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diff --git a/.gitattributes b/.gitattributes new file mode 100644 index 0000000..9f57f44 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitattributes @@ -0,0 +1,13 @@ +* text=auto +*.txt text +*.md text +*.htm text +*.html text +*.png binary +*.jpg binary +*.svg text +*.pdf binary +*.bmp binary +*.zip binary +*.midi binary +*.mp3 binary diff --git a/78908-0.txt b/78908-0.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..0df2a79 --- /dev/null +++ b/78908-0.txt @@ -0,0 +1,611 @@ +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 78908 *** + + + + + Forever Is So Long + + by John Jakes + + + + + _They walked the streets of the same city, but they were separated + by the ages. She feared the man she loved even as her arms clasped + him to her. For when science presented Frank Ridley with the gift of + neverending life it made him desperately unhappy, and placed him in a + world peopled by brief and flitting shadows...._ + + +[Illustration: Illustrator: Everett Raymond Kinstler] + + + + +After a year in the hospital, they gave Frank Ridley a new suit of +clothes and a topcoat and told him he could go. Dr. Lord said they +would call him when they wanted him, so Ridley put on the topcoat and +walked through the doors and down the wide steps into the windy, sunlit +morning. + +He felt in the pocket of the topcoat, found cigarettes. His fingers +caressed the material of the coat, as if it were entirely new to him. +He broke open the pack and lit a cigarette. The smoke inside him was +an almost new sensation, and he was pleasantly bewildered, like a +small child. A year in the hospital, and he was a new man, but he had +forgotten what life and the things of life were like. + +But he had not forgotten her. All through the long months, while the +doctors bent over him, while he lay half-dreaming in the life fluid, +while the needles filled his veins with a new and mighty blood, he had +remembered her face and her mouth and her hair. + +Quickly, Frank Ridley began to walk. He looked at the buildings, at the +towers, at the lake lying taut and blue in the sun. He saw the rockets +burning up into the morning sky, bound for the Moon, Mars, Venus, +carrying passengers and cargoes to the colonists. Gradually, he again +became familiar with his native city of New Chicago. + +Two blocks from the hospital, he found a street phone booth. It was +empty. Eagerly, he crowded his bulky body inside and closed the door. +Dialing information, he felt his breath come heavily. + +The screen lit up and the face of the operator appeared. + +“Number, please,” she said, smiling. + +“I’d like to call Miss Virginia Halloran. I ... don’t remember the +number. She used to live at ninety-fourteen Lake Drive.” + +“I will try that address,” the operator said. + +Ridley glanced at the new gleaming wrist chron they had given him. +A quarter after nine. Normally, women did not go to work in the +Department of Fuel Statistics at the Rocket Center until ten. She +should be.... + +The screen blurred. + +And he was looking at her. + +She was not a beautiful girl, with her slender face and slightly thin +lips. But there was an intangible something in her eyes that Ridley +had seen in few women. A promise, perhaps, of fire and affection. He +swallowed stiffly. + +“Hello,” he said. + +She peered at him, not believing. “Frank ... Frank Ridley ... that’s +right, isn’t it?” + +“Yes, Ginny. It’s me.” + +“It’s been a long time, Frank.” + +“Yes. A year.” + +“What happened, Frank? I thought you were dead, or had gone out on the +rockets. That night ... my birthday ... you never came ...” + +“I know, I know. I’ll tell you about it. Could we eat breakfast? +Couldn’t you skip work? I want to talk to you. I....” + +She nodded quickly. “Of course. Where?” + +He tried to remember, and could not. “I can’t think of any place we +used to eat.” He was ashamed, because he had only remembered her face +through the dark, painful year. + +“The Lake Front Cafe. Near Washington. Remember?” + +“I’ll find it. Half an hour?” + +“All right.” She hesitated. “Frank....” + +“Yes?” + +“What happened?” Her voice was soft, and her eyes in the screen were +gentle and, somehow, full of loneliness. + +“I’ll explain when we eat. Ginny, tell me. Is there anyone else now?” + +“No, Frank.” + +He tried to grin. “Half an hour.” + +She nodded again and the screen went blank. + +He went out into the street, feeling the sunlight on his face and the +wind pulling at his topcoat. Perhaps she still loved him. A year was a +long time, but he could hope. + +As he lit another cigarette, he felt with a terrible certainty that she +would cease to love him when she learned the secret that lodged in his +body. The secret that would, eventually, roar like thunder around Earth +and out to the stars where Earthmen rode their rockets. + +He turned and walked quickly down the street, and there was a sudden +coldness in the morning sun. + + * * * * * + +She was waiting at a table on the terrace of the Lake Front Cafe. +He walked up to her, almost shyly, and sat down. She smiled. A few +feet beyond the table, the waters of the lake shimmered and made soft +noises. A great rocket lifted across the skyline, trailing fire and +smoke into the blueness. + +They ordered coffee and Ridley gave her a cigarette. He was trying to +make many small motions, trying to take up time, because he was afraid +of what was coming. + +She took a sip of the coffee and looked at him. “I still love you, +Frank.” + +He glanced away. That was like her--the strange sense of honesty and +naturalness that had impressed him at their first meeting. The feeling +that their love was inherently right. + +“I’ve been gone a long time,” he said. + +“Where?” + +“In the Rocket Hospital.” + +She set down the cup, surprised. “Here in New Chicago?” + +“Yes, all the time. I couldn’t call you.” + +“Were you sick? Frank, I don’t understand this. A whole year out of a +man’s life, and not a word....” + +He reached out and took hold of her hand, squeezing it, because he was +afraid that he would inevitably lose her, and he did not want that. He +wanted to keep her, and the sunlight and the bright morning. + +“I’m going to tell you what happened to me,” he said softly. “I have +Dr. Lord’s permission. It’ll be out soon enough. You mustn’t tell +anyone.” + +She