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Around her there was the heady, + unspoiled spirit of Nature, and when Nick saw her he forgot about + the petty troubles at the garage, forgot about the bustle and + noise of the city, ignored the stinks and ugly sights of a giant + metropolis--and found his way to the sorrow and heartbreak of an + impossible love!_ + + +[Illustration: Illustrator: Norman Nodel] + + + + +For him spring mornings had a character all their own, an indefinable +essence that the mornings of the other seasons never had. And the best +spring morning of all was a Sunday spring morning--when he did not +go to the shop, when he awoke in time to hear the sleepy chirping of +the English sparrows in the false dawn, when he loved to lie in bed, +sleepy-warm, and smell the sweet, new air and dream lazy dreams. + +Then when, beyond the skyline of dingy buildings, the heavens began to +color rose, he would get out of bed and yawn and expect, secretly, that +today something very fine and wonderful was going to happen to him. + +Those mornings, he would put on his only suit, somewhat shiny from +use, his favorite blue tie, a clear-sky blue, clean his shoes and, +whistling, hurry out to meet the sun so that he would not lose another +minute of the wonderful new day. + +He always went first to the park. The park, before all the people came, +was very quiet and peaceful. There was soft, lacy dew on the grass. And +always, as he felt the trees around him, he imagined that he was far +away from the city and in the midst of some delicate virginity, pure +and sweet. The noises of civilization faded. The squirrels came out and +chattered in the treetops. Occasionally he would hear the soft plunk +of an acorn dropped from above. The birds’ songs were clear. And the +little, burbling fountain was surrounded by cooing pigeons who sidled +away, unafraid, to let him pass. + +One particular Sunday morning, the fairest yet of all the year, when +he came to the edge of his park, he was aware, more intensely than +ever before, that this was the day for the strange, wonderful thing +to happen to him. As he walked along, the knowledge became unbearably +sweet within him, and it made the inside of his nose tickle with +emotion. + +The sun was fronted by the skyline, for it was newly risen. The air was +fresh as only the air of spring can be. It was filled with the scents +of new-born flowers and the long ago. + +He stepped from the gravel path upon which he had been walking and onto +the springy grass; his mind was alive with the delicious sensation of +secrecy. He imagined that this, his short-cut to the burbling fountain, +was mysteriously concealed from others and belonged to him alone among +mortals. He did not walk either too slow or too swift; slow enough to +be conscious of all the sounds around him and all the little, life +movements; swift enough to satisfy his urge to hurry on and meet the +wonderful thing that would be sure to be waiting for him among the +pigeons. + +All at once, rudely shattering his thoughts, he heard an unusual, +frantic fluttering from a treetop to his left. He turned his head in +time to see a brown sparrow falling toward the earth, desperately +trying to break its fall. + +At the first instantaneous image, he felt sorry for it; scarcely with +thought, he walked to where it lay on the grass, hoping there might be +some way he could help it. + +The sparrow was panting and, seeing the man-form, it fluttered its +wings in fear. + +He bent quickly to pick it up; it cheep-cheeped shrilly. He was very +careful not to hurt it. He could feel its tiny heart beating against +the palm of his hand. Gently as he could, he felt of its wings and its +legs to see if they were broken and was relieved to find that they were +not. + +“Hello.” + +The girl’s voice was very sweet and very startling. Sweet because of +some melodious quality, like that of a native ballad singer; startling +because he had thought himself alone. + +In quick surprise, he opened his hand; the sparrow fluttered and then +flew. He stared at his hand, at the disappearing bird, and then turned +to the speaker. + +“You did fix him,” the girl said. “I was sure you were going to, and +that’s why I spoke.” + +He felt a shuddery current, something like fear, although strangely +pleasant, creep up his spine. She was a beautiful girl, lithe and +slender, and straight as a Georgia pine. Her hair was sunrise gold; her +eyes, the brown of hazel nuts; and her teeth, uncovered by lips dewy +with youth, flashed white in a quick, easy smile that reminded him of +polar snow. + +“I’m Mona,” she said, holding out her slim, white hand to him. + +Slowly he reached out to meet the hand. It felt warm and firm in his. +He continued to stare blankly into her face, and then, realizing that +he was being very impolite, he felt his face begin to redden. + +“Hello,” he said, for want of anything better to say. + +She withdrew her hand; he felt the absence of it sharply. + +“What’s your name?” she asked. Her voice was like no voice he had ever +heard; it was open and vibrant and warm and friendly and thrilling. It +had just the trace of an accent. + +“I’m--I’m Nick.” + +“Nick,” she said, “Nick,” drawing out the word as if she were taking it +apart with her voice and finding all the hidden layers of meaning in +it. “I like that name.” Then, seeing that he was still watching her, +she smiled with pleasure and pirouetted skillfully on the grass, making +her snow-white skirt billow out with the movement, holding her arms +wide apart. She ended up facing him again. “It _is_ a beautiful dress, +isn’t it?” + +He said, “Yes; it’s a beautiful dress.” + +She laughed, and her laughter was like little bells, or like the +silvery tinkle of a fast-flowing mountain brook. “I’m glad,” she said. +“I thought it would be what you liked.” She tossed her head, making her +hair flash out around it in a momentary, magic halo. + +“You’re--beautiful, too,” he said. Immediately, he was chilled by the +thought that she might turn and run away like a frightened faun. + +“Do you really think so?” + +“You’re more beautiful than anything I’ve ever seen,” he said. “...I +shouldn’t have said that. It just--sort of came out.” + +“I’m glad it did.” She laughed again, and then she was beside him, her +hand lightly resting upon his arm. He could smell the flower-fresh +nearness of her; his throat swelled when she looked up into his face. + +“I hoped you’d like me,” she said. + +He felt lost in her eyes, her beautiful, brown eyes. He said nothing, +for there was nothing to say, and a numbness was in his mind. + +“Are you working today?” she asked. + +Behind the numbness, there were puzzles, but looking down at her, he +was sure they were not essential, and he wished they would go away; the +important thing was just to answer her and hear her voice again. + +“No, Mona,” he said. + +She wrinkled her brow prettily. “Oh; I thought you were working.... +When I saw you here, I thought you were, and that’s why I knew to speak +to you, but I’m glad you’re not. ...I have a whole week to myself, and +it’s wonderful, isn’t it?” + +He said, “I think it’s very wonderful.” + +“Where were you going, just now?” she asked, widening her eyes in +innocent questioning. + +“Me?” he said, and then he was embarrassed for saying it, because of +course she meant him. “Oh, o--h. Just walking. Over to the fountain. +The pigeons all come down to drink, early in the morning, before the +people come....” Her smile was warm. “You know the fountain with the +pigeons around it?” he finished, having lost the thread of thought in +her smile. + +“No,” she said. “I don’t belong here.” And then she said, as if it +explained everything, “I belong in Nebraska and Australia. I just came +here for a week before I have to go on down to Australia.” + +“Oh,” he said. + +“Which way is the fountain? I’d love to see it; it must be quite pretty +if you like it.” + +“It’s--it’s just a fountain.... I’ll--I’ll show it to you, if you want +me to.” + +“Of course I do.” + +And the two of them, her hand lightly on his arm, began to walk through +the park. “You’re the first one I’ve met down here,” she said. “I was +so in hopes I’d meet some of us; it’s lonely with no one to talk to.” + +“Yes,” he said, “I know. I’m often lonely.” + +Her eyes turned serious-sympathetic. “I’m sorry,” she said, and +her voice was full of understanding in a way he had never imagined +possible. “I’m very sorry, Nick....” And then, with a little shout of +joy, “Oh! That must be your wonderful fountain!” + +“Yes,” he said. Only now it did not seem so wonderful. He wanted to +show her all the things more wonderful. He thought of the sunrise on +tall mountains, and the flat, level blue of the ocean off Hawaii, and +the burning of pine logs in a New England fireplace when the snow lay +piled outside and the air was sharp, and the high, tumbling waterfalls +in Africa that broke into rainbow spray, and all the other marvelous +things he had read about during all his life. + +She ran from him, scattering the startled pigeons, who fluttered a few +feet and immediately resumed their endless search for food, to sit down +on the old stone rim of the fountain. She dipped her hand lightly in +the water; she drew it along with a free, graceful movement that was +like a caress. “It feels so nice,” she said. “I like water very much. +Clear water. Like rain.” She stared dreamily into it. “I work with +water every day--almost and yet: It’s always so beautiful.” + +He had not moved. “You’re beautiful,” he said again in child-like +wonder, knowing that to say it would not make her run away. + +“Silly! You weren’t listening to what I said!” She flipped some of the +water from her hand, playfully. Then, when she saw it hit on his suit, +she sprang up.... + +“Oh! I’m sorry, Nicky. I didn’t mean to get your suit all wet.” She +stood before him, looking up at him. “And such a pretty suit. You won’t +be mad at me, will you? Because then you’d go away and I wouldn’t have +anyone to talk to.” + +He felt the lump in his throat; it had been there for a long time. +“Mona,” he said, “I don’t think I’d ever want to go away.” + +“You say the nicest things.” She took his hand and drew him, with +gentle pressure, to the stones of the fountain. The pigeons, cooing +softly, opened a little isle for them that closed as soon as they had +passed. + +“Sit down, Nicky,” she said. + +For a moment she sat there beside him, silent, staring into the unquiet +water, seeing the flicker and gleam of darting goldfish outlined +sharply against the green of the gently waving moss. The falling water +sprayed and dimpled the surface, making the fish seem fluidly unreal. + +He watched the mirrored mood on her face. + +“I think you have one of the best jobs,” she said. + +Instinctively, he looked away from her and stared into the burbling +fountain, too. Thinking of his job made him briefly miserable. His face +grew hot. Then he was afraid she would see that he was ashamed. That +made it all the worse. He hoped she was still staring into the water. + +Looking back at her, he saw that she seemed dainty, fragile, somehow +like a snowflake or a delicate crystal or something that would shatter +with the first rumble of horizon thunder. He knew he must never say +anything she did not want him to say--or she might go away, and he +would never see her again. + +“It’s all right,” he said. + +“I think it’s the most wonderful job,” she insisted gently. + +“Yes,” he said. “Yes, I suppose it really is.” + +Suddenly she asked, “Did you notice the sunrise this morning?” + +“Yes,” he said. + +“It was a beautiful sunrise. Robert does them for Nebraska--do you know +him?--and he’s very good--but I don’t know: this one, this morning: I +think they must use more colors, down here.” + +He felt his throat constrict. He felt cold inside. He said, “I think +they must,” and waited. + +“Yes, I guess they do,” she said, smiling up at him. “Oh! I’m so glad I +met you!” She held out both of her hands, and he took them in his. + +“Hazel eyes,” he said, “beautiful hazel eyes.” + +“Nicky,” she said, “could you get off? I have the whole week here.” + +“I--I--.” + +“And you could show me the city--if you wanted to--that would be +fun--don’t you think so?--do you often go into the city at all?--and +take me dancing, and--it would be just wonderful if you could.” + +She sprang away from him and danced around him, laughing, humming +a little, sad-funny tune that he had never heard. “I’m a very good +dancer.” And she spun in a series of intricate steps, executed with +happy grace. + +When she ceased, her cheeks were rosy from her efforts, and her breath +came quickly. “Come.” She held out her hand. “Let’s walk, and you can +talk to me, and I can talk to you, and neither of us will be lonely.” + +He stood, and she came to him. “Lead me,” she said. “Show me your +wonderful park.” + +They began to walk; and, as they walked, she chattered happily, +occasionally looking up at him for approval, talking of the trees and +the birds and the wind and the grass and the change of the seasons. +She talked in youth and enthusiasm. Once she paused to laugh at a gray +squirrel, and it looked down at her quizzically, over the acorn it was +holding in its forepaws. + +He listened and half listened and sometimes only heard the sweet melody +of her voice, rising and falling, reminding him of the pleasant wind in +the scented trees and the quiet sea. + +Time moved, or stood still, or was not; it did not matter. + +Then, in their aimless walk, they came to the edge of the park and +looked out on the city. + +“Oh! How very big and pretty. And exciting! Do you often go out there, +Nicky?” + +“Quite often,” he said, wanting to go back into the park, afraid that +the city would break and shatter her with its many muted rumbles. + +“It must be fun--to be where you’re able to. You’ll show it to me, +won’t you? You promised, remember? And tell me about it? About the +buildings? And the streets?” + +“Yes,” he said, taking her hand; she squeezed in soft, answering +pressure. “If you really want to see it.” + +Like two little children, hand in hand, they walked out into the city. + +Their feet made the sharp clatter of the city; the Sunday traffic made +the subdued roar of the city; the people’s voices made the dry-sadness +of the city. + +Her questions came quickly, tumbling over themselves in flying +curiosity, jumping with the speed of thought from subject to subject. +He answered them all, softly, quietly, as if talking to a little girl +who was first seeing the city and trying to know it all in a single +hour. It gave him a sweet sense of belonging, and her eager wonder at +his knowledge filled him with a pride and a joy he had never known. + +“Here,” he said, pointing to a new-shiny building, with doors gleaming +with brass and windows sparkling with sunshine. “This. It’s built on +the very spot where an ancient, Spanish monastery once stood.” + +“You know so very much. About the strangest things--about these people.” + +“I come here often,” he said. + +“...We’ve been walking for a long time,” she said. + +“Are you tired?” + +“Not very.” + +“Neither am I,” he said. + +“No; you only get tired when you’re