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I. + + + LONDON: + HENRY COLBURN AND RICHARD BENTLEY, + NEW BURLINGTON STREET. + 1832. + + + + +ADVERTISEMENT. + + +“What’s in a name?” is a question to which, perhaps, a bookseller +would be apt to reply--“More than meets the eye.” With some suspicion +of this kind, I have hesitated much what Title to prefix to the +following pages. + +I might, it is true, have been satisfied with the safe expedient of +any two or three mellifluous, though unmeaning syllables, in the +shape of a proper name; but I was anxious, if possible, rather to +explain the character than to record the family appellation of my +hero--if hero that person must be called whose failings and whose +errors occupy most of these pages. + +If I had been writing in French, “L’Homme Difficile” would most +nearly have defined the character I meant to pourtray; but there is +no synonymous phrase in English. “The Fastidious Man” did not quite +please me. I am myself fastidious as to the use of the term, “the +Man,” in a title explanatory of character. “Fastidiousness” is not +euphonious, still less “Fastidiosity,” which Johnson passes current. + +Under these difficulties I have left my hero to speak for himself, +without introduction; and taking what would, perhaps, at first have +been the more gallant course, I have attempted to draw the attention +of the reader to the diversity of female character arising, in great +part, from difference of situation, under the form, and with the +title, of “The Contrast.” + +One word more, kind Reader, in the shape of an humble petition for +that general indulgence which no one can feel more than myself how +much I require. + + + + +THE CONTRAST. + + + + + CHAPTER I. + + Will Fortune never come with both hands full, + But write her fair words still in foulest letters? + She either gives a stomach and no food + (Such are the poor in health), or else a feast + And takes away the stomach: such are the rich + That have abundance and enjoy it not. + SHAKSPEARE. + + ----Your servant and your friend; + One that attends your ladyship’s commands. + IBID. + + She was not old, nor young, nor at the years + Which certain people call a certain age, + Which yet the most uncertain age appears. + BYRON. + + +In that iron age when Frenchmen marched “en masse” from Madrid to +Moscow; when Continental travelling was effected by drawing not +_bills_, but _swords_; when _cannon_, not _credit_, gave to strangers +the comforts of home in foreign lands, then were the locomotive +propensities of the peaceable portion of our countrymen necessarily +confined within the narrow limits of our sea-girt island. Impatient +at being thus temporarily dammed up, the stream of society annually +flowed outwards from the metropolis down to the extremest low-water +mark of the different bathing-places. + +It was during this period, that a large party had assembled, at the +conclusion of the London season, at the hospitable mansion of Sir +North Saunders. Sir North’s father had been a great contractor in +those days when contracts were worth something; and, having realized +an immense sum in the course of the American war, he, in gratitude, +christened his son and heir after that minister, to whose persevering +profusion he owed all to which he would be heir. When the almost +unanimous voice of an indignant nation had closed the disastrous +struggle, Sir Simon Saunders (as the contractor and first baronet was +called) was, after a time, completely puzzled how to act. + +During the first rapid succession of short and inconsistent +administrations, he stuck by the Treasury, with a tenacity as to +place, and versatility as to persons, worthy of that renowned vicar, +whose peculiar talents in that line have become proverbial. Yet, as +upon the permanent ascendancy of the Pitt party of that day, he found +that retrenchment and reform were the watch-words at head-quarters, +he, in disgust, threw up the whole concern, laid out some of his +previously-acquired spoil in the purchase of Hornscliff Abbey, and +retired to that beautiful retreat, thinking that, at any rate, a +country gentleman contractor was not a greater contradiction in +terms, than a patriot minister. + +He was not, however, long condemned to pretend to enjoy a state +of existence so uncongenial to all his tastes and habits; and his +son and heir, Sir North, not only succeeded in full to all the +acquirements of his father’s later years, but also inherited, in all +its original freshness, that turn of mind which had in youth raised +Sir Simon from nobody. + +It was not therefore to be expected that he would long bury himself +in the solitudes of Hornscliff Abbey, more especially as, coming +of age soon after the breaking out of the revolutionary war, and +having a great deal of parliamentary interest, the same minister who +had disappointed the expectations of the father, now acting upon a +different system, granted upon many occasions the utmost demands of +the son. + +From this time for nearly twenty years, Sir North continued in +heart and soul nothing more nor less than a thorough-paced trading +politician; most anxious, nevertheless, to veil that character under +the reputation of a _bon vivant_, _bel esprit_, and _connoisseur_. To +these pretensions, since the last audit-day had given him a glimpse +of his beautiful property at Hornscliff, he had added an eager desire +to be thought an enthusiast in the picturesque. He had, in imitation +of some of his acquaintance, a service of china painted with views of +the romantic environs of his place: the beauties which the plates and +dishes thus displayed, were, during the season, the constant theme of +his conversation, coupled with pressing invitations to his various +acquaintance, that as his boasted property was upon the coast, they +would make Hornscliff Abbey their sojourning place during the ensuing +summer. + +This many of them seemed nothing loth to do, particularly as they +ascertained that the other _artiste_, whose labours, in their +opinion, no less profitably adorned the plates and dishes, was to +continue his successful attempts to eclipse the performance of the +painter. + +“What a beautiful place it must be!” said Lady Madelina Manfred to +her neighbour, young Lord Castleton, as she pensively dropped her +beautiful eyes on her plate, and continued in a sentimental tone, +“I hope that you are as passionately fond of the sea as I am. How +sublime its eternal sameness! How grand its boundless limits! Oh, I +could look on it for ever!” she added, as she completely covered the +German ocean with half a spoonful of bread sauce. “Shall we adjourn +there at the end of the season?” continued the lady, with a peculiar +emphasis on that comprehensive monosyllable _we_. + +It was, indeed, to establish such an identity of interest between +her and young Lord Castleton, as would give her a common property in +the use of the first person plural, that she had been labouring all +through the season. Lady Madelina Manfred was born a fool, but had +through life cultivated that species of cunning which fools so often +display in the pursuit of an object, if they have one. The object +which she had been--I will not say for how many years, successfully +pursuing, was admiration. To be sure, nature had assisted her with a +pair of eyes which looked as if they could not but mean something, +and a voice, whose seductive tones could give a charm even to folly. +Her husband was one of those good, easy men, who seem as if only born +to give their wives a name, inasmuch as their own is never by any +chance heard after they have once accomplished that purpose. Seasons +had rolled on; and if Lady Madelina Manfred’s eye had lost some of +its brilliancy, her complexion some of its bloom, and her form some +of its freshness, there were still many who were wilfully blind to +such changes. As Lord Castleton will, in the course of these pages, +have much to say for himself, it is unnecessary to say any more for +him at present, than that he was but just nineteen; and whatever +opinion might then be entertained of the _liaison_ lately formed +between him and Lady Madelina, it was no scandal, when gossips said +that there _was a time_ when she had held him in her arms. + +To the attractions of the invitation to Hornscliff Abbey, often urged +by Sir North, and so sweetly echoed by Lady Madelina, Lord Castleton +was not then in a frame of mind to be insensible, particularly as, in +addition to all other reasons for accepting it, his guardians were +very anxious that he should _not_; and he therefore longed to show +he was his own master, by putting himself completely at the disposal +of Sir North and Lady Madelina, who had both the most deliberate +designs, the one personal, the other political, upon his future +independence. + +To Hornscliff Abbey, therefore, he transported himself, as soon as +he found that the waiters at the clubs monopolized the newspapers, +and sauntering hackney-coachmen elbowed him as they lounged along the +foot-pavement. + +Lord Castleton was not by nature at all that sort of being which the +acquired habits of the last few months had made him appear, to all +who had never known him before. The parting jolt of his carriage +moving off the London pavement, seemed to shake from his nature much +of that affectation with which the season had encrusted it; and the +first breath of pure country air, as he cleared the last Cockney +villa, seemed to revive in their springy freshness, many of those +early feelings and tastes, which, however faded for a time, can at +nineteen hardly be irrecoverably seared and withered. + +As he approached his destination, his spirit seemed to expand with +the bolder features of the mountain-scenery by which he found himself +surrounded. Though within the immediate limits of Sir North’s domain, +the effect was almost ludicrous of the attempts which had evidently +been hastily and recently made to cripple and confine the bold and +gigantic shapes which nature here displayed, in the scanty and +servile livery of a dress place. The contrasts thus produced were +quite comical. Rugged rocks were encircled by invisible railings; +cast-iron bridges swung across the wildest glens; Chinese pagodas +rose out of mountain heather; gilt wire aviaries were dotted about +in solitudes, where eagles might have stooped, or black game brooded; +and Thames wherries were moored by silken cords along the banks of +the shallow, but rapid torrent, which rushed over a rocky bed down to +the sea. + +At the Abbey itself, these contradictions were more various and more +numerous, though perhaps not more striking. It requires nothing else +but an unlimited command of money to transport, in an incredibly +short space of time, all the contents of a London upholsterer’s +shop to the remotest and most uncivilized corner of the kingdom; +and due activity had been shown in attending to Sir North’s order, +that Hornscliff Abbey should, without delay, be furnished from +cellar to attic. The building itself, situated in one of those +snugly-sheltered, but romantic glens, where in former times the +monks had generally the good taste to fix, remained one of the best +preserved and most perfect specimens of the abbey-gothic style of +architecture: it was not to be expected that any furniture, thus +hastily huddled together, should be in perfect keeping with the walls +by which it was surrounded; less care was therefore taken that one +part should tally with the rest, and articles of every description +were crammed into all the rooms, with the same ill-assorted +propinquity in which they stood in the warehouses, whence they had +been removed wholesale. + +But neither French paper on cedar panels, nor fragile wherries on +mountain torrents, seemed so much misplaced, as did some of the +company whom Sir North had collected to witness his installation as +a country gentleman. Many men, whose utmost previous pedestrian feat +had been daily gliding from their offices along the smooth flags of +Parliament-street to make a House, and ladies, who thought it an +exertion to step from their carriage across a broad _trottoir_ on +a morning visit, were now expected to thread tangled brakes, and to +climb over rugged rocks, in search of the picturesque. + +Sir North was determined, however, to play what is called the whole +game; and the very day after the arrival of Lord Castleton, had been +fixed on for a distant excursion, to a romantic bay on the coast; the +beauties of which had been much vaunted by the Rev. Mr. Turner, the +picturesque-loving Rector of the adjoining parish; who, upon these +occasions, acted as guide, and wasted a great deal of intelligence, +taste, and enthusiasm, upon parties generally both indifferent +and ignorant; and took a considerable deal of useless trouble in +endeavouring to cultivate a mutual spirit of good-will between the +wild scenes he loved, and their present super-refined visitors, by +smoothing rugged inhospitalities on one side, and endeavouring to +cultivate a feeling of admiration on the other. + + + + + CHAPTER II. + + There is a cliff whose high and beetling head + Looks fearfully in the confined deep: + Bring me to it. + SHAKSPEARE. + + They were trained together in their childhood, + And there rooted between them such an + Affection as cannot choose but branch now. + IBID. + + +Lord Castleton, in accordance with the claim which we have seen Lady +Madelina had established to a common property with him in the use of +the monosyllable “we,” had passed the evening in hanging over the +sofa, on which she gracefully reclined, apart from the rest of the +world, within the recess of a roseate-draperied tent, into which a +ci-devant oriel window had been converted. + +On the next eventful morning the ladies were to perform the +first part of the expedition in open carriages, the gentlemen on +horseback; when the road no longer admitted of such civilized modes +of conveyance, the ladies were to be transferred to donkeys, and +the men to try their pedestrian powers. Lord Castleton had escorted +Lady Madelina to her carriage, and had started, with one hand on the +barouche door, and the other promoting, through the medium of his +horse’s mouth, that sort of curveting canter which made conversation +during progress easy; but before they were even out of sight of the +abbey his attention was diverted by the oft-repeated cry, just behind +him, in his host’s voice, of “Soho! soho! quiet there!” and looking +back he caught occasional glimpses even of the highest _guérite_ of +Hornscliff, in short of the whole of poor Sir North’s _country seat_, +between his _equestrian seat_ and his saddle. The fact was that Sir +North’s stable, like his house, had been furnished wholesale and +indiscriminately; but as a _sofa_ is easier to sit than a horse, and +as Sir North’s figure and habits were much more adapted to the one +than the other, the want of proper selection was here infinitely +more inconvenient. Lord Castleton, seeing the imminent danger in +which his host was, could do no other than offer to change with him. +This proposal Sir North received without the slightest scruple, +which, considering that at the time he thought he was consigning +his young friend to the merciless power of the most terrific animal +in creation, was a conduct which nothing but an extreme case of +self-preservation could justify. Though his new rider did not find +much difficulty in managing the unruly beast, yet as Lady Madelina’s +nerves no longer allowed Lord Castleton to ride by the side of the +carriage, he was left, up to the time of quitting these vehicles, +more unoccupied than he otherwise would have been, to admire the +increasing beauty of the surrounding scenery. + +A train of thoughts long neglected, and a tone of feeling of late +untouched, seemed to revive within him, under the impression of +outward objects, to which his eye had been now for some time a +stranger. The meditations into which he was thus insensibly led were +only occasionally interrupted by the bungling explanations attempted +by Sir North of the different objects they passed, as he mistook in +attempting to re-state the information he had received from the Rev. +Mr. Turner. These explanatory observations of Sir North became more +frequent, as his equanimity was by degrees revived by the confidence +he felt, after the change of steeds, in his restored safety: as he +himself technically expressed it, “His seat was now as secure as Old +Sarum.” + +“Pray observe,” said Sir North, “the secluded situation of these +Druidical remains, which have withstood the changes of centuries, +there to your right.” + +“The Druidical remains I showed you,” said Mr. Turner in an +under-tone, and as much in Sir North’s ear as the height of the +little white pony he was riding would enable him to reach, “are half +a mile farther to the left.” + +“Pardon me, my good Sir,” said Sir North, “what is that which I see +to the right?” + +“The remains of a windmill, pulled down by order of the magistrates, +for its neighbourhood to the high road,” replied the reverend +Cicerone. + +This little mistake of Sir North’s rather checked the torrent of his +information, till, after passing a beautiful variety of highland +and lowland, in crossing a succession of ridges, they at length +arrived at the entrance of the rocky glen, through which they were +to wind their way down to the sea. Here they were obliged to leave +carriages and horses, as there was no longer any better road than the +timber-track by which the produce of Sir North’s woods was annually +taken to be shipped. + +Lord Castleton, still in close attendance on Lady Madelina, after +smoothing many little difficulties, and soothing many affected alarms +in settling her upon her donkey, prepared to lead the animal down the +path, into the wild and romantic scene whose bold features at every +step became more striking. + +He looked up on one side at the fantastic forms of the venerable +trunks whose roots had for centuries been entwined in the rocky +crags from which they grew, but whose wide-spreading branches then +luxuriated in the green vigour of a summer foliage; and he looked +down on the other at the clear unruffled surface of the brook, which +ran murmuring below them. He scented the freshness of the hitherto +untrodden fern, as his feet passed over it, and he then cast his eyes +upon the fascinating but _fané_ beauty by his side, and felt that +there was something uncongenial in visiting such a scene under the +protection of such a guardian genius, one certainly better adapted +to the artificial state in which he had been lately living than to +the freshness and nature of the present. Her personal charms, too, no +longer in their first bloom, suited better the softened light of the +shaded boudoir than the searching glance of the evening sun, to which +they were now exposed, as upon approaching the sea the wood no longer +afforded the same shelter from its rays, and against the effect of +which the utmost skill in the management of the pink parasol could +not always guard its mistress, thwarted as her efforts were by the +constant windings of the steep path by which they descended, and the +rough motions of the humble donkey on which she was mounted; and even +those graceful limbs, whose slightest movement had had its charm +when stretched with studied ease upon the luxurious sofa, were now +necessarily cramped into angles on an awkward side-saddle. + +All these circumstances, though not embodied in the shape of distinct +doses towards effecting Lord Castleton’s cure, had not been without +their effect upon him. They had both been for some time silent, when, +just before the last angle in the glen was to open to them that +sea-view which was the object of their expedition, Lord Castleton +stopping to re-arrange some part of Lady Madelina’s dress, which the +uneasy motion of the donkey had discomposed, his ear caught for the +first time the soothing sound of the measured breaking of the waters +in their regular rise and fall against a sloping shore. + +The very idea of eternal sameness with which this sound never fails +to impress a romantic fancy when unexpectedly heard, has in itself a +tendency to recall the different circumstances, to revive the faded +feelings, and to connect the distant spots in which its unvaried +monotony has met the ear. + +It may already have been seen that Lord Castleton was by nature +sufficiently romantic, and therefore he was immediately involved in +a labyrinth of thick-coming recollections, which completely took off +his attention from the occupation which would lately not have been +without its interest, when all his pleasing reveries were dispelled +by that voice, whose tones he so much admired, jarring upon his ear +in _malapropos_ inquiry. “So, after all, Lady Waitfort could not get +asked to Lady Delacour’s ball?” + +The disgust that he felt at this ill-timed turn to his thoughts, he +was not obliged to express; for just then they came within sight +of the beautiful Bay to which they had been destined, and even Lady +Madelina could not help exclaiming, “What a sweet spot!” + +Now a sweet spot was not exactly the most appropriate expression for +admiration of such a scene; but Lord Castleton was too grateful to +her at the time for showing any feeling on the subject, to object to +the aptness of the terms in which she vented it. + +The “sweet spot” was a deeply indented bay, surrounded with +perpendicular cliffs of a great height, which towards the two +extremities of the inlet, cut the water in the shape of boldly +jutting crags. In the centre they were intersected by the deep glen +through which the party had descended; at the bottom of which the +mountain-stream found its way to the sea; and even down to the beach, +the sides of this glen were covered with fine trees and thriving +shrubs; a rare circumstance in our northern latitudes. + +There was in the solitude of the scene itself, and the grandeur of +the outlines by which it was enclosed, that which seemed to mark +it as a spot where, in one of her angry moods, Nature might choose +to threaten some of those more awful and sublime appearances which +she sometimes assumes; but at present, the gaiety of the season, +the mildness of the air, the splendour of the setting-sun, and the +calmness of the sea, the sameness of whose measured splash against +the shore was not broken by the slightest swell from without, +produced no more than a pleasing sensation of repose. There was no +human habitation visible from the sea-shore; but on one of the banks +which formed the sides of the glen, about half way from the summit to +the shore, just on the single spot where the slope was more gradual, +some smoke was seen curling from behind a grove of dwarf oaks; +and still higher, taking advantage of a southern exposure, there +appeared a garden, which ran upwards, till the cliff again becoming +too perpendicular, it only communicated with the top by means of some +steps cut in the rock, evidently with great attention to safety and +even convenience. Judging by the little that could be seen of the +environs of this dwelling, it might either be the residence of some +retired mariner, who chose to pass his latter days upon an acquired +competence, still within sight, though safe from the attacks of that +element which had been the scene of his earlier adventures; or it +might, on the other hand, be the dwelling of some opulent farmer, who +had sought the shelter of this southern slope, from that exposure to +which the upper land must there be subject. + +At first, the party imagined that they were the only living +creatures that at present tenanted the semicircular shores of the +bay; but upon passing the angle of a rock which projected almost +to the water’s edge, Lord Castleton and Lady Madelina discovered +two youthful figures leaning against the gunwale of a solitary +fishing-boat, which was moored close up to the cliff. The eldest of +these two seemed a stout, healthy-looking lad of about sixteen, with +a well-made figure and rather a handsome head, though, for the age +which his general appearance indicated, his person was strong set and +square, and his countenance marked and decided. His dress evidently +bespoke a nautical calling, though it was of that indefinite +description which might belong to any rank in the service of the +sea; his dark-blue jacket and trowsers were, however, quite new, and +apparently put on with some attention to effect; in his right hand +he held by the middle a fresh-cut oaken staff, of that description +which, among the lower orders, generally indicates an impending +pedestrian journey, and which seemed equally well calculated to +lend its assistance to the legs in their regular labours, and upon +any extraordinary occasion, to give additional powers to the hand +that held it. The top of this staff he leaned against his mouth, +his eyes were intently fixed on the regular rise and fall of the +waters before him, whilst the fingers of his left hand, which hung +by his side, nervously grasped something, of which, as they half +closed upon it, only the end of a blue ribbon appeared. By his side +stood one of those figures, which occasionally and unexpectedly +cross our path, to put us again in good humour with human nature, +and prevent our being entirely disgusted with the endless varieties +of ugliness of which the mortal machine is capable, by showing, on +the other hand, the perfection of which the same conformation is +sometimes susceptible in every rank and all situations. Here, a +form, which among the nobly-born would have been said to bear the +stamp of high birth--which, in the land of ancient tradition and +sculptured authority, would have been said to show the signs of pure +classical extraction, was found lowly born in an obscure corner of +a rugged clime. Even the delicacy, which gave an unlooked-for charm +to the appearance of one in that situation, was enhanced by her +extreme youth. She was two years younger than her companion; and, +though tall of her age, slight, and still childish in her form: the +natural cheerfulness of her innocent countenance was then clouded by +some present sorrow, which added to the interest she was calculated +to inspire. Her right arm leaned lightly on the shoulders of her +companion, and her eye, in which a tear still trembled, was fixed +upon the hand which held the ribbon. + +“What a perfect study for Gainsborough!” said Lord Castleton, as he +and Lady Madelina stopped to gaze on the youthful couple, of whom, +the angle of the rock had given them, unobserved, so near a view. + +“Gainsborough!” said Lady Madelina, “I thought he made people with +waspish waists and powdered hair; I am sure I never saw such a +figure as he has made of Aunt Theodosia, in the picture-gallery at +Lumberhead-hall.” + +“Alas, poor Gainsborough! the native offspring of his tasteful +imagination are no more like my aunt Theodosia, than that beautiful +girl is like----.” He did not finish the sentence, but the look +he gave might have said more than was either civil or welcome, +had not the horizontal sun at that moment fortunately caused the +interposition of the pink parasol. + + + + + CHAPTER III. + + One of those forms which flit by us when we + Are young, and fix our eyes on every face; + And oh the loveliness at times we see + In momentary gliding! + BYRON. + + ---- My love to Hermia + Melted as doth the snow; seems to me now + As the remembrance of an idle gaud + Which in my childhood I did dote upon. + SHAKSPEARE. + + +“I think this would be a good place to pick a bit,” gasped Sir North, +as he came up with Castleton and Lady Madelina, puffing in such a +manner, as showed that his fat sides felt the difference between the +smooth flags of Downing Street and the shingles of the sea beach. +“I advise no one,” he added, turning to the rest of the party, “to +spare the cold meat, for we have not the least chance of being back +for dinner. I told you last night, Lady Madelina, if we did not +breakfast before twelve, we could not do it; and Mr. Turner says, +that the lane where the carriages are to meet us, at the top of the +cliff, is fourteen miles from home. “Here, my lad,” said he, to the +seafaring youth, “run and call those servants with the baskets, and +your sister can get us some water from the brook.” + +“She is not my sister,” said the lad, without stirring a step. + +“Not his sister!” exclaimed Lady Madelina; “then upon my word, my +pretty girl, you begin in time; and, I declare, we interrupted a +flirtation.” + +“But I am his cousin,” eagerly added the girl, as if instinctively +claiming the relationship, as a justification of what she could +not have known. For flirtation, that sickly creation of crowded +idleness, was equally unknown in name and in nature, on the silent +and solitary shores of Morden Bay. + +The rest of the party having now come up, the servants also arrived +with the provisions, though the lad had disregarded Sir North’s +authoritative address to him to summon them. The guests, hardly +casting a glance around, certainly not wasting an inquiry about +the beautiful scene, where they found themselves, proceeded at +once to what appeared the real object of the expedition--the cold +collation which they had brought so many miles to eat in a peculiarly +uncomfortable manner. They might, perhaps, in the intervals of this +important occupation, have vented a few common-place expressions +of admiration; but, unfortunately for Mr. Turner’s feelings, who +endeavoured several times to lead the conversation that way, they +had met the post on the road, and as the newspapers of that day +contained the account of the long-expected demise of one of the +oldest supporters of the party to which they belonged, they found +ample food for conversation, not in lamenting his loss, but in +discussing the various pretensions of the probable claimants for his +Government, his Garter, his Regiment, and his Sinecure. At length, +after this had continued sometime, a “rising young man,” on the +ministerial side of the house, who had many years to look forward, +before he could hope to put in a claim for any thing of the sort they +were discussing, took advantage of a pause to make an abrupt turn in +the conversation, by saying, “Capital shooting, I should think, in +the covers up that glen, Sir North?” + +“Yes, Sir,” interposed the lad, who had been still leaning against +the boat behind the party, and until now, a silent spectator of +their proceedings; “the surest place in all the country side, to find +the first woodcock, and so uncle says, before my time.” + +“What do you know about woodcocks, my young friend?” said Sir North: +“do you know, I am afraid that you and your uncle are little better +than poachers?” + +“Uncle rents the Bankside farm, as did his father afore him; and when +our south intack is in stubble, when I am staying with uncle, we go +out coursing sometimes, and of a fine afternoon, he takes his gun +with him up the glen, to look for birds.” + +“Very wrong, very wrong, all this,” said Sir North. “Who is your +landlord?” + +“I never seen him, but the Baronet Saunders, Esquire, I think they +call him.” + +“Ay, ay, I was afraid so,” said Sir North. “This comes of neglecting +to give these poor creatures the blessing of a country gentleman’s +residence on his estate--totally disorganizes society,--turns the +farmers into poachers; this must not be so in future: no my friends, +I must do my duty in the country as well as in town. So, my lad, you +say, you never saw your uncle’s landlord, Sir North Saunders?” + +“No; but once I saw lawyer Drainem, when he came to collect +half-year’s rent, and I suppose that be much the same thing.” + +“Well, now you may tell your uncle that you have seen me, Sir North +Saunders; and tell him, that I mean to give my tenants the benefit of +my presence, to arrange all this upon the proper footing.” + +“And you, my pretty girl,” said Lord Castleton, approaching the +object which, during this conversation, had been engrossing most +of his attention, “do you accompany your cousin on his sporting +excursions?” + +“No, Sir,” said she. “I have seen much less of George since he has +taken to coursing, and now we are going to lose him entirely.” + +“How so?” + +“To-morrow he leaves us to serve his time in the seafaring line, +with another uncle, who is captain and part owner of a vessel in the +transport service.” + +“And you are afraid that he will forget Morden Bay, and his favourite +cousin, and would therefore like to follow him?” + +“If he forgets me, I should not so forget myself as to recollect +him,” said the little girl with a dignity which, from one of her +age and station, surprised Lord Castleton. She then continued, in a +more childish tone: “Nor would I leave my only home, my flowers, my +daisies, my daily occupations, and my shells, for to follow any one +friend.” + +“Then I am sure, if I were your friend George, I would not leave +Morden Bay and the pretty prize which for him it contains, for all +the rest of the world.” + +The language of flattery fell for the first time on the unpractised +ear to which it was addressed; for it never had been cousin George’s +way to say soft things. She knew not what the words meant, or indeed +that they meant any thing; but there is an instinct in every female +breast, which returns a responsive echo to tones, such as those +in which this otherwise common-place expression was uttered. One +moment she cast her eyes upwards on the face of him who unexpectedly +addressed her thus, then as suddenly withdrawing them, and striving +to hide the first conscious blush that had ever tinged her pure and +innocent countenance, she drew upwards the summer-bonnet, which had +slung across her shoulders, and pointing to the path by which most +of the party had already begun to ascend, she motioned Lord Castleton +to follow. + +As they ascended the cliff, he made common-place inquiries as to what +her family consisted of, and learned that she was the only child of +a father, whom she named in a tone of true affection, and a mother, +whom she mentioned respectfully, but apparently with some degree of +restraint; beyond them her _kin_ (and as she would have said her +_ken_,) was confined to her aunt, a single woman, who lived in a lone +house round the next point, and of whom she spoke warmly, and “Cousin +George,” of whom her present questioner did not ask much, and she +answered less. + +Whilst he still kept multiplying unnecessary inquiries, and giving +by his manner to the most trifling an air of interest, he purposely +lingered by the way, till his fair guide at length suggested that +they should either mend their pace, or lessen their distance, by +taking a short but steep cut, which in a direct line joined the +regular path again, after that, by an easy rise, had traversed two +long sides of an acute angle; “for,” said she, “if we do not mind, +Sir, the rest of your party will have passed our gate before we +reach it; and though mother is not much given to seeing company, I +am sure she would not like those ladies to go by her door, without +biding a bit to rest; and that poor lady looks as if she needed +it, and the lusty gentleman isn’t fit to help one so weak as her,” +pointing to Lady Madelina, who had been obliged to accept Sir North +as Lord Castleton’s substitute, in ascending the cliff,--an affair +for which he was peculiarly disqualified, the action of his _lungs_ +being so much greater than that of his _limbs_. He had stopped at +the corner, really to recover breath, but under pretence of venting +his admiration of the prospect, of which he was gasping forth an +encomium, in most wheezy interjections. Lady Madelina’s eye, whilst +affecting to follow the different directions in which his cane was +pointed, had dropped upon the figure of Lord Castleton ascending from +below, and she was puzzling how to get up an attitude of interesting +languor, whilst leaning on Sir North, who was unfortunately some +inches shorter than herself, and of a figure which did not lend +itself readily to group into the line of grace. + +“She seems dreadfully tired, that poor lady,” continued Lucy, (such +had Lord C. found his companion’s name to be,) “and no wonder she +should be; ’tis well enough for a young girl like me to run up and +down ten times a day, but ’tis rather a fashious step this, and I’ve +known mother be almost as bad as she is.” + +This casual comparison to her mother did not give to Lord +Castleton’s imagination a turn calculated to assist Lady Madelina’s +attempts to excite his admiration at her present would-be interesting +exhaustion; and seeing that two more angles of the path would again +bring him where the irksome duties of a “patito” would be exacted +from him, he was disposed to remonstrate against his companion’s +anxiety to hurry upwards and do the honours of her humble roof, when +a loud voice exclaimed-- + +“Sir North!--Castleton! Where are you? make haste, pray; only think, +it wants but fifty minutes to the half-hour bell.” + +This admonition came from a celebrated “diner-out,” who, except +once when he had passed a September on the “pavé” in London, never +remembered the day when his dinner had been in such danger. + +“And are you really going so soon?” said Lucy to Lord Castleton, +observing that the above warning had accelerated the motion of every +one of the various groups on the sides of the cliff, and even induced +Sir North to give something like one effective tug to the arm of Lady +Madelina. + +“You see it does not depend upon me,” said Lord Castleton, “I am +under orders, but shall certainly linger till the last.” + +“I should like much to know why you came at all,” said Lucy, with an +archness which surprised her hearer. “I thought it had been to see +the Bubbling Well, or the Black Glen, or the Dead-man’s Crag; but +merely to walk down that burn side, to climb up this cliff, and bring +all that fine food, when there was not even a table to eat it off! +’Tis seldom we have seen a stranger here, but when some came once +before, they were two gentlemen painters.” + +“Yes, yes, artists, I suppose,” said Lord Castleton; “and they were +the only strangers you have ever seen before?” + +“Yes; but they stayed some days, and lodged at father’s; and when +they went away, they left him in return the likeness of the bay, +not as it is now, but all in a storm, done all over on a bit of the +finest mahogany wood, and it’s now at aunt Alice’s, for mother said +she did not like such vanities, much more to have, summer and winter, +to look on the sea in that dreadful state; ’twas bad enough when it +really came so.” + +“Why any of us came, I can hardly tell, my pretty little friend; but +for myself, though I have not seen the Bubbling Well, or the Black +Glen, the walk up this cliff has been so pleasant, that I should be +glad to come again.” + +“But you have been a long time about it,” said Lucy: “I wish you +could see cousin George, how he climbs the side of yonder crag above +our heads! when I call him, he is at the top before you can count +fifty; I don’t think, for all you like the cliff so much, you could +do that, Sir.” + +There was something in this invidious comparison which did not please +Lord Castleton, though he ought to have been no more hurt at the +imputation of inferiority in such an accomplishment, than if he had +found six months afterwards, that he could not reef a main-topsail +as well as cousin George. He replied, however, “I believe I ought to +try that now, to have any chance of rejoining my party; but before I +go, though I have not stayed long enough to paint a picture like your +last visitors, may this,” said he, unslinging a small French watch, +which hung by a light gold chain round his neck, “may this serve to +remind you of these fleeting moments, and may it record for you many +hours, as happy as the few last minutes it has marked for me.” + +“I am sure aunt Alice would say I ought not to take this,” said Lucy, +hesitatingly; “yet, perhaps, if you would not object, cousin George +will want a watch now he is going to leave us, and it had better +serve to remind him of me, than me of you; for I am afraid it is not +like I should see a gentleman like you again, Sir.” + +“To you I give it,” said Lord Castleton, “’tis for you to dispose +of it as pleases you,” and throwing it round her neck, he rushed up +the cliff, with an activity, which she could not have denied would +have done credit to cousin George himself. Near the top he met that +individual descending from escorting the rest of the party; a mutual +“good evening!” varied only by “Sir!” on one side, and “my lad!” on +the other, and not in a very cordial tone on either, was all that +passed between them. + +Lord Castleton found his horse left in the care of a groom at the top +of the cliff, with a request that he would follow the rest of the +party as soon as possible, their return having been much hurried +by the imminent danger to which they foresaw the various _entrées_ +would be exposed by their flagrant unpunctuality, for they were +still fourteen hilly miles from Hornscliff Abbey. Lord Castleton, +in his present frame of mind, was not very anxious to rejoin the +party, and therefore, regulating his pace so as just to keep them +in sight at the opposite side of the various alternate ridges and +dales they had to pass, resigned himself to his reflections, which it +would be puzzling to present to the reader, in that connected form +which they never assumed. They began with a sigh to the charms of +unsophisticated nature, which nature immediately assumed the form, +and recalled the smile of Lucy Darnell. He then dwelt on the rare +union of beauty and of innocence, which brought up for a moment an +unpleasant recollection of how he first saw her, sitting on the boat +with cousin George; this he hastened to obliterate by imagining past +habits of childish familiarity, and then by fancying cousin George +tossing about for years to come in his transport-ship. + +He then thought of the soothing sensation of repose which he had +embodied from the beautiful scenery of Morden Bay, and he invested +the residence of farmer Darnell with the character of the last chosen +retreat of peaceful content in this troubled world. + +From that, as he caught a glimpse on the summit of the opposite +hill of Lady Madelina’s Sol-pleurants, fluttering in the evening +breeze, he recurred to his late ‘liaison’ with her; and his memory +immediately collected with astonishing fidelity, every incident which +had happened in its progress, which, at the time, rather _degouté’d_ +him, but which he had, till then, almost forgotten. As he urged on +his horse to join some of the party, who he saw had perceived him, +and were waiting in consequence, he concluded with the determination, +that the first spare day he would again ride over alone to Morden +Bay. But “a spare day” is not so easily found in the midst of such a +party, by one whose actions none imagined to be at his own disposal, +and who, as the passive half of Lady Madelina’s constantly repeated +_we_, was supposed, of course, included in every arrangement she +suggested. + +A country house is the most unfavourable opportunity for attempting +to break chains which habit has riveted. The party consequently +broke up, new prospects opened upon Lord Castleton, and new pursuits +were undertaken, without his having a second opportunity of visiting +Morden Bay. + + + + + CHAPTER IV. + + ----Are not these woods + More free from peril than the envious court? + SHAKSPEARE. + + At one kind word their arms extending + To clasp the neck of him who blest + His child, caressing and carest. + BYRON. + + +In the romantic charm with which the fancy of the enthusiastic, +though casual admirer of Morden Bay, had invested all it contained, +he had considered the retired residence of the Darnell family as the +chosen abode of content. He judged hastily; and yet he might have +inquired farther, and reasoned more deeply without being undeceived. +His opinion was founded on the tranquil beauty of the scene; and +here he ran into the common error of attributing the same effect from +surrounding objects on those to “the manner born,” as had just been +awakened in himself, by recent comparison and contrast. It operated +as a tonic on his feelings, just then palled with dissipation. ’Twas +“medicine to a mind diseased;” but only daily food to those who +had never known any other: innocent and salubrious no doubt, but +producing no excitement, and having no other effect on the moral +system than regularly excluding many temptations to vice. He would +have thought, however, his hypothesis farther confirmed, if he had +learned that those who dwelt there were in most comfortable worldly +circumstances, removed alike from the fears of want and the desire of +ostentation; that they had not even a neighbour to envy; that, human +cares and ailings excepted, they were healthy alike in mind and +body. And yet was it not the abode of content. + +That it was not so, arose entirely from one circumstance, which +would have been supposed incapable of having so much effect upon the +happiness of those around, by persons unaccustomed to observe by +what trivial causes the peace of families is sometimes disturbed. +Mrs. Darnell was a most worthy woman, correct in all her intentions, +exemplary in the discharge of all her duties, from the religious down +to the domestic; but she was a person of an unfortunately minute +mind, with a sort of clock-work regularity of sensations: with her, +each duty, of every degree, was, in its allotted succession, of +equal importance; and, undisturbed by any deviation into feeling, +she not only observed them herself, but, like the dial, pointed them +out to all about her. Any omission of the due decorum of any rule, +she treasured up, not till it had been obliterated by subsequent +punctuality, but till it was succeeded by some fresh deficiency; +by which means she contrived that she should never be without a +grievance: not that she was ever in consequence loud or angry; +this she would have thought wrong; but she put on a most provoking +appearance of patient endurance, which was exactly the sort of look +her husband could least bear, and which inducing, in consequence, +occasional violent ebullitions on his part, gave her the reputation +amongst those who knew little of both, of suffering meekly under his +violence, whilst the many more frequent occasions in which he had +yielded at length, for the sake of repurchasing a smiling face at his +domestic hearth, were unnoticed, because unknown. + +Dick Darnell, as he was familiarly called by those who had known +him in his younger days, though now turned forty, had in character +much of the simplicity of a child, with warm affections, a cheerful +temper, and a disposition all whose natural bias was good, though +never much disciplined in the school of self-denial. It was lucky, +perhaps, that he was born in a situation where temptations did not +too much abound; for there were moments in which he was supposed not +to have been particularly successful in resisting those that had +occasionally crossed his path. Now that he was no longer very young, +his appearance would be best described by the epithet hearty. His +person had been handsome, and if its bulk had now increased beyond +the proper proportion, it had rather become portly than unwieldy; and +the good-humoured and cheerful expression of his laughing eye, seemed +to inspire sympathy at first sight. + +He had become acquainted with his present wife at the county town, +during assize time. She was the daughter of a respectable tradesman, +who was known as one of that peculiarly strict class, who put forth +exclusive pretensions to monopolise righteousness; she had therefore +received a very serious and unexceptionable education. Richard +Darnell had done his best for many years to try to love her, and +would at that very hour have been very much surprised if anybody +had told him that he had not succeeded, for he always assured his +acquaintance at the market-town, to which he went once a week, “that +for sixteen years he had been married to his _Missus_, and he never +had had so much as one occasion to find fault with her.” He dropped +at these times all mention of those many occasions on which she had +found fault with him, which had led to those altercations mentioned +above. But there were few of his friends who had not remarked, that +of late years he never found the weather so bad as it used to be +when it frequently prevented his coming at all to market; but that, +on the contrary, he often found the distance in returning so much +longer than formerly, that when dark and wet, he could not possibly +reach home over night, but stayed till the next morning. His daughter +he loved better than all the rest of the world put together; and +when he returned from these excursions, and had not seen her for +four-and-twenty hours, he would like to sit in the chimney-corner, +with her slight form resting on his capacious knee, and picking out +those of his adventures by the way best suited to meet her ear, would +chat on for ever and ever, and ask no other reply than to see the +expression of his own laughing eye reflected in the softened likeness +of his daughter’s delicate features. + +But these were, in Mrs. Darnell’s idea, moments of time most +completely wasted, and she would generally interrupt them by +demanding,--“why Richard would not stir himself, and look after +his men, whom he had left a whole day without a master’s eye,” and +by informing Lucy, she thought “her hands might be more profitably +employed at her needle, than in hanging idly about her father’s neck.” + +Next to hanging about her father’s neck, her mother thought that the +most useless way in which Lucy’s hands were sometimes employed, was +holding a book. That is, to do her justice, she drew the distinction +between the use of a book as an amusement, or as a duty; as the +latter she not only very properly enjoined the lecture of the Psalms +and Lessons of the day, but enforced it so regularly, that one of +Lucy’s delinquencies, to which most frequent plaintive allusion +was made, was, that _once_ she had inadvertently read the Evening +Lesson in the morning, a fault which it was impossible to undo, but +by doubling it, and reading the Morning in the Evening. All reading +beyond this, whether history or fiction, she treated alike as vanity. + +The duty of letters she did not consider as that of a standing army +to be sent abroad on the sea of knowledge, to extend the empire of +the mind; but merely as a sort of local militia, to be called out at +stated times on this one home service. + +Such limitations as in this respect she put upon herself, she would +have exacted from Lucy, had not the latter been taught differently +in the course of the frequent visits she made to the aunt, mentioned +above. This aunt was an unmarried sister of Dick Darnell’s: some +years his junior, she had come to establish herself, within the +memory of Lucy, at a small but neat cottage round the next point, +which had originally been built as a house of occasional call in bad +weather, by a gentleman who had been sailing about in a yacht on that +coast. + +She was a lone woman, who had evidently had her sorrows, not yet +forgotten by herself, though never obtruding their chilling contagion +on the spirits of her young visitors, who always found her anxious to +participate in their cheerfulness, though even at their thoughtless +years they sometimes noticed the effort that it required to enable +her to assume an appearance contradicted by the care-worn character +of her beauty, which, striking as that beauty still was, did not give +the idea of a person so much younger than her brother as she really +was. + +It was curious to trace what is called a family likeness in two +persons so totally unlike. Her form was altogether of another mould, +and different habits had given the deportment of a different rank +in life. If the resemblance could be traced to any definite feature, +it lurked in the benevolent smile of the mouth, of which her’s was +the miniature copy of his, though that which gave to his its joyous +character, the sparkle of his laughing eye, if it ever had existed in +her’s, was now prematurely obscured. She lived entirely alone, with +the attendance only of one maid servant, and dependant for society, +(if she could be called dependant on that which she did not seem to +require) upon the frequent visits of her niece, the occasional calls +of her brother, or his nephew George, and those, luckily, more rare +occasions on which Mrs. Darnell found her way as far as her cottage, +mildly to murmur over her grievances. Though always cheerfully +receiving these separate visitors, the same disposition which, when +she first came into the neighbourhood, made her decline her brother +Richard’s hospitable offer, to lodge her under his roof, seemed +still to induce her to avoid the full family reunion at their own +house; and the only place where she met them altogether, (and this +she rarely missed,) was weekly in their common pew, at the Parish +Church, three miles off. It is impossible to conceive two persons +more different in the detail of their dispositions, than Mrs. Darnell +and this sister-in-law. The one with every thing to make a home happy +and comfortable, yet (one could almost as little tell how, as why,) +contriving to turn every thing into a grievance: the other, to whom +the world seemed to have done its worst, to have separated as an +isolated being from its interests, yet the chosen confidant even of +the changeful fancies of children, and occasionally sought as the +depositary of the complaints of her whom she so little resembled. + +The fact was, that Alice Darnell had unconsciously assumed over her +sister-in-law that influence which a strong mind can hardly fail of +exerting over a weak one. This prevented her mother from objecting, +as she otherwise might have done, to the loss of time occasioned by +the frequent visits of Lucy to her aunt. There might, perhaps, be +another reason for this. Alice Darnell, though still young, was in a +precarious state of health, which had indeed been given by Richard +as the reason for his sister’s wishing to retire there; and, as +curiosity was not one of the flaws of his wife’s character, she had +always believed this to be the only cause of that measure; but Miss +Darnell’s fortune, for her rank in life, seemed considerable, and +whom was she to leave it to? This was a consideration which often +crossed Mrs. Darnell’s mind, as she had been educated in a school +in which, in the midst of pious contempt for the vanities of this +world, a beneficial distinction was always taken between its empty +pleasures and its solid advantages. + +Alice Darnell had not what, in the enlarged sense, would have been +called a library, but she had some shelves well-stored with the +common editions of the English classics. Lucy generally found her +aunt occupied among these, but one thick octavo, she remarked, was a +constant favourite. It was a compendious volume, for it contained all +Shakspeare. In answer to her niece’s question, “Why she read it so +often?” she said, “This is the world in which alone I wish to live. +As long as this little book is left me, I am less alone, more in the +midst of human nature, than in the most crowded city.” + +For once she spoke more according to her own feelings than to the +capacity of her she was addressing: she perceived her mistake. The +little girl could not understand her, but her curiosity was roused; +she anxiously listened to her aunt, who commenced reading to her +selected passages, in a manner which added all the charm of voice and +delivery to what was in itself so well calculated to interest; and +from that time forward one of the most eagerly anticipated pleasures +of her visits to her aunt was to cry with “Constance,” or to tremble +at “Lady Macbeth;” she never saw a storm without thinking of poor +“King Lear;” cultivated her _red roses_, out of sympathy for the +“House of Lancaster,” and neglected the _white ones_, out of mere +spite to “Richard III.” + + + + + CHAPTER V. + + Adieu! I have too grieved a heart + To take a tedious leave. + SHAKSPEARE. + + What other can she seek to see + Than thee, companion of her bosom, + The partner of her infancy? + BYRON. + + +Lucy Darnell was found by her cousin George, when he returned from +escorting the strangers to the top of the cliff, still leaning over +the little gate which led through the garden to the house, and still +curiously examining what she thought the extraordinarily small watch +the gentleman had given her: as soon as she perceived him she cried +out, “What do you think, cousin George?” + +“What do I think?” said he a little out of humour, he hardly knew +why; “what do I think? why, that you made that gentleman loiter so in +coming up the cliff that he has missed his party.” + +“Why, I did not make him loiter; he would not walk any faster; he did +not seem used to it, though I told him how quick you could climb to +the top.” + +“I am sure he was going fast enough when I met him,” said George +doggedly. + +“Well, it is very odd; to be sure he did jump along limber enough as +soon as he left me, but I could not make him try before. But what do +you think I have got for you?” added she, showing the watch. + +“And how did you come by that thing?” demanded George. + +“That gentleman gave it me; but I only took it for you, George,” +observing that he looked displeased. + +“Thank you all the same, Lucy, but let it bide where it was meant it +should. He would never have given it to the like of me; there was +over many reasons why he might have done so to you.” + +“I thought,” said Lucy, “it would serve to remember you of me +whenever you looked at it.” + +“But I had rather not remember you and him both together, as that +thing would always be making me do.” + +“I don’t know what’s come over you, George,” said Lucy puzzled, “but +it’s hard, when I hoped but to please you, you should speak so cross, +and this your last night too.” + +“I did not mean to be cross,” answered George in an altered tone; +“but I can’t take that watch for another reason, for see, I’ve +already got one just like it,” fumbling in his fob, and tugging +out with some difficulty, at the end of a long stout steel chain, +which appeared as if it might have served for fetters, an immense +pinchbeck turnip-like time-piece, the recent gift of his uncle. As +this capacious and ponderous concern was displayed by the side of the +diminutive _Brequet_, Lucy, though unaware of the relative value of +their different dimensions, could not help smiling at the comparison, +and, with restored cheerfulness, said, “Just like it, George! yes, +just as like it as you are to the stranger gentleman.” + +They were here interrupted by her mother’s voice calling Lucy from +the house. + +The various additional avocations which the approaching departure +of her nephew, in Mrs. Darnell’s opinion, entailed on her daughter +during this evening, prevented the cousins again speaking together +that night. But Lucy was aware that her cousin would before breakfast +in the morning go over to take leave of his aunt; she had therefore +risen earlier than usual, and carefully executed, as she thought, +all the morning duties which maternal authority could exact before +any one was stirring, when George, having just come down as she was +preparing to cross the flower-garden with him, her mother’s window +opened, and in a precise tone, which indicated a succession of +questions, she asked,-- + +“Lucy, my dear, have you skimmed the milk?” + +“Yes.” + +“Have you looked to the bread?” + +“Yes, mother.” + +“Have you fed the poultry?” + +“Yes, mother.” + +“That’s right; then you’ll have time to hem your father’s new shirts +before breakfast, so I’ll bring them down.” + +This was known by both who heard it, however mildly expressed, to +be a command from which there was no appeal; so George only said, +“Before I come back, Lucy, they’ll all be down at breakfast, so I +only wanted to say that last night you called me cross, and as I lay +awake in bed afterwards, I thought of many more times I had been so, +though you had not told me so; and what I wished to say is this: you +know I’ve been to sea once before now, though only to try it, but +enough to know it’s another sort of thing to think over the like +of these in one’s warm bed here, when one has only but to come and +say, Lucy, I ask your pardon, and see your sweet smile in return, +than to have it come across one’s mind when one’s far away, walking +the deck on a dark night, thinking of one’s distant home, that lies +just in the wind’s eye, and a hurricane blowing one the Lord knows +where another way, perhaps never to return. Nay, I did not mean to +distress you, Lucy; only just say that if I’ve ever been kind to you +you’ll think only of that, and not of t’other sort of conduct, whilst +I am gone and away--” + +“I never do--never can--never will, think of you but as my kind good +cousin George,” hastily answered Lucy, hearing her mother’s measured +tread descending the stairs, shirts in hand. + +After George’s return, and the somewhat silent breakfast had been +nearly despatched, Mrs. Darnell started up from the top of the table +where she had been sitting, and enquired “And what will Jackie +Pattison be doing there? sure, if he isn’t driving up the old mare +and the pony from the low pasture.” + +“And where’s Jackie Pattison? I don’t see him,” said the farmer, +anxious to get a little time to prepare his defence for the attack +which he foresaw. + +“And will it be your bidding then, Richard, that he is doing?” who +now guessed it all. + +“I told him my mare and the pony would both be wanted; so if they +were in the low pasture, it’s like he’s been to fetch them,” answered +Richard, with a determination for once to face it boldly out; “I mean +to see the lad as far as Mayton, where he takes coach; it would have +been over far for him to have walked, and the pony will follow me +back again like a dog.” + +“But he meant to walk. He said so when I told him not to cut yon +stick out of the oak-copse; and you to go away, Richard, and leave me +lonely, to fret at George’s going, and to spend your silver idly by +the way; and then to take away the mare that’s wanted in the draught, +now we’re so throng in the hay-time; it’s just of a piece with a’ the +rest. + +“It’s just of a piece with a’ the rest,” was, as her husband had +learned to his cost, a comprehensive allusion to all her former +grievances, some of which were to be ready to reinforce the present +attack, provided it was not in itself effective; but in this instance +he knew that all these names were rather put forward as heads of +chapters for future complaints on his return, than expected to +prevent his departure. He therefore thought it would be useless to +subject himself to have them twice repeated by answering them now; so +drawing his wife aside, he suggested, “that he only went in order to +keep the lad out of harm’s way at Mayton, till he saw him into the +coach which was to take him to the port where his other uncle’s ship +lay.” + +“Well, if you must go, mind you do that,” said Mrs. Darnell, “and do +for once speak serious to the lad, and counsel him how he falls into +evil courses.” + +The parting between George and Lucy, though public, was affectionate, +as indeed their near relationship in itself authorised. + +Farmer Darnell, hardly believing as yet, that he could have got off +so easily, started at first at the steady pounding jog-trot of his +cart-mare; a pace which required unequal alternations of shambling, +walk, and canter, on the part of George’s pony, to keep up with. +At length the uncle thinking it was time to attempt to execute his +wife’s injunctions of a lecture to his nephew, pulled his mare up to +the pace she was used to go in draught, and began-- + +“It’s a bad world this you’re going into, George.” + +“Is it indeed, uncle?” quaintly inquired George. + +This abrupt questioning of what, without feeling its truth himself, +he had always considered an incontrovertible position, rather +disturbed the course of the uncle’s intended lecture, as he replied, +“Why, to be sure, it must be. Doesn’t the parson tell us so every +seventh day; and doesn’t my Missus, who is as good every bit as he +is, and therefore ought to ken as well, repeat it to us all the other +six? For my part, to be sure, I can’t say I find much fault with it. +’Tisn’t all made up of Sundays--that’s certain--but that one couldn’t +expect; and if there were but _two_ market-days in a week, I’d be +content with one Sunday in each.” + +“And yet aunt says if you went to market once a fortnight only, +’twould be better.” + +“Your aunt is----the best woman in the world,” continued the uncle +after a dubious pause; “how she’ll stay at home herself to save me +money! But between ourselves,” added he, lowering his tone, and +approaching his mare to the pony, “she’s a little apt to take it out +in fashing one. As you’re going to leave us, I may say to you, but +mind you don’t repeat it, that when she does get hold of a bone of +contention, she’ll never leave hold no more than my bull-bitch Bess +would. She certainly is,” he added, casting a look instinctively +behind him, though two ridges had interposed between his dwelling and +the part of the road where they then were,--“she certainly is enough +sometimes to worry one out of soul and body, and there’s truths out. +But what I wanted to tell you, George, is,--have a care of the women; +if they been’t over good, they’re over bad, and they’re a main deal +of dead weight for a man to carry either way.” + +“I don’t think cousin Lucy would ever be a dead weight to any one,” +said George. + +“She! bless her lightsome heart! no!” cried her father in a burst of +parental affection; “she’d be but a feather weight in the longest +course, and yet as good as gold too. But I didn’t think of her, and +was talking of you, and the nonsense of sweethearting a lad like you +might fall into when you may be ganging with some painted Jesabels, +who would pick your pocket first, and box your ears afterwards: have +nothing to say to the likes of them, George; show ’em your stern at +once; no one is safe from their arts: remember King Solomon,--not +that I mean that all women are alike, or that a man shouldn’t say +thank you, because she’s a woman, to a buxom kind-hearted person, +like our landlady, Widow Westbury, when she tries to make him welcome +all in a friendly way.” + +As George had never before accompanied his uncle to Mayton, and had +always come the other road himself, he had never heard of the Widow +Westbury, and was puzzled to connect his uncle’s two cases of the +hostess and Solomon. But the honest farmer continued what he thought +his useful instructions. + +“Another thing,--beware of drink, boy; it’s a filthy trick, and the +drunkard, after all, has but a sad time of it, for the reproaches of +wine, on the morrow, are worse than--than--my wife’s: not but that +it’s a hard thing to help taking another glass or two sometimes, when +one meets an old friend, and one feels to like him better and better +every sup, and each draught makes one’s stories tell the merrier, and +one’s laugh come the heartier.” + +In this alternation of strict advice to be correct in conduct, and +over-ready excuses for being otherwise, in which, unintentionally, +the honest farmer followed the example of many _soi-disant_ moral +works, wherein a good word is given to virtue, whilst sympathy is +excited for error, they arrived at Mayton. It was a neat little +country-town; its broad, open, well-paved market-place, with +ancient cross in the middle, was surrounded by many tidy-looking +dwellings of various dimensions, beyond which the town extended in +the shape of streets, but a little way down the different roads +which here united. From the circumstance of the market-place being +evidently the centre of attraction, it appeared that Mayton derived +its principal consequence from being the mart of the surrounding +country; which might also be inferred from the number of second-rate +houses of public entertainment with which it abounded. Passing by +one of these, which boasted on its board the exclusive dignity +of “neat post-chaises,” Farmer Darnell made straight up to the +smartest of the others, before whose door swung the head of a most +formidable-looking female, with a little crown stuck on the top +of her head, and underneath was written, in gold letters, “Ann +Westbury;” an apparent appropriation of the portrait by the hostess, +which gave her the name of “Queen Anne” among many of her customers; +a dignity with which, coupled with the resemblance implied, she was +by no means flattered. + + + + + CHAPTER VI. + + I’ll ne’er be drunk again but in honest and godly company, + for this trick. + SHAKSPEARE. + + +There was not the usual market-day bustle outside the Queen’s Head, +and Farmer Darnell dismounting, followed his old mare, who well knew +her way to her usual stable in the backyard through the passage, +which was so narrow as to limit its accommodation to equestrians. + +“Call the hostler, lad,” said the farmer from the stable to George, +who had followed him into the yard; an injunction which George +vociferously complied with, thinking that now the sooner he and his +pony were separated the better for the indulgence of their mutual +appetites. + +“Eh, Sally, and who will that be calling about him?