frowned. “I won’t.” + +“Do you know who Dr. Lord is?” + +“The longevity man. Educated at the University of Marsport.” + +“That’s right. My father was one of his best friends. They saw the +asteroids together in their student days, working on an ore jumper. +I’ve known Dr. Lord for a long time. Last year, when I came in from the +Venus run and took my two months’ leave ... when I met you ... Dr. Lord +called me. + +“He needed help, with an experiment. An experiment, he felt, that +couldn’t fail. He knew I was a jetman, and strong, and he knew me +personally. He asked me if I would help him. I thought it would mean +so much to people that I ... I said I would help him. He said it would +have to be done secretly. That’s why I never called you, or wrote.” + +“You’ve been a subject for an experiment for a whole year?” + +“That’s right. The experiment was completed a week ago.” + +“Success?” + +He nodded slowly and fumbled for a cigarette. He knew what her next +question would be. He lit the cigarette and waited, watching the smoke +whip away toward the lake. + +“What kind of an experiment was it?” + +“I don’t know the details. They replaced my normal blood with some kind +of fluid Dr. Lord had developed.” + +She waited, her lips slightly parted, her face bearing a faint trace of +fear. The feather on top of her hat bobbed as she leaned forward. + +He swallowed hard. + +“Ginny ... with this fluid inside of me ... I’ll ... I’m going to live +to be three hundred years old.” + +She released his hand quickly, striking the coffee cup. It spilled and +the brown liquid dripped across the table and fell on the stone terrace +in a dark shining pool. + +“Are ... are they sure?” + +“Yes, as sure as they can be. That’s why I had to talk to you.” + +She got up and walked over to the railing, stood staring at the water. +Ridley followed and put his arm around her. + +“That’s it,” he murmured. “That’s why I had to talk to you. I’m going +to be a kind of immortal, and I want that. I want that because I think, +eventually, people can all be almost immortal, and can use the extra +years for good things.” + +“But I can’t love you, Frank. I can’t love you if I’m old and dying at +eighty or so and you’re still young. We can’t go on.” + +He put his hands on her shoulders, turned her around so that she faced +him. + +“Can’t we?” he said. + +She buried her head in his shoulder, crying. He saw people on the +terrace watching them and didn’t care. + +“We can talk,” he whispered. “I’ll have some time to myself now ... a +month or two. We can do a lot of talking and decide. I can’t lose you, +Ginny.” + +She lifted her face and he bent down and kissed her, feeling her mouth +warm and soft with the sun. + +“We’ll try, Frank,” she said a moment later. “Perhaps we can do +something ... I don’t know what. You’re cut off from me. You’re cut off +from the rest of the human race now.” + +He choked at her words. Cut off from the human race. Yes, he was. + +To help them, he had isolated himself from them. And from her. + +“I’d better go to work now,” she told him. “Call me tonight. You can +come over. We’ll talk, as you say. Perhaps in a month or two....” + +He said, “I hope so.” + +He paid the check and they walked out of the cafe, holding hands. He +took her to a copter station and stood watching the machine rise into +the sky, blades making a silver whirl. + +He had a cigarette in his hands, but his fingers tightened on it and +crushed it. He felt the tobacco slip through his fingers as he watched +the copter in the sky. + +In the window, he had seen her crying. + + * * * * * + +He went back to the hospital because he had no other place to go. There +was a message for him at the main desk. Dr. Lord wanted to see him. + +Ridley found the tall, gray-haired scientist in his office, gazing +out of the window and smoking a brown cigar. When Ridley came in, the +doctor turned, anxiety on his darkly tanned old face. + +“I got your message at the desk,” Ridley said awkwardly. + +“Yes, uh, Frank, sit down.” + +Lord seated himself in a large red leather swivel chair behind the +desk. He rolled the cigar in his fingers nervously. + +“Something important?” Ridley asked. + +“I’m afraid so. I hate to tell you this, Frank.” + +Ridley frowned. “What is it?” + +“You’ve been under a strain for a whole year,” Lord went on, “and I +promised you time to rest, but now....” + +“Doctor,” Ridley said quietly, “tell me.” + +“Well, Frank, you know that I told you about experiments similar to +mine that are being conducted on Mars.” + +Ridley remembered that. “University of Marsopolis, wasn’t it?” + +“Yes. Dr. Thag. A brilliant man, brilliant. But he’s run into trouble. +I received a beam message from him just about an hour ago. His plasma +replacement technique was faulty, somehow. His subject went insane and +had to be shot.” + +Ridley tightened a hand on the chair arm. + +“That sort of thing can’t be allowed to go on,” Lord told him +earnestly. “We scientists have the right to experiment, but not at the +risk of damaging human life. That’s why we’ve always had such a hell of +a hard time. I was almost ninety-nine per cent sure the technique was +correct when I started the experiment on you.” + +“Get to the point,” Ridley said irritably. + +“Frank, I’m taking the rocket to Marsopolis tonight. I want to help Dr. +Thag. I want to set up a demonstration replacement, perhaps lasting +only a few moments, just enough for him to check and find his mistake. +I need you for a subject.” + +“For God’s sake,” Ridley said suddenly, “haven’t I had enough? Twelve +months in this goddamned hospital and now....” + +“I know, I know,” Lord interrupted. “And I’m sorry. But it’s got to be +done, if we want to see man’s dream of long life come true. I thought +you were interested in that dream when I chose you. You said you were.” + +Ridley remembered his father, an educator at a great university, who +had told him of the cruelty in man, the greed, the grasping hunger. His +father had made him learn the great lesson: that man was in too much of +a hurry. That he needed more time, to develop his skill in living with +other men. That a normal span of years only gave occasional glimmerings +of the peace between men that could be achieved. With time could come +education ... education of the spirit. That was the dream. + +Ridley shook his head wearily. “I still