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-The Project Gutenberg eBook of Folly Corner, by Mrs. H. Dudeney
-
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-using this eBook.
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-Title: Folly Corner
-
-Author: Mrs. H. Dudeney
-
-Release Date: January 9, 2023 [eBook #69758]
-
-Language: English
-
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-
-*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK FOLLY CORNER ***
-
-
-
-
-
-FOLLY CORNER
-
-
-BY
-
-MRS. H. DUDENEY
-
-AUTHOR OF “THE MATERNITY OF HARRIOTT WICKEN”
-
-
-[Illustration: Decorative Image]
-
-
-NEW YORK
-
-HENRY HOLT AND COMPANY
-
-1900
-
-
-
-
-COPYRIGHT, 1900,
-
-BY
-
-HENRY HOLT & CO.
-
-
-THE MERSHON COMPANY PRESS
-
-RAHWAY, N. J.
-
-
-
-
-CONTENTS
-
-
-PROLOGUE.
-
-CHAPTER I.
-
-CHAPTER II.
-
-CHAPTER III.
-
-CHAPTER IV.
-
-CHAPTER V.
-
-CHAPTER VI.
-
-CHAPTER VII.
-
-CHAPTER VIII.
-
-CHAPTER IX.
-
-CHAPTER X.
-
-CHAPTER XI.
-
-CHAPTER XII.
-
-CHAPTER XIII.
-
-CHAPTER XIV.
-
-CHAPTER XV.
-
-CHAPTER XVI.
-
-CHAPTER XVII.
-
-CHAPTER XVIII.
-
-CHAPTER XIX.
-
-CHAPTER XX.
-
-CHAPTER XXI.
-
-CHAPTER XXII.
-
-CHAPTER XXIII.
-
-
-
-
-PROLOGUE.
-
-
-THE steam of that stifling London day rose up in a choking, enervating
-haze from the hot grass. The shrill cries of children, loose from the
-Board School, cut the thick air. A train rushed across the bridge. Two
-or three cyclists tinkled their bells irritably as they spun down Wood
-Lane to the Uxbridge Road, leaving a cloud of gray grit behind them.
-Omnibuses pulled up at the corner of the short street near the few
-newly-built shops. From Portobello Road came the heavy rumble of more
-traffic, mixed with the nearer shout of costers vending dried fish and
-over-ripe fruit.
-
-She was a young woman. She stood still, in a limp, hopeless attitude,
-her face turned on Wormwood Scrubbs, her strained eyes vacantly
-fastened on the buildings, spires, and chimneys in the distance.
-
-Some simple sound from the frowning prison on her left made her turn
-her head with the swift, watching movement of a cat. But there was
-nothing to see; no hint, no hope. Behind those walls! Her throat,
-rising white and firm from the tumbled collar of the cotton blouse,
-contracted. Those walls! those impenetrable walls! those relentless
-walls!
-
-She put out two hands in baggy gloves; she held them up, flat palms
-upward, toward the speechless prison. Her attitude was one of strong
-appeal, of hope, almost--as if she half expected that despair would
-work a miracle. They stretched out, big, strong, shapeless in the old
-gloves--those quivering, appealing hands of hers.
-
-With a sharp agonized movement of the wrists she let her hands drop
-nervelessly to her side. A sob was strangled in her throat; she turned
-her head abruptly, so that her eyes no longer rested on the walls. With
-a sudden impulse she started running across the grass; ran across the
-road and under the bridge to the spot where an omnibus was waiting.
-
-It grew dusk as she rattled back on the garden-seat to London. One by
-one the lights of night gleamed out. The life of night began. She
-looked down and saw the interior of smoothly rolling carriages, with
-women in evening dress lying idly back inside. Women on foot, smartly
-clad and with happy faces, flitted along the white pavements. Women
-clambered to the top of the omnibus, chattering and tittering. The one
-who sat next her glanced curiously at her grim mouth and shadowed eyes.
-
-The lights grew thicker; fantastic chains of light--red and yellow.
-London glittered like some fairy mine of jewels: jewels already cut and
-polished, every facet gleaming. Words winked out letter by letter, then
-vanished. She saw them come and go on the fronts of the houses. OX
-FORCE--NINON SOAP--DUNN’S NOSTRUM. To her strained senses they lost
-all common meaning and symbolized the weird, the threatening, the
-unknown.
-
- * * * * *
-
-It was blinding hot in the market town that Wednesday. Sheep straggled
-into the pens; the drovers choked and cursed as the dust dried in their
-throats. A smart trap, driven by a girl, with a groom behind, bowled
-down the High Street, leaving behind an impression of coolness and
-smartness. Now and again a sharp, imperious cycle-bell cut the air, and
-as some female cyclist darted by pedestrians heard the soft flutter of
-sleeves, like the flapping sails of a yacht.
-
-A man came, with a slightly rolling walk, down the street. He made an
-imperial progress, nodding his head bluffly to deferential shopkeepers
-who stood at their doors, exchanging a jovial word or so with other
-substantial yeomen. Everyone knew and respected Jethro Jayne--“Young
-Jethro” of Folly Corner. Everyone in and around Liddleshorn knew that
-there had been Jaynes at Folly in unbroken succession since before the
-days of Cromwell.
-
-He was a picturesque figure, with his open, weather-tanned face, his
-clean-shaven lip, his buff breeches, and brown gaiters. He wore a linen
-coat and a flapping white linen hat. His eyes were lazily merry and
-roguish under the starched brim.
-
-He turned in at the door of the inn, with the low-pitched, paneled
-dining-room, where most of the farmers dined on market-day.
-
-A round-faced, pretty girl brought him his plate of beef and his
-two vegetables. Bread and cheese, and a jug of sweet cider, completed
-the meal.
-
-He looked at her thoughtfully whenever she approached: so very
-blue-eyed and round; such a plump, neat figure in a black gown! He
-looked at her through a strong cloud of smoke as he puffed at his pipe
-and drank a last glass of the cider. She had suggested something. He
-was thoughtfully asking himself, Why not?
-
-Presently he took a pencil and a letter from his breeches pocket. He
-began to write on the back of the envelope, making many erasions,
-knitting his brows and pouting his lips like an anxious child.
-
-The girl came softly to the table and took away the mustard for another
-customer. Jethro never looked up at her. She had done her part. She had
-suggested.
-
-He paid the bill and emerged into High Street. He looked a trifle more
-bluff and lurching than before. His face was red--with cider, with the
-excitement of his daring plan.
-
-For the first time in his life he was yielding to impulse. Already he
-half regretted yielding. He was afraid of himself; he was more afraid
-of Gainah.
-
-Yet he bent his head and went down two steps into the editorial offices
-of the _Liddleshorn Herald_. The place was empty save for a
-sharp-featured youth who was lounging at the side of the counter. He
-sharply asked the visitor what he wanted. He was a new importation, an
-embryo journalist, with a London journal as his goal. He touched
-the town side of things only. He had a smoldering contempt for
-farmers, and knew nothing of the master of Folly Corner.
-
-Jethro pushed his envelope across the counter with a sheepish gesture.
-
-“How many insertions?” asked the youth laconically, yet throwing an
-amused, curious glance at the big figure which stood near the door--an
-unconscious, unappreciated color scheme--in white and russet, buff and
-brown.
-
-“How many times in?” The gentleman-farmer’s big, embarrassed laugh
-seemed to shake the silent place. “Well--once.”
-
-As he went slowly out of the town the tinkle of a piano came out
-clearly from the front room of a little buff villa. There were rows of
-these buff villas on the outskirts of the town. Some navvies were
-putting down new drain-pipes. The notes of the piano and the reedy
-voice of a girl came out slowly, each note isolated and mingled with
-the nervous tap of the pickax. Jethro stood still and listened. It was
-a song of Purcell’s:
-
- “To make us seek ruin, to make us seek ruin and love those that
- hate.”
-
-He walked on, a queer stirring at his heart. The thin voice of the girl
-in the villa had touched the romantic spot in him. He thought of that
-other girl at the inn--plump, blue-eyed, smiling. He thought of his
-carefully-worded advertisement which, by to-morrow, would be worming
-its way through Sussex, through Surrey and Hampshire to London
-perhaps.
-
-It was a joke; he began to regret, to blame the cider, or the demure
-little rings of light hair on the waitress’ unlined brow.
-
-And yet he could still hear the piano. He still felt the slow,
-wondering work of his heart.
-
-
-
-
-FOLLY CORNER.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER I.
-
-
-THE story begins with the emotions of two women--the two women
-principally concerned--on a morning ten days after Jethro Jayne had
-imprudently indulged in sweet cider at the market dinner in
-Liddleshorn.
-
-One woman was young--twenty-five or less. She was a big, fair girl; a
-handsome girl, in the elementary way that satisfies most men. She
-looked well able to take care of herself; an up-to-date girl,
-accustomed to fight her way alone, to meet men on their own ground, to
-jealously look after her own interests. There was, however, an
-occasional haggard line at her mouth, and in her well-opened, rather
-prominent gray eyes was a hunted, hopeless look.
-
-She wore a coat and skirt, with sleeves of last year’s cut. Her hat was
-trimmed with strict attention to fashion, and yet bore the brand
-“home-made.” There was a crisp new veil tied about the brim.
-
-She smacked so of cities that the few people she met turned round to
-slowly gape at her, and a couple of small girls coming home from the
-village shop laughed aloud in her angry face.
-
-She walked slowly along the white road, stopping now and then to lift
-her veil and wipe her burning cheeks.
-
-The scenery was beautiful--with the characteristic beauty of the Sussex
-Weald. But she did not notice: she was too preoccupied. Her own affairs
-were in a critical state, and when one is anxious there is small
-consolation in undulating hills, long stretches of pasture, and
-red-roofed farmhouses. Her attitude was quite cockney--prim regard
-for her shoes and half-contemptuous admiration of her surroundings
-predominated.
-
-Once she stopped to rest. A thatched and plastered cottage stood empty
-under the shadow of huge oaks. Wide green glades wound into the very
-heart of a little wood. The turf, inch-deep in moss, yielded like down.
-It was irresistible. She threw herself flat on her back, settling her
-skirt smoothly under her, and looked lazily through the wide mesh of
-the veil at the sky. The heat and the perfect silence almost made her
-sleep. A trap went by full of gayly-dressed country girls; a young man,
-hideous in his Sunday clothes, was driving. They were all off to some
-festivity, and they looked curiously at the prone figure on the turf.
-At first they thought it was some tramp, but the thin-soled morocco
-shoes stuck out from the dusty skirt contradicted that assumption. Such
-vagrant ways these town folk had! They laughed derisively, and the
-sound roused her. She sat up and stared a trifle vaguely at the
-watchful hills, the glades of the wood, the white, winding ribbon of
-highroad. Then she rose and whisked her skirt and went on again.
-
-Only once more was she tempted to stop--at a bramble bush where the
-blackberries were loose and juicy. She drew up her veil to her nose and
-drew them off the stalks with widely parted lips, because she was
-anxious not to soil the fingers of her gloves. It was so necessary to
-make a good impression: the woman who could always make a good
-impression had the world at her feet.
-
-She crossed a common; fowls were scratching and shaking their wings in
-the mounds of dust; a long string of geese waddled by, conversing
-volubly, and with evident arrogance. A man with a timber wagon came
-toward her, and she stopped him to ask the way. He told her that she
-had a mile or more to go.
-
-She went on, her feet dragging at every step. At every step she grew
-more nervous, more undecided. She took a letter from her pocket and
-read it over twice. She stopped, half turned back. Her face was violent
-red and chalk-white in turn. Still she went on, with lagging, heavy
-feet and a queer, terrified shame and excitement at her heart: went on
-over that open common which was just beginning to flush with heather.
-Another man came by, driving a black pig. It grunted, and seemed to run
-in every direction but the right one. He looked a stupid man; but,
-then, they were all half-witted in the country. She said--very slowly
-and deliberately, as if she were speaking to a small child--that she
-wanted Folly Corner. He gave a vacillating grin, keeping one eye on the
-pig, and pointed to a substantial stack of chimneys on the left.
-
-“That be Folly,” he said laconically, and left her.
-
-She could see the house through the dense leafage of three great elms.
-She stood, with one hand firmly gripping her gay parasol, and the other
-twitching at the crisp edge of her veil. She looked at the red gables,
-at the spreading outbuildings, at the garden, at the yard; she looked
-back at the hot road cutting across the common. Should she go back or
-should she go on? For a moment she closed her eyes, and immediately the
-dark, straight wall of the prison shot up slowly like a specter and
-chilled her.
-
-The prison! The prison and the one damned, dear soul beating within its
-walls! But that was past. She had wrestled out that finally--at night,
-in her London room, close beneath the slates; at night, in her bed, the
-letter under her pillow, or twisting in her hot fingers.
-
-The gate which led into the garden was a white wicket. At each side was
-a poplar. These had grown so thick and tall that they met midway and
-formed an arch. There was a path of red brick, a little raised, leading
-up to the house door; it led up straight, between box edgings two feet
-high. The garden-beds were rather neglected, but a great clump of
-red-hot pokers pointed flame fingers to the sky, and a loose white
-rose, like foam, clung to the walls and ran along the low roof. There
-was a long window each side the door, and in front of the one on the
-right was a yew-tree clipped into the shape of an umbrella. The
-clipping had been neglected, and the tree had the dishevelled
-appearance of a man who neglects to shave. There was an air of
-indolence about the garden, but it did not seem the indolence of
-poverty. A pond partly encircled the place. A red-and-white cow came
-down to drink and to look at her reflectively with its big,
-closely-veined eyes.
-
-What sort of greeting was garnering for her beyond that door with the
-wooden hood, the veil of white roses, and the rough iron knocker? She
-looked at a Virginia creeper twisting among the roses. Autumn had
-touched it. She looked at the red leaves, then at the white flowers.
-They seemed flame and pale fire to strained eyes, short of sleep and
-dazzled with the sun. The deep, haggard line curved round her mouth.
-Within! What waited within?
-
- * * * * *
-
-Within was the second woman, old Gainah Toat. She sat in a low-pitched
-room--the room on the right, made dark by the umbrella yew. There was a
-great open hearth. There were three doors: one led into a dairy; it was
-open, and showed the bricked floor, the yellow and brown pans, the
-thick cream and made-up butter; the second door opened into the
-passage; the third into the garden.
-
-She sat by the third door, which was thrown well back. She could see
-the orchard strewn with mussel plums, ripe to rottenness, with little
-yellow stewing pears and apples specked with black. She did not seem
-to see anything; she had those eyes--cold blue with a dash of
-gray--that are always dull; eyes that evade and puzzle. They were very
-wide open, the lids rolled well back, and the lashes sparse.
-
-She had a white face; there was a general appearance of wasting about
-her. The fingers, holding a letter--the other woman had been influenced
-by a letter too--were twisted and disfigured with rheumatism. Her body
-was flat and square; her faded gown made no pretense of slurring the
-defect. It went straight from her stringy throat to her hardly
-perceptible hips without a break, without a kindly fold or ruck of the
-stuff.
-
-She was an odd-looking figure; a spectral woman almost--with her
-bloodless skin, her dead eyes, her twisted, transparent hands. But the
-people around Folly Corner were not given to fanciful imaginings; they
-only knew that Gainah seemed made of iron, that she worked on the farm
-without tiring from sunrise until night. Her life was spent in making
-things for other people to eat. She belonged to a dying type: she was
-one of those women who devote themselves to tickling the masculine
-palate. Machine-made food did not enter into her economy. Her mushroom
-ketchup, her marmalade, her blackberry jelly were renowned. She gave
-them to anyone who asked, not because she was generous, but because she
-was inordinately proud of her productions. She toyed with medicine too;
-made balm tea, and, from a particular sort of nettle, green ointment
-that would cure a gathering. She made herb beer and water cider to
-save beer at harvest-time. She knew the effect of foxglove on the human
-heart, and made a concoction of a certain herb which she gathered
-secretly. With it she claimed to cure palsy. She was mistress at Folly
-Corner. She had come to old Jethro Jayne when his wife died. She had
-brought up the present master by hand; she ruled him still.
-
-Every master of Folly Corner had been a Jayne, and every male Jayne had
-been a Jethro since the first farmer had hidden his pet mare for ten
-days in a cellar so that Cromwell’s Ironsides should not steal her.
-
-The room was always cool because the yew threw a continual shadow.
-Gainah, sitting without a glint of sun in her chilly blue gown and with
-her feet flat on the stone floor, seemed to have no part with the hot,
-throbbing world outside.
-
-They were threshing on the farm; the whirring sound hummed in and the
-smell from the engine hung on the air. On the south wall a man, by her
-orders, was cutting back the foliage from the vine so that the sun
-might get freely at the Sweet-water grapes. In a few weeks it would be
-time to think about wine-making. The busiest time of the year was
-coming on. She hadn’t a moment to waste. She should at that moment have
-been straining the mushroom-juice from the salt and boiling it with
-spices. But the letter, fluttering in her veined, gnarled hand, had
-made her an idle woman before noon. She read it again with the weighty
-deliberation of an almost illiterate person. It was written in a
-dashing but undecided hand, and the words were stilted. Evidently the
-writer had been ill at ease.
-
-She got up stiffly at last and moved about the room, flicking a duster
-over the ancient furniture. There was an oak cupboard reaching to the
-ceiling--a double corner cupboard with delicate brass escutcheons and
-an inlaid border of boxwood.
-
-She ran the duster down the dark panels and breathed softly on the
-brass. Then she took out her keys from her apron pocket and opened the
-doors of the upper half. There were three shelves, the edge of each
-scalloped out. On every shelf were bottles and jars full of preserves
-and pickles. She touched them quite tenderly, looking at the faintly
-written labels, pursing up her colorless lips and moving her head
-spasmodically.
-
-She shut the cupboard at last and went slowly on her journey round the
-room. She dusted the oak sideboard, the long oak table, with the form
-against the wall and the carved joint stools--the high one for the
-master, the low one for the dame--at each end. She dusted the chairs,
-some of solid oak, some of golden beech with rush seats. She dusted the
-clock; its hand pointed ominously to twelve.
-
-It was about time then. In a few minutes she should be here. Gainah
-chuckled a little, remembering that she had purposely neglected to send
-the trap to the station. All the men were at harvest, and she had
-wanted old Chalcraft to trim the vine. She sat down by the door again,
-looking out blankly at the warmth and life. There were thick
-parchment-like mushrooms dotted over the meadow beyond the quickset
-hedge, and in the orchard fruit kept thudding softly from the trees. It
-was the beginning of rich autumn, when one makes provision for winter.
-She was always so busy through August and September; on her feet until
-late at night--late for Folly Corner--straining and boiling, and
-pulping and stirring; scolding the two maids and tyrannizing over
-Jethro.
-
-Those mushrooms had been in salt too long; the wind-fall apples were
-almost past preserving. It was washing-day, too--they had washed on the
-first Monday in the month for thirty years. The soapy smell floated
-into the dining-parlor; she could hear the rasping sound of the brush
-and the gurgling swill of suds. She heard also the cackle of the two
-maids and the mellow voice of the elderly washerwoman. They were
-wasting their time. Yet she didn’t move. Her eyes fell to the letter
-which she had taken out of her pocket again. Her lips mumbled the
-signature--“PAMELA CRISP.”
-
-After thirty-three years! And she had served his father before him! It
-was very hard! She wouldn’t give up her keys--he wouldn’t expect that.
-She smiled dryly. He wouldn’t expect that--he was a Jayne and he knew
-when he was well off. He would never get anyone else to slave so. Even
-the green tomatoes were pickled--with onions and apples and mysterious
-spices. She was the only woman for miles round who had the recipe, and
-before she died she meant to burn it, having no daughter to bequeath it
-to. And scarlet runners put down every year for winter eating. Her
-butter had never been known to have a twang. She could make cakes
-without fat and used snow for puddings when eggs were scarce.
-
-The bed in the best room had been made under her eye from the feathers
-of birds killed on the farm.
-
-Birds! It was not many henwives who could manage to hatch a full
-sitting. She never thought fifteen eggs too many to put under a hen;
-the Dorking might manage even more. The gray-and-white hen--didn’t it
-steal a nest of twenty-two and come clucking home at the end of three
-weeks with nineteen chicks, most of them pullets, too! A young, flighty
-woman would have spoilt everything by poking about and interfering with
-the bird. She had known all along that it was sitting in the barn, but
-she wasn’t going to let it know she knew. Young women spoilt their
-lives by haste. They spoilt the lives of other people too. Her eye
-dropped again to the dashing signature--“PAMELA CRISP.”
-
-She sat brooding by the door, thinking proudly of all her domestic
-achievements and telling herself piteously that Jethro would never
-allow her to be displaced. Of course, she had known that he would marry
-some day, but then, in her own mind, she had picked him out a wife:
-pretty, soft-looking Nancy from Turle House. A wife--pliable and a
-little foolish, like Nancy--would not have mattered. But a cousin on
-the mother’s side! An unknown girl from London! A girl whose capital
-“P” trailed to the edge of the envelope!
-
-She got up again and went round the dull room in her halting way,
-dusting and tidying mechanically. Then all at once she straightened
-her back and listened. There were light steps on the brick path which
-led round to the garden door. The clip-clip of the shears ceased. There
-were two voices--a young feminine one and the hoarse croak of old
-Chalcraft, who was past work, and lived out his life of long service
-like an ancient horse, doing light jobs, so that he might still believe
-himself useful and independent.
-
-Gainah went out, the sun on her uncovered head, with its wide parting
-and gray-brown hair. She went round the corner. Chalcraft was on the
-ladder still. The shears yawned in his tremulous hand; he had clipped
-to the wall, and the Sweet-waters hung close to it and stripped of
-foliage, pale green and luscious. The long trails of grayish leaves
-were on the path; the girl trod them down. When she saw the elder woman
-she made a step forward. She seemed half defiant, half ashamed. Her hat
-was on one side; it gave her a rakish air of towns. Such a slight thing
-may imperil a woman’s reputation--in prejudiced eyes. Gainah’s cold
-eyes contracted, and her brows drew over them a harsh ridge.
-
-Pamela put out her hand--in a new glove. A slim gold bracelet, from
-which dangled a green charm, swung on her wrist.
-
-“You must be Gainah,” she said in a conciliating way, and smiling.
-
-Then she added, with a faint touch of injury, “I wrote to say I was
-coming this morning. I hoped that you would send to meet me. It’s a
-long walk.”
-
-Gainah gave her a sharp look; she thought that this was the first
-indication of authority.
-
-“It’s harvest-time,” she said curtly; “the best harvest for seventeen
-years. Come inside.”
-
-They both slipped over the threshold of that dim gray room with the
-stone floor and the solid family furniture. Pamela gave a swift glance
-round to see if the room was empty. There was a flaming spot on each
-cheek, and her glittering eyes moved uneasily behind her loose veil.
-
-“I’d like to put myself tidy,” she said in the confiding whisper of one
-woman to another, “before I go in to him.”
-
-“To your Cousin Jethro?” Gainah’s dull eyes fastened on the hectic
-face.
-
-“To my Cousin Jethro--yes,” she laughed nervously; then added quickly,
-“It seems strange to call him ‘cousin.’ We’ve--we’ve never met. You got
-my letter? Yes. I--I want to be friends.”
-
-Gainah didn’t answer. She only opened the door leading to the stairs.
-The two went up together. There was a high window halfway up, with a
-lattice of thick oak bars.
-
-“No glass,” said Pamela in astonishment.
-
-“They didn’t use glass in the days when that was cut,” Gainah said,
-“and the Jaynes are not people to go with new-fangled ways. Every Jayne
-says that what was good enough for his father is good enough for him.
-It’s a family not given to changing. You ought to know that; you belong
-to it.”
-
-“On the mother’s side--yes,” returned the girl in a half-hearted way.
-
-Gainah opened the door of her own bedroom. It was poorly furnished with
-her own furniture, which she had brought with her to Folly Corner.
-There was a wooden bedstead, painted clay color and touched with lines
-of apple-green. The washstand and drawers matched it. There was a strip
-or so of shabby felt carpet, and on the shelf a pair of brass
-candlesticks and a red china cow milked by a diminutive woman. The girl
-looked about her disdainfully, assertiveness getting the better of
-nervousness. She took off her hat and veil before the murky glass,
-splashed water over her face, patted her hair caressingly, arranged
-again the smart hat and veil. Gainah watched this pretty toying of
-youth with grim disapproval; even the girl’s big arms lifted to her
-head were an offense.
-
-“Like a brass button in a sweep’s eye, all glitter,” the old woman
-mumbled to herself, as the yellow and green bracelet swung on the round
-wrist and the jet buckles flashed in the elaborate hat.
-
-On the way downstairs she was afforded a peep into other bedrooms.
-
-“I can’t let you have the best spare room,” she declared
-autocratically. “This is it. It’s never used, except for layin’s out
-and weddin’ nights, and layin’s in. All the Jaynes, right back to King
-Charles, have been born in that bed--and died in it afterward.”
-
-Pamela looked at the ponderous piece of furniture and shuddered.
-
-“I wouldn’t sleep there for worlds,” she said.
-
-Gainah, her claw-like hand caught stiffly round the banisters to
-help her progress, went slowly down, stair by stair. Pamela, close
-behind her, looked contemptuous--of everything: the old-fashioned
-place, the odd old woman.
-
-They crossed the room which the yew made so dark. Gainah opened the
-door into the narrow corridor. Pamela followed. There was a window
-looking out at the garden. On the ledge were blood-red geraniums, and
-on the distempered walls queer prints in black frames.
-
-She didn’t approve of those crinkled, brownish prints; they were hardly
-decent.
-
-Gainah flung open the door of the other room.
-
-“Jethro,” she said in her high, grating voice, “here’s your Cousin
-Pamela--on the mother’s side.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II.
-
-
-THE girl winced and hung back, as one does at physic or a possible
-blow. She looked along the narrow passage, as if for the support of
-another woman. But Gainah had hobbled away, shutting the door behind
-her. Pamela stood alone. She looked round her--at the oak table strewn
-with papers--old copies of the _Field_ and _Farm and Home_.
-
-There were a pair of driving-gloves thrown down, and a whip with a
-broken thong. There was a great blue bowl half full of waste paper and
-ends of string. A pair of brass candlesticks winked on the ledge beside
-the vivid geraniums. She gave a second nervous look at the colored
-prints in black frames, prints of which she did not quite approve. A
-full voice from inside the room said impatiently, “Come in.”
-
-She didn’t advance, so the voice added, with a mellow laugh in it,
-“Come in. Why did Gainah go away? Come in, Cousin Pamela. I cannot move
-from this confounded sofa.”
-
-So he was crippled! Her wild gray eyes darted across the garden and
-along the hot road. If she could only just softly open that door and
-slip out without seeing him! A cripple! She might have known that there
-was something.
-
-“Come in.”
-
-She made a desperate step forward: it was so like a fool to stay
-outside. She had come to the house on certain business, and she must go
-through with it. Her foot in the arched morocco shoe tapped on the bare
-oak floor. Then it sunk into a thick carpet. She could not see the
-occupant of the room yet; he was on a couch in the bay window which
-looked across the harvest fields. All that she could see was a wall
-hung with gorgeous flowered paper, a carpet with a green ground and
-bunches of Provence roses, a round walnut table, and a piano with a
-closed lid.
-
-It was like coming from December to June at a breath--this transit from
-the dim ancestral living-room to the parlor with the walnut and velvet
-suite from the best shop in Liddleshorn. Yet Pamela hardly noticed. The
-only thing that mattered was the sofa in the bay window. Would that
-man, that cripple on the sofa, be favorably impressed with her?
-
-She was sick and hot with apprehension. Had any girl been in such a
-position before? She began to think dimly of early tales that she had
-read of slave markets, of a poem learnt and recited at school about a
-quadroon girl.
-
-Of course old Gainah didn’t know all--didn’t know anything that was
-truth. What an odd old woman! Not pleasant to live with. Not a cheerful
-house in which to spend the winter! She went slowly over that thick
-carpet to the bay window, her head down, her upper lip caught fiercely
-over her lower. When she reached the sofa she was in an agony of shame,
-and hardly lifted her eyes.
-
-Jethro said, almost tenderly:
-
-“Do sit down.”
-
-The words were simple, but she liked him from that moment. She felt
-sure of him. He wouldn’t be--coarse. She sat down. There was a low
-walnut chair with a green cover drawn into the bay all ready. Then she
-dared to look up.
-
-Jethro was flat on his back. He was so spare that his body seemed to
-curve inward; but it was the spareness of a tough, muscular man. His
-upper lip was bare and his eyes were keen, merry blue. A life of
-sunshine and wind and rain had tanned his skin. The backs of his hairy
-hands looked as if they had been steeped in tobacco juice; beyond his
-wrist, where his coat sleeve pushed up, his skin was milky. He wore an
-Oxford shirt with an unstarched collar. She saw a ring of milk-white
-skin when he turned his head to look at her, and immediately above it
-he was the color of delicate old leather.
-
-She looked at his handsome face and muscular body with interest. Well!
-It might be worse--or better. A little round table with a red and gold
-cloth was within touch. He put out his hand and touched a toppling pile
-of letters.
-
-“These were all answers,” he said, smiling drolly. “I had them
-addressed to Liddleshorn post-office, as you know. Three hundred and
-fifty. I shall get some more to-morrow morning, no doubt.”
-
-“Don’t!” she cried out sharply, “oh, don’t! It--it--it--a man doesn’t
-know.... A woman has little secret shames--you won’t understand.... I
-wish I hadn’t come. Three hundred and fifty girls! Oh! They are not
-coming here, too?”
-
-She stopped, panting. Her eyes were on those letters, letters in every
-shape and color, some with gilt monograms on the back, one with a gilt
-“Nell.” She looked at the handwriting, some blotted and some scrawling,
-some neatly masculine and clerk-like. Her face looked old, her eyes
-blistered with tears.
-
-Jethro struggled to rise. Then with a groan of pain and sharp twist of
-his injured leg he fell back on the cushions.
-
-Her back was firm against the carved walnut of the green-seated chair,
-as they sat in such strange conference in the deep shadow of the bay.
-Through the hot mist of her tears she saw the harvest field, half
-clipped, like the shorn head of beauty. A big brown fellow of a humble
-bee came through the open casement and settled on her. She flinched.
-Jethro regarded it as an omen.
-
-“When a humble bee flies in at the open window and lights on a stranger
-and flies out again, it’s a sign the stranger will not stay long,” he
-said, looking quite disturbed as the insect droned out into the sun
-again.
-
-She looked at him with mild contempt, thinking it most extraordinary
-that a big fellow such as he was should entertain such notions.
-
-There were the usual sounds of fully blown summer; petulant buzz of
-overworked insects, voices of harvesters, the whirr of the engine. Taps
-from the smithy at the corner intensified in Pamela’s aching head;
-ever afterward she regarded smithy sounds as indispensable to the
-perfection of an August day.
-
-Suddenly she broke out passionately:
-
-“I can’t stay. I shouldn’t have come. It is the sort of thing that a
-barmaid, a shop girl--someone a little reckless--would do. I am
-different.” She stretched her hand and directed it haughtily toward the
-letters. “I am not like these others. But it was a temptation: such a
-rest, such a certainty for the future. And ... it was half a joke,
-too.”
-
-Jethro put out his immense brown hand and gripped her by the forefinger
-and thumb round the wrist. She looked fully at him for the first time,
-and, in spite of herself, she liked his face. It was handsome. The thin
-high nose and beautifully curved lips made it even aristocratic. She
-was a shallow town product, and had a flimsy horror of anything that
-she considered coarse. Yet she admitted that on this man’s face was no
-touch of boorishness. He looked, so she thought, like a patrician who
-was masquerading in queer clothes. Her idea of masculine raiment was
-confined to black cloth, with tweeds for the seaside and flannel for
-tennis.
-
-“I like you,” he said simply. “You are a nice-minded girl. It was a
-joke with me, too--half a joke. I did it on market day; a fellow gets a
-bit jolly then, perhaps. I shouldn’t have gone any further with these.”
-He touched the letters with his free hand, and the touch was enough to
-scatter them rudely on the floor. “But your name took my fancy. PAMELA
-CRISP! Now, my mother was a Crisp.”
-
-“Yes, so you told me in your letter,” she said faintly, and gently
-fluttering her white, veined wrist in its handcuff. “You told me to
-write and tell Miss Toat that we were cousins--on the mother’s side. I
-did it--as a joke. Oh! a joke--you believe me?”
-
-“Of course--a joke. It is nothing more--not yet.” His clear, blue eyes
-were on her pastel-like face. Then he added ponderingly: “But we may be
-cousins, after all. It wouldn’t make any difference--in the end. You
-understand?”
-
-She showed how fully she understood by the quick wave of color on her
-cheek.
-
-“My mother’s name was Lilith,” he went on.
-
-“The name of my little sister who died.”
-
-“My mother had a brother who ran away--some boy’s scrape at home. He
-was never heard of afterward. His name was John.”
-
-“My father’s name.” She became suddenly confidential. “He was a
-contractor; plenty of money while he lived. We had a house a little way
-out of London. He drove to his office every day. Two servants, a
-governess for me, a dinner party now and then. When I grew up, a little
-shopping, a little housework in an elegant way--arranging flowers,
-setting the maids by the ears. You know. Thousands of girls live like
-that and are bored to death. He died bankrupt; mother died of a broken
-heart, or broken fortunes, poor dear. I was thrown on the world--the
-creditors took everything. That is five years ago.”
-
-He had been listening attentively, watching every shade and shine
-upon her face, admiring her vivacious, half tragic gestures--not
-understanding her in the least. The genteel life she so scornfully
-sketched was unknown to him.
-
-“You were the only one?”
-
-“What?”
-
-She lifted her head, rearing it almost, like an aggressive serpent.
-
-“You were my Uncle John’s only child?”
-
-“No.” The word came full and rounded from her mouth, and the eyes
-behind the curtaining lashes were somber. “There was a--a brother. He
-has gone away, a long voyage. He has a passion for the sea.”
-
-“That settles it. Another brother of my mother’s, Uncle Thomas, was a
-captain in the navy. He ran away before he was sixteen; nothing would
-stop him. Every Crisp has a salt drop in his veins.”
-
-“Father, in his most prosperous days, had a little yacht.”
-
-“There you are again! The Crisp love for water. Well! I believe from my
-heart that we really are cousins--Cousin Pamela. I shall tell the folk
-hereabout that I advertised for my kin--Uncle John or his children--and
-that you, seeing the advertisement, answered. That will make things
-easy for us both. And now, cousin”--his voice was meaning, and his
-handsome open face became roguish and bold--“I ought to kiss you.”
-
-She slipped her wrist from his finger and thumb and fell back.
-
-She looked at his face--handsome, thin, almost ascetic if it had not
-been for the tan--with distaste.
-
-“A kiss!” she murmured, with a quick, startled breath. “No, no; I
-couldn’t dream of it.”
-
-He seemed pleased at what he assumed to be her modesty. There was a
-quaint pause, during which he thoughtfully examined her face, picking
-feature from feature and dwelling most on the downcast lids. Then he
-said, almost tenderly:
-
-“What have you been doing these five years for a living? Cousin Pamela!
-if only I had known that Uncle John’s child----”
-
-“Don’t talk like that. We are not sure. What did I do?” She gave a
-short, rather grating laugh. “Anything--short of scrubbing floors. I’ve
-been a governess. I’ve tried to draw fashion-plates--but my drawing was
-against me there. I’ve collected money for charitable institutions--on
-commission. I was a companion. She was a publican’s widow with heaps of
-money--one dare not be too particular. She was queer--a secret drinker
-I always thought. I had twenty-five pounds a year. She liked me so much
-that she raised my money at one bound to forty; money was only dirt to
-her. Forty pounds a year--and she died before the first quarter was
-due. I have always been unlucky.”
-
-“And then?”
-
-She shrugged with an artificial callousness.
-
-“Looking out. Answering advertisements--until I answered yours.”
-
-Directly she mentioned his the shame and outraged modesty in her surged
-up again.
-
-“I’ve never answered an advertisement like that before,” she burst out.
-“But--it was fun, as you say. And I had put three advertisements in a
-paper for a situation--at three-and-sixpence for forty words. Three
-three-and-sixpences! Not a single answer! Something made me look at the
-_Liddleshorn Herald_. It was in the stationer’s shop--ordered specially
-for some customer. When I was a little thing I seem to remember that
-paper about at home. The name, Liddleshorn, was familiar. Something
-made me touch it, look down the advertisements. Then! You know!”
-
-She put out her hands with a dramatic gesture. Jethro appeared to think
-that it was time he made his explanations of the situation.
-
-“I did it for fun--at first,” he said. “Afterward I was rather taken
-with the idea. But not with the girls,” seeing her glance vindictively
-at the scattered letters. “I wanted to marry; Gainah’s getting too
-tight a hold on the place. And there is no one to entertain lady
-visitors--no mistress. It isn’t natural. I wanted a wife. I advertised
-for one. I wanted a change, too--a change of blood. It’s good for
-stock, why not for us? That’s the way I argued it out with myself.”
-
-Her chin was sunk in the puffs of her white muslin blouse and the color
-was in her cheeks again. But he went on, apparently not noticing her
-confusion.
-
-“For generations back every Jayne has married in the neighborhood. We
-are all related in some way; you meet the Jayne nose on a Crisp
-face--you have the Crisp chin--and a Furlonger little finger,” he
-crooked out his own, “on a Jayne hand. Nancy Turle has my father’s
-waving red hair, and I’ve got the Turles’ white skin.”
-
-He tucked up the sleeve of his coat to show her his smooth, milky skin.
-
-“I thought,” he continued, as she neither looked nor spoke, “that a
-change would be good. Change! You see it in stock; you see it in
-flowers. Those crimson phloxes,” he pointed through the window, “are
-twice as high this year because last autumn they were shifted in the
-border. And Gainah, who knows all about flowers, says she can’t grow
-heartsease three years running without lifting. They dwindle to
-farthing-faces. Even cabbage mustn’t follow cabbage. I said to myself
-that I’d graft new blood on the old Jayne stock.”
-
-Pamela lifted her flaming face, and, putting out her thin foot,
-contemptuously kicked the nearest letter.
-
-“Then you had better take one of these,” she said, with temper, “if, as
-you seem to think, I am a Crisp and your cousin.”
-
-He looked at the foot which darted from her skirt.
-
-“It’s a Furlonger foot,” he said simply. “Cousins! There isn’t a doubt.
-But I’m content to take the way of my fathers.”
-
-“I--I don’t know. It is early. You’d better let me go back.”
-
-As she spoke she fleetly shut her eyes, so that she could see neither
-the golden wheat-field nor the handsome face. At once the steep
-wall of the prison ran up, and above it, searing her eyes, was the
-blinding dome of sky. Beyond she saw the railway line, the dreary waste
-land, a solitary old cottage, a tethered goat; on the edge of the
-earth, meeting the sky, the bristling chimneys of the distant suburb
-beyond the Scrubbs.
-
-The prison! That chapter of her life was nearly ended. She knew that
-she was weak; knew that she would yield to Jethro. Already she almost
-felt as if that golden field of wheat half belonged to her. She would
-yield. Why not? It was so simple, so idle. How she had longed for rest,
-and more--for freedom! The heel of another woman had been very hard on
-her neck. Just to go back to London, pack her boxes, take a cab, bid
-her landlady farewell--and leave no trace. When _he_ came out from
-prison he would not find her--that was all.
-
-“I might stay--and see,” she said faintly, opening her gray eyes.
-
-“Very well. You want a situation; I offer you one. I pay you
-thirty-five pounds a year for gowns and things. That between ourselves.
-At the end of the year--we’ll see. To the world, to Gainah, you are my
-Cousin Pamela.”
-
-“I’d like to earn my thirty-five pounds,” she said sturdily.
-
-“Of course. You’ll make the place pretty, as young women can. You’ll
-entertain all your distant relations--the Turles and Crisps and
-Furlongers. You can write letters for me until I get about again. I’m
-like a log just now. Look here!” He rolled down the covering and
-showed his bandaged limb. “I got a fork run into my leg in the harvest
-field, and it turned to a nasty wound. But I shall be about again
-soon.”
-
-“That is all?” She breathed relief, and the glint of distaste in her
-eyes faded out.
-
-“That is all. You didn’t think I was a cripple?”
-
-“I didn’t know.”
-
-“You really do favor my Uncle John,” Jethro said, after a pause. “Do
-you mind--it will be your first duty--getting a leather case from that
-top, left-hand drawer? Yes, that’s it,” when she brought it back. “See!
-Here he is. Now, isn’t the mouth the same?”
-
-He held before her the faded likeness, taken on silver, of a young man
-in staid black clothes, and with straggling side whiskers.
-
-“Taken just before he ran away. Is it anything like your father?”
-
-She stared at the dim old portrait for a long time before she answered.
-Her eyes took in every detail--the doubled fist on a bulky book, the
-vapid smile, the too apparent watch-chain with its bunch of seals.
-
-“I can’t say,” she returned faintly at last. “This is a young man.
-Father was gray when I remember him. He married late in life. He had a
-white beard. But I think,” she held the portrait thoughtfully sideways,
-“that the mouth is something like. Father had a bare lip to the end of
-his days.”
-
-She shut the case and laid it on the table. Another bee came in and
-darted at the nodding cherries in her hat. The metallic clink from the
-smithy became more persistent. Jethro said gently at last, putting out
-the big brown hand which was so dry and yielding:
-
-“Then it is settled?”
-
-Pamela, her head down, the long, haggard line deep on her lips, said
-almost inaudibly:
-
-“Yes.”
-
-The word had hardly died away before Gainah, in her dim blue cotton
-gown with the skimped skirt and straight bodice, put her head in at the
-door and asked harshly if the newly-found cousin meant to stay to
-dinner.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III.
-
-
-HER past was tightly packed away behind her--packed as remorselessly,
-as perfectly, as she had corded her boxes; with much effort and
-expenditure of strength, but with a perfect regard to safety. She was
-out of London. Never again would she let her eyes of anguish light on
-the prison.
-
-She was driving with Jasper along the dusty Sussex road, which barely a
-week before she had trudged wearily and with many misgivings. The
-prosperity and ease and promise of her new life struck at her, soothed
-her, with many minute details--the soft carriage-rug, the sleek coat of
-the mare, the polished harness. She had a passion for ease, for pretty
-things, for worldly status.
-
-Folly Corner became her home--her sheltered home. Time passed. As the
-weeks wore on her face grew mobile and careless, dull pink begun to
-timidly bloom on her skin, her eyes brightened. She was happy,
-occupied, free from anxiety. Above all, she had plenty of pence, need
-never deny herself a penny pleasure--and she was one of those mercurial
-women who can be made happy by a bar of French chocolate, and miserable
-by a shabby hat. Once she said, with a bitter-sweet laugh, to Jethro:
-
-“I was never made for responsibility. I ought to live in a harem. A
-bon-bon, a pat on the head from my master, would make me absolutely
-content.”
-
-He seemed amused at first, then he looked puzzled, and then displeased.
-He had decided already in his serious, practical way, that she was to
-be his wife, and whimsicality struck him as unorthodox--nearly as bad
-as dissent. The Jaynes had always been stanch churchmen, and never
-spoke without first weighing every word.
-
-Sometimes, in spite of herself, she gave a backward thought. Sometimes
-the hunted, tragic gleam lighted its taper in her happy eyes. Some
-shadow of the old grief, some touch of the old delirious joy and
-misery, stirred her. Rain against the window, a rumble of thunder, a
-shrieking wind, or a harsh voice was enough to frighten her. She felt a
-gnawing uncertainty. Would this peace, this ease, continue?
-
-When these uncomfortable thoughts assailed her she plunged fiercely
-into work, clicking her needle and thimble through new calico, or
-darting about the rambling house with a duster. She was pathetically
-anxious to earn her salary, to be absolutely independent of Jethro’s
-charity. She had not yet decided whether her torn heart would allow her
-to marry him when the time came.
-
-One morning he strolled down the weedy gravel path of the oblong
-kitchen-garden, with the holly hedge as wall on all four sides, and the
-holly arch as postern at the entrance. There were grass paths between
-the beds: they wanted mowing and leveling. The wide herbaceous borders
-were full of weeds. The gravel path going straight from one end to the
-other was a harmony in green and yellow.
-
-There was a gardener at Folly Corner, but Gainah made him clean boots,
-chop wood, and carry buckets; while Jethro made him drive and groom the
-horses, and pressed him into service when he was short of hands on the
-farm. Consequently the garden was unattended. Scarlet pimpernel was
-vivid on the dry ground, bindweed bound round the cabbage-stalks, and
-wild clumps of blazing corn marigold bloomed unheeded.
-
-Pamela was loitering in an archway of dead scarlet-runners, collecting
-seed, by Gainah’s orders. Gainah was mistress of the garden. Jethro
-came along the alley in his thick brown boots. His hands were in his
-breeches pockets; a Michaelmas daisy, which he had pulled from the
-border as he strolled, was in his mouth. He looked at Pamela, half
-tenderly, half quizzically--a look which always set her pulses
-throbbing. She could never forget, when she was alone with him, the
-piquant circumstances which had brought her under his roof. Sometimes
-when Gainah imposed distasteful tasks her neck would swell, and she
-told herself proudly that by next autumn she could, if she chose, be
-mistress of Folly Corner.
-
-Her basket was three parts full of seed-pods--like the fingers of
-dainty gloves stretched over bones. As she moved the seeds made a
-dice-like rattle. Jethro took the basket from her and begun to pull the
-pods off the dry yellow stalks himself.
-
-“You shouldn’t be at this work,” he said, lifting her white hand with
-his free one. “Why can’t Daborn do it?”
-
-“Gainah likes to see to these things herself.”
-
-“You must be mistress over Gainah.”
-
-“Not yet,” she broke out involuntarily, and then flushed.
-
-Jethro laughed.
-
-“I’m glad you put it that way. Evidently we are of the same mind.
-Suppose we say six months instead of a year, Cousin Pamela.”
-
-“No, no! A year, as we decided.”
-
-She looked vaguely through the wasted tendrils of the dead beans as
-they clung to the sticks--looked in the direction of London. Jethro had
-once said carelessly London was that way, jerking his broad brown thumb
-widely. After that, she looked across the common whenever that chill
-thought of the prison stole in and numbed her brain.
-
-“Come a little way along the road. If Gainah sees us she’ll call you
-in,” he said almost pleadingly. “I never get you to myself.”
-
-He pulled out his turnip-like silver watch, which had been his
-grandfather’s, and added that he had ten minutes. Daborn was grooming
-the roan mare, ready to drive him in the dogcart to Liddleshorn.
-
-“You might come too,” he said.
-
-“No. Gainah would be angry.”
-
-“You mustn’t think too much of her. After all, she’s a paid servant.”
-
-“So am I.”
-
-Her face, under the brim of her Panama hat, was arch and mournful at
-the same moment.
-
-They went along the gravel path. Jethro took out his pocket-knife and
-cut off the head of a great plantain.
-
-“The place wants seeing to,” he said with dissatisfaction, looking at
-the weeds in the bed. “It wants a mistress. You should see the garden
-at Turle House. Nancy manages that. Nancy in some sort of way must be
-your cousin. We are all relations.”
-
-It was the last day of September, and there had been a frost early in
-the morning. The blackened marrow plants straggled on their mound.
-Daborn had clamped the beet the day before, and the broken leaves, with
-their wine-colored stems, were scattered. The plumy foliage of the
-carrots had died down. The sparkling parsnip leaves were yellow, and
-dew glittered on the crinkled, bluish leaves of the savoys with their
-tight hearts. The sun shone brightly, but the air was crisp. Everything
-was ominous of winter. Pamela shivered as she looked at the solid
-chimney stacks of Folly Corner, and pictured an iron winter in the
-fastness of that old house, with Gainah as grim companion.
-
-They went through the yard into the road. Daborn had the dogcart out.
-Pamela stopped by the wall of the granary, her foot twined in a bit of
-trailing periwinkle.
-
-“Give me the basket,” she said, “and good-by.”
-
-Jethro looked at her.
-
-“You’d better come too,” he said. “Jump in.”
-
-“No. My dress; no gloves.”
-
-“Tuck your hands under the rug. At Liddleshorn we’ll buy gloves. Jump
-up. We shan’t want you, Daborn. Here’s the basket. Miss Crisp will hold
-the reins.”
-
-Pamela still hesitated, looking back at the house, and remembering she
-had promised Gainah that she would mark some pillow-slips. But it was
-such a magic morning, with an intensely blue sky--a March sky almost,
-with a spice of frost lurking behind the hot sun. There were long
-trails of red bryony berries on the hedges; glittering gossamer webs
-were woven across the clumps of broom on the common. Jethro looked so
-strong and masterful--such a man! She believed that in the end she
-would marry him whether she wanted to or not. He had a rough manner of
-command with women--savage, yet tender. Pamela, like a woman, loved it.
-She lifted her foot, swung up to the blue cushion, and a moment later
-they were bowling smoothly along the road.
-
-He didn’t speak. He flicked at the mare with a tinge of pettishness.
-Pamela sat well back. She felt a person of some importance; every small
-girl they met bobbed her little skirts into the dust, and the
-heavy-footed laboring men lifted a finger to their hair as Jethro
-bowled by in the flashing sunshine.
-
-He pulled up at the gate of a small farm, and asked Pamela to hold the
-mare while he went in. The farmer had a farrowing sow for sale.
-
-She just clasped the slack reins. The farmhouse was so overgrown with
-fruit-trees and ivy that the mellow bricks were shrouded. By and by
-Jethro came swinging down the path, with a weak old man hobbling
-behind him. They went and leaned over the piggeries, which were on the
-left of the gate. She caught a word or two here and there; it was Greek
-to her. Jethro surveyed the huge black sow keenly before he closed the
-bargain. Then he swung open the gate in his familiar impetuous way, and
-just before he got up into the cart he turned to the old man and said
-with a kind of careless authority:
-
-“You ought to get out of this. Sell up and go into lodgings. It isn’t
-good for a man to live alone.”
-
-To Pamela he added in a bluff aside:
-
-“Mansell has lost his missus.”
-
-She leaned toward the straggling, shambling figure, and threw a faint
-smile of sympathy. He was a foolish-looking old man, with a face made
-more imbecile by a loose, slobbering lip and the short silvery spikes
-of a week-old beard. He began to pour out his misery and loneliness,
-perhaps because she, like his dead wife, was a woman.
-
-“Missis died six months ago,” he said tremulously, as he twisted his
-dirty hands and gave his watery smile. “She was a good missis. But,”
-with a crowing cackle of laughter, “I was good, too. I never knocked
-her down, nor give her a black eye. I didn’t offen even scold her. Step
-inside.” His face and voice were eager. “I’d like you to have a look
-round.”
-
-Pamela, oddly touched, said gently to Jethro:
-
-“Let me go. You come too.”
-
-They tied the mare to the gatepost, and went up the path to the
-brooding house in its tangle of ivy and its unpruned jungle of ancient
-plum-trees. The widower went first, chattering volubly all the time,
-his back bent, his hand heavy on the polished knob of his stick.
-
-They went into the low-pitched living-room. The fusty smell turned
-Pamela faint. The old man seemed to divine her nausea.
-
-“You should ha’ seen how missis kept it,” he said deprecatingly. “But,
-Lord bless you, I am a helpless old man, seventy-nine come October, and
-I can’t clean. I’m alone. Missis and the children dead. But I aint
-afraid.” He gave an apprehensive glance at the shadows of the murky
-room. “Why should I be? What I always says is this”--he kept peppering
-his platitudes with the silly laugh that went to the girl’s
-heart--“God, who made me, aint a-goin’ to kill me.”
-
-Pamela looked round the room. Everything, inside and out of the farm,
-had gone to pieces for the lack of a capable woman.
-
-“I did used to keep the garden terrible nice,” the old man said, seeing
-her gray eyes look through the door into the sunny wilderness. “But
-there! missis is gone! I’ll show you her earrings.”
-
-He hobbled away into the adjoining room. Pamela heard him jingling
-metal and scrooping wooden furniture over the flag floor. Presently he
-came out with a card-board box shaking in his hand. He took the lid off
-reverently and held out the open box. A pair of earrings, of very pale
-gold, such as you can buy at fairs for a trifle, were on a bed of
-tissue paper.
-
-“Very pretty,” the girl said lamely.
-
-Jethro had gone outside. He was viewing the neglected fruit-trees
-severely.
-
-“And there’s one more thing I must show you.”
-
-Mansell hobbled away, up the crazy stairs this time, and came back with
-a snow-white smock, which he thrust into her hands.
-
-“Missis made this for me to be married in.” He stuck his foolish red
-face forward and grinned more widely. “She put her best work into it.
-Lord bless you, when I was but a boy--I’m seventy-nine come October--we
-used to go to church on Sundays, every man in his clean smock. Missis
-did it. She was a rare one at her needle.”
-
-Pamela looked at the exquisite, delicate stitching. The whole heart of
-that dead woman was woven into the diamonds and honeycombs and lattices
-of the wedding smock.
-
-“Very pretty,” she said lamely again.
-
-“I must get to Liddleshorn before ten,” Jethro cried out from the
-garden.
-
-She stepped into the sun, Mansell behind her. He followed them to the
-gate, seeming pathetically anxious to hold on to human companionship as
-long as he could. A sheep-dog came running out from the barn. Pamela,
-who was distrustful of dogs, felt glad that she was in the cart.
-
-“He won’t bite, bless you; he’s too old. But when he was young he _was_
-s’ savage. Missis used to set one side of the fire winter nights, and I
-used to set the other. And she, just for fun, used to say to me, ‘Oh,
-dear,’ and I used to say, ‘Oh, dear.’ You should have heard him growl.
-He was s’ savage you durstn’t move or speak.”
-
-Jethro gathered the reins with an air of business.
-
-“You must get out of this,” he advised, with curt good nature.
-
-“I suppose I must. Yet I’d like to stop on. Yet since missis died
-everything’s gone to pieces. I used to get such good living--fresh
-butter and new-laid eggs. I can churn myself, but no one seems to care
-for my butter. Don’t know why; there was a great call for missis’s.”
-
-“Well, good-by to you,” said Jethro, with masculine intolerance of his
-whimpering garrulity.
-
-“Good-by and God bless you. Take care of yourselves. Come and see me
-again.” His bleared blue eyes were turned pleadingly on Pamela. “And,
-Master Jayne”--he looked from one to the other, and his shrill voice
-quavered childishly--“when you gets a missis may you never lose her. A
-man’s no good without a missis.”
-
-The cart moved on. Presently Pamela said softly, “Poor old thing! he
-made me feel quite miserable.”
-
-“He’s not quite right in his head. But--you heard what he said, Cousin
-Pamela? A man’s no good without a missis.”
-
-The strong brown hand in the worn driving-glove plunged under the
-holland carriage-rug and took her bare fingers significantly.
-
-“It’s true enough,” Jethro said thoughtfully, after a bit. “I’m worried
-about Folly Corner. Something’s wanting. The food’s all right----”
-
-“Now, the food isn’t right,” she put in briskly. “Plenty of it--yes.
-But the serving! Who ever heard of a meat pudding brought to table in
-its basin! Fancy cheese on the breakfast-table! White sugar should be
-grated over the tarts and--oh, many things. Some of them I couldn’t
-mention to you: it wouldn’t be nice.”
-
-She was thinking of a thrifty trick of Gainah’s: the unhatched eggs
-found in a hen that had been killed were used for cakes. She thought it
-perfectly horrid, and her town squeamishness made her feel that there
-was a certain indelicacy involved in the proceeding. At all events she
-couldn’t mention such a thing to Jethro.
-
-“And the other day,” she continued, broodingly, “a pig was killed.
-Gainah was in the kitchen all day. She made me go out, too. The things
-they did with that pig! The savory horrors she turned out!”
-
-Jethro gave a great jolly laugh.
-
-“Chitterling and fagots and scraps,” he cried. “I like them. You are
-not a farmer’s wife--yet. Gainah is a splendid housekeeper. It isn’t
-the housekeeping. It is the--the--difference. You know what I mean.
-Flowers in the vases; the dinner-table dainty, not solid. Foolish
-things--but they make a difference.”
-
-“They are important things. They certainly make a difference--all the
-difference. You’ve been dominated too long by that old woman. The place
-has the wrong tone. Do you understand what I mean? It looks a farmer’s
-house. It ought to look a gentleman’s.”
-
-“But I _am_ a farmer--and proud of it.”
-
-“Of course. It is the fashion to farm nowadays. It is quite genteel
-if--if you lose money over it.”
-
-He seemed puzzled at her pert extravagance, and said stolidly that he
-was glad that his farming paid--every Jayne was a good farmer; it was
-in the blood.
-
-“Well,” said Pamela, with a shrug and a droll smile, “you can get the
-effect anyhow. We must put up with prosperity. There are many things
-I’ll do, if you’ll let me. The housemaid must wear a cap with lappets
-in the afternoons. She should wait at table, and bring your newspaper
-in on a tray; letters, too, when there are any. I’ll train her. Of
-course, Gainah does not know how; she will be grateful to me for hints.
-You are very slow down here in Sussex. Did I tell you that I lived for
-six months in a boarding-house?” There was the faintest quiver of her
-heavy lids. “I carved and kept accounts. Things were done very well
-there. I have moved about the world and kept my eyes open.”
-
-While she was making this smug little speech Jethro looked at her with
-satisfaction. She was a woman of wit, of knowledge. Her glib tongue was
-refreshing and piquant after the demure monosyllables and faint
-opinions--always watered by Mamma--of the Liddleshorn damsels.
-
-They were smoothly clattering down the High Street.
-
-“Furniture.” Pamela pointed to the upholsterer’s. “There should be oak
-in the dining-room.”
-
-“There is oak at Folly Corner.”
-
-“Is that oak?” She opened her big eyes and arched her faint dun brows.
-“Then it is different. We had a beautiful carved dinner-wagon at the
-boarding-house.”
-
-“It was my father’s grandfather’s furniture, and his grandfather’s
-before him,” Jethro said conservatively.
-
-Pamela ran on:
-
-“And cushions. There should be lots of cushions with frills.” She threw
-a longing glance at the draper’s.
-
-Jethro looked too. One window was full of down cushions--big, square,
-and with frills deeper than the cushions themselves.
-
-“They would look lovely on the settle,” Pamela said gloatingly.
-
-Every woman has her pet weakness. Hers had always been _carte blanche_
-at the Oriental shop. There was a spatter of Oriental fripperies in a
-side window at the Liddleshorn draper’s; it was an up-to-date shop.
-
-“And embroidered mats,” she added, “and big bowls to stand flower-pots
-in; and those green specimen glasses for the table; and a bit or two of
-that Benares brass; and--it’s really a very good assortment--one of
-those guitars to hang on the wall with ribbons. You should have
-fretwork ornaments and some lacquered brackets, on which to stand
-plates or little blue tear-bottles.”
-
-Jethro beckoned to a small boy on the curb, and threw him the reins.
-
-“We’ll go in,” he said, jumping down and holding out his hand to
-Pamela.
-
-“I must get some gloves first of all,” she said, as her foot touched
-the pavement.
-
-When she had bought them, she led Jethro captive through the Oriental
-department. He told her carelessly to buy what she chose, and she moved
-eagerly from one counter to another. She chose some gaudy rugs to toss
-about the oak floors. She bought brass bowls and trays, a few grotesque
-ornaments for the shelves, mats, a guitar, a Chinese woman’s shoe, a
-mandarin’s petticoat to throw over an armchair, a bundle of peacock’s
-feathers, a few bits of coarsely-printed china, various embroidered
-table-covers--all the vividly-colored, alluring rubbish that she
-fancied.
-
-They had it packed up and stowed in the dogcart. She carried the china
-gingerly on her knee for fear of breakage. Her eyes danced. After years
-of poverty, this careless throwing away of money was delightful.
-
-When they reached home she made Daborn take everything out and carry it
-into the dining-room--the dining-parlor, as Gainah persisted in calling
-it. There was a strong smell of raw onion from the kitchen; it was
-being packed away in wide-mouthed bottles, with alternate slices of
-beet and a savory bath of spiced vinegar. Gainah came in, her hands
-dyed with onion juice.
-
-Pamela was excitedly unswathing her treasures from yards of tissue
-paper.
-
-“We’ve bought a few things,” she said pleasantly. “Sit down and look
-at them. That is an Indian god.” She held out an abominable brown
-figure. “Jethro was saying that the place wanted improving--bringing up
-to date. Of course, you never hear of the newest things down here. How
-should you? I got these cushions for the settle, and this--isn’t the
-embroidery lovely?--for the piano. A piano should never have its back
-against the wall. It is an ugly piece of furniture; its form is all
-against it. I told Jethro that there should have been a grand in that
-big room. That is the only endurable form of piano.”
-
-She was chattering the artistic jargon of a belated æsthete who had
-boarded at the house in Bloomsbury. Gainah hardly seemed to hear her.
-She had toppled down into one of the high-backed, rush-seated chairs,
-and was nervously moving her stained hands on her lap.
-
-“Don’t you like these rugs?” Pamela cut the string with one of the
-heavy buck-handled knives which was on the dinner-table. “They are to
-be thrown down in odd corners--anywhere. You can’t have too much color
-in a room. I must go and take my hat off.” She glanced at the waiting
-dinner-table and stacked her purchases carefully on the horsehair sofa.
-“I’ll arrange everything this afternoon. By tea-time you will hardly
-recognize the place. Cousin Jethro is so kind; he says that if I
-haven’t thought of everything he will drive me into Liddleshorn again
-to-morrow. These green glasses are for flowers. I must arrange them
-every day for dinner in schemes of color. There! That is one thing I
-forgot--an embroidered centerpiece. And we might have candle-shades,
-too. Those candlesticks,” she glanced at some heavy ones of Sheffield
-plate on the oak sideboard, “are the rage in London just now.”
-
-She ran out of the room. Gainah did not stir from her chair by the
-yawning hearth on which the first fire of the season smoldered. She
-gazed fixedly in her vacant way at the trash on the sofa. Only one
-thing that Pamela had said worked in her slow brain: “Jethro was saying
-that the place wanted improving.”
-
-She looked at the gaudy plates and jars; then thought of the delicate
-family china which was locked away in the little closet leading out of
-the keeping-room. She looked at the red and yellow brackets, the
-ornaments, and then looked round at the distempered walls, against
-which stood the beautiful golden oak, every piece of which she had
-tended as if it were a child. Every week she had rubbed that oak with
-beeswax and turpentine. Every week she had washed the china bowls and
-figures on the shelf. Every week for more than thirty years! She knew
-now that the landmarks of those years were going to be swept away. Her
-face grew harsh and vindictive--the face of a worn old panther--worn,
-old, feeble, but still with claws. Pamela, who meant everything in the
-kindest spirit possible, and who never doubted that her efforts would
-be received with gratitude, was breeding tragedy. Gainah, in the
-upright chair, her mournful eyes roving sluggishly round the
-ancestral furniture that she loved, was working up to a climax.
-
-Why should this girl--this pert jade, this strange cousin on the
-mother’s side--ruin the lives of her elders? Why should she sneer at
-rustic customs which were old enough to be as sacred as the Bible?
-
-Gainah’s mental attitude changed from injury to rebellion. She began to
-ask herself stupidly, with an agonized questioning of her slow brain,
-if Pamela could not be got rid of, banished from Folly Corner. How
-should she lift from the farm the shadow thrown across it? She only
-wanted to serve her master in her old faithful way, according to her
-own lights. She had brought him up from his birth. She almost believed
-that she was his mother. She had even chosen his wife for him. Nancy
-Turle wouldn’t have taken the housekeeping keys. She clutched at them
-as they weighed down her apron pocket. Pamela should never take them
-either. Nancy Turle would never have spent money like water at
-Liddleshorn. She glowered at the brightly colored stuffs and crockery.
-
-Only to go on serving him until the end. Wasn’t that a simple thing to
-ask? Just to be allowed to save and screw, to manage the farmhouse and
-to manage him in her hectoring way, which was all tenderness and
-devotion at bottom. She got up, turned her back on the new purchases,
-and ran her hand along the heavy sideboard lovingly, as if it were
-alive.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV.
-
-
-WHEN the purchases from the Oriental department were finally arranged,
-Pamela retreated to the door of the keeping-room--the drawing-room as
-she had privately determined to call it--and shut her eyes; then,
-opening them quickly and glancing comprehensively round, she tried to
-imagine what the effect of the room would be on a stranger. The round
-walnut table was pushed into a corner and covered with a red and yellow
-cloth, on which storks were painted. The piano cut across a corner, and
-had its back draped. The brackets were fixed on the wall and upheld
-Kaga plates. The mandarin’s petticoat, that had cost a great deal,
-nearly covered the green chair, and the green sofa was piled with
-cushions. The gaudy rugs did their best to cover up the bunches of pink
-Provence roses on the carpet.
-
-Things really made a very good show. The place looked almost civilized.
-These were her complacent thoughts as she stood at the door with her
-head on one side. Instinctively she went upstairs and put on her best
-gown, and arranged her hair in the elaborate way which she reserved for
-special occasions. When she came downstairs she shut her eyes again,
-then opened them spasmodically. Yes, it would do.
-
-She felt quite excited. Anyone could see that the hand of a person of
-taste had touched everything.
-
-A feeling of towns came over her. She looked through the diamond panes
-of the long window as if she expected to see hansoms bowling along the
-road. Then she sighed and glanced in the mirror again. What was the
-good of dressing one’s hair and wearing one’s best gown? Nobody would
-call.
-
-Gainah was still in the kitchen. She could hear her grating voice and
-slow step. Jethro was tramping over the stubble, his Irish terrier,
-Rob, at his heels. She put her softly-puffed head out of the bay window
-and called out pleadingly:
-
-“Oh! do come in and look.”
-
-He came across the field--came tolerantly, leisurely, as if he were
-good-humoredly indulging the whim of a child. When he opened the door
-he seemed too heavy for the transformed room, with its elegant tags of
-foreign frippery. He seemed to put it to shame; he brought an
-intangible, sterling feeling with him. Pamela, without knowing why,
-felt a little less satisfied.
-
-“Do you like it?” she asked nervously.
-
-He dropped into the green chair, his broad hands gripped round the
-petticoat, and looked about him with amusement.
-
-“Everything’s crooked,” he said lazily, at last, his mouth drolly
-curved and his eyes merry. They were such keen, outdoor eyes; they
-seemed to pierce through shams. She was afraid that he saw the pins in
-the piano back. She had been obliged to join two lengths of silk
-together, and had been too eager to stay and sew it.
-
-“Yes, everything is crooked; that is one of the fundamental rules
-of modern decoration,” she told him flippantly. “Piano across one
-corner, table across the other; nothing stiff, nothing solid.”
-
-“Umph!”
-
-He was not impressed. He was certainly laughing at the single
-knickerbocker of silk into which she had stuck a pot of late musk.
-
-“You’ve blocked the door of the china closet with that jar of
-feathers.”
-
-“The china closet! How delightful. It never occurred to me to ask what
-was beyond that door.” She tried the handle, then asked him for the
-key.
-
-“Gainah has it.”
-
-“I’ll get her to give it me.”
-
-She dashed out into the corridor and met the housekeeper midway.
-
-“I was coming to look for you,” she said, with her unfailing good
-temper and self-satisfaction. “I want your opinion on the drawing-room.
-There! Isn’t that pretty? Cousin Jethro doesn’t care a bit; but, then,
-men are no good at decoration.
-
-“And I want you to give me the key of the china closet,” she added.
-
-A queer flush stole over Gainah’s cheeks, and her distorted hand went
-involuntarily to her apron pocket, and her cold eyes sought Jethro’s
-beseechingly. Pamela had her palm outspread.
-
-“Yes, we’ll have a look in the closet,” Jethro said easily. “Don’t know
-when I went in last. There is a lot of stuff that was my mother’s and
-your aunt’s.” As he put in this touch, he glanced meaningly at Gainah,
-with the half-timid assertion of a big, kindly man who has been
-subjugated by a mean woman.
-
-He wanted her to remember, without troubling him to hurt her by putting
-it into words, that Pamela was one of the family, and had a close
-interest in the family crockery.
-
-“The closet is only opened once a year, when we clean in spring,”
-Gainah said grudgingly. “I don’t want strange fingers handling the
-china.”
-
-But she opened the door. Pamela, quite as a matter of course, took the
-key off the ring and slipped it into her own pocket.
-
-“It is a mistake to hide old china. The room won’t want locking again,”
-she said, gliding over the bare, dusty floor. “What a lovely
-collection! I wish I had known, then I need not have wasted money on
-Kaga. Anyone can buy that for so much three farthings--farthings play a
-most important part in modern decorations, Cousin Jethro.”
-
-She dimpled round at his puzzled face, and threw a conciliatory glance
-at Gainah, who had taken up a canary-colored jug with uneven black
-lettering straggling round its bulging middle. They were all three in
-the tiny room, lighted by one high window, across which the foamy white
-rose crept.
-
-“May I look?” Pamela took the canary jug.
-
- “‘Long may we leve.
- Happy may we be,
- Blest with content,
- And from misfortin’ free.’
-
-“Most delightful sentiments, and equally delightful spelling,” she
-commented lightly, while Jethro watched her with a growing admiration,
-and the cold light slanted through the window on Gainah’s worn,
-malevolent face.
-
-“What blue bowls and dishes! What luster! I think they call that
-coppery stuff luster.”
-
-“My mother’s best tea set.” Jethro took up a tiny handleless cup with
-purplish-pink trails of flowers painted on it.
-
-“Lowestoft, I think.” Pamela cocked her head on one side. “But I know
-nothing of china. Therefore I admire it all--that is a very safe rule
-in art. Now you and Gainah must run away.” She made a feint of pushing
-him toward the door. “I’m going to be busier than ever. All this must
-be arranged to the best advantage. Then the door will be left open, and
-when next we go to Liddleshorn you must buy a portière.”
-
-She jumped upon a chair, and lifted bowls and dishes from the top
-shelf, making a running comment as she did so.
-
-“I wish I knew printed from painted. This dish is either very valuable
-or utterly worthless; some things are just on the borderland. You two
-must really go away.” She put out one hand deprecatingly. “There ought
-to be some tin tacks, or a ledge, in front of the shelves, so that the
-plates could stand up.”
-
-Gainah looked at her, a brilliant, dainty, voluble creature, high up on
-a mahogany chair whose back was carved in wheat-ears. She had all the
-color and pertness of a bullfinch. She looked at her, this dangerous
-republican; looked at white fingers carelessly handling china which
-for over thirty years only her own hands had touched. She had grown to
-believe that it was hers, that Jethro himself was hers, and the farm
-too, with its fat acres and its ripe family tradition. She had been
-undisputed queen at Folly Corner the best part of her life. All the
-family connections, when they paid Jethro a rare visit, had deferred to
-her. Yet not one of them knew the truth--that Jethro’s father had
-almost married her.
-
-She thought of that as she watched Pamela standing radiant on the
-chair. A horrible pang for the muddles, incomplete past, and a still
-more set feeling of bitterest, merciless revenge contracted her heart.
-She turned away without a word, leaving the cousins in the china
-closet. She sat herself down in the ruins of her temple, and looked
-blankly at the devastation wrought by Pamela’s active fingers in two
-short hours.
-
-She knew for whom this room had been refurnished more than thirty years
-before. Not for Jethro’s mother. She, after the fashion of frugal first
-wives, had saved and gone short of household elaborations. The room had
-been furnished for _her_. She, Gainah Toat, had been the elder Jethro’s
-second fancy. She had been a good-looking woman well within thirty in
-those days; while he had been nearer sixty, having married a
-middle-aged cousin--of the plain variety of women, warranted to wear
-well--when he was fifty or more. But she, Gainah, had inspired him with
-positive passion. Bah! She knew what a man’s passion was, and how far
-it led him. She knew that it made even a miser like the elder Jethro
-dip deeply into his pocket.
-
-She remembered driving with him into Liddleshorn, just as Pamela had
-to-day driven in with his son, and choosing the flowery carpet, the
-round table, the piano--on which she could never hope to play a note.
-Neighbors had condoled with her on the prospect of a new wife at Folly
-Corner. She had said nothing, by his wish--he was a taciturn man. But
-she remembered the flutter of triumph which had worked behind her dry
-lips all the time. She knew that _she_ was to be the bride of whom they
-gossiped and about whose appearance they speculated.
-
-What might have been! He had been dead more than thirty years, and she
-had dutifully kept the secret of his weakness. Not even Jethro knew
-that there had been love passages, of a fairly practical sort--on one
-side at least--between Gainah and his father. Her courting scenes had
-been seasoned with matter-of-fact reference to the crops or the
-prospects of early ducklings. She had always been grim and unbending.
-
-What might have been! If only the master of Folly Corner had not been
-pitched out of the high gig. His head had cracked on a heap of big
-stones by the road, piled high all ready for autumn breaking.
-
-She remembered so well the day they brought him home. It was on a
-Monday, and she had, for once, managed to cut her nails without
-thinking of a fox’s tail--sure sign of a present.
-
-That was the present they brought her--the dying body of the
-substantial man, who loved her in his common-sense way, who would have
-redeemed her from service.
-
-She remembered the day of the funeral. It was a cold day. The bereft
-house had seemed to rock and moan with every wail of the agonized wind
-outside. The front door, through which they carried the long, wide
-coffin, was flung widely back by her orders until the burial service
-had been read at the church. If that had not been done there would have
-been another death within the year. Bitterly as she had been
-disappointed and foiled, she did not want to die. Neither did she want
-baby Jethro to die; she loved him a great deal better than she had
-loved his father--there was no ulterior motive mixed up with her regard
-for the child.
-
-The farmer had not even made a will in her favor. He had not left her
-one penny. She stayed on as paid housekeeper, the conclave of relatives
-deciding that it would be best. Mrs. Turle, the dead man’s sister, paid
-her quarterly. She stayed on. She managed the farm until Jethro grew
-up. She managed Jethro--had never left off managing him. She was a
-masterful woman.
-
-And now she was to be put aside, like the pair of china figures which
-had lost an arm apiece, and which stared at each other hopelessly on
-their dim attic shelf.
-
-Jethro came out from the closet, looking handsome and happy. Pamela,
-still on the chair, was softly humming a gay little air.
-
-Gainah struggled up from the sofa. She looked at Jethro. She moved her
-dry pale lips, and moved her oddly-dressed brown head too. She wanted
-to speak to him--to implore, to insist. But the words strangled in
-her throat at the sight of his exultant face and shining eyes.
-
-It was useless for age to pit itself against youth. Her time was past.
-She knew, although it was gall to admit it, that the girl she hated had
-Nature on her side. All her comparisons were drawn from Nature; her
-untiring energy of pickle and preserve making had gone hand-in-hand
-with Nature.
-
-Didn’t the old potatoes rot off to make room for the new? Wasn’t it
-natural?
-
-Her feet moved slowly over the carpet. It had been her choice nearly
-thirty-five years before. But it was hardly worn; they rarely used the
-keeping-room.
-
-She went into the garden. She looked at the brown stalks of the
-summer’s annuals in her borders. They were dead, dry--only fit for the
-waste-heap. Yet their young seedlings were green and vigorous. It was
-all so simple, so natural. Yet--yet! She was far too practical, too
-mentally sluggish, to put the half-formed thought into clear shape.
-They were only fit for the waste-heap--but did they want to go there?
-Wasn’t there some dumb, desperate struggle against extinction going on
-between those brown, sadly swaying stalks?
-
-Then she saw a wagonette pull up at the white gate, saw a head of rich
-red hair between the poplars, and hurried indoors to put on her black
-silk gown.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V.
-
-
-PAMELA saw the wagonette, too, as she perched on the chair, her head
-level with the high window. She was so surprised and fluttered that the
-Oriental bowl she was lifting down nearly dropped from her fingers. She
-called through the open door to Jethro:
-
-“Here’s a carriage at the gate. Inside, an elderly lady and a girl with
-red hair. They are coming up the path.”
-
-“Aunt Sophy--Mrs. Turle, of Turle House--and Nancy.”
-
-“They have come to call on me.”
-
-She gave a soft breath of satisfaction as she jumped from the chair;
-her best gown, her waved hair, were justified. She had only just time
-to add, “What a pity I hadn’t finished the china closet!” before they
-were announced, in rustic, familiar fashion, by the red-armed
-housemaid, who hadn’t yet changed her cotton gown for her afternoon
-stuff one.
-
-Mrs. Turle was a big woman with a stately carriage. Nancy was slim, and
-either shy or stupid. She had a very white skin--the Turle skin, as
-Jethro had said. Whenever she spoke or was spoken to, a silly pink
-flooded her face. Her dress was precise and perfect in detail; the
-very best that the best shop in Liddleshorn could supply. Mrs. Turle,
-too, wore a stiff silk, and the set of golden sable which had been part
-of her wedding outfit, and was only just beginning to look damaged by
-moth. This was evidently a state call. Pamela saw her look swiftly
-round the room, as she threw back her net veil with the deep hem.
-
-Jethro, after a few awkward words--he never excelled in the presence of
-women--went back to his stubble and his dog. Pamela was left alone with
-these two--evidently bent on criticism--who might or might not be of
-her blood. Mrs. Turle said, looking at her steadfastly:
-
-“My dear, you are like Jethro’s mother. She died when he was born, you
-know. Always weak here.” She laid her plump hand on the sable that
-crossed her ample bosom. “I hope your chest is not weak. You don’t look
-very strong.”
-
-“I am quite strong, thank you,” the new cousin returned rather
-awkwardly, conscious that Nancy was trying to puzzle out the
-construction of her _coiffure_.
-
-“You may think so”--Mrs. Turle dealt out the sweet, maternal smile for
-which she was famous,--“but one can never be sure of one’s own
-constitution. I must send you down a large bottle of the cough syrup I
-make for Nancy every autumn.”
-
-She kept looking round the room. Pamela felt sure that she resented
-everything--the tablecloth with storks, the winking brass bowls, the
-very petticoat, which her portly shoulders crushed.
-
-“I should have called before,” she continued apologetically, “but I
-couldn’t have the horse. We only keep one since Mr. Turle died, and my
-man, Evergreen, like all old servants, must be indulged. He doesn’t
-care to drive in bad weather, and we have had so many mists lately.
-Besides”--there was a tinge of reproach in her purring voice--“I hadn’t
-seen you at church. I didn’t know if you were ready for callers.”
-
-“Church! Oh, I haven’t been yet. It seemed such a pity to waste half a
-beautiful day indoors,” said Pamela innocently. She saw timid Nancy
-glance at her mother and smile. They were very tepid people. She
-already felt as if little cascades of lukewarm water played on her.
-
-“In London,” she added, in extenuation, “so few people go to church.”
-
-Mrs. Turle looked grave.
-
-“I must say,” she said softly--and Pamela soon learnt that “I must say”
-was her favorite formula--“that people in towns are very lax. You can’t
-bring up a large family--I’ve had fifteen--without method. When my
-children were little they went to church twice on Sunday--what else
-could you do with boys? They would only loaf about. Next Sunday, dear,
-Nancy and I will call for you. We always drive.”
-
-“Thank you very much.”
-
-“And you have always lived in London? Your mother and father are dead,
-so Jethro told us. I knew your father. He was a very handsome young
-man. I must say,” her scintillating eyes were full on the girl’s face,
-“that I should never have known you for his daughter. There is no
-resemblance; poor John had such regular features.”
-
-Pamela looked a little awkward. Nancy said kindly in her weak, sweet
-voice, and with her languishing smile:
-
-“Do you ride a bicycle?”
-
-“No. I--I’ve never had the chance.”
-
-“Oh! you must get one. Mustn’t she, mamma? It is such fun. In the
-summer we have picnics, and in the winter paper chases.”
-
-“That would be nice.”
-
-The cascades of tepid water were growing in volume. She was new to this
-class of caller. Her London experience was pretty large; she had
-knocked about in her search for bread. She knew the art jargon of
-Hampstead, the conscientious struggle for intellect and high purpose
-which distinguishes the prosperous quarter of Bloomsbury. She could
-talk shops with a feather-headed woman, babies, even, with a bovine
-one, or the divine duties of sex with the serious. But with these
-people there was no give-and-take, no merry tossing with the ball, no
-brightening of the wits.
-
-“And I suppose you were living with some other relations in London?”
-
-“No,” she said curtly, “I was working for my living. Jethro is my only
-relation.”
-
-“We are all kin, are we not, mamma?”
-
-“Of course. So you had a career, dear? Yes. Art? So many girls go in
-for that. Nancy attended the Liddleshorn school for a time. But I
-don’t think the influence is good for a young woman. I must say that
-drawing from a model is not _my_ idea of delicacy.”
-
-“Never from the nude, mamma.”
-
-“Oh! never from the nude, of course. Unless it was a foot. I think you
-drew from a foot once, Nancy, love.”
-
-“Oh, yes, mamma; but the model only came once. She hadn’t understood
-that she must take her stockings off.”
-
-Pamela was yawning. “I haven’t studied art,” she said curtly.
-
-“Literature? A great many girls go in for that. We had an author at
-Mere Cottage. A most extraordinary person. He put a Latin text over his
-door. What was it, Nancy?”
-
-“_Parva domus magna quies_, mamma.”
-
-“Yes, something like that. I’m not quite sure that your Latin is right.
-But Egbert would know. He is my son at Cambridge.”
-
-“The people were so puzzled,” said Nancy. “Old Mrs. Chalcraft declared
-it meant knock and ring. But one of the other old women said it was a
-spell to keep witches away.”
-
-“It was a stupid thing to put,” Mrs. Turle broke in with impatience.
-“‘A little house for great quiet.’ That is how my son translated it--my
-youngest son at Cambridge. That is absurd, of course; little houses
-never _are_ quiet.”
-
-“But he meant, mamma, that he didn’t want people to call.”
-
-“Then he need not have troubled to put such a sentence over his door,
-dear. Old Timms, who is a painter by trade, was half afraid to do it.”
-
-“His wife made him give up the job when he got to _magna_, mamma. Some
-of the old people are so superstitious. She was afraid he might be
-signing some compact about his soul with the devil.”
-
-Pamela laughed. The conversation was waking up, she thought, but Mrs.
-Turle looked grave.
-
-“It was in very bad taste,” she said, “and he need not have troubled.
-No one meant to call on such people.”
-
-“And was it literature, dear?” she continued, more genially. “We are
-quite literary down here.” She laughed pleasantly, as if introducing
-Pamela to a congenial atmosphere. “What is the name of that person at
-the new house on the Liddleshorn Road, Nancy? She keeps a poultry farm
-and takes in type-writing.”
-
-“Samuels, mamma.”
-
-“Yes, Mrs. Samuels. And there is Mrs. Clutton at the Buttery. Her
-husband is a journalist--so she says.”
-
-The last three words were spoken impressively. Pamela immediately
-divined that Mrs. Clutton, of the Buttery, was not a local favorite.
-
-“Nancy has a great taste for literature,” Mrs. Turle continued, with a
-fond glance at her daughter, who immediately blushed. “I think that if
-there had ever been any question of her going out into the world she
-would have chosen literature.”
-
-“Only I can never think of a subject,” Nancy said pathetically. “If
-only I could think of a subject and get somebody else to begin!”
-
-“We subscribe to Smith’s,” Mrs. Turle said, smiling sweetly. “We like
-to keep abreast with the times. Nancy goes in for serious subjects; she
-is halfway through Ruskin’s----”
-
-“Huxley’s, mamma.”
-
-“There is very little difference, dear. But I confine myself to current
-fiction. I’m just reading Kingsley’s ‘Westward Ho!’”
-
-“I’m not at all literary,” said Pamela. “I was governess for a time.
-Then I was a companion. And--and I managed a boarding-house.”
-
-“Really! Then you understand housekeeping. That will be a help to
-Gainah, who is growing old. Ah! here she is. I suppose you have made
-your elderberry wine, Gainah? I only got a cask and a half this year.”
-
-Pamela opened her gray eyes when Mrs. Turle of Turle affectionately
-greeted the housekeeper. She was astounded to see Gainah, in her black
-silk, and with a worn gold chain round her scraggy neck, sit down with
-the easy air of an equal on the sofa. She couldn’t understand her
-position. She derided the idea of her importance--an ignorant old woman
-who was always cooking. Gainah in her eyes was a servant--nothing more.
-But in local opinion she was entitled to much deference. The laborers
-regarded her as even more important than “young Jethro,” who was only a
-stripling.
-
-Nancy took Pamela’s hand.
-
-“Come out in the garden,” she said. “I so love a garden. Do you?”
-
-“I don’t know anything about it,” said Pamela, as they strolled about
-in the sun, and the other girl made little gurgling comments.
-
-“How sweet those stocks are! What a show of asters! Ours were a
-failure. Evergreen doesn’t care for asters. He likes carpet-bedding and
-I bought him a half-crown packet of petunia seed; so I did hope he
-would succeed with the asters. You must get Jethro to build you a
-little greenhouse. I could give you plenty of geranium cuttings next
-spring. It is a little late to take them now. I think it is a little
-late; but I must ask Evergreen. You should have a bicycle.” She was
-evidently anxious to be friendly. “Would you like to join our Shakspere
-class? It is quite proper, you know.”
-
-“Perhaps,” said Pamela vaguely.
-
-Directly she heard the tea bell she hastened her steps almost rudely.
-She was determined that Gainah should not take the head of the table,
-and she managed to slip on to the oak stool behind the urn just as the
-two elder women came along the corridor.
-
-Gainah sat down at the side, shaking her hands and vibrating her head
-with anger. But Mrs. Turle smiled approval.
-
-“You must find a young lady in the house a great help,” she said
-innocently, as she sat down, spreading her thick silk skirt flat
-beneath her. “Nancy always pours out for me.”
-
-Pamela was sulky. She hated what she called a “sit-down” tea. Tea was
-not a meal; it was an interlude, a good way of helping out an idle
-afternoon.
-
-Jethro on the high stool at the end was hospitably carving a ham. The
-smiling housemaid kept coming with fresh plates of toasted tea-cake,
-preserve, or buns.
-
-“You must give me the recipe for these rice cakes,” Mrs. Turle said.
-
-“Two cups of rice flour,” returned Gainah solemnly.
-
-“You beat your butter to a cream, of course?”
-
-“Yes. Two eggs.”
-
-“That is very economical. We have hardly any eggs. The hens are all
-getting broody again, and I must say an October brood is not worth
-hatching. I wish Evergreen would let me have a non-setting breed.”
-
-“Nothing better than Leghorns,” said Jethro.
-
-“Tch!” interrupted Gainah, with her air of absolutism, “Langshans are
-better.”
-
-“But they are not nice table birds.” Mrs. Turle smiled on them both and
-took another cake. “Now, I must say I like the Plymouth Rock--only its
-legs are yellow.”
-
-Pamela, with the superior air of a being on a higher plane, poured out
-her newly-found aunt a third cup of tea.
-
-The talk went on. She heard Gainah and Mrs. Turle talk of wine-making,
-cider-making, apple-storing.
-
-“Our Blenheims,” Gainah complained, “have all gone a-bitel.”
-
-“They will go mildewed some years. I don’t know why,” returned Mrs.
-Turle sympathetically; “ours have kept beautifully so far. I’ll ask
-Evergreen if we can spare you some.”
-
-It was a very long meal. The dying sun straggled round the house and
-filled the dull room with yellow light. Through the latticed window
-they could see the mist rising like a huge bridal wreath from the wet
-grass. Mrs. Turle got up hurriedly when the housemaid came in to say
-that her carriage had come round.
-
-“You must spend a long afternoon with us soon,” she said, kissing
-Pamela. “What are we doing on Wednesday, Nancy?”
-
-“It’s the Shakspere class, mamma.”
-
-“Of course. Pamela must join the Shakspere class. Mrs. McAlpine, my
-dear, who started it, is extremely clever--she reads German novels in
-the original. And she is very particular--they only read the _nice_
-parts of the plays. I inquired into that when Nancy joined. For
-although one admires and loves dear Shakspere, I must say one is never
-sure of him. It seems such a pity. Are we free on Thursday, Nancy?”
-
-“I usually go round with the _Parish Magazines_, mamma--it is the third
-Thursday in the month.”
-
-“So it is. And Friday is unlucky. I don’t believe in such nonsense, of
-course, but it is as well not to run unnecessary risk. And Saturday,
-that is no day at all.”
-
-“I usually give out stores on Saturday, mamma.”
-
-“Then we’ll say Monday. No, Tuesday--that will give us time to make a
-cake. I must ask some more of your relations to meet you, dear. And,
-Nancy, we must be careful with the cake; Maria’s are always so
-excellent, and she is so critical. And now run out, dear, and tell
-Evergreen I’ll come in a moment. I’m afraid he won’t like being kept in
-the mist.”
-
-
-On Tuesday Jethro, who was driving into Liddleshorn, dropped Pamela at
-Turle. She stood and watched him out of sight, admiring the smartly
-turned-out trap and his broad back in the light covert coat. Then she
-went, with lagging feet, up the drive.
-
-Turle was an old house which had been improved into an appearance of
-juvenility. Mr. Turle bought it when he retired with a comfortable
-fortune from the milling--a comfortable fortune, and a determination on
-the part of his wife--to end his days as a gentleman. He spent so much
-money that people forgot that he had been a miller. When he died his
-widow was actually on the skirts of small gentrydom. She was a
-diplomatic woman, and managed to steer fairly clear of family
-connections who were still in superior family trade. She drove her
-social four-in-hand skillfully, and kept several distinct sets in
-perfect balance, smiling on them all with the same motherly, expansive
-sweetness, yet never offending the aristocratic susceptibilities of
-Mrs. Sugden, the Paper King’s wife, who called on her twice a year,
-nor hurting the feelings of the Jeremy Crisp girls, whose father still
-carried on the family grocer’s business in Liddleshorn.
-
-Pamela liked Turle. The farm-buildings were hidden, the surrounding
-meadows had been knocked into a miniature park and planted with trees.
-They were young trees, but everything must have a beginning.
-
-When she was announced she saw that the big drawing-room was full of
-strange women. She looked hurriedly from one face to another, finding
-family characteristics everywhere. Mrs. Turle kissed her.
-
-“You don’t look quite up to the mark,” she said affectionately. “A
-touch of bile?”
-
-She was introduced to all of them; handed over from one to another,
-like a bale of samples. They had been engrossed at her entrance over a
-big box of fancy work. One of the Jeremy Crisp girls--who was only a
-girl by courtesy--went into elderly raptures over a woolwork jacket,
-which looked a capital fit for an organ-grinder’s monkey, and was
-intended for a baby.
-
-“The box comes round to us once a quarter,” Mrs. Turle explained. “It
-goes round to all members. Every member works something, prices it,
-puts it in the box, and sends it on to another member. If we see
-anything we like we buy it.”
-
-Pamela was beginning to find out that her new cousins and aunts were
-tremendously busy women--over nothing at all; that they had a frenzy
-for belonging to classes and societies; that they took themselves and
-their efforts very seriously.
-
-The cheerful coal fire winked on the foolish satisfied faces with their
-ridiculous monotony of outline and color. A crunching on the gravel
-made everybody glance out of the window. Mrs. Turle seemed a little
-frightened and annoyed. She looked deprecatingly at Cousin Maria
-Furlonger, from the “Warren,” who was so very exclusive, who moved in
-such a good set, and habitually went up to help Mrs. Sugden when she
-gave a charitable entertainment.
-
-“It’s Mrs. Clutton, my dear. You didn’t want to meet her, did you?”
-
-“Oh, never mind, Aunt Sophy. I needn’t know her if I meet her again.”
-
-“I wish she wouldn’t drop in so unceremoniously,” poor Mrs. Turle said
-in a hurried whisper. “Mrs. Sugden was here the other day. She begged
-me to let her out of the back door because Mrs. Clutton was coming in
-at the front. Of course a woman in her position couldn’t possibly meet
-anybody like that.
-
-“My dear,” she swept her ample skirts across the room, “this is a
-pleasure. Nancy and I were wondering what had happened to you. We’ve
-seen nothing of you for at least three days. You’re a little pale. The
-weather is trying, and makes one look so fagged and worn.”
-
-It was a trick of Aunt Sophy’s to compassionate everyone and comment on
-the fragility of their appearance. Pamela, when she grew to know
-her better, was never sure whether it was a feline trick or a
-sympathetic one.
-
-The new-comer was dark and lean. She was a young woman, whose face
-looked as if it had weathered storms. She was carelessly dressed in
-perfectly cut clothes, rather worn. She carried a damp, loosely-tied
-parcel, which she handed to Nancy.
-
-“Here are your pinks and white phloxes. Put the roots in soon.”
-
-“If Evergreen has time to-morrow----”
-
-“Don’t wait for him; he’ll kill them. Gardeners have a knack of
-sticking their spades through the things they dislike. Do it yourself.
-I am so glad I can’t afford a gardener--to give me a plant for the
-table when he chooses.” Her eye fell on a melancholy petunia.
-
-“Have you been to any more sales, dear?” asked Mrs. Turle. “Have you
-added to your interesting collection of nice old things?”
-
-“Oh, yes!” Mrs. Clutton’s voice became enthusiastic. “I went to such a
-delightful sale at Carrsland. I bought a little oak table. A dealer ran
-it up to thirty shillings--the wretch! He passed me on the road! I was
-walking, as usual; he was cycling. I instantly smelt him out as a
-dealer, and I was half inclined to tip him off the bicycle with the
-point of my umbrella, gag him, bind him to a tree until the sale was
-over. I wish I had; it would have been so deliciously simple.”
-
-There was an awkward silence; then Nancy said, in her gently gushing
-way:
-
-“I wish you’d ride a bicycle. It’s such fun.”
-
-Maria Furlonger, of the “Warren,” added politely:
-
-“Yes. You should ride; it’s so good for the brain; and I’ve heard you
-write--or something of the sort.”
-
-“Bicycling’s very bad for one’s logic; you can’t imagine a logician on
-a bicycle. I don’t write; my husband does.”
-
-Mrs. Turle, anxious for perfect harmony, and knowing--also sharing--the
-local skepticism regarding Mrs. Clutton’s husband, put in blandly:
-
-“Mr. Clutton is a journalist. He has gone for a tour round the world.”
-
-“Oh!”
-
-Maria Furlonger’s wide smile full in Mrs. Clutton’s face was a little
-dangerous.
-
-Mrs. Turle added quite irrelevantly:
-
-“Poor Mrs. Peter Hone has another baby. That’s twelve.”
-
-“Sympathy is wasted on the poorer classes,” Mrs. Clutton put in, with
-her calm, dogmatic air. “You pet them too much. Once it was lap-dogs;
-now it’s paupers. Any old dame with a clean apron and a courtesy, any
-old man with his trousers tied round the calf and his chin like
-stubble, can take you in. Merely a question of livery! Now, it is the
-man in the top hat who wants petting--the man who is at his wits’ end
-to keep up his insurance payments.”
-
-The tea bell rang. They all filed solemnly into the dining-room.
-
-Maria Furlonger, who was rather taken with Pamela’s silence, which, of
-course, meant modesty, began to tell her graciously about the old Manor
-House at Carrsland, where her father, Jethro’s mother’s brother, had
-been born.
-
-“It’s a very old place. There is a moat all round. It has been filled
-up.”
-
-“I am so glad it has been filled,” cried another cousin. “It was so
-awkward, so dangerous. You see”--addressing herself to Pamela--“it was
-just under the drawing-room window, and a lady might so easily have
-fallen out. What a terrible thing it would be for a lady to fall out of
-her own drawing-room window--into a moat!”
-
-“When ladies have a tendency that way they should sign the pledge,”
-said Mrs. Clutton tersely.
-
-Nancy, meeting her mother’s diplomatic eye, rushed into the breach:
-
-“Have you heard about the nice butcher boy?”
-
-“That boy at Churnside’s?”
-
-“Yes. He has stolen ten pounds. They have arrested him.”
-
-“Dishonesty on a small scale never pays,” said Mrs. Clutton. “Honesty
-is really the best policy--now that we have such an excellent police
-force.”
-
-She was putting on her gloves, and they looked at each other with
-secret satisfaction. She seemed anxious to go. She looked as if the
-double row of placid faces irritated her. Mrs. Turle and Nancy kissed
-her. The former said:
-
-“Come in again soon; we see so little of you. And take a tonic,
-dear--you’re really looking run down.”
-
-“What a vulgar person!” said Maria Furlonger, when the place was clear
-of her.
-
-Annie Jayne--the Jaynes of the “Mount”--said:
-
-“She struck me as being a little weak--mentally. Dear mother used to
-say that no properly-balanced woman should have opinions of her
-own--outside the domestic circle.”
-
-“I must say that some of her remarks are in bad taste,” Mrs. Turle
-admitted gently. It was her policy to offend nobody, to speak ill of
-nobody; ill-natured remarks never helped your social ascent.
-
-“She’s quite incorrigible,” one of the Jeremy Crisps said. “Do you know
-that she cut Mr. Meadows?”
-
-“She didn’t!”
-
-“She _did!_”
-
-“The clergyman of the parish! A rural dean!”
-
-“He called on her--merely a parochial call. He said that he liked to be
-identified with all his parishioners--whatever their views. Could
-anything be more broad, more generous?”
-
-“Well?”
-
-The Jeremy Crisp girl continued:
-
-“She actually laughed in his face, and said she had not any views;
-didn’t he consider views narrow?”
-
-“She’s not a lady.”
-
-“That’s not all. He met her in the lane next day. He nodded most
-affably; you know his rule: a nod to people who walk, a bow to those
-who keep a carriage. It is a wise rule--it defines the classes so
-well, which is absolutely necessary, or where should we be?”
-
-One or two superior cousins sneered at each other across the teacups.
-The airs of these Jeremy Crisps!
-
-“_She cut him dead!_”
-
-“I spoke to her about _that_,” Mrs. Turle said gently.
-
-“Well! What did she say? Short sight? She wears glasses for effect, no
-doubt.”
-
-“Those eye-glasses make one look so intelligent, they really do,” put
-in a quiet cousin, who had scarcely spoken all the afternoon; “I
-thought of getting some.”
-
-“She said that the men of her acquaintance might touch their hats or
-raise them--which they choose. If none of us would put that
-insufferable Mr. Meadows in his place, she must.”
-
-“You never should have called on her, Aunt Sophy.”
-
-“My dear Maria, she is a neighbor. And you never know how these queer
-people from London may turn out. Sometimes they prove desirable. I
-hesitated a long time, though, when I heard her husband was a
-journalist: very often journalist means swindler.”
-
-“She looks to me like a woman who drinks,” Maria Furlonger said. “Drink
-makes people talk at random; drink makes people forget their duty to
-their superiors in the parish.”
-
-“Dear mother always said that a drunken woman was such a much more
-painful sight than a drunken man,” Annie Jayne said. “Oh! I can’t
-believe it of her, Maria. She was quite nice to Baby the other day.”
-
-Annie had her first baby, and thought of very little else besides. If
-anyone admired Baby she concluded, in her simple, ardently maternal
-way, that such admiration was a moral certificate.
-
-“Drink! Nonsense!” said Mrs. Turle, quite sharply for her. “I must say
-she has very clever ideas. She told me the other day that she was
-thinking of patenting an automatic arrangement for making cyclists
-swallow their own dust--though it would never do for you, Nancy, with
-your chest. Why, here is Jethro. I suppose he has come to take you
-away, Pamela?”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI.
-
-
-THE autumn rains set in early that year. Every night when Pamela fell
-asleep in her bedstead with the fluted posts and hangings of chintz,
-having a fearful pattern of black roses, she heard the murmuring rush
-of rain down the pipes and into the soft-water tubs. Every morning she
-was awakened by the swish of rain against the casement and the clatter
-of the maidservant’s clogs on the stones in the yard.
-
-She spent long afternoons in the drawing-room staring dismally out at
-the sodden fields and the hills beyond, which shed sad mist. She was
-left very much to her own resources; her new relations rarely visited
-in bad weather.
-
-She gave the house the benefit of her active brain, instituting all
-sorts of changes which she honestly believed to be reforms. She flung a
-modern, flimsy feeling of culture about the staid old place--a feeling
-expressed by current magazines, superficial opinions, shallow daring.
