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Brown, and the Online Distributed Proofreading Team at https://www.pgdp.net</p> -<div style='margin-top:2em; margin-bottom:4em'>*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK GO SHE MUST! ***</div> - -<div class="figcenter hide"><img src="images/coversmall.jpg" width="450" alt=""></div> - -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<div class="figcenter"><img src="images/title.jpg" alt=""></div> -</div> - -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="titlepage"> -<p><span class="xlarge">DAVID GARNETT</span></p> - -<h1>GO SHE MUST!</h1> - -<hr class="tiny"> - -<div class="figcenter"><img src="images/titlelogo.jpg" alt=""></div> - -<p>ALFRED·A·KNOPF: NEW YORK</p> - -<hr class="tiny"> - -<p>MCMXXVII</p> -</div> - -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<p class="center"> -COPYRIGHT 1927, BY ALFRED A. KNOPF, INC.<br> -<br> -MANUFACTURED IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA</p> -</div> - -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<p class="center"> -TO<br> -<br> -STEPHEN TOMLIN</p> -</div> - -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<h2 class="center">CONTENTS</h2> -</div> - -<table> - -<tr><td class="tdr">ONE:</td><td> BIRDS IN THE SNOW</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_3"> 3</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">TWO:</td><td> PLOUGH MONDAY</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_16"> 16</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">THREE:</td><td> SOTHEBY’S SHOP</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_31"> 31</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">FOUR:</td><td> THE TRAPEZE BOY</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_45"> 45</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">FIVE:</td><td> THE FROST HELD</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_60"> 60</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">SIX:</td><td> WINGED SEEDS</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_77"> 77</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">SEVEN:</td><td> THE BURNT FARM</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_90"> 90</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">EIGHT:</td><td> WILLOW-PATTERN PARIS</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_105"> 105</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">NINE:</td><td> BIRTHDAY TEA</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_121"> 121</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">TEN:</td><td> NO GOOD-BYES</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_134"> 134</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">ELEVEN:</td><td> BEFORE THE SWALLOW DARES    </td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_150"> 150</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">TWELVE:</td><td> RICHARD’S FRIENDS</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_165"> 165</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">THIRTEEN:</td><td> PARIS</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_179"> 179</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">FOURTEEN:</td><td> A REMOVAL</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_192"> 192</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">FIFTEEN:</td><td> HONEYMOONING</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_213"> 213</a></td></tr> - -<tr><td class="tdr">SIXTEEN:</td><td> ANGELS</td><td class="tdr"><a href="#Page_228"> 228</a></td></tr> -</table> - -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_1">[1]</span> -<p class="ph2">GO SHE MUST!</p> -</div> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_2">[2]</span></p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_3">[3]</span> -<h2 class="nobreak" id="ONE_BIRDS_IN_THE_SNOW">ONE: BIRDS IN THE SNOW</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">Snow</span> lay thick over everything on the morning -of the second Monday in the year, and the Reverend -Charles Dunnock, drawing back the curtains -of his bedroom window, said to himself that -if the great sycamore full of rooks’ nests in the -churchyard were to fall, or even if a steeple were -to be built for the little church of Dry Coulter, -such changes would not alter the landscape so -much as this snowstorm had done. Buried under -three inches of snow the country was recognizable, -but wholly transformed, and he asked himself -how it was that a uniform colouring should -make a totally new world yet one which was -composed of familiar objects in their accustomed -places.</p> - -<p>Indifferent to the cold, he gazed out of his -bedroom window enchanted by the beauty of the -scene, and then, as he caught a glimpse of the -first horizontal beams of the sun falling on Nature’s -wedding-cake, he told himself that even -the dullest witted of his dissenting parishioners -would feel compelled to cry out: “This is like<span class="pagenum" id="Page_4">[4]</span> -Heaven! I could fancy myself dead, and this -Eternity!”</p> - -<p>“Yes”—he reflected—“all men must feel -it, for that conceit is helped out by the extraordinary -stillness, the footfalls of man and bird -and beast are muffled, and the world seems -empty. Nobody is stirring, for there is nothing -like a heavy fall of snow to keep people by their -firesides. Only the postman and the milkman go -their rounds”; and while he was dressing he -heard their sudden knocks at the back door, -with no warning crunch of gravel, or sound of -the gate slamming in the yard.</p> - -<p>“Their fidelity,” he said to himself, “is like -that of the clocks striking the hours when there -is death in the house”—for Mrs. Dunnock had -died exactly a year before, and her death was -always in his mind. His bedroom had been her -bedroom, though only for a few months, for she -had died soon after her husband had been presented -with a living, and since her death he slept -alone in the great bed where she had waited so -often for him to come up from his study, and -where he had always found her with her soft -hair spread like a bird’s wing over the pillow, -and in which she had died.</p> - -<p>“The clocks strike the hours in the moments -of our greatest sorrow,” he said to himself.<span class="pagenum" id="Page_5">[5]</span> -“Nothing will keep them from the punctual discharge -of their duty, and listening to them we -are recalled to this life, we shoulder our burdens -once more, we begin ticking again ourselves, -ticking away our ordinary lives.”</p> - -<p>He went to the looking-glass hanging over <i>her</i> -dressing-table and began to comb his beard, -then, looking once more out of the window, -watched two men pass by, leading a horse along -the road to be roughed at the blacksmith’s, a -slow business, for one of the men had to throw -down sacks every few yards for it to step on, -wherever the blizzard had whirled away the snow -and left a polished slide of ice.</p> - -<p>At a few minutes before nine he sat down to -the breakfast table and took the cup of tea that -his daughter poured out for him; then, hearing -a shout, both Anne and he turned to the window -and caught sight of a red muffler flying in the -wind, and a thrown snowball, but when the children -had passed, running on their way to school, -all was silence, for Mr. Dunnock had turned to -read a circular which the postman had brought -that morning.</p> - -<p>“Evangelicals! Evangelicals!” he muttered -angrily, for he was a ritualist; a last flicker of -the Oxford Movement had filled his life with -poetry. Then he pushed away the newspaper,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_6">[6]</span> -and, taking some bread for the birds, he rose -from the breakfast table and went to the front -door.</p> - -<p>The world outside was dazzling, and the snow -lay piled up deep before the sill. Mr. Dunnock -peered out, not daring to step in the snow in his -carpet slippers. He listened: not a sound; he -looked and marked the roofs which yesterday -were but the edges of a row of tiles, to-day as -thick as thatch—like Christmas cards. “And -here’s a robin,” he said, “waiting for me to -throw him some of the bread.” He threw a piece -which was lost in the snow. “A wedding-cake! -How strange it is to reflect that Anne is older -now than her mother when I married her! Yes, -the world is become a wedding-cake. Something -very strange has happened, and who knows what -will be the end of it? for it has begun to snow -again, and the rare flakes drift slowly to the -ground like feathers from the angels’ wings. -Are they moulting up there? Or has Satan -got among them like a black cat which has -climbed through the wire netting into the dove -loft?”</p> - -<p>Mr. Dunnock fetched a piece of cardboard -from his study to serve as a table for the birds, -and dropped it a few feet away on to the snow, -then, crumbling the bread in his fingers, he threw<span class="pagenum" id="Page_7">[7]</span> -the birds their breakfast. Some of the crumbs -fell on each side into the snow and were lost.</p> - -<p>“Here they come,” he said to himself, for -bright eyes had been watching him from every -tree and bush.</p> - -<p>The birds fluttered nearer, eyeing the crumbs -spread out for them, and then looking sideways -at the tall, bearded man standing in the doorway. -Their fear was speedily forgotten, for the -clergyman made it his habit to feed them every -morning, and soon the cardboard table was covered -with sparrows, robins, blackbirds, and -thrushes, all of them flashing their wings, bickering -and scrambling for the finest crumbs like a -flock of bantams. And having been successful, -one would often fly off with a piece in his bill, -which he wished to devour in solitude.</p> - -<p>Anne Dunnock remained at the breakfast -table, for she had only just finished the kipper -on her plate. “The labourers will not go to work -in the fields on such a day as this,” she said to -herself. “And not a woman will venture out except -me, for women’s boots are generally leaky, -and their skirts flap wet against their calves. -With a frost like this there should be skating, -but the snow will have spoilt the ice, even if it -were swept.” She finished a piece of toast and -rose from the table to clear away the breakfast.<span class="pagenum" id="Page_8">[8]</span> -The loaf was a pitiful object, only a shell of -crust, with all of the inside scooped out.</p> - -<p>“Another loaf gone,” she said to herself. -“We always have stale crusts, yet I am sure the -birds would eat them as readily as they do the -crumb, and crusts are so nasty in bread-and-butter -pudding.”</p> - -<p>Mr. Dunnock continued watching the birds, -and the draught from the open front door made -his daughter shiver. “Birds! Birds! I should like -to wear a bird in my hat.”</p> - -<p>She was a tall girl, beautiful, with a small pale -face, and straw-coloured hair, hair which would -not stay up; wherever she went she scattered -hairpins. She was still in mourning for her -mother’s death, and her long black dress fitted -her badly, hindering her impatient movements, -and giving her the look of a converted savage -dressed in a missionary’s night-gown.</p> - -<p>“Father is feeding the birds. He never forgets -them, and here am I grudging them the crumb -of the loaf. But housekeeping would have made -Saint Francis uncharitable, though Saint Francis -would not have said he wanted a bird for his -hat.”</p> - -<p>The marmalade, the cruet, the silver toast -rack, all were put away into the mahogany sideboard, -the tablecloth was brushed, and holding<span class="pagenum" id="Page_9">[9]</span> -the little wooden tray full of crumbs, she went -out into the hall, where her father still stood at -the open door, and then leaning over his shoulder -she shook the crumbs out on to the snow, and, -scared by her sudden gesture, the birds flew -off.</p> - -<p>“Oh, Anne, how stupid and inconsiderate you -are!” exclaimed her father, angrily. “How little -imagination you have. Don’t you understand -that when you wave anything suddenly like that -you frighten them? There was such a fine missel-thrush -too. He is not regular, and though the -other birds will soon come back, he will be discouraged. -It is most vexing.” Now that Mr. -Dunnock had lost his congregation (a far larger -one than had ever attended a Communion service -at Dry Coulter Church), he shut the door, shaking -his head irritably, then he put his beard in -his mouth, as if that were the best way to stifle -his anger, and went into his study.</p> - -<p>The book he took up fell from his hands before -he had turned the second or third page, for -he had not the intellect nor the determination to -be a scholar. A beautiful word always set his -mind chasing a beautiful picture; his thoughts -clouded over with dreams, and he remained lost -in meditation. When he came to himself it was to -sink on to his knees in prayer, for he was a shy<span class="pagenum" id="Page_10">[10]</span> -man, unable to express himself to men, and for -that reason much given to communing with God.</p> - -<p>For twenty years he had been a poor curate -at a church in the shadow of Ely Cathedral, but -he had not been popular: he was indifferent to -the things which were important to his fellow -clergy, and his mystical love of ritual had found -no sympathizers, until at last the Bishop took -pity on him, and gave him a small living in a district -in the fens. His growing uncertainty of -temper, combined with a sort of hopeless oddity, -had begun to make him a nuisance, and some -provision had to be made.</p> - -<p>At Ely the Church is taken seriously: it is a -great power, and on taking up his new position, -Mr. Dunnock was shocked to find it completely -disregarded, for the inhabitants of Dry Coulter -are Nonconformists. Even with the few who belonged -to the church, he was not a success. His -sermons were incomprehensible, yet they might -have passed unnoticed if he had not affected a -cassock and a biretta, if he had not placed -a crucifix on the Communion table and called a -blessing on the houses of the sick before he entered -them. As vicar Mr. Dunnock was a failure, -and within less than a year he was regarded with -far greater contempt than is usually extended -to the clergy. Yet he was not a disappointed<span class="pagenum" id="Page_11">[11]</span> -man, for he had never been ambitious of success, -and had never imagined that he might be popular. -He knew that it was too late in his life for -him to make any effort; he was disinclined to -exert himself with his parishioners, and avoiding -them as far as he could, he was not unhappy. He -had grown lazy, too, and now that it was in his -power, he neglected to hold the innumerable -little services which as a curate he had longed to -celebrate.</p> - -<p>If his wife had lived he might perhaps have -exerted himself, but he knew that Anne did not -share his emotions, and soon the special days -were passed over, and Mr. Dunnock remained -sunk in melancholy. Sometimes his conscience -pricked him; then he shut himself up in his room -and remained for hours in prayer.</p> - -<p>“Damn the missel-thrush!” thought his -daughter. “But father is always irritable on -Mondays; I have noticed it before. Life indeed -would be intolerable if it were not for the house. -I have everything to make me unhappy, but I -love this house. Dear old Noah’s ark.”</p> - -<p>She went upstairs, where Maggie was waiting -for her to help in making the beds. Maggie -Pattle was a girl of seventeen, who lived out with -her mother, and let herself into the vicarage -early every morning, for she was the only servant<span class="pagenum" id="Page_12">[12]</span> -and came in by the day. Shorter than Anne, -she was fully twice as broad, a well-nourished -girl, who would eat a pound of sausages or of -bacon at a sitting, washing it down with vinegar, -and her red cheeks shone with health.</p> - -<p>Anne often thought that if only Maggie had -come from another village she would have made -an excellent servant; all her sluttish ways came -from her mother’s being just round the corner; -she had only to slip down the vicarage garden -and through a hole in the hedge to be at home. -The cottage was so small, and Mrs. Pattle and -her family so large, that Anne thought of the -old woman who lived in a shoe whenever she -looked at it; though Mrs. Pattle never seemed in -any doubt what to do. She knew when to slap a -child, and when only to swear at it.</p> - -<p>No doubt she was a good mother, resembling -very much one of the huge sows which sometimes -wandered over the village green in front of her -cottage—a sow whose steps were followed by a -sounder of little porkers trotting about in all -directions. What if she did chastise one, or even -gobble it up? One would not be missed.... No, -indeed, for how did it come about that Mrs. -Pattle had three children that all seemed to be -between two and three years old, yet none of -them twins? Was one of them Maggie’s? Anne<span class="pagenum" id="Page_13">[13]</span> -thought not, but it was difficult to be sure, and -if the matter were not settled soon she would -never know; on such points the Pattles’ memories -were not trustworthy. Yes, they were a -slipshod family, though not exactly what one -would call an immoral one....</p> - -<p>Yet, though Anne despised Maggie for her -sluttishness and untruthfulness, in some ways -she admired her. Maggie was a good girl, she did -what she was told, had a passion for washing -floors, and was not a bad cook. Then she would -go anywhere at any time, and do anything for -anybody to oblige. Mrs. Pattle’s cottage was -crawling with babies, could one of them be the -fruit of this cheery good-nature?</p> - -<p>But if Anne admired the way Maggie scrubbed -the scullery floor, she felt envy when she saw her -sauntering along the lanes with her hands in her -pockets, whistling like a ploughboy, and stopping -to speak to every person she met on the -road. Did she envy Maggie only because she had -so many friends, or was it partly because she -knew all the boys and the young men, and went -in the grove in the evenings, coming out with her -cheeks no redder than they were by nature?</p> - -<p>Why was it, Anne asked herself, that she -could not whistle as she walked along in her long -black dress and her black straw hat? She had no<span class="pagenum" id="Page_14">[14]</span> -friends to talk to except the village people, and -she could only visit them if they were ill, or in -trouble. That, and watching her father feed the -birds, was not enough to fill her life. She read, -and when the young carters went ploughing she -laid aside her book to watch them as they passed -the house, sitting sideways on their great horses. -Anne liked the way men whistled, and their deep -voices as they spoke to the cart-horses drinking -at the pond, voices so full of restraint and kindliness. -There was no way for her to speak to these -young men who looked so cheerful as they went -by to work in their rough clothes, though sometimes, -when she was out on a long walk and was -far from home, she had tried to get into conversation -with a young farmer leaning over a gate, -or with a gamekeeper idling along the edge of a -wood, his black and white spaniel at his heels.</p> - -<p>But the beds had to be made, and since she -liked to sleep in a big four-poster that they had -found in the vicarage on their arrival, and her -father also slept in a large bed, she helped Maggie -to turn the mattresses.</p> - -<p>It takes two to make a bed properly, and with -an unselfish companion who does not take more -than her fair share of the sheets to tuck in on her -side, it is pleasant work.</p> - -<p>How the mattress bends and coils on itself,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_15">[15]</span> -somersaulting heavily like a whale, and how brave -the great linen sheet looks as you turn it down! -The last of the two beds was made, and they were -tucking in the quilt when a strange sound came -from outside the house—a confused noise of -voices singing. Was it a hymn?</p> - -<p>“Whatever can that be, Maggie?” she asked.</p> - -<p>“That’s the carters come, Miss,” the girl -answered. “It is Plough Monday to-day.”</p> - -<p>“What is Plough Monday?”</p> - -<p>Maggie could only stare at this question—she -could not answer it, except by saying:</p> - -<p>“Well, they always keep Plough Monday -round here, though not properly, like they used -to do. They came to the gate last year, but I -told them not to come singing with your mother -lying ill.”</p> - -<p>“I shall go and see,” said Anne, and she ran -across the landing from her bedroom, which -faced the garden, into her father’s, which overlooked -the road.</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_16">[16]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">TWO: PLOUGH MONDAY</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">The</span> sound of voices came again, men and boys -singing, one out of tune with the others, but all -ringing with the same fresh gaiety and purity -through the frosty air, reminding the hearer of -the sharp notes of the blacksmith’s hammer -raining on the anvil, and giving him the same -assurance that the very texture of man’s ordinary -life is a beautiful and joyous fabric.</p> - -<p>This time Anne could hear the words of the -song.</p> - -<div class="poetry-container"> -<div class="poetry"> -<div class="verse">One morning very early,</div> -<div class="verse">The ploughboy he was seen</div> -<div class="verse">All hastening to the stable</div> -<div class="verse">His horses for to clean.</div> -</div></div> - -<p>She ran to the window and, looking out into -the whiteness, she was blinded for the first moment -by the sun shining on to the dazzling field -of snow, but in the next instant she perceived -three great chestnut horses standing just below -her immediately in front of the door. They were -harnessed to a plough, at the handles of which<span class="pagenum" id="Page_17">[17]</span> -stood a labourer, whilst at the head of each of -the horses was a young carter, and on the foremost -of the horses were two little boys riding. It -was the voices of these little boys which were so -oddly out of tune.</p> - -<p>Anne was astonished to see them with their -plough and horses so close to the doorstep, and -was filled with a sense of strangeness even before -she saw what was most strange about these -visitors. That a plough should be standing so -close to the house was strange, and even for the -moment seemed to her shocking, for one of the -horses was standing on a flower-bed, but this was -nothing to the appearance of the men, for all of -them had their faces blacked and their shoulders -and their caps were white with snow. The black -faces against the whiteness of the snow frightened -her; for a moment she caught her breath -with fear, which turned almost instantly to -wonder and delight.</p> - -<div class="poetry-container"> -<div class="poetry"> -<div class="verse">With chaff and corn</div> -<div class="verse">He did them bait,</div> -<div class="verse">Their tails and manes</div> -<div class="verse">He did comb straight.</div> -</div></div> - -<p>What was it? What was it? Something -strange, something beautiful, the thing perhaps<span class="pagenum" id="Page_18">[18]</span> -she had always wanted, and half guessed at, -but which she had never before met face to face.</p> - -<p>The tune changed:</p> - -<div class="poetry-container"> -<div class="poetry"> -<div class="verse">Come all you lads and lasses</div> -<div class="verse">See a gay ploughboy.</div> -</div></div> - -<p>Gay, yes, they were gay; the snow was falling, -and the sun was shining, and they had blacked -their faces and come to her doorstep, and one -black face with an open pink mouth was looking -up at her in the window.</p> - -<div class="poetry-container"> -<div class="poetry"> -<div class="verse">Please can you spare a halfpenny</div> -<div class="verse">For an old ploughboy?</div> -<div class="verse">A bit of bread and cheese</div> -<div class="verse">Is better than nothing.</div> -</div></div> - -<p>The song was over; one of the young carters -came to the door and gave a knock which echoed -through the house. Anne started, woken from -her rapt contemplation of the horses and the -men, and still repeating under her breath: -“Beautiful, they are beautiful!” she ran downstairs -to open the door. Mr. Dunnock, however, -was there before her, and from the hall she could -see nothing of the men with their black faces, -nor of the plough, nor the horses with their -satin coats, their manes flecked with snow, and<span class="pagenum" id="Page_19">[19]</span> -their tails twisted up in plaits of straw; her -father’s back blocked the doorway, and she -could hear his voice in anger.</p> - -<p>“That’s enough of this foolery. You should -know better than to trample down the lawn and -the flower-bed.”</p> - -<div class="poetry-container"> -<div class="poetry"> -<div class="verse">Give us a shilling and we shall be glad,</div> -<div class="verse">Give us a penny and we shall go home,</div> -</div></div> - -<p>piped the two little boys from the horse’s back. -“Please, Sir, it’s Plough Monday, we like to -keep it up.”</p> - -<p>“I have nothing for you,” said her father. “I -have quite enough deserving objects for my -charity.” He shut the door, and found himself -face to face with his daughter.</p> - -<p>“Some village clod-hoppers have come begging,” -said the clergyman, throwing back his -head and giving vent to a cough of irritation. -“They actually brought three horses and a -plough over the flower-beds and up to the door.”</p> - -<p>“They won’t have hurt the flower-beds, father, -in this weather, with so much snow on the -ground,” said Anne.</p> - -<p>“Perhaps not,” he answered, “but they have -made a great mess of the snow in front of the -house; besides I had wished to measure the footprints -of the birds.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_20">[20]</span>“You might have given them something, they -seemed so jolly.”</p> - -<p>“Jolly?” Mr. Dunnock’s cough became almost -a bark. “It is not my idea of jollity, nor I -should have hoped yours, for yokels to black -their faces in imitation of Christie minstrels, -and come begging for money simply because -they are given a day’s holiday on account of the -weather.”</p> - -<p>“But, father, I think that it is an old custom, -and that they expect to be given money.”</p> - -<p>Mr. Dunnock gazed at his daughter with real -surprise.</p> - -<p>“I won’t hear of it. I most strongly disapprove. -They may try other people. I am not -going to be victimized, or imposed on. Old custom? -Remember what the midshipman said in -his letter to his mother: ‘Manners they have -none, and their customs are beastly.’” The -clergyman recovered himself sufficiently to -laugh at his own joke, but when his daughter -moved towards the door, he said angrily: -“I forbid you to encourage them, Anne; -the incident is closed and I have sent them -away.”</p> - -<p>The local Christie minstrels, however, had not -gone away, and as Mr. Dunnock spoke a loud -knock resounded on the door.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_21">[21]</span>“You had better go upstairs, Anne. Kindly -leave me to deal with them.”</p> - -<p>Anne ran upstairs, trembling with rage, and -rushed into her father’s bedroom, where, by -looking out of window, she was able to see what -was going on and overhear most of what was -being said.</p> - -<p>When Mr. Dunnock opened the door he found -all the ploughmen gathered in a group on the -doorstep.</p> - -<p>“It’s Plough Monday, Sir, and we have come -to keep it, and ask you for a piece of money for -our song.”</p> - -<p>“I have told you already to go away,” said -the clergyman, coughing with exasperation. “I -don’t give money to beggars.”</p> - -<p>There was a silence, then one of the young -men at the back laughed and said: “He doesn’t -tumble to it; tell the parson that it is Plough -Monday.”</p> - -<p>“Where would you be if there weren’t no -ploughmen, or no ploughing done?” asked the -spokesman of the group. “You wouldn’t get no -tithes if it weren’t for the plough.”</p> - -<p>There was a chorus of approval at that.</p> - -<p>“No, that you wouldn’t!”</p> - -<p>“He can’t answer that, Fred.”</p> - -<p>They shouted, but at the word <i>tithes</i> Mr.<span class="pagenum" id="Page_22">[22]</span> -Dunnock had slammed the door in their faces. -The ploughmen knocked again, and for some -minutes the sound echoed through every room in -the house. Anne could see that they were puzzled, -and in some doubt what to do next. One or two -of them were laughing, another scratched his -head while he said: “Called us beggars, did he? -Reckon we work as hard as he.” Presently they -retreated to one corner of the garden and remained -talking together for some little while, -until Maggie appeared from round the corner -of the kitchen and called out to them.</p> - -<p>“You had best go away,” she said. “The -parson he says you are a lot of lazy louts. I -heard him. He won’t give you naught. You won’t -get nothing if you do plough his doorstep up.” -The ploughmen did not answer her, nor did -they appear to pay any attention to her words, -but slowly went back to their horses’ heads. -“What must be, must be,” said the oldest of -the company, laying hold of the handles of the -plough. “I’ld as lief keep the custom. Come on, -boys!” he shouted. At these words Anne could -see that they all suddenly recovered their good -humour, and a moment after they began joking -among themselves.</p> - -<p>“Parson will have to wipe his feet on his mat -before we have done with him,” said one lad.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_23">[23]</span>“There won’t be anyone shy of paying us our -pennies after this,” added another.</p> - -<p>“Let him preach what sermon he likes next -Sunday; there won’t be no one but his daughter -and our Maggie to hear him swearing.”</p> - -<p>“Hey, my beauties!” shouted the ploughman -at the handles.</p> - -<p>The great horses strained and began to move; -the young carters at their heads shouted and led -the team in a wide circle across the untouched -snowfield which was the lawn; the plough sidled -and circled through the snow, and the men began -arguing with the horses.</p> - -<p>“Hold back, can’t you!”</p> - -<p>“Steady there, whoa.”</p> - -<p>At last, after one horse had nearly put its -head through the window of Mr. Dunnock’s -study, and another had trampled down a rose -bush, the plough was got into position at the far -corner of the house. After that they all waited -while the ploughman left the handles and began -to hammer at part of his plough.</p> - -<p>The fear which Anne had felt when she first -looked out returned to her, and the sense of -strangeness persisted. Was she waking or dreaming, -was she afraid or was she glad? Suddenly -she heard Maggie’s voice saying in excited -tones:</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_24">[24]</span>“You are never going to plough up Mr. Dunnock’s -doorstep!” and hearing these words -Anne began to tremble.</p> - -<p>At last the ploughman straightened his back -and said:</p> - -<p>“Calls us idle beggars, does he? And too busy -to speak with us; we’ll mark Plough Monday in -his prayer-book. Get up there....”</p> - -<p>The horses strained, and the plough sank -through the snow into the soft earth of a flower-bed, -the traces tightened and the three horses -pulled; a wrinkle or two showed itself in their -haunches, and the share of the plough threw up -a broad streak of raw earth.</p> - -<p>“Steady, boys, steady by the doorstep,” -called the ploughman, and the carters edged the -horses nearer in to the wall of the house. In a -moment the plough reached the door, and Anne, -gazing down from above, saw the flagstone lift -and topple, while the plough ran swiftly on, and -the earth streamed out upon the snow.</p> - -<p>“I must stop them,” she whispered, but she -did not move, or take her eyes off the scene. -Watching from above, the girl was fascinated -and horrified by every detail; the swift and irresistible -progress of the hidden ploughshare running -through the earth delighted her; the -strength of the three stalwart Suffolk Punches,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_25">[25]</span> -and the lean, sinewy wrists of the ploughman -guiding the handles, and the gay young men, all -thrilled her. While watching, she could not have -told what were her emotions: yet she knew that -the scene was beautiful, the plough slipping so -easily in the rich earth had the grace and lissom -strength of a snake. Once again the horses -turned, sweeping down and halting beside the -hedge of laurel, and there was another pause -while the plough was got into position, and then -the team swept round and strained forward -again to cut the second furrow, and, that finished, -to draw the plough out into the roadway -in front of the vicarage, while the ploughman -threw the handles on one side and held them -down so that the share skidded through the snow -over the grass.</p> - -<p>The men did not call out, nor even appear to -speak or to laugh among themselves; having cut -their two furrows, they went away swiftly, pausing -only for a moment on the road to adjust the -ploughshare, and then hurrying on to sing their -songs under other windows.</p> - -<p>Only when the plough had turned the corner -of the lane and the last of the horses’ heads had -vanished down the avenue of elm trees, did Anne -Dunnock leave her position at the window, and -only then did she burst into a flood of tears. “I<span class="pagenum" id="Page_26">[26]</span> -cannot live after such an insult,” she said to herself. -“How could they do such a thing to our -house? But why is it that it seemed to me so -beautiful as well as so cruel?” and as she asked -herself this question she noticed that though she -had dried her tears her hands were still trembling. -“The lawn of virgin snow has been torn -up by the plough, the naked earth exposed, and -the garden trampled over by the iron shoes of -the horses and the hobnails of the labourers,” -she said. “And our doorstep has been overturned; -my father’s fault, for he was in the -wrong. I feel now as if I could never forgive him -for bringing this shame on us, yet if it had not -been him it might have been me, for the same -fault of character is in both of us. We are rejected -everywhere, unable to share in the life -around us, or to understand it. Enid taught me -that at Ely, but to-day it has been recognized by -the ploughmen, and this broad gash in the earth -and the uprooted doorstep proclaim it to our -neighbours. I shall never dare show my face in -the village after this.”</p> - -<p>So saying, Anne Dunnock found herself sobbing -again. “This is too silly,” she told herself, -yet the tears continued to flow, until she gave up -resisting them and lay down on the bed in her -own room. She thought of Enid, to whom she<span class="pagenum" id="Page_27">[27]</span> -had written so many poems and so many passionate -letters, only to discover that they had been -shown to all the girls in the school, that they had -been borrowed and read aloud in every bathroom -where there were girls talking before going to -bed. “I could have killed Enid; she made all the -girls in Ely think that I was perfectly ridiculous.” -And all the bitter experiences of her life -came back into her mind and were confused with -her present unhappiness.</p> - -<p>“Why should we suffer from this?” she asked -herself, after a few moments of weeping. “For -I know father suffers from it as much as I do, -though he has never spoken of it to me, and perhaps -not even to himself. Is it because he is a -clergyman, or is it because we are in some way -superior, cleverer, or better than our neighbours? -No,” she answered herself, “it cannot be -that, for though I am intelligent, perhaps even -remarkably intelligent, father is terribly stupid. -In fact he is almost deficient in some respects, -and I am sure neither he nor I are superior -morally. We are both too emotional and too -ready to lose our tempers. All our troubles -spring from the fact that father is a clergyman, -for whether they recognize it or not, ordinary -people have a contempt for the clergy, and -clergymen are always ill at ease with their fellow<span class="pagenum" id="Page_28">[28]</span> -men. Thank God father isn’t one of the -hearty sort; in his own way he is an honest man -and a religious one, but he has ruined my life. It -is Ibsen’s <i>Ghosts</i> over again,” for Anne had been -reading Ibsen lately. Then a phrase from another -book she had been reading, De Quincey’s -<i>Opium-eater</i>, came into her mind: “Unwinding -the accursed chain.”</p> - -<p>“How can I unwind the accursed chain?” she -asked herself. “I must begin soon, for I am -twenty-three, and the best part of my life is -gone.”</p> - -<p>“It is no good crying over spilt milk,” she -said, and went on: “At all events I am glad that -they did not go away when father told them to -go; I am glad that they tore up our garden with -that narrow snake-like plough wobbling a little -as it ran through the earth. I am glad of it, -though I shall find it hard to face our neighbours -after this, for they will have changed. -Everyone will know of our disgrace.”</p> - -<p>She rose from her bed and tidied her hair before -the glass; as usual all the hairpins had -fallen. Then turning to the window she looked -out over the untouched snowfield at the back of -the house where not even a dog had run as yet. -Everything was covered, even the winter jessamine -on the summer-house was concealed, and<span class="pagenum" id="Page_29">[29]</span> -the black poplars beyond the pond had every -twig laden with snow.</p> - -<p>“All will be forgotten as soon as the snows -are melted,” she said to herself suddenly, with -the certainty that her words were true. “All my -emotion is nonsense. To me everything seems -changed, but it is only a joke to the carters; -they will laugh about it over a pint of beer to-day, -but in a week’s time they will have forgotten -it; the fact that some dog has killed a rat -will seem more important. My life is not -changed: to-morrow the mason will come to lay -the doorstep in its old place, and I shall say: -‘It’s a fine day,’ when I go to the grocer’s shop, -and: ‘Very seasonable weather,’ when I take the -loaves from the baker. That is the nearest that -I shall ever get to contact with my fellows; why -should they care how we live, what we do, or -whether we disgrace ourselves or not? We mean -nothing to them.”</p> - -<p>And Anne Dunnock, who only a few moments -before had been weeping because the world was -changed, began suddenly to weep again because -it appeared to her that it had not changed and -that it would always remain the same. This time -the tears were not so readily checked, for one -tear brings the next after it, and Anne remained -hidden in her bedroom until Maggie knocked at<span class="pagenum" id="Page_30">[30]</span> -the door to say that lunch was on the table. But -by then she herself had forgotten what had so -much moved her less than two hours before, for -she had taken up <i>Peer Gynt</i>, and as she went -downstairs she was thinking not of the carters -with their black faces and the snow on their -caps, but of the trolls.