want what you want.” + +“Then you’ll come? The rocket jets off at ten tonight, Waukegan Port.” + +Desperately, Ridley thought of Ginny and the months they were to have +spent. They, too, needed time, to work out the problem that lay between +them. For a long minute, Ridley thought about her. + +And then his brain became suddenly alert. + +Perhaps ... perhaps.... + +“Dr. Lord, I want something in return, if I go with you. It’s selfish, +I know it’s selfish, but it’s something I need.” + +Lord put the cigar between his lips, drew in and blew out a cloud of +smoke. He rolled the cigar around in his fingers once more. + +“Go ahead.” + +With hope churning crazily in him, Ridley leaned forward and began to +speak.... + + * * * * * + +Ridley was waiting for Ginny that afternoon when she came home from her +job at the Department of Fuel Statistics. He stood in the lobby of the +apartment building, smoking. When he saw her coming toward the door, he +crushed out his cigarette under his foot. + +She let the door close slowly when she saw him. In his face she could +see trouble and anxiety. Without a word, she went to the lift and +pressed the button. + +They rode up to the twelfth floor in silence. Not until they were in +her small apartment did she speak. + +“Something’s wrong, isn’t it, Frank?” + +The words stuck in his throat. He couldn’t tell her. All he could say +was, “Yes.” + +She walked to the window and pressed a button. The inlaid panels folded +away, exposing a great expanse of glassite. Twilight lay on the lake +beyond. Down Lake Drive, in either direction, lights began to come on +in the towers. They were warm yellow lights, but to Ridley they were +lonely and beyond reach. They were the lights of normal human homes. +Ginny smoked quietly, watching the lake, waiting for him to speak. When +he did say something, it was clumsy and halting, and he knew it the +moment it was out of his mouth. + +“Ginny ... I’m ... going.” + +She turned. “Where?” + +“To Mars.” + +“At least you’re telling me this time.” + +“Ginny, I’ve got to go....” He moved close to her, speaking rapidly, +feeling the drive inside of him. He explained the situation, and went +on, spilling out the dream that he had held for years ... of no more +war ... no more hatred ... and long golden days chat could be filled +with learning and real enjoyment of the beauty of the world they lived +in. + +“It’s all very nice,” she said harshly, “but it doesn’t help us. We +have no time to talk this thing out.” + +“Ginny, that’s bitter talk. You’ve waited a long time, and I’m sorry, +but now you’re bitter because there’s something else I have to do.” + +“One or the other, Frank. That’s the way it’s got to be. Somewhere, +everybody has to make a choice.” + +“We don’t have to.” + +She slipped her cigarette into a wall dispenser and it vanished with a +ghostly whisper of air. + +“What do you mean?” + +“I talked to Dr. Lord for a long time this afternoon, I argued with him +... told him about you ... us ... and I finally persuaded him.” + +She did not ask another question, but waited. + +After a moment, Ridley took a deep breath and said, “Dr. Lord will give +you the new blood, if you want it. You can live to be as old as I am.” + +“Oh, Frank....” + +She held on to him tightly, and he grew cold when he heard her whisper, +“I can’t. I can’t, I can’t.” + +He said softly, “Why?” + +She broke away, pointing out the window at the tower and the lights +along the lake. + +“Look at the lights, Frank. Those belong to people who are in love +like we are. They have homes, and children, and normal lives. I want +that, Frank. I want to belong to the human race.” Her voice was full of +sorrow. + +“And my loving you ... that isn’t enough?” + +“I don’t know, Frank. I honestly don’t know.” + +“It’s late, Ginny.” His arms went around her again. “We’re late. Out +of all the people in this crazy mixed-up world, we have to be the ones +with only hours to decide. I guess I’ve got the dream to work for. I +guess you can’t have everything.” + +He pushed her away gently. “I’ve got to go. I’ve got to be at Waukegan +Port by ten.” + +Picking up his coat from the couch, he walked quietly to the door. +There, he turned and took one final look at her, wanting to remember +the way she was standing, looking at the yellow lights in the towers +that meant so much to her. + +All the way down in the lift, he felt a terrible sense of loneliness, +of emptiness, as if a chunk of his being had been somehow cut out of +him. Now all that remained was his long, long life. It would have to be +filled with work. He would have to lose himself in that work, trying +to help people. He would have to make time for more people to live. +Perhaps he could forget her. + +Out in the street, he headed for a mobile station. A rocket burned +across the sky, like a star falling away and becoming lost in the dark. + +Ridley hurried on. Rain began to spatter lightly on his face. It was +cold rain. + +A man and a woman hurried by him, laughing, holding hands. He hunted +for a cigarette, but could not get it lit. The man and woman were gone +down the street. + +And Frank Ridley knew that no matter how he worked, no matter how far +he traveled to the worlds lying far out in the rocket lanes, that the +years without her would be as cold and as dark as the rain through +which he walked.... + + * * * * * + +Lord was not at the hospital. One of the nurses gave Ridley a suitcase +full of new clothes. He ate dinner in the dining-room with the doctors +and nurses. One young student-nurse stared at him as he was eating, +tremendous curiosity on her young face. Someone in the hospital must +have told her about him. + +He bent down over his food. That would be the way of it. Wherever he +went, stares. People looking at him, envying him. + +He sat up straight. His fork rattled against his plate. They might +begrudge him the extra years. For a long, long time, they might ... +hate him. + +After dinner he took a mobile out to the Waukegan Port. He chainsmoked, +and his throat was not used to it. He was coughing hoarsely by the time +he reached the field. + +The rocket lay in its launching rack. Passengers were already boarding. +The great expanse of concrete was lit by search-beams that shone +brightly behind the rain. + +For Ridley, it was goodbye to Earth for a while. Goodbye to the Earth +he had