-
-Jethro was pleased and invigorated by her reckless dogmatic opinions,
-by her dainty domestic ways. He used to watch her graceful figure flit
-from room to room, used to listen to her high young voice giving
-peremptory orders. She fascinated him. She was always changing, and the
-women to whom he had been accustomed all his life never changed. Each
-one said and did exactly what her mother had said and done before her:
-to be original was to break the fifth commandment.
-
-They sat round the great open hearth on wet, wild evenings. Gainah
-would be sewing or painfully writing out recipes in a dirty copy-book.
-Pamela generally had a catalogue of bulbs, a sheet of paper, and a
-pencil. Nancy’s gushing, incapable enthusiasm, and Mrs. Clutton’s
-practical knowledge of flower gardening had infected her. She already
-knew them well enough for that. She was full of ideas for spring
-bedding.
-
-“I must have a hundred early tulips,” she would say coaxingly.
-
-When Jethro, looking up from the local paper, returned indulgently,
-“Order what you please,” she added the hundred tulips to her list with
-the glee of a child.
-
-Gainah seldom said anything. She had always been a silent woman, and
-Pamela’s whirling, modern influence had petrified her altogether. The
-thin white lips hardly opened except to timidly rate the two maids, who
-now tossed their heads at their former tyrant. She took Pamela’s
-presence passively, never commenting on anything she did. But
-sometimes, when the girl looked up suddenly from the fascinating bulb
-catalogue, and found those odd eyes on her, she shivered. They were so
-dead--those eyes. Yet such a secret, such a terrible soul seemed to
-play and lurk behind them.
-
-Gainah never protested. Little by little she felt the scepter slip
-from her powerless hand. Little by little her life lost color. Pamela
-laughed at her methods, was often disgusted by her thrifty, traditional
-economies. She had a superior trick of saying, “My way is the correct
-one.” Or she would quote the domestic routine of her father’s house, in
-the prosperous time when they lived in a detached house with a carriage
-drive and stabling. She was more than a bit of snob, but Jethro knew
-nothing of snobbery. He approved of all she did.
-
-She gabbled on hygiene. She took tickets for a course of lectures on
-domestic economy, driving into Liddleshorn every alternate Friday. When
-she returned, she was more ardent than ever for reform. She penetrated
-to the scullery, and examined the dishcloth--with a scared murmur of
-microbes, because it had not been scalded in soda water and hung up in
-the air to dry. She insisted on making the tea herself in a patent pot.
-Once she said lightly that Gainah was trying to poison them all because
-she told the cook to boil halfpence with the cabbage to make it green.
-The flash in Gainah’s eye had been sinister, but Pamela did not see it.
-She laughed Jethro out of his favorite supper--a loaf hot from the oven
-and soaked in cider. She tried very hard to abolish supper as a
-meal--wishing to call the eight-o’clock meal dinner. But here she was
-stopped by the opposition of every member of the family; even Aunt
-Sophy entered a diplomatic protest.
-
-She begged Jethro to make Chalcraft wring the necks of the poultry. She
-couldn’t bear the slow sounds of death. It was barbarous--the slight,
-skillful slit of the knife, the long bleeding, the fluttering
-“glug-glug” in the throat, growing fainter and fainter. Gainah had
-always insisted on that method; she said it made the flesh white.
-Gainah shut the doomed birds for twenty-four hours before death in a
-coop, and made them fast, so that they might be more easily got ready
-for table: Pamela went surreptitiously to the corn sack, and gave them
-an extra feed before the ordeal. Gainah, in hot weather, hung meat down
-the well to keep it fresh; she buried sour milk in the earth, tied up
-in a muslin bag, and dug it up cream cheese. She had a theory about leg
-of mutton: it should be buried in the earth for three days to make it
-tender; the same might be done with an old hen. She did not approve of
-eggs in a milk pudding, and never used butter in white sauce if the
-milk was new and not skimmed. To waste nothing, to be lavish with
-nothing--that had been her religion. The hygiene lecturer--through
-Pamela, who conscientiously took notes--told her that some of her
-antique tricks were not only dirty, but dangerous.
-
-Pamela taught the cook to make bread without touching it with the hand.
-She told Boyce how to milk the cows, washing his hands in an antiseptic
-first. She had chemical tests for the milk, and made a rigorous
-inspection of the dairy each morning. Gainah was calmly put aside as a
-domestic fossil. She was openly flouted. She was told to sit by the
-fire, to do nothing. Even needlework was not necessary--things could
-be bought so cheaply ready-made, ready-marked even.
-
-She was pushed aside. She must do nothing. Yet for over thirty years
-she had done everything. Her life had been one long fury of immaculate
-housekeeping according to her lights. She had thrown all the fierce
-energy of a naturally passionate woman into her dairy and her
-store-room. Love had just brushed her, then slipped away; maternity had
-never been hers. Religion she regarded as a respectable duty, varied by
-the clergyman coming to tea, which was a nervous trial, and meant
-getting out the best china. She couldn’t write poems, or lecture, or be
-an athlete; every outlet of the emotional woman was denied her by
-circumstance or temperament. She had flung herself upon the altar of
-good management, and now she was told that good management was not an
-art--it was the merest detail in the day’s work of a truly capable
-woman.
-
-She said nothing. But there was a constant throbbing and seething in
-her aching head, above the turgid eyes. If Pamela could have foreseen,
-could have guessed, she might have been more temperate, more gradual.
-But she was sublimely unconscious.
-
-On those autumn nights the heavy rain drove down from the hills and
-swept the sad common and beat against the thick walls of the farm. The
-wind skirled across space, and the cider-press creaked and moaned.
-Gainah let the press out to the villagers if they cared to make cider.
-They paid her so much an hour for the use of it. This was one of her
-economies.
-
-Jethro would sit and sprawl and blink at the fire like a well-fed,
-thoroughly satisfied, and sleepy dog after a day in the covers. Now and
-again in the course of the evening he would get up, stretch his arms,
-shake himself, fling back the doors, and look deep into the black
-night. He was such a hearty, open-air being that he seemed to pant at
-intervals for draughts of that strong wind down his throat, for an
-angry splutter of the shot-like rain in his eyes.
-
-When the wind blew in, Gainah, her back creaking and cold with
-rheumatism at the merest draught, would say with acerbity:
-
-“You come from Hartin’, where they have no doors.”
-
-The rustic sarcasm was quite lost on Pamela. She regarded the old woman
-as antiquated, dirty, and even slightly half-witted. All her attention
-centered on Jethro.
-
-When he walked across the room she watched him slyly. She admired him
-very much. He was so big and strong; so independent. The men of her
-acquaintance had always been under orders--Government clerks, and so
-on. Here was a man, savage in his strength, who had never been in
-bondage except to the great Earth. She admired him, but she didn’t love
-him yet.
-
-Love! She would never love him; never. She didn’t want to. She prayed
-that the acrid taste of Love might never sear her lips again. And
-then she thought of the prison. And the cruel wall rose up before her
-blinding eyes, and her quick fingers dropped the pencil and caught
-nervously at her side.
-
-Jethro would come back to the fire and sink luxuriously into the big
-horsehair-covered chair with the protecting ears. He would put out his
-foot in the thick boot and touch the glowing logs. His gun was in the
-corner just as he had left it when he came in tired and muddy from
-pheasant shooting. Pamela was afraid of the gun, but it pleased her. It
-was part of Jethro’s strength and masculinity. So were his careless
-clothes, and so was his blunt Shaksperean tongue. She liked a man to be
-frank, a little coarse even, when the man was Jethro. She once thought
-fancifully that she wouldn’t mind being beaten by a man like that.
-
-She already began to regard him as her own possession. She felt a
-personal pride in him; the very hang of his homespun tweeds on his
-tough, spare body seemed eloquent of sturdy independence.
-
-The yellow firelight glided across the brass rosette-like heads of the
-fire-dogs. They seemed to wink knowingly at every flicker. Now and
-again the two hounds in the barn snarled as an infrequent foot came
-slouching along the wet road, for it was always raining and blowing.
-Rain, mist, and wind! These were the elements which watched over the
-slow, reluctant growth of Pamela’s love for big Jethro.
-
-Sometimes he read a paragraph from the paper to Gainah--about local
-doings or people. Sometimes he would ask her advice--about a sale of
-underwood or the fate of a cow. Sometimes he and Pamela would be left
-alone for a moment, and then they were both shy. Neither of them forgot
-that this was a time of probation. Who knew? When the rain and wind and
-mist of next autumn came they might be man and wife.
-
-Autumn grew to winter. She was happy--with a hushed dull happiness that
-she wished would last forever. No anxieties, no fierce, tearing burst
-of emotion, gay or sad. She was happy; satisfied with the mild
-amusements of the simple family connections. They no longer irritated
-her--these placid, narrow women--slow and heavy, but very useful and
-harmless. She laughed at Mrs. Clutton’s extravagances, but did not
-indorse them. She had become very intimate with the dark, sarcastic
-woman whose husband was abroad.
-
-She had her little excitements--skating parties, small dances,
-occasionally the visit of a dramatic company to Liddleshorn. In this
-way winter went. The last snow melted into a puddle; the first flowers
-of March came. She was delighted with the dazzling white of the arabis.
-Gainah called it snow-on-the-mountains; but Annie Jayne, who brought
-her baby round in the mail-cart on sunny mornings, said that “dear
-mother” had always called it March-pride.
-
-She ran out frequently to look at the thin green spears which begun to
-bristle in the borders: these were her bulbs. She spent long hours in
-her new greenhouse, giving Daborn orders. He was retained exclusively
-for the garden now, at her wish. There wasn’t a weed to be seen, and
-every bed was raked and cleaned.
-
-As the sun strengthened in the sky Gainah grew more silent than ever.
-Spring was here, summer on the way, and she had nothing to do. Pamela
-had taken the keys. The maids went to her for orders. She paid them
-their wages and gave them each an evening out during the week--an
-indulgence which until her coming had never been dreamt of.
-
-Nothing to do! Not wanted! In her idle hours Gainah wandered over the
-rambling house alone, going from room to room, touching things without
-meaning, taking up and putting down; mumbling vaguely to herself. One
-morning she put on her shabby cloth cap--an old one of Jethro’s--and
-went into the garden. It was raining--a soft, warm rain, with the sun
-behind it.
-
-“Good growing weather,” she said to herself with satisfaction--and
-then remembered that the garden had been taken from her.
-
-Winter storms had made the borders draggled in spite of Daborn’s labor
-and Pamela’s enthusiasm. Gainah felt, in a fumbling, wordless way, that
-this garden was like the devastation of her own life. She carried a
-little fork; force of habit had made her get it from the tool-shed. Now
-and then, again from habit, she bent her stiff back to dig out a weed;
-but there were no weeds.
-
-The stalks of the Michaelmas daisies had been left--by Pamela’s orders,
-so that the frost might not get down to the roots. Gainah viewed the
-stiff clumps of brown wood with injury; _her_ rule had been to cut down
-everything in November. She remembered that she had promised a bit of
-white daisy to Chalcraft’s “missus” in exchange for a deep purple one
-with a golden eye--her generosity took the form of barter.
-
-She went round and round in the spraying rain. There was no wind,
-simply a feeling of soft, patient dampness and melancholy in the
-garden. Over the wall was the sodden, empty road, and on the horizon
-the streaming, formless hills.
-
-Her eyes spied out a few self-sown hardy plants in the neatly-raked
-beds. She dropped little fragments of criticism as she went.
-
-“The slugs have been at the ‘reckless’ plants,” she murmured
-regretfully, stooping to look more closely at a clump of sickly
-auricula, which seemed mostly thick stalk.
-
-“There’s a Glory in bud already. I remember old Jethro budding the
-brier. He was a good hand at budding, and it was a wet season, with the
-sap running well, that year. Ah! the Glory Die! John makes a fine head
-on a standard.”
-
-She touched the yellow bud--a little pinched and small--with tender
-fingers. A faint touch of red rushed into her white face.
-
-“That green Yule when she was taken,”--she was thinking of Jethro’s
-mother--“I picked a Glory full out on Christmas morning, and kept it in
-water for more ’n a week. The hard frost came soon after--the hardest
-for forty years. The old sow was frozen stiff in the sty, and Joan
-Wadey’s boy was out digging swedes for old Farmer Scotter, and he set
-down and his breeches turned into ice and burned into his flesh. I mind
-that--and the Glory blooming on the shelf.”
-
-Perhaps it was the memory of the frost and the sow who fell a victim to
-it; at all events, she went round to the piggeries, taking a stick from
-the bristling fagot stack on the way. It had always been one of her
-recreations to stand over the sty and scratch the great rough backs of
-the animals. She did it now, rubbing the stick insinuatingly up and
-down, across and across, and almost fancying that the thick grunts held
-meaning, and that there were appreciation, friendliness, and compassion
-in the small, slitlike eyes that looked up at her.
-
-Then, restless and idle, she went round again to the garden and stood
-staring stupidly at the red, newly graveled paths and the glass of the
-new greenhouse. She could see Daborn inside pricking out seedlings into
-boxes.
-
-There was a weedy patch--the one weedy patch--in a corner of the
-garden. She fetched the spud and began to dig for dandelion-roots. She
-had almost forgotten that she made dandelion-tea every spring and
-insisted on Jethro taking a cup in the morning to clear his liver. She
-took them up, transferring them from her knotted, earth-caked hand to
-her apron. She meant to take them back to the house, wash them, cut
-them up, and infuse them in water for a certain number of hours. But
-halfway along the path she stopped blankly, a sudden thought dismaying
-her. Pamela would not let her make the tea. Scalding childish tears
-rose in her eyes. She felt sure she would not be allowed to make the
-dandelion-tea. She went stumblingly back to the weed-grown patch and
-let the roots drop in a little hill from her apron to the ground. Then
-she looked up, and saw old Chalcraft, who was beginning to trench up
-the farther end. He was leaning idly on his spade, watching her with
-affectionate solicitude. There was a little suspicion mixed with his
-compassion; your true rustic is always distrustful of what he doesn’t
-understand. She, standing there idle, vacant, with a still tongue, was
-a mystery. He didn’t know what blighting thing had touched and turned
-her.
-
-She stood there stupidly, dead to the familiar sounds on the farm--the
-excited cluck of laying hens, two cocks crowing in rivalry, the weak
-bleat of very early lambs in the fold, and the yapping of puppies in
-the barn. She didn’t hear the steady break of stones in the road, nor
-the song of a lark as it rose from the neighboring field.
-
-The weedy patch had last year been sown with beet. Sparrows had eaten
-it--beet on that soil being, with carrots and spinach, a chance crop.
-Chalcraft was digging the weeds in and preparing to make a second
-sowing of broad beans. Pamela had not yet brought her reforming
-intellect to bear on the kitchen-garden; she thought vegetables very
-uninteresting.
-
-The spade was deep in the stiff soil. The piece that Chalcraft had
-already turned up was wet and yellow in contrast to the hard gray of
-the untouched piece. Gainah watched him closely, as if he had been a
-stranger and digging was to her a new and intricate performance. She
-saw his bald head: there was a red, shining wen on one side. There were
-two careful patches, side by side and of a different color and stuff,
-on the back of his waistcoat.
-
-“You’ve got another patch on the back of your waistcoat, Master
-Chalcraft,” she said childishly.
-
-He spat thoughtfully, first on the palms of his hands and then into the
-trench where the weeds were buried. He looked at her--looked with the
-slow wonder of the aged, to whom nothing matters very much. Then he
-said, with a chuckle:
-
-“Aye! so there be! Patch side by side look neighborly, but patch upon
-patch be beggarly, Mis’ Toat.”
-
-She didn’t answer. She still stood in that wavering, uncertain way on
-the other side of the trench.
-
-“The worms in this ’ere patch is past believin’,” he said, with an
-infantile slobber and chuckle, at last, stolidly chopping through the
-writhing bunches.
-
-“It must be nearly dinner-time, Master Chalcraft,” said Gainah
-mechanically, with a steady glare across the trench with her pale eyes.
-
-“Aye, that it be,” he returned rather nervously; “I’ve had mine.”
-
-She turned and went back to the path. He stood and watched her. He was
-conscious, in his slow-witted way, that some queer change had come to
-her. The sun broke through the rain-cloud and touched the silver tip of
-his spade and the hard red lump on his head. He bent his back again and
-turned up slab after slab of sticky ground.
-
-Gainah went round to the front of the house. She had a bed of lilies of
-the valley beneath the umbrella yew. She stooped down behind the wall
-of somber green and saw the tender leaves uncurling. One root already
-had a cluster of snowy buds. Then, as she stooped, she heard a
-voice--the high, imperious voice of Pamela. Looking through the yew,
-she saw her standing by the wall with Jethro. She was talking very
-fast, moving impetuously now and then, throwing out her firm white
-hands, and pointing eagerly.
-
-“It would be the simplest thing in the world. Oh, you must do
-it--_please_. Then the house would look like Turle. You take away the
-gate and build the wall along--so. Then you take up those horrid
-cabbages.” She threw a look of intolerance at the leggy stalks of
-Brussels sprouts which were thickly covered with widely opened
-miniature cabbages.
-
-“Chalcraft likes this patch. It is the richest in the garden, so he
-says. In June the old man will dibble in his cauliflowers; they want a
-rich soil.”
-
-“They’ll grow anywhere; ground is ground,” she cried, with Cockney
-superiority. “You are too indulgent to Chalcraft; he and Gainah are
-past work. They should be pensioned off. She might be allowed to come
-to dinner on Sundays.”
-
-“She has been a mother to me.”
-
-Gainah, behind the yew, her head furtively poked forward, saw the girl
-look at him--a look that said plainly enough:
-
-“And shall not I be your wife? Doesn’t a man leave all and cleave to
-his wife?”
-
-The elder woman’s hands, rubbed over with wet mold which was drying and
-caking, crossed convulsively on her chest. This was not new to
-her--this comedy of love. She had played it, too, with something less
-of fancy. She knew what was coming. She waited, sick at heart, for the
-first kiss. She nearly fell upon the half-opened leaves of the young
-lilies when Jethro dropped his massive head and pointed his lips to
-Pamela’s. Her fingers lost their last hold of the domestic scepter when
-she heard the quick, liquid chirrup of his kiss on the firm scarlet
-flesh.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII.
-
-
-PAMELA ran up to her room with the long, low lattice window and the
-somber furniture. She threw herself full length on the old sofa which
-she had rescued from one of the attics and covered in the most approved
-be-frilled style with cretonne. Her head was back on the cushions, her
-sparkling eyes were on a level with the garden. She looked at the
-Brussels sprouts with satisfaction, imagining shaven emerald turf and
-lozenge-shaped beds of standard roses and geraniums in their place.
-
-She was going to marry Jethro. Their eyes and lips had met--the thing
-was settled. Men did not propose in set words and the conventional
-attitude nowadays. She would marry Jethro. Her future life stretched
-out before her--smooth, level, pleasant--like the big tennis lawn at
-Turle. She thought of all the country houses round where she was sure
-of a hearty welcome because she was a cousin. They were comfortable,
-easy people, these Turles and Crisps and Jaynes and Furlongers. She had
-grown really fond of Nancy, with her simper, her pretty pink face, and
-her glorious red hair. Annie Jayne, in her spick and span nursery with
-her beaming face bent over her baby boy and her lips flowing forth
-pious reminiscences of her mother, had her own particular charm. To be
-simple, to be sterling, that was all one wanted; everything else was
-garish, meretricious. Hearts were better than the flimsy things called
-brains.
-
-She saw her life roll away year after year, so placid, so uneventful,
-so comfortable and prosperous. She loved money for her pleasure, not
-her pocket. She always felt her greatest admiration for Jethro when he
-hauled out a canvas bag of sovereigns.
-
-She began to form social plans. She would be exclusive, yet catholic,
-like Aunt Sophy. Jethro must let her have another servant--that would
-be three. The wagonette must be done up, and she’d try for a Battlesden
-car like Furlonger’s. She’d aim at culture, too--a Browning class, in
-opposition to Mrs. McAlpine’s Shakspere. There wouldn’t be so many
-expurgations necessary. The members of the Shakspere class had neatly
-written slips sent them with a list of passages to be slurred. She
-would like to take a rise out of Mrs. McAlpine, who lived in a cottage,
-but gave herself tremendous airs because she was a J. P.’s daughter,
-and had instituted afternoon tea with cucumber or cress sandwiches.
-
-In the afternoon she slipped on her things and went to the Buttery, the
-ancient cottage where the absentee journalist’s wife lived with a small
-maid. Mrs. Clutton had become her most confidential friend. She didn’t
-mean to mention her engagement, but she was twitching with excitement,
-dragged here and there with emotions of very different sorts.
-
-She went across the common in the March sun and wind. Her heart and
-feet danced, but her face was like the changing sky. Forget! She must
-forget. She was to marry Jethro. It was so easy to say forget, so
-difficult to do it. Once she stopped, her eyes strained in the
-direction of London--far away over moor and hill and sleek pasture. She
-groaned aloud. She knew that she would give it all--greenhouse,
-Battlesden, big, fond man with the bulging bag of sovereigns--for one
-touch on the mouth from one other man. _He_ was still in prison, still
-only a number behind the high wall. When he came out? Emigration or the
-army. But that was not her affair.
-
-When she reached the Buttery she went through the high green trellis
-door into the garden, sure of finding her hostess there on such a day,
-at such a season. It was a fair-sized garden in apple-pie order. The
-long borders were gay. At one end were substantial pig-sties. In them
-Mrs. Clutton kept fowls. She was leaning over the wall, her elbows
-spread out on the wire netting which was nailed across to keep the
-birds from flying over.
-
-She came running excitedly along the neat asphalt path. In one hand she
-held an egg. It was evidently only just laid. It hardened as the air
-touched it.
-
-“Look!” she said with a laugh, “I’m going to give this to the cock.
-What would your thrifty Gainah say? They are all going--my pet
-hens--Flirt and Prim and Sheila. My cock, too--Tatters. Isn’t he a
-fine fellow? But morals! None. They are neurotic. Old Chalcraft says
-they eat their eggs because the floor of the run is brick and they
-can’t scratch. I hate a person who snouts round for a practical
-solution. It’s just environment--because I am their mistress. Tatters
-has been more trouble to me than able-bodied twins. I fed him from the
-very shell with hard-boiled egg and bread-crumb, thereby sowing the
-seed of future vice, no doubt. I’ve scrubbed his legs with carbolic and
-anointed him with vaseline for scaly-leg. I read about it in a paper. I
-came and stood out here, paper in hand, comparing his leg with the
-symptoms. And then, after all, I found that humpy-bumpy legs were
-natural to that particular breed. I was overjoyed at his first
-baby-crow--such a throaty, silly sound.
-
-“To be practical--the eggs went. Every time Flirt or Prim or Sheila
-cackled I rushed out, only to find them stalking gravely up and down
-with an unconscious expression faintly tinged with injury. And then one
-day I saw that villain Tatters gulping down the last bit of shell. I’ve
-sold them at a sacrifice, on condition that they are sent to market and
-not allowed to demoralize another run. Hone will be here directly; he’s
-taking them to Liddleshorn. But--Tatters--here!”
-
-She threw the egg, flinging back her head at the same moment. The cock
-rushed at it. In an instant it was gone, yellow yolk, brown shell,
-stringy white. Mrs. Clutton shrugged and pushed the picturesque black
-hair from her brow. Pamela said, with a laugh:
-
-“Well, you _are_ mad. No one else would have done that.”
-
-“Of course not. I get more and more ridiculous. But what can one do? I
-pay afternoon calls and say mad things. You must shock the people down
-here--it’s your only chance. I’m bound to talk extravagantly. You can’t
-discuss gravely for a whole afternoon whether servants should be
-allowed to wear veils on their afternoons out, or whether it is really
-economical to wash at home. I wonder what Tim’s first impression of me
-will be when he comes home!”
-
-“You expect him soon?”
-
-“Who knows!” She shrugged and led the way into the house. “He’s
-irresponsible. I got these at a sale--and these--and these.” She
-pointed out various ornaments on the shelf of her sitting-room. “And
-Tryphena says that old Mrs. Hillyar is dead. So I shall be able to get
-her tallboys chest of drawers for the merest trifle: collectors have no
-conscience.”
-
-“Does Mr. Clutton care for old things?” Pamela looked round
-intolerantly at the mixed collection of antique furniture and
-bric-a-brac which crowded the room.
-
-“Of course. He is most artistic: master of every art--except that of
-earning a decent living. As for hobbies! He has exhausted them. I
-suggested that paying his debts would be a novel one--a complete
-collection of receipted bills! But the idea didn’t appeal to him. He
-was never afflicted with the form of indigestion called conscience.”
-
-“He’s a journalist?”
-
-“Yes; most brilliant. He assimilates everything--but his food. A
-confirmed dyspeptic; he would have three serious internal diseases in
-one week.”
-
-Tryphena Hone, the little maidservant, brought in tea. The two young
-women sat and chatted until the room grew dark. When the lamp came in,
-it burned steadily. Pamela said:
-
-“Our lamps never burn like that. Yet I see to them myself. Aunt Sophy
-taught me her own particular way of trimming a lamp.”
-
-“My lamp burns well because I never see to it myself. The whole duty of
-the foolish young housekeeper is ‘doing the lamps.’
-
-“I was telling you about Tim.” She seemed in a confidential mood. “He
-was brought up to the profession of great expectations. One’s greatest
-curse is a modest competence. We had it--until Tim’s father died,
-without even leaving him the shilling with which he cut him off. We
-hadn’t a halfpenny. Tim, with his unfailing originality, suggested
-earning a living, but his profession had spoiled him. He was like the
-Irishman who was willing to do anything but work or run errands. I took
-in boarders, but it didn’t pay; I never happened on a _paying_ paying
-guest. He tried journalism; every failure tries that. At last a man on
-a rather prominent paper--worn out with importunities, no
-doubt--shipped him to South America and told him to study
-out-of-the-way sides of things. He paid him for it, too. His articles
-have been a great success. It really seems as if our luck has turned.
-Journalists are short-sighted; the man need not have sent him abroad
-in search of novelty. I could tell strange tales. Every cottage here
-has its skeleton, and I wheedle round the old people until they show
-me the bones. I am making a note-book for Tim--he can write a series
-of articles on Sussex skeletons when he comes home.”
-
-She looked round at her bits of china and brass; at the shabby
-furniture which she had picked up at sales and in odd corners.
-
-“Every little thing,” she said, “has its history. Such tender
-tales--such fierce, curdling, terrible tales--I hear from plodding men
-and heavy women in these little Sussex cottages! And it is all the more
-impressive because they are so phlegmatic. They tell you of a ruined
-life much more calmly than they would tell you of a bad batch of bread
-or a chicken stolen by the fox.”
-
-Pamela was hardly listening. Her feet were on the gleaming rail of the
-pierced brass fender; her eyes thoughtful on the winking coals.
-
-“Do you consider one runs a risk in marrying?” she asked tentatively at
-last.
-
-“No risk--if you marry for the right motive. I haven’t found out what
-that is: not money; not duty--only prigs do their duty; not impulse;
-certainly not love.”
-
-“Can one marry for peace?”
-
-“Maybe. Peace is a great thing; I’ve found that since dear Tim went
-away and took his imaginary incurable troubles with him. I would write
-over every baby girl’s cradle: ‘DON’T MARRY A DYSPEPTIC!’
-
-“Must you really go? Here is Nancy’s latest photograph.” She took it
-from the table. “Of course you have one. Nancy is just the average
-woman--insatiable desire to have herself photographed in evening-dress.
-Nancy is stupid; she actually believed that a Papal Bull was a live
-animal. Just wit enough to dress her magnificent hair according to the
-latest fashion plate--that’s Nancy! She’s callous, too. The other day
-she ran down one of the Peter Buckman children when she was cycling.
-She only said calmly that it ‘was bad for the wheel.’ Fortunately the
-child wasn’t hurt.”
-
-Pamela went home in bright moonlight; it was only a stone’s throw from
-the Buttery to Folly Corner.
-
-She thought calmly of her future as she walked: the moon, the sweet,
-crisp March night cooled and stilled her. She was not going to marry
-for love. To marry for love had once been the dear dream of her life.
-But that was over; the prison had engulfed her poor romance--it had
-been a mean one at the best. It was all over--the first wild, keen
-shame and rebellion, the steadfast belief in him, the passionate
-waiting for the future. It was all over--dead. She was going to marry
-Jethro; going to take refuge in his kindliness--as if he were a wayside
-barn on a wet day. She meant to be a good wife, a happy wife. Nothing
-was more contemptible than a tiresome, melancholy woman with a past.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII.
-
-
-SHE was loitering in the drawing-room next morning when Jethro came in.
-There was a strong touch of out-door sweetness about him. He was not
-one of those men who smell of hot rooms and tobacco.
-
-He went up and kissed her, taking her fair round face reverently in his
-hands as a matter of course. She was thrilled, not with love, but with
-pleasure at the open adoration in his light blue eyes. His great hands
-placed gently under her chin, his fine head well set on his broad
-shoulders, and his big limbs in the breeches and gaiters, stirred in
-her the primitive passion of woman for brute strength in a man.
-
-He threw himself on the couch and blinked lazily at the gewgaws of the
-room, which his very presence always made so trivial. Then he lugged
-out his worn brown pocket-book and took from it a slip of paper roughly
-torn from a newspaper. Directly she saw it Pamela’s cheeks blazed, and
-the same agonized shame and degradation which she had felt on her first
-visit to that room she felt then.
-
-“Come here.”
-
-He spoke gently, yet with command; the voice of a man who after
-marriage will tell his wife to fetch his slippers or his pipe, as if
-service were a matter of course.
-
-She stepped into the great embrasure of the bay window and sat down on
-the green-covered walnut-wood chair--just as she had sat down on the
-first day. Her eyes looked straight ahead, not at ripe grain, but at
-the burning purple of furrowed earth.
-
-Jethro touched her idle hand with the privileged tenderness of an
-accepted lover.
-
-“You are a slipped thing,” he said fondly.
-
-“Slipped?”
-
-“Slender, then. I always fancied a woman with a trim, hard waist like
-yours. But I came to talk business.”
-
-He held out the roughly torn bit of newspaper.
-
-“Tear it up,” she said thickly.
-
-Her head hung on her bosom and her eyes fell until the lashes rested on
-her flaming skin.
-
-“Not yet.”
-
-She put out her hand to snatch it from him, with the wicked, stealthy
-air of a cat after a bird. Until that shameful bit of paper was
-destroyed her womanhood was vulgarized.
-
-“Give it me,” she besought humbly.
-
-He laid it in her open hand and she tore it into minute bits, opened
-the casement, and cast it out. The wind caught it, carried it, and shed
-it like snowflakes over the ridged furrows.
-
-“We needn’t wait long for the wedding,” he said, as she latched the
-casement and came back to the green chair.
-
-It pleased him to watch her changing face, now pink like Nancy’s,
-now white like the hidden skin on his own arms and chest.
-
-“When you like,” she returned docilely--thinking it would be better to
-settle soon.
-
-“And I’ve drawn you a check--a year’s salary and a year more instead of
-notice,” he continued, twisting up his face into cunning wrinkles with
-satisfaction at his own artifice. “Take Aunt Sophy with you into
-Liddleshorn and buy clothes.”
-
-She took the strip of paper, her eyes dilating at the magnificence of
-the amount.
-
-“You are a great deal too good to me.”
-
-“When we are married,” he went on, pressing her hand jovially, “I’ll
-make any alterations about the place you like. But the carriage drive
-must wait till winter--hedging and ditching time; labor’s cheap then.
-How about inside?”
-
-“I should like a bath-room.”
-
-“You shall have it. And nurseries.” His voice was perfectly
-matter-of-fact. “The two sunny rooms up top will do. I’ll have bars to
-the windows; it’s as well to be ready.”
-
-“Not too ready,” she said faintly, hardly knowing whether to retreat or
-to laugh.
-
-“A son,” Jethro said dreamily, “to come beating with me when shooting’s
-on. They soon grow up. He shall have a little horse and ride to hounds.
-We say in these parts about a woman’s children:
-
- “If ye’ve got one, ye can run. If ye’ve got two, ye can goo.
- But if ye’ve got three ye must bide where ye be.”
-
-She got up nervously, not knowing whether he would be betrayed into
-rustic sayings yet more suggestive.
-
-“I’d like to go to Liddleshorn to-morrow,” she said, folding the check
-in her purse. “There will be time before dinner to run over to Turle
-and see if Aunt Sophy can come with me--if you wish it.”
-
-“She’s a splendid manager.”
-
-“Very well. I’ll take her and Nancy. What are you doing this morning?
-We might go to Turle together.”
-
-“I must see Boyce”--(he was the cowman)--“about those newly dropped
-lambs. He thought maybe you’d like a sock.”
-
-“A what?”
-
-“A sock--pet lamb.”
-
-“That would be nice--but, when it grew a sheep?”
-
-“You could send it to the butcher.”
-
-“Never. Tell Boyce, with thanks for his remembrance, I’d rather not.
-Well, good-by until dinner.”
-
-She ran upstairs, humming complacently, and in a leisurely way put on
-her short skirt and narrow-brimmed hat. Through her window she saw
-Jethro cross the garden and stroll into the yard, his broad shoulders
-proudly back and his hands deep in his breeches pockets. Her heart
-swelled with satisfaction--in him and in the broad acres, plowed or
-pasture, and in the beautifully built golden ricks which hedged the
-house. Everything was hers.
-
-She went downstairs. Gainah, for the first time for ten years, had
-gone out for the day to see an old friend some miles up the line.
-Pamela thought that the house seemed more like home, more her own,
-without the elder woman, and she began to speculate on the time when
-Folly Corner would no longer roof them both.
-
-She stood in the passage by the window. Gainah’s geraniums, preserved
-from frost in the kitchen all through the winter, were blooming. The
-future mistress decided that she would banish them. She had not reached
-the altitude of admiring an earthenware pot. Then she glanced at the
-wall, at the rude prints in narrow black frames. Mrs. Clutton had been
-enthusiastic about them, saying they were “Bunbury’s”--which meant
-nothing to Pamela. She couldn’t endure those fat women in low dresses,
-and those men with wigs and lewd expressions.
-
-She sat down in the armchair by the oak table, idly putting
-on her gloves. There was a hand-bell on the table--one of her
-institutions--together with a smart tray for letters. The blue Oriental
-bowl, instead of being littered with string and screwed envelopes, was
-reserved for cards, and in place of the farming papers was the current
-copy from the library of the most cultured magazine then running its
-brief life. She thought that the extraordinary cover struck a
-distinctive note directly one entered the house.
-
-The kitchen door was at the other end of the passage, immediately
-opposite the drawing-room. It was ajar. She was just stretching her
-gloved hand to the bell, to tell them that Daborn might bring round
-her bicycle, when a man’s voice struck on her heart.
-
-At first she half struggled to her feet, and they failed her. Then she
-fell back in the chair helplessly, like a woman with an overstrained
-spine. That voice! _His_ voice! No. It couldn’t be. There was very
-little in a voice; each individual had not the monopoly of one. Now, a
-face would be different. How absurd she was! The dates did not agree.
-She had a head for dates, and that one--the date of his release--had
-eaten into her brain like an acid into metal. It was too soon.
-
-The air through the open window--she had opened it herself only a
-minute ago, before the world changed--was warm. The full red heads of
-the geraniums nodded heavily with occasional puffs of vigorous March
-wind. It was a warm, noisy world. The beseeching, persistent bleat of
-the little new lambs rung like a mournful bell with every second, and
-through it filtered the confused song of every madly happy bird that
-had mated and built a nest.
-
-She put out her hand again for the bell, calling herself a fanciful,
-nervous fool. As she gripped the handle she heard the voice
-again--persuasive, winning. Hadn’t she often heard it like that? It
-said:
-
-“You can have one by very easy payments.”
-
-The bell fell on the table, rolled off, and clanged its noisy tongue as
-it touched the oak floor. The pretty, ruddy housemaid came in, looked
-flurried. She left the kitchen door wide behind her, and Pamela saw
-the well-scrubbed table, the gleaming brass preserving-pan on top of an
-oak corner cupboard in which candles, soaps, and so on were stored. She
-could, with the tail of her eye, see the back door leading to the
-flagged yard, and she seemed to feel that he was standing there.
-Certainly someone was there, because the sheep dog, who was so savage
-on the chain, barked angrily.
-
-“I want my bicycle,” she said as calmly as she could, “and, Nettie, who
-is that at the back door?”
-
-“A piker--I beg pardon, miss--a tramp. Yet not just a piker; he never
-begged. But he wants me and Cook to buy a sewing-machine, paying it off
-by little bits each month.”
-
-“I shouldn’t like the noise of a sewing-machine in the kitchen.”
-
-“Then I’ll tell him to go away.”
-
-“Nettie.”
-
-“Yes, miss.”
-
-“I was just going to say that--I forget. I remember--you need not speak
-to Daborn about the bicycle for a few moments. I’ll go into the garden
-and find him myself.”
-
-“Very well, miss.”
-
-The buxom figure of the country girl in her deep pink gown went round
-the half-opened door. Pamela sat, her head against the wall, a sound
-like the thudding, throbbing noise of an engine-room in her head and at
-her waist. Suddenly she stretched out her hand and rang the bell again.
-The housemaid came round the door for the second time, looking a little
-surprised.
-
-“Has he gone?”
-
-“No, miss. Cook’s going to have a machine--not to work here, miss.
-She’s to be married next club day.”
-
-“I should like to see him. Perhaps the machines are good and cheap.
-Tell him to step through.”
-
-The pink figure disappeared again and she waited--sick, expectant,
-dreading; disgusted with herself for the half delight which she felt, a
-delight which nearly swamped the fear.
-
-He came through the door and they shut it after him. There was no
-mistake. Her ears had not played her false. Directly he saw her sitting
-there, beneath the row of black-framed prints, beside the shining brown
-table which held the great bowl of blue, he gave a start, a whistle of
-astonishment, and said under his breath:
-
-“Pam!”
-
-She looked at him for an instant--cropped hair, shoddy clothes, blunted
-nails, the evasive stamp of something new and perplexing on his
-handsome face:
-
-“Edred!”
-
-She was looking apprehensively down the long garden path which ran
-between the box edgings. Jethro might come in. Then she again turned
-her eyes with an effort toward the tall figure in the deplorable suit
-of ginger-colored tweed. In spite of herself, an expression of ecstasy
-broke across the cloud above her eyes. She half rose, put out her hand,
-peaked her head toward him. He gave a quick glance round; listened.
-Everything was still, but for the lambs and birds and insects; no sound
-of human life, no clink or clatter from the kitchen. He stepped up
-lithely to the chair, lifted her in his long arms, and kissed her--a
-long kiss which told volumes--full on the mouth. With that kiss,
-fully returned, each told the history of the weary months the prison
-had stolen.
-
-She let herself lie for a moment in his arms, caring for nothing in the
-world but that first re-union which she had so often imagined, so often
-longed for. Then she roused herself.
-
-“Why did you come?” she said reproachfully. “Oh, my darling, why did
-you come and spoil everything?”
-
-He shrugged.
-
-“We don’t know that anything is spoilt yet. I wouldn’t stand in your
-light for worlds. Tell me how you came here. Give me my cue.”
-
-“Come into the other room. We shall be quieter there.”
-
-He followed her through the low door into the room which the yew
-shadowed. They were no longer in the sun; something damp, melancholy,
-and threatening struck at them both.
-
-“Sit down,” she said, pointing nervously to a chair, taking one
-herself, and throwing a quick glance at the brass face of the tall
-clock. “I--I didn’t know you were out. I thought that it would be
-another six months----”
-
-He stuck out his long legs and sunk his hands in his pockets. He was
-tall and slim and elegant. At each gesture she was more than ever
-his slave--it brought back remembrance. Her eyes hardly left his
-face--dark, sallow, cruel. A sardonic-looking man, with silky black
-hair half veiling his scoffing mouth, and sleepy eyes which seemed
-always to be mocking.
-
-“Haven’t you ever heard,” he asked airily, “of a ticket-of-leave?”
-
-She shivered as she answered, well down in her dry throat, “I think
-so.”
-
-“Tell me how you came here, and what part I’m expected to play. I’m
-down on my luck at present, and you may be able to help me. Look at
-these clothes.” He touched the sacklike cloth. “Nothing but paper. The
-first shower would reduce me to pulp.”
-
-“I came here,” she said, “in answer to an advertisement. A man--the man
-who owns this house--wanted a wife.”
-
-“Whew! Such is the faithfulness of woman! But it was clever of
-you--confoundedly clever.”
-
-“Don’t! It nearly killed me. He is so kind, so fond of me. He believes
-I am his cousin--his mother was a Crisp. There are other confirming
-details. Very likely I _am_ his cousin--that doesn’t matter. They have
-all been kind--my new relations. They think that he advertised for
-information about his mother’s brother--who disappeared in early
-life--and that I, as a surviving child, answered. They never troubled
-for fuller proof; they take my word----”
-
-“Very useful people!”
-
-“That flippant tongue of yours,” she flashed out, “brings back bitter
-memories.”
-
-“Never mind memories--no time for them. Go on with your story. At
-present I’m uncomfortable; don’t know my ground. If he should come
-in----”
-
-“Jethro!” She looked alarmed, and seemed to strain her ears for outside
-sounds.
-
-“Queer name. Jethro--what?”
-
-“Jayne.”
-
-“Jethro Jayne! He ought to be the villain in a melodrama--wicked squire
-or something of that sort. And are you going to marry him, Pam?”
-
-She caught her hands across her breast theatrically.
-
-“I--I don’t know. You have changed everything.”
-
-“Not at all. I’ll free you. I’m not”--he gave his soft, callous
-laugh--“in a position to keep a wife, and he is. As Mrs. Jethro Jayne
-you might be very useful to me.”
-
-“As Mrs. Jethro Jayne I dare not look at you.”
-
-“Pooh! You were always too intense. Marry him and help me. That would
-be the act of a sensible woman. You are quite free.”
-
-“Absolutely free,” she assented dreamily, looking a little wildly at
-the handsome face.
-
-She was free; in no sense was she tied to him. She wasn’t in his power;
-he couldn’t rake up against her any discreditable past. This was not
-the stock position of the sensational drama--confiding husband,
-blackmailing lover, wife with unclean or imprudent past. She was free,
-free, free! Free to order him away from the house and out of her
-life. If Jethro came in she could afford to tell the truth. There was
-nothing wrong in it.
-
-And yet, hating herself all the time, because she knew he wasn’t
-worthy, she adored this dark-haired cynical ex-criminal. His prison
-taint, marked elusively on his face, only made her yearn over him the
-more. Free! And yet chained like a slave. She cursed and despised
-herself for the contemptible, dog-like devotion which a true woman
-calls love. She couldn’t send him away. She couldn’t live without him.
-She wanted him to kiss her again, to call her Pam in that careless,
-caressing voice. Jethro was nothing--but a good-natured money-bag. This
-man had been the first to stir in her some wonderful, untamable
-passion. She was insisting to her heart that a woman must always love
-the _first_, return to him, cleave to him, however unworthy he may be.
-
-There were steady steps outside. Someone was coming round the house,
-brushing the wall across which the vine spread its stout arms. She knew
-the step. She knew the melodious whistle. It was Jethro. She pictured
-him coming in his leisurely way round to the garden door, little
-dreaming; his hands stuck in the pockets of his shooting breeches, his
-cap a little tilted over his eyes to keep the hard March sun out.
-
-She sprang to her feet. The man sprang up too. He had heard the steps
-before she heard them. His life had been one that lent itself to
-stealth and minute caution. He knew that the next moment would decide
-her, and consequently would decide his fate. He had no claim on
-her--she might turn him adrift if she chose, as he had reminded her.
-And he much preferred to stay. Lucky accident had brought him here.
-Selling sewing-machines by easy payments at the back door was not a
-life to his taste.
-
-The steady, leisurely steps grew more distinct. The two--desperate girl
-and desperate man--were close, eye to eye. With a fleet movement he
-folded his arms about her and kissed her for the second time on the
-mouth. She whispered fiercely, as soon as she got her breath:
-
-“When I came--that first day--he asked me if I had brothers or sisters.
-I thought of you--you were never out of my head. Something,
-someone--God or the devil--made me say I had a brother, a sailor on a
-long voyage. You understand?”
-
-“Perfectly.” He nodded his head approvingly. “Now sit down, darling,
-and leave off trembling.”
-
-The long, broad shadow of a man fell across the floor from the open
-door to the plinth of the tall clock. It stopped on the threshold.
-Pamela’s feet, which had turned numb and cold, were set fast. She tried
-to get up unconcernedly, but could only grip her hands round the curved
-arms of the rush-seated chair of golden beechwood. The last remnant of
-a struggle was fighting itself out within her. Should she stand up and
-say:
-
-“I knew this man once. He boarded at the house where I was an
-assistant. He made love to me. I was flattered and I responded--but
-that was nothing. It was all over long ago. Send him away and let us be
-happy together as we have settled to be.”
-
-Should she say that? Should she tell the bald, mean, ugly truth?
-
-They were both looking at her--these two men who between them held the
-strings of her future. Jethro’s light eyes were a bit cold and hard. He
-was suspicious, like all simple men. She said, putting one hand stiffly
-toward the companion beechwood chair:
-
-“This is my brother----”
-
-She broke off, a nervous dread sealing her lips. She had nearly said
-“my brother Edred,” and then she could not remember whether, at that
-first interview in the big bay window, she had given him a name.
-
-“My brother--the sailor,” she went on falteringly, her stiff hand still
-out, like the wooden arm of a signal, toward the chair in which he sat
-looking carelessly nonchalant. “He has come home from sea. His ship,”
-she seemed to see the suspicion deepen on Jethro’s open face as he
-glanced at the visitor’s rough hands and cheap suit, “was wrecked.”
-
-“The _Matador_--wrecked off the coast of West Africa. I was second
-officer. A Dutch vessel ran into us. Made off without offering to help.
-That’s like those cowardly Dutchmen. I was hanging on to a mast for ten
-hours. Everything I had in the world gone, of course.”
-
-The lies rolled glibly off his ready tongue. Pamela felt her cheeks
-flame as if hot irons had brushed them. She did not look up. Let these
-two settle her fate between themselves.
-
-Jethro took a wide stride into the room and put out his brown hand.
-
-“Glad to see you,” he said with simple heartiness. “Glad to see any of
-my mother’s people at Folly Corner.”
-
-After that they went on talking. She didn’t hear a word--only the
-amicable voices. That Edred was smoothly lying she felt sure; that
-Jethro was taking every word as solemnly as he took his Bible or the
-advice of his head man she felt equally sure. They were so simple, so
-true, these Sussex folk. They had taken her on trust. They would take
-him on trust too--this unscrupulous jail-bird, her lover, hero, the
-wrecker of her life.
-
-Why couldn’t she stand up and say:
-
-“We are both liars and impostors. He is no sailor; merely a shady city
-man who has just served his time for dishonesty”?
-
-He was talking cleverly of the sea, using nautical terms, fashioning
-his sentences tersely and rudely like a bluff sailor. What a clever,
-heartless villain he was--and how she loved him!
-
-Nettie came in to lay the cloth for dinner. Pamela got up and walked
-across the room mechanically, beckoning to the maid to follow.
-
-When they were outside in the sunny, narrow corridor she said--looking
-steadily into the girl’s unexpressive eyes:
-
-“That gentleman is my brother--Mr. Edred Crisp.”
-
-“The piker!--oh, miss, I ask your pardon.”
-
-“He is a sailor,” Pamela went on steadily, “and he was wrecked. He went
-through dreadful hardships. Everything he had was lost at sea. He was
-obliged to sell machines for a living. It was quite by accident that he
-happened to come here and find me.”
-
-“It was Providence sent him, miss.”
-
-“Yes, Providence--of course. And you will lay for one extra at dinner,
-and you will get the best room ready.”
-
-“To be sure I will, miss. Wrecked at sea! Whatever will Cook say when I
-tells her?”
-
-“And Nettie.”
-
-“Yes, miss. How pale you look, miss! It’s shook you, and no wonder.”
-
-“Here are the keys. Get out some little things for dessert. I’ve told
-you how to manage for dessert. And the best table linen--and everything
-of the best.”
-
-“To be sure, miss.”
-
-She went back to the parlor. It struck a gray note after the stream of
-hopeful sun in the corridor. The yew--impenetrable, glistening,
-green--blocked the latticed window; logs on the yawning brick hearth
-had broken in the middle amid a wreck of wood-ash. She dropped on her
-knees and began to ply the bellows. Presently the smoke and flames
-curled blue and yellow round the wood, and reflected on her face,
-remorselessly showing the careworn line of her mouth and the hopeless
-droop of her lids. Edred had taken a piece of paper from his pocket
-and was drawing a pretended plan of something--it didn’t matter
-what--lies, of course--and he was talking glibly of the different parts
-of a ship and the habits of the natives off the coast of West Africa.
-Her hands moved softly on the bellows, and the gentle plaintive
-“shoo-shoo” as they puffed made a sad accompaniment to that
-high-pitched, eager voice and the occasional slow, mellow note of
-Jethro’s.
-
-He was talking in his innocence of his mother’s brother. He spoke of
-the other uncle--Thomas--who had also been a sailor. He said that a
-love of the sea was evidently in the Crisp blood. And then he added
-heartily that he hoped Edred would make a long stay; the place was
-large enough and there was always a home for kindred. Pamela said
-nothing. She looked round fitfully from time to time. She blew the
-bellows more vigorously, with a fancy that the ruddy light should fall
-on those two faces near the table--one big and ruddy and restful, the
-other dark, sallow, full of a guilty, eager brilliance.
-
-She could hardly breathe. Her heart was playing her such mad pranks. At
-one moment she could feel nothing but the most lawless, unrestrained
-delight at Edred’s return to her--in any circumstance. At the next she
-felt a profound pity for her own extraordinary position and the sudden
-sinister twirl of her fortunes. On Jethro she bestowed only one
-emotion, and that--mild contempt. The queer feminine twist--small
-regard for the man who blindly loves and is gulled--was strong in
-her. She had illogically looked to him to get her out of her
-difficulty. He was, in his ignorance, making things harder; he was
-placidly wrecking his own life. He loved her. She would have made him a
-good wife; she had a very grateful regard for him. If only she had gone
-to Turle ten minutes before! If she had been quicker in changing her
-gown! If, if, if! The little word, which sometimes means so much more
-than the very biggest in the language, chimed in her racked head.
-
-How should she shape her course? Edred’s nautical sentences, coming to
-her now and then in a nonsensical jumble, disposed her to a sailor’s
-simile. With him under the same roof, with him in daily association,
-she could see only one thing possible--elopement with him when, if
-ever, he chose to suggest it. One kiss on the mouth from him would take
-her from Jethro, even at the moment when she stood with that confiding,
-admirable simpleton at the altar steps. One kiss, she shuddered, would
-win her from Jethro even if she were his wife of years’ standing.
-Contemptible, animal, womanly devotion!
-
-Nettie came in again and lingered curiously, staring at the visitor.
-She had taken off her pink cotton and put on her black stuff, with the
-white collar and cuffs. The lappets of her cap floated to her neat
-waist. Pamela, with disgust, saw Edred look at her approvingly. She had
-often seen him look like that at any pretty parlor-maid they happened
-to have at the boarding-house. It was a low type of man who would
-smirk at a servant. He was really very vulgar; he hadn’t one good
-quality. And yet--she wished that big, stupid Jethro would leave them
-alone for a moment!
-
-She hung the bellows on the nail and scrambled to her feet.
-
-“You’d like to come up to your room,” she said, her pleading gray eyes
-on the flushed dark face and her feet moving toward the door.
-
-He got up with alacrity. The ginger tweeds he wore were too short at
-the arms and legs, too wide across the back, but nothing could make him
-look anything but carelessly elegant. He had the lethargic air of the
-true Piccadilly product--the men you jostle by the dozen on the
-pavement there, who have just life enough and energy enough to put on
-an immaculate frock-coat, with a wired flower in the buttonhole.
-
-They went up the oak stairs and into the best spare room. Pamela shut
-the door.
-
-“It’s a bigger room than I’ve been accustomed to,” he said, with a
-shrug of his thin shoulders and a bitter smile.
-
-“If you were more ashamed,” she said, trying to let condemnation get
-the stronger hold of her, “I should be more pleased. You are not
-ashamed; you are not silent.”
-
-“Why should I be? To be found out is a blunder. I am annoyed, that’s
-all. I was a catspaw--in other words, a fool. Overent and Bladden both
-got off to Spain: £40,000 in the cab that took them to Victoria! What
-luck! I tell you, Pamela, the thought of those two fellows nearly
-drove me to suicide when I was in prison. But the game isn’t up----”
-
-She gave a little scream; then, in a fright, put her hand on her mouth.
-
-“But you’ll never again----”
-
-“Pooh! my darling--business is business. Bogus company promoting is as
-honest a profession as--stock-broking, for example, or making a corner.
-Suppose the gold-fields, or diamond-fields, or petroleum-wells _don’t_
-exist--that’s business. If not, where is the use of fools? The small
-capitalist must have been created with some object.”
-
-“You are hopeless. I dread to think of what the end may be. At all
-events”--she moved her head toward the door and tapped her foot softly
-on the floor--“you’ll leave him alone.”
-
-“I’ll be a pattern. As for him--there is nothing left for me to do. I
-leave him entirely to you. Marry him. Perhaps you know a pretty girl
-with a little fortune who would suit me.”
-
-She thought of Nancy, and immediately an unreasoning, murderous
-jealousy of that pink-faced, foolish thing took possession of her. She
-sat down on the low window-seat. The casement was hooked back, and the
-new shoots of ivy tickled her chin as she leaned out with a tired groan
-and looked down at the glistening garden. Then she pulled herself back
-to every-day detail with a jerk, and got up, saying that she would send
-him up what was necessary--brushes, soap, and so on. The room had
-not yet been prepared. The silk quilt was spread gauntly over a
-blanketless bed. Edred was looking at it and at the dim hangings with
-idle interest.
-
-“You don’t often see a bed like this nowadays,” he said.
-
-“It is a state bed, in a way. They were all born in it; they all die in
-it. Full of ghosts! I’d rather you slept in it than I.”
-
-“I’m inured to them--the prison’s full. Not the ghosts of small
-capitalists who come wringing their hands for their swamped savings;
-only women and weaklings see ghosts of that kind. It was one ghost of
-lost opportunity--that tormented me; the ghost of £40,000 collared by
-Overent and Bladden, who were a shade more clever than I was.”
-
-She took up a corner of the patchwork quilt.
-
-“It is made,” she said dreamily, “from bits of wedding dresses. Each
-bride contributed her patches. It is a pretty idea--the people about
-here are full of fancies.”
-
-“You’ll be contributing your patches before long,” he said airily. “By
-Jove! I, as only brother, must give you away. We never imagined that
-particular position in the old days, Pam.”
-
-“I don’t admit it now.” She shook her pale head. “Oh, why did you come?
-Why am I fool enough to love you?”
-
-“No heroics, dear. I’m fond of you--too fond to stand in your light. I
-won’t dispute that I’ve some regard for myself, too. Run away now and
-send me a few things. I want to make myself as decent as these
-confounded clothes will allow.”
-
-She went away. Directly Jethro heard her foot on the stairs he called
-her, in a masterful way, just as if she already belonged to him.
-
-He said, his face shining with hospitality and kinsmanship, how pleased
-he was. He spoke of driving Edred over to Turle that very day, but she
-negatived it as skillfully as she could. Then he spoke heartily of the
-wedding and of Edred’s opportune arrival. She was afraid that he meant
-to kiss her again; he seemed prone to hearty lover’s kisses, without
-considering mood or asking for permission. Nettie, bearing a steaming
-soup tureen, saved her.
-
-The gong--one of her civilized institutions--was beaten. Edred came
-humming down the shallow stairs. The three took their seats at the low,
-narrow table--Jethro on the high master’s stool at one end, Pamela on
-the other, Edred modestly at the side.
-
-Both men ate and talked heartily, Pamela childishly crumbled bread in
-her soup. When the meal was over she left them; decanters on the table,
-the smoke of tobacco mingling with the smoke from the fire. She went
-into the gay drawing-room and stretched flat on the sofa.
-
-She looked at the trivial vanities which she had brought home so
-joyfully from Liddleshorn. She looked, as Gainah had looked, with
-somber eyes. Her life was wrecked too. She would never be the mistress
-of Folly Corner now.
-
-Through the stout doors came the men’s laughter. Edred’s became more
-roystering as the minutes ticked on. She could hear in the intervals
-the steady stroke of the clock, the rumbling groan it gave before it
-delivered itself of the quarters.
-
-Her arms were above her head, her widely-opened eyes looked across the
-hot purple furrows of the field. She could see a long way, over hedges,
-across copses. She saw stretches of pasture, dotted with cows; saw
-verdant fields of rye-grass; fields of turnips half devoured by sheep,
-which were shut in by hurdles.
-
-The sun shone, the birds sang, one or two adventurous bees came in at
-the window. Every now and then that laugh of license, of reckless
-disregard, pierced the thick doors, and she blenched. She could no
-longer see the future.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IX.
-
-
-AUNT SOPHY was giving her first garden party of the season--to her
-second-best set. That meant a family gathering, with the Jeremy Crisps
-left out. Maria Furlonger drew the line at the Jeremy Crisps, and said
-she did her duty to them as a relative by buying groceries at their
-father’s shop.
-
-Edred was to go with Pamela. He was already a local favorite. He had
-all the qualities which commend themselves to country society. He could
-sing, play tennis, do conjuring tricks at the local entertainments.
-
-Jethro wasn’t going; men with a serious occupation were never even
-asked. Aunt Sophy collected her men painfully; a town failure or so,
-who happened to be trying poultry farming or fruit culture--having
-tried everything else of which he knew anything whatever; the curate;
-one or two old gentlemen who had retired from something or the other,
-one or two young ones who admired a particular girl.
-
-Pamela ran out to the barn before she started. Jethro was at the door,
-with a couple of half-bred retrievers at his heels and a trio of
-mongrel pups that he was training for sheep-dogs gamboling in the muck
-of the yard.
-
-The vast proportions of the barn--the biggest and oldest for many
-miles round--were a fitting background for Jethro with his muscular
-frame and fair, sun-seared face. He was so English, so brown, so spare.
-There was nothing of the student’s pallor and stoop about him--no
-irritating subtlety. There was no furrow in his face, no ridge of
-superfluous flesh, no mark of painful thought. It was all tough muscle.
-Pamela looked at him admiringly, her desire going out to strength and
-health and simplicity of life and motive. The clean shocks of yellow
-straw in the barn, the dirty, trodden straw in the yard, agreed well
-with his blue checked shirt and tan waistcoat; with his voluminous
-checked tie, made in the time-honored rustic fashion. His father had
-worn such ties and _his_ father before him. What had been seemly in
-“Old Jethro” was seemly in “Young Jethro”; that was the spirit of Folly
-Corner. It was a blue check tie made out of half a silk handkerchief,
-cut cornerwise and deftly folded into proper shape by the iron. His
-sleeves were rolled to the elbow, showing his delicately textured upper
-arm. He had been helping his men with some necessary job--he was a
-master, by heredity, of all the intricate sublime art of agriculture.
-She said:
-
-“We are going now. I wish you could come too.”
-
-As she spoke, a loud angry hiss came from behind the house. It was like
-the threatening bubble of a pot that is boiling too fast.
-
-“Chalcraft is taking a starling’s nest,” Jethro said. “Tell Aunt Sophy
-I may be up after tea.”
-
-He turned into the barn, through the dim shadow of which she could see
-two men, Peter Hone and another. She turned to go back through the
-yard, placing the points of her shoes carefully on the ground so that
-she might not soil above the toe-cap. Edred was leaning over the white
-paling and watching her gingerly progress with amusement.
-
-“Beastly dirty place, isn’t it?” he said, sneering and glancing down at
-the trodden straw. “I say, what a jolly dance you could have in that
-great barn! Do you remember the dance I took you to at Westminster Town
-Hall?”
-
-She nodded, hardly glancing at his slim, foppish figure. He was tinsel
-compared to Jethro--Jethro with his muscular arms bared amid the golden
-straw of his barn. She saw poetry in the vast gray place, with its
-dusty, murky rafters; to Edred it only suggested a subscription dance
-and Westminster Town Hall. For the moment she preferred Jethro, with
-his white strong throat.
-
-They went down the road and through the wood, talking commonplaces.
-Edred had been nearly three months at Folly Corner, and one cannot for
-three months keep up the strain of a dramatic attitude. Pamela still
-had her moments of anguish, of struggle--but she no longer talked about
-those moments. She waited with turgid, stupid hopelessness for what the
-future might fling at her. She drifted; the matter had been taken
-completely out of her hands. She was--so she understood--to be married
-to Jethro directly the harvest was in: until the harvest was in, she
-allowed herself time to breathe. She was garnering up strength.
-
-The woods were in their fullest flush of beauty. The anemones were
-widely blown, with the quiet watchfulness which comes before death. The
-heavy heads of the blue-bells were voluptuous. Here and there one
-caught the deep yellow of the oxlip; snowy stitchwork was a delicate
-groundwork to every leaf and flower.
-
-No feet but their own disturbed the silence. Jethro was savage on the
-rights of property, and this was his land. No old woman might pick up
-sticks, no child gather wild-flowers in his preserves. They were small;
-he was fond of saying scornfully that he was a working farmer, not a
-rich yard-stick from London. He did not make pheasants the sole
-business of October, and what he shot he ate or gave away. The contents
-of his bag never went to market.
-
-He had the grasping spirit of the farmer who flourished in the early
-years of the century, in the roaring times before Parish Councils and
-educated, supercilious cockneys, keen on rights of way. He would, when
-the opportunity occurred, put a padlocked, five-barred gate across a
-little-used public path. He cunningly inclosed wayside waste, doing it
-gradually; grubbing the old hedge, bringing his newly planted,
-carefully clipped one to the edge of the road. He honestly believed
-that he was doing a good act; in his view, all waste land was wasted
-land, and he would have had the Government parcel out the commons to
-farmers for redemption.
-
-Edred kept his eyes on the ground and grumbled at the deep yellow ruts
-made in winter by timber wagons and horses’ hoofs. But Pamela forgot
-her dainty shoes, the edge of her new skirt, with the tiny frills. She
-looked ardently at every new beauty which slid before her
-eyes--bursting twigs, drifted blossom, dry, feathery fagots tied into
-bundles, little heaps of creamy wood chips; the hacked hedge-rows and
-banks, with the warm orange of the amputated tree-trunks.
-
-It was early June. The day was so hot and dry that when they reached
-Turle they could see from the road that even careful matrons like Aunt
-Sophy were sitting about the big sloping lawn without even a shawl.
-They made little groups--like modern pictures of the ladies in the
-“Decameron.”
-
-Nancy came running across the lawn, her heavy red-ringed croquet mallet
-in her hand. She had a loose flannel shirt and her cycling skirt with
-the big smoked pearl buttons at each hip.
-
-“A cycling skirt always makes a girl look coarse,” Edred murmured
-critically.
-
-Pamela gave him a pleased glance; she loved to hear him depreciate
-Nancy.
-
-“Oh! do come and play!” cried the girl, addressing herself pointedly to
-Edred. “We are making up a fresh set. Croquet is such fun.”
-
-Pamela, the thin stream of gall flowing from her heart, saw him return
-Nancy’s pleading, babyish glance tenderly. She turned away. She took
-Aunt Sophy’s effusive kiss without a word, only assuring her that she
-hadn’t a headache.
-
-Egbert Turle, who had left Cambridge and was walking the hospital,
-nodded with patronage from his post by the tennis-net. He came
-dutifully to Turle every week.
-
-Mrs. Clutton ran along the grass in her careless gown.
-
-“Come and sit under the elms with me,” she said.
-
-There were several ladies under the elms, in green wooden chairs with
-sloping backs. They had not come to play tennis or croquet; their sole
-aim was to talk scandal, snub people in the set a shade beneath their
-own, and drink astringent tea. They wore long skirts and elaborate
-light wraps, as distinguished from the athletic women a few paces off,
-who were running about and screaming to each other in the sun.
-
-The earnest topic of the moment turned out to be false hair. Mrs.
-McAlpine had confessed to an increasing thinness on the left temple.
-Her doctor told her that she used the right side of the brain too
-much--and darkly hinted that she must go up to Lechaux--a hairdresser
-recommended by the ladies’ paper--and get a front. Annie Jayne cried
-out in earnest horror:
-
-“Oh, don’t! My mother never wore false hair in her life. She took to
-caps when she was thirty-five. I shall take to caps myself in a year or
-two--they look matronly.”
-
-“But no one wears caps nowadays,” cried Mrs. Clutton tersely. “Women
-buy false hair instead of lace. If, since the creation, each woman had
-done just as her mother did, fig-leaves would still be the height of
-fashion.”
-
-Mrs. McAlpine, who had the greatest contempt for the journalist’s
-wife--_she_ was a J. P.’s daughter and the widow of a Government
-official--broke out in her languidly genteel voice:
-
-“I was afraid I should have been prevented from coming, dear Mrs.
-Turle. One can’t possibly attend a garden-party in a coat and skirt”;
-she looked complacently at her embroidered bodice, “and my lost box
-only turned up last night.”
-
-The face of every lady immediately became solemnly sympathetic.
-
-“I told you all about it, didn’t I? I’d been visiting at Warne--taking
-my best things, of course. The things, you know”--she gave a quick
-glance of her narrow eyes at Mrs. Clutton--“that one takes with one on
-a visit at a house where they are--well, rather particular. Dear Laura
-entertains so largely at Warne.”
-
-One or two ladies on the edge of the second-best set looked at her with
-reverential alarm. Here was a person who visited on such positively
-equal terms at Warne, the biggest seat for miles round, that she called
-the hostess by her Christian name!
-
-“I was in despair.” She flattened out her hands. “My box lost! My
-diamond comb and pendant, my jeweled girdle, a miniature set with
-diamonds that was given to my great-uncle by the Duke of Wellington, my
-ivory-backed brushes and silver toilet set--all the small, necessary
-trifles that one takes on a visit.”
-
-“And you got them back?” asked a little lady breathlessly.
-
-She was a shabby Jayne. Sophy did not often ask her to a garden-party,
-and she was feverishly voluble and deprecating in turn. She had a
-home-made blouse, with a funny tucker, and very new black kid gloves,
-the perfect palms of which she constantly displayed.
-
-“I got it back,” Mrs. McAlpine said carelessly, giving the home-made
-blouse a look of amiable condescension. “But you may all imagine how I
-felt; one sets such store by one’s poor trifles.”
-
-A massive girl, with a white gown, threw down her mallet as a member of
-the opposition clicked her ball against the stick.
-
-“I can’t play any more; too slow,” she said. “I’ll tell somebody’s
-fortune instead.”
-
-“My dear”--the dowdy Jayne cousin looked alarmed--“do you think that it
-is in quite good taste?”
-
-She stopped with a jerk as Mrs. McAlpine said sweetly:
-
-“Palmistry is all the rage just now in the best houses. Prejudice of
-any sort is so very middle-class. We had a professional palmist at Lady
-Clara’s last week, when I ran up to Grosvenor Gardens for her
-reception. She implored me to come; we are such very old friends.”
-
-“Mother always thought it was best to ignore such things as
-fortune-telling, table-turning, scientific lectures, and anything
-unsettling,” Annie Jayne said simply. “I don’t think I’ll have mine
-told, Isabel.”
-
-Half a dozen hands were held out. The girl in white went round
-phlegmatically.
-
-She distributed journeys, legacies, surprises, and mishaps with equal
-calm. When it came to Mrs. Clutton’s turn she held out her pretty hand,
-a little coarsened by devotion to her neurotic fowls and her garden,
-with pretended nervousness. Isabel looked at it thoughtfully and
-murmured something about the lines not being very clear--a certain one,
-at least, confusing.
-
-“Don’t say anything dreadful. Don’t tell me I’m going to be hanged;
-I’ve always had a foreboding that I shall be; and Tim--my husband, you
-know--used to say in his most savagely dyspeptic moments that I
-certainly deserved the fate.”
-
-Isabel dropped the roughened hand suddenly.
-
-“I can’t make out your fortune,” she said coldly. “There is no one
-else, is there? Yours is settled, Pamela. I’ll go and have a game of
-tennis, if Egbert will join--croquet’s duffing.”
-
-She moved away in her statuesque fashion, her white skirt bellowing out
-in the May breeze. There was a sudden coldness and constraint. Even
-diplomatic Mrs. Turle looked vexed.
-
-Mrs. Clutton made a mouth at Pamela, and said:
-
-“Shall we go and have a look at Nancy’s flowers in the walled garden?”
-
-They skirted the shrubbery, with its clumps of yellow berberis and
-laurustinus gone shabby. There was a swing between the double-flowered
-cherry trees; Nancy still used it--on rare occasions when she read
-fiction. Usually she was honestly intent on improving her mind. A thick
-volume lay face downward on the seat. Mrs. Clutton picked it up, read
-the title, and dropped the book with a gesture of distaste.
-
-“Nancy shouldn’t be allowed to read that woman’s stories.”
-
-“She is very popular.”
-
-“She ought to lecture--‘for men only.’ However, Nancy won’t hurt; she
-won’t understand--half. She is a little more than shallow; all surface,
-like a dish--not even a well-dish. Nancy and Isabel Crisp--you know
-Isabel is staying here now that Egbert is down from the hospital--will
-read the same book. One reads a bit, puts in a marker; the other takes
-up the book, reads on from the marker, then puts it in where she leaves
-off. That’s how they get through. I’m fond of Nancy--she’s so
-picturesquely idiotic. Of course, she will marry your brother?”
-
-Pamela dropped the almond-scented stalk of plum-colored wallflower
-which she had pulled and was sticking in her belt.
-
-“I--I don’t know. Oh, no! I wouldn’t let him marry Nancy.”
-
-Mrs. Clutton looked at her suspiciously.
-
-She said meaningly, “There is one man in the world for you--Jethro
-Jayne. A woman has only to concern herself about her husband. Of course
-your brother will be cruel to Nancy in his own particular fashion.
-Some kick with their feet, some lash with their tongues--I prefer the
-former; they kiss a bruise, but no man’s lips can reach a woman’s
-heart. After all, he’ll make a better husband than that prig, Egbert
-Turle; _he’s_ going to marry Isabel Crisp. He’s insufferable. He would
-divide the animal kingdom into four groups: the lower animals, hospital
-cases, human beings, and ’Varsity men. He talks of nothing but
-dissecting-rooms. He alludes constantly to the ‘laity.’”
-
-Mrs. McAlpine’s genteel voice filtered through the shrubs.
-
-“I knew the dear Duchess very well--in her maiden days. We visited at
-the same house in the Midlands.”
-
-“That humbug! Her motto is ‘Who’s who?’ I don’t believe that she ever
-got farther than the housekeeper’s room at Warne. Some day, when I’ve
-bought enough oak and china, I’ll devote a little time to unmasking
-her. Tea will be served in half an hour. There’s dear Mrs. Turle going
-weightily toward the house to coach her three maids how to set cups.”
-
-“Gainah is like that--or was before I deposed her. Cook did nothing but
-wash dishes.”
-
-“You may sort women into two classes: those who can’t touch a chicken
-unless they’ve cleaned it themselves, and those who, if they are
-obliged to clean it, can’t eat it. Do come with me to Mrs. Hone’s--this
-way; through the gate, across the field, and into the Liddleshorn road.
-She has a Chippendale teatray which she has half promised to sell. We
-shall have plenty of time before tea.”
-
-They went across the field, black-horned cattle following them
-curiously. Occasional cottages sparsely dotted the straight road
-leading to Liddleshorn. Two new ones, with vivid roofs of smooth tiles
-running up in conical shape to a chimney like an exaggerated pimple,
-had a blue metal plate lettered with white between the narrow doors.
-
-“You are pretty safe in saying that every singularly ugly cottage is
-tenanted by the county police. Mrs. Hone lives at this next one with
-the bush of Jew’s mallow.”
-
-They went in single file up the narrow flag path. Sheets of white
-candytuft crept coldly along the edge of the borders from the wooden
-gate to the door. In the little patch of kitchen garden row after row
-of cabbage with a blue bloom looked to Pamela like a generously flung
-out art carpet. The man at the best shop in Liddleshorn had shown her
-one just that shade. Straight ahead, across the railway bridge, a train
-shot past, the tails of smoke like drifting opal under the bright sun.
-
-Mrs. Hone was hobbling about her garden.
-
-“Poor old dear! She looks like a camel whose hump has slipped. Now, you
-must say nothing, look nothing--or you’ll spoil my bargain.
-Good-afternoon, Mrs. Hone. How’s the rheumatism?”
-
-The sweet wrinkled face lifted and a thin voice said shrilly:
-
-“It aint what you call rheumatism, ma’am; it’s paralism, that’s what I
-tells Dr. Frith.”
-
-“You’re busy in your garden. I’ve been working very hard in mine. Your
-broad beans are in blossom. And you’ve planted out your French
-marigolds already.”
-
-“Aye. But I doubt the frost ’ull nip ’em.”
-
-She laughed; the pretty, brainless cackle of a very old woman--the
-light laugh something like a child’s and yet with the knell of decay in
-it.
-
-“When I plants out they little seedlin’s I thinks o’ my children--all
-planted out; some in London, some on the hill. Some livin’ to blossom,
-some nipped by the frost. I’ve had thirteen, bless you! You’ll step
-inside?”
-
-They went into the tiny living room, the strangely twisted mistress
-painfully leading the way. At a round table an old man sat at
-tea--bread, lettuce that had bolted, a handful of spring onions. The
-mahogany tray that Mrs. Clutton coveted was on a ledge beside the
-low-burning fire. The old wife stepped up to her husband and shook him
-none too gently by the shoulder, dropping her head at the same time,
-and shouting:
-
-“Get up and let the ladies come to the fire.”
-
-To them she added apologetically:
-
-“He’s very old. I’m only seventy-eight, but he’s pretty nigh eighty.
-Deaf, too. I can’t make him hear--not when I wants him to do anything.
-I very offen say to him, ‘You don’t want to hear; you don’t want to
-hear, that’s what it is,’ I says.”
-
-He turned round savagely at the touch of her hand on his shoulder and
-looked at the two women in light gowns on the threshold.
-
-“What are you doing?” he demanded gruffly. “Damn it all, I means to
-have my tea.”
-
-“He’s been one of those who lash and kick, too--the brute. And she such
-a sweet old fragrant thing! Never mind, Mrs. Hone; don’t you trouble to
-move, Mr. Hone; we should be sorry to disturb your tea.”
-
-Mrs. Clutton squeezed round the other side of the table and took the
-tray in her hands. It was oval, cut out of the solid wood, and daintily
-inlaid with box.
-
-“You’d sell this, Mrs. Hone?”
-
-“The lady wants to know if we’ll sell the tray.”
-
-“What’s she goin’ to give we for it?” he demanded sharply.
-
-“Ten shillings!” screamed Mrs. Clutton.
-
-“No, no! We couldn’t let it go for that. I thought fifteen.”
-
-“Too much.” She put the tray back on the ledge.
-
-He stuffed the last hunk of bread into his fierce old mouth, and
-spluttered out:
-
-“Will you give twelve-and-six?”
-
-“Well--yes. Is that settled?”
-
-“You must settle with missus. I’m only a lodger.”
-
-His eyes glittered at the half-sovereign she took from her purse and
-laid in Mrs. Hone’s hand.
-
-“Yes, he’s only a lodger, as I often tells him when he’s tiresome. It’s
-my house. I was borned here--my brother left it me; he says, ‘You was
-borned here and you shall die here.’ My father built it and my brother
-added on this front room. His wife wanted to pull the old place down
-and put up a new; but he says, ‘No; what the father’s hands had put up
-the son’s should never pull down.’”
-
-She kept laughing feebly and looking at them, from one to the other,
-with her dim eyes, deep in the web of seventy-eight years.
-
-“It’s my cottage, and that’s why they won’t give me parish relief. It’s
-very hard. I ses to ’em, ‘I can’t fill my poor empty belly with bricks
-and mortar. An’ I am so fond of a bit of meat.’”
-
-She was like a small child begging for sweets.
-
-“Haven’t you any daughter to come in and look after you?”
-
-“No. My daughter died fifty-five year ago. She was a pretty little gal.
-He’s my second husband, you know.” She nodded her head toward the deaf
-man, who, mollified by the gold, was munching vegetables like an
-amiable donkey. “My first husband died. He was coachman at Warne. When
-the new one come I was told to turn out of my nice cottage. So I
-married him. I couldn’t leave my nice cottage, could I, my dears? I was
-a silly gal and got married agen. I married the new coachman. That was
-before my brother died and left me this. If I’d known he was going to
-die and leave me this cottage when I was borned, I wouldn’t ha’ been a
-silly gal and got married agen. He was a dwarf, my brother. You come
-agen some day, and I’ll show you his trousers. I’ll show you my
-husband’s trousers, too. I got four shillin’s prize at the show last
-year for the best patch put on her husband’s trousers by an old woman
-over sixty. And I’m seventy-eight--there’s a difference! There did
-ought to be another class for them over seventy. I can use my needle.
-Mother always taught us to use our needles. The gals nowadays can’t put
-a shirt together.”
-
-“Tea will be ready at Turle,” whispered Pamela.
-
-“Yes. We must go. Good-by, Mrs. Hone; good-day, Mr. Hone. I’ll take the
-tray under my arm. Oh, don’t you bother about paper.”
-
-They went down the uneven path with the stiff lines of snowy flowers.
-
-“Poor old soul!” said Pamela, when they reached the road.
-
-“Did she take you in with what she so eloquently calls her ‘poor, empty
-belly’? I left off being sentimental long ago. Mrs. Hone has a fat
-account in the post-office savings bank. I know that for a fact.”
-
-“Shall we hurry a little? I hate to keep Aunt Sophy waiting, or to vex
-her. She didn’t like your remark about being hanged.”
-
-“Of course she didn’t. Wasn’t it fun to see them petrify? No doubt
-they’ve been discussing me; saying what bad taste it was to set up a
-gallows-tree at a garden party. I give them endless topics for
-conversation. They don’t believe me even when I do tell the truth.
-There was a comic song Tim used to sing, ‘The only time I told the
-truth she said I was a liar.’ That is just my position. I tell the
-unvarnished truth: that my husband is a journalist traveling in search
-of sensation. They don’t believe me. If he were doing time at Portland
-and I said he was stalking big game, my social popularity would rival
-Mrs. McAlpine’s. Here’s your brother Edred coming across the meadow to
-look for us. He’s a very handsome man; not a bit like you. He reminds
-me of some splendid snake. Do you understand? As his sister, you won’t.
-You’ll only be shocked; there is a strong streak of the local prudery
-and orthodoxy about you, Pamela. I could go to destruction with a man
-of that type--hating him and myself all the time.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER X.
-
-
-JETHRO was hoeing peas in the burning June sun. His white linen hat
-flapped over his calm, shrewd eyes. Pamela, loitering along the grass
-paths, marveled intolerantly at his choice of an occupation. Why should
-a man of substance, a man of birth, a man with acres and with laborers,
-hoe peas? She paced the paths thoughtfully, looking at her neat, broad
-border of new roses, taking up a fluttering label now and then to read
-the half-obliterated name. They were all the very latest and choicest
-roses, and had been planted in the spring by the nurseryman at
-Liddleshorn, to whom she had given a large order.
-
-Her heart told her that Edred was close behind, and she turned, her
-eyes seeking his humbly, pleading for tender recognition. He did not
-trouble to look at her, but merely plucked one of her beautiful pink
-Verdier roses without permission, and stuck it in his coat, with a
-scornful laugh at its huge size.
-
-Jethro, across his little heaps of flagging weeds and clods of yellow
-earth, watched the two gloomily. He was tired of Pamela’s elegant
-brother; he was suspicious, although he could not have explained why.
-His welcome to the shipwrecked stranger had been warm--it had even
-extended to a free drawing on his check-book; but he did not want his
-kinsman’s-hospitality to be construed into a life invitation. He
-remembered a funny story he had once heard about an engaging Irishman
-who had come on a month’s visit to a country house and stayed
-forty-five years. Edred had lamed his best horse; he had considerably
-reduced the cask of old whisky; he dipped too deeply into the
-tobacco-jar. He might stay until the wedding, and when that was over he
-must take himself off--to the West Coast of Africa, to another wreck,
-if he chose. The busy man, hoeing peas not because it was necessary but
-as a positive outlet for his energy, was heartily sick of the idle one,
-who strolled languidly along the rose border, the smoke from his cigar
-making a lean, blue string.
-
-The wicket-gate creaked. Pamela looked up sharply. Heels clattered on
-the raised brick path, and a blithe voice called out, “Where are you
-all?”
-
-“It’s Nancy.”
-
-Edred moved forward so abruptly that he broke the long ash of his
-cigar, which he had been carefully preserving. Pamela followed. A tall,
-slim figure stood for a moment in the frame of the shining holly arch
-at the entrance of the garden. The sun caught Nancy’s masses of
-brick-red hair and enveloped her pretty face in flame. She called out
-to Jethro:
-
-“Mother wants you to tell me how much you think she ought to get a load
-for her hay. Write it down, please, or I am sure to forget.”
-
-She met Pamela at the beginning of the grass path. They kissed. Edred
-watched the tame little salute cynically. Then he took Nancy’s
-hand in the cycling glove with the perforated palm--like a thin
-crumpet--and watched her white lids fall. She was such a child that she
-never tried to hide her feelings.
-
-Pamela dragged off a great branch of damask rose and tore her fingers.
-
-“You should always cut roses,” Nancy said reprovingly, taking up a
-label. “Francesca Kruger--that’s flesh, tinged with saffron, isn’t it?”
-
-“Copper,” returned Pamela curtly.
-
-“I wish we could have some good roses. Evergreen isn’t successful with
-flowers. But he lets us have plenty of vegetables. I came to know if
-you would both come over to Malling Flower Show next Thursday. We could
-bike--that would be great fun, wouldn’t it? Mr. Meadows has asked me to
-judge the wild flowers, and I feel so horribly nervous. But I’ve been
-reading it up.”
-
-“You can’t go to Malling,” Pamela said, looking sternly at the weak,
-radiant face, and hating Nancy all the more fiercely because her
-temples were so purely white, and because the ruddy hair grew round
-them so charmingly. “It’s lecture-day at Liddleshorn--the nursing
-lecture. It will be very interesting; we are going to bandage a small
-boy.”
-
-“But I don’t care for the lecture. We are not going to finish the
-course. Annie says that her mother--Aunt Jerusha--thought scientific
-nursing a great mistake, and always said that no woman could expect to
-be a good nurse until she had been the mother of a large family and had
-buried two-thirds of it. You _must_ come to Malling.”
-
-She was speaking to Pamela, but her blue eyes were on Edred.
-
-“I’ll come, anyhow,” he said lightly. “I’ll call at Turle about three.
-Will that do? Pamela would rather go to Liddleshorn and bandage her
-small boy.”
-
-“That would be fun. And you’ll come into supper afterward. I must go
-now. Mother told me to look in at Hone’s--Nick Hone’s.”
-
-“Where there are so many children?” asked Pamela, her gloomy eyes on
-the straight line of beauty afforded by her choice roses.
-
-“No. Those are the Peter Hones. The Bert Hones live near us. But Nick
-Hone is a neighbor of yours. Jethro!” she called out shrilly, and he
-came across the rough, dry ground, hoe in hand, “do send poor Nick Hone
-in some new potatoes. You have plenty.” She glanced along the beds at
-the rows in white blossom. “He’s dying, and he keeps saying that if he
-had a dish of new potatoes he’d get better. Mrs. Hone went and dug some
-yesterday, but they were only as large as cob-nuts. Mother would have
-sent some, but Evergreen is a little touchy. He doesn’t like us to
-interfere with the vegetables.”
-
-“Daborn shall take a trug full,” said Jethro carelessly. “Dying, is he?
-That’s drink. Never knew such a fellow! Three gallons of cider a day at
-harvest time wasn’t enough for him. The other men save some and take it
-home to their wives.”
-
-“That is kind of you. Mrs. Hone will be so pleased. I’ll be off now.
-Three o’clock on Thursday, Mr. Crisp.”
-
-He seemed amused by her adorable air of sheepishness when he took her
-hand. They all four went out into the inclosed garden, Jethro and
-Pamela dropping behind as a matter of course--his eyes on her, and hers
-fixed blankly on the well-cut back of Edred’s coat. Jethro picked up a
-flat wooden basket, with pieces of wood at the bottom like the rockers
-of a cradle. It stood by a row of early peas.
-
-“Here’s a trug. Daborn shall take it to Hone when he goes home to
-dinner. Here, Daborn!”
-
-He put his earthy, hard hand to his mouth and shouted. Pamela saw the
-man hurrying from the greenhouse, where he was getting young tomato
-plants ready for planting out. She followed Nancy and Edred, dreading
-to leave them alone for a moment, despising herself for dreading. They
-had just passed through the holly hedge. She scurried after, not
-knowing why she put her feet so softly on the gravel and coaxed her
-skirt close to her limbs so that it should not brush the box edging.
-When she stood in the frame of the arch she stopped. Her clear, jealous
-eyes went straight across the garden, across the bed of newly-planted
-cauliflowers which Chalcraft had been allowed to dibble in for the last
-time--next year she would have a lawn and carriage-drive. She looked
-across the brick path, through the tall heads of June flowers, to the
-umbrella yew-tree beneath which Gainah’s lilies were blooming.
-
-They were standing behind it, between the thick foliage and the
-square lattice of the dining-parlor window. She saw Edred peer through
-to see if the room was empty. She saw Nancy, her head down, her arms
-and hands jerking, pretending to admire the lilies--bemoaning, in her
-imbecile way, no doubt, because Evergreen would not let her have lilies
-too.
-
-They were very close together in the bosky kindness of the yew; no
-doubt it had been a witness to many like scenes and been discreet.
-Nancy seemed to sway a bit nearer the lithe figure in gray. Pamela saw
-his face and her heart came to a startled stop. He had looked like that
-when he kissed her for the first time--on the stairs of the
-boarding-house. It had been the first man’s kiss of her life.
-
-Nancy’s eyes and cheeks and lips blazed like her ruddy hair. He pulled
-her toward him with the easy, insolent air of a man who is sure of his
-woman--who has been sure of women all his life--and kissed her on lids,
-lips, brows.
-
-Pamela, wearing a white cotton gown, her head bare, looked like
-statue--one of the statues that used to decorate old gardens. She
-forgot everything--her approaching marriage and magnificence, her
-border of tea roses, the carriage-drive, her wedding clothes--all the
-big and little things which equally made her happiness or misery. For
-the first time for many months she seemed to touch her past self. She
-had almost forgotten, in the new strong life, the old one of dull
-days, and sloppy streets, and shop-windows, and a struggle for the
-latest fashion at the least possible cost. She was again that
-sharp-witted girl in Bloomsbury, that wildly wretched one who used to
-take omnibus in spare hours just to stand on the common and stare
-hungrily at a wall.
-
-He was kissing Nancy; he meant to marry her. She couldn’t let him do
-that. She must abandon Jethro. Her life must run side by side with
-Edred’s. She didn’t care what sort of life--one of poverty, hard work,
-hard words; blows, perhaps. One of guilty prosperity, winding up with
-the prison again for him. It didn’t matter--so long as they were
-together, if only for a little. He didn’t love her. He wasn’t capable,
-as she knew love. But she loved him, even when she saw him stoop again
-to those red pouting lips behind the yew. All her rage was for Nancy.
-
-Daborn came behind with the trug full of yellow-skinned potatoes. She
-stepped back and watched him go through the yard, and presently watched
-Nancy go down the bricked path, mount her bicycle, and skim away like a
-light swallow. Nancy had forgotten the marked quotation for hay. She
-could not carry two ideas in that limited head of hers.
-
-The world was too gay and warm for Pamela’s blank misery. The hot sun
-darted into her strained eyes like needles. She went round the house,
-hugging the lichened wall, her head down, the woolly leaves and spiral
-tendrils of the vine touching her dull hair. At the garden door she met
-Gainah, with a flush on her wasted face and a gleam of the old industry
-and importance in her cold eyes. She was attired in a loose garment of
-unbleached calico, cut like an antiquated bathing garment. Her
-skirts were bunched under it. She had a battered straw hat, round which
-was firmly fixed a veil of green net. A pair of old stockings were
-pulled over her hands and arms. She carried a tin frying-pan, which she
-constantly beat with a long iron skimmer.
-
-The air was hot and noisy. There seemed an unusual commotion along the
-line of beehives which were set by the south wall. They were straw
-skeps, which in winter were covered with turf to keep out the cold.
-Pamela, who had read up bee-keeping, with other branches of country
-life, had long decided to have bar-frame hives when she was mistress of
-Folly Corner. But her knowledge of bees was only theoretical. She was
-very frightened of them, and the deft, fearless way in which Gainah
-would take a swarm excited her admiration and made her grudgingly admit
-that it might be a point of superiority.
-
-The angry buzzing grew louder, the monotonous tom-tom beating of the
-frying-pan and skimmer more persistent.
-
-“There’s a swarm over there in the crab-tree,” Gainah said excitedly,
-forgetting for the time all party feeling. “I must go and take it. They
-know me. They’ve been talking all the morning; I knew we should have a
-flitting by dinner-time.”
-
-Pamela languidly turned her head. A dark, pear-shaped mass hung from
-the lower branch of the crab tree in the oat-field.
-
-“They know I’m coming,” Gainah said, advancing and still beating, “they
-know everything. These are fierce--I crossed them with an Italian
-queen ten years ago--but they never sting me. They have more sense and
-feeling than half the folk about. When old Bert Hone died and young
-Bert took the bees from his mother, they didn’t flourish. He hadn’t
-acted fair and they knew it. When there’s a swarm in the thatch none of
-the girls in a house ever get married. All Len Daborn’s girls are maids
-still.”
-
-She strode on, a spare distorted figure in her calico wrapper, with the
-green veil tucked safely down in her scraggy throat. Pamela watched her
-vanish and reappear beyond the fruit-bushes. On any other day she might
-have asserted herself--given a wise homily on bee-keeping up to date,
-or deprecated old-world superstitions.
-
-She went under the low door with the wooden hood and sat down in the
-dull dining-parlor, her eyes vaguely looking out of the window at the
-space between the casement and the yew. Nancy’s flame-colored hair and
-thick scarlet lips seemed to stand out in relief from the curled somber
-leaves.
-
-Gainah’s work, just as she had thrown it down when the bees swarmed,
-was huddled on the floor, and the blue cambric hearts which she had cut
-ready for patching on the white dimity were dotted like huge pale
-turquoises on the narrow oak table.
-
-Pamela looked at the half-made quilt. Gainah had told her once, in a
-moment of expansiveness, that the blue cambric and white dimity had
-been her mother’s wedding petticoat and gown. It was a dainty quilt,
-all white groundwork, with blue bordering and bands and carefully cut
-hearts and leaves. The stitches were small and regular. Gainah sat at
-patchwork from breakfast until supper, now that the garden and the
-house were no longer under her control. In the lower drawer of her
-chest she already had five quilts folded neatly away in camphor.
-
-The front door opened. Edred came in, rang the hand-bell on the table
-in the passage. Pamela heard voices--a little deprecating cackle, a
-man’s voice subdued to a cautious bass growl. Unable to bear any more,
-she started up, threw back the door, and advanced into the passage. As
-she did so, the deep rose-color of Nettie’s cotton gown whisked out of
-sight into the kitchen. She went, her head high on her throat, into the
-drawing-room, and Edred followed.
-
-Fate seemed to decide that her moments of decided comedy or tragedy
-should be played in that room: the room with the ugly grate and marble
-mantelpiece which Jethro’s father had put in to make the place smart
-for Gainah; with the painted milking-stools and fretwork brackets and
-cheap embroideries which she had herself brought from Liddleshorn.
-
-The roses in the blue bowls were drooping, candle-grease had dropped on
-to the keys of the piano, the open door of the china closet displayed
-dusty shelves and a floor on which the gay red-and-blue rugs were
-kicked up. Pamela saw these things; they reminded her sharply of the
-change that of late had come over her. She no longer took a
-housewifely pride in anything; her life was occupied in playing cat,
-with Nancy and Edred for mice.
-
-“Are you going to marry Nancy?” she asked abruptly.
-
-“Are you going to marry Jethro?” he returned aptly.
-
-“I--I suppose so. And yet, when it comes to the point---- Everything
-depends on you.”
-
-She looked at him again in an appealing way.
-
-“We’re in a bit of a mess,” he said, shrugging his thin shoulders and
-impatiently pulling the fine points of his black mustache.
-
-She hunched her shoulders and clenched her hands between her knees as
-if she were in actual physical pain.
-
-“Oh! why did you come?” she moaned.
-
-“Nonsense. It was very fortunate for me. I couldn’t have kept on with
-sewing-machines--cut my throat, rather. And you can’t execute a _coup_
-of any kind without capital. This sort of thing isn’t permanent, of
-course. Old Jeth’s getting sick--he’s a good fellow. Men of that type
-always show their feeling in mean ways. He ought to swear at me, kick
-me out--he only looks blue when I fill up my glass. I must either marry
-Nancy--it can’t make any difference to you, Pam--or I must get a couple
-of hundred to set me up in life again. There are lots of good things
-going in the City--beastly nuisance not seeing the evening papers. My
-head is full of ideas. If I had a couple of hundreds I could turn them
-into thousands in a week. Balaclavas have run up to----”
-
-“Don’t talk to me about stocks; I don’t understand--and it is so
-unimportant----”
-
-“By Jove! it’s all-important to me.”
-
-She straightened her curved back. He saw a convulsive lump working in
-her throat, and the rims of her lids grew faintly pink. He frowned. She
-was going to cry. A woman’s tears lashed him to any sort of brutality.
-
-“When I saw you kiss Nancy,” she broke out, “it nearly killed me.”
-
-“So you saw! But when old Jeth kisses you, in his open, whole-hearted,
-smacking fashion?”
-
-“It doesn’t affect you. Men are different--and you more different than
-any other man,” she said confusedly.
-
-“This sort of thing doesn’t help us,” he cried impatiently. “Which
-shall it be? Turle, with Nancy as a wife and Aunt Sophy as a
-mother-in-law, or London, with two hundred pounds in my pocket?”
-
-“I haven’t fifty pounds.”
-
-“But Jethro has. Get it out of him; you’ll do it better than I should.
-Go to him frankly; say I’ve a scheme for making a fortune. He will be
-delighted to get rid of me. He’s suspicious, without knowing why, poor
-chap. This brother and sister humbug is the merest farce. If these
-people were not fools, the most generous, gullible fools in the world,
-they would have found us out long ago.”
-
-He crossed to the sofa, threw himself beside her, and laxly hooked his
-long arm round her firm waist.
-
-“Get me the couple of hun, Pam,” he said tenderly, “and I’ll be off.
-Nancy is a pretty imbecile. I’ll go to town. I’ll keep out of mischief,
-sail just within the wind--don’t bother your dear anxious head about
-me. Marry old Jeth; cut a figure in the neighborhood. With his money
-and your brains you can be county swells.”
-
-“And you?”
-
-“I told you--don’t worry. Forget No. 4658.”
-
-She started nervously.
-
-“How can you think of that time without a shudder? Even now, when I go
-to sleep at night, the prison wall shoots up and blinds me. Yet
-you--were inside. And you say that number--the number that _was_
-you--without a tremor. I’m afraid to let you go. It will happen again.”
-
-“Not if I know it. I was green. Overent and Bladden victimized me. Only
-fools are found out. Sin is a short name for stupidity. I shall never
-overshoot the mark again. There are fifty ways--five hundred--of making
-a fortune. No man but a fool need work--in these commercial days.
-Milligan cleared fifty thousand only last week, just by buying a
-concern and turning it into a company. He’s a prominent man, a
-politician, a baronet. Ten years ago he kept a newspaper and sweetstuff
-shop at Hornsey. Lady Milligan, whose drawing-room gowns are sketched
-in the fashion papers, boiled toffee and sold it in pennyworths. No one
-calls Milligan a blackguard.”
-
-“He must have swindled somebody. It’s impossible else.”
-
-“Of course he did. But everybody swindles everybody else--that’s the
-commercial spirit; it has made us a great nation.”
-
-“Jethro----”
-
-“Was born with a silver spoon in his mouth. He is a fool; without his
-inheritance, he’d be plowing and hay-making. Why discuss idly and waste
-time? The dinner gong will sound soon.”
-
-He took out his watch. It was a costly gold hunter, which he had bought
-in his brief prosperous time. He had put it in her hands only half an
-hour before his arrest--when Overent and Bladden had flown with forty
-thousand pounds and he was madly packing his bag in the Bloomsbury back
-bedroom.
-
-“What am I to do?”
-
-“Get two hundred pounds out of Jethro. I will go away and make my
-fortune. Some day, when you read the papers--a day old,” he sneered,
-“you’ll see my name as chairman of a public dinner, or recipient of a
-testimonial. I mean to be generous--when generosity can be made to pay.
-I’ll present my district with a public library, a clock tower, or a
-drinking fountain, and be knighted.”
-
-“You’ll come to Folly Corner sometimes?”
-
-“Never.” Even his honor, just because he was a man, was stronger than
-hers. “I thought at first that it would work--you as Jethro’s wife, I
-as Nancy’s husband. But you are one of those emotional women who go to
-the devil and drag a man with them. When I leave here it will be for
-good. You won’t even know my address.”
-
-“I couldn’t bear it.”
-
-Her eyes were not on him, but on the lattice. She looked across the
-great field, with its uplands and its belt of oaks. She had seen it in
-so many aspects--half shorn; plowed, the wet furrows shining like
-glass; seen it smoothly iced with January snow; watched the green
-needle-points of young grain. That outlook, that deep bay window, had
-known the tearing of her heart.
-
-She looked. The ripeness of harvest was suggested. There were the long
-stretches of gray-green grain, soon to be golden, soon to rustle with
-the dry, hot breeze of August. She saw the tossed-up lavish boughs of
-wild roses wreathing above the hedge-rows, and saw the long grass on
-the banks, tropical in its growth, and going rapidly to seed.
-
-She couldn’t stay here and watch the changes of the season for
-years--year after year and then death--without word of him.
-
-“I couldn’t bear it,” she repeated.
-
-“You wouldn’t be fool enough to throw Jethro over? You wouldn’t come
-with me to London and take pot luck--a knight’s wife some day, perhaps,
-or only the starving wife of--a number. I mean to be careful--but
-failure’s on the cards. Even men like Milligan come a cropper now and
-then. I’ve heard shaky stories about him. He doesn’t know when to
-stop.”
-
-His eyes were shining. Something of the old passion was stamping itself
-anew on his face. She was looking lovely--the daredevil expression
-of perfect abandonment and sacrifice strong on her mouth, on her
-quickly-breathing body, on the very hands which shook in the lap of her
-white gown.
-
-“You wouldn’t come?” he said, under his breath.
-
-She gave a quick sigh, a last sharp glance at the gray, gently-moving
-uplands and the wreaths of dog-roses.
-
-“I would go with you--anywhere. I would have gone with you to the
-prison, been a number, a thing less than an animal behind the prison
-wall--but they wouldn’t let me.”
-
-He put his mouth to hers.
-
-“Dear little woman! In India you’d go to the Suttee. Then it is
-settled. Tackle Jethro to-night.”
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XI.
-
-
-SHE waited until supper was over, and then she asked Jethro for half an
-hour alone in the little room looking due north, where he kept his
-papers, his boots, his agricultural catalogues, stray packets of seeds,
-and so on.
-
-The door shut on them. It was nearly dark--the sun setting luridly and
-throwing a coppery light across the wall. The oak bureau filled one
-corner of the tiny room; turned full to the gaping hearth was a
-high-backed oak chair, with the initials “J. J. 1625” cut into its
-back. An oak chest beneath the window, carved also, and bearing the
-initials “J. J. 1604,” with a coat of arms, showed that the Jaynes had
-in the past been even more important people than they were now. A
-shadow passed the window. Edred, a dog at his heels, the usual fat
-cigar in his mouth, shouted through, saying that he’d stroll up to
-Turle and tell Nancy that he couldn’t go to Malling on Thursday. He
-gave Pamela a significant look and moved off. The copper light burned
-on the wall again. There was a strong scent of jasmine; the wan white
-blossoms looked in at the open window. Pamela sat in the chair by the
-grate, her head against the carved wood.