</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_31">[31]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">THREE: SOTHEBY’S SHOP</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">In</span> the night the wind changed to the west and -rain fell, so that by morning the snow was gone -from the grass, and only lingered in a few places, -on the roads and on the bare earth of the kitchen -garden, and the rain which thawed the snow -washed away the memory of Plough Monday, -thus bringing to pass what Anne had fancied -sooner than she had expected.</p> - -<p>She no longer felt ashamed to go into the village, -and as for her father, half an hour after -the event he had forgotten his irritation in -watching the starlings searching for worms in -the loose earth thrown up by the plough.</p> - -<p>After breakfast, old Noah, the gardener, -busied himself in filling in the furrow, and old -Simmonds, who called himself a builder and -fencing contractor, came round and, after mixing -a little mortar on a board, laid the doorstep -back, only a trifle askew, in its old place.</p> - -<p>“There’s your doorstep, Miss,” he said, -straightening his back as Anne opened the front -door and stood on the threshold prepared for<span class="pagenum" id="Page_32">[32]</span> -walking. “There’s your doorstep; no one will -ever shift that again.”</p> - -<p>Simmonds was right, for Anne lacked the -courage to tell him to take it up and set it -straight.</p> - -<p>“May I step on it?” she asked.</p> - -<p>“Ay, he’ll bear your weight, Miss,” said the -old man blinking, and to prove his words he -stepped on to the doorstep himself, blocking her -path while he stamped once or twice with his -hobnailed boots.</p> - -<p>“Is that firm enough for you, Miss?” he -asked, speaking with melancholy pride, and -then standing aside for her to walk on it herself.</p> - -<p>“Yes, that seems all right, Simmonds,” she -said, stepping on to the stone, and was aware as -she spoke that her words were meaningless, for -why should the old man be so proud of the force -of gravity which kept the doorstep where it lay? -Why should she have to give him credit for it?</p> - -<p>“I was going to speak to your father, Miss, -about the sills,” said Simmonds.</p> - -<p>“About what?”</p> - -<p>“It’s a long time since they were painted, and -the wood is perishing. I thought perhaps your -father might like me to estimate for them.”</p> - -<p>Anne frowned; the question of the sills annoyed<span class="pagenum" id="Page_33">[33]</span> -her, but she could not escape until she -had looked at them.</p> - -<p>Simmonds was right—the paint on the window-sills -had cracked into hundreds of little -grey lichenous cups.</p> - -<p>“I’ll speak to him about it,” she said. “We -must have it done one day.”</p> - -<p>The elm trees were so beautiful; it was because -of the elms that she loved Dry Coulter. -Soon the spring would come, soon the snowdrops -would cluster thickly under the garden walls, -and every day that passed improved the quality -of the birds’ song.</p> - -<p>“There is no prison so terrible as beauty,” -she said suddenly to herself. “I love the seasons, -the beauty of the village, the clouds, and the tall -groves of elms standing round the green. I love -our orchard with its old apple trees, and the -pears; I dream in the winter of what the crop -will be in the following autumn, fearing that the -bullfinches will take the buds, or the blossom be -cut down by a late frost, yet time is flying—and -while my blood runs fast as it does now I -must walk demurely like the old woman that I -shall so soon become. Yes, I shall be old before -I am free to live as I should like. Shall I ever go -to the opera? A cheap seat would do—I cannot -expect a box, or emeralds, but one can hear as<span class="pagenum" id="Page_34">[34]</span> -well from the gallery, and it is the music that I -want to hear. Shall I escape one day? Shall I go -to London?”</p> - -<p>Then it came into her mind that perhaps even -if she went to London, even if she got to know -interesting men (and such beings must exist), -even if she went to the opera with them, she -might still feel herself a prisoner, and that perhaps -the most that one can do in life is to exchange -one sort of beauty for another; the -beauty of the apple trees for the beauty of -music.</p> - -<p>“Yes, there is no prison so terrible as -beauty,” she said again, and added immediately: -“Now I must go to the grocer’s,” and though -she disliked the grocer himself, she smiled with -pleasure at the thought that she might see his -little daughter Rachel.</p> - -<p>“<i>Emmanuel Sotheby, Grocer and Provision -Merchant</i>” was painted over the little shop with -its windows filled with bars of soap, packets of -starch, clay pipes, and walnuts, for Sotheby -dealt in everything, and though the shop was -small, the stock was large. Sotheby always had -what you wanted: calico, mustard, cotton, China -tea, boot polish, even lamp chimneys. There was -no shop so good as Sotheby’s in the nearest -town: there was nothing better than Sotheby’s<span class="pagenum" id="Page_35">[35]</span> -even in Ely, yet would he be able to provide her -with drawing-pins? It was unlikely, almost impossible, -and Anne determined not to mention -them until she had made her other purchases; -she would only speak of them just before she left -the shop. In that way Mr. Sotheby would not -feel that she had expected too much of him, or -think that she was disappointed. With her hand -on the latch, she said to herself: “I will not -speak of the drawing-pins if there are other -customers,” but the shop was empty, and the -jangling bell brought Mrs. Sotheby out of an -inner room. The grocer’s wife was a slender -woman of fifty; her pale wrinkled face made her -seem older, though her hair was still a beautiful -brown, and when she smiled she showed two even -rows of little pearly teeth. Mrs. Sotheby was always -merry; whenever Anne came into the shop -her brown eyes twinkled, or she broke into a low -musical laugh, while her face crumpled itself up -into all its wrinkles, her white teeth flashed, and -her eyes almost vanished. Such a merry laugh -greeted Anne that morning, and Mrs. Sotheby -explained it by a reference to the events of the -day before.</p> - -<p>“Good morning, Miss Dunnock, I have been -hearing such dreadful things all yesterday -about the ploughmen. I am afraid they must<span class="pagenum" id="Page_36">[36]</span> -have upset your father, but you must not take -any notice of them. It is all foolishness, and I -don’t know what the men can have been thinking -of, but, of course, it is an old custom and -they like keeping it on that account. You know -men are just like boys about anything like that, -but they did not mean to be disrespectful or unneighbourly, -I’m sure. Your father is still rather -a stranger here; I expect he did not understand -their ways.”</p> - -<p>At Mrs. Sotheby’s words Anne started, all -her shame came back to her suddenly, but she -saw that she must answer. A lump came in her -throat, and her mouth trembled as she said:</p> - -<p>“No, neither father nor I had ever heard of -Plough Monday. It was entirely my father’s -fault: he is sometimes impatient when he is disturbed -reading.”</p> - -<p>“It was very foolish of the men,” said Mrs. -Sotheby. “And they should feel ashamed of -themselves, but directly I heard of it I knew -there was a misunderstanding of some sort. It -happens so easily, only I thought I would speak -of it, because you know it is an old custom, and -the men are proud of keeping it here, so you -must make allowances for them.”</p> - -<p>The kindliness of these words was more than -Anne could bear. “Thank you, thank you so<span class="pagenum" id="Page_37">[37]</span> -much,” she cried, and suddenly she found that -her tears would flow—she could not keep them -back, though she shook her head angrily, and -as she did so a couple of hairpins dropped on -to the floor.</p> - -<p>At that moment a shadow passed in front of -the windows; there was the sound of wheels, and -a horse being pulled up short in front of the -shop.</p> - -<p>Anne looked about her wildly, but Mrs. -Sotheby had lifted a flap of the counter and was -saying:</p> - -<p>“Come into our parlour and sit down for a -little while, Miss Dunnock; it was foolish of me -to speak, but I never guessed you would have -taken such nonsense to heart. If one were to pay -attention to half the silly things men do, our -lives would not be worth living.”</p> - -<p>Anne followed Mrs. Sotheby through the shop -into a little room, with a coal fire burning in the -grate. She sat down in the armchair pushed forward -for her, while the grocer’s wife hurried -back into the shop, summoned by the jangling -bell. For a little while Anne was overcome with -mortification at finding herself in the grocer’s -parlour and wondered how she could have so -disgraced herself.</p> - -<p>Why, if she must cry every morning (and it<span class="pagenum" id="Page_38">[38]</span> -seemed to have become a habit), could she not -retire to her own room and weep in solitude? But -after a few moments of humiliation the thought -came into her mind that at last she had disgraced -herself finally and for ever, and this reflection -was a consolation to her.</p> - -<p>“I cannot undo this. If I were to steal out of -the back door without Mrs. Sotheby hearing me, -it would make no difference. I have shown her -my feelings; I have burst into tears in her shop; -I cannot pretend to have any dignity after -this.”</p> - -<p>Anne dried the last of her tears, reflecting -that it was exciting to have made a fool of herself, -and that if she had not lost her self-control -she would never have been asked into that parlour. -Then, taking off her hat, she began tidying -her hair and looking about her.</p> - -<p>The room she was in was small and richly furnished -with uncomfortable armchairs, upholstered -in dark red plush; there was a table -covered with a red cloth, which had a fringe of -little balls; a slowly ticking clock stood on the -mantelpiece; on a small table, before the window, -stood a large green pot containing an arum -lily with one leaf half-unfurled and a white bud -showing; from the curtain rod hung a wire cage -full of maidenhair ferns. On the walls were<span class="pagenum" id="Page_39">[39]</span> -photographs: Mr. and Mrs. Sotheby on their -wedding day, a plump and rather ugly young -woman, the Tower Bridge with a ship going -through it, and a boy with pomatum on his hair. -Then, turning her head, Anne saw a large photograph -hanging just behind her.</p> - -<p>“What a strange face!” for the young man -certainly had a strange face, and was wearing -an odd little round cap, almost like a skull-cap, -with a tiny tail sticking up in the middle; his -throat was bare, with no sign of a collar or tie, -or even of a shirt. A cigarette was hanging out -of the corner of his mouth, but the strangest -thing was not the cap, but the face, or rather -the expression of the face, for the features themselves -were vaguely familiar. The young man -was laughing, but there was a look of careless -contempt, almost of insolence, which Anne very -much disliked. The nose was long and straight, -and rather foxy, the eyes mere slits set wide -apart; the forehead was broad and large, but -the chin feeble. “Good gracious me!” exclaimed -Anne, noticing that in one ear there was a little -earring. “A man wearing an earring! How extraordinary!” -She gazed at the photograph for -some time, taking in every detail of the face. -Certainly there was something disagreeable in -the expression; the laughter was untrustworthy<span class="pagenum" id="Page_40">[40]</span> -and heartless; he was laughing at other people, -not sharing his laughter with them.</p> - -<p>But the customer was staying a long while in -the shop, and, becoming impatient, she went to -the door and listened. The voice she heard was -that of Mr. Lambert, a young farmer, whom -Anne knew since he attended church (he was a -churchwarden), and once he had stopped her in -the road and told her that she should go riding.</p> - -<p>To Anne his remark had seemed ridiculous, -since he must know well enough that they were -too poor to keep a hack for her use, and he could -not have meant that he had one for her to ride.</p> - -<p>If he had wished to say: “If you get the -habit, I’ll mount you on one of my horses,” why -hadn’t he said so? He could not have intended -that, and even if he had, what would she have -answered? What did he expect in return? That -she should go riding with him? She smiled at the -thought: Mr. Lambert’s company might not be -so bad, but she would not care for it if she were -under an obligation to him. If she killed his horse -in taking a fence ... that would be awkward! -And if he met a girl whom he liked better as a -companion on his rides—in that case she would -be left with the habit on her hands. Her father -would never allow such a thing; think of the gossip -there would be!</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_41">[41]</span>“Damn this place! Damn my father!” she -said to herself, and listening to the farmer’s -sharp, but very pleasant voice, and closing her -eyes, she had for a moment the delicious sensation -of the horse bounding under her, of patting -its withers, listening to the creak of the saddle, -and keeping her balance while she looked -proudly over the level landscape of the fens.</p> - -<p>“I will, I will, I will,” she repeated to herself. -“I will ride a horse once in my life. I will -even if I get left with a riding habit. But I suppose -that is the spirit which brings young girls -to ruin. I can imagine how Maggie would say -to herself: ‘I will let my head be turned by a -man, even if I am left with a baby.’” Anne -laughed at the comparison. “Silly thoughts.... -They hurry me on to absurdities, and all -because Mr. Lambert said something polite and -meaningless to me, for it is politeness to assume -that one can do whatever one likes without regard -for money. But here am I laughing when -I ought still to be sobbing, since I am still waiting -for Mrs. Sotheby to come and console me. -What shall I do? How on earth, by what false -pretences, did I ever get into this cosy little -room? If Mr. Lambert does not go away soon, -I shall march into the shop, lift the flap in the -counter and go away.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_42">[42]</span>She listened then to the voices. “Very good, -Mrs. Sotheby, you shall have the pig for scalding -on Thursday, unless Mr. Sotheby sends me -word to-morrow.”</p> - -<p>The bell of the shop tinkled; Mr. Lambert -paused to add a last word, and Mrs. Sotheby -answered him: “Well, if you say so, Mr. Lambert,” -and Anne could hear her hand on the -latch.</p> - -<p>“Well, I thought Mr. Lambert was never -going. He had come to see Mr. Sotheby about -carting sand, and really I didn’t know what to -say to him. Now I have agreed to share a pig -with him; let me know if you would like a leg of -pork, or sausages, or one of my pork cheeses. -My husband is so busy now; I hardly see him -from morning till night; he is putting up some -cottages at Linton, and his mind is far more on -them than on the grocery business, so that I -have quite as much as I can manage. I am really -sorry that I undertook to scald the pig, but it -was rather tempting. Still, however many pigs -I scald, I shall never do half so much as Emmanuel -does; he’s out every day of the week, and -drives the round himself, and then he preaches -twice every Sunday, here and in the Ebenezer -Tabernacle at Wet Coulter. Mr. Lambert -wanted to see him in a hurry, but I could not tell<span class="pagenum" id="Page_43">[43]</span> -him where to find my husband. I cannot keep in -my head half the things he is doing, and I have -not yet been out to see the Linton cottages. Still, -it keeps him in good spirits, and he is doing it -for my boy. But I mustn’t keep you any longer -now.” Mrs. Sotheby stopped speaking, she -smiled, and added rather shyly: “You will come -and chat with me sometimes, won’t you, Miss -Dunnock?”</p> - -<p>Anne promised to come again soon, and spoke -of the arum lily beginning to unfold its flower, -and then, passing through into the shop, asked -for curry powder and sultanas.</p> - -<p>When these had been given her, she hesitated, -asking herself whether, after Mrs. Sotheby’s -kindness, she could ask for drawing-pins. Perhaps -Mr. Sotheby would fetch some from Linton, -but at that moment she felt shy of asking a -man who was building a row of cottages to execute -her little commissions. She would wait until -another day for that. But on the doorstep she -paused:</p> - -<p>“Thank you for being so kind to me. I shall -always come and talk to you if I am upset by -anything.”</p> - -<p>The face behind the counter broke into hundreds -of wrinkles, the little teeth shone, and a -delighted laugh answered her. “Like pouring<span class="pagenum" id="Page_44">[44]</span> -water out of a glass bottle,” thought Anne as -she went out into the winter sunshine.</p> - -<p>There was happiness, who could doubt it? The -secret of life was to be like the Sothebys, and to -work as they did, absorbed in building cottages. -Would she ever think the prospect of scalding a -pig too tempting to be refused, if she were over-worked -already?</p> - -<p>“Mr. Sotheby must be very enterprising,” -she said to herself, trying to conquer her dislike -for him, and forgot the grocer in gazing at the -distant elms which bounded the far side of the -village green a quarter of a mile away, for in -the middle of the village was a long and lovely -stretch of common pasture.</p> - -<p>But who was the boy for whom Mr. Sotheby -worked so hard? And Anne remembered that -Maggie Pattle had once told her that the Sothebys -had a son. Why was it that she had imagined -that he was dead? But it did not occur to her to -connect him with the photograph in the parlour, -for she was looking at the elm trees, and listening -to the song of a thrush; then gazing at the -roof of Lambert’s barn, bathed in sunlight, she -felt her heart beating happily, and asked herself -why had she felt beauty was a prison? She -could be happy in that village for ever, for -spring was coming, and the birds were singing.</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_45">[45]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">FOUR: THE TRAPEZE BOY</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">A hard</span> frost came early in February.</p> - -<p>“If this lasts,” said Mr. Dunnock eagerly, -“we shall have skating the day after to-morrow,” -but his face clouded quickly, and he put -down his cup with a gesture of annoyance. The -day after to-morrow would be Sunday.</p> - -<p>“We may be in for a long spell of frost,” said -Anne, but, reminded of his duties, her father was -not in the mood to be consoled. “A frost brings -more suffering than you or I can quite realize, -my dear,” he said severely. “Think of the poor, -without the coal or the blankets to keep them -warm; think of the seamen in the rigging of -ships; think of the outcasts on the roads; think -of the birds.”</p> - -<p>“Think of the polar bears,” said Anne under -her breath, as her father rose from the table and -scooped out the crumb of the loaf.</p> - -<p>“The trap ought to be here in ten minutes; I -shall be back from Ely by the eight o’clock -train,” he said, and with these words went to the -front door where an impatient flock of sparrows -was waiting his arrival.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_46">[46]</span>When the trap came, she went to the gate and -watched her father drive away, wondering -whether he would meet Enid in the street. “I am -glad I am not going. Now the rest of the day is -mine. Mine, and I am free to do whatever I -choose!”</p> - -<p>The road was like iron; it rang under the -pony’s hoofs, and Anne thought she had never -seen a lovelier morning; the spell of the frost was -more beautiful than the enchanted world of the -snow had been a month before, though it was not -so strange. Every twig was fledged with rime, -for there had been a fog during the night, but -already the sun had broken through the mist, -the sky was showing blue overhead, and the white -tops of the elms were blushing in the sunshine.</p> - -<p>“Every tree is smothered in snowy blossom; -it is as if spring had come,” and she thought -that the flowering time of the cherry in Japan -could not equal the beauty of this February -morning in England. When she turned to go -back into the house she noticed that the bare -wall of the vicarage was covered with hoarfrost, -an opalescent bloom shining in the sunlight.</p> - -<p>“A fairy palace fit for the Snow Queen or -the Sleeping Beauty,” she said, and the words -reminded her that Maggie must be waiting for -her to make the beds.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_47">[47]</span>“You ought to see the fat woman,” said Maggie -Pattle. “Her bosom was bigger than that -pair of marrows Mr. Lambert gave for Harvest -Festival; there’s a paper outside says she is -only twenty and weighs nineteen stone. I shall -never call Ida Whalley fat again, after last -night.”</p> - -<p>Linton Fair lasted two days, and the merry-go-rounds -were staying till the end of the week.</p> - -<p>“I went in the swing-boats, and I went to the -circus, and I spent seven shillings altogether,” -said Maggie with triumph.</p> - -<p>Anne shuddered at the fat woman, but when -Maggie spoke of the circus, of the little lady -who rode on a pink horse and jumped through -paper hoops, and of a horse that undressed and -went to bed and drew up the sheets with its teeth, -she wished that she could go herself.</p> - -<p>“Why not? Why not?” she wondered. “Why -should I not go this afternoon? There is no disgrace -in going to the fair, and there are the -drawing-pins that I have to buy at Linton. I -must begin trying to do some fashion plates. -Besides, I should enjoy the walk on a day like -this.”</p> - -<p>The six miles of road brought a glow of colour -into her cheeks, and she felt her heart beat with -excitement as she crossed the old bridge over the<span class="pagenum" id="Page_48">[48]</span> -Ouse, and entered the little town. The streets -were crowded with men and beasts; the market -place was full of farmers and machinery, and -half a dozen cheap-jacks, each surrounded by -a dense crowd, were shouting against each -other.</p> - -<p>Anne quickened her pace; the noise of a steam -organ told her that the merry-go-rounds were -in a field near the railway station, but when she -had passed the first booths, the coco-nut shies, -the rifle-range, and the places where she was invited -to win cups and saucers by throwing rings, -she suddenly became embarrassed. Just in front -of her were the swing-boats sure enough, laden -with shrieking girls; beyond them a great merry-go-round -painted with all the majesty of a -heathen temple, and loaded with strange idols: -swans, dolphins, lions, and ostriches, turned -slowly round like a monstrous humming-top, -and near by was the vast curving canvas wall of -the circus.</p> - -<p>She was surrounded by a happy crowd, but -she could not mingle with it.</p> - -<p>Already her pink cheeks had drawn upon her -the notice of a group of young farmers; it was -clear to her that she could not visit the circus -unless she went with a companion. At that moment -she envied Maggie her freedom as she had<span class="pagenum" id="Page_49">[49]</span> -never done before; Maggie, who might laugh or -scream until her voice drowned the hurdy-gurdy, -and who could answer back when a man spoke -to her without anyone thinking the worse.</p> - -<p>What would be said if she, Miss Dunnock, the -daughter of the vicar of Dry Coulter, were to -try to win a coco-nut? Many of her father’s -parishioners must be in town, and, with flagging -footsteps, Anne passed by the entrance to the -field full of merry-go-rounds, and walked slowly -on towards the railway station.</p> - -<p>Within the great tent of the circus she could -hear the thumping of the ponies’ hoofs, the -crack of the circus-master’s whip, and the falsetto -note of a clown’s voice, followed by a roar -of rustic laughter and clapping hands; then, -passing on, she came in view of the showmen’s -encampment: a score of caravans with smoking -chimneys, groups of hobbled ponies, and women -carrying pails of water, hanging out washing, -and preparing the evening meal.</p> - -<p>“A curious life,” the girl said to herself. -“Wandering from town to town, roaming from -one country to another, for the circus I see here -may be at Nizhninovgorod next summer and in -Italy or Spain six months after that. The -women must have a hard life, but I would rather -be one of them than the wife or daughter of a<span class="pagenum" id="Page_50">[50]</span> -clergyman. If I were to join them; but that -cannot be—some dark woman would stab me -rather than have me for her daughter-in-law, yet -if one of these handsome gipsies asked me, I -would not hesitate to go with him. I would rather -that my son were a clown or a lion-tamer than -an archdeacon or a bishop.”</p> - -<p>Anne roused herself after a few minutes; the -sun was setting, she felt chilly, and her thoughts -had depressed her. “My mind runs in a circle,” -she said. “Whatever I see, whatever I do, I come -back to the thought that I am an outcast unable -to share in the life around me, or to enjoy it, and -that somehow I must escape from my surroundings, -for I cannot live any longer without -friends.”</p> - -<p>She turned back towards the market place, -for there is nothing more gloomy than an empty -railway station, resolving to buy what she -needed and then go home without delay.</p> - -<p>“Loneliness is terrible, and I have not got a -friend in the world. The worst fate which can -befall a human being is to be born a young -lady,” and meeting the gaze of a handsome gipsy -with gold earrings, she added: “I can see that I -do not attract him; he does not care for young -ladies, and he is wise. We are an unhealthy, artificial -breed; his women are better; they smell of<span class="pagenum" id="Page_51">[51]</span> -tallow and wood ashes, and have the spirit and -the health of mares.”</p> - -<p>Anne bought her drawing-pins and decided -to go home, but first she would have a cup of -tea, and threading her way past a steam plough -with seven shares, and through a series of galvanized -iron cisterns, at which a group of farmers -were gazing with intellectual doubt written -on their faces, she crossed the market place and -went into White’s. The turmoil of the fair had -not penetrated inside the confectioner’s shop, -and she would have thought that they had no -knowledge of it there if it were not that a greater -primness reigned, and that the very gingerbread -seemed weary of the flesh. Anne sipped her cup -of tea with distaste, asking herself what the -young ladies behind the counter would have said -if she had given way to her desires, and they had -seen her mounted on an ostrich.... Did they -suffer from such temptations themselves?</p> - -<p>She had almost finished her cup of tea when -the door opened and a little girl came in, followed -by a short, thick-set, white-bearded man -of sixty. It was Rachel, her favourite, and her -father, Mr. Sotheby. Rachel smiled, and all -Anne’s depression was laid aside; even the tea, -tasting of wet boots, seemed changed by the -pleasure of their meeting.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_52">[52]</span>“Well, Rachel, have you been enjoying yourself -at the fair?” she asked, looking into the -pale little face, framed in short dark curls. The -child nodded her head quickly.</p> - -<p>“Yes, Miss Dunnock, thank you very much. -I have been on the switchback, and enjoyed -seeing the fair very much.” Rachel’s voice was -always a trifle stilted, her words always polite, -and her sentiments always perfectly correct, but -Anne noticed that on this occasion the child’s -usual gaiety was lacking. A few words with the -grocer were sufficient to explain the cause: Mr. -Sotheby had brought Rachel into Linton to see -the fair, he had taken her twice on the roundabout, -but his business was waiting for him and -must be done, and since he did not think it suitable -to let the child go to the circus alone, he -was leaving her at White’s, where she would -keep warm.</p> - -<p>“Come and choose yourself a cake, Rachel,” -he said.</p> - -<p>“May I take her to the circus, Mr. Sotheby?” -asked Anne.</p> - -<p>There could be no refusal, and the two friends -set off at once, Rachel carrying the cheese-cake -she had chosen, in her hand.</p> - -<p>When the time came to meet Mr. Sotheby in -the market place the two girls left the circus,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_53">[53]</span> -and still under the spell of the wonders they had -seen, it seemed as if they could never express -sufficiently their admiration and their astonishment. -The pink horse and the fair rider of which -Maggie had spoken that morning, and the -clowns, who had appeared so suddenly that one -might have thought a shower of frogs had fallen -into the ring after a thunderstorm, were discussed -in detail, but best of all they had liked -the handsome young man who had stood on his -head on a trapeze, and who, without holding -on with his hands, had swung rapidly from -one side of the great roof of the circus to the -other.</p> - -<p>Mr. Sotheby was driving out of the inn-yard -as they reached the market place, and Anne was -about to say good-bye, when the grocer offered -her a seat in his dog-cart, saying that he would -not hear of her walking back alone. She was -grateful for his offer, for she had no great fancy -for the six-mile walk herself, and soon they were -all ready, tucked up in a large rug, with nothing -to be seen of Rachel, crouching against their -legs, but the tassel of her woollen cap. Mr. -Sotheby flicked the pony with his whip, and in a -few moments they had crossed the old bridge -over the river, and had left Linton behind.</p> - -<p>During the drive home, Anne’s thoughts ran<span class="pagenum" id="Page_54">[54]</span> -on the young man, dressed in scarlet tights like -Mephistopheles; she could not forget his proud -and serious face, intent only on his trapeze and -indifferent to the audience; she would never forget -that unsmiling face, looking up at the -trapeze above him, as he deliberately rubbed -first the soles of his shoes, and then his hands, in -a box of sand.</p> - -<p>But she could not speak of the young man, or -of the circus, to Mr. Sotheby, whom she disliked; -she could not continue her happy talk with -Rachel in front of him, and they drove in silence—a -silence broken at last by the grocer remarking -on the number of foreigners that there -were at the fair.</p> - -<p>“Nothing interests us country folk more than -to see a foreigner,” said he. “A black man will -draw a crowd anywhere, and no wonder either, -for however contented we may be with our own -lives, we always wish to learn about those of -other people.”</p> - -<p>“He is a foreigner, of course,” Anne was saying -to herself. “Perhaps if I went to the circus -again to-morrow I might learn his name, and -whether he is an Italian or a Spaniard,” but she -roused herself, for Mr. Sotheby was still speaking, -and then, wondering whether his words required -an answer, she looked about her.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_55">[55]</span>The risen moon was nearly full: there were no -stars, and the road before them sparkled with -frost. “How fast we are driving,” she reflected. -“There is nothing like a frost to make a pony -go, and no doubt he is thinking of his stable.” -The sound of the hoofs rang out; the air was -much colder than in the morning, so cold that it -hurt her to breathe.</p> - -<p>“My son Richard is abroad, living in Paris,” -said the grocer, and hearing his voice, Anne -told herself that politeness required her to listen. -If she married the trapezist she might live in -Paris, too—or else they would travel from town -to town wherever there were circuses.</p> - -<p>“Before that boy was eight years old,” Mr. -Sotheby went on, “I knew that he would have to -be a gentleman, and I am proud to say that I -always encouraged him to do what he wanted -with his life.”</p> - -<p>She would call him Lorenzo. What did it -matter whether Lorenzo was a gentleman or -not? And Anne said this to herself, certain that -the boy who had swung so gracefully on the -trapeze was a gentleman. “For what is gentility -but pride and perfect dignity? And he is as -proud as Lucifer.”</p> - -<p>“Everyone says that I spoil Richard,” and -the old man beside her cracked his whip gaily.<span class="pagenum" id="Page_56">[56]</span> -“But as long as I can make money I shall send -it to him.”</p> - -<p>“I am sure you are quite right,” said Anne. -Money! If only she had a little money! How -that would simplify things!</p> - -<p>Mr. Sotheby had needed no encouragement, -and went on speaking: “All these farmers -hoard their money, and laugh at me for spending -mine, but I always say that we are both in -the right, for they haven’t sons like my Richard. -What good is money to my wife and me?” he -asked, but, without waiting for a reply, continued: -“To him it means books, education, -painting in the best studios, and the company of -his equals, for he would not find his equals about -here.”</p> - -<p>“Yes, money means all that and more,” -thought Anne, but aloud she said:</p> - -<p>“Is Lorenzo a painter, then?”</p> - -<p>“My son Richard? No, he is an artist. I am -fond of pictures myself, so I can understand him. -I have seen some by the great men: Rembrandt, -Turner, and Wouverman. There is a fine gallery -at Norwich.”</p> - -<p>“I am very fond of pictures, too,” said Anne. -“I have always wanted to try oils; perhaps I -shall one day.”</p> - -<p>“I thought at first of sending Richard to<span class="pagenum" id="Page_57">[57]</span> -Cambridge,” said the grocer, for he was not interested -in Anne’s chances of painting. “But he -said no to it. ‘There’s only one place where I -can learn to be an artist,’ he said. ‘Paris is the -only place for that.’”</p> - -<p>Mr. Sotheby shook the reins, and murmured -to his pony as they crossed a little bridge, then -he continued: “One hears a great deal about -the wickedness of Paris; several of our ministers -have spoken to me about it, but I console myself -with thinking that none of those men would mind -letting their boys go to sea, and there is as much -wickedness in Hull or Swansea as anywhere on -earth.”</p> - -<p>Rachel shifted her position under the rug, and -suddenly thrusting her head out, looked about -her with curiosity, like a little monkey.</p> - -<p>“Do the sailors believe in the Pope of Rome, -father?” she asked in her precise voice.</p> - -<p>Anne did not listen to the reply. Of course -Lorenzo was a Roman Catholic. Her father -would be heartbroken, but she would give up -everything for Lorenzo. Together they would -voyage over the roads of Europe, their horses -trotting on through the night, while the van -they were sleeping in rocked gently on its -springs. In the early morning she would wake to -find that they were encamped by the side of a<span class="pagenum" id="Page_58">[58]</span> -stream; the curling smoke of the wood fire would -be rising beneath an ash tree; and near at hand -the piebald horses would be hobbled, and happily -grazing on the dew-soaked grass. She would -wander along the hedge-row, startling a wood -pigeon which would rise from the cornfield, and -catching sight of the black and white of a magpie -stealing along the edge of the wood. Soon -she would return with her arms full of dog-roses, -and would give one to Lorenzo to wear in his -buttonhole; and in the evening she would see the -fragile flower pinned to his breast as he swung -on the trapeze.</p> - -<p>“Scripture tells us,” said Mr. Sotheby, -“that children should honour their parents, but -I feel a respect for my son which I never felt for -my father, and which I don’t expect Richard to -feel for me. I know that he works as hard at his -painting as I should expect him to work if he -had stayed in the shop, though of course he -earns no money by it. Perhaps he never will, for -the qualities necessary are not the same, and -Richard has spoken of men as great as Wouverman, -living and painting in Paris to-day, who -cannot sell their pictures. I would rather that -Richard were to become a great master than -that he were to sell a picture for hundreds of -guineas, and incur the contempt of such men.<span class="pagenum" id="Page_59">[59]</span> -Money is not everything: one need only read -one’s Bible to see that.”</p> - -<p>The pony slackened its speed, and turned a -corner; they were back at Dry Coulter.</p> - -<p>“Steady, boy,” said the grocer, pulling up at -the vicarage gate.</p> - -<p>“Thank you very much, Mr. Sotheby,” said -Anne.</p> - -<p>“A pleasure, Miss Dunnock; thank you for -taking Rachel to the circus.”</p> - -<p>“Good-night, Mr. Sotheby. Good-night -Rachel.”</p> - -<p>“Good-night, Miss Dunnock, thank you for -your kindness,” came the child’s voice as the -pony darted off impatiently.</p> - -<p>“What a glorious moon,” Anne said to herself. -“And what a hard frost! There will be -skating without a doubt.” She would have liked -to go for a long walk to straighten out her -tangled feelings, but it was half-past seven: it -was time to lay the table for dinner.</p> - -<p>“Perhaps Lorenzo is married,” she said to -herself suddenly. “Then we can only be friends,” -she added as she opened the door.</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_60">[60]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">FIVE: THE FROST HELD</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">The</span> frost held. On Sunday morning the little -boys lingered round the edges of the Broad -Ditch on their way to chapel, and Mr. Dunnock, -hurrying to the vestry, noticed Mr. Lambert’s -foxhound puppy running across the ice.</p> - -<p>“There will be skating,” he said to himself, -“and I have not lived all my life in the fens for -nothing. I can still show the younger men something,” -and he decided to ask Anne to cut sandwiches. -They would spend the morrow at Bluntisham:—a -long walk, but one which would repay -them with the finest stretch of ice in Huntingdonshire, -and at Bluntisham Mr. Dunnock -would see the best figure skaters and be seen by -them.</p> - -<p>After evening service he tapped the barometer, -asking himself if it would be tempting -Providence if he were to look at the skates that -evening. There might be a screw missing, a strap -needed, or a broken bootlace, and such little -things were best attended to overnight, he reflected, -trying to conceal his eagerness, for he<span class="pagenum" id="Page_61">[61]</span> -would not be happy until he had handled his -skates.