known only for one day. He would come to know it again, but it +would be remote and alien then. + +He walked through the gate in the wire fence after showing his +credentials. He walked straight across the field, the bag leaden in his +hand. The rain fell and ran down all over his face and soaked his hair +and his coat. He kept walking. He kept thinking about her. + +All at once he stopped, shook his head and straightened up. He +quickened his step and went briskly up the ramp into the great hull. + +He found his cabin, hung up the wet coat and deposited his bag. Then, +he proceeded to the lounge where he ordered a drink. Whisky tasted +good, warm and mellow, after being cut off from life for so long. + +Lord stood by the observation window, watching the bustle of activity +on the field. Huge crates of machinery were being loaded into a lower +hold. Ridley touched Lord’s arm lightly to let him know that he had +arrived. + +The doctor’s face was worried. + +“What did she say?” he asked. + +“No,” Frank replied evenly. He took a sip of the whisky. “She said no.” + +“Um. I beamed Dr. Thag. He’ll meet us at the port in Marsopolis. +I expect we’ll be there for a month or so. He wants to study the +technique thoroughly, talk to you and all that. There’ll be other +doctors there, from all over Mars....” + +“If you don’t mind,” Ridley said, “I wish you wouldn’t talk to me about +that tonight.” + +“Oh,” said Lord, “sorry.” + +The warning siren screamed through the ship. Ridley glanced at his +wrist chron. “Five minutes till jet off,” he said. + +He turned back, watching the field. + +A figure was running across the wet concrete toward the ship. Ridley +smiled at that. It would be ironical. Missing a trip to Mars by a +matter of minutes. + +Suddenly, he put the palm of one hand against the window, pressing, +straining to see. + +The figure came on, through the rain, hurrying ... hurrying.... + +Ridley breathed, “Ginny....” + +He was waiting for her on the ramp. She was calling to him. The lights +and the rain made a crazy blur. Ridley felt his suit cling to his body. +She came up the ramp and slipped. He caught her and pulled her to him. + +“I’m going,” she said, “I’m going with you....” + +Frank Ridley, with the blood of near-immortality in him, was crying, +because the years ahead had looked so dark and lonely, and because no +one could tell he was crying as they stood together in the rain. + +Finally, the purser signaled for the ramp to be rolled up. They hurried +inside. + +“I had to come,” she told him. “I love you, Frank. It’s enough for us, +love. I thought about you being alone, and I knew I wanted to be with +you....” + +He kissed her. + + * * * * * + +After changing his suit, he joined her in the lounge. The lights had +been turned out, so that the passengers could observe the spectacle of +take-off. Ginny stood beside Dr. Lord, talking and smoking. The jets +made thunder. + +They were well beyond the atmosphere of Earth when Ridley put his arm +around her. She leaned close and kissed his cheek. + +“Dr. Lord and I have been talking,” she said. “He’s told me about the +experiments. If you can stay with me in the hospital....” + +Ridley nodded. + +They watched Earth falling away. The rain had been left far behind. +Every minute or so, Frank would turn and look at her. The cigarette +illuminated her face with a warm orange glow, and in her eyes he saw +love for many lifetimes. + +He held her tightly, and together they watched Earth grow smaller, no +longer cold, but now full of greenness and warmth and the dream they +would some day come to share. + +Dr. Lord smiled as he sat and watched the first two immortals.... + + + + + Transcriber’s note: + + + This etext was produced from Avon Science Fiction and Fantasy Reader, + April 1953 (Vol. 1, no. 2). + + Obvious errors have been silently corrected in this version, but + minor inconsistencies have been retained as printed. +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 78908 *** diff --git a/78908-h/78908-h.htm b/78908-h/78908-h.htm new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6b1a654 --- /dev/null +++ b/78908-h/78908-h.htm @@ -0,0 +1,726 @@ +<!DOCTYPE html> +<html lang="en"> +<head> + <meta charset="UTF-8"> + <meta name="viewport" content="width=device-width, initial-scale=1"> + <meta name="format-detection" content="telephone=no,date=no,address=no,email=no,url=no"> + <title> + Forever Is So Long | Project Gutenberg + </title> + <link rel="icon" href="images/cover.jpg" type="image/x-cover"> + <style> + +body { + margin-left: 10%; + margin-right: 10%; +} + +h1,h2,h3,h4,h5,h6 { + text-align: center; /* all headings centered */ + clear: both; +} + +p { + margin-top: .5em; + text-align: justify; + margin-bottom: .5em; +} + +hr { + width: 33%; + margin-top: 2em; + margin-bottom: 2em; + margin-left: 33.5%; + margin-right: 33.5%; + clear: both; +} + +hr.tb {width: 45%; margin-left: 27.5%; margin-right: 27.5%;} +hr.chap {width: 65%; margin-left: 17.5%; margin-right: 17.5%;} +@media print { hr.chap {display: none; visibility: hidden;} } + +div.chapter {page-break-before: always;} +h2.nobreak {page-break-before: avoid;} + + +blockquote { + margin-top: 0; + margin-bottom: 0; + margin-left: 5%; + margin-right: 10%; +} + + +.center {text-align: center; text-indent: 0;} + + +figcaption {font-weight: bold;} +figcaption p {margin-top: 0; margin-bottom: .2em; text-align: inherit;} + +/* Images */ + +img { + max-width: 100%; + height: auto; +} + + +.figcenter { + margin: auto; + text-align: center; + page-break-inside: avoid; + max-width: 100%; +} + + +/* Transcriber's notes */ +.transnote {background-color: #E6E6FA; + color: black; + font-size:small; + padding:0.5em; + margin-bottom:5em; + font-family:sans-serif, serif; +} + +.f15 {font-size: 1.5em;} +img.w20 {width: 20em;} + + +/* Illustration classes */ +.illowp50 {width: 50%;} +.x-ebookmaker .illowp50 {width: 100%;} +.illowp52 {width: 52%;} +.x-ebookmaker .illowp52 {width: 100%;} + </style> +</head> + +<body> +<div style='text-align:center'>*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 78908 ***</div> + + +<figure class="figcenter illowp50" id="cover" style="max-width: 107.5625em;"> + <img class="w20" src="images/cover.jpg" alt=""> + <figcaption> + <p>Transcribed from Avon Science Fiction and Fantasy Reader, April 1953 (Vol. 1, no. 2).