-
-“I wanted to speak to you about my--about Edred,” she said.
-
-“I’m going to speak to him myself,” Jethro returned promptly. “He
-oughtn’t to be loafing about here like this. The place is big enough
-for all of us, but it’s bad for a man to be out of collar so long.”
-
-“He’s very anxious to get something to do. He is full of ideas. He is
-very clever.”
-
-Jethro did not answer. He was sitting on the end of the chest, his back
-to the window, one foot in a heavy shoe idly dangling. His clean-cut,
-rugged face was in shadow; her guilty conscience made her fancy that
-his mouth was relentless.
-
-“He doesn’t want to go to sea again,” she straggled on. “His nerves
-have been tried--you can understand that?”
-
-“What _does_ he want?”
-
-She heard the wicket-gate creak. Through the summer haze and the misty,
-heavy-leaved trees she saw him pass along the road; white dog at his
-heels, burning tobacco between his lips.
-
-“He wants two hundred pounds. He would go away from Folly Corner; never
-come back, never trouble you for a penny more, for a meal, even.”
-
-Jethro’s light eyes opened. They looked to her like filings of steel in
-the uncertain light. His voice came through the twilight suspiciously.
-
-“Why does he talk like that? He is your brother, isn’t he? I want my
-wife’s brother to have the run of my house whenever he’s in the
-neighborhood.”
-
-“He is afraid that he has trespassed on your hospitality too long.” How
-parrot-like her voice was, how stilted her words! She burst out
-feverishly:
-
-“Give him the two hundred pounds--if you love me. Let him go at once.
-If he delays he may lose his chance. I don’t understand business, but
-he will explain it to you; it is something that will not wait.”
-
-“He could come back for the wedding.”
-
-“We shouldn’t want him; we could manage without him, I mean. He would
-not be able to get away; business--a new business would be too
-engrossing.”
-
-“Two hundred pounds is a good lump.”
-
-“But to set him up in life--to get rid of him.”
-
-“You don’t want to get rid of your own flesh and blood, surely! There’s
-no hurry. Wait until after the wedding. It’s in August--just six
-weeks.”
-
-He got up, bent over the high chair in his clumsy, hearty fashion, and
-kissed her mouth. That kiss decided her, made her inflexible. She
-gulped down a little scornful laugh in her throat: a man who kissed in
-that way deserved to be jilted.
-
-“Go back to the chest,” she cried petulantly. “This isn’t the proper
-time for nonsense; we are talking business. You will give him the money
-at once, won’t you?”
-
-“I must think it over. Two hundred pounds!”
-
-“It is nothing to you--everything to us.”
-
-“To him.”
-
-“To him--that is what I meant. Open the bureau; get your check-book. It
-will only take a moment.”
-
-“There is no hurry. I never rush things. I’ll talk the affair over with
-Edred to-morrow--no, on Wednesday, before I drive in to market.
-To-morrow I must see old Crisp, of the Flagon House, about that rye of
-his.”
-
-He pulled a wan, white jasmine bloom to pieces slowly, put his head
-half out of the window into the damp, scented air, and said casually
-that a couple of bats had flown out of the ivy.
-
-Her palms tingled with rage and despair. This matter of two hundred
-pounds was nothing to him. The clock in the dining-parlor struck nine
-very softly; on the hedge across the road a nightingale was performing
-a sad recitative. She jumped to her feet in a passion.
-
-“If you don’t promise to give him the two hundred pounds to-morrow
-morning, I’ll go away--I won’t marry you,” she cried.
-
-Jethro only laughed. He felt so secure. The wedding was to be in six
-weeks; workmen were coming out from Liddleshorn to-morrow to fit up the
-bathroom and paint the place. Nearly every day a young woman came with
-things from the draper’s at Liddleshorn. It was all settled. But she
-looked pretty in a passion. He rose heavily from the chest again.
-
-“If you touch me I shall strike you.”
-
-“What’s the matter, dear? You’ve been cycling too much. I told Edred
-that thirty-five miles would be more than you could manage, and it’s
-nearly forty to Beer Hill and back.”
-
-“It wasn’t a bit too long a ride. The others did it; even Nancy, who is
-supposed to be so delicate. I cannot endure to think you so mean, so
-lethargic--over a little thing. You must give him the money to-morrow,
-or I swear----”
-
-“Pam.”
-
-“Don’t call me that. Will you----”
-
-“He shall have a check to-morrow morning, as you wish it so much.”
-
-He opened the bureau.
-
-“I’ve got it in notes somewhere. I meant to bank on Wednesday. Two
-hundred pounds!” Hereditary closeness got the better of him again. “It
-is a good lump. But what is mine is yours--or will be in six weeks. If
-it makes you happy.”
-
-“It makes him secure. What are you doing?”
-
-Jethro was pressing his broad thumbs carefully into the sides of a
-pigeonhole.
-
-“There is a secret drawer here. I wouldn’t show it to everyone--but you
-are flesh of my flesh.”
-
-“Not yet.”
-
-“In six weeks.”
-
-“Show me the secret drawer.”
-
-“Wait a bit; it wants humoring. This is a home-made bureau. My
-great-grandfather was a clever old chap, wasn’t he? I’ve heard my
-father say that when he died the drawer was overhauled for money, but
-all they found was three farthings of the year 1732. Here they are.”
-
-The long shallow drawer was open. Bank notes were lying flat and crisp
-in it; in one corner were the farthings, spotted with verdigris.
-
-A shadow passed across the window again. Edred put his handsome,
-insouciant face through the tangle of white blossom and green:
-
-“Aren’t you two coming out?” he cried chaffingly. “The moon’s up, and I
-never heard the nightingale in better form. I’ll run over to Turle in
-the morning.”
-
-Pamela flitted across the dusky room.
-
-“We are coming--in a moment,” she said in a loud voice, looking at him
-significantly; then looking back in the gloom at Jethro--burly and
-well-favored--by the open bureau, with its shallow secret drawer and
-pigeon-holes full of bills.
-
-She watched Edred go down to the gate and lean over; the twin poplars
-shooting up like two giant brooms above his head, the white dog like a
-wraith in the green light. She shut the window and stepped back into
-the silent little room, which, although it was June, felt cold. Jethro
-had the notes in his hand. She put out hers with a sudden impulse.
-
-“Give them to me to give to him--as a surprise,” she besought faintly.
-
-She looked at the bank notes--white, crisp, heavily lettered with
-black.
-
-“Come,” she said, with a forced air of archness and spontaneity, her
-hand still out, and Jethro’s diamonds burning with a pale fire on her
-finger. Her gesture was a trifle ghastly in its struggle after
-playfulness. Her lips were rolled back, showing the set teeth.
-
-It was such a sudden, breathless impulse. She looked from one to the
-other--the man at the bureau, who was so close that she could feel his
-breath--sweet as a cow’s--on her hair; the man at the gate, jailed by
-poplars.
-
-Why shouldn’t she yield to this new impulse? Why shouldn’t she go away
-from them both and begin a new, an absolutely feminine and nunlike
-life? These men drove poor women mad. She knew what a future would be
-with Edred--delirium, misery, wealth, disaster, disgrace. She knew what
-a future would be with Jethro--fat ease, heart-hunger. But a future
-apart she did not know. She would run away from them both--with two
-hundred pounds in her pocket. Two hundred pounds in notes!
-
-Jethro looked at her strangely.
-
-“I’ll give it him myself--to-morrow morning,” he said soberly, putting
-the notes into the drawer and letting it spring back into its
-hiding-place.
-
-She sat down in the oak chair, letting body and brain collapse. She
-didn’t bother to think--to regret, to rage, to feel. Things were
-decided for her.
-
-“You’ll give it to him to-morrow morning, then. How serious you are!
-Why do you look at me so oddly? Of course, I did not want the notes.
-You never see a joke.”
-
-“I’ll go out and have a talk with Edred now about this business. I
-shall be too busy in the morning. You go to bed.” He tried to see her
-face through the teasing dusk which had drawn between them; his voice
-was tender. “You’ve been doing too much lately. Good-night, dear. Have
-a long night’s rest.”
-
-“Good-night.”
-
-As she undressed, slipping her petticoats from her waist to her feet,
-she saw through the half-drawn dimity curtains the two men and the dog
-strolling about in the uncertain moonlight. Jethro looked magnificently
-broad and kingly. When she stretched herself in the bed, almost sinking
-in the feathers, she told herself that this might be her last night at
-Folly Corner. Before she went to sleep she recalled Jethro’s girth and
-bearing, together with his balance at the bank, and hesitated.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XII.
-
-
-NEXT morning when she awoke workmen were hammering and whistling. When
-she looked out of her window she saw scaffolding. Long ladders were set
-up stealthily against the old red walls. They were getting Folly Corner
-ready for a bride. Those long ladders, that swung scaffolding, reminded
-her that her wedding-day was fixed. She dressed and went down into the
-garden, where the roses were all embroidered with dew and a white mist
-puffed slowly across the meadows beyond the hedge. It was very early.
-Len Daborn, going heavily to his work, looked like a patriarch, with
-his crook-like stick and spreading white beard. She thought of his
-daughters, all maids--because the bees had swarmed in the thatch. She
-was very anxious to see Edred before breakfast, and, picking up one of
-the potatoes which Daborn had left on the ground when he took the trug
-to Hone, threw it in at the open window, crying, with meretricious
-raillery:
-
-“Come down. It is a lovely morning.”
-
-She tried to speak quite airily, purposely choosing her words and tone.
-Jethro was already about--looking after the young turkeys. Edred, his
-voice muffled by sleep and the drawn curtains, called out that he
-wouldn’t be long. She healed her heart by looking at her roses. The
-garden always comforted her--drew her to it with strange, silent
-magnetism. Before he came down, heavy-eyed and irritable, as he always
-was in the early morning, she had decided, with infinite relief, that
-she would stay at Folly Corner, and let him go back alone, fight life
-alone, take his garish triumphs and risks without her.
-
-“Jethro’s going to give you the two hundred pounds this morning,” she
-said tersely, hardly lifting her head.
-
-“You are a brick, Pam. We can leave here this afternoon. Pretend that
-you have promised to take me over to Annie Jayne’s. We’ll bike to the
-station. Never mind luggage. I can spare you plenty of frocks out of
-the two hundred. London to-night. We’ll dine somewhere--a good dinner.
-Then I’ll drive you to Bloomsbury--they’ll take you in. I can go to a
-hotel. To-morrow I’ll get a license and we’ll be married.”
-
-She picked a rose and pressed her nose right into the exquisite petals.
-The fresh morning air, the farm sounds; dew, sun in a haze of slow
-fire, bees streaming brown and yellow from the hives, the old house
-foaming with the loose Devoniensis rose and lichened to the roof--all
-these drew her.
-
-“To-morrow morning,” he continued, with satisfaction, “I shall be able
-to have a whisky-and-soda directly I wake. It pulls a fellow together.
-Leave me alone with old Jeth after breakfast--I’m sorry for the poor
-devil; you are treating him badly--but a woman has no heart. And, Pam,
-hurry up dinner to-day. We’d better start soon after.”
-
-Jethro came round the house from the yard. He looked a little careless
-and rough. Directly he caught Pamela’s glance, his aristocratic face,
-with the wholesome russet skin, lighted, and he jerked his thumb, with
-a smile and a droll, tender gesture, toward the tall ladders and the
-litter of the builders.
-
-The house--restful, spacious, substantial; the figure beside it, all
-honest devotion, decided her. She turned to Edred, lithe and dark,
-flushed at the prospect of early emancipation from Folly Corner, which
-had been to him merely a rambling prison with lax rules.
-
-“I’ve altered my mind,” she whispered hurriedly, not daring to look at
-him, not daring to stand close, for fear her hand should touch his
-coat-sleeve and make her waver. “I’ll stay. I’ll marry Jethro. Don’t
-come down. Lead your own life. In future, as you said, I shall only
-know you in the newspapers--a day late. I shall be content, happy;
-you’ll be free.”
-
-He stared at her in frank amazement. He was disappointed, astounded,
-relieved.
-
-“You’ll stay.” He gave his cynical smile; then, as Jethro came up, his
-face shining and his hands soiled with the poultry-yard, he strolled
-off.
-
-When breakfast was over she threw a look of meaning across the table
-and left the room. As she turned to shut the door she saw the two men
-disappear in the direction of Jethro’s little den--the home-made bureau
-was in there, with the secret drawer and the bank notes.
-
-Gainah was already settled at the oval table by the window, cutting
-patchwork hearts, with the aid of a piece of carefully shaped tin.
-
-Pamela went along the narrow passage into the drawing-room and tried to
-dust, to rearrange china, alter furniture--anything for bodily energy.
-
-Now and then she heard the loose lick of a plasterer’s brush. The
-workmen outside were whistling blithely and calling to each other. They
-all seemed to be named Bill. She sat down on the couch and laughed
-foolishly. Why was the workingman always called Bill?
-
-Nettie, the supercilious smirk stronger than usual on her pretty face,
-came in to ask for the grocer’s list; the man was at the back door
-waiting for orders. She gave it, forgetting nothing--table salt,
-bedroom candles, matches, more turpentine--they had their own
-beeswax--all the irritating, narrow things that make up the sum total
-of a well-managed house. When the girl had gone, she sat down,
-listening to the fluty whistles and rough voices outside, and wondering
-if she would ever again give the order for the grocer.
-
-She was a weathercock. Hadn’t she said that she would stay and be
-Jethro’s wife? Edred had not been disappointed--but then he took
-everything with a hard, cynical philosophy. She was to be Jethro’s
-wife. Then why did she listen so intently for the opening and shutting
-of doors; why gasp and spring to her feet at a footstep?
-
-She was standing, the checked duster in one hand, the other painfully
-at her side, when Jethro came in. Her white face was all lines and
-furrows.
-
-“I’ve given Edred the notes,” he said shortly. “He wants to be off as
-soon as possible. I shan’t go to the Flagon House; very likely I shall
-meet old Crisp at market to-morrow. We’ll all drive to the station in
-the wagonette after dinner.”
-
-He looked annoyed; the two hundred pounds had gone against the grain;
-he was naturally close-fisted--it was the quality which had made the
-fortunes of his house. Presently his face lighted, and he said:
-
-“What color would you like them to paint the outside of the place? The
-foreman suggests chocolate, but I fancy a nice green.”
-
-“It must be white,” she said positively. “That is fashionable now, and
-so clean and fresh--in the country.”
-
-“Then I’ll tell him white. You’d like to see the last of Edred? We
-might drive round by Turle on the way back; Nancy will be upset--I
-thought there would be a match there.”
-
-She didn’t answer; only rubbed viciously at the polished table.
-
-All that morning she kept away from Edred, although she saw him
-lounging about outside--in the garden, in the orchard, waiting for a
-word with her. At dinner-time she came down in her most becoming dress.
-Her cheeks were flushed, and her gray eyes sparkled and darted. She ate
-very little. The two men made a hearty meal, Edred very voluble betwixt
-his hurried mouthfuls--talking to Jethro in the superior, pitying way
-of the town man. Gainah said nothing; they had ceased to regard her.
-She was a machine. She stitched all day; she fed methodically; she
-stared at them with her glassy, stupid eyes.
-
-Jethro went out to hurry Daborn with the horse. Pamela, the untasted
-pudding steaming on her plate, got up with a jerk, and spoke of putting
-on her hat and gloves. Edred, who had been trying to catch her eye all
-through the meal, touched her softly on the back of the hand with his
-fingers. She gave a little cry, and flinched as if they had been hot
-coal. Her wide eyes, searching his face for the first time, were wildly
-appealing. He was piqued by her decision to stay behind and marry
-Jethro. Now that there was a chance of losing her, she suddenly became
-desirable.
-
-“This won’t do,” he whispered eagerly. “You must come.”
-
-“I can’t. Everything is settled.”
-
-“Pooh! You could arrange----”
-
-He had her hand. He was looking at her ardently. The impulse to go with
-him--let fate bring what it might--was strong. She looked at him. He
-was more in earnest, more in love than he had ever been. She had always
-understood that it was a mistake to let a man know you loved him--but
-then her feeling had always been so intense that she had been incapable
-of hiding it. Her love had bubbled in her eyes, on her eager lips. But
-it was bad strategy all the same.
-
-She looked at the cold, dim room, at the foolishly intent old woman by
-the window, stitching blue hearts on worn white dimity in a perfect
-fury of aimless industry. She looked at the grim shadow of the yew,
-at the yawning cavern of the open hearth, at the somber furniture. And
-she thought of London, with its glitter, its hurry, and vivacity.
-London and Love! She let her wrist relax, let her whole fluttering hand
-be buried in that long, cool one.
-
-“I might arrange----”
-
-She broke off as Jethro came through the low door.
-
-“You two ought to be ready,” he called out. “The horse is coming
-round.”
-
-She turned and faced him, with her cheeks like rouged cheeks and her
-eyes like polished, many-faceted diamonds.
-
-“There is really no need for you to go,” she said unsteadily “Edred
-wouldn’t mind. Let Daborn drive us. You know you had an appointment at
-the Flagon House.”
-
-“But that was this morning. Of course I’ll come. Be quick and get your
-hat on.”
-
-She went up the shallow stairs, woe at her wavering, passionate heart.
-It was no good; he must go alone. It was far better that he should go
-alone.
-
-“Edred can sit on the box with me. The wagonette is half filled up with
-luggage,” Jethro said, as she came out of the gate.
-
-“We can manage very well behind. Can’t we?” She turned, trembling, to
-Edred, who was digging at his shoes with the point of his cane.
-
-“Then jump in.” Jethro had the reins in his hand.
-
-They flashed along the white roads. She and Edred kept their hands
-clasped under the summer rug of Holland. Once she bent forward, first
-looking cautiously at the figure on the box, and shook her head, and
-whispered:
-
-“I can’t do it. You see he _would_ come.”
-
-Now and then Jethro, by a flick of his whip, pointed out some
-feature of great interest--to him: another farmer’s hay or cattle,
-a badly tilled field, a line of old cottages which he had been
-renovating--putting slate roofs in place of thatch and square panes of
-glass instead of lead lights. Those cottages were for Pamela; the rent
-would be her pin money.
-
-As they whizzed down the steep hill leading to the little wayside
-station, the signal fell. The porter, who was just throwing back the
-gates of the level crossing, waited for the horse to pass.
-
-“We mustn’t stop to see him off,” Jethro said, as Edred’s baggage was
-got out. “The mare shies at an engine.”
-
-“We must wait.”
-
-Her voice was so shrill that it startled her. She added, touching
-Jethro’s arm, and feeling like Jael of old as she did so:
-
-“Do please wait.”
-
-“Very well. Here, sonny; hold the horse.”
-
-He threw the reins to a boy, and the three of them walked into the tiny
-station. Edred went into the booking office for his ticket. On the
-platform there were several people--a few rustics, with baskets or
-bulging red cotton handkerchiefs; one young woman with a tight,
-leafless posy bound carefully round with newspaper.
-
-“He ought to have had some flowers,” Jethro said, throwing a glance
-inside at the lean figure at the ticket window.
-
-“What would be the good? He hasn’t any home. He will go to an hotel
-to-night.”
-
-A wild, impotent desire to go with him made her quiver.
-
-Another wagonette drove up and Mrs. Turle with Nancy alighted.
-
-The girl’s face flooded when she saw Edred--in dark clothes--and saw
-the various leather bags lying about on the platform. They were being
-hurriedly labeled by the porter.
-
-“Edred’s going away--for good.” Pamela turned her veiled cheek to the
-red lips.
-
-“To sea?”
-
-Nancy’s face grew piteous.
-
-“No. To the city.”
-
-“Then he will come down sometimes.”
-
-“Perhaps--but it is doubtful. He has found Folly Corner dull. London is
-so full of attractions for a man.”
-
-“Going away!” Aunt Sophy’s clear eyes seemed to pierce behind the lying
-mask of her burning face. “Isn’t it very sudden, dear? You look quite
-feverish, Pamela. A touch of headache?”
-
-“My head never aches,” she said, almost rudely.
-
-“Nancy and I will have an escort up. We are shopping; the summer sales
-get earlier and earlier every year.”
-
-The porter began to clang the noisy brass bell, and along the line,
-which ran perfectly straight for a mile or more, they saw the blue
-smoke and bulky, indistinct outline of the approaching engine:
-
-“I’ll go and hurry Edred.”
-
-She stepped out of the sun into the little booking-office, with its
-torn excursion-bills and gay pictures of ocean liners.
-
-He was scooping up his change, throwing it, with his accustomed
-carelessly reckless air, into his trousers pocket. The door of the
-waiting-room was half open. On the platform Aunt Sophy was talking
-earnestly to Jethro about farming affairs, and Nancy was staring at the
-enameled advertisement of a local seedsman.
-
-“Come in here for a moment.”
-
-She jerked her hand toward the open door. They went in. The window was
-of frosted glass.
-
-“I can’t go with you,” she said, looking up hopelessly through her
-veil. “You see how it is! Aunt Sophy and Nancy are going up. Everything
-is against us. Perhaps it is as well. Good-by.”
-
-He had never been so nearly disposed to sacrifice himself for a woman.
-Then, with his unquenchable selfishness, he remembered too that a
-pretty woman would be positively useful in his mode of life: many a
-dubious bit of business had been pulled off by a good dinner and an
-attractive woman. She was so devoted to him. A devoted woman was
-invaluable and very rare. They usually played their own game.
-
-He kissed her turbulently on her closed eyes, through the crisp net,
-on her burning cheeks and dry lips. They both felt the rush and sway of
-the train as it rushed into the station. They both became conscious of
-a figure in the narrow door. She lifted her head, unclasped her fierce
-arms, to see Jethro.
-
-“We were saying good-by,” she stammered.
-
-Edred was cool.
-
-“Pam and I have always been chums--we were left in the world together,”
-he said in a matter-of-fact way, and insolently meeting the doubt in
-Jethro’s steely eyes. “Good-by, old girl. By the way, I’ll send you a
-telegram when I get to town, just to let you know I am all right.”
-
-He went out into the sun, got into a carriage with the Turles, raised
-his hat gayly as the train steamed out.
-
-He was gone. It was all over. The railway banks were gay with
-snapdragons, self-sown; ferns had sown themselves in the cutting and
-thrust out their fronds like forked green tongues. The station-master’s
-black-and-tan terrier bounded round Pamela’s skirts. Every little thing
-was emphasized--as it would be in a nightmare.
-
-“Did you think to ask Aunt Sophy the name of her kitchen-range?” asked
-Jethro, as they went slowly up the hill.
-
-She was on the box beside him. She felt cold and sick. She looked back
-now and then at the empty seats.
-
-“It is the Camelot,” she returned mechanically, and for the rest of the
-drive she kept saying to herself, in a dazed way, “Camelot,” as if it
-were a new word.
-
-After tea Jethro drove to the Flagon House, saying he might stay to
-supper. Folly Corner was quiet, growing mystic with twilight. Pamela
-went down the bricked path, without a glance at the rich mosaic of the
-herbaceous borders, and stood between the poplars, her arms on the
-gate. By and by a boy came along the road. When he got close she saw
-that he carried a red envelope. She took it languidly, saying that
-there was no answer, and paying him sixpence for porterage.
-
- “Be ready to start for London with me at half-past ten to-night. Am
- coming back. Will wait under yew.”
-
-It had been sent from Liddleshorn. Edred was waiting at Liddleshorn
-now--waiting for the night, which was always kind to criminals.
-
-She went into the house, put a few things together. Jethro came in soon
-after nine. He was a bit surly--he had surly fits occasionally.
-To-night she took no notice. She couldn’t find it in her heart to look
-at him, knowing the part she was going to play.
-
-By ten she was dressed and standing under the yew. Her bag and
-umbrella, set against the wall of the house, seemed a grotesquely
-modern touch beside the silence and starlight, in contrast to the sharp
-delight and terror of her own face.
-
-How white and gaunt the ladders and scaffolding looked! What a queer,
-old-world interior the dining-room made! She could see straight
-through; they rarely drew the curtains these light June nights.
-
-The night-jar called harshly, a beetle dashed against her face, then
-whirred away. From the stall came loud, human-sounding, trumpeting
-moans. They made her shudder. She knew that one of the cows was
-calving. Once she saw the light of a lantern--muddy and yellow, like a
-bilious eye, beside the hard stars--go round the building. She hid
-behind the yew, listening to the steady clump of Boyce’s boots as he
-went in to tend the animal.
-
-The church clock struck a quarter to eleven. He was late, a quarter of
-an hour late; perhaps they wouldn’t catch the last up-train from
-Liddleshorn. Very likely he was out in the road merely waiting, as a
-matter of prudence, until Boyce went away. The loud moans of the
-tortured cow struck her heart.
-
-She strained her eyes, expecting every moment to see the tall, lithe
-figure steal across the garden. She strained her ears, imagining she
-heard the sharp ring of hoofs along the road. They came nearer, more
-certain, more distinct. She advanced like a guilty thing to the gate,
-creeping along in the starlight. Each time she reached the poplar there
-was perfect silence. Each time she looked along the road it stretched
-straight and blank across the common. Yet when she waited at the yew
-again she fancied that she heard the ring of those quick hoofs.
-
-The quarters chimed on. Boyce, with his yellow-eyed lantern, shuffled
-out of sight. The world was only stars and boding night-jar and
-sentinel trees which had hardly stirred a leaf in the hot, still air.
-
-Twelve! Two clocks chimed midnight together, tripping each other up,
-like stammering tongues.
-
-He would never come now. Even as she stood there, sick and flushing,
-the whistle of the last up-train tore the night, and on the horizon she
-saw the lurid tail of fire.
-
-She only wanted him to come, to creep behind the yew and kiss her, as
-he had kissed that little pink fool, Nancy Turle. She didn’t trouble
-her head about anything more; didn’t add to her agitation by worrying
-over practical details. They could walk under the stars until
-dawn--anything. Mere trifles like food, sleep, sore feet, light head,
-were nothing. If only he would come! Those maddening hoofs kept ringing
-along the road. A dozen times she ran along the bricked path.
-
-As the clock struck one she turned away, went under the hooded door
-like a thief, up the still staircase into her own room. She flung
-herself, wide awake, dry-eyed, and tingling, on her smooth bed.
-
-At two she heard the steady passing of feet--not Boyce’s this time.
-With a strangled cry of joy she slipped off the bed and glided to the
-open window. The stars were clouded, and a violent summer rain struck
-straight from the sky. The feet stopped below Jethro’s window, a rattle
-of gravel went against the glass. She looked out cautiously; listened;
-heard Chalcraft tell his master that the ricks were not covered.
-Jethro answered back that he, too, had heard the rain, and would be
-down directly.
-
-She heard him go down, heard the feet of the two men die away. Every
-star was hidden. It was too dark to see anything.
-
-She returned to the bed without undressing. She lay there flat on her
-back, fully clothed, with her hands and lips clenched. Jethro came back
-to the house, to his bed. She heard him steal by her door without his
-shoes.
-
-There was silence. Then the restless life of the farm began. Cocks
-crowed; there were feet along the wet road. Across the fields, through
-the dimness and mystery of the half-born day, Boyce, the cowman, was
-weirdly hooting in the morning mist for the cattle to come and be
-milked.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIII.
-
-
-“MOTHER used to say that when a girl was married she should wear a
-bonnet and never jest with gentlemen. Mrs. Clutton’s hats are very
-large, and her manner to Jim has always been flippant.”
-
-Annie Jayne, her hair already thin at the temples, and her pretty
-narrow brow seamed with a thousand solicitous premature creases, looked
-down fondly at her second baby. Its legs had been unswathed; it was
-kicking and gurgling on the drawing-room rug.
-
-“She certainly is a little flippant--I must say that,” admitted Aunt
-Sophy diplomatically, as she beamed at the rug, and gave vent to a
-voluble string of infantile expletives.
-
-“You never should have called on her,” Maria Furlonger cried
-reproachfully. “And it did have boofy nickle legs, so it did.”
-
-She, too, beamed at the baby. He returned her wide grin with a look of
-stolid, pitying superiority. Annie, her eyes swimming with tenderness
-as they rested on the naked, purplish limbs, said:
-
-“Isn’t it _wonderful_, the way he takes notice?”
-
-“She is no more married than you are--than I am,” Maria continued,
-returning to the attack, and pulling her mouth back to its natural
-limits.
-
-Annie and Aunt Sophy froze a little after the manner of matrons. They
-said instinctively and together:
-
-“My _dear!_”
-
-“A married man never sneaks home to his wife after dark when he has
-been away for months,” Maria persisted. “It was past ten. Mrs. Daborn
-was calling in her cat--the tortoiseshell she has had for sixteen
-years. You know that Si Daborn’s cottage is just opposite the Buttery.
-She saw him go in like a thief--not even a hand-bag.”
-
-“A married man always has luggage. Mother used to pack father’s bag
-herself. If there are buttons off or a thin place in the socks it
-reflects on the wife.”
-
-“I must say”--Aunt Sophy held out her finger for the child to
-clutch--“that a gentleman doesn’t usually--return from South
-America----”
-
-“Without so much as a tooth-brush,” broke in Maria.
-
-“He might have had it in his pocket,” Annie reminded her gently. “We
-mustn’t condemn until we are certain.”
-
-“They came down quite coolly to breakfast in the morning,” Maria
-continued. “Not a word of explanation to Tryphena--Hone’s eldest girl;
-the Hones of Marrow’s farm. I was always against Tryphena taking
-service at the Buttery. The Hones are in my district.”
-
-There was a little pause. The baby broke it by cooing. Then Maria cried
-out suddenly:
-
-“Good gracious! He can’t be the Birmingham murderer in hiding at the
-Buttery. He may be her husband, after all--which makes it all the more
-reprehensible. Mrs. Daborn tells me he looked a _most_ suspicious
-character: one of those men with a bronzed face, bold eyes, and a suit
-with a large check.”
-
-“Mrs. Si Daborn is nearly blind with cataract.”
-
-“You always try to make out a good case for people, Annie. Mrs. Si
-Daborn can see a large-checked suit. She is a most respectable old
-soul; I think a great deal of her judgment. Her eldest daughter married
-a builder; he is in a large way of business at Walthamstow.”
-
-“A murderer! Maria!” Aunt Sophy for once forgot to be diplomatically
-gentle. “I must say that it isn’t wise to talk so wildly. You’ll
-frighten Annie and upset the darling baby.”
-
-“The Birmingham murderer! Is that the man who murdered his employer and
-his employer’s six motherless children? Boiled them in the copper,
-didn’t he?”
-
-Annie put the questions quite calmly--as if they merely referred to a
-family recipe for making pickled walnuts.
-
-“Yes, that’s the man.”
-
-“Then he can’t be at the Buttery. Jim brought home the evening paper
-from Liddleshorn. There is a portrait of the murderer and his
-victims--_before_ they went into the copper--poor things. He was
-arrested. He committed suicide in his cell.”
-
-The sweet, spiteful expression stole across Aunt Sophy’s face as she
-glanced at Maria, who only said tartly:
-
-“He wasn’t the only criminal in the country, after all. Read the papers
-regularly, both of you, and see how many crimes there are which are
-never fastened on to the right person.”
-
-“I rather thought,” said Annie placidly, “that Pamela would come up to
-tea. I told her that I was going to short-coat baby to-day.”
-
-“Rather funny about her brother, wasn’t it?”
-
-Maria had a faculty for starting aggressive subjects.
-
-Aunt Sophy put on her best dignity air--the air she adopted toward
-people who only kept one servant, who hadn’t a “conveyance,” who didn’t
-get invited to the Vicarage.
-
-“I used to think that he was courting Nancy,” Maria continued,
-unabashed.
-
-“My dear! What an extraordinary notion! Isn’t darling Maria’s brain
-original, Annie? Nancy is almost engaged to Mr. Minns, the Liddleshorn
-curate. He is an extremely intellectual young man. Naturally he was
-drawn to Nancy, whose tastes are so literary.”
-
-Pamela was slowly driving up the hill in her governess car. She was
-startled by a sharp voice behind. It took little to startle her. Her
-gray eyes had lately a vague, fixed look--they seemed to petrify as the
-wedding-day grew near--a day not to be evaded.
-
-“I thought that I should never make you hear.” Mrs. Clutton put one
-hand on the cart and the other to her pulsing brown throat.
-
-“I’m sorry. Jump in. Are you going to the Mount?”
-
-“Not I. My reception wouldn’t be warm.” She laughed merrily. “You must
-have heard the scandal.”
-
-“What scandal?”
-
-Pamela’s high voice seemed to whistle through her teeth; the reins
-dropped slackly on Betsy’s back.
-
-“About my husband, of course. He came home quite unexpectedly last
-night; came just as he was from his club, where he is putting up until
-we settle. I opened the door myself; Tryphena was in bed. He looked so
-big and brown and self-assured--so prosperous--nothing of the flabby,
-dubious, hard-up artist about him. He ate cold pork for supper, and
-slept all night. No more dyspepsia, no more rows! He is a success--a
-decent income assured us for life. He climbed some peak in America that
-no one else has ever climbed. His book will be the sensation of the
-season.”
-
-She stopped, her black eyes snapping and gleaming.
-
-“I’m very glad,” Pamela said, with a kind of sad heartiness. “Very glad
-that someone is going to be happy.”
-
-“Someone else, you mean. Your happiness is beyond question, though
-happiness is only attitude. What alterations Mr. Jayne is making at
-Folly Corner!”
-
-“We couldn’t do without a new wing. A country house isn’t complete
-without a billiard-room,” Pamela said, with her limp, forced air of
-breeding, of doing the “correct thing.”
-
-“And your brother will be bringing men down, week ends, no doubt.”
-
-“Edred!” She caught the reins up tightly. “He will not come again.”
-
-Mrs. Clutton looked at her shrewdly. Then she said:
-
-“Tim and I are to live at Chelsea; one of those delightful new houses,
-all white paint and wrought iron. He has gone back to town. He is much
-too busy to stay. I am making all arrangements for leaving the Buttery
-at the end of the week. He was so delighted with the oak. When I showed
-him my notebook, full of rustic skeletons, he fairly shouted. It will
-make a most sensational thing to run in an up-to-date paper: daily
-installments, skillfully backed up by interviews, paragraphs,
-photographs of the Chelsea house, when we are settled.”
-
-“There is nothing scandalous in all this.”
-
-“How discursive I am! Never mind. You will hear it all, from the proper
-point of view, at the Mount. I can see them sitting in judgment! Annie
-Jayne, quoting her mother; that horrid Maria Furlonger, an animated
-sneer; dear Mrs. Turle, trying to pull both ways, enjoying the scandal
-and yet not wishing to take sides against me, in case Tim should turn
-out all right and be a vehicle for eligible bachelors. She has a fury
-for marrying Nancy.
-
-“A married man should come back with his halter round his neck. Tim
-should have had the station fly full of boxes. He just walked in
-without a word--without a clean collar or a nightshirt. I thought that
-he was in Venezuela. When Tryphena saw us both come down next morning
-she dropped the butter-dish--hand-painted willow--the little fool! Then
-she sneaked off and told her mother. Mrs. Hone, very fat, very shiny
-with outraged virtue, came back to say that she couldn’t allow _her_
-girl to stay in such a place. _Her_ children had always been brought
-up respectable. No one could say that one of _her_ daughters had been
-compelled to marry in a hurry.”
-
-“And you are going away? You won’t be here for my wedding--a week next
-Thursday.”
-
-“I’m afraid not. But you must come and see us in town. I’ve told Tim
-all about you. He adores big, dun-haired girls. He likes women as he
-likes wine--with body.
-
-“I want you to go to Mrs. Hone’s,” she continued, “that is why I ran
-after the cart. Say I’ll give her five shillings for that figure with
-the skull in its hand. Tim thinks an exhibition of Staffordshire would
-be a good idea.”
-
-“Bert Hone’s?”
-
-“Yes. He is dead. Queer old savage! Good-by. I’m going to talk to the
-landlord of the Buttery.”
-
-She turned off at the cross-roads. Pamela drove to Mrs. Hone’s, haggled
-for the figure, wrapped it in newspaper, and put it in the cart. As she
-did so she mentioned carelessly that Mrs. Clutton was going away.
-
-“Be she now?” the doubled-up old woman cried. “Sure! London now. You
-don’t say so, my dear soul. I shall miss her. When my man died she came
-in to look at him. He worked up to the very last, although he was so
-old--past eighty. He took his turn with the hayin’. He never wasted a
-hour; it was Sunday when he died, so it was. She come and looked at
-him a-layin’ in his coffin, and she shed a tear. The other ladies gi’
-me black clothes. Young Mis’ Jayne up at the Mount brought the little
-baby for me to see, and Mis’ Turle sent Miss Nancy down with a bottle
-o’ doctor’s stuff--it’s nothin’ but camphor; jest smell it. But Mis’
-Clutton brought a fine wreath like wax. He went down into his grave as
-if he was a gentleman farmer. Nobody else thought o’ flowers; wreaths
-aint for the likes o’ we.”
-
-As Pamela turned the pony’s head she decided not to go to the Mount
-that day. There were still moments when Annie’s impenetrability and
-Aunt Sophy’s phlegm jarred.
-
-She drove home across the common. It was a burning day--the last in
-July. There was a ticking sound in the hot air, as the black seed pods
-of the broom burst. High in the sky was an intense angry sun, swept now
-and then by boding thunder-clouds. Across the common stretched a carpet
-of heather, exquisite purple, just breaking into bloom. When she turned
-off and drove down Waggoner’s Lane on the way to Folly Corner, the
-hedges were full of blackberry blossoms, widely opened, and pale
-heliotrope. There was a fishy smell of privet from a cottage garden,
-and the soft, tearing swish of a scythe came from a field. The high
-hedges were hung with butter-colored hay, which had caught in the
-branches as the loaded wain toiled by. At Folly Corner, in her
-garden, the long edgings of white pinks were dry, and brown, and
-scentless, and sad. The elder tree which hung over the barn was shabby.
-The leaves on the poplars rustled dryly, as they never had done in
-June.
-
-The newspaper, which the carrier brought daily from Liddleshorn, was on
-the table in the corridor, neatly folded, tied with twine, and
-addressed to Jethro. She carried it into the drawing-room and read it
-listlessly. Politics didn’t interest her--foreign politics in
-particular seemed singularly superfluous. But she read the art
-notices and the reviews of new books as a matter of duty, and the
-advertisements as a matter of interest. There were twelve pages to the
-paper that day. One was taken up with an advertisement--the prospectus
-of a new company. It was something about a ruby mine--it didn’t matter
-much, anyhow. She was far too languid to read it all. Still, her eye
-ran listlessly down. When she came to the names of the directors she
-cried out. Edred Crisp, Esq., of Marquise Mansions, W., headed the
-list.
-
-That name brought everything back. She drove it into her brain letter
-by letter. She stared at it so long, so fixedly, that her eyes played
-pranks, and the one name, Edred Crisp, took up the whole sheet.
-
-There was a barking of dogs, a grating grind of wheels outside,
-Jethro’s voice. She jumped up, her face suddenly stern, desperate. She
-looked out of the window, her head framed in fully-blown roses which
-had shriveled and turned brown.
-
-“Come in here,” she said metallically, looking at the spare figure and
-keen, kind eyes. “I want to speak to you.”
-
-“My boots are dirty.”
-
-“Never mind. Come now; if you don’t, I may change again, and that will
-be the worse for both of us.”
-
-Until he came in at the door, stooping his head a little because it was
-so low, she kept her throbbing eyes upon those words, “Edred Crisp,
-Esq., Marquise Mansions, W.”
-
-“I’ve been to Liddleshorn and seen Preece about the wedding-cake,” he
-said.
-
-“The wedding-cake!” she repeated blankly. “Oh, you need not have
-troubled. It does not matter in the least.”
-
-Jethro was looking puzzled--a little annoyed, too. Her unequal moods of
-late vexed him. He was a short-tempered man, given to fits of silence
-and _brusquerie_, just as his father had been. Men in the country are
-often so; she had noticed that young Jim Jayne snubbed Annie. In towns
-a man goes out and blows off his temper--at his club or a music-hall;
-in the country he vents it on his women.
-
-“Doesn’t matter? That sounds strange from you, Pamela.”
-
-She laughed. The steady look in her eyes, the lambent light on
-her face, struck him. She seemed swept, dominated by a sudden
-fierce, irrevocable decision. The newspaper, wide open at the
-page-advertisement of the new company, was on her knees. She put her
-finger under Edred’s name and showed it to him.
-
-“Umph! Well, he has never written a line since he went away--didn’t
-even send the telegram. Still, I’m glad he’s getting on. Looks like
-business, doesn’t it?” He read the name and address in a rather
-awe-struck way. “There seems to be money in that. How much capital, do
-they say? He hasn’t been long in making his fortune. Perhaps he’ll pay
-me back the two hundred. It was understood between us to be only a
-loan--if he succeeded. What are the Chinese beggars doing at----”
-
-He lifted the paper to turn it. She drew it away.
-
-“Never mind the Chinese. You will have time--your whole life--for
-them.”
-
-“My whole life!” He laughed. “By Jove! we mean to settle them in less
-than a month--judging by the telegrams. Just let me have a look at the
-summary, dear.”
-
-“But I want to speak to you.”
-
-“You have spoken. It was to tell me about Edred, wasn’t it?”
-
-“About Edred--yes.”
-
-“You haven’t had a letter from him? You don’t know anything but that?”
-He pointed to the paper.
-
-She shook her head.
-
-“I’ve never had a letter from him since he left; but this,” she put her
-finger on the words, “has decided me. The mere look of the letters put
-together to form _him_ was enough. Can’t you guess, Jethro? You are not
-stupid.”
-
-“Guess!” An angry darkness suddenly overspread his face. “Guess what?”
-
-“You don’t guess. You only suspect--and suspicion never decides a
-woman’s fate. I shall have to tell you.”
-
-She seemed to pull herself together, giving a last fierce look of
-affection round the room and out of the window, at the flowers and the
-fripperies that she was so fond of. Then she said coldly--with the
-unerring cold, callousness of steel:
-
-“Edred is not my brother. He was my lover in London. We were engaged to
-be married. He got into trouble--some business affair. The others were
-to blame. They got away and he had to pay the penalty. When I came here
-he was in prison. I decided never to see him again; not to let him know
-my address. He came to the back door with machines that day--that day,
-dear; oh, Jethro, I’m so sorry--when you gave me the check for my
-wedding things and asked me about the pet lamb. I can’t marry you; I
-can’t stay. He doesn’t love me--as you do. He’ll be unkind to me: he’s
-that sort of man. I’m a fool, a traitor--everything that is ignoble.
-Why don’t you strike me?” She threw up her face and looked at him
-mournfully--that wild, sharp face, which was just a mask for her
-racking brain.
-
-“Why don’t you curse me? I have spoilt your life--but it might have
-been worse. If he came back, or sent a message saying he wanted me, I
-should have gone. Yes, your wife, Jethro, would have gone. I’ve been
-trying to cure myself. I saw his name, and it all came back. He was the
-first man--no one else before had said or looked love, or kissed
-me. I suppose that must be the reason. There can be no other--he is
-worthless. You are a god compared to him. But he was first. I can’t
-help it.” She shook her head hopelessly, the molten, heavy tears
-rolling slowly down her face.
-
-“That isn’t all. You shall know the very worst. Then you won’t care so
-much. You’ll drive me away from Folly Corner--and forget. Marry some
-good, even-minded girl--some girl without the horrible strength that I
-have. I must tell you the rest. He did send a telegram. You were at the
-Flagon House. He said he was coming back to fetch me. I waited under
-the yew until past midnight. He never came. Until to-day, until I saw
-this”--she touched his name--“I thought--I hoped that he might be dead.
-He wouldn’t have any power over me then.
-
-“You saw him kissing me in the waiting-room. Why didn’t you guess
-then--why did you stop short--just suspecting? Suspicion is no good--it
-is only a petty thing. If you had not driven us to the station I should
-have gone to London with him. That day I kept changing my mind. Do
-speak, Jethro. Don’t look at me in that queer way. You must be angry.
-Show it. Strike me. Call me all the disgraceful names you are surely
-thinking.”
-
-He got up, giving himself a slow shake in the shaggy coat of homespun,
-which was of a very light color and looked something like hairy
-sacking.
-
-“You must go to him,” he said simply, not a trace of anger on his face.
-“It’s natural--I wouldn’t stand up against Nature for the world.
-Nature mates us all--no good our meddling. Even with the cattle----”
-
-“Never mind the cattle,” she broke in, her squeamishness asserting
-itself even now--his speech was apt to be blunt enough when he spoke of
-the simple facts which he had been accustomed to take as a matter of
-course all his life.
-
-“You can’t help it,” he continued, with superb generosity. “I don’t
-blame you. He was first--you were meant for him. It isn’t your
-fault--or his. I am the fool, the meddler. You can’t mate through the
-newspaper. I ought to have known.”
-
-He went toward the door, his head down, his face gentle and strong. She
-started up.
-
-“You are not going?”
-
-“There is nothing to stay for.”
-
-“You don’t say one word of blame----”
-
-“It is no good, and I have no right. Go to him, dear.”
-
-“You forgive me?”
-
-“There is nothing to forgive. I should have done as you have done. Not
-a woman in the world would hold me back from you, if you were free.”
-
-“But the wedding? What will people say?”
-
-“Let them say. That’s nothing.”
-
-“Those things are everything. You are going to live and die in this
-place. For your sake, not mine”--she looked lingeringly at the yellow
-fields and rainbow flower-beds--“we must tell Aunt Sophy a plausible
-story. I’ll write a note, tell her that Edred is ill--a long
-illness--and wants me. Later on, by degrees, you can let them know that
-I am never coming back.”
-
-“You’ll tell her that Edred is ill--a long illness--and wants you,” he
-repeated in a slow, painstaking voice, as if, for her sake, he was very
-anxious to remember. “Very well, I’ll try not to forget. Would you like
-me to drive you to the station this afternoon?”
-
-He saw the lightening of her face.
-
-“So soon! But I could be ready. I’ll start packing now.” She went
-crisply across the room. “But not you. Let Daborn drive.”
-
-“I’d rather come, if it’s the same to you. There’s a train at four.”
-
-“Four. Very well.”
-
-“We can have an early tea. You like your tea.”
-
-“Tea--yes.”
-
-“Take some flowers. There are plenty of eggs, too. Some of those early
-pullets are laying already, although the old birds are on the moult. He
-liked quince jam. Could you manage to pack a pot or so?”
-
-“Jethro!” Her keen voice made the name more a shrill, birdlike cry than
-a word. “I can’t bear to hear you talk so calmly. I would not mind so
-much if you looked the martyr. But you sound so every-day--quince jam,
-pullet eggs! And yet I know how bitterly you care.”
-
-“I must try not to. I’ve made a muddle. I hurried things when I should
-have let them alone.”
-
-“You’ll forget,” she said, with miserable lack of conviction. “We
-shall be--Edred and I--a bad dream. Never trouble to give us a
-thought.”
-
-“But I shall expect to hear from you; to see you, perhaps, if I go to
-London. I’ve often thought of a week in London. I haven’t been since my
-father died. We saw most of the sights, but missed the Doré Gallery.
-Everyone ought to go there.”
-
-She gasped.
-
-“You could come up, see us together--man and wife. You can talk of the
-Doré Gallery!”
-
-“Why not? I mustn’t lose sight of you, my mother’s kin.”
-
-“Kin!” she cried out, with bitter scorn for herself and Edred. “He
-isn’t, at all events. His real name I don’t know; he was sentenced as
-Edred Pugin. As for me! Very likely my father was not your missing
-uncle at all. I hope not--for your sake. I’m no credit to you.”
-
-“You must send me your address. If that ruby company is good and all
-the shares are not allotted, I’ve money lying by--I shan’t need to
-spend so much now----”
-
-“You don’t know Edred. Never let him have another penny. He has done
-you harm enough. You won’t want our address; we shan’t be creditable
-people--for you to know. Up to-day and down to-morrow--I know the life
-I’m going to lead. But I step into it with my eyes open,
-because--because it will be with him. I want you to know the very worst
-of me--you’ll be cured all the sooner. Your misery is nothing--compared
-to him. My heart is all stone--until he dissolves it. He doesn’t
-want me. But I’m glad, mad to go. Remember all this when I’m gone. Say
-she was a callous, reckless, scheming, unprincipled creature--she is
-well forgotten.”
-
-She slipped past him, and out of the room, and up the stairs. Once he
-thought he heard her sing and then stop abruptly. He went out and
-tramped moodily across his acres, finding fault with everything,
-swearing freely at the men, kicking his dog, and roughly ordering away
-a party of children who were playing in the meadow.
-
-Pamela packed. She said good-by to Gainah, who never troubled to lift
-her head, tipped the two maids. When she told them, in a marked and
-significant way, that her brother was dangerously ill, pretty Nettie
-began to blubber.
-
-When the wagonette was out of sight Gainah put her patchwork away
-methodically. Then she went into the garden, looking at things
-critically, speaking to Daborn in a sharp voice--the imperious voice of
-old. She was a little cramped yet--mentally and bodily. But the fact
-that Pamela had gone was beginning to glimmer in on her poor
-intelligence. When she saw the housekeeping keys in the basket, she
-picked them up and dropped them in her deep pocket with a cunning
-chuckle. Then she marched solemnly into the kitchen.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIV.
-
-
-WHEN Pamela walked out into the yard at Victoria, the stale stable
-smell, the heavy air, and coarse sounds instantly made her feel at
-home. The last time she had breathed London was on that hot, stifling
-August morning nearly a year ago when she had started for Folly Corner.
-Her head had been heavy then, her eyes inflamed with crying, her feet
-sore and burning with the ceaseless, hopeless walk of the night
-before--backward and forward across the common, keeping the stolid
-prison--his shameful casket--in sight.
-
-To-day her mouth curved happily, the blood ran in and out of her face
-with the intensity of her emotion. Folly Corner was far behind
-her--behind forever; Aunt Sophy, Nancy, Annie--all the kind,
-slow-witted women--were mere phantoms; Jethro, clumping his fields
-stupidly, his head hanging, his big heart sore, was simply a rustic
-figure of no particular interest.
-
-That life at Folly Corner had been a different incarnation. The one
-moment when it seemed real was when a ruddy-faced man had brushed by
-her on the platform--a pointed Niphetos rosebud in his coat. She
-thought then fleetly of her garden, of all the bushes which had been
-her choice, which had been planted for her.
-
-She listened joyously to the hoarse voices of the drivers, to the
-mellow rattle of the piano-organ playing a tune which she had never
-heard. An orderly boy, looking pertly up in her face as she got into
-the cab, said:
-
-“Now we _shan’t_ be long.”
-
-That must be the new catchword; once she had been well up in these
-things. Edred had taken her to music-halls.
-
-How hot and misty and stuffy it was! And how delicious! She leaned back
-in the cab, laughing softly and continuously, like a mad thing. Then
-she began to be afraid, not knowing how Edred would receive her. Then
-she smiled again, knowing that she knew how to make herself
-adorable--at least for a little while. There were certain gestures,
-certain airs and words, which always pleased him. She coaxed a finger
-under her veil, and pulled a loose bit of hair on the temple over her
-brow. He liked loose hair.
-
-It was a misty, gray-gold afternoon. London was empty--for London.
-
-The Green Park was thick and mystic, the white frocks of the little
-children standing out solidly in the haze; an occasional white
-perambulator moving along slowly, like a fairy boat.
-
-Marquise Mansions. The cab pulled up. The driver called out ironically
-to the conductor of a Hammersmith omnibus, “Fancy meeting _you!_”--that
-must be another catchword. How she had lost touch of the gay, silly,
-witty London life! She had been contemptuous of it, imagined that she
-hated it, that she only longed for it because Edred was there. Was it
-possible that only yesterday, about this time, she had been watching
-Jethro’s cart horses, with their elaboration of brass harness and head
-decking? She had thought then that the country was so large, so utterly
-satisfying; that towns, with their hotbed air of struggle and scheming,
-would choke her. Only yesterday! It had all faded into a sad, tender
-dream. She was very glad to be awake again. Marquise Mansions!
-
-It was a leviathan block of latter-day flats; red brick, white paint
-already turning smoke-colored, muslin curtains at the windows, little
-fragile balconies to the upper stories. A maid in smart black-and-white
-livery came daintily out and flicked a duster over one of the
-balconies. She looked down into the street and smirked at a man with a
-milk cart.
-
-The place was like Edred. It was a typical place for him to choose: all
-swagger show, all glitter, very smart and ostentatious, very thin.
-
-She dismissed her cab, went up the tesselated steps, consulted the
-names which were displayed on the wall. The hall porter rang the lift
-bell. The lift came down. She got in, reclined on the thickly-cushioned
-back, and watched the floors skim by, dip down.
-
-Edred was on the third. She knocked with some trepidation at the
-extravagantly shaped copper knocker which flaunted itself on a peacock
-door. A little pert page, all claret cloth and gilt buttons, opened it.
-She caught her breath at the color and depth of the carpets lying on
-the stained floor, at great copper bowls and decorative dishes which
-were disposed on shelves in a room with a half-opened door.
-
-“Is Mr. Crisp in?”
-
-The little page smiled knowingly; it was a very horrible smile, on such
-a chubby, child face. He didn’t seem at all surprised at the advent of
-such a visitor--a handsome woman, young and well dressed. It was
-evident--her blazing, aching heart told her this--that she was only one
-of a type.
-
-“Mr. Crisp is in, miss. What name?”
-
-“Never mind. Tell him an old friend.”
-
-He left her in a little ante-room, dainty, extravagant, luxurious, with
-an oriel window looking over the park. She had composure enough to get
-up and put her face close to an oval, gilt-framed glass which hung
-above the hearth. She had hardly turned away when the door opened. With
-lips parted and hands out she advanced, then fell back as a strange man
-put his chin and a pair of keen eyes round the lintel. He was a
-nondescript. She took an instant dislike to the weak face and reedy
-figure. He was dressed in brown tweed of an ugly herring-bone pattern;
-he had a thick new watch-chain. She didn’t know who he was, but she
-instantly hated--and resented--him.
-
-He came a little farther into the room, looked at her thoughtfully,
-critically--as a lady’s-maid might at her lady’s new gown--possibly to
-be hers some day. Then he, too, grinned. The glance instantly fired
-her; she looked and almost spoke indignant remonstrance. But the
-strange man merely grinned again and slipped away. She was left alone.
-
-Edred was a very long time. When at last she heard lagging feet, the
-ball in her throat--of frenzied delight, of trepidation and
-tumult--nearly choked her.
-
-He was faultlessly dressed. He looked prosperous--a bit bored and
-languid--that was part of his mask--but happy and very much plumper.
-She fancied that his puffy cheeks detracted from his good looks. He
-hadn’t missed her. He had left her at Folly Corner--to die if she
-liked, to do worse--without caring.
-
-She struggled up from the extravagantly stuffed divan of figured silk.
-
-“Edred!”
-
-“By Jove! Pam! You?”
-
-She had nervously pulled her gloves off while she waited. His eyes fell
-to her hands at once. There wasn’t a ring on them.
-
-“Whew! He hasn’t found out? The wedding isn’t off?”
-
-“Aren’t you glad to see me?”
-
-“My dear little girl--it is such a surprise. Fancy meeting _you!_” he
-laughed airily. “Where’s old Jeth? What’s the joke?” His eyes fell to
-her hands again. “You’re married? It was to be the sixth--wasn’t it?
-No--the sixteenth?” He looked at a calendar.
-
-“The tenth.”
-
-“To-day’s the fourth. Are you playing a trick? How did you know I was
-here? I say, Pam, be square. Is he--Jethro, you know--waiting outside?
-The old fellow must look odd in a frock-coat. Does he lift each foot
-along the pavement, as if he were walking through stubble? If he’s up,
-I can give him a good tip. The new company----”
-
-“The ruby mine. I know. I saw your name--that is why I came.”
-
-“Does he want an investment?”
-
-She clasped her hands with an air of hopeless, helpless tragedy.
-
-“You men are all alike. Can’t you see an inch before your nose? Do you
-think I should come up here about rubies? Oh! can’t you see it on my
-face? Jethro was just as bad; he made me tell him everything.”
-
-“Everything?”
-
-His handsome face became blank.
-
-“Everything.” She threw a hard laugh at him. “Everything--No. 4658 and
-all.”
-
-“You didn’t?”
-
-“I did. It is your fault. I couldn’t marry him, Eddie. I had to come.
-He wished it. He knows everything. He sent me.”
-
-“He sent you to me?”
-
-“Yes.” She was growing deadly pale. “Don’t you want me? I can go
-away--but not to Folly Corner. That is finished.”
-
-He looked troubled, stroking and tugging the coal-black, silky
-mustache. He raised his eyes to her, then dropped them to the ground.
-
-She had fallen back, her lids half fallen. It was a hot day; it had
-been a long journey. She was very tired, quite faint. She didn’t think
-she cared much, now that he evidently didn’t. Yet, never for a moment
-did she regret leaving Jethro; never for a moment entertain the idea of
-going back. She shut her eyes, listening quite listlessly to the rumble
-of life below. Her fate had long ago passed out of her own hands. She
-was a chattel in spirit; although free in letter. Let him settle what
-he liked.
-
-She was roused by a kiss on her mouth. Edred was on the lounge. His
-face was tender--the bold, assured tenderness that always made her
-happy.
-
-“Good little girl,” he said, in the half-sneering, half-caressing voice
-which was his nearest approach to adoration. “Good little girl to come.
-You must stay with me. I’ve missed you, Pam. You had the telegram?”
-
-She let her head stay on his arm; she stretched her dusty feet out
-wearily, with a gesture of absolute content.
-
-“Yes. It was dangerous; Jethro might have opened it. I waited by the
-yew half the night. Why didn’t you come?”
-
-“Because I had just a shred or so of honor left----”
-
-“The evasive thing that men call honor! I never could understand it.”
-
-“A woman doesn’t. Jethro--poor old man--had been devilish good. The two
-‘hun’ put me on my feet, Pam. Like the place?” He nodded his head
-comprehensively at the luxury which walled them. “Decentish, isn’t it?”
-
-“It’s very nice. Why didn’t you come, or write? It nearly broke my
-heart. If I had not seen your name in the paper yesterday I should have
-married Jethro.”
-
-“I’m very glad you didn’t.” He looked sleepily at the beauty of her
-flushed cheeks, at the depths of her happy eyes. “You saw the page
-advertisement in the _Standard?_ We’re spending thousands in
-advertisements--throw a sprat to catch a herring. Does the carrier
-still bring the paper? What’s the fellow’s name?”
-
-“Buckman.”
-
-“That’s it. The same slow old horse--Hackty. You see I’ve remembered
-that. I suppose they mean it for Hector, or perhaps Active. Gad! what a
-sleepy hole! I felt like being in a dentist’s chair the whole time,
-half under the gas, you know, just going off. If you went back in fifty
-years, they’d be just the same. It’s so precious dull that they’d blow
-their brains out--if they had any.”
-
-“Jethro has been so good,” she said, feeling numbly that Jethro was
-already very, very far away. She actually laughed, adding: “He insisted
-on my bringing up flowers, eggs, some quince jam.”
-
-“That stunning quince jam,” he said boyishly. “Jeth’s a good sort. Was
-he very much cut up? It was too bad.” He gave her another kiss, without
-any protest on her part, any courtliness on his; quite as a matter of
-course.
-
-“He was splendid. Poor, dear old Jethro! You wouldn’t understand.
-You’ll only laugh. You always laugh at things that make me want to
-cry--it’s the way with a man. He was so simple, so grand. He was like
-a Greek god, very calm, but not a bit indifferent. He regarded it so
-broadly--talked of Nature. He is all Nature. He is a great, simple,
-clean-living ox--slow, reflective, not a bit stupid. He seemed to be
-above or past all the small teasing, tearing strings which drag mean
-hearts like yours and mine. I’ve been talking a great deal of nonsense
-and you are annoyed.”
-
-She looked quite frightened as Edred got up abruptly and rang the bell.
-The past ten minutes had been so sweet that she would have accepted
-them willingly as eternity.
-
-“Not a bit.” He shrugged. “But it’s rather rough to compare him to one
-of his own oxen. Do you remember how proud he was of his
-stock--murderous black beasts with tremendous horns? I tell you I
-didn’t half like crossing some of those fields in the twilight.”
-
-The page came in. He looked at her boldly as she sat on the couch. She
-decided that her first step of authority should be the dismissal of
-that boy. Edred ordered tea. Everything was dainty, strangely dainty to
-her, because she was fresh from the coarse, lavish hospitality of
-Sussex. The sandwiches were evanescent--a suggestion of yellow and
-green. Edred tilted the cream into her cup; at Folly Corner they often
-had to put up with skim milk because Jethro insisted on having so many
-pounds of butter made weekly. He had his stern economies; believed in
-making farming thoroughly pay. When eggs fetched more than a shilling a
-dozen almost every one was sent to market.
-
-There were French cakes, toast cut in mathematically exact triangles.
-The aroma of the tea seemed to fill the room. They sat by the open
-window, an inlaid table spread with exquisitely drawn linen between
-them. She looked at the road, across the railings into the park, where
-an occasional carriage drove through the haze. She looked at Edred. The
-prison stain was completely gone. His diamond ring, the pin at his
-neck, all his indications of prosperity, pleased her. And yet she
-thought the diamonds ostentatious. If he had been a portly man, instead
-of a slim and elegant one, he would have been vulgar.
-
-She was always touched by externals--had a painful respect for the
-things money gave. In the midst of her intense happiness she paused to
-consider discreetly that, love apart, Edred was a more eligible husband
-than Jethro. She thought of Jethro--that side of him which had always
-jarred on her: his half-sheepish, half-surly air in the presence of
-strangers, his shy avoidance of women. Then she thought of his
-toilet--the striped tags of his thick boots, which were generally
-hanging out, the black suit, which he would speak of as his “best”; his
-week-day shirts of galatea; his best white ones, which he did not often
-wear because of the difficulty experienced by the old washerwoman in
-getting them up. She thought of his ridiculous neckties, of his huge,
-snuffy silk pocket-handkerchief, of the turnip-like repeater which had
-been his grandfather’s, and which he lugged out of his capacious pocket
-laboriously. She poured herself more tea from the Queen Anne silver
-pot. She poured another cup for Edred, feeling a delightful sense of
-being wifely as she did it.
-
-“We might have had some of Jeth’s jam,” he said, idly smiling at her.
-His eyes seemed to contract and glitter unnaturally with undisguised
-admiration. She was very flushed and triumphant, a little feverish and
-reckless with her mastery of him. Yet, all the same, because she was a
-woman of the world, and had been driven to consider her reputation, she
-began to wonder, as the gray haze in the park grew black, what
-suggestion he was going to make for the night. One could not walk out
-into the street, take a hansom, and drive to be married forthwith. He
-said, pushing his empty cup away and settling back in the chair:
-
-“I’ve been lucky. Everything I’ve touched has turned up trumps.”
-
-“The ruby mine----”
-
-“Pooh! That is only one thing. I’ve learnt, by very bitter experience,
-that it is as well to have plenty of irons in the fire.”
-
-“Is it a genuine concern? You won’t risk anything this time?”
-
-She put the question for his sake--for theirs. She did not wish him to
-fail, to suffer again. She wanted to be rich--safe--for the rest of her
-life.
-
-“As genuine as anything can be,” he returned evasively. “But don’t
-spoil yourself by being serious. The prettiest woman--and you are
-looking devilish pretty to-night, darling--can’t afford to be serious:
-it brings lines about the mouth.”
-
-She returned his smile, but a moment after she sobered again.
-
-“I’m obliged to be serious,” she told him deprecatingly. “What
-arrangement do you propose for to-night? If I go to Bloomsbury too late
-they will not be willing to take me in.”
-
-“Bloomsbury!” He looked annoyed at being reminded of that page in his
-life. “You don’t want to go there.”
-
-“They know me. I can think of no other place.”
-
-He didn’t answer for a moment. She searched his flushed face anxiously
-through the uncertain light.
-
-“I’ll tell you what,” he said at last. “There’s a very fair hotel a few
-doors down. Sutton shall send my traps there. I’ll engage a couple of
-rooms for myself and him, and you shall have this place. Will that do?
-You’ll be very comfortable. They give me service--the cooking’s fair.
-One of the chambermaids will unpack your things and help dress you.”
-
-He spoke as if she had all her life been accustomed to such attendance.
-He was wonderfully plastic; it was one of his feminine attributes. In a
-few weeks he had assimilated the manner, cultivated the brain of a
-wealthy man who instinctively measures cost by a five-pound note:
-nothing smaller than a “fiver.”
-
-“That would do very well.”
-
-“It won’t be for long. We must marry. I’ll get a license to-morrow.
-Sutton shall see about it--he’s a rare fellow for details.”
-
-“Is that the horrid man who looked into the room while I was waiting?”
-
-Edred laughed.
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“Who is he? He mustn’t come here any more. I’m sure he’s hateful.”
-
-“He’s very useful. He lives here--a most superior fellow, much to be
-pitied. He was a clerk in a City firm for twenty-five years; went there
-when he left school; worked up to a salary of £150. Threw all his
-energies into the business; stayed late on Saturday, took papers home
-to master on Sunday. Then they chucked him--wanted a younger fellow.
-Everybody must be young nowadays. Sutton is invaluable. He knows the
-inside of the city. He’s my clerk. I give him a couple of pounds a week
-and his grub. He’s perfectly happy--so am I. His tips have put hundreds
-into my pocket. Oh! you’ll have to be civil to Sutton.”
-
-“Don’t be in too great a hurry to make money, will you?”
-
-He laughed.
-
-“Too much haste leads to the dock,” he said lightly. “I’m careful
-enough. Some day--in a fairly little time, too--I shall be a second
-Milligan. Lady Pamela Crisp. It sounds well, doesn’t it?”
-
-“We are going to be married--in my name. Will that be legal?”
-
-“Extraordinary delusions a woman has about the marriage service! Of
-course it will be legal.”
-
-“I ought to be going to Victoria to get my luggage. It is in the
-cloak-room.”
-
-“Sutton will see to that.”
-
-She never forgot the witchery of that evening. Edred was so adoring, so
-recklessly generous, so optimistic. They dined; they had a box at the
-theater. No tinge of conscience whipped up her light heart. She never
-threw one half-thought back, across the lonely miles of suburb and
-common and pasture, to the mellow old house, girt with a great pond,
-whose master at that moment might be sitting by the empty hearth with
-his whole big faithful heart full of her.
-
-The one disconcerting touch was when they parted at the door of
-Marquise Mansions. Edred had been talking of his successes, of the many
-clever, shifty schemes he had in prospect.
-
-“We must entertain--in a Bohemian way,” he said. “Only men; jossers I
-want to persuade into doing things. You understand? Very often a look
-from a pretty, well-dressed woman will do more than hours of
-plausibility, of convincing proof, from the woman’s husband. You must
-have some Paris frocks; get your hair dressed well.”
-
-“We shall only entertain men?”
-
-“Women are not interesting--the wives and daughters of city men. We
-shall only entertain from diplomacy--other women would spoil
-everything. You must help me to play my game. It is to your interest,
-isn’t it?”
-
-She did not answer. He thought that her expression in the uncertain
-light--stars and gas lamps competing--was rebellious. He became
-savagely petulant.
-
-“This marrying is a bore,” he said. “Why do you insist on it? Marriage
-is only an empty form. It would be all the same--no one would know.
-Married people are not branded for all the world to see, after all. We
-shall never get tired of each other. It will be just the same, just as
-safe, more romantic. What do you think, Pam?”
-
-He stared at her with odd intentness, as she stood in the shadow of the
-wide entrance door. She was wrapped from her soft dull hair to her shoe
-in a costly evening cloak which they had hurriedly bought on the way to
-the theater to cover her dusty traveling dress.
-
-“I think that it has all been said, threshed out,” she returned firmly.
-“I don’t want romance--at the expense of respectability.”
-
-The night-rattle of London swung by them as they stood in the shadow of
-the door poising their fate in their hands. The warm, misty streets
-were festooned with strings of red and yellow light. Pamela was
-reminded of those miserable omnibus rides from Portobello Road, when
-she had watched the words “OX FORCE--NINON SOAP--DUNN’S NOSTRUM”
-glitter and die on the face of a house.
-
-Edred’s eyes, contracted and brilliant, tried to destroy her will. They
-were admiring, magnetic. But she was fiercely respectable; she had
-struggled, had seen the seamy side of life. She loved him, she was
-madly, wickedly infatuated with him, but his smooth claptrap about the
-romance of an irregular union did not take her in.
-
-“You are jesting,” she said coldly; “jesting--in very bad taste.”
-
-“Yes. Only a jest,” he returned, gripping her hand.
-
-Three days after that they were married. She started a new,
-intoxicating career as mistress of the gorgeously appointed flat at
-Marquise Mansions.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XV.
-
-
-IT was past eleven and they were languidly pecking at breakfast. The
-brick-red sun forced himself into the room, made the gorgeously
-upholstered settee and chairs look faded, showed the green tarnish on
-the great copper pots, the gray rim of dust on the delft which crowded
-the shelves, and the darker layer which the housemaid had left in the
-interstices of the elaborately carved furniture.
-
-Pamela’s morning gown, of some clinging primrose stuff, had caught
-London smuts in the loose ruffles of its sleeves. She lifted her cup
-and the ruffles fell back, showing finger-and-thumb bruises on the
-white flesh. She was sallow, blotchy, her eyes muddy and swollen. Edred
-kept looking up from his paper and staring savagely; the weary face,
-all quiver and traces of heavy tears, infuriated him.
-
-“I don’t know what is coming over you,” he broke out at last. “You have
-only two moods--the nagging or the maudlin.”
-
-“Edred! I--I thought you’d say you were sorry for last night. Look!”
-
-She held up her bare arm accusingly.
-
-“Sorry!” His frank look of amazement was absolutely genuine. “What have
-I to be sorry about?”
-
-“Look!”
-
-The white arm, with the ugly purple marks, quivered before his eyes.
-
-“Pooh! you bruise with a touch. It’s nothing.”
-
-“The things you said----”
-
-“Said! You’d madden any man with your stiff airs of prudery.”
-
-“I’ve begged you not to ask Milligan here.”
-
-“I shall ask him as often as I like. He’s useful. You’ll please be
-civil to everybody who’s useful--to Sutton in particular. You treat the
-fellow as if he were----”
-
-“The cur he is,” she concluded scornfully.
-
-“You’re no good if you can’t help me to play my game. That is why you
-are here, confound you,” he cried savagely. “You don’t think”--his
-sneer was devilish--“that I married you because I had such a supreme
-longing for fireside virtue.”
-
-“They are all alike--your men,” she cried out passionately. “They
-regard me as--as--I cannot finish.”
-
-She buried her disfigured face in her hands. Every line of her shaking
-body was crouching, subjective; she was a human hound with a brute for
-a master, a brute on whom she fawned.
-
-“It’s new for you to be so particular.”
-
-“I--I don’t understand.” She lifted her face suddenly; let him see it
-all grotesquely distorted, drawn out of shape.
-
-“I repeat; it is new for you to be so particular. If you can throw
-yourself into the arms of one man----”
-
-“One man?”
-
-“These mawkish airs of innocence don’t impress me. We’ve been quite
-bare to each other for twelve months. You came here; forced yourself on
-me. Why couldn’t you stay behind like a sensible, modest woman, and
-marry Jethro? I was getting on perfectly well, wasn’t I? Did I look as
-if I wanted you?”
-
-“Edred!”
-
-“That parrot cry will make me murder you some day. Be a woman, with a
-clear head on your shoulders, not a sniveling fool. Be a wife to me.” A
-queer, mocking expression contracted his thin mouth. “Help me when you
-can. If you offend Milligan----”
-
-“I’ll never speak to him again. Good Heavens! You don’t want me----”
-
-He sprung up from the table, took her by the trembling shoulder, and
-swung her round.
-
-“I don’t care what the devil you do,” he said deliberately.
-
-She looked weakly up into his face, saw that he meant it, and began to
-shake and sob. This was the worst blow he could deal. He meant it!
-Hitherto she had attributed his brutalities to business worry.
-
-She cried violently, hopelessly. She was all tears. She had no spirit
-left, except the spirit that vents itself in extravagant words.
-Suddenly she darted to the open window.
-
-“If I were to jump down,” she began desperately; her feverish hands
-clawed round the ledge, her wild eyes turned inward to the room.
-
-“It wouldn’t be a bad solution.”
-
-She ran back, tried to catch him round the neck with her pleading arms,
-murmured pet names, shivered, sobbed, shook, tried vainly, in the wrong
-way, to win back the old, transient adoration.
-
-He wrenched himself away, as he would have freed himself from a skein.
-
-“I’m sick of these rows,” he said savagely. “Do as I wish. Mind what
-you’re at with Sutton--he knows a precious deal that I’d rather he
-didn’t. Play Milligan. A clever woman would do it all without
-compromise, but you are a prude--one of those ardent, faithful prudes
-that make a man curse. Hang it all, I don’t want your extravagant
-devotion; I’m in need of help. I don’t care what you do so long as I
-don’t know--that’s married fidelity up to date. Do you understand?”
-
-“I can’t--I won’t! My life is one degradation; you don’t care. If I
-were some shameful woman, not your wife----”
-
-“By George! if you knew all, you’re little better. That jargon in the
-church--Sutton to give you away, the verger as best man--didn’t put you
-on a pedestal of virtue.”
-
-“I won’t--I can’t!” she repeated desperately, linking and unlinking her
-hands, looking up at him with the devoted, obstinate eyes of a dog who
-is afraid.
-
-“Then go. You are a burden, an irritant.”
-
-“You mean that?”
-
-“Of course. I mean everything.”
-
-He flung himself out of the room. Presently she heard him leave the
-flat with Sutton.
-
-She fell down on the settee, cuddling into the stuffed corners for
-comfort. She shivered all over. She was cold. She ached with misery.
-She told herself that she was a coward. She knew perfectly well, as
-well as he did, that her heroics, her dramatic attitudes and words of
-palpable restraint, were only pose. A woman who meant suicide wouldn’t
-talk about it. She despised herself for that rush to the window--as he
-despised her. He had told her to go; he didn’t want her. But she hadn’t
-the courage to take him at his word. She loved him. She was perfectly
-willing to crawl, to cringe to him--for the sake of an occasional rough
-caress.
-
-What a life it had been! She looked back along the year. She recalled
-his first few ardent weeks, his gradual cynicism and disregard, the
-constant vinegar lash of his reckless tongue, the frequent heavy blows.
-
-What a strange, disreputable, luxurious life they led, the three of
-them! She included Sutton without hesitation. He was only a dependent
-in externals. Edred seemed more than half afraid of him. Sutton knew
-every money-making shuffle, every risky deal of the game.
-
-She gazed wildly about her. Everything was luxurious, slovenly, lonely.
-She hadn’t an engagement to fill the day, hadn’t a woman friend in the
-world. Then, fleetly, her thoughts ran back with deep affection to
-those women she had known once--kin, perhaps--the Turles and Crisps,
-and Jaynes and Furlongers. Simple women! She had laughed at them, been
-scornful of them, been bored to death by them. At the moment she longed
-for them. She pictured them individually in their lonely, comfortable
-homes, with their traditional, simple, brainless occupations. She
-thought of them singly. Each one had her special reputation among her
-neighbors--for a particular jelly, good butter, or savory pickles.
-
-She knew dozens of men. They came to the flat with Edred; sometimes
-they came when he was out, when they knew perfectly well that he was
-certain to be in the City. Milligan especially cultivated that trick.
-Her outraged virtue lighted to a cruel fire. She thought fiercely that
-if Milligan came up the stairs that day she would find courage to kill
-him.
-
-Yes, dozens of men! They gave her flowers, once or twice a jewel. They
-paid her dubious compliments, discussed music-hall artistes, told queer
-stories in her presence. They flattered, ignored, or shocked her, as it
-suited the mood of the moment. She occupied exactly the position of a
-beautiful, expensive lap-dog, whose ears every visitor may pull, to
-whom every visitor may toss a lump of sugar.
-
-London outside was gay and hot--all blue and yellow, all dust and eager
-noise. The top-heavy omnibus swung by, with gayly dressed women on the
-garden seats, fluttering bows of ribbon on the drivers’ whips. The big
-hats of the women, piled with feathers and imitation roses, made her
-think of her blazing flower borders at Folly Corner. She sat up, wiped
-her burning eyes, into which her bitter sorrow seemed to have corroded.
-She thought very calmly of Jethro--thought of the slow, easeful,
-reflective life which she had so lightly, so gladly, thrown out of
-reach. A year ago! They would have married--had a child, perhaps. His
-simple words--“A little son to come with me and beat in shooting-time;
-they soon grow up”--rippled in her throbbing head. A child! She might
-have had her own child by now. The dreadful ache of a barren woman
-caught her.
-
-She walked up and down the untidy room, her primrose trail dragging
-over the dusty carpet. She rang the bell, but no one came to clear. She
-hadn’t a duty in the world. It was hardly noon yet. If she crawled back
-to her bed and sobbed away the day, if she went headlong down through
-the oriel window--it made no difference. She was perfectly free to do
-exactly as she chose.
-
-She walked up and down in her misery and indecision, the August sun
-streaming into the room, where the bacon on the table was caked in a
-translucent layer of white grease, and the crumpled _serviettes_ were
-tossed to the floor.
-
-All her love, her passion, her folly, and heartlessness had ended in
-this--a mere vulgar marriage row. Row was the word he had used. Just an
-underbred squabble--they had plenty. They had flung words at each
-other--the usual taunts of an ill-sorted couple.
-
-She knew he’d come in as usual at night--Sutton behind, with his false
-air of subservience; Milligan at his side, his eyes roving about for
-her. She knew she’d put on her freshest dress. She knew. She was a
-miserable, plastic fool, hopelessly committed. Already she was no
-longer angry with Edred; only bitterly, sorely pained and degraded.
-
-If she could only travel past caring! But every bitter word of his
-found its frightful billet in her heart; every foul word pierced like a
-pointed weapon. Her love was riddled with the cruelest wounds, but not
-one was vital. She loved him. He had told her to go. Go! She laughed,
-picking up his pipe and kissing the stem ardently.
-
-The gay rattle and careless chaff ran under her yawning window. She
-started up suddenly and put on her out-of-door things. She went down
-the wide staircase thoughtfully, wondering what on earth she should do
-with the day.
-
-She hailed the first omnibus that came rocking down Piccadilly. She got
-inside and sat near the door. There were only two other passengers--a
-middle-aged man and his more middle-aged wife. Pamela watched them
-languidly, in the mood to study other people. Her own life held nothing
-now but empty days and distasteful evenings. Dinner-time was
-coming--with Milligan, other men, perhaps--all the people who somehow
-made her feel contemptible, passively immoral. Their insults were so
-delicate, so flattering, that she could not resent them: to resent
-would be an admission. She just studied the dilemma of the middle-aged
-woman, who was very nervous, who expressed her preference for trams.
-
-“I’ll go nearer the door. Then, if there should be a spill, I could
-jump out.”
-
-She rustled along the seat, the stiff folds of her brocaded black
-skirt seeming to share her terror. Then she peppered the conductor with
-anxious queries, asking him if he didn’t think the driver was drunk.
-
-“Lor’, mum! he’s drove the ’bus for twenty year,” came the not
-altogether reassuring answer.
-
-“You think he’s really sober? But, oh conductor”--her voice rose to a
-shriek as the horses swerved--“I do wish I was on the Underground. I
-insist on getting out.”
-
-He rang his bell viciously and bundled her off the step. Her husband
-followed, looking keenly annoyed. Pamela smiled--scenting a marriage
-row. Then the blinding tears gushed to her eyes and burned there
-without falling. Marriage row! A vulgar, trivial squabble! She lived in
-a rain of them.
-
-“I’ll go outside,” she said, with a sudden desire for the sky above her
-head and the dry air on her face. She went with a sure foot up the
-steps and along the roof, the omnibus still moving, and took the one
-spare seat immediately behind the driver. Once she had been proud of
-her coolness and dispatch in climbing an omnibus. That was in the old
-days, when money was scarce and skirts shabby at the hem: the days when
-she had carved at table, accompanied songs, and made herself generally
-useful (attractive, so the advertisement stipulated) at the stuffy
-boarding-house near the British Museum. Edred had been one of the
-boarders--had paid thirty shillings a week, which was as much as he
-could afford out of his two pounds five weekly. Those were the days
-before he became a--number. She thought of it all, as she was carried
-by Kensington Gardens--occasional nights at a music-hall, merry waiting
-at pit doors, Sunday jaunts to Hampton Court--with a fresh summer gown,
-a smart cheap hat, and a constant dread of a shower.
-
-The women on the seat immediately opposite were talking volubly. They
-both had cheap black jackets with very big buttons and outstanding
-sleeves. One, as she talked, kept licking her lips and constantly
-popping out her tongue with odd vivacity and archness. The other, an
-older woman, with a severe expression, took an occasional solemn swig
-at a bottle which was genteelly wrapped to the nose in a confectioner’s
-paper bag.
-
-As the vivacious woman wriggled on the seat she afforded occasional
-peeps of a rusty quilted petticoat with a red flannel lining.
-
-“She done it on the Monday as we see her on the Sunday,” Pamela heard
-her say mysteriously.
-
-She fell to wondering _what_ she had done: something very reprehensible
-certainly, judging from the shocked expression of the elder woman, who
-nodded sourly and tilted her paper bag.
-
-“She says to me, ‘Why don’t you take in a lodger?--some young lady as
-is engaged all day in business. There’s the spare room a-goin’
-beggin’,’ she says. But I aint goin’ to do it, Mrs. Whitbourn; would
-you? Oh, ’e’s a good ’usban’. But there!”--the dusty head with the
-black chip hat shook sideways and the quick tongue lolled out--“you
-never knows nothin’, do yer?”
-
-“No, yer never does,” confirmed the solemn woman.
-
-“Lor’! ’ere we are at the church. Well, good-by, Mrs. Whitbourn. See
-you again some day.”
-
-They kissed lusciously; the sateen petticoat with the frowsy red lining
-whisked away.
-
-Pamela stared straight in front of her thoughtfully.
-
-“Yer never knows nothin’, do yer? No, yer never does,” kept striking in
-her head.
-
-“Yer never does.”
-
-She didn’t. Strange, that a suspicion of the particular wrong which
-Edred might do her had never before occurred to her. Had she found the
-secret of his coldness and unconcern--in another woman? Was there
-somebody else?
-
-First, a fierce, instinctive jealousy swept her; then she wished
-ardently that it might be so. That might be the deathblow of her mad,
-headlong love for him.
-
-She went to the very end of the journey, then took another omnibus
-back. At Bond Street she alighted and walked down to the dainty shop
-where she usually had tea. The woman’s words still haunted her.
-
-“Yer never knows nothin’, do yer?”
-
-One might go on for a lifetime, in a nest of different worlds like
-London, and never know. That was perfectly true. She turned her sleeve
-up furtively and drank in the angry purple of the bruises on her wrist.
-Was another woman responsible for them? It was a new idea and a very
-enticing one.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVI.
-
-
-AS days went on she became more than ever persuaded of the fatalism of
-those suggestive, common words, “Yer never knows nothin’, do yer?” That
-woman, with the soiled red lining to her kicked-up petticoat--that
-woman, with the loosely sensuous mouth, big tongue, and rolling bright
-eyes, had emerged from the gray routine of her particular suburban
-corner, merely as a warning. Those comically meaningless words became a
-gospel. She was always saying them, puzzling over them. They were on
-her pale lips as she looked questioningly into Edred’s face. Once she
-woke up and found herself saying them in her sleep. It was too stupid.
-But, if only that persistent quoting of them, in silence, that
-continual battering of them at the door of her distracted brain, would
-bring solution! If she could take hold of some slight clew! She found
-herself constantly longing for proof of Edred’s unfaithfulness. That,
-she thought, would end her love--her reckless, shameful love for an
-unworthy object: love that blows, terrible suggestions, the cruelest
-words and looks could not kill. If she could free herself from that
-horrid, paralyzing coil of Love!
-
-She used to dog his steps with the patient sleuth-like tread of
-an intent panther. She followed him into strange places often
-enough--unseen. She was always watching, waiting. Other wives waited
-and watched, hoping all the time that nothing was wrong, that they
-still had faithful husbands, might still keep their homes together with
-honor. But Pamela dogged Edred desperately--much more desperately than
-she would have done had there been the smallest chance of happiness
-left for them. She only fiercely prayed that there might be some
-entanglement, that there was some other woman--weak, innocent, or
-criminal--in the background. It meant so much more to her than mere
-conjugal peace and trust; her experience had made her bitterly scornful
-of married life: you could never successfully blend romance and joint
-housekeeping. She was playing for a much higher, nobler stake--her own
-independence. A wife was an individual first, a mere married woman
-afterward. She was conscious from time to time of the absolute
-isolation of each human being who treads the world.
-
-One flesh! Bare hearts! What empty jargon! One could look into the
-other one’s eyes and be breeding murder, worse than murder, all the
-time. This life, the beings with whom we were accidentally thrown in
-contact during our half-conscious sojourn--mere detail! There was a
-splendid, terrifying isolation about everyone. Each alone! She used to
-look at them curiously, speculatively; figures moving along the yellow
-streets at night, in tender twos, in merry companies--and yet alone.
-Each one shut in, cut off from all perfect communion, by the film of
-his own individuality. Each brain its own secret world. Each body,
-under such varying garments, absolutely its own, in spite of vows,
-ardent protestations, respectable and legal shackles.
-
-She used to brood thus, a little at random, as she warily trod the
-streets behind that slim, carefully-dressed figure. She had become a
-strange perversion. She loved her husband still, in a headlong, fierce
-way. Yet she longed for him to commit himself, so that her love might
-puff away, become impalpable, like smoke rising in a clear sky. There
-was no chance for her, no freedom, no self-respect until she became
-callous, until that hot, wayward heart of hers was dammed up. She had
-read--in a girl’s superficial way--of first love as a potent thing. She
-hadn’t known then that it could be such a sweeping, crowning,
-involuntary thing--hadn’t dreamed that it could hold you in such grim,
-iron grasp. She couldn’t get away from the magnetism of--the first. She
-despised him; sometimes, for a clear moment, she loathed him. She
-remembered that on one occasion it had been a keen struggle to throw
-down the bread knife on the wooden platter instead of slitting it
-through his long lean throat.
-
-And yet! He had only to call the old playful, indulgent light into his
-lazy eyes, only to carelessly flip at her some gesture or word of the
-past, to bring her under his heel--quivering body, small subject soul.
-It was horrible to be in such bondage to a man--just because he had
-been first. Only because!
-
-One night near Holywell Street she saw him meet a woman. She followed
-them down the Strand, an odd, glad singing in her head. The moment had
-come.
-
-She studied that woman with a woman’s minute, critical eye. She wasn’t
-satisfied. The woman was respectable, obviously, insolently
-respectable. She looked like the mistress of a maid-of-all-work and a
-flawless little house.
-
-She hadn’t the right atmosphere. She took Edred’s arm, hanging on it
-stolidly and looking at other women on the pavements with a sort of
-virtuous sneer, seeming to say, “I have a perfect right; can any of you
-say as much?” They might have been an aggressively respectable married
-couple from South London going to dine at a restaurant by way of
-dissipation.
-
-As a matter of fact they turned in at one. Pamela watched Edred push
-back the heavy door and gravely stand aside for his companion to pass
-in first. There was no eagerness in his attitude; he seemed quite used
-to it, not exactly weary, but coldly stolid. He wore the settled air of
-a married man--the mild, contented, resigned air of doom, which so many
-husbands wear. He was neither unhappy nor happy; he took this evening
-meal in the crush and steam and the hurry of waiters as a matter of
-course. Why not?
-
-She didn’t pretend to understand him--or her. They were an odd couple.
-Nothing stealthy, illicit, ecstatic about them, when there should have
-been a suggestion of all three emotions!
-
-The woman wore brown--the frump’s unfailing refuge: it was a hot,
-reddish sort of brown; her hat, anxious to be in the fashion, was
-painfully skewered to her head by many pins. There were fresh touches
-of pink about her at ridiculously unwanted spots. She looked pleased,
-shy; like a child dressed for a party.
-
-Pamela followed them up between the line of tables, between the greedy
-line of eaters, some gluttonously bending over the plates, some waiting
-with an air of impatience, some replete and leaning back, quizzing and
-smoking. In the long mirrors she could see the reflection of all
-three--such a dramatic three: Edred, with his sheepish, sleepy air; the
-strange woman, all pink and brown and narrow airs of virtue as she
-looked at--and apparently suspected--every other woman a little smarter
-than herself. Last of the three Pamela saw her own tall figure,
-stylishly attired, the abundant dull hair bunching out beneath her
-toque with the big ostrich plumes. The set and selection of her gown
-was in such good, if rather striking, taste, that the over-fed and
-quickly-feeding men looked after her, their faces lighting up.
-
-The intangible feeling of shame, of smirching, which was becoming
-common to her, caught at her then. She fancied she read insult in the
-admiration of these many strange men.
-
-She looked at herself again and was bound to admit that there was not
-so very much difference between her costume, her carriage, and the
-carriage and costume of others present whose vocation was unmistakable.
-The ultra-fashionable woman sails perilously near the wind in
-appearance. She felt quite angry with her expensive garments. She
-followed still, through the glass, the movements of the woman in pink
-and brown. She seemed to shout, in every seam of her dowdy frock, in
-every gleaming button of her badly-cut gloves, “respectable married
-virtue.” She!--_she!_
-
-The world was whirling round the wrong way.
-
-She followed her quarry, every sense alert so that Edred might not
-discover her. When the two settled at a table she deftly slipped aside
-and took the one immediately behind them. So that they were sitting
-back to back, she and that shameful woman with the perplexing insolent
-air of calm virtue. The back of her beautifully-cut and braided
-heliotrope coat was within a few inches of the contemptible little
-brown bodice with the crisp pink bow at the neck and the pink-lined
-ends, like lopping rabbit-ears, at the waist.
-
-The waiter came up. Beneath her breath and mechanically she ordered a
-steak, her ears strained all the time to hear what they would order.
-Edred said:
-
-“Calves’-head? You have never tasted it--as they serve it here.”
-
-“It’s rather rich,” came a common voice dubiously.
-
-Odd! Her voice, like her frock, like her little pursed mouth and hard
-eyes, was respectable. Aggressively respectable! Women like that had no
-right to appear respectable; to do so was an additional aggravation.
-Wasn’t their _existence_ enough? The jealous fire was rising, was
-already burning, a steady white light, at her heart. But she was very
-glad, of course. Confused, conflicting thoughts kept running in her
-head.
-
-When the steak came she could not eat it; there was enough for two men.
-She just played with her knife and fork, dipping deeply into the bottle
-of red wine she had ordered.
-
-“I knew it would be too rich,” the voice of the brown woman said
-reproachfully. “It’s too bad of you to spoil my dinner, when you know
-my stomach’s not strong. Nasty, bilious stuff! I can’t touch another
-bit.”
-
-Well! He might have chosen a handsomer, a more refined woman. Little
-common narrow creature! He might have given her a more worthy rival
-while he was about it.
-
-“Where did I put my gloves? No, I couldn’t look at pudding; it would
-just about finish me. Cheese? If _you_ like--not for me. I’ll have a
-liqueur by and by; not that beastly green stuff we had last time.
-Cherry brandy. I can’t have lost the gloves.”
-
-She twirled round suddenly, putting her hands behind her and anxiously
-fumbling. Pamela wheeled round too, grasping the handle of her umbrella
-by way of excuse. Their eyes met. The quick, respectable, scandalized
-expression shot into those of the brown woman.
-
-Pamela flinched and flushed. It wasn’t pleasant to be mistaken--by her,
-too. The wretch--the little, common, hypocritical wretch! How dare she?
-Their eyes met: the malevolent stare in the pink and brown woman’s,
-the eager, wide look in Pamela’s. She photographed on her alert brain
-every line of that face--the face which Edred found more comely than
-hers. It was long and thin, but quite youthful; she judged her to be
-about twenty-five. The eyes were hot brown, like the gown, and set
-close together. They were restless eyes, curiously restless. They roved
-about perpetually, seeming miserably to search for something which
-never came. It was like a monkey’s face--a pink, unlined monkey face.
-There was cunning in it, spite, and a kind of dumb pathos. A very
-curious woman for a rival!
-
-She fished up the ginger-colored gloves. They were shamefully new; one
-or two of the buttons were still covered with tissue-paper.
-
-Edred had finished his meal; he was smoking, his head back, his eyes
-dreamy. Pamela knew the attitude very well; it usually followed a good
-dinner. Her heart ached for herself. The little woman fussily put on
-her gloves, drew down her veil, settled her fluttering ends of pink
-satin. Then she, too, fell back on the red seat and began to look idly
-about her, passing audible comments on people whose appearance invited
-the acid of her tongue.
-
-“And there’s that woman behind,” she said presently, in a distinct
-whisper. “Just behind me. Look--when she isn’t looking. How silly you
-are! Always looking the wrong way. Didn’t I say _behind?_”
-
-“Never mind. I’ll take your word for her,” he returned.
-
-“But do look. I’m sure she’s--you know. Half of them are in this place.
-Disgraceful, overdressed things!”
-
-He turned with sudden curiosity. Pamela was still twisted round on the
-seat. She was staring savagely at that impudent brown hat, with the
-ferocious spiked pins which stuck out in all directions. Edred turned.
-He saw her--saw her haggard face peering through the smoke and vulgar
-glitter of the place. As, for that one supreme moment, they stared
-spellbound at each other, the second woman said impatiently:
-
-“Come on. We shall be late. The last time you took me to the theater we
-were late.”
-
-Pamela started up, slipped past the tables, past the rows of diners.
-Near the door the waiter stood in her path. She dropped a coin in his
-hand and hurried on. Once outside the door of that place, under the
-cool sky in a dark side street, she took to her heels like a
-pickpocket. She was afraid of Edred, more afraid than she had ever
-been. There had been a new, ugly threat on his face. It would be
-something more than words this time. After all, words were not the
-worst. Her flesh was tender; she dreaded that he would beat her.
-
-She turned, panting like a closely-pressed hare, into the Strand, held
-up her umbrella to the first hansom, and hustled in.
-
-“Marquise Mansions,” she called up to the driver. “I’ll give you double
-fare if you drive very quickly.”
-
-The horse seemed to fly through the moving, brilliant streets. Before
-her heart ceased its mad, quick beat of terror and apprehension, the
-crude red wall of Marquise Mansions was in sight.
-
-She went up to the flat, locked herself in her bedroom, dragged off her
-tight gown, kicked away her shoes, unfastened the piquant hat from her
-fair hair--and hid everything. She rolled the things in a rough bundle
-and shot them far under the bed.
-
-When Edred burst in ten minutes later, she was half lying in a low
-chair by the drawing-room window, with a novel in her hands. The lace
-and cashmere of her tea-gown spread softly about her ankles like the
-delicate tail of some exquisite foreign bird.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVII.
-
-
-SHE had never seen his face look quite so strange, not even on that mad
-day in the stuffy Bloomsbury house when she helped him throw his things
-into the bag and he whispered hoarsely that “they” were after him. She
-was puzzled by the intensity of his expression. He didn’t love her, he
-was tired, anxious to be rid of her. That discovery of the contemptible
-woman in brown should have been propitious for him. And yet he seemed
-furious, and, more than that, afraid.
-
-She had meant to calmly tell the truth. But two things froze the truth
-that lay ready on her tongue. She was afraid of him: he was a mere
-violent physical brute, in the mood to stamp on her, to drive his fist
-into her face: that was what it had come to--her tender, first romance.
-Her weak woman’s cowardice made her shiver with apprehension under her
-sweeping folds of cashmere. And then, apart from fear, she couldn’t
-tell him. She didn’t want him to know she knew.
-
-It was humiliating, mortifying, delightful. She rapidly read her own
-heart. She loved him still. There was no solution. The common, dowdy
-woman that he had just left had no power to part them. She realized
-with fear, with self-reproach, with bitter shame, yet with relief, that
-any mere bodily sin he might commit was pardonable. Was there, then,
-no cardinal offense? Was she to go on loving in this despicable way
-until the very end?
-
-She looked up from the book, smiling, yawning.
-
-There was cunning in her big clear eyes, the cunning which even the
-frankest woman on earth has in reserve: handed down to her through
-generations of oppressed women, who have always been slaves.
-
-Slaves! The word suddenly came; she couldn’t have told why. And while
-she sat back in the chair, chin up, eyes half afraid, mouth stiffly
-smiling, she was thinking scornfully that woman always had been and
-always would be slaves. They liked to be slaves. All this strident talk
-about freedom and rights was froth, propounded by those imbittered free
-women who hadn’t succeeded in finding a master.
-
-“You said you were not coming back to dinner,” she said gayly, and then
-grew deadly pale as she suddenly remembered that he had said something
-about not coming back all night, if a certain business he had in hand
-took an anxious turn. He had said that he might be called away to
-Liverpool. Her lip curled. Liverpool! Kennington, more likely! That
-hat, that terrible gown, had looked like Kennington. Then she rallied.
-“You said you were not coming back to dinner, so I--I dined: a woman’s
-dinner, you know--an egg, some cake, and three cups of tea.”
-
-“No lies!” he returned savagely. “What were you doing half an hour ago?
-An egg! Tea! There was a plate of rump-steak in front of you at the
-restaurant.”
-
-She was by this time thoroughly steadied to hard, deliberate lying. She
-didn’t want to lose him. She didn’t mean to hand him over publicly to
-that woman. She loved him. She’d keep the semblance of him anyhow.
-
-All her frenzied watching; all her deplorable spying; all her fierce
-assurance that unfaithfulness on his part would free her soul--ended in
-this. She was lying, in order to keep him.
-
-That he had been unfaithful she was certain; his attitude toward the
-woman spoke of nothing else. It was an old entanglement, purged of all
-piquancy, all intensity. It had become a matter of course.
-
-“You don’t suppose I would go out and dine alone? Steak! I never touch
-it.”
-
-“You never do,” he said ponderingly; then added, “but that was, no
-doubt, part of your devilish, ingenious scheming, to throw dust in my
-eyes.”
-
-“I don’t understand, I really don’t,” she persisted, with the firmness
-and absolute blankness of the deeply-committed liar. “Be a little more
-clear.”
-
-“You were there. I saw you,” he stormed, moving his hands about
-nervously. “Why! You remember looking at me. You remember--her?”
-
-“Her?”
-
-“The woman with me. She was dressed in brown.”
-
-“I hate brown. What woman?”
-
-“You haven’t the impudence to stick to it that you weren’t there--with
-a rump steak and a bottle of wine?”
-
-“It doesn’t sound at all inviting--at all like me. My dear boy!” She
-leapt up, and tremblingly hung her arms about his stubborn neck. “It
-was a delusion--you saw my double.”
-
-“Double be----”
-
-“You must tell me about that woman,” she broke in, smiling falsely, her
-teeth, beneath her curled-back lips, white and cruel in their
-regularity and soundness. “You’ve committed yourself. Who was she? A
-business connection--a person from--Liverpool? Though you’ve never
-asserted that it was politic for you to keep in with the women--as it
-is for me to appease the men.”
-
-He pushed her away from him by a reckless blow on the chest.
-
-“Curse you!” he said with fury. “You’re like a cat--all claws, all
-purr. You double like a cat. I saw one chased by a dog through some
-front gardens the other day. She doubled behind some shrubs, and he
-lost her.”
-
-She had one hand on her chest, where it throbbed with his fist. She was
-smiling still; a demoniacal smile, but with the most hopeless outraged
-tenderness behind it.
-
-“There are no front gardens in Piccadilly,” she said, looking at him
-oddly. “You must have been in the suburbs.”