</p> - -<p>“They will be in the box-room,” he said, -taking a candle with him from the hall, but in -the box-room many things met his eye which reminded -him of his life at Ely. It had been a -wretched subordinate existence, supporting his -wife and daughter on a hundred and twenty -pounds a year, but as he looked back on it such -things were forgotten, and it seemed to him that -his life there had been a happy one, for it had -been shared with the woman he loved. Setting -down his candle, he turned over the Japanese -screen, which he had always liked for the storks -flying across it, embroidered in silver thread. -His wife had intended to re-cover the screen, for -the storks were tarnished, and the silver threads -unravelling, but she had died before she had -found a suitable piece of stuff. “She is in -Heaven,” he said mechanically, and was surprised -once again that the words with which -he comforted others held no consolation for -him.</p> - -<p>“An old age passed together would have -brought a closer understanding between us,” he -said, suddenly speaking his innermost thought, -which he had not admitted to himself before, for -the clergyman’s tragedy was never to have had<span class="pagenum" id="Page_62">[62]</span> -the conviction of perfect understanding or intimacy, -even with his wife.</p> - -<p>“In the middle years of life we live too much -in the affairs of the day, and a child troubles the -mind of its mother. So many burdens to be borne, -so many duties to be fulfilled.... We were too -occupied to look into each other’s hearts, and -old age, the sweetest portion of life if it be filled -with harmony, and the happiness of memories -shared in common, old age is reserved for me -only; a lonely and miserable old age. Now that -I have lost Mavis, intimacy is impossible with -anyone else, and I feel myself growing far away -from everyone, and farthest of all from Anne. -She reminds me too closely of her mother; I find -it painful to be with her and I find her youth as -tiresome as she finds my hasty temper.”</p> - -<p>Mr. Dunnock told himself that such feelings -must be controlled, but he had said that before, -and had no faith that the strangeness which -seemed to be growing upon him could be overcome. -“Death will release me, and I must console -myself with the hope that Mavis is waiting for -me in Heaven, that she will fold me in her wings, -and take me to herself without a word of reproach. -When I hear the birds singing in the -mornings they repeat that promise, and once or -twice I have had the conviction that when I<span class="pagenum" id="Page_63">[63]</span> -looked out of our bedroom window I should -see angels perched in the branches of the -trees.”</p> - -<p>The three pairs of skates lay on a shelf, the -blades had been smeared with vaseline and -wrapped in greaseproof paper, but the boots -were dusty, and stretched stiffly over the boxwood -trees.</p> - -<p>“Yes, yes, the skates will be all right: there -will be nothing amiss with them,” for they had -been greased by <i>her</i> hands; it was <i>she</i> who had -laid them aside after the frost last winter a few -weeks before her death.</p> - -<p>The road to Bluntisham was long, and, as she -walked with her father, Anne thought about -bicycles. Her father had once had a bicycle, but -that was many years ago; he appeared to have -no wish to possess another, and Anne had never -summoned up sufficient courage to buy one for -herself, though the price of a bicycle was lying -idly in the savings bank at the Post Office.</p> - -<p>“I shall certainly buy a bicycle,” she thought. -“It is madness not to have got one before; a -bicycle would give me the freedom for which I -pine; what the horse is to the Arab of the desert, -a bicycle is to a girl in my position. I could ride -to Cambridge; in Cambridge I could go to concerts, -and even plays; I could ride to Peterborough.”<span class="pagenum" id="Page_64">[64]</span> -But she did not finish her thought, -for she was uncertain what Peterborough would -give her.</p> - -<p>“If I had a bicycle I should make friends and -instead of wasting my life like a fool, dreaming -about acrobats at a travelling circus, I should -meet Cambridge undergraduates, and receive invitations -to play tennis, or to join in a picnic -party on the river.”</p> - -<p>While Anne was thinking of all the changes -which would come into her life when she bought -herself a bicycle, her father was enjoying the -exercise of walking.</p> - -<p>“I am a great pedestrian,” he had said to the -Bishop, and although he scarcely ever went outside -his house if he could avoid it, the saying was -true, and it was all his daughter could do to keep -up with him.</p> - -<p>Bluntisham Church stands as the last outpost -over the flooded fen country; a little beyond, at -Earith, is the starting point of the Bedford -Level, which runs for thirty miles to King’s -Lynn without a hedge, or a tree, or even as much -as a mole-hill to break the flat expanse—green -all the summer, but under water, or rather under -ice when the Dunnocks approached it.</p> - -<p>The father and daughter had in common a -great liking for the fens; they loved the black<span class="pagenum" id="Page_65">[65]</span> -peaty earth, the vast level expanse of sodden -land, which looked flatter than the sea, when -viewed from the high banks of a causeway running -through it, or the embankments of the Bedford -River raised up above the fields which it -drained; they liked even the squalid villages on -each side of the level, the low houses clustering -wherever a hillock projecting into the fenland -made it possible for man to build. But better -than the Bedford Level of the present day, they -loved to think of the fens of the past, and of the -struggle to reclaim them which had begun with -the war between the Romans and the Iceni, flitting -from islet to islet in their osier coracles, -sheltering behind the willows, and making a -night attack on the legionaries posted to defend -the bridge at Huntingdon.</p> - -<p>As they drew near Bluntisham they began to -speak of these things, and Mr. Dunnock soon -passed from the invasions of the Danes to the -prosperous farmers who tilled the lands reclaimed -by the Romans until the twelfth or fourteenth -century, when the fields relapsed into fenland, -and soon they reached the great days of -the seventeenth century, for, as Mr. Dunnock -said, the history of the Commonwealth is to be -found in the Fens of Huntingdonshire, and the -Commonwealth itself may be regarded as a mere<span class="pagenum" id="Page_66">[66]</span> -episode in the struggle between the Uplanders -and the Lowlanders.</p> - -<p>Although Mr. Dunnock was an Uplander by -birth, and a High Churchman, he was proud of -the part that the inhabitants of the swamps had -played in English history.</p> - -<p>“Without the three men of Godmanchester -there would have been no Magna Charta, and if -Charles had not tried to drain the Fens, there is -little doubt he would have won the Civil War,” -he said, and went on telling Anne how as a young -man Oliver must have made the reflection that -his family had been ruined by the Stuarts, who -had encouraged their hopes and given them -nothing. It was a good reason for him to repent -of his loose life, and become more determined a -Puritan. Soon he was stirring up trouble against -the church in St. Ives; then his uncle, Sir -Thomas Steward, died, leaving him his heir, and -Oliver removed to Ely, but the temptation to -make trouble still persisted, and when one next -hears of him he was giving money to the Fen -Dwellers and helping them to resist the drainage -schemes of the King’s Adventurers.</p> - -<p>“Adventurers’ Fen is called after them,” said -Anne, and her father answered that it might well -be so, and they stopped for a moment to look out -towards the fen in question.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_67">[67]</span>“At that time the people in the fens lived by -fishing and wild fowling,” said Mr. Dunnock. -“Every week during the winter a train of waggons -left Linton for London loaded with wild -duck,” and he continued his story of how when -the King was engaged in reclaiming the fen, the -birds were driven from their nesting grounds, -and the great decoys woven of osiers were being -left high and dry, so that the lowlanders foresaw -that they would have to abandon a mode of livelihood -which had endured since the Iceni. They -had no desire to plough and reap, and the -drained lands did not prove fertile until a century -afterwards, when the farmers were shown -how to dig through the peat and quarry clay to -mix with it, after which it became the most fruitful -soil in England. Oliver Cromwell had taken -up their cause, and later, when the Duke of -Manchester was letting victory slip out of the -hands of the Parliament, it was Cromwell who -impeached him, and then, seeking an army, -turned for his New Model to the Fens. It was -Cromwell who equipped the Lowlanders, and -headed the Eastern Association, and it was the -Eastern Association which had won the Civil -War, and so the Cromwells had their revenge on -the Stuarts. But though the lowlanders had been -made use of, the work of drainage went on, and<span class="pagenum" id="Page_68">[68]</span> -the Ironsides who had been enlisted to resist the -draining of the fens were betrayed by old Ironsides -himself, the Lord Protector.</p> - -<p>But by the time Mr. Dunnock had reached -this crowning example of the perfidy of the -figure he so much hated, they had turned the -corner below Bluntisham Church, and saw before -them the great expanse of ice covered with -the descendants of Cromwell’s Ironsides.</p> - -<p>The field beside the road was full of motorcars, -of farmers’ gigs, waggonettes, and grazing -ponies, and at the entrance stood the farmer -asking a penny from every person who went on -the ice. No crop had ever yielded so handsome a -profit as his flooded water-meadows, and no -fenman in Cromwell’s day would have fought -more bitterly against a scheme which would have -kept it drained during the winter months.</p> - -<p>The noise of hundreds of pairs of skates on -the ice came to their ears as they entered the -field,—a grumbling sound that had within it a -note which rang as clear as a bell, and they sat -down to unlace their boots, refusing the offer of -a chair which would mean spending another -penny.</p> - -<p>Anne was the first on the ice, and as her father -watched her hesitating strokes the feeling of -affection, which the conversation about Cromwell<span class="pagenum" id="Page_69">[69]</span> -had aroused, gave place to one of shame and -irritation.</p> - -<p>“Am I to be tied to such a limpet all day?” -he asked himself as he had so often asked himself -before when skating with his wife; then, without -giving his daughter another look, he hobbled -rapidly to the edge of the ice and was off himself, -slipping away as easily as a swallow that -recovers the freedom of its element after beating -against the window-panes. His own strokes -were as effortless as the flickering of a bird’s -wing, and it was impossible for the onlookers -watching him to say what kept him in motion. -Mr. Dunnock never appeared to strike off, but -leant gracefully forward, lifting a leg slightly -to cross his feet, and, changing his weight from -one leg to the other, he flew lazily across the ice, -picking his way without appearing to observe -the existence of the clumsy young farmers who -doubled up, and, with their hands clasped behind -their backs, dashed round and round at top -speed on their long fen skates. Soon everyone -had noticed the tall clergyman with his beard -tucked under a white woollen muffler, and many -paused to watch as he began figure-skating in -the real English style. Eight after eight was -drawn with the slow precision of a sleepy rook -wheeling in the evening sky, before descending in<span class="pagenum" id="Page_70">[70]</span> -a perfect spiral to roost on the topmost bough -of the high elm, and indeed the black-coated -figure forgot for a few moments that he was an -elderly vicar on a pair of skates, and believed -himself to be circling in space among a vast flock -of waterfowl flying over the fens. It seemed to -him as if at intervals a V-shaped band of wild -duck flashed past him, each with its neck craned -forward, and beating furiously with its short, -clumsy wings; a flock of curlew was all about -him, and would wheel suddenly in its tracks with -a flash of white, then a stray snipe corkscrewed -past, a pair of greedy seagulls chased each -other, and two roseate terns revolved round each -other on their nuptial flight....</p> - -<p>Half an hour had gone by when his dream was -interrupted by a young man with pink cheeks -and rather protruding black eyes, who skated up -to him and addressed him by name. It was Mr. -Yockney, Dr. Boulder’s assistant, whose professional -duties brought him to Dry Coulter -when there was a birth, or death, but rarely at -other times:—the villagers were uncommonly -healthy, and on the rare occasions when they -took cold, or developed inflammation of the -lungs, they doctored each other with gaseous -mixture, or turpentine and honey.</p> - -<p>“Ah, so you are here,” said Mr. Dunnock,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_71">[71]</span> -shaking hands warmly, for young Yockney had -attended Mrs. Dunnock in her last illness, and -his sympathy and tenderness to the dying woman -would never be forgotten.</p> - -<p>“Yes, Doctor Boulder gave me the day off. -This frost is so healthy we have no patients left; -but it’s an ill-wind that blows nobody any good, -and I would not miss a day’s skating like this -for the world.”</p> - -<p>Mr. Dunnock said that Doctor Boulder must -write to the Clerk of the Weather about -the deplorably healthy winter. Mr. Yockney -laughed, and then both of them remembered that -it must be lunch time.</p> - -<p>“Come, Yockney, you must join us,” said Mr. -Dunnock, and Anne, coming up at that moment, -added her invitation, which the young man was -glad enough to accept.</p> - -<p>A line of trestles had been put up on the ice, -and crowds were waiting round the shoemaker’s, -and the men who let out skates for hire, but most -popular of all were the sellers of hot potatoes -and roast chestnuts with their buckets of glowing -coals. Mr. Yockney purchased three steaming -cups of cocoa, while Anne went to fetch the -satchel full of sandwiches, and in a little while -they were sitting on the edge of a grassy bank.</p> - -<p>“I have been seeing a friend of yours, Miss<span class="pagenum" id="Page_72">[72]</span> -Dunnock,” said the doctor after the second sandwich. -“Little Rachel Sotheby, and I fear that it -may have been your doing that I had to be called -in, for I understand it was you who took her to -the circus. She caught a chill on the way back. -Oh, no, it is nothing in the least serious, though -she is rather delicate.”</p> - -<p>Anne expressed her concern, and hastened to -explain to her father how she had met the Sothebys -in the tea-shop, and had taken the little girl -to see the circus.</p> - -<p>“Extraordinary chap that old grocer is,” -said Mr. Yockney. “He’d have been a rich man -by now, I fancy, if it had not been for that good-for-nothing -son of his. Just fancy, he told me -that he was spending all his money on making -his son a gentleman!”</p> - -<p>This seemed to Mr. Dunnock an excellent -joke, and he laughed heartily. He disliked the -grocer for his assurance, and his cheerfulness, -and his nonconformity, and was ready to hear -anything to his disadvantage.</p> - -<p>“The great news,” continued Mr. Yockney, -“only I expect you know it, is that the prodigal -is expected home next week. He’s been -in Paris, and has been going the pace a bit, I -fancy.”</p> - -<p>“Oh, I am so glad,” said Anne with real interest<span class="pagenum" id="Page_73">[73]</span> -showing in her voice. “I have heard so -much about him from Mr. Sotheby, and I quite -look forward to seeing what he’s like. He sounds -quite an interesting person.”</p> - -<p>A frown gathered on her father’s face.</p> - -<p>“Yes, we are all eager to see him,” said the -doctor, and then the tone of his voice changed -so completely that Anne could see that it was -another, and a serious Mr. Yockney who was -speaking, although she observed that his eyes -bulged just as much when he was serious as when -he was only talking lightly.</p> - -<p>“If you ask me, Miss Dunnock, I should say -that young man is the very worst type of rotter. -Look at the old grocer sweating away at sixty, -look at his mother still serving in the shop, look -at his little sister with patches on the sides of -her boots, while Master Richard is learning to -be a <i>gentleman</i> in Paris! There’s no word too -bad for him. I should like him to know what -decent people think of that sort of gentility!”</p> - -<p>“You had better tell him, my dear fellow,” -said Mr. Dunnock languidly. “It would do him -a world of good, I’ve no doubt. But I must say -it is probably not the fault of the son but because -of the vanity of the father. Over and over -again I have seen a young oaf of that description<span class="pagenum" id="Page_74">[74]</span> -produced by a couple of vain and silly -parents who ruin their children’s lives by denying -them nothing.”</p> - -<p>“But no decent chap, you must admit....” -said Mr. Yockney.</p> - -<p>“You think the son is to blame because you -are nearer his age and imagine yourself in his -position,” said Mr. Dunnock with a smile. “But -I, as a father, imagine myself in the position of -our excellent grocer. If I were to bring Anne up -to expect luxuries, and to suppose that she was -born to lead an idle, useless existence, it would -not be her fault if she grew up a silly and discontented -woman.”</p> - -<p>Even without this argument Anne was feeling -decidedly uncomfortable, and a clumsy piece of -gallantry from Mr. Yockney added to her irritation.</p> - -<p>“Stupid, coarse, hidebound brute! Do your -eyes bulge because of your manly virtue?” she -said under her breath, but she had to confess -that there was something in what the doctor had -said. She had not noticed the patches on Rachel’s -boots herself, and she felt her respect for Mr. -Yockney as a doctor increasing with her dislike -of him as a man. If it were true, it was disgraceful -that Rachel should not have a sound pair of -boots, but it was absurd to object to Mrs.<span class="pagenum" id="Page_75">[75]</span> -Sotheby serving in the shop; would she have -been happier at a hydro in Harrogate?</p> - -<p>Mr. Dunnock had continued a whimsical description -of how he might have brought up his -daughter so that she would have been discontented -with her life; the doctor replied, but -finally they agreed that both of the Sothebys, -father and son, were very much to blame, when -Anne remarked, in a voice which trembled, that -she was fond of the Sothebys and that she -thought that it was very fine of them to sacrifice -themselves in order to make their son a great -artist.</p> - -<p>“I can trust you not to be taken in by the -word <i>gentleman</i>, Anne, but I am afraid you may -be by the word <i>artist</i>. Art, you know, Mr. Yockney, -covers a multitude of sins.”</p> - -<p>“The best definition of art I have ever heard,” -said the doctor, “is that it is the opposite -of work.” Mr. Dunnock laughed approvingly, -and Mr. Yockney went on, his eyes bulging -more than ever with the seriousness of his appeal.</p> - -<p>“No, Miss Dunnock, whatever you may say, -I know that the kind of caddish selfishness we -have been talking about is absolutely abhorrent -to you, as it is to all decent people. I quite agree -with you that there is something pathetic in the<span class="pagenum" id="Page_76">[76]</span> -old Sothebys, but there is nothing to be said for -the son.”</p> - -<p>“Well, they seem to be an unusually happy -family,” answered Anne, feeling that she had -lost her temper.</p> - -<p>“I am too old to play at Happy Families any -longer,” said her father with a titter. “I shall go -back to the ice and leave Mr. Yockney and you -to settle the momentous question of Master -Grits the Grocer’s son.”</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_77">[77]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">SIX: WINGED SEEDS</h2> -</div> - -<p>“<span class="smcap">Why</span> is it?” Anne Dunnock asked herself next -day, “that my father can be pleasant to other -people but not to me? Though to be sure I fancied -yesterday that his pleasantness to Mr. -Yockney was a trifle vulgar, while his unpleasantness -to me has at all events the merit of being -sincere and well-bred.” And Anne told herself -that the only explanation must be that she was -as much a burden to her father as he was to her. -“But only I realize it,” she burst out. “For I -am young enough to recognize the truth, and to -welcome it; he does not understand himself or -other people; all his life he has hidden his head -in the sand like an ostrich, and after all what -else can one expect of a clergyman?”</p> - -<p>Her anger had lasted since the conversation -about the Sothebys, for her irritation during the -lunch beside the ice had been quickly followed by -fatigue, which had intensified her resentment. -After the unaccustomed exercise her ankles -seemed to have turned to jelly, and the eight-mile -walk from Bluntisham had been torture to -her.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_78">[78]</span>“Never again,” she said to herself; and when -Mr. Lambert had stopped at the door next -morning to offer her a place in his gig (he was -going to Bluntisham for the skating), she had -refused, and her father had accepted in her -place.</p> - -<p>“If I want any skating I shall go on the -Broad Ditch,” she had said, a remark which had -estranged Mr. Dunnock more than her sullenness -the previous day had done, and he drove off -with a hurt look which said: “You are no daughter -of mine to speak of skating in such a way -before a stranger!”</p> - -<p>When the gig was out of sight Anne went indoors -to write a letter to Coventry for a catalogue -of bicycles.</p> - -<p>The catalogue came, but though she selected a -machine, she hesitated to post the letter ordering -it, and after a week’s indecision she tore it -up, since the thought had come to her that a -bicycle would tie her more firmly than ever to -her life with her father, and this life seemed -every day to become less endurable.</p> - -<p>A thaw followed quickly on the second day of -skating, and after that rain and sleet fell for -several days. Mr. Dunnock appeared to be -equally disgusted by the weather and by his -daughter, and retired to his study, scarcely a<span class="pagenum" id="Page_79">[79]</span> -word being exchanged throughout the day except -at breakfast, when Mr. Dunnock always -reminded Anne of her duties in the parish.</p> - -<p>“A bicycle would rivet me to my present life,” -said Anne to herself. “What a chain is to a -yard-dog, a bicycle is to the daughter of a -clergyman! A bicycle would give me a certain -radius of movement; it would fill the emptiness -of my life; but I want things that no bicycle can -give me. Yes, I want books, music, beautiful -clothes, and more than any of these I want what -they stand for: that is, the society of intelligent -men and cultivated women. Such hopes are vain, -I know: I shall never succeed in ‘unwinding the -accursed chain’—still I shall attempt it and -the best way to set about it is certainly not by -entangling myself with a bicycle. Even if I had -to live in solitude I should prefer independence, -and that I can achieve, for the world is full of -women who earn their own living. Ten pounds is -more valuable to me than a machine with plated -rims or a little oil-bath; no one ever ran away -from home on a bicycle, and I shall want all my -savings for a railway ticket and lodgings in London -while I look about me.”</p> - -<p>So the letter ordering the bicycle was torn -up, and the catalogue itself cast into the fire, -since it was a temptation to the flesh, one which<span class="pagenum" id="Page_80">[80]</span> -assailed her particularly in the evenings; the ten -pounds was replaced to her credit in the Savings -Bank, and several days were spent in turning -over the best way of earning her living.</p> - -<p>“I shall go away from here, that is clear,” she -said. “I have known that ever since the ploughmen -came that snowy morning. Here the accursed -chain can never be unwound, but when I -am living a free life, among new people, and my -father is forgotten, I shall escape, and speaking -easily to everyone I shall be accepted by them; -I shall love; I shall be beloved....” Anne shook -her head and a shower of hairpins flew out on to -the floor.</p> - -<p>“Damn the elastic stuff!” she cried. “Why -do I endure it a moment longer?” and, tears -coming into her eyes, she started up and seized -a pair of scissors out of her workbasket.</p> - -<p>“There will be time enough for that later on,” -and the scissors were dropped as she told herself -that she must plan for the future, and not dissipate -her emotions in the present.</p> - -<p>Yet another week was spent in considering -how she could earn her living, and March came -in like a lamb before she had arrived at any -practical decision.</p> - -<p>“The birds sing and build their nests, soon -they will be laying their eggs, and then father<span class="pagenum" id="Page_81">[81]</span> -will be in agonies whenever a young thrush hops -across the lawn, lest it should fall between -Pussy’s paws. The snowdrops are over long ago, -the hyacinths have broken through the ground, -their fat buds look like pine-cones. First came -the daffodils, the double ones, and then the -single. The peaches are showing their pink petals -on the walls of the dove house, but I remain where -I am, I cannot flower, unfold my petals or -spread my wings....”</p> - -<p>When her father spoke to her of the migrant -birds flitting northwards through Africa and -Spain and Italy and France, from bush to bush, -twenty yards by twenty yards, to find their way -to England’s shores “where alone they find the -happiness of love,” said Mr. Dunnock, “and -where alone they sing,” Anne vowed fiercely that -before the last of the migrants arrived she would -be gone herself.</p> - -<p>“The cuckoo will be here in six weeks,” said -she to herself. “The nightingale will be here a -week after; I shall stay to hear one but not the -other. Which it will be I cannot tell, for sometimes -the nightingale comes before the cuckoo, -and that they say is the luckier. I hope I shall -hear the nightingale before I go and not the -cuckoo; it would be an omen that I should find a -true lover waiting for me, and not a deceiver.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_82">[82]</span>The spring pleased her and excited her, and -an hour or two was spent happily searching for -the first wild flowers, and gathering the sweet-scented -white violets which grew under the old -apple trees, but meeting her father at lunch and -hearing him speak to her of the Sunday school -reminded her of her resolution to leave him, and -at that moment the beauty of the springtime -seemed nothing but a reflection of the weakness -of her character.</p> - -<p>“How can I leave him? He is helpless, and I -am useful to him. Who will teach in the Sunday -school? Who will keep up the thin pretence that -he cares what happens to his parishioners when -I am gone? Without me who will order his meals, -and who will keep a watch on the bacon? The -Pattles will rob him; they will eat him out of -house and home.” But though it seemed that it -was impossible for her to leave her father helpless, -and though Anne knew that she loved him, -she was soon going over her old arguments about -how a girl can earn her living.</p> - -<p>All her experiences had been no more than to -pour out tea, and to teach in the Sunday school. -Other women of her age she knew were able to be -bank clerks, or the secretaries of business men, -they worked in Government offices, they did -typewriting, indeed there seemed nothing that<span class="pagenum" id="Page_83">[83]</span> -women did not do, but Anne doubted very much -whether she could become a useful person of -that kind. She had received what Mr. Dunnock -had called “the education of a lady” (that was -no education at all), she could not add up -columns of figures, or use a typewriter, or write -in shorthand. All she could do was to keep the -children quiet, to tell them Bible stories about -Balaam’s ass, and Daniel in the den of lions; she -could order the groceries, check the washing, -arrange a bowl of flowers, speak boarding-school -French and struggle somehow through a -piece of Schumann—letting the hammer notes -sound rather weak as her fingers tired.</p> - -<p>To earn her living seemed impossible unless -she were to succeed with her fashion plates, or -were to exchange one Sunday school for another. -That was always possible, and in another -parish she would meet with a curate who would -ask her to marry him, for nowhere could a curate -find a better wife.</p> - -<p>“Better a bicycle than a curate!” she exclaimed. -“I would rather cut my throat than be -the wife of a clergyman. Other duties perhaps I -might face, but I have not the courage to work -all my life for parishioners who prefer to go to -their own chapels, or to the public-house. It is -the fashion plates or suicide.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_84">[84]</span>But then Anne remembered that there were -many elderly ladies in the world whose incomes -permitted the keeping of a donkey-carriage, -with a companion to walk beside it. “Why -should I not be such a companion?” she asked. -“In the winter her sciatica will require a change -of climate, and we shall go away together to -the Riviera, or to Egypt.” And the rest of the -afternoon was spent dreaming of the music she -would be hearing at Rome, of seeing the Sphinx -by moonlight and visiting Tutankhamen’s -grave.</p> - -<p>By the evening she had decided to put an advertisement -in <i>The Church Times</i>, and at night -lay awake repeating to herself the magic words -which would bring her freedom: “A well-educated -girl, daughter of a clergyman, requires -situation as companion to a lady of means.” No, -that did not sound well: should she call herself -“a respectable girl”? No, not a respectable girl—that -smacked of the kitchen. “A quiet girl, -with an old-fashioned education, desires to become -the paid companion of a lady.” Nothing -would do, but nevertheless the advertisement -would have to be sent, and finding sleep impossible, -Anne took pen and paper and wrote first -one sentence and then another until she had -covered several sheets.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_85">[85]</span>Next morning all her efforts seemed vain, but -at last she decided on sending the sentence which -seemed to her to be the clearest. “Young lady, -who has enjoyed a religious upbringing, wishes -to see the world as the paid companion of a -lady.” There was nothing more required but a -covering letter to the newspaper, and a postal -order.</p> - -<p>Anne put on her boots and hurried out into -the blustering March wind. It had broken the -first hyacinth, and the daffodils were lying flat -on the earth. How the wind roared! It was pleasant -to be out of the house, for the chimneys had -been smoking. The grass on the lawn was lashed -into white streaks by the wind before which the -hens ran sideways, like old ladies crossing the -road. There was a thick scum at one side of the -broad ditch, a scum of withered catkins fallen -from the black poplars. Catkins hung like funereal -trappings or like black caterpillars on -every twig of the apple trees; on the ditch, the -ducks were dancing on the waves.</p> - -<p>“Such a wind as this scatters the seeds,” said -Anne. “The winged fruits of the elms and the -maples are whirled up from the ditches where -they have been lying all the winter, and are -carried over the tops of the tallest trees, and -this wind will gather me up like a seed that has<span class="pagenum" id="Page_86">[86]</span> -lain too long under the tree from which it fell. -Heaven knows where it will carry me! To Egypt -or Greece, maybe, or perhaps only to pull the -rug over the knees of an old lady driving her -donkey-cart along the lanes of an adjoining -parish.”</p> - -<p>Under the avenue of elms the wind roared so -loud that Anne feared for the safety of the -trees, and stepped cautiously, looking up among -the swaying branches. In her hand she held the -precious letter that was to set her free, the letter -which was to her as the wing is to the seed.</p> - -<p>“Once this is posted, there is no turning -back,” she thought. “There will be difficulties, -but they will be overcome, and when I look back -on my life I shall say it began on the day when -I posted this letter, and I shall remember -the March gale roaring like a lion among the -elms.”</p> - -<p>A vision of an elderly lady with soft brown -eyes like bees, and short grey hair, haunted her: -a precise lady she would be, perhaps one who -had been an actress or an opera singer in her -day, and kept a casket of love-letters from all -the poets of the ’eighties standing on the table -beside her. Her employer would laugh gently at -her enthusiasm, and would tell her wonderful -anecdotes. Her name would be beautiful, and<span class="pagenum" id="Page_87">[87]</span> -familiar: a name that is to be found in every -catalogue of roses, for she was the kind of lady -after whom roses are named. Anne would take -the place of a daughter, and would soon inherit -all her passionate fire tempered by her knowledge -of the world, all her deep wisdom born of -experience and of renunciation; all her cynical -clear-sighted witty tenderness....</p> - -<p>“Good morning, Miss Dunnock.” Anne’s day-dream -was interrupted, and she looked down to -find Rachel Sotheby standing before her, her -bright eyes shining, and her cheeks flushed by -the wind. Anne was pleased to see the little girl, -and thinking that they must part soon, she bent -down to kiss her, a thing she had not done before. -As she did so, she remembered Mr. Yockney’s -remark about Rachel’s boots and glanced -at them. Yes, they were stiff little boots, cracked -behind the toe-caps, worn out, they would let -in the water.</p> - -<p>“Mr. Yockney was quite right,” she said to -herself, and entering the Post Office, was embarrassed -to find a stranger standing at the -counter writing a telegram.</p> - -<p>“This must be Rachel’s brother,” she thought -as she recognized the foxey nose, and the slit -eyes of the photograph she had seen in the -grocer’s parlour. “This must be Richard Sotheby,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_88">[88]</span> -who has been turned into a gentleman while -his sister has holes in her boots.”</p> - -<p>As Anne asked for her postal order she avoided -looking at the young man of whom she had heard -so much, but while she was waiting for the pen -(there was only one in the Post Office with which -it was possible to write) she could not keep her -eyes turned away, and when he had finished his -telegram, she had to meet his eye as he handed -her the pen. The action was polite, but though -their eyes met for an instant, she could see that -it was mechanical, she had not engaged his attention, -he was thinking of his telegram, and -next moment she heard him spelling it over to -Mrs. Day, the post-mistress, and explaining -that it was in French.</p> - -<p>“<i>The Church Times</i>....” wrote Anne.</p> - -<p>“G...R...A...N...D...I...S...O...N,” spelt the -young man.</p> - -<p>“Barclays Bank and Co.,” wrote Anne, keeping -her ears open but failing to follow the -address.</p> - -<p>She had filled in her postal order and had -sealed up her letter; there was no reason to stay -longer listening while Mrs. Day repeated the -letters after him, and she went out, posted her -letter, and turned homewards. Already her emotions -about her advertisement had subsided, and<span class="pagenum" id="Page_89">[89]</span> -as she hurried under the storm-tossed elms her -thoughts were occupied with the grocer’s son -and his strange telegram.</p> - -<p>“Je suis las de tes amourettes et de mon -amour. Je consens. Ecris.” What did that -mean? And who was the Grandison to whom it -was addressed?</p> - -<p>Her meditations were interrupted by Richard -Sotheby himself, who passed her, walking -rapidly down the avenue. His hat was jammed -hard on his head: he did not lift it, and directly -he had passed she noticed that he was wearing -button boots made of patent leather.</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_90">[90]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">SEVEN: THE BURNT FARM</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">The</span> March gale continued for several days; the -daffodils were broken, the hyacinths in the border -laid low, but one morning Anne awoke to -find that not a breath of wind was stirring in -the elms, and after an hour or so the sun was -blazing with the heat of June. On the breakfast -table lay <i>The Church Times</i>, and she trembled -with emotion when she saw it in her father’s -hands.</p> - -<p>“I must speak to him,” she said to herself, “I -must speak to him now,” but she did not speak, -consoling herself for her lack of resolution with -the thought that the earliest answers to her -advertisement could not arrive for two days, -since they were to be forwarded from the office -in Fleet Street; she had not given her name and -address, but had used a box number.</p> - -<p>“I will speak to him to-morrow,” she said to -herself. “For I would like to enjoy one day of -perfect spring weather before I leave Dry Coulter, -and our conversation is certain to upset -us.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_91">[91]</span>She waited eagerly until the birds’ breakfast -left her free to take the newspaper into her -hands. Her advertisement was in, and reading -the modest three lines Anne felt her heart swell -with the triumph of authorship, and she ran upstairs -with <i>The Church Times</i> in her hand to -read the announcement over and over to herself -in private.</p> - -<p>“There is no turning back now!” she exclaimed. -“I have shown my independence; I have -taken the first step, and nothing now can keep -me from achieving my purpose.”</p> - -<p>Anne’s eyes flashed as she turned to the looking-glass; -and the eager look she met there intoxicated -her: at that moment she almost suffocated -with the sense of her own power. The blood -rushed to her head, and she clenched her fists, -and ground her teeth in the effort to remain -calm.</p> - -<p>“Have you seen <i>The Church Times</i>?” called -Mr. Dunnock, coming back from watching the -birds.</p> - -<p>“Here it is, father,” she answered, and running -downstairs surrendered it to him without a -tremor. Her father took it absentmindedly, saying -as he did so:</p> - -<p>“I think there is some straw somewhere, my -dear. Would you ask Noah to scatter it about<span class="pagenum" id="Page_92">[92]</span> -the lawn? It will be useful for the sparrows; the -nearest rick is several hundred yards away, a -long journey for them, almost an impossible one -if the wind should veer to the east. On a calm -day like this, it is not so important, but there -are not many calm days in March, and in any -case it will save a great deal of trouble.”</p> - -<p>At another moment Anne might have been -vexed at her father’s solicitude for the hated -sparrows, but she was in a mood to forgive his -follies, and she ran off at once to the potting-shed -to find the straw, and scattered it on the -lawn herself.