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diff --git a/old/leave10.txt b/old/leave10.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..8b9d8b8 --- /dev/null +++ b/old/leave10.txt @@ -0,0 +1,14366 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook of The Fallen Leaves, by Wilkie Collins +#34 in our series by Wilkie Collins + +Copyright laws are changing all over the world. Be sure to check the +copyright laws for your country before downloading or redistributing +this or any other Project Gutenberg eBook. + +This header should be the first thing seen when viewing this Project +Gutenberg file. Please do not remove it. Do not change or edit the +header without written permission. + +Please read the "legal small print," and other information about the +eBook and Project Gutenberg at the bottom of this file. Included is +important information about your specific rights and restrictions in +how the file may be used. 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C. GLOUCESTER PLACE, LONDON July 1st, 1879 + + +THE PROLOGUE + +I + +The resistless influences which are one day to reign supreme over our +poor hearts, and to shape the sad short course of our lives, are +sometimes of mysteriously remote origin, and find their devious ways to +us through the hearts and the lives of strangers. + +While the young man whose troubled career it is here proposed to follow +was wearing his first jacket, and bowling his first hoop, a domestic +misfortune, falling on a household of strangers, was destined +nevertheless to have its ultimate influence over his happiness, and to +shape the whole aftercourse of his life. + +For this reason, some First Words must precede the Story, and must +present the brief narrative of what happened in the household of +strangers. By what devious ways the event here related affected the +chief personage of these pages, when he grew to manhood, it will be the +business of the story to trace, over land and sea, among men and women, +in bright days and dull days alike, until the end is reached, and the +pen (God willing) is put back in the desk. + +II + +Old Benjamin Ronald (of the Stationers' Company) took a young wife at +the ripe age of fifty, and carried with him into the holy estate of +matrimony some of the habits of his bachelor life. + +As a bachelor, he had never willingly left his shop (situated in that +exclusively commercial region of London which is called "the City") +from one year's end to another. As a married man, he persisted in +following the same monotonous course; with this one difference, that he +now had a woman to follow it with him. "Travelling by railway," he +explained to his wife, "will make your head ache--it makes _my_ head +ache. Travelling by sea will make you sick--it makes _me_ sick. If you +want change of air, every sort of air is to be found in the City. If +you admire the beauties of Nature, there is Finsbury Square with the +beauties of Nature carefully selected and arranged. When we are in +London, you (and I) are all right; and when we are out of London, you +(and I) are all wrong." As surely as the autumn holiday season set in, +so surely Old Ronald resisted his wife's petition for a change of scene +in that form of words. A man habitually fortified behind his own inbred +obstinacy and selfishness is for the most part an irresistible power +within the limits of his domestic circle. As a rule, patient Mrs. +Ronald yielded; and her husband stood revealed to his neighbours in the +glorious character of a married man who had his own way. + +But in the autumn of 1856, the retribution which sooner or later +descends on all despotisms, great and small, overtook the iron rule of +Old Ronald, and defeated the domestic tyrant on the battle-field of his +own fireside. + +The children born of the marriage, two in number, were both daughters. +The elder had mortally offended her father by marrying imprudently--in +a pecuniary sense. He had declared that she should never enter his +house again; and he had mercilessly kept his word. The younger daughter +(now eighteen years of age) proved to be also a source of parental +inquietude, in another way. She was the passive cause of the revolt +which set her father's authority at defiance. For some little time past +she had been out of health. After many ineffectual trials of the mild +influence of persuasion, her mother's patience at last gave way. Mrs. +Ronald insisted--yes, actually insisted--on taking Miss Emma to the +seaside. + +"What's the matter with you?" Old Ronald asked; detecting something +that perplexed him in his wife's look and manner, on the memorable +occasion when she asserted a will of her own for the first time in her +life. + +A man of finer observation would have discovered the signs of no +ordinary anxiety and alarm, struggling to show themselves openly in the +poor woman's face. Her husband only saw a change that puzzled him. +"Send for Emma," he said, his natural cunning inspiring him with the +idea of confronting the mother and daughter, and of seeing what came of +_that._ Emma appeared, plump and short, with large blue eyes, and full +pouting lips, and splendid yellow hair: otherwise, miserably pale, +languid in her movements, careless in her dress, sullen in her manner. +Out of health as her mother said, and as her father saw. + +"You can see for yourself," said Mrs. Ronald, "that the girl is pining +for fresh air. I have heard Ramsgate recommended." + +Old Ronald looked at his daughter. She represented the one tender place +in his nature. It was not a large place; but it did exist. And the +proof of it is, that he began to yield--with the worst possible grace. + +"Well, we will see about it," he said. + +"There is no time to be lost," Mrs. Ronald persisted. "I mean to take +her to Ramsgate tomorrow." + +Mr. Ronald looked at his wife as a dog looks at the maddened sheep that +turns on him. "You mean?" repeated the stationer. "Upon my soul--what +next? You mean? Where is the money to come from? Answer me that." + +Mrs. Ronald declined to be drawn into a conjugal dispute, in the +presence of her daughter. She took Emma's arm, and led her to the door. +There she stopped, and spoke. "I have already told you that the girl is +ill," she said to her husband. "And I now tell you again that she must +have the sea air. For God's sake, don't let us quarrel! I have enough +to try me without that." She closed the door on herself and her +daughter, and left her lord and master standing face to face with the +wreck of his own outraged authority. + +What further progress was made by the domestic revolt, when the bedroom +candles were lit, and the hour of retirement had arrived with the +night, is naturally involved in mystery. This alone is certain: On the +next morning, the luggage was packed, and the cab was called to the +door. Mrs. Ronald spoke her parting words to her husband in private. + +"I hope I have not expressed myself too strongly about taking Emma to +the seaside," she said, in gentle pleading tones. "I am anxious about +our girl's health. If I have offended you--without meaning it, God +knows!--say you forgive me before I go. I have tried honestly, dear, to +be a good wife to you. And you have always trusted me, haven't you? And +you trust me still?" + +She took his lean cold hand, and pressed it fervently: her eyes rested +on him with a strange mixture of timidity and anxiety. Still in the +prime of her life, she preserved the personal attractions--the fair +calm refined face, the natural grace of look and movement--which had +made her marriage to a man old enough to be her father a cause of angry +astonishment among all her friends. In the agitation that now possessed +her, her colour rose, her eyes brightened; she looked for the moment +almost young enough to be Emma's sister. Her husband opened his hard +old eyes in surly bewilderment. "Why need you make this fuss?" he +asked. "I don't understand you." Mrs. Ronald shrank at those words as +if he had struck her. She kissed him in silence, and joined her +daughter in the cab. + +For the rest of that day, the persons in the stationer's employment had +a hard time of it with their master in the shop. Something had upset +Old Ronald. He ordered the shutters to be put up earlier that evening +than usual. Instead of going to his club (at the tavern round the +corner), he took a long walk in the lonely and lifeless streets of the +City by night. There was no disguising it from himself; his wife's +behaviour at parting had made him uneasy. He naturally swore at her for +taking that liberty, while he lay awake alone in his bed. "Damn the +woman! What does she mean?" The cry of the soul utters itself in +various forms of expression. That was the cry of Old Ronald's soul, +literally translated. + +III + +The next morning brought him a letter from Ramsgate. + +"I write immediately to tell you of our safe arrival. We have found +comfortable lodgings (as the address at the head of this letter will +inform you) in Albion Place. I thank you, and Emma desires to thank you +also, for your kindness in providing us with ample means for taking our +little trip. It is beautiful weather today; the sea is calm, and the +pleasure-boats are out. We do not of course expect to see you here. But +if you do, by any chance, overcome your objection to moving out of +London, I have a little request to make. Please let me hear of your +visit beforehand--so that I may not omit all needful preparations. I +know you dislike being troubled with letters (except on business), so I +will not write too frequently. Be so good as to take no news for good +news, in the intervals. When you have a few minutes to spare, you will +write, I hope, and tell me how you and the shop are going on. Emma +sends you her love, in which I beg to join." So the letter was +expressed, and so it ended. + +"They needn't be afraid of my troubling them. Calm seas and +pleasure-boats! Stuff and nonsense!" Such was the first impression +which his wife's report of herself produced on Old Ronald's mind. After +a while, he looked at the letter again--and frowned, and reflected. +"Please let me hear of your visit beforehand," he repeated to himself, +as if the request had been, in some incomprehensible way, offensive to +him. He opened the drawer of his desk, and threw the letter into it. +When business was over for the day, he went to his club at the tavern, +and made himself unusually disagreeable to everybody. + +A week passed. In the interval he wrote briefly to his wife. "I'm all +right, and the shop goes on as usual." He also forwarded one or two +letters which came for Mrs. Ronald. No more news reached him from +Ramsgate. "I suppose they're enjoying themselves," he reflected. "The +house looks queer without them; I'll go to the club." + +He stayed later than usual, and drank more than usual, that night. It +was nearly one in the morning when he let himself in with his +latch-key, and went upstairs to bed. + +Approaching the toilette-table, he found a letter lying on it, +addressed to "Mr. Ronald--private." It was not in his wife's +handwriting; not in any handwriting known to him. The characters sloped +the wrong way, and the envelope bore no postmark. He eyed it over and +over suspiciously. At last he opened it, and read these lines: + +"You are advised by a true friend to lose no time in looking after your +wife. There are strange doings at the seaside. If you don't believe me, +ask Mrs. Turner, Number 1, Slains Row, Ramsgate." + +No address, no date, no signature--an anonymous letter, the first he +had ever received in the long course of his life. + +His hard brain was in no way affected by the liquor that he had drunk. +He sat down on his bed, mechanically folding and refolding the letter. +The reference to "Mrs. Turner" produced no impression on him of any +sort: no person of that name, common as it was, happened to be numbered +on the list of his friends or his customers. But for one circumstance, +he would have thrown the letter aside, in contempt. His memory reverted +to his wife's incomprehensible behaviour at parting. Addressing him +through that remembrance, the anonymous warning assumed a certain +importance to his mind. He went down to his desk, in the back office, +and took his wife's letter out of the drawer, and read it through +slowly. "Ha!" he said, pausing as he came across the sentence which +requested him to write beforehand, in the unlikely event of his +deciding to go to Ramsgate. He thought again of the strangely +persistent way in which his wife had dwelt on his trusting her; he +recalled her nervous anxious looks, her deepening colour, her agitation +at one moment, and then her sudden silence and sudden retreat to the +cab. Fed by these irritating influences, the inbred suspicion in his +nature began to take fire slowly. She might be innocent enough in +asking him to give her notice before he joined her at the seaside--she +might naturally be anxious to omit no needful preparation for his +comfort. Still, he didn't like it; no, he didn't like it. An appearance +as of a slow collapse passed little by little over his rugged wrinkled +face. He looked many years older than his age, as he sat at the desk, +with the flaring candlelight close in front of him, thinking. The +anonymous letter lay before him, side by side with his wife's letter. +On a sudden, he lifted his gray head, and clenched his fist, and struck +the venomous written warning as if it had been a living thing that +could feel. "Whoever you are," he said, "I'll take your advice." + +He never even made the attempt to go to bed that night. His pipe helped +him through the comfortless and dreary hours. Once or twice he thought +of his daughter. Why had her mother been so anxious about her? Why had +her mother taken her to Ramsgate? Perhaps, as a blind--ah, yes, perhaps +as a blind! More for the sake of something to do than for any other +reason, he packed a handbag with a few necessaries. As soon as the +servant was stirring, he ordered her to make him a cup of strong +coffee. After that, it was time to show himself as usual, on the +opening of the shop. To his astonishment, he found his clerk taking +down the shutters, in place of the porter. + +"What does this mean?" he asked. "Where is Farnaby?" + +The clerk looked at his master, and paused aghast with a shutter in his +hands. + +"Good Lord! what has come to you?" he cried. "Are you ill?" + +Old Ronald angrily repeated his question: "Where is Farnaby?" + +"I don't know," was the answer. + +"You don't know? Have you been up to his bedroom?" + +"Yes." + +"Well?" + +"Well, he isn't in his bedroom. And, what's more, his bed hasn't been +slept in last night. Farnaby's off, sir--nobody knows where." + +Old Ronald dropped heavily into the nearest chair. This second mystery, +following on the mystery of the anonymous letter, staggered him. But +his business instincts were still in good working order. He held out +his keys to the clerk. "Get the petty cash-book," he said, "and see if +the money is all right." + +The clerk received the keys under protest. _"That's_ not the right +reading of the riddle," he remarked. + +"Do as I tell you!" + +The clerk opened the money-drawer under the counter; counted the +pounds, shillings and pence paid by chance customers up to the closing +of the shop on the previous evening; compared the result with the petty +cash-book, and answered, "Right to a halfpenny." + +Satisfied so far, old Ronald condescended to approach the speculative +side of the subject, with the assistance of his subordinate. "If what +you said just now means anything," he resumed, "it means that you +suspect the reason why Farnaby has left my service. Let's hear it." + +"You know that I never liked John Farnaby," the clerk began. "An active +young fellow and a clever young fellow, I grant you. But a bad servant +for all that. False, Mr. Ronald--false to the marrow of his bones." + +Mr. Ronald's patience began to give way. "Come to the facts," he +growled. "Why has Farnaby gone off without a word to anybody? Do you +know that?" + +"I know no more than you do," the clerk answered coolly. "Don't fly +into a passion. I have got some facts for you, if you will only give me +time. Turn them over in your own mind, and see what they come to. Three +days ago I was short of postage-stamps, and I went to the office. +Farnaby was there, waiting at the desk where they pay the post-office +orders. There must have been ten or a dozen people with letters, +orders, and what not, between him and me. I got behind him quietly, and +looked over his shoulder. I saw the clerk give him the money for his +post-office order. Five pounds in gold, which I reckoned as they lay on +the counter, and a bank-note besides, which he crumpled up in his hand. +I can't tell you how much it was for; I only know it _was_ a bank-note. +Just ask yourself how a porter on twenty shillings a week (with a +mother who takes in washing, and a father who takes in drink) comes to +have a correspondent who sends him an order for five sovereigns--and a +bank-note, value unknown. Say he's turned betting-man in secret. Very +good. There's the post-office order, in that case, to show that he's +got a run of luck. If he has got a run of luck, tell me this--why does +he leave his place like a thief in the night? He's not a slave; he's +not even an apprentice. When he thinks he can better himself, he has no +earthly need to keep it a secret that he means to leave your service. +He may have met with an accident, to be sure. But that's not _my_ +belief. I say he's up to some mischief And now comes the question: What +are we to do?" + +Mr. Ronald, listening with his head down, and without interposing a +word on his own part, made an extraordinary answer. "Leave it," he +said. "Leave it till tomorrow." + +"Why?" the clerk answered, without ceremony. + +Mr. Ronald made another extraordinary answer. "Because I am obliged to +go out of town for the day. Look after the business. The ironmonger's +man over the way will help you to put up the shutters at night. If +anybody inquires for me, say I shall be back tomorrow." With those +parting directions, heedless of the effect that he had produced on the +clerk, he looked at his watch, and left the shop. + + +IV + +The bell which gave five minutes' notice of the starting of the +Ramsgate train had just rung. + +While the other travellers were hastening to the platform, two persons +stood passively apart as if they had not even yet decided on taking +their places in the train. One of the two was a smart young man in a +cheap travelling suit; mainly noticeable by his florid complexion, his +restless dark eyes, and his profusely curling black hair. The other was +a middle-aged woman in frowsy garments; tall and stout, sly and sullen. +The smart young man stood behind the uncongenial-looking person with +whom he had associated himself, using her as a screen to hide him while +he watched the travellers on their way to the train. As the bell rang, +the woman suddenly faced her companion, and pointed to the railway +clock. + +"Are you waiting to make up your mind till the train has gone?" she +asked. + +The young man frowned impatiently. "I am waiting for a person whom I +expect to see," he answered. "If the person travels by this train, we +shall travel by it. If not, we shall come back here, and look out for +the next train, and so on till night-time, if it's necessary." + +The woman fixed her small scowling gray eyes on the man as he replied +in those terms. "Look here!" she broke out. "I like to see my way +before me. You're a stranger, young Mister; and it's as likely as not +you've given me a false name and address. That don't matter. False +names are commoner than true ones, in my line of life. But mind this! I +don't stir a step farther till I've got half the money in my hand, and +my return-ticket there and back." + +"Hold your tongue!" the man suddenly interposed in a whisper. "It's all +right. I'll get the tickets." + +He looked while he spoke at an elderly traveller, hastening by with his +head down, deep in thought, noticing nobody. The traveller was Mr. +Ronald. The young man, who had that moment recognized him, was his +runaway porter, John Farnaby. + +Returning with the tickets, the porter took his repellent travelling +companion by the arm, and hurried her along the platform to the train. +"The money!" she whispered, as they took their places. Farnaby handed +it to her, ready wrapped up in a morsel of paper. She opened the paper, +satisfied herself that no trick had been played her, and leaned back in +her corner to go to sleep. The train started. Old Ronald travelled by +the second class; his porter and his porter's companion accompanied him +secretly by the third. + +V + +It was still early in the afternoon when Mr. Ronald descended the +narrow street which leads from the high land of the South-Eastern +railway station to the port of Ramsgate. Asking his way of the first +policeman whom he met, he turned to the left, and reached the cliff on +which the houses in Albion Place are situated. Farnaby followed him at +a discreet distance; and the woman followed Farnaby. + +Arrived in sight of the lodging-house, Mr. Ronald paused--partly to +recover his breath, partly to compose himself. He was conscious of a +change of feeling as he looked up at the windows: his errand suddenly +assumed a contemptible aspect in his own eyes. He almost felt ashamed +of himself. After twenty years of undisturbed married life, was it +possible that he had doubted his wife--and that at the instigation of a +stranger whose name even was unknown to him? "If she was to step out in +the balcony, and see me down here," he thought, "what a fool I should +look!" He felt half-inclined, at the moment when he lifted the knocker +of the door, to put it back again quietly, and return to London. No! it +was too late. The maid-servant was hanging up her birdcage in the area +of the house; the maid-servant had seen him. + +"Does Mrs. Ronald lodge here?" he asked. + +The girl lifted her eyebrows and opened her mouth--stared at him in +speechless confusion--and disappeared in the kitchen regions. This +strange reception of his inquiry irritated him unreasonably. He knocked +with the absurd violence of a man who vents his anger on the first +convenient thing that he can find. The landlady opened the door, and +looked at him in stern and silent surprise. + +"Does Mrs. Ronald lodge here?" he repeated. + +The landlady answered with some appearance of effort--the effort of a +person who was carefully considering her words before she permitted +them to pass her lips. + +"Mrs. Ronald has taken rooms here. But she has not occupied them yet." + +"Not occupied them yet?" The words bewildered him as if they had been +spoken in an unknown tongue. He stood stupidly silent on the doorstep. +His anger was gone; an all-mastering fear throbbed heavily at his +heart. The landlady looked at him, and said to her secret self: "Just +what I suspected; there _is_ something wrong!" + +"Perhaps I have not sufficiently explained myself, sir," she resumed +with grave politeness. "Mrs. Ronald told me that she was staying at +Ramsgate with friends. She would move into my house, she said, when her +friends left--but they had not quite settled the day yet. She calls +here for letters. Indeed, she was here early this morning, to pay the +second week's rent. I asked when she thought of moving in. She didn't +seem to know; her friends (as I understood) had not made up their +minds. I must say I thought it a little odd. Would you like to leave +any message?" + +He recovered himself sufficiently to speak. "Can you tell me where her +friends live?" he said. + +The landlady shook her head. "No, indeed. I offered to save Mrs. Ronald +the trouble of calling here, by sending letters or cards to her present +residence. She declined the offer--and she has never mentioned the +address. Would you like to come in and rest, sir? I will see that your +card is taken care of, if you wish to leave it." + +"Thank you, ma'am--it doesn't matter--good morning." + +The landlady looked after him as he descended the house-steps. "It's +the husband, Peggy," she said to the servant, waiting inquisitively +behind her. "Poor old gentleman! And such a respectable-looking woman, +too!" + +Mr. Ronald walked mechanically to the end of the row of houses, and met +the wide grand view of sea and sky. There were some seats behind the +railing which fenced the edge of the cliff. He sat down, perfectly +stupefied and helpless, on the nearest bench. + +At the close of life, the loss of a man's customary nourishment extends +its debilitating influence rapidly from his body to his mind. Mr. +Ronald had tasted nothing but his cup of coffee since the previous +night. His mind began to wander strangely; he was not angry or +frightened or distressed. Instead of thinking of what had just +happened, he was thinking of his young days when he had been a +cricket-player. One special game revived in his memory, at which he had +been struck on the head by the ball. "Just the same feeling," he +reflected vacantly, with his hat off, and his hand on his forehead. +"Dazed and giddy--just the same feeling!" + +He leaned back on the bench, and fixed his eyes on the sea, and +wondered languidly what had come to him. Farnaby and the woman, still +following, waited round the corner where they could just keep him in +view. + +The blue lustre of the sky was without a cloud; the sunny sea leapt +under the fresh westerly breeze. From the beach, the cries of children +at play, the shouts of donkey-boys driving their poor beasts, the +distant notes of brass instruments playing a waltz, and the mellow +music of the small waves breaking on the sand, rose joyously together +on the fragrant air. On the next bench, a dirty old boatman was prosing +to a stupid old visitor. Mr. Ronald listened, with a sense of vacant +content in the mere act of listening. The boatman's words found their +way to his ears like the other sounds that were abroad in the air. +"Yes; them's the Goodwin Sands, where you see the lightship. And that +steamer there, towing a vessel into the harbour, that's the Ramsgate +Tug. Do you know what I should like to see? I should like to see the +Ramsgate Tug blow up. Why? I'll tell you why. I belong to Broadstairs; +I don't belong to Ramsgate. Very well. I'm idling here, as you may see, +without one copper piece in my pocket to rub against another. What +trade do I belong to? I don't belong to no trade; I belong to a boat. +The boat's rotting at Broadstairs, for want of work. And all along of +what? All along of the Tug. The Tug has took the bread out of our +mouths: me and my mates. Wait a bit; I'll show you how. What did a ship +do, in the good old times, when she got on them sands--Goodwin Sands? +Went to pieces, if it come on to blow; or got sucked down little by +little when it was fair weather. Now I'm coming to it. What did We do +(in the good old times, mind you) when we happened to see that ship in +distress? Out with our boat; blow high or blow low, out with our boat. +And saved the lives of the crew, did you say? Well, yes; saving the +crew was part of the day's work, to be sure; the part we didn't get +paid for. We saved _the cargo,_ Master! and got salvage!! Hundreds of +pounds, I tell you, divided amongst us by law!!! Ah, those times are +gone. A parcel of sneaks get together, and subscribe to build a +Steam-Tug. When a ship gets on the sands now, out goes the Tug, night +and day alike, and brings her safe into harbour, and takes the bread +out of our mouths. Shameful--that's what I call it--shameful." + +The last words of the boatman's lament fell lower, lower, lower on Mr. +Ronald's ears--he lost them altogether--he lost the view of the sea--he +lost the sense of the wind blowing over him. Suddenly, he was roused as +if from a deep sleep. On one side, the man from Broadstairs was shaking +him by the collar. "I say, Master, cheer up; what's come to you?" On +the other side, a compassionate lady was offering her smelling-bottle. +"I am afraid, sir, you have fainted." He struggled to his feet, and +vacantly thanked the lady. The man from Broadstairs--with an eye to +salvage--took charge of the human wreck, and towed him to the nearest +public-house. "A chop and a glass of brandy-and-water," said this good +Samaritan of the nineteenth century. "That's what you want. I'm peckish +myself, and I'll keep you company." + +He was perfectly passive in the hands of any one who would take charge +of him; he submitted as if he had been the boatman's dog, and had heard +the whistle. + +It could only be truly said that he had come to himself, when there had +been time enough for him to feel the reanimating influence of the food +and drink. Then he got to his feet, and looked with incredulous wonder +at the companion of his meal. The man from Broadstairs opened his +greasy lips, and was silenced by the sudden appearance of a gold coin +between Mr. Ronald's finger and thumb. "Don't speak to me; pay the +bill, and bring me the change outside." When the boatman joined him, he +was reading a letter; walking to and fro, and speaking at intervals to +himself. "God help me, have I lost my senses? I don't know what to do +next." He referred to the letter again: "if you don't believe me, ask +Mrs. Turner, Number 1, Slains Row, Ramsgate." He put the letter back in +his pocket, and rallied suddenly. "Slains Row," he said, turning to the +boatman. "Take me there directly, and keep the change for yourself." + +The boatman's gratitude was (apparently) beyond expression in words. He +slapped his pocket cheerfully, and that was all. Leading the way +inland, he went downhill, and uphill again--then turned aside towards +the eastern extremity of the town. + +Farnaby, still following, with the woman behind him, stopped when the +boatman diverged towards the east, and looked up at the name of the +street. "I've got my instructions," he said; "I know where he's going. +Step out! We'll get there before him, by another way." + +Mr. Ronald and his guide reached a row of poor little houses, with poor +little gardens in front of them and behind them. The back windows +looked out on downs and fields lying on either side of the road to +Broadstairs. It was a lost and lonely spot. The guide stopped, and put +a question with inquisitive respect. "What number, sir?" Mr. Ronald had +sufficiently recovered himself to keep his own counsel. "That will do," +he said. "You can leave me." The boatman waited a moment. Mr. Ronald +looked at him. The boatman was slow to understand that his leadership +had gone from him. "You're sure you don't want me any more?" he said. +"Quite sure," Mr. Ronald answered. The man from Broadstairs +retired--with his salvage to comfort him. + +Number 1 was at the farther extremity of the row of houses. When Mr. +Ronald rang the bell, the spies were already posted. The woman loitered +on the road, within view of the door. Farnaby was out of sight, round +the corner, watching the house over the low wooden palings of the back +garden. + +A lazy-looking man, in his shirt sleeves, opened the door. "Mrs. Turner +at home?" he repeated. "Well, she's at home; but she's too busy to see +anybody. What's your pleasure?" Mr. Ronald declined to accept excuses +or to answer questions. "I must see Mrs. Turner directly," he said, "on +important business." His tone and manner had their effect on the lazy +man. "What name?" he asked. Mr. Ronald declined to mention his name. +"Give my message," he said. "I won't detain Mrs. Turner more than a +minute." The man hesitated--and opened the door of the front parlour. +An old woman was fast asleep on a ragged little sofa. The man gave up +the front parlour, and tried the back parlour next. It was empty. +"Please to wait here," he said--and went away to deliver his message. + +The parlour was a miserably furnished room. Through the open window, +the patch of back garden was barely visible under fluttering rows of +linen hanging out on lines to dry. A pack of dirty cards, and some +plain needlework, littered the bare little table. A cheap American +clock ticked with stern and steady activity on the mantelpiece. The +smell of onions was in the air. A torn newspaper, with stains of beer +on it, lay on the floor. There was some sinister influence in the place +which affected Mr. Ronald painfully. He felt himself trembling, and sat +down on one of the rickety chairs. The minutes followed one another +wearily. He heard a trampling of feet in the room above--then a door +opened and closed--then the rustle of a woman's dress on the stairs. In +a moment more, the handle of the parlour door was turned. He rose, in +anticipation of Mrs. Turner's appearance. The door opened. He found +himself face to face with his wife. + +VI + +John Farnaby, posted at the garden paling, suddenly lifted his head and +looked towards the open window of the back parlour. He reflected for a +moment--and then joined his female companion on the road in front of +the house. + +"I want you at the back garden," he said. "Come along!" + +"How much longer am I to be kept kicking my heels in this wretched +hole?" the woman asked sulkily. + +"As much longer as I please--if you want to go back to London with the +other half of the money." He showed it to her as he spoke. She followed +him without another word. + +Arrived at the paling, Farnaby pointed to the window, and to the back +garden door, which was left ajar. "Speak softly," he whispered. "Do you +hear voices in the house?" + +"I don't hear what they're talking about, if that's what you mean." + +"I don't hear, either. Now mind what I tell you--I have reasons of my +own for getting a little nearer to that window. Sit down under the +paling, so that you can't be seen from the house. If you hear a row, +you may take it for granted that I am found out. In that case, go back +to London by the next train, and meet me at the terminus at two o'clock +tomorrow afternoon. If nothing happens, wait where you are till you +hear from me or see me again." + +He laid his hand on the low paling, and vaulted over it. The linen +hanging up in the garden to dry offered him a means of concealment (if +any one happened to look out of the window) of which he skilfully +availed himself. The dust-bin was at the side of the house, situated at +a right angle to the parlour window. He was safe behind the bin, +provided no one appeared on the path which connected the patch of +garden at the back with the patch in front. Here, running the risk, he +waited and listened. + +The first voice that reached his ears was the voice of Mrs. Ronald. She +was speaking with a firmness of tone that astonished him. + +"Hear me to the end, Benjamin," she said. "I have a right to ask as +much as that of my husband, and I do ask it. If I had been bent on +nothing but saving the reputation of our miserable girl, you would have +a right to blame me for keeping you ignorant of the calamity that has +fallen on us--" + +There the voice of her husband interposed sternly. "Calamity! Say +disgrace, everlasting disgrace." + +Mrs. Ronald did not notice the interruption. Sadly and patiently she +went on. + +"But I had a harder trial still to face," she said. "I had to save her, +in spite of herself, from the wretch who has brought this infamy on us. +He has acted throughout in cold blood; it is his interest to marry her, +and from first to last he has plotted to force the marriage on us. For +God's sake, don't speak loud! She is in the room above us; if she hears +you it will be the death of her. Don't suppose I am talking at random; +I have looked at his letters to her; I have got the confession of the +servant-girl. Such a confession! Emma is his victim, body and soul. I +know it! I know that she sent him money (_my_ money) from this place. I +know that the servant (at _her_ instigation) informed him by telegraph +of the birth of the child. Oh, Benjamin, don't curse the poor helpless +infant--such a sweet little girl! don't think of it! I don't think of +it! Show me the letter that brought you here; I want to see the letter. +Ah, I can tell you who wrote it! _He_ wrote it. In his own interests; +always with his own interests in view. Don't you see it for yourself? +If I succeed in keeping this shame and misery a secret from +everybody--if I take Emma away, to some place abroad, on pretence of +her health--there is an end of his hope of becoming your son-in-law; +there is an end of his being taken into the business. Yes! he, the +low-lived vagabond who puts up the shop-shutters, _he_ looks forward to +being taken into partnership, and succeeding you when you die! Isn't +his object in writing that letter as plain to you now as the heaven +above us? His one chance is to set your temper in a flame, to provoke +the scandal of a discovery--and to force the marriage on us as the only +remedy left. Am I wrong in making any sacrifice, rather than bind our +girl for life, our own flesh and blood, to such a man as that? Surely +you can feel for me, and forgive me, now. How could I own the truth to +you, before I left London, knowing you as I do? How could I expect you +to be patient, to go into hiding, to pass under a false name--to do all +the degrading things that must be done, if we are to keep Emma out of +this man's way? No! I know no more than you do where Farnaby is to be +found. Hush! there is the door-bell. It's the doctor's time for his +visit. I tell you again I don't know--on my sacred word of honour, I +don't know where Farnaby is. Oh, be quiet! be quiet! there's the doctor +going upstairs! don't let the doctor hear you!" + +So far, she had succeeded in composing her husband. But the fury which +she had innocently roused in him, in her eagerness to justify herself, +now broke beyond all control. "You lie!" he cried furiously. "If you +know everything else about it, you know where Farnaby is. I'll be the +death of him, if I swing for it on the gallows! Where is he? Where is +he?" + +A shriek from the upper room silenced him before Mrs. Ronald could +speak again. His daughter had heard him; his daughter had recognized +his voice. + +A cry of terror from her mother echoed the cry from above; the sound of +the opening and closing of the door followed instantly. Then there was +a momentary silence. Then Mrs. Ronald's voice was heard from the upper +room calling to the nurse, asleep in the front parlour. The nurse's +gruff tones were just audible, answering from the parlour door. There +was another interval of silence; broken by another voice--a stranger's +voice--speaking at the open window, close by. + +"Follow me upstairs, sir, directly," the voice said in peremptory +tones. "As your daughter's medical attendant, I tell you in the +plainest terms that you have seriously frightened her. In her critical +condition, I decline to answer for her life, unless you make the +attempt at least to undo the mischief you have done. Whether you mean +it or not, soothe her with kind words; say you have forgiven her. No! I +have nothing to do with your domestic troubles; I have only my patient +to think of. I don't care what she asks of you, you must give way to +her now. If she falls into convulsions, she will die--and her death +will be at your door." + +So, with feebler and feebler interruptions from Mr. Ronald, the doctor +spoke. It ended plainly in his being obeyed. The departing footsteps of +the men were the next sounds to be heard. After that, there was a pause +of silence--a long pause, broken by Mrs. Ronald, calling again from the +upper regions. "Take the child into the back parlour, nurse, and wait +till I come to you. It's cooler there, at this time of the day." + +The wailing of an infant, and the gruff complaining of the nurse, were +the next sounds that reached Farnaby in his hiding place. The nurse was +grumbling to herself over the grievance of having been awakened from +her sleep. "After being up all night, a person wants rest. There's no +rest for anybody in this house. My head's as heavy as lead, and every +bone in me has got an ache in it." + +Before long, the renewed silence indicated that she had succeeded in +hushing the child to sleep. Farnaby forgot the restraints of caution +for the first time. His face flushed with excitement; he ventured +nearer to the window, in his eagerness to find out what might happen +next. After no long interval, the next sound came--a sound of heavy +breathing, which told him that the drowsy nurse was falling asleep +again. The window-sill was within reach of his hands. He waited until +the heavy breathing deepened to snoring. Then he drew himself up by the +window-sill, and looked into the room. + +The nurse was fast asleep in an armchair; and the child was fast asleep +on her lap. + +He dropped softly to the ground again. Taking off his shoes, and +putting them in his pockets, he ascended the two or three steps which +led to the half-open back garden door. Arrived in the passage, he could +just hear them talking upstairs. They were no doubt still absorbed in +their troubles; he had only the servant to dread. The splashing of +water in the kitchen informed him that she was safely occupied in +washing. Slowly and softly he opened the back parlour door, and stole +across the room to the nurse's chair. + +One of her hands still rested on the child. The serious risk was the +risk of waking her, if he lost his presence of mind and hurried it! + +He glanced at the American clock on the mantelpiece. The result +relieved him; it was not so late as he had feared. He knelt down, to +steady himself, as nearly as possible on a level with the nurse's +knees. By a hair's breadth at a time, he got both hands under the +child. By a hair's breadth at a time, he drew the child away from her; +leaving her hand resting on her lap by degrees so gradual that the +lightest sleeper could not have felt the change. That done (barring +accidents), all was done. Keeping the child resting easily on his left +arm, he had his right hand free to shut the door again. Arrived at the +garden steps, a slight change passed over the sleeping infant's +face--the delicate little creature shivered as it felt the full flow of +the open air. He softly laid over its face a corner of the woollen +shawl in which it was wrapped. The child reposed as quietly on his arm +as if it had still been on the nurse's lap. + +In a minute more he was at the paling. The woman rose to receive him, +with the first smile that had crossed her face since they had left +London. + +"So you've got the baby," she said, "Well, you _are_ a deep one!" + +"Take it," he answered irritably. "We haven't a moment to lose." + +Only stopping to put on his shoes, he led the way towards the more +central part of the town. The first person he met directed him to the +railway station. It was close by. In five minutes more the woman and +the baby were safe in the train to London. + +"There's the other half of the money," he said, handing it to her +through the carriage window. + +The woman eyed the child in her arms with a frowning expression of +doubt. "All very well as long as it lasts," she said. "And what after +that?" + +"Of course, I shall call and see you," he answered. + +She looked hard at him, and expressed the whole value she set on that +assurance in four words. "Of course you will!" + +The train started for London. Farnaby watched it, as it left the +platform, with a look of unfeigned relief. "There!" he thought to +himself. "Emma's reputation is safe enough now! When we are married, we +mustn't have a love-child in the way of our prospects in life." + +Leaving the station, he stopped at the refreshment room, and drank a +glass of brandy-and-water. "Something to screw me up," he thought, "for +what is to come." What was to come (after he had got rid of the child) +had been carefully considered by him, on the journey to Ramsgate. +"Emma's husband-that-is-to-be"--he had reasoned it out--"will naturally +be the first person Emma wants to see, when the loss of the baby has +upset the house. If Old Ronald has a grain of affection left in him, he +must let her marry me after _that!"_ + +Acting on this view of his position, he took the way that led back to +Slains Row, and rang the door-bell as became a visitor who had no +reasons for concealment now. + +The household was doubtless already disorganized by the discovery of +the child's disappearance. Neither master nor servant was active in +answering the bell. Farnaby submitted to be kept waiting with perfect +composure. There are occasions on which a handsome man is bound to put +his personal advantages to their best use. He took out his pocket-comb, +and touched up the arrangement of his whiskers with a skilled and +gentle hand. Approaching footsteps made themselves heard along the +passage at last. Farnaby put back his comb, and buttoned his coat +briskly. "Now for it!" he said, as the door was opened at last. + + + +THE STORY + +BOOK THE FIRST + +AMELIUS AMONG THE SOCIALISTS + +CHAPTER 1 + +Sixteen years after the date of Mr. Ronald's disastrous discovery at +Ramsgate--that is to say, in the year 1872--the steamship _Aquila_ left +the port of New York, bound for Liverpool. + +It was the month of September. The passenger-list of the _Aquila_ had +comparatively few names inscribed on it. In the autumn season, the +voyage from America to England, but for the remunerative value of the +cargo, would prove to be for the most part a profitless voyage to +shipowners. The flow of passengers, at that time of year, sets steadily +the other way. Americans are returning from Europe to their own +country. Tourists have delayed the voyage until the fierce August heat +of the United States has subsided, and the delicious Indian summer is +ready to welcome them. At bed and board the passengers by the _Aquila_ +on her homeward voyage had plenty of room, and the choicest morsels for +everybody alike on the well spread dinner-table. + +The wind was favourable, the weather was lovely. Cheerfulness and +good-humour pervaded the ship from stem to stern. The courteous captain +did the honours of the cabin-table with the air of a gentleman who was +receiving friends in his own house. The handsome doctor promenaded the +deck arm-in-arm with ladies in course of rapid recovery from the first +gastric consequences of travelling by sea. The excellent chief +engineer, musical in his leisure moments to his fingers' ends, played +the fiddle in his cabin, accompanied on the flute by that young Apollo +of the Atlantic trade, the steward's mate. Only on the third morning of +the voyage was the harmony on board the _Aquila_ disturbed by a passing +moment of discord--due to an unexpected addition to the ranks of the +passengers, in the shape of a lost bird! + +It was merely a weary little land-bird (blown out of its course, as the +learned in such matters supposed); and it perched on one of the yards +to rest and recover itself after its long flight. + +The instant the creature was discovered, the insatiable Anglo-Saxon +delight in killing birds, from the majestic eagle to the contemptible +sparrow, displayed itself in its full frenzy. The crew ran about the +decks, the passengers rushed into their cabins, eager to seize the +first gun and to have the first shot. An old quarter-master of the +_Aquila_ was the enviable man, who first found the means of destruction +ready to his hand. He lifted the gun to his shoulder, he had his finger +on the trigger, when he was suddenly pounced upon by one of the +passengers--a young, slim, sunburnt, active man--who snatched away the +gun, discharged it over the side of the vessel, and turned furiously on +the quarter-master. "You wretch! would you kill the poor weary bird +that trusts our hospitality, and only asks us to give it a rest? That +little harmless thing is as much one of God's creatures as you are. I'm +ashamed of you--I'm horrified at you--you've got bird-murder in your +face; I hate the sight of you!" + +The quarter-master--a large grave fat man, slow alike in his bodily and +his mental movements--listened to this extraordinary remonstrance with +a fixed stare of amazement, and an open mouth from which the unspat +tobacco-juice tricked in little brown streams. When the impetuous young +gentleman paused (not for want of words, merely for want of breath), +the quarter-master turned about, and addressed himself to the audience +gathered round. "Gentlemen," he said, with a Roman brevity, "this young +fellow is mad." + +The captain's voice checked the general outbreak of laughter. "That +will do, quarter-master. Let it be understood that nobody is to shoot +the bird--and let me suggest to _you,_ sir, that you might have +expressed your sentiments quite as effectually in less violent +language." + +Addressed in those terms, the impetuous young man burst into another +fit of excitement. "You're quite right, sir! I deserve every word you +have said to me; I feel I have disgraced myself." He ran after the +quartermaster, and seized him by both hands. "I beg your pardon; I beg +your pardon with all my heart. You would have served me right if you +had thrown me overboard after the language I used to you. Pray excuse +my quick temper; pray forgive me. What do you say? 'Let bygones _be_ +bygones'? That's a capital way of putting it. You're a thorough good +fellow. If I can ever be of the smallest use to you (there's my card +and address in London), let me know it; I entreat you let me know it." +He returned in a violent hurry to the captain. "I've made it up with +the quarter-master, sir. He forgives me; he bears no malice. Allow me +to congratulate you on having such a good Christian in your ship. I +wish I was like him! Excuse me, ladies and gentlemen, for the +disturbance I have made. It shan't happen again--I promise you that." + +The male travellers in general looked at each other, and seemed to +agree with the quarter-master's opinion of their fellow-passenger. The +women, touched by his evident sincerity, and charmed with his handsome +blushing eager face, agreed that he was quite right to save the poor +bird, and that it would be all the better for the weaker part of +creation generally if other men were more like him. While the various +opinions were still in course of expression, the sound of the luncheon +bell cleared the deck of the passengers, with two exceptions. One was +the impetuous young man. The other was a middle-aged traveller, with a +grizzled beard and a penetrating eye, who had silently observed the +proceedings, and who now took the opportunity of introducing himself to +the hero of the moment. + +"Are you not going to take any luncheon?" he asked. + +"No, sir. Among the people I have lived with we don't eat at intervals +of three or four hours, all day long." + +"Will you excuse me," pursued the other, "if I own I should like to +know _what_ people you have been living with? My name is Hethcote; I +was associated, at one time of my life, with a college devoted to the +training of young men. From what I have seen and heard this morning, I +fancy you have not been educated on any of the recognized systems that +are popular at the present day. Am I right?" + +The excitable young man suddenly became the picture of resignation, and +answered in a formula of words as if he was repeating a lesson. + +"I am Claude-Amelius-Goldenheart. Aged twenty-one. Son, and only child, +of the late Claude Goldenheart, of Shedfield Heath, Buckinghamshire, +England. I have been brought up by the Primitive Christian Socialists, +at Tadmor Community, State of Illinois. I have inherited an income of +five hundred a year. And I am now, with the approval of the Community, +going to London to see life." + +Mr. Hethcote received this copious flow of information, in some doubt +whether he had been made the victim of coarse raillery, or whether he +had merely heard a quaint statement of facts. + +Claude-Amelius-Goldenheart saw that he had produced an unfavourable +impression, and hastened to set himself right. + +"Excuse me, sir," he said, "I am not making game of you, as you seem to +suppose. We are taught to be courteous to everybody, in our Community. +The truth is, there seems to be something odd about me (I'm sure I +don't know what), which makes people whom I meet on my travels curious +to know who I am. If you'll please to remember, it's a long way from +Illinois to New York, and curious strangers are not scarce on the +journey. When one is obliged to keep on saying the same thing over and +over again, a form saves a deal of trouble. I have made a form for +myself--which is respectfully at the disposal of any person who does me +the honour to wish for my acquaintance. Will that do, sir? Very well, +then; shake hands, to show you're satisfied." + +Mr. Hethcote shook hands, more than satisfied. He found it impossible +to resist the bright honest brown eyes, the simple winning cordial +manner of the young fellow with the quaint formula and the strange +name. "Come, Mr. Goldenheart," he said, leading the way to a seat on +deck, "let us sit down comfortably, and have a talk." + +"Anything you like, sir--but don't call me Mr. Goldenheart." + +"Why not?" + +"Well, it sounds formal. And, besides, you're old enough to be my +father; it's _my_ duty to call _you_ Mister--or Sir, as we say to our +elders at Tadmor. I have left all my friends behind me at the +Community--and I feel lonely out here on this big ocean, among +strangers. Do me a kindness, sir. Call me by my Christian name; and +give me a friendly slap on the back if you find we get along smoothly +in the course of the day." + +"Which of your names shall it be?" Mr. Hethcote asked, humouring this +odd lad. "Claude?" + +"No. Not Claude. The Primitive Christians said Claude was a finicking +French name. Call me Amelius, and I shall begin to feel at home again. +If you're in a hurry, cut it down to three letters (as they did at +Tadmor), and call me Mel." + +"Very good," said Mr. Hethcote. "Now, my friend Amelius (or Mel), I am +going to speak out plainly, as you do. The Primitive Christian +Socialists must have great confidence in their system of education, to +turn you adrift in the world without a companion to look after you." + +"You've hit it, sir," Amelius answered coolly. "They have unlimited +confidence in their system of education. And I'm a proof of it." + +"You have relations in London, I suppose?" Mr. Hethcote proceeded. + +For the first time the face of Amelius showed a shadow of sadness on +it. + +"I have relations," he said. "But I have promised never to claim their +hospitality. 'They are hard and worldly; and they will make you hard +and worldly, too.' That's what my father said to me on his deathbed." +He took off his hat when he mentioned his father's death, and came to a +sudden pause--with his head bent down, like a man absorbed in thought. +In less than a minute he put on his hat again, and looked up with his +bright winning smile. "We say a little prayer for the loved ones who +are gone, when we speak of them," he explained. "But we don't say it +out loud, for fear of seeming to parade our religious convictions. We +hate cant in our Community." + +"I cordially agree with the Community, Amelius. But, my good fellow, +have you really no friend to welcome you when you get to London?" + +Amelius answered the question mysteriously. "Wait a little!" he +said--and took a letter from the breast-pocket of his coat. Mr. +Hethcote, watching him, observed that he looked at the address with +unfeigned pride and pleasure. + +"One of our brethren at the Community has given me this," he announced. +"It's a letter of introduction, sir, to a remarkable man--a man who is +an example to all the rest of us. He has risen, by dint of integrity +and perseverance, from the position of a poor porter in a shop to be +one of the most respected mercantile characters in the City of London." + +With this explanation, Amelius handed his letter to Mr. Hethcote. It +was addressed as follows:-- + + To John Farnaby, Esquire, + Messrs. Ronald & Farnaby, + Stationers, + Aldersgate Street, London. + + + +CHAPTER 2 + +Mr. Hethcote looked at the address on the letter with an expression of +surprise, which did not escape the notice of Amelius. "Do you know Mr. +Farnaby?" he asked. + +"I have some acquaintance with him," was the answer, given with a +certain appearance of constraint. + +Amelius went on eagerly with his questions. "What sort of man is he? Do +you think he will be prejudiced against me, because I have been brought +up in Tadmor?" + +"I must be a little better acquainted, Amelius, with you and Tadmor +before I can answer your question. Suppose you tell me how you became +one of the Socialists, to begin with?" + +"I was only a little boy, Mr. Hethcote, at that time." + +"Very good. Even little boys have memories. Is there any objection to +your telling me what you can remember?" + +Amelius answered rather sadly, with his eyes bent on the deck. "I +remember something happening which threw a gloom over us at home in +England. I heard that my mother was concerned in it. When I grew older, +I never presumed to ask my father what it was; and he never offered to +tell me. I only know this: that he forgave her some wrong she had done +him, and let her go on living at home--and that relations and friends +all blamed him, and fell away from him, from that time. Not long +afterwards, while I was at school, my mother died. I was sent for, to +follow her funeral with my father. When we got back, and were alone +together, he took me on his knee and kissed me. 'Which will you do, +Amelius,' he said; 'stay in England with your uncle and aunt? or come +with me all the way to America, and never go back to England again? +Take time to think of it.' I wanted no time to think of it; I said, 'Go +with you, papa.' He frightened me by bursting out crying; it was the +first time I had ever seen him in tears. I can understand it now. He +had been cut to the heart, and had borne it like a martyr; and his boy +was his one friend left. Well, by the end of the week we were on board +the ship; and there we met a benevolent gentleman, with a long gray +beard, who bade my father welcome, and presented me with a cake. In my +ignorance, I thought he was the captain. Nothing of the sort. He was +the first Socialist I had ever seen; and it was he who had persuaded my +father to leave England." + +Mr. Hethcote's opinions of Socialists began to show themselves (a +little sourly) in Mr. Hethcote's smile. "And how did you get on with +this benevolent gentleman?" he asked. "After converting your father, +did he convert you--with the cake?" + +Amelius smiled. "Do him justice, sir; he didn't trust to the cake. He +waited till we were in sight of the American land--and then he preached +me a little sermon, on our arrival, entirely for my own use." + +"A sermon?" Mr. Hethcote repeated. "Very little religion in it, I +suspect." + +"Very little indeed, sir," Amelius answered. "Only as much religion as +there is in the New Testament. I was not quite old enough to understand +him easily--so he wrote down his discourse on the fly-leaf of a +story-book I had with me, and gave it to me to read when I was tired of +the stories. Stories were scarce with me in those days; and, when I had +exhausted my little stock, rather than read nothing I read my +sermon--read it so often that I think I can remember every word of it +now. 'My dear little boy, the Christian religion, as Christ taught it, +has long ceased to be the religion of the Christian world. A selfish +and cruel Pretence is set up in its place. Your own father is one +example of the truth of this saying of mine. He has fulfilled the first +and foremost duty of a true Christian--the duty of forgiving an injury. +For this, he stands disgraced in the estimation of all his friends: +they have renounced and abandoned him. He forgives them, and seeks +peace and good company in the New World, among Christians like himself. +You will not repent leaving home with him; you will be one of a loving +family, and, when you are old enough, you will be free to decide for +yourself what your future life shall be.' That was all I knew about the +Socialists, when we reached Tadmor after our long journey." + +Mr. Hethcote's prejudices made their appearance again. "A barren sort +of place," he said, "judging by the name." + +"Barren? What can you be thinking of? A prettier place I never saw, and +never expect to see again. A clear winding river, running into a little +blue lake. A broad hill-side, all laid out in flower-gardens, and +shaded by splendid trees. On the top of the hill, the buildings of the +Community, some of brick and some of wood, so covered with creepers and +so encircled with verandahs that I can't tell you to this day what +style of architecture they were built in. More trees behind the +houses--and, on the other side of the hill, cornfields, nothing but +cornfields rolling away and away in great yellow plains, till they +reached the golden sky and the setting sun, and were seen no more. That +was our first view of Tadmor, when the stage-coach dropped us at the +town." + +Mr. Hethcote still held out. "And what about the people who live in +this earthly Paradise?" he asked. "Male and female saints--eh?" + +"Oh dear no, sir! The very opposite of saints. They eat and drink like +their neighbours. They never think of wearing dirty horsehair when they +can get clean linen. And when they are tempted to misconduct +themselves, they find a better way out of it than knotting a cord and +thrashing their own backs. Saints! They all ran out together to bid us +welcome like a lot of school-children; the first thing they did was to +kiss us, and the next thing was to give us a mug of wine of their own +making. Saints! Oh, Mr. Hethcote, what will you accuse us of being +next? I declare your suspicions of the poor Socialists keep cropping up +again as fast as I cut them down. May I make a guess, sir, without +offending you? From one or two things I have noticed, I strongly +suspect you're a British clergyman." + +Mr. Hethcote was conquered at last: he burst out laughing. "You have +discovered me," he said, "travelling in a coloured cravat and a +shooting jacket! I confess I should like to know how." + +"It's easily explained, sir. Visitors of all sorts are welcome at +Tadmor. We have a large experience of them in the travelling season. +They all come with their own private suspicion of us lurking about the +corners of their eyes. They see everything we have to show them, and +eat and drink at our table, and join in our amusements, and get as +pleasant and friendly with us as can be. The time comes to say +goodbye--and then we find them out. If a guest who has been laughing +and enjoying himself all day, suddenly becomes serious when he takes +his leave, and shows that little lurking devil of suspicion again about +the corners of his eyes--it's ten chances to one that he's a clergyman. +No offence, Mr. Hethcote! I acknowledge with pleasure that the corners +of _your_ eyes are clear again. You're not a very clerical clergyman, +sir, after all--I don't despair of converting you, yet!" + +"Go on with your story, Amelius. You're the queerest fellow I have met +with, for many a long day past." + +"I'm a little doubtful about going on with my story, sir. I have told +you how I got to Tadmor, and what it looks like, and what sort of +people live in the place. If I am to get on beyond that, I must jump to +the time when I was old enough to learn the Rules of the Community." + +"Well--and what then?" + +"Well, Mr. Hethcote, some of the Rules might offend you." + +"Try!" + +"All right, sir! don't blame me; _I'm_ not ashamed of the Rules. And +now, if I am to speak, I must speak seriously on a serious subject; I +must begin with our religious principles. We find our Christianity in +the spirit of the New Testament--not in the letter. We have three good +reasons for objecting to pin our faith on the words alone, in that +book. First, because we are not sure that the English translation is +always to be depended on as accurate and honest. Secondly, because we +know that (since the invention of printing) there is not a copy of the +book in existence which is free from errors of the press, and that +(before the invention of printing) those errors, in manuscript copies, +must as a matter of course have been far more serious and far more +numerous. Thirdly, because there is plain internal evidence (to say +nothing of discoveries actually made in the present day) of +interpolations and corruptions, introduced into the manuscript copies +as they succeeded each other in ancient times. These drawbacks are of +no importance, however, in our estimation. We find, in the spirit of +the book, the most simple and most perfect system of religion and +morality that humanity has ever received--and with that we are content. +To reverence God; and to love our neighbour as ourselves: if we had +only those two commandments to guide us, we should have enough. The +whole collection of Doctrines (as they are called) we reject at once, +without even stopping to discuss them. We apply to them the test +suggested by Christ himself: by their fruits ye shall know them. The +fruits of Doctrines, in the past (to quote three instances only), have +been the Spanish Inquisition, the Massacre of St. Bartholomew, and the +Thirty Years' War--and the fruits, in the present, are dissension, +bigotry, and opposition to useful reforms. Away with Doctrines! In the +interests of Christianity, away with them! We are to love our enemies; +we are to forgive injuries; we are to help the needy; we are to be +pitiful and courteous, slow to judge others, and ashamed to exalt +ourselves. That teaching doesn't lead to tortures, massacres, and wars; +to envy, hatred, and malice--and for that reason it stands revealed to +us as the teaching that we can trust. There is our religion, sir, as we +find it in the Rules of the Community." + +"Very well, Amelius. I notice, in passing, that the Community is in one +respect like the Pope--the Community is infallible. We won't dwell on +that. You have stated your principles. As to the application of them +next? Nobody has a right to be rich among you, of course?" + +"Put it the other way, Mr. Hethcote. All men have a right to be +rich--provided they don't make other people poor, as a part of the +process. We don't trouble ourselves much about money; that's the truth. +We are farmers, carpenters, weavers, and printers; and what we earn +(ask our neighbours if we don't earn it honestly) goes into the common +fund. A man who comes to us with money puts it into the fund, and so +makes things easy for the next man who comes with empty pockets. While +they are with us, they all live in the same comfort, and have their +equal share in the same profits--deducting the sum in reverse for +sudden calls and bad times. If they leave us, the man who has brought +money with him has his undisputed right to take it away again; and the +man who has brought none bids us good-bye, all the richer for his equal +share in the profits which he has personally earned. The only fuss at +our place about money that I can remember was the fuss about my five +hundred a year. I wanted to hand it over to the fund. It was my own, +mind--inherited from my mother's property, on my coming of age. The +Elders wouldn't hear of it: the Council wouldn't hear of it: the +general vote of the Community wouldn't hear of it. 'We agreed with his +father that he should decide for himself, when he grew to +manhood'--that was how they put it. 'Let him go back to the Old World; +and let him be free to choose, by the test of his own experience, what +his future life shall be.' How do you think it will end, Mr. Hethcote? +Shall I return to the Community? Or shall I stop in London?" + +Mr. Hethcote answered, without a moment's hesitation. "You will stop in +London." + +"I'll bet you two to one, Sir, he goes back to the Community." + +In those words, a third voice (speaking in a strong New England accent) +insinuated itself into the conversation from behind. Amelius and Mr. +Hethcote, looking round, discovered a long, lean, grave stranger--with +his face overshadowed by a huge felt hat. "Have you been listening to +our conversation?" Mr. Hethcote asked haughtily. + +"I have been listening," answered the grave stranger, "with +considerable interest. This young man, I find, opens a new chapter to +me in the book of humanity. Do you accept my bet, Sir? My name is Rufus +Dingwell; and my home is at Coolspring, Mass. You do _not_ bet? I +express my regret, and have the pleasure of taking a seat alongside of +you. What is your name, Sir? Hethcote? We have one of that name at +Coolspring. He is much respected. Mr. Claude A. Goldenheart, you are no +stranger to me--no, Sir. I procured your name from the steward, when +the little difficulty occurred just now about the bird. Your name +considerably surprised me." + +"Why?" Amelius asked. + +"Well, sir--not to say that your surname (being Goldenheart) reminds +one unexpectedly of _The Pilgrim's Progress_--I happen to be already +acquainted with you. By reputation." + +Amelius looked puzzled. "By reputation?" he said. "What does that +mean?" + +"It means, sir, that you occupy a prominent position in a recent number +of our popular journal, entitled _The Coolspring Democrat._ The late +romantic incident which caused the withdrawal of Miss Mellicent from +your Community has produced a species of social commotion at +Coolspring. Among our ladies, the tone of sentiment, Sir, is +universally favourable to you. When I left, I do assure you, you were a +popular character among us. The name of Claude A. Goldenheart was, so +to speak, in everybody's mouth." + +Amelius listened to this, with the colour suddenly deepening on his +face, and with every appearance of heartfelt annoyance and regret. +"There is no such thing as keeping a secret in America," he said, +irritably. "Some spy must have got among us; none of _our_ people would +have exposed the poor lady to public comment. How would you like it, +Mr. Dingwell, if the newspaper published the private sorrows of your +wife or your daughter?" + +Rufus Dingwell answered with the straightforward sincerity of feeling +which is one of the indisputable virtues of his nation. "I had not +thought of it in that light, sir," he said. "You have been good enough +to credit me with a wife or a daughter. I do not possess either of +those ladies; but your argument hits me, notwithstanding--hits me hard, +I tell you." He looked at Mr. Hethcote, who sat silently and stiffly +disapproving of all this familiarity, and applied himself in perfect +innocence and good faith to making things pleasant in that quarter. +"You are a stranger, Sir," said Rufus; "and you will doubtless wish to +peruse the article which is the subject of conversation?" He took a +newspaper slip from his pocket-book, and offered it to the astonished +Englishman. "I shall be glad to hear your sentiments, sir, on the view +propounded by our mutual friend, Claude A. Goldenheart." + +Before Mr. Hethcote could reply, Amelius interposed in his own headlong +way. "Give it to me! I want to read it first!" + +He snatched at the newspaper slip. Rufus checked him with grave +composure. "I am of a cool temperament myself, sir; but that don't +prevent me from admiring heat in others. Short of boiling point--mind +that!" With this hint, the wise New Englander permitted Amelius to take +possession of the printed slip. + +Mr. Hethcote, finding an opportunity of saying a word at last, asserted +himself a little haughtily. "I beg you will both of you understand that +I decline to read anything which relates to another person's private +affairs." + +Neither the one nor the other of his companions paid the slightest heed +to this announcement. Amelius was reading the newspaper extract, and +placid Rufus was watching him. In another moment, he crumpled up the +slip, and threw it indignantly on the deck. "It's as full of lies as it +can hold!" he burst out. + +"It's all over the United States, by this time," Rufus remarked. "And I +don't doubt we shall find the English papers have copied it, when we +get to Liverpool. If you will take my advice, sir, you will cultivate a +sagacious insensibility to the comments of the press." + +"Do you think I care for myself?" Amelius asked indignantly. "It's the +poor woman I am thinking of. What can I do to clear her character?" + +"Well, sir," suggested Rufus, "in your place, I should have a +notification circulated through the ship, announcing a lecture on the +subject (weather permitting) in the course of the afternoon. That's the +way we should do it at Coolspring." + +Amelius listened without conviction. "It's certainly useless to make a +secret of the matter now," he said; "but I don't see my way to making +it more public still." He paused, and looked at Mr. Hethcote. "It so +happens, sir," he resumed, "that this unfortunate affair is an example +of some of the Rules of our Community, which I had not had time to +speak of, when Mr. Dingwell here joined us. It will be a relief to me +to contradict these abominable falsehoods to somebody; and I should +like (if you don't mind) to hear what you think of my conduct, from +your own point of view. It might prepare me," he added, smiling rather +uneasily, "for what I may find in the English newspapers." + +With these words of introduction he told his sad story--jocosely +described in the newspaper heading as "Miss Mellicent and Goldenheart +among the Socialists at Tadmor." + + +CHAPTER 3 + +"Nearly six months since," said Amelius, "we had notice by letter of +the arrival of an unmarried English lady, who wished to become a member +of our Community. You will understand my motive in keeping her family +name a secret: even the newspaper has grace enough only to mention her +by her Christian name. I don't want to cheat you out of your interest; +so I will own at once that Miss Mellicent was not beautiful, and not +young. When she came to us, she was thirty-eight years old, and time +and trial had set their marks on her face plainly enough for anybody to +see. Notwithstanding this, we all thought her an interesting woman. It +might have been the sweetness of her voice; or perhaps it was something +in her expression that took our fancy. There! I can't explain it; I can +only say there were young women and pretty women at Tadmor who failed +to win us as Miss Mellicent did. Contradictory enough, isn't it?" + +Mr. Hethcote said he understood the contradiction. Rufus put an +appropriate question: "Do you possess a photograph of this lady, sir?" + +"No," said Amelius; "I wish I did. Well, we received her, on her +arrival, in the Common Room--called so because we all assemble there +every evening, when the work of the day is done. Sometimes we have the +reading of a poem or a novel; sometimes debates on the social and +political questions of the time in England and America; sometimes +music, or dancing, or cards, or billiards, to amuse us. When a new +member arrives, we have the ceremonies of introduction. I was close by +the Elder Brother (that's the name we give to the chief of the +Community) when two of the women led Miss Mellicent in. He's a hearty +old fellow, who lived the first part of his life on his own clearing in +one of the Western forests. To this day, he can't talk long, without +showing, in one way or another, that his old familiarity with the trees +still keeps its place in his memory. He looked hard at Miss Mellicent, +under his shaggy old white eyebrows; and I heard him whisper to +himself, 'Ah, dear me! Another of The Fallen Leaves!' I knew what he +meant. The people who have drawn blanks in the lottery of life--the +people who have toiled hard after happiness, and have gathered nothing +but disappointment and sorrow; the friendless and the lonely, the +wounded and the lost--these are the people whom our good Elder Brother +calls The Fallen Leaves. I like the saying myself; it's a tender way of +speaking of our poor fellow-creatures who are down in the world." + +He paused for a moment, looking out thoughtfully over the vast void of +sea and sky. A passing shadow of sadness clouded his bright young face. +The two elder men looked at him in silence, feeling (in widely +different ways) the same compassionate interest. What was the life that +lay before him? And--God help him!--what would he do with it? + +"Where did I leave off?" he asked, rousing himself suddenly. + +"You left Miss Mellicent, sir, in the Common Room--the venerable +citizen with the white eyebrows being suitably engaged in moralizing on +her." In those terms the ever-ready Rufus set the story going again. + +"Quite right," Amelius resumed. "There she was, poor thing, a little +thin timid creature, in a white dress, with a black scarf over her +shoulders, trembling and wondering in a room full of strangers. The +Elder Brother took her by the hand, and kissed her on the forehead, and +bade her heartily welcome in the name of the Community. Then the women +followed his example, and the men all shook hands with her. And then +our chief put the three questions, which he is bound to address to all +new arrivals when they join us: 'Do you come here of your own free +will? Do you bring with you a written recommendation from one of our +brethren, which satisfies us that we do no wrong to ourselves or to +others in receiving you? Do you understand that you are not bound to us +by vows, and that you are free to leave us again if the life here is +not agreeable to you?' Matters being settled so far, the reading of the +Rules, and the Penalties imposed for breaking them, came next. Some of +the Rules you know already; others of smaller importance I needn't +trouble you with. As for the Penalties, if you incur the lighter ones, +you are subject to public rebuke, or to isolation for a time from the +social life of the Community. If you incur the heavier ones, you are +either sent out into the world again for a given period, to return or +not as you please; or you are struck off the list of members, and +expelled for good and all. Suppose these preliminaries agreed to by +Miss Mellicent with silent submission, and let us go on to the close of +the ceremony--the reading of the Rules which settle the questions of +Love and Marriage." + +"Aha!" said Mr. Hethcote, "we are coming to the difficulties of the +Community at last!" + +"Are we also coming to Miss Mellicent, sir?" Rufus inquired. "As a +citizen of a free country in which I can love in one State, marry in +another, and be divorced in a third, I am not interested in your +Rules--I am interested in your Lady." + +"The two are inseparable in this case," Amelius answered gravely. "If I +am to speak of Miss Mellicent, I must speak of the Rules; you will soon +see why. Our Community becomes a despotism, gentlemen, in dealing with +love and marriage. For example, it positively prohibits any member +afflicted with hereditary disease from marrying at all; and it reserves +to itself, in the case of every proposed marriage among us, the right +of permitting or forbidding it, in council. We can't even fall in love +with each other, without being bound, under penalties, to report it to +the Elder Brother; who, in his turn, communicates it to the monthly +council; who, in their turn, decide whether the courtship may go on or +not. That's not the worst of it, even yet! In some cases--where we +haven't the slightest intention of falling in love with each other--the +governing body takes the initiative. 'You two will do well to marry; we +see it, if you don't. Just think of it, will you?' You may laugh; some +of our happiest marriages have been made in that way. Our governors in +council act on an established principle: here it is in a nutshell. The +results of experience in the matter of marriage, all over the world, +show that a really wise choice of a husband or a wife is an exception +to the rule; and that husbands and wives in general would be happier +together if their marriages were managed for them by competent advisers +on either side. Laws laid down on such lines as these, and others +equally strict, which I have not mentioned yet, were not put in force, +Mr. Hethcote, as you suppose, without serious difficulties-- +difficulties which threatened the very existence of the Community. But +that was before my time. When I grew up, I found the husbands and wives +about me content to acknowledge that the Rules fulfilled the purpose +with which they had been made--the greatest happiness of the greatest +number. It all looks very absurd, I dare say, from your point of view. +But these queer regulations of ours answer the Christian test--by their +fruits ye shall know them. Our married people don't live on separate +sides of the house; our children are all healthy; wife-beating is +unknown among us; and the practice in our divorce court wouldn't keep +the most moderate lawyer on bread and cheese. Can you say as much for +the success of the marriage laws in Europe? I leave you, gentlemen, to +form your own opinions." + +Mr. Hethcote declined to express an opinion. Rufus declined to resign +his interest in the lady. "And what did Miss Mellicent say to it?" he +inquired. + +"She said something that startled us all," Amelius replied. "When the +Elder Brother began to read the first words relating to love and +marriage in the Book of Rules, she turned deadly pale; and rose up in +her place with a sudden burst of courage or desperation--I don't know +which. 'Must you read that to me?' she asked. 'I have nothing to do +with love or marriage.' The Elder Brother laid aside his Book of Rules. +'If you are afflicted with an hereditary malady,' he said, 'the doctor +from the town will examine you, and report to us.' She answered, 'I +have no hereditary malady.' The Elder Brother took up his book again. +'In due course of time, my dear, the Council will decide for you +whether you are to love and marry or not.' And he read the Rules. She +sat down again, and hid her face in her hands, and never moved or spoke +until he had done. The regular questions followed. Had she anything to +say, in the way of objection? Nothing! In that case, would she sign the +Rules? Yes! When the time came for supper, she excused herself, just +like a child. 'I feel very tired; may I go to bed?' The unmarried women +in the same dormitory with her anticipated some romantic confession +when she grew used to her new friends. They proved to be wrong. 'My +life has been one long disappointment,' was all she said. 'You will do +me a kindness if you will take me as I am, and not ask me to talk about +myself.' There was nothing sulky or ungracious in the expression of her +wish to keep her own secret. A kinder and sweeter woman--never thinking +of herself, always considerate of others--never lived. An accidental +discovery made me her chief friend, among the men: it turned out that +her childhood had been passed, where my childhood had been passed, at +Shedfield Heath, in Buckinghamshire. She was never weary of consulting +my boyish recollections, and comparing them with her own. 'I love the +place,' she used to say; 'the only happy time of my life was the time +passed there.' On my sacred word of honour, this was the sort of talk +that passed between us, for week after week. What other talk could pass +between a man whose one and twentieth birthday was then near at hand, +and a woman who was close on forty? What could I do, when the poor, +broken, disappointed creature met me on the hill or by the river, and +said, 'You are going out for a walk; may I come with you?' I never +attempted to intrude myself into her confidence; I never even asked her +why she had joined the Community. You see what is coming, don't you? +_I_ never saw it. I didn't know what it meant, when some of the younger +women, meeting us together, looked at me (not at her), and smiled +maliciously. My stupid eyes were opened at last by the woman who slept +in the next bed to her in the dormitory--a woman old enough to be my +mother, who took care of me when I was a child at Tadmor. She stopped +me one morning, on my way to fish in the river. 'Amelius,' she said, +'don't go to the fishing-house; Mellicent is waiting for you.' I stared +at her in astonishment. She held up her finger at me: 'Take care, you +foolish boy! You are drifting into a false position as fast as you can. +Have you no suspicion of what is going on?' I looked all round me, in +search of what was going on. Nothing out of the common was to be seen +anywhere. 'What can you possibly mean?' I asked. 'You will only laugh +at me, if I tell you,' she said. I promised not to laugh. She too +looked all round her, as if she was afraid of somebody being near +enough to hear us; and then she let out the secret. 'Amelius, ask for a +holiday--and leave us for a while. Mellicent is in love with you.'" + + + + +CHAPTER 4 + +Amelius looked at his companions, in some doubt whether they would +preserve their gravity at this critical point in his story. They both +showed him that his apprehensions were well founded. He was a little +hurt, and he instantly revealed it. "I own to my shame that I burst out +laughing myself," he said. "But you two gentlemen are older and wiser +than I am. I didn't expect to find you just as ready to laugh at poor +Miss Mellicent as I was." + +Mr. Hethcote declined to be reminded of his duties as a middle-aged +gentleman in this backhanded manner. "Gently, Amelius! You can't expect +to persuade us that a laughable thing is not a thing to be laughed at. +A woman close on forty who falls in love with a young fellow of +twenty-one--" + +"Is a laughable circumstance," Rufus interposed. "Whereas a man of +forty who fancies a young woman of twenty-one is all in the order of +Nature. The men have settled it so. But why the women are to give up so +much sooner than the men is a question, sir, on which I have long +wished to hear the sentiments of the women themselves." + +Mr. Hethcote dismissed the sentiments of the women with a wave of his +hand. "Let us hear the rest of it, Amelius. Of course you went on to +the fishing-house? And of course you found Miss Mellicent there?" + +"She came to the door to meet me, much as usual," Amelius resumed, "and +suddenly checked herself in the act of shaking hands with me. I can +only suppose she saw something in my face that startled her. How it +happened, I can't say; but I felt my good spirits forsake me the moment +I found myself in her presence. I doubt if she had ever seen me so +serious before. 'Have I offended you?' she asked. Of course, I denied +it; but I failed to satisfy her. She began to tremble. 'Has somebody +said something against me? Are you weary of my company?' Those were the +next questions. It was useless to say No. Some perverse distrust of me, +or some despair of herself, overpowered her on a sudden. She sank down +on the floor of the fishing-house, and began to cry--not a good hearty +burst of tears; a silent, miserable, resigned sort of crying, as if she +had lost all claim to be pitied, and all right to feel wounded or hurt. +I was so distressed, that I thought of nothing but consoling her. I +meant well, and I acted like a fool. A sensible man would have lifted +her up, I suppose, and left her to herself. I lifted her up, and put my +arm round her waist. She looked at me as I did it. For just a moment, I +declare she became twenty years younger! She blushed as I have never +seen a woman blush before or since--the colour flowed all over her neck +as well as her face. Before I could say a word, she caught hold of my +hand, and (of all the confusing things in the world!) kissed it. 'No!' +she cried, 'don't despise me! don't laugh at me! Wait, and hear what my +life has been, and then you will understand why a little kindness +overpowers me.' She looked round the corner of the fishing-house +suspiciously. 'I don't want anybody else to hear us,' she said, 'all +the pride isn't beaten out of me yet. Come to the lake, and row me +about in the boat.' I took her out in the boat. Nobody could hear us +certainly; but she forgot, and I forgot, that anybody might see us, and +that appearances on the lake might lead to false conclusions on shore." + +Mr. Hethcote and Rufus exchanged significant looks. They had not +forgotten the Rules of the Community, when two of its members showed a +preference for each other's society. + +Amelius proceeded. "Well, there we were on the lake. I paddled with the +oars, and she opened her whole heart to me. Her troubles had begun, in +a very common way, with her mother's death and her father's second +marriage. She had a brother and a sister--the sister married a German +merchant, settled in New York; the brother comfortably established as a +sheep-farmer in Australia. So, you see, she was alone at home, at the +mercy of the step-mother. I don't understand these cases myself, but +people who do, tell me that there are generally faults on both sides. +To make matters worse, they were a poor family; the one rich relative +being a sister of the first wife, who disapproved of the widower +marrying again, and never entered the house afterwards. Well, the +step-mother had a sharp tongue, and Mellicent was the first person to +feel the sting of it. She was reproached with being an encumbrance on +her father, when she ought to be doing something for herself. There was +no need to repeat those harsh words. The next day she answered an +advertisement. Before the week was over, she was earning her bread as a +daily governess." + +Here Rufus stopped the narrative, having an interesting question to +put. "Might I inquire, sir, what her salary was?" + +"Thirty pounds a year," Amelius replied. "She was out teaching from +nine o'clock to two--and then went home again." + +"There seems to be nothing to complain of in that, as salaries go," Mr. +Hethcote remarked. + +"She made no complaint," Amelius rejoined. "She was satisfied with her +salary; but she wasn't satisfied with her life. The meek little woman +grew downright angry when she spoke of it. 'I had no reason to complain +of my employers,' she said. 'I was civilly treated and punctually paid; +but I never made friends of them. I tried to make friends of the +children; and sometimes I thought I had succeeded--but, oh dear, when +they were idle, and I was obliged to keep them to their lessons, I soon +found how little hold I had on the love that I wanted them to give me. +We see children in books who are perfect little angels; never envious +or greedy or sulky or deceitful; always the same sweet, pious, tender, +grateful, innocent creatures--and it has been my misfortune never to +meet with them, go where I might! It is a hard world, Amelius, the +world that I have lived in. I don't think there are such miserable +lives anywhere as the lives led by the poor middle classes in England. +From year's end to year's end, the one dreadful struggle to keep up +appearances, and the heart-breaking monotony of an existence without +change. We lived in the back street of a cheap suburb. I declare to you +we had but one amusement in the whole long weary year--the annual +concert the clergyman got up, in aid of his schools. The rest of the +year it was all teaching for the first half of the day, and needlework +for the young family for the other half. My father had religious +scruples; he prohibited theatres, he prohibited dancing and light +reading; he even prohibited looking in at the shop-windows, because we +had no money to spare and they tempted us to buy. He went to business +in the morning, and came back at night, and fell asleep after dinner, +and woke up and read prayers--and next day to business and back, and +sleeping and waking and reading prayers--and no break in it, week after +week, month after month, except on Sunday, which was always the same +Sunday; the same church, the same service, the same dinner, the same +book of sermons in the evening. Even when we had a fortnight once a +year at the seaside, we always went to the same place and lodged in the +same cheap house. The few friends we had led just the same lives, and +were beaten down flat by just the same monotony. All the women seemed +to submit to it contentedly except my miserable self. I wanted so +little! Only a change now and then; only a little sympathy when I was +weary and sick at heart; only somebody whom I could love and serve, and +be rewarded with a smile and a kind word in return. Mothers shook their +heads, and daughters laughed at me. Have we time to be sentimental? +Haven't we enough to do, darning and mending, and turning our dresses, +and making the joint last as long as possible, and keeping the children +clean, and doing the washing at home--and tea and sugar rising, and my +husband grumbling every week when I have to ask him for the +house-money. Oh, no more of it! no more of it! People meant for better +things all ground down to the same sordid and selfish level--is that a +pleasant sight to contemplate? I shudder when I think of the last +twenty years of my life!' That's what she complained of, Mr. Hethcote, +in the solitary middle of the lake, with nobody but me to hear her." + +"In my country, sir," Rufus remarked, "the Lecture Bureau would have +provided for her amusement, on economical terms. And I reckon, if a +married life would fix her, she might have tried it among Us by way of +a change." + +"That's the saddest part of the story," said Amelius. "There came a +time, only two years ago, when her prospects changed for the better. +Her rich aunt (her mother's sister) died; and--what do you think?