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diff --git a/7628.txt b/7628.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..f37eb46 --- /dev/null +++ b/7628.txt @@ -0,0 +1,2097 @@ +The Project Gutenberg EBook Devereux, by Bulwer-Lytton, Book V. +#56 in our series by Edward Bulwer-Lytton + +Copyright laws are changing all over the world. Be sure to check the +copyright laws for your country before downloading or redistributing +this or any other Project Gutenberg eBook. + +This header should be the first thing seen when viewing this Project +Gutenberg file. Please do not remove it. Do not change or edit the +header without written permission. + +Please read the "legal small print," and other information about the +eBook and Project Gutenberg at the bottom of this file. Included is +important information about your specific rights and restrictions in +how the file may be used. 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Oh, +often in my rovings have I dared to dream so,--often have I soared on +the wild wings of thought above the "smoke and stir" of this dim earth, +and wrought, from the restless visions of my mind, a chart of the +glories and the wonders which the released spirit may hereafter visit +and behold! + +What a glad awakening from self,--what a sparkling and fresh draught +from a new source of being,--what a wheel within wheel, animating, +impelling, arousing all the rest of this animal machine, is the first +excitement of Travel! the first free escape from the bonds of the linked +and tame life of cities and social vices,--the jaded pleasure and the +hollow love, the monotonous round of sordid objects and dull +desires,--the eternal chain that binds us to things and beings, +mockeries of ourselves,--alike, but oh, how different! the shock that +brings us nearer to men only to make us strive against them, and learn, +from the harsh contest of veiled deceit and open force, that the more we +share the aims of others, the more deeply and basely rooted we grow to +the littleness of self! + +I passed more lingeringly through France than I did through the other +portions of my route. I had dwelt long enough in the capital to be +anxious to survey the country. It was then that the last scale which +the magic of Louis Quatorze and the memory of his gorgeous court had +left upon the mortal eye fell off, and I saw the real essence of that +monarch's greatness and the true relics of his reign. I saw the poor, +and the degraded, and the racked, and the priest-ridden, tillers and +peoplers of the soil, which made the substance beneath the glittering +and false surface,--the body of that vast empire, of which I had +hitherto beheld only the face, and THAT darkly, and for the most part +covered by a mask! + +No man can look upon France, beautiful France,--her rich soil, her +temperate yet maturing clime, the gallant and bold spirits which she +produces, her boundaries so indicated and protected by Nature itself, +her advantages of ocean and land, of commerce and agriculture,--and not +wonder that her prosperity should be so bloated, and her real state so +wretched and diseased. + +Let England draw the moral, and beware not only of wars which exhaust, +but of governments which impoverish. A waste of the public wealth is +the most lasting of public afflictions; and "the treasury which is +drained by extravagance must be refilled by crime."* + + +* Tacitus. + + +I remember one beautiful evening an accident to my carriage occasioned +my sojourn for a whole afternoon in a small village. The Cure honoured +me with a visit; and we strolled, after a slight repast, into the +hamlet. The priest was complaisant, quiet in manner, and not ill +informed for his obscure station and scanty opportunities of knowledge; +he did not seem, however, to possess the vivacity of his countrymen, but +was rather melancholy and pensive, not only in his expression of +countenance, but his cast of thought. + +"You have a charming scene here: I almost feel as if it were a sin to +leave it so soon." + +We were, indeed, in a pleasant and alluring spot at the time I addressed +this observation to the good Cure. A little rivulet emerged from the +copse to the left, and ran sparkling and dimpling beneath our feet, to +deck with a more living verdure the village green, which it intersected +with a winding nor unmelodious stream. We had paused, and I was leaning +against an old and solitary chestnut-tree, which commanded the whole +scene. The village was a little in the rear, and the smoke from its few +chimneys rose slowly to the silent and deep skies, not wholly unlike the +human wishes, which, though they spring from the grossness and the fumes +of earth, purify themselves as they ascend to heaven. And from the +village (when other sounds, which I shall note presently, were for an +instant still) came the whoop of children, mellowed by distance into a +confused yet thrilling sound, which fell upon the heart like the voice +of our gone childhood itself. Before, in the far expanse, stretched a +chain of hills on which the autumn sun sank slowly, pouring its yellow +beams over groups of peasantry, which, on the opposite side of the +rivulet and at some interval from us, were scattered, partly over the +green, and partly gathered beneath the shade of a little grove. The +former were of the young, and those to whom youth's sports are dear, and +were dancing to the merry music, which (ever and anon blended with the +laugh and the tone of a louder jest) floated joyously on our ears. The +fathers and matrons of the hamlet were inhaling a more quiet joy beneath +the trees, and I involuntarily gave a tenderer interest to their +converse by supposing them to sanction to each other the rustic loves +which they might survey among their children. + +"Will not Monsieur draw nearer to the dancers?" said the Cure; "there is +a plank thrown over the rivulet a little lower down." + +"No!" said I, "perhaps they are seen to better advantage where we are: +what mirth will bear too close an inspection?" + +True, Sir," remarked the priest, and he sighed. + +"Yet," I resumed musingly, and I spoke rather to myself than to my +companion, "yet, how happy do they seem! what a revival of our Arcadian +dreams are the flute and the dance, the glossy trees all glowing in the +autumn sunset, the green sod, and the murmuring rill, and the buoyant +laugh, startling the satyr in his leafy haunts; and the rural loves +which will grow sweeter still when the sun has set, and the twilight has +made the sigh more tender and the blush of a mellower hue! Ah, why is +it only the revival of a dream? why must it be only an interval of +labour and woe, the brief saturnalia of slaves, the green resting-spot +in a dreary and long road of travail and toil?" + +"You are the first stranger I have met," said the Cure, "who seems to +pierce beneath the thin veil of our Gallic gayety; the first to whom the +scene we now survey is fraught with other feelings than a belief in the +happiness of our peasantry, and an envy at its imagined exuberance. But +as it is not the happiest individuals, so I fear it is not the happiest +nations, that are the gayest." + +I looked at the Cure with some surprise. "Your remark is deeper than +the ordinary wisdom of your tribe, my Father," said I. + +"I have travelled over three parts of the globe," answered the Cure: "I +was not always intended for what I am;" and the priest's mild eyes +flashed with a sudden light that as suddenly died away. "Yes, I have +travelled over the greater part of the known world," he repeated, in a +more quiet tone; "and I have noted that where a man has many comforts to +guard, and many rights to defend, he necessarily shares the thought and +the seriousness of those who feel the value of a treasure which they +possess, and whose most earnest meditations are intent upon providing +against its loss. I have noted, too, that the joy produced by a +momentary suspense of labour is naturally great in proportion to the +toil; hence it is that no European mirth is so wild as that of the +Indian slave, when a brief holiday releases him from his task. Alas! +that very mirth is the strongest evidence of the weight of the previous +chains; even as, in ourselves, we find the happiest moment we enjoy is +that immediately succeeding the cessation of deep sorrow to the mind or +violent torture to the body."* + + +* This reflection, if true, may console us for the loss of those village +dances and pleasant holidays for which "merry England" was once +celebrated. The loss of them has been ascribed to the gloomy influence +of the Puritans; but it has never occurred to the good poets, who have +so mourned over that loss, that it is also to be ascribed to the +/liberty/ which those Puritans /generalized/, if they did not +introduce.--ED. + + +I was struck by this observation of the priest. + +"I see now," said I, "that as an Englishman I have no reason to repine +at the proverbial gravity of my countrymen, or to envy the lighter +spirit of the sons of Italy and France." + +"No," said the Cure; "the happiest nations are those in whose people you +witness the least sensible reverses from gayety to dejection; and that +/thought/, which is the noblest characteristic of the isolated man, is +also that of a people. Freemen are serious; they have objects at their +heart worthy to engross attention. It is reserved for slaves to indulge +in groans at one moment and laughter at another." + +"At that rate," said I, "the best sign for France will be when the +gayety of her sons is no longer a just proverb, and the laughing lip is +succeeded by the thoughtful brow." + +We remained silent for several minutes; our conversation had shed a +gloom over the light scene before us, and the voice of the flute no +longer sounded musically on my ear. I proposed to the Cure to return to +my inn. As we walked slowly in that direction, I surveyed my companion +more attentively than I had hitherto done. He was a model of masculine +vigour and grace of form; and, had I not looked earnestly upon his +cheek, I should have thought him likely to outlive the very oaks around +the hamlet church where he presided. But the cheek was worn and hectic, +and seemed to indicate that the keen fire which burns at the deep heart, +unseen, but unslaking, would consume the mortal fuel, long before Time +should even have commenced his gradual decay. + +"You have travelled, then, much, Sir?" said I, and the tone of my voice +was that of curiosity. + +The good Cure penetrated into my desire to hear something of his +adventures; and few are the recluses who are not gratified by the +interest of others, or who are unwilling to reward it by recalling those +portions of life most cherished by themselves. Before we parted that +night, he told me his little history. He had been educated for the +army; before he entered the profession he had seen the daughter of a +neighbour, loved her, and the old story,--she loved him again, and died +before the love passed the ordeal of marriage. He had no longer a +desire for glory, but he had for excitement. He sold his little +property and travelled, as he had said, for nearly fourteen years, +equally over the polished lands of Europe and the far climates where +Truth seems fable and Fiction finds her own legends realized or +excelled. + +He returned home poor in pocket and wearied in spirit. He became what I +beheld him. "My lot is fixed now," said he, in conclusion; "but I find +there is all the difference between quiet and content: my heart eats +itself away here; it is the moth fretting the garment laid by, more than +the storm or the fray would have worn it." + +I said something, commonplace enough, about solitude, and the blessings +of competence, and the country. The Cure shook his head gently, but +made no answer; perhaps he did wisely in thinking the feelings are ever +beyond the reach of a stranger's reasoning. We parted more +affectionately than acquaintances of so short a date usually do; and +when I returned from Russia, I stopped at the village on purpose to +inquire after him. A few months had done the work: the moth had already +fretted away the human garment; and I walked to his lowly and nameless +grave, and felt that it contained the only quiet in which monotony is +not blended with regret! + + + +CHAPTER II. + +THE ENTRANCE INTO PETERSBURG.