--run and see,” +said a voice from the back of one of the outhouses, at the window +of which the person who had thus spoken immediately appeared, and +seeing George, continued, “And is it only you, my lad, making all +that clatter? who taught you to call about you like a lord? They say +patience saves many a pennyworth of lungs--what may you want, pray?” + +“Uncle and I want our horses fed.” + +“And who is your uncle?” inquired the landlady. + +When, Richard Darnell presenting himself at the door of the stable, +his appearance answered the question. + +“And is it indeed you, Mr. Darnell--and this not market-day?--and +of all days in the week that you should just look in upon me at +washing-up, and I a shame to be seen,” she added, half raising +her soap-suddy hands to pull her cap over her _papillotes_, till +recollecting that such a contact would not be advantageous. + +However, no one of her time of life could better bear to be seen at +disadvantage than the Widow Westbury, for upon the whole surface +of the fair fresh skin which the _papillotes_ left unshaded, forty +winters had failed to leave a furrow, and during as many summers her +indoor avocations had saved her even from a freckle; whilst an active +disposition had prevented her full form swelling into corpulency. +On this occasion, the sleeves tucked-up almost to her shoulders, +displayed a well-rounded arm, and tidy habits had prevented the rest +of her dress from being discomposed, or even her apron splashed. “And +if that idle fellow Joe Hostler won’t be gone to the ’leatherplating +sporting on the Wold! but you know where the corn is kept, Richard, +and here is the key of the bin,” (throwing it to him,) “and I’ll go +and see after your dinner and the lad’s.” + +Now, though this was a part of the establishment upon which she much +prided herself, yet, upon this occasion, with a special injunction +to be careful, she consigned it exclusively to Sally, preferring to +spend the next few minutes herself rather before the looking-glass +than the kitchen-fire; and when George, having fed his pony, was +seeking his room up-stairs, he found her coming out of hers, with +the cap changed, and the _papillotes_ removed. By the excessive +care she immediately took of all his comforts, she soon removed the +unfavourable impression at first made on his mind by the rebuke he +had received from her for his stentorian bellowing after the hostler. + +During the savoury and substantial meal, George could not help +remarking, how all his uncle’s tastes were consulted, with a delicate +attention, which combined the zealous activity of the hostess +with the acquired tact of companionship; and as he observed the +exhilarating effect it had upon his spirits, and as he contrasted it +with the state of subjection he suffered under at home, he no longer +wondered at the fervent wish he had expressed, “that there were two +market-days in every week.” + +Soon after dinner, which their long ride had made rather late, the +snug trio was swelled by the dropping in of two of the natives of +Mayton, upon whose hands, in consequence of their fellow townsmen +being more _healthy_ than _wealthy_, time occasionally hung a little +heavy. These were an extra apothecary, and a supernumerary attorney, +articles in which the market of Mayton had been overstocked. + +They were both of them jovial companions over a bottle; an +accomplishment which they had the more opportunities of cultivating, +as, before their arrival, the supply of both physic and parchment +had in Mayton been fully equal to the demand; and whilst there +was another doctor or druggist in the neighbourhood, everybody +was convinced that the apothecary had neither skill enough to +write prescriptions, nor shop enough to make them up; and unless +there should be some _third_ party to lawsuit beside plaintiff +and defendant, no one would leave either of the two established +practitioners for the new attorney. + +The consequence of all this was, that they had frequently met Farmer +Darnell at the Widow Westbury’s; one of which occasions had produced +almost the only case in which either had been employed; having, as +they walked home together late at night, literally _thrown_ into +their hands a common joint job, in the shape of a sleepy “outsider,” +who, swinging round the corner on the top of the very night-coach +by which George was going, was chucked off at the moment they were +passing by. The doctor bled the passenger, and the lawyer bled the +coachmaster, in the shape of an action for damages, and the jury +being more inflammable than the patient, they both succeeded beyond +what their professional merits fairly earned. Having soon heard, (as +what is not soon heard in a country town?) that Farmer Darnell was +stopping at the Queen’s Head with his nephew, who was to go that +night by the one o’clock coach, they stepped in to learn the why, +and the where; and upon hearing that he was about to commence his +career afloat, insisted upon drinking his future success in life in +a bottle of port, or a bowl of punch. This, at first, the farmer +declined, probably from not liking to exceed before his nephew, and +mistrusting himself enough to know that the first was the most +favourable moment for resistance, and that abstinence was easier +than temperance. The hostess, though professionally interested in +the affirmative of the proposal, seemed to regret, that by the +interruption of her chat with her friendly guest, and her own +necessary withdrawal from the drinking bout, she should pay in person +what she received in purse. + +The question, when a decided negative was no longer possible, having +been put to Dick Darnell, in the amended form, “whether it should be +_port_ or _punch_?” with the zeal of a convert he voted for _both_. + +George Darnell, in whose exclusive honour they were undertaken, +seemed not to participate in the pleasure the others took in these +mingled potations. In fact, there were many things he regretted +in the home he was leaving behind him, and it did not please him +that the image of “cousin Lucy,” on which his fancy liked to dwell, +should be whisked away in the rotatory evolutions of the apothecary’s +red nose, and the attorney’s bushy brow, which both seemed soon to +dance round him, as the mixture of _old wine_ and _new rum_ took a +speedy effect upon his unseasoned head. The last thing he recollected +distinctly was his kind hostess smoothing his pillow, and assuring +him that he should not be too late for the coach. + +When he awoke from his heavy slumber, it might have been _five +hours_, or only _five minutes_ afterwards, all was perfectly stilled +around, and instead of his uncle’s mellow voice singing a hunting +song, and his two companions croaking in untuneful chorus, nothing +met his ear but the loud ticking of the kitchen clock. + +He had an indistinct recollection of old Sally having been sent on +some such celestial embassy as “up to the Angel to let him know +when the Star stopped.” He still dreaded being too late, and the +ship sailing without him, when he found that, in spite of the wine, +he had, as is often the case, waked instinctively just at the proper +time, for the piercing notes of the guard’s horn were first heard +in the distance, and then, as it reached the pavement, the rattling +clatter of the coach echoing through the empty streets. + +George hurried on his clothes, thinking, as he was left undisturbed +to do so, it was lucky that he did not trust to his hostess’s promise +to call him. He hastily huddled on his things, and making his way +down-stairs, by the first glimmer of dawn he perceived that the +door of the hostess’s room, through which he had seen her come the +day before, was open; he concluded that she had just then stepped +into his uncle’s to call him in time to take leave of him; as was +probably the case, for they very soon descended together, the hostess +ostensibly to let them out, and Darnell to escort his nephew to the +coach. George took a short farewell of the kind hostess, who, being +only hastily half dressed, ensconced herself behind the door she held +open. + +The uncle’s faculties seemed still a little offuscated with the +effects of the last night’s debauch, as, after walking most of the +way to the Angel in silence, he said, “You’ll not forget, George, to +tell your aunt all the good advice I gave you yesterday.” + +“You forget, Sir, that I am not going home, and that it will be long +before I see my aunt or any of you again.” + +“True, true; and perhaps, when you do, it may be as well to have +clean forgotten all about this last night. Good bye, George; afore +you see your old uncle Richard again, you will have seen many more +men who preach better than they practise.” + +Helping George up with one arm, and shaking his hand heartily with +the other, he did not relinquish his friendly gripe till the horses +began tugging hardly more powerfully the other. George soon lost +sight of his uncle’s portly figure in the indistinctness of the misty +dawn, and it was long before he again caught a glimpse of any of the +previously familiar forms of his early youth. + + + + + CHAPTER VII. + + The villain! I believe a man to cozen somebody. + SHAKSPEARE. + + ----Give me any clothes; + I will some other be--some Florentine, + Some Neapolitan, or some mean man of Pisa. + IBID. + + +It was a little more than four years after the events of the last +chapter, that one evening the apothecary, mentioned above, was +sauntering listlessly along the smooth flags of the market-place at +Mayton. He had been lately more than ever puzzled how to pass his +time, for he had lost his former boon companion, the attorney. The +fact was, that, in one of their jovial bouts, in despair at the +world’s continued blindness to their respective merits, they had, +in an affectionate fit of inebriety, mutually sworn professionally +to employ each other. This was a bargain, of which the advantage +was clearly on the side of the doctor. He was not a rich man, and +therefore was no food for the lawyer, who, after he had drawn his +will, and had recorded in the most technical manner his medical +friend’s bequest of a few empty phials to himself, had done his +worst. But the attorney was not a healthy man, and, therefore, he +afforded at least practice for his friend. At last the lawyer took to +his bed, where his physical Pylades still followed him: and, whether +in consequence of the effects of the many draughts of which they +had previously partaken together, or of the last which the doctor +only prescribed,--the attorney died, and his medical friend was +left alone to wander up and down the streets of Mayton, and watch +the regular arrival and departure of the public conveyances, in the +vain hope of some such other lucky accident as once happened in the +lifetime of his companion. + +On this evening, as he strolled by the “Queen’s Head,” he was +surprised to see a hack chaise, without horses, drawn up before the +door. Now, as it has been stated above, that the “Queen’s Head” was +not an inn of rank enough to reciprocate such modes of conveyance, it +was an unusual act of condescension for a vehicle of that kind to be +upon visiting terms with it. + +This was, therefore, quite event enough to make the apothecary +inquisitive, and, as he strutted back again by the windows of the +little ground-floor parlour, where it was recorded in the last +chapter he had met Farmer Darnell, he peeped through an hiatus in the +blind, which he well knew of, and saw a young man sitting by himself +at the table, writing, with his back rather turned towards him. + +“That’s the person it brought, and it’s not a wedding after all,” +thought he, obliged to give up the idea of the merry-making which +his first speculations had included. He, however, strolled into the +kitchen to inquire, and there finding the hostess said, + +“So you’ve got some post-chaise company to-day, Mrs. Westbury: I +thought at first it had been a wedding? Perhaps it’s a husband for +yourself at last, widow. I often wonder whom you’ve been waiting so +long for.” + +“For your first patient, doctor; only then I’m afraid you’d soon make +me a widow again.” + +“Quite the contrary, perhaps, widow. I might promote population, ‘_in +utrumque paratus_.’” + +The pedantic conclusion of this rejoinder on the part of the doctor, +who had been originally a man of grammar-school education, prevented +its being understood, or in consequence resented by the widow. + +“And the person who came in the chaise is--?” + +“A very civil-spoken sort of a decent young man,” interrupted +the widow. “I should at first almost have taken him for a great +gentleman, by the whiteness of his hands and the fineness of his +linen, for all his clothes were not over new or smart, and I might +have bustled about and made a to-do for him; but he told me at once, +without making believe to be what he was not, to take care of a large +book tied round with strings, full of drawings and paintings, for +that he lived by the sale of them, and he wanted to take some more +likenesses of the coast not far off from here.” + +“And Jack brought him from the Cock at Moreby?--How d’ye do, Jack?” +turning to a post-boy whom Sally had just been supplying with a +beefsteak and a mug of ale. “What, I suppose with little blood +chesnut mare and bay gelding, I saw at the Angel, when you and Joe +Simmons brought Sir North in an hour and a quarter from Moreby. But +how come you at this house; the widow’s beefsteaks good, eh?” + +“Why he said himsen, that he wouldn’t gang tift first inn, and when +he’d be gettin here he’d dun wi’ posting; and so I told un, if he’d +loike to bide a bit, the widow would keep in well, thof she couldn’t +forward un.” + +“And he came in the same way to your house in which he left it?” + +“He come’d in’t same way, but soa did another wid un, a much smarter +nor he, and yet the tother put all this’uns things in’t chaise for +him, and stood at door looking after him, till I driv off.” + +“He’s been asking me about Morden Bay,” interrupted the widow, “and +I’m sure I didn’t know much about it myself; but I told him to-morrow +was market-day, and Richard Darnell would be sure to be here, and +he’d hear all about it from him; and he said that would just do, and +he would wait till then.” + +“Let me go and talk to him,” said the Doctor, “I dare say I shall do +just as well as the farmer; and have a bottle of your oldest port +ready, in case I ask for it. You’re out of lemons, I’m afraid?” + +The Doctor went, but returned sooner than he expected, evidently +disappointed, though at first he said nothing, but walked about, +took up the anticipated bottle of port, which had already at his +desire mounted thus far from the cellar, and was waiting at this +half-way-house, with the decanter by its side, in which it was to +pursue its journey to the parlour. He brushed off the sawdust, held +it wistfully to the light, and then told the landlady she might carry +it back again; but, “One word first, widow,” said the Doctor: “You +know I’ve a regard for you; look to your spoons, that’s all. A very +suspicious-looking person, believe me. When a man shuns good company, +it’s a very bad sign. I introduced myself in the civilest way, saying +that I understood he wanted to dispose of some drawings, and that I +might have an opportunity of recommending them in the course of my +professional practice. And when I was undoing the strings to look at +them, he took them from me, and said that they were already disposed +of. I then talked of Morden Bay, and began describing it at random, +like any other bay; and then he interrupted me by asking if I had +ever been there; and when I said, not that I could remember, he said +he thought as much; and just as I was chatting on about something +else, he told me that he was writing, and that if I considered that +a public room, he would ask for a private one. Depend upon it, when +a chap of that kind comes Captain Grand over one, and wants to be as +dull as a lord, he has some reason for it. It’s a very suspicious +story altogether. Who was that swell confidant Jack says he left at +Moreby? Who knows? they may be French spies, taking a survey of the +coast, and the portfolio he was so afraid I should see, may be chuck +full of treason.” + +“But you forget, Doctor, we are at peace now, and have been for some +time; and I don’t know, whether he be French or English, that there +is any harm in his painting a few trees, whether they grow near the +sea or not.” + +“I have it,” said the Doctor, but apparently the last suspicion +was too weighty to drop lightly, and, buttoning up his coat, he +only added, “A few days will show whether I am right,” muttering to +himself as he went out, “General Ludd, General Ludd, General Ludd!” + +But few years have passed since the Doctor pronounced that then awful +name, and many of my readers have never heard of “General Ludd,” at +that time the dreaded object of the ephemeral fears of every loyal +Englishman. His fame, too recent for the stores of history, too +obsolete for the currency of conversation, is now less alive than +that of many a brother general, who swells the half-pay list under +the grateful denomination of “dead weight.” + +Whatever suspicions the Doctor had at that moment instilled into the +mind of the Widow Westbury, they appeared to have been obliterated, +in a long conversation which she had the next morning with the +stranger; for when her friend the Farmer arrived, she told him there +was a _nice_ young man, who was very anxious to board at his house +for a few weeks, whilst he sketched the surrounding scenery. She +told the Farmer he must not be hard upon him for terms, for that he +said he was as poor as need be, though just able to earn a decent +subsistence by the labours of his pencil. + +The Farmer, who had no objection to the daily presence of a stranger, +who he hoped would rather restrain his family discomforts, did not +anticipate much objection on the part of his wife, who, as she had +every year become more fond of money, and liked the coin itself, +rather than the comfort it could purchase, would welcome the pittance +of the stranger, however small; determined, at the same time, not to +augment, in any respect, the expenses on his account. One difficulty +only occurred to the Farmer: what in days of yore had been called the +“spare room,” was now tenanted by the hams hung up to dry. But there +was George’s room vacant, which had been empty ever since he left it; +he therefore made acquaintance with the stranger, and the bargain +was concluded between them with the facility which might be expected +from two easy people, mutually eager to be accommodating. One thing +only kept alive a sort of suspense in the hostess’s mind against the +stranger; whilst talking with her, he had folded up and directed the +letter he had been so long writing, and which she observed to be a +bulky packet. She had offered to put it in the post for him herself, +and, approaching it for that purpose with rather a curious feminine +eye, he had hastily turned the direction downwards, and declined +her services, saying, that he would put it in himself, which, +accordingly, he had stopped to do, whilst riding out of the town with +Farmer Darnell. + + + + + CHAPTER VIII. + + Ay, mine own fortune is my misery. + SHAKSPEARE. + + Go thither, and with unattainted eye + Compare her face with some that I shall show. + IBID. + + His letters bear his mind. + IBID. + + ’Tis hatched and shall be so. + IBID. + + +The letter, which had been thus carefully forwarded by the stranger, +had by no means a treasonable exterior; it was directed to “The Right +Honourable ----, &c. &c. &c. &c., one of H. M. Principal Secretaries +of State,” and contained an inner envelope to “Wm. St. Clair, Esq.” +It began as follows:-- + +“MY DEAR ST. CLAIR: + +“When I consider the official atmosphere in which this will be +opened, and that it is to be read by a person now filling a +situation with such a dry unromantic name as _précis_ writer, I +can hardly hope for that sympathy in some of the feelings it wall +describe, which, even in earlier days, your more worldly mind was +sometimes inclined either to withhold, or to mix up with a little +unwelcome ‘persiflage.’ You have often told me, that with every +kind disposition to pity the peculiar hardships of high rank, and +the severe burthen of a large fortune, still I was the friend +whose misfortunes you would the most readily share. But the very +circumstance of your quizzing me a little on this head, by showing me +that you cannot flatter, makes me believe that you may feel for me, +when I complain of those irksome advantages of wealth and situation +which have prevented my being ever convinced that any one really +cared for me for myself alone. With men, I do not so much mind that: +the sterling ore of friendship is too weighty for the exchange of +every-day intercourse, and the paper-currency of popularity passes +just as well. But with women, from my earliest acquaintance with +them, I have always been haunted with the consciousness that true +love is not to be bought, and by the constant idea that I could +not be loved for myself; a distrustful suspicion that, I grieve +to say, experience has hitherto only tended to confirm. In every +situation, wherever I have been known, I have always had the same +fear, but too often the same conviction of its justice. I have +fancied I could trace the same expression in every female face, from +the hacknied smiles of venal beauty, in whose profusion one could +plainly read ‘he pays well,’ up to the would-be attractive simper +of the shy debutante, which had been already tutored to follow the +maternal whisper. I have tried in foreign countries to escape the +unfortunate fame of my wealth and liberality, but in vain: many +half-formed illusions of the ‘grand passion’ have been dispelled by +the exclamation, ‘_Milor qui est si riche_.’ + +“The first severe lesson of this kind I received, you will have +heard in the world told in different ways. During my minority, I was +induced to raise money to pay the debts of Lady Madelina Manfred,--I +don’t like trusting the post with names, but about her there can +be no scandal. The demand staggered me. I believe I was half cured +before; however, I paid the money, and dropped the connexion. She +affected indignation at my fickleness and desertion, which at her +time of life was rather a blow, but secured at the same time the +whole sum, (ten thousand pounds, I think it was,) and then eloped to +spend it with a Captain O’Connor, in Connaught, and poor Manfred is +still in the rules for her debts. + +“I did not think so much of this at the time; I was then very young, +and attributed it to my own folly in having allowed myself to be +inveigled by a woman old enough to be my mother, all whose better +feelings had been hardened by an habitual disregard of her marriage +vow. + +“The next year I was very much in love with----you may, perhaps, have +heard the story in the scandal of the world, but I will not here +publish the name, because still unchanged, for she is yet unmarried. + +“My guardians asserted, which was the only reason why I doubted it, +that I was then much too young to marry. But I was at that time sick +of intrigue; I thought it would be a glorious thing to monopolize for +ever the first affections of one then so universally admired. + +“Her mother, Lady ----, was always talking to me of her daughter’s +youth and innocence, to which I attributed the reserve with which my +attentions had been at first received, pleased as I was to find it +gradually lessening during their continuance. + +“The newspapers had already hinted, in unmistakable initials, at a +marriage in high life; I had as yet said nothing, but was determined, +as I knew the paragraph must have been seen, to observe first what +effect that had produced. The paragraph went the round of the papers +uncontradicted: perhaps I ought to have contradicted it; but as I +observed no diminution of cordiality in consequence, I believe I +should instead have declared myself, but that just at this time a +military cousin of mine returned with despatches from the Peninsula. +He was a _very, very younger_ brother, that is, one of a very large +family, with very little fortune to divide. I had not seen much of +him lately, but as we had been together as children, and I was one +of his nearest collateral relations, he came to consult me on an +engagement which he said he had formed previous to his joining the +army in Spain, and upon the possibility of procuring the consent +of the family of the young lady, at whose house it appears he had +visited from country quarters. + +“He owned that he had nothing but his profession, in which, however, +his hope of promotion was now great. But the young lady had herself +some money, and to prove that her affections were sufficiently +engaged to justify him in venturing, he showed me some letters he +had received, full of assurances and unutterable attachment from the +nameless beauty, who had since been receiving my addresses! The +letters, it is true, were not of a very recent date, but this the +time occupied in his voyage homewards had prevented his remembering. + +“Here, then, was a more complete explanation of the coldness with +which I had been at first received, than the mother’s palliations +of youth and innocence, and an utter extinction of my own dream +of monopolizing the first affections of a virgin heart. I would +willingly have persuaded myself that it was sensibility to my own +superior merits which had sufficed to obscure a former transient +impression; but when I looked at my cousin’s handsome, sunburnt +features, and thought of his honourable distinctions obtained in +the field-of-battle, and compared it with my own useless, lounging +life, I could not deny that the real nature of the change must have +been the worldly advantages of one “_parti_,” as compared with the +imprudence of the other connexion; for in no personal attractions +could I flatter myself that I surpassed my cousin. + +“This conviction operated as a summary cure of my passion, and left +in its stead mingled feelings of disgust, at the deceit which had +been practised on myself, and pity for my cousin. + +“Poor fellow! when I saw how deeply his happiness was involved, I +could not bear to take on myself the task of destroying his hopes; +I therefore, without explaining my motives to him, hastened that +departure for the Continent, which my guardians had long been +anxious I should not delay, and left him master of the field to try +his chance. I heard afterwards, that his suit was rejected by her +friends, with an abruptness, probably increased by his being supposed +to have prevented my proposals. I have reason to believe also, that +he was more regretted by the girl herself than would have been +expected from one whose actions were so much those of an automaton; +but however that may be, the first rejection was final, for the next +year my poor cousin was killed at Waterloo, where he was supposed +unnecessarily to have sought danger, not unwilling to close an +irksome existence with a glorious death. + +“The whole of these events made a deep impression on me; and, +confirming preconceived opinions, gave me a decided distaste for a +London-bred wife, and extended my distrust of the disinterestedness +of the affections of women in the world in general; which last +feeling you have occasionally remarked upon at some of the many +places abroad, when in the course of your professional attaché-ship, +during the last few years, we have so often met. You will say, +perhaps, that it arose from a determination to judge motives with a +jaundiced eye; but I am every day more convinced, that worldliness +is at the bottom of every woman’s heart whom I have known, of every +country, and in all states, whether maid, wife, or widow--ay! widow +worse than any. Since your return home, I have met on the Continent +one of that class, perhaps at first one of the most fascinating +creatures in the world. I think it very probable you may have met +her. Young Lady Gayland, married at seventeen to an old man, a friend +of her father’s; a widow at nineteen; and now, at one-and-twenty, her +own mistress, with the vivacity of a child, and the wit of a woman of +the world. + +“I did hope that her’s was a situation where the affections might +have fair play. Neither perverted by vicious habits, like Lady +Madelina--for Lady Gayland made an excellent wife to old Sir Joseph; +nor warped by maternal manœuvring--for she had no one to please but +herself, and was left with a large fortune, which put her above +prudential considerations,--I was in hopes that she might at once +merit and appreciate that admiration which her beauty excited; but +I was deceived again. I will not enter into particulars, as I have, +I trust, completely escaped from her fascinations; though even at +this distance I think too often of her to feel quite confident on +that head. If you had seen the sudden jerk with which I dashed +away my pen, which had been the instrument of conveying to you in +the last sentence that profession of indifference, you might have +been sceptical as to its sincerity; but a few paces up and down the +smallest of country-inn parlours have brought me to my senses. It is +sufficient to say she deceived me. I was fool enough to think that +I had inspired her with a feeling pure and fervent as my own, when, +in the midst of this vain dream, I was suddenly awakened. Within a +week after the arrival of that confident coxcomb, Frank Melmoth, who +only courted her for her fortune, the melodious tones of her musical +laugh chiming in with all his flippant nonsense, rang on my ears as +the knell of all my hopes. Perhaps, after all, I was too hasty; she +might not really care for him; but I had every reason at the time +to think so, and now it is all over. It is sufficient to say, that +she is spoilt by the world, and can have no real feeling, for she is +disposed to laugh at every thing, and to receive even sentiment with +a smile. Upon one occasion--but I said I would not particularize, nor +will I, because among other reasons, at this distance of time, I do +not feel quite sure but that you might smile likewise. Suffice it to +say, I am at length convinced, that in our rank in life, the feelings +are too early perverted by the world, to hold out to a person, who +thinks like me, any real prospect of happiness. + +“No; I will seek something as different as possible from all that +I have hitherto described. No bad second-rate copy of Lady Gayland +could I tolerate; and if I am to be sustained in my fixed resolution +of forgetting her, it must be by seeking contrast, and not imitation, +that I must hope to succeed. + +“What my present plan exactly is, I will not say; but once in my +earlier days a vision crossed my path, of a simple child of nature, +fresh and beauteous as the morn. Think of the delight of first +winning her pure affections, as one not elevated above her own rank +in life, (the case is certainly not without precedent,) and then +the pleasure of declaring myself afterwards, and the consciousness +thus derived, that whatever additional gratification may arise from +the advantages of rank and fortune, they could not be the cause of +the connexion, but from their subsequent disclosure were matter of +surprise, not speculation. Now, will you be anxious to find out the +scene of this plot; but even if you get hold of the cover directed +to your ‘chef,’ you will be only misled by the postmark, as that is +intended purposely to deceive. + +“But be satisfied with a degree of confidence, such as it is--quite +unusual in these close and uncommunicative days--and pardon the +length to which it is fine-spun; for bulky as the packet is, the +privilege of your place will prevent your paying for it, and the +duties of your office will, I am sure, leave you complete leisure to +read it. + + “Your’s, + + “CASTLETON.” + + + + + CHAPTER IX. + + ----You are welcome, Sir; + But not so well apparelled as I could + Wish you were. + SHAKSPEARE. + + Go to my chamber; put on clothes of mine. + IBID. + + All impediments in fancy’s course + Are motions of more fancy. + IBID. + + +Lord Castleton, or rather Mr. Churchill, as we must in future call +the “_soi-disant_” itinerant limner, felt a little awkwardness at +the publicity of his first appearance in his assumed character, as +he rode out of Mayton by the side of Farmer Darnell,--a mode of +transferring himself to his new residence which he had preferred +to the alternative of being consigned to one of the farmer’s return +teams, which had that morning brought there, as he assured his new +acquaintance, “the finest load of upland meadow hay which had come +to market that season.” Mr. Churchill had therefore hired for the +purpose, at the Queen’s Head, the hostler’s own pony, which besides +the advantage of his paces, a low straight shoulder, and somewhat of +a string-halt, had a mouth with about as much feeling as a well-worn +pulley, through which a smooth snaffle ran without the least effect: +added to these qualifications, being of a domestic turn, he had an +invincible dislike to wander far from home, which he did not show +by violent resistance, but by the patient endurance with which +he reluctantly yielded, step by step, to the incessant hints of +Churchill’s unarmed heel. + +As Richard Darnell was in consequence obliged frequently to pull up +for him, during the first mile or two, it could not be concealed, +that the painter did not look very comfortable, or much at his ease, +and Darnell addressed him with: + +“More used to handle the brush than the whip, I take it, Master +Painter. Pretty nearly the first time you were a horseback, maybe? +Lord, man, I hope that a’n’t the way you would paint St. George, as I +suppose you have done afore now; the dragon wouldn’t have much ado to +pull you off.” + +And the farmer chuckled good-humouredly at what he conceived a +harmless joke upon a subject on which he could not imagine that his +companion could have any vanity. + +But it may be recollected that Lord Castleton had very early been +rather proud of any opportunity for the display of his horsemanship; +he had indeed for two seasons been a crack-rider in Leicestershire; +but for all that it is very true, that no tailor could have looked +more out of his element on Joe Hostler’s rough ill-broken pony. + +During the greater part of their way the dialogue was confined to +the qualities of different soils, the prices of different years, the +proper succession of crops, and the measures of various markets;--if, +indeed, that could be called a dialogue, which consisted in a +profusion of unasked information on the one side, and exclamations of +mechanical assent on the other. + +As they approached the coast, the afternoon, which had hitherto +been fine, became gradually overcast; a creeping mist, by degrees, +enveloped the surrounding country, and, thickening as it advanced, +was accompanied by a mizzling rain. Lord Castleton, completely wet +to the skin, arrived at the top of the cliff, which they were +to descend to Farmer Darnell’s dwelling, without being able to +distinguish a feature of the scene which had so enchanted him the +last time he had seen it. Churchill was received at the door of the +house, not by her he longed to see, but by her mother. Mrs. Darnell +greeted him courteously, for now that he was again separated from +the pony there was something in his air and appearance which, until +his story contradicted it, rather betrayed his real rank in life. +Supposing him to be a gentleman, to whom her husband had offered +shelter, the hostess expressed great solicitude about his catching +cold, and begged him to put on some of her Richard’s clothes whilst +his own were drying. + +To this, as his own things were not yet come over from Mayton by the +waggon, he at once consented, and was escorted to what was to be +his, and which had been, George’s room, to effect the change. He was +aware that it had not yet been explained to Mrs. Darnell who he was, +and his intended temporary residence in her household; and, as he +could overhear, without distinguishing the words, the alternate tones +of a gruff and a sharp voice in the room beneath, he concluded the +explanation was then going on, and, by the increasing preponderance +of the “Alto” over the “Basso” notes of the duet, he was afraid it +was not taking a favourable turn. + +His toilet was the sooner concluded, as the difficulty consisted, +in his case, not so much in getting into Farmer Darnell’s clothes, +as in keeping them on afterwards. He could not help thinking that +his appearance must be rather ludicrous, though there was no +looking-glass in the room by which to ascertain the fact. He had, +previously to adopting his assumed character, cut short his own +lighter hair, and superinduced a black wig as a sort of disguise; +but, as personal disfigurement was no part of his plan, the wig was +not of that homely make which would suit the cut of the borrowed +garments he now had on. + +As he entered the room down-stairs he heard the female voice end +the argument with, “It’s just of a piece with a’ the rest;” and +then, turning to him, she said, “So, young man, I hear Richard has +been settling with you to stay and board with us a bit: there’s not +another man in the country, but him, would bring a stranger at once +into a decent family; no offence to you, who, I dare say, are a quiet +well-behaved body, that won’t give us any fash; but it was so like +Richard, that’s all. However, I have no doubt you wouldn’t have come +if you hadn’t the money to pay for your board, for, after all, ’tis +but an idlish uncertain sort of calling your’s.” + +“I’ve no objection to pay the first week in advance, and, though far +from rich, have no doubt that I shall be able to continue to do so, +therefore make yourself easy on that head, my good woman.” + +“Good woman, indeed!” muttered she; “Mrs. Darnell’s my name, Mr. +Churchill, as I hear that’s yours. And what may you get by this +vagabond sort of life? ’tis a pity you didn’t fix in some town and +stick to painting houses and signs.” + +“The different ranks in our profession are as various as the colours +in which we deal, from those whose genius elevates them to the +society of the great, to the hacknied drudge, to whose wholesale +daubing you would confine me: but though I can never aspire to +emulate the first, yet I find that by indulging my fancy in sketching +on the coast in summer, and making drawings for cheap engravings in +the winter, I can maintain myself, with care and economy, above all +dread of want.” + +Churchill meant by this last speech accurately to describe the sort +of indefinite situation in society which he intended to assume. But +much of it was unintelligible to Mrs. Darnell, who, satisfied by his +offering to pay his board and lodging in advance, that he was not a +swindler, turned to answer her husband’s inquiry, “Why he had not +seen his dear Lucy?” by telling him that the girl had been over to +see her aunt, where she had probably been detained by the weather, +and might not come home that night. Churchill therefore made up his +mind that he should not be gratified with the sight of the object +which had brought him there till the next morning, which, considering +his present grotesque appearance in her father’s clothes, he did +not much regret; and, having sufficient topic for reflection as to +his future conduct in the situation he had so abruptly assumed, he +remained comparatively silent, whilst Darnell and his wife so far +made him at home as to discuss together domestic details, without the +least regard to his presence. + +But just as they were about to separate for the night, the latch +of the garden-gate was heard to click, and a light step quickly to +cross the gravel without. The imagination of Churchill had already +anticipated what it was to produce, when almost at the same instant +the door hastily opened, and Lucy rushed in. The first impression on +the mind of the stranger was, upon the door opening, that her figure +appeared some inches higher whilst standing in the threshold than his +recollection had led him to expect. His next remark, however, was +the perfect symmetry of her form, which the last few years’ progress +towards maturity had confirmed; and as she threw off her bonnet, +and shook back the locks of her rich brown hair, which had been +disordered by the storm she had just braved, Churchill thought he +had never seen a countenance in which innocence and intelligence were +so happily combined. + +“And what do you come back for in this gait, spoiling all your +clothes?” said her mother. + +“Nay, mother, I’m sure you’re glad to see me safe at home,” said Lucy +in a deprecating tone, at the same time kissing her: “I never slept +from under this roof in my life before, and I did not like to begin +now, for all aunt wanted me to bide with her all night.” + +The tone in which this was said disarmed even Mrs. Darnell’s +fault-finding disposition,--Churchill would have wondered if it had +not,--and Lucy threw herself into her father’s arms, whom she had not +seen before to-day, and then drew back upon observing the stranger. +He had risen upon her entrance, but felt an awkwardness, which was +visible in his deportment, as to how to present himself: this was +increased by the unfitness of his present costume: he felt that to +attempt a pretty speech or courteous greeting would be absurd, and +he was not sufficiently assured what sort of deportment would be +befitting his present appearance. The consequence was, that he stood +sheepish and abashed; and he, who had scattered his smiles with a +feeling of condescension round the most brilliant ball-rooms, and +had dropped unasked, with a certainty of welcome, into the choicest +“boudoirs,” blushed with a sense of shame beneath the enquiring gaze +of a simple country girl. So easily does disguise or deceit entail +with it a consciousness of inferiority. + +“’Tis a young man in the painting line,” said her father, seeing he +would not answer for himself, “who is going to stay here a bit, and +paint the country: you must show him the Black Glen and Deadman’s +Crag, and some of your favourite spots.” + +Lucy gave him, in answer, a smile of welcome, which Churchill fancied +was changed to one of a more satirical character, as she examined +his dress and figure: this, however, was checked by her mother, +who insisted upon her no longer remaining in her wet clothes, but +retiring to bed. The whole party then separated for the night. + +Lord Castleton was left alone in the occupation of George’s garret. +The first thing he did, as he walked along the floor by the dim light +of his farthing candle, was to knock his head against the beam which +ran across its low ceiling; the next was to sit himself down in the +only chair in the room, and reflect upon the novelty of his present +situation, when, spite of his efforts to resist it, a general sense +of discomfort stole across him. Planned at a distance, his scheme had +comprised only the great outlines of “disinterested attachment,” +“simplicity of nature,” “unconscious beauty,” and “freedom from the +trammels of rank;” but the details had either escaped him altogether, +or had worn a different shape, when fancied from afar, than that +which they now assumed in practice. He had expected to receive from +the cordiality of hearty hospitality, all those attentions which he +scorned to accept as the servile offerings of dependent inferiors; +and he had not been at all prepared for the occasional contemptuous +jocularity, and generally protecting tone of the farmer; or for the +half-hinted suspicions, and cautious bargaining of his wife; both +which were carrying the absence of undue deference to him, farther +than he had anticipated. + +On one subject only he had not been disappointed,--that was, in the +appearance of Lucy. + +“And, after all,” thought he, “what does any thing else signify? I +ought rather to be pleased with the rest, however disagreeable in +itself, as the best proof that my scheme works well, and that if I +should, as the unsuspected Churchill, treated in this unceremonious +manner, succeed in winning her affections, I need, through all my +after-life, never have a moment’s mistrust that I was loved for +myself alone.” + +Consoled with this reflection, he proceeded with less dissatisfaction +to make a survey of the various “désagrémens” of his present confined +chamber, which was as uncomfortable as possible consistent with +perfect cleanliness. An inventory of the furniture might have been +contained in one line, and the walls presented one unbroken surface +of whitewash, except where, over the chest of drawers, three bits +of paper were pinned up for ornament: the centre a wood-cut of Lord +Nelson’s funeral car; on one side of it a roaring sea song, and on +the other a sentimental ballad, whose only possible merit was that +the heroine’s name was Lucy. These relics of George’s fairings had +remained here undisturbed ever since his departure. + +The bed on which its present tenant prepared to stretch himself, +was not very well calculated for the literal fulfilment of that +operation, being in length better adapted for the then height of its +last owner than that of its present occupier. + +It was upon this uncomfortable couch that Lord Castleton now fell +asleep, lulled by the wind whistling through the low casement, and +the rain pattering on the roof; and dreamed confusedly, that he +broke to Lucy his real rank, and that she first burst into tears, +and then changed suddenly to Lady Gayland and began laughing at +him. When he awoke in the morning, with a sort of indistinct doubt +as to where he was, the first object which met his half-open eyes +was, the initials G. and L. D., combined in a sort of cipher, and +cut in the soft deal-board just by his head; no doubt by the last +occupier of that bed. This he did not think a good omen, and hastily +rising, he gave way to a momentary feeling of discomfort, at finding +his clothes still in the confusion in which he had last night left +them, and not carefully arranged for his toilet, as the habits of +his life accustomed him to expect; but banishing this as unworthy +consideration, he was restored, by the contemplation of the brilliant +prospect which the fine morning showed him from his window, to that +state of mind which made him enjoy the happiness of his first meeting +with Lucy, whom he found alone in the breakfast-room. + + + + + CHAPTER X. + + It were all one + That I should love a bright, particular star + And think to wed it, he is so above me. + SHAKSPEARE. + + But several years elapsed since they had met; + Some people thought the ship was lost. + BYRON. + + +About a week had elapsed since Churchill’s arrival at Morden Bay, +an interval which he had not failed to improve, by availing himself +upon all occasions, whenever Mrs. Darnell permitted, of Lucy’s +company, as a guide to the many picturesque scenes with which she was +so well acquainted; and, as the principal maternal objection was +the interference this caused with domestic avocations, the evening +was generally chosen as the hour left most free for these romantic +rambles. + +Lucy’s taste for the beauties of nature had till now lain dormant, +for want of any one to sympathize in her admiration. Her aunt, to +whose disposition it would have seemed congenial, never wandered far +from home; and of all the various picturesque spots with which the +neighbourhood abounded, those only had hitherto been interesting to +Lucy which she could animate as the mental scenery of those parts of +Shakspeare which, as read to her by her aunt, she most admired. But +since she had attended Churchill in his sketching expeditions, she +had discovered new beauties in every spot they had together visited. +From admiring his power of recording effects and imitating objects, +she had become anxious to emulate the same herself, and upon the two +last occasions, _she_ likewise had attempted the powers of the pencil. + +It was quite an afternoon for a painter, with broad effects of light +and shadow. Churchill and Lucy had perched themselves on a small +ledge of rock, just above the shore, commanding a well-wooded bank of +the Black Glen, with some bold and jutting crags rising out of the +surface of the waters beyond, when Lucy, after a time, first looking +over her shoulder at her companion’s work, and then comparing it with +her own, said: + +“Oh, Mr. Churchill! I shall never be able to do it like you. I can’t +make two trees, which really touch on the paper, seem so far apart, +and I meant this like your’s for the sea, with a ship on the horizon, +but it looks much more like a wall, with a weed growing on the top; +and then my paper is just as big as your’s, but I never shall be +able to get half so much into it.” + +“Because, my pretty pupil,” said Churchill, examining it, “you have +made that distant cliff higher than this old boat-house.” + +“And so it is, a hundred times higher,” said Lucy in a justificatory +tone; “and if you were there, you would soon see the difference.” + +“But now we are not there, and we are here,” answered Churchill +smiling; “and in this world, objects, like events, appear to us, +not according to their intrinsic importance, but in proportion to +our own situation, and the manner in which they affect ourselves. +For instance, dwelling in this retired spot, and in our humble rank +of life, events that might convulse the country, and affright the +great ones of the land, would be less observed by us, than the blight +which injured your father’s corn; and battles might be won and lost, +which we should feel less than the attack of a single fox upon your +poultry-yard.” + +“It is a very stupid and confused attempt this of mine,” said Lucy, +tearing it in two; “and yet, separately, this is like the boat-house, +and that is like the rock,” holding up the divided parts of her +drawing. + +“Yes, and may you learn to combine the simplicity of an humble +foreground with the softened outline of greatness in the distance!” + +“That is a little like some of aunt Alice’s speeches, which I do not +always understand,” said Lucy: “perhaps it is, that you have both +mixed in that world of which I had only previously heard from her how +anxious she had been to leave it.” + +“This aunt, of whom you so often speak, is it because she is unhappy +that she lives so retired?” + +“She never complains.” + +“And shall I never see her?” + +“I never knew her see a stranger, but she asked me about you, when I +told her that I should have come to her before, but that I had been +to show you up the burn side: and she wanted to know why you were +staying at our house; and when I said I could not exactly tell, she +begged me to bring you to visit her some day.” + +“And why not now?” said Churchill, whose curiosity was roused. + +“It is rather late,” Lucy replied; “and mother’s particular about +tea-time,” looking at a little watch which her companion once well +knew. + +“And where did you get that little French watch?” asked he. + +“And is it French? then I dare say that’s the reason George couldn’t +abide it, for he hates every thing French, as it is right he should, +seeing he’s a sailor. It was given me by a strange gentleman who came +to see the bay,--and George tiffed about it, and thought some harm +would come of it. But I don’t see how it’s to be, for I’ve never seen +the gentleman since, as it wasn’t like I should.” + +“But what sort of gentleman was this?” asked Churchill. + +“Why, from the little I can recollect of him, not so very unlike +yourself, only that he had light curly hair, a more fresh florid +cheek, and a more easy-like look, as it was natural, you know, he +should; for I dare say he was a great gentleman, and had none of +those cares about the coming day which mother says must always be +felt by one with such an uncertain calling as yours; though, I’m +sure, I think your drawings so pretty that, as long as there is money +to throw away in the world, I should guess they would always be sure +to fetch something.” + +They had, in accordance with Lucy’s hint as to the time, concluded +their sketching for that evening, and had begun to wind their way +homewards, when Churchill, recurring to that part of their late +conversation which had made the least pleasant impression on him, +said, + +“And this cousin George, to whose opinion, as to that watch, you seem +to attach no little value, you have not seen much of him since?” + +“He has not been at home again; that was the last evening he spent +here, which is the reason, perhaps, that it made the more impression +on me.” + +“But you have heard continually of him, of course?” + +“Not very often; when he left us, he was no very handy penman; he +used to say that it took him less time to sail round the bay than to +write its name, and that there was no such difficult navigation, as +tacking through all the ins and outs of a capital B. But I hope he +is improved in all that; though absent, he hasn’t thought any the +less about us; in that, at least, he used to be apt enough.” + +They had ascended the cliff by a different path from the one +mentioned before, and were pursuing their way homewards through a +shady lane, and had just reached as far in it as the point where, at +right angles, a stile led to a footpath through a copse, known only +to those acquainted with the country, as a short cut from the main +road to Morden Bay. Upon coming in sight of this turn, they beheld +two men in sailors’ dresses, who were threading the narrow path +through the wood, at a brisk pace, the foremost of whom, looking up +and seeing them, made a run at the stile, bounded over it, and almost +at the same moment folded Lucy in his arms in an embrace, whose +ardour was mixed a little with that alloy of roughness which is +proverbially nautical. + +The scream with which Lucy shrank from this unexpected salutation, +though it partook more of the character of surprise than positive +alarm, was sufficient to justify the ready interposition of +Churchill, who, seizing the intruder by the collar of his jacket, +pulled him with a sudden jerk away. + +“Hands off, messmate!” said he in his turn, surprised, but good +humouredly; “who the devil may you be? let’s see what colours you +mean to hoist before you interpose between me and my pretty cousin +here.” + +“And is it indeed you, dear, dear Cousin George?” said Lucy, as +she rushed again of her own accord into his arms, and kissed him +affectionately; then drawing back abruptly and blushing deeply, she +added, “But what a beard you have got, George, and how you’re grown +and altered! I declare you’re quite a man now!” + +“Such things will happen in four years, between sixteen and twenty, +Lucy: you yourself are shot up wonderfully; why, you’d carry twice as +much sail as formerly:--Lord love her sweet face!” he added, again +kissing her now averted cheek: in shrinking from which second salute +she met Churchill’s eye, and blushing more deeply, said in a confused +manner, + +“We were going home, you know, Mr. Churchill: you’d better come, +George, and see father and mother.