--left +her a legacy of six thousand pounds. There was a gleam of sunshine in +her life! The poor teacher was an heiress in a small way, with her +fortune at her own disposal. They had something like a festival at +home, for the first time; presents to everybody, and kissings and +congratulations, and new dresses at last. And, more than that, another +wonderful event happened before long. A gentleman made his appearance +in the family circle, with an interesting object in view--a gentleman, +who had called at the house in which she happened to be employed as +teacher at the time, and had seen her occupied with her pupils. He had +kept it to himself to be sure, but he had secretly admired her from +that moment--and now it had come out! She had never had a lover before; +mind that. And he was a remarkably handsome man: dressed beautifully, +and sang and played, and was so humble and devoted with it all. Do you +think it wonderful that she said Yes, when he proposed to marry her? I +don't think it wonderful at all. For the first few weeks of the +courtship, the sunshine was brighter than ever. Then the clouds began +to rise. Anonymous letters came, describing the handsome gentleman +(seen under his fair surface) as nothing less than a scoundrel. She +tore up the letters indignantly--she was too delicate even to show them +to him. Signed letters came next, addressed to her father by an uncle +and an aunt, both containing one and the same warning: 'If your +daughter insists on having him, tell her to take care of her money.' A +few days later, a visitor arrived--a brother, who spoke out more +plainly still. As an honourable man, he could not hear of what was +going on, without making the painful confession that his brother was +forbidden to enter his house. That said, he washed his hands of all +further responsibility. You two know the world, you will guess how it +ended. Quarrels in the household; the poor middle-aged woman, living in +her fool's paradise, blindly true to her lover; convinced that he was +foully wronged; frantic when he declared that he would not connect +himself with a family which suspected him. Ah, I have no patience when +I think of it, and I almost wish I had never begun to tell the story! +Do you know what he did? She was free of course, at her age, to decide +for herself; there was no controlling her. The wedding day was fixed. +Her father had declared he would not sanction it; and her step-mother +kept him to his word. She went alone to the church, to meet her +promised husband. He never appeared; he deserted her, mercilessly +deserted her--after she had sacrificed her own relations to him--on her +wedding-day. She was taken home insensible, and had a brain fever. The +doctors declined to answer for her life. Her father thought it time to +look to her banker's pass-book. Out of her six thousand pounds she had +privately given no less than four thousand to the scoundrel who had +deceived and forsaken her! Not a month afterwards he married a young +girl--with a fortune of course. We read of such things in newspapers +and books. But to have them brought home to one, after living one's own +life among honest people--I tell you it stupefied me!" + +He said no more. Below them in the cabin, voices were laughing and +talking, to a cheerful accompaniment of clattering knives and forks. +Around them spread the exultant glory of sea and sky. All that they +heard, all that they saw, was cruelty out of harmony with the miserable +story which had just reached its end. With one accord the three men +rose and paced the deck, feeling physically the same need of some +movement to lighten their spirits. With one accord they waited a +little, before the narrative was resumed. + + + +CHAPTER 5 + +Mr. Hethcote was the first to speak again. + +"I can understand the poor creature's motive in joining your +Community," he said. "To a person of any sensibility her position, +among such relatives as you describe, must have been simply unendurable +after what had happened. How did she hear of Tadmor and the +Socialists?" + +"She had read one of our books," Amelius answered; "and she had her +married sister at New York to go to. There were moments, after her +recovery (she confessed it to me frankly), when the thought of suicide +was in her mind. Her religious scruples saved her. She was kindly +received by her sister and her sister's husband. They proposed to keep +her with them to teach their children. No! the new life offered to her +was too like the old life--she was broken in body and mind; she had no +courage to face it. We have a resident agent in New York; and he +arranged for her journey to Tadmor. There is a gleam of brightness, at +any rate, in this part of her story. She blessed the day, poor soul, +when she joined us. Never before had she found herself among such +kind-hearted, unselfish, simple people. Never before--" he abruptly +checked himself, and looked a little confused. + +Obliging Rufus finished the sentence for him. "Never before had she +known a young man with such natural gifts of fascination as C.A.G. +Don't you be too modest, sir; it doesn't pay, I assure you, in the +nineteenth century." + +Amelius was not as ready with his laugh as usual. "I wish I could drop +it at the point we have reached now," he said. "But she has left +Tadmor; and, in justice to her (after the scandals in the newspaper), I +must tell you how she left it, and why. The mischief began when I was +helping her out of the boat. Two of our young women met us on the bank +of the lake, and asked me how I got on with my fishing. They didn't +mean any harm--they were only in their customary good spirits. Still, +there was no mistaking their looks and tones when they put the +question. Miss Mellicent, in her confusion, made matters worse. She +coloured up, and snatched her hand out of mine, and ran back to the +house by herself. The girls, enjoying their own foolish joke, +congratulated me on my prospects. I must have been out of sorts in some +way--upset, perhaps, by what I had heard in the boat. Anyhow, I lost my +temper, and _I_ made matters worse, next. I said some angry words, and +left them. The same evening I found a letter in my room. 'For your +sake, I must not be seen alone with you again. It is hard to lose the +comfort of your sympathy, but I must submit. Think of me as kindly as I +think of you. It has done me good to open my heart to you.' Only those +lines, signed by Mellicent's initials. I was rash enough to keep the +letter, instead of destroying it. All might have ended well, +nevertheless, if she had only held to her resolution. But, unluckily, +my twenty-first birthday was close at hand; and there was talk of +keeping it as a festival in the Community. I was up with sunrise when +the day came; having some farming work to look after, and wanting to +get it over in good time. My shortest way back to breakfast was through +a wood. In the wood I met her." + +"Alone?" Mr. Hethcote asked. + +Rufus expressed his opinion of the wisdom of putting this question with +his customary plainness of language. "When there's a rash thing to be +done by a man and a woman together, sir, philosophers have remarked +that it's always the woman who leads the way. Of course she was alone." + +"She had a little present for me on my birthday," Amelius explained--"a +purse of her own making. And she was afraid of the ridicule of the +young women, if she gave it to me openly. 'You have my heart's dearest +wishes for your happiness; think of me sometimes, Amelius, when you +open your purse.' If you had been in my place, could you have told her +to go away, when she said that, and put her gift into your hand? Not if +she had been looking at you at the moment--I'll swear you couldn't have +done it!" + +The lean yellow face of Rufus Dingwell relaxed for the first time into +a broad grin. "There are further particulars, sir, stated in the +newspaper," he said slily. + +"Damn the newspaper!" Amelius answered. + +Rufus bowed, serenely courteous, with the air of a man who accepted a +British oath as an unwilling compliment paid by the old country to the +American press. "The newspaper report states, sir, that she kissed +you." + +"It's a lie!" Amelius shouted. + +"Perhaps it's an error of the press," Rufus persisted. "Perhaps, _you_ +kissed _her?"_ + +"Never mind what I did," said Amelius savagely. + +Mr. Hethcote felt it necessary to interfere. He addressed Rufus in his +most magnificent manner. "In England, Mr. Dingwell, a gentleman is not +in the habit of disclosing these--er--these--er, er--" + +"These kissings in a wood?" suggested Rufus. "In my country, sir, we do +not regard kissing, in or out of a wood, in the light of a shameful +proceeding. Quite the contrary, I do assure you." + +Amelius recovered his temper. The discussion was becoming too +ridiculous to be endured by the unfortunate person who was the object +of it. + +"Don't let us make mountains out of molehills," he said. "I did kiss +her--there! A woman pressing the prettiest little purse you ever saw +into your hand, and wishing you many happy returns of the day with the +tears in her eyes; I should like to know what else was to be done but +to kiss her. Ah, yes, smooth out your newspaper report, and have +another look at it! She _did_ rest her head on my shoulder, poor soul, +and she _did_ say, 'Oh, Amelius, I thought my heart was turned to +stone; feel how you have made it beat!' When I remembered what she had +told me in the boat, I declare to God I almost burst out crying +myself--it was so innocent and so pitiful." + +Rufus held out his hand with true American cordiality. "I do assure +you, sir, I meant no harm," he said. "The right grit is in you, and no +mistake--and there goes the newspaper!" He rolled up the slip, and +flung it overboard. + +Mr. Hethcote nodded his entire approval of this proceeding. Amelius +went on with his story. + +"I'm near the end now," he said. "If I had known it would have taken so +long to tell--never mind! We got out of the wood at last, Mr. Rufus; +and left it without a suspicion that we had been watched. I was prudent +enough (when it was too late, you will say) to suggest to her that we +had better be careful for the future. Instead of taking it seriously, +she laughed. 'Have you altered your mind, since you wrote to me?' I +asked. 'To be sure I have,' she said. 'When I wrote to you I forgot the +difference between your age and mine. Nothing that _we_ do will be +taken seriously. I am afraid of their laughing at me, Amelius; but I am +afraid of nothing else.' I did my best to undeceive her. I told her +plainly that people unequally matched in years--women older than men, +as well as men older than women--were not uncommonly married among us. +The council only looked to their being well suited in other ways, and +declined to trouble itself about the question of age. I don't think I +produced much effect; she seemed, for once in her life, poor thing, to +be too happy to look beyond the passing moment. Besides, there was the +birthday festival to keep her mind from dwelling on doubts and fears +that were not agreeable to her. And the next day there was another +event to occupy our attention--the arrival of the lawyer's letter from +London, with the announcement of my inheritance on coming of age. It +was settled, as you know, that I was to go out into the world, and to +judge for myself; but the date of my departure was not fixed. Two days +later, the storm that had been gathering for weeks past burst on us--we +were cited to appear before the council to answer for an infraction of +the Rules. Everything that I have confessed to you, and some things +besides that I have kept to myself, lay formally inscribed on a sheet +of paper placed on the council table--and pinned to the sheet of paper +was Mellicent's letter to me, found in my room. I took the whole blame +on myself, and insisted on being confronted with the unknown person who +had informed against us. The council met this by a question:--'Is the +information, in any particular, false?' Neither of us could deny that +it was, in every particular, true. Hearing this, the council decided +that there was no need, on our own showing, to confront us with the +informer. From that day to this, I have never known who the spy was. +Neither Mellicent nor I had an enemy in the Community. The girls who +had seen us on the lake, and some other members who had met us +together, only gave their evidence on compulsion--and even then they +prevaricated, they were so fond of us and so sorry for us. After +waiting a day, the governing body pronounced their judgment. Their duty +was prescribed to them by the Rules. We were sentenced to six months' +absence from the Community; to return or not as we pleased. A hard +sentence, gentlemen--whatever _we_ may think of it--to homeless and +friendless people, to the Fallen Leaves that had drifted to Tadmor. In +my case it had been already arranged that I was to leave. After what +had happened, my departure was made compulsory in four-and-twenty +hours; and I was forbidden to return, until the date of my sentence had +expired. In Mellicent's case they were still more strict. They would +not trust her to travel by herself. A female member of the Community +was appointed to accompany her to the house of her married sister at +New York: she was ordered to be ready for the journey by sunrise the +next morning. We both understood, of course, that the object of this +was to prevent our travelling together. They might have saved +themselves the trouble of putting obstacles in our way." + +"So far as You were concerned, I suppose?" said Mr. Hethcote. + +"So far as She was concerned also," Amelius answered. + +"How did she take it, sir?" Rufus inquired. + +"With a composure that astonished us all," said Amelius. "We had +anticipated tears and entreaties for mercy. She stood up perfectly +calm, far calmer than I was, with her head turned towards me, and her +eyes resting quietly on my face. If you can imagine a woman whose whole +being was absorbed in looking into the future; seeing what no mortal +creature about her saw; sustained by hopes that no mortal creature +about her could share--you may see her as I did, when she heard her +sentence pronounced. The members of the Community, accustomed to take +leave of an erring brother or sister with loving and merciful words, +were all more or less distressed as they bade her farewell. Most of the +women were in tears as they kissed her. They said the same kind words +to her over and over again. 'We are heartily sorry for you, dear; we +shall all be glad to welcome you back.' They sang our customary hymn at +parting--and broke down before they got to the end. It was _she_ who +consoled _them!_ Not once, through all that melancholy ceremony, did +she lose her strange composure, her rapt mysterious look. I was the +last to say farewell; and I own I couldn't trust myself to speak. She +held my hand in hers. For a moment, her face lighted up softly with a +radiant smile--then the strange preoccupied expression flowed over her +again, like shadow over a light. Her eyes, still looking into mine, +seemed to look beyond me. She spoke low, in sad steady tones. 'Be +comforted, Amelius; the end is not yet.' She put her hands on my head, +and drew it down to her. 'You will come back to me,' she whispered--and +kissed me on the forehead, before them all. When I looked up again, she +was gone. I have neither seen her nor heard from her since. It's all +told, gentlemen--and some of it has distressed me in the telling. Let +me go away for a minute by myself, and look at the sea." + + + +BOOK THE SECOND + +AMELIUS IN LONDON + +CHAPTER 1 + +Oh, Rufus Dingwell, it is such a rainy day! And the London street which +I look out on from my hotel window presents such a dirty and such a +miserable view! Do you know, I hardly feel like the same Amelius who +promised to write to you when you left the steamer at Queenstown. My +spirits are sinking; I begin to feel old. Am I in the right state of +mind to tell you what are my first impressions of London? Perhaps I may +alter my opinion. At present (this is between ourselves), I don't like +London or London people--excepting two ladies, who, in very different +ways, have interested and charmed me. + +Who are the ladies? I must tell you what I heard about them from Mr. +Hethcote, before I present them to you on my own responsibility. + +After you left us, I found the last day of the voyage to Liverpool dull +enough. Mr. Hethcote did not seem to feel it in the same way: on the +contrary, he grew more familiar and confidential in his talk with me. +He has some of the English stiffness, you see, and your American pace +was a little too fast for him. On our last night on board, we had some +more conversation about the Farnabys. You were not interested enough in +the subject to attend to what he said about them while you were with +us; but if you are to be introduced to the ladies, you must be +interested now. Let me first inform you that Mr. and Mrs. Farnaby have +no children; and let me add that they have adopted the daughter and +orphan child of Mrs. Farnaby's sister. This sister, it seems, died many +years ago, surviving her husband for a few months only. To complete the +story of the past, death has also taken old Mr. Ronald, the founder of +the stationer's business, and his wife, Mrs. Farnaby's mother. Dry +facts these--I don't deny it; but there is something more interesting +to follow. I have next to tell you how Mr. Hethcote first became +acquainted with Mrs. Farnaby. Now, Rufus, we are coming to something +romantic at last! + +It is some time since Mr. Hethcote ceased to perform his clerical +duties, owing to a malady in the throat, which made it painful for him +to take his place in the reading-desk or the pulpit. His last curacy +attached him to a church at the West-end of London; and here, one +Sunday evening, after he had preached the sermon, a lady in trouble +came to him in the vestry for spiritual advice and consolation. She was +a regular attendant at the church, and something which he had said in +that evening's sermon had deeply affected her. Mr. Hethcote spoke with +her afterwards on many occasions at home. He felt a sincere interest in +her, but he disliked her husband; and, when he gave up his curacy, he +ceased to pay visits to the house. As to what Mrs. Farnaby's troubles +were, I can tell you nothing. Mr. Hethcote spoke very gravely and sadly +when he told me that the subject of his conversations with her must be +kept a secret. "I doubt whether you and Mr. Farnaby will get on well +together," he said to me; "but I shall be astonished if you are not +favourably impressed by his wife and her niece." + +This was all I knew when I presented my letter of introduction to Mr. +Farnaby at his place of business. + +It was a grand stone building, with great plate-glass windows--all +renewed and improved, they told me, since old Mr. Ronald's time. My +letter and my card went into an office at the back, and I followed them +after a while. A lean, hard, middle-aged man, buttoned up tight in a +black frock-coat, received me, holding my written introduction open in +his hand. He had a ruddy complexion not commonly seen in Londoners, so +far as my experience goes. His iron-gray hair and whiskers (especially +the whiskers) were in wonderfully fine order--as carefully oiled and +combed as if he had just come out of a barber's shop. I had been in the +morning to the Zoological Gardens; his eyes, when he lifted them from +the letter to me, reminded me of the eyes of the eagles--glassy and +cruel. I have a fault that I can't cure myself of. I like people, or +dislike them, at first sight, without knowing, in either case, whether +they deserve it or not. In the one moment when our eyes met, I felt the +devil in me. In plain English, I hated Mr. Farnaby! + +"Good morning, sir," he began, in a loud, harsh, rasping voice. "The +letter you bring me takes me by surprise." + +"I thought the writer was an old friend of yours," I said. + +"An old friend of mine," Mr. Farnaby answered, "whose errors I deplore. +When he joined your Community, I looked upon him as a lost man. I am +surprised at his writing to me." + +It is quite likely I was wrong, knowing nothing of the usages of +society in England. I thought this reception of me downright rude. I +had laid my hat on a chair; I took it up in my hand again, and +delivered a parting shot at the brute with the oily whiskers. + +"If I had known what you now tell me," I said, "I should not have +troubled you by presenting that letter. Good morning." + +This didn't in the least offend him. A curious smile broke out on his +face; it widened his eyes, and it twitched up his mouth at one corner. +He held out his hand to stop me. I waited, in case he felt bound to +make an apology. He did nothing of the sort--he only made a remark. + +"You are young and hasty," he said. "I may lament my friend's +extravagances, without failing on that account in what is due to an old +friendship. You are probably not aware that we have no sympathy in +England with Socialists." + +I hit him back again. "In that case, sir, a little Socialism in England +would do you no harm. We consider it a part of our duty as Christians +to feel sympathy with all men who are honest in their convictions--no +matter how mistaken (in our opinion) the convictions may be." I rather +thought I had him there; and I took up my hat again, to get off with +the honours of victory while I had the chance. + +I am sincerely ashamed of myself, Rufus, in telling you all this. I +ought to have given him back "the soft answer that turneth away +wrath"--my conduct was a disgrace to my Community. What evil influence +was at work in me? Was it the air of London? or was it a possession of +the devil? + +He stopped me for the second time--not in the least disconcerted by +what I had said to him. His inbred conviction of his own superiority to +a young adventurer like me was really something magnificent to witness. +He did me justice--the Philistine-Pharisee did me justice! Will you +believe it? He made his remarks next on my good points, as if I had +been a young bull at a prize cattle show. + +"Excuse me for noticing it," he said. "Your manners are perfectly +gentlemanlike, and you speak English without any accent. And yet you +have been brought up in America. What does it mean?" + +I grew worse and worse--I got downright sulky now. + +"I suppose it means," I answered, "that some of us, in America, +cultivate ourselves as well as our land. We have our books and music, +though you seem to think we only have our axes and spades. Englishmen +don't claim a monopoly of good manners at Tadmor. We see no difference +between an American gentleman and an English gentleman. And as for +speaking English with an accent, the Americans accuse _us_ of doing +that." + +He smiled again. "How very absurd!" he said, with a superb compassion +for the benighted Americans. By this time, I suspect he began to feel +that he had had enough of me. He got rid of me with an invitation. + +"I shall be glad to receive you at my private residence, and introduce +you to my wife and her niece--our adopted daughter. There is the +address. We have a few friends to dinner on Saturday next, at seven. +Will you give us the pleasure of your company?" + +We are all aware that there is a distinction between civility and +cordiality; but I myself never knew how wide that distinction might be, +until Mr. Farnaby invited me to dinner. If I had not been curious +(after what Mr. Hethcote had told me) to see Mrs. Farnaby and her +niece, I should certainly have slipped out of the engagement. As it +was, I promised to dine with Oily-Whiskers. + +He put his hand into mine at parting. It felt as moistly cold as a dead +fish. After getting out again into the street, I turned into the first +tavern I passed, and ordered a drink. Shall I tell you what else I did? +I went into the lavatory, and washed Mr. Farnaby off my hand. (N.B.--If +I had behaved in this way at Tadmor, I should have been punished with +the lighter penalty--taking my meals by myself, and being forbidden to +enter the Common Room for eight and forty hours.) I feel I am getting +wickeder and wickeder in London--I have half a mind to join you in +Ireland. What does Tom Moore say of his countrymen--he ought to know, I +suppose? "For though they love women and golden store: Sir Knight, they +love honour and virtue more!" They must have been all Socialists in Tom +Moore's time. Just the place for me. + + +I have been obliged to wait a little. A dense fog has descended on us +by way of variety. With a stinking coal fire, with the gas lit and the +curtains drawn at half-past eleven in the forenoon, I feel that I am in +my own country again at last. Patience, my friend--patience! I am +coming to the ladies. + +Entering Mr. Farnaby's private residence on the appointed day, I became +acquainted with one more of the innumerable insincerities of modern +English life. When a man asks you to dine with him at seven o'clock, in +other countries, he means what he says. In England, he means half-past +seven, and sometimes a quarter to eight. At seven o'clock I was the +only person in Mr. Farnaby's drawing-room. At ten minutes past seven, +Mr. Farnaby made his appearance. I had a good mind to take his place in +the middle of the hearth-rug, and say, "Farnaby, I am glad to see you." +But I looked at his whiskers; and _they_ said to me, as plainly as +words could speak, "Better not!" + +In five minutes more, Mrs. Farnaby joined us. + +I wish I was a practised author--or, no, I would rather, for the +moment, be a competent portrait-painter, and send you Mrs. Farnaby's +likeness enclosed. How I am to describe her in words, I really don't +know. My dear fellow, she almost frightened me. I never before saw such +a woman; I never expect to see such a woman again. There was nothing in +her figure, or in her way of moving, that produced this impression on +me--she is little and fat, and walks with a firm, heavy step, like the +step of a man. Her face is what I want to make you see as plainly as I +saw it myself: it was her face that startled me. + +So far as I can pretend to judge, she must have been pretty, in a +healthy way, when she was young. I declare I hardly know whether she is +not pretty now. She certainly has no marks or wrinkles; her hair either +has no gray in it, or is too light to show the gray. She has preserved +her fair complexion; perhaps with art to assist it--I can't say. As for +her lips--I am not speaking disrespectfully, I am only describing them +truly, when I say that they invite kisses in spite of her. In two +words, though she has been married (as I know from what one of the +guests told me after dinner) for sixteen years, she would be still an +irresistible little woman, but for the one startling drawback of her +eyes. Don't mistake me. In themselves, they are large, well-opened blue +eyes, and may at one time have been the chief attraction in her face. +But now there is an expression of suffering in them--long, unsolaced +suffering, as I believe--so despairing and so dreadful, that she really +made my heart ache when I looked at her. I will swear to it, that woman +lives in some secret hell of her own making, and longs for the release +of death; and is so inveterately full of bodily life and strength, that +she may carry her burden with her to the utmost verge of life. I am +digging the pen into the paper, I feel this so strongly, and I am so +wretchedly incompetent to express my feeling. Can you imagine a +diseased mind, imprisoned in a healthy body? I don't care what doctors +or books may say--it is that, and nothing else. Nothing else will solve +the mystery of the smooth face, the fleshy figure, the firm step, the +muscular grip of her hand when she gives it to you--and the soul in +torment that looks at you all the while out of her eyes. It is useless +to tell me that such a contradiction as this cannot exist. I have seen +the woman; and she does exist. + +Oh yes! I can fancy you grinning over my letter--I can hear you saying +to yourself, "Where did he pick up his experience, I wonder?" I have no +experience--I only have something that serves me instead of it, and I +don't know what. The Elder Brother, at Tadmor, used to say it was +sympathy. But _he_ is a sentimentalist. + +Well, Mr. Farnaby presented me to his wife--and then walked away as if +he was sick of us both, and looked out of the window. + +For some reason or other, Mrs. Farnaby seemed to be surprised, for the +moment, by my personal appearance. Her husband had, very likely, not +told her how young I was. She got over her momentary astonishment, and, +signing to me to sit by her on the sofa, said the necessary words of +welcome--evidently thinking something else all the time. The strange +miserable eyes looked over my shoulder, instead of looking at me. + +"Mr. Farnaby tells me you have been living in America." + +The tone in which she spoke was curiously quiet and monotonous. I have +heard such tones, in the Far West, from lonely settlers without a +neighbouring soul to speak to. Has Mrs. Farnaby no neighbouring soul to +speak to, except at dinner parties? + +"You are an Englishman, are you not?" she went on. + +I said Yes, and cast about in my mind for something to say to her. She +saved me the trouble by making me the victim of a complete series of +questions. This, as I afterwards discovered, was _her_ way of finding +conversation for strangers. Have you ever met with absent-minded people +to whom it is a relief to ask questions mechanically, without feeling +the slightest interest in the answers? + +She began. "Where did you live in America?" + +"At Tadmor, in the State of Illinois." + +"What sort of place is Tadmor?" + +I described the place as well as I could, under the circumstances. + +"What made you go to Tadmor?" + +It was impossible to reply to this, without speaking of the Community. +Feeling that the subject was not in the least likely to interest her, I +spoke as briefly as I could. To my astonishment, I evidently began to +interest her from that moment. The series of questions went on--but now +she not only listened, she was eager for the answers. + +"Are there any women among you?" + +"Nearly as many women as men." + +Another change! Over the weary misery of her eyes there flashed a +bright look of interest which completely transformed them. Her +articulation even quickened when she put her next question. + +"Are any of the women friendless creatures, who came to you from +England?" + +"Yes, some of them." + +I thought of Mellicent as I spoke. Was this new interest that I had so +innocently aroused, an interest in Mellicent? Her next question only +added to my perplexity. Her next question proved that my guess had +completely failed to hit the mark. + +"Are there any _young_ women among them?" + +Mr. Farnaby, standing with his back to us thus far, suddenly turned and +looked at her, when she inquired if there were "young" women among us. + +"Oh yes," I said. "Mere girls." + +She pressed so near to me that her knees touched mine. "How old?" she +asked eagerly. + +Mr. Farnaby left the window, walked close up to the sofa, and +deliberately interrupted us. + +"Nasty muggy weather, isn't it?" he said. "I suppose the climate of +America--" + +Mrs. Farnaby deliberately interrupted her husband. "How old?" she +repeated, in a louder tone. + +I was bound, of course, to answer the lady of the house. "Some girls +from eighteen to twenty. And some younger." + +"How much younger?" + +"Oh, from sixteen to seventeen." + +She grew more and more excited; she positively laid her hand on my arm +in her eagerness to secure my attention all to herself. "American girls +or English?" she resumed, her fat, firm fingers closing on me with a +tremulous grasp. + +"Shall you be in town in November?" said Mr. Farnaby, purposely +interrupting us again. "If you would like to see the Lord Mayor's +Show--" + +Mrs. Farnaby impatiently shook me by the arm. "American girls or +English?" she reiterated, more obstinately than ever. + +Mr. Farnaby gave her one look. If he could have put her on the blazing +fire and have burnt her up in an instant by an effort of will, I +believe he would have made the effort. He saw that I was observing him, +and turned quickly from his wife to me. His ruddy face was pale with +suppressed rage. My early arrival had given Mrs. Farnaby an opportunity +of speaking to me, which he had not anticipated in inviting me to +dinner. "Come and see my pictures," he said. + +His wife still held me fast. Whether he liked it or not, I had again no +choice but to answer her. "Some American girls, and some English," I +said. + +Her eyes opened wider and wider in unutterable expectation. She +suddenly advanced her face so close to mine, that I felt her hot breath +on my cheeks as the next words burst their way through her lips. + +"Born in England?" + +"No. Born at Tadmor." + +She dropped my arm. The light died out of her eyes in an instant. In +some inconceivable way, I had utterly destroyed some secret expectation +that she had fixed on me. She actually left me on the sofa, and took a +chair on the opposite side of the fireplace. Mr. Farnaby, turning paler +and paler, stepped up to her as she changed her place. I rose to look +at the pictures on the wall nearest to me. You remarked the +extraordinary keenness of my sense of hearing, while we were fellow +passengers on the steamship. When he stooped over her, and whispered in +her ear, I heard him--though nearly the whole breadth of the room was +between us. "You hell-cat!"--that was what Mr. Farnaby said to his +wife. + +The clock on the mantelpiece struck the half-hour after seven. In quick +succession, the guests at the dinner now entered the room. + +I was so staggered by the extraordinary scene of married life which I +had just witnessed, that the guests produced only a very faint +impression upon me. My mind was absorbed in trying to find the true +meaning of what I had seen and heard. Was Mrs. Farnaby a little mad? I +dismissed that idea as soon as it occurred to me; nothing that I had +observed in her justified it. The truer conclusion appeared to be, that +she was deeply interested in some absent (and possibly lost) young +creature; whose age, judging by actions and tones which had +sufficiently revealed that part of the secret to me, could not be more +than sixteen or seventeen years. How long had she cherished the hope of +seeing the girl, or hearing of her? It must have been, anyhow, a hope +very deeply rooted, for she had been perfectly incapable of controlling +herself when I had accidentally roused it. As for her husband, there +could be no doubt that the subject was not merely distasteful to him, +but so absolutely infuriating that he could not even keep his temper, +in the presence of a third person invited to his house. Had he injured +the girl in any way? Was he responsible for her disappearance? Did his +wife know it, or only suspect it? Who _was_ the girl? What was the +secret of Mrs. Farnaby's extraordinary interest in her--Mrs. Farnaby, +whose marriage was childless; whose interest one would have thought +should be naturally concentrated on her adopted daughter, her sister's +orphan child? In conjectures such as these, I completely lost myself. +Let me hear what your ingenuity can make of the puzzle; and let me +return to Mr. Farnaby's dinner, waiting on Mr. Farnaby's table. + +The servant threw open the drawing-room door, and the most honoured +guest present led Mrs. Farnaby to the dining-room. I roused myself to +some observation of what was going on about me. No ladies had been +invited; and the men were all of a certain age. I looked in vain for +the charming niece. Was she not well enough to appear at the +dinner-party? I ventured on putting the question to Mr. Farnaby. + +"You will find her at the tea-table, when we return to the +drawing-room. Girls are out of place at dinner-parties." So he answered +me--not very graciously. + +As I stepped out on the landing, I looked up; I don't know why, unless +I was the unconscious object of magnetic attraction. Anyhow, I had my +reward. A bright young face peeped over the balusters of the upper +staircase, and modestly withdrew itself again in a violent hurry. +Everybody but Mr. Farnaby and myself had disappeared in the +dining-room. Was she having a peep at the young Socialist? + + +Another interruption to my letter, caused by another change in the +weather. The fog has vanished; the waiter is turning off the gas, and +letting in the drab-coloured daylight. I ask him if it is still +raining. He smiles, and rubs his hands, and says, "It looks like +clearing up soon, sir." This man's head is gray; he has been all his +life a waiter in London--and he can still see the cheerful side of +things. What native strength of mind cast away on a vocation that is +unworthy of it! + +Well--and now about the Farnaby dinner. I feel a tightness in the lower +part of my waistcoat, Rufus, when I think of the dinner; there was such +a quantity of it, and Mr. Farnaby was so tyrannically resolute in +forcing his luxuries down the throats of his guests. His eye was on me, +if I let my plate go away before it was empty--his eye said "I have +paid for this magnificent dinner, and I mean to see you eat it." Our +printed list of the dishes, as they succeeded each other, also informed +us of the varieties of wine which it was imperatively necessary to +drink with each dish. I got into difficulties early in the proceedings. +The taste of sherry, for instance, is absolutely nauseous to me; and +Rhine wine turns into vinegar ten minutes after it has passed my lips. +I asked for the wine that I could drink, out of its turn. You should +have seen Mr. Farnaby's face, when I violated the rules of his +dinner-table! It was the one amusing incident of the feast--the one +thing that alleviated the dreary and mysterious spectacle of Mrs. +Farnaby. There she sat, with her mind hundreds of miles away from +everything that was going on about her, entangling the two guests, on +her right hand and on her left, in a network of vacant questions, just +as she had entangled me. I discovered that one of these gentlemen was a +barrister and the other a ship-owner, by the answers which Mrs. Farnaby +absently extracted from them on the subject of their respective +vocations in life. And while she questioned incessantly, she ate +incessantly. Her vigorous body insisted on being fed. She would have +emptied her wineglass (I suspect) as readily as she plied her knife and +fork--but I discovered that a certain system of restraint was +established in the matter of wine. At intervals, Mr. Farnaby just +looked at the butler--and the butler and his bottle, on those +occasions, deliberately passed her by. Not the slightest visible change +was produced in her by the eating and drinking; she was equal to any +demands that any dinner could make on her. There was no flush in her +face, no change in her spirits, when she rose, in obedience to English +custom, and retired to the drawing-room. + +Left together over their wine, the men began to talk politics. + +I listened at the outset, expecting to get some information. Our +readings in modern history at Tadmor had informed us of the dominant +political position of the middle classes in England, since the time of +the first Reform Bill. Mr. Farnaby's guests represented the respectable +mediocrity of social position, the professional and commercial average +of the nation. They all talked glibly enough--I and an old gentleman +who sat next to me being the only listeners. I had spent the morning +lazily in the smoking-room of the hotel, reading the day's newspapers. +And what did I hear now, when the politicians set in for their +discussion? I heard the leading articles of the day's newspapers +translated into bald chat, and coolly addressed by one man to another, +as if they were his own individual views on public affairs! This absurd +imposture positively went the round of the table, received and +respected by everybody with a stolid solemnity of make-believe which it +was downright shameful to see. Not a man present said, "I saw that +today in the _Times_ or the _Telegraph."_ Not a man present had an +opinion of his own; or, if he had an opinion, ventured to express it; +or, if he knew nothing of the subject, was honest enough to say so. One +enormous Sham, and everybody in a conspiracy to take it for the real +thing: that is an accurate description of the state of political +feeling among the representative men at Mr. Farnaby's dinner. I am not +judging rashly by one example only; I have been taken to clubs and +public festivals, only to hear over and over again what I heard in Mr. +Farnaby's dining-room. Does it need any great foresight to see that +such a state of things as this cannot last much longer, in a country +which has not done with reforming itself yet? The time is coming, in +England, when the people who _have_ opinions of their own will be +heard, and when Parliament will be forced to open the door to them. + +This is a nice outbreak of republican freedom! What does my +long-suffering friend think of it--waiting all the time to be presented +to Mr. Farnaby's niece? Everything in its place, Rufus. The niece +followed the politics, at the time; and she shall follow them now. + +You shall hear first what my next neighbour said of her--a quaint old +fellow, a retired doctor, if I remember correctly. He seemed to be as +weary of the second-hand newspaper talk as I was; he quite sparkled and +cheered up when I introduced the subject of Miss Regina. Have I +mentioned her name yet? If not, here it is for you in full:--Miss +Regina Mildmay. + +"I call her the brown girl," said the old gentleman. "Brown hair, brown +eyes, and a brown skin. No, not a brunette; not dark enough for that--a +warm, delicate brown; wait till you see it! Takes after her father, I +should tell you. He was a fine-looking man in his time; foreign blood +in his veins, by his mother's side. Miss Regina gets her queer name by +being christened after his mother. Never mind her name; she's a +charming person. Let's drink her health." + +We drank her health. Remembering that he had called her "the brown +girl," I said I supposed she was still quite young. + +"Better than young," the doctor answered; "in the prime of life. I call +her a girl, by habit. Wait till you see her!" + +"Has she a good figure, sir?" + +"Ha! you're like the Turks, are you? A nice-looking woman doesn't +content you--you must have her well-made too. We can accommodate you, +sir; we are slim and tall, with a swing of our hips, and we walk like a +goddess. Wait and see how her head is put on her shoulders--I say no +more. Proud? Not she! A simple, unaffected, kind-hearted creature. +Always the same; I never saw her out of temper in my life; I never +heard her speak ill of anybody. The man who gets her will be a man to +be envied, I can tell you!" + +"Is she engaged to be married?" + +"No. She has had plenty of offers; but she doesn't seem to care for +anything of that sort--so far. Devotes herself to Mrs. Farnaby, and +keeps up her school-friendships. A splendid creature, with the vital +thermometer at temperate heart--a calm, meditative, equable person. +Pass me the olives. Only think! the man who discovered olives is +unknown; no statue of him erected in any part of the civilized earth. I +know few more remarkable instances of human ingratitude." + +I risked a bold question--but not on the subject of olives. "Isn't Miss +Regina's life rather a dull one in this house?" + +The doctor cautiously lowered his voice. "It would be dull enough to +some women. Regina's early life has been a hard one. Her mother was Mr. +Ronald's eldest daughter. The old brute never forgave her for marrying +against his wishes. Mrs. Ronald did all she could, secretly, to help +the young wife in disgrace. But old Ronald had sole command of the +money, and kept it to himself. From Regina's earliest childhood there +was always distress at home. Her father harassed by creditors, trying +one scheme after another, and failing in all; her mother and herself, +half starved--with their very bedclothes sometimes at the pawnbrokers. +I attended them in their illnesses, and though they hid their +wretchedness from everybody else (proud as Lucifer, both of them!), +they couldn't hide it from me. Fancy the change to this house! I don't +say that living here in clover is enough for such a person as Regina; I +only say it has its influence. She is one of those young women, sir, +who delight in sacrificing themselves to others--she is devoted, for +instance, to Mrs. Farnaby. I only hope Mrs. Farnaby is worthy of it! +Not that it matters to Regina. What she does, she does out of her own +sweetness of disposition. She brightens this household, I can tell you! +Farnaby did a wise thing, in his own domestic interests, when he +adopted her as his daughter. She thinks she can never be grateful +enough to him--the good creature!--though she has repaid him a +hundredfold. He'll find that out, one of these days, when a husband +takes her away. Don't suppose that I want to disparage our host--he's +an old friend of mine; but he's a little too apt to take the good +things that fall to his lot as if they were nothing but a just +recognition of his own merits. I have told him that to his face, often +enough to have a right to say it of him when he doesn't hear me. Do you +smoke? I wish they would drop their politics, and take to tobacco. I +say Farnaby! I want a cigar." + +This broad hint produced an adjournment to the smoking-room, the doctor +leading the way. I began to wonder how much longer my introduction to +Miss Regina was to be delayed. It was not to come until I had seen a +new side of my host's character, and had found myself promoted to a +place of my own in Mr. Farnaby's estimation. + +As we rose from table one of the guests spoke to me of a visit that he +had recently paid to the part of Buckinghamshire which I come from. "I +was shown a remarkably picturesque old house on the heath," he said. +"They told me it had been inhabited for centuries by the family of the +Goldenhearts. Are you in any way related to them?" I answered that I +was very nearly related, having been born in the house--and there, as I +suppose, the matter ended. Being the youngest man of the party, I +waited, of course, until the rest of the gentlemen had passed out to +the smoking-room. Mr. Farnaby and I were left together. To my +astonishment, he put his arm cordially into mine, and led me out of the +dining-room with the genial familiarity of an old friend! + +"I'll give you such a cigar," he said, "as you can't buy for money in +all London. You have enjoyed yourself, I hope? Now we know what wine +you like, you won't have to ask the butler for it next time. Drop in +any day, and take pot-luck with us." He came to a standstill in the +hall; his brassy rasping voice assumed a new tone--a sort of parody of +respect. "Have you been to your family place," he asked, "since your +return to England?" + +He had evidently heard the few words exchanged between his friend and +myself. It seemed odd that he should take any interest in a place +belonging to people who were strangers to him. However, his question +was easily answered. I had only to inform him that my father had sold +the house when he left England. + +"Oh dear, I'm sorry to hear that!" he said. "Those old family places +ought to be kept up. The greatness of England, sir, strikes its roots +in the old families of England. They may be rich, or they may be +poor--that don't matter. An old family _is_ an old family; it's sad to +see their hearths and homes sold to wealthy manufacturers who don't +know who their own grandfathers were. Would you allow me to ask what is +the family motto of the Goldenhearts?" + +Shall I own the truth? The bottles circulated freely at Mr. Farnaby's +table--I began to wonder whether he was quite sober. I said I was sorry +to disappoint him, but I really did not know what my family motto was. + +He was unaffectedly shocked. "I think I saw a ring on your finger," he +said, as soon as he recovered himself. He lifted my left hand in his +own cold-fishy paw. The one ring I wear is of plain gold; it belonged +to my father and it has his initials inscribed on the signet. + +"Good gracious, you haven't got your coat-of-arms on your seal!" cried +Mr. Farnaby. "My dear sir, I am old enough to be your father, and I +must take the freedom of remonstrating with you. Your coat-of-arms and +your motto are no doubt at the Heralds' Office--why don't you apply for +them? Shall I go there for you? I will do it with pleasure. You +shouldn't be careless about these things--you shouldn't indeed." + +I listened in speechless astonishment. Was he ironically expressing his +contempt for old families? We got into the smoking-room at last; and my +friend the doctor enlightened me privately in a corner. Every word Mr. +Farnaby had said had been spoken in earnest. This man, who owes his +rise from the lowest social position entirely to himself--who, judging +by his own experience, has every reason to despise the poor pride of +ancestry--actually feels a sincerely servile admiration for the +accident of birth! "Oh, poor human nature!" as Somebody says. How +cordially I agree with Somebody! + +We went up to the drawing-room; and I was introduced to "the brown +girl" at last. What impression did she produce on me? + +Do you know, Rufus, there is some perverse reluctance in me to go on +with this inordinately long letter just when I have arrived at the most +interesting part of it. I can't account for my own state of mind; I +only know that it is so. The difficulty of describing the young lady +doesn't perplex me like the difficulty of describing Mrs. Farnaby. I +can see her now, as vividly as if she was present in the room. I even +remember (and this is astonishing in a man) the dress that she wore. +And yet I shrink from writing about her, as if there was something +wrong in it. Do me a kindness, good friend, and let me send off all +these sheets of paper, the idle work of an idle morning, just as they +are. When I write next, I promise to be ashamed of my own capricious +state of mind, and to paint the portrait of Miss Regina at full length. + +In the mean while, don't run away with the idea that she has made a +disagreeable impression upon me. Good heavens! it is far from that. You +have had the old doctor's opinion of her. Very well. Multiply this +opinion by ten--and you have mine. + + +[NOTE:--A strange indorsement appears on this letter, dated several +months after the period at which it was received:--_"Ah, poor Amelius! +He had better have gone back to Miss Mellicent, and put up with the +little drawback of her age. What a bright, lovable fellow he was! +Goodbye to Goldenheart!"_ + +These lines are not signed. They are known, however, to be in the +handwriting of Rufus Dingwell.] + + + +CHAPTER 2 + +I particularly want you to come and lunch with us, dearest Cecilia, the +day after tomorrow. Don't say to yourself, "The Farnaby's house is +dull, and Regina is too slow for me," and don't think about the long +drive for the horses, from your place to London. This letter has an +interest of its own, my dear--I have got something new for you. What do +you think of a young man, who is clever and handsome and +agreeable--and, wonder of wonders, quite unlike any other young +Englishman you ever saw in your life? You are to meet him at luncheon; +and you are to get used to his strange name beforehand. For which +purpose I enclose his card. + +He made his first appearance at our house, at dinner yesterday evening. + +When he was presented to me at the tea-table, he was not to be put off +with a bow--he insisted on shaking hands. "Where I have been," he +explained, "we help a first introduction with a little cordiality." He +looked into his tea-cup, after he said that, with the air of a man who +could say something more, if he had a little encouragement. Of course, +I encouraged him. "I suppose shaking hands is much the same form in +America that bowing is in England?" I said, as suggestively as I could. + +He looked up directly, and shook his head. "We have too many forms in +this country," he said. "The virtue of hospitality, for instance, seems +to have become a form in England. In America, when a new acquaintance +says, 'Come and see me,' he means it. When he says it here, in nine +cases out of ten he looks unaffectedly astonished if you are fool +enough to take him at his word. I hate insincerity, Miss Regina--and +now I have returned to my own country, I find insincerity one of the +established institutions of English Society. 'Can we do anything for +you?' Ask them to do something for you--and you will see what it means. +'Thank you for such a pleasant evening!' Get into the carriage with +them when they go home--and you will find that it means, 'What a bore!' +'Ah, Mr. So-and-so, allow me to congratulate you on your new +appointment.' Mr. So-and-so passes out of hearing--and you discover +what the congratulations mean. 'Corrupt old brute! he has got the price +of his vote at the last division.' 'Oh, Mr. Blank, what a charming book +you have written!' Mr. Blank passes out of hearing--and you ask what +his book is about. 'To tell you the truth, I haven't read it. Hush! +he's received at Court; one must say these things.' The other day a +friend took me to a grand dinner at the Lord Mayor's. I accompanied him +first to his club; many distinguished guests met there before going to +the dinner. Heavens, how they spoke of the Lord Mayor! One of them +didn't know his name, and didn't want to know it; another wasn't +certain whether he was a tallow-chandler or a button-maker; a third, +who had met with him somewhere, described him as a damned ass; a fourth +said, 'Oh, don't be hard on him; he's only a vulgar old Cockney, +without an _h_ in his whole composition.' A chorus of general agreement +followed, as the dinner-hour approached: 'What a bore!' I whispered to +my friend, 'Why do they go?' He answered, 'You see, one must do this +sort of thing.' And when we got to the Mansion House, they did that +sort of thing with a vengeance! When the speech-making set in, these +very men who had been all expressing their profound contempt for the +Lord Mayor behind his back, now flattered him to his face in such a +shamelessly servile way, with such a meanly complete insensibility to +their own baseness, that I did really and literally turn sick. I +slipped out into the fresh air, and fumigated myself, after the company +I had kept, with a cigar. No, no! it's useless to excuse these things +(I could quote dozens of other instances that have come under my own +observation) by saying that they are trifles. When trifles make +themselves habits of yours or of mine, they become a part of your +character or mine. We have an inveterately false and vicious system of +society in England. If you want to trace one of the causes, look back +to the little organized insincerities of English life." + +Of course you understand, Cecilia, that this was not all said at one +burst, as I have written it here. Some of it came out in the way of +answers to my inquiries, and some of it was spoken in the intervals of +laughing, talking, and tea-drinking. But I want to show you how very +different this young man is from the young men whom we are in the habit +of meeting, and so I huddle his talk together in one sample, as Papa +Farnaby would call it. + +My dear, he is decidedly handsome (I mean our delightful Amelius); his +face has a bright, eager look, indescribably refreshing as a contrast +to the stolid composure of the ordinary young Englishman. His smile is +charming; he moves as gracefully--with as little self-consciousness--as +my Italian greyhound. He has been brought up among the strangest people +in America; and (would you believe it?) he is actually a Socialist. +Don't be alarmed. He shocked us all dreadfully by declaring that his +Socialism was entirely learnt out of the New Testament. I have looked +at the New Testament, since he mentioned some of his principles to me; +and, do you know, I declare it is true! + +Oh, I forgot--the young Socialist plays and sings! When we asked him to +go to the piano, he got up and began directly. "I don't do it well +enough," he said, "to want a great deal of pressing." He sang old +English songs, with great taste and sweetness. One of the gentlemen of +our party, evidently disliking him, spoke rather rudely, I thought. "A +Socialist who sings and plays," he said, "is a harmless Socialist +indeed. I begin to feel that my balance is safe at my banker's, and +that London won't be set on fire with petroleum this time." He got his +answer, I can tell you. "Why should we set London on fire? London takes +a regular percentage of your income from you, sir, whether you like it +or not, on sound Socialist principles. You are the man who has got the +money, and Socialism says:--You must and shall help the man who has got +none. That is exactly what your own Poor Law says to you, every time +the collector leaves the paper at your house." Wasn't it clever?--and +it was doubly severe, because it was good-humouredly said. + +Between ourselves, Cecilia, I think he is struck with me. When I walked +about the room, his bright eyes followed me everywhere. And, when I +took a chair by somebody else, not feeling it quite right to keep him +all to myself, he invariably contrived to find a seat on the other side +of me. His voice, too, had a certain tone, addressed to me, and to no +other person in the room. Judge for yourself when you come here; but +don't jump to conclusions, if you please. Oh no--I am not going to fall +in love with him! It isn't in me to fall in love with anybody. Do you +remember what the last man whom I refused said of me? "She has a +machine on the left side of her that pumps blood through her body, but +she has no heart." I pity the woman who marries _that_ man! + +One thing more, my dear. This curious Amelius seems to notice trifles +which escape men in general, just as _we_ do. Towards the close of the +evening, poor Mamma Farnaby fell into one of her vacant states; half +asleep and half awake on the sofa in the back drawing-room. "Your aunt +interests me," he whispered. "She must have suffered some terrible +sorrow, at some past time in her life." Fancy a man seeing that! He +dropped some hints, which showed that he was puzzling his brains to +discover how I got on with her, and whether I was in her confidence or +not: he even went the length of asking what sort of life I led with the +uncle and aunt who have adopted me. My dear, it was done so delicately, +with such irresistible sympathy and such a charming air of respect, +that I was quite startled when I remembered, in the wakeful hours of +the night, how freely I had spoken to him. Not that I have betrayed any +secrets; for, as you know, I am as ignorant as everybody else of what +the early troubles of my poor dear aunt may have been. But I did tell +him how I came into the house a helpless little orphan girl; and how +generously these two good relatives adopted me; and how happy it made +me to find that I could really do something to cheer their sad +childless lives. "I wish I was half as good as you are," he said. "I +can't understand how you became fond of Mrs. Farnaby. Perhaps it began +in sympathy and compassion?" Just think of that, from a young +Englishman! He went on confessing his perplexities, as if we had known +one another from childhood. "I am a little surprised to see Mrs. +Farnaby present at parties of this sort; I should have thought she +would have stayed in her own room." "That's just what she objects to +do," I answered; "She says people will report that her husband is +ashamed of her, or that she is not fit to be seen in society, if she +doesn't appear at the parties--and she is determined not to be +misrepresented in that way." Can you understand my talking to him with +so little reserve? It is a specimen, Cecilia, of the odd manner in +which my impulses carry me away, in this man's company. He is so nice +and gentle--and yet so manly. I shall be curious to see if you can +resist him, with your superior firmness and knowledge of the world. + +But the strangest incident of all I have not told you yet--feeling some +hesitation about the best way of describing it, so as to interest you +in what has deeply interested me. I must tell it as plainly as I can, +and leave it to speak for itself. + +Who do you think has invited Amelius Goldenheart to luncheon? Not Papa +Farnaby, who only invites him to dinner. Not I, it is needless to say. +Who is it, then? Mamma Farnaby herself. He has actually so interested +her that she has been thinking of him, and dreaming of him, in his +absence! + +I heard her last night, poor thing, talking and grinding her teeth in +her sleep; and I went into her room to try if I could quiet her, in the +usual way, by putting my cool hand on her forehead, and pressing it +gently. (The old doctor says it's magnetism, which is ridiculous.) +Well, it didn't succeed this time; she went on muttering, and making +that dreadful sound with her teeth. Occasionally a word was spoken +clearly enough to be intelligible. I could make no connected sense of +what I heard; but I could positively discover this--that she was +dreaming of our guest from America! + +I said nothing about it, of course, when I went upstairs with her cup +of tea this morning. What do you think was the first thing she asked +for? Pen, ink, and paper. Her next request was that I would write Mr. +Goldenheart's address on an envelope. "Are you going to write to him?" +I asked. "Yes," she said, "I want to speak to him, while John is out of +the way at business," "Secrets?" I said, turning it off with a laugh. +She answered, speaking gravely and earnestly. "Yes; secrets." The +letter was written, and sent to his hotel, inviting him to lunch with +us on the first day when he was disengaged. He has replied, appointing +the day after tomorrow. By way of trying to penetrate the mystery, I +inquired if she wished me to appear at the luncheon. She considered +with herself, before she answered that. "I want him to be amused, and +put in a good humour," she said, "before I speak to him. You must lunch +with us--and ask Cecilia." She stopped, and considered once more. "Mind +one thing," she went on. "Your uncle is to know nothing about it. If +you tell him, I will never speak to you again." + +Is this not extraordinary? Whatever her dream may have been, it has +evidently produced a strong impression on her. I firmly believe she +means to take him away with her to her own room, when the luncheon is +over. Dearest Cecilia, you must help me to stop this! I have never been +trusted with her secrets; they may, for all I know, be innocent secrets +enough, poor soul! But it is surely in the highest degree undesirable +that she should take into her confidence a young man who is only an +acquaintance of ours: she will either make herself ridiculous, or do +something worse. If Mr. Farnaby finds it out, I really tremble for what +may happen. + +For the sake of old friendship, don't leave me to face this difficulty +by myself. A line, only one line, dearest, to say that you will not +fail me. + + + +BOOK THE THIRD + +MRS. FARNABY'S FOOT + +CHAPTER 1 + +It is an afternoon concert; and modern German music was largely +represented on the programme. The patient English people sat in +closely-packed rows, listening to the pretentious instrumental noises +which were impudently offered to them as a substitute for melody. While +these docile victims of the worst of all quackeries (musical quackery) +were still toiling through their first hour of endurance, a passing +ripple of interest stirred the stagnant surface of the audience caused +by the sudden rising of a lady overcome by the heat. She was quickly +led out of the concert-room (after whispering a word of explanation to +two young ladies seated at her side) by a gentleman who made a fourth +member of the party. Left by themselves, the young ladies looked at +each other, whispered to each other, half rose from their places, +became confusedly conscious that the wandering attention of the +audience was fixed on them, and decided at last on following their +companions out of the hall. + +But the lady who had preceded them had some reason of her own for not +waiting to recover herself in the vestibule. When the gentleman in +charge of her asked if he should get a glass of water, she answered +sharply, "Get a cab--and be quick about it." + +The cab was found in a moment; the gentleman got in after her, by the +lady's invitation. "Are you better now?" he asked. + +"I have never had anything the matter with me," she replied, quietly; +"tell the man to drive faster." + +Having obeyed his instructions, the gentleman (otherwise Amelius) began +to look a little puzzled. The lady (Mrs. Farnaby herself) perceived his +condition of mind, and favoured him with an explanation. + +"I had my own motive for asking you to luncheon today," she began, in +that steady downright way of speaking that was peculiar to her. "I +wanted to have a word with you privately. My niece Regina--don't be +surprised at my calling her my niece, when you have heard Mr. Farnaby +call her his daughter. She _is_ my niece. Adopting her is a mere +phrase. It doesn't alter facts; it doesn't make her Mr. Farnaby's child +or mine, does it?" + +She had ended with a question, but she seemed to want no answer to it. +Her face was turned towards the cab-window, instead of towards Amelius. +He was one of those rare people who are capable of remaining silent +when they have nothing to say. Mrs. Farnaby went on. + +"My niece Regina is a good creature in her way; but she suspects +people. She has some reason of her own for trying to prevent me from +taking you into my confidence; and her friend Cecilia is helping her. +Yes, yes; the concert was the obstacle which they had arranged to put +in my way. You were obliged to go, after telling them you wanted to +hear the music; and I couldn't complain, because they had got a fourth +ticket for me. I made up my mind what to do; and I have done it. +Nothing wonderful in my being taken ill with the heat; nothing +wonderful in your doing your duty as a gentleman and looking after +me--and what is the consequence? Here we are together, on our way to my +room, in spite of them. Not so bad for a poor helpless creature like +me, is it?" + +Inwardly wondering what it all meant, and what she could possibly want +with him, Amelius suggested that the young ladies might leave the +concert-room, and, not finding them in the vestibule, might follow them +back to the house. + +Mrs. Farnaby turned her head from the window, and looked him in the +face for the first time. "I have been a match for them so far," she +said; "leave it to me, and you will find I can be a match for them +still." + +After saying this, she watched the puzzled face of Amelius with a +moment's steady scrutiny. Her full lips relaxed into a faint smile; her +head sank slowly on her bosom. "I wonder whether he thinks I am a +little crazy?" she said quietly to herself. "Some women in my place +would have gone mad years ago. Perhaps it might have been better for +_me?"_ She looked up again at Amelius. "I believe you are a +good-tempered fellow," she went on. "Are you in your usual temper now? +Did you enjoy your lunch? Has the lively company of the young ladies +put you in a good humour with women generally? I want you to be in a +particularly good humour with me." + +She spoke quite gravely. Amelius, a little to his own astonishment, +found himself answering gravely on his side; assuring her, in the most +conventional terms, that he was entirely at her service. Something in +her manner affected him disagreeably. If he had followed his impulse, +he would have jumped out of the cab, and have recovered his liberty and +his light-heartedness at one and the same moment, by running away at +the top of his speed. + +The driver turned into the street in which Mr. Farnaby's house was +situated. Mrs. Farnaby stopped him, and got out at some little distance +from the door. "You think the young ones will follow us back," she said +to Amelius. "It doesn't matter, the servants will have nothing to tell +them if they do." She checked him in the act of knocking, when they +reached the house door. "It's tea-time downstairs," she whispered, +looking at her watch. "You and I are going into the house, without +letting the servants know anything about it. _Now_ do you understand?" + +She produced from her pocket a steel ring, with several keys attached +to it. "A duplicate of Mr. Farnaby's key," she explained, as she chose +one, and opened the street door. "Sometimes, when I find myself waking +in the small hours of the morning, I can't endure my bed; I must go out +and walk. My key lets me in again, just as it lets us in now, without +disturbing anybody. You had better say nothing about it to Mr. Farnaby. +Not that it matters much; for I should refuse to give up my key if he +asked me. But you're a good-natured fellow--and you don't want to make +bad blood between man and wife, do you? Step softly, and follow me." + +Amelius hesitated. There was something repellent to him in entering +another man's house under these clandestine conditions. "All right!" +whispered Mrs. Farnaby, perfectly understanding him. "Consult your +dignity; go out again, and knock at the door, and ask if I am at home. +I only wanted to prevent a fuss and an interruption when Regina comes +back. If the servants don't know we are here, they will tell her we +haven't returned--don't you see?" + +It would have been absurd to contest the matter, after this. Amelius +followed her submissively to the farther end of the hall. There, she +opened the door of a long narrow room, built out at the back of the +house. + +"This is my den," she said, signing to Amelius to pass in. "While we +are here, nobody will disturb us." She laid aside her bonnet and shawl, +and pointed to a box of cigars on the table. "Take one," she resumed. +"I smoke too, when nobody sees me. That's one of the reasons, I dare +say, why Regina wished to keep you out of my room. I find smoking +composes me. What do _you_ say?" + +She lit a cigar, and handed the matches to Amelius. Finding that he +stood fairly committed to the adventure, he resigned himself to +circumstances with his customary facility. He too lit a cigar, and took +a chair by the fire, and looked about him with an impenetrable +composure worthy of Rufus Dingwell himself. + +The room bore no sort of resemblance to a boudoir. A faded old turkey +carpet was spread on the floor. The common mahogany table had no +covering; the chintz on the chairs was of a truly venerable age. Some +of the furniture made the place look like a room occupied by a man. +Dumb-bells and clubs of the sort used in athletic exercises hung over +the bare mantelpiece; a large ugly oaken structure with closed doors, +something between a cabinet and a wardrobe, rose on one side to the +ceiling; a turning lathe stood against the opposite wall. Above the +lathe were hung in a row four prints, in dingy old frames of black +wood, which especially attracted the attention of Amelius. Mostly +foreign prints, they were all discoloured by time, and they all +strangely represented different aspects of the same subject--infants +parted from their parents by desertion or robbery. The young Moses was +there, in his ark of bulrushes, on the river bank. Good St. Francis +appeared next, roaming the streets, and rescuing forsaken children in +the wintry night. A third print showed the foundling hospital of old +Paris, with the turning cage in the wall, and the bell to ring when the +infant was placed in it. The next and last subject was the stealing of +a child from the lap of its slumbering nurse by a gipsy woman. These +sadly suggestive subjects were the only ornaments on the walls. No +traces of books or music were visible; no needlework of any sort was to +be seen; no elegant trifles; no china or flowers or delicate lacework +or sparkling jewelry--nothing, absolutely nothing, suggestive of a +woman's presence appeared in any part of Mrs. Farnaby's room. + +"I have got several things to say to you," she began; "but one thing +must be settled first. Give me your sacred word of honour that you will +not repeat to any mortal creature what I am going to tell you now." She +reclined in her chair, and drew in a mouthful of smoke and puffed it +out again, and waited for his reply. + +Young and unsuspicious as he was, this unscrupulous method of taking +his confidence by storm startled Amelius. His natural tact and good +sense told him plainly that Mrs. Farnaby was asking too much. + +"Don't be angry with me, ma'am," he said; "I must remind you that you +are going to tell me your secrets, without any wish to intrude on them +on my part--" + +She interrupted him there. "What does that matter?" she asked coolly. + +Amelius was obstinate; he went on with what he had to say. "I should +like to know," he proceeded, "that I am doing no wrong to anybody, +before I give you my promise?" + +"You will be doing a kindness to a miserable creature," she answered, +as quietly as ever; "and you will be doing no wrong to yourself or to +anybody else, if you promise. That is all I can say. Your cigar is out. +Take a light." + +Amelius took a light, with the dog-like docility of a man in a state of +blank amazement. She waited, watching him composedly until his cigar +was in working order again. + +"Well?" she asked. "Will you promise now?" + +Amelius gave her his promise. + +"On your sacred word of honour?" she persisted. + +Amelius repeated the formula. She reclined in her chair once more. "I +want to speak to you as if I was speaking to an old friend," she +explained. "I suppose I may call you Amelius?" + +"Certainly." + +"Well, Amelius, I must tell you first that I committed a sin, many long +years ago. I have suffered the punishment; I am suffering it still. +Ever since I was a young woman, I have had a heavy burden of misery on +my heart. I am not reconciled to it, I cannot submit to it, yet. I +never shall be reconciled to it, I never shall submit to it, if I live +to be a hundred. Do you wish me to enter into particulars? or will you +have mercy on me, and be satisfied with what I have told you so far?" + +It was not said entreatingly, or tenderly, or humbly: she spoke with a +savage self-contained resignation in her manner and in her voice. +Amelius forgot his cigar again--and again she reminded him of it. He +answered her as his own generous impulsive temperament urged him; he +said, "Tell me nothing that causes you a moment's pain; tell me only +how I can help you." She handed him the box of matches; she said, "Your +cigar is out again." + +He laid down his cigar. In his brief span of life he had seen no human +misery that expressed itself in this way. "Excuse me," he answered; "I +won't smoke just now." + +She laid her cigar aside like Amelius, and crossed her arms over her +bosom, and looked at him, with the first softening gleam of tenderness +that he had seen in her face. "My friend," she said, "yours will be a +sad life--I pity you. The world will wound that sensitive heart of +yours; the world will trample on that generous nature. One of these +days, perhaps, you will be a wretch like me. No more of that. Get up; I +have something to show you." + +Rising herself, she led the way to the large oaken press, and took her +bunch of keys out of her pocket again. + +"About this old sorrow of mine," she resumed. "Do me justice, Amelius, +at the outset. I haven't treated it as some women treat their +sorrows--I haven't nursed it and petted it and made the most of it to +myself and to others. No! I have tried every means of relief, every +possible pursuit that could occupy my mind. One example of what I say +will do as well as a hundred. See it for yourself." + +She put the key in the lock. It resisted her first efforts to open it. +With a contemptuous burst of impatience and a sudden exertion of her +rare strength, she tore open the two doors of the press. Behind the +door on the left appeared a row of open shelves. The opposite +compartment, behind the door on the right, was filled by drawers with +brass handles. She shut the left door; angrily banging it to, as if the +opening of it had disclosed something which she did not wish to be +seen. By the merest chance, Amelius had looked that way first. In the +one instant in which it was possible to see anything, he had noticed, +carefully laid out on one of the shelves, a baby's long linen frock and +cap, turned yellow by the lapse of time. + +The half-told story of the past was more than half told now. The +treasured relics of the infant threw their little glimmer of light on +the motive which had chosen the subjects of the prints on the wall. A +child deserted and lost! A child who, by bare possibility, might be +living still! + +She turned towards Amelius suddenly, "There is nothing to interest you +on _that_ side," she said. "Look at the drawers here; open them for +yourself." She drew back as she spoke, and pointed to the uppermost of +the row of drawers. A narrow slip of paper was pasted on it, bearing +this inscription:--_"Dead Consolations."_ + +Amelius opened the drawer; it was full of books. "Look at them," she +said. Amelius, obeying her, discovered dictionaries, grammars, +exercises, poems, novels, and histories--all in the German language. + +"A foreign language tried as a relief," said Mrs. Farnaby, speaking +quietly behind him. "Month after month of hard study--all forgotten +now. The old sorrow came back in spite of it. A dead consolation! Open +the next drawer." + +The next drawer revealed water-colours and drawing materials huddled +together in a corner, and a heap of poor little conventional landscapes +filling up the rest of the space. As works of art, they were wretched +in the last degree; monuments of industry and application miserably and +completely thrown away. + +"I had no talent for that pursuit, as you see," said Mrs. Farnaby. "But +I persevered with it, week after week, month after month. I thought to +myself, 'I hate it so, it costs me such dreadful trouble, it so worries +and persecutes and humiliates me, that _this_ surely must keep my mind +occupied and my thoughts away from myself!' No; the old sorrow stared +me in the face again on the paper that I was spoiling, through the +colours that I couldn't learn to use. Another dead consolation! Shut it +up." + +She herself opened a third and a fourth drawer. In one there appeared a +copy of Euclid, and a slate with the problems still traced on it; the +other contained a microscope, and the treatises relating to its use. +"Always the same effort," she said, shutting the door of the press as +she spoke; "and always the same result. You have had enough of it, and +so have I." She turned, and pointed to the lathe in the corner, and to +the clubs and dumb-bells over the mantelpiece. "I can look at _them_ +patiently," she went on; "they give me bodily relief. I work at the +lathe till my back aches; I swing the clubs till I'm ready to drop with +fatigue. And then I lie down on the rug there, and sleep it off, and +forget myself for an hour or two. Come back to the fire again. You have +seen my dead consolations; you must hear about my living consolation +next. In justice to Mr. Farnaby--ah, how I hate him!" + +She spoke those last vehement words to herself, but with such intense +bitterness of contempt that the tones were quite loud enough to be +heard. Amelius looked furtively towards the door. Was there no hope +that Regina and her friend might return and interrupt them? After what +he had seen and heard, could _he_ hope to console Mrs. Farnaby? He +could only wonder what object she could possibly have in view in taking +him into her confidence. "Am I always to be in a mess with women?" he +thought to himself. "First poor Mellicent, and now this one. What +next?" He lit his cigar again. The brotherhood of smokers, and they +alone, will understand what a refuge it was to him at that moment. + +"Give me a light," said Mrs. Farnaby, recalled to the remembrance of +her own cigar. "I want to know one thing before I go on. Amelius, I +watched those bright eyes of yours at luncheon-time. Did they tell me +the truth? You're not in love with my niece, are you?" + +Amelius took his cigar out of his mouth, and looked at her. + +"Out with it boldly!" she said. + +Amelius let it out, to a certain extent. "I admire her very much," he +answered. + +"Ah," Mrs. Farnaby remarked, "you don't know her as well as I do." + +The disdainful indifference of her tone irritated Amelius. He was still +young enough to believe in the existence of gratitude; and Mrs. Farnaby +had spoken ungratefully. Besides, he was fond enough of Regina already +to feel offended when she was referred to slightingly. + +"I am surprised to hear what you say of her," he burst out. "She is +quite devoted to you." + +"Oh yes," said Mrs. Farnaby, carelessly. "She is devoted to me, of +course--she is the living consolation I told you of just now. That was +Mr. Farnaby's notion in adopting her. Mr. Farnaby thought to himself, +'Here's a ready-made daughter for my wife--that's all this tiresome +woman wants to comfort her: now we shall do.' Do you know what I call +that? I call it reasoning like an idiot. A man may be very clever at +his business--and may be a contemptible fool in other respects. Another +woman's child a consolation to _me!