was not until +late at night, when the interminable evening had been got through, that his +master had the pleasure of trying his darling's present on. + +That first evening of his homecoming was an ordeal for Paul. He was still +feeble, and dead tired from travelling, to begin with--and to have to +listen and reply to the endless banalities of his mother's guests was +almost more than he could bear. + +They were a nice cheery company of mostly young friends. Pretty girls and +his own boon companions abounded, and they chaffed and played silly games +after dinner--until Paul could have groaned. + +Captain Grigsby had eventually caught Sir Charles' eye: + +"You will have the boy fainting if you don't get him off alone soon," he +said. "These girls would tire a man in strong health!" + +And at last Paul had escaped to his own room. + +He leant out of his window, and looked at the gibbous moon. Pike was there +on the broad sill beside him, under his arm, and he could feel the golden +collar on the soft fur neck--a wave of perhaps the most hopeless anguish he +had yet felt was upon his spirit now. The unutterable blankness--the +impossible vista of the endless days to come, with no prospect of +meeting--no aim--no hope. Yes, she had said there was one hope--one hope +which could bring peace to their crud unrest. But how and when should he +ever know? And if it were so--then more than ever he should be by her +side. The number of beautiful things he would want to say to her about it +all--the oceans of love he would desire to pour upon her--the tender care +which should be his hourly joy. To honour and worship her, and chase all +pain away. And he did not even know her name, or the country where one day +this hope should reign. That was incredible--and it would be so easy to +find out. But he had promised her never to make inquiries, and he would +keep his word. He saw her reason now; it had arisen in an instinct of +tender protection for himself. She had known if he knew her place of abode +no fear of death would keep him from trying to see her. Ah! he had had the +tears--and why not the cold steel and blood? It was no price to pay could +he but hear once more her golden voice, and feel her loving, twining arms. + +He was only held back by the fear of the danger for her. And instead of +being with her, and waiting on her footsteps, he should have to spend his +next hours with those ridiculous Englishwomen! Those foolish, flippant +girls! One had quoted poetry to him at dinner, the very scrap his lady had +spoken a line of--this new poet's, who was taking the world of London by +storm that year: "Loved with a love beyond all words or sense!" And it had +sounded like bathos or sacrilege. What did these dolls know of love, or +life? Chattering parrots to weary a man's brain! Yes, the Greeks were +right, it would be better to keep them spinning flax, and uneducated. + +And so in his young intolerance, maddened by pain, he saw all things +gibbous like the mocking moon. Pike stirred under his arm and licked his +hand, a faint whine of love making itself heard in the night. + +"O God!" said Paul, as he buried his face in his hands, "let me get through +this time as she would have me do; let me not show the anguish in my heart, +but be at least a man and gentleman." + + + + +CHAPTER XXIV + + +The neighbours and his parents were astonished at the eloquence of Paul's +speech at the great dinner given to the tenants next day. No one had +guessed at his powers before, and the county papers, and indeed some London +reporters, had predicted a splendid political future for this young +orator. It had been quite a long speech, and contained sound arguments and +common sense, and was expressed in language so lofty and refined that it +sent ecstatic admiration through his mother's fond breast. + +And all the time Paul spoke he saw no sea of faces below him--only his +soul's eyes were looking into those strange chameleon orbs of his lady. He +said every word as if she had been there, and at the end it almost seemed +she must have heard him, so soft a peace fell on his spirit. Yes, she would +have been pleased with her lover, he knew, and that held large grains of +consolation. And so these days passed in well-accomplished duty; and at +last all the festivities were over, and he could rest. + +Captain Grigsby and his father had helped him whenever they could, and an +eternal bond of friendship was cemented between the three. + +"By Jove, Charles! You ought to be thundering proud of that boy!" Captain +Grigsby said the morning of his departure for Scotland on August 10. "He's +come up to the scratch like a hero, and whatever the damage, the lady must +have been well worth while to turn him out polished like that. Gad! +Charles, I'd take a month's journey to see her myself." + +And Paul's father grunted with satisfaction as he said: "I told you so." + +Thus the summer days went by in the strengthening of Paul's +character--trying always to live up to an ideal--trying ever to dominate +his grief--but never trying to forget. + +By the autumn shooting time his health was quite restored, and except that +he looked a year or so older there were no outward traces of the passing +through that valley of the shadow, from whence he had escaped with just his +life. + +But the three weeks of his lady's influence had changed the inner man +beyond all recognition. His spirit was stamped with her nameless +distinction, and all the vistas she had opened for him to the tree of +knowledge he now followed up. No smallest incident of his day seemed +unconnected with some thought or wish of hers--so that in truth she still +guided and moulded him by the power of her great soul. + +But in spite of all these things, the weeks and months held hours of aching +longing and increasing anxiety to know how she fared. If she should be +ill. If their hope was coming true, then now she must be suffering, and +suffering all alone. Sometimes the agony of the thought was more than Paul +could bear, and took him off with Pike alone into the leafless woods which +crowned a hill at the top of the park. And then he would pause, and look +out at the view, and the dull November sky, a madness of agonising unrest +torturing his heart. + +The one thing he felt glad of was the absence of his Uncle Hubert, who had +been made Minister in a South American Republic, and would not return to +England for more than a year. So there would be no temptation to question +him, or perchance to hear one of his clever, evil jests which might contain +some allusion to his lady. Lord Hubert Aldringham was fond of boasting of +his royal acquaintances, and was of a mind that found "not even Lancelot +brave, nor Galahad clean." Now all Paul could do was to wait and hope. At +least his Queen had his address. She could write to him, even though he +could not write to her--and surely, surely, some news of her must come. + +Thus the winter arrived, and the hunting--hunting that he had been sure was +what he liked best in all the world. + +And now it just served to pass the time and distract some hours from the +anguishing ache by its physical pleasure. But in that, as in everything he +did at this time, Paul tried to outshine his fellows, and gain one more +laurel to lay at the feet of his Queen. Socially he was having an immense +success. He began to be known as some one worth listening to by men, and +women hung on his words. It was peculiarly delightful to find so young and +beautiful a creature with all the knowledge and fascinating _cachet_ of a +man of the world. And then his complete indifference to them piqued and +allured them still more. Always polite and chivalrous, but as aloof as a +mountain top. Paul had no small vanity to be soothed by their worship into +forgetting for one moment his Queen. So his shooting-visits passed, and his +experience of life grew. + +Isabella had returned at Christmas, engaged to a High Church curate, and +beaming with satisfaction and health. And it gave Paul, and indeed them +both, pleasure to meet and talk for an hour. She was a good sort always, +and if he marvelled to himself how he had even been even mildly attracted +by her, he did not let it appear in