--This young man,” she added in a +low tone, “is staying here a bit, painting the country, like those +other two you remember once, George, some time before you left us.” + +“Oh, that’s what he is, is it? To be sure, I remember the others +well enough, and how you used to be sent out with one, and I with +the other, and how I frightened my man one day, by stealing his own +red paint, and smearing myself with it: I made believe to fall off a +rock he was drawing; he took it for blood, and thought I lay there +for dead. My friend here seemed to have had a mind to shed my blood +in real earnest; however, as ye took me for a rude stranger, it was +all right, and respectful like, interfering to protect a woman when +she cried out; so here’s my hand, my man, and now just take my friend +Captain Collett under your convoy, for you may guess I’ve many a +thing to say to Lucy here, which won’t concern either of you two.” + +Churchill, still bewildered at the unexpected turn which events +seemed to have taken, looked round mechanically, to examine the +stranger thus unceremoniously introduced to him. He was standing +on the other side of the stile, leaning his elbows upon it. He had +remained in this attitude during the whole of the preceding scene, +an amused, though uninterested spectator of its incidents. He had +chuckled aloud at the momentary scuffle between George and Churchill, +but had not stirred a step to take part with either; and now as his +eye met Lucy’s, just as she and George were about to move on, he +assented to the arrangement proposed, by a familiar nod and grin, +without, however, removing his elbows from the stile, or his hands +from his chin. He was a short thick-set man, with that fresh, though +not youthful appearance, which the eye generally registers at about +five-and-forty, unless the parish annals give some more precise +date as to age. The expression of his countenance was the reverse +of serious; but a physiognomist would have said that the lines were +rather the joint production of cunning and conviviality, than the +impression of natural, quiet cheerfulness. His dress, like George’s, +consisted of a sailor’s blue jacket and trowsers; but his waistcoat, +which was ornamented with many little buttons and some lace, had +rather a foreign appearance, and was not unlike those usually worn +by couriers. He eyed Churchill curiously, as the latter looked first +at him and then after Lucy, feeling not the less disgusted at the +turn things had unexpectedly taken, that he did not know of what to +complain, or why to resent it. Nothing could be more natural than +that Lucy should be glad to welcome home her cousin, the favourite +companion of her childhood; or, upon his sudden return, that she +should neglect at the moment one, to whom she was bound by no ties; +an itinerant painter--the acquaintance of a week. + +Yet during that week, Churchill had thought he was every day making +great progress in her regard; she had appeared to take a new sort +of pleasure in his society,--had been delighted either to hear him +talk, or see him draw; and even now, he thought, when her cousin had +attempted a second time to kiss her, her eye had sought his, and upon +meeting it she had blushed, and avoided the kindred embrace. Yet +now, as they walked away, George’s arm was round her waist, and his +profile looked offensively happy. “Come, Sir, if you please,” said +Churchill, rather hastily to his new companion, thinking that the +others had already got sufficiently far in advance. + +“No hurry,” said Captain Collett, as George called him, getting even +more deliberately over the stile than the square cut of his figure +required; “we are only to keep within hail, you know. I’m sorry for +you; it is but a poor exchange to have only Kit Collett for your +consort, instead of yon gay pinnace. But it can’t be helped; you’re +clean cut out, that I can see. A nice tight little prize too. Is it +that you’ve been over slow in making her your own, or have you stayed +long enough for her to get tired of you?” + +“Come, Sir,” repeated Churchill again, loud and angrily, his +attention having been a little taken off from the last speech by +watching George and Lucy, who had now disappeared round a corner in +the lane: “I desire you won’t talk to me in that manner. As that +young lady seemed to wish me to show you the way to her father’s, +I am ready to do it, provided you don’t take advantage of that +circumstance to speak impertinently of her; if you do, I shall +consider that you would be an improper guest, and take the liberty of +leaving you behind.” + +“Well, no offence, man; I meant none. Young lady! Lord, how grand all +that is!” still speaking with a half suppressed chuckle; “however, +move on, my friend; it’s all one to Kit Collett what he talks about, +or indeed whether he talks at all, as long as he has one of these +to stop his mouth,” taking a cigar out of a case and deliberately +lighting it. + +This being satisfactorily deposited in his mouth, and his two hands +in the side pockets of his jacket, he, without attempting any farther +conversation, rolled on, following Churchill as fast as he could, +whose impatient strides soon brought them inconveniently near to the +couple in advance. However much Churchill might have wished to join +company with them, he did not feel authorized to do so, unless he +had been more sure that such an intrusion would be welcome; and of +this he could see no symptoms; for though once Lucy looked round, +and, upon seeing him, appeared to wish to stop, and to require urging +on by her companion, yet, except at that one moment, she seemed +completely and satisfactorily occupied with her newly restored +cousin, and Churchill felt therefore unwillingly obliged to slacken +his pace, much to the relief of Kit Collett; and it was in two +separate detachments that they arrived at home. + + + + + CHAPTER XI. + + He was a man as dusky as a Spaniard, + Sunburnt with travel, yet a portly figure; + Though colour’d, as it were, within a tanyard, + He was a person both of sense and vigour-- + A better seaman never yet did man yard. + BYRON. + + +George’s unexpected arrival that night, produced in all the family +that sort of intoxicating exhilaration of spirits, which, whenever +the natural feelings are allowed to show themselves, is the effect of +the restored presence of a long-lost inmate. + +Even Mrs. Darnell suppressed, for the moment, her desire to complain +of his protracted silence, and of the ignorance in which he had left +them as to how he had spent his time since his engagement in his +uncle’s ship had been out--which was now twelve months since. + +As for the farmer, he was so delighted to see his favourite, that he +hardly knew what he did, and went about shaking hands with everybody, +and even asked the painter, with a cordial gripe, whether he wasn’t +d----d happy: a question, the repetition of which Churchill contrived +to evade, as it would have puzzled him to answer it heartily in the +affirmative. Captain Collett, the farmer pronounced, after they had +had two glasses together, to be a man after his own heart, and was +rather disappointed when, in answer to his enquiry whether he had +been George’s last Captain, George replied, “that he had sometime +sailed with him, and added, that he was known to be the best seaman +between the Thames and the Tweed.” + +“And, as my voyages are not now very distant, George will have more +opportunities of seeing his friends here, as he is about to engage +with me.” + +“I am not quite sure about that,” answered George gravely, and a +cloud, for a moment, came over his brow, which was, however, as soon +dispelled by the eager attentions of all around, by which he was +overwhelmed. George was soon much excited by finding himself the +great man of the party. Thus encouraged, he rattled away merrily, +sometimes boisterously, stringing one story on another with much +humour, not always confined within the narrow limits of fact, nor +scrupulously restrained by the bounds of decorum; once or twice, +even on this night of licence, he incurred the displeasure of his +aunt, and raised a blush on the cheek of Lucy, who was seated at the +supper board between him and Churchill. + +During this time it would be difficult to analyze the conflicting +feelings of Lucy. Certain it is, that she did not attempt to do so +herself. If she had, she would have been aware that the sensations +with which she had welcomed the return of George were of a warmer +nature than would have sprung from the mere renewal of childish +companionship; and in the course of their walk homewards, whilst +listening to his passionate expressions of delight at his return, +she had admired more than it was necessary for a mere cousin to +do, the improvement the interval of absence had made in his fine +manly figure; and during that time, if her thoughts wandered from +the happiness of the present moment, it was to distant days, and +not to recent scenes. But now, when an inadvertent coarseness in +one of George’s expressions made her avert, a moment, her head, and +she beheld the displeased but enduring character of Churchill’s +countenance, and then, as her eye met his, she read in it, more +plainly expressed than it had yet been, that feeling towards herself +which woman cannot long mistake; and as she combined with that her +recollections of his many gentle and delicate attentions to her in +the course of their recent rambles, her wishes became rather confused +and bewildered; but perhaps the predominant one was, that George +should be rather different from what he was. She could not, at the +same time, but be aware that Churchill had been much neglected during +the evening; and it was as much regret at this, springing from that +considerate good-nature which in her rank of life supplies with the +interest of sincerity the place of good breeding, which made her say +to him in a tone and with an expression which amply compensated for +the previous neglect which it acknowledged: + +“I am afraid all this must have been very tiresome to you.” + +As the breaking up of the supper-party at that moment prevented other +answer, he took advantage of that circumstance to reply to her by a +gentle squeeze of the hand. + +Immediately after supper was finished, Captain Collett signified +his intention to depart, resisting the entreaties with which he +was pressed to share with his friend George the best spare room, +from which, for their reception, the hams, &c. had just been +unceremoniously rejected, as it was not thought hospitable to disturb +the stranger, and his drawings and portfolios, from the room formerly +George’s, which he at present occupied. + +“But, Captain,” said the farmer, “it’s a double-bedded room, and +you’d better bide to-night with your friend George, for the night’s +dark and murky, and if it had been as light as day, one’s way is +never somehow so canny to find after supper as afore.” + +“Thank’ee the same, but I can’t stay,” replied the Captain. “As for +the night, I’m rather partial to dark nights; a’n’t I, George?” +chuckling: “and as for supper, if it’s along of the grog you mean, +Kit Collett would drink as much again, and walk as steady as on the +quarter-deck in a calm.” + +“But it’s rather an awkwardish road to the Lobster near Placeden +Point, for a stranger, if that’s where you’re going.” + +“Stranger! why nothing comes strange to me, that’s within three miles +of the coast from Beechy Head to Berwick Ness.” + +“But,” said Mrs. Darnell, “you know it must depend on the time of the +tide whether you can cross Newland Creek.” + +“It’s just now half-ebb, and by the time I’m down there, there won’t +be half-fathom water within a quarter of a league of the shore of +Newland Creek, and be hang’d to it.” + +“That friend of your’s is a man that knows his business well, I +should say, George,” said Farmer Darnell, as he bolted the door after +him. + +“Good reason he should,” answered George rather gravely. + + + + + CHAPTER XII. + + Oh, Childhood--blessed time of hope and love, + When all we knew was Nature’s simple law,-- + How may we yearn again that time to prove + When we looked round, and loved whate’er we saw. + * * * + + +When Churchill retired to bed, he in vain attempted to think of the +events of the day as of no importance to him,--merely the return +of a relation of the family, whom it was natural that warm-hearted +amiable people should be very glad to see again, and who would soon +again depart to follow his precarious profession, perhaps only to +return after another such long interval, to be once more received in +the same manner. But still, whenever he thought he had succeeded in +closing his eyes upon this idea, the image of George walking away +with his arm round Lucy’s waist would disagreeably intrude itself: +true, she considered him as a near relation,--had been educated as +a sister; but was that the way he considered the matter, and was it +likely that this innocent illusion would long continue if he chose to +enlighten her? He could not at the same time help flattering himself +that he had made a favourable impression on her; and, confirmed as +this hope was by her deportment towards him, at the conclusion of +the supper, he believed that if he made up his mind then to press +his suit he might bear off the prize. Yet there was something in +this manner of effecting that object which did not altogether +satisfy him. In his project of being loved for himself alone, he had +always anticipated that, whilst abandoning the outward advantages +of rank and fortune, he presented himself as an equal to a person +like Lucy; still he would retain the power of inspiring her with a +decided passion, and he had never looked forward to any thing like +competition with such a rival as George Darnell. + +I am afraid it must also be allowed that there were some things in +Lucy’s deportment that evening which, desperately in love as he +found himself, charmed as he was with her beauty, fascinated with +her simplicity, had not quite pleased him. In their _tête-à-tête_ +rambles, there had never any thing occurred to weaken the illusion +of her perfections; on the contrary her soft and gentle manners, +animated only by an attractive freshness of character, which was +brought into play by the workings of natural good sense, were +constantly strengthening his attachment. But the unrestrained +ebullition of high spirits is a terrible touchstone by which to try +the want of conventional refinement, either of mind or manners; and +there were many moments in the course of the evening, whilst she was +enjoying to the utmost some of her “cousin George’s” nautical jokes, +when her lover could not help thinking “Is that exactly the way in +which I should like Lady Castleton to behave?” + +Churchill rose the next morning with one conviction impressed +strongly on his mind, as the result of the contradictory reflections +with which he had been perplexed during the night, and this was that +at any rate he had no longer any time to lose in inaction; that +either his visit to Bankside Farm must now draw to a conclusion, or +it must assume the more decided and permanent character with which he +had meant before long to invest it. + +As a mere itinerant artist, his stay had now been prolonged enough +for any assumed object which in that character he could put forward. +And if as such only, he meant to be recollected by the inmates of +farmer Darnell’s, it was now high time that he should pack up his +portfolios, already superabundantly stored with sketches, in every +variety of light, close studies, and distant effects, of every object +worth commemorating, within the reach of a walk with Lucy. + +He had his misgivings too, that even if this did not occur to himself +as a reason for shortening his stay, it would, ere long, be hinted to +him in no very indirect terms by Mrs. Darnell, with whom he had never +been a great favourite, as being, as she said, “at best, but a bit of +a vagabond, only better than a stroller or a mountebank, inasmuch as +he daubed his nasty paint on paper, instead of on his own person.” +His taking Lucy gadding about with him, was also a great waste of +time: but his worst offence in the eyes of this orderly housewife +was, that by occupying George’s room, he had caused the ejection of +the hams from the spare bed-room. All these reasons made it evident +that it would not be entirely optional to himself to prolong his +stay indefinitely. On the other hand, he could not but be aware +that if he had, as he flattered himself, already made a favourable +impression on Lucy, it was very desirable now, that he should confirm +and strengthen that, without allowing time for any _retour_ of her +earlier partiality for her cousin and playmate to arise and occupy +even a corner of that heart which was to love him exclusively and +for himself alone. Still that it should be necessary, in regulating +his future conduct, to guard against such a possibility, grated +unpleasantly against his feelings, and gave a dissatisfied and +undecided turn to his thoughts, and when he had slowly descended the +stairs to breakfast, even whilst he had the latch of the parlour-door +in his hand, the question rose unbidden in his mind, “Am I really in +love?” + +The next moment, however, the effect of the first sight of Lucy +answered that question beyond a shadow of doubt, as he thought, in +the affirmative. It was Sunday morning, and Lucy was dressed for +church. There is, perhaps, no costume, however studied, so attractive +as the unaffected assumption, in simplicity and good taste, of their +best attire on this day of rest, by persons in that rank of life to +whom Sunday really makes a distinction of dress; utterly perverted +and lost as that effect is, when it causes an awkward and exaggerated +imitation of the already _outré_ fashions of their betters. But Lucy +was simplicity itself, and fresh and radiant and lovely as she looked +in the maiden purity of her snowy robe, so did she always present +herself on this day of thanksgiving, coming out with as little alloy +of coquetry as the flowers of nature, which greet in their gayest and +most brilliant colouring the spring which gives them birth. + +So dilatory had Churchill’s complicated reflections made his toilet, +that the breakfast was far advanced when he entered, and the +conversation, which he only for a moment interrupted, was one not +calculated to please him; for he found George arranging, apparently +very much to his satisfaction, a _tête-à-tête_ walk with Lucy to +church; whilst it was suggested that Churchill should go bodkin +between Mr. and Mrs. Darnell in the taxed-cart. + +From this uninviting mode of conveyance he was, however, opportunely +relieved by a declaration on the part of Farmer Darnell, that he was +unfitted for service by a touch of lumbago, which he had caught +riding home that stormy evening from Mayton, instead of staying +there quietly till morning. The excuse having been admitted by +Mrs. Darnell, with the qualification, that this was the first she +had heard of it, and the prospective consolation that he certainly +ought not to go to Mayton at all next week, it became necessary to +arrange some other division of march, as, luckily for Churchill, +Mrs. Darnell decidedly objected to trusting her precious person to +his charioteering powers. “How should he know how to drive? he was +never like to have had a chay, a poor _predistinarian_ painter!” as +she called him: “No; her dear George must come with her in the cart.” +George, however little he liked the change, did not make any decided +objection, probably recollecting enough of earlier days to know +that, if his aunt chose it, objection would be of no use; and also a +little tickled by the decided superiority over Churchill, which this +preference marked, as he already began to entertain an indefinite +feeling of jealousy of the other’s position in the family. + +He therefore undertook with confidence to “pilot” his aunt to +church, though he professed that of late his hands had been more +used to manage the “rudder” than the “ribbons.” It was impossible +for the most practised woman of the world to have shown less by +her manner than Lucy did whether this ultimate arrangement was or +was not agreeable to her. “After all,” thought Churchill, as they +started together from the front door, “her natural manner is easy and +unembarrassed, and it is only while in actual collision with what is +coarse and uncongenial around her, that a momentary taint is breathed +upon its purity; when I shall have removed her from the reach of +contagion, that innocent simplicity will alone remain, upon which I +may engraft what impression I like, and I shall learn to think of her +only as a being whose whole existence is comprised in my happiness.” + +“Lucy,” screamed Mrs. Darnell at the extent of her voice, just as +they had cleared the garden-gate, and Churchill had closed the +foregoing reflections, “Lucy, have you minded that the crust to +George’s pie is made of short paste, as he used to like it?” + +“Oh yes, mother, I wasn’t like to forget that,” answered Lucy, with +an eagerness which Lord Castleton thought was not very appropriately +applied to another’s pie-crust, by a being whose whole existence he +had just settled was to be devoted to his happiness. + + + + + CHAPTER XIII. + + If ever been where bells have knolled to church. + SHAKSPEARE. + + All things are well digested for the purpose; + Then, throwing off the title of a duke, I will + Appear to her a low-born peasant. + TOBIN. + + +This unfortunate episode rather deranged the train of ideas by which +Churchill had determined to probe the real state of Lucy’s feelings. +Instead of availing himself, as he had intended, of the whole of +this two-mile walk artfully to ascertain her real sentiments, and +attempt to regulate his own accordingly, he spoke not at all at +first, then asked her three times abstractedly the different lengths +of the footpath by which they were going, and the carriage-road, to +church; and at last blurted out the question point-blank, “Whether +she thought her cousin George improved?” + +“Oh, so much! that is, in some respects,” she answered, the first +words eagerly, then checking herself, added, “I am sorry to see you +didn’t like him, Mr. Churchill; I think I should have liked him much +better if you had.” + +“Why, my dear Miss Darnell, should you fancy I do not like him? It +is true, that our different modes of life may prevent my perfectly +understanding all his stories. The poor painter, who has nothing but +daubing colours on canvass to show as the labour of a lifetime, can +never compete in interest with him who has soul-stirring adventures +by sea and land to boast.” + +“And fearful dangers he has had, poor dear George! has he not? The +embarking the troops there--at what’s the name of the place, among +the Yankees--Old Orleans? New Orleans was it? and that frightful +hurricane in latitude--; he told us what latitude it was in. But +it wasn’t that I was going to say. Do you know, Mr. Churchill, you +sometimes made me ashamed of cousin George?” + +“How? Explain yourself, I pray you, Lucy,” said Churchill eagerly. + +“Why, for all what you say about a poor painter, and having +nothing to tell of, I like so much to hear you talk, whatever it +is about, and you speak to one so soft and kind, just like one of +the gentlefolk; and I have been always trying to answer you the +same, and somehow, I’ve got used to your ways lately; but last +night, when cousin George talked rather rude like, I looked at you, +and I saw by your face that you were fashed, and then I felt so +uncomfortable--and, don’t be angry!” + +“Angry! no--why?” asked Churchill. + +“And then I wished you away with all my heart.” + +This was not exactly the conclusion to which Churchill had hoped to +hurry Lucy; but still there were many circumstances in the foregoing +conversation favourable to him. In the first place, it was evident +that she cared for his opinion, and also that he had awakened in her +mind a sense of what was, or was not offensive in manner. Yet, from +the tone in which she had spoken the last sentence, he could not but +draw the conclusion, that situated as she was last night, it was his +presence that she had felt as a restraint--it was to his absence she +would have looked as a relief. He would have liked to ascertain +whether this merely arose from considering George’s return--a +return as of right to the home of his childhood, which would have +prevented her imagining it possible that he could be removed from +thence, though he might be superseded in her affections. But just +as, intending to pursue this inquiry, he approached his companion +with a tender earnestness in his manner, which was certainly not +intended to meet the comments of a third person; he was interrupted +by the unwelcome apparition of Captain Collett, who meeting them at +the narrowest part of the path, Churchill was obliged to draw back +in order to let him pass by Lucy, which as he did, he said with a +leer, meant to be full of meaning, “Sorry to separate you!” and as he +brushed by Churchill, he hummed the burthen of a nautical ballad then +in vogue. + + “From our night-caps so clean, + Our fresh laurel was torn, + And the prize of the e’en + Was recaptur’d at morn.” + +Ere they could recover the thread of their discourse, thus +disagreeably broken in upon, they had come within sight of the parish +church, and as the last loitering groups gradually disappeared within +the porch, whilst the lingering tones of the slowly-stopping bell +died away upon the ear, they felt that they were late, and Lucy +quickened her steps, and led the way to their family seats. + +The sacred building was one of the humblest of its kind; for +centuries (necessary repairs excepted) it had remained much in +its present state, the weekly resort of the simple and secluded +neighbourhood: there never had been any opulent landed proprietors +within the parish; no _squirearchial_ elevation broke the regular +equality of the divided aisle, or claimed distinction or superiority +from the height of its railing or the colour of its lining. + +There was here no appearances at variance with those professions of +equality in the sight of Him they came to address, which the service +they came jointly to engage in, alike places in the mouths of the +rich and of the poor, of the high-born noble and the humble peasant, +sentiments which the unadorned simplicity of the sacred edifice was +so well calculated to awaken in every mind. Hence, as Lord Castleton +cast a look around upon the simple single-hearted groups who came +there, without disguise or reservation, to confess their errors, the +falsity of his own position struck him more forcibly than it had +ever done before, accompanied with a sense of shame at the deception +he had been practising. True, there was no unworthy motive at the +bottom of that deception; those upon whose credulity he was imposing, +it could not be denied, would in every worldly consideration gain +immensely by his being other than he seemed. But still no candid +mind, and such was Lord Castleton’s naturally, can satisfy itself +with the practice of deceit or artifice in any serious affair. Was +it so certain, after all, that the splendid elevation he designed +for Lucy must necessarily insure her happiness? He had found her +satisfied with herself, contented with all around her--the centre of +a little world, which knew no other. What had been the effect which +his society had already produced upon this tranquil state of mind? +It was evident that it had lowered cousin George in her estimation; +this was an effect, which, if it had stood alone, perhaps he might +not so much have regretted; but was it not accompanied by a feeling +of dissatisfaction at herself, at her involuntary participation in +many former sources of pleasure? and if this was produced merely as +the consequence of adopting his views when listening to him only as +the poor painter Churchill, how much would such a painful sense of +unfitness be aggravated, when bewildered with the strangeness of that +world to which he meant to transplant her; and what could he offer +in compensation, for inflicting that constantly-corroding sense of +self-inferiority, where all had previously been peace and content? +Not only her gentleness would prevent her braving the difficulties of +such a situation, but her very sensibility, which she possessed in +a degree unusual in her rank of life, would make her more alive to +painful sensations. + +All these reflections, vague and half-formed, but generally +unsatisfactory, floated through Castleton’s mind in the intervals +of the service, and gave to his deportment a restless air, as if he +feared impending discovery. This vague consciousness of insecurity +arose principally from the disorder of his own mind, but was not a +little increased by the anxiously inquiring expression on the face +of the person immediately opposite to him, whose penetrating eyes he +found at intervals fixed intently upon him with a searching, though +not an unkind gaze: this he rightly imagined to be Alice Darnell. It +was a countenance which, though it had already lost the freshness +of youth, none could have beheld without interest, even if she had +not appeared in some degree to reciprocate that interest, as was the +case in the present instance. He could not conceal from himself, that +though this must have been the first time she had seen her nephew +George since his long absence, most of her attention was bestowed +upon himself, the stranger. Yet, though her expression was rather +that of melancholy interest than of reproof, the feeling it excited +in his mind was principally dread of her penetration, which caused +him instinctively to drop his eyes beneath her gaze. + +When the service was concluded, and the family party left the church +together, Alice Darnell addressed a few words to him, in which he +could not help fancying that some feeling of interest lurked beneath +a form of studied coldness, and through the guise of commonplace +inquiry; and when the tones of his voice in reply first struck her +ear, the arm which held Lucy trembled violently; and, turning away, +she addressed him no more, but drawing Lucy closely towards her, +after some lengthened whispering between the two, the niece begged +that he would announce to her family, that in consequence of her aunt +not feeling well, she had returned home with her, and they were not +to expect her back to dinner; and turning together down one path, +they left him to pursue his solitary way by that which he had come. + + + + + CHAPTER XIV. + + The crows and choughs, that wing the midway air, + Show scarce so gross as beetles. + SHAKSPEARE. + + For many fathoms doth the beetling rock + Rise o’er the breaker’s surge. + MATURIN. + + +Churchill found that George and his aunt had already returned some +time, as the young sailor’s anxiety to rejoin his fair cousin had +induced him to apply repeated hints, as to the rate of progress, upon +the fat quarters of the cumbrous quadruped before him, which were the +more readily attended to, as that experienced beast knew that his +head was now turned homewards. + +The announcement with which Churchill was charged of Lucy’s absence, +made him very ill received by all the party. Farmer Darnell always +missed his daughter’s affectionate attentions most when labouring +under a fit of lumbago; Mrs. Darnell liked particularly to be +assisted in the arrangement of the Sunday’s repast by some one +more handy than big Betsey, as George always called the Patagonian +maid-of-all-work. And as for George himself, he had been thinking all +the way home how very agreeable he was going to make himself, and how +he meant to show off and amuse his cousin after her dull walk with +that prig of a painter. He therefore looked upon this interloper, +when he appeared alone, as a bird of ill omen to him, and he began to +owe him a grudge for this second separation, though it was not like +the first one, by which the object of his increasing antipathy had +himself profited. + +With such a state of feeling shared amongst the party assembled, the +substantial meal of which they were about to partake was not likely +to be a very lively one, and contrasted singularly with the heartfelt +merriment of the supper of the night before. Indeed, as the majority +of those assembled were not of a rank in life who make conversation +for civility sake, but who, strange as it may appear, literally say +nothing when they have nothing to say, not a word would have been +spoken, had not habit rendered this inveterate silence so irksome to +Lord Castleton, that he could not help hazarding a trite observation +or two on the weather, which, if dropped elsewhere, would have been +taken up, and handed back, and led to reply and rejoinder, but which +were here considered such undeniable truisms, that they were only +received with an unencouraging “humph,” and all again relapsed into +silence, broken only by the clattering of the knives on the plates; +and even this was muffled, when, instead of tearing asunder slices of +beef, they dived in smoother intersections through thick portions of +plum-pudding. + +After dinner the society, if such it could be called, seemed mutually +anxious to separate,--Farmer Darnell to his easy-chair and pipe, Mrs. +Darnell to her household avocations; and as to George and Churchill, +though they probably had the same object and destination in view, one +went out at the back-door merely because the other went out at the +front. + +Churchill bent his way towards the part of the cliff by which he knew +Lucy must return, with no other pretence for lingering there till +her appearance, than that furnished by his small pocket sketch-book; +having got into a great scrape with Mrs. Darnell, on that day +week, by sallying forth, portfolio in hand, as he was considered +so completely as a professional person, that it was reckoned a +profanation of the Lord’s day for him thus to labour in his vocation +on it. The ledge upon the side of the cliff, from which he could +best command the prospect of Lucy’s return, was, however, too much +of a bird’s-eye point of view to be advantageous to a draftsman: +this circumstance, joined to the imperfect implements with which he +was upon this occasion provided, induced him soon to relinquish even +the attempt to exercise his assumed “metier,” and abandon himself to +those reflections which the singularity of the situation in which he +had placed himself, and the events of the last four-and-twenty hours, +had rendered more than ever striking. + +Though sitting with his book open before him, and his pencil in his +hand, so completely had the inward bent of his thoughts shut out the +consciousness of any external objects, that he felt startled when he +heard a voice some paces above him, exclaim, “There she is at last.” +Instinctively, his eyes followed the path by which Lucy must return; +the more natural was this direction, as he recognised the voice above +to be George’s. But he could discern no moving object in the whole +length of the track. Another voice from above, which reminded him of +the harsh tones of Captain Collett, now rejoined, + +“Yes; there, that’ll do; I see you, that’s near enough to show her to +us; now, about with her, you lubbers, there she goes, that’s right.” + +Churchill’s eye dropping from the path on which it had been fixed, +to find out what else these remarks could apply to, he now observed, +for the first time, what under other circumstances would have struck +him merely from its picturesque appearance. Unnoticed by him, a +lugger had neared the point of the cliff, the sun shining gaily on +its light sails, and sparkling in the foam which was dashed back from +its side as it was pressed close up against the wind. Now, however, +even whilst these words were spoken from above, confirming him in the +idea that it was to this vessel the allusion was made, she was on the +sudden put about, more sails were set, and with a fresh breeze from +the land, she dashed rapidly out into the open sea. + +The projecting ledge of rock, which formed rather an awful sort of +canopy to the niche within which Churchill was sitting, effectually +prevented his being seen by those who might be leaning against the +stone-wall at the top of the cliff; as he rightly conjectured the +two persons whose observations he had just heard now were. Provided +with so unsuspicious an excuse as his sketch-book for continuing +where he was, he determined to take his chance for overhearing some +more communications which (he hardly knew why) powerfully excited his +curiosity. + +But though only separated by a few paces from those who spoke, in +spite of straining his attention, which the more he listened the +more he felt inclined to do, he could but very imperfectly catch the +purport of what was said; sometimes, in the middle of a sentence, a +louder and a longer wave would break, roaring on the shingle beneath; +sometimes a screaming seabird would hover round his head, as if on +purpose to baulk him. + +“Well, Darnell, my lad,” said Captain Collett, “so all’s right. Jack +Dawkins has not mistaken the land-marks. And you were not more glad +to see again your friends of last night, not even the tight little +Lucy, than I am to see heave in sight my first of favourites, ‘_La +Pie voleuse_.’” + +“And I should see her with much more pleasure if she were not so near +my friends of last night. She’s not the right sort of company for +them; and between ourselves, Captain, now it’s come to the point, I +dread their becoming better acquainted with each other.” + +“And since when has the wind set in that quarter, lad? Didn’t you, +yourself, remind me, who know the whole line of coast, what a snug +place to land----” + +Here the screaming of the sea-gulls above Churchill’s head, and +the roar of the breakers beneath his feet, combined to prevent his +catching the remainder of Collett’s answer; and when these noises +were again comparatively calmed, he heard George protesting--“Nay, +never say I’m ungrateful, or that I can forget the ugly scrape you +helped me out of this time three years; or that I repent the merry +period of adventure we passed together the last months of the war in +our privateering cruises; but that was other-guess work, when, if one +did chance to get knocked of the head, no one knew or cared whether +the venture we were engaged in chimed in with the exact letter of the +law. Who thought of George Darnell then? and whether he was washed +overboard with a bullet in his body or without, no one would grieve +about his death more or less for the manner of it. But somehow, +coming back here amongst kith and kin, and finding them all the same, +I can’t help wishing I was so myself.” + +“Oh, certainly!” rejoined Captain Collett with a sneer, “they must +seem all the same to you: above all, Lucy; she has thought of no +one else since you first left home, and she’s only had that painter +chap here on purpose to meet you, that he may paint her your picture +against your next cruise. He was a studying her face pretty closely, +you’ll be glad to hear, when I met them going to church this morning.” + +Churchill could only hear, in reply to this, the immortal part +of himself condemned to everlasting perdition in the emphatic +monosyllable usually applied to such a purpose. Whether the very +vehemence with which this was uttered warned the speaker himself +afterwards to drop his voice, or the surrounding noises again +conspired to drown it, but it was some time before the listener +could again make out what was said; when he did, George was saying, +apparently in answer to some remonstrance of the other, “Never fear, +you have my word, and you shall find me as faithful here as if I +was still on the smooth white sands of Cherbourg or the shingles of +Sussex; all I meant was, that when this morning I paced along the +churchyard amongst the tombstones, that told of those who had borne +the name of Darnell in peace and good-will to all around them, and +now seemed to meet my eye on all sides as if to remind me of that +with honest pride, I felt----But what signifies explaining to you +feelings which are not at all in your line; they may be between me +and my rest, but they shall not come between my word and you.” + +The conference seemed here to be interrupted, for George halloed out +suddenly in a louder voice, “Avast, Mary! whither away so fast?” + +“To Bankside, to say that mistress is but poorly, and Miss Lucy will +stay with her aunt to-night.” + +“All goes contrary,” muttered George in reply. + +“Well, Mary, say you spoke me by the way, and I bore the message for +you;” and George and his companion upon this prepared to return +homewards. + +Churchill remained a few minutes behind, absorbed in reflections +upon what he had so imperfectly collected. It appeared, though he +could not exactly make out in what enterprise they were at present +engaged, that Captain Collett was a very dangerous companion for +his young friend, and that he had, perhaps, already involved him in +some scrape which would effect his future respectability in life. +There was nothing which he could distinctly gather in the shape of an +accusation from the conversation he had just heard; but he determined +to be upon the watch, and, should any thing further happen to confirm +his suspicions, to communicate them to Farmer Darnell, and in the +mean time to watch the next apparition on the coast of the “Pie +Voleuse,” which he now saw, after having run about a mile before the +wind straight out from the land, was standing to the southward: he +felt, at the same time, much disappointed at the protracted absence +of Lucy; and, anticipating nothing but discomfort in the present +state of the Darnell family, returned to Bankside Farm. + + + + + CHAPTER XV. + + Out of thy long experienced time + Give me some counsel. + SHAKSPEARE. + + A faint, but faithful, portraiture of one + Most dearly loved, and now for ever lost. + + +The agitation of Alice Darnell, which had struck Churchill as +remarkable, was not seen without surprise by her niece, who had never +previously, in all their intercourse, observed any break in her +usually composed demeanour, or a ruffle in her equable manners. She +said no more in the course of their hurried return to her cottage, +but occasionally pressed affectionately Lucy’s arm, on which she +leaned, and gazed earnestly in her face with an expression of +anxious tenderness. + +Upon reaching home, she drew her niece into her snug little +neatly-furnished parlour, and throwing herself upon the sofa, covered +her face for some minutes with her hands, seeming not to hear Lucy’s +repeated requests to know what she could do to comfort her. At last, +raising herself, as if with an effort, and looking up in Lucy’s face +with a countenance strongly marked with the expression of inward +suffering, she asked abruptly--“And you say his name is Churchill?” +Her niece answering in the affirmative, she continued--“But what can +the name tell, which may easily be an assumed one? It is not that +the features, or even the countenance, are the same; but there is +something in the air and manner which too strongly recall---- And +oh, above every thing, the expression of those eyes, when he looked +tenderly on her--I had hoped that I had forgotten that of which they +renew the recollection with the freshness of yesterday. In the last +few minutes I have lived over again months of suffering, which I had +hoped, in vain, subsequent years of repose and resignation had almost +effaced from my too vivid recollection. It is but one effort more, +and for your sake I will make the attempt. Those events, which, by +constantly refusing to dwell upon, I had hoped the obliterating hand +of time was gradually glossing over, I now find as distinctly scarred +as ever in the deeply-cut tablets of my memory. It will but cost me +one more pang, that they should assume the tangible shape of words, +and operate as a warning to my beloved niece, in the danger which I +think at present threatens her. Lucy, Churchill loves you, and you +must cease to love him.’” + +The poor girl, whose youth, innocence, and ignorance of the world +would have prevented her being able to define the nature of her own +feelings towards Churchill, had that habitual deference for her +aunt’s judgment, that she would never have supposed that she could +be mistaken in any opinion so oracularly delivered, and, therefore, +never thought of disputing what she seemed to take for granted, +that she had already begun to love Churchill; though she could not +account why, if this was the case, the idea of George should rise at +the same moment in her mind. She made no reply, but seating herself +at her aunt’s feet, and hiding her face on her knees, waited some +explanation of the last sentence. + +“I feel assured,” continued Alice Darnell, “as of my own existence, +that he is elevated far above your rank in life; and trust me, I +speak from my own experience, when I say there are no sufferings at +all to compare with those which arise from unequal attachments. +Whether the resemblance which so strongly struck my imagination is +other than a strange coincidence, I have no means of judging; but +that Churchill is other than that which he here passes himself to +be, I feel I cannot be mistaken.--Lucy, it is necessary that, in +what I am about to say, I should speak to you much of myself; that I +should disclose many parts of my early life, which have been hitherto +concealed, not only from you, but from those of your relations nearer +my own age, with whom you have been living. My brother is only +partially informed of much of what I am going, without reserve, to +lay before you. Much I shall have to speak of feelings which neither +his habits nor his disposition would have enabled him to understand. +The principal facts I felt it my duty to confide to him, and it was +at his desire that no mention whatever was made of them to your +mother; for though blame might not be attachable to me, there were +circumstances which, he said, her peculiar mode of thinking might +make subject of reproach. If now I speak more openly to you than I +have ever done to any one, it is because, in spite of that complete +ignorance of the world, which your position has implanted, I have +always observed in you a fund of natural good sense, which will +induce you to make the right use of that practical warning which I am +urged to try as an experiment, from the similarity, in many respects, +of the position in which you at present are, to that whence I derived +every misery except disgrace. + +“Your father and I were early left orphans. George’s father had +already been some time at sea when our parents died, therefore the +loss to him was not so great as to myself and my elder brother. An +old bachelor, relative of ours, undertook the management of the +farm, and the instruction of your father in the art by which he was +to live. It was more difficult to decide what was to become of me. +But it was at length determined nominally, upon the authority of +our guardian, but in reality by the advice of the gossips in the +neighbourhood, and my own wish, that I should be placed at what +was called a finishing-establishment for young ladies, at a small +sea-bathing place thirty miles from hence. I had not, however, +long been there, before, at one of the exhibitions for which this +school was celebrated, I attracted the attention of an excellent +and talented, but eccentric elderly lady of the name of Nesbit, who +happened to be staying at ---- for the season. Mrs. Nesbit had long +been left a widow with a large fortune, the greater part of which she +spent in the encouragement of the fine arts. In most of these, in her +younger days, she had herself been no indifferent proficient; but +latterly, her increasing infirmities had confined the exercise of her +taste to admiration of the skill of others. Frequent attacks of gout +in the hand had prevented her continuing her pencil, of the previous +success of which her boudoir still showed some favourable specimens; +and the same cause deprived the world of many records of her playful +imagination, in which she had formerly indulged, when still able to +write as quickly as she could think. Perhaps, of all the trials to +which the progress of physical infirmities subject us, there is none +so melancholy as when they produce the forced inaction of previously +well exercised faculties. + +“Yet, though my acquaintance with Mrs. Nesbit only commenced after +she was already suffering in a cruel degree from manifold privations +of this nature, I never saw her temper the least ruffled by any +feeling of envy at the happier state of others; her kind disposition, +and her still fresh feelings, enabled her to derive unalloyed +pleasure from the success of others. When in London, her house was +always full of those who had most recently exerted themselves in any +line with distinction; and even when I have known her to have been +suffering acute bodily pain, I have seen her benevolent countenance +light up, as if the triumph was her own, when any new aspirant for +fame has been brought to one of her choice little evening reunions, +to hear from her own lips the acknowledgment of the pleasure she +had derived from his successful efforts. At the period when I first +became an inmate in her house, she had just acquired the afflicting +consciousness that she could not, without risking the total loss +of eyesight, indulge as formerly in reading for any time together +to herself. This was, to a person of her tastes, the most cruel +privation with which she had as yet been threatened, and one which it +required all her resignation to bear with equanimity. + +“It was to alleviate her loss in this respect, that having been +pleased with something she observed in my voice and elocution at one +of our school exhibitions, she easily persuaded me to accompany her +to London as a companion, whose principal duty was to be reading +aloud to my benefactress,--most sincerely may I so style her. For +though I know that generally there is no fate more deplored than that +of a dependant companion, yet, whilst I was in that much stigmatized +situation, I experienced nothing but kindness, and I derived nothing +but pleasure from the occupation which it entailed on me. + +“Our readings generally consisted of the best works of the day, and +when not satisfactorily supplied with those, selections from the +first poets and dramatists. Mrs. Nesbit was an enthusiast about many +of these, but Shakspeare was her idol; and it was in my endeavours +to please her, by showing that I really felt the beauties which I +was the medium of conveying, that I first cultivated that taste for +elocution, which, as you will see, I afterwards exercised in a wider +field. The first feelings of gratified vanity I had upon the subject, +was when Mrs. Nesbit would half raise herself upon her sofa, and +after gazing at me intently for some time, interrupt me with, + +“‘My dear Alice, what an actress you would make!’ + +“Amongst the many distinguished persons of every profession who +used then to frequent my friend’s select circle, was often to be +found that great actor, whose name you have often heard me mention +with enthusiasm, when we have been reading together either Hamlet +or Macbeth;--I mean the head of that family who have for nearly +half a century upheld the character of the stage, as much by their +virtues, as they have supported its attraction by their talents. +He was, indeed, a noble creature; perhaps only too exalted and +abstracted in his view of human nature for the matter-of-fact age +in which he finished his career. But the revival of recollections +of that time is leading me from the point on which I wish to speak, +even had I no other and graver object in what I am saying. It is not +with you, who never beheld him, that I should vindicate my opinion +of the professional pre-eminence of the person in question. I only +alluded to him, because my partial benefactress often led this great +artist to participate, apparently with warmth and sincerity, in her +favourable opinion of my uninstructed attempts at recitation; and +as enthusiasm, real or assumed, was not his characteristic, this +testimony gave us both the greater pleasure. + +“In the midst of all this, and whilst my friend was getting every day +more attached to me, I was unexpectedly deprived of her invaluable +protection, by a sudden attack of gout in the stomach, which proved +fatal to her in the nighttime, and before assistance could be +procured. + +“One moment I must pause upon the awakened recollections of my +earliest friend and benefactress, whose awfully sudden end exercised +so great an influence on my future fate, and I will then proceed.” + + + + + CHAPTER XVI. + + Is it not monstrous that this player here, + But in a fiction, in a dream of passion, + Could force his soul so to his own conceit? + SHAKSPEARE. + + When and where and how we met, we wooed + And made exchange of vows, I’ll tell thee. + IBID. + + +“It had not been in Mrs. Nesbit’s power to provide adequately for me; +the whole of her income having been derived from a handsome jointure, +which, at her death, reverted to her husband’s heir-at-law. A codicil +to her will conferred on me, as a legacy, the small sum in ready +money which her liberal, though not extravagant style of living, +had left at her banker’s; it also conveyed to me all her library of +books, most of which you now see round you. Utterly unprotected as I +was, thus once again left, and still only eighteen, it was necessary +that I should determine without delay upon the course which, under +these circumstances, I wished to pursue. + +“Perhaps it was a natural defect in my character, only elicited by +the situation in which I had been lately placed, that made me shrink +instinctively from returning once more amongst the kind, but rude +and uncivilized companions of my earlier days. Combined with this +dislike to that which was the obvious course for a young girl like me +to pursue, recollections arose continually of Mrs. Nesbit’s evidently +sincere opinion--‘My dear Alice, what an actress you would make!’ +which gradually produced an uncontrollable longing to embark in that +precarious profession: the exercise of which, in my unpractised +mind, as yet only associated with the idea of such partial encomiums +and kind criticisms as had hitherto met my ear from the friendly +circle in Mrs. Nesbit’s drawing-room. + +“Once having made up my mind, I determined to consult the great +actor, whom I have before mentioned, upon the best manner of putting +my project into execution. He seemed much embarrassed at the nature +of my appeal. It appeared as if it never had occurred to him, from +the sort of society in which he had heard me give specimens of my +abilities, that it was likely I should ever be called upon thus to +exert them professionally. + +“He told me, that he should be deficient in candour, if he did not +repeat what he had formerly said, ‘that he thought me eminently +qualified to succeed should I really be determined to try the stage; +but,’ he added, ‘in spite of those brilliant prospects, he could +never dispassionately advise any one so young and unprotected to +take such a step; and if the advice which I sought from him was not +as to the best means of doing that upon which I had already decided, +but that I would consult him as to the expediency of doing so at all, +he would do all in his power to dissuade me, at least at present, +from thinking of such a thing.’ I thanked him sincerely for his +kindness, and expressed no more gratitude than I felt towards him, +but still adhered to my determination, representing to him how little +I knew what else to do with myself, and how sanguine I felt at being +able and willing to surmount all the difficulties and inconveniences +of the first steps of the profession. Seeing me determined, he gave +me letters of introduction and recommendation to some connexions of +his, then in the management of one of the first provincial circuits. + +“By them I was, in consequence, most cordially received, and offered +a choice of any character I chose for my _debut_. Long before that +night arrived, I found out how differently my exertions were likely +to be estimated here, and at Mrs. Nesbit’s. There, in the absence of +all competition, praise excited no envy, and captious criticism would +have been avoided as ill-breeding. Here my arrival had disturbed +long-established claims to admiration, and had excited, first dismay, +and then dislike. I had chosen Juliet for my first appearance, a +choice most young ladies have made before me, and probably will do +as long as ‘debutantes’ of eighteen each season succeed one another. +I was not aware of the offence this was likely to give till after +it was all settled; when I found I had displaced a majestic-looking +widow lady, whose name appeared upon the prompter’s books as having +been in undisputed possession of the part for nearly twenty years; a +prescriptive right upon which she rested her claims, perhaps rather +technically than judiciously. Had it been a young girl, like myself, +with whom I interfered, she might have relied upon the anticipation +of my failure, and upon the part then reverting to her; but this lady +felt that her hitherto uninterrupted tenure once broken in upon, it +was not likely it would ever be revived. + +“Under her auspices, therefore, was organized a party to cry down my +inexperienced attempts, and, with my eyes thus officiously opened to +my own defects, I felt, as much as they could impress upon me, how +very far from perfect I then was. + +“It was all so different to me from the dining-room of Mrs. +Nesbit--the mere walking the stage was a difficulty which I thought +I should never get over, particularly when, at each of the wings, I +always found during my rehearsals, some of my new friends to explain +to me, solely for my good, how ridiculous something which I had done +had been. The contrast between my present mortified feelings and my +previously over-sanguine expectations was so great, that I should +have been completely disheartened, and, perhaps, abandoned the stage +in despair, but for the good-natured encouragement of many others +of the company. All the effect, therefore, which this attempt had +upon me, was to determine me to defer, till we removed to the next +town in the circuit, my first appearance; and in the mean time, to +study hard to acquire technical facilities, and to conquer those +defects, of which I ought to thank my rival for having taken such +pains to make me aware. The play had been announced, and therefore +was not withdrawn, but an apology was made for the non-appearance of +the _debutante_, and my matronly substitute once more “strutted and +fretted” with ill-concealed triumph through the childish sorrows of +Juliet. This exhibition was also a useful preparation for me, as it +taught me many practical tricks to avoid. + +“The company removed to a fashionable watering-place, then in full +season, and at length my first appearance was positively fixed. And +here let me do justice to the general kindly feelings of fellowship +which I found to exist amongst the members of a profession, which +by no means creates evil passions, though it may occasionally +concentrate into a strong focus the causes which usually excite their +display. That constant and close collision of pretensions, in which +self-love must receive daily wounds, may naturally have a tendency to +produce that envy and spirit of detraction, from which no society is +free, not even that, where the contests of vanity are for the most +unimportant objects, and between the most independent persons. But +amongst my brethren of the stage, I generally found these feelings as +fleeting as the passing pageant which had excited them; and in all +essentials they might challenge a comparison with any of those whose +own means were most assured, in their eagerness to extend from their +own precarious provision, encouraging sympathy to the efforts of the +inexperienced, and substantial support to the decay of the aged. + +“In my own case, the interested attempt to crush a young beginner, +excited in many of the company a strong feeling in my favour; and the +interval which had elapsed had certainly been of considerable service +to me, perhaps not a little in destroying that ill-grounded feeling +of self-confidence, in which the partial panegyrics of friends had +previously nursed me. But the want of this very much increased the +terrors of the awful approaching trial. + +“Perhaps the time I had now unassumingly passed amongst them had +predisposed the company in my favour; but during the last day +or two before my attempt, it is impossible to do justice to the +almost paternal interest shown for me by nearly every member, from +the amiable manager himself, down to the apothecary of the night. +Still, nothing could alleviate the overpowering sensation which I +experienced when the anxious moment I so long anticipated actually +arrived. The house was crowded in every part. The cheering welcome +with which I was received upon my first entrance did not dispel my +fears, as I felt that it was only so much advanced in trust that, +by my exertions, I would afterwards repay it. But as the play +proceeded, and I recovered my confidence, the first spontaneous +burst of applause which rang from every part of the house caused a +consciousness of triumph, quite unlike any thing I had ever before +experienced. It proclaimed a mysterious command over the unsuspecting +sympathies of a mixed multitude, which was immeasurably superior to +the finest compliment that had ever gratified my ear in Mrs. Nesbit’s +drawing-room. My success was complete; I may now, without vanity, +refer to it as unparalleled. + +“Amongst the most enthusiastic of my supporters was a party of +officers in the stage-box. The period to which I refer was that +during the late war, when the militia was quartered about the +country, the officers of which often contained in their number many +men of rank and fortune; of this party the greater number were +uniform in their acclamations. But even on that night of agitating +triumph I could not help remarking the evident admiration of one +officer, who did not join in the vehement demonstrations of his +companions, but sat in the corner nearest the stage, with his +speaking eyes fixed upon me with an expression which, perhaps, +derived some of its intensity from the strong glare of the foot +lights, which cast a pale hue over the rest of his features. +Overpowered with congratulations on all sides, I retired to rest +after my triumph, and slept soundly, only that in a confused dream +of happiness the one distinct object that presented itself was the +expressive countenance in the stage-box. + +“My _debut_ had been so beyond expectation successful, and the +crowded houses every night I played was such an unquestionable +proof of increasing attraction, that the very excess of my triumph +destroyed at once every spirit of rivalry, as it became obvious +that my stay there could not extend beyond the little probationary +practice, and that before many months elapsed I should be on the +metropolitan boards. Even my _ci-devant_ rival, whose term was just +up, accepted a re-engagement, subject to the condition of her +exchanging for the present the girlish white satin of Juliet for the +motherly black velvet of Lady Capulet. + +“Still, upon every succeeding night of my appearance, the same young +officer, sometimes alone, sometimes accompanied, was always in the +same corner of the stage-box. + +“This had continued for some weeks without our ever becoming +acquainted, and thus his admiration appeared purely professional. +The fame I had acquired, and whatever personal attractions I then at +eighteen could boast, caused me, whenever I stirred out, to be much +followed by many of the idlers of the public walks, but never by him; +and the wise regulations of the manager, considering the mixed nature +of the company at a watering-place, put many difficulties in the way +of the intrusion of strangers into the green-room. + +“One evening, however, under some pretence or other, two of the +brother officers of my unknown admirer had contrived to introduce +themselves there in a state that evidently showed they had rendered +themselves unfit for any society. But, at the period to which I +refer, it was not so well established, as now I hear it is, that, +to appear drunk, was ‘unbecoming the character of an officer and +a gentleman.’ The most noisy of these made me the object of his +loathsome addresses; the disturbance he created had reached the front +of the house, and my brother actors were endeavouring, by quiet +remonstrances, to induce him to withdraw, when my unknown friend +entered the room, and seizing him by the arm, with an authoritative +movement of the head, motioned him to retire with him. + +“The offender seemed awed for the moment, and did as he was desired. +Being called at that moment to the wing, I overheard, at the distance +of a few paces from me, the continuance of their conference. + +“‘What d----d nonsense,’ said the offender, ‘why, she’s only an +actress.’ + +“‘If you had any of your senses left,’ retorted the other, in an +impassioned tone which went to my heart, ‘you would see that there +could be no reason that a person who, by the display of every grace, +and the exercise of consummate talent, commands the sympathies of the +most refined, should, on that very account, tolerate the disgusting +approaches of such a beast as you have made of yourself.’ + +“‘A very fine sermon for a soldier; so, amen! and I shall go back to +my beauty.’ + +“‘Hold!’ said my defender, stopping him, ‘I am most serious--if you +will listen to my advice, so much the better; but I am determined by +foul means, if I cannot by fair, to prevent your returning.’ + +“A short scuffle, and but a short one, ensued; for my defender, +though much the slighter of the two, was perfectly steady, an +advantage of which the other had deprived himself, and, seizing his +athletic antagonist by the nape of the neck, with one push he sent +him from the top of the stairs to the bottom. + +“Persons, in the state in which he then was, are said not to be +easily hurt, or else I should have thought he must have been killed; +however, he rose without injury, and departed, very angry, and +determined to take ulterior measures. + +“Just at the moment this occurred, I was obliged to appear upon +the stage, which I did in a state of agitation that was afterwards +remarked upon. The consequence of this altercation was a meeting +between the two officers; my champion received a ball through his +right arm; but his antagonist, from his conduct in the whole brawl, +suffered, like Cassio, such a wound in his reputation, that his +brother officers visited his fault with the same punishment as +Othello did that of his lieutenant, and compelled him to quit the +regiment. + +“That all this could not occur in a small gossiping watering-place, +without being recounted in a thousand different ways, and not all +to my advantage, you may well imagine;--though when I say _you_ may +well imagine, I forget my poor dear child, that, up to this moment, +you are happily ignorant how peculiarly prone that ever-changing +compound, called the world, is to decry any one who has previously +excited its admiration. Many stories that were then circulated +never wounded my ears; but they had been widely diffused: for one +morning, some days after this had happened, I was sitting in my +room with my fellow-lodger, an excellent elderly lady, the DUENNA on +the stage, but off it the Lady Bountiful of our company, with whom +I had arranged to keep house, as a sort of protectress to my youth, +when the maid brought in a card with the name of Captain Somers, +who begged to be admitted. The publicity which had been given to +the late affair, had, of course, made me acquainted with the name +of my declared defender and previously unknown admirer. Gratitude, +of course, required that I should admit him. He looked dangerously +interesting, with the arm which had been wounded in a black sling +over his uniform, and his countenance still showing traces of his +late confinement. He appeared embarrassed at first, as he apologized +for his intrusion, which he said was to hope I would excuse any +unpleasant construction which might be put upon his unauthorised +interference in my behalf, which, he said, had arisen unintentionally +out of the circumstances of the case: that he felt at the time he +could not do otherwise; but that he much regretted the publicity of +the whole affair. I could not do less than thank him most warmly for +his generous interposition to save me from insult; and I, in my turn, +felt embarrassed in doing so: an awkwardness which was not diminished +by my fellow lodger taking advantage of that opportunity to rise and +leave the room. + +“If Captain Somers and I then were lovers, we were not perfect in +our parts, for the conversation was by no means easy or animated, +now we were left alone; indeed it was many weeks before he spoke of +love, and so imperceptibly did we arrive at that point, that when +he first pleaded his passion, so far from falling strangely on my +ears, it seemed to me as if he had never previously spoken on any +other subject. But where is the woman who requires to be told she +is beloved? and how much more precious are the moments, when that +consciousness is derived from any other source than that of the +tongue? + +“The innocent intercourse which from this time subsisted between us, +so far from detracting from my profession, gave me an additional +stimulus to exertion. Somers was an accomplished critic; and no +indifferent praise, however unqualified, is half so sweet as +little improving suggestions softly hinted by an admiring lover. +Yet ignorant as I then was of the world, and wrapped up in my own +day-dreams of love and fame, I had my misgivings that Somers’s was +not an unmingled happiness; indeed, sometimes it was with pain I +beheld the occasional fits of despondency to which he seemed subject, +without my being able to divine the cause. During all this time +he never mentioned his family, and I knew nothing of it beyond the +reports amongst the company, to which I listened little, and did not +attach much credit. Months passed over, and the time arrived when +we were to remove to our next quarters, a large seaport town in the +south, whilst the ****shire militia were to continue in their present +station.” + + + + + CHAPTER XVII. + + A greater power than we can contradict + Hath thwarted our intents. Come, come away; + Thy husband in thy bosom lieth dead. + SHAKSPEARE. + + +“The prospect of this separation appeared to be anticipated with +much dread by Somers, and he sighed over each succeeding day that +diminished the interval that remained to us. Having always beheld +in him this desire to linger over each departing moment, I was much +surprised, two days before the time that I was to have left, to +receive a note from him, announcing his own departure. It was short, +and only, ‘I dare not say more, till farther assured of the truth of +what I have heard, than that I trust this temporary absence will, in +the end, lead to the reverse of separation.’ I endeavoured to rest +satisfied with this mysterious consolation, and contrive to keep up +my spirits during our own removal; but when week after week passed +over at our new quarters, without my hearing farther from Somers, the +secret anxiety which preyed upon me began to affect my professional +exertions, and diminish my popularity. At length Somers returned: he +was in deep mourning, and from his manner had evidently something to +communicate, whilst the warmth of his affection for me seemed to have +gained strength from absence. + +“The whole mystery of his conduct was now unravelled. It appeared +that he was the only son of Lord Castleton; that whilst yet scarcely +of age, he had been induced by his father, whose estates were much +embarrassed, to marry a rich heiress; that she, well knowing for +what he had married her, never thought it necessary to give him +that affection which he did not seem to require; that after the +birth of one son, they lived little together. The peace of Amiens +happening about that time, she had, under the pretence of ill health, +obtained his ready permission to go with some of her own family to +the Continent, whilst his parliamentary duties, which were then new +to him, gave him, on his side, as ready an excuse for remaining in +England. + +“At the sudden breaking out of the war, Mrs. Somers, with many others +of her countrymen and women, became a _detenue en France_. As long +as she had been allowed to remain at Paris, this forced detention +had not appeared to be unpleasant to her, but when, for some reason +not explained, she had forfeited the favour which had procured her +that indulgence, and had been exiled to a small provincial town in +France, she had become very anxious to return to her own country. But +reports which had reached Somers of her levity, had not caused him +to regret more than he would have done at the period of their former +separation, that it was utterly out of his power to facilitate such +an event. He owned that upon first becoming acquainted with me, he +had looked forward to that sort of temporary connexion, which would +have thrown a gleam of happiness over his at present solitary home; +but that as a more intimate knowledge of my character showed him +the purity of my unsuspecting innocence, he at the same time began +to entertain doubts both as to the propriety of acting upon such +an intention, and the probability of succeeding in it. Hence all +his inward struggles and ill-concealed fits of despondency. Just as +he had almost brought himself to determine that the period of my +removing from * * * * * should terminate our connexion, he received +a report of the death of Mrs. Somers in France. His first impression +was merely the shock of the sudden removal of one so young from the +world, with whom he had been so closely connected: and though he had +never loved her, all his own faults towards her now crowded upon +his recollection. Oppressed with these feelings, though he already +began to cherish half-formed hopes for the future, he would not see +me before leaving * * * * *; especially as he wished first that the +intelligence which lie had heard should receive farther confirmation. +This had been obtained in London to the full extent that could be +expected, from the imperfect communication between two countries in a +state of war. + +“He now pressed for an immediate and private marriage. That it +should be immediate, he pleaded only too strongly the excess of his +passion: that it must be private, he at the same time owned, to allow +him to remove the opposition of an aged parent, and from a feeling +of delicacy on account of the deep mourning he still wore for Mrs. +Somers. Almost wild as I was with the prospects of happiness which +were thus opening to me, I still felt shocked at the suddenness of +the proposal; but so unlimited had become his influence over me, that +he could have proposed nothing, consistent with honour, to which I +would not have readily acceded. I pleaded for delay, I fear feebly--I +know ineffectually. Somers had brought with him an old college +friend, to perform the ceremony, upon whose secrecy he could rely, +and who was to leave the town immediately after. Fatal precipitancy! +We were married the next morning. So anxious was Somers that nothing +should occur on which to hang a suspicion of the event which had +taken place, that he even recommended my performing as usual +that night at the theatre. His will was law to me, and I made no +objection, though I own, a presentiment of evil oppressed my spirits, +when the prompter gave out ‘Isabella, or the Fatal Marriage,’ as the +performance of that evening. + +“My husband, with what pride I then thought of him as such, occupied +his usual place in the stage-box. In the first act, whilst kneeling +before Count Baldwin, I could not help fancying that the words were +addressed to that obdurate father-in-law, whose forgiveness was +necessary to the acknowledgment of our marriage; this gave a peculiar +energy to my appeal, which added much to the effect of the scene, +and crowned my exertions with a success, much beyond that which had +latterly attended my more languid efforts. + +“In the midst of the thunder of applause which followed, a party of +naval officers entered the box where Somers sat, accompanied by a +lady, dressed in the height of the French fashion, which, as there +was then little communication between the countries, was never worn +without exciting much attention. The eyes of the whole house were +in consequence turned on the lady. Somers rose upon their entrance; +but upon turning round to observe them, it appeared to me as if he +staggered, and leant for support against the side of the box; in +this position, the light of the stage-lamps fell strongly upon his +features, and showed to me his whole face, even his very lips, of a +deadly paleness. Before rushing out of the box he cast one long look +of utter despair on me. I could not then comprehend its meaning, but +it was the last I ever received from my husband. _My_ husband did I +say? He was HER’S. It was Mrs. Somers who had entered the box! + +“Yet even in the dreadful suspense in which I was left, my surmises +never reached the horrible truth. What agony it was to go on +acting--acting through five long acts; yet I forced myself to +proceed, with the recollection that Somers had wished me to avoid +anything that might lead to the premature discovery of our marriage. +Yet, what a night was that on which to assume fictitious woe! And +there she sat, and at such a moment ’twas I that was pampering her +morbid sensibilities. Even then she wept in torrents at my ideal +sorrows, and was carried out in convulsions, unable to bear the sight +of my assumed madness and despair--she whose unlooked-for appearance +in the world was about to bereave me of every earthly hope. And even +in those moments thus trifled away in such wretched mockery of grief, +what fatally real horrors were preparing for me! + +“Somers had rushed homewards in a state approaching to delirium; he +locked himself in his dressing-room. Fatal chance! His pistol-case +lay on the table beside him. He was alone. His state was desperate. +The sudden revulsion from the height of expectant happiness had been +too much for him. Look which way he might, he saw no opening for +hope; and there was no friendly hand to stay his frantic purpose. +Where was I then? Which way employed? I never can bear to think +of it. Hurrying impatiently homewards the moment I was free to do +so. All was then over. Amidst a crowd which was already collected, +I found Mrs. Somers, who had left the theatre, overpowered by her +sensibility, which my fictitious sufferings had excited; now bending +over the remains of what had been _her_ husband, and, I still +thought, _mine_. But the mouth which that morning had breathed its +vows to me, was now distorted in death---shattered by the desperate +aim of the pistol. Oh, Lucy, even I endeavoured in vain to recognize +those loved features as I pushed aside every one,--yes, even _her_, +to assume for the last time that position by him which I thought mine +by right. + +“Mrs. Somers rose indignantly, and the dreadful cause of this horrid +scene broke fearfully upon me, through a torrent of the most vehement +abuse which she launched upon my devoted head, such as an irritated +woman thinks herself justified in venting upon the most degraded +of her own sex. I could have submitted meekly to all she said--I +hardly heeded it, till she called me her husband’s murderess. Was I +that?--Yes, at that moment I felt myself a guilty creature; for what +precious moments had I not wasted in the unmeaning garb of mimic woe, +whilst he was left alone in his despair to do the horrid deed! Had I +but been there, I would have suffered shame, I fear even dishonour, +to have saved him; nay, more, I would have renounced him for ever, +I would have restored his newly-plighted faith, to have preserved +his precious life, and to have been allowed to offer prayers for his +happiness.” + +Alice Darnell forced herself to gasp forth these last words, and +then sunk back senseless. When Lucy had succeeded in restoring her +to herself, she said, “I thought I never could have brought myself +to revive in words these harrowing recollections. You see to what a +state it has reduced me, and how unfit I am now to draw from the sad +tale that practical warning I had wished, as to the danger of unequal +attachments,--above all, of surrendering the affections where any +mystery involves the object. One word I may as well now add, that you +may understand the events which I have detailed. I said that Somers +had one infant son, but it had remained with his grandfather, Lord +Castleton, from the time its mother first went abroad. The rumour of +Mrs. Somers’ death had been purposely circulated to facilitate her +attempt to escape: so anxious had she latterly been to leave that +country which she had sought for pleasure, that she embarked in an +open boat, and had been taken up by an English cruiser, the captain +of which paid her every attention. It was accompanied by him that, +upon landing, she had gone to the theatre, and within a twelvemonth +from that time she became his wife. To-morrow, dearest Lucy, I shall +be calm, and better able to speak farther, but you must stay here +with me to-night.” + + + + + CHAPTER XVIII. + + Your sorrow was too sore laid on, + Which sixteen winters cannot blow away, + So many summers dry. Scarce any joy + Did ever live so long; no sorrow + But killed itself much sooner. + SHAKSPEARE. + + Is passion to be learned then? wouldst thou make + A science of affection? guide the heart, + And lead it where to fix? + + +Such was the sad tale of her own blighted hopes which Alice Darnell +forced herself to reveal to her beloved niece, with the fond hope +that so striking a proof of the danger of unguardedly pledging the +affections, where evident incongruity of station was combined with +mystery and apparent concealment, might operate as a check upon +that growing partiality for Churchill, which she dreaded had already +taken root in Lucy’s heart. With this view, when the next morning +she had in a great degree recovered her usual composure, she dwelt +more on how much she had herself suffered from her imprudence, in +having admitted a stranger, and one obviously her superior, into an +intimacy, without due caution in previously ascertaining what his +actual situation was. Had she but been timely informed of Colonel +Somers’ marriage, how much would have been spared them both, and how +dearly had he paid for his tacit deceit on this subject. + +She farther proceeded to affirm her own conviction that Churchill +was not exactly what he pretended to be: in this opinion she owned +that she might be rather biassed by the extraordinary resemblance, +though more in air and expression than in form and features, which +he bore to one, the recollection of whom she had never ceased to +cherish since his untimely loss. But though this coincidence might +rather influence her judgment, yet, independent of this, she had +had opportunities, in the best society at Mrs. Nesbit’s, just at +that age when outward impressions are more strongly distinguished, +of exercising her talents as a close observer of manners; and +the peculiar tact which she had on this subject, had very much +contributed to make her efforts in comedy rival her success in +tragedy, during her short theatrical career. It has, too, been +remarked throughout, that Castleton was by no means a skilful actor +of the part he had assumed; and to a person of Alice Darnell’s +discrimination, the evident constraint with which one of his rank in +life assumed the manners of an inferior station, though distinct in +its nature, was not less remarkable, than the awkward assumption of +refinement by a vulgar person. The obvious embarrassment, too, with +which he avoided her searching observation, could only be explained +by there existing some reason for concealment. + +But the penetration with which Alice Darnell had discovered her +niece’s danger, was more conspicuous than the judgment of the course +which she took to avoid it. For though Alice Darnell had been a +faithful and interesting representative of the outward aspect of +human passion, as described by others; though in her own person she +had internally felt as strongly as any one its devastating power; she +had, perhaps, for that very reason, never examined closely or coolly +the various causes to which it sometimes owes its origin, or traced +to their sources the crooked channels through which, in its earlier +stages, flow some of those springs which all combine in the end to +give irresistible power to its headlong course. + +True, even in this age of mixed and mitigated feelings, there +does sometimes rise, pure and powerful at its fountain-head, the +sympathetic impulse of “love at first sight;” but for one instance +of this kind, how many may be found where that passion, instead of +ripening regularly from original sympathy, has been unaccountably +grafted on habitual indifference; and of this might be cited +instances, even amongst those who, once under its influence, have +given most decided proofs of its power, in braving disgrace and +ruin. It seems sometimes as if the heart only then acquired a +predisposition to infection, when every human motive of action, +prudent as well as virtuous, had combined against it. Lovely girls +have been known to bloom unnoticed in the same society with him +who, when they have become the wife of another, has urged elopement +with all the energy of passion; this, be it observed, not from +any selfish distinction of the different requisites of a wife and +a mistress,--for grant he succeeds in his suit, and, by every tie +of honour, his wife she must become, not as she might formerly +have assumed that character, richly endowed in good name and +wealth,--the ornament of society,--but dragging him forth an outcast, +impoverished by the very price at which he is forced to purchase her +blighted fame. How, then, shall we account for such early misplaced +indifference, and subsequent ill-timed susceptibility, but upon the +endless and unaccountable perversity of the human passions? + +But though Alice Darnell need not have been expected to enter into +these abstract reflections, yet she made two mistakes, which might +have been obvious even to her, in the influence she expected to +produce upon her niece. + +In the first place, no one in love is ever diverted from their +course by the recital of the sufferings of others, under similar +circumstances, if these sufferings, however great, are invested with +interest. She had also, by what she had said, inadvertently disposed +her niece’s feelings much more favourably towards Churchill, for +she had flattered her vanity; and the breast which beats under the +modest tucker of the country maiden, is not less accessible to the +influence of vanity, than is that which openly swells with the pride +of conquest in sight of the crowded ball-room. + +In all her intercourse with Churchill, there had been something which +she could not understand; she was never quite at her ease, and this +had produced a consciousness of constraint, which had left a feeling +of humiliating inferiority, not improving her favourable opinion +of her companion. But now she had been given some intelligible +ground on which to place that superiority on his part, which she had +felt without acknowledging, and, at the same time, she was taught +to suppose that he was willing to forego all that very superiority +for her sake. This placed him in a light much more dangerous to her +peace of mind, than that in which she had been accustomed to consider +him. If, therefore, his influence over her was still far from being +certain or confirmed, her defence rested on quite different grounds +from those on which her aunt had been inclined to place reliance; and +her best protection arose from the nature of her early attachment to +her cousin George. + +Many circumstances had combined to keep her inexperienced mind +in doubt as to her feelings towards him during all their early +intercourse, the constant intimacy of childhood had swallowed up +the first symptoms of courtship; to this had succeeded protracted +absence, and apparent neglect on his part. He had at length returned, +as we have seen, with undiminished affection; but many things had +conspired to prevent its appearing in his manner to her, not the +least of which was the evidence of those assiduous attentions in +another, which, whenever preference is sought in the “checkered +shade,” or in the “gala glare,” never fail in producing some effect, +and mostly succeed in attaining their object. + +The fact was, therefore, that at this moment Lucy was herself, if not +in a delusion, at least, in doubt, as to how much she cared about her +“cousin George.” + +She, however, listened most attentively to all her aunt’s cautions as +to the danger of encouraging her other admirer, and bowed assent to +her parting advice. + +“I do not wish you abruptly to show distrust; but above all, avoid +as much as possible being alone with him.” + +To this tacit promise Lucy meant to adhere, but the state of +things she that day found upon her return home did not favour her +immediately acting up to her intention. George had left home early +in the morning, as he said, upon business, professing an intention +not to return in the course of the day--perhaps not even at night. +Her father and mother had just revived some well-contested point in +dispute, which, from long experience, she knew would, like some of +the fights of the middle ages, be conducted without loss of blood, +and only end in a drawn battle at close of day. This did not render +the prospect of remaining at home during the afternoon very inviting, +and therefore she could not resist Churchill’s gentle suggestion, +that she should accompany him to the cliff, on a sketching +expedition. She again put on her bonnet, announcing to the parental +combatants, during one of those pauses in the fight which Mrs. +Darnell never allowed to be of long continuance, “That her object +was to see whether her aunt, whose illness had been the cause of her +absence the night before, was better that evening.” + + + + + CHAPTER XIX. + + My Anah! let me call thee mine, + Albeit thou art not: ’tis a word I cannot + Part with; although I must from thee. + BYRON. + + We’ll so bestow ourselves, that near, unseen, + We may of their encounter frankly judge. + SHAKSPEARE. + + ’Tis true they are a lawless brood, + But rough in form, nor mild in mood; + And every creed, and every race, + With them hath found--may find a place. + BYRON. + + +Churchill and Lucy sat side by side on a projecting ledge which +she pointed out to him on the face of the precipitous cliff; this +position, for an admirer of the picturesque, was much better chosen +than that which he had himself accidentally selected the night +before, and of which, as a painter, he had so little availed himself. +The intersections of the craggy cliffs, which rose one behind +another, as they looked along the line of coast, were here bolder and +more broken and varied. From the height of the point whereon they +sat, all below was blended in that deep, purplish, hazy hue, which, +in a painter’s eye, gave to indistinctness a charm. The sea-birds, +Churchill’s unwelcome intruders of the evening before, now skimmed +in silence the mid air far beneath them, the undulating motion of +their white wings being the only sign of animation around. Not a +sail was seen in the wide surface of the distant expanse: and along +the deeply sheltered sides of the little bay beneath, the waters lay +dead, and dark, and still. The next promontory of the succession of +crags before them, less precipitous and lofty than that on which they +were placed, had scattered over its face huge clumps of thriving +brushwood, just then touched with the first mellow tint of autumn; +whilst the heather, which grew in patches wherever the light soil +clung to the interstices of the cliffs, contrasting its rich dark +blue colour with the lighter grey of the broken rocks, gave sharpness +to the fantastic shapes in which these were dispersed about. In the +middle distance, looking rather inland, could be traced the valley +down which ran the course of the little mountain stream, by whose +side Castleton had first wound his way to Morden Bay. And this path +he followed once again in his mind’s eye, and he recollected his then +follies, and he thought of all his checkered life, his successive +feelings--of his hopes--of his frivolous pursuits--which had all +produced heart-burnings and disappointments since that evening +when he had first beheld the lovely being who now sat beside him +in matured beauty and still unsullied purity and innocence; and +as he again looked on her with a long impassioned gaze, their eyes +met, and she thought that it must have been thus Somers looked on +Alice Darnell. More fondly she felt he could not look, and this +feeling gave a sensibility to her own expression, which her lover +had hitherto sought in vain; and they sat long while they fancied +they were drawing. Though they did little the while, and said less, +it seemed, for the first time, as if they understood each other, and +all Churchill’s gestures were those of impassioned tenderness, and it +was so that Lucy felt them; and it is certain, that at that moment +she thought of no one else; and her glances, though timid and stolen +at intervals, vied with his in tenderness, and had he then pleaded, +a negative could hardly have found its way to her lips through the +inward agitation of her frame. + +But there had been throughout his whole scheme too much plan and +method in Churchill’s romance, and now the moment had come which +might fix his fate, and make her his wife--for it was with such an +intention that he wooed her--incongruous doubts rose in his mind,--he +hesitated,--he would not for the world have abandoned his object, +yet he almost wished to delay the irrevocable step; but it was not +without an effort that he could force himself to do so, for his +feelings were much excited, and more than once the conclusive words +trembled on his tongue, but he checked himself, and blurted forth an +indifferent observation in an altered tone. + +The effect of this was instantaneous: there is no female breast, +however untutored and inexperienced, which does not feel, in its +inmost recesses, the reaction caused by an opportunity slighted of +profiting by its tenderness. In a moment, Lucy became aware that the +evening shadows had redoubled their length; that the sun was on +the point of setting; that it was already late for her to proceed +to her aunt’s: rising for this purpose, Churchill eagerly offered +to accompany her, but this she firmly opposed, naturally from not +wishing to show that she had braved her aunt’s caution, the prudence +of which the experience of her late sensations had confirmed. + +She declined, therefore, his offer of help, even down the first +winding track, where, indeed, from its narrowness, assistance would +have been impracticable. This track led from the spot where they now +were into the broader path, which conducted along a lower ledge round +the point towards her aunt’s; and she proceeded to descend it with +the secure and elastic step which is the combined result of habit and +natural activity. Churchill watched her with an anxious eye through +the first part of her progress, and afterwards with an admiring one, +as her fine form gradually receded, whilst she pursued her way with +an unconscious grace in every motion, which would have done honour +to many in a more elevated rank in society. But the fact is, the +drawing-room school, though it may improve, no more creates grace, +than the _manège_ does the most admired paces of the horse. + +Churchill watched her round the point, and knowing that she would +again become visible in passing the next, which jutted farther into +the sea, he stood there awaiting the moment in a state of mind in +which were blended dissatisfaction with himself, with increased +admiration of her. Whilst absorbed in these mingled reflections, he +was startled by a large stone, which, detached from the cliff above, +rolled close beside him, and striking the portfolio, in which he had +been just loosely depositing the different half-finished productions +of Lucy and himself, scattered them about; and the evening breeze, +just then risen, catching them up as it swept by, they “soared, +ducked, and dived in air,” and were soon carried far out of reach +of recovery. Churchill, looking up to see what accident had caused +this, beheld George at the distance of a few yards, standing between +the edge of the cliff and the wall at its summit, against which he +leaned, whilst one foot, which without doubt had been the means of +propelling the stone, was still thrust forward. He had a broad grin +on his face, and was evidently enjoying the mischief he had caused. + +There was nobody in the world from whom Churchill could at that +moment so ill have borne a joke, if indeed it really was a joke. +Without a moment’s reflection he sprang upwards, and finding himself +beside his unprovoked aggressor, whom he still found forcing a +laugh, though evidently only to suppress some less pleasant feeling +to himself which lurked beneath, said,-- + +“I don’t ask you whether you did that, but why?” + +“I wanted to put up that brood of cormorants that roost below yonder, +and cared not what other birds of ill omen I frightened by the way. +As for your trash, I’ll buy you better, printed and painted too, at +any pedlar’s stall for a penny apiece.” + +“You mischievous imp of a cabin boy,” retorted Churchill enraged, and +lifting at the same time a small slight cane which, from habit, he +always carried, even on these inappropriate excursions, “you ought to +be turned over to your own boatswain for chastisement; it would be +too much honour to touch you with this.” + +It is probable that Churchill did not intend really to assault his +antagonist, but as he had raised his cane as if with that view, +George, whose passions were just as much raised, and whose experience +had not taught him to consider such threats as figurative, grasped +firmly the bludgeon with which he was described on the eve of his +first departure from home, and which, in all his vicissitudes, had +never been farther from him than where it was still within reach of +his cot. He gave it one masterly flourish over his own head, and then +allowed it to descend with its full swing upon that of Churchill, who +fell senseless at his feet. + +Lucy in the mean time had reached the farther projecting point, from +which this foremost part of the cliff was again visible, just at the +moment when the stone which had struck the portfolio, had scattered +Churchill’s drawings to the winds; and this she had witnessed, +for upon arriving at that point she had paused a moment, and cast +“one lingering look behind,” to the spot where she had left her +late companion, scarcely conscious herself that that action was +prompted by feelings for him at the time, which, could George have +interpreted, would have given additional force to that jealousy, of +which he had just shown such a violent symptom. She had been unable +at first to account for the cause of the loss of the drawings, but +though the distance was great, and the light becoming more uncertain, +she too well knew the figures of both of the combatants not to see +only too plainly the progress of the scuffle above; and observing the +violent action of George’s powerful arm followed by the dead stiff +fall of him whom he struck, she was riveted to the spot with dumb +horror at the idea that the tender companion whom she had but just +left, who had so lately all but spoken the assurance that he lived +only for her, had been even at that moment murdered by her earliest +friend; whilst her conscience whispered that she herself had been the +unhappy subject of dispute. + +Whilst still deprived by the horrific sight of any power to move, +she beheld three or four other men approach the scene of the late +conflict, and her first impression was, that they were both ministers +of the law and witnesses of the deed, and that George, arrested +by their authority, and condemned upon their evidence, would pay +the penalty of that act to which perhaps he had been driven by her +cruel caprice; and she thought of their early inseparable years, and +their former parting, and how different that was from the dreadful +final one which such a state of things would too surely bring, and +she pressed her hand against her eyes in mute despair;--but when +again she looked, it was obvious that the men approached George +with no hostile intent, but on the contrary, that, evidently acting +under his direction, they had raised the body of Churchill from +the ground--and George’s hand pointed downwards over the edge of +the cliff, and the men bore their burthen towards the brink of the +precipice, and she, shuddering, thought that in another moment she +should behold the mangled limbs dashing from rock to rock, as they +fell; and the dreadful idea rousing her from her previous stupor, +she gave one piercing shriek, but was answered only by the startled +wild fowl screaming discordantly as they whirled round her head. But +in one minute more her immediate fears as to the intentions of those +who bore the body, were relieved, when she saw them take a steep and +winding path which descended the side of the cliff to the shore. + +She then guessed that they were conveying their burthen to a +well-known cave, close to which the path conducted, and which she +remembered from its having been the point of some of her early +rambles with George. A moment she hesitated, from dislike to trust +herself amongst such apparently lawless men; but depending upon +George not being so changed but that he would be both willing and +able to give her protection, she determined to try her influence over +him, with a faint hope that Churchill might not actually be dead, and +that she might still be the means of preventing further danger to him. + +By the faint indistinct glimmering of twilight which yet remained, +as she descended the cliff and approached the small bay into which +the cave opened, she could perceive a large boat which had been run +ashore, whilst on the shingles beside it were scattered several +barrels or kegs, and a little farther out at sea, yet sheltered by +an abrupt projecting cliff from the more inhabited line of coast, +a small vessel lay moored, and several figures appeared engaged in +conveying the kegs from the open shore into the concealment of the +cave. The wild air of these men, as far as the increasing darkness +allowed her to distinguish them, and the rough blasphemous oaths of +which almost their whole communication seemed to consist, as far as +the suppressed tone in which they spoke allowed her to make out what +they said, both conspired to make her shrink from advancing nearer, +or presenting herself to their notice; but being detected even where +she stood aloof and trembling, by the quick and restless eyes of +one of the party, ever on the look-out against surprisal, and being +rudely dragged forward, she was almost at the same time recognised +and rescued by George, who, upon hearing a noise, came forward +from the interior of the cave, accompanied by Captain Collett, +whose command to unhand her, backing the more manual interference +of George, the men muttering oaths, and, to her, unintelligible +ribaldry, returned to their labours, and she found herself at the +mouth of the cave with George and his Captain. + + + + + CHAPTER XX. + + But my sins + No more the pleasure from the stripling wins; + And such, if not yet hardened in their course, + Might be redeemed, nor ask a long remorse. + + The hours that we have spent + When we have chid the hasty-footed time + For parting us. Oh! and is all forgot-- + Our schoolday friendship--childhood innocence? + SHAKSPEARE. + + Do you remember all the sunny places + Where in bright days, long past, we played together? + Do you remember all the old home faces + That gathered round the hearth in wintry weather? + + +This cave, which had two arched openings, both leading to the same +interior, and supported by a colossal rocky pillar, was at low water +nearly dry, excepting near the centre, where a clear pool of brackish +water was left from one spring-tide to the next, surrounded by a bed +of the finest white sand. All this outer cave was entirely the work +of Nature, and had probably been progressively scooped out to its +present size, by the whirling eddy of water, which, during high tides +and storms, rushed in through one opening, and out at the other, +according as it was driven by the directing force of the wind. Within +this outer cave was another large recess at right angles to it, which +had at some time been assisted by the hand of man. The narrow, low +opening to this, was generally choked up by a bank of the white sand, +which, as the waters rolled round, they dashed against it; and as the +small passage behind, thus concealed, gradually rose as it opened +into the inner cave, that part was itself quite dry; and the entrance +to it being thus unsuspiciously closed from observation, it had been +thought by George, who had accidentally dug through the bank with +his fingers when a boy, that along the whole line of coast, a better +spot could not be selected, in which to stow their kegs, till an +opportunity occurred of by degrees disposing of them inland. + +It appeared to Lucy as if her arrival had interrupted for the moment +a dispute between George and his Captain; and in this she was +confirmed by Collett saying, as soon as the men had returned to their +work,-- + +“It is true, it can’t be helped now; but it is a d---d foolish scrape +you’ve got us into: why couldn’t you leave the man alone? It’s true, +I begin to doubt his dying. Perhaps it would be better if he would, +for we can’t leave him here to blow us; and anyhow, there’ll be such +a hue-and-cry raised, that, hang me! if I know when we shall be able +to look after the cargo. The tide’s ebbing over-fast, or I’d chuck +’em in again, and take a long last leave of Morden Bay, and be d---d +to it, for an unlucky hole; but there’s not time to think of that, +so the kegs must even stay here, and we must stow this lumber in the +hold in the place of them.” + +Touching Churchill’s body with his foot, and finding him still +insensible from loss of blood, he added,-- + +“But let me tell you, that to exchange all these _spirits_ for one +_body_ is a losing trade, either for this world or the next;” and +chuckling complacently at this last idea, as a man who thought that +the mere scoffing at serious matters in itself constitutes a good +joke, he retired towards the inner cave, calling out to George, “to +take the girl in tow, and drop down out of sight of their job.” + +But George seemed stupified by the conflicting feelings which +struggled for mastery within him, and allowed himself to be silently +drawn by Lucy on to the beach, through the opposite opening of the +cave to that through which the smugglers were carrying the kegs. + +“And is it come to this then, George!” she said: “these are then your +companions,--that is your friend, your master! And has all sense of +shame left you, that you could bring such a ruffian under my dear +father’s peaceful roof? And then to finish all by murdering that +poor good gentleman! Heaven, in its mercy, preserve him!” added Lucy +fervently, in a low tone. + +“He’s not good--no more are you, and he’s no more a gentleman than +I am,” answered George, doggedly, his good feelings being for the +moment overpowered by the evident sympathy of Lucy for his rival. +“And it’s all along of you both, that I’ve come to this.” + +“How can you say so, George? The poor man, since it offends you to +call him gentleman, never saw you till two days ago; and your present +courses you must have adopted, with these associates, long since; +and for me, it’s now more than four years since we have met at all. +And think of this spot, George--this cave. The last time we were here +together, who would have thought that it would be thus we should meet +again? Do you remember the smuggler we then saw chased by the King’s +ship; it was the last vessel of that sort, till to-night, that had +ever appeared on this coast; and the running fight, and the sound of +the guns gradually dying away in the distance, and then our suspense; +and we heard no more, till you brought that printed paper of the +travelling pedlar, which you read to me, and which told how they were +all hanged: George, dear George! why did you ever forget that paper?” + +“’Tis too late to think of all that now, Lucy; though I thank you for +still caring for me, if it’s ever so little. There was a time when +you might have saved me, when I wrote to you, about my first scrape, +before I got from bad to worse.” + +“You wrote to me, George! When? Never from the day you went away have +I heard once.” + +“Ah, there was the mischief, then. But I wrote all about it, when I’d +lost all my money, like a fool as I then was, and am still; and how +it was a girl like you--no, not like you--but a girl, who had taken +it all; and that’s what it was, and I was rather ashamed at first to +own so to you. Yet I was easier, when I had done it, for I never felt +so much how I loved you better than all the world. And as we were a +long way off at the time, and the Atlantic rolled between us, I was +rather matched how to make sure of your getting it; but though I was +never much of a scholar, I took a sight of pains with the direction. +And I wouldn’t put Mayton on it, as they used to do on most of our +letters here; for I found, when I had got to London even, most +people there had never heard of Mayton, so I argued that a-tother +side of that great water they warn’t like to know it: so, instead, +I put ‘Lucy Darnell, Bankside Farm, England,’ for I made sure, at +least, they must have heard of England. And long I waited there in +the Indies, in hopes of an answer--and none ever came, as indeed it +wasn’t like, if you never received the letter. And so at last I took +up with the offer of this here Messmate, though at the time I had but +half a mind, for I thought you’d never approve of the like.” + +“But, George, how came you in this distress? Where was the uncle with +whom you sailed?” + +“Oh, he and I agreed that we suited each other best at a distance, +so he got me swapped to another ship, which I liked well enough, for +I got double wages; but I soon found that the more money I had, the +less I could keep it; and when I landed in the Indian Islands, it +went in more ways than I like to tell, or think of myself now. And +then Captain Collett spoke me fair, and a merry time we had together +in the privateering line, in which he then was; and when the Peace +came, we had been too used to dangers and their reward, to take to +carrying coals along the coast. So we’ve been dodging backwards +and forwards across the Channel ever since, in defiance of the +revenue Sharks. But being a bit over-well known there now, we got a +correspondent at Flushing, and popped over here unexpected like.” + +“Unexpected indeed!” said Lucy, “and that it should be most unwelcome +too; for I had rather never have seen you again, though Heaven knows +how I’ve longed to do so! than that you should come back to bring +shame on us all. And my poor father too, who was as fond of you as if +you’d been his own son. He’ll feel this more than all the rest of the +world put together--except me!” she added falteringly. + +“It needed not to speak so to make me feel,” said George: “all along, +my fear has been the loss of your good thoughts; and when I came back +the other day, I had made up my mind to ask all your pardons, to give +over the connexion, and stay at home; but it maddened me to see that +you had clear forgotten your poor cousin George, for that plausible +painting chap!” + +“Shame on me!” interrupted Lucy, “that I have now so long forgotten +him, whilst listening to your bad tale of yourself. That I could do +so at such a moment, may prove to you what now you shall never hear +from me, unless you learn to deserve it better, how long and how much +I have thought of you. But if you would not have me hate you, George, +instantly rescue from these ruffians, this poor person, whom your +own mad violence has placed in their power.” + +George, touched by her manner, and rendered docile by shame, +instantly repaired to Collett, who was himself much puzzled to know +what to do with their prisoner, and consented to leave him behind, +provided he would bind himself solemnly not to disclose what he knew +of their proceedings; to which George, for his own sake, added the +condition, that he should instantly leave that part of the country, +and particularly Bankside Farm. + +Lucy in the mean time entered the cave, to observe in what state +poor Churchill then was. She found one of the smugglers bending +over him and holding a dark-lantern close to his features, which he +appeared to be examining, and which were still fixed and insensible. +The man had undone both waistcoat and neckcloth, and evidently was +searching about his breast, as she thought, for plunder; though, as +he pretended, to find out whether he had any other wound. There was, +however, an appearance of care and attention in this man’s manner, +which she could not reconcile with his purpose. He stated that the +sufferer had shown some signs of returning animation; had called, +as he fancied, on her name, but had relapsed. Now he again began to +move, and with the first symptoms of consciousness, George made the +offer of liberation, coupled with the conditions mentioned above. + +The wounded man seemed to make an effort to give force to the +articulation of his reply, as he answered, + +“Never! I will make no bargain with such as you: ruffians! do your +worst, and at your peril be it.” + +The smugglers, who had now finished their work, and were anxious to +depart, enraged at this untractable answer, became clamorous to +shove off with him, and Captain Collett gave the orders to bear him +to the boat; Lucy clinging wildly to George, implored him, “Oh, leave +him! leave him, for my sake leave him!” + +George’s bad feelings were again roused by the manner of this appeal; +he roughly replied, shaking her from him, “For thy sake!--never! +What! that he may stay behind to hang us, and bless you!” He then +jumped into the boat, already filled with his companions, one of +whom, who had secretly helped himself too freely to one of the kegs +which had been opened that its contents might encourage them at their +work, cried out, “Oh, if the land-lubber stands in the way of our +messmate George, I’ll soon settle his business.” + +He then presented a pistol to Churchill’s head. Lucy thought she +saw George spring forward and knock the pistol out of the fellow’s +hand, but neither that nor any thing afterwards could she recollect +distinctly, such had been the agitation of this dreadful evening; +and as she endeavoured to fix her eyes on the boat as it heaved +unsteadily through the surf, her brain seemed to reel responsively +within her. She fell powerless on the beach, and tearing up the +sand convulsively with her outstretched hand, she cried wildly for +help, till her senses completely abandoned her, and she lay there in +unconscious exhaustion much of that awful night. + +At times she partially awoke to confused visions of Churchill’s +mangled form, and the last moments of George’s disgraceful career; +and more than once she raised herself and endeavoured to strain her +sight through the intense darkness, and to collect her scattered +senses to decide whether it was fancy only made her imagine that +another sail rose on the waters, still nearing the smugglers; but a +sound which followed, like the roar of cannon, vibrated so painfully +on her shattered nerves, that she raised her hands to her ears, +again pressed her head against the sand, and when the first dawn of +the morning found her still on the beach, with partially returning +consciousness, the first object she plainly distinguished was a crowd +of men moving towards her, in the midst of which were the crew of +smugglers, Captain Collett and George, handcuffed two and two, and +guarded by some men of the Preventive Service, and a file of soldiers. + +Still half bewildered, she rushed amongst them, screaming in vain for +some one, and crying, “Where, where is the body?” + +“The body!” exclaimed the man, who seemed in command of the party, +“then it was as we suspected, and a murder has been committed. Come, +my young woman, you must along with us; you will be an important +witness, I guess;” and the whole party moved on towards Hornscliff +Abbey, the seat of the nearest resident magistrate, Sir North +Saunders. + + + END OF THE FIRST VOLUME. + + + LONDON: + PRINTED BY SAMUEL BENTLEY, + Dorset-street, Fleet-street. + + +Transcriber’s Note: + +Words and phrases in italics are surrounded by underscores, _like +this_. Words may have multiple spelling variations or inconsistent +hyphenation in the text. These have been left unchanged, as were +dialect, obsolete and alternative spellings. One misspelled word was +corrected, one upside down letter was righted, and two words were +added where they appeared as blotches on the printed page. 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I.</abbr> +</p> + +<p class="p2 center">LONDON:<br> +HENRY COLBURN AND RICHARD BENTLEY,<br> +<span class="small">NEW BURLINGTON STREET.<br> +1832.</span> +</p> +<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><a id="Page_2"></a>CONTENTS</p> +<p class="unindent"> +<a href="#ADVERTISEMENT">ADVERTISEMENT.</a><br> +<a href="#THE_CONTRAST">THE CONTRAST.</a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_I">CHAPTER <abbr title="One">I.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_II">CHAPTER <abbr title="Two">II.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_III">CHAPTER <abbr title="Three">III.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_IV">CHAPTER <abbr title="Four">IV.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_V">CHAPTER <abbr title="Five">V.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_VI">CHAPTER <abbr title="Six">VI.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_VII">CHAPTER <abbr title="Seven">VII.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_VIII">CHAPTER <abbr title="Eight">VIII.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_IX">CHAPTER <abbr title="Nine">IX.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_X">CHAPTER <abbr title="Ten">X.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_XI">CHAPTER <abbr title="Eleven">XI.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_XII">CHAPTER <abbr title="Twelve">XII.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_XIII">CHAPTER <abbr title="Thirteen">XIII.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_XIV">CHAPTER <abbr title="Fourteen">XIV.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_XV">CHAPTER <abbr title="Fifteen">XV.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_XVI">CHAPTER <abbr title="Sixteen">XVI.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_XVII">CHAPTER <abbr title="Seventeen">XVII.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_XVIII">CHAPTER <abbr title="Eighteen">XVIII.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_XIX">CHAPTER <abbr title="Nineteen">XIX.</abbr></a><br> +<a href="#CHAPTER_XX">CHAPTER <abbr title="Twenty">XX.</abbr></a> +</p> +</div> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_3"></a></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="ADVERTISEMENT"> + ADVERTISEMENT. + </h2> +</div> + +<hr> + +<p>“<span class="smcap">What’s</span> in a name?” is a question to +which, perhaps, a bookseller would be apt to +reply—“More than meets the eye.” With some +suspicion of this kind, I have hesitated much +what Title to prefix to the following pages.</p> + +<p>I might, it is true, have been satisfied with +the safe expedient of any two or three mellifluous, +though unmeaning syllables, in the +shape of a proper name; but I was anxious, +if possible, rather to explain the character than +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_4"></span>to record the family appellation of my hero—if +hero that person must be called whose failings +and whose errors occupy most of these +pages.</p> + +<p>If I had been writing in French, <span lang="fr">“L’Homme +Difficile”</span> would most nearly have defined the +character I meant to pourtray; but there is no +synonymous phrase in English. “The Fastidious +Man” did not quite please me. I am +myself fastidious as to the use of the term, +“the Man,” in a title explanatory of character. +“Fastidiousness” is not euphonious, still less +“Fastidiosity,” which Johnson passes current.</p> + +<p>Under these difficulties I have left my hero +to speak for himself, without introduction; and +taking what would, perhaps, at first have been +the more gallant course, I have attempted to +draw the attention of the reader to the diversity +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_5"></span>of female character arising, in great part, from +difference of situation, under the form, and +with the title, of “The Contrast.”</p> + +<p>One word more, kind Reader, in the shape +of an humble petition for that general indulgence +which no one can feel more than myself +how much I require.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_6"></a><a id="Page_7"></a></span></p> + <h2 class="h1head" id="THE_CONTRAST"> + THE CONTRAST. + </h2> +</div> +<hr> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_I"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="One">I.</abbr> + </h2> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">Will Fortune never come with both hands full,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">But write her fair words still in foulest letters?</div> + <div class="verse indent0">She either gives a stomach and no food</div> + <div class="verse indent0">(Such are the poor in health), or else a feast</div> + <div class="verse indent0">And takes away the stomach: such are the rich</div> + <div class="verse indent0">That have abundance and enjoy it not.</div> + <div class="verse indent30"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent6">——Your servant and your friend;</div> + <div class="verse indent0">One that attends your ladyship’s commands.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Ibid.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">She was not old, nor young, nor at the years</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Which certain people call a certain age,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Which yet the most uncertain age appears.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Byron.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + + +<p><span class="smcap">In</span> that iron age when Frenchmen marched +“en masse” from Madrid to Moscow; when +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_8"></span>Continental travelling was effected by drawing +not <em>bills</em>, but <em>swords</em>; when <em>cannon</em>, not <em>credit</em>, +gave to strangers the comforts of home in +foreign lands, then were the locomotive propensities +of the peaceable portion of our countrymen +necessarily confined within the narrow +limits of our sea-girt island. Impatient at +being thus temporarily dammed up, the stream +of society annually flowed outwards from the +metropolis down to the extremest low-water +mark of the different bathing-places.</p> + +<p>It was during this period, that a large party +had assembled, at the conclusion of the London +season, at the hospitable mansion of Sir North +Saunders. Sir North’s father had been a great +contractor in those days when contracts were +worth something; and, having realized an immense +sum in the course of the American war, +he, in gratitude, christened his son and heir +after that minister, to whose persevering profusion +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_9"></span>he owed all to which he would be heir. +When the almost unanimous voice of an indignant +nation had closed the disastrous struggle, +Sir Simon Saunders (as the contractor and first +baronet was called) was, after a time, completely +puzzled how to act.</p> + +<p>During the first rapid succession of short +and inconsistent administrations, he stuck by +the Treasury, with a tenacity as to place, and +versatility as to persons, worthy of that renowned +vicar, whose peculiar talents in that +line have become proverbial. Yet, as upon +the permanent ascendancy of the Pitt party of +that day, he found that retrenchment and reform +were the watch-words at head-quarters, +he, in disgust, threw up the whole concern, laid +out some of his previously-acquired spoil in the +purchase of Hornscliff Abbey, and retired to +that beautiful retreat, thinking that, at any +rate, a country gentleman contractor was not a +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_10"></span>greater contradiction in terms, than a patriot +minister.</p> + +<p>He was not, however, long condemned to +pretend to enjoy a state of existence so uncongenial +to all his tastes and habits; and his son +and heir, Sir North, not only succeeded in full +to all the acquirements of his father’s later +years, but also inherited, in all its original +freshness, that turn of mind which had in +youth raised Sir Simon from nobody.</p> + +<p>It was not therefore to be expected that he +would long bury himself in the solitudes of +Hornscliff Abbey, more especially as, coming of +age soon after the breaking out of the revolutionary +war, and having a great deal of parliamentary +interest, the same minister who +had disappointed the expectations of the father, +now acting upon a different system, granted +upon many occasions the utmost demands of +the son.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_11"></span></p> + +<p>From this time for nearly twenty years, Sir +North continued in heart and soul nothing +more nor less than a thorough-paced trading +politician; most anxious, nevertheless, to veil +that character under the reputation of a <i lang="fr">bon +vivant</i>, <i lang="fr">bel esprit</i>, and <i lang="fr">connoisseur</i>. To these +pretensions, since the last audit-day had given +him a glimpse of his beautiful property at +Hornscliff, he had added an eager desire to be +thought an enthusiast in the picturesque. He +had, in imitation of some of his acquaintance, a +service of china painted with views of the romantic +environs of his place: the beauties +which the plates and dishes thus displayed, +were, during the season, the constant theme of +his conversation, coupled with pressing invitations +to his various acquaintance, that as his +boasted property was upon the coast, they +would make Hornscliff Abbey their sojourning +place during the ensuing summer.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_12"></span></p> + +<p>This many of them seemed nothing loth to +do, particularly as they ascertained that the +other <i lang="fr">artiste</i>, whose labours, in their opinion, +no less profitably adorned the plates and dishes, +was to continue his successful attempts to eclipse +the performance of the painter.</p> + +<p>“What a beautiful place it must be!” said +Lady Madelina Manfred to her neighbour, +young Lord Castleton, as she pensively dropped +her beautiful eyes on her plate, and continued +in a sentimental tone, “I hope that you +are as passionately fond of the sea as I am. +How sublime its eternal sameness! How grand +its boundless limits! Oh, I could look on it for +ever!” she added, as she completely covered +the German ocean with half a spoonful of bread +sauce. “Shall we adjourn there at the end of +the season?” continued the lady, with a peculiar +emphasis on that comprehensive monosyllable +<em>we</em>.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_13"></span></p> + +<p>It was, indeed, to establish such an identity +of interest between her and young Lord Castleton, +as would give her a common property +in the use of the first person plural, that she +had been labouring all through the season. +Lady Madelina Manfred was born a fool, but +had through life cultivated that species of cunning +which fools so often display in the pursuit +of an object, if they have one. The object +which she had been—I will not say for how +many years, successfully pursuing, was admiration. +To be sure, nature had assisted her with +a pair of eyes which looked as if they could not +but mean something, and a voice, whose seductive +tones could give a charm even to folly. +Her husband was one of those good, easy men, +who seem as if only born to give their wives a +name, inasmuch as their own is never by any +chance heard after they have once accomplished +that purpose. Seasons had rolled on; and if +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_14"></span>Lady Madelina Manfred’s eye had lost some +of its brilliancy, her complexion some of its +bloom, and her form some of its freshness, +there were still many who were wilfully blind +to such changes. As Lord Castleton will, in +the course of these pages, have much to say +for himself, it is unnecessary to say any more +for him at present, than that he was but just +nineteen; and whatever opinion might then be +entertained of the <i lang="fr">liaison</i> lately formed between +him and Lady Madelina, it was no scandal, +when gossips said that there <em>was a time</em> when +she had held him in her arms.</p> + +<p>To the attractions of the invitation to Hornscliff +Abbey, often urged by Sir North, and so +sweetly echoed by Lady Madelina, Lord Castleton +was not then in a frame of mind to be insensible, +particularly as, in addition to all other +reasons for accepting it, his guardians were +very anxious that he should <em>not</em>; and he therefore +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_15"></span>longed to show he was his own master, by +putting himself completely at the disposal of +Sir North and Lady Madelina, who had both +the most deliberate designs, the one personal, +the other political, upon his future independence.</p> + +<p>To Hornscliff Abbey, therefore, he transported +himself, as soon as he found that the +waiters at the clubs monopolized the newspapers, +and sauntering hackney-coachmen elbowed +him as they lounged along the foot-pavement.</p> + +<p>Lord Castleton was not by nature at all +that sort of being which the acquired habits of +the last few months had made him appear, to +all who had never known him before. The +parting jolt of his carriage moving off the London +pavement, seemed to shake from his nature +much of that affectation with which the +season had encrusted it; and the first breath of +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_16"></span>pure country air, as he cleared the last Cockney +villa, seemed to revive in their springy freshness, +many of those early feelings and tastes, +which, however faded for a time, can at nineteen +hardly be irrecoverably seared and withered.</p> + +<p>As he approached his destination, his spirit +seemed to expand with the bolder features +of the mountain-scenery by which he found +himself surrounded. Though within the immediate +limits of Sir North’s domain, the +effect was almost ludicrous of the attempts +which had evidently been hastily and recently +made to cripple and confine the bold and gigantic +shapes which nature here displayed, in the +scanty and servile livery of a dress place. The +contrasts thus produced were quite comical. +Rugged rocks were encircled by invisible railings; +cast-iron bridges swung across the wildest +glens; Chinese pagodas rose out of mountain +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_17"></span>heather; gilt wire aviaries were dotted about in +solitudes, where eagles might have stooped, or +black game brooded; and Thames wherries +were moored by silken cords along the banks +of the shallow, but rapid torrent, which rushed +over a rocky bed down to the sea.</p> + +<p>At the Abbey itself, these contradictions +were more various and more numerous, though +perhaps not more striking. It requires nothing +else but an unlimited command of money +to transport, in an incredibly short space of +time, all the contents of a London upholsterer’s +shop to the remotest and most uncivilized +corner of the kingdom; and due activity +had been shown in attending to Sir North’s +order, that Hornscliff Abbey should, without +delay, be furnished from cellar to attic. The +building itself, situated in one of those snugly-sheltered, +but romantic glens, where in former +times the monks had generally the good taste +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_18"></span>to fix, remained one of the best preserved and +most perfect specimens of the abbey-gothic +style of architecture: it was not to be expected +that any furniture, thus hastily huddled together, +should be in perfect keeping with the +walls by which it was surrounded; less care +was therefore taken that one part should tally +with the rest, and articles of every description +were crammed into all the rooms, with the +same ill-assorted propinquity in which they +stood in the warehouses, whence they had +been removed wholesale.</p> + +<p>But neither French paper on cedar panels, +nor fragile wherries on mountain torrents, +seemed so much misplaced, as did some of the +company whom Sir North had collected to witness +his installation as a country gentleman. +Many men, whose utmost previous pedestrian +feat had been daily gliding from their offices +along the smooth flags of Parliament-street to +make a House, and ladies, who thought it an +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_19"></span>exertion to step from their carriage across a +broad <i lang="fr">trottoir</i> on a morning visit, were now expected +to thread tangled brakes, and to climb +over rugged rocks, in search of the picturesque.</p> + +<p>Sir North was determined, however, to play +what is called the whole game; and the very +day after the arrival of Lord Castleton, had been +fixed on for a distant excursion, to a romantic +bay on the coast; the beauties of which had +been much vaunted by the Rev. Mr. Turner, the +picturesque-loving Rector of the adjoining parish; +who, upon these occasions, acted as guide, +and wasted a great deal of intelligence, taste, +and enthusiasm, upon parties generally both +indifferent and ignorant; and took a considerable +deal of useless trouble in endeavouring to +cultivate a mutual spirit of good-will between +the wild scenes he loved, and their present +super-refined visitors, by smoothing rugged inhospitalities +on one side, and endeavouring to +cultivate a feeling of admiration on the other.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_20"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_II"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Two">II.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">There is a cliff whose high and beetling head</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Looks fearfully in the confined deep:</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Bring me to it.</div> + <div class="verse indent31"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div><div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">They were trained together in their childhood,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">And there rooted between them such an</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Affection as cannot choose but branch now.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Ibid.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">Lord Castleton</span>, in accordance with the +claim which we have seen Lady Madelina had +established to a common property with him in +the use of the monosyllable “we,” had passed +the evening in hanging over the sofa, on which +she gracefully reclined, apart from the rest of +the world, within the recess of a roseate-draperied +tent, into which a ci-devant oriel window +had been converted.