--A RENCONTRE WITH AN INQUISITIVE AND +MYSTERIOUS STRANGER.--NOTHING LIKE TRAVEL. + +IT was certainly like entering a new world when I had the frigid +felicity of entering Russia. I expected to have found Petersburg +a wonderful city, and I was disappointed; it was a wonderful +beginning of a city, and that was all I ought to leave expected. +But never, I believe, was there a place which there was so much +difficulty in arriving at: such winds, such climate, such police +arrangements,--arranged, too, by such fellows! six feet high, with +nothing human about them but their uncleanness and ferocity! Such +vexatious delays, difficulties, ordeals, through which it was necessary +to pass, and to pass, too, with an air of the most perfect satisfaction +and content. By the Lord! one would have imagined, at all events, it +must be an earthly paradise, to be so arduous of access, instead of a +Dutch-looking town, with comfortless canals, and the most terrible +climate in which a civilized creature was ever frozen to death. "It is +just the city a nation of bears would build, if bears ever became +architects," said I to myself, as I entered the northern capital, with +my teeth chattering and my limbs in a state of perfect insensibility. + +My vehicle stopped, at last, at an hotel to which I had been directed. +It was a circumstance, I believe, peculiar to Petersburg, that, at the +time I speak of, none of its streets had a name; and if one wanted to +find out a house, one was forced to do so by oral description. A +pleasant thing it was, too, to stop in the middle of a street, to listen +to such description at full length, and find one's self rapidly becoming +ice as the detail progressed. After I was lodged, thawed, and fed, I +fell fast asleep, and slept for eighteen hours, without waking once; to +my mind, it was a miracle that I ever woke again. + +I then dressed myself, and taking my interpreter,--who was a Livonian, a +great rascal, but clever, who washed twice a week, and did not wear a +beard above eight inches long,--I put myself into my carriage, and went +to deliver my letters of introduction. I had one in particular to the +Admiral Apraxin; and it was with him that I was directed to confer, +previous to seeking an interview with the Emperor. Accordingly I +repaired to his hotel, which was situated on a sort of quay, and was +really, for Petersburg, very magnificent. In this quarter, then or a +little later, lived about thirty other officers of the court, General +Jagoyinsky, General Cyernichoff, etc.; and, appropriately enough, the +most remarkable public building in the vicinity is the great +slaughter-house,--a fine specimen that of practical satire! + +On endeavouring to pass through the Admiral's hall I had the +mortification of finding myself rejected by his domestics. As two men +in military attire were instantly admitted, I thought this a little hard +upon a man who had travelled so far to see his admiralship, and, +accordingly, hinted my indignation to Mr. Muscotofsky, my interpreter. + +"You are not so richly dressed as those gentlemen," said he. + +"That is the reason, is it?" + +"If it so please Saint Nicholas, it is; and, besides, those gentlemen +have two men running before them to cry, 'Clear the way!'" + +"I had better, then, dress myself better, and take two /avant +couriers/." + +"If it so please Saint Nicholas." Upon this I returned, robed myself in +scarlet and gold, took a couple of lacqueys, returned to Admiral +Apraxin's, and was admitted in an instant. Who would have thought these +savages so like us? Appearances, you see, produce realities all over +the world! + +The Admiral, who was a very great man at court--though he narrowly +escaped Siberia, or the knout, some time after--was civil enough to me: +but I soon saw that, favourite as he was with the Czar, that great man +left but petty moves in the grand chessboard of politics to be played by +any but himself; and my proper plan in this court appeared evidently to +be unlike that pursued in most others, where it is better to win the +favourite than the prince. Accordingly, I lost no time in seeking an +interview with the Czar himself, and readily obtained an appointment to +that effect. + +On the day before the interview took place, I amused myself with walking +over the city, gazing upon its growing grandeur, and casting, in +especial, a wistful eye upon the fortress or citadel, which is situated +in an island, surrounded by the city, and upon the building of which +more than one hundred thousand men are supposed to have perished. So +great a sacrifice does it require to conquer Nature! + +While I was thus amusing myself, I observed a man in a small chaise with +one horse pass me twice, and look at me very earnestly. Like most of my +countrymen, I do not love to be stared at; however, I thought it better +in that unknown country to change my intended frown for a good-natured +expression of countenance, and turned away. A singular sight now struck +my attention: a couple of men with beards that would have hidden a +cassowary, were walking slowly along in their curious long garments, and +certainly (I say it reverently) disgracing the semblance of humanity, +when, just as they came by a gate, two other men of astonishing height +started forth, each armed with a pair of shears. Before a second was +over, off went the beards of the first two passengers; and before +another second expired, off went the skirts of their garments too: I +never saw excrescences so expeditiously lopped. The two operators, who +preserved a profound silence during this brief affair, then retired a +little, and the mutilated wanderers pursued their way with an air of +extreme discomfiture. + +"Nothing like travel, certainly!" said I, unconsciously aloud. + +"True!" said a voice in English behind me. I turned, and saw the man +who had noticed me so earnestly in the one horse chaise. He was a tall, +robust man, dressed very plainly, and even shabbily, in a green uniform, +with a narrow tarnished gold lace; and I judged him to be a foreigner, +like myself, though his accent and pronunciation evidently showed that +he was not a native of the country in the language of which he accosted +me. + +"It is very true," said he again; "there is nothing like travel!" + +"And travel," I rejoined courteously, "in those places where travel +seldom extends. I have only been six days at Petersburg, and till I +came hither, I knew nothing of the variety of human nature or the power +of human genius. But will you allow me to ask the meaning of the very +singular occurrence we have just witnessed?" + +"Oh, nothing," rejoined the man, with a broad strong smile, "nothing but +an attempt to make men out of brutes. This custom of shaving is not, +thank Heaven, much wanted now: some years ago it was requisite to have +several stations for barbers and tailors to perform their duties in. +Now this is very seldom necessary; those gentlemen were especially +marked out for the operation. By ------" (and here the man swore a +hearty English and somewhat seafaring oath, which a little astonished me +in the streets of Petersburg), "I wish it were as easy to lop off all +old customs! that it were as easy to clip the /beard of the mind/, Sir! +Ha! ha!" + +"But the Czar must have found a little difficulty in effecting even this +outward amendment; and to say truth, I see so many beards about still +that I think the reform has been more partial than universal." + +"Ah, those are the beards of the common people: the Czar leaves those +for the present. Have you seen the docks yet?" + +"No, I am not sufficiently a sailor to take much interest in them." + +"Humph! humph! you are a soldier, perhaps?" + +"I hope to be so one day or other: I am not yet!" + +"Not yet! humph! there are opportunities in plenty for those who wish +it; what is your profession, then, and what do you know best?" + +I was certainly not charmed with the honest inquisitiveness of the +stranger. "Sir," said I, "Sir, my profession is to answer no questions; +and what I know best is--to hold my tongue!" + +The stranger laughed out. "Well, well, that is what all Englishmen know +best!" said he; "but don't be offended: if you will come home with me I +will give you a glass of brandy!" + +"I am very much obliged for the offer, but business obliges me to +decline it; good morning, Sir." + +"Good morning!" answered the man, slightly moving his hat, in answer to +my salutation. + +We separated, as I thought; but I was mistaken. As ill-luck would have +it, I lost my way in endeavouring to return home. While I was +interrogating a French artisan, who seemed in a prodigious hurry, up +comes my inquisitive friend in green again. "Ha! you have lost your +way: I can put you into it better than any man in Petersburg!" + +I thought it right to accept the offer; and we moved on side by side. I +now looked pretty attentively at my gentleman. I have said that he was +tall and stout; he was also remarkably well-built, and had a kind of +seaman's ease and freedom of gait and manner. His countenance was very +peculiar; short, firm, and strongly marked; a small, but thick mustachio +covered his upper lip; the rest of his face was shaved. His mouth was +wide, but closed, when silent, with that expression of iron resolution +which no feature /but/ the mouth can convey. His eyes were large, +well-opened, and rather stern; and when, which was often in the course +of conversation, he pushed back his hat from his forehead, the motion +developed two strong deep wrinkles between the eyebrows, which might be +indicative either of thought or of irascibility,--perhaps of both. He +spoke quickly, and with a little occasional embarrassment of voice, +which, however, never communicated itself to his manner. He seemed, +indeed, to have a perfect acquaintance with the mazes of the growing +city; and, every now and then, stopped to say when such a house was +built, whither such a street was to lead, etc. As each of these details +betrayed some great triumph over natural obstacles and sometimes over +national prejudice, I could not help dropping a few enthusiastic +expressions in praise of the genius of the Czar. The man's eyes +sparkled as he heard them. + +"It is easy to see," said I, "that you sympathize with me, and that the +admiration of this great man is not confined to Englishmen. How little +in comparison seem all other monarchs!--they ruin kingdoms; the Czar +creates one. The whole history of the world does not afford an instance +of triumphs so vast, so important, so glorious as his have been. How +his subjects should adore him!" + +"No," said the stranger, with an altered and thoughtful manner, "it is +not his subjects, but /their posterity/, that will appreciate his +motives, and forgive him for wishing Russia to be an empire of MEN. The +present generation may sometimes be laughed, sometimes forced, out of +their more barbarous habits and brute-like customs, but they cannot be +reasoned out of them; and they don't love the man who attempts to do it. +Why, Sir, I question whether Ivan IV., who used to butcher the dogs +between prayers for an occupation, and between meals for an appetite, I +question whether his memory is not to the full as much loved as the +living Czar. I know, at least, that whenever the latter attempts a +reform, the good Muscovites shrug up their shoulders, and mutter, 'We +did not do these things in the good old days of Ivan IV.'" + +"Ah! the people of all nations are wonderfully attached to their ancient +customs; and it is not unfrequently that the most stubborn enemies to +living men are their own ancestors." + +"Ha! ha!