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You can also find out about how to make a +donation to Project Gutenberg, and how to get involved. + + +**Welcome To The World of Free Plain Vanilla Electronic Texts** + +**EBooks Readable By Both Humans and By Computers, Since 1971** + +*****These EBooks Were Prepared By Thousands of Volunteers***** + + +Title: The Disowned, Volume 4. + +Author: Edward Bulwer-Lytton + +Release Date: March 2005 [EBook #7634] +[Yes, we are more than one year ahead of schedule] +[This file was first posted on March 4, 2004] + +Edition: 10 + +Language: English + +Character set encoding: ASCII + + + + + +*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE DISOWNED, LYTTON, V4 *** + + + +This eBook was produced by Tapio Riikonen +and David Widger + + + + + +CHAPTER XXXVII. + +What a charming character is a kind old man.--STEPHEN MONTAGUE. + +"Cheer up, my dear boy," said Talbot, kindly, "we must never despair. +What though Lady Westborough has forbidden you the boudoir, a boudoir +is a very different thing from a daughter, and you have no right to +suppose that the veto extends to both. But now that we are on this +subject, do let me reason with you seriously. Have you not already +tasted all the pleasures, and been sufficiently annoyed by some of the +pains, of acting the 'Incognito'? Be ruled by me: resume your proper +name; it is at least one which the proudest might acknowledge; and its +discovery will remove the greatest obstacle to the success which you +so ardently desire." + +Clarence, who was labouring under strong excitement, paused for some +moments, as if to collect himself, before he replied: "I have been +thrust from my father's home; I have been made the victim of another's +crime; I have been denied the rights and name of son; perhaps (and I +say this bitterly) justly denied them, despite of my own innocence. +What would you have me do? Resume a name never conceded to me,-- +perhaps not righteously mine,--thrust myself upon the unwilling and +shrinking hands which disowned and rejected me; blazon my virtues by +pretensions which I myself have promised to forego, and foist myself +on the notice of strangers by the very claims which my nearest +relations dispute? Never! never! never! With the simple name I have +assumed; the friend I myself have won,--you, my generous benefactor, +my real father, who never forsook nor insulted me for my misfortunes,-- +with these I have gained some steps in the ladder; with these, and +those gifts of nature, a stout heart and a willing hand, of which none +can rob me, I will either ascend the rest, even to the summit, or fall +to the dust, unknown, but not contemned; unlamented, but not +despised." + +"Well, well," said Talbot, brushing away a tear which he could not +deny to the feeling, even while he disputed the judgment, of the young +adventurer,--"well, this is all very fine and very foolish; but you +shall never want friend or father while I live, or when I have ceased +to live; but come,--sit down, share my dinner, which is not very good, +and my dessert, which is: help me to entertain two or three guests who +are coming to me in the evening, to talk on literature, sup, and +sleep; and to-morrow you shall return home, and see Lady Flora in the +drawing-room if you cannot in the boudoir." + +And Clarence was easily persuaded to accept the invitation. Talbot +was not one of those men who are forced to exert themselves to be +entertaining. He had the pleasant and easy way of imparting his great +general and curious information, that a man, partly humourist, partly +philosopher, who values himself on being a man of letters, and is in +spite of himself a man of the world, always ought to possess. +Clarence was soon beguiled from the remembrance of his mortifications, +and, by little and little, entirely yielded to the airy and happy flow +of Talbot's conversation. + +In the evening, three or four men of literary eminence (as many as +Talbot's small Tusculum would accommodate with beds) arrived, and in a +conversation, free alike from the jargon of pedants and the +insipidities of fashion, the night fled away swiftly and happily, even +to the lover. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXVIII. + +We are here (in the country) among the vast and noble scenes of +Nature; we are there (in the town) among the pitiful shifts of policy. +We walk here in the light and open ways of the divine bounty,--we +grope therein the dark and confused labyrinths of human malice; our +senses are here feasted with all the clear and genuine taste of their +objects, which are all sophisticated there, and for the most part +overwhelmed with their contraries: here pleasure, methinks, looks like +a beautiful, constant, and modest wife; it is there an impudent, +fickle, and painted harlot.--COWLEY. + +Draw up the curtain! The scene is the Opera. + +The pit is crowded; the connoisseurs in the front row are in a very +ill humour. It must be confessed that extreme heat is a little trying +to the temper of a critic. + +The Opera then was not what it is now, nor even what it had been in a +former time. It is somewhat amusing to find Goldsmith questioning, in +one of his essays, whether the Opera could ever become popular in +England. But on the night--on which the reader is summoned to that +"theatre of sweet sounds" a celebrated singer from the Continent made +his first appearance in London, and all the world thronged to "that +odious Opera-house" to hear, or to say they had heard, the famous +Sopraniello. + +With a nervous step, Clarence proceeded to Lady Westborough's box; and +it was many minutes that he lingered by the door before he summoned +courage to obtain admission. + +He entered; the box was crowded; but Lady Flora was not there. Lord +Borodaile was sitting next to Lady Westborough. As Clarence entered, +Lord Borodaile raised his eyebrows, and Lady Westborough her glass. +However disposed a great person may be to drop a lesser one, no one of +real birth or breeding ever cuts another. Lady Westborough, +therefore, though much colder, was no less civil than usual; and Lord +Borodaile bowed lower than ever to Mr. Linden, as he punctiliously +called him. But Clarence's quick eye discovered instantly that he was +no welcome intruder, and that his day with the beautiful marchioness +was over. His visit, consequently, was short and embarrassed. When +he left the box, he heard Lord Borodaile's short, slow, sneering +laugh, followed by Lady Westborough's "hush" of reproof. + +His blood boiled. He hurried along the passage, with his eyes fixed +upon the ground and his hand clenched. + +"What ho! Linden, my good fellow; why, you look as if all the ferocity +of the great Figg were in your veins," cried a good-humoured voice. +Clarence started, and saw the young and high-spirited Duke of +Haverfield. + +"Are you going behind the scenes?" said his grace. "I have just come +thence; and you had much better drop into La Meronville's box with me. +You sup with her to-night, do you not? + +"No, indeed!" replied Clarence; "I scarcely know her, except by +sight." + +"Well, and what think you of her?" + +"That she is the prettiest Frenchwoman I ever saw." + +"Commend me to secret sympathies!" cried the duke. "She has asked me +three times who you were, and told me three times you were the +handsomest man in London and had quite a foreign air; the latter +recommendation being of course far greater than the former. So, after +this, you cannot refuse to accompany me to her box and make her +acquaintance." + +"Nay," answered Clarence, "I shall be too happy to profit by the taste +of so discerning a person; but it is cruel in you, Duke, not to feign +a little jealousy,--a little reluctance to introduce so formidable a +rival." + +"Oh, as to me," said the duke, "I only like her for her mental, not +her personal, attractions. She is very agreeable, and a little witty; +sufficient attractions for one in her situation." + +"But do tell me a little of her history," said Clarence, "for, in +spite of her renown, I only know her as La belle Meronville. Is she +not living en ami with some one of our acquaintance?" + +"To be sure," replied the duke, "with Lord Borodaile. She is +prodigiously extravagant; and Borodaile affects to be prodigiously +fond: but as there is only a certain fund of affection in the human +heart, and all Lord Borodaile's is centred in Lord Borodaile, that +cannot really be the case." + +"Is he jealous of her?" said Clarence. + +"Not in the least! nor indeed, does she give him any cause. She is +very gay, very talkative, gives excellent suppers, and always has her +box at the Opera crowded with admirers; but that is all. She +encourages many, and favours but one. Happy Borodaile! My lot is +less fortunate! You know, I suppose, that Julia has deserted me?" + +"You astonish me,--and for what?" + +"Oh, she told me, with a vehement burst of tears, that she was +convinced I did not love her, and that a hundred pounds a month was +not sufficient to maintain a milliner's apprentice. I answered the +first assertion by an assurance that I adored her: but I preserved a +total silence with regard to the latter; and so I found Trevanion +tete-a-tete with her the next day." + +"What did you?" said Clarence. + +"Sent my valet to Trevanion with an old coat of mine, my compliments, +and my hopes that, as Mr. Trevanion was so fond of my cast-off +conveniences, he would honour me by accepting the accompanying +trifle." + +"He challenged you, without doubt?" + +"Challenged me! No: he tells all his friends that I am the wittiest +man in Europe." + +"A fool can speak the truth, you see," said Clarence, laughing. + +"Thank you, Linden; you shall have my good word with La Meronville for +that: mais allons." + +Mademoiselle de la Meronville, as she pointedly entitled herself, was +one of those charming adventuresses, who, making the most of a good +education and a prepossessing person, a delicate turn for letter- +writing, and a lively vein of conversation, came to England for a year +or two, as Spaniards were wont to go to Mexico, and who return to +their native country with a profound contempt for the barbarians whom +they have so egregiously despoiled. Mademoiselle de la Meronville was +small, beautifully formed, had the prettiest hands and feet in the +world, and laughed musically. By the by, how difficult it is to +laugh, or even to smile, at once naturally and gracefully! It is one +of Steele's finest touches of character, where he says of Will +Honeycombe, "He can smile when one speaks to him, and laughs easily." + +In a word, the pretty Frenchwoman was precisely formed to turn the +head of a man like Lord Borodaile, who loved to be courted and who +required to be amused. Mademoiselle de la Meronville received +Clarence with a great deal of grace, and a little reserve, the first +chiefly natural, the last wholly artificial. + +"Well," said the duke (in French), "you have not told me who are to be +of your party this evening,--Borodaile, I suppose, of course?" + +"No, he cannot come to-night." + +"Ah, quel malheur! then the hock will not be iced enough: Borodaile's +looks are the best wine-coolers in the world." + +"Fie!" cried La Meronville, glancing towards Clarence, "I cannot +endure your malevolence; wit makes you very bitter." + +"And that is exactly the reason why La belle Meronville loves me so: +nothing is so sweet to one person as bitterness upon another; it is +human nature and French nature (which is a very different thing) into +the bargain." + +"Bah! my Lord Duke, you judge of others by yourself." + +"To be sure I do," cried the duke; "and that is the best way of +forming a right judgment. Ah! what a foot, that little figurante has; +you don't admire her, Linden?" + +"No, Duke; my admiration is like the bird in the cage,--chained here, +and cannot fly away!" answered Clarence, with a smile at the frippery +of his compliment. + +"Ah, Monsieur," cried the pretty Frenchwoman, leaning back, "you have +been at Paris, I see: one does not learn those graces of language in +England. I have been five months in your country; brought over the +prettiest dresses imaginable, and have only received three +compliments, and (pity me!) two out of the three were upon my +pronunciation of 'How do you do?'" + +"Well," said Clarence, "I should have imagined that in England, above +all other countries, your vanity would have been gratified, for you +know we pique ourselves on our sincerity, and say all we think." + +"Yes? then you always think very unpleasantly. What an alternative! +which is the best, to speak ill or to think ill of one?" + +"Pour l'amour de Dieu," cried the duke, "don't ask such puzzling +questions; "you are always getting into those moral subtleties, which +I suppose you learn from Borodaile. He is a wonderful metaphysician, +I hear; I can answer for his chemical powers: the moment he enters a +room the very walls grow damp; as for me, I dissolve; I should flow +into a fountain, like Arethusa, if happily his lordship did not freeze +one again into substance as fast as he dampens one into thaw." + +"Fi donc!" cried La Meronville. "I should be very angry had you not +taught me to be very indifferent-" + +"To him!" said the duke, dryly. "I'm glad to hear it. He is not +worth une grande passion, believe me; but tell me, ma belle, who else +sups with you?" + +"D'abord, Monsieur Linden, I trust," answered La Meronville, with a +look of invitation, to which Clarence bowed and smiled his assent, +"Milord D----, and Monsieur Trevanion, Mademoiselle Caumartin, and Le +Prince Pietro del Ordino." + +"Nothing can be better arranged," said the duke. "But see, they are +just going to drop the curtain. Let me call your carriage." + +"You are too good, milord," replied La Meronville, with a bow which +said, "of course;" and the duke, who would not have stirred three +paces for the first princess of the blood, hurried out of the box +(despite of Clarence's offer to undertake the commission) to inquire +after the carriage of the most notorious adventuress of the day. + +Clarence was alone in the box with the beautiful Frenchwoman. To say +truth, Linden was far too much in love with Lady Flora, and too +occupied, as to his other thoughts, with the projects of ambition, to +be easily led into any disreputable or criminal liaison; he therefore +conversed with his usual ease, though with rather more than his usual +gallantry, without feeling the least touched by the charms of La +Meronville or the least desirous of supplanting Lord Borodaile in her +favour. + +The duke reappeared, and announced the carriage. As, with La +Meronville leaning on his arm, Clarence hurried out, he accidentally +looked up, and saw on the head of the stairs Lady Westborough with her +party (Lord Borodaile among the rest) in waiting for her carriage. +For almost the first time in his life, Clarence felt ashamed of +himself; his cheek burned like fire, and he involuntarily let go the +fair hand which was leaning upon his arm. However, the weaker our +course the better face we should put upon it, and Clarence, recovering +his presence of mind, and vainly hoping he had not been perceived, +buried his face as well as he was able in the fur collar of his cloak, +and hurried on. + +"You saw Lord Borodaile?" said the duke to La Meronville, as he handed +her into her carriage. + +"Yes, I accidentally looked back after we had passed him, and then I +saw him." + +"Looked back!" said the duke; "I wonder he did not turn you into a +pillar of salt." + +"Fi donc!" cried La belle Meronville, tapping his grace playfully on +the arm, in order to do which she was forced to lean a little harder +upon Clarence's, which she had not yet relinquished--" Fi donc! +Francois, chez moi!" + +"My carriage is just behind," said the duke. "You will go with me to +La Meronville's, of course?" + +"Really, my dear duke," said Clarence, "I wish I could excuse myself +from this party. I have another engagement." + +"Excuse yourself? and leave me to the mercy of Mademoiselle Caumartin, +who has the face of an ostrich, and talks me out of breath! Never, my +dear Linden, never! Besides, I want you to see how well I shall +behave to Trevanion. Here is the carriage. Entrez, mon cher." + +And Clarence, weakly and foolishly (but he was very young and very +unhappy, and so, longing for an escape from his own thoughts) entered +the carriage, and drove to the