</p> + +<p>On the next eventful morning the ladies +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_21"></span>were to perform the first part of the expedition +in open carriages, the gentlemen on horseback; +when the road no longer admitted of such civilized +modes of conveyance, the ladies were to +be transferred to donkeys, and the men to try +their pedestrian powers. Lord Castleton had +escorted Lady Madelina to her carriage, and +had started, with one hand on the barouche +door, and the other promoting, through the +medium of his horse’s mouth, that sort of curveting +canter which made conversation during +progress easy; but before they were even out +of sight of the abbey his attention was diverted +by the oft-repeated cry, just behind him, +in his host’s voice, of “Soho! soho! quiet +there!” and looking back he caught occasional +glimpses even of the highest <i lang="fr">guérite</i> of Hornscliff, +in short of the whole of poor Sir North’s +<em>country seat</em>, between his <em>equestrian seat</em> and +his saddle. The fact was that Sir North’s +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_22"></span>stable, like his house, had been furnished +wholesale and indiscriminately; but as a <em>sofa</em> +is easier to sit than a horse, and as Sir North’s +figure and habits were much more adapted to +the one than the other, the want of proper +selection was here infinitely more inconvenient. +Lord Castleton, seeing the imminent danger in +which his host was, could do no other than +offer to change with him. This proposal Sir +North received without the slightest scruple, +which, considering that at the time he thought +he was consigning his young friend to the +merciless power of the most terrific animal in +creation, was a conduct which nothing but an +extreme case of self-preservation could justify. +Though his new rider did not find much difficulty +in managing the unruly beast, yet as +Lady Madelina’s nerves no longer allowed +Lord Castleton to ride by the side of the carriage, +he was left, up to the time of quitting +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_23"></span>these vehicles, more unoccupied than he otherwise +would have been, to admire the increasing +beauty of the surrounding scenery.</p> + +<p>A train of thoughts long neglected, and a +tone of feeling of late untouched, seemed to +revive within him, under the impression of +outward objects, to which his eye had been +now for some time a stranger. The meditations +into which he was thus insensibly led +were only occasionally interrupted by the bungling +explanations attempted by Sir North of +the different objects they passed, as he mistook +in attempting to re-state the information he had +received from the Rev. Mr. Turner. These +explanatory observations of Sir North became +more frequent, as his equanimity was +by degrees revived by the confidence he felt, +after the change of steeds, in his restored +safety: as he himself technically expressed it, +“His seat was now as secure as Old Sarum.”</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_24"></span></p> + +<p>“Pray observe,” said Sir North, “the secluded +situation of these Druidical remains, +which have withstood the changes of centuries, +there to your right.”</p> + +<p>“The Druidical remains I showed you,” +said Mr. Turner in an under-tone, and as much +in Sir North’s ear as the height of the little +white pony he was riding would enable him to +reach, “are half a mile farther to the left.”</p> + +<p>“Pardon me, my good Sir,” said Sir North, +“what is that which I see to the right?”</p> + +<p>“The remains of a windmill, pulled down by +order of the magistrates, for its neighbourhood +to the high road,” replied the reverend Cicerone.</p> + +<p>This little mistake of Sir North’s rather +checked the torrent of his information, till, +after passing a beautiful variety of highland +and lowland, in crossing a succession of ridges, +they at length arrived at the entrance of the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_25"></span>rocky glen, through which they were to wind +their way down to the sea. Here they were +obliged to leave carriages and horses, as there +was no longer any better road than the timber-track +by which the produce of Sir North’s +woods was annually taken to be shipped.</p> + +<p>Lord Castleton, still in close attendance on +Lady Madelina, after smoothing many little +difficulties, and soothing many affected alarms +in settling her upon her donkey, prepared to +lead the animal down the path, into the wild +and romantic scene whose bold features at +every step became more striking.</p> + +<p>He looked up on one side at the fantastic +forms of the venerable trunks whose roots had +for centuries been entwined in the rocky crags +from which they grew, but whose wide-spreading +branches then luxuriated in the green +vigour of a summer foliage; and he looked +down on the other at the clear unruffled surface +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_26"></span>of the brook, which ran murmuring below +them. He scented the freshness of the hitherto +untrodden fern, as his feet passed over it, and +he then cast his eyes upon the fascinating but +<i lang="fr">fané</i> beauty by his side, and felt that there +was something uncongenial in visiting such a +scene under the protection of such a guardian +genius, one certainly better adapted to the artificial +state in which he had been lately living +than to the freshness and nature of the present. +Her personal charms, too, no longer in their +first bloom, suited better the softened light of +the shaded boudoir than the searching glance +of the evening sun, to which they were now +exposed, as upon approaching the sea the wood +no longer afforded the same shelter from its +rays, and against the effect of which the utmost +skill in the management of the pink parasol +could not always guard its mistress, thwarted +as her efforts were by the constant windings of +the steep path by which they descended, and +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_27"></span>the rough motions of the humble donkey on +which she was mounted; and even those graceful +limbs, whose slightest movement had had its +charm when stretched with studied ease upon +the luxurious sofa, were now necessarily cramped +into angles on an awkward side-saddle.</p> + +<p>All these circumstances, though not embodied +in the shape of distinct doses towards +effecting Lord Castleton’s cure, had not been +without their effect upon him. They had both +been for some time silent, when, just before the +last angle in the glen was to open to them that +sea-view which was the object of their expedition, +Lord Castleton stopping to re-arrange +some part of Lady Madelina’s dress, which the +uneasy motion of the donkey had discomposed, +his ear caught for the first time the soothing +sound of the measured breaking of the waters +in their regular rise and fall against a sloping +shore.</p> + +<p>The very idea of eternal sameness with which +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_28"></span>this sound never fails to impress a romantic +fancy when unexpectedly heard, has in itself a +tendency to recall the different circumstances, +to revive the faded feelings, and to connect the +distant spots in which its unvaried monotony +has met the ear.</p> + +<p>It may already have been seen that Lord +Castleton was by nature sufficiently romantic, +and therefore he was immediately involved in +a labyrinth of thick-coming recollections, which +completely took off his attention from the occupation +which would lately not have been without +its interest, when all his pleasing reveries +were dispelled by that voice, whose tones he +so much admired, jarring upon his ear in <i lang="fr">malapropos</i> +inquiry. “So, after all, Lady Waitfort +could not get asked to Lady Delacour’s +ball?”</p> + +<p>The disgust that he felt at this ill-timed turn +to his thoughts, he was not obliged to express; +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_29"></span>for just then they came within sight of the +beautiful Bay to which they had been destined, +and even Lady Madelina could not help exclaiming, +“What a sweet spot!”</p> + +<p>Now a sweet spot was not exactly the most +appropriate expression for admiration of such +a scene; but Lord Castleton was too grateful +to her at the time for showing any feeling on +the subject, to object to the aptness of the +terms in which she vented it.</p> + +<p>The “sweet spot” was a deeply indented +bay, surrounded with perpendicular cliffs of a +great height, which towards the two extremities +of the inlet, cut the water in the shape of boldly +jutting crags. In the centre they were intersected +by the deep glen through which the +party had descended; at the bottom of which +the mountain-stream found its way to the sea; +and even down to the beach, the sides of this +glen were covered with fine trees and thriving +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_30"></span>shrubs; a rare circumstance in our northern +latitudes.</p> + +<p>There was in the solitude of the scene itself, +and the grandeur of the outlines by which it +was enclosed, that which seemed to mark it as a +spot where, in one of her angry moods, Nature +might choose to threaten some of those more +awful and sublime appearances which she sometimes +assumes; but at present, the gaiety of +the season, the mildness of the air, the splendour +of the setting-sun, and the calmness of the +sea, the sameness of whose measured splash +against the shore was not broken by the slightest +swell from without, produced no more than +<a id="chg1"></a>a pleasing sensation of repose. There was no +human habitation visible from the sea-shore; +but on one of the banks which formed the sides +of the glen, about half way from the summit to +the shore, just on the single spot where the +slope was more gradual, some smoke was seen +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_31"></span>curling from behind a grove of dwarf oaks; +and still higher, taking advantage of a southern +exposure, there appeared a garden, which ran +upwards, till the cliff again becoming too perpendicular, +it only communicated with the top +by means of some steps cut in the rock, evidently +with great attention to safety and even +convenience. Judging by the little that could +be seen of the environs of this dwelling, it +might either be the residence of some retired +mariner, who chose to pass his latter days upon +an acquired competence, still within sight, +though safe from the attacks of that element +which had been the scene of his earlier adventures; +or it might, on the other hand, be <a id="chg2"></a>the +dwelling of some opulent farmer, who had +sought the shelter of this southern slope, from +that exposure to which the upper land must +there be subject.</p> + +<p>At first, the party imagined that they were +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_32"></span>the only living creatures that at present tenanted +the semicircular shores of the bay; but +upon passing the angle of a rock which projected +almost to the water’s edge, Lord Castleton +and Lady Madelina discovered two youthful +figures leaning against the gunwale of a solitary +fishing-boat, which was moored close up +to the cliff. The eldest of these two seemed a +stout, healthy-looking lad of about sixteen, +with a well-made figure and rather a handsome +head, though, for the age which his general +appearance indicated, his person was strong set +and square, and his countenance marked and +decided. His dress evidently bespoke a nautical +calling, though it was of that indefinite description +which might belong to any rank in +the service of the sea; his dark-blue jacket +and trowsers were, however, quite new, and +apparently put on with some attention to effect; +in his right hand he held by the middle a +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_33"></span>fresh-cut oaken staff, of that description which, +among the lower orders, generally indicates an +impending pedestrian journey, and which seemed +equally well calculated to lend its assistance +to the legs in their regular labours, and upon +any extraordinary occasion, to give additional +powers to the hand that held it. The top of +this staff he leaned against his mouth, his eyes +were intently fixed on the regular rise and fall +of the waters before him, whilst the fingers of +his left hand, which hung by his side, nervously +grasped something, of which, as they +half closed upon it, only the end of a blue ribbon +appeared. By his side stood one of those +figures, which occasionally and unexpectedly +cross our path, to put us again in good humour +with human nature, and prevent our +being entirely disgusted with the endless varieties +of ugliness of which the mortal machine +is capable, by showing, on the other hand, the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_34"></span>perfection of which the same conformation is +sometimes susceptible in every rank and all +situations. Here, a form, which among the +nobly-born would have been said to bear the +stamp of high birth—which, in the land of +ancient tradition and sculptured authority, +would have been said to show the signs of +pure classical extraction, was found lowly born +in an obscure corner of a rugged clime. Even +the delicacy, which gave an unlooked-for charm +to the appearance of one in that situation, was +enhanced by her extreme youth. She was two +years younger than her companion; and, though +tall of her age, slight, and still childish in her +form: the natural cheerfulness of her innocent +countenance was then clouded by some present +sorrow, which added to the interest she was calculated +to inspire. Her right arm leaned lightly +on the shoulders of her companion, and her +eye, in which a tear still trembled, was fixed +upon the hand which held the ribbon.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_35"></span></p> + +<p>“What a perfect study for Gainsborough!” +said Lord Castleton, as he and Lady Madelina +stopped to gaze on the youthful couple, of +whom, the angle of the rock had given them, +unobserved, so near a view.</p> + +<p>“Gainsborough!” said Lady Madelina, “I +thought he made people with waspish waists +and powdered hair; I am sure I never saw +such a figure as he has made of Aunt Theodosia, +in the picture-gallery at Lumberhead-hall.”</p> + +<p>“Alas, poor Gainsborough! the native offspring +of his tasteful imagination are no more +like my aunt Theodosia, than that beautiful +girl is like——.” He did not finish the +sentence, but the look he gave might have said +more than was either civil or welcome, had not +the horizontal sun at that moment fortunately +caused the interposition of the pink parasol.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_36"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_III"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Three">III.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">One of those forms which flit by us when we</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Are young, and fix our eyes on every face;</div> + <div class="verse indent0">And oh the loveliness at times we see</div> + <div class="verse indent0">In momentary gliding!</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Byron.</span></div> + <div class="verse indent0">—— My love to Hermia</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Melted as doth the snow; seems to me now</div> + <div class="verse indent0">As the remembrance of an idle gaud</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Which in my childhood I did dote upon.</div> + <div class="verse indent29"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p>“<span class="smcap">I think</span> this would be a good place to +pick a bit,” gasped Sir North, as he came up +with Castleton and Lady Madelina, puffing in +such a manner, as showed that his fat sides +felt the difference between the smooth flags of +Downing Street and the shingles of the sea +beach. “I advise no one,” he added, turning +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_37"></span>to the rest of the party, “to spare the cold +meat, for we have not the least chance of being +back for dinner. I told you last night, Lady +Madelina, if we did not breakfast before twelve, +we could not do it; and Mr. Turner says, +that the lane where the carriages are to meet +us, at the top of the cliff, is fourteen miles from +home. “Here, my lad,” said he, to the seafaring +youth, “run and call those servants with +the baskets, and your sister can get us some +water from the brook.”</p> + +<p>“She is not my sister,” said the lad, without +stirring a step.</p> + +<p>“Not his sister!” exclaimed Lady Madelina; +“then upon my word, my pretty girl, you +begin in time; and, I declare, we interrupted a +flirtation.”</p> + +<p>“But I am his cousin,” eagerly added the +girl, as if instinctively claiming the relationship, +as a justification of what she could not +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_38"></span>have known. For flirtation, that sickly creation +of crowded idleness, was equally unknown +in name and in nature, on the silent and solitary +shores of Morden Bay.</p> + +<p>The rest of the party having now come up, +the servants also arrived with the provisions, +though the lad had disregarded Sir North’s +authoritative address to him to summon them. +The guests, hardly casting a glance around, +certainly not wasting an inquiry about the +beautiful scene, where they found themselves, +proceeded at once to what appeared the real object +of the expedition—the cold collation which +they had brought so many miles to eat in a +peculiarly uncomfortable manner. They might, +perhaps, in the intervals of this important +occupation, have vented a few common-place +expressions of admiration; but, unfortunately +for Mr. Turner’s feelings, who endeavoured +several times to lead the conversation that way, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_39"></span>they had met the post on the road, and as the +newspapers of that day contained the account +of the long-expected demise of one of the +oldest supporters of the party to which they +belonged, they found ample food for conversation, +not in lamenting his loss, but in +discussing the various pretensions of the probable +claimants for his Government, his Garter, +his Regiment, and his Sinecure. At length, +after this had continued sometime, a “rising +young man,” on the ministerial side of the +house, who had many years to look forward, +before he could hope to put in a claim for +any thing of the sort they were discussing, +took advantage of a pause to make an abrupt +turn in the conversation, by saying, “Capital +shooting, I should think, in the covers up that +glen, Sir North?”</p> + +<p>“Yes, Sir,” interposed the lad, who had +been still leaning against the boat behind the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_40"></span>party, and until now, a silent spectator of their +proceedings; “the surest place in all the +country side, to find the first woodcock, and +so uncle says, before my time.”</p> + +<p>“What do you know about woodcocks, my +young friend?” said Sir North: “do you know, +I am afraid that you and your uncle are little +better than poachers?”</p> + +<p>“Uncle rents the Bankside farm, as did his +father afore him; and when our south intack is +in stubble, when I am staying with uncle, we +go out coursing sometimes, and of a fine afternoon, +he takes his gun with him up the glen, +to look for birds.”</p> + +<p>“Very wrong, very wrong, all this,” said Sir +North. “Who is your landlord?”</p> + +<p>“I never seen him, but the Baronet Saunders, +Esquire, I think they call him.”</p> + +<p>“Ay, ay, I was afraid so,” said Sir North. +“This comes of neglecting to give these poor +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_41"></span>creatures the blessing of a country gentleman’s +residence on his estate—totally disorganizes +society,—turns the farmers into poachers; this +must not be so in future: no my friends, I must +do my duty in the country as well as in town. +So, my lad, you say, you never saw your uncle’s +landlord, Sir North Saunders?”</p> + +<p>“No; but once I saw lawyer Drainem, +when he came to collect half-year’s rent, and I +suppose that be much the same thing.”</p> + +<p>“Well, now you may tell your uncle that +you have seen me, Sir North Saunders; and +tell him, that I mean to give my tenants the +benefit of my presence, to arrange all this upon +the proper footing.”</p> + +<p>“And you, my pretty girl,” said Lord +Castleton, approaching the object which, during +this conversation, had been engrossing +most of his attention, “do you accompany +your cousin on his sporting excursions?”</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_42"></span></p> + +<p>“No, Sir,” said she. “I have seen much +less of George since he has taken to coursing, +and now we are going to lose him entirely.”</p> + +<p>“How so?”</p> + +<p>“To-morrow he leaves us to serve his time +in the seafaring line, with another uncle, who +is captain and part owner of a vessel in the +transport service.”</p> + +<p>“And you are afraid that he will forget +Morden Bay, and his favourite cousin, and +would therefore like to follow him?”</p> + +<p>“If he forgets me, I should not so forget +myself as to recollect him,” said the little girl +with a dignity which, from one of her age and +station, surprised Lord Castleton. She then +continued, in a more childish tone: “Nor would +I leave my only home, my flowers, my daisies, +my daily occupations, and my shells, for to +follow any one friend.”</p> + +<p>“Then I am sure, if I were your friend +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_43"></span>George, I would not leave Morden Bay and +the pretty prize which for him it contains, for +all the rest of the world.”</p> + +<p>The language of flattery fell for the first +time on the unpractised ear to which it was +addressed; for it never had been cousin +George’s way to say soft things. She knew +not what the words meant, or indeed that they +meant any thing; but there is an instinct in +every female breast, which returns a responsive +echo to tones, such as those in which this +otherwise common-place expression was uttered. +One moment she cast her eyes upwards +on the face of him who unexpectedly addressed +her thus, then as suddenly withdrawing +them, and striving to hide the first conscious +blush that had ever tinged her pure and innocent +countenance, she drew upwards the +summer-bonnet, which had slung across her +shoulders, and pointing to the path by which +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_44"></span>most of the party had already begun to ascend, +she motioned Lord Castleton to follow.</p> + +<p>As they ascended the cliff, he made common-place +inquiries as to what her family consisted +of, and learned that she was the only +child of a father, whom she named in a tone of +true affection, and a mother, whom she mentioned +respectfully, but apparently with some +degree of restraint; beyond them her <em>kin</em> +(and as she would have said her <em>ken</em>,) was confined +to her aunt, a single woman, who lived +in a lone house round the next point, and +of whom she spoke warmly, and “Cousin +George,” of whom her present questioner did +not ask much, and she answered less.</p> + +<p>Whilst he still kept multiplying unnecessary +inquiries, and giving by his manner to the +most trifling an air of interest, he purposely +lingered by the way, till his fair guide at +length suggested that they should either mend +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_45"></span>their pace, or lessen their distance, by taking +a short but steep cut, which in a direct line +joined the regular path again, after that, by an +easy rise, had traversed two long sides of an +acute angle; “for,” said she, “if we do not +mind, Sir, the rest of your party will have +passed our gate before we reach it; and though +mother is not much given to seeing company, I +am sure she would not like those ladies to go +by her door, without biding a bit to rest; and +that poor lady looks as if she needed it, and +the lusty gentleman isn’t fit to help one so +weak as her,” pointing to Lady Madelina, who +had been obliged to accept Sir North as Lord +Castleton’s substitute, in ascending the cliff,—an +affair for which he was peculiarly disqualified, +the action of his <em>lungs</em> being so much +greater than that of his <em>limbs</em>. He had stopped +at the corner, really to recover breath, +but under pretence of venting his admiration +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_46"></span>of the prospect, of which he was gasping forth +an encomium, in most wheezy interjections. +Lady Madelina’s eye, whilst affecting to follow +the different directions in which his cane was +pointed, had dropped upon the figure of Lord +Castleton ascending from below, and she was +puzzling how to get up an attitude of interesting +languor, whilst leaning on Sir North, who +was unfortunately some inches shorter than +herself, and of a figure which did not lend +itself readily to group into the line of grace.</p> + +<p>“She seems dreadfully tired, that poor lady,” +continued Lucy, (such had Lord C. found his +companion’s name to be,) “and no wonder she +should be; ’tis well enough for a young girl +like me to run up and down ten times a +day, but ’tis rather a <a id="chg5"></a>fashious step this, +and I’ve known mother be almost as bad as +she is.”</p> + +<p>This casual comparison to her mother did +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_47"></span>not give to Lord Castleton’s imagination a +turn calculated to assist Lady Madelina’s attempts +to excite his admiration at her present +would-be interesting exhaustion; and seeing +that two more angles of the path would again +bring him where the irksome duties of a “patito” +would be exacted from him, he was disposed +to remonstrate against his companion’s +anxiety to hurry upwards and do the honours +of her humble roof, when a loud voice exclaimed—</p> + +<p>“Sir North!—Castleton! Where are you? +make haste, pray; only think, it wants but fifty +minutes to the half-hour bell.”</p> + +<p>This admonition came from a celebrated +“diner-out,” who, except once when he had +passed a September on the “pavé” in London, +never remembered the day when his dinner +had been in such danger.</p> + +<p>“And are you really going so soon?” said +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_48"></span>Lucy to Lord Castleton, observing that the +above warning had accelerated the motion of +every one of the various groups on the sides +of the cliff, and even induced Sir North to +give something like one effective tug to the +arm of Lady Madelina.</p> + +<p>“You see it does not depend upon me,” +said Lord Castleton, “I am under orders, but +shall certainly linger till the last.”</p> + +<p>“I should like much to know why you came +at all,” said Lucy, with an archness which +surprised her hearer. “I thought it had been +to see the Bubbling Well, or the Black Glen, +or the Dead-man’s Crag; but merely to walk +down that burn side, to climb up this cliff, +and bring all that fine food, when there was +not even a table to eat it off! ’Tis seldom we +have seen a stranger here, but when some came +once before, they were two gentlemen painters.”</p> + +<p>“Yes, yes, artists, I suppose,” said Lord +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_49"></span>Castleton; “and they were the only strangers +you have ever seen before?”</p> + +<p>“Yes; but they stayed some days, and lodged +at father’s; and when they went away, they +left him in return the likeness of the bay, not +as it is now, but all in a storm, done all over +on a bit of the finest mahogany wood, and it’s +now at aunt Alice’s, for mother said she did +not like such vanities, much more to have, +summer and winter, to look on the sea in that +dreadful state; ’twas bad enough when it really +came so.”</p> + +<p>“Why any of us came, I can hardly tell, +my pretty little friend; but for myself, though +I have not seen the Bubbling Well, or the +Black Glen, the walk up this cliff has been so +pleasant, that I should be glad to come again.”</p> + +<p>“But you have been a long time about it,” +said Lucy: “I wish you could see cousin +George, how he climbs the side of yonder crag +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_50"></span>above our heads! when I call him, he is at +the top before you can count fifty; I don’t +think, for all you like the cliff so much, you +could do that, Sir.”</p> + +<p>There was something in this invidious comparison +which did not please Lord Castleton, +though he ought to have been no more hurt at +the imputation of inferiority in such an accomplishment, +than if he had found six months +afterwards, that he could not reef a main-topsail +as well as cousin George. He replied, however, +“I believe I ought to try that now, to +have any chance of rejoining my party; but +before I go, though I have not stayed long +enough to paint a picture like your last visitors, +may this,” said he, unslinging a small French +watch, which hung by a light gold chain round +his neck, “may this serve to remind you of +these fleeting moments, and may it record for +you many hours, as happy as the few last +minutes it has marked for me.”</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_51"></span></p> + +<p>“I am sure aunt Alice would say I ought +not to take this,” said Lucy, hesitatingly; “yet, +perhaps, if you would not object, cousin George +will want a watch now he is going to leave us, +and it had better serve to remind him of me, +than me of you; for I am afraid it is not like +I should see a gentleman like you again, Sir.”</p> + +<p>“To you I give it,” said Lord Castleton, +“’tis for you to dispose of it as pleases you,” +and throwing it round her neck, he rushed up +the cliff, with an activity, which she could not +have denied would have done credit to cousin +George himself. Near the top he met that +individual descending from escorting the rest +of the party; a mutual “good evening!” varied +only by “Sir!” on one side, and “my lad!” on +the other, and not in a very cordial tone on +either, was all that passed between them.</p> + +<p>Lord Castleton found his horse left in the +care of a groom at the top of the cliff, with a +request that he would follow the rest of the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_52"></span>party as soon as possible, their return having +been much hurried by the imminent danger to +which they foresaw the various <i lang="fr">entrées</i> would +be exposed by their flagrant unpunctuality, for +they were still fourteen hilly miles from Hornscliff +Abbey. Lord Castleton, in his present +frame of mind, was not very anxious to rejoin +the party, and therefore, regulating his pace +so as just to keep them in sight at the opposite +side of the various alternate ridges and dales +they had to pass, resigned himself to his reflections, +which it would be puzzling to present to +the reader, in that connected form which they +never assumed. They began with a sigh to +the charms of unsophisticated nature, which +nature immediately assumed the form, and +recalled the smile of Lucy Darnell. He then +dwelt on the rare union of beauty and of innocence, +which brought up for a moment an unpleasant +recollection of how he first saw her, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_53"></span>sitting on the boat with cousin George; this +he hastened to obliterate by imagining past +habits of childish familiarity, and then by fancying +cousin George tossing about for years to +come in his transport-ship.</p> + +<p>He then thought of the soothing sensation +of repose which he had embodied from the +beautiful scenery of Morden Bay, and he invested +the residence of farmer Darnell with the +character of the last chosen retreat of peaceful +content in this troubled world.</p> + +<p>From that, as he caught a glimpse on the +summit of the opposite hill of Lady Madelina’s +Sol-pleurants, fluttering in the evening breeze, +he recurred to his late ‘liaison’ with her; and +his memory immediately collected with astonishing +fidelity, every incident which had happened +in its progress, which, at the time, rather +<i lang="fr">degouté’d</i> him, but which he had, till then, +almost forgotten. As he urged on his horse +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_54"></span>to join some of the party, who he saw had perceived +him, and were waiting in consequence, +he concluded with the determination, that the +first spare day he would again ride over alone +to Morden Bay. But “a spare day” is not so +easily found in the midst of such a party, by +one whose actions none imagined to be at his +own disposal, and who, as the passive half of +Lady Madelina’s constantly repeated <em>we</em>, was +supposed, of course, included in every arrangement +she suggested.</p> + +<p>A country house is the most unfavourable +opportunity for attempting to break chains +which habit has riveted. The party consequently +broke up, new prospects opened upon +Lord Castleton, and new pursuits were undertaken, +without his having a second opportunity +of visiting Morden Bay.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_55"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_IV"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Four">IV.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">——Are not these woods</div> + <div class="verse indent0">More free from peril than the envious court?</div> + <div class="verse indent27"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div><div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">At one kind word their arms extending</div> + <div class="verse indent0">To clasp the neck of him who blest</div> + <div class="verse indent0">His child, caressing and carest.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Byron.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + + +<p><span class="smcap">In</span> the romantic charm with which the fancy +of the enthusiastic, though casual admirer of +Morden Bay, had invested all it contained, he +had considered the retired residence of the +Darnell family as the chosen abode of content. +He judged hastily; and yet he might have +inquired farther, and reasoned more deeply +without being undeceived. His opinion was +founded on the tranquil beauty of the scene; +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_56"></span>and here he ran into the common error of +attributing the same effect from surrounding +objects on those to “the manner born,” as had +just been awakened in himself, by recent comparison +and contrast. It operated as a tonic +on his feelings, just then palled with dissipation. +’Twas “medicine to a mind diseased;” +but only daily food to those who +had never known any other: innocent and +salubrious no doubt, but producing no excitement, +and having no other effect on the +moral system than regularly excluding many +temptations to vice. He would have thought, +however, his hypothesis farther confirmed, if +he had learned that those who dwelt there were +in most comfortable worldly circumstances, +removed alike from the fears of want and the +desire of ostentation; that they had not even +a neighbour to envy; that, human cares and +ailings excepted, they were healthy alike in +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_57"></span>mind and body. And yet was it not the +abode of content.</p> + +<p>That it was not so, arose entirely from one +circumstance, which would have been supposed +incapable of having so much effect upon the +happiness of those around, by persons unaccustomed +to observe by what trivial causes the +peace of families is sometimes disturbed. +Mrs. Darnell was a most worthy woman, +correct in all her intentions, exemplary in the +discharge of all her duties, from the religious +down to the domestic; but she was a person of +an unfortunately minute mind, with a sort of +clock-work regularity of sensations: with her, +each duty, of every degree, was, in its allotted +succession, of equal importance; and, undisturbed +by any deviation into feeling, she not +only observed them herself, but, like the dial, +pointed them out to all about her. Any omission +of the due decorum of any rule, she treasured +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_58"></span>up, not till it had been obliterated by +subsequent punctuality, but till it was succeeded +by some fresh deficiency; by which +means she contrived that she should never be +without a grievance: not that she was ever in +consequence loud or angry; this she would +have thought wrong; but she put on a most +provoking appearance of patient endurance, +which was exactly the sort of look her husband +could least bear, and which inducing, in consequence, +occasional violent ebullitions on his +part, gave her the reputation amongst those +who knew little of both, of suffering meekly +under his violence, whilst the many more frequent +occasions in which he had yielded at +length, for the sake of repurchasing a smiling +face at his domestic hearth, were unnoticed, +because unknown.</p> + +<p>Dick Darnell, as he was familiarly called by +those who had known him in his younger days, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_59"></span>though now turned forty, had in character +much of the simplicity of a child, with warm +affections, a cheerful temper, and a disposition +all whose natural bias was good, though never +much disciplined in the school of self-denial. +It was lucky, perhaps, that he was born in a +situation where temptations did not too much +abound; for there were moments in which he +was supposed not to have been particularly successful +in resisting those that had occasionally +crossed his path. Now that he was no longer +very young, his appearance would be best +described by the epithet hearty. His person +had been handsome, and if its bulk had now +increased beyond the proper proportion, it had +rather become portly than unwieldy; and the +good-humoured and cheerful expression of his +laughing eye, seemed to inspire sympathy at +first sight.</p> + +<p>He had become acquainted with his present +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_60"></span>wife at the county town, during assize +time. She was the daughter of a respectable +tradesman, who was known as one of that +peculiarly strict class, who put forth exclusive +pretensions to monopolise righteousness; +she had therefore received a very serious +and unexceptionable education. Richard Darnell +had done his best for many years to try to +love her, and would at that very hour have +been very much surprised if anybody had told +him that he had not succeeded, for he always +assured his acquaintance at the market-town, +to which he went once a week, “that for sixteen +years he had been married to his <em>Missus</em>, +and he never had had so much as one occasion +to find fault with her.” He dropped at these +times all mention of those many occasions on +which she had found fault with him, which +had led to those altercations mentioned above. +But there were few of his friends who had not +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_61"></span>remarked, that of late years he never found the +weather so bad as it used to be when it frequently +prevented his coming at all to market; +but that, on the contrary, he often found the +distance in returning so much longer than +formerly, that when dark and wet, he could +not possibly reach home over night, but stayed +till the next morning. His daughter he loved +better than all the rest of the world put together; +and when he returned from these excursions, +and had not seen her for four-and-twenty +hours, he would like to sit in the chimney-corner, +with her slight form resting on +his capacious knee, and picking out those of +his adventures by the way best suited to meet +her ear, would chat on for ever and ever, and +ask no other reply than to see the expression of +his own laughing eye reflected in the softened +likeness of his daughter’s delicate features.</p> + +<p>But these were, in Mrs. Darnell’s idea, moments +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_62"></span>of time most completely wasted, and she +would generally interrupt them by demanding,—“why +Richard would not stir himself, and +look after his men, whom he had left a whole +day without a master’s eye,” and by informing +Lucy, she thought “her hands might be more +profitably employed at her needle, than in +hanging idly about her father’s neck.”</p> + +<p>Next to hanging about her father’s neck, +her mother thought that the most useless way +in which Lucy’s hands were sometimes employed, +was holding a book. That is, to do +her justice, she drew the distinction between the +use of a book as an amusement, or as a duty; +as the latter she not only very properly enjoined +the lecture of the Psalms and Lessons +of the day, but enforced it so regularly, that +one of Lucy’s delinquencies, to which most +frequent plaintive allusion was made, was, that +<em>once</em> she had inadvertently read the Evening +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_63"></span>Lesson in the morning, a fault which it was +impossible to undo, but by doubling it, and +reading the Morning in the Evening. All +reading beyond this, whether history or fiction, +she treated alike as vanity.</p> + +<p>The duty of letters she did not consider as +that of a standing army to be sent abroad on +the sea of knowledge, to extend the empire of +the mind; but merely as a sort of local militia, +to be called out at stated times on this one +home service.</p> + +<p>Such limitations as in this respect she put +upon herself, she would have exacted from +Lucy, had not the latter been taught differently +in the course of the frequent visits she made to +the aunt, mentioned above. This aunt was an +unmarried sister of Dick Darnell’s: some years +his junior, she had come to establish herself, +within the memory of Lucy, at a small but +neat cottage round the next point, which had +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_64"></span>originally been built as a house of occasional +call in bad weather, by a gentleman who had +been sailing about in a yacht on that coast.</p> + +<p>She was a lone woman, who had evidently +had her sorrows, not yet forgotten by herself, +though never obtruding their chilling contagion +on the spirits of her young visitors, who +always found her anxious to participate in +their cheerfulness, though even at their +thoughtless years they sometimes noticed the +effort that it required to enable her to assume +an appearance contradicted by the care-worn +character of her beauty, which, striking as +that beauty still was, did not give the idea of +a person so much younger than her brother +as she really was.</p> + +<p>It was curious to trace what is called a +family likeness in two persons so totally unlike. +Her form was altogether of another mould, +and different habits had given the deportment +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_65"></span>of a different rank in life. If the resemblance +could be traced to any definite feature, it +lurked in the benevolent smile of the mouth, +of which her’s was the miniature copy of his, +though that which gave to his its joyous character, +the sparkle of his laughing eye, if it +ever had existed in her’s, was now prematurely +obscured. She lived entirely alone, with the attendance +only of one maid servant, and dependant +for society, (if she could be called dependant +on that which she did not seem to require) upon +the frequent visits of her niece, the occasional +calls of her brother, or his nephew George, and +those, luckily, more rare occasions on which +Mrs. Darnell found her way as far as her +cottage, mildly to murmur over her grievances. +Though always cheerfully receiving these separate +visitors, the same disposition which, +when she first came into the neighbourhood, +made her decline her brother Richard’s hospitable +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_66"></span>offer, to lodge her under his roof, +seemed still to induce her to avoid the full +family reunion at their own house; and the +only place where she met them altogether, (and +this she rarely missed,) was weekly in their +common pew, at the Parish Church, three +miles off. It is impossible to conceive two +persons more different in the detail of their +dispositions, than Mrs. Darnell and this sister-in-law. +The one with every thing to make a +home happy and comfortable, yet (one could +almost as little tell how, as why,) contriving to +turn every thing into a grievance: the other, +to whom the world seemed to have done its +worst, to have separated as an isolated being +from its interests, yet the chosen confidant +even of the changeful fancies of children, and +occasionally sought as the depositary of the +complaints of her whom she so little resembled.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_67"></span></p> + +<p>The fact was, that Alice Darnell had unconsciously +assumed over her sister-in-law that influence +which a strong mind can hardly fail of +exerting over a weak one. This prevented her +mother from objecting, as she otherwise might +have done, to the loss of time occasioned by the +frequent visits of Lucy to her aunt. There +might, perhaps, be another reason for this. +Alice Darnell, though still young, was in a +precarious state of health, which had indeed +been given by Richard as the reason for his +sister’s wishing to retire there; and, as curiosity +was not one of the flaws of his wife’s +character, she had always believed this to be +the only cause of that measure; but Miss +Darnell’s fortune, for her rank in life, seemed +considerable, and whom was she to leave it +to? This was a consideration which often crossed +Mrs. Darnell’s mind, as she had been educated +in a school in which, in the midst of +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_68"></span>pious contempt for the vanities of this world, a +beneficial distinction was always taken between +its empty pleasures and its solid advantages.</p> + +<p>Alice Darnell had not what, in the enlarged +sense, would have been called a library, but +she had some shelves well-stored with the +common editions of the English classics. Lucy +generally found her aunt occupied among +these, but one thick octavo, she remarked, was +a constant favourite. It was a compendious +volume, for it contained all Shakspeare. In +answer to her niece’s question, “Why she read +it so often?” she said, “This is the world in +which alone I wish to live. As long as this +little book is left me, I am less alone, more in +the midst of human nature, than in the most +crowded city.”</p> + +<p>For once she spoke more according to her +own feelings than to the capacity of her she was +addressing: she perceived her mistake. The +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_69"></span>little girl could not understand her, but her +curiosity was roused; she anxiously listened +to her aunt, who commenced reading to her +selected passages, in a manner which added all +the charm of voice and delivery to what was +in itself so well calculated to interest; and +from that time forward one of the most eagerly +anticipated pleasures of her visits to her aunt +was to cry with “Constance,” or to tremble at +“Lady Macbeth;” she never saw a storm without +thinking of poor “King Lear;” cultivated +her <em>red roses</em>, out of sympathy for the “House +of Lancaster,” and neglected the <em>white ones</em>, +out of mere spite to “Richard III.”</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_70"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_V"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Five">V.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">Adieu! I have too grieved a heart</div> + <div class="verse indent0">To take a tedious leave.</div> + <div class="verse indent26"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div><div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">What other can she seek to see</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Than thee, companion of her bosom,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">The partner of her infancy?</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Byron.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">Lucy Darnell</span> was found by her cousin +George, when he returned from escorting the +strangers to the top of the cliff, still leaning +over the little gate which led through the +garden to the house, and still curiously examining +what she thought the extraordinarily +small watch the gentleman had given her: as +soon as she perceived him she cried out, +“What do you think, cousin George?”</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_71"></span></p> + +<p>“What do I think?” said he a little out +of humour, he hardly knew why; “what do I +think? why, that you made that gentleman +loiter so in coming up the cliff that he has +missed his party.”</p> + +<p>“Why, I did not make him loiter; he +would not walk any faster; he did not seem +used to it, though I told him how quick you +could climb to the top.”</p> + +<p>“I am sure he was going fast enough when +I met him,” said George doggedly.</p> + +<p>“Well, it is very odd; to be sure he did +jump along limber enough as soon as he left +me, but I could not make him try before. But +what do you think I have got for you?” added +she, showing the watch.</p> + +<p>“And how did you come by that thing?” +demanded George.</p> + +<p>“That gentleman gave it me; but I only +took it for you, George,” observing that he +looked displeased.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_72"></span></p> + +<p>“Thank you all the same, Lucy, but let it +bide where it was meant it should. He would +never have given it to the like of me; there +was over many reasons why he might have +done so to you.”</p> + +<p>“I thought,” said Lucy, “it would serve +to remember you of me whenever you looked +at it.”</p> + +<p>“But I had rather not remember you and +him both together, as that thing would always +be making me do.”</p> + +<p>“I don’t know what’s come over you, +George,” said Lucy puzzled, “but it’s hard, +when I hoped but to please you, you should +speak so cross, and this your last night too.”</p> + +<p>“I did not mean to be cross,” answered +George in an altered tone; “but I can’t take +that watch for another reason, for see, I’ve +already got one just like it,” fumbling in his fob, +and tugging out with some difficulty, at the end +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_73"></span>of a long stout steel chain, which appeared as +if it might have served for fetters, an immense +pinchbeck turnip-like time-piece, the recent gift +of his uncle. As this capacious and ponderous +concern was displayed by the side of the diminutive +<i lang="fr">Brequet</i>, Lucy, though unaware of the +relative value of their different dimensions, +could not help smiling at the comparison, +and, with restored cheerfulness, said, “Just +like it, George! yes, just as like it as you +are to the stranger gentleman.”</p> + +<p>They were here interrupted by her mother’s +voice calling Lucy from the house.</p> + +<p>The various additional avocations which the +approaching departure of her nephew, in Mrs. +Darnell’s opinion, entailed on her daughter +during this evening, prevented the cousins +again speaking together that night. But Lucy +was aware that her cousin would before breakfast +in the morning go over to take leave of his +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_74"></span>aunt; she had therefore risen earlier than +usual, and carefully executed, as she thought, +all the morning duties which maternal authority +could exact before any one was stirring, +when George, having just come down as she +was preparing to cross the flower-garden with +him, her mother’s window opened, and in a +precise tone, which indicated a succession of +questions, she asked,—</p> + +<p>“Lucy, my dear, have you skimmed the +milk?”</p> + +<p>“Yes.”</p> + +<p>“Have you looked to the bread?”</p> + +<p>“Yes, mother.”</p> + +<p>“Have you fed the poultry?”</p> + +<p>“Yes, mother.”</p> + +<p>“That’s right; then you’ll have time to hem +your father’s new shirts before breakfast, so +I’ll bring them down.”</p> + +<p>This was known by both who heard it, however +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_75"></span>mildly expressed, to be a command from +which there was no appeal; so George only +said, “Before I come back, Lucy, they’ll all +be down at breakfast, so I only wanted to +say that last night you called me cross, and +as I lay awake in bed afterwards, I thought +of many more times I had been so, though +you had not told me so; and what I wished +to say is this: you know I’ve been to sea once +before now, though only to try it, but enough +to know it’s another sort of thing to think over +the like of these in one’s warm bed here, when +one has only but to come and say, Lucy, I ask +your pardon, and see your sweet smile in return, +than to have it come across one’s mind +when one’s far away, walking the deck on a +dark night, thinking of one’s distant home, +that lies just in the wind’s eye, and a hurricane +blowing one the Lord knows where another +way, perhaps never to return. Nay, I did not +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_76"></span>mean to distress you, Lucy; only just say that +if I’ve ever been kind to you you’ll think only +of that, and not of t’other sort of conduct, +whilst I am gone and away—”</p> + +<p>“I never do—never can—never will, think +of you but as my kind good cousin George,” +hastily answered Lucy, hearing her mother’s +measured tread descending the stairs, shirts in +hand.</p> + +<p>After George’s return, and the somewhat +silent breakfast had been nearly despatched, +Mrs. Darnell started up from the top of the +table where she had been sitting, and enquired +“And what will Jackie Pattison be doing +there? sure, if he isn’t driving up the old mare +and the pony from the low pasture.”</p> + +<p>“And where’s Jackie Pattison? I don’t see +him,” said the farmer, anxious to get a little +time to prepare his defence for the attack which +he foresaw.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_77"></span></p> + +<p>“And will it be your bidding then, Richard, +that he is doing?” who now guessed it all.</p> + +<p>“I told him my mare and the pony would +both be wanted; so if they were in the low pasture, +it’s like he’s been to fetch them,” answered +Richard, with a determination for once to +face it boldly out; “I mean to see the lad +as far as Mayton, where he takes coach; +it would have been over far for him to have +walked, and the pony will follow me back again +like a dog.”</p> + +<p>“But he meant to walk. He said so when I +told him not to cut yon stick out of the oak-copse; +and you to go away, Richard, and leave +me lonely, to fret at George’s going, and to +spend your silver idly by the way; and then +to take away the mare that’s wanted in the +draught, now we’re so throng in the hay-time; +it’s just of a piece with a’ the rest.</p> + +<p>“It’s just of a piece with a’ the rest,” +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_78"></span>was, as her husband had learned to his cost, a +comprehensive allusion to all her former grievances, +some of which were to be ready to reinforce +the present attack, provided it was not in +itself effective; but in this instance he knew +that all these names were rather put forward as +heads of chapters for future complaints on his +return, than expected to prevent his departure. +He therefore thought it would be useless to +subject himself to have them twice repeated by +answering them now; so drawing his wife aside, +he suggested, “that he only went in order to +keep the lad out of harm’s way at Mayton, +till he saw him into the coach which was to +take him to the port where his other uncle’s +ship lay.”</p> + +<p>“Well, if you must go, mind you do that,” +said Mrs. Darnell, “and do for once speak +serious to the lad, and counsel him how he falls +into evil courses.”</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_79"></span></p> + +<p>The parting between George and Lucy, +though public, was affectionate, as indeed their +near relationship in itself authorised.</p> + +<p>Farmer Darnell, hardly believing as yet, +that he could have got off so easily, started at +first at the steady pounding jog-trot of his cart-mare; +a pace which required unequal alternations +of shambling, walk, and canter, on the +part of George’s pony, to keep up with. At +length the uncle thinking it was time to attempt +to execute his wife’s injunctions of a +lecture to his nephew, pulled his mare up to +the pace she was used to go in draught, and +began—</p> + +<p>“It’s a bad world this you’re going into, +George.”</p> + +<p>“Is it indeed, uncle?” quaintly inquired +George.</p> + +<p>This abrupt questioning of what, without +feeling its truth himself, he had always considered +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_80"></span>an incontrovertible position, rather disturbed +the course of the uncle’s intended lecture, +as he replied, “Why, to be sure, it +must be. Doesn’t the parson tell us so every +seventh day; and doesn’t my Missus, who is +as good every bit as he is, and therefore +ought to ken as well, repeat it to us all +the other six? For my part, to be sure, I +can’t say I find much fault with it. ’Tisn’t +all made up of Sundays—that’s certain—but +that one couldn’t expect; and if there +were but <em>two</em> market-days in a week, I’d +be content with one Sunday in each.”</p> + +<p>“And yet aunt says if you went to +market once a fortnight only, ’twould be +better.”</p> + +<p>“Your aunt is——the best woman in the +world,” continued the uncle after a dubious +pause; “how she’ll stay at home herself to +save me money! But between ourselves,” added +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_81"></span>he, lowering his tone, and approaching his +mare to the pony, “she’s a little apt to take +it out in fashing one. As you’re going to +leave us, I may say to you, but mind you +don’t repeat it, that when she does get hold +of a bone of contention, she’ll never leave +hold no more than my bull-bitch Bess would. +She certainly is,” he added, casting a look +instinctively behind him, though two ridges +had interposed between his dwelling and the +part of the road where they then were,—“she +certainly is enough sometimes to worry one +out of soul and body, and there’s truths out. +But what I wanted to tell you, George, is,—have +a care of the women; if they been’t +over good, they’re over bad, and they’re a +main deal of dead weight for a man to carry +either way.”</p> + +<p>“I don’t think cousin Lucy would ever be a +dead weight to any one,” said George.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_82"></span></p> + +<p>“She! bless her lightsome heart! no!” +cried her father in a burst of parental affection; +“she’d be but a feather weight in the longest +course, and yet as good as gold too. But I +didn’t think of her, and was talking of you, +and the nonsense of sweethearting a lad like +you might fall into when you may be ganging +with some painted Jesabels, who would pick +your pocket first, and box your ears afterwards: +have nothing to say to the likes of +them, George; show ’em your stern at once; +no one is safe from their arts: remember King +Solomon,—not that I mean that all women +are alike, or that a man shouldn’t say thank +you, because she’s a woman, to a buxom kind-hearted +person, like our landlady, Widow +Westbury, when she tries to make him welcome +all in a friendly way.”</p> + +<p>As George had never before accompanied +his uncle to Mayton, and had always come +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_83"></span>the other road himself, he had never heard +of the Widow Westbury, and was puzzled +to connect his uncle’s two cases of the hostess +and Solomon. But the honest farmer +continued what he thought his useful instructions.</p> + +<p>“Another thing,—beware of drink, boy; it’s +a filthy trick, and the drunkard, after all, +has but a sad time of it, for the reproaches +of wine, on the morrow, are worse than—than—my +wife’s: not but that it’s a hard +thing to help taking another glass or two +sometimes, when one meets an old friend, +and one feels to like him better and better +every sup, and each draught makes one’s stories +tell the merrier, and one’s laugh come the +heartier.”</p> + +<p>In this alternation of strict advice to be +correct in conduct, and over-ready excuses +for being otherwise, in which, unintentionally, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_84"></span>the honest farmer followed the example of +many <i lang="fr">soi-disant</i> moral works, wherein a good +word is given to virtue, whilst sympathy is +excited for error, they arrived at Mayton. +It was a neat little country-town; its broad, +open, well-paved market-place, with ancient +cross in the middle, was surrounded by many +tidy-looking dwellings of various dimensions, +beyond which the town extended in the shape of +streets, but a little way down the different roads +which here united. From the circumstance +of the market-place being evidently the centre +of attraction, it appeared that Mayton derived +its principal consequence from being +the mart of the surrounding country; which +might also be inferred from the number of +second-rate houses of public entertainment +with which it abounded. Passing by one of +these, which boasted on its board the exclusive +dignity of “neat post-chaises,” Farmer Darnell +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_85"></span>made straight up to the smartest of the +others, before whose door swung the head of +a most formidable-looking female, with a little +crown stuck on the top of her head, and +underneath was written, in gold letters, “Ann +Westbury;” an apparent appropriation of +the portrait by the hostess, which gave her the +name of “Queen Anne” among many of her +customers; a dignity with which, coupled +with the resemblance implied, she was by no +means flattered.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_86"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_VI"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Six">VI.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">I’ll ne’er be drunk again but in honest and godly company,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">for this trick.</div> + <div class="verse indent36"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + + +<p><span class="smcap">There</span> was not the usual market-day bustle +outside the Queen’s Head, and Farmer Darnell +dismounting, followed his old mare, who well +knew her way to her usual stable in the backyard +through the passage, which was so narrow +as to limit its accommodation to equestrians.</p> + +<p>“Call the hostler, lad,” said the farmer from +the stable to George, who had followed him +into the yard; an injunction which George +vociferously complied with, thinking that now +the sooner he and his pony were separated the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_87"></span>better for the indulgence of their mutual +appetites.</p> + +<p>“Eh, Sally, and who will that be calling +about him?—run and see,” said a voice from the +back of one of the outhouses, at the window +of which the person who had thus spoken immediately +appeared, and seeing George, continued, +“And is it only you, my lad, making +all that clatter? who taught you to call about +you like a lord? They say patience saves +many a pennyworth of lungs—what may you +want, pray?”</p> + +<p>“Uncle and I want our horses fed.”</p> + +<p>“And who is your uncle?” inquired the +landlady.</p> + +<p>When, Richard Darnell presenting himself +at the door of the stable, his appearance answered +the question.</p> + +<p>“And is it indeed you, Mr. Darnell—and this +not market-day?—and of all days in the week +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_88"></span>that you should just look in upon me at washing-up, +and I a shame to be seen,” she added, +half raising her soap-suddy hands to pull her +cap over her <i lang="fr">papillotes</i>, till recollecting that +such a contact would not be advantageous.</p> + +<p>However, no one of her time of life could +better bear to be seen at disadvantage than +the Widow Westbury, for upon the whole surface +of the fair fresh skin which the <i lang="fr">papillotes</i> +left unshaded, forty winters had failed to leave +a furrow, and during as many summers her +indoor avocations had saved her even from a +freckle; whilst an active disposition had prevented +her full form swelling into corpulency. +On this occasion, the sleeves tucked-up almost +to her shoulders, displayed a well-rounded arm, +and tidy habits had prevented the rest of her +dress from being discomposed, or even her +apron splashed. “And if that idle fellow Joe +Hostler won’t be gone to the ’leatherplating +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_89"></span>sporting on the Wold! but you know where +the corn is kept, Richard, and here is the key +of the bin,” (throwing it to him,) “and I’ll go +and see after your dinner and the lad’s.”