his manner. + +But one thing jarred. + +"My goodness, Paul, how smart Pike's collar is!" Isabella had said. "Did +you ever! You extravagant boy! It is good enough for a lady's bracelet. You +had better give it to me! It will make the finest wedding gift I'll have!" + +But Paul had snatched Pike up, the blood burning in his cheeks, and had +laughed awkwardly and turned the conversation. + +No one's fingers but his own were ever allowed to touch the sacred gold. + +About this time his mother began to have the idea he ought really to +marry. His father had been thirty at the time of his wedding with herself, +and she had always thought that was starting too late. Twenty-three was a +good age, and a sweet, gentle wife of Paul's would be the joy of her +declining years--to say nothing of several grandchildren. But when this +matter was broached to him first, Paul laughed, and when it became a daily +subject of conversation, he almost lost that quick temper of his, which was +not quite yet under perfect control. + +"I tell you what it is, mother," he said, "if you tease me like this I +shall go away on a voyage round the world!" + +So the Lady Henrietta subsided into pained silence, and sulked with her +adored son for more than a day. + +"Paul is so unaccountably changed since his visit abroad," she said to her +husband plaintively. "I sometimes wonder, Charles, if we really know all +the people he met." + +And Sir Charles had replied, "Nonsense! Henrietta--the lad is a man now, +and immensely improved; do leave him in peace." + +But when he was alone the father had smiled to himself--rather sadly--for +he saw a good deal with his shrewd eyes, though he said no words of +sympathy to his son. He knew that Paul was suffering still, perhaps as +keenly as ever, and he honoured his determination to keep it all from view. + +So the old year died, and the new one came--and soon February would be +here. Ah! with what passionate anxiety the end of that month was awaited by +Paul, only his own heart knew. + + + + +CHAPTER XXV + + +The days passed on, March had almost come, and Paul heard nothing. His +father noticed the daily look of strain, and his mother anxiously inquired +if he were dull, and if he would not like her to have some people to stay, +and thus divert him in some fashion. And Paul had answered with what grace +he could. + +An intense temptation came over him to read all the Court news. He longed +to pick up the ladies' papers he saw in his mother's sitting-room; such +journals, he knew, delighted to publish the doings of royal lives. But the +stern self-control which now he practised in all the ruling of his life +prevented him. No, he had promised never to investigate--and neither in the +letter, nor the spirit, would he break his word, whatever the +suffering. The news, when it came, must be from his beloved one direct. + +But oh! the unrest of these hours. Had their hope come true?--and how was +she? The days passed in a gnawing anxiety. He was so restless he could +hardly fix his attention on anything. It required the whole of his will to +keep him taking in the sense of the Parliamentary books which were now his +study. The constant query would raise its head between each page--"What +news of my Queen?--what news of my Queen?" + +Each mail as it came in made his heart beat, and often his hand trembled as +he lifted his pile of letters. But no sight of her writing gladdened his +eyes, until he began to be like the sea and its tides, rising twice a day +in a rushing hope with the posts, and sinking again in disappointment. + +He grew to look haggard, and his father's heart ached for him in +silence. At length one morning, when he had almost trained himself not to +glance at his correspondence, which came as he was dawdling over an early +breakfast, his eye caught a foreign-looking letter lying on the top. It +was no hand he knew--but something told him it contained a message--from +his Queen. + +He dominated himself; he would not even look at the postmark until he was +away up in his own room. No eye but Pike's must see his joy--or sorrow and +disappointment. And so the letter burnt in his pocket until his sanctum was +reached, and then with agonised impatience he opened the envelope. + +Within was another of the familiar paper he knew, and ah! thank God, +addressed in pencil in his lady's own hand. Inside it contained an +enclosure, but the sheet was blank. With wildly beating heart and trembling +fingers Paul undid the smaller packet's folded ends. And there the morning +sunbeams fell on a tiny curl of hair, of that peculiar nondescript shade of +infant fairness which later would turn to gold. It was less than an inch +long, and of the fineness of down, while in tender care it had been tied +with a thread of blue silk. + +Written on the paper underneath were the words: + +"Beloved, he is so strong and fair, thy son, born the 19th of February." + +For a moment Paul closed his eyes, and as once before a choir of seraphims +were singing in his ears. + +Then he looked at this minute lock again, and touched it with his +forefinger. The strangest emotion he had ever known quivered through his +being--the concentrated sensation of what he used to feel when his lady had +spoken of their hope--a weird, tremulous, physical thrill. The dear small +curl of hair! The actual, tangible proof of his own living son. He lifted +it with the greatest reverence to his lips, and a mist of joy swam in his +blue eyes. Ah! it was all too wonderful--too divine the thought! The +essence of their great love--this child of his and hers. His and hers! +Yes, their hope had not deceived them. It was true! It was true! + +Then his mind rose in passionate worship of his lady. His goddess and +Queen--the mainspring of his watch of life--the supreme and absolute +mistress of his heart and soul. Never had he more madly desired and loved +her than this day. He kissed and kissed her words in deep devotion. + +But how and where was she?--was she well?--was she ill? Had she been +suffering? Oh! that he could fly to her. More than ever the terrible gall +of their separation came to him. It was his right, by every law of nature, +to now be by her side. + +But she was well--she must be well, or she would have said, and surely he +soon would see her. + +It was like a voice from heaven, her little written words, bridging the +impossible--drawing him back to the knowledge and certainty that she was +there, for him to love, and one day to go to. Fate could never be so unjust +as to part him from--the mother of his child. + +And then a state of mad ecstasy came over Paul with that vision; he could +not stay in the house; he must go out under God's sky, and let his +soul-thoughts fly into space. Dazzling pictures came to him; surely the +spring was in his heart breaking through the frozen ground like a single +golden crocus he saw at his feet--surely, surely the sun of life would +shine again, and living he should see her. + +He strode away, Pike gambolling beside him, and racing ahead and back +again, seeming to understand and participate in his master's inward joy. + +Paul hardly noticed where he went, his thoughts exalting him so that he did +not even heed to choose his favourite haunt, the wood against the +sky-line. It was as if great blocks of icy fear and anguish were melting in +the warmth. Hope and glory shone on his path, almost blinding him. + +He left the park far behind, and struck away across the moor. As he passed +some gipsy vans a swarthy young woman looked out, an infant in her arms, +and gave him a smiling greeting. But Paul stopped and said good-day, +tossing her a sovereign with laughing, cheery words--for her little +child--and so passed on, his glad face radiant as the morn. + +But the woman called after him in gratitude: + +"Blessings on your honour. Your own will grace a throne." + +And the strange coincidence of her prophecy set fresh thrills of delight +bounding in Paul's veins. + +He walked and walked, stopping to lunch at an inn miles away. He could not +bear even to see his parents--or the familiar scenes at home; and as once +before he had felt in his grief--he and his joy must be alone to-day. + +When he turned to come back in the late afternoon, the torrent of his wild +happiness had crystallised itself into coherent thought and question. +Surely she would send him some more words and make some plan to see +him. But at least he was in touch with her again and knew she was his +own--his own. The silence had broken, and human ingenuity would find some +way of meeting. + +The postmark was Vienna--though that meant nothing at all; she could have +sent Dmitry there to post the letter. But at best, even if it were Russia, +a few days' journey only separated him from his darling and--his son! Then +the realisation of that proud fact of parenthood came over him again. He +said the words aloud, "My son!" + +And with a cry of wild exaltation he vaulted a gate like a schoolboy and +ran along the path, Pike bounding in the air in frantic sympathy. Thus Paul +returned to his home again, hope singing in his heart. + + * * * * * + +But even his father did not guess why that night at dinner he raised his +champagne glass and drank a silent toast--his eyes gazing into distance as +if he there saw heaven. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVI + + +Of course as the days went by the sparkle of Paul's joy subsided. An +infinite unrest took its place--a continual mad desire for further +news. Supposing she were ill, his darling one? Many times a day he read her +words; the pencil writing was certainly feeble and shaky--supposing--But he +refused to face any terrible picture. The letter had come on the 2d of +March; his son had been eleven days old then--two days and a half to +Vienna--that brought it to eight when the letter was posted--and from +whence had it come there? If he allowed two days more, say--she must have +written it only five or six days after the baby's birth. + +Paul knew very little about such things, though he understood vaguely that +a woman might possibly be very ill even after then. But surely, if so, Anna +or Dmitry would have told him on their own initiative. This thought +comforted him a little, but still anxiety--like a sleuth-hound--pursued his +every moment. He would not leave home--London saw him not even for a day. +Some word might come in his absence, some message or summons to go to her, +and he would not chance being out of its reach. More than ever all their +three weeks of happiness was lived over again--every word she had said had +sunk for ever in his memory. And away in his solitary walks, or his rides +home from hunting in the dusk of the afternoon, he let them echo in his +heart. + +But the desire to be near her was growing an obsession. + +Some days when a wild gallop had made his blood run, triumphant thoughts +of his son would come to him. How he should love to teach him to sit a +horse in days to come, to ride to hounds, and shoot, and be an English +gentleman. Oh! why was she a Queen, his loved one, and far away--why not +here, and his wife, whom he could cover with devotion and honour? Surely +that would be enough for them both--a life of trust and love and sweetness; +but even if it were not--there was the world to choose from, if only they +were together. + +The two--Paul and his father--were a silent pair for the most part, as they +jogged along the lanes on their way back from hunting. + +One afternoon, when this sense of parenthood was strong upon Paul, he went +in to tea in his mother's sitting-room. And as he leant upon the +mantelpiece, his tall, splendid figure in its scarlet coat outlined against +the bright blaze, his eye took in--perhaps for the first time--the immense +number of portraits of himself which decorated this apartment--himself in +every stage, from infantile days upward, through the toy rocking-horse +period to the real dog companion--in Eton collars and Fourth of June +hats--in cricketing flannels and Oxford Bullingdon groups--and then not so +many, until one taken last year. How young it looked and smiling! There +was one particular miniature of him in the holy of holiest positions in the +centre of the writing-table--a real work of art, well painted on ivory. It +was mounted in a frame of fine pearls, and engraved with the name and date +at the back: + +"Paul Verdayne--aged five years and three months." + +It was a full-length picture of him standing next a great chair, in a blue +velvet suit and a lace turn-over collar, while curls of brightest gold fell +rippling to his neck--rather short bunchy curls which evidently would not +be repressed. + +"Was I ever like that, mother?" he said. + +And the Lady Henrietta, only too enchanted to expand upon this enthralling +subject, launched forth on a full description. + +Like it! Of course! Only much more beautiful. No child had ever had such +golden curls, or such eyes or eye-lashes! No child had ever, in fact, been +able to compare with him in any way, or ever would! The Lady Henrietta's +delicate shell-tinted cheeks flushed rose with joy at the recollection. + +"Darling mother," said Paul, as he kissed her, "how you loved me. And how +cold I have often been. Forgive me--" + +Then he was silent while she fondled him in peace, his thoughts turning as +ever to his lady. She, too, probably, would be foolish, and tender, and +sweet over her son--and how his mother would love her grandchild. Oh! how +cruel, how cruel was fate! + +Then he asked: "Mother, does it take women a long time to get well when +they have children? Ladies, I mean, who are finely nurtured? They +generally get well, though, don't they--and it is quite simple--" + +And the Lady Henrietta blushed as she answered: + +"Oh! yes, quite simple--unless some complications occur. Of course there is +always a faint danger, but then it is so well worth it. What a strange +thing to ask, though, dear boy! Were you thinking of Cousin Agatha?" + +"Cousin Agatha!" said Paul vaguely, and then recollected himself. "Oh, yes, +of course--how is she?" + +But when he went off to his room to change, his mother's words stayed with +him--"unless some complications occur"--and the thought opened a fresh +field of anxious wonderment. + +At last it all seemed unbearable. A wild idea of rushing off to Vienna came +to him--to rush there on the clue of a postmark--but common sense put this +aside. It might be the means of just missing some message. No, he must bear +things and wait. This silence, perhaps, meant good news--and if by the end +of April nothing came, then he should have to break his promise and +investigate. + +About this time Captain Grigsby again came to stay with them. And the next +day, as he and his host smoked their pipes while they walked up and down +the sunny terrace, he took occasion to give forth this information: + +"I say, Charles--I have located her--have you?" + +"No! By Jove!" said Paul's father. "Hubert is away, you know, and I have +just let the thing slide--" + +"About the end of February did you notice the boy looking at all worried?" + +Sir Charles thought a moment. + +"Yes--I recollect--d--d worried and restless--and he is again now." + +"Ah! I thought so!" said Mark Grigsby, as though he could say a good deal +more. + +"Well, then--out with it, Grig," Sir Charles said impatiently. + +And Captain Grigsby proceeded in his own style to weave together a chain of +coincidences which had struck him, until this final certainty. They were a +clear set of arguments, and Paul's father was convinced, too. + +"You see, Tompson told you in the beginning she was Russian," Captain +Grigsby said after talking for some time, "and the rest was easy to find +out. We're not here to judge the morals of the affair, Charles; you and I +can only be thundering glad your grandson will sit on that throne all +right." + +He had read in one paper--he proceeded to say--that a most difficult +political situation had been avoided by the birth of this child, as there +was no possible heir at all, and immense complications would ensue upon the +death of the present ruler--the scurrilous rag even gave a _resume_ of this +ruler's dissolute life, and a broad hint that the child could in no case be +his; but, as they pithily remarked, this added to the little prince's +welcome in Ministerial circles, where the lady was greatly beloved and +revered, and the King had only been put upon his tottering throne, and kept +there, by the fact of being her husband. The paper added, the King had +taken the chief part in the rejoicings over the heir, so there was nothing +to be said. There were hints also of his mad fits of debauchery and +drunkenness, and a suppressed tale of how in one of them he had strangled a +keeper, and had often threatened the Queen's life. Her brother, however, +was with her now, and would see Russian supremacy was not upset. + +"Husband seems a likely character to hobnob with, don't he, Charles? No +wonder she turned her eye on Paul, eh?" Mark Grigsby ended with. + +But Sir Charles answered not, his thoughts were full of his son. + +All the forces of nature and emotion seemed to be drawing him away from +peaceful England towards a hornets' nest, and he--his father--would be +powerless to prevent it. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVII + + +April's days were lengthening out in showers and sunshine and cold east +wind. Easter and a huge party had come and gone at Verdayne Place, and the +Lady Henrietta had had her hopes once more blighted by noticing Paul's +indomitable indifference to all the pretty girls. + +He was going to stand for Parliament in the autumn, when their very old +member should retire, and he made that an excuse for his isolation; he was +working too hard for social functions, he said. But in reality life was +growing more than he could bear. + +Captain Grigsby had sold the old _Blue Heather_ and bought a new steam +yacht of seven hundred tons--large enough to take him round the world, he +said--and he had had her put in commission for the Mediterranean, and she +was waiting for him now at Marseilles. Would Paul join him for a trip? he +asked, and Paul hesitated for a moment. + +If no news came by Friday--this was a Monday--then he should go to London +and deliberately find out his lady's name and kingdom. In that case to +cruise in those waters might suit his book passing well. + +So he asked for a few days' grace, and Captain Grigsby gave a friendly +growl in reply, and thus it was settled. By Saturday he was to give his +answer. + +Tuesday passed, and Wednesday, and on Thursday a telegram came for Paul +which drove him mad with joy. It was short and to the point: "Meet Dmitry +in Paris," Then followed an address. By rushing things he could just catch +the night boat. + +He went to his father's room, where Sir Charles was discussing affairs with +his land steward. The man retired. + +"Father," said Paul, "I am going immediately to Paris. I have not even time +to wait and see my mother--she is out driving, I hear. Will you understand, +father, and make it all right with her?" + +And Sir Charles said, as he wrung his son's hand: + +"Take care of yourself, Paul--I understand, my boy--and remember, Grig and +I are with you to the bone. Wire if you want us--and let me have your +news." + +So they had parted without fuss, deep feeling in their hearts. + +Paul had telegraphed to the address given, for Dmitry, that he would be in +Paris, and at what hotel, by the following morning. He chose a large +caravanserai as being more suitable to unremarked comings and goings, +should Dmitry's visit be anything of a secret one. And with intense +impatience he awaited the faithful servant's visit. + +He was eating his early breakfast in his sitting-room when the old man +appeared. In all the journey Paul had not allowed himself any +speculation--he would see and know soon, that was enough. But he felt +inclined to grind this silver-haired retainer's hand with joy as he made +his respectful obeisance. + +"The Excellency was well?" + +"Yes." And now for his news. + +Madame had bid him come and see the Excellency here in Paris, as not being +so inaccessible as England--and first, Yes, Madame was well--There was +something in his voice as he said this which made Paul exclaim and question +him closely, but he would only repeat that--Yes, his lady was well--a +little delicate still, but well--and the never-sufficiently-to-be-beloved +son was well, too, his lady had told him to assure the Excellency--and was +the portrait of his most illustrious father. And the old man lowered his +eyes, while Paul looked out of the window, and thrilled all +over. Circumstances made things very difficult for Madame to leave the +southern country where she was at present, but she had a very strong desire +to see the Excellency again--if such meeting could be managed. + +He paused, and Paul exclaimed that of course it could be managed, and he +could start that night. + +But Dmitry shook his head. That would be impossible, he said. Much planning +would be needed first. A yacht must be taken, and not until the end of May +would it be safe for the Excellency to journey south. At that time Madame +would be in a chateau on the seacoast, and if the Excellency in his cruise +could be within sight, he might possibly land at a suitable moment and see +her for a few hours. + +Paul thought of Captain Grigsby. + +"I will come in a yacht, whenever I may," he said to Dmitry. + +So they began to settle details. Paul imagined from Dmitry continuing to +call his Queen plain "Madame" that she still wished to preserve her +incognito, so, madly as he desired to know, he would wait until he saw her +face to face, and then ask to be released from his promise. The time had +come when he could bear the mystery no longer, but he would not question +Dmitry. All his force was turned to extracting every detail of his +darling's health and well-being from the old servant, and in his guarded, +respectful manner he answered all he could. + +His lady had indeed been very ill, Paul gathered--at death's door. Ah! +this was terrible to hear--but lately she was mending rapidly, only she had +been too ill to plan or make any arrangements to see him. How all this made +his heart ache! Something had told him his passionate anxiety had not been +without cause. Dmitry continued: Madame's life was not a happy one, the +Excellency must know, and the difficulties surrounding her had become +formidable once or twice. However, the brother of Madame was with her now, +and had been made guardian of her son--so things were peaceful and the +cause of all her trouble would not dare to menace further. + +For once Dmitry had let himself go, as he spoke, and a passionate hate +appeared in his quiet eyes. The "Trouble" was of so impossible a +viciousness that only the nobility and goodness of Madame had prevented his +assassination numbers of times. He was hated, he said, hated and loathed; +his life--spent in continual drunkenness, and worse, unspeakable +wickedness--was not worth a day's purchase, but for her. The son of Madame +would be loved forever, for her sake, so the Excellency need not fear for +that, and Madame's brother was there, and would see all was well. + +Then Paul asked Dmitry if his lady had been aware that he had been ill in +Venice. And he heard that, Yes, indeed, she had kept herself informed of +all his movements, and had even sent Vasili back on learning of his danger, +and was on the point of throwing all prudence to the winds and returning +herself. Oh! Madame had greatly suffered in the past year--the old man +said, but she was more beautiful than ever, and of the gentleness of an +angel, taking continuous pleasure in her little son--indeed, Anna had said +this was her only joy, to caress the illustrious infant and call him +Paul--such name he had been christened--after a great-uncle. And again +Dmitry lowered his eyes, and again Paul looked out of the window and +thrilled. + +Paul! She had called him Paul, their son. It touched him to the heart. Oh! +the mad longing to see her! Must he wait a whole month? Yes--Dmitry said +there was no use his coming before the 28th of May, for reasons which he +could not explain connected with the to-be-hated Troublesome one. + +Every detail was then arranged, and Dmitry was to send Paul maps, and a +chart, and the exact description and name of the place where the yacht was +to lie. The whole thing would take some time, even if they were to depart +to-morrow. + +"The yacht is at Marseilles now," Paul said, "and we shall start on the +cruise next week. Let