</p> - -<p>All the morning she was beside herself with -excitement; and she found it hard to answer -Maggie sensibly when she spoke of their plan of -whitewashing the scullery. When the proposal -had been put forward a fortnight before by -Anne, it had seemed to mark an epoch, but Maggie -found that it was suddenly brushed on one -side, her feelings were hurt, the date was left -uncertain, and Anne had fled out into the garden -before she had time to question her again.</p> - -<p>The first tulips were standing stiffly to attention -in their field-grey uniforms, their buds unopened, -but the girl could not think of tulips as -she paced up and down the borders. Her life -at the vicarage was coming to an end, and she<span class="pagenum" id="Page_93">[93]</span> -must speak to her father, but after thinking -over what she would say for an hour, she could -find no words, and came to the conclusion that -it would be unwise to open the subject before -she had decided where she was going. Her father -would be certain to raise objections, and they -would appear more formidable if her plans were -not fixed. It would be better for both of them if -the parting were to come suddenly.</p> - -<p>“I will go to him in his study,” she said, -“when my bag is packed,” and with this settled -in her mind she felt happy for the first time that -morning. She had come out to enjoy the warm -spring weather, but, as soon as she had decided -not to speak to her father, and before she had -time to look about her, she saw Maggie waving -from the kitchen door and knew that it was time -for lunch.</p> - -<p>After the strain of making plans about her -future she found the meal a pleasant one, emotion -had given her an appetite, and, as she ate, -Anne enjoyed listening to her father inveighing -against the stupidity of old Noah.</p> - -<p>“You would scarcely believe it,” said Mr. -Dunnock, “but within half an hour of your -having scattered the straw, that old fool was -sweeping it up. I ordered him to stop, but he -would not listen to me until I had taken him by<span class="pagenum" id="Page_94">[94]</span> -the arm and had explained my reasons. But so -blind is the prejudice of the rustics about here, -that he said that he would as soon poison the -sparrows as not. I was forced to speak to him -very severely. It is his first lapse since the question -of the strawberry nets last year.”</p> - -<p>The mild sunlit air was full of bees as Anne -left the vicarage after lunch; the celandines were -gaping in the sunlight on the bank above the -Broad Ditch. Wagtails ran round the water’s -edge, goldfinches flew up into the elms, and -yellowhammers trotted before her on the road.</p> - -<p>As she passed the Post Office she remembered -Richard Sotheby and his strange telegram, and -tired of the turmoil of her own emotion, she -welcomed the memory. “I am tired of thy little -love affairs and of my own love. I consent. -Write.” And pondering over these words she -asked herself what kind of creature the Grandison -might be to whom they were addressed.</p> - -<p>A rich woman in Paris, it seemed reasonable -to suppose, who had been his mistress.... “It -is to secure her love that little Rachel is neglected.” -Anne wondered what their life had been -in Paris, and slowly a picture of Miss Grandison -formed itself clearly in her mind—a fair woman -she must be, with a white skin like the flesh of a -hazel nut, with fair almost colourless hair and<span class="pagenum" id="Page_95">[95]</span> -light blue eyes, a thick, slightly aquiline nose.... -That certainly was Miss Grandison, and at the -opera she wore diamonds and was wrapped in -white fur. On summer evenings her habit must be -to drive with Sotheby out of Paris in her limousine -to have supper in the open air, of lobsters -and cream, raspberries and iced champagne.... -As the night drew on she would become bored, -and drag young Sotheby after her to a vast -hotel in Paris where they could dance all night. -The men in their starched shirtfronts would -turn pale, and wilt in the small hours of the -morning under the tropical palms, but La -Grandison would dance on and on, ruthlessly, -first with one man and then with another. Richard -Sotheby would be forgotten, a young man -from the Peruvian Embassy would escort her -home, while Richard, disconsolate and brokenhearted, -would be left to pay for the buckets of -iced champagne, and the mounds of uneaten -sandwiches.... No wonder, with such a woman, -that he should declare he was weary of her love -affairs and of his love. But there was a hint of -jealousy in his bitterness.</p> - -<p>Anne smiled contentedly. Richard Sotheby’s -telegram enabled her to see her own life with -more philosophy. Soon she forgot to think, and -walked slowly onwards, happy in feeling the soft<span class="pagenum" id="Page_96">[96]</span> -air caress her cheek, in hearing the chatter of -starlings in the orchard trees, in looking about -her in idleness. Ewes lay indolently on the green; -their lambs were already strong on their legs, -and she watched the play of the pair nearest to -her, at one moment butting each other, in the -next skipping behind each other, or mounting on -one another in amorous curvets and then, suddenly -indifferent, breaking off their play.</p> - -<p>The stream was still swollen, though rain had -not fallen for a week. Anne crossed it by the -little bridge beside the water splash, and made -her way across the green, the sheep scattering -as she passed. On each side of the old track that -led to the burnt farmhouse, the blackthorn -bushes were in flower. The masses of frail blossom -were full of the humming of bees, but as yet -there were no wild flowers in the hedge, only an -occasional celandine shone on the bank like a -dropped sovereign.</p> - -<p>The fields on each side were hired by a farmer -living at a distance; they were still cultivated -and kept in some sort of repair, but much had -gone to ruin since the farmhouse had been -burnt. The hedges had not been cut for years; -there were forest trees in them, and holes big -enough for bullocks to wander through. The -great stretch of pasture by the farm itself, the<span class="pagenum" id="Page_97">[97]</span> -home meadows where the prize herd of spotted -cows used to be milked in the open, that had gone -out of cultivation, and was full of hawthorn -bushes, of the trailing briars of dog-roses and -of brambles. The finest pasture which had -yielded the richest butter was become no more -than a covert where the French partridges -nested. Of the farmhouse itself there was nothing -left but a few of the walls, heaps of plaster where -the nettles grew in summer, and one or two -blackened beams. The vegetable garden was a -wilderness with a quarter of an acre of horseradish -and matted gooseberry bushes buried in -convolvulvus. At one side, on a smooth expanse -of turf, stood the old square dove house, as -sound as the day it had been built, and the -pigeons came and went as they had always done, -for the dove house was still used as a granary, -and the pigeons were the perquisite of a farmhand.</p> - -<p>As Anne came in front of the house, it seemed -strange to her to see the fine iron gates, with -great ilexes on either side of them, and the -flagged path that ran so cleanly up to a mere -heap of broken bricks, where the front door had -been. Not a weed had taken root on the pathway, -not a bramble strayed across it, and even -the pond, by whose bricked side it ran, was clear<span class="pagenum" id="Page_98">[98]</span> -water. Irises grew there and flowered in the summer -time; on the grassy bank opposite there -were daffodils in bloom. Anne let herself in at the -iron gates, thinking to herself that it was very -strange that no farmhouse had been rebuilt there -on the site of the old one, that no labourer had -been allowed to work the rich garden as his allotment, -and that it was impossible to guess why -everything should have been let go to ruin except -the square dove house of red brick, which -must have stood for three centuries and which -looked as if it would stand for as many more. All -about there were the traces of a former fruitfulness, -a great walnut overshadowed one of the -ancient yards by the edge of the pond, and on -the other side, hidden in an impenetrable thicket -of bullaces, giant pear trees and plum suckers, -laced about with bramble and dog-rose, was the -orchard. The plums were bursting into a fine -blow, and Anne wondered whether the boys came -there to rob the fruit, or whether the plums and -apples fell of their own weight, or hung until -the wasps had hollowed out the last of them. She -wondered how it was that she had never met anyone -by the Burnt Farm, never a child nor a village -labourer. She had not seen it before in -spring, though in the summer it had been a -favourite haunt of hers; and she had gathered<span class="pagenum" id="Page_99">[99]</span> -roses there late on into the autumn from a bush -which had not yet gone wild. As she walked up -the path she smelt a breath of wood smoke, and -turning the corner of the house by what had -been the chimney stack, she saw tongues of flame -shooting up, and heard the crackle of sticks. “A -tramp, or perhaps an encampment of gipsies,” -she said to herself, and would have drawn back, -but at that instant she caught sight of Rachel -Sotheby coming from the orchard with an armful -of dry sticks.</p> - -<p>“Why, Rachel, are you having a picnic -here?” she asked, seeing a kettle on the fire.</p> - -<p>Rachel came running to her with eyes that -shone with excitement; she had lost her grave -look of self-possession, so that it was natural for -Anne to stoop to kiss her for the second time, -seduced by her wild look and her tangled -curls.</p> - -<p>“Yes, Miss Dunnock. Do you come here often? -I have never been here before, but my brother -brought me. He is sketching the house from the -other side.”</p> - -<p>Anne would have taken her leave on hearing -of Richard Sotheby’s presence, but Rachel -would not let her go before she had gathered her -some daffodils from the far side of the pond, -and had shown her the white violets growing<span class="pagenum" id="Page_100">[100]</span> -under the walnut tree. The kettle had not boiled -when they came back to the fire, and as Richard -Sotheby was nowhere to be seen, she sat down for -a little while, talking to the little girl while she -heaped up the sticks and unpacked the basket. -A minute passed when suddenly she heard a step, -and, jumping up, saw that Richard Sotheby was -standing a yard or two behind her. He was bare-headed, -frowning, his lips twitching, and seeing -Anne at the same moment as she saw him, he -gave his sister rather a puzzled glance.</p> - -<p>“This is my brother Richard,” said Rachel, -looking up from blowing the fire. “Richard, this -is Miss Dunnock.”</p> - -<p>The young man’s face broke into smiles at her -name, and he held out his hand.</p> - -<p>“I am very pleased to meet you,” said Anne, -taking it. “Now I must be getting on. Good-bye, -Rachel.”</p> - -<p>“Please don’t go,” said the grocer’s son. “I -have finished work for to-day; the light has -changed, and I have been wanting to meet you. -I want to ask you all about how your doorstep -was ploughed up. I shall never meet anyone else -to whom such a thing has happened, and I want -to know what it felt like.”</p> - -<p>Anne was too much taken aback by this to -know what to answer, but just at that moment<span class="pagenum" id="Page_101">[101]</span> -they were interrupted by Rachel’s saying that -the tea was made.</p> - -<p>Young Sotheby repeated his invitation, and -Anne sat down on a block of stone which had -once supported the corner of a haystack, feeling -very foolish, shy, and ashamed of her shyness, -but she was determined that she would not run -away after what he had said. She had blushed -crimson when he had spoken of Plough Monday, -but it had pleased her to hear something spoken -of openly about which so much must have been -said behind her back.</p> - -<p>“Yes. Our doorstep was ploughed up,” she -said, and her voice sounded to the others as -though she were angry. “Why does it interest -you?”</p> - -<p>“It was very wicked of the men to do it,” said -Rachel suddenly. “And you ought not to speak -of such a thing to Miss Dunnock, Richard.”</p> - -<p>The grocer’s son laughed at his sister’s indignant -interruption. “Rachel is a great friend of -yours, Miss Dunnock. I shall have to apologize -to her, but I hope I have not offended you also.”</p> - -<p>“No. Not at all. I want to talk about it, -Rachel,” she said, looking at the child. The little -girl’s mouth was trembling.</p> - -<p>“That don’t matter,” she said, almost crying. -“Richard did not ought to have spoken to you<span class="pagenum" id="Page_102">[102]</span> -of that thing. Mother told everyone that what -they done was no better than if they were -heathens, and that no one was to say a word -about it. No one would have ever but our Richard.”</p> - -<p>Anne took Rachel on to her knees, and hugged -the child close; at that moment she was near to -tears herself; for the first time in her life she -understood that she had neighbours who loved -her, and did not think of her only as a queer girl, -and the daughter of a queer clergyman.</p> - -<p>“Sit here, close to me,” she said, letting the -child go. “And let me talk to your brother, because -he is very clever and is....” It was on the -tip of her tongue to say “a gentleman,” but she -altered it to: “because I am sure he would never -be unkind.”</p> - -<p>Rachel looked at him in a way which threatened -that if he were unkind to Miss Dunnock -there would be terrible consequences, and Richard -Sotheby poured out the tea in silence, until -Anne asked him again why he was interested in -the ploughing up of the doorstep.</p> - -<p>“Because it was, as my mother said, a heathenish -act, and I imagine that, like most -heathen things, it must have been beautiful.”</p> - -<p>“Yes, it was beautiful,” replied Anne instantly. -“It was so beautiful that I was fascinated<span class="pagenum" id="Page_103">[103]</span> -watching it, and though I was crying with -shame, I was glad that they had done it.”</p> - -<p>Richard Sotheby grinned with interest as -Anne said this, and nodded his head several -times.</p> - -<p>“Like a rape,” he said under his breath. His -words were not meant for Anne to hear, but she -had caught the word, and for some minutes did -not know what to say or where to look, but sat -praying with all her soul that she would not -blush. At last the danger passed, and she went -on to speak of the plough wobbling a little as it -ran through the earth, and of the broad, shiny -backs of the three chestnut horses, and the handsome -face opposite her quickened with pleasure -as she told how it happened after a fall of snow, -and that there was snow on the horses’ manes -and on the carters’ caps.</p> - -<p>When she had described the whole scene, he -pressed her for further details, and soon she -found that she was speaking of her feelings after -the event, and that he was listening in silence. -She pulled herself up suddenly, unwilling to tell -him so much about herself, and there was a long -silence, for the young man did not press her with -questions, but the silence was broken at last by -Anne saying: “But you cannot understand it -unless I were to tell you about my father.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_104">[104]</span>“Of course it came about through him in the -first place,” said Richard Sotheby reflectively, -and Anne would have begun to speak of her -father and her feelings for him if she had not -felt Rachel shiver, and then she perceived that -the sun was sinking low, and that it had grown -cold for sitting out of doors.</p> - -<p>“That is too long a story,” she said, rising -to her feet. “You would not understand it, and -if you did, it would bore you. But it is late now, -and I must be going home.”</p> - -<p>“You must promise to tell me another time,” -said the grocer’s son. “If the weather keeps fine -I shall be working here every afternoon, until -about half-past three when the light changes. -Come and have tea with me to-morrow and finish -your story.”</p> - -<p>Anne promised to come, and then gathering -up her flowers and saying good-bye to Rachel, -she hurried off, for young Sotheby had to go -back to his easel and put it away in the dove -house, and she had no wish to be seen walking -home with him.</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_105">[105]</span></p> - -<h2 class="nobreak">EIGHT: WILLOW-PATTERN PARIS</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">For</span> several days a gentle wind blew from the -west and the cloudiness of dew-drenched mornings -was followed by the sunshine and softness -of the afternoons. Anne Dunnock knew that the -grocer’s son was painting at the Burnt Farm, -but though each day she set out in that direction, -she always turned aside on the way, breaking -her promise that she would meet him there -again.</p> - -<p>“I spoke to him too freely; Heaven knows -what he must think of me!” she repeated to herself. -At moments she found it consoling to remember -that she felt quite sure that she did not -like Richard Sotheby, but at other times it -seemed to her that what was so terrible was to -have confided so much of her secret life to a man -whom she disliked. But the weather was too -beautiful for her to remain long unhappy for -such reasons, and nearly her whole day was -spent out of doors. In the morning she would -busy herself in the garden, and, tempted by the -sunshine, Mr. Dunnock would leave his study to<span class="pagenum" id="Page_106">[106]</span> -come and stand beside her while she sowed the -sweet peas and the mignonette, or planted out -young wallflowers in the borders.</p> - -<p>“Do not forget to sow teazles by the pond,” -he would remind her. “They are as handsome as -hollyhocks, and wherever there have been teazles -in summer time the goldfinches will come in -winter.”</p> - -<p>Anne did not regard the teazle as a weed, she -loved the plant’s bold leaves that hold hands -about the prickly stem, making a cup to catch -the rain, and the flower-heads with their bands -of blue which creep up and down the inflorescence.</p> - -<p>Few words passed between father and daughter, -yet both were happy as they went together -to sow the teazle seed that he had saved, and -were conscious of being in sympathy with one -another as they had scarcely been all the winter. -Once there was a rose tree to be transplanted; -on another occasion a rambler which had been -blown down had to be nailed up on the far side -of the summer-house, and while Anne shovelled -the earth round the roots, and drove the nails -through strips cut from an old stair carpet, Mr. -Dunnock held the tree upright and the creeper in -place, his hands protected in Noah’s hedging -gloves.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_107">[107]</span>“The bees are working in the willows,” he -said. “Though it is still three weeks to Palm -Sunday.”</p> - -<p>Yet Anne had not abandoned her plan; it was -only that the spring and the garden full of growing -things had claimed her attention. But one -morning she found a letter for her on the breakfast -table, and as she opened it her heart sank, -for she guessed that it was from a lady anxious -to engage her as a companion.</p> - -<p>“What am I to say to him?” she asked herself, -looking up at her father as he came into the -room, and the morning was spent wandering -about the house, first carrying an old trunk out -of the box-room to pack her things, and then -with pale cheeks running to the door of her -father’s study. She did not knock, when she -stood trembling outside the door, though she -knew that in a day or two at most, perhaps even -in a few hours, she would be leaving the vicarage.</p> - -<p>During luncheon she came nearest to speaking -to her father, but each time, just as she was -going to begin, she was interrupted by some remark -of his. Such a subject could not be opened -without preparation, when her father spoke of -the decoration of the church at Easter her -courage failed her, and before she had recovered<span class="pagenum" id="Page_108">[108]</span> -it, he had shaken the crumbs off his waistcoat -and had gone into his study.</p> - -<p>“I shall have to leave a letter for him to read -after I am gone,” said Anne, but the idea was -hateful to her; it revealed her own cowardice too -clearly, and when she began to compose the -letter that should be left behind, she found the -task an impossible one.</p> - -<p>“A walk will help me to think things out,” -but in the road her footsteps turned of themselves -across the green, and she was half-way to -the Burnt Farm before she stopped suddenly, -realizing that she was going there to lay her difficulties -before the grocer’s son.</p> - -<p>“That will be the best way,” she said aloud. -“In such a position as mine, one must seek advice, -for it is only when one has been advised by -someone else that one recovers confidence in the -sanity of one’s own opinions.”</p> - -<p>Directly she had passed through the iron -gates the sunshine seemed warmer; it was as hot -as June; she could see the daffodils clustering -on the banks of the pond and reflected in its -waters; a brimstone butterfly rose from the -flagged pathway and rambled in front of her, -settling at last on one of the brick walls.</p> - -<p>There was a continuous cooing from the top -of the dove house, and the beat of the wings of<span class="pagenum" id="Page_109">[109]</span> -the pigeons coming and going; a blackbird was -singing in the tangled orchard.</p> - -<p>Rachel Sotheby was nowhere to be seen; there -was no fire burning, but recollecting that Richard -Sotheby would be painting on the other side -of the house, Anne walked round into the wild -garden. She could not see him, and soon sat -down, putting her arms up to tidy her hair, -loosened by an angry toss of her head, for she -was vexed to have come looking for the young -man.</p> - -<p>“Please stay like that,” said a sharp voice -behind her, and she looked round to find Richard -Sotheby watching her from inside the ruined -walls.</p> - -<p>“Please stay where you are, Miss Dunnock,” -he repeated. “You are exactly what I want in -my picture; I knew there was something needed;—now -I see that it is a figure.”</p> - -<p>But Anne jumped up before the sentence was -finished, and Richard Sotheby climbed out of -the ruin with his palette in his hand and a frown -on his face, repeating, “Please stay there....”</p> - -<p>He was insistent, and Anne had to agree to sit -for a few minutes while he made a charcoal -drawing.</p> - -<p>“When I have finished you shall have tea,” he -said as though he were speaking to a child. Anne<span class="pagenum" id="Page_110">[110]</span> -sat, looking up at the sky with her hands to her -hair and her elbows up, as he had posed her, -saying to herself that she had never met anyone -with such bad manners.</p> - -<p>She was hot with annoyance, but soon the -blush left her cheek, and while she listened to the -pigeons her resentment faded away.</p> - -<p>“May I see your picture?” she asked five -minutes later, and when the artist refused, shaking -his head and laughing, she felt no irritation. -It seemed natural to her that he should say: -“Not till it is finished.”</p> - -<p>“When will that be?” she asked, remembering -her own departure.</p> - -<p>“It will take me a week to put in that figure; -I don’t know how I shall do it unless you sit for -me. Come, let us have tea.”</p> - -<p>“I am afraid I cannot sit, Mr. Sotheby,” said -Anne. “I have come to-day to say good-bye.”</p> - -<p>The young man opened his eyes at this; his -curiosity had to be satisfied, and soon Anne was -telling him that her life was being wasted at the -vicarage, and that she was determined to leave -her father.</p> - -<p>Richard Sotheby listened without saying a -word; he was kneeling in front of the little fire -he had just lighted. The sticks smouldered but -went out when the paper had burnt away, and<span class="pagenum" id="Page_111">[111]</span> -she paused in her story while he fetched a bottle -of turpentine from his paint-box. He sprinkled -a little of the spirit, and a thick yellow flame -sprang up; then the sticks crackled. All his attention -seemed to be for the fire, only when she -spoke of the advertisement he turned his head -sharply to look at her, and when she told him -that an answer had come that morning he exclaimed: -“Extraordinary!” under his breath.</p> - -<p>“But what does your father say to all this?” -he asked suddenly, as he handed her the cup of -tea he had poured out. Anne found the confession -of her cowardice was difficult; Sotheby was -staring at her as if he were surprised by her -words.</p> - -<p>“I think that would be behaving very heartlessly,” -he said when she had done. He filled the -lid of the kettle with tea, blew on it and added: -“It would be a great shock to him, and it seems -to me so unnecessary. Children have parents so -much at their mercy; their one duty to them, -surely, is to avoid shattering their illusions. I’m -not a good son; my father is excessively irritating; -quite as irritating as yours. I don’t love -him, and that makes me feel ashamed.... You -have left it so late.... Do you really think that -getting this place is worth having to behave so -badly?”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_112">[112]</span>Anne’s face fell, and rather sulkily she pulled -the letter she had got that morning out of her -pocket.</p> - -<p>Richard Sotheby glanced at it, wrinkled his -nose, and began reading it aloud:</p> - -<div class="blockquot"> -<p class="right"> -<span class="indentright3">“Spion Kop,”</span><br> -<span class="indentright2">14<span class="allsmcap">A</span> Kimberley Road,</span><br> -<span class="indentright">West Sutton Vallance,</span><br> -London, W.23.</p> - -<p>Dear Madam,</p> - -<p>I have seen your advertisement in <i>The Church -Times</i>, and think it possible that you may suit -me. I am looking for a companion of gentle birth -who would be willing to undertake light duties -in the house. I have a girl who comes in daily. -What I really require is someone who will, as far -as possible, take the place of my own devoted -and dearly-loved daughter who died last year -after a long illness, patiently borne.</p> - -<p>I would introduce you to a pleasant circle of -friends, and would look after you as, I think you -will agree, a girl should be looked after on -coming so near London. I cannot offer a high -wage, but you will have every home comfort. -Will you please tell me in your answer, your age, -and whether you have been away from home -before, and when you can come up for me to<span class="pagenum" id="Page_113">[113]</span> -interview you. It is essential that you should be -fond of dogs, but no doubt you are. This neighbourhood -is considered a very healthy one, and -the house is next door to the church.</p> - -<p class="right"> -<span class="indentright">Yours faithfully,</span><br> -<span class="smcap">Ethel Crowlink</span>.</p> -</div> - -<p>Each phrase had sounded comic as he read it -aloud, and his voice ended with such a queer note -that Anne burst out laughing.</p> - -<p>“You think I oughtn’t to go to her?” she -said.</p> - -<p>“It is ridiculous to think of it,” he answered. -“Not for your father’s sake but for your own. -It would be out of the frying-pan into the fire: -surely you see that?”</p> - -<p>She did not answer, and he went on: “Why -should you choose to live with the horrid old -woman who wrote this letter, in a London suburb? -If you must leave home....”</p> - -<p>“I must....” she said. “Better anything, -however horrid it may sound. If I do not get -away from home, I shall never be able to speak -to anyone.”</p> - -<p>There was a long silence while she watched -Richard Sotheby wrinkling up his nose.</p> - -<p>“You may be more unhappy when you can -speak, Anne. Particularly if you should fall in<span class="pagenum" id="Page_114">[114]</span> -love. That makes one more unhappy than anything -else. However, you would do better to go -as an English governess in a French family. In -that way you would see new people and have -quite fresh experiences.”</p> - -<p>And Richard Sotheby began to speak of -Paris, while Anne sat fascinated by the magic -flow of words, seeing pictures of a great town -full of avenues and open spaces, with a twisting -river, crossed by innumerable bridges. And for -some reason, though she knew that Paris was a -huge city, and though Richard spoke often of -the crowds thronging the boulevards, she imagined -Paris as a willow-pattern plate; its -bridges like that steep bridge over which a blue -figure is hurrying, with bald-headed Chinamen -fishing in the winding river beside it on which a -barge is floating, a lady is disembarking, and -weeping willow trees border the Elysian fields.</p> - -<p>The voice went on, Anne watching the fine -forehead and the abstracted eyes gazing into -the fire, was carried away by her imagination -and saw herself living in the willow-pattern city.</p> - -<p>“That will be wonderful,” she said. “But -what am I to say in my letter to Mrs. Crowlink?”</p> - -<p>She spoke in a tone of such despair that he -burst out laughing at her. “You are a child!”<span class="pagenum" id="Page_115">[115]</span> -he said, but his voice was too pleasant for her to -take offence, and for the first time she knew the -sweetness of being laughed at without minding -it. “I feel sure of his sympathy,” she said to -herself. “Though I came here believing that I -disliked him, and even now I am not sure what I -think of him.”</p> - -<p>Richard Sotheby had gathered his brushes together, -and was pouring water from the kettle -on to the ashes.</p> - -<p>“You will come and sit to me to-morrow, -won’t you?” he asked. “And then we can go on -with our discussion of your future. Come at -half-past two, but now we had better go home -separately, otherwise we shall see our names -written up on Lambert’s Barn: ‘Richard Sotheby -loves Anne Dunnock and takes her to the -Burnt Farm.’ I wonder if they would put ‘the -dirty dog,’ or ‘bless his heart,’ after my name? -It is usually one or the other.”</p> - -<p>Anne laughed at this, and looked the grocer’s -son in the eyes, but his glance was one of mere -amusement.</p> - -<p>“Oh, they would put ‘the dirty dog’ after -your name,” she said suddenly.</p> - -<p>“You are quite right,” he said laughing. -“Wonderful you should guess.” He did not offer -to shake hands, and she walked away.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_116">[116]</span>She had read the scrawls chronicling the loves -of the village boys and girls, but she had never -thought that it would be possible to speak of -them. As she hurried home her heart was beating -fast; she looked neither to left nor right, but -kept repeating to herself: “Richard Sotheby -loves Anne Dunnock, the dirty dog!” “But he -doesn’t,” she added, wondering if she would wish -to be loved by him.</p> - -<p>Then she repeated as a variation: “Richard -Sotheby doesn’t love Anne Dunnock, the dirty -dog!” That was more like the truth! And she -thought of the telegram she had seen him write, -and wondered if he would tell her about La -Grandison. Perhaps one day soon she would see -her, alighting from a barge in the Seine that ran -through a willow-pattern Paris.</p> - -<p>There were no other answers to her advertisement, -and as soon as the lying letter to Mrs. -Crowlink had been posted, Anne was free to forget -her problems. The week which followed -passed happily enough; every afternoon she sat -for an hour or more in the spring sunlight talking -to Richard Sotheby while he painted her, -answering his questions about her childhood at -Ely, describing the poverty in which they had -lived, and how her mother had been looked down -upon by the ladies of the cathedral set, then<span class="pagenum" id="Page_117">[117]</span> -telling him of her father’s eccentricities, and his -violent temper, and of the last outburst when he -had insulted a canon, and had been sent for by -the Bishop, and of how he had been kept to lunch -at the palace and sent away with the words: “I -think you will do better by yourself, Mr. Dunnock. -There is a living going begging at Dry -Coulter. A hundred and twenty pounds a -year....”</p> - -<p>The pigeons cooed through all the afternoon, -the pear tree burst into flower over her head, -and was filled with the hum of hundreds of bees -working among the scarlet stamens, at intervals -Anne spoke of her life, and every now and then -Richard would interrupt her with questions -about her father. When she told of his love -for the birds, Richard was delighted, and the -rest of the afternoon was spent describing -all his little acts of tenderness and consideration: -scattering straw for the sparrows to -build their nests, sowing teazles for the goldfinches....</p> - -<p>“I see that I should get on much better with -your father than you do,” he said. “We should -have a great deal in common.”</p> - -<p>“He has made me hate birds,” said Anne. -“Sometimes I think I should like to wear a bird -in my hat.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_118">[118]</span>“You feel about birds what I feel about love -and about religion, I suppose,” said Richard.</p> - -<p>“My father has got birds and religion all -mixed up, somehow,” said Anne, but when he -asked her to explain, all she could say was: “I -don’t understand it, and I can’t explain it, but -I know I am right. It is difficult to tell often of -which he is speaking.”</p> - -<p>“That seems rather a beautiful confusion to -me,” said Richard. “Just listen for a moment to -the pigeons in the dove house and you will feel -inclined to it yourself.”</p> - -<p>“I only hate them because I am wicked and -selfish,” said Anne. “I am not going to sacrifice -all my life to beautiful things. Father can only -see beauty in a chaffinch or a wagtail; I might -be beautiful too, but he would never notice it.”</p> - -<p>Richard laughed at this outburst. “As pretty -as a wagtail,” he mused, screwing up his eyes, -and teasing her. “That is flying rather high, -isn’t it?”</p> - -<p>“I don’t see why a human being shouldn’t be -as beautiful as a bird,” said Anne seriously, at -which her companion laughed more than ever.</p> - -<p>“Perhaps not,” he said. “Still you don’t -really hope that anyone should ever say to you: -‘Miss Dunnock, you are as pretty as a hedge-sparrow.’ -I, of course, with my long nose, am<span class="pagenum" id="Page_119">[119]</span> -rather like a snipe.” Then, changing his tone, he -went on: “You are more like a heron than a -hedge-sparrow: a tall ghostly figure seen by -moonlight standing in the reeds at the water’s -edge. The heron’s hair is always flying loose like -yours; he tries in vain to keep it up with fish -bones.”</p> - -<p>“I am going to cut all my hair off!” cried -Anne savagely.</p> - -<p>“Yes, I think you would look better,” said -Richard simply. “But you must not do that -until my picture is finished. Seriously, if you -want admiration, you should come to Paris. You -are quite sure to find someone there who will -think you are beautiful.”</p> - -<p>She bit her lip, and asked herself if Richard -could have told her more plainly, to her face, -that he did not think so.</p> - -<p>“He does not care for me,” she said to herself -as she walked home the following afternoon, -after the last sitting. “Had he cared for me, he -would have said something nice to me when he -said good-bye. He is only amused, and contemptuous. -Thank Heaven I did not show him any of -my drawings!”</p> - -<p>For she had taken out her drawing book that -morning, to try her hand at fashion plates, and -had sat a long while examining her old careful<span class="pagenum" id="Page_120">[120]</span> -sketches of a dead-nettle in flower and a spray -of honeysuckle in bud, only to put them away at -last guessing that her work would not make -Richard Sotheby take her any more seriously, -though an ambition to earn her living by drawing -clothes was still present in her mind.</p> - -<p>“Yet he likes me, I am sure of that,” she -said. “He would not tease me otherwise.” The -thought consoled her, and she crossed the green -more happily. Suddenly she heard a little cry -behind her, a sharp note like the clink of flint on -steel, and looking round she saw Rachel.</p> - -<p>“Will you come to tea to-morrow?” the child -asked when she had overtaken her. “It is my -birthday and mother told me I might ask anyone -that I liked.”</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_121">[121]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">NINE: BIRTHDAY TEA</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">Anne</span> sat down to tea on the following afternoon, -with the four Sothebys, round an iced cake -with thirteen candles, in the rather dark little -room where she had retired to hide her tears -after Plough Monday, darker now, for it was -raining outside. There were chocolate biscuits in -glass dishes and crackers lying on the table between -the plates. But in spite of the air of jollity, -and of Rachel’s excitement, Anne felt just as she -had done on the first occasion she had entered -the room: anxious to escape.</p> - -<p>Rachel had met her at the door, they had -kissed, and she had given the little girl a pair of -fur-lined slippers as a birthday present, but immediately -afterwards Mrs. Sotheby had begun -to introduce her to Richard and he had no -sooner cut his mother short by saying that they -were acquainted already, when the grocer came -up and said: “Miss Dunnock, this is my son -Richard of whom I think I have spoken to -you....”</p> - -<p>“Miss Dunnock and I have met,” said Richard,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_122">[122]</span> -and Anne added: “Richard and I are old -friends already,” but at once became aware that -what she said was the wrong thing, for there was -an expression of astonishment, almost of alarm, -possibly even of disapproval, on Mr. Sotheby’s -face. Certainly he seemed nervous as he said: -“Well, well, since I find we are all acquainted -let us sit down to tea.”</p> - -<p>The difficulties of the introduction were forgotten -in the excitement of cutting the cake, and -it was not long before the last of the crackers -was pulled; a yellow paper crown was found for -Mr. Sotheby; there were paper caps for the rest -of the company, and though several of the mottoes -alluded to Christmas, they were read aloud -with pleasure and received with delight.</p> - -<p>“It is too bad, Richard,” said Mr. Sotheby -over his third cup of tea. “You are going away -the day after to-morrow, and you have never -painted the portrait of your mother, for which -I have asked so often.”</p> - -<p>Anne felt numb on hearing that Richard was -going away in two days’ time: “Why didn’t he -tell me that?” she asked herself, but without -noticing her look the grocer went on: “You have -spent all your time out sketching the old manor -house, but you have not shown us any of your -work.