_ Pah! it makes me sick to think of +it. I have one merit, Amelius, I don't cant. It's my duty to take care +of my sister's child; and I do my duty willingly. Regina's a good sort +of creature--I don't dispute it. But she's like all those tall darkish +women: there's no backbone in her, no dash; a kind, feeble, +goody-goody, sugarish disposition; and a deal of quiet obstinacy at the +bottom of it, I can tell you. Oh yes, I do her justice; I don't deny +that she's devoted to me, as you say. But I am making a clean breast of +it now. And you ought to know, and you shall know, that Mr. Farnaby's +living consolation is no more a consolation to me than the things you +have seen in the drawers. There! now we've done with Regina. No: +there's one thing more to be cleared up. When you say you admire her, +what do you mean? Do you mean to marry her?" + +For once in his life Amelius stood on his dignity. "I have too much +respect for the young lady to answer your question," he said loftily. + +"Because, if you do," Mrs. Farnaby proceeded, "I mean to put every +possible obstacle in your way. In short, I mean to prevent it." + +This plain declaration staggered Amelius. He confessed the truth by +implication in one word. + +"Why?" he asked sharply. + +"Wait a little, and recover your temper," she answered. + +There was a pause. They sat, on either side of the fireplace, and eyed +each other attentively. + +"Now are you ready?" Mrs. Farnaby resumed. "Here is my reason. If you +marry Regina, or marry anybody, you will settle down somewhere, and +lead a dull life." + +"Well," said Amelius; "and why not, if I like it?" + +"Because I want you to remain a roving bachelor; here today and gone +tomorrow--travelling all over the world, and seeing everything and +everybody." + +"What good will that do to _you,_ Mrs. Farnaby?" + +She rose from her own side of the fireplace, crossed to the side on +which Amelius was sitting, and, standing before him, placed her hands +heavily on his shoulders. Her eyes grew radiant with a sudden interest +and animation as they looked down on him, riveted on his face. + +"I am still waiting, my friend, for the living consolation that may yet +come to me," she said. "And, hear this, Amelius! After all the years +that have passed, you may be the man who brings it to me." + +In the momentary silence that followed, they heard a double knock at +the house-door. + +"Regina!" said Mrs. Farnaby. + +As the name passed her lips, she sprang to the door of the room, and +turned the key in the lock. + + + +CHAPTER 2 + +Amelius rose impulsively from his chair. + +Mrs. Farnaby turned at the same moment, and signed to him to resume his +seat. "You have given me your promise," she whispered. "All I ask of +you is to be silent." She softly drew the key out of the door, and +showed it to him. "You can't get out," she said, "unless you take the +key from me by force!" + +Whatever Amelius might think of the situation in which he now found +himself, the one thing that he could honourably do was to say nothing, +and submit to it. He remained quietly by the fire. No imaginable +consideration (he mentally resolved) should induce him to consent to a +second confidential interview in Mrs. Farnaby's room. + +The servant opened the house-door. Regina's voice was heard in the +hall. + +"Has my aunt come in?" + +"No, miss." + +"Have you heard nothing of her?" + +"Nothing, miss." + +"Has Mr. Goldenheart been here?" + +"No, miss." + +"Very extraordinary! What can have become of them, Cecilia?" + +The voice of the other lady was heard in answer. "We have probably +missed them, on leaving the concert room. Don't alarm yourself, Regina. +I must go back, under any circumstances; the carriage will be waiting +for me. If I see anything of your aunt, I will say that you are +expecting her at home." + +"One moment, Cecilia! (Thomas, you needn't wait.) Is it really true +that you don't like Mr. Goldenheart?" + +"What! has it come to that, already? I'll try to like him, Regina. +Goodbye again." + +The closing of the street door told that the ladies had separated. The +sound was followed, in another moment, by the opening and closing of +the dining-room door. Mrs. Farnaby returned to her chair at the +fireplace. + +"Regina has gone into the dining-room to wait for us," she said. "I see +you don't like your position here; and I won't keep you more than a few +minutes longer. You are of course at a loss to understand what I was +saying to you, when the knock at the door interrupted us. Sit down +again for five minutes; it fidgets me to see you standing there, +looking at your boots. I told you I had one consolation still possibly +left. Judge for yourself what the hope of it is to me, when I own to +you that I should long since have put an end to my life, without it. +Don't think I am talking nonsense; I mean what I say. It is one of my +misfortunes that I have no religious scruples to restrain me. There was +a time when I believed that religion might comfort me. I once opened my +heart to a clergyman--a worthy person, who did his best to help me. All +useless! My heart was too hard, I suppose. It doesn't matter--except to +give you one more proof that I am thoroughly in earnest. Patience! +patience! I am coming to the point. I asked you some odd questions, on +the day when you first dined here? You have forgotten all about them, +of course?" + +"I remember them perfectly well," Amelius answered. + +"You remember them? That looks as if you had thought about them +afterwards. Come! tell me plainly what you did think?" + +Amelius told her plainly. She became more and more interested, more and +more excited, as he went on. + +"Quite right!" she exclaimed, starting to her feet and walking swiftly +backwards and forwards in the room. "There _is_ a lost girl whom I want +to find; and she is between sixteen and seventeen years old, as you +thought. Mind! I have no reason--not the shadow of a reason--for +believing that she is still a living creature. I have only my own +stupid obstinate conviction; rooted here," she pressed both hands +fiercely on her heart, "so that nothing can tear it out of me! I have +lived in that belief--Oh, don't ask me how long! it is so far, so +miserably far, to look back!" She stopped in the middle of the room. +Her breath came and went in quick heavy gasps; the first tears that had +softened the hard wretchedness in her eyes rose in them now, and +transfigured them with the divine beauty of maternal love. "I won't +distress you," she said, stamping on the floor, as she struggled with +the hysterical passion that was raging in her. "Give me a minute, and +I'll force it down again." + +She dropped into a chair, threw her arms heavily on the table, and laid +her head on them. Amelius thought of the child's frock and cap hidden +in the cabinet. All that was manly and noble in his nature felt for the +unhappy woman, whose secret was dimly revealed to him now. The little +selfish sense of annoyance at the awkward situation in which she had +placed him, vanished to return no more. He approached her, and put his +hand gently on her shoulder. "I am truly sorry for you," he said. "Tell +me how I can help you, and I will do it with all my heart." + +"Do you really mean that?" She roughly dashed the tears from her eyes, +and rose as she put the question. Holding him with one hand, she parted +the hair back from his forehead with the other. "I must see your whole +face," she said--"your face will tell me. Yes: you do mean it. The +world hasn't spoilt you, yet. Do you believe in dreams?" + +Amelius looked at her, startled by the sudden transition. She +deliberately repeated her question. + +"I ask you seriously," she said; "do you believe in dreams?" + +Amelius answered seriously, on his side, "I can't honestly say that I +do." + +"Ah!" she exclaimed, "like me. I don't believe in dreams, either--I +wish I did! But it's not in me to believe in superstitions; I'm too +hard--and I'm sorry for it. I have seen people who were comforted by +their superstitions; happy people, possessed of faith. Don't you even +believe that dreams are sometimes fulfilled by chance?" + +"Nobody can deny that," Amelius replied; "the instances of it are too +many. But for one dream fulfilled by a coincidence, there are--" + +"A hundred at least that are _not_ fulfilled," Mrs. Farnaby interposed. +"Very well. I calculate on that. See how little hope can live on! There +is just the barest possibility that what I dreamed of you the other +night may come to pass. It's a poor chance; but it has encouraged me to +take you into my confidence, and ask you to help me." + +This strange confession--this sad revelation of despair still +unconsciously deceiving itself under the disguise of hope--only +strengthened the compassionate sympathy which Amelius already felt for +her. "What did you dream about me?" he asked gently. + +"It's nothing to tell," she replied. "I was in a room that was quite +strange to me; and the door opened, and you came in leading a young +girl by the hand. You said, 'Be happy at last; here she is.' My heart +knew her instantly, though my eyes had never seen her since the first +days of her life. And I woke myself, crying for joy. Wait! it's not all +told yet. I went to sleep again, and dreamed it again, and woke, and +lay awake for awhile, and slept once more, and dreamed it for the third +time. Ah, if I could only feel some people's confidence in three times! +No; it produced an impression on me--and that was all. I got as far as +thinking to myself, there is just a chance; I haven't a creature in the +world to help me; I may as well speak to him. O, you needn't remind me +that there is a rational explanation of my dream. I have read it all +up, in the Encyclopaedia in the library. One of the ideas of wise men +is that we think of something, consciously or unconsciously, in the +daytime, and then reproduce it in a dream. That's my case, I daresay. +When you were first introduced to me, and when I heard where you had +been brought up, I thought directly that _she_ might have been one +among the many forlorn creatures who had drifted to your Community, and +that I might find her through you. Say that thought went to my bed with +me--and we have the explanation of my dream. Never mind! There is my +one poor chance in a hundred still left. You will remember me, Amelius, +if you _should_ meet with her, won't you?" + +The implied confession of her own intractable character, without +religious faith to ennoble it, without even imagination to refine +it--the unconscious disclosure of the one tender and loving instinct in +her nature still piteously struggling for existence, with no sympathy +to sustain it, with no light to guide it--would have touched the heart +of any man not incurably depraved. Amelius spoke with the fervour of +his young enthusiasm. "I would go to the uttermost ends of the earth, +if I thought I could do you any good. But, oh, it sounds so hopeless!" + +She shook her head, and smiled faintly. + +"Don't say that! You are free, you have money, you will travel about in +the world and amuse yourself. In a week you will see more than +stay-at-home people see in a year. How do we know what the future has +in store for us? I have my own idea. She may be lost in the labyrinth +of London, or she may be hundreds of thousands of miles away. Amuse +yourself, Amelius--amuse yourself. Tomorrow or ten years hence, you +might meet with her!" + +In sheer mercy to the poor creature, Amelius refused to encourage her +delusion. "Even supposing such a thing could happen," he objected, "how +am I to know the lost girl? You can't describe her to me; you have not +seen her since she was a child. Do you know anything of what happened +at the time--I mean at the time when she was lost?" + +"I know nothing." + +"Absolutely nothing?" + +"Absolutely nothing." + +"Have you never felt a suspicion of how it happened?" + +Her face changed: she frowned as she looked at him. "Not till weeks and +months had passed," she said, "not till it was too late. I was ill at +the time. When my mind got clear again, I began to suspect one +particular person--little by little, you know; noticing trifles, and +thinking about them afterwards." She stopped, evidently restraining +herself on the point of saying more. + +Amelius tried to lead her on. "Did you suspect the person--?" he began. + +"I suspected him of casting the child helpless on the world!" Mrs. +Farnaby interposed, with a sudden burst of fury. "Don't ask me any more +about it, or I shall break out and shock you!" She clenched her fists +as she said the words. "It's well for that man," she muttered between +her teeth, "that I have never got beyond suspecting, and never found +out the truth! Why did you turn my mind that way? You shouldn't have +done it. Help me back again to what we were saying a minute ago. You +made some objection; you said--?" + +"I said," Amelius reminded her, "that, even if I did meet with the +missing girl, I couldn't possibly know it. And I must say more than +that--I don't see how you yourself could be sure of recognizing her, if +she stood before you at this moment." + +He spoke very gently, fearing to irritate her. She showed no sign of +irritation--she looked at him, and listened to him, attentively. + +"Are you setting a trap for me?" she asked. "No!" she cried, before +Amelius could answer, "I am not mean enough to distrust you--I forgot +myself. You have innocently said something that rankles in my mind. I +can't leave it where you have left it; I don't like to be told that I +shouldn't recognize her. Give me time to think. I must clear this up." + +She consulted her own thoughts, keeping her eyes fixed on Amelius. + +"I am going to speak plainly," she announced, with a sudden appearance +of resolution. "Listen to this. When I banged to the door of that big +cupboard of mine, it was because I didn't want you to see something on +the shelves. Did you see anything in spite of me?" + +The question was not an easy one to answer. Amelius hesitated. Mrs. +Farnaby insisted on a reply. + +"Did you see anything?" she reiterated + +Amelius owned that he had seen something. + +She turned away from him, and looked into the fire. Her firm full tones +sank so low, when she spoke next, that he could barely hear them. + +"Was it something belonging to a child?" + +"Yes." + +"Was it a baby's frock and cap? Answer me. We have gone too far to go +back. I don't want apologies or explanations--I want, Yes or No." + +"Yes." + +There was an interval of silence. She never moved; she still looked +into fire--looked, as if all her past life was pictured there in the +burning coals. + +"Do you despise me?" she asked at last, very quietly. + +"As God hears me, I am only sorry for you!" Amelius answered. + +Another woman would have melted into tears. This woman still looked +into the fire--and that was all. "What a good fellow!" she said to +herself, "what a good fellow he is!" + +There was another pause. She turned towards him again as abruptly as +she had turned away. + +"I had hoped to spare you, and to spare myself," she said. "If the +miserable truth has come out, it is through no curiosity of yours, and +(God knows!) against every wish of mine. I don't know if you really +felt like a friend towards me before--you must be my friend now. Don't +speak! I know I can trust you. One last word, Amelius, about my lost +child. You doubt whether I should recognize her, if she stood before me +now. That might be quite true, if I had only my own poor hopes and +anxieties to guide me. But I have something else to guide me--and, +after what has passed between us, you may as well know what it is: it +might even, by accident, guide you. Don't alarm yourself; it's nothing +distressing this time. How can I explain it?" she went on; pausing, and +speaking in some perplexity to herself. "It would be easier to show +it--and why not?" She addressed herself to Amelius once more. "I'm a +strange creature," she resumed. "First, I worry you about my own +affairs--then I puzzle you--then I make you sorry for me--and now +(would you think it?) I am going to amuse you! Amelius, are you an +admirer of pretty feet?" + +Amelius had heard of men (in books) who had found reason to doubt +whether their own ears were not deceiving them. For the first time, he +began to understand those men, and to sympathize with them. He +admitted, in a certain bewildered way, that he was an admirer of pretty +feet--and waited for what was to come next. + +"When a woman has a pretty hand," Mrs. Farnaby proceeded; "she is ready +enough to show it. When she goes out to a ball, she favours you with a +view of her bosom, and a part of her back. Now tell me! If there is no +impropriety in a naked bosom--where is the impropriety in a naked +foot?" + +Amelius agreed, like a man in a dream. + +"Where, indeed!" he remarked--and waited again for what was to come +next. + +"Look out of the window," said Mrs. Farnaby. + +Amelius obeyed. The window had been opened for a few inches at the top, +no doubt to ventilate the room. The dull view of the courtyard was +varied by the stables at the farther end, and by the kitchen skylight +rising in the middle of the open space. As Amelius looked out, he +observed that some person at that moment in the kitchen required +apparently a large supply of fresh air. The swinging window, on the +side of the skylight which was nearest to him, was invisibly and +noiselessly pulled open from below; the similar window, on the other +side, being already wide open also. Judging by appearance, the +inhabitants of the kitchen possessed a merit which is exceedingly rare +among domestic servants--they understood the laws of ventilation, and +appreciated the blessing of fresh air. + +"That will do," said Mrs. Farnaby. "You can turn round now." + +Amelius turned. Mrs. Farnaby's boots and stockings were on the +hearthrug, and one of Mrs. Farnaby's feet was placed, ready for +inspection, on the chair which he had just left. "Look at my right foot +first," she said, speaking gravely and composedly in her ordinary tone. + +It was well worth looking at--a foot equally beautiful in form and in +colour: the instep arched and high, the ankle at once delicate and +strong, the toes tinged with rose-colour at the tips. In brief, it was +a foot to be photographed, to be cast in plaster, to be fondled and +kissed. Amelius attempted to express his admiration, but was not +allowed to get beyond the first two or three words. "No," Mrs. Farnaby +explained, "this is not vanity--simply information. You have seen my +right foot; and you have noticed that there is nothing the matter with +it. Very well. Now look at my left foot." + +She put her left foot up on the chair. "Look between the third toe and +the fourth," she said. + +Following his instructions, Amelius discovered that the beauty of the +foot was spoilt, in this case, by a singular defect. The two toes were +bound together by a flexible web, or membrane, which held them to each +other as high as the insertion of the nail on either side. + +"Do you wonder," Mrs. Farnaby asked, "why I show you the fault in my +foot? Amelius! my poor darling was born with my deformity--and I want +you to know exactly what it is, because neither you nor I can say what +reason for remembering it there may not be in the future." She stopped, +as if to give him an opportunity of speaking. A man shallow and +flippant by nature might have seen the disclosure in a grotesque +aspect. Amelius was sad and silent. "I like you better and better," she +went on. "You are not like the common run of men. Nine out of ten of +them would have turned what I have just told you into a joke--nine out +of ten would have said, 'Am I to ask every girl I meet to show me her +left foot?' You are above that; you understand me. Have I no means of +recognizing my own child, now?" + +She smiled, and took her foot off the chair--then, after a moment's +thought, she pointed to it again. + +"Keep this as strictly secret as you keep everything else," she said. +"In the past days, when I used to employ people privately to help me to +find her, it was my only defence against being imposed upon. Rogues and +vagabonds thought of other marks and signs--but not one of them could +guess at such a mark as that. Have you got your pocket-book, Amelius? +In case we are separated at some later time, I want to write the name +and address in it of a person whom we can trust. I persist, you see, in +providing for the future. There's the one chance in a hundred that my +dream may come true--and you have so many years before you, and so many +girls to meet with in that time!" + +She handed back the pocket-book, which Amelius had given to her, after +having inscribed a man's name and address on one of the blank leaves. + +"He was my father's lawyer," she explained; "and he and his son are +both men to be trusted. Suppose I am ill, for instance--no, that's +absurd; I never had a day's illness in my life. Suppose I am dead +(killed perhaps by some accident, or perhaps by my own hand), the +lawyers have my written instructions, in the case of my child being +found. Then again--I am such an unaccountable woman--I may go away +somewhere, all by myself. Never mind! The lawyers shall have my +address, and my positive orders (though they keep it a secret from all +the world besides) to tell it to you. I don't ask your pardon, Amelius, +for troubling you. The chances are so terribly against me; it is all +but impossible that I shall ever see you--as I saw you in my +dream--coming into the room, leading my girl by the hand. Odd, isn't +it? This is how I veer about between hope and despair. Well, it may +amuse you to remember it, one of these days. Years hence, when I am at +rest in mother earth, and when you are a middle aged married man, you +may tell your wife how strangely you once became the forlorn hope of +the most wretched woman that ever lived--and you may say to each other, +as you sit by your snug fireside, 'Perhaps that poor lost daughter is +still living somewhere, and wondering who her mother was.' No! I won't +let you see the tears in my eyes again--I'll let you go at last." + +She led the way to the door--a creature to be pitied, if ever there was +a pitiable creature yet: a woman whose whole nature was maternal, who +was nothing if not a mother; and who had lived through sixteen years of +barren life, in the hopeless anticipation of recovering her lost child! + +"Goodbye, and thank you," she said. "I want to be left by myself, my +dear, with that little frock and cap which you found out in spite of +me. Go, and tell my niece it's all right--and don't be stupid enough to +fall in love with a girl who has no love to give you in return." She +pushed Amelius into the hall. "Here he is, Regina!" she called out; "I +have done with him." + +Before Amelius could speak, she had shut herself into her room. He +advanced along the hall, and met Regina at the door of the dining-room. + + + +CHAPTER 3 + +The young lady spoke first. + +"Mr. Goldenheart," she said, with the coldest possible politeness, +"perhaps you will be good enough to explain what this means?" + +She turned back into the dining-room. Amelius followed her in silence. +"Here I am, in another scrape with a woman!" he thought to himself. +"Are men in general as unlucky as I am, I wonder?" + +"You needn't close the door," said Regina maliciously. "Everybody in +the house is welcome to hear what _I_ have to say to you." + +Amelius made a mistake at the outset--he tried what a little humility +would do to help him. There is probably no instance on record in which +humility on the part of a man has ever really found its way to the +indulgence of an irritated woman. The best and the worst of them alike +have at least one virtue in common--they secretly despise a man who is +not bold enough to defend himself when they are angry with him. + +"I hope I have not offended you?" Amelius ventured to say. + +She tossed her head contemptuously. "Oh dear, no! I am not offended. +Only a little surprised at your being so very ready to oblige my aunt." + +In the short experience of her which had fallen to the lot of Amelius, +she had never looked so charmingly as she looked now. The nervous +irritability under which she was suffering brightened her face with the +animation which was wanting in it at ordinary times. Her soft brown +eyes sparkled; her smooth dusky cheeks glowed with a warm red flush; +her tall supple figure asserted its full dignity, robed in a superb +dress of silken purple and black lace, which set off her personal +attractions to the utmost advantage. She not only roused the admiration +of Amelius--she unconsciously gave him back the self-possession which +he had, for the moment, completely lost. He was man enough to feel the +humiliation of being despised by the one woman in the world whose love +he longed to win; and he answered with a sudden firmness of tone and +look that startled her. + +"You had better speak more plainly still, Miss Regina," he said. "You +may as well blame me at once for the misfortune of being a man." + +She drew back a step. "I don't understand you," she answered. + +"Do I owe no forbearance to a woman who asks a favour of me?" Amelius +went on. "If a man had asked me to steal into the house on tiptoe, I +should have said--well! I should have said something I had better not +repeat. If a man had stood between me and the door when you came back, +I should have taken him by the collar and pulled him out of my way. +Could I do that, if you please, with Mrs. Farnaby?" + +Regina saw the weak point of this defence with a woman's quickness of +perception. "I can't offer any opinion," she said; "especially when you +lay all the blame on my aunt." + +Amelius opened his lips to protest--and thought better of it. He wisely +went straight on with what he had still to say. + +"If you will let me finish," he resumed, "you will understand me a +little better than that. Whatever blame there may be, Miss Regina, I am +quite ready to take on myself. I merely wanted to remind you that I was +put in an awkward position, and that I couldn't civilly find a way out +of it. As for your aunt, I will only say this: I know of hardly any +sacrifice that I would not submit to, if I could be of the smallest +service to her. After what I heard, while I was in her room--" + +Regina interrupted him at that point. "I suppose it's a secret between +you?" she said. + +"Yes; it's a secret," Amelius proceeded, "as you say. But one thing I +may tell you, without breaking my promise. Mrs. Farnaby has--well! has +filled me with kindly feeling towards her. She has a claim, poor soul, +to my truest sympathy. And I shall remember her claim. And I shall be +faithful to what I feel towards her as long as I live!" + +It was not very elegantly expressed; but the tone was the tone of true +feeling in his voice trembled, his colour rose. He stood before her, +speaking with perfect simplicity straight from his heart--and the +woman's heart felt it instantly. This was the man whose ridicule she +had dreaded, if her aunt's rash confidence struck him in an absurd +light! She sat down in silence, with a grave sad face, reproaching +herself for the wrong which her too ready distrust had inflicted on +him; longing to ask his pardon, and yet hesitating to say the simple +words. + +He approached her chair, and, placing his hand on the back of it, said +gently, "do you think a little better of me now?" + +She had taken off her gloves: she silently folded and refolded them in +her lap. + +"Your good opinion is very precious to me," Amelius pleaded, bending a +little nearer to her. "I can't tell you how sorry I should be--" He +stopped, and put it more strongly. "I shall never have courage enough +to enter the house again, if I have made you think meanly of me." + +A woman who cared nothing for him would have easily answered this. The +calm heart of Regina began to flutter: something warned her not to +trust herself to speak. Little as he suspected it, Amelius had troubled +the tranquil temperament of this woman. He had found his way to those +secret reserves of tenderness--placid and deep--of which she was hardly +conscious herself, until his influence had enlightened her. She was +afraid to look up at him; her eyes would have told him the truth. She +lifted her long, finely shaped, dusky hand, and offered it to him as +the best answer that she could make. + +Amelius took it, looked at it, and ventured on his first familiarity +with her--he kissed it. She only said, "Don't!" very faintly. + +"The Queen would let me kiss her hand if I went to Court," Amelius +reminded her, with a pleasant inner conviction of his wonderful +readiness at finding an excuse. + +She smiled in spite of herself. "Would the Queen let you hold it?" she +asked, gently releasing her hand, and looking at him as she drew it +away. The peace was made without another word of explanation. Amelius +took a chair at her side. "I'm quite happy now you have forgiven me," +he said. "You don't know how I admire you--and how anxious I am to +please you, if I only knew how!" + +He drew his chair a little nearer; his eyes told her plainly that his +language would soon become warmer still, if she gave him the smallest +encouragement. This was one reason for changing the subject. But there +was another reason, more cogent still. Her first painful sense of +having treated him unjustly had ceased to make itself keenly felt; the +lower emotions had their opportunity of asserting themselves. +Curiosity, irresistible curiosity, took possession of her mind, and +urged her to penetrate the mystery of the interview between Amelius and +her aunt. + +"Will you think me very indiscreet," she began slyly, "if I made a +little confession to you?" + +Amelius was only too eager to hear the confession: it would pave the +way for something of the same sort on his part. + +"I understand my aunt making the heat in the concert-room a pretence +for taking you away with her," Regina proceeded; "but what astonishes +me is that she should have admitted you to her confidence after so +short an acquaintance. You are still--what shall I say?--you are still +a new friend of ours." + +"How long will it be before I become an old friend?" Amelius asked. "I +mean," he added, with artful emphasis, "an old friend of _yours?"_ + +Confused by the question, Regina passed it over without notice. "I am +Mrs. Farnaby's adopted daughter," she resumed. "I have been with her +since I was a little girl--and yet she has never told me any of her +secrets. Pray don't suppose that I am tempting you to break faith with +my aunt! I am quite incapable of such conduct as that." + +Amelius saw his way to a thoroughly commonplace compliment which +possessed the charm of complete novelty so far as his experience was +concerned. He would actually have told her that she was incapable of +doing anything which was not perfectly becoming to a charming person, +if she had only given him time! She was too eager in the pursuit of her +own object to give him time. "I _should_ like to know," she went on, +"whether my aunt has been influenced in any way by a dream that she had +about you." + +Amelius started. "Has she told you of her dream?" he asked, with some +appearance of alarm. + +Regina blushed and hesitated, "My room is next to my aunt's," she +explained. "We keep the door between us open. I am often in and out +when she is disturbed in her sleep. She was talking in her sleep, and I +heard your name--nothing more. Perhaps I ought not to have mentioned +it? Perhaps I ought not to expect you to answer me?" + +"There is no harm in my answering you," said Amelius. "The dream really +had something to do with her trusting me. You may not think quite so +unfavourably of her conduct now you know that." + +"It doesn't matter what I think," Regina replied constrainedly. "If my +aunt's secrets have interested you--what right have I to object? I am +sure I shall say nothing. Though I am not in my aunt's confidence, nor +in your confidence, you will find I can keep a secret." + +She folded up her gloves for the twentieth time at least, and gave +Amelius his opportunity of retiring by rising from her chair. He made a +last effort to recover the ground that he had lost, without betraying +Mrs. Farnaby's trust in him. + +"I am sure you can keep a secret," he said. "I should like to give you +one of my secrets to keep--only I mustn't take the liberty, I suppose, +just yet?" + +She new perfectly well what he wanted to say. Her heart began to +quicken its beat; she was at a loss how to answer. After an awkward +silence, she made an attempt to dismiss him. "Don't let me detain you," +she said, "if you have any engagement." + +Amelius silently looked round him for his hat. On a table behind him a +monthly magazine lay open, exhibiting one of those melancholy modern +"illustrations" which present the English art of our day in its laziest +and lowest state of degradation. A vacuous young giant, in flowing +trousers, stood in a garden, and stared at a plump young giantess with +enormous eyes and rotund hips, vacantly boring holes in the grass with +the point of her parasol. Perfectly incapable of explaining itself, +this imbecile production put its trust in the printer, whose charitable +types helped it, at the bottom of the page, with the title of "Love at +First Sight." On those remarkable words Amelius seized, with the +desperation of the drowning man, catching at the proverbial straw. They +offered him a chance of pleading his cause, this time, with a happy +indirectness of allusion at which not even a young lady's +susceptibility could take offence. + +"Do you believe in that?" he said, pointing to the illustration. + +Regina declined to understand him. "In what?" she asked. + +"In love at first sight." + +It would be speaking with inexcusable rudeness to say plainly that she +told him a lie. Let the milder form of expression be, that she modestly +concealed the truth. "I don't know anything about it," she said. + +_"I_ do," Amelius remarked smartly. + +She persisted in looking at the illustration. Was there an infection of +imbecility in that fatal work? She was too simple to understand him, +even yet! "You do--what?" she inquired innocently. + +"I know what love at first sight is," Amelius burst out. + +Regina turned over the leaves of the magazine. "Ah," she said, "you +have read the story." + +"I haven't read the story," Amelius answered. "I know what I felt +myself--on being introduced to a young lady." + +She looked up at him with a sly smile. "A young lady in America?" she +asked. + +"In England, Miss Regina." He tried to take her hand--but she kept it +out of his reach. "In London," he went on, drifting back into his +customary plainness of speech. "In this very street," he resumed, +seizing her hand before she was aware of him. Too much bewildered to +know what else to do, Regina took refuge desperately in shaking hands +with him. "Goodbye, Mr. Goldenheart," she said--and gave him his +dismissal for the second time. + +Amelius submitted to his fate; there was something in her eyes which +warned him that he had ventured far enough for that day. + +"May I call again, soon?" he asked piteously. + +"No!" answered a voice at the door which they both recognized--the +voice of Mrs. Farnaby. + +"Yes!" Regina whispered to him, as her aunt entered the room. Mrs. +Farnaby's interference, following on the earlier events of the day, had +touched the young lady's usually placable temper in a tender place--and +Amelius reaped the benefit of it. + +Mrs. Farnaby walked straight up to him, put her hand in his arm, and +led him out into the hall. + +"I had my suspicions," she said; "and I find they have not misled me. +Twice already, I have warned you to let my niece alone. For the third, +and last time, I tell you that she is as cold as ice. She will trifle +with you as long as it flatters her vanity; and she will throw you +over, as she has thrown other men over. Have your fling, you foolish +fellow, before you marry anybody. Pay no more visits to this house, +unless they are visits to me. I shall expect to hear from you." She +paused, and pointed to a statue which was one of the ornaments in the +hall. "Look at that bronze woman with the clock in her hand. That's +Regina. Be off with you--goodbye!" + +Amelius found himself in the street. Regina was looking out at the +dining-room window. He kissed his hand to her: she smiled and bowed. +"Damn the other men!" Amelius said to himself. "I'll call on her +tomorrow." + + + +CHAPTER 4 + +Returning to his hotel, he found three letters waiting for him on the +sitting-room table. + +The first letter that he opened was from his landlord, and contained +his bill for the past week. As he looked at the sum total, Amelius +presented to perfection the aspect of a serious young man. He took pen, +ink, and paper, and made some elaborate calculations. Money that he had +too generously lent, or too freely given away, appeared in his +statement of expenses, as well as money that he had spent on himself. +The result may be plainly stated in his own words: "Goodbye to the +hotel; I must go into lodgings." + +Having arrived at this wise decision, he opened the second letter. It +proved to be written by the lawyers who had already communicated with +him at Tadmor, on the subject of his inheritance. + + +"DEAR SIR, + +"The enclosed, insufficiently addressed as you will perceive, only +reached us this day. We beg to remain, etc." + + +Amelius opened the letter enclosed, and turned to the signature for +information. The name instantly took him back to the Community: the +writer was Mellicent. + +Her letter began abruptly, in these terms: + +"Do you remember what I said to you when we parted at Tadmor? I said, +'Be comforted, Amelius, the end is not yet.' And I said again, 'You +will come back to me.' + +"I remind you of this, my friend--directing to your lawyers, whose +names I remember when their letter to you was publicly read in the +Common Room. Once or twice a year I shall continue to remind you of +those parting words of mine: there will be a time perhaps when you will +thank me for doing so. + +"In the mean while, light your pipe with my letters; my letters don't +matter. If I can comfort you, and reconcile you to your life--years +hence, when you, too, my Amelius, may be one of the Fallen Leaves like +me--then I shall not have lived and suffered in vain; my last days on +earth will be the happiest days that I have ever seen. + +"Be pleased not to answer these lines, or any other written words of +mine that may follow, so long as you are prosperous and happy. With +_that_ part of your life I have nothing to do. You will find friends +wherever you go--among the women especially. Your generous nature shows +itself frankly in your face; your manly gentleness and sweetness speak +in every tone of your voice; we poor women feel drawn towards you by an +attraction which we are not able to resist. Have you fallen in love +already with some beautiful English girl? Oh, be careful and prudent! +Be sure, before you set your heart on her, that she is worthy of you! +So many women are cruel and deceitful. Some of them will make you +believe you have won their love, when you have only flattered their +vanity; and some are poor weak creatures whose minds are set on their +own interests, and who may let bad advisers guide them, when you are +not by. For your own sake, take care! + +"I am living with my sister, at New York. The days and weeks glide by +me quietly; you are in my thoughts and my prayers; I have nothing to +complain of; I wait and hope. When the time of my banishment from the +Community has expired, I shall go back to Tadmor; and there you will +find me, Amelius, the first to welcome you when your spirits are +sinking under the burden of life, and your heart turns again to the +friends of your early days. + +"Goodbye, my dear--goodbye!" + + +Amelius laid the letter aside, touched and saddened by the artless +devotion to him which it expressed. He was conscious also of a feeling +of uneasy surprise, when he read the lines which referred to his +possible entanglement with some beautiful English girl. Here, with +widely different motives, was Mrs. Farnaby's warning repeated, by a +stranger writing from another quarter of the globe! It was an odd +coincidence, to say the least of it. After thinking for a while, he +turned abruptly to the third letter that was waiting for him. He was +not at ease; his mind felt the need of relief. + +The third letter was from Rufus Dingwell; announcing the close of his +tour in Ireland, and his intention of shortly joining Amelius in +London. The excellent American expressed, with his customary absence of +reserve, his fervent admiration of Irish hospitality, Irish beauty, and +Irish whisky. "Green Erin wants but one thing more," Rufus predicted, +"to be a Paradise on earth--it wants the day to come when we shall send +an American minister to the Irish Republic." Laughing over this quaint +outbreak, Amelius turned from the first page to the second. As his eyes +fell on the next paragraph, a sudden change passed over him; he let the +letter drop on the floor. + +"One last word," the American wrote, "about that nice long bright +letter of yours. I have read it with strict attention, and thought over +it considerably afterwards. Don't be riled, friend Amelius, if I tell +you in plain words, that your account of the Farnabys doesn't make me +happy--quite the contrary, I do assure you. My back is set up, sir, +against that family. You will do well to drop them; and, above all +things, mind what you are about with the brown miss, who has found her +way to your favourable opinion in such an almighty hurry. Do me a +favour, my good boy. Just wait till I have seen her, will you?" + +Mrs. Farnaby, Mellicent, Rufus--all three strangers to each other; and +all three agreed nevertheless in trying to part him from the beautiful +young Englishwoman! "I don't care," Amelius thought to himself "They +may say what they please--I'll marry Regina, if she will have me!" + + + +BOOK THE FOURTH + +LOVE AND MONEY + +CHAPTER 1 + +In an interval of no more than three weeks what events may not present +themselves? what changes may not take place? Behold Amelius, on the +first drizzling day of November, established in respectable lodgings, +at a moderate weekly rent. He stands before his small fireside, and +warms his back with an Englishman's severe sense of enjoyment. The +cheap looking-glass on the mantelpiece reflects the head and shoulders +of a new Amelius. His habits are changed; his social position is in +course of development. Already, he is a strict economist. Before long, +he expects to become a married man. + +It is good to be economical: it is, perhaps, better still to be the +accepted husband of a handsome young woman. But, for all that, a man in +a state of moral improvement, with prospects which his less favoured +fellow creatures may reasonably envy, is still a man subject to the +mischievous mercy of circumstances, and capable of feeling it keenly. +The face of the new Amelius wore an expression of anxiety, and, more +remarkable yet, the temper of the new Amelius was out of order. + +For the first time in his life he found himself considering trivial +questions of sixpences, and small favours of discount for cash +payments--an irritating state of things in itself. There were more +serious anxieties, however, to trouble him than these. He had no reason +to complain of the beloved object herself. Not twelve hours since he +had said to Regina, with a voice that faltered, and a heart that beat +wildly, "Are you fond enough of me to let me marry you?" And she had +answered placidly, with a heart that would have satisfied the most +exacting stethoscope in the medical profession, "Yes, if you like." +There was a moment of rapture, when she submitted for the first time to +be kissed, and when she consented, on being gently reminded that it was +expected of her, to return the kiss--once, and no more. But there was +also an attendant train of serious considerations which followed on the +heels of Amelius when the kissing was over, and when he had said +goodbye for the day. + +He had two women for enemies, both resolutely against him in the matter +of his marriage. + +Regina's correspondent and bosom friend, Cecilia, who had begun by +disliking him, without knowing why, persisted in maintaining her +unfavourable opinion of the new friend of the Farnabys. She was a young +married woman; and she had an influence over Regina which promised, +when the fit opportunity came, to make itself felt. The second, and by +far the more powerful hostile influence, was the influence of Mrs. +Farnaby. Nothing could exceed the half sisterly, half motherly, +goodwill with which she received Amelius on those rare occasions when +they happened to meet, unembarrassed by the presence of a third person +in the room. Without actually reverting to what had passed between them +during their memorable interview, Mrs. Farnaby asked questions, plainly +showing that the forlorn hope which she associated with Amelius was a +hope still firmly rooted in her mind. "Have you been much about London +lately?" "Have you met with any girls who have taken your fancy?" "Are +you getting tired of staying in the same place, and are you going to +travel soon?" Inquiries such as these she was, sooner or later, sure to +make when they were alone. But if Regina happened to enter the room, or +if Amelius contrived to find his way to her in some other part of the +house, Mrs. Farnaby deliberately shortened the interview and silenced +the lovers--still as resolute as ever to keep Amelius exposed to the +adventurous freedom of a bachelor's life. For the last week, his only +opportunities of speaking to Regina had been obtained for him secretly +by the well-rewarded devotion of her maid. And he had now the prospect +before him of asking Mr. Farnaby for the hand of his adopted daughter, +with the certainty of the influence of two women being used against +him--even if he succeeded in obtaining a favourable reception for his +proposal from the master of the house. + +Under such circumstances as these--alone, on a rainy November day, in a +lodging on the dreary eastward side of the Tottenham Court Road--even +Amelius bore the aspect of a melancholy man. He was angry with his +cigar because it refused to light freely. He was angry with the poor +deaf servant-of-all-work, who entered the room, after one thumping +knock at the door, and made, in muffled tones, the barbarous +announcement, "Here's somebody a-wantin' to see yer." + +"Who the devil is Somebody?" Amelius shouted. + +"Somebody is a citizen of the United States," answered Rufus, quietly +entering the room. "And he's sorry to find Claude A. Goldenheart's +temperature at boiling-point already!" + +He had not altered in the slightest degree since he had left the +steamship at Queenstown. Irish hospitality had not fattened him; the +change from sea to land had not suggested to him the slightest +alteration in his dress. He still wore the huge felt hat in which he +had first presented himself to notice on the deck of the vessel. The +maid-of-all-work raised her eyes to the face of the long lean stranger, +overshadowed by the broadbrimmed hat, in reverent amazement. "My love +to you, miss," said Rufus, with his customary grave cordiality; _"I'll_ +shut the door." Having dismissed the maid with that gentle hint, he +shook hands heartily with Amelius. "Well, I call this a juicy morning," +he said, just as if they had met at the cabin breakfast-table as usual. + +For the moment, at least, Amelius brightened at the sight of his +fellow-traveller. "I am really glad to see you," he said. "It's lonely +in these new quarters, before one gets used to them." + +Rufus relieved himself of his hat and great coat, and silently looked +about the room. "I'm big in the bones," he remarked, surveying the +rickety lodging-house furniture with some suspicion; "and I'm a trifle +heavier than I look. I shan't break one of these chairs if I sit down +on it, shall I?" Passing round the table (littered with books and +letters) in search of the nearest chair, he accidentally brushed +against a sheet of paper with writing on it. "Memorandum of friends in +London, to be informed of my change of address," he read, looking at +the paper, as he picked it up, with the friendly freedom that +characterized him. "You have made pretty good use of your time, my son, +since I took my leave of you in Queenstown harbour. I call this a +reasonable long list of acquaintances made by a young stranger in +London." + +"I met with an old friend of my family at the hotel," Amelius +explained. "He was a great loss to my poor father, when he got an +appointment in India; and, now he has returned, he has been equally +kind to me. I am indebted to his introduction for most of the names on +that list." + +"Yes?" said Rufus, in the interrogative tone of a man who was waiting +to hear more. "I'm listening, though I may not look like it. Git +along." + +Amelius looked at his visitor, wondering in what precise direction he +was to "git along." + +"I'm no friend to partial information," Rufus proceeded; "I like to +round it off complete, as it were, in my own mind. There are names on +this list that you haven't accounted for yet. Who provided you, sir, +with the balance of your new friends?" + +Amelius answered, not very willingly, "I met them at Mr. Farnaby's +house." + +Rufus looked up from the list with the air of a man surprised by +disagreeable information, and unwilling to receive it too readily. +"How?" he exclaimed, using the old English equivalent (often heard in +America) for the modern "What?" + +"I met them at Mr. Farnaby's," Amelius repeated. + +"Did you happen to receive a letter of my writing, dated Dublin?" Rufus +asked. + +"Yes." + +"Do you set any particular value on my advice?" + +"Certainly!" + +"And you cultivate social relations with Farnaby and family, +notwithstanding?" + +"I have motives for being friendly with them, which--which I haven't +had time to explain to you yet." + +Rufus stretched out his long legs on the floor, and fixed his shrewd +grave eyes steadily on Amelius. + +"My friend," he said, quietly, "in respect of personal appearance and +pleasing elasticity of spirits, I find you altered for the worse, I do. +It may be Liver, or it may be Love. I reckon, now I think of it, you're +too young yet for Liver. It's the brown miss--that's what 'tis. I hate +that girl, sir, by instinct." + +"A nice way of talking of a young lady you never saw!" Amelius broke +out. + +Rufus smiled grimly. "Go ahead!" he said. "If you can get vent in +quarrelling with me, go ahead, my son." + +He looked round the room again, with his hands in his pockets, +whistling. Descending to the table in due course of time, his quick eye +detected a photograph placed on the open writing desk which Amelius had +been using earlier in the day. Before it was possible to stop him, the +photograph was in his hand. "I believe I've got her likeness," he +announced. "I do assure you I take pleasure in making her acquaintance +in this sort of way. Well, now, I declare she's a columnar creature! +Yes, sir; I do justice to your native produce--your fine fleshy +beef-fed English girl. But I tell you this: after a child or two, that +sort runs to fat, and you find you have married more of her than you +bargained for. To what lengths may you have proceeded, Amelius, with +this splendid and spanking person?" + +Amelius was just on the verge of taking offence. "Speak of her +respectfully," he said, "if you expect me to answer you." + +Rufus stared in astonishment. "I'm paying her all manner of +compliments," he protested, "and you're not satisfied yet. My friend, I +still find something about you, on this occasion, which reminds me of +meat cut against the grain. You're almost nasty--you are! The air of +London, I reckon, isn't at all the thing for you. Well, it don't matter +to me; I like you. Afloat or ashore, I like you. Do you want to know +what I should do, in your place, if I found myself steering a little +too nigh to the brown miss? I should--well, to put it in one word, I +should scatter. Where's the harm, I'll ask you, if you try another girl +or two, before you make your mind up. I shall be proud to introduce you +to our slim and snaky sort at Coolspring. Yes. I mean what I say; and +I'll go back with you across the pond." Referring in this disrespectful +manner to the Atlantic Ocean, Rufus offered his hand in token of +unalterable devotion and goodwill. + +Who could resist such a man as this? Amelius, always in extremes, wrung +his hand, with an impetuous sense of shame. "I've been sulky," he said, +"I've been rude, I ought to be ashamed of myself--and I am. There's +only one excuse for me, Rufus. I love her with all my heart and soul; +and I'm engaged to be married to her. And yet, if you understand my way +of putting it, I'm--in short, I'm in a mess." + +With this characteristic preface, he described his position as exactly +as he could; having due regard to the necessary reserve on the subject +of Mrs. Farnaby. Rufus listened, with the closest attention, from +beginning to end; making no attempt to disguise the unfavourable +impression which the announcement of the marriage-engagement had made +on him. When he spoke next, instead of looking at Amelius as usual, he +held his head down, and looked gloomily at his boots. + +"Well," he said, "you've gone ahead this time, and that's a fact. She +didn't raise any difficulties that a man could ride off on--did she?" + +"She was all that was sweet and kind!" Amelius answered, with +enthusiasm. + +"She was all that was sweet and kind," Rufus absently repeated, still +intent on the solid spectacle of his own boots. "And how about uncle +Farnaby? Perhaps he's sweet and kind likewise, or perhaps he cuts up +rough? Possible--is it not, sir?" + +"I don't know; I haven't spoken to him yet." + +Rufus suddenly looked up. A faint gleam of hope irradiated his long +lank face. "Mercy be praised! there's a last chance for you," he +remarked. "Uncle Farnaby may say No." + +"It doesn't matter what he says," Amelius rejoined. "She's old enough +to choose for herself, he can't stop the marriage." + +Rufus lifted one wiry yellow forefinger, in a state of perpendicular +protest. "He cannot stop the marriage," the sagacious New Englander +admitted; "but he can stop the money, my son. Find out how you stand +with him before another day is over your head." + +"I can't go to him this evening." said Amelius; "he dines out." + +"Where is he now?" + +"At his place of business." + +"Fix him at his place of business. Right away!" cried Rufus, springing +with sudden energy to his feet. + +"I don't think he would like it," Amelius objected. "He's not a very +pleasant fellow, anywhere; but he's particularly disagreeable at his +place of business." + +Rufus walked to the window, and looked out. The objections to Mr. +Farnaby appeared to fail, so far, in interesting him. + +"To put it plainly," Amelius went on, "there's something about him that +I can't endure. And--though he's very civil to me, in his way--I don't +think he has ever got over the discovery that I am a Christian +Socialist." + +Rufus abruptly turned round from the window, and became attentive +again. "So you told him that--did you?" he said. + +"Of course!" Amelius rejoined, sharply. "Do you suppose I am ashamed of +the principles in which I have been brought up?" + +"You don't care, I reckon, if all the world knows your principles, +persisted Rufus, deliberately leading him on. + +"Care?" Amelius reiterated. "I only wish I had all the world to listen +to me. They should hear of my principles, with no bated breath, I +promise you!" + +There was a pause. Rufus turned back again to the window. "When +Farnaby's at home, where does he live?" he asked suddenly--still +keeping his face towards the street. + +Amelius mentioned the address. "You don't mean that you are going to +call there?" he inquired, with some anxiety. + +"Well, I reckoned I might catch him before dinner-time. You seem to be +sort of feared to speak to him yourself. I'm your friend, Amelius--and +I'll speak for you." + +The bare idea of the interview struck Amelius with terror. "No, no!" he +said. "I'm much obliged to you, Rufus. But in a matter of this sort, I +shouldn't like to transfer the responsibility to my friend. I'll speak +to Mr. Farnaby in a day or two." + +Rufus was evidently not satisfied with this. "I do suppose, now," he +suggested, "you're not the only man moving in this metropolis who +fancies Miss Regina. Query, my son: if you put off Farnaby much +longer--" He paused and looked at Amelius. "Ah," he said, "I reckon I +needn't enlarge further: there _is_ another man. Well, it's the same in +my country; I don't know what he does, with You: he always turns up, +with Us, just at the time when you least want to see him." + +There _was_ another man--an older and a richer man than Amelius; +equally assiduous in his attentions to the aunt and to the niece; +submissively polite to his favoured young rival. He was the sort of +person, in age and in temperament, who would be perfectly capable of +advancing his own interests by means of the hostile influence of Mrs. +Farnaby. Who could say what the result might be if, by some unlucky +accident, he made the attempt before Amelius had secured for himself +the support of the master of the house? In his present condition of +nervous irritability, he was ready to believe in any coincidence of the +disastrous sort. The wealthy rival was a man of business, a near city +neighbour of Mr. Farnaby. They might be together at that moment; and +Regina's fidelity to her lover might be put to a harder test than she +was prepared to endure. Amelius remembered the gentle conciliatory +smile (too gentle by half) with which his placid mistress had received +his first kisses--and, without stopping to weigh conclusions, snatched +up his hat. "Wait here for me, Rufus, like a good fellow. I'm off to +the stationer's shop." With those parting words, he hurried out of the +room. + +Left by himself, Rufus began to rummage the pockets of his frockcoat--a +long, loose, and dingy garment which had become friendly and +comfortable to him by dint of ancient use. Producing a handful of +correspondence, he selected the largest envelope of all; shook out on +the table several smaller letters enclosed; picked one out of the +number; and read the concluding paragraph only, with the closest +attention. + +"I enclose letters of introduction to the secretaries of literary +institutions in London, and in some of the principal cities of England. +If you feel disposed to lecture yourself, or if you can persuade +friends and citizens known to you to do so, I believe it may be in your +power to advance in this way the interests of our Bureau. Please take +notice that the more advanced institutions, which are ready to +countenance and welcome free thought in religion, politics, and morals, +are marked on the envelopes with a cross in red ink. The envelopes +without a mark are addressed to platforms on which the customary +British prejudices remain rampant, and in which the charge for places +reaches a higher figure than can be as yet obtained in the sanctuaries +of free thought." + +Rufus laid down the letter, and, choosing one among the envelopes +marked in red ink, looked at the introduction enclosed. "If the right +sort of invitation reached Amelius from this institution," he thought, +"the boy would lecture on Christian Socialism with all his heart and +soul. I wonder what the brown miss and her uncle would say to that?" + +He smiled to himself, and put the letter back in the envelope, and +considered the subject for a while. Below the odd rough surface, he was +a man in ten thousand; no more single-hearted and more affectionate +creature ever breathed the breath of life. He had not been understood +in his own little circle; there had been a want of sympathy with him, +and even a want of knowledge of him, at home. Amelius, popular with +everybody, had touched the great heart of this man. He perceived the +peril that lay hidden under the strange and lonely position of his +fellow-voyager--so innocent in the ways of the world, so young and so +easily impressed His fondness for Amelius, it is hardly too much to +say, was the fondness of a father for a son. With a sigh, he shook his +head, and gathered up his letters, and put them back in his pockets. +"No, not yet," he decided. "The poor boy really loves her; and the girl +may be good enough to make the happiness of his life." He got up and +walked about the room. Suddenly he stopped, struck by a new idea. "Why +shouldn't I judge for myself?" he thought. "I've got the address--I +reckon I'll look in on the Farnabys, in a friendly way." + +He sat down at the desk, and wrote a line, in the event of Amelius +being the first to return to the lodgings: + + +DEAR BOY, + +"I don't find her photograph tells me quite so much as I want to know. +I have a mind to see the living original. Being your friend, you know, +it's only civil to pay my respects to the family. Expect my unbiased +opinion when I come back. + +"Yours, + +"RUFUS." + + +Having enclosed and addressed these lines, he took up his +greatcoat--and checked himself in the act of putting it on. The brown +miss was a British miss. A strange New Englander had better be careful +of his personal appearance, before he ventured into her presence. Urged +by this cautious motive, he approached the looking-glass, and surveyed +himself critically. + +"I doubt I might be the better," it occurred to him, "if I brushed my +hair, and smelt a little of perfume. Yes. I'll make a toilet. Where's +the boy's bedroom, I wonder?" + +He observed a second door in the sitting-room, and opened it at hazard. +Fortune had befriended him, so far: he found himself in his young +friend's bedchamber. + +The toilet of Amelius, simple as it was, had its mysteries for Rufus. +He was at a loss among the perfumes. They were all contained in a +modest little dressing case, without labels of any sort to describe the +contents of the pots and bottles. He examined them one after another, +and stopped at some recently invented French shaving-cream. "It smells +lovely," he said, assuming it to be some rare pomatum. "Just what I +want, it seems, for my head." He rubbed the shaving cream into his +bristly iron-gray hair, until his arms ached. When he had next +sprinkled his handkerchief and himself profusely, first with rose +water, and then (to make quite sure) with eau-de-cologne used as a +climax, he felt that he was in a position to appeal agreeably to the +senses of the softer sex. In five minutes more, he was on his way to +Mr. Farnaby's private residence. + + + +CHAPTER 2 + +The rain that had begun with the morning still poured on steadily in +the afternoon. After one look out of the window, Regina decided on +passing the rest of the day luxuriously, in the company of a novel, by +her own fireside. With her feet on the tender, and her head on the soft +cushion of her favourite easy-chair, she opened the book. Having read +the first chapter and part of the second, she was just lazily turning +over the leaves in search of a love scene, when her languid interest in +the novel was suddenly diverted to an incident in real life. The +sitting-room door was gently opened, and her maid appeared in a state +of modest confusion. + +"If you please, miss, here's a strange gentleman who comes from Mr. +Goldenheart. He wishes particularly to say--" + +She paused, and looked behind her. A faint and curious smell of mingled +soap and scent entered the room, followed closely by a tall, calm, +shabbily-dressed man, who laid a wiry yellow hand on the maid's +shoulder, and stopped her effectually before she could say a word more. + +"Don't you think of troubling yourself to git through with it, my dear; +I'm here, and I'll finish for you." Addressing the maid in these +encouraging terms, the stranger advanced to Regina, and actually +attempted to shake hands with her! Regina rose--and looked at him. It +was a look that ought to have daunted the boldest man living; it +produced no sort of effect on _this_ man. He still held out his hand; +his lean face broadened with a pleasant smile. "My name is Rufus +Dingwell," he said. "I come from Coolspring, Mass.; and Amelius is my +introduction to yourself and family." + +Regina silently acknowledged this information by a frigid bow, and +addressed herself to the maid, waiting at the door: "Don't leave the +room, Phoebe." + +Rufus, inwardly wondering what Phoebe was wanted for, proceeded to +express the cordial sentiments proper to the occasion. "I have heard +about you, miss; and I take pleasure in making your acquaintance." + +The unwritten laws of politeness obliged Regina to say something. "I +have not heard Mr. Goldenheart mention your name," she remarked. "Are +you an old friend of his?" + +Rufus explained with genial alacrity. "We crossed the Pond together, +miss. I like the boy; he's bright and spry; he refreshes me--he does. +We go ahead with most things in my country; and friendship's one of +them. How _do_ you find yourself? Won't you shake hands?" He took her +hand, without waiting to be repelled this time, and shook it with the +heartiest good-will. + +Regina shuddered faintly: she summoned assistance in case of further +familiarity. "Phoebe, tell my aunt." + +Rufus added a message on his own account. "And say this, my dear. I +sincerely desire to make the acquaintance of Miss Regina's aunt, and +any other members of the family circle." + +Phoebe left the room, smiling. Such an amusing visitor as this was a +rare person in Mr. Farnaby's house. Rufus looked after her, with +unconcealed approval. The maid appeared to be more to his taste than +the mistress. "Well, that's a pretty creature, I do declare," he said +to Regina. "Reminds me of our American girls--slim in the waist, and +carries her head nicely. How old may she be, now?" + +Regina expressed her opinion of this familiar question by pointing, +with silent dignity, to a chair. + +"Thank you, miss; not that one," said Rufus. "You see, I'm long in the +legs, and if I once got down as low as that, I reckon I should have to +restore the balance by putting my feet up on the grate; and that's not +manners in Great Britain--and quite right too." + +He picked out the highest chair he could find, and admired the +workmanship as he drew it up to the fireplace. "Most sumptuous and +elegant," he said. "The style of the Re_nay_sance, as they call it." +Regina observed with dismay that he had not got his hat in his hand +like other visitors. He had left it no doubt in the hall; he looked as +if he had dropped in to spend the day, and stay to dinner. + +"Well, miss, I've seen your photograph," he resumed; "and I don't much +approve of it, now I see You. My sentiments are not altogether +favourable to that art. I delivered a lecture on photographic +portraiture at Coolspring; and I described it briefly as justice +without mercy. The audience took the idea; they larfed, they did. +Larfin' reminds me of Amelius. Do you object to his being a Christian +Socialist, miss?" + +The young lady's look, when she answered the question, was not lost on +Rufus. He registered it, mentally, in case of need. "Amelius will soon +get over all that nonsense," she said, "when he has been a little +longer in London." + +"Possible," Rufus admitted. "The boy is fond of you. Yes: he loves you. +I have noticed him, and I can certify to that. I may also remark that +he wants a deal of love in return. No doubt, miss, you have observed +that circumstance yourself?" + +Regina resented this last inquiry as an outrage on propriety. "What +next will he say?" she thought to herself. "I must put this presuming +man in his proper place." She darted another annihilating look at him, +as she spoke in her turn. "May I ask, Mr.--Mr.----?" + +"Dingwell," said Rufus, prompting her. + +"May I ask, Mr. Dingwell, if you have favoured me by calling here at +the request of Mr. Goldenheart?" + +Genial and simple-minded as he was, eagerly as he desired to appreciate +at her full value the young lady who was one day to be the wife of +Amelius, Rufus felt the tone in which those words were spoken. It was +not easy to stimulate his modest sense of what was fairly due to him +into asserting itself, but the cold distrust, the deliberate distance +of Regina's manner, exhausted the long-suffering indulgence of this +singularly patient man. "The Lord, in his mercy, preserve Amelius from +marrying You," he thought, as he rose from his chair, and advanced with +a certain simple dignity to take leave of her. + +"It did not occur to me, miss, to pay my respects to you, till Amelius +and I had parted company," he said. "Please to excuse me. I should have +been welcome, in my country, with no better introduction than being (as +I may say) his friend and well-wisher. If I have made a mistake--" + +He stopped. Regina had suddenly changed colour. Instead of looking at +him, she was looking over his shoulder, apparently at something behind +him. He turned to see what it was. A lady, short and stout, with +strange wild sorrowful eyes, had noiselessly entered the room while he +was speaking: she was waiting, as it seemed, until he had finished what +he had to say. When they confronted each other, she moved to meet him, +with a firm heavy step, and with her hand held out in token of welcome. + +"You may feel equally sure, sir, of a friendly reception here," she +said, in her steady self-possessed way. "I am this young lady's aunt; +and I am glad to see the friend of Amelius in my house." Before Rufus +could answer, she turned to Regina. "I waited," she went on, "to give +you an opportunity of explaining yourself to this gentleman. I am +afraid he has mistaken your coldness of manner for intentional +rudeness." + +The colour rushed back into Regina's face--she vibrated for a moment +between anger and tears. But the better nature in her broke its way +through the constitutional shyness and restraint which habitually kept +it down. "I meant no harm, sir," she said, raising her large beautiful +eyes submissively to Rufus; "I am not used to receiving strangers. And +you did ask me some very strange questions," she added, with a sudden +burst of self-assertion. "Strangers are not in the habit of saying such +things in England." She looked at Mrs. Farnaby, listening with +impenetrable composure, and stopped in confusion. Her aunt would not +scruple to speak to the stranger about Amelius in her presence--there +was no knowing what she might not have to endure. She turned again to +Rufus. "Excuse me," she said, "if I leave you with my aunt--I have an +engagement." With that trivial apology, she made her escape from the +room. + +"She has no engagement," Mrs. Farnaby briefly remarked as the door +closed. "Sit down, sir." + +For once, even Rufus was not as his ease. "I can hit it off, ma'am, +with most people," he said. "I wonder what I've done to offend your +niece?" + +"My niece (with many good qualities) is a narrow-minded young woman," +Mrs. Farnaby explained. "You are not like the men she is accustomed to +see. She doesn't understand you--you are not a commonplace gentleman. +For instance," Mrs. Farnaby continued, with the matter-of-fact gravity +of a woman innately inaccessible to a sense of humour, "you have got +something strange on your hair. It seems to be melting, and it smells +like soap. No: it's no use taking out your handkerchief--your +handkerchief won't mop it up. I'll get a towel." She opened an inner +door, which disclosed a little passage, and a bath-room beyond it. "I'm +the strongest person in the house," she resumed, returning with a towel +in her hand, as gravely as ever. "Sit still, and don't make apologies. +If any of us can rub you dry, I'm the woman." She set to work with the +towel, as if she had been Rufus's mother, making him presentable in the +days of his boyhood. Giddy under the violence of the rubbing, staggered +by the contrast between the cold reception accorded to him by the +niece, and the more than friendly welcome offered by the aunt, Rufus +submitted to circumstances in docile and silent bewilderment. "There; +you'll do till you get home--nobody can laugh at you now," Mrs. Farnaby +announced. "You're an absent-minded man, I suppose? You wanted to wash +your head, and you forgot the warm water and the towel. Was that how it +happened, sir?" + +"I thank you with all my heart, ma'am; I took it for pomatum," Rufus +answered. "Would you object to shaking hands again? This cordial +welcome of yours reminds me, I do assure you, of home. Since I left New +England, I've never met with the like of you. I do suppose now it was +my hair that set Miss Regina's back up? I'm not quite easy in my mind, +ma'am, about your niece. I'm sort of feared of what she may say of me +to Amelius. I meant no harm, Lord knows." + +The secret of Mrs. Farnaby's extraordinary alacrity in the use of the +towel began slowly to show itself now. The tone of her American guest +had already become the friendly and familiar tone which it had been her +object to establish. With a little management, he might be made an +invaluable ally in the great work of hindering the marriage of Amelius. + +"You are very fond of your young friend?" she began quietly. + +"That is so, ma'am." + +"And he has told you that he has taken a liking to my niece?" + +"And shown me her likeness," Rufus added. + +"And shown you her likeness. And you thought you would come here, and +see for yourself what sort of girl she was?" + +"Naturally," Rufus admitted. + +Mrs. Farnaby revealed, without further hesitation, the object that she +had in view. "Amelius is little more than a lad, still," she said. "He +has got all his life before him. It would be a sad thing, if he married +a girl who didn't make him happy." She turned in her chair, and pointed +to the door by which Regina had left them. "Between ourselves," she +resumed, dropping her voice to a whisper, "do you believe my niece will +make him happy?" + +Rufus hesitated. + +"I'm above family prejudices," Mrs. Farnaby proceeded. "You needn't be +afraid of offending me. Speak out." + +Rufus would have spoken out to any other woman in the universe. _This_ +woman had preserved him from ridicule--_this_ woman had rubbed his head +dry. He prevaricated. + +"I don't suppose I understand the ladies in this country," he said. + +But Mrs. Farnaby was not to be trifled with. "If Amelius was your son, +and if he asked you to consent to his marriage with my niece," she +rejoined, "would you say Yes?" + +This was too much for Rufus. "Not if he went down on both his knees to +ask me," he answered. + +Mrs. Farnaby was satisfied at last, and owned it without reserve. "My +own opinion," she said, "exactly expressed! don't be surprised. Didn't +I tell you I had no family prejudices? Do you know if he has spoken to +my husband, yet?" + +Rufus looked at his watch. "I reckon he's just about done it by this +time." + +Mrs. Farnaby paused, and reflected for a moment. She had already +attempted to prejudice her husband against Amelius, and had received an +answer which Mr. Farnaby considered to be final. "Mr. Goldenheart +honours us if he seeks our alliance; he is the representative of an old +English family." Under these circumstances, it was quite possible that +the proposals of Amelius had been accepted. Mrs. Farnaby was not the +less determined that the marriage should never take place, and not the +less eager to secure the assistance of her new ally. "When will Amelius +tell you about it?" she asked. + +"When I go back to his lodgings, ma'am." + +"Go back at once--and bear this in mind as you go. If you can find out +any likely way of parting these two young people (in their own best +interests), depend on one thing--if I can help you, I will. I'm as fond +of Amelius as you are. Ask him if I haven't done my best to keep him +away from my niece. Ask him if I haven't expressed my opinion, that +she's not the right wife for him. Come and see me again as soon as you +like. I'm fond of Americans. Good morning." + +Rufus attempted to express his sense of gratitude, in his own briefly +eloquent way. He was not allowed a hearing. With one and the same +action, Mrs. Farnaby patted him on the shoulder, and pushed him out of +the room. + +"If that woman was an American citizen," Rufus reflected, on his way +through the streets, "she'd be the first female President of the United +States!" His admiration of Mrs. Farnaby's energy and resolution, +expressed in these strong terms, acknowledged but one limit. Highly as +he approved of her, there was nevertheless an unfathomable something in +the woman's eyes that disturbed and daunted him. + + + + +CHAPTER 3 + +Rufus found his friend at the lodgings, prostrate on the sofa, smoking +furiously. Before a word had passed between them, it was plain to the +New Englander that something had gone wrong. + +"Well," he asked; "and what does Farnaby say?" + +"Damn Farnaby!" + +Rufus was secretly conscious of an immense sense of relief. "I call +that a stiff way of putting it," he quietly remarked; "but the +meaning's clear. Farnaby has said No." + +Amelius jumped off the sofa, and planted himself defiantly on the +hearthrug. + +"You're wrong for once," he said, with a bitter laugh. "The +exasperating part of it is that Farnaby has said neither Yes nor No. +The oily-whiskered brute--you haven't seen him yet, have you?--began by +saying Yes. 'A man like me, the heir of a fine old English family, +honoured him by making proposals; he could wish no more brilliant +prospect for his dear adopted child. She would fill the high position +that was offered to her, and fill it worthily.' That was the fawning +way in which he talked to me at first! He squeezed my hand in his +horrid cold shiny paw till, I give you my word of honour, I felt as if +I was going to be sick. Wait a little; you haven't heard the worst of +it yet. He soon altered his tone--it began with his asking me, if I had +'considered the question of settlements'. I didn't know what he meant. +He had to put it in plain English; he wanted to hear what my property +was. 'Oh, that's soon settled,' I said. 'I've got five hundred a year; +and Regina is welcome to every farthing of it.' He fell back in his +chair as if I had shot him; he turned--it was worse than pale, he +positively turned green. At first he wouldn't believe me; he declared I +must be joking. I set him right about that immediately. His next change +was a proud impudence. 'Have you not observed, sir, in what style +Regina is accustomed to live in my house? Five hundred a year? Good +heavens! With strict economy, five hundred a year might pay her +milliner's bill and the keep of her horse and carriage. Who is to pay +for everything else--the establishment, the dinner-parties and balls, +the tour abroad, the children, the nurses, the doctor? I tell you this, +Mr. Goldenheart, I'm willing to make a sacrifice to you, as a born +gentleman, which I would certainly not consent to in the case of any +self-made man. Enlarge your income, sir, to no more than four times +five hundred pounds, and I guarantee a yearly allowance to Regina of +half as much again, besides the fortune which she will inherit at my +death. That will make your income three thousand a year to start with. +I know something of domestic expenses, and I tell you positively, you +can't do it on a farthing less.' That was his language, Rufus. The +insolence of his tone I can't attempt to describe. If I hadn't thought +of Regina, I should have behaved in a manner unworthy of a Christian--I +believe I should have taken my walking-cane, and given him a sound +thrashing." + +Rufus neither expressed surprise nor offered advice. He was lost in +meditation on the wealth of Mr. Farnaby. "A stationer's business seems +to eventuate in a lively profit, in this country," he said. + +"A stationer's business?" Amelius repeated disdainfully. "Farnaby has +half a dozen irons in the fire besides that. He's got a newspaper, and +a patent medicine, and a new bank, and I don't know what else. One of +his own friends said to me, 'Nobody knows whether Farnaby is rich or +poor; he is going to do one of two things--he is going to die worth +millions, or to die bankrupt.' Oh, if I can only live to see the day +when Socialism will put that sort of man in his right place!" + +"Try a republic, on our model, first," said Rufus. "When Farnaby talks +of the style his young woman is accustomed to live in, what does he +mean?" + +"He means," Amelius answered smartly, "a carriage to drive out in, +champagne on the table, and a footman to answer the door." + +"Farnaby's ideas, sir, have crossed the water and landed in New York," +Rufus remarked. "Well, and what did you say to him, on your side?" + +"I gave it to him, I can tell you! 'That's all ostentation,' I said. +'Why can't Regina and I begin life modestly? What do we want with a +carriage to drive out in, and champagne on the table, and a footman to +answer the door? We want to love each other and be happy. There are +thousands of as good gentlemen as I am, in England, with wives and +families, who would ask for nothing better than an income of five +hundred a year. The fact is, Mr. Farnaby, you're positively saturated +with the love of money. Get your New Testament and read what Christ +says of rich people.' What do you think he did, when I put it in that +unanswerable way? He held up his hand, and looked horrified. 'I can't +allow profanity in my office,' says he. 'I have my New Testament read +to me in church, sir, every Sunday.' That's the sort of Christian, +Rufus, who is the average product of modern times! He was as obstinate +as a mule; he wouldn't give way a single inch. His adopted daughter, he +said, was accustomed to live in a certain style. In that same style she +should live when she was married, so long as he had a voice in the +matter. Of course, if she chose to set his wishes and feelings at +defiance, in return for all that he had done for her, she was old +enough to take her own way. In that case, he would tell me as plainly +as he meant to tell her, that she must not look to a single farthing of +his money to help her, and not expect to find her name down in his +will. He felt the honour of a family alliance with me as sincerely as +ever. But he must abide by the conditions that he had stated. On those +terms, he would be proud to give me the hand of Regina at the altar, +and proud to feel that he had done his duty by his adopted child. I let +him go on till he had run himself out--and then I asked quietly, if he +could tell me the way to increase my income to two thousand a year. How +do you think he answered me?" + +"Perhaps he offered to utilise your capital in his business," Rufus +guessed. + +"Not he! He considered business quite beneath me; my duty to myself, as +a gentleman, was to adopt a profession. On reflection, it turned out +that there was but one likely profession to try, in my case--the Law. I +might be called to the Bar, and (with luck) I might get remunerative +work to do, in eight or ten years' time. That, I declare to you, was +the prospect he set before me, if I chose to take his advice. I asked +if he was joking. Certainly not! I was only one-and-twenty years old +(he reminded me); I had plenty of time to spare--I should still marry +young if I married at thirty. I took up my hat, and gave him a bit of +my mind at parting. 'If you really mean anything,' I said, 'you mean +that Regina is to pine and fade and be a middle-aged woman, and that I +am to resist the temptations that beset a young man in London, and lead +the life of a monk for the next ten years--and all for what? For a +carriage to ride out in, champagne on the table, and a footman to +answer the door! Keep your money, Mr. Farnaby; Regina and I will do +without it.'--What are you laughing at? I don't think you could have +put it more strongly yourself." + +Rufus suddenly recovered his gravity. "I tell you this, Amelius," he +replied; "you afford (as we say in my country) meaty fruit for +reflection--you do." + +"What do you mean by that?" + +"Well, I reckon you remember when we were aboard the boat. You gave us +a narrative of what happened in that Community of yours, which I can +truly cha_rac_terise as a combination of native eloquence and +chastening good sense. I put the question to myself, sir, what has +become of that well-informed and discreet young Christian, now he has +changed the sphere to England and mixed with the Farnabys? It's not to +be denied that I see him before me in the flesh when I look across the +table here; but it's equally true that I miss him altogether, in the +spirit." + +Amelius sat down again on the sofa. "In plain words," he said, "you +think I have behaved like a fool in this matter?" + +Rufus crossed his long legs, and nodded his head in silent approval. +Instead of taking offence, Amelius considered a little. + +"It didn't strike me before," he said. "But, now you mention it, I can +understand that I appear to be a simple sort of fellow in what is +called Society here; and the reason, I suspect, is that it's not the +society in which I have been accustomed to mix. The Farnabys are new to +me, Rufus. When it comes to a question of my life at Tadmor, of what I +saw and learnt and felt in the Community--then, I can think and speak +like a reasonable being, because I am thinking and speaking of what I +know thoroughly well. Hang it, make some allowance for the difference +of circumstances! Besides, I'm in love, and that alters a man--and, I +have heard some people say, not always for the better. Anyhow, I've +done it with Farnaby, and it can't be undone. There will be no peace +for me now, till I have spoken to Regina. I have read the note you left +for me. Did you see her, when you called at the house?" + +The quiet tone in which the question was put surprised Rufus. He had +fully expected, after Regina's reception of him, to be called to +account for the liberty that he had taken. Amelius was too completely +absorbed by his present anxieties to consider trivial questions of +etiquette. Hearing that Rufus had seen Regina, he never even asked for +his friend's opinion of her. His mind was full of the obstacles that +might be interposed to his seeing her again. + +"Farnaby is sure, after what has passed between us, to keep her out of +my way if he can," Amelius said. "And Mrs. Farnaby, to my certain +knowledge, will help him. They don't suspect _you._ Couldn't you call +again--you're old enough to be her father--and make some excuse to take +her out with you for a walk?" + +The answer of Rufus to this was Roman in its brevity. He pointed to the +window, and said, "Look at the rain." + +"Then I must try her maid once more," said Amelius, resignedly. He took +his hat and umbrella. "Don't leave me, old fellow," he resumed as he +opened the door. "This is the turning-point of my life. I'm sorely in +need of a friend." + +"Do you think she will marry you against the will of her uncle and +aunt?" Rufus asked. + +"I am certain of it," Amelius answered. With that he left the room. + +Rufus looked after him sadly. Sympathy and sorrow were expressed in +every line of his rugged face. "My poor boy! how will he bear it, if +she says No? What will become of him, if she says Yes?" He rubbed his +hand irritably across his forehead, like a man whose own thoughts were +repellent to him. In a moment more, he plunged into his pockets, and +drew out again the letters introducing him to the secretaries of public +institutions. "If there's salvation for Amelius," he said, "I reckon I +shall find it here." + + + +CHAPTER 4 + +The medium of correspondence between Amelius and Regina's maid was an +old woman who kept a shop for the sale of newspapers and periodicals, +in a by-street not far from Mr. Farnaby's house. From this place his +letters were delivered to the maid, under cover of the morning +newspapers--and here he found the answers waiting for him later in the +day. "If Rufus could only have taken her out for a walk, I might have +seen Regina this afternoon," thought Amelius. "As it is, I may have to +wait till to-morrow, or later still. And then, there's the sovereign to +Phoebe." He sighed as he thought of the fee. Sovereigns were becoming +scarce in our young Socialist's purse. + +Arriving in sight of the newsvendor's shop, Amelius noticed a man +leaving it, who walked away towards the farther end of the street. When +he entered the shop himself a minute afterwards, the woman took up a +letter from the counter. "A young man has just left this for you," she +said. + +Amelius recognised the maid's handwriting on the address. The man whom +he had seen leaving the shop was Phoebe's messenger. + +He opened the letter. Her mistress, Phoebe explained, was too much +flurried to be able to write. The master had astonished the whole +household by appearing among them at least three hours before the time +at which he was accustomed to leave his place of business. He had found +"Mrs. Ormond" (otherwise Regina's friend and correspondent, Cecilia) +paying a visit to his niece, and had asked to speak with her in +private, before she took leave. The result was an invitation to Regina, +from Mrs. Ormond, to stay for a little while at her house in the +neighbourhood of Harrow. The ladies were to leave London together, in +Mrs. Ormond's carriage, that afternoon. Under stress of strong +persuasion, on the part of her uncle and aunt as well as her friend, +Regina had ended in giving way. But she had not forgotten the interests +of Amelius. She was willing to see him privately on the next day, +provided he left London by the train which reached Harrow soon after +eleven in the forenoon. If it happened to rain, then he must put off +his journey until the first fine day, arriving in any case at the same +hour. The place at which he was to wait was described to him; and with +these instructions the letter ended. + +The rapidity with which Mr. Farnaby had carried out his resolution to +separate the lovers placed the weakness of Regina's character before +Amelius in a new and startling light. Why had she not stood on her +privileges, as a woman who had arrived at years of discretion, and +refused to leave London until she had first heard what her lover had to +say? Amelius had left his American friend, feeling sure that Regina's +decision would be in his favour, when she was called upon to choose +between the man who was ready to marry her, and the man who was nothing +but her uncle by courtesy. For the first time, he now felt that his own +confident anticipations might, by bare possibility, deceive him. He +returned to his lodgings, in such a state of depression, that +compassionate Rufus insisted on taking him out to dinner, and hurried +him off afterwards to the play. Thoroughly prostrated, Amelius +submitted to the genial influence of his friend. He had not even energy +enough to feel surprised when Rufus stopped, on their way to the +tavern, at a dingy building adorned with a Grecian portico, and left a +letter and a card in charge of a servant at the side-door. + +The next day, by a happy interposition of Fortune, proved to be a day +without rain. Amelius followed his instructions to the letter. A little +watery sunshine showed itself as he left the station at Harrow. His +mind was still in such a state of doubt and disturbance that it drew +from superstition a faint encouragement to hope. He hailed the feeble +November sunlight as a good omen. + +Mr. and Mrs. Ormond's place of residence stood alone, surrounded by its +own grounds. A wooden fence separated the property, on one side, from a +muddy little by-road, leading to a neighbouring farm. At a wicket-gate +in this fence, giving admission to a shrubbery situated at some distance +from the house, Amelius now waited for the appearance of the maid. + +After a delay of a few minutes only, the faithful Phoebe approached the +gate with a key in her hand. "Where is she?" Amelius asked, as the girl +opened the gate for him. + +"Waiting for you in the shrubbery. Stop, sir; I have something to say +to you first." + +Amelius took out his purse, and produced the fee. Even he had observed +that Phoebe was perhaps a little too eager to get her money! + +"Thank you, sir. Please to look at your watch. You mustn't be with Miss +Regina a moment longer than a quarter of an hour." + +"Why not?" + +"This is the time, sir, when Mrs. Ormond is engaged every day with her +cook and housekeeper. In a quarter of an hour the orders will be +given--and Mrs. Ormond will join Miss Regina for a walk in the grounds. +You will be the ruin of me, sir, if she finds you here." With that +warning, the maid led the way along the winding paths of the shrubbery. + +"I must thank you for your letter, Phoebe," said Amelius, as he +followed her. "By-the-by, who was your messenger?" + +Phoebe's answer was no answer at all. "Only a young man, sir," she +said. + +"In plain words, your sweetheart, I suppose?" + +Phoebe's expressive silence was her only reply. She turned a corner, +and pointed to her mistress standing alone before the entrance of a +damp and deserted summer-house. + +Regina put her handkerchief to her eyes, when the maid had discreetly +retired. "Oh," she said softly, "I am afraid this is very wrong." + +Amelius removed the handkerchief by the exercise of a little gentle +force, and administered comfort under the form of a kiss. Having opened +the proceedings in this way, he put his first question, "Why did you +leave London?" + +"How could I help it!" said Regina, feebly. "They were all against me. +What else could I do?" + +It occurred to Amelius that she might, at her age, have asserted a will +of her own. He kept his idea, however, to himself, and, giving her his +arm, led her slowly along the path of the shrubbery. "You have heard, I +suppose, what Mr. Farnaby expects of me?" he said. + +"Yes, dear." + +_"I_ call it worse than mercenary--I call it downright brutal." + +"Oh, Amelius, don't talk so!" + +Amelius came suddenly to a standstill. "Does that mean you agree with +him?" he asked. + +"Don't be angry with me, dear. I only meant there was some excuse for +him." + +"What excuse?" + +"Well, you see, he has a high idea of your family, and he thought you +were rich people. And--I know you didn't mean it, Amelius--but, still, +you did disappoint him." + +Amelius dropped her arm. This mildly-persistent defence of Mr. Farnaby +exasperated him. + +"Perhaps I have disappointed _you?"_ he said. + + "Oh, no, no! Oh, how cruel you are!" The ready tears showed themselves +again in her magnificent eyes--gentle considerate tears that raised no +storm in her bosom, and produced no unbecoming results in her face. +"Don't be hard on me!" she said, appealing to him helplessly, like a +charming overgrown child. + +Some men might have still resisted her; but Amelius was not one of +them. He took her hand, and pressed it tenderly. + +"Regina," he said, "do you love me?" + +"You know I do!" + +He put his arm round her waist, he concentrated the passion that was in +him into a look, and poured the look into her eyes. "Do you love me as +dearly as I love you?" he whispered. + +She felt it with all the little passion that was in her. After a moment +of hesitation, she put one arm timidly round his neck, and, bending her +grand head, laid it on his bosom. Her finely-rounded, supple, muscular +figure trembled, as if she had been the most fragile woman living. +"Dear Amelius!" she murmured inaudibly. He tried to speak to her--his +voice failed him. She had, in perfect innocence, fired his young blood. +He drew her closer and closer to him: he lifted her head, with a +masterful resolution which she was not able to resist, and pressed his +kisses in hot and breathless succession on her lips. His vehemence +frightened her. She tore herself out of his arms with a sudden exertion +of strength that took him completely by surprise. "I didn't think you +would have been rude to me!" With that mild reproach, she turned away, +and took the path which led from the shrubbery to the house. Amelius +followed her, entreating that she would accept his excuses and grant +him a few minutes more. He modestly laid all the blame on her +beauty--lamented that he had not resolution enough to resist the charm +of it. When did that commonplace compliment ever fail to produce its +effect? Regina smiled with the weakly complacent good-nature, which was +only saved from being contemptible by its association with her personal +attractions. "Will you promise to behave?" she stipulated. And Amelius, +not very eagerly, promised. + +"Shall we go into the summer-house?" he suggested. + +"It's very damp at this time of year," Regina answered, with placid +good sense. "Perhaps we might catch cold--we had better walk about." + +They walked accordingly. "I wanted to speak to you about our marriage," +Amelius resumed. + +She sighed softly. "We have some time to wait," she said, "before we +can think of that." + +He passed this reply over without notice. "You know," he went on, "that +I have an income of five hundred a year?" + +"Yes, dear." + +"There are hundreds of thousands of respectable artisans, Regina, (with +large families), who live comfortably on less than half my income." + +"Do they, dear?" + +"And many gentlemen are not better off. Curates, for instance. Do you +see what I am coming to, my darling?" + +"No, dear." + +"Could you live with me in a cottage in the country, with a nice +garden, and one little maid to wait on us, and two or three new dresses +in a year?" + +Regina lifted her fine eyes in sober ecstasy to the sky. "It sounds +very tempting," she remarked, in the sweetest tones of her voice. + +"And it could all be done," Amelius proceeded, "on five hundred a +year." + +"Could it, dear?" + +"I have calculated it--allowing the necessary margin--and I am sure of +what I say. And I have done something else; I have asked about the +Marriage License. I can easily find lodgings in the neighbourhood. We +might be married at Harrow in a fortnight." + +Regina started: her eyes opened widely, and rested on Amelius with an +expression of incredulous wonder. "Married in a fortnight?" she +repeated. "What would my uncle and aunt say?" + +"My angel, our happiness doesn't depend on your uncle and aunt--our +happiness depends on ourselves. Nobody has any power to control us. I +am a man, and you are a woman; and we have a right to be married +whenever we like." Amelius pronounced this last oracular sentence with +his head held high, and a pleasant inner persuasion of the convincing +manner in which he had stated his case. + +"Without my uncle to give me away!" Regina exclaimed. "Without my aunt! +With no bridesmaids, and no friends, and no wedding-breakfast! Oh, +Amelius, what _can_ you be thinking of?" She drew back a step, and +looked at him in helpless consternation. + +For the moment, and the moment only, Amelius lost all patience with +her. "If you really loved me," he said bitterly, "you wouldn't think of +the bridesmaids and the breakfast!" Regina had her answer ready in her +pocket--she took out her handkerchief. Before she could lift it to her +eyes, Amelius recovered himself. "No, no," he said, "I didn't mean +that--I am sure you love me--take my arm again. Do you know, Regina, I +doubt whether your uncle has told you everything that passed between +us. Are you really aware of the hard terms that he insists on? He +expects me to increase my five hundred a year to two thousand, before +he will sanction our marriage." + +"Yes, dear, he told me that." + +"I have as much chance of earning fifteen hundred a year, Regina, as I +have of being made King of England. Did he tell you _that?"