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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..9f57f44 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,13 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text +*.htm text +*.html text +*.png binary +*.jpg binary +*.svg text +*.pdf binary +*.bmp binary +*.zip binary +*.midi binary +*.mp3 binary diff --git a/79005-0.txt b/79005-0.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..e4391be --- /dev/null +++ b/79005-0.txt @@ -0,0 +1,6965 @@ +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 79005 *** + +Transcriber's note: Unusual and inconsistent spelling is as printed. + + + +[Illustration: "Uncle Chetwynd, she's only fainting. Don't you see + she's only fainting? She will come to herself again directly. + Mother—mother!"] + + + + MADGE HARDWICKE; + + OR, + + THE MISTS OF THE VALLEY. + + + BY + + AGNES GIBERNE + + AUTHOR OF + + "IDA'S SECRET," "FLOSS SILVERTHORN," + "WILL FOSTER," ETC. + + + "O Lord, I cannot see; + Vouchsafe me light: + The mist bewilders me, + Impedes my sight: + Hold Thou my hand, and lead me by Thy side, + I dare not go alone; be Thou my Guide." + _The Dove on the Cross._ + + + New Edition. + + + _LONDON:_ + JOHN F. SHAW AND CO. + 48, PATERNOSTER ROW, E.C. + + + + STORIES BY AGNES GIBERNE. + + [Illustration] + + + IDA'S SECRET; or, The Towers of Ickledale. + _Large Crown 8vo, cloth, 2s. 6d._ + "The characters are made to live, and there is a wholesome and +refreshing tone running through it all."—_Record._ + + WON AT LAST; or, Mrs. Briscoe's Nephews. + _Large Crown 8vo, cloth, with Illustrations, 3s. 6d._ + "The treatment is so admirable we can understand Miss Giberne's + book being a help to many."—_Athenæum._ + + TOO DEARLY BOUGHT. + _Crown 8vo, price Eighteenpence._ + + THE OLD HOUSE IN THE CITY. + _Crown 8vo, with Illustrations, 2s. 6d._ + + HIS ADOPTED DAUGHTER; or, A Quiet Valley. + _Large Crown 8vo, Illustrated, price 5s._ + "It is really a good tale, in the author's best style."— +_English Churchman._ + + WILL FOSTER OF THE FERRY. + _New Edition. Crown 8vo, Illustrated, 2s. 6d._ + "A story well written, fully illustrated, and with a golden thread + of Christian teaching."—_Bookseller._ + + THE EARLS OR THE VILLAGE. + _Crown 8vo, cloth, with Illustrations, 2s. 6d._ + "A pathetic tale of country life, in which the fortunes of a family + are followed out with skill that never fails to interest."_Scotsman._ + + MADGE HARDWICKE; or, The Mists of the Valley. + _Crown 8vo, cloth, Illustrated, 2s. 6d._ + "An extremely interesting book, and one that can be read with + profit by all."—_Schoolmaster._ + + FLOSS SILVERTHORN; or, The Master's Little Handmaid. + _Crown 8vo, cloth, Illustrated, 2s. 6d._ + "A really beautiful story, telling how even a child can do and + suffer for Christ's service."—_The Rock._ + + —————————————————————————— + + LONDON: JOHN F. SHAW & CO., 48, PATERNOSTER ROW, E.C. + + + + [Illustration] + + CONTENTS. + + ———— + +CHAP. + + I. UP ON THE HILL-TOP + + II. THE HOME-COMING + + III. DOWN UNDERGROUND + + IV. MADGE AND THE DOCTOR + + V. GATHERING MISTS + + VI. NANNIE + + VII. NAT TYRRELL'S NOTIONS + + VIII. QUESTIONINGS + + IX. MADGE HARDWICKE'S FAITH + + X. A LETTER + + XI. AWAITING THE MASTER'S WILL + + XII. THE "FLYING ALBATROSS" + + XIII. THE DOCTOR'S PROHIBITION + + XIV. GOD'S MYSTERIES + + XV. THE DINGLE + + XVI. NAT'S COTTAGE + + XVII. A FOG + +XVIII. THE DRIVE HOME + + XIX. A BLOW + + XX. SUNSET CLOUDS + + XXI. "O THOU OF LITTLE FAITH" + + XXII. WARNING + +XXIII. THE WISDOM OF THE WISE + + XXIV. HOME! + + [Illustration] + + + + [Illustration] + + MADGE HARDWICKE; + + OR, + + THE MISTS OF THE VALLEY. + + ———— + +CHAPTER I. + +UP ON THE HILL-TOP. + +"FIVE o'clock!" + +The strokes pealed slowly through the calm gray air of dawn, from the +square tower of old Alyn Church. It was a morning of almost oppressive +stillness, with mist-wreaths nestling in every hollow, and a hazy +uncertainty about the horizon-line giving promise of a sultry day +to come. And as the five deep-toned vibrations went rolling up the +hill-side, Madge Hardwicke came out of her cottage on the summit of the +cliff, and stood in the doorway to listen. + +Two little cottages were built there side by side; each with its tiny +vegetable-ground behind, bounded by a tangled growth of trees and +brushwood; and each with its tiny flower-garden in front, bounded by +a broad belt of level grass which extended to the narrow path running +along the edge of the cliff. + +But whereas Madge Hardwicke's home was a model of trim and dainty +neatness, Amos Ackman's exhibited signs of falling to decay. And +whereas Madge Hardwicke's garden had every square foot occupied by +flower or vegetable, Amos Ackman's showed a large and flourishing +assortment of weeds, amongst which a few cabbages here and there reared +their unsightly heads, or a half-wild rose-tree struggled for a languid +existence amidst the ruthless growth of meaner plants. + +Not twenty yards distant from Madge Hardwicke's garden railing, the +cliff went down in a sheer descent of three hundred feet to the beach +below. Rough masses of rock and shingle lay there, with a coating in +some parts of slimy green. The sea was wont to play strange antics +among those rocks at times, in no harmless mood of frolic. But this +morning, it was placid as a lake, unbroken by the faintest ripple,—in +its glassy repose almost like a gigantic mirror reaching to the +horizon. And the blue of the sky overhead was pale in hue, fading +into white lower down, where some long clouds stretched lazily, each +catching a reflection of rose-colour from the coming sun. + +Madge Hardwicke herself, standing before her doorway, with her +dark-blue under-skirt, and looped-up black print gown, and little red +handkerchief, and general quaint simplicity of appearance, formed not +the least picturesque item in the scene. She must have been between +forty and fifty years of age, and her smooth brown hair showed a faint +sprinkling of silver threads. A very quiet, self-possessed demeanour +was hers, while she had a face, the deeply-traced lines and shadows +of which told of a far from facile nature, and of certain tempests in +bygone days. Not that there was anything about her just then suggestive +of storm or emotion. The blue depths of the sea below were not more +absolutely calm than the gray depths of Madge Hardwicke's eyes. And +though both alike were capable of being stirred up, it needed a strong +external force in either case to work the change. + +Just so quietly reposeful lay also the town below. Standing there in +her doorway, and looking down through the clear morning air, Madge +could distinguish each separate door and window, alike in the broad +streets, where closed shutters hid the plate-glass panes of usually +busy shops, and in the rows of villas stretching away to the west +and north. Here and there a faint blue wreath of smoke went curling +upwards, but generally speaking, Alyn seemed to be asleep. Down on +the shingle beach of the little bay, where a row of bathing-machines +stood looking like the contents of a child's toy-box as seen from +this height, the blue jackets of one or two early-rising sailors were +visible. + +This was the East Cliff, on which Madge made her home; and her cottage +stood sideways to the edge, with Amos Ackman's on the other side. +Down in front, the hill sloped steeply with a scattering of houses +beginning about half-way to the bottom. It was a fan-shaped town that +lay below, converging to the shingle bathing-beach, and widening out as +it extended inland. Beyond the beach, the cliffs rose sharply again, +and a wild headland of bare rock, reaching far out into the sea, stood +up in massive grandeur against the sky—West Point, or The Point, as it +was usually called, though more correctly Lion Point by name, from some +real or fancied resemblance in its shape to a lion's head and mane. It +was high tide now, and the narrow rugged ridge of rock which united the +Point to the mainland, was deeply covered with water. + +On just such another morning as this, and on the same day of the +same month, exactly ten years earlier, the darkest cloud of Madge +Hardwicke's life had gathered over her. And so like now were the gray +stillness of the dawn and the deep repose of sea and land, the sleepy +twitter of some waking birds and the cheery singing of their livelier +companions already awake, the smoke-wreaths over the town and the +mist-wreaths over the country, to what they then had been, that Madge +stood living over that past scene once more, as if it were actually +present. + +Ten years! No more than ten! It seemed such a little while to Madge. +Just at this same hour she had risen, and come out of her cottage-door, +and stood within her garden-gate. She had not been a lonely widow then, +but a light-spirited happy wife. She seemed almost to hear again the +manly step which followed her out, and to feel again the hearty kiss, +and to see again the fine blue-jacketed sailor, her pride and joy, +striding carelessly away towards the path. + +Just those few yards—those few steps. The sound of his clear whistle +had come back to her, and she had seen him standing at the edge of the +cliff, with his brown hand upraised to shelter his eyes, as he scanned +the horizon-line. And Madge had turned back into her cottage, thinking +pleasantly of the busy day's work before her, and of the welcome he +should have on his return. Thinking,—but little dreaming that never +again should she speak word of welcome to him. + +It was only the giving way of a foot of brown earth, overhanging the +cliff, bound together by entangled roots, all loosened with previous +rains. One minute Ned Hardwicke stood there, a very model of manly +strength. The next, he lay a shattered corpse, three hundred feet below. + +And Madge, to this hour, knew nothing of what took place after. She +had no recollection of his one death-cry; no recollection of her own +wild rush to the edge; no recollection of Amos Ackman's struggles +to withhold her, when, in her mad agony, she would fain have flung +herself over likewise; no recollection of the help sought and too late +obtained; no recollection of aught else which had happened on that +day. It was as if a black curtain had been drawn over every bodily and +mental sense, shutting out even the consciousness of pain,—drawn there +in tender mercy, for otherwise Madge Hardwicke's reason would scarcely +have held its balance. + +This lasted till after the funeral. And then, while Madge Hardwicke's +friends were talking in subdued tones over her state, and marvelling +what would become of her and the child, Madge put aside the curtain, +and bravely came forth to meet her sorrow. It was a lonely path which +lay before her, but Madge would tread it with unfaltering steps. It was +a heavy cross which her God had laid upon her, but Madge would bear it +firmly. No broken-down and selfishly-hopeless mourner would she be; but +one who had learnt to bear chastening in the spirit of a child, living +her appointed life, and working her appointed work, until the end came. + +"Madge!" + +A soft little girlish voice spoke, and Madge looked down, with +something of a smile, at the tiny barefooted damsel, about ten years of +age, who had pattered softly out of the neighbouring cottage, and now +stood with one hand grasping Madge's blue petticoat, and a wistful face +upturned, as if in questioning. + +"What is it, Nan, you're wanting?" + +Nan looked hard without a word, and Madge went back to the quiet +landscape. + +"That's it," said the child unexpectedly. "You're thinking something, +ain't you, Madge?" + +"Ay," responded Madge. "I'm thinking, just this minute,—what if the +Resurrection-morning was to look like it does to-day?" + +Nan caught up another fold of the blue skirt, and enclosed it tightly +in her fingers, with a sudden gesture, as if of fear. "O Madge! Don't +you, please, now." + +"Why? 'Twill come," said Madge calmly. "My talking 'll bring it no +sooner, Nannie, though my praying may." + +"Madge, do you think it'll be to-day? Do you think it'll be a day like +this, Madge?" demanded the child eagerly, as if the fate of the world +hung upon the answer of her friend. + +"It'll be in 'such an hour as we think not,'" said Madge. "That's +pretty nigh all we're told clear about the time. Maybe He'll come in +storm, and not in calm; only there's a look to me to-day like the world +asleep before its last awakening. I'm only fancying, Nan," she added, +with a sudden smile at the child's awestruck look. + +"And you won't go and pray it may come sooner 'n need be, Madge," said +Nannie, with a catch in her breath. + +"Why, Nannie, what of the prayer we're told to pray, 'Thy kingdom +come'? You're surely not fearsome of seeing the Master Himself as loves +little children so?" + +Nan shook back her long dark hair with an expressive gesture. "Father +ain't ready," she said. "He ain't, Madge." + +Madge had nothing to say to that at first. After a moment, she spoke: +"We'll pray he may be, and put the two prayers together, Nannie." + +Nannie's face showed assent as well as understanding this time. + +And the next minute, Madge's attention was drawn by the sight of a +man's head appearing up the hill. It came rapidly, borne on by long +vigorous strides, as of a messenger who felt himself on an errand of +life and death. + +Madge knew the tall broad-shouldered figure, even before she could +recognise the face. It was a good face—good in feature, that is to +say, and good also in a certain natural kindliness and benevolence of +expression. You certainly would not have said, to look upon him, "What +a good man Mr. Chetwynd must be!" speaking in the highest sense. But +you would undoubtedly have said, "What a kind-hearted man," as well as, +"What a clever man he seems." + +That it was something unusual which had brought the doctor up the +hill at this hour of the morning, Madge knew directly. She would have +known it by his mere speed and manner, apart from the paleness of +his face, and the drops standing thickly on his brow. She put aside +little Nannie, and went out to the garden-gate, asking no questions, +but quietly waiting till he came close, and chose to speak. His first +words were in a sharp breathless tone, with a forced affectation of +cheerfulness. + +"Where's your hood, Madge? Quick, and come with me, for I want your +help." + +"I'll come, sir." + +She turned back into the cottage, and was out again immediately—not too +soon for Mr. Chetwynd. + +"Come,—quick," he said. "My chaise will be waiting by the time we get +down. There's not another woman in the town so helpful as you, or I +wouldn't have risked losing two minutes by calling you." + +"Sir, has it aught to do with my Neill?" + +"Neill! No. There has been an accident in the tunnel; trucks slipped +and left there by some extraordinary blunder, and a passenger-train +allowed to run into them. I don't know how much damage is done. One may +allow a good margin for exaggerated reports." + +Madge gave one look up at his strangely pale face, as they sped +together down the hill-side. His home was one of the first in sight—a +many-gabled roof peeping out from a nest of surrounding trees,—and +they could see the chaise waiting at the garden-gate. That he had some +especial and personal cause for distress, Madge did not doubt. He was +not a man of keen sympathies, though of real kindness. But she put no +questions, and it was not till the chaise was starting, with Madge +seated by the doctor's side, that he said briefly— + +"My sister and her child were to arrive by this train." + +Madge understood then, and her full heart went out in silent compassion +for the fearful weight of anxiety which must, she well knew, be +pressing upon him. He was a man of few ties and strong feelings. But +she only said— + +"They are in the Lord's hands, sir. He can have kept them safe." + +And Madge looked for no response in her companion's face, being fully +aware that she should there find none. The faintest shadow of a sneer +curled his usually pleasant lips, like the mist-wreath floating over a +distant landscape. And then they drove on quickly, wasting no breath in +words. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER II. + +THE HOME-COMING. + +SUCH a long tedious journey it had been, as the train sped ever wearily +onwards, hour after hour, from the further north to the further +south of England. But the gray dawn was brightening now, and sleepy +passengers were rousing themselves to sit upright, and to mark how +nearly they had approached the end. And Mona Clyde, waking suddenly +from a quiet night's rest amid noisy surroundings, lifted her bright +child-like face—singularly child-like, for her nineteen summers—from +the blue-cushioned arm, and cried— + +"O mother! Are we almost there?" + +"Almost there, Mona," her mother said. + +"And you are tired, while I have had such a long lazy sleep," said +Mona, kissing her mother's hand, for they had a compartment to +themselves. "Are you not mother, dear?" + +"A little tired, but I shall soon rest now, Mona." + +Was she thinking of the last time she had come this road, with her +infant Mona in her arms, and her husband by her side, so many long +years before? Mona fancied so, and waited quietly, holding down her +own gay delight at the prospect of all that lay before her. Dear kind +uncle Chetwynd, whom she knew so well, and uncle Chetwynd's pretty +house which lay so far in the background of her memory that she had no +recollection of it, and beautiful Alyn which had been her mother's home +in childhood, and the glorious blue sea which she had never yet seen, +and all the attendant pleasures of a six weeks' happy change. + +"O mother, isn't it nice to be almost there?" she said at length. "How +soon shall we see Alyn?" + +"When we are through the tunnel, Mona. It is pretty here, but this is +nothing to the view which bursts upon us there. A sunny mid-day is +the time to have it in perfection. I remember so well how, as a child +going home from school, I used to love the feeling of getting nearer +and nearer, seeing one land-mark after another, passing into the dark +tunnel, and then coming out into a blaze of sunshine and beauty, to +find myself in one moment 'at home.' For Alyn itself was home, and once +out of the tunnel, you are in Alyn." + +"Mother, you often told me about that, when I was a little girl." + +"As a picture," Mrs. Clyde said, smiling, while Mona's bright face had +grown serious. "My favourite thought, darling; it is so like the last +Home-going. So often there seems to be darkness at the close of life, +with those who love the Master, but I think it is only that the glory +coming after may shine the brighter. But for the dark tunnel first, +Alyn could never burst upon us with half such a wonderful glow of +beauty." + +"O mother, I do so long to see it," cried Mona eagerly. "Is that the +tunnel coming now?" + +How little knew Mona that the shrill whistle which she welcomed so +joyfully, was the death-knell of many around her! + +One moment's rush of increased noise, and then darkness. And in that +moment, it was strange how her mother's face was photographed for +ever upon Mona's memory. She did not consciously mark it at the time. +Afterwards, it came back to her, in all its calm sweetness. She was +thinking of nothing but counting the seconds, and awaiting the view +which lay beyond. + +One moment more! And then— + +Ah, "then!" + +It was only a little mistake or accident. Something had been forgotten, +or somebody was careless. Only just such a slight mistake as one +may make a hundred times a day, letting it pass unmarked, and never +dreaming the terrible consequences with which a little matter may be +fraught. There had been a break-down of some heavy luggage-vans, and +there was just a little too long delay in removing them, or word had +been telegraphed just a little too late, or the express had arrived +just a little too early. Nothing worse. But then— + +Down there in the darkness underground, they could not see the loaded +trucks in the way. On and on with undiminished speed rushed the train, +so near at last to its journey's end. Only a moment more—and then a +crash so fearful that the very earth above and below trembled with the +fierce concussion, and the mighty engine was twisted and crushed like +a bit of tin in a man's hand, and carriages were heaped up one upon +another, or flung to right and left in masses of shattered fragments, +as a child might scatter a pile of bricks. And the fierce hiss of the +boiling water that rushed from the engine, and the crashing turmoil +of the collision, mingling with the wild tumult of groans and shrieks +which followed, echoed back and forth from the low vaulted roof, +till it seemed as if the din of sound must go on for ever and ever +ceaselessly. + +But in that moment of direst anguish and fear, there were some who +went quietly Home. Quietly, all in an instant, breaking out from the +darkness underground to the glory far above. The anguish and fear were +not for them, but for those who remained behind. The Master calls +sometimes in sunshine and sometimes in storm, to those whom He will +have to be with Him where He is; but so long as it "is" the voice of +the Master and not of the Judge which calls, what matter how they go? +Whether lingeringly in sunshine, or suddenly in storm, it signifies +little, so that once they are safely landed. + +And some were landed all in a moment that day, who had looked for a +longer voyage. Just as the disciples on the lake had a toilsome way +before them, till the Master stepped on board, and then,—"suddenly they +were at the land whither they went." + +Suddenly, all in a moment. Perhaps if the choice had been given them, +they might have found it hard to decide whether they would go, or +whether they would stay. But once there, they would doubt no more. +None ever yet looked upon the unveiled Face of the King in glory, and +turned back to wish for the shadows of earth again. So for those of +the dead who died in Christ that day, it was a peaceful Home-going—all +the brighter and sweeter maybe, from the contrast of the darkness and +anguish behind, out of which the Master had gently withdrawn them. + +This was the scene upon which Madge Hardwicke and her companion +entered. The first mad terror and excitement of the accident had +subsided, yet it was a strangely weird picture which lay before them, +as they left the early daylight behind, and went deep into the tunnel's +blackness. The tumult of shrieks had died gradually away into gentler +moans, and in many cases into silence, broken here and there by a +pitiful call for help. Some of the dead and dying had been already +extricated, and busy hands were still hard at work among the heaped up +masses of débris, which concealed yet many a crushed and mangled form. +There was little leisure for attendance on those only wounded, and they +waited for the most part in patient endurance, lying or sitting upon +the damp ground. + +Some of the shattered fragments of woodwork had been piled together, +and two or three small fires burnt brightly, sending up wreaths of +smoke into the darkness, and casting a red glow upon the scene of +confusion around. Lanterns were borne backwards and forwards here +and there, and long ill-proportioned shadows of men, sometimes hazy +and large, sometimes clear and small, went passing along the dark +moist walls. And mingling with the busy sound of pick-axe and of +crowbar, came the sound of men's voices in sharp direction or subdued +consultation, and the groans of the injured, and the frightened sobbing +of little children, clinging to their no less terrified mothers and +nurses. + +Mr. Chetwynd's face turned towards Madge Hardwicke for an instant, but +her quiet eyes met his steadfastly, and her lips were only trembling a +little with unspoken words of prayer. + +"You can stand it?" he said, in a half-questioning tone. "I don't want +to have you on my hands, in a screaming and fainting condition, Madge." + +For all the man's self-command and would-be carelessness, she knew the +deadly fear which lay at his heart. + +"Sir, I never did either in my life," she answered. + +"Did you ever see a scene like 'this' in your life?" he asked, with a +sudden change of manner. "Madge, it is awful." + +"I think nothing can be darker to me than that which I have borne +already, sir." + +And borne on that very morning—only ten years before. But that was +past, and this was present, and Mr. Chetwynd had no thought to give to +aught save what lay before him. + +They went on threading their way over the masses of ruin scattered far +and wide. There were other helpers, and two more surgeons already on +the scene. But there were not too many for the work, and Mr. Chetwynd +was at everybody's beck and call. He refused no one, and gave attention +to each in turn who claimed his aid, though all the time his set lips +and anxious eyes told Madge Hardwicke the subject of his thoughts. She +made many inquiries for him about his expected relatives, but could +learn nothing. Those who were busy had no leisure to talk, and those +who were not busy seemed, in the majority of cases, to have lost, for +the time being, all memory and self-possession. + +Throughout Mr. Chetwynd's doings, he kept Madge persistently near his +side, when she would have wished to go about and help more actively. +She had learnt obedience, whatever else her lessons might have been, +and made no protest. And, in truth, there was work enough for her to do +on any spot where she might take her stand. + +"Sir, they're taking off some of the well folk, and them that's not so +badly hurt, to Alyn," Madge remarked at length, speaking unaddressed +for the first time. "They've told me to tell you. Will this lady go?" + +Mr. Chetwynd looked up from the case in hand, finished what he was +doing, and stood erect once more. + +"Ay, the sooner the better. Madge—no news of 'them?'" + +"I can hear none, sir." + +He sighed heavily, and then, with a hasty movement, walked a few paces +away. + +"Look here, Madge." + +A poor mother was sitting, pale and still, upon the ground, with one +arm hanging helplessly, and the other clasping a wee white-faced baby. +She gazed up in mute appeal at the doctor. But when Mr. Chetwynd would +have lifted the little one from her grasp, she held it more tightly, +and uttered a sharp cry of anguish. + +"No use yet," he said, in a low tone, to Madge. "She will not believe +the child is dead. Better so, perhaps, for a while. See there too." + +Another scene of the same description: a poor young wife kneeling in +silent misery beside a prostrate figure, with an older lady weeping +bitterly on the other side. + +"Is he dead, too?" Madge asked, from her full heart. + +"Not far from it. Ha, there is Mr. Prior." + +She did not recognise the name. A man of middle age and slender build +came up and paused beside the little group, bearing a lantern in his +hand. There were a few low-toned words, and then he knelt quietly down, +and sounds of prayer for the departing soul came softly across to where +Madge stood. What a scene for an artist that group would have made, +in the red flickering light, with the gloomy tunnel-walls lowering +overhead, and the calm reverent face of the man of prayer contrasting +with the subdued grief of the weeping women, and the ashen features of +the dying man. + +But Madge saw all with a deeper sense than that of an artist merely +watching for "effects," and would fain have knelt down likewise to join +in the petitions, but for the companion by her side. + +"That's your style, Madge," he said briefly. "Much good may it do the +poor fellow." + +"Ay, may it, sir, indeed," responded Madge softly. + +"Mr. Prior is setting to work early. Well,—'tis his vocation." + +"Mr. Prior?" Madge repeated. + +"The new Rector. He only arrived on Monday. Stay, there is a man +calling me." + +He came back with a hasty step. + +"It may be nothing—I don't know,—but it sounds like—. Come and see, +Madge." + +Following, as he hurried away, she came with him to a sheltered corner. +And there, behind a broken carriage, hidden away in the darkness,—lying +quietly where they had first been flung by the rude shock of the +collision,—there they were. Mother and daughter together, not only side +by side, but clasped firmly in one another's arms, as if, in the single +instant of conscious danger, the instinct of each had been to shelter +the other. + +Travelling in the same carriage, bound for the same home, flung out +by the same rough shock, lying on the same damp spot of earth. But +one was there, and one was "not" there. One was living, and one was +dead. One was left to wander in earth's shade, and one had reached the +everlasting light. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER III. + +DOWN UNDERGROUND. + +MR. PRIOR came upon this group quietly, with his lantern in his hand, +as he had come upon the other. He paused as he had done before, and +made a sixth in the scene. But beyond the show of deep compassion in +his face, what could he do for them? + +They were all silent. From the moment of Mr. Chetwynd's first +exclamation, not a word had passed his lips. He stood now with bent +head and folded arms, the swelling veins in his forehead telling +something of the thoughts below. The man who had called him to the spot +remained slightly behind, holding in his hand a roughly improvised +torch, which flickered drearily, sending black curls of smoke upward +and stray sparks downward. + +Madge Hardwicke's gray eyes shone full of unshed tears. And Mona Clyde, +just awakened from her death-like faint, had sprung to her mother's +side before they dreamt her purpose, and now hung caressingly over her. + +She did not know the truth, and how could they tell it to her? She +thought it was such a swoon as her own had been. It was almost more +than they could bear, to see the slender girl kneeling there, all +unconscious of her loss, tremblingly chafing the mother's cold hands, +and trying in fond tones to coax her back to sense. Madge Hardwicke +turned away and sobbed aloud. Mr. Chetwynd lifted his head, and meeting +Mr. Prior's look, spoke suddenly in an impatient husky tone— + +"Look here—see here! I know all the talk about mysterious +dispensations. What have you to say to this?" + +Whatever he had expected, he had not looked for the reply— + +"'God is love,' Mr. Chetwynd." + +"And this—an act of love!" he said bitterly. + +"If you know Him, you will be able to trust His loving mercy through +even this," was the gently-uttered answer. + +"Mercy!" Mr. Chetwynd laughed hoarsely. "A mercy that she should be cut +off! Ay, she has thought and talked like the rest of you, times without +number. And now—this is the end of it all." + +This the end! The end of all her loving trust in a merciful Redeemer? +Ah but neither Mr. Prior in his faith, nor Mr. Chetwynd in his +unbelief, could catch one note of the grand triumphant chorus, with +which the gathering in of another saint to the City of God had even +then been welcomed by those already at home. It was the end indeed of +faith, but the beginning of unclouded joy, and of pleasures at the +right hand of God for ever and for evermore. + +Mr. Chetwynd checked himself when about to continue, for Mona had +turned to listen, with a face of stony whiteness, and dilated terrified +eyes. + +"Mona, dear child," he faltered. + +"Mother is fainting. Why don't you bring her round?" demanded Mona, in +an unnatural voice. + +Mr. Chetwynd groaned, and covered his face with his hands. + +Madge Hardwicke laid a light grasp on the girl's arm, looking down on +her tearfully. + +"You'll help me," Mona went on in a pleading tone. "I don't know who +you are, but I think from your face that you are kind. And they are +leaving mother without doing anything—leaving her to die." + +The word uttered by herself seemed to rouse her to a sudden agony of +fear, and with a cry she turned again to the motionless figure,— + +"Mother! Mother! Oh, won't you look up? Mother! Mother, darling!" + +"Miss Mona, I'm going to take you away from this place," said Madge +Hardwicke, feeling that something must be done, and the truth must be +told. "Dear Miss Mona, you are not fit to stay here any longer." + +"Mona, my dear, you 'must' come," said Mr. Chetwynd, as she resisted +Madge Hardwicke resolutely. "We can do no more for—for her." + +"No more!" Mona looked up in ghastly bewilderment. "Why you've done +nothing at all yet. Keep off. I am not going to leave mother. What do +you mean?" + +Child as she looked for her age, shaken and trembling with all she had +gone through, her gesture made them desist from any attempt to draw her +away. + +"What do you mean? I don't understand," she went on hurriedly. "Uncle +Chetwynd, you are a doctor. Don't you know what to do for a person in a +faint? Mother has often fainted before, and I have brought her round, +but there's nothing here to do it with. Why don't you fetch me some +water, and help me to fan her, and rub her hands? What has come over +you all?" + +Even as she spoke, the truth was fighting its way slowly into her mind, +though she struggled to keep it out. + +"Uncle Chetwynd, she's only fainting. Don't you see she's only +fainting? She will come to herself again directly. Mother—mother!" + +Mr. Chetwynd turned away with an uncontrollable sob. + +"Mr. Prior, this is part of your rightful work. Tell her the truth if +you can. I can't. Is there none among you that can comfort her?" + +He looked up half-fiercely as he spoke, but the appeal had met with +instant response, and Mr. Prior was already by the side of the +white-cheeked shuddering girl. + +"Mona, dear child, you must come away with me," he said gently, as if +he had known her all her life. + +Mona gave him a startled look. + +"It is very dark," he went on. "I am going to take you away, Mona. It +is very dreary here, but there is daylight beyond." + +Her gaze had grown piercing in its intensity. + +"How do you know? What do you mean?" she muttered. "Did you know mother +had said it?" + +"Had said what, my poor child?" + +"About the sunshine beyond—the darkness and then the light—and about +its being like—like—the last Home-going! O mother!" + +"It is like that for her. God has taken her out of the darkness into +His glorious light. Mona," he said pityingly, "poor child—it 'is' the +last Home-going." + +She knew the truth now, and the cry with which she sank over her +mother, though not loud, was terrible in its broken-heartedness. + +"And this—this, you say, is mercy," Mr. Chetwynd murmured huskily, as +he helped Mr. Prior to lift the half-unconscious girl. + +"Ay, to those who are God's own," Mr. Prior made answer. "What do you +and I understand of His secret purposes? I know only this—how very +precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints!" + +"She was a saint, if there ever was one upon earth," said Mr. Chetwynd. +"I don't know that the word means the same to me as to you, though. It +doesn't much matter after all. Thank you, Mr. Prior,—you mean well, but +such doctrines are beyond me. Madge, you will come home with us for a +few hours. Hush—don't try to rouse the poor child. Better get her away +as she is. She understands at last." + +"God give her strength to bear it," murmured Madge. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER IV. + +MADGE AND THE DOCTOR. + +"SO here you be at last," said Amos Ackman, in a discontented growl. +"Get back, Nan." It was in the evening, less than a week later. + +The sun had just sunk behind West Point, lending a framework of golden +light to the dark massive centre, which stood out with its sharply-cut +profile against the clear sky. And the sea was all one sparkle of +dancing ripples, which broke softly with murmuring splashes among the +rocks below. + +Amos Ackman sat on a bench in his doorway, looking upon his goodly +growth of garden weeds. He made no unfit foreground to the very untidy +surroundings. A man, not tall, but formerly an athlete in strength, +he had been bent and shrunk and twisted, by long years of acute +rheumatism, into a half-helpless querulous invalid. The greater part +of his time he spent on his little wooden bench, working laboriously +with his swelled yet bony hands at trifling articles or childish +knick-knacks for sale, helped by little Nan, as she crouched on the +ground at his feet. A sour-spirited and unlovable man was Amos Ackman, +yet Nannie loved him, and Madge Hardwicke pitied him and often did him +a kindly turn. + +For all Amos Ackman's crustiness, he was not without a friend in the +world—a real fast personal friend, who held to him through thick +and thin, and would not be repelled by any amount of cross-grained +speeches. Nat Tyrrell was a carpenter in a small way, living close to +the foot of the hill, up which, in common with a goodly number of Alyn +folks, he was wont to take his airing on a summer evening. He stood +now, leaning in his favourite position against Amos Ackman's crooked +crab-tree, looking, in his contrast to Amos, as if the theory of convex +and concave friendship were here to receive full proof. + +For Amos Ackman was stooping and high-shouldered, with long uncouth +arms, and neglected growth of straggling gray hair, and narrow +forehead, and sharp deep-set eyes. And Nat Tyrrell was broad and stout +in build, with frank straightforward bearing, and plenty of sense and +intelligence in his honest face. + +A good man too, was Nat Tyrrell, not indeed rising to any great height +of Christian experience, and having had his eyes but lately opened +to see the worth of things spiritual. He was only groping his way as +yet through early dawn, and making many a mistake concerning matters +of weighty import in that dim light. No fear that, if he groped on, +honestly seeking for more light, it would not be granted. Only the +curious thing was, that he hardly realised yet how much he needed +clearer sight; and he was therefore not a little disposed to lay down +the law upon many matters, which, all unknown to himself, others in +brighter daylight could mark in their more just proportions. There are +no popes more determined in their would-be infallibility than those +good men who utterly mistake their own glimmering light for the blaze +of noonday. And with such, the dawn often brightens but slowly, lasting +it may be almost through a life-time. Still, Nat Tyrrell was a good +man—a man of Christian principle, earnestly desirous to serve God, and +needing chiefly to be raised in his knowledge of Christ, and lowered in +his estimation of self. + +"So here you be at last," was Amos Ackman's surly greeting, as Madge +Hardwicke's quiet face, with the little red handkerchief below it, +stopped at his gate. "Get back, Nan. Always in the way, yer are." + +Nan went down quickly on the ground, but ventured to smile a welcome, +as Madge came a step nearer. + +"Yes, I'm come back," Madge said. "How have you been all day?" + +"Same as always," said Amos shortly. "Where 've yer been?" + +"More places than one," said Madge. "I'd a mind to be present at the +funeral." + +"What the poor lady as was killed in the tunnel?" asked Nat Tyrrell. +"The doctor's sister?" + +"Joe Whilly telled me there was to be six buried together," said Amos, +hitting out at Nan, when she ventured to creep a little nearer to +Madge. "Get out o' the way then! Six buried together, says he, all o' +them killed on the spot. And a lot more to be buried to-morrow. Well, +the gentlefolks has it this time an' no mistake." + +"Has what?" demanded Madge. + +"Their turn at trouble an' bother," said Amos sourly. "I've enough an' +to spare, till I'm 'most sick o' my life. I ain't got no objection to +see rich folks bearin' a bit o' the same." + +"Come now, don't you go and be spiteful, Amos," interposed Nat Tyrrell +good-humouredly. "Rich folks has their plenty of trouble, though it +don't always come in the money line." + +Amos struck out again savagely, as if little Nan were the impersonation +of wealthy ease, and he wanted to demolish it on the spot. "What 're +yer after there, a-wastin' all your time? Get into the cottage." + +"Nannie's coming along with me into my garden, to help pull weeds," +said Madge, as the child cowered silently beneath the blow. "You'd +ought to be ashamed of yourself, Amos Ackman, to treat a little girl +like that worse than if she was a dog." + +Amos scowled, but allowed Nannie to spring past him without a protest. + +"Well," Madge said, when they had reached her little garden, leaving +the other two just out of ear-shot, "I've scarce had a word with you, +Nan, these days past. What's angered your father, child?" + +Nannie looked thoughtful. She was spare, and small, and pinched for her +age, but there was no lack of intelligence in her little thin face, +with the framing of gipsy-black hair. "Madge," she said, under her +breath, "d'ye mind what you said the morning of the tunnel accident? +'Twasn't the Resurrection-day, after all." + +"No, it's to come yet," said Madge, pulling up a bit of groundsel, and +then looking across to the fading rim of golden light which lingered +round Lion Point. + +"I've prayed a deal that it mayn't be long, and that father 'll be +ready," said Nan softly. "But he don't seem like it now. I wanted to +say to him my Sunday text this morning, Madge, and it's that has made +him be hittin' at me all day since." + +"I'd pray on," said Madge, continuing her work. "Maybe 'tisn't the +Master's time yet. Only take care your father don't anger ye, Nan." + +"I've had to smother it down ever so," said Nannie, with a little sob. +"O Madge, it's so hard, you don't know. Look here." + +The black bruises on the little arm, covertly bared, told their own +tale. "It 'is' hard," said Madge. "I wish I could shield you, child. +Maybe if I was to speak to him, and get Nat Tyrrell to speak too—" + +"No, no, he's worse after, if he keeps in a bit," said Nannie, speaking +cheerfully, as she covered up the poor little discoloured arm. "I'll +bear it, Madge, 'cause, if I made a fuss, father 'd maybe think I was +angry, and then he'd be longer learning to love God; don't you think +so, Madge?" + +It seemed to Madge like something of the old martyr-spirit shining in +the child's face; but she only said, "Ay, Nannie, you're right, 'on' +doubt. Come, and I'll put you something on the bruises." + +Amos Ackman's voice, calling imperatively in harsh tones, made Nannie +run away the moment they again left the cottage. Madge moved forward +a trifle faster herself, for Mr. Chetwynd was standing outside the +garden, leaning on the palings. + +He looked sad and weary enough, though he greeted her with a +half-careless smile. "Good evening, Madge. I have come up here for a +breath of fresh air. The town is oppressive to-day." + +"How's Miss Mona, sir?" asked Madge. + +He shook his head. "I don't know. Never sheds a tear. Never speaks +of—of 'it.' I can't begin, or it might be better. I am not sure. But +it is hard to see her look like that. It is not the way girls usually +meet sorrow. There seems no way of bringing comfort to her, poor little +Mona." + +His eyes were moist, and his voice was unsteady. + +"God can comfort her, sir," Madge said, in her quiet way. + +He shook his head again, in dreary dissent this time. + +"I tried to get her out, but she will see no one yet, and seems to wish +for nothing but to be left alone. Madge, I like Mr. Prior, though he is +of your way of thinking. You two would suit marvellously. He knows when +not to talk, which most men don't know, particularly your good folks. +His shake of the hand to-day said more than any words could have done. +If all professors of religion were like him and you, now—" + +"Sir, a man's slips oughtn't to make you condemn his religion." + +"One naturally judges of a man's profession by his actions. What were +you talking about so earnestly to that child, as I came up the hill, +before you both disappeared into the cottage?" + +Madge thought a moment, and then spoke out steadily, "Prayer to God, +for one thing, sir." + +"Ha! Quite your subject." + +"No,—everybody's," said Madge. + +"What are you praying for now, eh?" + +He asked the question lightly, not quite contemptuously. + +Perhaps there was something in Madge Hardwicke's calm confidence which +kept him in check. Also, he had himself no objection to prayer, as +a necessary and respectable form. Possibly, he looked upon the said +form as something of a concession to the weakness of others; but, at +all events, in his opinion, it could do no one harm, if not likely +to do any one good. He was regularly to be seen in his pew on Sunday +mornings, where his manner, if not reverent, was decorous; and he had +never yet broken through the habit of family prayers, however brief and +dry in kind. As for anything beyond—as for making a particular request +to God, and looking for a particular answer from God—Mr. Chetwynd's +feelings were simply those of utter incredulity. He had no objection to +the form of prayer, as a habit, as an institution, as an act of worship +to a Supreme Being, but he had no faith whatever in the power of prayer +as a living working reality. There was the barrier at which he stopped, +and there, he well knew, Madge did not stop; whence his question. + +Madge hesitated again, not that she did not know what to say, but that +it was always an effort to her to speak of her own feelings. But Madge +never shrank from showing her colours when occasion called. + +"For the Master's coming," she answered reverently. + +He was watching the red sunset clouds at that moment, floating in +the blue sky, but he turned to look her in the face, in no pretended +astonishment. + +"Madge, do you literally mean to say—you who believe in the Second +Advent, as men understand it in the Bible—do you mean to say you dream +of your prayers having any influence in an event of such moment as +that, supposing it were really coming upon us?" + +"I'd put aside the supposings, sir, and let's take for granted it +really is,—as we know to be," Madge could not help adding, in her calm +exultant faith, ranking herself with those who know the truth indeed, +and were not blind as he was. "I do believe my praying 'll hasten it, +sir." + +"Then you don't believe it to be a day fixed from all eternity? Madge, +Madge, what of your faith in Bible teachings now?" demanded the doctor. + +"Maybe 'tis fixed. Any way, God knows the day. What then, sir?" asked +Madge simply, in her turn. + +"How can your prayers by any possibility affect a fixed event?" + +"I don't know, sir. God knows, and that's enough." + +"But I tell you, Madge, the two things are incompatible. They can't +both be true." + +"Maybe you can't explain 'em, sir," said Madge. "They're none the less +true for that. You've a deal more of this world's wisdom than I have, +and I'm but a poor ignorant woman. But 'the wisdom of this world is +foolishness with God.' Tisn't wisdom, but faith, that's needed to get a +man into the kingdom of heaven." + +"Then, if you were to read in the Bible that black was white, you would +believe it, Madge?" + +He laughed as he spoke. + +But Madge answered solemnly,—so solemnly that he too grew grave:— + +"Sir, the Bible says nowhere at all that black is white. The Bible +don't ask us to believe anything of the kind, and I can't see that I've +any call to be fancying how I'd feel if the Bible said things which it +doesn't say. But what's put plainly in God's Word, I do believe. And +where I can't understand, I know 'tis only because I am but a little +child before God; and I just take the truths He gives me, and believe +them still." + +He looked away again towards the fading light in the west—looked sadly, +standing there in his lonely sorrow, smitten by the hand of God in his +tenderest affections, and haughtily putting aside the sweet comfort +wherewith God would fain, in His pitying love, comfort all who are cast +down. Mr. Chetwynd knew nothing of all this—knew not, because he would +not know. + +"Look here, Madge," he said huskily,—"did none of those passengers the +other day pray for a safe journey before their setting out, do you +suppose?" + +"I've a notion that they did, sir. And wasn't God's hand over them, +preserving many a one from death?" + +"According to that, all praying travellers should be safe, and only the +non-praying ones ever meet with injury or death." + +Madge looked up with a sudden shining in her eyes. + +"Ay, sir, 'twould be so, surely, 'if' God's wounding isn't often a +deal better than to be left whole, and 'if' this life is better than +heaven's glory. I'd find it hard to choose about that last, if you was +to put it to me." + +"You would! You, Madge?" + +"I don't wish for death, till it's my Lord's will," said Madge very +quietly. "But when He calls, I'd think you right cruel to keep me +back—only you couldn't!" added Madge, with genuine thankfulness. + +"That's not mere weariness of life," muttered the doctor. + +"No, sir," Madge answered. "I'm not weary of life, so long as my Lord +wants me to live here for Him. And I'd like to see Neill again, too." + +"And you think Neill will come back some day?" + +"I do, sir." + +"And that his return will be in answer to your prayers?" + +Madge's gray eyes were burning with a mother's tears. "I do, sir," she +repeated. + +"And how if he does not come back, after all your prayers?" + +"Then it's because I'm blind, and can't see what's good for him nor me." + +"Ha! So you would not call that unanswered prayer! You are a clever +woman at twisting things about, Madge." + +She turned straight to look him in the face, as he had done to her. + +"Sir, true prayer is never unanswered, though sure enough God don't +always give us the very things we pray for. My Bible tells me, 'If +we ask anything "according to His will" He heareth us.' If 'tis not +according to His will, He keeps it back, and well for us He does. Seems +to me oftentimes that He don't give me just the thing I ask for, only +because He has something else a deal better in store. But any way, I +wouldn't dare wish aught, save what He wills to grant me. + +"I'm right sure that no prayer of faith, put up with the 'If it be Thy +Will' running all through it, was ever left unanswered, though maybe +the answer sent was a different one altogether from what was looked for +by him who prayed. And it's like enough to be so with me. I wouldn't +wish to shut my eyes to the truth. Maybe Neill will not come home at +all, but I'll meet him safe in heaven. I'd sooner have an Eternity with +him there, than only a few years with him here, if both couldn't be." + +"Isn't that 'couldn't' rather limiting God's power, Madge?" + +"No, sir. There's many things which God sees in His wisdom mustn't be, +and we don't know the reason now, and won't till we get to heaven. +It'll be joy to see the meaning of things then, but it's joy to trust +my Lord now." + +Mr. Chetwynd was silent. He would have given something for the +absolute repose of this woman's faith. He would have given almost +anything,—short of laying aside his pride, and his earthly wisdom. But +he could not part with these. He could not, and would not, stoop to +become a little child. The portals of the Kingdom of Heaven are low, +and Mr. Chetwynd, with his lofty crest of self-confidence, could not +enter therein. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER V. + +GATHERING MISTS. + +"WHAT are you going to do with yourself to-day, my dear?" inquired +the doctor one morning, as he sipped his coffee, and glanced down the +columns of the "Times," with an abstracted air. + +"I don't know, uncle. Anything." + +"Because I am called away to a distance, and—a—don't know exactly—when—" + +Mr. Chetwynd's voice died into a murmur as he became more engrossed +with his subject. Presently, however, he folded up the paper, threw it +to a side-table, and looked across at the quiet pale face opposite, +with purple rings round the sad dark eyes. + +"I beg your pardon, my dear. It is very unsociable to treat you in this +fashion. What will you do with yourself while I am away?" + +"I don't care, uncle." + +"I shall hardly be home before evening—to dinner at six, if possible. +But you will be lonely." + +Lonely, yes, with the great blank which she had borne about with her +for weeks. But his presence made no great difference either way in that +respect, and she only said passively, "I shall do very well, thank you." + +"Don't you think, now, you would be happier, if I could get some young +lady to spend the day with you, Mona?" he asked kindly. + +"No—no, please, uncle Chetwynd." + +"It would be better for you, my dear child." + +"No, I can't have it indeed," said Mona decidedly. + +"Or if you would go somewhere—say to the Rectory. Mrs. Prior is an +invalid, to be sure, but she is a bright one, and she has often pressed +me to bring you to see her." + +"Not yet," said Mona. + +"You would not see Mr. Prior when he came to call yesterday." + +"I—couldn't. I don't know him." + +"But suppose he wants to know you?" + +Mona put up her hand to still the throbbing in her throat. "I can't see +any one; I can't, indeed, uncle. I only want to be quiet." + +"Well, you must take your own way, my dear," said the doctor, with a +half-sigh. He wanted much to understand the young girl, thus thrown +upon him for care and comfort, yet he found it impossible to penetrate +the veil of sorrowful reserve in which she had wrapped herself. "I +don't want to tease you, Mona, only I think a little change would be +good for your spirits." + +"I'll go for a walk," said Mona with an effort, feeling secure, if she +went alone, of meeting no one with whom she was acquainted, or, at +least, of being able to escape in time. + +"Ah, yes, that will do you good. And you won't have a companion?" +Mona shook her head. "Suppose you find your way up the hill to my old +friend, Madge Hardwicke." + +Mona made up her mind to avoid that direction studiously, but only +said, "I'll see." + +"I should like you to know her better. She is a good woman—practically +most excellent. Theoretically—well, she has your dear mother's ideas +upon religion. None the worse for that, maybe, eh, Mona?" added Mr. +Chetwynd, with a certain lofty condescension towards the weak, yet +enviable and even beautiful credulity of those who thought thus, which +Mona, girl though she was, appreciated to the full. He thought her +sudden shiver was caused by the allusion to her loss, and continued +hastily, "But I really should like you to see more of Madge. I don't +know a more worthy creature, or one who lives more entirely for others." + +"And you don't think that speaks for her religion?" asked Mona, in a +low voice. + +"My dear child, I don't think you and I had better enter on that +question," said Mr. Chetwynd pleasantly, handing up his cup for a fresh +supply of coffee. "I do not suppose that, whatever Madge Hardwicke's +religious views might have chanced to be, she could ever have been +otherwise than kind-hearted, and unselfish, and capable." For Mr. +Chetwynd, in common with many others of his way of thinking, seemed +to make it his rule to ascribe all the blemishes of a Christian's +character to his or her religion, and all the beauties of it to +unassisted nature. "But I should be sorry to have any discussion with +you about it, Mona. I would not for worlds unsettle your mind with +regard to those things, in which your poor mother taught you to put +faith. We did not agree in all matters of theory, but you are quite +right to think like her—as long as you can—and I assure you, dear, you +cannot admire more heartily than I do, the loveliness of such a life as +hers. I only wish there were more like her." + +Such a Christian life as hers! And such a Christian life as Madge +Hardwicke's! And such a Christian life as Mr. Prior's! And such a +Christian life as that of his own mother in the past! But Mr. Chetwynd +preferred to ignore that fashion of looking upon the question. The +beauty of their lives he could not deny, but the cause, he would have +allowed to be anything rather than heart-religion. + +Did he in very truth dread to unsettle the once happy trust of the +young creature before him? Did he really desire in his heart to act +faithfully by the known wishes of his lost sister, and to train up her +child as she would have had her trained? Theoretically no doubt he did, +or imagined he did. Practically, he exercised small self-control in the +matter. + +Not that he ever made any direct attacks upon Mona's faith. He would +have said he believed a great many things that she believed. And for +the rest—he set himself, in love to his sister's memory, and almost, +as a point of honour, to avoid discussion on mooted points. But had +he no idea of the awful power over the mind of a young and simple +yet intellectual girl, of those slight innuendos and brief passing +sneers on the subject of heart-religion, in which he was so prone to +indulge himself? They escaped him often, it is true, undesignedly and +by mere force of habit. Not the less dangerous were they for that. And +not the less terrible was the weight of responsibility incurred by +Mr. Chetwynd, in daring thus to tamper with the faith of one of the +Master's "little ones." + +For the barbed arrow had taken root—flung by his reckless hand. + +Poor gentle Mona Clyde! Hers had been such a happy life up to that +fatal journey. She had literally never known trouble. The loss of +her father lay back in the far distance, too dim and hazy to cause +her grief, unless for her mother's sake. All her love and hope and +abounding joy in life had been centred in that one sweet being—her +mother—a mother, so pure and tender, so saintly and sweet, that Mona +had no wish for aught of earthly pleasure beyond her companionship. +They were all in all to each other, those two! + +And Mona had for years believed herself to be a child of God. She could +hardly have told the time when first her mother's gentle teaching had +drawn her to the love of heavenly things. She had known, indeed, no +great depths of lowly repentance, or grand heights of holy joy, and +had experienced few intense spiritual longings. Some in the flock are +near to the Shepherd, and some are farther away; and Mona had not been +one of those who cling ever to His side, looking out each step of the +way for His guiding hand and loving touch. Still, she had felt her +sinfulness, and had sought her Saviour's forgiveness. She had lived a +simple child-like life of simple child-like faith and service, gliding +placidly down the stream of life, playing with each joy as it came to +her hand, and seeming to pass unscathed through all the world's pain +and sorrow. + +And now this fearful blow had come, taking away at one stroke all that +she loved on earth, and leaving her mute, crushed, and desolate. And it +was the Hand of God which had done this! + +The Hand of God! The Hand of her Heavenly Father! Ay, and Mona might +have trusted that Father's love through all, but for the words of the +man who heartlessly lent himself to the work of unsettling her peace. + +Did he ever dream how it was not the mere loss of her mother, precious +though that mother had been to her, but his own ill-advised utterances, +which had shattered Mona's happiness? Did he ever realise that it was +his own hand which had drawn so black a pall over her once clear sky? +Did he ever imagine the stormy grief, and the wild questionings about +God and His dealings, which raged beneath that girlish face? + +He did not dream, or realise, or imagine the truth. But none the less, +heavily weighed upon him the unfelt load of responsibility before God. +"Whoso shall offend one of these little ones, which believe in Me, it +were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and +that he were drowned in the depth of the sea." + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER VI. + +NANNIE. + +MONA went that afternoon for her walk, as she had promised, caring +little as she went whither her steps might tend. West Point was her +first idea, but she had a certain dread of being caught and imprisoned +by the returning tide. So she turned aimlessly in the opposite +direction, not climbing, but skirting the East Cliff Hill, by the +winding path which ran round it at the bottom. + +To reach the little shingle cove beyond, took nearly an hour of steady +walking, but once set going, Mona kept it up mechanically. She had +never suffered from weakness before, and felt some surprise at her own +failing strength and aching limbs when the hour was ended, not knowing +the exhausting effects of such grief and seclusion as hers during the +past month. + +The path leading straight up the hill, and along the edge of the cliff, +was evidently a much shorter cut homewards than the road by which she +had come, and Mona decided to follow it, though doubtful whether the +steepness of the ascent might not more than counter-balance its greater +directness. She pressed steadily for a while up the stony way, with +trailing brambles on her left and right, till she found herself panting +to a degree which made a respite necessary. A little grassy niche close +to the cliff-edge attracted her, and she sat down to rest. + +It was a clear October day, fair and mild, and free alike from +boisterous breeze or glaring sunshine. Everything seemed clothed in a +neutral tint, and the very blue of the sea had a gray hue about it. +There were no waves beyond a lazy heaving to and fro of the water, but +Mona could catch the sound of the distant splash, as the tide crept +sleepily in, washing round one rock after another. + +How long she sat there, with her cheek on her hand, and her eyes fixed +dreamily on the line of the horizon, she could not have told. She was +scarcely thinking so much as sinking into a tangled maze of doubt and +speculation, after her habit of late. Why this? What of that? How +possible the other? And this could not be reconciled with that; and +that was a belief incompatible with this; and life altogether was one +sad confused mystery; and sin and sorrow seemed so to flourish under +the permission of the God of holiness and love; and revealed truths +were so utterly bewildering in their varied aspects. + +And Mona, poor weak child, striving feebly to penetrate mighty +mysteries which the very angels may not fathom, setting herself up +to question the eternal purposes of the King of kings, before whom +the sinless cherubs veil their faces—what wonder if she found herself +baffled on every side, and closed in by a darkening threatening cloud +of unbelief? As well might she have sought to gauge the depth of the +Atlantic Ocean with the little six-inch ruler in her desk at home, +as have dreamt of measuring God's mysteries by means of her own puny +intellect. Ay, and of the most brilliant powers on earth, ever seen in +living man, the same must still be said. The finite can never compass +the infinite. + +How long Mona would have gone on sitting there but for an interruption, +it is hard to say. Down in her heart of hearts she knew she was wrong +to give way to these questionings—knew herself to be playing with edged +tools of deadly sharpness. But it seemed to herself that she had no +power to draw back from the contest, no power even to seek help from +above. What was the good of praying, she asked bitterly, when doubts as +to the power of prayer thronged round every word she uttered? If once +she could settle these terrible questions which so disturbed her peace, +she would feel again the peace and joy she had known so short a time +before. + +If once! Little did she know that she was bearing fast towards a reef +of cruel hidden rocks, upon which too many of the brightest human +intellects have been wrecked for eternity. Well was it for Mona that +not all her reasonings could prevent the child-like instinct of her +heart from leading her once and again, through all her doubtings, +to cry aloud to her Saviour for help. Well was it for her that her +speculations, though feebly resisted, were no pleasure, but keenest +pain, and that she was a stranger as yet to the foolish pride so often +felt in such questionings, as if, instead of being simply a sign of +imperfect faith, they were a proof of superior mental power. But if +allowed to hold sway too long, there was no hope that in time the pain +would not die, and pride creep stealthily in to supply its place. + +An unexpected sound struck on Mona's ear, and roused her suddenly +from her musings. She was not sorry to be so roused. Something of a +stilled sob in a child's voice, it seemed to her, and she listened +intently, but for awhile in vain. Then she heard it again, rather more +distinctly, and rising from her sheltered spot among the brambles, she +stood in the pathway, waiting. + +There it was—an unmistakable sob this time. Mona went straight among +the bushes away from the cliff, in the direction whence the sobbing +proceeded, and in her haste, almost fell over the figure of a child +crouched in the long grass, shivering and moaning under its breath, +with an occasional sharper sound, as if of pain too keen to be +repressed. + +"Why, you poor little creature, what is the matter?" asked Mona +compassionately, kneeling down beside her. "What is the matter? Has any +one hurt you, or are you ill?" + +The child only cowered down more closely, and Mona bent over her. + +"Poor little thing! You are quite trembling. Has anything happened to +frighten you? Tell me your name, little girl?" said Mona, with gentle +authority, finding her questions unanswered. + +"Nannie Ackman." + +"And where do you live?" + +"Up on the hill." + +Nannie started and moaned sharply again, and then lifted her +tear-stained face. "O please,—I can't help it, it does hurt so," she +whispered, with catches in her breath. + +Mona noticed how the child crouched forward, all drawn together with +pain. She noted too, in a more passing way, the careful mending of the +little one's short scarlet petticoat, and the neatness of the long +black hair, and the cleanliness of the small face and hands, unaware +how much Madge Hardwicke had had to do with the same. + +"Nannie, what is it that hurts you so much?" she asked gently. "Tell me +what it is, dear." + +She sat down on the long grass, and lifted Nannie into her lap, but the +movement, though most tenderly performed, caused almost a scream of +anguish. "What can be the matter? Nannie, poor child, can't you tell +me?" Mona asked, in real distress. "Have you had a fall, or has any one +hurt you? Where is the pain?" + +She hardly needed to ask the latter question, after the way in which +the child's hands were clenched over her chest. "It's here, an' all +through an' my back," Nannie gasped incoherently. "O please tell +Madge—I did try—and I couldn't be patient." + +"Madge Hardwicke, do you mean?" asked Mona, trying to support Nannie in +the easiest possible position. + +"Yes, and I did try," sobbed Nannie, breaking down, "but it does hurt +so dreadful, I couldn't keep in no longer." + +"Have you had this pain before to-day, Nannie?" + +"O no, 'cause father never hit me there before, nor so hard." + +"Your father! You don't mean to say he has done this!" + +"O I didn't mean to tell, I didn't," cried Nannie, roused to the +sense of what she had said, by the indignation in Mona's tone. "O +please—nobody mustn't know—'cause—" + +She had tried to raise herself in her excitement, and another scream +cut short the words. "Hush, Nannie, hush; you must lie down and keep +still," said Mona gravely. "What made your father treat you in such a +way? Tell me his name, and where you live." + +"He's Amos Ackman, and we live right up on the hill, next door to Madge +Hardwicke," said Nannie, gasping painfully between her sobs. "And +nobody mustn't ever know, please,—please,—" + +"Nannie, does your father often strike you?" + +"He's never done it so bad before, and he didn't think to make me fall +over this time, he didn't. Poor father! Madge says it's all along +'cause he's so cross with the rheumatiz, and so it is. He don't know no +better." + +The words, in their eager forgiveness, brought a rush of tears to +Mona's eyes. "Knows no better?" she repeated mechanically. + +"No, 'cause he don't love God," whispered Nannie, under her breath. +"And Madge and I've settled I'd better bear, and not grumble at +nothing; 'cause, if I do, father 'll mayhap be longer learning to +love Him. And if he's too long, maybe he won't be in time for the +Resurrection-day." + +The tears overflowed, and came dropping down on Nannie's brow so fast, +that Nannie looked up in wonder to see what made the strange young lady +cry. "Nannie, where is your father?" asked Mona, unheeding her surprise. + +"Down yonder, picking of blackberries. He don't know I'm here," +whispered Nannie, shrinking. "He's a deal angered, 'cause you know I +couldn't go to sell blackberries on Sunday. And he said he'd make me +to-morrow; and I said it 'ud be wrong, and then—he didn't mean to more +than push me neither. He don't know it's so bad." + +"If he does not know, he 'ought' to know," Mona thought. And in one +of those bursts of burning indignation, to which the gentlest natures +are sometimes prone, she did that which she would have been incapable +of even attempting in her cooler moments. Without saying a word to +Nannie, and without even being clearly aware of her own intentions, she +took the child in her arms, and walked straight down the hill, in the +direction pointed out by Nannie. + +Whether or no Nannie guessed her intentions, she offered no objection. +Perhaps she saw a resolution in Mona's flushed cheeks and firmly-set +lips, which would not be easily overcome. Perhaps the motion caused by +Mona's walk caused suffering too acute to admit of any thought beyond +that of self-control. At all events, neither of the two spoke, till +they came suddenly upon the ragged uncouth figure, whose identity was +made plain to Mona, alike by his half-filled blackberry basket and by +Nannie's shiver of fear. + +"Is your name Amos Ackman?" Mona inquired, presenting herself abruptly +before him, and dashing in fearless fashion straight to the point. + +"Be!" said Amos surlily, the former part of the sentence being merely +an inarticulate growl. + +[Illustration: "And is this your little girl?" + "That's Nan," said Amos. "Idle little hussy she be, + wastin' of her time, an' doin' nought but play."] + +"And is this your little girl?" + +"That's Nan," said Amos. "Idle little hussy she be, wastin' of her +time, an' doin' nought but play." + +"Play!" repeated Mona indignantly. "She is in no state for play, or +work either. Do you know that you might be severely punished for your +cruelty?" + +"Eh?" said Amos. + +The tone was sullenly non-comprehensive. "Look here," said Mona. "See +what you have done to her." + +Amos stared stolidly, and repeated, "Eh?" + +"Do you know you have hurt her so terribly that she cannot stand or +walk? If you go on in this way, you will end by becoming a murderer!" +said Mona, in her warmth. "You, a father, to behave so to your poor +little child!" + +"Can't walk, eh? She's all a humbuggin'," growled Amos. "Get down, will +yer, Nan?" + +Mona held the little helpless figure more closely. "You are +heartless,—wicked," she said, hardly able to find words for her +passionate indignation and pity, while Nannie burst into tears, and +sobbed out,— + +"O father, I didn't mean to tell! I'm sorry." + +"Dare say yer didn't, too," said Amos, with an unmistakable scowl this +time. "Sorry, are yer? I'll make yer sorry, an' no mistake, afore yer a +day older." + +"You shall not dare. You would kill her," cried Mona. "You shall not +lay a finger on her again. I will take her home with me." + +"Take her away, will yer? Yer 'd just better!" + +Mona quailed before the ferocity of those shaggy eyebrows. + +"I don't want to go, father," said Nannie, more calmly than she had yet +spoken. "I'd a deal rather stay with you." + +"I shall tell my uncle, Mr. Chetwynd, about it all, and see what he +will say," Mona answered. "I can't think how you could dare to treat a +poor little helpless girl in such a cowardly brutal way. I wonder you +could dare." + +"Nan's not a-going to go away from home," was the only response. + +"I shall take her up to Madge Hardwicke. My uncle will settle the +matter by-and-by." + +Mona could not trust herself to say more. She turned hastily away, and +walked again up the hill. + +Glancing back once, she saw Amos Ackman shuffling down the path in +the opposite direction. Not till he was out of sight, did she find +how unfitted was her own strength for the task she had undertaken. +At any time, unless under the strongest excitement, her slender arms +were unequal to the bearing of such a burden, and now the reaction +from her interview was a fit of nervous trembling from head to foot. +She struggled on a few more paces, and then sank down on the grass, so +completely spent that there was nothing for it but to await a renewal +of strength, or the help of a passer-by. Not many people, however, went +up and down the path on this side of the hill. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER VII. + +NAT TYRRELL'S NOTIONS. + +"YOU'RE a good woman, Madge. I don't know a better. And my little girl +is main grateful to you, for taking so much trouble with her. Seems to +me, though, that you've got a wrong crank or two into your brain." + +"Maybe," said Madge placidly. She was standing outside her +cottage-door, that same Saturday afternoon, having just seen the last +of nearly a dozen little barefooted damsels, who were wont to run up +the hill once a week, for half-an-hour's Bible reading with Madge, as +a preparation for the Sunday following. "I've taken many a crank into +my head, and been set right in it, before now, and I dare say I'll take +many another. We're none of us gifted with over-clear sight." + +"A man holding the Word of God for his rule, needs never to go wrong," +said Nat Tyrrell decisively. + +"No, he don't need, and a man walking in full daylight needs never +to stumble, but there's no doubt he often do and often will, in both +cases," responded Madge. "What's the crank I've hold of now, Nat?" + +Nat's answer was another question: "What's your reading been about +to-day?" + +"Asking God for what we want." + +"Thought so," said Nat. + +"Yes, you had your head against the lattice, last part of the time," +said Madge in her quiet way. + +Nat laughed, half inclined to blush also. "Well, you see, I knowed +you'd have no objection." + +"Not a bit. Have out with your say, Nat. I'm waiting to be set right." + +"Well, look you here," said Nat, noways unwilling to assume the +pleasant office of mentor, "I didn't just like all you was telling of +the children, to go and pray for everything they wanted, and they'd get +it." + +"No, I didn't promise that neither," said Madge. "I told them they'd +get it, if 'twas God's will." + +"Yes, and nothing was ever too small to pray about, you said—not even +if 'twas a bit of food, or a wish for something you couldn't get." + +"Well," said Madge. "Don't the Bible say, 'In everything . . . let your +requests be made known unto God . . .'¹?" + + ¹ Phil. iv. 6. + +"Yes, but it don't mean everything of that kind," said Nat. + +"What does it mean?" Madge wanted to know. + +"It don't mean that," repeated Nat Tyrrell. "It means seeking pardon +and forgiveness, and God's glory, and man's salvation." + +"And they're great things to pray for, sure enough, but you can't say +they're just quite 'everything' to us in this life," responded Madge. +"I'd like to know the texts you have found in other parts, to make the +meaning of this clear to you in that light, Nat." + +"'Tain't one text in partic'lar," said Nat, sheering off from an +awkward request. "Seems to me, Madge, you forget that God is the mighty +Creator of the whole universe, when you talk of troubling Him with your +little fidgets. Asking Him about such foolish matters as a hard lesson, +or a broken toy, or a sharp word from another, as I heard you telling +the children—why, 'tis downright profanation." + +Madge looked across to the wide blue waste of water, heaving and +tossing ceaselessly in its boundless power, then glanced at the bushes +by her side, where a bright-breasted robin, on an early autumn visit, +hopped daintily from twig to twig. + +"I don't know," she said at length. "I'm thinking, Nat, that if you'd +been at a bedside once, where a little child was called from the dead, +and the next thing the Lord did, was to tell them to give her a bit of +food—I'm thinking you'd have stepped forward, and said, 'Master, isn't +it profanation to think of anything so poor as meat and drink, after +you've been working so mighty a miracle?'" + +Nat looked rather at a loss. + +"And then He cares for the sparrows," Madge went on, after a little +break. "And we're of more value yet. And the very hairs of our heads +are all numbered. It don't seem to me that the Lord's measure of great +and little is the same at all that ours is. I'm quite sure of one +thing, and that is, that whatever has aught to do with our happiness, +isn't too small for Him to attend to. Besides, don't He tell us plainly +to ask for all we want?" + +"Yes, but you don't seem to remember, Madge, that all them promises are +to be taken in the spirit, and not in the letter." + +"And that's what I try to do, too. There's that verse—'Delight thyself +also in the Lord, and He shall give thee the desires of thine heart.' ¹ + +"Don't I know well enough it means only if the desire of my heart +isn't for anything against His will. And it's the same with another +promise—'Ye shall ask "what ye will," and it shall be done unto you.' ² +But taking them in the spirit don't mean putting them aside altogether, +Nat." + + ¹ Ps. xxxvii. 