lonely; and we’re not....” Her +voice trailed away. “Look, Nicky! A tree.... It seems funny to see a +tree here, among all these buildings: like it was growing out of the +pavement instead of the ground.” + +“Yes; it does seem like that,” he said. + +“I wonder if it’s a happy tree; do you think so, Nicky?” + +“I guess it is....” + +“Look: Mona?” he said. + +“Yes?” + +“I.... Look: Are you hungry?” + +“...Are you?” + +“Yes,” he said, “Let’s go eat.” + +“All right.” She laughed lightly. “That sounds like fun.” + +When, shortly, they arrived at the door of a restaurant, he said, “Go +on in.” + +“It’ll be all right?” she asked doubtfully. + +“Of course.” + +He guided her to a table and, when they ordered, she followed his lead, +saying what he said, watching the waitress cautiously, out of the +corner of her eye. + +“I don’t know how you do it,” she said, looking up after the girl had +left their table. “I’d be afraid to death, if you weren’t with me.” + +“You get used to it,” he said. + +“Of course you do.... Nicky? I’d love to live here--where I could come +into the city--do all these wonderful things--whenever I wanted to.” + +“Would you really like to live here?” he asked, and his voice sounded +dry and strained. + +“Oh, very much, Nicky. I’d love to live here--almost better than +anything.” And having said that, she was suddenly very shy; she looked +down at the snowy tablecloth and ran her fingertips over it. + +He was not sure what to say; the palms of his hands were moist. And he +was glad when the lunch arrived. + +After the waitress left, they looked up and stared into each other’s +eyes. + +“Well,” he said, looking down at the food, “it looks all right to me.” + +“Yes,” she said, “it’s just fine.” + +There was a motionless silence. + +“Well,” he said. He picked up his water-glass and sipped, watching her. + +She picked up her glass and sipped, watching him. + +He put the glass down and speared into the salad with his fork. She +imitated him. She chewed the salad carefully. She said, hesitatingly, +“It’s very good, isn’t it?” + +“Yes,” he said, “it sure is.” + +“Ummmm,” she said. + +He broke off a piece of french bread, buttered it. + +She broke off a piece of french bread, buttered it. + +“Look--?” he said. + +“Yes?” + +“--Nothing.” + +She took more salad. “Does it snow often, here?” + +“Snow?” He put down his knife across the edge of his plate. “...Hasn’t +for years. Last time was thirty-three, I think.” + +“Oh, yes,” she said. “I remember, now.” + + * * * * * + +When the lights in the theater went off, she stiffened. And, with +the first trumpet jar of the newsreel music, she said, “Ohhhh,” very +softly. After that, for a few minutes, she was on the edge of her seat, +watching wide-eyed. Once she said, “Oh, Nicky, look!” + +But soon she settled down and rested her head on his shoulder. He +slipped his arm around her. It seemed natural that he should. She moved +closer to him; her hand found his. She made a little noise, deep in +her throat, like a purr. “I like this,” she whispered. “Better than +anything I’ve ever done.” + +He kissed her silken hair, knew the electric nearness of her, and +nothing else mattered. + +When the movie was over, they walked again; sunset brooded in the west; +the air was warm and exotic, as if blowing from the far away, from a +never, never land of strange, perfumed flowers. And the day had been +long and sweet. + + * * * * * + +The cab swung into the paved semi-circle before the tall building. They +got out. In the dim light, her dress glowed whitely; she stared up and +up, her eyes widening with the vast height of the building. + +“It’s on the roof,” he whispered to her, as soon as he had paid the cab. + +“I’m--I’m afraid,” she half whimpered. + +“It’s only a dance,” he said. + +They walked into the hotel and through the huge lobby, feeling, in +that moment, alone against the world. She pressed to him as if for +protection. Beautifully dressed people moved around them, so rich with +assurance. + +They crossed the foyer; they entered the elevator with an elderly man +in a tuxedo; “The Top,” the man said, as if he were accustomed to +saying it. + +Nick wondered if he had enough money. He had heard that this was an +expensive place. + +“Ohhhhh,” she said as the elevator began to move. + +The elderly gentleman looked at her strangely. + +Nick patted her arm and smiled at her; she smiled back, uncertainly. + +When the elevator sighed to a stop, the operator slid open the door. +The three passengers stepped out. + +The sight of the room; the music; the muted sigh of conversation; the +lights; the women with their jewelry; the reflection in the curved +mirror of the bar; the smell of food; the deep, blood-red, silencing +carpet. + +She seemed overcome with the bright glitter of it. He felt cold and a +little frightened with the strange glamor of it. It was something like +a movie set; unreal, like that, to him. He wondered how the men moved +with such poise. + +After a few moments, the head waiter came to them; he raised his +eyebrows as if to ask if they had a reservation, then he seemed to +reconsider. “A table for two, sir?” he asked. + +“Yes.... Please,” Nick said. + +“If you’ll come this way, sir...?” + +They followed him. + +And they were seated. The table was small and secluded. + +He sat very stiffly, waiting, very conscious of his shiny suit. She +turned immediately toward the dance floor. She watched the dancing +bodies mold together in waltz rhythm; she swayed with them, and her +eyes were wide and starry with rapt attention. She turned back to him. +“I never knew it was this wonderful,” she said, “and it almost makes +you wish....” + +“Wish what?” he asked, after a moment. + +She studied his face as if memorizing it; her eyes seemed suddenly +turned sad. “Nothing, Nicky,” she said. + +Eventually, the silent waiter handed them huge, elaborate menus. + +He glanced at his and felt a momentary sickness; it passed, and he was +ashamed of it. + +“Would you like to eat?” he asked, but his voice sounded thin to his +ears. + +She stared across the menu at him. “Silly! We’ve already eaten: have +you forgotten?” + +“Yes, that’s right.” He tried a smile at the waiter that didn’t quite +come off. “A drink, then?” he asked her. + +“Should we?” + +“This once,” he said. “What would you like?” + +“Whatever you’d like.” + +“Champagne,” he said, because he had read that men who felt like he +felt should buy champagne for the girl they felt that way about. + +The waiter bowed. “Yes, sir.” He began to name champagnes. + +Nick listened, repeated the fifth name after the waiter; he hoped it +would be all right. + +When they were alone again, he looked across at her. “Darling,” he +said, surprised at his own courage. + +“Yes?” Her lips were shining red. + +“Darling, I.... I.... I....” He knew perfectly well what he wanted to +say. He was annoyed to find that his voice refused to respond. The +moment passed. “Do you like champagne?” he finished desperately. + +“I don’t know. Do you?” + +“It’s--all right.” + +“If it’s what you like, I’ll like it too,” she said. + +After the wine was in their glasses, he raised his and sipped to her. + +“It’s all funny-bubbly and sour,” she said. Then hastily, “But I like +it, Nicky; I really do.” + +His hand curled the stem of his glass; the vessel seemed springily +cushioned on the heavy whiteness of the tablecloth. + +“Nick,” she said. “Every minute’s been wonderful.” Color came into her +cheeks. + +He looked down at the rising, breaking bubbles and spoke to them +softly. “I don’t know how to say this. I’ve never said it before. I +wouldn’t say it to any other