-
-He sat down. He was biting his nails fitfully, and looking up at her
-from time to time with a sullen, suspicious glance.
-
-“I’ll be even with you yet,” he said threateningly. “You _were_ there.”
-
-“I wasn’t.”
-
-“You’ll swear?”
-
-“Women don’t swear. I wasn’t. I haven’t been out of the flat all day.
-Go into the bedroom, if you don’t believe me. Look at my shoes--all in
-nice shiny rows. Look at my gowns, all tidily on the pegs. By the way,
-what did she wear?”
-
-“Brown,” he returned mechanically.
-
-“Pooh! We’ll come to her later on. I mean the other--the one you
-mistook for me.”
-
-“You wore a violet kind of thing, with black stuff sewn on it,” he
-persisted. “There were violet feathers in your hat. They nodded at me
-like imps when you got up and slipped away. By Jove! I won’t be fooled
-like this----”
-
-“Don’t be absurd. Did you ever see me in violet? Think.”
-
-The dress had only come from the tailor’s that morning. She watched him
-triumphantly.
-
-“Perhaps not--but I never notice what you wear.”
-
-“You never do,” she made answer sadly; and then she jumped up, again
-meaning to kiss him, but he angrily waved her back.
-
-“It was a very curious thing,” she said steadily, and smiling into his
-angry, infuriated face. “It’s rather dree to know one has a double. I
-hope you’re convinced now. If not, go into the next room. See if you
-can find a violet gown. Shall we go together and hunt?”
-
-“You’ll swear you weren’t there?”
-
-“I’ve told you I wasn’t--I’m tired of telling. Now, about this woman?”
-
-“Never mind who she was. It’s not your affair.”
-
-“But----”
-
-“I’ve given you my definition of married fidelity,” he said, with an
-ugly, puzzling grin full on her quivering face. “Nothing matters--so
-long as the other one doesn’t find out. Find out--if you dare! If I
-ever see--your double--dogging me again, I’ll turn round in the streets
-and knock her down. Do you understand?”
-
-“I hear--and I’m very sorry for the poor thing. I can only hope that
-she won’t cross your path, but--it’s nothing to me. Is it?”
-
-He was out of the room, out of the flat before her lips closed after
-the mocking words. She fell back, shaking with degradation. She knew
-perfectly well that he would not return that night. She might drop her
-mask, spread the accusing violet gown on the bed, plant her dusty shoes
-in the middle of the room. She might cry her fill--but where was the
-good of that? Tears were bad diplomacy at the best of times. She was
-worn out enough by the burning shame of the glib lies she had been
-reeling off.
-
-He would not come back that night. He had returned to--_her_--the brown
-person. Perhaps she had been waiting outside all the time. She got up,
-ran into the other room, began to feverishly unfasten her gown with one
-hand, while with the other she flung back the door of the wardrobe. She
-would follow them. If he saw her, knocked her down--so well! She would
-follow them--to the very door. Then she dropt down on the bed,
-shaking her head mournfully, twisting her hands. She wouldn’t
-follow--all motive for following was gone. She had been waiting,
-watching all these degrading weeks for the advent of a woman. The woman
-had come. She had believed that she would bring freedom in her hands.
-But she hadn’t; no woman ever would. It needed a subtler force to kill
-her love for that villain. She didn’t even feel jealous because he had
-gone away with her rival. She was contemptuous of him because her rival
-was so uninteresting--that was about all. Her strongest feeling was one
-of being stunned--as if he had struck her on the head, instead of on
-the breast. She didn’t mind much. She was relieved, immensely relieved,
-that it was no longer necessary to watch--to crawl stealthily about the
-streets like an unclean animal of prey. She only hoped that he would
-come back in the morning--and in a good temper. One must learn to wink
-at things.
-
-As she sat on the bed, shaking her head in a foolish, silly fashion,
-and smiling at the wall with the self-satisfied air of a person mildly
-and harmlessly distraught, the outer door of the flat opened. She
-jumped up with a wild hope, a sick dread. She gave the one essential
-look in the glass, raised her hot fingers mechanically to her crumpled
-hair, and went back to the drawing-room.
-
-Sutton was standing in the middle of it, his head bent in a listening
-way.
-
-“Oh!” she said stiffly, with an air of collapse. “You!”
-
-He did not answer, only stared at her. His face was aflame with some
-unusual emotion. It looked like a Christmas card--one of those
-things--transparencies--which admit a ruddy, steady light in places
-where you hold them up before a lamp.
-
-“Edred has gone out,” she continued with abrupt impulse, “and I--I’m
-going out too.”
-
-“Where?”
-
-“Anywhere. The pit of a theater, perhaps; he used to take me.”
-
-He was looking at her fixedly, as well he might. Her voice, her face,
-her attitude were reckless.
-
-“Will you come to a music-hall with me?”
-
-She looked at him. He read her contempt for him; it was steady behind
-the reckless mask. But he didn’t care. For many months he had been
-playing for this night.
-
-“Wait. One moment,” she said in a staccato fashion. “I’ll put on my
-long cloak--that’s all.”
-
-She whisked through the door and was back in a moment, wrapped to her
-ankles in the garment which Edred had bought for her on that fairy
-summer evening--the night of the day on which she had left Jethro.
-
-“You are going--like that?” he said musingly, as she hitched up the
-tail of her gown, and plunging his hand into his pocket.
-
-He didn’t choose his music-hall with any regard for her. He took her
-somewhere--she didn’t know or care exactly where. She only knew that it
-wasn’t in one of the big streets. She sat with him in the box, staring
-and smiling through the performance. Nothing smote her modesty that
-night. She had suddenly turned numb. Sometimes, as she stared and
-smiled at the stage, she saw, not a kicking, painted woman, but a
-demure, savagely respectable figure in brown. Once a dancer suddenly
-changed into a big woman, mostly jacket-buttons and red-lined
-petticoat, who extravagantly popped out a very long tongue, and said,
-“Yer never knows nothin’, do yer?”
-
-As the evening wore on, and she endured without flinching the risky
-songs and patter, Sutton’s attitude grew more free. In the cab on the
-way home he sat beside her, seeming to press her uncomfortably into the
-corner.
-
-When he unlocked the door of the flat her instinct told her at once
-that Edred had not returned. Sensation came back. She suddenly felt ill
-at ease. She wished from her heart that she had not gone out for the
-evening with Sutton, a man she detested and despised. She looked down
-at him contemptuously--a middle-aged, vacuous, little-minded, vulgar,
-cunning creature: a very good example of the played-out mercantile
-clerk.
-
-“Good-night,” she said curtly.
-
-It seemed an almost superfluous thing to say, jammed in together and
-alone as they were in the flat, where a whisper almost passed through
-the walls.
-
-“Good-night,” she repeated, with sudden constraint.
-
-“Wait a bit”--he opened the drawing-room door--“I want to talk to you.”
-
-“I’m tired.”
-
-“But it’s very important.”
-
-She marveled at the remarkable change in him. He had become an
-impressive figure. He absolutely commanded her, as he stood by the open
-door, in his iron-gray suit. It was baggy at the knees and elbows. It
-was perfectly true that he had plenty of money now; but he could not
-shake off the careful habits of twenty years. He only had two new suits
-a year, and he scrupulously changed his coat whenever he came indoors.
-
-He threw out his hand and bowed--something in the way of a shop-walker.
-She walked into the room, without another word of protest.
-
-He went out again, putting his face back in his usual queer way, to
-throw at her the words:
-
-“I’ll be back in half a jiff. I’ll just put on my slippers and get my
-alpaca jacket.”
-
-When he came in again, she was sitting bolt upright on the lounge; she
-had not even turned up her veil, nor unbuttoned her long gloves.
-
-“Take off your things,” he said with ghastly jocularity. “Make yourself
-at home, you know.”
-
-Then he laughed nervously. It suddenly dawned on her that he was in a
-state of great tremor. His jocular tone, his silly, vulgar
-words--everything of him--jarred terribly. She reproached herself,
-condemned herself again for that hideous evening of frolic at a
-third-rate music-hall with such a creature.
-
-“I’ll keep my things on,” she said firmly. “Sometimes these summer
-nights are cold. It is going to rain.”
-
-He came and sat on the other end of the lounge, and stared at her with
-his unpleasant, expressionless eyes. He crossed first one leg and then
-the other; he stroked and tugged at the weakly growing hair on his face.
-
-“If you’ve anything to say,” she said crisply, “say it. It’s twenty
-past twelve.”
-
-“I’ve all night to say it in--he won’t come home.”
-
-She nearly struck him for that free, unctuous laugh. She would have
-whisked up and locked herself in her own room--but she couldn’t. Even a
-mean man is commanding in moments of tremendous excitement. It was
-obvious that Sutton was laboring to say something of moment; she was
-impelled to sit still and let him say it.
-
-“I don’t know where to begin,” he said helplessly, winding his
-watch-chain round his finger.
-
-“If it is business,” she said, suddenly becoming inspired with the idea
-that there was some financial difficulty, and he wished to confide in
-her, to break it to her, “don’t tell me. I shall not understand.”
-
-“I never talk business with a woman,” he returned with a sneer.
-
-“Oh! Then what do you talk?”
-
-“The one thing of any interest. You know what--but you like to tease
-me, you won’t help me out. It’s unkind to a poor beggar,” he said, with
-a fearful attempt at pathos and tenderness.
-
-Then she knew instantly what was coming, knew what had transformed him.
-She was consumed with shame, with apprehension--but she could not rise
-from that paralyzing lounge, could not move one step toward the door.
-Like a true woman, hypocritically obtuse to the very last, she said:
-
-“I haven’t the least idea----”
-
-He grabbed at her hands, held them desperately.
-
-“You know; you’ve known all along. It’s been a pretty game, hasn’t it?
-You thought I didn’t see the nods you gave me over the dinner-table,
-the cunning little winks behind his back.”
-
-“I never winked in my life,” she said indignantly.
-
-He ignored the disclaimer, and went on calmly:
-
-“You’ve stood a good deal more than most girls would have done--a
-pretty girl like you, too. He’s been a bit of a brute, hasn’t he? Upon
-my word, I wonder that you have stood it so long.”
-
-She made a second frenzied attempt to struggle up from the cushions.
-She could see that he was slowly edging up, that the red glow on his
-face was more pronounced, that his eyes were nearer being expressive
-than they had ever been before.
-
-“Don’t be a fool,” he said, pushing her back. “You’re not a fool;
-you’re a sharp girl--you know which side your bread’s buttered. Edred
-is going all to pieces; if he doesn’t look out he’ll find himself in
-the dock again--with Milligan and one or two more. But I was always
-prudent. I’ve made a nice little pile. I can give you every comfort.”
-
-“I don’t know what you mean; on my word of honor I don’t,” she said
-beseechingly--too utterly staggered to be angry with him.
-
-“You don’t know! You _won’t_, you mean. You’re bent on playing a better
-game. Well! there; I’ll marry you, if you like. No man can make a
-fairer offer than that.”
-
-Then, at last, she jumped up--positively, tangibly afraid of him. She
-conceived the sudden extravagant idea that he had gone mad. She knew
-nothing of his antecedents, she recalled a thousand foolish things that
-he had done and looked and said. She firmly believed him to be subject
-to attacks of mania. Her eyes expressed her fear.
-
-“Do you think I’m off my head?” he demanded bluntly. “You look as if
-you did.”
-
-He rose too, his face becoming inflamed and furious.
-
-“You know,” she said gently, “of course you remember--I was married to
-Edred at St. Antony’s last year. You gave me away.”
-
-He looked at her keenly. Then at last he said slowly:
-
-“Haven’t you really found out? Do you still believe in that farce? Why
-have you followed him about all these weeks? Oh! I know. I did it well,
-didn’t I?” he laughed. “You behind him, I behind you, night after
-night. I’m a cute chap. When I was in the City the firm always gave me
-little delicate jobs like that to do. I can ferret out anything. And I
-can tell you this--she’s beginning to suspect.”
-
-“She?”
-
-“His wife. Come. You must know--you must have known for a long time. I
-found it out nearly a year ago. The little woman he dined with
-to-night. I was there too. What on earth made you give the waiter half
-a quid? Hadn’t you less in your pocket?”
-
-He wasn’t mad. She was--the world was. It was a bewitched night, a
-topsy-turvy universe. She wasn’t afraid of him any longer; he was sane
-enough, the little wriggling, contemptible reptile. He was sane, he was
-speaking the absolute truth. She sat down again.
-
-“Tell me everything,” she said. “Please tell me everything. I thought
-that woman was--but--it is I. Will you please explain--everything.”
-
-Sutton began to explain. He seemed to enjoy the task. He sat and talked
-and nursed his knee and glanced ardently, hopefully, from time to time,
-at the attractive, agonized face in front of him.
-
-“It’s a nice little complication,” he said. “Of course when Edred
-married you he thought that she was dead. He’s not a fool; he wouldn’t
-have walked into a trap blindfold. He married her some years ago,
-before you ever met him. They had a baby. It died and she went off her
-head. They took her away to the asylum. Then, after a bit, he had an
-official notice that she was dead. He was jolly glad, of course; any
-fellow would be. Fancy a man being tied up to a cracked wife! Well! To
-cut a long story short, she wasn’t dead at all. It was somebody
-else--one of the blessed bungles of the asylum. It was a regular
-scandal in all the papers. She’s very much alive. She’s out, cured, as
-sane as you are, except for a rum look in her eyes now and then, which
-I should funk if I were her husband. He’s taken a little place for her
-at Mildmay Park. He says he’s a commercial traveler. But she’s
-cunning; she smells a rat.”
-
-“And she’s his wife?” Pamela said stonily.
-
-“I can show the register if you like. It was at a church in----”
-
-“I don’t want proof. I believe it. I might have known it from the
-first. She looks his wife. But I----”
-
-She put up her hands and gave a short, wounded cry.
-
-“The position’s favorable for us,” Sutton said complacently. “Of
-course, you don’t care for him, a brute who strikes and bullies you.
-Besides, he’ll throw you over before long. It’s getting a little too
-hot for him. She suspects and you suspect. He’s afraid you’ll be
-clawing each other’s faces. You see--it’s an ugly word--he’s committed
-bigamy. He may be found out any day. That means----”
-
-“I know, I know,” she said, sharply nodding her head several times;
-“but I should never give him away. Never, never.”
-
-“We needn’t send him to prison. He wouldn’t be any use to us there,”
-Sutton said, with a gesture of assent. “But we can bleed him pretty
-regularly. He’s in a tight corner, poor old chap. I can give him away
-on the business side and you on the matrimonial.”
-
-He laughed with relish. She said, in the most matter-of-fact way, “If
-you laugh like that again, I think I shall kill you.”
-
-“What a queer girl you are!” His voice was steady, but he made
-a furtive movement toward the grate, where there were fire
-irons--efficient weapons--if he wanted them. He was thinking uneasily,
-in his common, literal way, that she was a big woman, that she looked
-deuced queer, that a woman when her blood was up was ten times worse
-than a man.
-
-“What a queer girl you are!” he repeated rather timidly. “Do you
-forgive him?”
-
-Her head was down on her breast.
-
-“I love him,” she said, almost sullenly.
-
-Sutton surveyed her in silence for a moment or so: anything out of the
-ordinary run of emotions struck him dumb. He had expected her to rage,
-to cry, to be hysterical, and end by dropping into his ready arms.
-
-“You might have guessed,” he said at last. “Has he ever treated you as
-if you were his wife? Have any of us treated you as if you were his
-wife? You are not mistress here; the very servants see how things are;
-they never come to you for orders. The manager grins openly in your
-face.”
-
-“Yes,” she said thoughtfully, thinking it all over and remembering a
-thousand damning incidents.
-
-“Why,” Sutton went on, “if you had been his wife, he would have kicked
-Milligan out of the place long ago; he would have kicked us all out.
-Where have your eyes been, my dear girl? Think! Did any of those men
-bring their wives or sisters?”
-
-She shook her fair, dull head: it seemed to sink lower on her breast as
-Sutton went fluently on:
-
-“This flat is a bachelor establishment; he and I are the tenants.
-If you were his wife I shouldn’t be here; the place is only a bandbox.
-I’ll take you to the church where they were married to-morrow morning;
-you shall see the register.”
-
-“I don’t want to see it. I know that woman is his wife. I should have
-known it from the first, when I saw her hanging on his arm in the
-Strand. She is his wife. But I? What am I?”
-
-Sutton said:
-
-“Do you remember the night when Milligan came here with a lady?”
-
-A queer expression of distaste crossed her white face. She remembered.
-There had been a quarrel between her and Edred--one of the usual sharp
-disputes. She had reproached him for bringing only men to the flat. She
-remembered her quick, foaming flood of reproach and invective in answer
-to his cold sneers. She remembered that when she stopped, panting for
-breath, he had said:
-
-“Well, is that all? Good Heavens! how you women can jaw!”
-
-That night Milligan had brought Lady Milligan with him to dinner. When
-they had gone Edred asked her, with an ugly look, if she were satisfied
-now. “What more did she want?”
-
-Lady Milligan! A dark young girl, with a tightly-curled fringe like a
-door mat, a half dirty blouse, red hands. She remembered.
-
-“Yes, Lady Milligan,” she said to Sutton. “A vulgar woman; but what
-could one expect? She used to serve in a tobacconist’s shop.”
-
-Sutton laughed.
-
-“Lady Milligan,” he said, “is nearly fifty; a very religious, proper
-woman. Do you understand?”
-
-“Oh!” she breathed, seeming to collapse with this added indignity of
-Edred’s. “Yes. I understand. Spare me any more confirming proofs.”
-
-She hid her face in the sofa-cushions, her shame choking her. Sutton
-put his hand on her shoulder.
-
-“Don’t be so upset,” he said, with a pompous, condescending attempt at
-comfort. “You didn’t know. You couldn’t help it. It will be all right.
-I’ll marry you myself. There shall be no hanky-panky this time.”
-
-She started up as if his hand had been the thin lash of a whip through
-her cloak.
-
-“Don’t touch me! Marry you! It is impossible for anyone like you to
-understand. You don’t know how near I am to desperate crime--only I am
-a coward. That makes you safe--I am a coward. I wish Edred would come
-home. If only I knew where to find him!”
-
-“The address is in my pocket-book,” he sneered. “But you can’t be
-serious. What do you want him for? You can’t alter things. If you nag
-at him, he’ll only laugh, or hit you.”
-
-“If he would only come back,” she moaned. “If I could touch him, see
-him, speak to him. I feel so alone, so incapable and miserable.”
-
-“You want to have it out with him?”
-
-“I want him,” she returned simply.
-
-Then Sutton lost his temper.
-
-“You are an idiot,” he said flatly. “I make you a good offer; not many
-men would make it, and you can only----”
-
-She laughed contemptuously, looking full in his eyes.
-
-“You droll, contemptible creature,” she said with limitless scorn. “Of
-course you don’t understand. How should you? I am going out--never mind
-where. I am coming back--or I am not--according to my mood. You needn’t
-be certain of anything--but the one thing: I don’t intend to marry
-_you!_”
-
-She whirled out of the room before he could collect his startled wits.
-She was out of the flat and half down the stairs before he could stop
-her.
-
-The vast, high house was dark. She ran down the familiar stone steps,
-drew the long bolts of the entrance door. As she opened it, she heard
-the patter of slippers, a little down at heel, covering the flights;
-heard a hoarse, cautious voice cry out down the black shoot of the
-quiet staircase.
-
-“Pamela! Come back! Don’t be a fool! Don’t lose your head like this!”
-
-Her only answer was another strident laugh. The door thudded after her.
-She stood alone in the night--a chilly night, with a spray of rain.
-She stood facing the black mass of the Park.
-
-She swept on westward. After a while she grew cool, practical enough to
-put her hand in her pocket and feel if she had her purse. It was there,
-lying heavy at the bottom. Her head was on fire, her sore heart beat
-rapidly. She went on trying to formulate her life as the day must see
-it. Dawn meant shame, ridicule, curiosity. She couldn’t walk London
-in thin shoes with heavily jetted toes, in a cloak bordered with
-swansdown and a long tea-gown.
-
-What should she do when dawn came? She tried to be cool, practical. She
-had always been practical; women who earn their own bread are compelled
-to be. She walked on very quickly. The streets were almost empty. She
-met with no annoyance. Yet she felt that this was the measure of her
-degradation--this night alone under the London stars. What should she
-do? She knew what she wanted to do. Go back; ignore everything. Yes,
-she wanted that. She kept lashing herself with fierce self-reproach.
-She called herself shameless, spiritless, vicious. But she couldn’t
-help it. She wanted to go back--to breakfast with him as usual, to say
-nothing. She loved him. That terrible cankering love! Would nothing
-destroy it?
-
-At Sloane Street she turned down, making her way instinctively, like
-all hopeless, desolate creatures, to the river. She walked along and
-along, not noticing distance, not feeling the soreness of her
-lightly-shod feet, until she came to Chelsea.
-
-She crossed the road and walked closely by the houses in Cheyne Walk.
-She went by Oakley Street, by Cheyne Row, by the red blocks of flats
-beyond, and by the Hospital, where lights still burned in certain
-windows. At the corner of Beaufort Street she stopped. What on earth
-was the good of going on?
-
-A quick, frightened feminine cry, a hoarse curse from a man, startled
-her, and she stumbled to the pavement, conscious all in a moment
-that a hansom had nearly knocked her down. It stopped at a house with a
-heavy door painted white. As she stood there by the railings, unsteady,
-uncertain, a woman jumped from the hansom and opened the gate of that
-house.
-
-She had a long cloak too. Beneath it hung a soft mass of black net
-which flashed with steel. Their eyes met; the eyes of these two women
-on the pavement. The hansom rattled off. The lights in the house,
-except one on the ground floor, were out. The pavements wound away, wet
-and empty. Their eyes met. Pamela forced a smile, put out her hand in a
-conventional way.
-
-“Is it really Mrs. Clutton?” she said, with an artificial accent, as if
-it were broad day and Bond Street.
-
-“Pamela! Pamela! Really? But what are you doing alone? Where is Mr.
-Jayne?”
-
-The little dark, vivacious woman’s eyes contracted as they rested on
-this wild figure with the wretched, haggard face, the clown-like smile.
-
-Pamela said nothing. She began to cry in a low, terrified fashion, like
-a lost child. The other took her by the shoulder and led her up the
-flagged path to the door.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVIII.
-
-
-SHE opened the wide door into a hall which blazed with a yellow carpet
-and led the way into a room which was lighted with a shaded
-reading-lamp. The room instantly appealed to Pamela with a sense of
-dear familiarity. It was filled with furniture and china from the
-Buttery.
-
-“Sit down. It is Mrs. Nick Hone’s chair. She used to stand her
-washing-tub on it; Tim says it is worth five pounds.”
-
-A little fire burned in the grate although it was a summer night. On
-the bare table of brown oak was a tray set with tea things.
-
-“I always like a cup of tea when I come home from a party; it makes me
-sleep. I’ll get another cup. You remember Mrs. Silas Daborn’s corner
-cupboard?” She opened it and brought out the china.
-
-Pamela looked about her hungrily, silently, at the familiar dumb things
-which seemed alive that night: warm, vital things that knew her. The
-hideous china figures on the shelves grinned affably--at a former
-neighbor.
-
-“You must drink this hot.”
-
-Pamela began to cry again as the cup was held to her mouth.
-
-“Ssh. No. Drink the tea. Tell me everything and have a big cry
-afterward.”
-
-She drank obediently, draining the cup. Then she said in a heartfelt,
-passionate way, as if she were an ardent convert to a new belief:
-
-“There is nothing like another woman when one is miserable.”
-
-“Nothing. Men are excellent--when we are happy. At other times they
-bully us--with the best intentions--putting all our emotions down to
-hysteria.”
-
-“Men are never excellent at any time. They have brought me misery. You
-pay for one moment of delight with a day of anguish.”
-
-“This tray,” said Barbara Clutton, evidently thinking it politic to
-turn the conversation, “was Mrs. Bert Hone’s. You were with me when I
-bought it. Do you remember how deaf she was, and how the old man
-swore--most picturesque swears! Do you remember what I said that day
-about your brother Edred? How is he?”
-
-Pamela started up at the name.
-
-“I must tell you everything,” she cried energetically. “It isn’t fair
-to sit here, to stay in your house without telling you everything.”
-
-She told it all without another moment of hesitation: told every little
-thing. She didn’t care how her story would be received. She
-relentlessly dissected all her emotions--however unworthy. She detailed
-all her experiences--however unsavory. It was a relief to be absolutely
-frank at last, to have no concealment whatever from at least one
-person. It was a very long story; she touched it up almost lovingly.
-The night wore away. She drained herself of all the bitterness, all
-the delight and shame and misery of three years.
-
-The fire died out. Hushed sounds in the streets beyond the smugly drawn
-curtains, a cold, dull light breaking through a chink and marking the
-wall, were suggestive. Barbara Clutton, who had listened without one
-word of comment, started to her feet and dragged back the curtains.
-
-It was broad daylight in the streets outside. She put her arm around
-Pamela’s shoulders, with a gesture much more eloquently tender and
-sympathetic than a torrent of words would have been, and drew her to
-the window.
-
-“Did you ever see such an exquisite flush of pink?” she said, pointing
-to the sky. “I’ll open the window. There! Such air on one’s cheeks, in
-one’s thick eyes. We ought to go for a walk while the world is empty.”
-
-“I wonder what it is like at this moment at Folly Corner, in my
-garden,” Pamela said abstractedly.
-
-“Ah! Folly Corner. What a garden, what a dim old house, packed with
-ghosts, guilt, dead dreams, and delights! What a collection of
-furniture; I’d like Tim to see it. And you put all that behind you for
-a tinsel thing. My poor Pamela! But then you are a woman. Let us talk
-over your plans. You’ve got to finish your life--that is a piece of
-work we are not allowed to throw aside. Let us make plans.”
-
-“I haven’t any--only desires,” Pamela returned in a shamefaced way.
-
-“Desires! Are you thinking of Jethro? The dawn, the quiet has brought
-it all back--Folly Corner.”
-
-“That is past--impossible. I was thinking of Edred. I had better go
-back. You see, he didn’t mean to shame me. He didn’t know that she was
-alive all the time. He is a victim of circumstances. He needs pity.
-I’ll go back. I’ll say nothing about it. That will be the best. You
-don’t know how fond I am of him! It is terrible; it frightens me
-sometimes. Nothing kills it--not even last night; not even the bruises
-on my body. I’ll go back. You must forget to-night. I’m not a fit
-person for you--or any nice woman--to know.”
-
-A tinge of cold disgust came into Mrs. Clutton’s dark eyes.
-
-“I won’t wrong you by believing that you’re serious,” she said at last,
-with some distaste--with a great deal more seriousness than she usually
-allowed herself. “Go back! It would be immoral, horrible. You can’t do
-it. You can’t possibly mean what you say. We won’t mention him again.
-You must stay here; things will arrange themselves--they always do.”
-
-“But Mr. Clutton?”
-
-“Tim. He has gone abroad as war correspondent. It is as well. We
-quarrel if we are together too long, or we grow apathetic, which is
-worse. I’d rather have isolated episodes of rapture than a
-matter-of-fact, unbroken affection. I could never endure the kind of
-husband who calls you ‘my dear,’ who draws you a check without
-grumbling, who politely wishes you good-morning when you meet at the
-breakfast table and asks anxiously if you are sure his shirts are aired.
-
-“We are happy, prosperous. Tim makes money, although brains, as a rule,
-are a positive hindrance to worldly success. We know lots of clever
-people. To them I am only Tim’s wife: I used to hope that he would be
-only my husband. We rush through society; he the kite, I the tail. I
-used to think I was clever--I’m merely voluble. I can’t even succeed in
-being positively stupid: in a brilliant age like this it’s a
-distinction to be unmistakably stupid. Nancy has been up to stay with
-me. I took her about. She made a tremendous sensation--with her
-complexion, her red locks, her gift of silence. People said she had an
-air, was uncommonly clever. She is going to be married to Mr. Minns,
-the Liddleshorn curate. And some people say that Mr. Jayne is to be
-married too--they talk of Maria Furlonger. Isabel Crisp has married
-that prig Egbert Turle. He has bought old Dr. Smith’s practice at
-Liddleshorn. Mrs. Turle--she came up with Nancy--says that old Gainah
-is wonderfully active, more active than ever. Why! You are nearly
-asleep. We’ll go upstairs. There is a room ready. Annie Jayne was to
-have spent the night here on Monday. She has at last decided to have
-false teeth--greatly against her will: her mother had only six stumps
-in her head when she died. But the baby--there’s another since your
-time--had an attack of rose rash, whatever that may be. It sounds
-pretty.”
-
-She led the way upstairs softly. The house was most luxurious, and the
-tail of her gown, as she swept it over the thick carpets, was like a
-molten stream of silver.
-
-Pamela fell asleep in a mahogany bed draped with some wonderful fabric
-full of color and of bold design. When she woke the sun was fierce in
-the room. Her limbs felt stiff and her head muddled. She started up on
-her elbow, looking wildly round for her own possessions--the big toilet
-table, the winged, ugly wardrobe with the long glass. Her tea-gown, all
-frilled and limp and pale on a chair by the bed, was eloquent. It
-brought back the nightmare: the person in brown; Sutton, with his
-atrocious proposal and disclosure; the long walk, the meeting with her
-hostess. She looked over the side of the bed. Her slippers were kicked
-off, soles upward. There was a round hole in one, the other had broken
-away at the side. Her black silk stockings, lying near, had holes, too.
-She fell back despairingly on the square pillow, its frill tickling her
-cheeks. Where was the use of waking?
-
-The door opened, and Barbara Clutton stole in. When she saw that her
-guest was awake she sat down on the edge of the bed. Then, as Pamela,
-like a child, lifted her face, she jumped up and kissed her gravely
-between the widely set, melancholy eyes.
-
-“I was always fond of you,” she said, going back to the foot of the
-bed. “I always suspected you of drama. I’ve a plan. You must stay
-here--it will be a charity to me. When Tim comes home--we’ll see! I
-shan’t want you then.” She made a little frank grimace. “When Tim comes
-home I want no one--until the first rapture of reunion wears off.
-We are like a couple of very juvenile lovers--but we don’t keep up the
-strain for long. He won’t return for a couple of months at the very
-least. We can have a splendid time, you and I together. There is only
-one thing I must insist on--one thing.” The disgustful expression of
-the night before momentarily hardened her laughing face. “You must vow,
-by something solemn--what binding instrument can we get for you to kiss
-or swear by? There is really nothing but a back glass--which is
-frivolous--and a poker, which is threatening. Give me your bare word.
-Promise not to attempt to see that man; not to degrade me by going
-back, by writing. You mustn’t even speak of him. It’s all terrible
-tragedy to you; to me it is merely a disgraceful, unavoidable episode.
-The woman in brown transforms the situation. I’m more sorry for her
-than for you; we can’t help our respectable prejudices. He is never to
-be mentioned. We’ll put away, if you please, the very tea-gown which he
-has touched. I’ve brought you a coat and skirt--a pale blue skirt which
-ought to suit you beautifully. Is it all settled?”
-
-“All!” Pamela returned with promptitude. “I vow. I am only too grateful
-to be saved--from myself.”
-
-In that quick way--natural to Barbara Clutton--they decided it. Pamela
-fell obediently into the life at Beaufort Street. It was almost
-conventual. Day after day she rose from her bed, looked at the mourning
-band of river and despaired. She was cut off from London; it was part
-of the compact that she was not to go beyond the Chelsea end of
-Sloane Street. She shopped in King’s Road. Sometimes she walked out to
-Fulham, or penetrated farther still, to a lonely green, belted with red
-and yellow houses. The omnibuses pulled up there. She used to stare at
-them wistfully, and think of Wormwood Scrubbs and the old, dead days of
-anguish.
-
-Furtively she bought newspapers and read them with a hungry eye. She
-read everything which might hold a trail of Edred. She bought City
-papers, made her head ache by puzzling over market quotations. She read
-accounts of frauds, read all the criminal news. She read the lists of
-bankrupts, read death notices, advertisements. She never saw his name.
-It seemed suddenly sponged from all the places which had formerly
-placarded it.
-
-She beat against the bars of that house by the river. She wasn’t happy;
-neither she nor Barbara was happy after the first glow of novelty wore
-off. They weren’t of the mold to be completely satisfied with the
-companionship of their own sex.
-
-Summer died; leaves, whirled by October gales, swept the Embankment.
-Pamela was lonely, bored. She had fancied that the society of clever
-people--people with the public certificate of cleverness--would be
-invigorating. But the distinguished people who came to Beaufort Street
-were stupid; they seemed to go out of their way to be commonplace.
-
-“Conversational brilliance is out of fashion,” Barbara said flippantly.
-
-Pamela was tired of Barbara Clutton, tired of her volubility, her
-pettishness, her whims. She was very grateful to her, she liked her
-very much, of course--she was sick to death of her.
-
-How would it end? She studied the newspapers, for other than
-sentimental reasons: she looked for a situation. That would be the
-end--a situation. They would never take her back at the boarding-house
-in Bloomsbury; Edred’s history, and her connection with him, was too
-notorious. But there were other boarding-houses. She would go back to
-the old life--that would be the end. She would help carve, talk
-smoothly on safe, commonplace subjects at the dinner-table.
-
-She knew the life. She remembered; and it turned her sick. A woman in
-subservience was only half a woman. But that was to be the end. She was
-to finish as she had begun. Perhaps, by years of saving, she might be
-able to start a boarding-house of her own. Perhaps Jethro would help
-her to do so, if Maria would permit him.
-
-The boarding-house! She remembered the narrow hall, where the dinner
-always hung on the close air; remembered the shabby manservant, the
-guests. They had mostly been women, those boarders: old maids who
-called each other “dear,” “darling,” “sweet one,” and gathered by twos
-into corners of the big, shabby drawing-room to tear each other to
-shreds. They were fussy old women, susceptible to draught, and given to
-wearing ragged fur tippets in the house when an east wind was blowing.
-She knew--and shuddered. But it was the only thing left.
-
-Her thoughts flew to Folly Corner, and then to Edred. She would remind
-herself reproachfully that she had not once thought of him that day.
-She wanted to forget him; she tried to forget, and yet she reproached
-herself because she was beginning to succeed. She must forget--it
-wasn’t respectable to remember. Barbara Clutton was always impressing
-that on her.
-
-“I like,” she said one day, in explanation of her gospel, “to be a very
-respectable woman; an icily virtuous one--but yet to give the
-impression of being dangerous.”
-
-Pamela had left off laughing at her oddities--she had left off laughing
-at anything. She was cultivating the prim, half-formed manner of a
-spinster well over thirty. She grew fussy over trifles, became morbidly
-afraid of taking cold, studied her health, her diet. She gratuitously
-spied over the servants, seeing an embryo burglar in every tradesman’s
-boy, running her fingers along ledges for dust, measuring the contents
-of the dishes with suspicious eyes.
-
-“I want to be of some use,” she said, in extenuation. “I’ve had great
-experience in housekeeping.”
-
-“Housekeeping!” Her hostess shrugged. “A calling artfully created by
-hopelessly lazy women as a blind. My dear girl, no busy woman keeps
-house; it’s a terrible confession of idleness. Suppose Cook _does_ give
-away the dripping--why should I waste nervous energy in attempting to
-stop her? The dripping isn’t worth it. If they refuse to burn small
-cinders in the kitchen range--what matters? Figure out for yourself--I
-can’t--the cost of a ton of coal, and see how much Tim loses in the
-year. He pays--and it can’t be more than a box of cigars.”
-
-Pamela said nothing. She retired to her room and her newspapers. She
-looked up from the lines of advertisements, and out at the gliding
-river. She thought of Folly Corner, of Jethro, in all his picturesque
-environment. And then she dragged herself back to thoughts of Edred; it
-was becoming an effort to remember him. She thought she would set aside
-half-an-hour every day for remembrance--as if he were some
-tenderly-loved dead person. She became afraid of herself. She was
-hopelessly fickle, of light behaviour. She was incapable of any lasting
-regard. She loved him. She loved him. But the words had become
-parrot-like--they no longer tore her heart to say them. She was
-forgetting him--the very thing she had once struggled in vain to do.
-She was becoming indifferent: the attitude she had once prayed and
-struggled for. And yet she wasn’t happy.
-
-Tim precipitated things. He send his wife a telegram, saying that he
-was on his way home. Would she care to join him in Paris for a week?
-
-“It needn’t make any difference to you, dear,” the excited little woman
-said, as her cab stood at the open door, and her wraps were carried
-down the path by a lilac-gowned maid, whose streaming cap-ends whirled
-about on the rude November wind.
-
-She kissed Pamela remorsefully, conscious that she had been malicious
-now and then.
-
-“It’s difficult for two women to live together without fighting, isn’t
-it?” she said ingenuously. “I wonder how they manage in a nunnery! A
-novel from the inside of a nunnery would cause a sensation. I’ll
-commend it to Tim. He’s quite clever enough to pass as a nun--but it
-wouldn’t satisfy my unquenchable sense of propriety. I’ve been very
-horrid to you now and then; but when Tim comes--we shall only stay in
-Paris ten days at the outside--he will keep us in order. Of course, his
-coming won’t make any difference,” she added, with obviously forced
-hospitality.
-
-“I shall get a situation,” Pamela said, in the inert way which had
-become habitual. “Good-by”--they kissed again. “I’ll look after the
-maids. You’ll never be able to keep that between-girl. She’s hopeless.”
-
-The other shrugged and ran out in the wind to the cab. It drove off,
-the maid came in, the door shut, an unusual silence settled over the
-house. Pamela went into the dining-room and sat by the window, not even
-a newspaper in her hand. She felt more lonely, more unwanted than she
-had ever felt at any moment in her varied life. Barbara had been in
-such a frenzy to get to her husband that she hadn’t given her a
-thought--hadn’t even asked her, as a matter of form, to see her off at
-the railway station.
-
-She lunched alone and meagerly. After lunch she sat by the dining-room
-window until tea came in. The maid set the tray down with a bang and
-moved across to the door flouncing her black skirts.
-
-Pamela set her mouth grimly. She knew the ways of servants; they had
-decided, in the absence of their mistress, to give her a rough time.
-But she was equal to any servant. She amused herself by scheming out an
-elaborate house-cleaning--and then abandoned it wearily because the
-house wasn’t hers. She went to bed almost directly she had eaten her
-dinner. She was awake all night, lying flat and long in the bed, her
-eyes open, her thoughts forced to consideration of Edred. What was he
-doing? She didn’t feel much curiosity. His tenderness didn’t make her
-heart throb. His brutalities no longer made it blaze and ache.
-
-It had really come--indifference: a body, a soul of stone. She turned
-on the pillow and cried from sheer loneliness.
-
-It rained next morning. Rain--a high fog! The most miserable morning
-imaginable. She had her breakfast in the little room at the back of the
-house, with a French window leading to the long, suburban garden. She
-didn’t know why she turned the hasp of that window and stepped out
-under the gloomy sky, into the dreary rain.
-
-It was a very uninteresting garden; a ghastly, heart-breaking travesty
-of a garden. The limp creeper on the blackened wall smutted her hand
-when she touched it. The narrow borders were bare and smut-laden. From
-the top of the wall a lean, gray cat looked at her with a sinister
-mournfulness in its yellow eyes. The fog was in her eyes and down her
-throat, the rain fell coldly on her bare head. Peals of coarse, hearty
-laughter rang up from the kitchen, where the maids were romping with
-the man who came every morning to fill the scuttles and clean the
-boots. The gray cat stole along the wall.
-
-She turned back to the window, not knowing why she came into the
-garden, not knowing what to do with this sad day. There was a rockery
-near the French window--the usual rockery, rich in clinkers. But some
-blue thing stared up into the brown air boldly. She uttered a sudden
-glad cry and stooped, letting her skirt brush the wet gravel. It was a
-delicate blue periwinkle. There was a patch of blue periwinkle at Folly
-Corner, just by the granary. Periwinkle! What nonsense was it that
-Gainah told her about periwinkle? Ah, yes! If a man and his wife eat
-the leaves they will ever be faithful each to the other. The blue
-flower with its trail of glistening leaves was in her hand. She bit one
-leaf, laughing--yet more a sob than a laugh--as she did it. She would
-never be Jethro’s wife--nor any man’s. She was a tainted thing.
-
-She stared at the flower, a long, thoughtful stare. Then she laughed
-again and clapped her hands--the heavy, blinding tears in her eyes. The
-world was to her one wide delicate flower of cold blue. She went
-through the window, laid the trail on the table, looked at it
-questioningly. Once she said to it, “Shall I? Dare I?” Then, with a
-clumsy movement, she dragged herself up, hurried to the door, went up
-the stairs two at a time.
-
-The maids were making her bed. She said abruptly:
-
-“I am going away--a visit. I may be back to-night--I cannot say. You’ll
-see to everything just as if Mrs. Clutton and I were at home.”
-
-They left her alone. She put on her things and went out of the house.
-She didn’t leave a note for Barbara; she didn’t take any luggage; she
-didn’t look at the house with any feeling--no lingering glance of
-farewell. Her strip of needlework was hanging out of the basket. She
-didn’t trouble to put it in. She might be back to-night. It was
-extremely likely that she would be back. Of course she would. She was a
-fool, an impudent, optimistic fool to go at all. She would be back. She
-nearly rang the bell to order dinner at the usual time. She kept
-assuring herself that night would find her again in London--shuddering
-at every assurance. She knew very well that this journey was her last
-throw. She knew very well that this journey was to decide everything.
-Jethro might be married. He might be, if not already married, committed
-to some nice, pure, faithful girl. Was she the sort of woman to be
-introduced to a girl of that tepid, blameless description? The contempt
-for mere unimpassioned, untempted virtue curled her lip.
-
-He might be contemptuous, hard. He might be brutal; he could be
-bitterly, uncompromisingly brutal when he chose. He had the reputation
-of being a hard man--all the Jaynes had.
-
-She could imagine him saying very coolly some damning, insulting thing.
-She could see his ruddy patrician face as he said it, could see the
-relentless glint in his cold blue eyes. Eyes a couple of shades paler
-than the periwinkle; she crushed it in her hand.
-
-She took her ticket; was fortunate enough to catch a quick train--there
-were very few in the day to such an out-of-the-way place. She was quite
-alone in the carriage. She watched the landscape eagerly; watched the
-foul fog rise as they left London; watched the slow development of a
-dazzling autumn day.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIX.
-
-
-THERE was no one she knew at the station; she had been nervously
-apprehensive that there would be. She had expected to create a small
-flutter among the railway people--measuring the intensity of their
-emotions during the last year by her own. No one was surprised to see
-her. The station-master civilly said good-morning. The porter pulled
-his cap and added that they had not sent from Folly Corner to meet her.
-Should he send for the blacksmith’s pony-cart? She shook her head,
-stepping out into the sun.
-
-She crossed the common, noting every detail of the landscape with
-ecstasy. It all soothed and comforted her so inexpressibly, so
-mystically; she fell into it with a delicious sensation of ease. Across
-the common a woman was driving kids. The old goat had got free and was
-awkwardly humping after her, dragging its tether chain. She saw
-everything; her heart swelled in her throat at every step, at every new
-sight. She saw it all, felt it all--even to the white horse silhouetted
-against the broken black sail of the disused windmill.
-
-Each side of her, as she walked on the well-kept road, the common at
-her back, were the clean-cut black ditches, half filled with
-iron-reddened water, and bound by the silver of dew-soaked, glittering
-grass. In a field a man was harvesting swedes. The sick, sweet smell
-of them hung in the air; they were bulbed, tawny and big on the black
-ground. She stood and watched him, finding added peace in these simple
-occupations--the land drew her. He was stuffing the roots into a
-bloated, dun-colored sack. They bulged here and bulged there until the
-canvas looked like an unwieldly, headless sheep of some mammoth breed.
-He threw up the green tops into a cart, the prongs of his fork flashing
-in the sun. Everything was bright and cold and hard; the newly-painted
-shafts of the cart blood-red and angry against the fierce, clear blue
-of the drifting sky.
-
-She noted everything minutely. She was struck by the fantastic
-appearance of a copse of bare bushes--a gray-brown film of mystery. She
-didn’t throw a backward glance at London, with its crowds, its hectic
-flow of life. She was at home. She didn’t even think very much of
-Jethro; didn’t speculate on her reception at Folly Corner. She wanted
-the place, the influences of the country, as distinct from human
-preference. She dreaded the thought of a man’s love. All she had longed
-for was placidity. The clear, hard day, the slow, simple occupations of
-the few men and women she saw, gave her that.
-
-And then, as the time wore on, came the note of dread, of chill
-threatening. The sun slipped out of sight, the sky sulked. When she
-began to cross the second stretch of common, a light, delicate powdery
-mist hung over the shriveled heather. The common drew away--brown,
-bare, heavy with foreboding.
-
-The autumn flaying of the turf was in progress. She saw the bare,
-blue-black patches, like the skin of a dark cat. Through the mist she
-saw the stolid figure of a man. He was leaning his body against a
-turfing iron. A cart, half full of square turfs, was at his elbow.
-
-The mist grew thicker at every step. The one note of comfort and warmth
-came from the smithy, round which was an angry red flare, and from
-which came the steady clink of iron on iron.
-
-The afternoon grew cold. The chill, delicate powder-mist was eating
-into her. She was lightly clad. When first she went to Beaufort Street
-she had bought herself some cheap, necessary clothing out of the few
-pounds in her purse. This was an afternoon for furs. The mist rose and
-rose. The voice of a woman who plodded by with a top-heavy
-perambulator, the cry of the wretched, chilled baby inside, were the
-only dull sounds in the eerie, pure-white thickness.
-
-Her hair was wet on her face, moisture stood in minute pearls on the
-velvet collar of her cloth coat. Higher and higher, thicker and
-thicker, rose the delicate, eating mist! She was chin high in it. A
-couple of cows, a tethered goat, a long white string of geese, were
-queerly-shaped wraiths. The world was white: a wet, ghostly, silent
-world. There was a threat at every step; each corner, each clump of
-dripping bush formed to her nervous fancy some sinister ambush.
-
-Her spirits fell. Once she absolutely stopped, half-crying, with cold
-and misery. She was disposed to go back. It was still a long way to
-Folly Corner, and the terrifying mist was triumphant.
-
-She came at last to the cottage at the edge of the oak-scrub copse, the
-thatched and plastered cottage under the great oak trees. She
-remembered it so well, remembered the hot August day when she had
-walked to Folly Corner for the first time, and had thrown herself on
-the moss-grown turf under the burning sun. She strained her eyes to see
-the wide green glades, the clumps of primrose leaves, the tangled
-brambles, the great tropical growing thistles. She knew exactly what
-should be there at that season, but she saw nothing save the fire of a
-bush of haws. The cottage, which had stood empty on that August day,
-was now tenanted. She approached, her chilled limbs moving creakily.
-She slowly skirted that cottage, preferring to tread the soddened grass
-just for the sake of being near somebody. The world was deserted; she
-could no longer hear one single sound. She was the last desperate soul
-left outside.
-
-The languid flame of a small fire fell across the tiny casement with
-its ragged curtain of brownish white net. She went up close. She could
-see the gray beams across the plaster, see the plumy Irish yew standing
-straight by the yellow, weather-stained wall. The door was half open.
-She saw the flagged floor exuding moisture, saw one poor chair; a bare
-brown dresser, on which stood a coarse crock or so. She saw the mere
-hint of a table, with turned legs which winked feebly in the light. At
-the deadened sound of her feet there was a heavy clumping across the
-flags. An old face, the malevolent, evil face of a man, hung in the
-shadow. She saw the dull, golden fustian of his torn coat, saw his
-gnarled, filthy hand close round the jamb of the door and shut it. She
-likened him to an evil spirit. He was a bad omen. It was nonsense, of
-course; yes, she knew it was nonsense. The man was only Chalcraft. But
-the mist made everything ghostly, demoniacal.
-
-She hadn’t far to go now. She imagined it, she knew every detail, she
-knew just how it would all look on that particular day--the white
-wicket-gate dirty and dripping with water, the umbrella yew in a fairy
-wreath of fog, the great brown pond, with the muddy wheel-tracks
-zigzagging away from it and the marks of many hoofs in the yellow mud
-at its edge. The garden beds would be weedy; vivid green here and there
-with patches of self-sown plants. No doubt, in her absence, Gainah and
-Daborn had easefully lapsed back to the old way--weeds all the winter
-and a grand forking in the spring. She pictured the long windows,
-running away each side of the house door. Inside, Gainah’s red
-geraniums would still be fitfully blooming. She remembered the sentinel
-poplars at the gate, the raised brick path leading to the door. She
-remembered the outbuildings, the untidy muck-yard--all, all.
-
-It was here. Twenty more paces would bring her to the pond. She took
-them tremblingly, things becoming practical now that she was steadily
-creeping beneath the warm, wide shadow of the place. The mist must
-surely be thicker than ever. She could not see the poplars; yet how was
-it that she had been able to see the Irish yew outside Chalcraft’s
-cottage?
-
-It was here, it should be here, it must be. She nearly reeled in the
-wide road as she peered fearfully about her, looking for so many
-familiar tokens which should have studded the landscape--but didn’t.
-
-It was, it must be, Folly Corner. But--but--was that a new house? What
-was the meaning of that wall which shot up like a straight, unrelenting
-shaft and mocked her?
-
-The pond was there. The pond! She stared at the big, brown patch of
-water affectionately--certain of that, anyway.
-
-The house! Yes. The house was the same. It wasn’t a new house. She
-penetrated through its modern coat, its gingerbread attempt at
-gentility. The house was there. She could not see very well; the impish
-mist tantalized her. But the hard, smooth line of roof told her that
-the tiles were new. The yew was gone, the bristly, unclipt umbrella yew
-which had watched Edred kiss pink Nancy: the yew which knew the night
-of her secret vigil.
-
-That night! The night when she had waited. The night when Boyce had
-helped the poor cow with her calving; the night when Chalcraft had
-thrown earth at his master’s window to rouse him, because it was
-raining, and the ricks were not covered. That night!
-
-She had crept like a criminal a dozen times down the brick-path, had
-stood between the poplars, had looked along the road, had heard feet,
-phantom feet, which came and died and finally departed. That night! The
-poplars were gone, the yew, the raised path of worn bricks. They had
-gone and taken that old story of dishonor with them.
-
-A sinuous carriage drive of the brightest gravel wound away, beginning
-where the entrance to the yard had been. The yard had been redeemed and
-planted as a shrubbery; the new wall half hid the ample farm-buildings.
-The shrubbery was very new--glossy laurels and firs set at regular
-intervals, the ground between newly dug. She thought--and marveled at
-herself for the preference--that she would rather have seen the
-mother-pig there, as in the old days--with a pendulous stomach sweeping
-the soiled ground, and a litter of pink, squeaking things about her.
-
-The gates leading to the drive were newly hung. She pushed them back
-fearfully and went toward the house, treading on the beautifully-cut
-grass edge, because she was afraid of the crunch of her own feet in the
-death-like silence and pallor of the early evening.
-
-Firelight danced inside the house. As she drew nearer and yet nearer
-she could see that there were two fires, one in the dining-room, one in
-the drawing-room. The dining-room wouldn’t be dark now that the yew was
-gone. That must be an improvement. Yet, at every step she made notes of
-disapproval. It was so cold, so tame, so flat and unfeeling; these
-mechanically set shrubs, that gleaming regular roof, those wide
-windows. Yes! She was near enough to see. There were new windows, sash
-windows, with little panes above and one large pane beneath. She had
-once said impatiently to Jethro that lead lights cut up the view. He
-had taken advantage of her ideas for the benefit of that girl. Of
-course, there must be a girl. He would not have gone to all this
-expense, except with a view to a wife.
-
-She was near the house, so near that it seemed to throb out to her with
-sympathy. She put out her hand and touched the spick, newly-painted
-walls. With a quick feeling of resentment she saw that they had cut
-down the Devoniensis rose--that globular, foam-like, ethereal thing
-which she had worshiped more than any of the roses. She looked down,
-round, up, making mental, resentful notes of everything. There were
-pert pots on the wide-throated chimneys, grotesque and poor-looking.
-There was a new window upstairs, high and narrow, filled with stained
-glass. That must be the bath-room. Most of the upper rooms were dimly
-lighted. She had often insisted that this was the proper thing to
-do--in good houses. Jethro had resisted the innovation, with a view to
-the oil involved.
-
-Yes! She stopped, her head critically on one side, her heart becoming
-more tolerant of the many changes. This looked a good house, a house
-that a lady might live in: she was full of these commonplace
-expressions that smack of the housekeeper’s room.
-
-Lights in every window, jealously drawn blinds. It looked like a
-house where they dined late, where, about this time, the maids were
-tripping to the bedroom doors with cans of hot water. The house had all
-the appearance of a good house--a gentleman’s, as distinct from a
-yeoman’s, so she thought, beginning to be satisfied and then
-remembering that it made no difference to her now. She went round the
-house stealthily, like a gypsy woman with a basket of cheap lace. The
-dog bounded out of the kennel, then wagged his tail when she went close
-and he recognized her. She went round, went past the woodstack. As she
-passed, a sandy rat, whose young family lived in the shelter of the
-fagots, ran timidly over her foot.
-
-She reached at last the back door. It stood open; she had always
-grumbled at the maids, in vain, because they would have the back door
-open. Everything around the door was much the same, the modern spirit
-had not affected the back of the house. There was the pig-tub waiting
-to be carried to the stye, there was the ash-heap, the other heap of
-broken crockery and old iron. There were the rain-water tubs lurking in
-the angles of the house, their green paint turning blue. She looked up
-at the sky and found that the mist had risen, that the mellow moon was
-full on her head.
-
-She saw everything. Her eyes stretched away into the garden, through
-the entrance-arch of which she saw the glittering glass of the
-greenhouse which Jethro had bought to please her.
-
-She stood close to the wall, her wet shoulder pressing the thick
-branches of the vine, all black and damp and with loose rough bark.
-There were busy movements inside in both the kitchens, a subdued
-cluttering of feet, a comforting rattle of china. The warmth and smell
-of the fire puffed out. There was a band of amber light, shaming the
-cold moon. It fell across the pig-tub and the ash-heap, running
-straight from the open door and losing itself in the hedge, which was
-being grubbed. Jethro was evidently in the grip of some frenzy of
-renewal and refurbishing.
-
-The voices came from the kitchen. One was the voice of Nettie, that
-girl Edred used to kiss and squeeze on the sly in his hateful animal
-way. There were a couple of strange voices. The predominant smell was
-that of apples bubbling in sugar. And then at last, as she stood
-shrinking by the wall and undecided what to do, she heard Gainah’s
-voice. It said, in the old acid shrew’s tone:
-
-“I’ll have ’em made int’n apple-stucklin.”
-
-She curled her lip, remembering those stodgy apple-pasties of Gainah’s
-which Jethro had eaten with such relish. If they were still eating
-apple-stucklins--such a name!--the improvements were only external
-after all. Gainah’s voice, Gainah’s charge to the new cook, gave her
-courage. Jethro had not yet taken a wife; no young wife would endure
-Gainah’s rule.
-
-He hadn’t a wife. She would walk straight into the house; the
-garden-door was always unbolted until well after dusk. She would
-go into the house through the garden-door and walk through the
-dining-room. If he were not there she would look into his little room,
-where he kept papers, guns, his boots, his bicycle even, when he chose.
-
-It was a new surprise to find herself in a porch--so the dining-room no
-longer opened direct into the garden! That was another improvement.
-
-She went through the porch into the room itself. She stopped on the
-threshold and cried out faintly. Everything was changed. The yawning
-hearth was filled in, and a coal fire was burning in a grate of the
-latest design. There was a square table in the middle of the room, in
-place of the long narrow one, with the stout legs and the thick staves,
-which she had always considered so rude, so uncouth. It was pushed
-against the wall opposite the new door--the table beneath which so many
-dead and gone Jaynes had slept off their liquor, the table whose top
-was ringed with black, ring within ring, each the mark of a wet mug,
-each telling the tale of some dead joviality.
-
-She had always declared that it was only fit for a public-house. It
-stood against the wall, its disreputable ringed top discreetly covered
-with a cloth. They used it as a side-board. There was a filter set out,
-a soda-water syphon, and various other things.
-
-The china ornaments had gone, the brass candlesticks. The big
-horsehair-covered chair had been re-covered in shrimp-colored plush.
-The plaster walls were papered. The thick oak beam above had been
-whitened with the rest of the ceiling. She thought that the room looked
-much more light and cheerful, much more suitable for a dining-room. But
-it was empty. There was no hint of Jethro, no gun in the corner, no
-cloth cap thrown carelessly down, no heavy boots drying on the hearth;
-one wouldn’t expect any of those things now. And yet their absence
-depressed her.
-
-She glided across the thickly-carpeted floor--it was a new carpet--and
-looked into his own particular little room. Nothing had changed there.
-The bureau from which he had taken the notes for Edred was open. The
-shabby rugs were kicked up, the plaster on the walls was in places
-discolored. His bicycle, all muddy, leaned against the window ledge,
-his gun, his boots, his cap, his thick woolen gloves were strewn about
-with masculine carelessness.
-
-“The last thing in the house that a man changes is his own room,” she
-said, looking tenderly at a shapeless, deplorable old shooting jacket
-which hung limply on a chair. “But she will make him tidy this place
-up.”
-
-She! She! She! Who was this girl? She ran through the list of likely
-maidens--every Jayne or Crisp or Turle or Furlonger under thirty-five.
-It couldn’t be Peggy Crisp of Liddleshorn. It was probably silly,
-pretentious Maria Furlonger of the Warren, as Barbara had said.
-
-She turned away, feeling a quick, painful affection for this little,
-dirty, dim, north room of his--the only room left untouched. She turned
-away, opened the other door, and went along the corridor, thinking that
-she might find him in the drawing-room. It was most unlikely; he
-disliked that room. But then he had always disliked coal fires, new
-furniture, many lights about the house. She was beginning to realize
-that only the unlikely would happen at Folly Corner that night.
-
-She turned the handle of the drawing-room door, stole in, and saw with
-satisfaction that very little had been touched. Her improvements were
-still rampant. The various slips of Eastern embroidery were disposed
-about the furniture--awkwardly, by an unskilled, stiff hand. The piano
-was draped. The door of the china closet stood ajar, showing the dark
-floor with its gaudy rug and the daintily-finished shelves holding the
-still daintier family china. The curtains--those curtains which they
-had bought together at Liddleshorn--were drawn; the standard lamp,
-which had been one of his last gifts before she went away, burned
-steadily. There were candles alight on the high shelf--she had always
-insisted on candles in the drawing-room; they made such cool pin-points
-of steel-blue and yellow. On one side of the hearth was the one thing
-that she had always longed for--a cozy corner. She didn’t think that
-you touched the water-mark of true refinement without a cozy corner.
-Jethro had stoutly resisted it. Yet there it was; no home-made affair,
-but a perfect thing, cunningly upholstered in the most artistic style
-known to Regent Street.
-
-The green sofa, the green chair, were still in the bay--that bay,
-curtained now, through whose leaded lights she had looked--weighing the
-uplands thick with grain in all their beauty and plenitude with
-Edred’s shallow protestations of love and worldly success.
-
-Jethro was lying on the couch half asleep. She had seen him lie so on
-many autumn evenings when he came in tired after a day’s tramping on
-the farm, or in the stubble after partridges. He was dozing. She stood
-under the shade of the standard lamp and looked at him. He surprised
-her--everything did. He wore a brown velvet coat and waistcoat; his
-slippers had thin soles.
-
-She made an involuntary sound with her foot, and he was awake and erect
-in a moment, stirred like a watch-dog by the least noise.
-
-“Jethro!” she said humbly.
-
-“Pamela--Cousin Pamela! You’ve come to Folly Corner at last.”
-
-He was on his feet, at her side. He stooped and kissed her lightly,
-conventionally--the lukewarm kiss of a relative, to whom a kiss has no
-background. He seemed to regard it as the proper thing to do--proper,
-and perfectly safe. That matter-of-fact kiss of his made her more
-wildly miserable than many of Edred’s blows had done.
-
-“You’ve come!” He looked behind her, a curious, questioning glance, as
-if he were waiting for the second indispensable figure. But the door
-was closed; she offered no explanation.
-
-“How cold and wet you are!” He ran his hand down her coat. “Take that
-thing off. I’ll ring for tea; you could always drink tea at any moment.
-You see I remember--everything.”
-
-He had his hand out to the bell--bells had been added to the old place
-with other things. She put out her chilled hand and tapped him lightly
-on his hairy wrist, where the skin was so white.
-
-“Not just yet. No one saw me come in. I’m cold. I had a terrible walk.”
-
-“But you didn’t come alone! Where is Edred? If he couldn’t leave his
-business you should have wired. I would have driven to the station. I
-would have brought the new Battlesden. You know you had set your heart
-on one. I bought it soon after you went away. It’s only been used once.
-Did Edred----”
-
-“Sit down,” she said, with another light touch. “Oh! this fire is
-glorious.” She turned up the hem of her skirt and let the warmth touch
-her icy ankles.
-
-“It’s Friday,” Jethro continued thoughtfully. “Is he coming down
-to-morrow? You must stay a week at least.”
-
-“I’ll stay longer--if you will have me,” she said, looking at him
-queerly.
-
-“Good! I didn’t suppose he’d be able to get away from business for more
-than a week. All the summer I’ve been talking of running up to town,
-but I’ve been prevented: haying, harvest, one thing and the other. You
-never wrote”--his voice was gently reproachful--“but I remembered the
-address--Marquise Mansions.”
-
-“You’ve been making improvements,” she said, looking round the room.
-
-“Yes, I’ve done a few things--the things we settled to do before you
-went away,” he returned, in a calm voice, “I knew you’d be coming down
-sooner or later, and that you would be pleased. Let me ring for
-tea--though there will be dinner in half an hour”--he pulled out the
-big, ancestral watch. “I dine late now, as they do at the Warren.”
-
-“The Warren! Oh, yes. Of course you dine late now.”
-
-So it _was_ Maria Furlonger of the Warren--Maria Furlonger, who made
-such agonized efforts to get on socially.
-
-“I know you like late dinner. I thought it was as well to have it, so
-that when you and Edred came down there would be no fuss--everything
-ready and as usual. He used to say that early dinner gave him
-indigestion. Late ones make me sleepy; I’m ready for bed before nine.”
-
-“But you haven’t done all these things; you don’t dine late--for us?”
-
-“The place had to be done up,” he said, rather curtly, as if he thought
-she laid too much stress on a trivial point. “It doesn’t matter much
-whether you call your last meal dinner or supper.”
-
-“But----”
-
-She broke off. The fire was warm and crackling, his voice so calm, she
-didn’t wish to disturb things. She recoiled from telling him the truth,
-she shrank from hearing it. For she was certain that he meant to marry.
-He had learnt to be indifferent to her--his kiss was an admission of
-that.
-
-“We must have Gainah in.” He put his hand out again to that little knob
-on the wall. “She shall tell them to get the guest-room ready. You’d
-like to go upstairs?”
-
-“Not yet. There is something I must tell you first. Perhaps you’ll turn
-me out--I don’t know. In any case you will wish me to go to-morrow
-morning; even if you were willing to let me stay, she wouldn’t hear of
-it.”
-
-“Gainah! She doesn’t rule me any longer,” he laughed. “Poor old Gainah!
-She’s old--and queer. Aunt Sophy is afraid she is breaking up. That
-would be awkward for me; a man can’t manage maids.”
-
-“I didn’t mean Gainah. I meant Maria Furlonger. She is a good
-housekeeper. She’ll make a good mistress for Folly Corner. When you
-tell her the truth--and you must tell her--she’ll be indignant. There
-isn’t much mercy in Maria. But I congratulate you, Jethro.”
-
-“You talk as if I meant to marry Maria.”
-
-“And you don’t? Who is it, then?”
-
-“I’m not going to marry at all,” he returned soberly. “You ought to
-know that, Pamela.”
-
-“You are not going to marry!” she cried out in a shrill, happy,
-half-incredulous voice. “I am so glad. Barbara Clutton said you were. I
-thought you were doing up the place for your wife.”
-
-“I did it up for you. I thought you’d be pleased. The men had begun
-before you went away; it seemed a mistake to stop them. I should have
-lost by it; the builder could have claimed.”
-
-“You’re not going to be married,” she repeated, as if it were too good
-to be true. “Then, I am not afraid of you. Men are kind and just. They
-don’t understand; they don’t pet you and croon over you, as a woman
-does. They talk hard business and look at things from the practical
-side. You, for example, would urge me to expose him, and I could never
-do it, never.”
-
-He started.
-
-“Has he got into trouble again? Is he in prison?”
-
-She shook her head.
-
-“Worse--from my point of view. He is married. His lawful wife comes
-first; he married her before he ever met me. He thought she was dead--I
-do not blame him for that; it was a mistake. But other things!” She
-bent forward and took his big, hard hands. “You don’t know what I’ve
-suffered,” she continued in a quick, passionately vibrant whisper.
-“Blows! Worse than blows. He constantly urged me to terrible things.
-There was one man; there were two. The second one told me the truth and
-offered, in a spirit of superb generosity, to marry me. He wanted me to
-run away with one--a man I loathed, whose hand I would hardly touch.
-There are some like that: you couldn’t kiss them, not if you were as
-free as air, not if they were the only ones in the world. Do you ever
-feel like that about particular women?”
-
-“I never thought about women--only one.”
-
-“You are different. I think these things out, just for amusement: women
-do. I imagine what might happen in particular circumstances. He wanted
-to get rid of me; I was a constant danger. He was tired of me--he never
-cared, after the first few weeks: no one is indifferent to an absolute
-novelty. I went away directly I heard he was married. I have never seen
-him, never heard of him since. Barbara Clutton took me in. This morning
-I found a periwinkle. You haven’t dug up that patch near the granary?”
-
-“Yes. Everything is altered out there. You’ll see.”
-
-“It reminded me of you. I put on my things and drove straight away to
-the station, the flower in my hand. I threw it out of the railway
-carriage window. It had done its work; to bring it with me would have
-been sentimental, stupid.”
-
-“Poor Cousin Pamela!” He just pressed her fingers, then gently pushed
-them away, as if they were a danger. “You must forget him. You are
-free.”
-
-“I was always free. But I went away. I left you for him.”
-
-They looked deeply into each other’s eyes. Until that moment they had
-not trusted themselves to embark on a long, steady gaze. She saw in
-Jethro’s nothing but intense, almost brotherly, affection and pity.
-
-“You might leave me again to go to him?” he asked quietly.
-
-“I don’t know--I think, never. But I don’t know--so long as he is
-alive.”
-
-“You are free. But he isn’t. He can’t marry you--can’t make it up to
-you.”
-
-“Can’t make an honest woman of me,” she said, with bitter bluntness.
-“That is what the women say about here when they force the young men
-to marry their daughters. No, he cannot. But that would make no
-difference to me--if he wanted me. He was first. I don’t even hate him.
-Sometimes I think I am getting indifferent; but I felt like that
-before, when he was in prison. I never know--unless he dies. That would
-break the terrible spell.”
-
-He looked into her eyes again; he gave her hand a significant grip.
-They understood each other. They were to be cousins--nothing more.
-Nothing more was possible--she wasn’t even sure that she desired more,
-and she feared that he did not. Nothing was possible now. Their love
-had come to a full stop.
-
-He got up, saying:
-
-“I’ll go and speak to Gainah. I’ll prepare her. She’s getting old, and
-surprises upset her.”
-
-When he came back, he looked a little stubborn--the old familiar look
-of rebellion at woman’s tyranny.
-
-“She’ll be all right to-morrow,” he said, in answering Pamela’s
-eloquent querying look. “She’ll be glad to-morrow. You know that her
-temper’s an odd one.”
-
-They dined alone. Everything seemed strange--Jethro so unusually
-precise in dress and manner, the dining-room so conventionally elegant.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XX.
-
-
-AFTER dinner they went back to the drawing-room together. Nettie
-brought in coffee. She looked at Pamela curiously--with no very good
-feeling. Her sharp, impudent eyes dropped to the left hand, where
-Edred’s meaningless ring still gleamed. The look was not lost on
-Pamela. Directly the maid had left the room she slipped the ring off
-and put it in her purse. Jethro watched her, keen pity and indignation
-in his light eyes.
-
-“If ever he comes here,” he said grimly, and with the eager instinct of
-a sportsman, “you must let me settle with him.”
-
-“He will never come,” she said, slowly shaking her head. “He took all
-he wanted from Folly Corner.”
-
-“Yes; I shall never see my two hundred pounds again,” the other
-returned ruefully, and a disagreeable silence fell over the room, the
-fire standing red on those two painfully tense faces.
-
-Soon after coffee Jethro grew sleepy. He dozed spasmodically,
-shaking himself up at intervals, with apologetic murmurs. Pamela
-sat silent, her unringed hands on her lap, her eyes sadly on the
-coals. She resented the lack of drama in what she regarded as her
-home-coming. The long, varying walk had been so pregnant with
-possibilities. She had imagined, dreaded, dared to hope--so much. This
-was the end--Jethro, inert with food, sleeping like a tired dog in the
-armchair. Everything was settled. They had talked themselves out
-already. She was to stay; she was to be Cousin Pamela again. Whether
-they were really cousins or not they did not know--they had agreed not
-to trouble--it mattered not. She was back at Folly Corner. To-morrow
-she would pick up her dropped reins. She would go to Turle, to the
-Warren, to all the roomy, warm old houses; she would kiss again the
-placid, clumsy-souled woman. No one was to know the truth. Everything
-would be just as it had been before--except that there would be no
-question of love between her and Jethro. He tacitly insinuated that,
-and she as delicately agreed. It had all been conveyed by a look.
-
-When the clock struck ten, he shook himself up for the last time,
-stumbled to his feet, yawned openly, and said that it was late. Was she
-quite ready for bed? They went round the house together, winding the
-thirty-hour clock in the kitchen, which Gainah, strangely enough, had
-forgotten, trying bolts and locks, turning out lights. They went up the
-oak steps. At the door of the guest-room he kissed her calmly above the
-eyes.
-
-When she was half undressed she discovered that the bed had not been
-made. The blankets and quilt were there, but there were no sheets, no
-slips on the pillows. She was half amused and half angry, divining at
-once what had happened. Gainah with a last kick of authority had bidden
-the maids prepare the inferior room which had been hers in former days.
-
-She went softly along the corridor and into that room. The bed was
-made. She did not intend to sleep there: Gainah must be grasped with a
-firm hand from the very start. She set her candle down, peeled off the
-sheets, piled them with the pillows in her arms, and turned to go back
-to the guest-room. When she opened the door, a puff of wind--the
-draughty old house was full of strange gusts--blew out her candle.
-Before the candle blew out she noticed that the key was gone from the
-door.
-
-It was a wild autumn night, the wind rising and calling warningly down
-the chimney. The room was dark, the curtains closely drawn. One gleam
-of light, narrow and pointed, pierced through the uncurtained window in
-the corridor and fell on the tumbled bed. She had dragged the sheets up
-roughly; the blankets were in billows under the cotton quilt, the
-bolster, in a case of some coarse, dark stuff, was half doubled and
-partly buried beneath the humped-up coverings. As she gave the last
-look back before shutting the door she was struck by the oddity of that
-untidy bed. Quite unwittingly, in her hurried gathering of linen, she
-had achieved the similitude of a human form. The appearance was
-sufficiently startling. It was one of those queer, accidental effects
-which sometimes occur. The tumbled blankets, under the white quilt
-which she had hastily smoothed, the doubled, coarsely-covered bolster,
-half hidden, were like the curled-up body and round head of some
-sleeper.
-
-She went softly along the passage, down the steps, round the angles, in
-the dark, knowing every turn of the way. When she reached the
-guest-room she locked the door, lighted the candle, and made the bed.
-Directly she was in the shadow of the dim old hangings she fell asleep.
-
-When the house was quiet and dark Gainah crept out of her room and
-slipped, in her flat cloth shoes, down the stairs. She had not
-undressed, had not even taken the band of dusty velvet from the top of
-her head. She crept down to the lower rooms, where the fires were still
-burning steadily, and where every article of furniture, new or old,
-took fantastic shape. She went about lingeringly from one room to the
-other, moving about slowly and stiffly in the dim circle of light which
-came from the candle in her quivering hand.
-
-She walked about through one room into another, along the corridor and
-back again. Sometimes she sat down for a moment: sometimes she just
-stealthily opened a door and peered in. The two clocks, the eight-day
-in the dining-room and the thirty-hour in the kitchen, had clanging
-tongues of brass. They were the only sounds in the sleeping house. The
-hours struck. She did not seem to notice. A threatening change had come
-over her. She was full of fever and tremor. Her cold eyes burned with
-the fire of amethysts. Her ever-increasing restlessness would not let
-her stay in one room long. She went about wearily, stiffly, driven by
-some malignant whip. She went into the drawing-room and screwed herself
-awkwardly at one end of the cozy corner. She started up almost
-immediately. To her hardihood there was a feeling of oppressive luxury
-and enervation about that soft, gayly-tricked room. She was such a
-persistent worker that her back felt strange against stuffing; she was
-more at ease with the broad bars of a rush-seated chair cutting from
-shoulder to shoulder.
-
-She went out in the kitchen and moved about uneasily, peering, by long
-habit, into drawers, and sniffing, like an eager old dog, for fire.
-
-There was a fatty frying-pan on the top of the kitchen range--that
-new-fangled range that Pamela had made Jethro buy. A victorious gleam
-hardened her glittering eyes: the maids had been cutting rashers for
-their supper. Her rule was bread, cheese, and water or cider. This was
-a battle to be fought out in the morning. The jades! And not wit enough
-to scour the pan!
-
-The knife-box stood on the dresser. Gainah bent over it, from habit
-again. Everything definite that she did that night was done quite
-mechanically and from unquenchable habit. It was her habit to peer for
-dirty knives sneaked in among the clean: that was a cardinal offense.
-
-The box was made of mahogany. There was a brass handle; it gleamed in
-the light of her candle. The knives had heavy buck-horn handles. Old
-Jethro had been proud of them, his son took to them as a matter of
-course, but Pamela had sneered and said they were barbarous.
-
-There were two sets--a dozen to each set. One was of lighter make
-than the other; their handles were straight and tipped with steel. The
-heavier set had stouter handles, which bulged out in knots at the ends.
-Gainah picked out the two carving-knives and scrutinized the blades.
-There was a weary, speculative look on her wasted, corpse-white face,
-in which the brilliant eyes stood out so unnaturally. The frying-pan
-was at her feet, but at the touch of the keen knives she absolutely
-whirled away from trivial offenses--she was swept by one superb,
-dangerous emotion.
-
-She looked round the polished, scoured kitchen, as if asking those dumb
-gleaming metal things on walls and shelves to help her--to suggest.
-
-Then she moved toward the scullery and quietly drew the long bolts of
-the door. She went across the yard, skirting the generous pile of
-farm-buildings. They had been overhauled with the rest of the place.
-The brick walls had been pointed; she could see every even, white line
-of mortar. The roofs of thick thatch had been covered with sheets of
-corrugated iron, which were hard and gray in the dim night. She went to
-the tool-shed. That, by some oversight or by intention, had been left
-untouched. It stood apart--the walls red patched with green, the roof
-of rough tiles covered with a luxurious growth of lichens and
-stonecrop.
-
-She pushed back the door and went in. There were tools and labor
-implements of many sorts in the house: all the deadly array of weapons
-permitted to the peaceful agriculturist. Every one was familiar, to
-her; she had known them all from her very birth--pronged fork, long
-scythe, solid spade, rakes with long pointed teeth.
-
-She sat down on a heap of sacks and rubbish by the wall. Her oddly
-bright eyes roved feverishly over the collection; some on the earthen
-floor, some sentinel-like against the wall, some slipped up in the
-rafters, lying stealthily in wait.
-
-After a little she got up stiffly, the rheumatism gripping her cold
-limbs, and touched these things one by one lingeringly. She ran her
-fingers along edges, pressed them against teeth: the speculative,
-questioning look crossed her face again. Yes. She must do it. That was
-necessary for the peaceful carrying on of the farm life. She had never
-scrupled to destroy anything that came in the way of the farm. It must
-be done. But how?
-
-She took the hedgebill down. It had a long rounded handle of wood; its
-iron head was reared, as if to strike; there was the malignity of a
-cobra in the curve.
-
-There was the scythe with which through so many early summers she had
-seen them cut down the young grass; the sickle, the almost circular
-faghook, the solid billhook of shining steel with which the men chopped
-thick sticks that were bound in the very hearts of the fagots.
-
-There was an old tragic tale bound round the sickle. Years ago
-Chalcraft had made a clean cut with it through his child’s leg--a
-three-year-old asleep in the quivering oats. They said that Chalcraft,
-when the child died, tried to hang himself in the granary; but it was
-before she came to Folly Corner.
-
-There were the shears--long-handled shears, short-handled. She stood
-thoughtfully moving the handles. What sharp wide jaws! One could almost
-catch a head, a human head, in them, and clip it off as easily as one
-would the head of a dandelion.
-
-She dropped the tools as wearily as she had dropped the knives, with as
-great an air of bewilderment. She went back to the house, in at the
-open door. She stood for a moment looking out, seeing faintly some of
-the changes that had taken place and imagining the rest. Nothing was
-the same. The old prosperous, easy, untidy time had gone forever. The
-Jaynes were trying to be gentry. She felt convinced that there was ruin
-involved in the effort--ruin to the place, ruin to the family. She
-loved the place: the hard iron roofs, the white-seamed bricks affronted
-her. It wasn’t the Folly Corner she loved, outside nor in. She loved
-the family; loved Jethro: hadn’t she almost married his father and been
-a Jayne herself? And he! He was going to marry the girl who had lightly
-altered everything. He was going to marry her--the girl who had come
-back with the easy, insolent air of a devil that night when the shadows
-were falling. It must not be. She must save the farm, save the family.
-Yes. That was certain, that was settled. She had always made up her
-mind that, if Pamela ever dared return, then Pamela must be done away
-with. One had to get rid of certain nuisances, certain unprofitable
-things about a farm. It was settled. But how?
-
-She went back to the mahogany box, bent over it, brooded. She took out
-the carver again, the poultry carver with the long slender blade and
-the sharply pointed tip. She rubbed it stealthily along the stone
-coping of the sink, then she carried it back to the kitchen and slowly
-swished it backward and forward along the steel, doing everything as
-silently as possible. By and by she drew the edge of the blade along
-her finger. It was so keen that a thin red line of blood ran up.
-
-She went upstairs. In one hand she carried the flat, winking
-candlestick of brass, in the other the knife. Her fingers gripped the
-smooth golden-brown handle convulsively. The wicked point she held
-outward, her eyes fixed on it with much satisfaction. It was the best
-thing after all. The tool-house, with its rude weapons of earth, had
-not helped her. The knife-box had.
-
-She was at the door of the room where she believed Pamela was sleeping.
-Leaving the light outside, she turned the handle with a sure grasp. She
-knew that the door could not be locked; the key was weighting her long
-pocket. She had remembered to take away the key.
-
-The room was dark. She went like a slow, certain arrow to the bed. All
-her movements were slow, sure, horribly deliberate. She was used to
-killing things. She knew that the great secret of success was to keep
-cool. It didn’t seem to her any worse to kill a woman, when the woman
-was a distinct obstruction and hindrance, than it was to kill a bird.
-
-The knife was in her hand. She gripped the handle fiercely; the shining
-red bone of her wrist stood out. She shut her eyes; it was a habit of
-hers to shut her eyes at the very moment of killing--her ineradicable,
-nervous, womanly habit.
-
-She darted the point of the blade down, jabbing it furiously through
-the heaped-up bedclothes. Then, her eyes hardly open, her hand out to
-feel the way, she crept away, softly shutting the door behind her.
-
-The hard lines of her worn face had relaxed, the feverish shine of her
-eyes had given place to a calm light. The strained, hunted, uncertain
-expression had gone forever. The rebellion and misery, the desperate
-catechising of herself, were all ended. The question which, a year ago,
-had rung and rung in her head so persistently, which had rung again so
-noisily to-night when she heard that Pamela had come back, was
-answered. That question, that weary, bitter question which had chimed
-above her brow and made it ache so dully, would chime no more. There
-was silence, a strange feeling of ease and lightness above her eyes,
-where that maddening noise had been.
-
-Her smoldering hatred of Pamela had taken tangible form. She wasn’t
-clever; she knew not the meaning of finesse nor the nature of
-conspiracy. It had never occurred to her that she might get rid of
-Pamela by skillful appeal to Jethro’s dearest emotions. That was not
-her way. Her way was more rough and ready, more grewsomely certain than
-that. Pamela must be got rid of in the usual manner. There were plenty
-of precedents on the farm. A knife was the only solution--knife, or a
-trap, or a quick twist of the neck. But you could not twist a woman’s
-neck; neither could you pin her in a gin. A knife--that was the only
-way. She condemned Pamela in exactly the same spirit that she would
-have condemned an unprofitable animal. She arrived at the decision with
-stolidity. Her nerve had shaken a little at the actual act--that was
-all: it needed a man to do the killing properly--it wasn’t woman’s
-work on the farm.
-
-Pests must be exterminated; that was the simplest rule of domestic
-economy.
-
-As she went along the narrow, silent passage and up the stairs to her
-own room everything was strangely threatening. The candle was burning
-short and leaping desperately in the stick. All the familiar things,
-things of common life, reassuring things by day, were weird now with
-night and sleep.
-
-She was afraid. She didn’t know why: she fought the feeling. She had
-earned the right to repose.
-
-She shut her bedroom door, shooting the bolt convulsively. It was the
-first time in her life that she had locked herself in at night. She
-undressed quickly, the candle shooting up spasmodically before it died.
-She laid her clothes, precisely folded, on the particular chair. She
-took the velvet band from her head, parted her poor wisps of hair into
-even strands, and twisted each strand into a wisp of rag.
-
-She peeled herself of the various flannel wrappings which increasing
-rheumatism demanded. Then she took off her stockings and slipped on her
-coarse nightgown and got into bed, drawing the belated last leg in with
-a frightened jerk.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXI.
-
-
-THE sun, peering through the carelessly-drawn curtain and falling
-across her eyes, awakened Pamela next morning.
-
-She jumped briskly to the floor from the high, enshrouded bed. She
-realized, with a joyful thrill, that this was not London--not Beaufort
-Street. She must write to Barbara, who had been kind; but the bread of
-dependence, when a woman hands it, is never sweet.
-
-When she was half dressed she threw back the casement and occasionally
-bobbed out her head to look at the garden. Beneath her stretched the
-closely-shaven, vividly green grass, the accurately-cut beds, the long,
-flower-tangled borders. She saw with satisfaction, with a thrill of
-gratitude to Jethro, that everything had been kept in exactly the order
-that she wished.
-
-The garden drew her, looking up at her with a bright, magnetic glance:
-the satisfying, intense, and comprehensive love for a garden caught her
-once more; she marveled because she had once cared more passionately
-for something else.
-
-All the things that should be blooming in that month were there. Daborn
-had been very good; not a single chrysanthemum--those choice, delicate
-ones--had been lost. He had taken cuttings from her dahlias, or
-preserved the tubers. They were there too. Her eyes dwelt almost
-tearfully on the blazing red cactus which had been her favorite. Her
-Japanese anemones, with their rough dull leaves, were heavy with pure
-white or pale pink flowers--widely open and waxen, like small saucers
-of the finest porcelain.
-
-She was going to be very happy in a placid way--the most satisfactory
-form of happiness. She would always be happy; the garden needed her
-every month of the twelve. She had passed the stage of rapturous,
-transient happiness; she was too old. As she looked in the glass,
-twisting her dull, abundant hair, she saw, for the first time,
-accusing, brutally frank lines across her face.
-
-She clasped the silver buckle at her waist with a click, and settled
-the crimson tie which made a mark of flame down the front of her white
-flannel shirt. She ran downstairs, humming under her breath, saying to
-herself that it was fortunate that Jethro was indifferent to the old,
-agitating passion--looking forward to his tepid, brother’s kiss above
-the eyes.
-
-It seemed as if the whole world of Folly Corner rejoiced at her return.
-There was a busy cackling in the poultry yard; the bees were flying in
-the sun; the geese went, in their waddling, ludicrously dignified way,
-along the dry road, cackling with satisfaction. It was like a May
-morning--so blue, so warm, so golden. It was like spring; all over the
-garden were little chirrups and snatches of song, as if the birds were
-nesting.
-
-The dining-room was empty; so was Jethro’s room. She went into the
-drawing-room, opened the window, jubilantly ran her fingers over the
-keyboard of the piano. Then she went into the kitchen; she must show
-herself, assert herself.
-
-Gainah was frying sausages over the wood fire in the back kitchen. She
-rigorously tabooed the new range, and she never allowed anyone to touch
-her sausages. She made them from the very foundation--putting in a good
-taste of sage, in the Sussex way. She fried them, set the dish on the
-table with her own hands. She had a reputation for her sausages.
-
-Some of them were sizzling in a copper pan, others waited, long and
-lean and red, on a plate close by. They were not very appetizing to
-look at, although they were admittedly delicious to eat. They gave out
-a great deal of fat; the pan needed frequent emptying.
-
-Gainah had a Windsor chair with a round back set near the fire. She had
-a table at her elbow. Every minute or so she got up and emptied the
-surplus fat into a bowl. It was a yellow bowl, ringed with lines of
-white, and decorated with brown trees roughly run on--a common yellow
-bowl such as they sell in country shops.
-
-Pamela stepped across the bricks, her high heels clittering. She put
-out her hand with nonchalance, smiled, tried to look pleasant--but she
-had always been repelled by Gainah.
-
-“Good-morning,” she said.
-
-The pan of red copper, half full of fat and bubbling sausages, was in
-Gainah’s hand. It was tipped toward the yellow bowl.
-
-“Good-morning,” repeated Pamela, the wide smile of greeting exposing
-her teeth. “Why didn’t you come into the drawing-room last night to
-welcome me back?”
-
-Gainah gave a choking cry and fell forward in the wooden chair. The pan
-dropped from her nerveless hand. The sausages were thrown about the
-brick floor, the fat streamed along sluggishly, a hot brown stream,
-rapidly settling.
-
-Pamela started back. Some of those spitting brown grease spots were
-already hardening on her skirt, on the toes of her shoes.
-
-“How careless of you!” she cried wrathfully. “You have spoilt my
-skirt.”
-
-Gainah made that disquieting sound again. It did not seem to come from
-her throat: it was a threatening sound--outside, beyond her. She was
-now sitting bolt-upright in the chair. She made an odd figure, with her
-stiff, blanched face, her unreadable eyes, her uncouthly-cut gown, and
-her flat, stiffly planted feet. The fat was settling around her, going
-white and hard on the cold floor. The sausages were stuck in it. The
-pan was face downward on the floor.
-
-Her crooked fingers were caught in at her throat, between the limp
-collar and the gown. She seemed to be desperately clawing the stuff
-away from her skin, as if she could bear no contact, as if she
-suffocated. Her feet were fast in grease, it molded them like a plaster
-cast. She didn’t seem to be in any pain, although the fat was thick
-on her feet. Her jaw had dropped, like a poor dead jaw. Her eyes were
-blank.
-
-Such eyes! Pamela thought of a mechanical toy--broken. Gainah looked
-like that. Something had given the last pull at the wire, the
-superfluous dangerous turn of the key--the one turn too many, the last
-turn. It was just the same: there was the fixed grin, the hard stare,
-the obstinate refusal to perform. There had been too violent a pull;
-now there was Oblivion where a moment before there had been a semblance
-at least of intelligence. She had always intolerantly considered Gainah
-very stupid, only half developed in a mental sense. Yet she had never
-before been an absolute, helpless, insensate, staring fool.
-
-The door opened, Jethro came in.
-
-He had been out early in the keen brief frost. The bridge of his high
-nose was ruddy, his eyes shone. There was about him the intolerant
-aggravating air of the person who gets up and goes out while others
-sleep. He seemed hungry--a trifle cross.
-
-“I saw you through the window,” he said curtly, giving her a bluff
-little nod, and approaching as if to kiss her--the calm kiss that she
-imagined she wanted from his mouth. “Haven’t they got breakfast ready?
-Will you make the coffee, Pamela? The way you used to make it; nobody
-does it so well.”
-
-“Yes, yes!--but look! But what is the matter with her, Jethro? Is it a
-fit?”
-
-She pointed to Gainah, stiff, staring, widely smiling; a terrified grin
-that had petrified on her wrinkled mouth. He looked. He gave a long,
-high whistle, then he seemed terribly touched.
-
-“Aunt Sophy’s been afraid of this,” he said gravely. “We must get her
-up to bed.”
-
-He picked the rigid figure up tenderly, as he would have picked up an
-ailing child.
-
-Pamela followed him. On the way through the kitchen she told the maids
-to send two messengers--one to Turle, another to Liddleshorn for
-Egbert.
-
-Jethro was halfway up the stairs, the odd figure bunched up like a
-short-coated baby in his long arms. It looked so ludicrous, so
-fearsome, that Pamela stepped back from the fixed eyes and stretched
-mouth. He went slowly, his hands gripped round the blue gown. He paused
-on the landing; paused by the window, with its tiny dull panes, its
-wide ledge, on which stood a jar of white honesty-pods--“money in both
-pockets,” as Gainah had always called it. Pamela slid by him, keeping
-her skirt, her head and hands from contact with the blue gown and
-hanging arms. She flung back the door of her old room.
-
-“Carry her in here,” she said. “It is nearer. It is a better room than
-her own, too. When the doctor comes--I have sent for Egbert--the room
-must be tidy.”
-
-He crossed the threshold; she ran in front and flung back the curtains,
-letting in the glad November sun.
-
-“Put her in here. Then go down and send Nettie up. We’ll undress her,”
-she said tersely, with the cool air of business that follows a shock.
-
-They both looked at the bed at the same moment. Pamela stared, started,
-contracted her forehead. Then she threw a stronger look of terror and
-dislike at the doll-like, silly head of Gainah, which hung over
-Jethro’s shoulder.
-
-“The wicked old woman!” she gasped. “I always knew she wasn’t safe;
-these queer people are much more dangerous than a full-blown lunatic.
-All the crimes that one reads of in the newspapers are committed by
-people like she was--peculiar people. She meant to murder me. She
-thought I was sleeping in this bed. Look at the knife.”
-
-She stopped, with a wild leaping at her throat. Jethro had tumbled his
-burden down on one side of the humped-up bed. He drew out the knife.
-Pamela was close behind him. Together they traced its course. She put
-her shaking, twitching fingers through the close long cuts, which rent
-everything down to the very bed. All around the cut in the ticking were
-down and feathers that had puffed out. The down flew about their heads,
-stirred by the quick, short breaths of horror which gushed from their
-lungs.
-
-“She meant to kill me. I took the sheets away and slept in the
-guest-room. It looked rather like a body--you can see the likeness
-yourself: the doubled-up bolster, the blankets all heaped up under the
-quilt. She meant to kill me. Show her the knife.”
-
-She took it from Jethro and held it up, held it close to the stony,
-widely-opened eyes of the figure at the edge of the bed. But the eyes
-gave no sign, the mouth did not relax.
-
-“She doesn’t understand; it is no good trying to make any impression on
-her.”
-
-She put the knife on the dressing-table.
-
-“I’m afraid to touch her,” she said. “What an escape!”
-
-“She’s lost her reason.” He looked down sorrowfully.
-
-“You don’t care for _me_. You don’t think of my escape.”
-
-He lifted his eyes from the bed, seeming suddenly to remember. Then he
-pulled her to him, kissed her with all the calm restraint of last
-night, smoothed her hair--petted her as if she were a startled bird.
-But all the time his eyes were turning to the bed. He treated her
-tenderly--as a pet thing who had narrowly missed destruction. But any
-pet was less than a woman. Gainah was a woman--the wreck of the woman
-who had been his mother, his mentor, his tyrant all his days. His eyes
-dwelt sorrowfully on the bed. Pamela pushed him to the door rather
-pettishly.
-
-“We must get her undressed,” she said. “Egbert will be here soon. Tell
-Nettie to bring up a needle and thread. The tick must be sewn or we
-shall have the feathers all over the place.”
-
-He went away reluctantly. When Pamela was alone she sat down on the
-edge of the sofa. Once she shrugged her shoulders and gave a cold short
-laugh of terror. Only last night she had been discontented because her
-return to Folly Corner had lacked the elements of drama. There had been
-tragedy brewing for her all the while.
-
-Gainah was on her side, just as Jethro had left her. A gentle, almost
-imperceptible, vibration of her head was unceasing; it extended to her
-hands, which clutched round the edge of the blanket. She seemed to be
-slowly crawling back to some muffled kind of consciousness. Once, when
-her eyes met Pamela’s, the girl fancied that she saw a gleam of terror.
-In another moment she felt certain that Gainah recognized her, was
-abjectly afraid of her, was trying, in an agony and without the least
-avail, to slip down in the bed and get out of sight.
-
-It was the monthly washing day. It had been the day of the monthly wash
-when Pamela first came to Folly Corner. She thought of that as she
-threw back the window and heard the rasping, spasmodic sound of the
-brush.
-
-Nettie came up. Between them they took off Gainah’s clothes, divested
-her of her many flannel packings. Then Pamela went and looked for a
-nightgown. She opened all Gainah’s boxes and drawers in the search. She
-wanted a fairly smart nightgown--for the doctor. She rejected those of
-daily wear--coarse, plain things which any self-respecting housemaid
-would disdain--narrow things, like bolster-cases with the bottoms out.
-
-She found, at last, a parcel sewn in linen. On it was pinned a paper
-with the words, written in an uncertain, illiterate hand:
-
-“For my laying out.”
-
-She hesitated--for sentimental reasons. Then--for practical reasons,
-and the practical was usually uppermost with her when it came to other
-people’s affairs--she unpinned the parcel. Woman’s pity for another
-woman touched her heart as she flipped the carefully-made nightgown, of
-fair, thin stuff, over her arm.
-
-“Poor thing!” she said pitifully, and hesitated once more. Then she
-said brusquely to herself:
-
-“Well, at the worst, if she dies, it can be washed, and she can be
-buried in it as she wished.”
-
-She shut the drawer, it was a bottom drawer, with her foot. Gainah’s
-quilts, the blue one still unfinished, were folded carefully away.
-
-When she went back she found the cook and washerwoman standing by the
-bed. The former had brought clean sheets, the latter was standing
-stolidly, her crinkled hands on her hips. She sent them all away and
-finished Gainah’s toilet herself. She fancied that the helpless figure
-shrank from the touch of her hands; fancied that the eyes tried
-eloquently and quite in vain to say things which the lips could not.
-
-When the bed was made and Gainah was stretched straight and stiff and
-robed in snow-white linen of the very finest, Pamela tidied the room.
-She picked up the old woman’s garments with a “finicky,” fine air of
-distaste. She twisted together strips of flannel and rolled up
-stockings which had been frugally re-footed. Last of all she plunged
-her hand into the pocket of the dim blue gown and brought out the heavy
-bunch of housekeeping keys. The clinking sound they made roused Gainah.
-She tried piteously to move in the bed.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXII.
-
-
-“THAT head-flannel may do for Annie; you know there is to be another
-little one about Lady Day. I must say that it is a pity when young
-wives have a family too fast.”
-
-Mrs. Turle gently laved her ample hands in the fancy-work box,
-apportioning the different articles according to her mind.
-
-“Nancy would like that embroidered newspaper rack. She and Duncan are
-so very literary. I’m sure Nancy would have distinguished herself in
-literature, if it had been necessary. She would have made her
-mark--ladies take up so many things nowadays, and are received by the
-best people just the same. When Nancy stayed with the Cluttons she
-moved in a very literary set, and was much admired.”
-
-“Have you heard from Barbara lately?” asked Pamela.
-
-She was sitting by the fire, with her back to the view of gravel drive
-and brand-new park land of Turle House. The big, dazzling white
-mantelpiece was a little above her head, loaded with family photos--a
-long, ogling, simpering line of family features.
-
-“No. But I saw her name in the papers; I am always seeing it. Her
-husband is really a very distinguished man in his way. I can’t think
-why she buried herself at the Buttery, and talked so much at random,
-making enemies of so many people. How could anyone be expected to
-understand her? Nancy says that in London, when staying with the
-Cluttons, she met a great many women of that type--ill-balanced
-women, my dear, with a trick of extravagant talk and an unchristian,
-uncomfortable habit of poking fun at everything.”
-
-Pamela shifted her chair a little back from the hot fire. A quick,
-poignant shadow just flecked her face. A vivid picture of London, hot,
-restless, virile, flamed before her eyes and shook her calm for a
-moment. Then the peaceful slowness dropped down on her again. She
-looked, with a gasp of relief, at her surroundings--the big, ugly
-room--old-fashioned enough in its appointments and furniture to mark a
-distinct period. She looked at Mrs. Turle--who might or might not be
-her Aunt Sophy--looked at her motherly figure and hard, high-featured
-face. She remembered that Barbara had once said, with a laugh, that
-there was a strong streak of “old cat” in Aunt Sophy’s face.
-
-Nothing changed: nothing ever would change. Everything in that room was
-the same as it had always been in her knowledge of it. It was restful
-and slow: it fed and stilled one’s nerves. She no longer wanted London,
-no more wanted Love. But the mention of London, which had held Love,
-just stirred her--made her remember that she had never heard anything
-of Edred. She wondered if he and Sutton were still at Marquise
-Mansions; if they, with Milligan and a few more, were still carrying
-on risky financial schemes. The newspapers never mentioned them, the
-advertisements of their companies no longer necessitated an extra sheet.
-
-“How is Gainah?” Mrs. Turle brought out a cushion of crazy patchwork.
-“I’ll buy this for her, poor soul! What an invaluable woman she was!
-What a manager! Folly Corner would have gone all to pieces after Lilith
-died but for Gainah. It is a dreadful end for an active woman. I
-suppose, dear, you notice no change?”
-
-“None. She just sits upstairs--she won’t leave that room; my old room,
-you know----”
-
-“I know. You certainly had a most providential escape.”
-
-“She does patchwork; she cries to Jethro--never to me--for new pieces.”
-
-“She shall certainly have this cushion. It would give her a new idea.
-She might copy it. She has never done crazy patchwork.”
-
-“If any of you have any pieces, do send them to Folly Corner. Whenever
-we drive into Liddleshorn I will buy her some.”
-
-“I’ll have a hunt. We all remember Gainah. Maria brought some over from
-the Warren last week--you can take them back with you. And Annie had
-some beautiful corners of sateen. She has been re-covering the cot
-eiderdown. I went to help her last Monday; it takes two--one to machine
-and the other to hold the work perfectly steady. Annie is rather early
-with her preparations, but your Aunt Jerusha always insisted on having
-everything ready at least three months before: Annie is a very dutiful
-daughter. And Gainah still has that extraordinary dislike for you?”
-
-“Yes. She is afraid of me. It is natural and uncanny. She thinks I am a
-ghost; she knows she killed me. The knife was dug in to the very hilt.
-What an escape I had! Jethro won’t send her to the asylum. He could
-pay. She would have every care. Half the parlormaid’s time is taken up
-with Gainah.”
-
-“I can understand that it is a trial for you. It is telling on you,
-dear. You really look quite faded. I can see by your eyes that your
-head is aching at this moment. Take a dose of caffeine when you get
-back. And ask Egbert to give you a tonic. I must say that it isn’t
-natural, dear, for a young woman not quite thirty to look so yellow.”
-
-“Gainah and Chalcraft ought to be comfortably provided for away from
-Folly Corner,” Pamela persisted. “Chalcraft is anything but a graceful
-pauper. He is most familiar to me whenever I go to his cottage.”
-
-She laughed uncomfortably. She had grown into an elegant habit of
-philanthropy, after the manner of country ladies. Philanthropy was very
-gratifying. She bought courtesy with old gowns and paid for heavenly
-benedictions with a milk pudding. But Chalcraft was obdurate. He
-declined to bend his ancient knee to the interloper. He kept his bed
-nearly all the winter. He made his “missus” bring it down to the
-living-room and set it behind the door, so that he might see, in part,
-how the world went. At Pamela’s entrance, foolish, half-daft Mrs.