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_123">[123]</span>“He brought it back to-day,” said Mrs. -Sotheby. “But I haven’t seen it.” Richard was -reluctant to show his picture, but at last he left -the room, and it was only then, seeing Rachel -was trembling, and upset about something, that -Anne suddenly remembered that the Sothebys -might easily recognize the figure of the girl in -the foreground, engaged in doing up her hair.</p> - -<p>Richard lifted an eyebrow at her as he put the -canvas on the mantelpiece, and there was a long -silence, a silence which grew alarming, and Anne -knew that she had been recognized.</p> - -<p>“This figure is you, Miss Dunnock,” said the -grocer at last, speaking stiffly.</p> - -<p>“Miss Dunnock came by while I was making -tea for Richard,” said Rachel in her precise -tone, and everyone in the room breathed more -freely. “She stayed to tea with us.”</p> - -<p>“And she was good enough to pose for me -while I drew a sketch of her to put into the foreground,” -said Richard.</p> - -<p>“It was very kind of you, to be sure,” said -his father.</p> - -<p>“I think you ought to be ashamed of yourself, -Richard,” said Mrs. Sotheby. “Putting -Miss Dunnock into your horrid picture like that; -you haven’t done her justice at all. I should -scarcely have recognized her.” And the grocer’s<span class="pagenum" id="Page_124">[124]</span> -wife gave Anne a little smile to tell her that she -did not mind Richard’s having painted her instead -of the portrait that his father wanted.</p> - -<p>“I should never have sat to him,” said Anne, -“if I had known that he ought to have been -painting your portrait,” but Mr. Sotheby was -saying that he had to be off on business.</p> - -<p>“Very, very kind of you to come on Rachel’s -birthday,” he said as he left the room.</p> - -<p>“No, indeed, there is hardly any resemblance -at all,” said Mrs. Sotheby. “Anyone might -think it was one of the Puttys come home again.”</p> - -<p>“Who are the Puttys?” asked Anne.</p> - -<p>“What, you don’t mean to say that you have -never heard of the Puttys!” exclaimed Rachel -and her mother together, and Richard, who had -been looking glum since he had shown his picture, -added: “Yes, you ought to hear that -story, since you are the only other person that -has turned the ploughmen away.”</p> - -<p>“How can you say such a thing, Richard!” -said Mrs. Sotheby. “You know how that came -about by mistake,” but Anne asked:</p> - -<p>“Did the Puttys have their doorstep ploughed -up?”</p> - -<p>“No, not the Puttys,” was the answer, and as -Anne seemed mystified but eager to hear more -Richard said: “Come, mother, tell Miss Dunnock<span class="pagenum" id="Page_125">[125]</span> -the whole story from the beginning.” And -Rachel also added her request for the story.</p> - -<p>“Well, wait a moment till I have cleared -away the tea-things,” said Mrs. Sotheby, work -that was soon done with both Rachel and Anne -helping. While they were out of the room Richard -seized the opportunity to take his canvas -off the mantelpiece. He hid it in the woodshed -and came back feeling happier.</p> - -<p>The chairs were drawn up round the fire, -Rachel sitting at Anne’s knee and holding her -hand, and Mrs. Sotheby began:</p> - -<p>“What you children call the ‘Burnt Farm’ -is really the ruins of a manor house; the squire -lived there, Captain Purdue, and since the burning -there has been no squire at Dry Coulter. I -can remember him very well: a tall man who had -been a captain in the navy, and he certainly -thought a great deal about appearances. One -could tell that just by looking at him; what one -could not have told was that he cared a great -deal about money too.”</p> - -<p>“You have forgotten to say that he had been -dismissed the service,” Richard reminded his -mother.</p> - -<p>“Well, his ship was wrecked, you know, and -he left the navy after that; I have heard that he -was turned out because of it, but I do not really<span class="pagenum" id="Page_126">[126]</span> -know,” said Mrs. Sotheby. “Certainly he was -a very unlucky man, but at first all went well; -he had a fine house, built in the time of King -Charles II (Oliver’s men had burnt the old house -down in the civil wars), and a wonderful garden -(he had a whole greenhouse full of arum lilies in -the winter), his horses were famous, and his -dairy cows won prizes. At that time there was -not a gentleman’s place for miles round that was -kept up better. But I should have said that -Captain Purdue was married, to a very good-looking -lady indeed. She was a good deal -younger than he was, and I think she came from -the Channel Islands. But they had no children.”</p> - -<p>There was the jangle of the shop bell. Mrs. -Sotheby broke off her sentence and started to -her feet, but Rachel had slipped out into the -shop before her, and they could hear a woman -saying that she had just run across for a bar of -soap, and then, when she had made her purchase, -ask: “It is your birthday, isn’t it, Rachel? -Many happy returns! How does it feel to be -grown up?” and the little girl answer: “Very -pleasant indeed, thank you very much, Mrs. -Papworth.”</p> - -<p>“The first of the Captain’s misfortunes,” -continued Mrs. Sotheby, “was that his wife ran -away from him, and it was not long after that<span class="pagenum" id="Page_127">[127]</span> -before he was killed in an accident. He was -having his barn altered; it was an old building, -nearly as old as the house, and he wanted to -make it a couple of feet higher and was having -the roof raised on jacks. They got one side of it -up some inches, and then the foreman sent for -him to tell him that it couldn’t be done. The -Captain went to see for himself but he would not -listen to anything the men said, but gave the -word to go on with the work, and they had not -given the screws on the other side half a dozen -turns before the main beam broke in two and -the whole roof fell in on them. Captain Purdue -was standing just underneath, and was killed, -and three of the men were badly injured. You see -it was no one’s fault but his own, and indeed it -was very lucky that others were not killed beside -himself.”</p> - -<p>“But how did the house get burnt, and what -had the ploughmen to do with it?” asked -Anne.</p> - -<p>“Nothing at all,” answered Mrs. Sotheby -with a laugh. “But some of the most ignorant of -the men said that his bad luck was because they -had ploughed the doorstep up. That’s why it -was so wrong of them to behave like that to your -father if they really believe what they say. But -I don’t think they do believe such things nowadays:<span class="pagenum" id="Page_128">[128]</span> -everyone laughs at them, but I think -people will do anything if it is the custom.”</p> - -<p>“So they are expecting us to have bad luck?” -asked Anne with her face suddenly serious.</p> - -<p>Richard looked at her rather maliciously and -laughed.</p> - -<p>“Yes, we all expect you to run away from -home and your father to fall out of a tree and -break his neck while he is putting a young bird -back into its nest.”</p> - -<p>Richard laughed at this while his mother -exclaimed: “How dare you talk like that, -Richard!”</p> - -<p>“He is only being a tease,” said Rachel, looking -up at Anne. “I have got used to it now, and -pay no attention to him.”</p> - -<p>“Finish the story, mother,” said Richard, -and Anne added her voice to his. “Please finish -the story. I am waiting to hear how the house -was burnt down. Then I shall go home and buy -some fire extinguishers.”</p> - -<p>They all laughed at this, and Mrs. Sotheby -continued:</p> - -<p>“After Captain Purdue’s death it was nearly -a year before the lawyers could find the heirs to -the estate, and when they did find them the -trouble was to know what to do with them. They -called themselves Putty, though the name was<span class="pagenum" id="Page_129">[129]</span> -really Purdue; the father and mother were dead -and there were two brothers and two sisters. -They had lived all their lives in a tumble-down -cottage without proper windows or doors, right -out on the Bedford Level, miles from anywhere. -The brothers were labourers, ditchers. The elder -of the two was called Jack: he was the best of the -family but it was difficult to make out what he -said. There was no getting anything out of his -brother; he was stone deaf and had a cleft -palate. The girls were very wild, dirty creatures, -and not quite right in the head. When they were -sober they were all like wooden images, and they -looked very queer when they first came, in the -black clothes Mr. Stott had bought for them. -Well, they moved into the house, and within a -week all the servants left and they were alone -there. None of the gentry round would have anything -to do with them; nobody went near the -house except Dr. Boulder and Mr. Noble, who -was the vicar here in those days, and of course -Mr. Stott, the lawyer. At first they lived very -quietly, only making a fearful mess of the three -rooms they used. They were afraid that Mr. -Stott could turn them out if he had wanted to, -but after they had been there two or three -months they grew more confident. And though -they were like images if there were other people<span class="pagenum" id="Page_130">[130]</span> -about, there was plenty of noise when they were -by themselves and when they were drunk. Jack -used to throw things and his sisters would throw -things back. At first they came to ‘The Red -Cow’ for drink, and Jack used sometimes -to wave Captain Purdue’s hunting crop and -threaten to horsewhip anybody who didn’t take -his hat off, and one day when he had got very -drunk he stood by the monument on the green -and made a speech. People could hear him bellowing -for miles round, but no one could make -out much of what he said except that he was the -squire, and that he ought to have been told before, -and that he would never be rough with -anybody.</p> - -<p>“One day when he was in ‘The Red Cow’ -one of the men asked him how it was that he -didn’t like port wine. That was the first Jack -had heard of Captain Purdue’s cellar, for, would -you believe it, the Puttys had never been all over -the house, and the cellar being locked up they -had not troubled to break it open. After they -found the wine nothing was seen of them for more -than a week and then, one night, we were all -woken up with the news that the manor house -had caught fire. Everyone in the village turned -out to help and the fire engine was fetched from -Linton, but it came too late to be any use. The<span class="pagenum" id="Page_131">[131]</span> -whole house was ablaze when we got there; the -dairy and stables too, for they were touching -the house. The men had made a line from the -pond and were passing buckets, but it did no -good, for the rooms were very old-fashioned and -all the panelling had caught alight by that time, -and the staircase too. The flames made it as -light as day.”</p> - -<p>“What about the Puttys?” asked Anne.</p> - -<p>“Well, that was a very dreadful story. Jack -Putty had just broken his way out of the house -when we got there, but the two girls and the deaf -brother were still inside. One of the Peck boys, -who went to Wet Coulter afterwards as a -ploughman, got out both of the girls, but they -were terribly burned, and the brother lost his life. -Jack Putty did not seem to understand what -was happening at first, but when the fire had -taken hold of everything he missed his brother, -and then he ran back into the house to find him. -He came out again with his clothes alight and -jumped into the pond, and then, when he got out, -he ran back into the fire again. It was dreadful -to see that. He got out alive a second time, and -would have gone in a third time, but everyone -could see it was no use, and they prevented him; -it took four men to hold him. Poor fellow, his -feet were terribly burned, but he didn’t seem to<span class="pagenum" id="Page_132">[132]</span> -mind that, but kept crying out that he must save -his brother.</p> - -<p>“After that they were all taken to the hospital, -and there they found out that the girls -were not fit to be about, so they were sent to an -asylum for the imbecile. They have been there -ever since, but Jack Putty seemed a different -man after that. He went out to Australia; Mr. -Stott sends him his rent regularly, and Jack -sent him word when he got married. The property -still belongs to him, of course, and that is -how it is that the manor house has never been -rebuilt.”</p> - -<p>There was a silence in the little parlour, while -they turned the story over in their minds. Mrs. -Sotheby began to poke up the fire in the grate, -and the flames shot up; they had been sitting -almost in the dark.</p> - -<p>“A wonderful story,” said Richard. “I often -think of Jack Putty as a model: a man who was -really able to love his brother as himself. That is -the only sort of love, love which will sacrifice -everything, put up with everything, yet ask for -nothing in return. Selfish love is misery, I suppose -it deserves to be, but how does one avoid -it?”</p> - -<p>“Why do you think Jack Putty felt unselfish -love?” Anne asked, feeling rather puzzled.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_133">[133]</span>“You don’t think he tried to go back into -the fire for the third time because it was gentlemanly, -do you? though I’ve no doubt he really -was a gentleman,” answered Richard.</p> - -<p>“You would not have thought Jack Putty -was a gentleman if you had seen him,” said his -mother.</p> - -<p>“I daresay not, but I should have been wrong -... he was fearless, and he was independent,” -said Richard.</p> - -<p>“He certainly was not a biddable man,” said -Mrs. Sotheby. “But that was the only thing he -had in common with his second cousin, Captain -Purdue.”</p> - -<p>“The Peck boy went in once, to rescue the -two girls, but I should not have gone in at all. -I don’t think I should go into a burning house -even if you or Rachel were inside it. I’m sure if -Ginette ... Grandison.... But it’s not a proof -of love at all; some people will risk their lives -to save a kitten.” He muttered something else, -but the others could not catch it.</p> - -<p>“I must be going,” said Anne, getting up. -“Gracious me, it is past six o’clock.” And -thanking Mrs. Sotheby for her story and kissing -Rachel, she hurried back through the rain to the -vicarage to prepare supper.</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_134">[134]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">TEN: NO GOOD-BYES</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">It</span> was morning before Anne could find any -sleep, and the hours she spent lying in the darkness -with her eyes open, or sometimes standing -at her bedroom window gazing out at the pale -lawn and the moony spaces of the orchard beyond, -listening to the whispering notes of the -little owls, and to the weather-vane on the dove -house, whimpering as it swung in the wind: those -hours were remembered afterwards as the most -miserable of her life.</p> - -<p>“What have I done?” she asked herself, but -she could find nothing in her own conduct to explain -Richard’s behaviour. “If he regarded me -with even the interest of a casual acquaintance -he must have told me of his departure. He would -have said something, surely. Even if he hates me -he would have spoken of when he was going -away.”</p> - -<p>But Richard had not mentioned it, and had it -not been for a chance remark of Mr. Sotheby’s -she would have known nothing of the matter. -“He must have intended to hide it from me,” she<span class="pagenum" id="Page_135">[135]</span> -said, wondering why it should be hidden and -asking herself if it was because he was afraid of -telling her, or because he had fancied that she -was in love with him.</p> - -<p>“No, he has no such thoughts,” she assured -herself. “It is because of his complete indifference -to me. His whole mind is occupied by Ginette -Grandison.” And suddenly, a new thought -striking her, she said aloud and almost joyfully: -“Who knows what unhappiness she may be -causing him?” The thought of Richard’s pain -was a comfort to her, and she wondered once -more what the woman could be like who had so -enslaved him.</p> - -<p>“I seem sometimes in my thoughts to assume -that I am in love with Richard myself,” she said -to herself with surprise. “But indeed I don’t -love him. He is hateful; when I am with him I -know well enough that we could never by any -chance love each other. He is as sharp as his -own nose; he has no feelings that I can understand. -But yet I am fond of him, for he is the -first man to whom I have been able to speak -freely, the first man. How I long to live in a -world of such men. To live in Paris.”</p> - -<p>Presently her thoughts turned from Richard -and his cruel behaviour, to think of her own life -and what it would become.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_136">[136]</span>“I should have escaped from here by now had -it not been for him,” she said bitterly, and then, -recollecting that there had been no more answers -to her advertisement, she wondered if she would -ever have another opportunity. “If I have the -courage to advertise again,” she added, for even -that seemed doubtful to her at that hour.</p> - -<p>“Damn the fellow,” she said at last. “He has -disturbed my life to no purpose, he has raised -a hundred questions he cannot answer; I should -have been happier if I had never seen him.”</p> - -<p>And it seemed to her that every fresh experience -in life would always bring her such regrets; -that all struggles were only destined to make her -suffer, and that the best course perhaps was to -go through life blindly, living from day to day, -immersed in a world of dreams like her father, -and like him shunning all contact with her fellow -creatures. These thoughts were dreadful to her, -for the afternoons she had passed sitting at the -Burnt Farm talking to Richard Sotheby while -he painted her were precious. “The happiest -moments in my life,” she cried. “For I thought -then that I had found a friend.”</p> - -<p>Yet it was true: she would have been happier -if she had never met him.</p> - -<p>“I am not jealous,” she exclaimed. “I know -he is in love with Ginette Grandison; I have<span class="pagenum" id="Page_137">[137]</span> -always known it, and it has never given me a -moment’s pang of jealousy. If only he had -spoken of her, if he had told me he was going -back to her, I should have felt happy for his -sake. I should not have had a single selfish -thought.</p> - -<p>“But he has made me lay bare my whole life -to him and has never once spoken of his own. -I only know of the existence of Ginette Grandison -by an accident; he would not trust me with -his secret and would be annoyed at my knowing -it. No friendship can be based on anything so -one-sided as our conversations have been. And -the reason is plain, only that I have been too -stupid to see it before. The reason is that he -never intended a friendship. It amused him to -get my little secret from me; it flattered his....”</p> - -<p>But Anne suddenly checked her thought, crying: -“No, that is vulgar, that is unworthy. The -root of the matter is that I mean nothing to him, -nothing, whilst to me he is the only man with -whom I have spoken freely; the only intimate -friend except Enid that I have ever had. And he -cares no more for me than she did.”</p> - -<p>A flood of tears eased her heart; she turned -her face to the pillow; then, when she had done -weeping, she got out of bed once more and went -to the window. The air was cold; there was a<span class="pagenum" id="Page_138">[138]</span> -gust of wind in the chimney; the weather-cock -gave its gentle whine.</p> - -<p>After standing there an hour, Anne went back -to bed again with a picture of the darkness in -her mind, saying to herself: “And so on for ever -and ever, cold and darkness after the sunshine -and the warmth of the day.”</p> - -<p>Next morning Anne felt ill when she woke; -her head ached, she was dizzy, and the outer -world was seen alternately as a whirling mist -and defined with extraordinary clearness. She -got up from habit, but she could eat nothing -at breakfast, and as soon as her bed had been -made she undressed and lay down on it, and fell -asleep.</p> - -<p>When she awoke it was with the echo of Richard’s -voice ringing in her ears; she scrambled -out of bed and went at once to her window. There -was nothing to be seen, she blinked her eyes in -the brilliant sunlight and, reeling with sleep, -groped her way back through the sudden darkness -of the room to her bed to fall into a doze -from which she awoke once more, this time with -the certainty of having heard voices: beyond a -doubt, one of them was Richard’s.</p> - -<p>The voices rose for a moment; then she heard -the front door slam, in a gust of wind, and there -was a silence. She understood suddenly that<span class="pagenum" id="Page_139">[139]</span> -Richard had been in the house, that he had come -to see her, and she got out of bed.</p> - -<p>The bedroom window gave on to the garden, -so she ran to her father’s room just as she had -done to see the ploughmen on that snowy winter -morning. Her guess had been right, for there -almost directly beneath her were Richard and -her father; they were standing bare-headed in -the rain talking amicably; she could hear her -father’s gentle laugh; they were reluctant to -part. Anne’s first instinct was to call out; to ask -Richard to wait while she exchanged her dressing-gown -for clothes in which she could appear, -but she realized that it was impossible to do so, -and then, with the angry feelings that every sick -person has experienced of knowing that life is -going on unchanged behind his back, she was -forced to watch Richard disappear after shaking -hands with her father by the garden gate.</p> - -<p>“A thousand pities,” she said to herself. “He -must have come to see me. What can he have said -to my father?” Her headache and dizziness were -gone, she felt eager and excited, and the moments -while she was putting on her clothes and -doing up her hair were spent in trying to imagine -the conversation that had been going on -while she was asleep.</p> - -<p>“What an extraordinary thing,” said Anne,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_140">[140]</span> -“that he should think of calling! Nobody but -Richard would have done such a thing!” Her -thoughts were interrupted by Maggie coming to -ask her if she would like to have tea in bed. As -she was going downstairs it occurred to her that -Richard might have spoken of her; he would -have told her father that they had met; he -might even have mentioned his picture. As she -opened the door into the room where her father -was already sitting, she remembered the well-brought-up -heroes in Victorian novels who ask -a father’s permission before entering into correspondence -with the girl they have rescued when -the pony has taken the bit between its teeth and -the governess cart is heading for the side of the -quarry ... a memory which was driven away -with a laugh, but which left her anxious and expectant -as she took her place at the tea table.</p> - -<p>Mr. Dunnock did not make any reference to -his visitor, though he was less abstracted than -usual, asking Anne with great solicitude about -her headache, and then saying: “I have been -feeling a little more melancholy than usual to-day -because of the bad weather, and so I took -down Burton. In his anatomy he has much to -say about the effect of food. The authorities all -agree that beef is only safe for those who lead -an active life; that pork is definitely bad for the<span class="pagenum" id="Page_141">[141]</span> -reasoning man; that goats’ flesh disposes those -who partake of it to evil-living; venison is most -strongly condemned, and even horse-flesh is held -to account for the well-known melancholy of -your Spaniard; among vegetables the onion and -its congeners, and I am glad to say the cabbage, -are absolutely condemned; peas and beans -should be avoided as far as possible, and salads -and fruit only taken in the strictest moderation. -Burton thinks that the potato may be a safe -article of diet, and highly recommends borage.”</p> - -<p>Anne was smiling at her father’s enthusiasm. -“There seems very little for you to eat,” she -said.</p> - -<p>“Well, Anne, I do not know quite what Burton -would recommend; he says nothing against -wheaten bread; he regards fresh country cheese -as wholesome, and speaks with enthusiasm of -beer.” Mr. Dunnock giggled as he said this and -for some reason that familiar clerical sound -seemed to his daughter at that moment to express -all that she most hated and despised. “The -giggle is unforgivable,” she said to herself gazing -at her father over the tea table. “He is a -grown-up man; he has a beard; he is my father, -but if beer is mentioned one hears a silly adolescent -giggle. One would think that he was a choir -boy caught with a cigarette.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_142">[142]</span>She left the table and went out into the garden -in a fury; she had forgotten her own embarrassment -when Richard had used the word “rape.”</p> - -<p>Mr. Dunnock, absorbed in his own thoughts, -hardly looked after her.</p> - -<p>“Beer,” he said, pouring himself out a fourth -cup of tea, and giggling slightly. “Good stuff, -beer. He thought that because his name was -Burton,” and Mr. Dunnock began to wonder if -Robert Burton had really come from Burton-on-Trent, -and if beer had always been brewed -there.</p> - -<p>“I forgot to tell you,” he said to Anne at -supper, “that I had a visit this afternoon from -Richard Sotheby, the son of our grocer. It was a -great pity that you had a headache, for we do -not have many interesting visitors. I think he -is charming: a most delightful, most intelligent -young man. But you should have told me that -you had met him; you should have asked him to -tea, and have introduced him to me. It was too -bad, Anne, to have kept him to yourself.”</p> - -<p>Anne gasped with astonishment and, not -knowing what to reply, waited until her father -went on: “He seems to have liked you very -much; you have made quite a conquest,” and -Mr. Dunnock smiled his peculiar little smile -which showed that he was not speaking seriously.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_143">[143]</span>“I thought you rather disapproved of the -Sothebys,” said Anne. “Because, of course, they -are Nonconformists.”</p> - -<p>“Well, well,” said her father, wrinkling up -his face at the word, for it set his teeth on edge -like the thought of sour fruit. “Well, well, I -suppose they are happy with their little ugly -worship; I confess their outlook is repugnant to -me. But the son has escaped from all that. He -told me he has been to visit Little Gidding, and -asked me a number of questions about Nicholas -Ferrar’s community. Apparently he is greatly -interested in the antiquities of the county.”</p> - -<p>Anne had known Little Gidding all her life, -and she shared her father’s love for the lonely -little church perched on the edge of the hillside, -with the slope of green sward below and the -woods behind. She had been brought up to revere -Nicholas Ferrar, and had loved to reconstruct a -life which had so much of the beauty of religion -in it, and nothing of what she disliked. Often she -thought that she would have been content for -her father to have been a clergyman if he had -lived in the seventeenth century, or even in the -eighteenth for the matter of that, for it was only -during the reign of Queen Victoria that the -clergy in England lost touch with the community -and became self-conscious. Anne knew<span class="pagenum" id="Page_144">[144]</span> -how much happier her father would have been -had he belonged to Nicholas Ferrar’s household, -and though she would not have cared for it herself -(she would have disliked rising at four -o’clock for prayers every morning) she wished -he could live in such a way himself. Thus for -once she was tolerant, for she loved Little Gidding, -and had prayed in the narrow little church -with an outburst of religious passion such as -she had never experienced in Ely Cathedral.</p> - -<p>For the rest of that evening father and daughter -spoke of Little Gidding, calling up pictures -in each other’s minds of how it must be looking -in the spring weather, and of the life of the immense -and extraordinary household which had -lived there until the Roundheads had burned -the roof over their heads and had thrown the -brass eagle lectern in the church into the pond -below.</p> - -<p>“The men slept in one wing of the house and -the women in the other,” Anne remembered. -“And Nicholas Ferrar slept watchfully in the -middle. That is the funny side,” but she hid her -thought from her father, and when she spoke it -was to remind him of the immense number of -children in the community.</p> - -<p>“His daughter brought her eleven children; -there were thirty people altogether,” said her<span class="pagenum" id="Page_145">[145]</span> -father, and he passed on to describe the three -visits of King Charles I, and so vivid were his -words that Anne could picture to herself, more -clearly than ever before, the visit the King paid -during the civil war when he came toiling up the -hill on foot, and alone, to pray.</p> - -<p>“There is no more sacred spot in England,” -said Mr. Dunnock, and Anne was inclined to -agree with him. That night she lay for some -time without sleeping, giving herself up to the -happiest thoughts, and when at last she dozed -off it was with the picture of Richard Sotheby in -her mind: Richard walking over the greenest -turf where the manor house had stood, resting -on the sides of the dry grassy moat, and then -walking down by the edge of the wood to the -little church with Nicholas Ferrar’s tomb in the -pathway leading up to it, under a tombstone, -the letters of which are written in moss. A tall -figure came toiling up the hill to meet him; she -saw a tired man with a pale face—King -Charles the First, and try how she would to -dream of Richard Sotheby, King Charles would -reappear.</p> - -<p>“I shall certainly try to see Richard before -he goes this morning,” Anne thought at breakfast. -“I shall look in and tell Mrs. Sotheby that -I have come to say good-bye.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_146">[146]</span>But when the time came she went past the -shop, for she remembered Mr. Sotheby’s look of -surprise when he found that she was acquainted -with his son, and the long hostile silence before -he spoke, after he had recognized her in the -painting.</p> - -<p>“Mr. Sotheby does not approve of my knowing -Richard,” Anne said to herself, glancing -through the windows of the shop. She could see -no one inside, and the longer she meditated over -the grocer’s behaviour at Rachel’s birthday -party, the more convinced she became that he -was jealous of her, and alarmed lest an attachment -should spring up between his son and her.</p> - -<p>“I will go for a stroll on the green,” and -looking about her she saw for the first time that -the sun was shining, and that the grass was -greener after the rain of the day before. “Why, -the hawthorns have come into leaf; the horse-chestnut -buds are bursting; in a few days the -apples will be in blossom,” but the daily progress -of the spring, which would ordinarily have given -her such keen pleasure, was meaningless now. “I -must see Richard before he goes,” she said in -desperation. “I must arrange with him about -finding me work in Paris,” and she remembered -with dismay that she did not even know his -address.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_147">[147]</span>Soon she turned back on her footsteps, and -fully an hour was spent in passing and repassing -the grocer’s shop.</p> - -<p>“I am wasting my time,” she thought. “For -Easter is nearly upon us; there is much to do at -the church.” But it was not possible to go home -after waiting so long, and at last she set off -along the road to Linton. A mile was covered -before it occurred to her that Richard would be -driving with his father, and that even if Mr. -Sotheby should pull up it would be difficult for -them to speak in front of him, and she turned -back and walked to the village at top speed.</p> - -<p>All seemed well, for she had not passed them -on the road, and she determined once more to -enter the shop, but it occurred to her, as she -approached, that Rachel would be coming out -of school in a few minutes: it was just twelve -o’clock.</p> - -<p>As she turned the corner by the schoolhouse, -she noticed the strange ring deeply cut into the -earth and full of dust, and wondered again what -game the children played there.</p> - -<p>Soon the door opened and the children began -to run out. “In this riot I shall not be able to -speak to Rachel,” Anne said to herself. “But if -I walk back towards the shop she may walk -another way.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_148">[148]</span>“A lovely morning, Miss Dunnock,” said a -voice behind her, and she turned to find Mr. -Lambert.</p> - -<p>The moments spent talking to him were -agonizing, for every instant she expected to see -Rachel run past her, but Mr. Lambert would -not be hurried. Soon he began to speak of -Easter, and the arrangements at the church, -for he was a churchwarden, and when that subject -was exhausted he returned to the weather.</p> - -<p>“One is happy to be alive on such a morning, -Miss Dunnock; I envy you your leisure to enjoy -it. Free as air, Miss Dunnock, and no one to call -your master. Work is my master. This weather -keeps us very busy.”</p> - -<p>“Impertinent puppy,” said Anne to herself, -though as a matter of fact she rather liked Mr. -Lambert, and saw nothing impertinent in his -manners.</p> - -<p>At the very moment when Mr. Lambert released -her she heard Rachel’s voice saying: -“Good morning, Miss Dunnock,” and the little -girl ran by her with two or three other children. -Anne saw that it was useless to wait any longer, -and returned to the vicarage; there was nothing -to be angry about, nobody was at fault.</p> - -<p>“There was this note left for you. Rachel -Sotheby brought it over,” said Maggie when she<span class="pagenum" id="Page_149">[149]</span> -went into the kitchen, and Anne thought the -girl’s grin was an impertinence too.</p> - -<p>Richard had gone by the early morning train. -“I am so sorry not to see you to say good-bye,” -he wrote. “You must not forget your promise -to write, and remember to tell me all the news -of the parish.” He enclosed his address.</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_150">[150]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">ELEVEN: BEFORE THE SWALLOW -DARES</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">Easter</span> was over, but the church at Dry Coulter -was still full of the scent of flowers mingled with -the odour of their corruption. A necklace of -decayed marsh-mallows hung forlornly round -the neck of the eagle; its brazen beak held a -bunch of wilted cowslips, but the daffodils and -narcissus on the altar still breathed out their -perfume. Easter was over, and Mr. Dunnock -heaved a sigh of relief for he had come to feel -the church festivals a great strain upon him.</p> - -<p>Easter was over; Mrs. Pattle marched up the -aisle on her flat feet and began tearing down the -flowers which her children had gathered three -days before.</p> - -<p>Mr. Dunnock walked by the little pathway -from the vestry to his wife’s grave, and stood -there looking at the headstone. He stayed there -so long and stood so still that a robin, recognizing -a friend in him, came to perch on his -shoulder.</p> - -<p>“The resurrection of the flesh has come to -pass,” Mr. Dunnock said aloud. “These ones<span class="pagenum" id="Page_151">[151]</span> -come to me and they commune with me; why does -she alone delay?”</p> - -<p>At last a cow lowing on the other side of the -hedge, interrupted the clergyman’s reverie; he -started slightly and coming to himself began to -pull his beard with a gesture of despair, and -the robin, who had been wondering if he could -induce his wife to nest in it, flew off to a tombstone, -disappointed.</p> - -<p>“I live in two worlds,” Mr. Dunnock reflected. -“Only the saints know how terrible the strain of -such an experience can be. I cannot bear it much -longer; something will break in me. My head -aches when I am recalled from the contemplation -of so much glory to the pettiness in which -men live, their eyes on the ground and their ears -stopped to the voices of the angels. I cannot endure -it any longer; it would be better, I think, -if I were to live alone.” He clutched at his head -suddenly, and then walked rapidly from the -churchyard towards the vicarage. But the song -of a willow wren caught his ear as he passed -under the elms, and he paused to listen. The -clear top note was followed by a stream of softer -sounds and ended with a cadence of lower notes, -a touch of melancholy in which the vicar felt his -own heart expressed. The bird sang, and sang -again, and Mr. Dunnock, resting his shoulder<span class="pagenum" id="Page_152">[152]</span> -against the rough bark of an elm, listened without -seeing the approach of two village women, or -noticing their inquisitive glances as they passed -near him, or hearing their words, for, in answer -to a nudge, one of them had protested to her -companion: “Oh, dear me, Fanny. Don’t.”</p> - -<p>They were silent for fear of laughing, but -when they had passed the vicar, one of them -said: “Maggie told me she couldn’t make anything -of his sermon on Easter Sunday. It was all -about Easter Eggs being the promise of glory. -She didn’t know what he meant by it.”</p> - -<p>But the women did not laugh, and soon turned -to safer and more interesting topics of conversation.</p> - -<p>The willow wren had been silent a long while, -and was looking for worms, when at last for Mr. -Dunnock also the mood of ecstasy passed; he -looked about him startled and bewildered, and -then, reassured by finding he was alone, he shook -his head sadly, and the first glance of fear was -replaced by a bitter smile as he hurried back to -the vicarage at top speed.</p> - -<p>“Lay my meals on a tray in future,” he said -to Maggie a few minutes later. “And put the -tray on the table in the passage outside my -study. I shall hear if you tap on the door.” -Words which were repeated to Anne when she<span class="pagenum" id="Page_153">[153]</span> -came down to lunch. She was content to be -alone, but at dinner she was disturbed at this -alteration in her father’s habits, wondering -whether he were unwell, or whether by any -chance Maggie were right in believing that he -wished the change to be permanent. But this -seemed to her so unlikely a possibility that she -did not dwell on it, and, when the meal was over, -she lit the lamp and settled down with her drawing-board -in front of her; she had at last begun -the fashion plates which she had been projecting -all the winter. The fine weather had returned -after Richard Sotheby’s departure, and for the -first day of warm sunshine Anne had found -happiness enough in being out of doors, a happiness -shot through with irritation against herself.