supper party, in order to prevent the +Duke of Haverfield being talked out of breath by Mademoiselle +Caumartin, who had the face of an ostrich. + + + + +CHAPTER XXXIX. + + Yet truth is keenly sought for, and the wind + Charged with rich words, poured out in thought's defence; + Whether the Church inspire that eloquence, + Or a Platonic piety, confined + To the sole temple of the inward mind; + And one there is who builds immortal lays, + Though doomed to tread in solitary ways; + Darkness before, and danger's voice behind! + Yet not alone-- WORDSWORTH. + +London, thou Niobe, who sittest in stone, amidst thy stricken and +fated children; nurse of the desolate, that hidest in thy bosom the +shame, the sorrows, the sins of many sons; in whose arms the fallen +and the outcast shroud their distresses, and shelter from the proud +man's contumely; Epitome and Focus of the disparities and maddening +contrasts of this wrong world, that assemblest together in one great +heap the woes, the joys, the elevations, the debasements of the +various tribes of man; mightiest of levellers, confounding in thy +whirlpool all ranks, all minds, the graven labours of knowledge, the +straws of the maniac, purple and rags, the regalities and the +loathsomeness of earth,--palace and lazar-house combined! Grave of +the living, where, mingled and massed together, we couch, but rest +not,--"for in that sleep of life what dreams do come,"--each vexed +with a separate vision,--"shadows" which "grieve the heart," unreal in +their substance, but faithful in their warnings, flitting from the +eye, but graving unfleeting memories on the mind, which reproduce new +dreams over and over, until the phantasm ceases, and the pall of a +heavier torpor falls upon the brain, and all is still and dark and +hushed! "From the stir of thy great Babel," and the fixed tinsel +glare in which sits pleasure like a star, "which shines, but warms not +with its powerless rays," we turn to thy deeper and more secret +haunts. Thy wilderness is all before us--where to choose our place of +rest; and, to our eyes, thy hidden recesses are revealed. + +The clock of St. Paul's had tolled the second hour of morning. Within +a small and humble apartment in the very heart of the city, there sat +a writer, whose lucubrations, then obscure and unknown, were destined, +years afterwards, to excite the vague admiration of the crowd and the +deeper homage of the wise. They were of that nature which is slow in +winning its way to popular esteem; the result of the hived and hoarded +knowledge of years; the produce of deep thought and sublime +aspirations, influencing, in its bearings, the interests of the many, +yet only capable of analysis by the judgment of the few. But the +stream broke forth at last from the cavern to the daylight, although +the source was never traced; or, to change the image,--albeit none +know the hand which executed and the head which designed, the monument +of a mighty intellect has been at length dug up, as it were, from the +envious earth, the brighter for its past obscurity, and the more +certain of immortality from the temporary neglect it has sustained. + +The room was, as we before said, very small, and meanly furnished; yet +were there a few articles of costliness and luxury scattered about, +which told that the tastes of its owner had not been quite humbled to +the level of his fortunes. One side of the narrow chamber was covered +with shelves, which supported books in various languages, and though +chiefly on scientific subjects, not utterly confined to them. Among +the doctrines of the philosopher, and the golden rules of the +moralist, were also seen the pleasant dreams of poets, the legends of +Spenser, the refining moralities of Pope, the lofty errors of +Lucretius, and the sublime relics of our "dead kings of melody." +[Shakspeare and Milton] And over the hearth was a picture, taken in +more prosperous days, of one who had been and was yet to the tenant of +that abode, better than fretted roofs and glittering banquets, the +objects of ambition, or even the immortality of fame. It was the face +of one very young and beautiful, and the deep, tender eyes looked +down, as with a watchful fondness, upon the lucubrator and his +labours. While beneath the window, which was left unclosed, for it +was scarcely June, were simple yet not inelegant vases, filled with +flowers,-- + + "Those lovely leaves, where we + May read how soon things have + Their end, though ne'er so brave." [Herrick] + +The writer was alone, and had just paused from his employment; he was +leaning his face upon one hand, in a thoughtful and earnest mood, and +the air which came chill, but gentle, from the window, slightly +stirred the locks from the broad and marked brow, over which they fell +in thin but graceful waves. Partly owing perhaps to the waning light +of the single lamp and the lateness of the hour, his cheek seemed very +pale, and the complete though contemplative rest of the features +partook greatly of the quiet of habitual sadness, and a little of the +languor of shaken health; yet the expression, despite the proud cast +of the brow and profile, was rather benevolent than stern or dark in +its pensiveness, and the lines spoke more of the wear and harrow of +deep thought than the inroads of ill-regulated passion. + +There was a slight tap at the door; the latch was raised, and the +original of the picture I have described entered the apartment. + +Time had not been idle with her since that portrait had been taken: +the round elastic figure had lost much of its youth and freshness; the +step, though light, was languid, and in the centre of the fair, smooth +cheek, which was a little sunken, burned one deep bright spot,--fatal +sign to those who have watched the progress of the most deadly and +deceitful of our national maladies; yet still the form and countenance +were eminently interesting and lovely; and though the bloom was gone +forever, the beauty, which not even death could wholly have despoiled, +remained to triumph over debility, misfortune, and disease. + +She approached the student, and laid her hand upon his shoulder. + +"Dearest!" said he, tenderly yet reproachfully, "yet up, and the hour +so late and yourself so weak? Fie, I must learn to scold you." + +"And how," answered the intruder, "how could I sleep or rest while you +are consuming your very life in those thankless labours?" + +"By which," interrupted the writer, with a faint smile, "we glean our +scanty subsistence." + +"Yes," said the wife (for she held that relation to the student), and +the tears stood in her eyes, "I know well that every morsel of bread, +every drop of water, is wrung from your very heart's blood, and I--I +am the cause of all; but surely you exert yourself too much, more than +can be requisite? These night damps, this sickly and chilling air, +heavy with the rank vapours of the coming morning, are not suited to +thoughts and toils which are alone sufficient to sear your mind and +exhaust your strength. Come, my own love, to bed; and yet first come +and look upon our child, how sound she sleeps! I have leaned over her +for the last hour, and tried to fancy it was you whom I watched, for +she has learned already your smile and has it even when she sleeps." + +"She has cause to smile," said the husband, bitterly. + +"She has, for she is yours! and even in poetry and humble hopes, that +is an inheritance which may well teach her pride and joy. Come, love, +the air is keen, and the damp rises to your forehead,--yet stay, till +I have kissed it away." + +"Mine own love," said the student, as he rose and wound his arm round +the slender waist of his wife, "wrap your shawl closer over your +bosom, and let us look for one instant upon the night. I cannot sleep +till I have slaked the fever of my blood: the air has nothing of +coldness in its breath for me." + +And they walked to the window and looked forth. All was hushed and +still in the narrow street; the cold gray clouds were hurrying fast +along the sky; and the stars, weak and waning in their light, gleamed +forth at rare intervals upon the mute city, like expiring watch-lamps +of the dead. + +They leaned out and spoke not; but when they looked above upon the +melancholy heavens, they drew nearer to each other, as if it were +their natural instinct to do so whenever the world without seemed +discouraging and sad. + +At length the student broke the silence; but his thoughts, which were +wandering and disjointed, were breathed less to her than vaguely and +unconsciously to himself. "Morn breaks,--another and another!--day +upon day!--while we drag on our load like the blind beast which knows +not when the burden shall be cast off and the hour of rest be come." + +The woman pressed her hand to her bosom, but made no rejoinder--she +knew his mood--and the student continued,--"And so life frets itself +away! Four years have passed over our seclusion--four years! a great +segment in the little circle of our mortality; and of those years what +day has pleasure won from labour, or what night has sleep snatched +wholly from the lamp? Weaker than the miser, the insatiable and +restless mind traverses from east to west; and from the nooks, and +corners, and crevices of earth collects, fragment by fragment, grain +by grain, atom by atom, the riches which it gathers to its coffers-- +for what?--to starve amidst the plenty! The fantasies of the +imagination bring a ready and substantial return: not so the treasures +of thought. Better that I had renounced the soul's labour for that of +its hardier frame--better that I had 'sweated in the eye of Phoebus,' +than 'eat my heart with crosses and with cares,'--seeking truth and +wanting bread--adding to the indigence of poverty its humiliation; +wroth with the arrogance of men, who weigh in the shallow scales of +their meagre knowledge the product of lavish thought, and of the hard +hours for which health, and sleep, and spirit have been exchanged;-- +sharing the lot of those who would enchant the old serpent of evil, +which refuses the voice of the charmer!--struggling against the +prejudice and bigoted delusion of the bandaged and fettered herd to +whom, in our fond hopes and aspirations, we trusted to give light and +freedom; seeing the slavish judgments we would have redeemed from +error clashing their chains at us in ire;--made criminal by our very +benevolence;--the martyrs whose zeal is rewarded with persecution, +whose prophecies are crowned with contempt!--Better, oh, better that I +had not listened to the vanity of a heated brain--better that I had +made my home with the lark and the wild bee, among the fields and the +quiet hills, where life, if obscurer, is less debased, and hope, if +less eagerly indulged, is less bitterly disappointed. The frame, it +is true, might have been bowed to a harsher labour, but the heart +would at least have had its rest from anxiety, and the mind its +relaxation from thought." + +The wife's tears fell upon the hand she clasped. The student turned, +and his heart smote him for the selfishness of his complaint. He drew +her closer and closer to his bosom; and gazing fondly upon those eyes +which years of indigence and care might have robbed of their young +lustre, but not of their undying tenderness, he kissed away her tears, +and addressed her in a voice which never failed to charm her grief +into forgetfulness. + +"Dearest and kindest," he said, "was I not to blame for accusing those +privations or regrets which have only made us love each other the +more? Trust me, mine own treasure, that it is only in the peevishness +of an inconstant and fretful humour that I have murmured against my +fortune. For, in the midst of all, I look upon you, my angel, my +comforter, my young dream of love, which God, in His mercy, breathed +into waking life--I look upon you, and am blessed and grateful. Nor +in my juster moments do I accuse even the nature of these studies, +though they bring us so scanty a reward. Have I not hours of secret +and overflowing delight, the triumphs of gratified research--flashes +of sudden light, which reward the darkness of thought, and light up my +solitude as a revel?--These feelings of rapture, which nought but +Science can afford, amply repay her disciples for worse evils and +severer handships than it has been my destiny to endure. Look along +the sky, how the vapours struggle with the still yet feeble stars: +even so have the mists of error been pierced, though not scattered, by +the dim but holy lights of past wisdom, and now the morning is at +hand, and in that hope we journey on, doubtful, but not utterly in +darkness. Nor is this all my hope; there is a loftier and more steady +comfort than that which mere philosophy can bestow. If the certainty +of future fame bore Milton rejoicing through his blindness, or cheered +Galileo in his dungeon, what stronger and holier support shall not be +given to him who has loved mankind as his brothers, and devoted his +labours to their cause?--who has not sought, but relinquished, his own +renown?---who has braved the present censures of men for their future +benefit, and trampled upon glory in the energy of benevolence? Will +there not be for him something more powerful than fame to comfort his +sufferings and to sustain his hopes? If the wish of mere posthumous +honour be a feeling rather vain than exalted, the love of our race +affords us a more rational and noble desire of remembrance. Come what +will, that love, if it animates our toils and directs our studies, +shall when we are dust make our relics of value, our efforts of avail, +and consecrate the desire of fame, which were else a passion selfish +and impure, by connecting it with the welfare of ages and the eternal +interests of the world and its Creator! Come, we will to bed." + + + + +CHAPTER XL. + +A man may be formed by nature for an admirable citizen, and yet, from +the purest motives, be a dangerous one to the State in which the +accident of birth has placed him.--STEPHEN MONTAGUE. + +The night again closed., and the student once more resumed his +labours. The spirit of his hope and comforter of his toils sat by +him, ever and anon lifting her fond eyes from her work to gaze upon +his countenance, to sigh, and to return sadly and quietly to her +employment. + +A heavy step ascended the stairs, the door opened, and the tall figure +of Wolfe, the republican, presented itself. The female rose, pushed a +chair towards him with a smile and grace suited to better fortunes, +and, retiring from the table, reseated herself silent and apart. + +"It is a fine night," said the student, when the mutual greetings were +over. "Whence come you?" + +"From contemplating human misery and worse than human degradation," +replied Wolfe, slowly seating himself. + +"Those words specify no place: they apply universally," said the +student, with a sigh. + +"Ay, Glendower, for misgovernment is universal," rejoined Wolfe. + +Glendower made no answer. + +"Oh!" said Wolfe, in the low, suppressed tone of intense passion which +was customary to him, "it maddens me to look upon the willingness with +which men hug their trappings of slavery,--bears, proud of the rags +which deck and the monkeys which ride them. But it frets me yet more +when some lordling sweeps along, lifting his dull eyes above the fools +whose only crime and debasement are--what?--their subjection to him! +Such a one I encountered a few nights since; and he will remember the +meeting longer than I shall. I taught that 'god to tremble.'" + +The female rose, glanced towards her husband, and silently withdrew. + +Wolfe paused for a few moments, looked curiously and pryingly round, +and then rising went forth into the passage to see that no loiterer or +listener was near; returned, and drawing his chair close to Glendower, +fixed his dark eye upon him, and said,-- + +"You are poor, and your spirit rises against your lot, you are just, +and your heart swells against the general oppression you behold: can +you not dare to remedy your ills and those of mankind?" + +"I can dare," said Glendower, calmly, though haughtily, all things but +crime." + +"And which is crime?