--true--good!" cried the stranger; and then, after a short +pause, he said in a tone of deep feeling which had not hitherto seemed +at all a part of his character, "We should do that which is good to the +human race, from some principle within, and should not therefore abate +our efforts for the opposition, the rancour, or the ingratitude that we +experience without. It will be enough reward for Peter I., if +hereafter, when (in that circulation of knowledge throughout the world +which I can compare to nothing better than the circulation of the blood +in the human body) the glory of Russia shall rest, not upon the extent +of her dominions, but that of her civilization,--not upon the number of +inhabitants, embruted and besotted, but the number of enlightened, +prosperous, and free men; it will be enough for him, if he be considered +to have laid the first stone of that great change,--if his labours be +fairly weighed against the obstacles which opposed them,--if, for his +honest and unceasing endeavour to improve millions, he be not too +severely judged for offences in a more limited circle,--and if, in +consideration of having fought the great battle against custom, +circumstances, and opposing nature, he be sometimes forgiven for not +having invariably conquered himself." + +As the stranger broke off abruptly, I could not but feel a little +impressed by his words and the energy with which they were spoken. We +were now in sight of my lodging. I asked my guide to enter it; but the +change in our conversation seemed to have unfitted him a little for my +companionship. + +"No," said he, "I have business now; we shall meet again; what's your +name?" + +"Certainly," thought I, "no man ever scrupled so little to ask plain +questions:" however, I answered him truly and freely. + +"Devereux!" said he, as if surprised. "Ha!--well--we shall meet again. +Good day." + + + +CHAPTER III. + +THE CZAR.--THE CZARINA.--A FEAST AT A RUSSIAN NOBLEMAN'S. + +THE next day I dressed myself in my richest attire; and, according to my +appointment, went with as much state as I could command to the Czar's +palace (if an exceedingly humble abode can deserve so proud an +appellation). Although my mission was private, I was a little surprised +by the extreme simplicity and absence from pomp which the royal +residence presented. I was ushered for a few moments into a paltry +ante-chamber, in which were several models of ships, cannon, and houses; +two or three indifferent portraits,--one of King William III., another +of Lord Caermarthen. I was then at once admitted into the royal +presence. + +There were only two persons in the room,--one a female, the other a man; +no officers, no courtiers, no attendants, none of the insignia nor the +witnesses of majesty. The female was Catherine, the Czarina; the man +was the stranger I had met the day before--and Peter the Great. I was a +little startled at the identity of the Czar with my inquisitive +acquaintance. However, I put on as assured a countenance as I could. +Indeed, I had spoken sufficiently well of the royal person to feel very +little apprehension at having unconsciously paid so slight a respect to +the royal dignity. + +"Ho! ho!" cried the Czar, as I reverently approached him; "I told you we +should meet soon!" and turning round, he presented me to her Majesty. +That extraordinary woman received me very graciously: and, though I had +been a spectator of the most artificial and magnificent court in Europe, +I must confess that I could detect nothing in the Czarina's air +calculated to betray her having been the servant of a Lutheran minister +and the wife of a Swedish dragoon; whether it was that greatness was +natural to her, or whether (which was more probable) she was an instance +of the truth of Suckling's hackneyed thought, in "Brennoralt,"--"Success +is a rare paint,--hides all the ugliness." + +While I was making my salutations, the Czarina rose very quietly, and +presently, to my no small astonishment, brought me with her own hand a +tolerably large glass of raw brandy. There is nothing in the world I +hate so much as brandy; however, I swallowed the potation as if it had +been nectar, and made some fine speech about it, which the good Czarina +did not seem perfectly to understand. I then, after a few preliminary +observations, entered upon my main business with the Czar. Her Majesty +sat at a little distance, but evidently listened very attentively to the +conversation. I could not but be struck with the singularly bold and +strong sense of my royal host. There was no hope of deluding or +misleading him by diplomatic subterfuge. The only way by which that +wonderful man was ever misled was through his passions. His reason +conquered all errors but those of temperament. I turned the +conversation as artfully as I could upon Sweden and Charles XII. +"Hatred to one power," thought I, "may produce love to another; and if +it does, the child will spring from a very vigorous parent." While I +was on this subject, I observed a most fearful convulsion come over the +face of the Czar,--one so fearful that I involuntarily looked away. +Fortunate was it that I did so. Nothing ever enraged him more than +being observed in those constitutional contortions of countenance to +which from his youth he had been subjected. + +After I had conversed with the Czar as long as I thought decorum +permitted, I rose to depart. He dismissed me very complaisantly. I +re-entered my fine equipage, and took the best of my way home. + +Two or three days afterwards, the Czar ordered me to be invited to a +grand dinner at Apraxin's. I went there, and so found myself in +conversation with a droll little man, a Dutch Minister, and a great +favourite with the Czar. The Admiral and his wife, before we sat down +to eat, handed round to each of their company a glass of brandy on a +plate. + +"What an odious custom!" whispered the little Dutch Minister, smacking +his lips, however, with an air of tolerable content. + +"Why," said I, prudently, "all countries have their customs. Some +centuries ago, a French traveller thought it horrible in us Englishmen +to eat raw oysters. But the English were in the right to eat oysters; +and perhaps, by and by, so much does civilization increase, we shall +think the Russians in the right to drink brandy. But really [we had now +sat down to the entertainment], I am agreeably surprised here. All the +guests are dressed like my own countrymen; a great decorum reigns +around. If it were a little less cold, I might fancy myself in London +or in Paris." + +"Wait," quoth the little Dutchman, with his mouth full of jelly broth, +"wait till you hear them talk. What think you, now, that lady next me +is saying?" + +"I cannot guess: but she has the prettiest smile in the world; and there +is something at once so kind and so respectful in her manner that I +should say she was either asking some great favour, or returning thanks +for one." + +"Right," cried the little Minister, "I will interpret for you. She is +saying to that old gentleman, 'Sir, I am extremely grateful--and may +Saint Nicholas bless you for it--for your very great kindness in having, +the day before yesterday, at your sumptuous entertainment, made me so +deliciously--drunk!'" + +"You are witty, Monsieur," said I, smiling. "/Se non e vero e ben +trovato/." + +"By my soul, it is true," cried the Dutchman; "but, hush!--see, they are +going to cut up that great pie." + +I turned my eyes to the centre of the table, which was ornamented with a +huge pasty. Presently it was cut open, and out--walked a hideous little +dwarf. + +"Are they going to eat him?" said I. + +"Ha! ha!" laughed the Dutchman. "No! this is a fashion of the Czar's, +which the Admiral thinks it good policy to follow. See, it tickles the +hebete Russians. They are quite merry on it." + +"To be sure," said I; "practical jokes are the only witticisms savages +understand." + +"Ay, and if it were not for such jokes now and then, the Czar would be +odious beyond measure; but dwarf pies and mock processions make his +subjects almost forgive him for having shortened their clothes and +clipped their beards." + +"The Czar is very fond of those mock processions?" + +"Fond!" and the little man sank his voice into a whisper; "he is the +sublimest buffoon that ever existed. I will tell you an instance--Do +you like these Hungary wines, by the by?--On the 9th of last June, the +Czar carried me, and half-a-dozen more of the foreign ministers, to his +pleasure-house (Peterhoff). Dinner, as usual, all drunk with Tokay, and +finished by a quart of brandy each, from her Majesty's own hand. +Carried off to sleep,--some in the garden, some in the wood. Woke at +four, still in the clouds. Carried back to the pleasure-house, found +the Czar there, made us a low bow, and gave us a hatchet apiece, with +orders to follow him. Off we trudged, rolling about like ships in the +Zuyder Zee, entered a wood, and were immediately set to work at cutting +a road through it. Nice work for us of the /corps diplomatique/! And, +by my soul, Sir, you see that I am by no means a thin man! We had three +hours of it, were carried back, made drunk again, sent to bed, roused +again in an hour, made drunk a third time; and, because we /could not/ +be waked again, left in peace till eight the next morning. Invited to +court to breakfast; such headaches we had; longed for coffee; found +nothing but brandy; forced to drink; sick as dogs; sent to take an +airing upon the most damnable little horses, not worth a guilder, no +bridles nor saddles; bump--bump--bump we go, up and down before the +Czar's window,--he and the Czarina looking at us. I do assure you I +lost two stone by that ride,--two stone, Sir!--taken to dinner; drunk +again, by the Lord, all bundled on board a /torrenschute/; devil of a +storm came on; Czar took the rudder; Czarina on high benches in the +cabin, which was full of water; waves beating; winds blowing; certain of +being drowned; charming prospect!--tossed about for seven hours; driven +into the port of Cronsflot. Czar leaves us, saying, 'Too much of a +jest, eh, gentlemen?' All got ashore wet as dog-fishes, made a fire, +stripped stark naked (a Dutch ambassador stark naked,--think of it, +Sir!), crept into some covers of sledges, and rose next morning with the +ague,--positive fact, Sir! Had the ague for two months. Saw the Czar +in August; 'A charming excursion to my pleasure-house,' said his +Majesty; 'we must make another party there soon.'" + +As the Dutchman delivered himself of the little history he was by no +means forgetful of the Hungary wines; and as Bacchus and Venus have old +affinity, he now began to grow eloquent on the women. + +"What think you of them yourself?" said he; "they have a rolling look, +eh?" + +"They have so," I answered: "but they all have black teeth; what's the +reason?" + +"They think it a beauty, and say white teeth are the sign of a +blackamoor." + +Here the Dutchman was accosted by some one else, and there was a pause. +Dinner at last ceased; the guests did not sit long after dinner, and for +a very good reason: the brandy bowl is a great enforcer of a prostrate +position! I had the satisfaction of seeing the company safely under the +table. The Dutchman went first, and, having dexterously manoeuvred an +escape from utter oblivion for myself, I managed to find my way home, +more edified than delighted by the character of a Russian entertainment. + + + +CHAPTER IV. + +CONVERSATIONS WITH THE CZAR.