-Chalcraft would courtesy and flip a chair, but Chalcraft only grunted.
-The cold stare of his rheumy blue eyes reminded her of the day when she
-first came to Folly Corner, when she trod down the gray tendrils of the
-vine with the pointed toes of her town shoes. She had been an
-adventuress then. She was assured now--the mistress of Folly Corner.
-She had routed them all--Gainah, Chalcraft, the rude manner of life.
-The fierce old head on the pillow behind the door, the blank, worn old
-face at the window of her old room, were unpleasant reminders. She
-would gladly have sent Chalcraft and Gainah away. But this was the one
-point on which Jethro was firm.
-
-“You haven’t heard from Edred lately?”
-
-Aunt Sophy’s placid, purring query struck her ears like a gunshot.
-“No,” she said shortly.
-
-Aunt Sophy’s keen blue eyes were full on her face.
-
-“He had a very serious illness?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“Why doesn’t he come down to Folly Corner?”
-
-“He’s busy. The train service is so bad.”
-
-“The train service is very good, now that we have the new line. He
-could go up every morning quite easily, with a quick horse to take him
-to the station. It would be better, dear. We hardly care for you to
-live alone with Jethro. You’re really much younger than you look.
-Strangers might consider the arrangement a fitting one, but we in the
-family, who know that you are really not thirty, consider it hardly
-proper. People talk. You know,” she laughed indulgently, “what a long
-tongue Maria has--and she visits at so many nice houses. You and
-Jethro ought to marry. Why doesn’t the wedding come off? Everyone is
-wondering. It is fifteen months since you came back from nursing
-Edred.”
-
-“We have changed our minds. We neither of us wish to marry. It doesn’t
-matter what people say.”
-
-“My dear, your family has every confidence. But I’m sure my idea is
-excellent. Let Edred come and live at Folly Corner. If you had your
-brother with you no one could say a word. Isn’t this a pretty workbag?”
-
-She held up a limp blue thing, worked with straggling leaves in brown
-silk. She held it so persistently, swinging it tantalizingly by the
-string, that Pamela was compelled to meet her inquisitive eyes--eyes
-that she had always known suspected her. There was more than a spark of
-malice in Aunt Sophy. She had been young once, a coquette, so they
-said. The embers of coquetry lay in her eyes still. She had never been
-a mere pink and silly girl like her daughter Nancy.
-
-“If you had your brother with you,” she repeated with emphasis, “no one
-could say a word. Why doesn’t he come? Is it because of Nancy? He was
-in love with Nancy. But she is married now.”
-
-“He cannot come. He has his business.”
-
-“Well, then, my dear,”--she never shifted her questioning eyes,--“I
-must say that you ought to marry to Jethro.”
-
-Pamela walked home thoughtfully. There was, then, nothing stationary in
-life--outside a happy marriage. The family had combined to drive her
-from Folly Corner or into Jethro’s arms. The family did not know the
-cold, sad repugnance that they both had for love-making--the dread
-avoidance of it, as a poignant, heart-wrenching thing. Aunt Sophy might
-suspect, but she would never be sure.
-
-She walked through the woods which she had once trodden with Edred on a
-spring day. Crisp frost--like the icing of Maria’s cakes: Maria’s forte
-was iced cake--spread over the thick, dead leaves. Every point on which
-her eye dwelt was glittering and white. When she reached Folly Corner
-she stopped to look at the cows, standing in golden straw and fenced by
-a gray paling on which serpent-green moss stood in a thick pile. Why
-wouldn’t the family let them alone--she and Jethro? They were
-happy--slow, peaceful, like their cattle: _their_ cattle--she had come
-to believe that everything was hers, without the burning, binding tie
-of marriage. They were happy. The pensive melancholy and roundness of
-the old place, which no builder could inspire with modern feeling, had
-eaten into them. They only wanted to be left alone.
-
-She went round the house, meaning to enter, as she usually did, by the
-garden door. As she passed beneath the window of her old room she
-looked up. It stood open. Gainah was indifferent to temperature: she
-was stitching at her interminable quilts. All she had kept of her sane
-days was the feverish energy, which now wrought itself on snipping up
-stuff and sewing it together again. She wore the same old gown of
-blue--they could not take it from her; her hair bunched out on each
-side of her chalky face in the absurd bunches of corkscrew curls. The
-velvet band across her head was tightly strained: it had made a bald
-spot in the middle of the parting--a spot which was rapidly spreading.
-Pamela saw her plainly: the restless fingers, distorted by rheumatism,
-but quite clean and yellow-white, now that she did not do any housework
-or cooking; the worn, blank face, the constantly moving lips. She stood
-looking up, not knowing why she stopped, lost in speculation which had
-little enough to do with this dormant Gainah.
-
-As she stood there Gainah suddenly looked down. She met the upturned
-eyes and gave a terrified baby’s cry. She tried to move, to scuttle out
-of sight. But her stricken limbs refused their aid; she began to
-whimper with fright at the sight of her victim. A flash of anger
-lighted on Pamela’s face. She had never forgiven.
-
-She held up her finger and shook it threateningly.
-
-“Go back,” she cried, “go back to the fire at once,” forgetting in her
-irritation that the old woman could not move across the room without
-help.
-
-The parlormaid came forward to the window. She caught Gainah by the
-shoulder, none too gently, and pulled her away, shutting the casement
-with an impatient click.
-
-Jethro was in the field beyond the garden. Pamela went to him over the
-border of crisp, crunching grass which edged the furrows. She loved
-that field in all its moods. She had watched it, consulted it so often
-from the shadow of the deep bay window. She remembered just how it
-appeared at each particular crisis of her life at Folly Corner--half
-shorn of its yellow corn on that first day; mystic with clearing mist
-and great green moon the night she came back; dull brown to-day with
-thin ice on the upturned tips of its even furrows.
-
-He was near the hedge, talking to Buckman, who was ditching. She went
-up and hooked her hand through his arm without saying a word. They had
-grown into that attitude--the affectionate, silent attitude of long,
-dear familiarity. Sometimes they would sit without speech for a whole
-evening, until he suddenly looked up from the paper with a tender look
-and stretched his big hand out to touch her fingers.
-
-The ditch was clean, the hedge hacked. Small heaps of black leaf mold
-spotted the fringe of grass.
-
-“You’ll be about done that job to-morrow,” Jethro said. “Just tie the
-fagots together and put them on the stack.”
-
-The two walked toward the house.
-
-“I think,” she said timidly, “that I would like to go to London
-to-morrow. Some shopping--that’s all. And I’d like a sight of London
-streets--a bit of color and movement. One wants that twice in a
-winter.”
-
-He looked at her suspiciously. The clear fire blazed in her face.
-Standing there with the icy ground under their feet and the scurrying,
-sunless sky above their heads, they read each other’s souls.
-
-“No,” she said passionately; “you can trust me. I think I can trust
-myself. London is very big. I am not likely to meet him.”
-
-“Go, if you like. But there will be a hard frost to-night and very
-likely snow to-morrow,” he returned, looking up to the sky for a
-weather sign.
-
-The clear, hard light showed his rugged face, stern and simple.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XXIII.
-
-
-HE stopped at the door and said he must drive over to the Flagon House
-before dusk. Pamela went alone into the drawing-room and sat by the
-fire. The luxury and completeness of the room touched her with a sense
-of Jethro’s boundless generosity--all the more creditable because he
-was a frugal man. It was quite a modern room now--it had the thin,
-elegant touch which she preferred.
-
-Her tea came in. She threw aside her hat and coat, and toasted her
-knees while she read the newspaper. A queer hurry and unrest had taken
-possession of her. She kept worrying herself. Should she go to London
-to-morrow? Aunt Sophy had stirred her by the mere mention of London.
-Should she go? Should she stay at home?
-
-There was no harm in going. Shopping, tea with Barbara perhaps--nothing
-more. She would stop at Liddleshorn and ask Nancy or Egbert’s wife to
-go with her. There would surely be safety in that. Safety! The word
-made her blench and shrink. She instantly suspected herself. So there
-was really danger!
-
-She wasn’t sure of herself--not yet: wasn’t sure--would never be.
-Wasn’t it more than possible that, directly she was in London alone,
-unchecked, unwatched, she would go straight to Marquise Mansions, not
-meaning to enter? But, at the foot of the stairs, wasn’t it certain,
-miserably certain, that she would go up? If she saw him! Then--that
-she admitted, with a violent shame and misery--everything would depend
-on his attitude. The woman in brown! The woman--didn’t count.
-
-She wouldn’t think, wouldn’t speculate, wouldn’t decide just now. It
-would be premature to decide yet. There was no hurry.
-
-She picked up the paper, which had dropped to the floor. Then she
-remembered that it had been the paper which had tempted her to leave
-Jethro before. Suppose Edred’s name should be on the next sheet! That
-would settle everything--so she feared.
-
-Would it never end--this evil, incomprehensible witchery? Wasn’t she
-ever going to be safe? Was her life to be spent in veering between the
-happy lethargy of Folly Corner and the periodic joy and black misery of
-life with Edred? She despaired of herself. She hadn’t any shame, any
-self-respect, any modesty--any of those cold, praiseworthy qualities
-which romance has for centuries built up and labeled “feminine
-character.”
-
-She read on. One word, at last, became more than a dancing string of
-letters. It was the word Sutton. Here at last, after fifteen months of
-vigilant watching, was a sign. Here, beneath her eyes, was an indirect
-message from Marquise Mansions.
-
-Had he been knighted or sent to penal servitude? Either was equally
-likely--in their mode of life. She read. It was a highly respectable
-announcement: he was a member of the County Council--a prominent
-member--and he had been agitating about some strike--yes, the
-plasterers’ strike. Whatever sympathy had he with plasterers? She
-laughed softly, and put the paper down. He was evidently prosperous,
-this sleek minion of Edred’s. The paragraph was redolent of prosperity.
-He was spoken of deferentially as a promising man--a coming man. She
-knew his future. He’d go into Parliament, pick his way up the social
-ladder.
-
-There was no word of Edred. The omission was a knell on her brow.
-
-She must go to London to-morrow. It would be safe. She wasn’t quite so
-weak as she supposed. After all, there really would not be much danger
-in going to Marquise Mansions--just to inquire of the porter.
-
-The room grew dark as she sat, stooping forward, her chin in her hands.
-The wind rose, and lapped like rising waves about the lonely house. She
-put more coal on the fire, feeling the intense cold of the night even
-there, in the nest of carpets, thick curtains, and cushions.
-
-Suddenly she heard muffled feet on the red, newly-spread gravel
-outside. No wheels, but the steady, heavy tramping of feet! She heard
-voices, the rustic, slow voices of the farm men. There was a momentary
-silence: then Jethro spoke. She could not catch the words, but there
-was a sinister intonation in his voice.
-
-She ran to the window. When she hastily dragged the curtain back she
-saw that the glass was spread with a fine cloth of silver. The
-casement was fast with frost; it took a determined movement of her
-wrist to throw it back.
-
-When she put her head stealthily out into the night, the cold dashed
-against her with the sting of a blow. There had not been so cold a
-night that winter. The snow fell in solid steady flakes.
-
-It was a typical winter’s night; it was quite theatrical in its
-completeness. She might have been looking at the drop-scene of a
-domestic drama. Snow, intense cold, slow-tongued, heavy-footed
-rustics--everything was ripe for a crisis; but there was to be no
-crisis in her life, no more drama. She was in harbor.
-
-Jethro saw her before she spoke.
-
-“Go back!” he said peremptorily. “Go back to the fire!”
-
-Those were the words she had used to Gainah.
-
-“Go back!” he repeated.
-
-She couldn’t see his face; she could see nothing distinctly. The men
-were in a circle, as if they covered something. But she didn’t want to
-see. The strange ring in his voice was enough.
-
-She shut the window, caught a rug from the cozy corner, and went
-through the warm, well-lighted corridor out of doors.
-
- * * * * *
-
-They were going very slowly, very cautiously, the group of farm men,
-headed by Jethro, toward the barn. She could see them--the bent
-shoulders, the rough clothes, the shambling, swinging steps and loose
-swing of the body. They were all familiar, these men. She knew them
-by name--knew how many shillings a week each had, and of how many
-children each was the father. At that moment she didn’t seem to know
-them at all. They were instinct with mystery--mystery flavored with
-dread.
-
-What were they carrying? She could see now, as she gained on them
-silently in her thin slippers, that they guardedly carried a thing--a
-long, shrouded bundle. It was shapeless; yet, somehow, it cried out of
-life beneath the roughly piled coverings. It was nothing agricultural
-that they were carrying toward the barn so carefully.
-
-She heard them speak, heard Daborn say in his cheery voice and
-deferential way:
-
-“’Course, sir, it aint as _I_ thinks, it’s as _you_ thinks. But _I_
-should jus’ lay ’un in the barn.”
-
-Lay what in the barn? A formless fear quickened her feet. She was very
-close, none of them yet suspected her presence--the heavy snow now
-extinguished all sound of feet.
-
-They had covered the shrouded thing with sacks--wet sacks that were
-already stiffening with frost.
-
-She crept behind them in the shadow of the newly-planted shrubs. She
-followed to the barn--the great barn, full of cobwebs, scored by huge
-beams. Its new roof of corrugated iron, covering the heavy thatch,
-gleamed like a strange, new precious metal.
-
-They stopped to throw open the great door. How cold she was! And yet
-how her heart under the sofa-rug blazed and beat--she couldn’t have
-told why.
-
-They all went stolidly, carefully into the barn. She slipped like a
-wraith in after them.
-
-Jethro turned and saw her.
-
-“Go back!” he said wrathfully. “Go back!” repeating it, with no wrath
-at all, but with exquisite pleading and gentleness. “Go back! Dear
-love, go back to the fire.”
-
-She looked up at him meaningly, knowingly. She began to feel what it
-was that stretched under those wet sacks. Dear love! It was the first
-time since her return that he had used those words--his favorite pet
-expression during the brief, agitated period of their engagement.
-
-There were frozen flakes of snow scattered over the orange silk rug
-which wrapped her from her chin to the toe-caps of her slippers. Her
-white face, framed in disheveled, dust-colored hair, was shadowy. They
-stood together at the door of the barn. At the back of them, the men,
-each with his lantern, made a patch of light. An evil spirit seemed to
-stare out of each corner of the vast raftered place--to stare down at
-the thing under the sacks.
-
-“I will not go back,” she said firmly. “I want to see. What is there?”
-
-She pointed with a steady finger. They had improvised a bench. They
-were laying it out--straightening it, with rough, pitiful reverence, as
-she could very well see.
-
-“What is there?”
-
-Her voice rang out in the lofty barn amid the perfect, unnatural
-silence which suddenly fell over the rest. Jethro only repeated,
-touching her coaxingly on the wrist:
-
-“Go back. I’ll come in and tell you presently.”
-
-She shook her head.
-
-“I stay. I mean to see.”
-
-The group of men, with rare delicacy, without a word or a gesture of
-recognition, clumped out, with heads down and heavy feet, trying in
-vain to tread lightly.
-
-Jethro and Pamela were alone. She shot forward and touched the sacks.
-
-“You mustn’t touch. I insist on your going in, Pamela.”
-
-But her hand was already on the soiled, wet sacking, and she flipped it
-down with fearful eagerness.
-
-“I knew, I knew,” she called out almost exultingly. “I felt sure.”
-
-She looked at the dead face for a long time, and very steadily.
-
-“I was driving home from the Flagon House,” Jethro explained in a husky
-voice and averting his eyes from those dead ones which would not close.
-“Something went wrong with the harness just as I got to the pond. I
-jumped down. By the light of the lamps. I saw--his arm was thrust out.”
-
-She didn’t speak. Her eyes were steady and luminous on Edred’s rigid
-face. There was a ticking sound as the water dropped from his sodden
-clothes to the floor. Then a quick clatter of a horse’s hoofs fell on
-their ears.
-
-Jethro said simply:
-
-“That’s young Buckman gone to Liddleshorn for Egbert. I told him to
-saddle the black mare.”
-
-She only looked and looked. Her eyes were unnaturally bright, her lips
-were steady. She looked from the handsome dead face to the shabby,
-drenched clothes, which were splintered all over with little
-spear-shaped fragments of ice.
-
-They were the clothes of a tramp. His boots were burst, a dirty
-handkerchief was knotted round his long throat, and on his chin was an
-unkempt beard--a piebald beard, half black, half gray. He was handsome
-still, but it was the wreck of comeliness--the sodden face of a
-dissolute man of fifty.
-
-“He must have had ill luck lately,” Jethro said. “He was evidently
-coming back to us.”
-
-“If he had come back--alive,” she said thoughtfully, “I wonder----”
-
-Her steady gaze on the dead, aged, handsome face never wavered. If he
-had come back to Folly Corner alive--so--would he have possessed the
-old magic?
-
-His eyes were fathoming the raftered roof. In every corner, clothed in
-the swaying black cobwebs, was an imp--the evil spirits who had swayed
-his life.
-
-“We shall never know what brought him to this. Come away, dear,” urged
-Jethro.
-
-She shook Jethro’s big hand off with petulance. The water from the dead
-man’s clothes was freezing at her feet, beneath her slippers, and
-chilled her. That was the nearest approach to contact she reached with
-the dead. She made no attempt to touch him, to go a little nearer, to
-stoop and stare into the glazing, fearful surface of his wide dark eyes.
-
-What a mystery he had always been! What a mystery he was now! She had
-never been certain even of his name. She didn’t know and never would
-know the secret history of the last fifteen months. Two might tell
-her--Sutton or the woman in brown. But she did not wish to revive
-either of them. That was past. Everything was past. She was stripped at
-last of everything; the world was simply Folly Corner. She felt as a
-slave might feel when he heard the blows which loosened his shackles.
-She was free. She had always been free--in the letter; in the spirit
-she had been a wretched slave. A slave to first love--that indefinable,
-holding thing.
-
-She turned away suddenly, turned her back on the dead man--not with
-horror, grief, or repulsion, but apathetically--as if she had seen
-enough. She dismissed him. She put her head to Jethro’s coat, with the
-persuasive, rubbing air of a cat.
-
-“I can’t feel,” she said, holding one hand out toward the roughly
-improvised bier. “I thank God that I don’t feel any longer. I’m not
-touched in the least, not even by ordinary natural emotions. I’m not
-sorry; I’m not ashamed; I’m not even glad. I’m only free. Jethro!”
-
-“Dear love!” His great hand was on her hair.
-
-“I don’t feel--for him,” she went on with more passion, “the ordinary
-pity and sadness that one feels for any dead thing. I can’t--for him.
-There’s no dignity, no pathos in Death when it touches him. You mustn’t
-think me hard; mustn’t put this down to vengeance because he injured
-me. I can still feel pity. I cried only this morning over a tomtit
-which the cat had mangled. But I don’t cry for this. I don’t feel. I’m
-stone where he is concerned. Until to-night I have been wax. I’m not
-sorry or shocked; not anything womanly, anything human that I ought to
-be. I can’t feel. I’m free. Take me away. We’ll get warm in the house.”
-
-They stepped out into the driving snow. The world was white and
-pitiless that night.
-
-The door thudded solemnly when Jethro pulled it to. He had his arm
-round Pamela, his coat held out to form a screen for her. Midway to the
-house she stopped, the blinding, desolate snow whirling above their
-heads. She looked up and he looked down. There was a strange fire in
-each pair of eyes. Suddenly he stooped and kissed her on the
-mouth--roughly, brutally.
-
-Her mouth smarted with the rudeness of that kiss, but a sweet,
-permanent content ran through her body. He loved her! She would be
-Cousin Pamela no more, save in the tender jest of matrimony. He had
-always loved her. His reserve, his brotherly attitude, had been forced.
-They were part of his prudent nature, part of his hereditary economy.
-He would never expend when there was small chance of any result.
-
-The house was warm--a gently filtering warmth that seemed to wrap them
-directly they shut the door.
-
-The discreet clink of china, the savory smell of soup, came from the
-kitchen. They were preparing dinner--the place was wholly regardless of
-that miserable dead man.
-
-They shut themselves in the drawing-room. Pamela abandoned herself to
-the luxury of the fire. Jethro paced about nervously, his ears alert
-for wheels.
-
-“Egbert can do nothing,” he said. “The poor chap was dead when I found
-him--dead and stiff. He must have been in the pond some time. If I
-hadn’t found him to-night the ice would have pinned him in by
-to-morrow. We should have been obliged to cut him out. I can’t think
-how he got in. It isn’t dark: he never drank--too much. His head was
-strong. He could stand a lot of whisky. We don’t know----”
-
-“We shall never know,” she said with the oddest lethargy.
-
-All the time he walked about the room, indulging as he did so in kind
-commonplace reflections concerning Edred, she was saying to
-herself--lilting the words to a queer dancing air that hummed in her
-head:
-
-“Free, free, free.”
-
-She tried herself, probed herself, insisted on proving. She recalled
-all sorts of things--her happiest, tenderest moments with the dead man.
-She felt nothing at all, except faint disgust for the woman--it could
-not have been herself--who had so madly loved that creature who was
-lying in the barn searching the roof with his fixed, shallow eyes.
-
-“No,” she said, half to herself, half to Jethro, “I don’t feel.”
-
-She waited a moment, let that flow of recollections rush on. Nothing
-touched her. It had been another woman--a dogged, shameful, spiritless
-creature. She repeated devotionally, as if she had been kneeling in a
-great church, swept by religious frenzy:
-
-“I thank God. I don’t feel.”
-
- * * * * *
-
- “Beaufort Street, May 24.
-
-“MY DEAREST PAMELA: Tim and I will be delighted to spend all June at
-Folly Corner, as you suggest: you’ll really see Tim at last!
-
-“We have let this house, and think of settling in the country. It will
-not be the real thing, as you have it. We shall go to one of those
-intellectual settlements with a good railway service to town; a theater
-train once a week. We shall live on a hill; there will be a splendid
-view from our windows. We shall have to pay for that view; we shall ask
-our friends down to look at it; we shall see it every morning--rave
-over it, become callous to it, abuse it--want to murder it. A true
-English home is in a hollow, like Folly Corner. I shall have to content
-myself with the hard monotony of a pine wood--after Sussex oak! We
-shall belong to a coterie--everybody will be an artistic something.
-Everybody will flatter and hate his neighbor.
-
-“I want to see the baby. Of course you’ll call him Jethro. I can
-understand your disquietude at Gainah’s fondness for him.
-
-“Your letter was too domestic altogether. _Do_ remember that a ‘good
-manager’ degenerates into a shrew after thirty.
-
-“Of course your husband is trying--it is a way they have: a man is the
-most difficult of all domestic pets. Never mind his occasional morose
-moods; never mind his attempts at domestic economy. When a man decides
-on domestic economy he smokes a shilling cigar while he lectures his
-wife on the sinful extravagance of afternoon tea. A wise woman gives
-him his head on such occasions, and never varies her course.
-
-“You are very much to be envied; our life is a struggle to make both
-ends meet. Tim’s book of essays, which made such a splash last year,
-has been the ruin of him. He is a melancholy object lesson--a man
-ruined by press notices. Still, that is not a fate likely to befall you
-or Mr. Jayne. My poor Tim no longer has confidence in anything he does.
-I tell him--without making the least impression on him--that a thing
-doesn’t cease to be clever because you’ve found out the way to do it.
-He’s versatile--that is his stumbling-block. To succeed, you must be
-superlatively skillful at one thing, and a perfect fool at everything
-else.
-
-“So Nancy has won the literary prize in the _Liddleshorn Herald_
-competition--and dear Mrs. Turle has justified her opinion.
-
-“As Chalcraft and his wife are dead, of course there will be a sale.
-Buy me the oak chair, if I am not present to buy it myself.
-
-“I remember Nettie; she didn’t look the kind of girl who would go off
-in a decline. But the rustics are dreadfully unhealthy. When I was at
-the Buttery buying things of the cottagers I had a fixed rule by which
-I ingratiated myself. If a woman was under fifty I inquired after the
-baby; over fifty, I inquired after the bad leg. It sounds horrid, but
-was invariably successful. If the victim was a man, I asked if his
-ground grew good onions, and said how sorry I was that I couldn’t keep
-a pig.
-
-“By the way, when you see Mrs. Silas Daborn, ask her to save me a
-kitten next time they occur. The cat we have won’t catch mice--lets
-them frisk with the tip of her tail. I cannot think what cats are
-coming to. Tim, who is not a Progressive, says it is all the fault of
-the School Board.
-
-“We shall come by the quick afternoon train on Wednesday, June 2. We
-arrive at five something; Mr. Jayne will please look it up in the
-time-table.
-
- “Affectionately yours, with a kiss for the baby,
-
- “BARBARA CLUTTON.”
-
-
-THE END.
-
-
-
-
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-FOLLY CORNER
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-MRS. H. DUDENEY
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-AUTHOR OF “THE MATERNITY OF HARRIOTT WICKEN”
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-HENRY HOLT AND COMPANY
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-1900
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-<a href="#chapter_104_hdg">
-CHAPTER IV.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_105_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_105_hdg">
-CHAPTER V.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_106_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_106_hdg">
-CHAPTER VI.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_107_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_107_hdg">
-CHAPTER VII.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_108_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_108_hdg">
-CHAPTER VIII.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_109_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_109_hdg">
-CHAPTER IX.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_110_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_110_hdg">
-CHAPTER X.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_111_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_111_hdg">
-CHAPTER XI.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_112_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_112_hdg">
-CHAPTER XII.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_113_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_113_hdg">
-CHAPTER XIII.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_114_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_114_hdg">
-CHAPTER XIV.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_115_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_115_hdg">
-CHAPTER XV.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_116_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_116_hdg">
-CHAPTER XVI.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_117_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_117_hdg">
-CHAPTER XVII.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_118_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_118_hdg">
-CHAPTER XVIII.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_119_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_119_hdg">
-CHAPTER XIX.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_120_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_120_hdg">
-CHAPTER XX.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_121_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_121_hdg">
-CHAPTER XXI.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_122_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_122_hdg">
-CHAPTER XXII.</a>
-</p>
-<p class="contents" id="chapter_123_toc">
-<a href="#chapter_123_hdg">
-CHAPTER XXIII.</a>
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="Prologue">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-iii">[iii]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_100_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_100_toc">PROLOGUE.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-T<small>HE</small> steam of that stifling London day rose up in a choking, enervating
-haze from the hot grass. The shrill cries of children, loose from the
-Board School, cut the thick air. A train rushed across the bridge. Two
-or three cyclists tinkled their bells irritably as they spun down Wood
-Lane to the Uxbridge Road, leaving a cloud of gray grit behind them.
-Omnibuses pulled up at the corner of the short street near the few
-newly-built shops. From Portobello Road came the heavy rumble of more
-traffic, mixed with the nearer shout of costers vending dried fish and
-over-ripe fruit.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was a young woman. She stood still, in a limp, hopeless attitude,
-her face turned on Wormwood Scrubbs, her strained eyes vacantly
-fastened on the buildings, spires, and chimneys in the distance.
-</p>
-<p>
-Some simple sound from the frowning prison on her left made her turn
-her head with the swift, watching movement of a cat. But there was
-nothing to see; no hint, no hope. Behind those walls! Her throat,
-rising white and firm from the tumbled collar of the cotton blouse,
-contracted. Those walls! those impenetrable walls! those relentless
-walls!
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-iv">[iv]</a></span>
-She put out two hands in baggy gloves; she held them up, flat palms
-upward, toward the speechless prison. Her attitude was one of strong
-appeal, of hope, almost&mdash;as if she half expected that despair would
-work a miracle. They stretched out, big, strong, shapeless in the old
-gloves&mdash;those quivering, appealing hands of hers.
-</p>
-<p>
-With a sharp agonized movement of the wrists she let her hands drop
-nervelessly to her side. A sob was strangled in her throat; she turned
-her head abruptly, so that her eyes no longer rested on the walls. With
-a sudden impulse she started running across the grass; ran across the
-road and under the bridge to the spot where an omnibus was waiting.
-</p>
-<p>
-It grew dusk as she rattled back on the garden-seat to London. One by
-one the lights of night gleamed out. The life of night began. She
-looked down and saw the interior of smoothly rolling carriages, with
-women in evening dress lying idly back inside. Women on foot, smartly
-clad and with happy faces, flitted along the white pavements. Women
-clambered to the top of the omnibus, chattering and tittering. The one
-who sat next her glanced curiously at her grim mouth and shadowed eyes.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-The lights grew thicker; fantastic chains of light&mdash;red and yellow.
-London glittered like some fairy mine of jewels: jewels already cut and
-polished, every facet gleaming. Words winked out letter by letter, then
-vanished. She saw them come and go on the fronts of the houses. O<small>X</small>
-F<small>ORCE</small>&mdash;N<small>INON</small> S<small>OAP</small>&mdash;D<small>UNN</small>’<small>S</small> N<small>OSTRUM</small>. To her strained senses<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-v">[v]</a></span> they lost
-all common meaning and symbolized the weird, the threatening, the
-unknown.
-</p>
-<p class="break">
-*<span class="lftspc_brk">*</span><span class="lftspc_brk">*</span><span class="lftspc_brk">*</span><span class="lftspc_brk">*</span>
-</p>
-<p class="no_top">
-It was blinding hot in the market town that Wednesday. Sheep straggled
-into the pens; the drovers choked and cursed as the dust dried in their
-throats. A smart trap, driven by a girl, with a groom behind, bowled
-down the High Street, leaving behind an impression of coolness and
-smartness. Now and again a sharp, imperious cycle-bell cut the air, and
-as some female cyclist darted by pedestrians heard the soft flutter of
-sleeves, like the flapping sails of a yacht.
-</p>
-<p>
-A man came, with a slightly rolling walk, down the street. He made an
-imperial progress, nodding his head bluffly to deferential shopkeepers
-who stood at their doors, exchanging a jovial word or so with other
-substantial yeomen. Everyone knew and respected Jethro Jayne&mdash;“Young
-Jethro” of Folly Corner. Everyone in and around Liddleshorn knew that
-there had been Jaynes at Folly in unbroken succession since before the
-days of Cromwell.
-</p>
-<p>
-He was a picturesque figure, with his open, weather-tanned face, his
-clean-shaven lip, his buff breeches, and brown gaiters. He wore a linen
-coat and a flapping white linen hat. His eyes were lazily merry and
-roguish under the starched brim.
-</p>
-<p>
-He turned in at the door of the inn, with the low-pitched, paneled
-dining-room, where most of the farmers dined on market-day.
-</p>
-<p>
-A round-faced, pretty girl brought him his plate<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-vi">[vi]</a></span> of beef and his
-two vegetables. Bread and cheese, and a jug of sweet cider, completed
-the meal.
-</p>
-<p>
-He looked at her thoughtfully whenever she approached: so very
-blue-eyed and round; such a plump, neat figure in a black gown! He
-looked at her through a strong cloud of smoke as he puffed at his pipe
-and drank a last glass of the cider. She had suggested something. He
-was thoughtfully asking himself, Why not?
-</p>
-<p>
-Presently he took a pencil and a letter from his breeches pocket. He
-began to write on the back of the envelope, making many erasions,
-knitting his brows and pouting his lips like an anxious child.
-</p>
-<p>
-The girl came softly to the table and took away the mustard for another
-customer. Jethro never looked up at her. She had done her part. She had
-suggested.
-</p>
-<p>
-He paid the bill and emerged into High Street. He looked a trifle more
-bluff and lurching than before. His face was red&mdash;with cider, with the
-excitement of his daring plan.
-</p>
-<p>
-For the first time in his life he was yielding to impulse. Already he
-half regretted yielding. He was afraid of himself; he was more afraid
-of Gainah.
-</p>
-<p>
-Yet he bent his head and went down two steps into the editorial offices
-of the <i>Liddleshorn Herald.</i> The place was empty save for a
-sharp-featured youth who was lounging at the side of the counter. He
-sharply asked the visitor what he wanted. He was a new importation, an
-embryo journalist, with a London journal as his goal. He touched
-the<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-vii">[vii]</a></span> town side of things only. He had a smoldering contempt for
-farmers, and knew nothing of the master of Folly Corner.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro pushed his envelope across the counter with a sheepish gesture.
-</p>
-<p>
-“How many insertions?” asked the youth laconically, yet throwing an
-amused, curious glance at the big figure which stood near the door&mdash;an
-unconscious, unappreciated color scheme&mdash;in white and russet, buff and
-brown.
-</p>
-<p>
-“How many times in?” The gentleman-farmer’s big, embarrassed laugh
-seemed to shake the silent place. “Well&mdash;once.”
-</p>
-<p>
-As he went slowly out of the town the tinkle of a piano came out
-clearly from the front room of a little buff villa. There were rows of
-these buff villas on the outskirts of the town. Some navvies were
-putting down new drain-pipes. The notes of the piano and the reedy
-voice of a girl came out slowly, each note isolated and mingled with
-the nervous tap of the pickax. Jethro stood still and listened. It was
-a song of Purcell’s:
-</p>
-<blockquote>
-<p style="padding-left: 1.25em; padding-right: 1em">
-“To make us seek ruin, to make us seek ruin and love those that hate.”
-</p>
-</blockquote>
-<p>
-He walked on, a queer stirring at his heart. The thin voice of the girl
-in the villa had touched the romantic spot in him. He thought of that
-other girl at the inn&mdash;plump, blue-eyed, smiling. He thought of his
-carefully-worded advertisement which, by to-morrow, would be worming
-its way<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-viii">[viii]</a></span> through Sussex, through Surrey and Hampshire to London
-perhaps.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was a joke; he began to regret, to blame the cider, or the demure
-little rings of light hair on the waitress’ unlined brow.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-And yet he could still hear the piano. He still felt the slow,
-wondering work of his heart.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_101">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-1">[1]</a></span>
-</p>
-<p class="title_p1" id="chapter_101_hdg">
-FOLLY CORNER.
-</p>
-<hr class="p1" >
-<h2 class="first">
-<a href="#chapter_101_toc">CHAPTER I.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-T<small>HE</small> story begins with the emotions of two women&mdash;the two women
-principally concerned&mdash;on a morning ten days after Jethro Jayne had
-imprudently indulged in sweet cider at the market dinner in
-Liddleshorn.
-</p>
-<p>
-One woman was young&mdash;twenty-five or less. She was a big, fair girl; a
-handsome girl, in the elementary way that satisfies most men. She
-looked well able to take care of herself; an up-to-date girl,
-accustomed to fight her way alone, to meet men on their own ground, to
-jealously look after her own interests. There was, however, an
-occasional haggard line at her mouth, and in her well-opened, rather
-prominent gray eyes was a hunted, hopeless look.
-</p>
-<p>
-She wore a coat and skirt, with sleeves of last year’s cut. Her hat was
-trimmed with strict attention to fashion, and yet bore the brand
-“home-made.” There was a crisp new veil tied about the brim.
-</p>
-<p>
-She smacked so of cities that the few people she met turned round to
-slowly gape at her, and a couple<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-2">[2]</a></span> of small girls coming home from the
-village shop laughed aloud in her angry face.
-</p>
-<p>
-She walked slowly along the white road, stopping now and then to lift
-her veil and wipe her burning cheeks.
-</p>
-<p>
-The scenery was beautiful&mdash;with the characteristic beauty of the Sussex
-Weald. But she did not notice: she was too preoccupied. Her own affairs
-were in a critical state, and when one is anxious there is small
-consolation in undulating hills, long stretches of pasture, and
-red-roofed farmhouses. Her attitude was quite cockney&mdash;prim regard
-for her shoes and half-contemptuous admiration of her surroundings
-predominated.
-</p>
-<p>
-Once she stopped to rest. A thatched and plastered cottage stood empty
-under the shadow of huge oaks. Wide green glades wound into the very
-heart of a little wood. The turf, inch-deep in moss, yielded like down.
-It was irresistible. She threw herself flat on her back, settling her
-skirt smoothly under her, and looked lazily through the wide mesh of
-the veil at the sky. The heat and the perfect silence almost made her
-sleep. A trap went by full of gayly-dressed country girls; a young man,
-hideous in his Sunday clothes, was driving. They were all off to some
-festivity, and they looked curiously at the prone figure on the turf.
-At first they thought it was some tramp, but the thin-soled morocco
-shoes stuck out from the dusty skirt contradicted that assumption. Such
-vagrant ways these town folk had! They laughed derisively, and the
-sound roused her. She sat up and stared a trifle<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-3">[3]</a></span> vaguely at the
-watchful hills, the glades of the wood, the white, winding ribbon of
-highroad. Then she rose and whisked her skirt and went on again.
-</p>
-<p>
-Only once more was she tempted to stop&mdash;at a bramble bush where the
-blackberries were loose and juicy. She drew up her veil to her nose and
-drew them off the stalks with widely parted lips, because she was
-anxious not to soil the fingers of her gloves. It was so necessary to
-make a good impression: the woman who could always make a good
-impression had the world at her feet.
-</p>
-<p>
-She crossed a common; fowls were scratching and shaking their wings in
-the mounds of dust; a long string of geese waddled by, conversing
-volubly, and with evident arrogance. A man with a timber wagon came
-toward her, and she stopped him to ask the way. He told her that she
-had a mile or more to go.
-</p>
-<p>
-She went on, her feet dragging at every step. At every step she grew
-more nervous, more undecided. She took a letter from her pocket and
-read it over twice. She stopped, half turned back. Her face was violent
-red and chalk-white in turn. Still she went on, with lagging, heavy
-feet and a queer, terrified shame and excitement at her heart: went on
-over that open common which was just beginning to flush with heather.
-Another man came by, driving a black pig. It grunted, and seemed to run
-in every direction but the right one. He looked a stupid man; but,
-then, they were all half-witted in the country. She said&mdash;very slowly
-and deliberately,<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-4">[4]</a></span> as if she were speaking to a small child&mdash;that she
-wanted Folly Corner. He gave a vacillating grin, keeping one eye on the
-pig, and pointed to a substantial stack of chimneys on the left.
-</p>
-<p>
-“That be Folly,” he said laconically, and left her.
-</p>
-<p>
-She could see the house through the dense leafage of three great elms.
-She stood, with one hand firmly gripping her gay parasol, and the other
-twitching at the crisp edge of her veil. She looked at the red gables,
-at the spreading outbuildings, at the garden, at the yard; she looked
-back at the hot road cutting across the common. Should she go back or
-should she go on? For a moment she closed her eyes, and immediately the
-dark, straight wall of the prison shot up slowly like a specter and
-chilled her.
-</p>
-<p>
-The prison! The prison and the one damned, dear soul beating within its
-walls! But that was past. She had wrestled out that finally&mdash;at night,
-in her London room, close beneath the slates; at night, in her bed, the
-letter under her pillow, or twisting in her hot fingers.
-</p>
-<p>
-The gate which led into the garden was a white wicket. At each side was
-a poplar. These had grown so thick and tall that they met midway and
-formed an arch. There was a path of red brick, a little raised, leading
-up to the house door; it led up straight, between box edgings two feet
-high. The garden-beds were rather neglected, but a great clump of
-red-hot pokers pointed flame fingers to the sky, and a loose white
-rose, like foam, clung to the walls and ran along the low roof. There
-was a<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-5">[5]</a></span> long window each side the door, and in front of the one on the
-right was a yew-tree clipped into the shape of an umbrella. The
-clipping had been neglected, and the tree had the dishevelled
-appearance of a man who neglects to shave. There was an air of
-indolence about the garden, but it did not seem the indolence of
-poverty. A pond partly encircled the place. A red-and-white cow came
-down to drink and to look at her reflectively with its big,
-closely-veined eyes.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-What sort of greeting was garnering for her beyond that door with the
-wooden hood, the veil of white roses, and the rough iron knocker? She
-looked at a Virginia creeper twisting among the roses. Autumn had
-touched it. She looked at the red leaves, then at the white flowers.
-They seemed flame and pale fire to strained eyes, short of sleep and
-dazzled with the sun. The deep, haggard line curved round her mouth.
-Within! What waited within?
-</p>
-<p class="break">
-*<span class="lftspc_brk">*</span><span class="lftspc_brk">*</span><span class="lftspc_brk">*</span><span class="lftspc_brk">*</span>
-</p>
-<p class="no_top">
-Within was the second woman, old Gainah Toat. She sat in a low-pitched
-room&mdash;the room on the right, made dark by the umbrella yew. There was a
-great open hearth. There were three doors: one led into a dairy; it was
-open, and showed the bricked floor, the yellow and brown pans, the
-thick cream and made-up butter; the second door opened into the
-passage; the third into the garden.
-</p>
-<p>
-She sat by the third door, which was thrown well back. She could see
-the orchard strewn with mussel plums, ripe to rottenness, with little
-yellow stewing pears<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-6">[6]</a></span> and apples specked with black. She did not seem
-to see anything; she had those eyes&mdash;cold blue with a dash of
-gray&mdash;that are always dull; eyes that evade and puzzle. They were very
-wide open, the lids rolled well back, and the lashes sparse.
-</p>
-<p>
-She had a white face; there was a general appearance of wasting about
-her. The fingers, holding a letter&mdash;the other woman had been influenced
-by a letter too&mdash;were twisted and disfigured with rheumatism. Her body
-was flat and square; her faded gown made no pretense of slurring the
-defect. It went straight from her stringy throat to her hardly
-perceptible hips without a break, without a kindly fold or ruck of the
-stuff.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was an odd-looking figure; a spectral woman almost&mdash;with her
-bloodless skin, her dead eyes, her twisted, transparent hands. But the
-people around Folly Corner were not given to fanciful imaginings; they
-only knew that Gainah seemed made of iron, that she worked on the farm
-without tiring from sunrise until night. Her life was spent in making
-things for other people to eat. She belonged to a dying type: she was
-one of those women who devote themselves to tickling the masculine
-palate. Machine-made food did not enter into her economy. Her mushroom
-ketchup, her marmalade, her blackberry jelly were renowned. She gave
-them to anyone who asked, not because she was generous, but because she
-was inordinately proud of her productions. She toyed with medicine too;
-made balm tea, and, from a particular sort of nettle, green ointment
-that would cure a gathering. She made herb beer and<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-7">[7]</a></span> water cider to
-save beer at harvest-time. She knew the effect of foxglove on the human
-heart, and made a concoction of a certain herb which she gathered
-secretly. With it she claimed to cure palsy. She was mistress at Folly
-Corner. She had come to old Jethro Jayne when his wife died. She had
-brought up the present master by hand; she ruled him still.
-</p>
-<p>
-Every master of Folly Corner had been a Jayne, and every male Jayne had
-been a Jethro since the first farmer had hidden his pet mare for ten
-days in a cellar so that Cromwell’s Ironsides should not steal her.
-</p>
-<p>
-The room was always cool because the yew threw a continual shadow.
-Gainah, sitting without a glint of sun in her chilly blue gown and with
-her feet flat on the stone floor, seemed to have no part with the hot,
-throbbing world outside.
-</p>
-<p>
-They were threshing on the farm; the whirring sound hummed in and the
-smell from the engine hung on the air. On the south wall a man, by her
-orders, was cutting back the foliage from the vine so that the sun
-might get freely at the Sweet-water grapes. In a few weeks it would be
-time to think about wine-making. The busiest time of the year was
-coming on. She hadn’t a moment to waste. She should at that moment have
-been straining the mushroom-juice from the salt and boiling it with
-spices. But the letter, fluttering in her veined, gnarled hand, had
-made her an idle woman before noon. She read it again with the weighty
-deliberation of an almost illiterate person. It was written<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-8">[8]</a></span> in a
-dashing but undecided hand, and the words were stilted. Evidently the
-writer had been ill at ease.
-</p>
-<p>
-She got up stiffly at last and moved about the room, flicking a duster
-over the ancient furniture. There was an oak cupboard reaching to the
-ceiling&mdash;a double corner cupboard with delicate brass escutcheons and
-an inlaid border of boxwood.
-</p>
-<p>
-She ran the duster down the dark panels and breathed softly on the
-brass. Then she took out her keys from her apron pocket and opened the
-doors of the upper half. There were three shelves, the edge of each
-scalloped out. On every shelf were bottles and jars full of preserves
-and pickles. She touched them quite tenderly, looking at the faintly
-written labels, pursing up her colorless lips and moving her head
-spasmodically.
-</p>
-<p>
-She shut the cupboard at last and went slowly on her journey round the
-room. She dusted the oak sideboard, the long oak table, with the form
-against the wall and the carved joint stools&mdash;the high one for the
-master, the low one for the dame&mdash;at each end. She dusted the chairs,
-some of solid oak, some of golden beech with rush seats. She dusted the
-clock; its hand pointed ominously to twelve.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was about time then. In a few minutes she should be here. Gainah
-chuckled a little, remembering that she had purposely neglected to send
-the trap to the station. All the men were at harvest, and she had
-wanted old Chalcraft to trim the vine. She sat down by the door again,
-looking out blankly at the warmth and life. There were thick
-parchment-like mushrooms dotted over the meadow beyond<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-9">[9]</a></span> the quickset
-hedge, and in the orchard fruit kept thudding softly from the trees. It
-was the beginning of rich autumn, when one makes provision for winter.
-She was always so busy through August and September; on her feet until
-late at night&mdash;late for Folly Corner&mdash;straining and boiling, and
-pulping and stirring; scolding the two maids and tyrannizing over
-Jethro.
-</p>
-<p>
-Those mushrooms had been in salt too long; the wind-fall apples were
-almost past preserving. It was washing-day, too&mdash;they had washed on the
-first Monday in the month for thirty years. The soapy smell floated
-into the dining-parlor; she could hear the rasping sound of the brush
-and the gurgling swill of suds. She heard also the cackle of the two
-maids and the mellow voice of the elderly washerwoman. They were
-wasting their time. Yet she didn’t move. Her eyes fell to the letter
-which she had taken out of her pocket again. Her lips mumbled the
-signature&mdash;“P<small>AMELA</small> C<small>RISP</small>.”
-</p>
-<p>
-After thirty-three years! And she had served his father before him! It
-was very hard! She wouldn’t give up her keys&mdash;he wouldn’t expect that.
-She smiled dryly. He wouldn’t expect that&mdash;he was a Jayne and he knew
-when he was well off. He would never get anyone else to slave so. Even
-the green tomatoes were pickled&mdash;with onions and apples and mysterious
-spices. She was the only woman for miles round who had the recipe, and
-before she died she meant to burn it, having no daughter to bequeath it
-to. And scarlet runners put down every year for winter eating. Her
-butter<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-10">[10]</a></span> had never been known to have a twang. She could make cakes
-without fat and used snow for puddings when eggs were scarce.
-</p>
-<p>
-The bed in the best room had been made under her eye from the feathers
-of birds killed on the farm.
-</p>
-<p>
-Birds! It was not many henwives who could manage to hatch a full
-sitting. She never thought fifteen eggs too many to put under a hen;
-the Dorking might manage even more. The gray-and-white hen&mdash;didn’t it
-steal a nest of twenty-two and come clucking home at the end of three
-weeks with nineteen chicks, most of them pullets, too! A young, flighty
-woman would have spoilt everything by poking about and interfering with
-the bird. She had known all along that it was sitting in the barn, but
-she wasn’t going to let it know she knew. Young women spoilt their
-lives by haste. They spoilt the lives of other people too. Her eye
-dropped again to the dashing signature&mdash;“P<small>AMELA</small> C<small>RISP</small>.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She sat brooding by the door, thinking proudly of all her domestic
-achievements and telling herself piteously that Jethro would never
-allow her to be displaced. Of course, she had known that he would marry
-some day, but then, in her own mind, she had picked him out a wife:
-pretty, soft-looking Nancy from Turle House. A wife&mdash;pliable and a
-little foolish, like Nancy&mdash;would not have mattered. But a cousin on
-the mother’s side! An unknown girl from London! A girl whose capital
-“P” trailed to the edge of the envelope!
-</p>
-<p>
-She got up again and went round the dull room in her halting way,
-dusting and tidying mechanically.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-11">[11]</a></span> Then all at once she straightened
-her back and listened. There were light steps on the brick path which
-led round to the garden door. The clip-clip of the shears ceased. There
-were two voices&mdash;a young feminine one and the hoarse croak of old
-Chalcraft, who was past work, and lived out his life of long service
-like an ancient horse, doing light jobs, so that he might still believe
-himself useful and independent.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah went out, the sun on her uncovered head, with its wide parting
-and gray-brown hair. She went round the corner. Chalcraft was on the
-ladder still. The shears yawned in his tremulous hand; he had clipped
-to the wall, and the Sweet-waters hung close to it and stripped of
-foliage, pale green and luscious. The long trails of grayish leaves
-were on the path; the girl trod them down. When she saw the elder woman
-she made a step forward. She seemed half defiant, half ashamed. Her hat
-was on one side; it gave her a rakish air of towns. Such a slight thing
-may imperil a woman’s reputation&mdash;in prejudiced eyes. Gainah’s cold
-eyes contracted, and her brows drew over them a harsh ridge.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela put out her hand&mdash;in a new glove. A slim gold bracelet, from
-which dangled a green charm, swung on her wrist.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You must be Gainah,” she said in a conciliating way, and smiling.
-</p>
-<p>
-Then she added, with a faint touch of injury, “I wrote to say I was
-coming this morning. I hoped that you would send to meet me. It’s a
-long walk.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-12">[12]</a></span>
-Gainah gave her a sharp look; she thought that this was the first
-indication of authority.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s harvest-time,” she said curtly; “the best harvest for seventeen
-years. Come inside.”
-</p>
-<p>
-They both slipped over the threshold of that dim gray room with the
-stone floor and the solid family furniture. Pamela gave a swift glance
-round to see if the room was empty. There was a flaming spot on each
-cheek, and her glittering eyes moved uneasily behind her loose veil.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’d like to put myself tidy,” she said in the confiding whisper of one
-woman to another, “before I go in to him.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“To your Cousin Jethro?” Gainah’s dull eyes fastened on the hectic
-face.
-</p>
-<p>
-“To my Cousin Jethro&mdash;yes,” she laughed nervously; then added quickly,
-“It seems strange to call him ‘cousin.’ We’ve&mdash;we’ve never met. You got
-my letter? Yes. I&mdash;I want to be friends.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah didn’t answer. She only opened the door leading to the stairs.
-The two went up together. There was a high window halfway up, with a
-lattice of thick oak bars.
-</p>
-<p>
-“No glass,” said Pamela in astonishment.
-</p>
-<p>
-“They didn’t use glass in the days when that was cut,” Gainah said,
-“and the Jaynes are not people to go with new-fangled ways. Every Jayne
-says that what was good enough for his father is good enough for him.
-It’s a family not given to changing. You ought to know that; you belong
-to it.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“On the mother’s side&mdash;yes,” returned the girl in a half-hearted way.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-13">[13]</a></span>
-Gainah opened the door of her own bedroom. It was poorly furnished with
-her own furniture, which she had brought with her to Folly Corner.
-There was a wooden bedstead, painted clay color and touched with lines
-of apple-green. The washstand and drawers matched it. There was a strip
-or so of shabby felt carpet, and on the shelf a pair of brass
-candlesticks and a red china cow milked by a diminutive woman. The girl
-looked about her disdainfully, assertiveness getting the better of
-nervousness. She took off her hat and veil before the murky glass,
-splashed water over her face, patted her hair caressingly, arranged
-again the smart hat and veil. Gainah watched this pretty toying of
-youth with grim disapproval; even the girl’s big arms lifted to her
-head were an offense.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Like a brass button in a sweep’s eye, all glitter,” the old woman
-mumbled to herself, as the yellow and green bracelet swung on the round
-wrist and the jet buckles flashed in the elaborate hat.
-</p>
-<p>
-On the way downstairs she was afforded a peep into other bedrooms.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I can’t let you have the best spare room,” she declared
-autocratically. “This is it. It’s never used, except for layin’s out
-and weddin’ nights, and layin’s in. All the Jaynes, right back to King
-Charles, have been born in that bed&mdash;and died in it afterward.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela looked at the ponderous piece of furniture and shuddered.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I wouldn’t sleep there for worlds,” she said.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah, her claw-like hand caught stiffly round<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-14">[14]</a></span> the banisters to
-help her progress, went slowly down, stair by stair. Pamela, close
-behind her, looked contemptuous&mdash;of everything: the old-fashioned
-place, the odd old woman.
-</p>
-<p>
-They crossed the room which the yew made so dark. Gainah opened the
-door into the narrow corridor. Pamela followed. There was a window
-looking out at the garden. On the ledge were blood-red geraniums, and
-on the distempered walls queer prints in black frames.
-</p>
-<p>
-She didn’t approve of those crinkled, brownish prints; they were hardly
-decent.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah flung open the door of the other room.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-“Jethro,” she said in her high, grating voice, “here’s your Cousin
-Pamela&mdash;on the mother’s side.”
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_102">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-15">[15]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_102_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_102_toc">CHAPTER II.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-T<small>HE</small> girl winced and hung back, as one does at physic or a possible
-blow. She looked along the narrow passage, as if for the support of
-another woman. But Gainah had hobbled away, shutting the door behind
-her. Pamela stood alone. She looked round her&mdash;at the oak table strewn
-with papers&mdash;old copies of the <i>Field</i> and <i>Farm and Home.</i>
-</p>
-<p>
-There were a pair of driving-gloves thrown down, and a whip with a
-broken thong. There was a great blue bowl half full of waste paper and
-ends of string. A pair of brass candlesticks winked on the ledge beside
-the vivid geraniums. She gave a second nervous look at the colored
-prints in black frames, prints of which she did not quite approve. A
-full voice from inside the room said impatiently, “Come in.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She didn’t advance, so the voice added, with a mellow laugh in it,
-“Come in. Why did Gainah go away? Come in, Cousin Pamela. I cannot move
-from this confounded sofa.”
-</p>
-<p>
-So he was crippled! Her wild gray eyes darted across the garden and
-along the hot road. If she could only just softly open that door and
-slip out without seeing him! A cripple! She might have known that there
-was something.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-16">[16]</a></span>
-“Come in.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She made a desperate step forward: it was so like a fool to stay
-outside. She had come to the house on certain business, and she must go
-through with it. Her foot in the arched morocco shoe tapped on the bare
-oak floor. Then it sunk into a thick carpet. She could not see the
-occupant of the room yet; he was on a couch in the bay window which
-looked across the harvest fields. All that she could see was a wall
-hung with gorgeous flowered paper, a carpet with a green ground and
-bunches of Provence roses, a round walnut table, and a piano with a
-closed lid.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was like coming from December to June at a breath&mdash;this transit from
-the dim ancestral living-room to the parlor with the walnut and velvet
-suite from the best shop in Liddleshorn. Yet Pamela hardly noticed. The
-only thing that mattered was the sofa in the bay window. Would that
-man, that cripple on the sofa, be favorably impressed with her?
-</p>
-<p>
-She was sick and hot with apprehension. Had any girl been in such a
-position before? She began to think dimly of early tales that she had
-read of slave markets, of a poem learnt and recited at school about a
-quadroon girl.
-</p>
-<p>
-Of course old Gainah didn’t know all&mdash;didn’t know anything that was
-truth. What an odd old woman! Not pleasant to live with. Not a cheerful
-house in which to spend the winter! She went slowly over that thick
-carpet to the bay window, her head down, her upper lip caught fiercely
-over her lower. When she reached the sofa she was in an agony of shame,
-and hardly lifted her eyes.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-17">[17]</a></span>
-Jethro said, almost tenderly:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Do sit down.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The words were simple, but she liked him from that moment. She felt
-sure of him. He wouldn’t be&mdash;coarse. She sat down. There was a low
-walnut chair with a green cover drawn into the bay all ready. Then she
-dared to look up.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro was flat on his back. He was so spare that his body seemed to
-curve inward; but it was the spareness of a tough, muscular man. His
-upper lip was bare and his eyes were keen, merry blue. A life of
-sunshine and wind and rain had tanned his skin. The backs of his hairy
-hands looked as if they had been steeped in tobacco juice; beyond his
-wrist, where his coat sleeve pushed up, his skin was milky. He wore an
-Oxford shirt with an unstarched collar. She saw a ring of milk-white
-skin when he turned his head to look at her, and immediately above it
-he was the color of delicate old leather.
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked at his handsome face and muscular body with interest. Well!
-It might be worse&mdash;or better. A little round table with a red and gold
-cloth was within touch. He put out his hand and touched a toppling pile
-of letters.
-</p>
-<p>
-“These were all answers,” he said, smiling drolly. “I had them
-addressed to Liddleshorn post-office, as you know. Three hundred and
-fifty. I shall get some more to-morrow morning, no doubt.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Don’t!” she cried out sharply, “oh, don’t! It&mdash;it&mdash;it&mdash;a man doesn’t
-know.... A woman has little secret shames&mdash;you won’t understand.... I<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-18">[18]</a></span>
-wish I hadn’t come. Three hundred and fifty girls! Oh! They are not
-coming here, too?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She stopped, panting. Her eyes were on those letters, letters in every
-shape and color, some with gilt monograms on the back, one with a gilt
-“Nell.” She looked at the handwriting, some blotted and some scrawling,
-some neatly masculine and clerk-like. Her face looked old, her eyes
-blistered with tears.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro struggled to rise. Then with a groan of pain and sharp twist of
-his injured leg he fell back on the cushions.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her back was firm against the carved walnut of the green-seated chair,
-as they sat in such strange conference in the deep shadow of the bay.
-Through the hot mist of her tears she saw the harvest field, half
-clipped, like the shorn head of beauty. A big brown fellow of a humble
-bee came through the open casement and settled on her. She flinched.
-Jethro regarded it as an omen.
-</p>
-<p>
-“When a humble bee flies in at the open window and lights on a stranger
-and flies out again, it’s a sign the stranger will not stay long,” he
-said, looking quite disturbed as the insect droned out into the sun
-again.
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked at him with mild contempt, thinking it most extraordinary
-that a big fellow such as he was should entertain such notions.
-</p>
-<p>
-There were the usual sounds of fully blown summer; petulant buzz of
-overworked insects, voices of harvesters, the whirr of the engine. Taps
-from the smithy at the corner intensified in Pamela’s aching<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-19">[19]</a></span> head;
-ever afterward she regarded smithy sounds as indispensable to the
-perfection of an August day.
-</p>
-<p>
-Suddenly she broke out passionately:
-</p>
-<p>
-“I can’t stay. I shouldn’t have come. It is the sort of thing that a
-barmaid, a shop girl&mdash;someone a little reckless&mdash;would do. I am
-different.” She stretched her hand and directed it haughtily toward the
-letters. “I am not like these others. But it was a temptation: such a
-rest, such a certainty for the future. And ... it was half a joke,
-too.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro put out his immense brown hand and gripped her by the forefinger
-and thumb round the wrist. She looked fully at him for the first time,
-and, in spite of herself, she liked his face. It was handsome. The thin
-high nose and beautifully curved lips made it even aristocratic. She
-was a shallow town product, and had a flimsy horror of anything that
-she considered coarse. Yet she admitted that on this man’s face was no
-touch of boorishness. He looked, so she thought, like a patrician who
-was masquerading in queer clothes. Her idea of masculine raiment was
-confined to black cloth, with tweeds for the seaside and flannel for
-tennis.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I like you,” he said simply. “You are a nice-minded girl. It was a
-joke with me, too&mdash;half a joke. I did it on market day; a fellow gets a
-bit jolly then, perhaps. I shouldn’t have gone any further with these.”
-He touched the letters with his free hand, and the touch was enough to
-scatter them rudely on the floor. “But your name took my fancy. P<small>AMELA</small>
-C<small>RISP</small>! Now, my mother was a Crisp.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-20">[20]</a></span>
-“Yes, so you told me in your letter,” she said faintly, and gently
-fluttering her white, veined wrist in its handcuff. “You told me to
-write and tell Miss Toat that we were cousins&mdash;on the mother’s side. I
-did it&mdash;as a joke. Oh! a joke&mdash;you believe me?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Of course&mdash;a joke. It is nothing more&mdash;not yet.” His clear, blue eyes
-were on her pastel-like face. Then he added ponderingly: “But we may be
-cousins, after all. It wouldn’t make any difference&mdash;in the end. You
-understand?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She showed how fully she understood by the quick wave of color on her
-cheek.
-</p>
-<p>
-“My mother’s name was Lilith,” he went on.
-</p>
-<p>
-“The name of my little sister who died.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“My mother had a brother who ran away&mdash;some boy’s scrape at home. He
-was never heard of afterward. His name was John.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“My father’s name.” She became suddenly confidential. “He was a
-contractor; plenty of money while he lived. We had a house a little way
-out of London. He drove to his office every day. Two servants, a
-governess for me, a dinner party now and then. When I grew up, a little
-shopping, a little housework in an elegant way&mdash;arranging flowers,
-setting the maids by the ears. You know. Thousands of girls live like
-that and are bored to death. He died bankrupt; mother died of a broken
-heart, or broken fortunes, poor dear. I was thrown on the world&mdash;the
-creditors took everything. That is five years ago.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He had been listening attentively, watching every<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-21">[21]</a></span> shade and shine
-upon her face, admiring her vivacious, half tragic gestures&mdash;not
-understanding her in the least. The genteel life she so scornfully
-sketched was unknown to him.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You were the only one?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“What?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She lifted her head, rearing it almost, like an aggressive serpent.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You were my Uncle John’s only child?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“No.” The word came full and rounded from her mouth, and the eyes
-behind the curtaining lashes were somber. “There was a&mdash;a brother. He
-has gone away, a long voyage. He has a passion for the sea.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That settles it. Another brother of my mother’s, Uncle Thomas, was a
-captain in the navy. He ran away before he was sixteen; nothing would
-stop him. Every Crisp has a salt drop in his veins.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Father, in his most prosperous days, had a little yacht.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“There you are again! The Crisp love for water. Well! I believe from my
-heart that we really are cousins&mdash;Cousin Pamela. I shall tell the folk
-hereabout that I advertised for my kin&mdash;Uncle John or his children&mdash;and
-that you, seeing the advertisement, answered. That will make things
-easy for us both. And now, cousin”&mdash;his voice was meaning, and his
-handsome open face became roguish and bold&mdash;“I ought to kiss you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She slipped her wrist from his finger and thumb and fell back.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-22">[22]</a></span>
-She looked at his face&mdash;handsome, thin, almost ascetic if it had not
-been for the tan&mdash;with distaste.
-</p>
-<p>
-“A kiss!” she murmured, with a quick, startled breath. “No, no; I
-couldn’t dream of it.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He seemed pleased at what he assumed to be her modesty. There was a
-quaint pause, during which he thoughtfully examined her face, picking
-feature from feature and dwelling most on the downcast lids. Then he
-said, almost tenderly:
-</p>
-<p>
-“What have you been doing these five years for a living? Cousin Pamela!
-if only I had known that Uncle John’s child&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Don’t talk like that. We are not sure. What did I do?” She gave a
-short, rather grating laugh. “Anything&mdash;short of scrubbing floors. I’ve
-been a governess. I’ve tried to draw fashion-plates&mdash;but my drawing was
-against me there. I’ve collected money for charitable institutions&mdash;on
-commission. I was a companion. She was a publican’s widow with heaps of
-money&mdash;one dare not be too particular. She was queer&mdash;a secret drinker
-I always thought. I had twenty-five pounds a year. She liked me so much
-that she raised my money at one bound to forty; money was only dirt to
-her. Forty pounds a year&mdash;and she died before the first quarter was
-due. I have always been unlucky.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“And then?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She shrugged with an artificial callousness.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Looking out. Answering advertisements&mdash;until I answered yours.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Directly she mentioned his the shame and outraged modesty in her surged
-up again.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-23">[23]</a></span>
-“I’ve never answered an advertisement like that before,” she burst out.
-“But&mdash;it was fun, as you say. And I had put three advertisements in a
-paper for a situation&mdash;at three-and-sixpence for forty words. Three
-three-and-sixpences! Not a single answer! Something made me look at the
-<i>Liddleshorn Herald.</i> It was in the stationer’s shop&mdash;ordered specially
-for some customer. When I was a little thing I seem to remember that
-paper about at home. The name, Liddleshorn, was familiar. Something
-made me touch it, look down the advertisements. Then! You know!”
-</p>
-<p>
-She put out her hands with a dramatic gesture. Jethro appeared to think
-that it was time he made his explanations of the situation.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I did it for fun&mdash;at first,” he said. “Afterward I was rather taken
-with the idea. But not with the girls,” seeing her glance vindictively
-at the scattered letters. “I wanted to marry; Gainah’s getting too
-tight a hold on the place. And there is no one to entertain lady
-visitors&mdash;no mistress. It isn’t natural. I wanted a wife. I advertised
-for one. I wanted a change, too&mdash;a change of blood. It’s good for
-stock, why not for us? That’s the way I argued it out with myself.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Her chin was sunk in the puffs of her white muslin blouse and the color
-was in her cheeks again. But he went on, apparently not noticing her
-confusion.
-</p>
-<p>
-“For generations back every Jayne has married in the neighborhood. We
-are all related in some way; you meet the Jayne nose on a Crisp
-face&mdash;you<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-24">[24]</a></span> have the Crisp chin&mdash;and a Furlonger little finger,” he
-crooked out his own, “on a Jayne hand. Nancy Turle has my father’s
-waving red hair, and I’ve got the Turles’ white skin.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He tucked up the sleeve of his coat to show her his smooth, milky skin.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I thought,” he continued, as she neither looked nor spoke, “that a
-change would be good. Change! You see it in stock; you see it in
-flowers. Those crimson phloxes,” he pointed through the window, “are
-twice as high this year because last autumn they were shifted in the
-border. And Gainah, who knows all about flowers, says she can’t grow
-heartsease three years running without lifting. They dwindle to
-farthing-faces. Even cabbage mustn’t follow cabbage. I said to myself
-that I’d graft new blood on the old Jayne stock.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela lifted her flaming face, and, putting out her thin foot,
-contemptuously kicked the nearest letter.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Then you had better take one of these,” she said, with temper, “if, as
-you seem to think, I am a Crisp and your cousin.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He looked at the foot which darted from her skirt.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s a Furlonger foot,” he said simply. “Cousins! There isn’t a doubt.
-But I’m content to take the way of my fathers.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I&mdash;I don’t know. It is early. You’d better let me go back.”
-</p>
-<p>
-As she spoke she fleetly shut her eyes, so that she could see neither
-the golden wheat-field nor the<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-25">[25]</a></span> handsome face. At once the steep
-wall of the prison ran up, and above it, searing her eyes, was the
-blinding dome of sky. Beyond she saw the railway line, the dreary waste
-land, a solitary old cottage, a tethered goat; on the edge of the
-earth, meeting the sky, the bristling chimneys of the distant suburb
-beyond the Scrubbs.
-</p>
-<p>
-The prison! That chapter of her life was nearly ended. She knew that
-she was weak; knew that she would yield to Jethro. Already she almost
-felt as if that golden field of wheat half belonged to her. She would
-yield. Why not? It was so simple, so idle. How she had longed for rest,
-and more&mdash;for freedom! The heel of another woman had been very hard on
-her neck. Just to go back to London, pack her boxes, take a cab, bid
-her landlady farewell&mdash;and leave no trace. When <i>he</i> came out from
-prison he would not find her&mdash;that was all.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I might stay&mdash;and see,” she said faintly, opening her gray eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Very well. You want a situation; I offer you one. I pay you
-thirty-five pounds a year for gowns and things. That between ourselves.
-At the end of the year&mdash;we’ll see. To the world, to Gainah, you are my
-Cousin Pamela.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’d like to earn my thirty-five pounds,” she said sturdily.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Of course. You’ll make the place pretty, as young women can. You’ll
-entertain all your distant relations&mdash;the Turles and Crisps and
-Furlongers. You can write letters for me until I get about again. I’m
-like a log just now. Look here!”<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-26">[26]</a></span> He rolled down the covering and
-showed his bandaged limb. “I got a fork run into my leg in the harvest
-field, and it turned to a nasty wound. But I shall be about again
-soon.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That is all?” She breathed relief, and the glint of distaste in her
-eyes faded out.
-</p>
-<p>
-“That is all. You didn’t think I was a cripple?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I didn’t know.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You really do favor my Uncle John,” Jethro said, after a pause. “Do
-you mind&mdash;it will be your first duty&mdash;getting a leather case from that
-top, left-hand drawer? Yes, that’s it,” when she brought it back. “See!
-Here he is. Now, isn’t the mouth the same?”
-</p>
-<p>
-He held before her the faded likeness, taken on silver, of a young man
-in staid black clothes, and with straggling side whiskers.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Taken just before he ran away. Is it anything like your father?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She stared at the dim old portrait for a long time before she answered.
-Her eyes took in every detail&mdash;the doubled fist on a bulky book, the
-vapid smile, the too apparent watch-chain with its bunch of seals.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I can’t say,” she returned faintly at last. “This is a young man.
-Father was gray when I remember him. He married late in life. He had a
-white beard. But I think,” she held the portrait thoughtfully sideways,
-“that the mouth is something like. Father had a bare lip to the end of
-his days.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She shut the case and laid it on the table. Another<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-27">[27]</a></span> bee came in and
-darted at the nodding cherries in her hat. The metallic clink from the
-smithy became more persistent. Jethro said gently at last, putting out
-the big brown hand which was so dry and yielding:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Then it is settled?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela, her head down, the long, haggard line deep on her lips, said
-almost inaudibly:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes.”
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-The word had hardly died away before Gainah, in her dim blue cotton
-gown with the skimped skirt and straight bodice, put her head in at the
-door and asked harshly if the newly-found cousin meant to stay to
-dinner.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_103">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-28">[28]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_103_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_103_toc">CHAPTER III.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-H<small>ER</small> past was tightly packed away behind her&mdash;packed as remorselessly,
-as perfectly, as she had corded her boxes; with much effort and
-expenditure of strength, but with a perfect regard to safety. She was
-out of London. Never again would she let her eyes of anguish light on
-the prison.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was driving with Jasper along the dusty Sussex road, which barely a
-week before she had trudged wearily and with many misgivings. The
-prosperity and ease and promise of her new life struck at her, soothed
-her, with many minute details&mdash;the soft carriage-rug, the sleek coat of
-the mare, the polished harness. She had a passion for ease, for pretty
-things, for worldly status.
-</p>
-<p>
-Folly Corner became her home&mdash;her sheltered home. Time passed. As the
-weeks wore on her face grew mobile and careless, dull pink begun to
-timidly bloom on her skin, her eyes brightened. She was happy,
-occupied, free from anxiety. Above all, she had plenty of pence, need
-never deny herself a penny pleasure&mdash;and she was one of those mercurial
-women who can be made happy by a bar of French chocolate, and miserable
-by a shabby hat. Once she said, with a bitter-sweet laugh, to Jethro:
-</p>
-<p>
-“I was never made for responsibility. I ought to live in a harem. A
-bon-bon, a pat on the head<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-29">[29]</a></span> from my master, would make me absolutely
-content.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He seemed amused at first, then he looked puzzled, and then displeased.
-He had decided already in his serious, practical way, that she was to
-be his wife, and whimsicality struck him as unorthodox&mdash;nearly as bad
-as dissent. The Jaynes had always been stanch churchmen, and never
-spoke without first weighing every word.
-</p>
-<p>
-Sometimes, in spite of herself, she gave a backward thought. Sometimes
-the hunted, tragic gleam lighted its taper in her happy eyes. Some
-shadow of the old grief, some touch of the old delirious joy and
-misery, stirred her. Rain against the window, a rumble of thunder, a
-shrieking wind, or a harsh voice was enough to frighten her. She felt a
-gnawing uncertainty. Would this peace, this ease, continue?
-</p>
-<p>
-When these uncomfortable thoughts assailed her she plunged fiercely
-into work, clicking her needle and thimble through new calico, or
-darting about the rambling house with a duster. She was pathetically
-anxious to earn her salary, to be absolutely independent of Jethro’s
-charity. She had not yet decided whether her torn heart would allow her
-to marry him when the time came.
-</p>
-<p>
-One morning he strolled down the weedy gravel path of the oblong
-kitchen-garden, with the holly hedge as wall on all four sides, and the
-holly arch as postern at the entrance. There were grass paths between
-the beds: they wanted mowing and leveling. The wide herbaceous borders
-were full of<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-30">[30]</a></span> weeds. The gravel path going straight from one end to the
-other was a harmony in green and yellow.
-</p>
-<p>
-There was a gardener at Folly Corner, but Gainah made him clean boots,
-chop wood, and carry buckets; while Jethro made him drive and groom the
-horses, and pressed him into service when he was short of hands on the
-farm. Consequently the garden was unattended. Scarlet pimpernel was
-vivid on the dry ground, bindweed bound round the cabbage-stalks, and
-wild clumps of blazing corn marigold bloomed unheeded.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela was loitering in an archway of dead scarlet-runners, collecting
-seed, by Gainah’s orders. Gainah was mistress of the garden. Jethro
-came along the alley in his thick brown boots. His hands were in his
-breeches pockets; a Michaelmas daisy, which he had pulled from the
-border as he strolled, was in his mouth. He looked at Pamela, half
-tenderly, half quizzically&mdash;a look which always set her pulses
-throbbing. She could never forget, when she was alone with him, the
-piquant circumstances which had brought her under his roof. Sometimes
-when Gainah imposed distasteful tasks her neck would swell, and she
-told herself proudly that by next autumn she could, if she chose, be
-mistress of Folly Corner.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her basket was three parts full of seed-pods&mdash;like the fingers of
-dainty gloves stretched over bones. As she moved the seeds made a
-dice-like rattle. Jethro took the basket from her and begun to pull the
-pods off the dry yellow stalks himself.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You shouldn’t be at this work,” he said, lifting<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-31">[31]</a></span> her white hand with
-his free one. “Why can’t Daborn do it?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Gainah likes to see to these things herself.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You must be mistress over Gainah.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Not yet,” she broke out involuntarily, and then flushed.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro laughed.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’m glad you put it that way. Evidently we are of the same mind.
-Suppose we say six months instead of a year, Cousin Pamela.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“No, no! A year, as we decided.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked vaguely through the wasted tendrils of the dead beans as
-they clung to the sticks&mdash;looked in the direction of London. Jethro had
-once said carelessly London was that way, jerking his broad brown thumb
-widely. After that, she looked across the common whenever that chill
-thought of the prison stole in and numbed her brain.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Come a little way along the road. If Gainah sees us she’ll call you
-in,” he said almost pleadingly. “I never get you to myself.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He pulled out his turnip-like silver watch, which had been his
-grandfather’s, and added that he had ten minutes. Daborn was grooming
-the roan mare, ready to drive him in the dogcart to Liddleshorn.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You might come too,” he said.
-</p>
-<p>
-“No. Gainah would be angry.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You mustn’t think too much of her. After all, she’s a paid servant.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“So am I.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Her face, under the brim of her Panama hat, was arch and mournful at
-the same moment.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-32">[32]</a></span>
-They went along the gravel path. Jethro took out his pocket-knife and
-cut off the head of a great plantain.
-</p>
-<p>
-“The place wants seeing to,” he said with dissatisfaction, looking at
-the weeds in the bed. “It wants a mistress. You should see the garden
-at Turle House. Nancy manages that. Nancy in some sort of way must be
-your cousin. We are all relations.”
-</p>
-<p>
-It was the last day of September, and there had been a frost early in
-the morning. The blackened marrow plants straggled on their mound.
-Daborn had clamped the beet the day before, and the broken leaves, with
-their wine-colored stems, were scattered. The plumy foliage of the
-carrots had died down. The sparkling parsnip leaves were yellow, and
-dew glittered on the crinkled, bluish leaves of the savoys with their
-tight hearts. The sun shone brightly, but the air was crisp. Everything
-was ominous of winter. Pamela shivered as she looked at the solid
-chimney stacks of Folly Corner, and pictured an iron winter in the
-fastness of that old house, with Gainah as grim companion.
-</p>
-<p>
-They went through the yard into the road. Daborn had the dogcart out.
-Pamela stopped by the wall of the granary, her foot twined in a bit of
-trailing periwinkle.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Give me the basket,” she said, “and good-by.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro looked at her.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’d better come too,” he said. “Jump in.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“No. My dress; no gloves.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Tuck your hands under the rug. At Liddleshorn<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-33">[33]</a></span> we’ll buy gloves. Jump
-up. We shan’t want you, Daborn. Here’s the basket. Miss Crisp will hold
-the reins.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela still hesitated, looking back at the house, and remembering she
-had promised Gainah that she would mark some pillow-slips. But it was
-such a magic morning, with an intensely blue sky&mdash;a March sky almost,
-with a spice of frost lurking behind the hot sun. There were long
-trails of red bryony berries on the hedges; glittering gossamer webs
-were woven across the clumps of broom on the common. Jethro looked so
-strong and masterful&mdash;such a man! She believed that in the end she
-would marry him whether she wanted to or not. He had a rough manner of
-command with women&mdash;savage, yet tender. Pamela, like a woman, loved it.
-She lifted her foot, swung up to the blue cushion, and a moment later
-they were bowling smoothly along the road.
-</p>
-<p>
-He didn’t speak. He flicked at the mare with a tinge of pettishness.
-Pamela sat well back. She felt a person of some importance; every small
-girl they met bobbed her little skirts into the dust, and the
-heavy-footed laboring men lifted a finger to their hair as Jethro
-bowled by in the flashing sunshine.
-</p>
-<p>
-He pulled up at the gate of a small farm, and asked Pamela to hold the
-mare while he went in. The farmer had a farrowing sow for sale.
-</p>
-<p>
-She just clasped the slack reins. The farmhouse was so overgrown with
-fruit-trees and ivy that the mellow bricks were shrouded. By and by
-Jethro came swinging down the path, with a weak old man<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-34">[34]</a></span> hobbling
-behind him. They went and leaned over the piggeries, which were on the
-left of the gate. She caught a word or two here and there; it was Greek
-to her. Jethro surveyed the huge black sow keenly before he closed the
-bargain. Then he swung open the gate in his familiar impetuous way, and
-just before he got up into the cart he turned to the old man and said
-with a kind of careless authority:
-</p>
-<p>
-“You ought to get out of this. Sell up and go into lodgings. It isn’t
-good for a man to live alone.”
-</p>
-<p>
-To Pamela he added in a bluff aside:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Mansell has lost his missus.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She leaned toward the straggling, shambling figure, and threw a faint
-smile of sympathy. He was a foolish-looking old man, with a face made
-more imbecile by a loose, slobbering lip and the short silvery spikes
-of a week-old beard. He began to pour out his misery and loneliness,
-perhaps because she, like his dead wife, was a woman.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Missis died six months ago,” he said tremulously, as he twisted his
-dirty hands and gave his watery smile. “She was a good missis. But,”
-with a crowing cackle of laughter, “I was good, too. I never knocked
-her down, nor give her a black eye. I didn’t offen even scold her. Step
-inside.” His face and voice were eager. “I’d like you to have a look
-round.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela, oddly touched, said gently to Jethro:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Let me go. You come too.”
-</p>
-<p>
-They tied the mare to the gatepost, and went up the path to the
-brooding house in its tangle of ivy<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-35">[35]</a></span> and its unpruned jungle of ancient
-plum-trees. The widower went first, chattering volubly all the time,
-his back bent, his hand heavy on the polished knob of his stick.
-</p>
-<p>
-They went into the low-pitched living-room. The fusty smell turned
-Pamela faint. The old man seemed to divine her nausea.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You should ha’ seen how missis kept it,” he said deprecatingly. “But,
-Lord bless you, I am a helpless old man, seventy-nine come October, and
-I can’t clean. I’m alone. Missis and the children dead. But I aint
-afraid.” He gave an apprehensive glance at the shadows of the murky
-room. “Why should I be? What I always says is this”&mdash;he kept peppering
-his platitudes with the silly laugh that went to the girl’s
-heart&mdash;“God, who made me, aint a-goin’ to kill me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela looked round the room. Everything, inside and out of the farm,
-had gone to pieces for the lack of a capable woman.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I did used to keep the garden terrible nice,” the old man said, seeing
-her gray eyes look through the door into the sunny wilderness. “But
-there! missis is gone! I’ll show you her earrings.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He hobbled away into the adjoining room. Pamela heard him jingling
-metal and scrooping wooden furniture over the flag floor. Presently he
-came out with a card-board box shaking in his hand. He took the lid off
-reverently and held out the open box. A pair of earrings, of very pale
-gold, such as you can buy at fairs for a trifle, were on a bed of
-tissue paper.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-36">[36]</a></span>
-“Very pretty,” the girl said lamely.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro had gone outside. He was viewing the neglected fruit-trees
-severely.
-</p>
-<p>
-“And there’s one more thing I must show you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Mansell hobbled away, up the crazy stairs this time, and came back with
-a snow-white smock, which he thrust into her hands.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Missis made this for me to be married in.” He stuck his foolish red
-face forward and grinned more widely. “She put her best work into it.
-Lord bless you, when I was but a boy&mdash;I’m seventy-nine come October&mdash;we
-used to go to church on Sundays, every man in his clean smock. Missis
-did it. She was a rare one at her needle.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela looked at the exquisite, delicate stitching. The whole heart of
-that dead woman was woven into the diamonds and honeycombs and lattices
-of the wedding smock.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Very pretty,” she said lamely again.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I must get to Liddleshorn before ten,” Jethro cried out from the
-garden.
-</p>
-<p>
-She stepped into the sun, Mansell behind her. He followed them to the
-gate, seeming pathetically anxious to hold on to human companionship as
-long as he could. A sheep-dog came running out from the barn. Pamela,
-who was distrustful of dogs, felt glad that she was in the cart.
-</p>
-<p>
-“He won’t bite, bless you; he’s too old. But when he was young he <i>was</i>
-s’ savage. Missis used to set one side of the fire winter nights, and I
-used to set the other. And she, just for fun, used to say to me, ‘Oh,
-dear,’ and I used to say, ‘Oh, dear.’<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-37">[37]</a></span> You should have heard him growl.
-He was s’ savage you durstn’t move or speak.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro gathered the reins with an air of business.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You must get out of this,” he advised, with curt good nature.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I suppose I must. Yet I’d like to stop on. Yet since missis died
-everything’s gone to pieces. I used to get such good living&mdash;fresh
-butter and new-laid eggs. I can churn myself, but no one seems to care
-for my butter. Don’t know why; there was a great call for missis’s.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Well, good-by to you,” said Jethro, with masculine intolerance of his
-whimpering garrulity.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Good-by and God bless you. Take care of yourselves. Come and see me
-again.” His bleared blue eyes were turned pleadingly on Pamela. “And,
-Master Jayne”&mdash;he looked from one to the other, and his shrill voice
-quavered childishly&mdash;“when you gets a missis may you never lose her. A
-man’s no good without a missis.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The cart moved on. Presently Pamela said softly, “Poor old thing! he
-made me feel quite miserable.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He’s not quite right in his head. But&mdash;you heard what he said, Cousin
-Pamela? A man’s no good without a missis.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The strong brown hand in the worn driving-glove plunged under the
-holland carriage-rug and took her bare fingers significantly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s true enough,” Jethro said thoughtfully, after a bit. “I’m worried
-about Folly Corner. Something’s wanting. The food’s all right&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-38">[38]</a></span>
-“Now, the food isn’t right,” she put in briskly. “Plenty of it&mdash;yes.
-But the serving! Who ever heard of a meat pudding brought to table in
-its basin! Fancy cheese on the breakfast-table! White sugar should be
-grated over the tarts and&mdash;oh, many things. Some of them I couldn’t
-mention to you: it wouldn’t be nice.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She was thinking of a thrifty trick of Gainah’s: the unhatched eggs
-found in a hen that had been killed were used for cakes. She thought it
-perfectly horrid, and her town squeamishness made her feel that there
-was a certain indelicacy involved in the proceeding. At all events she
-couldn’t mention such a thing to Jethro.
-</p>
-<p>
-“And the other day,” she continued, broodingly, “a pig was killed.
-Gainah was in the kitchen all day. She made me go out, too. The things
-they did with that pig! The savory horrors she turned out!”
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro gave a great jolly laugh.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Chitterling and fagots and scraps,” he cried. “I like them. You are
-not a farmer’s wife&mdash;yet. Gainah is a splendid housekeeper. It isn’t
-the housekeeping. It is the&mdash;the&mdash;difference. You know what I mean.
-Flowers in the vases; the dinner-table dainty, not solid. Foolish
-things&mdash;but they make a difference.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“They are important things. They certainly make a difference&mdash;all the
-difference. You’ve been dominated too long by that old woman. The place
-has the wrong tone. Do you understand what I mean? It looks a farmer’s
-house. It ought to look a gentleman’s.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-39">[39]</a></span>
-“But I <i>am</i> a farmer&mdash;and proud of it.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Of course. It is the fashion to farm nowadays. It is quite genteel
-if&mdash;if you lose money over it.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He seemed puzzled at her pert extravagance, and said stolidly that he
-was glad that his farming paid&mdash;every Jayne was a good farmer; it was
-in the blood.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Well,” said Pamela, with a shrug and a droll smile, “you can get the
-effect anyhow. We must put up with prosperity. There are many things
-I’ll do, if you’ll let me. The housemaid must wear a cap with lappets
-in the afternoons. She should wait at table, and bring your newspaper
-in on a tray; letters, too, when there are any. I’ll train her. Of
-course, Gainah does not know how; she will be grateful to me for hints.
-You are very slow down here in Sussex. Did I tell you that I lived for
-six months in a boarding-house?” There was the faintest quiver of her
-heavy lids. “I carved and kept accounts. Things were done very well
-there. I have moved about the world and kept my eyes open.”
-</p>
-<p>
-While she was making this smug little speech Jethro looked at her with
-satisfaction. She was a woman of wit, of knowledge. Her glib tongue was
-refreshing and piquant after the demure monosyllables and faint
-opinions&mdash;always watered by Mamma&mdash;of the Liddleshorn damsels.
-</p>
-<p>
-They were smoothly clattering down the High Street.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Furniture.” Pamela pointed to the upholsterer’s. “There should be oak
-in the dining-room.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-40">[40]</a></span>
-“There is oak at Folly Corner.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Is that oak?” She opened her big eyes and arched her faint dun brows.
-“Then it is different. We had a beautiful carved dinner-wagon at the
-boarding-house.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It was my father’s grandfather’s furniture, and his grandfather’s
-before him,” Jethro said conservatively.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela ran on:
-</p>
-<p>
-“And cushions. There should be lots of cushions with frills.” She threw
-a longing glance at the draper’s.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro looked too. One window was full of down cushions&mdash;big, square,
-and with frills deeper than the cushions themselves.
-</p>
-<p>
-“They would look lovely on the settle,” Pamela said gloatingly.
-</p>
-<p>
-Every woman has her pet weakness. Hers had always been <i>carte blanche</i>
-at the Oriental shop. There was a spatter of Oriental fripperies in a
-side window at the Liddleshorn draper’s; it was an up-to-date shop.
-</p>
-<p>
-“And embroidered mats,” she added, “and big bowls to stand flower-pots
-in; and those green specimen glasses for the table; and a bit or two of
-that Benares brass; and&mdash;it’s really a very good assortment&mdash;one of
-those guitars to hang on the wall with ribbons. You should have
-fretwork ornaments and some lacquered brackets, on which to stand
-plates or little blue tear-bottles.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro beckoned to a small boy on the curb, and threw him the reins.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-41">[41]</a></span>
-“We’ll go in,” he said, jumping down and holding out his hand to
-Pamela.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I must get some gloves first of all,” she said, as her foot touched
-the pavement.
-</p>
-<p>
-When she had bought them, she led Jethro captive through the Oriental
-department. He told her carelessly to buy what she chose, and she moved
-eagerly from one counter to another. She chose some gaudy rugs to toss
-about the oak floors. She bought brass bowls and trays, a few grotesque
-ornaments for the shelves, mats, a guitar, a Chinese woman’s shoe, a
-mandarin’s petticoat to throw over an armchair, a bundle of peacock’s
-feathers, a few bits of coarsely-printed china, various embroidered
-table-covers&mdash;all the vividly-colored, alluring rubbish that she
-fancied.
-</p>
-<p>
-They had it packed up and stowed in the dogcart. She carried the china
-gingerly on her knee for fear of breakage. Her eyes danced. After years
-of poverty, this careless throwing away of money was delightful.
-</p>
-<p>
-When they reached home she made Daborn take everything out and carry it
-into the dining-room&mdash;the dining-parlor, as Gainah persisted in calling
-it. There was a strong smell of raw onion from the kitchen; it was
-being packed away in wide-mouthed bottles, with alternate slices of
-beet and a savory bath of spiced vinegar. Gainah came in, her hands
-dyed with onion juice.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela was excitedly unswathing her treasures from yards of tissue
-paper.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We’ve bought a few things,” she said pleasantly.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-42">[42]</a></span> “Sit down and look
-at them. That is an Indian god.” She held out an abominable brown
-figure. “Jethro was saying that the place wanted improving&mdash;bringing up
-to date. Of course, you never hear of the newest things down here. How
-should you? I got these cushions for the settle, and this&mdash;isn’t the
-embroidery lovely?&mdash;for the piano. A piano should never have its back
-against the wall. It is an ugly piece of furniture; its form is all
-against it. I told Jethro that there should have been a grand in that
-big room. That is the only endurable form of piano.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She was chattering the artistic jargon of a belated æsthete who had
-boarded at the house in Bloomsbury. Gainah hardly seemed to hear her.
-She had toppled down into one of the high-backed, rush-seated chairs,
-and was nervously moving her stained hands on her lap.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Don’t you like these rugs?” Pamela cut the string with one of the
-heavy buck-handled knives which was on the dinner-table. “They are to
-be thrown down in odd corners&mdash;anywhere. You can’t have too much color
-in a room. I must go and take my hat off.” She glanced at the waiting
-dinner-table and stacked her purchases carefully on the horsehair sofa.
-“I’ll arrange everything this afternoon. By tea-time you will hardly
-recognize the place. Cousin Jethro is so kind; he says that if I
-haven’t thought of everything he will drive me into Liddleshorn again
-to-morrow. These green glasses are for flowers. I must arrange them
-every day for dinner in schemes of color. There! That<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-43">[43]</a></span> is one thing I
-forgot&mdash;an embroidered centerpiece. And we might have candle-shades,
-too. Those candlesticks,” she glanced at some heavy ones of Sheffield
-plate on the oak sideboard, “are the rage in London just now.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She ran out of the room. Gainah did not stir from her chair by the
-yawning hearth on which the first fire of the season smoldered. She
-gazed fixedly in her vacant way at the trash on the sofa. Only one
-thing that Pamela had said worked in her slow brain: “Jethro was saying
-that the place wanted improving.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked at the gaudy plates and jars; then thought of the delicate
-family china which was locked away in the little closet leading out of
-the keeping-room. She looked at the red and yellow brackets, the
-ornaments, and then looked round at the distempered walls, against
-which stood the beautiful golden oak, every piece of which she had
-tended as if it were a child. Every week she had rubbed that oak with
-beeswax and turpentine. Every week she had washed the china bowls and
-figures on the shelf. Every week for more than thirty years! She knew
-now that the landmarks of those years were going to be swept away. Her
-face grew harsh and vindictive&mdash;the face of a worn old panther&mdash;worn,
-old, feeble, but still with claws. Pamela, who meant everything in the
-kindest spirit possible, and who never doubted that her efforts would
-be received with gratitude, was breeding tragedy. Gainah, in the
-upright chair, her mournful eyes roving sluggishly round the
-ancestral<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-44">[44]</a></span> furniture that she loved, was working up to a climax.
-</p>
-<p>
-Why should this girl&mdash;this pert jade, this strange cousin on the
-mother’s side&mdash;ruin the lives of her elders? Why should she sneer at
-rustic customs which were old enough to be as sacred as the Bible?
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah’s mental attitude changed from injury to rebellion. She began to
-ask herself stupidly, with an agonized questioning of her slow brain,
-if Pamela could not be got rid of, banished from Folly Corner. How
-should she lift from the farm the shadow thrown across it? She only
-wanted to serve her master in her old faithful way, according to her
-own lights. She had brought him up from his birth. She almost believed
-that she was his mother. She had even chosen his wife for him. Nancy
-Turle wouldn’t have taken the housekeeping keys. She clutched at them
-as they weighed down her apron pocket. Pamela should never take them
-either. Nancy Turle would never have spent money like water at
-Liddleshorn. She glowered at the brightly colored stuffs and crockery.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-Only to go on serving him until the end. Wasn’t that a simple thing to
-ask? Just to be allowed to save and screw, to manage the farmhouse and
-to manage him in her hectoring way, which was all tenderness and
-devotion at bottom. She got up, turned her back on the new purchases,
-and ran her hand along the heavy sideboard lovingly, as if it were
-alive.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_104">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-45">[45]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_104_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_104_toc">CHAPTER IV.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-W<small>HEN</small> the purchases from the Oriental department were finally arranged,
-Pamela retreated to the door of the keeping-room&mdash;the drawing-room as
-she had privately determined to call it&mdash;and shut her eyes; then,
-opening them quickly and glancing comprehensively round, she tried to
-imagine what the effect of the room would be on a stranger. The round
-walnut table was pushed into a corner and covered with a red and yellow
-cloth, on which storks were painted. The piano cut across a corner, and
-had its back draped. The brackets were fixed on the wall and upheld
-Kaga plates. The mandarin’s petticoat, that had cost a great deal,
-nearly covered the green chair, and the green sofa was piled with
-cushions. The gaudy rugs did their best to cover up the bunches of pink
-Provence roses on the carpet.
-</p>
-<p>
-Things really made a very good show. The place looked almost civilized.
-These were her complacent thoughts as she stood at the door with her
-head on one side. Instinctively she went upstairs and put on her best
-gown, and arranged her hair in the elaborate way which she reserved for
-special occasions. When she came downstairs she shut her eyes again,
-then opened them spasmodically. Yes, it would do.
-</p>
-<p>
-She felt quite excited. Anyone could see that the hand of a person of
-taste had touched everything.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-46">[46]</a></span>
-A feeling of towns came over her. She looked through the diamond panes
-of the long window as if she expected to see hansoms bowling along the
-road. Then she sighed and glanced in the mirror again. What was the
-good of dressing one’s hair and wearing one’s best gown? Nobody would
-call.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah was still in the kitchen. She could hear her grating voice and
-slow step. Jethro was tramping over the stubble, his Irish terrier,
-Rob, at his heels. She put her softly-puffed head out of the bay window
-and called out pleadingly:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Oh! do come in and look.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He came across the field&mdash;came tolerantly, leisurely, as if he were
-good-humoredly indulging the whim of a child. When he opened the door
-he seemed too heavy for the transformed room, with its elegant tags of
-foreign frippery. He seemed to put it to shame; he brought an
-intangible, sterling feeling with him. Pamela, without knowing why,
-felt a little less satisfied.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Do you like it?” she asked nervously.
-</p>
-<p>
-He dropped into the green chair, his broad hands gripped round the
-petticoat, and looked about him with amusement.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Everything’s crooked,” he said lazily, at last, his mouth drolly
-curved and his eyes merry. They were such keen, outdoor eyes; they
-seemed to pierce through shams. She was afraid that he saw the pins in
-the piano back. She had been obliged to join two lengths of silk
-together, and had been too eager to stay and sew it.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes, everything is crooked; that is one of the<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-47">[47]</a></span> fundamental rules
-of modern decoration,” she told him flippantly. “Piano across one
-corner, table across the other; nothing stiff, nothing solid.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Umph!”
-</p>
-<p>
-He was not impressed. He was certainly laughing at the single
-knickerbocker of silk into which she had stuck a pot of late musk.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’ve blocked the door of the china closet with that jar of
-feathers.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The china closet! How delightful. It never occurred to me to ask what
-was beyond that door.” She tried the handle, then asked him for the
-key.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Gainah has it.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll get her to give it me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She dashed out into the corridor and met the housekeeper midway.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I was coming to look for you,” she said, with her unfailing good
-temper and self-satisfaction. “I want your opinion on the drawing-room.
-There! Isn’t that pretty? Cousin Jethro doesn’t care a bit; but, then,
-men are no good at decoration.
-</p>
-<p>
-“And I want you to give me the key of the china closet,” she added.
-</p>
-<p>
-A queer flush stole over Gainah’s cheeks, and her distorted hand went
-involuntarily to her apron pocket, and her cold eyes sought Jethro’s
-beseechingly. Pamela had her palm outspread.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes, we’ll have a look in the closet,” Jethro said easily. “Don’t know
-when I went in last. There is a lot of stuff that was my mother’s and
-your aunt’s.” As he put in this touch, he glanced meaningly at Gainah,
-with the half-timid assertion of a<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-48">[48]</a></span> big, kindly man who has been
-subjugated by a mean woman.
-</p>
-<p>
-He wanted her to remember, without troubling him to hurt her by putting
-it into words, that Pamela was one of the family, and had a close
-interest in the family crockery.
-</p>
-<p>
-“The closet is only opened once a year, when we clean in spring,”
-Gainah said grudgingly. “I don’t want strange fingers handling the
-china.”
-</p>
-<p>
-But she opened the door. Pamela, quite as a matter of course, took the
-key off the ring and slipped it into her own pocket.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It is a mistake to hide old china. The room won’t want locking again,”
-she said, gliding over the bare, dusty floor. “What a lovely
-collection! I wish I had known, then I need not have wasted money on
-Kaga. Anyone can buy that for so much three farthings&mdash;farthings play a
-most important part in modern decorations, Cousin Jethro.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She dimpled round at his puzzled face, and threw a conciliatory glance
-at Gainah, who had taken up a canary-colored jug with uneven black
-lettering straggling round its bulging middle. They were all three in
-the tiny room, lighted by one high window, across which the foamy white
-rose crept.
-</p>
-<p>
-“May I look?” Pamela took the canary jug.
-</p>
-<div class="verse_container">
-<div class="verse">
-<p class="i0">“<span class="lftspc">‘</span>Long may we leve.</p>
-
-<p class="i2">Happy may we be,</p>
-
-<p class="i0b">Blest with content,</p>
-
-<p class="i2">And from misfortin’ free.’</p>
-</div>
-</div>
-<p class="noindent">
-“Most delightful sentiments, and equally delightful spelling,” she
-commented lightly, while Jethro<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-49">[49]</a></span> watched her with a growing admiration,
-and the cold light slanted through the window on Gainah’s worn,
-malevolent face.
-</p>
-<p>
-“What blue bowls and dishes! What luster! I think they call that
-coppery stuff luster.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“My mother’s best tea set.” Jethro took up a tiny handleless cup with
-purplish-pink trails of flowers painted on it.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Lowestoft, I think.” Pamela cocked her head on one side. “But I know
-nothing of china. Therefore I admire it all&mdash;that is a very safe rule
-in art. Now you and Gainah must run away.” She made a feint of pushing
-him toward the door. “I’m going to be busier than ever. All this must
-be arranged to the best advantage. Then the door will be left open, and
-when next we go to Liddleshorn you must buy a portière.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She jumped upon a chair, and lifted bowls and dishes from the top
-shelf, making a running comment as she did so.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I wish I knew printed from painted. This dish is either very valuable
-or utterly worthless; some things are just on the borderland. You two
-must really go away.” She put out one hand deprecatingly. “There ought
-to be some tin tacks, or a ledge, in front of the shelves, so that the
-plates could stand up.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah looked at her, a brilliant, dainty, voluble creature, high up on
-a mahogany chair whose back was carved in wheat-ears. She had all the
-color and pertness of a bullfinch. She looked at her, this dangerous
-republican; looked at white fingers carelessly<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-50">[50]</a></span> handling china which
-for over thirty years only her own hands had touched. She had grown to
-believe that it was hers, that Jethro himself was hers, and the farm
-too, with its fat acres and its ripe family tradition. She had been
-undisputed queen at Folly Corner the best part of her life. All the
-family connections, when they paid Jethro a rare visit, had deferred to
-her. Yet not one of them knew the truth&mdash;that Jethro’s father had
-almost married her.
-</p>
-<p>
-She thought of that as she watched Pamela standing radiant on the
-chair. A horrible pang for the muddles, incomplete past, and a still
-more set feeling of bitterest, merciless revenge contracted her heart.