--the rising against, or the submission to, evil +government? Which is crime, I ask you?" + +"That which is the most imprudent," answered Glendower. + +"We may sport in ordinary cases with our own safeties, but only in +rare cases with the safety of others." + +Wolfe rose, and paced the narrow room impatiently to and fro. He +paused by the window and threw it open. "Come here," he cried,--"come +and look out." + +Glendower did so; all was still and quiet. + +"Why did you call me?" said he; "I see nothing." + +"Nothing!" exclaimed Wolfe; "look again; look on yon sordid and +squalid huts; look at yon court, that from this wretched street leads +to abodes to which these are as palaces; look at yon victims of vice +and famine, plying beneath the midnight skies their filthy and +infectious trade. Wherever you turn your eyes, what see you? Misery, +loathsomeness, sin! Are you a man, and call you these nothing? And +now lean forth still more; see afar off, by yonder lamp, the mansion +of ill-gotten and griping wealth. He who owns those buildings, what +did he that he should riot while we starve? He wrung from the negro's +tears and bloody sweat the luxuries of a pampered and vitiated taste; +he pandered to the excesses of the rich; he heaped their tables with +the product of a nation's groans. Lo!--his reward! He is rich, +prosperous, honoured! He sits in the legislative assembly; he +declaims against immorality; he contends for the safety of property +and the equilibrium of ranks. Transport yourself from this spot for +an instant; imagine that you survey the gorgeous homes of aristocracy +and power, the palaces of the west. What see you there?--the few +sucking, draining, exhausting the blood, the treasure, the very +existence of the many. Are we, who are of the many, wise to suffer +it?" + +"Are we of the many?" said Glendower. + +"We could be," said Wolfe, hastily. + +"I doubt it;" replied Glendower. + +"Listen," said the republican, laying his hand upon Glendower's +shoulder, "listen to me. There are in this country men whose spirits +not years of delayed hope, wearisome persecution, and, bitterer than +all, misrepresentation from some and contempt from others, have yet +quelled and tamed. We watch our opportunity; the growing distress of +the country, the increasing severity and misrule of the +administration, will soon afford it us. Your talents, your +benevolence, render you worthy to join us. Do so, and--" + +"Hush!" interrupted the student; "you know not what you say: you weigh +not the folly, the madness of your design! I am a man more fallen, +more sunken, more disappointed than you. I, too, have had at my heart +the burning and lonely hope which, through years of misfortune and +want, has comforted me with the thought of serving and enlightening +mankind,--I, too, have devoted to the fulfilment of that hope, days +and nights, in which the brain grew dizzy and the heart heavy and +clogged with the intensity of my pursuits. Were the dungeon and the +scaffold my reward Heaven knows that I would not flinch eye or hand or +abate a jot of heart and hope in the thankless prosecution of my +toils. Know me, then, as one of fortunes more desperate than your +own; of an ambition more unquenchable; of a philanthropy no less +ardent; and, I will add, of a courage no less firm: and behold the +utter hopelessness of your projects with others, when to me they only +appear the visions of an enthusiast." + +Wolfe sank down in the chair. + +"Is it even so?" said he, slowly and musingly. "Are my hopes but +delusions? Has my life been but one idle, though convulsive dream? +Is the goddess of our religion banished from this great and populous +earth to the seared and barren hearts of a few solitary worshippers, +whom all else despise as madmen or persecute as idolaters? And if so, +shall we adore her the less?---No! though we perish in her cause, it +is around her altar that our corpses shall be found!" + +"My friend," said Glendower, kindly, for he was touched by the +sincerity though opposed to the opinions of the republican, "the night +is yet early: we will sit down to discuss our several doctrines calmly +and in the spirit of truth and investigation." + +"Away!" cried Wolfe, rising and slouching his hat over his bent and +lowering brows; "away! I will not listen to you: I dread your +reasonings; I would not have a particle of my faith shaken. If I err, +I have erred from my birth,--erred with Brutus and Tell, Hampden and +Milton, and all whom the thousand tribes and parties of earth +consecrate with their common gratitude and eternal reverence. In that +error I will die! If our party can struggle not with hosts, there may +yet arise some minister with the ambition of Caesar, if not his +genius,--of whom a single dagger can rid the earth!" + +"And if not?" said Glendower. + +"I have the same dagger for myself!" replied Wolfe, as he closed the +door. + + + + +CHAPTER XLI. + +Bolingbroke has said that "Man is his own sharper and his own bubble;" +and certainly he who is acutest in duping others is ever the most +ingenious in outwitting himself. The criminal is always a sophist; +and finds in his own reason a special pleader to twist laws human and +divine into a sanction of his crime. The rogue is so much in the +habit of cheating, that he packs the cards even when playing at +Patience with himself.--STEPHEN MONTAGUE. + +The only two acquaintances in this populous city whom Glendower +possessed who were aware that in a former time he had known a better +fortune were Wolfe and a person of far higher worldly estimation, of +the name of Crauford. With the former the student had become +acquainted by the favour of chance, which had for a short time made +them lodgers in the same house. Of the particulars of Glendower's +earliest history Wolfe was utterly ignorant; but the addresses upon +some old letters, which he had accidentally seen, had informed him +that Glendower had formerly borne another name; and it was easy to +glean from the student's conversation that something of greater +distinction and prosperity than he now enjoyed was coupled with the +appellation he had renounced. Proud, melancholy, austere,--brooding +upon thoughts whose very loftiness received somewhat of additional +grandeur from the gloom which encircled it,--Glendower found, in the +ruined hopes and the solitary lot of the republican, that congeniality +which neither Wolfe's habits nor the excess of his political fervour +might have afforded to a nature which philosophy had rendered moderate +and early circumstances refined. Crauford was far better acquainted +than Wolfe with the reverses Glendower had undergone. Many years ago +he had known and indeed travelled with him upon the Continent; since +then they had not met till about six months prior to the time in which +Glendower is presented to the reader. It was in an obscure street of +the city that Crauford had then encountered Glendower, whose haunts +were so little frequented by the higher orders of society that +Crauford was the first, and the only one of his former acquaintance +with whom for years he had been brought into contact. That person +recognized him at once, accosted him, followed him home, and three +days afterwards surprised him with a visit. Of manners which, in +their dissimulation, extended far beyond the ordinary ease and +breeding of the world, Crauford readily appeared not to notice the +altered circumstances of his old acquaintance; and, by a tone of +conversation artfully respectful, he endeavoured to remove from +Glendower's mind that soreness which his knowledge of human nature +told him his visit was calculated to create. + +There is a certain species of pride which contradicts the ordinary +symptoms of the feeling, and appears most elevated when it would be +reasonable to expect it should be most depressed. Of this sort was +Glendower's. When he received the guest who had known him in his +former prosperity, some natural sentiment of emotion called, it is +true, to his pale cheek a momentary flush, as he looked round his +humble apartment, and the evident signs of poverty it contained; but +his address was calm and self-possessed, and whatever mortification he +might have felt, no intonation of his voice, no tell-tale +embarrassment of manner, revealed it. Encouraged by this air, even +while he was secretly vexed by it, and perfectly unable to do justice +to the dignity of mind which gave something of majesty rather than +humiliation to misfortune, Crauford resolved to repeat his visit, and +by intervals, gradually lessening, renewed it, till acquaintance +seemed, though little tinctured, at least on Glendower's side, by +friendship, to assume the semblance of intimacy. It was true, +however, that he had something to struggle against in Glendower's +manner, which certainly grew colder in proportion to the repetition of +the visits; and at length Glendower said, with an ease and quiet which +abashed for a moment an effrontery of mind and manner which was almost +parallel, "Believe me, Mr. Crauford, I feel fully sensible of your +attentions; but as circumstances at present are such as to render an +intercourse between us little congenial to the habits and sentiments +of either, you will probably understand and forgive my motives in +wishing no longer to receive civilities which, however I may feel +them, I am unable to return." + +Crauford coloured and hesitated before he replied. "Forgive me then," +said he, "for my fault. I did venture to hope that no circumstances +would break off an acquaintance to me so valuable. Forgive me if I +did imagine that an intercourse between mind and mind could be equally +carried on, whether the mere body were lodged in a palace or a hovel;" +and then suddenly changing his tone into that of affectionate warmth, +Crauford continued, "My dear Glendower, my dear friend, I would say, +if I durst, is not your pride rather to blame here? Believe me, in my +turn, I fully comprehend and bow to it; but it wounds me beyond +expression. Were you in your proper station, a station much higher +than my own, I would come to you at once, and proffer my friendship: +as it is, I cannot; but your pride wrongs me, Glendower,--indeed it +does." + +And Crauford turned away, apparently in the bitterness of wounded +feeling. + +Glendower was touched: and his nature, as kind as it was proud, +immediately smote him for conduct certainly ungracious and perhaps +ungrateful. He held out his hand to Crauford; with the most +respectful warmth that personage seized and pressed it: and from that +time Crauford's visits appeared to receive a license which, if not +perfectly welcome, was at least never again questioned. + +"I shall have this man now," muttered Crauford, between his ground +teeth, as he left the house, and took his way to his counting-house. +There, cool, bland, fawning, and weaving in his close and dark mind +various speculations of guilt and craft, he sat among his bills and +gold, like the very gnome and personification of that Mammon of gain +to which he was the most supple though concealed adherent. + +Richard Crauford was of a new but not unimportant family. His father +had entered into commerce, and left a flourishing firm and a name of +great respectability in his profession to his son. That son was a man +whom many and opposite qualities rendered a character of very singular +and uncommon stamp. Fond of the laborious acquisition of money, he +was equally attached to the ostentatious pageantries of expense. +Profoundly skilled in the calculating business of his profession, he +was devoted equally to the luxuries of pleasure; but the pleasure was +suited well to the mind which pursued it. The divine intoxication of +that love where the delicacies and purities of affection consecrate +the humanity of passion was to him a thing of which not even his +youngest imagination had ever dreamed. The social concomitants of the +wine-cup (which have for the lenient an excuse, for the austere a +temptation), the generous expanding of the heart, the increased +yearning to kindly affection, the lavish spirit throwing off its +exuberance in the thousand lights and emanations of wit,--these, which +have rendered the molten grape, despite of its excesses, not unworthy +of the praises of immortal hymns, and taken harshness from the +judgment of those averse to its enjoyment,--these never presented an +inducement to the stony temperament and dormant heart of Richard +Crauford. + +He looked upon the essences of things internal as the common eye upon +outward nature, and loved the many shapes of evil as the latter does +the varieties of earth, not for their graces, but their utility. His +loves, coarse and low, fed their rank fires from an unmingled and +gross depravity. His devotion to wine was either solitary and unseen-- +for he loved safety better than mirth--or in company with those whose +station flattered his vanity, not whose fellowship ripened his crude +and nipped affections. Even the recklessness of vice in him had the +character of prudence; and in the most rapid and turbulent stream of +his excesses, one might detect the rocky and unmoved heart of the +calculator at the bottom. + +Cool, sagacious, profound in dissimulation, and not only observant of, +but deducing sage consequences from, those human inconsistencies and +frailties by which it was his aim to profit, he cloaked his deeper +vices with a masterly hypocrisy; and for those too dear to forego and +too difficult to conceal he obtained pardon by the intercession of +virtues it cost him nothing to assume. Regular in his attendance at +worship; professing rigidness of faith beyond the tenets of the +orthodox church; subscribing to the public charities, where the common +eye knoweth what the private hand giveth; methodically constant to the +forms of business; primitively scrupulous in the proprieties of +speech; hospitable, at least to his superiors, and, being naturally +smooth, both of temper and address, popular with his inferiors,--it +was no marvel that one part of the world forgave to a man rich and +young the irregularities of dissipation, that another forgot real +immorality in favour of affected religion, or that the remainder +allowed the most unexceptionable excellence of words to atone for the +unobtrusive errors of a conduct which did not prejudice them. + +"It is true," said his friends, "that he loves women too much: but he +is young; he will marry and amend." + +Mr. Crauford did marry; and, strange as it may seem, for love,--at +least for that brute-like love, of which alone he was capable. After +a few years of ill-usage on his side, and endurance on his wife's, +they parted. Tired of her person, and profiting by her gentleness of +temper, he sent her to an obscure corner of the country, to starve +upon the miserable pittance which was all he allowed her from his +superfluities. Even then--such is the effect of the showy proprieties +of form and word--Mr. Crauford sank not in the estimation of the +world. + +"It was easy to see," said the spectators of his domestic drama, "that +a man in temper so mild, in his business so honourable, so civil of +speech, so attentive to the stocks and the sermon, could not have been +the party to blame. One never knew the rights of matrimonial +disagreements, nor could sufficiently estimate the provoking +disparities of temper. Certainly Mrs. Crauford never did look in good +humour, and had not the open countenance of her husband; and certainly +the very excesses of Mr. Crauford betokened a generous warmth of +heart, which the sullenness of his conjugal partner might easily chill +and revolt." + +And thus, unquestioned and unblamed, Mr. Crauford walked onward in his +beaten way; and, secretly laughing at the toleration of the crowd, +continued at his luxurious villa the orgies of a passionless yet +brutal sensuality. + +So far might the character of Richard Crauford find parallels in +hypocrisy and its success. Dive we now deeper into his soul. +Possessed of talents which, though of a secondary rank, were in that +rank consummate, Mr. Crauford could not be a villain by intuition or +the irregular bias of his nature: he was a villain upon a grander +scale; he was a villain upon system. Having little learning and less +knowledge, out of his profession his reflection expended itself upon +apparently obvious deductions from the great and mysterious book of +life. He saw vice prosperous in externals, and from this sight his +conclusion was drawn. "Vice," said he, "is not an obstacle to +success; and if so, it is at least a pleasanter road to it than your +narrow and thorny ways of virtue." But there are certain vices which +require