--IF CROMWELL WAS THE GREATEST MAN (CAESAR +EXCEPTED) WHO EVER /ROSE/ TO THE SUPREME POWER, PETER WAS THE GREATEST +MAN EVER /BORN/ TO IT. + +IT was singular enough that my introduction to the notice of Peter the +Great and Philip le Debonnaire should have taken place under +circumstances so far similar that both those illustrious personages were +playing the part rather of subjects than of princes. I cannot, however, +conceive a greater mark of the contrast between their characters than +the different motives and manners of the incognitos severally assumed. + +Philip, in a scene of low riot and debauch, hiding the Jupiter under the +Silenus,--wearing the mask only for the licentiousness it veiled, and +foregoing the prerogative of power, solely for indulgence in the +grossest immunities of vice. + +Peter, on the contrary, parting with the selfishness of state in order +to watch the more keenly over the interests of his people, only omitting +to preside in order to examine, and affecting the subject only to learn +the better the duties of the prince. Had I leisure, I might here pause +to point out a notable contrast, not between the Czar and the Regent, +but between Peter the Great and Louis le Grand: both creators of a new +era,--both associated with a vast change in the condition of two mighty +empires. There ceases the likeness and begins the contrast: the blunt +simplicity of Peter, the gorgeous magnificence of Louis; the sternness +of a legislator for barbarians, the clemency of an idol of courtiers. +One the victorious defender of his country,--a victory solid, durable, +and just; the other the conquering devastator of a neighbouring +people,--a victory, glittering, evanescent, and dishonourable. The one, +in peace, rejecting parade, pomp, individual honours, and transforming a +wilderness into an empire: the other involved in ceremony, and throned +on pomp; and exhausting the produce of millions to pamper the bloated +vanity of an individual. The one a fire that burns, without +enlightening beyond a most narrow circle, and whose lustre is tracked by +what it ruins, and fed by what it consumes; the other a luminary, whose +light, not so dazzling in its rays, spreads over a world, and is noted, +not for what it destroys, but for what it vivifies and creates. + +I cannot say that it was much to my credit that, while I thought the +Regent's condescension towards me natural enough, I was a little +surprised by the favour shown me by the Czar. At Paris, I had /seemed/ +to be the man of pleasure: that alone was enough to charm Philip of +Orleans. But in Russia, what could I seem in any way calculated to +charm the Czar? I could neither make ships nor could sail them when +they were made; I neither knew, nor, what was worse, cared to know, the +stern from the rudder. Mechanics were a mystery to me; road-making was +an incomprehensible science. Brandy I could not endure; a blunt bearing +and familiar manner I could not assume. What was it, then, that made +the Czar call upon me, at least twice a week in private, shut himself up +with me by the hour together, and endeavour to make me drunk with Tokay, +in order (as he very incautiously let out one night), "to learn the +secrets of my heart"? I thought, at first, that the nature of my +mission was enough to solve the riddle: but we talked so little about it +that, with all my diplomatic vanities fresh about me, I could not help +feeling I owed the honour I received less to my qualities as a minister +than to those as an individual. + +At last, however, I found that the secret attraction was what the Czar +termed the philosophical channel into which our conferences flowed. I +never saw a man so partial to moral problems and metaphysical inquiries, +especially to those connected with what ought to be the beginning or the +end of all moral sciences,--politics. Sometimes we would wander out in +disguise, and select some object from the customs or things around us, +as the theme of reflection and discussion; nor in these moments would +the Czar ever allow me to yield to his rank what I might not feel +disposed to concede to his arguments. One day, I remember that he +arrested me in the streets, and made me accompany him to look upon two +men undergoing the fearful punishment of the battaog;* one was a German, +the other a Russian: the former shrieked violently, struggled in the +hands of his punishers, and, with the utmost difficulty, was subjected +to his penalty; the latter bore it patiently and in silence; he only +spoke once, and it was to say, "God bless the Czar!" + + +* A terrible kind of flogging, but less severe than the knout. + + +"Can your Majesty hear the man," said I, warmly, when the Czar +interpreted these words to me, "and not pardon him?" Peter frowned, but +I was not silenced. "You don't know the Russians!" said he, sharply, +and turned aside. The punishment was now over. "Ask the German," said +the Czar to an officer, "what was his offence?" The German, who was +writhing and howling horribly, uttered some violent words against the +disgrace of the punishment, and the pettiness of his fault; what the +fault was I forget. + +"Now ask the Russian," said Peter. "My punishment was just!" said the +Russian, coolly, putting on his clothes as if nothing had happened; "God +and the Czar were angry with me!" + +"Come away, Count," said the Czar; "and now solve me a problem. I know +both those men, and the German, in a battle, would be the braver of the +two. How comes it that he weeps and writhes like a girl, while the +Russian bears the same pain without a murmur?" + +"Will your Majesty forgive me," said I, "but I cannot help wishing that +the Russian had complained more bitterly; insensibility to punishment is +the sign of a brute, not a hero. Do you not see that the German felt +the indignity, the Russian did not? and do you not see that that very +pride which betrays agony under the disgrace of the battaog is exactly +the very feeling that would have produced courage in the glory of the +battle? A sense of honour makes better soldiers and better men than +indifference to pain." + +"But had I ordered the Russian to death, he would have gone with the +same apathy and the same speech, 'It is just! I have offended God and +the Czar!'" + +"Dare I observe, Sire, that that fact would be a strong proof of the +dangerous falsity of the old maxims which extol indifference to death as +a virtue? In some individuals it may be a sign of virtue, I allow; but, +as a /national trait/, it is the strongest sign of national misery. +Look round the great globe. What countries are those where the +inhabitants bear death with cheerfulness, or, at least, with apathy? +Are they the most civilized, the most free, the most prosperous? Pardon +me; no! They are the half-starved, half-clothed, half-human sons of the +forest and the waste; or, when gathered in states, they are slaves +without enjoyment or sense beyond the hour; and the reason that they do +not recoil from the pangs of death is because they have never known the +real pleasures or the true objects of life." + +"Yet," said the Czar, musingly, "the contempt of death was the great +characteristic of the Spartans." + +"And, therefore," said I, "the great token that the Spartans were a +miserable horde. Your Majesty admires England and the English; you +have, beyond doubt, witnessed an execution in that country; you have +noted, even where the criminal is consoled by religion, how he trembles, +and shrinks,--how dejected, how prostrate of heart he is before the doom +is completed. Take now the vilest slave, either of the Emperor of +Morocco or the great Czar of Russia. He changes neither tint nor +muscle; he requires no consolation; he shrinks from no torture. What is +the inference? /That slaves dread death less than the free/. And it +should be so. The end of legislation is not to make /death/, but +/life/, a blessing." + +"You have put the matter in a new light," said the Czar; but you allow +that, in individuals, contempt of death is sometimes a virtue." + +"Yes, when it springs from mental reasonings, not physical indifference. +But your Majesty has already put in action one vast spring of a system +which will ultimately open to your subjects so many paths of existence +that they will preserve contempt for its proper objects, and not lavish +it solely, as they do now, on the degradation which sullies life and the +axe that ends it. You have already begun the conquest of another and a +most vital error in the philosophy of the ancients,--that philosophy +taught that man should have few wants, and made it a crime to increase +and a virtue to reduce them. A legislator should teach, on the +contrary, that man should have many wants: for wants are not only the +sources of enjoyment,--they are the sources of improvement; and that +nation will be the most enlightened among whose populace they are found +the most numerous. You, Sire, by circulating the arts, the graces, +create a vast herd of moral wants hitherto unknown, and in those wants +will hereafter be found the prosperity of your people, the fountain of +your resources, and the strength of your empire." + +In conversation on these topics we often passed hours together, and from +such conferences the Czar passed only to those on other topics more +immediately useful to him. No man, perhaps, had a larger share of the +mere human frailties than Peter the Great; yet I do confess that when I +saw the nobleness of mind with which he flung aside his rank as a robe, +and repaired from man to man, the humblest or the highest, the artisan +or the prince,--the prosperity of his subjects his only object, and the +acquisition of knowledge his only means to obtain it,--I do confess that +my mental sight refused even to perceive his frailties, and that I could +almost have bent the knee in worship to a being whose benevolence was so +pervading a spirit, and whose power was so glorious a minister to +utility. + +Towards the end of January, I completed my mission, and took my leave of +the court of Russia. + +"Tell the Regent," said Peter, "that I shall visit him in France soon, +and shall expect to see his drawings if I show him my models." + +In effect, the next month (February 16), the Czar commenced his second +course of travels. He was pleased to testify some regard for me on my +departure. "If ever you quit the service of the French court, and your +own does not require you, I implore you to come to me; I will give you +/carte blanche/ as to the nature and appointments of your office." + +I need not say that I expressed my gratitude for the royal +condescension; nor that, in leaving Russia, I brought, from the example +of its sovereign, a greater desire to be useful to mankind than I had +known before. Pattern and Teacher of kings, if each country in each +century had produced one such ruler as you, either all mankind would +/now/ be contented with despotism or all mankind would be /free/! Oh! +when kings have only to be good, to be kept forever in our hearts and +souls as the gods and benefactors of the earth, by what monstrous +fatality have they been so blind to their fame? When we remember the +millions, the generations, they can degrade, destroy, elevate, or save, +we might almost think (even if the other riddles of the present +existence did not require a future existence to solve them), we might +almost think a hereafter /necessary/, were it but for the sole purpose +of requiting the virtues of princes,--or their SINS!* + + +* Upon his death-bed Peter is reported to have said, "God, I dare trust, +will look mercifully upon my faults in consideration of the good I have +done my country." These are worthy to be the last words of a king! +Rarely has there been a monarch who more required the forgiveness of the +Creator; yet seldom perhaps has there been a human being who more +deserved it.--ED. + + + +CHAPTER V. + +RETURN TO PARIS.--INTERVIEW WITH BOLINGBROKE.--A GALLANT +ADVENTURE.--AFFAIR WITH DUBOIS.--PUBLIC LIFE IS A DRAMA, IN WHICH +PRIVATE VICES GENERALLY PLAY THE PART OF THE SCENE-SHIFTERS. + +IT is a strange feeling we experience on entering a great city by +night,--a strange mixture of social and solitary impressions. I say by +night, because at that time we are most inclined to feel; and the mind, +less distracted than in the day by external objects, dwells the more +intensely upon its own hopes and thoughts, remembrances and +associations, and sheds over them, from that one feeling which it +cherishes the most, a blending and a mellowing hue. + +It was at night that I re-entered Paris. I did not tarry long at my +hotel, before (though it was near upon midnight) I conveyed myself to +Lord Bolingbroke's lodgings. Knowing his engagements at St. Germains, +where the Chevalier (who had but a very few weeks before returned to +France, after the crude and unfortunate affair of 1715), chiefly +resided, I was not very sanguine in my hopes of finding him at Paris. I +was, however, agreeably surprised. His servant would have ushered me +into his study, but I was willing to introduce myself. I withheld the +servant, and entered the room alone. The door was ajar, and Bolingbroke +neither heard nor saw me. There was something in his attitude and +aspect which made me pause to survey him, before I made myself known. +He was sitting by a table covered with books. A large folio (it was the +Casaubon edition of Polybius) was lying open before him. I recognized +the work at once: it was a favourite book with Bolingbroke, and we had +often discussed the merits of its author. I smiled as I saw that that +book, which has to statesmen so peculiar an attraction, made still the +study from which the busy, restless, ardent, and exalted spirit of the +statesman before me drew its intellectual food. But at the moment in +which I entered his eye was absent from the page, and turned +abstractedly in an opposite though still downcast direction. His +countenance was extremely pale, his lips were tightly compressed, and an +air of deep thought, mingled as it seemed to me with sadness, made the +ruling expression of his lordly and noble features. "It is the torpor +of ambition after one of its storms," said I, inly; and I approached, +and laid my hand on his shoulder. + +After our mutual greetings, I said, "Have the dead so strong an +attraction that at this hour they detain the courted and courtly +Bolingbroke from the admiration and converse of the living?" + +The statesman looked at me earnestly: "Have you heard the news of the +day?" said he. + +"How is it possible? I have but just arrived at Paris." + +"You do not know, then, that I have resigned my office under the +Chevalier!" + +"Resigned your office!" + +"Resigned is a wrong word: I received a dismissal. Immediately on his +return the Chevalier sent for me, embraced me, desired me to prepare to +follow him to Lorraine; and three days afterwards came the Duke of +Ormond to me, to ask me to deliver up the seals and papers. I put the +latter very carefully in a little letter-case, and behold an end to the +administration of Lord Bolingbroke! The Jacobites abuse me terribly; +their king accuses me of neglect, incapacity, and treachery; and Fortune +pulls down the fabric she has built for me, in order to pelt me with the +stones!"