-She turned away without a word, leaving the cousins in the china
-closet. She sat herself down in the ruins of her temple, and looked
-blankly at the devastation wrought by Pamela’s active fingers in two
-short hours.
-</p>
-<p>
-She knew for whom this room had been refurnished more than thirty years
-before. Not for Jethro’s mother. She, after the fashion of frugal first
-wives, had saved and gone short of household elaborations. The room had
-been furnished for <i>her.</i> She, Gainah Toat, had been the elder Jethro’s
-second fancy. She had been a good-looking woman well within thirty in
-those days; while he had been nearer sixty, having married a
-middle-aged cousin&mdash;of the plain variety of women, warranted to wear
-well&mdash;when he was fifty or more. But she, Gainah, had inspired him with
-positive passion. Bah! She knew what a man’s passion was, and how far
-it led<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-51">[51]</a></span> him. She knew that it made even a miser like the elder Jethro
-dip deeply into his pocket.
-</p>
-<p>
-She remembered driving with him into Liddleshorn, just as Pamela had
-to-day driven in with his son, and choosing the flowery carpet, the
-round table, the piano&mdash;on which she could never hope to play a note.
-Neighbors had condoled with her on the prospect of a new wife at Folly
-Corner. She had said nothing, by his wish&mdash;he was a taciturn man. But
-she remembered the flutter of triumph which had worked behind her dry
-lips all the time. She knew that <i>she</i> was to be the bride of whom they
-gossiped and about whose appearance they speculated.
-</p>
-<p>
-What might have been! He had been dead more than thirty years, and she
-had dutifully kept the secret of his weakness. Not even Jethro knew
-that there had been love passages, of a fairly practical sort&mdash;on one
-side at least&mdash;between Gainah and his father. Her courting scenes had
-been seasoned with matter-of-fact reference to the crops or the
-prospects of early ducklings. She had always been grim and unbending.
-</p>
-<p>
-What might have been! If only the master of Folly Corner had not been
-pitched out of the high gig. His head had cracked on a heap of big
-stones by the road, piled high all ready for autumn breaking.
-</p>
-<p>
-She remembered so well the day they brought him home. It was on a
-Monday, and she had, for once, managed to cut her nails without
-thinking of a fox’s tail&mdash;sure sign of a present.
-</p>
-<p>
-That was the present they brought her&mdash;the dying<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-52">[52]</a></span> body of the
-substantial man, who loved her in his common-sense way, who would have
-redeemed her from service.
-</p>
-<p>
-She remembered the day of the funeral. It was a cold day. The bereft
-house had seemed to rock and moan with every wail of the agonized wind
-outside. The front door, through which they carried the long, wide
-coffin, was flung widely back by her orders until the burial service
-had been read at the church. If that had not been done there would have
-been another death within the year. Bitterly as she had been
-disappointed and foiled, she did not want to die. Neither did she want
-baby Jethro to die; she loved him a great deal better than she had
-loved his father&mdash;there was no ulterior motive mixed up with her regard
-for the child.
-</p>
-<p>
-The farmer had not even made a will in her favor. He had not left her
-one penny. She stayed on as paid housekeeper, the conclave of relatives
-deciding that it would be best. Mrs. Turle, the dead man’s sister, paid
-her quarterly. She stayed on. She managed the farm until Jethro grew
-up. She managed Jethro&mdash;had never left off managing him. She was a
-masterful woman.
-</p>
-<p>
-And now she was to be put aside, like the pair of china figures which
-had lost an arm apiece, and which stared at each other hopelessly on
-their dim attic shelf.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro came out from the closet, looking handsome and happy. Pamela,
-still on the chair, was softly humming a gay little air.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah struggled up from the sofa. She looked<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-53">[53]</a></span> at Jethro. She moved her
-dry pale lips, and moved her oddly-dressed brown head too. She wanted
-to speak to him&mdash;to implore, to insist. But the words strangled in
-her throat at the sight of his exultant face and shining eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was useless for age to pit itself against youth. Her time was past.
-She knew, although it was gall to admit it, that the girl she hated had
-Nature on her side. All her comparisons were drawn from Nature; her
-untiring energy of pickle and preserve making had gone hand-in-hand
-with Nature.
-</p>
-<p>
-Didn’t the old potatoes rot off to make room for the new? Wasn’t it
-natural?
-</p>
-<p>
-Her feet moved slowly over the carpet. It had been her choice nearly
-thirty-five years before. But it was hardly worn; they rarely used the
-keeping-room.
-</p>
-<p>
-She went into the garden. She looked at the brown stalks of the
-summer’s annuals in her borders. They were dead, dry&mdash;only fit for the
-waste-heap. Yet their young seedlings were green and vigorous. It was
-all so simple, so natural. Yet&mdash;yet! She was far too practical, too
-mentally sluggish, to put the half-formed thought into clear shape.
-They were only fit for the waste-heap&mdash;but did they want to go there?
-Wasn’t there some dumb, desperate struggle against extinction going on
-between those brown, sadly swaying stalks?
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-Then she saw a wagonette pull up at the white gate, saw a head of rich
-red hair between the poplars, and hurried indoors to put on her black
-silk gown.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_105">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-54">[54]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_105_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_105_toc">CHAPTER V.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-P<small>AMELA</small> saw the wagonette, too, as she perched on the chair, her head
-level with the high window. She was so surprised and fluttered that the
-Oriental bowl she was lifting down nearly dropped from her fingers. She
-called through the open door to Jethro:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Here’s a carriage at the gate. Inside, an elderly lady and a girl with
-red hair. They are coming up the path.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Aunt Sophy&mdash;Mrs. Turle, of Turle House&mdash;and Nancy.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“They have come to call on me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She gave a soft breath of satisfaction as she jumped from the chair;
-her best gown, her waved hair, were justified. She had only just time
-to add, “What a pity I hadn’t finished the china closet!” before they
-were announced, in rustic, familiar fashion, by the red-armed
-housemaid, who hadn’t yet changed her cotton gown for her afternoon
-stuff one.
-</p>
-<p>
-Mrs. Turle was a big woman with a stately carriage. Nancy was slim, and
-either shy or stupid. She had a very white skin&mdash;the Turle skin, as
-Jethro had said. Whenever she spoke or was spoken to, a silly pink
-flooded her face. Her dress<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-55">[55]</a></span> was precise and perfect in detail; the
-very best that the best shop in Liddleshorn could supply. Mrs. Turle,
-too, wore a stiff silk, and the set of golden sable which had been part
-of her wedding outfit, and was only just beginning to look damaged by
-moth. This was evidently a state call. Pamela saw her look swiftly
-round the room, as she threw back her net veil with the deep hem.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro, after a few awkward words&mdash;he never excelled in the presence of
-women&mdash;went back to his stubble and his dog. Pamela was left alone with
-these two&mdash;evidently bent on criticism&mdash;who might or might not be of
-her blood. Mrs. Turle said, looking at her steadfastly:
-</p>
-<p>
-“My dear, you are like Jethro’s mother. She died when he was born, you
-know. Always weak here.” She laid her plump hand on the sable that
-crossed her ample bosom. “I hope your chest is not weak. You don’t look
-very strong.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I am quite strong, thank you,” the new cousin returned rather
-awkwardly, conscious that Nancy was trying to puzzle out the
-construction of her <i>coiffure.</i>
-</p>
-<p>
-“You may think so”&mdash;Mrs. Turle dealt out the sweet, maternal smile for
-which she was famous,&mdash;“but one can never be sure of one’s own
-constitution. I must send you down a large bottle of the cough syrup I
-make for Nancy every autumn.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She kept looking round the room. Pamela felt sure that she resented
-everything&mdash;the tablecloth with storks, the winking brass bowls, the
-very petticoat, which her portly shoulders crushed.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-56">[56]</a></span>
-“I should have called before,” she continued apologetically, “but I
-couldn’t have the horse. We only keep one since Mr. Turle died, and my
-man, Evergreen, like all old servants, must be indulged. He doesn’t
-care to drive in bad weather, and we have had so many mists lately.
-Besides”&mdash;there was a tinge of reproach in her purring voice&mdash;“I hadn’t
-seen you at church. I didn’t know if you were ready for callers.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Church! Oh, I haven’t been yet. It seemed such a pity to waste half a
-beautiful day indoors,” said Pamela innocently. She saw timid Nancy
-glance at her mother and smile. They were very tepid people. She
-already felt as if little cascades of lukewarm water played on her.
-</p>
-<p>
-“In London,” she added, in extenuation, “so few people go to church.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Mrs. Turle looked grave.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I must say,” she said softly&mdash;and Pamela soon learnt that “I must say”
-was her favorite formula&mdash;“that people in towns are very lax. You can’t
-bring up a large family&mdash;I’ve had fifteen&mdash;without method. When my
-children were little they went to church twice on Sunday&mdash;what else
-could you do with boys? They would only loaf about. Next Sunday, dear,
-Nancy and I will call for you. We always drive.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Thank you very much.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“And you have always lived in London? Your mother and father are dead,
-so Jethro told us. I knew your father. He was a very handsome young
-man. I must say,” her scintillating eyes<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-57">[57]</a></span> were full on the girl’s face,
-“that I should never have known you for his daughter. There is no
-resemblance; poor John had such regular features.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela looked a little awkward. Nancy said kindly in her weak, sweet
-voice, and with her languishing smile:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Do you ride a bicycle?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“No. I&mdash;I’ve never had the chance.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Oh! you must get one. Mustn’t she, mamma? It is such fun. In the
-summer we have picnics, and in the winter paper chases.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That would be nice.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The cascades of tepid water were growing in volume. She was new to this
-class of caller. Her London experience was pretty large; she had
-knocked about in her search for bread. She knew the art jargon of
-Hampstead, the conscientious struggle for intellect and high purpose
-which distinguishes the prosperous quarter of Bloomsbury. She could
-talk shops with a feather-headed woman, babies, even, with a bovine
-one, or the divine duties of sex with the serious. But with these
-people there was no give-and-take, no merry tossing with the ball, no
-brightening of the wits.
-</p>
-<p>
-“And I suppose you were living with some other relations in London?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“No,” she said curtly, “I was working for my living. Jethro is my only
-relation.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“We are all kin, are we not, mamma?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Of course. So you had a career, dear? Yes. Art? So many girls go in
-for that. Nancy attended the Liddleshorn school for a time. But I<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-58">[58]</a></span>
-don’t think the influence is good for a young woman. I must say that
-drawing from a model is not <i>my</i> idea of delicacy.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Never from the nude, mamma.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Oh! never from the nude, of course. Unless it was a foot. I think you
-drew from a foot once, Nancy, love.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Oh, yes, mamma; but the model only came once. She hadn’t understood
-that she must take her stockings off.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela was yawning. “I haven’t studied art,” she said curtly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Literature? A great many girls go in for that. We had an author at
-Mere Cottage. A most extraordinary person. He put a Latin text over his
-door. What was it, Nancy?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“<i>Parva domus magna quies</i>, mamma.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes, something like that. I’m not quite sure that your Latin is right.
-But Egbert would know. He is my son at Cambridge.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The people were so puzzled,” said Nancy. “Old Mrs. Chalcraft declared
-it meant knock and ring. But one of the other old women said it was a
-spell to keep witches away.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It was a stupid thing to put,” Mrs. Turle broke in with impatience.
-“<span class="lftspc">‘</span>A little house for great quiet.’ That is how my son translated it&mdash;my
-youngest son at Cambridge. That is absurd, of course; little houses
-never <i>are</i> quiet.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But he meant, mamma, that he didn’t want people to call.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Then he need not have troubled to put such a<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-59">[59]</a></span> sentence over his door,
-dear. Old Timms, who is a painter by trade, was half afraid to do it.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“His wife made him give up the job when he got to <i>magna</i>, mamma. Some
-of the old people are so superstitious. She was afraid he might be
-signing some compact about his soul with the devil.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela laughed. The conversation was waking up, she thought, but Mrs.
-Turle looked grave.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It was in very bad taste,” she said, “and he need not have troubled.
-No one meant to call on such people.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“And was it literature, dear?” she continued, more genially. “We are
-quite literary down here.” She laughed pleasantly, as if introducing
-Pamela to a congenial atmosphere. “What is the name of that person at
-the new house on the Liddleshorn Road, Nancy? She keeps a poultry farm
-and takes in type-writing.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Samuels, mamma.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes, Mrs. Samuels. And there is Mrs. Clutton at the Buttery. Her
-husband is a journalist&mdash;so she says.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The last three words were spoken impressively. Pamela immediately
-divined that Mrs. Clutton, of the Buttery, was not a local favorite.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Nancy has a great taste for literature,” Mrs. Turle continued, with a
-fond glance at her daughter, who immediately blushed. “I think that if
-there had ever been any question of her going out into the world she
-would have chosen literature.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-60">[60]</a></span>
-“Only I can never think of a subject,” Nancy said pathetically. “If
-only I could think of a subject and get somebody else to begin!”
-</p>
-<p>
-“We subscribe to Smith’s,” Mrs. Turle said, smiling sweetly. “We like
-to keep abreast with the times. Nancy goes in for serious subjects; she
-is halfway through Ruskin’s&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Huxley’s, mamma.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“There is very little difference, dear. But I confine myself to current
-fiction. I’m just reading Kingsley’s ‘Westward Ho!’<span class="lftspc">”</span>
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’m not at all literary,” said Pamela. “I was governess for a time.
-Then I was a companion. And&mdash;and I managed a boarding-house.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Really! Then you understand housekeeping. That will be a help to
-Gainah, who is growing old. Ah! here she is. I suppose you have made
-your elderberry wine, Gainah? I only got a cask and a half this year.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela opened her gray eyes when Mrs. Turle of Turle affectionately
-greeted the housekeeper. She was astounded to see Gainah, in her black
-silk, and with a worn gold chain round her scraggy neck, sit down with
-the easy air of an equal on the sofa. She couldn’t understand her
-position. She derided the idea of her importance&mdash;an ignorant old woman
-who was always cooking. Gainah in her eyes was a servant&mdash;nothing more.
-But in local opinion she was entitled to much deference. The laborers
-regarded her as even more important than “young Jethro,” who was only a
-stripling.
-</p>
-<p>
-Nancy took Pamela’s hand.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-61">[61]</a></span>
-“Come out in the garden,” she said. “I so love a garden. Do you?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I don’t know anything about it,” said Pamela, as they strolled about
-in the sun, and the other girl made little gurgling comments.
-</p>
-<p>
-“How sweet those stocks are! What a show of asters! Ours were a
-failure. Evergreen doesn’t care for asters. He likes carpet-bedding and
-I bought him a half-crown packet of petunia seed; so I did hope he
-would succeed with the asters. You must get Jethro to build you a
-little greenhouse. I could give you plenty of geranium cuttings next
-spring. It is a little late to take them now. I think it is a little
-late; but I must ask Evergreen. You should have a bicycle.” She was
-evidently anxious to be friendly. “Would you like to join our Shakspere
-class? It is quite proper, you know.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Perhaps,” said Pamela vaguely.
-</p>
-<p>
-Directly she heard the tea bell she hastened her steps almost rudely.
-She was determined that Gainah should not take the head of the table,
-and she managed to slip on to the oak stool behind the urn just as the
-two elder women came along the corridor.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah sat down at the side, shaking her hands and vibrating her head
-with anger. But Mrs. Turle smiled approval.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You must find a young lady in the house a great help,” she said
-innocently, as she sat down, spreading her thick silk skirt flat
-beneath her. “Nancy always pours out for me.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-62">[62]</a></span>
-Pamela was sulky. She hated what she called a “sit-down” tea. Tea was
-not a meal; it was an interlude, a good way of helping out an idle
-afternoon.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro on the high stool at the end was hospitably carving a ham. The
-smiling housemaid kept coming with fresh plates of toasted tea-cake,
-preserve, or buns.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You must give me the recipe for these rice cakes,” Mrs. Turle said.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Two cups of rice flour,” returned Gainah solemnly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You beat your butter to a cream, of course?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes. Two eggs.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That is very economical. We have hardly any eggs. The hens are all
-getting broody again, and I must say an October brood is not worth
-hatching. I wish Evergreen would let me have a non-setting breed.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Nothing better than Leghorns,” said Jethro.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Tch!” interrupted Gainah, with her air of absolutism, “Langshans are
-better.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But they are not nice table birds.” Mrs. Turle smiled on them both and
-took another cake. “Now, I must say I like the Plymouth Rock&mdash;only its
-legs are yellow.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela, with the superior air of a being on a higher plane, poured out
-her newly-found aunt a third cup of tea.
-</p>
-<p>
-The talk went on. She heard Gainah and Mrs. Turle talk of wine-making,
-cider-making, apple-storing.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-63">[63]</a></span>
-“Our Blenheims,” Gainah complained, “have all gone a-bitel.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“They will go mildewed some years. I don’t know why,” returned Mrs.
-Turle sympathetically; “ours have kept beautifully so far. I’ll ask
-Evergreen if we can spare you some.”
-</p>
-<p>
-It was a very long meal. The dying sun straggled round the house and
-filled the dull room with yellow light. Through the latticed window
-they could see the mist rising like a huge bridal wreath from the wet
-grass. Mrs. Turle got up hurriedly when the housemaid came in to say
-that her carriage had come round.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You must spend a long afternoon with us soon,” she said, kissing
-Pamela. “What are we doing on Wednesday, Nancy?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s the Shakspere class, mamma.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Of course. Pamela must join the Shakspere class. Mrs. McAlpine, my
-dear, who started it, is extremely clever&mdash;she reads German novels in
-the original. And she is very particular&mdash;they only read the <i>nice</i>
-parts of the plays. I inquired into that when Nancy joined. For
-although one admires and loves dear Shakspere, I must say one is never
-sure of him. It seems such a pity. Are we free on Thursday, Nancy?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I usually go round with the <i>Parish Magazines</i>, mamma&mdash;it is the third
-Thursday in the month.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“So it is. And Friday is unlucky. I don’t believe in such nonsense, of
-course, but it is as well not to run unnecessary risk. And Saturday,
-that is no day at all.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-64">[64]</a></span>
-“I usually give out stores on Saturday, mamma.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Then we’ll say Monday. No, Tuesday&mdash;that will give us time to make a
-cake. I must ask some more of your relations to meet you, dear. And,
-Nancy, we must be careful with the cake; Maria’s are always so
-excellent, and she is so critical. And now run out, dear, and tell
-Evergreen I’ll come in a moment. I’m afraid he won’t like being kept in
-the mist.”
-</p>
-<p class="break2">
-On Tuesday Jethro, who was driving into Liddleshorn, dropped Pamela at
-Turle. She stood and watched him out of sight, admiring the smartly
-turned-out trap and his broad back in the light covert coat. Then she
-went, with lagging feet, up the drive.
-</p>
-<p>
-Turle was an old house which had been improved into an appearance of
-juvenility. Mr. Turle bought it when he retired with a comfortable
-fortune from the milling&mdash;a comfortable fortune, and a determination on
-the part of his wife&mdash;to end his days as a gentleman. He spent so much
-money that people forgot that he had been a miller. When he died his
-widow was actually on the skirts of small gentrydom. She was a
-diplomatic woman, and managed to steer fairly clear of family
-connections who were still in superior family trade. She drove her
-social four-in-hand skillfully, and kept several distinct sets in
-perfect balance, smiling on them all with the same motherly, expansive
-sweetness, yet never offending the aristocratic susceptibilities of
-Mrs. Sugden, the Paper King’s wife, who called on<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-65">[65]</a></span> her twice a year,
-nor hurting the feelings of the Jeremy Crisp girls, whose father still
-carried on the family grocer’s business in Liddleshorn.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela liked Turle. The farm-buildings were hidden, the surrounding
-meadows had been knocked into a miniature park and planted with trees.
-They were young trees, but everything must have a beginning.
-</p>
-<p>
-When she was announced she saw that the big drawing-room was full of
-strange women. She looked hurriedly from one face to another, finding
-family characteristics everywhere. Mrs. Turle kissed her.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You don’t look quite up to the mark,” she said affectionately. “A
-touch of bile?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She was introduced to all of them; handed over from one to another,
-like a bale of samples. They had been engrossed at her entrance over a
-big box of fancy work. One of the Jeremy Crisp girls&mdash;who was only a
-girl by courtesy&mdash;went into elderly raptures over a woolwork jacket,
-which looked a capital fit for an organ-grinder’s monkey, and was
-intended for a baby.
-</p>
-<p>
-“The box comes round to us once a quarter,” Mrs. Turle explained. “It
-goes round to all members. Every member works something, prices it,
-puts it in the box, and sends it on to another member. If we see
-anything we like we buy it.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela was beginning to find out that her new cousins and aunts were
-tremendously busy women&mdash;over nothing at all; that they had a frenzy
-for<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-66">[66]</a></span> belonging to classes and societies; that they took themselves and
-their efforts very seriously.
-</p>
-<p>
-The cheerful coal fire winked on the foolish satisfied faces with their
-ridiculous monotony of outline and color. A crunching on the gravel
-made everybody glance out of the window. Mrs. Turle seemed a little
-frightened and annoyed. She looked deprecatingly at Cousin Maria
-Furlonger, from the “Warren,” who was so very exclusive, who moved in
-such a good set, and habitually went up to help Mrs. Sugden when she
-gave a charitable entertainment.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s Mrs. Clutton, my dear. You didn’t want to meet her, did you?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Oh, never mind, Aunt Sophy. I needn’t know her if I meet her again.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I wish she wouldn’t drop in so unceremoniously,” poor Mrs. Turle said
-in a hurried whisper. “Mrs. Sugden was here the other day. She begged
-me to let her out of the back door because Mrs. Clutton was coming in
-at the front. Of course a woman in her position couldn’t possibly meet
-anybody like that.
-</p>
-<p>
-“My dear,” she swept her ample skirts across the room, “this is a
-pleasure. Nancy and I were wondering what had happened to you. We’ve
-seen nothing of you for at least three days. You’re a little pale. The
-weather is trying, and makes one look so fagged and worn.”
-</p>
-<p>
-It was a trick of Aunt Sophy’s to compassionate everyone and comment on
-the fragility of their appearance. Pamela, when she grew to know
-her<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-67">[67]</a></span> better, was never sure whether it was a feline trick or a
-sympathetic one.
-</p>
-<p>
-The new-comer was dark and lean. She was a young woman, whose face
-looked as if it had weathered storms. She was carelessly dressed in
-perfectly cut clothes, rather worn. She carried a damp, loosely-tied
-parcel, which she handed to Nancy.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Here are your pinks and white phloxes. Put the roots in soon.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“If Evergreen has time to-morrow&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Don’t wait for him; he’ll kill them. Gardeners have a knack of
-sticking their spades through the things they dislike. Do it yourself.
-I am so glad I can’t afford a gardener&mdash;to give me a plant for the
-table when he chooses.” Her eye fell on a melancholy petunia.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Have you been to any more sales, dear?” asked Mrs. Turle. “Have you
-added to your interesting collection of nice old things?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Oh, yes!” Mrs. Clutton’s voice became enthusiastic. “I went to such a
-delightful sale at Carrsland. I bought a little oak table. A dealer ran
-it up to thirty shillings&mdash;the wretch! He passed me on the road! I was
-walking, as usual; he was cycling. I instantly smelt him out as a
-dealer, and I was half inclined to tip him off the bicycle with the
-point of my umbrella, gag him, bind him to a tree until the sale was
-over. I wish I had; it would have been so deliciously simple.”
-</p>
-<p>
-There was an awkward silence; then Nancy said, in her gently gushing
-way:
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-68">[68]</a></span>
-“I wish you’d ride a bicycle. It’s such fun.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Maria Furlonger, of the “Warren,” added politely:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes. You should ride; it’s so good for the brain; and I’ve heard you
-write&mdash;or something of the sort.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Bicycling’s very bad for one’s logic; you can’t imagine a logician on
-a bicycle. I don’t write; my husband does.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Mrs. Turle, anxious for perfect harmony, and knowing&mdash;also sharing&mdash;the
-local skepticism regarding Mrs. Clutton’s husband, put in blandly:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Mr. Clutton is a journalist. He has gone for a tour round the world.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Oh!”
-</p>
-<p>
-Maria Furlonger’s wide smile full in Mrs. Clutton’s face was a little
-dangerous.
-</p>
-<p>
-Mrs. Turle added quite irrelevantly:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Poor Mrs. Peter Hone has another baby. That’s twelve.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Sympathy is wasted on the poorer classes,” Mrs. Clutton put in, with
-her calm, dogmatic air. “You pet them too much. Once it was lap-dogs;
-now it’s paupers. Any old dame with a clean apron and a courtesy, any
-old man with his trousers tied round the calf and his chin like
-stubble, can take you in. Merely a question of livery! Now, it is the
-man in the top hat who wants petting&mdash;the man who is at his wits’ end
-to keep up his insurance payments.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The tea bell rang. They all filed solemnly into the dining-room.
-</p>
-<p>
-Maria Furlonger, who was rather taken with Pamela’s<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-69">[69]</a></span> silence, which, of
-course, meant modesty, began to tell her graciously about the old Manor
-House at Carrsland, where her father, Jethro’s mother’s brother, had
-been born.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s a very old place. There is a moat all round. It has been filled
-up.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I am so glad it has been filled,” cried another cousin. “It was so
-awkward, so dangerous. You see”&mdash;addressing herself to Pamela&mdash;“it was
-just under the drawing-room window, and a lady might so easily have
-fallen out. What a terrible thing it would be for a lady to fall out of
-her own drawing-room window&mdash;into a moat!”
-</p>
-<p>
-“When ladies have a tendency that way they should sign the pledge,”
-said Mrs. Clutton tersely.
-</p>
-<p>
-Nancy, meeting her mother’s diplomatic eye, rushed into the breach:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Have you heard about the nice butcher boy?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That boy at Churnside’s?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes. He has stolen ten pounds. They have arrested him.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Dishonesty on a small scale never pays,” said Mrs. Clutton. “Honesty
-is really the best policy&mdash;now that we have such an excellent police
-force.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She was putting on her gloves, and they looked at each other with
-secret satisfaction. She seemed anxious to go. She looked as if the
-double row of placid faces irritated her. Mrs. Turle and Nancy kissed
-her. The former said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Come in again soon; we see so little of you. And take a tonic,
-dear&mdash;you’re really looking run down.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-70">[70]</a></span>
-“What a vulgar person!” said Maria Furlonger, when the place was clear
-of her.
-</p>
-<p>
-Annie Jayne&mdash;the Jaynes of the “Mount”&mdash;said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“She struck me as being a little weak&mdash;mentally. Dear mother used to
-say that no properly-balanced woman should have opinions of her
-own&mdash;outside the domestic circle.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I must say that some of her remarks are in bad taste,” Mrs. Turle
-admitted gently. It was her policy to offend nobody, to speak ill of
-nobody; ill-natured remarks never helped your social ascent.
-</p>
-<p>
-“She’s quite incorrigible,” one of the Jeremy Crisps said. “Do you know
-that she cut Mr. Meadows?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She didn’t!”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She <i>did!</i>”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The clergyman of the parish! A rural dean!”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He called on her&mdash;merely a parochial call. He said that he liked to be
-identified with all his parishioners&mdash;whatever their views. Could
-anything be more broad, more generous?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Well?”
-</p>
-<p>
-The Jeremy Crisp girl continued:
-</p>
-<p>
-“She actually laughed in his face, and said she had not any views;
-didn’t he consider views narrow?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She’s not a lady.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That’s not all. He met her in the lane next day. He nodded most
-affably; you know his rule: a nod to people who walk, a bow to those
-who keep a carriage. It is a wise rule&mdash;it defines the classes<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-71">[71]</a></span> so
-well, which is absolutely necessary, or where should we be?”
-</p>
-<p>
-One or two superior cousins sneered at each other across the teacups.
-The airs of these Jeremy Crisps!
-</p>
-<p>
-“<i>She cut him dead!</i>”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I spoke to her about <i>that</i>,” Mrs. Turle said gently.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Well! What did she say? Short sight? She wears glasses for effect, no
-doubt.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Those eye-glasses make one look so intelligent, they really do,” put
-in a quiet cousin, who had scarcely spoken all the afternoon; “I
-thought of getting some.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She said that the men of her acquaintance might touch their hats or
-raise them&mdash;which they choose. If none of us would put that
-insufferable Mr. Meadows in his place, she must.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You never should have called on her, Aunt Sophy.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“My dear Maria, she is a neighbor. And you never know how these queer
-people from London may turn out. Sometimes they prove desirable. I
-hesitated a long time, though, when I heard her husband was a
-journalist: very often journalist means swindler.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She looks to me like a woman who drinks,” Maria Furlonger said. “Drink
-makes people talk at random; drink makes people forget their duty to
-their superiors in the parish.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Dear mother always said that a drunken woman was such a much more
-painful sight than a drunken<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-72">[72]</a></span> man,” Annie Jayne said. “Oh! I can’t
-believe it of her, Maria. She was quite nice to Baby the other day.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Annie had her first baby, and thought of very little else besides. If
-anyone admired Baby she concluded, in her simple, ardently maternal
-way, that such admiration was a moral certificate.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-“Drink! Nonsense!” said Mrs. Turle, quite sharply for her. “I must say
-she has very clever ideas. She told me the other day that she was
-thinking of patenting an automatic arrangement for making cyclists
-swallow their own dust&mdash;though it would never do for you, Nancy, with
-your chest. Why, here is Jethro. I suppose he has come to take you
-away, Pamela?”
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_106">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-73">[73]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_106_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_106_toc">CHAPTER VI.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-T<small>HE</small> autumn rains set in early that year. Every night when Pamela fell
-asleep in her bedstead with the fluted posts and hangings of chintz,
-having a fearful pattern of black roses, she heard the murmuring rush
-of rain down the pipes and into the soft-water tubs. Every morning she
-was awakened by the swish of rain against the casement and the clatter
-of the maidservant’s clogs on the stones in the yard.
-</p>
-<p>
-She spent long afternoons in the drawing-room staring dismally out at
-the sodden fields and the hills beyond, which shed sad mist. She was
-left very much to her own resources; her new relations rarely visited
-in bad weather.
-</p>
-<p>
-She gave the house the benefit of her active brain, instituting all
-sorts of changes which she honestly believed to be reforms. She flung a
-modern, flimsy feeling of culture about the staid old place&mdash;a feeling
-expressed by current magazines, superficial opinions, shallow daring.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro was pleased and invigorated by her reckless dogmatic opinions,
-by her dainty domestic ways. He used to watch her graceful figure flit
-from room to room, used to listen to her high young voice giving
-peremptory orders. She fascinated him. She was always changing, and the
-women to whom he<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-74">[74]</a></span> had been accustomed all his life never changed. Each
-one said and did exactly what her mother had said and done before her:
-to be original was to break the fifth commandment.
-</p>
-<p>
-They sat round the great open hearth on wet, wild evenings. Gainah
-would be sewing or painfully writing out recipes in a dirty copy-book.
-Pamela generally had a catalogue of bulbs, a sheet of paper, and a
-pencil. Nancy’s gushing, incapable enthusiasm, and Mrs. Clutton’s
-practical knowledge of flower gardening had infected her. She already
-knew them well enough for that. She was full of ideas for spring
-bedding.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I must have a hundred early tulips,” she would say coaxingly.
-</p>
-<p>
-When Jethro, looking up from the local paper, returned indulgently,
-“Order what you please,” she added the hundred tulips to her list with
-the glee of a child.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah seldom said anything. She had always been a silent woman, and
-Pamela’s whirling, modern influence had petrified her altogether. The
-thin white lips hardly opened except to timidly rate the two maids, who
-now tossed their heads at their former tyrant. She took Pamela’s
-presence passively, never commenting on anything she did. But
-sometimes, when the girl looked up suddenly from the fascinating bulb
-catalogue, and found those odd eyes on her, she shivered. They were so
-dead&mdash;those eyes. Yet such a secret, such a terrible soul seemed to
-play and lurk behind them.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah never protested. Little by little she felt<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-75">[75]</a></span> the scepter slip
-from her powerless hand. Little by little her life lost color. Pamela
-laughed at her methods, was often disgusted by her thrifty, traditional
-economies. She had a superior trick of saying, “My way is the correct
-one.” Or she would quote the domestic routine of her father’s house, in
-the prosperous time when they lived in a detached house with a carriage
-drive and stabling. She was more than a bit of snob, but Jethro knew
-nothing of snobbery. He approved of all she did.
-</p>
-<p>
-She gabbled on hygiene. She took tickets for a course of lectures on
-domestic economy, driving into Liddleshorn every alternate Friday. When
-she returned, she was more ardent than ever for reform. She penetrated
-to the scullery, and examined the dishcloth&mdash;with a scared murmur of
-microbes, because it had not been scalded in soda water and hung up in
-the air to dry. She insisted on making the tea herself in a patent pot.
-Once she said lightly that Gainah was trying to poison them all because
-she told the cook to boil halfpence with the cabbage to make it green.
-The flash in Gainah’s eye had been sinister, but Pamela did not see it.
-She laughed Jethro out of his favorite supper&mdash;a loaf hot from the oven
-and soaked in cider. She tried very hard to abolish supper as a
-meal&mdash;wishing to call the eight-o’clock meal dinner. But here she was
-stopped by the opposition of every member of the family; even Aunt
-Sophy entered a diplomatic protest.
-</p>
-<p>
-She begged Jethro to make Chalcraft wring the necks of the poultry. She
-couldn’t bear the slow<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-76">[76]</a></span> sounds of death. It was barbarous&mdash;the slight,
-skillful slit of the knife, the long bleeding, the fluttering
-“glug-glug” in the throat, growing fainter and fainter. Gainah had
-always insisted on that method; she said it made the flesh white.
-Gainah shut the doomed birds for twenty-four hours before death in a
-coop, and made them fast, so that they might be more easily got ready
-for table: Pamela went surreptitiously to the corn sack, and gave them
-an extra feed before the ordeal. Gainah, in hot weather, hung meat down
-the well to keep it fresh; she buried sour milk in the earth, tied up
-in a muslin bag, and dug it up cream cheese. She had a theory about leg
-of mutton: it should be buried in the earth for three days to make it
-tender; the same might be done with an old hen. She did not approve of
-eggs in a milk pudding, and never used butter in white sauce if the
-milk was new and not skimmed. To waste nothing, to be lavish with
-nothing&mdash;that had been her religion. The hygiene lecturer&mdash;through
-Pamela, who conscientiously took notes&mdash;told her that some of her
-antique tricks were not only dirty, but dangerous.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela taught the cook to make bread without touching it with the hand.
-She told Boyce how to milk the cows, washing his hands in an antiseptic
-first. She had chemical tests for the milk, and made a rigorous
-inspection of the dairy each morning. Gainah was calmly put aside as a
-domestic fossil. She was openly flouted. She was told to sit by the
-fire, to do nothing. Even needlework<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-77">[77]</a></span> was not necessary&mdash;things could
-be bought so cheaply ready-made, ready-marked even.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was pushed aside. She must do nothing. Yet for over thirty years
-she had done everything. Her life had been one long fury of immaculate
-housekeeping according to her lights. She had thrown all the fierce
-energy of a naturally passionate woman into her dairy and her
-store-room. Love had just brushed her, then slipped away; maternity had
-never been hers. Religion she regarded as a respectable duty, varied by
-the clergyman coming to tea, which was a nervous trial, and meant
-getting out the best china. She couldn’t write poems, or lecture, or be
-an athlete; every outlet of the emotional woman was denied her by
-circumstance or temperament. She had flung herself upon the altar of
-good management, and now she was told that good management was not an
-art&mdash;it was the merest detail in the day’s work of a truly capable
-woman.
-</p>
-<p>
-She said nothing. But there was a constant throbbing and seething in
-her aching head, above the turgid eyes. If Pamela could have foreseen,
-could have guessed, she might have been more temperate, more gradual.
-But she was sublimely unconscious.
-</p>
-<p>
-On those autumn nights the heavy rain drove down from the hills and
-swept the sad common and beat against the thick walls of the farm. The
-wind skirled across space, and the cider-press creaked and moaned.
-Gainah let the press out to the villagers if they cared to make cider.
-They paid her so much<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-78">[78]</a></span> an hour for the use of it. This was one of her
-economies.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro would sit and sprawl and blink at the fire like a well-fed,
-thoroughly satisfied, and sleepy dog after a day in the covers. Now and
-again in the course of the evening he would get up, stretch his arms,
-shake himself, fling back the doors, and look deep into the black
-night. He was such a hearty, open-air being that he seemed to pant at
-intervals for draughts of that strong wind down his throat, for an
-angry splutter of the shot-like rain in his eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-When the wind blew in, Gainah, her back creaking and cold with
-rheumatism at the merest draught, would say with acerbity:
-</p>
-<p>
-“You come from Hartin’, where they have no doors.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The rustic sarcasm was quite lost on Pamela. She regarded the old woman
-as antiquated, dirty, and even slightly half-witted. All her attention
-centered on Jethro.
-</p>
-<p>
-When he walked across the room she watched him slyly. She admired him
-very much. He was so big and strong; so independent. The men of her
-acquaintance had always been under orders&mdash;Government clerks, and so
-on. Here was a man, savage in his strength, who had never been in
-bondage except to the great Earth. She admired him, but she didn’t love
-him yet.
-</p>
-<p>
-Love! She would never love him; never. She didn’t want to. She prayed
-that the acrid taste of Love might never sear her lips again. And
-then<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-79">[79]</a></span> she thought of the prison. And the cruel wall rose up before her
-blinding eyes, and her quick fingers dropped the pencil and caught
-nervously at her side.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro would come back to the fire and sink luxuriously into the big
-horsehair-covered chair with the protecting ears. He would put out his
-foot in the thick boot and touch the glowing logs. His gun was in the
-corner just as he had left it when he came in tired and muddy from
-pheasant shooting. Pamela was afraid of the gun, but it pleased her. It
-was part of Jethro’s strength and masculinity. So were his careless
-clothes, and so was his blunt Shaksperean tongue. She liked a man to be
-frank, a little coarse even, when the man was Jethro. She once thought
-fancifully that she wouldn’t mind being beaten by a man like that.
-</p>
-<p>
-She already began to regard him as her own possession. She felt a
-personal pride in him; the very hang of his homespun tweeds on his
-tough, spare body seemed eloquent of sturdy independence.
-</p>
-<p>
-The yellow firelight glided across the brass rosette-like heads of the
-fire-dogs. They seemed to wink knowingly at every flicker. Now and
-again the two hounds in the barn snarled as an infrequent foot came
-slouching along the wet road, for it was always raining and blowing.
-Rain, mist, and wind! These were the elements which watched over the
-slow, reluctant growth of Pamela’s love for big Jethro.
-</p>
-<p>
-Sometimes he read a paragraph from the paper to Gainah&mdash;about local
-doings or people. Sometimes he would ask her advice&mdash;about a sale of
-underwood<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-80">[80]</a></span> or the fate of a cow. Sometimes he and Pamela would be left
-alone for a moment, and then they were both shy. Neither of them forgot
-that this was a time of probation. Who knew? When the rain and wind and
-mist of next autumn came they might be man and wife.
-</p>
-<p>
-Autumn grew to winter. She was happy&mdash;with a hushed dull happiness that
-she wished would last forever. No anxieties, no fierce, tearing burst
-of emotion, gay or sad. She was happy; satisfied with the mild
-amusements of the simple family connections. They no longer irritated
-her&mdash;these placid, narrow women&mdash;slow and heavy, but very useful and
-harmless. She laughed at Mrs. Clutton’s extravagances, but did not
-indorse them. She had become very intimate with the dark, sarcastic
-woman whose husband was abroad.
-</p>
-<p>
-She had her little excitements&mdash;skating parties, small dances,
-occasionally the visit of a dramatic company to Liddleshorn. In this
-way winter went. The last snow melted into a puddle; the first flowers
-of March came. She was delighted with the dazzling white of the arabis.
-Gainah called it snow-on-the-mountains; but Annie Jayne, who brought
-her baby round in the mail-cart on sunny mornings, said that “dear
-mother” had always called it March-pride.
-</p>
-<p>
-She ran out frequently to look at the thin green spears which begun to
-bristle in the borders: these were her bulbs. She spent long hours in
-her new greenhouse, giving Daborn orders. He was retained exclusively
-for the garden now, at her wish.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-81">[81]</a></span> There wasn’t a weed to be seen, and
-every bed was raked and cleaned.
-</p>
-<p>
-As the sun strengthened in the sky Gainah grew more silent than ever.
-Spring was here, summer on the way, and she had nothing to do. Pamela
-had taken the keys. The maids went to her for orders. She paid them
-their wages and gave them each an evening out during the week&mdash;an
-indulgence which until her coming had never been dreamt of.
-</p>
-<p>
-Nothing to do! Not wanted! In her idle hours Gainah wandered over the
-rambling house alone, going from room to room, touching things without
-meaning, taking up and putting down; mumbling vaguely to herself. One
-morning she put on her shabby cloth cap&mdash;an old one of Jethro’s&mdash;and
-went into the garden. It was raining&mdash;a soft, warm rain, with the sun
-behind it.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Good growing weather,” she said to herself with satisfaction&mdash;and
-then remembered that the garden had been taken from her.
-</p>
-<p>
-Winter storms had made the borders draggled in spite of Daborn’s labor
-and Pamela’s enthusiasm. Gainah felt, in a fumbling, wordless way, that
-this garden was like the devastation of her own life. She carried a
-little fork; force of habit had made her get it from the tool-shed. Now
-and then, again from habit, she bent her stiff back to dig out a weed;
-but there were no weeds.
-</p>
-<p>
-The stalks of the Michaelmas daisies had been left&mdash;by Pamela’s orders,
-so that the frost might not get down to the roots. Gainah viewed the
-stiff clumps of brown wood with injury; <i>her</i> rule had<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-82">[82]</a></span> been to cut down
-everything in November. She remembered that she had promised a bit of
-white daisy to Chalcraft’s “missus” in exchange for a deep purple one
-with a golden eye&mdash;her generosity took the form of barter.
-</p>
-<p>
-She went round and round in the spraying rain. There was no wind,
-simply a feeling of soft, patient dampness and melancholy in the
-garden. Over the wall was the sodden, empty road, and on the horizon
-the streaming, formless hills.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her eyes spied out a few self-sown hardy plants in the neatly-raked
-beds. She dropped little fragments of criticism as she went.
-</p>
-<p>
-“The slugs have been at the ‘reckless’ plants,” she murmured
-regretfully, stooping to look more closely at a clump of sickly
-auricula, which seemed mostly thick stalk.
-</p>
-<p>
-“There’s a Glory in bud already. I remember old Jethro budding the
-brier. He was a good hand at budding, and it was a wet season, with the
-sap running well, that year. Ah! the Glory Die! John makes a fine head
-on a standard.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She touched the yellow bud&mdash;a little pinched and small&mdash;with tender
-fingers. A faint touch of red rushed into her white face.
-</p>
-<p>
-“That green Yule when she was taken,”&mdash;she was thinking of Jethro’s
-mother&mdash;“I picked a Glory full out on Christmas morning, and kept it in
-water for more ’n a week. The hard frost came soon after&mdash;the hardest
-for forty years. The old sow was frozen stiff in the sty, and Joan
-Wadey’s boy was out digging swedes for old Farmer Scotter, and<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-83">[83]</a></span> he set
-down and his breeches turned into ice and burned into his flesh. I mind
-that&mdash;and the Glory blooming on the shelf.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Perhaps it was the memory of the frost and the sow who fell a victim to
-it; at all events, she went round to the piggeries, taking a stick from
-the bristling fagot stack on the way. It had always been one of her
-recreations to stand over the sty and scratch the great rough backs of
-the animals. She did it now, rubbing the stick insinuatingly up and
-down, across and across, and almost fancying that the thick grunts held
-meaning, and that there were appreciation, friendliness, and compassion
-in the small, slitlike eyes that looked up at her.
-</p>
-<p>
-Then, restless and idle, she went round again to the garden and stood
-staring stupidly at the red, newly graveled paths and the glass of the
-new greenhouse. She could see Daborn inside pricking out seedlings into
-boxes.
-</p>
-<p>
-There was a weedy patch&mdash;the one weedy patch&mdash;in a corner of the
-garden. She fetched the spud and began to dig for dandelion-roots. She
-had almost forgotten that she made dandelion-tea every spring and
-insisted on Jethro taking a cup in the morning to clear his liver. She
-took them up, transferring them from her knotted, earth-caked hand to
-her apron. She meant to take them back to the house, wash them, cut
-them up, and infuse them in water for a certain number of hours. But
-halfway along the path she stopped blankly, a sudden thought dismaying
-her. Pamela would not let her make the tea. Scalding childish tears
-rose in<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-84">[84]</a></span> her eyes. She felt sure she would not be allowed to make the
-dandelion-tea. She went stumblingly back to the weed-grown patch and
-let the roots drop in a little hill from her apron to the ground. Then
-she looked up, and saw old Chalcraft, who was beginning to trench up
-the farther end. He was leaning idly on his spade, watching her with
-affectionate solicitude. There was a little suspicion mixed with his
-compassion; your true rustic is always distrustful of what he doesn’t
-understand. She, standing there idle, vacant, with a still tongue, was
-a mystery. He didn’t know what blighting thing had touched and turned
-her.
-</p>
-<p>
-She stood there stupidly, dead to the familiar sounds on the farm&mdash;the
-excited cluck of laying hens, two cocks crowing in rivalry, the weak
-bleat of very early lambs in the fold, and the yapping of puppies in
-the barn. She didn’t hear the steady break of stones in the road, nor
-the song of a lark as it rose from the neighboring field.
-</p>
-<p>
-The weedy patch had last year been sown with beet. Sparrows had eaten
-it&mdash;beet on that soil being, with carrots and spinach, a chance crop.
-Chalcraft was digging the weeds in and preparing to make a second
-sowing of broad beans. Pamela had not yet brought her reforming
-intellect to bear on the kitchen-garden; she thought vegetables very
-uninteresting.
-</p>
-<p>
-The spade was deep in the stiff soil. The piece that Chalcraft had
-already turned up was wet and yellow in contrast to the hard gray of
-the untouched piece. Gainah watched him closely, as if he had<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-85">[85]</a></span> been a
-stranger and digging was to her a new and intricate performance. She
-saw his bald head: there was a red, shining wen on one side. There were
-two careful patches, side by side and of a different color and stuff,
-on the back of his waistcoat.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’ve got another patch on the back of your waistcoat, Master
-Chalcraft,” she said childishly.
-</p>
-<p>
-He spat thoughtfully, first on the palms of his hands and then into the
-trench where the weeds were buried. He looked at her&mdash;looked with the
-slow wonder of the aged, to whom nothing matters very much. Then he
-said, with a chuckle:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Aye! so there be! Patch side by side look neighborly, but patch upon
-patch be beggarly, Mis’ Toat.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She didn’t answer. She still stood in that wavering, uncertain way on
-the other side of the trench.
-</p>
-<p>
-“The worms in this ’ere patch is past believin’,” he said, with an
-infantile slobber and chuckle, at last, stolidly chopping through the
-writhing bunches.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It must be nearly dinner-time, Master Chalcraft,” said Gainah
-mechanically, with a steady glare across the trench with her pale eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Aye, that it be,” he returned rather nervously; “I’ve had mine.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She turned and went back to the path. He stood and watched her. He was
-conscious, in his slow-witted way, that some queer change had come to
-her. The sun broke through the rain-cloud and touched the silver tip of
-his spade and the hard red<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-86">[86]</a></span> lump on his head. He bent his back again and
-turned up slab after slab of sticky ground.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah went round to the front of the house. She had a bed of lilies of
-the valley beneath the umbrella yew. She stooped down behind the wall
-of somber green and saw the tender leaves uncurling. One root already
-had a cluster of snowy buds. Then, as she stooped, she heard a
-voice&mdash;the high, imperious voice of Pamela. Looking through the yew,
-she saw her standing by the wall with Jethro. She was talking very
-fast, moving impetuously now and then, throwing out her firm white
-hands, and pointing eagerly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It would be the simplest thing in the world. Oh, you must do
-it&mdash;<i>please.</i> Then the house would look like Turle. You take away the
-gate and build the wall along&mdash;so. Then you take up those horrid
-cabbages.” She threw a look of intolerance at the leggy stalks of
-Brussels sprouts which were thickly covered with widely opened
-miniature cabbages.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Chalcraft likes this patch. It is the richest in the garden, so he
-says. In June the old man will dibble in his cauliflowers; they want a
-rich soil.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“They’ll grow anywhere; ground is ground,” she cried, with Cockney
-superiority. “You are too indulgent to Chalcraft; he and Gainah are
-past work. They should be pensioned off. She might be allowed to come
-to dinner on Sundays.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She has been a mother to me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah, behind the yew, her head furtively poked forward, saw the girl
-look at him&mdash;a look that said plainly enough:
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-87">[87]</a></span>
-“And shall not I be your wife? Doesn’t a man leave all and cleave to
-his wife?”
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-The elder woman’s hands, rubbed over with wet mold which was drying and
-caking, crossed convulsively on her chest. This was not new to
-her&mdash;this comedy of love. She had played it, too, with something less
-of fancy. She knew what was coming. She waited, sick at heart, for the
-first kiss. She nearly fell upon the half-opened leaves of the young
-lilies when Jethro dropped his massive head and pointed his lips to
-Pamela’s. Her fingers lost their last hold of the domestic scepter when
-she heard the quick, liquid chirrup of his kiss on the firm scarlet
-flesh.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_107">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-88">[88]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_107_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_107_toc">CHAPTER VII.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-P<small>AMELA</small> ran up to her room with the long, low lattice window and the
-somber furniture. She threw herself full length on the old sofa which
-she had rescued from one of the attics and covered in the most approved
-be-frilled style with cretonne. Her head was back on the cushions, her
-sparkling eyes were on a level with the garden. She looked at the
-Brussels sprouts with satisfaction, imagining shaven emerald turf and
-lozenge-shaped beds of standard roses and geraniums in their place.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was going to marry Jethro. Their eyes and lips had met&mdash;the thing
-was settled. Men did not propose in set words and the conventional
-attitude nowadays. She would marry Jethro. Her future life stretched
-out before her&mdash;smooth, level, pleasant&mdash;like the big tennis lawn at
-Turle. She thought of all the country houses round where she was sure
-of a hearty welcome because she was a cousin. They were comfortable,
-easy people, these Turles and Crisps and Jaynes and Furlongers. She had
-grown really fond of Nancy, with her simper, her pretty pink face, and
-her glorious red hair. Annie Jayne, in her spick and span nursery with
-her beaming face bent over her baby boy and her lips flowing forth
-pious reminiscences of her mother, had her own particular charm. To be
-simple, to be<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-89">[89]</a></span> sterling, that was all one wanted; everything else was
-garish, meretricious. Hearts were better than the flimsy things called
-brains.
-</p>
-<p>
-She saw her life roll away year after year, so placid, so uneventful,
-so comfortable and prosperous. She loved money for her pleasure, not
-her pocket. She always felt her greatest admiration for Jethro when he
-hauled out a canvas bag of sovereigns.
-</p>
-<p>
-She began to form social plans. She would be exclusive, yet catholic,
-like Aunt Sophy. Jethro must let her have another servant&mdash;that would
-be three. The wagonette must be done up, and she’d try for a Battlesden
-car like Furlonger’s. She’d aim at culture, too&mdash;a Browning class, in
-opposition to Mrs. McAlpine’s Shakspere. There wouldn’t be so many
-expurgations necessary. The members of the Shakspere class had neatly
-written slips sent them with a list of passages to be slurred. She
-would like to take a rise out of Mrs. McAlpine, who lived in a cottage,
-but gave herself tremendous airs because she was a J.&nbsp;P.’s daughter,
-and had instituted afternoon tea with cucumber or cress sandwiches.
-</p>
-<p>
-In the afternoon she slipped on her things and went to the Buttery, the
-ancient cottage where the absentee journalist’s wife lived with a small
-maid. Mrs. Clutton had become her most confidential friend. She didn’t
-mean to mention her engagement, but she was twitching with excitement,
-dragged here and there with emotions of very different sorts.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-90">[90]</a></span>
-She went across the common in the March sun and wind. Her heart and
-feet danced, but her face was like the changing sky. Forget! She must
-forget. She was to marry Jethro. It was so easy to say forget, so
-difficult to do it. Once she stopped, her eyes strained in the
-direction of London&mdash;far away over moor and hill and sleek pasture. She
-groaned aloud. She knew that she would give it all&mdash;greenhouse,
-Battlesden, big, fond man with the bulging bag of sovereigns&mdash;for one
-touch on the mouth from one other man. <i>He</i> was still in prison, still
-only a number behind the high wall. When he came out? Emigration or the
-army. But that was not her affair.
-</p>
-<p>
-When she reached the Buttery she went through the high green trellis
-door into the garden, sure of finding her hostess there on such a day,
-at such a season. It was a fair-sized garden in apple-pie order. The
-long borders were gay. At one end were substantial pig-sties. In them
-Mrs. Clutton kept fowls. She was leaning over the wall, her elbows
-spread out on the wire netting which was nailed across to keep the
-birds from flying over.
-</p>
-<p>
-She came running excitedly along the neat asphalt path. In one hand she
-held an egg. It was evidently only just laid. It hardened as the air
-touched it.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Look!” she said with a laugh, “I’m going to give this to the cock.
-What would your thrifty Gainah say? They are all going&mdash;my pet
-hens&mdash;Flirt and Prim and Sheila. My cock, too&mdash;Tatters.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-91">[91]</a></span> Isn’t he a
-fine fellow? But morals! None. They are neurotic. Old Chalcraft says
-they eat their eggs because the floor of the run is brick and they
-can’t scratch. I hate a person who snouts round for a practical
-solution. It’s just environment&mdash;because I am their mistress. Tatters
-has been more trouble to me than able-bodied twins. I fed him from the
-very shell with hard-boiled egg and bread-crumb, thereby sowing the
-seed of future vice, no doubt. I’ve scrubbed his legs with carbolic and
-anointed him with vaseline for scaly-leg. I read about it in a paper. I
-came and stood out here, paper in hand, comparing his leg with the
-symptoms. And then, after all, I found that humpy-bumpy legs were
-natural to that particular breed. I was overjoyed at his first
-baby-crow&mdash;such a throaty, silly sound.
-</p>
-<p>
-“To be practical&mdash;the eggs went. Every time Flirt or Prim or Sheila
-cackled I rushed out, only to find them stalking gravely up and down
-with an unconscious expression faintly tinged with injury. And then one
-day I saw that villain Tatters gulping down the last bit of shell. I’ve
-sold them at a sacrifice, on condition that they are sent to market and
-not allowed to demoralize another run. Hone will be here directly; he’s
-taking them to Liddleshorn. But&mdash;Tatters&mdash;here!”
-</p>
-<p>
-She threw the egg, flinging back her head at the same moment. The cock
-rushed at it. In an instant it was gone, yellow yolk, brown shell,
-stringy white. Mrs. Clutton shrugged and pushed the picturesque black
-hair from her brow. Pamela said, with a laugh:
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-92">[92]</a></span>
-“Well, you <i>are</i> mad. No one else would have done that.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Of course not. I get more and more ridiculous. But what can one do? I
-pay afternoon calls and say mad things. You must shock the people down
-here&mdash;it’s your only chance. I’m bound to talk extravagantly. You can’t
-discuss gravely for a whole afternoon whether servants should be
-allowed to wear veils on their afternoons out, or whether it is really
-economical to wash at home. I wonder what Tim’s first impression of me
-will be when he comes home!”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You expect him soon?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Who knows!” She shrugged and led the way into the house. “He’s
-irresponsible. I got these at a sale&mdash;and these&mdash;and these.” She
-pointed out various ornaments on the shelf of her sitting-room. “And
-Tryphena says that old Mrs. Hillyar is dead. So I shall be able to get
-her tallboys chest of drawers for the merest trifle: collectors have no
-conscience.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Does Mr. Clutton care for old things?” Pamela looked round
-intolerantly at the mixed collection of antique furniture and
-bric-a-brac which crowded the room.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Of course. He is most artistic: master of every art&mdash;except that of
-earning a decent living. As for hobbies! He has exhausted them. I
-suggested that paying his debts would be a novel one&mdash;a complete
-collection of receipted bills! But the idea didn’t appeal to him. He
-was never afflicted with the form of indigestion called conscience.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He’s a journalist?”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-93">[93]</a></span>
-“Yes; most brilliant. He assimilates everything&mdash;but his food. A
-confirmed dyspeptic; he would have three serious internal diseases in
-one week.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Tryphena Hone, the little maidservant, brought in tea. The two young
-women sat and chatted until the room grew dark. When the lamp came in,
-it burned steadily. Pamela said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Our lamps never burn like that. Yet I see to them myself. Aunt Sophy
-taught me her own particular way of trimming a lamp.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“My lamp burns well because I never see to it myself. The whole duty of
-the foolish young housekeeper is ‘doing the lamps.’
-</p>
-<p>
-“I was telling you about Tim.” She seemed in a confidential mood. “He
-was brought up to the profession of great expectations. One’s greatest
-curse is a modest competence. We had it&mdash;until Tim’s father died,
-without even leaving him the shilling with which he cut him off. We
-hadn’t a halfpenny. Tim, with his unfailing originality, suggested
-earning a living, but his profession had spoiled him. He was like the
-Irishman who was willing to do anything but work or run errands. I took
-in boarders, but it didn’t pay; I never happened on a <i>paying</i> paying
-guest. He tried journalism; every failure tries that. At last a man on
-a rather prominent paper&mdash;worn out with importunities, no
-doubt&mdash;shipped him to South America and told him to study
-out-of-the-way sides of things. He paid him for it, too. His articles
-have been a great success. It really seems as if our luck has turned.
-Journalists are short-sighted; the man need not have<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-94">[94]</a></span> sent him abroad
-in search of novelty. I could tell strange tales. Every cottage here
-has its skeleton, and I wheedle round the old people until they show
-me the bones. I am making a note-book for Tim&mdash;he can write a series
-of articles on Sussex skeletons when he comes home.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked round at her bits of china and brass; at the shabby
-furniture which she had picked up at sales and in odd corners.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Every little thing,” she said, “has its history. Such tender
-tales&mdash;such fierce, curdling, terrible tales&mdash;I hear from plodding men
-and heavy women in these little Sussex cottages! And it is all the more
-impressive because they are so phlegmatic. They tell you of a ruined
-life much more calmly than they would tell you of a bad batch of bread
-or a chicken stolen by the fox.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela was hardly listening. Her feet were on the gleaming rail of the
-pierced brass fender; her eyes thoughtful on the winking coals.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Do you consider one runs a risk in marrying?” she asked tentatively at
-last.
-</p>
-<p>
-“No risk&mdash;if you marry for the right motive. I haven’t found out what
-that is: not money; not duty&mdash;only prigs do their duty; not impulse;
-certainly not love.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Can one marry for peace?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Maybe. Peace is a great thing; I’ve found that since dear Tim went
-away and took his imaginary incurable troubles with him. I would write
-over every baby girl’s cradle: ‘D<small>ON</small>’<small>T</small> M<small>ARRY</small> <small>A</small> D<small>YSPEPTIC</small>!’
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-95">[95]</a></span>
-“Must you really go? Here is Nancy’s latest photograph.” She took it
-from the table. “Of course you have one. Nancy is just the average
-woman&mdash;insatiable desire to have herself photographed in evening-dress.
-Nancy is stupid; she actually believed that a Papal Bull was a live
-animal. Just wit enough to dress her magnificent hair according to the
-latest fashion plate&mdash;that’s Nancy! She’s callous, too. The other day
-she ran down one of the Peter Buckman children when she was cycling.
-She only said calmly that it ‘was bad for the wheel.’ Fortunately the
-child wasn’t hurt.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela went home in bright moonlight; it was only a stone’s throw from
-the Buttery to Folly Corner.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-She thought calmly of her future as she walked: the moon, the sweet,
-crisp March night cooled and stilled her. She was not going to marry
-for love. To marry for love had once been the dear dream of her life.
-But that was over; the prison had engulfed her poor romance&mdash;it had
-been a mean one at the best. It was all over&mdash;the first wild, keen
-shame and rebellion, the steadfast belief in him, the passionate
-waiting for the future. It was all over&mdash;dead. She was going to marry
-Jethro; going to take refuge in his kindliness&mdash;as if he were a wayside
-barn on a wet day. She meant to be a good wife, a happy wife. Nothing
-was more contemptible than a tiresome, melancholy woman with a past.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_108">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-96">[96]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_108_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_108_toc">CHAPTER VIII.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-S<small>HE</small> was loitering in the drawing-room next morning when Jethro came in.
-There was a strong touch of out-door sweetness about him. He was not
-one of those men who smell of hot rooms and tobacco.
-</p>
-<p>
-He went up and kissed her, taking her fair round face reverently in his
-hands as a matter of course. She was thrilled, not with love, but with
-pleasure at the open adoration in his light blue eyes. His great hands
-placed gently under her chin, his fine head well set on his broad
-shoulders, and his big limbs in the breeches and gaiters, stirred in
-her the primitive passion of woman for brute strength in a man.
-</p>
-<p>
-He threw himself on the couch and blinked lazily at the gewgaws of the
-room, which his very presence always made so trivial. Then he lugged
-out his worn brown pocket-book and took from it a slip of paper roughly
-torn from a newspaper. Directly she saw it Pamela’s cheeks blazed, and
-the same agonized shame and degradation which she had felt on her first
-visit to that room she felt then.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Come here.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He spoke gently, yet with command; the voice of a man who after
-marriage will tell his wife to fetch<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-97">[97]</a></span> his slippers or his pipe, as if
-service were a matter of course.
-</p>
-<p>
-She stepped into the great embrasure of the bay window and sat down on
-the green-covered walnut-wood chair&mdash;just as she had sat down on the
-first day. Her eyes looked straight ahead, not at ripe grain, but at
-the burning purple of furrowed earth.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro touched her idle hand with the privileged tenderness of an
-accepted lover.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You are a slipped thing,” he said fondly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Slipped?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Slender, then. I always fancied a woman with a trim, hard waist like
-yours. But I came to talk business.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He held out the roughly torn bit of newspaper.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Tear it up,” she said thickly.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her head hung on her bosom and her eyes fell until the lashes rested on
-her flaming skin.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Not yet.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She put out her hand to snatch it from him, with the wicked, stealthy
-air of a cat after a bird. Until that shameful bit of paper was
-destroyed her womanhood was vulgarized.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Give it me,” she besought humbly.
-</p>
-<p>
-He laid it in her open hand and she tore it into minute bits, opened
-the casement, and cast it out. The wind caught it, carried it, and shed
-it like snowflakes over the ridged furrows.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We needn’t wait long for the wedding,” he said, as she latched the
-casement and came back to the green chair.
-</p>
-<p>
-It pleased him to watch her changing face, now<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-98">[98]</a></span> pink like Nancy’s,
-now white like the hidden skin on his own arms and chest.
-</p>
-<p>
-“When you like,” she returned docilely&mdash;thinking it would be better to
-settle soon.
-</p>
-<p>
-“And I’ve drawn you a check&mdash;a year’s salary and a year more instead of
-notice,” he continued, twisting up his face into cunning wrinkles with
-satisfaction at his own artifice. “Take Aunt Sophy with you into
-Liddleshorn and buy clothes.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She took the strip of paper, her eyes dilating at the magnificence of
-the amount.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You are a great deal too good to me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“When we are married,” he went on, pressing her hand jovially, “I’ll
-make any alterations about the place you like. But the carriage drive
-must wait till winter&mdash;hedging and ditching time; labor’s cheap then.
-How about inside?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I should like a bath-room.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You shall have it. And nurseries.” His voice was perfectly
-matter-of-fact. “The two sunny rooms up top will do. I’ll have bars to
-the windows; it’s as well to be ready.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Not too ready,” she said faintly, hardly knowing whether to retreat or
-to laugh.
-</p>
-<p>
-“A son,” Jethro said dreamily, “to come beating with me when shooting’s
-on. They soon grow up. He shall have a little horse and ride to hounds.
-We say in these parts about a woman’s children:
-</p>
-<div class="verse_container2">
-<div class="verse">
-<p class="i0">“If ye’ve got one, ye can run. If ye’ve got two, ye can goo.</p>
-
-<p class="i0a">But if ye’ve got three ye must bide where ye be.”</p>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>
-She got up nervously, not knowing whether he<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-99">[99]</a></span> would be betrayed into
-rustic sayings yet more suggestive.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’d like to go to Liddleshorn to-morrow,” she said, folding the check
-in her purse. “There will be time before dinner to run over to Turle
-and see if Aunt Sophy can come with me&mdash;if you wish it.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She’s a splendid manager.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Very well. I’ll take her and Nancy. What are you doing this morning?
-We might go to Turle together.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I must see Boyce”&mdash;(he was the cowman)&mdash;“about those newly dropped
-lambs. He thought maybe you’d like a sock.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“A what?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“A sock&mdash;pet lamb.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That would be nice&mdash;but, when it grew a sheep?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You could send it to the butcher.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Never. Tell Boyce, with thanks for his remembrance, I’d rather not.
-Well, good-by until dinner.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She ran upstairs, humming complacently, and in a leisurely way put on
-her short skirt and narrow-brimmed hat. Through her window she saw
-Jethro cross the garden and stroll into the yard, his broad shoulders
-proudly back and his hands deep in his breeches pockets. Her heart
-swelled with satisfaction&mdash;in him and in the broad acres, plowed or
-pasture, and in the beautifully built golden ricks which hedged the
-house. Everything was hers.
-</p>
-<p>
-She went downstairs. Gainah, for the first time<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-100">[100]</a></span> for ten years, had
-gone out for the day to see an old friend some miles up the line.
-Pamela thought that the house seemed more like home, more her own,
-without the elder woman, and she began to speculate on the time when
-Folly Corner would no longer roof them both.
-</p>
-<p>
-She stood in the passage by the window. Gainah’s geraniums, preserved
-from frost in the kitchen all through the winter, were blooming. The
-future mistress decided that she would banish them. She had not reached
-the altitude of admiring an earthenware pot. Then she glanced at the
-wall, at the rude prints in narrow black frames. Mrs. Clutton had been
-enthusiastic about them, saying they were “Bunbury’s”&mdash;which meant
-nothing to Pamela. She couldn’t endure those fat women in low dresses,
-and those men with wigs and lewd expressions.
-</p>
-<p>
-She sat down in the armchair by the oak table, idly putting
-on her gloves. There was a hand-bell on the table&mdash;one of her
-institutions&mdash;together with a smart tray for letters. The blue Oriental
-bowl, instead of being littered with string and screwed envelopes, was
-reserved for cards, and in place of the farming papers was the current
-copy from the library of the most cultured magazine then running its
-brief life. She thought that the extraordinary cover struck a
-distinctive note directly one entered the house.
-</p>
-<p>
-The kitchen door was at the other end of the passage, immediately
-opposite the drawing-room. It was ajar. She was just stretching her
-gloved hand to the bell, to tell them that Daborn might bring<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-101">[101]</a></span> round
-her bicycle, when a man’s voice struck on her heart.
-</p>
-<p>
-At first she half struggled to her feet, and they failed her. Then she
-fell back in the chair helplessly, like a woman with an overstrained
-spine. That voice! <i>His</i> voice! No. It couldn’t be. There was very
-little in a voice; each individual had not the monopoly of one. Now, a
-face would be different. How absurd she was! The dates did not agree.
-She had a head for dates, and that one&mdash;the date of his release&mdash;had
-eaten into her brain like an acid into metal. It was too soon.
-</p>
-<p>
-The air through the open window&mdash;she had opened it herself only a
-minute ago, before the world changed&mdash;was warm. The full red heads of
-the geraniums nodded heavily with occasional puffs of vigorous March
-wind. It was a warm, noisy world. The beseeching, persistent bleat of
-the little new lambs rung like a mournful bell with every second, and
-through it filtered the confused song of every madly happy bird that
-had mated and built a nest.
-</p>
-<p>
-She put out her hand again for the bell, calling herself a fanciful,
-nervous fool. As she gripped the handle she heard the voice
-again&mdash;persuasive, winning. Hadn’t she often heard it like that? It
-said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“You can have one by very easy payments.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The bell fell on the table, rolled off, and clanged its noisy tongue as
-it touched the oak floor. The pretty, ruddy housemaid came in, looked
-flurried. She left the kitchen door wide behind her, and<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-102">[102]</a></span> Pamela saw
-the well-scrubbed table, the gleaming brass preserving-pan on top of an
-oak corner cupboard in which candles, soaps, and so on were stored. She
-could, with the tail of her eye, see the back door leading to the
-flagged yard, and she seemed to feel that he was standing there.
-Certainly someone was there, because the sheep dog, who was so savage
-on the chain, barked angrily.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I want my bicycle,” she said as calmly as she could, “and, Nettie, who
-is that at the back door?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“A piker&mdash;I beg pardon, miss&mdash;a tramp. Yet not just a piker; he never
-begged. But he wants me and Cook to buy a sewing-machine, paying it off
-by little bits each month.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I shouldn’t like the noise of a sewing-machine in the kitchen.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Then I’ll tell him to go away.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Nettie.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes, miss.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I was just going to say that&mdash;I forget. I remember&mdash;you need not speak
-to Daborn about the bicycle for a few moments. I’ll go into the garden
-and find him myself.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Very well, miss.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The buxom figure of the country girl in her deep pink gown went round
-the half-opened door. Pamela sat, her head against the wall, a sound
-like the thudding, throbbing noise of an engine-room in her head and at
-her waist. Suddenly she stretched out her hand and rang the bell again.
-The housemaid came round the door for the second time, looking a little
-surprised.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-103">[103]</a></span>
-“Has he gone?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“No, miss. Cook’s going to have a machine&mdash;not to work here, miss.
-She’s to be married next club day.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I should like to see him. Perhaps the machines are good and cheap.
-Tell him to step through.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The pink figure disappeared again and she waited&mdash;sick, expectant,
-dreading; disgusted with herself for the half delight which she felt, a
-delight which nearly swamped the fear.
-</p>
-<p>
-He came through the door and they shut it after him. There was no
-mistake. Her ears had not played her false. Directly he saw her sitting
-there, beneath the row of black-framed prints, beside the shining brown
-table which held the great bowl of blue, he gave a start, a whistle of
-astonishment, and said under his breath:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Pam!”
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked at him for an instant&mdash;cropped hair, shoddy clothes, blunted
-nails, the evasive stamp of something new and perplexing on his
-handsome face:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Edred!”
-</p>
-<p>
-She was looking apprehensively down the long garden path which ran
-between the box edgings. Jethro might come in. Then she again turned
-her eyes with an effort toward the tall figure in the deplorable suit
-of ginger-colored tweed. In spite of herself, an expression of ecstasy
-broke across the cloud above her eyes. She half rose, put out her hand,
-peaked her head toward him. He gave a<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-104">[104]</a></span> quick glance round; listened.
-Everything was still, but for the lambs and birds and insects; no sound
-of human life, no clink or clatter from the kitchen. He stepped up
-lithely to the chair, lifted her in his long arms, and kissed her&mdash;a
-long kiss which told volumes&mdash;full on the mouth. With that kiss,
-fully returned, each told the history of the weary months the prison
-had stolen.
-</p>
-<p>
-She let herself lie for a moment in his arms, caring for nothing in the
-world but that first re-union which she had so often imagined, so often
-longed for. Then she roused herself.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Why did you come?” she said reproachfully. “Oh, my darling, why did
-you come and spoil everything?”
-</p>
-<p>
-He shrugged.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We don’t know that anything is spoilt yet. I wouldn’t stand in your
-light for worlds. Tell me how you came here. Give me my cue.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Come into the other room. We shall be quieter there.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He followed her through the low door into the room which the yew
-shadowed. They were no longer in the sun; something damp, melancholy,
-and threatening struck at them both.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Sit down,” she said, pointing nervously to a chair, taking one
-herself, and throwing a quick glance at the brass face of the tall
-clock. “I&mdash;I didn’t know you were out. I thought that it would be
-another six months&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-He stuck out his long legs and sunk his hands in his pockets. He was
-tall and slim and elegant. At<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-105">[105]</a></span> each gesture she was more than ever
-his slave&mdash;it brought back remembrance. Her eyes hardly left his
-face&mdash;dark, sallow, cruel. A sardonic-looking man, with silky black
-hair half veiling his scoffing mouth, and sleepy eyes which seemed
-always to be mocking.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Haven’t you ever heard,” he asked airily, “of a ticket-of-leave?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She shivered as she answered, well down in her dry throat, “I think
-so.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Tell me how you came here, and what part I’m expected to play. I’m
-down on my luck at present, and you may be able to help me. Look at
-these clothes.” He touched the sacklike cloth. “Nothing but paper. The
-first shower would reduce me to pulp.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I came here,” she said, “in answer to an advertisement. A man&mdash;the man
-who owns this house&mdash;wanted a wife.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Whew! Such is the faithfulness of woman! But it was clever of
-you&mdash;confoundedly clever.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Don’t! It nearly killed me. He is so kind, so fond of me. He believes
-I am his cousin&mdash;his mother was a Crisp. There are other confirming
-details. Very likely I <i>am</i> his cousin&mdash;that doesn’t matter. They have
-all been kind&mdash;my new relations. They think that he advertised for
-information about his mother’s brother&mdash;who disappeared in early
-life&mdash;and that I, as a surviving child, answered. They never troubled
-for fuller proof; they take my word&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Very useful people!”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-106">[106]</a></span>
-“That flippant tongue of yours,” she flashed out, “brings back bitter
-memories.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Never mind memories&mdash;no time for them. Go on with your story. At
-present I’m uncomfortable; don’t know my ground. If he should come
-in&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Jethro!” She looked alarmed, and seemed to strain her ears for outside
-sounds.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Queer name. Jethro&mdash;what?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Jayne.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Jethro Jayne! He ought to be the villain in a melodrama&mdash;wicked squire
-or something of that sort. And are you going to marry him, Pam?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She caught her hands across her breast theatrically.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I&mdash;I don’t know. You have changed everything.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Not at all. I’ll free you. I’m not”&mdash;he gave his soft, callous
-laugh&mdash;“in a position to keep a wife, and he is. As Mrs. Jethro Jayne
-you might be very useful to me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“As Mrs. Jethro Jayne I dare not look at you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Pooh! You were always too intense. Marry him and help me. That would
-be the act of a sensible woman. You are quite free.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Absolutely free,” she assented dreamily, looking a little wildly at
-the handsome face.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was free; in no sense was she tied to him. She wasn’t in his power;
-he couldn’t rake up against her any discreditable past. This was not
-the stock position of the sensational drama&mdash;confiding husband,
-blackmailing lover, wife with unclean or imprudent past. She was free,
-free, free! Free to<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-107">[107]</a></span> order him away from the house and out of her
-life. If Jethro came in she could afford to tell the truth. There was
-nothing wrong in it.
-</p>
-<p>
-And yet, hating herself all the time, because she knew he wasn’t
-worthy, she adored this dark-haired cynical ex-criminal. His prison
-taint, marked elusively on his face, only made her yearn over him the
-more. Free! And yet chained like a slave. She cursed and despised
-herself for the contemptible, dog-like devotion which a true woman
-calls love. She couldn’t send him away. She couldn’t live without him.
-She wanted him to kiss her again, to call her Pam in that careless,
-caressing voice. Jethro was nothing&mdash;but a good-natured money-bag. This
-man had been the first to stir in her some wonderful, untamable
-passion. She was insisting to her heart that a woman must always love
-the <i>first</i>, return to him, cleave to him, however unworthy he may be.
-</p>
-<p>
-There were steady steps outside. Someone was coming round the house,
-brushing the wall across which the vine spread its stout arms. She knew
-the step. She knew the melodious whistle. It was Jethro. She pictured
-him coming in his leisurely way round to the garden door, little
-dreaming; his hands stuck in the pockets of his shooting breeches, his
-cap a little tilted over his eyes to keep the hard March sun out.
-</p>
-<p>
-She sprang to her feet. The man sprang up too. He had heard the steps
-before she heard them. His life had been one that lent itself to
-stealth and minute caution. He knew that the next moment would<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-108">[108]</a></span> decide
-her, and consequently would decide his fate. He had no claim on
-her&mdash;she might turn him adrift if she chose, as he had reminded her.
-And he much preferred to stay. Lucky accident had brought him here.
-Selling sewing-machines by easy payments at the back door was not a
-life to his taste.
-</p>
-<p>
-The steady, leisurely steps grew more distinct. The two&mdash;desperate girl
-and desperate man&mdash;were close, eye to eye. With a fleet movement he
-folded his arms about her and kissed her for the second time on the
-mouth. She whispered fiercely, as soon as she got her breath:
-</p>
-<p>
-“When I came&mdash;that first day&mdash;he asked me if I had brothers or sisters.
-I thought of you&mdash;you were never out of my head. Something,
-someone&mdash;God or the devil&mdash;made me say I had a brother, a sailor on a
-long voyage. You understand?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Perfectly.” He nodded his head approvingly. “Now sit down, darling,
-and leave off trembling.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The long, broad shadow of a man fell across the floor from the open
-door to the plinth of the tall clock. It stopped on the threshold.
-Pamela’s feet, which had turned numb and cold, were set fast. She tried
-to get up unconcernedly, but could only grip her hands round the curved
-arms of the rush-seated chair of golden beechwood. The last remnant of
-a struggle was fighting itself out within her. Should she stand up and
-say:
-</p>
-<p>
-“I knew this man once. He boarded at the house where I was an
-assistant. He made love to<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-109">[109]</a></span> me. I was flattered and I responded&mdash;but
-that was nothing. It was all over long ago. Send him away and let us be
-happy together as we have settled to be.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Should she say that? Should she tell the bald, mean, ugly truth?
-</p>
-<p>
-They were both looking at her&mdash;these two men who between them held the
-strings of her future. Jethro’s light eyes were a bit cold and hard. He
-was suspicious, like all simple men. She said, putting one hand stiffly
-toward the companion beechwood chair:
-</p>
-<p>
-“This is my brother&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-She broke off, a nervous dread sealing her lips. She had nearly said
-“my brother Edred,” and then she could not remember whether, at that
-first interview in the big bay window, she had given him a name.
-</p>
-<p>
-“My brother&mdash;the sailor,” she went on falteringly, her stiff hand still
-out, like the wooden arm of a signal, toward the chair in which he sat
-looking carelessly nonchalant. “He has come home from sea. His ship,”
-she seemed to see the suspicion deepen on Jethro’s open face as he
-glanced at the visitor’s rough hands and cheap suit, “was wrecked.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The <i>Matador</i>&mdash;wrecked off the coast of West Africa. I was second
-officer. A Dutch vessel ran into us. Made off without offering to help.
-That’s like those cowardly Dutchmen. I was hanging on to a mast for ten
-hours. Everything I had in the world gone, of course.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-110">[110]</a></span>
-The lies rolled glibly off his ready tongue. Pamela felt her cheeks
-flame as if hot irons had brushed them. She did not look up. Let these
-two settle her fate between themselves.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro took a wide stride into the room and put out his brown hand.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Glad to see you,” he said with simple heartiness. “Glad to see any of
-my mother’s people at Folly Corner.”
-</p>
-<p>
-After that they went on talking. She didn’t hear a word&mdash;only the
-amicable voices. That Edred was smoothly lying she felt sure; that
-Jethro was taking every word as solemnly as he took his Bible or the
-advice of his head man she felt equally sure. They were so simple, so
-true, these Sussex folk. They had taken her on trust. They would take
-him on trust too&mdash;this unscrupulous jail-bird, her lover, hero, the
-wrecker of her life.
-</p>
-<p>
-Why couldn’t she stand up and say:
-</p>
-<p>
-“We are both liars and impostors. He is no sailor; merely a shady city
-man who has just served his time for dishonesty”?
-</p>
-<p>
-He was talking cleverly of the sea, using nautical terms, fashioning
-his sentences tersely and rudely like a bluff sailor. What a clever,
-heartless villain he was&mdash;and how she loved him!
-</p>
-<p>
-Nettie came in to lay the cloth for dinner. Pamela got up and walked
-across the room mechanically, beckoning to the maid to follow.
-</p>
-<p>
-When they were outside in the sunny, narrow corridor she said&mdash;looking
-steadily into the girl’s unexpressive eyes:
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-111">[111]</a></span>
-“That gentleman is my brother&mdash;Mr. Edred Crisp.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The piker!&mdash;oh, miss, I ask your pardon.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He is a sailor,” Pamela went on steadily, “and he was wrecked. He went
-through dreadful hardships. Everything he had was lost at sea. He was
-obliged to sell machines for a living. It was quite by accident that he
-happened to come here and find me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It was Providence sent him, miss.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes, Providence&mdash;of course. And you will lay for one extra at dinner,
-and you will get the best room ready.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“To be sure I will, miss. Wrecked at sea! Whatever will Cook say when I
-tells her?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“And Nettie.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes, miss. How pale you look, miss! It’s shook you, and no wonder.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Here are the keys. Get out some little things for dessert. I’ve told
-you how to manage for dessert. And the best table linen&mdash;and everything
-of the best.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“To be sure, miss.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She went back to the parlor. It struck a gray note after the stream of
-hopeful sun in the corridor. The yew&mdash;impenetrable, glistening,
-green&mdash;blocked the latticed window; logs on the yawning brick hearth
-had broken in the middle amid a wreck of wood-ash. She dropped on her
-knees and began to ply the bellows. Presently the smoke and flames
-curled blue and yellow round the wood, and reflected on her face,
-remorselessly showing the careworn<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-112">[112]</a></span> line of her mouth and the hopeless
-droop of her lids. Edred had taken a piece of paper from his pocket
-and was drawing a pretended plan of something&mdash;it didn’t matter
-what&mdash;lies, of course&mdash;and he was talking glibly of the different parts
-of a ship and the habits of the natives off the coast of West Africa.
-Her hands moved softly on the bellows, and the gentle plaintive
-“shoo-shoo” as they puffed made a sad accompaniment to that
-high-pitched, eager voice and the occasional slow, mellow note of
-Jethro’s.
-</p>
-<p>
-He was talking in his innocence of his mother’s brother. He spoke of
-the other uncle&mdash;Thomas&mdash;who had also been a sailor. He said that a
-love of the sea was evidently in the Crisp blood. And then he added
-heartily that he hoped Edred would make a long stay; the place was
-large enough and there was always a home for kindred. Pamela said
-nothing. She looked round fitfully from time to time. She blew the
-bellows more vigorously, with a fancy that the ruddy light should fall
-on those two faces near the table&mdash;one big and ruddy and restful, the
-other dark, sallow, full of a guilty, eager brilliance.
-</p>
-<p>
-She could hardly breathe. Her heart was playing her such mad pranks. At
-one moment she could feel nothing but the most lawless, unrestrained
-delight at Edred’s return to her&mdash;in any circumstance. At the next she
-felt a profound pity for her own extraordinary position and the sudden
-sinister twirl of her fortunes. On Jethro she bestowed only one
-emotion, and that&mdash;mild contempt. The queer feminine twist&mdash;small
-regard for the man who<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-113">[113]</a></span> blindly loves and is gulled&mdash;was strong in
-her. She had illogically looked to him to get her out of her
-difficulty. He was, in his ignorance, making things harder; he was
-placidly wrecking his own life. He loved her. She would have made him a
-good wife; she had a very grateful regard for him. If only she had gone
-to Turle ten minutes before! If she had been quicker in changing her
-gown! If, if, if! The little word, which sometimes means so much more
-than the very biggest in the language, chimed in her racked head.
-</p>
-<p>
-How should she shape her course? Edred’s nautical sentences, coming to
-her now and then in a nonsensical jumble, disposed her to a sailor’s
-simile. With him under the same roof, with him in daily association,
-she could see only one thing possible&mdash;elopement with him when, if
-ever, he chose to suggest it. One kiss on the mouth from him would take
-her from Jethro, even at the moment when she stood with that confiding,
-admirable simpleton at the altar steps. One kiss, she shuddered, would
-win her from Jethro even if she were his wife of years’ standing.
-Contemptible, animal, womanly devotion!
-</p>
-<p>
-Nettie came in again and lingered curiously, staring at the visitor.
-She had taken off her pink cotton and put on her black stuff, with the
-white collar and cuffs. The lappets of her cap floated to her neat
-waist. Pamela, with disgust, saw Edred look at her approvingly. She had
-often seen him look like that at any pretty parlor-maid they happened
-to have at the boarding-house. It was a low<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-114">[114]</a></span> type of man who would
-smirk at a servant. He was really very vulgar; he hadn’t one good
-quality. And yet&mdash;she wished that big, stupid Jethro would leave them
-alone for a moment!
-</p>
-<p>
-She hung the bellows on the nail and scrambled to her feet.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’d like to come up to your room,” she said, her pleading gray eyes
-on the flushed dark face and her feet moving toward the door.
-</p>
-<p>
-He got up with alacrity. The ginger tweeds he wore were too short at
-the arms and legs, too wide across the back, but nothing could make him
-look anything but carelessly elegant. He had the lethargic air of the
-true Piccadilly product&mdash;the men you jostle by the dozen on the
-pavement there, who have just life enough and energy enough to put on
-an immaculate frock-coat, with a wired flower in the buttonhole.
-</p>
-<p>
-They went up the oak stairs and into the best spare room. Pamela shut
-the door.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s a bigger room than I’ve been accustomed to,” he said, with a
-shrug of his thin shoulders and a bitter smile.
-</p>
-<p>
-“If you were more ashamed,” she said, trying to let condemnation get
-the stronger hold of her, “I should be more pleased. You are not
-ashamed; you are not silent.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Why should I be? To be found out is a blunder. I am annoyed, that’s
-all. I was a catspaw&mdash;in other words, a fool. Overent and Bladden both
-got off to Spain: £40,000 in the cab that took them to Victoria! What
-luck! I tell you, Pamela,<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-115">[115]</a></span> the thought of those two fellows nearly
-drove me to suicide when I was in prison. But the game isn’t up&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-She gave a little scream; then, in a fright, put her hand on her mouth.
-</p>
-<p>
-“But you’ll never again&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Pooh! my darling&mdash;business is business. Bogus company promoting is as
-honest a profession as&mdash;stock-broking, for example, or making a corner.
-Suppose the gold-fields, or diamond-fields, or petroleum-wells <i>don’t</i>
-exist&mdash;that’s business. If not, where is the use of fools? The small
-capitalist must have been created with some object.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You are hopeless. I dread to think of what the end may be. At all
-events”&mdash;she moved her head toward the door and tapped her foot softly
-on the floor&mdash;“you’ll leave him alone.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll be a pattern. As for him&mdash;there is nothing left for me to do. I
-leave him entirely to you. Marry him. Perhaps you know a pretty girl
-with a little fortune who would suit me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She thought of Nancy, and immediately an unreasoning, murderous
-jealousy of that pink-faced, foolish thing took possession of her. She
-sat down on the low window-seat. The casement was hooked back, and the
-new shoots of ivy tickled her chin as she leaned out with a tired groan
-and looked down at the glistening garden. Then she pulled herself back
-to every-day detail with a jerk, and got up, saying that she would send
-him up what was necessary&mdash;brushes, soap, and so on. The room had
-not yet been prepared. The silk quilt was spread<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-116">[116]</a></span> gauntly over a
-blanketless bed. Edred was looking at it and at the dim hangings with
-idle interest.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You don’t often see a bed like this nowadays,” he said.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It is a state bed, in a way. They were all born in it; they all die in
-it. Full of ghosts! I’d rather you slept in it than I.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’m inured to them&mdash;the prison’s full. Not the ghosts of small
-capitalists who come wringing their hands for their swamped savings;
-only women and weaklings see ghosts of that kind. It was one ghost of
-lost opportunity&mdash;that tormented me; the ghost of £40,000 collared by
-Overent and Bladden, who were a shade more clever than I was.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She took up a corner of the patchwork quilt.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It is made,” she said dreamily, “from bits of wedding dresses. Each
-bride contributed her patches. It is a pretty idea&mdash;the people about
-here are full of fancies.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’ll be contributing your patches before long,” he said airily. “By
-Jove! I, as only brother, must give you away. We never imagined that
-particular position in the old days, Pam.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I don’t admit it now.” She shook her pale head. “Oh, why did you come?
-Why am I fool enough to love you?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“No heroics, dear. I’m fond of you&mdash;too fond to stand in your light. I
-won’t dispute that I’ve some regard for myself, too. Run away now and
-send me a few things. I want to make myself as decent as these
-confounded clothes will allow.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She went away. Directly Jethro heard her foot<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-117">[117]</a></span> on the stairs he called
-her, in a masterful way, just as if she already belonged to him.
-</p>
-<p>
-He said, his face shining with hospitality and kinsmanship, how pleased
-he was. He spoke of driving Edred over to Turle that very day, but she
-negatived it as skillfully as she could. Then he spoke heartily of the
-wedding and of Edred’s opportune arrival. She was afraid that he meant
-to kiss her again; he seemed prone to hearty lover’s kisses, without
-considering mood or asking for permission. Nettie, bearing a steaming
-soup tureen, saved her.
-</p>
-<p>
-The gong&mdash;one of her civilized institutions&mdash;was beaten. Edred came
-humming down the shallow stairs. The three took their seats at the low,
-narrow table&mdash;Jethro on the high master’s stool at one end, Pamela on
-the other, Edred modestly at the side.
-</p>
-<p>
-Both men ate and talked heartily, Pamela childishly crumbled bread in
-her soup. When the meal was over she left them; decanters on the table,
-the smoke of tobacco mingling with the smoke from the fire. She went
-into the gay drawing-room and stretched flat on the sofa.
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked at the trivial vanities which she had brought home so
-joyfully from Liddleshorn. She looked, as Gainah had looked, with
-somber eyes. Her life was wrecked too. She would never be the mistress
-of Folly Corner now.
-</p>
-<p>
-Through the stout doors came the men’s laughter. Edred’s became more
-roystering as the minutes ticked on. She could hear in the intervals
-the<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-118">[118]</a></span> steady stroke of the clock, the rumbling groan it gave before it
-delivered itself of the quarters.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her arms were above her head, her widely-opened eyes looked across the
-hot purple furrows of the field. She could see a long way, over hedges,
-across copses. She saw stretches of pasture, dotted with cows; saw
-verdant fields of rye-grass; fields of turnips half devoured by sheep,
-which were shut in by hurdles.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-The sun shone, the birds sang, one or two adventurous bees came in at
-the window. Every now and then that laugh of license, of reckless
-disregard, pierced the thick doors, and she blenched. She could no
-longer see the future.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_109">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-119">[119]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_109_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_109_toc">CHAPTER IX.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-A<small>UNT</small> S<small>OPHY</small> was giving her first garden party of the season&mdash;to her
-second-best set. That meant a family gathering, with the Jeremy Crisps
-left out. Maria Furlonger drew the line at the Jeremy Crisps, and said
-she did her duty to them as a relative by buying groceries at their
-father’s shop.
-</p>
-<p>
-Edred was to go with Pamela. He was already a local favorite. He had
-all the qualities which commend themselves to country society. He could
-sing, play tennis, do conjuring tricks at the local entertainments.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro wasn’t going; men with a serious occupation were never even
-asked. Aunt Sophy collected her men painfully; a town failure or so,
-who happened to be trying poultry farming or fruit culture&mdash;having
-tried everything else of which he knew anything whatever; the curate;
-one or two old gentlemen who had retired from something or the other,
-one or two young ones who admired a particular girl.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela ran out to the barn before she started. Jethro was at the door,
-with a couple of half-bred retrievers at his heels and a trio of
-mongrel pups that he was training for sheep-dogs gamboling in the muck
-of the yard.
-</p>
-<p>
-The vast proportions of the barn&mdash;the biggest and<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-120">[120]</a></span> oldest for many
-miles round&mdash;were a fitting background for Jethro with his muscular
-frame and fair, sun-seared face. He was so English, so brown, so spare.
-There was nothing of the student’s pallor and stoop about him&mdash;no
-irritating subtlety. There was no furrow in his face, no ridge of
-superfluous flesh, no mark of painful thought. It was all tough muscle.
-Pamela looked at him admiringly, her desire going out to strength and
-health and simplicity of life and motive. The clean shocks of yellow
-straw in the barn, the dirty, trodden straw in the yard, agreed well
-with his blue checked shirt and tan waistcoat; with his voluminous
-checked tie, made in the time-honored rustic fashion. His father had
-worn such ties and <i>his</i> father before him. What had been seemly in
-“Old Jethro” was seemly in “Young Jethro”; that was the spirit of Folly
-Corner. It was a blue check tie made out of half a silk handkerchief,
-cut cornerwise and deftly folded into proper shape by the iron. His
-sleeves were rolled to the elbow, showing his delicately textured upper
-arm. He had been helping his men with some necessary job&mdash;he was a
-master, by heredity, of all the intricate sublime art of agriculture.
-She said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“We are going now. I wish you could come too.”
-</p>
-<p>
-As she spoke, a loud angry hiss came from behind the house. It was like
-the threatening bubble of a pot that is boiling too fast.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Chalcraft is taking a starling’s nest,” Jethro said. “Tell Aunt Sophy
-I may be up after tea.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-121">[121]</a></span>
-He turned into the barn, through the dim shadow of which she could see
-two men, Peter Hone and another. She turned to go back through the
-yard, placing the points of her shoes carefully on the ground so that
-she might not soil above the toe-cap. Edred was leaning over the white
-paling and watching her gingerly progress with amusement.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Beastly dirty place, isn’t it?” he said, sneering and glancing down at
-the trodden straw. “I say, what a jolly dance you could have in that
-great barn! Do you remember the dance I took you to at Westminster Town
-Hall?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She nodded, hardly glancing at his slim, foppish figure. He was tinsel
-compared to Jethro&mdash;Jethro with his muscular arms bared amid the golden
-straw of his barn. She saw poetry in the vast gray place, with its
-dusty, murky rafters; to Edred it only suggested a subscription dance
-and Westminster Town Hall. For the moment she preferred Jethro, with
-his white strong throat.
-</p>
-<p>
-They went down the road and through the wood, talking commonplaces.
-Edred had been nearly three months at Folly Corner, and one cannot for
-three months keep up the strain of a dramatic attitude. Pamela still
-had her moments of anguish, of struggle&mdash;but she no longer talked about
-those moments. She waited with turgid, stupid hopelessness for what the
-future might fling at her. She drifted; the matter had been taken
-completely out of her hands. She was&mdash;so she understood&mdash;to be married
-to Jethro directly the harvest was in: until the<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-122">[122]</a></span> harvest was in, she
-allowed herself time to breathe. She was garnering up strength.
-</p>
-<p>
-The woods were in their fullest flush of beauty. The anemones were
-widely blown, with the quiet watchfulness which comes before death. The
-heavy heads of the blue-bells were voluptuous. Here and there one
-caught the deep yellow of the oxlip; snowy stitchwork was a delicate
-groundwork to every leaf and flower.
-</p>
-<p>
-No feet but their own disturbed the silence. Jethro was savage on the
-rights of property, and this was his land. No old woman might pick up
-sticks, no child gather wild-flowers in his preserves. They were small;
-he was fond of saying scornfully that he was a working farmer, not a
-rich yard-stick from London. He did not make pheasants the sole
-business of October, and what he shot he ate or gave away. The contents
-of his bag never went to market.
-</p>
-<p>
-He had the grasping spirit of the farmer who flourished in the early
-years of the century, in the roaring times before Parish Councils and
-educated, supercilious cockneys, keen on rights of way. He would, when
-the opportunity occurred, put a padlocked, five-barred gate across a
-little-used public path. He cunningly inclosed wayside waste, doing it
-gradually; grubbing the old hedge, bringing his newly planted,
-carefully clipped one to the edge of the road. He honestly believed
-that he was doing a good act; in his view, all waste land was wasted
-land, and he would have had the Government parcel out the commons to
-farmers for redemption.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-123">[123]</a></span>
-Edred kept his eyes on the ground and grumbled at the deep yellow ruts
-made in winter by timber wagons and horses’ hoofs. But Pamela forgot
-her dainty shoes, the edge of her new skirt, with the tiny frills. She
-looked ardently at every new beauty which slid before her
-eyes&mdash;bursting twigs, drifted blossom, dry, feathery fagots tied into
-bundles, little heaps of creamy wood chips; the hacked hedge-rows and
-banks, with the warm orange of the amputated tree-trunks.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was early June. The day was so hot and dry that when they reached
-Turle they could see from the road that even careful matrons like Aunt
-Sophy were sitting about the big sloping lawn without even a shawl.
-They made little groups&mdash;like modern pictures of the ladies in the
-“Decameron.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Nancy came running across the lawn, her heavy red-ringed croquet mallet
-in her hand. She had a loose flannel shirt and her cycling skirt with
-the big smoked pearl buttons at each hip.
-</p>
-<p>
-“A cycling skirt always makes a girl look coarse,” Edred murmured
-critically.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela gave him a pleased glance; she loved to hear him depreciate
-Nancy.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Oh! do come and play!” cried the girl, addressing herself pointedly to
-Edred. “We are making up a fresh set. Croquet is such fun.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela, the thin stream of gall flowing from her heart, saw him return
-Nancy’s pleading, babyish glance tenderly. She turned away. She took
-Aunt Sophy’s effusive kiss without a word, only assuring her that she
-hadn’t a headache.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-124">[124]</a></span>
-Egbert Turle, who had left Cambridge and was walking the hospital,
-nodded with patronage from his post by the tennis-net. He came
-dutifully to Turle every week.
-</p>
-<p>
-Mrs. Clutton ran along the grass in her careless gown.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Come and sit under the elms with me,” she said.
-</p>
-<p>
-There were several ladies under the elms, in green wooden chairs with
-sloping backs. They had not come to play tennis or croquet; their sole
-aim was to talk scandal, snub people in the set a shade beneath their
-own, and drink astringent tea. They wore long skirts and elaborate
-light wraps, as distinguished from the athletic women a few paces off,
-who were running about and screaming to each other in the sun.
-</p>
-<p>
-The earnest topic of the moment turned out to be false hair. Mrs.
-McAlpine had confessed to an increasing thinness on the left temple.
-Her doctor told her that she used the right side of the brain too
-much&mdash;and darkly hinted that she must go up to Lechaux&mdash;a hairdresser
-recommended by the ladies’ paper&mdash;and get a front. Annie Jayne cried
-out in earnest horror:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Oh, don’t! My mother never wore false hair in her life. She took to
-caps when she was thirty-five. I shall take to caps myself in a year or
-two&mdash;they look matronly.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But no one wears caps nowadays,” cried Mrs. Clutton tersely. “Women
-buy false hair instead of lace. If, since the creation, each woman had
-done<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-125">[125]</a></span> just as her mother did, fig-leaves would still be the height of
-fashion.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Mrs. McAlpine, who had the greatest contempt for the journalist’s
-wife&mdash;<i>she</i> was a J.&nbsp;P.’s daughter and the widow of a Government
-official&mdash;broke out in her languidly genteel voice:
-</p>
-<p>
-“I was afraid I should have been prevented from coming, dear Mrs.
-Turle. One can’t possibly attend a garden-party in a coat and skirt”;
-she looked complacently at her embroidered bodice, “and my lost box
-only turned up last night.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The face of every lady immediately became solemnly sympathetic.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I told you all about it, didn’t I? I’d been visiting at Warne&mdash;taking
-my best things, of course. The things, you know”&mdash;she gave a quick
-glance of her narrow eyes at Mrs. Clutton&mdash;“that one takes with one on
-a visit at a house where they are&mdash;well, rather particular. Dear Laura
-entertains so largely at Warne.”
-</p>
-<p>
-One or two ladies on the edge of the second-best set looked at her with
-reverential alarm. Here was a person who visited on such positively
-equal terms at Warne, the biggest seat for miles round, that she called
-the hostess by her Christian name!