girl, ever.” He was surprised to hear the +words; and glad and afraid. “Mona,” he said, “I’m in love with you. +I’ve known it for hours.” He did not look up. + +There was silence; he thought he heard her sigh, wistfully. + +“Nicky, Nicky. I knew I loved you when I saw you there, fixing that +poor, little bird.” + +He looked up, then. + +“But Nick,” she said, “I’m afraid that you....” + +“No. Don’t spoil it. Don’t say anything. Right now. We’ll have to say +things later. Be still and listen, now.” + +They listened; and then they danced; they danced on a carpet of clouds. + +“Hold me tight,” she whispered, “very tight, and say that you love me.” + +She danced airy and delicate and snuggled warmly, and her white dress +flowed in animated grace, coming alive around her. + +The room glided away and back, to the dip and swoop of the waltz, and +she followed him, her head thrown back slightly, her lips half parted, +her eyes lightly closed and fluttering. + +He found himself dancing slowly toward the door and out of the room, +onto the open terrace, into the pale moonlight of the waning moon. It +seemed, almost, as if, somehow, she had led him, very gently. + +They stopped dancing and walked to the edge and looked down on the city +sparkling there under them. + +She was warm in his arm. + +He turned to her, looked down into her wonderful eyes, and the stars of +the city and the sky, too, were there. + +Her face seemed alive with the moment, in a life drawn from all +the wonderful, eloquent silences of vast nature; her delicately +molded features were impossibly perfect; and her skin was smooth and +life-blood warm. And yet, there was sadness there, too. + +“Mona,” he whispered, “will you marry me?” + +“I--don’t know,” she breathed softly. “Oh, Nick, I do so hope so!” + +“I don’t understand,” he said. “I--want--to,” she said very slowly. +“Only I couldn’t come down here. You see, I only know one job. But +maybe, in a little while, in just a few years, you could get a transfer +and come to Nebraska.” + +“Mona,” he said, “you wouldn’t have to work.” He felt her stiffen in +his arms. “Of course, at first, it might be hard.” He went on talking, +but he knew she wasn’t listening. “But I can get promotions; I know I +can, if I have you to work for.... I’m not making very much now,but +maybe in a couple of years, I’ll be a foreman, and then....” + +She drew away. “Oh, Nick, oh, no.” Her voice was a choked sob. “I +thought....” She checked herself. “And then I was afraid that you....” +She looked up at him and said, in a whisper, “Nick, what is your job?” + +“It isn’t much, now, darling, but....” + +“Please, Nick. What is it?” + +“I’m a mechanic,” he said; it made him feel miserable; because he knew +that was not what she wanted to hear. + +She moaned. “I--I was--afraid.... No. I guess I knew, down deep, from +the first, that you weren’t.... But I wouldn’t believe it. I wouldn’t +_let_ myself believe it. In the city, I was almost sure, once, but I +couldn’t ask you. When--I saw you--in the park--with that--that bird, +I thought your job was to--to fix all the little birds and animals +that got hurt--and then when you said, before the _people_ come to the +fountain, I was almost sure, for a little while, and then afterwards, I +was afraid to ask, when I wasn’t sure any more. But.... + +“You weren’t; you aren’t,” she finished hopelessly. + +“Mona,” he said, “please don’t say those things. You’re talking +nonsense.” + +She shook her head. “No, Nick. Not nonsense.” + +She began to cry. She stood very still and very straight. Her lower lip +trembled. “Nick,” she said, “it’s been the most wonderful day ever; and +I’ll never forget it. Not ever. + +“Nick,” she said, very softly, “I’m sorry I did this to you.” She +started to put out her hand to caress his face, and then she drew it +back without touching him. + +He swallowed and wanted to touch her and take her in his arms and say, +“It’s a dream, what you’re saying, you don’t mean it, you’re just +teasing me and you....” But he said, “Mona, Mona, what is your job?” +And he said it so low that she could scarcely hear him. + +She looked deep into his eyes, and her lip was quivering. + +“Oh, Nick, Nick. Darling.” Her voice was an eerie whisper now. “Nick, I +make snowflakes.” + +Suddenly he was alone. He turned his eyes up to the mute stars. And he +felt something soft and wet strike against his hot face; they were like +gentle kisses; and he knew what they were. + + + + +Transcriber’s note: + + + This etext was produced from Avon Science Fiction and Fantasy Reader, + April 1953 (Vol. 1, no. 2). + + Obvious errors have been silently corrected in this version, but + minor inconsistencies have been retained as printed. +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 78909 *** diff --git a/78909-h/78909-h.htm b/78909-h/78909-h.htm new file mode 100644 index 0000000..5f596d4 --- /dev/null +++ b/78909-h/78909-h.htm @@ -0,0 +1,900 @@ +<!DOCTYPE html> +<html lang="en"> +<head> + <meta charset="UTF-8"> + <meta name="viewport" content="width=device-width, initial-scale=1"> + <meta name="format-detection" content="telephone=no,date=no,address=no,email=no,url=no"> + <title> + As Holy and Enchanted | Project Gutenberg + </title> + <link rel="icon" href="images/cover.jpg" type="image/x-cover"> + <style> + +body { + margin-left: 10%; + margin-right: 10%; +} + +h1,h2,h3,h4,h5,h6 { + text-align: center; /* all headings centered */ + clear: both; +} + +p { + margin-top: .5em; + text-align: justify; + margin-bottom: .5em; +} + + +hr { + width: 33%; + margin-top: 2em; + margin-bottom: 2em; + margin-left: 33.5%; + margin-right: 33.5%; + clear: both; +} + +hr.tb {width: 45%; margin-left: 27.5%; margin-right: 27.5%;} +hr.chap {width: 65%; margin-left: 17.5%; margin-right: 17.5%;} +@media print { hr.chap {display: none; visibility: hidden;} } + + +div.chapter {page-break-before: always;} +h2.nobreak {page-break-before: avoid;} + + +blockquote { + margin-top: 0; + margin-bottom: 0; + margin-left: 5%; + margin-right: 10%; +} + +.center {text-align: center; text-indent: 0;} + + +figcaption {font-weight: bold;} +figcaption p {margin-top: 0; margin-bottom: .2em; text-align: inherit;} + +/* Images */ + +img { + max-width: 100%; + height: auto; +} + + +.figcenter { + margin: auto; + text-align: center; + page-break-inside: avoid; + max-width: 100%; +} + + +/* Transcriber's notes */ +.transnote {background-color: #E6E6FA; + color: black; + font-size:small; + padding:0.5em; + margin-bottom:5em; + font-family:sans-serif, serif; +} + +.f15 {font-size: 1.5em;} +img.w20 {width: 20em;} + + +/* Illustration classes */ +.illowp50 {width: 50%;} +.x-ebookmaker .illowp50 {width: 100%;} + </style> +</head> + +<body> +<div style='text-align:center'>*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 78909 ***</div> + + + +<figure class="figcenter illowp50" id="cover" style="max-width: 107.5625em;"> + <img class="w20" src="images/cover.jpg" alt=""> + <figcaption> + <p>Transcribed from Avon Science Fiction and Fantasy Reader, April 1953 (Vol. 1, no. 2).</p> + </figcaption> +</figure> +<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"><div class="chapter"></div> + +<h1> +As Holy and Enchanted +</h1> + + +<p class="center f15">by <strong>Henderson Starke</strong></p> +<p class="center f15">[Pseudonym of <strong>Kris Neville</strong>]</p> + +<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"><div class="chapter"></div> + + +<blockquote> +<p><i>She was as fragile as a snowflake. Around her there was the +heady, unspoiled spirit of Nature, and when Nick saw her he forgot +about the petty troubles at the garage, forgot about the bustle and +noise of the city, ignored the stinks and ugly sights of a giant +metropolis—and found his way to the sorrow and heartbreak of an +impossible love!