4. ² John xv. 7. + +"'Ask what ye will' of spiritual good, it means, Madge. The 'desire of +your heart' hadn't ought to be for anything but spiritual benefits, and +if you delight in God, He'll give you those, sure enough." + +"I don't find it so in my Bible," maintained Madge stoutly. "I've +a love for taking Bible words as they are, and not adding my own +explainings. Didn't Mr. Prior tell us to take care of that very danger, +only last Sunday?" + +"I didn't take him to mean exactly that," said Nat. + +"I'd ask him if I was you," said Madge securely. "But about those words +now—if you was to come to me, Nat, and say, 'Ask what you will, Madge, +and I'll give it you,' I'd take you at your word, and ask many a thing, +supposing of course it was in your power to give. And when my Lord +says, 'Ask what you will, Madge,' mayn't I take Him at His word too, +or am I to make out that He don't speak my language, or that His words +has a scantier meaning than if you or I was to use them? Why, I tell +you, Nat, I've tried Him right often, and tested His promises times and +again. And He's given me the things I wanted too—given 'em so quick and +full that I'm like to be half-frightened I can get my wishes so easy. +And then you'd have me draw back, and never ask again. Seems to me, +Nat, that while God says, 'Ask,' you go and say, 'Don't ask.'" + +"'Tis a terrible responsibility, Madge, to insist on having our own +will in prayer," said Nat, slipping from one ground of argument to +another. + +"You're right enough there," rejoined Madge, with quickness. "Didn't +the Israelites do it, and got their wish, when God 'gave them their +request but sent leanness into their soul'? I've a dread of that, I can +tell you." + +"And yet go on a-doing the same!" said Nat. + +"Not if I know it," said Madge temperately. "If 'tis according to God's +will, He hears me. I'd never dare, Nat, to say more than this—'Lord, +I've a wish for that thing or the other, and I make a particular +request to have it, if 'tis Thy will; and if not, Thy will be done.' +And times are when He don't give me my wish at all, though it's oftener +He do. If He keeps back the thing I want, He's pretty sure to give me a +smile to make up for it, though,—and I don't know as I wouldn't rather +have that of the two," Madge added softly, a gleam breaking over her +own face the while. + +She was getting out of Nat Tyrrell's depth, and because he could not +understand her, he thought she was running astray. "I'm afeared you've +a good many more cranks than one in your brain, Madge," he said, +shaking his head. + +"Like enough," said Madge quietly. "Only 'tis no crank I'm telling you +of now, Nat. I'll not say, though, that you haven't a bit of truth +either in your thought. Maybe there are some in the world who've so +given up their will to God, as to have scarce a wish apart from Him. +That is what David meant, it seems to me, when he said, 'One thing have +I desired of the Lord, that will I seek after;' and that one thing, +you know, was to dwell in the House of the Lord, and know ever more of +Him. I do think, Nat, that to have no will at all of my own for earthly +things, but only to care to know the will of God, would be a sort of +heaven on earth. But I haven't reached to that yet,—though I'll strive +more for it after to-day, so you see you've taught me a lesson, for all +we don't think just alike. Only so long as I 'have' a strong will, and +ever so many wishes always rising up, I'll make them all known to my +Lord, every single one, and leave the answering of them in His hands." + +And then, after a thoughtful silence, Madge suddenly turned, and +exclaimed at the sight of Mona Clyde, seated in an exhausted position +on the little bench, holding the apparently senseless form of Nannie +Ackman. + +"I could not help sitting still to hear what you were saying, and you +were talking so busily that you did not see me," explained Mona, with +a faint smile. "Did you mind, Mrs. Hardwicke? I thought you would not. +Please take Nannie. I am so tired!" + +"Why, poor little lass, some harm has come to her surely!" exclaimed +Nat, as he lifted the child in his strong arms. + +Madge, with her usual habit of never wasting words on emergencies, +stepped inside the cottage and brought a glass of water to Mona, +waiting silently to be made acquainted with facts. + +"Thank you, I am better now," and Mona sat up, with a sigh. "I thought +I should never get to the top of the hill, and I stumbled so that I +think she has fainted with pain. O Madge—Mrs. Hardwicke, I mean—it +is that wicked father of hers. He has hurt the poor little creature +dreadfully, and if you let her go back to him, I think he will end +by killing her. I wanted to take her home with me, but he would not +consent. What can be done, Mrs. Hardwicke?" + +"I'm Madge to everybody, please, Miss Mona," was the quiet answer. +"There's room for Nannie in my cottage, and her father 'll never dare +to touch her here." + +Voice and manner were alike unruffled, yet Mona felt sure that it +was no shallow stream of sorrow and indignation which flowed below. +Madge Hardwicke's first care was to bring forward the one easy-chair +the cottage contained, and settle in it her weary young visitor, with +cushion and stool. Mona submitted, from lack of power to do anything +else, and then lay back silently, watching Madge's further movements, +through the open bedroom door, with a curious feeling of pleasant trust +in the calm self-possession and tender motherliness of all that she did. + +It did not take Madge long to undress Nannie and lay her in her own +bed. She came back to Mona when that was done—her face a trifle graver. +"I'm thinking, Miss Mona, I'll get Nat Tyrrell to call and ask the +doctor to step up here. Maybe by then you'll be rested enough to walk +back with him." + +"He expected to be home by six," said Mona. "Why, it is nearly that +now. O yes, I shall soon be rested nicely. But do you think little +Nannie is much hurt?" + +"It is hard to know, Miss Mona. She's come to herself, and she's in a +deal of pain, poor little one! She tries to make out her father didn't +mean to hurt her when he struck at her, only she fell over a root, and +her back came against a sharp stump in the ground. But her poor chest +is all black and blue with the weight of his hand, and she can scarce +breathe for the pain." + +Madge Hardwicke's own hand stole furtively over her eyes. + +"It is cruel—horrible," Mona repeated, sitting up. "It is worse than a +man would treat his dog. I don't know what uncle Chetwynd will say." + +Madge went away to despatch Nat Tyrrell on his errand to the doctor, +and then returned to watch by the side of the suffering child, while +Mona sat still in her chair, until the doctor came. + +"You ain't going to get father punished now," were the first words that +saluted Mr. Chetwynd's ears, as he walked to the bedside. + +It was a very wan little face that looked up at him from the white +pillow, over which Nannie's long black hair strayed carelessly. She +spoke with feverish haste, catching her breath sharply between the +words, and her small hands were wrung together in a tight clasp. The +doctor noted all, but merely remarked:— + +"Well, I don't quite know, little one. How are you now?" + +"He ain't going to be punished," repeated Nannie. "Father ain't. He +didn't mean no harm." + +"Where are you hurt, Nannie?" asked Mr. Chetwynd. + +"I'm hurt all over. It wasn't his fault," repeated the child, with +passionate earnestness, a bright flush coming into her cheeks, and a +rush of tears to her eyes. "He was only cross, and didn't know it 'ud +be so bad. And if you go and have him took up, and put into prison, +it'll be all over. O Madge, it'll be all over." + +Nannie sobbed so bitterly, that the doctor's curiosity was roused. +"What will be over, Nannie?" + +"'Cause Madge and I have asked so that father 'd learn to love God, +and if he goes to prison, he'll have nobody to teach him," said Nannie +tearfully. "And maybe he wouldn't ever live to come out, or I wouldn't +live to see him." + +It was a little child's fashion of looking on the question, and Mr. +Chetwynd, detecting the weak point in a moment with his critical eye, +had a veiled sneer on the tip of his tongue. But Madge was beforehand +with him, and quietly extracted its sting. + +"That don't make no real difference, Nannie. Maybe it's neither you nor +I that can teach him the great lesson. God can have him taught just as +easy down in the prison as up here." + +Nannie, however, did not seem to find much comfort in that thought, +and evidently considered, to her great distress, that Madge was siding +against her father. She sobbed long struggling sobs, which shook her +all over, and brought on terrible pain. It became hard to decide +whether the fears for her father were not almost forgotten in those +sharp cries of bodily anguish, but Mr. Chetwynd could stand out no +longer, and tried the effect of a consoling, "Well, well, Nannie, it +shall be as you wish. I will take no steps in the matter at present, +beyond giving your father a few words on the subject. Only try not to +cry so, my dear, or you will make yourself worse." + +Madge's touch had more effect than the doctor's voice, and Nannie's +excitement gradually stilled. It was well for her peace of mind that +Mr. Chetwynd had given his promise before he became acquainted with the +extent of the child's injuries. He brought his brows together sternly, +and drew in his breath almost as sharply as Nannie herself in her pain, +when he saw the deep bruise upon her chest. A careful examination +followed, during which few words passed the doctor's lips. He beckoned +Madge into the outer room at the close, leaving Mona to watch over the +worn-out child. + +"What are we to do, Madge?" were his first words. + +"About what, sir?" + +"Nannie, of course. She can't go back to her father's. It is unsafe, +and besides, he could not nurse her as she will need to be nursed." + +"Do you think her much hurt, sir?" asked Madge. + +He made an expressive movement of his head. "Can't say yet to a +certainty. The blow on the chest is bad enough, but the injury to the +spine may prove worse in the end. It will be a matter of lying up for +weeks at all events—months in all probability. I would not speak so +openly to any one else, mind you." + +"No, sir," said Madge, accepting the compliment with her usual +calmness, which always gave the doctor a certain baffled feeling. + +"The only plan is to get her off to the hospital, though how she will +bear the moving I don't know." + +"I doubt but she's as well off where she is now," said Madge. + +"Couldn't be better off anywhere than under your wing, Madge. I'm +willing enough to aid in expenses, and so will Mr. Prior be, I don't +doubt. But how about trouble?" + +"If it's the work put in my way for me to do, I don't see as the +trouble makes any difference," Madge answered. + +So the matter was settled there and then, with few more words about +it, and little Nannie became for an indefinite time an inmate of Madge +Hardwicke's cottage. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER VIII. + +QUESTIONINGS. + +"UNCLE, have you known Madge Hardwicke a great many years?" + +"Just as long as I have lived in Alyn, my dear." + +"All that time! And how did you first come across her?" + +It was something so unusual for Mona to start anything in the way of +conversation, that the doctor was delighted. He sat upright, stirring +carefully the cup of tea which Mona had handed to him, on his awaking +from a brief after-dinner nap. + +"Curiously, rather. She was the first person in the place with whom I +exchanged a word, if we except porters and cabmen. When I drove up to +my garden-gate from the station, Madge happened to be standing close +outside, resting for a moment on her way up the hill. I suppose her +pleasant face fascinated me, for I was not wont to be particularly +sociable in those days with strangers. However, she dropped that quaint +curtsey of hers, and we struck up an acquaintance then and there in the +road. She has been a regular stand-by of mine ever since. If I happen +to have a desperate case which nobody else can manage, I send for Madge +Hardwicke. I don't know how many lives she has saved among my patients." + +"Was she a widow then, uncle?" + +"Dear me, no. Have I never told you the poor thing's history? Her +husband was a sailor,—one of those manly open-hearted fellows whom +everybody likes. I suppose that little cottage up on the cliff was one +of the happiest homes in Alyn, not to say England. There never were +husband and wife better suited to each other than Ned and Madge. And +to make matters perfect, they had one child, about the most splendid +specimen of small boyhood I ever knew. To see Ned Hardwicke on a summer +evening in his garden, playing with that child, and Madge standing +by with her smiling pride in both of them,—I declare it was worth a +five miles' walk. There wasn't a house in Alyn that I used so to enjoy +visiting." + +"Was Ned Hardwicke a good man?" asked Mona. + +"A first-rate husband and father, as brave as a lion, and by natural +sequence as gentle as a lamb. As religious as Madge herself, which I +suppose is what you mean. They were quite agreed on all points, which +of course is desirable in husband and wife." + +"How did he die?" asked Mona. + +"It was a sudden death," said the doctor, doubting all at once whether +the tale were a very good one for Mona to hear. He found, however, that +he had no choice about proceeding. "Just going off to his boat one +morning, and had said good-bye to his wife. He went to the edge of the +cliff to look over, stood there whistling a moment, and then the earth +gave way beneath his feet, and he fell down the sheer three hundred +feet. He was dead when he reached the bottom." + +Mona shuddered, and grew white. + +"Madge was like a frantic woman the first few minutes, they said; and +when she found that all was over, she appeared stunned. I used to +wonder whether she would ever rally. But when the funeral was passed, +she seemed to step out into fresh life, grave and quiet as she is now, +but ready and busy and capable. I suppose Neill was her great comfort +all that time." + +"The baby?" asked Mona. + +"He was not a baby then. I ought to have made you understand. Neill was +eight or nine years old when his father died—the most beautiful child +I ever saw, and desperately wilful, in spite of all their judicious +training. The fact is, people spoilt him by too much notice. There was +no preventing it. Hardly a visitor walked over the hill who didn't make +friends with Neill for the sake of his handsome face. Artists would +come, and beg to have him for a subject, and folks talked about him to +that degree in his hearing, that the boy's head was completely turned. +It was a great trouble to Madge, poor thing. I think she would almost +have given all she possessed to have had her boy no better-looking than +other boys, though she could not help being proud of him." + +"Well?" said Mona. + +"Well, then came poor Ned's terrible death, and the boy seemed sobered +down for a time. But, naturally enough, the impression passed off, and +he grew more wild than ever, and got among a number of bad companions. +He was always very fond of his mother, and had plenty of penitent fits; +but he generally went off and did something worse than usual after +them. The last few months he seemed to grow harder, and his face quite +lost the pleasant look it used to have." + +"And then, what happened to him?" + +"He ran away, and has never been heard of since." + +"Poor Madge! Poor Madge!" said Mona compassionately. + +"Ay, poor thing, it has been a sad trouble to her. Four years ago that +was, and no one can say now whether Neill is alive or dead. My own +impression is that he must be dead. Otherwise, I think he would have +written. But of course I don't try to destroy her faith in his return." + +"O no; it would be cruel." + +"Though, on the other hand, I don't count it wise to nurse a feeling of +too great certainty on her part," added the doctor, recollecting divers +remarks of his own, which had not savoured of over-encouragement. + +"How she can look so cheerful, with such a lonely life to live!" Mona +murmured, half to herself. + +"'Tis a marvel, I don't deny. And it is not with Madge, as with some +people, that she get easily over her sorrow, and takes up other +interests. Honestly I don't believe a single day ever passes that that +woman does not pray for Neill's return and set herself to look out +for his coming in answer to her prayer. I don't understand—I can't +understand it," repeated the doctor, in genuine perplexity. Nor was +it possible that he should understand, the said habit of prayer and +trust being simply an absolute delusion in his eyes. "I can understand +forgetfulness or long-continued sorrow—either the one or the other—but +how she keeps on her grief, and yet contrives to live such a happy +life, is past my comprehension. The woman is a mystery, but a very +agreeable one." + +"I like her—oh, more than I can tell," said Mona. "Only I do wonder a +little that you and she get on so well together." + +"Get on splendidly, I assure you," said the doctor, smiling. "She is +the most useful woman, and the most unobtrusive creature, in the world. +O I see,—you mean on account of our religious views." + +Mona winced at the air of mild superiority. + +"Well, we each leave the other room for our respective opinions to +enjoy full swing. Madge and I have cracked many a hard nut in the way +of discussion, and I fancy she has pretty nearly abandoned hopes of +converting me by this time. Finds me rather a tough subject," added the +doctor complacently. + +Mona's two hands, lying in a careless clasp upon her knee, tightened +and quivered suddenly. + +"That little Nannie, now, is a singular example of the forgiving +nature of children," observed Mr. Chetwynd, after a pause. "It does +not seem to occur to her for a moment that she has any real reason for +resentment against her father." + +"Poor little child!" said Mona. "It is very sweet of her." + +"There is something particularly charming in a child's innocent ways," +remarked the doctor. + +For, having had no children or brothers, and but one yielding sister +of his own, he was quite able to believe that a readiness to forgive +injuries is the universal characteristic of childhood. Mona knew +better, through practical experience, but would not risk a discussion +by saying so. + +Conversation flagged thenceforward, from lack of response on Mona's +part, and the doctor presently, finding himself disposed to yawn, +advised her to retire to rest after the day's fatigues. Mona accepted +the hint, and went to her own room. + +She was tired enough to be glad to remove her dress, and put on her +dressing-gown, and let her hair fall loosely about her shoulders. But +after that stage, advance was slow. According to the habit of years, +she took out her Bible, sat down in the white easy-chair, with a candle +by her side, and began to read. + +Or rather, she tried to begin. Wearily and listlessly her eyes +travelled down the lines through the greater part of a chapter. And +then it struck her that she had taken in the sense of not one single +verse, so she went over it a second time, with just the same success. +A third time, but she broke off in the middle hopelessly, and leant +back in her chair, clasping her hands over her eyes with a bitter sigh. +Only a few weeks back, she had read those same words to her mother, and +had seen them full of heavenly peace and joy. And they were nothing to +her now. Senselessly and drearily, as the dead autumn leaf falls from +the half-bare tree, fell those cold Bible words on Mona's heart—those +utterances which had once been instinct with such fervent loving life. + +[Illustration: She broke off in the middle hopelessly, + and leant back in her chair.] + +Why were they so different? In old days, she could scarcely open upon a +chapter in the Bible, which had not its living lesson for her soul. No +divinely-sent message of sweet and holy power came ever to her spirit +now. + +How could it come? For even as she read, dark questionings came rising +in her heart, like a cloud between her and the light. Or, as with the +Pilgrim Good-Intent, when he fled through bewildering underground +passages, from the false Philosopher's house, which he had rashly +entered—as with him, so with Mona, did clouds of winged creatures, +called Doubts, flap thickly around, hiding with their rustling wings +the shining of the holy page before her. And Mona had allowed these +questionings to hold sway, till at last, she had lost all power to set +them aside. + +What to believe, and what not to believe! How to reconcile the +seemingly conflicting elements of revealed truth! Whether there +were reality in Madge Hardwicke's faith on the one hand, or in Mr. +Chetwynd's unbelief on the other! What of prayer and foreknowledge? And +what of faith and works? And what of election and free choice? And what +of this, that, and the other? Poor girl, she was tossed sorely to and +fro, in a very whirlpool of misery. And she ended by pushing the book +aside, and flinging herself on her knees, with her face pressed down on +her folded arms, and short sobs breaking through the words which strove +for utterance:— + + "O if I only knew what to do, and what to believe! If I only had some +one to tell me clearly what is truth! Mother—mother—surely you cannot +have been utterly mistaken. Such loving trust as yours was—and I used +to think I had a little of the same, but it is all gone now. Is uncle +Chetwynd really wiser than you were? He is clever and kind, and he has +studied his Bible too. It is not as if he had never learnt what I have. +I don't know what to do, or who to believe. O mother, it is such a dark +dark sky over me, and it seems as if heaven and everything were gone. +O God, save me. O God, please teach me. 'Thou wilt show me the path of +life.' It is in Thy Word, and Thou hast promised—promised—and Thou must +not break Thy word. 'Lead me forth to the light, and let me behold Thy +righteousness. O send out Thy light and Thy truth—let them lead me, let +them bring me unto Thy holy hill, and to Thy tabernacles.'" + +She found herself instinctively falling into Bible expressions, and the +very sound of the familiar words from her own lips seemed to bring a +shade of comfort. + + "O God, for the sake of Thy dear Son, leave me not to perish. 'In Thy +faithfulness answer me, and in Thy righteousness . . . For the enemy +hath persecuted my soul; he hath smitten my life down to the ground; he +hath made me to dwell in darkness, as those that have been long dead. +Therefore is my spirit overwhelmed within me; my heart within me is +desolate . . . I stretch forth my hands unto Thee; my soul thirsteth +after Thee, as a thirsty land. Hear me speedily, O Lord, my spirit +faileth; hide not Thy face from me, lest I be like unto them that go +down into the pit . . . Cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; +for I lift up my soul unto Thee . . . Quicken me, O Lord, for Thy +Name's sake; for Thy righteousness' sake bring my soul out of trouble.' + + "O Lord, I have gone astray—utterly astray—'like a lost sheep.' I can't +get back. I am helpless—hopeless—all in the dark. 'Seek Thy servant, +for I do not forget Thy commandments.' O hear me, for my Saviour's +sake, and have mercy, have mercy upon me." + +And then, after those low broken cries for help, she knelt on +silently—neither struggling nor praying, surrounded still with +darkness, and unable yet to trust. But down below, one little gleam of +comfort had reached her. For, in spite of all her questionings, the +power to pray had not forsaken her; and not all her doubtings could +entirely do away with the consciousness that One above, of infinite +power and boundless love, had listened to her cry. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER IX. + +MADGE HARDWICKE'S FAITH. + +"GOOD morning, Amos," said Madge Hardwicke affably, coming out of her +cottage about half-past twelve on the following day, and finding him +for the first time seated on his bench. + +"Mornin'," responded Amos, with a scowl which did not improve his +countenance. + +"Don't you want to know how Nannie is, poor little lass?" + +"Idle little hussy—all a humbuggin' she be," growled Amos. + +"There's never a taste of humbug in aught that Nan does," said Madge. +"She's true to the backbone. Amos Ackman, you'd ought to be kneeling +down yonder in your cottage, giving thanks to God that He's kept you +from being a downright murderer, 'stead of doing nothing but sit there +and abuse folks." + +Madge did not often speak so strongly, but her feelings were much +stirred for Nannie's sake. She checked herself, however, and only +added—"I've been up with the child 'most all night." + +"More fool you!" said Amos. + +"'Tis a good thing, seems to me, that I'm not doing it for thanks," +said Madge, half-smiling, as she turned away. "Nan's been in a deal of +pain, but she's just dropped off to sleep the last half-hour." + +Asleep, and so soundly asleep, after hours of suffering, that nothing +served to waken her until nearly four o'clock in the afternoon. And +when she opened her eyes, it was to see Mona Clyde standing with Madge +Hardwicke by her side. + +Nannie gave one exclamation of pleasure, and then found herself +forbidden by the careful Madge to enter into conversation, till she had +had some refreshment. A small basket in their visitor's hand was found +to contain a supply of calf's-foot jelly, and Mona herself sat down on +the bed, spoon in hand, to minister to the wants of the little sick +child. + +"It's ever so nice," said Nannie softly. "Was it the doctor sent it?" + +"Yes," Mona said, without adding that it was by her own request. "Have +you had enough now, Nannie? How is the pain to-day?" + +"It don't hurt me so to breathe," said Nannie. "But I don't seem as if +I could hardly move. My back hurts dreadful, if I try." + +"I dare say that will be better soon," said Mona. "You must try to be +patient, Nannie, and not mind lying quiet." + +Madge said nothing, and Nannie looked up at her somewhat anxiously. + +"I'll try to be patient, and I'm so tired I don't mind keeping quiet. +But—oh, Madge, you don't think I'm going to die?" + +Madge arranged the bedclothes, and stroked Nannie's face with a +soothing touch. "What's put that into your head now, Nan?" + +"I'd a deal rather get well," murmured Nannie, in a sorrowful voice. +"It ain't wrong, is it, Madge? 'Cause you told us the people in the +Bible wanted to live to be old, didn't you?" + +"Many of 'em," said Madge. + +"And I do so want to see father learn to love God," said Nannie. "I +don't want to go to heaven till I know he's going too. And I'd rather +wait to see the Resurrection-mornin', than die first. Wouldn't you, +Madge?" + +Not Nannie alone, but Mona also, looked wistfully for the answer. + +"I'd like it to be as my Lord wills, Nannie," Madge said. "But if +you've a wish either way, you've only to tell Him, you know, and He'll +do the best that can be for you." + +Nannie's hands went together in a quick clasp, and her eyes closed, as +if in prompt following of the advice given. "I've done it," she said, +looking up presently. "Will I not die now, Madge?" + +"I don't think you're like to die just now, no more particularly than +the rest of us," said Madge quietly. "But if 'twas the Master's will, +you wouldn't sure grieve to go home with Him, 'stead of waiting on for +Him here! What sort of a love would that be, Nannie?" + +"Maybe I wouldn't," said Nannie thoughtfully. "Only I'd a deal sooner +not die, Madge, 'cause I want to see the Resurrection-day." + +"You'll see it, sure enough, Nannie. Only those that have died 'll rise +first, and those that's living 'll be caught up second." + +"Then maybe that 'ud be best of the two," said Nannie. + +"I think either way 'll be best that God chooses for you," said Madge. + +"Maybe," repeated Nannie. And she shut her eyes again, and seemingly +went to sleep. + +Madge, after waiting for a minute, made a movement as if to go into the +other room. It was not observed, however. + +Mona was looking at the child's face, and suddenly raising her eyes, +she said—"I think you and Nannie are very happy, Madge." + +"We'd ought to be," said Madge. + +"Yes—no. O I don't know," said Mona, with a deep sigh, resting her +cheek on her hand. "I suppose nothing in the world makes one so happy +as faith. And yet—if—" + +"If what, Miss Mona?" asked Madge, marvelling at the girl's quivering +lips. + +"If there should 'not' be truth in it all?" said Mona passionately. +"How do we know? How can anything be proved? Madge, don't tell anybody +what I am saying to you. But do you ever have doubts?—Or is your faith +always the same?" + +"Doubts of my Lord's love?" asked Madge, with some wonder in her tone. + +"Not that in particular. Of everything—of +God—heaven—religion—everything, Madge?" + +"I know what they are," said Madge serenely. + +"And what do you do when they come?" + +"Take 'em straight to my Lord, and ask Him to settle 'em for me." + +Mona looked up earnestly without speaking. + +"You see it's Satan's work—all that," said Madge. "And when he's too +strong for me, I just call on my Captain to deal with him, Miss Mona, +and to keep me safe behind His shield." + +"And He does?" said Mona mechanically. + +"Try Him, Miss Mona,—that's all." + +"But, Madge—you don't understand," said Mona, sitting up with a little +start, as if waking from a momentary feeling of repose. "You don't +understand me. That would do for some doubts, but not for all. That is +prayer, and what if—if—oh, Madge, I'll tell you the truth—what if I +can't understand or believe in the power of prayer?" + +"Understanding's one thing, and believing's another," said Madge. "If +you don't know the power of prayer, you'd best just try it, Miss Mona, +if you'll let me tell you so." + +"I've tried it—often—and I used to believe in it. But, Madge, now look +here," Mona went on, clasping her hands feverishly,—"I want to know how +prayer can be answered. For don't you suppose that God knows beforehand +all my future life, and everything that will happen to me?" + +Madge nodded in undoubting assent. + +"And if my life is all lying mapped out before me, how can my prayers +make any difference? How can they, Madge?" + +"Does the Bible say it's all mapped out, Miss Mona?" + +"I don't know—no, not, exactly. But then it must be." + +"I'd never set up a 'must be' apart from the Bible, if I was you, Miss +Mona," said Madge. "It says one thing, and that is, that the Lord +'directeth man's steps.' Well for us that He do, too. But I can't +remember reading ever a word about our life being all mapped out by +God, and nothing ever to change it. I do read, how over and over +again the Lord was going to send awful judgments on them poor sinning +Israelites, till Moses His chosen stood between, and turned away his +anger. Where 'd have been the good of Moses praying as he did, if it +wasn't to gain anything?" + +"That is just it," said Mona. "That is it, Madge. I do pray, and I do +try to believe I shall have an answer. But all the while, I can't help +feeling that God has arranged everything from all eternity, and that my +prayers can make no difference." + +"They're Satan's whisperings, Miss Mona," said Madge Hardwicke, with +deeper earnestness than she had yet displayed. "Arranged everything! I +don't say it isn't so. The Bible don't say whether He has or hasn't, +and I durstn't be so bold as to set up myself to say it neither. But +the Bible does say, 'Ask and it shall be given you,' and 'The effectual +fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.' How could it avail +much, if it could do nothing? There's where it is! There isn't a +mightier power in the world than prayer. We don't see much of the +working of it now, but if we could, we'd be not a little surprised to +find how the greatest matters on earth come about sometimes, in answer +to one good man's prayer. I'd look in the Bible and see all the answers +to prayer if I was you, Miss Mona—Abraham, and Gideon, and Elijah, and +Moses, and Hezekiah, and all the rest of them." + +"But God does know everything beforehand," murmured Mona, half to +herself. + +"Sure enough He does, and it's little chance our prayers would have of +being answered if He didn't. Haven't I often asked a thing, and it's +come quick after?—But matters must have been working up for it weeks +afore, and I didn't know that, only the Master knew, and was keeping +His promise, 'Before you call, I will answer.'" + +Madge was silent a minute, looking pityingly at the troubled face +before her. + +"Knows all beforehand! Of course He do, Miss Mona. He knew beforehand +you were going to pray, and He arranged beforehand to answer you; or +He knew beforehand you wasn't going to pray, and He 'didn't' arrange +beforehand to answer you. Knew it from all Eternity,—and maybe arranged +it from all Eternity too, only the Bible don't say that, so we can't be +sure. It wouldn't make no difference as to the truth of the power of +prayer,—not one bit. But 'tis a grand and awful light to look at it in, +and I've a fear lest my weak eyes should be dazzled, and the Tempter +should maybe seize on the moment to snare me somehow. I love a deal +better to look up straight to God as my Father, giving me day by day +just what I want, and tending my steps, and looking out for my prayers. +I'd leave thinking altogether of how the answer comes about, Miss Mona, +and just pray instead, and wait the answer. No fear but it'll come." + +And then there was a tapping at the outer door, and Madge moved +away. Mona hardly noticed that she was gone, till roused by the +courteously-uttered words— + +"Miss Clyde, I believe." + +Mona turned hastily, startled out of her abstraction, to meet the +thoughtful face and earnest eyes with which she had grown distantly +familiarised in Church the last few Sundays. + +"Mr. Prior is so kind as to come and see Nannie and read to her," Madge +said quietly, yet with a ring of pleasure in her voice. + +And then Mona saw what Madge had been aware of for two or three minutes +past, that Nannie was wide awake, and ready to bestow attention on +anybody. + +But Mona had never exchanged a word with Mr. Prior since that terrible +moment in the dark tunnel underground, when his voice had helped to +awaken her to a sense of her loss; and the association of ideas was +almost more than she could bear. She strangled back the threatening +rush of tears, but Mr. Prior seemed to understand all at a glance. He +had taken her hand in greeting, and pressing it kindly, he said— + +"Never mind, don't stay in here just now. I am going to have a chat +with this poor little maiden. Will you wait in the next room, Miss +Clyde? I have been wishing to make your acquaintance, and perhaps you +will let me escort you down the hill." + +And Mona did not dream of resistance. She was glad to escape at the +moment, but waited patiently in the front room so long as he chose to +stay with Nannie. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER X. + +A LETTER. + +"I SAY, missus!" + +Nat Tyrrell's hearty voice rang through the cottage from the +suddenly-opened door. Mona rose to her feet, and Nat pulled off his cap. + +"Beg pardon, Miss. I didn't know a lady was here. I've summat to give +Madge that 'll please her mightily." + +The inner door opened as he spoke, and Madge came out, following Mr. +Prior, who nodded pleasantly to the new comer. + +"Good afternoon, Tyrrell. I think I have spoken to you before now. How +are you all at home?" + +As there was scarcely an individual in the parish, of any age or +standing, with whom he had not exchanged at least a few kind words +during this first month of his residence in Alyn, he was pretty safe +in making the assertion. It had grown, however, to be a saying in the +place, that Mr. Prior never forgot a face he had once seen, and Nat was +highly flattered at the present recognition of himself. + +"Thank you, sir; we're all pretty well. Leastways, except that my +wife's laid up with the rheumatics. I say, Madge, I've a letter here +for you, right away from Australy. It's come in one from young Ned +Blayney to his mother, and she's give it to me to bring up to you. I've +come off as quick as ever I could, for I knew you'd be main glad to get +it, eh, Madge?" + +She had received the letter from him mechanically, and now stood like +one in a dream, clasping it firmly between two hands, with her eyes +gazing into vacancy. + +"Why, she don't understand," said Nat, coming a step nearer. "I say, +Madge, I'd open and see, if I was you. It's from Neill himself, and +'taint bad news, I can tell you too, for Mrs. Blayney said he was all +right." + +"Neill?" repeated Madge. + +"To be sure, yes. Why, one 'ud think you didn't care about it, instead +of being properly thankful for your mercies," said Nat, rather +scandalised at such an unedifying fashion of receiving the news. + +"Hush, Tyrrell, don't tease her," interposed Mr. Prior, in a low tone, +seeing deeper than Nat could do. "Have a little patience." + +"Well, I didn't think she'd have took it so cool, I do confess," +muttered the disappointed Nat, while Madge lifted a pair of dim eyes to +Mona, and said softly,— + +"Neill! It's his own hand too. But 'he' wanted me to think I'd never +hear from my boy again." + +"Then he was very wrong," said Mona impetuously, aware who was meant. +"Madge, don't you want to know if Neill is coming home?" + +Madge looked down on her own trembling fingers, as they clasped the +folded sheet, and then again she glanced up, this time at Mr. Prior. + +"Seems to me I'm like Peter's friends, when they wouldn't believe their +prayer for him was heard,—oft as I've blamed them! I've been thinking +I'd faith in the power of prayer, and thinking I was looking out,—and +now it's come, I can't believe 'tis true." + +"'Like as a father pitieth his children,'" was the quick and suggestive +answer. "Like as you pity and love your boy—" + +Madge drew one deep breath, half of oppression, half of relief. "Ay, +and God knows all along," she murmured. "Knew my weakness, didn't He, +before I found it out myself?—And yet the letter's come. Miss Mona, I +don't seem as if I could read. Maybe—" + +She held out the sheet beseechingly. + +Mona opened it, and read aloud the contents in their large scrawled +handwriting:— + + "DEAREST MOTHER, + + "I've been a bad boy to you, haven't I? But somehow I don't think +you'll have forgot your Neill by this, though I don't deserve you +should think of me again. It's a shame I've never wrote to you all +these years, but when a fellow's going on bad as I have been, he don't +feel much like writing home, and I've had nothing good to tell you. + + "It is just a few days since I met Ned Blayney. Did not know he was +out here at all, and had not seen him since we was both at school +together, and I used to plague him for his red hair. 'Tisn't red now, +though. He's growed up a fine fellow. And I wish I'd gone to sea, like +him, 'stead of trying the bush out here. + + "'Twas a mere chance our finding each other out, and my happening to +be in Melbourne at all when he was. Ned says 'twas no chance at all; +but all I know is we comed flop across each other in the middle of +the street, and I'd have passed him by, if he hadn't known me. And if +I hadn't have met him just then, I'd have gone off next day to the +diggins with Will Davis,—not the sort of fellow you'd like, mother,—and +goodness knows where I'd have turned up next. + + "I ain't going to the diggins now, though. Ned's been at me about you, +till he's brought me round. His ship's a-starting for home again next +week, and I've promised to come aboard and work my passage. And the +jolly part of the matter is that it's one of the Messrs. Dundrearys', +and it'll come straight to Alyn. So mind you keep a look-out, mother, +for the 'Flying Albatross'—'tis a wonderful slow and dirty-looking sort +of albatross, too—for your boy 'll be aboard. And if you don't want to +have me, you've only to say so in a word, and I'll be off to Australia +again a deal quicker than I come home. So no more now, mother,— + + "From your affectionate son, + + "NEILL HARDWICKE." + +"Thank you, Miss Mona," were Madge's first words, and then she added +softly,—"He's coming." + +"Ay, he's coming home to you again, Madge," said Nat Tyrrell. "You'd +ought to feel a deal of thankfulness." + +"He's coming," repeated Madge. "And I'll see him again. He's coming +home to me." + +She put down the letter, and began arranging the few things which lay +scattered on the table, as if making tidy for her boy's arrival. The +quick restless movements were unlike Madge's usual composure, and the +shaking hands and trembling lips showed that the very intensity of joy +had thrown her off her balance. + +Nat Tyrrell looked at her in perplexity, and opened his lips to speak +again, but he thought better of it, in consideration of Mr. Prior's +presence, and wisely went into the garden. + +"Neill coming! Don't it seem strange now?" said Madge, approaching the +table. + +Mr. Prior sat there waiting in silence for the right moment. He leant a +little forward now, and simply said:— + +"Mrs. Hardwicke, shall we thank God together?" + +Madge knelt down instantly. The words following were few in number, but +Madge was weeping unrestrainedly before three sentences had passed his +lips, sobbing an inarticulate response to the fervent thanks he offered +in her name. And when, after a brief pause, they rose, she had her own +calm face again. + +"Thank you, sir, it's just what I wanted," she whispered. + +He said good-bye, and shook hands with her kindly. Then offering his +arm to Mona, he went out of the cottage. + +"She will be better alone now," was his remark in the garden. "Ah, +Tyrrell has gone, I see." + +"I am so glad you were there," said Mona. "That man did not understand +her in the least. Poor Madge! How happy she is!" + +"She is a woman of faith," said Mr. Prior, holding open the little +gate for Mona to pass. "I am glad to have made her acquaintance more +thoroughly." + +"Then you have been to see her before," said Mona. + +"Yes,—and heard her history at least half-a-dozen times. The good folks +of Alyn are extremely communicative. What a pretty view this is, Miss +Clyde! The outline of that headland is particularly striking." + +"You think, then, that Neill is coming home in answer to her prayer," +said Mona, as he paused at the edge of the cliff, with evident +enjoyment of the scene. + +"'If ye have faith as a grain of mustard-seed—'" he answered. "But +Neill has not come home yet. Don't hang your faith on one particular +answer to one particular prayer, or it may perchance come to shipwreck. +God does 'not' always see it right to grant His children's desires. You +must look upon the matter as a whole." + +Mona's sigh was so low that he must have had a quick ear to hear it. +"People sometimes do that," he said, after a pause. "They stake all +their hope and trust on one single prayer, setting their whole heart +upon the answer. And if God wills to deny that especial wish, away +goes all their faith, and nothing remains but a tangle of gloomy +doubt—doubts of His love, and doubts of His power, and doubts as to the +use of prayer. What if a child tested his earthly father's affection +and resources in that fashion?" + +What in the world had made him stumble on the very subject, of all +others, most suited to her present frame of mind? Mona wondered not a +little how it had come about, forgetting that he must have been well +acquainted with the views and character of the man with whom the course +of her life was now thrown. And she did not know how compassionately +he had often thought of the poor young girl, whose acquaintance he +had first made in such a singular manner, nor how he dreaded for her +the meshes into which he too well knew she might be drawn, nor how he +desired to rescue her. Neither was she aware of the keen intuition, by +means of which he had already, perhaps almost unconsciously divined +certain facts concerning the bias of her mind. + +If he had not known it before, her startled look up, as he spoke of +doubts, would have shown him that he was on the right tack. + +"I heard of a good piece of advice once given on that subject, by +the bye," he said, disentangling one spray of bramble from another +with busy fingers. "A man complained to his friend of troublesome +questionings on the subject of religion, and asked what he should +do with them. The answer was, 'Put them aside for awhile. If they +are worth anything, they will keep, and you can give them fuller +consideration at some future time. If not, they will die a natural +death. Put them aside for the present, and take your Bible, and go and +read to dying men in the hospital about their Saviour.'" + +"Was that the best plan?" asked Mona. + +"That was one plan," he said, smiling. "Another is to meet and conquer +them boldly—only, don't attempt it in your own strength. You will not +get through the battle without some such temptations. Don't be afraid +of them when they come, but meet the tempter bravely, and cling fast to +your Lord through all." + +"But clinging is faith," said Mona wonderingly. "How can there be faith +and doubting together?" + +"Did you never read a certain prayer, 'Lord, I believe, help Thou mine +unbelief.' You may doubt with the head, and yet believe with the heart. +Look here, Miss Clyde." He went a step nearer to the cliff as he spoke, +putting aside the bramble-bushes. "Suppose you were to slip over this +cliff, and fall down to that ledge below. Do you see it?" He held her +hand firmly, while she leant forward to peep over, half shuddering as +she did so. "How should I save you?" + +"I should think you would let down a rope." + +"True—or I might prefer to come down with it myself, if there were any +one else to hold it above. But the simple rope let down by myself for +you to grasp, is enough for my illustration. Now how much of faith +would be needful on your part to ensure your safety?" + +"Of faith?" said Mona. + +"Yes, faith in the strength of the rope, and in my power and good-will +to draw you up." + +"Why, I don't see that faith would have much to do with it, so long as +I held tight to the rope, Mr. Prior." + +"Would you hold tight, if you were convinced that you could not be +saved in that manner?" + +She understood, and shook her head. + +"There are three lines of conduct between which you might choose. In +the first place, you might feel absolute faith in the strength of the +rope and in me, and hold to it with cheerful unquestioning firmness. +Then you would be safe. In the second place, you might be troubled with +a great many doubts and speculations, as to my possible carelessness or +indifference, and as to any possible weakness in the rope itself; and +while tying it round you, and letting yourself be drawn up, you might +suffer from much giddiness and fear and trembling. But then again, you +would be safe—not one iota less safe than in the first instance, though +far less happy. In the third place, you might place no confidence +whatever in the offered means of escape, and insist obstinately on +trying to climb up the cliff without its aid. And in that case, you +would soon be dashed to pieces on the rocks below." + +"I think I see what you mean," she said. + +"You must 'lay hold on eternal life,' and that 'laying hold,' as you +truly said, is or implies faith. But there may be faith with assurance, +or faith without assurance. And there may be doubts with faith, or +doubts without faith. Your head-doubts will make no difference as to +your safety, so long as your heart clings by faith to the Saviour, +though they may and will make much difference as to your peace." + +Mona wondered a little whether the pronoun were used in a general or +personal sense. It was impossible to tell from his manner. + +"That is to say, they don't affect your safety, just so long as they +do not cause you to loosen your hold on the rope," Mr. Prior added. +And his next move was to hold out a spray of fine blackberries, with a +pleasant,—"You don't despise country wild-fruit, do you?" + +"O no, I like it very much, thank you." + +"When are you coming to make Mrs. Prior's acquaintance? She is a +prisoner to her sofa, or you would have seen her before now." + +"I should like to call some day," said Mona shyly. + +"Come, and make friends with my little boy too—that is, if you are fond +of children." + +And they chatted so cheerfully while going down the hill, that +Mona, when she looked back to their conversation afterwards, almost +reproached herself for unseemly brightness so soon after her mother's +death. But she was glad she had seen Mr. Prior, and glad he had +talked to her thus. Her troubles were not indeed cleared away, yet +on one point she had gained a ray of daylight through the mist. She +was no longer tormented by the dread that because doubts assailed +her, all faith on her part must needs have perished; or that because +questionings rose thickly, she must not dare to pray. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XI. + +AWAITING THE MASTER'S WILL. + +"IT'S going to be a tremendous gale to-night, or I'm no +weather-prophet," said the doctor. + +He had just stepped inside the house one dark wintry afternoon, and the +wind, rushing in after him, flung Mona's dress fantastically to and +fro, as she stood there,—besides threatening to put a speedy end to all +light from the gas-burner. Mr. Chetwynd succeeded in shutting the door, +after a short but severe struggle, and began divesting himself of his +wraps. + +"I have been listening to the wind for the last hour," said Mona, +helping him to disentangle one arm from a rather tight coat-sleeve. +"Isn't it dreadfully boisterous, uncle?" + +"It carried away all my breath, my dear, and I have pretty powerful +lungs too. It would sweep you off bodily, I suspect. Whew!—It's cold. +My hands have nearly disappeared, so far as sensation is concerned. I +hope nobody is going to be taken ill to-night. It's the sort of weather +to make a man prefer his own fireside." + +"I have built up a fine large fire," said Mona, retreating before him +into the drawing-room. "Don't you call that a splendid glow? What a +gust! It seems as if it would shake the house down." + +"The house was built to withstand a considerable amount of shaking, +fortunately for us at the present moment," said the doctor, expanding +himself before the blaze with an air of enjoyment. "Thank you, my +dear,—you know how to make a man's home comfortable, I see. Better in +here than out on the sea to-night." + +"Ah, I was thinking about the poor sailors." + +"I went to see Mrs. Blayney, an hour ago," said Mr. Chetwynd. "Found +her in a great state of anxiety, poor thing, and no wonder. It seems a +fast steamer has just come in, which sighted the 'Flying Albatross' a +few hours back, and it is expected to arrive to-morrow morning." + +"The 'Flying Albatross!' What—the ship which is bringing Neill +Hardwicke home?" + +The doctor nodded. "Couldn't be a worse night for a ship to be near +this coast. I only hope they will have the sense to put out to sea +again before it is too late." + +"O poor Madge! What will she do?" exclaimed Mona pityingly. "O uncle, I +wish I were with her." + +"My dear, you might as well try to fly as to walk up the hill in this +wind. In fact you would be much more likely to fly than to walk,—after +a certain fashion!" + +"I can't think what she will do all night." + +"Stay quietly in her cottage, and go to bed, like a sensible woman. She +won't be half so excited as Mrs. Blayney." + +"You have not seen Madge, have you?" + +"Not I. I had had enough of fighting with the elements by the time I +reached my own door. Just hear that howl round the house now! It sounds +as if all the furies were set loose together." + +"And Madge has nobody to speak to—nobody to cheer her," said Mona, half +to herself, as she knelt before the fire. + +"I declare, I always thought Madge was a pretty good friend of mine," +said the doctor with a half-injured air, settling himself comfortably +in his arm-chair, "but you seem to have run ahead of me. What makes you +take to her?" + +"What made you, uncle?" + +"Very discreet on your part. Why, simply and solely because I could not +help it." + +"I suppose it is the same with me. But do you know, I have often +wondered where she got that pleasant manner of hers, so quiet and +self-possessed. And I have found out now. She used to be head-nurse in +Sir Arthur Bolton's family—in that great house, you know, standing in a +park, which you showed me one day when you took me such a long drive." + +"Ay, I know," said Mr. Chetwynd. + +"Madge told me she was nursery-maid there from the time she was +fifteen, and had risen to be under-nurse, and lastly head-nurse for +two years, when she married Ned Hardwicke. And she says she had only +been married three months when she first saw you. She was twenty-five +then, so she had been ten years in the house, and that explains how she +gained her soft nice sort of manner—just the manner of a very superior +upper servant in a good family. Did you know that Sir Arthur Bolton +settled a pension on her, when her husband was killed?" + +"I have heard the fact, though I believe I had forgotten it. I knew she +had a little income of some sort, and that her cottage was her own." + +"I had a talk with her only yesterday," said Mona. "And she was so +happy about Neill's coming home—looking forward so brightly. Poor +Madge! I wonder what she is doing to-night?" + +[Illustration: If Mona could have taken a glance into the little +cottage, she would have seen Madge Hardwicke steadily engaged in +washing up her blue cups and saucers.] + +Not sitting down to cry, or fluttering about in restless anxiety, as +many might have done under like circumstances. If Mona could have +taken a glance up the stormy hill-side, and into the little cottage at +that moment, she would have seen Madge Hardwicke steadily engaged in +washing up the blue cups and saucers, used for her early tea. Scarcely +two hours had elapsed since the news first reached her of the expected +arrival of the "Flying Albatross" next morning. But beyond a red spot +on either cheek, and the least possible shaking of her hands, causing +an occasional and unwonted rattling of the plates, as she rinsed and +dried them, Madge looked very calm. Much more calm than little Nannie, +who was lying wrapped up on two chairs and on numerous pillows before +the fire, watching her friend's face, and listening to the gale with +a very anxious and excited countenance. Many weeks had gone by since +Nannie first fell beneath the weight of her father's hand, but it was +not many days since she had quitted her bed, and she had not yet set +foot to the ground. + +If the wind sounded boisterous down at the doctor's house, it claimed +fuller attention here. The little cottage fairly shook like a ship from +"stem to stern," and the fierce rattling of every pane of glass made +Nannie ask fearfully,— + +"Madge, don't you think the windows 'll come to smash?" + +"Maybe not," said Madge quietly, putting away the last blue saucer. +And then she dried her hands, and hung up the cloth, and went to take +a look through that same little frail transparent shield,—all that was +interposed between her and the wild blast outside. + +"It's an awful night, ain't it?" said Nannie, shivering beside even +those bright flames. "Madge, I don't seem as if I'd like to go to bed. +I think I'll be afraid." + +"You're just as safe in bed as by the fireside, Nannie," said Madge, +coming away again. For beyond the low clouds, scurrying wildly past, +there was nothing to be seen. Even they were but dimly visible in the +blackness of darkness outside. + +And where was the "Flying Albatross?" And where was Neill? How +joyfully would Madge at that moment have yielded her own life, if +she might thereby have secured the life of her boy! But she could do +nothing—nothing except wait. She might not even go out in the fierce +wind, and watch the waters with her own eyes, as she longed to do. +Little Nannie could not be left alone in her helplessness. + +"Madge, are you dreadful frightened about Neill?" asked the child, with +bated breath. "Are you thinking a deal about him this evening?" + +Was she thinking of anything else? It seemed to Madge that her whole +being was bound up in that of her boy, and that if her body were +sheltered in the little cottage, her spirit was away with him, wherever +he might be, over the mad wild waters. But she only said, "Yes, I'm +looking to see him safe in the morning, if 'tis God's will, Nannie." + +"Do you think God will take care of him, and bring him home all right?" +asked Nannie. + +"I'm hoping it," said Madge. + +And then she took out her work-basket, and sat down to sew. But to keep +that up long was beyond the strength of even her resolute will. She put +the unfinished seam aside, at the close of half-an-hour, and going to +the window, stood gazing out again into the darkness. + +Nannie lay looking, not at the window, but at Madge. She had a sort +of notion that it was best to keep silence, and for a while, though +her lips sometimes moved with a barely-checked exclamation, she did +not break her childish determination to be still. But the sight of +that absolutely motionless figure became at length more than she could +endure, and the little voice said softly,— + +"Madge!" + +No answer came. Perhaps the word was lost in the angry gust which swept +at that moment over the hill. + +"Madge, I'm ever so frightened. I wish you'd speak." + +Madge turned from the window, and came to the table, with a pale face, +and an unwonted look of dreaminess in her eyes. + +"I'm ready, Nannie," was all she said. + +"I'm only frightened," pleaded Nannie. "'Cause the wind does make such +a noise; and if it was to blow away the cottage, we'd maybe get hurt, +wouldn't we, Madge?" + +"I think we'll be taken care of," said Madge, who had no heart to spare +for any danger to self, though she spoke soothingly for the child's +sake. + +"And don't you think Neill will be took care of too, and brought back +safe?" + +"Maybe," said Madge, resting one hand on the table. "I've been trying, +and I can't ask it, though." + +"Ain't you a-going to pray he may be safe?" asked Nannie wonderingly. + +Madge shook her head slightly. + +"Not ask?" repeated Nannie. "Why, Madge, if you don't make haste, it'll +maybe get too late, and the ship 'll be gone down under the waves. I +wouldn't wait a minute, if I was you," pleaded the child. + +"It's never too late for the Lord," said Madge calmly. "He answers +oftentimes afore we pray. I've put into His hands to do just as seemeth +best to Him, and I've prayed for my Neill to be safe for ever and ever. +I can't do more." + +"Not do more? Why, Madge, what are ye thinking of?" demanded Nannie +passionately. "So often as you've asked for little things, and got 'em +too, and now you won't ask to have Neill brought home!" + +"Ay, for my Master's oft spoken to my heart afore now, Nannie, and +said, 'Ask what ye will, Madge,'" was the answer, in monotonous +half-absent tones, as if addressed rather to herself than to the child. +"But He don't say it to-night; leastways, I don't hear His voice. I +can't pray till He give me strength; and He don't give me strength to +do more than just lie in His arms, and wait to see His will." + +"Madge, do you think it's 'cause the ship won't get safe to shore?" +asked Nannie, with heaving breath. + +"I don't think nothing about that," said Madge, speaking softly and +slowly still. "I only know He holds 'the waters in the hollow of +His Hand,' and Neill's there too—Neill's in His Hand—safe in His +keeping—for I've put him there, and I wouldn't dare to take him out +into my own again. I've tried and wanted to pray to have Neill back, +but I can't—seems like as if 'He' was holding me back from it. Maybe +I'm mistaking; only one thing I'm sure of, and that is, I durstn't +fight for my own way. 'They' did, and they had it, and the Lord +'sent leanness into their souls.' Maybe He'd take the shining of His +countenance from me." + +"Wouldn't you bear that awhile, if only Neill might come to ye?" asked +Nannie. + +"I'd sooner have my Lord's smile than aught on earth beside." + +But Madge's own sweet smile was tremulous. And when she had spoken, she +knelt down suddenly, with her hands against the oaken table and her +face bowed upon them. Was she praying for Neill's return at last?—Or +only resting on the Mighty Arm which sustained her, and calmly "waiting +to see her Master's will?" + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XII. + +THE "FLYING ALBATROSS." + +THE tardy dawn of a winter's morning had begun to break, when there +came a hurried knocking at Madge Hardwicke's door. She had not removed +her dress, or extinguished her candle, through all the long hours of +that stormy night, and now she came and stood outside, with the gusty +breeze blowing about her gown, and her pale face wearing the look of +one who had passed through no common vigil. + +Her early visitors were four in number. Madge glanced from one to the +other, then singled out the doctor, as he stood with the slight cloaked +figure of Mona Clyde holding fast to his arm. + +"Yes, sir," she said. + +"They have sighted the 'Flying Albatross,' Madge." + +She knew from his tone that it was not good tidings which he had come +to bring. + +"They've seen it," she said. "Yes, sir." + +"Ask Tyrrell. He brought me the news." + +She turned to Nat mutely. "She's bearin' down right upon the rocks +below the Point, Madge," he said huskily. + +"Is she in the current yet?" asked Madge. + +"'Tis hard to say of a certain in this light, but she's dismasted, and +seems pretty nigh disabled. If you've a wish to come down in the town, +Madge, my wife 'll stay with little Nan." + +"Thank you. It's good of you both to think of me," said Madge. "I'll +get my hood." + +Quickly, but not hurriedly, she tied it on, and came outside again. + +Mona took hold of her for a moment as they were starting. "Madge, don't +be too anxious; don't give up hope," she said softly. + +"Neill's in better hands than mine, Miss Mona," was the response. + +Steadily and swiftly she led the way down the steep hill-side, +faltering not for one instant. At another time, she would have gone +modestly behind the doctor, but now all minor considerations were lost +in her overwhelming desire to reach the shore. The force of the wind, +as it swept past in furious gusts, made the doctor stagger, and caused +even Nat Tyrrell to pant for breath, but Madge seemed proof against +the strongest blast, and pressed ever onwards, with scarcely quickened +breathing, and never a hesitating footstep. + +They were down on the shore at last, in the little shingle cove, with +sailors standing about in groups, and spectators scattered amongst +them. Away to the left rose the smooth white cliff, on the summit of +which Madge Hardwicke's little cottage might be seen, standing dimly +out against the sky. Away to the right stretched the dark outline of +Lion Point, rearing its massive head in rock-like repose amidst the +tumult of the elements. And to left and right and front lay the wide +reach of stormy sea, lashed into a seething mass of dark heaving water +and snowy foam. + +Water, water everywhere. It seemed to Madge that the whole world was +made of water that morning. The gale had spent the worst of its fury, +and the wind, in all its strength, was but a breeze compared with what +had been. But it looked as if nothing ever would or ever could calm +down that great waste of watery hills, perpetually rising and falling, +curling their crested summits in giant-play, chasing each other to +the shore in fierce frolic, and breaking there with a never-ceasing +roar, made up of crash after crash in unbroken succession. There was +a clear sky overhead, above all this tumult, and one bright star, +growing dim in the dawning light, shone placidly through the last bit +of transparent cloud remaining. + +"She's there," Madge was the first to exclaim, as her quick eye caught +the faint outline of the dismasted ship, floating, to all appearance +helplessly, amid those gigantic waves. One moment uplifted against the +horizon, the next lost absolutely to view, yet again emerging from the +trough to mount another hill, only to sink deep into another valley. No +wonder all eyes were riveted. + +"They've hoisted signals of distress," said Nat Tyrrell. "And they +don't know that nothing can be done." + +"Nothing!" repeated Madge, looking up to scan with a flashing glance +the faces around. "What are all of you men going to stand safe here, +and see your follow-creatures perishing right afore your eyes?" + +"You're quick to blame us, Mrs. Hardwicke," rejoined a sailor. "But +what if we've tried an' failed? No boat but a life-boat could live in +such a sea." + +"And you'll give up with one try?" asked Madge. "You'll leave them to +certain death, when another try might save them?" + +"'Tain't certain, Madge," said Nat Tyrrell, coming up. "Old Robin knows +more than most men, and he says now the tide's turnin', they'll have a +chance—though 'tis the barest chance—a chance of just weathering the +Point. They're just so far out as for that, he says." + +"And if they don't?" demanded Madge. + +"Not a man 'll reach the shore alive," spoke a voice from among the +throng. + +"And ye'll give up helping them with 'one' try," reiterated Madge, a +touch of scorn in her tone. "Three, did you say it was? Well, I'm glad +for your sakes 'tis more than one. But will you make a fourth? The +tide's going down and launching 'll be easier now. I'll come in the +boat myself, men, and take an oar. Will you all hold back where a woman +would go?" + +"If the ship don't weather the point, Mrs. Hardwicke, we'll try a +fourth, an' a fifth, an' a tenth, an' a twelfth time," the same voice +said. "But 'tis useless danger trying, till we're sure our help's +needed. They're puttin' up a jury-mast and sail now. We'll soon see +what's to come." + +Madge saw the sense of the words, for not even in sorrow and suspense +was she unreasonable. She said no more, but sat down to wait, with Mona +leaning on her uncle's arm close by. Other women were on the shore, +fellow-sufferers with Madge, and some were sobbing and wringing their +hands, and some were calling aloud hysterically in their fear and +agony, for many Alyn sailors were aboard. It was terrible to look on in +safety and helplessness,—to see loved ones borne slowly slowly onwards +to almost certain death. + +But Madge neither wept nor cried out. She only sat upon a low rock, +with her hands folded together on her knee, and her eyes fixed over +upon that dark hull as it rose and sank by turns. And minutes passed +by, one after another, and no one dared address words of cheering to +Madge. No one dared speak to her at all. Even Mona felt that such +suspense as hers must be borne alone in the depths of her strong +woman-nature. It was too soon yet to offer the comfort which might +by-and-by be needed, and too soon yet to speak of hope. + +But the ship drew slowly nearer and nearer, and the dawning light grew +clearer and clearer, and a gleam of fluttering brightness began to +illumine the anxious faces around. Whispers here and there passed from +one to another, as to a growing probability of escape. And all at once +Madge herself stood upright, and held up both hands, clasping them +tightly over her head, and cried in clear tones, which reached the ears +of all present,— + +"They're safe! Men, they're safe! They have passed the rocks." + +[Illustration: "They're safe! Men, they're safe! They have passed the +rocks," she cried.] + +Almost before the words had crossed her lips, a cry was heard: "They're +saved! They're saved!" And such a cheer burst from the assembled +crowd that the roar of wind and waters grew faint for an instant by +comparison. + +Safe at last! Or the danger was so far lessened, that, unless the +ship were more disabled than appeared to be the case, there was small +further cause for anxiety. She rolled indeed heavily, and made but +tardy advance, seeming, as one man with a telescope observed, to be +"pretty nigh water-logged." But though she advanced slowly, she did +advance. And gradually hope brightened into confidence, and confidence +into certainty. + +Madge Hardwicke's momentary excitement had again disappeared, and +calmly as before, she waited; only the red glow in her cheeks and the +sparkle in her eyes told that less of composure lay beneath. Neill was +coming at last! Her own Neill! After all these years of separation. +No wonder that the mother's heart should beat, and her eyes should +glisten, with a joy so intense as to be almost pain. + +The sun had risen, and was shedding his beams over the unquiet sea, and +the scarcely less unquiet assemblage of Alyn folks upon the shore, when +the half-disabled ship at length reached the pier. For Alyn harbour lay +to the west of Lion Point; and having failed through stress of weather +to enter the harbour, nothing remained to the "Flying Albatross" but to +"make" the pier running out from the shingle cove, which had, in fact, +been built for nothing else but such emergencies. + +Madge remained near the entrance of the pier, hearing and seeing +nothing that went on around her. She had no eyes or ears for aught +but the coming figure of Neill, which yet did not come! Nat Tyrrell +had gone to find and bring him to her, and Nat Tyrrell's approach was +perhaps the only one, beside that of Neill, which would have made any +impression on her senses. But she heard his step in a moment, though +not looking in that direction, and she turned her eyes quickly to his, +shining with happy expectation. + +"Well?" she said. "And have you seen my boy? And is he coming to me +soon?" + +"I've seen the captain and Ned Blayney, Madge." + +"And Neill?" said Madge. "Will they let me go to him, Nat?" + +"I'm very sorry, Madge," faltered Nat. + +And there he stopped. But an exclamation of sorrow escaped Mona's lips, +and Madge Hardwicke turned instantly pale and cold and gray. She said +nothing, but looked steadily at him. + +"I'm ever so sorry for you," repeated Nat; "but—fact is, Madge, Neill +hasn't come at all." + +"Neill not come!" + +"No. He didn't ever show himself again afore the ship sailed, and Ned +Blayney don't know nothing of why, nor what has become of him." + +One cry of deep heart-agony broke from Madge, and no more. + +Mona would have taken her hand in pitying sympathy, but it was drawn +away, as if any outside touch were pain too keen to be endured. She +could hardly bear the doctor's face of compassion. For the moment she +felt wild, and dark thoughts of fierce rebellion crept into Madge +Hardwicke's soul, against the Hand which had directed this heavy blow. + +What was it that kept her from uttering her thoughts? What was it that +made her hide her feelings? Why did she not look up at Mr. Chetwynd—as +she "could" have done, if her own strength had been all that remained +to her at that moment—and speak bitter faithless words concerning +prayer and its working? Why not? Why, but because Madge was one of +those who are "kept by the power of God,"—one whose constant desire was +for His glory, and who in this instant of dire temptation was therefore +not permitted to fail. + +"I am very sorry for you, Madge," were the first words that reached her +ears, in the doctor's voice. + +She stood upright, and looked at him. "Thank you, sir, I know you are. +It's hard to bear, but God can bring him back yet, if 'tis His will. +I'll have to wait awhile longer. Good-bye, Miss Mona. I think I'd +sooner go home alone, please." + +They held back, one and all, with respectful pity. Every one knew +Madge, and no one knew without loving her. But she saw nothing of any +of them now. The earth and sky and sea had all changed into one silent +shield of utter blackness. Neil had not come! + +It seemed to Madge that all hope and joy in life had died out for +evermore. She did not look to see him now again on earth. + +Steadily and rapidly she pressed on, away from the beach, through the +town, and up the steep hill-side. And she never slackened a moment for +weariness or want of breath, until the cottage-door was reached. + +Mrs. Tyrrell came out to meet her with a smile of congratulation, but +her cheerful look turned to one of dismay at the sight of Madge's face. + +"Why, Mrs. Hardwicke—you don't mean now!" she ejaculated. "They telled +me the ship was safe." + +"Neill's not come," said Madge quietly. "Thank you for staying with the +child, Mrs. Tyrrell. I think I'd best be alone now, please." + +"Sure, an' it 'is' a disappointment. And ye won't let me stay awhile, +and help to cheer ye up?" added the good woman coaxingly. + +As if any puny words of hers could touch the passionate aching of the +poor mother's heart. She saw in a moment that it would not do, and with +a brief good-bye, she went off, not even stepping inside the door again. + +Madge entered instead, closed it after her, took off her hood, and sat +down. + +"Is Neill come?" asked little Nannie's voice. + +Madge looked vacantly across, drawing deep breaths, as if of oppression. + +"I didn't dishonour Him," she muttered. "Thank Him I didn't—for I'd a +mind. And the doctor would never have forgot. I didn't say what I felt, +but I did feel it." + +"Madge, where's Neill?" asked Nannie. + +"God knows," said Madge calmly. "He's not brought Neill home to me, +Nannie." + +Nannie stared with wide-open eyes. "Ain't Neill come, Madge?" + +"No," said Madge. "The ship's all right, Nannie, but Neill ain't +aboard. Don't talk to me awhile,—please." + +She did not move, but sat with her head bent down wearily, and +no particular feeling of any kind in her mind, beyond a sense of +deep desolation. She did not think she should ever care to look up +again,—ever care to pass cheerily through life as hitherto; and it was +with a sensation of restless impatience, that she heard the door-latch +lifted, and raised her head to look round. + +"I wish you'd please leave me. I don't want—" Madge stopped, for it was +Mr. Prior. + +"May I come in?" he asked. + +And she rose and gave him a chair, resuming her own immediately, as if +hardly conscious of what she did. + +He sat down, after a kind word to little Nannie, whose face gave him a +hearty welcome, and said simply,— + +"Madge, I was with you when your good news came, and rejoiced with you. +Will you let me sorrow with you now?" + +She put up her hand, to still the quivering of her lips. "It's hard, +sir,—you don't know how hard." + +"Madge is dreadful disappointed, 'cause Neill ain't come home after +all," said Nannie, thinking Mr. Prior needed information on the +subject. "She wants a deal of comfort." + +Nannie evidently considered Mr. Prior well able to give the same. He +looked back at the child with a grave smile. + +"Little Nannie, Madge has a better Comforter than you or I, only +perhaps she has hardly had time yet to listen to His gentle Voice." + +"No," said Nannie. "He'll whisper to her down in her heart, won't He?" + +"If Madge will listen," said Mr. Prior. + +Madge lifted her gray face to his. "'Tis all true, sir, and my Lord has +sent His Comforter many a time afore to me, but I don't seem to hear +nor feel nothing now." + +"'I will pray the Father, and He shall give you another Comforter, that +He may abide with you for ever,'" said Mr. Prior. "He doesn't come and +go, Madge." + +"No, sir; only I can't see nor hear," said Madge patiently. And then, +in a mechanical sort of way, she added, "I'll hear reading if you like, +sir, but I don't seem to feel it'll do me good." + +"Not reading to-day, I think, Madge. Perhaps to-morrow instead. I will +only give you one little verse now,—'As one whom his mother comforteth, +so will I comfort you.'" + +"Thank you, sir. I'd ought to feel right; I know I ought," said poor +Madge despairingly. "But 'tis hard to bear. I've prayed and waited so +long, and it did seem as if Neill was coming at last. And now—" + +"And now God has denied you, or perhaps has put off for awhile granting +your request. Madge—" Mr. Prior went on—"I think there is something +here not quite as it should be. Have you been demanding as a right from +God that which you had no right to demand?" + +"No, sir. I've never put up a prayer for Neil to come back, without +saying, 'If it be Thy will.'" + +"Nor ever cherished, down in some secret corner of your heart, the +feeling that in return for all your loving faith in God, He surely must +and 'ought' to grant your request? Madge, what do you think?" he asked +softly. + +He had touched the right chord now,—had struck to the root of the +matter. Madge sat for a moment like one awakened from a dream, and then +bursting into tears, sobbed out, "It's true, and I didn't think it. I +didn't think I'd so much of wilfulness unconquered in me yet. I don't +deserve one bit better than my Lord's sent me—not one bit." + +And after that burst of weeping and contrite sorrow, Madge's heart +was no longer closed, in its aching pain, to the sweet voice of the +Heavenly Comforter. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XIII. + +THE DOCTOR'S PROHIBITION. + +THE storm of that night ceased, as other storms have done; but the +turmoil of the waters was not so easily quelled, and massive breakers +swelled and rolled and broke with thundering crashes on the shore, +through many an hour after. There is always for a while a ground-swell +remaining. + +The brief storm in Madge Hardwicke's life was over, and its usual calm +had set in. But the sense of disappointment, and the renewal of the old +blank, and the fluttering of spirits, and the wakened restlessness of +desire, were not to be easily stilled. A heavy ground-swell remained +behind, and Madge had many a battle to fight in the weeks succeeding, +which showed not at all to the outer world. + +And little Nannie had passed through her small storm,—only it was not +small to her feeble strength,—and had come through it. She was up and +about again, much sooner than the doctor had expected to see her. A +fragile creature she looked, with her pale face, and her long black +hair, and her pleading eyes and gentle manner. There had grown to be +something about Nannie of late very winning to all the world, except +her own father, for whose love Nannie would have gladly given away all +the rest. But when she went back to his cottage, as she persistently +begged to do from the moment she set foot to the ground, he gave her +nothing of a welcome. And Nannie, in her dread of being taken away, +or of drawing punishment upon him, evaded all inquiries respecting +his treatment of her. Amos Ackman had grown more cautious before +spectators, and Nannie kept steady silence as to kicks and blows behind +the scenes. But Nannie too had her ground-swell, and that no light one. + +And Mona had passed through the worst of "her" storm. Through a very +tempest of doubts and questionings, beneath which she had for a while +almost succumbed, while her sky above had been wild and black, and the +angry gale had whistled past with a sound which struck chilly to her +very heart. The autumn and early winter months of that year were dark +days to poor Mona Clyde, bereft at one blow of all joy in this world, +and almost all hope in the next. For a while, it had seemed to her +that all her faith was gone. And though gleams of light had been sent +now and then, through the dense mists which had gathered around, yet +the mists were long in dispersing. So Mona also had her ground-swell +remaining. + +January, February, March, and April were made up of a succession of +dismal days. Dull warmth and cloudy cold—damp chilliness and dry +east winds,—rain and snow,—fog and sleet,—hail and mist,—alternated +persistently; and the only thing which seemed not to take a share in +these recurring changes was sunshine. People tried to get up jokes upon +the danger of forgetting the colour of the sun, or even of doubting +the fact of his existence altogether, beyond the low gray mantle which +perpetually enveloped this lower earth. Even Madge Hardwicke's equable +spirits felt the depressing influence of the weather; and no doubt the +sum-total of ill tempers in Alyn much exceeded the average. + +Then came the sweet month of May, and upon the very first day a change +took place; and spring, in all its luxuriant beauty, burst upon the +Alyn world. To Mona it was like a repetition of the tunnel's darkness, +and the light beyond, with the same sweet meaning. Never had she known +so sudden and joyous a burst of spring, just because never had she +known so dreary a winter preceding—dreary in more senses than one. + +It was upon one of the fairest of warm May evenings that the doctor's +chaise stood before his door, and the doctor himself stood upon his +doorstep, pulling on a pair of gloves, for he had just received an +unexpected summons to a distance, at the close of his daily round. +He accomplished the business deliberately—the call in question not +being especially urgent, though too important to leave till next +morning,—buttoned each glove with unnecessary care, and finally took +his seat. Just as he had gathered up the reins, Mona came along the +path. + +"Hallo! My dear, where are you going now?" + +"Up the hill to see Madge Hardwicke, uncle." + +"Where have you been?" + +"Only to look up one of my Sunday scholars who was absent last Sunday; +but he is ill, poor little fellow, so it was not his fault." + +"Which?" + +"Uncle, you won't know his name—Tommy Talbot." + +"Not one of the Talbots in Wall's Alley?" + +"Yes, he lives there." + +The doctor's hand gave an involuntary jerk to the reins, which made the +horse start forward. He pulled in again. + +"If your Sunday-school work takes you to such places as that, you had +better give it up altogether." + +"Uncle, I never meet with rudeness. The people are as respectful as +possible." + +"I dare say! I dare say!" repeated the doctor impatiently. "You don't +go there again without my leave." + +"But, uncle—," and Mona looked rather rebellious. + +"You don't," said Mr. Chetwynd decisively. + +"Tommy will expect me to-morrow." + +"Let him! How often have you been, pray?" + +"This is the first time since Sunday. Once last week I went, not +because Tommy was ill, but only he was a new pupil the Sunday before, +and I always go to see them in their homes. He is the first I ever had +from that alley." + +"Last week—what day?" + +"Friday. Tommy was so pleased when I came in. And he took me into the +next room to see a poor little playfellow of his who was not well." + +Another sharp jerk at the reins. Mona looked in perplexity at his +knitted brows. + +"You haven't seen 'him' again, then?" + +"No, I was with Tommy all the time this morning. It was very stupid of +me, but I was thinking so much of him that I quite forgot even to ask +after the other child." + +"It is to be the first and last of your visiting there, if you please," +said the doctor. "That alley is a perfect nest of—" + +"Of what?" asked Mona. + +"Wickedness," said Mr. Chetwynd, omitting, for a particular reason, the +word he had intended to use. + +"I don't think, really, that you need fear for me, uncle." + +"Dare say not," muttered Mr. Chetwynd gruffly. "Mind,—no more going +there, Mona. Ha! Here comes Mr. Prior. I'll give him a hint on the +subject some day—can't have you encouraged in that sort of thing." + +"Uncle, indeed it was all my own doing," said Mona eagerly, and then +Mr. Prior came up with a cheerful— + +"Just the person I wanted to see. No, not you, doctor; only please give +leave, before you go, for Mona to take a drive to-morrow afternoon." + +"Anywhere, except to Wall's Alley," said the doctor. + +But he went off with something of a frown, and Mona said in +explanation: "He is rather vexed at my going to see some of my +children—one of them I mean." + +"Not in Wall's Alley?" + +"Yes, little Tommy Talbot." + +"How came you to go there?" he asked, as if involuntarily. + +"Why, Mr. Prior, is it such a dreadful place?" inquired Mona, in +surprise. "It looked very much like any other alley." + +His smile was in the least degree forced. "About the worst in Alyn I +suppose. Don't visit in it again at present,—I will see after Tommy for +you. Are you going indoors now, and shall you be very busy to-morrow?" + +"O no; can I do anything for you, Mr. Prior?" She had felt strangely +weary all day, with a heavy spring-tired sort of feeling, but she +brightened up as she spoke. "I was just going up the hill to see Madge +Hardwicke." + +"The very thing. I am on my way to that poor creature dying in the +cottage beyond the cliff, so our road is the same." + +"One moment, please," and she ran into the hall, coming out again with +a basket full of small bunches of garden flowers. "I am ready now, Mr. +Prior." + +"Those little nosegays look tempting," he said, as they passed into the +road. "Are you disposed for a drive to-morrow, Mona?" + +"Who with?" she asked. + +"All of us. The truth is—" and he laughed slightly—"my sister Rachel +has taken a warm fancy to Madge Hardwicke." + +"I felt sure Miss Prior must like her," said Mona. + +"And having discovered a certain plan of the said Madge's, she can't +rest without adding her quota to the general enjoyment." + +"What the excursion to Bentley Dingle? Madge told me, but I thought it +was to be quite a secret." + +"Rachel found out the secret somehow,—though I confess it is rather a +mystery to me still. I only gather that Madge has a certain treat in +store for certain children, that my sister does not think there will +be buns enough to the fore, that she therefore intends to act carrier +gratis for the occasion, and that I am expected to take my share as +driver. Who are Madge's children, if you can tell me?" + +"A dozen or more poor little things, who run up to her cottage on +Saturday afternoons to read the Bible with her. They are as fond of her +as if she were their mother." + +"I understand. And she plans an excursion for them to the Dingle?" + +"Yes, in a break, and they will make tea there, and eat buns and bread +and butter. The truth is, Madge had a present lately from her old +master, Sir Arthur Bolton, and that I suppose put it into her head." +Mona did not add that she had herself given a liberal contribution +towards expenses, but only said, "I wished so much I could have been +present." + +"Just what Rachel feels. Her plan is to drive over to the Dingle, +without a word to Madge—so don't drop a hint of her intentions this +evening—and to appear suddenly on the spot with a supply of provisions, +after the fashion of a fairy godmother, taking them all by surprise." + +"That will be very nice," said Mona, warmly. "How delighted Madge will +be! Is Mrs. Prior going?" + +"I hope so, and she sends a particular message to say that you are to +have a turn at sitting on the front seat, and taking the reins. My +opinion is not asked about the matter, so I submit, and only hope that +may tempt you, if nothing else does." + +"I don't need any tempting," said Mona, with a smile. "I shall enjoy it +of all things. Why, Madge seems holding quite a levée up on the hill." + +"Giving a lecture," suggested Mr. Prior. "You ladies usurp everything +in these days." + +"Madge would not thank you for calling her a lady. O I remember—Nat +Tyrrell is to drive the break, and Ned Blayney and his mother are going +to help take care of the children. I dare say they are talking over +arrangements—but I don't know who the third man is. Not Amos Ackman at +all events, for I can see him at his own cottage-door." + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XIV. + +GOD'S MYSTERIES. + +"BELIEVE in it? No, I don't," said Nat Tyrrell, with decision. "Nor I +don't see, for my part, how any reasonable being who trust in God's +goodness, can put faith in the notion for one single instant." + +"'Tisn't so very long, Nat, since you were all for setting me to rights +for a crank you said I'd got," Madge remarked quietly, as she sat +knitting on the bench in front of her cottage-door. + +Mrs. Tyrrell, a silent sensible woman, sat beside her, occupied in like +manner. Nannie was down on the ground close to her feet, after the +fashion of a faithful little dog. Nat stood exactly in front, with his +back to the garden-gate; while on one side of him lounged the stalwart +figure of Ned Blayney, who was listening with a good-humoured smile to +the discussion; and on the other stood a small sickly-looking man, Joe +Whilly by name, and cobbler by profession, with a face of such rigid +melancholy, that it was hard to imagine he could ever conjure up a +smile. + +"Seems to me," Madge added, "that the crank's on your side now, Nat." + +"Begging your pardon, but it's nothing of the kind," responded Nat, +with a degree of tartness, for he was by no means so ready as Madge to +admit the possibility of being mistaken. "You and I think alike in a +many things, no doubt, but we don't think alike here, and I dare say we +never shall. I'll never believe salvation ain't freely offered to every +man, woman, and child upon earth, to accept it if they will." + +"Did I say it wasn't, Nat?" Madge began, but she checked herself, for +another voice was saying,— + +"Good evening, Tyrrell. How are you to-day, Mrs. Hardwicke?" And then +after a few words of greeting to each, not omitting little Nannie, Mr. +Prior added, "You seem very much interested about something, all of +you." + +"Just a talk we've got into," responded Madge. "I'm glad you've come, +sir. Will you please to sit down, and Miss Mona too?" + +"What has the talk been about?" asked Mr. Prior, accepting the +offered chair. "It is so pleasant up here that I really think I must +spare a few minutes before going on. But don't let me interrupt your +discussion." + +"We'd scarce got into a discussion yet," said Madge, half-smiling. "Joe +Whilly had given us his mind, and Nat Tyrrell was giving a bit of his." + +"Nat Tyrrell had better give the rest," suggested Mr. Prior. + +"Have out with it, lad," said Ned Blayney encouragingly, as Nat +shuffled about a little. "Parson never lets a fellow off, and he likes +us to tell out our thoughts." + +"Right, Blayney. I wish you to consider me one of yourselves for +half-an-hour. What is it all about, Tyrrell? Let me see if I can help +you in your perplexity." + +"Well, sir, I don't know as I'm much perplexed neither," said Nat +honestly. "I don't pretend to be anything of a born genius,—" Nat did +his best to look modest,—"but I hope I'm equal to the understanding of +this, sir." + +"If you be, you're a deal cleverer than I," muttered Ned Blayney, +rubbing his forehead disconsolately. "Whilly and you atween you has set +all my wits and notions buzzing, like the bees in mother's hive." + +"Let me hear," was all Mr. Prior said. + +Nat had no objection at all to state his views. "Well, sir, 'tis just +this. Whilly he don't hold with me. He goes in downright for the +doctrine of election, sir. Now I don't." + +"Don't go in for it?" + +"No, sir. That's to say, I don't hold it. I've my Bible, sir, and I +reads it night and morning, and I hope I understands what I reads. And +my conclusion as I've come to is this. The doctrine of election is no +Scriptural doctrine at all, sir. For why?" Nat was growing more at his +ease now, and he began laying down the law, with the forefinger of one +hand upon the palm of the other, as he was wont to do when expounding +his own views among his fellow-workmen,—a very different matter, be +it remarked, from expounding Bible-truths, though the two are often +confounded together. + +"For why, sir? Ain't it in the Bible, clear as daylight, that Jesus +Christ died for all men, and that His salvation is freely offered to +all? That's what 'I' hold to, sir. I'll preach and teach the Gospel +with my latest breath, but I'll never be one of those who goes about, +talking of election, and how God has chosen some men from all eternity +to everlasting happiness, and created some only for everlasting misery, +and man to have no choice at all in the matter, and however much he may +wish to be saved, yet, if he isn't elect, he's lost to all eternity. +No, no, I'll never go in for that. I believe salvation is offered to +all, and all may be saved,—only men are so perverse and wrong-headed +that they won't accept salvation, and so the blame is on their own +heads. Why, sir, looking at it in any other light, I'd have to say the +blame is with God, not man." + +"Hush, beware, Tyrrell! You are saying words now, which no living man +may utter and be blameless," said Mr. Prior with much seriousness. + +"Joe Whilly's got hold of quite another side of the question +altogether," remarked Blayney. "As you'll hear, sir. He don't agree +with Tyrrell. He's all t'other way." + +"No, he don't agree with me," said Nat, recovering from the momentary +effect of the rebuke he had received. "He'd never dare offer the free +gift of salvation to any man, but only go tell him he hopes he's one of +the elect, for if he's elect, he'll be saved, and if he isn't, why he's +mighty sorry for him." + +"I didn't put it that way neither," said Joe Whilly. "But I don't deny +there's some truth in Tyrrell's words, sir. I'd tell men, sure enough, +of the Saviour,—but I couldn't in conscience tell 'em to come and be +saved, without reminding them that they hadn't no power to come, unless +they were called." + +"Ay, those are his views," said Tyrrell loftily. "I'm right glad +they're not mine." + +"I'd be sorry to have to settle atween you both," remarked Blayney. +"One thing's certain—one of you's right, and one's wrong. Leastways, +both can't be right, though maybe you be both wrong. And that's all I +knows about the matter." + +"I have a word from the Bible for each of you—for Tyrrell on his +side and Whilly on his," said Mr. Prior. "But first, we must find +a stand-point from which to look upon this matter. It won't do, if +you wish to take a wide view of the country round, to get among some +bushes, where your range of sight is shut in to about six yards." + +Ned Blayney laughed. "No, sir; the mast-head's the place." + +"True; we must climb to the mast-head. And the first step towards +that, is to take good heed that we come to this question in a frank +and simple spirit of inquiry, anxious to find the truth, and ready to +believe whatever the Word of God may state, but not caring to defend +our own views merely for the sake of triumph in argument." + +"I hope I'm not over proud to acknowledge myself mistaken, sir," said +Nat Tyrrell. + +"I hope so too. But now for the mast-head. There are two simple truths +about which you must be perfectly clear, before you can safely venture +to look into any of these questions. You seem to me, Tyrrell, to have +lost sight of one, if not of both." + +"I'm ready to hear, sir," said Tyrrell, more submissively than was his +wont. + +"Then remember this. Whatever you find of doubt and perplexity—whatever +seems to you hard to understand, or impossible to explain,—take care +that you never for a moment lose sight of one grand truth,—'The Lord +is righteous in ALL His ways, and holy in ALL His works.' 