_ + +"He doesn't agree with you, dear--he thinks you might earn it (with +your abilities) in ten years." + +This time it was the turn of Amelius to look at Regina in helpless +consternation. "Ten years?" he repeated. "Do you coolly contemplate +waiting ten years before we are married? Good heavens! is it possible +that you are thinking of the money? that _you_ can't live without +carriages and footmen, and ostentation and grandeur--?" + +He stopped. For once, even Regina showed that she had spirit enough to +be angry. "You ought to be ashamed of yourself to speak to me in that +way!" she broke out indignantly. "If you have no better opinion of me +than that, I won't marry you at all--no, not if you had fifty thousand +a year, sir, to-morrow! Am I to have no sense of duty to my uncle--to +the good man who has been a second father to me? Do you think I am +ungrateful enough to set his wishes at defiance? Oh yes, I know you +don't like him! I know that a great many people don't like him. That +doesn't make any difference to Me! But for dear uncle Farnaby, I might +have gone to the workhouse, I might have been a starving needlewoman, a +poor persecuted maid-of-all-work. Am I to forget that, because you have +no patience, and only think of yourself? Oh, I wish I had never met +with you! I wish I had never been fool enough to be as fond of you as I +am!" With that confession, she turned her back on him, and took refuge +in her handkerchief once more. + +Amelius stood looking at her in silent despair. After the tone in which +she had spoken of her obligations to her uncle, it was useless to +anticipate any satisfactory result from the exertion of his influence +over Regina. Recalling what he had seen and heard, in Mrs. Farnaby's +room, Amelius could not doubt that the motive of pacifying his wife was +the motive which had first led Farnaby to receive Regina into his +house. Was it unreasonable or unjust to infer, that the orphan child +must have been mainly indebted to Mrs. Farnaby's sense of duty to the +memory of her sister for the parental protection afforded to her, from +that time forth? It would have been useless, and worse than useless, to +place before Regina such considerations as these. Her exaggerated idea +of the gratitude that she owed to her uncle was beyond the limited +reach of reason. Nothing was to be gained by opposition; and no +sensible course was left but to say some peace-making words and submit. + +"I beg your pardon, Regina, if I have offended you. You have sadly +disappointed me. I haven't deliberately misjudged you; I can say no +more." + +She turned round quickly, and looked at him. There was an ominous +change to resignation in his voice, there was a dogged submission in +his manner, that alarmed her. She had never yet seen him under the +perilously-patient aspect in which he now presented himself, after his +apology had been made. + +"I forgive you, Amelius, with all my heart," she said--and timidly held +out her hand. + +He took it, raised it silently to his lips, and dropped it again. + +She suddenly turned pale. All the love that she had in her to give to a +man, she had given to Amelius. Her heart sank; she asked herself, in +blank terror, if she had lost him. + +"I am afraid it is _I_ who have offended _you,"_ she said. "Don't be +angry with me, Amelius! don't make me more unhappy than I am!" + +"I am not in the least angry," he answered, still in the quiet subdued +way that terrified her. "You can't expect me, Regina, to contemplate a +ten years' engagement cheerfully." + +She took his hand, and held it in both her own hands--held it, as if +his love for her was there and she was determined not to let it go. + +"If you will only leave it to me," she pleaded, "the engagement shan't +be so long as that. Try my uncle with a little kindness and respect, +Amelius, instead of saying hard words to him. Or let _me_ try him, if +you are too proud to give way. May I say that you had no intention of +offending him, and that you are willing to leave the future to me?" + +"Certainly," said Amelius, "if you think it will be of the slightest +use." His tone added plainly, "I don't believe in your uncle, mind, as +you do." + +She still persisted. "It will be of the greatest use," she went on. "He +will let me go home again, and he will not object to your coming to see +me. He doesn't like to be despised and set at defiance--who does? Be +patient, Amelius; and I will persuade him to expect less money from +you--only what you may earn, dear, with your talents, long before ten +years have passed." She waited for a word of reply which might show +that she had encouraged him a little. He only smiled. "You talk of +loving me," she said, drawing back from him with a look of reproach; +"and you don't even believe what I say to you." She stopped, and looked +behind her with a faint cry of alarm. Hurried footsteps were audible on +the other side of the evergreens that screened them. Amelius stepped +back to a turn in the path, and discovered Phoebe. + +"Don't stay a moment longer, sir!" cried the girl. "I've been to the +house--and Mrs. Ormond isn't there--and nobody knows where she is. Get +out by the gate, sir, while you have the chance." + +Amelius returned to Regina. "I mustn't get the girl into a scrape," he +said. "You know where to write to me. Good-bye." + +Regina made a sign to the maid to retire. Amelius had never taken leave +of her as he was taking leave of her now. She forgot the fervent +embrace and the daring kisses--she was desperate at the bare idea of +losing him. "Oh, Amelius, don't doubt that I love you! Say you believe +I love you! Kiss me before you go!" + +He kissed her--but, ah, not as he had kissed her before. He said the +words she wanted him to say--but only to please her, not with all his +heart. She let him go; reproaches would be wasted at that moment. + +Phoebe found her pale and immovable, rooted to the spot on which they +had parted. "Dear, dear me, miss, what's gone wrong?" + +And her mistress answered wildly, in words that had never before passed +her placid lips, "O Phoebe, I wish I was dead!" + + +Such was the impression left on the mind of Regina by the interview in +the shrubbery. + +The impression left on the mind of Amelius was stated in equally strong +language, later in the day. His American friend asked innocently for +news, and was answered in these terms: + +"Find something to occupy my mind, Rufus, or I shall throw the whole +thing over and go to the devil." + +The wise man from New England was too wise to trouble Amelius with +questions, under these circumstances. "Is that so?" was all he said. +Then he put his hand in his pocket, and, producing a letter, laid it +quietly on the table. + +"For me?" Amelius asked. + +"You wanted something to occupy your mind," the wily Rufus answered. +"There 'tis." + +Amelius read the letter. It was dated, "Hampden Institution." The +secretary invited Amelius, in highly complimentary terms, to lecture, +in the hall of the Institution, on Christian Socialism as taught and +practised in the Community at Tadmor. He was offered two-thirds of the +profits derived from the sale of places, and was left free to appoint +his own evening (at a week's notice) and to issue his own +advertisements. Minor details were reserved to be discussed with the +secretary, when the lecturer had consented to the arrangement proposed +to him. + +Having finished the letter, Amelius looked at his friend. "This is your +doing," he said. + +Rufus admitted it, with his customary candour. He had a letter of +introduction to the secretary, and he had called by appointment that +morning. The Institution wanted something new to attract the members +and the public. Having no present intention of lecturing himself, he +had thought of Amelius, and had spoken his thought. "I mentioned," +Rufus added slyly, "that I didn't reckon you would mount the platform. +But he's a sanguine creature, that secretary--and he said he'd try." + +"Why should I say No?" Amelius asked, a little irritably. "The +secretary pays me a compliment, and offers me an opportunity of +spreading our principles. Perhaps," he added, more quietly, after a +moment's reflection, "you thought I might not be equal to the +occasion--and, in that case, I don't say you were wrong." + +Rufus shook his head. "If you had passed your life in this decrepit +little island," he replied, "I might have doubted you, likely enough. +But Tadmor's situated in the United States. If they don't practise the +boys in the art of orating, don't you tell me there's an American +citizen with a voice in _that_ society. Guess again, my son. You won't? +Well, then, 'twas uncle Farnaby I had in my mind. I said to myself--not +to the secretary--Amelius is bound to consider uncle Farnaby. Oh, my! +what would uncle Farnaby say?" + +The hot temper of Amelius took fire instantly. "What the devil do I +care for Farnaby's opinions?" he burst out. "If there's a man in +England who wants the principles of Christian Socialism beaten into his +thick head, it's Farnaby. Are you going to see the secretary again?" + +"I might look in," Rufus answered, "in the course of the evening." + +"Tell him I'll give the lecture--with my compliments and thanks. If I +can only succeed," pursued Amelius, hearing himself with the new idea, +"I may make a name as a lecturer, and a name means money, and money +means beating Farnaby with his own weapons. It's an opening for me, +Rufus, at the crisis of my life." + +"That is so," Rufus admitted. "I may as well look up the secretary." + +"Why shouldn't I go with you?" Amelius suggested. + +"Why not?" Rufus agreed. + +They left the house together. + + + +BOOK THE FIFTH + +THE FATAL LECTURE + +CHAPTER 1 + +Late that night Amelius sat alone in his room, making notes for the +lecture which he had now formally engaged himself to deliver in a +week's time. + +Thanks to his American education (as Rufus had supposed), he had not +been without practice in the art of public speaking. He had learnt to +face his fellow-creatures in the act of oratory, and to hear the sound +of his own voice in a silent assembly, without trembling from head to +foot. English newspapers were regularly sent to Tadmor, and English +politics were frequently discussed in the little parliament of the +Community. The prospect of addressing a new audience, with their +sympathies probably against him at the outset, had its terrors +undoubtedly. But the more formidable consideration, to the mind of +Amelius, was presented by the limits imposed on him in the matter of +time. The lecture was to be succeeded (at the request of a clerical +member of the Institution) by a public discussion; and the secretary's +experience suggested that the lecturer would do well to reduce his +address within the compass of an hour. "Socialism is a large subject to +be squeezed into that small space," Amelius had objected. And the +secretary sighed, and answered, "They won't listen any longer." + +Making notes, from time to time, of the points on which it was most +desirable to insist, and on the relative positions which they should +occupy in his lecture, the memory of Amelius became more and more +absorbed in recalling the scenes in which his early life had been +passed. + +He laid down his pen, as the clock of the nearest church struck the +first dark hour of the morning, and let his thoughts take him back +again, without interruption or restraint, to the hills and vales of +Tadmor. Once more the kind old Elder Brother taught him the noble +lessons of Christianity as they came from the inspired Teacher's own +lips; once more he took his turn of healthy work in the garden and the +field; once more the voices of his companions joined with him in the +evening songs, and the timid little figure of Mellicent stood at his +side, content to hold the music-book and listen. How poor, how corrupt, +did the life look that he was leading now, by comparison with the life +that he had led in those earlier and happier days! How shamefully he +had forgotten the simple precepts of Christian humility, Christian +sympathy, and Christian self-restraint, in which his teachers had +trusted as the safeguards that were to preserve him from the foul +contact of the world! Within the last two days only, he had refused to +make merciful allowance for the errors of a man, whose life had been +wasted in the sordid struggle upward from poverty to wealth. And, worse +yet, he had cruelly distressed the poor girl who loved him, at the +prompting of those selfish passions which it was his first and foremost +duty to restrain. The bare remembrance of it was unendurable to him, in +his present frame of mind. With his customary impetuosity, he snatched +up the pen, to make atonement before he went to rest that night. He +wrote in few words to Mr. Farnaby, declaring that he regretted having +spoken impatiently and contemptuously at the interview between them, +and expressing the hope that their experience of each other, in the +time to come, might perhaps lead to acceptable concessions on either +side. His letter to Regina was written, it is needless to say, in +warmer terms and at much greater length: it was the honest outpouring +of his love and his penitence. When the letters were safe in their +envelopes he was not satisfied, even yet. No matter what the hour might +be, there was no ease of mind for Amelius, until he had actually posted +his letters. He stole downstairs, and softly unbolted the door, and +hurried away to the nearest letter-box. When he had let himself in +again with his latch-key, his mind was relieved at last. "Now," he +thought, as he lit his bed-room candle, "I can go to sleep!" + +A visit from Rufus was the first event of the day. + +The two set to work together to draw out the necessary advertisement of +the lecture. It was well calculated to attract attention in certain +quarters. The announcement addressed itself, in capital letters, to all +honest people who were poor and discontented. "Come, and hear the +remedy which Christian Socialism provides for your troubles, explained +to you by a friend and a brother; and pay no more than sixpence for the +place that you occupy." The necessary information as to time and place +followed this appeal; including the offer of reserved seats at higher +prices. By advice of the secretary, the advertisement was not sent to +any journal having its circulation among the wealthier classes of +society. It appeared prominently in one daily paper and in two weekly +papers; the three possessing an aggregate sale of four hundred thousand +copies. "Assume only five readers to each copy," cried sanguine +Amelius, "and we appeal to an audience of two millions. What a +magnificent publicity!" + +There was one inevitable result of magnificent publicity which Amelius +failed to consider. His advertisements were certain to bring people +together, who might otherwise never have met in the great world of +London, under one roof. All over England, Scotland, and Ireland, he +invited unknown guests to pass the evening with him. In such +circumstances, recognitions may take place between persons who have +lost sight of each other for years; conversations may be held, which +might otherwise never have been exchanged; and results may follow, for +which the hero of the evening may be innocently responsible, because +two or three among his audience happen to be sitting to hear him on the +same bench. A man who opens his doors, and invites the public +indiscriminately to come in, runs the risk of playing with inflammable +materials, and can never be sure at what time or in what direction they +may explode. + +Rufus himself took the fair copies of the advertisement to the nearest +agent. Amelius stayed at home to think over his lecture. + +He was interrupted by the arrival of Mr. Farnaby's answer to his +letter. The man of the oily whiskers wrote courteously and guardedly. +He was evidently flattered and pleased by the advance that had been +made to him; and he was quite willing "under the circumstances" to give +the lovers opportunities of meeting at his house. At the same time, he +limited the number of the opportunities. "Once a week, for the present, +my dear sir. Regina will doubtless write to you, when she returns to +London." + +Regina wrote, by return of post. The next morning Amelius received a +letter from her which enchanted him. She had never loved him as she +loved him now; she longed to see him again; she had prevailed on Mrs. +Ormond to let her shorten her visit, and to intercede for her with the +authorities at home. They were to return together to London on the +afternoon of the next day. Amelius would be sure to find her, if he +arranged to call in time for five-o'clock tea. + +Towards four o'clock on the next day, while Amelius was putting the +finishing touches to his dress, he was informed that "a young person +wished to see him." The visitor proved to be Phoebe, with her +handkerchief to her eyes; indulging in grief, in humble imitation of +her young mistress's gentle method of proceeding on similar occasions. + +"Good God!" cried Amelius, "has anything happened to Regina?" + +"No, sir," Phoebe murmured behind the handkerchief. "Miss Regina is at +home, and well." + +"Then what are you crying about?" + +Phoebe forgot her mistress's gentle method. She answered, with an +explosion of sobs, "I'm ruined, sir!" + +"What do you mean by being ruined? Who's done it?" + +"You've done it, sir!" + +Amelius started. His relations with Phoebe had been purely and entirely +of the pecuniary sort. She was a showy, pretty girl, with a smart +little figure--but with some undeniably bad lines, which only observant +physiognomists remarked, about her eyebrows and her mouth. Amelius was +not a physiognomist; but he was in love with Regina, which at his age +implied faithful love. It is only men over forty who can court the +mistress, with reserves of admiration to spare for the maid. + +"Sit down," said Amelius; "and tell me in two words what you mean." + +Phoebe sat down, and dried her eyes. "I have been infamously treated, +sir, by Mrs. Farnaby," she began--and stopped, overpowered by the bare +remembrance of her wrongs. She was angry enough, at that moment, to be +off her guard. The vindictive nature that was in the girl found its way +outward, and showed itself in her face. Amelius perceived the change, +and began to doubt whether Phoebe was quite worthy of the place which +she had hitherto held in his estimation. + +"Surely there must be some mistake," he said. "What opportunity has +Mrs. Farnaby had of ill-treating you? You have only just got back to +London." + +"I beg your pardon, sir, we got back sooner than we expected. Mrs. +Ormond had business in town: and she left Miss Regina at her own door, +nearly two hours since." + +"Well?" + +"Well, sir, I had hardly taken off my bonnet and shawl, when I was sent +for by Mrs. Farnaby. 'Have you unpacked your box yet?' says she. I told +her I hadn't had time to do so. 'You needn't trouble yourself to +unpack,' says she. 'You are no longer in Miss Regina's service. There +are your wages--with a month's wages besides, in place of the customary +warning.' I'm only a poor girl, sir, but I up and spoke to her as plain +as she spoke to me. 'I want to know,' I says, 'why I am sent away in +this uncivil manner?' I couldn't possibly repeat what she said. My +blood boils when I think of it," Phoebe declared, with melodramatic +vehemence. "Somebody has found us out, sir. Somebody has told Mrs. +Farnaby of your private meeting with Miss Regina in the shrubbery, and +the money you kindly gave me. I believe Mrs. Ormond is at the bottom of +it; you remember nobody knew where she was, when I thought she was in +the house speaking to the cook. That's guess-work, I allow, so far. +What is certain is, that I have been spoken to as if I was the lowest +creature that walks the streets. Mrs. Farnaby refuses to give me a +character, sir. She actually said she would call in the police, if I +didn't leave the house in half an hour. How am I to get another place, +without a character? I'm a ruined girl, that's what I am--and all +through You!" + +Threatened at this point with an illustrative outburst of sobbing +Amelius was simple enough to try the consoling influence of a +sovereign. "Why don't you speak to Miss Regina?" he asked. "You know +she will help you." + +"She has done all she can, sir. I have nothing to say against Miss +Regina--she's a good creature. She came into the room, and begged, and +prayed, and took all the blame on herself. Mrs. Farnaby wouldn't hear a +word. 'I'm mistress here,' she says; 'you had better go back to your +room.' Ah, Mr. Amelius, I can tell you Mrs. Farnaby is your enemy as +well as mine! you'll never marry her niece if _she_ can stop it. Mark +my words, sir, that's the secret of the vile manner in which she has +used me. My conscience is clear, thank God. I've tried to serve the +cause of true love--and I'm not ashamed of it. Never mind! my turn is +to come. I'm only a poor servant, sent adrift in the world without a +character. Wait a little! you see if I am not even (and better than +even) with Mrs. Farnaby, before long! _I know what I know._ I am not +going to say any more than that. She shall rue the day," cried Phoebe, +relapsing into melodrama again, "when she turned me out of the house +like a thief!" + +"Come! come!" said Amelius, sharply, "you mustn't speak in that way." + +Phoebe had got her money: she could afford to be independent. She rose +from her chair. The insolence which is the almost invariable +accompaniment of a sense of injury among Englishwomen of her class +expressed itself in her answer to Amelius. "I speak as I think, sir. I +have some spirit in me; I am not a woman to be trodden underfoot--and +so Mrs. Farnaby shall find, before she is many days older." + +"Phoebe! Phoebe! you are talking like a heathen. If Mrs. Farnaby has +behaved to you with unjust severity, set her an example of moderation +on your side. It's your duty as a Christian to forgive injuries." + +Phoebe burst out laughing. "Hee-hee-hee! Thank you, sir, for a sermon +as well as a sovereign. You have been most kind, indeed!" She changed +suddenly from irony to anger. "I never was called a heathen before! +Considering what I have done for you, I think you might at least have +been civil. Good afternoon, sir." She lifted her saucy little +snub-nose, and walked with dignity out of the room. + +For the moment, Amelius was amused. As he heard the house-door closed, +he turned laughing to the window, for a last look at Phoebe in the +character of an injured Christian. In an instant the smile left his +lips--he drew back from the window with a start. + +A man had been waiting for Phoebe, in the street. At the moment when +Amelius looked out, she had just taken his arm. He glanced back at the +house, as they walked away together. Amelius immediately recognised, in +Phoebe's companion (and sweetheart), a vagabond Irishman, nicknamed +Jervy, whose face he had last seen at Tadmor. Employed as one of the +agents of the Community in transacting their business with the +neighbouring town, he had been dismissed for misconduct, and had been +unwisely taken back again, at the intercession of a respectable person +who believed in his promises of amendment. Amelius had suspected this +man of being the spy who officiously informed against Mellicent and +himself, but having discovered no evidence to justify his suspicions, +he had remained silent on the subject. It was now quite plain to him +that Jervy's appearance in London could only be attributed to a second +dismissal from the service of the Community, for some offence +sufficiently serious to oblige him to take refuge in England. A more +disreputable person it was hardly possible for Phoebe to have become +acquainted with. In her present vindictive mood, he would be +emphatically a dangerous companion and counsellor. Amelius felt this so +strongly, that he determined to follow them, on the chance of finding +out where Jervy lived. Unhappily, he had only arrived at this +resolution after a lapse of a minute or two. He ran into the street but +it was too late; not a trace of them was to be discovered. Pursuing his +way to Mr. Farnaby's house, he decided on mentioning what had happened +to Regina. Her aunt had not acted wisely in refusing to let the maid +refer to her for a character. She would do well to set herself right +with Phoebe, in this particular, before it was too late. + + + +CHAPTER 2 + +Mrs. Farnaby stood at the door of her own room, and looked at her niece +with an air of contemptuous curiosity. + +"Well? You and your lover have had a fine time of it together, I +suppose? What do you want here?" + +"Amelius wishes particularly to speak to you, aunt." + +"Tell him to save himself the trouble. He may reconcile your uncle to +his marriage--he won't reconcile Me." + +"It's not about that, aunt; it's about Phoebe." + +"Does he want me to take Phoebe back again?" + +At that moment Amelius appeared in the hall, and answered the question +himself. "I want to give you a word of warning," he said. + +Mrs. Farnaby smiled grimly. "That excites my curiosity," she replied. +"Come in. I don't want _you,"_ she added, dismissing her niece at the +door. "So you're willing to wait ten years for Regina?" she continued, +when Amelius was alone with her. "I'm disappointed in you; you're a +poor weak creature, after all. What about that young hussy, Phoebe?" + +Amelius told her unreservedly all that had passed between the discarded +maid and himself, not forgetting, before he concluded, to caution her +on the subject of the maid's companion. "I don't know what that man may +not do to mislead Phoebe," he said. "If I were you, I wouldn't drive +her into a corner." + +Mrs. Farnaby eyed him scornfully from head to foot. "You used to have +the spirit of a man in you," she answered. "Keeping company with Regina +has made you a milksop already. If you want to know what I think of +Phoebe and her sweetheart--" she stopped, and snapped her fingers. +"There!" she said, "that's what I think! Now go back to Regina. I can +tell you one thing--she will never be your wife." + +Amelius looked at her in quiet surprise. "It seems odd," he remarked, +"that you should treat me as you do, after what you said to me, the +last time I was in this room. You expect me to help you in the dearest +wish of your life--and you do everything you can to thwart the dearest +wish of _my_ life. A man can't keep his temper under continual +provocation. Suppose I refuse to help you?" + +Mrs. Farnaby looked at him with the most exasperating composure. "I +defy you to do it," she answered. + +"You defy me to do it!" Amelius exclaimed. + +"Do you take me for a fool?" Mrs. Farnaby went on. "Do you think I +don't know you better than you know yourself?" She stepped up close to +him; her voice sank suddenly to low and tender tones. "If that last +unlikely chance should turn out in my favour," she went on; "if you +really did meet with my poor girl, one of these days, and knew that you +had met with her--do you mean to say you could be cruel enough, no +matter how badly I behaved to you, to tell me nothing about it? Is +_that_ the heart I can feel beating under my hand? Is _that_ the +Christianity you learnt at Tadmor? Pooh, pooh, you foolish boy! Go back +to Regina; and tell her you have tried to frighten me, and you find it +won't do." + +The next day was Saturday. The advertisement of the lecture appeared in +the newspapers. Rufus confessed that he had been extravagant enough, in +the case of the two weekly journals, to occupy half a page. "The +public," he explained, "have got a nasty way of overlooking +advertisements of a modest and retiring character. Hit 'em in the eyes +when they open the paper, or you don't hit 'em at all." + +Among the members of the public attracted by the new announcement, Mrs. +Farnaby was one. She honoured Amelius with a visit at his lodgings. "I +called you a poor weak creature yesterday" (these were her first words +on entering the room); "I talked like a fool. You're a splendid fellow; +I respect your courage, and I shall attend your lecture. Never mind +what Mr. Farnaby and Regina say. Regina's poor little conventional soul +is shaken, I dare say; you needn't expect to have my niece among your +audience. But Farnaby is a humbug, as usual. He affects to be +horrified; he talks big about breaking off the match. In his own self, +he's bursting with curiosity to know how you will get through with it. +I tell you this--he will sneak into the hall and stand at the back +where nobody can see him. I shall go with him; and, when you're on the +platform, I'll hold up my handkerchief like this. Then you'll know he's +there. Hit him hard, Amelius--hit him hard! Where is your friend Rufus? +just gone away? I like that American. Give him my love, and tell him to +come and see me." She left the room as abruptly as she had entered it. +Amelius looked after her in amazement. Mrs. Farnaby was not like +herself; Mrs. Farnaby was in good spirits! + +Regina's opinion of the lecture arrived by post. + +Every other word in her letter was underlined; half the sentences began +with "Oh!"; Regina was shocked, astonished, ashamed, alarmed. What +would Amelius do next? Why had he deceived her, and left her to find it +out in the papers? He had undone all the good effect of those charming +letters to her father and herself. He had no idea of the disgust and +abhorrence which respectable people would feel at his odious Socialism. +Was she never to know another happy moment? and was Amelius to be the +cause of it? and so on, and so on. + +Mr. Farnaby's protest followed, delivered by Mr. Farnaby himself. He +kept his gloves on when he called; he was solemn and pathetic; he +remonstrated, in the character of one of the ancestors of Amelius; he +pitied the ancient family "mouldering in the silent grave," he would +abstain from deciding in a hurry, but his daughter's feelings were +outraged, and he feared it might be his duty to break off the match. +Amelius, with perfect good temper, offered him a free admission, and +asked him to hear the lecture and decide for himself whether there was +any harm in it. Mr. Farnaby turned his head away from the ticket as if +it was something indecent. "Sad! sad!" That was his only farewell to +the gentleman-Socialist. + +On the Sunday (being the only day in London on which a man can use his +brains without being interrupted by street music), Amelius rehearsed +his lecture. On the Monday, he paid his weekly visit to Regina. + +She was reported--whether truly or not it was impossible for him to +discover--to have gone out in the carriage with Mrs. Ormond. Amelius +wrote to her in soothing and affectionate terms, suggesting, as he had +suggested to her father, that she should wait to hear the lecture +before she condemned it. In the mean time, he entreated her to remember +that they had promised to be true to one another, in time and +eternity--Socialism notwithstanding. + +The answer came back by private messenger. The tone was serious. +Regina's principles forbade her to attend a Socialist lecture. She +hoped Amelius was in earnest in writing as he did about time and +eternity. The subject was very awful to a rightly-constituted mind. On +the next page, some mitigation of this severity followed in a +postscript. Regina would wait at home to see Amelius, the day after his +"regrettable appearance in public." + +The evening of Tuesday was the evening of the lecture. + +Rufus posted himself at the ticket-taker's office, in the interests of +Amelius. "Even sixpences do sometimes stick to a man's fingers, on +their way from the public to the money-box," he remarked. The sixpences +did indeed flow in rapidly; the advertisements had, so far, produced +their effect. But the reserved seats sold very slowly. The members of +the Institution, who were admitted for nothing, arrived in large +numbers, and secured the best places. Towards eight o'clock (the hour +at which the lecture was to begin), the sixpenny audience was still +pouring in. Rufus recognised Phoebe among the late arrivals, escorted +by a person in the dress of a gentleman, who was palpably a blackguard +nevertheless. A short stout lady followed, who warily shook hands with +Rufus, and said, "Let me introduce you to Mr. Farnaby." Mr. Farnaby's +mouth and chin were shrouded in a wrapper; his hat was over his +eyebrows. Rufus observed that he looked as if he was ashamed of +himself. A gaunt, dirty, savage old woman, miserably dressed, offered +her sixpence to the moneytaker, while the two gentlemen were shaking +hands; the example, it is needless to say, being set by Rufus. The old +woman looked attentively at all that was visible of Mr. Farnaby--that +is to say, at his eyes and his whiskers--by the gas-lamp hanging in the +corridor. She instantly drew back, though she had got her ticket; +waited until Mr. Farnaby had paid for his wife and himself, and then +followed close behind them, into the hall. + +And why not? The advertisements addressed this wretched old creature as +one of the poor and discontented public. Sixteen years ago, John +Farnaby had put his own child into that woman's hands at Ramsgate, and +had never seen either of them since. + + + +CHAPTER 3 + +Entering the hall, Mr. Farnaby discovered without difficulty the +position of modest retirement of which he was in search. + +The cheap seats were situated, as usual, on that part of the floor of +the building which was farthest from the platform. A gallery at this +end of the hall threw its shadow over the hindermost benches and the +gangway by which they were approached. In the sheltering obscurity thus +produced, Mr. Farnaby took his place; standing in the corner formed by +the angle it which the two walls of the building met, with his dutiful +wife at his side. + +Still following them, unnoticed in the crowd, the old woman stopped at +the extremity of the hindermost bench, looked close at a +smartly-dressed young man who occupied the last seat at the end, and +who paid marked attention to a pretty girl sitting by him, and +whispered in his ear, "Now then, Jervy! can't you make room for Mother +Sowler?" + +The man started and looked round. "You here?" he exclaimed, with an +oath. + +Before he could say more, Phoebe whispered to him on the other side, +"What a horrid old creature! How did you ever come to know her?" + +At the same moment, Mrs. Sowler reiterated her request in more +peremptory language. "Do you hear, Jervy--do you hear? Sit a little +closer." + +Jervy apparently had his reasons for treating the expression of Mrs. +Sowler's wishes with deference, shabby as she was. Making abundant +apologies, he asked his neighbours to favour him by sitting a little +nearer to each other, and so contrive to leave a morsel of vacant space +at the edge of the bench. + +Phoebe, making room under protest, began to whisper again. "What does +she mean by calling you Jervy? She looks like a beggar. Tell her your +name is Jervis." + +The reply she received did not encourage her to say more. "Hold your +tongue; I have reasons for being civil to her--you be civil too." + +He turned to Mrs. Sowler, with the readiest submission to +circumstances. Under the surface of his showy looks and his vulgar +facility of manner, there lay hidden a substance of callous villainy +and impenetrable cunning. He had in him the materials out of which the +clever murderers are made, who baffle the police. If he could have done +it with impunity, he would have destroyed without remorse the squalid +old creature who sat by him, and who knew enough of his past career in +England to send him to penal servitude for life. As it was, he spoke to +her with a spurious condescension and good humour. "Why, it must be ten +years, Mrs. Sowler, since I last saw you! What have you been doing?" + +The woman frowned at him as she answered. "Can't you look at me, and +see? Starving!" She eyed his gaudy watch and chain greedily. "Money +don't seem to be scarce with you. Have you made your fortune in +America?" + +He laid his hand on her arm, and pressed it warningly. "Hush!" he said, +under his breath. "We'll talk about that, after the lecture." His +bright shifty black eyes turned furtively towards Phoebe--and Mrs. +Sowler noticed it. The girl's savings in service had paid for his +jewelry and his fine clothes. She silently resented his rudeness in +telling her to "hold her tongue"; sitting, sullen, with her impudent +little nose in the air. Jervy tried to include her indirectly in his +conversation with his shabby old friend. "This young lady," he said, +"knows Mr. Goldenheart. She feels sure he'll break down; and we've come +here to see the fun. I don't hold with Socialism myself--I am for, what +my favourite newspaper calls, the Altar and the Throne. In short, my +politics are Conservative." + +"Your politics are in your girl's pocket," muttered Mrs. Sowler. "How +long will her money last?" + +Jervy turned a deaf ear to the interruption. "And what has brought you +here?" he went on, in his most ingratiating way. "Did you see the +advertisement in the papers?" + +Mrs. Sowler answered loud enough to be heard above the hum of talking +in the sixpenny places. "I was having a drop of gin, and I saw the +paper at the public-house. I'm one of the discontented poor. I hate +rich people; and I'm ready to pay my sixpence to hear them abused." + +"Hear, hear!" said a man near, who looked like a shoemaker. + +"I hope he'll give it to the aristocracy," added one of the shoemaker's +neighbours, apparently a groom out of place. + +"I'm sick of the aristocracy," cried a woman with a fiery face and a +crushed bonnet. "It's them as swallows up the money. What business have +they with their palaces and their parks, when my husband's out of work, +and my children hungry at home?" + +The acquiescent shoemaker listened with admiration. "Very well put," he +said; "very well put." + +These expressions of popular feeling reached the respectable ears of +Mr. Farnaby. "Do you hear those wretches?" he said to his wife. + +Mrs. Farnaby seized the welcome opportunity of irritating him. "Poor +things!" she answered. "In their place, we should talk as they do." + +"You had better go into the reserved seats," rejoined her husband, +turning from her with a look of disgust. "There's plenty of room. Why +do you stop here?" + +"I couldn't think of leaving you, my dear! How did you like my American +friend?" + +"I am astonished at your taking the liberty of introducing him to me. +You knew perfectly well that I was here incognito. What do I care about +a wandering American?" + +Mrs. Farnaby persisted as maliciously as ever. "Ah, but you see, I like +him. The wandering American is my ally." + +"Your ally! What do you mean?" + +"Good heavens, how dull you are! don't you know that I object to my +niece's marriage engagement? I was quite delighted when I heard of this +lecture, because it's an obstacle in the way. It disgusts Regina, and +it disgusts You--and my dear American is the man who first brought it +about. Hush! here's Amelius. How well he looks! So graceful and so +gentlemanlike," cried Mrs. Farnaby, signalling with her handkerchief to +show Amelius their position in the hall. "I declare I'm ready to become +a Socialist before he opens his lips!" + +The personal appearance of Amelius took the audience completely by +surprise. A man who is young and handsome is not the order of man who +is habitually associated in the popular mind with the idea of a +lecture. After a moment of silence, there was a spontaneous burst of +applause. It was renewed when Amelius, first placing on his table a +little book, announced his intention of delivering the lecture +extempore. The absence of the inevitable manuscript was in itself an +act of mercy that cheered the public at starting. + +The orator of the evening began. + +"Ladies and gentlemen, thoughtful people accustomed to watch the signs +of the times in this country, and among the other nations of Europe, +are (so far as I know) agreed in the conclusion, that serious changes +are likely to take place in present forms of government, and in +existing systems of society, before the century in which we live has +reached its end. In plain words, the next revolution is not so +unlikely, and not so far off, as it pleases the higher and wealthier +classes among European populations to suppose. I am one of those who +believe that the coming convulsion will take the form, this time, of a +social revolution, and that the man at the head of it will not be a +military or a political man--but a Great Citizen, sprung from the +people, and devoted heart and soul to the people's cause. Within the +limits assigned to me to-night, it is impossible that I should speak to +you of government and society among other nations, even if I possessed +the necessary knowledge and experience to venture on so vast a subject. +All that I can now attempt to do is (first) to point out some of the +causes which are paving the way for a coming change in the social and +political condition of this country; and (secondly) to satisfy you that +the only trustworthy remedy for existing abuses is to be found in the +system which Christian Socialism extracts from this little book on my +table--the book which you all know under the name of The New Testament. +Before, however, I enter on my task, I feel it a duty to say one +preliminary word on the subject of my claim to address you, such as it +is. I am most unwilling to speak of myself--but my position here forces +me to do so. I am a stranger to all of you; and I am a very young man. +Let me tell you, then, briefly, what my life has been, and where I have +been brought up--and then decide for yourselves whether it is worth +your while to favour me with your attention, or not." + +"A very good opening," remarked the shoemaker. + +"A nice-looking fellow," said the fiery-faced woman, "I should like to +kiss him." + +"He's too civil by half," grumbled Mrs. Sowler; "I wish I had my +sixpence back in my pocket." + +"Give him time." whispered Jervy, "and he'll warm up. I say, Phoebe, he +doesn't begin like a man who is going to break down. I don't expect +there will be much to laugh at to-night." + +"What an admirable speaker!" said Mrs. Farnaby to her husband. "Fancy +such a man as that, being married to such an idiot as Regina!" + +"There's always a chance for him," returned Mr. Farnaby, savagely, "as +long as he's not married to such a woman as You!" + +In the mean time, Amelius had claimed national kindred with his +audience as an Englishman, and had rapidly sketched his life at Tadmor, +in its most noteworthy points. This done, he put the question whether +they would hear him. His frankness and freshness had already won the +public: they answered by a general shout of applause. + +"Very well," Amelius proceeded, "now let us get on. Suppose we take a +glance (we have no time to do more) at the present state of our +religious system, first. What is the public aspect of the thing called +Christianity, in the England of our day? A hundred different sects all +at variance with each other. An established church, rent in every +direction by incessant wrangling--disputes about black gowns or white; +about having candlesticks on tables, or off tables; about bowing to the +east or bowing to the west; about which doctrine collects the most +respectable support and possesses the largest sum of money, the +doctrine in my church, or the doctrine in your church, or the doctrine +in the church over the way. Look up, if you like, from this +multitudinous and incessant squabbling among the rank and file, to the +high regions in which the right reverend representatives of state +religion sit apart. Are they Christians? If they are, show me the +Bishop who dare assert his Christianity in the House of Lords, when the +ministry of the day happens to see its advantage in engaging in a war! +Where is that Bishop, and how many supporters does he count among his +own order? Do you blame me for using intemperate language--language +which I cannot justify? Take a fair test, and try me by that. The +result of the Christianity of the New Testament is to make men true, +humane, gentle, modest, strictly scrupulous and strictly considerate in +their dealings with their neighbours. Does the Christianity of the +churches and the sects produce these results among us? Look at the +staple of the country, at the occupation which employs the largest +number of Englishmen of all degrees--Look at our Commerce. What is its +social aspect, judged by the morality which is in this book in my hand? +Let those organised systems of imposture, masquerading under the +disguise of banks and companies, answer the question--there is no need +for me to answer it. You know what respectable names are associated, +year after year, with the shameless falsification of accounts, and the +merciless ruin of thousands on thousands of victims. You know how our +poor Indian customer finds his cotton-print dress a sham that falls to +pieces; how the savage who deals honestly with us for his weapon finds +his gun a delusion that bursts; how the half-starved needlewoman who +buys her reel of thread finds printed on the label a false statement of +the number of yards that she buys; you know that, in the markets of +Europe, foreign goods are fast taking the place of English goods, +because the foreigner is the most honest manufacturer of the two--and, +lastly, you know, what is worse than all, that these cruel and wicked +deceptions, and many more like them, are regarded, on the highest +commercial authority, as 'forms of competition' and justifiable +proceedings in trade. Do you believe in the honourable accumulation of +wealth by men who hold such opinions and perpetrate such impostures as +these? I don't! Do you find any brighter and purer prospect when you +look down from the man who deceives you and me on the great scale, to +the man who deceives us on the small? I don't! Everything we eat, +drink, and wear is a more or less adulterated commodity; and that very +adulteration is sold to us by the tradesmen at such outrageous prices, +that we are obliged to protect ourselves on the Socialist principle, by +setting up cooperative shops of our own. Wait! and hear me out, before +you applaud. Don't mistake the plain purpose of what I am saying to +you; and don't suppose that I am blind to the brighter side of the dark +picture that I have drawn. Look within the limits of private life, and +you will find true Christians, thank God, among clergymen and laymen +alike; you will find men and women who deserve to be called, in the +highest sense of the word, disciples of Christ. But my business is not +with private life--my business is with the present public aspect of the +religion, morals, and politics of this country; and again I say it, +that aspect presents one wide field of corruption and abuse, and +reveals a callous and shocking insensibility on the part of the nation +at large to the spectacle of its own demoralisation and disgrace." + +There Amelius paused, and took his first drink of water. + +Reserved seats at public performances seem, by some curious affinity, +to be occupied by reserved persons. The select public, seated nearest +to the orator, preserved discreet silence. But the hearty applause from +the sixpenny places made ample amends. There was enough of the +lecturer's own vehemence and impetuosity in this opening +attack--sustained as it undeniably was by a sound foundation of +truth--to appeal strongly to the majority of his audience. Mrs. Sowler +began to think that her sixpence had been well laid out, after all; and +Mrs. Farnaby pointed the direct application to her husband of all the +hardest hits at commerce, by nodding her head at him as they were +delivered. + +Amelius went on. + +"The next thing we have to discover is this: Will our present system of +government supply us with peaceable means for the reform of the abuses +which I have already noticed? not forgetting that other enormous abuse, +represented by our intolerable national expenditure, increasing with +every year. Unless you insist on it, I do not propose to waste our +precious time by saying anything about the House of Lords, for three +good reasons. In the first place, that assembly is not elected by the +people, and it has therefore no right of existence in a really free +country. In the second place, out of its four hundred and eighty-five +members, no less than one hundred and eighty-four directly profit by +the expenditure of the public money; being in the annual receipt, under +one pretence or another, of more than half a million sterling. In the +third place, if the assembly of the Commons has in it the will, as well +as the capacity, to lead the way in the needful reforms, the assembly +of the Lords has no alternative but to follow, or to raise the +revolution which it only escaped, by a hair's-breadth, some forty years +since. What do you say? Shall we waste our time in speaking of the +House of Lords?" + +Loud cries from the sixpenny benches answered No; the ostler and the +fiery-faced woman being the most vociferous of all. Here and there, +certain dissentient individuals raised a little hiss--led by Jervy, in +the interests of "the Altar and the Throne." + +Amelius resumed. + +"Well, will the House of Commons help us to get purer Christianity, and +cheaper government, by lawful and sufficient process of reform? Let me +again remind you that this assembly has the power--if it has the will. +Is it so constituted at present as to have the will? There is the +question! The number of members is a little over six hundred and fifty. +Out of this muster, one fifth only represent (or pretend to represent) +the trading interests of the country. As for the members charged with +the interests of the working class, they are more easily counted +still--they are two in number! Then, in heaven's name (you will ask), +what interest does the majority of members in this assembly represent? +There is but one answer--the military and aristocratic interest. In +these days of the decay of representative institutions, the House of +Commons has become a complete misnomer. The Commons are not +represented; modern members belong to classes of the community which +have really no interest in providing for popular needs and lightening +popular burdens. In one word, there is no sort of hope for us in the +House of Commons. And whose fault is this? I own it with shame and +sorrow--it is emphatically the fault of the people. Yes, I say to you +plainly, it is the disgrace and the peril of England that the people +themselves have elected the representative assembly which ignores the +people's wants! You voters, in town and county alike, have had every +conceivable freedom and encouragement secured to you in the exercise of +your sacred trust--and there is the modern House of Commons to prove +that you are thoroughly unworthy of it!" + +These bold words produced an outbreak of disapprobation from the +audience, which, for the moment, completely overpowered the speaker's +voice. They were prepared to listen with inexhaustible patience to the +enumeration of their virtues and their wrongs--but they had not paid +sixpence each to be informed of the vicious and contemptible part which +they play in modern politics. They yelled and groaned and hissed--and +felt that their handsome young lecturer had insulted them! + +Amelius waited quietly until the disturbance had worn itself out. + +"I am sorry I have made you angry with me," he said, smiling. "The +blame for this little disturbance really rests with the public speakers +who are afraid of you and who flatter you--especially if you belong to +the working classes. You are not accustomed to have the truth told you +to your faces. Why, my good friends, the people in this country, who +are unworthy of the great trust which the wise and generous English +constitution places in their hands, are so numerous that they can be +divided into distinct classes! There is the highly-educated class which +despairs, and holds aloof. There is the class beneath--without +self-respect, and therefore without public spirit--which can be bribed +indirectly, by the gift of a place, by the concession of a lease, even +by an invitation to a party at a great house which includes the wives +and the daughters. And there is the lower class still--mercenary, +corrupt, shameless to the marrow of its bones--which sells itself and +its liberties for money and drink. When I began this discourse, and +adverted to great changes that are to come, I spoke of them as +revolutionary changes. Am I an alarmist? Do I unjustly ignore the +capacity for peaceable reformation which has preserved modern England +from revolutions, thus far? God forbid that I should deny the truth, or +that I should alarm you without need! But history tells me, if I look +no farther back than to the first French Revolution, that there are +social and political corruptions, which strike their roots in a nation +so widely and so deeply, that no force short of the force of a +revolutionary convulsion can tear them up and cast them away. And I do +personally fear (and older and wiser men than I agree with me), that +the corruptions at which I have only been able to hint, in this brief +address, are fast extending themselves--in England, as well as in +Europe generally--beyond the reach of that lawful and bloodless reform +which has served us so well in past years. Whether I am mistaken in +this view (and I hope with all my heart it may be so), or whether +events yet in the future will prove that I am right, the remedy in +either case, the one sure foundation on which a permanent, complete, +and worthy reformation can be built--whether it prevents a convulsion +or whether it follows a convulsion--is only to be found within the +covers of this book. Do not, I entreat you, suffer yourselves to be +persuaded by those purblind philosophers who assert that the divine +virtue of Christianity is a virtue which is wearing out with the lapse +of time. It is the abuse and corruption of Christianity that is wearing +out--as all falsities and all impostures must and do wear out. Never, +since Christ and his apostles first showed men the way to be better and +happier, have the nations stood in sorer need of a return to that +teaching, in its pristine purity and simplicity, than now! Never, more +certainly than at this critical time, was it the interest as well as +the duty of mankind to turn a deaf ear to the turmoil of false +teachers, and to trust in that all-wise and all-merciful Voice which +only ceased to exalt, console, and purify humanity, when it expired in +darkness under the torture of the cross! Are these the wild words of an +enthusiast? Is this the dream of an earthly Paradise in which it is +sheer folly to believe? I can tell you of one existing community (one +among others) which numbers some hundreds of persons; and which has +found prosperity and happiness, by reducing the whole art and mystery +of government to the simple solution set forth in the New +Testament--fear God, and love thy neighbour as thyself." + +By these gradations Amelius arrived at the second of the two parts into +which he had divided his address. + +He now repeated, at greater length and with a more careful choice of +language, the statement of the religious and social principles of the +Community at Tadmor, which he had already addressed to his two +fellow-travellers on the voyage to England. While he confined himself +to plain narrative, describing a mode of life which was entirely new to +his hearers, he held the attention of the audience. But when he began +to argue the question of applying Christian Socialism to the government +of large populations as well as small--when he inquired logically +whether what he had proved to be good for some hundreds of persons was +not also good for some thousands, and, conceding that, for some +hundreds of thousands, and so on until he had arrived, by dint of sheer +argument, at the conclusion that what had succeeded at Tadmor must +necessarily succeed on a fair trial in London--then the public interest +began to flag. People remembered their coughs and colds, and talked in +whispers, and looked about them with a vague feeling of relief in +staring at each other. Mrs. Sowler, hitherto content with furtively +glancing at Mr. Farnaby from time to time, now began to look at him +more boldly, as he stood in his corner with his eyes fixed sternly on +the platform at the other end of the hall. He too began to feel that +the lecture was changing its tone. It was no longer the daring outbreak +which he had come to hear, as his sufficient justification (if +necessary) for forbidding Amelius to enter his house. "I have had +enough of it," he said, suddenly turning to his wife, "let us go." + +If Mrs. Farnaby could have been forewarned that she was standing in +that assembly of strangers, not as one of themselves, but as a woman +with a formidable danger hanging over her head--or if she had only +happened to look towards Phoebe, and had felt a passing reluctance to +submit herself to the possibly insolent notice of a discharged +servant--she might have gone out with her husband, and might have so +escaped the peril that had been lying in wait for her, from the fatal +moment when she first entered the hall. As it was she refused to move. +"You forget the public discussion," she said. "Wait and see what sort +of fight Amelius makes of it when the lecture is over." + +She spoke loud enough to be heard by some of the people seated nearest +to her. Phoebe, critically examining the dresses of the few ladies in +the reserved seats, twisted round on the bench, and noticed for the +first time the presence of Mr. and Mrs. Farnaby in their dim corner. +"Look!" she whispered to Jervy, "there's the wretch who turned me out +of her house without a character, and her husband with her." + +Jervy looked round, in his turn, a little doubtful of the accuracy of +his sweetheart's information. "Surely they wouldn't come to the +sixpenny places," he said. "Are you certain it's Mr. and Mrs. Farnaby?" + +He spoke in cautiously-lowered tones; but Mrs. Sowler had seen him look +back at the lady and gentleman in the corner, and was listening +attentively to catch the first words that fell from his lips. + +"Which is Mr. Farnaby?" she asked. + +"The man in the corner there, with the white silk wrapper over his +mouth, and his hat down to his eyebrows." + +Mrs. Sowler looked round for a moment--to make sure that Jervy's man +and her man were one and the same. + +"Farnaby?" she muttered to herself, in the tone of a person who heard +the name for the first time. She considered a little, and leaning +across Jervy, addressed herself to his companion. "My dear," she +whispered, "did that gentleman ever go by the name of Morgan, and have +his letters addressed to the George and Dragon, in Tooley-street?" + +Phoebe lifted her eyebrows with a look of contemptuous surprise, which +was an answer in itself. "Fancy the great Mr. Farnaby going by an +assumed name, and having his letters addressed to a public-house!" she +said to Jervy. + +Mrs. Sowler asked no more questions. She relapsed into muttering to +herself, under her breath. "His whiskers have turned gray, to be +sure--but I know his eyes again; I'll take my oath to it, there's no +mistaking _his_ eyes!" She suddenly appealed to Jervy. "Is Mr. Farnaby +rich?" she asked. + +"Rolling in riches!" was the answer. + +"Where does he live?" + +Jervy was cautious how he replied to that; he consulted Phoebe. "Shall +I tell her?" + +Phoebe answered petulantly, "I'm turned out of the house; I don't care +what you tell her!" + +Jervy again addressed the old woman, still keeping his information in +reserve. "Why do you want to know where he lives?" + +"He owes me money," said Mrs. Sowler. + +Jervy looked hard at her, and emitted a long low whistle, expressive of +blank amazement. The persons near, annoyed by the incessant whispering, +looked round irritably, and insisted on silence. Jervy ventured +nevertheless on a last interruption. "You seem to be tired of this," he +remarked to Phoebe; "let's go and get some oysters." She rose directly. +Jervy tapped Mrs. Sowler on the shoulder, as they passed her. "Come and +have some supper," he said; "I'll stand treat." + +The three were necessarily noticed by their neighbours as they passed +out. Mrs. Farnaby discovered Phoebe--when it was too late. Mr. Farnaby +happened to look first at the old woman. Sixteen years of squalid +poverty effectually disguised her, in that dim light. He only looked +away again, and said to his wife impatiently, "Let us go too!" + +Mrs. Farnaby was still obstinate. "You can go if you like," she said; +"I shall stay here." + + + +CHAPTER 4 + +"Three dozen oysters, bread-and-butter, and bottled stout; a private +room and a good fire." Issuing these instructions, on his arrival at +the tavern, Jervy was surprised by a sudden act of interference on the +part of his venerable guest. Mrs. Sowler actually took it on herself to +order her own supper! + +"Nothing cold to eat or drink for me," she said. "Morning and night, +waking and sleeping, I can't keep myself warm. See for yourself, Jervy, +how I've lost flesh since you first knew me! A steak, broiling hot from +the gridiron, and gin-and-water, hotter still--that's the supper for +me." + +"Take the order, waiter," said Jervy, resignedly; "and let us see the +private room." + +The tavern was of the old-fashioned English sort, which scorns to learn +a lesson of brightness and elegance from France. The private room can +only be described as a museum for the exhibition of dirt in all its +varieties. Behind the bars of the rusty little grate a dying fire was +drawing its last breath. Mrs. Sowler clamoured for wood and coals; +revived the fire with her own hands; and seated herself shivering as +close to the fender as the chair would go. After a while, the composing +effect of the heat began to make its influence felt: the head of the +half-starved wretch sank: a species of stupor overcame her--half +faintness, and half sleep. + +Phoebe and her sweetheart sat together, waiting the appearance of the +supper, on a little sofa at the other end of the room. Having certain +objects to gain, Jervy put his arm round her waist, and looked and +spoke in his most insinuating manner. + +"Try and put up with Mother Sowler for an hour or two," he said. "My +sweet girl, I know she isn't fit company for you! But how can I turn my +back on an old friend?" + +"That's just what surprises me," Phoebe answered. "I don't understand +such a person being a friend of yours." + +Always ready with the necessary lie, whenever the occasion called for +it, Jervy invented a pathetic little story, in two short parts. First +part: Mrs. Sowler, rich and respected; a widow inhabiting a +villa-residence, and riding in her carriage. Second part: a villainous +lawyer; misplaced confidence; reckless investments; death of the +villain; ruin of Mrs. Sowler. "Don't talk about her misfortunes when +she wakes," Jervy concluded, "or she'll burst out crying, to a dead +certainty. Only tell me, dear Phoebe, would _you_ turn your back on a +forlorn old creature because she has outlived all her other friends, +and hasn't a farthing left in the world? Poor as I am, I can help her +to a supper, at any rate." + +Phoebe expressed her admiration of these noble sentiments by an +inexpensive ebullition of tenderness, which failed to fulfill Jervy's +private anticipations. He had aimed straight at her purse--and he had +only hit her heart! He tried a broad hint next. "I wonder whether I +shall have a shilling or two left to give Mrs. Sowler, when I have paid +for the supper?" He sighed, and pulled out some small change, and +looked at it in eloquent silence. Phoebe was hit in the right place at +last. She handed him her purse. "What is mine will be yours, when we +are married," she said; "why not now?" Jervy expressed his sense of +obligation with the promptitude of a grateful man; he repeated those +precious words, "My sweet girl!" Phoebe laid her head on his +shoulder--and let him kiss her, and enjoyed it in silent ecstasy with +half-closed eyes. The scoundrel waited and watched her, until she was +completely under his influence. Then, and not till then, he risked the +gradual revelation of the purpose which had induced him to withdraw +from the hall, before the proceedings of the evening had reached their +end. + +"Did you hear what Mrs. Sowler said to me, just before we left the +lecture?" he asked. + +"No, dear." + +"You remember that she asked me to tell her Farnaby's address?" + +"Oh yes! And she wanted to know if he had ever gone by the name of +Morgan. Ridiculous--wasn't it?" + +"I'm not so sure of that, my dear. She told me, in so many words, that +Farnaby owed her money. He didn't make his fortune all at once, I +suppose. How do we know what he might have done in his young days, or +how he might have humbugged a feeble woman. Wait till our friend there +at the fire has warmed her old bones with some hot grog--and I'll find +out something more about Farnaby's debt." + +"Why, dear? What is it to you?" + +Jervy reflected for a moment, and decided that the time had come to +speak more plainly. + +"In the first place," he said, "it would only be an act of common +humanity, on my part, to help Mrs. Sowler to get her money. You see +that, don't you? Very well. Now, I am no Socialist, as you are aware; +quite the contrary. At the same time, I am a remarkably just man; and I +own I was struck by what Mr. Goldenheart said about the uses to which +wealthy people are put, by the Rules at Tadmor. 'The man who has got +the money is bound, by the express law of Christian morality, to use it +in assisting the man who has got none.' Those were his words, as nearly +as I can remember them. He put it still more strongly afterwards; he +said, 'A man who hoards up a large fortune, from a purely selfish +motive--either because he is a miser, or because he looks only to the +aggrandisement of his own family after his death--is, in either case, +an essentially unchristian person, who stands in manifest need of +enlightenment and control by Christian law.' And then, if you remember, +some of the people murmured; and Mr. Goldenheart stopped them by +reading a line from the New Testament, which said exactly what he had +been saying--only in fewer words. Now, my dear girl, Farnaby seems to +me to be one of the many people pointed at in this young gentleman's +lecture. Judging by looks, I should say he was a hard man." + +"That's just what he is--hard as iron! Looks at his servants as if they +were dirt under his feet; and never speaks a kind word to them from one +year's end to another." + +"Suppose I guess again? He's not particularly free-handed with his +money--is he?" + +"He! He will spend anything on himself and his grandeur; but he never +gave away a halfpenny in his life." + +Jervy pointed to the fireplace, with a burst of virtuous indignation. +"And there's that poor old soul starving for want of the money he owes +her! Damn it, I agree with the Socialists; it's a virtue to make that +sort of man bleed. Look at you and me! We are the very people he ought +to help--we might be married at once, if we only knew where to find a +little money. I've seen a deal of the world, Phoebe; and my experience +tells me there's something about that debt of Farnaby's which he +doesn't want to have known. Why shouldn't we screw a few five-pound +notes for ourselves out of the rich miser's fears?" + +Phoebe was cautious. "It's against the law--ain't it?" she said. + +"Trust me to keep clear of the law," Jervy answered. "I won't stir in +the matter till I know for certain that he daren't take the police into +his confidence. It will be all easy enough when we are once sure of +that. You have been long enough in the family to find out Farnaby's +weak side. Would it do, if we got at him, to begin with, through his +wife?" + +Phoebe suddenly reddened to the roots of her hair. "Don't talk to me +about his wife!" she broke out fiercely; "I've got a day of reckoning +to come with that lady--" She looked at Jervy and checked herself. He +was watching her with an eager curiosity, which not even his ready +cunning was quick enough to conceal. + +"I wouldn't intrude on your little secrets, darling, for the world!" he +said, in his most persuasive tones. "But, if you want advice, you know +that I am heart and soul at your service." + +Phoebe looked across the room at Mrs. Sowler, still nodding over the +fire. + +"Never mind now," she said; "I don't think it's a matter for a man to +advise about--it's between Mrs. Farnaby and me. Do what you like with +her husband; I don't care; he's a brute, and I hate him. But there's +one thing I insist on--I won't have Miss Regina frightened or annoyed; +mind that! She's a good creature. There, read the letter she wrote to +me yesterday, and judge for yourself." + +Jervy looked at the letter. It was not very long. He resignedly took +upon himself the burden of reading it. + + +"DEAR PHOEBE, + +"Don't be downhearted. I am your friend always, and I will help you to +get another place. I am sorry to say that it was indeed Mrs. Ormond who +found us out that day. She had her suspicions, and she watched us, and +told my aunt. This she owned to me with her own lips. She said, 'I +would do anything, my dear, to save you from an ill-assorted marriage.' +I am very wretched about it, because I can never look on her as my +friend again. My aunt, as you know, is of Mrs. Ormond's way of +thinking. You must make allowances for her hot temper. Remember, out of +your kindness towards me, you had been secretly helping forward the +very thing which she was most anxious to prevent. That made her very +angry; but, never fear, she will come round in time. If you don't want +to spend your little savings, while you are waiting for another +situation, let me know. A share of my pocket-money is always at your +service. + +"Your friend, + +"REGINA." + + +"Very nice indeed," said Jervy, handing the letter back, and yawning as +he did it. "And convenient, too, if we run short of money. Ah, here's +the waiter with the supper, at last! Now, Mrs. Sowler, there's a time +for everything--it's time to wake up." + +He lifted the old woman off her chair, and settled her before the +table, like a child. The sight of the hot food and drink roused her to +a tigerish activity. She devoured the meat with her eyes as well as her +teeth; she drank the hot gin-and-water in fierce gulps, and set down +the glass with audible gasps of relief. "Another one," she cried, "and +I shall begin to feel warm again!" + +Jervy, watching her from the opposite side of the table, with Phoebe +close by him as usual, had his own motives for encouraging her to talk, +by the easy means of encouraging her to drink. He sent for another +glass of the hot grog. Phoebe, daintily picking up her oysters with her +fork, affected to be shocked at Mrs. Sowler's coarse method of eating +and drinking. She kept her eyes on her plate, and only consented to +taste malt liquor under modest protest. When Jervy lit a cigar, after +finishing his supper, she reminded him, in an impressively genteel +manner, of the consideration which he owed to the presence of an +elderly lady. "I like it myself, dear," she said mincingly; "but +perhaps Mrs. Sowler objects to the smell?" + +Mrs. Sowler burst into a hoarse laugh. "Do I look as if I was likely to +be squeamish about smells?" she asked, with the savage contempt for her +own poverty, which was one of the dangerous elements in her character. +"See the place I live in, young woman, and then talk about smells if +you like!" + +This was indelicate. Phoebe picked a last oyster out of its shell, and +kept her eyes modestly fixed on her plate. Observing that the second +glass of gin-and-water was fast becoming empty, Jervy risked the first +advances, on his way to Mrs. Sowler's confidence. + +"About that debt of Farnaby's?" he began. "Is it a debt of long +standing?" + +Mrs. Sowler was on her guard. In other words, Mrs. Sowler's head was +only assailable by hot grog, when hot grog was administered in large +quantities. She said it was a debt of long standing, and she said no +more. + +"Has it been standing seven years?" + +Mrs. Sowler emptied her glass, and looked hard at Jervy across the +table. "My memory isn't good for much, at my time of life." She gave +him that answer, and she gave him no more. + +Jervy yielded with his best grace. "Try a third glass," he said; +"there's luck, you know, in odd numbers." + +Mrs. Sowler met this advance in the spirit in which it was made. She +was obliging enough to consult her memory, even before the third glass +made its appearance. "Seven years, did you say?" she repeated. "More +than twice seven years, Jervy! What do you think of that?" + +Jervy wasted no time in thinking. He went on with his questions. + +"Are you quite sure that the man I pointed out to you, at the lecture, +is the same man who went by the name of Morgan, and had his letters +addressed to the public-house?" + +"Quite sure. I'd swear to him anywhere--only by his eyes." + +"And have you never yet asked him to pay the debt?" + +"How could I ask him, when I never knew what his name was till you told +me to-night?" + +"What amount of money does he owe you?" + +Whether Mrs. Sowler had her mind prophetically fixed on a fourth glass +of grog, or whether she thought it time to begin asking questions on +her own account, is not easy to say. Whatever her motive might be, she +slyly shook her head, and winked at Jervy. "The money's my business," +she remarked. "You tell me where he lives--and I'll make him pay me." + +Jervy was equal to the occasion. "You won't do anything of the sort," +he said. + +Mrs. Sowler laughed defiantly. "So you think, my fine fellow!" + +"I don't think at all, old lady--I'm certain. In the first place, +Farnaby don't owe you the debt by law, after seven years. In the second +place, just look at yourself in the glass there. Do you think the +servants will let you in, when you knock at Farnaby's door? You want a +clever fellow to help you--or you'll never recover that debt." + +Mrs. Sowler was accessible to reason (even half-way through her third +glass of grog), when reason was presented to her in convincing terms. +She came to the point at once. "How much do you want?" she asked. + +"Nothing," Jervy answered; "I don't look to _you_ to pay my +commission." + +Mrs. Sowler reflected a little--and understood him. "Say that again," +she insisted, "in the presence of your young woman as witness." + +Jervy touched his young woman's hand under the table, warning her to +make no objection, and to leave it to him. Having declared for the +second time that he would not take a farthing from Mrs. Sowler, he went +on with his inquiries. + +"I'm acting in your interests, Mother Sowler," he said; "and you'll be +the loser, if you don't answer my questions patiently, and tell me the +truth. I want to go back to the debt. What is it for?" + +"For six weeks' keep of a child, at ten shillings a week." + +Phoebe looked up from her plate. + +"Whose child?" Jervy asked, noticing the sudden movement. + +"Morgan's child--the same man you said was Farnaby." + +"Do you know who the mother was?" + +"I wish I did! I should have got the money out of her long ago." + +Jervy stole a look at Phoebe. She had turned pale; she was listening, +with her eyes riveted on Mrs. Sowler's ugly face. + +"How long ago was it?" Jervy went on. + +"Better than sixteen years." + +"Did Farnaby himself give you the child?" + +"With his own hands, over the garden-paling of a house at Ramsgate. He +saw me and the child into the train for London. I had ten pounds from +him, and no more. He promised to see me, and settle everything, in a +month's time. I have never set eyes on him from that day, till I saw +him paying his money this evening at the door of the hall." + +Jervy stole another look at Phoebe. She was still perfectly unconscious +that he was observing her. Her attention was completely absorbed by +Mrs. Sowler's replies. Speculating on the possible result, Jervy +abandoned the question of the debt, and devoted his next inquiries to +the subject of the child. + +"I promise you every farthing of your money, Mother Sowler," he said, +"with interest added to it. How old was the child when Farnaby gave it +to you?" + +"Old? Not a week old, I should say!" + +"Not a week old?" Jervy repeated, with his eye on Phoebe. "Dear, dear +me, a newborn baby, one may say!" + +The girl's excitement was fast getting beyond control. She leaned +across the table, in her eagerness to hear more. + +"And how long was this poor child under your care?" Jervy went on. + +"How can I tell you, at this distance of time? For some months, I +should say. This I'm certain of--I kept it for six good weeks after the +ten pounds he gave me were spent. And then--" she stopped, and looked +at Phoebe. + +"And then you got rid of it?" + +Mrs. Sowler felt for Jervy's foot under the table, and gave it a +significant kick. "I have done nothing to be ashamed of, miss," she +said, addressing her answer defiantly to Phoebe. "Being too poor to +keep the little dear myself, I placed it under the care of a good lady, +who adopted it." + +Phoebe could restrain herself no longer. She burst out with the next +question, before Jervy could open his lips. + +"Do you know where the lady is now?" + +"No," said Mrs. Sowler shortly; "I don't." + +"Do you know where to find the child?" + +Mrs. Sowler slowly stirred up the remains of her grog. "I know no more +than you do. Any more questions, miss?" + +Phoebe's excitement completely blinded her to the evident signs of a +change in Mrs. Sowler's temper for the worse. She went on headlong. + +"Have you never seen the child since you gave her to the lady?" + +Mrs. Sowler set down her glass, just as she was raising it to her lips. +Jervy paused, thunderstruck, in the act of lighting a second cigar. + +_"Her?"_ Mrs. Sowler repeated slowly, her eyes fixed on Phoebe with a +lowering expression of suspicion and surprise. "Her?" She turned to +Jervy. "Did you ask me if the child was a girl or a boy?" + +"I never even thought of it," Jervy replied. + +"Did I happen to say it myself, without being asked?" + +Jervy deliberately abandoned Phoebe to the implacable old wretch, +before whom she had betrayed herself. It was the only likely way of +forcing the girl to confess everything. "No," he answered; "you never +said it without being asked." + +Mrs. Sowler turned once more to Phoebe. "How do you know the child was +a girl?" she inquired. + +Phoebe trembled, and said nothing. She sat with her head down, and her +hands, fast clasped together, resting on her lap. + +"Might I ask, if you please," Mrs. Sowler proceeded, with a ferocious +assumption of courtesy, "how old you are, miss? You're young enough and +pretty enough not to mind answering to your age, I'm sure." + +Even Jervy's villainous experience of the world failed to forewarn him +of what was coming. Phoebe, it is needless to say, instantly fell into +the trap. + +"Twenty-four," she replied, "next birthday." + +"And the child was put into my hands, sixteen years ago," said Mrs. +Sowler. "Take sixteen from twenty-four, and eight remains. I'm more +surprised than ever, miss, at your knowing it to be a girl. It couldn't +have been your child--could it?" + +Phoebe started to her feet, in a state of fury. "Do you hear that?" she +cried, appealing to Jervy. "How dare you bring me here to be insulted +by that drunken wretch?" + +Mrs. Sowler rose, on her side. The old savage snatched up her empty +glass--intending to throw it at Phoebe. At the same moment, the ready +Jervy caught her by the arm, dragged her out of the room, and shut the +door behind them. + +There was a bench on the landing outside. He pushed Mrs. Sowler down on +the bench with one hand, and took Phoebe's purse out of his pocket with +the other. "Here's a pound," he said, "towards the recovery of that +debt of yours. Go home quietly, and meet me at the door of this house +tomorrow evening, at six." + +Mrs. Sowler, opening her lips to protest, suddenly closed them again, +fascinated by the sight of the gold. She clutched the coin, and became +friendly and familiar in a moment. "Help me downstairs, deary," she +said, "and put me into a cab. I'm afraid of the night air." + +"One word more, before I put you into a cab," said Jervy. "What did you +really do with the child?" + +Mrs. Sowler grinned hideously, and whispered her reply, in the +strictest confidence. + +"Sold her to Moll Davies, for five-and-sixpence." + +"Who was Moll Davis?" + +"A cadger." + +"And you really know nothing now of Moll Davis or the child?" + +"Should I want you to help me if I did?" Mrs. Sowler asked +contemptuously. "They may be both dead and buried, for all I know to +the contrary." + +Jervy put her into the cab, without further delay. "Now for the other +one!" he said to himself, as he hurried back to the private room. + + + +CHAPTER 5 + +Some men would have found it no easy task to console Phoebe, under the +circumstances. Jervy had the immense advantage of not feeling the +slightest sympathy for her: he was in full command of his large +resources of fluent assurance and ready flattery. In less than five +minutes, Phoebe's tears were dried, and her lover had his arm round her +waist again, in the character of a cherished and forgiven man. + +"Now, my angel!" he said (Phoebe sighed tenderly; he had never called +her his angel before), "tell me all about it in confidence. Only let me +know the facts, and I shall see my way to protecting you against any +annoyance from Mrs. Sowler in the future. You have made a very +extraordinary discovery. Come closer to me, my dear girl. Did it happen +in Farnaby's house?" + +"I heard it in the kitchen," said Phoebe. + +Jervy started. "Did any one else hear it?" he asked. + +"No. They were all in the housekeeper's room, looking at the Indian +curiosities which her son in Canada had sent to her. I had left my bird +on the dresser--and I ran into the kitchen to put the cage in a safe +place, being afraid of the cat. One of the swinging windows in the +skylight was open; and I heard voices in the back room above, which is +Mrs. Farnaby's room." + +"Whose voices did you hear?" + +"Mrs. Farnaby's voice, and Mr. Goldenheart's." + +"Mrs. Farnaby?" Jervy repeated, in surprise. "Are you sure it was +_Mrs.?"_ + +"Of course I am! Do you think I don't know that horrid woman's voice? +She was saying a most extraordinary thing when I first heard her--she +was asking if there was anything wrong in showing her naked foot. And a +man answered, and the voice was Mr. Goldenheart's. You would have felt +curious to hear more, if you had been in my place, wouldn't you? I +opened the second window in the kitchen, so as to make sure of not +missing anything. And what do you think I heard her say?" + +"You mean Mrs. Farnaby?" + +"Yes. I heard her say, 'Look at my right foot--you see there's nothing +the matter with it.' And then, after a while, she said, 'Look at my +left foot--look between the third toe and the fourth.' Did you ever +hear of such a audacious thing for a married woman to say to a young +man?" + +"Go on! go on! What did _he_ say?" + +"Nothing; I suppose he was looking at her foot." + +"Her left foot?" + +"Yes. Her left foot was nothing to be proud of, I can tell you! By her +own account, she has some horrid deformity in it, between the third toe +and the fourth. No; I didn't hear her say what the deformity was. I +only heard her call it so--and she said her 'poor darling' was born +with the same fault, and that was her defence against being imposed +upon by rogues--I remember the very words--'in the past days when I +employed people to find her.' Yes! she said _'her.'