* + + +* Letter to Sir W. Windham.--ED. + + +"My dear, dear friend, I am indeed grieved for you; but I am more +incensed at the infatuation of the Chevalier. Surely, surely he must +already have seen his error, and solicited your return?" + +"Return!" cried Bolingbroke, and his eyes flashed fire,--"return!--Hear +what I said to the Queen-Mother who came to attempt a reconciliation: +'Madam,' said I, in a tone as calm as I could command, 'if ever this +hand draws the sword, or employs the pen, in behalf of that prince, may +it rot!' Return! not if my head were the price of refusal! Yet, +Devereux,"--and here Bolingbroke's voice and manner changed,--"yet it is +not at these tricks of fate that a wise man will repine. We do right to +cultivate honours; they are sources of gratification to ourselves: they +are more; they are incentives to the conduct which works benefits to +others; but we do wrong to afflict ourselves at their loss. 'Nec +quaerere nec spernere honores oportet.'* It is good to enjoy the +blessings of fortune: it is better to submit without a pang to their +loss. You remember, when you left me, I was preparing myself for this +stroke: believe me, I am now prepared." + + +* "It becomes us neither to court nor to despise honours." + + +And in truth Bolingbroke bore the ingratitude of the Chevalier well. +Soon afterwards he carried his long cherished wishes for retirement into +effect; and Fate, who delights in reversing her disk, leaving in +darkness what she had just illumined, and illumining what she had +hitherto left in obscurity and gloom, for a long interval separated us +from each other, no less by his seclusion than by the publicity to which +she condemned myself. + +Lord Bolingbroke's dismissal was not the only event affecting me that +had occurred during my absence from France. Among the most active +partisans of the Chevalier, in the expedition of Lord Mar, had been +Montreuil. So great, indeed, had been either his services or the idea +entertained of their value, that a reward of extraordinary amount was +offered for his head. Hitherto he had escaped, and was supposed to be +still in Scotland. + +But what affected me more nearly was the condition of Gerald's +circumstances. On the breaking out of the rebellion he had been +suddenly seized, and detained in prison; and it was only upon the escape +of the Chevalier that he was released: apparently, however, nothing had +been proved against him; and my absence from the head-quarters of +intelligence left me in ignorance both of the grounds of his +imprisonment and the circumstances of his release. + +I heard, however, from Bolingbroke, who seemed to possess some of that +information which the ecclesiastical intriguants of the day so curiously +transmitted from court to court and corner to corner, that Gerald had +retired to Devereux Court in great disgust at his confinement. However, +when I considered his bold character, his close intimacy with Montreuil, +and the genius for intrigue which that priest so eminently possessed, I +was not much inclined to censure the government for unnecessary +precaution in his imprisonment. + +There was another circumstance connected with the rebellion which +possessed for me an individual and deep interest. A man of the name of +Barnard had been executed in England for seditious and treasonable +practices. I took especial pains to ascertain every particular +respecting him. I learned that he was young, of inconsiderable note, +but esteemed clever; and had, long previously to the death of the Queen, +been secretly employed by the friends of the Chevalier. This +circumstance occasioned me much internal emotion, though there could be +no doubt that the Barnard whom I had such cause to execrate had only +borrowed from this minion the disguise of his name. + +The Regent received me with all the graciousness and complaisance for +which he was so remarkable. To say the truth, my mission had been +extremely fortunate in its results; the only cause in which the Regent +was concerned the interests of which Peter the Great appeared to +disregard was that of the Chevalier; but I had been fully instructed on +that head anterior to my legation. + +There appears very often to be a sort of moral fitness between the +beginning and the end of certain alliances or acquaintances. This +sentiment is not very clearly expressed. I am about to illustrate it by +an important event in my political life. During my absence Dubois had +made rapid steps towards being a great man. He was daily growing into +power, and those courtiers who were neither too haughty nor too honest +to bend the knee to so vicious yet able a minion had already singled him +out as a fit person to flatter and to rise by. For me, I neither sought +nor avoided him: but he was as civil towards me as his /brusque/ temper +permitted him to be towards most persons; and as our careers were not +likely to cross one another, I thought I might reckon on his neutrality, +if not on his friendship. Chance turned the scale against me. + +One day I received an anonymous letter, requesting me to be, at such an +hour, at a certain house in the Rue ------. It occurred to me as no +improbable supposition that the appointment might relate to my +individual circumstances, whether domestic or political, and I certainly +had not at the moment any ideas of gallantry in my brain. At the hour +prescribed I appeared at the place of assignation. My mind misgave me +when I saw a female conduct me into a little chamber hung with tapestry +descriptive of the loves of Mars and Venus. After I had cooled my heels +in this apartment about a quarter of an hour, in sailed a tall woman, of +a complexion almost Moorish. I bowed; the lady sighed. An +/eclaircissement/ ensued; and I found that I had the good fortune to be +the object of a /caprice/ in the favourite mistress of the Abbe Dubois. +Nothing was further from my wishes! What a pity it is that one cannot +always tell a woman one's mind! + +I attempted a flourish about friendship, honour, and the respect due to +the /amante/ of the most intimate /ami/ I had in the world. + +"Pooh!" said the tawny Calypso, a little pettishly, "pooh! one does not +talk of those things here." + +"Madame," said I, very energetically, "I implore you to refrain. Do not +excite too severe a contest between passion and duty! I feel that I +must fly you: you are already too bewitching." + +Just as I rose to depart in rushes the /femme de chambre/, and +announces, not Monsieur the Abbe, but Monseigneur the Regent. Of course +(the old resort in such cases) I was thrust in a closet; in marches his +Royal Highness, and is received very cavalierly. It is quite +astonishing to me what airs those women give themselves when they have +princes to manage! However, my confinement was not long: the closet had +another door; the /femme de chambre/ slips round, opens it, and I +congratulate myself on my escape. + +When a Frenchwoman is piqued, she passes all understanding. The next +day I am very quietly employed at breakfast, when my valet ushers in a +masked personage, and behold my gentlewoman again! Human endurance will +not go too far, and this was a case which required one to be in a +passion one way or the other; so I feigned anger, and talked with +exceeding dignity about the predicament I had been placed in the day +before. + +"Such must always be the case," said I, "when one is weak enough to form +an attachment to a lady who encourages so many others!" + +"For your sake," said the tender dame, "for your sake, then, I will +discard them all!" + +There was something grand in this. it might have elicited a few strokes +of pathos, when--never was there anything so strangely provoking--the +Abbe Dubois himself was heard in my anteroom. I thought this chance, +but it was more; the good Abbe, I afterwards found, had traced cause for +suspicion, and had come to pay me a visit of amatory police. I opened +my dressing-room door, and thrust in the lady. "There," said I, "are +the back-stairs, and at the bottom of the back-stairs is a door." + +Would not any one have thought this hint enough? By no means; this very +tall lady stooped to the littleness of listening, and, instead of +departing, stationed herself by the keyhole. + +I never exactly learned whether Dubois suspected the visit his mistress +had paid me, or whether he merely surmised, from his spies or her +escritoire, that she harboured an inclination towards me; in either case +his policy was natural, and like himself. He sat himself down, talked +of the Regent, of pleasure, of women, and, at last, of this very tall +lady in question. + +"/La pauvre diablesse/," said he, contemptuously, "I had once compassion +on her; I have repented it ever since. You have no idea what a terrible +creature she is; has such a wen in her neck, quite a /goitre/. /Mort +diable/!" (and the Abbe spat in his handkerchief), "I would sooner have +a /liaison/ with the witch of Endor!" + +Not content with this, he went on in his usual gross and displeasing +manner to enumerate or to forge those various particulars of her +personal charms which he thought most likely to steel me against her +attractions. "Thank Heaven, at least," thought I, "that she has gone!" + +Scarcely had this pious gratulation flowed from my heart, before the +door was burst open, and, pale, trembling, eyes on fire, hands clenched, +forth stalked the lady in question. A wonderful proof how much sooner a +woman would lose her character than allow it to be called not worth the +losing! She entered, and had all the furies of Hades lent her their +tongues, she could not have been more eloquent. It would have been a +very pleasant scene if one had not been a partner in it. The old Abbe, +with his keen, astute marked face, struggling between surprise, fear, +the sense of the ridiculous, and the certainty of losing his mistress; +the lady, foaming at the mouth, and shaking her clenched hand most +menacingly at her traducer; myself endeavouring to pacify, and acting, +as one does at such moments, mechanically, though one flatters one's +self afterwards that one acted solely from wisdom. + +But the Abbe's mistress was by no means content with vindicating +herself: she retaliated, and gave so minute a description of the Abbe's +own qualities and graces, coupled with so any pleasing illustrations, +that in a very little time his coolness forsook him, and he grew in as +great a rage as herself. At last she flew out of the room. The Abbe, +trembling with passion, shook me most cordially by the hand, grinned +from ear to ear, said it was a capital joke, wished me good-by as if he +loved me better than his eyes, and left the house my most irreconcilable +and bitter foe! + +How could it be otherwise? The rivalship the Abbe might have forgiven; +such things happened every day to him: but the having been made so +egregiously ridiculous the Abbe could not forgive; and the Abbe's was a +critical age for jesting