</i></p> +</blockquote> + +<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"><div class="chapter"></div> + +<figure class="figcenter illowp50" id="057" style="max-width: 46.875em;"> + <img class="w20" src="images/057.jpg" alt=""> + <figcaption> + <p>Illustrator: Norman Nodel</p> + </figcaption> +</figure> + +<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"><div class="chapter"></div> + + + + +<p>For him spring mornings had a character all their own, an indefinable +essence that the mornings of the other seasons never had. And the best +spring morning of all was a Sunday spring morning—when he did not go +to the shop, when he awoke in time to hear the sleepy chirping of +the English sparrows in the false dawn, when he loved to lie in bed, +sleepy-warm, and smell the sweet, new air and dream lazy dreams.</p> + +<p>Then +when, beyond the skyline of dingy buildings, the heavens began to color +rose, he would get out of bed and yawn and expect, secretly, that today +something very fine and wonderful was going to happen to him.</p> + +<p>Those +mornings, he would put on his only suit, somewhat shiny from use, his +favorite blue tie, a clear-sky blue, clean his shoes and, whistling, +hurry out to meet the sun so that he would not lose another minute of +the wonderful new day.</p> + +<p>He always went first to the park. The park, +before all the people came, was very quiet and peaceful. There was +soft, lacy dew on the grass. And always, as he felt the trees around +him, he imagined that he was far away from the city and in the midst +of some delicate virginity, pure and sweet. The noises of civilization +faded. The squirrels came out and chattered in the treetops. +Occasionally he would hear the soft plunk of an acorn dropped from +above. The birds’ songs were clear. And the little, burbling fountain +was surrounded by cooing pigeons who sidled away, unafraid, to let him +pass.</p> + +<p>One particular Sunday morning, the fairest yet of all the year, +when he came to the edge of his park, he was aware, more intensely than +ever before, that this was the day for the strange, wonderful thing +to happen to him. As he walked along, the knowledge became unbearably +sweet within him, and it made the inside of his nose tickle with +emotion.</p> + +<p>The sun was fronted by the skyline, for it was newly risen. +The air was fresh as only the air of spring can be. It was filled with +the scents of new-born flowers and the long ago.</p> + +<p>He stepped from the +gravel path upon which he had been walking and onto the springy grass; +his mind was alive with the delicious sensation of secrecy. He imagined +that this, his short-cut to the burbling fountain, was mysteriously +concealed from others and belonged to him alone among mortals. He did +not walk either too slow or too swift; slow enough to be conscious of +all the sounds around him and all the little, life movements; swift +enough to satisfy his urge to hurry on and meet the wonderful thing +that would be sure to be waiting for him among the pigeons.</p> + +<p>All at +once, rudely shattering his thoughts, he heard an unusual, frantic +fluttering from a treetop to his left. He turned his head in time to +see a brown sparrow falling toward the earth, desperately trying to +break its fall.</p> + +<p>At the first instantaneous image, he felt sorry for it; +scarcely with thought, he walked to where it lay on the grass, hoping +there might be some way he could help it.</p> + +<p>The sparrow was panting and, +seeing the man-form, it fluttered its wings in fear.</p> + +<p>He bent quickly +to pick it up; it cheep-cheeped shrilly. He was very careful not to +hurt it. He could feel its tiny heart beating against the palm of his +hand. Gently as he could, he felt of its wings and its legs to see if +they were broken and was relieved to find that they were not.</p> + +<p>“Hello.”</p> + +<p>The girl’s voice was very sweet and very startling. Sweet because of +some melodious quality, like that of a native ballad singer; startling +because he had thought himself alone.</p> + +<p>In quick surprise, he opened his +hand; the sparrow fluttered and then flew. He stared at his hand, at +the disappearing bird, and then turned to the speaker.</p> + +<p>“You did fix him,” the girl said. “I was sure you were going to, and that’s why +I spoke.”</p> + +<p>He felt a shuddery current, something like fear, although +strangely pleasant, creep up his spine. She was a beautiful girl, lithe +and slender, and straight as a Georgia pine. Her hair was sunrise gold; +her eyes, the brown of hazel nuts; and her teeth, uncovered by lips +dewy with youth, flashed white in a quick, easy smile that reminded +him of polar snow.</p> + +<p>“I’m Mona,” she said, holding out her slim, white hand to him.</p> + +<p>Slowly he reached out to meet the hand. It felt warm and +firm in his. He continued to stare blankly into her face, and then, +realizing that he was being very impolite, he felt his face begin to +redden.</p> + +<p>“Hello,” he said, for want of anything better to say.</p> + +<p>She +withdrew her hand; he felt the absence of it sharply.</p> + +<p>“What’s your +name?” she asked. Her voice was like no voice he had ever heard; it was +open and vibrant and warm and friendly and thrilling. It had just the +trace of an accent.</p> + +<p>“I’m—I’m Nick.”</p> + +<p>“Nick,” she said, “Nick,” drawing +out the word as if she were taking it apart with her voice and finding +all the hidden layers of meaning in it. “I like that name.” Then, +seeing that he was still watching her, she smiled with pleasure and +pirouetted skillfully on the grass, making her snow-white skirt billow +out with the movement, holding her arms wide apart. She ended up facing +him again. “It <i>is</i> a beautiful dress, isn’t it?”</p> + +<p>He said, “Yes; it’s a beautiful dress.”</p> + +<p>She laughed, and her laughter was like little bells, +or like the silvery tinkle of a fast-flowing mountain brook. “I’m +glad,” she said. “I thought it would be what you liked.” She tossed +her head, making her hair flash out around it in a momentary, magic +halo.</p> + +<p>“You’re—beautiful, too,” he said. Immediately, he was chilled by +the thought that she might turn and run away like a frightened faun.</p> + +<p>“Do you really think so?”</p> + +<p>“You’re more beautiful than anything I’ve +ever seen,” he said. “...I shouldn’t have said that. It just—sort of +came out.”</p> + +<p>“I’m glad it did.” She laughed again, and then she was +beside him, her hand lightly resting upon his arm. He could smell the +flower-fresh nearness of her; his throat swelled when she looked up +into his face.</p> + +<p>“I hoped you’d like me,” she said.</p> + +<p>He felt lost in her +eyes, her beautiful, brown eyes. He said nothing, for there was nothing +to say, and a numbness was in his mind.</p> + +<p>“Are you working today?” she asked.</p> + +<p>Behind the numbness, there were puzzles, but looking down at +her, he was sure they were not essential, and he wished they would go +away; the important thing was just to answer her and hear her voice +again.</p> + +<p>“No, Mona,” he said.</p> + +<p>She wrinkled her brow prettily. “Oh; I +thought you were working.... When I saw you here, I thought you were, +and that’s why I knew to speak to you, but I’m glad you’re not. +...I have a whole week to myself, and it’s wonderful, isn’t it?”</p> + +<p>He said, “I think it’s very wonderful.”