</p> + +<p>Now, though this was a part of the establishment +upon which she much prided herself, +yet, upon this occasion, with a special injunction +to be careful, she consigned it exclusively +to Sally, preferring to spend the next few minutes +herself rather before the looking-glass +than the kitchen-fire; and when George, having +fed his pony, was seeking his room up-stairs, +he found her coming out of hers, with the cap +changed, and the <i lang="fr">papillotes</i> removed. By the +excessive care she immediately took of all his +comforts, she soon removed the unfavourable +impression at first made on his mind by the +rebuke he had received from her for his stentorian +bellowing after the hostler.</p> + +<p>During the savoury and substantial meal, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_90"></span>George could not help remarking, how all his +uncle’s tastes were consulted, with a delicate +attention, which combined the zealous activity +of the hostess with the acquired tact of companionship; +and as he observed the exhilarating +effect it had upon his spirits, and as he contrasted +it with the state of subjection he suffered +under at home, he no longer wondered at +the fervent wish he had expressed, “that there +were two market-days in every week.”</p> + +<p>Soon after dinner, which their long ride had +made rather late, the snug trio was swelled by +the dropping in of two of the natives of Mayton, +upon whose hands, in consequence of +their fellow townsmen being more <em>healthy</em> than +<em>wealthy</em>, time occasionally hung a little heavy. +These were an extra apothecary, and a supernumerary +attorney, articles in which the market +of Mayton had been overstocked.</p> + +<p>They were both of them jovial companions +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_91"></span>over a bottle; an accomplishment which they +had the more opportunities of cultivating, as, +before their arrival, the supply of both physic +and parchment had in Mayton been fully +equal to the demand; and whilst there was +another doctor or druggist in the neighbourhood, +everybody was convinced that the apothecary +had neither skill enough to write prescriptions, +nor shop enough to make them up; +and unless there should be some <em>third</em> party to +lawsuit beside plaintiff and defendant, no one +would leave either of the two established practitioners +for the new attorney.</p> + +<p>The consequence of all this was, that they had +frequently met Farmer Darnell at the Widow +Westbury’s; one of which occasions had produced +almost the only case in which either had +been employed; having, as they walked home +together late at night, literally <em>thrown</em> into +their hands a common joint job, in the shape of +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_92"></span>a sleepy “outsider,” who, swinging round the +corner on the top of the very night-coach by +which George was going, was chucked off at +the moment they were passing by. The doctor +bled the passenger, and the lawyer bled the +coachmaster, in the shape of an action for damages, +and the jury being more inflammable +than the patient, they both succeeded beyond +what their professional merits fairly earned. +Having soon heard, (as what is not soon heard +in a country town?) that Farmer Darnell was +stopping at the Queen’s Head with his nephew, +who was to go that night by the one o’clock +coach, they stepped in to learn the why, and +the where; and upon hearing that he was +about to commence his career afloat, insisted +upon drinking his future success in life in +a bottle of port, or a bowl of punch. This, +at first, the farmer declined, probably from +not liking to exceed before his nephew, and +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_93"></span>mistrusting himself enough to know that the +first was the most favourable moment for +resistance, and that abstinence was easier than +temperance. The hostess, though professionally +interested in the affirmative of the proposal, +seemed to regret, that by the interruption +of her chat with her friendly guest, and her +own necessary withdrawal from the drinking +bout, she should pay in person what she received +in purse.</p> + +<p>The question, when a decided negative was +no longer possible, having been put to Dick +Darnell, in the amended form, “whether it +should be <em>port</em> or <em>punch</em>?” with the zeal of a +convert he voted for <em>both</em>.</p> + +<p>George Darnell, in whose exclusive honour +they were undertaken, seemed not to participate +in the pleasure the others took in these +mingled potations. In fact, there were many +things he regretted in the home he was leaving +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_94"></span>behind him, and it did not please him that the +image of “cousin Lucy,” on which his fancy +liked to dwell, should be whisked away in the +rotatory evolutions of the apothecary’s red +nose, and the attorney’s bushy brow, which +both seemed soon to dance round him, as the +mixture of <em>old wine</em> and <em>new rum</em> took a speedy +effect upon his unseasoned head. The last +thing he recollected distinctly was his kind +hostess smoothing his pillow, and assuring him +that he should not be too late for the coach.</p> + +<p>When he awoke from his heavy slumber, it +might have been <em>five hours</em>, or only <em>five minutes</em> +afterwards, all was perfectly stilled around, +and instead of his uncle’s mellow voice singing +a hunting song, and his two companions +croaking in untuneful chorus, nothing met his +ear but the loud ticking of the kitchen clock.</p> + +<p>He had an indistinct recollection of old Sally +having been sent on some such celestial embassy +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_95"></span>as “up to the Angel to let him know +when the Star stopped.” He still dreaded +being too late, and the ship sailing without +him, when he found that, in spite of the wine, +he had, as is often the case, waked instinctively +just at the proper time, for the piercing notes +of the guard’s horn were first heard in the +distance, and then, as it reached the pavement, +the rattling clatter of the coach echoing through +the empty streets.</p> + +<p>George hurried on his clothes, thinking, as +he was left undisturbed to do so, it was lucky +that he did not trust to his hostess’s promise +to call him. He hastily huddled on his things, +and making his way down-stairs, by the first +glimmer of dawn he perceived that the door of +the hostess’s room, through which he had seen +her come the day before, was open; he concluded +that she had just then stepped into his +uncle’s to call him in time to take leave of him; +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_96"></span>as was probably the case, for they very soon +descended together, the hostess ostensibly to let +them out, and Darnell to escort his nephew to +the coach. George took a short farewell of the +kind hostess, who, being only hastily half dressed, +ensconced herself behind the door she held +open.</p> + +<p>The uncle’s faculties seemed still a little +offuscated with the effects of the last night’s +debauch, as, after walking most of the way to +the Angel in silence, he said, “You’ll not +forget, George, to tell your aunt all the good +advice I gave you yesterday.”</p> + +<p>“You forget, Sir, that I am not going home, +and that it will be long before I see my aunt +or any of you again.”</p> + +<p>“True, true; and perhaps, when you do, it +may be as well to have clean forgotten all about +this last night. Good bye, George; afore you +see your old uncle Richard again, you will +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_97"></span>have seen many more men who preach better +than they practise.”</p> + +<p>Helping George up with one arm, and +shaking his hand heartily with the other, he +did not relinquish his friendly gripe till the +horses began tugging hardly more powerfully +the other. George soon lost sight of his uncle’s +portly figure in the indistinctness of the misty +dawn, and it was long before he again caught +a glimpse of any of the previously familiar +forms of his early youth.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_98"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_VII"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Seven">VII.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">The villain! I believe a man to cozen somebody.</div> + <div class="verse indent29"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent10">——Give me any clothes;</div> + <div class="verse indent0">I will some other be—some Florentine,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Some Neapolitan, or some mean man of Pisa.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Ibid.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + + +<p><span class="smcap">It</span> was a little more than four years after +the events of the last chapter, that one evening +the apothecary, mentioned above, was sauntering +listlessly along the smooth flags of the +market-place at Mayton. He had been lately +more than ever puzzled how to pass his time, +for he had lost his former boon companion, +the attorney. The fact was, that, in one of +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_99"></span>their jovial bouts, in despair at the world’s +continued blindness to their respective merits, +they had, in an affectionate fit of inebriety, +mutually sworn professionally to employ each +other. This was a bargain, of which the advantage +was clearly on the side of the doctor. +He was not a rich man, and therefore was +no food for the lawyer, who, after he had +drawn his will, and had recorded in the most +technical manner his medical friend’s bequest +of a few empty phials to himself, had done +his worst. But the attorney was not a healthy +man, and, therefore, he afforded at least practice +for his friend. At last the lawyer took +to his bed, where his physical Pylades still +followed him: and, whether in consequence +of the effects of the many draughts of which +they had previously partaken together, or of +the last which the doctor only prescribed,—the +attorney died, and his medical friend +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_100"></span>was left alone to wander up and down the +streets of Mayton, and watch the regular arrival +and departure of the public conveyances, +in the vain hope of some such other lucky +accident as once happened in the lifetime of +his companion.</p> + +<p>On this evening, as he strolled by the +“Queen’s Head,” he was surprised to see a +hack chaise, without horses, drawn up before +the door. Now, as it has been stated above, +that the “Queen’s Head” was not an inn of +rank enough to reciprocate such modes of +conveyance, it was an unusual act of condescension +for a vehicle of that kind to be upon +visiting terms with it.</p> + +<p>This was, therefore, quite event enough to +make the apothecary inquisitive, and, as he strutted +back again by the windows of the little +ground-floor parlour, where it was recorded in +the last chapter he had met Farmer Darnell, he +peeped through an hiatus in the blind, which +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_101"></span>he well knew of, and saw a young man sitting +by himself at the table, writing, with his back +rather turned towards him.</p> + +<p>“That’s the person it brought, and it’s +not a wedding after all,” thought he, obliged +to give up the idea of the merry-making which +his first speculations had included. He, however, +strolled into the kitchen to inquire, and +there finding the hostess said,</p> + +<p>“So you’ve got some post-chaise company +to-day, Mrs. Westbury: I thought at first it +had been a wedding? Perhaps it’s a husband +for yourself at last, widow. I often wonder +whom you’ve been waiting so long for.”</p> + +<p>“For your first patient, doctor; only then +I’m afraid you’d soon make me a widow +again.”</p> + +<p>“Quite the contrary, perhaps, widow. I +might promote population, ‘<i lang="la">in utrumque paratus</i>.’”</p> + +<p>The pedantic conclusion of this rejoinder on +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_102"></span>the part of the doctor, who had been originally +a man of grammar-school education, prevented +its being understood, or in consequence resented +by the widow.</p> + +<p>“And the person who came in the chaise +is—?”</p> + +<p>“A very civil-spoken sort of a decent young +man,” interrupted the widow. “I should at +first almost have taken him for a great gentleman, +by the whiteness of his hands and the +fineness of his linen, for all his clothes were not +over new or smart, and I might have bustled +about and made a to-do for him; but he told +me at once, without making believe to be what +he was not, to take care of a large book tied +round with strings, full of drawings and paintings, +for that he lived by the sale of them, and +he wanted to take some more likenesses of the +coast not far off from here.”</p> + +<p>“And Jack brought him from the Cock at +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_103"></span>Moreby?—How d’ye do, Jack?” turning to a +post-boy whom Sally had just been supplying +with a beefsteak and a mug of ale. “What, +I suppose with little blood chesnut mare and +bay gelding, I saw at the Angel, when you and +Joe Simmons brought Sir North in an hour +and a quarter from Moreby. But how come you +at this house; the widow’s beefsteaks good, eh?”</p> + +<p>“Why he said himsen, that he wouldn’t +gang tift first inn, and when he’d be gettin +here he’d dun wi’ posting; and so I told un, if +he’d loike to bide a bit, the widow would keep +in well, thof she couldn’t forward un.”</p> + +<p>“And he came in the same way to your +house in which he left it?”</p> + +<p>“He come’d in’t same way, but soa did +another wid un, a much smarter nor he, and +yet the tother put all this’uns things in’t chaise +for him, and stood at door looking after him, +till I driv off.”</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_104"></span></p> + +<p>“He’s been asking me about Morden Bay,” +interrupted the widow, “and I’m sure I didn’t +know much about it myself; but I told him +to-morrow was market-day, and Richard Darnell +would be sure to be here, and he’d hear all +about it from him; and he said that would just +do, and he would wait till then.”</p> + +<p>“Let me go and talk to him,” said the Doctor, +“I dare say I shall do just as well as the +farmer; and have a bottle of your oldest port +ready, in case I ask for it. You’re out of +lemons, I’m afraid?”</p> + +<p>The Doctor went, but returned sooner than +he expected, evidently disappointed, though at +first he said nothing, but walked about, took +up the anticipated bottle of port, which had +already at his desire mounted thus far from the +cellar, and was waiting at this half-way-house, +with the decanter by its side, in which it was +to pursue its journey to the parlour. He +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_105"></span>brushed off the sawdust, held it wistfully to +the light, and then told the landlady she might +carry it back again; but, “One word first, +widow,” said the Doctor: “You know I’ve a +regard for you; look to your spoons, that’s +all. A very suspicious-looking person, believe +me. When a man shuns good company, it’s a +very bad sign. I introduced myself in the +civilest way, saying that I understood he +wanted to dispose of some drawings, and that +I might have an opportunity of recommending +them in the course of my professional practice. +And when I was undoing the strings to look at +them, he took them from me, and said that +they were already disposed of. I then talked +of Morden Bay, and began describing it at +random, like any other bay; and then he interrupted +me by asking if I had ever been +there; and when I said, not that I could remember, +he said he thought as much; and +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_106"></span>just as I was chatting on about something else, +he told me that he was writing, and that if I +considered that a public room, he would ask +for a private one. Depend upon it, when a +chap of that kind comes Captain Grand over +one, and wants to be as dull as a lord, he has +some reason for it. It’s a very suspicious +story altogether. Who was that swell confidant +Jack says he left at Moreby? Who +knows? they may be French spies, taking a +survey of the coast, and the portfolio he was +so afraid I should see, may be chuck full of +treason.”</p> + +<p>“But you forget, Doctor, we are at peace +now, and have been for some time; and I +don’t know, whether he be French or English, +that there is any harm in his painting a +few trees, whether they grow near the sea +or not.”</p> + +<p>“I have it,” said the Doctor, but apparently +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_107"></span>the last suspicion was too weighty to +drop lightly, and, buttoning up his coat, he +only added, “A few days will show whether +I am right,” muttering to himself as he went +out, “General Ludd, General Ludd, General +Ludd!”</p> + +<p>But few years have passed since the Doctor +pronounced that then awful name, and many +of my readers have never heard of “General +Ludd,” at that time the dreaded object of +the ephemeral fears of every loyal Englishman. +His fame, too recent for the stores of +history, too obsolete for the currency of conversation, +is now less alive than that of many +a brother general, who swells the half-pay +list under the grateful denomination of “dead +weight.”</p> + +<p>Whatever suspicions the Doctor had at +that moment instilled into the mind of the +Widow Westbury, they appeared to have been +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_108"></span>obliterated, in a long conversation which she +had the next morning with the stranger; for +when her friend the Farmer arrived, she told +him there was a <em>nice</em> young man, who was +very anxious to board at his house for a few +weeks, whilst he sketched the surrounding +scenery. She told the Farmer he must not be +hard upon him for terms, for that he said +he was as poor as need be, though just able +to earn a decent subsistence by the labours +of his pencil.</p> + +<p>The Farmer, who had no objection to the +daily presence of a stranger, who he hoped +would rather restrain his family discomforts, +did not anticipate much objection on the part +of his wife, who, as she had every year become +more fond of money, and liked the +coin itself, rather than the comfort it could +purchase, would welcome the pittance of the +stranger, however small; determined, at the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_109"></span>same time, not to augment, in any respect, +the expenses on his account. One difficulty +only occurred to the Farmer: what in days +of yore had been called the “spare room,” +was now tenanted by the hams hung up to +dry. But there was George’s room vacant, +which had been empty ever since he left it; +he therefore made acquaintance with the +stranger, and the bargain was concluded between +them with the facility which might be +expected from two easy people, mutually eager +to be accommodating. One thing only kept +alive a sort of suspense in the hostess’s mind +against the stranger; whilst talking with her, +he had folded up and directed the letter he +had been so long writing, and which she observed +to be a bulky packet. She had offered +to put it in the post for him herself, and, +approaching it for that purpose with rather +a curious feminine eye, he had hastily turned +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_110"></span>the direction downwards, and declined her +services, saying, that he would put it in himself, +which, accordingly, he had stopped to +do, whilst riding out of the town with Farmer +Darnell.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_111"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_VIII"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Eight">VIII.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">Ay, mine own fortune is my misery.</div> + <div class="verse indent29"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">Go thither, and with unattainted eye</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Compare her face with some that I shall show.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Ibid.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">His letters bear his mind.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Ibid.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">’Tis hatched and shall be so.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Ibid.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + + +<p><span class="smcap">The</span> letter, which had been thus carefully +forwarded by the stranger, had by no means a +treasonable exterior; it was directed to “The +Right Honourable ——, &c. &c. &c. &c., +one of H. M. Principal Secretaries of State,” +and contained an inner envelope to “Wm. +St. Clair, Esq.” It began as follows:—</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_112"></span></p> + +<p> + <span style="margin-left: 2.5em;">“<span class="smcap">My Dear St. Clair</span>:</span> +</p> + +<p>“When I consider the official atmosphere in +which this will be opened, and that it is to be +read by a person now filling a situation with +such a dry unromantic name as <i lang="fr">précis</i> writer, I +can hardly hope for that sympathy in some of +the feelings it wall describe, which, even in +earlier days, your more worldly mind was +sometimes inclined either to withhold, or to mix +up with a little unwelcome ‘persiflage.’ You +have often told me, that with every kind disposition +to pity the peculiar hardships of high +rank, and the severe burthen of a large fortune, +still I was the friend whose misfortunes you +would the most readily share. But the very +circumstance of your quizzing me a little on +this head, by showing me that you cannot flatter, +makes me believe that you may feel for me, +when I complain of those irksome advantages +of wealth and situation which have prevented +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_113"></span>my being ever convinced that any one really +cared for me for myself alone. With men, I +do not so much mind that: the sterling ore +of friendship is too weighty for the exchange of +every-day intercourse, and the paper-currency +of popularity passes just as well. But with +women, from my earliest acquaintance with +them, I have always been haunted with the consciousness +that true love is not to be bought, and +by the constant idea that I could not be loved +for myself; a distrustful suspicion that, I grieve +to say, experience has hitherto only tended to +confirm. In every situation, wherever I have +been known, I have always had the same fear, +but too often the same conviction of its justice. +I have fancied I could trace the same expression +in every female face, from the hacknied +smiles of venal beauty, in whose profusion one +could plainly read ‘he pays well,’ up to the +would-be attractive simper of the shy debutante, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_114"></span>which had been already tutored to follow the +maternal whisper. I have tried in foreign +countries to escape the unfortunate fame of my +wealth and liberality, but in vain: many half-formed +illusions of the ‘grand passion’ have +been dispelled by the exclamation, ‘<i lang="fr">Milor qui +est si riche</i>.’</p> + +<p>“The first severe lesson of this kind I received, +you will have heard in the world told in +different ways. During my minority, I was +induced to raise money to pay the debts of +Lady Madelina Manfred,—I don’t like trusting +the post with names, but about her there can +be no scandal. The demand staggered me. I +believe I was half cured before; however, I +paid the money, and dropped the connexion. +She affected indignation at my fickleness and +desertion, which at her time of life was rather +a blow, but secured at the same time the whole +sum, (ten thousand pounds, I think it was,) +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_115"></span>and then eloped to spend it with a Captain +O’Connor, in Connaught, and poor Manfred is +still in the rules for her debts.</p> + +<p>“I did not think so much of this at the time; +I was then very young, and attributed it to my +own folly in having allowed myself to be inveigled +by a woman old enough to be my +mother, all whose better feelings had been +hardened by an habitual disregard of her marriage +vow.</p> + +<p>“The next year I was very much in love with——you +may, perhaps, have heard the story in +the scandal of the world, but I will not here +publish the name, because still unchanged, for +she is yet unmarried.</p> + +<p>“My guardians asserted, which was the only +reason why I doubted it, that I was then +much too young to marry. But I was at that +time sick of intrigue; I thought it would +be a glorious thing to monopolize for ever +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_116"></span>the first affections of one then so universally +admired.</p> + +<p>“Her mother, Lady ——, was always talking +to me of her daughter’s youth and innocence, +to which I attributed the reserve with which +my attentions had been at first received, pleased +as I was to find it gradually lessening during +their continuance.</p> + +<p>“The newspapers had already hinted, in unmistakable +initials, at a marriage in high life; I +had as yet said nothing, but was determined, +as I knew the paragraph must have been seen, +to observe first what effect that had produced. +The paragraph went the round of the papers +uncontradicted: perhaps I ought to have contradicted +it; but as I observed no diminution +of cordiality in consequence, I believe I should +instead have declared myself, but that just +at this time a military cousin of mine returned +with despatches from the Peninsula. +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_117"></span>He was a <em>very, very younger</em> brother, that is, +one of a very large family, with very little +fortune to divide. I had not seen much of +him lately, but as we had been together as +children, and I was one of his nearest collateral +relations, he came to consult me on an engagement +which he said he had formed previous to +his joining the army in Spain, and upon the +possibility of procuring the consent of the +family of the young lady, at whose house it +appears he had visited from country quarters.</p> + +<p>“He owned that he had nothing but his profession, +in which, however, his hope of promotion +was now great. But the young lady +had herself some money, and to prove that her +affections were sufficiently engaged to justify +him in venturing, he showed me some letters +he had received, full of assurances and unutterable +attachment from the nameless beauty, +who had since been receiving my addresses! +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_118"></span>The letters, it is true, were not of a very recent +date, but this the time occupied in his voyage +homewards had prevented his remembering.</p> + +<p>“Here, then, was a more complete explanation +of the coldness with which I had been at first +received, than the mother’s palliations of youth +and innocence, and an utter extinction of my +own dream of monopolizing the first affections +of a virgin heart. I would willingly have persuaded +myself that it was sensibility to my own +superior merits which had sufficed to obscure +a former transient impression; but when I +looked at my cousin’s handsome, sunburnt features, +and thought of his honourable distinctions +obtained in the field-of-battle, and compared +it with my own useless, lounging life, +I could not deny that the real nature of the +change must have been the worldly advantages +of one “<i lang="fr">parti</i>,” as compared with the +imprudence of the other connexion; for in no +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_119"></span>personal attractions could I flatter myself that +I surpassed my cousin.</p> + +<p>“This conviction operated as a summary cure +of my passion, and left in its stead mingled +feelings of disgust, at the deceit which had +been practised on myself, and pity for my +cousin.</p> + +<p>“Poor fellow! when I saw how deeply his +happiness was involved, I could not bear to +take on myself the task of destroying his hopes; +I therefore, without explaining my motives to +him, hastened that departure for the Continent, +which my guardians had long been anxious I +should not delay, and left him master of the +field to try his chance. I heard afterwards, +that his suit was rejected by her friends, with +an abruptness, probably increased by his being +supposed to have prevented my proposals. I +have reason to believe also, that he was more +regretted by the girl herself than would +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_120"></span>have been expected from one whose actions +were so much those of an automaton; but +however that may be, the first rejection was +final, for the next year my poor cousin was +killed at Waterloo, where he was supposed unnecessarily +to have sought danger, not unwilling +to close an irksome existence with a glorious +death.</p> + +<p>“The whole of these events made a deep impression +on me; and, confirming preconceived +opinions, gave me a decided distaste for a +London-bred wife, and extended my distrust +of the disinterestedness of the affections of +women in the world in general; which last +feeling you have occasionally remarked upon +at some of the many places abroad, when in +the course of your professional attaché-ship, +during the last few years, we have so often met. +You will say, perhaps, that it arose from a determination +to judge motives with a jaundiced +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_121"></span>eye; but I am every day more convinced, that +worldliness is at the bottom of every woman’s +heart whom I have known, of every country, +and in all states, whether maid, wife, or widow—ay! +widow worse than any. Since your return +home, I have met on the Continent one of +that class, perhaps at first one of the most +fascinating creatures in the world. I think it +very probable you may have met her. Young +Lady Gayland, married at seventeen to an +old man, a friend of her father’s; a widow at +nineteen; and now, at one-and-twenty, her own +mistress, with the vivacity of a child, and the +wit of a woman of the world.</p> + +<p>“I did hope that her’s was a situation where +the affections might have fair play. Neither +perverted by vicious habits, like Lady Madelina—for +Lady Gayland made an excellent wife +to old Sir Joseph; nor warped by maternal +manœuvring—for she had no one to please but +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_122"></span>herself, and was left with a large fortune, +which put her above prudential considerations,—I +was in hopes that she might at once merit +and appreciate that admiration which her +beauty excited; but I was deceived again. I +will not enter into particulars, as I have, I +trust, completely escaped from her fascinations; +though even at this distance I think too often +of her to feel quite confident on that head. If +you had seen the sudden jerk with which I +dashed away my pen, which had been the instrument +of conveying to you in the last sentence +that profession of indifference, you might +have been sceptical as to its sincerity; but a +few paces up and down the smallest of country-inn +parlours have brought me to my senses. +It is sufficient to say she deceived me. I was +fool enough to think that I had inspired her +with a feeling pure and fervent as my own, +when, in the midst of this vain dream, I was +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_123"></span>suddenly awakened. Within a week after the +arrival of that confident coxcomb, Frank +Melmoth, who only courted her for her fortune, +the melodious tones of her musical laugh +chiming in with all his flippant nonsense, rang +on my ears as the knell of all my hopes. Perhaps, +after all, I was too hasty; she might not +really care for him; but I had every reason +at the time to think so, and now it is all +over. It is sufficient to say, that she is spoilt by +the world, and can have no real feeling, for she +is disposed to laugh at every thing, and to receive +even sentiment with a smile. Upon one +occasion—but I said I would not particularize, +nor will I, because among other reasons, at this +distance of time, I do not feel quite sure but +that you might smile likewise. Suffice it to +say, I am at length convinced, that in our rank +in life, the feelings are too early perverted by +the world, to hold out to a person, who thinks +like me, any real prospect of happiness.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_124"></span></p> + +<p>“No; I will seek something as different as +possible from all that I have hitherto described. +No bad second-rate copy of Lady Gayland +could I tolerate; and if I am to be sustained in +my fixed resolution of forgetting her, it must +be by seeking contrast, and not imitation, that +I must hope to succeed.</p> + +<p>“What my present plan exactly is, I will +not say; but once in my earlier days a vision +crossed my path, of a simple child of nature, +fresh and beauteous as the morn. Think of +the delight of first winning her pure affections, +as one not elevated above her own rank in life, +(the case is certainly not without precedent,) +and then the pleasure of declaring myself afterwards, +and the consciousness thus derived, that +whatever additional gratification may arise +from the advantages of rank and fortune, they +could not be the cause of the connexion, +but from their subsequent disclosure were +matter of surprise, not speculation. Now, will +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_125"></span>you be anxious to find out the scene of this +plot; but even if you get hold of the cover +directed to your ‘chef,’ you will be only misled +by the postmark, as that is intended purposely +to deceive.</p> + +<p>“But be satisfied with a degree of confidence, +such as it is—quite unusual in these close and +uncommunicative days—and pardon the length +to which it is fine-spun; for bulky as the packet +is, the privilege of your place will prevent +your paying for it, and the duties of your office +will, I am sure, leave you complete leisure to +read it.</p> + +<p class="center"> +“Your’s, +</p> + +<p class="right r2"> + “<span class="smcap">Castleton</span>.” +</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_126"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_IX"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Nine">IX.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">——You are welcome, Sir;</div> + <div class="verse indent0">But not so well apparelled as I could</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Wish you were.</div> + <div class="verse indent29"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">Go to my chamber; put on clothes of mine.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Ibid.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">All impediments in fancy’s course</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Are motions of more fancy.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Ibid.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">Lord Castleton</span>, or rather Mr. Churchill, +as we must in future call the “<i lang="fr">soi-disant</i>” itinerant +limner, felt a little awkwardness at the +publicity of his first appearance in his assumed +character, as he rode out of Mayton by the +side of Farmer Darnell,—a mode of transferring +himself to his new residence which he had +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_127"></span>preferred to the alternative of being consigned +to one of the farmer’s return teams, which had +that morning brought there, as he assured his +new acquaintance, “the finest load of upland +meadow hay which had come to market that +season.” Mr. Churchill had therefore hired +for the purpose, at the Queen’s Head, the +hostler’s own pony, which besides the advantage +of his paces, a low straight shoulder, and +somewhat of a string-halt, had a mouth with +about as much feeling as a well-worn pulley, +through which a smooth snaffle ran without the +least effect: added to these qualifications, being +of a domestic turn, he had an invincible +dislike to wander far from home, which he did +not show by violent resistance, but by the +patient endurance with which he reluctantly +yielded, step by step, to the incessant hints of +Churchill’s unarmed heel.</p> + +<p>As Richard Darnell was in consequence +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_128"></span>obliged frequently to pull up for him, during +the first mile or two, it could not be concealed, +that the painter did not look very comfortable, +or much at his ease, and Darnell addressed him +with:</p> + +<p>“More used to handle the brush than the +whip, I take it, Master Painter. Pretty nearly +the first time you were a horseback, maybe? +Lord, man, I hope that a’n’t the way you would +paint St. George, as I suppose you have done +afore now; the dragon wouldn’t have much ado +to pull you off.”</p> + +<p>And the farmer chuckled good-humouredly +at what he conceived a harmless joke upon a +subject on which he could not imagine that his +companion could have any vanity.</p> + +<p>But it may be recollected that Lord Castleton +had very early been rather proud of any +opportunity for the display of his horsemanship; +he had indeed for two seasons been a +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_129"></span>crack-rider in Leicestershire; but for all that +it is very true, that no tailor could have looked +more out of his element on Joe Hostler’s rough +ill-broken pony.</p> + +<p>During the greater part of their way the +dialogue was confined to the qualities of different +soils, the prices of different years, the +proper succession of crops, and the measures +of various markets;—if, indeed, that could +be called a dialogue, which consisted in a +profusion of unasked information on the one +side, and exclamations of mechanical assent +on the other.</p> + +<p>As they approached the coast, the afternoon, +which had hitherto been fine, became gradually +overcast; a creeping mist, by degrees, enveloped +the surrounding country, and, thickening +as it advanced, was accompanied by a +mizzling rain. Lord Castleton, completely +wet to the skin, arrived at the top of the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_130"></span>cliff, which they were to descend to Farmer +Darnell’s dwelling, without being able to distinguish +a feature of the scene which had so +enchanted him the last time he had seen it. +Churchill was received at the door of the +house, not by her he longed to see, but by +her mother. Mrs. Darnell greeted him courteously, +for now that he was again separated +from the pony there was something in his air +and appearance which, until his story contradicted +it, rather betrayed his real rank in +life. Supposing him to be a gentleman, to +whom her husband had offered shelter, the +hostess expressed great solicitude about his +catching cold, and begged him to put on some +of her Richard’s clothes whilst his own were +drying.</p> + +<p>To this, as his own things were not yet come +over from Mayton by the waggon, he at once +consented, and was escorted to what was to be +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_131"></span>his, and which had been, George’s room, to effect +the change. He was aware that it had not yet +been explained to Mrs. Darnell who he was, and +his intended temporary residence in her household; +and, as he could overhear, without distinguishing +the words, the alternate tones of a gruff +and a sharp voice in the room beneath, he concluded +the explanation was then going on, and, +by the increasing preponderance of the “Alto” +over the “Basso” notes of the duet, he was +afraid it was not taking a favourable turn.</p> + +<p>His toilet was the sooner concluded, as the +difficulty consisted, in his case, not so much +in getting into Farmer Darnell’s clothes, +as in keeping them on afterwards. He +could not help thinking that his appearance +must be rather ludicrous, though there was +no looking-glass in the room by which to ascertain +the fact. He had, previously to adopting +his assumed character, cut short his own +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_132"></span>lighter hair, and superinduced a black wig as a +sort of disguise; but, as personal disfigurement +was no part of his plan, the wig was not of +that homely make which would suit the cut +of the borrowed garments he now had on.</p> + +<p>As he entered the room down-stairs he heard +the female voice end the argument with, “It’s +just of a piece with a’ the rest;” and then, +turning to him, she said, “So, young man, I +hear Richard has been settling with you to +stay and board with us a bit: there’s not another +man in the country, but him, would bring +a stranger at once into a decent family; no +offence to you, who, I dare say, are a quiet +well-behaved body, that won’t give us any +fash; but it was so like Richard, that’s all. +However, I have no doubt you wouldn’t have +come if you hadn’t the money to pay for your +board, for, after all, ’tis but an idlish uncertain +sort of calling your’s.”</p> + +<p>“I’ve no objection to pay the first week in +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_133"></span>advance, and, though far from rich, have no +doubt that I shall be able to continue to do so, +therefore make yourself easy on that head, my +good woman.”</p> + +<p>“Good woman, indeed!” muttered she; +“Mrs. Darnell’s my name, Mr. Churchill, as I +hear that’s yours. And what may you get by +this vagabond sort of life? ’tis a pity you +didn’t fix in some town and stick to painting +houses and signs.”</p> + +<p>“The different ranks in our profession are +as various as the colours in which we deal, +from those whose genius elevates them to the +society of the great, to the hacknied drudge, +to whose wholesale daubing you would confine +me: but though I can never aspire to emulate +the first, yet I find that by indulging my fancy +in sketching on the coast in summer, and +making drawings for cheap engravings in the +winter, I can maintain myself, with care and +economy, above all dread of want.”</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_134"></span></p> + +<p>Churchill meant by this last speech accurately +to describe the sort of indefinite situation +in society which he intended to assume. But +much of it was unintelligible to Mrs. Darnell, +who, satisfied by his offering to pay his board +and lodging in advance, that he was not a swindler, +turned to answer her husband’s inquiry, +“Why he had not seen his dear Lucy?” by +telling him that the girl had been over to see +her aunt, where she had probably been detained +by the weather, and might not come home that +night. Churchill therefore made up his mind +that he should not be gratified with the sight +of the object which had brought him there +till the next morning, which, considering his +present grotesque appearance in her father’s +clothes, he did not much regret; and, having +sufficient topic for reflection as to his future +conduct in the situation he had so abruptly +assumed, he remained comparatively silent, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_135"></span>whilst Darnell and his wife so far made him +at home as to discuss together domestic details, +without the least regard to his presence.</p> + +<p>But just as they were about to separate for +the night, the latch of the garden-gate was heard +to click, and a light step quickly to cross the +gravel without. The imagination of Churchill +had already anticipated what it was to produce, +when almost at the same instant the door hastily +opened, and Lucy rushed in. The first +impression on the mind of the stranger was, +upon the door opening, that her figure appeared +some inches higher whilst standing in the +threshold than his recollection had led him to +expect. His next remark, however, was the +perfect symmetry of her form, which the last +few years’ progress towards maturity had confirmed; +and as she threw off her bonnet, and +shook back the locks of her rich brown hair, +which had been disordered by the storm she +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_136"></span>had just braved, Churchill thought he had +never seen a countenance in which innocence +and intelligence were so happily combined.</p> + +<p>“And what do you come back for in this +gait, spoiling all your clothes?” said her +mother.</p> + +<p>“Nay, mother, I’m sure you’re glad to see +me safe at home,” said Lucy in a deprecating +tone, at the same time kissing her: “I never +slept from under this roof in my life before, +and I did not like to begin now, for all aunt +wanted me to bide with her all night.”</p> + +<p>The tone in which this was said disarmed +even Mrs. Darnell’s fault-finding disposition,—Churchill +would have wondered if it had not,—and +Lucy threw herself into her father’s arms, +whom she had not seen before to-day, and +then drew back upon observing the stranger. +He had risen upon her entrance, but felt an +awkwardness, which was visible in his deportment, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_137"></span>as to how to present himself: this was +increased by the unfitness of his present costume: +he felt that to attempt a pretty speech +or courteous greeting would be absurd, and +he was not sufficiently assured what sort of +deportment would be befitting his present +appearance. The consequence was, that he +stood sheepish and abashed; and he, who had +scattered his smiles with a feeling of condescension +round the most brilliant ball-rooms, +and had dropped unasked, with a certainty of +welcome, into the choicest “boudoirs,” blushed +with a sense of shame beneath the enquiring +gaze of a simple country girl. So easily does +disguise or deceit entail with it a consciousness +of inferiority.</p> + +<p>“’Tis a young man in the painting line,” +said her father, seeing he would not answer +for himself, “who is going to stay here a bit, +and paint the country: you must show him +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_138"></span>the Black Glen and Deadman’s Crag, and some +of your favourite spots.”</p> + +<p>Lucy gave him, in answer, a smile of welcome, +which Churchill fancied was changed +to one of a more satirical character, as she +examined his dress and figure: this, however, +was checked by her mother, who insisted +upon her no longer remaining in her wet +clothes, but retiring to bed. The whole party +then separated for the night.</p> + +<p>Lord Castleton was left alone in the occupation +of George’s garret. The first thing +he did, as he walked along the floor by the +dim light of his farthing candle, was to knock +his head against the beam which ran across +its low ceiling; the next was to sit himself +down in the only chair in the room, and reflect +upon the novelty of his present situation, when, +spite of his efforts to resist it, a general +sense of discomfort stole across him. Planned +at a distance, his scheme had comprised only +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_139"></span>the great outlines of “disinterested attachment,” +“simplicity of nature,” “unconscious +beauty,” and “freedom from the trammels +of rank;” but the details had either escaped +him altogether, or had worn a different shape, +when fancied from afar, than that which they +now assumed in practice. He had expected +to receive from the cordiality of hearty hospitality, +all those attentions which he scorned +to accept as the servile offerings of dependent +inferiors; and he had not been at all prepared +for the occasional contemptuous jocularity, and +generally protecting tone of the farmer; or +for the half-hinted suspicions, and cautious +bargaining of his wife; both which were carrying +the absence of undue deference to him, +farther than he had anticipated.</p> + +<p>On one subject only he had not been disappointed,—that +was, in the appearance of +Lucy.</p> + +<p>“And, after all,” thought he, “what does +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_140"></span>any thing else signify? I ought rather to be +pleased with the rest, however disagreeable +in itself, as the best proof that my scheme +works well, and that if I should, as the unsuspected +Churchill, treated in this unceremonious +manner, succeed in winning her affections, +I need, through all my after-life, +never have a moment’s mistrust that I was +loved for myself alone.”</p> + +<p>Consoled with this reflection, he proceeded +with less dissatisfaction to make a survey of +the various “désagrémens” of his present +confined chamber, which was as uncomfortable +as possible consistent with perfect cleanliness. +An inventory of the furniture might +have been contained in one line, and the walls +presented one unbroken surface of whitewash, +except where, over the chest of drawers, three +bits of paper were pinned up for ornament: +the centre a wood-cut of Lord Nelson’s funeral +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_141"></span>car; on one side of it a roaring sea song, +and on the other a sentimental ballad, whose +only possible merit was that the heroine’s name +was Lucy. These relics of George’s fairings +had remained here undisturbed ever since +his departure.</p> + +<p>The bed on which its present tenant prepared +to stretch himself, was not very well calculated +for the literal fulfilment of that operation, +being in length better adapted for the +then height of its last owner than that of its +present occupier.</p> + +<p>It was upon this uncomfortable couch that +Lord Castleton now fell asleep, lulled by the +wind whistling through the low casement, and +the rain pattering on the roof; and dreamed +confusedly, that he broke to Lucy his real +rank, and that she first burst into tears, and +then changed suddenly to Lady Gayland and +began laughing at him. When he awoke in +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_142"></span>the morning, with a sort of indistinct doubt +as to where he was, the first object which met +his half-open eyes was, the initials G. and L. D., +combined in a sort of cipher, and cut in the +soft deal-board just by his head; no doubt by +the last occupier of that bed. This he did not +think a good omen, and hastily rising, he gave +way to a momentary feeling of discomfort, at +finding his clothes still in the confusion in +which he had last night left them, and not +carefully arranged for his toilet, as the habits +of his life accustomed him to expect; but +banishing this as unworthy consideration, he +was restored, by the contemplation of the brilliant +prospect which the fine morning showed +him from his window, to that state of mind +which made him enjoy the happiness of his +first meeting with Lucy, whom he found alone +in the breakfast-room.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_143"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_X"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Ten">X.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">It were all one</div> + <div class="verse indent0">That I should love a bright, particular star</div> + <div class="verse indent0">And think to wed it, he is so above me.</div> + <div class="verse indent29"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">But several years elapsed since they had met;</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Some people thought the ship was lost.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Byron.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">About</span> a week had elapsed since Churchill’s +arrival at Morden Bay, an interval which he +had not failed to improve, by availing himself +upon all occasions, whenever Mrs. Darnell +permitted, of Lucy’s company, as a guide to the +many picturesque scenes with which she was so +well acquainted; and, as the principal maternal +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_144"></span>objection was the interference this caused with +domestic avocations, the evening was generally +chosen as the hour left most free for these romantic +rambles.</p> + +<p>Lucy’s taste for the beauties of nature had +till now lain dormant, for want of any one to +sympathize in her admiration. Her aunt, to +whose disposition it would have seemed congenial, +never wandered far from home; and of +all the various picturesque spots with which +the neighbourhood abounded, those only had +hitherto been interesting to Lucy which she +could animate as the mental scenery of those +parts of Shakspeare which, as read to her by +her aunt, she most admired. But since she had +attended Churchill in his sketching expeditions, +she had discovered new beauties in every spot +they had together visited. From admiring his +power of recording effects and imitating objects, +she had become anxious to emulate the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_145"></span>same herself, and upon the two last occasions, +<em>she</em> likewise had attempted the powers of the +pencil.</p> + +<p>It was quite an afternoon for a painter, with +broad effects of light and shadow. Churchill +and Lucy had perched themselves on a small +ledge of rock, just above the shore, commanding +a well-wooded bank of the Black Glen, with some +bold and jutting crags rising out of the surface +of the waters beyond, when Lucy, after a +time, first looking over her shoulder at her +companion’s work, and then comparing it with +her own, said:</p> + +<p>“Oh, Mr. Churchill! I shall never be able +to do it like you. I can’t make two trees, which +really touch on the paper, seem so far apart, +and I meant this like your’s for the sea, with +a ship on the horizon, but it looks much more +like a wall, with a weed growing on the top; +and then my paper is just as big as your’s, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_146"></span>but I never shall be able to get half so much +into it.”</p> + +<p>“Because, my pretty pupil,” said Churchill, +examining it, “you have made that distant +cliff higher than this old boat-house.”</p> + +<p>“And so it is, a hundred times higher,” +said Lucy in a justificatory tone; “and if you +were there, you would soon see the difference.”</p> + +<p>“But now we are not there, and we are +here,” answered Churchill smiling; “and in +this world, objects, like events, appear to us, not +according to their intrinsic importance, but in +proportion to our own situation, and the manner +in which they affect ourselves. For instance, +dwelling in this retired spot, and in our +humble rank of life, events that might convulse +the country, and affright the great ones of the +land, would be less observed by us, than the +blight which injured your father’s corn; and +battles might be won and lost, which we should +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_147"></span>feel less than the attack of a single fox upon +your poultry-yard.”</p> + +<p>“It is a very stupid and confused attempt +this of mine,” said Lucy, tearing it in two; +“and yet, separately, this is like the boat-house, +and that is like the rock,” holding up the divided +parts of her drawing.</p> + +<p>“Yes, and may you learn to combine the +simplicity of an humble foreground with the +softened outline of greatness in the distance!”</p> + +<p>“That is a little like some of aunt Alice’s +speeches, which I do not always understand,” +said Lucy: “perhaps it is, that you have both +mixed in that world of which I had only previously +heard from her how anxious she had +been to leave it.”</p> + +<p>“This aunt, of whom you so often speak, is +it because she is unhappy that she lives so +retired?”</p> + +<p>“She never complains.”</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_148"></span></p> + +<p>“And shall I never see her?”</p> + +<p>“I never knew her see a stranger, but she +asked me about you, when I told her that I +should have come to her before, but that I had +been to show you up the burn side: and she +wanted to know why you were staying at our +house; and when I said I could not exactly +tell, she begged me to bring you to visit her +some day.”</p> + +<p>“And why not now?” said Churchill, whose +curiosity was roused.</p> + +<p>“It is rather late,” Lucy replied; “and +mother’s particular about tea-time,” looking at +a little watch which her companion once well +knew.</p> + +<p>“And where did you get that little French +watch?” asked he.</p> + +<p>“And is it French? then I dare say that’s +the reason George couldn’t abide it, for he +hates every thing French, as it is right he +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_149"></span>should, seeing he’s a sailor. It was given me +by a strange gentleman who came to see the +bay,—and George tiffed about it, and thought +some harm would come of it. But I don’t see +how it’s to be, for I’ve never seen the gentleman +since, as it wasn’t like I should.”</p> + +<p>“But what sort of gentleman was this?” +asked Churchill.</p> + +<p>“Why, from the little I can recollect of +him, not so very unlike yourself, only that he +had light curly hair, a more fresh florid cheek, +and a more easy-like look, as it was natural, you +know, he should; for I dare say he was a great +gentleman, and had none of those cares about +the coming day which mother says must always +be felt by one with such an uncertain calling +as yours; though, I’m sure, I think your drawings +so pretty that, as long as there is money +to throw away in the world, I should guess +they would always be sure to fetch something.”</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_150"></span></p> + +<p>They had, in accordance with Lucy’s hint as +to the time, concluded their sketching for that +evening, and had begun to wind their way +homewards, when Churchill, recurring to that +part of their late conversation which had made +the least pleasant impression on him, said,</p> + +<p>“And this cousin George, to whose opinion, +as to that watch, you seem to attach no little +value, you have not seen much of him since?”</p> + +<p>“He has not been at home again; that +was the last evening he spent here, which is the +reason, perhaps, that it made the more impression +on me.”</p> + +<p>“But you have heard continually of him, of +course?”</p> + +<p>“Not very often; when he left us, he was +no very handy penman; he used to say that it +took him less time to sail round the bay than to +write its name, and that there was no such +difficult navigation, as tacking through all the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_151"></span>ins and outs of a capital B. But I hope he is +improved in all that; though absent, he hasn’t +thought any the less about us; in that, at least, +he used to be apt enough.”</p> + +<p>They had ascended the cliff by a different +path from the one mentioned before, and were +pursuing their way homewards through a shady +lane, and had just reached as far in it as the +point where, at right angles, a stile led to a +footpath through a copse, known only to those +acquainted with the country, as a short cut from +the main road to Morden Bay. Upon coming +in sight of this turn, they beheld two men in +sailors’ dresses, who were threading the narrow +path through the wood, at a brisk pace, the +foremost of whom, looking up and seeing them, +made a run at the stile, bounded over it, and +almost at the same moment folded Lucy in his +arms in an embrace, whose ardour was mixed a +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_152"></span>little with that alloy of roughness which is proverbially +nautical.</p> + +<p>The scream with which Lucy shrank from +this unexpected salutation, though it partook +more of the character of surprise than positive +alarm, was sufficient to justify the ready interposition +of Churchill, who, seizing the intruder +by the collar of his jacket, pulled him with a +sudden jerk away.</p> + +<p>“Hands off, messmate!” said he in his turn, +surprised, but good humouredly; “who the +devil may you be? let’s see what colours you +mean to hoist before you interpose between me +and my pretty cousin here.”</p> + +<p>“And is it indeed you, dear, dear Cousin +George?” said Lucy, as she rushed again of her +own accord into his arms, and kissed him +affectionately; then drawing back abruptly and +blushing deeply, she added, “But what a beard +you have got, George, and how you’re grown +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_153"></span>and altered! I declare you’re quite a man +now!”</p> + +<p>“Such things will happen in four years, between +sixteen and twenty, Lucy: you yourself +are shot up wonderfully; why, you’d carry +twice as much sail as formerly:—Lord love her +sweet face!” he added, again kissing her now +averted cheek: in shrinking from which second +salute she met Churchill’s eye, and blushing +more deeply, said in a confused manner,</p> + +<p>“We were going home, you know, Mr. +Churchill: you’d better come, George, and see +father and mother.—This young man,” she +added in a low tone, “is staying here a bit, +painting the country, like those other two you +remember once, George, some time before you +left us.”</p> + +<p>“Oh, that’s what he is, is it? To be sure, +I remember the others well enough, and how +you used to be sent out with one, and I with +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_154"></span>the other, and how I frightened my man one +day, by stealing his own red paint, and smearing +myself with it: I made believe to fall off a +rock he was drawing; he took it for blood, and +thought I lay there for dead. My friend here +seemed to have had a mind to shed my blood in +real earnest; however, as ye took me for a rude +stranger, it was all right, and respectful like, +interfering to protect a woman when she cried +out; so here’s my hand, my man, and now +just take my friend Captain Collett under your +convoy, for you may guess I’ve many a thing +to say to Lucy here, which won’t concern either +of you two.”</p> + +<p>Churchill, still bewildered at the unexpected +turn which events seemed to have taken, looked +round mechanically, to examine the stranger thus +unceremoniously introduced to him. He was +standing on the other side of the stile, leaning +his elbows upon it. He had remained in this +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_155"></span>attitude during the whole of the preceding +scene, an amused, though uninterested spectator +of its incidents. He had chuckled aloud at +the momentary scuffle between George and +Churchill, but had not stirred a step to take +part with either; and now as his eye met +Lucy’s, just as she and George were about to +move on, he assented to the arrangement proposed, +by a familiar nod and grin, without, +however, removing his elbows from the stile, or +his hands from his chin. He was a short +thick-set man, with that fresh, though not +youthful appearance, which the eye generally +registers at about five-and-forty, unless the parish +annals give some more precise date as to +age. The expression of his countenance was +the reverse of serious; but a physiognomist +would have said that the lines were rather the +joint production of cunning and conviviality, +than the impression of natural, quiet cheerfulness. +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_156"></span>His dress, like George’s, consisted of a +sailor’s blue jacket and trowsers; but his +waistcoat, which was ornamented with many +little buttons and some lace, had rather a +foreign appearance, and was not unlike those +usually worn by couriers. He eyed Churchill +curiously, as the latter looked first at him and +then after Lucy, feeling not the less disgusted +at the turn things had unexpectedly taken, that +he did not know of what to complain, or why +to resent it. Nothing could be more natural +than that Lucy should be glad to welcome +home her cousin, the favourite companion of +her childhood; or, upon his sudden return, that +she should neglect at the moment one, to whom +she was bound by no ties; an itinerant painter—the +acquaintance of a week.</p> + +<p>Yet during that week, Churchill had thought +he was every day making great progress in her +regard; she had appeared to take a new sort +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_157"></span>of pleasure in his society,—had been delighted +either to hear him talk, or see him draw; and +even now, he thought, when her cousin had +attempted a second time to kiss her, her eye +had sought his, and upon meeting it she had +blushed, and avoided the kindred embrace. +Yet now, as they walked away, George’s arm +was round her waist, and his profile looked +offensively happy. “Come, Sir, if you please,” +said Churchill, rather hastily to his new companion, +thinking that the others had already +got sufficiently far in advance.