</p> + </figcaption> +</figure> + +<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"><div class="chapter"></div> +<h1> +Forever Is So Long +</h1> + +<p class="f15 center">by <strong>John Jakes</strong></p> + +<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"><div class="chapter"></div> + + +<blockquote> +<p><i>They walked the streets of the same city, but they were separated by +the ages. She feared the man she loved even as her arms clasped him +to her. For when science presented Frank Ridley with the gift of +neverending life it made him desperately unhappy, and placed him in a +world peopled by brief and flitting shadows....</i></p> +</blockquote> + +<figure class="figcenter illowp52" id="104" style="max-width: 46.875em;"> + <img class="w20" src="images/104.jpg" alt=""> + <figcaption> + <p>Illustrator: Everett Raymond Kinstler</p> + </figcaption> +</figure> + + +<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"><div class="chapter"></div> + +<p>After a year in the hospital, they gave Frank Ridley a new suit of +clothes and a topcoat and told him he could go. Dr. Lord said they +would call him when they wanted him, so Ridley put on the topcoat and +walked through the doors and down the wide steps into the windy, sunlit +morning.</p> + +<p>He felt in the pocket of the topcoat, found cigarettes. His fingers +caressed the material of the coat, as if it were entirely new to him. +He broke open the pack and lit a cigarette. The smoke inside him was +an almost new sensation, and he was pleasantly bewildered, like a +small child. A year in the hospital, and he was a new man, but he had +forgotten what life and the things of life were like.</p> + +<p>But he had not forgotten her. All through the long months, while the +doctors bent over him, while he lay half-dreaming in the life fluid, +while the needles filled his veins with a new and mighty blood, he had +remembered her face and her mouth and her hair.</p> + +<p>Quickly, Frank Ridley began to walk. He looked at the buildings, at the +towers, at the lake lying taut and blue in the sun. He saw the rockets +burning up into the morning sky, bound for the Moon, Mars, Venus, +carrying passengers and cargoes to the colonists. Gradually, he again +became familiar with his native city of New Chicago.</p> + +<p>Two blocks from the hospital, he found a street phone booth. It was +empty. Eagerly, he crowded his bulky body inside and closed the door. +Dialing information, he felt his breath come heavily.</p> + +<p>The screen lit up and the face of the operator appeared.</p> + +<p>“Number, please,” she said, smiling.</p> + +<p>“I’d like to call Miss Virginia Halloran. I ... don’t remember the +number. She used to live at ninety-fourteen Lake Drive.”</p> + +<p>“I will try that address,” the operator said.</p> + +<p>Ridley glanced at the new gleaming wrist chron they had given him. +A quarter after nine. Normally, women did not go to work in the +Department of Fuel Statistics at the Rocket Center until ten. She +should be....</p> + +<p>The screen blurred.</p> + +<p>And he was looking at her.</p> + +<p>She was not a beautiful girl, with her slender face and slightly thin +lips. But there was an intangible something in her eyes that Ridley +had seen in few women. A promise, perhaps, of fire and affection. He +swallowed stiffly.</p> + +<p>“Hello,” he said.</p> + +<p>She peered at him, not believing. “Frank ... Frank Ridley ... +that’s right, isn’t it?”</p> + +<p>“Yes, Ginny. It’s me.”</p> + +<p>“It’s been a long time, Frank.”</p> + +<p>“Yes. A year.”</p> + +<p>“What happened, Frank? I thought you were dead, or had gone out on the +rockets. That night ... my birthday ... you never came ...”</p> + +<p>“I know, I know. I’ll tell you about it. Could we eat breakfast? Couldn’t +you skip work? I want to talk to you. I....”</p> + +<p>She nodded quickly. “Of course. Where?”</p> + +<p>He tried to remember, and could not. “I can’t think of any place we +used to eat.” He was ashamed, because he had only remembered her face +through the dark, painful year.</p> + +<p>“The Lake Front Cafe. Near Washington. Remember?”</p> + +<p>“I’ll find it. Half an hour?”</p> + +<p>“All right.” She hesitated. “Frank....”</p> + +<p>“Yes?”</p> + +<p>“What happened?” Her voice was soft, and her eyes in the screen were +gentle and, somehow, full of loneliness.</p> + +<p>“I’ll explain when we eat. Ginny, tell me. Is there anyone else now?”</p> + +<p>“No, Frank.”</p> + +<p>He tried to grin. “Half an hour.”</p> + +<p>She nodded again and the screen went blank.</p> + +<p>He went out into the street, feeling the sunlight on his face and the +wind pulling at his topcoat. Perhaps she still loved him. A year was a +long time, but he could hope.</p> + +<p>As he lit another cigarette, he felt with a terrible certainty that she +would cease to love him when she learned the secret that lodged in his +body. The secret that would, eventually, roar like thunder around Earth +and out to the stars where Earthmen rode their rockets.</p> + +<p>He turned and walked quickly down the street, and there was a sudden +coldness in the morning sun.</p> + +<hr class="tb"> + +<p>She was waiting at a table on the terrace of the Lake Front Cafe. +He walked up to her, almost shyly, and sat down. She smiled. A few +feet beyond the table, the waters of the lake shimmered and made soft +noises. A great rocket lifted across the skyline, trailing fire and +smoke into the blueness.</p> + +<p>They ordered coffee and Ridley gave her a cigarette. He was trying to +make many small motions, trying to take up time, because he was afraid +of what was coming.</p> + +<p>She took a sip of the coffee and looked at him. “I still love you, Frank.”</p> + +<p>He glanced away. That was like her—the strange sense of honesty and +naturalness that had impressed him at their first meeting. The feeling +that their love was inherently right.</p> + +<p>“I’ve been gone a long time,” he said.</p> + +<p>“Where?”</p> + +<p>“In the Rocket Hospital.”</p> + +<p>She set down the cup, surprised. “Here in New Chicago?”</p> + +<p>“Yes, all the time. I couldn’t call you.”</p> + +<p>“Were you sick? Frank, I don’t understand this. A whole year out of a +man’s life, and not a word....”</p> + +<p>He reached out and took hold of her hand, squeezing it, because he was +afraid that he would inevitably lose her, and he did not want that. He +wanted to keep her, and the sunlight and the bright morning.