on these matters, sixty or so. And then such +unpalatable sarcasms on his appearance! "'Tis all over in that +quarter," said I to myself, "but we may find another," and I drove out +that very day to pay my respects to the Regent. + +What a pity it is that one's pride should so often be the bane of one's +wisdom. Ah! that one could be as good a man of the world in practice as +one is in theory! my master-stroke of policy at that moment would +evidently have been this: I should have gone to the Regent and made out +a story similar to the real one, but with this difference, all the +ridicule of the situation should have fallen upon me, and the little +Dubois should have been elevated on a pinnacle of respectable +appearances! This, as the Regent told the Abbe everything, would have +saved me. I saw the plan; but was too proud to adopt it; I followed +another course in my game: I threw away the knave, and played with the +king, /i.e./, with the Regent. After a little preliminary conversation, +I turned the conversation on the Abbe. + +"Ah! the /scelerat/!" said Philip, smiling, "'tis a sad dog, but very +clever and /loves me/, he would be incomparable, if he were but decently +honest." + +"At least," said I, "he is no hypocrite, and that is some praise." + +"Hem!" ejaculated the Duke, very slowly, and then, after a pause, he +said, "Count, I have a real kindness for you, and I will therefore give +you a piece of advice: think as well of Dubois as you can, and address +him as if he were all you endeavoured to fancy him." + +After this hint, which in the mouth of any prince but Philip of Orleans +would have been not a little remarkable for its want of dignity, my +prospects did not seem much brighter; however, I was not discouraged. + +"The Abbe," said I, respectfully, "is a choleric man: one /may/ +displease him; but dare I hope that so long as I preserve inviolate my +zeal and my attachment to the interests and the person of your Highness, +no--" + +The Regent interrupted me. "You mean nobody shall successfully +misrepresent you to me? No, Count" (and here the Regent spoke with the +earnestness and dignity, which, when he did assume, few wore with a +nobler grace)--"no, Count, I make a distinction between those who +minister to the state and those who minister to me. I consider your +services too valuable to the former to put them at the mercy of the +latter. And now that the conversation has turned upon business I wish +to speak to you about this scheme of Gortz." + +After a prolonged conference with the Regent upon matters of business, +in which his deep penetration into human nature not a little surprised +me, I went away thoroughly satisfied with my visit. I should not have +been so had I added to my other accomplishments the gift of prophecy. +Above five days after this interview, I thought it would be but prudent +to pay the Abbe Dubois one of those visits of homage which it was +already become policy to pay him. "If I go," thought I, "it will seem +as if nothing had happened; if I stay away, it will seem as if I +attached importance to a scene I should appear to have forgotten." + +It so happened that the Abbe had a very unusual visitor that morning, in +the person of the austere but admirable Duc de St. Simon. There was a +singular and almost invariable distinction in the Regent's mind between +one kind of regard and another. His regard for one order of persons +always arose either out of his vices or his indolence; his regard for +another, out of his good qualities and his strong sense. The Duc de St. +Simon held the same place in the latter species of affection that Dubois +did in the former. The Duc was just coming out of the Abbe's closet as +I entered the anteroom. He paused to speak to me, while Dubois, who had +followed the Duc out, stopped for one moment, and surveyed me with a +look like a thundercloud. I did not appear to notice it, but St. Simon +did. + +"That look," said he, as Dubois, beckoning to a gentleman to accompany +him to his closet, once more disappeared, "that look bodes you no good, +Count." + +Pride is an elevation which is a spring-board at one time and a +stumbling-block at another. It was with me more often the +stumbling-block than the spring-board. "Monseigneur le Duc," said I, +haughtily enough, and rather in too loud a tone considering the chamber +was pretty full, "in no court to which Morton Devereux proffers his +services shall his fortune depend upon the looks of a low-born insolent +or a profligate priest." + +St. Simon smiled sardonically. "Monsieur le Comte," said he, rather +civilly, "I honour your sentiments, and I wish you success in the +world--and a lower voice." + +I was going to say something by way of retort, for I was in a very bad +humour, but I checked myself: "I need not," thought I, "make two +enemies, if I can help it." + +"I shall never," I replied gravely, "I shall never despair, so long as +the Duc de St. Simon lives, of winning by the same arts the favour of +princes and the esteem of good men." + +The Duc was flattered, and replied suitably, but he very soon afterwards +went away. I was resolved that I would not go till I had fairly seen +what sort of reception the Abbe would give me. I did not wait long. he +came out of his closet, and standing in his usual rude manner with his +back to the fireplace, received the addresses and compliments of his +visitors. I was not in a hurry to present myself, but I did so at last +with a familiar yet rather respectful air. Dubois looked at me from +head to foot, and abruptly turning his back upon me, said with an oath, +to a courtier who stood next to him,--"The plagues of Pharaoh are come +again; only instead of Egyptian frogs in our chambers, we have the still +more troublesome guests,--English adventurers!" + +Somehow or other my compliments rarely tell; I am lavish enough of them, +but they generally have the air of sarcasms; thank Heaven, however, no +one can accuse me of ever wanting a rude answer to a rude speech. "Ha! +ha! ha!" said I now, in answer to Dubois, with a courteous laugh, "you +have an excellent wit, Abbe. /A propos/ of adventures, I met a Monsieur +St. Laurent, Principal of the Institution of St. Michael, the other day. +'Count,' said he, hearing I was going to Paris, 'you can do me an +especial favour!' 'What is it?' said I. 'Why, a cast-off valet of mine +is living at Paris; he would have gone long since to the galleys, if he +had not taken sanctuary in the Church: if ever you meet him, give him a +good horsewhipping on my account; his name is William Dubois.' 'Depend +upon it,' answered I to Monsieur St. Laurent, 'that if he is servant to +any one not belonging to the royal family, I will fulfil your errand, +and horsewhip him soundly; if /in/ the service of the royal family, why, +respect for his masters must oblige me to content myself with putting +all persons on their guard against a little rascal, who retains, in all +situations, the manners of the apothecary's son and the roguery of the +director's valet.'" + +All the time I was relating this charming little anecdote, it would have +been amusing to the last degree to note the horrified countenances of +the surrounding gentlemen. Dubois was too confounded, too aghast, to +interrupt me, and I left the room before a single syllable was uttered. +Had Dubois at that time been, what he was afterwards, cardinal and prime +minister, I should in all probability have had permanent lodgings in the +Bastile in return for my story. Even as it was, the Abbe was not so +grateful as he ought to have been for my taking so much pains to amuse +him! In spite of my anger on leaving the favourite, I did not forget my +prudence, and accordingly I hastened to the Prince. When the Regent +admitted me, I flung myself on my knee, and told him, /verbatim/, all +that had happened. The Regent, who seems to have had very little real +liking for Dubois, could not help laughing when I ludicrously described +to him the universal consternation my anecdote had excited.* + + +* On the death of Dubois, the Regent wrote to the Count de Noce, whom be +had banished for an indiscreet expression against the favourite, uttered +at one of his private suppers: "With the beast dies the venom: I expect +you to-night to supper at the Palais Royal." + + +"Courage, my dear Count," said he, kindly, "you have nothing to fear; +return home and count upon an embassy!" + +I relied on the royal word, returned to my lodgings, and spent the +evening with Chaulieu and Fontenelle. The next day the Duc de St. Simon +paid me a visit. After a little preliminary conversation, he unburdened +the secret with which he was charged. I was desired to leave Paris in +forty-eight hours. + +"Believe me," said St. Simon, "that this message was not intrusted to me +by the Regent without great reluctance. He sends you many condescending +and kind messages; says he shall always both esteem and like you, and +hopes to see you again, some time or other, at the Palais Royal. +Moreover, he desires the message to be private, and has intrusted it to +me in especial, because hearing that I had a kindness for you, and +knowing I had a hatred for Dubois, he thought I should be the least +unwelcome messenger of such disagreeable tidings. 'To tell you the +truth, St. Simon,' said the Regent, laughing, 'I only consent to have +him banished, from a firm conviction that if I do not Dubois will take +some opportunity of having him beheaded.'" + +"Pray," said I, smiling with a tolerably good grace, "pray give my most +grateful and humble thanks to his Highness, for his very considerate and +kind foresight. I could not have chosen better for myself than his +Highness has chosen for me: my only regret on quitting France is at +leaving a prince so affable as Philip and a courtier so virtuous as St. +Simon." + +Though the good Duc went every year to the Abbey de la Trappe for the +purpose of mortifying his sins and preserving his religion in so impious +an atmosphere as the Palais Royal, he was not above flattery; and he +expressed himself towards me with particular kindness after my speech. + +At court, one becomes a sort of human ant-bear, and learns to catch +one's prey by one's tongue. + +After we had eased ourselves a little by abusing Dubois, the Duc took +his leave in order to allow me time to prepare for my "journey," as he +politely called it. Before he left, he, however, asked me whither my +course would be bent? I told him that I should take my chance with the +Czar Peter, and see if his czarship thought the same esteem was due to +the disgraced courtier as to the favoured diplomatist. + +That night I received a letter from St. Simon, enclosing one addressed +with all due form to the Czar. "You will consider the enclosed," wrote +St. Simon, "a fresh proof of the Regent's kindness to you; it is a most +flattering testimonial in your favour, and cannot fail to make the Czar +anxious to secure your services." + +I was not a little touched by a kindness so unusual in princes to their +discarded courtiers, and this entirely reconciled me to a change of +scene which, indeed, under any other circumstances, my somewhat morbid +love for action and variety would have induced me rather to relish than +dislike. + +Within thirty-six hours from the time of dismissal, I had turned my back +upon the French capital. + + + +CHAPTER VI. + +A LONG INTERVAL OF YEARS.