'There is no +unrighteousness in Him.' He is 'of purer eyes than to behold evil.' +'There is none holy as the Lord.' 'A God of truth and without iniquity, +just and right is He.' His very 'Name is Holy.' Take hold of that +truth, and never let it go." + +"Yes, sir," Tyrrell assented. + +"Secondly, remember that as God is absolutely holy, so man is +absolutely sinful. Man, as man, can put forth no shadow of a claim upon +the mercy of God. The whole of mankind lies deep down in the very dust +beneath His feet, justly condemned to eternal death. Salvation, from +first to last, is a free and utterly undeserved gift." + +"I see what you mean, sir," said Tyrrell slowly. + +"Then, putting those two great truths together, let me warn you to take +your stand upon them, and never again to use the dangerous line of +argument you seemed inclined to use just now. Never dare to say, 'If +such and such a thing were true, I could not believe in the holiness +or mercy of God.' There is fearful presumption in it, Tyrrell—though +many a good man unthinkingly makes use of such words. Such and such +a thing may be true, though you cannot see it so; and where do you +find yourself then? You must have your position at the mast-head. 'The +Lord is holy and true, just and righteous, merciful and loving. Man is +sinful and worthless. What the Lord hath said, that will I accept, and +unquestioningly believe.'" + +Nat looked thoughtful, but did not speak. + +"And now to come to the point," Mr. Prior went on. "As regards the +doctrine of election, I do not ask you to take my views, or the views +of any man. But what do you think of this?" And from his little +pocket Bible Mr. Prior read aloud—"'He hath chosen us in Him before +the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame +before him in love: having predestinated us unto the adoption of +children by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of +His will.' And again, 'Being predestinated according to the purpose +of Him who worketh all things after the counsel of His own will.' ¹ +Nothing can stand against that, you see—that almighty changeless Will +of God." + + ¹ Eph. i. 4, 11. + +"Clear enough about election, ain't it," said Joe Whilly. + +"What of this also? In the ninth of Exodus God says about Pharaoh, 'In +very deed for this cause have I raised thee up, for to show in thee my +power.' And in the following chapters, we are more than once plainly +told that 'The Lord hardened Pharaoh's heart,' though at the same +time we must not forget that we are told how Pharaoh hardened his own +heart also. And again, with the wicked sons of Eli, we find that 'they +hearkened not unto the voice of their father,'—why?—'"because" the Lord +would slay them.'" + +"That's awfully strong," said Nat, in a subdued tone. + +"It is truth, Tyrrell. You cannot set it aside. True also—by their sins +they had made Him so to will. But as clay in the hands of a potter, ² +so are we in the hands of God. He chooses whom He will, and He rejects +whom He will. 'Therefore hath He mercy on whom He will have mercy, and +whom He will He hardeneth.' No power in heaven, or earth, or hell, can +for one instant stand against that eternal Will of God. And no man +living has power to turn to God, or even to wish so to turn, without +the working of the Holy Spirit in his heart. As the Saviour said, 'No +man can come to Me, except the Father which hath sent Me draw him.'" + + ² Rom. ix. 21. + +"Well, sir, it just comes to this," said Tyrrell gloomily. "If you're +right—and I won't deny you've Scripture on your side—I don't see, for +my part, how man is to blame." + +"Just the answer made in St. Paul's own days. 'Thou wilt say then unto +me, Why doth He yet find fault? for who hath resisted His will? Nay, +but, O man! who art thou that repliest against God? Shall the thing +formed say to him that formed it, Why hast thou made me thus?' ¹ What +are you and I, Tyrrell—mere worms of the dust, rebels against Him from +our birth—to dare to question the dealings of the Lord Almighty?" + + ¹ Rom. ix. + +He spoke in a deeply solemn tone, and the men looked impressed, while +Mona sat, with bent head, taking to heart a lesson which she had sorely +needed. There was a little pause before Tyrrell remarked— + +"Still, there's no denying, sir, that if men are mere puppets in the +Hands of God, to be saved or lost as He wills, I don't see for my part +how they're to be justly blamed." + +"Does the Bible say men are mere puppets in the Hands of God?" asked +Mr. Prior. + +"Well, sir, it comes to about the same thing." + +"No; there we touch upon one of the wonderful mysteries of God, which +are beyond man's grasp. 'There is no searching of His understanding.' +'Great things doeth He which we cannot comprehend.' The sooner you +accept that fact in all its fulness, the better for your peace. True +it is that man is absolutely in the Hands of God, as clay in the hands +of a potter; nevertheless, and at the self same time, he is a free and +accountable being. What do you say to that?" + +"You wouldn't try to make out, would you, sir, that there was anything +of free choice to be found in the Bible, alongside of the other +doctrine?" asked Nat incredulously. + +"You could not possibly have used a better word. 'Alongside'—that is +exactly the way in which these great 'opposition-truths,' as they have +been called, are given to us. Lying side by side, placed there by God +Himself, to be believed by us unquestioningly, whether or no with our +present powers we may be able to reconcile them. It has been said with +much force, that in looking at these deep mysteries of God, a man must +not attempt to step with both his feet at once. First one foot, and +then the other. We have taken a step with the right foot; now let us +take a step with the left. We have proved from the Word of God the +doctrine of election; now let us see what the same Word has to say on +the other side of the question." + +"I'll hear what you have to say sure enough, sir," said Nat slowly. +"I'll not deny you've shown me I've been wrong, putting aside a +doctrine so clear in the Bible as that. I'm not too proud neither to +'say' I've been in the wrong, and to change my old view for a new one. +But if you're going to ask me to stick by the old, and take up the new +as well—why, sir, I've only to say it's just a moral impossibility. The +thing can't be." + +"No; and I'm on the same side as Tyrrell now, sir," added Joe Whilly. +"If a man can't be saved unless he's elected, and can't come unless God +makes him able, where's the good of telling him he 'may' come?" + +"We will come back to that directly," said Mr. Prior. "But just now +we are taking a glance at the other side of the question. You can't +look to the north and the south of a landscape at the same moment, you +know. What do you both think of these words, spoken by God to the whole +nation of the Israelites, and through them to the world at large? + + "'See, I have set before thee this day life and good, and death and +evil; in that I command thee this day to love the Lord thy God, to walk +in His ways, and to keep His commandments . . . But if thine heart +turn away so that thou wilt not hear'—not canst not, but 'wilt' not—'I +denounce unto you this day, that ye shall surely perish . . . I call +heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before +you life and death, blessing and cursing; THEREFORE CHOOSE LIFE, that +both thou and thy seed may live—' + +"Is no freedom of choice offered there, Whilly?" + +"Seems so, sure enough," said Whilly, rubbing his head with a perplexed +air. + +Tyrrell did not speak. + +"This is in the thirtieth of Deuteronomy, and you will find much +the same in the twenty-fourth of Joshua, where again the Israelites +are plainly bidden—'"Choose" you this day whom ye will serve.' Note +also the words of our Saviour—'Ye "will not" come to Me that ye +might have life.' Not 'ye cannot come.' And again, 'Strive to enter +in at the strait gate;' 'Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his +righteousness;' 'Seek, and ye shall find.' Power of choice and action +are implied in all these." + +"Yes, sir," answered Whilly, who seemed to have stepped into the office +of spokesman. + +"Then listen to a few words from the eighteenth of Ezekiel on the +same subject. 'Have I any pleasure at all that the wicked should +die, saith the Lord God, and not that he should return from his +ways and live? . . . Repent, and turn yourself from all your +transgressions . . . and make you a new heart and a new spirit; for why +will ye die, O house of Israel? For I have no pleasure in the death of +him that dieth, saith the Lord God; wherefore turn yourselves, and live +ye.' And also in the thirty-third chapter—'Say unto them, As I live, +saith the Lord God, I have no pleasure in the death of the wicked; but +that the wicked turn from his way and live; turn ye, turn ye from your +evil ways, for why will ye die, O house of Israel?'" + +Tyrrell was silent still, gazing steadily on the ground. + +"Well, sir, I won't deny there's a deal to be said on both sides from +the Bible," said Whilly, in a thoughtful tone. "But how you're going to +reconcile them two doctrines passes my comprehension." + +"And mine also," said Mr. Prior quietly. "What of that, Whilly? Are we +to disbelieve everything we cannot understand? Can you suppose for a +moment that the mind of a mere created being shall have power to grasp +the mysteries of his Creator? Tyrrell thinks himself well able to take +in and weigh these mighty truths, though, as he says, he is no genius. +If he were the most brilliant genius the world ever saw, it would make +no difference. Possibly he might reach a little farther than you or +I could reach—just as a tall man may wade a little deeper into the +sea than a short one can do. But in either case, the end is the same. +Whether he be tall or short, whether his mind be great or small, he +soon comes to a point where his powers serve to carry him on no more. +After that, he must take refuge in one of two things—speculation or +faith." + +"Seems to me, Tyrrell and Whilly had ought to be mighty pleased, both +of 'em, seeing they're both proved to be half-ways right, and not all +wrong," Blayney remarked quaintly. + +"Maybe I am," said Whilly. "Then, sir, you'd have one offer salvation +to all men without a bit of reservation, would you?" + +"No more reservation than the Bible itself makes, Whilly. Look at the +breadth of the Gospel invitations, and don't dare to narrow them by a +single word. 'Ho! every one that thirsteth, come ye to the waters,' +must never be cut down into, 'Ho! all ye "elect" that thirst.' 'Come +unto Me, all ye that labour,' must not be changed into 'Come unto Me, +all ye "elect" that labour.' There is a very clear command given—'Go ye +into all the world, and preach the Gospel to every creature.' You may +find me, if you can, a single injunction to preach the Gospel only to +the elect of God." + +"Thank you, sir. You've given me something to think about, anyways," +said Whilly. + +"The truth is, Whilly, this doctrine of election, though a thought full +of comfort and joy to the assured Christian, is a doctrine with which +the unsaved man has nothing whatever to do. 'Repent, believe, and be +saved,' are the words spoken to him. Take care that you carry him the +right message—not the wrong one." + +And then, turning from Whilly, Mr. Prior said,—"Well, Tyrrell?" + +"Sir, you'll maybe think me a bit obstinate, but I can't in reason see +how them two things can exist together," said Tyrrell rather doggedly. + +"Let me give you an illustration I have heard used, to make it clearer. +Did you ever see the flying bridge over the river, two or three miles +from Bentley Dingle?" + +"I've seen it, sir." + +Mr. Prior took out his pocket-book, and slightly sketched the scone for +the benefit of those who had not. + +"There is the river. There are the chains upon which the bridge +depends. Now, look at those chains. You see them plainly at that end, +and at this. What becomes of them in the space between?" + +"They're under water," Nat answered, at the same moment with Blayney. + +"How do you know? You cannot see them there." + +"Well, sir, I knows sure enough, if I sees each end of a chain going +down under water, that it's joined below," said Blayney. + +"That is to say, you 'believe' it to be so, and your belief amounts +to certainty. Just so with these great 'counter-truths' of the Bible. +You see each end of the chain, but the point where they join—the point +of reconciliation—is in the depths, beyond your grasp. Faith must +come in there to supply the place of sight. You say they can't be +reconciled. That merely means that 'you' cannot reconcile them. They +are reconciled, though God alone knows how, and that is enough for us. +There ought to be no 'if' in speaking of God's revealed truths. 'The +Lord hath spoken,' is answer enough for every perplexity, and every +seeming contradiction." + +"Maybe," Tyrrell muttered. + +"The truth is, we are mere children before God, and know nothing +whatever of these matters beyond what He has graciously made known to +us. He speaks to us as to children, and tells us just so much as it is +needful for us to know—but no more. If you receive His Word as a child, +you will know peace. The road to heaven is a very simple one, and 'the +wayfaring man, though a fool, shall not err therein.' But once go off +from the plain path of safety, and get yourselves entangled in these +mazy questions, which have puzzled tens of thousands before you, and +you will find yourselves in a very quicksand of doubt and misery." + +"Maybe so, sir," said Tyrrell. "I don't deny you've a deal to say from +the Bible for your way of looking on the question. But, nevertheless, +'tisn't in my power to set aside altogether the common-sense view of +the matter. And that is, that 'if' men have it in their power to choose +between good and evil, then salvation can't depend on election; and +'if' the doctrine of election is true, then free choice can't be, and +men may just as well sit with their hands before them, waiting to see +whether they're elect or no. For in that case, if a man's elect, he'll +be saved, and if he isn't elect, he won't be saved, and small blame to +him either if he isn't. I don't see, for my part, how you're ever to +get over that difficulty, sir." + +"Nay, Tyrrell, it is you, not I, who have to get over it," said Mr. +Prior, smiling. "I am content to accept the truths of God as He has +given them to us. You cannot rest without trying to bring them all down +to the level of your own understanding—which is about as reasonable an +attempt, as if you were to set yourself to squeeze the ocean into a +tumbler. But I will have a word again with you on this subject, only +just now I must say good-bye, as it is getting late. Think over the +matter carefully, and pray for right direction as you do so." + +He lingered a minute still, exchanging pleasant remarks with the +different members of the party. Then bidding them all farewell, he +continued his walk—not without a nod and smile at parting to little +Nannie, for Mr. Prior was one of those who have caught a reflection +of the Saviour's peculiar tenderness towards the lambs of the flock. +And Mona, having presented to Madge her basket of nosegays, for the +children on the morrow, went soberly down the hill-side. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XV. + +THE DINGLE. + +IT was a sweet wild place, this Dingle, coming after a long reach of +flat and lonely moor. There was a deep dip, and a grassy space below, +with one tiny cottage built beside a running stream, while all around +the rocky sides rose steeply, clothed with brushwood and small trees, +amongst which the brilliant spring green of the larches was the most +conspicuous. And from this little hollow or basin, the pathway—about +as wide and rough as a mountain sleigh-path, and much overgrown with +grass—leading up alongside of the sparkling stream, rose winding in a +narrow gorge, with rocks and trees still closing in on either side. +Several threatened endings proved only to be fresh turnings of the +path, until at length the summit was attained of a certain round green +hill, with a good view of the surrounding country, and a number of +larches and silver beeches growing down its sides. + +A month or two later, the pretty spot would be almost overrun +by excursionists, but it was quiet now, with the exception of +Madge Hardwicke's party, who made noise enough for fifty ordinary +pleasure-seekers. Madge loved nothing better than to see "her +children," as she called them, enjoying themselves. They had all +arrived at the Dingle by three o'clock, and many games in the "green +basin" followed. + +Mrs. Blayney and her son, and Nat Tyrrell and his wife, were by no +means useless additions to the party. Madge alone would have been +hardly equal to the task of keeping all those busy little feet out of +perilous spots, but for their aid. As it was, they had enough to do, +all five of them, during the first hour and a half. It was somewhere +about the close of that time that a little basket-carriage was seen +approaching, drawn by a pretty grey pony, and a shout was immediately +raised:— + +"I say,—if it ain't the Parson a-driving up here!" + +No unwelcome arrival was that little chaise, though nobody yet knew +what lay hidden under the seats. The children came crowding around, to +receive kind words and smiles, alike from Mr. Prior, and from the pale +lady beside him, who never left her Rectory home save in a carriage, +but was no stranger to them all nevertheless. As for the small boy, +Georgie, with his knickerbockers, and straw hat, and floating blue +ribbons, he was out on the ground in a moment, at the imminent risk of +his legs, ready for any amount of play. + +"So you are all enjoying yourselves here, Madge," said Mr. Prior, as +she stood, smiling, near at hand. + +"Well, sir, the children seem to find a deal of pleasure in it," said +Madge. + +"Don't think we are going to intrude, Madge," said Miss Prior, the +clergyman's sister. "We can drive up the Dingle, and leave you all to +play, you know. Only we wanted to bring just a little contribution to +your feast, as you—naughty woman that you are—didn't take the trouble +to invite us." + +"You're welcome enough, ma'am, if I'd thought you cared to come," said +Madge placidly. "Miss Mona has nigh as much to do with the matter as I." + +But her face lighted up a good deal at the sight of the hamper, and the +children's consequent delight. And when it was opened, and the contents +began to appear, the little ones did not seem to know how to smile +broadly enough for such a grand occasion. Miss Prior was satisfied +so far, and began now to talk of driving on, but Madge interposed. +Wouldn't they stay, and help to eat up the feast? + +"Spoil the fun?" + +Madge laughed her low quiet laugh at the idea. And Nannie, creeping up, +looked with a pair of pleading eyes, which added weight to the words of +Madge. + +"You two together are irresistible," Miss Prior said. "I am vanquished +at all events. What will the rest of you do?" + +"I never intended to do anything but stay, all along," said Mr. Prior +composedly, and Madge's gray eyes flashed a look of merry appreciation. +No arm-chair being at hand, Mrs. Prior had to keep her seat in the low +basket-chaise, but the pony was taken out and tied to a tree, and half +the children gathered round to feed him with handfuls of grass, while +the other half watched the unlading of the hamper with eager eyes. + +It was no meagre fare that Mr. and Miss Prior had brought for the +occasion. Madge's buns found themselves in a very small minority, +compared with the varieties of provisions now produced. A white +cloth had not been forgotten, and amid much fun and laughter, the +table—otherwise the ground—was laid; hot water was procured from the +cottage; and tea was at length ready. + +Then they all sat round in a circle,—Mr. Prior being honoured with a +seat upon a stump, and having a bodyguard of small children at his end +of the cloth. Nannie crept to his side, and sat there, almost too happy +to eat. Poor little child! This day was one of radiant experience in +her cloudy life. She had not known many such. + +It was a mixed sort of company gathered there to dinner, or tea, or +whatever they chose to term that five o'clock out-of-door feast on the +grass. The hamper-full would almost have served to supply a meal of +either description. Mixed as the company might be, however—including +the Priors and Mona, the children and Madge, a sailor and his mother, a +carpenter and his wife,—it was a very merry and a very happy party. Had +Mr. Chetwynd been one of the number, he would probably have felt a good +deal out of his element, from the fact that he would have been troubled +with a certain amount of anxiety as to his own dignity. + +Mr. Prior, whose pleasant ease of manner, and entire +self-forgetfulness, were equally to be seen on all occasions, whether +his companions might chance to be earls and baronets, or masons and +plumbers, suffered from no such uneasiness. He kept up a cheery flow +of conversation, just suited to those present—bright, cheerful, +kindly, with many an illustration for the men, and many a story for +the little ones, not lacking a vein of quaint humour, and yet having +an under-current of serious purpose, which now and then rose to the +surface, like a golden thread in a many-coloured pattern. + +The feast over—and very thoroughly it was over, little but crumbs +remaining—there was some talk of the chaise and its inmates driving +on. Miss Prior protested. She at least must have one game with the +children first. Wouldn't Mona join? Mona did not object, but for all +Miss Prior's twenty years' seniority, Mona seemed of the two to have +the less appreciation of the fun. She very soon found her help was not +really needed, and slipped away. + +"Mona, you are not well to-day," said Mrs. Prior, as she came up. + +Mona flushed suddenly. "I have rather a headache, Mrs. Prior; I dare +say it will go off soon." + +"Don't tire yourself, dear. My sister likes nothing better than a game +with the little ones. Would you not rather go home at once?" + +"O no, thank you! We are to walk up the Dingle," said Mona, unwilling +to check the general enjoyment, though she really did feel far from +well. "They say the view from the top is lovely." + +"Yes; and I am told that the path is quite fit for our little chaise, +so we will all go up together," said Mr. Prior, making his appearance +at this juncture. "Here come Tyrrell and Blayney to harness in the +pony." + +"I am glad Mrs. Prior will be able to come too," Mona remarked. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XVI. + +NAT'S COTTAGE. + +"IT ought to be well done certainly, with three of us to accomplish +the business," said Mr. Prior, patting the pony's head as he began to +loosen the rein. "Unless indeed it were a case of 'too many cooks,' +Tyrrell." + +"Dapple ain't the sort of 'broth' to be so easy spoilt, sir," said Nat, +with a laugh. + +"I hope not. By the bye, Tyrrell—yes, you can tighten that strap a +little—did I not hear that you were thinking of changing your cottage +soon?" + +"At quarter-day—yes, sir," said Nat, looking flattered at the interest +shown in his affairs. "You see, sir, the one we're in now, though +it's a neat place enough, is over small, and it's draughty and smoky +besides. So now I'm getting on a bit in the world, we thought we'd look +out for a better." + +"You have not found one yet, I suppose?" + +"Why, no, sir, and I'm not sure after all that I haven't been imprudent +in giving notice about this, before we'd some idea of a new one like to +suit us." + +"Poor fellow—but of course you could not help that, though it was +unwise," said Mr. Prior compassionately. + +Nat Tyrrell was not the only one present who stared with open eyes. + +Mr. Prior looked back so calmly, however, that even Mrs. Prior began +to fancy she must have been mistaken, in thinking that her husband had +said anything extraordinary. + +"I had an idea, now,—but of course it is not worth my while mentioning +it to you," said Mr. Prior thoughtfully. + +"An idea about what, sir, if I might make bold to ask?" inquired Nat +Tyrrell, with curiosity. + +"O merely an idea, not at all worth mentioning. Of course it could make +no possible difference in the end," said Mr. Prior, leading the pony +towards the carriage. + +Nat followed, wondering what in the world had come over Mr. Prior, and +half disposed to fear it must be a case of sun-stroke. + +"I'd be very glad of any advice, sir," he said, by way of testing the +soundness of Mr. Prior's mind. + +"You are not looking out for a new cottage, of course," said Mr. Prior. + +"Indeed, sir, but I am. You don't happen to know of one, do you, sir?" +asked Nat, with some eagerness. + +"You do not really mean to say you are giving yourself any trouble +about the matter!" said Mr. Prior in a tone of astonishment. + +"To be sure, I should just think I was too," said Nat rather +indignantly. "A pretty thing it would be, if we waited with our hands +before us till we found ourselves homeless." + +Nat suddenly stopped and looked rather foolish, remembering the last +time he had used that expression. A faint idea of Mr. Prior's meaning +began to dawn upon his mind. + +"So if you don't look out for another cottage, you think that may +probably be the result," said Mr. Prior. + +"I don't see what else would be like to happen," Nat answered in a +subdued tone. + +"True, but then, if it were so, it would have been fore-ordained by +God," said Mr. Prior. "And what is fore-ordained must come to pass." + +Nat seemed at a loss what to reply. + +"You see, Tyrrell, I am a firm believer in the doctrine of God's +foreknowledge and pre-ordering of events," continued Mr. Prior. "It +is told very plainly in the Bible—'He doeth according to His will in +the army of heaven, and among the inhabitants of the earth, and none +can stay His hand, or say unto Him, What doest Thou?' And again He +says, 'I am God, and there is none like me, declaring the end from the +beginning, and from ancient times the things that are not yet done.'" + +"They're wonderful texts, sir. I don't know as I ever saw 'em before," +said Nat thoughtfully. + +"There are truths in them which cannot for a moment be set aside. Now, +looking upon the matter in that light, knowing that your future life +is, as it were, all marked out in the secret mind of God; how can I for +a moment suppose that 'you' have any freedom or choice as to your own +actions? How can I in common fairness blame you for doing that which +it has been fore-ordained from all eternity that you should do? I must +rather look upon you as the unhappy victim of circumstances, as a mere +puppet in the hands of a superior Power, with nothing more of praise or +blame attaching to anything you may do or think, than to the movements +of a hammer or saw in the hands of a workman. As for believing in +God's absolute power and fore-ordering of all things, and at the self +same time treating you as a reasonable creature, worthy of blame or +praise—why, looking upon the matter in a common-sense light, the thing +seems simply impossible." + +Nat fidgeted uneasily, but did not speak. + +"You were saying just now that you had given notice to your landlord +rather early," Mr. Prior went on. "It sounds imprudent, to be sure. +But then, poor fellow, no one can dream of laying blame upon you. For +it was all fore-ordained that you should give notice upon just that +particular day; and if it was to be, how could you help it? How could +you possibly have acted otherwise?" + +Nat's bronzed cheek took a deeper hue than its wont. "Well, sir, you +have me there for certain!" he said frankly. + +"You say you are looking out for a cottage," continued Mr. Prior, in +the same deliberate manner. "And it did occur to me that I knew of one +which might just suit you." + +"No! Do you, sir?" + +"But I have decided that it would be quite useless trouble on my part +to mention particulars. For if that identical cottage is pre-ordained +to be your home, it will be your home, whether I tell you about it or +no. And if it is not pre-ordained to be your home, then no words of +mine or efforts of yours can make it so. Whatever the result may be, +one thing is clear, and that is that nobody can be blamed." + +"But, sir,—" Nat began, and paused. + +"So you see it is a very simple matter, Tyrrell, looking upon it in +this light. If a chosen home awaits you, that home will in time become +yours. If you don't look out for one, and find yourself brought down to +sleeping in the open air, why, it will no doubt be something of a trial +to you and your family, but you must comfort yourself with the thought +that all things are pre-ordained by God, and that you,—not being a +responsible creature,—can be justly blamed by no one." + +"Don't seem to me as that 'ud be much of a consolation neither," said +Nat, rather humbly. "Please, sir, if you wouldn't mind after all +telling me about that there cottage—" + +"It is a very nice cottage," said Mr. Prior. "A particularly nice one, +Tyrrell. I do most sincerely hope, for your sake, that it may prove to +be your pre-ordained future home. I should advise you on your return +this evening to sit quietly down, with your hands before you, and +patiently await the opening out of events, through which in the course +of time you will learn exactly what is to happen to you." + +"I beg your pardon, sir, but I think I'd be better satisfied, and not +such a fool neither, if I was to see the landlord, and set the matter +going,—if you'd be so very good, sir, as to tell me where that cottage +is," added Nat, growing beseeching. + +"Come, now, we will make an agreement. If you will do one thing for me, +I will tell you what you wish." + +"Anything, sir," said Nat eagerly. + +"I would not promise rashly, if I were you. Of course you fully +believe, Tyrrell, that all things are fore-ordained by God?" + +"Seems clear enough in the Bible about that, sir, any way," said +Tyrrell. + +"And that every event of your future life is in His hands,—that He +arranges matters, and moves the hearts of men, according to His divine +will,—that you cannot take one step or lift one finger, unless He gives +you power,—that nothing in heaven or earth can come about without His +permission!" + +"'Tis all true," Tyrrell answered. + +"And yet you seem to think that you have some sort of voice in the +matter,—that you have a certain freedom of will and a certain liberty +of action,—that events may be brought about by yourself,—that you might +be fairly blamed and might justly suffer, from refusing to take certain +steps which appear to you wise and right." + +Tyrrell nodded silently. + +"Then, Tyrrell, there lie two great and wonderful truths side by side. +Will you kindly reconcile them for me? Please to explain to me in clear +terms, by the light of reason and common-sense, exactly how they both +exist, and how they work. If you can reach to the bottom of this deep +mystery of God, which no living man has ever yet fathomed, you shall +command me to do what you will about the cottage, or any other earthly +matter." + +"I'll have to wait long enough for the cottage, if that has to come +between," said Nat, in a low voice. "Sir, I never did see the matter in +that light before, I must confess." + +"Nor I neither," said Blayney. + +"No, because in every-day practical matters, you put aside theory and +attend to fact. You 'know' God's power to be boundless, and you pray +Him to guide you in your way, and He guides you. You 'feel' you are +free to act, and you act. You don't trouble your head with trying to +settle exactly how far your own freedom in action may reach, or how far +God chooses directly to control your mind and the minds of those about +you. But when you touch upon the question of salvation, you must needs +perplex your brains by trying to understand what can't be understood, +and struggling to reconcile truths which God has not given us power to +reconcile, till you end by putting reason in the place of faith, and +working yourselves into a perfect maze. It is dangerous work, men." + +"Well, sir, I believe you're about right," said Tyrrell soberly. "Maybe +I've been rash in things I've said." + +"As most men are who attempt to get to the bottom of these questions. +It is like a bather who cannot swim, getting out of his depth in the +sea. We are mere children, looking upon the outside crust of God's +great universe. But mystery lies beyond wherever we turn, and deep +as men fancy themselves able to dig, they still only end in mystery. +As for saying we won't believe God's truths, just because we cannot +understand them, that is simply and childishly absurd." + +"But a great many deep thinkers do doubt," said Mona involuntarily. + +"And a much greater number of shallow ones. The truth is, all these +questionings are just going off from the simplicity of the Word. God's +linked commands and promises are very easy to understand. 'Believe, +and thou shalt be saved.' 'Ask, and ye shall receive.' It is perfectly +true that you cannot act, or will to act, without grace from above. +Nevertheless 'act'—don't lie helplessly on the ground—only act, ask, +believe, and safety is yours." + +"'Tis hard to have to make up one's mind one can't understand things," +said Nat. + +"May be so—to the 'pride of human intellect,' of which we hear so much +in the present day. But the greatest minds are those which bow most +meekly before the Word of God, and feel most deeply their own utter +littleness. There is nothing for these matters but simple trust." + +"Then you'd just have us shut our eyes to such difficulties in the +Bible, sir," said Nat. + +"No, certainly not. I would have you neither shut your eyes to them, +nor shuffle over them in alarm, nor believe one side to the exclusion +of the other, nor stake your faith upon the power of man to reconcile +them. Don't be afraid to look the matter in the face, and to confess +frankly that there are many things which you can't understand, and +never will understand in this life. Only make a firm stand upon the +justice, and holiness, and love of God, take each revealed truth as God +has given it to you, let it lie alone where God has placed it; and be +content to believe where you cannot see, waiting till fuller sight is +given to you. For a time will come—and to all of us I trust—when our +training as children will be over, and these perplexities shall pass +away, like mist on the mountain-side, in the glorious light of our +Saviour's unveiled presence." + +Then after a short grave silence, Mr. Prior said cheerfully— + +"And now, Tyrrell, I am ready to give you all the information in my +power, about the cottage I have seen." + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XVII. + +A FOG. + +UP on the top of the Dingle. + +One after another arrived there, panting more or less with the +scramble. It was a disappointment that the sun had vanished, and thick +mists were gathering over the landscape. The children did not so much +care about the lost scenery, but Madge regretted that Mona could not +see her favourite view in all its beauty. + +"Never mind, Madge. I'll come again some day, and mean time, I must +take your word for granted," Mona said, as she sat breathlessly on +a green bank. She had declined to drive up, partly from pity for +the pony, partly from catching a momentary infection of the general +enthusiasm, and she was one of the first to reach the top. Her white +lips now made Madge uneasy. + +"You're overdone, Miss Mona, I'm afraid." + +"A little tired. No matter. Do you often come here, Madge?" + +"I used in old days, Miss Mona—when Neill was with me. He and I'd walk +it, and think nothing of the distance,—for a day's pleasuring, you +know." + +Mona looked into the calm face wistfully. "Madge, do you never feel +impatient now to hear from him again?" + +"The feeling comes,—once in a while," said Madge, plucking a small twig +of budding May. "I'll hear in right good time, Miss Mona—whether I meet +him in this life, or not till in the next." + +Perhaps she found it a little hard to talk about him, for she moved +away slowly, and the next instant, a rush of children claimed her +attention. Hardly ten minutes later, Mr. Prior came up. + +"Madge, it won't do to stay here. The fog is coming on fast." + +She had been so busy, as not to notice how rapidly the change in the +weather was taking place, and a passing look of consternation showed in +her face, when she took a glance round. + +"There's nothing for it but to be off as sharp as possible, sir," she +said. "I never know a fog come on so quick after so bright a day." + +"It will be on us completely soon. Call the children, Madge, and keep +them together. We must get out of the Dingle at once." + +A scramble down that rough pathway in a dense fog would be no trifle, +with so many little ones in the party, and more especially for the pony +and chaise. Tyrrell and Blayney, remarking on the latter point, advised +that Mr. Prior should descend to the "Basin" immediately, taking down +as many of the party as were already at hand. Mr. Prior would trust no +one but himself at the pony's head. + +The fog thickened rapidly during even that brief discussion, and +wreaths of white smoke-like mist came rolling and curling around them, +pouring up from the low country round the Dingle. Most of the children, +being happily near at hand, were despatched at once to scramble after +the sure-footed little pony, under the guardianship of Ned Blayney and +his mother. Three only were missing, besides Mona, whom nobody had seen +since the few words exchanged between herself and Madge. The party had +scattered so widely over the hill, however, at the first moment of +arrival, that it was not surprising that all did not at once respond +to the call, and the two Tyrrells, with Miss Prior and Madge, remained +behind to hunt up the missing individuals. + +With the help of a little shouting, the children were speedily found, +rather in a state of alarm at having missed their companions in the +fog. They were at once sent after the rest down the hill under charge +of Mrs. Tyrrell. Mona, however, was not with them. Nobody seemed to +know anything about her, and very bitterly poor Madge blamed herself +for not having paid more regard to her. + +"Nonsense, Madge; it was the most natural thing in the world," Miss +Prior said kindly. "We shall come upon her directly." + +But as the minutes passed, and the fog grew more dense, and they still +sought and called, and called and sought in vain, the matter began to +look more serious. + +"Where are you all?" in a shout from Mr. Prior, was a welcome sound to +the searchers. They gathered together, unable to see each other's faces +at a few yards' distance. + +"Not found yet?" he asked. "This is extraordinary!" + +"I can't imagine where the poor child can have wandered," said Miss +Prior. "If she is near, she must hear us calling; and yet surely she +would not have walked far." + +"Tyrrell's gone down the side a good way, to look," said Madge. "But my +fear is lest she should have slipped somewhere, sir, and maybe stunned +herself." + +It was the fear of all of them—that or worse. Why otherwise should she +not answer? + +"I trust not," he said. "But she can hardly have gone far in any case. +She would never have left the hill." + +They separated to search again more thoroughly,—Miss Prior, as a +stranger to the ground, being left upon the summit, in case of Mona +appearing there. + +About ten minutes more of fruitless effort passed away. Then Madge and +Mr. Prior meeting unexpectedly, stopped to speak together, and broke +off with a simultaneous exclamation. + +"Madge!" + +"Sir!—What's that?" + +[Illustration: "She's asleep, sir," Madge said, in utter amazement. +"It's enough to give her her death of cold."] + +Six steps, and they had found her,—quietly lying on the ground, with +her eyes closed, and her hand under her cheek, and her black dress +spreading over the grass. Their first impression was that she must have +received some injury, their second, that no fall was possible in that +spot. She had chosen the softest of flat mossy ground, with not a rock +near. + +"She's asleep, sir," Madge said, in utter amazement. "It's enough to +give her her death of cold. Miss Mona, dear—do wake up now." + +"It is not natural sleep, surely," said Mr. Prior, in an uneasy tone. +"Mona, my dear child, you must not lie here." + +She sat up wearily, in answer to their efforts, and then leant against +Madge Hardwicke. + +"O do let me rest a little longer—so early—and my head aches," she +muttered drowsily. + +"Miss Mona, dear, you're not in bed. You're up here, on the top of the +hill; and you've got to come down the Dingle as quick as can be." + +Mona opened her eyes more fully, and gazed round in bewilderment. "The +Dingle!" she said. + +"Don't you know where you are?" asked Mr. Prior. + +"It's the fog confuses her," said Madge. "Isn't it, Miss Mona? You +didn't think you'd wake up, and find the Dingle all misty, like this, +did you?" + +"Oh—fog—I see," said Mona, in a more natural voice. "How stupid of me! +I thought I must be going blind at the first moment. What makes it so +foggy?" + +"It comes on sometimes like that," said Madge. "Do you feel better now, +Miss Mona? Can you walk down the hill?" + +"Why, I must have been asleep," said Mona, standing up. "How could I be +so absurd! Why, Madge—" + +"What made you go to sleep, Mona?" asked Mr. Prior, making her lean +upon him, as they moved towards the path, while Madge went to relieve +the minds of the other searchers. + +"I don't know," said Mona, looking ashamed. "I think I felt dull and +giddy, so I just lay down for a minute on the grass, to see if it would +do me good. And the next thing I remember is, that I fancied I was +being called in the morning to get up." + +"You had a sound sleep at all events. Not a very safe sort of a couch +to choose, though." + +"No; it was stupid of me," said Mona languidly, for the exertion of +walking was bringing back the feeling of sick giddiness which had +assailed her before. + +She had not much to say to Miss Prior, who came up the next instant, +full of relief and curiosity, and rather disposed to scold playfully, +till Mona's white lips stopped her. + +"I'm afraid your grassy siesta hasn't been a very refreshing one," she +said. "Poor child! It's of no use for you to try to walk fast. I'll go +on, and tell them all that you are found, and get the children packed +into the break. We had better be off as quickly as possible now. What a +fog it is, to be sure!" + +"It seems an unfortunate sort of ending to your bright day, Madge," +said Mr. Prior. + +"I wouldn't mind anything else, if Miss Mona was well," said Madge. + +But Mona looked up with a smile and said, "O, I shall be all right, +Madge—only sleep made me feel heavy. I have had a headache for two or +three days past. The scrambling brought it on worse, I suppose,—but it +isn't anything to signify." + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XVIII. + +THE DRIVE HOME. + +THEY found that Mrs. Prior had been moved into the back seat of the +chaise, where she sat with Miss Prior and Georgie, leaving the front +for Mona. + +"What, is she to be under my charge?" asked Mr. Prior. "Not quite fit +for a turn at the reins to-day, I think, Mona." + +"I should be sorry to drive in this fog," said Mona, as she took her +seat. "And I wish Mrs. Prior had not moved on my account." + +"Better, Mona?" asked Miss Prior from behind. "Come, you must wrap up +well, or we shall have you taking cold. Here is another shawl." + +She looked so much more comfortable, leaning back in the easy front +seat, that Madge went off to the break in a tolerably satisfied frame +of mind,—far better satisfied than Mr. Prior, who had a certain secret +source of disquietude, about which Madge was ignorant. He allowed +nothing of his disquietude to appear, however. + +Driving through the dense fog was no easy matter. They were in danger +now and then of running up a bank, or down into a ditch. The break was +at first near ahead, and the children's voices floated back merrily, +but the sounds grew gradually fainter as the distance widened, till +at length they died away. And presently, a white light began to shine +through the fog, and the dense curtain changed again into masses of +curling rolls and waves. + +"It will clear off now," said Mr. Prior. "Ha! That was quite a +sunlight-gleam." + +"It was curious your saying something about mists to the men," observed +Mona. + +"Did I? Yes, I remember. The Dingle valley is famous for them, which +may have suggested the idea to me,—not that I expected to find myself +in the midst of one so soon." + +"It seems getting clearer now," said Mona. + +"There is sunshine coming before long." And then with a half-smile +he added, "There are other mists also, Mona, which the sun alone can +disperse, and that another and a more radiant Sun than this of ours." + +Conversation on different matters followed, and as the afternoon grew +fairer, the drive home proved a more pleasant one than they had looked +for. Mona was the silent individual of the party, but the others +supposed her grave looks to arise from fatigue, and did not disturb +her. They were not far from Alyn, and the occupants of the back seat +were busily talking together, when Mr. Prior, after seeming for a while +as thoughtful as Mona herself, remarked,— + +"I am afraid your day has not been a very agreeable one after all." + +"O yes, indeed it has," said Mona, starting. "At least, I am very glad +I went, and heard your talk with the men." + +"What conclusion have you come to in the matter?" + +"I think—I have been—very foolish lately," she said, with some effort. + +"'Thou knowest my foolishness,'" was the answer to this. + +"Only it is hard not to be troubled by these questions sometimes." + +"'Neither do I exercise myself in great matters, or in things too high +for me.' David was a wise man." + +"But, Mr. Prior—" + +And then a pause. + +"Well?" said Mr. Prior, as they passed under a low-bending larch, the +boughs of which swept close over their heads. + +"It seems as if one never got to the end of puzzles." + +"You never will in this life. As I told you this afternoon,—go where +you will, you still only end in mystery. It cannot be otherwise, with +our present powers." + +"But, Mr. Prior—" + +"What is the difficulty now?" he asked. + +"The heathen—" she said slowly. "What of them?" + +"As the Lord wills," he answered gravely. + +"But—doesn't it seem strange that there should be all those millions, +who never had the choice given them of believing or not believing?" + +"You remind me of a story I once heard. A man was cavilling at the +text,—'Jacob have I loved, but Esau have I hated.' Why was it? What +reason had God for doing so? 'I can tell you,' said his friend. 'Can +you? Why?' '"Because He chose,"' was the answer. That is answer enough +for you and me. Whatever He wills, from first to last, is righteous and +holy and good." + +"Yes,—I see—I know—I don't want to cavil," she said hurriedly. "But do +you think—must they all perish?" + +"I can tell you no more than the Bible tells me. For your comfort +remember,—'He that knew not and did commit things worthy of stripes, +shall be beaten with few stripes.'" + +Mona was silent. + +"You had better study the early part of the second of Romans, with +reference to this subject,—not forgetting that the Gentiles were +the heathen of St. Paul's day. You will find there mention of 'the +righteous judgment of God, WHO WILL RENDER TO EVERY MAN ACCORDING TO +HIS DEEDS,'—whether Jew or Gentile—'indignation and wrath, tribulation +and anguish, upon every soul of man that doeth evil,' but 'glory, +honour, and peace to every man that worketh good.' In Revelation, we +find again that the dead are to be 'judged, every man "according to +their works."' Natural justice itself asks no more than this which +God's Word declares." + +"Mr. Prior, the heathen don't know God's will. They can't." + +"Then, disobeying unknowingly, they will have the punishment of 'few +stripes.' Remember too,—'These, having not the law, are a law unto +themselves; which shew the work of the law written in their hearts, +their conscience also bearing witness, and their thoughts the mean +while accusing or else excusing one another.' Has a heathen no sense of +doing right or doing wrong? Whatever perplexes you in this matter, you +may always come back restfully to the plain and simple justice of the +promise, that God 'will render to every man according to his deeds.'" + +For some minutes, Mona thought over his words. + +"But there is no other way to heaven," she said, as if carrying on a +train of ideas. "I mean—except Christ." + +"No other. Whether Jew or Gentile—whether babe or man—whether under law +or under Gospel—none find acceptance with God save through the Son." + +"Then how—then why—But I cannot understand," she said. + +"There is no need that you should. 'The secret things belong unto the +Lord our God,' and we cannot meddle in them without suffering hurt. +This is a question about which very little has been told us. A man once +went to Archbishop Whately, with his head full of some such perplexity, +anxious to get the opinion of so learned a man. Whately sent him to +find his answer in our Saviour's words,—'What is that to thee? Follow +thou Me!'" + +"Is it wrong to wish to know more?" asked Mona. + +"Don't give the reins to your wish. A child cannot understand all his +father's actions or motives for action, and strong curiosity may become +an impertinence on his part." + +Then, after a break,— + +"There is a more practical light in which to view this matter. The +command has been given,—'Go ye into all the world, and preach the +Gospel to every creature.' The real question is not, as men put it, Why +doesn't God Christianise the heathen? But,—Why don't 'we' do all in our +power to call lost souls into the flock of God?" + +Through the last wreaths of fading mist, he pointed to a field by the +road-side. + +"Look there, Mona. God has given into our hands the task of seed-sowing +in the material world, and He has given it into our hands in the +spiritual world also. Every blade of wheat springs up just as He has +fore-ordained that it should. But none the less certainly, in a field +amply sown, you may fairly reckon upon a more or less ample harvest; +while in a field scantily sown, a miracle alone could bring forth more +than a scanty harvest." + +"No,—I understand that," she said. + +"Paul planted, Apollos watered, God gave the increase. If Paul had not +planted, nor Apollos watered, God would not have given the increase. +Take a lesson from that field. You have precisely the same right to +cavil at the dealings of God, in not converting the heathen nations as +a body, as every farmer in the land has to cavil at the dealings of God +in not bringing up a miraculous harvest of wheat, without requiring him +first to sow the seed." + +He let her have a minute to think it over, and then said gently, "Are +you doing your utmost to save poor lost souls for whom the Saviour +died?" + +She shook her head. "What, Mona! When He has given His precious life +for you, and suffered untold agony, to save men from eternal death, +you will not even give your time to telling others of the price He +paid! You are content to sit with folded hands, calmly criticising your +Maker's will, in not saving you further trouble by a miracle, which in +His wisdom He does not see fit to work." + +He had said enough now, and he knew it, though her downcast face was +turned away. + +She answered presently in a stifled voice, "Thank you, Mr. Prior." + +"And as for these questionings," he said quietly—"'What I do thou +knowest not now, but thou shalt know hereafter,' 'Ye shall know that +I have not done without cause all that I have done in it, saith +the Lord God.' Put your trust in such promises, and rest upon the +loving-kindness of the Lord. It is only for a little while,—only a +little longer of child-like faith without sight,—and then all mist and +darkness shall pass away for ever." + +A few minutes later, they were passing up the hill, and stopped short +at the garden-gate of the doctor's house. + +"Better now?" Mr. Prior asked, as he handed her out. "You would not +like my sister to go in, and see after you?" + +"O no, thank you. There is the housekeeper, if I need anything, and +uncle Chetwynd will be back directly," said Mona. "I shall try to get a +good night's rest. That is what I want." + +"So I hope,"—though he did not like the look of her flushed cheeks. +"You are going to be a good child, and not lie awake, troubling your +head with these matters any more." + +"I'll try not," she said rather faintly, as she went up the garden-path +beside him. "Only—I have been so wrong—" + +"Just the mistake of a little child, trying to pry into matters +beyond his understanding. Don't do it any more. The Master knows your +weakness, and He is 'very pitiful, and of tender mercy.' Put yourself +back at His feet, dear child, and don't let these things stand again in +the way of your peace." + +"Thank you; good-bye." + +She could not have said more without bursting into tears, and hastened +away as she spoke. + +Mr. Prior only lingered to inquire, "Is Mr. Chetwynd at home?" + +"No, sir." + +"Do you know when he will return?" + +"He didn't say particular, sir, as to the hour. He said he'd maybe look +in upon the Rectory, and see if you was all back, and that might make +him later." + +Mr. Prior went thoughtfully down the garden-path. "If I can catch +Chetwynd, I shall give him a warning," he said, as he resumed the +reins. "Mona is very far from well." + +"Just a headache from the sun," said Miss Prior. "And I should not +wonder if lying on the grass in that fashion were to give her a chill." + +"I shall be glad if things are no worse. I find she has been visiting +in Wall's Alley, where there have been six cases of fever lately,—has +seen a child sickening for it." + +"You don't say so! Did she not know of the fever there?" + +"I believe Mr. Chetwynd has a theory that girls are apt to catch fever +through sheer nervousness, and therefore it is best to keep them in +ignorance of particular cases. I hope this may prove to be nothing—but—" + +They all felt that it was indeed a "but." + +Mona, meanwhile, had gone up to her own room, merely telling the +servant, as she passed, that she was tired and meant to go to bed, and +would ring if she wanted anything. But the first thing she did when +there was to take off hat and jacket, and throw herself down on her +knees beside the bed. Too sick and weary for the exertion of steady +thought, she did not so much pray in words, as feel herself only so +utterly self-abased and worthless, that no other attitude seemed +endurable. And though no connected petitions were on her lips or in +her mind, yet the mere act of casting herself there in helpless lowly +dependence upon her Lord, was in itself the very essence of prayer. + +But an hour later, when Mr. Chetwynd came home, she had not risen. He +had been made anxious by a word of warning from Mr. Prior, and came to +the door to inquire if she were ill. All his tapping failed to obtain +an answer. + +She heard him dimly indeed, as she would have heard some far distant +sound, but the power to reply seemed to have forsaken her. + +He came in at length, and lifted her up, and laid her on the bed, with +his hand pressing her burning forehead. + +And then she knew he was asking a question—something—what was it? + +"I can't talk, my head aches so," she tried to say. But other words +than the ones she wanted came to her lips, and she knew by his face of +concern that she was speaking utter nonsense. "I don't know what I am +talking about! What makes me feel so strange?" she strove to ask. + +"Hush, hush, darling; don't say that! Don't you know me, Mona?" + +She was aware again that she had not said what she wished. And when she +would fain have answered, "Uncle Chetwynd," the only words she could +speak were, "Mother! I do so want mother's sweet cool hand." + +"Hartly shall come and put you to bed," said Mr. Chetwynd, and Mona +acquiesced. + +But when the undressing was done, and he stood again by her side, she +murmured confusedly— + +"I haven't said my prayers." + +"Poor child! Yes; you were kneeling down when I came in." + +"I couldn't pray. Will He mind? He knows all. Won't He forgive me?" + +What could Mr. Chetwynd say? This was no time for sneer or scorn. She +turned her shining restless eyes full upon him. + +"No, you don't believe it; you don't know. Oh, it has been dreadful. +But He is tender and pitiful—tender and pitiful. Mother, say me the +rest?" + +What would not Mr. Chetwynd have given at that moment for power to +repeat the whole verse, whatever it might be! + +"I want to hear it all. I think I have forgotten it lately. Prying into +matters too hard for me. But Jesus knows my foolishness, doesn't He?—So +foolish and ignorant. He is tender and pitiful. Don't you think He will +forgive me, though I could not ask Him rightly?" + +And Mr. Chetwynd started at the sound of his own voice, saying +steadily, "Yes, I am sure of it, Mona." + +But what if he had spoken a truer word then than for many a year past? + +All through the long hours of the night he watched by the side of the +fever-stricken girl. The look of deep care which came and settled down +upon his face, was the same as that with which he had summoned Madge +Hardwicke on the morning of the fatal railway accident. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XIX. + +A BLOW. + +"FATHER, it's been just the nicest day I ever had in all my life," +cried little Nannie eagerly, as she rushed into the cottage; and it +was a rare thing for Nannie to have spirits to rush anywhere. "Such +games down in the Dingle, all of us together, and—oh! father, only +think—there was Mr. Prior and all of 'em in the carriage, with a real +great hamper of things for all of us to eat. And we had such fun on the +grass. O father, it's been just beautiful." + +"Nasty foggy sort o' day," growled Amos. + +"Ah, but the fog didn't last long, did it, father? I think 'twas all +the more fun driving home, when we couldn't see our way. And d'you know +they lost the pretty young lady for ever so long, and found her asleep +on the grass, 'cause Madge told me." + +"Yer can hold yer clack," said Amos ungraciously, not being of a +sympathising turn of mind. He did not like to think of the provisions +which she had had, and he had missed. + +"And the parson made me a beautiful basket out of the peel of my +orange," pursued Nannie, too happy to repress her delight at a moment's +notice. + +"Didn't cost him nothin'," said Amos. + +"Ah! But he's as kind—as kind—" repeated Nannie. "And the lady that's +come to the Rectory played some games with us, and then we all went up +the Dingle." + +A grunt was the response. Nannie's excitement was fast cooling. She +gave one little patient sigh, as she lighted the tallow dip in the +disjointed tin candlestick, thereby revealing a small sombre room of +generally musty scent and comfortless aspect. Amos had chosen to close +the rickety shutter before her arrival, thus cutting off the last +remains of twilight. What a contrast to the Dingle, with its green +carpet spreading out in the sunshine. + +Nannie felt sobered all at once—hardly knowing why. She talked no more +of the day's pleasure, but quietly took out her Testament, and began to +learn her next Sunday-school lesson—a text and part of a hymn printed +upon a small leaflet. But Amos interposed. + +"I say—" + +"Yes, father." + +"Yer can stop that now." + +"I'm only learning for Sunday-school," said Nannie timidly. + +"I ain't ageing to have ye wastin' candles over that sort o' work. Get +away to bed." + +Nannie knew that remonstrance would be useless. She closed her +Testament, and put it away quietly. And then, by a sudden impulse, she +crept close up to his side. Such an unattractive repellent old man—the +marvel was that she cared for him at all. And yet she loved him. + +"Father—" she said. + +"Tell ye, yer can get to bed," said Amos, jerking his thumb in the +direction of Nannie's sleeping apartment. + +"Mayn't I say one thing first?" asked Nannie, with a little heart which +fluttered and yet was brave. + +"Don't care!" said Amos surlily. + +"Father, I ain't sure as you'll like it," said Nannie. "But I've +been thinking ever so about you to-day,—and I've prayed you may +love God,—but I'm so feared every morning that maybe it's the +Resurrection-Day, and if you don't make haste, you won't be in time. +I'd want the Day to come, but for that. O father—please!" + +The little upturned face was touching in its humility. She had no +thought of setting him right, or of interfering in matters which did +not concern her. It was only that she was so anxious and frightened for +him, that she could not help trying a few beseeching words. + +But Amos Ackman was not in a state of mind to bear them patiently. +Nannie received no answer in speech. His right arm and leg were thrust +out sharply at the same moment, towards the slight figure of the little +girl beside him. Not that he meant to hurt her. It was just a momentary +outbreak of his crusty vicious temper. The candle was struck down and +extinguished, and Nannie was flung away—somewhere—he did not know +where, only he heard the sound of her heavy fall. + +A fall, and then silence. Not a moan or a murmur broke in upon that +stillness. A pin-fall would have sounded distinctly through the room. +How dark it was! Only a glimmer of departing twilight crept in through +the loosely-shuttered window. Amos did so wish he had not put up the +shutter that evening. But he did not dare to go and remove it. He did +not dare to lift a finger. He did not dare to leave his seat, for if he +moved, he must needs go and see after little Nannie. + +And the thought of that was dreadful to him. Amos Ackman was a +coward at heart. He remembered the words Madge Hardwicke had once +uttered,—"Thank God He's kept you from being a downright murderer." + +Was he a murderer now? Nannie was lying somewhere on the floor in that +small room—lying dead! Amos felt quite sure on that point. He had no +doubt at all about the matter. The force of his own blow, as it had +come back to his ears, and the sound of her heavy helpless fall, and +the silence following, all told the same tale. Nannie was surely dead. + +And he was her murderer! It was her own father's arm which had struck +the brutal coward-blow. Her own father, whom little Nannie had always +loved so well. What a gentle little girl she had been to him for years +past, and especially of late! She had borne his rough usage with such +patience and fortitude, clinging to him so tenderly through all. How +bitterly he had seen her cry over his harsh treatment of her, and yet +how ready she had been in the very midst of her tears to run and do his +bidding. + +And "his" arm had struck the blow. It came over him all at once, what +a strange and terrible sight that little room would present to any one +looking in. He pictured it to himself vividly, as he sat staring into +the darkness, with drops coming thickly out upon his clammy face. The +broken wooden dresser on one side, with two mugs and three cracked blue +plates upon it. And the rickety round table in the middle. And the +two chairs, one having lost a leg, and the other having lost half its +back. And the old battered saucepan hanging up upon the wall, and the +blackened pipe upon the narrow mantel-shelf, and the dirty stew pan +lying down below in the fender among the cold embers. And the figure +of the wretched bent old man, cowering and shaking on his three-legged +stool. And the lifeless form of the little child, lying upon the floor. + +Amos saw it all in his mind, and he was glad that he had put up the +shutter after all. There was a sort of shelter in the darkness. He +felt that nobody could possibly look in and see what had taken place. +By-and-by, as daylight dawned, people would come and find out all, +and Amos would be dragged away to prison, and had up before the +magistrates, and then—why, then, if they did not contrive to bring him +in as insane, which Amos felt quite sure was not the truth, he knew +the alternative. It was very dreadful to think of all these things as +coming upon him, but still now—just now—he felt relieved to know that +nobody could look in through the darkness. + +Nobody! What of ONE. + +Amos started and shuddered. For happening to glance up, his eye was +caught by the steady shining of one brilliant star—a planet rather, but +it was all the same to Amos—the beams of which came through a hole in +the closed shutter, straight to where he sat. + + "The eyes of the Lord are in every place beholding the evil and the +good." + + "The darkness hideth not from Thee, but the night shineth as the day; +the darkness and the light are both alike to Thee." + +Where had he heard those fearful words? What was there in the shining +of that star to bring them to his mind? Were those the verses little +Nannie had been conning over so busily in her low clear tones the +previous Sunday evening? He had listened a minute or two, and then had +struck her book angrily out of her hand, and sent her off supperless +to bed. He had little thought those words would ever come back to +him—words he had learnt at his own mother's knee in early boyhood, and +had long since forgotten. And here they were in strong living power +ringing in his ears. + + "The eyes of the Lord are in every place." + + "The darkness and the light are both alike to Thee!" + +Then His Eyes were there, beholding the little room and all it +contained. Darkness could make no difference. Darkness was clear as +noonday to those all-seeing Eyes. + +Amos could not stand the radiance of that star. He pushed his stool a +little on one side, so that he was not able to see it. But he wanted to +know soon if it were still there, so he pushed his stool back again. +And next he wanted to know if the star were shining on the spot where +Nannie lay. He half rose from his seat to go and see, and then he was +afraid, and sat down again. + + "The wicked flee when no man pursueth, but the righteous are bold as +a lion." + +What had brought "that" into his head now? He did not remember hearing +Nannie say it. Possibly he had, however, and that was how it had come +back to him. It was too bad. Amos hated having those texts ringing +in his cars. He would take care Nannie should go no more to the +Sunday-school, and then she would not pester him with them. No, nor to +Madge Hardwicke's either. Nannie should stay at home and be busy. He +would have no more nonsense. + +Nannie stay at home! Nannie not go to the Sunday-school! Why, he had +forgotten! What could he be thinking about? If Nannie were dead, what +had she to do any more with Sunday-school or Madge? + +Amos groaned, and let his face drop down in his bony hands. He had +nobody to help him. He thought how Madge Hardwicke would pray if she +were in trouble, but he knew nothing of prayer. He had scorned all +notion of religion. Prayer was a foreign language to him altogether. +Nobody to help him now. Nobody to love him ever again. Nat Tyrrell +would never speak to him after this, and Nat Tyrrell was his only +friend. He had dashed aside the love of the one frail little creature, +who had held to him so steadfastly. And now—nothing was left to him. + +"Father!" + +A cold touch came upon his hand in the dark. Amos started back +violently in his fear. The old ignorant superstitious man did not think +it was Nannie herself come to see him, in the poor little body which he +had used so badly, but something of a spirit form—something dreadful, +unnatural, terrible. He was ready to believe anything that night. + +It was Nannie's own little voice, however, which said again— + +"Father." And then, as she felt how he shook and trembled before her, +she added, "What's the matter, father?" + +"'Taint Nannie, sure," said Amos hoarsely. "I—I wish yer 'd get along." + +"Why, father, don't you know me?" asked Nannie. "I couldn't think what +you was after, when I got up, and saw you sitting there." + +For early dawn was stealing in through the closed shutters, and the +long night-hours had passed away somehow. Amos did not know how. He +never would know. He might have lived through ten years, or only ten +minutes, since the evening before. It was all the same to him. He could +have believed either assertion. + +Nannie went and opened the closed shutters with her little feeble +hands, which had not much of even their usual strength in them this +morning. Then she came back again, and for the first time he ventured +to look at her. + +"I'd been thinkin' I'd killed you outright, Nan," he muttered. "I ain't +agoin' to knock you down again, though,—and I didn't mean to then, +neither." + +"Won't you do it, father, even if I speak to you about the Lord Jesus +once in awhile?" asked little Nannie, true even in her pain and +weakness to her constant aim, as the needle to the pole. + +"I'll let yer say what yer likes," returned Amos. "Be you very bad, +Nan?" + +Nannie's white drooping face looked up with a brave smile. "I'll be +better soon, father. I'll go and lie down a bit, 'cause I'm so tired. +But we ain't going to tell nobody about to-night." + +"They'd have me took up an' punished, sure enough, if 'twas known," +said Amos in fear. + +"No, nobody ain't to know," repeated Nannie. "I think I've been +stunned, you know, but I'll be better by-and-by. And you're going to +love me now, ain't you, please?" + +She leant against him feebly. "I've been a bad father to yer, Nannie, I +have," he said self-reproachfully. + +And then, with a gentle kiss—the first she had dared to give him for +a long while past—she walked away and laid herself down on the little +palliasse which formed her bed. And Nannie probably knew scarcely +better than did Amos himself that the long unconsciousness which +followed was not sleep, but alternate fainting and stupor. Poor little +Nannie! She had no one to help her in her need, so she only lay in +patient meek endurance. + +Somewhere about nine o'clock Madge Hardwicke came to the door. + +"Amos—up, are you?" she said. "Where's Nannie?" + +"Asleep, an' you'd best leave her," said Amos, not caring that the two +should meet sooner than was needful. + +"Maybe the little lass is tired with yesterday. 'Twas something new for +her, and she don't look well neither of late. Tell her from me, will +you, Amos, that I'm called off down in the town, and maybe won't be +back a good many days." + +Amos concealed his satisfaction. "What's the matter? Doctor wants yer, +eh?" + +"Miss Clyde's down with the fever. Will you give a truthful message for +me, Amos? Tell Nannie she's to pray. Poor young lady. I doubt me but +it's a bad case, and the doctor's nigh heart-broken already." + +"I'll give yer message," said Amos, anxious to have her gone. + +And Madge withdrew, marvelling much what could have made him so unlike +himself. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XX. + +SUNSET CLOUDS. + +A BEAM of setting sunlight came slanting through the lattice-window of +Nannie's tiny bedroom, and fell athwart her palliasse. She was lying +there as she had taken to doing lately, not undressed, but just resting +patiently, with one little thin hand folded over the other, and her +wistful eyes travelling to and fro over the bare walls and cobwebbed +ceiling. The gleam of red light brought a sudden look of pleasure into +her face. + +"O it's pretty. Father, ain't it pretty?" + +"Eh, Nan? Did yer call?" asked Amos, shuffling in hurriedly, in his +uncouth fashion. + +"Ain't that a pretty bit of sunlight, father?" + +Amos looked hard without discovering any particular beauty, but +said,—"Sure, yes, 'tis,"—in uncertain tones, wishing to humour her. + +"Don't it seem long since Madge went down into the town?" said Nannie +with a sigh, as a tinge of deeper crimson crept into the red. + +"Fortnight to-day," said Amos. + +"And the pretty young lady is just as ill as ever," said Nannie +sorrowfully. + +"Well, I don't know as she ain't better this afternoon, but Tyrrell he +telled me this mornin' that the doctors said if the fever didn't turn +soon, as how she'd die." + +"Madge said I was to pray, didn't she?" said Nannie, putting the same +question which she had put twenty times before in the last fortnight. + +Amos nodded. He could feel no possible doubt now that he had delivered +Madge Hardwicke's message faithfully. + +"But maybe it 'ud be better for her, if she wasn't to get well," said +Nannie thoughtfully. + +Amos did not feel himself called upon to hazard an opinion in the +matter. He waited a moment, and then, finding that she did not speak +again, went back to his bench. Nannie rose, and followed him out slowly. + +"Eh, Nan,—so here yer are," said Amos, looking up. "Seems yer pickin' +up again." + +Nannie smiled thought she did not acquiesce in words. "Will you have me +read to you, father?" + +Amos could not refuse. She had fallen into the habit of reading a +chapter aloud to him, morning and evening, and though he never troubled +himself to listen particularly, he rather liked the sound of her voice. +It gave him a lulled sensation which was akin to repose, and therefore +agreeable. + +So the little brown Testament came out, and Nannie read on for a while, +in her soft monotonous tones. + +Amos worked steadily, and heard in a certain fashion, without paying +any close attention. When there came a pause, he looked up, and said,— + +"Yer a clever Nan to read so pretty,—that's what yer be." + +"Father, ain't the words beautiful?" said Nannie wistfully. + +"Sure, yes," said Amos rather uneasily, for he had not the remotest +idea what they had been about. + +"O father, I wish you cared," said Nannie sadly. "It don't seem to be +nothing to you. And I'd sooner have you love God, than anything else in +all the world." + +The red gleams of sunlight faded away, as the sun dipped down behind +the horizon-line of the clear blue water,—not behind West Point at this +time of the year. The dark headland shone like burnished armour in the +yellow glow, till the evening shade crept over its brightness, and left +it gray and cold again. But the clouds were torn about in fantastic +shapes of wildest beauty; and every pyramid, peak, and mountain, up in +that watery land, was tinged or deeply dyed with crimson and purple +and gold. The very air seemed filled with a rich pervading red, and +Nannie's little white cheeks looked almost healthy for once, as she sat +there, with her eyes fixed on the wondrous view before her. + +"Father," she said suddenly,—"don't you think it'll be like that when +He comes?" + +"Eh?" said Amos, looking down at Nannie. + +"He'll come in the clouds of heaven, you know," said Nannie softly. +"The Lord Jesus, father. He'll come riding in the clouds, with +thousands and thousands all in shining white coming after Him. O +father, I'd like so to hear the trumpet, and to see Him,—if only I just +knowed you'd be caught up with me to meet Him." + +"Caught up?" said Ackman. She was talking a foreign language to poor +old Amos. + +"Up in the air," said Nannie, her face shining as if it had caught a +reflection of the western sky. "All that's loved Him, you know, father. +He'll call up first them that's died, out of their graves, and then +all of us that's alive—we'll go up, up, through the air to meet Him. +And He'll make us beautiful like He is,—all in one moment. And oh, +father,—think how He'll smile!" + +"Don't know," said Amos slowly, looking subdued. "Seems to me He +wouldn't do aught but frown on me, Nan, for nigh a-murderin' of you." + +"O father! But He's died for you too, and He loves you," said little +Nannie confidently. "And He'll put His Spirit into your heart, if you +ask Him, and then you'll be quite different." + +"Need be, sure enough," said Amos. "Why, Nan, I'd be awful feared to +see all you're a-telling me of." Something in the child's earnest face +and manner brought it home to the old man's heart, as it had never come +home before. His bony hands shook nervously, and his deep-set eyes +peered up at the clouds, as if he almost expected there and then to see +an avenging angel's sword flash forth through the radiant air. + +"Maybe now, father, 'cause you don't know the Lord Jesus," said Nannie +gently. "I'd a deal of fear once too. I used to think dying in a bed +all quiet wouldn't be half so bad. It seemed to me as if the great +trumpet 'ud sound so awful—and then the bright light, and the ground +shaking, and Him coming in such glory, with the clouds and the angels, +and all the white shining and dazzling,—I was ever so feared to think +of it all." + +"When you was naughty?" demanded Amos, with a glance towards his own +troubled conscience. + +"Why—yes, father; and pretty near always that was too. It used to +seem to me as if I was so small and poor, that maybe among such a +lot as He'd have to catch up into glory, I'd just be forgotten and +left behind. But I know a deal better now. The Lord Jesus forget! +Why, father," and Nannie smiled a bright, almost amused smile,—"why, +father, 'twas the strangest thought ever anybody had, to think He could +'forget,' after dying for me." + +Amos looked at her in wonder. How came this little child to know so +much, when he, an old man of many long and weary years, knew so little? + +"And then I'll have the mark in my forehead, Madge says, for the angels +to know me," Nannie went on. "Maybe they'd know without, that the Lord +Jesus loved me, but that 'll make it all as sure as can be. And then, +you know, father, I don't see how I'll be able to be frightened, 'cause +it won't be a strange dreadful Judge coming, like He'll be to some +people, but only just my own Lord Jesus, that's loved me such a while. +I couldn't be frightened to see Him, could I? And Parson says He smiles +so on the little children. But,—oh, father, I'd be so happy if I didn't +be afraid He wouldn't be able to smile on you, 'cause you won't come to +Him now." + +And Nannie put her head down on her father's knee, and burst into +tears. Old Amos was strangely moved. He could not bear to see Nannie's +distress, and he shrank in terror from the thought of what might come +upon himself. How could he, poor miserable old man, stained darkly +through and through with the unwashed sins of over three-score years, +dare to meet the Face of Kingly glory, for which little Nannie so +eagerly waited? + +"I don't know nothin', Nan, but I'll do what you tells me," he said +brokenly. "Maybe your Lord Jesus wouldn't mind if I was to ask Him to +put me right somehow; only I don't know how, Nan. I be an awful wicked +old fellow, Nan." + +"We'll come right in, and ask Him now, father," said Nannie, rising up +and pulling at his sleeve. + +[Illustration: "Father!" A cold touch came upon his hand in the dark. +Amos started back violently in his fear.] + +Amos was fain to follow her, though with a half-bewildered look. He was +too stiff himself to kneel, but he let little Nannie kneel beside him, +and plead in her simple earnest language, that "God would have mercy +on poor father, and send His Holy Spirit into father's heart, and wash +away all his sins in Jesus Christ's blood." And then Nannie looked up +and whispered, "Just say after me, father,—'For Jesus Christ's sake, +Amen;' 'cause that 'll mean you really wants it ever so." + +"For Jesus Christ's sake, Amen," repeated Amos slowly, like one +stumbling out a few syllables in an unknown tongue. "Sure enough, an' I +do want it too. But I say, I don't feel different yet, like you said I +would be." + +"Ah, but it'll come," said Nannie gently. "We'll go on asking till it +does." + +Then Nannie kissed him, as she had often done of late, and went away to +her own room. + +Amos crept after her in a little while, hardly knowing why, and found +her lying there in the twilight, with her hands folded together, and +her eyes looking up to the rough rafters overhead. + +"What are yer a-seeing, Nan?" he asked half fearfully. Something in her +face gave him a strange feeling of uneasiness, for which he could not +account to himself. + +"I'm only thinkin', father, how I'd like to hear the angels' song +to-night," said Nannie, smiling. + +"Wish yer wouldn't talk like that," said Amos, fidgeting. + +"Why, father,—they're singin' about you!" said Nannie. + +Amos gave a startled look up and around, as if he expected to catch +an echo of the wondrous chorus. But the fretting of a bough against +the cottage-roof was the only sound which came to his ears; and rather +relieved, though disappointed, he said, "Yer a-dreaming, Nan; I don't +hear nothin'." + +"They're singing," said Nannie quietly; "'cause the Bible says so, +father. Leastways, it says there's joy among the angels, you know, +soon's ever anybody turns to God." + +Amos did not know anything about it, but he only asked, rather +fearfully, "Do you hear them, Nan?" + +"No, father; not yet awhile," said Nannie. "Maybe I will soon." + +And then she shut her eyes, and went peacefully off to sleep. + +But Amos stood looking at her for some minutes, thinking how changed +she had grown of late. He wished Madge Hardwicke would come home, and +tell him whether she needed anything doing to her. She seemed to have +faded into such a white frail shadow of a child these last few days. +She never complained of pain, and only lay about because she was "so +tired." But somehow, Amos could not overcome the impression that all +was not quite right with her. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XXI. + +"O THOU OF LITTLE FAITH." + +THROUGH fourteen weary days and nights Mona had tossed and murmured +ceaselessly, in burning fever and delirium. And then came the +longed-for sleep, quieting down the throbbing pulses, and hushing the +wearing pain. For hours she lay in that deep heaven-sent repose, while +the flush faded from her check, and the look of suffering from her brow. + +Just when little Nannie was enjoying the bright western colouring, and +when Madge, in her silent watch, had noticed how even the dim sick-room +was gaining a reflection of the outer glow, there came for the first +time some words in a clear and natural though feeble voice. + +"Madge, what makes the air so full of red?" + +It had been "mother" instead of Madge, during the last fortnight, and +in truth not even Mona's own mother could have nursed her with more +devoted tenderness. + +"It's the sunset, Miss Mona," Madge said gently, while her heart beat +fast with joyful relief. + +A glass of pale liquid on the table awaited this moment of first +awakening. It was given and taken, and then Mona said drowsily, "I +should like to see the shining on the water." + +She was asleep again before Madge needed to answer, and through the +two nights and days following, the same calm slumber lasted. They +could scarcely rouse her at intervals sufficiently to receive needful +nourishment. Fair and pale as a snow-drop she lay there, with one white +cheek resting lightly on her wasted hand. And the somewhat oppressed +and troubled look, which had been visible in her first sleep, was +exchanged now for an expression of such complete repose, that Madge +bent many a time over the bed, to listen anxiously for the calm +breathing which never failed to reassure her. + +Nearly forty-eight hours had elapsed since the red sunset, when Mona +showed symptoms at length of fairly waking up. Mr. Chetwynd was out, +but the ever-watchful Madge was at hand with proper nourishment, +delicately prepared and served. Mona seemed ready to take any amount, +but she obeyed when told she had had enough, and only said, "Come and +sit down beside me." + +"Won't you go to sleep again, Miss Mona?" + +"I'm not sleepy—I am wide awake. Madge, have I been very ill?" + +"Yes, but thank God, you're better now, Miss Mona." + +A sigh answered her. Madge kept silence, but Mona was evidently in a +talking mood, for she soon began again— + +"I can't remember things clearly. I wish I could. It seems to me as if +the last clear thing was that drive from the Dingle." + +"You were taken ill that very evening, Miss Mona; and Mr. Prior's been +twice a day since to ask after you, and has prayed many a time by your +bedside." + +"Has he? I am glad," said Mona involuntarily. "But—uncle Chetwynd—" + +"He never spoke a word against it, Miss Mona, though he held back from +joining." + +"Madge—have I talked a great deal?" asked Mona suddenly. + +"Pretty well, Miss Mona. But I wouldn't begin thinking and speaking +about all that now, if I was you. It's bad for your head. You'd better +rest." + +"No—I have had rest—I am better now. I wish you would come here and sit +close beside me. I want to tell you something." + +Madge changed her position at once, putting aside her work, and letting +Mona's head rest upon her arm. + +"Yes, that is nice. Mother used to do just so, last time I was ill. +I've seen her so often lately, Madge—not really of course, but—O +Madge—do you think—" + +"Yes, dear Miss Mona." + +"Am I wrong?" whispered Mona. "I did think I was going home to +mother—and I can't be glad now." + +Madge's cool fingers were passed lightly over her brow. + +"It's best to be willing to wait the Master's own time, Miss Mona." + +"I think it is hard not to wish," said Mona. + +"Maybe the Lord 'll have you wait, dear Miss Mona, till it's Himself +and not your mother that makes the glory and joy of your heaven." + +"Ah, but it is—it is that too," said Mona quickly. "Not enough, I +know—but I have learnt more of Him now than I knew before." + +Then, after a little break, during which Madge expected that something +else was coming—"I want to tell you a sort of dream I had." + +"Wouldn't it be better to wait till you're stronger, Miss Mona?" + +"No, I am not tired. It will do me good to talk." She spoke so quietly +and firmly, that Madge fancied it might be so indeed, and did not +oppose her. + +"I don't know when it was, or whether I was wandering or asleep, Madge. +I have had so many fancies and dreams that I get puzzled among them, +only this was quite different from all the rest. I thought I was out +alone in a little boat on the sea—such a wild rough sea. The great +waves were rising and falling, and flinging their spray all over me, +and breaking up against one another in the mad sort of way they do out +beyond the Point on a stormy day. It was such spray, and the mist was +so thick, that I was half-blinded, and so tired and cold and sad, that +I seemed to have no strength to row. Just as I have often felt. And all +sorts of dreadful thoughts and feelings of doubt kept rising up, and I +had no power to conquer them. + +"And all at once I saw a dark gloomy figure coming towards me over +across the water—softly, slowly, with such an awful stillness, and long +black robes sweeping down into the waves, which seemed to lull before +him as he came. Madge, you don't know how frightened I was. For I knew +I could not escape. I knew quite well that what I saw was the Angel of +Death, coming to take me. I had not been afraid of death in my illness +before that, but now in the midst of doubt, and thick mist, and dashing +waves, it seemed terrible. And there was the bright sword gleaming +in his hand in the moonlight, and his face was all muffled up, but I +knew how stern it must be behind. And he never moved faster, but came +slowly, slowly and steadily on, straight towards me, with the waves all +still beneath his feet, but dashing more wildly than ever round me. +Madge, do you see it all as I saw it?" + +"I'm thinking I do, Miss Mona." + +"He came closer and closer, and I knew I had no way of escape. It was +quite hopeless. And I think gave one shriek of fear, as the hem of +the dark heavy robe first touched me—so heavy and cold it felt. But +then—then—oh, Madge!" + +"Yes, Miss Mona, dear." + +"Madge, if you could have seen as I did. He threw aside slowly, +quietly, the dark cloak, and underneath was all one glory of dazzling +kingly garments. And the shining sword, as I had thought it, was only a +sceptre. And He let me see His face, which had been covered up—and oh, +Madge, it was Himself!—my Lord! And I knew then that the Death-Angel +was no stranger, but my own Master who loved me, and who had come, as +I thought, to take me home. Madge, I wish He had. I wanted so to go. +And the way He took me up in His arms, and held me, and smiled down on +me, with a smile so sweet and bright that I could scarcely face it,—I +don't know how I bore at that moment to think how I had doubted Him, +and dared to question His doings. And the next thing was that I found +myself down at His feet, clinging there, and trying to sob out a prayer +for forgiveness—" + +Mona was crying so that she could scarcely speak. "No, let me go on," +she said, when Madge would have interposed. "I must tell you, and it +won't hurt me. You don't know how terrible it was to me to think of the +last few months—and it seemed as if I remembered everything clearly at +that moment. And I knew He knew it too—and I dreaded even then that +His anger might be coming. But instead of anger, He only said in the +gentlest, tenderest tone of reproach—'O thou of little faith, wherefore +didst thou doubt?'" + +"And He does say it to each one of us," murmured Madge. "He's every bit +the same now as in Peter's days." + +"I knew it meant forgiveness," said Mona. "And I thought He was going +to take me up, and carry me away with Him. For the mist had cleared off +in His presence, and I could catch a glimpse of glory shining over the +mountains in the distance. And I knew that my Home lay beyond, and that +mother was there too. But He only laid His hand on my head, and said +still more sweetly—'My grace is sufficient for thee, for My strength is +made perfect in weakness.' And then when I looked up, He was gone, and +the mist had disappeared, and the water was still, so I just lay down +in my boat, and went to sleep. And the next time I woke up, I found +myself in bed, with a strange red look in the air, and you beside me. I +knew then that I was getting well. O Madge, was it all a dream, or did +I see Him really?" + +"'Twas a word of comfort sent to your heart, anyway, Miss Mona. I'd +take it so, and doubt no more." + +"And you don't think I am wrong to wish I were safe out of all the +fighting?" + +"Maybe a little wanting in courage, dear Miss Mona. I do think the Lord +likes us to want to be with Him, and to see His glory. But it wouldn't +do neither in a battle, if all the soldiers were crying out that they +were so tired of fighting, they wanted to go straight home and rest. +I don't know how ever the victory would be won. I think the Captain +would say—'Fight on, my lads, and conquer first, and then 'll come your +rest.' And the Master has a right to look for us to be willing and glad +to do His work, so long as He has work He wants us to do. Home 'll be +all the happier after, for the waiting." + +"Don't you ever feel impatient?" asked Mona. + +"I've three sorts of feelings about it, Miss Mona. One is, I've a wish +to stay here just as long as my Master wills I should. Another is, I've +a deal of longing to see His Face. Another is, I can't help thinking +how now's the very last time through all Eternity that I'll be able +to show Him my love, by bearing pain and trouble for His sake. There +'ll be service and praise in Heaven, but there 'll be no showing of +patience, under pain and sorrow, to honour His Name. I don't know as +I'd wish to have it over-much shortened, though I'll be right glad too, +when the day comes to go Home. But 'tis sweet to be waiting and bearing +for Him now." + +"I never thought of that," said Mona. "And I have borne so little for +His sake, and hardly worked for Him at all. Madge, I think you have +made me glad that He has not taken me away just yet." + +And Mona fell asleep again, with her head on Madge Hardwicke's arm, +and a smile upon her lips. She did not know how Madge sat there, and +prayed that she might be kept by the "Keeper of Israel" through all the +dangers and difficulties of her future Homeward journey. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XXII. + +WARNING. + +"MADGE, she is wonderfully better," said the doctor one evening, two or +three days later. He had called Madge into his study, for some purpose +unknown to herself, leaving the housekeeper in charge of Mona, and had +bidden her take a seat. There was a small fire in the grate, and the +doctor's fingers were turning up the lamp-wick. + +"She is getting on marvellously,—seems to have no end of capacities for +sleeping and eating. Poor little Mona! I hardly thought at one time +that we should pull her through." + +Madge was silent. The doctor brought his attention to bear upon her +somewhat curiously, wondering what thoughts might belying beneath those +intent gray eyes. + +"The fact is, your care and splendid nursing have saved her, Madge, +as they have saved many a patient of mine before to-day. But I never +thanked you so heartily as now." + +Silence still, and there was a troubled look on Madge Hardwicke's face. + +"What are you thinking about?" the doctor asked, with a puzzled air. + +"I'm thinking, sir, that I'd sooner you hadn't begun with all them kind +words to me," said Madge quietly, "for I'd a thing I wanted to say to +you, as wouldn't sound so kind back again." + +"You!" said the doctor, opening his eyes. "You're mysterious to-night. +I've a thing to say to you too. But you shall have your turn first. By +the bye, you don't mean anything about Miss Mona,—any fresh symptoms?" + +"No, sir. I think she is getting on as well as need be." + +"All right. I don't mind anything else. What is it, Madge?" + +Madge looked thoughtfully into the fire for a minute, during which he +watched her rather comically. There were tears shining in her eyes, +when she turned and faced him. + +"Sir, all through the last fortnight you and I've been many a time +together by Miss Mona's side, and heard the poor lamb's mutterings and +ravings. And though I've said no word to you, nor you to me, we both +know well what 'twas all about." + +Mr. Chetwynd nodded. He had not expected this, and did not quite know +how to meet what he guessed was coming. + +"And you know, sir,—maybe a deal better than I do, for all she's +said,—what it was that brought her so much misery." + +"Poor little lassie!" he said, with would-be lightness. "Come, I +acknowledge that I have been rather reckless in my remarks before her. +Will that content you, Madge?" + +She passed over the last question as if it had not been spoken. +"Sir, it's a deal more than that. It's Satan's own work you've been +after,—going and putting your doubts and unbelief into the hearts of +those whom the Lord would fain have to be peaceful and happy. It's the +work of Satan that you've taken up,—and oh, sir, you'll find him one +day a hard and bitter taskmaster, letting alone the judgments of the +Lord Himself upon those who dare to meddle in His work." + +She spoke solemnly, yet with a strange sort of compassionate longing, +as if it were rather for his sake than for Mona's that the words were +uttered. The doctor positively could not find it in his heart to be +angry, though he told himself that he ought. + +"You are hard upon me, Madge," he said. "Are rational men never to +admit a doubt, where doubts exist?" + +"There's two sorts of doubtings, sir. I've nought of blame for them of +the Master's weaker disciples, who are tempest-tossed, and buffeted +about by Satan's temptations. I tell 'em only to fight and trust on, +and in the end He'll bring them through. But there's another sort of +doubting, that's just a cool pulling to pieces of God's Word, and +upsetting this, and denying that,—and a deal of it only from a man's +love of showing his own cleverness. The Lord has one word for all +such,—'He that believeth not God hath made Him a liar.' It's a plain +word, sir,—and it's a plain and fearful answer He'll have for all such +in time to come." + +"Come, come, don't be unmerciful, Madge," said the doctor, speaking +lightly still, though somewhat annoyed. "I'm not one of those folks who +would throw over the Bible by any means. Don't I go to Church every +Sunday of my life, and hear it read,—most devoutly I assure you? I look +upon it as a highly valuable and useful volume in every sense, and +couldn't do without it at all. Why, Madge, don't you know I have family +prayers?" + +"Yes, sir. But the Bible you couldn't do without, sir, is a piecemeal +Bible of your own, and not God's Word as He has given it to us. Like as +if I was ill, and you were to give me a prescription to make me well, +and I was to say,—'No, I'll leave out this and that, lest they're a +mistake, and have the rest made up, and take it,'—and then was to blame +you for not curing me, if I found myself dying for want of the right +treatment! It wouldn't be 'your' prescription at all that I'd followed, +if I didn't take the whole." + +"You're too clever a woman by half, Madge!" said the doctor. + +Madge always held to a straightforward course in conversation, and was +not to be turned aside. "Sir, you know well enough I'm a poor ignorant +woman, and haven't half your learning. But maybe there are things in +the hidden life, which I have learnt afore you." + +"Well, well, perhaps I shall learn them too some day," said the doctor, +hoping to silence her. "Come, I know what you are driving at. I'll +promise you to guard my words most carefully for the future, in Miss +Mona's presence. I see the thing won't do. Why, you might have the +common-sense to know I should do it, for the sake of her health alone. +She will be unequal to any agitation for a long while to come. Are you +satisfied now?" + +"No, sir." + +Mr. Chetwynd looked at her in surprise. "Not! What next?" + +"I've no right to say more," Madge answered sorrowfully. "Save that +you're always so kind to me, I wouldn't dare to venture. But 'tis that +very kindness makes it harder to bear, to see you hanging over a great +gulf, and maybe any moment to go down—down—for ever." + +He positively gave a half-shiver, and then laughed. "Madge, you really +are preposterous. But don't think I'm angry. This isn't the first +attempt you have made, at converting me to your own views." + +"'Tis the Bible views, not mine, that I'd see you converted to, sir." + +"Why, Madge, haven't I just been telling you that I do read the Bible, +and value it too?" + +"Maybe you do, sir. I've nought to say against that. But you might go +a deal farther in the way of reading and valuing, and yet be no nearer +heaven." + +"Come, Madge, come,—what right have you to say I'm not so near as you +are yourself?" asked the doctor, somewhat nettled. + +"There's but one road to eternal life, sir," Madge answered. "It is not +reading the Bible, but believing what's written, which takes a man to +heaven." + +"'I' don't disbelieve the Bible, Madge," said the doctor. + +"You don't believe it, sir, if you please." + +Mr. Chetwynd shrugged his shoulders slightly. "Go on, Madge; I see you +are determined to have your say, and I owe you too much to grumble." + +"Sir, I've no thought to take advantage of that, and I would grieve to +be of a meddlesome or judging spirit," said Madge gently. "But maybe +you'll let me put a question to you." + +Mr. Chetwynd nodded permission, and waited. + +Madge did not speak in a hurry; it was not her way. + +"Sir, you say you believe the Bible—or leastways, you say you don't +disbelieve it, which isn't at all the same thing. But will you please +tell me, or tell yourself—it don't matter which—what 'do' you believe +in the Bible, sir?" + +The question came very calmly and softly. It sounded so simple that he +smiled at first and said, "To be sure I will; let me think a moment." + +But when he came to consider, he found the matter not quite so easy. +Those gray eyes opposite, watching and waiting, disturbed the current +of his thoughts. It was more easy to generalise than to descend to +particulars. He ran over a few ideas in his mind, but could at such +short notice discover no satisfactory answer. He had set up a very +comfortable little religion of his own, founded upon certain doctrinal +theories, most of which he vaguely believed were to be found in the +Bible. Only there were undoubtedly a good many other things to be found +there as well, which certainly would not square with the said private +theological system of his own, and which, therefore, in plain terms, he +did not believe. + +"It is getting late, Madge," he said, with some impatience in his tone. +"Hardly time to enter upon a discussion on that point to-night, I +think. At all events, I believe a good many things which you believe, +and possibly some which you don't. Is your conscience satisfied now?" + +The last words were pleasantly uttered. Madge rose obediently, but +lingered still for a moment. + +"It isn't to satisfy my conscience, sir, that I've spoken, but because +I couldn't hold in any longer; and I've said little now that I'd like +to say. Maybe you'll think it over, when you've spare time, and see how +the Bible is the Word of God Himself, and how, if you do believe it, +you can't go right against its plain teaching. Maybe you'll remember, +sir, that there's no middle way for any man, and a half-and-half belief +is as bad as no belief at all." + +"And what if I do not believe the Bible, Madge?" + +The question came involuntarily. He had not meant to ask it. + +The answer was in a tone of deep compassion. + +"Then, sir, there's nothing left to you—no hope, no pardon, no Saviour, +no heaven! You're just a lone and helpless soul, standing apart from +God for ever." + +"Madge, that same Bible tells us, 'God is love'—a God of mercy." + +"Ay, sir," Madge answered, "and 'our God is a consuming fire'—a God of +justice. You've got to put the two together, as Mr. Prior would tell +you. God is love, sure enough, but if His love don't come down to you +through Jesus Christ His Son, it's little you have to hope for from it. +And if you don't believe the Word of God, how are you to believe in Him +of whom the Word all through teaches us?" + +She had done now, and moved quietly towards the door. + +"Good-bye, Madge," he said, with a little nod, much in his usual +fashion. "Many thanks for your kind intentions, you know. Tell Miss +Mona I am coming in directly, to say good night." + +"I will, sir; and thank you for letting me speak." + +She disappeared with her noiseless step, and the doctor sat for a +minute with bent brows, thinking over the past half-hour. "Pshaw! What +is it to me? We all have our own opinions, and Madge has hers with a +vengeance. Common-sense enough in every-day matters, but quite a 'tête +exaltée' about religion. Couldn't refuse, of course, to let her speak, +after her devotion to Mona; but the thing is done now, and having +relieved her conscience, I suppose she will be content to leave me in +peace for awhile." + +Rather hastily he started up, leaving his lamp burning still upon the +table, and went to Mona's room. + +Madge let him in, without look or sign of consciousness respecting +the conversation just ended, and he gave her in passing a careless +little nod, which conveyed condescending forgiveness for anything of +presumption on her part. Madge received it meekly, and followed him +towards the bed. + +"Well, my dear—getting on all right?" + +She put out her hand in welcome. "Madge, I wish you would get me a +glass of fresh water while uncle is here, and bring it back when he +goes." + +Madge moved off obediently, aware from the manner rather than the words +that Mona wanted a few minutes alone with her uncle. + +Mr. Chetwynd noticed nothing of the kind. He had his finger on Mona's +wrist. + +"What are you fluttering about now, my dear?" he asked, looking keenly +at her. + +She stretched the other hand across, and brought out a little Bible +from under the bedclothes. "Uncle, I haven't had my reading this +evening. Won't you read me a few verses?" + +"I!" said Mr. Chetwynd. "Isn't that Madge's business?" + +"Won't you, for once?" she asked. + +"My dear, I really think that is more in her line than mine. I always +do say it is a pity she could not be a clergyman." + +"I am not jesting," said Mona gently. "I should like it so much. You +have never read to me all the time I have been ill. Won't you, uncle?" + +The doctor began to feel rather irritated. "I say, do you know what +Madge and I have been talking about?" he asked involuntarily. + +Mona's surprised look was answer enough. "No,—what?" + +"Oh, nothing of consequence; never mind. I was only thinking of a +curious instance of the doctrine of coincidences," said Mr. Chetwynd. + +And Mona wondered whether Madge could by any possibility have made a +like request, but decided against the supposition. + +"Well," said the doctor, after a moment's watching of her face, "shall +I summon Madge and say good night?" + +"I am not sleepy," said Mona. "You don't always go off in such a hurry. +Uncle Chetwynd—" + +"Some big thoughts troubling this small brain, eh?" asked Mr. Chetwynd. +"Come, come, you must be a child a little longer, my dear, or you'll +have quite a disfiguring dent on that smooth forehead." + +"I am too old to be ever a child again," said Mona. "But I am quite +happy now, and I shall be—if—" + +"If what?" + +"If you will let me,"—and tears rushed to her eyes. + +At it again! The doctor's prominent sensation, which was happily of +care for Mona, barely sufficed to cover his secondary sensation of +personal aggravation. And this time he really had something of hurt +feeling as well. + +"I let you! My dear child, don't you know yet that you are dearer to me +than all the rest of the world put together?" + +"I know," she said, with trembling lips. "I know you would do anything +for me—almost anything—and you are as kind as kind can be, except—" + +"Except when I am cruel." + +He wanted to turn it off lightly, but she answered unexpectedly by a +faltering—"Yes." + +"Cruel, am I, eh?" said the doctor, rather displeased. + +"Only in one thing," she murmured, clasping her hands. "O uncle, you +didn't think,—but if you knew how dreadful it was all those months—" + +"Come, come, my dear, you are excited this evening. What was so +dreadful?" + +"To lose everything—everything," she said slowly, yet with somewhat of +passionate energy in the low voice. "To lose all faith and hope—all +hold upon my Saviour—to stand outside in the black darkness, feeling +that the light was gone from me, and it might be, was gone for ever." + +"Mona, I always most conscientiously avoided arguments with you on +disputed points," he said gravely. + +"Yes, you did, and that was the worst of all, I think. If you had +even argued, I could have tried to answer, and I might have gone to +friends to ask what to say. That would have been bad enough, but this +was worse. There was nothing to take hold of, only those terrible +things—little things—which you used to say just in passing. And they +seemed to take hold of me, and shut me in, till I could only feel that +I was helpless, just drifting farther and farther away from God." + +"Now, Mona, my dear child, you have been brooding over these ideas, +till you fancy them ten times worse than they ever were," said the +doctor, in a tone of expostulation. + +"Worse!" She raised herself to a sitting posture, with a gleam in her +eyes. "You don't know, uncle. I'll tell you what it was like. I used +to feel that I was standing on the very edge of a slippery precipice, +leaning over and looking down, and so giddy that I could scarcely keep +my footing. And I had not only no power to draw back, but I had almost +left off wishing to draw back, though sometimes I had a glimpse of the +danger I was in. I think it was a sort of dreadful fascination. And it +was you who led me there." + +"Not intentionally, Mona." + +"It was you," she repeated, with unsteady lips. "Thank God, He did not +let you send me over. But I had gone so far—that at one time—it almost +seemed—as if nothing could ever draw me back." + +He did not choose that Mona should see how closely her words had +touched him, and only said: "Am I forgiven now?" + +"It isn't forgiveness—I don't feel like that about it," she said +hurriedly. "Only—oh, uncle, if you go and do the same to others, it may +be they will not be stopped in time, and then their death will be upon +you." + +As with Madge, so here, anxiety for himself came strongly out. She +caught his hand and held it tightly, with tears in her eyes. "You are +always so good and kind to me,—like a father," she half whispered. "I +can't bear to say such things to you. But it frightens me to think that +all might come over again,—with others, if not with me too. I am very +weak, and words like that take such hold, even though I know at the +time they are not true." + +"You shall not hear them from me again," he said. "Will that content +you?" + +She looked up wistfully without speaking. He did not choose to wait for +anything more. + +"There, then, that will do. Go to sleep now, like a good child, and +don't worry your head any more with such matters. I'll send Madge to +you at once." + +"And you don't mind what I have said?" she whispered. + +"Invalids are privileged people. Good night, my dear. Shut your eyes, +and don't think about anything until morning comes." + +He gave her a kiss—kinder than usual, if that were possible—felt her +pulse once more, patted her hand smilingly, and walked away to summon +Madge. + +Mona did as she was told, and went quietly off to sleep. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XXIII. + +THE WISDOM OF THE WISE. + +BUT Mr. Chetwynd sat long in his study, gazing into the fire, and +playing with a glass letter-weight upon the table. Somehow he could +not easily shake off the impression of the double warning which he +had so singularly received. It was evidently a mere coincidence, and +quite undesigned, though very probably the result on both sides of some +conversation upon the subject that afternoon. + +And the two coming thus closely together—the warning of Madge +Hardwicke, the simple-minded strong-hearted cottager; and the warning +of Mona, his gentle niece—had left an impression behind. It was a +confused impression at first. A good deal of annoyance, and a good +deal of hurt feeling, were mingled with some genuine reproaches of +conscience. The words of Madge alone, or of Mona alone, might scarcely +have sufficed to do so much, but coming together, they had shaken +him out of his usual self-satisfied composure. He found there would +be small likelihood of sleep, till he had come to some sort of an +understanding with himself. So he sat still, and thought the matter out. + +Mona had said some hard things to him—that slight young creature, whom +he had regarded as scarcely more than a child. If he had ever soberly +considered the matter, he would have supposed her to be quite incapable +of entering into the real meaning of such remarks, as those in which +he had often indulged himself before her. He little knew the dormant +capacities for speculation in the mind of many such a girl as Mona. + +And "he" had led her to the precipice-edge! And "his" words had done +the mischief! And "he" had been the source of pain and misery to the +child of his lost and only sister. Why, he would have given his very +life to save hers any day. And yet— + +Amos Ackman had narrowly escaped becoming the murderer of his child. +But he had had no power, in all his sullen anger, to touch the life +enshrined within that little frail body. Mr. Chetwynd, it might be, had +narrowly escaped guilt of a still more awful dye—even the death of the +soul of one who was to him as a child of his own! + +He did not know of the crimson stain, which the old man on the hill +had so nearly gained. But Mona's words had brought dimly before him +something of what he himself had well-nigh done. + +"It was the work of Satan that he had taken up,—Satan, a hard and +bitter taskmaster,—letting alone the judgments of the Lord Himself +on those who should meddle in His work!" What! He—the scientific +intellectual trusted physician, the clever well-informed leading man in +Alyn—he a servant of Satan! The words stared him boldly in the face. He +would not meet them, and turned away—only to find others starting up in +their place. + +"It was you who led me there! Thank God, He did not let you send me +over! And if you should do the same to others,—" Why, he had done the +same to others, scores of times. A day never passed that he did not +indulge himself in some light sneer or cutting sarcasm upon religious +questions. Was every word thus uttered indeed a drop of poison allowed +to fall, for which future account must be rendered at the bar of the +eternal God? Would lost souls be verily laid to his charge—souls which +but for him might have attained to the joys of heaven? + +"Stuff. Nonsense!" he said petulantly. "One would think I had caught a +reflection of Madge's notions to-night!" + +But what if these things were not nonsense? What if he himself stood +in the black darkness, of which Mona had spoken in such low-voiced +horror,—if he had stood there so long that he knew not what it was even +to wish for light? + +One after another these questions came to him, in much the same +speculative fashion in which questions did come to him, by mere force +of habit and bias of mind, at all times. But he could not now, as on +other days, shake them lightly aside. + +What if he did not believe the Bible to be the Word of God? Could he in +very truth say that he did? Then—"No hope! No pardon! No Saviour! No +heaven!" + +So Madge had assured him! But who was Madge to dare to speak such words +to him? What right had she, a poor ignorant cottager, to stamp him as +a man in such awful case? A desolate helpless creature, standing apart +from God for ever! He to be thus! + +Apart from God! Why, that there was a God he knew full well. His +doubtings were at least the doubtings of a man of sense as well as +intellect,—not the mad dreamings of a clever fool. He literally had too +much of common every-day manly sense, to give in to shallow theories +of atoms developing themselves into worlds, or of a universe somehow +sprouting up spontaneously out of nothing. He had some sort of vague +belief in the Bible, taken generally—only he had always insisted upon +holding in his own hand the scales of judgment, that he might retain or +reject each separate doctrine, according as it suited or opposed his +private notions of truth. + +And here had this woman come in, breaking down his calm security, +dashing aside his proud serenity, and telling him boldly, face to +face—albeit with all meekness—that no such middle course lay open to +him, that he must either believe or not believe, that he must either +accept, with implicit faith, the Word, and the Saviour of whom the +Word testified, or find himself cut off from God and heaven for ever. +"All Scripture is given by inspiration of God." There lay a hard rock +against which to stumble. + +"What 'do' you believe in the Bible?" The gentle question came back +and back to him persistently. What did he believe? What did he? Half +unconsciously, he found himself searching for an answer,—seeking into +his own belief as he had never honestly sought before. + +How about the power of prayer? No doctrine is more closely interwoven +with the very texture of the Bible, than that of prayer and its +workings. But Mr. Chetwynd had simply disbelieved it altogether. + +How about the fallen condition of man, and Christ Jesus as the only +hope of salvation? No doctrines in the Bible stand out with more sharp +and decided outline. But Mr. Chetwynd had rejected all notion of man's +degradation; and while not denying the great fact of the death of +Christ, he had had most hazy ideas respecting the necessity for any +such sacrifice. + +How about the hidden spiritual life? No Bible doctrine is more full in +its development than this. Mr. Chetwynd had sneered at its professed +experiences, professed lofty superiority to its weaknesses, despised +its faith, and discredited its very existence. + +If these things were true, where was he in his captious standing apart +from God? If not—? + +"He that believeth not God hath made Him a liar." These things were +plainly written in the Word of the living God. If he did not believe +them, "then" he believed not God; "then" he made God even as a liar; +"then" there remained to himself—what? Again Madge Hardwicke's words +rang mournfully in his ears: "No hope! No pardon! No Saviour! No +heaven!" + +"Anything rather than that!" he murmured. And he rose and took down his +mother's Bible, unused for many years. He had a dim impression of the +last time he had ever stood at her knee, and of her making him spell +aloud to her a few verses in the First Epistle to the Corinthians. +Like a man revisiting a garden, seen long before, and wandering +instinctively to one remembered corner,—for notwithstanding all Mr. +Chetwynd's church-going, family prayers, general knowledge of Biblical +doctrines, and special knowledge of popular cavils, the Bible had been +with him for years a neglected book,—he turned to that same Epistle. He +began glancing through it slowly, as he sat there, with the lamp-light +falling on his bent and troubled brow. + + "It is written, I will destroy the wisdom of the wise, and will bring +to nothing the understanding of the prudent." + +Was that meant for him? Was he one of "the wise?" + + "God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise." + +He stopped there again, and another verse, learnt in early boyhood, +flashed across his mind:— + + "I thank Thee, O Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because Thou hast +hid these things from the wise and prudent, and hast revealed them unto +babes." + +He thought of little Nannie—of Madge Hardwicke—of Mona. How he had +looked down upon them, in his conscious intellectual superiority! Was +it in very truth that God Himself had veiled these matters of mighty +import from him, in his pride of earthly learning, while revealing deep +mysteries of love and grace to the simple-hearted women and children? +Mr. Chetwynd had been wise and prudent in his generation; but these +things had been hidden from him; so that he, hearing of them, yet in +his blindness seeing them not, had deemed their very existence but a +fable. + + "Not many wise—not many noble—are called." + +"Not many." But, thank God, it does not say, "Not any." He thought of +Mr. Prior. Madge Hardwicke all untaught in worldly lore, and Mr. Prior, +with whose strong intellect Mr. Chetwynd would scarcely have cared to +measure his own, met here upon the same level. With the one, indeed, +was to be found the spirit of deep research, and a full knowledge of +historical and critical evidences; while the other knew and cared +little for evidences beyond her own practical knowledge of the life +and truth and peace which she had found in her Bible. But alike they +entered the Kingdom of Heaven, alike receiving the teaching of the Word +with the simple loving trust of little children. + + "Let no man deceive himself. If any man among you seemeth to be wise +in this world, let him become a fool, that he may be wise. For the wisdom +of this world is foolishness with God. For it is written, He taketh the +wise in their own craftiness. And again, The Lord knoweth the thoughts +of the wise, that they are vain." + +He read so far, and then he sat and thought—thought, till all in the +house but himself had gone to bed,—thought, till his lamp flickered and +failed for lack of oil, leaving the study in darkness. Mr. Chetwynd did +not even notice the change. He sat with his hand over his eyes, deeply +communing with his own soul. + +Had he ever honestly searched into these matters before? Had he +not rather skimmed recklessly over their surface, in a spirit of +semi-sceptical criticism, and measureless self-conceit? There seemed to +open out before him at last some insight into things unseen—some power +to pierce through the veil, which for long years past had shrouded him +in darkness. + +"And I have been one of these 'wise,'" he said to himself. "Wise with +the wisdom which is foolishness in the sight of God! Is that the +meaning of the intellect, which men worship in the present day? Plain +words spoken here—uncompromising as steel. Can it be that I have been +one of these self-deceivers—seeming, and only seeming, to be wise? If +so, 'let him become a fool, that he may be wise!' Become one! What if I +have been a fool all along—ay, worse than a fool, daring to set up my +puny notions in the very face of what God has revealed to us! + +"As well meet the matter boldly. I am not a coward, at all events. What +if I have been altogether in the wrong? 'The Lord knoweth!' How St. +Paul's words seem to meet one at every point . . . Will Madge think she +has gained a victory? Not to triumph at any rate. Better that, than to +find, too late, my whole life a failure,—I, with all my wisdom, shut +out from heaven,—and very fools pressing in before me!" + +He sat upright, felt for a box of matches, took a silver candlestick +from the mantelpiece, and struck a light. The open page of the Bible +lay still beside him. + +"If this indeed be the Word of God, through and through, the very truth +of God,—then where am I, and what am I, at this moment? + +"Ay,—no doubt what Madge would say. An unsaved sinner,—apart from +God,—worthless and helpless. I know it all by heart,—have heard it +often enough,—have laughed the notion to scorn. What if, after all, it +be very truth—and my wisdom there be very foolishness? + +"A helpless sinner,—standing apart from God! So they say,—and so it +may be. How can I prove the contrary? There are things which the +wisest living cannot fathom. Suppose a clue lies here. But never mind +generalities just now. Suppose 'I' am in that condition,—a condemned +man, cut off from my Maker,—needing—needing what?" + +Did he pause here, with a feeling like that which constrained Job, in +olden days, to cry aloud for a "Daysman" to stand between him and a +holy God? Something of the kind it must have been. And an answer came +once more breathing softly across his heart, in words learnt long ago +from a mother's lips:— + + "There is One Mediator between God and man, the Man Christ Jesus." + +For a moment there was stillness,—a hush of body and mind, as he slowly +grasped the wondrous words, and caught a glimpse of their boundless +meaning. And then, he bent his head,—reverently, as for long years past +he had never done,—and uttered half aloud— + + "God be merciful to me, a sinner,—for Christ's sake." + +The first step was taken. Mr. Chetwynd had a hard lesson to learn, but +he did not quail before it. He was not far from the Kingdom of Heaven +that night. Madge Hardwicke's and Mona's words, which but a few weeks +back might have passed unheeded, save by smile or sneer, had reached +him at the right moment. They had fallen like seed into prepared +ground,—prepared, all unknown to himself, through the Holy Spirit's +guidance, under the influence of Mr. Prior's teaching, and of Mona's +illness following. And the day was not far distant, when the once +careless half-unbelieving caviller thanked Madge from his very heart, +for the kindly boldness of her warning words that evening. + +[Illustration] + + + +[Illustration] + +CHAPTER XXIV. + +HOME! + +"SPLENDID day it has been,—only a trifle too hot for any but a +salamander," said the doctor, sauntering into Mona's room on the +afternoon of the following day. "Well, my dear, how are you getting on?" + +His pleasant manner that morning to Madge had convinced her that she +need fear no displeasure on account of the last night's conversation. +But something now, beneath his would-be careless bearing, gave her a +twinge of anxiety. + +"I am getting on as well as possible," said Mona brightly. "I quite +want to begin sitting up again." + +"Patience awhile before that," said Mr. Chetwynd. "More haste worse +speed, in some cases." + +"But Madge has been reading to me to-day." + +"Nothing sensational, I hope." + +Mona smiled at the idea. + +"Ah, well, I suppose I may trust Madge. She isn't addicted to that sort +of literature. Madge, could you be happy to leave Miss Mona for awhile +this afternoon?" + +"If you wish it, sir," said Madge, somewhat surprised. + +"Well, I have a—an errand for you," said Mr. Chetwynd. "Just call +Hartly to sit with Miss Mona while you are out, and then come to my +study. I'll explain to you where to go, and what to do." + +"Madge wants a little air, I am sure, after her imprisonment in this +room," said Mona, trying to be unselfish. + +"It's no imprisonment, Miss Mona," said Madge. "I'll come as quick as I +can, sir." + +"I suppose there is some shopping for you to do," observed Mona when he +was gone. + +And Madge smiled in answer, though aware that the guess was a wrong +one. She summoned the motherly old housekeeper from down-stairs, saw +that everything which could possibly be needed was at hand, went for +her own shawl and hood, and finally made her way to the doctor's room. + +He looked up, as she entered, from the letter he was writing. + +"That's right. Hartly has had so much to do with the nursing that you +need not be uneasy about leaving Miss Mona. And I don't expect to have +to go out again this evening, so I shall be at hand." + +"Mrs. Hartly can do easy enough all that's wanted," said Madge. "Where +am I to go, sir?" + +"Sit down a minute, and I'll tell you," said Mr. Chetwynd gravely. "The +truth is, I called you in here yesterday evening, to mention something +I had heard, but you put it out of my head, and this morning I thought +I might as well find out more before making you anxious. About little +Nannie Ackman, I mean." + +He was evidently moved. Madge saw now in what quarter lay the coming +cloud. The little child up on the hill was very dear to her heart. She +had not felt surprised to see and hear nothing of Nannie lately, on +account of the infectious nature of Mona's illness, but now a sudden +fear took possession of her. + +"Mr. Prior went up to the old man's cottage yesterday morning, and was +so struck with the little one's altered look that he asked me to go and +see her. I did not suppose there was any immediate hurry, and I was +busy, so I put it off till this afternoon. I have just come back from +there,—but—" + +"Do you think her ill, sir?" + +He shook his head silently. + +"Sir, you don't mean that Nannie is in danger." + +"She is dying, Madge." + +One low sob and no more reached his ears. "How soon?" was asked with an +effort. + +"Would you like to go and see her?" + +"I should, sir. She'll want comforts and looking after." + +"She is past all that now. If you want to see her again, you must go +at once. Never mind about Miss Mona. I will arrange all that for a few +hours. You will be back before night." + +She knew he meant that all would then be over. "Is it the fever, sir?" +she inquired. + +"I can hardly say. There may have been a touch of it hanging about +her. Old Ackman seems stupefied, and can give no particulars, though +he blames himself bitterly, and with good reason. She was up and about +yesterday evening, he says, but seemed to break-down this morning. +Nannie herself was unconscious while I was there. She may rouse up +again, or may pass away in stupor. But I can do nothing for her." + +"And nobody has known the poor lamb to be failing," murmured Madge, +passing her hand across her eyes. + +"I can't gather that there have been any indications of absolute +illness, beyond weakness and languor. My own impression is, that the +sudden break-down may be the result of some undetected injury, from +the father's rough treatment awhile ago. But after all, it is a cruel +conjecture without sufficient proof. She has always been a frail little +creature. I won't hinder you any longer, however." + +Like one walking in a dream, Madge left the house and went up the hill. +It was three weeks or more since last she had been in that direction, +for all her few walks of late had been taken in the town, generally +with the chemist for their destination. + +How forlorn her little cottage looked, with its closed door and +shutters, and its growth of garden weeds. Ah, that had never been, if +little Nannie had been equal to the task of keeping clear the unwelcome +growth, in the absence of her friend. Amos Ackman's door was open, so +Madge walked in noiselessly, leaving her shawl and hood in the outer +room, but hardly standing still there for a moment on her way. + +Her first glimpse as she neared the bedroom was of the old man himself, +crouching forward on his stool, with his face half hidden by his hands, +while a low groan broke from him from time to time. And then, as she +went farther, she saw Nannie. Could it indeed be Nannie?—So white, so +changed, so wasted! Mona Clyde at her worst had been nothing like this. + +"Ay, ye've come to see her die, have yer," mid old Amos. "Yer was a +deal kinder to her than her old father too." + +Madge knelt down by the rough mattress, and softly moistened the +child's parched lips. And all at once Nannie opened her eyes, and the +wan features broke into a smile of recognition. + +"She knows you, she does. Sure she'll soon be well now," said Amos +falteringly. "Don't yer think so, Madge? I'd be main glad, for 'tis all +along o' my doing. She'll get well now, eh?" + +Madge knew better, and so did Nannie. But Madge thought that the face +of an angel could hardly have worn a look of more loving compassion, +than that which shone through those glazing eyes, as they turned slowly +towards the unhappy old man. + +"Poor father!" was softly breathed forth, with an appealing glance +towards Madge, as if to beg her to comfort him. "There 'll be nobody to +pray for him now." + +"I'll pray, Nannie. Is it that you want?" asked Madge. "I'll never +let a day pass without praying for him. And God won't forget all your +back-prayers, you know." + +"No, 'cause they're written up there, ain't they?" said Nannie faintly +yet confidently, with a slight upward gesture of one hand. + +"Why, she's beginning to talk ever so," said Amos, in a pleased tone. +"Ain't she better now, Madge?" + +"She'll be better soon," said Madge. "She'll be better up in the +Father's Home, Amos. You'd best make sure, and see you're in the way to +go there too, or it'll be a longer parting for you than for Nannie and +me." + +Amos drooped his head again. "I'm thinkin' it'll have to be a different +heaven to hold old Amos, from what 'll take in you and Nannie," he said +heavily. + +"There's only one heaven, and one way into it, for her and you and me," +said Madge. + +And before she could say more, Nannie's lips formed, clearly and +tenderly, the sweetest Name which language ever framed— + +"JESUS!—father." + +"Ay, it's all Him, and Him alone," said Madge. "You've only to go to +Him, and ask pardon through His blood, and it'll all come right." + +Madge did not know how the poor old sin-burdened man had already begun +to stumble, with his failing steps, up to the foot of the Cross. But +Nannie knew, and though too weak to explain, she said in a low voice,— + +"He'll come, Madge." + +"Ay, the Lord 'll surely bring him, Nannie," said Madge. + +And then Nannie shut her eyes and lay quite quiet, with her two little +thin hands folded together, and the panting breath so irregular that it +sometimes seemed as if it would stop altogether, without another word +being spoken. + +Madge knelt there just as quietly, praying that the little one's +troubled life might have such a peaceful ending as now seemed likely, +that no clouds of Satan might be sent to try her faith. And Madge had +what she wished. + +An hour passed, while the life of the summer day and the life of the +little child ebbed sweetly away, side by side. And the sun went slowly +down upon the one, but rose in dazzling radiance upon the other. And +presently Nannie opened her eyes and murmured— + +"They're singing—" + +"Who are, Nannie?" + +"Up, somewhere," said Nannie. "I'll hear 'em now, won't I? O Madge!—I +won't see the Resurrection-day after all from here." + +Was it a momentary feeling of something like disappointment? + +"Maybe not from up on this hill, Nannie," said Madge. "But you'll see +it, sure enough, for you'll rise before we're caught up, and you'll +come on with the Master in His glory to meet us—if so be I'm spared +till then." + +"With Him!" And Nannie's face, as she uttered the words, lighted up +with a strange and holy joy. "O Madge! Think what it'll be—this very +night—to see my own Lord Jesus! Why, Madge!—" + +"Ay, won't it be—?" Madge had begun, trying to quell the impatient +longing which throbbed at her own heart, in answer to the child's burst +of joy. But she broke off, for words from her were no longer needed, +and a look of glad surprise had flashed into the dying eyes. + +"Why, Madge! I didn't think it 'ud be so soon, but I'm going quick. I'm +ready, ain't I?—'cause Jesus died for me, you know. O Madge, I wish you +was coming with me too. Isn't He—just—beautiful?" + +Two long faint gasps between the words,—one sigh,—and Nannie was at +rest. + +Better so. The little worn-out body lay there still. But Nannie—poor +little Nannie!—after all her hopes and fears and longings, had reached +the loving circle of the gathering family, in her Father's House above. + +Madge knelt on for a minute, with her head bent low. Then, with a calm +singular smile upon her face, she rose and went to Amos. + +"Don't you stay here any longer," she said. "Nannie's well off now." + +He shook his head, and crouched lower, without response. + +"She's well off," repeated Madge. "She's at rest now, poor little lamb, +and she wouldn't want you to grieve for her over-much. Don't spend your +time looking back to the past, Amos, but see you make ready to join her +where she's gone—maybe soon. There's the Blood for your sins and mine, +no less than for hers." + +"I wouldn't ha' believed it, though, if it hadn't been for her +praying," murmured old Amos, as he yielded to Madge's guiding touch, +and went out into the front room, while Madge remained behind, and did +all that needed to be done to the lifeless body lying there. + +Poor little Nannie! More of a martyr was she than even Madge Hardwicke +guessed. But Madge knew enough to bend over her, and kiss the small +white cheek, whispering— + +"'She's' had her meed of suffering for the Lord, and she's gained her +rest early; but maybe Nannie's one of the last that 'll be first in the +Kingdom of Heaven." + +Then Madge left the room, and going past old Amos, who in his solitary +grief refused to answer when she would have set herself to comfort him, +she passed into the pleasant evening twilight beyond. + +Some impulse—she could not have defined it—made her step across into +her own garden, and stand there near the door, with her eyes fixed on +the blue waters, and her heart very full of the little friend who had +been taken from her. Nannie had grown to be almost like a child of her +own during the past few months. Only the blow had come so suddenly, and +the passing away had been so peaceful, that as yet she was thinking +more of what Nannie had gained than of what she herself had lost. + +"Beautiful! Ay, she knows the Master's beauty at last,—more than the +wisest man that ever lived on earth. Little Nannie! I'd like to see +your joy this very minute. Well, 'tis sweet to think that my turn 'll +come too, some day. Maybe, I've more work to do first for my Lord. +She'll never get to the end of knowing His beauty more and more for +ever; and by-and-by I'll see it too. It's only a glimpse I get now, +once and again, but He'll shine out there in glory. And Nannie sees it +now." + +The sound of a footstep on the pathway made her turn. A manly figure, +of somewhat foreign appearance, was briskly advancing towards the +garden-gate. Madge stood as if rooted to the spot, with a sudden +dimness over her eyes, and a quickened beating at her heart. Was it a +dream? Could it be indeed a reality? O faithless Madge even yet. + +"Mother!" + +[Illustration: "Mother, I always said to myself that I'd be sure to +find you here, whenever I came, looking out for me."] + +Only the one word! Madge did not even exclaim. + +But if his strong arm had not in that moment been around her, she would +have fallen to the ground. + +"Mother, I always said to myself that I'd be sure to find you here, +whenever I came, looking out for me." + +She did not contradict him, for, in truth, he "had" been in her heart +and thoughts at that moment, side by side with Nannie. She made no +answer at all, except by the passionate clinging, which seemed as if +she could never again loose her hold of him. He began to know now what +the long agony of suspense had been. + +"It's a wicked son I've been to you, mother dear, leaving you all these +years, and never writing. Only that once, at least. And so much the +worse then, that I didn't keep my promise. But maybe it's a good thing +I'm come now, and not sooner, as I once thought to do. I'd have come +back in a reckless sort of mood at that time; but I've learnt since to +look on things differently. Mother, will you forgive me, and take me +home, and teach me the lessons I wouldn't let you teach me when I was a +little boy? Will you, mother?" + +"Forgive you!" Madge said, lifting her face to his, all wet with happy +tears. "O Neill,—thank God He's given back my boy to me again. It's +worth all the waiting to have you come like this. And you'll never +leave me any more?" + +"Never more, mother, of my own free will. God alone shall part us now." + +She would not take him into her cheerless unprepared cottage, but +walked up and down with him awhile on the hill-top, in earnest +conference, till the first excitement of the meeting had in some +measure passed away. And then they went down the path, and stopped at +the doctor's house. + +Mr. Chetwynd came out to meet Madge in the hall, but he had not looked +to see that face of chastened brightness. + +"Why, Madge—" he began, and stopped. + +"Sir, it is as you thought, and little Nannie has gone to her rest," +said Madge. "But the Lord has sent me a blessing alongside of the +sorrow, and between the two, I'm nigh in as great a strait as St. Paul +himself, as to whether I'll smile or cry." + +Mr. Chetwynd looked from Madge to her companion,—half guessing the +truth, yet scarcely liking to ask. For the lad he once knew was +altered; and perhaps only a mother's eyes could have known him again at +a glance. + +Madge put her arm into Neill's, and drew him a step forward. + +"It's my boy, sir," she said, and the smile won the day. + +Mr. Chetwynd held out his hand warmly. "I am glad to see you home, +Neill. You have changed indeed since last we met," he said. And then +in a different tone, turning to Madge—"You were right and I was wrong, +Madge. Your faith certainly deserves its reward." + +"No, sir, if you please, you're wrong there," said Madge steadily. +"I've nought of desert about me, save desert of evil." + +"Didn't you say all along that Neill would surely come home some day?" + +Madge was silent a minute, seemingly pondering his words. + +"Well?" said the doctor, and Neill too looked inquiringly. + +"Sir, it may be I'm mistaken, but it does seem to me that the Lord has +just kept back from granting my wish, till He's taught me to lay my +will in His, and to leave all in His hands. I used to say Neill would +be pretty sure to come home, and to think it too. I've said and felt +little of late, save 'Thy will be done!' And now—He's given back to me +my boy!" + +The last words came like a note of sweet and joyous triumph to the +doctor's ears. "You know more about such things than I do, Madge, but I +hope I may learn more in time," he said rather sadly. "Neill must sleep +here of course to-night. You can arrange with Hartly about his bed. And +to-morrow I suppose you will wish to go home with him to your cottage." + +Madge did not gainsay the remark. She felt that her boy must come +first, and that to prepare a comfortable home for him at once was her +simple duty. "Only I'll come in as often as I'm wanted, sir, to sit +with Miss Mona," she said. + +"It is well Neill did not return a week sooner, or we couldn't have +spared you," said Mr. Chetwynd. "But you must spend part of every day +with us still, or Miss Mona will be lonely. Well, I am unselfish enough +to be very glad you are so happy." + +She had her desire at last. There was joy in the mother's heart that +night, at the return of the wanderer, and there was joy for her sake +throughout the doctor's house, and among the inmates of the Rectory and +the town. But the greatest joy of all was the joy of little Nannie, +who had passed beyond the mists and the shadows of earth, and had been +welcomed into her eternal Home. + + + + THE END. + + + + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 79005 *** diff --git a/79005-h/79005-h.htm b/79005-h/79005-h.htm new file mode 100644 index 0000000..06ad288 --- /dev/null +++ b/79005-h/79005-h.htm @@ -0,0 +1,7535 @@ +<!DOCTYPE html> +<html lang="en"> +<head> + <meta charset="UTF-8"> + <title> + Madge Hardwicke; or,The Mists of the Valley │ Project Gutenberg + </title> + <link rel="icon" href="images/image001.jpg" type="image/cover"> + <style> + +body { + margin-left: 10%; + margin-right: 10%; + font-size:12.0pt; + font-family:"Verdana"; +} + +p {text-indent: 2em;} + + h1,h2,h3,h4,h5,h6 { + text-align: center; /* all headings centered */ + clear: both; +} + +h2 {font-size: 1.17em;} + +hr { + width: 33%; + margin-top: 2em; + margin-bottom: 2em; + margin-left: 33.5%; + margin-right: 33.5%; + clear: both; +} + +/* Images */ + +img { + max-width: 100%; + height: auto; +} + +.w100 { + width: auto + } + +.figcenter { + margin: auto; + text-align: center; + page-break-inside: avoid; + max-width: 100%; +} + +p.t1 {text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 125%; + text-align: center + } + +p.t2 { + text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 150%; + text-align: center + } + +p.t3 { + text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 100%; + text-align: center + } + +p.t3b { + text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 100%; + font-weight: bold; + text-align: center + } + +p.t4 { + text-indent: 0%; + font-size: 80%; + text-align: center + } + +p.letter {text-indent: 0%; + margin-left: 10% ; + margin-right: 10% } + +p.poem { + margin-left: auto; + margin-right: auto; + padding: 20px 0; + text-align: left; + width: 555px; + } + +p.footnote {text-indent: 0% ; + font-size: 90%; + margin-left: 10% ; + margin-right: 10% } + + </style> +</head> + +<body> +<div style='text-align:center'>*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 79005 ***</div> + + +<p>Transcriber's note: Unusual and inconsistent spelling is as printed.</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image001" style="max-width: 33.8125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image001.jpg" alt="image001"> +</figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image002" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image002.jpg" alt="image002"> +</figure> +<p class="t4"> +<b>"Uncle Chetwynd, she's only fainting. Don't you see</b><br> +<b>she's only fainting? She will come to herself again directly.</b><br> +<b>Mother—mother!"</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<h1>MADGE HARDWICKE;</h1> + +<p class="t3"> +<br>OR,<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p class="t1"> +<b>THE MISTS OF THE VALLEY.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p class="t3"> +BY<br> +</p> + +<p class="t1"> +AGNES GIBERNE<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +AUTHOR OF<br> +</p> + +<p class="t4"> +"IDA'S SECRET," "FLOSS SILVERTHORN,"<br> +"WILL FOSTER," ETC.<br> +</p> + +<p class="poem"> +<br> +<span style="margin-left: 10em;">"O Lord, I cannot see;</span><br> +<span style="margin-left: 11.5em;">Vouchsafe me light:</span><br> +<span style="margin-left: 10.5em;">The mist bewilders me,</span><br> +<span style="margin-left: 11.5em;">Impedes my sight:</span><br> +<span style="margin-left: 6em;">Hold Thou my hand, and lead me by Thy side,</span><br> +<span style="margin-left: 6em;">I dare not go alone; be Thou my Guide."</span><br> +<span style="margin-left: 20em;"><em>The Dove on the Cross.</em></span><br> +<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +New Edition.<br> +</p> + +<p><br><br></p> + +<p class="t4"> +<em>LONDON:</em><br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +JOHN F. SHAW AND CO.<br> +</p> + +<p class="t4"> +48, PATERNOSTER ROW, E.C.<br> +</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<p class="t3"> +STORIES BY AGNES GIBERNE.<br> +</p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image003" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image003.jpg" alt="image003"> +</figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<p class="t3"> +IDA'S SECRET; or, The Towers of Ickledale.<br> +<em>Large Crown 8vo, cloth, 2s. 6d.</em><br> +"The characters are made to live, and there is a wholesome and<br> +refreshing tone running through it all."—<em>Record.</em> <br> +<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +WON AT LAST; or, Mrs. Briscoe's Nephews.<br> +<em>Large Crown 8vo, cloth, with Illustrations, 3s. 6d.</em><br> +"The treatment is so admirable we can understand Miss Giberne's<br> +book being a help to many."—<em>Athenæum.</em> <br> +<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +TOO DEARLY BOUGHT.<br> +<em>Crown 8vo, price Eighteenpence.</em><br> +<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +THE OLD HOUSE IN THE CITY.<br> +<em>Crown 8vo, with Illustrations, 2s. 6d.</em><br> +<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +HIS ADOPTED DAUGHTER; or, A Quiet Valley.<br> +<em>Large Crown 8vo, Illustrated, price 5s.</em><br> +"It is really a good tale, in the author's best<br> +style."—<em>English Churchman.</em> + <br> +<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +WILL FOSTER OF THE FERRY.<br> +<em>New Edition. Crown 8vo, Illustrated, 2s. 6d.</em><br> +"A story well written, fully illustrated, and with a golden thread<br> +of Christian teaching."—<em>Bookseller.</em> <br> +<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +THE EARLS OR THE VILLAGE.<br> +<em>Crown 8vo, cloth, with Illustrations, 2s. 6d.</em><br> +"A pathetic tale of country life, in which the fortunes of a family<br> +are followed out with skill that never fails to interest."<em>Scotsman.</em><br> +<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +MADGE HARDWICKE; or, The Mists of the Valley.<br> +<em>Crown 8vo, cloth, Illustrated, 2s. 6d.</em><br> +"An extremely interesting book, and one that can be read with<br> +profit by all."—<em>Schoolmaster.</em> + <br> +<br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +FLOSS SILVERTHORN; or, The Master's Little Handmaid.<br> +<em>Crown 8vo, cloth, Illustrated, 2s. 6d.</em><br> +"A really beautiful story, telling how even a child can do and<br> +suffer for Christ's service."—<em>The Rock.</em> + <br> +<br> +</p> + +<p class="t4"> +<br> +——————————————————————————<br> +<br> +LONDON: JOHN F. SHAW & CO., 48, PATERNOSTER ROW, E.C.<br> +</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image004" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image004.jpg" alt="image004"></figure> + +<p class="t3b"> +CONTENTS.<br> +<br> +————<br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>CHAP.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_1">I. UP ON THE HILL-TOP</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_2">II. THE HOME-COMING</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_3">III. DOWN UNDERGROUND</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_4">IV. MADGE AND THE DOCTOR</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_5">V. GATHERING MISTS</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_6">VI. NANNIE</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_7">VII. NAT TYRRELL'S NOTIONS</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_8">VIII. QUESTIONINGS</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_9">IX. MADGE HARDWICKE'S FAITH</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_10">X. A LETTER</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_11">XI. AWAITING THE MASTER'S WILL</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_12">XII. THE "FLYING ALBATROSS"</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_13">XIII. THE DOCTOR'S PROHIBITION</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_14">XIV. GOD'S MYSTERIES</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_15">XV. THE DINGLE</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_16">XVI. NAT'S COTTAGE</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_17">XVII. A FOG</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_18">XVIII. THE DRIVE HOME</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_19">XIX. A BLOW</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_20">XX. SUNSET CLOUDS</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_21">XXI. "O THOU OF LITTLE FAITH"</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_22">XXII. WARNING</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_23">XXIII. THE WISDOM OF THE WISE</a></p> + +<p><a href="#Chapter_24">XXIV. HOME!</a></p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image005" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image005.jpg" alt="image005"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image006" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image006.jpg" alt="image006"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<p class="t2"> +<b>MADGE HARDWICKE;</b><br> +</p> + +<p class="t3"> +OR,<br> +</p> + +<p class="t1">THE MISTS OF THE VALLEY.<br> +<br> +————<br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_1">CHAPTER I.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>UP ON THE HILL-TOP.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"FIVE o'clock!"</p> + +<p>The strokes pealed slowly through the calm gray air of dawn, from the +square tower of old Alyn Church. It was a morning of almost oppressive +stillness, with mist-wreaths nestling in every hollow, and a hazy +uncertainty about the horizon-line giving promise of a sultry day +to come. And as the five deep-toned vibrations went rolling up the +hill-side, Madge Hardwicke came out of her cottage on the summit of the +cliff, and stood in the doorway to listen.</p> + +<p>Two little cottages were built there side by side; each with its tiny +vegetable-ground behind, bounded by a tangled growth of trees and +brushwood; and each with its tiny flower-garden in front, bounded by +a broad belt of level grass which extended to the narrow path running +along the edge of the cliff.</p> + +<p>But whereas Madge Hardwicke's home was a model of trim and dainty +neatness, Amos Ackman's exhibited signs of falling to decay. And +whereas Madge Hardwicke's garden had every square foot occupied by +flower or vegetable, Amos Ackman's showed a large and flourishing +assortment of weeds, amongst which a few cabbages here and there reared +their unsightly heads, or a half-wild rose-tree struggled for a languid +existence amidst the ruthless growth of meaner plants.</p> + +<p>Not twenty yards distant from Madge Hardwicke's garden railing, the +cliff went down in a sheer descent of three hundred feet to the beach +below. Rough masses of rock and shingle lay there, with a coating in +some parts of slimy green. The sea was wont to play strange antics +among those rocks at times, in no harmless mood of frolic. But this +morning, it was placid as a lake, unbroken by the faintest ripple,—in +its glassy repose almost like a gigantic mirror reaching to the +horizon. And the blue of the sky overhead was pale in hue, fading +into white lower down, where some long clouds stretched lazily, each +catching a reflection of rose-colour from the coming sun.</p> + +<p>Madge Hardwicke herself, standing before her doorway, with her +dark-blue under-skirt, and looped-up black print gown, and little red +handkerchief, and general quaint simplicity of appearance, formed not +the least picturesque item in the scene. She must have been between +forty and fifty years of age, and her smooth brown hair showed a faint +sprinkling of silver threads. A very quiet, self-possessed demeanour +was hers, while she had a face, the deeply-traced lines and shadows +of which told of a far from facile nature, and of certain tempests in +bygone days. Not that there was anything about her just then suggestive +of storm or emotion. The blue depths of the sea below were not more +absolutely calm than the gray depths of Madge Hardwicke's eyes. And +though both alike were capable of being stirred up, it needed a strong +external force in either case to work the change.</p> + +<p>Just so quietly reposeful lay also the town below. Standing there in +her doorway, and looking down through the clear morning air, Madge +could distinguish each separate door and window, alike in the broad +streets, where closed shutters hid the plate-glass panes of usually +busy shops, and in the rows of villas stretching away to the west +and north. Here and there a faint blue wreath of smoke went curling +upwards, but generally speaking, Alyn seemed to be asleep. Down on +the shingle beach of the little bay, where a row of bathing-machines +stood looking like the contents of a child's toy-box as seen from +this height, the blue jackets of one or two early-rising sailors were +visible.</p> + +<p>This was the East Cliff, on which Madge made her home; and her cottage +stood sideways to the edge, with Amos Ackman's on the other side. +Down in front, the hill sloped steeply with a scattering of houses +beginning about half-way to the bottom. It was a fan-shaped town that +lay below, converging to the shingle bathing-beach, and widening out as +it extended inland. Beyond the beach, the cliffs rose sharply again, +and a wild headland of bare rock, reaching far out into the sea, stood +up in massive grandeur against the sky—West Point, or The Point, as it +was usually called, though more correctly Lion Point by name, from some +real or fancied resemblance in its shape to a lion's head and mane. It +was high tide now, and the narrow rugged ridge of rock which united the +Point to the mainland, was deeply covered with water.</p> + +<p>On just such another morning as this, and on the same day of the +same month, exactly ten years earlier, the darkest cloud of Madge +Hardwicke's life had gathered over her. And so like now were the gray +stillness of the dawn and the deep repose of sea and land, the sleepy +twitter of some waking birds and the cheery singing of their livelier +companions already awake, the smoke-wreaths over the town and the +mist-wreaths over the country, to what they then had been, that Madge +stood living over that past scene once more, as if it were actually +present.</p> + +<p>Ten years! No more than ten! It seemed such a little while to Madge. +Just at this same hour she had risen, and come out of her cottage-door, +and stood within her garden-gate. She had not been a lonely widow then, +but a light-spirited happy wife. She seemed almost to hear again the +manly step which followed her out, and to feel again the hearty kiss, +and to see again the fine blue-jacketed sailor, her pride and joy, +striding carelessly away towards the path.