the mask of virtue, and Crauford thought it easier to wear the +mask than to school his soul to the reality. So to the villain he +added the hypocrite. He found the success equalled his hopes, for he +had both craft and genius; nor was he naturally without the minor +amiabilities, which to the ignorance of the herd seem more valuable +than coin of a more important amount. Blinded as we are by prejudice, +we not only mistake but prefer decencies to moralities; and, like the +inhabitants of Cos, when offered the choice of two statues of the same +goddess, we choose, not that which is the most beautiful, but that +which is the most dressed. + +Accustomed easily to dupe mankind, Crauford soon grew to despise them; +and from justifying roguery by his own interest, he now justified it +by the folly of others; and as no wretch is so unredeemed as to be +without excuse to himself, Crauford actually persuaded his reason that +he was vicious upon principle, and a rascal on a system of morality. +But why the desire of this man, so consummately worldly and heartless, +for an intimacy with the impoverished and powerless student? This +question is easily answered. In the first place, during Crauford's +acquaintance with Glendower abroad, the latter had often, though +innocently, galled the vanity and self-pride of the parvenu affecting +the aristocrat, and in poverty the parvenu was anxious to retaliate. +But this desire would probably have passed away after he had satisfied +his curiosity, or gloated his spite, by one or two insights into +Glendower's home,--for Crauford, though at times a malicious, was not +a vindictive, man,--had it not been for a much more powerful object +which afterwards occurred to him. In an extensive scheme of fraud, +which for many years this man had carried on and which for secrecy and +boldness was almost unequalled, it had of late become necessary to his +safety to have a partner, or rather tool. A man of education, talent, +and courage was indispensable, and Crauford had resolved that +Glendower should be that man. With the supreme confidence in his own +powers which long success had given him; with a sovereign contempt +for, or rather disbelief in, human integrity; and with a thorough +conviction that the bribe to him was the bribe with all, and that none +would on any account be poor if they had the offer to be rich,-- +Crauford did not bestow a moment's consideration upon the difficulty +of his task, or conceive that in the nature and mind of Glendower +there could exist any obstacle to his design. + +Men addicted to calculation are accustomed to suppose those employed +in the same mental pursuit arrive, or ought to arrive, at the same +final conclusion. Now, looking upon Glendower as a philosopher, +Crauford looked upon him as a man who, however he might conceal his +real opinions, secretly laughed, like Crauford's self, not only at the +established customs, but at the established moralities of the world. +Ill-acquainted with books, the worthy Richard was, like all men +similarly situated, somewhat infected by the very prejudices he +affected to despise; and he shared the vulgar disposition to doubt the +hearts of those who cultivate the head. Glendower himself had +confirmed this opinion by lauding, though he did not entirely +subscribe to, those moralists who have made an enlightened self- +interest the proper measure of all human conduct; and Crauford, +utterly unable to comprehend this system in its grand, naturally +interpreted it in a partial, sense. Espousing self-interest as his +own code, he deemed that in reality Glendower's principles did not +differ greatly from his; and, as there is no pleasure to a hypocrite +like that of finding a fit opportunity to unburden some of his real +sentiments, Crauford was occasionally wont to hold some conference and +argument with the student, in which his opinions were not utterly +cloaked in their usual disguise; but cautious even in his candour, he +always forbore stating such opinions as his own: he merely mentioned +them as those which a man beholding the villanies and follies of his +kind, might be tempted to form; and thus Glendower, though not greatly +esteeming his acquaintance, looked upon him as one ignorant in his +opinions, but not likely to err in his conduct. + +These conversations did, however, it is true, increase Crauford's +estimate of Glendower's integrity, but they by no means diminished his +confidence of subduing it. Honour, a deep and pure sense of the +divinity of good, the steady desire of rectitude, and the supporting +aid of a sincere religion,--these he did not deny to his intended +tool: he rather rejoiced that he possessed them. With the profound +arrogance, the sense of immeasurable superiority, which men of no +principle invariably feel for those who have it, Crauford said to +himself, "Those very virtues will be my best dupes; they cannot resist +the temptations I shall offer; but they can resist any offer to betray +me afterwards; for no man can resist hunger: but your fine feelings, +your nice honour, your precise religion,--he! he! he!--these can teach +a man very well to resist a common inducement; they cannot make him +submit to be his own executioner; but they can prevent his turning +king's evidence and being executioner to another. No, no: it is not +to your common rogues that I may dare trust my secret,--my secret, +which is my life! It is precisely of such a fine, Athenian, moral +rogue as I shall make my proud friend that I am in want. But he has +some silly scruples; we must beat them away: we must not be too rash; +and above all, we must leave the best argument to poverty. Want is +your finest orator; a starving wife, a famished brat,--he! he!--these +are your true tempters,--your true fathers of crime, and fillers of +jails and gibbets. Let me see: he has no money, I know, but what he +gets from that bookseller. What bookseller, by the by? Ah, rare +thought! I'll find out, and cut off that supply. My lady wife's +cheek will look somewhat thinner next month, I fancy--he! he! But 't +is a pity, for she is a glorious creature! Who knows but I may serve +two purposes? However, one at present! business first, and pleasure +afterwards; and, faith, the business is damnably like that of life and +death." + +Muttering such thoughts as these, Crauford took his way one evening to +Glendower's house. + + + + +CHAPTER XLII. + +Iago.--Virtue; a fig!--'t is in ourselves that we are thus and thus.-- +Othello. + +"So, so, my little one, don't let me disturb you. Madam, dare I +venture to hope your acceptance of this fruit? I chose it myself, and +I am somewhat of a judge. Oh! Glendower, here is the pamphlet you +wished to see." + +With this salutation, Crauford drew his chair to the table by which +Glendower sat, and entered into conversation with his purposed victim. +A comely and a pleasing countenance had Richard Crauford! the lonely +light of the room fell upon a face which, though forty years of guile +had gone over it, was as fair and unwrinkled as a boy's. Small, well- +cut features; a blooming complexion; eyes of the lightest blue; a +forehead high, though narrow; and a mouth from which the smile was +never absent,--these, joined to a manner at once soft and confident, +and an elegant though unaffected study of dress, gave to Crauford a +personal appearance well suited to aid the effect of his hypocritical +and dissembling mind. + +"Well, my friend," said he, "always at your books, eh? Ah! it is a +happy taste; would that I had cultivated it more; but we who are +condemned to business have little leisure to follow our own +inclinations. It is only on Sundays that I have time to read; and +then (to say truth) I am an old-fashioned man, whom the gayer part of +the world laughs at, and then I am too occupied with the Book of Books +to think of any less important study." + +Not deeming that a peculiar reply was required to this pious speech, +Glendower did not take that advantage of Crauford's pause which it was +evidently intended that he should. With a glance towards the +student's wife, our mercantile friend continued: "I did once--once in +my young dreams--intend that whenever I married I would relinquish a +profession for which, after all, I am but little calculated. I +pictured to myself a country retreat, well stored with books; and +having concentrated in one home all the attractions which would have +tempted my thoughts abroad, I had designed to surrender myself solely +to those studies which, I lament to say, were but ill attended to in +my earlier education. But--but" (here Mr. Crauford sighed deeply, and +averted his face) "fate willed it otherwise!" + +Whatever reply of sympathetic admiration or condolence Glendower might +have made was interrupted by one of those sudden and overpowering +attacks of faintness which had of late seized the delicate and +declining health of his wife. He rose, and leaned over her with a +fondness and alarm which curled the lip of his visitor. + +"Thus it is," said Crauford to himself, "with weak minds, under the +influence of habit. The love of lust becomes the love of custom, and +the last is as strong as the first." + +When--she had recovered, she rose, and (with her child) retired to +rest, the only restorative she ever found effectual for her complaint. +Glendower went with her, and, after having seen her eyes, which swam +with tears of gratitude at his love, close in the seeming slumber she +affected in order to release him from his watch, he returned to +Crauford. He found that gentleman leaning against the chimney-piece +with folded arms, and apparently immersed in thought. A very good +opportunity had Glendower's absence afforded to a man whose boast it +was never to lose one. Looking over the papers on the table, he had +seen and possessed himself of the address of the bookseller the +student dealt with. "So much for business, now for philanthropy," +said Mr. Crauford, in his favorite antithetical phrase, throwing +himself in his attitude against the chimney-piece. + +As Glendower entered, Crauford started from his revery, and with a +melancholy air and pensive voice said,-- + +"Alas, my friend, when I look upon this humble apartment, the weak +health of your unequalled wife, your obscurity, your misfortunes; when +I look upon these, and contrast them with your mind, your talents, and +all that you were born and fitted for, I cannot but feel tempted to +believe with those who imagine the pursuit of virtue a chimera, and +who justify their own worldly policy by the example of all their +kind." + +"Virtue," said Glendower, "would indeed be a chimera, did it require +support from those whom you have cited." + +"True,--most true," answered Crauford, somewhat disconcerted in +reality, though not in appearance; "and yet, strange as it may seem, I +have known some of those persons very good, admirably good men. They +were extremely moral and religious: they only played the great game +for worldly advantage upon the same terms as the other players; nay, +they never made a move in it without most fervently and sincerely +praying for divine assistance." + +"I readily believe you," said Glendower, who always, if possible, +avoided a controversy: "the easiest person to deceive is one's own +self." + +"Admirably said," answered Crauford, who thought it nevertheless one +of the most foolish observations he had ever heard, "admirably said! +and yet my heart does grieve bitterly for the trials and distresses it +surveys. One must make excuses for poor human frailty; and one is +often placed in such circumstances as to render it scarcely possible +without the grace of God" (here Crauford lifted up his eyes) "not to +be urged, as it were, into the reasonings and actions of the world." + +Not exactly comprehending this observation, and not very closely +attending to it, Glendower merely bowed, as in assent, and Crauford +continued,-- + +"I remember a remarkable instance of this truth. One of my partner's +clerks had, through misfortune or imprudence, fallen into the greatest +distress. His wife, his children (he had a numerous family), were on +the literal and absolute verge of starvation. Another clerk, taking +advantage of these circumstances, communicated to the distressed man a +plan for defrauding his employer. The poor fellow yielded to the +temptation, and was at last discovered. I spoke to him myself, for I +was interested in his fate, and had always esteemed him. 'What,' said +I, 'was your motive for this fraud?' 'My duty!' answered the man, +fervently; 'my duty! Was I to suffer my wife, my children, to starve +before my face, when I could save them at a little personal risk? No: +my duty forbade it!' and in truth, Glendower, there was something very +plausible in this manner of putting the question." + +"You might, in answering it," said Glendower, "have put the point in a +manner equally plausible and more true: was he to commit a great crime +against the millions connected by social order, for the sake of +serving a single family, and that his own?" + +"Quite right," answered Crauford: "that was just the point of view in +which I did put it; but the man, who was something of a reasoner, +replied, 'Public law is instituted for public happiness. Now if mine +and my children's happiness is infinitely and immeasurably more served +by this comparatively petty fraud than my employer's is advanced by my +abstaining from, or injured by my committing it, why, the origin of +law itself allows me to do it.' What say you to that, Glendower? It +is something in your Utilitarian, or, as you term it, Epicurean [See +the article on Mr. Moore's "Epicurean" in the "Westminster Review." +Though the strictures on that work are harsh and unjust, yet the part +relating to the real philosophy of Epicurus is one of the most +masterly things in criticism.] principle; is it not?" and Crauford, +shading his eyes, as if from the light, watched narrowly Glendower's +countenance, while he concealed his own. + +"Poor fool!" said Glendower; "the man was ignorant of the first lesson +in his moral primer. Did he not know that no rule is to be applied to +a peculiar instance, but extended to its most general bearings? Is it +necessary even to observe that the particular consequence of fraud in +this man might, it is true, be but the ridding his employer of +superfluities, scarcely missed, for the relief of most urgent want in +two or three individuals; but the general consequences of fraud and +treachery would be the disorganization of all society? Do not think, +therefore, that this man was a disciple of my, or of any, system of +morality." + +"It is very just, very," said Mr. Crauford, with a benevolent sigh; +"but you will own that want seldom allows great nicety in moral +distinctions, and that when those whom you love most in the world are +starving, you may be pitied, if not forgiven, for losing sight of the +after laws of Nature and recurring to her first ordinance, self- +preservation." + +"We should be harsh, indeed," answered Glendower, "if we did not pity; +or, even while the law condemned, if the individual did not forgive." + +"So I said, so I said," cried Crauford; "and in interceding for the +poor fellow, whose pardon I am happy to say I procured, I could not +help declaring that, if I were placed in the same circumstances, I am +not sure that my crime would not have been the same." + +"No man could feel sure!" said Glendower, dejectedly. Delighted and +surprised with this confession, Crauford continued: "I believe,--I +fear not; thank God, our virtue can never be so tried: but even you, +Glendower, even you, philosopher, moralist as you are,--just, good, +wise, religious,--even you might be tempted, if you saw your angel +wife dying for want of the aid, the very sustenance, necessary to +existence, and your innocent and beautiful daughter stretch her little +hands to you and cry in the accents of famine for bread." + +The student made no reply for a few moments, but averted his +countenance, and then in a slow tone said, "Let us drop this subject: +none know their strength till they are tried; self-confidence should +accompany virtue, but not precede it." + +A momentary flash broke from the usually calm, cold eye of Richard +Crauford. "He is mine," thought he: "the very name of want abases his +pride: what will the reality do? O human nature, how I know and mock +thee!" + +"You are right," said Crauford, aloud; "let us talk of the pamphlet." + +And after a short conversation upon indifferent subjects, the visitor +departed. Early the next morning was Mr. Crauford seen on foot, +taking his way to the bookseller whose address he had learnt. The +bookseller was known as a man of a strongly evangelical bias. "We +must insinuate a lie or two," said Crauford, inly, "about Glendower's +principles. He! he! it will be a fine stroke of genius to make the +upright tradesman suffer Glendower to starve out of a principle of +religion. But who would have thought my prey had been so easily +snared? why, if I had proposed the matter last night, I verily think +he would have agreed to it." + +Amusing himself with these thoughts, Crauford arrived at the +bookseller's. There he found Fate had saved him from one crime at +least. The whole house was in confusion: the bookseller had that +morning died of an apoplectic fit. + +"Good God! how shocking!" said Crauford to the foreman; but he was a +most worthy man, and Providence could no longer spare him. The ways +of Heaven are inscrutable! Oblige me with three copies of that +precious tract termed the 'Divine Call.' I should like to be allowed +permission to attend the funeral of so excellent a man. Good morning, +sir. Alas! alas!" and, shaking his head piteously, Mr. Crauford left +the shop. + +"Hurra!" said he, almost audibly, when he was once more in the street, +"hurra! my victim is made; my game is won: death or the devil fights +for me. But, hold: there are other booksellers in this monstrous +city!