_ I heard it +plainly. And she talked afterwards of her 'poor lost daughter', who +might be still living somewhere, and wondering who her mother was. +Naturally enough, when I heard that hateful old drunkard talking about +a child given to her by Mr. Farnaby, I put two and two together. Dear +me, how strangely you look! What's wrong with you?" + +"I'm only very much interested--that's all. But there's one thing I +don't understand. What had Mr. Goldenheart to do with all this?" + +"Didn't I tell you?" + +"No." + +"Well, then, I tell you now. Mrs. Farnaby is not only a heartless +wretch, who turns a poor girl out of her situation, and refuses to give +her a character--she's a fool besides. That precious exhibition of her +nasty foot was to inform Mr. Goldenheart of something she wanted him to +know. If he happened to meet with a girl, in his walks or his travels, +and if he found that she had the same deformity in the same foot, then +he might know for certain--" + +"All right! I understand. But why Mr. Goldenheart?" + +"Because she had a dream that Mr. Goldenheart had found the lost girl, +and because she thought there was one chance in a hundred that her +dream might come true! Did you ever hear of such a fool before? From +what I could make out, I believe she actually cried about it. And that +same woman turns me into the street to be ruined, for all she knows or +cares. Mind this! I would have kept her secret--it was no business of +mine, after all--if she had behaved decently to me. As it is, I mean to +be even with her; and what I heard down in the kitchen is more than +enough to help me to it. I'll expose her somehow--I don't quite know +how; but that will come with time. You will keep the secret, dear, I'm +sure. We are soon to have all our secrets in common, when we are man +and wife, ain't we? Why, you're not listening to me! What _is_ the +matter with you?" + +Jervy suddenly looked up. His soft insinuating manner had vanished; he +spoke roughly and impatiently. + +"I want to know something. Has Farnaby's wife got money of her own?" + +Phoebe's mind was still disturbed by the change in her lover. "You +speak as if you were angry with me," she said. + +Jervy recovered his insinuating tones, with some difficulty. "My dear +girl, I love you! How can I be angry with you? You've set me +thinking--and it bothers me a little, that's all. Do you happen to know +if Mrs. Farnaby has got money of her own?" + +Phoebe answered this time. "I've heard Miss Regina say that Mrs. +Farnaby's father was a rich man," she said. + +"What was his name?" + +"Ronald." + +"Do you know when he died?" + +"No." + +Jervy fell into thought again, biting his nails in great perplexity. +After a moment or two, an idea came to him. "The tombstone will tell +me!" he exclaimed, speaking to himself. He turned to Phoebe, before she +could express her surprise, and asked if she knew where Mr. Ronald was +buried. + +"Yes," said Phoebe, "I've heard that. In Highgate cemetery. But why do +you want to know?" + +Jervy looked at his watch. "It's getting late," he said; "I'll see you +safe home." + +"But I want to know--" + +"Put on your bonnet, and wait till we are out in the street." + +Jervy paid the bill, with all needful remembrance of the waiter. He was +generous, he was polite; but he was apparently in no hurry to favour +Phoebe with the explanation that he had promised. They had left the +tavern for some minutes--and he was still rude enough to remain +absorbed in his own reflections. Phoebe's patience gave way. + +"I have told you everything," she said reproachfully; "I don't call it +fair dealing to keep me in the dark after that." + +He roused himself directly. "My dear girl, you entirely mistake me!" + +The reply was as ready as usual; but it was spoken rather absently. +Only that moment, he had decided on informing Phoebe (to some extent, +at least) of the purpose which he was then meditating. He would +infinitely have preferred using Mrs. Sowler as his sole accomplice. But +he knew the girl too well to run that risk. If he refused to satisfy +her curiosity, she would be deterred by no scruples of delicacy from +privately watching him; and she might say something (either by word of +month or by writing) to the kind young mistress who was in +correspondence with her, which might lead to disastrous results. It was +of the last importance to him, so far to associate Phoebe with his +projected enterprise, as to give her an interest of her own in keeping +his secrets. + +"I have not the least wish," he resumed, "to conceal any thing from +you. So far as I can see my way at present, you shall see it too." +Reserving in this dexterous manner the freedom of lying, whenever he +found it necessary to depart from the truth, he smiled encouragingly, +and waited to be questioned. + +Phoebe repeated the inquiry she had made at the tavern. "Why do you +want to know where Mr. Ronald is buried?" she asked bluntly. + +"Mr. Ronald's tombstone, my dear, will tell me the date of Mr. Ronald's +death," Jervy rejoined. "When I have got the date, I shall go to a +place near St. Paul's, called Doctors' Commons; I shall pay a shilling +fee, and I shall have the privilege of looking at Mr. Ronald's will." + +"And what good will that do you?" + +"Very properly put, Phoebe! Even shillings are not to be wasted, in our +position. But my shilling will buy two sixpennyworths of information. I +shall find out what sum of money Mr. Ronald has left to his daughter; +and I shall know for certain whether Mrs. Farnaby's husband has any +power over it, or not." + +"Well?" said Phoebe, not much interested so far--"and what then?" + +Jervy looked about him. They were in a crowded thoroughfare at the +time. He preserved a discreet silence, until they had arrived at the +first turning which led down a quiet street. + +"What I have to tell you," he said, "must not be accidentally heard by +anybody. Here, my dear, we are all but out of the world--and here I can +speak to you safely. I promise you two good things. You shall bring +Mrs. Farnaby to that day of reckoning; and we will find money enough to +marry on comfortably as soon as you like." + +Phoebe's languid interest in the subject began to revive: she insisted +on having a clearer explanation than this. "Do you mean to get the +money out of Mr. Farnaby?" she inquired. + +"I will have nothing to do with Mr. Farnaby--unless I find that his +wife's money is not at her own disposal. What you heard in the kitchen +has altered all my plans. Wait a minute--and you will see what I am +driving at. How much do you think Mrs. Farnaby would give me, if I +found that lost daughter of hers?" + +Phoebe suddenly stood still, and looked at the sordid scoundrel who was +tempting her in blank amazement. + +"But nobody knows where the daughter is," she objected. + +"You and I know that the daughter has a deformity in her left foot," +Jervy replied; "and you and I know exactly in what part of the foot it +is. There's not only money to be made out of that knowledge--but money +made easily, without the slightest risk. Suppose I managed the matter +by correspondence, without appearing in it personally? Don't you think +Mrs. Farnaby would open her purse beforehand, if I mentioned the exact +position of that little deformity, as a proof that I was to be depended +on?" + +Phoebe was unable, or unwilling, to draw the obvious conclusion, even +now. + +"But, what would you do," she said, "when Mrs. Farnaby insisted on +seeing her daughter?" + +There was something in the girl's tone--half fearful, half +suspicious--which warned Jervy that he was treading on dangerous +ground. He knew perfectly well what he proposed to do, in the case that +had been so plainly put him. It was the simplest thing in the world. He +had only to make an appointment with Mrs. Farnaby for a meeting on a +future day, and to take to flight in the interval; leaving a polite +note behind him to say that it was all a mistake, and that he regretted +being too poor to return the money. Having thus far acknowledged the +design he had in view, could he still venture on answering his +companion without reserve? Phoebe was vain, Phoebe was vindictive; and, +more promising still, Phoebe was a fool. But she was not yet capable of +consenting to an act of the vilest infamy, in cold blood. Jervy looked +at her--and saw that the foreseen necessity for lying had come at last. + +"That's just the difficulty," he said; "that's just where I don't see +my way plainly yet. Can you advise me?" + +Phoebe started, and drew back from him. _"I_ advise you!" she +exclaimed. "It frightens me to think of it. If you make her believe she +is going to see her daughter, and if she finds out that you have robbed +and deceived her, I can tell you this--with her furious temper--you +would drive her mad." + +Jervy's reply was a model of well-acted indignation. "Don't talk of +anything so horrible," he exclaimed. "If you believe me capable of such +cruelty as that, go to Mrs. Farnaby, and warn her at once!" + +"It's too bad to speak to me in that way!" Phoebe rejoined, with the +frank impetuosity of an offended woman. "You know I would die, rather +than get you into trouble. Beg my pardon directly--or I won't walk +another step with you!" + +Jervy made the necessary apologies, with all possible humility. He had +gained his end--he could now postpone any further discussion of the +subject, without arousing Phoebe's distrust. "Let us say no more about +it, for the present," he suggested; "we will think it over, and talk of +pleasanter things in the mean time. Kiss me, my dear girl; there's +nobody looking." + +So he made peace with his sweetheart, and secured to himself, at the +same time, the full liberty of future action of which he stood in need. +If Phoebe asked any more questions, the necessary answer was obvious to +the meanest capacity. He had merely to say, "The matter is beset with +difficulties which I didn't see at first--I have given it up." + +Their nearest way back to Phoebe's lodgings took them through the +street which led to the Hampden Institution. Passing along the opposite +side of the road, they saw the private door opened. Two men stepped +out. A third man, inside, called after one of them. "Mr. Goldenheart! +you have left the statement of receipts in the waiting-room." "Never +mind," Amelius answered; "the night's receipts are so small that I +would rather not be reminded of them again." "In my country," a third +voice remarked, "if he had lectured as he has lectured to-night, I +reckon I'd have given him three hundred dollars, gold (sixty pounds, +English currency), and have made my own profit by the transaction. The +British nation has lost its taste, sir, for intellectual recreation. I +wish you good evening." + +Jervy hurried Phoebe out of the way, just as the two gentlemen were +crossing the street. He had not forgotten events at Tadmor--and he was +by no means eager to renew his former acquaintance with Amelius. + + + +CHAPTER 6 + +Rufus and his young friend walked together silently as far as a large +square. Here they stopped, having reached the point at which it was +necessary to take different directions on their way home. + +"I've a word of advice, my son, for your private ear," said the New +Englander. "The barometer behind your waistcoat points to a downhearted +state of the moral atmosphere. Come along to home with me--you want a +whisky cocktail badly." + +"No, thank you, my dear fellow," Amelius answered a little sadly. "I +own I'm downhearted, as you say. You see, I expected this lecture to be +a new opening for me. Personally, as you know, I don't care two straws +about money. But my marriage depends on my adding to my income; and the +first attempt I've made to do it has ended in a total failure. I'm all +abroad again, when I look to the future--and I'm afraid I'm fool enough +to let it weigh on my spirits. No, the cocktail isn't the right remedy +for me. I don't get the exercise and fresh air, here, that I used to +get at Tadmor. My head burns after all that talking to-night. A good +long walk will put me right, and nothing else will." + +Rufus at once offered to accompany him. Amelius shook his head. "Did +you ever walk a mile in your life, when you could ride?" he asked +good-humouredly. "I mean to be on my legs for four or five hours; I +should only have to send you home in a cab. Thank you, old fellow, for +the brotherly interest you take in me. I'll breakfast with you +to-morrow, at your hotel. Good night." + +Some curious prevision of evil seemed to trouble the mind of the good +New Englander. He held Amelius fast by the hand: he said, very +earnestly, "It goes against the grit with me to see you wandering off +by yourself at this time of night--it does, I tell you! Do me a favour +for once, my bright boy--go right away to bed." + +Amelius laughed, and released his hand. "I shouldn't sleep, if I did go +to bed. Breakfast to-morrow, at ten o'clock. Goodnight, again!" + +He started on his walk, at a pace which set pursuit on the part of +Rufus at defiance. The American stood watching him, until he was lost +to sight in the darkness. "What a grip that young fellow has got on me, +in no more than a few months!" Rufus thought, as he slowly turned away +in the direction of his hotel. "Lord send the poor boy may keep clear +of mischief this night!" + +Meanwhile, Amelius walked on swiftly, straight before him, careless in +what direction he turned his steps, so long as he felt the cool air and +kept moving. + +His thoughts were not at first occupied with the doubtful question of +his marriage; the lecture was still the uppermost subject in his mind. +He had reserved for the conclusion of his address the justification of +his view of the future, afforded by the widespread and frightful +poverty among the millions of the population of London alone. On this +melancholy theme he had spoken with the eloquence of true feeling, and +had produced a strong impression, even on those members of the audience +who were most resolutely opposed to the opinions which he advocated. +Without any undue exercise of self-esteem, he could look back on the +close of his lecture with the conviction that he had really done +justice to himself and to his cause. The retrospect of the public +discussion that had followed failed to give him the same pleasure. His +warm temper, his vehemently sincere belief in the truth of his own +convictions, placed him at a serious disadvantage towards the more +self-restrained speakers (all older than himself) who rose, one after +another, to combat his views. More than once he had lost his temper, +and had been obliged to make his apologies. More than once he had been +indebted to the ready help of Rufus, who had taken part in the battle +of words, with the generous purpose of covering his retreat. "No!" he +thought to himself, with bitter humility, "I'm not fit for public +discussions. If they put me into Parliament tomorrow, I should only get +called to order and do nothing." + +He reached the bank of the Thames, at the eastward end of the Strand. + +Walking straight on, as absently as ever, he crossed Waterloo Bridge, +and followed the broad street that lay before him on the other side. He +was thinking of the future again: Regina was in his mind now. The one +prospect that he could see of a tranquil and happy life--with duties as +well as pleasures; duties that might rouse him to find the vocation for +which he was fit--was the prospect of his marriage. What was the +obstacle that stood in his way? The vile obstacle of money; the +contemptible spirit of ostentation which forbade him to live humbly on +his own sufficient little income, and insisted that he should purchase +domestic happiness at the price of the tawdry splendour of a rich +tradesman and his friends. And Regina, who was free to follow her own +better impulses--Regina, whose heart acknowledged him as its +master--bowed before the golden image which was the tutelary deity of +her uncle's household, and said resignedly, Love must wait! + +Still walking blindly on, he was roused on a sudden to a sense of +passing events. Crossing a side-street at the moment, a man caught him +roughly by the arm, and saved him from being run over. The man had a +broom in his hand; he was a crossing-sweeper. "I think I've earned my +penny, sir!" he said. + +Amelius gave him half-a-crown. The man shouldered his broom, and tossed +up the money, in a transport of delight. "Here's something to go home +with!" he cried, as he caught the half-crown again. + +"Have you got a family at home?" Amelius asked. + +"Only one, sir," said the man. "The others are all dead. She's as good +a girl and as pretty a girl as ever put on a petticoat--though I say it +that shouldn't. Thank you kindly, sir. Good night!" + +Amelius looked after the poor fellow, happy at least for that night! +"If I had only been lucky enough to fall in love with the +crossing-sweeper's daughter," he thought bitterly, _"she_ would have +married me when I asked her." + +He looked along the street. It curved away in the distance, with no +visible limit to it. Arrived at the next side-street on his left, +Amelius turned down it, weary of walking longer in the same direction. +Whither it might lead him he neither knew nor cared. In his present +humour it was a pleasurable sensation to feel himself lost in London. + +The short street suddenly widened; a blaze of flaring gaslight dazzled +his eyes; he heard all round him the shouting of innumerable voices. For +the first time since he had been in London, he found himself in one of +the street-markets of the poor. + +On either side of the road, the barrows of the costermongers--the +wandering tradesmen of the highway--were drawn up in rows; and every +man was advertising his wares, by means of the cheap publicity of his +own voice. Fish and vegetables; pottery and writing-paper; +looking-glasses, saucepans, and coloured prints--all appealed together +to the scantily filled purses of the crowds who thronged the pavement. +One lusty vagabond stood up in a rickety donkey-cart, knee-deep in +apples, selling a great wooden measure full for a penny, and yelling +louder than all the rest. "Never was such apples sold in the public +streets before! Sweet as flowers, and sound as a bell. Who says the +poor ain't looked after," cried the fellow, with ferocious irony, "when +they can have such apple-sauce as this to their loin of pork? Here's +nobby apples; here's a penn'orth for your money. Sold again! Hullo, +you! you look hungry. Catch! there's an apple for nothing, just to +taste. Be in time, be in time before they're all sold!" Amelius moved +forward a few steps, and was half deafened by rival butchers, shouting, +"Buy, buy, buy!" to audiences of ragged women, who fingered the meat +doubtfully, with longing eyes. A little farther--and there was a blind +man selling staylaces, and singing a Psalm; and, beyond him again, a +broken-down soldier playing "God save the Queen" on a tin flageolet. +The one silent person in this sordid carnival was a Lascar beggar, with +a printed placard round his neck, addressed to "The Charitable Public." +He held a tallow candle to illuminate the copious narrative of his +misfortunes; and the one reader he obtained was a fat man, who +scratched his head, and remarked to Amelius that he didn't like +foreigners. Starving boys and girls lurked among the costermongers' +barrows, and begged piteously on pretence of selling cigar-lights and +comic songs. Furious women stood at the doors of public-houses, and +railed on their drunken husbands for spending the house-money in gin. A +thicker crowd, towards the middle of the street, poured in and out at +the door of a cookshop. Here the people presented a less terrible +spectacle--they were even touching to see. These were the patient poor, +who bought hot morsels of sheep's heart and liver at a penny an ounce, +with lamentable little mouthfuls of peas-pudding, greens, and potatoes +at a halfpenny each. Pale children in corners supped on penny basins of +soup, and looked with hungry admiration at their enviable neighbours +who could afford to buy stewed eels for twopence. Everywhere there was +the same noble resignation to their hard fate, in old and young alike. +No impatience, no complaints. In this wretched place, the language of +true gratitude was still to be heard, thanking the good-natured cook +for a little spoonful of gravy thrown in for nothing--and here, humble +mercy that had its one superfluous halfpenny to spare gave that +halfpenny to utter destitution, and gave it with right good-will. +Amelius spent all his shillings and sixpences, in doubling and trebling +the poor little pennyworths of food--and left the place with tears in +his eyes. + +He was near the end of the street by this time. The sight of the misery +about him, and the sense of his own utter inability to remedy it, +weighed heavily on his spirits. He thought of the peaceful and +prosperous life at Tadmor. Were his happy brethren of the Community and +these miserable people about him creatures of the same all-merciful +God? The terrible doubts which come to all thinking men--the doubts +which are not to be stifled by crying "Oh, fie!" in a pulpit--rose +darkly in his mind. He quickened his pace. "Let me let out of it," he +said to himself, "let me get out of it!" + + + +BOOK THE SIXTH + +FILIA DOLOROSA + +CHAPTER 1 + +Amelius found it no easy matter to pass quickly through the people +loitering and gossiping about him. There was greater freedom for a +rapid walker in the road. He was on the point of stepping off the +pavement, when a voice behind him--a sweet soft voice, though it spoke +very faintly--said, "Are you good-natured, sir?" + +He turned, and found himself face to face with one of the saddest +sisterhood on earth--the sisterhood of the streets. + +His heart ached as he looked at her, she was so poor and so young. The +lost creature had, to all appearance, barely passed the boundary +between childhood and girlhood--she could hardly be more than fifteen +or sixteen years old. Her eyes, of the purest and loveliest blue, +rested on Amelius with a vacantly patient look, like the eyes of a +suffering child. The soft oval outline of her face would have been +perfect if the cheeks had been filled out; they were wasted and hollow, +and sadly pale. Her delicate lips had none of the rosy colour of youth; +and her finely modelled chin was disfigured by a piece of plaster +covering some injury. She was little and thin; her worn and scanty +clothing showed her frail youthful figure still waiting for its +perfection of growth. Her pretty little bare hands were reddened by the +raw night air. She trembled as Amelius looked at her in silence, with +compassionate wonder. But for the words in which she had accosted him, +it would have been impossible to associate her with the lamentable life +that she led. The appearance of the girl was artlessly virginal and +innocent; she looked as if she had passed through the contamination of +the streets without being touched by it, without fearing it, or feeling +it, or understanding it. Robed in pure white, with her gentle blue eyes +raised to heaven, a painter might have shown her on his canvas as a +saint or an angel; and the critical world would have said, Here is the +true ideal--Raphael himself might have painted this! + +"You look very pale," said Amelius. "Are you ill?" + +"No, sir--only hungry." + +Her eyes half closed; she reeled from sheer weakness as she said the +words. Amelius held her up, and looked round him. They were close to a +stall at which coffee and slices of bread-and-butter were sold. He +ordered some coffee to be poured out, and offered her the food. She +thanked him and tried to eat. "I can't help it, sir," she said faintly. +The bread dropped from her hand; her weary head sank on his shoulder. + +Two young women--older members of the sad sisterhood--were passing at +the moment. "She's too far gone, sir, to eat," said one of them. "I +know what would do her good, if you don't mind going into a +public-house." + +"Where is it?" said Amelius. "Be quick!" + +One of the women led the way. The other helped Amelius to support the +girl. They entered the crowded public-house. In less than a minute, the +first woman had forced her way through the drunken customers at the +bar, and had returned with a glass of port-wine and cloves. The girl +revived as the stimulant passed her lips. She opened her innocent blue +eyes again, in vague surprise. "I shan't die this time," she said +quietly. + +A corner of the place was not occupied; a small empty cask stood there. +Amelius made the poor creature sit down and rest a little. He had only +gold in his purse; and, when the woman had paid for the wine, he +offered her some of the change. She declined to take it. "I've got a +shilling or two, sir," she said; "and I can take care of myself. Give +it to Simple Sally." + +"You'll save her a beating, sir, for one night at least," said the +other woman. "We call her Simple Sally, because she's a little soft, +poor soul--hasn't grown up, you know, in her mind, since she was a +child. Give her some of your change, sir, and you'll be doing a kind +thing." + +All that is most unselfish, all that is most divinely compassionate and +self-sacrificing in a woman's nature, was as beautiful and as undefiled +as ever in these women--the outcasts of the hard highway! + +Amelius turned to the girl. Her head had sunk on her bosom; she was +half asleep. She looked up as he approached her. + +"Would you have been beaten to-night," he asked, "if you had not met +with me?" + +"Father always beats me, sir," said Simple Sally, "if I don't bring +money home. He threw a knife at me last night. It didn't hurt much--it +only cut me here," said the girl, pointing to the plaster on her chin. + +One of the women touched Amelius on the shoulder, and whispered to him. +"He's no more her father, sir, than I am. She's a helpless +creature--and he takes advantage of her. If I only had a place to take +her to, he should never set eyes on her again. Show the gentleman your +bosom, Sally." + +She opened her poor threadbare little shawl. Over the lovely girlish +breast, still only growing to the rounded beauty of womanhood, there +was a hideous blue-black bruise. Simple Sally smiled, and said, "That +_did_ hurt me, sir. I'd rather have the knife." + +Some of the nearest drinkers at the bar looked round and laughed. +Amelius tenderly drew the shawl over the girl's cold bosom. "For God's +sake, let us get away from this place!" he said. + +The influence of the cool night air completed Simple Sally's recovery. +She was able to eat now. Amelius proposed retracing his steps to the +provision-shop, and giving her the best food that the place afforded. +She preferred the bread-and-butter at the coffee-stall. Those thick +slices, piled up on the plate, tempted her as a luxury. On trying the +luxury, one slice satisfied her. "I thought I was hungry enough to eat +the whole plateful," said the girl, turning away from the stall, in the +vacantly submissive manner which it saddened Amelius to see. He bought +more of the bread-and-butter, on the chance that her appetite might +revive. While he was wrapping it in a morsel of paper, one of her elder +companions touched him and whispered, "There he is, sir!" Amelius +looked at her. "The brute who calls himself her father," the woman +explained impatiently. + +Amelius turned, and saw Simple Sally with her arm in the grasp of a +half-drunken ruffian; one of the swarming wild beasts of Low London, +dirtied down from head to foot to the colour of the street mud--the +living danger and disgrace of English civilization. As Amelius eyed +him, he drew the girl away a step or two. "You've got a gentleman this +time," he said to her; "I shall expect gold to-night, or else--!" He +finished the sentence by lifting his monstrous fist, and shaking it in +her face. Cautiously as he had lowered his tones in speaking, the words +had reached the keenly sensitive ears of Amelius. Urged by his hot +temper, he sprang forward. In another moment, he would have knocked the +brute down--but for the timely interference of the arm of the law, clad +in a policeman's great-coat. "Don't get yourself into trouble, sir," +said the man good-humouredly. "Now, you Hell-fire (that's the nice name +they know him by, sir, in these parts), be off with you!" The wild +beast on two legs cowered at the voice of authority, like the wild +beast on four: he was lost to sight, at the dark end of the street, in +a moment. + +"I saw him threaten her with his fist," said Amelius, his eyes still +aflame with indignation. "He has bruised her frightfully on the breast. +Is there no protection for the poor creature?" + +"Well, sir," the policeman answered, "you can summon him if you like. I +dare say he'd get a month's hard labour. But, don't you see, it would +be all the worse for her when he came out of prison." + +The policeman's view of the girl's position was beyond dispute. Amelius +turned to her gently; she was shivering with cold or terror, perhaps +with both. "Tell me," he said, "is that man really your father?" + +"Lord bless you, sir!" interposed the policeman, astonished at the +gentleman's simplicity, "Simple Sally hasn't got father or mother--have +you, my girl?" + +She paid no heed to the policeman. The sorrow and sympathy, plainly +visible in Amelius, filled her with a childish interest and surprise. +She dimly understood that it was sorrow and sympathy for _her._ The +bare idea of distressing this new friend, so unimaginably kind and +considerate, seemed to frighten her. "Don't fret about _me,_ sir," she +said timidly; "I don't mind having no father nor mother; I don't mind +being beaten." She appealed to the nearest of her two women-friends. +"We get used to everything, don't we, Jenny?" + +Amelius could bear no more. "It's enough to break one's heart to hear +you, and see you!" he burst out--and suddenly turned his head aside. +His generous nature was touched to the quick; he could only control +himself by an effort of resolution that shook him, body and soul. "I +can't and won't let that unfortunate creature go back to be beaten and +starved!" he said, passionately addressing himself to the policeman. +"Oh, look at her! How helpless, and how young!" + +The policeman stared. These were strange words to him. But all true +emotion carries with it, among all true people, its own title to +respect. He spoke to Amelius with marked respect. + +"It's a hard case, sir, no doubt," he said. "The girl's a quiet, +well-disposed creature--and the other two there are the same. They're +of the sort that keep to themselves, and don't drink. They all of them +do well enough, as long as they don't let the liquor overcome them. +Half the time it's the men's fault when they do drink. Perhaps the +workhouse might take her in for the night. What's this you've got girl, +in your hand? Money?" + +Amelius hastened to say that he had given her the money. "The +workhouse!" he repeated. "The very sound of it is horrible." + +"Make your mind easy, sir," said the policeman; "they won't take her in +at the workhouse, with money in her hand." + +In sheer despair, Amelius asked helplessly if there was no hotel near. +The policeman pointed to Simple Sally's threadbare and scanty clothes, +and left them to answer the question for themselves. "There's a place +they call a coffee-house," he said, with the air of a man who thought +he had better provoke as little further inquiry on that subject as +possible. + +Too completely pre-occupied, or too innocent in the ways of London, to +understand the man, Amelius decided on trying the coffee-house. A +suspicious old woman met them at the door, and spied the policeman in +the background. Without waiting for any inquiries, she said, "All full +for to-night,"--and shut the door in their faces. + +"Is there no other place?" said Amelius. + +"There's a lodging-house," the policeman answered, more doubtfully than +ever. "It's getting late, sir; and I'm afraid you'll find 'em packed +like herrings in a barrel. Come, and see for yourself." + +He led the way into a wretchedly lighted by-street, and knocked with +his foot on a trap-door in the pavement. The door was pushed open from +below, by a sturdy boy with a dirty night-cap on his head. + +"Any of 'em wanted to-night, sir?" asked the sturdy boy, the moment he +saw the policeman. + +"What does he mean?" said Amelius. + +"There's a sprinkling of thieves among them, sir," the policeman +explained. "Stand out of the way, Jacob, and let the gentleman look +in." + +He produced his lantern, and directed the light downwards, as he spoke. +Amelius looked in. The policeman's figure of speech, likening the +lodgers to "herrings in a barrel," accurately described the scene. On +the floor of a kitchen, men, women, and children lay all huddled +together in closely packed rows. Ghastly faces rose terrified out of +the seething obscurity, when the light of the lantern fell on them. The +stench drove Amelius back, sickened and shuddering. + +"How's the sore place on your head, Jacob?" the policeman inquired. +"This is a civil boy," he explained to Amelius, "and I like to +encourage him." + +"I'm getting better, sir, as fast as I can," said the boy. + +"Good night, Jacob." + +"Good night, sir." The trap-door fell--and the lodging-house +disappeared like the vision of a frightful dream. + +There was a moment of silence among the little group on the pavement. +It was not easy to solve the question of what to do next. "There seems +to be some difficulty," the policeman remarked, "about housing this +girl for the night." + +"Why shouldn't we take her along with us?" one of the women suggested. +"She won't mind sleeping three in a bed, I know." + +"What are you thinking of?" the other woman remonstrated. "When he +finds she don't come home, our place will be the first place he looks +for her in." + +Amelius settled the difficulty, in his own headlong way, "I'll take +care of her for the night," he said. "Sally, will you trust yourself +with me?" + +She put her hand in his, with the air of a child who was ready to go +home. Her wan face brightened for the first time. "Thank you, sir," she +said; "I'll go anywhere along with you." + +The policeman smiled. The two women looked thunderstruck. Before they +had recovered themselves, Amelius forced them to take some money from +him, and cordially shook hands with them. "You're good creatures," he +said, in his eager, hearty way; "I'm sincerely sorry for you. Now, Mr. +Policeman, show me where to find a cab--and take that for the trouble I +am giving you. You're a humane man, and a credit to the force." + +In five minutes more, Amelius was on the way to his lodgings, with +Simple Sally by his side. The act of reckless imprudence which he was +committing was nothing but an act of Christian duty, to his mind. Not +the slightest misgiving troubled him. "I shall provide for her in some +way!" he thought to himself cheerfully. He looked at her. The weary +outcast was asleep already in her corner of the cab. From time to time +she still shivered, even in her sleep. Amelius took off his great-coat, +and covered her with it. How some of his friends at the club would have +laughed, if they had seen him at that moment! + +He was obliged to wake her when the cab stopped. His key admitted them +to the house. He lit his candle in the hall, and led her up the stairs. +"You'll soon be asleep again, Sally," he whispered. + +She looked round the little sitting-room with drowsy admiration. "What +a pretty place to live in!" she said. + +"Are you hungry again?" Amelius asked. + +She shook her head, and took off her shabby bonnet; her pretty +light-brown hair fell about her face and her shoulders. "I think I'm +too tired, sir, to be hungry. Might I take the sofa-pillow, and lay +down on the hearth-rug?" + +Amelius opened the door of his bedroom. "You are to pass the night more +comfortably than that," he answered. "There is a bed for you here." + +She followed him in, and looked round the bedroom, with renewed +admiration of everything that she saw. At the sight of the hairbrushes +and the comb, she clapped her hands in ecstasy. "Oh, how different from +mine!" she exclaimed. "Is the comb tortoise-shell, sir, like one sees +in the shop-windows?" The bath and the towels attracted her next; she +stood, looking at them with longing eyes, completely forgetful of the +wonderful comb. "I've often peeped into the ironmongers' shops," she +said, "and thought I should be the happiest girl in the world, if I had +such a bath as that. A little pitcher is all I have got of my own, and +they swear at me when I want it filled more than once. In all my life, +I have never had as much water as I should like." She paused, and +thought for a moment. The forlorn, vacant look appeared again, and +dimmed the beauty of her blue eyes. "It will be hard to go back, after +seeing all these pretty things," she said to herself--and sighed, with +that inborn submission to her fate so melancholy to see in a creature +so young. + +"You shall never go back again to that dreadful life," Amelius +interposed. "Never speak of it, never think of it any more. Oh, don't +look at me like that!" + +She was listening with an expression of pain, and with both her hands +lifted to her head. There was something so wonderful in the idea which +he had suggested to her, that her mind was not able to take it all in +at once. "You make my head giddy," she said. "I'm such a poor stupid +girl--I feel out of myself, like, when a gentleman like you sets me +thinking of new things. Would you mind saying it again, sir?" + +"I'll say it to-morrow morning," Amelius rejoined kindly. "You are +tired, Sally--go to rest." + +She roused herself, and looked at the bed. "Is that your bed, sir?" + +"It's your bed to-night," said Amelius. "I shall sleep on the sofa, in +the next room." + +Her eyes rested on him, for a moment, in speechless surprise; she +looked back again at the bed. "Are you going to leave me by myself?" +she asked wonderingly. Not the faintest suggestion of immodesty-- +nothing that the most profligate man living could have interpreted +impurely--showed itself in her look or manner, as she said those words. + +Amelius thought of what one of her women-friends had told him. "She +hasn't grown up, you know, in her mind, since she was a child." There +were other senses in the poor victim that were still undeveloped, +besides the mental sense. He was at a loss how to answer her, with the +respect which was due to that all-atoning ignorance. His silence amazed +and frightened her. + +"Have I said anything to make you angry with me?" she asked. + +Amelius hesitated no longer. "My poor girl," he said, "I pity you from +the bottom of my heart! Sleep well, Simple Sally--sleep well." He left +her hurriedly, and shut the door between them. + +She followed him as far as the closed door; and stood there alone, +trying to understand him, and trying all in vain! After a while, she +found courage enough to whisper through the door. "If you please, +sir--" She stopped, startled by her own boldness. He never heard her; +he was standing at the window, looking out thoughtfully at the night; +feeling less confident of the future already. She still stood at the +door, wretched in the firm persuasion that she had offended him. Once +she lifted her hand to knock at the door, and let it drop again at her +side. A second time she made the effort, and desperately summoned the +resolution to knock. He opened the door directly. + +"I'm very sorry if I said anything wrong," she began faintly, her +breath coming and going in quick hysteric gasps. "Please forgive me, +and wish me good night." Amelius took her hand; he said good night with +the utmost gentleness, but he said it sorrowfully. She was not quite +comforted yet. "Would you mind, sir--?" She paused awkwardly, afraid to +go on. There was something so completely childlike in the artless +perplexity of her eyes, that Amelius smiled. The change in his +expression gave her back her courage in an instant; her pale delicate +lips reflected his smile prettily. "Would you mind giving me a kiss, +sir?" she said. Amelius kissed her. Let the man who can honestly say he +would have done otherwise, blame him. He shut the door between them +once more. She was quite happy now. He heard her singing to herself as +she got ready for bed. + +Once, in the wakeful watches of the night, she startled him. He heard a +cry of pain or terror in the bedroom. "What is it?" he asked through +the door; "what has frightened you?" There was no answer. After a +minute or two, the cry was repeated. He opened the door, and looked in. +She was sleeping, and dreaming as she slept. One little thin white arm +was lifted in the air, and waved restlessly to and fro over her head. +"Don't kill me!" she murmured, in low moaning tones--"oh, don't kill +me!" Amelius took her arm gently, and laid it back on the coverlet of +the bed. His touch seemed to exercise some calming influence over her: +she sighed, and turned her head on the pillow; a faint flush rose on +her wasted cheeks, and passed away again--she sank quietly into +dreamless sleep. + +Amelius returned to his sofa, and fell into a broken slumber. The hours +of the night passed. The sad light of the November morning dawned +mistily through the uncurtained window, and woke him. + +He started up, and looked at the bedroom door. "Now what is to be +done?" That was his first thought, on waking: he was beginning to feel +his responsibilities at last. + + +CHAPTER 2 + +The landlady of the lodgings decided what was to be done. + +"You will be so good, sir, as to leave my apartments immediately," she +said to Amelius. "I make no claim to the week's rent, in consideration +of the short notice. This is a respectable house, and it shall be kept +respectable at any sacrifice." + +Amelius explained and protested; he appealed to the landlady's sense of +justice and sense of duty, as a Christian woman. + +The reasoning which would have been irresistible at Tadmor was +reasoning completely thrown away in London. The landlady remained as +impenetrable as the Egyptian Sphinx. "If that creature in the bedroom +is not out of my house in an hour's time, I shall send for the police." +Having answered her lodger's arguments in those terms, she left the +room, and banged the door after her. + +"Thank you, sir, for being so kind to me. I'll go away directly--and +then, perhaps, the lady will forgive you." + +Amelius looked round. Simple Sally had heard it all. She was dressed in +her wretched clothes, and was standing at the open bedroom door, +crying, + +"Wait a little," said Amelius, wiping her eyes with his own +handkerchief; "and we will go away together. I want to get you some +better clothes; and I don't exactly know how to set about it. Don't +cry, my dear--don't cry." + +The deaf maid-of-all-work came in, as he spoke. She too was in tears. +Amelius had been good to her, in many little ways--and she was the +guilty person who had led to the discovery in the bedroom. "If you had +only told me, sir," she said pentitently, "I'd have kep' it secret. +But, there, I went in with your 'ot water, as usual, and, O Lor', I was +that startled I dropped the jug, and run downstairs again--!" + +Amelius stopped the further progress of the apology. "I don't blame +you, Maria," he said; "I'm in a difficulty. Help me out of it; and you +will do me a kindness." + +Maria partially heard him, and no more. Afraid of reaching the +landlady's ears, as well as the maid's ears, if he raised his voice, he +asked if she could read writing. Yes, she could read writing, if it was +plain. Amelius immediately reduced the expression of his necessities to +writing, in large text. Maria was delighted. She knew the nearest shop +at which ready-made outer clothing for women could be obtained, and +nothing was wanted, as a certain guide to an ignorant man, but two +pieces of string. With one piece, she measured Simple Sally's height, +and with the other she took the slender girth of the girl's +waist--while Amelius opened his writing-desk, and supplied himself with +the last sum of spare money that he possessed. He had just closed the +desk again, when the voice of the merciless landlady was heard, calling +imperatively for Maria. + +The maid-of-all-work handed the two indicative strings to Amelius. +"They'll 'elp you at the shop," she said--and shuffled out of the room. + +Amelius turned to Simple Sally. "I am going to get you some new +clothes," he began. + +The girl stopped him there: she was incapable of listening to a word +more. Every trace of sorrow vanished from her face in an instant. She +clapped her hands. "Oh!" she cried, "new clothes! clean clothes! Let me +go with you." + +Even Amelius saw that it was impossible to take her out in the streets +with him in broad daylight, dressed as she was then. "No, no," he said, +"wait here till you get your new things. I won't be half an hour gone. +Lock yourself in if you're afraid, and open the door to nobody till I +come back!" + +Sally hesitated; she began to look frightened. + +"Think of the new dress, and the pretty bonnet," suggested Amelius, +speaking unconsciously in the tone in which he might have promised a +toy to a child. + +He had taken the right way with her. Her face brightened again. "I'll +do anything you tell me," she said. + +He put the key in her hand, and was out in the street directly. + +Amelius possessed one valuable moral quality which is exceedingly rare +among Englishmen. He was not in the least ashamed of putting himself in +a ridiculous position, when he was conscious that his own motives +justified him. The smiling and tittering of the shop-women, when he +stated the nature of his errand, and produced his two pieces of string, +failed to annoy him in the smallest degree. He laughed too. "Funny, +isn't it," he said, "a man like me buying gowns and the rest of it? She +can't come herself--and you'll advise me, like good creatures, won't +you?" They advised their handsome young customer to such good purpose, +that he was in possession of a gray walking costume, a black cloth +jacket, a plain lavender-coloured bonnet, a pair of black gloves, and a +paper of pins, in little more than ten minutes' time. The nearest +trunk-maker supplied a travelling-box to hold all these treasures; and +a passing cab took Amelius back to his lodgings, just as the half-hour +was out. But one event had happened during his absence. The landlady +had knocked at the door, had called through it in a terrible voice, +"Half an hour more!" and had retired again without waiting for an +answer. + +Amelius carried the box into the bedroom. "Be as quick as you can, +Sally," he said--and left her alone, to enjoy the full rapture of +discovering the new clothes. + +When she opened the door and showed herself, the change was so +wonderful that Amelius was literally unable to speak to her. Joy +flushed her pale cheeks, and diffused its tender radiance over her pure +blue eyes. A more charming little creature, in that momentary +transfiguration of pride and delight, no man's eyes ever looked on. She +ran across the room to Amelius, and threw her arms round his neck. "Let +me be your servant!" she cried; "I want to live with you all my life. +Jump me up! I'm wild--I want to fly through the window." She caught +sight of herself in the looking-glass, and suddenly became composed and +serious. "Oh," she said, with the quaintest mixture of awe and +astonishment, "was there ever such another bonnet as this? Do look at +it--do please look at it!" + +Amelius good-naturedly approached to look at it. At the same moment the +sitting-room door was opened, without any preliminary ceremony of +knocking--and Rufus walked into the room. "It's half after ten," he +said, "and the breakfast is spoiling as fast as it can." + +Before Amelius could make his excuses for having completely forgotten +his engagement, Rufus discovered Sally. No woman, young or old, high in +rank or low in rank, ever found the New Englander unprepared with his +own characteristic acknowledgment of the debt of courtesy which he owed +to the sex. With his customary vast strides, he marched up to Sally and +insisted on shaking hands with her. "How do you find yourself, miss? I +take pleasure in making your acquaintance." The girl turned to Amelius +with wide-eyed wonder and doubt. "Go into the next room, Sally, for a +minute or two," he said. "This gentleman is a friend of mine, and I +have something to say to him." + +"That's an _active_ little girl," said Rufus, looking after her as she +ran to the friendly shelter of the bedroom. "Reminds me of one of our +girls at Coolspring--she does. Well, now, and who may Sally be?" + +Amelius answered the question, as usual, without the slightest reserve. +Rufus waited in impenetrable silence until he had completed his +narrative--then took him gently by the arm, and led him to the window. +With his hands in his pockets and his long legs planted wide apart on +his big feet, the American carefully studied the face of his young +friend under the strongest light that could fall on it. + +"No," said Rufus, speaking quietly to himself, "the boy is not raving +mad, so far as I can see. He has every appearance on him of meaning +what he says. And this is what comes of the Community of Tadmor, is it? +Well, civil and religious liberty is dearly purchased sometimes in the +United States--and that's a fact." + +Amelius turned away to pack his portmanteau. "I don't understand you," +he said. + +"I don't suppose you do," Rufus remarked. "I am at a similar loss +myself to understand _you._ My store of sensible remarks is copious on +most occasions--but I'm darned if I ain't dried up in the face of this! +Might I venture to ask what that venerable Chief Christian at Tadmor +would say to the predicament in which I find my young Socialist this +morning?" + +"What would he say?" Amelius repeated. "Just what he said when +Mellicent first came among us. 'Ah, dear me! Another of the Fallen +Leaves!' I wish I had the dear old man here to help me. _He_ would know +how to restore that poor starved, outraged, beaten creature to the +happy place on God's earth which God intended her to fill!" + +Rufus abruptly took him by the hand. "You mean that?" he said. + +"What else could I mean?" Amelius rejoined sharply. + +"Bring her right away to breakfast at the hotel!" cried Rufus, with +every appearance of feeling infinitely relieved. "I don't say I can +supply you with the venerable Chief Christian--but I can find a woman +to fix you, who is as nigh to being an angel, barring the wings, as any +she-creature since the time of mother Eve." He knocked at the bedroom +door, turning a deaf ear to every appeal for further information which +Amelius could address to him. "Breakfast is waiting, miss!" he called +out; "and I'm bound to tell you that the temper of the cook at our +hotel is a long way on the wrong side of uncertain. Well, Amelius, this +is the age of exhibition. If there's ever an exhibition of ignorance in +the business of packing a portmanteau, you run for the Gold Medal--and +a unanimous jury will vote it, I reckon, to a young man from Tadmor. +Clear out, will you, and leave it to me." + +He pulled off his coat, and conquered the difficulties of packing in a +hurry, as if he had done nothing else all his life. The landlady +herself, appearing with pitiless punctuality exactly at the expiration +of the hour, "smoothed her horrid front" in the polite and placable +presence of Rufus. He insisted on shaking hands with her; he took +pleasure in making her acquaintance; she reminded him, he did assure +her, of the lady of the captain-general of the Coolspring Branch of the +St. Vitus Commandery; and he would take the liberty to inquire whether +they were related or not. Under cover of this fashionable conversation, +Simple Sally was taken out of the room by Amelius without attracting +notice. She insisted on carrying her threadbare old clothes away with +her in the box which had contained the new dress. "I want to look at +them sometimes," she said, "and think how much better off I am now." +Rufus was the last to take his departure; he persisted in talking to +the landlady all the way down the stairs and out to the street door. + +While Amelius was waiting for his friend on the house-steps, a young +man driving by in a cab leaned out and looked at him. The young man was +Jervy, on his way from Mr. Ronald's tombstone to Doctors' Commons. + + +CHAPTER 3 + +With a rapid succession of events the morning had begun. With a rapid +succession of events the day went on. + +The breakfast being over, rooms at the hotel were engaged by Rufus for +his "two young friends." After this, the next thing to be done was to +provide Simple Sally with certain necessary, but invisible, articles of +clothing, which Amelius had never thought of. A note to the nearest +shop produced the speedy arrival of a smart lady, accompanied by a boy +and a large basket. There was some difficulty in persuading Sally to +trust herself alone in her room with the stranger. She was afraid, poor +soul, of everybody but Amelius. Even the good American failed to win +her confidence. The distrust implanted in her feeble mind by the +terrible life that she had led, was the instinctive distrust of a wild +animal. "Why must I go among other people?" she whispered piteously to +Amelius. "I only want to be with You!" It was as completely useless to +reason with her as it would have been to explain the advantages of a +comfortable cage to a newly caught bird. There was but one way of +inducing her to submit to the most gently exerted interference. Amelius +had only to say, "Do it, Sally, to please me." And Sally sighed, and +did it. + +In her absence Amelius reiterated his inquiries, in relation to that +unknown friend whom Rufus had not scrupled to describe as "an +angel--barring the wings." + +The lady in question, the American briefly explained, was an +Englishwoman--the wife of one of his countrymen, established in London +as a merchant. He had known them both intimately before their departure +from the United States; and the old friendship had been cordially +renewed on his arrival in England. Associated with many other +charitable institutions, Mrs. Payson was one of the managing committee +of a "Home for Friendless Women," especially adapted to receive poor +girls in Sally's melancholy position. Rufus offered to write a note to +Mrs. Payson; inquiring at what hour she could receive his friend and +himself, and obtain permission for them to see the "Home." Amelius, +after some hesitation, accepted the proposal. The messenger had not +been long despatched with the note before the smart person from the +shop made her appearance once more, reporting that "the young lady's +outfit had been perfectly arranged," and presenting the inevitable +result in the shape of a bill. The last farthing of ready money in the +possession of Amelius proved to be insufficient to discharge the debt. +He accepted a loan from Rufus, until he could give his bankers the +necessary order to sell out some of his money invested in the Funds. +His answer, when Rufus protested against this course, was +characteristic of the teaching which he owed to the Community. "My dear +fellow, I am bound to return the money you have lent to me--in the +interests of our poor brethren. The next friend who borrows of you may +not have the means of paying you back." + +After waiting for the return of Simple Sally, and waiting in vain, +Amelius sent a chambermaid to her room, with a message to her. Rufus +disapproved of this hasty proceeding. "Why disturb the girl at her +looking-glass?" asked the old bachelor, with his quaintly humorous +smile. + +Sally came in with no bright pleasure in her eyes this time; the girl +looked worn and haggard. She drew Amelius away into a corner, and +whispered to him. "I get a pain sometimes where the bruise is," she +said; "and I've got it bad, now." She glanced, with an odd furtive +jealousy, at Rufus. "I kept away from you," she explained, "because I +didn't want _him_ to know." She stopped, and put her hand on her bosom, +and clenched her teeth fast. "Never mind," she said cheerfully, as the +pang passed away again; "I can bear it." + +Amelius, acting on impulse, as usual, instantly ordered the most +comfortable carriage that the hotel possessed. He had heard terrible +stories of the possible result of an injury to a woman's bosom. "I +shall take her to the best doctor in London," he announced. Sally +whispered to him again--still with her eye on Rufus. "Is _he_ going +with us?" she asked. "No," said Amelius; "one of us must stay here to +receive a message." Rufus looked after them very gravely, as the two +left the room together. + +Applying for information to the mistress of the hotel, Amelius obtained +the address of a consulting surgeon of great celebrity, while Sally was +getting ready to go out. + +"Why don't you like my good friend upstairs?" he said to the girl as +they drove away from the house. The answer came swift and straight from +the heart of the daughter of Eve. "Because _you_ like him!" Amelius +changed the subject: he asked if she was still in pain. She shook her +head impatiently. Pain or no pain, the uppermost idea in her mind was +still that idea of being his servant, which had already found +expression in words before they left the lodgings. "Will you let me +keep my beautiful new dress for going out on Sundays?" she asked. "The +shabby old things will do when I am your servant. I can black your +boots, and brush your clothes, and keep your room tidy--and I will try +hard to learn, if you will have me taught to cook." Amelius attempted +to change the subject again. He might as well have talked to her in an +unknown tongue. The glorious prospect of being his servant absorbed the +whole of her attention. "I'm little and I'm stupid," she went on; "but +I do think I could learn to cook, if I knew I was doing it for _You."_ +She paused, and looked at him anxiously. "Do let me try!" she pleaded; +"I haven't had much pleasure in my life--and I should like it so!" It +was impossible to resist this. "You shall be as happy as I can make +you, Sally," Amelius answered; "God knows it isn't much you ask for!" + +Something in those compassionate words set her thinking in another +direction. It was sad to see how slowly and painfully she realized the +idea that had been suggested to her. + +"I wonder whether you _can_ make me happy?" she said. "I suppose I have +been happy before this--but I don't know when. I don't remember a time +when I was not hungry or cold. Wait a bit. I do think I _was_ happy +once. It was a long while ago, and it took me a weary time to do +it--but I did learn at last to play a tune on the fiddle. The old man +and his wife took it in turns to teach me. Somebody gave me to the old +man and his wife; I don't know who it was, and I don't remember their +names. They were musicians. In the fine streets they sang hymns, and in +the poor streets they sang comic songs. It was cold, to be sure, +standing barefoot on the pavement--but I got plenty of halfpence. The +people said I was so little it was a shame to send me out, and so I got +halfpence. I had bread and apples for supper, and a nice little corner +under the staircase, to sleep in. Do you know, I do think I did enjoy +myself at that time," she concluded, still a little doubtful whether +those faint and far-off remembrances were really to be relied on. + +Amelius tried to lead her to other recollections. He asked her how old +she was when she played the fiddle. + +"I don't know," she answered; "I don't know how old I am now. I don't +remember anything before the fiddle. I can't call to mind how long it +was first--but there came a time when the old man and his wife got into +trouble. They went to prison, and I never saw them afterwards. I ran +away with the fiddle; to get the halfpence, you know, all to myself. I +think I should have got a deal of money, if it hadn't been for the +boys. They're so cruel, the boys are. They broke my fiddle. I tried +selling pencils after that; but people didn't seem to want pencils. +They found me out begging. I got took up, and brought before the +what-do-you-call-him--the gentleman who sits in a high place, you know, +behind a desk. Oh, but I was frightened, when they took me before the +gentleman! He looked very much puzzled. He says, 'Bring her up here; +she's so small I can hardly see her.' He says, 'Good God! what am I to +do with this unfortunate child?' There was plenty of people about. One +of them says, 'The workhouse ought to take her.' And a lady came in, +and she says, 'I'll take her, sir, if you'll let me.' And he knew her, +and he let her. She took me to a place they called a Refuge--for +wandering children, you know. It was very strict at the Refuge. They +did give us plenty to eat, to be sure, and they taught us lessons. They +told us about Our Father up in Heaven. I said a wrong thing--I said, 'I +don't want him up in Heaven; I want him down here.' They were very much +ashamed of me when I said that. I was a bad girl; I turned ungrateful. +After a time, I ran away. You see, it was so strict, and I was so used +to the streets. I met with a Scotchman in the streets. He wore a kilt, +and played the pipes; he taught me to dance, and dressed me up like a +Scotch girl. He had a curious wife, a sort of half-black woman. She +used to dance too--on a bit of carpet, you know, so as not to spoil her +fine shoes. They taught me songs; he taught me a Scotch song. And one +day his wife said _she_ was English (I don't know how that was, being a +half-black woman), and I should learn an English song. And they +quarrelled about it. And she had her way. She taught me 'Sally in our +Alley'. That's how I come to be called Sally. I hadn't any name of my +own--I always had nicknames. Sally was the last of them, and Sally has +stuck to me. I hope it isn't too common a name to please you? Oh, what +a fine house! Are we really going in? Will they let _me_ in? How stupid +I am! I forgot my beautiful clothes. You won't tell them, will you, if +they take me for a lady?" + +The carriage had stopped at the great surgeon's house: the waiting-room +was full of patients. Some of them were trying to read the books and +newspapers on the table; and some of them were looking at each other, +not only without the slightest sympathy, but occasionally even with +downright distrust and dislike. Amelius took up a newspaper, and gave +Sally an illustrated book to amuse her, while they waited to see the +Surgeon in their turn. + +Two long hours passed, before the servant summoned Amelius to the +consulting-room. Sally was wearily asleep in her chair. He left her +undisturbed, having questions to put relating to the imperfectly +developed state of her mind, which could not be asked in her presence. +The surgeon listened, with no ordinary interest, to the young +stranger's simple and straightforward narrative of what had happened on +the previous night. "You are very unlike other young men," he said; +"may I ask how you have been brought up?" The reply surprised him. +"This opens quite a new view of Socialism," he said. "I thought your +conduct highly imprudent at first--it seems to be the natural result of +your teaching now. Let me see what I can do to help you." + +He was very grave and very gentle, when Sally was presented to him. His +opinion of the injury to her bosom relieved the anxiety of Amelius: +there might be pain for some little time to come, but there were no +serious consequences to fear. Having written his prescription, and +having put several questions to Sally, the surgeon sent her back, with +marked kindness of manner, to wait for Amelius in the patients' room. + +"I have young daughters of my own," he said, when the door was closed; +"and I cannot but feel for that unhappy creature, when I contrast her +life with theirs. So far as I can see it, the natural growth of her +senses--her higher and her lower senses alike--has been stunted, like +the natural growth of her body, by starvation, terror, exposure to +cold, and other influences inherent in the life that she has led. With +nourishing food, pure air, and above all kind and careful treatment, I +see no reason, at her age, why she should not develop into an +intelligent and healthy young woman. Pardon me if I venture on giving +you a word of advice. At your time of life, you will do well to place +her at once under competent and proper care. You may live to regret it, +if you are too confident in your own good motives in such a case as +this. Come to me again, if I can be of any use to you. No," he +continued, refusing to take his fee; "my help to that poor lost girl is +help given freely." He shook hands with Amelius--a worthy member of the +noble order to which he belonged. + +The surgeon's parting advice, following on the quaint protest of Rufus, +had its effect on Amelius. He was silent and thoughtful when he got +into the carriage again. + +Simple Sally looked at him with a vague sense of alarm. Her heart beat +fast, under the perpetually recurring fear that she had done something +or said something to offend him. "Was it bad behaviour in me," she +asked, "to fall asleep in the chair?" Reassured, so far, she was still +as anxious as ever to get at the truth. After long hesitation, and long +previous thought, she ventured to try another question. "The gentleman +sent me out of the room--did he say anything to set you against me?" + +"The gentleman said everything that was kind of you," Amelius replied, +"and everything to make me hope that you will live to be a happy girl." + +She said nothing to that; vague assurances were no assurances to +her--she only looked at him with the dumb fidelity of a dog. Suddenly, +she dropped on her knees in the carriage, hid her face in her hands, +and cried silently. Surprised and distressed, he attempted to raise her +and console her. "No!" she said obstinately. "Something has happened to +vex you, and you won't tell me what it is. Do, do, do tell me what it +is!" + +"My dear child," said Amelius, "I was only thinking anxiously about +you, in the time to come." + +She looked up at him quickly. "What! have you forgotten already?" she +exclaimed. "I'm to be your servant in the time to come." She dried her +eyes, and took her place again joyously by his side. "You did frighten +me," she said, "and all for nothing. But you didn't mean it, did you?" + +An older man might have had the courage to undeceive her: Amelius +shrank from it. He tried to lead her back to the melancholy story--so +common and so terrible; so pitiable in its utter absence of sentiment +or romance--the story of her past life. + +"No," she answered, with that quick insight where her feelings were +concerned, which was the only quick insight that she possessed. "I +don't like making you sorry; and you did look sorry--you did--when I +talked about it before. The streets, the streets, the streets; little +girl, or big girl, it's only the streets; and always being hungry or +cold; and cruel men when it isn't cruel boys. I want to be happy! I +want to enjoy my new clothes! You tell me about your own self. What +makes you so kind? I can't make it out; try as I may, I can't make it +out." + +Some time elapsed before they got back to the hotel. Amelius drove as +far as the City, to give the necessary instructions to his bankers. + +On returning to the sitting-room at last, he discovered that his +American friend was not alone. A gray-haired lady with a bright +benevolent face was talking earnestly to Rufus. The instant Sally +discovered the stranger, she started back, fled to the shelter of her +bedchamber, and locked herself in. Amelius, entering the room after a +little hesitation, was presented to Mrs. Payson. + +"There was something in my old friend's note," said the lady, smiling +and turning to Rufus, "which suggested to me that I should do well to +answer it personally. I am not too old yet to follow the impulse of the +moment, sometimes; and I am very glad that I did so. I have heard what +is, to me, a very interesting story. Mr. Goldenheart, I respect you! +And I will prove it by helping you, with all my heart and soul, to save +that poor little girl who has just run away from me. Pray don't make +excuses for her; I should have run away too, at her age. We have +arranged," she continued, looking again at Rufus, "that I shall take +you both to the Home, this afternoon. If we can prevail on Sally to go +with us, one serious obstacle in our way will be overcome. Tell me the +number of her room. I want to try if I can't make friends with her. I +have had some experience; and I don't despair of bringing her back +here, hand in hand with the terrible person who has frightened her." + +The two men were left together. Amelius attempted to speak. + +"Keep it down," said Rufus; "no premature outbreak of opinion, if you +please, yet awhile. Wait till she has fixed Sally, and shown us the +Paradise of the poor girls. It's within the London postal district, and +that's all I know about it. Well, now, and did you go to the doctor? +Thunder! what's come to the boy? Seems as though he had left his +complexion in the carriage! He looks, I do declare, as if he wanted +medical tinkering himself." + +Amelius explained that his past night had been a wakeful one, and that +the events of the day had not allowed him any opportunities of repose. +"Since the morning," he said, "things have hurried so, one on the top +of the other, that I am beginning to feel a little dazed and weary." +Without a word of remark, Rufus produced the remedy. The materials were +ready on the sideboard--he made a cocktail. + +"Another?" asked the New Englander, after a reasonable lapse of time. + +Amelius declined taking another. He stretched himself on the sofa; his +good friend considerately took up a newspaper. For the first time that +day, he had now the prospect of a quiet interval for rest and thought. +In less than a minute the delusive prospect vanished. He started to his +feet again, disturbed by a new anxiety. Having leisure to think, he had +thought of Regina. "Good heavens!" he exclaimed; "she's waiting to see +me--and I never remembered it till this moment!" He looked at his +watch: it was five o'clock. "What am I to do?" he said helplessly. + +Rufus laid down the newspaper, and considered the new difficulty in its +various aspects. + +"We are bound to go with Mrs. Payson to the Home," he said; "and, I +tell you this, Amelius, the matter of Sally is not a matter to be +played with; it's a thing that's got to be done. In your place I should +write politely to Miss Regina, and put it off till to-morrow." + +In ninety-nine cases out of a hundred, a man who took Rufus for his +counsellor was a man who acted wisely in every sense of the word. +Events, however, of which Amelius and his friend were both ignorant +alike, had so ordered it, that the American's well-meant advice, in +this one exceptional case, was the very worst advice that could have +been given. In an hour more, Jervy and Mrs. Sowler were to meet at the +tavern door. The one last hope of protecting Mrs. Farnaby from the +abominable conspiracy of which she was the destined victim, rested +solely on the fulfilment by Amelius of his engagement with Regina for +that day. Always ready to interfere with the progress of the courtship, +Mrs. Farnaby would be especially eager to seize the first opportunity +of speaking to her young Socialist friend on the subject of his +lecture. In the course of the talk between them, the idea which, in the +present disturbed state of his mind, had not struck him yet--the idea +that the outcast of the streets might, by the barest conceivable +possibility, be identified with the lost daughter--would, in one way or +another, be almost infallibly suggested to Amelius; and, at the +eleventh hour, the conspiracy would be foiled. If, on the other hand, +the American's fatal advice was followed, the next morning's post might +bring a letter from Jervy to Mrs. Farnaby--with this disastrous result. +At the first words spoken by Amelius, she would put an end to all +further interest in the subject on his part, by telling him that the +lost girl had been found, and found by another person. + +Rufus pointed to the writing-materials on a side table, which he had +himself used earlier in the day. The needful excuse was, unhappily, +quite easy to find. A misunderstanding with his landlady had obliged +Amelius to leave his lodgings at an hour's notice, and had occupied him +in trying to find a new residence for the rest of the day. The note was +written. Rufus, who was nearest to the bell, stretched out his hand to +ring for the messenger. Amelius suddenly stopped him. + +"She doesn't like me to disappoint her," he said. "I needn't stay +long--I might get there and back in half an hour, in a fast cab." + +His conscience was not quite easy. The sense of having forgotten +Regina--no matter how naturally and excusably--oppressed him with a +feeling of self-reproach. Rufus raised no objection; the hesitation of +Amelius was unquestionably creditable to him. "If you must do it, my +son," he said, "do it right away--and we'll wait for you." + +Amelius took up his hat. The door opened as he approached it, and Mrs. +Payson entered the room, leading Simple Sally by the hand. + +"We are all going together," said the genial old lady, "to see my large +family of daughters at the Home. We can have our talk in the carriage. +It's an hour's drive from this place--and I must be back again to +dinner at half-past seven." + +Amelius and Rufus looked at each other. Amelius thought of pleading an +engagement, and asking to be excused. Under the circumstances, it was +assuredly not a very gracious thing to do. Before he could make up his +mind, one way or the other, Sally stole to his side, and put her hand +on his arm. Mrs. Payson had done wonders in conquering the girl's +inveterate distrust of strangers, and, to a certain extent at least, +winning her confidence. But no early influence could shake Sally's +dog-like devotion to Amelius. Her jealous instinct discovered something +suspicious in his sudden silence. "You must go with us," she said, "I +won't go without you." + +"Certainly not," Mrs. Payson added; "I promised her that, of course, +beforehand." + +Rufus rang the bell, and despatched the messenger to Regina. "That's +the one way out of it, my son," he whispered to Amelius, as they +followed Mrs. Payson and Sally down the stairs of the hotel. + + +They had just driven up to the gates of the Home, when Jervy and his +accomplice met at the tavern, and entered on their consultation in a +private room. + +In spite of her poverty-stricken appearance, Mrs. Sowler was not +absolutely destitute. In various underhand and wicked ways, she +contrived to put a few shillings in her pocket from week to week. If +she was half starved, it was for the very ordinary reason, among +persons of her vicious class, that she preferred spending her money on +drink. Stating his business with her, as reservedly and as cunningly as +usual, Jervy found, to his astonishment, that even this squalid old +creature presumed to bargain with him. The two wretches were on the +point of a quarrel which might have delayed the execution of the plot +against Mrs. Farnaby, but for the vile self-control which made Jervy +one of the most formidable criminals living. He gave way on the +question of money--and, from that moment, he had Mrs. Sowler absolutely +at his disposal. + +"Meet me to-morrow morning, to receive your instructions," he said. +"The time is ten sharp; and the place is the powder-magazine in Hyde +Park. And mind this! You must be decently dressed--you know where to +hire the things. If I smell you of spirits to-morrow morning, I shall +employ somebody else. No; not a farthing now. You will have your +money--first instalment only, mind!--to-morrow at ten." + +Left by himself, Jervy sent for pen, ink, and paper. Using his left +hand, which was just as serviceable to him as his right, he traced +these lines:-- + +"You are informed, by an unknown friend, that a certain lost young lady +is now living in a foreign country, and may be restored to her +afflicted mother on receipt of a sufficient sum to pay expenses, and to +reward the writer of this letter, who is undeservedly, in distressed +circumstances. + +"Are you, madam, the mother? I ask the question in the strictest +confidence, knowing nothing certainly but that your husband was the +person who put the young lady out to nurse in her infancy. + +"I don't address your husband, because his inhuman desertion of the +poor baby does not incline me to trust him. I run the risk of trusting +you--to a certain extent--at starting. Shall I drop a hint which may +help you to identify the child, in your own mind? It would be +inexcusably foolish on my part to speak too plainly, just yet. The hint +must be a vague one. Suppose I use a poetical expression, and say that +the young lady is enveloped in mystery from head to foot--especially +the foot? + +"In the event of my addressing the right person, I beg to offer a +suggestion for a preliminary interview. + +"If you will take a walk on the bridge over the Serpentine River, on +Kensington Gardens side, at half-past ten o'clock to-morrow morning, +holding a white handkerchief in your left hand, you will meet the +much-injured woman, who was deceived into taking charge of the infant +child at Ramsgate, and will be satisfied so far that you are giving +your confidence to persons who really deserve it." + +Jervy addressed this infamous letter to Mrs. Farnaby, in an ordinary +envelope, marked "Private." He posted it, that night, with his own +hand. + + + +CHAPTER 4 + +"Rufus! I don't quite like the way you look at me. You seem to think--" + +"Give it tongue, my son. What do I seem to think?" + +"You think I'm forgetting Regina. You don't believe I'm just as fond of +her as ever. The fact is, you're an old bachelor." + +"That is so. Where's the harm, Amelius?" + +"I don't understand--" + +"You're out there, my bright boy. I reckon I understand more than you +think for. The wisest thing you ever did in your life is what you did +this evening, when you committed Sally to the care of those ladies at +the Home." + +"Good night, Rufus. We shall quarrel if I stay here any longer." + +"Good night, Amelius. We shan't quarrel, stay here as long as you +like." + +The good deed had been done; the sacrifice--already a painful +sacrifice--had been made. Mrs. Payson was old enough to speak plainly, +as well as seriously, to Amelius of the absolute necessity of +separating himself from Simple Sally, without any needless delay. "You +have seen for yourself," she said, "that the plan on which this little +household is ruled is the unvarying plan of patience and kindness. So +far as Sally is concerned, you can be quite sure that she will never +hear a harsh word, never meet with a hard look, while she is under our +care. The lamentable neglect under which the poor creature has +suffered, will be tenderly remembered and atoned for, here. If we can't +make her happy among us, I promise that she shall leave the Home, if +she wishes it, in six weeks' time. As to yourself, consider your +position if you persist in taking her back with you. Our good friend +Rufus has told me that you are engaged to be married. Think of the +misinterpretations, to say the least of it, to which you would subject +yourself--think of the reports which would sooner or later find their +way to the young lady's ears, and of the deplorable consequences that +would follow. I believe implicitly in the purity of your motives. But +remember Who taught us to pray that we may not be led into +temptation--and complete the good work that you have begun, by leaving +Sally among friends and sisters in this house." + +To any honourable man, these were unanswerable words. Coming after what +Rufus and the surgeon had already said to him, they left Amelius no +alternative but to yield. He pleaded for leave to write to Sally, and +to see her, at a later interval, when she might be reconciled to her +new life. Mrs. Payson had just consented to both requests, Rufus had +just heartily congratulated him on his decision--when the door was +thrown violently open. Simple Sally ran into the room, followed by one +of the women-attendants in a state of breathless surprise. + +"She showed me a bedroom," cried Sally, pointing indignantly to the +woman; "and she asked if I should like to sleep there." She turned to +Amelius, and caught him by the hand to lead him away. The ineradicable +instinct of distrust had been once more roused in her by the too +zealous attendant. "I'm not going to stay here," she said; "I'm going +away with You!" + +Amelius glanced at Mrs. Payson. Sally tried to drag him to the door. He +did his best to reassure her by a smile; he spoke confusedly some +composing words. But his honest face, always accustomed to tell the +truth, told the truth now. The poor lost creature, whose feeble +intelligence was so slow to discern, so inapt to reflect, looked at him +with the heart's instantaneous perception, and saw her doom. She let go +of his hand. Her head sank. Without word or cry, she dropped on the +floor at his feet. + +The attendant instantly raised her, and placed her on a sofa. Mrs. +Payson saw how resolutely Amelius struggled to control himself, and +felt for him with all her heart. Turning aside for a moment, she +hastily wrote a few lines, and returned to him. "Go, before we revive +her," she whispered; "and give what I have written to the coachman. You +shall suffer no anxiety that I can spare you," said the excellent +woman; "I will stay here myself to-night, and reconcile her to the new +life." + +She held out her hand; Amelius kissed it in silence. Rufus led him out. +Not a word dropped from his lips on the long drive back to London. + +His mind was disturbed by other subjects besides the subject of Sally. +He thought of his future, darkened by the doubtful marriage-engagement +that was before him. Alone with Rufus, for the rest of the evening, he +petulantly misunderstood the sympathy with which the kindly American +regarded him. Their bedrooms were next to each other. Rufus heard him +walking restlessly to and fro, and now and then talking to himself. +After a while, these sounds ceased. He was evidently worn out, and was +getting the rest that he needed, at last. + +The next morning he received a few lines from Mrs. Payson, giving a +favourable account of Sally, and promising further particulars in a day +or two. + +Encouraged by this good news, revived by a long night's sleep, he went +towards noon to pay his postponed visit to Regina. At that early hour, +he could feel sure that his interview with her would not be interrupted +by visitors. She received him quietly and seriously, pressing his hand +with a warmer fondness than usual. He had anticipated some complaint of +his absence on the previous day, and some severe allusion to his +appearance in the capacity of a Socialist lecturer. Regina's +indulgence, or Regina's interest in circumstances of more pressing +importance, preserved a merciful silence on both subjects. + +"It is a comfort to me to see you, Amelius," she said; "I am in trouble +about my uncle, and I am weary of my own anxious thoughts. Something +unpleasant has happened in Mr. Farnaby's business. He goes to the City +earlier, and he returns much later, than usual. When he does come back, +he doesn't speak to me--he locks himself into his room; and he looks +worn and haggard when I make his breakfast for him in the morning. You +know that he is one of the directors of the new bank? There was +something about the bank in the newspaper yesterday which upset him +dreadfully; he put down his cup of coffee--and went away to the City, +without eating his breakfast. I don't like to worry you about it, +Amelius. But my aunt seems to take no interest in her husband's +affairs--and it is really a relief to me to talk of my troubles to you. +I have kept the newspaper; do look at what it says about the bank, and +tell me if you understand it!" + +Amelius read the passage pointed out to him. He knew as little of +banking business as Regina. "So far as I can make it out," he said, +"they're paying away money to their shareholders which they haven't +earned. How do they do that, I wonder?" + +Regina changed the subject in despair. She asked Amelius if he had +found new lodgings. Hearing that he had not yet succeeded in the search +for a residence, she opened a drawer of her work-table, and took out a +card. + +"The brother of one of my schoolfellows is going to be married," she +said. "He has a pretty bachelor cottage in the neighbourhood of the +Regent's Park--and he wants to sell it, with the furniture, just as it +is. I don't know whether you care to encumber yourself with a little +house of your own. His sister has asked me to distribute some of his +cards, with the address and the particulars. It might be worth your +while, perhaps, to look at the cottage when you pass that way." + +Amelius took the card. The small feminine restraints and gentlenesses +of Regina, her quiet even voice, her serene grace of movement, had a +pleasantly soothing effect on his mind after the anxieties of the last +four and twenty hours. He looked at her bending over her embroidery, +deftly and gracefully industrious--and drew his chair closer to her. +She smiled softly over her work, conscious that he was admiring her, +and placidly pleased to receive the tribute. + +"I would buy the cottage at once," said Amelius, "if I thought you +would come and live in it with me." + +She looked up gravely, with her needle suspended in her hand. + +"Don't let us return to that," she answered, and went on again with her +embroidery. + +"Why not?" Amelius asked. + +She persisted in working, as industriously as if she had been a poor +needlewoman, with serious reasons for being eager to get her money. "It +is useless," she replied, "to speak of what cannot be for some time to +come." + +Amelius stopped the progress of the embroidery by taking her hand. Her +devotion to her work irritated him. + +"Look at me, Regina," he said, steadily controlling himself. "I want to +propose that we shall give way a little on both sides. I won't hurry +you; I will wait a reasonable time. If I promise that, surely you may +yield a little in return. Money seems to be a hard taskmaster, my +darling, after what you have told me about your uncle. See how he +suffers because he is bent on being rich; and ask yourself if it isn't +a warning to us not to follow his example! Would you like to see _me_ +too wretched to speak to you, or to eat my breakfast--and all for the +sake of a little outward show? Come, come! let us think of ourselves. +Why should we waste the best days of our life apart, when we are both +free to be happy together? I have another good friend besides +Rufus--the good friend of my father before me. He knows all sorts of +great people, and he will help me to some employment. In six months' +time I might have a little salary to add to my income. Say the sweetest +words, my darling, that ever fell from your lips--say you will marry me +in six months!" + +It was not in a woman's nature to be insensible to such pleading as +this. She all but yielded. "I should like to say it, dear!" she +answered, with a little fluttering sigh. + +"Say it, then!" Amelius suggested tenderly. + +She took refuge again in her embroidery. "If you would only give me a +little time," she suggested, "I might say it." + +"Time for what, my own love?" + +"Time to wait, dear, till my uncle is not quite so anxious as he is +now." + +"Don't talk of your uncle, Regina! You know as well as I do what he +would say. Good heavens! why can't you decide for yourself? No! I don't +want to hear over again about what you owe to Mr. Farnaby--I heard +enough of it on that day in the shrubbery. Oh, my dear girl, do have +some feeling for me! do for once have a will of your own!" + +Those last words were an offence to her self-esteem. "I think it's very +rude to tell me I have no will of my own," she said, "and very hard to +press in this way when you know I am in trouble." The inevitable +handkerchief appeared, adding emphasis to the protest--and the becoming +tears showed themselves modestly in Regina's magnificent eyes. + +Amelius started out of his chair, and walked away to the window. That +last reference to Mr. Farnaby's pecuniary cares was more than he had +patience to endure. "She can't even forget her uncle and his bank," he +thought, "when I am speaking to her of our marriage!" + +He kept his face hidden from her, at the window. By some subtle process +of association which he was unable to trace, the image of Simple Sally +rose in his mind. An irresistible influence forced him to think of +her--not as the poor, starved, degraded, half-witted creature of the +streets, but as the grateful girl who had asked for no happier future +than to be his servant, who had dropped senseless at his feet at the +bare prospect of parting with him. His sense of self-respect, his +loyalty to his betrothed wife, resolutely resisted the unworthy +conclusion to which his own thoughts were leading him. He turned back +again to Regina; he spoke so loudly and so vehemently that the +gathering flow of her tears was suspended in surprise. "You're right, +you're quite right, my dear! I ought to give you time, of course. I try +to control my hasty temper, but I don't always succeed--just at first. +Pray forgive me; it shall be exactly as you wish." + +Regina forgave him, with a gentle and ladylike astonishment at the +excitable manner in which he made his excuses. She even neglected her +embroidery, and put her face up to him to be kissed. "You are so nice, +dear," she said, "when you are not violent and unreasonable. It is such +a pity you were brought up in America. Won't you stay to lunch?" + +Happily for Amelius, the footman appeared at this critical moment with +a message: "My mistress wishes particularly to see you, sir, before you +go." + +This was the first occasion, in the experience of the lovers, on which +Mrs. Farnaby had expressed her wishes through the medium of a servant, +instead of appearing personally. The curiosity of Regina was mildly +excited. "What a very odd message!" she said; "what does it mean? My +aunt went out earlier than usual this morning, and I have not seen her +since. I wonder whether she is going to consult you about my uncle's +affairs?" + +"I'll go and see," said Amelius. + +"And stay to lunch?" Regina reiterated. + +"Not to-day, my dear." + +"To-morrow, then?" + +"Yes, to-morrow." So he escaped. As he opened the door, he looked back, +and kissed his hand. Regina raised her head for a moment, and smiled +charmingly. She was hard at work again over her embroidery. + + + +CHAPTER 5 + +The door of Mrs. Farnaby's ground-floor room, at the back of the house, +was partially open. She was on the watch for Amelius. + +"Come in!" she cried, the moment he appeared in the hall. She pulled +him into the room, and shut the door with a bang. Her face was flushed, +her eyes were wild. "I have something to tell you, you dear good +fellow," she burst out excitedly--"Something in confidence, between you +and me!" She paused, and looked at him with sudden anxiety and alarm. +"What's the matter with you?" she asked. + +The sight of the room, the reference to a secret, the prospect of +another private conference, forced back the mind of Amelius, in one +breathless instant, to his first memorable interview with Mrs. Farnaby. +The mother's piteously hopeful words, in speaking of her lost daughter, +rang in his ears again as if they had just fallen from her lips. "She +may be lost in the labyrinth of London. . . . To-morrow, or ten years +hence, you _might_ meet with her." There were a hundred chances against +it--a thousand, ten thousand chances against it. The startling +possibility flashed across his brain, nevertheless, like a sudden flow +of daylight across the dark. _"Have_ I met with her, at the first +chance?" + +"Wait," he cried; "I have something to say before you speak to me. Don't +deceive yourself with vain hopes. Promise me that, before I begin." + +She waved her hand derisively. "Hopes?" she repeated; "I have done with +hopes, I have done with fears--I have got to certainties, at last!" + +He was too eager to heed anything that she said to him; his whole soul +was absorbed in the coming disclosure. "Two nights since," he went on, +"I was wandering about London, and I met--" + +She burst out laughing. "Go on!" she cried, with a wild derisive +gaiety. + +Amelius stopped, perplexed and startled. "What are you laughing at?" he +asked. + +"Go on!" she repeated. "I defy you to surprise me. Out with it! Whom +did you meet?" + +Amelius proceeded doubtfully, by a word at a time. "I met a poor girl +in the streets," he said, steadily watching her. + +She changed completely at those words; she looked at him with an aspect +of stern reproach. "No more of it," she interposed; "I have not waited +all these miserable years for such a horrible end as that." Her face +suddenly brightened; a radiant effusion of tenderness and triumph +flowed over it, and made it young and happy again. "Amelius!" she said, +"listen to this. My dream has come true--my girl is found! Thanks to +you, though you don't know it." + +Amelius looked at her. Was she speaking of something that had really +happened? or had she been dreaming again? + +Absorbed in her own happiness, she made no remark on his silence. "I +have seen the woman," she went on. "This bright blessed morning I have +seen the woman who took her away in the first days of her poor little +life. The wretch swears she was not to blame. I tried to forgive her. +Perhaps I almost did forgive her, in the joy of hearing what she had to +tell me. I should never have heard it, Amelius, if you had not given +that glorious lecture. The woman was one of your audience. She would +never have spoken of those past days; she would never have thought of +me--" + +At those words, Mrs. Farnaby abruptly stopped, and turned her face away +from Amelius. After waiting a little, finding her still silent, still +immovable, he ventured on putting a question. + +"Are you sure you are not deceived?" he asked. "I remember you told me +that rogues had tried to impose on you, in past times when you employed +people to find her." + +"I have proof that I am not being imposed upon," Mrs. Farnaby answered, +still keeping her face hidden from him. "One of them knows of the fault +in her foot." + +"One of them?" Amelius repeated. "How many of them are there?" + +"Two. The old woman, and a young man." + +"What are their names?" + +"They won't tell me their names yet." + +"Isn't that a little suspicious?" + +"One of them knows," Mrs. Farnaby reiterated, "of the fault in her +foot." + +"May I ask which of them knows? The old woman, I suppose?" + +"No, the young man." + +"That's strange, isn't it? Have you seen the young man?" + +"I know nothing of him, except the little that the woman told me. He +has written me a letter." + +"May I look at it?" + +"I daren't let you look at it!" + +Amelius said no more. If he had felt the smallest suspicion that the +disclosure volunteered by Mrs. Farnaby, at their first interview, had +been overheard by the unknown person who had opened the swinging window +in the kitchen, he might have recalled Phoebe's vindictive language at +his lodgings, and the doubts suggested to him by his discovery of the +vagabond waiting for her in the street. As it was, he was simply +puzzled. The one plain conclusion to his mind was, unhappily, the +natural conclusion after what he had heard--that Mrs. Farnaby had no +sort of interest in the discovery of Simple Sally, and that he need +trouble himself with no further anxiety in that matter. Strange as Mrs. +Farnaby's mysterious revelation seemed, her correspondent's knowledge +of the fault in the foot was circumstance in his favour, beyond +dispute. Amelius still wondered inwardly how it was that the woman who +had taken charge of the child had failed to discover what appeared to +be known to another person. If he had been aware that Mrs. Sowler's +occupation at the time was the occupation of a "baby-farmer," and that +she had many other deserted children pining under her charge, he might +have easily understood that she was the last person in the world to +trouble herself with a minute examination of any one of the unfortunate +little creatures abandoned to her drunken and merciless neglect. Jervy +had satisfied himself, before he trusted her with his instructions, +that she knew no more than the veriest stranger of any peculiarity in +one or the other of the child's feet. + +Interpreting Mrs. Farnaby's last reply to him as an intimation that +their interview was at an end, Amelius took up his hat to go. + +"I hope with all my heart," he said, "that what has begun so well will +end well. If there is any service that I can do for you--" + +She drew nearer to him, and put her hand gently on his shoulder. "Don't +think that I distrust you," she said very earnestly; "I am unwilling to +shock you--that is all. Even this great joy has a dark side to it; my +miserable married life casts its shadow on everything that happens to +me. Keep secret from everybody the little that I have told you--you +will ruin me if you say one word of it to any living creature. I ought +not to have opened my heart to you--but how could I help it, when the +happiness that is coming to me has come through you? When you say +good-bye to me to-day, Amelius, you say good-bye to me for the last +time in this house. I am going away. Don't ask me why--that is one more +among the things which I daren't tell you! You shall hear from me, or +see me--I promise that. Give me some safe address to write to; some +place where there are no inquisitive women who may open my letter in +your absence." + +She handed him her pocket-book. Amelius wrote down in it the address of +his club. + +She took his hand. "Think of me kindly," she said. "And, once more, +don't be afraid of my being deceived. There is a hard part of me still +left which keeps me on my guard. The old woman tried, this morning, to +make me talk to her about that little fault we know of in my child's +foot. But I thought to myself, 'If you had taken a proper interest in +my poor baby while she was with you, you must sooner or later have +found it out.' Not a word passed my lips. No, no, don't be anxious when +you think of me. I am as sharp as they are; I mean to find out how the +man who wrote to me discovered what he knows; he shall satisfy me, I +promise you, when I see him or hear from him next. All this is between +ourselves strictly, sacredly between ourselves. Say nothing--I know I +can trust you. Good-bye, and forgive me for having been so often in +your way with Regina. I shall never be in your way again. Marry her, if +you think she is good enough for you; I have no more interest now in +your being a roving bachelor, meeting with girls here, there, and +everywhere. You shall know how it goes on. Oh, I am so happy!" + +She burst into tears, and signed to Amelius with a wild gesture of +treaty to leave her. + +He pressed her hand in silence, and went out. + +Almost as the door closed on him, the variable woman changed again. For +a while she walked rapidly to and fro, talking to herself. The course +of her tears ceased. Her lips closed firmly; her eyes assumed an +expression of savage resolve. She sat down at the table and opened her +desk. "I'll read it once more," she said to herself, "before I seal it +up." + +She took from her desk a letter of her own writing, and spread it out +before her. With her elbows on the table, and her hands clasped +fiercely in her hair, she read these lines addressed to her husband:-- + + +JOHN FARNABY,--I have always suspected that you had something to do +with the disappearance of our child. I know for certain now that you +deliberately cast your infant daughter on the mercy of the world, and +condemned your wife to a life of wretchedness. + +"Don't suppose that I have been deceived! I have spoken with the woman +who waited by the garden-paling at Ramsgate, and who took the child +from your hands. She saw you with me at the lecture; and she is +absolutely sure that you are the man. + +"Thanks to the meeting at the lecture-hall, I am at last on the trace +of my lost daughter. This morning I heard the woman's story. She kept +the child, on the chance of its being reclaimed, until she could afford +to keep it no longer. She met with a person who was willing to adopt +it, and who took it away with her to a foreign country, not mentioned +to me yet. In that country my daughter is still living, and will be +restored to me on conditions which will be communicated in a few days' +time. + +"Some of this story may be true, and some of it may be false; the woman +may be lying to serve her own interests with me. Of one thing I am +sure--my girl is identified, by means known to me of which there can be +no doubt. And she must be still living, because the interest of the +persons treating with me is an interest in her life. + +"When you receive this letter, on your return from business to-night, I +shall have left you, and left you for ever. The bare thought of even +looking at you again fills me with horror. I have my own income, and I +mean to take my own way. In your best interests I warn you, make no +attempt to trace me. I declare solemnly that, rather than let your +deserted daughter be polluted by the sight of you, I would kill you +with my own hand, and die for it on the scaffold. If she ever asks for +her father, I will do you one service. For the honour of human nature, +I will tell her that her father is dead. It will not be all a +falsehood. I repudiate you and your name--you are dead to me from this +time forth. + +"I sign myself by my father's name-- + +"EMMA RONALD." + + +She had said herself that she was unwilling to shock Amelius. This was +the reason. + +After thinking a little, she sealed and directed the letter. This done, +she unlocked the wooden press which had once contained the baby's frock +and cap, and those other memorials of the past which she called her +"dead consolations." After satisfying herself that the press was empty, +she wrote on a card, "To be called for by a messenger from my +bankers"--and tied the card to a tin box in a corner, secured by a +padlock. She lifted the box, and placed it in front of the press, so +that it might be easily visible to any one entering the room. The safe +keeping of her treasures provided for, she took the sealed letter, and, +ascending the stairs, placed it on the table in her husband's +dressing-room. She hurried out again, the instant after, as if the +sight of the place were intolerable to her. + +Passing to the other end of the corridor, she entered her own +bedchamber, and put on her bonnet and cloak. A leather handbag was on +the bed. She took it up, and looked round the large luxurious room with +a shudder of disgust. What she