</p> + +<p>Just those few yards—those few steps. The sound of his clear whistle +had come back to her, and she had seen him standing at the edge of the +cliff, with his brown hand upraised to shelter his eyes, as he scanned +the horizon-line. And Madge had turned back into her cottage, thinking +pleasantly of the busy day's work before her, and of the welcome he +should have on his return. Thinking,—but little dreaming that never +again should she speak word of welcome to him.</p> + +<p>It was only the giving way of a foot of brown earth, overhanging the +cliff, bound together by entangled roots, all loosened with previous +rains. One minute Ned Hardwicke stood there, a very model of manly +strength. The next, he lay a shattered corpse, three hundred feet below.</p> + +<p>And Madge, to this hour, knew nothing of what took place after. She +had no recollection of his one death-cry; no recollection of her own +wild rush to the edge; no recollection of Amos Ackman's struggles +to withhold her, when, in her mad agony, she would fain have flung +herself over likewise; no recollection of the help sought and too late +obtained; no recollection of aught else which had happened on that +day. It was as if a black curtain had been drawn over every bodily and +mental sense, shutting out even the consciousness of pain,—drawn there +in tender mercy, for otherwise Madge Hardwicke's reason would scarcely +have held its balance.</p> + +<p>This lasted till after the funeral. And then, while Madge Hardwicke's +friends were talking in subdued tones over her state, and marvelling +what would become of her and the child, Madge put aside the curtain, +and bravely came forth to meet her sorrow. It was a lonely path which +lay before her, but Madge would tread it with unfaltering steps. It was +a heavy cross which her God had laid upon her, but Madge would bear it +firmly. No broken-down and selfishly-hopeless mourner would she be; but +one who had learnt to bear chastening in the spirit of a child, living +her appointed life, and working her appointed work, until the end came.</p> + +<p>"Madge!"</p> + +<p>A soft little girlish voice spoke, and Madge looked down, with +something of a smile, at the tiny barefooted damsel, about ten years of +age, who had pattered softly out of the neighbouring cottage, and now +stood with one hand grasping Madge's blue petticoat, and a wistful face +upturned, as if in questioning.</p> + +<p>"What is it, Nan, you're wanting?"</p> + +<p>Nan looked hard without a word, and Madge went back to the quiet +landscape.</p> + +<p>"That's it," said the child unexpectedly. "You're thinking something, +ain't you, Madge?"</p> + +<p>"Ay," responded Madge. "I'm thinking, just this minute,—what if the +Resurrection-morning was to look like it does to-day?"</p> + +<p>Nan caught up another fold of the blue skirt, and enclosed it tightly +in her fingers, with a sudden gesture, as if of fear. "O Madge! Don't +you, please, now."</p> + +<p>"Why? 'Twill come," said Madge calmly. "My talking 'll bring it no +sooner, Nannie, though my praying may."</p> + +<p>"Madge, do you think it'll be to-day? Do you think it'll be a day like +this, Madge?" demanded the child eagerly, as if the fate of the world +hung upon the answer of her friend.</p> + +<p>"It'll be in 'such an hour as we think not,'" said Madge. "That's +pretty nigh all we're told clear about the time. Maybe He'll come in +storm, and not in calm; only there's a look to me to-day like the world +asleep before its last awakening. I'm only fancying, Nan," she added, +with a sudden smile at the child's awestruck look.</p> + +<p>"And you won't go and pray it may come sooner 'n need be, Madge," said +Nannie, with a catch in her breath.</p> + +<p>"Why, Nannie, what of the prayer we're told to pray, 'Thy kingdom +come'? You're surely not fearsome of seeing the Master Himself as loves +little children so?"</p> + +<p>Nan shook back her long dark hair with an expressive gesture. "Father +ain't ready," she said. "He ain't, Madge."</p> + +<p>Madge had nothing to say to that at first. After a moment, she spoke: +"We'll pray he may be, and put the two prayers together, Nannie."</p> + +<p>Nannie's face showed assent as well as understanding this time.</p> + +<p>And the next minute, Madge's attention was drawn by the sight of a +man's head appearing up the hill. It came rapidly, borne on by long +vigorous strides, as of a messenger who felt himself on an errand of +life and death.</p> + +<p>Madge knew the tall broad-shouldered figure, even before she could +recognise the face. It was a good face—good in feature, that is to +say, and good also in a certain natural kindliness and benevolence of +expression. You certainly would not have said, to look upon him, "What +a good man Mr. Chetwynd must be!" speaking in the highest sense. But +you would undoubtedly have said, "What a kind-hearted man," as well as, +"What a clever man he seems."</p> + +<p>That it was something unusual which had brought the doctor up the +hill at this hour of the morning, Madge knew directly. She would have +known it by his mere speed and manner, apart from the paleness of +his face, and the drops standing thickly on his brow. She put aside +little Nannie, and went out to the garden-gate, asking no questions, +but quietly waiting till he came close, and chose to speak. His first +words were in a sharp breathless tone, with a forced affectation of +cheerfulness.</p> + +<p>"Where's your hood, Madge? Quick, and come with me, for I want your +help."</p> + +<p>"I'll come, sir."</p> + +<p>She turned back into the cottage, and was out again immediately—not too +soon for Mr. Chetwynd.</p> + +<p>"Come,—quick," he said. "My chaise will be waiting by the time we get +down. There's not another woman in the town so helpful as you, or I +wouldn't have risked losing two minutes by calling you."</p> + +<p>"Sir, has it aught to do with my Neill?"</p> + +<p>"Neill! No. There has been an accident in the tunnel; trucks slipped +and left there by some extraordinary blunder, and a passenger-train +allowed to run into them. I don't know how much damage is done. One may +allow a good margin for exaggerated reports."</p> + +<p>Madge gave one look up at his strangely pale face, as they sped +together down the hill-side. His home was one of the first in sight—a +many-gabled roof peeping out from a nest of surrounding trees,—and +they could see the chaise waiting at the garden-gate. That he had some +especial and personal cause for distress, Madge did not doubt. He was +not a man of keen sympathies, though of real kindness. But she put no +questions, and it was not till the chaise was starting, with Madge +seated by the doctor's side, that he said briefly—</p> + +<p>"My sister and her child were to arrive by this train."</p> + +<p>Madge understood then, and her full heart went out in silent compassion +for the fearful weight of anxiety which must, she well knew, be +pressing upon him. He was a man of few ties and strong feelings. But +she only said—</p> + +<p>"They are in the Lord's hands, sir. He can have kept them safe."</p> + +<p>And Madge looked for no response in her companion's face, being fully +aware that she should there find none. The faintest shadow of a sneer +curled his usually pleasant lips, like the mist-wreath floating over a +distant landscape. And then they drove on quickly, wasting no breath in +words.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image007" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image007.jpg" alt="image007"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image008" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image008.jpg" alt="image008"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_2">CHAPTER II.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>THE HOME-COMING.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>SUCH a long tedious journey it had been, as the train sped ever wearily +onwards, hour after hour, from the further north to the further +south of England. But the gray dawn was brightening now, and sleepy +passengers were rousing themselves to sit upright, and to mark how +nearly they had approached the end. And Mona Clyde, waking suddenly +from a quiet night's rest amid noisy surroundings, lifted her bright +child-like face—singularly child-like, for her nineteen summers—from +the blue-cushioned arm, and cried—</p> + +<p>"O mother! Are we almost there?"</p> + +<p>"Almost there, Mona," her mother said.</p> + +<p>"And you are tired, while I have had such a long lazy sleep," said +Mona, kissing her mother's hand, for they had a compartment to +themselves. "Are you not mother, dear?"</p> + +<p>"A little tired, but I shall soon rest now, Mona."</p> + +<p>Was she thinking of the last time she had come this road, with her +infant Mona in her arms, and her husband by her side, so many long +years before? Mona fancied so, and waited quietly, holding down her +own gay delight at the prospect of all that lay before her. Dear kind +uncle Chetwynd, whom she knew so well, and uncle Chetwynd's pretty +house which lay so far in the background of her memory that she had no +recollection of it, and beautiful Alyn which had been her mother's home +in childhood, and the glorious blue sea which she had never yet seen, +and all the attendant pleasures of a six weeks' happy change.</p> + +<p>"O mother, isn't it nice to be almost there?" she said at length. "How +soon shall we see Alyn?"</p> + +<p>"When we are through the tunnel, Mona. It is pretty here, but this is +nothing to the view which bursts upon us there. A sunny mid-day is +the time to have it in perfection. I remember so well how, as a child +going home from school, I used to love the feeling of getting nearer +and nearer, seeing one land-mark after another, passing into the dark +tunnel, and then coming out into a blaze of sunshine and beauty, to +find myself in one moment 'at home.' For Alyn itself was home, and once +out of the tunnel, you are in Alyn."</p> + +<p>"Mother, you often told me about that, when I was a little girl."</p> + +<p>"As a picture," Mrs. Clyde said, smiling, while Mona's bright face had +grown serious. "My favourite thought, darling; it is so like the last +Home-going. So often there seems to be darkness at the close of life, +with those who love the Master, but I think it is only that the glory +coming after may shine the brighter. But for the dark tunnel first, +Alyn could never burst upon us with half such a wonderful glow of +beauty."</p> + +<p>"O mother, I do so long to see it," cried Mona eagerly. "Is that the +tunnel coming now?"</p> + +<p>How little knew Mona that the shrill whistle which she welcomed so +joyfully, was the death-knell of many around her!</p> + +<p>One moment's rush of increased noise, and then darkness. And in that +moment, it was strange how her mother's face was photographed for +ever upon Mona's memory. She did not consciously mark it at the time. +Afterwards, it came back to her, in all its calm sweetness. She was +thinking of nothing but counting the seconds, and awaiting the view +which lay beyond.</p> + +<p>One moment more! And then—</p> + +<p>Ah, "then!"</p> + +<p>It was only a little mistake or accident. Something had been forgotten, +or somebody was careless. Only just such a slight mistake as one +may make a hundred times a day, letting it pass unmarked, and never +dreaming the terrible consequences with which a little matter may be +fraught. There had been a break-down of some heavy luggage-vans, and +there was just a little too long delay in removing them, or word had +been telegraphed just a little too late, or the express had arrived +just a little too early. Nothing worse. But then—</p> + +<p>Down there in the darkness underground, they could not see the loaded +trucks in the way. On and on with undiminished speed rushed the train, +so near at last to its journey's end. Only a moment more—and then a +crash so fearful that the very earth above and below trembled with the +fierce concussion, and the mighty engine was twisted and crushed like +a bit of tin in a man's hand, and carriages were heaped up one upon +another, or flung to right and left in masses of shattered fragments, +as a child might scatter a pile of bricks. And the fierce hiss of the +boiling water that rushed from the engine, and the crashing turmoil +of the collision, mingling with the wild tumult of groans and shrieks +which followed, echoed back and forth from the low vaulted roof, +till it seemed as if the din of sound must go on for ever and ever +ceaselessly.</p> + +<p>But in that moment of direst anguish and fear, there were some who +went quietly Home. Quietly, all in an instant, breaking out from the +darkness underground to the glory far above. The anguish and fear were +not for them, but for those who remained behind. The Master calls +sometimes in sunshine and sometimes in storm, to those whom He will +have to be with Him where He is; but so long as it "is" the voice of +the Master and not of the Judge which calls, what matter how they go? +Whether lingeringly in sunshine, or suddenly in storm, it signifies +little, so that once they are safely landed.</p> + +<p>And some were landed all in a moment that day, who had looked for a +longer voyage. Just as the disciples on the lake had a toilsome way +before them, till the Master stepped on board, and then,—"suddenly they +were at the land whither they went."</p> + +<p>Suddenly, all in a moment. Perhaps if the choice had been given them, +they might have found it hard to decide whether they would go, or +whether they would stay. But once there, they would doubt no more. +None ever yet looked upon the unveiled Face of the King in glory, and +turned back to wish for the shadows of earth again. So for those of +the dead who died in Christ that day, it was a peaceful Home-going—all +the brighter and sweeter maybe, from the contrast of the darkness and +anguish behind, out of which the Master had gently withdrawn them.</p> + +<p>This was the scene upon which Madge Hardwicke and her companion +entered. The first mad terror and excitement of the accident had +subsided, yet it was a strangely weird picture which lay before them, +as they left the early daylight behind, and went deep into the tunnel's +blackness. The tumult of shrieks had died gradually away into gentler +moans, and in many cases into silence, broken here and there by a +pitiful call for help. Some of the dead and dying had been already +extricated, and busy hands were still hard at work among the heaped up +masses of débris, which concealed yet many a crushed and mangled form. +There was little leisure for attendance on those only wounded, and they +waited for the most part in patient endurance, lying or sitting upon +the damp ground.</p> + +<p>Some of the shattered fragments of woodwork had been piled together, +and two or three small fires burnt brightly, sending up wreaths of +smoke into the darkness, and casting a red glow upon the scene of +confusion around. Lanterns were borne backwards and forwards here +and there, and long ill-proportioned shadows of men, sometimes hazy +and large, sometimes clear and small, went passing along the dark +moist walls. And mingling with the busy sound of pick-axe and of +crowbar, came the sound of men's voices in sharp direction or subdued +consultation, and the groans of the injured, and the frightened sobbing +of little children, clinging to their no less terrified mothers and +nurses.</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd's face turned towards Madge Hardwicke for an instant, but +her quiet eyes met his steadfastly, and her lips were only trembling a +little with unspoken words of prayer.</p> + +<p>"You can stand it?" he said, in a half-questioning tone. "I don't want +to have you on my hands, in a screaming and fainting condition, Madge."</p> + +<p>For all the man's self-command and would-be carelessness, she knew the +deadly fear which lay at his heart.</p> + +<p>"Sir, I never did either in my life," she answered.</p> + +<p>"Did you ever see a scene like 'this' in your life?" he asked, with a +sudden change of manner. "Madge, it is awful."</p> + +<p>"I think nothing can be darker to me than that which I have borne +already, sir."</p> + +<p>And borne on that very morning—only ten years before. But that was +past, and this was present, and Mr. Chetwynd had no thought to give to +aught save what lay before him.</p> + +<p>They went on threading their way over the masses of ruin scattered far +and wide. There were other helpers, and two more surgeons already on +the scene. But there were not too many for the work, and Mr. Chetwynd +was at everybody's beck and call. He refused no one, and gave attention +to each in turn who claimed his aid, though all the time his set lips +and anxious eyes told Madge Hardwicke the subject of his thoughts. She +made many inquiries for him about his expected relatives, but could +learn nothing. Those who were busy had no leisure to talk, and those +who were not busy seemed, in the majority of cases, to have lost, for +the time being, all memory and self-possession.</p> + +<p>Throughout Mr. Chetwynd's doings, he kept Madge persistently near his +side, when she would have wished to go about and help more actively. +She had learnt obedience, whatever else her lessons might have been, +and made no protest. And, in truth, there was work enough for her to do +on any spot where she might take her stand.</p> + +<p>"Sir, they're taking off some of the well folk, and them that's not so +badly hurt, to Alyn," Madge remarked at length, speaking unaddressed +for the first time. "They've told me to tell you. Will this lady go?"</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd looked up from the case in hand, finished what he was +doing, and stood erect once more.</p> + +<p>"Ay, the sooner the better. Madge—no news of 'them?'"</p> + +<p>"I can hear none, sir."</p> + +<p>He sighed heavily, and then, with a hasty movement, walked a few paces +away.</p> + +<p>"Look here, Madge."</p> + +<p>A poor mother was sitting, pale and still, upon the ground, with one +arm hanging helplessly, and the other clasping a wee white-faced baby. +She gazed up in mute appeal at the doctor. But when Mr. Chetwynd would +have lifted the little one from her grasp, she held it more tightly, +and uttered a sharp cry of anguish.</p> + +<p>"No use yet," he said, in a low tone, to Madge. "She will not believe +the child is dead. Better so, perhaps, for a while. See there too."</p> + +<p>Another scene of the same description: a poor young wife kneeling in +silent misery beside a prostrate figure, with an older lady weeping +bitterly on the other side.</p> + +<p>"Is he dead, too?" Madge asked, from her full heart.</p> + +<p>"Not far from it. Ha, there is Mr. Prior."</p> + +<p>She did not recognise the name. A man of middle age and slender build +came up and paused beside the little group, bearing a lantern in his +hand. There were a few low-toned words, and then he knelt quietly down, +and sounds of prayer for the departing soul came softly across to where +Madge stood. What a scene for an artist that group would have made, +in the red flickering light, with the gloomy tunnel-walls lowering +overhead, and the calm reverent face of the man of prayer contrasting +with the subdued grief of the weeping women, and the ashen features of +the dying man.</p> + +<p>But Madge saw all with a deeper sense than that of an artist merely +watching for "effects," and would fain have knelt down likewise to join +in the petitions, but for the companion by her side.</p> + +<p>"That's your style, Madge," he said briefly. "Much good may it do the +poor fellow."</p> + +<p>"Ay, may it, sir, indeed," responded Madge softly.</p> + +<p>"Mr. Prior is setting to work early. Well,—'tis his vocation."</p> + +<p>"Mr. Prior?" Madge repeated.</p> + +<p>"The new Rector. He only arrived on Monday. Stay, there is a man +calling me."</p> + +<p>He came back with a hasty step.</p> + +<p>"It may be nothing—I don't know,—but it sounds like—. Come and see, +Madge."</p> + +<p>Following, as he hurried away, she came with him to a sheltered corner. +And there, behind a broken carriage, hidden away in the darkness,—lying +quietly where they had first been flung by the rude shock of the +collision,—there they were. Mother and daughter together, not only side +by side, but clasped firmly in one another's arms, as if, in the single +instant of conscious danger, the instinct of each had been to shelter +the other.</p> + +<p>Travelling in the same carriage, bound for the same home, flung out +by the same rough shock, lying on the same damp spot of earth. But +one was there, and one was "not" there. One was living, and one was +dead. One was left to wander in earth's shade, and one had reached the +everlasting light.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image009" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image009.jpg" alt="image009"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image010" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image010.jpg" alt="image010"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_3">CHAPTER III.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>DOWN UNDERGROUND.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>MR. PRIOR came upon this group quietly, with his lantern in his hand, +as he had come upon the other. He paused as he had done before, and +made a sixth in the scene. But beyond the show of deep compassion in +his face, what could he do for them?</p> + +<p>They were all silent. From the moment of Mr. Chetwynd's first +exclamation, not a word had passed his lips. He stood now with bent +head and folded arms, the swelling veins in his forehead telling +something of the thoughts below. The man who had called him to the spot +remained slightly behind, holding in his hand a roughly improvised +torch, which flickered drearily, sending black curls of smoke upward +and stray sparks downward.</p> + +<p>Madge Hardwicke's gray eyes shone full of unshed tears. And Mona Clyde, +just awakened from her death-like faint, had sprung to her mother's +side before they dreamt her purpose, and now hung caressingly over her.</p> + +<p>She did not know the truth, and how could they tell it to her? She +thought it was such a swoon as her own had been. It was almost more +than they could bear, to see the slender girl kneeling there, all +unconscious of her loss, tremblingly chafing the mother's cold hands, +and trying in fond tones to coax her back to sense. Madge Hardwicke +turned away and sobbed aloud. Mr. Chetwynd lifted his head, and meeting +Mr. Prior's look, spoke suddenly in an impatient husky tone—</p> + +<p>"Look here—see here! I know all the talk about mysterious +dispensations. What have you to say to this?"</p> + +<p>Whatever he had expected, he had not looked for the reply—</p> + +<p>"'God is love,' Mr. Chetwynd."</p> + +<p>"And this—an act of love!" he said bitterly.</p> + +<p>"If you know Him, you will be able to trust His loving mercy through +even this," was the gently-uttered answer.</p> + +<p>"Mercy!" Mr. Chetwynd laughed hoarsely. "A mercy that she should be cut +off! Ay, she has thought and talked like the rest of you, times without +number. And now—this is the end of it all."</p> + +<p>This the end! The end of all her loving trust in a merciful Redeemer? +Ah but neither Mr. Prior in his faith, nor Mr. Chetwynd in his +unbelief, could catch one note of the grand triumphant chorus, with +which the gathering in of another saint to the City of God had even +then been welcomed by those already at home. It was the end indeed of +faith, but the beginning of unclouded joy, and of pleasures at the +right hand of God for ever and for evermore.</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd checked himself when about to continue, for Mona had +turned to listen, with a face of stony whiteness, and dilated terrified +eyes.</p> + +<p>"Mona, dear child," he faltered.</p> + +<p>"Mother is fainting. Why don't you bring her round?" demanded Mona, in +an unnatural voice.</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd groaned, and covered his face with his hands.</p> + +<p>Madge Hardwicke laid a light grasp on the girl's arm, looking down on +her tearfully.</p> + +<p>"You'll help me," Mona went on in a pleading tone. "I don't know who +you are, but I think from your face that you are kind. And they are +leaving mother without doing anything—leaving her to die."</p> + +<p>The word uttered by herself seemed to rouse her to a sudden agony of +fear, and with a cry she turned again to the motionless figure,—</p> + +<p>"Mother! Mother! Oh, won't you look up? Mother! Mother, darling!"</p> + +<p>"Miss Mona, I'm going to take you away from this place," said Madge +Hardwicke, feeling that something must be done, and the truth must be +told. "Dear Miss Mona, you are not fit to stay here any longer."</p> + +<p>"Mona, my dear, you 'must' come," said Mr. Chetwynd, as she resisted +Madge Hardwicke resolutely. "We can do no more for—for her."</p> + +<p>"No more!" Mona looked up in ghastly bewilderment. "Why you've done +nothing at all yet. Keep off. I am not going to leave mother. What do +you mean?"</p> + +<p>Child as she looked for her age, shaken and trembling with all she had +gone through, her gesture made them desist from any attempt to draw her +away.</p> + +<p>"What do you mean? I don't understand," she went on hurriedly. "Uncle +Chetwynd, you are a doctor. Don't you know what to do for a person in a +faint? Mother has often fainted before, and I have brought her round, +but there's nothing here to do it with. Why don't you fetch me some +water, and help me to fan her, and rub her hands? What has come over +you all?"</p> + +<p>Even as she spoke, the truth was fighting its way slowly into her mind, +though she struggled to keep it out.</p> + +<p>"Uncle Chetwynd, she's only fainting. Don't you see she's only +fainting? She will come to herself again directly. Mother—mother!"</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd turned away with an uncontrollable sob.</p> + +<p>"Mr. Prior, this is part of your rightful work. Tell her the truth if +you can. I can't. Is there none among you that can comfort her?"</p> + +<p>He looked up half-fiercely as he spoke, but the appeal had met with +instant response, and Mr. Prior was already by the side of the +white-cheeked shuddering girl.</p> + +<p>"Mona, dear child, you must come away with me," he said gently, as if +he had known her all her life.</p> + +<p>Mona gave him a startled look.</p> + +<p>"It is very dark," he went on. "I am going to take you away, Mona. It +is very dreary here, but there is daylight beyond."</p> + +<p>Her gaze had grown piercing in its intensity.</p> + +<p>"How do you know? What do you mean?" she muttered. "Did you know mother +had said it?"</p> + +<p>"Had said what, my poor child?"</p> + +<p>"About the sunshine beyond—the darkness and then the light—and about +its being like—like—the last Home-going! O mother!"</p> + +<p>"It is like that for her. God has taken her out of the darkness into +His glorious light. Mona," he said pityingly, "poor child—it 'is' the +last Home-going."</p> + +<p>She knew the truth now, and the cry with which she sank over her +mother, though not loud, was terrible in its broken-heartedness.</p> + +<p>"And this—this, you say, is mercy," Mr. Chetwynd murmured huskily, as +he helped Mr. Prior to lift the half-unconscious girl.</p> + +<p>"Ay, to those who are God's own," Mr. Prior made answer. "What do you +and I understand of His secret purposes? I know only this—how very +precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints!"</p> + +<p>"She was a saint, if there ever was one upon earth," said Mr. Chetwynd. +"I don't know that the word means the same to me as to you, though. It +doesn't much matter after all. Thank you, Mr. Prior,—you mean well, but +such doctrines are beyond me. Madge, you will come home with us for a +few hours. Hush—don't try to rouse the poor child. Better get her away +as she is. She understands at last."</p> + +<p>"God give her strength to bear it," murmured Madge.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image011" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image011.jpg" alt="image011"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image012" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image012.jpg" alt="image012"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_4">CHAPTER IV.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>MADGE AND THE DOCTOR.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"SO here you be at last," said Amos Ackman, in a discontented growl. +"Get back, Nan." It was in the evening, less than a week later.</p> + +<p>The sun had just sunk behind West Point, lending a framework of golden +light to the dark massive centre, which stood out with its sharply-cut +profile against the clear sky. And the sea was all one sparkle of +dancing ripples, which broke softly with murmuring splashes among the +rocks below.</p> + +<p>Amos Ackman sat on a bench in his doorway, looking upon his goodly +growth of garden weeds. He made no unfit foreground to the very untidy +surroundings. A man, not tall, but formerly an athlete in strength, +he had been bent and shrunk and twisted, by long years of acute +rheumatism, into a half-helpless querulous invalid. The greater part +of his time he spent on his little wooden bench, working laboriously +with his swelled yet bony hands at trifling articles or childish +knick-knacks for sale, helped by little Nan, as she crouched on the +ground at his feet. A sour-spirited and unlovable man was Amos Ackman, +yet Nannie loved him, and Madge Hardwicke pitied him and often did him +a kindly turn.</p> + +<p>For all Amos Ackman's crustiness, he was not without a friend in the +world—a real fast personal friend, who held to him through thick +and thin, and would not be repelled by any amount of cross-grained +speeches. Nat Tyrrell was a carpenter in a small way, living close to +the foot of the hill, up which, in common with a goodly number of Alyn +folks, he was wont to take his airing on a summer evening. He stood +now, leaning in his favourite position against Amos Ackman's crooked +crab-tree, looking, in his contrast to Amos, as if the theory of convex +and concave friendship were here to receive full proof.</p> + +<p>For Amos Ackman was stooping and high-shouldered, with long uncouth +arms, and neglected growth of straggling gray hair, and narrow +forehead, and sharp deep-set eyes. And Nat Tyrrell was broad and stout +in build, with frank straightforward bearing, and plenty of sense and +intelligence in his honest face.</p> + +<p>A good man too, was Nat Tyrrell, not indeed rising to any great height +of Christian experience, and having had his eyes but lately opened +to see the worth of things spiritual. He was only groping his way as +yet through early dawn, and making many a mistake concerning matters +of weighty import in that dim light. No fear that, if he groped on, +honestly seeking for more light, it would not be granted. Only the +curious thing was, that he hardly realised yet how much he needed +clearer sight; and he was therefore not a little disposed to lay down +the law upon many matters, which, all unknown to himself, others in +brighter daylight could mark in their more just proportions. There are +no popes more determined in their would-be infallibility than those +good men who utterly mistake their own glimmering light for the blaze +of noonday. And with such, the dawn often brightens but slowly, lasting +it may be almost through a life-time. Still, Nat Tyrrell was a good +man—a man of Christian principle, earnestly desirous to serve God, and +needing chiefly to be raised in his knowledge of Christ, and lowered in +his estimation of self.</p> + +<p>"So here you be at last," was Amos Ackman's surly greeting, as Madge +Hardwicke's quiet face, with the little red handkerchief below it, +stopped at his gate. "Get back, Nan. Always in the way, yer are."</p> + +<p>Nan went down quickly on the ground, but ventured to smile a welcome, +as Madge came a step nearer.</p> + +<p>"Yes, I'm come back," Madge said. "How have you been all day?"</p> + +<p>"Same as always," said Amos shortly. "Where 've yer been?"</p> + +<p>"More places than one," said Madge. "I'd a mind to be present at the +funeral."</p> + +<p>"What the poor lady as was killed in the tunnel?" asked Nat Tyrrell. +"The doctor's sister?"</p> + +<p>"Joe Whilly telled me there was to be six buried together," said Amos, +hitting out at Nan, when she ventured to creep a little nearer to +Madge. "Get out o' the way then! Six buried together, says he, all o' +them killed on the spot. And a lot more to be buried to-morrow. Well, +the gentlefolks has it this time an' no mistake."</p> + +<p>"Has what?" demanded Madge.</p> + +<p>"Their turn at trouble an' bother," said Amos sourly. "I've enough an' +to spare, till I'm 'most sick o' my life. I ain't got no objection to +see rich folks bearin' a bit o' the same."</p> + +<p>"Come now, don't you go and be spiteful, Amos," interposed Nat Tyrrell +good-humouredly. "Rich folks has their plenty of trouble, though it +don't always come in the money line."</p> + +<p>Amos struck out again savagely, as if little Nan were the impersonation +of wealthy ease, and he wanted to demolish it on the spot. "What 're +yer after there, a-wastin' all your time? Get into the cottage."</p> + +<p>"Nannie's coming along with me into my garden, to help pull weeds," +said Madge, as the child cowered silently beneath the blow. "You'd +ought to be ashamed of yourself, Amos Ackman, to treat a little girl +like that worse than if she was a dog."</p> + +<p>Amos scowled, but allowed Nannie to spring past him without a protest.</p> + +<p>"Well," Madge said, when they had reached her little garden, leaving +the other two just out of ear-shot, "I've scarce had a word with you, +Nan, these days past. What's angered your father, child?"</p> + +<p>Nannie looked thoughtful. She was spare, and small, and pinched for her +age, but there was no lack of intelligence in her little thin face, +with the framing of gipsy-black hair. "Madge," she said, under her +breath, "d'ye mind what you said the morning of the tunnel accident? +'Twasn't the Resurrection-day, after all."</p> + +<p>"No, it's to come yet," said Madge, pulling up a bit of groundsel, and +then looking across to the fading rim of golden light which lingered +round Lion Point.</p> + +<p>"I've prayed a deal that it mayn't be long, and that father 'll be +ready," said Nan softly. "But he don't seem like it now. I wanted to +say to him my Sunday text this morning, Madge, and it's that has made +him be hittin' at me all day since."</p> + +<p>"I'd pray on," said Madge, continuing her work. "Maybe 'tisn't the +Master's time yet. Only take care your father don't anger ye, Nan."</p> + +<p>"I've had to smother it down ever so," said Nannie, with a little sob. +"O Madge, it's so hard, you don't know. Look here."</p> + +<p>The black bruises on the little arm, covertly bared, told their own +tale. "It 'is' hard," said Madge. "I wish I could shield you, child. +Maybe if I was to speak to him, and get Nat Tyrrell to speak too—"</p> + +<p>"No, no, he's worse after, if he keeps in a bit," said Nannie, speaking +cheerfully, as she covered up the poor little discoloured arm. "I'll +bear it, Madge, 'cause, if I made a fuss, father 'd maybe think I was +angry, and then he'd be longer learning to love God; don't you think +so, Madge?"</p> + +<p>It seemed to Madge like something of the old martyr-spirit shining in +the child's face; but she only said, "Ay, Nannie, you're right, 'on' +doubt. Come, and I'll put you something on the bruises."</p> + +<p>Amos Ackman's voice, calling imperatively in harsh tones, made Nannie +run away the moment they again left the cottage. Madge moved forward +a trifle faster herself, for Mr. Chetwynd was standing outside the +garden, leaning on the palings.</p> + +<p>He looked sad and weary enough, though he greeted her with a +half-careless smile. "Good evening, Madge. I have come up here for a +breath of fresh air. The town is oppressive to-day."</p> + +<p>"How's Miss Mona, sir?" asked Madge.</p> + +<p>He shook his head. "I don't know. Never sheds a tear. Never speaks +of—of 'it.' I can't begin, or it might be better. I am not sure. But +it is hard to see her look like that. It is not the way girls usually +meet sorrow. There seems no way of bringing comfort to her, poor little +Mona."</p> + +<p>His eyes were moist, and his voice was unsteady.</p> + +<p>"God can comfort her, sir," Madge said, in her quiet way.</p> + +<p>He shook his head again, in dreary dissent this time.</p> + +<p>"I tried to get her out, but she will see no one yet, and seems to wish +for nothing but to be left alone. Madge, I like Mr. Prior, though he is +of your way of thinking. You two would suit marvellously. He knows when +not to talk, which most men don't know, particularly your good folks. +His shake of the hand to-day said more than any words could have done. +If all professors of religion were like him and you, now—"</p> + +<p>"Sir, a man's slips oughtn't to make you condemn his religion."</p> + +<p>"One naturally judges of a man's profession by his actions. What were +you talking about so earnestly to that child, as I came up the hill, +before you both disappeared into the cottage?"</p> + +<p>Madge thought a moment, and then spoke out steadily, "Prayer to God, +for one thing, sir."</p> + +<p>"Ha! Quite your subject."</p> + +<p>"No,—everybody's," said Madge.</p> + +<p>"What are you praying for now, eh?"</p> + +<p>He asked the question lightly, not quite contemptuously.</p> + +<p>Perhaps there was something in Madge Hardwicke's calm confidence which +kept him in check. Also, he had himself no objection to prayer, as +a necessary and respectable form. Possibly, he looked upon the said +form as something of a concession to the weakness of others; but, at +all events, in his opinion, it could do no one harm, if not likely +to do any one good. He was regularly to be seen in his pew on Sunday +mornings, where his manner, if not reverent, was decorous; and he had +never yet broken through the habit of family prayers, however brief and +dry in kind. As for anything beyond—as for making a particular request +to God, and looking for a particular answer from God—Mr. Chetwynd's +feelings were simply those of utter incredulity. He had no objection to +the form of prayer, as a habit, as an institution, as an act of worship +to a Supreme Being, but he had no faith whatever in the power of prayer +as a living working reality. There was the barrier at which he stopped, +and there, he well knew, Madge did not stop; whence his question.</p> + +<p>Madge hesitated again, not that she did not know what to say, but that +it was always an effort to her to speak of her own feelings. But Madge +never shrank from showing her colours when occasion called.</p> + +<p>"For the Master's coming," she answered reverently.</p> + +<p>He was watching the red sunset clouds at that moment, floating in +the blue sky, but he turned to look her in the face, in no pretended +astonishment.</p> + +<p>"Madge, do you literally mean to say—you who believe in the Second +Advent, as men understand it in the Bible—do you mean to say you dream +of your prayers having any influence in an event of such moment as +that, supposing it were really coming upon us?"</p> + +<p>"I'd put aside the supposings, sir, and let's take for granted it +really is,—as we know to be," Madge could not help adding, in her calm +exultant faith, ranking herself with those who know the truth indeed, +and were not blind as he was. "I do believe my praying 'll hasten it, +sir."</p> + +<p>"Then you don't believe it to be a day fixed from all eternity? Madge, +Madge, what of your faith in Bible teachings now?" demanded the doctor.</p> + +<p>"Maybe 'tis fixed. Any way, God knows the day. What then, sir?" asked +Madge simply, in her turn.</p> + +<p>"How can your prayers by any possibility affect a fixed event?"</p> + +<p>"I don't know, sir. God knows, and that's enough."</p> + +<p>"But I tell you, Madge, the two things are incompatible. They can't +both be true."</p> + +<p>"Maybe you can't explain 'em, sir," said Madge. "They're none the less +true for that. You've a deal more of this world's wisdom than I have, +and I'm but a poor ignorant woman. But 'the wisdom of this world is +foolishness with God.' Tisn't wisdom, but faith, that's needed to get a +man into the kingdom of heaven."</p> + +<p>"Then, if you were to read in the Bible that black was white, you would +believe it, Madge?"</p> + +<p>He laughed as he spoke.</p> + +<p>But Madge answered solemnly,—so solemnly that he too grew grave:—</p> + +<p>"Sir, the Bible says nowhere at all that black is white. The Bible +don't ask us to believe anything of the kind, and I can't see that I've +any call to be fancying how I'd feel if the Bible said things which it +doesn't say. But what's put plainly in God's Word, I do believe. And +where I can't understand, I know 'tis only because I am but a little +child before God; and I just take the truths He gives me, and believe +them still."</p> + +<p>He looked away again towards the fading light in the west—looked sadly, +standing there in his lonely sorrow, smitten by the hand of God in his +tenderest affections, and haughtily putting aside the sweet comfort +wherewith God would fain, in His pitying love, comfort all who are cast +down. Mr. Chetwynd knew nothing of all this—knew not, because he would +not know.</p> + +<p>"Look here, Madge," he said huskily,—"did none of those passengers the +other day pray for a safe journey before their setting out, do you +suppose?"</p> + +<p>"I've a notion that they did, sir. And wasn't God's hand over them, +preserving many a one from death?"</p> + +<p>"According to that, all praying travellers should be safe, and only the +non-praying ones ever meet with injury or death."</p> + +<p>Madge looked up with a sudden shining in her eyes.</p> + +<p>"Ay, sir, 'twould be so, surely, 'if' God's wounding isn't often a +deal better than to be left whole, and 'if' this life is better than +heaven's glory. I'd find it hard to choose about that last, if you was +to put it to me."</p> + +<p>"You would! You, Madge?"</p> + +<p>"I don't wish for death, till it's my Lord's will," said Madge very +quietly. "But when He calls, I'd think you right cruel to keep me +back—only you couldn't!" added Madge, with genuine thankfulness.</p> + +<p>"That's not mere weariness of life," muttered the doctor.</p> + +<p>"No, sir," Madge answered. "I'm not weary of life, so long as my Lord +wants me to live here for Him. And I'd like to see Neill again, too."</p> + +<p>"And you think Neill will come back some day?"</p> + +<p>"I do, sir."</p> + +<p>"And that his return will be in answer to your prayers?"</p> + +<p>Madge's gray eyes were burning with a mother's tears. "I do, sir," she +repeated.</p> + +<p>"And how if he does not come back, after all your prayers?"</p> + +<p>"Then it's because I'm blind, and can't see what's good for him nor me."</p> + +<p>"Ha! So you would not call that unanswered prayer! You are a clever +woman at twisting things about, Madge."</p> + +<p>She turned straight to look him in the face, as he had done to her.</p> + +<p>"Sir, true prayer is never unanswered, though sure enough God don't +always give us the very things we pray for. My Bible tells me, 'If +we ask anything "according to His will" He heareth us.' If 'tis not +according to His will, He keeps it back, and well for us He does. Seems +to me oftentimes that He don't give me just the thing I ask for, only +because He has something else a deal better in store. But any way, I +wouldn't dare wish aught, save what He wills to grant me.</p> + +<p>"I'm right sure that no prayer of faith, put up with the 'If it be Thy +Will' running all through it, was ever left unanswered, though maybe +the answer sent was a different one altogether from what was looked for +by him who prayed. And it's like enough to be so with me. I wouldn't +wish to shut my eyes to the truth. Maybe Neill will not come home at +all, but I'll meet him safe in heaven. I'd sooner have an Eternity with +him there, than only a few years with him here, if both couldn't be."</p> + +<p>"Isn't that 'couldn't' rather limiting God's power, Madge?"</p> + +<p>"No, sir. There's many things which God sees in His wisdom mustn't be, +and we don't know the reason now, and won't till we get to heaven. +It'll be joy to see the meaning of things then, but it's joy to trust +my Lord now."</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd was silent. He would have given something for the +absolute repose of this woman's faith. He would have given almost +anything,—short of laying aside his pride, and his earthly wisdom. But +he could not part with these. He could not, and would not, stoop to +become a little child. The portals of the Kingdom of Heaven are low, +and Mr. Chetwynd, with his lofty crest of self-confidence, could not +enter therein.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image013" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image013.jpg" alt="image013"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image014" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image014.jpg" alt="image014"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_5">CHAPTER V.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>GATHERING MISTS.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"WHAT are you going to do with yourself to-day, my dear?" inquired +the doctor one morning, as he sipped his coffee, and glanced down the +columns of the "Times," with an abstracted air.</p> + +<p>"I don't know, uncle. Anything."</p> + +<p>"Because I am called away to a distance, and—a—don't know exactly—when—"</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd's voice died into a murmur as he became more engrossed +with his subject. Presently, however, he folded up the paper, threw it +to a side-table, and looked across at the quiet pale face opposite, +with purple rings round the sad dark eyes.</p> + +<p>"I beg your pardon, my dear. It is very unsociable to treat you in this +fashion. What will you do with yourself while I am away?"</p> + +<p>"I don't care, uncle."</p> + +<p>"I shall hardly be home before evening—to dinner at six, if possible. +But you will be lonely."</p> + +<p>Lonely, yes, with the great blank which she had borne about with her +for weeks. But his presence made no great difference either way in that +respect, and she only said passively, "I shall do very well, thank you."</p> + +<p>"Don't you think, now, you would be happier, if I could get some young +lady to spend the day with you, Mona?" he asked kindly.</p> + +<p>"No—no, please, uncle Chetwynd."</p> + +<p>"It would be better for you, my dear child."</p> + +<p>"No, I can't have it indeed," said Mona decidedly.</p> + +<p>"Or if you would go somewhere—say to the Rectory. Mrs. Prior is an +invalid, to be sure, but she is a bright one, and she has often pressed +me to bring you to see her."</p> + +<p>"Not yet," said Mona.</p> + +<p>"You would not see Mr. Prior when he came to call yesterday."</p> + +<p>"I—couldn't. I don't know him."</p> + +<p>"But suppose he wants to know you?"</p> + +<p>Mona put up her hand to still the throbbing in her throat. "I can't see +any one; I can't, indeed, uncle. I only want to be quiet."</p> + +<p>"Well, you must take your own way, my dear," said the doctor, with a +half-sigh. He wanted much to understand the young girl, thus thrown +upon him for care and comfort, yet he found it impossible to penetrate +the veil of sorrowful reserve in which she had wrapped herself. "I +don't want to tease you, Mona, only I think a little change would be +good for your spirits."</p> + +<p>"I'll go for a walk," said Mona with an effort, feeling secure, if she +went alone, of meeting no one with whom she was acquainted, or, at +least, of being able to escape in time.</p> + +<p>"Ah, yes, that will do you good. And you won't have a companion?" +Mona shook her head. "Suppose you find your way up the hill to my old +friend, Madge Hardwicke."</p> + +<p>Mona made up her mind to avoid that direction studiously, but only +said, "I'll see."</p> + +<p>"I should like you to know her better. She is a good woman—practically +most excellent. Theoretically—well, she has your dear mother's ideas +upon religion. None the worse for that, maybe, eh, Mona?" added Mr. +Chetwynd, with a certain lofty condescension towards the weak, yet +enviable and even beautiful credulity of those who thought thus, which +Mona, girl though she was, appreciated to the full. He thought her +sudden shiver was caused by the allusion to her loss, and continued +hastily, "But I really should like you to see more of Madge. I don't +know a more worthy creature, or one who lives more entirely for others."</p> + +<p>"And you don't think that speaks for her religion?" asked Mona, in a +low voice.</p> + +<p>"My dear child, I don't think you and I had better enter on that +question," said Mr. Chetwynd pleasantly, handing up his cup for a fresh +supply of coffee. "I do not suppose that, whatever Madge Hardwicke's +religious views might have chanced to be, she could ever have been +otherwise than kind-hearted, and unselfish, and capable." For Mr. +Chetwynd, in common with many others of his way of thinking, seemed +to make it his rule to ascribe all the blemishes of a Christian's +character to his or her religion, and all the beauties of it to +unassisted nature. "But I should be sorry to have any discussion with +you about it, Mona. I would not for worlds unsettle your mind with +regard to those things, in which your poor mother taught you to put +faith. We did not agree in all matters of theory, but you are quite +right to think like her—as long as you can—and I assure you, dear, you +cannot admire more heartily than I do, the loveliness of such a life as +hers. I only wish there were more like her."</p> + +<p>Such a Christian life as hers! And such a Christian life as Madge +Hardwicke's! And such a Christian life as Mr. Prior's! And such a +Christian life as that of his own mother in the past! But Mr. Chetwynd +preferred to ignore that fashion of looking upon the question. The +beauty of their lives he could not deny, but the cause, he would have +allowed to be anything rather than heart-religion.</p> + +<p>Did he in very truth dread to unsettle the once happy trust of the +young creature before him? Did he really desire in his heart to act +faithfully by the known wishes of his lost sister, and to train up her +child as she would have had her trained? Theoretically no doubt he did, +or imagined he did. Practically, he exercised small self-control in the +matter.</p> + +<p>Not that he ever made any direct attacks upon Mona's faith. He would +have said he believed a great many things that she believed. And for +the rest—he set himself, in love to his sister's memory, and almost, +as a point of honour, to avoid discussion on mooted points. But had +he no idea of the awful power over the mind of a young and simple +yet intellectual girl, of those slight innuendos and brief passing +sneers on the subject of heart-religion, in which he was so prone to +indulge himself? They escaped him often, it is true, undesignedly and +by mere force of habit. Not the less dangerous were they for that. And +not the less terrible was the weight of responsibility incurred by +Mr. Chetwynd, in daring thus to tamper with the faith of one of the +Master's "little ones."</p> + +<p>For the barbed arrow had taken root—flung by his reckless hand.</p> + +<p>Poor gentle Mona Clyde! Hers had been such a happy life up to that +fatal journey. She had literally never known trouble. The loss of +her father lay back in the far distance, too dim and hazy to cause +her grief, unless for her mother's sake. All her love and hope and +abounding joy in life had been centred in that one sweet being—her +mother—a mother, so pure and tender, so saintly and sweet, that Mona +had no wish for aught of earthly pleasure beyond her companionship. +They were all in all to each other, those two!</p> + +<p>And Mona had for years believed herself to be a child of God. She could +hardly have told the time when first her mother's gentle teaching had +drawn her to the love of heavenly things. She had known, indeed, no +great depths of lowly repentance, or grand heights of holy joy, and +had experienced few intense spiritual longings. Some in the flock are +near to the Shepherd, and some are farther away; and Mona had not been +one of those who cling ever to His side, looking out each step of the +way for His guiding hand and loving touch. Still, she had felt her +sinfulness, and had sought her Saviour's forgiveness. She had lived a +simple child-like life of simple child-like faith and service, gliding +placidly down the stream of life, playing with each joy as it came to +her hand, and seeming to pass unscathed through all the world's pain +and sorrow.</p> + +<p>And now this fearful blow had come, taking away at one stroke all that +she loved on earth, and leaving her mute, crushed, and desolate. And it +was the Hand of God which had done this!</p> + +<p>The Hand of God! The Hand of her Heavenly Father! Ay, and Mona might +have trusted that Father's love through all, but for the words of the +man who heartlessly lent himself to the work of unsettling her peace.</p> + +<p>Did he ever dream how it was not the mere loss of her mother, precious +though that mother had been to her, but his own ill-advised utterances, +which had shattered Mona's happiness? Did he ever realise that it was +his own hand which had drawn so black a pall over her once clear sky? +Did he ever imagine the stormy grief, and the wild questionings about +God and His dealings, which raged beneath that girlish face?</p> + +<p>He did not dream, or realise, or imagine the truth. But none the less, +heavily weighed upon him the unfelt load of responsibility before God. +"Whoso shall offend one of these little ones, which believe in Me, it +were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and +that he were drowned in the depth of the sea."</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image015" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image015.jpg" alt="image015"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image016" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image016.jpg" alt="image016"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_6">CHAPTER VI.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>NANNIE.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>MONA went that afternoon for her walk, as she had promised, caring +little as she went whither her steps might tend. West Point was her +first idea, but she had a certain dread of being caught and imprisoned +by the returning tide. So she turned aimlessly in the opposite +direction, not climbing, but skirting the East Cliff Hill, by the +winding path which ran round it at the bottom.</p> + +<p>To reach the little shingle cove beyond, took nearly an hour of steady +walking, but once set going, Mona kept it up mechanically. She had +never suffered from weakness before, and felt some surprise at her own +failing strength and aching limbs when the hour was ended, not knowing +the exhausting effects of such grief and seclusion as hers during the +past month.</p> + +<p>The path leading straight up the hill, and along the edge of the cliff, +was evidently a much shorter cut homewards than the road by which she +had come, and Mona decided to follow it, though doubtful whether the +steepness of the ascent might not more than counter-balance its greater +directness. She pressed steadily for a while up the stony way, with +trailing brambles on her left and right, till she found herself panting +to a degree which made a respite necessary. A little grassy niche close +to the cliff-edge attracted her, and she sat down to rest.</p> + +<p>It was a clear October day, fair and mild, and free alike from +boisterous breeze or glaring sunshine. Everything seemed clothed in a +neutral tint, and the very blue of the sea had a gray hue about it. +There were no waves beyond a lazy heaving to and fro of the water, but +Mona could catch the sound of the distant splash, as the tide crept +sleepily in, washing round one rock after another.</p> + +<p>How long she sat there, with her cheek on her hand, and her eyes fixed +dreamily on the line of the horizon, she could not have told. She was +scarcely thinking so much as sinking into a tangled maze of doubt and +speculation, after her habit of late. Why this? What of that? How +possible the other? And this could not be reconciled with that; and +that was a belief incompatible with this; and life altogether was one +sad confused mystery; and sin and sorrow seemed so to flourish under +the permission of the God of holiness and love; and revealed truths +were so utterly bewildering in their varied aspects.</p> + +<p>And Mona, poor weak child, striving feebly to penetrate mighty +mysteries which the very angels may not fathom, setting herself up +to question the eternal purposes of the King of kings, before whom +the sinless cherubs veil their faces—what wonder if she found herself +baffled on every side, and closed in by a darkening threatening cloud +of unbelief? As well might she have sought to gauge the depth of the +Atlantic Ocean with the little six-inch ruler in her desk at home, +as have dreamt of measuring God's mysteries by means of her own puny +intellect. Ay, and of the most brilliant powers on earth, ever seen in +living man, the same must still be said. The finite can never compass +the infinite.</p> + +<p>How long Mona would have gone on sitting there but for an interruption, +it is hard to say. Down in her heart of hearts she knew she was wrong +to give way to these questionings—knew herself to be playing with edged +tools of deadly sharpness. But it seemed to herself that she had no +power to draw back from the contest, no power even to seek help from +above. What was the good of praying, she asked bitterly, when doubts as +to the power of prayer thronged round every word she uttered? If once +she could settle these terrible questions which so disturbed her peace, +she would feel again the peace and joy she had known so short a time +before.</p> + +<p>If once! Little did she know that she was bearing fast towards a reef +of cruel hidden rocks, upon which too many of the brightest human +intellects have been wrecked for eternity. Well was it for Mona that +not all her reasonings could prevent the child-like instinct of her +heart from leading her once and again, through all her doubtings, +to cry aloud to her Saviour for help. Well was it for her that her +speculations, though feebly resisted, were no pleasure, but keenest +pain, and that she was a stranger as yet to the foolish pride so often +felt in such questionings, as if, instead of being simply a sign of +imperfect faith, they were a proof of superior mental power. But if +allowed to hold sway too long, there was no hope that in time the pain +would not die, and pride creep stealthily in to supply its place.</p> + +<p>An unexpected sound struck on Mona's ear, and roused her suddenly +from her musings. She was not sorry to be so roused. Something of a +stilled sob in a child's voice, it seemed to her, and she listened +intently, but for awhile in vain. Then she heard it again, rather more +distinctly, and rising from her sheltered spot among the brambles, she +stood in the pathway, waiting.</p> + +<p>There it was—an unmistakable sob this time. Mona went straight among +the bushes away from the cliff, in the direction whence the sobbing +proceeded, and in her haste, almost fell over the figure of a child +crouched in the long grass, shivering and moaning under its breath, +with an occasional sharper sound, as if of pain too keen to be +repressed.</p> + +<p>"Why, you poor little creature, what is the matter?" asked Mona +compassionately, kneeling down beside her. "What is the matter? Has any +one hurt you, or are you ill?"</p> + +<p>The child only cowered down more closely, and Mona bent over her.</p> + +<p>"Poor little thing! You are quite trembling. Has anything happened to +frighten you? Tell me your name, little girl?" said Mona, with gentle +authority, finding her questions unanswered.</p> + +<p>"Nannie Ackman."</p> + +<p>"And where do you live?"</p> + +<p>"Up on the hill."</p> + +<p>Nannie started and moaned sharply again, and then lifted her +tear-stained face. "O please,—I can't help it, it does hurt so," she +whispered, with catches in her breath.</p> + +<p>Mona noticed how the child crouched forward, all drawn together with +pain. She noted too, in a more passing way, the careful mending of the +little one's short scarlet petticoat, and the neatness of the long +black hair, and the cleanliness of the small face and hands, unaware +how much Madge Hardwicke had had to do with the same.</p> + +<p>"Nannie, what is it that hurts you so much?" she asked gently. "Tell me +what it is, dear."</p> + +<p>She sat down on the long grass, and lifted Nannie into her lap, but the +movement, though most tenderly performed, caused almost a scream of +anguish. "What can be the matter? Nannie, poor child, can't you tell +me?" Mona asked, in real distress. "Have you had a fall, or has any one +hurt you? Where is the pain?"</p> + +<p>She hardly needed to ask the latter question, after the way in which +the child's hands were clenched over her chest. "It's here, an' all +through an' my back," Nannie gasped incoherently. "O please tell +Madge—I did try—and I couldn't be patient."</p> + +<p>"Madge Hardwicke, do you mean?" asked Mona, trying to support Nannie in +the easiest possible position.</p> + +<p>"Yes, and I did try," sobbed Nannie, breaking down, "but it does hurt +so dreadful, I couldn't keep in no longer."</p> + +<p>"Have you had this pain before to-day, Nannie?"</p> + +<p>"O no, 'cause father never hit me there before, nor so hard."</p> + +<p>"Your father! You don't mean to say he has done this!"</p> + +<p>"O I didn't mean to tell, I didn't," cried Nannie, roused to the +sense of what she had said, by the indignation in Mona's tone. "O +please—nobody mustn't know—'cause—"</p> + +<p>She had tried to raise herself in her excitement, and another scream +cut short the words. "Hush, Nannie, hush; you must lie down and keep +still," said Mona gravely. "What made your father treat you in such a +way? Tell me his name, and where you live."</p> + +<p>"He's Amos Ackman, and we live right up on the hill, next door to Madge +Hardwicke," said Nannie, gasping painfully between her sobs. "And +nobody mustn't ever know, please,—please,—"</p> + +<p>"Nannie, does your father often strike you?"</p> + +<p>"He's never done it so bad before, and he didn't think to make me fall +over this time, he didn't. Poor father! Madge says it's all along +'cause he's so cross with the rheumatiz, and so it is. He don't know no +better."</p> + +<p>The words, in their eager forgiveness, brought a rush of tears to +Mona's eyes. "Knows no better?" she repeated mechanically.</p> + +<p>"No, 'cause he don't love God," whispered Nannie, under her breath. +"And Madge and I've settled I'd better bear, and not grumble at +nothing; 'cause, if I do, father 'll mayhap be longer learning to +love Him. And if he's too long, maybe he won't be in time for the +Resurrection-day."</p> + +<p>The tears overflowed, and came dropping down on Nannie's brow so fast, +that Nannie looked up in wonder to see what made the strange young lady +cry. "Nannie, where is your father?" asked Mona, unheeding her surprise.</p> + +<p>"Down yonder, picking of blackberries. He don't know I'm here," +whispered Nannie, shrinking. "He's a deal angered, 'cause you know I +couldn't go to sell blackberries on Sunday. And he said he'd make me +to-morrow; and I said it 'ud be wrong, and then—he didn't mean to more +than push me neither. He don't know it's so bad."</p> + +<p>"If he does not know, he 'ought' to know," Mona thought. And in one +of those bursts of burning indignation, to which the gentlest natures +are sometimes prone, she did that which she would have been incapable +of even attempting in her cooler moments. Without saying a word to +Nannie, and without even being clearly aware of her own intentions, she +took the child in her arms, and walked straight down the hill, in the +direction pointed out by Nannie.</p> + +<p>Whether or no Nannie guessed her intentions, she offered no objection. +Perhaps she saw a resolution in Mona's flushed cheeks and firmly-set +lips, which would not be easily overcome. Perhaps the motion caused by +Mona's walk caused suffering too acute to admit of any thought beyond +that of self-control. At all events, neither of the two spoke, till +they came suddenly upon the ragged uncouth figure, whose identity was +made plain to Mona, alike by his half-filled blackberry basket and by +Nannie's shiver of fear.</p> + +<p>"Is your name Amos Ackman?" Mona inquired, presenting herself abruptly +before him, and dashing in fearless fashion straight to the point.</p> + +<p>"Be!" said Amos surlily, the former part of the sentence being merely +an inarticulate growl.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image017" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image017.jpg" alt="image017"></figure> +<p class="t4"> +<b>"And is this your little girl?"</b><br> +<b>"That's Nan," said Amos. "Idle little hussy she be,</b><br> +<b>wastin' of her time, an' doin' nought but play."</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"And is this your little girl?"</p> + +<p>"That's Nan," said Amos. "Idle little hussy she be, wastin' of her +time, an' doin' nought but play."</p> + +<p>"Play!" repeated Mona indignantly. "She is in no state for play, or +work either. Do you know that you might be severely punished for your +cruelty?"</p> + +<p>"Eh?" said Amos.</p> + +<p>The tone was sullenly non-comprehensive. "Look here," said Mona. "See +what you have done to her."</p> + +<p>Amos stared stolidly, and repeated, "Eh?"</p> + +<p>"Do you know you have hurt her so terribly that she cannot stand or +walk? If you go on in this way, you will end by becoming a murderer!" +said Mona, in her warmth. "You, a father, to behave so to your poor +little child!"</p> + +<p>"Can't walk, eh? She's all a humbuggin'," growled Amos. "Get down, will +yer, Nan?"</p> + +<p>Mona held the little helpless figure more closely. "You are +heartless,—wicked," she said, hardly able to find words for her +passionate indignation and pity, while Nannie burst into tears, and +sobbed out,—</p> + +<p>"O father, I didn't mean to tell! I'm sorry."</p> + +<p>"Dare say yer didn't, too," said Amos, with an unmistakable scowl this +time. "Sorry, are yer? I'll make yer sorry, an' no mistake, afore yer a +day older."</p> + +<p>"You shall not dare. You would kill her," cried Mona. "You shall not +lay a finger on her again. I will take her home with me."</p> + +<p>"Take her away, will yer? Yer 'd just better!"</p> + +<p>Mona quailed before the ferocity of those shaggy eyebrows.</p> + +<p>"I don't want to go, father," said Nannie, more calmly than she had yet +spoken. "I'd a deal rather stay with you."</p> + +<p>"I shall tell my uncle, Mr. Chetwynd, about it all, and see what he +will say," Mona answered. "I can't think how you could dare to treat a +poor little helpless girl in such a cowardly brutal way. I wonder you +could dare."</p> + +<p>"Nan's not a-going to go away from home," was the only response.</p> + +<p>"I shall take her up to Madge Hardwicke. My uncle will settle the +matter by-and-by."</p> + +<p>Mona could not trust herself to say more. She turned hastily away, and +walked again up the hill.</p> + +<p>Glancing back once, she saw Amos Ackman shuffling down the path in +the opposite direction. Not till he was out of sight, did she find +how unfitted was her own strength for the task she had undertaken. +At any time, unless under the strongest excitement, her slender arms +were unequal to the bearing of such a burden, and now the reaction +from her interview was a fit of nervous trembling from head to foot. +She struggled on a few more paces, and then sank down on the grass, so +completely spent that there was nothing for it but to await a renewal +of strength, or the help of a passer-by. Not many people, however, went +up and down the path on this side of the hill.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image018" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image018.jpg" alt="image018"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image019" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image019.jpg" alt="image019"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_7">CHAPTER VII.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>NAT TYRRELL'S NOTIONS.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"YOU'RE a good woman, Madge. I don't know a better. And my little girl +is main grateful to you, for taking so much trouble with her. Seems to +me, though, that you've got a wrong crank or two into your brain."</p> + +<p>"Maybe," said Madge placidly. She was standing outside her +cottage-door, that same Saturday afternoon, having just seen the last +of nearly a dozen little barefooted damsels, who were wont to run up +the hill once a week, for half-an-hour's Bible reading with Madge, as +a preparation for the Sunday following. "I've taken many a crank into +my head, and been set right in it, before now, and I dare say I'll take +many another. We're none of us gifted with over-clear sight."</p> + +<p>"A man holding the Word of God for his rule, needs never to go wrong," +said Nat Tyrrell decisively.</p> + +<p>"No, he don't need, and a man walking in full daylight needs never +to stumble, but there's no doubt he often do and often will, in both +cases," responded Madge. "What's the crank I've hold of now, Nat?"</p> + +<p>Nat's answer was another question: "What's your reading been about +to-day?"</p> + +<p>"Asking God for what we want."</p> + +<p>"Thought so," said Nat.</p> + +<p>"Yes, you had your head against the lattice, last part of the time," +said Madge in her quiet way.</p> + +<p>Nat laughed, half inclined to blush also. "Well, you see, I knowed +you'd have no objection."</p> + +<p>"Not a bit. Have out with your say, Nat. I'm waiting to be set right."</p> + +<p>"Well, look you here," said Nat, noways unwilling to assume the +pleasant office of mentor, "I didn't just like all you was telling of +the children, to go and pray for everything they wanted, and they'd get +it."</p> + +<p>"No, I didn't promise that neither," said Madge. "I told them they'd +get it, if 'twas God's will."</p> + +<p>"Yes, and nothing was ever too small to pray about, you said—not even +if 'twas a bit of food, or a wish for something you couldn't get."</p> + +<p>"Well," said Madge. "Don't the Bible say, 'In everything . . . let your +requests be made known unto God . . .'¹?"</p> + +<p class="footnote"> +<br> +¹ Phil. iv. 6.<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>"Yes, but it don't mean everything of that kind," said Nat.</p> + +<p>"What does it mean?" Madge wanted to know.</p> + +<p>"It don't mean that," repeated Nat Tyrrell. "It means seeking pardon +and forgiveness, and God's glory, and man's salvation."</p> + +<p>"And they're great things to pray for, sure enough, but you can't say +they're just quite 'everything' to us in this life," responded Madge. +"I'd like to know the texts you have found in other parts, to make the +meaning of this clear to you in that light, Nat."</p> + +<p>"'Tain't one text in partic'lar," said Nat, sheering off from an +awkward request. "Seems to me, Madge, you forget that God is the mighty +Creator of the whole universe, when you talk of troubling Him with your +little fidgets. Asking Him about such foolish matters as a hard lesson, +or a broken toy, or a sharp word from another, as I heard you telling +the children—why, 'tis downright profanation."</p> + +<p>Madge looked across to the wide blue waste of water, heaving and +tossing ceaselessly in its boundless power, then glanced at the bushes +by her side, where a bright-breasted robin, on an early autumn visit, +hopped daintily from twig to twig.</p> + +<p>"I don't know," she said at length. "I'm thinking, Nat, that if you'd +been at a bedside once, where a little child was called from the dead, +and the next thing the Lord did, was to tell them to give her a bit of +food—I'm thinking you'd have stepped forward, and said, 'Master, isn't +it profanation to think of anything so poor as meat and drink, after +you've been working so mighty a miracle?'"</p> + +<p>Nat looked rather at a loss.</p> + +<p>"And then He cares for the sparrows," Madge went on, after a little +break. "And we're of more value yet. And the very hairs of our heads +are all numbered. It don't seem to me that the Lord's measure of great +and little is the same at all that ours is. I'm quite sure of one +thing, and that is, that whatever has aught to do with our happiness, +isn't too small for Him to attend to. Besides, don't He tell us plainly +to ask for all we want?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, but you don't seem to remember, Madge, that all them promises are +to be taken in the spirit, and not in the letter."</p> + +<p>"And that's what I try to do, too. There's that verse—'Delight thyself +also in the Lord, and He shall give thee the desires of thine heart.' ¹</p> + +<p>"Don't I know well enough it means only if the desire of my heart +isn't for anything against His will. And it's the same with another +promise—'Ye shall ask "what ye will," and it shall be done unto you.' ² +But taking them in the spirit don't mean putting them aside altogether, +Nat."</p> + +<p class="footnote"> +<br> +¹ Ps. xxxvii. 4.  ² John xv. 7.<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>"'Ask what ye will' of spiritual good, it means, Madge. The 'desire of +your heart' hadn't ought to be for anything but spiritual benefits, and +if you delight in God, He'll give you those, sure enough."</p> + +<p>"I don't find it so in my Bible," maintained Madge stoutly. "I've +a love for taking Bible words as they are, and not adding my own +explainings. Didn't Mr. Prior tell us to take care of that very danger, +only last Sunday?"</p> + +<p>"I didn't take him to mean exactly that," said Nat.</p> + +<p>"I'd ask him if I was you," said Madge securely. "But about those words +now—if you was to come to me, Nat, and say, 'Ask what you will, Madge, +and I'll give it you,' I'd take you at your word, and ask many a thing, +supposing of course it was in your power to give. And when my Lord +says, 'Ask what you will, Madge,' mayn't I take Him at His word too, +or am I to make out that He don't speak my language, or that His words +has a scantier meaning than if you or I was to use them? Why, I tell +you, Nat, I've tried Him right often, and tested His promises times and +again. And He's given me the things I wanted too—given 'em so quick and +full that I'm like to be half-frightened I can get my wishes so easy. +And then you'd have me draw back, and never ask again. Seems to me, +Nat, that while God says, 'Ask,' you go and say, 'Don't ask.'"</p> + +<p>"'Tis a terrible responsibility, Madge, to insist on having our own +will in prayer," said Nat, slipping from one ground of argument to +another.</p> + +<p>"You're right enough there," rejoined Madge, with quickness. "Didn't +the Israelites do it, and got their wish, when God 'gave them their +request but sent leanness into their soul'? I've a dread of that, I can +tell you."</p> + +<p>"And yet go on a-doing the same!" said Nat.</p> + +<p>"Not if I know it," said Madge temperately. "If 'tis according to God's +will, He hears me. I'd never dare, Nat, to say more than this—'Lord, +I've a wish for that thing or the other, and I make a particular +request to have it, if 'tis Thy will; and if not, Thy will be done.' +And times are when He don't give me my wish at all, though it's oftener +He do. If He keeps back the thing I want, He's pretty sure to give me a +smile to make up for it, though,—and I don't know as I wouldn't rather +have that of the two," Madge added softly, a gleam breaking over her +own face the while.</p> + +<p>She was getting out of Nat Tyrrell's depth, and because he could not +understand her, he thought she was running astray. "I'm afeared you've +a good many more cranks than one in your brain, Madge," he said, +shaking his head.</p> + +<p>"Like enough," said Madge quietly. "Only 'tis no crank I'm telling you +of now, Nat. I'll not say, though, that you haven't a bit of truth +either in your thought. Maybe there are some in the world who've so +given up their will to God, as to have scarce a wish apart from Him. +That is what David meant, it seems to me, when he said, 'One thing have +I desired of the Lord, that will I seek after;' and that one thing, +you know, was to dwell in the House of the Lord, and know ever more of +Him. I do think, Nat, that to have no will at all of my own for earthly +things, but only to care to know the will of God, would be a sort of +heaven on earth. But I haven't reached to that yet,—though I'll strive +more for it after to-day, so you see you've taught me a lesson, for all +we don't think just alike. Only so long as I 'have' a strong will, and +ever so many wishes always rising up, I'll make them all known to my +Lord, every single one, and leave the answering of them in His hands."</p> + +<p>And then, after a thoughtful silence, Madge suddenly turned, and +exclaimed at the sight of Mona Clyde, seated in an exhausted position +on the little bench, holding the apparently senseless form of Nannie +Ackman.</p> + +<p>"I could not help sitting still to hear what you were saying, and you +were talking so busily that you did not see me," explained Mona, with +a faint smile. "Did you mind, Mrs. Hardwicke? I thought you would not. +Please take Nannie. I am so tired!"</p> + +<p>"Why, poor little lass, some harm has come to her surely!" exclaimed +Nat, as he lifted the child in his strong arms.</p> + +<p>Madge, with her usual habit of never wasting words on emergencies, +stepped inside the cottage and brought a glass of water to Mona, +waiting silently to be made acquainted with facts.</p> + +<p>"Thank you, I am better now," and Mona sat up, with a sigh. "I thought +I should never get to the top of the hill, and I stumbled so that I +think she has fainted with pain. O Madge—Mrs. Hardwicke, I mean—it +is that wicked father of hers. He has hurt the poor little creature +dreadfully, and if you let her go back to him, I think he will end +by killing her. I wanted to take her home with me, but he would not +consent. What can be done, Mrs. Hardwicke?"</p> + +<p>"I'm Madge to everybody, please, Miss Mona," was the quiet answer. +"There's room for Nannie in my cottage, and her father 'll never dare +to touch her here."</p> + +<p>Voice and manner were alike unruffled, yet Mona felt sure that it +was no shallow stream of sorrow and indignation which flowed below. +Madge Hardwicke's first care was to bring forward the one easy-chair +the cottage contained, and settle in it her weary young visitor, with +cushion and stool. Mona submitted, from lack of power to do anything +else, and then lay back silently, watching Madge's further movements, +through the open bedroom door, with a curious feeling of pleasant trust +in the calm self-possession and tender motherliness of all that she did.</p> + +<p>It did not take Madge long to undress Nannie and lay her in her own +bed. She came back to Mona when that was done—her face a trifle graver. +"I'm thinking, Miss Mona, I'll get Nat Tyrrell to call and ask the +doctor to step up here. Maybe by then you'll be rested enough to walk +back with him."</p> + +<p>"He expected to be home by six," said Mona. "Why, it is nearly that +now. O yes, I shall soon be rested nicely. But do you think little +Nannie is much hurt?"</p> + +<p>"It is hard to know, Miss Mona. She's come to herself, and she's in a +deal of pain, poor little one! She tries to make out her father didn't +mean to hurt her when he struck at her, only she fell over a root, and +her back came against a sharp stump in the ground. But her poor chest +is all black and blue with the weight of his hand, and she can scarce +breathe for the pain."</p> + +<p>Madge Hardwicke's own hand stole furtively over her eyes.</p> + +<p>"It is cruel—horrible," Mona repeated, sitting up. "It is worse than a +man would treat his dog. I don't know what uncle Chetwynd will say."</p> + +<p>Madge went away to despatch Nat Tyrrell on his errand to the doctor, +and then returned to watch by the side of the suffering child, while +Mona sat still in her chair, until the doctor came.</p> + +<p>"You ain't going to get father punished now," were the first words that +saluted Mr. Chetwynd's ears, as he walked to the bedside.</p> + +<p>It was a very wan little face that looked up at him from the white +pillow, over which Nannie's long black hair strayed carelessly. She +spoke with feverish haste, catching her breath sharply between the +words, and her small hands were wrung together in a tight clasp. The +doctor noted all, but merely remarked:—</p> + +<p>"Well, I don't quite know, little one. How are you now?"</p> + +<p>"He ain't going to be punished," repeated Nannie. "Father ain't. He +didn't mean no harm."</p> + +<p>"Where are you hurt, Nannie?" asked Mr. Chetwynd.</p> + +<p>"I'm hurt all over. It wasn't his fault," repeated the child, with +passionate earnestness, a bright flush coming into her cheeks, and a +rush of tears to her eyes. "He was only cross, and didn't know it 'ud +be so bad. And if you go and have him took up, and put into prison, +it'll be all over. O Madge, it'll be all over."</p> + +<p>Nannie sobbed so bitterly, that the doctor's curiosity was roused. +"What will be over, Nannie?"</p> + +<p>"'Cause Madge and I have asked so that father 'd learn to love God, +and if he goes to prison, he'll have nobody to teach him," said Nannie +tearfully. "And maybe he wouldn't ever live to come out, or I wouldn't +live to see him."