</p> + +<p>“No hurry,” said Captain Collett, as George +called him, getting even more deliberately over +the stile than the square cut of his figure required; +“we are only to keep within hail, you +know. I’m sorry for you; it is but a poor +exchange to have only Kit Collett for your +consort, instead of yon gay pinnace. But +it can’t be helped; you’re clean cut out, that +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_158"></span>I can see. A nice tight little prize too. Is it +that you’ve been over slow in making her your +own, or have you stayed long enough for her to +get tired of you?”</p> + +<p>“Come, Sir,” repeated Churchill again, loud +and angrily, his attention having been a little +taken off from the last speech by watching +George and Lucy, who had now disappeared +round a corner in the lane: “I desire you +won’t talk to me in that manner. As that young +lady seemed to wish me to show you the way +to her father’s, I am ready to do it, provided +you don’t take advantage of that circumstance +to speak impertinently of her; if you do, I +shall consider that you would be an improper +guest, and take the liberty of leaving you +behind.”</p> + +<p>“Well, no offence, man; I meant none. +Young lady! Lord, how grand all that is!” +still speaking with a half suppressed chuckle; +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_159"></span>“however, move on, my friend; it’s all one to +Kit Collett what he talks about, or indeed +whether he talks at all, as long as he has one +of these to stop his mouth,” taking a cigar out +of a case and deliberately lighting it.</p> + +<p>This being satisfactorily deposited in his +mouth, and his two hands in the side pockets +of his jacket, he, without attempting any farther +conversation, rolled on, following Churchill +as fast as he could, whose impatient strides +soon brought them inconveniently near to the +couple in advance. However much Churchill +might have wished to join company with them, +he did not feel authorized to do so, unless +he had been more sure that such an intrusion +would be welcome; and of this he +could see no symptoms; for though once +Lucy looked round, and, upon seeing him, appeared +to wish to stop, and to require urging +on by her companion, yet, except at that one +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_160"></span>moment, she seemed completely and satisfactorily +occupied with her newly restored cousin, +and Churchill felt therefore unwillingly obliged +to slacken his pace, much to the relief of Kit +Collett; and it was in two separate detachments +that they arrived at home.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_161"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_XI"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Eleven">XI.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">He was a man as dusky as a Spaniard,</div> + <div class="verse indent2">Sunburnt with travel, yet a portly figure;</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Though colour’d, as it were, within a tanyard,</div> + <div class="verse indent2">He was a person both of sense and vigour—</div> + <div class="verse indent0">A better seaman never yet did man yard.</div> + <div class="verse indent36"><span class="smcap">Byron.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">George’s</span> unexpected arrival that night, +produced in all the family that sort of intoxicating +exhilaration of spirits, which, whenever +the natural feelings are allowed to show +themselves, is the effect of the restored presence +of a long-lost inmate.</p> + +<p>Even Mrs. Darnell suppressed, for the moment, +her desire to complain of his protracted +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_162"></span>silence, and of the ignorance in which he +had left them as to how he had spent his +time since his engagement in his uncle’s ship +had been out—which was now twelve months +since.</p> + +<p>As for the farmer, he was so delighted to +see his favourite, that he hardly knew what +he did, and went about shaking hands with +everybody, and even asked the painter, with +a cordial gripe, whether he wasn’t d——d +happy: a question, the repetition of which +Churchill contrived to evade, as it would have +puzzled him to answer it heartily in the affirmative. +Captain Collett, the farmer pronounced, +after they had had two glasses together, to be a +man after his own heart, and was rather disappointed +when, in answer to his enquiry whether +he had been George’s last Captain, George +replied, “that he had sometime sailed with +him, and added, that he was known to be +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_163"></span>the best seaman between the Thames and the +Tweed.”</p> + +<p>“And, as my voyages are not now very +distant, George will have more opportunities of +seeing his friends here, as he is about to engage +with me.”</p> + +<p>“I am not quite sure about that,” answered +George gravely, and a cloud, for a +moment, came over his brow, which was, however, +as soon dispelled by the eager attentions +of all around, by which he was overwhelmed. +George was soon much excited by finding himself +the great man of the party. Thus encouraged, +he rattled away merrily, sometimes +boisterously, stringing one story on another +with much humour, not always confined within +the narrow limits of fact, nor scrupulously +restrained by the bounds of decorum; once +or twice, even on this night of licence, he +incurred the displeasure of his aunt, and +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_164"></span>raised a blush on the cheek of Lucy, who was +seated at the supper board between him and +Churchill.</p> + +<p>During this time it would be difficult to +analyze the conflicting feelings of Lucy. Certain +it is, that she did not attempt to do so +herself. If she had, she would have been aware +that the sensations with which she had welcomed +the return of George were of a warmer +nature than would have sprung from the mere +renewal of childish companionship; and in the +course of their walk homewards, whilst listening +to his passionate expressions of delight at +his return, she had admired more than it was +necessary for a mere cousin to do, the improvement +the interval of absence had made in his +fine manly figure; and during that time, if her +thoughts wandered from the happiness of the +present moment, it was to distant days, and +not to recent scenes. But now, when an inadvertent +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_165"></span>coarseness in one of George’s expressions +made her avert, a moment, her head, and +she beheld the displeased but enduring character +of Churchill’s countenance, and then, as her +eye met his, she read in it, more plainly expressed +than it had yet been, that feeling towards +herself which woman cannot long mistake; +and as she combined with that her recollections +of his many gentle and delicate +attentions to her in the course of their recent +rambles, her wishes became rather confused +and bewildered; but perhaps the predominant +one was, that George should be rather different +from what he was. She could not, at the same +time, but be aware that Churchill had been +much neglected during the evening; and it was +as much regret at this, springing from that considerate +good-nature which in her rank of life +supplies with the interest of sincerity the place +of good breeding, which made her say to him +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_166"></span>in a tone and with an expression which amply +compensated for the previous neglect which it +acknowledged:</p> + +<p>“I am afraid all this must have been very +tiresome to you.”</p> + +<p>As the breaking up of the supper-party at +that moment prevented other answer, he took +advantage of that circumstance to reply to her +by a gentle squeeze of the hand.</p> + +<p>Immediately after supper was finished, Captain +Collett signified his intention to depart, +resisting the entreaties with which he was +pressed to share with his friend George the +best spare room, from which, for their reception, +the hams, &c. had just been unceremoniously +rejected, as it was not thought hospitable to +disturb the stranger, and his drawings and +portfolios, from the room formerly George’s, +which he at present occupied.</p> + +<p>“But, Captain,” said the farmer, “it’s a +double-bedded room, and you’d better bide to-night +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_167"></span>with your friend George, for the night’s +dark and murky, and if it had been as light as +day, one’s way is never somehow so canny to +find after supper as afore.”</p> + +<p>“Thank’ee the same, but I can’t stay,” replied +the Captain. “As for the night, I’m +rather partial to dark nights; a’n’t I, George?” +chuckling: “and as for supper, if it’s along of +the grog you mean, Kit Collett would drink as +much again, and walk as steady as on the +quarter-deck in a calm.”</p> + +<p>“But it’s rather an awkwardish road to the +Lobster near Placeden Point, for a stranger, +if that’s where you’re going.”</p> + +<p>“Stranger! why nothing comes strange to +me, that’s within three miles of the coast from +Beechy Head to Berwick Ness.”</p> + +<p>“But,” said Mrs. Darnell, “you know it +must depend on the time of the tide whether +you can cross Newland Creek.”</p> + +<p>“It’s just now half-ebb, and by the time I’m +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_168"></span>down there, there won’t be half-fathom water +within a quarter of a league of the shore of +Newland Creek, and be hang’d to it.”</p> + +<p>“That friend of your’s is a man that knows +his business well, I should say, George,” said +Farmer Darnell, as he bolted the door after +him.</p> + +<p>“Good reason he should,” answered George +rather gravely.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_169"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_XII"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Twelve">XII.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">Oh, Childhood—blessed time of hope and love,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">When all we knew was Nature’s simple law,—</div> + <div class="verse indent0">How may we yearn again that time to prove</div> + <div class="verse indent0">When we looked round, and loved whate’er we saw.</div> + <div class="verse indent26">*<span class="ss" style="width:1.5em"> </span>*<span class="ss" style="width:1.5em"> </span>*</div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">When</span> Churchill retired to bed, he in vain +attempted to think of the events of the day as +of no importance to him,—merely the return of +a relation of the family, whom it was natural +that warm-hearted amiable people should be +very glad to see again, and who would soon +again depart to follow his precarious profession, +perhaps only to return after another such long +interval, to be once more received in the same +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_170"></span>manner. But still, whenever he thought he had +succeeded in closing his eyes upon this idea, +the image of George walking away with his +arm round Lucy’s waist would disagreeably +intrude itself: true, she considered him as a +near relation,—had been educated as a sister; +but was that the way he considered the matter, +and was it likely that this innocent illusion +would long continue if he chose to enlighten +her? He could not at the same time help flattering +himself that he had made a favourable +impression on her; and, confirmed as this hope +was by her deportment towards him, at the +conclusion of the supper, he believed that if he +made up his mind then to press his suit he +might bear off the prize. Yet there was something +in this manner of effecting that object +which did not altogether satisfy him. In his +project of being loved for himself alone, he had +always anticipated that, whilst abandoning the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_171"></span>outward advantages of rank and fortune, he +presented himself as an equal to a person like +Lucy; still he would retain the power of inspiring +her with a decided passion, and he +had never looked forward to any thing like +competition with such a rival as George +Darnell.</p> + +<p>I am afraid it must also be allowed that +there were some things in Lucy’s deportment +that evening which, desperately in love as he +found himself, charmed as he was with her +beauty, fascinated with her simplicity, had not +quite pleased him. In their <i lang="fr">tête-à-tête</i> rambles, +there had never any thing occurred to weaken +the illusion of her perfections; on the contrary +her soft and gentle manners, animated only by +an attractive freshness of character, which was +brought into play by the workings of natural +good sense, were constantly strengthening his +attachment. But the unrestrained ebullition +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_172"></span>of high spirits is a terrible touchstone by which +to try the want of conventional refinement, either +of mind or manners; and there were many moments +in the course of the evening, whilst she +was enjoying to the utmost some of her “cousin +George’s” nautical jokes, when her lover +could not help thinking “Is that exactly the +way in which I should like Lady Castleton to +behave?”</p> + +<p>Churchill rose the next morning with one +conviction impressed strongly on his mind, as +the result of the contradictory reflections with +which he had been perplexed during the night, +and this was that at any rate he had no longer +any time to lose in inaction; that either his visit +to Bankside Farm must now draw to a conclusion, +or it must assume the more decided +and permanent character with which he had +meant before long to invest it.</p> + +<p>As a mere itinerant artist, his stay had now +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_173"></span>been prolonged enough for any assumed object +which in that character he could put forward. +And if as such only, he meant to be recollected +by the inmates of farmer Darnell’s, it was now +high time that he should pack up his portfolios, +already superabundantly stored with +sketches, in every variety of light, close studies, +and distant effects, of every object worth +commemorating, within the reach of a walk +with Lucy.</p> + +<p>He had his misgivings too, that even if this +did not occur to himself as a reason for shortening +his stay, it would, ere long, be hinted +to him in no very indirect terms by Mrs. +Darnell, with whom he had never been a great +favourite, as being, as she said, “at best, but a +bit of a vagabond, only better than a stroller +or a mountebank, inasmuch as he daubed his +nasty paint on paper, instead of on his own +person.” His taking Lucy gadding about with +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_174"></span>him, was also a great waste of time: but his +worst offence in the eyes of this orderly housewife +was, that by occupying George’s room, he +had caused the ejection of the hams from the +spare bed-room. All these reasons made it evident +that it would not be entirely optional to +himself to prolong his stay indefinitely. On +the other hand, he could not but be aware that +if he had, as he flattered himself, already made +a favourable impression on Lucy, it was very +desirable now, that he should confirm and +strengthen that, without allowing time for any +<i lang="fr">retour</i> of her earlier partiality for her cousin +and playmate to arise and occupy even a corner +of that heart which was to love him exclusively +and for himself alone. Still that it should be +necessary, in regulating his future conduct, to +guard against such a possibility, grated unpleasantly +against his feelings, and gave a dissatisfied +and undecided turn to his thoughts, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_175"></span>and when he had slowly descended the stairs +to breakfast, even whilst he had the latch of +the parlour-door in his hand, the question +rose unbidden in his mind, “Am I really in +love?”</p> + +<p>The next moment, however, the effect of the +first sight of Lucy answered that question beyond +a shadow of doubt, as he thought, in +the affirmative. It was Sunday morning, and +Lucy was dressed for church. There is, perhaps, +no costume, however studied, so attractive +as the unaffected assumption, in simplicity +and good taste, of their best attire on this day +of rest, by persons in that rank of life to whom +Sunday really makes a distinction of dress; utterly +perverted and lost as that effect is, when +it causes an awkward and exaggerated imitation +of the already <i lang="fr">outré</i> fashions of their betters. +But Lucy was simplicity itself, and fresh +and radiant and lovely as she looked in the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_176"></span>maiden purity of her snowy robe, so did she +always present herself on this day of thanksgiving, +coming out with as little alloy of coquetry +as the flowers of nature, which greet +in their gayest and most brilliant colouring +the spring which gives them birth.</p> + +<p>So dilatory had Churchill’s complicated reflections +made his toilet, that the breakfast was +far advanced when he entered, and the conversation, +which he only for a moment interrupted, +was one not calculated to please him; for he +found George arranging, apparently very much +to his satisfaction, a <i lang="fr">tête-à-tête</i> walk with Lucy +to church; whilst it was suggested that Churchill +should go bodkin between Mr. and Mrs. +Darnell in the taxed-cart.</p> + +<p>From this uninviting mode of conveyance +he was, however, opportunely relieved by a +declaration on the part of Farmer Darnell, that +he was unfitted for service by a touch of lumbago, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_177"></span>which he had caught riding home that +stormy evening from Mayton, instead of staying +there quietly till morning. The excuse +having been admitted by Mrs. Darnell, with +the qualification, that this was the first she had +heard of it, and the prospective consolation +that he certainly ought not to go to Mayton at +all next week, it became necessary to arrange +some other division of march, as, luckily for +Churchill, Mrs. Darnell decidedly objected to +trusting her precious person to his charioteering +powers. “How should he know how to +drive? he was never like to have had a chay, +a poor <em>predistinarian</em> painter!” as she called +him: “No; her dear George must come with +her in the cart.” George, however little he +liked the change, did not make any decided +objection, probably recollecting enough of earlier +days to know that, if his aunt chose it, +objection would be of no use; and also a little +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_178"></span>tickled by the decided superiority over Churchill, +which this preference marked, as he already +began to entertain an indefinite feeling of jealousy +of the other’s position in the family.</p> + +<p>He therefore undertook with confidence to +“pilot” his aunt to church, though he professed +that of late his hands had been more +used to manage the “rudder” than the “ribbons.” +It was impossible for the most practised +woman of the world to have shown less +by her manner than Lucy did whether this +ultimate arrangement was or was not agreeable +to her. “After all,” thought Churchill, as +they started together from the front door, +“her natural manner is easy and unembarrassed, +and it is only while in actual collision +with what is coarse and uncongenial around +her, that a momentary taint is breathed upon +its purity; when I shall have removed her +from the reach of contagion, that innocent simplicity +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_179"></span>will alone remain, upon which I may +engraft what impression I like, and I shall +learn to think of her only as a being whose +whole existence is comprised in my happiness.”</p> + +<p>“Lucy,” screamed Mrs. Darnell at the extent +of her voice, just as they had cleared the +garden-gate, and Churchill had closed the foregoing +reflections, “Lucy, have you minded +that the crust to George’s pie is made of short +paste, as he used to like it?”</p> + +<p>“Oh yes, mother, I wasn’t like to forget +that,” answered Lucy, with an eagerness which +Lord Castleton thought was not very appropriately +applied to another’s pie-crust, by a +being whose whole existence he had just settled +was to be devoted to his happiness.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_180"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_XIII"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Thirteen">XIII.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">If ever been where bells have knolled to church.</div> + <div class="verse indent29"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">All things are well digested for the purpose;</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Then, throwing off the title of a duke, I will</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Appear to her a low-born peasant.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Tobin.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">This</span> unfortunate episode rather deranged +the train of ideas by which Churchill had determined +to probe the real state of Lucy’s feelings. +Instead of availing himself, as he had +intended, of the whole of this two-mile walk +artfully to ascertain her real sentiments, and +attempt to regulate his own accordingly, he +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_181"></span>spoke not at all at first, then asked her three +times abstractedly the different lengths of the +footpath by which they were going, and the +carriage-road, to church; and at last blurted +out the question point-blank, “Whether she +thought her cousin George improved?”</p> + +<p>“Oh, so much! that is, in some respects,” +she answered, the first words eagerly, then +checking herself, added, “I am sorry to see +you didn’t like him, Mr. Churchill; I think I +should have liked him much better if you had.”</p> + +<p>“Why, my dear Miss Darnell, should you +fancy I do not like him? It is true, that our +different modes of life may prevent my perfectly +understanding all his stories. The poor +painter, who has nothing but daubing colours +on canvass to show as the labour of a lifetime, +can never compete in interest with him who has +soul-stirring adventures by sea and land to +boast.”</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_182"></span></p> + +<p>“And fearful dangers he has had, poor +dear George! has he not? The embarking +the troops there—at what’s the name of the +place, among the Yankees—Old Orleans? +New Orleans was it? and that frightful hurricane +in latitude—; he told us what latitude +it was in. But it wasn’t that I was going +to say. Do you know, Mr. Churchill, you +sometimes made me ashamed of cousin George?”</p> + +<p>“How? Explain yourself, I pray you, +Lucy,” said Churchill eagerly.</p> + +<p>“Why, for all what you say about a poor +painter, and having nothing to tell of, I like so +much to hear you talk, whatever it is about, +and you speak to one so soft and kind, just +like one of the gentlefolk; and I have been +always trying to answer you the same, and +somehow, I’ve got used to your ways lately; +but last night, when cousin George talked +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_183"></span>rather rude like, I looked at you, and I saw +by your face that you were fashed, and +then I felt so uncomfortable—and, don’t be +angry!”</p> + +<p>“Angry! no—why?” asked Churchill.</p> + +<p>“And then I wished you away with all +my heart.”</p> + +<p>This was not exactly the conclusion to which +Churchill had hoped to hurry Lucy; but still +there were many circumstances in the foregoing +conversation favourable to him. In the first +place, it was evident that she cared for his +opinion, and also that he had awakened in her +mind a sense of what was, or was not offensive +in manner. Yet, from the tone in which she +had spoken the last sentence, he could not but +draw the conclusion, that situated as she was +last night, it was his presence that she had felt +as a restraint—it was to his absence she would +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_184"></span>have looked as a relief. He would have liked +to ascertain whether this merely arose from +considering George’s return—a return as of +right to the home of his childhood, which +would have prevented her imagining it possible +that he could be removed from thence, +though he might be superseded in her affections. +But just as, intending to pursue this +inquiry, he approached his companion with +a tender earnestness in his manner, which was +certainly not intended to meet the comments of +a third person; he was interrupted by the unwelcome +apparition of Captain Collett, who +meeting them at the narrowest part of the +path, Churchill was obliged to draw back in +order to let him pass by Lucy, which as he +did, he said with a leer, meant to be full of +meaning, “Sorry to separate you!” and as he +brushed by Churchill, he hummed the burthen +of a nautical ballad then in vogue.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_185"></span></p> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="verse indent0a">“From our night-caps so clean,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Our fresh laurel was torn,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">And the prize of the e’en</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Was recaptur’d at morn.”</div> + </div> +</div> + +<p>Ere they could recover the thread of their +discourse, thus disagreeably broken in upon, +they had come within sight of the parish +church, and as the last loitering groups gradually +disappeared within the porch, whilst +the lingering tones of the slowly-stopping bell +died away upon the ear, they felt that they +were late, and Lucy quickened her steps, and +led the way to their family seats.</p> + +<p>The sacred building was one of the humblest +of its kind; for centuries (necessary repairs +excepted) it had remained much in its present +state, the weekly resort of the simple and +secluded neighbourhood: there never had been +any opulent landed proprietors within the parish; +no <em>squirearchial</em> elevation broke the regular +equality of the divided aisle, or claimed +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_186"></span>distinction or superiority from the height of +its railing or the colour of its lining.</p> + +<p>There was here no appearances at variance +with those professions of equality in the sight +of Him they came to address, which the service +they came jointly to engage in, alike +places in the mouths of the rich and of the +poor, of the high-born noble and the humble +peasant, sentiments which the unadorned simplicity +of the sacred edifice was so well calculated +to awaken in every mind. Hence, as Lord +Castleton cast a look around upon the simple +single-hearted groups who came there, without +disguise or reservation, to confess their errors, +the falsity of his own position struck him more +forcibly than it had ever done before, accompanied +with a sense of shame at the deception he +had been practising. True, there was no unworthy +motive at the bottom of that deception; +those upon whose credulity he was imposing, it +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_187"></span>could not be denied, would in every worldly +consideration gain immensely by his being other +than he seemed. But still no candid mind, +and such was Lord Castleton’s naturally, can +satisfy itself with the practice of deceit or +artifice in any serious affair. Was it so certain, +after all, that the splendid elevation he +designed for Lucy must necessarily insure her +happiness? He had <a id="chg3"></a>found her satisfied with +herself, contented with all around her—the centre +of a little world, which knew no other. +What had been the effect which his society +had already produced upon this tranquil state +of mind? It was evident that it had lowered +cousin George in her estimation; this was an +effect, which, if it had stood alone, perhaps he +might not so much have regretted; but was it +not accompanied by a feeling of dissatisfaction +at herself, at her involuntary participation in +many former sources of pleasure? and if this +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_188"></span>was produced merely as the consequence of +adopting his views when listening to him only +as the poor painter Churchill, how much would +such a painful sense of unfitness be aggravated, +when bewildered with the strangeness of that +world to which he meant to transplant her; +and what could he offer in compensation, for +inflicting that constantly-corroding sense of +self-inferiority, where all had previously been +peace and content? Not only her gentleness +would prevent her braving the difficulties of +such a situation, but her very sensibility, which +she possessed in a degree unusual in her rank +of life, would make her more alive to painful +sensations.</p> + +<p>All these reflections, vague and half-formed, +but generally unsatisfactory, floated through +Castleton’s mind in the intervals of the service, +and gave to his deportment a restless air, as if +he feared impending discovery. This vague consciousness +of insecurity arose principally from +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_189"></span>the disorder of his own mind, but was not a +little increased by the anxiously inquiring expression +on the face of the person immediately +opposite to him, whose penetrating eyes he +found at intervals fixed intently upon him with +a searching, though not an unkind gaze: this +he rightly imagined to be Alice Darnell. It +was a countenance which, though it had already +lost the freshness of youth, none could +have beheld without interest, even if she had +not appeared in some degree to reciprocate that +interest, as was the case in the present instance. +He could not conceal from himself, that though +this must have been the first time she had +seen her nephew George since his long absence, +most of her attention was bestowed upon +himself, the stranger. Yet, though her expression +was rather that of melancholy interest +than of reproof, the feeling it excited in his +mind was principally dread of her penetration, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_190"></span>which caused him instinctively to drop his eyes +beneath her gaze.</p> + +<p>When the service was concluded, and the +family party left the church together, Alice +Darnell addressed a few words to him, in which +he could not help fancying that some feeling +of interest lurked beneath a form of studied +coldness, and through the guise of commonplace +inquiry; and when the tones of his voice +in reply first struck her ear, the arm which +held Lucy trembled violently; and, turning +away, she addressed him no more, but drawing +Lucy closely towards her, after some +lengthened whispering between the two, the +niece begged that he would announce to her +family, that in consequence of her aunt not +feeling well, she had returned home with her, +and they were not to expect her back to dinner; +and turning together down one path, they +left him to pursue his solitary way by that +which he had come.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_191"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_XIV"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Fourteen">XIV.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">The crows and choughs, that wing the midway air,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Show scarce so gross as beetles.</div> + <div class="verse indent31"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">For many fathoms doth the beetling rock</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Rise o’er the breaker’s surge.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Maturin.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">Churchill</span> found that George and his aunt +had already returned some time, as the young +sailor’s anxiety to rejoin his fair cousin had +induced him to apply repeated hints, as to the +rate of progress, upon the fat quarters of the +cumbrous quadruped before him, which were +the more readily attended to, as that experienced<span class="pagenum" id="Page_192"></span> +beast knew that his head was now turned +homewards.</p> + +<p>The announcement with which Churchill +was charged of Lucy’s absence, made him +very ill received by all the party. Farmer +Darnell always missed his daughter’s affectionate +attentions most when labouring under +a fit of lumbago; Mrs. Darnell liked particularly +to be assisted in the arrangement of the +Sunday’s repast by some one more handy than +big Betsey, as George always called the Patagonian +maid-of-all-work. And as for George +himself, he had been thinking all the way home +how very agreeable he was going to make himself, +and how he meant to show off and amuse his +cousin after her dull walk with that prig of a +painter. He therefore looked upon this interloper, +when he appeared alone, as a bird of ill +omen to him, and he began to owe him a +grudge for this second separation, though it +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_193"></span>was not like the first one, by which the object +of his increasing antipathy had himself profited.</p> + +<p>With such a state of feeling shared amongst +the party assembled, the substantial meal of +which they were about to partake was not +likely to be a very lively one, and contrasted +singularly with the heartfelt merriment of the +supper of the night before. Indeed, as the +majority of those assembled were not of a rank +in life who make conversation for civility sake, +but who, strange as it may appear, literally +say nothing when they have nothing to say, +not a word would have been spoken, had not +habit rendered this inveterate silence so irksome +to Lord Castleton, that he could not help +hazarding a trite observation or two on the +weather, which, if dropped elsewhere, would +have been taken up, and handed back, and led +to reply and rejoinder, but which were here +considered such undeniable truisms, that they +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_194"></span>were only received with an unencouraging +“humph,” and all again relapsed into silence, +broken only by the clattering of the knives on +the plates; and even this was muffled, when, +instead of tearing asunder slices of beef, they +dived in smoother intersections through thick +portions of plum-pudding.</p> + +<p>After dinner the society, if such it could be +called, seemed mutually anxious to separate,—Farmer +Darnell to his easy-chair and pipe, +Mrs. Darnell to her household avocations; and +as to George and Churchill, though they probably +had the same object and destination in +view, one went out at the back-door merely +because the other went out at the front.</p> + +<p>Churchill bent his way towards the part of the +cliff by which he knew Lucy must return, with +no other pretence for lingering there till her appearance, +than that furnished by his small pocket +sketch-book; having got into a great scrape with +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_195"></span>Mrs. Darnell, on that day week, by sallying forth, +portfolio in hand, as he was considered so completely +as a professional person, that it was +reckoned a profanation of the Lord’s day for +him thus to labour in his vocation on it. The +ledge upon the side of the cliff, from which he +could best command the prospect of Lucy’s +return, was, however, too much of a bird’s-eye +point of view to be advantageous to a draftsman: +this circumstance, joined to the imperfect +implements with which he was upon this +occasion provided, induced him soon to relinquish +even the attempt to exercise his assumed +“metier,” and abandon himself to those reflections +which the singularity of the situation +in which he had placed himself, and the events +of the last four-and-twenty hours, had rendered +more than ever striking.</p> + +<p>Though sitting with his book open before +him, and his pencil in his hand, so completely +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_196"></span>had the inward bent of his thoughts shut out +the consciousness of any external objects, that +he felt startled when he heard a voice some +paces above him, exclaim, “There she is at +last.” Instinctively, his eyes followed the path +by which Lucy must return; the more natural +was this direction, as he recognised the voice +above to be George’s. But he could discern no +moving object in the whole length of the track. +Another voice from above, which reminded +him of the harsh tones of Captain Collett, now +rejoined,</p> + +<p>“Yes; there, that’ll do; I see you, that’s +near enough to show her to us; now, about +with her, you lubbers, there she goes, that’s +right.”</p> + +<p>Churchill’s eye dropping from the path on +which it had been fixed, to find out what else +these remarks could apply to, he now observed, +for the first time, what under other circumstances +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_197"></span>would have struck him merely from its +picturesque appearance. Unnoticed by him, a +lugger had neared the point of the cliff, the sun +shining gaily on its light sails, and sparkling +in the foam which was dashed back from its +side as it was pressed close up against the +wind. Now, however, even whilst these words +were spoken from above, confirming him in the +idea that it was to this vessel the allusion was +made, she was on the sudden put about, more +sails were set, and with a fresh breeze from the +land, she dashed rapidly out into the open sea.</p> + +<p>The projecting ledge of rock, which formed +rather an awful sort of canopy to the niche +within which Churchill was sitting, effectually +prevented his being seen by those who might +be leaning against the stone-wall at the top of +the cliff; as he rightly conjectured the two +persons whose observations he had just heard +now were. Provided with so unsuspicious an +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_198"></span>excuse as his sketch-book for continuing where +he was, he determined to take his chance for +overhearing some more communications which +(he hardly knew why) powerfully excited his +curiosity.</p> + +<p>But though only separated by a few paces +from those who spoke, in spite of straining his +attention, which the more he listened the more +he felt inclined to do, he could but very imperfectly +catch the purport of what was said; +sometimes, in the middle of a sentence, a louder +and a longer wave would break, roaring on the +shingle beneath; sometimes a screaming seabird +would hover round his head, as if on purpose +to baulk him.</p> + +<p>“Well, Darnell, my lad,” said Captain Collett, +“so all’s right. Jack Dawkins has not +mistaken the land-marks. And you were not +more glad to see again your friends of last +night, not even the tight little Lucy, than I +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_199"></span>am to see heave in sight my first of favourites, +‘<i lang="fr">La Pie voleuse</i>.’”</p> + +<p>“And I should see her with much more +pleasure if she were not so near my friends of +last night. She’s not the right sort of company +for them; and between ourselves, Captain, +now it’s come to the point, I dread their +becoming better acquainted with each other.”</p> + +<p>“And since when has the wind set in that +quarter, lad? Didn’t you, yourself, remind +me, who know the whole line of coast, what a +snug place to land——”</p> + +<p>Here the screaming of the sea-gulls above +Churchill’s head, and the roar of the breakers +beneath his feet, combined to prevent his catching +the remainder of Collett’s answer; and +when these noises were again comparatively +calmed, he heard George protesting—“Nay, +never say I’m ungrateful, or that I can forget +the ugly scrape you helped me out of this time +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_200"></span>three years; or that I repent the merry period +of adventure we passed together the last months +of the war in our privateering cruises; but +that was other-guess work, when, if one did +chance to get knocked of the head, no one knew +or cared whether the venture we were engaged +in chimed in with the exact letter of the law. +Who thought of George Darnell then? and +whether he was washed overboard with a bullet +in his body or without, no one would grieve +about his death more or less for the manner +of it. But somehow, coming back here amongst +kith and kin, and finding them all the same, I +can’t help wishing I was so myself.”</p> + +<p>“Oh, certainly!” rejoined Captain Collett +with a sneer, “they must seem all the same to +you: above all, Lucy; she has thought of no +one else since you first left home, and she’s +only had that painter chap here on purpose to +meet you, that he may paint her your picture +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_201"></span>against your next cruise. He was a studying +her face pretty closely, you’ll be glad to hear, +when I met them going to church this morning.”</p> + +<p>Churchill could only hear, in reply to this, +the immortal part of himself condemned to +everlasting perdition in the emphatic monosyllable +usually applied to such a purpose. +Whether the very vehemence with which this +was uttered warned the speaker himself afterwards +to drop his voice, or the surrounding +noises again conspired to drown it, but it was +some time before the listener could again make +out what was said; when he did, George was +saying, apparently in answer to some remonstrance +of the other, “Never fear, you have +my word, and you shall find me as faithful +here as if I was still on the smooth white sands +of Cherbourg or the shingles of Sussex; all I +meant was, that when this morning I paced +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_202"></span>along the churchyard amongst the tombstones, +that told of those who had borne the name of +Darnell in peace and good-will to all around +them, and now seemed to meet my eye on all +sides as if to remind me of that with honest +pride, I felt——But what signifies explaining to +you feelings which are not at all in your line; +they may be between me and my rest, but they +shall not come between my word and you.”</p> + +<p>The conference seemed here to be interrupted, +for George halloed out suddenly in a +louder voice, “Avast, Mary! whither away so +fast?”</p> + +<p>“To Bankside, to say that mistress is but +poorly, and Miss Lucy will stay with her aunt +to-night.”</p> + +<p>“All goes contrary,” muttered George in +reply.</p> + +<p>“Well, Mary, say you spoke me by the +way, and I bore the message for you;” and +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_203"></span>George and his companion upon this prepared +to return homewards.</p> + +<p>Churchill remained a few minutes behind, +absorbed in reflections upon what he had so +imperfectly collected. It appeared, though he +could not exactly make out in what enterprise +they were at present engaged, that Captain +Collett was a very dangerous companion for +his young friend, and that he had, perhaps, +already involved him in some scrape which +would effect his future respectability in life. +There was nothing which he could distinctly +gather in the shape of an accusation from the +conversation he had just heard; but he determined +to be upon the watch, and, should any +thing further happen to confirm his suspicions, +to communicate them to Farmer Darnell, and +in the mean time to watch the next apparition +on the coast of the “Pie Voleuse,” which he +now saw, after having run about a mile before +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_204"></span>the wind straight out from the land, was standing +to the southward: he felt, at the same time, +much disappointed at the protracted absence of +Lucy; and, anticipating nothing but discomfort +in the present state of the Darnell family, returned +to Bankside Farm.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_205"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_XV"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Fifteen">XV.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">Out of thy long experienced time</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Give me some counsel.</div> + <div class="verse indent27"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">A faint, but faithful, portraiture of one</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Most dearly loved, and now for ever lost.</div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">The</span> agitation of Alice Darnell, which had +struck Churchill as remarkable, was not seen +without surprise by her niece, who had never +previously, in all their intercourse, observed +any break in her usually composed demeanour, +or a ruffle in her equable manners. She said +no more in the course of their hurried return +to her cottage, but occasionally pressed affectionately +Lucy’s arm, on which she leaned, and +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_206"></span>gazed earnestly in her face with an expression +of anxious tenderness.</p> + +<p>Upon reaching home, she drew her niece into +her snug little neatly-furnished parlour, and +throwing herself upon the sofa, covered her +face for some minutes with her hands, seeming +not to hear Lucy’s repeated requests to know +what she could do to comfort her. At last, +raising herself, as if with an effort, and looking +up in Lucy’s face with a countenance strongly +marked with the expression of inward suffering, +she asked abruptly—“And you say his name +is Churchill?” Her niece answering in the +affirmative, she continued—“But what can the +name tell, which may easily be an assumed one? +It is not that the features, or even the countenance, +are the same; but there is something in +the air and manner which too strongly recall—— +And oh, above every thing, the expression of +those eyes, when he looked tenderly on her—I +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_207"></span>had hoped that I had forgotten that of which +they renew the recollection with the freshness +of yesterday. In the last few minutes I +have lived over again months of suffering, +which I had hoped, in vain, subsequent years +of repose and resignation had almost effaced +from my too vivid recollection. It is but one +effort more, and for your sake I will make the +attempt. Those events, which, by constantly +refusing to dwell upon, I had hoped the obliterating +hand of time was gradually glossing +over, I now find as distinctly scarred as ever in +the deeply-cut tablets of my memory. It will +but cost me one more pang, that they should +assume the tangible shape of words, and operate +as a warning to my beloved niece, in the danger +which I think at present threatens her. Lucy, +Churchill loves you, and you must cease to +love him.’”</p> + +<p>The poor girl, whose youth, innocence, and +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_208"></span>ignorance of the world would have prevented +her being able to define the nature of her own +feelings towards Churchill, had that habitual +deference for her aunt’s judgment, that she +would never have supposed that she could +be mistaken in any opinion so oracularly +delivered, and, therefore, never thought +of disputing what she seemed to take for +granted, that she had already begun to love +Churchill; though she could not account why, +if this was the case, the idea of George should +rise at the same moment in her mind. She +made no reply, but seating herself at her aunt’s +feet, and hiding her face on her knees, waited +some explanation of the last sentence.</p> + +<p>“I feel assured,” continued Alice Darnell, +“as of my own existence, that he is elevated +far above your rank in life; and trust me, I +speak from my own experience, when I say +there are no sufferings at all to compare with +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_209"></span>those which arise from unequal attachments. +Whether the resemblance which so strongly +struck my imagination is other than a strange +coincidence, I have no means of judging; but +that Churchill is other than that which he here +passes himself to be, I feel I cannot be mistaken.—Lucy, +it is necessary that, in what I +am about to say, I should speak to you much +of myself; that I should disclose many parts +of my early life, which have been hitherto concealed, +not only from you, but from those of +your relations nearer my own age, with whom +you have been living. My brother is only partially +informed of much of what I am going, +without reserve, to lay before you. Much I +shall have to speak of feelings which neither +his habits nor his disposition would have enabled +him to understand. The principal facts +I felt it my duty to confide to him, and it +was at his desire that no mention whatever was +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_210"></span>made of them to your mother; for though +blame might not be attachable to me, there +were circumstances which, he said, her peculiar +mode of thinking might make subject of +reproach. If now I speak more openly to you +than I have ever done to any one, it is because, +in spite of that complete ignorance of +the world, which your position has implanted, +I have always observed in you a fund of natural +good sense, which will induce you to make +the right use of that practical warning which I +am urged to try as an experiment, from the +similarity, in many respects, of the position in +which you at present are, to that whence I +derived every misery except disgrace.</p> + +<p>“Your father and I were early left orphans. +George’s father had already been some time at +sea when our parents died, therefore the loss to +him was not so great as to myself and my elder +brother. An old bachelor, relative of ours, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_211"></span>undertook the management of the farm, and +the instruction of your father in the art by +which he was to live. It was more difficult to +decide what was to become of me. But it was +at length determined nominally, upon the authority +of our guardian, but in reality by the +advice of the gossips in the neighbourhood, and +my own wish, that I should be placed at what +was called a finishing-establishment for young +ladies, at a small sea-bathing place thirty miles +from hence. I had not, however, long been +there, before, at one of the exhibitions for +which this school was celebrated, I attracted +the attention of an excellent and talented, but +eccentric elderly lady of the name of Nesbit, +who happened to be staying at —— for the +season. Mrs. Nesbit had long been left a +widow with a large fortune, the greater part +of which she spent in the encouragement of the +fine arts. In most of these, in her younger +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_212"></span>days, she had herself been no indifferent proficient; +but latterly, her increasing infirmities +had confined the exercise of her taste to admiration +of the skill of others. Frequent attacks +of gout in the hand had prevented her continuing +her pencil, of the previous success of +which her boudoir still showed some favourable +specimens; and the same cause deprived +the world of many records of her playful imagination, +in which she had formerly indulged, +when still able to write as quickly as she could +think. Perhaps, of all the trials to which the +progress of physical infirmities subject us, +there is none so melancholy as when they produce +the forced inaction of previously well +exercised faculties.</p> + +<p>“Yet, though my acquaintance with Mrs. +Nesbit only commenced after she was already +suffering in a cruel degree from manifold privations +of this nature, I never saw her temper +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_213"></span>the least ruffled by any feeling of envy at the +happier state of others; her kind disposition, +and her still fresh feelings, enabled her to +derive unalloyed pleasure from the success of +others. When in London, her house was +always full of those who had most recently +exerted themselves in any line with distinction; +and even when I have known her to have been +suffering acute bodily pain, I have seen her +benevolent countenance light up, as if the triumph +was her own, when any new aspirant for +fame has been brought to one of her choice little +evening reunions, to hear from her own lips +the acknowledgment of the pleasure she had +derived from his successful efforts. At the period +when I first became an inmate in her +house, she had just acquired the afflicting consciousness +that she could not, without risking +the total loss of eyesight, indulge as formerly +in reading for any time together to herself. +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_214"></span>This was, to a person of her tastes, the most +cruel privation with which she had as yet been +threatened, and one which it required all her +resignation to bear with equanimity.</p> + +<p>“It was to alleviate her loss in this respect, +that having been pleased with something she +observed in my voice and elocution at one of +our school exhibitions, she easily persuaded +me to accompany her to London as a companion, +whose principal duty was to be reading +aloud to my benefactress,—most sincerely may +I so style her. For though I know that generally +there is no fate more deplored than that +of a dependant companion, yet, whilst I was +in that much stigmatized situation, I experienced +nothing but kindness, and I derived +nothing but pleasure from the occupation +which it entailed on me.</p> + +<p>“Our readings generally consisted of the best +works of the day, and when not satisfactorily +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_215"></span>supplied with those, selections from the first +poets and dramatists. Mrs. Nesbit was an +enthusiast about many of these, but Shakspeare +was her idol; and it was in my endeavours to +please her, by showing that I really felt the +beauties which I was the medium of conveying, +that I first cultivated that taste for elocution, +which, as you will see, I afterwards exercised in +a wider field. The first feelings of gratified +vanity I had upon the subject, was when Mrs. +Nesbit would half raise herself upon her sofa, +and after gazing at me intently for some time, +interrupt me with,</p> + +<p>“‘My dear Alice, what an actress you would +make!’</p> + +<p>“Amongst the many distinguished persons of +every profession who used then to frequent my +friend’s select circle, was often to be found +that great actor, whose name you have often +heard me mention with enthusiasm, when we +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_216"></span>have been reading together either Hamlet or +Macbeth;—I mean the head of that family who +have for nearly half a century upheld the character +of the stage, as much by their virtues, +as they have supported its attraction by their +talents. He was, indeed, a noble creature; perhaps +only too exalted and abstracted in his +view of human nature for the matter-of-fact +age in which he finished his career. But the +revival of recollections of that time is leading +me from the point on which I wish to speak, +even had I no other and graver object in what +I am saying. It is not with you, who never +beheld him, that I should vindicate my opinion +of the professional pre-eminence of the person +in question. I only alluded to him, because +my partial benefactress often led this great +artist to participate, apparently with warmth +and sincerity, in her favourable opinion of my +uninstructed attempts at recitation; and as +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_217"></span>enthusiasm, real or assumed, was not his characteristic, +this testimony gave us both the +greater pleasure.</p> + +<p>“In the midst of all this, and whilst my friend +was getting every day more attached to me, I +was unexpectedly deprived of her invaluable +protection, by a sudden attack of gout in the +stomach, which proved fatal to her in the nighttime, +and before assistance could be procured.</p> + +<p>“One moment I must pause upon the awakened +recollections of my earliest friend and benefactress, +whose awfully sudden end exercised +so great an influence on my future fate, and I +will then proceed.”</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_218"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_XVI"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Sixteen">XVI.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">Is it not monstrous that this player here,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">But in a fiction, in a dream of passion,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Could force his soul so to his own conceit?</div> + <div class="verse indent30"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">When and where and how we met, we wooed</div> + <div class="verse indent0">And made exchange of vows, I’ll tell thee.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Ibid.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">“It</span> had not been in Mrs. Nesbit’s power to +provide adequately for me; the whole of her +income having been derived from a handsome +jointure, which, at her death, reverted to her +husband’s heir-at-law. A codicil to her will +conferred on me, as a legacy, the small sum in +ready money which her liberal, though not extravagant +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_219"></span>style of living, had left at her banker’s; +it also conveyed to me all her library of books, +most of which you now see round you. Utterly +unprotected as I was, thus once again left, +and still only eighteen, it was necessary that +I should determine without delay upon the +course which, under these circumstances, I +wished to pursue.</p> + +<p>“Perhaps it was a natural defect in my +character, only elicited by the situation in +which I had been lately placed, that made me +shrink instinctively from returning once more +amongst the kind, but rude and uncivilized +companions of my earlier days. Combined with +this dislike to that which was the obvious course +for a young girl like me to pursue, recollections +arose continually of Mrs. Nesbit’s evidently sincere +opinion—‘My dear Alice, what an actress +you would make!’ which gradually produced +an uncontrollable longing to embark in that +precarious profession: the exercise of which, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_220"></span>in my unpractised mind, as yet only associated +with the idea of such partial encomiums +and kind criticisms as had hitherto met my +ear from the friendly circle in Mrs. Nesbit’s +drawing-room.</p> + +<p>“Once having made up my mind, I determined +to consult the great actor, whom I have +before mentioned, upon the best manner of +putting my project into execution. He seemed +much embarrassed at the nature of my +appeal. It appeared as if it never had occurred +to him, from the sort of society in which he +had heard me give specimens of my abilities, +that it was likely I should ever be called upon +thus to exert them professionally.</p> + +<p>“He told me, that he should be deficient in +candour, if he did not repeat what he had formerly +said, ‘that he thought me eminently +qualified to succeed should I really be determined +to try the stage; but,’ he added, ‘in +spite of those brilliant prospects, he could +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_221"></span>never dispassionately advise any one so young +and unprotected to take such a step; and if +the advice which I sought from him was not as +to the best means of doing that upon which I +had already decided, but that I would consult +him as to the expediency of doing so at all, he +would do all in his power to dissuade me, at +least at present, from thinking of such a +thing.’ I thanked him sincerely for his kindness, +and expressed no more gratitude than I +felt towards him, but still adhered to my determination, +representing to him how little I +knew what else to do with myself, and how +sanguine I felt at being able and willing to +surmount all the difficulties and inconveniences +of the first steps of the profession. Seeing me +determined, he gave me letters of introduction +and recommendation to some connexions +of his, then in the management of one of the +first provincial circuits.</p> + +<p>“By them I was, in consequence, most cordially +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_222"></span>received, and offered a choice of any character +I chose for my <i lang="fr">debut</i>. Long before +that night arrived, I found out how differently +my exertions were likely to be estimated here, +and at Mrs. Nesbit’s. There, in the absence of +all competition, praise excited no envy, and +captious criticism would have been avoided as +ill-breeding. Here my arrival had disturbed +long-established claims to admiration, and had +excited, first dismay, and then dislike. I had +chosen Juliet for my first appearance, a choice +most young ladies have made before me, and +probably will do as long as ‘debutantes’ of +eighteen each season succeed one another. I +was not aware of the offence this was likely to +give till after it was all settled; when I found +I had displaced a majestic-looking widow lady, +whose name appeared upon the prompter’s +books as having been in undisputed possession +of the part for nearly twenty years; a prescriptive +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_223"></span>right upon which she rested her claims, +perhaps rather technically than judiciously. +Had it been a young girl, like myself, with +whom I interfered, she might have relied upon +the anticipation of my failure, and upon the +part then reverting to her; but this lady +felt that her hitherto uninterrupted tenure once +broken in upon, it was not likely it would ever +be revived.</p> + +<p>“Under her auspices, therefore, was organized +a party to cry down my inexperienced +attempts, and, with my eyes thus officiously +opened to my own defects, I felt, as much as +they could impress upon me, how very far from +perfect I then was.</p> + +<p>“It was all so different to me from the dining-room +of Mrs. Nesbit—the mere walking the +stage was a difficulty which I thought I should +never get over, particularly when, at each of the +wings, I always found during my rehearsals, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_224"></span>some of my new friends to explain to me, solely +for my good, how ridiculous something which I +had done had been. The contrast between my +present mortified feelings and my previously +over-sanguine expectations was so great, that I +should have been completely disheartened, and, +perhaps, abandoned the stage in despair, but +for the good-natured encouragement of many +others of the company. All the effect, therefore, +which this attempt had upon me, was to +determine me to defer, till we removed to the +next town in the circuit, my first appearance; +and in the mean time, to study hard to acquire +technical facilities, and to conquer those defects, +of which I ought to thank my rival for +having taken such pains to make me aware. +The play had been announced, and therefore +was not withdrawn, but an apology was made +for the non-appearance of the <i lang="fr">debutante</i>, and +my matronly substitute once more “strutted +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_225"></span>and fretted” with ill-concealed triumph +through the childish sorrows of Juliet. This +exhibition was also a useful preparation for me, +as it taught me many practical tricks to avoid.</p> + +<p>“The company removed to a fashionable +watering-place, then in full season, and at +length my first appearance was positively fixed. +And here let me do justice to the general +kindly feelings of fellowship which I found +to exist amongst the members of a profession, +which by no means creates evil passions, +though it may occasionally concentrate into a +strong focus the causes which usually excite +their display. That constant and close collision +of pretensions, in which self-love must +receive daily wounds, may naturally have a +tendency to produce that envy and spirit of +detraction, from which no society is free, not +even that, where the contests of vanity are for +the most unimportant objects, and between the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_226"></span>most independent persons. But amongst my +brethren of the stage, I generally found these +feelings as fleeting as the passing pageant +which had excited them; and in all essentials +they might challenge a comparison with any of +those whose own means were most assured, in +their eagerness to extend from their own precarious +provision, encouraging sympathy to the +efforts of the inexperienced, and substantial +support to the decay of the aged.</p> + +<p>“In my own case, the interested attempt to +crush a young beginner, excited in many of the +company a strong feeling in my favour; and +the interval which had elapsed had certainly +been of considerable service to me, perhaps not +a little in destroying that ill-grounded feeling +of self-confidence, in which the partial panegyrics +of friends had previously nursed me. But +the want of this very much increased the terrors +of the awful approaching trial.