</p> + +<p>“Where were you going, just now?” she +asked, widening her eyes in innocent questioning.</p> + +<p>“Me?” he said, and +then he was embarrassed for saying it, because of course she meant him. +“Oh, o—h. Just walking. Over to the fountain. The pigeons all come +down to drink, early in the morning, before the people come....” Her +smile was warm. “You know the fountain with the pigeons around it?” he +finished, having lost the thread of thought in her smile.</p> + +<p>“No,” she said. “I don’t belong here.” And then she said, as if it explained +everything, “I belong in Nebraska and Australia. I just came here for a +week before I have to go on down to Australia.”</p> + +<p>“Oh,” he said.</p> + +<p>“Which way is the fountain? I’d love to see it; it must be quite pretty if +you like it.”</p> + +<p>“It’s—it’s just a fountain.... I’ll—I’ll show it to you, +if you want me to.”</p> + +<p>“Of course I do.”</p> + +<p>And the two of them, her hand +lightly on his arm, began to walk through the park. “You’re the first +one I’ve met down here,” she said. “I was so in hopes I’d meet some of +us; it’s lonely with no one to talk to.”</p> + +<p>“Yes,” he said, “I know. I’m often lonely.”</p> + +<p>Her eyes turned serious-sympathetic. “I’m sorry,” she +said, and her voice was full of understanding in a way he had never +imagined possible. “I’m very sorry, Nick....” And then, with a little +shout of joy, “Oh! That must be your wonderful fountain!”</p> + +<p>“Yes,” he +said. Only now it did not seem so wonderful. He wanted to show her all +the things more wonderful. He thought of the sunrise on tall mountains, +and the flat, level blue of the ocean off Hawaii, and the burning of +pine logs in a New England fireplace when the snow lay piled outside +and the air was sharp, and the high, tumbling waterfalls in Africa +that broke into rainbow spray, and all the other marvelous things he +had read about during all his life.</p> + +<p>She ran from him, scattering the +startled pigeons, who fluttered a few feet and immediately resumed +their endless search for food, to sit down on the old stone rim of the +fountain. She dipped her hand lightly in the water; she drew it along +with a free, graceful movement that was like a caress. “It feels so +nice,” she said. “I like water very much. Clear water. Like rain.” +She stared dreamily into it. “I work with water every day—almost and +yet: It’s always so beautiful.”</p> + +<p>He had not moved. “You’re beautiful,” he said again in child-like wonder, knowing that to say it would not +make her run away.</p> + +<p>“Silly! You weren’t listening to what I said!” She +flipped some of the water from her hand, playfully. Then, when she saw +it hit on his suit, she sprang up....</p> + +<p>“Oh! I’m sorry, Nicky. I didn’t +mean to get your suit all wet.” She stood before him, looking up at +him. “And such a pretty suit. You won’t be mad at me, will you? Because +then you’d go away and I wouldn’t have anyone to talk to.”</p> + +<p>He felt the +lump in his throat; it had been there for a long time. “Mona,” he said, +“I don’t think I’d ever want to go away.”</p> + +<p>“You say the nicest things.” She took his hand and drew him, with gentle pressure, to the stones of +the fountain. The pigeons, cooing softly, opened a little isle for them +that closed as soon as they had passed.</p> + +<p>“Sit down, Nicky,” she said.</p> + +<p>For a moment she sat there beside him, silent, staring into the unquiet +water, seeing the flicker and gleam of darting goldfish outlined +sharply against the green of the gently waving moss. The falling water +sprayed and dimpled the surface, making the fish seem fluidly unreal.</p> + +<p>He watched the mirrored mood on her face.</p> + +<p>“I think you have one of +the best jobs,” she said.</p> + +<p>Instinctively, he looked away from her and +stared into the burbling fountain, too. Thinking of his job made him +briefly miserable. His face grew hot. Then he was afraid she would see +that he was ashamed. That made it all the worse. He hoped she was still +staring into the water.</p> + +<p>Looking back at her, he saw that she seemed +dainty, fragile, somehow like a snowflake or a delicate crystal or +something that would shatter with the first rumble of horizon thunder. +He knew he must never say anything she did not want him to say—or she +might go away, and he would never see her again.</p> + +<p>“It’s all right,” he said.</p> + +<p>“I think it’s the most wonderful job,” she insisted gently.</p> + +<p>“Yes,” he said. “Yes, I suppose it really is.”</p> + +<p>Suddenly she asked, “Did you notice the sunrise this morning?”</p> + +<p>“Yes,” he said.</p> + +<p>“It was a beautiful sunrise. Robert does them for Nebraska—do you know him?—and +he’s very good—but I don’t know: this one, this morning: I think they +must use more colors, down here.”</p> + +<p>He felt his throat constrict. He +felt cold inside. He said, “I think they must,” and waited.</p> + +<p>“Yes, I guess they do,” she said, smiling up at him. “Oh! I’m so glad I met +you!” She held out both of her hands, and he took them in his.</p> + +<p>“Hazel +eyes,” he said, “beautiful hazel eyes.”</p> + +<p>“Nicky,” she said, “could you get off? I have the whole week here.”</p> + +<p>“I—I—.”</p> + +<p>“And you could show me the city—if you wanted to—that would be fun—don’t you think so?—do +you often go into the city at all?—and take me dancing, and—it would +be just wonderful if you could.”</p> + +<p>She sprang away from him and danced +around him, laughing, humming a little, sad-funny tune that he had +never heard. “I’m a very good dancer.” And she spun in a series of +intricate steps, executed with happy grace.</p> + +<p>When she ceased, her cheeks +were rosy from her efforts, and her breath came quickly. “Come.” She +held out her hand. “Let’s walk, and you can talk to me, and I can talk +to you, and neither of us will be lonely.”</p> + +<p>He stood, and she came to +him. “Lead me,” she said. “Show me your wonderful park.”</p> + +<p>They began to +walk; and, as they walked, she chattered happily, occasionally looking +up at him for approval, talking of the trees and the birds and the wind +and the grass and the change of the seasons. She talked in youth and +enthusiasm. Once she paused to laugh at a gray squirrel, and it looked +down at her quizzically, over the acorn it was holding in its forepaws.</p> + +<p>He listened and half listened and sometimes only heard the sweet melody +of her voice, rising and falling, reminding him of the pleasant wind +in the scented trees and the quiet sea.</p> + +<p>Time moved, or stood still, +or was not; it did not matter.</p> + +<p>Then, in their aimless walk, they came +to the edge of the park and looked out on the city.</p> + +<p>“Oh! How very big +and pretty. And exciting! Do you often go out there, Nicky?”</p> + +<p>“Quite often,” he said, wanting to go back into the park, afraid that the city +would break and shatter her with its many muted rumbles.</p> + +<p>“It must be +fun—to be where you’re able to. You’ll show it to me, won’t you? You +promised, remember? And tell me about it? About the buildings? And +the streets?”</p> + +<p>“Yes,” he said, taking her hand; she squeezed in soft, +answering pressure. “If you really want to see it.”</p> + +<p>Like two little +children, hand in hand, they walked out into the city.</p> + +<p>Their feet made +the sharp clatter of the city; the Sunday traffic made the subdued roar +of the city; the people’s voices made the dry-sadness of the city.