</p> + +<p>It was a little child's fashion of looking on the question, and Mr. +Chetwynd, detecting the weak point in a moment with his critical eye, +had a veiled sneer on the tip of his tongue. But Madge was beforehand +with him, and quietly extracted its sting.</p> + +<p>"That don't make no real difference, Nannie. Maybe it's neither you nor +I that can teach him the great lesson. God can have him taught just as +easy down in the prison as up here."</p> + +<p>Nannie, however, did not seem to find much comfort in that thought, +and evidently considered, to her great distress, that Madge was siding +against her father. She sobbed long struggling sobs, which shook her +all over, and brought on terrible pain. It became hard to decide +whether the fears for her father were not almost forgotten in those +sharp cries of bodily anguish, but Mr. Chetwynd could stand out no +longer, and tried the effect of a consoling, "Well, well, Nannie, it +shall be as you wish. I will take no steps in the matter at present, +beyond giving your father a few words on the subject. Only try not to +cry so, my dear, or you will make yourself worse."</p> + +<p>Madge's touch had more effect than the doctor's voice, and Nannie's +excitement gradually stilled. It was well for her peace of mind that +Mr. Chetwynd had given his promise before he became acquainted with the +extent of the child's injuries. He brought his brows together sternly, +and drew in his breath almost as sharply as Nannie herself in her pain, +when he saw the deep bruise upon her chest. A careful examination +followed, during which few words passed the doctor's lips. He beckoned +Madge into the outer room at the close, leaving Mona to watch over the +worn-out child.</p> + +<p>"What are we to do, Madge?" were his first words.</p> + +<p>"About what, sir?"</p> + +<p>"Nannie, of course. She can't go back to her father's. It is unsafe, +and besides, he could not nurse her as she will need to be nursed."</p> + +<p>"Do you think her much hurt, sir?" asked Madge.</p> + +<p>He made an expressive movement of his head. "Can't say yet to a +certainty. The blow on the chest is bad enough, but the injury to the +spine may prove worse in the end. It will be a matter of lying up for +weeks at all events—months in all probability. I would not speak so +openly to any one else, mind you."</p> + +<p>"No, sir," said Madge, accepting the compliment with her usual +calmness, which always gave the doctor a certain baffled feeling.</p> + +<p>"The only plan is to get her off to the hospital, though how she will +bear the moving I don't know."</p> + +<p>"I doubt but she's as well off where she is now," said Madge.</p> + +<p>"Couldn't be better off anywhere than under your wing, Madge. I'm +willing enough to aid in expenses, and so will Mr. Prior be, I don't +doubt. But how about trouble?"</p> + +<p>"If it's the work put in my way for me to do, I don't see as the +trouble makes any difference," Madge answered.</p> + +<p>So the matter was settled there and then, with few more words about +it, and little Nannie became for an indefinite time an inmate of Madge +Hardwicke's cottage.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image020" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image020.jpg" alt="image020"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image021" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image021.jpg" alt="image021"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_8">CHAPTER VIII.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>QUESTIONINGS.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"UNCLE, have you known Madge Hardwicke a great many years?"</p> + +<p>"Just as long as I have lived in Alyn, my dear."</p> + +<p>"All that time! And how did you first come across her?"</p> + +<p>It was something so unusual for Mona to start anything in the way of +conversation, that the doctor was delighted. He sat upright, stirring +carefully the cup of tea which Mona had handed to him, on his awaking +from a brief after-dinner nap.</p> + +<p>"Curiously, rather. She was the first person in the place with whom I +exchanged a word, if we except porters and cabmen. When I drove up to +my garden-gate from the station, Madge happened to be standing close +outside, resting for a moment on her way up the hill. I suppose her +pleasant face fascinated me, for I was not wont to be particularly +sociable in those days with strangers. However, she dropped that quaint +curtsey of hers, and we struck up an acquaintance then and there in the +road. She has been a regular stand-by of mine ever since. If I happen +to have a desperate case which nobody else can manage, I send for Madge +Hardwicke. I don't know how many lives she has saved among my patients."</p> + +<p>"Was she a widow then, uncle?"</p> + +<p>"Dear me, no. Have I never told you the poor thing's history? Her +husband was a sailor,—one of those manly open-hearted fellows whom +everybody likes. I suppose that little cottage up on the cliff was one +of the happiest homes in Alyn, not to say England. There never were +husband and wife better suited to each other than Ned and Madge. And +to make matters perfect, they had one child, about the most splendid +specimen of small boyhood I ever knew. To see Ned Hardwicke on a summer +evening in his garden, playing with that child, and Madge standing +by with her smiling pride in both of them,—I declare it was worth a +five miles' walk. There wasn't a house in Alyn that I used so to enjoy +visiting."</p> + +<p>"Was Ned Hardwicke a good man?" asked Mona.</p> + +<p>"A first-rate husband and father, as brave as a lion, and by natural +sequence as gentle as a lamb. As religious as Madge herself, which I +suppose is what you mean. They were quite agreed on all points, which +of course is desirable in husband and wife."</p> + +<p>"How did he die?" asked Mona.</p> + +<p>"It was a sudden death," said the doctor, doubting all at once whether +the tale were a very good one for Mona to hear. He found, however, that +he had no choice about proceeding. "Just going off to his boat one +morning, and had said good-bye to his wife. He went to the edge of the +cliff to look over, stood there whistling a moment, and then the earth +gave way beneath his feet, and he fell down the sheer three hundred +feet. He was dead when he reached the bottom."</p> + +<p>Mona shuddered, and grew white.</p> + +<p>"Madge was like a frantic woman the first few minutes, they said; and +when she found that all was over, she appeared stunned. I used to +wonder whether she would ever rally. But when the funeral was passed, +she seemed to step out into fresh life, grave and quiet as she is now, +but ready and busy and capable. I suppose Neill was her great comfort +all that time."</p> + +<p>"The baby?" asked Mona.</p> + +<p>"He was not a baby then. I ought to have made you understand. Neill was +eight or nine years old when his father died—the most beautiful child +I ever saw, and desperately wilful, in spite of all their judicious +training. The fact is, people spoilt him by too much notice. There was +no preventing it. Hardly a visitor walked over the hill who didn't make +friends with Neill for the sake of his handsome face. Artists would +come, and beg to have him for a subject, and folks talked about him to +that degree in his hearing, that the boy's head was completely turned. +It was a great trouble to Madge, poor thing. I think she would almost +have given all she possessed to have had her boy no better-looking than +other boys, though she could not help being proud of him."</p> + +<p>"Well?" said Mona.</p> + +<p>"Well, then came poor Ned's terrible death, and the boy seemed sobered +down for a time. But, naturally enough, the impression passed off, and +he grew more wild than ever, and got among a number of bad companions. +He was always very fond of his mother, and had plenty of penitent fits; +but he generally went off and did something worse than usual after +them. The last few months he seemed to grow harder, and his face quite +lost the pleasant look it used to have."</p> + +<p>"And then, what happened to him?"</p> + +<p>"He ran away, and has never been heard of since."</p> + +<p>"Poor Madge! Poor Madge!" said Mona compassionately.</p> + +<p>"Ay, poor thing, it has been a sad trouble to her. Four years ago that +was, and no one can say now whether Neill is alive or dead. My own +impression is that he must be dead. Otherwise, I think he would have +written. But of course I don't try to destroy her faith in his return."</p> + +<p>"O no; it would be cruel."</p> + +<p>"Though, on the other hand, I don't count it wise to nurse a feeling of +too great certainty on her part," added the doctor, recollecting divers +remarks of his own, which had not savoured of over-encouragement.</p> + +<p>"How she can look so cheerful, with such a lonely life to live!" Mona +murmured, half to herself.</p> + +<p>"'Tis a marvel, I don't deny. And it is not with Madge, as with some +people, that she get easily over her sorrow, and takes up other +interests. Honestly I don't believe a single day ever passes that that +woman does not pray for Neill's return and set herself to look out +for his coming in answer to her prayer. I don't understand—I can't +understand it," repeated the doctor, in genuine perplexity. Nor was +it possible that he should understand, the said habit of prayer and +trust being simply an absolute delusion in his eyes. "I can understand +forgetfulness or long-continued sorrow—either the one or the other—but +how she keeps on her grief, and yet contrives to live such a happy +life, is past my comprehension. The woman is a mystery, but a very +agreeable one."</p> + +<p>"I like her—oh, more than I can tell," said Mona. "Only I do wonder a +little that you and she get on so well together."</p> + +<p>"Get on splendidly, I assure you," said the doctor, smiling. "She is +the most useful woman, and the most unobtrusive creature, in the world. +O I see,—you mean on account of our religious views."</p> + +<p>Mona winced at the air of mild superiority.</p> + +<p>"Well, we each leave the other room for our respective opinions to +enjoy full swing. Madge and I have cracked many a hard nut in the way +of discussion, and I fancy she has pretty nearly abandoned hopes of +converting me by this time. Finds me rather a tough subject," added the +doctor complacently.</p> + +<p>Mona's two hands, lying in a careless clasp upon her knee, tightened +and quivered suddenly.</p> + +<p>"That little Nannie, now, is a singular example of the forgiving +nature of children," observed Mr. Chetwynd, after a pause. "It does +not seem to occur to her for a moment that she has any real reason for +resentment against her father."</p> + +<p>"Poor little child!" said Mona. "It is very sweet of her."</p> + +<p>"There is something particularly charming in a child's innocent ways," +remarked the doctor.</p> + +<p>For, having had no children or brothers, and but one yielding sister +of his own, he was quite able to believe that a readiness to forgive +injuries is the universal characteristic of childhood. Mona knew +better, through practical experience, but would not risk a discussion +by saying so.</p> + +<p>Conversation flagged thenceforward, from lack of response on Mona's +part, and the doctor presently, finding himself disposed to yawn, +advised her to retire to rest after the day's fatigues. Mona accepted +the hint, and went to her own room.</p> + +<p>She was tired enough to be glad to remove her dress, and put on her +dressing-gown, and let her hair fall loosely about her shoulders. But +after that stage, advance was slow. According to the habit of years, +she took out her Bible, sat down in the white easy-chair, with a candle +by her side, and began to read.</p> + +<p>Or rather, she tried to begin. Wearily and listlessly her eyes +travelled down the lines through the greater part of a chapter. And +then it struck her that she had taken in the sense of not one single +verse, so she went over it a second time, with just the same success. +A third time, but she broke off in the middle hopelessly, and leant +back in her chair, clasping her hands over her eyes with a bitter sigh. +Only a few weeks back, she had read those same words to her mother, and +had seen them full of heavenly peace and joy. And they were nothing to +her now. Senselessly and drearily, as the dead autumn leaf falls from +the half-bare tree, fell those cold Bible words on Mona's heart—those +utterances which had once been instinct with such fervent loving life.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image022" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image022.jpg" alt="image022"></figure> +<p class="t4"> +<b>She broke off in the middle hopelessly,</b><br> +<b>and leant back in her chair.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>Why were they so different? In old days, she could scarcely open upon a +chapter in the Bible, which had not its living lesson for her soul. No +divinely-sent message of sweet and holy power came ever to her spirit +now.</p> + +<p>How could it come? For even as she read, dark questionings came rising +in her heart, like a cloud between her and the light. Or, as with the +Pilgrim Good-Intent, when he fled through bewildering underground +passages, from the false Philosopher's house, which he had rashly +entered—as with him, so with Mona, did clouds of winged creatures, +called Doubts, flap thickly around, hiding with their rustling wings +the shining of the holy page before her. And Mona had allowed these +questionings to hold sway, till at last, she had lost all power to set +them aside.</p> + +<p>What to believe, and what not to believe! How to reconcile the +seemingly conflicting elements of revealed truth! Whether there +were reality in Madge Hardwicke's faith on the one hand, or in Mr. +Chetwynd's unbelief on the other! What of prayer and foreknowledge? And +what of faith and works? And what of election and free choice? And what +of this, that, and the other? Poor girl, she was tossed sorely to and +fro, in a very whirlpool of misery. And she ended by pushing the book +aside, and flinging herself on her knees, with her face pressed down on +her folded arms, and short sobs breaking through the words which strove +for utterance:—</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "O if I only knew what to do, and what to believe! If I only had some +one to tell me clearly what is truth! Mother—mother—surely you cannot +have been utterly mistaken. Such loving trust as yours was—and I used +to think I had a little of the same, but it is all gone now. Is uncle +Chetwynd really wiser than you were? He is clever and kind, and he has +studied his Bible too. It is not as if he had never learnt what I have. +I don't know what to do, or who to believe. O mother, it is such a dark +dark sky over me, and it seems as if heaven and everything were gone. +O God, save me. O God, please teach me. 'Thou wilt show me the path of +life.' It is in Thy Word, and Thou hast promised—promised—and Thou must +not break Thy word. 'Lead me forth to the light, and let me behold Thy +righteousness. O send out Thy light and Thy truth—let them lead me, let +them bring me unto Thy holy hill, and to Thy tabernacles.'"<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>She found herself instinctively falling into Bible expressions, and the +very sound of the familiar words from her own lips seemed to bring a +shade of comfort.</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "O God, for the sake of Thy dear Son, leave me not to perish. 'In Thy +faithfulness answer me, and in Thy righteousness . . . For the enemy +hath persecuted my soul; he hath smitten my life down to the ground; he +hath made me to dwell in darkness, as those that have been long dead. +Therefore is my spirit overwhelmed within me; my heart within me is +desolate . . . I stretch forth my hands unto Thee; my soul thirsteth +after Thee, as a thirsty land. Hear me speedily, O Lord, my spirit +faileth; hide not Thy face from me, lest I be like unto them that go +down into the pit . . . Cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; +for I lift up my soul unto Thee . . . Quicken me, O Lord, for Thy +Name's sake; for Thy righteousness' sake bring my soul out of trouble.'<br> +<br> + "O Lord, I have gone astray—utterly astray—'like a lost sheep.' I can't +get back. I am helpless—hopeless—all in the dark. 'Seek Thy servant, +for I do not forget Thy commandments.' O hear me, for my Saviour's +sake, and have mercy, have mercy upon me."<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>And then, after those low broken cries for help, she knelt on +silently—neither struggling nor praying, surrounded still with +darkness, and unable yet to trust. But down below, one little gleam of +comfort had reached her. For, in spite of all her questionings, the +power to pray had not forsaken her; and not all her doubtings could +entirely do away with the consciousness that One above, of infinite +power and boundless love, had listened to her cry.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image023" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image023.jpg" alt="image023"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image024" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image024.jpg" alt="image024"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_9">CHAPTER IX.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>MADGE HARDWICKE'S FAITH.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"GOOD morning, Amos," said Madge Hardwicke affably, coming out of her +cottage about half-past twelve on the following day, and finding him +for the first time seated on his bench.</p> + +<p>"Mornin'," responded Amos, with a scowl which did not improve his +countenance.</p> + +<p>"Don't you want to know how Nannie is, poor little lass?"</p> + +<p>"Idle little hussy—all a humbuggin' she be," growled Amos.</p> + +<p>"There's never a taste of humbug in aught that Nan does," said Madge. +"She's true to the backbone. Amos Ackman, you'd ought to be kneeling +down yonder in your cottage, giving thanks to God that He's kept you +from being a downright murderer, 'stead of doing nothing but sit there +and abuse folks."</p> + +<p>Madge did not often speak so strongly, but her feelings were much +stirred for Nannie's sake. She checked herself, however, and only +added—"I've been up with the child 'most all night."</p> + +<p>"More fool you!" said Amos.</p> + +<p>"'Tis a good thing, seems to me, that I'm not doing it for thanks," +said Madge, half-smiling, as she turned away. "Nan's been in a deal of +pain, but she's just dropped off to sleep the last half-hour."</p> + +<p>Asleep, and so soundly asleep, after hours of suffering, that nothing +served to waken her until nearly four o'clock in the afternoon. And +when she opened her eyes, it was to see Mona Clyde standing with Madge +Hardwicke by her side.</p> + +<p>Nannie gave one exclamation of pleasure, and then found herself +forbidden by the careful Madge to enter into conversation, till she had +had some refreshment. A small basket in their visitor's hand was found +to contain a supply of calf's-foot jelly, and Mona herself sat down on +the bed, spoon in hand, to minister to the wants of the little sick +child.</p> + +<p>"It's ever so nice," said Nannie softly. "Was it the doctor sent it?"</p> + +<p>"Yes," Mona said, without adding that it was by her own request. "Have +you had enough now, Nannie? How is the pain to-day?"</p> + +<p>"It don't hurt me so to breathe," said Nannie. "But I don't seem as if +I could hardly move. My back hurts dreadful, if I try."</p> + +<p>"I dare say that will be better soon," said Mona. "You must try to be +patient, Nannie, and not mind lying quiet."</p> + +<p>Madge said nothing, and Nannie looked up at her somewhat anxiously.</p> + +<p>"I'll try to be patient, and I'm so tired I don't mind keeping quiet. +But—oh, Madge, you don't think I'm going to die?"</p> + +<p>Madge arranged the bedclothes, and stroked Nannie's face with a +soothing touch. "What's put that into your head now, Nan?"</p> + +<p>"I'd a deal rather get well," murmured Nannie, in a sorrowful voice. +"It ain't wrong, is it, Madge? 'Cause you told us the people in the +Bible wanted to live to be old, didn't you?"</p> + +<p>"Many of 'em," said Madge.</p> + +<p>"And I do so want to see father learn to love God," said Nannie. "I +don't want to go to heaven till I know he's going too. And I'd rather +wait to see the Resurrection-mornin', than die first. Wouldn't you, +Madge?"</p> + +<p>Not Nannie alone, but Mona also, looked wistfully for the answer.</p> + +<p>"I'd like it to be as my Lord wills, Nannie," Madge said. "But if +you've a wish either way, you've only to tell Him, you know, and He'll +do the best that can be for you."</p> + +<p>Nannie's hands went together in a quick clasp, and her eyes closed, as +if in prompt following of the advice given. "I've done it," she said, +looking up presently. "Will I not die now, Madge?"</p> + +<p>"I don't think you're like to die just now, no more particularly than +the rest of us," said Madge quietly. "But if 'twas the Master's will, +you wouldn't sure grieve to go home with Him, 'stead of waiting on for +Him here! What sort of a love would that be, Nannie?"</p> + +<p>"Maybe I wouldn't," said Nannie thoughtfully. "Only I'd a deal sooner +not die, Madge, 'cause I want to see the Resurrection-day."</p> + +<p>"You'll see it, sure enough, Nannie. Only those that have died 'll rise +first, and those that's living 'll be caught up second."</p> + +<p>"Then maybe that 'ud be best of the two," said Nannie.</p> + +<p>"I think either way 'll be best that God chooses for you," said Madge.</p> + +<p>"Maybe," repeated Nannie. And she shut her eyes again, and seemingly +went to sleep.</p> + +<p>Madge, after waiting for a minute, made a movement as if to go into the +other room. It was not observed, however.</p> + +<p>Mona was looking at the child's face, and suddenly raising her eyes, +she said—"I think you and Nannie are very happy, Madge."</p> + +<p>"We'd ought to be," said Madge.</p> + +<p>"Yes—no. O I don't know," said Mona, with a deep sigh, resting her +cheek on her hand. "I suppose nothing in the world makes one so happy +as faith. And yet—if—"</p> + +<p>"If what, Miss Mona?" asked Madge, marvelling at the girl's quivering +lips.</p> + +<p>"If there should 'not' be truth in it all?" said Mona passionately. +"How do we know? How can anything be proved? Madge, don't tell anybody +what I am saying to you. But do you ever have doubts?—Or is your faith +always the same?"</p> + +<p>"Doubts of my Lord's love?" asked Madge, with some wonder in her tone.</p> + +<p>"Not that in particular. Of everything—of +God—heaven—religion—everything, Madge?"</p> + +<p>"I know what they are," said Madge serenely.</p> + +<p>"And what do you do when they come?"</p> + +<p>"Take 'em straight to my Lord, and ask Him to settle 'em for me."</p> + +<p>Mona looked up earnestly without speaking.</p> + +<p>"You see it's Satan's work—all that," said Madge. "And when he's too +strong for me, I just call on my Captain to deal with him, Miss Mona, +and to keep me safe behind His shield."</p> + +<p>"And He does?" said Mona mechanically.</p> + +<p>"Try Him, Miss Mona,—that's all."</p> + +<p>"But, Madge—you don't understand," said Mona, sitting up with a little +start, as if waking from a momentary feeling of repose. "You don't +understand me. That would do for some doubts, but not for all. That is +prayer, and what if—if—oh, Madge, I'll tell you the truth—what if I +can't understand or believe in the power of prayer?"</p> + +<p>"Understanding's one thing, and believing's another," said Madge. "If +you don't know the power of prayer, you'd best just try it, Miss Mona, +if you'll let me tell you so."</p> + +<p>"I've tried it—often—and I used to believe in it. But, Madge, now look +here," Mona went on, clasping her hands feverishly,—"I want to know how +prayer can be answered. For don't you suppose that God knows beforehand +all my future life, and everything that will happen to me?"</p> + +<p>Madge nodded in undoubting assent.</p> + +<p>"And if my life is all lying mapped out before me, how can my prayers +make any difference? How can they, Madge?"</p> + +<p>"Does the Bible say it's all mapped out, Miss Mona?"</p> + +<p>"I don't know—no, not, exactly. But then it must be."</p> + +<p>"I'd never set up a 'must be' apart from the Bible, if I was you, Miss +Mona," said Madge. "It says one thing, and that is, that the Lord +'directeth man's steps.' Well for us that He do, too. But I can't +remember reading ever a word about our life being all mapped out by +God, and nothing ever to change it. I do read, how over and over +again the Lord was going to send awful judgments on them poor sinning +Israelites, till Moses His chosen stood between, and turned away his +anger. Where 'd have been the good of Moses praying as he did, if it +wasn't to gain anything?"</p> + +<p>"That is just it," said Mona. "That is it, Madge. I do pray, and I do +try to believe I shall have an answer. But all the while, I can't help +feeling that God has arranged everything from all eternity, and that my +prayers can make no difference."</p> + +<p>"They're Satan's whisperings, Miss Mona," said Madge Hardwicke, with +deeper earnestness than she had yet displayed. "Arranged everything! I +don't say it isn't so. The Bible don't say whether He has or hasn't, +and I durstn't be so bold as to set up myself to say it neither. But +the Bible does say, 'Ask and it shall be given you,' and 'The effectual +fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.' How could it avail +much, if it could do nothing? There's where it is! There isn't a +mightier power in the world than prayer. We don't see much of the +working of it now, but if we could, we'd be not a little surprised to +find how the greatest matters on earth come about sometimes, in answer +to one good man's prayer. I'd look in the Bible and see all the answers +to prayer if I was you, Miss Mona—Abraham, and Gideon, and Elijah, and +Moses, and Hezekiah, and all the rest of them."</p> + +<p>"But God does know everything beforehand," murmured Mona, half to +herself.</p> + +<p>"Sure enough He does, and it's little chance our prayers would have of +being answered if He didn't. Haven't I often asked a thing, and it's +come quick after?—But matters must have been working up for it weeks +afore, and I didn't know that, only the Master knew, and was keeping +His promise, 'Before you call, I will answer.'"</p> + +<p>Madge was silent a minute, looking pityingly at the troubled face +before her.</p> + +<p>"Knows all beforehand! Of course He do, Miss Mona. He knew beforehand +you were going to pray, and He arranged beforehand to answer you; or +He knew beforehand you wasn't going to pray, and He 'didn't' arrange +beforehand to answer you. Knew it from all Eternity,—and maybe arranged +it from all Eternity too, only the Bible don't say that, so we can't be +sure. It wouldn't make no difference as to the truth of the power of +prayer,—not one bit. But 'tis a grand and awful light to look at it in, +and I've a fear lest my weak eyes should be dazzled, and the Tempter +should maybe seize on the moment to snare me somehow. I love a deal +better to look up straight to God as my Father, giving me day by day +just what I want, and tending my steps, and looking out for my prayers. +I'd leave thinking altogether of how the answer comes about, Miss Mona, +and just pray instead, and wait the answer. No fear but it'll come."</p> + +<p>And then there was a tapping at the outer door, and Madge moved +away. Mona hardly noticed that she was gone, till roused by the +courteously-uttered words—</p> + +<p>"Miss Clyde, I believe."</p> + +<p>Mona turned hastily, startled out of her abstraction, to meet the +thoughtful face and earnest eyes with which she had grown distantly +familiarised in Church the last few Sundays.</p> + +<p>"Mr. Prior is so kind as to come and see Nannie and read to her," Madge +said quietly, yet with a ring of pleasure in her voice.</p> + +<p>And then Mona saw what Madge had been aware of for two or three minutes +past, that Nannie was wide awake, and ready to bestow attention on +anybody.</p> + +<p>But Mona had never exchanged a word with Mr. Prior since that terrible +moment in the dark tunnel underground, when his voice had helped to +awaken her to a sense of her loss; and the association of ideas was +almost more than she could bear. She strangled back the threatening +rush of tears, but Mr. Prior seemed to understand all at a glance. He +had taken her hand in greeting, and pressing it kindly, he said—</p> + +<p>"Never mind, don't stay in here just now. I am going to have a chat +with this poor little maiden. Will you wait in the next room, Miss +Clyde? I have been wishing to make your acquaintance, and perhaps you +will let me escort you down the hill."</p> + +<p>And Mona did not dream of resistance. She was glad to escape at the +moment, but waited patiently in the front room so long as he chose to +stay with Nannie.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image025" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image025.jpg" alt="image025"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image026" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image026.jpg" alt="image026"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_10">CHAPTER X.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>A LETTER.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"I SAY, missus!"</p> + +<p>Nat Tyrrell's hearty voice rang through the cottage from the +suddenly-opened door. Mona rose to her feet, and Nat pulled off his cap.</p> + +<p>"Beg pardon, Miss. I didn't know a lady was here. I've summat to give +Madge that 'll please her mightily."</p> + +<p>The inner door opened as he spoke, and Madge came out, following Mr. +Prior, who nodded pleasantly to the new comer.</p> + +<p>"Good afternoon, Tyrrell. I think I have spoken to you before now. How +are you all at home?"</p> + +<p>As there was scarcely an individual in the parish, of any age or +standing, with whom he had not exchanged at least a few kind words +during this first month of his residence in Alyn, he was pretty safe +in making the assertion. It had grown, however, to be a saying in the +place, that Mr. Prior never forgot a face he had once seen, and Nat was +highly flattered at the present recognition of himself.</p> + +<p>"Thank you, sir; we're all pretty well. Leastways, except that my +wife's laid up with the rheumatics. I say, Madge, I've a letter here +for you, right away from Australy. It's come in one from young Ned +Blayney to his mother, and she's give it to me to bring up to you. I've +come off as quick as ever I could, for I knew you'd be main glad to get +it, eh, Madge?"</p> + +<p>She had received the letter from him mechanically, and now stood like +one in a dream, clasping it firmly between two hands, with her eyes +gazing into vacancy.</p> + +<p>"Why, she don't understand," said Nat, coming a step nearer. "I say, +Madge, I'd open and see, if I was you. It's from Neill himself, and +'taint bad news, I can tell you too, for Mrs. Blayney said he was all +right."</p> + +<p>"Neill?" repeated Madge.</p> + +<p>"To be sure, yes. Why, one 'ud think you didn't care about it, instead +of being properly thankful for your mercies," said Nat, rather +scandalised at such an unedifying fashion of receiving the news.</p> + +<p>"Hush, Tyrrell, don't tease her," interposed Mr. Prior, in a low tone, +seeing deeper than Nat could do. "Have a little patience."</p> + +<p>"Well, I didn't think she'd have took it so cool, I do confess," +muttered the disappointed Nat, while Madge lifted a pair of dim eyes to +Mona, and said softly,—</p> + +<p>"Neill! It's his own hand too. But 'he' wanted me to think I'd never +hear from my boy again."</p> + +<p>"Then he was very wrong," said Mona impetuously, aware who was meant. +"Madge, don't you want to know if Neill is coming home?"</p> + +<p>Madge looked down on her own trembling fingers, as they clasped the +folded sheet, and then again she glanced up, this time at Mr. Prior.</p> + +<p>"Seems to me I'm like Peter's friends, when they wouldn't believe their +prayer for him was heard,—oft as I've blamed them! I've been thinking +I'd faith in the power of prayer, and thinking I was looking out,—and +now it's come, I can't believe 'tis true."</p> + +<p>"'Like as a father pitieth his children,'" was the quick and suggestive +answer. "Like as you pity and love your boy—"</p> + +<p>Madge drew one deep breath, half of oppression, half of relief. "Ay, +and God knows all along," she murmured. "Knew my weakness, didn't He, +before I found it out myself?—And yet the letter's come. Miss Mona, I +don't seem as if I could read. Maybe—"</p> + +<p>She held out the sheet beseechingly.</p> + +<p>Mona opened it, and read aloud the contents in their large scrawled +handwriting:—</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "DEAREST MOTHER,<br> +<br> + "I've been a bad boy to you, haven't I? But somehow I don't think +you'll have forgot your Neill by this, though I don't deserve you +should think of me again. It's a shame I've never wrote to you all +these years, but when a fellow's going on bad as I have been, he don't +feel much like writing home, and I've had nothing good to tell you.<br> +<br> + "It is just a few days since I met Ned Blayney. Did not know he was +out here at all, and had not seen him since we was both at school +together, and I used to plague him for his red hair. 'Tisn't red now, +though. He's growed up a fine fellow. And I wish I'd gone to sea, like +him, 'stead of trying the bush out here.<br> +<br> + "'Twas a mere chance our finding each other out, and my happening to +be in Melbourne at all when he was. Ned says 'twas no chance at all; +but all I know is we comed flop across each other in the middle of +the street, and I'd have passed him by, if he hadn't known me. And if +I hadn't have met him just then, I'd have gone off next day to the +diggins with Will Davis,—not the sort of fellow you'd like, mother,—and +goodness knows where I'd have turned up next.<br> +<br> + "I ain't going to the diggins now, though. Ned's been at me about you, +till he's brought me round. His ship's a-starting for home again next +week, and I've promised to come aboard and work my passage. And the +jolly part of the matter is that it's one of the Messrs. Dundrearys', +and it'll come straight to Alyn. So mind you keep a look-out, mother, +for the 'Flying Albatross'—'tis a wonderful slow and dirty-looking sort +of albatross, too—for your boy 'll be aboard. And if you don't want to +have me, you've only to say so in a word, and I'll be off to Australia +again a deal quicker than I come home. So no more now, mother,—<br> +<br> +<span style="margin-left: 16em;">"From your affectionate son,</span><br> +<br> +<span style="margin-left: 21.5em;">"NEILL HARDWICKE."</span><br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>"Thank you, Miss Mona," were Madge's first words, and then she added +softly,—"He's coming."</p> + +<p>"Ay, he's coming home to you again, Madge," said Nat Tyrrell. "You'd +ought to feel a deal of thankfulness."</p> + +<p>"He's coming," repeated Madge. "And I'll see him again. He's coming +home to me."</p> + +<p>She put down the letter, and began arranging the few things which lay +scattered on the table, as if making tidy for her boy's arrival. The +quick restless movements were unlike Madge's usual composure, and the +shaking hands and trembling lips showed that the very intensity of joy +had thrown her off her balance.</p> + +<p>Nat Tyrrell looked at her in perplexity, and opened his lips to speak +again, but he thought better of it, in consideration of Mr. Prior's +presence, and wisely went into the garden.</p> + +<p>"Neill coming! Don't it seem strange now?" said Madge, approaching the +table.</p> + +<p>Mr. Prior sat there waiting in silence for the right moment. He leant a +little forward now, and simply said:—</p> + +<p>"Mrs. Hardwicke, shall we thank God together?"</p> + +<p>Madge knelt down instantly. The words following were few in number, but +Madge was weeping unrestrainedly before three sentences had passed his +lips, sobbing an inarticulate response to the fervent thanks he offered +in her name. And when, after a brief pause, they rose, she had her own +calm face again.</p> + +<p>"Thank you, sir, it's just what I wanted," she whispered.</p> + +<p>He said good-bye, and shook hands with her kindly. Then offering his +arm to Mona, he went out of the cottage.</p> + +<p>"She will be better alone now," was his remark in the garden. "Ah, +Tyrrell has gone, I see."</p> + +<p>"I am so glad you were there," said Mona. "That man did not understand +her in the least. Poor Madge! How happy she is!"</p> + +<p>"She is a woman of faith," said Mr. Prior, holding open the little +gate for Mona to pass. "I am glad to have made her acquaintance more +thoroughly."</p> + +<p>"Then you have been to see her before," said Mona.</p> + +<p>"Yes,—and heard her history at least half-a-dozen times. The good folks +of Alyn are extremely communicative. What a pretty view this is, Miss +Clyde! The outline of that headland is particularly striking."</p> + +<p>"You think, then, that Neill is coming home in answer to her prayer," +said Mona, as he paused at the edge of the cliff, with evident +enjoyment of the scene.</p> + +<p>"'If ye have faith as a grain of mustard-seed—'" he answered. "But +Neill has not come home yet. Don't hang your faith on one particular +answer to one particular prayer, or it may perchance come to shipwreck. +God does 'not' always see it right to grant His children's desires. You +must look upon the matter as a whole."</p> + +<p>Mona's sigh was so low that he must have had a quick ear to hear it. +"People sometimes do that," he said, after a pause. "They stake all +their hope and trust on one single prayer, setting their whole heart +upon the answer. And if God wills to deny that especial wish, away +goes all their faith, and nothing remains but a tangle of gloomy +doubt—doubts of His love, and doubts of His power, and doubts as to the +use of prayer. What if a child tested his earthly father's affection +and resources in that fashion?"</p> + +<p>What in the world had made him stumble on the very subject, of all +others, most suited to her present frame of mind? Mona wondered not a +little how it had come about, forgetting that he must have been well +acquainted with the views and character of the man with whom the course +of her life was now thrown. And she did not know how compassionately +he had often thought of the poor young girl, whose acquaintance he +had first made in such a singular manner, nor how he dreaded for her +the meshes into which he too well knew she might be drawn, nor how he +desired to rescue her. Neither was she aware of the keen intuition, by +means of which he had already, perhaps almost unconsciously divined +certain facts concerning the bias of her mind.</p> + +<p>If he had not known it before, her startled look up, as he spoke of +doubts, would have shown him that he was on the right tack.</p> + +<p>"I heard of a good piece of advice once given on that subject, by +the bye," he said, disentangling one spray of bramble from another +with busy fingers. "A man complained to his friend of troublesome +questionings on the subject of religion, and asked what he should +do with them. The answer was, 'Put them aside for awhile. If they +are worth anything, they will keep, and you can give them fuller +consideration at some future time. If not, they will die a natural +death. Put them aside for the present, and take your Bible, and go and +read to dying men in the hospital about their Saviour.'"</p> + +<p>"Was that the best plan?" asked Mona.</p> + +<p>"That was one plan," he said, smiling. "Another is to meet and conquer +them boldly—only, don't attempt it in your own strength. You will not +get through the battle without some such temptations. Don't be afraid +of them when they come, but meet the tempter bravely, and cling fast to +your Lord through all."</p> + +<p>"But clinging is faith," said Mona wonderingly. "How can there be faith +and doubting together?"</p> + +<p>"Did you never read a certain prayer, 'Lord, I believe, help Thou mine +unbelief.' You may doubt with the head, and yet believe with the heart. +Look here, Miss Clyde." He went a step nearer to the cliff as he spoke, +putting aside the bramble-bushes. "Suppose you were to slip over this +cliff, and fall down to that ledge below. Do you see it?" He held her +hand firmly, while she leant forward to peep over, half shuddering as +she did so. "How should I save you?"</p> + +<p>"I should think you would let down a rope."</p> + +<p>"True—or I might prefer to come down with it myself, if there were any +one else to hold it above. But the simple rope let down by myself for +you to grasp, is enough for my illustration. Now how much of faith +would be needful on your part to ensure your safety?"</p> + +<p>"Of faith?" said Mona.</p> + +<p>"Yes, faith in the strength of the rope, and in my power and good-will +to draw you up."</p> + +<p>"Why, I don't see that faith would have much to do with it, so long as +I held tight to the rope, Mr. Prior."</p> + +<p>"Would you hold tight, if you were convinced that you could not be +saved in that manner?"</p> + +<p>She understood, and shook her head.</p> + +<p>"There are three lines of conduct between which you might choose. In +the first place, you might feel absolute faith in the strength of the +rope and in me, and hold to it with cheerful unquestioning firmness. +Then you would be safe. In the second place, you might be troubled with +a great many doubts and speculations, as to my possible carelessness or +indifference, and as to any possible weakness in the rope itself; and +while tying it round you, and letting yourself be drawn up, you might +suffer from much giddiness and fear and trembling. But then again, you +would be safe—not one iota less safe than in the first instance, though +far less happy. In the third place, you might place no confidence +whatever in the offered means of escape, and insist obstinately on +trying to climb up the cliff without its aid. And in that case, you +would soon be dashed to pieces on the rocks below."</p> + +<p>"I think I see what you mean," she said.</p> + +<p>"You must 'lay hold on eternal life,' and that 'laying hold,' as you +truly said, is or implies faith. But there may be faith with assurance, +or faith without assurance. And there may be doubts with faith, or +doubts without faith. Your head-doubts will make no difference as to +your safety, so long as your heart clings by faith to the Saviour, +though they may and will make much difference as to your peace."</p> + +<p>Mona wondered a little whether the pronoun were used in a general or +personal sense. It was impossible to tell from his manner.</p> + +<p>"That is to say, they don't affect your safety, just so long as they +do not cause you to loosen your hold on the rope," Mr. Prior added. +And his next move was to hold out a spray of fine blackberries, with a +pleasant,—"You don't despise country wild-fruit, do you?"</p> + +<p>"O no, I like it very much, thank you."</p> + +<p>"When are you coming to make Mrs. Prior's acquaintance? She is a +prisoner to her sofa, or you would have seen her before now."</p> + +<p>"I should like to call some day," said Mona shyly.</p> + +<p>"Come, and make friends with my little boy too—that is, if you are fond +of children."</p> + +<p>And they chatted so cheerfully while going down the hill, that +Mona, when she looked back to their conversation afterwards, almost +reproached herself for unseemly brightness so soon after her mother's +death. But she was glad she had seen Mr. Prior, and glad he had +talked to her thus. Her troubles were not indeed cleared away, yet +on one point she had gained a ray of daylight through the mist. She +was no longer tormented by the dread that because doubts assailed +her, all faith on her part must needs have perished; or that because +questionings rose thickly, she must not dare to pray.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image027" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image027.jpg" alt="image027"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image028" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image028.jpg" alt="image028"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_11">CHAPTER XI.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>AWAITING THE MASTER'S WILL.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"IT'S going to be a tremendous gale to-night, or I'm no +weather-prophet," said the doctor.</p> + +<p>He had just stepped inside the house one dark wintry afternoon, and the +wind, rushing in after him, flung Mona's dress fantastically to and +fro, as she stood there,—besides threatening to put a speedy end to all +light from the gas-burner. Mr. Chetwynd succeeded in shutting the door, +after a short but severe struggle, and began divesting himself of his +wraps.</p> + +<p>"I have been listening to the wind for the last hour," said Mona, +helping him to disentangle one arm from a rather tight coat-sleeve. +"Isn't it dreadfully boisterous, uncle?"</p> + +<p>"It carried away all my breath, my dear, and I have pretty powerful +lungs too. It would sweep you off bodily, I suspect. Whew!—It's cold. +My hands have nearly disappeared, so far as sensation is concerned. I +hope nobody is going to be taken ill to-night. It's the sort of weather +to make a man prefer his own fireside."</p> + +<p>"I have built up a fine large fire," said Mona, retreating before him +into the drawing-room. "Don't you call that a splendid glow? What a +gust! It seems as if it would shake the house down."</p> + +<p>"The house was built to withstand a considerable amount of shaking, +fortunately for us at the present moment," said the doctor, expanding +himself before the blaze with an air of enjoyment. "Thank you, my +dear,—you know how to make a man's home comfortable, I see. Better in +here than out on the sea to-night."</p> + +<p>"Ah, I was thinking about the poor sailors."</p> + +<p>"I went to see Mrs. Blayney, an hour ago," said Mr. Chetwynd. "Found +her in a great state of anxiety, poor thing, and no wonder. It seems a +fast steamer has just come in, which sighted the 'Flying Albatross' a +few hours back, and it is expected to arrive to-morrow morning."</p> + +<p>"The 'Flying Albatross!' What—the ship which is bringing Neill +Hardwicke home?"</p> + +<p>The doctor nodded. "Couldn't be a worse night for a ship to be near +this coast. I only hope they will have the sense to put out to sea +again before it is too late."</p> + +<p>"O poor Madge! What will she do?" exclaimed Mona pityingly. "O uncle, I +wish I were with her."</p> + +<p>"My dear, you might as well try to fly as to walk up the hill in this +wind. In fact you would be much more likely to fly than to walk,—after +a certain fashion!"</p> + +<p>"I can't think what she will do all night."</p> + +<p>"Stay quietly in her cottage, and go to bed, like a sensible woman. She +won't be half so excited as Mrs. Blayney."</p> + +<p>"You have not seen Madge, have you?"</p> + +<p>"Not I. I had had enough of fighting with the elements by the time I +reached my own door. Just hear that howl round the house now! It sounds +as if all the furies were set loose together."</p> + +<p>"And Madge has nobody to speak to—nobody to cheer her," said Mona, half +to herself, as she knelt before the fire.</p> + +<p>"I declare, I always thought Madge was a pretty good friend of mine," +said the doctor with a half-injured air, settling himself comfortably +in his arm-chair, "but you seem to have run ahead of me. What makes you +take to her?"</p> + +<p>"What made you, uncle?"</p> + +<p>"Very discreet on your part. Why, simply and solely because I could not +help it."</p> + +<p>"I suppose it is the same with me. But do you know, I have often +wondered where she got that pleasant manner of hers, so quiet and +self-possessed. And I have found out now. She used to be head-nurse in +Sir Arthur Bolton's family—in that great house, you know, standing in a +park, which you showed me one day when you took me such a long drive."</p> + +<p>"Ay, I know," said Mr. Chetwynd.</p> + +<p>"Madge told me she was nursery-maid there from the time she was +fifteen, and had risen to be under-nurse, and lastly head-nurse for +two years, when she married Ned Hardwicke. And she says she had only +been married three months when she first saw you. She was twenty-five +then, so she had been ten years in the house, and that explains how she +gained her soft nice sort of manner—just the manner of a very superior +upper servant in a good family. Did you know that Sir Arthur Bolton +settled a pension on her, when her husband was killed?"</p> + +<p>"I have heard the fact, though I believe I had forgotten it. I knew she +had a little income of some sort, and that her cottage was her own."</p> + +<p>"I had a talk with her only yesterday," said Mona. "And she was so +happy about Neill's coming home—looking forward so brightly. Poor +Madge! I wonder what she is doing to-night?"</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image029" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image029.jpg" alt="image029"></figure> +<p class="t4"> +<b>If Mona could have taken a glance into the little</b><br> +<b>cottage, she would have seen Madge Hardwicke steadily engaged in</b><br> +<b>washing up her blue cups and saucers.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>Not sitting down to cry, or fluttering about in restless anxiety, as +many might have done under like circumstances. If Mona could have +taken a glance up the stormy hill-side, and into the little cottage at +that moment, she would have seen Madge Hardwicke steadily engaged in +washing up the blue cups and saucers, used for her early tea. Scarcely +two hours had elapsed since the news first reached her of the expected +arrival of the "Flying Albatross" next morning. But beyond a red spot +on either cheek, and the least possible shaking of her hands, causing +an occasional and unwonted rattling of the plates, as she rinsed and +dried them, Madge looked very calm. Much more calm than little Nannie, +who was lying wrapped up on two chairs and on numerous pillows before +the fire, watching her friend's face, and listening to the gale with +a very anxious and excited countenance. Many weeks had gone by since +Nannie first fell beneath the weight of her father's hand, but it was +not many days since she had quitted her bed, and she had not yet set +foot to the ground.</p> + +<p>If the wind sounded boisterous down at the doctor's house, it claimed +fuller attention here. The little cottage fairly shook like a ship from +"stem to stern," and the fierce rattling of every pane of glass made +Nannie ask fearfully,—</p> + +<p>"Madge, don't you think the windows 'll come to smash?"</p> + +<p>"Maybe not," said Madge quietly, putting away the last blue saucer. +And then she dried her hands, and hung up the cloth, and went to take +a look through that same little frail transparent shield,—all that was +interposed between her and the wild blast outside.</p> + +<p>"It's an awful night, ain't it?" said Nannie, shivering beside even +those bright flames. "Madge, I don't seem as if I'd like to go to bed. +I think I'll be afraid."</p> + +<p>"You're just as safe in bed as by the fireside, Nannie," said Madge, +coming away again. For beyond the low clouds, scurrying wildly past, +there was nothing to be seen. Even they were but dimly visible in the +blackness of darkness outside.</p> + +<p>And where was the "Flying Albatross?" And where was Neill? How +joyfully would Madge at that moment have yielded her own life, if +she might thereby have secured the life of her boy! But she could do +nothing—nothing except wait. She might not even go out in the fierce +wind, and watch the waters with her own eyes, as she longed to do. +Little Nannie could not be left alone in her helplessness.</p> + +<p>"Madge, are you dreadful frightened about Neill?" asked the child, with +bated breath. "Are you thinking a deal about him this evening?"</p> + +<p>Was she thinking of anything else? It seemed to Madge that her whole +being was bound up in that of her boy, and that if her body were +sheltered in the little cottage, her spirit was away with him, wherever +he might be, over the mad wild waters. But she only said, "Yes, I'm +looking to see him safe in the morning, if 'tis God's will, Nannie."</p> + +<p>"Do you think God will take care of him, and bring him home all right?" +asked Nannie.</p> + +<p>"I'm hoping it," said Madge.</p> + +<p>And then she took out her work-basket, and sat down to sew. But to keep +that up long was beyond the strength of even her resolute will. She put +the unfinished seam aside, at the close of half-an-hour, and going to +the window, stood gazing out again into the darkness.</p> + +<p>Nannie lay looking, not at the window, but at Madge. She had a sort +of notion that it was best to keep silence, and for a while, though +her lips sometimes moved with a barely-checked exclamation, she did +not break her childish determination to be still. But the sight of +that absolutely motionless figure became at length more than she could +endure, and the little voice said softly,—</p> + +<p>"Madge!"</p> + +<p>No answer came. Perhaps the word was lost in the angry gust which swept +at that moment over the hill.</p> + +<p>"Madge, I'm ever so frightened. I wish you'd speak."</p> + +<p>Madge turned from the window, and came to the table, with a pale face, +and an unwonted look of dreaminess in her eyes.</p> + +<p>"I'm ready, Nannie," was all she said.</p> + +<p>"I'm only frightened," pleaded Nannie. "'Cause the wind does make such +a noise; and if it was to blow away the cottage, we'd maybe get hurt, +wouldn't we, Madge?"</p> + +<p>"I think we'll be taken care of," said Madge, who had no heart to spare +for any danger to self, though she spoke soothingly for the child's +sake.</p> + +<p>"And don't you think Neill will be took care of too, and brought back +safe?"</p> + +<p>"Maybe," said Madge, resting one hand on the table. "I've been trying, +and I can't ask it, though."</p> + +<p>"Ain't you a-going to pray he may be safe?" asked Nannie wonderingly.</p> + +<p>Madge shook her head slightly.</p> + +<p>"Not ask?" repeated Nannie. "Why, Madge, if you don't make haste, it'll +maybe get too late, and the ship 'll be gone down under the waves. I +wouldn't wait a minute, if I was you," pleaded the child.</p> + +<p>"It's never too late for the Lord," said Madge calmly. "He answers +oftentimes afore we pray. I've put into His hands to do just as seemeth +best to Him, and I've prayed for my Neill to be safe for ever and ever. +I can't do more."</p> + +<p>"Not do more? Why, Madge, what are ye thinking of?" demanded Nannie +passionately. "So often as you've asked for little things, and got 'em +too, and now you won't ask to have Neill brought home!"</p> + +<p>"Ay, for my Master's oft spoken to my heart afore now, Nannie, and +said, 'Ask what ye will, Madge,'" was the answer, in monotonous +half-absent tones, as if addressed rather to herself than to the child. +"But He don't say it to-night; leastways, I don't hear His voice. I +can't pray till He give me strength; and He don't give me strength to +do more than just lie in His arms, and wait to see His will."</p> + +<p>"Madge, do you think it's 'cause the ship won't get safe to shore?" +asked Nannie, with heaving breath.</p> + +<p>"I don't think nothing about that," said Madge, speaking softly and +slowly still. "I only know He holds 'the waters in the hollow of +His Hand,' and Neill's there too—Neill's in His Hand—safe in His +keeping—for I've put him there, and I wouldn't dare to take him out +into my own again. I've tried and wanted to pray to have Neill back, +but I can't—seems like as if 'He' was holding me back from it. Maybe +I'm mistaking; only one thing I'm sure of, and that is, I durstn't +fight for my own way. 'They' did, and they had it, and the Lord +'sent leanness into their souls.' Maybe He'd take the shining of His +countenance from me."</p> + +<p>"Wouldn't you bear that awhile, if only Neill might come to ye?" asked +Nannie.</p> + +<p>"I'd sooner have my Lord's smile than aught on earth beside."</p> + +<p>But Madge's own sweet smile was tremulous. And when she had spoken, she +knelt down suddenly, with her hands against the oaken table and her +face bowed upon them. Was she praying for Neill's return at last?—Or +only resting on the Mighty Arm which sustained her, and calmly "waiting +to see her Master's will?"</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image030" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image030.jpg" alt="image030"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image031" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image031.jpg" alt="image031"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_12">CHAPTER XII.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>THE "FLYING ALBATROSS."</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>THE tardy dawn of a winter's morning had begun to break, when there +came a hurried knocking at Madge Hardwicke's door. She had not removed +her dress, or extinguished her candle, through all the long hours of +that stormy night, and now she came and stood outside, with the gusty +breeze blowing about her gown, and her pale face wearing the look of +one who had passed through no common vigil.</p> + +<p>Her early visitors were four in number. Madge glanced from one to the +other, then singled out the doctor, as he stood with the slight cloaked +figure of Mona Clyde holding fast to his arm.</p> + +<p>"Yes, sir," she said.</p> + +<p>"They have sighted the 'Flying Albatross,' Madge."</p> + +<p>She knew from his tone that it was not good tidings which he had come +to bring.</p> + +<p>"They've seen it," she said. "Yes, sir."</p> + +<p>"Ask Tyrrell. He brought me the news."</p> + +<p>She turned to Nat mutely. "She's bearin' down right upon the rocks +below the Point, Madge," he said huskily.</p> + +<p>"Is she in the current yet?" asked Madge.</p> + +<p>"'Tis hard to say of a certain in this light, but she's dismasted, and +seems pretty nigh disabled. If you've a wish to come down in the town, +Madge, my wife 'll stay with little Nan."</p> + +<p>"Thank you. It's good of you both to think of me," said Madge. "I'll +get my hood."</p> + +<p>Quickly, but not hurriedly, she tied it on, and came outside again.</p> + +<p>Mona took hold of her for a moment as they were starting. "Madge, don't +be too anxious; don't give up hope," she said softly.</p> + +<p>"Neill's in better hands than mine, Miss Mona," was the response.</p> + +<p>Steadily and swiftly she led the way down the steep hill-side, +faltering not for one instant. At another time, she would have gone +modestly behind the doctor, but now all minor considerations were lost +in her overwhelming desire to reach the shore. The force of the wind, +as it swept past in furious gusts, made the doctor stagger, and caused +even Nat Tyrrell to pant for breath, but Madge seemed proof against +the strongest blast, and pressed ever onwards, with scarcely quickened +breathing, and never a hesitating footstep.</p> + +<p>They were down on the shore at last, in the little shingle cove, with +sailors standing about in groups, and spectators scattered amongst +them. Away to the left rose the smooth white cliff, on the summit of +which Madge Hardwicke's little cottage might be seen, standing dimly +out against the sky. Away to the right stretched the dark outline of +Lion Point, rearing its massive head in rock-like repose amidst the +tumult of the elements. And to left and right and front lay the wide +reach of stormy sea, lashed into a seething mass of dark heaving water +and snowy foam.</p> + +<p>Water, water everywhere. It seemed to Madge that the whole world was +made of water that morning. The gale had spent the worst of its fury, +and the wind, in all its strength, was but a breeze compared with what +had been. But it looked as if nothing ever would or ever could calm +down that great waste of watery hills, perpetually rising and falling, +curling their crested summits in giant-play, chasing each other to +the shore in fierce frolic, and breaking there with a never-ceasing +roar, made up of crash after crash in unbroken succession. There was +a clear sky overhead, above all this tumult, and one bright star, +growing dim in the dawning light, shone placidly through the last bit +of transparent cloud remaining.</p> + +<p>"She's there," Madge was the first to exclaim, as her quick eye caught +the faint outline of the dismasted ship, floating, to all appearance +helplessly, amid those gigantic waves. One moment uplifted against the +horizon, the next lost absolutely to view, yet again emerging from the +trough to mount another hill, only to sink deep into another valley. No +wonder all eyes were riveted.</p> + +<p>"They've hoisted signals of distress," said Nat Tyrrell. "And they +don't know that nothing can be done."</p> + +<p>"Nothing!" repeated Madge, looking up to scan with a flashing glance +the faces around. "What are all of you men going to stand safe here, +and see your follow-creatures perishing right afore your eyes?"</p> + +<p>"You're quick to blame us, Mrs. Hardwicke," rejoined a sailor. "But +what if we've tried an' failed? No boat but a life-boat could live in +such a sea."</p> + +<p>"And you'll give up with one try?" asked Madge. "You'll leave them to +certain death, when another try might save them?"</p> + +<p>"'Tain't certain, Madge," said Nat Tyrrell, coming up. "Old Robin knows +more than most men, and he says now the tide's turnin', they'll have a +chance—though 'tis the barest chance—a chance of just weathering the +Point. They're just so far out as for that, he says."</p> + +<p>"And if they don't?" demanded Madge.</p> + +<p>"Not a man 'll reach the shore alive," spoke a voice from among the +throng.</p> + +<p>"And ye'll give up helping them with 'one' try," reiterated Madge, a +touch of scorn in her tone. "Three, did you say it was? Well, I'm glad +for your sakes 'tis more than one. But will you make a fourth? The +tide's going down and launching 'll be easier now. I'll come in the +boat myself, men, and take an oar. Will you all hold back where a woman +would go?"</p> + +<p>"If the ship don't weather the point, Mrs. Hardwicke, we'll try a +fourth, an' a fifth, an' a tenth, an' a twelfth time," the same voice +said. "But 'tis useless danger trying, till we're sure our help's +needed. They're puttin' up a jury-mast and sail now. We'll soon see +what's to come."</p> + +<p>Madge saw the sense of the words, for not even in sorrow and suspense +was she unreasonable. She said no more, but sat down to wait, with Mona +leaning on her uncle's arm close by. Other women were on the shore, +fellow-sufferers with Madge, and some were sobbing and wringing their +hands, and some were calling aloud hysterically in their fear and +agony, for many Alyn sailors were aboard. It was terrible to look on in +safety and helplessness,—to see loved ones borne slowly slowly onwards +to almost certain death.</p> + +<p>But Madge neither wept nor cried out. She only sat upon a low rock, +with her hands folded together on her knee, and her eyes fixed over +upon that dark hull as it rose and sank by turns. And minutes passed +by, one after another, and no one dared address words of cheering to +Madge. No one dared speak to her at all. Even Mona felt that such +suspense as hers must be borne alone in the depths of her strong +woman-nature. It was too soon yet to offer the comfort which might +by-and-by be needed, and too soon yet to speak of hope.</p> + +<p>But the ship drew slowly nearer and nearer, and the dawning light grew +clearer and clearer, and a gleam of fluttering brightness began to +illumine the anxious faces around. Whispers here and there passed from +one to another, as to a growing probability of escape. And all at once +Madge herself stood upright, and held up both hands, clasping them +tightly over her head, and cried in clear tones, which reached the ears +of all present,—</p> + +<p>"They're safe! Men, they're safe! They have passed the rocks."</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image032" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image032.jpg" alt="image032"></figure> +<p class="t4"> +<b>"They're safe! Men, they're safe! They have passed the</b><br> +<b>rocks," she cried.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>Almost before the words had crossed her lips, a cry was heard: "They're +saved! They're saved!" And such a cheer burst from the assembled +crowd that the roar of wind and waters grew faint for an instant by +comparison.</p> + +<p>Safe at last! Or the danger was so far lessened, that, unless the +ship were more disabled than appeared to be the case, there was small +further cause for anxiety. She rolled indeed heavily, and made but +tardy advance, seeming, as one man with a telescope observed, to be +"pretty nigh water-logged." But though she advanced slowly, she did +advance. And gradually hope brightened into confidence, and confidence +into certainty.</p> + +<p>Madge Hardwicke's momentary excitement had again disappeared, and +calmly as before, she waited; only the red glow in her cheeks and the +sparkle in her eyes told that less of composure lay beneath. Neill was +coming at last! Her own Neill! After all these years of separation. +No wonder that the mother's heart should beat, and her eyes should +glisten, with a joy so intense as to be almost pain.</p> + +<p>The sun had risen, and was shedding his beams over the unquiet sea, and +the scarcely less unquiet assemblage of Alyn folks upon the shore, when +the half-disabled ship at length reached the pier. For Alyn harbour lay +to the west of Lion Point; and having failed through stress of weather +to enter the harbour, nothing remained to the "Flying Albatross" but to +"make" the pier running out from the shingle cove, which had, in fact, +been built for nothing else but such emergencies.</p> + +<p>Madge remained near the entrance of the pier, hearing and seeing +nothing that went on around her. She had no eyes or ears for aught +but the coming figure of Neill, which yet did not come! Nat Tyrrell +had gone to find and bring him to her, and Nat Tyrrell's approach was +perhaps the only one, beside that of Neill, which would have made any +impression on her senses. But she heard his step in a moment, though +not looking in that direction, and she turned her eyes quickly to his, +shining with happy expectation.</p> + +<p>"Well?" she said. "And have you seen my boy? And is he coming to me +soon?"</p> + +<p>"I've seen the captain and Ned Blayney, Madge."</p> + +<p>"And Neill?" said Madge. "Will they let me go to him, Nat?"</p> + +<p>"I'm very sorry, Madge," faltered Nat.</p> + +<p>And there he stopped. But an exclamation of sorrow escaped Mona's lips, +and Madge Hardwicke turned instantly pale and cold and gray. She said +nothing, but looked steadily at him.</p> + +<p>"I'm ever so sorry for you," repeated Nat; "but—fact is, Madge, Neill +hasn't come at all."</p> + +<p>"Neill not come!"</p> + +<p>"No. He didn't ever show himself again afore the ship sailed, and Ned +Blayney don't know nothing of why, nor what has become of him."</p> + +<p>One cry of deep heart-agony broke from Madge, and no more.</p> + +<p>Mona would have taken her hand in pitying sympathy, but it was drawn +away, as if any outside touch were pain too keen to be endured. She +could hardly bear the doctor's face of compassion. For the moment she +felt wild, and dark thoughts of fierce rebellion crept into Madge +Hardwicke's soul, against the Hand which had directed this heavy blow.</p> + +<p>What was it that kept her from uttering her thoughts? What was it that +made her hide her feelings? Why did she not look up at Mr. Chetwynd—as +she "could" have done, if her own strength had been all that remained +to her at that moment—and speak bitter faithless words concerning +prayer and its working? Why not? Why, but because Madge was one of +those who are "kept by the power of God,"—one whose constant desire was +for His glory, and who in this instant of dire temptation was therefore +not permitted to fail.</p> + +<p>"I am very sorry for you, Madge," were the first words that reached her +ears, in the doctor's voice.</p> + +<p>She stood upright, and looked at him. "Thank you, sir, I know you are. +It's hard to bear, but God can bring him back yet, if 'tis His will. +I'll have to wait awhile longer. Good-bye, Miss Mona. I think I'd +sooner go home alone, please."</p> + +<p>They held back, one and all, with respectful pity. Every one knew +Madge, and no one knew without loving her. But she saw nothing of any +of them now. The earth and sky and sea had all changed into one silent +shield of utter blackness. Neil had not come!</p> + +<p>It seemed to Madge that all hope and joy in life had died out for +evermore. She did not look to see him now again on earth.</p> + +<p>Steadily and rapidly she pressed on, away from the beach, through the +town, and up the steep hill-side. And she never slackened a moment for +weariness or want of breath, until the cottage-door was reached.</p> + +<p>Mrs. Tyrrell came out to meet her with a smile of congratulation, but +her cheerful look turned to one of dismay at the sight of Madge's face.</p> + +<p>"Why, Mrs. Hardwicke—you don't mean now!" she ejaculated. "They telled +me the ship was safe."</p> + +<p>"Neill's not come," said Madge quietly. "Thank you for staying with the +child, Mrs. Tyrrell. I think I'd best be alone now, please."</p> + +<p>"Sure, an' it 'is' a disappointment. And ye won't let me stay awhile, +and help to cheer ye up?" added the good woman coaxingly.</p> + +<p>As if any puny words of hers could touch the passionate aching of the +poor mother's heart. She saw in a moment that it would not do, and with +a brief good-bye, she went off, not even stepping inside the door again.</p> + +<p>Madge entered instead, closed it after her, took off her hood, and sat +down.</p> + +<p>"Is Neill come?" asked little Nannie's voice.</p> + +<p>Madge looked vacantly across, drawing deep breaths, as if of oppression.</p> + +<p>"I didn't dishonour Him," she muttered. "Thank Him I didn't—for I'd a +mind. And the doctor would never have forgot. I didn't say what I felt, +but I did feel it."</p> + +<p>"Madge, where's Neill?" asked Nannie.</p> + +<p>"God knows," said Madge calmly. "He's not brought Neill home to me, +Nannie."</p> + +<p>Nannie stared with wide-open eyes. "Ain't Neill come, Madge?"</p> + +<p>"No," said Madge. "The ship's all right, Nannie, but Neill ain't +aboard. Don't talk to me awhile,—please."</p> + +<p>She did not move, but sat with her head bent down wearily, and +no particular feeling of any kind in her mind, beyond a sense of +deep desolation. She did not think she should ever care to look up +again,—ever care to pass cheerily through life as hitherto; and it was +with a sensation of restless impatience, that she heard the door-latch +lifted, and raised her head to look round.</p> + +<p>"I wish you'd please leave me. I don't want—" Madge stopped, for it was +Mr. Prior.</p> + +<p>"May I come in?" he asked.</p> + +<p>And she rose and gave him a chair, resuming her own immediately, as if +hardly conscious of what she did.</p> + +<p>He sat down, after a kind word to little Nannie, whose face gave him a +hearty welcome, and said simply,—</p> + +<p>"Madge, I was with you when your good news came, and rejoiced with you. +Will you let me sorrow with you now?"</p> + +<p>She put up her hand, to still the quivering of her lips. "It's hard, +sir,—you don't know how hard."</p> + +<p>"Madge is dreadful disappointed, 'cause Neill ain't come home after +all," said Nannie, thinking Mr. Prior needed information on the +subject. "She wants a deal of comfort."</p> + +<p>Nannie evidently considered Mr. Prior well able to give the same. He +looked back at the child with a grave smile.</p> + +<p>"Little Nannie, Madge has a better Comforter than you or I, only +perhaps she has hardly had time yet to listen to His gentle Voice."</p> + +<p>"No," said Nannie. "He'll whisper to her down in her heart, won't He?"</p> + +<p>"If Madge will listen," said Mr. Prior.</p> + +<p>Madge lifted her gray face to his. "'Tis all true, sir, and my Lord has +sent His Comforter many a time afore to me, but I don't seem to hear +nor feel nothing now."</p> + +<p>"'I will pray the Father, and He shall give you another Comforter, that +He may abide with you for ever,'" said Mr. Prior. "He doesn't come and +go, Madge."</p> + +<p>"No, sir; only I can't see nor hear," said Madge patiently. And then, +in a mechanical sort of way, she added, "I'll hear reading if you like, +sir, but I don't seem to feel it'll do me good."</p> + +<p>"Not reading to-day, I think, Madge. Perhaps to-morrow instead. I will +only give you one little verse now,—'As one whom his mother comforteth, +so will I comfort you.'"</p> + +<p>"Thank you, sir. I'd ought to feel right; I know I ought," said poor +Madge despairingly. "But 'tis hard to bear. I've prayed and waited so +long, and it did seem as if Neill was coming at last. And now—"</p> + +<p>"And now God has denied you, or perhaps has put off for awhile granting +your request. Madge—" Mr. Prior went on—"I think there is something +here not quite as it should be. Have you been demanding as a right from +God that which you had no right to demand?"</p> + +<p>"No, sir. I've never put up a prayer for Neil to come back, without +saying, 'If it be Thy will.'"</p> + +<p>"Nor ever cherished, down in some secret corner of your heart, the +feeling that in return for all your loving faith in God, He surely must +and 'ought' to grant your request? Madge, what do you think?" he asked +softly.</p> + +<p>He had touched the right chord now,—had struck to the root of the +matter. Madge sat for a moment like one awakened from a dream, and then +bursting into tears, sobbed out, "It's true, and I didn't think it. I +didn't think I'd so much of wilfulness unconquered in me yet. I don't +deserve one bit better than my Lord's sent me—not one bit."</p> + +<p>And after that burst of weeping and contrite sorrow, Madge's heart +was no longer closed, in its aching pain, to the sweet voice of the +Heavenly Comforter.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image033" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image033.jpg" alt="image033"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image034" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image034.jpg" alt="image034"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_13">CHAPTER XIII.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>THE DOCTOR'S PROHIBITION.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>THE storm of that night ceased, as other storms have done; but the +turmoil of the waters was not so easily quelled, and massive breakers +swelled and rolled and broke with thundering crashes on the shore, +through many an hour after. There is always for a while a ground-swell +remaining.</p> + +<p>The brief storm in Madge Hardwicke's life was over, and its usual calm +had set in. But the sense of disappointment, and the renewal of the old +blank, and the fluttering of spirits, and the wakened restlessness of +desire, were not to be easily stilled. A heavy ground-swell remained +behind, and Madge had many a battle to fight in the weeks succeeding, +which showed not at all to the outer world.</p> + +<p>And little Nannie had passed through her small storm,—only it was not +small to her feeble strength,—and had come through it. She was up and +about again, much sooner than the doctor had expected to see her. A +fragile creature she looked, with her pale face, and her long black +hair, and her pleading eyes and gentle manner. There had grown to be +something about Nannie of late very winning to all the world, except +her own father, for whose love Nannie would have gladly given away all +the rest. But when she went back to his cottage, as she persistently +begged to do from the moment she set foot to the ground, he gave her +nothing of a welcome. And Nannie, in her dread of being taken away, +or of drawing punishment upon him, evaded all inquiries respecting +his treatment of her. Amos Ackman had grown more cautious before +spectators, and Nannie kept steady silence as to kicks and blows behind +the scenes. But Nannie too had her ground-swell, and that no light one.</p> + +<p>And Mona had passed through the worst of "her" storm. Through a very +tempest of doubts and questionings, beneath which she had for a while +almost succumbed, while her sky above had been wild and black, and the +angry gale had whistled past with a sound which struck chilly to her +very heart. The autumn and early winter months of that year were dark +days to poor Mona Clyde, bereft at one blow of all joy in this world, +and almost all hope in the next. For a while, it had seemed to her +that all her faith was gone. And though gleams of light had been sent +now and then, through the dense mists which had gathered around, yet +the mists were long in dispersing. So Mona also had her ground-swell +remaining.</p> + +<p>January, February, March, and April were made up of a succession of +dismal days. Dull warmth and cloudy cold—damp chilliness and dry +east winds,—rain and snow,—fog and sleet,—hail and mist,—alternated +persistently; and the only thing which seemed not to take a share in +these recurring changes was sunshine. People tried to get up jokes upon +the danger of forgetting the colour of the sun, or even of doubting +the fact of his existence altogether, beyond the low gray mantle which +perpetually enveloped this lower earth. Even Madge Hardwicke's equable +spirits felt the depressing influence of the weather; and no doubt the +sum-total of ill tempers in Alyn much exceeded the average.</p> + +<p>Then came the sweet month of May, and upon the very first day a change +took place; and spring, in all its luxuriant beauty, burst upon the +Alyn world. To Mona it was like a repetition of the tunnel's darkness, +and the light beyond, with the same sweet meaning. Never had she known +so sudden and joyous a burst of spring, just because never had she +known so dreary a winter preceding—dreary in more senses than one.</p> + +<p>It was upon one of the fairest of warm May evenings that the doctor's +chaise stood before his door, and the doctor himself stood upon his +doorstep, pulling on a pair of gloves, for he had just received an +unexpected summons to a distance, at the close of his daily round. +He accomplished the business deliberately—the call in question not +being especially urgent, though too important to leave till next +morning,—buttoned each glove with unnecessary care, and finally took +his seat. Just as he had gathered up the reins, Mona came along the +path.</p> + +<p>"Hallo! My dear, where are you going now?"</p> + +<p>"Up the hill to see Madge Hardwicke, uncle."</p> + +<p>"Where have you been?"</p> + +<p>"Only to look up one of my Sunday scholars who was absent last Sunday; +but he is ill, poor little fellow, so it was not his fault."</p> + +<p>"Which?"</p> + +<p>"Uncle, you won't know his name—Tommy Talbot."</p> + +<p>"Not one of the Talbots in Wall's Alley?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, he lives there."</p> + +<p>The doctor's hand gave an involuntary jerk to the reins, which made the +horse start forward. He pulled in again.</p> + +<p>"If your Sunday-school work takes you to such places as that, you had +better give it up altogether."</p> + +<p>"Uncle, I never meet with rudeness. The people are as respectful as +possible."</p> + +<p>"I dare say! I dare say!" repeated the doctor impatiently. "You don't +go there again without my leave."</p> + +<p>"But, uncle—," and Mona looked rather rebellious.</p> + +<p>"You don't," said Mr. Chetwynd decisively.</p> + +<p>"Tommy will expect me to-morrow."</p> + +<p>"Let him! How often have you been, pray?"</p> + +<p>"This is the first time since Sunday. Once last week I went, not +because Tommy was ill, but only he was a new pupil the Sunday before, +and I always go to see them in their homes. He is the first I ever had +from that alley."</p> + +<p>"Last week—what day?"</p> + +<p>"Friday. Tommy was so pleased when I came in. And he took me into the +next room to see a poor little playfellow of his who was not well."</p> + +<p>Another sharp jerk at the reins. Mona looked in perplexity at his +knitted brows.</p> + +<p>"You haven't seen 'him' again, then?"</p> + +<p>"No, I was with Tommy all the time this morning. It was very stupid of +me, but I was thinking so much of him that I quite forgot even to ask +after the other child."</p> + +<p>"It is to be the first and last of your visiting there, if you please," +said the doctor. "That alley is a perfect nest of—"</p> + +<p>"Of what?" asked Mona.</p> + +<p>"Wickedness," said Mr. Chetwynd, omitting, for a particular reason, the +word he had intended to use.</p> + +<p>"I don't think, really, that you need fear for me, uncle."</p> + +<p>"Dare say not," muttered Mr. Chetwynd gruffly. "Mind,—no more going +there, Mona. Ha! Here comes Mr. Prior. I'll give him a hint on the +subject some day—can't have you encouraged in that sort of thing."</p> + +<p>"Uncle, indeed it was all my own doing," said Mona eagerly, and then +Mr. Prior came up with a cheerful—</p> + +<p>"Just the person I wanted to see. No, not you, doctor; only please give +leave, before you go, for Mona to take a drive to-morrow afternoon."</p> + +<p>"Anywhere, except to Wall's Alley," said the doctor.</p> + +<p>But he went off with something of a frown, and Mona said in +explanation: "He is rather vexed at my going to see some of my +children—one of them I mean."</p> + +<p>"Not in Wall's Alley?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, little Tommy Talbot."</p> + +<p>"How came you to go there?" he asked, as if involuntarily.</p> + +<p>"Why, Mr. Prior, is it such a dreadful place?" inquired Mona, in +surprise. "It looked very much like any other alley."