</p> + +<p>“I’m going to tell you what happened to me,” he said softly. “I have +Dr. Lord’s permission. It’ll be out soon enough. You mustn’t tell +anyone.”</p> + +<p>She frowned. “I won’t.”</p> + +<p>“Do you know who Dr. Lord is?”</p> + +<p>“The longevity man. Educated at the University of Marsport.”</p> + +<p>“That’s right. My father was one of his best friends. They saw the +asteroids together in their student days, working on an ore jumper. +I’ve known Dr. Lord for a long time. Last year, when I came in from the +Venus run and took my two months’ leave ... when I met you ... Dr. +Lord called me.</p> + +<p>“He needed help, with an experiment. An experiment, he felt, that +couldn’t fail. He knew I was a jetman, and strong, and he knew me +personally. He asked me if I would help him. I thought it would mean +so much to people that I ... I said I would help him. He said it would +have to be done secretly. That’s why I never called you, or wrote.”</p> + +<p>“You’ve been a subject for an experiment for a whole year?”</p> + +<p>“That’s right. The experiment was completed a week ago.”</p> + +<p>“Success?”</p> + +<p>He nodded slowly and fumbled for a cigarette. He knew what her next +question would be. He lit the cigarette and waited, watching the smoke +whip away toward the lake.</p> + +<p>“What kind of an experiment was it?”</p> + +<p>“I don’t know the details. They replaced my normal blood with some kind +of fluid Dr. Lord had developed.”</p> + +<p>She waited, her lips slightly parted, her face bearing a faint trace of +fear. The feather on top of her hat bobbed as she leaned forward.</p> + +<p>He swallowed hard.</p> + +<p>“Ginny ... with this fluid inside of me ... I’ll ... I’m going to +live to be three hundred years old.”</p> + +<p>She released his hand quickly, striking the coffee cup. It spilled and +the brown liquid dripped across the table and fell on the stone terrace +in a dark shining pool.</p> + +<p>“Are ... are they sure?”</p> + +<p>“Yes, as sure as they can be. That’s why I had to talk to you.”</p> + +<p>She got up and walked over to the railing, stood staring at the water. +Ridley followed and put his arm around her.</p> + +<p>“That’s it,” he murmured. “That’s why I had to talk to you. I’m going +to be a kind of immortal, and I want that. I want that because I think, +eventually, people can all be almost immortal, and can use the extra +years for good things.”</p> + +<p>“But I can’t love you, Frank. I can’t love you if I’m old and dying at +eighty or so and you’re still young. We can’t go on.”</p> + +<p>He put his hands on her shoulders, turned her around so that she faced +him.</p> + +<p>“Can’t we?” he said.</p> + +<p>She buried her head in his shoulder, crying. He saw people on the +terrace watching them and didn’t care.</p> + +<p>“We can talk,” he whispered. “I’ll have some time to myself now ... a +month or two. We can do a lot of talking and decide. I can’t lose you, +Ginny.”</p> + +<p>She lifted her face and he bent down and kissed her, feeling her mouth +warm and soft with the sun.</p> + +<p>“We’ll try, Frank,” she said a moment later. “Perhaps we can do something ... I +don’t know what. You’re cut off from me. You’re cut off +from the rest of the human race now.”</p> + +<p>He choked at her words. Cut off from the human race. Yes, he was.</p> + +<p>To help them, he had isolated himself from them. And from her.</p> + +<p>“I’d better go to work now,” she told him. “Call me tonight. You can +come over. We’ll talk, as you say. Perhaps in a month or two....”</p> + +<p>He said, “I hope so.”</p> + +<p>He paid the check and they walked out of the cafe, holding hands. He +took her to a copter station and stood watching the machine rise into +the sky, blades making a silver whirl.</p> + +<p>He had a cigarette in his hands, but his fingers tightened on it and +crushed it. He felt the tobacco slip through his fingers as he watched +the copter in the sky.</p> + +<p>In the window, he had seen her crying.</p> + +<hr class="tb"> + +<p>He went back to the hospital because he had no other place to go. There +was a message for him at the main desk. Dr. Lord wanted to see him.</p> + +<p>Ridley found the tall, gray-haired scientist in his office, gazing +out of the window and smoking a brown cigar. When Ridley came in, the +doctor turned, anxiety on his darkly tanned old face.</p> + +<p>“I got your message at the desk,” Ridley said awkwardly.</p> + +<p>“Yes, uh, Frank, sit down.”</p> + +<p>Lord seated himself in a large red leather swivel chair behind the +desk. He rolled the cigar in his fingers nervously.</p> + +<p>“Something important?” Ridley asked.</p> + +<p>“I’m afraid so. I hate to tell you this, Frank.”</p> + +<p>Ridley frowned. “What is it?”</p> + +<p>“You’ve been under a strain for a whole year,” Lord went on, “and I +promised you time to rest, but now....”</p> + +<p>“Doctor,” Ridley said quietly, “tell me.”</p> + +<p>“Well, Frank, you know that I told you about experiments similar to +mine that are being conducted on Mars.”</p> + +<p>Ridley remembered that. “University of Marsopolis, wasn’t it?”</p> + +<p>“Yes. Dr. Thag. A brilliant man, brilliant. But he’s run into trouble. +I received a beam message from him just about an hour ago. His plasma +replacement technique was faulty, somehow. His subject went insane and +had to be shot.”</p> + +<p>Ridley tightened a hand on the chair arm.</p> + +<p>“That sort of thing can’t be allowed to go on,” Lord told him +earnestly. “We scientists have the right to experiment, but not at the +risk of damaging human life. That’s why we’ve always had such a hell of +a hard time. I was almost ninety-nine per cent sure the technique was +correct when I started the experiment on you.”</p> + +<p>“Get to the point,” Ridley said irritably.</p> + +<p>“Frank, I’m taking the rocket to Marsopolis tonight. I want to help Dr. +Thag. I want to set up a demonstration replacement, perhaps lasting +only a few moments, just enough for him to check and find his mistake. +I need you for a subject.”</p> + +<p>“For God’s sake,” Ridley said suddenly, “haven’t I had enough? Twelve +months in this goddamned hospital and now....”</p> + +<p>“I know, I know,” Lord interrupted. “And I’m sorry. But it’s got to be +done, if we want to see man’s dream of long life come true. I thought +you were interested in that dream when I chose you. You said you were.”