--ay, but not above two or three in our philosopher's way. I +must forestall him there,--so, so,--that is soon settled. Now, then, +I must leave him a little while, undisturbed, to his fate. Perhaps my +next visit may be to him in jail: your debtor's side of the Fleet is +almost as good a pleader as an empty stomach,--he! he! He!--but the +stroke must be made soon, for time presses, and this d--d business +spreads so fast that if I don't have a speedy help, it will be too +much for my hands, griping as they are. However, if it holds on a +year longer, I will change my seat in the Lower House for one in the +Upper; twenty thousand pounds to the minister may make a merchant a +very pretty peer. O brave Richard Crauford, wise Richard Crauford, +fortunate Richard Crauford, noble Richard Crauford! Why, if thou art +ever hanged, it will be by a jury of peers. 'Gad, the rope would then +have a dignity in it, instead of disgrace. But stay, here comes the +Dean of ----; not orthodox, it is said,--rigid Calvinist! out with the +'Divine Call'!" + +When Mr. Richard Crauford repaired next to Glendower, what was his +astonishment and dismay at hearing he had left his home, none knew +whither nor could give the inquirer the slightest clew. + +"How long has he left?" said Crauford to the landlady. + +"Five days, sir." + +"And will he not return to settle any little debts he may have +incurred?" said Crauford. + +"Oh, no, sir: he paid them all before he went. Poor gentleman,--for +though he was poor, he was the finest and most thorough gentleman I +ever saw!--my heart bled for him. They parted with all their +valuables to discharge their debts: the books and instruments and +busts,--all went; and what I saw, though he spoke so indifferently +about it, hurt him the most,--he sold even the lady's picture. 'Mrs. +Croftson,' said he, 'Mr. ----, the painter, will send for that picture +the day after I leave you. See that he has it, and that the greatest +care is taken of it in delivery.'" + +"And you cannot even guess where he has gone to?" + +"No, sir; a single porter was sufficient to convey his remaining +goods, and he took him from some distant part of the town." + +"Ten thousand devils!" muttered Crauford, as he turned away; "I should +have foreseen this! He is lost now. Of course he will again change +his name; and in the d--d holes and corners of this gigantic puzzle of +houses, how shall I ever find him out? and time presses too! Well, +well, well! there is a fine prize for being cleverer, or, as fools +would say, more rascally than others; but there is a world of trouble +in winning it. But come; I will go home, lock myself up, and get +drunk! I am as melancholy as a cat in love, and about as stupid; and, +faith, one must get spirits in order to hit on a new invention. But +if there be consistency in fortune, or success in perseverance, or wit +in Richard Crauford, that man shall yet be my victim--and preserver!" + + + + +CHAPTER XLIII. + + Revenge is now the cud + That I do chew.--I'll challenge him. + BEAUMONT AND FLETCHER. + +We return to "the world of fashion," as the admirers of the polite +novel of would say. The noon-day sun broke hot and sultry through +half-closed curtains of roseate silk, playing in broken beams upon +rare and fragrant exotics, which cast the perfumes of southern summers +over a chamber, moderate, indeed, as to its dimensions, but decorated +with a splendour rather gaudy than graceful, and indicating much more +a passion for luxury than a refinement of taste. + +At a small writing-table sat the beautiful La Meronville. She had +just finished a note, written (how Jean Jacques would have been +enchanted) upon paper couleur de rose, with a mother-of-pearl pen, +formed as one of Cupid's darts, dipped into an ink-stand of the same +material, which was shaped as a quiver, and placed at the back of a +little Love, exquisitely wrought. She was folding this billet when a +page, fantastically dressed, entered, and, announcing Lord Borodaile, +was immediately followed by that nobleman. Eagerly and almost +blushingly did La Meronville thrust the note into her bosom, and +hasten to greet and to embrace her adorer. Lord Borodaile flung +himself on one of the sofas with a listless and discontented air. The +experienced Frenchwoman saw that there was a cloud on his brow. + +"My dear friend," said she, in her own tongue, "you seem vexed: has +anything annoyed you?" + +"No, Cecile, no. By the by, who supped with you last night?" + +"Oh! the Duke of Haverfield, your friend." + +"My friend!" interrupted Borodaile, haughtily: "he's no friend of +mine; a vulgar, talkative fellow; my friend, indeed!" + +"Well, I beg your pardon: then there was Mademoiselle Caumartin, and +the Prince Pietro del Orbino, and Mr. Trevanion, and Mr. Lin--Lin-- +Linten, or Linden." + +"And pray, will you allow me to ask how you became acquainted with Mr. +Lin--Lin--Linten, or Linden?" + +"Assuredly; through the Duke of Haverfield." + +"Humph! Cecile, my love, that young man is not fit to be the +acquaintance of my friend: allow me to strike him from your list." + +"Certainly, certainly!" said La Meronville, hastily; and stooping as +if to pick up a fallen glove, though, in reality, to hide her face +from Lord Borodaile's searching eye, the letter she had written fell +from her bosom. Lord Borodaile's glance detected the superscription, +and before La Meronville could regain the note he had possessed +himself of it. + +"A Monsieur, Monsieur Linden!" said he, coldly, reading the address; +"and, pray, how long have you corresponded with that gentleman?" + +Now La Meronville's situation at that moment was by no means +agreeable. She saw at one glance that no falsehood or artifice could +avail her; for Lord Borodaile might deem himself fully justified in +reading the note, which would contradict any glossing statement she +might make. She saw this. She was a woman of independence; cared not +a straw for Lord Borodaile at present, though she had had a caprice +for him; knew that she might choose her bon ami out of all London, and +replied,-- + +"That is the first letter I ever wrote to him; but I own that it will +not be the last." + +Lord Borodaile turned pale. + +"And will you suffer me to read it?" said he; for even in these cases +he was punctiliously honourable. + +La Meronville hesitated. She did not know him. "If I do not +consent," thought she, "he will do it without the consent: better +submit with a good grace.--Certainly!" she answered, with an air of +indifference. + +Borodaile opened and read the note; it was as follows:-- + +You have inspired me with a feeling for you which astonishes myself. +Ah, why should that love be the strongest which is the swiftest in its +growth? I used to love Lord Borodaile: I now only esteem him; the +love has flown to you. If I judge rightly from your words and your +eyes, this avowal will not be unwelcome to you. Come and assure me, +in person, of a persuasion so dear to my heart. C. L. M. + +"A very pretty effusion!" said Lord Borodaile, sarcastically, and only +showing his inward rage by the increasing paleness of his complexion +and a slight compression of his lip. "I thank you for your confidence +in me. All I ask is that you will not send this note till to-morrow. +Allow me to take my leave of you first, and to find in Mr. Linden a +successor rather than a rival." + +"Your request, my friend," said La Meronville, adjusting her hair, "is +but reasonable. I see that you understand these arrangements; and, +for my part, I think that the end of love should always be the +beginning of friendship: let it be so with us!" + +"You do me too much honour," said Borodaile, bowing profoundly. +"Meanwhile I depend upon your promise, and bid you, as a lover, +farewell forever." + +With his usual slow step Lord Borodaile descended the stairs, and +walked towards the central quartier of town. His meditations were of +no soothing nature. "To be seen by that man in a ridiculous and +degrading situation; to be pestered with his d--d civility; to be +rivalled by him with Lady Flora; to be duped and outdone by him with +my mistress! Ay, all this have I been; but vengeance shall come yet. +As for La Meronville, the loss is a gain; and, thank Heaven, I did not +betray myself by venting my passion and making a scene. But it was I. +who ought to have discarded her, not the reverse; and--death and +confusion--for that upstart, above all men! And she talked in her +letter about his eyes and words. Insolent coxcomb, to dare to have +eyes and words for one who belonged to me. Well, well, he shall smart +for this. But let me consider: I must not play the jealous fool, must +not fight for a ----, must not show the world that a man, nobody knows +who, could really outwit and outdo me,--me,--Francis Borodaile! No, +no: I must throw the insult upon him, must myself be the aggressor and +the challenged; then, too, I shall have the choice of weapons,-- +pistols of course. Where shall I hit him, by the by? I wish I shot +as well as I used to do at Naples. I was in full practice then. +Cursed place, where there was nothing else to do but to practise!" + +Immersed in these or somewhat similar reflections did Lord Borodaile +enter Pall Mall. + +"Ah, Borodaile!" said Lord St. George, suddenly emerging from a shop. +"This is really fortunate: you are going my way exactly; allow me to +join you." + +Now Lord Borodaile, to say nothing of his happening at that time to be +in a mood more than usually unsocial, could never at any time bear the +thought of being made an instrument of convenience, pleasure, or good +fortune to another. He therefore, with a little resentment at Lord +St. George's familiarity, coldly replied, "I am sorry that I cannot +avail myself of your offer. I am sure my way is not the same as +yours." + +"Then," replied Lord St. George, who was a good-natured, indolent man, +who imagined everybody was as averse to walking alone as he was, "then +I will make mine the same as yours." + +Borodaile coloured: though always uncivil, he did not like to be +excelled in good manners; and therefore replied, that nothing but +extreme business at White's could have induced him to prefer his own +way to that of Lord St. George. + +The good-natured peer took Lord Borodaile's arm. It was a natural +incident, but it vexed the punctilious viscount that any man should +take, not offer, the support. + +"So, they say," observed Lord St. George, "that young Linden is to +marry Lady Flora Ardenne." + +"Les on-dits font la gazette des fous," rejoined Borodaile with a +sneer. "I believe that Lady Flora is little likely to contract such a +misalliance." + +"Misalliance!" replied Lord St. George. "I thought Linden was of a +very old family; which you know the Westboroughs are not, and he has +great expectations--" + +"Which are never to be realized," interrupted Borodaile, laughing +scornfully. + +"Ah, indeed!" said Lord St. George, seriously. "Well, at all events +he is a very agreeable, unaffected young man: and, by the by, +Borodaile, you will meet him chez moi to-day; you know you dine with +me?" + +"Meet Mr. Linden! I shall be proud to have that honour," said +Borodaile, with sparkling eyes; "will Lady Westborough be also of the +party?" + +"No, poor Lady St. George is very ill, and I have taken the +opportunity to ask only men." + +"You have done wisely, my lord," said Borodaile, secum multa +revolvens; "and I assure you I wanted no hint to remind me of your +invitation." + +Here the Duke of Haverfield joined them. The duke never bowed to any +one of the male sex; he therefore nodded to Borodaile, who, with a +very supercilious formality, took off his hat in returning the +salutation. The viscount had at least this merit in his pride,--that +if it was reserved to the humble, it was contemptuous to the high: his +inferiors he wished to remain where they were; his equals he longed to +lower. + +"So I dine with you, Lord St. George, to-day," said the duke; "whom +shall I meet?" + +"Lord Borodaile, for one," answered St. George; "my brother, Aspeden, +Findlater, Orbino, and Linden." + +"Linden!" cried the duke; "I'm very glad to hear it, c'est un homme +fait expres pour moi. He is very clever, and not above playing the +fool; has humour without setting up for a wit, and is a good fellow +without being a bad man. I like him excessively." + +"Lord St. George;" said Borodaile, who seemed that day to be the very +martyr of the unconscious Clarence, "I wish you good morning. I have +only just remembered an engagement which I must keep before I go to +White's." + +And with a bow to the duke, and a remonstrance from Lord St. George, +Borodaile effected his escape. His complexion was, insensibly to +himself, more raised than usual, his step more stately; his mind, for +the first time for years, was fully excited and engrossed. Ah, what a +delightful thing it is for an idle man, who has been dying of ennui, +to find an enemy! + + + + +CHAPTER XLIV. + + You must challenge him + There's no avoiding; one or both must drop. + BEAUMONT AND FLETCHER. + +"Ha! ha! ha! bravo, Linden!" cried Lord St. George, from the head of +his splendid board, in approbation of some witticism of Clarence's; +and ha! ha! ha! or he! he! he! according to the cachinnatory +intonations of the guests rang around. + +"Your lordship seems unwell," said Lord Aspeden to Borodaile; "allow +me to take wine with you." + +Lord Borodaile bowed his assent. + +"Pray," said Mr. St. George to Clarence, "have you seen my friend +Talbot lately?" + +"This very morning," replied Linden: "indeed, I generally visit him +three or four times a week; he often asks after you." + +"Indeed!" said Mr. St. George, rather flattered; "he does me much +honour; but he is a distant connection of mine, and I suppose I must +attribute his recollection of me to that cause. He is a near relation +of yours, too, I think: is he not?" + +"I am related to him," answered Clarence, colouring. + +Lord Borodaile leaned forward, and his lip curled. Though, in some +respects, a very unamiable man, he had, as we have said, his good +points. He hated a lie as much as Achilles did; and he believed in +his heart of hearts that Clarence had just uttered one. + +"Why," observed Lord Aspeden, "why, Lord Borodaile, the Talbots of +Scarsdale are branches of your genealogical tree; therefore your +lordship must be related to Linden; "you are two cherries on one +stalk'!" + +"We are by no means related," said Lord Borodaile, with a distinct and +clear voice, intended expressly for Clarence; "that is an honour which +I must beg leave most positively to disclaim." + +There was a dead silence; the eyes of all who heard a remark so +intentionally rude were turned immediately towards Clarence. His +cheek burned like fire; he hesitated a moment, and then said, in the +same key, though with a little trembling in his