</p> + +<p>Her +questions came quickly, tumbling over themselves in flying curiosity, +jumping with the speed of thought from subject to subject. He answered +them all, softly, quietly, as if talking to a little girl who was first +seeing the city and trying to know it all in a single hour. It gave +him a sweet sense of belonging, and her eager wonder at his knowledge +filled him with a pride and a joy he had never known.</p> + +<p>“Here,” he said, pointing to a new-shiny building, with doors gleaming with brass and +windows sparkling with sunshine. “This. It’s built on the very spot +where an ancient, Spanish monastery once stood.”</p> + +<p>“You know so very +much. About the strangest things—about these people.”</p> + +<p>“I come here often,” he said.</p> + +<p>“...We’ve been walking for a long time,” she said.</p> + +<p>“Are you tired?”</p> + +<p>“Not very.”</p> + +<p>“Neither am I,” he said.</p> + +<p>“No; you only get +tired when you’re lonely; and we’re not....” Her voice trailed away. +“Look, Nicky! A tree.... It seems funny to see a tree here, among +all these buildings: like it was growing out of the pavement instead +of the ground.”</p> + +<p>“Yes; it does seem like that,” he said.</p> + +<p>“I wonder if +it’s a happy tree; do you think so, Nicky?”</p> + +<p>“I guess it is....”</p> + +<p>“Look: Mona?” he said.</p> + +<p>“Yes?”</p> + +<p>“I.... Look: Are you hungry?”</p> + +<p>“...Are you?”</p> + +<p>“Yes,” he said, “Let’s go eat.”</p> + +<p>“All right.” She laughed lightly. “That sounds like fun.”</p> + +<p>When, shortly, they arrived at the +door of a restaurant, he said, “Go on in.”</p> + +<p>“It’ll be all right?” she asked doubtfully.</p> + +<p>“Of course.”</p> + +<p>He guided her to a table and, when they +ordered, she followed his lead, saying what he said, watching the +waitress cautiously, out of the corner of her eye.</p> + +<p>“I don’t know how +you do it,” she said, looking up after the girl had left their table. +“I’d be afraid to death, if you weren’t with me.”</p> + +<p>“You get used to +it,” he said.</p> + +<p>“Of course you do.... Nicky? I’d love to live here—where +I could come into the city—do all these wonderful things—whenever I +wanted to.”</p> + +<p>“Would you really like to live here?” he asked, and his +voice sounded dry and strained.</p> + +<p>“Oh, very much, Nicky. I’d love to +live here—almost better than anything.” And having said that, she was +suddenly very shy; she looked down at the snowy tablecloth and ran her +fingertips over it.</p> + +<p>He was not sure what to say; the palms of his hands +were moist. And he was glad when the lunch arrived.</p> + +<p>After the waitress +left, they looked up and stared into each other’s eyes.</p> + +<p>“Well,” he +said, looking down at the food, “it looks all right to me.”</p> + +<p>“Yes,” +she said, “it’s just fine.”</p> + +<p>There was a motionless silence.</p> + +<p>“Well,” he said. He picked up his water-glass and sipped, watching her.</p> + +<p>She picked up her glass and sipped, watching him.</p> + +<p>He put the glass down and +speared into the salad with his fork. She imitated him. She chewed the +salad carefully. She said, hesitatingly, “It’s very good, isn’t it?”</p> + +<p>“Yes,” he said, “it sure is.”</p> + +<p>“Ummmm,” she said.</p> + +<p>He broke off a piece of french bread, buttered it.</p> + +<p>She broke off a piece of french bread, buttered it.</p> + +<p>“Look—?” he said.</p> + +<p>“Yes?”</p> + +<p>“—Nothing.”</p> + +<p>She took more salad. “Does it snow often, here?”</p> + +<p>“Snow?” He put down his knife across the +edge of his plate. “...Hasn’t for years. Last time was thirty-three, +I think.”</p> + +<p>“Oh, yes,” she said. “I remember, now.”</p> + +<hr class="tb"> + +<p>When the lights in the theater went off, she stiffened. And, with +the first trumpet jar of the newsreel music, she said, “Ohhhh,” very +softly. After that, for a few minutes, she was on the edge of her seat, +watching wide-eyed. Once she said, “Oh, Nicky, look!”</p> + +<p>But soon she +settled down and rested her head on his shoulder. He slipped his arm +around her. It seemed natural that he should. She moved closer to him; +her hand found his. She made a little noise, deep in her throat, like +a purr. “I like this,” she whispered. “Better than anything I’ve ever +done.”</p> + +<p>He kissed her silken hair, knew the electric nearness of her, +and nothing else mattered.</p> + +<p>When the movie was over, they walked again; +sunset brooded in the west; the air was warm and exotic, as if blowing +from the far away, from a never, never land of strange, perfumed +flowers. And the day had been long and sweet.</p> + +<hr class="tb"> + +<p>The cab swung into the paved semi-circle before the tall building. +They got out. In the dim light, her dress glowed whitely; she stared +up and up, her eyes widening with the vast height of the building.</p> + +<p>“It’s on the roof,” he whispered to her, as soon as he had paid the +cab.</p> + +<p>“I’m—I’m afraid,” she half whimpered.</p> + +<p>“It’s only a dance,” he said.</p> + +<p>They walked into the hotel and through the huge lobby, feeling, +in that moment, alone against the world. She pressed to him as if for +protection. Beautifully dressed people moved around them, so rich +with assurance.</p> + +<p>They crossed the foyer; they entered the elevator +with an elderly man in a tuxedo; “The Top,” the man said, as if he +were accustomed to saying it.</p> + +<p>Nick wondered if he had enough money. +He had heard that this was an expensive place.</p> + +<p>“Ohhhhh,” she said +as the elevator began to move.</p> + +<p>The elderly gentleman looked at her +strangely.</p> + +<p>Nick patted her arm and smiled at her; she smiled back, +uncertainly.</p> + +<p>When the elevator sighed to a stop, the operator slid +open the door. The three passengers stepped out.</p> + +<p>The sight of the +room; the music; the muted sigh of conversation; the lights; the women +with their jewelry; the reflection in the curved mirror of the bar; +the smell of food; the deep, blood-red, silencing carpet.</p> + +<p>She seemed +overcome with the bright glitter of it. He felt cold and a little +frightened with the strange glamor of it. It was something like a +movie set; unreal, like that, to him. He wondered how the men moved +with such poise.</p> + +<p>After a few moments, the head waiter came to them; he +raised his eyebrows as if to ask if they had a reservation, then he +seemed to reconsider. “A table for two, sir?” he asked.</p> + +<p>“Yes.... Please,” Nick said.</p> + +<p>“If you’ll come this way, sir...?”</p> + +<p>They followed him.</p> + +<p>And they were seated. The table was small and secluded.</p> + +<p>He sat +very stiffly, waiting, very conscious of his shiny suit. She turned +immediately toward the dance floor. She watched the dancing bodies +mold together in waltz rhythm; she swayed with them, and her eyes +were wide and starry with rapt attention. She turned back to him. “I +never knew it was this wonderful,” she said, “and it almost makes you +wish....”</p> + +<p>“Wish what?” he asked, after a moment.</p> + +<p>She studied his face +as if memorizing it; her eyes seemed suddenly turned sad. “Nothing, +Nicky,” she said.</p> + +<p>Eventually, the silent waiter handed them huge, elaborate menus.</p> + +<p>He glanced at his and felt a momentary sickness; it +passed, and he was ashamed of it.</p> + +<p>“Would you like to eat?” he asked, +but his voice sounded thin to his ears.</p> + +<p>She stared across the menu at +him. “Silly! We’ve already eaten: have you forgotten?”</p> + +<p>“Yes, that’s right.” He tried a smile at the waiter that didn’t quite come off. +“A drink, then?” he asked her.</p> + +<p>“Should we?”</p> + +<p>“This once,” he said. “What +would you like?”