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_227"></span></p> + +<p>“Perhaps the time I had now unassumingly +passed amongst them had predisposed the company +in my favour; but during the last day or +two before my attempt, it is impossible to do +justice to the almost paternal interest shown for +me by nearly every member, from the amiable +manager himself, down to the apothecary of the +night. Still, nothing could alleviate the overpowering +sensation which I experienced when +the anxious moment I so long anticipated actually +arrived. The house was crowded in +every part. The cheering welcome with which +I was received upon my first entrance did not +dispel my fears, as I felt that it was only so +much advanced in trust that, by my exertions, +I would afterwards repay it. But as the play +proceeded, and I recovered my confidence, the +first spontaneous burst of applause which rang +from every part of the house caused a consciousness +of triumph, quite unlike any thing +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_228"></span>I had ever before experienced. It proclaimed +a mysterious command over the unsuspecting +sympathies of a mixed multitude, which was +immeasurably superior to the finest compliment +that had ever gratified my ear in Mrs. Nesbit’s +drawing-room. My success was complete; I +may now, without vanity, refer to it as unparalleled.</p> + +<p>“Amongst the most enthusiastic of my supporters +was a party of officers in the stage-box. +The period to which I refer was that during +the late war, when the militia was quartered +about the country, the officers of which often +contained in their number many men of rank +and fortune; of this party the greater number +were uniform in their acclamations. But even +on that night of agitating triumph I could not +help remarking the evident admiration of one +officer, who did not join in the vehement demonstrations +of his companions, but sat in the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_229"></span>corner nearest the stage, with his speaking eyes +fixed upon me with an expression which, perhaps, +derived some of its intensity from the +strong glare of the foot lights, which cast a pale +hue over the rest of his features. Overpowered +with congratulations on all sides, I retired to +rest after my triumph, and slept soundly, only +that in a confused dream of happiness the one +distinct object that presented itself was the +expressive countenance in the stage-box.</p> + +<p>“My <i lang="fr">debut</i> had been so beyond expectation +successful, and the crowded houses every night +I played was such an unquestionable proof of +increasing attraction, that the very excess of +my triumph destroyed at once every spirit of +rivalry, as it became obvious that my stay there +could not extend beyond the little probationary +practice, and that before many months elapsed +I should be on the metropolitan boards. Even +my <i lang="fr">ci-devant</i> rival, whose term was just up, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_230"></span>accepted a re-engagement, subject to the condition +of her exchanging for the present the +girlish white satin of Juliet for the motherly +black velvet of Lady Capulet.</p> + +<p>“Still, upon every succeeding night of my +appearance, the same young officer, sometimes +alone, sometimes accompanied, was always in +the same corner of the stage-box.</p> + +<p>“This had continued for some weeks without +our ever becoming acquainted, and thus his +admiration appeared purely professional. The +fame I had acquired, and whatever personal +attractions I then at eighteen could boast, +caused me, whenever I stirred out, to be much +followed by many of the idlers of the public +walks, but never by him; and the wise regulations +of the manager, considering the mixed +nature of the company at a watering-place, put +many difficulties in the way of the intrusion of +strangers into the green-room.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_231"></span></p> + +<p>“One evening, however, under some pretence +or other, two of the brother officers +of my unknown admirer had contrived to +introduce themselves there in a state that +evidently showed they had rendered themselves +unfit for any society. But, at the period to +which I refer, it was not so well established, +as now I hear it is, that, to appear drunk, +was ‘unbecoming the character of an officer +and a gentleman.<a id="chg4"></a>’ The most noisy of these +made me the object of his loathsome addresses; +the disturbance he created had +reached the front of the house, and my brother +actors were endeavouring, by quiet remonstrances, +to induce him to withdraw, when my +unknown friend entered the room, and seizing +him by the arm, with an authoritative movement +of the head, motioned him to retire with +him.</p> + +<p>“The offender seemed awed for the moment, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_232"></span>and did as he was desired. Being called at that +moment to the wing, I overheard, at the distance +of a few paces from me, the continuance +of their conference.</p> + +<p>“‘What d——d nonsense,’ said the offender, +‘why, she’s only an actress.’</p> + +<p>“‘If you had any of your senses left,’ +retorted the other, in an impassioned tone +which went to my heart, ‘you would see that +there could be no reason that a person who, +by the display of every grace, and the exercise +of consummate talent, commands the sympathies +of the most refined, should, on that very +account, tolerate the disgusting approaches of +such a beast as you have made of yourself.’</p> + +<p>“‘A very fine sermon for a soldier; so, +amen! and I shall go back to my beauty.’</p> + +<p>“‘Hold!’ said my defender, stopping him, +‘I am most serious—if you will listen to my +advice, so much the better; but I am determined +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_233"></span>by foul means, if I cannot by fair, to +prevent your returning.’</p> + +<p>“A short scuffle, and but a short one, ensued; +for my defender, though much the slighter +of the two, was perfectly steady, an advantage +of which the other had deprived himself, and, +seizing his athletic antagonist by the nape of +the neck, with one push he sent him from the +top of the stairs to the bottom.</p> + +<p>“Persons, in the state in which he then was, +are said not to be easily hurt, or else I should +have thought he must have been killed; however, +he rose without injury, and departed, +very angry, and determined to take ulterior +measures.</p> + +<p>“Just at the moment this occurred, I was +obliged to appear upon the stage, which I did +in a state of agitation that was afterwards +remarked upon. The consequence of this altercation +was a meeting between the two officers; +my champion received a ball through +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_234"></span>his right arm; but his antagonist, from his +conduct in the whole brawl, suffered, like +Cassio, such a wound in his reputation, that +his brother officers visited his fault with the +same punishment as Othello did that of his +lieutenant, and compelled him to quit the +regiment.</p> + +<p>“That all this could not occur in a small +gossiping watering-place, without being recounted +in a thousand different ways, and not +all to my advantage, you may well imagine;—though +when I say <em>you</em> may well imagine, I forget +my poor dear child, that, up to this moment, +you are happily ignorant how peculiarly prone +that ever-changing compound, called the world, +is to decry any one who has previously excited +its admiration. Many stories that were then +circulated never wounded my ears; but they +had been widely diffused: for one morning, +some days after this had happened, I was +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_235"></span>sitting in my room with my fellow-lodger, +an excellent elderly lady, the <span class="smcap">Duenna</span> on the +stage, but off it the Lady Bountiful of our +company, with whom I had arranged to keep +house, as a sort of protectress to my youth, +when the maid brought in a card with the name +of Captain Somers, who begged to be admitted. +The publicity which had been given to +the late affair, had, of course, made me acquainted +with the name of my declared +defender and previously unknown admirer. +Gratitude, of course, required that I should +admit him. He looked dangerously interesting, +with the arm which had been wounded +in a black sling over his uniform, and his +countenance still showing traces of his late +confinement. He appeared embarrassed at +first, as he apologized for his intrusion, which +he said was to hope I would excuse any unpleasant +construction which might be put upon +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_236"></span>his unauthorised interference in my behalf, +which, he said, had arisen unintentionally out +of the circumstances of the case: that he felt +at the time he could not do otherwise; but +that he much regretted the publicity of the +whole affair. I could not do less than thank +him most warmly for his generous interposition +to save me from insult; and I, in my +turn, felt embarrassed in doing so: an awkwardness +which was not diminished by my +fellow lodger taking advantage of that opportunity +to rise and leave the room.</p> + +<p>“If Captain Somers and I then were lovers, +we were not perfect in our parts, for the conversation +was by no means easy or animated, +now we were left alone; indeed it was many +weeks before he spoke of love, and so imperceptibly +did we arrive at that point, that when +he first pleaded his passion, so far from falling +strangely on my ears, it seemed to me as if he +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_237"></span>had never previously spoken on any other subject. +But where is the woman who requires to +be told she is beloved? and how much more +precious are the moments, when that consciousness +is derived from any other source than that +of the tongue?</p> + +<p>“The innocent intercourse which from this +time subsisted between us, so far from detracting +from my profession, gave me an additional +stimulus to exertion. Somers was an accomplished +critic; and no indifferent praise, however +unqualified, is half so sweet as little improving +suggestions softly hinted by an admiring lover. +Yet ignorant as I then was of the world, and +wrapped up in my own day-dreams of love and +fame, I had my misgivings that Somers’s was +not an unmingled happiness; indeed, sometimes +it was with pain I beheld the occasional fits of +despondency to which he seemed subject, without +my being able to divine the cause. During +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_238"></span>all this time he never mentioned his family, +and I knew nothing of it beyond the reports +amongst the company, to which I listened +little, and did not attach much credit. Months +passed over, and the time arrived when we +were to remove to our next quarters, a large +seaport town in the south, whilst the ****shire +militia were to continue in their present +station.”</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_239"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_XVII"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Seventeen">XVII.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">A greater power than we can contradict</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Hath thwarted our intents. Come, come away;</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Thy husband in thy bosom lieth dead.</div> + <div class="verse indent29"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">“The</span> prospect of this separation appeared +to be anticipated with much dread by Somers, +and he sighed over each succeeding day that +diminished the interval that remained to us. +Having always beheld in him this desire to +linger over each departing moment, I was +much surprised, two days before the time that +I was to have left, to receive a note from him, +announcing his own departure. It was short, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_240"></span>and only, ‘I dare not say more, till farther +assured of the truth of what I have heard, +than that I trust this temporary absence will, +in the end, lead to the reverse of separation.’ +I endeavoured to rest satisfied with this mysterious +consolation, and contrive to keep up +my spirits during our own removal; but when +week after week passed over at our new quarters, +without my hearing farther from Somers, +the secret anxiety which preyed upon me began +to affect my professional exertions, and +diminish my popularity. At length Somers +returned: he was in deep mourning, and from +his manner had evidently something to communicate, +whilst the warmth of his affection +for me seemed to have gained strength from +absence.</p> + +<p>“The whole mystery of his conduct was +now unravelled. It appeared that he was the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_241"></span>only son of Lord Castleton; that whilst yet +scarcely of age, he had been induced by his +father, whose estates were much embarrassed, +to marry a rich heiress; that she, well knowing +for what he had married her, never thought it +necessary to give him that affection which he +did not seem to require; that after the birth +of one son, they lived little together. The +peace of Amiens happening about that time, +she had, under the pretence of ill health, obtained +his ready permission to go with some of +her own family to the Continent, whilst his +parliamentary duties, which were then new to +him, gave him, on his side, as ready an excuse +for remaining in England.</p> + +<p>“At the sudden breaking out of the war, +Mrs. Somers, with many others of her countrymen +and women, became a <i lang="fr">detenue en France</i>. +As long as she had been allowed to remain at +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_242"></span>Paris, this forced detention had not appeared +to be unpleasant to her, but when, for +some reason not explained, she had forfeited +the favour which had procured her that +indulgence, and had been exiled to a small +provincial town in France, she had become +very anxious to return to her own country. +But reports which had reached Somers +of her levity, had not caused him to regret +more than he would have done at the period +of their former separation, that it was utterly +out of his power to facilitate such an event. +He owned that upon first becoming acquainted +with me, he had looked forward to that sort of +temporary connexion, which would have thrown +a gleam of happiness over his at present solitary +home; but that as a more intimate knowledge +of my character showed him the purity of my +unsuspecting innocence, he at the same time +began to entertain doubts both as to the propriety +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_243"></span>of acting upon such an intention, and +the probability of succeeding in it. Hence all +his inward struggles and ill-concealed fits of +despondency. Just as he had almost brought +himself to determine that the period of my removing +from * * * * * should terminate our +connexion, he received a report of the death +of Mrs. Somers in France. His first impression +was merely the shock of the sudden +removal of one so young from the world, with +whom he had been so closely connected: and +though he had never loved her, all his own +faults towards her now crowded upon his +recollection. Oppressed with these feelings, +though he already began to cherish half-formed +hopes for the future, he would not see me +before leaving * * * * *; especially as he +wished first that the intelligence which lie had +heard should receive farther confirmation. +This had been obtained in London to the full +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_244"></span>extent that could be expected, from the imperfect +communication between two countries +in a state of war.</p> + +<p>“He now pressed for an immediate and private +marriage. That it should be immediate, +he pleaded only too strongly the excess of his +passion: that it must be private, he at the same +time owned, to allow him to remove the opposition +of an aged parent, and from a feeling of +delicacy on account of the deep mourning he still +wore for Mrs. Somers. Almost wild as I was +with the prospects of happiness which were thus +opening to me, I still felt shocked at the suddenness +of the proposal; but so unlimited had +become his influence over me, that he could +have proposed nothing, consistent with honour, +to which I would not have readily acceded. I +pleaded for delay, I fear feebly—I know ineffectually. +Somers had brought with him an +old college friend, to perform the ceremony, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_245"></span>upon whose secrecy he could rely, and who was +to leave the town immediately after. Fatal +precipitancy! We were married the next +morning. So anxious was Somers that nothing +should occur on which to hang a suspicion +of the event which had taken place, that +he even recommended my performing as usual +that night at the theatre. His will was law to +me, and I made no objection, though I own, a +presentiment of evil oppressed my spirits, when +the prompter gave out ‘Isabella, or the Fatal +Marriage,’ as the performance of that evening.</p> + +<p>“My husband, with what pride I then +thought of him as such, occupied his usual +place in the stage-box. In the first act, whilst +kneeling before Count Baldwin, I could not +help fancying that the words were addressed to +that obdurate father-in-law, whose forgiveness +was necessary to the acknowledgment of our +marriage; this gave a peculiar energy to my +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_246"></span>appeal, which added much to the effect of the +scene, and crowned my exertions with a success, +much beyond that which had latterly +attended my more languid efforts.</p> + +<p>“In the midst of the thunder of applause +which followed, a party of naval officers entered +the box where Somers sat, accompanied +by a lady, dressed in the height of the French +fashion, which, as there was then little communication +between the countries, was never worn +without exciting much attention. The eyes of +the whole house were in consequence turned on +the lady. Somers rose upon their entrance; +but upon turning round to observe them, it +appeared to me as if he staggered, and leant for +support against the side of the box; in this position, +the light of the stage-lamps fell strongly +upon his features, and showed to me his whole +face, even his very lips, of a deadly paleness. +Before rushing out of the box he cast one long +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_247"></span>look of utter despair on me. I could not then +comprehend its meaning, but it was the last I +ever received from my husband. <em>My</em> husband +did I say? He was <span class="allsmcap">HER’S</span>. It was Mrs. +Somers who had entered the box!</p> + +<p>“Yet even in the dreadful suspense in which +I was left, my surmises never reached the horrible +truth. What agony it was to go on acting—acting +through five long acts; yet I forced +myself to proceed, with the recollection that +Somers had wished me to avoid anything that +might lead to the premature discovery of our +marriage. Yet, what a night was that on +which to assume fictitious woe! And there she +sat, and at such a moment ’twas I that was +pampering her morbid sensibilities. Even then +she wept in torrents at my ideal sorrows, and +was carried out in convulsions, unable to bear +the sight of my assumed madness and despair—she +whose unlooked-for appearance in the world +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_248"></span>was about to bereave me of every earthly hope. +And even in those moments thus trifled away +in such wretched mockery of grief, what fatally +real horrors were preparing for me!</p> + +<p>“Somers had rushed homewards in a state +approaching to delirium; he locked himself in +his dressing-room. Fatal chance! His pistol-case +lay on the table beside him. He was +alone. His state was desperate. The sudden +revulsion from the height of expectant happiness +had been too much for him. Look which +way he might, he saw no opening for hope; +and there was no friendly hand to stay his +frantic purpose. Where was I then? Which +way employed? I never can bear to think of +it. Hurrying impatiently homewards the moment +I was free to do so. All was then over. +Amidst a crowd which was already collected, +I found Mrs. Somers, who had left the theatre, +overpowered by her sensibility, which my fictitious +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_249"></span>sufferings had excited; now bending over +the remains of what had been <em>her</em> husband, and, +I still thought, <em>mine</em>. But the mouth which +that morning had breathed its vows to me, was +now distorted in death—-shattered by the desperate +aim of the pistol. Oh, Lucy, even I endeavoured +in vain to recognize those loved features +as I pushed aside every one,—yes, even +<em>her</em>, to assume for the last time that position +by him which I thought mine by right.</p> + +<p>“Mrs. Somers rose indignantly, and the dreadful +cause of this horrid scene broke fearfully +upon me, through a torrent of the most vehement +abuse which she launched upon my devoted +head, such as an irritated woman thinks +herself justified in venting upon the most degraded +of her own sex. I could have submitted +meekly to all she said—I hardly heeded +it, till she called me her husband’s murderess. +Was I that?—Yes, at that moment I felt myself +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_250"></span>a guilty creature; for what precious moments +had I not wasted in the unmeaning garb +of mimic woe, whilst he was left alone in his +despair to do the horrid deed! Had I but +been there, I would have suffered shame, I +fear even dishonour, to have saved him; nay, +more, I would have renounced him for ever, +I would have restored his newly-plighted faith, +to have preserved his precious life, and to have +been allowed to offer prayers for his happiness.”</p> + +<p>Alice Darnell forced herself to gasp forth +these last words, and then sunk back senseless. +When Lucy had succeeded in restoring her to +herself, she said, “I thought I never could +have brought myself to revive in words these +harrowing recollections. You see to what a +state it has reduced me, and how unfit I am +now to draw from the sad tale that practical +warning I had wished, as to the danger of unequal +attachments,—above all, of surrendering +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_251"></span>the affections where any mystery involves the +object. One word I may as well now add, that +you may understand the events which I have +detailed. I said that Somers had one infant +son, but it had remained with his grandfather, +Lord Castleton, from the time its mother first +went abroad. The rumour of Mrs. Somers’ +death had been purposely circulated to facilitate +her attempt to escape: so anxious had +she latterly been to leave that country which +she had sought for pleasure, that she embarked +in an open boat, and had been taken up by an +English cruiser, the captain of which paid her +every attention. It was accompanied by him +that, upon landing, she had gone to the theatre, +and within a twelvemonth from that time she +became his wife. To-morrow, dearest Lucy, +I shall be calm, and better able to speak farther, +but you must stay here with me to-night.”</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_252"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_XVIII"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Eighteen">XVIII.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent8">Your sorrow was too sore laid on,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Which sixteen winters cannot blow away,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">So many summers dry. Scarce any joy</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Did ever live so long; no sorrow</div> + <div class="verse indent0">But killed itself much sooner.</div> + <div class="verse indent31"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">Is passion to be learned then? wouldst thou make</div> + <div class="verse indent0">A science of affection? guide the heart,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">And lead it where to fix?</div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">Such</span> was the sad tale of her own blighted +hopes which Alice Darnell forced herself to +reveal to her beloved niece, with the fond hope +that so striking a proof of the danger of unguardedly +pledging the affections, where evident +incongruity of station was combined with mystery +and apparent concealment, might operate +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_253"></span>as a check upon that growing partiality for +Churchill, which she dreaded had already taken +root in Lucy’s heart. With this view, when +the next morning she had in a great degree +recovered her usual composure, she dwelt more +on how much she had herself suffered from her +imprudence, in having admitted a stranger, and +one obviously her superior, into an intimacy, +without due caution in previously ascertaining +what his actual situation was. Had she but +been timely informed of Colonel Somers’ marriage, +how much would have been spared them +both, and how dearly had he paid for his tacit +deceit on this subject.</p> + +<p>She farther proceeded to affirm her own conviction +that Churchill was not exactly what he +pretended to be: in this opinion she owned +that she might be rather biassed by the extraordinary +resemblance, though more in air and +expression than in form and features, which he +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_254"></span>bore to one, the recollection of whom she had +never ceased to cherish since his untimely loss. +But though this coincidence might rather influence +her judgment, yet, independent of this, +she had had opportunities, in the best society +at Mrs. Nesbit’s, just at that age when outward +impressions are more strongly distinguished, +of exercising her talents as a close observer +of manners; and the peculiar tact which she had +on this subject, had very much contributed to +make her efforts in comedy rival her success in +tragedy, during her short theatrical career. It +has, too, been remarked throughout, that +Castleton was by no means a skilful actor of +the part he had assumed; and to a person of +Alice Darnell’s discrimination, the evident constraint +with which one of his rank in life assumed +the manners of an inferior station, +though distinct in its nature, was not less remarkable, +than the awkward assumption of refinement +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_255"></span>by a vulgar person. The obvious +embarrassment, too, with which he avoided her +searching observation, could only be explained +by there existing some reason for concealment.</p> + +<p>But the penetration with which Alice Darnell +had discovered her niece’s danger, was more +conspicuous than the judgment of the course +which she took to avoid it. For though Alice +Darnell had been a faithful and interesting representative +of the outward aspect of human +passion, as described by others; though in her +own person she had internally felt as strongly +as any one its devastating power; she had, +perhaps, for that very reason, never examined +closely or coolly the various causes to which it +sometimes owes its origin, or traced to their +sources the crooked channels through which, in +its earlier stages, flow some of those springs +which all combine in the end to give irresistible +power to its headlong course.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_256"></span></p> + +<p>True, even in this age of mixed and mitigated +feelings, there does sometimes rise, pure +and powerful at its fountain-head, the sympathetic +impulse of “love at first sight;” but +for one instance of this kind, how many may +be found where that passion, instead of ripening +regularly from original sympathy, has +been unaccountably grafted on habitual indifference; +and of this might be cited instances, +even amongst those who, once under its influence, +have given most decided proofs of its +power, in braving disgrace and ruin. It seems +sometimes as if the heart only then acquired a +predisposition to infection, when every human +motive of action, prudent as well as virtuous, +had combined against it. Lovely girls have +been known to bloom unnoticed in the same +society with him who, when they have become +the wife of another, has urged elopement +with all the energy of passion; this, be +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_257"></span>it observed, not from any selfish distinction of +the different requisites of a wife and a mistress,—for +grant he succeeds in his suit, and, by +every tie of honour, his wife she must become, +not as she might formerly have assumed that +character, richly endowed in good name and +wealth,—the ornament of society,—but dragging +him forth an outcast, impoverished by the +very price at which he is forced to purchase +her blighted fame. How, then, shall we account +for such early misplaced indifference, +and subsequent ill-timed susceptibility, but +upon the endless and unaccountable perversity +of the human passions?</p> + +<p>But though Alice Darnell need not have +been expected to enter into these abstract reflections, +yet she made two mistakes, which +might have been obvious even to her, in the +influence she expected to produce upon her niece.</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_258"></span></p> + +<p>In the first place, no one in love is ever +diverted from their course by the recital of the +sufferings of others, under similar circumstances, +if these sufferings, however great, are +invested with interest. She had also, by +what she had said, inadvertently disposed her +niece’s feelings much more favourably towards +Churchill, for she had flattered her vanity; and +the breast which beats under the modest tucker +of the country maiden, is not less accessible to +the influence of vanity, than is that which +openly swells with the pride of conquest in +sight of the crowded ball-room.</p> + +<p>In all her intercourse with Churchill, there +had been something which she could not understand; +she was never quite at her ease, and +this had produced a consciousness of constraint, +which had left a feeling of humiliating inferiority, +not improving her favourable opinion +of her companion. But now she had been +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_259"></span>given some intelligible ground on which to +place that superiority on his part, which she +had felt without acknowledging, and, at the +same time, she was taught to suppose that he +was willing to forego all that very superiority +for her sake. This placed him in a light much +more dangerous to her peace of mind, than that +in which she had been accustomed to consider +him. If, therefore, his influence over her was +still far from being certain or confirmed, her +defence rested on quite different grounds from +those on which her aunt had been inclined to +place reliance; and her best protection arose +from the nature of her early attachment to her +cousin George.</p> + +<p>Many circumstances had combined to keep +her inexperienced mind in doubt as to her +feelings towards him during all their early +intercourse, the constant intimacy of childhood +had swallowed up the first symptoms of courtship; +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_260"></span>to this had succeeded protracted absence, +and apparent neglect on his part. He had at +length returned, as we have seen, with undiminished +affection; but many things had conspired +to prevent its appearing in his manner +to her, not the least of which was the evidence +of those assiduous attentions in another, which, +whenever preference is sought in the “checkered +shade,” or in the “gala glare,” never fail +in producing some effect, and mostly succeed in +attaining their object.</p> + +<p>The fact was, therefore, that at this moment +Lucy was herself, if not in a delusion, at least, +in doubt, as to how much she cared about her +“cousin George.”</p> + +<p>She, however, listened most attentively to all +her aunt’s cautions as to the danger of encouraging +her other admirer, and bowed assent to +her parting advice.</p> + +<p>“I do not wish you abruptly to show distrust; +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_261"></span>but above all, avoid as much as possible +being alone with him.”</p> + +<p>To this tacit promise Lucy meant to adhere, +but the state of things she that day found upon +her return home did not favour her immediately +acting up to her intention. George had +left home early in the morning, as he said, +upon business, professing an intention not to +return in the course of the day—perhaps not +even at night. Her father and mother had just +revived some well-contested point in dispute, +which, from long experience, she knew would, +like some of the fights of the middle ages, be +conducted without loss of blood, and only end +in a drawn battle at close of day. This did +not render the prospect of remaining at home +during the afternoon very inviting, and therefore +she could not resist Churchill’s gentle suggestion, +that she should accompany him to the +cliff, on a sketching expedition. She again put +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_262"></span>on her bonnet, announcing to the parental combatants, +during one of those pauses in the +fight which Mrs. Darnell never allowed to be +of long continuance, “That her object was to +see whether her aunt, whose illness had been +the cause of her absence the night before, was +better that evening.”</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_263"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_XIX"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Nineteen">XIX.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent6">My Anah! let me call thee mine,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Albeit thou art not: ’tis a word I cannot</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Part with; although I must from thee.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Byron.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">We’ll so bestow ourselves, that near, unseen,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">We may of their encounter frankly judge.</div> + <div class="verse indent33"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">’Tis true they are a lawless brood,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">But rough in form, nor mild in mood;</div> + <div class="verse indent0">And every creed, and every race,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">With them hath found—may find a place.</div> + <div class="verse author"><span class="smcap">Byron.</span></div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">Churchill</span> and Lucy sat side by side on +a projecting ledge which she pointed out to +him on the face of the precipitous cliff; this +position, for an admirer of the picturesque, was +much better chosen than that which he had +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_264"></span>himself accidentally selected the night before, +and of which, as a painter, he had so little +availed himself. The intersections of the +craggy cliffs, which rose one behind another, +as they looked along the line of coast, were here +bolder and more broken and varied. From the +height of the point whereon they sat, all below +was blended in that deep, purplish, hazy hue, +which, in a painter’s eye, gave to indistinctness +a charm. The sea-birds, Churchill’s unwelcome +intruders of the evening before, now +skimmed in silence the mid air far beneath +them, the undulating motion of their white +wings being the only sign of animation around. +Not a sail was seen in the wide surface of the +distant expanse: and along the deeply sheltered +sides of the little bay beneath, the waters lay +dead, and dark, and still. The next promontory +of the succession of crags before them, +less precipitous and lofty than that on which +they were placed, had scattered over its face +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_265"></span>huge clumps of thriving brushwood, just then +touched with the first mellow tint of autumn; +whilst the heather, which grew in patches +wherever the light soil clung to the interstices +of the cliffs, contrasting its rich dark blue +colour with the lighter grey of the broken +rocks, gave sharpness to the fantastic shapes in +which these were dispersed about. In the +middle distance, looking rather inland, could +be traced the valley down which ran the course +of the little mountain stream, by whose side +Castleton had first wound his way to Morden +Bay. And this path he followed once again +in his mind’s eye, and he recollected his then +follies, and he thought of all his checkered life, +his successive feelings—of his hopes—of his +frivolous pursuits—which had all produced +heart-burnings and disappointments since that +evening when he had first beheld the lovely +being who now sat beside him in matured +beauty and still unsullied purity and innocence; +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_266"></span>and as he again looked on her with a long impassioned +gaze, their eyes met, and she thought +that it must have been thus Somers looked on +Alice Darnell. More fondly she felt he could +not look, and this feeling gave a sensibility +to her own expression, which her lover had +hitherto sought in vain; and they sat long +while they fancied they were drawing. Though +they did little the while, and said less, it +seemed, for the first time, as if they understood +each other, and all Churchill’s gestures were +those of impassioned tenderness, and it was so +that Lucy felt them; and it is certain, that at +that moment she thought of no one else; and +her glances, though timid and stolen at intervals, +vied with his in tenderness, and had he +then pleaded, a negative could hardly have +found its way to her lips through the inward +agitation of her frame.</p> + +<p>But there had been throughout his whole +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_267"></span>scheme too much plan and method in Churchill’s +romance, and now the moment had come which +might fix his fate, and make her his wife—for +it was with such an intention that he wooed her—incongruous +doubts rose in his mind,—he +hesitated,—he would not for the world have +abandoned his object, yet he almost wished +to delay the irrevocable step; but it was not +without an effort that he could force himself +to do so, for his feelings were much excited, +and more than once the conclusive words trembled +on his tongue, but he checked himself, +and blurted forth an indifferent observation in +an altered tone.</p> + +<p>The effect of this was instantaneous: there +is no female breast, however untutored and inexperienced, +which does not feel, in its inmost +recesses, the reaction caused by an opportunity +slighted of profiting by its tenderness. In a +moment, Lucy became aware that the evening +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_268"></span>shadows had redoubled their length; that the +sun was on the point of setting; that it was +already late for her to proceed to her aunt’s: +rising for this purpose, Churchill eagerly offered +to accompany her, but this she firmly +opposed, naturally from not wishing to show +that she had braved her aunt’s caution, the +prudence of which the experience of her late +sensations had confirmed.</p> + +<p>She declined, therefore, his offer of help, +even down the first winding track, where, +indeed, from its narrowness, assistance would +have been impracticable. This track led from +the spot where they now were into the broader +path, which conducted along a lower ledge +round the point towards her aunt’s; and she +proceeded to descend it with the secure and +elastic step which is the combined result of +habit and natural activity. Churchill watched +her with an anxious eye through the first part +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_269"></span>of her progress, and afterwards with an admiring +one, as her fine form gradually receded, +whilst she pursued her way with an unconscious +grace in every motion, which would +have done honour to many in a more elevated +rank in society. But the fact is, the drawing-room +school, though it may improve, no more +creates grace, than the <i lang="fr">manège</i> does the +most admired paces of the horse.</p> + +<p>Churchill watched her round the point, and +knowing that she would again become visible +in passing the next, which jutted farther into +the sea, he stood there awaiting the moment +in a state of mind in which were blended dissatisfaction +with himself, with increased admiration +of her. Whilst absorbed in these mingled +reflections, he was startled by a large +stone, which, detached from the cliff above, +rolled close beside him, and striking the portfolio, +in which he had been just loosely depositing +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_270"></span>the different half-finished productions of +Lucy and himself, scattered them about; and +the evening breeze, just then risen, catching +them up as it swept by, they “soared, ducked, +and dived in air,” and were soon carried far +out of reach of recovery. Churchill, looking +up to see what accident had caused this, beheld +George at the distance of a few yards, +standing between the edge of the cliff and the +wall at its summit, against which he leaned, +whilst one foot, which without doubt had been +the means of propelling the stone, was still +thrust forward. He had a broad grin on his +face, and was evidently enjoying the mischief +he had caused.</p> + +<p>There was nobody in the world from whom +Churchill could at that moment so ill have +borne a joke, if indeed it really was a joke. +Without a moment’s reflection he sprang upwards, +and finding himself beside his unprovoked +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_271"></span>aggressor, whom he still found forcing +a laugh, though evidently only to suppress +some less pleasant feeling to himself which +lurked beneath, said,—</p> + +<p>“I don’t ask you whether you did that, but +why?”</p> + +<p>“I wanted to put up that brood of cormorants +that roost below yonder, and cared not +what other birds of ill omen I frightened by +the way. As for your trash, I’ll buy you +better, printed and painted too, at any pedlar’s +stall for a penny apiece.”</p> + +<p>“You mischievous imp of a cabin boy,” +retorted Churchill enraged, and lifting at the +same time a small slight cane which, from +habit, he always carried, even on these inappropriate +excursions, “you ought to be turned +over to your own boatswain for chastisement; +it would be too much honour to touch you +with this.”</p> + +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_272"></span></p> + +<p>It is probable that Churchill did not intend +really to assault his antagonist, but as he had +raised his cane as if with that view, George, +whose passions were just as much raised, and +whose experience had not taught him to consider +such threats as figurative, grasped firmly +the bludgeon with which he was described on +the eve of his first departure from home, and +which, in all his vicissitudes, had never been +farther from him than where it was still within +reach of his cot. He gave it one masterly +flourish over his own head, and then allowed it +to descend with its full swing upon that of +Churchill, who fell senseless at his feet.</p> + +<p>Lucy in the mean time had reached the +farther projecting point, from which this foremost +part of the cliff was again visible, just +at the moment when the stone which had +struck the portfolio, had scattered Churchill’s +drawings to the winds; and this she had +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_273"></span>witnessed, for upon arriving at that point +she had paused a moment, and cast “one lingering +look behind,” to the spot where she had +left her late companion, scarcely conscious +herself that that action was prompted by feelings +for him at the time, which, could George +have interpreted, would have given additional +force to that jealousy, of which he had just +shown such a violent symptom. She had been +unable at first to account for the cause of the +loss of the drawings, but though the distance +was great, and the light becoming more uncertain, +she too well knew the figures of both +of the combatants not to see only too plainly +the progress of the scuffle above; and observing +the violent action of George’s powerful arm +followed by the dead stiff fall of him whom he +struck, she was riveted to the spot with dumb +horror at the idea that the tender companion +whom she had but just left, who had so lately all +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_274"></span>but spoken the assurance that he lived only for +her, had been even at that moment murdered +by her earliest friend; whilst her conscience +whispered that she herself had been the unhappy +subject of dispute.</p> + +<p>Whilst still deprived by the horrific sight +of any power to move, she beheld three or four +other men approach the scene of the late conflict, +and her first impression was, that they +were both ministers of the law and witnesses +of the deed, and that George, arrested by their +authority, and condemned upon their evidence, +would pay the penalty of that act to which +perhaps he had been driven by her cruel +caprice; and she thought of their early inseparable +years, and their former parting, and +how different that was from the dreadful final +one which such a state of things would too +surely bring, and she pressed her hand against +her eyes in mute despair;—but when again she +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_275"></span>looked, it was obvious that the men approached +George with no hostile intent, but on the contrary, +that, evidently acting under his direction, +they had raised the body of Churchill from the +ground—and George’s hand pointed downwards +over the edge of the cliff, and the men bore their +burthen towards the brink of the precipice, +and she, shuddering, thought that in another +moment she should behold the mangled limbs +dashing from rock to rock, as they fell; and +the dreadful idea rousing her from her previous +stupor, she gave one piercing shriek, +but was answered only by the startled wild +fowl screaming discordantly as they whirled +round her head. But in one minute more her +immediate fears as to the intentions of those +who bore the body, were relieved, when she +saw them take a steep and winding path which +descended the side of the cliff to the shore.</p> + +<p>She then guessed that they were conveying +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_276"></span>their burthen to a well-known cave, close to +which the path conducted, and which she remembered +from its having been the point of +some of her early rambles with George. A moment +she hesitated, from dislike to trust herself +amongst such apparently lawless men; but +depending upon George not being so changed +but that he would be both willing and able to +give her protection, she determined to try her +influence over him, with a faint hope that +Churchill might not actually be dead, and that +she might still be the means of preventing further +danger to him.</p> + +<p>By the faint indistinct glimmering of twilight +which yet remained, as she descended the +cliff and approached the small bay into which +the cave opened, she could perceive a large +boat which had been run ashore, whilst on the +shingles beside it were scattered several barrels +or kegs, and a little farther out at sea, yet +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_277"></span>sheltered by an abrupt projecting cliff from the +more inhabited line of coast, a small vessel lay +moored, and several figures appeared engaged +in conveying the kegs from the open shore into +the concealment of the cave. The wild air of +these men, as far as the increasing darkness +allowed her to distinguish them, and the rough +blasphemous oaths of which almost their whole +communication seemed to consist, as far as the +suppressed tone in which they spoke allowed +her to make out what they said, both conspired +to make her shrink from advancing nearer, or +presenting herself to their notice; but being +detected even where she stood aloof and trembling, +by the quick and restless eyes of one of +the party, ever on the look-out against surprisal, +and being rudely dragged forward, she +was almost at the same time recognised and +rescued by George, who, upon hearing a noise, +came forward from the interior of the cave, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_278"></span>accompanied by Captain Collett, whose command +to unhand her, backing the more manual +interference of George, the men muttering +oaths, and, to her, unintelligible ribaldry, returned +to their labours, and she found herself +at the mouth of the cave with George and +his Captain.</p> +<hr aria-hidden="true" class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> + + +<div class="chapter"> +<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_279"></span></p> + <h2 class="nobreak" id="CHAPTER_XX"> + CHAPTER <abbr title="Twenty">XX.</abbr> + </h2> +</div> + +<div class="poetry-container"> + <div class="poetry"> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent26">But my sins</div> + <div class="verse indent0">No more the pleasure from the stripling wins;</div> + <div class="verse indent0">And such, if not yet hardened in their course,</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Might be redeemed, nor ask a long remorse.</div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">The hours that we have spent</div> + <div class="verse indent0">When we have chid the hasty-footed time</div> + <div class="verse indent0">For parting us. Oh! and is all forgot—</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Our schoolday friendship—childhood innocence?</div> + <div class="verse indent33"><span class="smcap">Shakspeare.</span></div> + </div> + <div class="stanza"> + <div class="verse indent0">Do you remember all the sunny places</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Where in bright days, long past, we played together?</div> + <div class="verse indent0">Do you remember all the old home faces</div> + <div class="verse indent0">That gathered round the hearth in wintry weather?</div> + </div> + </div> +</div> + +<p><span class="smcap">This</span> cave, which had two arched openings, +both leading to the same interior, and supported +by a colossal rocky pillar, was at low +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_280"></span>water nearly dry, excepting near the centre, +where a clear pool of brackish water was left +from one spring-tide to the next, surrounded +by a bed of the finest white sand. All this +outer cave was entirely the work of Nature, and +had probably been progressively scooped out +to its present size, by the whirling eddy of +water, which, during high tides and storms, +rushed in through one opening, and out at the +other, according as it was driven by the directing +force of the wind. Within this outer +cave was another large recess at right angles +to it, which had at some time been assisted by +the hand of man. The narrow, low opening to +this, was generally choked up by a bank of +the white sand, which, as the waters rolled +round, they dashed against it; and as the +small passage behind, thus concealed, gradually +rose as it opened into the inner cave, +that part was itself quite dry; and the entrance +to it being thus unsuspiciously closed from observation, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_281"></span>it had been thought by George, who +had accidentally dug through the bank with +his fingers when a boy, that along the whole +line of coast, a better spot could not be selected, +in which to stow their kegs, till an opportunity +occurred of by degrees disposing of +them inland.</p> + +<p>It appeared to Lucy as if her arrival had +interrupted for the moment a dispute between +George and his Captain; and in this she was +confirmed by Collett saying, as soon as the +men had returned to their work,—</p> + +<p>“It is true, it can’t be helped now; but it is +a d—-d foolish scrape you’ve got us into: why +couldn’t you leave the man alone? It’s true, +I begin to doubt his dying. Perhaps it would +be better if he would, for we can’t leave him +here to blow us; and anyhow, there’ll be such +a hue-and-cry raised, that, hang me! if I know +when we shall be able to look after the cargo. +The tide’s ebbing over-fast, or I’d chuck ’em +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_282"></span>in again, and take a long last leave of Morden +Bay, and be d—-d to it, for an unlucky hole; +but there’s not time to think of that, so the +kegs must even stay here, and we must stow +this lumber in the hold in the place of them.”</p> + +<p>Touching Churchill’s body with his foot, +and finding him still insensible from loss of +blood, he added,—</p> + +<p>“But let me tell you, that to exchange all +these <em>spirits</em> for one <em>body</em> is a losing trade, +either for this world or the next;” and chuckling +complacently at this last idea, as a man +who thought that the mere scoffing at serious +matters in itself constitutes a good joke, he +retired towards the inner cave, calling out to +George, “to take the girl in tow, and drop +down out of sight of their job.”</p> + +<p>But George seemed stupified by the conflicting +feelings which struggled for mastery within +him, and allowed himself to be silently drawn +by Lucy on to the beach, through the opposite +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_283"></span>opening of the cave to that through which +the smugglers were carrying the kegs.</p> + +<p>“And is it come to this then, George!” she +said: “these are then your companions,—that +is your friend, your master! And has all +sense of shame left you, that you could bring +such a ruffian under my dear father’s peaceful +roof? And then to finish all by murdering +that poor good gentleman! Heaven, in its +mercy, preserve him!” added Lucy fervently, +in a low tone.</p> + +<p>“He’s not good—no more are you, and he’s +no more a gentleman than I am,” answered +George, doggedly, his good feelings being for +the moment overpowered by the evident sympathy +of Lucy for his rival. “And it’s all +along of you both, that I’ve come to this.”</p> + +<p>“How can you say so, George? The poor +man, since it offends you to call him gentleman, +never saw you till two days ago; and +your present courses you must have adopted, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_284"></span>with these associates, long since; and for me, +it’s now more than four years since we have +met at all. And think of this spot, George—this +cave. The last time we were here together, +who would have thought that it would +be thus we should meet again? Do you remember +the smuggler we then saw chased by +the King’s ship; it was the last vessel of that +sort, till to-night, that had ever appeared on +this coast; and the running fight, and the sound +of the guns gradually dying away in the distance, +and then our suspense; and we heard no +more, till you brought that printed paper of +the travelling pedlar, which you read to me, +and which told how they were all hanged: +George, dear George! why did you ever forget +that paper?”</p> + +<p>“’Tis too late to think of all that now, +Lucy; though I thank you for still caring for +me, if it’s ever so little. There was a time +when you might have saved me, when I wrote +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_285"></span>to you, about my first scrape, before I got +from bad to worse.”</p> + +<p>“You wrote to me, George! When? Never +from the day you went away have I heard +once.”</p> + +<p>“Ah, there was the mischief, then. But I +wrote all about it, when I’d lost all my money, +like a fool as I then was, and am still; and +how it was a girl like you—no, not like you—but +a girl, who had taken it all; and that’s what +it was, and I was rather ashamed at first to +own so to you. Yet I was easier, when I +had done it, for I never felt so much how I +loved you better than all the world. And as +we were a long way off at the time, and the +Atlantic rolled between us, I was rather matched +how to make sure of your getting it; but +though I was never much of a scholar, I took a +sight of pains with the direction. And I +wouldn’t put Mayton on it, as they used to do +on most of our letters here; for I found, when +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_286"></span>I had got to London even, most people there +had never heard of Mayton, so I argued that +a-tother side of that great water they warn’t like +to know it: so, instead, I put ‘Lucy Darnell, +Bankside Farm, England,’ for I made sure, at +least, they must have heard of England. And +long I waited there in the Indies, in hopes of +an answer—and none ever came, as indeed it +wasn’t like, if you never received the letter. +And so at last I took up with the offer of this +here Messmate, though at the time I had but +half a mind, for I thought you’d never approve +of the like.”</p> + +<p>“But, George, how came you in this distress? +Where was the uncle with whom you +sailed?”</p> + +<p>“Oh, he and I agreed that we suited each +other best at a distance, so he got me swapped +to another ship, which I liked well enough, for +I got double wages; but I soon found that the +more money I had, the less I could keep it; +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_287"></span>and when I landed in the Indian Islands, it +went in more ways than I like to tell, or think +of myself now. And then Captain Collett +spoke me fair, and a merry time we had together +in the privateering line, in which he then +was; and when the Peace came, we had been +too used to dangers and their reward, to take +to carrying coals along the coast. So we’ve +been dodging backwards and forwards across +the Channel ever since, in defiance of the revenue +Sharks. But being a bit over-well known +there now, we got a correspondent at Flushing, +and popped over here unexpected like.”</p> + +<p>“Unexpected indeed!” said Lucy, “and +that it should be most unwelcome too; for I +had rather never have seen you again, though +Heaven knows how I’ve longed to do so! than +that you should come back to bring shame on +us all. And my poor father too, who was as +fond of you as if you’d been his own son. +He’ll feel this more than all the rest of the +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_288"></span>world put together—except me!” she added +falteringly.</p> + +<p>“It needed not to speak so to make me +feel,” said George: “all along, my fear has +been the loss of your good thoughts; and +when I came back the other day, I had made +up my mind to ask all your pardons, to give +over the connexion, and stay at home; but it +maddened me to see that you had clear forgotten +your poor cousin George, for that plausible +painting chap!”</p> + +<p>“Shame on me!” interrupted Lucy, “that +I have now so long forgotten him, whilst listening +to your bad tale of yourself. That I +could do so at such a moment, may prove to +you what now you shall never hear from me, +unless you learn to deserve it better, how long +and how much I have thought of you. But +if you would not have me hate you, George, +instantly rescue from these ruffians, this poor +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_289"></span>person, whom your own mad violence has +placed in their power.”</p> + +<p>George, touched by her manner, and rendered +docile by shame, instantly repaired to +Collett, who was himself much puzzled to know +what to do with their prisoner, and consented +to leave him behind, provided he would bind +himself solemnly not to disclose what he knew +of their proceedings; to which George, for his +own sake, added the condition, that he should +instantly leave that part of the country, and +particularly Bankside Farm.</p> + +<p>Lucy in the mean time entered the cave, to +observe in what state poor Churchill then was. +She found one of the smugglers bending over +him and holding a dark-lantern close to his +features, which he appeared to be examining, +and which were still fixed and insensible. The +man had undone both waistcoat and neckcloth, +and evidently was searching about his breast, +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_290"></span>as she thought, for plunder; though, as he +pretended, to find out whether he had any +other wound. There was, however, an appearance +of care and attention in this man’s manner, +which she could not reconcile with his +purpose. He stated that the sufferer had shown +some signs of returning animation; had called, +as he fancied, on her name, but had relapsed. +Now he again began to move, and with the +first symptoms of consciousness, George made +the offer of liberation, coupled with the conditions +mentioned above.</p> + +<p>The wounded man seemed to make an effort +to give force to the articulation of his reply, as +he answered,</p> + +<p>“Never! I will make no bargain with such +as you: ruffians! do your worst, and at your +peril be it.”</p> + +<p>The smugglers, who had now finished their +work, and were anxious to depart, enraged at +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_291"></span>this untractable answer, became clamorous to +shove off with him, and Captain Collett gave +the orders to bear him to the boat; Lucy +clinging wildly to George, implored him, “Oh, +leave him! leave him, for my sake leave +him!”</p> + +<p>George’s bad feelings were again roused by the +manner of this appeal; he roughly replied, shaking +her from him, “For thy sake!—never! +What! that he may stay behind to hang us, +and bless you!” He then jumped into the boat, +already filled with his companions, one of whom, +who had secretly helped himself too freely to one +of the kegs which had been opened that its +contents might encourage them at their work, +cried out, “Oh, if the land-lubber stands in +the way of our messmate George, I’ll soon +settle his business.”</p> + +<p>He then presented a pistol to Churchill’s +head. Lucy thought she saw George spring +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_292"></span>forward and knock the pistol out of the fellow’s +hand, but neither that nor any thing afterwards +could she recollect distinctly, such had +been the agitation of this dreadful evening; +and as she endeavoured to fix her eyes on +the boat as it heaved unsteadily through the +surf, her brain seemed to reel responsively +within her. She fell powerless on the beach, +and tearing up the sand convulsively with her +outstretched hand, she cried wildly for help, +till her senses completely abandoned her, and +she lay there in unconscious exhaustion much +of that awful night.</p> + +<p>At times she partially awoke to confused +visions of Churchill’s mangled form, and the +last moments of George’s disgraceful career; +and more than once she raised herself and endeavoured +to strain her sight through the +intense darkness, and to collect her scattered +senses to decide whether it was fancy only +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_293"></span>made her imagine that another sail rose on +the waters, still nearing the smugglers; but a +sound which followed, like the roar of cannon, +vibrated so painfully on her shattered nerves, +that she raised her hands to her ears, again +pressed her head against the sand, and when +the first dawn of the morning found her still +on the beach, with partially returning consciousness, +the first object she plainly distinguished +was a crowd of men moving towards +her, in the midst of which were the crew of +smugglers, Captain Collett and George, handcuffed +two and two, and guarded by some men +of the Preventive Service, and a file of soldiers.</p> + +<p>Still half bewildered, she rushed amongst +them, screaming in vain for some one, and +crying, “Where, where is the body?”</p> + +<p>“The body!” exclaimed the man, who +seemed in command of the party, “then it +was as we suspected, and a murder has been +<span class="pagenum" id="Page_294"></span>committed. Come, my young woman, you +must along with us; you will be an important +witness, I guess;” and the whole party moved +on towards Hornscliff Abbey, the seat of the +nearest resident magistrate, Sir North Saunders.</p> + + +<p class="p4 center ls allsmcap"> +END OF THE FIRST VOLUME. +</p> + + +<p class="p2 center muchsmaller"> +LONDON:<br> +PRINTED BY SAMUEL BENTLEY,<br> +Dorset-street, Fleet-street. +</p> + +<div class="chapter transnote"> +<h3>Transcriber’s Note:</h3> + +<p class="nottall">A simple table of contents was added for the convenience of users. +Words may have multiple spelling variations or inconsistent +hyphenation in the text. These have been left unchanged, as were +dialect, obsolete and alternative spellings. One misspelled word was +corrected, one upside down letter was righted, and two words were +added where they appeared as blotches on the printed page. 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