</p> - -<p>“I am wasting my life looking at this pear -blossom. What does it matter to me whether the -fruit set or not? I shall be gone before the -gathering.” But her habitual interest had been -too strong for her, and she had watched the bees -flying in and out among the masses of curdy -petals with delight.</p> - -<p>“I am lingering on. I shall linger all my life. -I must go now; I must leave home to-day.”</p> - -<p>But it was impossible to leave on the day before -Easter, and instead of packing her box, she<span class="pagenum" id="Page_154">[154]</span> -had gone to the church to pin up the notice saying: -“There will be no service on Saturday, -when the church will be open for decoration.”</p> - -<p>When Saturday had come she had gone herself -to help the little girls, and it was not until -after Easter was over that the fashion plates -had been begun. The results of her labours surpassed -Anne’s expectations; such fashion plates -as hers she felt sure would excite the Parisian -dressmakers.</p> - -<p>“I must send them to Richard at once,” she -said as she took out the drawing-pins. But the -thought of waiting for a letter, and the agony -of uncertainty in which she saw herself, dismayed -her. In her mood of exultation delay of -any kind seemed impossible.</p> - -<p>“But I will wait all the same,” she said, “until -I have finished a dozen, and then I shall go to -Paris myself to seek my fortune. I will write and -tell Richard that I am coming.”</p> - -<p>The letter was put off; she would not write -until she knew the day and the hour of her -arrival, and for several days she worked hard, -shutting herself up in her room every morning -when the bed had been made. When she laid down -her brush it was to plan how she would have her -hair cut off in London, and how she would buy -herself a smart dress for the journey, for she believed<span class="pagenum" id="Page_155">[155]</span> -that she would never impress a dressmaker -in such rags as she possessed. With her -mind full of such matters, Anne rose and looked -out of her window; the first blush of pink petals -was showing through the early green of the apple -trees; in another week they would be in full blossom. -Under the trees Mr. Dunnock was standing -with his arms raised above his head, gazing up -at the sky, a pose which Anne found sufficiently -startling to make her look again, carefully -screening her eyes from the sunlight. Her father -stood motionless; every little while she could see -a small bird fly up and settle on his shoulder.</p> - -<p>“I have scarcely spoken to father for three -days; I must speak to him now and tell him of -my plans,” and as she made this resolution, she -saw him moving slowly across the lawn. As he -came nearer she saw that a crowd of little birds -was following him, a wild twittering came from -them, they were mobbing him as though he were -a cat or an owl; at every moment birds would -settle on his head or shoulders, or on his up-raised -hands, and then would fly off again.</p> - -<p>A beautiful spectacle it seemed to Anne, and -she felt a new tenderness for her father as she -watched. The thin black figure with the head -thrown back, the eyes turned up, and the beard -jutting out, no longer seemed queer as it had a<span class="pagenum" id="Page_156">[156]</span> -moment before, when she had first caught sight -of it standing under the apple trees.</p> - -<p>“He will feel my desertion,” she murmured, a -sudden sympathy with her father coming to her, -and she felt a love which had been forgotten for -many months.</p> - -<p>“First mother, and then me,” she said. But -her love did not weaken her determination to -speak to him of her departure, but strengthened -it.</p> - -<p>When Mr. Dunnock reached the house, he -shook his head, first gently, but then, as a blue-tit -still remained perched there, more violently, -and then turning round waved his hands towards -the birds which had settled in the rose bushes -about the door. Anne saw that he was bestowing -a benediction. She did not wait longer, but hurrying -downstairs, followed her father into his -study.</p> - -<p>“We see very little of each other now, -father,” she said.</p> - -<p>Mr. Dunnock started at her words and looked -round at her with guilty eyes.</p> - -<p>“Yes, Anne, yes,” he murmured. “Do you -wish to speak to me? Something perhaps about -the housekeeping?” and he began to fidget with -his fingers, wishing that she would go away.</p> - -<p>“I have wanted to speak to you for some<span class="pagenum" id="Page_157">[157]</span> -time,” said Anne. “I have been thinking a great -deal about my own life. It will seem very selfish -to you, and very heartless. It is very selfish....”</p> - -<p>“We are all of us selfish,” said Mr. Dunnock. -“What is it that you want?”</p> - -<p>“I want to go away, at least for a time,” said -Anne. “I do not want to settle down for the rest -of my life without seeing something of the world. -I have never been to London.”</p> - -<p>There was a silence, and after a little she went -on: “I shall have to earn my own living, of -course, but that should not be impossible. An -experiment ... an experience ... the experience -would be good for me. I have never been to London. -There are so many things.”</p> - -<p>“That seems a very sensible plan, if it can be -managed,” said Mr. Dunnock, cutting her short. -“But then you have plenty of good sense, Anne, -more than I have in some ways.”</p> - -<p>He sat down suddenly at his writing table, -dropping his head between his hands, and there -he remained, silent for so long that Anne began -to wonder if he had forgotten her, but she said -nothing, only repeating under her breath: “It -is settled: I am leaving home.”</p> - -<p>But at last Mr. Dunnock looked up, saying: -“Let me see.... What was I going to say? You -will require some money, Anne, if you are going<span class="pagenum" id="Page_158">[158]</span> -away. I can give you twenty pounds, enough to -enable you to look about you. Do as you think -best, dear child, in every way.” His head began -to nod again, and then, as if suddenly waking -up, he said:</p> - -<p>“I am glad you are going, Anne. I am glad -the suggestion came from you: that it should be -your own wish. I am rather bad company, I -know, but there is a reason for that. You think -my life here is narrow perhaps, but you see only -one side. I can assure you that you are mistaken; -my life is incredibly rich and overflowing with -happiness. But that has to be hidden; there is a -reason for that. I need loneliness; you perhaps -need to see the world at present, but we shall -meet again, and I have no fear that ultimately -... you will understand what is hidden....” He -broke off disconnectedly, and suddenly Anne felt -her happiness shot through by a feeling of dismay, -in which she wondered if she could leave her -father to fend for himself. Such phrases were -familiar to her from his lips, but they seemed -strange coming at such a moment and when she -went from the room it was with a conviction that -she would be doing wrong to go away.</p> - -<p>Her scruples were soon forgotten in the excitement -of making plans, and the rest of the -day was spent in packing and unpacking a<span class="pagenum" id="Page_159">[159]</span> -wooden box with her possessions. Two days later -all was ready, and the hour of her departure had -been fixed for the morrow. In the morning she -went to say good-bye to Mrs. Sotheby, and to -ask if Rachel would come to have tea with her.</p> - -<p>“We shall miss you very much,” said Mrs. -Sotheby. “But I shall try to think that you are -enjoying yourself seeing more of the world than -you would here. I hardly know what to say about -Rachel. You know how fond she is of you. She -will want to come to say good-bye; it is a great -pity that Mr. Sotheby has arranged to take us -to see the cottages at Linton. You would not -care to come with us, I suppose? Then everyone -would be happy.”</p> - -<p>“I should like to come very much,” said Anne, -“if I shall not be in the way.”</p> - -<p>“I’ll just ask Mr. Sotheby if there will be -room in the dog-cart for us all,” said the old -woman and, through the opened door into the -parlour, Anne could see the grocer sitting at the -table, looking up from a sheet of blue paper -with a T-square in his hands.</p> - -<p>They set off soon after lunch, Anne sitting on -the back seat of the dog-cart with Rachel, but -the pony did not seem to feel the extra weight. -Anne soon set Rachel talking, and the little girl -kept her amused with stories of her school, and<span class="pagenum" id="Page_160">[160]</span> -how she had been teased about her brother, and -it was some time before she broke the news of -her own departure. Rachel stared down at the -road, a yellow river flowing so swiftly from below -the dog-cart that she could not distinguish -the stones in it. “You won’t ever think of me; -you won’t write to me; you won’t ever come -back,” were her thoughts, but she knew that she -must hide her unhappiness, and when she spoke, -as the trap drew up smartly, it was to ask: -“Will you be going to Paris?” a question which -Anne found so disturbing that she saw little of -the first cottage into which she was led. The -smell of fresh paint, mingled with the fragrance -of aromatic pine shavings on the plank floors, -recalled her to her surroundings, and she listened -for a moment to Mr. Sotheby, who was speaking -to her.</p> - -<p>“These cottages are only a stepping-stone to -greater things, Miss Dunnock. I have mortgaged -them already. What Linton lacks is a high-class -Temperance Hotel, overlooking the river. Such -a hotel would attract visitors for the fishing and -boating, and would cater also for the more respectable -commercial men. A Temperance Hotel -would wake up trade in the town, and would -provide a delightful centre for holiday-makers -and abstainers, and men from the university.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_161">[161]</span>“What shall I say to Rachel?” Anne asked -herself as she followed the grocer up the little -staircase into the poky bedrooms, which smelt -of varnish.</p> - -<p>“A little shop like ours is a great snare for a -man with ambition. I have wasted the best years -of my life in it, years during which I might have -built up a great merchandising house. But this -hotel, and others like it, will soon make my son a -rich man, and provide for Rachel. A Temperance -Hotel with a grand loggia looking over the -river, pillars with climbing roses, a small winter -garden with azaleas.... We must move with the -times, you know, Miss Dunnock.”</p> - -<p>Anne descended the narrow stairs and followed -Mrs. Sotheby across a patch of sticky -clay to the dog-cart.</p> - -<p>“Yes, I am going to Paris. Don’t tell anyone; -it is a secret,” she said to the little girl as -they drove off. It was only after saying this that -Anne looked up at the cottages, seeing them for -the first time. Their extreme ugliness and the -evident signs of jerry-building dismayed her.</p> - -<p>“What will the next thing be like?” she asked -herself, remembering the grocer had spoken of -an hotel, and expecting to see it round the corner. -In a moment or two Mr. Sotheby drew rein -by the side of the quiet stream of the Ouse, but<span class="pagenum" id="Page_162">[162]</span> -there was no building visible, only an empty field, -the site for the new hotel.</p> - -<p>“A lounge hall lit entirely by windows of -yellow stained glass is my idea,” said Mr. Sotheby. -“It will give the effect of sunshine all the -year round. The landing-stage is to run the entire -length of the building. It will be covered by -a glass roof. There is to be a garage on the right -and a boathouse on the left, each under its own -dome of glass, thus giving symmetry to the -whole. There will be central heating, a lift, electric -light, a banqueting hall....”</p> - -<p>Anne gazed at the water-logged field, at the -slow stream with the bunches of reeds and the -gasworks on the opposite bank, and ceased to -listen to Mr. Sotheby’s words. The mud and -water and slime would remain mud and water -and slime; the fine old bridge with the toll house, -which had once been a chapel, would stay there; -nothing would move the gasworks, and Anne felt -unable to picture to herself the glittering abomination -of which the grocer spoke, on that melancholy -river bank.</p> - -<p>But Mr. Sotheby went on talking for some -time, and, turning her head, Anne could see that -his wife was not listening, and her own attention -soon wandered. She saw the whip being pointed -first in one direction and then in another, and<span class="pagenum" id="Page_163">[163]</span> -the white beard which wagged as the grocer -opened and shut his mouth, but the stream of -words went on unheard. At last Mr. Sotheby -picked up the reins, cracked his whip, and they -set off for home. Except for Rachel, they had -enjoyed themselves as Mrs. Sotheby had predicted.</p> - -<p>No one in Dry Coulter would have recognized -the slim figure in a fashionable tailor-made dress -who took her seat in the boat-train three days -later. When she shook her head to refuse the -offer of magazines, no hairpins flew on to the -platform, and the reason was explained when -she removed her rakish little hat: Anne wore an -Eton crop. Her whole character seemed to her -to have changed, and looking into the mirror in -the lid of her little vanity-case, she was pleased -with her new self. For a moment she fingered an -unused lip-stick and then, laughing to herself, -deliberately reddened her lips. She was off to -Paris, alone, to seek her fortune. Her father, -everyone at Dry Coulter, every experience she -had ever had in her life seemed never to have -existed. It was a dream which would be speedily -forgotten, and reaching for her bag, Anne -opened a French book of which Richard had -spoken.</p> - -<p>Somewhere in the Weald of Kent, the grinding<span class="pagenum" id="Page_164">[164]</span> -noise of the brakes, suddenly applied, disturbed -her reading. The train dragged itself to -a halt and a long silence followed.</p> - -<p>At last Anne threw open the window and -peered into the darkness. There was nothing to -be seen but a red light shining somewhere down -the line, and the vague forms of oak trees near -at hand. For a moment there was nothing to be -heard, and then, suddenly, her ear caught a far-off -melodious chuckle and a moment afterwards -the first startling clear notes of a bird’s song. -The red light changed to green; there was a long -puff, and a series of snorts from the engine; the -ticking of released brakes, and once more the -train was in motion. But Anne had recognized -the note of the nightingale.</p> - -<p>“Love,” she said to herself, and began laughing.</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_165">[165]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">TWELVE: RICHARD’S FRIENDS</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">Two</span> men and a woman were having breakfast in -the studio in their dressing-gowns.</p> - -<p>“Oh, my God, Grandison!” exclaimed Richard -Sotheby, after looking into the letter which -Anne had posted two days before in London. -“What am I to do? Here is that girl arriving in -Paris to-morrow. She asks me to get her lodgings, -and to meet her at the station. What on -earth am I to do? I wonder if I could stop her -coming.... She doesn’t give her London address. -No, I can’t stop her. Oh, what a curse....”</p> - -<p>Grandison laughed and, turning to the woman -beside her, told her the news in bad French. A -look of incredulity passed over her brown face, -and then she also began to laugh. The dark eyes -sparkled with malice, the even white teeth shone, -she put the point of her healthy pink tongue between -her painted lips; and then, the humour of -the situation increasing as she turned the news -over in her mind, she sprang up and danced bare-footed -round the breakfast table in the middle of -the immense room. The skirts of the silk dressing-gown<span class="pagenum" id="Page_166">[166]</span> -whirled round the lithe body; every -movement was lovely, but neither of the men -looked at her. When she stopped it was to pour -out a flood of questions which went unanswered.</p> - -<p>“It is not a joke,” said Richard Sotheby -gloomily. “You will have to help me. You don’t -object, I suppose,” he added in French to the -girl, “if Grandison devotes his time to her?”</p> - -<p>“How insolent you are, Richard!” said the -woman, taking hold of Grandison’s arm, and -putting her cheek beside his head. “I am to be -sacrificed because you can’t face a woman. I -could call you some hard names if I chose.” She -pouted, but at once went on: “But I won’t, for -I sympathize with you. Really I am anxious to -see this girl of yours, Richard. It will be a -curiosity. Are you going to bring her to live -with us? I shall be charming to her, and she will -keep me company sometimes. Two men is more -than I can manage.” She pouted again, and -added in tones of deep tenderness: “Two dirty -Englishmen.”</p> - -<p>Richard Sotheby looked at her with a patient -smile, then, ignoring her questions, he turned to -his friend and said, speaking in English: “And -two women is more than I can manage.”</p> - -<p>Grandison flushed with anger, but Richard -forestalled anything he might have said by adding:<span class="pagenum" id="Page_167">[167]</span> -“My dear, you know I am fond of Ginette; -don’t misunderstand what I say. But two women -is more than I can put up with....”</p> - -<p>“Why on earth will you persist in regarding -Ginette as a woman?” demanded the younger -man in tones of fury. “Woman! woman! It’s -always woman with you. Ginette is Ginette, just -as I am Gerald and you are Richard.”</p> - -<p>Sotheby did not reply, and his friend’s angry -tones soon subsided. Harmony was restored -while the breakfast dishes were cleared away, -and for the rest of the morning Anne’s arrival -was discussed calmly, sometimes in English, -sometimes in French, while the two men painted -and Ginette posed. In the evening everything -that had been said in the morning was repeated, -but at last it was decided that Grandison should -meet Anne at the station, instead of Richard, -and that he should take her to an hotel.</p> - -<p>“Let it be on the other side of Paris,” said -Richard next morning, as he and Grandison left -the studio on their way to the station, for he -had decided to accompany his friend in order to -point out the girl whom he was to meet.</p> - -<p>“Everything in France is different,” Anne -said to herself as she looked out of the window -of the train. “Those trees must be elms, but -they have been shaved like French poodles so<span class="pagenum" id="Page_168">[168]</span> -that they are scarcely recognizable. These are -fields of corn, and here are cocks and hens and -cart-sheds, but they do not seem to be the real -things so much as imitations of ours. And the -houses! How extraordinarily different are the -houses!” for the train was passing through a -station, and building after building flashed by -her: dreary houses with the stucco peeling off -them, each with its broken-slatted shutters beside -the windows, houses such as do not exist in -England.</p> - -<p>“If there is any beauty in this country it -is of another kind from our English beauty, -just as the ugliness is unlike our ugliness.” The -change did not dismay her; it had the same -effect of strangeness as the reflection of her own -cropped head in the glass, seen unexpectedly as -she lifted her handbag from off the luggage rack.</p> - -<p>The train was approaching Paris, and before -many minutes had passed a porter in a blue -blouse had seized upon her handbag and Anne -forgot to look for Richard Sotheby in the effort -to produce a good impression on the porter. But -even the inadequacy of her French could not detain -him for more than a moment. His moustache -trembled eagerly, his eye flashed, then he had -disappeared.</p> - -<p>“What a lovely outline there is to his cheek,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_169">[169]</span> -how clear his complexion, how expressive his -every movement!” and looking after the porter -she began to fancy that if all Frenchmen were as -handsome as the porter she would be in love with -them all. “The beauty of the French face,” she -said, “lies in the beauty of the cheekbones. An -English face is made up of eyes and nose and -mouth: the rest of the face is a blank space, but -take away a Frenchman’s eyes: so often like -eggs, or olives, take away his nose, and his mouth -(always an uninteresting mouth) and you find -his face is still full of expression and of beauty, -indeed the face is improved.”</p> - -<p>But the porter was back, and had set off down -the platform with a commanding gesture to -Anne to follow him, when she found herself being -accosted by a stranger.</p> - -<p>“Is this Miss Dunnock? My name’s Grandison,” -he said. “Richard Sotheby asked me to -meet you here; he is not able to come himself....”</p> - -<p>“Ginette Grandison’s brother,” Anne said to -herself, looking into the surly, boyish face, and -noticing Grandison’s shyness. Meanwhile the -porter with the lovely cheekbones had disappeared -with her suit-case.</p> - -<p>“What does the porter matter?” she -thought. “What does the suit-case matter?<span class="pagenum" id="Page_170">[170]</span> -What does it matter what this young man is -mumbling about Richard? No, nothing matters. -This is Paris; I have arrived, and a delightful -happy life awaits me with these charming people. -The opera ... friends.” In such a mood it seemed -scarcely surprising that Richard should after -all come up to them just as they were climbing -into a cab.</p> - -<p>“What is the latest news from Dry Coulter?” -he asked, taking the seat beside her. Anne had -not slept; the channel crossing by night was too -exciting an experience to be missed, and she had -remained on deck, watching the receding lights -of England disappear, and then the lights of -France springing up out of the darkness and -growing in brilliance and in number.</p> - -<p>“Dry Coulter?” she asked, and for the first -moment the name conveyed nothing to her. -“How can you ask about Dry Coulter when we -are in Paris!” Richard laughed and Anne added -at once: “Oh, I went with your father and -mother and Rachel to see the new cottages, and -the site for the hotel.”</p> - -<p>“What hotel?” asked Richard, but while -Anne was explaining she did not notice the look -of anxiety on his face, for she was too much -taken up with looking out of the taxi window. -Soon she was asking questions: “What is that<span class="pagenum" id="Page_171">[171]</span> -building? that street? that monument?” and -was astonished that neither Richard nor his -friend could tell her. She would have liked to -spend hours driving about Paris, feeling Mr. -Grandison’s gaze fixed upon her, and aware of -the slight flush on her own cheek, but suddenly -they rattled over a bridge and had turned into -a narrow lane.</p> - -<p>“I have taken a room for you here,” said -Richard as they drew up. “You get your breakfast -in your room, and an evening meal for about -four shillings a day. I took it for a week. I suppose -you will be staying a week in Paris.”</p> - -<p>“I shall be staying for ever,” answered Anne.</p> - -<p>Grandison gave a short, loud laugh. “I like -the way you said that,” he exclaimed, handing -her suit-case out of the cab.</p> - -<p>A sleepy-looking man had opened the hotel -door, and was taking her luggage.</p> - -<p>“We’ll call for you this evening, and take you -out to dinner if that would suit you,” said Richard; -and the next moment the taxi began to move -off and she found herself alone.</p> - -<p>“I shall like Mr. Grandison,” she said as she -followed the doorkeeper upstairs, and the excitement -of looking at her room was mingled with -the excitement of imagining that in a few days -she would be laughing with the handsome man<span class="pagenum" id="Page_172">[172]</span> -who had met her, and that he would lose his -surliness and his shyness as they walked through -Paris side by side. By the time she had finished -unpacking she felt tired, and she lay down on the -bed to rest. She could not sleep, and an hour -later, when she looked out of the window and -saw that the sunlight, which had greeted her on -her arrival, had given place to driving rain. She -had no umbrella, nor mackintosh, so she could -not go out, and she felt shy and uncomfortable -as she walked through the passages of the hotel. -When she tried to speak to the chambermaid she -found that she had forgotten her few words of -French, but at last the day passed by and she -was called from her room to find Mr. Grandison -waiting for her in the hall.</p> - -<p>“Richard sent me: he will meet us in the -restaurant,” he said. They got into a cab, for it -was still raining, and drove in silence until Anne, -looking out of the window, asked what street -they were in. “I don’t know,” answered the -young man. “There are so many streets in -Paris. But it is quite easy to find one’s way -about.”</p> - -<p>Anne would have liked to ask him about his -sister, but she lacked the courage and nothing -more was said. The restaurant to which they had -driven was like a hundred others which they had<span class="pagenum" id="Page_173">[173]</span> -passed on the way, and appeared indistinguishable -from the restaurants on either side of it; -each with basket-work chairs heaped upside -down on the little iron tables outside, with an -awning flapping in the wind, and “Brasserie” -written in gigantic letters along the front. It -was still raining, but when they had passed -through the doors they found the room was -crowded.</p> - -<p>Richard was waiting for them at a corner -table, and they sat down. Soon food was brought -them, and Richard began to speak about the -restaurant, but Anne hardly took in his words -and forgot to help herself from the little dishes, -for she was charmed by the scene before her: the -small tables, each with its merry party, men -laughing hastily before filling their mouths with -soup, swallowing it, and then laughing again as -they tore the long rolls of bread to pieces with -their fingers.</p> - -<p>But Richard was pressing Anne to help herself, -handing her the little dishes and filling her -glass with yellow wine, then turning and speaking -to Grandison about some play of Ibsen’s -which was being acted at a theatre in Paris. -Anne’s pleasure was increased by knowing that -Richard and his friend were talking of a play -which she had read, and that she could share in<span class="pagenum" id="Page_174">[174]</span> -the discussion if she chose, but her attention -wandered once more, and she was the first to -notice a girl who came towards them threading -her way between the tables, followed by a fat -man with a square red beard, who stopped to -speak to some acquaintances who hailed him as -he passed. But the girl came on and held out a -cool brown hand for Anne to shake.</p> - -<p>“Mademoiselle Lariboisière—always called -Ginette,” said Richard. Ginette was beautiful, -very beautiful, and Anne wondered how the mistake -had arisen which had made her expect -Ginette to be Mr. Grandison’s sister. Instead of -that she was a Frenchwoman with a lean brown -face like a mask and dark hazel eyes with black -lashes.</p> - -<p>“If I were only like Ginette,” she thought, a -wish that recurred for many days afterwards -whenever she was in her company, never guessing -that the French girl was saying to herself: -“If I were only like this English girl of -Richard’s!”</p> - -<p>Ginette sat down opposite them without appearing -surprised that Richard and Gerald -should go on talking in English and pay no attention -to her, interrupting each other, laughing -at one moment and becoming almost angry -in the next. But though they were talking in<span class="pagenum" id="Page_175">[175]</span> -English, Anne did not listen either; she gazed -across the table at Ginette, wishing that she -could speak to her and get to know her. At last -the meal was over, the dishes were cleared away -and soon they were joined by the fat man, in -spite of all appearances an American.</p> - -<p>Anne found that he was kissing her hand, and -a drop of soup from his beard was smeared over -her fingers. Her face showed her disgust as she -jumped up from her seat, and without speaking -to the American, who had drawn a chair near -her, she went over to Ginette. But Ginette did -not understand English, and after one or two -halting sentences Anne fell into silence.</p> - -<p>The group round the table was joined by -several people, and each newcomer shook hands -all round the table before sitting down. Anne had -never shaken hands so often in her life, but there -was no more hand-kissing and there were no -more beards. A Chinaman seated himself beside -Ginette, and they spoke so slowly that Anne was -able to follow their conversation; and she was -astonished that she had heard everything they -said on the lips of English curates at tea parties -in English parsonages. After a little while -Grandison came and sat beside her and poured -her out a glass of something warm, perfumed -and sticky; it seemed the most delicious liquid<span class="pagenum" id="Page_176">[176]</span> -that she had ever tasted. Conversation flowed on -all sides of her, but she sat quiet, saying nothing -and looking at the pink face and the fair hair of -Richard’s friend and then at the Chinaman, who -was talking so quietly and so tediously about the -fatigues of railway journeys to Ginette, both of -them indifferent to the shouting, excited group -clustered round Richard and the red-bearded -American. Anne did not gather what the subject -of their argument was and she felt no desire to -do anything. An hour passed and then another -hour, and once Grandison called to the waiter, -who refilled her little glass with the liqueur. It -was enough for her to know that she was in -Paris, and that this was her welcome. The voices, -the faces, the Chinaman and Ginette melted into -a dream full of colour and of movement and shot -through with music; her head nodded and when -Grandison touched her on the shoulder she -smiled at him and realized that she was very -tired.</p> - -<p>“I want to go to bed,” she said. “Will you -please tell me the address of my hotel?”</p> - -<p>“I’ll see you home,” he said. “Richard is set -now; he will stay here for hours.”</p> - -<p>It had stopped raining, and they walked. The -streets gleamed, and they turned into a great -open place filled with trees and people sauntering<span class="pagenum" id="Page_177">[177]</span> -under them. Men in groups were talking and -laughing, pretty girls and painted women -flashed their golden teeth as they passed by.</p> - -<p>“How beautiful a town is,” Anne said, almost -unconscious that she was speaking aloud. “But -I shall never be at home in one. The stones of the -streets frighten me. I love the garden where:</p> - -<div class="poetry-container"> -<div class="poetry"> -<div class="verse">Stumbling on melons as I pass</div> -<div class="verse">Insnared with flowers, I fall on grass,</div> -<div class="verse">Annihilating all that’s made</div> -<div class="verse">To a green thought in a green shade.”</div> -</div></div> - -<p>She paused for a moment, stumbled with sleepiness -and took Grandison’s arm.</p> - -<p>“The crowd here is so thick,” she continued. -“The faces search one’s face, the eyes meet one’s -eyes, yet they all seem to be looking for someone -they can never find.”</p> - -<p>They walked on slowly for some way in silence, -but at last she spoke again.</p> - -<p>“I believe everyone here is pursuing a dream, -just as I pursued a dream walking under the -elms at home; they speak to each other and pass -on, but they never know each other. Man is -always alone. They speak to each other, their -eyes meet and sparkle; they smile and take each -other by the arm: all in a dream. Here am I -walking beside you, both of us are dreaming, unable<span class="pagenum" id="Page_178">[178]</span> -to awake or to speak to each other.” There -was a pause; Grandison did not contradict what -she had said, and then she murmured, more to -herself than to him: “I am utterly alone, but so -is everybody else.”</p> - -<p>They continued walking for a long way -through deserted streets. Anne was feeling depressed -by her train of thought, and Grandison -was silent, but when at last they reached the Rue -de Beaune she felt as if he had spoken and she -had understood.</p> - -<p>They shook hands, he looked into her eyes, -cleared his throat as if he were going to speak, -swallowed something, but then turned away without -a word.</p> - -<p>“I was wrong,” Anne said, feeling her heart -filled once more with hope. “There is patience -and nobility and honesty and faithfulness in the -world.” As she dropped asleep it seemed to her -that these qualities were inseparable from blue -eyes and fair hair and fresh, blunt features.</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_179">[179]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">THIRTEEN: PARIS</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">Next</span> day, when she got up, Anne said to herself -that she must see Richard at once to discuss her -plans with him. But the beauty of the day -tempted her to explore Paris. The morning was -spent happily in looking into the windows of the -shops in the Rue de Rivoli and in buying herself -an umbrella; then she lunched alone, thinking -that it would be better to reach the studio in the -afternoon. But it was already late before she -found Montmartre, and when at last she had -mounted the staircase and had rung the bell she -was prepared for Richard to be out.</p> - -<p>“A day wasted,” she said to herself, but in -her heart she felt that it had been well spent, -wishing that she could spend another day and -then another in wandering about Paris. In the -evening she had dinner at her hotel, and then -went out once more to see the town by night.</p> - -<p>“I can never get lost in Paris so long as I can -find the river, for if I follow the river sooner or -later I must come to the Pont Royal, and from -there it is but a step to my hotel.” She walked<span class="pagenum" id="Page_180">[180]</span> -along the quays for some little way, but the -Place de la Concorde tempted her with its wide -expanse, and presently she found herself under -the trees of the Champs Elysées. The clouds -parted and the moonlight shone through the -young leaves, a few dark figures moved in the -shadows, and a band of young men passed her -humming a foxtrot. Anne stopped for a moment -and waved her arms with a sense of freedom and -then strode rapidly up the hill.</p> - -<p>At the Étoile she turned to the left down an -avenue, which she guessed would bring her to the -river, and when she saw the moonlight shining -over the water she cried aloud: “I am free. I can -do what I like; I can live how I like. I may never -see Richard or his friend or anyone I have ever -met, again. I have no friends in the world. Nobody -can interfere now with my happy life!” -And suddenly, as she gazed over the water, Anne -remembered how she had wept in her bedroom on -the morning when the ploughmen had come. “No -need for tears now that the accursed chain is -broken. Who would guess, meeting me here, that -I was the vicar’s daughter with no hope of escaping -from the parish? I am still alone, absolutely -alone, but I care nothing for that because I am -free. I am free!” she repeated in a loud voice -which startled her, but there was no one near<span class="pagenum" id="Page_181">[181]</span> -her, and she set off along the bank of the river. -“I shall never go back!” she said, drawing herself -up proudly, then, looking at the water, she -wished that she could bathe, and her gaiety and -irresponsibility were such that she was almost on -the point of undressing beneath a lamp-post and -plunging in. She recollected in time that she -would be saved by a French policeman, and -walked on laughing as she pictured to herself the -explanations that she would offer next morning -in the police-court in her broken French.</p> - -<p>“Richard would never forgive me if I dragged -him to a police-court,” she said, and her -thoughts went back to her father. “Strange how -blind I was, thinking that he needed me when he -welcomed my going. But, who knows? he may be -missing me now.” She turned back when she had -reached St. Cloud and retraced her footsteps -easily; in less than an hour she had reached the -Pont Royal.</p> - -<p>“I have done something that no respectable -girl should do,” she said as she went up to her -room. “I have run the risk of being spoken to -in the street. Apparently I am not attractive -enough to be in any danger from the vicious,” -she added as she looked in the glass, but she was -pleased with what she saw there and fell asleep -at once.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_182">[182]</span>There was a letter from Richard waiting for -her asking her to luncheon the following day, -and when the time came Anne was overjoyed to -see a familiar face once more, though she had -been repeating to herself the words she had -spoken by the river.</p> - -<p>The door of the studio was opened by Ginette, -who held out a cool hand. As the girl turned to -lead her in, Anne looked at the dark head with -the short black hairs cropped close to the brown -neck and such envy filled her at the sight that she -nearly burst into tears. To be cool and dark and -brown, to live in a studio with two men, to talk -French, such were the hopeless ambitions which -filled her heart. Grandison got up from his chair -as she came in but he said nothing, only bowed -and sat down again with his eyes on her face. -Richard was washing his hands in the corner. -“Don’t come near me, Anne, I am covered with -paint,” he called out, but his voice sounded -friendly as though he were glad to see her.</p> - -<p>Ginette laid her hand on her shoulder:</p> - -<p>“You are very beautiful,” she brought out -laboriously. She had been practising the phrase -all the morning, and the unexpected words set -Anne blushing with pleasure. “Richard has said -much of you but not that you are beautiful. He -is bad.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_183">[183]</span>Anne’s blush was a blush of happiness, and -she caught the French girl by the hand and -pressed it. Ginette laughed and raised her eyebrows, -and would have spoken if they had not -been startled by Grandison, who ordered them -to sit down to luncheon.</p> - -<p>“I have brought some of the drawings I did -for fashion plates to show you,” said Anne, but -Richard did not refer to them when the meal was -over; he seemed more interested in Dry Coulter -than in Paris, and began to speak of the village -while his companions sat in silence.</p> - -<p>“I have heard from Rachel: she is very excited -as she is going to be chosen Queen of the -May. You know May-day is even more of an -institution than Plough Monday,” he said, turning -towards Grandison. “It is celebrated more -pleasantly in an English village than in Paris.” -And Richard began to describe how five little -girls were chosen, of whom Rachel would be the -leader, to go from house to house carrying an -arbour of flowers and singing whatever songs -they happened to know.