</p> + +<p>Ridley remembered his father, an educator at a great university, who +had told him of the cruelty in man, the greed, the grasping hunger. His +father had made him learn the great lesson: that man was in too much of +a hurry. That he needed more time, to develop his skill in living with +other men. That a normal span of years only gave occasional glimmerings +of the peace between men that could be achieved. With time could come +education ... education of the spirit. That was the dream.</p> + +<p>Ridley shook his head wearily. “I still want what you want.”</p> + +<p>“Then you’ll come? The rocket jets off at ten tonight, Waukegan Port.”</p> + +<p>Desperately, Ridley thought of Ginny and the months they were to have +spent. They, too, needed time, to work out the problem that lay +between them. For a long minute, Ridley thought about her.</p> + +<p>And then his brain became suddenly alert.</p> + +<p>Perhaps ... perhaps....</p> + +<p>“Dr. Lord, I want something in return, if I go with you. It’s selfish, +I know it’s selfish, but it’s something I need.”</p> + +<p>Lord put the cigar between his lips, drew in and blew out a cloud of +smoke. He rolled the cigar around in his fingers once more.</p> + +<p>“Go ahead.”</p> + +<p>With hope churning crazily in him, Ridley leaned forward and began to +speak....</p> + +<hr class="tb"> + +<p>Ridley was waiting for Ginny that afternoon when she came home from her +job at the Department of Fuel Statistics. He stood in the lobby of the +apartment building, smoking. When he saw her coming toward the door, +he crushed out his cigarette under his foot.</p> + +<p>She let the door close slowly when she saw him. In his face she could +see trouble and anxiety. Without a word, she went to the lift and +pressed the button.</p> + +<p>They rode up to the twelfth floor in silence. Not until they were in her +small apartment did she speak.</p> + +<p>“Something’s wrong, isn’t it, Frank?”</p> + +<p>The words stuck in his throat. He couldn’t tell her. All he could say +was, “Yes.”</p> + +<p>She walked to the window and pressed a button. The inlaid panels folded +away, exposing a great expanse of glassite. Twilight lay on the lake +beyond. Down Lake Drive, in either direction, lights began to come on +in the towers. They were warm yellow lights, but to Ridley they were +lonely and beyond reach. They were the lights of normal human homes. +Ginny smoked quietly, watching the lake, waiting for him to speak. When +he did say something, it was clumsy and halting, and he knew it the +moment it was out of his mouth.</p> + +<p>“Ginny ... I’m ... going.”</p> + +<p>She turned. “Where?”</p> + +<p>“To Mars.”</p> + +<p>“At least you’re telling me this time.”</p> + +<p>“Ginny, I’ve got to go....” He moved close to her, speaking rapidly, +feeling the drive inside of him. He explained the situation, and went +on, spilling out the dream that he had held for years ... of no more +war ... no more hatred ... and long golden days chat could be +filled with learning and real enjoyment of the beauty of the world they +lived in.</p> + +<p>“It’s all very nice,” she said harshly, “but it doesn’t help us. We +have no time to talk this thing out.”</p> + +<p>“Ginny, that’s bitter talk. You’ve waited a long time, and I’m sorry, +but now you’re bitter because there’s something else I have to do.”</p> + +<p>“One or the other, Frank. That’s the way it’s got to be. Somewhere, +everybody has to make a choice.”</p> + +<p>“We don’t have to.”</p> + +<p>She slipped her cigarette into a wall dispenser and it vanished with a +ghostly whisper of air.</p> + +<p>“What do you mean?”</p> + +<p>“I talked to Dr. Lord for a long time this afternoon, I argued with him ... told +him about you ... us ... and I finally persuaded him.”</p> + +<p>She did not ask another question, but waited.</p> + +<p>After a moment, Ridley took a deep breath and said, “Dr. Lord will give +you the new blood, if you want it. You can live to be as old as I am.”</p> + +<p>“Oh, Frank....”</p> + +<p>She held on to him tightly, and he grew cold when he heard her whisper, +“I can’t. I can’t, I can’t.”</p> + +<p>He said softly, “Why?”</p> + +<p>She broke away, pointing out the window at the tower and the lights +along the lake.</p> + +<p>“Look at the lights, Frank. Those belong to people who are in love +like we are. They have homes, and children, and normal lives. I want +that, Frank. I want to belong to the human race.” Her voice was full of +sorrow.</p> + +<p>“And my loving you ... that isn’t enough?”</p> + +<p>“I don’t know, Frank. I honestly don’t know.”</p> + +<p>“It’s late, Ginny.” His arms went around her again. “We’re late. Out of +all the people in this crazy mixed-up world, we have to be the ones +with only hours to decide. I guess I’ve got the dream to work for. I +guess you can’t have everything.”</p> + +<p>He pushed her away gently. “I’ve got to go. I’ve got to be at Waukegan +Port by ten.”</p> + +<p>Picking up his coat from the couch, he walked quietly to the door. +There, he turned and took one final look at her, wanting to remember +the way she was standing, looking at the yellow lights in the towers +that meant so much to her.</p> + +<p>All the way down in the lift, he felt a terrible sense of loneliness, +of emptiness, as if a chunk of his being had been somehow cut out of +him. Now all that remained was his long, long life. It would have to be +filled with work. He would have to lose himself in that work, trying +to help people. He would have to make time for more people to live. +Perhaps he could forget her.</p> + +<p>Out in the street, he headed for a mobile station. A rocket burned +across the sky, like a star falling away and becoming lost in the dark.</p> + +<p>Ridley hurried on. Rain began to spatter lightly on his face. It was +cold rain.</p> + +<p>A man and a woman hurried by him, laughing, holding hands. He hunted +for a cigarette, but could not get it lit. The man and woman were gone +down the street.</p> + +<p>And Frank Ridley knew that no matter how he worked, no matter how far +he traveled to the worlds lying far out in the rocket lanes, that the +years without her would be as cold and as dark as the rain through +which he walked....