intonation,-- + +"Lord Borodaile cannot be more anxious to disclaim it than I am." + +"And yet," returned the viscount, stung to the soul, "they who advance +false pretensions ought at least to support them!" + +"I do not understand you, my lord," said Clarence. + +"Possibly not," answered Borodaile, carelessly: "there is a maxim +which says that people not accustomed to speak truth cannot comprehend +it in others." + +Unlike the generality of modern heroes, who are always in a passion,-- +off-hand, dashing fellows, in whom irascibility is a virtue,--Clarence +was peculiarly sweet-tempered by nature, and had, by habit, acquired a +command over all his passions to a degree very uncommon in so young a +man. He made no reply to the inexcusable affront he had received. +His lip quivered a little, and the flush of his countenance was +succeeded by an extreme paleness; this was all: he did not even leave +the room immediately, but waited till the silence was broken by some +well-bred member of the party; and then, pleading an early engagement +as an excuse for his retiring so soon, he rose and departed. + +There was throughout the room a universal feeling of sympathy with the +affront and indignation against the offender; for, to say nothing of +Clarence's popularity and the extreme dislike in which Lord Borodaile +was held, there could be no doubt as to the wantonness of the outrage +or the moderation of the aggrieved party. Lord Borodaile already felt +the punishment of his offence: his very pride, while it rendered him +indifferent to the spirit, had hitherto kept him scrupulous as to the +formalities of social politeness; and he could not but see the +grossness with which he had suffered himself to violate them and the +light in which his conduct was regarded. However, this internal +discomfort only rendered him the more embittered against Clarence and +the more confirmed in his revenge. Resuming, by a strong effort, all +the external indifference habitual to his manner, he attempted to +enter into a conversation with those of the party who were next to him +but his remarks produced answers brief and cold; even Lord Aspeden +forgot his diplomacy and his smile; Lord St. George replied to his +observations by a monosyllable; and the Duke of Haverfield, for the +first time in his life, asserted the prerogative which his rank gave +him of setting the example,--his grace did not reply to Lord Borodaile +at all. In truth, every one present was seriously displeased. All +civilized societies have a paramount interest in repressing the rude. +Nevertheless, Lord Borodaile bore the brunt of his unpopularity with a +steadiness and unembarrassed composure worthy of a better cause; and +finding, at last, a companion disposed to be loquacious in the person +of Sir Christopher Findlater (whose good heart, though its first +impulse resented more violently than that of any heart present the +discourtesy of the viscount, yet soon warmed to the desagremens of his +situation, and hastened to adopt its favourite maxim of forgive and +forget), Lord Borodaile sat the meeting out; and if he did not leave +the latest, he was at least not the first to follow Clarence: +"L'orgueil ou donne le courage, ou il y supplee." ["Pride either +gives courage or supplies the place of it."] + +Meanwhile Linden had returned to his solitary home. He hastened to +his room, locked the door, flung himself on his sofa, and burst into a +violent and almost feminine paroxysm of tears. This fit lasted for +more than an hour; and when Clarence at length stilled the indignant +swellings of his heart, and rose from his supine position, he started, +as his eye fell upon the opposite mirror, so haggard and exhausted +seemed the forced and fearful calmness of his countenance. With a +hurried step; with arms now folded on his bosom, now wildly tossed +from him; and the hand so firmly clenched that the very bones seemed +working through the skin; with a brow now fierce, now only dejected; +and a complexion which one while burnt as with the crimson flush of a +fever, and at another was wan and colourless, like his whose cheek a +spectre has blanched,--Clarence paced his apartment, the victim not +only of shame,--the bitterest of tortures to a young and high mind,-- +but of other contending feelings, which alternately exasperated and +palsied his wrath, and gave to his resolves at one moment an almost +savage ferocity and at the next an almost cowardly vacillation. + +The clock had just struck the hour of twelve when a knock at the door +announced a visitor. Steps were heard on the stairs and presently a +tap at Clarence's room-door. He unlocked it and the Duke of +Haverfield entered. "I am charmed to find you at home," cried the +duke, with his usual half kind, half careless address. "I was +determined to call upon you, and be the first to offer my services in +this unpleasant affair." + +Clarence pressed the duke's hand, but made no answer. + +"Nothing could be so unhandsome as Lord Borodaile's conduct," +continued the duke. "I hope you both fence and shoot well. I shall +never forgive you, if you do not put an end to that piece of +rigidity." + +Clarence continued to walk about the room in great agitation; the duke +looked at him with some surprise. At last Linden paused by the +window, and said, half unconsciously, "It must be so: I cannot avoid +fighting!" + +"Avoid fighting!" cried his grace, in undisguised astonishment. "No, +indeed: but that is the least part of the matter; you must kill as +well as fight him." + +"Kill him!" cried Clarence, wildly, "whom?" and then sinking into a +chair, he covered his face with his hands for a few moments, and +seemed to struggle with his emotions. + +"Well," thought the duke, "I never was more mistaken in my life. I +could have bet my black horse against Trevanion's Julia, which is +certainly the most worthless thing I know, that Linden had been a +brave fellow: but these English heroes almost go into fits at a duel; +one manages such things, as Sterne says, better in France." + +Clarence now rose, calm and collected. He sat down; wrote a brief +note to Borodaile, demanding the fullest apology, or the earliest +meeting; put it into the duke's hands, and said with a faint smile, +"My dear duke, dare I ask you to be a second to a man who has been so +grievously affronted and whose genealogy has been so disputed?" + +"My dear Linden," said the duke, warmly, "I have always been grateful +to my station in life for this advantage,--the freedom with which it +has enabled me to select my own acquaintance and to follow my own +pursuits. I am now more grateful to it than ever, because it has +given me a better opportunity than I should otherwise have had of +serving one whom I have always esteemed. In entering into your +quarrel I shall at least show the world that there are some men not +inferior in pretensions to Lord Borodaile who despise arrogance and +resent overbearance even to others. Your cause I consider the common +cause of society; but I shall take it up, if you will allow me, with +the distinguishing zeal of a friend." + +Clarence, who was much affected by the kindness of this speech, +replied in a similar vein; and the duke, having read and approved the +letter, rose. "There is, in my opinion," said he, "no time to be +lost. I will go to Borodaile this very evening: adieu, mon cher! you +shall kill the Argus, and then carry off the Io. I feel in a double +passion with that ambulating poker, who is only malleable when he is +red-hot, when I think how honourably scrupulous you were with La +Meronville last night, notwithstanding all her advances; but I go to +bury Caesar, not to scold him. Au revoir." + + + + +Chapter XLV. + +Conon.--You're well met, Crates. +Crates.--If we part so, Conon.-Queen of Corinth. + +It was as might be expected from the character of the aggressor. Lord +Borodaile refused all apology, and agreed with avidity to a speedy +rendezvous. He chose pistols (choice, then, was not merely nominal), +and selected Mr. Percy Bobus for his second, a gentleman who was much +fonder of acting in that capacity than in the more honourable one of a +principal. The author of "Lacon" says "that if all seconds were as +averse to duels as their principals, there would be very little blood +spilt in that way;" and it was certainly astonishing to compare the +zeal with which Mr. Bobus busied himself about this "affair" with that +testified by him on another occasion when he himself was more +immediately concerned. + +The morning came. Mr. Bobus breakfasted with his friend. "Damn it, +Borodaile," said he, as the latter was receiving the ultimate polish +of the hairdresser, "I never saw you look better in my life. It will +be a great pity if that fellow shoots you." + +"Shoots me!" said Lord Borodaile, very quietly,--"me! no! that is +quite out of the question; but joking apart, Bobus, I will not kill +the young man. Where shall I hit him?" + +"In the cap of the knee," said Mr. Percy, breaking an egg. + +"Nay, that will lame him for life," said Lord Borodaile, putting on +his cravat with peculiar exactitude. + +"Serve him right," said Mr. Bobus. "Hang him, I never got up so early +in my life: it is quite impossible to eat at this hour. Oh!--a +propos, Borodaile, have you left any little memoranda for me to +execute?" + +"Memoranda!--for what?" said Borodaile, who had now just finished his +toilet. + +"Oh!" rejoined Mr. Percy Bobus, "in case of accident, you know: the +man may shoot well, though I never saw him in the gallery." + +"Pray," said Lord Borodaile, in a great though suppressed passion, +"pray, Mr. Bobus, how often have I to tell you that it is not by Mr. +Linden that my days are to terminate: you are sure that Carabine saw +to that trigger?" + +"Certain," said Mr. Percy, with his mouth full, "certain. Bless me, +here's the carriage, and breakfast not half done yet." + +"Come, come," cried Borodaile, impatiently, "we must breakfast +afterwards. Here, Roberts, see that we have fresh chocolate and some +more cutlets when we return." + +"I would rather have them now," said Mr. Bobus, foreseeing the +possibility of the return being single: "Ibis! redibis?" etc. + +"Come, we have not a moment to lose," exclaimed Borodaile, hastening +down the stairs; and Mr. Percy Bobus followed, with a strange mixture +of various regrets, partly for the breakfast that was lost and partly +for the friend that might be. + +When they arrived at the ground, Clarence and the duke were already +there: the latter, who was a dead shot, had fully persuaded himself +that Clarence was equally adroit, and had, in his providence for +Borodaile, brought a surgeon. This was a circumstance of which the +viscount, in the plenitude of his confidence for himself and +indifference for his opponent, had never once dreamed. + +The ground was measured; the parties were about to take the ground. +All Linden's former agitation had vanished; his mien was firm, grave, +and determined: but he showed none of the careless and fierce +hardihood which characterized his adversary; on the contrary, a close +observer might have remarked something sad and dejected amidst all the +tranquillity and steadiness of his brow and air. + +"For Heaven's sake," whispered the duke, as he withdrew from the spot, +"square your body a little more to your left and remember your exact +level. Borodaile is much shorter than you." + +There was a brief, dread pause: the signal was given; Borodaile fired; +his ball pierced Clarence's side; the wounded man staggered one step, +but fell not. He raised his pistol; the duke bent eagerly forward; an +expression of disappointment and surprise passed his lips; Clarence +had fired in the air. The next moment Linden felt a deadly sickness +come over him; he fell into the arms of the surgeon. Borodaile, +touched by a forbearance which he had so little right to expect, +hastened to the spot. He leaned over his adversary in greater remorse +and pity than he would have readily confessed to himself. Clarence +unclosed his eyes; they dwelt for one moment upon the subdued and +earnest countenance of Borodaile. + +"Thank God," he said faintly, "that you were not the victim," and with +those words he fell back insensible. They carried him to his +lodgings. His wound was accurately examined. Though not mortal, it +was of a dangerous nature; and the surgeons ended a very painful +operation by promising a very lingering recovery. + +What a charming satisfaction for being insulted! + + + + +CHAPTER XLVI. + +Je me contente de ce qui peut s'ecrire, et je reve tout ce qui peut se +rever.--DE SEVIGNE. + +["I content myself with writing what I am able, and I dream all I +possibly can dream."] + + +About a week after his wound, and the second morning of his return to +sense and consciousness, when Clarence opened his eyes, they fell upon +a female form seated watchfully and anxiously by his bedside. He +raised himself in mute surprise, and the figure, startled by the +motion, rose, drew the curtain, and vanished. With great difficulty +he rang his bell. His valet, Harrison, on whose mind, though it was +of no very exalted order, the kindness and suavity of his master had +made a great impression, instantly appeared. + +"Who was that lady?" asked Linden. "How came she here?" + +Harrison smiled: "Oh, sir, pray please to lie down, and make yourself +easy: the lady knows you very well and would come here; she insists +upon staying in the house, so we made up a bed in the drawing-room and +she has watched by you night and day. She speaks very little English +to be sure, but your honour knows, begging your pardon, how well I +speak French." + +"French?" said Clarence, faintly,--"French? In Heaven's name, who is +she?" + +"A Madame--Madame--La Melonveal, or some such name, sir," said the +valet. + +Clarence fell back. At that moment his hand was pressed. He turned, +and saw Talbot by his side. The kind old man had not suffered La +Meronville to be Linden's only nurse: notwithstanding his age and +peculiarity of habits, he had fixed his abode all the day in +Clarence's house, and at night, instead of returning to his own home, +had taken up his lodgings at the nearest hotel. + +With a jealous and anxious eye to the real interest and respectability +of his adopted son, Talbot had exerted all his address, and even all +his power, to induce La Meronville, who had made her settlement +previous to Talbot's, to quit the house, but in vain. With that +obstinacy which a Frenchwoman when she is sentimental mistakes for +nobility of heart, the ci-devant amante of Lord Borodaile insisted +upon watching and tending one of whose sufferings she said and +believed she was the unhappy though innocent cause: and whenever more +urgent means of removal were hinted at La Meronville flew to the +chamber of her beloved, apostrophized him in a strain worthy of one of +D'Arlincourt's heroines, and in short was so unreasonably outrageous +that the doctors, trembling for the safety of their patient, obtained +from Talbot a forced and reluctant acquiescence in the settlement she +had obtained. + +Ah! what a terrible creature a Frenchwoman is, when, instead of +coquetting with a caprice, she insists upon conceiving a grande +passion. Little, however, did Clarence, despite his vexation when he +learned of the bienveillance of La Meronville, foresee the whole +extent of the consequences it would entail upon him: still less did +Talbot, who in his seclusion knew not the celebrity of the handsome +adventuress, calculate upon the notoriety of her motions or the ill +effect her ostentatious attachment would have upon Clarence's +prosperity as a lover to Lady Flora. In order to explain these +consequences the more fully, let us, for the present, leave our hero +to the care of the surgeon, his friends, and his would-be mistress; +and while he is more rapidly recovering than the doctors either hoped +or presaged, let us renew our acquaintance with a certain fair +correspondent. + +LETTER FROM THE LADY FLORA ARDENNE TO MISS ELEANOR TREVANION. + +My Dearest Eleanor,--I have been very ill, or you would sooner have +received an answer to your kind,-too kind and consoling letter. +Indeed I have only just left my bed: they say that I have been +delirious, and I believe it; for you cannot conceive what terrible +dreams I have had. But these are all over now, and everyone is so +kind to me,--my poor mother above all! It is a pleasant thing to be +ill when we have those who love us to watch our recovery. + +I have only been in bed a few days; yet it seems to me as if a long +portion of my existence were past,--as if I had stepped into a new +era. You remember that my last letter attempted to express my +feelings at Mamma's speech about Clarence, and at my seeing him so +suddenly. Now, dearest, I cannot but look on that day, on these +sensations, as on a distant dream. Every one is so kind to me, Mamma +caresses and soothes me so fondly, that I fancy I must have been under +some illusion. I am sure they could not seriously have meant to +forbid his addresses. No, no: I feel that all will yet be well,--so +well, that even you, who are of so contented a temper, will own that +if you were not Eleanor you would be Flora. + +I wonder whether Clarence knows that I have been ill? I wish you knew +him. Well, dearest, this letter--a very unhandsome return, I own, for +yours--must content you at present, for they will not let me write +more; though, so far as I am concerned, I am never so weak, in frame I +mean, but what I could scribble to you about him. + +Addio, carissima. F. A. + +I have prevailed on Mamma, who wished to sit by me and amuse me, to go +to the Opera to-night, the only amusement of which she is particularly +fond. Heaven forgive me for my insincerity, but he always comes into +our box, and I long to hear some news of him. + +LETTER II. + +FROM THE SAME TO THE SAME. + +Eleanor, dearest Eleanor, I am again very ill, but not as I was +before, ill from a foolish vexation of mind: no, I am now calm and +even happy. It was from an increase of cold only that I have suffered +a relapse. You may believe this, I assure you, in spite of your well +meant but bitter jests upon my infatuation, as you very rightly call +it, for Mr. Linden. You ask me what news from the Opera? Silly girl +that I was, to lie awake hour after hour, and refuse even to take my +draught, lest I should be surprised into sleep, till Mamma returned. +I sent Jermyn down directly I heard her knock at the door (oh, how +anxiously I had listened for it!) to say that I was still awake and +longed to see her. So, of course, Mamma came up, and felt my pulse, +and said it was very feverish, and wondered the draught had not +composed me; with a great deal more to the same purpose, which I bore +as patiently as I could, till it was my turn to talk; and then I +admired her dress and her coiffure, and asked if it was a full house, +and whether the prima donna was in voice, etc.: till, at last, I won +my way to the inquiry of who were her visitors. "Lord Borodaile," +said she, "and the Duke of ----, and Mr. St. George, and Captain +Leslie, and Mr. De Retz, and many others." I felt so disappointed, +Eleanor, but did not dare ask whether he was not of the list; till, at +last, my mother observing me narrowly, said, "And by the by, Mr. +Linden looked in for a few minutes. I am glad, my dearest Flora, that +I spoke to you so decidedly about him the other day." "Why, Mamma?" +said I, hiding my face under the clothes. "Because," said she, in +rather a raised voice, "he is quite unworthy of you! but it is late +now, and you should go to sleep; to-morrow I will tell you more." I +would have given worlds to press the question then, but could not +venture. Mamma kissed and left me. I tried to twist her words into a +hundred meanings, but in each I only thought that they were dictated +by some worldly information,--some new doubts as to his birth or +fortune; and, though that supposition distressed me greatly, yet it +could not alter my love or deprive me of hope; and so I cried and +guessed, and guessed and cried, till at last I cried myself to sleep. + +When I awoke, Mamma was already up, and sitting beside me: she talked +to me for more than an hour upon ordinary subjects, till at last, +perceiving how absent or rather impatient I appeared, she dismissed +Jermyn, and spoke to me thus:-- + +"You know, Flora, that I have always loved you, more perhaps than I +ought to have done, more certainly than I have loved your brothers and +sisters; but you were my eldest child, my first-born, and all the +earliest associations of a mother are blent and entwined with you. +You may be sure therefore that I have ever had only your happiness in +view, and that it is only with a regard to that end that I now speak +to you." + +I was a little frightened, Eleanor, by this opening, but I was much +more touched, so I took Mamma's hand and kissed and wept silently over +it; she continued: "I observed Mr. Linden's attention to you, at ----; +I knew nothing more of his rank and birth then than I do at present: +but his situation in the embassy and his personal appearance naturally +induced me to suppose him a gentleman of family, and, therefore, if +not a great at least not an inferior match for you, so far as worldly +distinctions are concerned. Added to this, he was uncommonly +handsome, and had that general reputation for talent which is often +better than actual wealth or hereditary titles. I therefore did not +check, though I would not encourage any attachment you might form for +him; and nothing being declared or decisive on either side when we +left--, I imagined that if your flirtation with him did even amount to +a momentary and girlish phantasy, absence and change of scene would +easily and rapidly efface the impression. I believe that in a great +measure it was effaced when Lord Aspeden returned to England, and with +him Mr. Linden. You again met the latter in society almost as +constantly as before; a caprice nearly conquered was once more +renewed; and in my anxiety that you should marry, not for +aggrandizement, but happiness, I own to my sorrow that I rather +favoured than forbade his addresses. The young man--remember, Flora-- +appeared in society as the nephew and heir of a gentleman of ancient +family and considerable property; he was rising in diplomacy, popular +in the world, and, so far as we could see, of irreproachable +character; this must plead my excuse for tolerating his visits, +without instituting further inquiries respecting him, and allowing +your attachment to proceed without ascertaining how far it had yet +extended. I was awakened to a sense of my indiscretion by an inquiry +which Mr. Linden's popularity rendered general; namely, if Mr. Talbot +was his uncle, who was his father? who his more immediate relations? +and at that time Lord Borodaile informed us of the falsehood he had +either asserted or allowed to be spread in claiming Mr. Talbot as his +relation. This you will observe entirely altered the situation of Mr. +Linden with respect to you. Not only his rank in life became +uncertain, but suspicious. Nor was this all: his very personal +respectability was no longer unimpeachable. Was this dubious and +intrusive person, without a name and with a sullied honour, to be your +suitor? No, Flora; and it was from this indignant conviction that I +spoke to you some days since. Forgive me, my child, if I was less +cautious, less confidential than I am now. I did not imagine the +wound was so deep, and thought that I should best cure you by seeming +unconscious of your danger. The case is now changed; your illness has +convinced me of my fault, and the extent of your unhappy attachment: +but will my own dear child pardon me if I still continue, if I even +confirm, my disapproval of her choice? Last night at the Opera Mr. +Linden entered my box. I own that I was cooler to him than usual. He +soon left us, and after the Opera I saw him with the Duke of +Haverfield, one of the most incorrigible roues of the day, leading out +a woman of notoriously bad character and of the most ostentatious +profligacy. He might have had some propriety, some decency, some +concealment at least, but he passed just before me,--before the mother +of the woman to whom his vows of honourable attachment were due and +who at that very instant was suffering from her infatuation for him. +Now, Flora, for this man, an obscure and possibly a plebeian +adventurer, whose only claim to notice has been founded on falsehood, +whose only merit, a love of you, has been, if not utterly destroyed, +at least polluted and debased,--for this man, poor alike in fortune, +character, and honour, can you any longer profess affection or +esteem?" + +"Never, never, never!" cried I, springing from the bed, and throwing +myself upon my mother's neck. "Never: I am your own Flora once more. +I will never suffer any one again to make me forget you," and then I +sobbed so violently that Mamma was frightened, and bade me lie down +and left me to sleep. Several hours have passed since then, and I +could not sleep nor think, and I would not cry, for he is no longer +worthy of my tears; so I have written to you. + +Oh, how I despise and hate myself for having so utterly, in my vanity +and folly, forgotten my mother, that dear, kind, constant friend, who +never cost me a single tear, but for my own ingratitude! Think, +Eleanor, what an affront to me,--to me, who, he so often said, had +made all other women worthless in his eyes. Do I hate him? No, I +cannot hate. Do I despise? No, I will not despise, but I will forget +him, and keep my contempt and hatred for myself. + +God bless you! I am worn out. Write soon, or rather come, if +possible, to your affectionate but unworthy friend, F. A. + +Good Heavens! Eleanor, he is wounded. He has fought with Lord +Borodaile. I have just heard it; Jermyn told me. Can it, can it be +true? What,--what have I said against him? Hate? forget? No, no: I +never loved him till now. + +LETTER III. + +FROM THE SAME TO THE SAME. + +(After an interval of several weeks.) + +Time has flown, my Eleanor, since you left me, after your short but +kind visit, with a heavy but healing wing. I do not think I shall +ever again be the giddy girl I have been; but my head will change, not +my heart; that was never giddy, and that shall still be as much yours +as ever. You are wrong in thinking I have not forgotten, at least +renounced all affection for Mr. Linden. I have, though with a long +and bitter effort. The woman for whom he fought went, you know, to +his house, immediately on hearing of his wound. She has continued +with him ever since. He had the audacity to write to me once; my +mother brought me the note, and said nothing. She read my heart +aright. I returned it unopened. He has even called since his +convalescence. Mamma was not at home to him. I hear that he looks +pale and altered. I hope not,--at least I cannot resist praying for +his recovery. I stay within entirely; the season is over now, and +there are no parties: but I tremble at the thought of meeting him even +in the Park or the Gardens. Papa talks of going into the country next +week. I cannot tell you how eagerly I look forward to it: and you +will then come and see me; will you not, dearest Eleanor? + +Ah! what happy days we will have yet: we will read Italian together, +as we used to do; you shall teach me your songs, and I will instruct +you in mine; we will keep birds as we did, let me see, eight years +ago. You will never talk to me of my folly: let that be as if it had +never been; but I will wonder with you about your future choice, and +grow happy in anticipating your happiness. Oh, how selfish I was some +weeks ago! then I could only overwhelm you with my egotisms: now, +Eleanor, it is your turn; and you shall see how patiently I will +listen to yours. Never fear that you can be too prolix: the diffuser +you are, the easier I shall forgive myself. + +Are you fond of poetry, Eleanor? I used to say so, but I never felt +that I was till lately. I will show you my favourite passages in my +favourite poets when you come to see me. You shall see if yours +correspond with mine. I am so impatient to leave this horrid town, +where everything seems dull, yet feverish,--insipid, yet false. Shall +we not be happy when we meet? If your dear aunt will come with you, +she shall see how I (that is my mind) am improved. + +Farewell. + Ever your most affectionate, + F. A. + + + + +CHAPTER XLVII. + +Brave Talbot, we will follow thee.--Henry the Sixth. + +"My letter insultingly returned--myself refused admittance; not a +single inquiry made during my illness; indifference joined to positive +contempt. By Heaven, it is insupportable!" + +"My dear Clarence," said Talbot to his young friend, who, fretful from +pain and writhing beneath his mortification, walked to and fro his +chamber with an impatient stride; "my dear Clarence, do sit down, and +not irritate your wound by such violent exercise. I am as much +enraged as yourself at the treatment you have received, and no less at +a loss to account for it. Your duel, however unfortunate the event, +must have done you credit, and obtained you a reputation both for +generosity and spirit; so that it cannot be to that occurrence that +you are to attribute the change. Let us rather suppose that Lady +Flora's attachment to you has become evident to her father and mother; +that they naturally think it would be very undesirable to marry their +daughter to a man whose family nobody knows, and whose respectability +he is forced into fighting in order to support. Suffer me then to +call upon Lady Westborough, whom I knew many years ago, and explain +your origin, as well as your relationship to me." + +Linden paused irresolutely. + +"Were I sure that Lady Flora was not utterly influenced by her +mother's worldly views, I would gladly consent to your proposal, but-- +" + +"Forgive me, Clarence," cried Talbot; "but you really argue much more +like a very young man than I ever heard you do before,--even four +years ago. To be sure Lady Flora is influenced by her mother's views. +Would you have her otherwise? Would you have her, in defiance of all +propriety, modesty, obedience to her parents, and right feeling for +herself, encourage an attachment to a person not only unknown, but who +does not even condescend to throw off the incognito to the woman he +addresses? Come, Clarence, give me your instructions, and let me act +as your ambassador to-morrow." + +Clarence was silent. + +"I may consider it settled then," replied Talbot: "meanwhile you shall +come home and stay with me; the pure air of the country, even so near +town, will do you more good than all the doctors in London; and, +besides, you will thus be enabled to escape from that persecuting +Frenchwoman." + +"In what manner?" said Clarence. + +"Why, when you are in my house, she cannot well take up her abode with +you; and you shall, while I am forwarding your suit with Lady Flora, +write a very flattering, very grateful letter of excuses to Madame la +Meronville. But leave me alone to draw it up for you: meanwhile, let +Harrison pack up your clothes and medicines; and we will effect our +escape while Madame la Meronville yet sleeps." + +Clarence rang the bell; the orders were given, executed, and in less +than an hour he and his friends were on their road to Talbot's villa. + +As they drove slowly through the grounds to the house, Clarence was +sensibly struck with the quiet and stillness which breathed around. +On either side of the road the honeysuckle and rose cast their sweet +scents to the summer wind, which, though it was scarcely noon, stirred +freshly among the trees, and waved as if it breathed a second youth +over the wan cheek of the convalescent. The old servant's ear had +caught the sound of wheels, and he came to the door, with an +expression of quiet delight on his dry countenance, to welcome in his +master. They had lived together for so many years that they were +grown like one another. Indeed, the veteran valet prided himself on +his happy adoption of his master's dress and manner. A proud man, we +ween, was that domestic, whenever he had time and listeners for the +indulgence of his honest loquacity; many an ancient tale of his +master's former glories was then poured from his unburdening +remembrance. With what a glow, with what a racy enjoyment, did he +expand upon the triumphs of the past; how eloquently did he +particularize the exact grace with which young Mr. Talbot was wont to +enter the room, in which he instantly became the cynosure of ladies' +eyes; how faithfully did he minute the courtly dress, the exquisite +choice of colour, the costly splendour of material, which were the +envy of gentles, and the despairing wonder of their valets; and then +the zest with which the good