me have every last instruction _poste restante_, at +Constantinople--and for God's sake send me news to Naples on the way." + +Dmitry promised everything, and then as he made his obeisance to go, he +slipped a letter into Paul's hand. Madame had bidden him give the +Excellency this when they had talked and all was settled. He would leave +again that night, and his present address would find him till six o'clock +if the Excellency had aught to send in return. + +And then he backed out with deep bows, and Paul stood there, clasping his +letter, a sudden spring of wild joy in his heart. + +And what a letter it was! The very soul of his loved one expressed in her +own quaint words. + +First she told him that now she expected he knew who she was, and as they +were to meet again--which in the beginning she feared might never be--all +reason for her incognito was over. Then she told him--to make sure he +knew--her name and kingdom. "But, sweetheart," she added, "remember +this--my proudest titles ever are to be thy Loved one, and the Mother of +thy son." Here Paul kissed the words, madly thrilling with pride and +worship. She spoke of her still undying love, and of her anguishing sorrow +all the winter at their separation, and at length the joy of their little +one's arrival. + +"Thy image, my Paul! English and beautiful, as I said he would be--not +black and white like me. And oh! beloved, thou must always increase thy +knowledge of statesmancraft to help me to train him well." + +Then she made a glorious picture of their child's future, and Paul lay back +in his chair and closed his eyes--the brightness of it all dazzled +him--while his heart flew to her in passionate adoration. She went on to +speak of their possible meeting. Her villa was but two hundred yards from +the sea, only he must follow exactly all Dmitry's instructions, or there +might be danger for them both; but at all costs she _could not live_ much +longer without seeing her lover. + +"Thou art more than a lover _now_, my Paul--and I am more than ever THINE." + +Thus it ended. And Paul spent most of the rest of his day reading and +re-reading it, and writing his worshipping answer. + +By night both he and Dmitry had started on their homeward journeys. + + + + +CHAPTER XXVIII + + +The Lady Henrietta was desolated when Paul and his father announced their +intention of taking a month or six weeks' cruise with Captain Grigsby. So +unnecessary, she said, at this time of the year, almost the beginning of +May, when England was really getting most enjoyable. And they were obliged +to pacify her as best they could. + +The Mediterranean! Such miles off--and so eccentric, too, starting when +other people would be leaving! Really, she had never ceased regretting ever +having tolerated her son's travels the year before. Since then there had +been no certainty in any of his movements. + +"Darling mother," said Paul, "I must see the world." + +And Sir Charles had snorted and chuckled, as was his habit. + +So they sailed away from Marseilles, this party of three, like a gunboat +under sealed orders. A cruise to the Greek Isles, and beyond, was what they +said attracted them. "Especially the beyond!" Captain Grigsby had added, +with a grunt to Sir Charles. And if the ardour of love and impatience +boiled in Paul's veins, the spirit of interested adventure animated his old +friend and his parent. + +They had not spoken much on the subject to the young man. He had briefly +asked Mark Grigsby to do him this service to take him to a far sea in the +new _Blue Heather_, and there to land him when he should give the word. + +May was a fair month, and an adventure is an adventure all the world over, +so Mark Grigsby had given a joyful assent. + +Then Sir Charles had suggested accompanying them, and was welcomed by the +other two as a third for their party with extra pleasure. + +"I shall grow a young man again before I have done, Grig!" he had said +happily. But down in his heart lurked some undefined fear for Paul, and +that was the real reason for his journey. + +They had a pleasant voyage, and picked up letters at Naples, which only +added to Paul's impatience to be there. But they were not to arrive before +the end of May, so the Grecian Archipelago could be investigated. + +Life in these sunny seas was a joy to all concerned, and Paul's +eyes--illuminated by his lady's ever-present spirit--saw beauties and felt +shades and balances of which his companions never dreamed. So they came at +last to the Bosphorus and Constantinople. + +Here full instructions awaited them. That night Paul took his father and +his friend some way into his confidence, as he showed them the chart and +read aloud the directions. On the 29th of May, should the weather prove +favourable, they were to anchor towards night at a certain spot--latitude +and longitude given--and when they heard a sea-bird cry sharply three +times, Paul was to come ashore to where he would see a green light. Vasili +would be waiting for him, and from there it was but a few steps to the +garden gate of the villa by the sea, in which his lady was passing the +summer. It all seemed perfectly simple--only, the directions added, he must +leave again before dawn, and the yacht be out of sight before daylight, as +complications had occurred since the letter to Naples, and the To-be-hated +one had not left the capital, so things were not so easy to manage, or +safe. + +Paul's impatience knew no bounds. The concentrated pent-up longing of all +these months was animating him. To see his lady again! To clasp her! To +kiss her--to kneel to her--and give her homage and worship. And to behold +his little son. Always he carried the minute flaxen curl in a locket, and +often he had looked at it, and tried to picture the wee head from which it +had been cut. But she--his love--would bring his son to him--and perhaps +let him hold him in his arms. Ah! he shut his eyes and imagined the tender +scene. Would she be changed? Should he see the traces of suffering? But he +would caress all memory of pain away, and surely this meeting would only be +the forerunner of others to come. Fate could never intend such deep, true +love as theirs to be apart. An exaltation uplifted him. And if his lady +were a Queen, and wore a crown, he felt himself the greatest king on earth, +for was not he the absolute ruler of her heart? And who could wish for a +more glorious kingdom? + +The hours from Constantinople seemed longer than the whole voyage. He could +hardly keep his attention to talk coherently about ordinary things at +meals, and his father and Mark Grigsby left him practically alone. + +At last, at last, the 29th of May dawned, boiling hot and cloudlessly fair. + +For obvious reasons they stayed beyond sight of the coast until darkness +fell, and then came close inshore. It was a starlit night, with not a +breath of air, and no moon would illuminate their whereabouts. + +Paul dressed with the greatest care; never had he been more particular over +his toilet. Tompson found him _exigeant!