</p> + +<hr class="tb"> + +<p>Lord was not at the hospital. One of the nurses gave Ridley a suitcase +full of new clothes. He ate dinner in the dining-room with the doctors +and nurses. One young student-nurse stared at him as he was eating, +tremendous curiosity on her young face. Someone in the hospital must +have told her about him.</p> + +<p>He bent down over his food. That would be the way of it. Wherever he +went, stares. People looking at him, envying him.</p> + +<p>He sat up straight. His fork rattled against his plate. They might +begrudge him the extra years. For a long, long time, they might ... +hate him.</p> + +<p>After dinner he took a mobile out to the Waukegan Port. He chainsmoked, +and his throat was not used to it. He was coughing hoarsely by the time +he reached the field.</p> + +<p>The rocket lay in its launching rack. Passengers were already boarding. +The great expanse of concrete was lit by search-beams that shone +brightly behind the rain.</p> + +<p>For Ridley, it was goodbye to Earth for a while. Goodbye to the Earth +he had known only for one day. He would come to know it again, but it +would be remote and alien then.</p> + +<p>He walked through the gate in the wire fence after showing his +credentials. He walked straight across the field, the bag leaden in his +hand. The rain fell and ran down all over his face and soaked his hair +and his coat. He kept walking. He kept thinking about her.</p> + +<p>All at once he stopped, shook his head and straightened up. He +quickened his step and went briskly up the ramp into the great hull.</p> + +<p>He found his cabin, hung up the wet coat and deposited his bag. Then, +he proceeded to the lounge where he ordered a drink. Whisky tasted +good, warm and mellow, after being cut off from life for so long.</p> + +<p>Lord stood by the observation window, watching the bustle of activity +on the field. Huge crates of machinery were being loaded into a lower +hold. Ridley touched Lord’s arm lightly to let him know that he had +arrived.</p> + +<p>The doctor’s face was worried.</p> + +<p>“What did she say?” he asked.</p> + +<p>“No,” Frank replied evenly. He took a sip of the whisky. “She said no.”</p> + +<p>“Um. I beamed Dr. Thag. He’ll meet us at the port in Marsopolis. +I expect we’ll be there for a month or so. He wants to study the +technique thoroughly, talk to you and all that. There’ll be other +doctors there, from all over Mars....”</p> + +<p>“If you don’t mind,” Ridley said, “I wish you wouldn’t talk to me about +that tonight.”</p> + +<p>“Oh,” said Lord, “sorry.”</p> + +<p>The warning siren screamed through the ship. Ridley glanced at his +wrist chron. “Five minutes till jet off,” he said.</p> + +<p>He turned back, watching the field.</p> + +<p>A figure was running across the wet concrete toward the ship. Ridley +smiled at that. It would be ironical. Missing a trip to Mars by a +matter of minutes.</p> + +<p>Suddenly, he put the palm of one hand against the window, pressing, +straining to see.</p> + +<p>The figure came on, through the rain, hurrying ... hurrying....</p> + +<p>Ridley breathed, “Ginny....”</p> + +<p>He was waiting for her on the ramp. She was calling to him. The lights +and the rain made a crazy blur. Ridley felt his suit cling to his body. +She came up the ramp and slipped. He caught her and pulled her to him.</p> + +<p>“I’m going,” she said, “I’m going with you....”</p> + +<p>Frank Ridley, with the blood of near-immortality in him, was crying, +because the years ahead had looked so dark and lonely, and because no +one could tell he was crying as they stood together in the rain.</p> + +<p>Finally, the purser signaled for the ramp to be rolled up. They hurried +inside.</p> + +<p>“I had to come,” she told him. “I love you, Frank. It’s enough for us, +love. I thought about you being alone, and I knew I wanted to be with +you....”</p> + +<p>He kissed her.</p> + +<hr class="tb"> + +<p>After changing his suit, he joined her in the lounge. The lights had +been turned out, so that the passengers could observe the spectacle of +take-off. Ginny stood beside Dr. Lord, talking and smoking. The jets +made thunder.</p> + +<p>They were well beyond the atmosphere of Earth when Ridley put his arm +around her. She leaned close and kissed his cheek.</p> + +<p>“Dr. Lord and I have been talking,” she said. “He’s told me about the +experiments. If you can stay with me in the hospital....”</p> + +<p>Ridley nodded.</p> + +<p>They watched Earth falling away. The rain had been left far behind. +Every minute or so, Frank would turn and look at her. The cigarette +illuminated her face with a warm orange glow, and in her eyes he saw +love for many lifetimes.</p> + +<p>He held her tightly, and together they watched Earth grow smaller, no +longer cold, but now full of greenness and warmth and the dream they +would some day come to share.</p> + +<p>Dr. Lord smiled as he sat and watched the first two immortals....</p> + +<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> +<div class="chapter"></div><div class="transnote"> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="Transcribers_note"> + Transcriber’s note: + </h2> + +<blockquote> +<p>This etext was produced from Avon Science Fiction and Fantasy Reader, +April 1953 (Vol. 1, no. 2).</p> + +<p>Obvious errors have been silently corrected in this version, but +minor inconsistencies have been retained as printed.</p> +</blockquote> +</div> +<div style='text-align:center'>*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 78908 ***</div> +</body> +</html> diff --git a/78908-h/images/104.jpg b/78908-h/images/104.jpg Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..8789b5b --- /dev/null +++ b/78908-h/images/104.jpg diff --git a/78908-h/images/cover.jpg b/78908-h/images/cover.jpg Binary files differnew file mode 100644 index 0000000..256c826 --- /dev/null +++ b/78908-h/images/cover.jpg diff --git a/LICENSE.txt b/LICENSE.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6c72794 --- /dev/null +++ b/LICENSE.txt @@ -0,0 +1,11 @@ +This book, including all associated images, markup, improvements, +metadata, and any other content or labor, has been confirmed to be +in the PUBLIC DOMAIN IN THE UNITED STATES. + +Procedures for determining public domain status are described in +the "Copyright How-To" at https://www.gutenberg.org. + +No investigation has been made concerning possible copyrights in +jurisdictions other than the United States. 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