had suffered, within those four walls, +no human creature knew but herself. She hurried out, as she had hurried +out of her husband's dressing-room. + +Her niece was still in the drawing-room. As she reached the door, she +hesitated, and stopped. The girl was a good girl, in her own dull +placid way--and her sister's daughter, too. A last little act of +kindness would perhaps be a welcome act to remember. She opened the +door so suddenly that Regina started, with a small cry of alarm. "Oh, +aunt, how you frighten one! Are you going out?" "Yes; I'm going out," +was the short answer. "Come here. Give me a kiss." Regina looked up in +wide-eyed astonishment. Mrs. Farnaby stamped impatiently on the floor. +Regina rose, gracefully bewildered. "My dear aunt, how very odd!" she +said--and gave the kiss demanded, with a serenely surprised elevation +of her finely shaped eyebrows. "Yes," said Mrs. Farnaby; "that's +it--one of my oddities. Go back to your work. Good-bye." + +She left the room, as abruptly as she had entered it. With her firm +heavy step she descended to the hall, passed out at the house door, and +closed it behind her--never to return to it again. + + + +CHAPTER 6 + +Amelius left Mrs. Farnaby, troubled by emotions of confusion and alarm, +which he was the last man living to endure patiently. Her extraordinary +story of the discovered daughter, the still more startling assertion of +her solution to leave the house, the absence of any plain explanation, +the burden of secrecy imposed on him--all combined together to irritate +his sensitive nerves. "I hate mysteries," he thought; "and ever since I +landed in England, I seem fated to be mixed up in them. Does she really +mean to leave her husband and her niece? What will Farnaby do? What +will become of Regina?" + +To think of Regina was to think of the new repulse of which he had been +made the subject. Again he had appealed to her love for him, and again +she had refused to marry him at his own time. + +He was especially perplexed and angry, when he reflected on the +unassailably strong influence which her uncle appeared to have over +her. All Regina's sympathy was with Mr. Farnaby and his troubles. +Amelius might have understood her a little better, if she had told him +what had passed between her uncle and herself on the night of Mr. +Farnaby's return, in a state of indignation, from the lecture. In +terror of the engagement being broken off, she had been forced to +confess that she was too fond of Amelius to prevail on herself to part +with him. If he attempted a second exposition of his Socialist +principles on the platform, she owned that it might be impossible to +receive him again as a suitor. But she pleaded hard for the granting of +a pardon to the first offence, in the interests of her own +tranquillity, if not in mercy to Amelius. Mr. Farnaby, already troubled +by his commercial anxieties, had listened more amiably, and also more +absently, than usual; and had granted her petition with the ready +indulgence of a preoccupied man. It had been decided between them that +the offence of the lecture should be passed over in discreet silence. +Regina's gratitude for this concession inspired her sympathy with her +uncle in his present state of suspense. She had been sorely tempted to +tell Amelius what had happened. But the natural reserve of her +character--fortified, in this instance, by the defensive pride which +makes a woman unwilling, before marriage, to confess her weakness +unreservedly to the man who has caused it--had sealed her lips. "When +he is a little less violent and a little more humble," she thought, +"perhaps I may tell him." + +So it fell out that Amelius took his way through the streets, a +mystified and an angry man. + +Arrived in sight of the hotel, he stopped, and looked about him. + +It was impossible to disguise from himself that a lurking sense of +regret was making itself felt, in his present frame of mind, when he +thought of Simple Sally. In all probability, he would have quarrelled +with any man who had accused him of actually lamenting the girl's +absence, and wanting her back again. He happened to recollect her +artless blue eyes, with their vague patient look, and her quaint +childish questions put so openly in so sweet a voice--and that was all. +Was there anything reprehensible, if you please, in an act of +remembrance? Comforting himself with these considerations, he moved on +again a step or two--and stopped once more. In his present humour, he +shrank from facing Rufus. The American read him like a book; the +American would ask irritating questions. He turned his back on the +hotel, and looked at his watch. As he took it out, his finger and thumb +touched something else in his waistcoat-pocket. It was the card that +Regina had given to him--the card of the cottage to let. He had nothing +to do, and nowhere to go. Why not look at the cottage? If it proved to +be not worth seeing, the Zoological Gardens were in the +neighbourhood--and there are periods in a man's life when he finds the +society that walks on four feet a welcome relief from the society that +walks on two. + +It was a fairly fine day. He turned northward towards the Regent's +Park. + +The cottage was in a by-road, just outside the park: a cottage in the +strictest sense of the word. A sitting-room, a library, and a +bedroom--all of small proportions--and, under them a kitchen and two +more rooms, represented the whole of the little dwelling from top to +bottom. It was simply and prettily furnished; and it was completely +surrounded by its own tiny plot of garden-ground. The library +especially was a perfect little retreat, looking out on the back +garden; peaceful and shady, and adorned with bookcases of old carved +oak. + +Amelius had hardly looked round the room, before his inflammable brain +was on fire with a new idea. Other idle men in trouble had found the +solace and the occupation of their lives in books. Why should he not be +one of them? Why not plunge into study in this delightful +retirement--and perhaps, one day, astonish Regina and Mr. Farnaby by +bursting on the world as the writer of a famous book? Exactly as +Amelius, two days since, had seen himself in the future, a public +lecturer in receipt of glorious fees--so he now saw himself the +celebrated scholar and writer of a new era to come. The woman who +showed the cottage happened to mention that a gentleman had already +looked over it that morning, and had seemed to like it. Amelius +instantly gave her a shilling, and said, "I take it on the spot." The +wondering woman referred him to the house-agent's address, and kept at +a safe distance from the excitable stranger as she let him out. In less +than another hour, Amelius had taken the cottage, and had returned to +the hotel with a new interest in life and a new surprise for Rufus. + +As usual, in cases of emergency, the American wasted no time in +talking. He went out at once to see the cottage, and to make his own +inquiries of the agent. The result amply proved that Amelius had not +been imposed upon. If he repented of his bargain, the gentleman who had +first seen the cottage was ready to take it off his hands, at a +moment's notice. + +Going back to the Hotel, Rufus found Amelius resolute to move into his +new abode, and eager for the coming life of study and retirement. +Knowing perfectly well before-hand how this latter project would end, +the American tried the efficacy of a little worldly temptation. He had +arranged, he said, "to have a good time of it in Paris"; and he +proposed that Amelius should be his companion. The suggestion produced +not the slightest effect; Amelius talked as if he was a confirmed +recluse, in the decline of life. "Thank you," he said, with the most +amazing gravity; "I prefer the company of my books, and the seclusion +of my study." This declaration was followed by more selling-out of +money in the Funds, and by a visit to a bookseller, which left a +handsome pecuniary result inscribed on the right side of the ledger. + +On the next day, Amelius presented himself towards two o'clock at Mr. +Farnaby's house. He was not so selfishly absorbed in his own projects +as to forget Mrs. Farnaby. On the contrary, he was honestly anxious for +news of her. + +A certain middle-aged man of business has been briefly referred to, in +these pages, as one of Regina's faithful admirers, patiently submitting +to the triumph of his favoured young rival. This gentleman, issuing +from his carriage with his card-case ready in his hand, met Amelius at +the door, with a face which announced plainly that a catastrophe had +happened. "You have heard the sad news, no doubt?" he said, in a rich +bass voice attuned to sadly courteous tones. The servant opened the +door before Amelius could answer. After a contest of politeness, the +middle-aged gentleman consented to make his inquiries first. "How is +Mr. Farnaby? No better? And Miss Regina? Very poorly, oh? Dear, dear +me! Say I called, if you please." He handed in two cards, with a severe +enjoyment of the melancholy occasion and the rich bass sounds of his +own voice. "Very sad, is it not?" he said, addressing his youthful +rival with an air of paternal indulgence. "Good morning." He bowed with +melancholy grace, and got into his carriage. + +Amelius looked after the prosperous merchant, as the prancing horses +drew him away. "After all," he thought bitterly, "she might be happier +with that rich prig than she could be with me." He stepped into the +hall, and spoke to the servant. The man had his message ready. Miss +Regina would see Mr. Goldenheart, if he would be so good as to wait in +the dinning-room. + +Regina appeared, pale and scared; her eyes inflamed with weeping. "Oh, +Amelius, can you tell me what this dreadful misfortune means? Why has +she left us? When she sent for you yesterday, what did she say?" + +In his position, Amelius could make but one answer. "Your aunt said she +thought of going away. But," he added, with perfect truth, "she refused +to tell me why, or where she was going. I am quite as much at a loss to +understand her as you are. What does your uncle propose to do?" + +Mr. Farnaby's conduct, as described by Regina, thickened the +mystery--he proposed to do nothing. + +He had been found on the hearth-rug in his dressing-room; having +apparently been seized with a fit, in the act of burning some paper. +The ashes were discovered close by him, just inside the fender. On his +recovery, his first anxiety was to know if a letter had been burnt. +Satisfied on this point, he had ordered the servants to assemble round +his bed, and had peremptorily forbidden them to open the door to their +mistress, if she ever returned at any future time to the house. +Regina's questions and remonstrances, when she was left alone with him, +were answered, once for all, in these pitiless terms:--"If you wish to +deserve the fatherly interest that I take in you, do as I do: forget +that such a person as your aunt ever existed. We shall quarrel, if you +ever mention her name in my hearing again." This said, he had instantly +changed the subject; instructing Regina to write an excuse to "Mr. +Melton" (otherwise, the middle-aged rival), with whom he had been +engaged to dine that evening. Relating this latter event, Regina's +ever-ready gratitude overflowed in the direction of Mr. Melton. "He was +so kind! he left his guests in the evening, and came and sat with my +uncle for nearly an hour." Amelius made no remark on this; he led the +conversation back to the subject of Mrs. Farnaby. "She once spoke to me +of her lawyers," he said. "Do _they_ know nothing about her?" + +The answer to this question showed that the sternly final decision of +Mr. Farnaby was matched by equal resolution on the part of his wife. + +One of the partners in the legal firm had called that morning, to see +Regina on a matter of business. Mrs. Farnaby had appeared at the office +on the previous day, and had briefly expressed her wish to make a small +annual provision for her niece, in case of future need. Declining to +enter into any explanation, she had waited until the necessary document +had been drawn out; had requested that Regina might be informed of the +circumstance; and had then taken her departure in absolute silence. +Hearing that she had left her husband, the lawyer, like every one else, +was completely at a loss to understand what it meant. + +"And what does the doctor say?" Amelius asked next. + +"My uncle is to be kept perfectly quiet," Regina answered; "and is not +to return to business for some time to come. Mr. Melton, with his usual +kindness, has undertaken to look after his affairs for him. Otherwise, +my uncle, in his present state of anxiety about the bank, would never +have consented to obey the doctor's orders. When he can safely travel, +he is recommended to go abroad for the winter, and get well again in +some warmer climate. He refuses to leave his business--and the doctor +refuses to take the responsibility. There is to be a consultation of +physicians tomorrow. Oh, Amelius, I was really fond of my aunt--I am +heart-broken at this dreadful change!" + +There was a momentary silence. If Mr. Melton had been present, he would +have said a few neatly sympathetic words. Amelius knew no more than a +savage of the art of conventional consolation. Tadmor had made him +familiar with the social and political questions of the time, and had +taught him to speak in public. But Tadmor, rich in books and +newspapers, was a powerless training institution in the matter of small +talk. + +"Suppose Mr. Farnaby is obliged to go abroad," he suggested, after +waiting a little, "what will you do?" + +Regina looked at him, with an air of melancholy surprise. "I shall do +my duty, of course," she answered gravely. "I shall accompany my dear +uncle, if he wishes it." She glanced at the clock on the mantelpiece. +"It is time he took his medicine," she resumed; "you will excuse me, I +am sure." She shook hands, not very warmly--and hastened out of the +room. + +Amelius left the house, with a conviction which disheartened him--the +conviction that he had never understood Regina, and that he was not +likely to understand her in the future. He turned for relief to the +consideration of Mr. Farnaby's strange conduct, under the domestic +disaster which had befallen him. + +Recalling what he had observed for himself, and what he had heard from +Mrs. Farnaby when she had first taken him into her confidence, he +inferred that the subject of the lost child had not only been a subject +of estrangement between the husband and wife, but that the husband was, +in some way, the person blamable for it. Assuming this theory to be the +right one, there would be serious obstacles to the meeting of the +mother and child, in the mother's home. The departure of Mrs. Farnaby +was, in that case, no longer unintelligible--and Mr. Farnaby's +otherwise inexplicable conduct had the light of a motive thrown on it, +which might not unnaturally influence a hard-hearted man weary alike of +his wife and his wife's troubles. Arriving at this conclusion by a far +shorter process than is here indicated, Amelius pursued the subject no +further. At the time when he had first visited the Farnabys, Rufus had +advised him to withdraw from closer intercourse with them, while he had +the chance. In his present mood, he was almost in danger of +acknowledging to himself that Rufus had proved to be right. + +He lunched with his American friend at the hotel. Before the meal was +over Mrs. Payson called, to say a few cheering words about Sally. + +It was not to be denied that the girl remained persistently silent and +reserved. In other respects the report was highly favourable. She was +obedient to the rules of the house; she was always ready with any +little services that she could render to her companions; and she was so +eager to improve herself, by means of her reading-lessons and +writing-lessons, that it was not easy to induce her to lay aside her +book and her slate. When the teacher offered her some small reward for +her good conduct, and asked what she would like, the sad little face +brightened, and the faithful creature's answer was always the same--"I +should like to know what he is doing now." (Alas for Sally!--"he" meant +Amelius.) + +"You must wait a little longer before you write to her," Mrs. Payson +concluded, "and you must not think of seeing her for some time to come. +I know you will help us by consenting to this--for Sally's sake." + +Amelius bowed in silence. He would not have confessed what he felt, at +that moment, to any living soul--it is doubtful if he even confessed it +to himself. Mrs. Payson, observing him with a woman's keen sympathy, +relented a little. "I might give her a message," the good lady +suggested--"just to say you are glad to hear she is behaving so well." + +"Will you give her this?" Amelius asked. + +He took from his pocket a little photograph of the cottage, which he +had noticed on the house-agent's desk, and had taken away with him. "It +is _my_ cottage now," he explained, in tones that faltered a little; "I +am going to live there; Sally might like to see it." + +"Sally _shall_ see it," Mrs. Payson agreed--"if you will only let me +take this away first." She pointed to the address of the cottage, +printed under the photograph. Past experience in the Home made her +reluctant to trust Sally with the address in London at which Amelius +was to be found. + +Rufus produced a huge complex knife, out of the depths of which a pair +of scissors burst on touching a spring. Mrs. Payson cut off the +address, and placed the photograph in her pocket-book. "Now," she said, +"Sally will be happy, and no harm can come of it." + +"I've known you, ma'am, nigh on twenty years," Rufus remarked. "I do +assure you that's the first rash observation I ever heard from your +lips." + + + +BOOK THE SEVENTH + +THE VANISHING HOPES + +CHAPTER 1 + +Two days later, Amelius moved into his cottage. + +He had provided himself with a new servant, as easily as he had +provided himself with a new abode. A foreign waiter at the hotel--a +gray-haired Frenchman of the old school, reputed to be the most +ill-tempered servant in the house--had felt the genial influence of +Amelius with the receptive readiness of his race. Here was a young +Englishman, who spoke to him as easily and pleasantly as if he was +speaking to a friend--who heard him relate his little grievances, and +never took advantage of that circumstance to turn him into +ridicule--who said kindly, "I hope you don't mind my calling you by +your nickname," when he ventured to explain that his Christian name was +"Theophile," and that his English fellow servants had facetiously +altered and shortened it to "Toff," to suit their insular convenience. +"For the first time, sir," he had hastened to add, "I feel it an honour +to be Toff, when _you_ speak to me." Asking everybody whom he met if +they could recommend a servant to him, Amelius had put the question, +when Toff came in one morning with the hot water. The old Frenchman +made a low bow, expressive of devotion. "I know of but one man, sir, +whom I can safely recommend," he answered--"take me." Amelius was +delighted; he had only one objection to make. "I don't want to keep two +servants," he said, while Toff was helping him on with his +dressing-gown. "Why should you keep two servants, sir?" the Frenchman +inquired. Amelius answered, "I can't ask you to make the beds." "Why +not?" said Toff--and made the bed, then and there, in five minutes. He +ran out of the room, and came back with one of the chambermaid's +brooms. "Judge for yourself, sir--can I sweep a carpet?" He placed a +chair for Amelius. "Permit me to save you the trouble of shaving +yourself. Are you satisfied? Very good. I am equally capable of cutting +your hair, and attending to your corns (if you suffer, sir, from that +inconvenience). Will you allow me to propose something which you have +not had yet for your breakfast?" In half an hour more, he brought in +the new dish. "Oeufs a la Tripe. An elementary specimen, sir, of what I +can do for you as a cook. Be pleased to taste it." Amelius ate it all +up on the spot; and Toff applied the moral, with the neatest choice of +language. "Thank you, sir, for a gratifying expression of approval. One +more specimen of my poor capabilities, and I have done. It is barely +possible--God forbid!--that you may fall ill. Honour me by reading that +document." He handed a written paper to Amelius, dated some years since +in Paris, and signed in an English name. "I testify with gratitude and +pleasure that Theophile Leblond has nursed me through a long illness, +with an intelligence and devotion which I cannot too highly praise." +"May you never employ me, sir, in that capacity," said Toff. "I have +only to add that I am not so old as I look, and that my political +opinions have changed, in later life, from red-republican to +moderate-liberal. I also confess, if necessary, that I still have an +ardent admiration for the fair sex." He laid his hand on his heart, and +waited to be engaged. + +So the household at the cottage was modestly limited to Amelius and +Toff. + +Rufus remained for another week in London, to watch the new experiment. +He had made careful inquiries into the Frenchman's character, and had +found that the complaints of his temper really amounted to this--that +"he gave himself the airs of a gentleman, and didn't understand a +joke." On the question of honesty and sobriety, the testimony of the +proprietor of the hotel left Rufus nothing to desire. Greatly to his +surprise, Amelius showed no disposition to grow weary of his quiet +life, or to take refuge in perilous amusements from the sober society +of his books. He was regular in his inquiries at Mr. Farnaby's house; +he took long walks by himself; he never mentioned Sally's name; he lost +his interest in going to the theatre, and he never appeared in the +smoking-room of the club. Some men, observing the remarkable change +which had passed over his excitable temperament, would have hailed it +as a good sign for the future. The New Englander looked below the +surface, and was not so easily deceived. "My bright boy's soul is +discouraged and cast down," was the conclusion that he drew. "There's +darkness in him where there once was light; and, what's worse than all, +he caves in, and keeps it to himself." After vainly trying to induce +Amelius to open his heart, Rufus at last went to Paris, with a mind +that was ill at ease. + +On the day of the American's departure, the march of events was +resumed; and the unnaturally quiet life of Amelius began to be +disturbed again. + +Making his customary inquiries in the forenoon at Mr. Farnaby's door, +he found the household in a state of agitation. A second council of +physicians had been held, in consequence of the appearance of some +alarming symptoms in the case of the patient. On this occasion, the +medical men told him plainly that he would sacrifice his life to his +obstinacy, if he persisted in remaining in London and returning to his +business. By good fortune, the affairs of the bank had greatly +benefited, through the powerful interposition of Mr. Melton. With the +improved prospects, Mr. Farnaby (at his niece's entreaty) submitted to +the doctor's advice. He was to start on the first stage of his journey +the next morning; and, at his own earnest desire, Regina was to go with +him. "I hate strangers and foreigners; and I don't like being alone. If +you don't go with me, I shall stay where I am--and die." So Mr. Farnaby +put it to his adopted daughter, in his rasping voice and with his hard +frown. + +"I am grieved, dear Amelius, to go away from you," Regina said; "but +what can I do? It would have been so nice if you could have gone with +us. I did hint something of the sort; but--" + +Her downcast face finished the sentence. Amelius felt the bare idea of +being Mr. Farnaby's travelling companion make his blood run cold. And +Mr. Farnaby, on his side, reciprocated the sentiment. "I will write +constantly, dear," Regina resumed; "and you will write back, won't you? +Say you love me; and promise to come tomorrow morning, before we go." + +She kissed him affectionately--and, the instant after, checked the +responsive outburst of tenderness in Amelius, by that utter want of +tact which (in spite of the popular delusion to the contrary) is so +much more common in women than in men, "My uncle is so particular about +packing his linen," she said; "nobody can please him but me; I must ask +you to let me run upstairs again." + +Amelius went out into the street, with his head down and his lips fast +closed. He was not far from Mrs. Payson's house. "Why shouldn't I +call?" he thought to himself. His conscience added, "And hear some news +of Sally." + +There was good news. The girl was brightening mentally and +physically--she was in a fair way, if she only remained in the Home, to +be "Simple" Sally no longer. Amelius asked if she had got the +photograph of the cottage. Mrs. Payson laughed. "Sleeps with it under +her pillow, poor child," she said, "and looks at it fifty times a day." +Thirty years since, with infinitely less experience to guide her, the +worthy matron would have followed her instincts, and would have +hesitated to tell Amelius quite so much about the photograph. But some +of a woman's finer sensibilities do get blunted with the advance of age +and the accumulation of wisdom. + +Instead of pursuing the subject of Sally's progress, Amelius, to Mrs. +Payson's surprise, made a clumsy excuse, and abruptly took his leave. + +He felt the need of being alone; he was conscious of a vague distrust +of himself, which degraded him in his own estimation. Was he, like +characters he had read of in books, the victim of a fatality? The +slightest circumstances conspired to heighten his interest in +Sally--just at the time when Regina had once more disappointed him. He +was as firmly convinced, as if he had been the strictest moralist +living, that it was an insult to Regina, and an insult to his own +self-respect, to set the lost creature whom he had rescued in any light +of comparison with the young lady who was one day to be his wife. And +yet, try as he might to drive her out, Sally kept her place in his +thoughts. There was, apparently, some innate depravity in him. If a +looking-glass had been handed to him at that moment, he would have been +ashamed to look himself in the face. + +After walking until he was weary, he went to his club. + +The porter gave him a letter as he crossed the hall. Mrs. Farnaby had +kept her promise, and had written to him. The smoking-room was deserted +at that time of day. He opened his letter in solitude, looked at it, +crumpled it up impatiently, and put it into his pocket. Not even Mrs. +Farnaby could interest him at that critical moment. His own affairs +absorbed him. The one idea in his mind, after what he had heard about +Sally, was the idea of making a last effort to hasten the date of his +marriage before Mr. Farnaby left England. "If I can only feel sure of +Regina--" + +His thoughts went no further than that. He walked up and down the empty +smoking-room, anxious and irritable, dissatisfied with himself, +despairing of the future. "I can but try it!" he suddenly decided--and +turned at once to the table to write a letter. + +Death had been busy with the members of his family in the long interval +that had passed since he and his father left England. His nearest +surviving relative was his uncle--his father's younger brother--who +occupied a post of high importance in the Foreign Office. To this +gentleman he now wrote, announcing his arrival in England, and his +anxiety to qualify himself for employment in a Government office. "Be +so good as to grant me an interview," he concluded; "and I hope to +satisfy you that I am not unworthy of your kindness, if you will exert +your influence in my favour." + +He sent away his letter at once by a private messenger, with +instructions to wait for an answer. + +It was not without doubt, and even pain, that he had opened +communication with a man whose harsh treatment of his father it was +impossible for him to forget. What could the son expect? There was but +one hope. Time might have inclined the younger brother to make +atonement to the memory of the elder, by a favourable reception of his +nephew's request. + +His father's last words of caution, his own boyish promise not to claim +kindred with his relations in England, were vividly present to the mind +of Amelius, while he waited for the return of the messenger. His one +justification was in the motives that animated him. Circumstances, +which his father had never anticipated, rendered it an act of duty +towards himself to make the trial at least of what his family interest +could do for him. There could be no sort of doubt that a man of Mr. +Farnaby's character would yield, if Amelius could announce that he had +the promise of an appointment under Government--with the powerful +influence of a near relation to accelerate his promotion. He sat, idly +drawing lines on the blotting-paper; at one moment regretting that he +had sent his letter; at another, comforting himself in the belief that, +if his father had been living to advise him, his father would have +approved of the course that he had taken. + +The messenger returned with these lines of reply:-- + +"Under any ordinary circumstances, I should have used my influence to +help you on in the world. But, when you not only hold the most +abominable political opinions, but actually proclaim those opinions in +public, I am amazed at your audacity in writing to me. There must be no +more communication between us. While you are a Socialist, you are a +stranger to me." + +Amelius accepted this new rebuff with ominous composure. He sat quietly +smoking in the deserted room, with his uncle's letter in his hand. + +Among the other disastrous results of the lecture, some of the +newspapers had briefly reported it. Preoccupied by his anxieties, +Amelius had forgotten this when he wrote to his relative. "Just like +me!" he thought, as he threw the letter into the fire. His last hopes +floated up the chimney, with the tiny puff of smoke from the burnt +paper. There was now no other chance of shortening the marriage +engagement left to try. He had already applied to the good friend whom +he had mentioned to Regina. The answer, kindly written in this case, +had not been very encouraging:-- + +"I have other claims to consider. All that I can do, I will do. Don't +be disheartened--I only ask you to wait." + +Amelius rose to go home--and sat down again. His natural energy seemed +to have deserted him--it required an effort to leave the club. He took +up the newspapers, and threw them aside, one after another. Not one of +the unfortunate writers and reporters could please him on that +inauspicious day. It was only while he was lighting his second cigar +that he remembered Mrs. Farnaby's unread letter to him. By this time, +he was more than weary of his own affairs. He read the letter. + +"I find the people who have my happiness at their mercy both dilatory +and greedy." (Mrs. Farnaby wrote); "but the little that I can persuade +them to tell me is very favourable to my hopes. I am still, to my +annoyance, only in personal communication with the hateful old woman. +The young man either sends messages, or writes to me through the post. +By this latter means he has accurately described, not only in which of +my child's feet the fault exists, but the exact position which it +occupies. Here, you will agree with me, is positive evidence that he is +speaking the truth, whoever he is. + +"But for this reassuring circumstance, I should feel inclined to be +suspicious of some things--of the obstinate manner, for instance, in +which the young man keeps himself concealed; also, of his privately +warning me not to trust the woman who is his own messenger, and not to +tell her on any account of the information which his letters convey to +me. I feel that I ought to be cautious with him on the question of +money--and yet, in my eagerness to see my darling, I am ready to give +him all that he asks for. In this uncertain state of mind, I am +restrained, strangely enough, by the old woman herself. She warns me +that he is the sort of man, if he once gets the money, to spare himself +the trouble of earning it. It is the one hold I have over him (she +says)--so I control the burning impatience that consumes me as well as +I can. + +"No! I must not attempt to describe my own state of mind. When I tell +you that I am actually afraid of dying before I can give my sweet love +the first kiss, you will understand and pity me. When night comes, I +feel sometimes half mad. + +"I send you my present address, in the hope that you will write and +cheer me a little. I must not ask you to come and see me yet. I am not +fit for it--and, besides, I am under a promise, in the present state of +the negotiations, to shut the door on my friends. It is easy enough to +do that; I have no friend, Amelius, but you. + +"Try to feel compassionately towards me, my kind-hearted boy. For so +many long years, my heart has had nothing to feed on but the one hope +that is now being realized at last. No sympathy between my husband and +me (on the contrary, a horrid unacknowledged enmity, which has always +kept us apart); my father and mother, in their time both wretched about +my marriage, and with good reason; my only sister dying in +poverty--what a life for a childless woman! don't let us dwell on it +any longer. + +"Goodbye for the present, Amelius. I beg you will not think I am always +wretched. When I want to be happy, I look to the coming time." + +This melancholy letter added to the depression that weighed on the +spirits of Amelius. It inspired him with vague fears for Mrs. Farnaby. +In her own interests, he would have felt himself tempted to consult +Rufus (without mentioning names), if the American had been in London. +As things were, he put the letter back in his pocket with a sigh. Even +Mrs. Farnaby, in her sad moments, had a consoling prospect to +contemplate. "Everybody but me!" Amelius thought. + +His reflections were interrupted by the appearance of an idle young +member of the club, with whom he was acquainted. The new-comer remarked +that he looked out of spirits, and suggested that they should dine +together and amuse themselves somewhere in the evening. Amelius +accepted the proposal: any man who offered him a refuge from himself +was a friend to him on that day. Departing from his temperate habits, +he deliberately drank more than usual. The wine excited him for the +time, and then left him more depressed than ever; and the amusements of +the evening produced the same result. He returned to his cottage so +completely disheartened, that he regretted the day when he had left +Tadmor. + +But he kept his appointment, the next morning, to take leave of Regina. + +The carriage was at the door, with a luggage-laden cab waiting behind +it. Mr. Farnaby's ill-temper vented itself in predictions that they +would be too late to catch the train. His harsh voice, alternating with +Regina's meek remonstrances, reached the ears of Amelius from the +breakfast-room. "I'm not going to wait for the gentleman-Socialist," +Mr. Farnaby announced, with his hardest sarcasm of tone. "Dear uncle, +we have a quarter of an hour to spare!" "We have nothing of the sort; +we want all that time to register the luggage." The servant's voice was +heard next. "Mr. Goldenheart, miss." Mr. Farnaby instantly stepped into +the hall. "Goodbye!" he called to Amelius, through the open door of the +dining-room--and passed straight on to the carriage. "I shan't wait, +Regina!" he shouted, from the doorstep. "Let him go by himself!" said +Amelius indignantly, as Regina hurried into the room. "Oh, hush, hush, +dear! Suppose he heard you? No week shall pass without my writing to +you; promise you will write back, Amelius. One more kiss! Oh, my dear!" +The servant interposed, keeping discreetly out of sight. "I beg your +pardon, miss, my master wishes to know whether you are going with him +or not." Regina waited to hear no more. She gave her lover a farewell +look to remember her by, and ran out. + +That innate depravity which Amelius had lately discovered in his own +nature, let the forbidden thoughts loose in him again as he watched the +departing carriage from the door. "If poor little Sally had been in her +place--!" He made an effort of virtuous resolution, and stopped there. +"What a blackguard a man may be," he penitently reflected, "without +suspecting it himself!" + +He descended the house-steps. The discreet servant wished him good +morning, with a certain cheery respect--the man was delighted to have +seen the last of his hard master for some months to come. Amelius +stopped and turned round, smiling grimly. He was in such a reckless +humour, that he was even ready to divert his mind by astonishing a +footman. "Richard," he said, "are you engaged to be married?" Richard +stared in blank surprise at the strange question--and modestly admitted +that he was engaged to marry the housemaid next door. "Soon?" asked +Amelius, swinging his stick. "As soon as I have saved a little more +money, sir." "Damn the money!" cried Amelius--and struck his stick on +the pavement, and walked away with a last look at the house as if he +hated the sight of it. Richard watched the departing young gentleman, +and shook his head ominously as he shut the door. + + + +CHAPTER 2 + +Amelius went straight back to the cottage, with the one desperate +purpose of reverting to the old plan, and burying himself in his books. +Surveying his well-filled shelves with an impatience unworthy of a +scholar, Hume's "History of England" unhappily caught his eye. He took +down the first volume. In less than half an hour he discovered that +Hume could do nothing for him. Wisely inspired, he turned to the truer +history next, which men call fiction. The writings of the one supreme +genius, who soars above all other novelists as Shakespeare soars above +all other dramatists--the writings of Walter Scott--had their place of +honour in his library. The collection of the Waverley Novels at Tadmor +had not been complete. Enviable Amelius had still to read _Rob Roy._ He +opened the book. For the rest of the day he was in love with Diana +Vernon; and when he looked out once or twice at the garden to rest his +eyes, he saw "Andrew Fairservice" busy over the flowerbeds. + +He closed the last page of the noble story as Toff came in to lay the +cloth for dinner. + +The master at table and the servant behind his chair were accustomed to +gossip pleasantly during meals. Amelius did his best to carry on the +talk as usual. But he was no longer in the delightful world of illusion +which Scott had opened to him. The hard realities of his own everyday +life had gathered round him again. Observing him with unobtrusive +attention, the Frenchman soon perceived the absence of the easy humour +and the excellent appetite which distinguished his young master at +other times. + +"May I venture to make a remark, sir?" Toff inquired, after a long +pause in the conversation. + +"Certainly." + +"And may I take the liberty of expressing my sentiments freely?" + +"Of course you may." + +"Dear sir, you have a pretty little simple dinner to-day," Toff began. +"Forgive me for praising myself, I am influenced by the natural pride +of having cooked the dinner. For soup, you have Croute au pot; for +meat, you have Tourne-dos a la sauce poivrade; for pudding, you have +Pommes au beurre. All so nice--and you hardly eat anything, and your +amiable conversation falls into a melancholy silence which fills me +with regret. Is it you who are to blame for this? No, sir! it is the +life you lead. I call it the life of a monk; I call it the life of a +hermit--I say boldly it is the life of all others which is most +unsympathetic to a young man like you. Pardon the warmth of my +expressions; I am eager to make my language the language of utmost +delicacy. May I quote a little song? It is in an old, old, old French +piece, long since forgotten, called 'Les Maris Garcons'. There are two +lines in that song (I have often heard my good father sing them) which +I will venture to apply to your case; 'Amour, delicatesse, et gaite; +D'un bon Francais c'est la devise!' Sir, you have naturally delicatesse +and gaite--but the last has, for some days, been under a cloud. What is +wanted to remove that cloud? L'Amour! Love, as you say in English. +Where is the charming woman, who is the only ornament wanting to this +sweet cottage? Why is she still invisible? Remedy that unhappy +oversight, sir. You are here in a suburban Paradise. I consult my long +experience; and I implore you to invite Eve.--Ha! you smile; your lost +gaiety returns, and you feel it as I do. Might I propose another glass +of claret, and the reappearance on the table of the Tourne-dos a la +poivrade?" + +It was impossible to be melancholy in this man's company. Amelius +sanctioned the return of the Tourne-dos, and tried the other glass of +claret. "My good friend," he said, with something like a return of his +old easy way, "you talk about charming women, and your long experience. +Let's hear what your experience has been." + +For the first time Toff began to look a little confused. + +"You have honoured me, sir, by calling me your good friend," he said. +"After that, I am sure you will not send me away if I own the truth. +No! My heart tells me I shall not appeal to your indulgence in vain. +Dear sir, in the holidays which you kindly give me, I provide competent +persons to take care of the house in my absence, don't I? One person, +if you remember, was a most handsome engaging young man. He is, if you +please, my son by my first wife--now an angel in heaven. Another +person, who took care of the house, on the next occasion, was a little +black-eyed boy; a miracle of discretion for his age. He is my son by my +second wife--now another angel in heaven. Forgive me, I have not done +yet. Some few days since, you thought you heard an infant crying +downstairs. Like a miserable wretch, I lied; I declared it was the +infant in the next house. Ah, sir, it was my own cherubim baby by my +third wife--an angel close by in the Edgeware Road, established in a +small milliner shop, which will expand to great things by-and-by. The +intervals between my marriages are not worthy of your notice. Fugitive +caprices, sir--fugitive caprices! To sum it all up (as you say in +England), it is not in me to resist the enchanting sex. If my third +angel dies, I shall tear my hair--but I shall none the less take a +fourth." + +"Take a dozen if you like," said Amelius. "Why should you have kept all +this from my knowledge?" + +Toff hung his head. "I think it was one of my foreign mistakes," he +pleaded. "The servants' advertisements in your English newspapers +frighten me. How does the most meritorious manservant announce himself +when he wants the best possible place? He says he is 'without +encumbrances.' Gracious heaven, what a dreadful word to describe the +poor pretty harmless children! I was afraid, sir, you might have some +English objection to _my_ 'encumbrances.' A young man, a boy, and a +cherubim-baby; not to speak of the sacred memories of two women, and +the charming occasional society of a third; all inextricably enveloped +in the life of one amorous-meritorious French person--surely there was +reason for hesitation here? No matter; I bless my stars I know better +now, and I withdraw myself from further notice. Permit me to recall +your attention to the Roquefort cheese, and a mouthful of potato-salad +to correct the richness of him." + + +The dinner was over at last. Amelius was alone again. + +It was a still evening. Not a breath of wind stirred among the trees in +the garden; no vehicles passed along the by-road in which the cottage +stood. Now and then, Toff was audible downstairs, singing French songs +in a high cracked voice, while he washed the plates and dishes, and set +everything in order for the night. Amelius looked at his +bookshelves--and felt that, after _Rob Roy,_ there was no more reading +for him that evening. The slow minutes followed one another wearily; +the deadly depression of the earlier hours of the day was stealthily +fastening its hold on him again. How might he best resist it? His +healthy out-of-door habits at Tadmor suggested the only remedy that he +could think of. Be his troubles what they might, his one simple method +of resisting them, at all other times, was his simple method now. He +went out for a walk. + +For two hours he rambled about the great north-western suburb of +London. Perhaps he felt the heavy oppressive weather, or perhaps his +good dinner had not agreed with him. Any way, he was so thoroughly worn +out, that he was obliged to return to the cottage in a cab. + +Toff opened the door--but not with his customary alacrity. Amelius was +too completely fatigued to notice any trifling circumstance. Otherwise, +he would certainly have perceived something odd in the old Frenchman's +withered face. He looked at his master, as he relieved him of his hat +and coat, with the strangest expression of interest and anxiety; +modified by a certain sardonic sense of amusement underlying the more +serious emotions. "A nasty dull evening," Amelius said wearily. And +Toff, always eager to talk at other times, only answered, "Yes, +sir"--and retreated at once to the kitchen regions. + +The fire was bright; the curtains were drawn; the reading-lamp, with +its ample green shade, was on the table--a more comfortable room no man +could have found to receive him after a long walk. Reclining at his +ease in his chair, Amelius thought of ringing for some restorative +brandy-and-water. While he was thinking, he fell asleep; and, while he +slept, he dreamed. + +Was it a dream? + +He certainly saw the library--not fantastically transformed, but just +like what the room really was. So far, he might have been wide awake, +looking at the familiar objects round him. But, after a while, an event +happened which set the laws of reality at defiance. Simple Sally, miles +away in the Home, made her appearance in the library, nevertheless. He +saw the drawn curtains over the window parted from behind; he saw the +girl step out from them, and stop, looking at him timidly. She was +clothed in the plain dress that he had bought for her; and she looked +more charming in it than ever. The beauty of health claimed kindred +now, in her pretty face, with the beauty of youth: the wan cheeks had +begun to fill out, and the pale lips were delicately suffused with +their natural rosy red. Little by little her first fears seemed to +subside. She smiled, and softly crossed the room, and stood at his +side. After looking at him with a rapt expression of tenderness and +delight, she laid her hands on the arm of the chair, and said, in the +quaintly quiet way which he remembered so well, "I want to kiss you." +She bent over him, and kissed him with the innocent freedom of a child. +Then she raised herself again, and looked backwards and forwards +between Amelius and the lamp. "The firelight is the best," she said. +Darkness fell over the room as she spoke; he saw her no more; he heard +her no more. A blank interval followed; there flowed over him the +oblivion of perfect sleep. His next conscious sensation was a feeling +of cold--he shivered, and woke. + +The impression of the dream was in his mind at the moment of waking. He +started as he raised himself in the chair. Was he dreaming still? No; +he was certainly awake. And, as certainly, the room was dark! + +He looked and looked. It was not to be denied, or explained away. There +was the fire burning low, and leaving the room chilly--and there, just +visible on the table, in the flicker of the dying flame, was the +extinguished lamp! + +He mended the fire, and put his hand on the bell to ring for Toff, and +thought better of it. What need had he of the lamplight? He was too +weary for reading; he preferred going to sleep again, and dreaming +again of Sally. Where was the harm in dreaming of the poor little soul, +so far away from him? The happiest part of his life now was the part of +it that was passed in sleep. + +As the fresh coals began to kindle feebly, he looked again at the lamp. +It was odd, to say the least of it, that the light should have +accidentally gone out, exactly at the right time to realize the +fanciful extinction of it in his dream. How was it there was no smell +of a burnt-out lamp? He was too lazy, or too tired, to pursue the +question. Let the mystery remain a mystery--and let him rest in peace! +He settled himself fretfully in his chair. What a fool he was to bother +his head about a lamp, instead of closing his eyes and going to sleep +again! + +The room began to recover its pleasant temperature. He shifted the +cushion in the chair, so that it supported his head in perfect comfort, +and composed himself to rest. But the capricious influences of sleep +had deserted him: he tried one position after another, and all in vain. +It was a mere mockery even to shut his eyes. He resigned himself to +circumstances, and stretched out his legs, and looked at the +companionable fire. + +Of late he had thought more frequently than usual of his past days in +the Community. His mind went back again now to that bygone time. The +clock on the mantelpiece struck nine. They were all at supper, at +Tadmor--talking over the events of the day. He saw himself again at the +long wooden table, with shy little Mellicent in the chair next to him, +and his favourite dog at his feet waiting to be fed. Where was +Mellicent now? It was a sad letter that she had written to him, with +the strange fixed idea that he was to return to her one day. There was +something very winning and lovable about the poor creature who had +lived such a hard life at home, and had suffered so keenly. It was a +comfort to think that she would go back to the Community. What happier +destiny could she hope for? Would she take care of his dog for him when +she went back? They had all promised to be kind to his pet animals in +his absence; but the dog was fond of Mellicent; he would be happier +with Mellicent than with the rest of them. And his little tame fawn, +and his birds--how were they doing? He had not even written to inquire +after them; he had been cruelly forgetful of those harmless dumb loving +friends. In his present solitude, in his dreary doubts of the future, +what would he not give to feel the dog nestling in his bosom, and the +fawn's little rough tongue licking his hand! His heart ached as he +thought of it: a choking hysterical sensation oppressed his breathing. +He tried to rise, and ring for lights, and rouse his manhood to endure +and resist. It was not to be done. Where was his courage? where was the +cheerfulness which had never failed him at other time? He sank back in +the chair, and hid his face in his hands for shame at his own weakness, +and burst out crying. + +The touch of soft persuasive fingers suddenly thrilled through him. + +His hands were gently drawn away from his face; a familiar voice, sweet +and low, said, "Oh, don't cry!" Dimly through his tears he saw the +well-remembered little figure standing between him and the fire. In his +unendurable loneliness, he had longed for his dog, he had longed for +his fawn. There was the martyred creature from the streets, whom he had +rescued from nameless horror, waiting to be his companion, servant, +friend! There was the child-victim of cold and hunger, still only +feeling her way to womanhood; innocent of all other aspirations, so +long as she might fill the place which had once been occupied by the +dog and the fawn! + +Amelius looked at her with a momentary doubt whether he was waking or +sleeping. "Good God!" he cried, "am I dreaming again?" + +"No," she said, simply. "You are awake this time. Let me dry your eyes; +I know where you put your handkerchief." She perched on his knee, and +wiped away the tears, and smoothed his hair over his forehead. "I was +frightened to show myself till I heard you crying," she confessed. +"Then I thought, 'Come! he can't be angry with me now'--and I crept out +from behind the curtains there. The old man let me in. I can't live +without seeing you; I've tried till I could try no longer. I owned it +to the old man when he opened the door. I said, 'I only want to look at +him; won't you let me in?' And he says, 'God bless me, here's Eve come +already!' I don't know what he meant--he let me in, that's all I care +about. He's a funny old foreigner. Send him away; I'm to be your +servant now. Why were you crying? I've cried often enough about You. +No; that can't be--I can't expect you to cry about _me;_ I can only +expect you to scold me. I know I'm a bad girl." + +She cast one doubtful look at him, and hung her head--waiting to be +scolded. Amelius lost all control over himself. He took her in his arms +and kissed her again and again. "You are a dear good grateful little +creature!" he burst out--and suddenly stopped, aware too late of the +act of imprudence which he had committed. He put her away from him; he +tried to ask severe questions, and to administer merited reproof. Even +if he had succeeded, Sally was too happy to listen to him. "It's all +right now," she cried. "I'm never, never, never to go back to the Home! +Oh, I'm so happy! Let's light the lamp again!" + +She found the matchbox on the chimneypiece. In a minute more the room +was bright. Amelius sat looking at her, perfectly incapable of deciding +what he ought to say or do next. To complete his bewilderment, the +voice of the attentive old Frenchman made itself heard through the +door, in discreetly confidential tones. + +"I have prepared an appetising little supper, sir," said Toff. "Be +pleased to ring when you and the young lady are ready." + + + +CHAPTER 3 + +Toff's interference proved to have its use. The announcement of the +little supper--plainly implying Simple Sally's reception at the +cottage--reminded Amelius of his responsibilities. He at once stepped +out into the passage, and closed the door behind him. + +The old Frenchman was waiting to be reprimanded or thanked, as the case +might be, with his head down, his shoulders shrugged up to his ears, +and the palms of his hands spread out appealingly on either side of +him--a model of mute resignation to circumstances. + +"Do you know that you have put me in a very awkward position?" Amelius +began. + +Toff lifted one of his hands to his heart. "You are aware of my +weakness, sir. When that charming little creature presented herself at +the door, sinking with fatigue, I could no more resist her than I could +take a hop-skip-and-jump over the roof of this cottage. If I have done +wrong, take no account of the proud fidelity with which I have served +you--tell me to pack up and go; but don't ask me to assume a position +of severity towards that enchanting Miss. It is not in my heart to do +it," said Toff, lifting his eyes with tearful solemnity to an imaginary +heaven. "On my sacred word of honour as a Frenchman, I would die rather +than do it!" + +"Don't talk nonsense," Amelius rejoined a little impatiently. "I don't +blame you--but you have got me into a scrape, for all that. If I did my +duty, I should send for a cab, and take her back." + +Toff opened his twinkling old eyes in a perfect transport of +astonishment. "What!" he cried, "take her back? Without rest, without +supper? And you call that duty? How inconceivably ugly does duty look +when it assumes an inhospitable aspect towards a woman! Pardon me, sir; +I must express my sentiments or I shall burst. You will say perhaps +that I have no conception of duty? Pardon me again--my conception of +duty is _here!"_ + +He threw open the door of the sitting-room. In spite of his anxiety, +Amelius burst out laughing. The Frenchman's inexhaustible contrivances +had transformed the sitting-room into a bedroom for Sally. The sofa had +become a snug little white bed; a hairbrush and comb, and a bottle of +eau-de-cologne, were on the table; a bath stood near the fire, with +cans of hot and cold water, and a railway rug placed under them to save +the carpet. "I dare not presume to contradict you, sir," said Toff, +"but there is _my_ conception of duty! In the kitchen, I have another +conception, keeping warm; you can smell it up the stairs. Salmi of +partridge, with the littlest possible dash of garlic in the sauce. Oh, +sir, let that angel rest and refresh herself! Virtuous severity, +believe me, is a most horribly unbecoming virtue at your age!" He spoke +quite seriously, with the air of a profound moralist, asserting +principles that did equal honour to his head and his heart. + +Amelius went back to the library. + +Sally was resting in the easy-chair; her position showed plainly that +she was suffering from fatigue. "I have had a long, long walk," she +said; "and I don't know which aches worst, my back or my feet. I don't +care--I'm quite happy now I'm here." She nestled herself comfortably in +the chair. "Do you mind my looking at you?" she asked. "Oh, it's so +long since I saw you!" + +There was a new undertone of tenderness in her voice--innocent +tenderness that openly avowed itself. The reviving influences of the +life at the Home had done much--and had much yet left to do. Her wasted +face and figure were filling out, her cheeks and lips were regaining +their lovely natural colour, as Amelius had seen in his dream. But her +eyes, in repose, still resumed their vacantly patient look; and her +manner, with a perceptible increase of composure and confidence, had +not lost its quaint childish charm. Her growth from girl to woman was a +growth of fine gradations, guided by the unerring deliberation of +Nature and Time. + +"Do you think they will follow you here, from the Home?" Amelius asked. + +She looked at the clock. "I don't think so," she said quietly. "It's +hours since I slipped out by the back door. They have very strict rules +about runaway girls--even when their friends bring them back. If _you_ +send me back--" she stopped, and looked thoughtfully into the fire. + +"What will you do, if I send you back?" + +"What one of our girls did, before they took her in at the Home. She +jumped into the river. 'Made a hole in the water'; that's how she calls +it. She's a big strong girl; and they got her out, and saved her. She +says it wasn't painful, till they brought her to again. I'm little and +weak--I don't think they could bring _me_ to life, if they tried." + +Amelius made a futile attempt to reason with her. He even got so far as +to tell her that she had done very wrong to leave the Home. Sally's +answer set all further expostulation at defiance. Instead of attempting +to defend herself, she sighed wearily, and said, "I had no money; I +walked all the way here." + +The well-intended remonstrances of Amelius were lost in compassionate +surprise. "You poor little soul!" he exclaimed, "it must be seven or +eight miles at least!" + +"I dare say," said Sally. "It don't matter, now I've found you." + +"But how did you find me? Who told you where I lived?" + +She smiled, and took from her bosom the photograph of the cottage. + +"But Mrs. Payson cut off the address!" cried Amelius, bursting out with +the truth in the impulse of the moment. + +Sally turned over the photograph, and pointed to the back of the card, +on which the photographer's name and address were printed. "Mrs. Payson +didn't think of this," she said shyly. + +"Did _you_ think of it?" Amelius asked. + +Sally shook her head. "I'm too stupid," she replied. "The girl who made +the hole in the water put me up to it. 'Have you made up your mind to +run away?' she says. And I said, 'Yes.' 'You go to the man who did the +picture,' she says; 'he knows where the place is, I'll be bound.' I +asked my way till I found him. And he did know. And he told me. He was +a good sort; he gave me a glass of beer, he said I looked so tired. I +said we'd go and have our portraits taken some day--you, and your +servant. May I tell the funny old foreigner that he is to go away now I +have come to you?" The complete simplicity with which she betrayed her +jealousy of Toff made Amelius smile. Sally, watching every change in +his face, instantly drew her own conclusion. "Ah!" she said cheerfully, +"I'll keep your room cleaner than he keeps it! I smelt dust on the +curtains when I was hiding from you." + +Amelius thought of his dream. "Did you come out while I was asleep?" he +asked. + +"Yes; I wasn't frightened of you, when you were asleep. I had a good +look at you; and I gave you a kiss." She made that confession without +the slightest sign of confusion; her calm blue eyes looked him straight +in the face. "You got restless," she went on; "and I got frightened +again. I put out the lamp. I says to myself, 'If he does scold me, I +can bear it better in the dark.'" + +Amelius listened, wondering. Had he seen drowsily what he thought he +had dreamed, or was there some mysterious sympathy between Sally and +himself? The occult speculations were interrupted by Sally. "May I take +off my bonnet, and make myself tidy?" she asked. Some men might have +said No. Amelius was not one of them. + +The library possessed a door of communication with the sitting-room; +the bedchamber occupied by Amelius being on the other side of the +cottage. When Sally saw Toff's reconstructed room, she stood at the +door, in speechless admiration of the vision of luxury revealed to her. +From time to time Amelius, alone in the library, heard her dabbling in +her bath, and humming the artless old English song from which she had +taken her name. Once she knocked at the closed door, and made a request +through it--"There is scent on the table; may I have some?" And once +Toff knocked at the other door, opening into the passage, and asked +when "pretty young Miss" would be ready for supper. Events went on in +the little household as if Sally had become an integral part of it +already. "What _am_ I to do?" Amelius asked himself. And Toff, entering +at the moment to lay the cloth, answered respectfully, "Hurry the young +person, sir, or the salmi will be spoilt." + +She came out from her room, walking delicately on her sore feet--so +fresh and charming, that Toff, absorbed in admiration, made a mistake +in folding a napkin for the first time in his life. "Champagne, of +course, sir?" he said in confidence to Amelius. The salmi of partridge +appeared; the inspiriting wine sparkled in the glasses; Toff surpassed +himself in all the qualities which made a servant invaluable at a +supper table. Sally forgot the Home, forgot the cruel streets, and +laughed and chattered as gaily as the happiest girl living. Amelius, +expanding in the joyous atmosphere of youth and good spirits, shook off +his sense of responsibility, and became once more the delightful +companion who won everybody's love. The effervescent gaiety of the +evening was at its climax; the awful forms of duty, propriety, and good +sense had been long since laughed out of the room--when Nemesis, +goddess of retribution, announced her arrival outside, by a crashing of +carriage-wheels and a peremptory ring at the cottage bell. + +There was dead silence; Amelius and Sally looked at each other. The +experienced Toff at once guessed what had happened. "Is it her father +or mother?" he asked of Amelius, a little anxiously. Hearing that she +had never even seen her father or mother, he snapped his fingers +joyously, and led the way on tiptoe into the hall. "I have my idea," he +whispered. "Let us listen." + +A woman's voice, high, clear, and resolute, speaking apparently to the +coachman, was the next audible sound. "Say I come from Mrs. Payson, and +must see Mr. Goldenheart directly." Sally trembled and turned pale. +"The matron!" she said faintly. "Oh, don't let her in!" Amelius took +the terrified girl back to the library. Toff followed them, +respectfully asking to be told what a "matron" was. Receiving the +necessary explanation, he expressed his contempt for matrons bent on +carrying charming persons into captivity, by opening the library door +and spitting into the hall. Having relieved his mind in this way, he +returned to his master and laid a lank skinny forefinger cunningly +along the side of his nose. "I suppose, sir, you don't want to see this +furious woman?" he said. Before it was possible to say anything in +reply, another ring at the bell announced that the furious woman wanted +to see Amelius. Toff read his master's wishes in his master's face. Not +even this emergency could find him unprepared: he was as ready to +circumvent a matron as to cook a dinner. "The shutters are up, and the +curtains are drawn," he reminded Amelius. "Not a morsel of light is +visible outside. Let them ring--we have all gone to bed." He turned to +Sally, grinning with impish enjoyment of his own stratagem. "Ha, Miss! +what do you think of that?" There was a third pull at the bell as he +spoke. "Ring away, Missess Matrone!" he cried. "We are fast +asleep--wake us if you can." The fourth ring was the last. A sharp +crack revealed the breaking of the bellwire, and was followed by the +shrill fall of the iron handle on the pavement before the garden gate. +The gate, like the palings, was protected at the top from invading +cats. "Compose yourself, Miss," said Toff, "if she tries to get over +the gate, she will stick on the spikes." In another moment, the sound +of retiring carriage-wheels announced the defeat of the matron, and +settled the serious question of receiving Sally for the night. + +She sat silent by the window, when Toff had left the room, holding back +the curtains and looking out at the murky sky. + +"What are you looking for?" Amelius asked. + +"I was looking for the stars." + +Amelius joined her at the window. "There are no stars to be seen +tonight." + +She let the curtain fall to again. "I was thinking of night-time at the +Home," she said. "You see, I got on pretty well, in the day, with my +reading and writing. I wanted so to improve myself. My mind was +troubled with the fear of your despising such an ignorant creature as I +am; so I kept on at my lessons. I thought I might surprise you by +writing you a pretty letter some day. One of the teachers (she's gone +away ill) was very good to me. I used to talk to her; and, when I said +a wrong word, she took me up, and told me the right one. She said you +would think better of me when you heard me speak properly--and I do +speak better, don't I? All this was in the day. It was the night that +was the hard time to get through--when the other girls were all asleep, +and I had nothing to think of but how far away I was from you. I used +to get up, and put the counterpane round me, and stand at the window. +On fine nights the stars were company to me. There were two stars, near +together, that I got to know. Don't laugh at me--I used to think one of +them was you, and one of them me. I wondered whether you would die, or +I should die, before I saw you again. And, most always, it was my star +that went out first. Lord, how I used to cry! It got into my poor +stupid head that I should never see you again. I do believe I ran away +because of that. You won't tell anybody, will you? It was so foolish, I +am ashamed of it now. I wanted to see your star and my star tonight. I +don't know why. Oh, I'm so fond of you!" She dropped on her knees, and +took his hand, and put it on her head. "It's burning hot," she said, +"and your kind hand cools it." + +Amelius raised her gently, and led her to the door of her room. "My +poor Sally, you are quite worn out. You want rest and sleep. Let us say +good night." + +"I will do anything you tell me," she answered. "If Mrs. Payson comes +tomorrow, you won't let her take me away? Thank you. Goodnight." She +put her hands on his shoulders, with innocent familiarity, and lifted +herself to him on tiptoe, and kissed him as a sister might have kissed +him. + +Long after Sally was asleep in her bed, Amelius sat by the library +fire, thinking. + +The revival of the crushed feeling and fancy in the girl's nature, so +artlessly revealed in her sad little story of the stars that were +"company to her," not only touched and interested him, but clouded his +view of the future with doubts and anxieties which had never troubled +him until that moment. The mysterious influences under which the girl's +development was advancing were working morally and physically together. +Weeks might pass harmlessly, months might pass harmlessly--but the time +must come when the innocent relations between them would be beset by +peril. Unable, as yet, fully to realize these truths, Amelius +nevertheless felt them vaguely. His face was troubled, as he lit the +candle at last to go to his bed. "I don't see my way as clearly as I +could wish," he reflected. "How will it end?" + +How indeed! + + + +CHAPTER 4 + +At eight o'clock the next morning, Amelius was awakened by Toff. A +letter had arrived, marked "Immediate," and the messenger was waiting +for an answer. + +The letter was from Mrs. Payson. She wrote briefly, and in formal +terms. After referring to the matron's fruitless visit to the cottage +on the previous night, Mrs. Payson proceeded in these words:--"I +request you will immediately let me know whether Sally has taken refuge +with you, and has passed the night under your roof. If I am right in +believing that she has done so, I have only to inform you that the +doors of the Home are henceforth closed to her, in conformity with our +rules. If I am wrong, it will be my painful duty to lose no time in +placing the matter in the hands of the police." + +Amelius began his reply, acting on impulse as usual. He wrote, +vehemently remonstrating with Mrs. Payson on the unforgiving and +unchristian nature of the rules at the Home. Before he was halfway +through his composition, the person who had brought the letter sent a +message to say that he was expected back immediately, and that he hoped +Mr. Goldenheart would not get a poor man into trouble by keeping him +much longer. Checked in the full flow of his eloquence, Amelius angrily +tore up the unfinished remonstrance, and matched Mrs. Payson's briefly +business-like language by an answer in one line:--"I beg to inform you +that you are quite right." On reflection, he felt that the second +letter was not only discourteous as a reply to a lady, but also +ungrateful as addressed to Mrs. Payson personally. At the third +attempt, he wrote becomingly as well as briefly. "Sally has passed the +night here, as my guest. She was suffering from severe fatigue; it +would have been an act of downright inhumanity to send her away. I +regret your decision, but of course I submit to it. You once said, you +believed implicitly in the purity of my motives. Do me the justice, +however you may blame my conduct, to believe in me still." + +Having despatched these lines, the mind of Amelius was at ease again, +He went into the library, and listened to hear if Sally was moving. The +perfect silence on the other side of the door informed him that the +weary girl was still fast asleep. He gave directions that she was on no +account to be disturbed, and sat down to breakfast by himself. + +While he was still at table, Toff appeared, with profound mystery in +his manner, and discreet confidence in the tones of his voice. "Here's +another one, sir!" the Frenchman announced, in his master's ear. + +"Another one?" Amelius repeated. "What do you mean?" + +"She is not like the sweet little sleeping Miss." Toff explained. "This +time, sir, it's the beauty of the devil himself, as we say in France. +She refuses to confide in me; and she appears to be agitated--both bad +signs. Shall I get rid of her before the other Miss wakes?" + +"Hasn't she got a name?" Amelius asked. + +Toff answered, in his foreign accent, "One name only--Faybay." + +"Do you mean Phoebe?" + +"Have I not said it, sir?" + +"Show her in directly." + +Toff glanced at the door of Sally's room, shrugged his shoulders, and +obeyed his instructions. + +Phoebe appeared, looking pale and anxious. Her customary assurance of +manner had completely deserted her: she stopped in the doorway, as if +she was afraid to enter the room. + +"Come in, and sit down," said Amelius. "What's the matter?" + +"I'm troubled in my mind, sir," Phoebe answered. "I know it's taking a +liberty to come to you. But I went yesterday to ask Miss Regina's +advice, and found she had gone abroad with her uncle. I have something +to say about Mrs. Farnaby, sir; and there's no time to be lost in +saying it. I know of nobody but you that I can speak to, now Miss +Regina is away. The footman told me where you lived." + +She stopped, evidently in the greatest embarrassment. Amelius tried to +encourage her. "If I can be of any use to Mrs. Farnaby," he said, "tell +me at once what to do." + +Phoebe's eyes dropped before his straightforward look as he spoke to +her. + +"I must ask you to please excuse my mentioning names, sir," she resumed +confusedly. "There's a person I'm interested in, whom I wouldn't get +into trouble for the whole world. He's been misled--I'm sure he's been +misled by another person--a wicked drunken old woman, who ought to be +in prison if she had her deserts. I'm not free from blame myself--I +know I'm not. I listened, sir, to what I oughtn't to have heard; and I +told it again (I'm sure in the strictest confidence, and not meaning +anything wrong) to the person I've mentioned. Not the old women--I mean +the person I'm interested in. I hope you understand me, sir? I wish to +speak openly, excepting the names, on account of Mrs. Farnaby." + +Amelius thought of Phoebe's vindictive language the last time he had +seen her. He looked towards a cabinet in a corner of the room, in which +he had placed Mrs. Farnaby's letter. An instinctive distrust of his +visitor began to rise in his mind. His manner altered--he turned to his +plate, and went on with his breakfast. "Can't you speak to me plainly?" +he said. "Is Mrs. Farnaby in any trouble?" + +"Yes, sir." + +"And can I do anything to help her out of it?" + +"I am sure you can, sir--if you only know where to find her." + +"I do know where to find her. She has written to tell me. The last time +I saw you, you expressed yourself very improperly about Mrs. Farnaby; +you spoke as if you meant some harm to her." + +"I mean nothing but good to her now, sir." + +"Very well, then. Can't you go and speak to her yourself, if I give you +the address?" + +Phoebe's pale face flushed a little. "I couldn't do that, sir," she +answered, "after the way Mrs. Farnaby has treated me. Besides, if she +knew that I had listened to what passed between her and you--" She +stopped again, more painfully embarrassed than ever. + +Amelius laid down his knife and fork. "Look here!" he said; "this sort +of thing is not in my way. If you can't make a clean breast of it, +let's talk of something else. I'm very much afraid," he went on, with +his customary absence of all concealment, "you're not the harmless sort +of girl I once took you for. What do you mean by 'what passed between +Mrs. Farnaby and me'?" + +Phoebe put her handkerchief to her eyes. "It's very hard to speak to me +so harshly," she said, "when I'm sorry for what I've done, and am only +anxious to prevent harm coming of it." + +_"What_ have you done?" cried honest Amelius, weary of the woman's +inveterately indirect way of explaining herself to him. + +The flash of his quick temper in his eyes, as he put that +straightforward question, roused a responsive temper in Phoebe which +stung her into speaking openly at last. She told Amelius what she had +heard in the kitchen as plainly as she had told it to Jervy--with this +one difference, that she spoke without insolence when she referred to +Mrs. Farnaby. + +Listening in silence until she had done, Amelius started to his feet, +and opening the cabinet, took from it Mrs. Farnaby's letter. He read +the letter, keeping his back towards Phoebe--waited a moment +thinking--and suddenly turned on the woman with a look that made her +shrink in her chair. "You wretch!" he said; "you detestable wretch!" + +In the terror of the moment, Phoebe attempted to leave the room. +Amelius stopped her instantly. "Sit down again," he said; "I mean to +have the whole truth out of you, now." + +Phoebe recovered her courage. "You have had the whole truth, sir; I +could tell you no more if I was on my deathbed." + +Amelius refused to believe her. "There is a vile conspiracy against +Mrs. Farnaby," he said. "Do you mean to tell me you are not in it?" + +"So help me God, sir, I never even heard of it till yesterday!" + +The tone in which she spoke shook the conviction of Amelius; the +indescribable ring of truth was in it. + +"There are two people who are cruelly deluding and plundering this poor +lady," he went on. "Who are they?" + +"I told you, if you remember, that I couldn't mention names, sir." + +Amelius looked again at the letter. After what he had heard, there was +no difficulty in identifying the invisible "young man," alluded to by +Mrs. Farnaby, with the unnamed "person" in whom Phoebe was interested. +Who was he? As the question passed through his mind, Amelius remembered +the vagabond whom he had recognized with Phoebe, in the street. There +was no doubt of it now--the man who was directing the conspiracy in the +dark was Jervy! Amelius would unquestionably have been rash enough to +reveal this discovery, if Phoebe had not stopped him. His renewed +reference to Mrs. Farnaby's letter and his sudden silence after looking +at it roused the woman's suspicions. "If you're planning to get my +friend into trouble," she burst out, "not another word shall pass my +lips!" + +Even Amelius profited by the warning which that threat unintentionally +conveyed to him. + +"Keep your own secrets," he said; "I only want to spare Mrs. Farnaby a +dreadful disappointment. But I must know what I am talking about when I +go to her. Can't you tell me how you found out this abominable +swindle?" + +Phoebe was perfectly willing to tell him. Interpreting her long +involved narrative into plain English, with the names added, these were +the facts related:--Mrs. Sowler, bearing in mind some talk which had +passed between them on the occasion of a supper, had called at Phoebe's +lodgings on the previous day, and had tried to entrap her into +communicating what she knew of Mrs. Farnaby's secrets. The trap +failing, Mrs. Sowler had tried bribery next; had promised Phoebe a +large sum of money, to be equally divided between them, if she would +only speak; had declared that Jervy was perfectly capable of breaking +his promise of marriage, and "leaving them both in the lurch, if he +once got the money into his own pocket" and had thus informed Phoebe, +that the conspiracy, which she supposed to have been abandoned, was +really in full progress, without her knowledge. She had temporised with +Mrs. Sowler, being afraid to set such a person openly at defiance; and +had hurried away at once, to have an explanation with Jervy. He was +reported to be "not at home." Her fruitless visit to Regina had +followed--and there, so far as facts were concerned, was an end of the +story. + +Amelius asked her no questions, and spoke as briefly as possible when +she had done. "I will go to Mrs. Farnaby this morning," was all he +said. + +"Would you please let me hear how it ends?" Phoebe asked. + +Amelius pushed his pocket-book and pencil across the table to her, +pointing to a blank leaf on which she could write her address. While +she was thus employed the attentive Toff came in, and (with his eye on +Phoebe) whispered in his master's ear. He had heard Sally moving about. +Would it be more convenient, under the circumstances, if she had her +breakfast in her own room? Toff's astonishment was a sight to see when +Amelius answered, "Certainly not. Let her breakfast here." + +Phoebe rose to go. Her parting words revealed the double-sided nature +that was in her; the good and evil in perpetual conflict which should +be uppermost. + +"Please don't mention me, sir, to Mrs. Farnaby," she said. "I don't +forgive her for what she's done to me; I don't say I won't be even with +her yet. But not in _that_ way! I won't have her death laid at my door. +Oh, but I know her temper--and I say it's as likely as not to kill her +or drive her mad, if she isn't warned about it in time. Never mind her +losing her money. If it's lost, it's lost, and she's got plenty more. +She may be robbed a dozen times over for all I care. But don't let her +set her heart on seeing her child, and then find it's all a swindle. I +hate her; but I can't and won't, let _that_ go on. Good-morning, sir." + +Amelius was relieved by her departure. For a minute or two, he sat +absently stirring his coffee, and considering how he might most safely +perform the terrible duty of putting Mrs. Farnaby on her guard. Toff +interrupted his meditations by preparing the table for Sally's +breakfast; and, almost at the same moment, Sally herself, fresh and +rosy, opened her door a little way, and looked in. + +"You have had a fine long sleep," said Amelius. "Have you quite got +over your walk yesterday?" + +"Oh yes," she answered gaily; "I only feel my long walk now in my feet. +It hurts me to put my boots on. Can you lend me a pair of slippers?" + +"A pair of my slippers? Why, Sally, you would be lost in them! What's +the matter with your feet?" + +"They're both sore. And I think one of them has got a blister on it." + +"Come in, and let's have a look at it?" + +She came limping in, with her feet bare. "Don't scold me," she pleaded, +"I couldn't put my stockings on again, without washing them; and +they're not dry yet." + +"I'll get you new stockings and slippers," said Amelius. "Which is the +foot with the blister?" + +"The left foot," she answered, pointing to it. + + + +CHAPTER 5 + +"Let me see the blister," said Amelius. + +Sally looked longingly at the fire. + +"May I warm my feet first?" she asked; "they are so cold." + +In those words she innocently deferred the discovery which, if it had +been made at the moment, might have altered the whole after-course of +events. Amelius only thought now of preventing her from catching cold. +He sent Toff for a pair of the warmest socks that he possessed, and +asked if he should put them on for her. She smiled, and shook her head, +and put them on for herself. + +When they had done laughing at the absurd appearance of the little feet +in the large socks, they only drifted farther and farther away from the +subject of the blistered foot. Sally remembered the terrible matron, +and asked if anything had been heard of her that morning. Being told +that Mrs. Payson had written, and that the doors of the institution +were closed to her, she recovered her spirits, and began to wonder +whether the offended authorities would let her have her clothes. Toff +offered to go and make the inquiry, later in the day; suggesting the +purchase of slippers and stockings, in the mean time, while Sally was +having her breakfast. Amelius approved of the suggestion; and Toff set +off on his errand, with one of Sally's boots for a pattern. + +The morning had, by that time, advanced to ten o'clock. + +Amelius stood before the fire talking, while Sally had her breakfast. +Having first explained the reasons which made it impossible that she +should live at the cottage in the capacity of his servant, he +astonished her by announcing that he meant to undertake the +superintendence of her education himself. They were to be master and +pupil, while the lessons were in progress; and brother and sister at +other times--and they were to see how they got on together, on this +plan, without indulging in any needless anxiety about the future. +Amelius believed with perfect sincerity that he had hit on the only +sensible arrangement, under the circumstances; and Sally cried +joyously, "Oh, how good you are to me; the happy life has come at +last!" At the hour when those words passed the daughter's lips, the +discovery of the conspiracy burst upon the mother in all its baseness +and in all its horror. + +The suspicion of her infamous employer, which had induced Mrs. Sowler +to attempt to intrude herself into Phoebe's confidence, led her to make +a visit of investigation at Jervy's lodgings later in the day. +Informed, as Phoebe had been informed, that he was not at home, she +called again some hours afterwards. By that time, the landlord had +discovered that Jervy's luggage had been secretly conveyed away, and +that his tenant had left him, in debt for rent of the two best rooms in +the house. + +No longer in any doubt of what had happened, Mrs. Sowler employed the +remaining hours of the evening in making inquiries after the missing +man. Not a trace of him had been discovered up to eight o'clock on the +next morning. + +Shortly after nine o'clock--that is to say, towards the hour at which +Phoebe paid her visit to Amelius--Mrs. Sowler, resolute to know the +worst, made her appearance at the apartments occupied by Mrs. Farnaby. + +"I wish to speak to you," she began abruptly, "about that young man we +both know of. Have you seen anything of him lately?" + +Mrs. Farnaby, steadily on her guard, deferred answering the question. +"Why do you want to know?" she said. + +The reply was instantly ready. "Because I have reason to believe he has +bolted, with your money in his pocket." + +"He has done nothing of the sort," Mrs. Farnaby rejoined. + +"Has he got your money?" Mrs. Sowler persisted. "Tell me the truth--and +I'll do the same by you. He has cheated me. If you're cheated too, it's +your own interest to lose no time in finding him. The police may catch +him yet. _Has_ he got your money?" + +The woman was in earnest--in terrible earnest--her eyes and her voice +both bore witness to it. She stood there, the living impersonation of +those doubts and fears which Mrs. Farnaby had confessed, in writing to +Amelius. Her position, at that moment, was essentially a position of +command. Mrs. Farnaby felt it in spite of herself. She acknowledged +that Jervy had got the money. + +"Did you sent it to him, or give it to him?" Mrs. Sowler asked. + +"I gave it to him." + +"When?" + +"Yesterday evening." + +Mrs. Sowler clenched her fists, and shook them in impotent rage. "He's +the biggest scoundrel living," she exclaimed furiously; "and you're the +biggest fool! Put on your bonnet and come to the police. If you get +your money back again before he's spent it all, don't forget it was +through me." + +The audacity of the woman's language roused Mrs. Farnaby. She pointed +to the door. "You are an insolent creature," she said; "I have nothing +more to do with you." + +"You have nothing more to do with me?" Mrs. Sowler repeated. "You and +the young man have settled it all between you, I suppose." She laughed +scornfully. "I dare say now you expect to see him again?" + +Mrs. Farnaby was irritated into answering this. "I expect to see him +this morning," she said, "at ten o'clock." + +"And the lost young lady with him?" + +"Say nothing about my lost daughter! I won't even hear you speak of +her." + +Mrs. Sowler sat down. "Look at your watch," she said. "It must be nigh +on ten o'clock by this time. You'll make a disturbance in the house if +you try to turn me out. I mean to wait here till ten o'clock." + +On the point of answering angrily, Mrs. Farnaby restrained herself. +"You are trying to force a quarrel on me," she said; "you shan't spoil +the happiest morning of my life. Wait here by yourself." + +She opened the door that led into her bedchamber, and shut herself in. +Perfectly impenetrable to any repulse that could be offered to her, +Mrs. Sowler looked at the closed door with a sardonic smile, and +waited. + +The clock in the hall struck ten. Mrs. Farnaby returned again to the +sitting-room, walked straight to the window, and looked out. + +"Any sign of him?" said Mrs. Sowler. + +There were no signs of him. Mrs. Farnaby drew a chair to the window, +and sat down. Her hands turned icy cold. She still looked out into the +street. + +"I'm going to guess what's happened," Mrs. Sowler resumed. "I'm a +sociable creature, you know, and I must talk about something. About the +money, now? Has the young man had his travelling expenses of you? To go +to foreign parts, and bring your girl back with him, eh? I expect +that's how it was. You see, I know him so well. And what happened, if +you please, yesterday evening? Did he tell you he'd brought her back, +and got her at his own place? And did he say he wouldn't let you see +her till you paid him his reward as well as his travelling expenses? +And did you forget my warning to you not to trust him? I'm a good one +at guessing when I try. I see you think so yourself. Any signs of him +yet?" + +Mrs. Farnaby looked round from the window. Her manner was completely +changed; she was nervously civil to the wretch who was torturing her. +"I beg your pardon, ma'am, if I have offended you," she said faintly. +"I am a little upset--I am so anxious about my poor child. Perhaps you +are a mother yourself? You oughtn't to frighten me; you ought to feel +for me." She paused, and put her hand to her head. "He told me +yesterday evening," she went on slowly and vacantly, "that my poor +darling was at his lodgings; he said she was so worn out with the long +journey from abroad, that she must have a night's rest before she could +come to me. I asked him to tell me where he lived, and let me go to +her. He said she was asleep and must not be disturbed. I promised to go +in on tiptoe, and only look at her; I offered him more money, double +the money to tell me where she was. He was very hard on me. He only +said, wait till ten tomorrow morning--and wished me goodnight. I ran +out to follow him, and fell on the stairs, and hurt myself. The people +of the house were very kind to me." She turned her head back towards +the window, and looked out into the street again. "I must be patient," +she said; "he's only a little late." + +Mrs. Sowler rose, and tapped her smartly on the shoulder. "Lies!" she +burst out. "He knows no more where your daughter is than I do--and he's +off with your money!" + +The woman's hateful touch struck out a spark of the old fire in Mrs. +Farnaby. Her natural force of character asserted itself once more. +_"You_ lie!" she rejoined. "Leave the room!" + +The door was opened, while she spoke. A respectable woman-servant came +in with a letter. Mrs. Farnaby took it mechanically, and looked at the +address. Jervy's feigned handwriting was familiar to her. In the +instant when she recognized it, the life seemed to go out of her like +an extinguished light. She stood pale and still and silent, with the +unopened letter in her hand. + +Watching her with malicious curiosity, Mrs. Sowler coolly possessed +herself of the letter, looked at it, and recognized the writing in her +turn. "Stop!" she cried, as the servant was on the point of going out. +"There's no stamp on this letter. Was it brought by hand? Is the +messenger waiting?" + +The respectable servant showed her opinion of Mrs. Sowler plainly in +her face. She replied as briefly and as ungraciously as +possible:--"No." + +"Man or woman?" was the next question. + +"Am I to answer this person, ma'am?" said the servant, looking at Mrs. +Farnaby. + +"Answer me instantly," Mrs. Sowler interposed--"in Mrs. Farnaby's own +interests. Don't you see she can't speak to you herself?" + +"Well, then," said the servant, "it was a man." + +"A man with a squint?" + +"Yes." + +"Which way did he go?" + +"Towards the square." + +Mrs. Sowler tossed the letter on the table, and hurried out of the +room. The servant approached Mrs. Farnaby. "You haven't opened your +letter yet, ma'am," she said. + +"No," said Mrs. Farnaby vacantly, "I haven't opened it yet." + +"I'm afraid it's bad news, ma'am?" + +"Yes. I think it's bad news." + +"Is there anything I can do for you?" + +"No, thank you. Yes; one thing. Open my letter for me, please." + +It was a strange request to make. The servant wondered, and obeyed. She +was a kind-hearted woman; she really felt for the poor lady. But the +familiar household devil, whose name is Curiosity, and whose +opportunities are innumerable, prompted her next words when she had +taken the letter out of the envelope:--"Shall I read it to you, ma'am?" + +"No. Put it down on the table, please. I'll ring when I want you." + +The mother was alone--alone, with her death-warrant waiting for her on +the table. + +The clock downstairs struck the half hour after ten. She moved, for the +first time since she had received the letter. Once more she went to the +window, and looked out. It was only for a moment. She turned away +again, with a sudden contempt for herself. "What a fool I am!" she +said--and took up the open letter. + +She looked at it, and put it down again. "Why should I read it," she +asked herself, "when I know what is in it, without reading?" + +Some framed woodcuts from the illustrated newspapers were hung on the +walls. One of them represented a scene of rescue from shipwreck. A +mother embracing her daughter, saved by the lifeboat, was among the +foreground groups. The print was entitled, "The Mercy of Providence." +Mrs. Farnaby looked at it with a moment's steady attention. "Providence +has its favourites," she said; "I am not one of them." + +After thinking a little, she went into her bedroom, and took two papers +out of her dressing-case. They were medical prescriptions. + +She turned next to the chimneypiece. Two medicine-bottles were placed +on it. She took one of them down--a bottle of the ordinary size, known +among chemists as a six-ounce bottle. It contained a colourless liquid. +The label stated the dose to be "two table-spoonfuls," and bore, as +usual, a number corresponding with a number placed on the prescription. +She took up the prescription. It was a mixture of bi-carbonate of soda +and prussic acid, intended for the relief of indigestion. She looked at +the date, and was at once reminded of one of the very rare occasions on +which she had required the services of a medical man. There had been a +serious accident at a dinner-party, given by some friends. She had +eaten sparingly of a certain dish, from which some of the other guests +had suffered severely. It was discovered that the food had been cooked +in an old copper saucepan. In her case, the trifling result had been a +disturbance of digestion, and nothing more. The doctor had prescribed +accordingly. She had taken but one dose: with her healthy constitution +she despised physic. The remainder of the mixture was still in the +bottle. + +She considered again with herself--then went back to the chimneypiece, +and took down the second bottle. + +It contained a colourless liquid also; but it was only half the size of +the first bottle, and not a drop had been taken. She waited, observing +the difference between the two bottles with extraordinary attention. In +this case also, the prescription was in her possession--but it was not +the original. A line at the top stated that it was a copy made by the +chemist, at the request of a customer. It bore the date of more than +three years since. A morsel of paper was pinned to the prescription, +containing some lines in a woman's handwriting:--"With your enviable +health and strength, my dear, I should have thought you were the last +person in the world to want a tonic. However, here is my prescription, +if you must have it. Be very careful to take the right dose, because +there's poison in it." The prescription contained three ingredients, +strychnine, quinine, and nitro-hydrochloric acid; and the dose was +fifteen drops in water. Mrs. Farnaby lit a match, and burnt the lines +of her friend's writing. "As long ago as that," she reflected, "I +thought of killing myself. Why didn't I do it?" + +The paper having been destroyed, she put back the prescription for +indigestion in her dressing-case; hesitated for a moment; and opened +the bedroom window. It looked into a lonely little courtyard. She threw +the dangerous contents of the second and smaller bottle out into the +yard--and then put it back empty on the chimneypiece. After another +moment of hesitation, she returned to the sitting-room, with the bottle +of mixture, and the copied prescription for the tonic strychnine drops, +in her hand. + +She put the bottle on the table, and advanced to the fireplace to ring +the bell. Warm as the room was, she began to shiver. Did the eager life +in her feel the fatal purpose that she was meditating, and shrink from +it? Instead of ringing the bell, she bent over the fire, trying to warm +herself. + +"Other women would get relief in crying," she thought. "I wish I was +like other women!" + +The whole sad truth about herself was in that melancholy aspiration. No +relief in tears, no merciful oblivion in a fainting-fit, for _her._ The +terrible strength of the vital organization in this woman knew no +yielding to the unutterable misery that wrung her to the soul. It +roused its glorious forces to resist: it held her in a stony quiet, +with a grip of iron. + +She turned away from the fire wondering at herself. "What baseness is +there in me that fears death? What have I got to live for _now?"