--A CHANGE OF MIND AND ITS CAUSES. + +THE last accounts received of the Czar reported him to be at Dantzic. +He had, however, quitted that place when I arrived there. I lost no +time in following him, and presented myself to his Majesty one day after +his dinner, when he was sitting with one leg in the Czarina's lap and a +bottle of the best /eau de vie/ before him. I had chosen my time well; +he received me most graciously, read my letter from the Regent--about +which, remembering the fate of Bellerophon, I had had certain +apprehensions, but which proved to be in the highest degree +complimentary--and then declared himself extremely happy to see me +again. However parsimonious Peter generally was towards foreigners, I +never had ground for personal complaint on that score. The very next +day I was appointed to a post of honour and profit about the royal +person; from this I was transferred to a military station, in which I +rose with great rapidity; and I was only occasionally called from my +warlike duties to be intrusted with diplomatic missions of the highest +confidence and importance. + +It is this portion of my life--a portion of nine years to the time of +the Czar's death--that I shall, in this history, the most concentrate +and condense. In truth, were I to dwell upon it at length, I should +make little more than a mere record of political events; differing, in +some respects, it is true, from the received histories of the time, but +containing nothing to compensate in utility for the want of interest. +That this was the exact age for adventurers, Alberoni and Dubois are +sufficient proofs. Never was there a more stirring, active, restless +period; never one in which the genius of intrigue was so pervadingly at +work. I was not less fortunate than my brethren. Although scarcely +four and twenty when I entered the Czar's service, my habits of intimacy +with men much older; my customary gravity, reserve, and thought; my +freedom, since Isora's death, from youthful levity or excess; my early +entrance into the world; and a countenance prematurely marked with the +lines of reflection and sobered by its hue,--made me appear considerably +older than I was. I kept my own counsel, and affected to be so: youth +is a great enemy to one's success; and more esteem is often bestowed +upon a wrinkled brow than a plodding brain. + +All the private intelligence which during this space of time I had +received from England was far from voluminous. My mother still enjoyed +the quiet of her religious retreat. A fire, arising from the negligence +of a servant, had consumed nearly the whole of Devereux Court (the fine +old house! till /that/ went, I thought even England held one friend). +Upon this accident, Gerald had gone to London; and, though there was now +no doubt of his having been concerned in the Rebellion of 1715, he had +been favourably received at court, and was already renowned throughout +London for his pleasures, his excesses, and his munificent profusion. + +Montreuil, whose lot seemed to be always to lose by intrigue what he +gained by the real solidity of his genius, had embarked very largely in +the rash but gigantic schemes of Gortz and Alberoni; schemes which, had +they succeeded, would not only have placed a new king upon the English +throne, but wrought an utter change over the whole face of Europe. With +Alberoni and with Gortz fell Montreuil. He was banished France and +Spain; the penalty of death awaited him in Britain; and he was supposed +to have thrown himself into some convent in Italy, where his name and +his character were unknown. In this brief intelligence was condensed +all my information of the actors in my first scenes of life. I return +to that scene on which I had now entered. + +At the age of thirty-three I had acquired a reputation sufficient to +content my ambition; my fortune was larger than my wants; I was a +favourite in courts; I had been successful in camps; I had already +obtained all that would have rewarded the whole lives of many men +superior to myself in merit, more ardent than myself in desires. I was +still young; my appearance, though greatly altered, manhood had rather +improved than impaired. I had not forestalled my constitution by +excesses, nor worn dry the sources of pleasure by too large a demand +upon their capacities; why was it then, at that golden age, in the very +prime and glory of manhood, in the very zenith and summer of success, +that a deep, dark, pervading melancholy fell upon me? a melancholy so +gloomy that it seemed to me as a thick and impenetrable curtain drawn +gradually between myself and the blessed light of human enjoyment. A +torpor crept upon me; an indolent, heavy, clinging languor gathered over +my whole frame, the physical and the mental: I sat for hours without +book, paper, object, thought, gazing on vacancy, stirring not, feeling +not,--yes, feeling, but feeling only one sensation, a sick, sad, +drooping despondency, a sinking in of the heart, a sort of gnawing +within as if something living were twisted round my vitals, and, finding +no other food, preyed, though with a sickly and dull maw, upon /them/. +This disease came upon me slowly: it was not till the beginning of the +second year, from its obvious and palpable commencement, that it grew to +the height that I have described. It began with a distaste to all that +I had been accustomed to enjoy or to pursue. Music, which I had always +passionately loved, though from some defect in the organs of hearing, I +was incapable of attaining the smallest knowledge of the science, music +lost all its diviner spells, all its properties of creating a new +existence, a life of dreaming and vain luxuries, within the mind: it +became only a monotonous sound, less grateful to the languor of my +faculties than an utter and dead stillness. I had never been what is +generally termed a boon companion; but I had had the social vanities, if +not the social tastes; I had insensibly loved the board which echoed +with applause at my sallies, and the comrades who, while they deprecated +my satire, had been complaisant enough to hail it as wit. One of my +weaknesses is a love of show, and I had gratified a feeling not the less +cherished because it arose from a petty source, in obtaining for my +equipages, my mansion, my banquets, the celebrity which is given no less +to magnificence than to fame: now I grew indifferent alike to the signs +of pomp, and to the baubles of taste; praise fell upon a listless ear, +and (rare pitch of satiety!) the pleasures that are the offspring of our +foibles delighted me no more. I had early learned from Bolingbroke a +love for the converse of men, eminent, whether for wisdom or for wit: +the graceful /badinage,/ or the keen critique; the sparkling flight of +the winged words which circled and rebounded from lip to lip, or the +deep speculation upon the mysterious and unravelled wonders of man, of +Nature, and the world; the light maxim upon manners, or the sage inquiry +into the mines of learning, all and each had possessed a link to bind my +temper and my tastes to the graces and fascination of social life. Now +a new spirit entered within me: the smile faded from my lip, and the +jest departed from my tongue; memory seemed no less treacherous than +fancy, and deserted me the instant I attempted to enter into those +contests of knowledge in which I had been not undistinguished before. I +grew confused and embarrassed in speech; my words expressed a sense +utterly different to that which I had intended to convey; and at last, +as my apathy increased, I sat at my own board, silent and lifeless, +freezing into ice the very powers and streams of converse which I had +once been the foremost to circulate and to warm. + +At the time I refer to, I was Minister at one of the small Continental +courts, where life is a round of unmeaning etiquette and wearisome +ceremonials, a daily labour of trifles, a ceaseless pageantry of +nothings. I had been sent there upon one important event; the business +resulting from it had soon ceased, and all the duties that remained for +me to discharge were of a negative and passive nature. Nothing that +could arouse, nothing that could occupy faculties that had for years +been so perpetually wound up to a restless excitement, was left for me +in this terrible reservoir of /ennui/. I had come thither at once from +the skirmishing and wild warfare of a Tartar foe; a war in which, though +the glory was obscure, the action was perpetual and exciting. I had +come thither, and the change was as if I had passed from a mountain +stream to a stagnant pool. Society at this court reminded me of a state +funeral: everything was pompous and lugubrious, even to the +drapery--even to the feathers--which, in other scenes, would have been +consecrated to associations of levity or of grace; the hourly pageant +swept on slow, tedious, mournful, and the object of the attendants was +only to entomb the Pleasure which they affected celebrate. What a +change for the wild, the strange, the novel, the intriguing, the varying +life, which, whether in courts or camps, I had hitherto led! The +internal change that came over myself is scarcely to be wondered at; the +winds stood still, and the straw they had blown from quarter to quarter, +whether in anger or in sport, began to moulder upon the spot where they +had left it. + +From this cessation of the aims, hopes, and thoughts of life I was +awakened by the spreading, as it were, of another disease: the dead, +dull, aching pain at my heart was succeeded by one acute and intense; +the absence of thought gave way to one thought more terrible, more dark, +more despairing than any which had haunted me since the first year of +Isora's death; and from a numbness and pause, as it were, of existence, +existence became too keen and intolerable a sense. I will enter into an +explanation. + +At the court of ------, there was an Italian, not uncelebrated for his +wisdom, nor unbeloved for an innocence and integrity of life rarely +indeed to be met with among his countrymen. The acquaintance of this +man, who was about fifty years of age, and who was devoted almost +exclusively to the pursuit of philosophical science, I had sedulously +cultivated. His conversation pleased me; his wisdom improved; and his +benevolence, which reminded me of the traits of La Fontaine, it was so +infantine, made me incline to love him. Upon the growth of the fearful +malady of mind which seized me, I had discontinued my visits and my +invitations to the Italian; and Bezoni (so was he called) felt a little +offended by my neglect. As soon, however, as he discovered my state of +mind, the good man's resentment left him. He forced himself upon my +solitude, and would sit by me whole evenings,--sometimes without +exchanging a word, sometimes with vain attempts to interest, to arouse, +or to amuse me. + +At last, one evening--it was the era of a fearful suffering to me--our +conversation turned upon those subjects which are at once the most +important and the most rarely discussed. We spoke of /religion/. We +first talked upon the theology of revealed religion. As Bezoni warmed +into candour, I perceived that his doctrines differed from my own, and +that he inly disbelieved that divine creed which Christians profess to +adore. From a dispute on the ground of faith, we came to one upon the +more debatable ground of reason. We turned from the subject of revealed +to that of natural religion; and we entered long and earnestly into that +grandest of all earthly speculations,--the metaphysical proofs of the +immortality of the soul. Again the sentiments of Bezoni were opposed to +mine. He was a believer in the dark doctrine which teaches that man is +dust and that all things are forgotten in the grave. He expressed his +opinions with a clearness and precision the more impressive because +totally devoid of cavil and of rhetoric. I listened in silence, but +with a deep and most chilling dismay. Even now I think I see the man as +he sat before me, the light of the lamp falling on his high forehead and +dark features; even now I think I hear his calm, low voice--the silver +voice of his country--stealing to my heart, and withering the only pure +and unsullied hope which I yet cherished there. + +Bezoni left me, unconscious of the anguish he bequeathed me, to think +over all he had said. I did not sleep nor even retire to bed. I laid +my head upon my hands, and surrendered myself to turbulent yet intense +reflection. Every man who has lived much in the world, and conversed +with its various tribes, has, I fear, met with many who, on this +momentous subject, profess the same tenets as Bezoni. But he was the +first person I had met of that sect who had evidently thought long and +deeply upon the creed he had embraced. He was not a voluptuary nor a +boaster nor a wit. He had not been misled by the delusions either of +vanity or of the senses. He was a man pure, innocent, modest, full of +all tender charities and meek dispositions towards mankind: it was +evidently his interest to believe in a future state; he could have had +nothing to fear from it. Not a single passion did he cherish which the +laws of another world would have condemned. Add to this, what I have +observed before, that he was not a man fond