old man would cry, "I dressed the boy!" +Even still, this modern Scipio (Le Sage's Scipio, not Rome's) would +not believe that his master's sun was utterly set: he was only in a +temporary retirement, and would, one day or other, reappear and +reastonish the London world. "I would give my right arm," Jasper was +wont to say, "to see Master at court. How fond the King would be of +him! Ah! well, well; I wish he was not so melancholy-like with his +books, but would go out like other people!" + +Poor Jasper! Time is, in general, a harsh wizard in his +transformations; but the change which thou didst lament so bitterly +was happier for thy master than all his former "palmy state" of +admiration and homage. "Nous avons recherche le plaisir," says +Rousseau, in one of his own inimitable antitheses, "et le bonheur a +fui loin de nous." ["We have pursued pleasure, and happiness has fled +far from our reach."] But in the pursuit of Pleasure we sometimes +chance on Wisdom, and Wisdom leads us to the right track, which, if it +take us not so far as Happiness, is sure at least of the shelter of +Content. + +Talbot leaned kindly upon Jasper's arm as he descended from the +carriage, and inquired into his servant's rheumatism with the anxiety +of a friend. The old housekeeper, waiting in the hall, next received +his attention; and in entering the drawing-room, with that +consideration, even to animals, which his worldly benevolence had +taught him, he paused to notice and caress a large gray cat which +rubbed herself against his legs. Doubtless there is some pleasure in +making even a gray cat happy! + +Clarence having patiently undergone all the shrugs, and sighs, and +exclamations of compassion at his reduced and wan appearance, which +are the especial prerogatives of ancient domestics, followed the old +man into the room. Papers and books, though carefully dusted, were +left scrupulously in the places in which Talbot had last deposited +them (incomparable good fortune! what would we not give for such +chamber handmaidens!); fresh flowers were in all the stands and vases; +the large library chair was jealously set in its accustomed place, and +all wore, to Talbot's eyes, that cheerful yet sober look of welcome +and familiarity which makes a friend of our house. The old man was in +high spirits. + +"I know not how it is," said he, "but I feel younger than ever! You +have often expressed a wish to see my family seat at Scarsdale: it is +certainly a great distance hence; but as you will be my travelling +companion, I think I will try and crawl there before the summer is +over; or, what say you, Clarence, shall I lend it to you and Lady +Flora for the honeymoon? You blush! A diplomatist blush! Ah, how +the world has changed since my time! But come, Clarence, suppose you +write to La Meronville?" + +"Not to-day, sir, if you please," said Linden: "I feel so very weak." + +"As you please, Clarence; but some years hence you will learn the +value of the present. Youth is always a procrastinator, and, +consequently, always a penitent." And thus Talbot ran on into a +strain of conversation, half serious, half gay, which lasted till +Clarence went upstairs to lie down and muse on Lady Flora Ardenne. + + + + +CHAPTER XLVIII. + +La vie eat un sommeil. Les vieillards sont ceux dont le sommeil a ete +plus long: ils ne commencent a se reveiller que quand il faut mourir. +--LA BRUYERE. + +["Life is a sleep. The aged are those whose sleep has been the +longest they begin to awaken themselves just as they are obliged to +die."] + + +"You wonder why I have never turned author, with my constant love of +literature and my former desire of fame," said Talbot, as he and +Clarence sat alone after dinner, discussing many things: "the fact is, +that I have often intended it, and as often been frightened from my +design. Those terrible feuds; those vehement disputes; those +recriminations of abuse, so inseparable from literary life,--appear to +me too dreadful for a man not utterly hardened or malevolent +voluntarily to encounter. Good Heavens! what acerbity sours the blood +of an author! The manifestoes of opposing generals, advancing to +pillage, to burn, to destroy, contain not a tithe of the ferocity +which animates the pages of literary oontroversialists! No term of +reproach is too severe, no vituperation too excessive! the blackest +passions, the bitterest, the meanest malice, pour caustic and poison +upon every page! It seems as if the greatest talents, the most +elaborate knowledge, only sprang from the weakest and worst-regulated +mind, as exotics from dung. The private records, the public works of +men of letters, teem with an immitigable fury! Their histories might +all be reduced into these sentences: they were born; they quarrelled; +they died!" + +"But," said Clarence, "it would matter little to the world if these +quarrels were confined merely to poets and men of imaginative +literature, in whom irritability is perhaps almost necessarily allied +to the keen and quick susceptibilities which constitute their genius. +These are more to be lamented and wondered at among philosophers, +theologians, and men of science; the coolness, the patience, the +benevolence, which ought to characterize their works, should at least +moderate their jealousy and soften their disputes." + +"Ah!" said Talbot, "but the vanity of discovery is no less acute than +that of creation: the self-love of a philosopher is no less self-love +than that of a poet. Besides, those sects the most sure of their +opinions, whether in religion or science, are always the most bigoted +and persecuting. Moreover, nearly all men deceive themselves in +disputes, and imagine that they are intolerant, not through private +jealousy, but public benevolence: they never declaim against the +injustice done to themselves; no, it is the terrible injury done to +society which grieves and inflames them. It is not the bitter +expressions against their dogmas which give them pain; by no means: it +is the atrocious doctrines (so prejudicial to the country, if in +polities; so pernicious to the world, if in philosophy), which their +duty, not their vanity, induces them to denounce and anathematize." + +"There seems," said Clarence, "to be a sort of reaction in sophistry +and hypocrisy: there has, perhaps, never been a deceiver who was not, +by his own passions, himself the deceived." + +"Very true," said Talbot; "and it is a pity that historians have not +kept that fact in view: we should then have had a better notion of the +Cromwells and Mohammeds of the past than we have now, nor judged those +as utter impostors who were probably half dupes. But to return to +myself. I think you will already be able to answer your own question, +why I did not turn author, now that we have given a momentary +consideration to the penalties consequent on such a profession. But +in truth, as I near the close of my life, I often regret that I had +not more courage, for there is in us all a certain restlessness in the +persuasion, whether true or false, of superior knowledge or intellect, +and this urges us on to the proof; or, if we resist its impulse; +renders us discontented with our idleness and disappointed with the +past. I have everything now in my possession which it has been the +desire of my later years to enjoy: health, retirement, successful +study, and the affection of one in whose breast, when I am gone, my +memory will not utterly pass away. With these advantages, added to +the gifts of fortune, and an habitual elasticity of spirit, I confess +that my happiness is not free from a biting and frequent regret: I +would fain have been a better citizen; I would fain have died in the +consciousness not only that I had improved my mind to the utmost, but +that I had turned that improvement to the benefit of my fellow- +creatures. As it is, in living wholly for myself, I feel that my +philosophy has wanted generosity; and my indifference to glory has +proceeded from a weakness, not, as I once persuaded myself, from a +virtue but the fruitlessness of my existence has been the consequence +of the arduous frivolities and the petty objects in which my early +years were consumed; and my mind, in losing the enjoyments which it +formerly possessed, had no longer the vigour to create for itself a +new soil, from which labour it could only hope for more valuable +fruits. It is no contradiction to see those who most eagerly courted +society in their youth shrink from it the most sensitively in their +age; for they who possess certain advantages, and are morbidly vain of +them, will naturally be disposed to seek that sphere for which those +advantages are best calculated: and when youth and its concomitants +depart, the vanity so long fed still remains, and perpetually +mortifies them by recalling not so much the qualities they have lost, +as the esteem which those qualities conferred; and by contrasting not +so much their own present alteration, as the change they experience in +the respect and consideration of others. What wonder, then, that they +eagerly fly from the world, which has only mortification for their +self-love, or that we find, in biography, how often the most assiduous +votaries of pleasure have become the most rigid of recluses? For my +part, I think that that love of solitude which the ancients so +eminently possessed, and which, to this day, is considered by some as +the sign of a great mind, nearly always arises from a tenderness of +vanity, easily wounded in the commerce of the rough world; and that it +is under the shadow of Disappointment that we must look for the +hermitage. Diderot did well, even at the risk of offending Rousseau, +to write against solitude. The more a moralist binds man to man, and +forbids us to divorce our interests from our kind, the more +effectually is the end of morality obtained. They only are +justifiable in seclusion who, like the Greek philosophers, make that +very seclusion the means of serving and enlightening their race; who +from their retreats send forth their oracles of wisdom, and render the +desert which surrounds them eloquent with the voice of truth. But +remember, Clarence (and let my life, useless in itself, have at least +this moral), that for him who in no wise cultivates his talent for the +benefit of others; who is contented with being a good hermit at the +expense of being a bad citizen; who looks from his retreat upon a life +wasted in the difficiles nugae of the most frivolous part of the +world, nor redeems in the closet the time he has misspent in the +saloon,--remember that for him seclusion loses its dignity, philosophy +its comfort, benevolence its hope, and even religion its balm. +Knowledge unemployed may preserve us from vice; but knowledge +beneficently employed is virtue. Perfect happiness, in our present +state, is impossible; for Hobbes says justly that our nature is +inseparable from desires, and that the very word desire (the craving +for something not possessed) implies that our present felicity is not +complete. But there is one way of attaining what we may term, if not +utter, at least mortal, happiness; it is this,--a sincere and +unrelaxing activity for the happiness of others. In that one maxim is +concentrated whatever is noble in morality, sublime in religion, or +unanswerable in truth. In that pursuit we have all scope for whatever +is excellent in our hearts, and none for the petty passions which our +nature is heir to. Thus engaged, whatever be our errors, there will +be nobility, not weakness, in our remorse; whatever our failure, +virtue, not selfishness, in our regret; and, in success, vanity itself +will become holy and triumph eternal. As astrologers were wont to +receive upon metals 'the benign aspect of the stars, so as to detain +and fix, as it were, the felicity of that hour which would otherwise +be volatile and fugitive,' [Bacon] even so will that success leave +imprinted upon our memory a blessing which cannot pass away; preserve +forever upon our names, as on a signet, the hallowed influence of the +hour in which our great end was effected, and treasure up 'the relics +of heaven' in the sanctuary of a human fane." + +As the old man ceased, there was a faint and hectic flush over his +face, an enthusiasm on his features, which age made almost holy, and +which Clarence had never observed there before. In truth, his young +listener was deeply affected, and the advice of his adopted parent was +afterwards impressed with a more awful solemnity upon his remembrance. +Already he had acquired much worldly lore from Talbot's precepts and +conversation. He had obtained even something better than worldly +lore,--a kindly and indulgent disposition to his fellow-creatures; for +he had seen that foibles were not inconsistent with generous and great +qualities, and that we judge wrongly of human nature when we ridicule +its littleness. The very circumstances which make the shallow +misanthropical incline the wise to be benevolent. Fools discover that +frailty is not incompatible with great men; they wonder and despise: +but the discerning find that greatness is not incompatible with +frailty; and they admire and indulge. + +But a still greater benefit than this of toleration did Clarence +derive from the commune of that night. He became strengthened in his +honourable ambition and nerved to unrelaxing exertion. The +recollection of Talbot's last words, on that night, occurred to him +often and often, when sick at heart and languid with baffled hope, it +roused him from that gloom and despondency which are always +unfavourable to virtue, and incited him once more to that labour in +the vineyard which, whether our hour be late or early, will if earnest +obtain a blessing and reward. + +The hour was now waxing late; and Talbot, mindful of his companion's +health, rose to retire. As he pressed Clarence's hand and bade him +farewell for the night, Linden thought there was something more than +usually impressive in his manner and affectionate in his words. +Perhaps this was the natural result of their conversation. + +The next morning, Clarence was awakened by a noise. He listened, and +heard distinctly an alarmed cry proceeding from the room in which +Talbot slept, and which was opposite to his own. He rose hastily and +hurried to the chamber. The door was open; the old servant was +bending over the bed: Clarence approached, and saw that he supported +his master in his arms. + +"Good God!" he cried, "what is the matter?" The faithful old man +lifted up his face to Clarence, and the big tears rolled fast from +eyes in which the sources of such emotion were well-nigh dried up. + +"He loved you well, sir!" he said, and could say no more. He dropped +the body gently, and throwing himself on the floor sobbed aloud. With +a foreboding and chilled heart, Clarence bent forward; the face of his +benefactor lay directly before him, and the hand of death was upon it. +The soul had passed to its account hours since, in the hush of night, +--passed, apparently, without a struggle or a pang, like the wind, +which animates the harp one moment, and the next is gone. + +Linden seized his hand; it was heavy and cold: his eye rested upon the +miniature of the unfortunate Lady Merton, which, since the night of +the attempted robbery, Talbot had worn constantly round his neck. +Strange and powerful was the contrast of the pictured face--in which +not a colour had yet faded, and where the hues and fulness and prime +of youth dwelt, unconscious of the lapse of years--with the aged and +shrunken countenance of the deceased. + +In that contrast was a sad and mighty moral: it wrought, as it were, a +contract between youth and age, and conveyed a rapid but full history +of our passions and our life. + +The servant looked up once more on the countenance; he pointed towards +it, and muttered, "See, see how awfully it is changed!" + +"But there is a smile upon it!" said Clarence, as he flung himself +beside the body and burst into tears. + + + + + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE DISOWNED, LYTTON, V4 *** + +****** This file should be named 7634.txt or 7634.zip ******* + +This eBook was produced by Tapio Riikonen +and David Widger + +Project Gutenberg eBooks are often created from several printed +editions, all of which are confirmed as Public Domain in the US +unless a copyright notice is included. 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