_ The +open letter on the table caught her eye. "This will do it!" she +said--and snatched it up, and read it at last. + +"The least I can do for you is to act like a gentleman, and spare you +unnecessary suspense. You will not see me this morning at ten, for the +simple reason that I really don't know, and never did know, where to +find your daughter. I wish I was rich enough to return the money. Not +being able to do that, I will give you a word of advice instead. The +next time you confide any secrets of yours to Mr. Goldenheart, take +better care that no third person hears you." + +She read those atrocious lines, without any visible disturbance of the +dreadful composure that possessed her. Her mind made no effort to +discover the person who had listened and betrayed her. To all ordinary +curiosities, to all ordinary emotions, she was morally dead already. + +The one thought in her was a thought that might have occurred to a man. +"If I only had my hands on his throat, how I could wring the life out +of him! As it is--" Instead of pursuing the reflection, she threw the +letter into the fire, and rang the bell. + +"Take this at once to the nearest chemist's," she said, giving the +strychnine prescription to the servant; "and wait, please, and bring it +back with you." + +She opened her desk, when she was alone, and tore up the letters and +papers in it. This done, she took her pen, and wrote a letter. It was +addressed to Amelius. + +When the servant entered the room again, bringing with her the +prescription made up, the clock downstairs struck eleven. + + + +CHAPTER 6 + +Toff returned to the cottage, with the slippers and the stockings. + +"What a time you have been gone!" said Amelius. + +"It is not my fault, sir," Toff explained. "The stockings I obtained +without difficulty. But the nearest shoe shop in this neighbourhood +sold only coarse manufactures, and all too large. I had to go to my +wife, and get her to take me to the right place. See!" he exclaimed, +producing a pair of quilted silk slippers with blue rosettes, "here is +a design, that is really worthy of pretty feet. Try them on, Miss." + +Sally's eyes sparkled at the sight of the slippers. She rose at once, +and limped away to her room. Amelius, observing that she still walked +in pain, called her back. "I had forgotten the blister," he said. +"Before you put on the new stockings, Sally, let me see your foot." He +turned to Toff. "You're always ready with everything," he went on; "I +wonder whether you have got a needle and a bit of worsted thread?" + +The old Frenchman answered, with an air of respectful reproach. +"Knowing me, sir, as you do," he said, "could you doubt for a moment +that I mend my own clothes and darn my own stockings?" He withdrew to +his bedroom below, and returned with a leather roll. "When you are +ready, sir?" he said, opening the roll at the table, and threading the +needle, while Sally removed the sock from her left foot. + +She took a chair near the window, at the suggestion of Amelius. He +knelt down so as to raise her foot to his knee. "Turn a little more +towards the light," he said. He took the foot in his hand, lifted it, +looked at it--and suddenly let it drop back on the floor. + +A cry of alarm from Sally instantly brought Toff to the window. "Oh, +look!" she cried; "he's ill!" Toff lifted Amelius to a chair. "For +God's sake, sir," cried the terrified old man, "what's the matter?" +Amelius had turned to the strange ashy paleness which is only seen in +men of his florid complexion, overwhelmed by sudden emotion. He +stammered when he tried to speak. "Fetch the brandy!" said Toff, +pointing to the liqueur-case on the sideboard. Sally brought it at +once; the strong stimulant steadied Amelius. + +"I'm sorry to have frightened you," he said faintly. "Sally!--Dear, +dear little Sally, go in, and get your things on directly. You must +come out with me; I'll tell you why afterwards. My God! why didn't I +find this out before?" He noticed Toff, wondering and trembling. "Good +old fellow! don't alarm yourself--you shall know about it, too. Go! +run! get the first cab you can find!" + +Left alone for a few minutes, he had time to compose himself. He did +his best to take advantage of the time; he tried to prepare his mind +for the coming interview with Mrs. Farnaby. "I must be careful of what +I do," he thought, conscious of the overwhelming effect of the +discovery on himself; "She doesn't expect _me_ to bring her daughter to +her." + +Sally returned to him, ready to go out. She seemed to be afraid of him, +when he approached her, and took her hand. "Have I done anything +wrong?" she asked, in her childish way. "Are you going to take me to +some other Home?" The tone and look with which she put the question +burst through the restraints which Amelius had imposed on himself for +her sake. "My dear child!" he said, "can you bear a great surprise? I'm +dying to tell you the truth--and I hardly dare do it." He took her in +his arms. She trembled piteously. Instead of answering him, she +reiterated her question, "Are you going to take me to some other Home?" +He could endure it no longer. "This is the happiest day of your life, +Sally!" he cried; "I am going to take you to your mother." + +He held her close to him, and looked at her in dread of having spoken +too plainly. + +She slowly lifted her eyes to him in vacant fear and surprise; she +burst into no expression of delight; no overwhelming emotion made her +sink fainting in his arms. The sacred associations which gather round +the mere name of Mother were associations unknown to her; the man who +held her to him so tenderly, the hero who had pitied and saved her, was +father and mother both to her simple mind. She dropped her head on his +breast; her faltering voice told him that she was crying. "Will my +mother take me away from you?" she asked. "Oh, do promise to bring me +back with you to the cottage!" + +For the moment, and the moment only, Amelius was disappointed in her. +The generous sympathies in his nature guided him unerringly to the +truer view. He remembered what her life had been. Inexpressible pity +for her filled his heart. "Oh, my poor Sally, the time is coming when +you will not think as you think now! I will do nothing to distress you. +You mustn't cry--you must be happy, and loving and true to your +mother." She dried her eyes, "I'll do anything you tell me," she said, +"as long as you bring me back with you." + +Amelius sighed, and said no more. He took her out with him gravely and +silently, when the cab was announced to be ready. "Double your fare," +he said, when he gave the driver his instructions, "if you get there in +a quarter of an hour." It wanted twenty-five minutes to twelve when the +cab left the cottage. + +At that moment, the contrast of feeling between the two could hardly +have been more strongly marked. In proportion as Amelius became more +and more agitated, so Sally recovered the composure and confidence that +she had lost. The first question she put to him related, not to her +mother, but to his strange behaviour when he had knelt down to look at +her foot. He answered, explaining to her briefly and plainly what his +conduct meant. The description of what had passed between her mother +and Amelius interested and yet perplexed her. "How can she be so fond +of me, without knowing anything about me for all those years?" she +asked. "Is my mother a lady? Don't tell her where you found me; she +might be ashamed of me." She paused, and looked at Amelius anxiously. +"Are you vexed about something? May I take hold of your hand?" Amelius +gave her his hand; and Sally was satisfied. + +As the cab drew up at the house, the door was opened from within. A +gentleman, dressed in black, hurriedly came out; looked at Amelius; and +spoke to him as he stepped from the cab to the pavement. + +"I beg your pardon, sir. May I ask if you are any relative of the lady +who lives in this house?" + +"No relative," Amelius answered. "Only a friend, who brings good news +to her." + +The stranger's grave face suddenly became compassionate as well as +grave. "I must speak with you before you go upstairs," he said, +lowering his voice as he looked at Sally, still seated in the cab. "You +will perhaps excuse the liberty I am taking, when I tell you that I am +a medical man. Come into the hall for a moment--and don't bring the +young lady with you." + +Amelius told Sally to wait in the cab. She saw his altered looks, and +entreated him not to leave her. He promised to keep the house door open +so that she could see him while he was away from her, and hastened into +the hall. + +"I am sorry to say I have bad, very bad, news for you," the doctor +began. "Time is of serious importance--I must speak plainly. You have +heard of mistakes made by taking the wrong bottle of medicine? The poor +lady upstairs is, I fear, in a dying state, from an accident of that +sort. Try to compose yourself. You may really be of use to me, if you +are firm enough to take my place while I am away." + +Amelius steadied himself instantly. "What I can do, I will do," he +answered. + +The doctor looked at him. "I believe you," he said. "Now listen. In +this case, a dose limited to fifteen drops has been confounded with a +dose of two table-spoonsful; and the drug taken by mistake is +strychnine. One grain of the poison has been known to prove fatal--she +has taken three. The convulsion fits have begun. Antidotes are out of +the question--the poor creature can swallow nothing. I have heard of +opium as a possible means of relief; and I am going to get the +instrument for injecting it under the skin. Not that I have much belief +in the remedy; but I must try something. Have you courage enough to +hold her, if another of the convulsions comes on in my absence?" + +"Will it relieve her, if I hold her?" Amelius, asked. + +"Certainly." + +"Then I promise to do it." + +"Mind! you must do it thoroughly. There are only two women upstairs; +both perfectly useless in this emergency. If she shrieks to you to be +held, exert your strength--take her with a firm grasp. If you only +touch her (I can't explain it, but it is so), you will make matters +worse." + +The servant ran downstairs, while he was speaking. "Don't leave us, +sir--I'm afraid it's coming on again." + +"This gentleman will help you, while I am away," said the doctor. "One +word more," he went on, addressing Amelius. "In the intervals between +the fits, she is perfectly conscious; able to listen, and even to +speak. If she has any last wishes to communicate, make good use of the +time. She may die of exhaustion, at any moment. I will be back +directly." + +He hurried to the door. + +"Take my cab," said Amelius, "and save time." + +"But the young lady--" + +"Leave her to me." He opened the cab door, and gave his hand to Sally. +It was done in a moment. The doctor drove off. + +Amelius saw the servant waiting for them in the hall. He spoke to +Sally, telling her, considerately and gently, what he had heard, before +he took her into the house. "I had such good hopes for you," he said; +"and it has come to this dreadful end! Have you courage to go through +with it, if I take you to her bedside? You will be glad one day, my +dear, to remember that you cheered your mother's last moments on +earth." + +Sally put her hand in his. "I will go anywhere," she said softly, "with +You." + +Amelius led her into the house. The servant, in pity for her youth, +ventured on a word of remonstrance. "Oh, sir, you're not going to let +the poor young lady see that dreadful sight upstairs!" + +"You mean well," Amelius answered; "and I thank you. If you knew what I +know, you would take her upstairs, too. Show the way." + +Sally looked at him in silent awe as they followed the servant +together. He was not like the same man. His brows were knit; his lips +were fast set; he held the girl's hand in a grip that hurt her. The +latent strength of will in him--that reserved resolution, so finely and +firmly entwined in the natures of sensitively organized men--was +rousing itself to meet the coming trial. The doctor would have doubly +believed in him, if the doctor had seen him at that moment. + +They reached the first-floor landing. + +Before the servant could open the drawing-room door, a shriek rang +frightfully through the silence of the house. The servant drew back, +and crouched trembling on the upper stairs. At the same moment, the +door was flung open, and another woman ran out, wild with terror. "I +can't bear it!" she cried, and rushed up the stairs, blind to the +presence of strangers in the panic that possessed her. Amelius entered +the drawing-room, with his arm round Sally, holding her up. As he +placed her in a chair, the dreadful cry was renewed. He only waited to +rouse and encourage her by a word and a look--and ran into the bedroom. + +For an instant, and an instant only, he stood horror-struck in the +presence of the poisoned woman. + +The fell action of the strychnine wrung every muscle in her with the +torture of convulsion. Her hands were fast clenched; her head was bent +back: her body, rigid as a bar of iron, was arched upwards from the +bed, resting on the two extremities of the head and the heels: the +staring eyes, the dusky face, the twisted lips, the clenched teeth, +were frightful to see. He faced it. After the one instant of +hesitation, he faced it. + +Before she could cry out again, his hands were on her. The whole +exertion of his strength was barely enough to keep the frenzied throbs +of the convulsion, as it reached its climax, from throwing her off the +bed. Through the worst of it, he was still equal to the trust that had +been placed in him, still faithful to the work of mercy. Little by +little, he felt the lessening resistance of the rigid body, as the +paroxysm began to subside. He saw the ghastly stare die out of her +eyes, and the twisted lips relax from their dreadful grin. The tortured +body sank, and rested; the perspiration broke out on her face; her +languid hands fell gently over on the bed. For a while, the heavy +eyelids closed--then opened again feebly. She looked at him. "Do you +know me?" he asked, bending over her. And she answered in a faint +whisper, "Amelius!" + +He knelt down by her, and kissed her hand. "Can you listen, if I tell +you something?" + +She breathed heavily; her bosom heaved under the suffocating oppression +that weighed upon it. As he took her in his arms to raise her in the +bed, Sally's voice reached him, in low imploring tones, from the next +room. "Oh, let me come to you! I'm so frightened here by myself." + +He waited, before he told her to come in, looking for a moment at the +face that was resting on his breast. A gray shadow was stealing over +it; a cold and clammy moisture struck a chill through him as he put his +hand on her forehead. He turned towards the next room. The girl had +ventured as far as the door; he beckoned to her. She came in timidly, +and stood by him, and looked at her mother. Amelius signed to her to +take his place. "Put your arms round her," he whispered. "Oh, Sally, +tell her who you are in a kiss!" The girl's tears fell fast as she +pressed her lips on her mother's cheek. The dying woman looked at her, +with a glance of helpless inquiry--then looked at Amelius. The doubt in +her eyes was too dreadful to be endured. Arranging the pillows so that +she could keep her raised position in the bed, he signed to Sally to +approach him, and removed the slipper from her left foot. As he took it +off, he looked again at the bed--looked and shuddered. In a moment +more, it might be too late. With his knife he ripped up the stocking, +and, lifting her on the bed, put her bare foot on her mother's lap. +"Your child! your child!" he cried; "I've found your own darling! For +God's sake, rouse yourself! Look!" + +She heard him. She lifted her feebly declining head. She looked. She +knew. + +For one awful moment, the sinking vital forces rallied, and hurled back +the hold of Death. Her eyes shone radiant with the divine light of +maternal love; an exulting cry of rapture burst from her. Slowly, very +slowly, she bent forward, until her face rested on her daughter's foot. +With a faint sigh of ecstasy she kissed it. The moments passed--and the +bent head was raised no more. The last beat of the heart was a beat of +joy. + + + +BOOK THE EIGHTH + +DAME NATURE DECIDES + +CHAPTER 1 + +The day which had united the mother and daughter, only to part them +again in this world for ever, had advanced to evening. + +Amelius and Sally were together again in the cottage, sitting by the +library fire. The silence in the room was uninterrupted. On the open +desk, near Amelius, lay the letter which Mrs. Farnaby had written to +him on the morning of her death. + +He had found the letter--with the envelope unfastened--on the floor of +the bedchamber, and had fortunately secured it before the landlady and +the servant had ventured back to the room. The doctor, returning a few +minutes afterwards, had warned the two women that a coroner's inquest +would be held in the house, and had vainly cautioned them to be careful +of what they said or did in the interval. Not only the subject of the +death, but a discovery which had followed, revealing the name of the +ill-fated woman marked on her linen, and showing that she had used an +assumed name in taking the lodgings as Mrs. Ronald, became the gossip +of the neighbourhood in a few hours. Under these circumstances, the +catastrophe was made the subject of a paragraph in the evening +journals; the name being added for the information of any surviving +relatives who might be ignorant of the sad event. If the landlady had +found the letter, that circumstance also would in all probability, have +formed part of the statement in the newspapers, and the secret of Mrs. +Farnaby's life and death would have been revealed to the public view. + +"I can trust you, and you only," she wrote to Amelius, "to fulfil the +last wishes of a dying woman. You know me, and you know how I looked +forward to the prospect of a happy life in retirement with my child. +The one hope that I lived for has proved to be a cruel delusion. I have +only this morning discovered, beyond the possibility of doubt, that I +have been made the victim of wretches who have deliberately lied to me +from first to last. If I had been a happier woman, I might have had +other interests to sustain me under this frightful disaster. Such as I +am, Death is my one refuge left. + +"My suicide will be known to no creature but yourself. Some years +since, the idea of self destruction--concealed under the disguise of a +common mistake--presented itself to my mind. I kept the means, very +simple means, by me, thinking I might end in that way after all. When +you read this I shall be at rest for ever. You will do what I have yet +to ask of you, in merciful remembrance of me--I am sure of that. + +"You have a long life before you, Amelius. My foolish fancy about you +and my lost girl still lingers in my mind; I still think it may be just +possible that you may meet with her, in the course of years. + +"If this does happen, I implore you, by the tenderness and pity that +you once felt for me, to tell no human creature that she is my +daughter; and, if John Farnaby is living at the time, I forbid you, +with the authority of a dying friend, to let her see him, or to let her +know even that such a person exists. Are you at a loss to account for +my motives? I may make the shameful confession which will enlighten +you, now I know that we shall never meet again. My child was born +before my marriage; and the man who afterwards became my husband--a man +of low origin, I should tell you--was the father. He had calculated on +this disgraceful circumstance to force my parents to make his fortune, +by making me his wife. I now know, what I only vaguely suspected +before, that he deliberately abandoned his child, as a likely cause of +hindrance and scandal in the way of his prosperous career in life. Do +you now think I am asking too much, when I entreat you never even to +speak to my lost darling of this unnatural wretch? As for my own fair +fame, I am not thinking of myself. With Death close at my side, I think +of my poor mother, and of all that she suffered and sacrificed to save +me from the disgrace that I had deserved. For her sake, not for mine, +keep silence to friends and enemies alike if they ask you who my girl +is--with the one exception of my lawyer. Years since, I left in his +care the means of making a small provision for my child, on the chance +that she might live to claim it. You can show him this letter as your +authority, in case of need. + +"Try not to forget me, Amelius--but don't grieve about me. I go to my +death as you go to your sleep when you are tired. I leave you my +grateful love--you have always been good to me. There is no more to +write; I hear the servant returning from the chemist's, bringing with +her only release from the hard burden of life without hope. May you be +happier than I have been! Goodbye!" + +So she parted from him for ever. But the fatal association of the +unhappy woman's sorrows with the life and fortune of Amelius was not at +an end yet. + +He had neither hesitation nor misgiving in resolving to show a natural +respect to the wishes of the dead. Now that the miserable story of the +past had been unreservedly disclosed to him, he would have felt himself +bound in honour, even without instructions to guide him, to keep the +discovery of the daughter a secret, for the mother's sake. With that +conviction, he had read the distressing letter. With that conviction, +he now rose to provide for the safe keeping of it under lock and key. + + +Just as he had secured the letter in a private drawer of his desk, Toff +came in with a card, and announced that a gentleman wished to see him. +Amelius, looking at the card, was surprised to find on it the name of +"Mr. Melton." Some lines were written on it in pencil: "I have called +to speak with you on a matter of serious importance." Wondering what +his middle-aged rival could want with him, Amelius instructed Toff to +admit the visitor. + +Sally started to her feet, with her customary distrust of strangers. +"May I run away before he comes in?" she asked. "If you like," Amelius +answered quietly. She ran to the door of her room, at the moment when +Toff appeared again, announcing the visitor. Mr. Melton entered just +before she disappeared: he saw the flutter of her dress as the door +closed behind her. + +"I fear I am disturbing you?" he said, looking hard at the door. + +He was perfectly dressed: his hat and gloves were models of what such +things ought to be; he was melancholy and courteous; blandly +distrustful of the flying skirts which he had seen at the door. When +Amelius offered him a chair, he took it with a mysterious sigh; +mournfully resigned to the sad necessity of sitting down. "I won't +prolong my intrusion on you," he resumed. "You have no doubt seen the +melancholy news in the evening papers?" + +"I haven't seen the evening papers," Amelius answered; "what news do +you mean?" + +Mr. Melton leaned back in his chair, and expressed emotions of sorrow +and surprise, in a perfect state of training, by gently raising his +smooth white hands. + +"Oh dear, dear! this is very sad. I had hoped to find you in full +possession of the particulars--reconciled, as we must all be, to the +inscrutable ways of Providence. Permit me to break it to you as gently +as possible. I came here to inquire if you had heard yet from Miss +Regina. Understand my motive! there must be no misapprehension between +us on that subject. There is a very serious necessity--pray follow me +carefully--I say, a very serious necessity for my communicating +immediately with Miss Regina's uncle; and I know of nobody who is so +likely to hear from the travellers, so soon after their departure, as +yourself. You are, in a certain sense, a member of the family--" + +"Stop a minute," said Amelius. + +"I beg your pardon?" said Mr. Melton politely, at a loss to understand +the interruption. + +"I didn't at first know what you meant," Amelius explained. "You put +it, if you will forgive me for saying so, in rather a roundabout way. +If you are alluding, all this time, to Mrs. Farnaby's death, I must +honestly tell you that I know of it already." + +The bland self-possession of Mr. Melton's face began to show signs of +being ruffled. He had been in a manner deluded into exhibiting his +conventionally fluent eloquence, in the choicest modulations of his +sonorous voice--and it wounded his self esteem to be placed in his +present position. "I understood you to say," he remarked stiffly, "that +you had not seen the evening newspapers." + +"You are quite right," Amelius rejoined; "I have not seen them." + +"Then may I inquire," Mr. Melton proceeded, "how you became informed of +Mrs. Farnaby's death?" + +Amelius replied with his customary frankness. "I went to call on the +poor lady this morning," he said, "knowing nothing of what had +happened. I met the doctor at the door; and I was present at her +death." + +Even Mr. Melton's carefully-trained composure was not proof against the +revelation that now opened before him. He burst out with an exclamation +of astonishment, like an ordinary man. + +"Good heavens, what does this mean!" + +Amelius took it as a question addressed to himself. "I'm sure I don't +know," he said quietly. + +Mr. Melton, misunderstanding Amelius on his side, interpreted those +innocent words as an outbreak of vulgar interruption. "Pardon me," he +said coldly. "I was about to explain myself. You will presently +understand my surprise. After seeing the evening paper, I went at once +to make inquiries at the address mentioned. In Mr. Farnaby's absence, I +felt bound to do this as his old friend. I saw the landlady, and, with +her assistance, the doctor also. Both these persons spoke of a +gentleman who had called that morning, accompanied by a young lady; and +who had insisted on taking the young lady upstairs with him. Until you +mentioned just now that you were present at the death, I had no +suspicion that you were 'the gentleman'. Surprise on my part was, I +think, only natural. I could hardly be expected to know that you were +in Mrs. Farnaby's confidence about the place of her retreat. And with +regard to the young lady, I am still quite at a loss to understand--" + +"If you understand that the people at the house told you the truth, so +far as I am concerned," Amelius interposed, "I hope that will be +enough. With regard to the young lady, I must beg you to excuse me for +speaking plainly. I have nothing to say about her, to you or to +anybody." + +Mr. Melton rose with the utmost dignity and the fullest possession of +his vocal resources. + +"Permit me to assure you," he said, with frigidly fluent politeness, +"that I have no wish to force myself into your confidence. One remark I +will venture to make. It is easy enough, no doubt, to keep your own +secrets, when you are speaking to _me._ You will find some difficulty, +I fear, in pursuing the same course, when you are called upon to give +evidence before the coroner. I presume you know that you will be +summoned as a witness at the inquest?" + +"I left my name and address with the doctor for that purpose," Amelius +rejoined as composedly as ever; "and I am ready to bear witness to what +I saw at poor Mrs. Farnaby's bedside. But if all the coroners in +England questioned me about anything else, I should say to them just +what I have said to you." + +Mr. Melton smiled with well bred irony. "We shall see," he said. "In +the mean time, I presume I may ask you, in the interests of the family, +to send me the address on the letter, as soon as you hear from Miss +Regina. I have no other means of communicating with Mr. Farnaby. In +respect to the melancholy event, I may add that I have undertaken to +provide for the funeral, and to pay any little outstanding debts, and +so forth. As Mr. Farnaby's old friend and representative--" + +The conclusion of the sentence was interrupted by the entrance of Toff +with a note, and an apology for his intrusion. "I beg your pardon, sir; +the person is waiting. She says it's only a receipt to sign. The box is +in the hall." + +Amelius examined the enclosure. It was a formal document, acknowledging +the receipt of Sally's clothes, returned to her by the authorities at +the Home. As he took a pen to sign the receipt he looked towards the +door of Sally's room. Mr. Melton, observing the look, prepared to +retire. "I am only interrupting you," he said. "You have my address on +my card. Good evening." + +On his way out, he passed an elderly woman, waiting in the hall. Toff, +hastening before him to open the garden gate, was saluted by the gruff +voice of a cabman, outside. "The lady whom he had driven to the cottage +had not paid him his right fare; he meant to have the money, or the +lady's name and address, and summon her." Quietly crossing the road, +Mr. Melton heard the woman's voice next: she had got her receipt, and +had followed him out. In the dispute about fares and distances that +ensued, the contending parties more than once mentioned the name of the +Home and of the locality in which it was situated. Possessing this +information, Mr. Melton looked in at his club; consulted a directory, +under the heading of "Charitable Institutions;" and solved the mystery +of the vanishing petticoats at the door. He had discovered an inmate of +an asylum for lost women, in the house of the man to whom Regina was +engaged to be married! + + +The next morning's post brought to Amelius a letter from Regina. It was +dated from an hotel in Paris. Her "dear uncle" had over estimated his +strength. He had refused to stay and rest for the night at Boulogne; +and had suffered so severely from the fatigue of the long journey that +he had been confined to his bed since his arrival. The English +physician consulted had declined to say when he would be strong enough +to travel again; the constitution of the patient must have received +some serious shock; he was brought very low. Having carefully reported +the new medical opinion, Regina was at liberty to indulge herself, +next, in expressions of affection, and to assure Amelius of her anxiety +to hear from him as soon as possible. But, in this case again, the +"dear uncle's" convenience was still the first consideration. She +reverted to Mr. Farnaby, in making her excuses for a hurriedly written +letter. The poor invalid suffered from depression of spirits; his great +consolation in his illness was to hear his niece read to him: he was +calling for her, indeed, at that moment. The inevitable postscript +warmed into a mild effusion of fondness, "How I wish you could be with +us. But, alas, it cannot be!" + +Amelius copied the address on the letter, and sent it to Mr. Melton +immediately. + +It was then the twenty-fourth day of the month. The tidal train did not +leave London early that morning; and the inquest was deferred, to suit +other pressing engagements of the coroner, until the twenty-sixth. Mr. +Melton decided, after his interview with Amelius, that the emergency +was sufficiently serious to justify him in following his telegram to +Paris. It was clearly his duty, as an old friend, to mention to Mr. +Farnaby what he had discovered at the cottage, as well as what he had +heard from the landlady and the doctor; leaving it to the uncle's +discretion to act as he thought right in the interests of the niece. +Whether that course of action might not also serve the interests of Mr. +Melton himself, in the character of an unsuccessful suitor for Regina's +hand, he did not stop to inquire. Beyond his duty it was, for the +present at least, not his business to look. + +That night, the two gentlemen held a private consultation in Paris; the +doctor having previously certified that his patient was incapable of +supporting the journey back to London, under any circumstances. + +The question of the formal proceedings rendered necessary by Mrs. +Farnaby's death having been discussed and disposed of, Mr. Melton next +entered on the narrative which the obligations of friendship +imperatively demanded from him. To his astonishment and alarm, Mr. +Farnaby started up in the bed like a man panic-stricken. "Did you say," +he stammered, as soon as he could speak, "you mean to make inquiries +about that--that girl?" + +"I certainly thought it desirable, bearing in mind Mr. Goldenheart's +position in your family." + +"Do nothing of the sort! Say nothing to Regina or to any living +creature. Wait till I get well again--and leave me to deal with it. I +am the proper person to take it in hand. Don't you see that for +yourself? And, look here! there may be questions asked at the inquest. +Some impudent scoundrel on the jury may want to pry into what doesn't +concern him. The moment you're back in London, get a lawyer to +represent us--the sharpest fellow that can be had for money. Tell him +to stop all prying questions. Who the girl is, and what made that +cursed young Socialist Goldenheart take her upstairs with him--all that +sort of thing has nothing to do with the manner in which my wife met +her death. You understand? I look to you, Melton, to see yourself that +this is done. The less said at the infernal inquest, the better. In my +position, it's an exposure that my enemies will make the most of, as it +is. I'm too ill to go into the thing any further. No: I don't want +Regina. Go to her in the sitting room, and tell the courier to get you +something to eat and drink. And, I say! For God's sake don't be late +for the Boulogne train tomorrow morning." + +Left by himself, he gave full vent to his fury; he cursed Amelius with +oaths that are not to be written. + +He had burnt the letter which Mrs. Farnaby had written to him, on +leaving him forever; but he had not burnt out of his memory the words +which that letter contained. With his wife's language vividly present +to his mind, he could arrive at but one conclusion, after what Mr. +Melton had told him. Amelius was concerned in the discovery of his +deserted daughter; Amelius had taken the girl to her dying mother's +bedside. With his idiotic Socialist notions, he would be perfectly +capable of owning the truth, if inquiries were made. The unblemished +reputation which John Farnaby had built up by the self-seeking +hypocrisy of a lifetime was at the mercy of a visionary young fool, who +believed that rich men were created for the benefit of the poor, and +who proposed to regenerate society by reviving the obsolete morality of +the Primitive Christians. Was it possible for him to come to terms with +such a person as this? There was not an inch of common ground on which +they could meet. He dropped back on his pillow in despair, and lay for +a while frowning and biting his nails. Suddenly he sat up again in the +bed, and wiped his moist forehead, and heaved a heavy breath of relief. +Had his illness obscured his intelligence? How was it he had not seen +at once the perfectly easy way out of the difficulty which was +presented by the facts themselves? Here is a man, engaged to marry my +niece, who has been discovered keeping a girl at his cottage--who even +had the audacity to take her upstairs with him when he made a call on +my wife. Charge him with it in plain words; break off the engagement +publicly in the face of society; and, if the profligate scoundrel tries +to defend himself by telling the truth, who will believe him--when the +girl was seen running out of his room? and when he refused, on the +question being put to him, to say who she was? + +So, in ignorance of his wife's last instructions to Amelius--in equal +ignorance of the compassionate silence which an honourable man +preserves when a woman's reputation is at his mercy--the wretch +needlessly plotted and planned to save his usurped reputation; seeing +all things, as such men invariably do, through the foul light of his +own inbred baseness and cruelty. He was troubled by no retributive +emotions of shame or remorse, in contemplating this second sacrifice to +his own interests of the daughter whom he had deserted in her infancy. +If he felt any misgivings, they related wholly to himself. His head was +throbbing, his tongue was dry; a dread of increasing his illness shook +him suddenly. He drank some of the lemonade at his bedside, and lay +down to compose himself to sleep. + +It was not to be done; there was a burning in his eyeballs, there was a +wild irregular beating at his heart, which kept him awake. In some +degree, at least, retribution seemed to be on the way to him already. + +Mr. Melton, delicately administering sympathy and consolation to +Regina--whose affectionate nature felt keenly the calamity of her +aunt's death--Mr. Melton, making himself modestly useful, by reading +aloud certain devotional poems much prized by Regina, was called out of +the room by the courier. + +"I have just looked in at Mr. Farnaby, sir," said the man; "and I am +afraid he is worse." + +The physician was sent for. He thought so seriously of the change in +the patient, that he obliged Regina to accept the services of a +professed nurse. When Mr. Melton started on his return journey the next +morning, he left his friend in a high fever. + + + +CHAPTER 2 + +The inquiry into the circumstances under which Mrs. Farnaby had died +was held in the forenoon of the next day. + +Mr. Melton surprised Amelius by calling for him, and taking him to the +inquest. The carriage stopped on the way, and a gentleman joined them, +who was introduced as Mr. Melton's legal adviser. He spoke to Amelius +about the inquest; stating, as his excuse for asking certain discreet +questions, that his object was to suppress any painful disclosures. On +reaching the house, Mr. Melton and his lawyer said a few words to the +coroner downstairs, while the jury were assembling on the floor above. + +The first witness examined was the landlady. + +After deposing to the date at which the late Mrs. Farnaby had hired her +lodgings, and verifying the statements which had appeared in the +newspapers, she was questioned about the life and habits of the +deceased. She described her late lodger as a respectable lady, punctual +in her payments, and quiet and orderly in her way of life: she received +letters, but saw no friends. On several occasions, an old woman was +admitted to speak with her; and these visits seemed to be anything but +agreeable to the deceased. Asked if she knew anything of the old woman, +or of what had passed at the interviews described, the witness answered +both questions in the negative. When the woman called, she always told +the servant to announce her as "the nurse." + +Mr. Melton was next examined, to prove the identity of the deceased. + +He declared that he was quite unable to explain why she had left her +husband's house under an assumed name. Asked if Mr. and Mrs. Farnaby +had lived together on affectionate terms, he acknowledged that he had +heard, at various times, of a want of harmony between them, but was not +acquainted with the cause. Mr. Farnaby's high character and position in +the commercial world spoke for themselves: the restraints of a +gentleman guided him in his relations with his wife. The medical +certificate of his illness in Paris was then put in; and Mr. Melton's +examination came to an end. + +The chemist who had made up the prescription was the third witness. He +knew the woman who brought it to his shop to be in the service of the +first witness examined; an old customer of his, and a highly respected +resident in the neighbourhood. He made up all prescriptions himself in +which poisons were conspicuous ingredients; and he had affixed to the +bottle a slip of paper, bearing the word "Poison," printed in large +letters. The bottle was produced and identified; and the directions in +the prescription were shown to have been accurately copied on the +label. + +A general sensation of interest was excited by the appearance of the +next witness--the woman servant. It was anticipated that her evidence +would explain how the fatal mistake about the medicine had occurred. +After replying to the formal inquiries, she proceeded as follows: + +"When I answered the bell, at the time I have mentioned, I found the +deceased standing at the fireplace. There was a bottle of medicine on +the table, by her writing desk. It was a much larger bottle than that +which the last witness identified, and it was more than three parts +full of some colourless medicine. The deceased gave me a prescription +to take to the chemist's, with instructions to wait, and bring back the +physic. She said, 'I don't feel at all well this morning; I thought of +trying some of this medicine,' pointing to the bottle by her desk; 'but +I am not sure it is the right thing for me. I think I want a tonic. The +prescription I have given you is a tonic.' I went out at once to our +chemist and got it. I found her writing a letter when I came back, but +she finished it immediately, and pushed it away from her. When I put +the bottle I had brought from the chemist on the table, she looked at +the other larger bottle which she had by her; and she said, 'You will +think me very undecided; I have been doubting, since I sent you to the +chemist, whether I had not better begin with this medicine here, before +I try the tonic. It's a medicine for the stomach; and I fancy it's only +indigestion that's the matter with me, after all.' I said, 'You eat but +a poor breakfast, ma'am, this morning. It isn't for me to advise; but, +as you seem to be in doubt about yourself, wouldn't it be better to +send for a doctor?' She shook her head, and said she didn't want to +have a doctor if she could possibly help it. 'I'll try the medicine for +indigestion first,' she says; 'and if it doesn't relieve me, we will +see what is to be done, later in the day.' While we were talking, the +tonic was left in its sealed paper cover, just as I had brought it from +the shop. She took up the bottle containing the stomach medicine, and +read the directions on it: 'Two tablespoonsful by measure-glass twice a +day.' I asked if she had a measure-glass; and she said, Yes, and sent +me to her bedroom to look for it. I couldn't find it. While I was +looking, I heard her cry out, and ran back to the drawing-room to see +what was the matter. 'Oh!' she says, 'how clumsy I am! I've broken the +bottle.' She held up the bottle of the stomach medicine and showed it +to me, broken just below the neck. 'Go back to the bedroom,' she says, +'and see if you can find an empty bottle; I don't want to waste the +medicine if I can help it.' There was only one empty bottle in the +bedroom, a bottle on the chimney-piece. I took it to her immediately. +She gave me the broken bottle; and while I poured the medicine into the +bottle which I had found in the bedroom, she opened the paper which +covered the tonic I had brought from the chemist. When I had done, and +the two bottles were together on the table--the bottle that I had +filled, and the bottle that I had brought front the chemist--I noticed +that they were both of the same size, and that both had a label pasted +on them, marked 'Poison.' I said to her, 'You must take care, ma'am, +you don't make any mistake, the two bottles are so exactly alike.' 'I +can easily prevent that,' she says, and dipped her pen in the ink, and +copied the directions on the broken bottle, on to the label of the +bottle that I had just filled. 'There!' she said. 'Now I hope your +mind's at ease?' She spoke cheerfully, as if she was joking with me. +And then she said, 'But where's the measure-glass?' I went back to the +bedroom to look for it, and couldn't find it again. She changed all at +once, upon that--she became quite angry; and walked up and down in a +fume, abusing me for my stupidity. It was very unlike her. On all other +occasions she was a most considerate lady. I made allowances for her. +She had been very much upset earlier in the morning, when she had +received a letter, which she told me herself contained bad news. Yes; +another person was present at the time--the same woman that my mistress +told you of. The woman looked at the address on the letter, and seemed +to know who it was from. I told her a squint-eyed man had brought it to +the house--and then she left directly. I don't know where she went, or +the address at which she lives, or who the messenger was who brought +the letter. As I have said, I made allowances for the deceased lady. I +went downstairs, without answering, and got a tumbler and a tablespoon +to serve instead of the measure-glass. When I came back with the +things, she was still walking about in a temper. She took no notice of +me. I left the room again quietly, seeing she was not in a state to be +spoken to. I saw nothing more of her, until we were alarmed by hearing +her scream. We found the poor lady on the floor in a kind of fit. I ran +out and fetched the nearest doctor. This is the whole truth, on my +oath; and this is all I know about it." + +The landlady was recalled at the request of the jury, and questioned +again about the old woman. She could give no information. Being asked +next if any letters or papers belonging to, or written by, the deceased +lady had been found, she declared that, after the strictest search, +nothing had been discovered but two medical prescriptions. The writing +desk was empty. + +The doctor was the next witness. + +He described the state in which he found the patient, on being called +to the house. The symptoms were those of poisoning by strychnine. +Examination of the prescriptions and the bottles, aided by the +servant's information, convinced him that a fatal mistake had been made +by the deceased; the nature of which he explained to the jury as he had +already explained it to Amelius. Having mentioned the meeting with +Amelius at the house-door, and the events which had followed, he closed +his evidence by stating the result of the postmortem examination, +proving that the death was caused by the poison called strychnine. + +The landlady and the servant were examined again. They were instructed +to inform the jury exactly of the time that had elapsed, from the +moment when the servant had left the deceased alone in the +drawing-room, to the time when the screams were first heard. Having +both given the same evidence, on this point, they were next asked +whether any person, besides the old woman, had visited the deceased +lady--or had on any pretence obtained access to her in the interval. +Both swore positively that there had not even been a knock at the +house-door in the interval, and that the area-gate was locked, and the +key in the possession of the landlady. This evidence placed it beyond +the possibility of doubt that the deceased had herself taken the +poison. The question whether she had taken it by accident was the only +question left to decide, when Amelius was called as the next witness. + +The lawyer retained by Mr. Melton, to watch the case on behalf of Mr. +Farnaby, had hitherto not interfered. It was observed that he paid the +closest attention to the inquiry, at the stage which it had now +reached. + +Amelius was nervous at the outset. The early training in America, which +had hardened him to face an audience and speak with self-possession on +social and political subjects had not prepared him for the very +difficult ordeal of a first appearance as a witness. Having answered +the customary inquiries, he was so painfully agitated in describing +Mrs. Farnaby's sufferings, that the coroner suspended the examination +for a few minutes, to give him time to control himself. He failed, +however, to recover his composure, until the narrative part of his +evidence had come to an end. When the critical questions, bearing on +his relations with Mrs. Farnaby, began, the audience noticed that he +lifted his head, and looked and spoke, for the first time, like a man +with a settled resolution in him, sure of himself. + +The questions proceeded: + +Was he in Mrs. Farnaby's confidence, on the subject of her domestic +differences with her husband? Did those differences lead to her +withdrawing herself from her husband's roof? Did Mrs. Farnaby inform +him of the place of her retreat? To these three questions the witness, +speaking quite readily in each case, answered Yes. Asked next, what the +nature of the 'domestic differences' had been; whether they were likely +to affect Mrs. Farnaby's mind seriously; why she had passed under an +assumed name, and why she had confided the troubles of her married life +to a young man like himself, only introduced to her a few months since, +the witness simply declined to reply to the inquiries addressed to him. +"The confidence Mrs. Farnaby placed in me," he said to the coroner, +"was a confidence which I gave her my word of honour to respect. When I +have said that, I hope the jury will understand that I owe it to the +memory of the dead to say no more." + +There was a murmur of approval among the audience, instantly checked by +the coroner. The foreman of the jury rose, and remarked that scruples +of honour were out of place at a serious inquiry of that sort. Hearing +this, the lawyer saw his opportunity, and got on his legs. "I represent +the husband of the deceased lady," he said. "Mr. Goldenheart has +appealed to the law of honour to justify him in keeping silence. I am +astonished that there is a man to be found in this assembly who fails +to sympathize with him. But as there appears to be such a person +present, I ask permission, sir, to put a question to the witness. It +may, or may not, satisfy the foreman of the jury; but it will certainly +assist the object of the present inquiry." + +The coroner, after a glance at Mr. Melton, permitted the lawyer to put +his question in these terms:-- + +"Did your knowledge of Mrs. Farnaby's domestic troubles give you any +reason to apprehend that they might urge her to commit suicide? + +"Certainly not," Amelius answered. "When I called on her, on the +morning of her death, I had no apprehension whatever of her committing +suicide. I went to the house as the bearer of good news; and I said so +to the doctor, when he first spoke to me." + +The doctor confirmed this. The foreman was silenced, if not convinced. +One of his brother-jurymen, however, feeling the force of example, +interrupted the proceedings, by assailing Amelius with another +question:--"We have heard that you were accompanied by a young lady at +the time you have mentioned, and that you took her upstairs with you. +We want to know what business the young lady had in the house?" + +The lawyer interfered again. "I object to that question," he said. "The +purpose of the inquest is to ascertain how Mrs. Farnaby met with her +death. What has the young lady to do with it? The doctor's evidence has +already told us that she was not at the house, until after he had been +called in, and the deadly action of the poison had begun. I appeal, +sir, to the law of evidence, and to you, as the presiding authority, to +enforce it. Mr. Goldenheart, who is acquainted with the circumstances +of the deceased lady's life, has declared on his oath that there was +nothing in those circumstances to inspire him with any apprehension of +her committing suicide. The evidence of the servant at the lodgings +points plainly to the conclusion already arrived at by the medical +witness, that the death was the result of a lamentable mistake, and of +that alone. Is our time to be wasted in irrelevant questions, and are +the feelings of the surviving relatives to be cruelly lacerated to no +purpose, to satisfy the curiosity of strangers?" + +A strong expression of approval from the audience followed this. The +lawyer whispered to Mr. Melton, "It's all right!" + +Order being restored, the coroner ruled that the juryman's question was +not admissible, and that the servant's evidence, taken with the +statements of the doctor and the chemist, was the only evidence for the +consideration of the jury. Summing up to this effect, he recalled +Amelius, at the request of the foreman, to inquire if the witness knew +anything of the old woman who had been frequently alluded to in the +course of the proceedings. Amelius could answer this question as +honestly as he had answered the questions preceding it. He neither knew +the woman's name, nor where she was to be found. The coroner inquired, +with a touch of irony, if the jury wished the inquest to be adjourned, +under existing circumstances. + +For the sake of appearances, the jury consulted together. But the +luncheon-hour was approaching; the servant's evidence was undeniably +clear and conclusive; the coroner, in summing up, had requested them +not to forget that the deceased had lost her temper with the servant, +and that an angry woman might well make a mistake which would be +unlikely in her cooler moments. All these influences led the jury +irrepressibly, over the obstacles of obstinacy, on the way to +submission. After a needless delay, they returned a verdict of "death +by misadventure." The secret of Mrs. Farnaby's suicide remained +inviolate; the reputation of her vile husband stood as high as ever; +and the future life of Amelius was, from that fatal moment, turned +irrevocably into a new course. + + + +CHAPTER 3 + +On the conclusion of the proceedings, Mr. Melton, having no further +need of Amelius or the lawyer, drove away by himself. But he was too +inveterately polite to omit making his excuses for leaving them in a +hurry; he expected, he said, to find a telegram from Paris waiting at +his house. Amelius only delayed his departure to ask the landlady if +the day of the funeral was settled. Hearing that it was arranged for +the next morning, he thanked her, and returned at once to the cottage. + +Sally was waiting his arrival to complete some purchases of mourning +for her unhappy mother; Toff's wife being in attendance to take care of +her. She was curious to know how the inquest had ended. In answering +her question, Amelius was careful to warn her, if her companion made +any inquiries, only to say that she had lost her mother under very sad +circumstances. The two having left the cottage, he instructed Toff to +let in a stranger, who was to call by previous appointment, and to +close the door to every one else. In a few minutes, the expected +person, a young man, who gave the name of Morcross, made his +appearance, and sorely puzzled the old Frenchman. He was well dressed; +his manner was quiet and self-possessed--and yet he did not look like a +gentleman. In fact, he was a policeman of the higher order, in plain +clothes. + +Being introduced to the library, he spread out on the table some sheets +of manuscript, in the handwriting of Amelius, with notes in red ink on +the margin, made by himself. + +"I understand, sir," he began, "that you have reasons for not bringing +this case to trial in a court of law?" + +"I am sorry to say," Amelius answered, "that I dare not consent to the +exposure of a public trial, for the sake of persons living and dead. +For the same reason, I have written the account of the conspiracy with +certain reserves. I hope I have not thrown any needless difficulties in +your way?" + +"Certainly not, sir. But I should wish to ask, what you propose to do, +in case I discover the people concerned in the conspiracy?" + +Amelius owned, very reluctantly, that he could do nothing with the old +woman who had been the accomplice. "Unless," he added, "I can induce +her to assist me in bringing the man to justice for other crimes which +I believe him to have committed." + +"Meaning the man named Jervy, sir, in this statement?" + +"Yes. I have reason to believe that he has been obliged to leave the +United States, after committing some serious offence--" + +"I beg your pardon for interrupting you, sir. Is it serious enough to +charge him with, under the treaty between the two countries?" + +"I don't doubt it's serious enough. I have telegraphed to the persons +who formerly employed him, for the particulars. Mind this! I will stick +at no sacrifice to make that scoundrel suffer for what he has done." + +In those plain words Amelius revealed, as frankly as usual, the purpose +that was in him. The terrible remembrances associated with Mrs. +Farnaby's last moments had kindled, in his just and generous nature, a +burning sense of the wrong inflicted on the poor heart-broken creature +who had trusted and loved him. The unendurable thought that the wretch +who had tortured her, robbed her, and driven her to her death had +escaped with impunity, literally haunted him night and day. Eager to +provide for Sally's future, he had followed Mrs. Farnaby's +instructions, and had seen the lawyer privately, during the period that +had elapsed between the death and the inquest. Hearing that there were +formalities to be complied with, which would probably cause some delay, +he had at once announced his determination to employ the interval in +attempting the pursuit of Jervy. The lawyer--after vainly pointing out +the serious objections to the course proposed--so far yielded to the +irresistible earnestness and good faith of Amelius as to recommend him +to a competent man, who could be trusted not to deceive him. The same +day the man had received a written statement of the case; and he had +now arrived to report the result of his first proceedings to his +employer. + +"One thing I want to know, before you tell me anything else," Amelius +resumed. "Is my written description of Jervy plain enough to help you +to find him?" + +"It's so plain, sir, that some of the older men in our office have +recognized him by it--under another name than the name you give him." + +"Does that add to the difficulty of tracing him?" + +"He has been a long time away from England, sir; and it's by no means +easy to trace him, on that account. I have been to the young woman, +named Phoebe in your statement, to find out what she can tell me about +him. She's ready enough, in the intervals of crying, to help us to lay +our hands on the man who has deserted her. It's the old story of a +fellow getting at a girl's secrets and a girl's money, under pretence +of marrying her. At one time, she's furious with him, and at another +she's ready to cry her eyes out. I got some information from her; it's +not much, but it may help us. The name of the old woman, who has been +the go-between in the business, is Mrs. Sowler--known to the police as +an inveterate drunkard, and worse. I don't think there will be much +difficulty in tracing Mrs. Sowler. As to Jervy, if the young woman is +to be believed, and I think she is, there's little doubt that he has +got the money from the lady mentioned in my instructions here, and that +he has bolted with the sum about him. Wait a bit, sir, I haven't done +with my discoveries yet. I asked the young woman, of course, if she had +his photograph. He's a sharp fellow; she had it, but he got it away +from her, on pretence of giving her a better one, before he took +himself off. Having missed this chance, I asked next if she knew where +he lived last. She directed me to the place; and I have had a talk with +the landlord. He tells me of a squint-eyed man, who was a good deal +about the house, doing Jervy's dirty work for him. If I am not misled +by the description, I think I know the man. I have my own notion of +what he's capable of doing, if he gets the chance--and I propose to +begin by finding our way to him, and using him as a means of tracing +Jervy. It's only right to tell you that it may take some time to do +this--for which reason I have to propose, in the mean while, trying a +shorter way to the end in view. Do you object, sir, to the expense of +sending a copy of your description of Jervy to every police-station in +London?" + +"I object to nothing which may help to find him. Do you think the +police have got him anywhere?" + +"You forget, sir, that the police have no orders to take him. What I'm +speculating on is the chance that he has got the money about him--say +in small banknotes, for convenience of changing them, you know." + +"Well?" + +"Well, sir, the people he lives among--the squint-eyed man, for +instance!--don't stick at trifles. If any of them have found out that +Jervy's purse is worth having--" + +"You mean they would rob him?" + +"And murder him too, sir, if he tried to resist." + +Amelius started to his feet. "Send round to the police-stations without +losing another minute," he said. "And let me hear what the answer is, +the instant you receive it." + +"Suppose I get the answer late at night, sir?" + +"I don't care when you get it, night or day. Dead or living, I will +undertake to identify him. Here's a duplicate key of the garden gate. +Come this way, and I'll show you where my bedroom is. If we are all in +bed, tap at the window--and I will be ready for you at a moment's +notice." + +On that understanding Morcross left the cottage. + +The day when the mortal remains of Mrs. Farnaby were laid at rest was a +day of heavy rain. Mr. Melton, and two or three other old friends, were +the attendants at the funeral. When the coffin was borne into the damp +and reeking burial ground, a young man and a woman were the only +persons, beside the sexton and his assistants, who stood by the open +grave. Mr. Melton, recognizing Amelius, was at a loss to understand who +his companion could be. It was impossible to suppose that he would +profane that solemn ceremony by bringing to it the lost woman at the +cottage. The thick black veil of the person with him hid her face from +view. No visible expressions of grief escaped her. When the last +sublime words of the burial service had been read, those two mourners +were left, after the others had all departed, still standing together +by the grave. Mr. Melton decided on mentioning the circumstance +confidentially when he wrote to his friend in Paris. Telegrams from +Regina, in reply to his telegrams from London, had informed him that +Mr. Farnaby had felt the benefit of the remedies employed, and was +slowly on the way to recovery. It seemed likely that he would, in no +long time, take the right course for the protection of his niece. For +the enlightenment which might, or might not, come with that time, Mr. +Melton was resigned to wait, with the disciplined patience to which he +had been mainly indebted for his success in life. + + +"Always remember your mother tenderly, my child," said Amelius, as they +left the burial ground. "She was sorely tried, poor thing, in her life +time, and she loved you very dearly." + +"Do you know anything of my father?" Sally asked timidly. "Is he still +living?" + +"My dear, you will never see your father. I must be all that the +kindest father and mother could have been to you, now. Oh, my poor +little girl!" + +She pressed his arm to her as she held it. "Why should you pity me?" +she said. "Haven't I got You?" + +They passed the day together quietly at the cottage. Amelius took down +some of his books, and pleased Sally by giving her his first lessons. +Soon after ten o'clock she withdrew, at the usual early hour, to her +room. In her absence, he sent for Toff, intending to warn him not to be +alarmed if he heard footsteps in the garden, after they had all gone to +bed. The old servant had barely entered the library, when he was called +away by the bell at the outer gate. Amelius, looking into the hall, +discovered Morcross, and signed to him eagerly to come in. The +police-officer closed the door cautiously behind him. He had arrived +with news that Jervy was found. + + + +CHAPTER 4 + +"Where has he been found?" Amelius asked, snatching up his hat. + +"There's no hurry, sir," Morcross answered quietly. "When I had the +honour of seeing you yesterday, you said you meant to make Jervy suffer +for what he had done. Somebody else has saved you the trouble. He was +found this evening in the river." + +"Drowned?" + +"Stabbed in three places, sir; and put out of the way in the +river--that's the surgeon's report. Robbed of everything he +possessed--that's the police report, after searching his pockets." + +Amelius was silent. It had not entered into his calculations that crime +breeds crime, and that the criminal might escape him under that law. +For the moment, he was conscious of a sense of disappointment, +revealing plainly that the desire for vengeance had mingled with the +higher motives which animated him. He felt uneasy and ashamed, and +longed as usual to take refuge in action from his own unwelcome +thoughts. "Are you sure it is the man?" he asked. "My description may +have misled the police--I should like to see him myself." + +"Certainly, sir. While we are about it, if you feel any curiosity to +trace Jervy's ill-gotten money, there's a chance (from what I have +heard) of finding the man with the squint. The people at our place +think it's likely he may have been concerned in the robbery, if he +hasn't committed the murder." + +In an hour after, under the guidance of Morcross, Amelius passed +through the dreary doors of a deadhouse, situated on the southern bank +of the Thames, and saw the body of Jervy stretched out on a stone slab. +The guardian who held the lantern, inured to such horrible sights, +declared that the corpse could not have been in the water more than two +days. To any one who had seen the murdered man, the face, undisfigured +by injury of any kind, was perfectly recognizable. Amelius knew him +again, dead, as certainly as he had known him again, living, when he +was waiting for Phoebe in the street. + +"If you're satisfied, sir," said Morcross, "the inspector at the +police-station is sending a sergeant to look after 'Wall-Eyes'--the +name they give hereabouts to the man suspected of the robbery. We can +take the sergeant with us in the cab, if you like." + +Still keeping on the southern bank of the river, they drove for a +quarter of an hour in a westerly direction, and stopped at a +public-house. The sergeant of police went in by himself to make the +first inquiries. + +"We are a day too late, sir," he said to Amelius, on returning to the +cab. "Wall-Eyes was here last night, and Mother Sowler with him, +judging by the description. Both of them drunk--and the woman the worse +of the two. The landlord knew nothing more about it; but there's a man +at the bar tells me he heard of them this morning (still drinking) at +the Dairy." + +"The Dairy?" Amelius repeated. + +Morcross interposed with the necessary explanation. "An old house, sir, +which once stood by itself in the fields. It was a dairy a hundred +years ago; and it has kept the name ever since, though it's nothing but +a low lodging house now." + +"One of the worst places on this side of the river," the sergeant +added, "The landlord's a returned convict. Sly as he is we shall have +him again yet, for receiving stolen goods. There's every sort of thief +among his lodgers, from a pickpocket to a housebreaker. It's my duty to +continue the inquiry, sir; but a gentleman like you will be better, I +should say, out of such a place as that." + +Still disquieted by the sight that he had seen in the deadhouse, and by +the associations which that sight had recalled, Amelius was ready for +any adventure which might relieve his mind. Even the prospect of a +visit to a thieves' lodging house was more welcome to him than the +prospect of going home alone. "If there's no serious objection to it," +he said, "I own I should like to see the place." + +"You'll be safe enough with us," the sergeant replied. "If you don't +mind filthy people and bad language--all right, sir! Cabman, drive to +the Dairy." + +Their direction was now towards the south, through a perfect labyrinth +of mean and dirty streets. Twice the driver was obliged to ask his way. +On the second occasion the sergeant, putting his head out of the window +to stop the cab, cried, "Hullo! there's something up." + +They got out in front of a long low rambling house, a complete contrast +to the modern buildings about it. Late as the hour was, a mob had +assembled in front of the door. The police were on the spot keeping the +people in order. + +Morcross and the sergeant pushed their way through the crowd, leading +Amelius between them. "Something wrong, sir, in the back kitchen," said +one of the policemen answering the sergeant while he opened the street +door. A few yards down the passage there was a second door, with a man +on the watch by it. "There's a nice to-do downstairs," the man +announced, recognizing the sergeant, and unlocking the door with a key +which he took from his pocket. "The landlord at the Dairy knows his +lodgers, sir," Morcross whispered to Amelius; "the place is kept like a +prison." As they passed through the second door, a frantic voice +startled them, shouting in fury from below. An old man came hobbling up +the kitchen stairs, his eyes wild with fear, his long grey hair all +tumbled over his face. "Oh, Lord, have you got the tools for breaking +open the door?" he asked, wringing his dirty hands in an agony of +supplication. "She'll set the house on fire! she'll kill my wife and +daughter!" The sergeant pushed him contemptuously out of the way, and +looked round for Amelius. "It's only the landlord, sir; keep near +Morcross, and follow me." + +They descended the kitchen stairs, the frantic cries below growing +louder and louder at every step they took; and made their way through +the thieves and vagabonds crowding together in the passage. Passing on +their right hand a solid old oaken door fast closed, they reached an +open wicket-gate of iron which led into a stone-paved yard. A heavily +barred window was now visible in the back wall of the house, raised +three or four feet from the pavement of the yard. The room within was +illuminated by a blaze of gaslight. More policemen were here, keeping +back more inquisitive lodgers. Among the spectators was a man with a +hideous outward squint, holding by the window-bars in a state of +drunken terror. The sergeant looked at him, and beckoned to one of the +policemen. "Take him to the station; I shall have something to say to +Wall-Eyes when he's sober. Now then! stand back all of you, and let's +see what's going on in the kitchen." + +He took Amelius by the arm, and led him to the window. Even the +sergeant started when the scene inside met his view. "By God!" he +cried, "it's Mother Sowler herself." + +It _was_ Mother Sowler. The horrible woman was tramping round and round +in the middle of the kitchen, like a beast in a cage; raving in the +dreadful drink-madness called delirium tremens. In the farthest corner +of the room, barricaded behind the table, the landlord's wife and +daughter crouched in terror of their lives. The gas, turned full on, +blazed high enough to blacken the ceiling, and showed the heavy bolts +shot at the top and bottom of the solid door. Nothing less than a +battering-ram could have burst that door in from the outer side; an +hour's work with the file would have failed to break a passage through +the bars over the window. "How did she get there?" the sergeant asked. +"Run downstairs, and bolted herself in, while the missus and the young +'un were cooking"--was the answering cry from the people in the yard. +As they spoke, another vain attempt was made to break in the door from +the passage. The noise of the heavy blows redoubled the frenzy of the +terrible creature in the kitchen, still tramping round and round under +the blazing gaslight. Suddenly, she made a dart at the window, and +confronted the men looking in from the yard. Her staring eyes were +bloodshot; a purple-red flush was over her face; her hair waved wildly +about her, torn away in places by her own hands. "Cats!" she screamed, +glaring out of the window, "millions of cats! all their months wide +open spitting at me! Fire! fire to scare away the cats!" She searched +furiously in her pocket, and tore out a handful of loose papers. One of +them escaped, and fluttered downward to a wooden press under the +window. Amelius was nearest, and saw it plainly as it fell, "Good +heavens!" he exclaimed, "it's a bank-note!" "Wall-Eyes' money!" shouted +the thieves in the yard; "She's going to burn Wall-Eyes' money!" The +madwoman turned back to the middle of the kitchen, leapt up at the +gas-burner, and set fire to the bank-notes. She scattered them flaming +all round her on the kitchen floor. "Away with you!" she shouted, +shaking her fists at the visionary multitude of cats. "Away with you, +up the chimney! Away with you, out of the window!" She sprang back to +the window, with her crooked fingers twisted in her hair! "The snakes!" +she shrieked; "the snakes are hissing again in my hair! the beetles are +crawling over my face!" She tore at her hair; she scraped her face with +long black nails that lacerated the flesh. Amelius turned away, unable +to endure the sight of her. Morcross took his place, eyed her steadily +for a moment, and saw the way to end it. "A quarter of gin!" he +shouted. "Quick! before she leaves the window!" In a minute he had the +pewter measure in his hand, and tapped at the window. "Gin, Mother +Sowler! Break the window, and have a drop of gin!" For a moment, the +drunkard mastered her own dreadful visions at the sight of the liquor. +She broke a pane of glass with her clenched fist. "The door!" cried +Morcross, to the panic-stricken women, barricaded behind the table. +"The door!" he reiterated, as he handed the gin in through the bars. +The elder woman was too terrified to understand him; her bolder +daughter crawled under the table, rushed across the kitchen, and drew +the bolts. As the madwoman turned to attack her, the room was filled +with men, headed by the sergeant. Three of them were barely enough to +control the frantic wretch, and bind her hand and foot. When Amelius +entered the kitchen, after she had been conveyed to the hospital, a +five-pound note on the press (secured by one of the police), and a few +frail black ashes scattered thinly on the kitchen floor, were the only +relics left of the ill-gotten money. + + +After-inquiry, patiently pursued in more than one direction, failed to +throw any light on the mystery of Jervy's death. Morcross's report to +Amelius, towards the close of the investigation, was little more than +ingenious guess-work. + +"It seems pretty clear, sir, in the first place, that Mother Sowler +must have overtaken Wall-Eyes, after he had left the letter at Mrs. +Farnaby's lodgings. In the second place, we are justified (as I shall +show you directly) in assuming that she told him of the money in +Jervy's possession, and that the two succeeded in discovering Jervy--no +doubt through Wall-Eyes' superior knowledge of his master's movements. +The evidence concerning the bank-notes proves this. We know, by the +examination of the people at the Dairy, that Wall-Eyes took from his +pocket a handful of notes, when they refused to send for liquor without +having the money first. We are also informed, that the breaking-out of +the drink-madness in Mother Sowler showed itself in her snatching the +notes out of his hand, and trying to strangle him--before she ran down +into the kitchen and bolted herself in. Lastly, Mrs. Farnaby's bankers +have identified the note saved from the burning, as one of forty +five-pound notes paid to her cheque. So much for the tracing of the +money. + +"I wish I could give an equally satisfactory account of the tracing of +the crime. We can make nothing of Wall-Eyes. He declares that he didn't +even know Jervy was dead, till we told him; and he swears he found the +money dropped in the street. It is needless to say that this last +assertion is a lie. Opinions are divided among us as to whether he is +answerable for the murder as well as the robbery, or whether there was +a third person concerned in it. My own belief is that Jervy was drugged +by the old woman (with a young woman very likely used as a decoy), in +some house by the riverside, and then murdered by Wall-Eyes in cold +blood. We have done our best to clear the matter up, and we have not +succeeded. The doctors give us no hope of any assistance from Mother +Sowler. If she gets over the attack (which is doubtful), they say she +will die to a certainty of liver disease. In short, my own fear is that +this will prove to be one more of those murders which are mysteries to +the police as well as the public." + +The report of the case excited some interest, published in the +newspapers in conspicuous type. Meddlesome readers wrote letters, +offering complacently stupid suggestions to the police. After a while, +another crime attracted general attention; and the murder of Jervy +disappeared from the public memory, among other forgotten murders of +modern times. + + + +CHAPTER 5 + +The last dreary days of November came to their end. + +No longer darkened by the shadows of crime and torment and death, the +life of Amelius glided insensibly into the peaceful byways of +seclusion, brightened by the companionship of Sally. The winter days +followed one another in a happy uniformity of occupations and +amusements. There were lessons to fill up the morning, and walks to +occupy the afternoon--and, in the evenings, sometimes reading, +sometimes singing, sometimes nothing but the lazy luxury of talk. In +the vast world of London, with its monstrous extremes of wealth and +poverty, and its all-permeating malady of life at fever-heat, there was +one supremely innocent and supremely happy creature. Sally had heard of +Heaven, attainable on the hard condition of first paying the debt of +death. "I have found a kinder Heaven," she said, one day. "It is here +in the cottage; and Amelius has shown me the way to it." + +Their social isolation was at this time complete: they were two +friendless people, perfectly insensible to all that was perilous and +pitiable in their own position. They parted with a kiss at night, and +they met again with a kiss in the morning--and they were as happily +free from all mistrust of the future as a pair of birds. No visitors +came to the house; the few friends and acquaintances of Amelius, +forgotten by him, forgot him in return. Now and then, Toff's wife came +to the cottage, and exhibited the "cherubim-baby." Now and then, Toff +himself (a musician among his other accomplishments) brought his fiddle +upstairs; and, saying modestly, "A little music helps to pass the +time," played to the young master and mistress the cheerful tinkling +tunes of the old vaudevilles of France. They were pleased with these +small interruptions when they came; and they were not disappointed when +the days passed, and the baby and the vaudevilles were hushed in +absence and silence. So the happy winter time went by; and the howling +winds brought no rheumatism with them, and even the tax-gatherer +himself, looking in at this earthly paradise, departed without a curse +when he left his little paper behind him. + +Now and then, at long intervals, the outer world intruded itself in the +form of a letter. + +Regina wrote, always with the same placid affection; always entering +into the same minute narrative of the slow progress of "dear uncle's" +return to health. He was forbidden to exert himself in any way. His +nerves were in a state of lamentable irritability. "I dare not even +mention your name to him, dear Amelius; it seems, I cannot think why, +to make him--oh, so unreasonably angry. I can only submit, and pray +that he may soon be himself again." Amelius wrote back, always in the +same considerate and gentle tone; always laying the blame of his dull +letters on the studious uniformity of his life. He preserved, with a +perfectly easy conscience, the most absolute silence on the subject of +Sally. While he was faithful to Regina, what reason had he to reproach +himself with the protection that he offered to a poor motherless girl? +When he was married, he might mention the circumstances under which he +had met with Sally, and leave the rest to his wife's sympathy. + +One morning, the letters with the Paris post-mark were varied by a few +lines from Rufus. + +"Every morning, my bright boy, I get up and say to myself, 'Well! I +reckon it's about time to take the route for London;' and every +morning, if you'll believe me, I put it off till next day. Whether it's +in the good feeding (expensive, I admit; but when your cook helps you +to digest instead of hindering you, a man of my dyspeptic nation is too +grateful to complain)--or whether it's in the air, which reminds me, I +do assure you, of our native atmosphere at Coolspring, Mass., is more +than I can tell, with a hard steel pen on a leaf of flimsy paper. You +have heard the saying, 'When a good American dies, he goes to Paris'. +Maybe, sometimes, he's smart enough to discount his own death, and +rationally enjoy the future time in the present. This you see is a +poetic light. But, mercy be praised, the moral of my residence in Paris +is plain:--If I can't go to Amelius, Amelius must come to me. Note the +address Grand Hotel; and pack up, like a good boy, on receipt of this. +Memorandum: The brown Miss is here. I saw her taking the air in a +carriage, and raised my hat. She looked the other way. + +"British--eminently British! But, there, I bear no malice; I am her most +obedient servant, and yours affectionately, RUFUS.--Postscript: I want +you to see some of our girls at this hotel. The genuine American +material, sir, perfected by Worth." + +Another morning brought with it a few sad lines from Phoebe. "After +what had happened, she was quite unable to face her friends; she had no +heart to seek employment in her own country--her present life was too +dreary and too hopeless to be endured. A benevolent lady had made her +an offer to accompany a party of emigrants to New Zealand; and she had +accepted the proposal. Perhaps, among the new people, she might recover +her self-respect and her spirits, and live to be a better woman. +Meanwhile, she bade Mr. Goldenheart farewell; and asked his pardon for +taking the liberty of wishing him happy with Miss Regina." + +Amelius wrote a few kind lines to Phoebe, and a cordial reply to Rufus, +making the pursuit of his studies his excuse for remaining in London. +After this, there was no further correspondence. The mornings succeeded +each other, and the postman brought no more news from the world +outside. + +But the lessons went on; and the teacher and pupil were as +inconsiderately happy as ever in each other's society. Observing with +inexhaustible interest the progress of the mental development of Sally, +Amelius was slow to perceive the physical development which was +unobtrusively keeping pace with it. He was absolutely ignorant of the +part which his own influence was taking in the gradual and delicate +process of change. Ere long, the first forewarnings of the coming +disturbance in their harmless relations towards each other, began to +show themselves. Ere long, there were signs of a troubled mind in +Sally, which were mysteries to Amelius, and subjects of wonderment, +sometimes even trials of temper, to the girl herself. + +One day, she looked in from the door of her room, in her white +dressing-gown, and asked to be forgiven if she kept the lessons of the +morning waiting for a little while. + +"Come in," said Amelius, "and tell me why." + +She hesitated. "You won't think me lazy, if you see me in my +dressing-gown?" + +"Of course not! Your dressing-gown, my dear, is as good as any other +gown. A young girl like you looks best in white." + +She came in with her work-basket, and her indoor dress over her arm. + +Amelius laughed. "Why haven't you put it on?" he asked. + +She sat down in a corner, and looked at her work-basket, instead of +looking at Amelius. "It doesn't fit me so well as it did," she +answered. "I am obliged to alter it." + +Amelius looked at her--at the charming youthful figure that had filled +out, at the softly-rounded outline of the face with no angles and +hollows in it now. "Is it the dressmaker's fault?" he asked slyly. + +Her eyes were still on the basket. "It's my fault," she said. "You +remember what a poor little skinny creature I was, when you first saw +me. I--you won't like me the worse for it, will you?