_ + +He had broadened and filled out in the past year, and his fair face was +tanned, and blooming with health and excitement. + +"The best-looking young devil a woman's eye could light on!" Mark Grigsby +said, as he and Sir Charles watched him descend the gangway to the boat, +when the impatiently awaited signal had been given. + +"God keep him safe, Grig," was all Sir Charles could mutter, with a grunt +in his throat. + +The maddest excitement was racing through Paul, as he held the tiller-ropes +and made straight for the light. And once he felt in his pocket to assure +himself he had not forgotten Dmitry's pistol, which he had cleaned and +loaded himself that afternoon. + +He knew this adventure might be a dangerous one, simple as it looked +superficially, and now he was an expert revolver shot, thanks to constant +practice. + +The light proved to be in a little sheltered cove, with a small +landing-stage. And--yes--the man who held it was the Kalmuck, Vasili. + +"Welcome, welcome to the _Siyatelstvo_," he whispered, as he kissed Paul's +hand. And then in perfect silence they began to ascend a path. Presently +it stopped abruptly. They had come up perhaps not fifty feet, when their +way was barred by a great nail-studded door. + +"Hist!" said Vasili softly, and instantly it was opened from within, and +Dmitry peered anxiously at them. + +"Ah, the saints be blessed, the Excellency is safe," he said. But they must +not delay a minute, he added. The Excellency must return to the waiting +boat! A slight but unexpected ill-fortune had befallen them, connected with +the to-be-execrated Troublesome one, and it would not be safe for the +Imperial Highness if the Excellency should land tonight. She had sent him +to say that the Excellency was to keep out at sea for two days, and return +steaming past, and if he saw a white flag flying from the villa roof, then +at night he was to anchor and come ashore at this same time. If not, for +the moment he must go on back to Constantinople, where news and further +instructions would be sent him. + +As he spoke Dmitry indicated the return path, and bid the Excellency follow +him, and hasten, hasten. This was a terrible blow to Paul, but the thought +that he might bring danger to his beloved one made him not hesitate a +moment. + +They descended the path in silence, and as he stepped into the boat the old +servant whispered, the Imperial Highness had bid him assure the Excellency +that all was well, the meeting was only deferred, when they should have +several days together in safety. "The saints protect the Excellency," the +faithful creature added. Then, when Paul was safely in the boat, he stood +back to make sharply three times the sea-bird's cry. + +The weird minor notes floating out on the night seemed a wailing echo of +the agonised disappointment in Paul's heart--more than once a mad impulse +to go back convulsed his being before he reached the yacht--but it was not +till afterwards that he remembered as a strange circumstance the fact that +with Dmitry's first words at the nail-studded door Vasili had vanished into +darkness. + + + + +CHAPTER XXIX + + +The two days out at sea were a raging impatience to Paul, in which he +learnt to understand all the torments of Tantalus. To know and feel her +near, and yet not to be allowed to get to her! It was an impossible +cruelty. + +The two grey-headed men's hearts ached for him, and Captain Grigsby +delivered himself of this aphorism: + +"Say what you will, Charles, but youth pays the devil of a long price for +its pleasures. Here you and I snored like a couple of porpoises all last +night, while the boy paced the deck and cursed everything." + +And Sir Charles had only grunted, for he was feeling very deeply for his +son. + +There was a fresh breeze blowing when the time was up and they sighted land +again, and long before any possible shore could be examined, Paul +stood--his strongest glasses in his hand--on the look-out. + +At length they came in full view, and alas! there could be no mistake, the +flagstaff upon the villa roof was empty. + +To the day of his death Paul will keep a vivid picture of the pure +white-columned house. No semi-Oriental architecture met his view, but a +beautiful marble structure in the graceful Ionic style, seeming a suitable +habitation for his Queen. + +It was approached by groves of ilex, from a wall at the edge of the +sea. And now Paul could discern the landing-stage, and the great studded +door. + +A sensation of foreboding--a wild, mad anxiety, filled his being. What had +happened? Why might he not land? Then for the first time that fact of +Vasili's vanishment came into his mind. Was there something sinister in +it? Had he scented any danger to his Queen, and gone to see? A whirlwind of +questions and frenzied speculation shook Paul's brain. But there was +nothing to be done now but to cram on all steam and make for +Constantinople. + +He looked again. The green _jalousies_ were lowered over the windows, all +seemed peaceful, silent and deserted. No living being wandered in the +gardens. It might have been a mausoleum for the dead. And as this thought +came to him Paul almost cried aloud. + +Then he dominated himself. How weak and intolerably foolish to imagine evil +where perhaps none was! Why should his thoughts fly to terrible reasons for +the postponement of his joy, when in truth they could as well be of the +simplest? A sudden call to the city--a descent of some undesirable spying +eye--a hundred and one possible things, all much more likely than any ones +of fear. + +He would not permit another moment of wonder. He would regain his calm and +wait like a man for certainty. Thus his face wore an iron mask and his +thoughts an iron band. And presently they came to Constantinople. + +But of what followed afterwards it is difficult to write. For fate struck +Paul on that warm June morning, and blasted his life, so that for many days +he only saw red, and lived in hell. + +Every one knows the story which at the time convulsed Europe. How a certain +evil-living King, after a wild orgie of mad drunkenness, rode out with two +boon companions to the villa of his Queen, and there, forcing an entrance, +ran a dagger through her heart before her faithful servants could protect +her. And most people were glad, too, that this brute paid the penalty of +his crime by his own death--his worthless life choked out of him by the +Queen's devoted Kalmuck groom. + +But only Paul and his father, and Mark Grigsby, know the details, which +were told in Dmitry's heart-broken letter. How that night, the 29th of May, +at the hour the Excellency was expected, he--Dmitry--was waiting in the +garden to meet him and conduct him through the gloom, when, while he stood +there under the stars, the Imperial Highness had called him softly, telling +him to take the message down to the Excellency, which he did. How he had +never dreamed that immediate danger threatened her, or that the King was +there, or he would not have left her for any peril to the Excellency, who +was after all a man and could fight. And How Vasili, being younger and more +quick of wit, had suspected, hearing his message as he gave it to the +Excellency, that all was not well, and had hastened to the house--too late +to save his Queen. + +And then the faithful servant took up Anna's tale. How this good girl had +been watching on the side of the villa towards the town, and had heard the +King come battering at the gate. How she had flown to warn her mistress, +but that the _Imperatorskoye_ had sent her back to watch, saying she +herself would call Dmitry to protect them. Of course--as they now +guessed--on purpose that Anna should not hear her message to him--as the +Queen knew full well if he--Dmitry--heard from Anna the King was there, and +she--the Queen--in danger, he would not leave her, even to do her +bidding. Then of how the King had thrust the frightened servants aside, and +strode with threats and oaths into the hall, accompanied by his two vile +men. And how Anna had implored the Queen to hide while there was yet time. +But how that shining one had stood only listening intently for the +sea-bird's cry, and then when she heard it, had turned in triumph to the +entering King, saying to Anna that nothing mattered now the Excellency was +safe! + +On her face, as she looked at this monster, was no dread of death, or aught +but scorn and fearless pride. How Anna, seeing the dagger, had screamed, +and tried to get between, but had been seized by one of the execrated men, +and there been forced to watch the murder of her worshipped Queen. Ah! that +had been a moment the saints could never efface! The splendid lady had +stood quite still, her head thrown back, while this hound of hell had +lurched towards her--hissing through his evil teeth this dreadful sentence: +"Since thou hast at last obeyed me and found me an heir, making the people +love me, I have no more use for thee. It will be a joy to kill thee!" + +And with that he had plunged the dagger in her heart. + +Of all that followed the Excellency would know. How Vasili had entered, +scattering the minions like a mad bull, and springing upon the villainous +King, had torn his life out on the marble floor. + +Thus ended the letter. + +Ah, God! For Paul had come the tears. But for her--cold steel and blood. + +And so, as ever, the woman paid the