-</p>
-<p>
-“I was in despair.” She flattened out her hands. “My box lost! My
-diamond comb and pendant, my jeweled girdle, a miniature set with
-diamonds that was given to my great-uncle by the Duke of Wellington, my
-ivory-backed brushes and silver toilet set&mdash;all the small, necessary
-trifles that one takes on a visit.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-126">[126]</a></span>
-“And you got them back?” asked a little lady breathlessly.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was a shabby Jayne. Sophy did not often ask her to a garden-party,
-and she was feverishly voluble and deprecating in turn. She had a
-home-made blouse, with a funny tucker, and very new black kid gloves,
-the perfect palms of which she constantly displayed.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I got it back,” Mrs. McAlpine said carelessly, giving the home-made
-blouse a look of amiable condescension. “But you may all imagine how I
-felt; one sets such store by one’s poor trifles.”
-</p>
-<p>
-A massive girl, with a white gown, threw down her mallet as a member of
-the opposition clicked her ball against the stick.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I can’t play any more; too slow,” she said. “I’ll tell somebody’s
-fortune instead.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“My dear”&mdash;the dowdy Jayne cousin looked alarmed&mdash;“do you think that it
-is in quite good taste?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She stopped with a jerk as Mrs. McAlpine said sweetly:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Palmistry is all the rage just now in the best houses. Prejudice of
-any sort is so very middle-class. We had a professional palmist at Lady
-Clara’s last week, when I ran up to Grosvenor Gardens for her
-reception. She implored me to come; we are such very old friends.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Mother always thought it was best to ignore such things as
-fortune-telling, table-turning, scientific lectures, and anything
-unsettling,” Annie<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-127">[127]</a></span> Jayne said simply. “I don’t think I’ll have mine
-told, Isabel.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Half a dozen hands were held out. The girl in white went round
-phlegmatically.
-</p>
-<p>
-She distributed journeys, legacies, surprises, and mishaps with equal
-calm. When it came to Mrs. Clutton’s turn she held out her pretty hand,
-a little coarsened by devotion to her neurotic fowls and her garden,
-with pretended nervousness. Isabel looked at it thoughtfully and
-murmured something about the lines not being very clear&mdash;a certain one,
-at least, confusing.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Don’t say anything dreadful. Don’t tell me I’m going to be hanged;
-I’ve always had a foreboding that I shall be; and Tim&mdash;my husband, you
-know&mdash;used to say in his most savagely dyspeptic moments that I
-certainly deserved the fate.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Isabel dropped the roughened hand suddenly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I can’t make out your fortune,” she said coldly. “There is no one
-else, is there? Yours is settled, Pamela. I’ll go and have a game of
-tennis, if Egbert will join&mdash;croquet’s duffing.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She moved away in her statuesque fashion, her white skirt bellowing out
-in the May breeze. There was a sudden coldness and constraint. Even
-diplomatic Mrs. Turle looked vexed.
-</p>
-<p>
-Mrs. Clutton made a mouth at Pamela, and said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Shall we go and have a look at Nancy’s flowers in the walled garden?”
-</p>
-<p>
-They skirted the shrubbery, with its clumps of yellow berberis and
-laurustinus gone shabby. There<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-128">[128]</a></span> was a swing between the double-flowered
-cherry trees; Nancy still used it&mdash;on rare occasions when she read
-fiction. Usually she was honestly intent on improving her mind. A thick
-volume lay face downward on the seat. Mrs. Clutton picked it up, read
-the title, and dropped the book with a gesture of distaste.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Nancy shouldn’t be allowed to read that woman’s stories.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She is very popular.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She ought to lecture&mdash;‘for men only.’ However, Nancy won’t hurt; she
-won’t understand&mdash;half. She is a little more than shallow; all surface,
-like a dish&mdash;not even a well-dish. Nancy and Isabel Crisp&mdash;you know
-Isabel is staying here now that Egbert is down from the hospital&mdash;will
-read the same book. One reads a bit, puts in a marker; the other takes
-up the book, reads on from the marker, then puts it in where she leaves
-off. That’s how they get through. I’m fond of Nancy&mdash;she’s so
-picturesquely idiotic. Of course, she will marry your brother?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela dropped the almond-scented stalk of plum-colored wallflower
-which she had pulled and was sticking in her belt.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I&mdash;I don’t know. Oh, no! I wouldn’t let him marry Nancy.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Mrs. Clutton looked at her suspiciously.
-</p>
-<p>
-She said meaningly, “There is one man in the world for you&mdash;Jethro
-Jayne. A woman has only to concern herself about her husband. Of course
-your brother will be cruel to Nancy in his own particular<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-129">[129]</a></span> fashion.
-Some kick with their feet, some lash with their tongues&mdash;I prefer the
-former; they kiss a bruise, but no man’s lips can reach a woman’s
-heart. After all, he’ll make a better husband than that prig, Egbert
-Turle; <i>he’s</i> going to marry Isabel Crisp. He’s insufferable. He would
-divide the animal kingdom into four groups: the lower animals, hospital
-cases, human beings, and ’Varsity men. He talks of nothing but
-dissecting-rooms. He alludes constantly to the ‘laity.’<span class="lftspc">”</span>
-</p>
-<p>
-Mrs. McAlpine’s genteel voice filtered through the shrubs.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I knew the dear Duchess very well&mdash;in her maiden days. We visited at
-the same house in the Midlands.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That humbug! Her motto is ‘Who’s who?’ I don’t believe that she ever
-got farther than the housekeeper’s room at Warne. Some day, when I’ve
-bought enough oak and china, I’ll devote a little time to unmasking
-her. Tea will be served in half an hour. There’s dear Mrs. Turle going
-weightily toward the house to coach her three maids how to set cups.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Gainah is like that&mdash;or was before I deposed her. Cook did nothing but
-wash dishes.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You may sort women into two classes: those who can’t touch a chicken
-unless they’ve cleaned it themselves, and those who, if they are
-obliged to clean it, can’t eat it. Do come with me to Mrs. Hone’s&mdash;this
-way; through the gate, across the field, and into the Liddleshorn road.
-She has a Chippendale teatray which she has half promised<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-130">[130]</a></span> to sell. We
-shall have plenty of time before tea.”
-</p>
-<p>
-They went across the field, black-horned cattle following them
-curiously. Occasional cottages sparsely dotted the straight road
-leading to Liddleshorn. Two new ones, with vivid roofs of smooth tiles
-running up in conical shape to a chimney like an exaggerated pimple,
-had a blue metal plate lettered with white between the narrow doors.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You are pretty safe in saying that every singularly ugly cottage is
-tenanted by the county police. Mrs. Hone lives at this next one with
-the bush of Jew’s mallow.”
-</p>
-<p>
-They went in single file up the narrow flag path. Sheets of white
-candytuft crept coldly along the edge of the borders from the wooden
-gate to the door. In the little patch of kitchen garden row after row
-of cabbage with a blue bloom looked to Pamela like a generously flung
-out art carpet. The man at the best shop in Liddleshorn had shown her
-one just that shade. Straight ahead, across the railway bridge, a train
-shot past, the tails of smoke like drifting opal under the bright sun.
-</p>
-<p>
-Mrs. Hone was hobbling about her garden.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Poor old dear! She looks like a camel whose hump has slipped. Now, you
-must say nothing, look nothing&mdash;or you’ll spoil my bargain.
-Good-afternoon, Mrs. Hone. How’s the rheumatism?”
-</p>
-<p>
-The sweet wrinkled face lifted and a thin voice said shrilly:
-</p>
-<p>
-“It aint what you call rheumatism, ma’am; it’s paralism, that’s what I
-tells Dr. Frith.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-131">[131]</a></span>
-“You’re busy in your garden. I’ve been working very hard in mine. Your
-broad beans are in blossom. And you’ve planted out your French
-marigolds already.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Aye. But I doubt the frost ’ull nip ’em.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She laughed; the pretty, brainless cackle of a very old woman&mdash;the
-light laugh something like a child’s and yet with the knell of decay in
-it.
-</p>
-<p>
-“When I plants out they little seedlin’s I thinks o’ my children&mdash;all
-planted out; some in London, some on the hill. Some livin’ to blossom,
-some nipped by the frost. I’ve had thirteen, bless you! You’ll step
-inside?”
-</p>
-<p>
-They went into the tiny living room, the strangely twisted mistress
-painfully leading the way. At a round table an old man sat at
-tea&mdash;bread, lettuce that had bolted, a handful of spring onions. The
-mahogany tray that Mrs. Clutton coveted was on a ledge beside the
-low-burning fire. The old wife stepped up to her husband and shook him
-none too gently by the shoulder, dropping her head at the same time,
-and shouting:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Get up and let the ladies come to the fire.”
-</p>
-<p>
-To them she added apologetically:
-</p>
-<p>
-“He’s very old. I’m only seventy-eight, but he’s pretty nigh eighty.
-Deaf, too. I can’t make him hear&mdash;not when I wants him to do anything.
-I very offen say to him, ‘You don’t want to hear; you don’t want to
-hear, that’s what it is,’ I says.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He turned round savagely at the touch of her hand on his shoulder and
-looked at the two women in light gowns on the threshold.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-132">[132]</a></span>
-“What are you doing?” he demanded gruffly. “Damn it all, I means to
-have my tea.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He’s been one of those who lash and kick, too&mdash;the brute. And she such
-a sweet old fragrant thing! Never mind, Mrs. Hone; don’t you trouble to
-move, Mr. Hone; we should be sorry to disturb your tea.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Mrs. Clutton squeezed round the other side of the table and took the
-tray in her hands. It was oval, cut out of the solid wood, and daintily
-inlaid with box.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’d sell this, Mrs. Hone?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The lady wants to know if we’ll sell the tray.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“What’s she goin’ to give we for it?” he demanded sharply.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Ten shillings!” screamed Mrs. Clutton.
-</p>
-<p>
-“No, no! We couldn’t let it go for that. I thought fifteen.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Too much.” She put the tray back on the ledge.
-</p>
-<p>
-He stuffed the last hunk of bread into his fierce old mouth, and
-spluttered out:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Will you give twelve-and-six?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Well&mdash;yes. Is that settled?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You must settle with missus. I’m only a lodger.”
-</p>
-<p>
-His eyes glittered at the half-sovereign she took from her purse and
-laid in Mrs. Hone’s hand.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes, he’s only a lodger, as I often tells him when he’s tiresome. It’s
-my house. I was borned here&mdash;my brother left it me; he says, ‘You was
-borned here and you shall die here.’ My father built it<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-133">[133]</a></span> and my brother
-added on this front room. His wife wanted to pull the old place down
-and put up a new; but he says, ‘No; what the father’s hands had put up
-the son’s should never pull down.’<span class="lftspc">”</span>
-</p>
-<p>
-She kept laughing feebly and looking at them, from one to the other,
-with her dim eyes, deep in the web of seventy-eight years.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s my cottage, and that’s why they won’t give me parish relief. It’s
-very hard. I ses to ’em, ‘I can’t fill my poor empty belly with bricks
-and mortar. An’ I am so fond of a bit of meat.’<span class="lftspc">”</span>
-</p>
-<p>
-She was like a small child begging for sweets.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Haven’t you any daughter to come in and look after you?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“No. My daughter died fifty-five year ago. She was a pretty little gal.
-He’s my second husband, you know.” She nodded her head toward the deaf
-man, who, mollified by the gold, was munching vegetables like an
-amiable donkey. “My first husband died. He was coachman at Warne. When
-the new one come I was told to turn out of my nice cottage. So I
-married him. I couldn’t leave my nice cottage, could I, my dears? I was
-a silly gal and got married agen. I married the new coachman. That was
-before my brother died and left me this. If I’d known he was going to
-die and leave me this cottage when I was borned, I wouldn’t ha’ been a
-silly gal and got married agen. He was a dwarf, my brother. You come
-agen some day, and I’ll show you his trousers. I’ll show you my
-husband’s trousers, too. I got four shillin’s prize at the show last
-year for the best patch put on her husband’s<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-134">[134]</a></span> trousers by an old woman
-over sixty. And I’m seventy-eight&mdash;there’s a difference! There did
-ought to be another class for them over seventy. I can use my needle.
-Mother always taught us to use our needles. The gals nowadays can’t put
-a shirt together.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Tea will be ready at Turle,” whispered Pamela.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes. We must go. Good-by, Mrs. Hone; good-day, Mr. Hone. I’ll take the
-tray under my arm. Oh, don’t you bother about paper.”
-</p>
-<p>
-They went down the uneven path with the stiff lines of snowy flowers.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Poor old soul!” said Pamela, when they reached the road.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Did she take you in with what she so eloquently calls her ‘poor, empty
-belly’? I left off being sentimental long ago. Mrs. Hone has a fat
-account in the post-office savings bank. I know that for a fact.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Shall we hurry a little? I hate to keep Aunt Sophy waiting, or to vex
-her. She didn’t like your remark about being hanged.”
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-“Of course she didn’t. Wasn’t it fun to see them petrify? No doubt
-they’ve been discussing me; saying what bad taste it was to set up a
-gallows-tree at a garden party. I give them endless topics for
-conversation. They don’t believe me even when I do tell the truth.
-There was a comic song Tim used to sing, ‘The only time I told the
-truth she said I was a liar.’ That is just my position. I tell the
-unvarnished truth: that my husband is a journalist traveling in search
-of sensation. They<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-135">[135]</a></span> don’t believe me. If he were doing time at Portland
-and I said he was stalking big game, my social popularity would rival
-Mrs. McAlpine’s. Here’s your brother Edred coming across the meadow to
-look for us. He’s a very handsome man; not a bit like you. He reminds
-me of some splendid snake. Do you understand? As his sister, you won’t.
-You’ll only be shocked; there is a strong streak of the local prudery
-and orthodoxy about you, Pamela. I could go to destruction with a man
-of that type&mdash;hating him and myself all the time.”
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_110">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-136">[136]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_110_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_110_toc">CHAPTER X.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-J<small>ETHRO</small> was hoeing peas in the burning June sun. His white linen hat
-flapped over his calm, shrewd eyes. Pamela, loitering along the grass
-paths, marveled intolerantly at his choice of an occupation. Why should
-a man of substance, a man of birth, a man with acres and with laborers,
-hoe peas? She paced the paths thoughtfully, looking at her neat, broad
-border of new roses, taking up a fluttering label now and then to read
-the half-obliterated name. They were all the very latest and choicest
-roses, and had been planted in the spring by the nurseryman at
-Liddleshorn, to whom she had given a large order.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her heart told her that Edred was close behind, and she turned, her
-eyes seeking his humbly, pleading for tender recognition. He did not
-trouble to look at her, but merely plucked one of her beautiful pink
-Verdier roses without permission, and stuck it in his coat, with a
-scornful laugh at its huge size.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro, across his little heaps of flagging weeds and clods of yellow
-earth, watched the two gloomily. He was tired of Pamela’s elegant
-brother; he was suspicious, although he could not have explained why.
-His welcome to the shipwrecked stranger had been warm&mdash;it had even
-extended to a free drawing on his check-book; but he did not<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-137">[137]</a></span> want his kinsman’s-hospitality to be construed into a life invitation. He
-remembered a funny story he had once heard about an engaging Irishman
-who had come on a month’s visit to a country house and stayed
-forty-five years. Edred had lamed his best horse; he had considerably
-reduced the cask of old whisky; he dipped too deeply into the
-tobacco-jar. He might stay until the wedding, and when that was over he
-must take himself off&mdash;to the West Coast of Africa, to another wreck,
-if he chose. The busy man, hoeing peas not because it was necessary but
-as a positive outlet for his energy, was heartily sick of the idle one,
-who strolled languidly along the rose border, the smoke from his cigar
-making a lean, blue string.
-</p>
-<p>
-The wicket-gate creaked. Pamela looked up sharply. Heels clattered on
-the raised brick path, and a blithe voice called out, “Where are you
-all?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s Nancy.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Edred moved forward so abruptly that he broke the long ash of his
-cigar, which he had been carefully preserving. Pamela followed. A tall,
-slim figure stood for a moment in the frame of the shining holly arch
-at the entrance of the garden. The sun caught Nancy’s masses of
-brick-red hair and enveloped her pretty face in flame. She called out
-to Jethro:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Mother wants you to tell me how much you think she ought to get a load
-for her hay. Write it down, please, or I am sure to forget.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She met Pamela at the beginning of the grass path. They kissed. Edred
-watched the tame little salute<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-138">[138]</a></span> cynically. Then he took Nancy’s
-hand in the cycling glove with the perforated palm&mdash;like a thin
-crumpet&mdash;and watched her white lids fall. She was such a child that she
-never tried to hide her feelings.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela dragged off a great branch of damask rose and tore her fingers.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You should always cut roses,” Nancy said reprovingly, taking up a
-label. “Francesca Kruger&mdash;that’s flesh, tinged with saffron, isn’t it?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Copper,” returned Pamela curtly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I wish we could have some good roses. Evergreen isn’t successful with
-flowers. But he lets us have plenty of vegetables. I came to know if
-you would both come over to Malling Flower Show next Thursday. We could
-bike&mdash;that would be great fun, wouldn’t it? Mr. Meadows has asked me to
-judge the wild flowers, and I feel so horribly nervous. But I’ve been
-reading it up.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You can’t go to Malling,” Pamela said, looking sternly at the weak,
-radiant face, and hating Nancy all the more fiercely because her
-temples were so purely white, and because the ruddy hair grew round
-them so charmingly. “It’s lecture-day at Liddleshorn&mdash;the nursing
-lecture. It will be very interesting; we are going to bandage a small
-boy.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But I don’t care for the lecture. We are not going to finish the
-course. Annie says that her mother&mdash;Aunt Jerusha&mdash;thought scientific
-nursing a great mistake, and always said that no woman could expect to
-be a good nurse until she had been the mother of a large family and had
-buried two-thirds of it. You <i>must</i> come to Malling.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-139">[139]</a></span>
-She was speaking to Pamela, but her blue eyes were on Edred.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll come, anyhow,” he said lightly. “I’ll call at Turle about three.
-Will that do? Pamela would rather go to Liddleshorn and bandage her
-small boy.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That would be fun. And you’ll come into supper afterward. I must go
-now. Mother told me to look in at Hone’s&mdash;Nick Hone’s.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Where there are so many children?” asked Pamela, her gloomy eyes on
-the straight line of beauty afforded by her choice roses.
-</p>
-<p>
-“No. Those are the Peter Hones. The Bert Hones live near us. But Nick
-Hone is a neighbor of yours. Jethro!” she called out shrilly, and he
-came across the rough, dry ground, hoe in hand, “do send poor Nick Hone
-in some new potatoes. You have plenty.” She glanced along the beds at
-the rows in white blossom. “He’s dying, and he keeps saying that if he
-had a dish of new potatoes he’d get better. Mrs. Hone went and dug some
-yesterday, but they were only as large as cob-nuts. Mother would have
-sent some, but Evergreen is a little touchy. He doesn’t like us to
-interfere with the vegetables.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Daborn shall take a trug full,” said Jethro carelessly. “Dying, is he?
-That’s drink. Never knew such a fellow! Three gallons of cider a day at
-harvest time wasn’t enough for him. The other men save some and take it
-home to their wives.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That is kind of you. Mrs. Hone will be so<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-140">[140]</a></span> pleased. I’ll be off now.
-Three o’clock on Thursday, Mr. Crisp.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He seemed amused by her adorable air of sheepishness when he took her
-hand. They all four went out into the inclosed garden, Jethro and
-Pamela dropping behind as a matter of course&mdash;his eyes on her, and hers
-fixed blankly on the well-cut back of Edred’s coat. Jethro picked up a
-flat wooden basket, with pieces of wood at the bottom like the rockers
-of a cradle. It stood by a row of early peas.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Here’s a trug. Daborn shall take it to Hone when he goes home to
-dinner. Here, Daborn!”
-</p>
-<p>
-He put his earthy, hard hand to his mouth and shouted. Pamela saw the
-man hurrying from the greenhouse, where he was getting young tomato
-plants ready for planting out. She followed Nancy and Edred, dreading
-to leave them alone for a moment, despising herself for dreading. They
-had just passed through the holly hedge. She scurried after, not
-knowing why she put her feet so softly on the gravel and coaxed her
-skirt close to her limbs so that it should not brush the box edging.
-When she stood in the frame of the arch she stopped. Her clear, jealous
-eyes went straight across the garden, across the bed of newly-planted
-cauliflowers which Chalcraft had been allowed to dibble in for the last
-time&mdash;next year she would have a lawn and carriage-drive. She looked
-across the brick path, through the tall heads of June flowers, to the
-umbrella yew-tree beneath which Gainah’s lilies were blooming.
-</p>
-<p>
-They were standing behind it, between the thick<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-141">[141]</a></span> foliage and the
-square lattice of the dining-parlor window. She saw Edred peer through
-to see if the room was empty. She saw Nancy, her head down, her arms
-and hands jerking, pretending to admire the lilies&mdash;bemoaning, in her
-imbecile way, no doubt, because Evergreen would not let her have lilies
-too.
-</p>
-<p>
-They were very close together in the bosky kindness of the yew; no
-doubt it had been a witness to many like scenes and been discreet.
-Nancy seemed to sway a bit nearer the lithe figure in gray. Pamela saw
-his face and her heart came to a startled stop. He had looked like that
-when he kissed her for the first time&mdash;on the stairs of the
-boarding-house. It had been the first man’s kiss of her life.
-</p>
-<p>
-Nancy’s eyes and cheeks and lips blazed like her ruddy hair. He pulled
-her toward him with the easy, insolent air of a man who is sure of his
-woman&mdash;who has been sure of women all his life&mdash;and kissed her on lids,
-lips, brows.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela, wearing a white cotton gown, her head bare, looked like
-statue&mdash;one of the statues that used to decorate old gardens. She
-forgot everything&mdash;her approaching marriage and magnificence, her
-border of tea roses, the carriage-drive, her wedding clothes&mdash;all the
-big and little things which equally made her happiness or misery. For
-the first time for many months she seemed to touch her past self. She
-had almost forgotten, in the new strong life, the old one of dull
-days, and sloppy streets, and shop-windows, and a struggle for the
-latest fashion at the least possible cost. She was again that
-sharp-witted<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-142">[142]</a></span> girl in Bloomsbury, that wildly wretched one who used to
-take omnibus in spare hours just to stand on the common and stare
-hungrily at a wall.
-</p>
-<p>
-He was kissing Nancy; he meant to marry her. She couldn’t let him do
-that. She must abandon Jethro. Her life must run side by side with
-Edred’s. She didn’t care what sort of life&mdash;one of poverty, hard work,
-hard words; blows, perhaps. One of guilty prosperity, winding up with
-the prison again for him. It didn’t matter&mdash;so long as they were
-together, if only for a little. He didn’t love her. He wasn’t capable,
-as she knew love. But she loved him, even when she saw him stoop again
-to those red pouting lips behind the yew. All her rage was for Nancy.
-</p>
-<p>
-Daborn came behind with the trug full of yellow-skinned potatoes. She
-stepped back and watched him go through the yard, and presently watched
-Nancy go down the bricked path, mount her bicycle, and skim away like a
-light swallow. Nancy had forgotten the marked quotation for hay. She
-could not carry two ideas in that limited head of hers.
-</p>
-<p>
-The world was too gay and warm for Pamela’s blank misery. The hot sun
-darted into her strained eyes like needles. She went round the house,
-hugging the lichened wall, her head down, the woolly leaves and spiral
-tendrils of the vine touching her dull hair. At the garden door she met
-Gainah, with a flush on her wasted face and a gleam of the old industry
-and importance in her cold eyes. She was attired in a loose garment of
-unbleached calico, cut like an antiquated bathing garment. Her
-skirts<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-143">[143]</a></span> were bunched under it. She had a battered straw hat, round which
-was firmly fixed a veil of green net. A pair of old stockings were
-pulled over her hands and arms. She carried a tin frying-pan, which she
-constantly beat with a long iron skimmer.
-</p>
-<p>
-The air was hot and noisy. There seemed an unusual commotion along the
-line of beehives which were set by the south wall. They were straw
-skeps, which in winter were covered with turf to keep out the cold.
-Pamela, who had read up bee-keeping, with other branches of country
-life, had long decided to have bar-frame hives when she was mistress of
-Folly Corner. But her knowledge of bees was only theoretical. She was
-very frightened of them, and the deft, fearless way in which Gainah
-would take a swarm excited her admiration and made her grudgingly admit
-that it might be a point of superiority.
-</p>
-<p>
-The angry buzzing grew louder, the monotonous tom-tom beating of the
-frying-pan and skimmer more persistent.
-</p>
-<p>
-“There’s a swarm over there in the crab-tree,” Gainah said excitedly,
-forgetting for the time all party feeling. “I must go and take it. They
-know me. They’ve been talking all the morning; I knew we should have a
-flitting by dinner-time.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela languidly turned her head. A dark, pear-shaped mass hung from
-the lower branch of the crab tree in the oat-field.
-</p>
-<p>
-“They know I’m coming,” Gainah said, advancing and still beating, “they
-know everything.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-144">[144]</a></span> These are fierce&mdash;I crossed them with an Italian
-queen ten years ago&mdash;but they never sting me. They have more sense and
-feeling than half the folk about. When old Bert Hone died and young
-Bert took the bees from his mother, they didn’t flourish. He hadn’t
-acted fair and they knew it. When there’s a swarm in the thatch none of
-the girls in a house ever get married. All Len Daborn’s girls are maids
-still.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She strode on, a spare distorted figure in her calico wrapper, with the
-green veil tucked safely down in her scraggy throat. Pamela watched her
-vanish and reappear beyond the fruit-bushes. On any other day she might
-have asserted herself&mdash;given a wise homily on bee-keeping up to date,
-or deprecated old-world superstitions.
-</p>
-<p>
-She went under the low door with the wooden hood and sat down in the
-dull dining-parlor, her eyes vaguely looking out of the window at the
-space between the casement and the yew. Nancy’s flame-colored hair and
-thick scarlet lips seemed to stand out in relief from the curled somber
-leaves.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah’s work, just as she had thrown it down when the bees swarmed,
-was huddled on the floor, and the blue cambric hearts which she had cut
-ready for patching on the white dimity were dotted like huge pale
-turquoises on the narrow oak table.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela looked at the half-made quilt. Gainah had told her once, in a
-moment of expansiveness, that the blue cambric and white dimity had
-been her mother’s wedding petticoat and gown. It was a dainty quilt,
-all white groundwork, with blue bordering<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-145">[145]</a></span> and bands and carefully cut
-hearts and leaves. The stitches were small and regular. Gainah sat at
-patchwork from breakfast until supper, now that the garden and the
-house were no longer under her control. In the lower drawer of her
-chest she already had five quilts folded neatly away in camphor.
-</p>
-<p>
-The front door opened. Edred came in, rang the hand-bell on the table
-in the passage. Pamela heard voices&mdash;a little deprecating cackle, a
-man’s voice subdued to a cautious bass growl. Unable to bear any more,
-she started up, threw back the door, and advanced into the passage. As
-she did so, the deep rose-color of Nettie’s cotton gown whisked out of
-sight into the kitchen. She went, her head high on her throat, into the
-drawing-room, and Edred followed.
-</p>
-<p>
-Fate seemed to decide that her moments of decided comedy or tragedy
-should be played in that room: the room with the ugly grate and marble
-mantelpiece which Jethro’s father had put in to make the place smart
-for Gainah; with the painted milking-stools and fretwork brackets and
-cheap embroideries which she had herself brought from Liddleshorn.
-</p>
-<p>
-The roses in the blue bowls were drooping, candle-grease had dropped on
-to the keys of the piano, the open door of the china closet displayed
-dusty shelves and a floor on which the gay red-and-blue rugs were
-kicked up. Pamela saw these things; they reminded her sharply of the
-change that of late had come over her. She no longer took a
-housewifely<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-146">[146]</a></span> pride in anything; her life was occupied in playing cat,
-with Nancy and Edred for mice.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Are you going to marry Nancy?” she asked abruptly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Are you going to marry Jethro?” he returned aptly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I&mdash;I suppose so. And yet, when it comes to the point&mdash;&mdash; Everything
-depends on you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked at him again in an appealing way.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We’re in a bit of a mess,” he said, shrugging his thin shoulders and
-impatiently pulling the fine points of his black mustache.
-</p>
-<p>
-She hunched her shoulders and clenched her hands between her knees as
-if she were in actual physical pain.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Oh! why did you come?” she moaned.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Nonsense. It was very fortunate for me. I couldn’t have kept on with
-sewing-machines&mdash;cut my throat, rather. And you can’t execute a <i>coup</i>
-of any kind without capital. This sort of thing isn’t permanent, of
-course. Old Jeth’s getting sick&mdash;he’s a good fellow. Men of that type
-always show their feeling in mean ways. He ought to swear at me, kick
-me out&mdash;he only looks blue when I fill up my glass. I must either marry
-Nancy&mdash;it can’t make any difference to you, Pam&mdash;or I must get a couple
-of hundred to set me up in life again. There are lots of good things
-going in the City&mdash;beastly nuisance not seeing the evening papers. My
-head is full of ideas. If I had a couple of hundreds I could turn them
-into thousands in a week. Balaclavas have run up to&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-147">[147]</a></span>
-“Don’t talk to me about stocks; I don’t understand&mdash;and it is so
-unimportant&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“By Jove! it’s all-important to me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She straightened her curved back. He saw a convulsive lump working in
-her throat, and the rims of her lids grew faintly pink. He frowned. She
-was going to cry. A woman’s tears lashed him to any sort of brutality.
-</p>
-<p>
-“When I saw you kiss Nancy,” she broke out, “it nearly killed me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“So you saw! But when old Jeth kisses you, in his open, whole-hearted,
-smacking fashion?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It doesn’t affect you. Men are different&mdash;and you more different than
-any other man,” she said confusedly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“This sort of thing doesn’t help us,” he cried impatiently. “Which
-shall it be? Turle, with Nancy as a wife and Aunt Sophy as a
-mother-in-law, or London, with two hundred pounds in my pocket?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I haven’t fifty pounds.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But Jethro has. Get it out of him; you’ll do it better than I should.
-Go to him frankly; say I’ve a scheme for making a fortune. He will be
-delighted to get rid of me. He’s suspicious, without knowing why, poor
-chap. This brother and sister humbug is the merest farce. If these
-people were not fools, the most generous, gullible fools in the world,
-they would have found us out long ago.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He crossed to the sofa, threw himself beside her, and laxly hooked his
-long arm round her firm waist.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Get me the couple of hun, Pam,” he said tenderly,<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-148">[148]</a></span> “and I’ll be off.
-Nancy is a pretty imbecile. I’ll go to town. I’ll keep out of mischief,
-sail just within the wind&mdash;don’t bother your dear anxious head about
-me. Marry old Jeth; cut a figure in the neighborhood. With his money
-and your brains you can be county swells.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“And you?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I told you&mdash;don’t worry. Forget No. 4658.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She started nervously.
-</p>
-<p>
-“How can you think of that time without a shudder? Even now, when I go
-to sleep at night, the prison wall shoots up and blinds me. Yet
-you&mdash;were inside. And you say that number&mdash;the number that <i>was</i>
-you&mdash;without a tremor. I’m afraid to let you go. It will happen again.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Not if I know it. I was green. Overent and Bladden victimized me. Only
-fools are found out. Sin is a short name for stupidity. I shall never
-overshoot the mark again. There are fifty ways&mdash;five hundred&mdash;of making
-a fortune. No man but a fool need work&mdash;in these commercial days.
-Milligan cleared fifty thousand only last week, just by buying a
-concern and turning it into a company. He’s a prominent man, a
-politician, a baronet. Ten years ago he kept a newspaper and sweetstuff
-shop at Hornsey. Lady Milligan, whose drawing-room gowns are sketched
-in the fashion papers, boiled toffee and sold it in pennyworths. No one
-calls Milligan a blackguard.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He must have swindled somebody. It’s impossible else.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Of course he did. But everybody swindles<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-149">[149]</a></span> everybody else&mdash;that’s the
-commercial spirit; it has made us a great nation.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Jethro&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Was born with a silver spoon in his mouth. He is a fool; without his
-inheritance, he’d be plowing and hay-making. Why discuss idly and waste
-time? The dinner gong will sound soon.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He took out his watch. It was a costly gold hunter, which he had bought
-in his brief prosperous time. He had put it in her hands only half an
-hour before his arrest&mdash;when Overent and Bladden had flown with forty
-thousand pounds and he was madly packing his bag in the Bloomsbury back
-bedroom.
-</p>
-<p>
-“What am I to do?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Get two hundred pounds out of Jethro. I will go away and make my
-fortune. Some day, when you read the papers&mdash;a day old,” he sneered,
-“you’ll see my name as chairman of a public dinner, or recipient of a
-testimonial. I mean to be generous&mdash;when generosity can be made to pay.
-I’ll present my district with a public library, a clock tower, or a
-drinking fountain, and be knighted.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’ll come to Folly Corner sometimes?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Never.” Even his honor, just because he was a man, was stronger than
-hers. “I thought at first that it would work&mdash;you as Jethro’s wife, I
-as Nancy’s husband. But you are one of those emotional women who go to
-the devil and drag a man with them. When I leave here it will be for
-good. You won’t even know my address.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I couldn’t bear it.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-150">[150]</a></span>
-Her eyes were not on him, but on the lattice. She looked across the
-great field, with its uplands and its belt of oaks. She had seen it in
-so many aspects&mdash;half shorn; plowed, the wet furrows shining like
-glass; seen it smoothly iced with January snow; watched the green
-needle-points of young grain. That outlook, that deep bay window, had
-known the tearing of her heart.
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked. The ripeness of harvest was suggested. There were the long
-stretches of gray-green grain, soon to be golden, soon to rustle with
-the dry, hot breeze of August. She saw the tossed-up lavish boughs of
-wild roses wreathing above the hedge-rows, and saw the long grass on
-the banks, tropical in its growth, and going rapidly to seed.
-</p>
-<p>
-She couldn’t stay here and watch the changes of the season for
-years&mdash;year after year and then death&mdash;without word of him.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I couldn’t bear it,” she repeated.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You wouldn’t be fool enough to throw Jethro over? You wouldn’t come
-with me to London and take pot luck&mdash;a knight’s wife some day, perhaps,
-or only the starving wife of&mdash;a number. I mean to be careful&mdash;but
-failure’s on the cards. Even men like Milligan come a cropper now and
-then. I’ve heard shaky stories about him. He doesn’t know when to
-stop.”
-</p>
-<p>
-His eyes were shining. Something of the old passion was stamping itself
-anew on his face. She was looking lovely&mdash;the daredevil expression
-of perfect abandonment and sacrifice strong on her<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-151">[151]</a></span> mouth, on her
-quickly-breathing body, on the very hands which shook in the lap of her
-white gown.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You wouldn’t come?” he said, under his breath.
-</p>
-<p>
-She gave a quick sigh, a last sharp glance at the gray, gently-moving
-uplands and the wreaths of dog-roses.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I would go with you&mdash;anywhere. I would have gone with you to the
-prison, been a number, a thing less than an animal behind the prison
-wall&mdash;but they wouldn’t let me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He put his mouth to hers.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-“Dear little woman! In India you’d go to the Suttee. Then it is
-settled. Tackle Jethro to-night.”
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_111">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-152">[152]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_111_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_111_toc">CHAPTER XI.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-S<small>HE</small> waited until supper was over, and then she asked Jethro for half an
-hour alone in the little room looking due north, where he kept his
-papers, his boots, his agricultural catalogues, stray packets of seeds,
-and so on.
-</p>
-<p>
-The door shut on them. It was nearly dark&mdash;the sun setting luridly and
-throwing a coppery light across the wall. The oak bureau filled one
-corner of the tiny room; turned full to the gaping hearth was a
-high-backed oak chair, with the initials “J.&nbsp;J. 1625” cut into its
-back. An oak chest beneath the window, carved also, and bearing the
-initials “J.&nbsp;J. 1604,” with a coat of arms, showed that the Jaynes had
-in the past been even more important people than they were now. A
-shadow passed the window. Edred, a dog at his heels, the usual fat
-cigar in his mouth, shouted through, saying that he’d stroll up to
-Turle and tell Nancy that he couldn’t go to Malling on Thursday. He
-gave Pamela a significant look and moved off. The copper light burned
-on the wall again. There was a strong scent of jasmine; the wan white
-blossoms looked in at the open window. Pamela sat in the chair by the
-grate, her head against the carved wood.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I wanted to speak to you about my&mdash;about Edred,” she said.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-153">[153]</a></span>
-“I’m going to speak to him myself,” Jethro returned promptly. “He
-oughtn’t to be loafing about here like this. The place is big enough
-for all of us, but it’s bad for a man to be out of collar so long.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He’s very anxious to get something to do. He is full of ideas. He is
-very clever.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro did not answer. He was sitting on the end of the chest, his back
-to the window, one foot in a heavy shoe idly dangling. His clean-cut,
-rugged face was in shadow; her guilty conscience made her fancy that
-his mouth was relentless.
-</p>
-<p>
-“He doesn’t want to go to sea again,” she straggled on. “His nerves
-have been tried&mdash;you can understand that?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“What <i>does</i> he want?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She heard the wicket-gate creak. Through the summer haze and the misty,
-heavy-leaved trees she saw him pass along the road; white dog at his
-heels, burning tobacco between his lips.
-</p>
-<p>
-“He wants two hundred pounds. He would go away from Folly Corner; never
-come back, never trouble you for a penny more, for a meal, even.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro’s light eyes opened. They looked to her like filings of steel in
-the uncertain light. His voice came through the twilight suspiciously.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Why does he talk like that? He is your brother, isn’t he? I want my
-wife’s brother to have the run of my house whenever he’s in the
-neighborhood.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He is afraid that he has trespassed on your hospitality too long.” How
-parrot-like her voice was, how stilted her words! She burst out
-feverishly:
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-154">[154]</a></span>
-“Give him the two hundred pounds&mdash;if you love me. Let him go at once.
-If he delays he may lose his chance. I don’t understand business, but
-he will explain it to you; it is something that will not wait.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He could come back for the wedding.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“We shouldn’t want him; we could manage without him, I mean. He would
-not be able to get away; business&mdash;a new business would be too
-engrossing.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Two hundred pounds is a good lump.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But to set him up in life&mdash;to get rid of him.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You don’t want to get rid of your own flesh and blood, surely! There’s
-no hurry. Wait until after the wedding. It’s in August&mdash;just six
-weeks.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He got up, bent over the high chair in his clumsy, hearty fashion, and
-kissed her mouth. That kiss decided her, made her inflexible. She
-gulped down a little scornful laugh in her throat: a man who kissed in
-that way deserved to be jilted.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Go back to the chest,” she cried petulantly. “This isn’t the proper
-time for nonsense; we are talking business. You will give him the money
-at once, won’t you?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I must think it over. Two hundred pounds!”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It is nothing to you&mdash;everything to us.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“To him.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“To him&mdash;that is what I meant. Open the bureau; get your check-book. It
-will only take a moment.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“There is no hurry. I never rush things. I’ll talk the affair over with
-Edred to-morrow&mdash;no, on<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-155">[155]</a></span> Wednesday, before I drive in to market.
-To-morrow I must see old Crisp, of the Flagon House, about that rye of
-his.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He pulled a wan, white jasmine bloom to pieces slowly, put his head
-half out of the window into the damp, scented air, and said casually
-that a couple of bats had flown out of the ivy.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her palms tingled with rage and despair. This matter of two hundred
-pounds was nothing to him. The clock in the dining-parlor struck nine
-very softly; on the hedge across the road a nightingale was performing
-a sad recitative. She jumped to her feet in a passion.
-</p>
-<p>
-“If you don’t promise to give him the two hundred pounds to-morrow
-morning, I’ll go away&mdash;I won’t marry you,” she cried.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro only laughed. He felt so secure. The wedding was to be in six
-weeks; workmen were coming out from Liddleshorn to-morrow to fit up the
-bathroom and paint the place. Nearly every day a young woman came with
-things from the draper’s at Liddleshorn. It was all settled. But she
-looked pretty in a passion. He rose heavily from the chest again.
-</p>
-<p>
-“If you touch me I shall strike you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“What’s the matter, dear? You’ve been cycling too much. I told Edred
-that thirty-five miles would be more than you could manage, and it’s
-nearly forty to Beer Hill and back.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It wasn’t a bit too long a ride. The others did it; even Nancy, who is
-supposed to be so delicate. I cannot endure to think you so mean, so
-lethargic&mdash;over<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-156">[156]</a></span> a little thing. You must give him the money to-morrow,
-or I swear&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Pam.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Don’t call me that. Will you&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He shall have a check to-morrow morning, as you wish it so much.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He opened the bureau.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ve got it in notes somewhere. I meant to bank on Wednesday. Two
-hundred pounds!” Hereditary closeness got the better of him again. “It
-is a good lump. But what is mine is yours&mdash;or will be in six weeks. If
-it makes you happy.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It makes him secure. What are you doing?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro was pressing his broad thumbs carefully into the sides of a
-pigeonhole.
-</p>
-<p>
-“There is a secret drawer here. I wouldn’t show it to everyone&mdash;but you
-are flesh of my flesh.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Not yet.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“In six weeks.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Show me the secret drawer.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Wait a bit; it wants humoring. This is a home-made bureau. My
-great-grandfather was a clever old chap, wasn’t he? I’ve heard my
-father say that when he died the drawer was overhauled for money, but
-all they found was three farthings of the year 1732. Here they are.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The long shallow drawer was open. Bank notes were lying flat and crisp
-in it; in one corner were the farthings, spotted with verdigris.
-</p>
-<p>
-A shadow passed across the window again. Edred put his handsome,
-insouciant face through the tangle of white blossom and green:
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-157">[157]</a></span>
-“Aren’t you two coming out?” he cried chaffingly. “The moon’s up, and I
-never heard the nightingale in better form. I’ll run over to Turle in
-the morning.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela flitted across the dusky room.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We are coming&mdash;in a moment,” she said in a loud voice, looking at him
-significantly; then looking back in the gloom at Jethro&mdash;burly and
-well-favored&mdash;by the open bureau, with its shallow secret drawer and
-pigeon-holes full of bills.
-</p>
-<p>
-She watched Edred go down to the gate and lean over; the twin poplars
-shooting up like two giant brooms above his head, the white dog like a
-wraith in the green light. She shut the window and stepped back into
-the silent little room, which, although it was June, felt cold. Jethro
-had the notes in his hand. She put out hers with a sudden impulse.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Give them to me to give to him&mdash;as a surprise,” she besought faintly.
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked at the bank notes&mdash;white, crisp, heavily lettered with
-black.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Come,” she said, with a forced air of archness and spontaneity, her
-hand still out, and Jethro’s diamonds burning with a pale fire on her
-finger. Her gesture was a trifle ghastly in its struggle after
-playfulness. Her lips were rolled back, showing the set teeth.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was such a sudden, breathless impulse. She looked from one to the
-other&mdash;the man at the bureau, who was so close that she could feel his
-breath&mdash;sweet as a cow’s&mdash;on her hair; the man at the gate, jailed by
-poplars.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-158">[158]</a></span>
-Why shouldn’t she yield to this new impulse? Why shouldn’t she go away
-from them both and begin a new, an absolutely feminine and nunlike
-life? These men drove poor women mad. She knew what a future would be
-with Edred&mdash;delirium, misery, wealth, disaster, disgrace. She knew what
-a future would be with Jethro&mdash;fat ease, heart-hunger. But a future
-apart she did not know. She would run away from them both&mdash;with two
-hundred pounds in her pocket. Two hundred pounds in notes!
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro looked at her strangely.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll give it him myself&mdash;to-morrow morning,” he said soberly, putting
-the notes into the drawer and letting it spring back into its
-hiding-place.
-</p>
-<p>
-She sat down in the oak chair, letting body and brain collapse. She
-didn’t bother to think&mdash;to regret, to rage, to feel. Things were
-decided for her.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’ll give it to him to-morrow morning, then. How serious you are!
-Why do you look at me so oddly? Of course, I did not want the notes.
-You never see a joke.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll go out and have a talk with Edred now about this business. I
-shall be too busy in the morning. You go to bed.” He tried to see her
-face through the teasing dusk which had drawn between them; his voice
-was tender. “You’ve been doing too much lately. Good-night, dear. Have
-a long night’s rest.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Good-night.”
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-As she undressed, slipping her<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-159">[159]</a></span> petticoats from her waist to her feet,
-she saw through the half-drawn dimity curtains the two men and the dog
-strolling about in the uncertain moonlight. Jethro looked magnificently
-broad and kingly. When she stretched herself in the bed, almost sinking
-in the feathers, she told herself that this might be her last night at
-Folly Corner. Before she went to sleep she recalled Jethro’s girth and
-bearing, together with his balance at the bank, and hesitated.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_112">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-160">[160]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_112_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_112_toc">CHAPTER XII.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-N<small>EXT</small> morning when she awoke workmen were hammering and whistling. When
-she looked out of her window she saw scaffolding. Long ladders were set
-up stealthily against the old red walls. They were getting Folly Corner
-ready for a bride. Those long ladders, that swung scaffolding, reminded
-her that her wedding-day was fixed. She dressed and went down into the
-garden, where the roses were all embroidered with dew and a white mist
-puffed slowly across the meadows beyond the hedge. It was very early.
-Len Daborn, going heavily to his work, looked like a patriarch, with
-his crook-like stick and spreading white beard. She thought of his
-daughters, all maids&mdash;because the bees had swarmed in the thatch. She
-was very anxious to see Edred before breakfast, and, picking up one of
-the potatoes which Daborn had left on the ground when he took the trug
-to Hone, threw it in at the open window, crying, with meretricious
-raillery:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Come down. It is a lovely morning.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She tried to speak quite airily, purposely choosing her words and tone.
-Jethro was already about&mdash;looking after the young turkeys. Edred, his
-voice muffled by sleep and the drawn curtains, called out that he
-wouldn’t be long. She healed her heart by looking at her roses. The
-garden always comforted<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-161">[161]</a></span> her&mdash;drew her to it with strange, silent
-magnetism. Before he came down, heavy-eyed and irritable, as he always
-was in the early morning, she had decided, with infinite relief, that
-she would stay at Folly Corner, and let him go back alone, fight life
-alone, take his garish triumphs and risks without her.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Jethro’s going to give you the two hundred pounds this morning,” she
-said tersely, hardly lifting her head.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You are a brick, Pam. We can leave here this afternoon. Pretend that
-you have promised to take me over to Annie Jayne’s. We’ll bike to the
-station. Never mind luggage. I can spare you plenty of frocks out of
-the two hundred. London to-night. We’ll dine somewhere&mdash;a good dinner.
-Then I’ll drive you to Bloomsbury&mdash;they’ll take you in. I can go to a
-hotel. To-morrow I’ll get a license and we’ll be married.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She picked a rose and pressed her nose right into the exquisite petals.
-The fresh morning air, the farm sounds; dew, sun in a haze of slow
-fire, bees streaming brown and yellow from the hives, the old house
-foaming with the loose Devoniensis rose and lichened to the roof&mdash;all
-these drew her.
-</p>
-<p>
-“To-morrow morning,” he continued, with satisfaction, “I shall be able
-to have a whisky-and-soda directly I wake. It pulls a fellow together.
-Leave me alone with old Jeth after breakfast&mdash;I’m sorry for the poor
-devil; you are treating him badly&mdash;but a woman has no heart. And, Pam,
-hurry up dinner to-day. We’d better start soon after.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-162">[162]</a></span>
-Jethro came round the house from the yard. He looked a little careless
-and rough. Directly he caught Pamela’s glance, his aristocratic face,
-with the wholesome russet skin, lighted, and he jerked his thumb, with
-a smile and a droll, tender gesture, toward the tall ladders and the
-litter of the builders.
-</p>
-<p>
-The house&mdash;restful, spacious, substantial; the figure beside it, all
-honest devotion, decided her. She turned to Edred, lithe and dark,
-flushed at the prospect of early emancipation from Folly Corner, which
-had been to him merely a rambling prison with lax rules.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ve altered my mind,” she whispered hurriedly, not daring to look at
-him, not daring to stand close, for fear her hand should touch his
-coat-sleeve and make her waver. “I’ll stay. I’ll marry Jethro. Don’t
-come down. Lead your own life. In future, as you said, I shall only
-know you in the newspapers&mdash;a day late. I shall be content, happy;
-you’ll be free.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He stared at her in frank amazement. He was disappointed, astounded,
-relieved.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’ll stay.” He gave his cynical smile; then, as Jethro came up, his
-face shining and his hands soiled with the poultry-yard, he strolled
-off.
-</p>
-<p>
-When breakfast was over she threw a look of meaning across the table
-and left the room. As she turned to shut the door she saw the two men
-disappear in the direction of Jethro’s little den&mdash;the home-made bureau
-was in there, with the secret drawer and the bank notes.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah was already settled at the oval table by<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-163">[163]</a></span> the window, cutting
-patchwork hearts, with the aid of a piece of carefully shaped tin.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela went along the narrow passage into the drawing-room and tried to
-dust, to rearrange china, alter furniture&mdash;anything for bodily energy.
-</p>
-<p>
-Now and then she heard the loose lick of a plasterer’s brush. The
-workmen outside were whistling blithely and calling to each other. They
-all seemed to be named Bill. She sat down on the couch and laughed
-foolishly. Why was the workingman always called Bill?
-</p>
-<p>
-Nettie, the supercilious smirk stronger than usual on her pretty face,
-came in to ask for the grocer’s list; the man was at the back door
-waiting for orders. She gave it, forgetting nothing&mdash;table salt,
-bedroom candles, matches, more turpentine&mdash;they had their own
-beeswax&mdash;all the irritating, narrow things that make up the sum total
-of a well-managed house. When the girl had gone, she sat down,
-listening to the fluty whistles and rough voices outside, and wondering
-if she would ever again give the order for the grocer.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was a weathercock. Hadn’t she said that she would stay and be
-Jethro’s wife? Edred had not been disappointed&mdash;but then he took
-everything with a hard, cynical philosophy. She was to be Jethro’s
-wife. Then why did she listen so intently for the opening and shutting
-of doors; why gasp and spring to her feet at a footstep?
-</p>
-<p>
-She was standing, the checked duster in one hand, the other painfully
-at her side, when Jethro came in. Her white face was all lines and
-furrows.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-164">[164]</a></span>
-“I’ve given Edred the notes,” he said shortly. “He wants to be off as
-soon as possible. I shan’t go to the Flagon House; very likely I shall
-meet old Crisp at market to-morrow. We’ll all drive to the station in
-the wagonette after dinner.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He looked annoyed; the two hundred pounds had gone against the grain;
-he was naturally close-fisted&mdash;it was the quality which had made the
-fortunes of his house. Presently his face lighted, and he said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“What color would you like them to paint the outside of the place? The
-foreman suggests chocolate, but I fancy a nice green.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It must be white,” she said positively. “That is fashionable now, and
-so clean and fresh&mdash;in the country.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Then I’ll tell him white. You’d like to see the last of Edred? We
-might drive round by Turle on the way back; Nancy will be upset&mdash;I
-thought there would be a match there.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She didn’t answer; only rubbed viciously at the polished table.
-</p>
-<p>
-All that morning she kept away from Edred, although she saw him
-lounging about outside&mdash;in the garden, in the orchard, waiting for a
-word with her. At dinner-time she came down in her most becoming dress.
-Her cheeks were flushed, and her gray eyes sparkled and darted. She ate
-very little. The two men made a hearty meal, Edred very voluble betwixt
-his hurried mouthfuls&mdash;talking to Jethro in the superior, pitying way
-of the town man. Gainah said nothing; they had ceased to regard her.
-She was a machine. She stitched all day; she fed<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-165">[165]</a></span> methodically; she
-stared at them with her glassy, stupid eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro went out to hurry Daborn with the horse. Pamela, the untasted
-pudding steaming on her plate, got up with a jerk, and spoke of putting
-on her hat and gloves. Edred, who had been trying to catch her eye all
-through the meal, touched her softly on the back of the hand with his
-fingers. She gave a little cry, and flinched as if they had been hot
-coal. Her wide eyes, searching his face for the first time, were wildly
-appealing. He was piqued by her decision to stay behind and marry
-Jethro. Now that there was a chance of losing her, she suddenly became
-desirable.
-</p>
-<p>
-“This won’t do,” he whispered eagerly. “You must come.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I can’t. Everything is settled.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Pooh! You could arrange&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-He had her hand. He was looking at her ardently. The impulse to go with
-him&mdash;let fate bring what it might&mdash;was strong. She looked at him. He
-was more in earnest, more in love than he had ever been. She had always
-understood that it was a mistake to let a man know you loved him&mdash;but
-then her feeling had always been so intense that she had been incapable
-of hiding it. Her love had bubbled in her eyes, on her eager lips. But
-it was bad strategy all the same.
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked at the cold, dim room, at the foolishly intent old woman by
-the window, stitching blue hearts on worn white dimity in a perfect
-fury of aimless industry. She looked at the grim shadow<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-166">[166]</a></span> of the yew,
-at the yawning cavern of the open hearth, at the somber furniture. And
-she thought of London, with its glitter, its hurry, and vivacity.
-London and Love! She let her wrist relax, let her whole fluttering hand
-be buried in that long, cool one.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I might arrange&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-She broke off as Jethro came through the low door.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You two ought to be ready,” he called out. “The horse is coming
-round.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She turned and faced him, with her cheeks like rouged cheeks and her
-eyes like polished, many-faceted diamonds.
-</p>
-<p>
-“There is really no need for you to go,” she said unsteadily “Edred
-wouldn’t mind. Let Daborn drive us. You know you had an appointment at
-the Flagon House.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But that was this morning. Of course I’ll come. Be quick and get your
-hat on.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She went up the shallow stairs, woe at her wavering, passionate heart.
-It was no good; he must go alone. It was far better that he should go
-alone.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Edred can sit on the box with me. The wagonette is half filled up with
-luggage,” Jethro said, as she came out of the gate.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We can manage very well behind. Can’t we?” She turned, trembling, to
-Edred, who was digging at his shoes with the point of his cane.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Then jump in.” Jethro had the reins in his hand.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-167">[167]</a></span>
-They flashed along the white roads. She and Edred kept their hands
-clasped under the summer rug of Holland. Once she bent forward, first
-looking cautiously at the figure on the box, and shook her head, and
-whispered:
-</p>
-<p>
-“I can’t do it. You see he <i>would</i> come.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Now and then Jethro, by a flick of his whip, pointed out some
-feature of great interest&mdash;to him: another farmer’s hay or cattle,
-a badly tilled field, a line of old cottages which he had been
-renovating&mdash;putting slate roofs in place of thatch and square panes of
-glass instead of lead lights. Those cottages were for Pamela; the rent
-would be her pin money.
-</p>
-<p>
-As they whizzed down the steep hill leading to the little wayside
-station, the signal fell. The porter, who was just throwing back the
-gates of the level crossing, waited for the horse to pass.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We mustn’t stop to see him off,” Jethro said, as Edred’s baggage was
-got out. “The mare shies at an engine.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“We must wait.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Her voice was so shrill that it startled her. She added, touching
-Jethro’s arm, and feeling like Jael of old as she did so:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Do please wait.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Very well. Here, sonny; hold the horse.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He threw the reins to a boy, and the three of them walked into the tiny
-station. Edred went into the booking office for his ticket. On the
-platform there were several people&mdash;a few rustics, with baskets or
-bulging red cotton handkerchiefs; one<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-168">[168]</a></span> young woman with a tight,
-leafless posy bound carefully round with newspaper.
-</p>
-<p>
-“He ought to have had some flowers,” Jethro said, throwing a glance
-inside at the lean figure at the ticket window.
-</p>
-<p>
-“What would be the good? He hasn’t any home. He will go to an hotel
-to-night.”
-</p>
-<p>
-A wild, impotent desire to go with him made her quiver.
-</p>
-<p>
-Another wagonette drove up and Mrs. Turle with Nancy alighted.
-</p>
-<p>
-The girl’s face flooded when she saw Edred&mdash;in dark clothes&mdash;and saw
-the various leather bags lying about on the platform. They were being
-hurriedly labeled by the porter.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Edred’s going away&mdash;for good.” Pamela turned her veiled cheek to the
-red lips.
-</p>
-<p>
-“To sea?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Nancy’s face grew piteous.
-</p>
-<p>
-“No. To the city.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Then he will come down sometimes.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Perhaps&mdash;but it is doubtful. He has found Folly Corner dull. London is
-so full of attractions for a man.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Going away!” Aunt Sophy’s clear eyes seemed to pierce behind the lying
-mask of her burning face. “Isn’t it very sudden, dear? You look quite
-feverish, Pamela. A touch of headache?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“My head never aches,” she said, almost rudely.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Nancy and I will have an escort up. We are shopping; the summer sales
-get earlier and earlier every year.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-169">[169]</a></span>
-The porter began to clang the noisy brass bell, and along the line,
-which ran perfectly straight for a mile or more, they saw the blue
-smoke and bulky, indistinct outline of the approaching engine:
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll go and hurry Edred.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She stepped out of the sun into the little booking-office, with its
-torn excursion-bills and gay pictures of ocean liners.
-</p>
-<p>
-He was scooping up his change, throwing it, with his accustomed
-carelessly reckless air, into his trousers pocket. The door of the
-waiting-room was half open. On the platform Aunt Sophy was talking
-earnestly to Jethro about farming affairs, and Nancy was staring at the
-enameled advertisement of a local seedsman.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Come in here for a moment.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She jerked her hand toward the open door. They went in. The window was
-of frosted glass.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I can’t go with you,” she said, looking up hopelessly through her
-veil. “You see how it is! Aunt Sophy and Nancy are going up. Everything
-is against us. Perhaps it is as well. Good-by.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He had never been so nearly disposed to sacrifice himself for a woman.
-Then, with his unquenchable selfishness, he remembered too that a
-pretty woman would be positively useful in his mode of life: many a
-dubious bit of business had been pulled off by a good dinner and an
-attractive woman. She was so devoted to him. A devoted woman was
-invaluable and very rare. They usually played their own game.
-</p>
-<p>
-He kissed her turbulently on her closed eyes,<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-170">[170]</a></span> through the crisp net,
-on her burning cheeks and dry lips. They both felt the rush and sway of
-the train as it rushed into the station. They both became conscious of
-a figure in the narrow door. She lifted her head, unclasped her fierce
-arms, to see Jethro.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We were saying good-by,” she stammered.
-</p>
-<p>
-Edred was cool.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Pam and I have always been chums&mdash;we were left in the world together,”
-he said in a matter-of-fact way, and insolently meeting the doubt in
-Jethro’s steely eyes. “Good-by, old girl. By the way, I’ll send you a
-telegram when I get to town, just to let you know I am all right.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He went out into the sun, got into a carriage with the Turles, raised
-his hat gayly as the train steamed out.
-</p>
-<p>
-He was gone. It was all over. The railway banks were gay with
-snapdragons, self-sown; ferns had sown themselves in the cutting and
-thrust out their fronds like forked green tongues. The station-master’s
-black-and-tan terrier bounded round Pamela’s skirts. Every little thing
-was emphasized&mdash;as it would be in a nightmare.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Did you think to ask Aunt Sophy the name of her kitchen-range?” asked
-Jethro, as they went slowly up the hill.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was on the box beside him. She felt cold and sick. She looked back
-now and then at the empty seats.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It is the Camelot,” she returned mechanically, and for the rest of the
-drive she kept saying to herself,<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-171">[171]</a></span> in a dazed way, “Camelot,” as if it
-were a new word.
-</p>
-<p>
-After tea Jethro drove to the Flagon House, saying he might stay to
-supper. Folly Corner was quiet, growing mystic with twilight. Pamela
-went down the bricked path, without a glance at the rich mosaic of the
-herbaceous borders, and stood between the poplars, her arms on the
-gate. By and by a boy came along the road. When he got close she saw
-that he carried a red envelope. She took it languidly, saying that
-there was no answer, and paying him sixpence for porterage.
-</p>
-<blockquote class="letter">
-<p>
-“Be ready to start for London with me at half-past ten to-night. Am
-coming back. Will wait under yew.”
-</p>
-</blockquote>
-<p>
-It had been sent from Liddleshorn. Edred was waiting at Liddleshorn
-now&mdash;waiting for the night, which was always kind to criminals.
-</p>
-<p>
-She went into the house, put a few things together. Jethro came in soon
-after nine. He was a bit surly&mdash;he had surly fits occasionally.
-To-night she took no notice. She couldn’t find it in her heart to look
-at him, knowing the part she was going to play.
-</p>
-<p>
-By ten she was dressed and standing under the yew. Her bag and
-umbrella, set against the wall of the house, seemed a grotesquely
-modern touch beside the silence and starlight, in contrast to the sharp
-delight and terror of her own face.
-</p>
-<p>
-How white and gaunt the ladders and scaffolding looked! What a queer,
-old-world interior the<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-172">[172]</a></span> dining-room made! She could see straight
-through; they rarely drew the curtains these light June nights.
-</p>
-<p>
-The night-jar called harshly, a beetle dashed against her face, then
-whirred away. From the stall came loud, human-sounding, trumpeting
-moans. They made her shudder. She knew that one of the cows was
-calving. Once she saw the light of a lantern&mdash;muddy and yellow, like a
-bilious eye, beside the hard stars&mdash;go round the building. She hid
-behind the yew, listening to the steady clump of Boyce’s boots as he
-went in to tend the animal.
-</p>
-<p>
-The church clock struck a quarter to eleven. He was late, a quarter of
-an hour late; perhaps they wouldn’t catch the last up-train from
-Liddleshorn. Very likely he was out in the road merely waiting, as a
-matter of prudence, until Boyce went away. The loud moans of the
-tortured cow struck her heart.
-</p>
-<p>
-She strained her eyes, expecting every moment to see the tall, lithe
-figure steal across the garden. She strained her ears, imagining she
-heard the sharp ring of hoofs along the road. They came nearer, more
-certain, more distinct. She advanced like a guilty thing to the gate,
-creeping along in the starlight. Each time she reached the poplar there
-was perfect silence. Each time she looked along the road it stretched
-straight and blank across the common. Yet when she waited at the yew
-again she fancied that she heard the ring of those quick hoofs.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-173">[173]</a></span>
-The quarters chimed on. Boyce, with his yellow-eyed lantern, shuffled
-out of sight. The world was only stars and boding night-jar and
-sentinel trees which had hardly stirred a leaf in the hot, still air.
-</p>
-<p>
-Twelve! Two clocks chimed midnight together, tripping each other up,
-like stammering tongues.
-</p>
-<p>
-He would never come now. Even as she stood there, sick and flushing,
-the whistle of the last up-train tore the night, and on the horizon she
-saw the lurid tail of fire.
-</p>
-<p>
-She only wanted him to come, to creep behind the yew and kiss her, as
-he had kissed that little pink fool, Nancy Turle. She didn’t trouble
-her head about anything more; didn’t add to her agitation by worrying
-over practical details. They could walk under the stars until
-dawn&mdash;anything. Mere trifles like food, sleep, sore feet, light head,
-were nothing. If only he would come! Those maddening hoofs kept ringing
-along the road. A dozen times she ran along the bricked path.
-</p>
-<p>
-As the clock struck one she turned away, went under the hooded door
-like a thief, up the still staircase into her own room. She flung
-herself, wide awake, dry-eyed, and tingling, on her smooth bed.
-</p>
-<p>
-At two she heard the steady passing of feet&mdash;not Boyce’s this time.
-With a strangled cry of joy she slipped off the bed and glided to the
-open window. The stars were clouded, and a violent summer rain struck
-straight from the sky. The feet stopped below Jethro’s window, a rattle
-of gravel went against the glass. She looked out cautiously; listened;
-heard Chalcraft tell his master that the ricks were<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-174">[174]</a></span> not covered.
-Jethro answered back that he, too, had heard the rain, and would be
-down directly.
-</p>
-<p>
-She heard him go down, heard the feet of the two men die away. Every
-star was hidden. It was too dark to see anything.
-</p>
-<p>
-She returned to the bed without undressing. She lay there flat on her
-back, fully clothed, with her hands and lips clenched. Jethro came back
-to the house, to his bed. She heard him steal by her door without his
-shoes.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-There was silence. Then the restless life of the farm began. Cocks
-crowed; there were feet along the wet road. Across the fields, through
-the dimness and mystery of the half-born day, Boyce, the cowman, was
-weirdly hooting in the morning mist for the cattle to come and be
-milked.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_113">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-175">[175]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_113_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_113_toc">CHAPTER XIII.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-“M<small>OTHER</small> used to say that when a girl was married she should wear a
-bonnet and never jest with gentlemen. Mrs. Clutton’s hats are very
-large, and her manner to Jim has always been flippant.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Annie Jayne, her hair already thin at the temples, and her pretty
-narrow brow seamed with a thousand solicitous premature creases, looked
-down fondly at her second baby. Its legs had been unswathed; it was
-kicking and gurgling on the drawing-room rug.
-</p>
-<p>
-“She certainly is a little flippant&mdash;I must say that,” admitted Aunt
-Sophy diplomatically, as she beamed at the rug, and gave vent to a
-voluble string of infantile expletives.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You never should have called on her,” Maria Furlonger cried
-reproachfully. “And it did have boofy nickle legs, so it did.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She, too, beamed at the baby. He returned her wide grin with a look of
-stolid, pitying superiority. Annie, her eyes swimming with tenderness
-as they rested on the naked, purplish limbs, said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Isn’t it <i>wonderful</i>, the way he takes notice?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She is no more married than you are&mdash;than I am,” Maria continued,
-returning to the attack, and pulling her mouth back to its natural
-limits.
-</p>
-<p>
-Annie and Aunt Sophy froze a little after the manner of matrons. They
-said instinctively and together:
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-176">[176]</a></span>
-“My <i>dear!</i>”
-</p>
-<p>
-“A married man never sneaks home to his wife after dark when he has
-been away for months,” Maria persisted. “It was past ten. Mrs. Daborn
-was calling in her cat&mdash;the tortoiseshell she has had for sixteen
-years. You know that Si Daborn’s cottage is just opposite the Buttery.
-She saw him go in like a thief&mdash;not even a hand-bag.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“A married man always has luggage. Mother used to pack father’s bag
-herself. If there are buttons off or a thin place in the socks it
-reflects on the wife.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I must say”&mdash;Aunt Sophy held out her finger for the child to
-clutch&mdash;“that a gentleman doesn’t usually&mdash;return from South
-America&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Without so much as a tooth-brush,” broke in Maria.
-</p>
-<p>
-“He might have had it in his pocket,” Annie reminded her gently. “We
-mustn’t condemn until we are certain.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“They came down quite coolly to breakfast in the morning,” Maria
-continued. “Not a word of explanation to Tryphena&mdash;Hone’s eldest girl;
-the Hones of Marrow’s farm. I was always against Tryphena taking
-service at the Buttery. The Hones are in my district.”
-</p>
-<p>
-There was a little pause. The baby broke it by cooing. Then Maria cried
-out suddenly:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Good gracious! He can’t be the Birmingham murderer in hiding at the
-Buttery. He may be her husband, after all&mdash;which makes it all the more
-reprehensible. Mrs. Daborn tells me he looked a <i>most</i><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-177">[177]</a></span> suspicious
-character: one of those men with a bronzed face, bold eyes, and a suit
-with a large check.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Mrs. Si Daborn is nearly blind with cataract.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You always try to make out a good case for people, Annie. Mrs. Si
-Daborn can see a large-checked suit. She is a most respectable old
-soul; I think a great deal of her judgment. Her eldest daughter married
-a builder; he is in a large way of business at Walthamstow.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“A murderer! Maria!” Aunt Sophy for once forgot to be diplomatically
-gentle. “I must say that it isn’t wise to talk so wildly. You’ll
-frighten Annie and upset the darling baby.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The Birmingham murderer! Is that the man who murdered his employer and
-his employer’s six motherless children? Boiled them in the copper,
-didn’t he?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Annie put the questions quite calmly&mdash;as if they merely referred to a
-family recipe for making pickled walnuts.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes, that’s the man.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Then he can’t be at the Buttery. Jim brought home the evening paper
-from Liddleshorn. There is a portrait of the murderer and his
-victims&mdash;<i>before</i> they went into the copper&mdash;poor things. He was
-arrested. He committed suicide in his cell.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The sweet, spiteful expression stole across Aunt Sophy’s face as she
-glanced at Maria, who only said tartly:
-</p>
-<p>
-“He wasn’t the only criminal in the country, after all. Read the papers
-regularly, both of you, and<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-178">[178]</a></span> see how many crimes there are which are
-never fastened on to the right person.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I rather thought,” said Annie placidly, “that Pamela would come up to
-tea. I told her that I was going to short-coat baby to-day.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Rather funny about her brother, wasn’t it?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Maria had a faculty for starting aggressive subjects.
-</p>
-<p>
-Aunt Sophy put on her best dignity air&mdash;the air she adopted toward
-people who only kept one servant, who hadn’t a “conveyance,” who didn’t
-get invited to the Vicarage.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I used to think that he was courting Nancy,” Maria continued,
-unabashed.
-</p>
-<p>
-“My dear! What an extraordinary notion! Isn’t darling Maria’s brain
-original, Annie? Nancy is almost engaged to Mr. Minns, the Liddleshorn
-curate. He is an extremely intellectual young man. Naturally he was
-drawn to Nancy, whose tastes are so literary.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela was slowly driving up the hill in her governess car. She was
-startled by a sharp voice behind. It took little to startle her. Her
-gray eyes had lately a vague, fixed look&mdash;they seemed to petrify as the
-wedding-day grew near&mdash;a day not to be evaded.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I thought that I should never make you hear.” Mrs. Clutton put one
-hand on the cart and the other to her pulsing brown throat.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’m sorry. Jump in. Are you going to the Mount?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Not I. My reception wouldn’t be warm.”<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-179">[179]</a></span> She laughed merrily. “You must
-have heard the scandal.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“What scandal?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela’s high voice seemed to whistle through her teeth; the reins
-dropped slackly on Betsy’s back.
-</p>
-<p>
-“About my husband, of course. He came home quite unexpectedly last
-night; came just as he was from his club, where he is putting up until
-we settle. I opened the door myself; Tryphena was in bed. He looked so
-big and brown and self-assured&mdash;so prosperous&mdash;nothing of the flabby,
-dubious, hard-up artist about him. He ate cold pork for supper, and
-slept all night. No more dyspepsia, no more rows! He is a success&mdash;a
-decent income assured us for life. He climbed some peak in America that
-no one else has ever climbed. His book will be the sensation of the
-season.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She stopped, her black eyes snapping and gleaming.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’m very glad,” Pamela said, with a kind of sad heartiness. “Very glad
-that someone is going to be happy.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Someone else, you mean. Your happiness is beyond question, though
-happiness is only attitude. What alterations Mr. Jayne is making at
-Folly Corner!”
-</p>
-<p>
-“We couldn’t do without a new wing. A country house isn’t complete
-without a billiard-room,” Pamela said, with her limp, forced air of
-breeding, of doing the “correct thing.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“And your brother will be bringing men down, week ends, no doubt.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-180">[180]</a></span>
-“Edred!” She caught the reins up tightly. “He will not come again.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Mrs. Clutton looked at her shrewdly. Then she said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Tim and I are to live at Chelsea; one of those delightful new houses,
-all white paint and wrought iron. He has gone back to town. He is much
-too busy to stay. I am making all arrangements for leaving the Buttery
-at the end of the week. He was so delighted with the oak. When I showed
-him my notebook, full of rustic skeletons, he fairly shouted. It will
-make a most sensational thing to run in an up-to-date paper: daily
-installments, skillfully backed up by interviews, paragraphs,
-photographs of the Chelsea house, when we are settled.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“There is nothing scandalous in all this.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“How discursive I am! Never mind. You will hear it all, from the proper
-point of view, at the Mount. I can see them sitting in judgment! Annie
-Jayne, quoting her mother; that horrid Maria Furlonger, an animated
-sneer; dear Mrs. Turle, trying to pull both ways, enjoying the scandal
-and yet not wishing to take sides against me, in case Tim should turn
-out all right and be a vehicle for eligible bachelors. She has a fury
-for marrying Nancy.
-</p>
-<p>
-“A married man should come back with his halter round his neck. Tim
-should have had the station fly full of boxes. He just walked in
-without a word&mdash;without a clean collar or a nightshirt. I thought that
-he was in Venezuela. When Tryphena saw us both come down next morning
-she dropped the<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-181">[181]</a></span> butter-dish&mdash;hand-painted willow&mdash;the little fool! Then
-she sneaked off and told her mother. Mrs. Hone, very fat, very shiny
-with outraged virtue, came back to say that she couldn’t allow <i>her</i>
-girl to stay in such a place. <i>Her</i> children had always been brought
-up respectable. No one could say that one of <i>her</i> daughters had been
-compelled to marry in a hurry.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“And you are going away? You won’t be here for my wedding&mdash;a week next
-Thursday.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’m afraid not. But you must come and see us in town. I’ve told Tim
-all about you. He adores big, dun-haired girls. He likes women as he
-likes wine&mdash;with body.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I want you to go to Mrs. Hone’s,” she continued, “that is why I ran
-after the cart. Say I’ll give her five shillings for that figure with
-the skull in its hand. Tim thinks an exhibition of Staffordshire would
-be a good idea.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Bert Hone’s?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes. He is dead. Queer old savage! Good-by. I’m going to talk to the
-landlord of the Buttery.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She turned off at the cross-roads. Pamela drove to Mrs. Hone’s, haggled
-for the figure, wrapped it in newspaper, and put it in the cart. As she
-did so she mentioned carelessly that Mrs. Clutton was going away.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Be she now?” the doubled-up old woman cried. “Sure! London now. You
-don’t say so, my dear soul. I shall miss her. When my man died she came
-in to look at him. He worked up to<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-182">[182]</a></span> the very last, although he was so
-old&mdash;past eighty. He took his turn with the hayin’. He never wasted a
-hour; it was Sunday when he died, so it was. She come and looked at
-him a-layin’ in his coffin, and she shed a tear. The other ladies gi’
-me black clothes. Young Mis’ Jayne up at the Mount brought the little
-baby for me to see, and Mis’ Turle sent Miss Nancy down with a bottle
-o’ doctor’s stuff&mdash;it’s nothin’ but camphor; jest smell it. But Mis’
-Clutton brought a fine wreath like wax. He went down into his grave as
-if he was a gentleman farmer. Nobody else thought o’ flowers; wreaths
-aint for the likes o’ we.”
-</p>
-<p>
-As Pamela turned the pony’s head she decided not to go to the Mount
-that day. There were still moments when Annie’s impenetrability and
-Aunt Sophy’s phlegm jarred.
-</p>
-<p>
-She drove home across the common. It was a burning day&mdash;the last in
-July. There was a ticking sound in the hot air, as the black seed pods
-of the broom burst. High in the sky was an intense angry sun, swept now
-and then by boding thunder-clouds. Across the common stretched a carpet
-of heather, exquisite purple, just breaking into bloom. When she turned
-off and drove down Waggoner’s Lane on the way to Folly Corner, the
-hedges were full of blackberry blossoms, widely opened, and pale
-heliotrope. There was a fishy smell of privet from a cottage garden,
-and the soft, tearing swish of a scythe came from a field. The high
-hedges were hung with butter-colored hay, which had caught in the
-branches as the loaded wain toiled by. At<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-183">[183]</a></span> Folly Corner, in her
-garden, the long edgings of white pinks were dry, and brown, and
-scentless, and sad. The elder tree which hung over the barn was shabby.
-The leaves on the poplars rustled dryly, as they never had done in
-June.
-</p>
-<p>
-The newspaper, which the carrier brought daily from Liddleshorn, was on
-the table in the corridor, neatly folded, tied with twine, and
-addressed to Jethro. She carried it into the drawing-room and read it
-listlessly. Politics didn’t interest her&mdash;foreign politics in
-particular seemed singularly superfluous. But she read the art
-notices and the reviews of new books as a matter of duty, and the
-advertisements as a matter of interest. There were twelve pages to the
-paper that day. One was taken up with an advertisement&mdash;the prospectus
-of a new company. It was something about a ruby mine&mdash;it didn’t matter
-much, anyhow. She was far too languid to read it all. Still, her eye
-ran listlessly down. When she came to the names of the directors she
-cried out. Edred Crisp, Esq., of Marquise Mansions, W., headed the
-list.
-</p>
-<p>
-That name brought everything back. She drove it into her brain letter
-by letter. She stared at it so long, so fixedly, that her eyes played
-pranks, and the one name, Edred Crisp, took up the whole sheet.
-</p>
-<p>
-There was a barking of dogs, a grating grind of wheels outside,
-Jethro’s voice. She jumped up, her face suddenly stern, desperate. She
-looked out of the window, her head framed in fully-blown roses which
-had shriveled and turned brown.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Come in here,” she said metallically, looking at<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-184">[184]</a></span> the spare figure and
-keen, kind eyes. “I want to speak to you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“My boots are dirty.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Never mind. Come now; if you don’t, I may change again, and that will
-be the worse for both of us.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Until he came in at the door, stooping his head a little because it was
-so low, she kept her throbbing eyes upon those words, “Edred Crisp,
-Esq., Marquise Mansions, W.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ve been to Liddleshorn and seen Preece about the wedding-cake,” he
-said.
-</p>
-<p>
-“The wedding-cake!” she repeated blankly. “Oh, you need not have
-troubled. It does not matter in the least.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro was looking puzzled&mdash;a little annoyed, too. Her unequal moods of
-late vexed him. He was a short-tempered man, given to fits of silence
-and <i>brusquerie</i>, just as his father had been. Men in the country are
-often so; she had noticed that young Jim Jayne snubbed Annie. In towns
-a man goes out and blows off his temper&mdash;at his club or a music-hall;
-in the country he vents it on his women.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Doesn’t matter? That sounds strange from you, Pamela.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She laughed. The steady look in her eyes, the lambent light on
-her face, struck him. She seemed swept, dominated by a sudden
-fierce, irrevocable decision. The newspaper, wide open at the
-page-advertisement of the new company, was on her knees. She put her
-finger under Edred’s name and showed it to him.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-185">[185]</a></span>
-“Umph! Well, he has never written a line since he went away&mdash;didn’t
-even send the telegram. Still, I’m glad he’s getting on. Looks like
-business, doesn’t it?” He read the name and address in a rather
-awe-struck way. “There seems to be money in that. How much capital, do
-they say? He hasn’t been long in making his fortune. Perhaps he’ll pay
-me back the two hundred. It was understood between us to be only a
-loan&mdash;if he succeeded. What are the Chinese beggars doing at&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-He lifted the paper to turn it. She drew it away.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Never mind the Chinese. You will have time&mdash;your whole life&mdash;for
-them.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“My whole life!” He laughed. “By Jove! we mean to settle them in less
-than a month&mdash;judging by the telegrams. Just let me have a look at the
-summary, dear.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But I want to speak to you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You have spoken. It was to tell me about Edred, wasn’t it?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“About Edred&mdash;yes.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You haven’t had a letter from him? You don’t know anything but that?”
-He pointed to the paper.
-</p>
-<p>
-She shook her head.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ve never had a letter from him since he left; but this,” she put her
-finger on the words, “has decided me. The mere look of the letters put
-together to form <i>him</i> was enough. Can’t you guess, Jethro? You are not
-stupid.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Guess!” An angry darkness suddenly overspread his face. “Guess what?”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-186">[186]</a></span>
-“You don’t guess. You only suspect&mdash;and suspicion never decides a
-woman’s fate. I shall have to tell you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She seemed to pull herself together, giving a last fierce look of
-affection round the room and out of the window, at the flowers and the
-fripperies that she was so fond of. Then she said coldly&mdash;with the
-unerring cold, callousness of steel:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Edred is not my brother. He was my lover in London. We were engaged to
-be married. He got into trouble&mdash;some business affair. The others were
-to blame. They got away and he had to pay the penalty. When I came here
-he was in prison. I decided never to see him again; not to let him know
-my address. He came to the back door with machines that day&mdash;that day,
-dear; oh, Jethro, I’m so sorry&mdash;when you gave me the check for my
-wedding things and asked me about the pet lamb. I can’t marry you; I
-can’t stay. He doesn’t love me&mdash;as you do. He’ll be unkind to me: he’s
-that sort of man. I’m a fool, a traitor&mdash;everything that is ignoble.
-Why don’t you strike me?” She threw up her face and looked at him
-mournfully&mdash;that wild, sharp face, which was just a mask for her
-racking brain.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Why don’t you curse me? I have spoilt your life&mdash;but it might have
-been worse. If he came back, or sent a message saying he wanted me, I
-should have gone. Yes, your wife, Jethro, would have gone. I’ve been
-trying to cure myself. I saw his name, and it all came back. He was the
-first man&mdash;no one else before had said or looked love, or<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-187">[187]</a></span> kissed
-me. I suppose that must be the reason. There can be no other&mdash;he is
-worthless. You are a god compared to him. But he was first. I can’t
-help it.” She shook her head hopelessly, the molten, heavy tears
-rolling slowly down her face.
-</p>
-<p>
-“That isn’t all. You shall know the very worst. Then you won’t care so
-much. You’ll drive me away from Folly Corner&mdash;and forget. Marry some
-good, even-minded girl&mdash;some girl without the horrible strength that I
-have. I must tell you the rest. He did send a telegram. You were at the
-Flagon House. He said he was coming back to fetch me. I waited under
-the yew until past midnight. He never came. Until to-day, until I saw
-this”&mdash;she touched his name&mdash;“I thought&mdash;I hoped that he might be dead.
-He wouldn’t have any power over me then.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You saw him kissing me in the waiting-room. Why didn’t you guess
-then&mdash;why did you stop short&mdash;just suspecting? Suspicion is no good&mdash;it
-is only a petty thing. If you had not driven us to the station I should
-have gone to London with him. That day I kept changing my mind. Do
-speak, Jethro. Don’t look at me in that queer way. You must be angry.
-Show it. Strike me. Call me all the disgraceful names you are surely
-thinking.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He got up, giving himself a slow shake in the shaggy coat of homespun,
-which was of a very light color and looked something like hairy
-sacking.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You must go to him,” he said simply, not a trace of anger on his face.
-“It’s natural&mdash;I wouldn’t stand up against Nature for the world.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-188">[188]</a></span>
-Nature mates us all&mdash;no good our meddling. Even with the cattle&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Never mind the cattle,” she broke in, her squeamishness asserting
-itself even now&mdash;his speech was apt to be blunt enough when he spoke of
-the simple facts which he had been accustomed to take as a matter of
-course all his life.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You can’t help it,” he continued, with superb generosity. “I don’t
-blame you. He was first&mdash;you were meant for him. It isn’t your
-fault&mdash;or his. I am the fool, the meddler. You can’t mate through the
-newspaper. I ought to have known.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He went toward the door, his head down, his face gentle and strong. She
-started up.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You are not going?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“There is nothing to stay for.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You don’t say one word of blame&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It is no good, and I have no right. Go to him, dear.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You forgive me?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“There is nothing to forgive. I should have done as you have done. Not
-a woman in the world would hold me back from you, if you were free.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But the wedding? What will people say?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Let them say. That’s nothing.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Those things are everything. You are going to live and die in this
-place. For your sake, not mine”&mdash;she looked lingeringly at the yellow
-fields and rainbow flower-beds&mdash;“we must tell Aunt Sophy a plausible
-story. I’ll write a note, tell her that Edred is ill&mdash;a long
-illness&mdash;and wants me. Later<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-189">[189]</a></span> on, by degrees, you can let them know that
-I am never coming back.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’ll tell her that Edred is ill&mdash;a long illness&mdash;and wants you,” he
-repeated in a slow, painstaking voice, as if, for her sake, he was very
-anxious to remember. “Very well, I’ll try not to forget. Would you like
-me to drive you to the station this afternoon?”
-</p>
-<p>
-He saw the lightening of her face.
-</p>
-<p>
-“So soon! But I could be ready. I’ll start packing now.” She went
-crisply across the room. “But not you. Let Daborn drive.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’d rather come, if it’s the same to you. There’s a train at four.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Four. Very well.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“We can have an early tea. You like your tea.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Tea&mdash;yes.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Take some flowers. There are plenty of eggs, too. Some of those early
-pullets are laying already, although the old birds are on the moult. He
-liked quince jam. Could you manage to pack a pot or so?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Jethro!” Her keen voice made the name more a shrill, birdlike cry than
-a word. “I can’t bear to hear you talk so calmly. I would not mind so
-much if you looked the martyr. But you sound so every-day&mdash;quince jam,
-pullet eggs! And yet I know how bitterly you care.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I must try not to. I’ve made a muddle. I hurried things when I should
-have let them alone.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’ll forget,” she said, with miserable lack of<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-190">[190]</a></span> conviction. “We
-shall be&mdash;Edred and I&mdash;a bad dream. Never trouble to give us a
-thought.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But I shall expect to hear from you; to see you, perhaps, if I go to
-London. I’ve often thought of a week in London. I haven’t been since my
-father died. We saw most of the sights, but missed the Doré Gallery.
-Everyone ought to go there.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She gasped.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You could come up, see us together&mdash;man and wife. You can talk of the
-Doré Gallery!”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Why not? I mustn’t lose sight of you, my mother’s kin.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Kin!” she cried out, with bitter scorn for herself and Edred. “He
-isn’t, at all events. His real name I don’t know; he was sentenced as
-Edred Pugin. As for me! Very likely my father was not your missing
-uncle at all. I hope not&mdash;for your sake. I’m no credit to you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You must send me your address. If that ruby company is good and all
-the shares are not allotted, I’ve money lying by&mdash;I shan’t need to
-spend so much now&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You don’t know Edred. Never let him have another penny. He has done
-you harm enough. You won’t want our address; we shan’t be creditable
-people&mdash;for you to know. Up to-day and down to-morrow&mdash;I know the life
-I’m going to lead. But I step into it with my eyes open,
-because&mdash;because it will be with him. I want you to know the very worst
-of me&mdash;you’ll be cured all the sooner. Your misery is nothing&mdash;compared
-to him. My heart is all stone&mdash;until he dissolves it. He doesn’t
-want<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-191">[191]</a></span> me. But I’m glad, mad to go. Remember all this when I’m gone. Say
-she was a callous, reckless, scheming, unprincipled creature&mdash;she is
-well forgotten.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She slipped past him, and out of the room, and up the stairs. Once he
-thought he heard her sing and then stop abruptly. He went out and
-tramped moodily across his acres, finding fault with everything,
-swearing freely at the men, kicking his dog, and roughly ordering away
-a party of children who were playing in the meadow.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela packed. She said good-by to Gainah, who never troubled to lift
-her head, tipped the two maids. When she told them, in a marked and
-significant way, that her brother was dangerously ill, pretty Nettie
-began to blubber.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-When the wagonette was out of sight Gainah put her patchwork away
-methodically. Then she went into the garden, looking at things
-critically, speaking to Daborn in a sharp voice&mdash;the imperious voice of
-old. She was a little cramped yet&mdash;mentally and bodily. But the fact
-that Pamela had gone was beginning to glimmer in on her poor
-intelligence. When she saw the housekeeping keys in the basket, she
-picked them up and dropped them in her deep pocket with a cunning
-chuckle. Then she marched solemnly into the kitchen.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_114">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-192">[192]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_114_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_114_toc">CHAPTER XIV.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-W<small>HEN</small> Pamela walked out into the yard at Victoria, the stale stable
-smell, the heavy air, and coarse sounds instantly made her feel at
-home. The last time she had breathed London was on that hot, stifling
-August morning nearly a year ago when she had started for Folly Corner.
-Her head had been heavy then, her eyes inflamed with crying, her feet
-sore and burning with the ceaseless, hopeless walk of the night
-before&mdash;backward and forward across the common, keeping the stolid
-prison&mdash;his shameful casket&mdash;in sight.
-</p>
-<p>
-To-day her mouth curved happily, the blood ran in and out of her face
-with the intensity of her emotion. Folly Corner was far behind
-her&mdash;behind forever; Aunt Sophy, Nancy, Annie&mdash;all the kind,
-slow-witted women&mdash;were mere phantoms; Jethro, clumping his fields
-stupidly, his head hanging, his big heart sore, was simply a rustic
-figure of no particular interest.
-</p>
-<p>
-That life at Folly Corner had been a different incarnation. The one
-moment when it seemed real was when a ruddy-faced man had brushed by
-her on the platform&mdash;a pointed Niphetos rosebud in his coat. She
-thought then fleetly of her garden, of all the bushes which had been
-her choice, which had been planted for her.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-193">[193]</a></span>
-She listened joyously to the hoarse voices of the drivers, to the
-mellow rattle of the piano-organ playing a tune which she had never
-heard. An orderly boy, looking pertly up in her face as she got into
-the cab, said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Now we <i>shan’t</i> be long.”
-</p>
-<p>
-That must be the new catchword; once she had been well up in these
-things. Edred had taken her to music-halls.
-</p>
-<p>
-How hot and misty and stuffy it was! And how delicious! She leaned back
-in the cab, laughing softly and continuously, like a mad thing. Then
-she began to be afraid, not knowing how Edred would receive her. Then
-she smiled again, knowing that she knew how to make herself
-adorable&mdash;at least for a little while. There were certain gestures,
-certain airs and words, which always pleased him. She coaxed a finger
-under her veil, and pulled a loose bit of hair on the temple over her
-brow. He liked loose hair.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was a misty, gray-gold afternoon. London was empty&mdash;for London.
-</p>
-<p>
-The Green Park was thick and mystic, the white frocks of the little
-children standing out solidly in the haze; an occasional white
-perambulator moving along slowly, like a fairy boat.
-</p>
-<p>
-Marquise Mansions. The cab pulled up. The driver called out ironically
-to the conductor of a Hammersmith omnibus, “Fancy meeting <i>you!</i>”&mdash;that
-must be another catchword. How she had lost touch of the gay, silly,
-witty London life! She had been contemptuous of it, imagined that she
-hated it,<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-194">[194]</a></span> that she only longed for it because Edred was there. Was it
-possible that only yesterday, about this time, she had been watching
-Jethro’s cart horses, with their elaboration of brass harness and head
-decking? She had thought then that the country was so large, so utterly
-satisfying; that towns, with their hotbed air of struggle and scheming,
-would choke her. Only yesterday! It had all faded into a sad, tender
-dream. She was very glad to be awake again. Marquise Mansions!
-</p>
-<p>
-It was a leviathan block of latter-day flats; red brick, white paint
-already turning smoke-colored, muslin curtains at the windows, little
-fragile balconies to the upper stories. A maid in smart black-and-white
-livery came daintily out and flicked a duster over one of the
-balconies. She looked down into the street and smirked at a man with a
-milk cart.
-</p>
-<p>
-The place was like Edred. It was a typical place for him to choose: all
-swagger show, all glitter, very smart and ostentatious, very thin.
-</p>
-<p>
-She dismissed her cab, went up the tesselated steps, consulted the
-names which were displayed on the wall. The hall porter rang the lift
-bell. The lift came down. She got in, reclined on the thickly-cushioned
-back, and watched the floors skim by, dip down.
-</p>
-<p>
-Edred was on the third. She knocked with some trepidation at the
-extravagantly shaped copper knocker which flaunted itself on a peacock
-door. A little pert page, all claret cloth and gilt buttons, opened it.
-She caught her breath at the color and<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-195">[195]</a></span> depth of the carpets lying on
-the stained floor, at great copper bowls and decorative dishes which
-were disposed on shelves in a room with a half-opened door.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Is Mr. Crisp in?”
-</p>
-<p>
-The little page smiled knowingly; it was a very horrible smile, on such
-a chubby, child face. He didn’t seem at all surprised at the advent of
-such a visitor&mdash;a handsome woman, young and well dressed. It was
-evident&mdash;her blazing, aching heart told her this&mdash;that she was only one
-of a type.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Mr. Crisp is in, miss. What name?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Never mind. Tell him an old friend.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He left her in a little ante-room, dainty, extravagant, luxurious, with
-an oriel window looking over the park. She had composure enough to get
-up and put her face close to an oval, gilt-framed glass which hung
-above the hearth. She had hardly turned away when the door opened. With
-lips parted and hands out she advanced, then fell back as a strange man
-put his chin and a pair of keen eyes round the lintel. He was a
-nondescript. She took an instant dislike to the weak face and reedy
-figure. He was dressed in brown tweed of an ugly herring-bone pattern;
-he had a thick new watch-chain. She didn’t know who he was, but she
-instantly hated&mdash;and resented&mdash;him.
-</p>
-<p>
-He came a little farther into the room, looked at her thoughtfully,
-critically&mdash;as a lady’s-maid might at her lady’s new gown&mdash;possibly to
-be hers some day. Then he, too, grinned. The glance instantly fired
-her; she looked and almost spoke indignant<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-196">[196]</a></span> remonstrance. But the
-strange man merely grinned again and slipped away. She was left alone.
-</p>
-<p>
-Edred was a very long time. When at last she heard lagging feet, the
-ball in her throat&mdash;of frenzied delight, of trepidation and
-tumult&mdash;nearly choked her.
-</p>
-<p>
-He was faultlessly dressed. He looked prosperous&mdash;a bit bored and
-languid&mdash;that was part of his mask&mdash;but happy and very much plumper.
-She fancied that his puffy cheeks detracted from his good looks. He
-hadn’t missed her. He had left her at Folly Corner&mdash;to die if she
-liked, to do worse&mdash;without caring.
-</p>
-<p>
-She struggled up from the extravagantly stuffed divan of figured silk.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Edred!”
-</p>
-<p>
-“By Jove! Pam! You?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She had nervously pulled her gloves off while she waited. His eyes fell
-to her hands at once. There wasn’t a ring on them.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Whew! He hasn’t found out? The wedding isn’t off?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Aren’t you glad to see me?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“My dear little girl&mdash;it is such a surprise. Fancy meeting <i>you!</i>” he
-laughed airily. “Where’s old Jeth? What’s the joke?” His eyes fell to
-her hands again. “You’re married? It was to be the sixth&mdash;wasn’t it?
-No&mdash;the sixteenth?” He looked at a calendar.
-</p>
-<p>
-“The tenth.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“To-day’s the fourth. Are you playing a trick? How did you know I was
-here? I say, Pam, be<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-197">[197]</a></span> square. Is he&mdash;Jethro, you know&mdash;waiting outside?
-The old fellow must look odd in a frock-coat. Does he lift each foot
-along the pavement, as if he were walking through stubble? If he’s up,
-I can give him a good tip. The new company&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The ruby mine. I know. I saw your name&mdash;that is why I came.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Does he want an investment?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She clasped her hands with an air of hopeless, helpless tragedy.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You men are all alike. Can’t you see an inch before your nose? Do you
-think I should come up here about rubies? Oh! can’t you see it on my
-face? Jethro was just as bad; he made me tell him everything.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Everything?”
-</p>
-<p>
-His handsome face became blank.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Everything.” She threw a hard laugh at him. “Everything&mdash;No. 4658 and
-all.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You didn’t?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I did. It is your fault. I couldn’t marry him, Eddie. I had to come.
-He wished it. He knows everything. He sent me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He sent you to me?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes.” She was growing deadly pale. “Don’t you want me? I can go
-away&mdash;but not to Folly Corner. That is finished.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He looked troubled, stroking and tugging the coal-black, silky
-mustache. He raised his eyes to her, then dropped them to the ground.
-</p>
-<p>
-She had fallen back, her lids half fallen. It was a hot day; it had
-been a long journey. She was<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-198">[198]</a></span> very tired, quite faint. She didn’t think
-she cared much, now that he evidently didn’t. Yet, never for a moment
-did she regret leaving Jethro; never for a moment entertain the idea of
-going back. She shut her eyes, listening quite listlessly to the rumble
-of life below. Her fate had long ago passed out of her own hands. She
-was a chattel in spirit; although free in letter. Let him settle what
-he liked.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was roused by a kiss on her mouth. Edred was on the lounge. His
-face was tender&mdash;the bold, assured tenderness that always made her
-happy.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Good little girl,” he said, in the half-sneering, half-caressing voice
-which was his nearest approach to adoration. “Good little girl to come.
-You must stay with me. I’ve missed you, Pam. You had the telegram?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She let her head stay on his arm; she stretched her dusty feet out
-wearily, with a gesture of absolute content.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes. It was dangerous; Jethro might have opened it. I waited by the
-yew half the night. Why didn’t you come?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Because I had just a shred or so of honor left&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The evasive thing that men call honor! I never could understand it.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“A woman doesn’t. Jethro&mdash;poor old man&mdash;had been devilish good. The two
-‘hun’ put me on my feet, Pam. Like the place?” He nodded his head
-comprehensively at the luxury which walled them. “Decentish, isn’t it?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s very nice. Why didn’t you come, or write?<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-199">[199]</a></span> It nearly broke my
-heart. If I had not seen your name in the paper yesterday I should have
-married Jethro.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’m very glad you didn’t.” He looked sleepily at the beauty of her
-flushed cheeks, at the depths of her happy eyes. “You saw the page
-advertisement in the <i>Standard?</i> We’re spending thousands in
-advertisements&mdash;throw a sprat to catch a herring. Does the carrier
-still bring the paper? What’s the fellow’s name?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Buckman.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That’s it. The same slow old horse&mdash;Hackty. You see I’ve remembered
-that. I suppose they mean it for Hector, or perhaps Active. Gad! what a
-sleepy hole! I felt like being in a dentist’s chair the whole time,
-half under the gas, you know, just going off. If you went back in fifty
-years, they’d be just the same. It’s so precious dull that they’d blow
-their brains out&mdash;if they had any.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Jethro has been so good,” she said, feeling numbly that Jethro was
-already very, very far away. She actually laughed, adding: “He insisted
-on my bringing up flowers, eggs, some quince jam.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That stunning quince jam,” he said boyishly. “Jeth’s a good sort. Was
-he very much cut up? It was too bad.” He gave her another kiss, without
-any protest on her part, any courtliness on his; quite as a matter of
-course.
-</p>
-<p>
-“He was splendid. Poor, dear old Jethro! You wouldn’t understand.
-You’ll only laugh. You always laugh at things that make me want to
-cry&mdash;it’s the way with a man. He was so simple,<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-200">[200]</a></span> so grand. He was like
-a Greek god, very calm, but not a bit indifferent. He regarded it so
-broadly&mdash;talked of Nature. He is all Nature. He is a great, simple,
-clean-living ox&mdash;slow, reflective, not a bit stupid. He seemed to be
-above or past all the small teasing, tearing strings which drag mean
-hearts like yours and mine. I’ve been talking a great deal of nonsense
-and you are annoyed.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked quite frightened as Edred got up abruptly and rang the bell.
-The past ten minutes had been so sweet that she would have accepted
-them willingly as eternity.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Not a bit.” He shrugged. “But it’s rather rough to compare him to one
-of his own oxen. Do you remember how proud he was of his
-stock&mdash;murderous black beasts with tremendous horns? I tell you I
-didn’t half like crossing some of those fields in the twilight.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The page came in. He looked at her boldly as she sat on the couch. She
-decided that her first step of authority should be the dismissal of
-that boy. Edred ordered tea. Everything was dainty, strangely dainty to
-her, because she was fresh from the coarse, lavish hospitality of
-Sussex. The sandwiches were evanescent&mdash;a suggestion of yellow and
-green. Edred tilted the cream into her cup; at Folly Corner they often
-had to put up with skim milk because Jethro insisted on having so many
-pounds of butter made weekly. He had his stern economies; believed in
-making farming thoroughly pay. When eggs fetched more than a shilling a
-dozen almost every one was sent to market.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-201">[201]</a></span>
-There were French cakes, toast cut in mathematically exact triangles.