--I am getting fat. +I don't know why. They say happy people get fat. Perhaps that's why. +I'm never hungry, and never frightened, and never miserable now--" She +stopped; her dress slipped from her lap to the floor. "Don't look at +me!" she said--and suddenly put her hands over her face. + +Amelius saw the tears finding their way through the pretty plump +fingers, which he remembered so shapeless and so thin. He crossed the +room, and touched her gently on the shoulder. "My dear child! have I +said anything to distress you?" + +"Nothing." + +"Then why are you crying?" + +"I don't know." She hesitated; looked at him; and made a desperate +effort to tell him what was in her mind. "I'm afraid you'll get tired +of me. There's nothing about me to make you pity me now. You seem to +be--not quite the same--no! it isn't that--I don't know what's come to +me--I'm a greater fool than ever. Give me my lesson, Amelius! please +give me my lesson!" + +Amelius produced the books, in some little surprise at Sally's +extraordinary anxiety to begin her lessons, while the unaltered dress +lay neglected on the carpet at her feet. A discreet abstract of the +history of England, published for the use of young persons, happened to +be at the top of the books. The system of education under Amelius +recognized the laws of chance: they began with the history, because it +turned up first. Sally read aloud; and Sally's master explained obscure +passages, and corrected occasional errors of pronunciation, as she went +on. On that particular morning, there was little to explain and nothing +to correct. "Am I doing it well today?" Sally inquired, on reaching the +end of her task. + +"Very well, indeed." + +She shut the book, and looked at her teacher. "I wonder how it is," she +resumed, "that I get on so much better with my lessons here than I did +at the Home? And yet it's foolish of me to wonder. I get on better, +because you are teaching me, of course. But I don't feel satisfied with +myself. I'm the same helpless creature--I feel your kindness, and can't +make any return to you--for all my learning. I should like--" She left +the thought in her unexpressed, and opened her copy-book. "I'll do my +writing now," she said, in a quiet resigned way. "Perhaps I may improve +enough, some day, to keep your accounts for you." She chose her pen a +little absently, and began to write. Amelius looked over her shoulder, +and laughed; she was writing his name. He pointed to the copper-plate +copy on the top line, presenting an undeniable moral maxim, in +characters beyond the reach of criticism:--Change Is A Law Of Nature. +"There, my dear, you are to copy that till you're tired of it," said +the easy master; "and then we'll try overleaf, another copy beginning +with letter D." + +Sally laid down her pen. "I don't like 'Change is a law of Nature'," +she said, knitting her pretty eyebrows into a frown. "I looked at those +words yesterday, and they made me miserable at night. I was foolish +enough to think that we should always go on together as we go on now, +till I saw that copy. I hate the copy! It came to my mind when I was +awake in the dark, and it seemed to tell me that _we_ were going to +change some day. That's the worst of learning--one knows too much, and +then there's an end of one's happiness. Thoughts come to you, when you +don't want them. I thought of the young lady we saw last week in the +park." + +She spoke gravely and sadly. The bright contentment which had given a +new charm to her eyes since she had been at the cottage, died out of +them as Amelius looked at her. What had become of her childish manner +and her artless smile? He drew his chair nearer to her. "What young +lady do you mean?" he asked. + +Sally shook her head, and traced lines with her pen on the blotting +paper. "Oh, you can't have forgotten her! A young lady, riding on a +grand white horse. All the people were admiring her. I wonder you cared +to look at me, after that beautiful creature had gone by. Ah, she knows +all sorts of things that I don't--_she_ doesn't sound a note at a time +on the piano, and as often as not the wrong one; _she_ can say her +multiplication table, and knows all the cities in the world. I dare say +she's almost as learned as you are. If you had her living here with +you, wouldn't you like it better than only having me!" She dropped her +arms on the table, and laid her head on them wearily. "The dreadful +streets!" she murmured, in low tones of despair. "Why did I think of +the dreadful streets, and the night I met with you--after I had seen +the young lady? Oh, Amelius, are you tired of me? are you ashamed of +me?" She lifted her head again, before he could answer, and controlled +herself by a sudden effort of resolution. "I don't know what's the +matter with me this morning," she said, looking at him with a pleading +fear in her eyes. "Never mind my nonsense--I'll do the copy!" She +began to write the unendurable assertion that change is a law of +Nature, with trembling fingers and fast heaving breath. Amelius took +the pen gently out of her hand. His voice faltered as he spoke to her. + +"We will give up the lessons for today, Sally. You have had a bad +night's rest, my dear, and you are feeling it--that's all. Do you think +you are well enough to come out with me, and try if the air will revive +you a little?" + +She rose, and took his hand, and kissed it. "I believe, if I was dying, +I should get well enough to go out with you! May I ask one little +favour? Do you mind if we don't go into the park today?" + +"What has made you take a dislike to the park, Sally?" + +"We might meet the beautiful young lady again," she answered, with her +head down. "I don't want to do that." + +"We will go wherever you like, my child. You shall decide--not I." + +She gathered up her dress from the floor, and hurried away to her +room--without looking back at him as usual when she opened the door. + +Left by himself, Amelius sat at the table, mechanically turning over +the lesson-books. Sally had perplexed and even distressed him. His +capacity to preserve the harmless relations between them, depended +mainly on the mute appeal which the girl's ignorant innocence +unconsciously addressed to him. He felt this vaguely, without +absolutely realizing it. By some mysterious process of association +which he was unable to follow, a saying of the wise Elder Brother at +Tadmor revived in his memory, while he was trying to see his way +through the difficulties that beset him. "You will meet with many +temptations, Amelius, when you leave our Community," the old man had +said at parting; "and most of them will come to you through women. Be +especially on your guard, my son, if you meet with a woman who makes +you feel truly sorry for her. She is on the high-road to your passions, +through the open door of your sympathies--and all the more certainly if +she is not aware of it herself." Amelius felt the truth expressed in +those words as he had never felt it yet. There had been signs of a +changing nature in Sally for some little time past. But they had +expressed themselves too delicately to attract the attention of a man +unprepared to be on the watch. Only on that morning, they had been +marked enough to force themselves on his notice. Only on that morning, +she had looked at him, and spoken to him, as she had never looked or +spoken before. He began dimly to see the danger for both of them, to +which he had shut his eyes thus far. Where was the remedy? what ought +he to do? Those questions came naturally into his mind--and yet, his +mind shrank from pursuing them. + +He got up impatiently, and busied himself in putting away the +lesson-books--a small duty hitherto always left to Toff. + +It was useless; his mind dwelt persistently on Sally. + +While he moved about the room, he still saw the look in her eyes, he +still heard the tone of her voice, when she spoke of the young lady in +the park. The words of the good physician whom he had consulted about +her recurred to his memory now. "The natural growth of her senses has +been stunted, like the natural growth of her body, by starvation, +terror, exposure to cold, and other influences inherent in the life +that she has led." And then the doctor had spoken of nourishing food, +pure air, and careful treatment--of the life, in short, which she had +led at the cottage--and had predicted that she would develop into "an +intelligent and healthy young woman." Again he asked himself, "What +ought I to do?" + +He turned aside to the window, and looked out. An idea occurred to him. +How would it be, if he summoned courage enough to tell her that he was +engaged to be married? + +No! Setting aside his natural dread of the shock that he might inflict +on the poor grateful girl who had only known happiness under his care, +the detestable obstacle of Mr. Farnaby stood immovably in his way. +Sally would be sure to ask questions about his engagement, and would +never rest until they were answered. It had been necessarily impossible +to conceal her mother's name from her. The discovery of her father, if +she heard of Regina and Regina's uncle, would be simply a question of +time. What might such a man be not capable of doing, what new act of +treachery might he not commit, if he found himself claimed by the +daughter whom he had deserted? Even if the expression of Mrs. Farnaby's +last wishes had not been sacred to Amelius, this consideration alone +would have kept him silent, for Sally's sake. + +He now doubted for the first time if he had calculated wisely in +planning to trust Sally's sad story, after his marriage, to the +sympathies of his wife. The jealousy that she might naturally feel of a +young girl, who was an object of interest to her husband, did not +present the worst difficulty to contend with. She believed in her +uncle's integrity as she believed in her religion. What would she say, +what would she do, if the innocent witness to Farnaby's infamy was +presented to her; if Amelius asked the protection for Sally which her +own father had refused to her in her infancy; and if he said, as he +must say, "Your uncle is the man"? + +And yet, what prospect could he see but the prospect of making the +disclosure when he looked to his own interests next, and thought of his +wedding day? Again the sinister figure of Farnaby confronted him. How +could he receive the wretch whom Regina would innocently welcome to the +house? There would be no longer a choice left; it would be his duty to +himself to tell his wife the terrible truth. And what would be the +result? He recalled the whole course of his courtship, and saw Farnaby +always on a level with himself in Regina's estimation. In spite of his +natural cheerfulness, in spite of his inbred courage, his heart failed +him, when he thought of the time to come. + +As he turned away from the window, Sally's door opened: she joined him, +ready for the walk. Her spirits had rallied, assisted by the cheering +influence of dressing to go out. Her charming smile brightened her +face. In sheer desperation, reckless of what he did or said, Amelius +held out both hands to welcome her. "That's right, Sally!" he cried. +"Look pleased and pretty, my dear; let's be happy while we can--and let +the future take care of itself!" + + + +CHAPTER 6 + +The capricious influences which combine to make us happy are never so +certain to be absent influences as when we are foolish enough to talk +about them. Amelius had talked about them. When he and Sally left the +cottage, the road which led them away from the park was also the road +which led them past a church. The influences of happiness left them at +the church door. + +Rows of carriages were in waiting; hundreds of idle people were +assembled about the church steps; the thunderous music of the organ +rolled out through the open doors--a grand wedding, with choral +service, was in course of celebration. Sally begged Amelius to take her +in to see it. They tried the front entrance, and found it impossible to +get through the crowd. A side entrance, and a fee to a verger, +succeeded better. They obtained space enough to stand on, with a view +of the altar. + +The bride was a tall buxom girl, splendidly dressed: she performed her +part in the ceremony with the most unruffled composure. The bridegroom +exhibited an instructive spectacle of aged Nature, sustained by Art. +His hair, his complexion, his teeth, his breast, his shoulders, and his +legs, showed what the wig-maker, the valet, the dentist, the tailor, +and the hosier can do for a rich old man, who wishes to present a +juvenile appearance while he is buying a young wife. No less than three +clergymen were present, conducting the sale. The demeanour of the rich +congregation was worthy of the glorious bygone days of the Golden Calf. +So far as could be judged by appearances, one old lady, in a pew close +to the place at which Amelius and Sally were standing, seemed to be the +only person present who was not favourably impressed by the ceremony. + +"I call it disgraceful," the old lady remarked to a charming young +person seated next to her. + +But the charming young person--being the legitimate product of the +present time--had no more sympathy with questions of sentiment than a +Hottentot. "How can you talk so, grandmamma!" she rejoined. "He has +twenty thousand a year--and that lucky girl will be mistress of the +most splendid house in London." + +"I don't care," the old lady persisted; "it's not the less a disgrace +to everybody concerned in it. There is many a poor friendless creature, +driven by hunger to the streets, who has a better claim to our sympathy +than that shameless girl, selling herself in the house of God! I'll +wait for you in the carriage--I won't see any more of it." + +Sally touched Amelius. "Take me out!" she whispered faintly. + +He supposed that the heat in the church had been too much for her. "Are +you better now?" he asked, when they got into the open air. + +She held fast by his arm. "Let's get farther away," she said. "That +lady is coming after us--I don't want her to see me again. I am one of +the creatures she talked about. Is the mark of the streets on me, after +all you have done to rub it out?" + +The wild misery in her words presented another development in her +character which was entirely new to Amelius. "My dear child," he +remonstrated, "you distress me when you talk in that way. God knows the +life you are leading now." + +But Sally's mind was still full of its own acutely painful sense of +what the lady had said. "I saw her," she burst out--"I saw her look at +me while she spoke!" + +"And she thought you better worth looking at than the bride--and quite +right, too!" Amelius rejoined. "Come, come, Sally, be like yourself. +You don't want to make me unhappy about you, I am sure?" + +He had taken the right way with her: she felt that simple appeal, and +asked his pardon with all the old charm in her manner and her voice. +For the moment, she was "Simple Sally" again. They walked on in +silence. When they had lost sight of the church, Amelius felt her hand +beginning to tremble on his arm. A mingled expression of tenderness and +anxiety showed itself in her blue eyes as they looked up at him. "I am +thinking of something else now," she said; "I am thinking of You. May I +ask you something?" + +Amelius smiled. The smile was not reflected as usual in Sally's face. +"It's nothing particular," she explained in an odd hurried way; "the +church put it into my head. You--" She hesitated, and tried it under +another form. "Will you be married yourself, Amelius, one of these +days?" + +He did his best to evade the question. "I am not rich, Sally, like the +old gentleman we have just seen." + +Her eyes turned away from him; she sighed softly to herself. "You will +be married some day," she said. "Will you do one kind thing more for +me, Amelius, when I die? You remember my reading in the newspaper of +the new invention for burning the dead--and my asking you about it. You +said you thought it was better than burying, and you had a good mind to +leave directions to be burnt instead of buried, when your time came. +When _my_ time has come, will you leave other directions about +yourself, if I ask you?" + +"My dear, you are talking in a very strange way! If you will have it +that I am to be married some day, what has that to do with your death?" + +"It doesn't matter, Amelius. When I have nothing left to live for, I +suppose it's as likely as not I may die. Will you tell them to bury me +in some quiet place, away from London, where there are very few graves? +And when you leave your directions, don't say you are to be burnt. +Say--when you have lived a long, long life, and enjoyed all the +happiness you have deserved so well--say you are to be buried, and your +grave is to be near mine. I should like to think of the same trees +shading us, and the same flowers growing over us. No! don't tell me I'm +talking strangely again--I can't bear it; I want you to humour me and +be kind to me about this. Do you mind going home? I'm feeling a little +tired--and I know I'm poor company for you today." + +The talk flagged at dinner-time, though Toff did his best to keep it +going. + +In the evening, the excellent Frenchman made an effort to cheer the two +dull young people. He came in confidentially with his fiddle, and said +he had a favour to ask. "I possess some knowledge, sir, of the +delightful art of dancing. Might I teach young Miss to dance? You see, +if I may venture to say so, the other lessons--oh, most useful, most +important, the other lessons! but they are just a little serious. +Something to relieve her mind, sir--if you will forgive me for +mentioning it. I plead for innocent gaiety--let us dance!" + +He played a few notes on the fiddle, and placed his right foot in +position, and waited amiably to begin. Sally thanked him, and made the +excuse that she was tired. She wished Amelius good night, without +waiting until they were alone together--and, for the first time, +without giving him the customary kiss. + +Toff waited until she had gone, and approached his master on tiptoe, +with a low bow. + +"May I take the liberty of expressing an opinion, sir. A young girl who +rejects the remedy of the fiddle presents a case of extreme gravity. +Don't despair, sir! It is my pride and pleasure to be never at a loss, +where your interests are concerned. This is, I think, a matter for the +ministrations of a woman. If you have confidence in my wife, I venture +to suggest a visit from Madame Toff." + +He discreetly retired, and left his master to think about it. + +The time passed--and Amelius was still thinking, and still as far as +ever from arriving at a conclusion, when he heard a door opened behind +him. Sally crossed the room before he could rise from his chair: her +cheeks were flushed, her eyes were bright, her hair fell loose over her +shoulders--she dropped at his feet, and hid her face on his knees. "I'm +an ungrateful wretch!" she burst out; "I never kissed you when I said +good night." + +With the best intentions, Amelius took the worst possible way of +composing her--he treated her trouble lightly. "Perhaps you forgot it?" +he said. + +She lifted her head, and looked at him, with the tears in her eyes. +"I'm bad enough," she answered; "but not so bad as that. Oh, don't +laugh! there's nothing to laugh at. Have you done with liking me? Are +you angry with me for behaving so badly all day, and bidding you good +night as if you were Toff? You shan't be angry with me!" She jumped up, +and sat on his knee, and put her arms round his neck. "I haven't been +to bed," she whispered; "I was too miserable to go to sleep. I don't +know what's been the matter with me today. I seem to be losing the +little sense I ever had. Oh, if I could only make you understand how +fond I am of you! And yet I've had bitter thoughts, as if I was a +burden to you, and I had done a wrong thing in coming here--and you +would have told me so, only you pitied the poor wretch who had nowhere +else to go." She tightened her hold round his neck, and laid her +burning cheek against his face. "Oh, Amelius, my heart is sore! Kiss +me, and say, 'Good night, Sally!'" + +He was young--he was a man--for a moment he lost his self control; he +kissed her as he had never kissed her yet. + +Then, he remembered; he recovered himself; he put her gently away from +him, and led her to the door of her room, and closed it on her in +silence. For a little while, he waited alone. The interval over, he +rang for Toff. + +"Do you think your wife would take Miss Sally as an apprentice?" he +asked. + +Toff looked astonished. "Whatever you wish, sir, my wife will do. Her +knowledge of the art of dressmaking is--" Words failed him to express +his wife's immense capacity as a dressmaker. He kissed his hand in mute +enthusiasm, and blew the kiss in the direction of Madame Toff's +establishment. "However," he proceeded, "I ought to tell you one thing, +sir; the business is small, small, very small. But we are all in the +hands of Providence--the business will improve, one day." He lifted his +shoulders and lifted his eyebrows, and looked perfectly satisfied with +his wife's prospects. + +"I will go and speak to Madame Toff myself, tomorrow morning," Amelius +resumed. "It's quite possible that I may be obliged to leave London for +a little while--and I must provide in some way for Miss Sally. Don't +say a word about it to her yet, Toff, and don't look miserable. If I go +away, I shall take you with me. Good night." + +Toff, with his handkerchief halfway to his eyes, recovered his native +cheerfulness. "I am invariably sick at sea, sir," he said; "but, no +matter, I will attend you to the uttermost ends of the earth." + +So honest Amelius planned his way of escape from the critical position +in which he found himself. He went to his bed, troubled by anxieties +which kept him waking for many weary hours. Where was he to go to, when +he left Sally? If he could have known what had happened, on that very +day, on the other side of the Channel, he might have decided (in spite +of the obstacle of Mr. Farnaby) on surprising Regina by a visit to +Paris. + + + +CHAPTER 7 + +On the morning when Amelius and Sally (in London) entered the church to +look at the wedding. Rufus (in Paris) went to the Champs Elysees to +take a walk. + +He had advanced half-way up the magnificent avenue, when he saw Regina +for the second time, taking her daily drive, with an elderly woman in +attendance on her. Rufus took off his hat again, perfectly impenetrable +to the cold reception which he had already experienced. Greatly to his +surprise, Regina not only returned his salute, but stopped the carriage +and beckoned to him to speak to her. Looking at her more closely, he +perceived signs of suffering in her face which completely altered her +expression as he remembered it. Her magnificent eyes were dim and red; +she had lost her rich colour; her voice trembled as she spoke to him. + +"Have you a few minutes to spare?" she asked. + +"The whole day, if you like, Miss," Rufus answered. + +She turned to the woman who accompanied her. "Wait here for me, +Elizabeth; I have something to say to this gentleman." + +With those words, she got out of the carriage. Rufus offered her his +arm. She put her hand in it as readily as if they had been old friends. +"Let us take one of the side paths," she said; "they are almost +deserted at this time of day. I am afraid I surprise you very much. I +can only trust to your kindness to forgive me for passing you without +notice the last time we met. Perhaps it may be some excuse for me that +I am in great trouble. It is just possible you may be able to relieve +my mind. I believe you know I am engaged to be married?" + +Rufus looked at her with a sudden expression of interest. "Is this +about Amelius?" he asked. + +She answered him almost inaudibly--"Yes." + +Rufus still kept his eyes fixed on her. "I don't wish to say anything, +Miss," he explained; "but, if you have any complaint to make of +Amelius, I should take it as a favour if you would look me straight in +the face, and mention it plainly." + +In the embarrassment which troubled Regina at that moment, he had +preferred the two requests of all others with which it was most +impossible for her to comply. She still looked obstinately on the +ground; and, instead of speaking of Amelius, she diverged to the +subject of Mr. Farnaby's illness. + +"I am staying in Paris with my uncle," she said. "He has had a long +illness; but he is strong enough now to speak to me of things that have +been on his mind for some time past. He has so surprised me; he has +made me so miserable about Amelius--" She paused, and put her +handkerchief to her eyes. Rufus said nothing to console her--he waited +doggedly until she was ready to go on. "You know Amelius well," she +resumed; "you are fond of him; you believe in him, don't you? Do you +think he is capable of behaving basely to any person who trusts him? Is +it likely, is it possible, he could be false and cruel to Me?" + +The mere question roused the indignation of Rufus. "Whoever said that +of him, Miss, told you a lie! I answer for my boy as I answer for +myself." + +She looked at him at last, with a sudden expression of relief. "I said +so too," she rejoined; "I said some enemy had slandered him. My uncle +won't tell me who it is. He positively forbids me to write to Amelius; +he tells me I must never see Amelius again--he is going to write and +break off the engagement. Oh, it's too cruel! too cruel!" + +Thus far they had been walking on slowly. But now Rufus stopped, +determined to make her speak plainly. + +"Take a word of advice from me, Miss," he said. "Never trust anybody by +halves. There's nothing I'm not ready to do, to set this matter right; +but I must know what I'm about first. What's said against Amelius? Out +with it, no matter what 'tis! I'm old enough to be your father; and I +feel for you accordingly--I do." + +The thorough sincerity of tone and manner which accompanied those words +had its effect. Regina blushed and trembled--but she spoke out. + +"My uncle says Amelius has disgraced himself, and insulted me; my uncle +says there is a person--a girl living with him--" She stopped, with a +faint cry of alarm. Her hand, still testing on the arm of Rufus, felt +him start as the allusion to the girl passed her lips. "You have heard +of it!" she cried. "Oh, God help me, it's true!" + +"True?" Rufus repeated, with stern contempt. "What's come to you? +Haven't I told you already, it's a lie? I'll answer to it, Amelius is +true to you. Will that do? No? You're an obstinate one, Miss--that you +are. Well! it's due to the boy that I should set him right with you, if +words will do it. You know how he's been brought up at Tadmor? Bear +that in mind--and now you shall have the truth of it, on the word of an +honest man." + +Without further preface, he told her how Amelius had met with Sally, +insisting strongly on the motives of pure humanity by which his friend +had been actuated. Regina listened with an obstinate expression of +distrust which would have discouraged most men. Rufus persisted, +nevertheless; and, to some extent at least, succeeded in producing the +right impression. When he reached the close of the narrative--when he +asserted that he had himself seen Amelius confide the girl unreservedly +to the care of a lady who was a dear and valued friend of his own; and +when he declared that there had been no after-meeting between them and +no written correspondence--then, at last, Regina owned that he had not +encouraged her to trust in the honour of Amelius, without reason to +justify him. But, even under these circumstances, there was a residue +of suspicion still left in her mind. She asked for the name of the lady +to whose benevolent assistance Amelius had been indebted. Rufus took +out one of his cards, and wrote Mrs. Payson's name and address on it. + +"Your nature, my dear, is not quite so confiding as I could have wished +to see it," he said, quietly handing her the card. "But we can't change +our natures--can we? And you're not bound to believe a man like me, +without witnesses to back him. Write to Mrs. Payson, and make your mind +easy. And, while we are about it, tell me where I can telegraph to you +tomorrow--I'm off to London by the night mail." + +"Do you mean, you are going to see Amelius? + +"That is so. I'm too fond of Amelius to let this trouble rest where +'tis now. I've been away from him, here in Paris, for some little +time--and you may tell me (and quite right, too) I can't answer for +what may have been going on in my absence. No! now we are about it, +we'll have it out. I mean to see Amelius and see Mrs. Payson, tomorrow +morning. Just tell your uncle to hold his hand, before he breaks off +your marriage, and wait for a telegram from me. Well? and this is your +address, is it? I know the hotel. A nice look-out on the Twillery +Gardens--but a bad cellar of wine, as I hear. I'm at the Grand Hotel +myself, if there's anything else that troubles you before evening. Now +I look at you again, I reckon there's something more to be said, if +you'll only let it find its way to your tongue. No; it ain't thanks. +We'll take the gratitude for granted, and get to what's behind it. +There's your carriage--and the good lady looks tired of waiting. Well, +now?" + +"It's only one thing," Regina acknowledged, with her eyes on the ground +again. "Perhaps, when you go to London, you may see the--" + +"The girl?" + +"Yes." + +"It's not likely. Say I do see her--what then?" + +Regina's colour began to show itself again. "If you do see her," she +said, "I beg and entreat you won't speak of _me_ in her hearing. I +should die of the shame of it, if she thought herself asked to give him +up out of pity for me. Promise I am not to be brought forward; promise +you won't even mention my having spoken to you about it. On your word +of honour!" + +Rufus gave her his promise, without showing any hesitation, or making +any remark. But when she shook hands with him, on returning to the +carriage, he held her hand for a moment. "Please to excuse me, Miss, if +I ask one question," he said, in tones too low to be heard by any other +person. "Are you really fond of Amelius?" + +"I am surprised you should doubt it," she answered; "I am more--much +more than fond of him!" + +Rufus handed her silently into the carriage, "Fond of him, are you?" he +thought, as he walked away by himself. "I reckon it's a sort of +fondness that don't wear well, and won't stand washing." + + + +CHAPTER 8 + +Early the next morning, Rufus rang at the cottage gate. + +"Well, Mr. Frenchman, and how do _you_ git along? And how's Amelius?" + +Toff, standing before the gate, answered with the utmost respect, but +showed no inclination to let the visitor in. + +"Amelius has his intervals of laziness," Rufus proceeded; "I bet he's +in bed!" + +"My young master was up and dressed an hour ago, sir--he has just gone +out." + +"That is so, is it? Well, I'll wait till he comes back." He pushed by +Toff, and walked into the cottage. "Your foreign ceremonies are clean +thrown away on me," he said, as Toff tried to stop him in the hall. +"I'm the American savage; and I'm used up with travelling all night. +Here's a little order for you: whisky, bitters, lemon, and ice--I'll +take a cocktail in the library." + +Toff made a last desperate effort to get between the visitor and the +door. "I beg your pardon, sir, a thousand times; I must most +respectfully entreat you to wait--" + +Before he could explain himself, Rufus, with the most perfect good +humour, pulled the old man out of his way. "What's troubling this +venerable creature's mind--" he inquired of himself, "does he think I +don't know my way in?" + +He opened the library door--and found himself face to face with Sally. +She had risen from her chair, hearing voices outside, and hesitating +whether to leave the room or not. They confronted each other, on either +side of the table, in silent dismay. For once Rufus was so completely +bewildered, that he took refuge in his customary form of greeting +before he was aware of it himself. + +"How do you find yourself, Miss? I take pleasure in renewing our +acquaintance,--Thunder! that's not it; I reckon I'm off my head. Do me +the favour, young woman, to forget every word I've said to you. If any +mortal creature had told me I should find you here, I should have said +'twas a lie--and I should have been the liar. That makes a man feel +bad, I can tell you. No! don't slide off, if you please, into the next +room--_that_ won't set things right, nohow. Sit you down again. Now I'm +here, I have something to say. I'll speak first to Mr. Frenchman. +Listen to this, old sir. If I happen to want a witness standing in the +doorway, I'll ring the bell; for the present I can do without you. Bong +Shewer, as we say in your country." He proceeded to shut the door on +Toff and his remonstrances. + +"I protest, sir, against acts of violence, unworthy of a gentleman!" +cried Toff, struggling to get back again. + +"Be as angry as you please in the kitchen," Rufus answered, persisting +in closing the door; "I won't have a noise up here. If you know where +your master is, go and fetch him--and the sooner the better." He turned +back to Sally, and surveyed her for a while in terrible silence. She +was afraid to look at him; her eyes were on the book which she had been +reading when he came in. "You look to me," Rufus remarked, "as if you +had been settled here for a time. Never mind your book now; you can go +back to your reading after we've had a word or two together first." He +reached out his long arm, and pulled the book to his own side of the +table. Sally innocently silenced him for the second time. He opened the +book, and discovered--the New Testament. + +"It's my lesson, if you please, sir. I'm to learn it where the pencil +mark is, before Amelius comes back." She offered her poor little +explanation, trembling with terror. In spite of himself, Rufus began to +look at her less sternly. + +"So you call him 'Amelius', do you?" he said. "I note that, Miss, as an +unfavourable sign to begin with. How long, if you please, has Amelius +turned schoolmarm, for your young ladyship's benefit? Don't you +understand? Well, you're not the only inhabitant of Great Britain who +don't understand the English language. I'll put it plainer. When I last +saw Amelius, you were learning your lessons at the Home. What ill wind, +Miss, blew you in here? Did Amelius fetch you, or did you come of your +own accord, without waiting to be whistled for?" He spoke coarsely but +not ill-humouredly. Sally's pretty downcast face was pleading with him +for mercy, and (as he felt, with supreme contempt for himself) was not +altogether pleading in vain. "If I guessed that you ran away from the +home," he resumed, "should I guess right?" + +She answered with a sudden accession of confidence. "Don't blame +Amelius," she said; "I did run away. I couldn't live without him." + +"You don't know how you can live, young one, till you've tried the +experiment. Well, and what did they do at the Home? Did they send after +you, to fetch you back?" + +"They wouldn't take me back--they sent my clothes here after me." + +"Ah, those were the rules, I reckon. I begin to see my way to the end +of it now. Amelius gave you house-room?" + +She looked at him proudly. "He gave me a room of my own," she said. + +His next question was the exact repetition of the question which he had +put to Regina in Paris. The only variety was in the answer that he +received. + +"Are you fond of Amelius?" + +"I would die for him!" + +Rufus had hitherto spoken, standing. He now took a chair. + +"If Amelius had not been brought up at Tadmor," he said, "I should take +my hat, and wish you good morning. As things are, a word more may be a +word in season. Your lessons here seem to have agreed with you, Miss. +You're a different sort of girl to what you were when I last saw you." + +She surprised him by receiving that remark in silence. The colour left +her face. She sighed bitterly. The sigh puzzled Rufus: he held his +opinion of her in suspense, until he had heard more. + +"You said just now you would die for Amelius," he went on, eyeing her +attentively. "I take that to be a woman's hysterical way of mentioning +that she feels interest in Amelius. Are you fond enough of him to leave +him, if you could only be persuaded that leaving him was for his good?" + +She abruptly left the table, and went to the window. When her back was +turned to Rufus, she spoke. "Am I a disgrace to him?" she asked, in +tones so faint that he could barely hear them. "I have had my fears of +it, before now." + +If he had been less fond of Amelius, his natural kindness of heart +might have kept him silent. Even as it was, he made no direct reply. +"You remember how you were living when Amelius first met with you?" was +all he said. + +The sad blue eyes looked at him in patient sorrow; the low sweet voice +answered--"Yes." Only a look and a word--only the influence of an +instant--and, in that instant, Rufus's last doubts of her vanished! + +"Don't think I say it reproachfully, my child! I know it was not your +fault; I know you are to be pitied, and not blamed." + +She turned her face towards him--pale, quiet, and resigned. "Pitied, +and not blamed," she repeated. "Am I to be forgiven?" + +He shrank from answering her. There was silence. + +"You said just now," she went on, "that I looked like a different girl, +since you last saw me. I _am_ a different girl. I think of things that +I never thought of before--some change, I don't know what, has come +over me. Oh, my heart does hunger so to be good! I do so long to +deserve what Amelius has done for me! You have got my book +there--Amelius gave it to me; we read in it every day. If Christ had +been on earth now, is it wrong to think that Christ would have forgiven +me?" + +"No, my dear; it's right to think so." + +"And, while I live, if I do my best to lead a good life, and if my last +prayer to God is to take me to heaven, shall I be heard?" + +"You will be heard, my child, I don't doubt it. But, you see, you have +got the world about you to reckon with--and the world has invented a +religion of its own. There's no use looking for it in this book of +yours. It's a religion with the pride of property at the bottom of it, +and a veneer of benevolent sentiment at the top. It will be very sorry +for you, and very charitable towards you: in short, it will do +everything for you except taking you back again." + +She had her answer to that. "Amelius has taken me back again," she +said. + +"Amelius has taken you back again," Rufus agreed. "But there's one +thing he's forgotten to do; he has forgotten to count the cost. It +seems to be left to me to do that. Look here, my girl! I own I doubted +you when I first came into this room; and I'm sorry for it, and I beg +your pardon. I do believe you're a good girl--I couldn't say why if I +was asked, but I do believe it for all that. I wish there was no more +to be said--but there is more; and neither you nor I must shirk it. +Public opinion won't deal as tenderly with you as I do; public opinion +will make the worst of you, and the worst of Amelius. While you're +living here with him--there's no disguising it--you're innocently in +the way of the boy's prospects in life. I don't know whether you +understand me?" + +She had turned away from him; she was looking out of the window once +more. + +"I understand you," she answered. "On the night when Amelius met with +me, he did wrong to take me away with him. He ought to have left me +where I was." + +"Wait a bit! that's as far from my meaning as far can be. There's a +look-out for everybody; and, if you'll trust me, I'll find a look-out +for _you."_ + +She paid no heed to what he said: her next words showed that she was +pursuing her own train of thought. + +"I am in the way of his prospects in life," she resumed. "You mean that +he might be married some day, but for me?" + +Rufus admitted it cautiously. "The thing might happen," was all he +said. + +"And his friends might come and see him," she went on; her face still +turned away, and her voice sinking into dull subdued tones. "Nobody +comes here now. You see I understand you. When shall I go away? I had +better not say good-bye, I suppose?--it would only distress him. I +could slip out of the house, couldn't I?" + +Rufus began to feel uneasy. He was prepared for tears--but not for such +resignation as this. After a little hesitation, he joined her at the +window. She never turned towards him; she still looked out straight +before her; her bright young face had turned pitiably rigid and pale. +He spoke to her very gently; advising her to think of what he had said, +and to do nothing in a hurry. She knew the hotel at which he stayed +when he was in London; and she could write to him there. If she decided +to begin a new life in another country, he was wholly and truly at her +service. He would provide a passage for her in the same ship that took +him back to America. At his age, and known as he was in his own +neighbourhood, there would be no scandal to fear. He could get her +reputably and profitably employed, in work which a young girl might +undertake. "I'll be as good as a father to you, my poor child," he +said, "don't think you're going to be friendless, if you leave Amelius. +I'll see to that! You shall have honest people about you--and innocent +pleasure in your new life." + +She thanked him, still with the same dull tearless resignation. "What +will the honest people say," she asked, "when they know who I am?" + +"They have no business to know who you are--and they shan't know it." + +"Ah! it comes back to the same thing," she said. "You must deceive the +honest people, or you can do nothing for me. Amelius had better have +left me where I was! I disgraced nobody, I was a burden to nobody, +_there._ Cold and hunger and ill-treatment can sometimes be merciful +friends, in their way. If I had been left to them, they would have laid +me at rest by this time." She turned to Rufus, before he could speak to +her. "I'm not ungrateful, sir; I'll think of it, as you say; and I'll +do all that a poor foolish creature can do, to be worthy of the +interest you take in me." She lifted her hand to her head, with a +momentary expression of pain. "I've got a dull kind of aching here," +she said; "it reminds me of my old life, when I was sometimes beaten on +the head. May I go and lie down a little, by myself?" + +Rufus took her hand, and pressed it in silence. She looked back at him +as she opened the door of her room. "Don't distress Amelius," she said; +"I can bear anything but that." + +Left alone in the library, Rufus walked restlessly to and fro, driven +by a troubled mind. "I was bound to do it," he thought; "and I ought to +be satisfied with myself. I'm not satisfied. The world is hard on +women--and the rights of property is a darned bad reason for it!" + +The door from the hall was suddenly thrown open. Amelius entered the +room. He looked flushed and angry--he refused to take the hand that +Rufus offered to him. + +"What's this I hear from Toff? It seems that you forced your way in +when Sally was here. There are limits to the liberties that a man may +take in his friend's house." + +"That's true," said Rufus quietly. "But when a man hasn't taken +liberties, there don't seem much to be said. Sally was at the Home, +when I last saw you--and nobody told me I should find her in this +room." + +"You might have left the room, when you found her here. You have been +talking to her. If you have said anything about Regina--" + +"I have said nothing about Miss Regina. You have a hot temper of your +own, Amelius. Wait a bit, and let it cool." + +"Never mind my temper. I want to know what you have been saying to +Sally. Stop! I'll ask Sally herself." He crossed the room to the inner +door, and knocked. "Come in here, my dear; I want to speak to you." + +The answer reached him faintly through the door. "I have got a bad +headache, Amelius. Please let me rest a little." He turned back to +Rufus, and lowered his voice. But his eyes flashed; he was more angry +than ever. + +"You had better go," he said. "I can guess how you have been talking to +her--I know what her headache means. Any man who distresses that dear +little affectionate creature is a man whom I hold as my enemy. I spit +upon all the worldly considerations which pass muster with people like +you! No sweeter girl than poor Sally ever breathed the breath of life. +Her happiness is more precious to me than words can say. She is sacred +to me! And I have just proved it--I have just come from a good woman, +who will teach her an honest way of earning her bread. Not a breath of +scandal shall blow on her. If you, or any people like you, think I will +consent to cast her adrift on the world, or consign her to a prison +under the name of a Home, you little know my nature and my principles. +Here"--he snatched up the New Testament from the table, and shook it at +Rufus--"here are my principles, and I'm not ashamed of them!" + +Rufus took up his hat. + +"There's one thing you'll be ashamed of, my son, when you're cool +enough to think about it," he said; "you'll be ashamed of the words you +have spoken to a friend who loves you. I'm not a bit angry myself. You +remind me of that time on board the steamer, when the quarter-master +was going to shoot the bird. You made it up with him--and you'll come +to my hotel and make it up with me. And then we'll shake hands, and +talk about Sally. If it's not taking another liberty, I'll trouble you +for a light." He helped himself to a match from the box on the +chimney-piece, lit his cigar, and left the room. + +He had not been gone half an hour, before the better nature of Amelius +urged him to follow Rufus and make his apologies. But he was too +anxious about Sally to leave the cottage, until he had seen her first. +The tone in which she had answered him, when he knocked at her door, +suggested, to his sensitive apprehension, that there was something more +serious the matter with her than a mere headache. For another hour, he +waited patiently, on the chance that he might hear her moving in her +room. Nothing happened. No sound reached his ears, except the +occasional rolling of carriage-wheels on the road outside. + +His patience began to fail him, as the second hour moved on. He went to +the door, and listened, and still heard nothing. A sudden dread struck +him that she might have fainted. He opened the door a few inches, and +spoke to her. There was no answer. He looked in. The room was empty. + +He ran into the hall, and called to Toff. Was she, by any chance, +downstairs? No. Or out in the garden? No. Master and man looked at each +other in silence. Sally was gone. + + + +CHAPTER 9 + +Toff was the first who recovered himself. + +"Courage, sir!" he said. "With a little thinking, we shall see the way +to find her. That rude American man, who talked with her this morning, +may be the person who has brought this misfortune on us." + +Amelius waited to hear no more. There was the chance, at least, that +something might have been said which had induced her to take refuge +with Rufus. He ran back to the library to get his hat. + +Toff followed his master, with another suggestion. "One word more, sir, +before you go. If the American man cannot help us, we must be ready to +try another way. Permit me to accompany you as far as my wife's shop. I +propose that she shall come back here with me, and examine poor little +Miss's bedroom. We will wait, of course, for your return, before +anything is done. In the mean time, I entreat you not to despair. It is +at least possible that the means of discovery may be found in the +bedroom." + +They went out together, taking the first cab that passed them. Amelius +proceeded alone to the hotel. + +Rufus was in his room. "What's gone wrong?" he asked, the moment +Amelius opened the door. "Shake hands, my son, and smother up that +little trouble between us in silence. Your face alarms me--it does! +What of Sally?" + +Amelius started at the question. "Isn't she here?" he asked. + +Rufus drew back. The mere action said, No, before he answered in words. + +"Have you seen nothing of her? heard nothing of her?" + +"Nothing. Steady, now! Meet it like a man; and tell me what has +happened." + +Amelius told him in two words. "Don't suppose I'm going to break out +again as I did this morning," he went on; "I'm too wretched and too +anxious to be angry. Only tell me, Rufus, have you said anything to +her--?" + +Rufus held up his hand. "I see what you're driving at. It will be more +to the purpose to tell you what she said to me. From first to last, +Amelius, I spoke kindly to her, and I did her justice. Give me a minute +to rummage my memory." After brief consideration, he carefully repeated +the substance of what had passed between Sally and himself, during the +latter part of the interview between them. "Have you looked about in +her room?" he inquired, when he had done. "There might be a trifling +something to help you, left behind her there." + +Amelius told him of Toff's suggestion. They returned together at once +to the cottage. Madame Toff was waiting to begin the search. + +The first discovery was easily made. Sally had taken off one or two +little trinkets--presents from Amelius, which she was in the habit of +wearing--and had left them, wrapped up in paper, on the dressing-table. +No such thing as a farewell letter was found near them. The examination +of the wardrobe came next--and here a startling circumstance revealed +itself. Every one of the dresses which Amelius had presented to her was +hanging in its place. They were not many; and they had all, on previous +occasions, been passed in review by Toff's wife. She was absolutely +certain that the complete number of the dresses was there in the +bedroom. Sally must have worn something, in place of her new clothes. +What had she put on? + +Looking round the room, Amelius noticed in a corner the box in which he +had placed the first new dress that he had purchased for Sally, on the +morning after they had met. He tried to open the box: it was +locked--and the key was not to be found. The ever-ready Toff fetched a +skewer from the kitchen, and picked the lock in two minutes. On lifting +the cover, the box proved to be empty. + +The one person present who understood what this meant was Amelius. + +He remembered that Sally had taken her old threadbare clothes away with +her in the box, when the angry landlady had insisted on his leaving the +house. "I want to look at them sometimes," the poor girl had said, "and +think how much better off I am now." In those miserable rags she had +fled from the cottage, after hearing the cruel truth. "He had better +have left me where I was," she had said. "Cold and hunger and +ill-treatment would have laid me at rest by this time." Amelius fell on +his knees before the empty box, in helpless despair. The conclusion +that now forced itself on his mind completely unmanned him. She had +gone back, in the old dress, to die under the cold, the hunger, and the +horror of the old life. + +Rufus took his hand, and spoke to him kindly. He rallied, and dashed +the tears from his eyes, and rose to his feet. "I know where to look +for her," was all he said; "and I must do it alone." He refused to +enter into any explanation, or to be assisted by any companion. "This +is my secret and hers," he answered, "Go back to your hotel, Rufus--and +pray that I may not bring news which will make a wretched man of you +for the rest of your life." With that he left them. + +In another hour he stood once more on the spot at which he and Sally +had met. + +The wild bustle and uproar of the costermongers' night market no longer +rioted round him: the street by daylight was in a state of dreary +repose. Slowly pacing up and down, from one end to another, he waited +with but one hope to sustain him--the hope that she might have taken +refuge with the two women who had been her only friends in the dark +days of her life. Ignorant of the place in which they lived, he had no +choice but to wait for the appearance of one or other of them in the +street. He was quiet and resolved. For the rest of the day, and for the +whole of the night if need be, his mind was made up to keep steadfastly +on the watch. + +When he could walk no longer, he obtained rest and refreshment in the +cookshop which he remembered so well; sitting on a stool near the +window, from which he could still command a view of the street. The +gas-lamps were alight, and the long winter's night was beginning to set +in, when he resumed his weary march from end to end of the pavement. As +the darkness became complete, his patience was rewarded at last. +Passing the door of a pawnbroker's shop, he met one of the women face +to face, walking rapidly, with a little parcel under her arm. + +She recognized him with a cry of joyful surprise. + +"Oh, sir, how glad I am to see you, to be sure! You've come to look +after Sally, haven't you? Yes, yes; she's safe in our poor place--but +in such a dreadful state. Off her head! clean off her head! Talks of +nothing but you. 'I'm in the way of his prospects in life.' Over and +over and over again, she keeps on saying that. Don't be afraid; Jenny's +at home, taking care of her. She wants to go out. Hot and wild, with a +kind of fever on her, she wants to go out. She asked if it rained. 'The +rain may kill me in these ragged clothes,' she says; 'and then I shan't +be in the way of his prospects in life.' We tried to quiet her by +telling her it didn't rain--but it was no use; she was as eager as ever +to go out. 'I may get another blow on the bosom,' she says; 'and, +maybe, it will fall on the right place this time.' No! there's no fear +of the brute who used to beat her--he's in prison. Don't ask to see her +just yet, sir; please don't! I'm afraid you would only make her worse, +if I took you to her now; I wouldn't dare to risk it. You see, we can't +get her to sleep; and we thought of buying something to quiet her at +the chemist's. Yes, sir, it would be better to get a doctor to her. But +I wasn't going to the doctor. If I must tell you, I was obliged to take +the sheets off the bed, to raise a little money--I was going to the +pawnbroker's." She looked at the parcel under her arm, and smiled. "I +may take the sheets back again, now I've met with you; and there's a +good doctor lives close by--I can show you the way to him. Oh how pale +you do look! Are you very much tired? It's only a little way to the +doctor. I've got an arm at your service--but you mightn't like to be +seen waiting with such a person as me." + +Mentally and physically, Amelius was completely prostrated. The woman's +melancholy narrative had overwhelmed him: he could neither speak nor +act. He mechanically put his purse in her hand, and went with her to +the house of the nearest medical man. + +The doctor was at home, mixing drugs in his little surgery. After one +sharp look at Amelius, he ran into a back parlour, and returned with a +glass of spirits. "Drink this, sir," he said--"unless you want to find +yourself on the floor in a fainting fit. And don't presume again on +your youth and strength to treat your heart as if it was made of +cast-iron." He signed to Amelius to sit down and rest himself, and +turned to the woman to hear what was wanted of him. After a few +questions, he said she might go; promising to follow her in a few +minutes, when the gentleman would be sufficiently recovered to +accompany him. + +"Well, sir, are you beginning to feel like yourself again?" He was +mixing a composing draught, while he addressed Amelius in those terms. +"You may trust that poor wretch, who has just left us, to take care of +the sick girl," he went on, in the quaintly familiar manner which +seemed to be habitual with him. "I don't ask how you got into her +company--it's no business of mine. But I am pretty well acquainted with +the people in my neighbourhood; and I can tell you one thing, in case +you're anxious. The woman who brought you here, barring the one +misfortune of her life, is as good a creature as ever breathed; and the +other one who lives with her is the same. When I think of what they're +exposed to--well! I take to my pipe, and compose my mind in that way. +My early days were all passed as a ship's surgeon. I could get them +both respectable employment in Australia, if I only had the money to +fit them out. They'll die in the hospital, like the rest, if something +isn't done for them. In my hopeful moments, I sometimes think of a +subscription. What do you say? Will you put down a few shillings to set +the example?" + +"I will do more than that," Amelius answered. "I have reasons for +wishing to befriend both those two poor women; and I will gladly engage +to find the outfit." + +The familiar old doctor held out his hand over the counter. "You're a +good fellow, if ever there was one yet!" he burst out. "I can show +references which will satisfy you that I am not a rogue. In the mean +time, let's see what is the matter with this little girl; you can tell +me about her as we go along." He put his bottle of medicine in his +pocket, and his arm in the arm of Amelius--and so led the way out. + +When they reached the wretched lodging-house in which the women lived, +he suggested that his companion would do well to wait at the door. "I'm +used to sad sights: it would only distress you to see the place. I +won't keep you long waiting." + +He was as good as his word. In little more than ten minutes, he joined +Amelius again in the street. + +"Don't alarm yourself," he said. "The case is not so serious as it +looks. The poor child is suffering under a severe shock to the brain +and nervous system, caused by that sudden and violent distress you +hinted at. My medicine will give her the one thing she wants to begin +with--a good night's sleep." + +Amelius asked when she would be well enough to see him. + +"Ah, my young friend, it's not so easy to say, just yet! I could answer +you to better purpose tomorrow. Won't that do? Must I venture on a rash +opinion? She ought to be composed enough to see you in three or four +days. And, when that time comes, it's my belief you will do more than I +can do to set her right again." + +Amelius was relieved, but not quite satisfied yet. He inquired if it +was not possible to remove her from that miserable place. + +"Quite impossible--without doing her serious injury. They have got +money to go on with; and I have told you already, she will be well +taken care of. I will look after her myself tomorrow morning. Go home, +and get to bed, and eat a bit of supper first, and make your mind easy. +Come to my house at twelve o'clock, noon, and you will find me ready +with my references, and my report of the patient. Surgeon Pinfold, +Blackacre Buildings; there's the address. Good night." + + + +CHAPTER 10 + +After Amelius had left him, Rufus remembered his promise to communicate +with Regina by telegraph. + +With his strict regard for truth, it was no easy matter to decide on +what message he should send. To inspire Regina, if possible, with his +own unshaken belief in the good faith of Amelius, appeared, on +reflection, to be all that he could honestly do, under present +circumstances. With an anxious and foreboding mind, he despatched his +telegram to Paris in these terms:--"Be patient for a while, and do +justice to A. He deserves it." + +Having completed his business at the telegraph-office, Rufus went next +to pay his visit to Mrs. Payson. + +The good lady received him with a grave face and a distant manner, in +startling contrast to the customary warmth of her welcome. "I used to +think you were a man in a thousand," she began abruptly; "and I find +you are no better than the rest of them. If you have come to speak to +me about that blackguard young Socialist, understand, if you please, +that I am not so easily imposed upon as Miss Regina. I have done my +duty; I have opened her eyes to the truth, poor thing. Ah, you ought to +be ashamed of yourself." + +Rufus kept his temper, with his habitual self-command. "It's possible +you may be right," he said quietly; "but the biggest rascal living has +a claim to an explanation, when a lady puzzles him. Have you any +particular objection, old friend, to tell me what you mean?" + +The explanation was not of a nature to set his mind at ease. + +Regina had written, by the mail which took Rufus to England, repeating +to Mrs. Payson what had passed at the interview in the Champs Elysees, +and appealing to her sympathy for information and advice. Receiving the +letter that morning, Mrs. Payson, acting on her own generous and +compassionate impulses, had already answered it, and sent it to the +post. Her experience of the unfortunate persons received at the Home +was far from inclining her to believe in the innocence of a runaway +girl, placed under circumstances of temptation. As an act of justice +towards Regina, she enclosed to her the letter in which Amelius had +acknowledged that Sally had passed the night under his roof. + +"I believe I am only telling you the shameful truth," Mrs. Payson had +written, "when I add that the girl has been an inmate of Mr. +Goldenheart's cottage ever since. If you can reconcile this disgraceful +state of things, with Mr. Rufus Dingwell's assertion of his friend's +fidelity to his marriage-engagement, I have no right, and no wish, to +make any attempt to alter your opinion. But you have asked for my +advice, and I must not shrink from giving it. I am bound as an honest +woman, to tell you that your uncle's resolution to break off the +engagement represents the course that I should have taken myself, if a +daughter of my own had been placed in your painful and humiliating +position." + +There was still ample time to modify this strong expression of opinion +by the day's post. Rufus appealed vainly to Mrs. Payson to reconsider +the conclusion at which she had arrived. A more charitable and +considerate woman, within the limits of her own daily routine, it would +not be possible to find. But the largeness of mind which, having long +and trustworthy experience of a rule, can nevertheless understand that +other minds may have equal experience of the exception to the rule, was +one of the qualities which had not been included in the moral +composition of Mrs. Payson. She held firmly to her own narrowly +conscientious sense of her duty; stimulated by a natural indignation +against Amelius, who had bitterly disappointed her--against Rufus, who +had not scrupled to take up his defence. The two old friends parted in +coldness, for the first time in their lives. + +Rufus returned to his hotel, to wait there for news from Amelius. + +The day passed--and the one visitor who enlivened his solitude was an +American friend and correspondent, connected with the agency which +managed his affairs in England. The errand of this gentleman was to +give his client the soundest and speediest advice, relating to the +investment of money. Having indicated the safe and solid speculation, +the visitor added a warning word, relating to the plausible and +dangerous investments of the day. "For instance," he said, "there's +that bank started by Farnaby--" + +"No need to warn me against Farnaby," Rufus interposed; "I wouldn't +take shares in his bank if he made me a present of them." + +The American friend looked surprised. "Surely," he exclaimed, "you +can't have heard the news already! They don't even know it yet on the +Stock Exchange." + +Rufus explained that he had only spoken under the influence of personal +prejudice against Mr. Farnaby. + +"What's in the wind now?" he asked. + +He was confidentially informed that a coming storm was in the wind: in +other words, that a serious discovery had been made at the bank. Some +time since, the directors had advanced a large sum of money to a man in +trade, under Mr. Farnaby's own guarantee. The man had just died; and +examination of his affairs showed that he had only received a few +hundred pounds, on condition of holding his tongue. The bulk of the +money had been traced to Mr. Farnaby himself, and had all been +swallowed up by his newspaper, his patent medicine, and his other +rotten speculations, apart from his own proper business. "You may not +know it," the American friend concluded, "but the fact is, Farnaby rose +from the dregs. His bankruptcy is only a question of time--he will drop +back to the dregs; and, quite possibly, make his appearance to answer a +criminal charge in a court of law. I hear that Melton, whose credit has +held up the bank lately, is off to see his friend in Paris. They say +Farnaby's niece is a handsome girl, and Melton is sweet on her. Awkward +for Melton." + +Rufus listened attentively. In signing the order for his investments, +he privately decided to stir no further, for the present, in the matter +of his young friend's marriage-engagement. + +For the rest of the day and evening, he still waited for Amelius, and +waited in vain. It was drawing near to midnight, when Toff made his +appearance with a message from his master. Amelius had discovered +Sally, and had returned in such a state of fatigue that he was only fit +to take some refreshment, and to go to his bed. He would be away from +home again, on the next morning; but he hoped to call at the hotel in +the course of the day. Observing Toff's face with grave and steady +scrutiny, Rufus tried to extract some further information from him. But +the old Frenchman stood on his dignity, in a state of immovable +reserve. + +"You took me by the shoulder this morning, sir, and spun me round," he +said; "I do not desire to be treated a second time like a teetotum. For +the rest, it is not my habit to intrude myself into my master's +secrets." + +"It's not _my_ habit," Rufus coolly rejoined, "to bear malice. I beg to +apologise sincerely, sir, for treating you like a teetotum; and I offer +you my hand." + +Toff had got as far as the door. He instantly returned, with the +dignity which a Frenchman can always command in the serious emergencies +of his life. "You appeal to my heart and my honour, sir," he said. "I +bury the events of the morning in oblivion; and I do myself the honour +of taking your hand." + +As the door closed on him, Rufus smiled grimly. "You're not in the +habit of intruding yourself into your master's secrets," he repeated. +"If Amelius reads your face as I read it, he'll look over his shoulder +when he goes out tomorrow--and, ten to one, he'll see you behind him in +the distance!" + +Late on the next day, Amelius presented himself at the hotel. In +speaking of Sally, he was unusually reserved, merely saying that she +was ill, and under medical care, and then changing the subject. Struck +by the depressed and anxious expression of his face, Rufus asked if he +had heard from Regina. No: a longer time than usual had passed since +Regina had written to him. "I don't understand it," he said sadly. "I +suppose you didn't see anything of her in Paris?" + +Rufus had kept his promise not to mention Regina's name in Sally's +presence. But it was impossible for him to look at Amelius, without +plainly answering the question put to him, for the sake of the friend +whom he loved. "I'm afraid there's trouble coming to you, my son, from +that quarter." With those warning words, he described all that had +passed between Regina and himself. "Some unknown enemy of yours has +spoken against you to her uncle," he concluded. "I suppose you have +made enemies, my poor old boy, since you have been in London?" + +"I know the man," Amelius answered. "He wanted to marry Regina before I +met with her. His name is Melton." + +Rufus started. "I heard only yesterday, he was in Paris with Farnaby. +And that's not the worst of it, Amelius. There's another of them making +mischief--a good friend of mine who has shown a twist in her temper, +that has taken me by surprise after twenty years' experience of her. I +reckon there's a drop of malice in the composition of the best woman +that ever lived--and the men only discover it when another woman steps +in, and stirs it up. Wait a bit!" he went on, when he had related the +result of his visit to Mrs. Payson. "I have telegraphed to Miss Regina +to be patient, and to trust you. Don't you write to defend yourself, +till you hear how you stand in her estimation, after my message. +Tomorrow's post may tell." + +Tomorrow's post did tell. + +Two letters reached Amelius from Paris. One from Mr. Farnaby, curt and +insolent, breaking off the marriage-engagement. The other, from Regina, +expressed with great severity of language. Her weak nature, like all +weak natures, ran easily into extremes, and, once roused into asserting +itself, took refuge in violence as a shy person takes refuge in +audacity. Only a woman of larger and firmer mind would have written of +her wrongs in a more just and more moderate tone. + +Regina began without any preliminary form of address. She had no heart +to upbraid Amelius, and no wish to speak of what she was suffering, to +a man who had but too plainly shown that he had no respect for himself, +and neither love, nor pity even, for her. In justice to herself, she +released him from his promise, and returned his letters and his +presents. Her own letters might be sent in a sealed packet, addressed +to her at her uncle's place of business in London. She would pray that +he might be brought to a sense of the sin that he had committed, and +that he might yet live to be a worthy and a happy man. For the rest, +her decision was irrevocable. His own letter to Mrs. Payson condemned +him--and the testimony of an old and honoured friend of her uncle +proved that his wickedness was no mere act of impulse, but a deliberate +course of infamy and falsehood, continued over many weeks. From the +moment when she made that discovery, he was a stranger to her--and she +now bade him farewell. + +"Have you written to her?" Rufus asked, when he had seen the letters. + +Amelius reddened with indignation. He was not aware of it himself--but +his look and manner plainly revealed that Regina had lost her last hold +on him. Her letter had inflicted an insult--not a wound: he was +outraged and revolted; the deeper and gentler feelings, the emotions of +a grieved and humiliated lover, had been killed in him by her stern +words of dismissal and farewell. + +"Do you think I would allow myself to be treated in that way, without a +word of protest?" he said to Rufus. "I have written, refusing to take +back my promise. 'I declare, on my word of honour, that I have been +faithful to you and to my engagement'--that was how I put it--'and I +scorn the vile construction which your uncle and his friend have placed +upon an act of Christian mercy on my part.' I wrote more tenderly, +before I finished my letter; feeling for her distress, and being +anxious above all things not to add to it. We shall see if she has love +enough left for me to trust my faith and honour, instead of trusting +false appearances. I will give her time." + +Rufus considerately abstained from expressing any opinion. He waited +until the morning when a reply might be expected from Paris; and then +he called at the cottage. + +Without a word of comment, Amelius put a letter into his friend's hand. +It was his own letter to Regina returned to him. On the back of it, +there was a line in Mr. Farnaby's handwriting:--"If you send any more +letters they will be burnt unopened." In those insolent terms the +wretch wrote with bankruptcy and exposure hanging over his head. + +Rufus spoke plainly upon this. "There's an end of it now," he said. +"That girl would never have made the right wife for you, Amelius: +you're well out of it. Forget that you ever knew these people; and let +us talk of something else. How is Sally?" + +At that ill-timed inquiry, Amelius showed his temper again. He was in a +state of nervous irritability which made him apt to take offence, where +no offence was intended. "Oh, you needn't be alarmed!" he answered +petulantly; "there's no fear of the poor child coming back to live with +me. She is still under the doctor's care." + +Rufus passed over the angry reply without notice, and patted him on the +shoulder. "I spoke of the girl," he said, "because I wanted to help +her; and I can help her, if you will let me. Before long, my son, I +shall be going back to the United States. I wish you would go with me!" + +"And desert Sally!" cried Amelius. + +"Nothing of the sort! Before we go, I'll see that Sally is provided for +to your satisfaction. Will you think of it, to please me?" + +Amelius relented. "Anything, to please you," he said. + +Rufus noticed his hat and gloves on the table, and left him without +saying more. "The trouble with Amelius," he thought, as he closed the +cottage gate, "is not over yet." + + + +CHAPTER 11 + +The day on which worthy old Surgeon Pinfold had predicted that Sally +would be in a fair way of recovery had come and gone; and still the +medical report to Amelius was the same:--"You must be patient, sir; she +is not well enough to see you yet." + +Toff, watching his young master anxiously, was alarmed by the steadily +progressive change in him for the worse, which showed itself at this +time. Now sad and silent, and now again bitter and irritable, he had +deteriorated physically as well as morally, until he really looked like +the shadow of his former self. He never exchanged a word with his +faithful old servant, except when he said mechanically, "good morning" +or "good night." Toff could endure it no longer. At the risk of being +roughly misinterpreted, he followed his own kindly impulse, and spoke. +"May I own to you, sir," he said, with perfect gentleness and respect, +"that I am indeed heartily sorry to see you so ill?" + +Amelius looked up at him sharply. "You servants always make a fuss +about trifles. I am a little out of sorts; and I want a change--that's +all. Perhaps I may go to America. You won't like that; I shan't +complain if you look out for another situation." + +The tears came into the old man's eyes. "Never!" he answered fervently. +"My last service, sir, if you send me away, shall be my dearly loved +service here." + +All that was most tender in the nature of Amelius was touched to the +quick. "Forgive me, Toff," he said; "I am lonely and wretched, and more +anxious about Sally than words can tell. There can be no change in my +life, until my mind is easy about that poor little girl. But if it does +end in my going to America, you shall go with me--I wouldn't lose you, +my good friend, for the world." + +Toff still remained in the room, as if he had something left to say. +Entirely ignorant of the marriage engagement between Amelius and +Regina, and of the rupture in which it had ended, he vaguely suspected +nevertheless that his master might have fallen into an entanglement +with some lady unknown. The opportunity of putting the question was now +before him. He risked it in a studiously modest form. + +"Are you going to America to be married, sir?" + +Amelius eyed him with a momentary suspicion. "What has put that in your +head?" he asked. + +"I don't know, sir," Toff answered humbly--"unless it was my own vivid +imagination. Would there be anything very wonderful in a gentleman of +your age and appearance conducting some charming person to the altar?" + +Amelius was conquered once more; he smiled faintly. "Enough of your +nonsense, Toff! I shall never be married--understand that." + +Toff's withered old face brightened slyly. He turned away to withdraw; +hesitated; and suddenly went back to his master. + +"Have you any occasion for my services, sir, for an hour or two?" he +asked. + +"No. Be back before I go out, myself--be back at three o'clock." + +"Thank you, sir. My little boy is below, if you want anything in my +absence." + +The little boy dutifully attending Toff to the gate, observed with +grave surprise that his father snapped his fingers gaily at starting, +and hummed the first bars of the Marseillaise. "Something is going to +happen," said Toff's boy, on his way back to the house. + + +From the Regent's Park to Blackacre Buildings is almost a journey from +one end of London to the other. Assisted for part of the way by an +omnibus, Toff made the journey, and arrived at the residence of Surgeon +Pinfold, with the easy confidence of a man who knew thoroughly well +where he was going, and what he was about. The sagacity of Rufus had +correctly penetrated his intentions; he had privately followed his +master, and had introduced himself to the notice of the surgeon--with a +mixture of motives, in which pure devotion to the interests of Amelius +played the chief part. His experience of the world told him that +Sally's departure was only the beginning of more trouble to come. "What +is the use of me to my master," he had argued, "except to spare him +trouble, in spite of himself?" + +Surgeon Pinfold was prescribing for a row of sick people, seated before +him on a bench. "You're not ill, are you?" he said sharply to Toff. +"Very well, then, go into the parlour and wait." + +The patients being dismissed, Toff attempted to explain the object of +his visit. But the old naval surgeon insisted on clearing the ground by +means of a plain question first. "Has your master sent you here--or is +this another private interview, like the last?" + +"It is all that is most private," Toff answered; "my poor master is +wasting away in unrelieved wretchedness and suspense. Something must be +done for him. Oh, dear and good sir, help me in this most miserable +state of things! Tell me the truth about Miss Sally!" + +Old Pinfold put his hands in his pockets and leaned against the parlour +wall, looking at the Frenchman with a complicated expression, in which +genuine sympathy mingled oddly with a quaint sense of amusement. +"You're a worthy chap," he said; "and you shall have the truth. I have +been obliged to deceive your master about this troublesome young Sally; +I have stuck to it that she is too ill to see him, or to answer his +letters. Both lies. There's nothing the matter with her now, but a +disease that I can't cure, the disease of a troubled mind. She's got it +into her head that she has everlastingly degraded herself in his +estimation by leaving him and coming here. It's no use telling +her--what, mind you, is perfectly true--that she was all but out of her +senses, and not in the least responsible for what she did at the time +when she did it. She holds to her own opinion, nevertheless. 'What can +he think of me, but that I have gone back willingly to the disgrace of +my old life? I should throw myself out of the window, if he came into +the room!' That's how she answers me--and, what makes matters worse +still, she's breaking her heart about him all the time. The poor wretch +is so eager for any little word of news about his health and his +doings, that it's downright pitiable to see her. I don't think her +fevered little brain will bear it much longer--and hang me if I can +tell what to do next to set things right! The two women, her friends, +have no sort of influence over her. When I saw her this morning, she +was ungrateful enough to say, 'Why didn't you let me die?' How your +master got among these unfortunate people is more than I know, and is +no business of mine; I only wish he had been a different sort of man. +Before I knew him as well as I know him now, I predicted, like a fool, +that he would be just the person to help us in managing the girl. I +have altered my opinion. He's such a glorious fellow--so impulsive and +so tender-hearted--that he would be certain, in her present excited +state, to do her more harm than good. Do you know if he is going to be +married?" + +Toff, listening thus far in silent distress, suddenly looked up. + +"Why do you ask me, sir?" + +"It's an idle question, I dare say," old Pinfold remarked. "Sally +persists in telling us she's in the way of his prospects in life--and +it's got somehow into her perverse little head that his prospects in +life mean his marriage, and she's in the way of _that._--Hullo! are you +going already?" + +"I want to go to Miss Sally, sir. I believe I can say something to +comfort her. Do you think she will see me?" + +"Are you the man who has got the nickname of Toff? She sometimes talks +about Toff." + +"Yes, sir, yes! I am Theophile Leblond, otherwise Toff. Where can I find +her?" + +Surgeon Pinfold rang a bell. "My errand-boy is going past the house, to +deliver some medicine," he answered. "It's a poor place; but you'll +find it neat and nice enough--thanks to your good master. He's helping +the two women to begin life again out of this country; and, while +they're waiting their turn to get a passage, they've taken an extra +room and hired some decent furniture, by your master's own wish. Oh, +here's the boy; he'll show you the way. One word before you go. What do +you think of saying to Sally?" + +"I shall tell her, for one thing, sir, that my master is miserable for +want of her." + +Surgeon Pinfold shook his head. "That won't take you very far on the +way to persuading her. You will make _her_ miserable too--and there's +about all you will get by it." + +Toff lifted his indicative forefinger to the side of his nose. "Suppose +I tell her something else, sir? Suppose I tell her my master is not +going to be married to anybody?" + +"She won't believe you know anything about it." + +"She will believe, for this reason," said Toff, gravely; "I put the +question to my master before I came here; and I have it from his own +lips that there is no young lady in the way, and that he is +not--positively not--going to be married. If I tell Miss Sally this, +sir, how do you say it will end? Will you bet me a shilling it has no +effect on her?" + +"I won't bet a farthing! Follow the boy--and tell young Sally I have +sent her a better doctor than I am." + + +While Toff was on his way to Sally, Toff's boy was disturbing Amelius +by the announcement of a visitor. The card sent in bore this +inscription: "Brother Bawkwell, from Tadmor." + +Amelius looked at the card; and ran into the hall to receive the +visitor, with both hands held out in hearty welcome. "Oh, I am so glad +to see you!" he cried. "Come in, and tell me all about Tadmor!" + +Brother Bawkwell acknowledged the enthusiastic reception offered to him +by a stare of grim surprise. He was a dry, hard old man, with a scrubby +white beard, a narrow wrinkled forehead, and an obstinate lipless +mouth; fitted neither by age nor temperament to be the intimate friend +of any of his younger brethren among the Community. But, at that +saddest time of his life, the heart of Amelius warmed to any one who +reminded him of his tranquil and happy days at Tadmor. Even this frozen +old Socialist now appeared to him, for the first time, under the +borrowed aspect of a welcome friend. + +Brother Bawkwell took the chair offered to him, and opened the +proceedings, in solemn silence, by looking at his watch. "Twenty-five +minutes past two," he said to himself--and put the watch back again. + +"Are you pressed for time?" Amelius asked. + +"Much may be done in ten minutes," Brother Bawkwell answered, in a +Scotch accent which had survived the test of half a lifetime in +America. "I would have you know I am in England on a mission from the +Community, with a list of twenty-seven persons in all, whom I am +appointed to confer with on matters of varying importance. Yours, +friend Amelius, is a matter of minor importance. I can give you ten +minutes." + +He opened a big black pocket-book, stuffed with a mass of letters; and, +placing two of them on the table before him, addressed Amelius as if he +was making a speech at a public meeting. + +"I have to request your attention to certain proceedings of the Council +at Tadmor, bearing date the third of December last; and referring to a +person under sentence of temporary separation from the Community, along +with yourself--" + +"Mellicent!" Amelius exclaimed. + +"We have no time for interruptions," Brother Bawkwell remarked. "The +person _is_ Sister Mellicent; and the business before the Council was +to consider a letter, under her signature, received December second. +Said letter," he proceeded, taking up one of his papers, "is abridged +as follows by the Secretary to the Council. In substance, the writer +states (first): 'That the married sister under whose protection she has +been living at New York is about to settle in England with her husband, +appointed to manage the branch of his business established in London. +(Second): That she, meaning Sister Mellicent, has serious reasons for +not accompanying her relatives to England, and has no other friends to +take charge of her welfare, if she remains in New York. (Third): That +she appeals to the mercy of the Council, under these circumstances, to +accept the expression of her sincere repentance for the offence of +violating a Rule, and to permit a friendless and penitent creature to +return to the only home left to her, her home at Tadmor.' No, friend +Amelius--we have no time for expressions of sympathy; the first half of +the ten minutes has nearly expired. I have further to notify you that +the question was put to the vote, in this form: 'Is it consistent with +the serious responsibility which rests on the Council, to consider the +remission of any sentence justly pronounced under the Book of Rules?' +The result was very remarkable; the votes for and against being equally +divided. In this event, as you know, our laws provide that the decision +rests with the Elder Brother--who gave his vote thereupon for +considering the remission of the sentence; and moved the next +resolution that the sentence be remitted accordingly. Carried by a +small majority. Whereupon, Sister Mellicent was received again at +Tadmor." + +"Ah, the dear old Elder Brother," cried Amelius--"always on the side of +mercy!" + +Brother Bawkwell held up his hand in protest. "You seem to have no +idea," he said, "of the value of time. Do be quiet! As travelling +representative of the Council, I am further instructed to say, that the +sentence pronounced against yourself stands duly remitted, in +consequence of the remission of the sentence against Sister Mellicent. +You likewise are free to return to Tadmor, at your own will and +pleasure. But--attend to what is coming, friend Amelius!--the Council +holds to its resolution that your choice between us and the world shall +be absolutely unbiased. In the fear of exercising even an indirect +influence, we have purposely abstained from corresponding with you. +With the same motive we now say, that if you do return to us, it must +be with no interference on our part. We inform you of an event that has +happened in your absence--and we do no more." + +He paused, and looked again at his watch. Time proverbially works +wonders. Time closed his lips. + +Amelius replied with a heavy heart. The message from the Council had +recalled him from the remembrance of Mellicent to the sense of his own +position. "My experience of the world has been a very hard one," he +said. "I would gladly go back to Tadmor this very day, but for one +consideration--" He hesitated; the image of Sally was before him. The +tears rose in his eyes; he said no more. + +Brother Bawkwell, driven hard by time, got on his legs, and handed to +Amelius the second of the two papers which he had taken out of his +pocket-book. + +"Here is a purely informal document," he said; "being a few lines from +Sister Mellicent, which I was charged to deliver to you. Be pleased to +read it as quickly as you can, and tell me if there is any reply." + +There was not much to read:--"The good people here, Amelius, have +forgiven me and let me return to them. I am living happily now, dear, +in my remembrances of you. I take the walks that we once took +together--and sometimes I go out in the boat on the lake, and think of +the time when I told you my sad story. Your poor little pet creatures +are under my care; the dog, and the fawn, and the birds--all well, and +waiting for you, with me. My belief that you will come back to me +remains the same unshaken belief that it has been from the first. Once +more I say it--you will find me the first to welcome you, when your +spirits are sinking under the burden of life, and your heart turns +again to the friends of your early days. Until that time comes, think +of me now and then. Good-bye." + +"I am waiting," said Brother Bawkwell, taking his hat in his hand. + +Amelius answered with an effort. "Thank her kindly in my name," he +said: "that is all." His head drooped while he spoke; he fell into +thought as if he had been alone in the room. + +But the emissary from Tadmor, warned by the minute-hand on the watch, +recalled his attention to passing events. "You would do me a kindness," +said Brother Bawkwell, producing a list of names and addresses, "if you +could put me in the way of finding the person named, eighth from the +top. It's getting on towards twenty minutes to three." + +The address thus pointed out was at no great distance, on the northern +side of the Regent's Park. Amelius, still silent and thoughtful, acted +willingly as a guide. "Please thank the Council for their kindness to +me," he said, when they reached their destination. Brother Bawkwell +looked at friend Amelius with a calm inquiring eye. "I think you'll end +in coming back to us," he said. "I'll take the opportunity, when I see +you at Tadmor, of making a few needful remarks on the value of time." + +Amelius went back to the cottage, to see if Toff had returned, in his +absence, before he paid his daily visit to Surgeon Pinfold. He called +down the kitchen stairs, "Are you there, Toff?" And Toff answered +briskly, "At your service, sir." + +The sky had become cloudy, and threatened rain. Not finding his +umbrella in the hall, Amelius went into the library to look for it. As +he closed the door behind him, Toff and his boy appeared on the kitchen +stairs; both walking on tiptoe, and both evidently on the watch for +something. + +Amelius found his umbrella. But it was characteristic of the melancholy +change in him that he dropped languidly into the nearest chair, instead +of going out at once with the easy activity of happier days. Sally was +in his mind again; he was rousing his resolution to set the doctor's +commands at defiance, and to insist on seeing her, come what might of +it. + +He suddenly looked up. A slight sound had startled him. + +It was a faint rustling sound; and it came from the sadly silent room +which had once been Sally's. + +He listened, and heard it again. He sprang to his feet--his heart beat +wildly--he opened the door of the room. + +She was there. + +Her hands were clasped over her fast-heaving breast. She was powerless +to look at him, powerless to speak to him--powerless to move towards +him, until he opened his arms to her. Then, all the love and all the +sorrow in the tender little heart flowed outward to him in a low +murmuring cry. She hid her blushing face on his bosom. The rosy colour +softly tinged her neck--the unspoken confession of all she feared, and +all she hoped. + +It was a time beyond words. They were silent in each other's arms. + +But under them, on the floor below, the stillness in the cottage was +merrily broken by an outburst of dance-music--with a rhythmical +thump-thump of feet, keeping time to the cheerful tune. Toff was +playing his fiddle; and Toff's boy was dancing to his father's music. + + + +CHAPTER 12 + +After waiting a day or two for news from Amelius, and hearing nothing, +Rufus went to make inquiries at the cottage. + +"My master has gone out of town, sir," said Toff, opening the door. + +"Where?" + +"I don't know, sir." + +"Anybody with him?" + +"I don't know, sir." + +"Any news of Sally?" + +"I don't know, sir." + +Rufus stepped into the hall. "Look here, Mr. Frenchman, three times is +enough. I have already apologized for treating you like a teetotum, on +a former occasion. I'm afraid I shall do it again, sir, if I don't get +an answer to my next question--my hands are itching to be at you, they +are! When is Amelius expected back?" + +"Your question is positive, sir," said Toff, with dignity. "I am happy +to be able to meet it with a positive reply. My master is expected back +in three weeks' time." + +Having obtained some information at last, Rufus debated with himself +what he should do next. He decided that "the boy was worth waiting +for," and that his wisest course (as a good American) would be to go +back, and wait in Paris. + +Passing through the Garden of the Tuileries, two or three days later, +and crossing to the Rue de Rivoli, the name of one of the hotels in +that quarter reminded him of Regina. He yielded to the prompting of +curiosity, and inquired if Mr. Farnaby and his niece were still in +Paris. + +The manager of the hotel was in the porter's lodge at the time. So far +as he knew, he said, Mr. Farnaby and his niece, and an English +gentleman with them, were now on their travels. They had left the hotel +with an appearance of mystery. The courier had been discharged; and the +coachman of the hired carriage which took them away had been told to +drive straight forward until further orders. In short, as the manager +put it, the departure resembled a flight. Remembering what his American +agent had told him, Rufus received this information without surprise. +Even the apparently incomprehensible devotion of Mr. Melton to the +interests of such a man as Farnaby, failed to present itself to him as +a perplexing circumstance. To his mind, Mr. Melton's conduct was +plainly attributable to a reward in prospect; and the name of that +reward was--Miss Regina. + +At the end of the three weeks, Rufus returned to London. + +Once again, he and Toff confronted each other on the threshold of the +door. This time, the genial old man presented an appearance that was +little less than dazzling. From head to foot he was arrayed in new +clothes; and he exhibited an immense rosette of white ribbon in his +button-hole. + +"Thunder!" cried Rufus. "Here's Mr. Frenchman going to be married!" + +Toff declined to humour the joke. He stood on his dignity as stiffly as +ever. "Pardon me, sir, I possess a wife and family already." + +"Do you, now? Well--none of your know-nothing answers this time. Has +Amelius come back?" + +"Yes, sir." + +"And what's the news of Sally?" + +"Good news, sir. Miss Sally has come back too." + +"You call that good news, do you? I'll say a word to Amelius. What are +you standing there for? Let me by." + +"Pardon me once more, sir. My master and Miss Sally do not receive +visitors today." + +"Your master and Miss Sally?" Rufus repeated. "Has this old creature +been liquoring up a little too freely? What do you mean," he burst out, +with a sudden change of tone to stern surprise--"what do you mean by +putting your master and Sally together?" + +Toff shot his bolt at last. "They will be together, sir, for the rest +of their lives. They were married this morning." + + +Rufus received the blow in dead silence. He turned about, and went back +to his hotel. + +Reaching his room, he opened the despatch box in which he kept his +correspondence, and picked out the long letter containing the +description by Amelius of his introduction to the ladies of the Farnaby +family. He took up the pen, and wrote the indorsement which has been +quoted as an integral part of the letter itself, in the Second Book of +this narrative:-- + +"Ah, poor Amelius! He had better have gone back to Miss Mellicent, and +put up with the little drawback of her age. What a bright lovable +fellow he was! Goodbye to Goldenheart!" + + +Were the forebodings of Rufus destined to be fulfilled? 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