</p> - -<p>“The arbour is made of cowslips and may, -with a few of the early purple orchids,” said -Anne, calling up the memory of May-day a year -ago. “It was raining when they came to the -vicarage and they wore yellow ribbons and sang<span class="pagenum" id="Page_184">[184]</span> -‘Ta ra ra Boom de ay.’ I opened the door and -they went on singing without paying any attention -to the sixpence I held out to them.”</p> - -<p>“That sixpence went to the chapel Sunday -School Treat,” said Richard. “Paganism has -been made respectable.”</p> - -<p>“What will Rachel wear as the May Queen?”</p> - -<p>“She speaks of a wreath of pansies if there -are enough of them out to make it; her companions -will have chaplets of forget-me-nots, -and they will carry the bower while she carries -an armful of tulips. She did not speak of her -dress, but of course it will be a white one, and -they will wear black worsted stockings and solid -little hobnailed boots laced high up the leg.”</p> - -<p>“Rachel doesn’t worry about her boots,” said -Anne at once, and her thoughts flew back to Mr. -Yockney, then she looked round the studio -thinking that the rent was paid out of the -grocer’s shop at home. “I think Rachel’s perfectly -happy. I think all your family are,” she -said.</p> - -<p>“So they ought to be,” said Richard, laughing. -“See what a good son I am. I give my father -an object in life, which is more than any of you -do. He is very happy and proud of me. In the old -days of course,” Richard went on, “the first -of May was a great affair, with a maypole set<span class="pagenum" id="Page_185">[185]</span> -up and a Jack of the Green. The May Queen was -not a little girl in those days. You would have -been chosen instead of Rachel and, having been -kissed by all the boys in the village, you would -have got rid of your obsession about never -getting to know anyone.”</p> - -<p>Anne blushed uncomfortably, and looked at -Grandison, who must, she thought, have repeated -what she had said while he was seeing her -home. “An obsession about never getting to -know anyone!” and she wondered if Richard -had summed her up for ever in these unkind -words.</p> - -<p>“I expect the maze was laid out on a May-day,” -said Richard, “and the monument is -nothing more than a stone maypole, or something -with the same signification.”</p> - -<p>“I can tell you about the monument,” said -Anne. “It commemorates the restoration of -Charles II, and was put up by a young man of -nineteen, who must have come back from France -with the King and recovered his sequestered estate:—a -small enough one, I should guess, and -the Old Hall. I suppose the maze might have -been cut on a May-day, and no doubt they had -a maypole on the green again: they had been put -down under the Commonwealth, but I doubt if -there were many to dance. All the better people<span class="pagenum" id="Page_186">[186]</span> -had served in Cromwell’s regiments. Except in -Huntingdon itself, they were all Puritans.”</p> - -<p>“Then we must imagine your young cavalier -setting up a maypole on the green and dancing -with gypsy girls and all the riff-raff he could -assemble, while the village people held aloof -under the elm trees round the edges of the green -and prayed for a thunderstorm,” said Richard.</p> - -<p>“There were oak trees in those days, not -elms,” said Anne.</p> - -<p>“How do you know that?” he asked her -sharply.</p> - -<p>She knew positively, but she had forgotten -how she knew and, as she repeated that she was -sure, she felt that she must seem very stupid to -Mr. Grandison.</p> - -<p>“Well, he danced in a scarlet coat with lace -ruffles, which he had brought back from France, -with the gipsy girls in their rags, and Maggie -Pattle joined in for the sake of the beer, but all -the respectable tenants stood under the oak -trees looking glum and hating him. But how do -you explain that the monument is still standing -and that, though it is the most striking thing in -the village, nobody ever looks at it or knows anything -about it? If one asks a question they just -shake their heads and change the conversation.”</p> - -<p>“The young cavalier lived to be eighty-eight,”<span class="pagenum" id="Page_187">[187]</span> -answered Anne. “It is natural that nobody -would dare disturb his maze while he was -living, or to pull down the stone column sculptured -with his arms. All the Puritans were dead -before he was, and the significance of the monument -was forgotten by 1729.”</p> - -<p>“But the civil war isn’t forgotten,” said -Richard.</p> - -<p>“I have often heard a villager say when someone -has got into trouble for poaching hares: -‘We want another of the Cromwells in this -country. There were no game laws in Nolly’s -time.’”</p> - -<p>“I expect there is a tradition that the maze -represents something out of harmony with the -village: they have ignored it for so long that -they have forgotten everything except that it -is something which ought to be ignored,” said -Anne.</p> - -<p>Richard agreed with her, and an hour passed -before she remembered the drawings she had -brought to show him.</p> - -<p>“Leave them for me to look at,” said Richard, -but she would not be put off. As she untied -the portfolio she felt that her fingers were trembling, -and she became confused as she explained -that she knew her drawings were not fashionable: -she had done them at Dry Coulter in ignorance<span class="pagenum" id="Page_188">[188]</span> -of what the latest fashions might be, -thinking that they would serve as specimens to -show her workmanship. Instead of explaining -this clearly, what she said was something very -silly, but Richard did not smile at her absurdity, -and there was an absolute silence as she laid the -first of the drawings on the table, propping it up -against a wine bottle.</p> - -<p>For a long while Richard Sotheby stood -wrinkling his nose and Gerald and Ginette stood -silent.</p> - -<p>“And the next,” said Richard sharply, but, -going to the portfolio himself, he turned over the -other drawings rapidly. There was a silence -again as he carefully fastened the clasp of the -portfolio, and then turned and walked a few -steps away. Suddenly, however, he began to -speak, and the words fell so rapidly that Anne -could scarcely follow them.</p> - -<p>“Dress designers are very stupid people,” he -began. “Don’t be discouraged when I advise you -not to show these actual drawings. In order to -create an impression you must first obtain a -thorough knowledge of the mode. There is just -as much fashion in the drawings of dresses as in -the dresses themselves. What would have been all -right last year or the year before is quite out of -date now.” And he began to explain very rapidly<span class="pagenum" id="Page_189">[189]</span> -what these changes in styles of drawing had -been.</p> - -<p>He was interrupted suddenly by Ginette. -Anne could not follow her words, but she noticed -Grandison nod his head vigorously and say: -“An excellent idea,” while an expression of -exasperation came over Richard’s white face.</p> - -<p>When he turned to Anne she felt a sudden -conviction that her drawings were bad and -that Richard was concealing his opinion of -them.</p> - -<p>“Ginette is of the opinion that you are the -right figure, and that you have acquired, Heaven -knows how, the right appearance for a mannequin. -She wants to introduce you to a man she -knows who works in one of the wholesale houses. -I think that you would dislike such a life and -would soon wish that you were back in England. -But don’t despair about your drawings,” he -added, almost shouting the last words.</p> - -<p>Anne took up her portfolio, turning Ginette’s -advice over in her mind.</p> - -<p>“How should I get a job as a mannequin?” -she asked, but an argument had broken out between -Richard and Ginette and her question -went for some time unanswered. At last he -turned from the French girl in exasperation, -and she repeated her question.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_190">[190]</span>“Ginette will let you know,” he said. “Come -to tea to-morrow at five o’clock.” The tone of -the invitation was so cross that Anne said good-bye -at once. Grandison had scarcely spoken a -word during the discussion, but as she left the -room he made a gesture as if he would speak, but -he said nothing.</p> - -<p>“What have I done to upset them all so -much?” she asked herself as she hurried down -the stairs, but she could find no answer. Richard’s -words had been encouraging, yet she was -tempted to tear up her wretched drawings then -and there.</p> - -<p>“Yes, my fashion plates are hopeless,” she -said to herself, but she found it hard to understand -why Richard should have been so exasperated -by Ginette’s suggestion. “If my drawings -are no good I must find some other way of earning -my living. Richard would keep me in a fool’s -paradise until my money is exhausted.”</p> - -<p>Her train of thought was interrupted by the -sound of footsteps, and she heard a voice calling -her. It was Richard.</p> - -<p>“I meant to ask you: if you are short of -money, let me lend you ten pounds. You must -have time to look about you.”</p> - -<p>Anne stared at him in surprise. He was very -white; out of breath with running and his words<span class="pagenum" id="Page_191">[191]</span> -came with an effort, but his tone was still one of -exasperation.</p> - -<p>“Thank you,” she said, looking him in the -eyes. “Thank you, I have still seventeen -pounds.”</p> - -<p>“Well, later on,” answered Richard. “Whenever -you want a loan, come to me. While one has -money it is one’s duty to share it. That is what -Grandison and I believe, and after all you and -I come from the same village.”</p> - -<p>After saying this he turned round and walked -back, quietly cursing her existence.</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_192">[192]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">FOURTEEN: A REMOVAL</h2> -</div> - -<p>“<span class="smcap">How</span> could I ever have imagined that I was in -love with Richard Sotheby?” Anne asked herself -in astonishment as she walked back across -Paris. “It turns out I don’t love him enough to -borrow money from him. He would always behave -well, he would always be kind, yet I think -he would be delighted if he were never to see me -again. I shall never ask him for help or for advice; -I shall never go near his studio after to-morrow.” -And it occurred to her suddenly that -the money he had offered to lend her had been -earned by his father, and that it might have -been spent on Rachel, or on the Temperance -Hotel.</p> - -<p>“I wonder why it is that Ginette loves him?” -she asked herself. “If she really does. If I were -her I should lose my heart to Mr. Grandison.” -And saying this she recalled the look in Grandison’s -eyes and how he had kept them fixed on -her, how he had seemed to be going to speak -and the gesture with which he had sunk back -into his chair as she went out of the studio. -“Richard has robbed me of knowing him. We<span class="pagenum" id="Page_193">[193]</span> -should easily have become intimate, we should -have been friends,” she said with her heart full -of bitterness. Every detail of her walk with -Grandison came back and hurt her.</p> - -<p>“Well, I am to be a mannequin if they like my -figure.” The more she thought of Ginette’s suggestion -the better she liked it, and the more -difficult she found it to understand Richard’s -annoyance. She was puzzled to find an explanation, -and tried one theory after another, but -nothing she could imagine seemed to her probable, -and when five o’clock came on the following -afternoon she had almost persuaded herself that -the explanation of Richard’s ill-humour must be -something quite unconnected with herself. She -knocked and Richard opened the door, and stood -for a moment in the threshold before admitting -her. He stared at her with a grin on his face and -said: “Oh! So it is you, Anne!”</p> - -<p>“Weren’t you expecting me?” she asked, -noticing his surprise. “You said I was to come -to tea.”</p> - -<p>Richard Sotheby led her into the studio, and -Ginette rose from the sofa, where she had been -lying. The girl’s face had changed; Anne could -see that she had been crying, but there was so -much pride in her greeting that she felt shy of -looking her in the face.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_194">[194]</span>“Here is a letter for you,” said Ginette -gravely, speaking in French and pronouncing -her words with the greatest distinctness. “You -are to present it personally to M. Kieselyov at -that address at eight o’clock to-morrow morning. -If he thinks you are in the English style he -will engage you.”</p> - -<p>“Thank you with all my heart. Your goodness....” -Ginette did not wait for Anne to finish -her sentence, but walked away across the -room.</p> - -<p>Richard was making the tea. “Have you -heard from your father?” he asked.</p> - -<p>“No, I haven’t,” said Anne, feeling rather -guilty. She had not written to him since her -arrival.</p> - -<p>“I had a letter from mother with messages -for you from Rachel.” He was half tempted to -add that their names must be coupled together -in the village by now, and that this was disagreeable -to him, but he looked at Anne and refrained.</p> - -<p>She had taken off her hat, and the short, -closely cropped hair shone like straw. There was -a worried look on her pale face.</p> - -<p>“My God, what innocence!” he said to himself.</p> - -<p>“Ginette and Richard have been quarrelling,” -thought Anne, wondering if Grandison<span class="pagenum" id="Page_195">[195]</span> -would come in, for she was miserably disappointed -not to see him.</p> - -<p>But instead of asking if he would be back to -tea she said: “I wonder if the swallows are building -again in our dove house.”</p> - -<p>“Do they build there?” asked Richard, and -the whole expression of his face altered at her -words.</p> - -<p>“Yes, they have a nest on the joist. Father -leaves the top half of the door open for them -and they fly in and out. They are the prettiest of -the birds; my favourites, for no birds exceed -them in loveliness of colouring: the steel-blue -back, the crimson throat and the white belly. The -flight of the swallow is more beautiful than that -of any other bird, but this pair are prettiest when -they sit side by side on the rails outside the dove -house. Their spirits always seem to me a little -low: she moves one wing and then the other, as -though she were shrugging her little shoulders, -and then, suddenly, he bursts into song. Do you -know the swallows’ song?”</p> - -<p>“No,” said Richard. “I have never heard a -swallow sing.” He sat down and buried his face -in his hands, and repeated in tones of utter -wretchedness: “No, I have never heard a swallow -sing.”</p> - -<p>“He has the clear note of a contralto; not<span class="pagenum" id="Page_196">[196]</span> -loud or defiant, nor yet feeble, but full of love, -subdued because he can never forget that the -world is full of cruelty and unkindness.”</p> - -<p>Ginette broke in with a question as to what -Anne had said.</p> - -<p>Richard told her, and the French girl smiled -wearily.</p> - -<p>“In England it is only the swallows apparently -which have discovered such platitudes.” -Then she added: “Why is she staying?”</p> - -<p>“It appears we invited her to tea,” answered -Richard in a low voice.</p> - -<p>There was the sound of a heavy tramp on the -stairs and then a knock. Richard stood up and -went to the door. Anne looked across at Ginette -and saw that she was gazing at her with a -strange expression.</p> - -<p>“I must go,” she said to herself. “Why does -she look at me as if she felt contempt for me?” -But it seemed impossible to go after that look -without an explanation. The memory of that expression -would haunt her.</p> - -<p>She looked up and saw that Richard had come -back from the door, and that a workman had -followed him, and together they crossed the -studio and disappeared into the little room at -the back.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_197">[197]</span>Anne sat and sipped her tea, tortured by the -need to speak, to ask a question, to see light, and -by the desire to escape, to go out of the studio -and never to set foot in it again. But she could -not find the words with which to ask her question -or to take her leave, and she sat on, dumbly -watching the workman crossing the room, first -with a rolled-up mattress in his arms and then -with a little folding bed or carrying a wash-hand-stand. -Richard came back and threw himself -down in a chair. There was a silence, prolonged -until the workman reappeared, crossed -the studio and went out once more with a chair -and a looking-glass.</p> - -<p>Ginette gave Richard an appealing look and -he said:</p> - -<p>“Anne, I think perhaps you had better go -now. Ginette and I are both rather upset.” He -paused for a moment and said in colourless -tones: “Besides, someone who wishes to see you -is waiting.”</p> - -<p>Anne rose. “Good-bye, Mademoiselle Lariboisière,” -she said, holding out her hand. The brown -hand gripped hers firmly.</p> - -<p>“Till we meet again,” she said, and then -added in broken English: “You have a lucky -face.”</p> - -<p>“Thank you for telling me about the swallows,”<span class="pagenum" id="Page_198">[198]</span> -said Richard as he stood above her at the -top of the stairs.</p> - -<p>The French workman was struggling with a -small table on the staircase and it was some moments -before she could reach the street.</p> - -<p>“Never to know the meaning! Never to learn -the secret! Never to understand anything at -all!” Anne cried with tears coming into her eyes. -“I have never seen into another person’s heart. I -never shall. Wherever I am, my curse clings to -me!” A vague project of suicide, of being found -floating in the river, passed through her mind -as she stepped out into the street. The workman -was still in front of her lifting the table into a -small motor-van; in avoiding him she ran into -Grandison’s back.</p> - -<p>“Good God! You here! Don’t go away!” he -exclaimed, as though she was running from him. -Anne stepped back and stood for a moment -staring in astonishment into his red face.</p> - -<p>His words sounded angry, and his blue eyes -glittered angrily so that she felt afraid and her -first impulse was to run back into the house. “I -cannot go up there again,” flashed through her -mind, and she turned again to Grandison.</p> - -<p>“Miss Dunnock,” said the young man, still -looking at her, almost murderously. “I must -make an explanation.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_199">[199]</span>The word explanation caught her ears. “No, -that is impossible,” she said to herself for some -reason. “An explanation is impossible.”</p> - -<p>“I don’t understand,” she said in a weak -voice, giving up all thoughts of flight. She was -almost in tears. “I don’t understand anything.”</p> - -<p>Grandison’s anger or passion seemed suddenly -to have completely disappeared. He looked -at her appealingly with an expression in which -she could read pity for her and misery on his -own account. For a moment he tried to speak -and choked, and then, swallowing, went on -rapidly:</p> - -<p>“It is rather complicated. I am taking away -my furniture to a new room and must superintend -the man unpacking it. If you could come -with me in the van we could talk to each other.”</p> - -<p>The van was packed; the man was waiting, -impatient of their conversation. Anne did not -hesitate, but scrambled up on to the tail-board -of the van and settled herself on the rolled-up -mattress.</p> - -<p>She was excited without knowing why, and -suddenly, looking at Grandison perched beside -her on the edge of the wash-hand-stand, she felt -happy and secure.</p> - -<p>“I want to explain,” he said suddenly, as -though he were defending himself. “This is my<span class="pagenum" id="Page_200">[200]</span> -furniture. I am taking it away from the studio -because I cannot live with Richard or with -Ginette any longer. I have broken with them -completely, and have taken a room of my own.”</p> - -<p>There was so much suffering in his voice that -Anne understood that there had been a quarrel. -At that moment all seemed suddenly to have -become clear to her, and she felt that she was a -very experienced person. “What foolishness!” -she exclaimed to herself.</p> - -<p>“Why should they have quarrelled?” And -she decided to persuade Grandison to turn back.</p> - -<p>“Why do you want to leave them?” she asked -gently. She was preparing to reason with him -sympathetically, and softly to lead him back to -Richard. For a moment Grandison sat silent, -and something in his sullen expression, his -trembling lip and the way in which he opened -and then shut his hand, moved her very much.</p> - -<p>“I must explain,” he repeated. “Ever since -I met you at the station I have been madly in -love with you.”</p> - -<p>Anne felt cold all over as she heard these -words; she shivered and gazed at Grandison with -frightened eyes, asking herself if she had heard -what he had said aright; a suspicion crossed her -mind that he was playing a joke on her, a heartless -practical joke. She gazed at him in terror,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_201">[201]</span> -but he went on without turning his head to look -at her: “It has been awful. I could not speak to -you while I was still living in Richard’s studio. -I think Ginette guessed but Richard did not suspect -until I told him after you went yesterday. I -did not think it would upset him so much or that -it would upset me so much.”</p> - -<p>“I don’t understand why he should be upset -or why he dislikes me, but I feel he does. There -has never been anything between Richard and -me,” said Anne. She stopped, feeling that she -had said something foolish.</p> - -<p>“I know, but there has been a great deal between -Richard and me,” answered Grandison. -“Just now he hates you, though it is not your -fault that I am in love with you, and he knows -that.”</p> - -<p>“He has got Ginette,” said Anne.</p> - -<p>“Oh, my God!” cried Grandison, making the -most awful face. “Ginette was my mistress. -Surely you knew that?”</p> - -<p>Anne gazed at the cuff of Grandison’s coat: a -check material with a little wavy thread of -purple running among the fawns and greys. She -was overcome with shame and confusion at her -ignorance and her stupidity. There was a long -silence.</p> - -<p>“This doesn’t seem like a trick,” she said to<span class="pagenum" id="Page_202">[202]</span> -herself, but the fear that Grandison might in -some way be playing some strange and terrible -joke at her expense remained at the back of her -mind.</p> - -<p>“For some reason I thought that Ginette and -you were the same person before I arrived,” she -said. “You see I overheard Richard spelling out -a telegram to you in French before I had ever -spoken to him.”</p> - -<p>“A telegram?” Grandison asked in astonishment. -“Oh, yes, perhaps he did telegraph. I -wrote and told him that I was in love with -Ginette and that I proposed taking her to live -with us.... That was a dreadful thing to have -done. You see, Richard was very fond of me; he -cares about nobody else,” he said suddenly, -wiping the sweat off his forehead.</p> - -<p>“I have always, all my life, mismanaged my -love affairs. But that is because I have never -been in love before. Now I am in love with you -and I determined not to mismanage that but to -make a clean sweep of everything.”</p> - -<p>This remark, and the defiant tone in which it -was uttered, struck Anne as comic; she laughed -but immediately regretted having done so, for -Grandison burst into tears.</p> - -<p>She had never seen a man weep before and was -alarmed. The tears streamed down his cheeks<span class="pagenum" id="Page_203">[203]</span> -and hung on the stubble of his beard, for he had -not shaved that day, and then fell one after -another on to his knees.</p> - -<p>Anne jumped up from the mattress, hitting -her head on the top of the van. “Oh! Damn!” -She clutched Grandison round the shoulders -while her eyes filled with tears from the pain. -“Don’t cry; I have hit my head such an awful -crack, but you see I am not crying,” she said, -hugging him and then slipping on to her knees. -He looked at her, and the van pulled up with a -jerk just as they found each other’s faces in a -kiss. They alighted, and Grandison led the way -into the meanest building that Anne had ever -seen. His room was on the top floor, and as they -ascended, an odour of cooking, of accumulated -filth, of bugs and of boiled rags took them by -the throat. But they climbed on, up and up, and -behind them toiled the indignant workman, -sweating under the mattress in his arms, and -pausing to curse the smells and the filthiness of -the house under his breath.</p> - -<p>“The view is magnificent,” said Grandison -with a sweep of his arm as he threw open the door -of a tiny attic.</p> - -<p>“Put the things down anywhere, just as you -like,” he added to the workman. He was right, -the view was magnificent. All Paris lay glittering<span class="pagenum" id="Page_204">[204]</span> -at their feet in the sunshine, and Anne forgot -the malodorous staircase as she leant out of the -open window.</p> - -<p>“Yes, the view is lovely,” she said, turning to -Grandison, but an altercation was going on with -the workman, who was repeating again and -again: “This place stinks.”</p> - -<p>Grandison could understand the words well -enough, but he was offended and resolutely -shrugged his shoulders, repeating: “Don’t -understand. Fetch my furniture.”</p> - -<p>“This place stinks,” repeated the workman -with appropriate gestures. “It gives me a bad -throat.” He made sounds as if he were going to -be sick.</p> - -<p>“I don’t understand what you say; fetch the -furniture,” repeated Grandison in a rage, and -began to push the man out of the room. “A -house full of Poles and bugs,” said the man as he -made off down the staircase.</p> - -<p>“It’s quite an accident,” said Grandison, -“that there is such a wonderful view. I took the -first room I could find, by candle light. It is -dirty, but I had it scrubbed out with disinfectant -this morning. I shall get some sulphur candles in -case what he says about the bugs is true.”</p> - -<p>Anne sniffed: a smell of Jeyes fluid hung in the -air. They were silent, gazing out of the window,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_205">[205]</span> -waiting while the slow tramp of feet and muttered -curses drew nearer and the man came in -carrying the bed.</p> - -<p>“It stinks,” he announced, returning to -Richard.</p> - -<p>Grandison cursed suddenly with great obscenity -in fluent French.</p> - -<p>“You mustn’t talk to me like that,” answered -the man, but he left the room after looking at -Anne with an air of icy disapproval. “Damn the -fellow,” said Grandison, and they remained -silent while the table, the wash-hand-stand, a -piece of drugget and the chairs were brought -in.</p> - -<p>Grandison had recovered his temper by then, -and gave the man a tip. “One doesn’t say such -things,” said the workman, pocketing it, and he -went down the stairs clearing his throat. They -listened to the tramp of feet descending the -stairs without looking at each other, and stood -motionless through the minutes of dead silence -which followed. “He must be waiting and poking -about in the hall,” was their unspoken thought -and, exchanging a swift glance, they nodded -their suspicions. A sudden crash resounded up -the stairs of the outer door being slammed, and -they smiled happily at each other, for love is impossible -except in secret. But although they<span class="pagenum" id="Page_206">[206]</span> -smiled the silence continued, their hearts beating -faster and faster and confusion coming upon -them.</p> - -<p>“We must put up the bed,” said Anne.</p> - -<p>Grandison helped her mechanically; the pleasure -of her presence near him was so great that -he was afraid to speak lest some word of his -might scare her away. Together they unfolded -the legs of the narrow iron bedstead, set it upon -its feet, covered it with a weedy mattress and a -coverlet. Then they laid the carpet on the floor, -set the trunk in one corner, the washstand in -another, and put the table in the middle of the -room. There was nothing more to be done, and -after speaking once or twice of buying such -necessaries as a broom and a looking-glass, they -became silent again, Anne sitting in the only -chair, Grandison upon the bed, while darkness -closed in on them very slowly.</p> - -<p>It seemed to the girl then that at last she had -found what she had been seeking.</p> - -<p>“I have found this room,” she said to herself, -and already she was at home in it, and -she sat musing over the vast landscape of the -future, of which she had suddenly caught a -glimpse as she had of Paris itself, but without -knowledge and unable to recognize the landmarks.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_207">[207]</span>But at last, rousing herself, she looked about -her and asked suddenly: “How will you paint in -such a small room?”</p> - -<p>“I don’t know,” he answered. “I only paint -because Richard does.”</p> - -<p>“It has got dark,” she said. “I can’t see your -face.”</p> - -<p>He struck a match and they looked at each -other.</p> - -<p>“I haven’t got a candle,” he said apologetically. -“And there is no gas.”</p> - -<p>Anne rose from her chair. “She is going,” -Grandison said to himself as he stood up. Their -hands touched and they embraced. “I have -always loved you. Before I knew you. Before I -knew myself, while I was still in the navy,” he -whispered rapidly between his kisses.</p> - -<p>The whispering went on and on in the dark -room, lit by the flickering arc lamps in the street -below. Each whisper was a charm that breathed -love into her, that stole away her strength, and -that changed her nature. Yet Anne still held herself -alert, danger seemed near; at any moment a -heavy footstep might sound upon the stairs, a -voice break in. It seemed to her that if she sat -very still the danger might pass, and when -Grandison’s voice rose she stroked his hair nervously—hair -as short and thick and soft as fur.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_208">[208]</span>“Richard—the danger is Richard,” she said -to herself, recognizing that she was helpless in -face of that danger.</p> - -<p>Hours passed but no footstep sounded on the -stairs, and no voice spoke out of the darkness; -only the moon breaking through the clouds -flooded the room with light, showing them to -each other. They became hungry, but they forgot -their hunger, remembered the passage of -time and as soon forgot it, grew sleepy and did -not think of sleep.</p> - -<p>A clock struck and they counted eleven -strokes.</p> - -<p>“You must be hungry,” said Anne.</p> - -<p>“Yes, I am,” answered Grandison, surprised, -but he took an apple from his pocket, and when -they had shared it their hunger seemed to be -satisfied.</p> - -<p>A clock struck, and they lost count of the -strokes.</p> - -<p>“It is midnight,” said Anne. “I must go back -to my hotel.” But she did not move, and an hour -later she had consented to stay the night, had -undressed in the dark and had got into the bed, -while Grandison had wrapped himself in his overcoat -and, covered with the piece of drugget, was -stretched out upon the floor.</p> - -<p>For a long while Anne went on stroking his<span class="pagenum" id="Page_209">[209]</span> -hair, and when at last they fell asleep he was -still grasping her hand in both of his and holding -it to his lips.</p> - -<p>“What’s the matter?”</p> - -<p>A strangled cry of “Help!” was ringing in -her ears, but she understood that it was her own -voice that she had heard.</p> - -<p>“What’s the matter, Anne?”</p> - -<p>“It is all right,” she answered, coming to herself, -but her voice was full of fear, and Grandison, -sitting up by her bed, could see her shudder.</p> - -<p>“I suppose it was a dream,” she murmured, -and suddenly the fear left her as the details of -her nightmare came back, and she lay in silence -piecing them together.</p> - -<p>“It was something awful about my father,” -she said. “I was alone, quite alone, in the vicarage. -There was no furniture; I went from room -to room looking for my father, but all the rooms -were empty; all the furniture had been taken -away but they had left me behind. Suddenly -I looked out of the bedroom window, my father’s -bedroom, for it was at the front of the house, -and as I expected I saw a Ford van stop at the -gate and people getting out of it.” Anne shuddered -again violently and Grandison began -stroking her shoulder. “Don’t tell me if it -frightens you,” he said.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_210">[210]</span>“Two women came first, and I was frightened -of them because I could see that they were imbecile -from the way they walked, but I was more -frightened of the men. They weren’t mad but I -could see madness in their faces, and I recognized -them at once. They were the Puttys, who -used to live in the Burnt Farm, but it seemed to -me that they were coming to our house. They -looked from side to side with wooden faces, and I -could see that underneath their woodenness they -were full of terror. When they got to the door I -could no longer see them, for I dared not look -down on their heads, but I heard them unlock the -door and knew that they had come to take -possession. All I could do was to hide, and for a -long while I lay holding my breath and listening -as they laughed and screamed and threw plates -at each other downstairs. Then I heard the man -coming up the stairs in his heavy hobnail boots. -I heard him fumble at the door and I began to -scream.”</p> - -<p>“Poor creature,” said Grandison. “Who -were these people?”</p> - -<p>“The Puttys; Richard’s mother told me their -story: they lived at the Burnt Farm,” answered -Anne, and stopped, realizing that her words -could mean nothing to Grandison.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_211">[211]</span>“You aren’t frightened any longer, are -you?” he asked, and his jaws were pulled apart -violently in a yawn; he shivered all over. When -he could speak again he repeated: “You are -quite sure that you aren’t frightened any -longer?” He leant towards her to kiss her, but -stopped, feeling another yawn upon him.</p> - -<p>“No, why should I be?” she replied, and -without waiting to hear what else she had to -say he lay down on the bare boards and was -asleep.</p> - -<p>Anne’s fear had gone, but one thing still -puzzled her; for though she had no memory of -her father in her dream she knew that it was -terrifying because of him, not because of the -Puttys.</p> - -<p>“Yes, the subject of my dream was my -father,” she repeated to herself, wondering suddenly -what she was doing in Paris, and hearing -a slight snore she looked over the edge of the bed -at the sleeping figure beside her.</p> - -<p>“Why am I here?” she thought. “This is -madness!” and she determined to get out of bed -and dress and hurry away if she could do so -without waking her neighbour. A minute passed -while she waited for him to fall sound asleep, but -he stirred uneasily when she sat up in bed. “I<span class="pagenum" id="Page_212">[212]</span> -must give him five minutes,” she thought. “Then -I shall be rested.” She lay back, aware that a -task awaited her which would need all her -strength, but before two minutes had passed she -began breathing gently and was asleep herself.</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_213">[213]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">FIFTEEN: HONEYMOONING</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">A month</span> had passed, and in the last week of -their honeymoon Mr. and Mrs. Grandison were -staying at an hotel in Avignon. The sun was -already hot when Anne came down to breakfast -after waking her husband and leaving him to -shave and to dress. The American ladies smiled -at her as she came into the little courtyard, -bidding her: “Good morning,” and hoping that -she had passed a pleasant night.</p> - -<p>A pleasant night! What could she answer to -them? But Anne smiled back, and then she -laughed, for she was happy to be alive, and her -skin tingled with pleasure as she took her seat -carelessly under the flowering oleander. A dog -ran in from the street causing a diversion, the -cat sunning herself on the cobblestones leapt on -to one of the tables; the dog yapped, but he was -in no mood for cats, and hearing his master’s -whistle he ran out again. But watching them -Anne felt as much excitement as if she had never -seen a cat and a dog before. Her eyes were still -bright with interest when the waiter came up<span class="pagenum" id="Page_214">[214]</span> -with coffee, and he also asked if she had slept -well. On the tray there were two letters, one for -her and one for Monsieur.</p> - -<p>The first letters for three weeks! And Anne -seized hers, forwarded from her hotel in Paris, -and tore it open. It was from her father and ran -as follows:</p> - -<div class="blockquot"> -<p class="right"> -<span class="indentright">The Vicarage, Dry Coulter,</span><br> -Huntingdonshire.</p> - -<p>My dear Anne,</p> - -<p>The news of your marriage is not such a great -surprise as you anticipated, but it is not the less -welcome because I had an inkling that what -moved you to fly abroad was much the same as -that which moves the whitethroat to fly here in -summer.</p> - -<p>Dear girl, I write strangely removed from you -and the blessing I send is a more disinterested -one than parents are usually in a position to -give. My revelation has come to me late in life, -but I am aware that it has changed me greatly, -so that now I find it almost impossible to think -of worldly things. However, I have packed up -the old silver teapot which was your mother’s -and have had it sent to you addressed to the -Paris branch of our bank at Linton for greater -safety.... You shall have the rat-tail spoons,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_215">[215]</span> -but one seems to be mislaid. Your letter was the -first communication for many weeks to recall me -to this transient world, and to that extent I -must admit that your marriage caused me pain. -But no, I am wrong, something else has happened -since you left—a sad tragedy.</p> - -<p>You will remember our little angelic visitors -of the dove house, so faithful to one another and -so happy as they chased the summer flies. You -will recollect the pleasure he gave us with his -song, always rather saddened, whilst she -brooded over her mysteries in the little clay cup -on the joist. Old Noah had occasion to go into -the upper storey of the dove house and carelessly -(for it was nothing but carelessness) left -the hatch open. I did not notice anything for -several days, then, going up myself, found the -swallow dead. She must have flown up, attracted -by the light, and have beaten her life out on the -window-panes. He, poor fellow, had flown away. -I pray that neither you nor your husband should -ever know his sorrow. My best regards to the -gentleman with the beautiful name, your husband.</p> - -<p class="right"> -<span class="indentright">Your affectionate Father,</span><br> -<span class="smcap">Charles Dunnock</span>.</p> - -<p>P.S. It gives me peculiar pleasure to inscribe -Mrs. Grandison on the envelope.