of the display of intellect, +nor one that brought to the discussions of wisdom the artillery of wit. +He was grave, humble, and self-diffident, beyond all beings. I would +have given a kingdom to have found something in the advocate by which I +could have condemned the cause: I could not, and I was wretched. + +I spent the whole of the next week among my books. I ransacked whatever +in my scanty library the theologians had written or the philosophers had +bequeathed upon that mighty secret. I arranged their arguments in my +mind. I armed myself with their weapons. I felt my heart spring +joyously within me as I felt the strength I had acquired, and I sent to +the philosopher to visit me, that I might conquer and confute him. He +came; but he spoke with pain and reluctance. He saw that I had taken +the matter far more deeply to heart than he could have supposed it +possible in a courtier and a man of fortune and the world. Little did +he know of me or my secret soul. I broke down his reserve at last. I +unrolled my arguments. I answered his, and we spent the whole night in +controversy. He left me, and I was more bewildered than ever. + +To speak truth, he had devoted years to the subject: I had devoted only +a week. He had come to his conclusions step by step; he had reached the +great ultimatum with slowness, with care, and, he confessed, with +anguish and with reluctance. What a match was I, who brought a hasty +temper, and a limited reflection on that subject to a reasoner like +this? His candour staggered and chilled me even more than his logic. +Arguments that occurred not to me, upon my side of the question, /he/ +stated at length and with force; I heard, and, till he replied to them, +I deemed they were unanswerable: the reply came, and I had no +counter-word. A meeting of this nature was often repeated; and when he +left me, tears crept into my wild eyes, my heart melted within me, and I +wept! + +I must now enter more precisely than I have yet done into my state of +mind upon religious matters at the time this dispute with the Italian +occurred. To speak candidly, I had been far less shocked with his +opposition to me upon matters of doctrinal faith than with that upon +matters of abstract reasoning. Bred a Roman Catholic, though pride, +consistency, custom, made me externally adhere to the Papal Church, I +inly perceived its errors and smiled at its superstitions. And in the +busy world, where so little but present objects or /human/ anticipations +of the future engross the attention, I had never given the subject that +consideration which would have enabled me (as it has since) to separate +the dogmas of the priest from the precepts of the Saviour, and thus +confirmed my belief as the Christian by the very means which would have +loosened it as the Sectarian. So that at the time Bezoni knew me a +certain indifference to--perhaps arising from an ignorance of--doctrinal +points, rendered me little hurt by arguments against opinions which I +embraced indeed, but with a lukewarm and imperfect affection. But it +was far otherwise upon abstract points of reasoning, far otherwise, when +the hope of surviving this frail and most unhallowed being was to be +destroyed: I might have been indifferent to cavil upon /what/ was the +word of God, but never to question of the justice of God Himself. In +the whole world there was not a more ardent believer in our imperishable +nature, nor one more deeply interested in the belief. Do not let it be +supposed that because I have not often recurred to Isora's death (or +because I have continued my history in a jesting and light tone) that +that event ever passed from the memory which it had turned to bitterness +and gall. Never in the masses of intrigue, in the festivals of +pleasure, in the tumults of ambition, in the blaze of a licentious +court, or by the rude tents of a barbarous host,--never, my buried love, +had I forgotten thee! That remembrance, had no other cause existed, +would have led me to God. Every night, in whatever toils or whatever +objects, whatever failures or triumphs, the day had been consumed; every +night before I laid my head upon my widowed and lonely pillow,--I had +knelt down and lifted my heart to Heaven, blending the hopes of that +Heaven with the memory and the vision of Isora. Prayer had seemed to me +a commune not only with the living God, but with the dead by whom His +dwelling is surrounded. Pleasant and soft was it to turn to one +thought, to which all the holiest portions of my nature clung between +the wearying acts of this hard and harsh drama of existence. Even the +bitterness of Isora's early and unavenged death passed away when I +thought of the heaven to which she was gone, and in which, though I +journeyed now through sin and travail and recked little if the paths of +others differed from my own, I yet trusted with a solemn trust that I +should meet her at last. There was I to merit her with a love as +undying, and at length as pure, as her own. It was this that at the +stated hour in which, after my prayer for our reunion, I surrendered my +spirit to the bright and wild visions of her far, but /not impassable/ +home,--it was this which for that single hour made all around me a +paradise of delighted thoughts! It was not the little earth, nor the +cold sky, nor the changing wave, nor the perishable turf,--no, nor the +dead wall and the narrow chamber,--which were around me then! No +dreamer ever was so far from the localities of flesh and life as I was +in that enchanted hour: a light seemed to settle upon all things around +me; her voice murmured on my ear, her kisses melted on my brow; I shut +my eyes, and I fancied that I beheld her. + +Wherefore was this comfort? Whence came the spell which admitted me to +this fairy land? What was the source of the hope and the rapture and +the delusion? Was it not the deep certainty that /Isora yet existed/; +that her spirit, her nature, her love were preserved, were inviolate, +were the same? That they watched over me yet, that she knew that in +that hour I was with her, that she felt my prayer, that even then she +anticipated the moment when my soul should burst the human prison-house +and be once more blended with her own? + +What! and was this to be no more? Were those mystic and sweet +revealings to be mute to me forever? Were my thoughts of Isora to be +henceforth bounded to the charnel-house and the worm? Was she indeed +/no more/? /No more/, oh, intolerable despair! Why, there was not a +thing I had once known, not a dog that I had caressed, not a book that I +had read, which I could know that I should see /no more/, and, knowing, +not feel something of regret. No more! were we, indeed, parted forever +and forever? Had she gone in her young years, with her warm affections, +her new hopes, all green and unwithered at her heart, at once into dust, +stillness, ice? And had I known her only for one year, one little year, +to see her torn from me by a violent and bloody death, and to be left a +mourner in this vast and eternal charnel, without a solitary consolation +or a gleam of hope? Was the earth to be henceforth a mere mass conjured +from the bones and fattened by the clay of our dead sires? Were the +stars and the moon to be mere atoms and specks of a chill light, no +longer worlds, which the ardent spirit might hereafter reach and be +fitted to enjoy? Was the heaven--the tender, blue, loving heaven, in +whose far regions I had dreamed was Isora's home, and had, therefore, +grown better and happier when I gazed upon it--to be nothing but cloud +and air? and had the love which had seemed so immortal, and so +springing from that which had not blent itself with mortality, been but +a gross lamp fed only by the properties of a brute nature, and placed in +a dark cell of clay, to glimmer, to burn, and to expire with the frail +walls which it had illumined? Dust, death, worms,--were these the +heritage of love and hope, of thought, of passion, of all that breathed +and kindled and exalted and /created/ within? + +Could I contemplate this idea; could I believe it possible? /I could +not/. But against the abstract, the logical arguments for this idea, +had I a reply? I shudder as I write that at that time I had not! I +endeavoured to fix my whole thoughts to the study of those subtle +reasonings which I had hitherto so imperfectly conned: but my mind was +jarring, irresolute, bewildered, confused; my stake seemed too vast to +allow me coolness for the game. + +Whoever has had cause for some refined and deep study in the midst of +the noisy and loud world may perhaps readily comprehend that feeling +which now possessed me; a feeling that it was utterly impossible to +abstract and concentrate one's thoughts, while at the mercy of every +intruder, and fevered and fretful by every disturbance. Men early and +long accustomed to mingle such reflections with the avocations of courts +and cities have grown callous to these interruptions, and it has been in +the very heart of the multitude that the profoundest speculations have +been cherished and produced; but I was not of this mould. The world, +which before had been distasteful, now grew insufferable; I longed for +some seclusion, some utter solitude, some quiet and unpenetrated nook, +that I might give my undivided mind to the knowledge of these things, +and build the tower of divine reasonings by which I might ascend to +heaven. It was at this time, and in the midst of my fiercest internal +conflict, that the great Czar died, and I was suddenly recalled to +Russia. + +"Now," I said, when I heard of my release, "now shall my wishes be +fulfilled!" + +I sent to Bezoni. He came, but he refused, as indeed he had for some +time done, to speak to me further upon the question which so wildly +engrossed me. "I forgive you," said I, when we parted, "I forgive you +for all that you have cost me: I feel that the moment is now at hand +when my faith shall frame a weapon wherewith to triumph over yours!" + +Father in Heaven! thanks be to Thee that my doubts were at last removed, +and the cloud rolled away from my soul. + +Bezoni embraced me, and wept over me. "All good men," said he, "have a +mighty interest in your success; for me there is nothing dark, even in +the mute grave, if it covers the ashes of one who has loved and served +his brethren, and done, with a wilful heart, no living creature wrong." + +Soon afterwards the Italian lost his life in attending the victims of a +fearful and contagious disease, whom even the regular practitioners of +the healing art hesitated to visit. + +At this moment I am, in the strictest acceptation of the words, a +believer and a Christian. I have neither anxiety nor doubt upon the +noblest and the most comforting of all creeds, and I am grateful, among +the other blessings which faith has brought me,--I am grateful that it +has brought me CHARITY! Dark to all human beings was Bezoni's +doctrine,--dark, above all, to those who have mourned on earth; so +withering to all the hopes which cling the most enduringly to the heart +was his unhappy creed that he who knows how inseparably, though +insensibly, our moral legislation is woven with our supposed +self-interest will scarcely marvel at, even while he condemns, the +unwise and unholy persecution which that creed universally sustains! +Many a most wretched hour, many a pang of agony and despair, did those +doctrines inflict upon myself; but I know that the intention of Bezoni +was benevolence and that the practice of his life was virtue: and while +my reason tells me that God will not punish the reluctant and +involuntary error of one to whom all God's creatures were so dear, my +religion bids me hope that I shall meet him in that world where no error +/is/, and where the Great Spirit to whom all human passions are unknown +avenges the momentary doubt of His justice by a proof of the infinity of +His mercy. + + + + + +*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK DEVEREUX, BY LYTTON, BOOK V. *** + +******** This file should be named 7628.txt or 7628.zip ********* + +This eBook was produced by Dagny, + and David Widger, + +Project Gutenberg eBooks are often created from several printed +editions, all of which are confirmed as Public Domain in the US +unless a copyright notice is included. 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