price. + + + + +CHAPTER XXX + + +Now some of you who read will think her death was just, because she was not +a moral woman. But others will hold with Paul she was the noblest lady who +ever wore a crown. And in all cases she is beyond our puny reasonings. + +But her work in Paul's heart still lives, and will live to the end of his +life. Although for long months after the agony of that June day, nothing +but hate and passion and misery had the ruling of him. + +He could not bear his kind. His father and Captain Grigsby had left the +yacht to him and let him cruise alone. But who can know of the hideous, +ghastly hours that Paul spent then, ever obsessed with this one bitter +thought? Why had he not gone back? Why had he not gone back when that +impulse had seized him? Why had Vasili, and not he, had the satisfaction of +killing this vile slayer of his Queen? + +Even the remembrance of his child did not rouse him. It was safe with the +Grand Duke Peter--a king at four months old! But what of sons, or kings or +countries--nothing could make up for the loss of his Queen! And to think +that she had died to save him! Save him from what? A brush with three +besotted drunkards, whom it would have been great joy to kill! + +There were moments when Paul went mad with passion, and lay and writhed in +his berth. So long months passed, and at last he dominated himself enough +to come back to his home. + +And if the Lady Henrietta had exclaimed that he appeared ill before on his +return, she was dumb now with sorrow at the change. For Paul had looked +upon Medusa's head of horror, and, as well as his heart, his face seemed +turned to stone. He was gentle with his mother, and let her caress him as +much as she would, but nothing any one could say could move him--even +Pike's joyous greeting. + +The whole of God's world was his enemy--for was he not alone there, robbed +of his mate? Presently the reaction from this violence came, and an +intense apathy set in. A saltless, tasteless existence. What was Parliament +to him? What was his country or his nation? or even his home? Only the +hunting when it came gave him some relief, and then if the run were fast +enough, or the jumps prodigiously high, or his horses sufficiently fresh to +be difficult, his blood ran again for a brief space. But beyond this life +was hell, and often he was tempted to use that little pistol of Dmitry's, +and end it, and sleep. Only the inherent manly English spirit in him, deep +down somewhere, prevented him. + +All this time his father grieved and grieved, and the Lady Henrietta spent +hours in tears and prayer. Sir Charles had told her their son had met with +a great sorrow, and they must bow their heads and leave him in peace, so +there were no more gay young parties at Verdayne Place, and gone for ever +were the visions of the grandchildren. Only Mark Grigsby was a constant +visitor, but then--he knew. + +Thus a year passed away, and Paul left on a voyage round the world. An +Englishman's stern duty to be a man at all costs was calling him at +last--bidding him in change of scene to try and overcome the paralysing +dominion of his grief. But as far as that went the experiment proved +futile. If moments came when circumstances did divert him, such as one or +two great storms he happened to come across, and one or two exciting +situations--still, when things were fair and peaceful, back would rush the +ever-living ache. That passionate void and loss for which there seems no +remedy. + +Gentle, pleasant women longed to lavish worship upon him, and Paul talked +and was polite, but all their sweetness touched him no more than summer +ripples stir the bottom of a lake. He seemed impervious to any human +influence, though when the look of a mountain or the colour of beech-trees +would remind him of the Buergenstock anguish as fresh as ever stabbed his +heart. Yet all this while, unknown to himself, his faculties were +developing. He read deeply. He had unconsciously grown to apply his +darling's lucid reasoning to every detail of his judgment of life. It was +as if it had before been written in cypher for him, and she had now given +him the key. His mind was untiring in its efforts to master subjects, as +his splendid physique seemed tireless in all manner of sport. + +Thus he saw the world and its peoples, and was an honoured guest among the +great ones of the earth. But the hardness of adamant was in him. He had no +beliefs--no ambitions. He dissected everything with all the pitiless +certainty of a surgeon's cold knife. And if his life contained an aim at +all, it was to get through with it and find oblivion in eternal sleep. + +Thoughts of his little son would sometimes come to him, but when they did +he thrust them back, and shut his heart up in a casing of ice. + +To feel--was to suffer! That perhaps was his only creed; that and a blind, +sullen rage against fate. This was the lesson his suffering had taught him, +and they were weary years before he knew another side. + +The first time he saw a tiger in India was one of the landmarks in the +history of his inner emotions. He had gone to shoot the beasts with a +well-known Rajah, and it had chanced he came upon a magnificent creature at +very close quarters and had shot it on sight. But when it lay dead, its +wonderful body gracefully moving no more, a sickening regret came over +Paul. Of all things in creation none reminded him so forcibly of his lost +worshipped Queen. In a flash came back to him the first day she had lain on +the skin which had been his gift. Out of the jungle her eyes seemed to +gleam. In his ears rang her words, "I know all your feelings and your +passions. And now I have your skin--for the joy of my skin." Yes, she had +loved tigers, and been in sympathy with them always, and here was one whose +joy of life he had ended! + +No, he could never kill one more. After this expedition for weeks he was +restless--the incident seemed to have pierced through his carefully +cultivated calm. For days and days, fresh as in the first hours of his +grief, came an infinite sensation of pain--just hideous personal pain. + +So time, and his journeys, went on. But no country and no change of scene +could dull Paul's sense of loss, and the great vast terrible finality of +all hope. + +The hackneyed phrase would continually ring in his brain of--Never +again--never again! Ah! God! it was true he would hold his beloved +one--never again. And often unavailing rebellion against destiny would rise +up in him, and he would almost go mad and see red once more. Then he would +rush away from civilisation out into the wild. + +But these violent emotions were always followed by a heavy, numb lethargy +until some echo or resemblance roused him to suffering again. The scent of +tuberoses caused him anguish unspeakable. One night in New York he was +obliged to leave the opera because a woman he was with wore some in her +dress. + +Thus, with all his strong will, there were times when he could not control +himself or his grief. + +He had been absent from England for over two years, when the news came to +him far out in America of his Uncle Hubert's death. So he had gone to join +the world of spirits in the vast beyond! Paul did not care! His only +feeling was one of relief. No more fear of hearing, perhaps, some chance +idle word. But he remembered his mother had loved her handsome brother, and +he wrote a tender letter home. + +Then something in the Lady Henrietta's answer touched him vaguely and +decided him to return. After all--because life was a black barren waste to +him--what right had he to dim all joy in the two who had given him being? +Yes, he would go back, and try to pick up the threads anew. + +There were great quiet rejoicings in his parents' hearts at their son's +third homecoming. And like a wild beast tamed for a time to perform tricks +in a circus, Paul conformed to the ordinary routine. The question of his +entering Parliament was mooted again, but this he put aside. As yet he +could face no ties. He would do his best by staying at home most of the +year--but when that call of anguish was upon him, he must be free once more +to roam. + +Then hope began to bloom in the Lady Henrietta's heart as flowers after +rain. Surely this great unknown grief was passing--surely her adored one +would settle down again. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXI + + +But the months went by without healing Paul's grief. Time only coated it +with a dull, callous crust. He had got into a hard way of taking everything +as it came. He did not fly from society, or ape the manners of the +misanthrope; he went to London, and stayed about and played the game. But +all with a stony, bald indifference which made people wonder. + +No faintest inkling of his story had ever leaked out. And it seemed an +incomprehensible attitude towards life for a young and fortunate man. +Those who had looked for great things from his birthday speech shook their +heads sadly at the unfulfilment. + +So time passed on, until one day at the beginning of February, nearly five +years after the light had gone out of his life, a circumstance happened +which proved a turning-point of great magnitude. + +It was quite a small thing--just the brutalised hardness in a gipsy woman's +face! + +The sun was setting that late afternoon when he strode home across the moor +with Pike, and they came upon some gipsy vans. Paul looked up--it was no +unaccustomed sight, only they happened to be in exactly the same spot where +the like had stood that morning long ago, when in his exuberant happiness +at the news of his little son's birth he had tossed the young woman the +sovereign. + +The door of the last van was open, and there, sitting on the steps in an +attitude of dull sullen idleness, was the same swarthy lass, only now she +was altered sadly! No more the proud young mother met his view, but a hard, +gaunt, evil-looking woman. + +She knew him instantly, and her black eyes fiercened; as he came up close +to her she said without any greeting: + +"I lost him, your honour--him and my Bill in the same blasted year, and I +ain't never had no other." + +Paul stopped and peered into her brown face in the fading light. + +"So we have been both through hell since then, my poor girl?" he said. + +The gipsy woman laughed with bitter harshness as she echoed back the one +word "Hell!"--and afterwards she added with a wail: "Yes, they're dead! and +there won't be never no meeting." + +And Paul went on--but her face haunted him. + +Was there the same hard change in himself, he wondered? Was he, too, +brutalised and branded with the five years of hell? Surely if so he had +gone on a lower road than his darling would have had him travel. + +Then out of the mist of the dying day came the memory of her noble face as +it had been in that happy hour when they had floated out to the lagoon, and +she had told him--her eyes alight with the _feu sacre_--her wishes for his +future. + +But what had he done to carry them out--those lofty wishes? Surely +nothing. For, obsessed with his own selfish anguish, he had lived on with +no single worthy aim, with no aim at all except to forget and deaden his +suffering. + +Forget! Ah God! that could never be. For had she not said there was an +eternal marriage of their souls--in life or in death they could never be +parted? + +And he had tried to break this sacred tender bond, when he should have +cherished every memory to comfort his deep pain with its sweetness. What +had he done? Let sorrow sink him to the level of the poor gipsy girl, +instead of trying to do some fine thing as a tribute to his lady's noble +teaching. + +He strode on in the dusk towards his home, his thoughts lashing him with +shame and remorse. + +And that night, when he and Pike were alone in his own panelled room, he +broke the seal of those beautiful letters which, with directions for them +to be buried with his body at his death, had lain in a packet hidden away +from sight all these years, freighted with agonised memory. + +He read them over carefully, from the first brief note to the last long cry +of love which Dmitry had brought him to Paris. Then he lay back in his +chair, while his strong frame shook with sobs, and his eyes were blinded by +scorching, bitter tears. + +But suddenly it seemed as if his lady's spirit stood beside him in the +firelight's flickering gleam, whispering words of hope, pleading to come +back from the cold grave to his heart, there to abide and comfort him. + +He heard her golden voice once more, and it fell like soft, healing rain, +so that he stretched out his arms, and cried aloud: + +"My darling, beloved one, forgive me for these five wasted +years--sweetheart, come back to me never to part again. Come back to my +heart, and dwell there, Angel Queen!" + + * * * * * + +Then, as the days went on, all the world altered for him. Instead of the +terrible bitterness against fate which had ruled his heart, a new +tenderness grew there. It seemed now as though he were never alone, but +lived in her ever-present memory. And with this golden change came thoughts +of his child--that little life neglected for so long. What had he done? +What cruel, terrible thing had he done in his selfish pain? + +Each year Dmitry had sent him a letter of news, and each year that day had +held ghastly hours for him in the reopening of old anguish--the missive to +be read and quickly thrust out of sight, the thought of it to be strangled +and forgotten. + +And now the little one would soon be five years old, and his father's +living eyes had never seen him! But this should no more be so, and he wrote +at once to Dmitry. + +By return of post came the answer. The Excellency indeed would be +welcome. The Regent--the Grand Duke Peter--had bidden him say that if the +Excellency should be travelling for pleasure, as the nobility of his +country often did, he would gladly be received by the Regent, who was +himself a great _chasseur_ and _voyageur_. The Excellency would then see +the never-to-be-sufficiently-beloved baby King. Of this glorious child +he--Dmitry--found it difficult to write. It was as if the _Imperatorskoye_ +breathed again in his spirit, while he was the portrait of his illustrious +father, proving how deeply and well the _Imperatorskoye_ must have loved +that father. If the Excellency could arrive in time for the Majesty's fifth +birthday, on the 19th of February, there was to be a special ceremony in +the great church which the Regent thought might be of interest to the +Excellency. + +Paul wired back he would travel night and day to be in time, and he +instructed Dmitry to have the necessary arrangements made that he might go +straight to the church, in case unforeseen delay should not permit him to +arrive until that morning. + +It was in a shaft of sunlight from the great altar window that Paul first +saw his son. The tiny upright figure in its blue velvet suit, heavily +trimmed with sable, standing there proudly. A fair, rosy-cheeked, +golden-haired English child--the living reality of that miniature painted +on ivory and framed in fine pearls, which made the holy of holies on Lady +Henrietta's writing-table. + +And as he gazed at his little son, while the organ pealed out a Te Deum and +the sweet choir sang, a great rush of tenderness filled Paul's heart, and +melted forever the icebergs of grief and pain. + +And as he knelt there, watching their child, it seemed as if his darling +stood beside him, telling him that he must look up and thank God, too--for +in her spirit's constant love, and this glory of their son, he would one +day find rest and consolation. + +THE END. + + + + + + + + + + +End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of Three Weeks, by Elinor Glyn + +*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THREE WEEKS *** + +***** This file should be named 8899.txt or 8899.zip ***** +This and all associated files of various formats will be found in: + http://www.gutenberg.org/8/8/9/8899/ + +Produced by Distributed Proofreaders + +Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions +will be renamed. + +Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no +one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation +(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without +permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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