</p> + +<p>His smile was in the least degree forced. "About the worst in Alyn I +suppose. Don't visit in it again at present,—I will see after Tommy for +you. Are you going indoors now, and shall you be very busy to-morrow?"</p> + +<p>"O no; can I do anything for you, Mr. Prior?" She had felt strangely +weary all day, with a heavy spring-tired sort of feeling, but she +brightened up as she spoke. "I was just going up the hill to see Madge +Hardwicke."</p> + +<p>"The very thing. I am on my way to that poor creature dying in the +cottage beyond the cliff, so our road is the same."</p> + +<p>"One moment, please," and she ran into the hall, coming out again with +a basket full of small bunches of garden flowers. "I am ready now, Mr. +Prior."</p> + +<p>"Those little nosegays look tempting," he said, as they passed into the +road. "Are you disposed for a drive to-morrow, Mona?"</p> + +<p>"Who with?" she asked.</p> + +<p>"All of us. The truth is—" and he laughed slightly—"my sister Rachel +has taken a warm fancy to Madge Hardwicke."</p> + +<p>"I felt sure Miss Prior must like her," said Mona.</p> + +<p>"And having discovered a certain plan of the said Madge's, she can't +rest without adding her quota to the general enjoyment."</p> + +<p>"What the excursion to Bentley Dingle? Madge told me, but I thought it +was to be quite a secret."</p> + +<p>"Rachel found out the secret somehow,—though I confess it is rather a +mystery to me still. I only gather that Madge has a certain treat in +store for certain children, that my sister does not think there will +be buns enough to the fore, that she therefore intends to act carrier +gratis for the occasion, and that I am expected to take my share as +driver. Who are Madge's children, if you can tell me?"</p> + +<p>"A dozen or more poor little things, who run up to her cottage on +Saturday afternoons to read the Bible with her. They are as fond of her +as if she were their mother."</p> + +<p>"I understand. And she plans an excursion for them to the Dingle?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, in a break, and they will make tea there, and eat buns and bread +and butter. The truth is, Madge had a present lately from her old +master, Sir Arthur Bolton, and that I suppose put it into her head." +Mona did not add that she had herself given a liberal contribution +towards expenses, but only said, "I wished so much I could have been +present."</p> + +<p>"Just what Rachel feels. Her plan is to drive over to the Dingle, +without a word to Madge—so don't drop a hint of her intentions this +evening—and to appear suddenly on the spot with a supply of provisions, +after the fashion of a fairy godmother, taking them all by surprise."</p> + +<p>"That will be very nice," said Mona, warmly. "How delighted Madge will +be! Is Mrs. Prior going?"</p> + +<p>"I hope so, and she sends a particular message to say that you are to +have a turn at sitting on the front seat, and taking the reins. My +opinion is not asked about the matter, so I submit, and only hope that +may tempt you, if nothing else does."</p> + +<p>"I don't need any tempting," said Mona, with a smile. "I shall enjoy it +of all things. Why, Madge seems holding quite a levée up on the hill."</p> + +<p>"Giving a lecture," suggested Mr. Prior. "You ladies usurp everything +in these days."</p> + +<p>"Madge would not thank you for calling her a lady. O I remember—Nat +Tyrrell is to drive the break, and Ned Blayney and his mother are going +to help take care of the children. I dare say they are talking over +arrangements—but I don't know who the third man is. Not Amos Ackman at +all events, for I can see him at his own cottage-door."</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image035" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image035.jpg" alt="image035"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image036" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image036.jpg" alt="image036"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_14">CHAPTER XIV.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>GOD'S MYSTERIES.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"BELIEVE in it? No, I don't," said Nat Tyrrell, with decision. "Nor I +don't see, for my part, how any reasonable being who trust in God's +goodness, can put faith in the notion for one single instant."</p> + +<p>"'Tisn't so very long, Nat, since you were all for setting me to rights +for a crank you said I'd got," Madge remarked quietly, as she sat +knitting on the bench in front of her cottage-door.</p> + +<p>Mrs. Tyrrell, a silent sensible woman, sat beside her, occupied in like +manner. Nannie was down on the ground close to her feet, after the +fashion of a faithful little dog. Nat stood exactly in front, with his +back to the garden-gate; while on one side of him lounged the stalwart +figure of Ned Blayney, who was listening with a good-humoured smile to +the discussion; and on the other stood a small sickly-looking man, Joe +Whilly by name, and cobbler by profession, with a face of such rigid +melancholy, that it was hard to imagine he could ever conjure up a +smile.</p> + +<p>"Seems to me," Madge added, "that the crank's on your side now, Nat."</p> + +<p>"Begging your pardon, but it's nothing of the kind," responded Nat, +with a degree of tartness, for he was by no means so ready as Madge to +admit the possibility of being mistaken. "You and I think alike in a +many things, no doubt, but we don't think alike here, and I dare say we +never shall. I'll never believe salvation ain't freely offered to every +man, woman, and child upon earth, to accept it if they will."</p> + +<p>"Did I say it wasn't, Nat?" Madge began, but she checked herself, for +another voice was saying,—</p> + +<p>"Good evening, Tyrrell. How are you to-day, Mrs. Hardwicke?" And then +after a few words of greeting to each, not omitting little Nannie, Mr. +Prior added, "You seem very much interested about something, all of +you."</p> + +<p>"Just a talk we've got into," responded Madge. "I'm glad you've come, +sir. Will you please to sit down, and Miss Mona too?"</p> + +<p>"What has the talk been about?" asked Mr. Prior, accepting the +offered chair. "It is so pleasant up here that I really think I must +spare a few minutes before going on. But don't let me interrupt your +discussion."</p> + +<p>"We'd scarce got into a discussion yet," said Madge, half-smiling. "Joe +Whilly had given us his mind, and Nat Tyrrell was giving a bit of his."</p> + +<p>"Nat Tyrrell had better give the rest," suggested Mr. Prior.</p> + +<p>"Have out with it, lad," said Ned Blayney encouragingly, as Nat +shuffled about a little. "Parson never lets a fellow off, and he likes +us to tell out our thoughts."</p> + +<p>"Right, Blayney. I wish you to consider me one of yourselves for +half-an-hour. What is it all about, Tyrrell? Let me see if I can help +you in your perplexity."</p> + +<p>"Well, sir, I don't know as I'm much perplexed neither," said Nat +honestly. "I don't pretend to be anything of a born genius,—" Nat did +his best to look modest,—"but I hope I'm equal to the understanding of +this, sir."</p> + +<p>"If you be, you're a deal cleverer than I," muttered Ned Blayney, +rubbing his forehead disconsolately. "Whilly and you atween you has set +all my wits and notions buzzing, like the bees in mother's hive."</p> + +<p>"Let me hear," was all Mr. Prior said.</p> + +<p>Nat had no objection at all to state his views. "Well, sir, 'tis just +this. Whilly he don't hold with me. He goes in downright for the +doctrine of election, sir. Now I don't."</p> + +<p>"Don't go in for it?"</p> + +<p>"No, sir. That's to say, I don't hold it. I've my Bible, sir, and I +reads it night and morning, and I hope I understands what I reads. And +my conclusion as I've come to is this. The doctrine of election is no +Scriptural doctrine at all, sir. For why?" Nat was growing more at his +ease now, and he began laying down the law, with the forefinger of one +hand upon the palm of the other, as he was wont to do when expounding +his own views among his fellow-workmen,—a very different matter, be +it remarked, from expounding Bible-truths, though the two are often +confounded together.</p> + +<p>"For why, sir? Ain't it in the Bible, clear as daylight, that Jesus +Christ died for all men, and that His salvation is freely offered to +all? That's what 'I' hold to, sir. I'll preach and teach the Gospel +with my latest breath, but I'll never be one of those who goes about, +talking of election, and how God has chosen some men from all eternity +to everlasting happiness, and created some only for everlasting misery, +and man to have no choice at all in the matter, and however much he may +wish to be saved, yet, if he isn't elect, he's lost to all eternity. +No, no, I'll never go in for that. I believe salvation is offered to +all, and all may be saved,—only men are so perverse and wrong-headed +that they won't accept salvation, and so the blame is on their own +heads. Why, sir, looking at it in any other light, I'd have to say the +blame is with God, not man."</p> + +<p>"Hush, beware, Tyrrell! You are saying words now, which no living man +may utter and be blameless," said Mr. Prior with much seriousness.</p> + +<p>"Joe Whilly's got hold of quite another side of the question +altogether," remarked Blayney. "As you'll hear, sir. He don't agree +with Tyrrell. He's all t'other way."</p> + +<p>"No, he don't agree with me," said Nat, recovering from the momentary +effect of the rebuke he had received. "He'd never dare offer the free +gift of salvation to any man, but only go tell him he hopes he's one of +the elect, for if he's elect, he'll be saved, and if he isn't, why he's +mighty sorry for him."</p> + +<p>"I didn't put it that way neither," said Joe Whilly. "But I don't deny +there's some truth in Tyrrell's words, sir. I'd tell men, sure enough, +of the Saviour,—but I couldn't in conscience tell 'em to come and be +saved, without reminding them that they hadn't no power to come, unless +they were called."</p> + +<p>"Ay, those are his views," said Tyrrell loftily. "I'm right glad +they're not mine."</p> + +<p>"I'd be sorry to have to settle atween you both," remarked Blayney. +"One thing's certain—one of you's right, and one's wrong. Leastways, +both can't be right, though maybe you be both wrong. And that's all I +knows about the matter."</p> + +<p>"I have a word from the Bible for each of you—for Tyrrell on his +side and Whilly on his," said Mr. Prior. "But first, we must find +a stand-point from which to look upon this matter. It won't do, if +you wish to take a wide view of the country round, to get among some +bushes, where your range of sight is shut in to about six yards."</p> + +<p>Ned Blayney laughed. "No, sir; the mast-head's the place."</p> + +<p>"True; we must climb to the mast-head. And the first step towards +that, is to take good heed that we come to this question in a frank +and simple spirit of inquiry, anxious to find the truth, and ready to +believe whatever the Word of God may state, but not caring to defend +our own views merely for the sake of triumph in argument."</p> + +<p>"I hope I'm not over proud to acknowledge myself mistaken, sir," said +Nat Tyrrell.</p> + +<p>"I hope so too. But now for the mast-head. There are two simple truths +about which you must be perfectly clear, before you can safely venture +to look into any of these questions. You seem to me, Tyrrell, to have +lost sight of one, if not of both."</p> + +<p>"I'm ready to hear, sir," said Tyrrell, more submissively than was his +wont.</p> + +<p>"Then remember this. Whatever you find of doubt and perplexity—whatever +seems to you hard to understand, or impossible to explain,—take care +that you never for a moment lose sight of one grand truth,—'The Lord +is righteous in ALL His ways, and holy in ALL His works.' 'There is no +unrighteousness in Him.' He is 'of purer eyes than to behold evil.' +'There is none holy as the Lord.' 'A God of truth and without iniquity, +just and right is He.' His very 'Name is Holy.' Take hold of that +truth, and never let it go."</p> + +<p>"Yes, sir," Tyrrell assented.</p> + +<p>"Secondly, remember that as God is absolutely holy, so man is +absolutely sinful. Man, as man, can put forth no shadow of a claim upon +the mercy of God. The whole of mankind lies deep down in the very dust +beneath His feet, justly condemned to eternal death. Salvation, from +first to last, is a free and utterly undeserved gift."</p> + +<p>"I see what you mean, sir," said Tyrrell slowly.</p> + +<p>"Then, putting those two great truths together, let me warn you to take +your stand upon them, and never again to use the dangerous line of +argument you seemed inclined to use just now. Never dare to say, 'If +such and such a thing were true, I could not believe in the holiness +or mercy of God.' There is fearful presumption in it, Tyrrell—though +many a good man unthinkingly makes use of such words. Such and such +a thing may be true, though you cannot see it so; and where do you +find yourself then? You must have your position at the mast-head. 'The +Lord is holy and true, just and righteous, merciful and loving. Man is +sinful and worthless. What the Lord hath said, that will I accept, and +unquestioningly believe.'"</p> + +<p>Nat looked thoughtful, but did not speak.</p> + +<p>"And now to come to the point," Mr. Prior went on. "As regards the +doctrine of election, I do not ask you to take my views, or the views +of any man. But what do you think of this?" And from his little +pocket Bible Mr. Prior read aloud—"'He hath chosen us in Him before +the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame +before him in love: having predestinated us unto the adoption of +children by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of +His will.' And again, 'Being predestinated according to the purpose +of Him who worketh all things after the counsel of His own will.' ¹ +Nothing can stand against that, you see—that almighty changeless Will +of God."</p> + +<p class="footnote"> +<br> +¹ Eph. i. 4, 11.<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>"Clear enough about election, ain't it," said Joe Whilly.</p> + +<p>"What of this also? In the ninth of Exodus God says about Pharaoh, 'In +very deed for this cause have I raised thee up, for to show in thee my +power.' And in the following chapters, we are more than once plainly +told that 'The Lord hardened Pharaoh's heart,' though at the same +time we must not forget that we are told how Pharaoh hardened his own +heart also. And again, with the wicked sons of Eli, we find that 'they +hearkened not unto the voice of their father,'—why?—'"because" the Lord +would slay them.'"</p> + +<p>"That's awfully strong," said Nat, in a subdued tone.</p> + +<p>"It is truth, Tyrrell. You cannot set it aside. True also—by their sins +they had made Him so to will. But as clay in the hands of a potter, ² +so are we in the hands of God. He chooses whom He will, and He rejects +whom He will. 'Therefore hath He mercy on whom He will have mercy, and +whom He will He hardeneth.' No power in heaven, or earth, or hell, can +for one instant stand against that eternal Will of God. And no man +living has power to turn to God, or even to wish so to turn, without +the working of the Holy Spirit in his heart. As the Saviour said, 'No +man can come to Me, except the Father which hath sent Me draw him.'"</p> + +<p class="footnote"> +<br> +² Rom. ix. 21.<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>"Well, sir, it just comes to this," said Tyrrell gloomily. "If you're +right—and I won't deny you've Scripture on your side—I don't see, for +my part, how man is to blame."</p> + +<p>"Just the answer made in St. Paul's own days. 'Thou wilt say then unto +me, Why doth He yet find fault? for who hath resisted His will? Nay, +but, O man! who art thou that repliest against God? Shall the thing +formed say to him that formed it, Why hast thou made me thus?' ¹ What +are you and I, Tyrrell—mere worms of the dust, rebels against Him from +our birth—to dare to question the dealings of the Lord Almighty?"</p> + +<p class="footnote"> +<br> +¹ Rom. ix.<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>He spoke in a deeply solemn tone, and the men looked impressed, while +Mona sat, with bent head, taking to heart a lesson which she had sorely +needed. There was a little pause before Tyrrell remarked—</p> + +<p>"Still, there's no denying, sir, that if men are mere puppets in the +Hands of God, to be saved or lost as He wills, I don't see for my part +how they're to be justly blamed."</p> + +<p>"Does the Bible say men are mere puppets in the Hands of God?" asked +Mr. Prior.</p> + +<p>"Well, sir, it comes to about the same thing."</p> + +<p>"No; there we touch upon one of the wonderful mysteries of God, which +are beyond man's grasp. 'There is no searching of His understanding.' +'Great things doeth He which we cannot comprehend.' The sooner you +accept that fact in all its fulness, the better for your peace. True +it is that man is absolutely in the Hands of God, as clay in the hands +of a potter; nevertheless, and at the self same time, he is a free and +accountable being. What do you say to that?"</p> + +<p>"You wouldn't try to make out, would you, sir, that there was anything +of free choice to be found in the Bible, alongside of the other +doctrine?" asked Nat incredulously.</p> + +<p>"You could not possibly have used a better word. 'Alongside'—that is +exactly the way in which these great 'opposition-truths,' as they have +been called, are given to us. Lying side by side, placed there by God +Himself, to be believed by us unquestioningly, whether or no with our +present powers we may be able to reconcile them. It has been said with +much force, that in looking at these deep mysteries of God, a man must +not attempt to step with both his feet at once. First one foot, and +then the other. We have taken a step with the right foot; now let us +take a step with the left. We have proved from the Word of God the +doctrine of election; now let us see what the same Word has to say on +the other side of the question."</p> + +<p>"I'll hear what you have to say sure enough, sir," said Nat slowly. +"I'll not deny you've shown me I've been wrong, putting aside a +doctrine so clear in the Bible as that. I'm not too proud neither to +'say' I've been in the wrong, and to change my old view for a new one. +But if you're going to ask me to stick by the old, and take up the new +as well—why, sir, I've only to say it's just a moral impossibility. The +thing can't be."</p> + +<p>"No; and I'm on the same side as Tyrrell now, sir," added Joe Whilly. +"If a man can't be saved unless he's elected, and can't come unless God +makes him able, where's the good of telling him he 'may' come?"</p> + +<p>"We will come back to that directly," said Mr. Prior. "But just now +we are taking a glance at the other side of the question. You can't +look to the north and the south of a landscape at the same moment, you +know. What do you both think of these words, spoken by God to the whole +nation of the Israelites, and through them to the world at large?</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "'See, I have set before thee this day life and good, and death and +evil; in that I command thee this day to love the Lord thy God, to walk +in His ways, and to keep His commandments . . . But if thine heart +turn away so that thou wilt not hear'—not canst not, but 'wilt' not—'I +denounce unto you this day, that ye shall surely perish . . . I call +heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before +you life and death, blessing and cursing; THEREFORE CHOOSE LIFE, that +both thou and thy seed may live—'<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>"Is no freedom of choice offered there, Whilly?"</p> + +<p>"Seems so, sure enough," said Whilly, rubbing his head with a perplexed +air.</p> + +<p>Tyrrell did not speak.</p> + +<p>"This is in the thirtieth of Deuteronomy, and you will find much +the same in the twenty-fourth of Joshua, where again the Israelites +are plainly bidden—'"Choose" you this day whom ye will serve.' Note +also the words of our Saviour—'Ye "will not" come to Me that ye +might have life.' Not 'ye cannot come.' And again, 'Strive to enter +in at the strait gate;' 'Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his +righteousness;' 'Seek, and ye shall find.' Power of choice and action +are implied in all these."</p> + +<p>"Yes, sir," answered Whilly, who seemed to have stepped into the office +of spokesman.</p> + +<p>"Then listen to a few words from the eighteenth of Ezekiel on the +same subject. 'Have I any pleasure at all that the wicked should +die, saith the Lord God, and not that he should return from his +ways and live? . . . Repent, and turn yourself from all your +transgressions . . . and make you a new heart and a new spirit; for why +will ye die, O house of Israel? For I have no pleasure in the death of +him that dieth, saith the Lord God; wherefore turn yourselves, and live +ye.' And also in the thirty-third chapter—'Say unto them, As I live, +saith the Lord God, I have no pleasure in the death of the wicked; but +that the wicked turn from his way and live; turn ye, turn ye from your +evil ways, for why will ye die, O house of Israel?'"</p> + +<p>Tyrrell was silent still, gazing steadily on the ground.</p> + +<p>"Well, sir, I won't deny there's a deal to be said on both sides from +the Bible," said Whilly, in a thoughtful tone. "But how you're going to +reconcile them two doctrines passes my comprehension."</p> + +<p>"And mine also," said Mr. Prior quietly. "What of that, Whilly? Are we +to disbelieve everything we cannot understand? Can you suppose for a +moment that the mind of a mere created being shall have power to grasp +the mysteries of his Creator? Tyrrell thinks himself well able to take +in and weigh these mighty truths, though, as he says, he is no genius. +If he were the most brilliant genius the world ever saw, it would make +no difference. Possibly he might reach a little farther than you or +I could reach—just as a tall man may wade a little deeper into the +sea than a short one can do. But in either case, the end is the same. +Whether he be tall or short, whether his mind be great or small, he +soon comes to a point where his powers serve to carry him on no more. +After that, he must take refuge in one of two things—speculation or +faith."</p> + +<p>"Seems to me, Tyrrell and Whilly had ought to be mighty pleased, both +of 'em, seeing they're both proved to be half-ways right, and not all +wrong," Blayney remarked quaintly.</p> + +<p>"Maybe I am," said Whilly. "Then, sir, you'd have one offer salvation +to all men without a bit of reservation, would you?"</p> + +<p>"No more reservation than the Bible itself makes, Whilly. Look at the +breadth of the Gospel invitations, and don't dare to narrow them by a +single word. 'Ho! every one that thirsteth, come ye to the waters,' +must never be cut down into, 'Ho! all ye "elect" that thirst.' 'Come +unto Me, all ye that labour,' must not be changed into 'Come unto Me, +all ye "elect" that labour.' There is a very clear command given—'Go ye +into all the world, and preach the Gospel to every creature.' You may +find me, if you can, a single injunction to preach the Gospel only to +the elect of God."</p> + +<p>"Thank you, sir. You've given me something to think about, anyways," +said Whilly.</p> + +<p>"The truth is, Whilly, this doctrine of election, though a thought full +of comfort and joy to the assured Christian, is a doctrine with which +the unsaved man has nothing whatever to do. 'Repent, believe, and be +saved,' are the words spoken to him. Take care that you carry him the +right message—not the wrong one."</p> + +<p>And then, turning from Whilly, Mr. Prior said,—"Well, Tyrrell?"</p> + +<p>"Sir, you'll maybe think me a bit obstinate, but I can't in reason see +how them two things can exist together," said Tyrrell rather doggedly.</p> + +<p>"Let me give you an illustration I have heard used, to make it clearer. +Did you ever see the flying bridge over the river, two or three miles +from Bentley Dingle?"</p> + +<p>"I've seen it, sir."</p> + +<p>Mr. Prior took out his pocket-book, and slightly sketched the scone for +the benefit of those who had not.</p> + +<p>"There is the river. There are the chains upon which the bridge +depends. Now, look at those chains. You see them plainly at that end, +and at this. What becomes of them in the space between?"</p> + +<p>"They're under water," Nat answered, at the same moment with Blayney.</p> + +<p>"How do you know? You cannot see them there."</p> + +<p>"Well, sir, I knows sure enough, if I sees each end of a chain going +down under water, that it's joined below," said Blayney.</p> + +<p>"That is to say, you 'believe' it to be so, and your belief amounts +to certainty. Just so with these great 'counter-truths' of the Bible. +You see each end of the chain, but the point where they join—the point +of reconciliation—is in the depths, beyond your grasp. Faith must +come in there to supply the place of sight. You say they can't be +reconciled. That merely means that 'you' cannot reconcile them. They +are reconciled, though God alone knows how, and that is enough for us. +There ought to be no 'if' in speaking of God's revealed truths. 'The +Lord hath spoken,' is answer enough for every perplexity, and every +seeming contradiction."</p> + +<p>"Maybe," Tyrrell muttered.</p> + +<p>"The truth is, we are mere children before God, and know nothing +whatever of these matters beyond what He has graciously made known to +us. He speaks to us as to children, and tells us just so much as it is +needful for us to know—but no more. If you receive His Word as a child, +you will know peace. The road to heaven is a very simple one, and 'the +wayfaring man, though a fool, shall not err therein.' But once go off +from the plain path of safety, and get yourselves entangled in these +mazy questions, which have puzzled tens of thousands before you, and +you will find yourselves in a very quicksand of doubt and misery."</p> + +<p>"Maybe so, sir," said Tyrrell. "I don't deny you've a deal to say from +the Bible for your way of looking on the question. But, nevertheless, +'tisn't in my power to set aside altogether the common-sense view of +the matter. And that is, that 'if' men have it in their power to choose +between good and evil, then salvation can't depend on election; and +'if' the doctrine of election is true, then free choice can't be, and +men may just as well sit with their hands before them, waiting to see +whether they're elect or no. For in that case, if a man's elect, he'll +be saved, and if he isn't elect, he won't be saved, and small blame to +him either if he isn't. I don't see, for my part, how you're ever to +get over that difficulty, sir."</p> + +<p>"Nay, Tyrrell, it is you, not I, who have to get over it," said Mr. +Prior, smiling. "I am content to accept the truths of God as He has +given them to us. You cannot rest without trying to bring them all down +to the level of your own understanding—which is about as reasonable an +attempt, as if you were to set yourself to squeeze the ocean into a +tumbler. But I will have a word again with you on this subject, only +just now I must say good-bye, as it is getting late. Think over the +matter carefully, and pray for right direction as you do so."</p> + +<p>He lingered a minute still, exchanging pleasant remarks with the +different members of the party. Then bidding them all farewell, he +continued his walk—not without a nod and smile at parting to little +Nannie, for Mr. Prior was one of those who have caught a reflection +of the Saviour's peculiar tenderness towards the lambs of the flock. +And Mona, having presented to Madge her basket of nosegays, for the +children on the morrow, went soberly down the hill-side.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image037" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image037.jpg" alt="image037"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image038" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image038.jpg" alt="image038"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_15">CHAPTER XV.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>THE DINGLE.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>IT was a sweet wild place, this Dingle, coming after a long reach of +flat and lonely moor. There was a deep dip, and a grassy space below, +with one tiny cottage built beside a running stream, while all around +the rocky sides rose steeply, clothed with brushwood and small trees, +amongst which the brilliant spring green of the larches was the most +conspicuous. And from this little hollow or basin, the pathway—about +as wide and rough as a mountain sleigh-path, and much overgrown with +grass—leading up alongside of the sparkling stream, rose winding in a +narrow gorge, with rocks and trees still closing in on either side. +Several threatened endings proved only to be fresh turnings of the +path, until at length the summit was attained of a certain round green +hill, with a good view of the surrounding country, and a number of +larches and silver beeches growing down its sides.</p> + +<p>A month or two later, the pretty spot would be almost overrun +by excursionists, but it was quiet now, with the exception of +Madge Hardwicke's party, who made noise enough for fifty ordinary +pleasure-seekers. Madge loved nothing better than to see "her +children," as she called them, enjoying themselves. They had all +arrived at the Dingle by three o'clock, and many games in the "green +basin" followed.</p> + +<p>Mrs. Blayney and her son, and Nat Tyrrell and his wife, were by no +means useless additions to the party. Madge alone would have been +hardly equal to the task of keeping all those busy little feet out of +perilous spots, but for their aid. As it was, they had enough to do, +all five of them, during the first hour and a half. It was somewhere +about the close of that time that a little basket-carriage was seen +approaching, drawn by a pretty grey pony, and a shout was immediately +raised:—</p> + +<p>"I say,—if it ain't the Parson a-driving up here!"</p> + +<p>No unwelcome arrival was that little chaise, though nobody yet knew +what lay hidden under the seats. The children came crowding around, to +receive kind words and smiles, alike from Mr. Prior, and from the pale +lady beside him, who never left her Rectory home save in a carriage, +but was no stranger to them all nevertheless. As for the small boy, +Georgie, with his knickerbockers, and straw hat, and floating blue +ribbons, he was out on the ground in a moment, at the imminent risk of +his legs, ready for any amount of play.</p> + +<p>"So you are all enjoying yourselves here, Madge," said Mr. Prior, as +she stood, smiling, near at hand.</p> + +<p>"Well, sir, the children seem to find a deal of pleasure in it," said +Madge.</p> + +<p>"Don't think we are going to intrude, Madge," said Miss Prior, the +clergyman's sister. "We can drive up the Dingle, and leave you all to +play, you know. Only we wanted to bring just a little contribution to +your feast, as you—naughty woman that you are—didn't take the trouble +to invite us."</p> + +<p>"You're welcome enough, ma'am, if I'd thought you cared to come," said +Madge placidly. "Miss Mona has nigh as much to do with the matter as I."</p> + +<p>But her face lighted up a good deal at the sight of the hamper, and the +children's consequent delight. And when it was opened, and the contents +began to appear, the little ones did not seem to know how to smile +broadly enough for such a grand occasion. Miss Prior was satisfied +so far, and began now to talk of driving on, but Madge interposed. +Wouldn't they stay, and help to eat up the feast?</p> + +<p>"Spoil the fun?"</p> + +<p>Madge laughed her low quiet laugh at the idea. And Nannie, creeping up, +looked with a pair of pleading eyes, which added weight to the words of +Madge.</p> + +<p>"You two together are irresistible," Miss Prior said. "I am vanquished +at all events. What will the rest of you do?"</p> + +<p>"I never intended to do anything but stay, all along," said Mr. Prior +composedly, and Madge's gray eyes flashed a look of merry appreciation. +No arm-chair being at hand, Mrs. Prior had to keep her seat in the low +basket-chaise, but the pony was taken out and tied to a tree, and half +the children gathered round to feed him with handfuls of grass, while +the other half watched the unlading of the hamper with eager eyes.</p> + +<p>It was no meagre fare that Mr. and Miss Prior had brought for the +occasion. Madge's buns found themselves in a very small minority, +compared with the varieties of provisions now produced. A white +cloth had not been forgotten, and amid much fun and laughter, the +table—otherwise the ground—was laid; hot water was procured from the +cottage; and tea was at length ready.</p> + +<p>Then they all sat round in a circle,—Mr. Prior being honoured with a +seat upon a stump, and having a bodyguard of small children at his end +of the cloth. Nannie crept to his side, and sat there, almost too happy +to eat. Poor little child! This day was one of radiant experience in +her cloudy life. She had not known many such.</p> + +<p>It was a mixed sort of company gathered there to dinner, or tea, or +whatever they chose to term that five o'clock out-of-door feast on the +grass. The hamper-full would almost have served to supply a meal of +either description. Mixed as the company might be, however—including +the Priors and Mona, the children and Madge, a sailor and his mother, a +carpenter and his wife,—it was a very merry and a very happy party. Had +Mr. Chetwynd been one of the number, he would probably have felt a good +deal out of his element, from the fact that he would have been troubled +with a certain amount of anxiety as to his own dignity.</p> + +<p>Mr. Prior, whose pleasant ease of manner, and entire +self-forgetfulness, were equally to be seen on all occasions, whether +his companions might chance to be earls and baronets, or masons and +plumbers, suffered from no such uneasiness. He kept up a cheery flow +of conversation, just suited to those present—bright, cheerful, +kindly, with many an illustration for the men, and many a story for +the little ones, not lacking a vein of quaint humour, and yet having +an under-current of serious purpose, which now and then rose to the +surface, like a golden thread in a many-coloured pattern.</p> + +<p>The feast over—and very thoroughly it was over, little but crumbs +remaining—there was some talk of the chaise and its inmates driving +on. Miss Prior protested. She at least must have one game with the +children first. Wouldn't Mona join? Mona did not object, but for all +Miss Prior's twenty years' seniority, Mona seemed of the two to have +the less appreciation of the fun. She very soon found her help was not +really needed, and slipped away.</p> + +<p>"Mona, you are not well to-day," said Mrs. Prior, as she came up.</p> + +<p>Mona flushed suddenly. "I have rather a headache, Mrs. Prior; I dare +say it will go off soon."</p> + +<p>"Don't tire yourself, dear. My sister likes nothing better than a game +with the little ones. Would you not rather go home at once?"</p> + +<p>"O no, thank you! We are to walk up the Dingle," said Mona, unwilling +to check the general enjoyment, though she really did feel far from +well. "They say the view from the top is lovely."</p> + +<p>"Yes; and I am told that the path is quite fit for our little chaise, +so we will all go up together," said Mr. Prior, making his appearance +at this juncture. "Here come Tyrrell and Blayney to harness in the +pony."</p> + +<p>"I am glad Mrs. Prior will be able to come too," Mona remarked.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image039" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image039.jpg" alt="image039"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image040" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image040.jpg" alt="image040"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_16">CHAPTER XVI.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>NAT'S COTTAGE.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"IT ought to be well done certainly, with three of us to accomplish +the business," said Mr. Prior, patting the pony's head as he began to +loosen the rein. "Unless indeed it were a case of 'too many cooks,' +Tyrrell."</p> + +<p>"Dapple ain't the sort of 'broth' to be so easy spoilt, sir," said Nat, +with a laugh.</p> + +<p>"I hope not. By the bye, Tyrrell—yes, you can tighten that strap a +little—did I not hear that you were thinking of changing your cottage +soon?"</p> + +<p>"At quarter-day—yes, sir," said Nat, looking flattered at the interest +shown in his affairs. "You see, sir, the one we're in now, though +it's a neat place enough, is over small, and it's draughty and smoky +besides. So now I'm getting on a bit in the world, we thought we'd look +out for a better."</p> + +<p>"You have not found one yet, I suppose?"</p> + +<p>"Why, no, sir, and I'm not sure after all that I haven't been imprudent +in giving notice about this, before we'd some idea of a new one like to +suit us."</p> + +<p>"Poor fellow—but of course you could not help that, though it was +unwise," said Mr. Prior compassionately.</p> + +<p>Nat Tyrrell was not the only one present who stared with open eyes.</p> + +<p>Mr. Prior looked back so calmly, however, that even Mrs. Prior began +to fancy she must have been mistaken, in thinking that her husband had +said anything extraordinary.</p> + +<p>"I had an idea, now,—but of course it is not worth my while mentioning +it to you," said Mr. Prior thoughtfully.</p> + +<p>"An idea about what, sir, if I might make bold to ask?" inquired Nat +Tyrrell, with curiosity.</p> + +<p>"O merely an idea, not at all worth mentioning. Of course it could make +no possible difference in the end," said Mr. Prior, leading the pony +towards the carriage.</p> + +<p>Nat followed, wondering what in the world had come over Mr. Prior, and +half disposed to fear it must be a case of sun-stroke.</p> + +<p>"I'd be very glad of any advice, sir," he said, by way of testing the +soundness of Mr. Prior's mind.</p> + +<p>"You are not looking out for a new cottage, of course," said Mr. Prior.</p> + +<p>"Indeed, sir, but I am. You don't happen to know of one, do you, sir?" +asked Nat, with some eagerness.</p> + +<p>"You do not really mean to say you are giving yourself any trouble +about the matter!" said Mr. Prior in a tone of astonishment.</p> + +<p>"To be sure, I should just think I was too," said Nat rather +indignantly. "A pretty thing it would be, if we waited with our hands +before us till we found ourselves homeless."</p> + +<p>Nat suddenly stopped and looked rather foolish, remembering the last +time he had used that expression. A faint idea of Mr. Prior's meaning +began to dawn upon his mind.</p> + +<p>"So if you don't look out for another cottage, you think that may +probably be the result," said Mr. Prior.</p> + +<p>"I don't see what else would be like to happen," Nat answered in a +subdued tone.</p> + +<p>"True, but then, if it were so, it would have been fore-ordained by +God," said Mr. Prior. "And what is fore-ordained must come to pass."</p> + +<p>Nat seemed at a loss what to reply.</p> + +<p>"You see, Tyrrell, I am a firm believer in the doctrine of God's +foreknowledge and pre-ordering of events," continued Mr. Prior. "It +is told very plainly in the Bible—'He doeth according to His will in +the army of heaven, and among the inhabitants of the earth, and none +can stay His hand, or say unto Him, What doest Thou?' And again He +says, 'I am God, and there is none like me, declaring the end from the +beginning, and from ancient times the things that are not yet done.'"</p> + +<p>"They're wonderful texts, sir. I don't know as I ever saw 'em before," +said Nat thoughtfully.</p> + +<p>"There are truths in them which cannot for a moment be set aside. Now, +looking upon the matter in that light, knowing that your future life +is, as it were, all marked out in the secret mind of God; how can I for +a moment suppose that 'you' have any freedom or choice as to your own +actions? How can I in common fairness blame you for doing that which +it has been fore-ordained from all eternity that you should do? I must +rather look upon you as the unhappy victim of circumstances, as a mere +puppet in the hands of a superior Power, with nothing more of praise or +blame attaching to anything you may do or think, than to the movements +of a hammer or saw in the hands of a workman. As for believing in +God's absolute power and fore-ordering of all things, and at the self +same time treating you as a reasonable creature, worthy of blame or +praise—why, looking upon the matter in a common-sense light, the thing +seems simply impossible."</p> + +<p>Nat fidgeted uneasily, but did not speak.</p> + +<p>"You were saying just now that you had given notice to your landlord +rather early," Mr. Prior went on. "It sounds imprudent, to be sure. +But then, poor fellow, no one can dream of laying blame upon you. For +it was all fore-ordained that you should give notice upon just that +particular day; and if it was to be, how could you help it? How could +you possibly have acted otherwise?"</p> + +<p>Nat's bronzed cheek took a deeper hue than its wont. "Well, sir, you +have me there for certain!" he said frankly.</p> + +<p>"You say you are looking out for a cottage," continued Mr. Prior, in +the same deliberate manner. "And it did occur to me that I knew of one +which might just suit you."</p> + +<p>"No! Do you, sir?"</p> + +<p>"But I have decided that it would be quite useless trouble on my part +to mention particulars. For if that identical cottage is pre-ordained +to be your home, it will be your home, whether I tell you about it or +no. And if it is not pre-ordained to be your home, then no words of +mine or efforts of yours can make it so. Whatever the result may be, +one thing is clear, and that is that nobody can be blamed."</p> + +<p>"But, sir,—" Nat began, and paused.</p> + +<p>"So you see it is a very simple matter, Tyrrell, looking upon it in +this light. If a chosen home awaits you, that home will in time become +yours. If you don't look out for one, and find yourself brought down to +sleeping in the open air, why, it will no doubt be something of a trial +to you and your family, but you must comfort yourself with the thought +that all things are pre-ordained by God, and that you,—not being a +responsible creature,—can be justly blamed by no one."</p> + +<p>"Don't seem to me as that 'ud be much of a consolation neither," said +Nat, rather humbly. "Please, sir, if you wouldn't mind after all +telling me about that there cottage—"</p> + +<p>"It is a very nice cottage," said Mr. Prior. "A particularly nice one, +Tyrrell. I do most sincerely hope, for your sake, that it may prove to +be your pre-ordained future home. I should advise you on your return +this evening to sit quietly down, with your hands before you, and +patiently await the opening out of events, through which in the course +of time you will learn exactly what is to happen to you."</p> + +<p>"I beg your pardon, sir, but I think I'd be better satisfied, and not +such a fool neither, if I was to see the landlord, and set the matter +going,—if you'd be so very good, sir, as to tell me where that cottage +is," added Nat, growing beseeching.</p> + +<p>"Come, now, we will make an agreement. If you will do one thing for me, +I will tell you what you wish."</p> + +<p>"Anything, sir," said Nat eagerly.</p> + +<p>"I would not promise rashly, if I were you. Of course you fully +believe, Tyrrell, that all things are fore-ordained by God?"</p> + +<p>"Seems clear enough in the Bible about that, sir, any way," said +Tyrrell.</p> + +<p>"And that every event of your future life is in His hands,—that He +arranges matters, and moves the hearts of men, according to His divine +will,—that you cannot take one step or lift one finger, unless He gives +you power,—that nothing in heaven or earth can come about without His +permission!"</p> + +<p>"'Tis all true," Tyrrell answered.</p> + +<p>"And yet you seem to think that you have some sort of voice in the +matter,—that you have a certain freedom of will and a certain liberty +of action,—that events may be brought about by yourself,—that you might +be fairly blamed and might justly suffer, from refusing to take certain +steps which appear to you wise and right."</p> + +<p>Tyrrell nodded silently.</p> + +<p>"Then, Tyrrell, there lie two great and wonderful truths side by side. +Will you kindly reconcile them for me? Please to explain to me in clear +terms, by the light of reason and common-sense, exactly how they both +exist, and how they work. If you can reach to the bottom of this deep +mystery of God, which no living man has ever yet fathomed, you shall +command me to do what you will about the cottage, or any other earthly +matter."</p> + +<p>"I'll have to wait long enough for the cottage, if that has to come +between," said Nat, in a low voice. "Sir, I never did see the matter in +that light before, I must confess."</p> + +<p>"Nor I neither," said Blayney.</p> + +<p>"No, because in every-day practical matters, you put aside theory and +attend to fact. You 'know' God's power to be boundless, and you pray +Him to guide you in your way, and He guides you. You 'feel' you are +free to act, and you act. You don't trouble your head with trying to +settle exactly how far your own freedom in action may reach, or how far +God chooses directly to control your mind and the minds of those about +you. But when you touch upon the question of salvation, you must needs +perplex your brains by trying to understand what can't be understood, +and struggling to reconcile truths which God has not given us power to +reconcile, till you end by putting reason in the place of faith, and +working yourselves into a perfect maze. It is dangerous work, men."</p> + +<p>"Well, sir, I believe you're about right," said Tyrrell soberly. "Maybe +I've been rash in things I've said."</p> + +<p>"As most men are who attempt to get to the bottom of these questions. +It is like a bather who cannot swim, getting out of his depth in the +sea. We are mere children, looking upon the outside crust of God's +great universe. But mystery lies beyond wherever we turn, and deep +as men fancy themselves able to dig, they still only end in mystery. +As for saying we won't believe God's truths, just because we cannot +understand them, that is simply and childishly absurd."</p> + +<p>"But a great many deep thinkers do doubt," said Mona involuntarily.</p> + +<p>"And a much greater number of shallow ones. The truth is, all these +questionings are just going off from the simplicity of the Word. God's +linked commands and promises are very easy to understand. 'Believe, +and thou shalt be saved.' 'Ask, and ye shall receive.' It is perfectly +true that you cannot act, or will to act, without grace from above. +Nevertheless 'act'—don't lie helplessly on the ground—only act, ask, +believe, and safety is yours."</p> + +<p>"'Tis hard to have to make up one's mind one can't understand things," +said Nat.</p> + +<p>"May be so—to the 'pride of human intellect,' of which we hear so much +in the present day. But the greatest minds are those which bow most +meekly before the Word of God, and feel most deeply their own utter +littleness. There is nothing for these matters but simple trust."</p> + +<p>"Then you'd just have us shut our eyes to such difficulties in the +Bible, sir," said Nat.</p> + +<p>"No, certainly not. I would have you neither shut your eyes to them, +nor shuffle over them in alarm, nor believe one side to the exclusion +of the other, nor stake your faith upon the power of man to reconcile +them. Don't be afraid to look the matter in the face, and to confess +frankly that there are many things which you can't understand, and +never will understand in this life. Only make a firm stand upon the +justice, and holiness, and love of God, take each revealed truth as God +has given it to you, let it lie alone where God has placed it; and be +content to believe where you cannot see, waiting till fuller sight is +given to you. For a time will come—and to all of us I trust—when our +training as children will be over, and these perplexities shall pass +away, like mist on the mountain-side, in the glorious light of our +Saviour's unveiled presence."</p> + +<p>Then after a short grave silence, Mr. Prior said cheerfully—</p> + +<p>"And now, Tyrrell, I am ready to give you all the information in my +power, about the cottage I have seen."</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image041" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image041.jpg" alt="image041"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image042" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image042.jpg" alt="image042"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_17">CHAPTER XVII.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>A FOG.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>UP on the top of the Dingle.</p> + +<p>One after another arrived there, panting more or less with the +scramble. It was a disappointment that the sun had vanished, and thick +mists were gathering over the landscape. The children did not so much +care about the lost scenery, but Madge regretted that Mona could not +see her favourite view in all its beauty.</p> + +<p>"Never mind, Madge. I'll come again some day, and mean time, I must +take your word for granted," Mona said, as she sat breathlessly on +a green bank. She had declined to drive up, partly from pity for +the pony, partly from catching a momentary infection of the general +enthusiasm, and she was one of the first to reach the top. Her white +lips now made Madge uneasy.</p> + +<p>"You're overdone, Miss Mona, I'm afraid."</p> + +<p>"A little tired. No matter. Do you often come here, Madge?"</p> + +<p>"I used in old days, Miss Mona—when Neill was with me. He and I'd walk +it, and think nothing of the distance,—for a day's pleasuring, you +know."</p> + +<p>Mona looked into the calm face wistfully. "Madge, do you never feel +impatient now to hear from him again?"</p> + +<p>"The feeling comes,—once in a while," said Madge, plucking a small twig +of budding May. "I'll hear in right good time, Miss Mona—whether I meet +him in this life, or not till in the next."</p> + +<p>Perhaps she found it a little hard to talk about him, for she moved +away slowly, and the next instant, a rush of children claimed her +attention. Hardly ten minutes later, Mr. Prior came up.</p> + +<p>"Madge, it won't do to stay here. The fog is coming on fast."</p> + +<p>She had been so busy, as not to notice how rapidly the change in the +weather was taking place, and a passing look of consternation showed in +her face, when she took a glance round.</p> + +<p>"There's nothing for it but to be off as sharp as possible, sir," she +said. "I never know a fog come on so quick after so bright a day."</p> + +<p>"It will be on us completely soon. Call the children, Madge, and keep +them together. We must get out of the Dingle at once."</p> + +<p>A scramble down that rough pathway in a dense fog would be no trifle, +with so many little ones in the party, and more especially for the pony +and chaise. Tyrrell and Blayney, remarking on the latter point, advised +that Mr. Prior should descend to the "Basin" immediately, taking down +as many of the party as were already at hand. Mr. Prior would trust no +one but himself at the pony's head.</p> + +<p>The fog thickened rapidly during even that brief discussion, and +wreaths of white smoke-like mist came rolling and curling around them, +pouring up from the low country round the Dingle. Most of the children, +being happily near at hand, were despatched at once to scramble after +the sure-footed little pony, under the guardianship of Ned Blayney and +his mother. Three only were missing, besides Mona, whom nobody had seen +since the few words exchanged between herself and Madge. The party had +scattered so widely over the hill, however, at the first moment of +arrival, that it was not surprising that all did not at once respond +to the call, and the two Tyrrells, with Miss Prior and Madge, remained +behind to hunt up the missing individuals.</p> + +<p>With the help of a little shouting, the children were speedily found, +rather in a state of alarm at having missed their companions in the +fog. They were at once sent after the rest down the hill under charge +of Mrs. Tyrrell. Mona, however, was not with them. Nobody seemed to +know anything about her, and very bitterly poor Madge blamed herself +for not having paid more regard to her.</p> + +<p>"Nonsense, Madge; it was the most natural thing in the world," Miss +Prior said kindly. "We shall come upon her directly."</p> + +<p>But as the minutes passed, and the fog grew more dense, and they still +sought and called, and called and sought in vain, the matter began to +look more serious.</p> + +<p>"Where are you all?" in a shout from Mr. Prior, was a welcome sound to +the searchers. They gathered together, unable to see each other's faces +at a few yards' distance.</p> + +<p>"Not found yet?" he asked. "This is extraordinary!"</p> + +<p>"I can't imagine where the poor child can have wandered," said Miss +Prior. "If she is near, she must hear us calling; and yet surely she +would not have walked far."</p> + +<p>"Tyrrell's gone down the side a good way, to look," said Madge. "But my +fear is lest she should have slipped somewhere, sir, and maybe stunned +herself."</p> + +<p>It was the fear of all of them—that or worse. Why otherwise should she +not answer?</p> + +<p>"I trust not," he said. "But she can hardly have gone far in any case. +She would never have left the hill."</p> + +<p>They separated to search again more thoroughly,—Miss Prior, as a +stranger to the ground, being left upon the summit, in case of Mona +appearing there.</p> + +<p>About ten minutes more of fruitless effort passed away. Then Madge and +Mr. Prior meeting unexpectedly, stopped to speak together, and broke +off with a simultaneous exclamation.</p> + +<p>"Madge!"</p> + +<p>"Sir!—What's that?"</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image043" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image043.jpg" alt="image043"></figure> +<p class="t4"> +<b>"She's asleep, sir," Madge said, in utter amazement.</b><br> +<b>"It's enough to give her her death of cold."</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>Six steps, and they had found her,—quietly lying on the ground, with +her eyes closed, and her hand under her cheek, and her black dress +spreading over the grass. Their first impression was that she must have +received some injury, their second, that no fall was possible in that +spot. She had chosen the softest of flat mossy ground, with not a rock +near.</p> + +<p>"She's asleep, sir," Madge said, in utter amazement. "It's enough to +give her her death of cold. Miss Mona, dear—do wake up now."</p> + +<p>"It is not natural sleep, surely," said Mr. Prior, in an uneasy tone. +"Mona, my dear child, you must not lie here."</p> + +<p>She sat up wearily, in answer to their efforts, and then leant against +Madge Hardwicke.</p> + +<p>"O do let me rest a little longer—so early—and my head aches," she +muttered drowsily.</p> + +<p>"Miss Mona, dear, you're not in bed. You're up here, on the top of the +hill; and you've got to come down the Dingle as quick as can be."</p> + +<p>Mona opened her eyes more fully, and gazed round in bewilderment. "The +Dingle!" she said.</p> + +<p>"Don't you know where you are?" asked Mr. Prior.</p> + +<p>"It's the fog confuses her," said Madge. "Isn't it, Miss Mona? You +didn't think you'd wake up, and find the Dingle all misty, like this, +did you?"</p> + +<p>"Oh—fog—I see," said Mona, in a more natural voice. "How stupid of me! +I thought I must be going blind at the first moment. What makes it so +foggy?"</p> + +<p>"It comes on sometimes like that," said Madge. "Do you feel better now, +Miss Mona? Can you walk down the hill?"</p> + +<p>"Why, I must have been asleep," said Mona, standing up. "How could I be +so absurd! Why, Madge—"</p> + +<p>"What made you go to sleep, Mona?" asked Mr. Prior, making her lean +upon him, as they moved towards the path, while Madge went to relieve +the minds of the other searchers.</p> + +<p>"I don't know," said Mona, looking ashamed. "I think I felt dull and +giddy, so I just lay down for a minute on the grass, to see if it would +do me good. And the next thing I remember is, that I fancied I was +being called in the morning to get up."</p> + +<p>"You had a sound sleep at all events. Not a very safe sort of a couch +to choose, though."</p> + +<p>"No; it was stupid of me," said Mona languidly, for the exertion of +walking was bringing back the feeling of sick giddiness which had +assailed her before.</p> + +<p>She had not much to say to Miss Prior, who came up the next instant, +full of relief and curiosity, and rather disposed to scold playfully, +till Mona's white lips stopped her.</p> + +<p>"I'm afraid your grassy siesta hasn't been a very refreshing one," she +said. "Poor child! It's of no use for you to try to walk fast. I'll go +on, and tell them all that you are found, and get the children packed +into the break. We had better be off as quickly as possible now. What a +fog it is, to be sure!"</p> + +<p>"It seems an unfortunate sort of ending to your bright day, Madge," +said Mr. Prior.</p> + +<p>"I wouldn't mind anything else, if Miss Mona was well," said Madge.</p> + +<p>But Mona looked up with a smile and said, "O, I shall be all right, +Madge—only sleep made me feel heavy. I have had a headache for two or +three days past. The scrambling brought it on worse, I suppose,—but it +isn't anything to signify."</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image044" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image044.jpg" alt="image044"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image045" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image045.jpg" alt="image045"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_18">CHAPTER XVIII.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>THE DRIVE HOME.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>THEY found that Mrs. Prior had been moved into the back seat of the +chaise, where she sat with Miss Prior and Georgie, leaving the front +for Mona.</p> + +<p>"What, is she to be under my charge?" asked Mr. Prior. "Not quite fit +for a turn at the reins to-day, I think, Mona."</p> + +<p>"I should be sorry to drive in this fog," said Mona, as she took her +seat. "And I wish Mrs. Prior had not moved on my account."</p> + +<p>"Better, Mona?" asked Miss Prior from behind. "Come, you must wrap up +well, or we shall have you taking cold. Here is another shawl."</p> + +<p>She looked so much more comfortable, leaning back in the easy front +seat, that Madge went off to the break in a tolerably satisfied frame +of mind,—far better satisfied than Mr. Prior, who had a certain secret +source of disquietude, about which Madge was ignorant. He allowed +nothing of his disquietude to appear, however.</p> + +<p>Driving through the dense fog was no easy matter. They were in danger +now and then of running up a bank, or down into a ditch. The break was +at first near ahead, and the children's voices floated back merrily, +but the sounds grew gradually fainter as the distance widened, till +at length they died away. And presently, a white light began to shine +through the fog, and the dense curtain changed again into masses of +curling rolls and waves.</p> + +<p>"It will clear off now," said Mr. Prior. "Ha! That was quite a +sunlight-gleam."</p> + +<p>"It was curious your saying something about mists to the men," observed +Mona.</p> + +<p>"Did I? Yes, I remember. The Dingle valley is famous for them, which +may have suggested the idea to me,—not that I expected to find myself +in the midst of one so soon."</p> + +<p>"It seems getting clearer now," said Mona.</p> + +<p>"There is sunshine coming before long." And then with a half-smile +he added, "There are other mists also, Mona, which the sun alone can +disperse, and that another and a more radiant Sun than this of ours."</p> + +<p>Conversation on different matters followed, and as the afternoon grew +fairer, the drive home proved a more pleasant one than they had looked +for. Mona was the silent individual of the party, but the others +supposed her grave looks to arise from fatigue, and did not disturb +her. They were not far from Alyn, and the occupants of the back seat +were busily talking together, when Mr. Prior, after seeming for a while +as thoughtful as Mona herself, remarked,—</p> + +<p>"I am afraid your day has not been a very agreeable one after all."</p> + +<p>"O yes, indeed it has," said Mona, starting. "At least, I am very glad +I went, and heard your talk with the men."</p> + +<p>"What conclusion have you come to in the matter?"</p> + +<p>"I think—I have been—very foolish lately," she said, with some effort.</p> + +<p>"'Thou knowest my foolishness,'" was the answer to this.</p> + +<p>"Only it is hard not to be troubled by these questions sometimes."</p> + +<p>"'Neither do I exercise myself in great matters, or in things too high +for me.' David was a wise man."</p> + +<p>"But, Mr. Prior—"</p> + +<p>And then a pause.</p> + +<p>"Well?" said Mr. Prior, as they passed under a low-bending larch, the +boughs of which swept close over their heads.</p> + +<p>"It seems as if one never got to the end of puzzles."</p> + +<p>"You never will in this life. As I told you this afternoon,—go where +you will, you still only end in mystery. It cannot be otherwise, with +our present powers."</p> + +<p>"But, Mr. Prior—"</p> + +<p>"What is the difficulty now?" he asked.</p> + +<p>"The heathen—" she said slowly. "What of them?"</p> + +<p>"As the Lord wills," he answered gravely.</p> + +<p>"But—doesn't it seem strange that there should be all those millions, +who never had the choice given them of believing or not believing?"</p> + +<p>"You remind me of a story I once heard. A man was cavilling at the +text,—'Jacob have I loved, but Esau have I hated.' Why was it? What +reason had God for doing so? 'I can tell you,' said his friend. 'Can +you? Why?' '"Because He chose,"' was the answer. That is answer enough +for you and me. Whatever He wills, from first to last, is righteous and +holy and good."</p> + +<p>"Yes,—I see—I know—I don't want to cavil," she said hurriedly. "But do +you think—must they all perish?"</p> + +<p>"I can tell you no more than the Bible tells me. For your comfort +remember,—'He that knew not and did commit things worthy of stripes, +shall be beaten with few stripes.'"</p> + +<p>Mona was silent.</p> + +<p>"You had better study the early part of the second of Romans, with +reference to this subject,—not forgetting that the Gentiles were +the heathen of St. Paul's day. You will find there mention of 'the +righteous judgment of God, WHO WILL RENDER TO EVERY MAN ACCORDING TO +HIS DEEDS,'—whether Jew or Gentile—'indignation and wrath, tribulation +and anguish, upon every soul of man that doeth evil,' but 'glory, +honour, and peace to every man that worketh good.' In Revelation, we +find again that the dead are to be 'judged, every man "according to +their works."' Natural justice itself asks no more than this which +God's Word declares."</p> + +<p>"Mr. Prior, the heathen don't know God's will. They can't."</p> + +<p>"Then, disobeying unknowingly, they will have the punishment of 'few +stripes.' Remember too,—'These, having not the law, are a law unto +themselves; which shew the work of the law written in their hearts, +their conscience also bearing witness, and their thoughts the mean +while accusing or else excusing one another.' Has a heathen no sense of +doing right or doing wrong? Whatever perplexes you in this matter, you +may always come back restfully to the plain and simple justice of the +promise, that God 'will render to every man according to his deeds.'"</p> + +<p>For some minutes, Mona thought over his words.</p> + +<p>"But there is no other way to heaven," she said, as if carrying on a +train of ideas. "I mean—except Christ."</p> + +<p>"No other. Whether Jew or Gentile—whether babe or man—whether under law +or under Gospel—none find acceptance with God save through the Son."</p> + +<p>"Then how—then why—But I cannot understand," she said.</p> + +<p>"There is no need that you should. 'The secret things belong unto the +Lord our God,' and we cannot meddle in them without suffering hurt. +This is a question about which very little has been told us. A man once +went to Archbishop Whately, with his head full of some such perplexity, +anxious to get the opinion of so learned a man. Whately sent him to +find his answer in our Saviour's words,—'What is that to thee? Follow +thou Me!'"</p> + +<p>"Is it wrong to wish to know more?" asked Mona.</p> + +<p>"Don't give the reins to your wish. A child cannot understand all his +father's actions or motives for action, and strong curiosity may become +an impertinence on his part."</p> + +<p>Then, after a break,—</p> + +<p>"There is a more practical light in which to view this matter. The +command has been given,—'Go ye into all the world, and preach the +Gospel to every creature.' The real question is not, as men put it, Why +doesn't God Christianise the heathen? But,—Why don't 'we' do all in our +power to call lost souls into the flock of God?"</p> + +<p>Through the last wreaths of fading mist, he pointed to a field by the +road-side.</p> + +<p>"Look there, Mona. God has given into our hands the task of seed-sowing +in the material world, and He has given it into our hands in the +spiritual world also. Every blade of wheat springs up just as He has +fore-ordained that it should. But none the less certainly, in a field +amply sown, you may fairly reckon upon a more or less ample harvest; +while in a field scantily sown, a miracle alone could bring forth more +than a scanty harvest."</p> + +<p>"No,—I understand that," she said.</p> + +<p>"Paul planted, Apollos watered, God gave the increase. If Paul had not +planted, nor Apollos watered, God would not have given the increase. +Take a lesson from that field. You have precisely the same right to +cavil at the dealings of God, in not converting the heathen nations as +a body, as every farmer in the land has to cavil at the dealings of God +in not bringing up a miraculous harvest of wheat, without requiring him +first to sow the seed."</p> + +<p>He let her have a minute to think it over, and then said gently, "Are +you doing your utmost to save poor lost souls for whom the Saviour +died?"</p> + +<p>She shook her head. "What, Mona! When He has given His precious life +for you, and suffered untold agony, to save men from eternal death, +you will not even give your time to telling others of the price He +paid! You are content to sit with folded hands, calmly criticising your +Maker's will, in not saving you further trouble by a miracle, which in +His wisdom He does not see fit to work."</p> + +<p>He had said enough now, and he knew it, though her downcast face was +turned away.</p> + +<p>She answered presently in a stifled voice, "Thank you, Mr. Prior."</p> + +<p>"And as for these questionings," he said quietly—"'What I do thou +knowest not now, but thou shalt know hereafter,' 'Ye shall know that +I have not done without cause all that I have done in it, saith +the Lord God.' Put your trust in such promises, and rest upon the +loving-kindness of the Lord. It is only for a little while,—only a +little longer of child-like faith without sight,—and then all mist and +darkness shall pass away for ever."</p> + +<p>A few minutes later, they were passing up the hill, and stopped short +at the garden-gate of the doctor's house.</p> + +<p>"Better now?" Mr. Prior asked, as he handed her out. "You would not +like my sister to go in, and see after you?"</p> + +<p>"O no, thank you. There is the housekeeper, if I need anything, and +uncle Chetwynd will be back directly," said Mona. "I shall try to get a +good night's rest. That is what I want."</p> + +<p>"So I hope,"—though he did not like the look of her flushed cheeks. +"You are going to be a good child, and not lie awake, troubling your +head with these matters any more."</p> + +<p>"I'll try not," she said rather faintly, as she went up the garden-path +beside him. "Only—I have been so wrong—"</p> + +<p>"Just the mistake of a little child, trying to pry into matters +beyond his understanding. Don't do it any more. The Master knows your +weakness, and He is 'very pitiful, and of tender mercy.' Put yourself +back at His feet, dear child, and don't let these things stand again in +the way of your peace."</p> + +<p>"Thank you; good-bye."</p> + +<p>She could not have said more without bursting into tears, and hastened +away as she spoke.</p> + +<p>Mr. Prior only lingered to inquire, "Is Mr. Chetwynd at home?"</p> + +<p>"No, sir."</p> + +<p>"Do you know when he will return?"</p> + +<p>"He didn't say particular, sir, as to the hour. He said he'd maybe look +in upon the Rectory, and see if you was all back, and that might make +him later."</p> + +<p>Mr. Prior went thoughtfully down the garden-path. "If I can catch +Chetwynd, I shall give him a warning," he said, as he resumed the +reins. "Mona is very far from well."</p> + +<p>"Just a headache from the sun," said Miss Prior. "And I should not +wonder if lying on the grass in that fashion were to give her a chill."</p> + +<p>"I shall be glad if things are no worse. I find she has been visiting +in Wall's Alley, where there have been six cases of fever lately,—has +seen a child sickening for it."</p> + +<p>"You don't say so! Did she not know of the fever there?"</p> + +<p>"I believe Mr. Chetwynd has a theory that girls are apt to catch fever +through sheer nervousness, and therefore it is best to keep them in +ignorance of particular cases. I hope this may prove to be nothing—but—"</p> + +<p>They all felt that it was indeed a "but."</p> + +<p>Mona, meanwhile, had gone up to her own room, merely telling the +servant, as she passed, that she was tired and meant to go to bed, and +would ring if she wanted anything. But the first thing she did when +there was to take off hat and jacket, and throw herself down on her +knees beside the bed. Too sick and weary for the exertion of steady +thought, she did not so much pray in words, as feel herself only so +utterly self-abased and worthless, that no other attitude seemed +endurable. And though no connected petitions were on her lips or in +her mind, yet the mere act of casting herself there in helpless lowly +dependence upon her Lord, was in itself the very essence of prayer.</p> + +<p>But an hour later, when Mr. Chetwynd came home, she had not risen. He +had been made anxious by a word of warning from Mr. Prior, and came to +the door to inquire if she were ill. All his tapping failed to obtain +an answer.</p> + +<p>She heard him dimly indeed, as she would have heard some far distant +sound, but the power to reply seemed to have forsaken her.</p> + +<p>He came in at length, and lifted her up, and laid her on the bed, with +his hand pressing her burning forehead.</p> + +<p>And then she knew he was asking a question—something—what was it?</p> + +<p>"I can't talk, my head aches so," she tried to say. But other words +than the ones she wanted came to her lips, and she knew by his face of +concern that she was speaking utter nonsense. "I don't know what I am +talking about! What makes me feel so strange?" she strove to ask.</p> + +<p>"Hush, hush, darling; don't say that! Don't you know me, Mona?"</p> + +<p>She was aware again that she had not said what she wished. And when she +would fain have answered, "Uncle Chetwynd," the only words she could +speak were, "Mother! I do so want mother's sweet cool hand."</p> + +<p>"Hartly shall come and put you to bed," said Mr. Chetwynd, and Mona +acquiesced.</p> + +<p>But when the undressing was done, and he stood again by her side, she +murmured confusedly—</p> + +<p>"I haven't said my prayers."</p> + +<p>"Poor child! Yes; you were kneeling down when I came in."</p> + +<p>"I couldn't pray. Will He mind? He knows all. Won't He forgive me?"</p> + +<p>What could Mr. Chetwynd say? This was no time for sneer or scorn. She +turned her shining restless eyes full upon him.</p> + +<p>"No, you don't believe it; you don't know. Oh, it has been dreadful. +But He is tender and pitiful—tender and pitiful. Mother, say me the +rest?"</p> + +<p>What would not Mr. Chetwynd have given at that moment for power to +repeat the whole verse, whatever it might be!</p> + +<p>"I want to hear it all. I think I have forgotten it lately. Prying into +matters too hard for me. But Jesus knows my foolishness, doesn't He?—So +foolish and ignorant. He is tender and pitiful. Don't you think He will +forgive me, though I could not ask Him rightly?"</p> + +<p>And Mr. Chetwynd started at the sound of his own voice, saying +steadily, "Yes, I am sure of it, Mona."</p> + +<p>But what if he had spoken a truer word then than for many a year past?</p> + +<p>All through the long hours of the night he watched by the side of the +fever-stricken girl. The look of deep care which came and settled down +upon his face, was the same as that with which he had summoned Madge +Hardwicke on the morning of the fatal railway accident.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image046" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image046.jpg" alt="image046"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image047" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image047.jpg" alt="image047"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_19">CHAPTER XIX.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>A BLOW.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"FATHER, it's been just the nicest day I ever had in all my life," +cried little Nannie eagerly, as she rushed into the cottage; and it +was a rare thing for Nannie to have spirits to rush anywhere. "Such +games down in the Dingle, all of us together, and—oh! father, only +think—there was Mr. Prior and all of 'em in the carriage, with a real +great hamper of things for all of us to eat. And we had such fun on the +grass. O father, it's been just beautiful."</p> + +<p>"Nasty foggy sort o' day," growled Amos.</p> + +<p>"Ah, but the fog didn't last long, did it, father? I think 'twas all +the more fun driving home, when we couldn't see our way. And d'you know +they lost the pretty young lady for ever so long, and found her asleep +on the grass, 'cause Madge told me."</p> + +<p>"Yer can hold yer clack," said Amos ungraciously, not being of a +sympathising turn of mind. He did not like to think of the provisions +which she had had, and he had missed.</p> + +<p>"And the parson made me a beautiful basket out of the peel of my +orange," pursued Nannie, too happy to repress her delight at a moment's +notice.</p> + +<p>"Didn't cost him nothin'," said Amos.</p> + +<p>"Ah! But he's as kind—as kind—" repeated Nannie. "And the lady that's +come to the Rectory played some games with us, and then we all went up +the Dingle."</p> + +<p>A grunt was the response. Nannie's excitement was fast cooling. She +gave one little patient sigh, as she lighted the tallow dip in the +disjointed tin candlestick, thereby revealing a small sombre room of +generally musty scent and comfortless aspect. Amos had chosen to close +the rickety shutter before her arrival, thus cutting off the last +remains of twilight. What a contrast to the Dingle, with its green +carpet spreading out in the sunshine.</p> + +<p>Nannie felt sobered all at once—hardly knowing why. She talked no more +of the day's pleasure, but quietly took out her Testament, and began to +learn her next Sunday-school lesson—a text and part of a hymn printed +upon a small leaflet. But Amos interposed.</p> + +<p>"I say—"</p> + +<p>"Yes, father."</p> + +<p>"Yer can stop that now."</p> + +<p>"I'm only learning for Sunday-school," said Nannie timidly.</p> + +<p>"I ain't ageing to have ye wastin' candles over that sort o' work. Get +away to bed."</p> + +<p>Nannie knew that remonstrance would be useless. She closed her +Testament, and put it away quietly. And then, by a sudden impulse, she +crept close up to his side. Such an unattractive repellent old man—the +marvel was that she cared for him at all. And yet she loved him.</p> + +<p>"Father—" she said.</p> + +<p>"Tell ye, yer can get to bed," said Amos, jerking his thumb in the +direction of Nannie's sleeping apartment.</p> + +<p>"Mayn't I say one thing first?" asked Nannie, with a little heart which +fluttered and yet was brave.</p> + +<p>"Don't care!" said Amos surlily.</p> + +<p>"Father, I ain't sure as you'll like it," said Nannie. "But I've +been thinking ever so about you to-day,—and I've prayed you may +love God,—but I'm so feared every morning that maybe it's the +Resurrection-Day, and if you don't make haste, you won't be in time. +I'd want the Day to come, but for that. O father—please!"</p> + +<p>The little upturned face was touching in its humility. She had no +thought of setting him right, or of interfering in matters which did +not concern her. It was only that she was so anxious and frightened for +him, that she could not help trying a few beseeching words.</p> + +<p>But Amos Ackman was not in a state of mind to bear them patiently. +Nannie received no answer in speech. His right arm and leg were thrust +out sharply at the same moment, towards the slight figure of the little +girl beside him. Not that he meant to hurt her. It was just a momentary +outbreak of his crusty vicious temper. The candle was struck down and +extinguished, and Nannie was flung away—somewhere—he did not know +where, only he heard the sound of her heavy fall.</p> + +<p>A fall, and then silence. Not a moan or a murmur broke in upon that +stillness. A pin-fall would have sounded distinctly through the room. +How dark it was! Only a glimmer of departing twilight crept in through +the loosely-shuttered window. Amos did so wish he had not put up the +shutter that evening. But he did not dare to go and remove it. He did +not dare to lift a finger. He did not dare to leave his seat, for if he +moved, he must needs go and see after little Nannie.</p> + +<p>And the thought of that was dreadful to him. Amos Ackman was a +coward at heart. He remembered the words Madge Hardwicke had once +uttered,—"Thank God He's kept you from being a downright murderer."</p> + +<p>Was he a murderer now? Nannie was lying somewhere on the floor in that +small room—lying dead! Amos felt quite sure on that point. He had no +doubt at all about the matter. The force of his own blow, as it had +come back to his ears, and the sound of her heavy helpless fall, and +the silence following, all told the same tale. Nannie was surely dead.</p> + +<p>And he was her murderer! It was her own father's arm which had struck +the brutal coward-blow. Her own father, whom little Nannie had always +loved so well. What a gentle little girl she had been to him for years +past, and especially of late! She had borne his rough usage with such +patience and fortitude, clinging to him so tenderly through all. How +bitterly he had seen her cry over his harsh treatment of her, and yet +how ready she had been in the very midst of her tears to run and do his +bidding.</p> + +<p>And "his" arm had struck the blow. It came over him all at once, what +a strange and terrible sight that little room would present to any one +looking in. He pictured it to himself vividly, as he sat staring into +the darkness, with drops coming thickly out upon his clammy face. The +broken wooden dresser on one side, with two mugs and three cracked blue +plates upon it. And the rickety round table in the middle. And the +two chairs, one having lost a leg, and the other having lost half its +back. And the old battered saucepan hanging up upon the wall, and the +blackened pipe upon the narrow mantel-shelf, and the dirty stew pan +lying down below in the fender among the cold embers. And the figure +of the wretched bent old man, cowering and shaking on his three-legged +stool. And the lifeless form of the little child, lying upon the floor.</p> + +<p>Amos saw it all in his mind, and he was glad that he had put up the +shutter after all. There was a sort of shelter in the darkness. He +felt that nobody could possibly look in and see what had taken place. +By-and-by, as daylight dawned, people would come and find out all, +and Amos would be dragged away to prison, and had up before the +magistrates, and then—why, then, if they did not contrive to bring him +in as insane, which Amos felt quite sure was not the truth, he knew +the alternative. It was very dreadful to think of all these things as +coming upon him, but still now—just now—he felt relieved to know that +nobody could look in through the darkness.</p> + +<p>Nobody! What of ONE.</p> + +<p>Amos started and shuddered. For happening to glance up, his eye was +caught by the steady shining of one brilliant star—a planet rather, but +it was all the same to Amos—the beams of which came through a hole in +the closed shutter, straight to where he sat.</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "The eyes of the Lord are in every place beholding the evil and the +good."<br> +<br> + "The darkness hideth not from Thee, but the night shineth as the day; +the darkness and the light are both alike to Thee."<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>Where had he heard those fearful words? What was there in the shining +of that star to bring them to his mind? Were those the verses little +Nannie had been conning over so busily in her low clear tones the +previous Sunday evening? He had listened a minute or two, and then had +struck her book angrily out of her hand, and sent her off supperless +to bed. He had little thought those words would ever come back to +him—words he had learnt at his own mother's knee in early boyhood, and +had long since forgotten. And here they were in strong living power +ringing in his ears.