</p> + +<p>“Whatever you’d like.”</p> + +<p>“Champagne,” he said, because +he had read that men who felt like he felt should buy champagne for the +girl they felt that way about.</p> + +<p>The waiter bowed. “Yes, sir.” He began +to name champagnes.</p> + +<p>Nick listened, repeated the fifth name after the +waiter; he hoped it would be all right.</p> + +<p>When they were alone again, he +looked across at her. “Darling,” he said, surprised at his own courage.</p> + +<p>“Yes?” Her lips were shining red.</p> + +<p>“Darling, I.... I.... I....” He knew +perfectly well what he wanted to say. He was annoyed to find that his +voice refused to respond. The moment passed. “Do you like champagne?” +he finished desperately.</p> + +<p>“I don’t know. Do you?”</p> + +<p>“It’s—all right.”</p> + +<p>“If it’s what you like, I’ll like it too,” she said.</p> + +<p>After the wine was in +their glasses, he raised his and sipped to her.</p> + +<p>“It’s all funny-bubbly and sour,” she said. Then hastily, “But I like it, Nicky; I really do.”</p> + +<p>His hand curled the stem of his glass; the vessel seemed springily +cushioned on the heavy whiteness of the tablecloth.</p> + +<p>“Nick,” she said. “Every minute’s been wonderful.” Color came into her cheeks.</p> + +<p>He looked +down at the rising, breaking bubbles and spoke to them softly. “I +don’t know how to say this. I’ve never said it before. I wouldn’t say +it to any other girl, ever.” He was surprised to hear the words; and +glad and afraid. “Mona,” he said, “I’m in love with you. I’ve known +it for hours.” He did not look up.</p> + +<p>There was silence; he thought he +heard her sigh, wistfully.</p> + +<p>“Nicky, Nicky. I knew I loved you when I saw +you there, fixing that poor, little bird.”</p> + +<p>He looked up, then.</p> + +<p>“But Nick,” she said, “I’m afraid that you....”</p> + +<p>“No. Don’t spoil it. Don’t say anything. Right now. We’ll have to say things later. Be still and +listen, now.”</p> + +<p>They listened; and then they danced; they danced on a +carpet of clouds.</p> + +<p>“Hold me tight,” she whispered, “very tight, and say +that you love me.”</p> + +<p>She danced airy and delicate and snuggled warmly, +and her white dress flowed in animated grace, coming alive around her.</p> + +<p>The room glided away and back, to the dip and swoop of the waltz, and +she followed him, her head thrown back slightly, her lips half parted, +her eyes lightly closed and fluttering.</p> + +<p>He found himself dancing slowly +toward the door and out of the room, onto the open terrace, into the +pale moonlight of the waning moon. It seemed, almost, as if, somehow, +she had led him, very gently.</p> + +<p>They stopped dancing and walked to the +edge and looked down on the city sparkling there under them.</p> + +<p>She was warm in his arm.</p> + +<p>He turned to her, looked down into her wonderful eyes, +and the stars of the city and the sky, too, were there.</p> + +<p>Her face seemed +alive with the moment, in a life drawn from all the wonderful, eloquent +silences of vast nature; her delicately molded features were impossibly +perfect; and her skin was smooth and life-blood warm. And yet, there +was sadness there, too.</p> + +<p>“Mona,” he whispered, “will you marry me?”</p> + +<p>“I—don’t know,” she breathed softly. “Oh, Nick, I do so hope so!”</p> + +<p>“I don’t understand,” he said. “I—want—to,” she said very slowly. “Only +I couldn’t come down here. You see, I only know one job. But maybe, +in a little while, in just a few years, you could get a transfer and +come to Nebraska.”</p> + +<p>“Mona,” he said, “you wouldn’t have to work.” He +felt her stiffen in his arms. “Of course, at first, it might be hard.” +He went on talking, but he knew she wasn’t listening. “But I can get +promotions; I know I can, if I have you to work for.... I’m not making +very much now, but maybe in a couple of years, I’ll be a foreman, and +then....”</p> + +<p>She drew away. “Oh, Nick, oh, no.” Her voice was a choked +sob. “I thought....” She checked herself. “And then I was afraid +that you....” She looked up at him and said, in a whisper, “Nick, what +is your job?”</p> + +<p>“It isn’t much, now, darling, but....”</p> + +<p>“Please, Nick. What is it?”</p> + +<p>“I’m a mechanic,” he said; it made him feel miserable; +because he knew that was not what she wanted to hear.</p> + +<p>She moaned. “I—I +was—afraid.... No. I guess I knew, down deep, from the first, that +you weren’t.... But I wouldn’t believe it. I wouldn’t <i>let</i> myself +believe it. In the city, I was almost sure, once, but I couldn’t ask +you. When—I saw you—in the park—with that—that bird, I thought your job +was to—to fix all the little birds and animals that got hurt—and then +when you said, before the <i>people</i> come to the fountain, I was almost +sure, for a little while, and then afterwards, I was afraid to ask, +when I wasn’t sure any more. But....</p> + +<p>“You weren’t; you aren’t,” she finished hopelessly.</p> + +<p>“Mona,” he said, “please don’t say those things. +You’re talking nonsense.”</p> + +<p>She shook her head. “No, Nick. Not nonsense.”</p> + +<p>She began to cry. She stood very still and very straight. Her lower lip +trembled. “Nick,” she said, “it’s been the most wonderful day ever; and +I’ll never forget it. Not ever.</p> + +<p>“Nick,” she said, very softly, “I’m +sorry I did this to you.” She started to put out her hand to caress his +face, and then she drew it back without touching him.</p> + +<p>He swallowed and +wanted to touch her and take her in his arms and say, “It’s a dream, +what you’re saying, you don’t mean it, you’re just teasing me and +you....” But he said, “Mona, Mona, what is your job?” And he said it +so low that she could scarcely hear him.</p> + +<p>She looked deep into his eyes, +and her lip was quivering.</p> + +<p>“Oh, Nick, Nick. Darling.” Her voice was an +eerie whisper now. “Nick, I make snowflakes.”</p> + +<p>Suddenly he was alone. He +turned his eyes up to the mute stars. And he felt something soft and +wet strike against his hot face; they were like gentle kisses; and he +knew what they were.</p> + + +<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> +<div class="chapter"></div><div class="transnote"> + + <h2 class="nobreak" id="Transcribers_note"> + Transcriber’s note: + </h2> + +<blockquote> +<p>This etext was produced from Avon Science Fiction and Fantasy Reader, +April 1953 (Vol. 1, no. 2).</p> + +<p>Obvious errors have been silently corrected in this version, but +minor inconsistencies have been retained as printed.</p> +</blockquote> +</div> +<div style='text-align:center'>*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 78909 ***</div> +</body> +</html> diff --git a/78909-h/images/057.jpg b/78909-h/images/057.jpg Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..17c70ce --- /dev/null +++ b/78909-h/images/057.jpg diff --git a/78909-h/images/cover.jpg b/78909-h/images/cover.jpg Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..256c826 --- /dev/null +++ b/78909-h/images/cover.jpg diff --git a/LICENSE.txt b/LICENSE.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6c72794 --- /dev/null +++ b/LICENSE.txt @@ -0,0 +1,11 @@ +This book, including all associated images, markup, improvements, +metadata, and any other content or labor, has been confirmed to be +in the PUBLIC DOMAIN IN THE UNITED STATES. + +Procedures for determining public domain status are described in +the "Copyright How-To" at https://www.gutenberg.org. + +No investigation has been made concerning possible copyrights in +jurisdictions other than the United States. 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