</p> -</div> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_216">[216]</span>Anne smiled as she finished the letter, but her -heart was troubled; never before had her father -been so intimate with her—never had he revealed -so much of himself. Her love for him came -back to her, a sudden shock astonishing her, for -it was a love of which she had hardly suspected -the existence, while at the same moment she -thought: “He can afford to write to me like this -now I am safely married and he is in no danger -of my coming back.”</p> - -<p>Soon her emotion passed, and she looked -around her with renewed excitement. “How -lovely the blue sky and the blossom of the -oleander!” The waiter was standing beside her -setting out the coffee-pot and the milk jug, the -cups and saucers, the two hot rolls, wrapped in -napkins, and the four thin bricks of lustreless -sugar. She picked up her husband’s letter and -glanced at the envelope.</p> - -<p>“How happy it will make Grandison to have -a friendly letter from Richard!” she thought, -recognizing the handwriting, and she sat wondering -if, after all the letters they had written to -him and the postcards they had sent, he still -remained cold and unforgiving.</p> - -<p>“He loved Grandison; he cared for nobody -else, and yet Grandison never gave him any -happiness and never showed him any consideration.<span class="pagenum" id="Page_217">[217]</span> -I cannot bear to think of his feelings after -they parted in anger on my account. But this -letter must be to say that he has become reconciled -to the marriage; he would not write otherwise.”</p> - -<p>Richard had sent a wedding present, but when -they had gone to the studio they found it locked, -and after the third or fourth fruitless visit the -<i>concierge</i> had told them that he had gone -away.</p> - -<p>Anne looked again at the letter, and saw that -it bore an English stamp and that the postmark -was Dry Coulter; Richard must have gone home -suddenly on a surprise visit.</p> - -<p>“It is strange how real Dry Coulter is to me! -I was unhappy while I was living there, yet all -my memories of it are beautiful, and nowhere -else in the world seems so real as that village. -Are the English elms more beautiful than the -olives? Is the song of the blackbird as lovely as -Fleury’s flute? Why do I remember every detail -of my life before my marriage and nothing of the -things that happen to me now? Nothing is real -to me now but Grandison, my happiness in him is -such that I can enjoy no other beauty.”</p> - -<p>And Anne reminded herself how she had been -with him to the opera and to students’ balls in -Paris night after night, but the memory of them<span class="pagenum" id="Page_218">[218]</span> -was already dim, a lovely voice thrilling her for -a moment, a sea of lights, a crowd of faces.</p> - -<p>“I cannot keep my attention fixed on the -stage,” she said to herself. “At every moment I -have to turn to glance at him, to look at his -blunt healthy features, his soft and furry hair, -his round head, so like a seal’s or an otter’s -thrust suddenly above the surface of the water. -All I remember of the opera, of the picture galleries, -and of the castles which we saw yesterday, -is catching Grandison’s eye to see whether he -were moved by the same things that moved me—and -because of that I felt no emotion except -about him.”</p> - -<p>She laughed, but her happiness was coloured -with the regret that her only opportunity of -seeing so many beautiful things should have been -during her honeymoon.</p> - -<p>“We should have been just as happy if we -had stayed in that horrid room with the beautiful -view.” And Anne recalled how they had spent -their first days held in a web of unrealities, -making declarations, mumbling affidavits before -a consul, handing telegrams through wire netting, -and patiently waiting for permission to get -married. “Days vague and as impossible to remember -as the waving of weeds seen through -water,” she said. But Sir John, who had cut off<span class="pagenum" id="Page_219">[219]</span> -his son’s allowance while he was living in Paris -with Richard Sotheby, had been pleased at the -marriage and had sent a cable with his blessing -and a thousand pounds from Ceylon.... And -dismissing the past, Anne paused for a moment -to wonder what their life would be like in the -future. Grandison had consented to live in London -and to take the job his father had offered -him in the tea business.</p> - -<p>“How long he is, dressing!” she exclaimed, -and jumping up she ran up the yellow stairs to -their bedroom.</p> - -<p>She had forgotten to take Richard’s letter -with her, but it was the first thing she spoke of.</p> - -<p>“You’ve been using my powder puff,” she -added, for his shaven cheek was delicious with -scent.</p> - -<p>“Stingy! Stingy! If there is anything I hate -it’s stinginess!” he exclaimed, embracing her -again. She fought with him but was overcome; -they laughed, but their laughter changed suddenly -to the seriousness of love-making.</p> - -<p>“What a devil you are, Anne, slipping out of -bed like a mouse without waking me until the -moment you were going down to breakfast.”</p> - -<p>“It is difficult to wake you,” she answered. -“And I always feel a criminal when I do.”</p> - -<p>“You are a sly hypocrite. But I vowed I<span class="pagenum" id="Page_220">[220]</span> -would not come downstairs this morning until -you had come up again to find me. You see your -tricks don’t work.”</p> - -<p>“For all you know I might have gone out with -the American ladies.”</p> - -<p>“I should have stayed here all day.”</p> - -<p>“We are scandal enough as it is in this hotel,” -she answered.</p> - -<p>“Just as we were at Dijon.”</p> - -<p>“If you will go down alone to breakfast, -naturally you cause a scandal. People think -something dreadful must have happened. They -see that you care nothing for me, Anne. Love -means nothing to you.”</p> - -<p>Her looks were a sufficient answer to his reproaches, -and he was silent as she seized him and -bent over him.</p> - -<p>“Keep still,” she whispered. Looking up, -Grandison could see the ceiling of the darkened -room striped with bars of light from the upturned -slats of the shutters. Outside, the sunlight -poured into the grilling street; an electric -tram passed by, its passage announced by the -swishing of overhead wires and followed by -the crackling of electric sparks. Wrapped in the -weakness of love, Anne and Grandison lay at -each other’s mercy; each tiny movement was -agony to them.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_221">[221]</span>“Keep still! Keep still!” A cry broke from -their lips, and then, in the solitude of perfect -unity, they fell asleep. The overhead wires -swished, an electric tram lurched past the hotel -on grinding wheels, above which the soft crackle -of electricity came like the sound of a silk skirt. -Already the American ladies had left the hotel, -the waiter in the courtyard had cleared away -the cold coffee and the uneaten rolls; the forgotten -letter had been handed in at the manager’s -office; the chambermaid had looked -through the keyhole and had gone away to wash -vegetables in the kitchen, before either husband -or wife spoke.</p> - -<p>“What time is the bus?” he asked, girding -his silk trowsers with a sash.</p> - -<p>“In five minutes!” screamed Anne, looking -at the gold wrist watch that Richard Sotheby -had given her. Grandison seized his pocket-book -and cigarettes, they snatched up their Panama -hats and fled down the cool staircase with its -smell of varnish and of glue, out into the baking -heat of the street.</p> - -<p>There was no taxi to be seen and no tram.</p> - -<p>“Run!” he cried, and they ran, though the -air came hot to the mouth and the sun slashed -through their silk shirts, scorching their shoulders. -They were late, but the char-a-banc had<span class="pagenum" id="Page_222">[222]</span> -waited for them, and when Grandison had cried -out: “No breakfast!” it waited while he rushed -into the station buffet and came back with a -bottle of sweet champagne, a long roll of bread -and a green water-melon. They sat in the front -seats, and the oilcloth cushions ran with their -clean sweat, while they were drinking champagne -out of the palms of their hands and spilling -it over their knees as the heavy car lurched -and bumped on the road. They laughed, and the -melon juice ran over their chins and into their -ears; they spoke their thoughts aloud heedless -of the American ladies and the party of English -school-teachers behind them, and the whole char-a-banc -of twenty people was united by the happiness -of watching them. Looking at the outlines -of their shoulders, everyone was moved to a gay, -slightly tipsy sentimentality; the discomfort of -a whole day’s jolting, of being a school-teacher -and wearing stays, or a double-breasted waistcoat -and starched collars and side-whiskers, all -such ills passed unnoticed. As for the lovers, -they paid no attention to their companions and -scarcely even looked at the sights they had come -to see. Strolling through the Roman theatre and -the bull-ring at Arles, they made silly jokes -about asparagus, and on the way home broke -into their first quarrel, Anne maintaining that a<span class="pagenum" id="Page_223">[223]</span> -cigale was a grasshopper, while Grandison reiterated -that it was a sedentary dragonfly with -a beetle’s body.</p> - -<p>“A letter for you, Sir,” said the porter as -they entered the hotel, and they looked at each -other in embarrassment, wondering how they -could have come to forget Richard’s letter. A -word from him meant so much to both of them! -But recollecting how it was that they had so -nearly missed the bus that morning, they broke -out laughing.</p> - -<p>“Bad news,” said Grandison, his face changing -suddenly. “Richard’s father, the grocer, has -gone bankrupt. The worst is that I cannot help -feeling I have had my share in causing it by my -cursed extravagance. Richard paid for everything -for me, and for Ginette.” As he said this -his face flushed scarlet.</p> - -<p>“It is more likely to be the hotel,” said -Anne.</p> - -<p>“Yes, that is what Richard says, and then -there is a message about your father,” he added, -handing her the letter. His face was still flushed, -but the first feeling of shame had passed into -one of anger with the outside world that threatened -to break in upon his happiness.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_224">[224]</span></p> - -<div class="blockquot"> -<p class="right">Dry Coulter.</p> - -<p>Dear Seal,</p> - -<p>Why do you and Anne send me so many postcards? -I ask because I got six yesterday; very -disturbing when I am doing my best to forget -you. “Let the dead bury their dead.” What does -that mean? Perhaps I have got the phrase -wrong, but for some reason though I don’t understand -what it means I find it expresses my -feelings.</p> - -<p>So don’t send me any more postcards. I shall -think of you and Anne quite as much as you -deserve, and I shall want to see you directly you -come back to England.</p> - -<p>You ask me what I think of your compact -with your father, and your giving up painting. -I have no opinion about it: you must settle your -own affairs as you think best. If you mean: do I -think you would have been a good painter if you -went on, I don’t. But I think you might have -eventually done something else, I mean something -serious, and badly as I think of you I still -believe you capable of something better than -being a tea-merchant in Mincing Lane. That -seems to me a frivolous waste of time. One only -has one life.</p> - -<p>I have plenty to distract me here: my father -has involved himself in a tiresome disaster. He<span class="pagenum" id="Page_225">[225]</span> -has gone bankrupt with no assets but an unfinished -hotel with water-logged foundations, -which would have flooded every winter. He has -taken to his bed with a bad heart attack, and I -have spent a hectic fortnight finding out the -exact position. Meanwhile I have arranged for -a show in Bond Street, and have got a commission -to paint a portrait. I am setting up in London. -The only drawback is that England always -gives me indigestion. My mother is quite unmoved -by the bankruptcy.</p> - -<p>Please tell Anne that I haven’t seen her father, -but from what I can hear his position is much -more serious. He has given up taking the services -in church, and people think that he is definitely -odd. The vicarage certainly looks odd; he -wouldn’t open the door to me. I think Anne -ought to come down as soon as possible. I will -do what I can but I have got my hands full just -now.</p> - -<p>Rachel sends her love; she is a pretty creature. -I shall have to begin to think about sending -her to Newnham in a year or two. There: I know -you can’t help your character (a bad one) any -more than I can help mine, so don’t let’s think -of our characters and don’t send me any more -postcards or letters.</p> - -<p class="right"> -<span class="indentright">Au Revoir,</span><br> -<span class="smcap">Richard</span>.</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_226">[226]</span>P.S. Ginette has got the job she meant for -Anne, as a mannequin <i>style anglais</i>. She writes -to me <i>every day</i>. Whose fault is that?</p> -</div> - -<p>Anne crumpled the letter in her hand; she did -not feel shame or anger as her husband had -done; she had no irritation against the outside -world but only pity. As she followed her husband -to the stairs her mind was busy with plans for -returning to England. She thought of her -father, of the old grocer lying in bed, staring -at the ceiling, and of Mrs. Sotheby.</p> - -<p>“All the same, we were right to send Richard -all those postcards; he would have been more -unhappy without any news of us.” Grandison -was stamping about the room in a rage.</p> - -<p>“It means no more to me than a famine in -China,” he said.</p> - -<p>“We had better pack our things; we shall -have to go home to-morrow,” answered Anne.</p> - -<p>In the train the outside world became once -more “like the waving of weeds seen through -water,” a series of noises, smells, and movements -which concerned them little, and they did not -speak of the future until they were on the boat, -when Anne said: “Let’s deal with our affairs -separately: while you are arranging with your -father’s firm I will go down to Dry Coulter.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_227">[227]</span>Grandison nodded, and realizing that the -cliffs before him were indeed those of Dover, that -an interview with his uncle and his elder brother -awaited him, and that his father would be back -in England in a few days, a bitter regret seized -him that he had ever seen Anne.</p> - -<p>“Love for this woman is ruining my life,” he -said to himself, but when he turned his head and -he found himself gazing into her pale, fierce, -happy face, he understood that he was helpless. -He looked at his wife’s short straw-coloured -hair, her intense grey eyes and her slim body, -and listening to her abrupt speech he told himself -that everything else was unimportant.</p> - -<p>“I am glad I didn’t buy a bicycle,” said Anne. -She had been thinking for a moment of the past.</p> -<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop"> - -<div class="chapter"> -<span class="pagenum" id="Page_228">[228]</span> - -<h2 class="nobreak">SIXTEEN: ANGELS</h2> -</div> - -<p><span class="smcap">The</span> train reached Linton station at last, and -Anne leaped out of the stuffy carriage, all the -weariness of her long wait at Cambridge forgotten -in the excitement of seeing again what she -had so often seen before. She could not hide the -eagerness in her voice as she handed her bag to -the porter, asking him to give it to the carrier.</p> - -<p>“Well, Miss, are you glad to be back?” he -asked, recognizing her.</p> - -<p>“Yes, of course I am,” she answered, and -smiling with surprise she made her way across -the market place.</p> - -<p>Linton was unchanged, and she was filled with -joy and gratitude to the little town, believing -that it could never alter in the future and not -reflecting that it was scarcely three months since -she had set off with even greater excitement on -her way to France in the belief that she would -never see Linton again.</p> - -<p>She walked on, and turned down Bridge -Street, rejoicing to see the signs over the shops -and the faces of the shopmen who were standing<span class="pagenum" id="Page_229">[229]</span> -in their doorways looking out for the last customers -before closing—all familiar things and -persons. On the crest of the bridge she paused -and looked back, thinking that on the morrow -she would have met Grandison at the station and -would be walking with him through the streets of -the old town. A lorry coming towards her filled -the bridge, and she took shelter in one of the -angles of the parapet. Looking down over the -side, she watched the waters of the Ouse slipping -away from the masonry of the piers, and -hoped that she would see a fish, but no fish -showed itself, and when she lifted her eyes she -was startled by the sight of an addition to the -landscape, the beginnings, surely, of Mr. Sotheby’s -hotel. There was a huge hole excavated by -the edge of the river, filled with muddy water, a -mound of blue clay, an ordered pile of white -glazed bricks, a few wheelbarrows upside down, -a lot of drain-pipes and nothing else.</p> - -<p>“So perish all innovations!” Anne exclaimed, -and recollecting how the old grocer had talked -to her three months before, and seeing his tragedy -before her, she began to laugh.</p> - -<p>“I wonder if Richard laughed when he saw -that hole full of water? Yes, to be sure he did, -for we all laugh at our parents, we understand -them so well,” but, her thoughts turning suddenly<span class="pagenum" id="Page_230">[230]</span> -to her own father, she sighed in despair -and walked on.</p> - -<p>She had scarcely left the bridge when she -caught sight of the grocer himself. He was sitting -bolt upright, driving his flea-bitten white -pony, his head thrown back, and his white beard -sticking out in front of him. “Like a billy-goat -looking up to Heaven,” thought Anne. “Yet he -is like Richard too, he has the same foxy nose.”</p> - -<p>“Good evening, Mr. Sotheby,” she called out. -The pony had dropped to a walk as she spoke, -but the old man’s eye fell stonily on her and he -made no answer to her greeting. When he had -passed, Anne looked after him in doubt whether -she had been deliberately ignored or had not -been recognized, or perhaps not even heard, and -she saw that the old dog-cart had been lately -repainted and newly varnished; on the back was -written in scarlet letters:</p> - -<p class="center">“<span class="smcap">International Tea Trust</span>.”</p> - -<p>“He looks ill,” she thought. “And his illness -is that his pride has been wounded. He has been -so virtuous and so successful all his life, it is too -bad that Grandison and Ginette, and excavating -a hole in a river bank, should have combined to -ruin him.” She smiled as she said this, but her -thought was broken suddenly by the reflection<span class="pagenum" id="Page_231">[231]</span> -that her own father was waiting for her and that -in less than an hour they would be speaking together. -Trouble would be sure to arise between -them at once, and each of them would behave -with falsity. And reluctant to come to her journey’s -end, unconsciously she dropped into a -slower walk.</p> - -<p>The road was long and dusty, and she was -glad to turn aside into the footpath by the -cross-roads, a footpath that was little frequented, -for it was half a mile longer than the -road. The first field was so huge that it seemed -she would never cross it; there was not a tree on -which she could rest her eyes and nothing in it -except the tussocky grass underfoot and a dozen -thirsty bullocks clustering round an empty cistern -by the gate, waiting for the water-cart. A -field of ripening wheat lay next, and she pushed -her way down the narrow lane between the ears, -unable to resist snatching at some of them. The -grains were still full of milk, yet there was something -dry even in their juiciness which made her -clear her throat and wish for a cup of tea. Already -she could see the elms of Dry Coulter, and -she pushed on, getting at last into the next field, -where there were men at work with teams of -horses harrowing and rolling the dusty earth.</p> - -<p>“It is likely enough that these are the men<span class="pagenum" id="Page_232">[232]</span> -and the horses that came to our doorstep in the -snow,” she said, and soon she had crossed to the -far side, where a line of men, bent up double, -were strung out across the field. But so big was -the expanse that rollers and harrows, men and -teams of horses and this string of men dibbling, -were so far away that she could not see their -faces, and felt as though she were alone.</p> - -<p>“They are planting cabbages,” she guessed. -“Each man leans forward to make a hole with -the dibber in his right hand, sticks in a young -plant and treads it firm with his left heel as he -passes in his stride forward to strike the next -hole. So they work all day, and this will be a -vast expanse of cabbages before the winter. The -life of these men is to labour all day in the sun, -or in the rain, in these immense fields, alone for -hour after hour, with nothing to speak with but -horse, and to go back at night to sleep in a -tiny room with a candle burning in the closed -window, then to rise again with the first colour -of the dawn. That is the life that the greater -number have always led, yet it has hardly -touched our thoughts and we live on their labour, -drinking the milk and swallowing the buttered -toast, thinking of anything rather than of how -the cows are kept fat and the thistles and docks -are spudded out to make room for the wheat,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_233">[233]</span> -for there is nothing in all that labour, or in all -those lives, to interest us. The labourers themselves -are silent about it; there are few songs -which take mangels or potatoes as their subject, -and when we look for poetry in the fields we turn -south to Italy or Greece and the goats nibbling -at the vines.”</p> - -<p>The footpath had been ploughed up, its last -traces had disappeared beneath the harrow and -the roller, and she walked carefully among the -young cabbage plants, withering and grey after -the long day’s sun. They looked dead, but they -would live.</p> - -<p>“They would die in a garden unless they were -shaded under flower-pots, but everything lives -in the fields; perhaps the air is purer under the -open sky,” thought Anne.</p> - -<p>As she crossed into the next field a bird flew -out of a poplar tree by the stream. “A hawk,” -was her first thought, but it surprised her by -calling “Cuckoo” as it flew.</p> - -<p>“He ought to have changed his tune a month -ago. ‘In July he gets ready to fly; in August, -go he must.’ Go he must, go he must,” she repeated, -and the sentence in her father’s letter -came back into her mind in which he had compared -her to a whitethroat.</p> - -<p>“Indeed he was right, for I was under the<span class="pagenum" id="Page_234">[234]</span> -same compulsion to go as the birds, but my -going was harder. At least I fancy so, though -the young swallows find it a difficult business to -leave England, staying a week or two after the -old birds have gone.” And Anne was surprised at -herself for thinking of the birds with pleasure: -in the past she had found her father’s love for -them so irritating.</p> - -<p>“I remember that I wished for a bird for my -hat, yet in Paris where I could have worn it, the -suggestion would have disgusted me. There, -where I was going to the opera, I was always -thinking of the birds, and the one beautiful thing -that I shall never forget is the shout of the birds’ -song with which one is woken on a March morning. -And how they sing after the rain.” She -laughed at the contradiction in herself which -had made her love in Paris what had so much -bored her in England.</p> - -<p>“Yet within an hour of my meeting with my -father I shall be wishing the cats good hunting,” -she added smiling.</p> - -<p>“How will he greet me, I wonder?”—a question -which had been repeated so often that it -made her ill with apprehension.</p> - -<p>“What are the troubles that await me?” She -was already at Dry Coulter; the elms rose up -before her, and when she had crossed the last<span class="pagenum" id="Page_235">[235]</span> -field the path would lead her through the churchyard -and on to the green. The last field had been -cut and the last of the hay was being carried, -a little boy drove a clicking horse-rake across -her path and, pulling a lever, dropped a thin -roll of the last gleanings of hay at her feet; -farther on two women were raking up the wisps -of hay into heaps and a boy was pitching it into -a red tumbril where another boy gathered it into -his arms and trod it underfoot, after which the -old mare was led on to the next heap.</p> - -<p>Anne could see that the hard work was done, -that they were enjoying themselves playing at -hay-making, clearing up what the men had left -behind. Soon she was out of the hay-field, slipping -over the wall of the churchyard, a wall -which had been worn smooth by the breeches of -generations of labourers, for a short cut to the -footpath ran among the graves beneath the -limbs of the giant sycamore. She had never liked -the tree, sharing her father’s jealousy for the -little church so far overtopped by it and so overshadowed -in summer. If it had not been part of -the rookery he would have had it cut down. The -nests were hidden now in the leaves, and as she -looked up into the tree an old fancy came back -into her mind and she said: “The sycamore is -like Ely Cathedral, so cool and so airy; to hop<span class="pagenum" id="Page_236">[236]</span> -from one branch to another must be like sitting -first on one chair and then on another; the -pigeons shorten wing and alight to rest a while -before they continue their voyages, just as the -tourists come in and sit for a few moments before -they motor on to Cambridge or King’s -Lynn.”</p> - -<p>As she passed the porch she stopped with a -new curiosity to read the notices, in the past -she had so often written them herself, but the -notice which caught her eye brought back all -her apprehensions:</p> - -<div class="blockquot"> -<p class="center">NOTICE</p> - -<p>Owing to the continued indisposition of the -vicar, arrangements have been made for morning -service to be held every Sunday by the -Reverend J. Grasstalk and the Reverend the -Honourable F. H. G. L. à Court Delariver, -alternately, until further notice.</p> - -<table class="right"> - -<tr><td><span class="smcap">F. Lambert</span><br><span class="smcap">H. Bottle </span></td> -<td class="tdc"><span class="xxlarge">}</span></td> -<td class="tdl"><i>Churchwardens</i>.</td></tr> -</table> -</div> - -<p> </p> -<p> </p> - -<p>“That means that father will lose his living -unless I can persuade him.... I shall have to -write to the Bishop. Perhaps if he took a holiday....” -Anne hurried on and her spirits rose,<span class="pagenum" id="Page_237">[237]</span> -for the worst had not happened. She had feared -that she would find an inhibition. She opened the -lychgate and went out on to the green, passing -beneath the elms. There was the little stream, -and there lay the old monument and the maze, -but her thoughts of her father were dispersed by -catching sight of a jumble of yellow derricks, of -caravans and steam engines on the green.</p> - -<p>“Dry Coulter feast!” she exclaimed in astonishment. -“Why, it must begin to-morrow! -Here are the swing-boats and the roundabouts; -here are the showmen and the gipsies.” She -hurried forward, excited and yet annoyed that -her home-coming had chanced to be on the eve -of so momentous an occasion as the village feast. -“Timed to fall between the hay-making and the -harvest,” she said to herself. “Richard would -tell me that the feast is as much a pagan custom -as Plough Monday or May-day. Each of the -villages about here has its feast, and they come -one after another in the height of summer. They -are feasts at which there is little feasting, only -a roundabout and swing-boats on the green, but -to-morrow the village girls will dance and the -men roll up their shirtsleeves and try their -strength and run in hurdle races, or win coconuts -or a cup and saucer.”</p> - -<p>Under the elms and the beeches the canvas<span class="pagenum" id="Page_238">[238]</span> -booths were already standing, five or six men -were working hard to put up the swings, women -were carrying pails of water, and the horses, -still in their harness, were roaming over the -green and cropping the grass. All the travelling -people and even their children were working -hard; they shouted to each other as they ran to -and fro without sparing a glance for the groups -of village children, the boys following them and -getting in their way, the girls standing and -gazing, or sitting close by in the grass. Among -one of the groups, sitting and lying on the -grass, Anne recognized a friend as she drew -nearer.</p> - -<p>“Rachel,” she called, and the little girl looked -up at once, but she hesitated for a moment before -rising to her feet and, though she came to -meet her, Anne noticed that she walked slowly -where a few months before she would have run. -The child’s shyness caused a like shyness in -Anne herself, and they stood facing each other -without kissing or shaking hands.</p> - -<p>“Thank you very much for the postcards you -sent me, Mrs. Grandison,” said Rachel. “Richard -gave me all the postcards you and Mr. -Grandison sent him and I have put them all in -my album.”</p> - -<p>“I wish you could have seen some of the places<span class="pagenum" id="Page_239">[239]</span> -we went to, Rachel. A great river, the Rhone, -rushes down between the vineyards, and there -are castles and wonderful old towns,” said Anne, -and for a little while she chattered of what she -had seen abroad, but ended by saying: “I see -they are getting ready for the feast. We went to -a wonderful circus at Avignon. I thought of you, -Rachel, when I saw it. Grandison won a live -pigeon as a prize, for which we had no home, so -we let it fly from the bridge over the river. It -beat its wings and flew crazily this way and that, -but at last it lifted itself and disappeared over -the battlements into the town. Have you been to -any circuses since we went to Linton Fair together?”</p> - -<p>There was a look of defiance in the child’s -face and a hard note in her shrill voice. Her face -was paler than ever, but dark under the eyes.</p> - -<p>“No, I haven’t been to a circus there, Mrs. -Grandison. Richard wanted to take me to the -feast at Wet Coulter but I wouldn’t go.”</p> - -<p>“You’ll enjoy the feast here to-morrow, won’t -you?”</p> - -<p>“Yes, I shall enjoy the Dry Coulter feast, -Mrs. Grandison,” answered Rachel.</p> - -<p>“Come part of the way home with me,” said -Anne.</p> - -<p>“I’ll come to the edge of the green.”</p> - -<p><span class="pagenum" id="Page_240">[240]</span>They walked for a little while in silence.</p> - -<p>“You have had your hair cut, Rachel. Was -that Richard’s doing?”</p> - -<p>The little girl blushed scarlet, she hung her -head and seemed on the point of bursting into -tears. Anne cursed herself for her unfortunate -question. “The child must have got creatures in -her head; I should have remembered the village -better,” but she was mistaken in her thought, -for when Rachel spoke it was to say: “I heard -that you had your hair cut off, Mrs. Grandison.”</p> - -<p>Anne took off her hat. “Yes,” she said. “It is -shorter than yours. Did Richard tell you that?” -Their eyes met; Rachel had recovered herself. -“I am going to let it grow again,” she said defiantly. -“Father doesn’t like it short.” She -stopped to kick a stone viciously out of her path.</p> - -<p>On hearing Mr. Sotheby spoken of, Anne felt -strangely embarrassed, and to turn the conversation -she asked: “How is your mother? Will -you tell her that I am back and that I shall come -round to the shop to see her as soon as I can?”</p> - -<p>“Mother is not in the shop now,” replied -Rachel almost rudely.</p> - -<p>They had reached the edge of the green, and -the little girl stopped short, motionless and -stubborn, by the little bridge.</p> - -<p>“Mother is never in the shop now, nor am I.<span class="pagenum" id="Page_241">[241]</span> -Father is made the manager, and there is a man -under him learning to take his place.”</p> - -<p>“Is Richard here or in London?” Anne asked. -“My husband spent a day looking for him but -couldn’t find him.”</p> - -<p>“Richard’s busy.” This time the rudeness in -the child’s voice was unmistakable, and there was -a pause whilst Anne looked down into the pale -face working with passion. The little girl was -trying hard to keep back her tears.</p> - -<p>“I’m to go to school at Cambridge. Richard -says I am to get a scholarship to go to college.”</p> - -<p>“Come a little farther and tell me about it,” -said Anne.</p> - -<p>Rachel’s emotion upset her, and she was tired -of standing still.</p> - -<p>“No, I must go back now.” The little girl was -still uneasy, and shifted from foot to foot.</p> - -<p>“Well, I daresay we shall meet to-morrow,” -said Anne, disappointed. She was reluctant to -let Rachel go, wanting to find an excuse for delaying -her own arrival at the vicarage.</p> - -<p>“Let’s go to the feast to-morrow and ride on -the roundabout together,” she said.</p> - -<p>Rachel lifted a pale face and gazed at her -angrily; two tears ran unheeded down her cheeks -and she answered with indignation.</p> - -<p>“No, you won’t be stopping here long”;<span class="pagenum" id="Page_242">[242]</span> -then, without waiting for an answer or to say -good-bye, she ran back on to the village green. -When she had gone a little way she dropped into -a walk and soon stopped. She was not in the -mood to rejoin her companions; watching the -gipsies would no longer interest her, and as soon -as Anne had turned the corner Rachel slowly -followed in her footsteps.</p> - -<p>The rays of the sun were horizontal, and the -last strip of turf by the Broad Ditch was striped -with the shadows of the elms, the darkest and the -most brilliant greens; on the water a crowd of -ducklings were swimming eagerly in all directions, -in and out of the sunlight; in another half-hour -the dew would begin to fall and the little -owls would come out to hoot at the cats. Anne -turned to look back. Behind her the lower -branches of the elms were already in shadow, -their tops shone in the sunlight; between the -trunks she could see a glimpse of the village -green beyond, with the yellow painted roof of a -roundabout. There was a silence and suddenly -Anne gave a long sigh, a sigh of happiness.</p> - -<p>“I am happy now and completely at peace. I -was never happy here before, but I am now, for -I am free. The opinion of neighbours cannot -weigh on me, for my life is full and happy and -satisfied. Each day is rich and full, and though<span class="pagenum" id="Page_243">[243]</span> -summer passes it returns again. There are -better years coming than any of the years which -are past, and the leaves will always drop in -November and spring afresh in May.”</p> - -<p>The figure of Rachel came into view, and Anne -saw the child stop.</p> - -<p>“Well, now I must see my father,” she said to -herself, shrugging her shoulders, a trick she had -caught from Grandison; then she turned towards -the vicarage, and swinging her arms and -shaking her bare head, she walked forward. -From a distance the vicarage was black against -the sunset, but as she came abreast of it, she saw -it clearly, the old familiar building, strangely -like a Noah’s ark, with a chimney at each end. -But the moment that she glanced at it Anne -stopped short. The vicarage—it had been -burnt! It was a ruin. But the hollyhocks were -standing in full flower; the roses on the wall were -not scorched—and Anne could see that there -had been no fire: all that had happened was that -the windows had been taken out: there was no -glass: there were no window-sashes.</p> - -<p>Wire netting had been nailed across each of -the down-stair windows, but the bedroom windows -were open spaces. Otherwise there was -little change; the front lawn had been mowed -recently, the path had been weeded, and round<span class="pagenum" id="Page_244">[244]</span> -the windowless house all the rose-trees were in -bloom.</p> - -<p>Anne walked slowly up the pathway, noticing -everything and reassured by a hundred little -details. The box-trees had been clipped. On the -doorstep she paused, uncertain whether to try -the door-handle or to ring the bell.</p> - -<p>“I will ring the bell,” she said to herself, lifting -her eyes to see if she were being spied upon -from upstairs. Through the open windows first -one bird flew and then another, a third chased -it; then, as the bell jangled in the hall, a whole -covey of sparrows flew out over her head.</p> - -<p>“The windows have been taken out so that -the birds may fly in.” The change seemed to her -a sensible one for her father to have made. She -could hear the shuffling of footsteps inside, and -at that moment the thought flashed through her -mind that if her father’s eccentricities were become -such that he could no longer be a clergyman, -he would make an admirable bird-watcher -on some island sanctuary.</p> - -<p>“He would live alone in a hut without seeing -anyone for six months of the year, and he would -be perfectly happy.” Her project filled her with -excitement; she longed to talk of it, to find out -if she could put it into execution.</p> - -<p>The door was flung open and her father stood<span class="pagenum" id="Page_245">[245]</span> -before her, glaring up at her, for the floor of -the house was sunk below the level of the garden, -but he showed no sign of recognition. His cheeks -were hollow, his tangled beard full of grey hairs -and his black, clerical coat was filthy with the -droppings of birds; the shoulders and sleeves -seeming as if they had been spattered over with -whitewash. An unpleasant dirty smell came -through the door; in spite of ventilation the -house smelled like an old hen-coop.</p> - -<p>Anne waited for her father to speak, watching -him silently while the anger died out of his -gaze. He coughed once or twice, blinked his eyes -as if very tired, and said at last in a mild voice: -“Well, Anne, my dear.”</p> - -<p>“Did you get my letter? I have come to pay -you a visit, father.”</p> - -<p>A mischievous, slightly guilty expression -came over Mr. Dunnock’s face and he coughed -again. “I am afraid I didn’t read it,” he answered. -“I hardly know if I can invite you in. -You see I am living with the angels now.”</p> - -<p>There was a long silence. “It was very sweet -of you to write such a kind letter about my -marriage,” said Anne at last. “And to send me -Mamma’s teapot, and to tell me about the -tragedy in the dove house.”</p> - -<p>“The swallows have come back,” said Mr.<span class="pagenum" id="Page_246">[246]</span> -Dunnock. 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