</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "The eyes of the Lord are in every place."<br> +<br> + "The darkness and the light are both alike to Thee!"<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>Then His Eyes were there, beholding the little room and all it +contained. Darkness could make no difference. Darkness was clear as +noonday to those all-seeing Eyes.</p> + +<p>Amos could not stand the radiance of that star. He pushed his stool a +little on one side, so that he was not able to see it. But he wanted to +know soon if it were still there, so he pushed his stool back again. +And next he wanted to know if the star were shining on the spot where +Nannie lay. He half rose from his seat to go and see, and then he was +afraid, and sat down again.</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "The wicked flee when no man pursueth, but the righteous are bold as +a lion."<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>What had brought "that" into his head now? He did not remember hearing +Nannie say it. Possibly he had, however, and that was how it had come +back to him. It was too bad. Amos hated having those texts ringing +in his cars. He would take care Nannie should go no more to the +Sunday-school, and then she would not pester him with them. No, nor to +Madge Hardwicke's either. Nannie should stay at home and be busy. He +would have no more nonsense.</p> + +<p>Nannie stay at home! Nannie not go to the Sunday-school! Why, he had +forgotten! What could he be thinking about? If Nannie were dead, what +had she to do any more with Sunday-school or Madge?</p> + +<p>Amos groaned, and let his face drop down in his bony hands. He had +nobody to help him. He thought how Madge Hardwicke would pray if she +were in trouble, but he knew nothing of prayer. He had scorned all +notion of religion. Prayer was a foreign language to him altogether. +Nobody to help him now. Nobody to love him ever again. Nat Tyrrell +would never speak to him after this, and Nat Tyrrell was his only +friend. He had dashed aside the love of the one frail little creature, +who had held to him so steadfastly. And now—nothing was left to him.</p> + +<p>"Father!"</p> + +<p>A cold touch came upon his hand in the dark. Amos started back +violently in his fear. The old ignorant superstitious man did not think +it was Nannie herself come to see him, in the poor little body which he +had used so badly, but something of a spirit form—something dreadful, +unnatural, terrible. He was ready to believe anything that night.</p> + +<p>It was Nannie's own little voice, however, which said again—</p> + +<p>"Father." And then, as she felt how he shook and trembled before her, +she added, "What's the matter, father?"</p> + +<p>"'Taint Nannie, sure," said Amos hoarsely. "I—I wish yer 'd get along."</p> + +<p>"Why, father, don't you know me?" asked Nannie. "I couldn't think what +you was after, when I got up, and saw you sitting there."</p> + +<p>For early dawn was stealing in through the closed shutters, and the +long night-hours had passed away somehow. Amos did not know how. He +never would know. He might have lived through ten years, or only ten +minutes, since the evening before. It was all the same to him. He could +have believed either assertion.</p> + +<p>Nannie went and opened the closed shutters with her little feeble +hands, which had not much of even their usual strength in them this +morning. Then she came back again, and for the first time he ventured +to look at her.</p> + +<p>"I'd been thinkin' I'd killed you outright, Nan," he muttered. "I ain't +agoin' to knock you down again, though,—and I didn't mean to then, +neither."</p> + +<p>"Won't you do it, father, even if I speak to you about the Lord Jesus +once in awhile?" asked little Nannie, true even in her pain and +weakness to her constant aim, as the needle to the pole.</p> + +<p>"I'll let yer say what yer likes," returned Amos. "Be you very bad, +Nan?"</p> + +<p>Nannie's white drooping face looked up with a brave smile. "I'll be +better soon, father. I'll go and lie down a bit, 'cause I'm so tired. +But we ain't going to tell nobody about to-night."</p> + +<p>"They'd have me took up an' punished, sure enough, if 'twas known," +said Amos in fear.</p> + +<p>"No, nobody ain't to know," repeated Nannie. "I think I've been +stunned, you know, but I'll be better by-and-by. And you're going to +love me now, ain't you, please?"</p> + +<p>She leant against him feebly. "I've been a bad father to yer, Nannie, I +have," he said self-reproachfully.</p> + +<p>And then, with a gentle kiss—the first she had dared to give him for +a long while past—she walked away and laid herself down on the little +palliasse which formed her bed. And Nannie probably knew scarcely +better than did Amos himself that the long unconsciousness which +followed was not sleep, but alternate fainting and stupor. Poor little +Nannie! She had no one to help her in her need, so she only lay in +patient meek endurance.</p> + +<p>Somewhere about nine o'clock Madge Hardwicke came to the door.</p> + +<p>"Amos—up, are you?" she said. "Where's Nannie?"</p> + +<p>"Asleep, an' you'd best leave her," said Amos, not caring that the two +should meet sooner than was needful.</p> + +<p>"Maybe the little lass is tired with yesterday. 'Twas something new for +her, and she don't look well neither of late. Tell her from me, will +you, Amos, that I'm called off down in the town, and maybe won't be +back a good many days."</p> + +<p>Amos concealed his satisfaction. "What's the matter? Doctor wants yer, +eh?"</p> + +<p>"Miss Clyde's down with the fever. Will you give a truthful message for +me, Amos? Tell Nannie she's to pray. Poor young lady. I doubt me but +it's a bad case, and the doctor's nigh heart-broken already."</p> + +<p>"I'll give yer message," said Amos, anxious to have her gone.</p> + +<p>And Madge withdrew, marvelling much what could have made him so unlike +himself.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image048" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image048.jpg" alt="image048"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image049" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image049.jpg" alt="image049"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_20">CHAPTER XX.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>SUNSET CLOUDS.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>A BEAM of setting sunlight came slanting through the lattice-window of +Nannie's tiny bedroom, and fell athwart her palliasse. She was lying +there as she had taken to doing lately, not undressed, but just resting +patiently, with one little thin hand folded over the other, and her +wistful eyes travelling to and fro over the bare walls and cobwebbed +ceiling. The gleam of red light brought a sudden look of pleasure into +her face.</p> + +<p>"O it's pretty. Father, ain't it pretty?"</p> + +<p>"Eh, Nan? Did yer call?" asked Amos, shuffling in hurriedly, in his +uncouth fashion.</p> + +<p>"Ain't that a pretty bit of sunlight, father?"</p> + +<p>Amos looked hard without discovering any particular beauty, but +said,—"Sure, yes, 'tis,"—in uncertain tones, wishing to humour her.</p> + +<p>"Don't it seem long since Madge went down into the town?" said Nannie +with a sigh, as a tinge of deeper crimson crept into the red.</p> + +<p>"Fortnight to-day," said Amos.</p> + +<p>"And the pretty young lady is just as ill as ever," said Nannie +sorrowfully.</p> + +<p>"Well, I don't know as she ain't better this afternoon, but Tyrrell he +telled me this mornin' that the doctors said if the fever didn't turn +soon, as how she'd die."</p> + +<p>"Madge said I was to pray, didn't she?" said Nannie, putting the same +question which she had put twenty times before in the last fortnight.</p> + +<p>Amos nodded. He could feel no possible doubt now that he had delivered +Madge Hardwicke's message faithfully.</p> + +<p>"But maybe it 'ud be better for her, if she wasn't to get well," said +Nannie thoughtfully.</p> + +<p>Amos did not feel himself called upon to hazard an opinion in the +matter. He waited a moment, and then, finding that she did not speak +again, went back to his bench. Nannie rose, and followed him out slowly.</p> + +<p>"Eh, Nan,—so here yer are," said Amos, looking up. "Seems yer pickin' +up again."</p> + +<p>Nannie smiled thought she did not acquiesce in words. "Will you have me +read to you, father?"</p> + +<p>Amos could not refuse. She had fallen into the habit of reading a +chapter aloud to him, morning and evening, and though he never troubled +himself to listen particularly, he rather liked the sound of her voice. +It gave him a lulled sensation which was akin to repose, and therefore +agreeable.</p> + +<p>So the little brown Testament came out, and Nannie read on for a while, +in her soft monotonous tones.</p> + +<p>Amos worked steadily, and heard in a certain fashion, without paying +any close attention. When there came a pause, he looked up, and said,—</p> + +<p>"Yer a clever Nan to read so pretty,—that's what yer be."</p> + +<p>"Father, ain't the words beautiful?" said Nannie wistfully.</p> + +<p>"Sure, yes," said Amos rather uneasily, for he had not the remotest +idea what they had been about.</p> + +<p>"O father, I wish you cared," said Nannie sadly. "It don't seem to be +nothing to you. And I'd sooner have you love God, than anything else in +all the world."</p> + +<p>The red gleams of sunlight faded away, as the sun dipped down behind +the horizon-line of the clear blue water,—not behind West Point at this +time of the year. The dark headland shone like burnished armour in the +yellow glow, till the evening shade crept over its brightness, and left +it gray and cold again. But the clouds were torn about in fantastic +shapes of wildest beauty; and every pyramid, peak, and mountain, up in +that watery land, was tinged or deeply dyed with crimson and purple +and gold. The very air seemed filled with a rich pervading red, and +Nannie's little white cheeks looked almost healthy for once, as she sat +there, with her eyes fixed on the wondrous view before her.</p> + +<p>"Father," she said suddenly,—"don't you think it'll be like that when +He comes?"</p> + +<p>"Eh?" said Amos, looking down at Nannie.</p> + +<p>"He'll come in the clouds of heaven, you know," said Nannie softly. +"The Lord Jesus, father. He'll come riding in the clouds, with +thousands and thousands all in shining white coming after Him. O +father, I'd like so to hear the trumpet, and to see Him,—if only I just +knowed you'd be caught up with me to meet Him."</p> + +<p>"Caught up?" said Ackman. She was talking a foreign language to poor +old Amos.</p> + +<p>"Up in the air," said Nannie, her face shining as if it had caught a +reflection of the western sky. "All that's loved Him, you know, father. +He'll call up first them that's died, out of their graves, and then +all of us that's alive—we'll go up, up, through the air to meet Him. +And He'll make us beautiful like He is,—all in one moment. And oh, +father,—think how He'll smile!"</p> + +<p>"Don't know," said Amos slowly, looking subdued. "Seems to me He +wouldn't do aught but frown on me, Nan, for nigh a-murderin' of you."</p> + +<p>"O father! But He's died for you too, and He loves you," said little +Nannie confidently. "And He'll put His Spirit into your heart, if you +ask Him, and then you'll be quite different."</p> + +<p>"Need be, sure enough," said Amos. "Why, Nan, I'd be awful feared to +see all you're a-telling me of." Something in the child's earnest face +and manner brought it home to the old man's heart, as it had never come +home before. His bony hands shook nervously, and his deep-set eyes +peered up at the clouds, as if he almost expected there and then to see +an avenging angel's sword flash forth through the radiant air.</p> + +<p>"Maybe now, father, 'cause you don't know the Lord Jesus," said Nannie +gently. "I'd a deal of fear once too. I used to think dying in a bed +all quiet wouldn't be half so bad. It seemed to me as if the great +trumpet 'ud sound so awful—and then the bright light, and the ground +shaking, and Him coming in such glory, with the clouds and the angels, +and all the white shining and dazzling,—I was ever so feared to think +of it all."</p> + +<p>"When you was naughty?" demanded Amos, with a glance towards his own +troubled conscience.</p> + +<p>"Why—yes, father; and pretty near always that was too. It used to +seem to me as if I was so small and poor, that maybe among such a +lot as He'd have to catch up into glory, I'd just be forgotten and +left behind. But I know a deal better now. The Lord Jesus forget! +Why, father," and Nannie smiled a bright, almost amused smile,—"why, +father, 'twas the strangest thought ever anybody had, to think He could +'forget,' after dying for me."</p> + +<p>Amos looked at her in wonder. How came this little child to know so +much, when he, an old man of many long and weary years, knew so little?</p> + +<p>"And then I'll have the mark in my forehead, Madge says, for the angels +to know me," Nannie went on. "Maybe they'd know without, that the Lord +Jesus loved me, but that 'll make it all as sure as can be. And then, +you know, father, I don't see how I'll be able to be frightened, 'cause +it won't be a strange dreadful Judge coming, like He'll be to some +people, but only just my own Lord Jesus, that's loved me such a while. +I couldn't be frightened to see Him, could I? And Parson says He smiles +so on the little children. But,—oh, father, I'd be so happy if I didn't +be afraid He wouldn't be able to smile on you, 'cause you won't come to +Him now."</p> + +<p>And Nannie put her head down on her father's knee, and burst into +tears. Old Amos was strangely moved. He could not bear to see Nannie's +distress, and he shrank in terror from the thought of what might come +upon himself. How could he, poor miserable old man, stained darkly +through and through with the unwashed sins of over three-score years, +dare to meet the Face of Kingly glory, for which little Nannie so +eagerly waited?</p> + +<p>"I don't know nothin', Nan, but I'll do what you tells me," he said +brokenly. "Maybe your Lord Jesus wouldn't mind if I was to ask Him to +put me right somehow; only I don't know how, Nan. I be an awful wicked +old fellow, Nan."</p> + +<p>"We'll come right in, and ask Him now, father," said Nannie, rising up +and pulling at his sleeve.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image050" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image050.jpg" alt="image050"></figure> +<p class="t4"> +<b>"Father!" A cold touch came upon his hand in the dark.</b><br> +<b>Amos started back violently in his fear.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>Amos was fain to follow her, though with a half-bewildered look. He was +too stiff himself to kneel, but he let little Nannie kneel beside him, +and plead in her simple earnest language, that "God would have mercy +on poor father, and send His Holy Spirit into father's heart, and wash +away all his sins in Jesus Christ's blood." And then Nannie looked up +and whispered, "Just say after me, father,—'For Jesus Christ's sake, +Amen;' 'cause that 'll mean you really wants it ever so."</p> + +<p>"For Jesus Christ's sake, Amen," repeated Amos slowly, like one +stumbling out a few syllables in an unknown tongue. "Sure enough, an' I +do want it too. But I say, I don't feel different yet, like you said I +would be."</p> + +<p>"Ah, but it'll come," said Nannie gently. "We'll go on asking till it +does."</p> + +<p>Then Nannie kissed him, as she had often done of late, and went away to +her own room.</p> + +<p>Amos crept after her in a little while, hardly knowing why, and found +her lying there in the twilight, with her hands folded together, and +her eyes looking up to the rough rafters overhead.</p> + +<p>"What are yer a-seeing, Nan?" he asked half fearfully. Something in her +face gave him a strange feeling of uneasiness, for which he could not +account to himself.</p> + +<p>"I'm only thinkin', father, how I'd like to hear the angels' song +to-night," said Nannie, smiling.</p> + +<p>"Wish yer wouldn't talk like that," said Amos, fidgeting.</p> + +<p>"Why, father,—they're singin' about you!" said Nannie.</p> + +<p>Amos gave a startled look up and around, as if he expected to catch +an echo of the wondrous chorus. But the fretting of a bough against +the cottage-roof was the only sound which came to his ears; and rather +relieved, though disappointed, he said, "Yer a-dreaming, Nan; I don't +hear nothin'."</p> + +<p>"They're singing," said Nannie quietly; "'cause the Bible says so, +father. Leastways, it says there's joy among the angels, you know, +soon's ever anybody turns to God."</p> + +<p>Amos did not know anything about it, but he only asked, rather +fearfully, "Do you hear them, Nan?"</p> + +<p>"No, father; not yet awhile," said Nannie. "Maybe I will soon."</p> + +<p>And then she shut her eyes, and went peacefully off to sleep.</p> + +<p>But Amos stood looking at her for some minutes, thinking how changed +she had grown of late. He wished Madge Hardwicke would come home, and +tell him whether she needed anything doing to her. She seemed to have +faded into such a white frail shadow of a child these last few days. +She never complained of pain, and only lay about because she was "so +tired." But somehow, Amos could not overcome the impression that all +was not quite right with her.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image051" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image051.jpg" alt="image051"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image052" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image052.jpg" alt="image052"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_21">CHAPTER XXI.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>"O THOU OF LITTLE FAITH."</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>THROUGH fourteen weary days and nights Mona had tossed and murmured +ceaselessly, in burning fever and delirium. And then came the +longed-for sleep, quieting down the throbbing pulses, and hushing the +wearing pain. For hours she lay in that deep heaven-sent repose, while +the flush faded from her check, and the look of suffering from her brow.</p> + +<p>Just when little Nannie was enjoying the bright western colouring, and +when Madge, in her silent watch, had noticed how even the dim sick-room +was gaining a reflection of the outer glow, there came for the first +time some words in a clear and natural though feeble voice.</p> + +<p>"Madge, what makes the air so full of red?"</p> + +<p>It had been "mother" instead of Madge, during the last fortnight, and +in truth not even Mona's own mother could have nursed her with more +devoted tenderness.</p> + +<p>"It's the sunset, Miss Mona," Madge said gently, while her heart beat +fast with joyful relief.</p> + +<p>A glass of pale liquid on the table awaited this moment of first +awakening. It was given and taken, and then Mona said drowsily, "I +should like to see the shining on the water."</p> + +<p>She was asleep again before Madge needed to answer, and through the +two nights and days following, the same calm slumber lasted. They +could scarcely rouse her at intervals sufficiently to receive needful +nourishment. Fair and pale as a snow-drop she lay there, with one white +cheek resting lightly on her wasted hand. And the somewhat oppressed +and troubled look, which had been visible in her first sleep, was +exchanged now for an expression of such complete repose, that Madge +bent many a time over the bed, to listen anxiously for the calm +breathing which never failed to reassure her.</p> + +<p>Nearly forty-eight hours had elapsed since the red sunset, when Mona +showed symptoms at length of fairly waking up. Mr. Chetwynd was out, +but the ever-watchful Madge was at hand with proper nourishment, +delicately prepared and served. Mona seemed ready to take any amount, +but she obeyed when told she had had enough, and only said, "Come and +sit down beside me."</p> + +<p>"Won't you go to sleep again, Miss Mona?"</p> + +<p>"I'm not sleepy—I am wide awake. Madge, have I been very ill?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, but thank God, you're better now, Miss Mona."</p> + +<p>A sigh answered her. Madge kept silence, but Mona was evidently in a +talking mood, for she soon began again—</p> + +<p>"I can't remember things clearly. I wish I could. It seems to me as if +the last clear thing was that drive from the Dingle."</p> + +<p>"You were taken ill that very evening, Miss Mona; and Mr. Prior's been +twice a day since to ask after you, and has prayed many a time by your +bedside."</p> + +<p>"Has he? I am glad," said Mona involuntarily. "But—uncle Chetwynd—"</p> + +<p>"He never spoke a word against it, Miss Mona, though he held back from +joining."</p> + +<p>"Madge—have I talked a great deal?" asked Mona suddenly.</p> + +<p>"Pretty well, Miss Mona. But I wouldn't begin thinking and speaking +about all that now, if I was you. It's bad for your head. You'd better +rest."</p> + +<p>"No—I have had rest—I am better now. I wish you would come here and sit +close beside me. I want to tell you something."</p> + +<p>Madge changed her position at once, putting aside her work, and letting +Mona's head rest upon her arm.</p> + +<p>"Yes, that is nice. Mother used to do just so, last time I was ill. +I've seen her so often lately, Madge—not really of course, but—O +Madge—do you think—"</p> + +<p>"Yes, dear Miss Mona."</p> + +<p>"Am I wrong?" whispered Mona. "I did think I was going home to +mother—and I can't be glad now."</p> + +<p>Madge's cool fingers were passed lightly over her brow.</p> + +<p>"It's best to be willing to wait the Master's own time, Miss Mona."</p> + +<p>"I think it is hard not to wish," said Mona.</p> + +<p>"Maybe the Lord 'll have you wait, dear Miss Mona, till it's Himself +and not your mother that makes the glory and joy of your heaven."</p> + +<p>"Ah, but it is—it is that too," said Mona quickly. "Not enough, I +know—but I have learnt more of Him now than I knew before."</p> + +<p>Then, after a little break, during which Madge expected that something +else was coming—"I want to tell you a sort of dream I had."</p> + +<p>"Wouldn't it be better to wait till you're stronger, Miss Mona?"</p> + +<p>"No, I am not tired. It will do me good to talk." She spoke so quietly +and firmly, that Madge fancied it might be so indeed, and did not +oppose her.</p> + +<p>"I don't know when it was, or whether I was wandering or asleep, Madge. +I have had so many fancies and dreams that I get puzzled among them, +only this was quite different from all the rest. I thought I was out +alone in a little boat on the sea—such a wild rough sea. The great +waves were rising and falling, and flinging their spray all over me, +and breaking up against one another in the mad sort of way they do out +beyond the Point on a stormy day. It was such spray, and the mist was +so thick, that I was half-blinded, and so tired and cold and sad, that +I seemed to have no strength to row. Just as I have often felt. And all +sorts of dreadful thoughts and feelings of doubt kept rising up, and I +had no power to conquer them.</p> + +<p>"And all at once I saw a dark gloomy figure coming towards me over +across the water—softly, slowly, with such an awful stillness, and long +black robes sweeping down into the waves, which seemed to lull before +him as he came. Madge, you don't know how frightened I was. For I knew +I could not escape. I knew quite well that what I saw was the Angel of +Death, coming to take me. I had not been afraid of death in my illness +before that, but now in the midst of doubt, and thick mist, and dashing +waves, it seemed terrible. And there was the bright sword gleaming +in his hand in the moonlight, and his face was all muffled up, but I +knew how stern it must be behind. And he never moved faster, but came +slowly, slowly and steadily on, straight towards me, with the waves all +still beneath his feet, but dashing more wildly than ever round me. +Madge, do you see it all as I saw it?"</p> + +<p>"I'm thinking I do, Miss Mona."</p> + +<p>"He came closer and closer, and I knew I had no way of escape. It was +quite hopeless. And I think gave one shriek of fear, as the hem of +the dark heavy robe first touched me—so heavy and cold it felt. But +then—then—oh, Madge!"</p> + +<p>"Yes, Miss Mona, dear."</p> + +<p>"Madge, if you could have seen as I did. He threw aside slowly, +quietly, the dark cloak, and underneath was all one glory of dazzling +kingly garments. And the shining sword, as I had thought it, was only a +sceptre. And He let me see His face, which had been covered up—and oh, +Madge, it was Himself!—my Lord! And I knew then that the Death-Angel +was no stranger, but my own Master who loved me, and who had come, as +I thought, to take me home. Madge, I wish He had. I wanted so to go. +And the way He took me up in His arms, and held me, and smiled down on +me, with a smile so sweet and bright that I could scarcely face it,—I +don't know how I bore at that moment to think how I had doubted Him, +and dared to question His doings. And the next thing was that I found +myself down at His feet, clinging there, and trying to sob out a prayer +for forgiveness—"</p> + +<p>Mona was crying so that she could scarcely speak. "No, let me go on," +she said, when Madge would have interposed. "I must tell you, and it +won't hurt me. You don't know how terrible it was to me to think of the +last few months—and it seemed as if I remembered everything clearly at +that moment. And I knew He knew it too—and I dreaded even then that +His anger might be coming. But instead of anger, He only said in the +gentlest, tenderest tone of reproach—'O thou of little faith, wherefore +didst thou doubt?'"</p> + +<p>"And He does say it to each one of us," murmured Madge. "He's every bit +the same now as in Peter's days."</p> + +<p>"I knew it meant forgiveness," said Mona. "And I thought He was going +to take me up, and carry me away with Him. For the mist had cleared off +in His presence, and I could catch a glimpse of glory shining over the +mountains in the distance. And I knew that my Home lay beyond, and that +mother was there too. But He only laid His hand on my head, and said +still more sweetly—'My grace is sufficient for thee, for My strength is +made perfect in weakness.' And then when I looked up, He was gone, and +the mist had disappeared, and the water was still, so I just lay down +in my boat, and went to sleep. And the next time I woke up, I found +myself in bed, with a strange red look in the air, and you beside me. I +knew then that I was getting well. O Madge, was it all a dream, or did +I see Him really?"</p> + +<p>"'Twas a word of comfort sent to your heart, anyway, Miss Mona. I'd +take it so, and doubt no more."</p> + +<p>"And you don't think I am wrong to wish I were safe out of all the +fighting?"</p> + +<p>"Maybe a little wanting in courage, dear Miss Mona. I do think the Lord +likes us to want to be with Him, and to see His glory. But it wouldn't +do neither in a battle, if all the soldiers were crying out that they +were so tired of fighting, they wanted to go straight home and rest. +I don't know how ever the victory would be won. I think the Captain +would say—'Fight on, my lads, and conquer first, and then 'll come your +rest.' And the Master has a right to look for us to be willing and glad +to do His work, so long as He has work He wants us to do. Home 'll be +all the happier after, for the waiting."</p> + +<p>"Don't you ever feel impatient?" asked Mona.</p> + +<p>"I've three sorts of feelings about it, Miss Mona. One is, I've a wish +to stay here just as long as my Master wills I should. Another is, I've +a deal of longing to see His Face. Another is, I can't help thinking +how now's the very last time through all Eternity that I'll be able +to show Him my love, by bearing pain and trouble for His sake. There +'ll be service and praise in Heaven, but there 'll be no showing of +patience, under pain and sorrow, to honour His Name. I don't know as +I'd wish to have it over-much shortened, though I'll be right glad too, +when the day comes to go Home. But 'tis sweet to be waiting and bearing +for Him now."</p> + +<p>"I never thought of that," said Mona. "And I have borne so little for +His sake, and hardly worked for Him at all. Madge, I think you have +made me glad that He has not taken me away just yet."</p> + +<p>And Mona fell asleep again, with her head on Madge Hardwicke's arm, +and a smile upon her lips. She did not know how Madge sat there, and +prayed that she might be kept by the "Keeper of Israel" through all the +dangers and difficulties of her future Homeward journey.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image053" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image053.jpg" alt="image053"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image054" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image054.jpg" alt="image054"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_22">CHAPTER XXII.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>WARNING.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"MADGE, she is wonderfully better," said the doctor one evening, two or +three days later. He had called Madge into his study, for some purpose +unknown to herself, leaving the housekeeper in charge of Mona, and had +bidden her take a seat. There was a small fire in the grate, and the +doctor's fingers were turning up the lamp-wick.</p> + +<p>"She is getting on marvellously,—seems to have no end of capacities for +sleeping and eating. Poor little Mona! I hardly thought at one time +that we should pull her through."</p> + +<p>Madge was silent. The doctor brought his attention to bear upon her +somewhat curiously, wondering what thoughts might belying beneath those +intent gray eyes.</p> + +<p>"The fact is, your care and splendid nursing have saved her, Madge, +as they have saved many a patient of mine before to-day. But I never +thanked you so heartily as now."</p> + +<p>Silence still, and there was a troubled look on Madge Hardwicke's face.</p> + +<p>"What are you thinking about?" the doctor asked, with a puzzled air.</p> + +<p>"I'm thinking, sir, that I'd sooner you hadn't begun with all them kind +words to me," said Madge quietly, "for I'd a thing I wanted to say to +you, as wouldn't sound so kind back again."</p> + +<p>"You!" said the doctor, opening his eyes. "You're mysterious to-night. +I've a thing to say to you too. But you shall have your turn first. By +the bye, you don't mean anything about Miss Mona,—any fresh symptoms?"</p> + +<p>"No, sir. I think she is getting on as well as need be."</p> + +<p>"All right. I don't mind anything else. What is it, Madge?"</p> + +<p>Madge looked thoughtfully into the fire for a minute, during which he +watched her rather comically. There were tears shining in her eyes, +when she turned and faced him.</p> + +<p>"Sir, all through the last fortnight you and I've been many a time +together by Miss Mona's side, and heard the poor lamb's mutterings and +ravings. And though I've said no word to you, nor you to me, we both +know well what 'twas all about."</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd nodded. He had not expected this, and did not quite know +how to meet what he guessed was coming.</p> + +<p>"And you know, sir,—maybe a deal better than I do, for all she's +said,—what it was that brought her so much misery."</p> + +<p>"Poor little lassie!" he said, with would-be lightness. "Come, I +acknowledge that I have been rather reckless in my remarks before her. +Will that content you, Madge?"</p> + +<p>She passed over the last question as if it had not been spoken. +"Sir, it's a deal more than that. It's Satan's own work you've been +after,—going and putting your doubts and unbelief into the hearts of +those whom the Lord would fain have to be peaceful and happy. It's the +work of Satan that you've taken up,—and oh, sir, you'll find him one +day a hard and bitter taskmaster, letting alone the judgments of the +Lord Himself upon those who dare to meddle in His work."</p> + +<p>She spoke solemnly, yet with a strange sort of compassionate longing, +as if it were rather for his sake than for Mona's that the words were +uttered. The doctor positively could not find it in his heart to be +angry, though he told himself that he ought.</p> + +<p>"You are hard upon me, Madge," he said. "Are rational men never to +admit a doubt, where doubts exist?"</p> + +<p>"There's two sorts of doubtings, sir. I've nought of blame for them of +the Master's weaker disciples, who are tempest-tossed, and buffeted +about by Satan's temptations. I tell 'em only to fight and trust on, +and in the end He'll bring them through. But there's another sort of +doubting, that's just a cool pulling to pieces of God's Word, and +upsetting this, and denying that,—and a deal of it only from a man's +love of showing his own cleverness. The Lord has one word for all +such,—'He that believeth not God hath made Him a liar.' It's a plain +word, sir,—and it's a plain and fearful answer He'll have for all such +in time to come."</p> + +<p>"Come, come, don't be unmerciful, Madge," said the doctor, speaking +lightly still, though somewhat annoyed. "I'm not one of those folks who +would throw over the Bible by any means. Don't I go to Church every +Sunday of my life, and hear it read,—most devoutly I assure you? I look +upon it as a highly valuable and useful volume in every sense, and +couldn't do without it at all. Why, Madge, don't you know I have family +prayers?"</p> + +<p>"Yes, sir. But the Bible you couldn't do without, sir, is a piecemeal +Bible of your own, and not God's Word as He has given it to us. Like as +if I was ill, and you were to give me a prescription to make me well, +and I was to say,—'No, I'll leave out this and that, lest they're a +mistake, and have the rest made up, and take it,'—and then was to blame +you for not curing me, if I found myself dying for want of the right +treatment! It wouldn't be 'your' prescription at all that I'd followed, +if I didn't take the whole."</p> + +<p>"You're too clever a woman by half, Madge!" said the doctor.</p> + +<p>Madge always held to a straightforward course in conversation, and was +not to be turned aside. "Sir, you know well enough I'm a poor ignorant +woman, and haven't half your learning. But maybe there are things in +the hidden life, which I have learnt afore you."</p> + +<p>"Well, well, perhaps I shall learn them too some day," said the doctor, +hoping to silence her. "Come, I know what you are driving at. I'll +promise you to guard my words most carefully for the future, in Miss +Mona's presence. I see the thing won't do. Why, you might have the +common-sense to know I should do it, for the sake of her health alone. +She will be unequal to any agitation for a long while to come. Are you +satisfied now?"</p> + +<p>"No, sir."</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd looked at her in surprise. "Not! What next?"</p> + +<p>"I've no right to say more," Madge answered sorrowfully. "Save that +you're always so kind to me, I wouldn't dare to venture. But 'tis that +very kindness makes it harder to bear, to see you hanging over a great +gulf, and maybe any moment to go down—down—for ever."</p> + +<p>He positively gave a half-shiver, and then laughed. "Madge, you really +are preposterous. But don't think I'm angry. This isn't the first +attempt you have made, at converting me to your own views."</p> + +<p>"'Tis the Bible views, not mine, that I'd see you converted to, sir."</p> + +<p>"Why, Madge, haven't I just been telling you that I do read the Bible, +and value it too?"</p> + +<p>"Maybe you do, sir. I've nought to say against that. But you might go +a deal farther in the way of reading and valuing, and yet be no nearer +heaven."</p> + +<p>"Come, Madge, come,—what right have you to say I'm not so near as you +are yourself?" asked the doctor, somewhat nettled.</p> + +<p>"There's but one road to eternal life, sir," Madge answered. "It is not +reading the Bible, but believing what's written, which takes a man to +heaven."</p> + +<p>"'I' don't disbelieve the Bible, Madge," said the doctor.</p> + +<p>"You don't believe it, sir, if you please."</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd shrugged his shoulders slightly. "Go on, Madge; I see you +are determined to have your say, and I owe you too much to grumble."</p> + +<p>"Sir, I've no thought to take advantage of that, and I would grieve to +be of a meddlesome or judging spirit," said Madge gently. "But maybe +you'll let me put a question to you."</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd nodded permission, and waited.</p> + +<p>Madge did not speak in a hurry; it was not her way.</p> + +<p>"Sir, you say you believe the Bible—or leastways, you say you don't +disbelieve it, which isn't at all the same thing. But will you please +tell me, or tell yourself—it don't matter which—what 'do' you believe +in the Bible, sir?"</p> + +<p>The question came very calmly and softly. It sounded so simple that he +smiled at first and said, "To be sure I will; let me think a moment."</p> + +<p>But when he came to consider, he found the matter not quite so easy. +Those gray eyes opposite, watching and waiting, disturbed the current +of his thoughts. It was more easy to generalise than to descend to +particulars. He ran over a few ideas in his mind, but could at such +short notice discover no satisfactory answer. He had set up a very +comfortable little religion of his own, founded upon certain doctrinal +theories, most of which he vaguely believed were to be found in the +Bible. Only there were undoubtedly a good many other things to be found +there as well, which certainly would not square with the said private +theological system of his own, and which, therefore, in plain terms, he +did not believe.</p> + +<p>"It is getting late, Madge," he said, with some impatience in his tone. +"Hardly time to enter upon a discussion on that point to-night, I +think. At all events, I believe a good many things which you believe, +and possibly some which you don't. Is your conscience satisfied now?"</p> + +<p>The last words were pleasantly uttered. Madge rose obediently, but +lingered still for a moment.</p> + +<p>"It isn't to satisfy my conscience, sir, that I've spoken, but because +I couldn't hold in any longer; and I've said little now that I'd like +to say. Maybe you'll think it over, when you've spare time, and see how +the Bible is the Word of God Himself, and how, if you do believe it, +you can't go right against its plain teaching. Maybe you'll remember, +sir, that there's no middle way for any man, and a half-and-half belief +is as bad as no belief at all."</p> + +<p>"And what if I do not believe the Bible, Madge?"</p> + +<p>The question came involuntarily. He had not meant to ask it.</p> + +<p>The answer was in a tone of deep compassion.</p> + +<p>"Then, sir, there's nothing left to you—no hope, no pardon, no Saviour, +no heaven! You're just a lone and helpless soul, standing apart from +God for ever."</p> + +<p>"Madge, that same Bible tells us, 'God is love'—a God of mercy."</p> + +<p>"Ay, sir," Madge answered, "and 'our God is a consuming fire'—a God of +justice. You've got to put the two together, as Mr. Prior would tell +you. God is love, sure enough, but if His love don't come down to you +through Jesus Christ His Son, it's little you have to hope for from it. +And if you don't believe the Word of God, how are you to believe in Him +of whom the Word all through teaches us?"</p> + +<p>She had done now, and moved quietly towards the door.</p> + +<p>"Good-bye, Madge," he said, with a little nod, much in his usual +fashion. "Many thanks for your kind intentions, you know. Tell Miss +Mona I am coming in directly, to say good night."</p> + +<p>"I will, sir; and thank you for letting me speak."</p> + +<p>She disappeared with her noiseless step, and the doctor sat for a +minute with bent brows, thinking over the past half-hour. "Pshaw! What +is it to me? We all have our own opinions, and Madge has hers with a +vengeance. Common-sense enough in every-day matters, but quite a 'tête +exaltée' about religion. Couldn't refuse, of course, to let her speak, +after her devotion to Mona; but the thing is done now, and having +relieved her conscience, I suppose she will be content to leave me in +peace for awhile."</p> + +<p>Rather hastily he started up, leaving his lamp burning still upon the +table, and went to Mona's room.</p> + +<p>Madge let him in, without look or sign of consciousness respecting +the conversation just ended, and he gave her in passing a careless +little nod, which conveyed condescending forgiveness for anything of +presumption on her part. Madge received it meekly, and followed him +towards the bed.</p> + +<p>"Well, my dear—getting on all right?"</p> + +<p>She put out her hand in welcome. "Madge, I wish you would get me a +glass of fresh water while uncle is here, and bring it back when he +goes."</p> + +<p>Madge moved off obediently, aware from the manner rather than the words +that Mona wanted a few minutes alone with her uncle.</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd noticed nothing of the kind. He had his finger on Mona's +wrist.</p> + +<p>"What are you fluttering about now, my dear?" he asked, looking keenly +at her.</p> + +<p>She stretched the other hand across, and brought out a little Bible +from under the bedclothes. "Uncle, I haven't had my reading this +evening. Won't you read me a few verses?"</p> + +<p>"I!" said Mr. Chetwynd. "Isn't that Madge's business?"</p> + +<p>"Won't you, for once?" she asked.</p> + +<p>"My dear, I really think that is more in her line than mine. I always +do say it is a pity she could not be a clergyman."</p> + +<p>"I am not jesting," said Mona gently. "I should like it so much. You +have never read to me all the time I have been ill. Won't you, uncle?"</p> + +<p>The doctor began to feel rather irritated. "I say, do you know what +Madge and I have been talking about?" he asked involuntarily.</p> + +<p>Mona's surprised look was answer enough. "No,—what?"</p> + +<p>"Oh, nothing of consequence; never mind. I was only thinking of a +curious instance of the doctrine of coincidences," said Mr. Chetwynd.</p> + +<p>And Mona wondered whether Madge could by any possibility have made a +like request, but decided against the supposition.</p> + +<p>"Well," said the doctor, after a moment's watching of her face, "shall +I summon Madge and say good night?"</p> + +<p>"I am not sleepy," said Mona. "You don't always go off in such a hurry. +Uncle Chetwynd—"</p> + +<p>"Some big thoughts troubling this small brain, eh?" asked Mr. Chetwynd. +"Come, come, you must be a child a little longer, my dear, or you'll +have quite a disfiguring dent on that smooth forehead."</p> + +<p>"I am too old to be ever a child again," said Mona. "But I am quite +happy now, and I shall be—if—"</p> + +<p>"If what?"</p> + +<p>"If you will let me,"—and tears rushed to her eyes.</p> + +<p>At it again! The doctor's prominent sensation, which was happily of +care for Mona, barely sufficed to cover his secondary sensation of +personal aggravation. And this time he really had something of hurt +feeling as well.</p> + +<p>"I let you! My dear child, don't you know yet that you are dearer to me +than all the rest of the world put together?"</p> + +<p>"I know," she said, with trembling lips. "I know you would do anything +for me—almost anything—and you are as kind as kind can be, except—"</p> + +<p>"Except when I am cruel."</p> + +<p>He wanted to turn it off lightly, but she answered unexpectedly by a +faltering—"Yes."</p> + +<p>"Cruel, am I, eh?" said the doctor, rather displeased.</p> + +<p>"Only in one thing," she murmured, clasping her hands. "O uncle, you +didn't think,—but if you knew how dreadful it was all those months—"</p> + +<p>"Come, come, my dear, you are excited this evening. What was so +dreadful?"</p> + +<p>"To lose everything—everything," she said slowly, yet with somewhat of +passionate energy in the low voice. "To lose all faith and hope—all +hold upon my Saviour—to stand outside in the black darkness, feeling +that the light was gone from me, and it might be, was gone for ever."</p> + +<p>"Mona, I always most conscientiously avoided arguments with you on +disputed points," he said gravely.</p> + +<p>"Yes, you did, and that was the worst of all, I think. If you had +even argued, I could have tried to answer, and I might have gone to +friends to ask what to say. That would have been bad enough, but this +was worse. There was nothing to take hold of, only those terrible +things—little things—which you used to say just in passing. And they +seemed to take hold of me, and shut me in, till I could only feel that +I was helpless, just drifting farther and farther away from God."</p> + +<p>"Now, Mona, my dear child, you have been brooding over these ideas, +till you fancy them ten times worse than they ever were," said the +doctor, in a tone of expostulation.</p> + +<p>"Worse!" She raised herself to a sitting posture, with a gleam in her +eyes. "You don't know, uncle. I'll tell you what it was like. I used +to feel that I was standing on the very edge of a slippery precipice, +leaning over and looking down, and so giddy that I could scarcely keep +my footing. And I had not only no power to draw back, but I had almost +left off wishing to draw back, though sometimes I had a glimpse of the +danger I was in. I think it was a sort of dreadful fascination. And it +was you who led me there."</p> + +<p>"Not intentionally, Mona."</p> + +<p>"It was you," she repeated, with unsteady lips. "Thank God, He did not +let you send me over. But I had gone so far—that at one time—it almost +seemed—as if nothing could ever draw me back."</p> + +<p>He did not choose that Mona should see how closely her words had +touched him, and only said: "Am I forgiven now?"</p> + +<p>"It isn't forgiveness—I don't feel like that about it," she said +hurriedly. "Only—oh, uncle, if you go and do the same to others, it may +be they will not be stopped in time, and then their death will be upon +you."</p> + +<p>As with Madge, so here, anxiety for himself came strongly out. She +caught his hand and held it tightly, with tears in her eyes. "You are +always so good and kind to me,—like a father," she half whispered. "I +can't bear to say such things to you. But it frightens me to think that +all might come over again,—with others, if not with me too. I am very +weak, and words like that take such hold, even though I know at the +time they are not true."</p> + +<p>"You shall not hear them from me again," he said. "Will that content +you?"</p> + +<p>She looked up wistfully without speaking. He did not choose to wait for +anything more.</p> + +<p>"There, then, that will do. Go to sleep now, like a good child, and +don't worry your head any more with such matters. I'll send Madge to +you at once."</p> + +<p>"And you don't mind what I have said?" she whispered.</p> + +<p>"Invalids are privileged people. Good night, my dear. Shut your eyes, +and don't think about anything until morning comes."</p> + +<p>He gave her a kiss—kinder than usual, if that were possible—felt her +pulse once more, patted her hand smilingly, and walked away to summon +Madge.</p> + +<p>Mona did as she was told, and went quietly off to sleep.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image055" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image055.jpg" alt="image055"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image056" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image056.jpg" alt="image056"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_23">CHAPTER XXIII.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>THE WISDOM OF THE WISE.</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>BUT Mr. Chetwynd sat long in his study, gazing into the fire, and +playing with a glass letter-weight upon the table. Somehow he could +not easily shake off the impression of the double warning which he +had so singularly received. It was evidently a mere coincidence, and +quite undesigned, though very probably the result on both sides of some +conversation upon the subject that afternoon.</p> + +<p>And the two coming thus closely together—the warning of Madge +Hardwicke, the simple-minded strong-hearted cottager; and the warning +of Mona, his gentle niece—had left an impression behind. It was a +confused impression at first. A good deal of annoyance, and a good +deal of hurt feeling, were mingled with some genuine reproaches of +conscience. The words of Madge alone, or of Mona alone, might scarcely +have sufficed to do so much, but coming together, they had shaken +him out of his usual self-satisfied composure. He found there would +be small likelihood of sleep, till he had come to some sort of an +understanding with himself. So he sat still, and thought the matter out.</p> + +<p>Mona had said some hard things to him—that slight young creature, whom +he had regarded as scarcely more than a child. If he had ever soberly +considered the matter, he would have supposed her to be quite incapable +of entering into the real meaning of such remarks, as those in which +he had often indulged himself before her. He little knew the dormant +capacities for speculation in the mind of many such a girl as Mona.</p> + +<p>And "he" had led her to the precipice-edge! And "his" words had done +the mischief! And "he" had been the source of pain and misery to the +child of his lost and only sister. Why, he would have given his very +life to save hers any day. And yet—</p> + +<p>Amos Ackman had narrowly escaped becoming the murderer of his child. +But he had had no power, in all his sullen anger, to touch the life +enshrined within that little frail body. Mr. Chetwynd, it might be, had +narrowly escaped guilt of a still more awful dye—even the death of the +soul of one who was to him as a child of his own!</p> + +<p>He did not know of the crimson stain, which the old man on the hill +had so nearly gained. But Mona's words had brought dimly before him +something of what he himself had well-nigh done.</p> + +<p>"It was the work of Satan that he had taken up,—Satan, a hard and +bitter taskmaster,—letting alone the judgments of the Lord Himself +on those who should meddle in His work!" What! He—the scientific +intellectual trusted physician, the clever well-informed leading man in +Alyn—he a servant of Satan! The words stared him boldly in the face. He +would not meet them, and turned away—only to find others starting up in +their place.</p> + +<p>"It was you who led me there! Thank God, He did not let you send me +over! And if you should do the same to others,—" Why, he had done the +same to others, scores of times. A day never passed that he did not +indulge himself in some light sneer or cutting sarcasm upon religious +questions. Was every word thus uttered indeed a drop of poison allowed +to fall, for which future account must be rendered at the bar of the +eternal God? Would lost souls be verily laid to his charge—souls which +but for him might have attained to the joys of heaven?</p> + +<p>"Stuff. Nonsense!" he said petulantly. "One would think I had caught a +reflection of Madge's notions to-night!"</p> + +<p>But what if these things were not nonsense? What if he himself stood +in the black darkness, of which Mona had spoken in such low-voiced +horror,—if he had stood there so long that he knew not what it was even +to wish for light?</p> + +<p>One after another these questions came to him, in much the same +speculative fashion in which questions did come to him, by mere force +of habit and bias of mind, at all times. But he could not now, as on +other days, shake them lightly aside.</p> + +<p>What if he did not believe the Bible to be the Word of God? Could he in +very truth say that he did? Then—"No hope! No pardon! No Saviour! No +heaven!"</p> + +<p>So Madge had assured him! But who was Madge to dare to speak such words +to him? What right had she, a poor ignorant cottager, to stamp him as +a man in such awful case? A desolate helpless creature, standing apart +from God for ever! He to be thus!</p> + +<p>Apart from God! Why, that there was a God he knew full well. His +doubtings were at least the doubtings of a man of sense as well as +intellect,—not the mad dreamings of a clever fool. He literally had too +much of common every-day manly sense, to give in to shallow theories +of atoms developing themselves into worlds, or of a universe somehow +sprouting up spontaneously out of nothing. He had some sort of vague +belief in the Bible, taken generally—only he had always insisted upon +holding in his own hand the scales of judgment, that he might retain or +reject each separate doctrine, according as it suited or opposed his +private notions of truth.</p> + +<p>And here had this woman come in, breaking down his calm security, +dashing aside his proud serenity, and telling him boldly, face to +face—albeit with all meekness—that no such middle course lay open to +him, that he must either believe or not believe, that he must either +accept, with implicit faith, the Word, and the Saviour of whom the +Word testified, or find himself cut off from God and heaven for ever. +"All Scripture is given by inspiration of God." There lay a hard rock +against which to stumble.</p> + +<p>"What 'do' you believe in the Bible?" The gentle question came back +and back to him persistently. What did he believe? What did he? Half +unconsciously, he found himself searching for an answer,—seeking into +his own belief as he had never honestly sought before.</p> + +<p>How about the power of prayer? No doctrine is more closely interwoven +with the very texture of the Bible, than that of prayer and its +workings. But Mr. Chetwynd had simply disbelieved it altogether.</p> + +<p>How about the fallen condition of man, and Christ Jesus as the only +hope of salvation? No doctrines in the Bible stand out with more sharp +and decided outline. But Mr. Chetwynd had rejected all notion of man's +degradation; and while not denying the great fact of the death of +Christ, he had had most hazy ideas respecting the necessity for any +such sacrifice.</p> + +<p>How about the hidden spiritual life? No Bible doctrine is more full in +its development than this. Mr. Chetwynd had sneered at its professed +experiences, professed lofty superiority to its weaknesses, despised +its faith, and discredited its very existence.</p> + +<p>If these things were true, where was he in his captious standing apart +from God? If not—?</p> + +<p>"He that believeth not God hath made Him a liar." These things were +plainly written in the Word of the living God. If he did not believe +them, "then" he believed not God; "then" he made God even as a liar; +"then" there remained to himself—what? Again Madge Hardwicke's words +rang mournfully in his ears: "No hope! No pardon! No Saviour! No +heaven!"</p> + +<p>"Anything rather than that!" he murmured. And he rose and took down his +mother's Bible, unused for many years. He had a dim impression of the +last time he had ever stood at her knee, and of her making him spell +aloud to her a few verses in the First Epistle to the Corinthians. +Like a man revisiting a garden, seen long before, and wandering +instinctively to one remembered corner,—for notwithstanding all Mr. +Chetwynd's church-going, family prayers, general knowledge of Biblical +doctrines, and special knowledge of popular cavils, the Bible had been +with him for years a neglected book,—he turned to that same Epistle. He +began glancing through it slowly, as he sat there, with the lamp-light +falling on his bent and troubled brow.</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "It is written, I will destroy the wisdom of the wise, and will bring +to nothing the understanding of the prudent."<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>Was that meant for him? Was he one of "the wise?"</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise."<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>He stopped there again, and another verse, learnt in early boyhood, +flashed across his mind:—</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "I thank Thee, O Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because Thou hast +hid these things from the wise and prudent, and hast revealed them unto +babes."<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>He thought of little Nannie—of Madge Hardwicke—of Mona. How he had +looked down upon them, in his conscious intellectual superiority! Was +it in very truth that God Himself had veiled these matters of mighty +import from him, in his pride of earthly learning, while revealing deep +mysteries of love and grace to the simple-hearted women and children? +Mr. Chetwynd had been wise and prudent in his generation; but these +things had been hidden from him; so that he, hearing of them, yet in +his blindness seeing them not, had deemed their very existence but a +fable.</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "Not many wise—not many noble—are called."<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>"Not many." But, thank God, it does not say, "Not any." He thought of +Mr. Prior. Madge Hardwicke all untaught in worldly lore, and Mr. Prior, +with whose strong intellect Mr. Chetwynd would scarcely have cared to +measure his own, met here upon the same level. With the one, indeed, +was to be found the spirit of deep research, and a full knowledge of +historical and critical evidences; while the other knew and cared +little for evidences beyond her own practical knowledge of the life +and truth and peace which she had found in her Bible. But alike they +entered the Kingdom of Heaven, alike receiving the teaching of the Word +with the simple loving trust of little children.</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "Let no man deceive himself. If any man among you seemeth to be wise +in this world, let him become a fool, that he may be wise. For the wisdom +of this world is foolishness with God. For it is written, He taketh the +wise in their own craftiness. And again, The Lord knoweth the thoughts +of the wise, that they are vain."<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>He read so far, and then he sat and thought—thought, till all in the +house but himself had gone to bed,—thought, till his lamp flickered and +failed for lack of oil, leaving the study in darkness. Mr. Chetwynd did +not even notice the change. He sat with his hand over his eyes, deeply +communing with his own soul.</p> + +<p>Had he ever honestly searched into these matters before? Had he +not rather skimmed recklessly over their surface, in a spirit of +semi-sceptical criticism, and measureless self-conceit? There seemed to +open out before him at last some insight into things unseen—some power +to pierce through the veil, which for long years past had shrouded him +in darkness.</p> + +<p>"And I have been one of these 'wise,'" he said to himself. "Wise with +the wisdom which is foolishness in the sight of God! Is that the +meaning of the intellect, which men worship in the present day? Plain +words spoken here—uncompromising as steel. Can it be that I have been +one of these self-deceivers—seeming, and only seeming, to be wise? If +so, 'let him become a fool, that he may be wise!' Become one! What if I +have been a fool all along—ay, worse than a fool, daring to set up my +puny notions in the very face of what God has revealed to us!</p> + +<p>"As well meet the matter boldly. I am not a coward, at all events. What +if I have been altogether in the wrong? 'The Lord knoweth!' How St. +Paul's words seem to meet one at every point . . . Will Madge think she +has gained a victory? Not to triumph at any rate. Better that, than to +find, too late, my whole life a failure,—I, with all my wisdom, shut +out from heaven,—and very fools pressing in before me!"</p> + +<p>He sat upright, felt for a box of matches, took a silver candlestick +from the mantelpiece, and struck a light. The open page of the Bible +lay still beside him.</p> + +<p>"If this indeed be the Word of God, through and through, the very truth +of God,—then where am I, and what am I, at this moment?</p> + +<p>"Ay,—no doubt what Madge would say. An unsaved sinner,—apart from +God,—worthless and helpless. I know it all by heart,—have heard it +often enough,—have laughed the notion to scorn. What if, after all, it +be very truth—and my wisdom there be very foolishness?</p> + +<p>"A helpless sinner,—standing apart from God! So they say,—and so it +may be. How can I prove the contrary? There are things which the +wisest living cannot fathom. Suppose a clue lies here. But never mind +generalities just now. Suppose 'I' am in that condition,—a condemned +man, cut off from my Maker,—needing—needing what?"</p> + +<p>Did he pause here, with a feeling like that which constrained Job, in +olden days, to cry aloud for a "Daysman" to stand between him and a +holy God? Something of the kind it must have been. And an answer came +once more breathing softly across his heart, in words learnt long ago +from a mother's lips:—</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "There is One Mediator between God and man, the Man Christ Jesus."<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>For a moment there was stillness,—a hush of body and mind, as he slowly +grasped the wondrous words, and caught a glimpse of their boundless +meaning. And then, he bent his head,—reverently, as for long years past +he had never done,—and uttered half aloud—</p> + +<p class="letter"> +<br> + "God be merciful to me, a sinner,—for Christ's sake."<br> +<br> +</p> + +<p>The first step was taken. Mr. Chetwynd had a hard lesson to learn, but +he did not quail before it. He was not far from the Kingdom of Heaven +that night. Madge Hardwicke's and Mona's words, which but a few weeks +back might have passed unheeded, save by smile or sneer, had reached +him at the right moment. They had fallen like seed into prepared +ground,—prepared, all unknown to himself, through the Holy Spirit's +guidance, under the influence of Mr. Prior's teaching, and of Mona's +illness following. And the day was not far distant, when the once +careless half-unbelieving caviller thanked Madge from his very heart, +for the kindly boldness of her warning words that evening.</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image057" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image057.jpg" alt="image057"></figure> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image058" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image058.jpg" alt="image058"></figure> + +<p><br></p> + +<h2><a id="Chapter_24">CHAPTER XXIV.</a></h2> + +<p class="t3"> +<b>HOME!</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>"SPLENDID day it has been,—only a trifle too hot for any but a +salamander," said the doctor, sauntering into Mona's room on the +afternoon of the following day. "Well, my dear, how are you getting on?"</p> + +<p>His pleasant manner that morning to Madge had convinced her that she +need fear no displeasure on account of the last night's conversation. +But something now, beneath his would-be careless bearing, gave her a +twinge of anxiety.</p> + +<p>"I am getting on as well as possible," said Mona brightly. "I quite +want to begin sitting up again."</p> + +<p>"Patience awhile before that," said Mr. Chetwynd. "More haste worse +speed, in some cases."</p> + +<p>"But Madge has been reading to me to-day."</p> + +<p>"Nothing sensational, I hope."</p> + +<p>Mona smiled at the idea.</p> + +<p>"Ah, well, I suppose I may trust Madge. She isn't addicted to that sort +of literature. Madge, could you be happy to leave Miss Mona for awhile +this afternoon?"</p> + +<p>"If you wish it, sir," said Madge, somewhat surprised.</p> + +<p>"Well, I have a—an errand for you," said Mr. Chetwynd. "Just call +Hartly to sit with Miss Mona while you are out, and then come to my +study. I'll explain to you where to go, and what to do."</p> + +<p>"Madge wants a little air, I am sure, after her imprisonment in this +room," said Mona, trying to be unselfish.</p> + +<p>"It's no imprisonment, Miss Mona," said Madge. "I'll come as quick as I +can, sir."</p> + +<p>"I suppose there is some shopping for you to do," observed Mona when he +was gone.</p> + +<p>And Madge smiled in answer, though aware that the guess was a wrong +one. She summoned the motherly old housekeeper from down-stairs, saw +that everything which could possibly be needed was at hand, went for +her own shawl and hood, and finally made her way to the doctor's room.</p> + +<p>He looked up, as she entered, from the letter he was writing.</p> + +<p>"That's right. Hartly has had so much to do with the nursing that you +need not be uneasy about leaving Miss Mona. And I don't expect to have +to go out again this evening, so I shall be at hand."</p> + +<p>"Mrs. Hartly can do easy enough all that's wanted," said Madge. "Where +am I to go, sir?"</p> + +<p>"Sit down a minute, and I'll tell you," said Mr. Chetwynd gravely. "The +truth is, I called you in here yesterday evening, to mention something +I had heard, but you put it out of my head, and this morning I thought +I might as well find out more before making you anxious. About little +Nannie Ackman, I mean."</p> + +<p>He was evidently moved. Madge saw now in what quarter lay the coming +cloud. The little child up on the hill was very dear to her heart. She +had not felt surprised to see and hear nothing of Nannie lately, on +account of the infectious nature of Mona's illness, but now a sudden +fear took possession of her.</p> + +<p>"Mr. Prior went up to the old man's cottage yesterday morning, and was +so struck with the little one's altered look that he asked me to go and +see her. I did not suppose there was any immediate hurry, and I was +busy, so I put it off till this afternoon. I have just come back from +there,—but—"</p> + +<p>"Do you think her ill, sir?"</p> + +<p>He shook his head silently.</p> + +<p>"Sir, you don't mean that Nannie is in danger."</p> + +<p>"She is dying, Madge."</p> + +<p>One low sob and no more reached his ears. "How soon?" was asked with an +effort.</p> + +<p>"Would you like to go and see her?"</p> + +<p>"I should, sir. She'll want comforts and looking after."</p> + +<p>"She is past all that now. If you want to see her again, you must go +at once. Never mind about Miss Mona. I will arrange all that for a few +hours. You will be back before night."</p> + +<p>She knew he meant that all would then be over. "Is it the fever, sir?" +she inquired.</p> + +<p>"I can hardly say. There may have been a touch of it hanging about +her. Old Ackman seems stupefied, and can give no particulars, though +he blames himself bitterly, and with good reason. She was up and about +yesterday evening, he says, but seemed to break-down this morning. +Nannie herself was unconscious while I was there. She may rouse up +again, or may pass away in stupor. But I can do nothing for her."</p> + +<p>"And nobody has known the poor lamb to be failing," murmured Madge, +passing her hand across her eyes.</p> + +<p>"I can't gather that there have been any indications of absolute +illness, beyond weakness and languor. My own impression is, that the +sudden break-down may be the result of some undetected injury, from +the father's rough treatment awhile ago. But after all, it is a cruel +conjecture without sufficient proof. She has always been a frail little +creature. I won't hinder you any longer, however."</p> + +<p>Like one walking in a dream, Madge left the house and went up the hill. +It was three weeks or more since last she had been in that direction, +for all her few walks of late had been taken in the town, generally +with the chemist for their destination.</p> + +<p>How forlorn her little cottage looked, with its closed door and +shutters, and its growth of garden weeds. Ah, that had never been, if +little Nannie had been equal to the task of keeping clear the unwelcome +growth, in the absence of her friend. Amos Ackman's door was open, so +Madge walked in noiselessly, leaving her shawl and hood in the outer +room, but hardly standing still there for a moment on her way.</p> + +<p>Her first glimpse as she neared the bedroom was of the old man himself, +crouching forward on his stool, with his face half hidden by his hands, +while a low groan broke from him from time to time. And then, as she +went farther, she saw Nannie. Could it indeed be Nannie?—So white, so +changed, so wasted! Mona Clyde at her worst had been nothing like this.</p> + +<p>"Ay, ye've come to see her die, have yer," mid old Amos. "Yer was a +deal kinder to her than her old father too."</p> + +<p>Madge knelt down by the rough mattress, and softly moistened the +child's parched lips. And all at once Nannie opened her eyes, and the +wan features broke into a smile of recognition.</p> + +<p>"She knows you, she does. Sure she'll soon be well now," said Amos +falteringly. "Don't yer think so, Madge? I'd be main glad, for 'tis all +along o' my doing. She'll get well now, eh?"</p> + +<p>Madge knew better, and so did Nannie. But Madge thought that the face +of an angel could hardly have worn a look of more loving compassion, +than that which shone through those glazing eyes, as they turned slowly +towards the unhappy old man.</p> + +<p>"Poor father!" was softly breathed forth, with an appealing glance +towards Madge, as if to beg her to comfort him. "There 'll be nobody to +pray for him now."</p> + +<p>"I'll pray, Nannie. Is it that you want?" asked Madge. "I'll never +let a day pass without praying for him. And God won't forget all your +back-prayers, you know."</p> + +<p>"No, 'cause they're written up there, ain't they?" said Nannie faintly +yet confidently, with a slight upward gesture of one hand.</p> + +<p>"Why, she's beginning to talk ever so," said Amos, in a pleased tone. +"Ain't she better now, Madge?"</p> + +<p>"She'll be better soon," said Madge. "She'll be better up in the +Father's Home, Amos. You'd best make sure, and see you're in the way to +go there too, or it'll be a longer parting for you than for Nannie and +me."</p> + +<p>Amos drooped his head again. "I'm thinkin' it'll have to be a different +heaven to hold old Amos, from what 'll take in you and Nannie," he said +heavily.</p> + +<p>"There's only one heaven, and one way into it, for her and you and me," +said Madge.</p> + +<p>And before she could say more, Nannie's lips formed, clearly and +tenderly, the sweetest Name which language ever framed—</p> + +<p>"JESUS!—father."</p> + +<p>"Ay, it's all Him, and Him alone," said Madge. "You've only to go to +Him, and ask pardon through His blood, and it'll all come right."</p> + +<p>Madge did not know how the poor old sin-burdened man had already begun +to stumble, with his failing steps, up to the foot of the Cross. But +Nannie knew, and though too weak to explain, she said in a low voice,—</p> + +<p>"He'll come, Madge."</p> + +<p>"Ay, the Lord 'll surely bring him, Nannie," said Madge.</p> + +<p>And then Nannie shut her eyes and lay quite quiet, with her two little +thin hands folded together, and the panting breath so irregular that it +sometimes seemed as if it would stop altogether, without another word +being spoken.</p> + +<p>Madge knelt there just as quietly, praying that the little one's +troubled life might have such a peaceful ending as now seemed likely, +that no clouds of Satan might be sent to try her faith. And Madge had +what she wished.</p> + +<p>An hour passed, while the life of the summer day and the life of the +little child ebbed sweetly away, side by side. And the sun went slowly +down upon the one, but rose in dazzling radiance upon the other. And +presently Nannie opened her eyes and murmured—</p> + +<p>"They're singing—"</p> + +<p>"Who are, Nannie?"</p> + +<p>"Up, somewhere," said Nannie. "I'll hear 'em now, won't I? O Madge!—I +won't see the Resurrection-day after all from here."</p> + +<p>Was it a momentary feeling of something like disappointment?</p> + +<p>"Maybe not from up on this hill, Nannie," said Madge. "But you'll see +it, sure enough, for you'll rise before we're caught up, and you'll +come on with the Master in His glory to meet us—if so be I'm spared +till then."</p> + +<p>"With Him!" And Nannie's face, as she uttered the words, lighted up +with a strange and holy joy. "O Madge! Think what it'll be—this very +night—to see my own Lord Jesus! Why, Madge!—"</p> + +<p>"Ay, won't it be—?" Madge had begun, trying to quell the impatient +longing which throbbed at her own heart, in answer to the child's burst +of joy. But she broke off, for words from her were no longer needed, +and a look of glad surprise had flashed into the dying eyes.</p> + +<p>"Why, Madge! I didn't think it 'ud be so soon, but I'm going quick. I'm +ready, ain't I?—'cause Jesus died for me, you know. O Madge, I wish you +was coming with me too. Isn't He—just—beautiful?"</p> + +<p>Two long faint gasps between the words,—one sigh,—and Nannie was at +rest.</p> + +<p>Better so. The little worn-out body lay there still. But Nannie—poor +little Nannie!—after all her hopes and fears and longings, had reached +the loving circle of the gathering family, in her Father's House above.</p> + +<p>Madge knelt on for a minute, with her head bent low. Then, with a calm +singular smile upon her face, she rose and went to Amos.</p> + +<p>"Don't you stay here any longer," she said. "Nannie's well off now."</p> + +<p>He shook his head, and crouched lower, without response.</p> + +<p>"She's well off," repeated Madge. "She's at rest now, poor little lamb, +and she wouldn't want you to grieve for her over-much. Don't spend your +time looking back to the past, Amos, but see you make ready to join her +where she's gone—maybe soon. There's the Blood for your sins and mine, +no less than for hers."</p> + +<p>"I wouldn't ha' believed it, though, if it hadn't been for her +praying," murmured old Amos, as he yielded to Madge's guiding touch, +and went out into the front room, while Madge remained behind, and did +all that needed to be done to the lifeless body lying there.</p> + +<p>Poor little Nannie! More of a martyr was she than even Madge Hardwicke +guessed. But Madge knew enough to bend over her, and kiss the small +white cheek, whispering—</p> + +<p>"'She's' had her meed of suffering for the Lord, and she's gained her +rest early; but maybe Nannie's one of the last that 'll be first in the +Kingdom of Heaven."</p> + +<p>Then Madge left the room, and going past old Amos, who in his solitary +grief refused to answer when she would have set herself to comfort him, +she passed into the pleasant evening twilight beyond.</p> + +<p>Some impulse—she could not have defined it—made her step across into +her own garden, and stand there near the door, with her eyes fixed on +the blue waters, and her heart very full of the little friend who had +been taken from her. Nannie had grown to be almost like a child of her +own during the past few months. Only the blow had come so suddenly, and +the passing away had been so peaceful, that as yet she was thinking +more of what Nannie had gained than of what she herself had lost.</p> + +<p>"Beautiful! Ay, she knows the Master's beauty at last,—more than the +wisest man that ever lived on earth. Little Nannie! I'd like to see +your joy this very minute. Well, 'tis sweet to think that my turn 'll +come too, some day. Maybe, I've more work to do first for my Lord. +She'll never get to the end of knowing His beauty more and more for +ever; and by-and-by I'll see it too. It's only a glimpse I get now, +once and again, but He'll shine out there in glory. And Nannie sees it +now."</p> + +<p>The sound of a footstep on the pathway made her turn. A manly figure, +of somewhat foreign appearance, was briskly advancing towards the +garden-gate. Madge stood as if rooted to the spot, with a sudden +dimness over her eyes, and a quickened beating at her heart. Was it a +dream? Could it be indeed a reality? O faithless Madge even yet.</p> + +<p>"Mother!"</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<figure class="figcenter" id="image059" style="max-width: 25.3125em;"> + <img class="w100" src="images/image059.jpg" alt="image059"></figure> +<p class="t4"> +<b>"Mother, I always said to myself that I'd be sure to</b><br> +<b>find you here, whenever I came, looking out for me."</b><br> +</p> + +<p><br></p> + +<p>Only the one word! Madge did not even exclaim.</p> + +<p>But if his strong arm had not in that moment been around her, she would +have fallen to the ground.</p> + +<p>"Mother, I always said to myself that I'd be sure to find you here, +whenever I came, looking out for me."</p> + +<p>She did not contradict him, for, in truth, he "had" been in her heart +and thoughts at that moment, side by side with Nannie. She made no +answer at all, except by the passionate clinging, which seemed as if +she could never again loose her hold of him. He began to know now what +the long agony of suspense had been.</p> + +<p>"It's a wicked son I've been to you, mother dear, leaving you all these +years, and never writing. Only that once, at least. And so much the +worse then, that I didn't keep my promise. But maybe it's a good thing +I'm come now, and not sooner, as I once thought to do. I'd have come +back in a reckless sort of mood at that time; but I've learnt since to +look on things differently. Mother, will you forgive me, and take me +home, and teach me the lessons I wouldn't let you teach me when I was a +little boy? Will you, mother?"</p> + +<p>"Forgive you!" Madge said, lifting her face to his, all wet with happy +tears. "O Neill,—thank God He's given back my boy to me again. It's +worth all the waiting to have you come like this. And you'll never +leave me any more?"</p> + +<p>"Never more, mother, of my own free will. God alone shall part us now."</p> + +<p>She would not take him into her cheerless unprepared cottage, but +walked up and down with him awhile on the hill-top, in earnest +conference, till the first excitement of the meeting had in some +measure passed away. And then they went down the path, and stopped at +the doctor's house.</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd came out to meet Madge in the hall, but he had not looked +to see that face of chastened brightness.</p> + +<p>"Why, Madge—" he began, and stopped.</p> + +<p>"Sir, it is as you thought, and little Nannie has gone to her rest," +said Madge. "But the Lord has sent me a blessing alongside of the +sorrow, and between the two, I'm nigh in as great a strait as St. Paul +himself, as to whether I'll smile or cry."</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd looked from Madge to her companion,—half guessing the +truth, yet scarcely liking to ask. For the lad he once knew was +altered; and perhaps only a mother's eyes could have known him again at +a glance.</p> + +<p>Madge put her arm into Neill's, and drew him a step forward.</p> + +<p>"It's my boy, sir," she said, and the smile won the day.</p> + +<p>Mr. Chetwynd held out his hand warmly. "I am glad to see you home, +Neill. You have changed indeed since last we met," he said. And then +in a different tone, turning to Madge—"You were right and I was wrong, +Madge. Your faith certainly deserves its reward."</p> + +<p>"No, sir, if you please, you're wrong there," said Madge steadily. +"I've nought of desert about me, save desert of evil."</p> + +<p>"Didn't you say all along that Neill would surely come home some day?"</p> + +<p>Madge was silent a minute, seemingly pondering his words.</p> + +<p>"Well?" said the doctor, and Neill too looked inquiringly.</p> + +<p>"Sir, it may be I'm mistaken, but it does seem to me that the Lord has +just kept back from granting my wish, till He's taught me to lay my +will in His, and to leave all in His hands. I used to say Neill would +be pretty sure to come home, and to think it too. I've said and felt +little of late, save 'Thy will be done!' And now—He's given back to me +my boy!"</p> + +<p>The last words came like a note of sweet and joyous triumph to the +doctor's ears. "You know more about such things than I do, Madge, but I +hope I may learn more in time," he said rather sadly. "Neill must sleep +here of course to-night. You can arrange with Hartly about his bed. And +to-morrow I suppose you will wish to go home with him to your cottage."</p> + +<p>Madge did not gainsay the remark. She felt that her boy must come +first, and that to prepare a comfortable home for him at once was her +simple duty. "Only I'll come in as often as I'm wanted, sir, to sit +with Miss Mona," she said.</p> + +<p>"It is well Neill did not return a week sooner, or we couldn't have +spared you," said Mr. Chetwynd. "But you must spend part of every day +with us still, or Miss Mona will be lonely. Well, I am unselfish enough +to be very glad you are so happy."</p> + +<p>She had her desire at last. There was joy in the mother's heart that +night, at the return of the wanderer, and there was joy for her sake +throughout the doctor's house, and among the inmates of the Rectory and +the town. But the greatest joy of all was the joy of little Nannie, +who had passed beyond the mists and the shadows of earth, and had been +welcomed into her eternal Home.</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> + +<p class="t3"> +THE END.<br> +</p> + +<p><br><br><br></p> +<div style='text-align:center'>*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 79005 ***</div> +</body> +</html> diff --git a/79005-h/images/image001.jpg b/79005-h/images/image001.jpg Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..13a4a94 --- /dev/null +++ b/79005-h/images/image001.jpg diff --git a/79005-h/images/image002.jpg b/79005-h/images/image002.jpg Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..f5ad9e7 --- /dev/null +++ b/79005-h/images/image002.jpg diff --git a/79005-h/images/image003.jpg b/79005-h/images/image003.jpg Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..92383d7 --- /dev/null +++ b/79005-h/images/image003.jpg diff --git a/79005-h/images/image004.jpg b/79005-h/images/image004.jpg Binary files differnew file 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