-The aroma of the tea seemed to fill the room. They sat by the open
-window, an inlaid table spread with exquisitely drawn linen between
-them. She looked at the road, across the railings into the park, where
-an occasional carriage drove through the haze. She looked at Edred. The
-prison stain was completely gone. His diamond ring, the pin at his
-neck, all his indications of prosperity, pleased her. And yet she
-thought the diamonds ostentatious. If he had been a portly man, instead
-of a slim and elegant one, he would have been vulgar.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was always touched by externals&mdash;had a painful respect for the
-things money gave. In the midst of her intense happiness she paused to
-consider discreetly that, love apart, Edred was a more eligible husband
-than Jethro. She thought of Jethro&mdash;that side of him which had always
-jarred on her: his half-sheepish, half-surly air in the presence of
-strangers, his shy avoidance of women. Then she thought of his
-toilet&mdash;the striped tags of his thick boots, which were generally
-hanging out, the black suit, which he would speak of as his “best”; his
-week-day shirts of galatea; his best white ones, which he did not often
-wear because of the difficulty experienced by the old washerwoman in
-getting them up. She thought of his ridiculous neckties, of his huge,
-snuffy silk pocket-handkerchief, of the turnip-like repeater which had
-been his grandfather’s, and which he lugged out of his capacious pocket
-laboriously. She poured herself more<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-202">[202]</a></span> tea from the Queen Anne silver
-pot. She poured another cup for Edred, feeling a delightful sense of
-being wifely as she did it.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We might have had some of Jeth’s jam,” he said, idly smiling at her.
-His eyes seemed to contract and glitter unnaturally with undisguised
-admiration. She was very flushed and triumphant, a little feverish and
-reckless with her mastery of him. Yet, all the same, because she was a
-woman of the world, and had been driven to consider her reputation, she
-began to wonder, as the gray haze in the park grew black, what
-suggestion he was going to make for the night. One could not walk out
-into the street, take a hansom, and drive to be married forthwith. He
-said, pushing his empty cup away and settling back in the chair:
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ve been lucky. Everything I’ve touched has turned up trumps.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The ruby mine&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Pooh! That is only one thing. I’ve learnt, by very bitter experience,
-that it is as well to have plenty of irons in the fire.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Is it a genuine concern? You won’t risk anything this time?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She put the question for his sake&mdash;for theirs. She did not wish him to
-fail, to suffer again. She wanted to be rich&mdash;safe&mdash;for the rest of her
-life.
-</p>
-<p>
-“As genuine as anything can be,” he returned evasively. “But don’t
-spoil yourself by being serious. The prettiest woman&mdash;and you are
-looking devilish pretty to-night, darling&mdash;can’t afford to be serious:
-it brings lines about the mouth.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-203">[203]</a></span>
-She returned his smile, but a moment after she sobered again.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’m obliged to be serious,” she told him deprecatingly. “What
-arrangement do you propose for to-night? If I go to Bloomsbury too late
-they will not be willing to take me in.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Bloomsbury!” He looked annoyed at being reminded of that page in his
-life. “You don’t want to go there.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“They know me. I can think of no other place.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He didn’t answer for a moment. She searched his flushed face anxiously
-through the uncertain light.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll tell you what,” he said at last. “There’s a very fair hotel a few
-doors down. Sutton shall send my traps there. I’ll engage a couple of
-rooms for myself and him, and you shall have this place. Will that do?
-You’ll be very comfortable. They give me service&mdash;the cooking’s fair.
-One of the chambermaids will unpack your things and help dress you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He spoke as if she had all her life been accustomed to such attendance.
-He was wonderfully plastic; it was one of his feminine attributes. In a
-few weeks he had assimilated the manner, cultivated the brain of a
-wealthy man who instinctively measures cost by a five-pound note:
-nothing smaller than a “fiver.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That would do very well.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It won’t be for long. We must marry. I’ll get a license to-morrow.
-Sutton shall see about it&mdash;he’s a rare fellow for details.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-204">[204]</a></span>
-“Is that the horrid man who looked into the room while I was waiting?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Edred laughed.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Who is he? He mustn’t come here any more. I’m sure he’s hateful.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He’s very useful. He lives here&mdash;a most superior fellow, much to be
-pitied. He was a clerk in a City firm for twenty-five years; went there
-when he left school; worked up to a salary of £150. Threw all his
-energies into the business; stayed late on Saturday, took papers home
-to master on Sunday. Then they chucked him&mdash;wanted a younger fellow.
-Everybody must be young nowadays. Sutton is invaluable. He knows the
-inside of the city. He’s my clerk. I give him a couple of pounds a week
-and his grub. He’s perfectly happy&mdash;so am I. His tips have put hundreds
-into my pocket. Oh! you’ll have to be civil to Sutton.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Don’t be in too great a hurry to make money, will you?”
-</p>
-<p>
-He laughed.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Too much haste leads to the dock,” he said lightly. “I’m careful
-enough. Some day&mdash;in a fairly little time, too&mdash;I shall be a second
-Milligan. Lady Pamela Crisp. It sounds well, doesn’t it?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“We are going to be married&mdash;in my name. Will that be legal?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Extraordinary delusions a woman has about the marriage service! Of
-course it will be legal.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I ought to be going to Victoria to get my luggage. It is in the
-cloak-room.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-205">[205]</a></span>
-“Sutton will see to that.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She never forgot the witchery of that evening. Edred was so adoring, so
-recklessly generous, so optimistic. They dined; they had a box at the
-theater. No tinge of conscience whipped up her light heart. She never
-threw one half-thought back, across the lonely miles of suburb and
-common and pasture, to the mellow old house, girt with a great pond,
-whose master at that moment might be sitting by the empty hearth with
-his whole big faithful heart full of her.
-</p>
-<p>
-The one disconcerting touch was when they parted at the door of
-Marquise Mansions. Edred had been talking of his successes, of the many
-clever, shifty schemes he had in prospect.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We must entertain&mdash;in a Bohemian way,” he said. “Only men; jossers I
-want to persuade into doing things. You understand? Very often a look
-from a pretty, well-dressed woman will do more than hours of
-plausibility, of convincing proof, from the woman’s husband. You must
-have some Paris frocks; get your hair dressed well.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“We shall only entertain men?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Women are not interesting&mdash;the wives and daughters of city men. We
-shall only entertain from diplomacy&mdash;other women would spoil
-everything. You must help me to play my game. It is to your interest,
-isn’t it?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She did not answer. He thought that her expression in the uncertain
-light&mdash;stars and gas lamps competing&mdash;was rebellious. He became
-savagely petulant.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-206">[206]</a></span>
-“This marrying is a bore,” he said. “Why do you insist on it? Marriage
-is only an empty form. It would be all the same&mdash;no one would know.
-Married people are not branded for all the world to see, after all. We
-shall never get tired of each other. It will be just the same, just as
-safe, more romantic. What do you think, Pam?”
-</p>
-<p>
-He stared at her with odd intentness, as she stood in the shadow of the
-wide entrance door. She was wrapped from her soft dull hair to her shoe
-in a costly evening cloak which they had hurriedly bought on the way to
-the theater to cover her dusty traveling dress.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I think that it has all been said, threshed out,” she returned firmly.
-“I don’t want romance&mdash;at the expense of respectability.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The night-rattle of London swung by them as they stood in the shadow of
-the door poising their fate in their hands. The warm, misty streets
-were festooned with strings of red and yellow light. Pamela was
-reminded of those miserable omnibus rides from Portobello Road, when
-she had watched the words “O<small>X</small> F<small>ORCE</small>&mdash;N<small>INON</small> S<small>OAP</small>&mdash;D<small>UNN</small>’<small>S</small> N<small>OSTRUM</small>”
-glitter and die on the face of a house.
-</p>
-<p>
-Edred’s eyes, contracted and brilliant, tried to destroy her will. They
-were admiring, magnetic. But she was fiercely respectable; she had
-struggled, had seen the seamy side of life. She loved him, she was
-madly, wickedly infatuated with him, but his smooth claptrap about the
-romance of an irregular union did not take her in.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-207">[207]</a></span>
-“You are jesting,” she said coldly; “jesting&mdash;in very bad taste.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes. Only a jest,” he returned, gripping her hand.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-Three days after that they were married. She started a new,
-intoxicating career as mistress of the gorgeously appointed flat at
-Marquise Mansions.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_115">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-208">[208]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_115_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_115_toc">CHAPTER XV.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-I<small>T</small> was past eleven and they were languidly pecking at breakfast. The
-brick-red sun forced himself into the room, made the gorgeously
-upholstered settee and chairs look faded, showed the green tarnish on
-the great copper pots, the gray rim of dust on the delft which crowded
-the shelves, and the darker layer which the housemaid had left in the
-interstices of the elaborately carved furniture.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela’s morning gown, of some clinging primrose stuff, had caught
-London smuts in the loose ruffles of its sleeves. She lifted her cup
-and the ruffles fell back, showing finger-and-thumb bruises on the
-white flesh. She was sallow, blotchy, her eyes muddy and swollen. Edred
-kept looking up from his paper and staring savagely; the weary face,
-all quiver and traces of heavy tears, infuriated him.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I don’t know what is coming over you,” he broke out at last. “You have
-only two moods&mdash;the nagging or the maudlin.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Edred! I&mdash;I thought you’d say you were sorry for last night. Look!”
-</p>
-<p>
-She held up her bare arm accusingly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Sorry!” His frank look of amazement was absolutely genuine. “What have
-I to be sorry about?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Look!”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-209">[209]</a></span>
-The white arm, with the ugly purple marks, quivered before his eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Pooh! you bruise with a touch. It’s nothing.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The things you said&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Said! You’d madden any man with your stiff airs of prudery.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ve begged you not to ask Milligan here.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I shall ask him as often as I like. He’s useful. You’ll please be
-civil to everybody who’s useful&mdash;to Sutton in particular. You treat the
-fellow as if he were&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The cur he is,” she concluded scornfully.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’re no good if you can’t help me to play my game. That is why you
-are here, confound you,” he cried savagely. “You don’t think”&mdash;his
-sneer was devilish&mdash;“that I married you because I had such a supreme
-longing for fireside virtue.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“They are all alike&mdash;your men,” she cried out passionately. “They
-regard me as&mdash;as&mdash;I cannot finish.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She buried her disfigured face in her hands. Every line of her shaking
-body was crouching, subjective; she was a human hound with a brute for
-a master, a brute on whom she fawned.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s new for you to be so particular.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I&mdash;I don’t understand.” She lifted her face suddenly; let him see it
-all grotesquely distorted, drawn out of shape.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I repeat; it is new for you to be so particular. If you can throw
-yourself into the arms of one man&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“One man?”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-210">[210]</a></span>
-“These mawkish airs of innocence don’t impress me. We’ve been quite
-bare to each other for twelve months. You came here; forced yourself on
-me. Why couldn’t you stay behind like a sensible, modest woman, and
-marry Jethro? I was getting on perfectly well, wasn’t I? Did I look as
-if I wanted you?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Edred!”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That parrot cry will make me murder you some day. Be a woman, with a
-clear head on your shoulders, not a sniveling fool. Be a wife to me.” A
-queer, mocking expression contracted his thin mouth. “Help me when you
-can. If you offend Milligan&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll never speak to him again. Good Heavens! You don’t want me&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-He sprung up from the table, took her by the trembling shoulder, and
-swung her round.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I don’t care what the devil you do,” he said deliberately.
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked weakly up into his face, saw that he meant it, and began to
-shake and sob. This was the worst blow he could deal. He meant it!
-Hitherto she had attributed his brutalities to business worry.
-</p>
-<p>
-She cried violently, hopelessly. She was all tears. She had no spirit
-left, except the spirit that vents itself in extravagant words.
-Suddenly she darted to the open window.
-</p>
-<p>
-“If I were to jump down,” she began desperately; her feverish hands
-clawed round the ledge, her wild eyes turned inward to the room.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It wouldn’t be a bad solution.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-211">[211]</a></span>
-She ran back, tried to catch him round the neck with her pleading arms,
-murmured pet names, shivered, sobbed, shook, tried vainly, in the wrong
-way, to win back the old, transient adoration.
-</p>
-<p>
-He wrenched himself away, as he would have freed himself from a skein.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’m sick of these rows,” he said savagely. “Do as I wish. Mind what
-you’re at with Sutton&mdash;he knows a precious deal that I’d rather he
-didn’t. Play Milligan. A clever woman would do it all without
-compromise, but you are a prude&mdash;one of those ardent, faithful prudes
-that make a man curse. Hang it all, I don’t want your extravagant
-devotion; I’m in need of help. I don’t care what you do so long as I
-don’t know&mdash;that’s married fidelity up to date. Do you understand?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I can’t&mdash;I won’t! My life is one degradation; you don’t care. If I
-were some shameful woman, not your wife&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“By George! if you knew all, you’re little better. That jargon in the
-church&mdash;Sutton to give you away, the verger as best man&mdash;didn’t put you
-on a pedestal of virtue.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I won’t&mdash;I can’t!” she repeated desperately, linking and unlinking her
-hands, looking up at him with the devoted, obstinate eyes of a dog who
-is afraid.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Then go. You are a burden, an irritant.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You mean that?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Of course. I mean everything.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He flung himself out of the room. Presently she heard him leave the
-flat with Sutton.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-212">[212]</a></span>
-She fell down on the settee, cuddling into the stuffed corners for
-comfort. She shivered all over. She was cold. She ached with misery.
-She told herself that she was a coward. She knew perfectly well, as
-well as he did, that her heroics, her dramatic attitudes and words of
-palpable restraint, were only pose. A woman who meant suicide wouldn’t
-talk about it. She despised herself for that rush to the window&mdash;as he
-despised her. He had told her to go; he didn’t want her. But she hadn’t
-the courage to take him at his word. She loved him. She was perfectly
-willing to crawl, to cringe to him&mdash;for the sake of an occasional rough
-caress.
-</p>
-<p>
-What a life it had been! She looked back along the year. She recalled
-his first few ardent weeks, his gradual cynicism and disregard, the
-constant vinegar lash of his reckless tongue, the frequent heavy blows.
-</p>
-<p>
-What a strange, disreputable, luxurious life they led, the three of
-them! She included Sutton without hesitation. He was only a dependent
-in externals. Edred seemed more than half afraid of him. Sutton knew
-every money-making shuffle, every risky deal of the game.
-</p>
-<p>
-She gazed wildly about her. Everything was luxurious, slovenly, lonely.
-She hadn’t an engagement to fill the day, hadn’t a woman friend in the
-world. Then, fleetly, her thoughts ran back with deep affection to
-those women she had known once&mdash;kin, perhaps&mdash;the Turles and Crisps,
-and Jaynes and Furlongers. Simple women! She had laughed at them, been
-scornful of them, been bored to death<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-213">[213]</a></span> by them. At the moment she longed
-for them. She pictured them individually in their lonely, comfortable
-homes, with their traditional, simple, brainless occupations. She
-thought of them singly. Each one had her special reputation among her
-neighbors&mdash;for a particular jelly, good butter, or savory pickles.
-</p>
-<p>
-She knew dozens of men. They came to the flat with Edred; sometimes
-they came when he was out, when they knew perfectly well that he was
-certain to be in the City. Milligan especially cultivated that trick.
-Her outraged virtue lighted to a cruel fire. She thought fiercely that
-if Milligan came up the stairs that day she would find courage to kill
-him.
-</p>
-<p>
-Yes, dozens of men! They gave her flowers, once or twice a jewel. They
-paid her dubious compliments, discussed music-hall artistes, told queer
-stories in her presence. They flattered, ignored, or shocked her, as it
-suited the mood of the moment. She occupied exactly the position of a
-beautiful, expensive lap-dog, whose ears every visitor may pull, to
-whom every visitor may toss a lump of sugar.
-</p>
-<p>
-London outside was gay and hot&mdash;all blue and yellow, all dust and eager
-noise. The top-heavy omnibus swung by, with gayly dressed women on the
-garden seats, fluttering bows of ribbon on the drivers’ whips. The big
-hats of the women, piled with feathers and imitation roses, made her
-think of her blazing flower borders at Folly Corner. She sat up, wiped
-her burning eyes, into which her bitter sorrow seemed to have corroded.
-She thought very calmly of Jethro&mdash;thought of the slow, easeful,
-reflective<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-214">[214]</a></span> life which she had so lightly, so gladly, thrown out of
-reach. A year ago! They would have married&mdash;had a child, perhaps. His
-simple words&mdash;“A little son to come with me and beat in shooting-time;
-they soon grow up”&mdash;rippled in her throbbing head. A child! She might
-have had her own child by now. The dreadful ache of a barren woman
-caught her.
-</p>
-<p>
-She walked up and down the untidy room, her primrose trail dragging
-over the dusty carpet. She rang the bell, but no one came to clear. She
-hadn’t a duty in the world. It was hardly noon yet. If she crawled back
-to her bed and sobbed away the day, if she went headlong down through
-the oriel window&mdash;it made no difference. She was perfectly free to do
-exactly as she chose.
-</p>
-<p>
-She walked up and down in her misery and indecision, the August sun
-streaming into the room, where the bacon on the table was caked in a
-translucent layer of white grease, and the crumpled <i>serviettes</i> were
-tossed to the floor.
-</p>
-<p>
-All her love, her passion, her folly, and heartlessness had ended in
-this&mdash;a mere vulgar marriage row. Row was the word he had used. Just an
-underbred squabble&mdash;they had plenty. They had flung words at each
-other&mdash;the usual taunts of an ill-sorted couple.
-</p>
-<p>
-She knew he’d come in as usual at night&mdash;Sutton behind, with his false
-air of subservience; Milligan at his side, his eyes roving about for
-her. She knew she’d put on her freshest dress. She knew. She was a
-miserable, plastic fool, hopelessly committed.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-215">[215]</a></span> Already she was no
-longer angry with Edred; only bitterly, sorely pained and degraded.
-</p>
-<p>
-If she could only travel past caring! But every bitter word of his
-found its frightful billet in her heart; every foul word pierced like a
-pointed weapon. Her love was riddled with the cruelest wounds, but not
-one was vital. She loved him. He had told her to go. Go! She laughed,
-picking up his pipe and kissing the stem ardently.
-</p>
-<p>
-The gay rattle and careless chaff ran under her yawning window. She
-started up suddenly and put on her out-of-door things. She went down
-the wide staircase thoughtfully, wondering what on earth she should do
-with the day.
-</p>
-<p>
-She hailed the first omnibus that came rocking down Piccadilly. She got
-inside and sat near the door. There were only two other passengers&mdash;a
-middle-aged man and his more middle-aged wife. Pamela watched them
-languidly, in the mood to study other people. Her own life held nothing
-now but empty days and distasteful evenings. Dinner-time was
-coming&mdash;with Milligan, other men, perhaps&mdash;all the people who somehow
-made her feel contemptible, passively immoral. Their insults were so
-delicate, so flattering, that she could not resent them: to resent
-would be an admission. She just studied the dilemma of the middle-aged
-woman, who was very nervous, who expressed her preference for trams.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll go nearer the door. Then, if there should be a spill, I could
-jump out.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She rustled along the seat, the stiff folds of her<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-216">[216]</a></span> brocaded black
-skirt seeming to share her terror. Then she peppered the conductor with
-anxious queries, asking him if he didn’t think the driver was drunk.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Lor’, mum! he’s drove the ’bus for twenty year,” came the not
-altogether reassuring answer.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You think he’s really sober? But, oh conductor”&mdash;her voice rose to a
-shriek as the horses swerved&mdash;“I do wish I was on the Underground. I
-insist on getting out.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He rang his bell viciously and bundled her off the step. Her husband
-followed, looking keenly annoyed. Pamela smiled&mdash;scenting a marriage
-row. Then the blinding tears gushed to her eyes and burned there
-without falling. Marriage row! A vulgar, trivial squabble! She lived in
-a rain of them.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll go outside,” she said, with a sudden desire for the sky above her
-head and the dry air on her face. She went with a sure foot up the
-steps and along the roof, the omnibus still moving, and took the one
-spare seat immediately behind the driver. Once she had been proud of
-her coolness and dispatch in climbing an omnibus. That was in the old
-days, when money was scarce and skirts shabby at the hem: the days when
-she had carved at table, accompanied songs, and made herself generally
-useful (attractive, so the advertisement stipulated) at the stuffy
-boarding-house near the British Museum. Edred had been one of the
-boarders&mdash;had paid thirty shillings a week, which was as much as he
-could afford out of his two pounds five weekly. Those<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-217">[217]</a></span> were the days
-before he became a&mdash;number. She thought of it all, as she was carried
-by Kensington Gardens&mdash;occasional nights at a music-hall, merry waiting
-at pit doors, Sunday jaunts to Hampton Court&mdash;with a fresh summer gown,
-a smart cheap hat, and a constant dread of a shower.
-</p>
-<p>
-The women on the seat immediately opposite were talking volubly. They
-both had cheap black jackets with very big buttons and outstanding
-sleeves. One, as she talked, kept licking her lips and constantly
-popping out her tongue with odd vivacity and archness. The other, an
-older woman, with a severe expression, took an occasional solemn swig
-at a bottle which was genteelly wrapped to the nose in a confectioner’s
-paper bag.
-</p>
-<p>
-As the vivacious woman wriggled on the seat she afforded occasional
-peeps of a rusty quilted petticoat with a red flannel lining.
-</p>
-<p>
-“She done it on the Monday as we see her on the Sunday,” Pamela heard
-her say mysteriously.
-</p>
-<p>
-She fell to wondering <i>what</i> she had done: something very reprehensible
-certainly, judging from the shocked expression of the elder woman, who
-nodded sourly and tilted her paper bag.
-</p>
-<p>
-“She says to me, ‘Why don’t you take in a lodger?&mdash;some young lady as
-is engaged all day in business. There’s the spare room a-goin’
-beggin’,’ she says. But I aint goin’ to do it, Mrs. Whitbourn; would
-you? Oh, ’e’s a good ’usban’. But there!”&mdash;the dusty head with the
-black chip hat shook sideways and the quick tongue lolled out&mdash;“you
-never knows nothin’, do yer?”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-218">[218]</a></span>
-“No, yer never does,” confirmed the solemn woman.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Lor’! ’ere we are at the church. Well, good-by, Mrs. Whitbourn. See
-you again some day.”
-</p>
-<p>
-They kissed lusciously; the sateen petticoat with the frowsy red lining
-whisked away.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela stared straight in front of her thoughtfully.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yer never knows nothin’, do yer? No, yer never does,” kept striking in
-her head.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yer never does.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She didn’t. Strange, that a suspicion of the particular wrong which
-Edred might do her had never before occurred to her. Had she found the
-secret of his coldness and unconcern&mdash;in another woman? Was there
-somebody else?
-</p>
-<p>
-First, a fierce, instinctive jealousy swept her; then she wished
-ardently that it might be so. That might be the deathblow of her mad,
-headlong love for him.
-</p>
-<p>
-She went to the very end of the journey, then took another omnibus
-back. At Bond Street she alighted and walked down to the dainty shop
-where she usually had tea. The woman’s words still haunted her.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yer never knows nothin’, do yer?”
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-One might go on for a lifetime, in a nest of different worlds like
-London, and never know. That was perfectly true. She turned her sleeve
-up furtively and drank in the angry purple of the bruises on her wrist.
-Was another woman responsible for them? It was a new idea and a very
-enticing one.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_116">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-219">[219]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_116_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_116_toc">CHAPTER XVI.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-A<small>S</small> days went on she became more than ever persuaded of the fatalism of
-those suggestive, common words, “Yer never knows nothin’, do yer?” That
-woman, with the soiled red lining to her kicked-up petticoat&mdash;that
-woman, with the loosely sensuous mouth, big tongue, and rolling bright
-eyes, had emerged from the gray routine of her particular suburban
-corner, merely as a warning. Those comically meaningless words became a
-gospel. She was always saying them, puzzling over them. They were on
-her pale lips as she looked questioningly into Edred’s face. Once she
-woke up and found herself saying them in her sleep. It was too stupid.
-But, if only that persistent quoting of them, in silence, that
-continual battering of them at the door of her distracted brain, would
-bring solution! If she could take hold of some slight clew! She found
-herself constantly longing for proof of Edred’s unfaithfulness. That,
-she thought, would end her love&mdash;her reckless, shameful love for an
-unworthy object: love that blows, terrible suggestions, the cruelest
-words and looks could not kill. If she could free herself from that
-horrid, paralyzing coil of Love!
-</p>
-<p>
-She used to dog his steps with the patient sleuth-like tread of
-an intent panther. She followed him<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-220">[220]</a></span> into strange places often
-enough&mdash;unseen. She was always watching, waiting. Other wives waited
-and watched, hoping all the time that nothing was wrong, that they
-still had faithful husbands, might still keep their homes together with
-honor. But Pamela dogged Edred desperately&mdash;much more desperately than
-she would have done had there been the smallest chance of happiness
-left for them. She only fiercely prayed that there might be some
-entanglement, that there was some other woman&mdash;weak, innocent, or
-criminal&mdash;in the background. It meant so much more to her than mere
-conjugal peace and trust; her experience had made her bitterly scornful
-of married life: you could never successfully blend romance and joint
-housekeeping. She was playing for a much higher, nobler stake&mdash;her own
-independence. A wife was an individual first, a mere married woman
-afterward. She was conscious from time to time of the absolute
-isolation of each human being who treads the world.
-</p>
-<p>
-One flesh! Bare hearts! What empty jargon! One could look into the
-other one’s eyes and be breeding murder, worse than murder, all the
-time. This life, the beings with whom we were accidentally thrown in
-contact during our half-conscious sojourn&mdash;mere detail! There was a
-splendid, terrifying isolation about everyone. Each alone! She used to
-look at them curiously, speculatively; figures moving along the yellow
-streets at night, in tender twos, in merry companies&mdash;and yet alone.
-Each one shut in, cut off from all perfect communion, by the film of
-his own individuality. Each brain its<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-221">[221]</a></span> own secret world. Each body,
-under such varying garments, absolutely its own, in spite of vows,
-ardent protestations, respectable and legal shackles.
-</p>
-<p>
-She used to brood thus, a little at random, as she warily trod the
-streets behind that slim, carefully-dressed figure. She had become a
-strange perversion. She loved her husband still, in a headlong, fierce
-way. Yet she longed for him to commit himself, so that her love might
-puff away, become impalpable, like smoke rising in a clear sky. There
-was no chance for her, no freedom, no self-respect until she became
-callous, until that hot, wayward heart of hers was dammed up. She had
-read&mdash;in a girl’s superficial way&mdash;of first love as a potent thing. She
-hadn’t known then that it could be such a sweeping, crowning,
-involuntary thing&mdash;hadn’t dreamed that it could hold you in such grim,
-iron grasp. She couldn’t get away from the magnetism of&mdash;the first. She
-despised him; sometimes, for a clear moment, she loathed him. She
-remembered that on one occasion it had been a keen struggle to throw
-down the bread knife on the wooden platter instead of slitting it
-through his long lean throat.
-</p>
-<p>
-And yet! He had only to call the old playful, indulgent light into his
-lazy eyes, only to carelessly flip at her some gesture or word of the
-past, to bring her under his heel&mdash;quivering body, small subject soul.
-It was horrible to be in such bondage to a man&mdash;just because he had
-been first. Only because!
-</p>
-<p>
-One night near Holywell Street she saw him meet a woman. She followed
-them down the<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-222">[222]</a></span> Strand, an odd, glad singing in her head. The moment had
-come.
-</p>
-<p>
-She studied that woman with a woman’s minute, critical eye. She wasn’t
-satisfied. The woman was respectable, obviously, insolently
-respectable. She looked like the mistress of a maid-of-all-work and a
-flawless little house.
-</p>
-<p>
-She hadn’t the right atmosphere. She took Edred’s arm, hanging on it
-stolidly and looking at other women on the pavements with a sort of
-virtuous sneer, seeming to say, “I have a perfect right; can any of you
-say as much?” They might have been an aggressively respectable married
-couple from South London going to dine at a restaurant by way of
-dissipation.
-</p>
-<p>
-As a matter of fact they turned in at one. Pamela watched Edred push
-back the heavy door and gravely stand aside for his companion to pass
-in first. There was no eagerness in his attitude; he seemed quite used
-to it, not exactly weary, but coldly stolid. He wore the settled air of
-a married man&mdash;the mild, contented, resigned air of doom, which so many
-husbands wear. He was neither unhappy nor happy; he took this evening
-meal in the crush and steam and the hurry of waiters as a matter of
-course. Why not?
-</p>
-<p>
-She didn’t pretend to understand him&mdash;or her. They were an odd couple.
-Nothing stealthy, illicit, ecstatic about them, when there should have
-been a suggestion of all three emotions!
-</p>
-<p>
-The woman wore brown&mdash;the frump’s unfailing refuge: it was a hot,
-reddish sort of brown; her hat,<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-223">[223]</a></span> anxious to be in the fashion, was
-painfully skewered to her head by many pins. There were fresh touches
-of pink about her at ridiculously unwanted spots. She looked pleased,
-shy; like a child dressed for a party.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela followed them up between the line of tables, between the greedy
-line of eaters, some gluttonously bending over the plates, some waiting
-with an air of impatience, some replete and leaning back, quizzing and
-smoking. In the long mirrors she could see the reflection of all
-three&mdash;such a dramatic three: Edred, with his sheepish, sleepy air; the
-strange woman, all pink and brown and narrow airs of virtue as she
-looked at&mdash;and apparently suspected&mdash;every other woman a little smarter
-than herself. Last of the three Pamela saw her own tall figure,
-stylishly attired, the abundant dull hair bunching out beneath her
-toque with the big ostrich plumes. The set and selection of her gown
-was in such good, if rather striking, taste, that the over-fed and
-quickly-feeding men looked after her, their faces lighting up.
-</p>
-<p>
-The intangible feeling of shame, of smirching, which was becoming
-common to her, caught at her then. She fancied she read insult in the
-admiration of these many strange men.
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked at herself again and was bound to admit that there was not
-so very much difference between her costume, her carriage, and the
-carriage and costume of others present whose vocation was unmistakable.
-The ultra-fashionable woman sails perilously near the wind in
-appearance. She felt<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-224">[224]</a></span> quite angry with her expensive garments. She
-followed still, through the glass, the movements of the woman in pink
-and brown. She seemed to shout, in every seam of her dowdy frock, in
-every gleaming button of her badly-cut gloves, “respectable married
-virtue.” She!&mdash;<i>she!</i>
-</p>
-<p>
-The world was whirling round the wrong way.
-</p>
-<p>
-She followed her quarry, every sense alert so that Edred might not
-discover her. When the two settled at a table she deftly slipped aside
-and took the one immediately behind them. So that they were sitting
-back to back, she and that shameful woman with the perplexing insolent
-air of calm virtue. The back of her beautifully-cut and braided
-heliotrope coat was within a few inches of the contemptible little
-brown bodice with the crisp pink bow at the neck and the pink-lined
-ends, like lopping rabbit-ears, at the waist.
-</p>
-<p>
-The waiter came up. Beneath her breath and mechanically she ordered a
-steak, her ears strained all the time to hear what they would order.
-Edred said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Calves’-head? You have never tasted it&mdash;as they serve it here.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s rather rich,” came a common voice dubiously.
-</p>
-<p>
-Odd! Her voice, like her frock, like her little pursed mouth and hard
-eyes, was respectable. Aggressively respectable! Women like that had no
-right to appear respectable; to do so was an additional aggravation.
-Wasn’t their <i>existence</i> enough? The jealous fire was rising, was
-already<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-225">[225]</a></span> burning, a steady white light, at her heart. But she was very
-glad, of course. Confused, conflicting thoughts kept running in her
-head.
-</p>
-<p>
-When the steak came she could not eat it; there was enough for two men.
-She just played with her knife and fork, dipping deeply into the bottle
-of red wine she had ordered.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I knew it would be too rich,” the voice of the brown woman said
-reproachfully. “It’s too bad of you to spoil my dinner, when you know
-my stomach’s not strong. Nasty, bilious stuff! I can’t touch another
-bit.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Well! He might have chosen a handsomer, a more refined woman. Little
-common narrow creature! He might have given her a more worthy rival
-while he was about it.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Where did I put my gloves? No, I couldn’t look at pudding; it would
-just about finish me. Cheese? If <i>you</i> like&mdash;not for me. I’ll have a
-liqueur by and by; not that beastly green stuff we had last time.
-Cherry brandy. I can’t have lost the gloves.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She twirled round suddenly, putting her hands behind her and anxiously
-fumbling. Pamela wheeled round too, grasping the handle of her umbrella
-by way of excuse. Their eyes met. The quick, respectable, scandalized
-expression shot into those of the brown woman.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela flinched and flushed. It wasn’t pleasant to be mistaken&mdash;by her,
-too. The wretch&mdash;the little, common, hypocritical wretch! How dare she?
-Their eyes met: the malevolent stare in the<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-226">[226]</a></span> pink and brown woman’s,
-the eager, wide look in Pamela’s. She photographed on her alert brain
-every line of that face&mdash;the face which Edred found more comely than
-hers. It was long and thin, but quite youthful; she judged her to be
-about twenty-five. The eyes were hot brown, like the gown, and set
-close together. They were restless eyes, curiously restless. They roved
-about perpetually, seeming miserably to search for something which
-never came. It was like a monkey’s face&mdash;a pink, unlined monkey face.
-There was cunning in it, spite, and a kind of dumb pathos. A very
-curious woman for a rival!
-</p>
-<p>
-She fished up the ginger-colored gloves. They were shamefully new; one
-or two of the buttons were still covered with tissue-paper.
-</p>
-<p>
-Edred had finished his meal; he was smoking, his head back, his eyes
-dreamy. Pamela knew the attitude very well; it usually followed a good
-dinner. Her heart ached for herself. The little woman fussily put on
-her gloves, drew down her veil, settled her fluttering ends of pink
-satin. Then she, too, fell back on the red seat and began to look idly
-about her, passing audible comments on people whose appearance invited
-the acid of her tongue.
-</p>
-<p>
-“And there’s that woman behind,” she said presently, in a distinct
-whisper. “Just behind me. Look&mdash;when she isn’t looking. How silly you
-are! Always looking the wrong way. Didn’t I say <i>behind?</i>”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Never mind. I’ll take your word for her,” he returned.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-227">[227]</a></span>
-“But do look. I’m sure she’s&mdash;you know. Half of them are in this place.
-Disgraceful, overdressed things!”
-</p>
-<p>
-He turned with sudden curiosity. Pamela was still twisted round on the
-seat. She was staring savagely at that impudent brown hat, with the
-ferocious spiked pins which stuck out in all directions. Edred turned.
-He saw her&mdash;saw her haggard face peering through the smoke and vulgar
-glitter of the place. As, for that one supreme moment, they stared
-spellbound at each other, the second woman said impatiently:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Come on. We shall be late. The last time you took me to the theater we
-were late.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela started up, slipped past the tables, past the rows of diners.
-Near the door the waiter stood in her path. She dropped a coin in his
-hand and hurried on. Once outside the door of that place, under the
-cool sky in a dark side street, she took to her heels like a
-pickpocket. She was afraid of Edred, more afraid than she had ever
-been. There had been a new, ugly threat on his face. It would be
-something more than words this time. After all, words were not the
-worst. Her flesh was tender; she dreaded that he would beat her.
-</p>
-<p>
-She turned, panting like a closely-pressed hare, into the Strand, held
-up her umbrella to the first hansom, and hustled in.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Marquise Mansions,” she called up to the driver. “I’ll give you double
-fare if you drive very quickly.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The horse seemed to fly through the moving,<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-228">[228]</a></span> brilliant streets. Before
-her heart ceased its mad, quick beat of terror and apprehension, the
-crude red wall of Marquise Mansions was in sight.
-</p>
-<p>
-She went up to the flat, locked herself in her bedroom, dragged off her
-tight gown, kicked away her shoes, unfastened the piquant hat from her
-fair hair&mdash;and hid everything. She rolled the things in a rough bundle
-and shot them far under the bed.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-When Edred burst in ten minutes later, she was half lying in a low
-chair by the drawing-room window, with a novel in her hands. The lace
-and cashmere of her tea-gown spread softly about her ankles like the
-delicate tail of some exquisite foreign bird.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_117">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-229">[229]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_117_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_117_toc">CHAPTER XVII.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-S<small>HE</small> had never seen his face look quite so strange, not even on that mad
-day in the stuffy Bloomsbury house when she helped him throw his things
-into the bag and he whispered hoarsely that “they” were after him. She
-was puzzled by the intensity of his expression. He didn’t love her, he
-was tired, anxious to be rid of her. That discovery of the contemptible
-woman in brown should have been propitious for him. And yet he seemed
-furious, and, more than that, afraid.
-</p>
-<p>
-She had meant to calmly tell the truth. But two things froze the truth
-that lay ready on her tongue. She was afraid of him: he was a mere
-violent physical brute, in the mood to stamp on her, to drive his fist
-into her face: that was what it had come to&mdash;her tender, first romance.
-Her weak woman’s cowardice made her shiver with apprehension under her
-sweeping folds of cashmere. And then, apart from fear, she couldn’t
-tell him. She didn’t want him to know she knew.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was humiliating, mortifying, delightful. She rapidly read her own
-heart. She loved him still. There was no solution. The common, dowdy
-woman that he had just left had no power to part them. She realized
-with fear, with self-reproach, with bitter shame, yet with relief, that
-any mere bodily sin he might commit was pardonable. Was<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-230">[230]</a></span> there, then,
-no cardinal offense? Was she to go on loving in this despicable way
-until the very end?
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked up from the book, smiling, yawning.
-</p>
-<p>
-There was cunning in her big clear eyes, the cunning which even the
-frankest woman on earth has in reserve: handed down to her through
-generations of oppressed women, who have always been slaves.
-</p>
-<p>
-Slaves! The word suddenly came; she couldn’t have told why. And while
-she sat back in the chair, chin up, eyes half afraid, mouth stiffly
-smiling, she was thinking scornfully that woman always had been and
-always would be slaves. They liked to be slaves. All this strident talk
-about freedom and rights was froth, propounded by those imbittered free
-women who hadn’t succeeded in finding a master.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You said you were not coming back to dinner,” she said gayly, and then
-grew deadly pale as she suddenly remembered that he had said something
-about not coming back all night, if a certain business he had in hand
-took an anxious turn. He had said that he might be called away to
-Liverpool. Her lip curled. Liverpool! Kennington, more likely! That
-hat, that terrible gown, had looked like Kennington. Then she rallied.
-“You said you were not coming back to dinner, so I&mdash;I dined: a woman’s
-dinner, you know&mdash;an egg, some cake, and three cups of tea.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“No lies!” he returned savagely. “What were you doing half an hour ago?
-An egg! Tea! There was a plate of rump-steak in front of you at the
-restaurant.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-231">[231]</a></span>
-She was by this time thoroughly steadied to hard, deliberate lying. She
-didn’t want to lose him. She didn’t mean to hand him over publicly to
-that woman. She loved him. She’d keep the semblance of him anyhow.
-</p>
-<p>
-All her frenzied watching; all her deplorable spying; all her fierce
-assurance that unfaithfulness on his part would free her soul&mdash;ended in
-this. She was lying, in order to keep him.
-</p>
-<p>
-That he had been unfaithful she was certain; his attitude toward the
-woman spoke of nothing else. It was an old entanglement, purged of all
-piquancy, all intensity. It had become a matter of course.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You don’t suppose I would go out and dine alone? Steak! I never touch
-it.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You never do,” he said ponderingly; then added, “but that was, no
-doubt, part of your devilish, ingenious scheming, to throw dust in my
-eyes.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I don’t understand, I really don’t,” she persisted, with the firmness
-and absolute blankness of the deeply-committed liar. “Be a little more
-clear.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You were there. I saw you,” he stormed, moving his hands about
-nervously. “Why! You remember looking at me. You remember&mdash;her?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Her?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The woman with me. She was dressed in brown.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I hate brown. What woman?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You haven’t the impudence to stick to it that you weren’t there&mdash;with
-a rump steak and a bottle of wine?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It doesn’t sound at all inviting&mdash;at all like me.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-232">[232]</a></span> My dear boy!” She
-leapt up, and tremblingly hung her arms about his stubborn neck. “It
-was a delusion&mdash;you saw my double.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Double be&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You must tell me about that woman,” she broke in, smiling falsely, her
-teeth, beneath her curled-back lips, white and cruel in their
-regularity and soundness. “You’ve committed yourself. Who was she? A
-business connection&mdash;a person from&mdash;Liverpool? Though you’ve never
-asserted that it was politic for you to keep in with the women&mdash;as it
-is for me to appease the men.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He pushed her away from him by a reckless blow on the chest.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Curse you!” he said with fury. “You’re like a cat&mdash;all claws, all
-purr. You double like a cat. I saw one chased by a dog through some
-front gardens the other day. She doubled behind some shrubs, and he
-lost her.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She had one hand on her chest, where it throbbed with his fist. She was
-smiling still; a demoniacal smile, but with the most hopeless outraged
-tenderness behind it.
-</p>
-<p>
-“There are no front gardens in Piccadilly,” she said, looking at him
-oddly. “You must have been in the suburbs.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He sat down. He was biting his nails fitfully, and looking up at her
-from time to time with a sullen, suspicious glance.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll be even with you yet,” he said threateningly. “You <i>were</i> there.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I wasn’t.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-233">[233]</a></span>
-“You’ll swear?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Women don’t swear. I wasn’t. I haven’t been out of the flat all day.
-Go into the bedroom, if you don’t believe me. Look at my shoes&mdash;all in
-nice shiny rows. Look at my gowns, all tidily on the pegs. By the way,
-what did she wear?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Brown,” he returned mechanically.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Pooh! We’ll come to her later on. I mean the other&mdash;the one you
-mistook for me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You wore a violet kind of thing, with black stuff sewn on it,” he
-persisted. “There were violet feathers in your hat. They nodded at me
-like imps when you got up and slipped away. By Jove! I won’t be fooled
-like this&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Don’t be absurd. Did you ever see me in violet? Think.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The dress had only come from the tailor’s that morning. She watched him
-triumphantly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Perhaps not&mdash;but I never notice what you wear.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You never do,” she made answer sadly; and then she jumped up, again
-meaning to kiss him, but he angrily waved her back.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It was a very curious thing,” she said steadily, and smiling into his
-angry, infuriated face. “It’s rather dree to know one has a double. I
-hope you’re convinced now. If not, go into the next room. See if you
-can find a violet gown. Shall we go together and hunt?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’ll swear you weren’t there?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ve told you I wasn’t&mdash;I’m tired of telling. Now, about this woman?”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-234">[234]</a></span>
-“Never mind who she was. It’s not your affair.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ve given you my definition of married fidelity,” he said, with an
-ugly, puzzling grin full on her quivering face. “Nothing matters&mdash;so
-long as the other one doesn’t find out. Find out&mdash;if you dare! If I
-ever see&mdash;your double&mdash;dogging me again, I’ll turn round in the streets
-and knock her down. Do you understand?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I hear&mdash;and I’m very sorry for the poor thing. I can only hope that
-she won’t cross your path, but&mdash;it’s nothing to me. Is it?”
-</p>
-<p>
-He was out of the room, out of the flat before her lips closed after
-the mocking words. She fell back, shaking with degradation. She knew
-perfectly well that he would not return that night. She might drop her
-mask, spread the accusing violet gown on the bed, plant her dusty shoes
-in the middle of the room. She might cry her fill&mdash;but where was the
-good of that? Tears were bad diplomacy at the best of times. She was
-worn out enough by the burning shame of the glib lies she had been
-reeling off.
-</p>
-<p>
-He would not come back that night. He had returned to&mdash;<i>her</i>&mdash;the brown
-person. Perhaps she had been waiting outside all the time. She got up,
-ran into the other room, began to feverishly unfasten her gown with one
-hand, while with the other she flung back the door of the wardrobe. She
-would follow them. If he saw her, knocked her down&mdash;so well! She would
-follow them&mdash;to the very door. Then she dropt down on the bed,
-shaking<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-235">[235]</a></span> her head mournfully, twisting her hands. She wouldn’t
-follow&mdash;all motive for following was gone. She had been waiting,
-watching all these degrading weeks for the advent of a woman. The woman
-had come. She had believed that she would bring freedom in her hands.
-But she hadn’t; no woman ever would. It needed a subtler force to kill
-her love for that villain. She didn’t even feel jealous because he had
-gone away with her rival. She was contemptuous of him because her rival
-was so uninteresting&mdash;that was about all. Her strongest feeling was one
-of being stunned&mdash;as if he had struck her on the head, instead of on
-the breast. She didn’t mind much. She was relieved, immensely relieved,
-that it was no longer necessary to watch&mdash;to crawl stealthily about the
-streets like an unclean animal of prey. She only hoped that he would
-come back in the morning&mdash;and in a good temper. One must learn to wink
-at things.
-</p>
-<p>
-As she sat on the bed, shaking her head in a foolish, silly fashion,
-and smiling at the wall with the self-satisfied air of a person mildly
-and harmlessly distraught, the outer door of the flat opened. She
-jumped up with a wild hope, a sick dread. She gave the one essential
-look in the glass, raised her hot fingers mechanically to her crumpled
-hair, and went back to the drawing-room.
-</p>
-<p>
-Sutton was standing in the middle of it, his head bent in a listening
-way.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Oh!” she said stiffly, with an air of collapse. “You!”
-</p>
-<p>
-He did not answer, only stared at her. His face<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-236">[236]</a></span> was aflame with some
-unusual emotion. It looked like a Christmas card&mdash;one of those
-things&mdash;transparencies&mdash;which admit a ruddy, steady light in places
-where you hold them up before a lamp.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Edred has gone out,” she continued with abrupt impulse, “and I&mdash;I’m
-going out too.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Where?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Anywhere. The pit of a theater, perhaps; he used to take me.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He was looking at her fixedly, as well he might. Her voice, her face,
-her attitude were reckless.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Will you come to a music-hall with me?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked at him. He read her contempt for him; it was steady behind
-the reckless mask. But he didn’t care. For many months he had been
-playing for this night.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Wait. One moment,” she said in a staccato fashion. “I’ll put on my
-long cloak&mdash;that’s all.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She whisked through the door and was back in a moment, wrapped to her
-ankles in the garment which Edred had bought for her on that fairy
-summer evening&mdash;the night of the day on which she had left Jethro.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You are going&mdash;like that?” he said musingly, as she hitched up the
-tail of her gown, and plunging his hand into his pocket.
-</p>
-<p>
-He didn’t choose his music-hall with any regard for her. He took her
-somewhere&mdash;she didn’t know or care exactly where. She only knew that it
-wasn’t in one of the big streets. She sat with him in the box, staring
-and smiling through the performance. Nothing smote her modesty that
-night. She<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-237">[237]</a></span> had suddenly turned numb. Sometimes, as she stared and
-smiled at the stage, she saw, not a kicking, painted woman, but a
-demure, savagely respectable figure in brown. Once a dancer suddenly
-changed into a big woman, mostly jacket-buttons and red-lined
-petticoat, who extravagantly popped out a very long tongue, and said,
-“Yer never knows nothin’, do yer?”
-</p>
-<p>
-As the evening wore on, and she endured without flinching the risky
-songs and patter, Sutton’s attitude grew more free. In the cab on the
-way home he sat beside her, seeming to press her uncomfortably into the
-corner.
-</p>
-<p>
-When he unlocked the door of the flat her instinct told her at once
-that Edred had not returned. Sensation came back. She suddenly felt ill
-at ease. She wished from her heart that she had not gone out for the
-evening with Sutton, a man she detested and despised. She looked down
-at him contemptuously&mdash;a middle-aged, vacuous, little-minded, vulgar,
-cunning creature: a very good example of the played-out mercantile
-clerk.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Good-night,” she said curtly.
-</p>
-<p>
-It seemed an almost superfluous thing to say, jammed in together and
-alone as they were in the flat, where a whisper almost passed through
-the walls.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Good-night,” she repeated, with sudden constraint.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Wait a bit”&mdash;he opened the drawing-room door&mdash;“I want to talk to you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’m tired.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-238">[238]</a></span>
-“But it’s very important.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She marveled at the remarkable change in him. He had become an
-impressive figure. He absolutely commanded her, as he stood by the open
-door, in his iron-gray suit. It was baggy at the knees and elbows. It
-was perfectly true that he had plenty of money now; but he could not
-shake off the careful habits of twenty years. He only had two new suits
-a year, and he scrupulously changed his coat whenever he came indoors.
-</p>
-<p>
-He threw out his hand and bowed&mdash;something in the way of a shop-walker.
-She walked into the room, without another word of protest.
-</p>
-<p>
-He went out again, putting his face back in his usual queer way, to
-throw at her the words:
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll be back in half a jiff. I’ll just put on my slippers and get my
-alpaca jacket.”
-</p>
-<p>
-When he came in again, she was sitting bolt upright on the lounge; she
-had not even turned up her veil, nor unbuttoned her long gloves.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Take off your things,” he said with ghastly jocularity. “Make yourself
-at home, you know.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Then he laughed nervously. It suddenly dawned on her that he was in a
-state of great tremor. His jocular tone, his silly, vulgar
-words&mdash;everything of him&mdash;jarred terribly. She reproached herself,
-condemned herself again for that hideous evening of frolic at a
-third-rate music-hall with such a creature.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll keep my things on,” she said firmly. “Sometimes these summer
-nights are cold. It is going to rain.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He came and sat on the other end of the lounge,<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-239">[239]</a></span> and stared at her with
-his unpleasant, expressionless eyes. He crossed first one leg and then
-the other; he stroked and tugged at the weakly growing hair on his face.
-</p>
-<p>
-“If you’ve anything to say,” she said crisply, “say it. It’s twenty
-past twelve.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ve all night to say it in&mdash;he won’t come home.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She nearly struck him for that free, unctuous laugh. She would have
-whisked up and locked herself in her own room&mdash;but she couldn’t. Even a
-mean man is commanding in moments of tremendous excitement. It was
-obvious that Sutton was laboring to say something of moment; she was
-impelled to sit still and let him say it.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I don’t know where to begin,” he said helplessly, winding his
-watch-chain round his finger.
-</p>
-<p>
-“If it is business,” she said, suddenly becoming inspired with the idea
-that there was some financial difficulty, and he wished to confide in
-her, to break it to her, “don’t tell me. I shall not understand.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I never talk business with a woman,” he returned with a sneer.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Oh! Then what do you talk?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The one thing of any interest. You know what&mdash;but you like to tease
-me, you won’t help me out. It’s unkind to a poor beggar,” he said, with
-a fearful attempt at pathos and tenderness.
-</p>
-<p>
-Then she knew instantly what was coming, knew what had transformed him.
-She was consumed with shame, with apprehension&mdash;but she could not rise
-from that paralyzing lounge, could not move<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-240">[240]</a></span> one step toward the door.
-Like a true woman, hypocritically obtuse to the very last, she said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“I haven’t the least idea&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-He grabbed at her hands, held them desperately.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You know; you’ve known all along. It’s been a pretty game, hasn’t it?
-You thought I didn’t see the nods you gave me over the dinner-table,
-the cunning little winks behind his back.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I never winked in my life,” she said indignantly.
-</p>
-<p>
-He ignored the disclaimer, and went on calmly:
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’ve stood a good deal more than most girls would have done&mdash;a
-pretty girl like you, too. He’s been a bit of a brute, hasn’t he? Upon
-my word, I wonder that you have stood it so long.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She made a second frenzied attempt to struggle up from the cushions.
-She could see that he was slowly edging up, that the red glow on his
-face was more pronounced, that his eyes were nearer being expressive
-than they had ever been before.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Don’t be a fool,” he said, pushing her back. “You’re not a fool;
-you’re a sharp girl&mdash;you know which side your bread’s buttered. Edred
-is going all to pieces; if he doesn’t look out he’ll find himself in
-the dock again&mdash;with Milligan and one or two more. But I was always
-prudent. I’ve made a nice little pile. I can give you every comfort.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I don’t know what you mean; on my word of honor I don’t,” she said
-beseechingly&mdash;too utterly staggered to be angry with him.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You don’t know! You <i>won’t</i>, you mean. You’re bent on playing a better
-game. Well! there;<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-241">[241]</a></span> I’ll marry you, if you like. No man can make a
-fairer offer than that.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Then, at last, she jumped up&mdash;positively, tangibly afraid of him. She
-conceived the sudden extravagant idea that he had gone mad. She knew
-nothing of his antecedents, she recalled a thousand foolish things that
-he had done and looked and said. She firmly believed him to be subject
-to attacks of mania. Her eyes expressed her fear.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Do you think I’m off my head?” he demanded bluntly. “You look as if
-you did.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He rose too, his face becoming inflamed and furious.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You know,” she said gently, “of course you remember&mdash;I was married to
-Edred at St. Antony’s last year. You gave me away.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He looked at her keenly. Then at last he said slowly:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Haven’t you really found out? Do you still believe in that farce? Why
-have you followed him about all these weeks? Oh! I know. I did it well,
-didn’t I?” he laughed. “You behind him, I behind you, night after
-night. I’m a cute chap. When I was in the City the firm always gave me
-little delicate jobs like that to do. I can ferret out anything. And I
-can tell you this&mdash;she’s beginning to suspect.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“His wife. Come. You must know&mdash;you must have known for a long time. I
-found it out nearly a year ago. The little woman he dined with
-to-night. I was there too. What on earth made you<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-242">[242]</a></span> give the waiter half
-a quid? Hadn’t you less in your pocket?”
-</p>
-<p>
-He wasn’t mad. She was&mdash;the world was. It was a bewitched night, a
-topsy-turvy universe. She wasn’t afraid of him any longer; he was sane
-enough, the little wriggling, contemptible reptile. He was sane, he was
-speaking the absolute truth. She sat down again.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Tell me everything,” she said. “Please tell me everything. I thought
-that woman was&mdash;but&mdash;it is I. Will you please explain&mdash;everything.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Sutton began to explain. He seemed to enjoy the task. He sat and talked
-and nursed his knee and glanced ardently, hopefully, from time to time,
-at the attractive, agonized face in front of him.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s a nice little complication,” he said. “Of course when Edred
-married you he thought that she was dead. He’s not a fool; he wouldn’t
-have walked into a trap blindfold. He married her some years ago,
-before you ever met him. They had a baby. It died and she went off her
-head. They took her away to the asylum. Then, after a bit, he had an
-official notice that she was dead. He was jolly glad, of course; any
-fellow would be. Fancy a man being tied up to a cracked wife! Well! To
-cut a long story short, she wasn’t dead at all. It was somebody
-else&mdash;one of the blessed bungles of the asylum. It was a regular
-scandal in all the papers. She’s very much alive. She’s out, cured, as
-sane as you are, except for a rum look in her eyes now and then, which
-I should funk if I were her husband. He’s taken a little place for her
-at Mildmay<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-243">[243]</a></span> Park. He says he’s a commercial traveler. But she’s
-cunning; she smells a rat.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“And she’s his wife?” Pamela said stonily.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I can show the register if you like. It was at a church in&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I don’t want proof. I believe it. I might have known it from the
-first. She looks his wife. But I&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-She put up her hands and gave a short, wounded cry.
-</p>
-<p>
-“The position’s favorable for us,” Sutton said complacently. “Of
-course, you don’t care for him, a brute who strikes and bullies you.
-Besides, he’ll throw you over before long. It’s getting a little too
-hot for him. She suspects and you suspect. He’s afraid you’ll be
-clawing each other’s faces. You see&mdash;it’s an ugly word&mdash;he’s committed
-bigamy. He may be found out any day. That means&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I know, I know,” she said, sharply nodding her head several times;
-“but I should never give him away. Never, never.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“We needn’t send him to prison. He wouldn’t be any use to us there,”
-Sutton said, with a gesture of assent. “But we can bleed him pretty
-regularly. He’s in a tight corner, poor old chap. I can give him away
-on the business side and you on the matrimonial.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He laughed with relish. She said, in the most matter-of-fact way, “If
-you laugh like that again, I think I shall kill you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“What a queer girl you are!” His voice was<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-244">[244]</a></span> steady, but he made
-a furtive movement toward the grate, where there were fire
-irons&mdash;efficient weapons&mdash;if he wanted them. He was thinking uneasily,
-in his common, literal way, that she was a big woman, that she looked
-deuced queer, that a woman when her blood was up was ten times worse
-than a man.
-</p>
-<p>
-“What a queer girl you are!” he repeated rather timidly. “Do you
-forgive him?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Her head was down on her breast.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I love him,” she said, almost sullenly.
-</p>
-<p>
-Sutton surveyed her in silence for a moment or so: anything out of the
-ordinary run of emotions struck him dumb. He had expected her to rage,
-to cry, to be hysterical, and end by dropping into his ready arms.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You might have guessed,” he said at last. “Has he ever treated you as
-if you were his wife? Have any of us treated you as if you were his
-wife? You are not mistress here; the very servants see how things are;
-they never come to you for orders. The manager grins openly in your
-face.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes,” she said thoughtfully, thinking it all over and remembering a
-thousand damning incidents.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Why,” Sutton went on, “if you had been his wife, he would have kicked
-Milligan out of the place long ago; he would have kicked us all out.
-Where have your eyes been, my dear girl? Think! Did any of those men
-bring their wives or sisters?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She shook her fair, dull head: it seemed to sink lower on her breast as
-Sutton went fluently on:
-</p>
-<p>
-“This flat is a bachelor establishment; he and I<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-245">[245]</a></span> are the tenants.
-If you were his wife I shouldn’t be here; the place is only a bandbox.
-I’ll take you to the church where they were married to-morrow morning;
-you shall see the register.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I don’t want to see it. I know that woman is his wife. I should have
-known it from the first, when I saw her hanging on his arm in the
-Strand. She is his wife. But I? What am I?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Sutton said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Do you remember the night when Milligan came here with a lady?”
-</p>
-<p>
-A queer expression of distaste crossed her white face. She remembered.
-There had been a quarrel between her and Edred&mdash;one of the usual sharp
-disputes. She had reproached him for bringing only men to the flat. She
-remembered her quick, foaming flood of reproach and invective in answer
-to his cold sneers. She remembered that when she stopped, panting for
-breath, he had said:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Well, is that all? Good Heavens! how you women can jaw!”
-</p>
-<p>
-That night Milligan had brought Lady Milligan with him to dinner. When
-they had gone Edred asked her, with an ugly look, if she were satisfied
-now. “What more did she want?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Lady Milligan! A dark young girl, with a tightly-curled fringe like a
-door mat, a half dirty blouse, red hands. She remembered.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes, Lady Milligan,” she said to Sutton. “A vulgar woman; but what
-could one expect? She used to serve in a tobacconist’s shop.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Sutton laughed.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-246">[246]</a></span>
-“Lady Milligan,” he said, “is nearly fifty; a very religious, proper
-woman. Do you understand?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Oh!” she breathed, seeming to collapse with this added indignity of
-Edred’s. “Yes. I understand. Spare me any more confirming proofs.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She hid her face in the sofa-cushions, her shame choking her. Sutton
-put his hand on her shoulder.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Don’t be so upset,” he said, with a pompous, condescending attempt at
-comfort. “You didn’t know. You couldn’t help it. It will be all right.
-I’ll marry you myself. There shall be no hanky-panky this time.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She started up as if his hand had been the thin lash of a whip through
-her cloak.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Don’t touch me! Marry you! It is impossible for anyone like you to
-understand. You don’t know how near I am to desperate crime&mdash;only I am
-a coward. That makes you safe&mdash;I am a coward. I wish Edred would come
-home. If only I knew where to find him!”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The address is in my pocket-book,” he sneered. “But you can’t be
-serious. What do you want him for? You can’t alter things. If you nag
-at him, he’ll only laugh, or hit you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“If he would only come back,” she moaned. “If I could touch him, see
-him, speak to him. I feel so alone, so incapable and miserable.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You want to have it out with him?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I want him,” she returned simply.
-</p>
-<p>
-Then Sutton lost his temper.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You are an idiot,” he said flatly. “I make you<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-247">[247]</a></span> a good offer; not many
-men would make it, and you can only&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-She laughed contemptuously, looking full in his eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You droll, contemptible creature,” she said with limitless scorn. “Of
-course you don’t understand. How should you? I am going out&mdash;never mind
-where. I am coming back&mdash;or I am not&mdash;according to my mood. You needn’t
-be certain of anything&mdash;but the one thing: I don’t intend to marry
-<i>you!</i>”
-</p>
-<p>
-She whirled out of the room before he could collect his startled wits.
-She was out of the flat and half down the stairs before he could stop
-her.
-</p>
-<p>
-The vast, high house was dark. She ran down the familiar stone steps,
-drew the long bolts of the entrance door. As she opened it, she heard
-the patter of slippers, a little down at heel, covering the flights;
-heard a hoarse, cautious voice cry out down the black shoot of the
-quiet staircase.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Pamela! Come back! Don’t be a fool! Don’t lose your head like this!”
-</p>
-<p>
-Her only answer was another strident laugh. The door thudded after her.
-She stood alone in the night&mdash;a chilly night, with a spray of rain.
-She stood facing the black mass of the Park.
-</p>
-<p>
-She swept on westward. After a while she grew cool, practical enough to
-put her hand in her pocket and feel if she had her purse. It was there,
-lying heavy at the bottom. Her head was on fire, her sore heart beat
-rapidly. She went on trying to formulate her life as the day must see
-it. Dawn meant<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-248">[248]</a></span> shame, ridicule, curiosity. She couldn’t walk London
-in thin shoes with heavily jetted toes, in a cloak bordered with
-swansdown and a long tea-gown.
-</p>
-<p>
-What should she do when dawn came? She tried to be cool, practical. She
-had always been practical; women who earn their own bread are compelled
-to be. She walked on very quickly. The streets were almost empty. She
-met with no annoyance. Yet she felt that this was the measure of her
-degradation&mdash;this night alone under the London stars. What should she
-do? She knew what she wanted to do. Go back; ignore everything. Yes,
-she wanted that. She kept lashing herself with fierce self-reproach.
-She called herself shameless, spiritless, vicious. But she couldn’t
-help it. She wanted to go back&mdash;to breakfast with him as usual, to say
-nothing. She loved him. That terrible cankering love! Would nothing
-destroy it?
-</p>
-<p>
-At Sloane Street she turned down, making her way instinctively, like
-all hopeless, desolate creatures, to the river. She walked along and
-along, not noticing distance, not feeling the soreness of her
-lightly-shod feet, until she came to Chelsea.
-</p>
-<p>
-She crossed the road and walked closely by the houses in Cheyne Walk.
-She went by Oakley Street, by Cheyne Row, by the red blocks of flats
-beyond, and by the Hospital, where lights still burned in certain
-windows. At the corner of Beaufort Street she stopped. What on earth
-was the good of going on?
-</p>
-<p>
-A quick, frightened feminine cry, a hoarse curse from a man, startled
-her, and she stumbled to the<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-249">[249]</a></span> pavement, conscious all in a moment
-that a hansom had nearly knocked her down. It stopped at a house with a
-heavy door painted white. As she stood there by the railings, unsteady,
-uncertain, a woman jumped from the hansom and opened the gate of that
-house.
-</p>
-<p>
-She had a long cloak too. Beneath it hung a soft mass of black net
-which flashed with steel. Their eyes met; the eyes of these two women
-on the pavement. The hansom rattled off. The lights in the house,
-except one on the ground floor, were out. The pavements wound away, wet
-and empty. Their eyes met. Pamela forced a smile, put out her hand in a
-conventional way.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Is it really Mrs. Clutton?” she said, with an artificial accent, as if
-it were broad day and Bond Street.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Pamela! Pamela! Really? But what are you doing alone? Where is Mr.
-Jayne?”
-</p>
-<p>
-The little dark, vivacious woman’s eyes contracted as they rested on
-this wild figure with the wretched, haggard face, the clown-like smile.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-Pamela said nothing. She began to cry in a low, terrified fashion, like
-a lost child. The other took her by the shoulder and led her up the
-flagged path to the door.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_118">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-250">[250]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_118_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_118_toc">CHAPTER XVIII.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-S<small>HE</small> opened the wide door into a hall which blazed with a yellow carpet
-and led the way into a room which was lighted with a shaded
-reading-lamp. The room instantly appealed to Pamela with a sense of
-dear familiarity. It was filled with furniture and china from the
-Buttery.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Sit down. It is Mrs. Nick Hone’s chair. She used to stand her
-washing-tub on it; Tim says it is worth five pounds.”
-</p>
-<p>
-A little fire burned in the grate although it was a summer night. On
-the bare table of brown oak was a tray set with tea things.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I always like a cup of tea when I come home from a party; it makes me
-sleep. I’ll get another cup. You remember Mrs. Silas Daborn’s corner
-cupboard?” She opened it and brought out the china.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela looked about her hungrily, silently, at the familiar dumb things
-which seemed alive that night: warm, vital things that knew her. The
-hideous china figures on the shelves grinned affably&mdash;at a former
-neighbor.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You must drink this hot.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela began to cry again as the cup was held to her mouth.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Ssh. No. Drink the tea. Tell me everything and have a big cry
-afterward.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-251">[251]</a></span>
-She drank obediently, draining the cup. Then she said in a heartfelt,
-passionate way, as if she were an ardent convert to a new belief:
-</p>
-<p>
-“There is nothing like another woman when one is miserable.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Nothing. Men are excellent&mdash;when we are happy. At other times they
-bully us&mdash;with the best intentions&mdash;putting all our emotions down to
-hysteria.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Men are never excellent at any time. They have brought me misery. You
-pay for one moment of delight with a day of anguish.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“This tray,” said Barbara Clutton, evidently thinking it politic to
-turn the conversation, “was Mrs. Bert Hone’s. You were with me when I
-bought it. Do you remember how deaf she was, and how the old man
-swore&mdash;most picturesque swears! Do you remember what I said that day
-about your brother Edred? How is he?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela started up at the name.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I must tell you everything,” she cried energetically. “It isn’t fair
-to sit here, to stay in your house without telling you everything.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She told it all without another moment of hesitation: told every little
-thing. She didn’t care how her story would be received. She
-relentlessly dissected all her emotions&mdash;however unworthy. She detailed
-all her experiences&mdash;however unsavory. It was a relief to be absolutely
-frank at last, to have no concealment whatever from at least one
-person. It was a very long story; she touched it up almost lovingly.
-The night wore away. She drained<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-252">[252]</a></span> herself of all the bitterness, all
-the delight and shame and misery of three years.
-</p>
-<p>
-The fire died out. Hushed sounds in the streets beyond the smugly drawn
-curtains, a cold, dull light breaking through a chink and marking the
-wall, were suggestive. Barbara Clutton, who had listened without one
-word of comment, started to her feet and dragged back the curtains.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was broad daylight in the streets outside. She put her arm around
-Pamela’s shoulders, with a gesture much more eloquently tender and
-sympathetic than a torrent of words would have been, and drew her to
-the window.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Did you ever see such an exquisite flush of pink?” she said, pointing
-to the sky. “I’ll open the window. There! Such air on one’s cheeks, in
-one’s thick eyes. We ought to go for a walk while the world is empty.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I wonder what it is like at this moment at Folly Corner, in my
-garden,” Pamela said abstractedly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Ah! Folly Corner. What a garden, what a dim old house, packed with
-ghosts, guilt, dead dreams, and delights! What a collection of
-furniture; I’d like Tim to see it. And you put all that behind you for
-a tinsel thing. My poor Pamela! But then you are a woman. Let us talk
-over your plans. You’ve got to finish your life&mdash;that is a piece of
-work we are not allowed to throw aside. Let us make plans.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I haven’t any&mdash;only desires,” Pamela returned in a shamefaced way.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Desires! Are you thinking of Jethro? The<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-253">[253]</a></span> dawn, the quiet has brought
-it all back&mdash;Folly Corner.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“That is past&mdash;impossible. I was thinking of Edred. I had better go
-back. You see, he didn’t mean to shame me. He didn’t know that she was
-alive all the time. He is a victim of circumstances. He needs pity.
-I’ll go back. I’ll say nothing about it. That will be the best. You
-don’t know how fond I am of him! It is terrible; it frightens me
-sometimes. Nothing kills it&mdash;not even last night; not even the bruises
-on my body. I’ll go back. You must forget to-night. I’m not a fit
-person for you&mdash;or any nice woman&mdash;to know.”
-</p>
-<p>
-A tinge of cold disgust came into Mrs. Clutton’s dark eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I won’t wrong you by believing that you’re serious,” she said at last,
-with some distaste&mdash;with a great deal more seriousness than she usually
-allowed herself. “Go back! It would be immoral, horrible. You can’t do
-it. You can’t possibly mean what you say. We won’t mention him again.
-You must stay here; things will arrange themselves&mdash;they always do.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But Mr. Clutton?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Tim. He has gone abroad as war correspondent. It is as well. We
-quarrel if we are together too long, or we grow apathetic, which is
-worse. I’d rather have isolated episodes of rapture than a
-matter-of-fact, unbroken affection. I could never endure the kind of
-husband who calls you ‘my dear,’ who draws you a check without
-grumbling, who politely wishes you good-morning when you meet<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-254">[254]</a></span> at the
-breakfast table and asks anxiously if you are sure his shirts are aired.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We are happy, prosperous. Tim makes money, although brains, as a rule,
-are a positive hindrance to worldly success. We know lots of clever
-people. To them I am only Tim’s wife: I used to hope that he would be
-only my husband. We rush through society; he the kite, I the tail. I
-used to think I was clever&mdash;I’m merely voluble. I can’t even succeed in
-being positively stupid: in a brilliant age like this it’s a
-distinction to be unmistakably stupid. Nancy has been up to stay with
-me. I took her about. She made a tremendous sensation&mdash;with her
-complexion, her red locks, her gift of silence. People said she had an
-air, was uncommonly clever. She is going to be married to Mr. Minns,
-the Liddleshorn curate. And some people say that Mr. Jayne is to be
-married too&mdash;they talk of Maria Furlonger. Isabel Crisp has married
-that prig Egbert Turle. He has bought old Dr. Smith’s practice at
-Liddleshorn. Mrs. Turle&mdash;she came up with Nancy&mdash;says that old Gainah
-is wonderfully active, more active than ever. Why! You are nearly
-asleep. We’ll go upstairs. There is a room ready. Annie Jayne was to
-have spent the night here on Monday. She has at last decided to have
-false teeth&mdash;greatly against her will: her mother had only six stumps
-in her head when she died. But the baby&mdash;there’s another since your
-time&mdash;had an attack of rose rash, whatever that may be. It sounds
-pretty.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She led the way upstairs softly. The house was most luxurious, and the
-tail of her gown, as she<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-255">[255]</a></span> swept it over the thick carpets, was like a
-molten stream of silver.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela fell asleep in a mahogany bed draped with some wonderful fabric
-full of color and of bold design. When she woke the sun was fierce in
-the room. Her limbs felt stiff and her head muddled. She started up on
-her elbow, looking wildly round for her own possessions&mdash;the big toilet
-table, the winged, ugly wardrobe with the long glass. Her tea-gown, all
-frilled and limp and pale on a chair by the bed, was eloquent. It
-brought back the nightmare: the person in brown; Sutton, with his
-atrocious proposal and disclosure; the long walk, the meeting with her
-hostess. She looked over the side of the bed. Her slippers were kicked
-off, soles upward. There was a round hole in one, the other had broken
-away at the side. Her black silk stockings, lying near, had holes, too.
-She fell back despairingly on the square pillow, its frill tickling her
-cheeks. Where was the use of waking?
-</p>
-<p>
-The door opened, and Barbara Clutton stole in. When she saw that her
-guest was awake she sat down on the edge of the bed. Then, as Pamela,
-like a child, lifted her face, she jumped up and kissed her gravely
-between the widely set, melancholy eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I was always fond of you,” she said, going back to the foot of the
-bed. “I always suspected you of drama. I’ve a plan. You must stay
-here&mdash;it will be a charity to me. When Tim comes home&mdash;we’ll see! I
-shan’t want you then.” She made a little frank grimace. “When Tim comes
-home I want no one&mdash;until the first rapture of reunion wears off.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-256">[256]</a></span>
-We are like a couple of very juvenile lovers&mdash;but we don’t keep up the
-strain for long. He won’t return for a couple of months at the very
-least. We can have a splendid time, you and I together. There is only
-one thing I must insist on&mdash;one thing.” The disgustful expression of
-the night before momentarily hardened her laughing face. “You must vow,
-by something solemn&mdash;what binding instrument can we get for you to kiss
-or swear by? There is really nothing but a back glass&mdash;which is
-frivolous&mdash;and a poker, which is threatening. Give me your bare word.
-Promise not to attempt to see that man; not to degrade me by going
-back, by writing. You mustn’t even speak of him. It’s all terrible
-tragedy to you; to me it is merely a disgraceful, unavoidable episode.
-The woman in brown transforms the situation. I’m more sorry for her
-than for you; we can’t help our respectable prejudices. He is never to
-be mentioned. We’ll put away, if you please, the very tea-gown which he
-has touched. I’ve brought you a coat and skirt&mdash;a pale blue skirt which
-ought to suit you beautifully. Is it all settled?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“All!” Pamela returned with promptitude. “I vow. I am only too grateful
-to be saved&mdash;from myself.”
-</p>
-<p>
-In that quick way&mdash;natural to Barbara Clutton&mdash;they decided it. Pamela
-fell obediently into the life at Beaufort Street. It was almost
-conventual. Day after day she rose from her bed, looked at the mourning
-band of river and despaired. She was cut off from London; it was part
-of the compact that<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-257">[257]</a></span> she was not to go beyond the Chelsea end of
-Sloane Street. She shopped in King’s Road. Sometimes she walked out to
-Fulham, or penetrated farther still, to a lonely green, belted with red
-and yellow houses. The omnibuses pulled up there. She used to stare at
-them wistfully, and think of Wormwood Scrubbs and the old, dead days of
-anguish.
-</p>
-<p>
-Furtively she bought newspapers and read them with a hungry eye. She
-read everything which might hold a trail of Edred. She bought City
-papers, made her head ache by puzzling over market quotations. She read
-accounts of frauds, read all the criminal news. She read the lists of
-bankrupts, read death notices, advertisements. She never saw his name.
-It seemed suddenly sponged from all the places which had formerly
-placarded it.
-</p>
-<p>
-She beat against the bars of that house by the river. She wasn’t happy;
-neither she nor Barbara was happy after the first glow of novelty wore
-off. They weren’t of the mold to be completely satisfied with the
-companionship of their own sex.
-</p>
-<p>
-Summer died; leaves, whirled by October gales, swept the Embankment.
-Pamela was lonely, bored. She had fancied that the society of clever
-people&mdash;people with the public certificate of cleverness&mdash;would be
-invigorating. But the distinguished people who came to Beaufort Street
-were stupid; they seemed to go out of their way to be commonplace.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Conversational brilliance is out of fashion,” Barbara said flippantly.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela was tired of Barbara Clutton, tired of her volubility, her
-pettishness, her whims. She was<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-258">[258]</a></span> very grateful to her, she liked her
-very much, of course&mdash;she was sick to death of her.
-</p>
-<p>
-How would it end? She studied the newspapers, for other than
-sentimental reasons: she looked for a situation. That would be the
-end&mdash;a situation. They would never take her back at the boarding-house
-in Bloomsbury; Edred’s history, and her connection with him, was too
-notorious. But there were other boarding-houses. She would go back to
-the old life&mdash;that would be the end. She would help carve, talk
-smoothly on safe, commonplace subjects at the dinner-table.
-</p>
-<p>
-She knew the life. She remembered; and it turned her sick. A woman in
-subservience was only half a woman. But that was to be the end. She was
-to finish as she had begun. Perhaps, by years of saving, she might be
-able to start a boarding-house of her own. Perhaps Jethro would help
-her to do so, if Maria would permit him.
-</p>
-<p>
-The boarding-house! She remembered the narrow hall, where the dinner
-always hung on the close air; remembered the shabby manservant, the
-guests. They had mostly been women, those boarders: old maids who
-called each other “dear,” “darling,” “sweet one,” and gathered by twos
-into corners of the big, shabby drawing-room to tear each other to
-shreds. They were fussy old women, susceptible to draught, and given to
-wearing ragged fur tippets in the house when an east wind was blowing.
-She knew&mdash;and shuddered. But it was the only thing left.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her thoughts flew to Folly Corner, and then to<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-259">[259]</a></span> Edred. She would remind
-herself reproachfully that she had not once thought of him that day.
-She wanted to forget him; she tried to forget, and yet she reproached
-herself because she was beginning to succeed. She must forget&mdash;it
-wasn’t respectable to remember. Barbara Clutton was always impressing
-that on her.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I like,” she said one day, in explanation of her gospel, “to be a very
-respectable woman; an icily virtuous one&mdash;but yet to give the
-impression of being dangerous.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela had left off laughing at her oddities&mdash;she had left off laughing
-at anything. She was cultivating the prim, half-formed manner of a
-spinster well over thirty. She grew fussy over trifles, became morbidly
-afraid of taking cold, studied her health, her diet. She gratuitously
-spied over the servants, seeing an embryo burglar in every tradesman’s
-boy, running her fingers along ledges for dust, measuring the contents
-of the dishes with suspicious eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I want to be of some use,” she said, in extenuation. “I’ve had great
-experience in housekeeping.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Housekeeping!” Her hostess shrugged. “A calling artfully created by
-hopelessly lazy women as a blind. My dear girl, no busy woman keeps
-house; it’s a terrible confession of idleness. Suppose Cook <i>does</i> give
-away the dripping&mdash;why should I waste nervous energy in attempting to
-stop her? The dripping isn’t worth it. If they refuse to burn small
-cinders in the kitchen range&mdash;what matters? Figure out for yourself&mdash;I
-can’t&mdash;the cost of a ton<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-260">[260]</a></span> of coal, and see how much Tim loses in the
-year. He pays&mdash;and it can’t be more than a box of cigars.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela said nothing. She retired to her room and her newspapers. She
-looked up from the lines of advertisements, and out at the gliding
-river. She thought of Folly Corner, of Jethro, in all his picturesque
-environment. And then she dragged herself back to thoughts of Edred; it
-was becoming an effort to remember him. She thought she would set aside
-half-an-hour every day for remembrance&mdash;as if he were some
-tenderly-loved dead person. She became afraid of herself. She was
-hopelessly fickle, of light behaviour. She was incapable of any lasting
-regard. She loved him. She loved him. But the words had become
-parrot-like&mdash;they no longer tore her heart to say them. She was
-forgetting him&mdash;the very thing she had once struggled in vain to do.
-She was becoming indifferent: the attitude she had once prayed and
-struggled for. And yet she wasn’t happy.
-</p>
-<p>
-Tim precipitated things. He send his wife a telegram, saying that he
-was on his way home. Would she care to join him in Paris for a week?
-</p>
-<p>
-“It needn’t make any difference to you, dear,” the excited little woman
-said, as her cab stood at the open door, and her wraps were carried
-down the path by a lilac-gowned maid, whose streaming cap-ends whirled
-about on the rude November wind.
-</p>
-<p>
-She kissed Pamela remorsefully, conscious that she had been malicious
-now and then.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s difficult for two women to live together without fighting, isn’t
-it?” she said ingenuously.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-261">[261]</a></span> “I wonder how they manage in a nunnery! A
-novel from the inside of a nunnery would cause a sensation. I’ll
-commend it to Tim. He’s quite clever enough to pass as a nun&mdash;but it
-wouldn’t satisfy my unquenchable sense of propriety. I’ve been very
-horrid to you now and then; but when Tim comes&mdash;we shall only stay in
-Paris ten days at the outside&mdash;he will keep us in order. Of course, his
-coming won’t make any difference,” she added, with obviously forced
-hospitality.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I shall get a situation,” Pamela said, in the inert way which had
-become habitual. “Good-by”&mdash;they kissed again. “I’ll look after the
-maids. You’ll never be able to keep that between-girl. She’s hopeless.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The other shrugged and ran out in the wind to the cab. It drove off,
-the maid came in, the door shut, an unusual silence settled over the
-house. Pamela went into the dining-room and sat by the window, not even
-a newspaper in her hand. She felt more lonely, more unwanted than she
-had ever felt at any moment in her varied life. Barbara had been in
-such a frenzy to get to her husband that she hadn’t given her a
-thought&mdash;hadn’t even asked her, as a matter of form, to see her off at
-the railway station.
-</p>
-<p>
-She lunched alone and meagerly. After lunch she sat by the dining-room
-window until tea came in. The maid set the tray down with a bang and
-moved across to the door flouncing her black skirts.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela set her mouth grimly. She knew the ways of servants; they had
-decided, in the absence<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-262">[262]</a></span> of their mistress, to give her a rough time.
-But she was equal to any servant. She amused herself by scheming out an
-elaborate house-cleaning&mdash;and then abandoned it wearily because the
-house wasn’t hers. She went to bed almost directly she had eaten her
-dinner. She was awake all night, lying flat and long in the bed, her
-eyes open, her thoughts forced to consideration of Edred. What was he
-doing? She didn’t feel much curiosity. His tenderness didn’t make her
-heart throb. His brutalities no longer made it blaze and ache.
-</p>
-<p>
-It had really come&mdash;indifference: a body, a soul of stone. She turned
-on the pillow and cried from sheer loneliness.
-</p>
-<p>
-It rained next morning. Rain&mdash;a high fog! The most miserable morning
-imaginable. She had her breakfast in the little room at the back of the
-house, with a French window leading to the long, suburban garden. She
-didn’t know why she turned the hasp of that window and stepped out
-under the gloomy sky, into the dreary rain.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was a very uninteresting garden; a ghastly, heart-breaking travesty
-of a garden. The limp creeper on the blackened wall smutted her hand
-when she touched it. The narrow borders were bare and smut-laden. From
-the top of the wall a lean, gray cat looked at her with a sinister
-mournfulness in its yellow eyes. The fog was in her eyes and down her
-throat, the rain fell coldly on her bare head. Peals of coarse, hearty
-laughter rang up from the kitchen, where the maids were romping<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-263">[263]</a></span> with
-the man who came every morning to fill the scuttles and clean the
-boots. The gray cat stole along the wall.
-</p>
-<p>
-She turned back to the window, not knowing why she came into the
-garden, not knowing what to do with this sad day. There was a rockery
-near the French window&mdash;the usual rockery, rich in clinkers. But some
-blue thing stared up into the brown air boldly. She uttered a sudden
-glad cry and stooped, letting her skirt brush the wet gravel. It was a
-delicate blue periwinkle. There was a patch of blue periwinkle at Folly
-Corner, just by the granary. Periwinkle! What nonsense was it that
-Gainah told her about periwinkle? Ah, yes! If a man and his wife eat
-the leaves they will ever be faithful each to the other. The blue
-flower with its trail of glistening leaves was in her hand. She bit one
-leaf, laughing&mdash;yet more a sob than a laugh&mdash;as she did it. She would
-never be Jethro’s wife&mdash;nor any man’s. She was a tainted thing.
-</p>
-<p>
-She stared at the flower, a long, thoughtful stare. Then she laughed
-again and clapped her hands&mdash;the heavy, blinding tears in her eyes. The
-world was to her one wide delicate flower of cold blue. She went
-through the window, laid the trail on the table, looked at it
-questioningly. Once she said to it, “Shall I? Dare I?” Then, with a
-clumsy movement, she dragged herself up, hurried to the door, went up
-the stairs two at a time.
-</p>
-<p>
-The maids were making her bed. She said abruptly:
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-264">[264]</a></span>
-“I am going away&mdash;a visit. I may be back to-night&mdash;I cannot say. You’ll
-see to everything just as if Mrs. Clutton and I were at home.”
-</p>
-<p>
-They left her alone. She put on her things and went out of the house.
-She didn’t leave a note for Barbara; she didn’t take any luggage; she
-didn’t look at the house with any feeling&mdash;no lingering glance of
-farewell. Her strip of needlework was hanging out of the basket. She
-didn’t trouble to put it in. She might be back to-night. It was
-extremely likely that she would be back. Of course she would. She was a
-fool, an impudent, optimistic fool to go at all. She would be back. She
-nearly rang the bell to order dinner at the usual time. She kept
-assuring herself that night would find her again in London&mdash;shuddering
-at every assurance. She knew very well that this journey was her last
-throw. She knew very well that this journey was to decide everything.
-Jethro might be married. He might be, if not already married, committed
-to some nice, pure, faithful girl. Was she the sort of woman to be
-introduced to a girl of that tepid, blameless description? The contempt
-for mere unimpassioned, untempted virtue curled her lip.
-</p>
-<p>
-He might be contemptuous, hard. He might be brutal; he could be
-bitterly, uncompromisingly brutal when he chose. He had the reputation
-of being a hard man&mdash;all the Jaynes had.
-</p>
-<p>
-She could imagine him saying very coolly some damning, insulting thing.
-She could see his ruddy patrician face as he said it, could see the
-relentless glint in his cold blue eyes. Eyes a couple of shades<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-265">[265]</a></span> paler
-than the periwinkle; she crushed it in her hand.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-She took her ticket; was fortunate enough to catch a quick train&mdash;there
-were very few in the day to such an out-of-the-way place. She was quite
-alone in the carriage. She watched the landscape eagerly; watched the
-foul fog rise as they left London; watched the slow development of a
-dazzling autumn day.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_119">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-266">[266]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_119_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_119_toc">CHAPTER XIX.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-T<small>HERE</small> was no one she knew at the station; she had been nervously
-apprehensive that there would be. She had expected to create a small
-flutter among the railway people&mdash;measuring the intensity of their
-emotions during the last year by her own. No one was surprised to see
-her. The station-master civilly said good-morning. The porter pulled
-his cap and added that they had not sent from Folly Corner to meet her.
-Should he send for the blacksmith’s pony-cart? She shook her head,
-stepping out into the sun.
-</p>
-<p>
-She crossed the common, noting every detail of the landscape with
-ecstasy. It all soothed and comforted her so inexpressibly, so
-mystically; she fell into it with a delicious sensation of ease. Across
-the common a woman was driving kids. The old goat had got free and was
-awkwardly humping after her, dragging its tether chain. She saw
-everything; her heart swelled in her throat at every step, at every new
-sight. She saw it all, felt it all&mdash;even to the white horse silhouetted
-against the broken black sail of the disused windmill.
-</p>
-<p>
-Each side of her, as she walked on the well-kept road, the common at
-her back, were the clean-cut black ditches, half filled with
-iron-reddened water, and bound by the silver of dew-soaked, glittering
-grass. In a field a man was harvesting swedes.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-267">[267]</a></span> The sick, sweet smell
-of them hung in the air; they were bulbed, tawny and big on the black
-ground. She stood and watched him, finding added peace in these simple
-occupations&mdash;the land drew her. He was stuffing the roots into a
-bloated, dun-colored sack. They bulged here and bulged there until the
-canvas looked like an unwieldly, headless sheep of some mammoth breed.
-He threw up the green tops into a cart, the prongs of his fork flashing
-in the sun. Everything was bright and cold and hard; the newly-painted
-shafts of the cart blood-red and angry against the fierce, clear blue
-of the drifting sky.
-</p>
-<p>
-She noted everything minutely. She was struck by the fantastic
-appearance of a copse of bare bushes&mdash;a gray-brown film of mystery. She
-didn’t throw a backward glance at London, with its crowds, its hectic
-flow of life. She was at home. She didn’t even think very much of
-Jethro; didn’t speculate on her reception at Folly Corner. She wanted
-the place, the influences of the country, as distinct from human
-preference. She dreaded the thought of a man’s love. All she had longed
-for was placidity. The clear, hard day, the slow, simple occupations of
-the few men and women she saw, gave her that.
-</p>
-<p>
-And then, as the time wore on, came the note of dread, of chill
-threatening. The sun slipped out of sight, the sky sulked. When she
-began to cross the second stretch of common, a light, delicate powdery
-mist hung over the shriveled heather. The common drew away&mdash;brown,
-bare, heavy with foreboding.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-268">[268]</a></span>
-The autumn flaying of the turf was in progress. She saw the bare,
-blue-black patches, like the skin of a dark cat. Through the mist she
-saw the stolid figure of a man. He was leaning his body against a
-turfing iron. A cart, half full of square turfs, was at his elbow.
-</p>
-<p>
-The mist grew thicker at every step. The one note of comfort and warmth
-came from the smithy, round which was an angry red flare, and from
-which came the steady clink of iron on iron.
-</p>
-<p>
-The afternoon grew cold. The chill, delicate powder-mist was eating
-into her. She was lightly clad. When first she went to Beaufort Street
-she had bought herself some cheap, necessary clothing out of the few
-pounds in her purse. This was an afternoon for furs. The mist rose and
-rose. The voice of a woman who plodded by with a top-heavy
-perambulator, the cry of the wretched, chilled baby inside, were the
-only dull sounds in the eerie, pure-white thickness.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her hair was wet on her face, moisture stood in minute pearls on the
-velvet collar of her cloth coat. Higher and higher, thicker and
-thicker, rose the delicate, eating mist! She was chin high in it. A
-couple of cows, a tethered goat, a long white string of geese, were
-queerly-shaped wraiths. The world was white: a wet, ghostly, silent
-world. There was a threat at every step; each corner, each clump of
-dripping bush formed to her nervous fancy some sinister ambush.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her spirits fell. Once she absolutely stopped, half-crying, with cold
-and misery. She was disposed<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-269">[269]</a></span> to go back. It was still a long way to
-Folly Corner, and the terrifying mist was triumphant.
-</p>
-<p>
-She came at last to the cottage at the edge of the oak-scrub copse, the
-thatched and plastered cottage under the great oak trees. She
-remembered it so well, remembered the hot August day when she had
-walked to Folly Corner for the first time, and had thrown herself on
-the moss-grown turf under the burning sun. She strained her eyes to see
-the wide green glades, the clumps of primrose leaves, the tangled
-brambles, the great tropical growing thistles. She knew exactly what
-should be there at that season, but she saw nothing save the fire of a
-bush of haws. The cottage, which had stood empty on that August day,
-was now tenanted. She approached, her chilled limbs moving creakily.
-She slowly skirted that cottage, preferring to tread the soddened grass
-just for the sake of being near somebody. The world was deserted; she
-could no longer hear one single sound. She was the last desperate soul
-left outside.
-</p>
-<p>
-The languid flame of a small fire fell across the tiny casement with
-its ragged curtain of brownish white net. She went up close. She could
-see the gray beams across the plaster, see the plumy Irish yew standing
-straight by the yellow, weather-stained wall. The door was half open.
-She saw the flagged floor exuding moisture, saw one poor chair; a bare
-brown dresser, on which stood a coarse crock or so. She saw the mere
-hint of a table, with turned legs which winked feebly in the light. At
-the deadened sound of her feet there was a heavy clumping<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-270">[270]</a></span> across the
-flags. An old face, the malevolent, evil face of a man, hung in the
-shadow. She saw the dull, golden fustian of his torn coat, saw his
-gnarled, filthy hand close round the jamb of the door and shut it. She
-likened him to an evil spirit. He was a bad omen. It was nonsense, of
-course; yes, she knew it was nonsense. The man was only Chalcraft. But
-the mist made everything ghostly, demoniacal.
-</p>
-<p>
-She hadn’t far to go now. She imagined it, she knew every detail, she
-knew just how it would all look on that particular day&mdash;the white
-wicket-gate dirty and dripping with water, the umbrella yew in a fairy
-wreath of fog, the great brown pond, with the muddy wheel-tracks
-zigzagging away from it and the marks of many hoofs in the yellow mud
-at its edge. The garden beds would be weedy; vivid green here and there
-with patches of self-sown plants. No doubt, in her absence, Gainah and
-Daborn had easefully lapsed back to the old way&mdash;weeds all the winter
-and a grand forking in the spring. She pictured the long windows,
-running away each side of the house door. Inside, Gainah’s red
-geraniums would still be fitfully blooming. She remembered the sentinel
-poplars at the gate, the raised brick path leading to the door. She
-remembered the outbuildings, the untidy muck-yard&mdash;all, all.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was here. Twenty more paces would bring her to the pond. She took
-them tremblingly, things becoming practical now that she was steadily
-creeping beneath the warm, wide shadow of the place.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-271">[271]</a></span> The mist must
-surely be thicker than ever. She could not see the poplars; yet how was
-it that she had been able to see the Irish yew outside Chalcraft’s
-cottage?
-</p>
-<p>
-It was here, it should be here, it must be. She nearly reeled in the
-wide road as she peered fearfully about her, looking for so many
-familiar tokens which should have studded the landscape&mdash;but didn’t.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was, it must be, Folly Corner. But&mdash;but&mdash;was that a new house? What
-was the meaning of that wall which shot up like a straight, unrelenting
-shaft and mocked her?
-</p>
-<p>
-The pond was there. The pond! She stared at the big, brown patch of
-water affectionately&mdash;certain of that, anyway.
-</p>
-<p>
-The house! Yes. The house was the same. It wasn’t a new house. She
-penetrated through its modern coat, its gingerbread attempt at
-gentility. The house was there. She could not see very well; the impish
-mist tantalized her. But the hard, smooth line of roof told her that
-the tiles were new. The yew was gone, the bristly, unclipt umbrella yew
-which had watched Edred kiss pink Nancy: the yew which knew the night
-of her secret vigil.
-</p>
-<p>
-That night! The night when she had waited. The night when Boyce had
-helped the poor cow with her calving; the night when Chalcraft had
-thrown earth at his master’s window to rouse him, because it was
-raining, and the ricks were not covered. That night!
-</p>
-<p>
-She had crept like a criminal a dozen times down<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-272">[272]</a></span> the brick-path, had
-stood between the poplars, had looked along the road, had heard feet,
-phantom feet, which came and died and finally departed. That night! The
-poplars were gone, the yew, the raised path of worn bricks. They had
-gone and taken that old story of dishonor with them.
-</p>
-<p>
-A sinuous carriage drive of the brightest gravel wound away, beginning
-where the entrance to the yard had been. The yard had been redeemed and
-planted as a shrubbery; the new wall half hid the ample farm-buildings.
-The shrubbery was very new&mdash;glossy laurels and firs set at regular
-intervals, the ground between newly dug. She thought&mdash;and marveled at
-herself for the preference&mdash;that she would rather have seen the
-mother-pig there, as in the old days&mdash;with a pendulous stomach sweeping
-the soiled ground, and a litter of pink, squeaking things about her.
-</p>
-<p>
-The gates leading to the drive were newly hung. She pushed them back
-fearfully and went toward the house, treading on the beautifully-cut
-grass edge, because she was afraid of the crunch of her own feet in the
-death-like silence and pallor of the early evening.
-</p>
-<p>
-Firelight danced inside the house. As she drew nearer and yet nearer
-she could see that there were two fires, one in the dining-room, one in
-the drawing-room. The dining-room wouldn’t be dark now that the yew was
-gone. That must be an improvement. Yet, at every step she made notes of
-disapproval. It was so cold, so tame, so flat and unfeeling; these
-mechanically set shrubs, that gleaming<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-273">[273]</a></span> regular roof, those wide
-windows. Yes! She was near enough to see. There were new windows, sash
-windows, with little panes above and one large pane beneath. She had
-once said impatiently to Jethro that lead lights cut up the view. He
-had taken advantage of her ideas for the benefit of that girl. Of
-course, there must be a girl. He would not have gone to all this
-expense, except with a view to a wife.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was near the house, so near that it seemed to throb out to her with
-sympathy. She put out her hand and touched the spick, newly-painted
-walls. With a quick feeling of resentment she saw that they had cut
-down the Devoniensis rose&mdash;that globular, foam-like, ethereal thing
-which she had worshiped more than any of the roses. She looked down,
-round, up, making mental, resentful notes of everything. There were
-pert pots on the wide-throated chimneys, grotesque and poor-looking.
-There was a new window upstairs, high and narrow, filled with stained
-glass. That must be the bath-room. Most of the upper rooms were dimly
-lighted. She had often insisted that this was the proper thing to
-do&mdash;in good houses. Jethro had resisted the innovation, with a view to
-the oil involved.
-</p>
-<p>
-Yes! She stopped, her head critically on one side, her heart becoming
-more tolerant of the many changes. This looked a good house, a house
-that a lady might live in: she was full of these commonplace
-expressions that smack of the housekeeper’s room.
-</p>
-<p>
-Lights in every window, jealously drawn blinds.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-274">[274]</a></span> It looked like a
-house where they dined late, where, about this time, the maids were
-tripping to the bedroom doors with cans of hot water. The house had all
-the appearance of a good house&mdash;a gentleman’s, as distinct from a
-yeoman’s, so she thought, beginning to be satisfied and then
-remembering that it made no difference to her now. She went round the
-house stealthily, like a gypsy woman with a basket of cheap lace. The
-dog bounded out of the kennel, then wagged his tail when she went close
-and he recognized her. She went round, went past the woodstack. As she
-passed, a sandy rat, whose young family lived in the shelter of the
-fagots, ran timidly over her foot.
-</p>
-<p>
-She reached at last the back door. It stood open; she had always
-grumbled at the maids, in vain, because they would have the back door
-open. Everything around the door was much the same, the modern spirit
-had not affected the back of the house. There was the pig-tub waiting
-to be carried to the stye, there was the ash-heap, the other heap of
-broken crockery and old iron. There were the rain-water tubs lurking in
-the angles of the house, their green paint turning blue. She looked up
-at the sky and found that the mist had risen, that the mellow moon was
-full on her head.
-</p>
-<p>
-She saw everything. Her eyes stretched away into the garden, through
-the entrance-arch of which she saw the glittering glass of the
-greenhouse which Jethro had bought to please her.
-</p>
-<p>
-She stood close to the wall, her wet shoulder pressing the thick
-branches of the vine, all black and<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-275">[275]</a></span> damp and with loose rough bark.
-There were busy movements inside in both the kitchens, a subdued
-cluttering of feet, a comforting rattle of china. The warmth and smell
-of the fire puffed out. There was a band of amber light, shaming the
-cold moon. It fell across the pig-tub and the ash-heap, running
-straight from the open door and losing itself in the hedge, which was
-being grubbed. Jethro was evidently in the grip of some frenzy of
-renewal and refurbishing.
-</p>
-<p>
-The voices came from the kitchen. One was the voice of Nettie, that
-girl Edred used to kiss and squeeze on the sly in his hateful animal
-way. There were a couple of strange voices. The predominant smell was
-that of apples bubbling in sugar. And then at last, as she stood
-shrinking by the wall and undecided what to do, she heard Gainah’s
-voice. It said, in the old acid shrew’s tone:
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll have ’em made int’n apple-stucklin.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She curled her lip, remembering those stodgy apple-pasties of Gainah’s
-which Jethro had eaten with such relish. If they were still eating
-apple-stucklins&mdash;such a name!&mdash;the improvements were only external
-after all. Gainah’s voice, Gainah’s charge to the new cook, gave her
-courage. Jethro had not yet taken a wife; no young wife would endure
-Gainah’s rule.
-</p>
-<p>
-He hadn’t a wife. She would walk straight into the house; the
-garden-door was always unbolted until well after dusk. She would
-go into the house through the garden-door and walk through the
-dining-room. If he were not there she would look<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-276">[276]</a></span> into his little room,
-where he kept papers, guns, his boots, his bicycle even, when he chose.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was a new surprise to find herself in a porch&mdash;so the dining-room no
-longer opened direct into the garden! That was another improvement.
-</p>
-<p>
-She went through the porch into the room itself. She stopped on the
-threshold and cried out faintly. Everything was changed. The yawning
-hearth was filled in, and a coal fire was burning in a grate of the
-latest design. There was a square table in the middle of the room, in
-place of the long narrow one, with the stout legs and the thick staves,
-which she had always considered so rude, so uncouth. It was pushed
-against the wall opposite the new door&mdash;the table beneath which so many
-dead and gone Jaynes had slept off their liquor, the table whose top
-was ringed with black, ring within ring, each the mark of a wet mug,
-each telling the tale of some dead joviality.
-</p>
-<p>
-She had always declared that it was only fit for a public-house. It
-stood against the wall, its disreputable ringed top discreetly covered
-with a cloth. They used it as a side-board. There was a filter set out,
-a soda-water syphon, and various other things.
-</p>
-<p>
-The china ornaments had gone, the brass candlesticks. The big
-horsehair-covered chair had been re-covered in shrimp-colored plush.
-The plaster walls were papered. The thick oak beam above had been
-whitened with the rest of the ceiling. She thought that the room looked
-much more light<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-277">[277]</a></span> and cheerful, much more suitable for a dining-room. But
-it was empty. There was no hint of Jethro, no gun in the corner, no
-cloth cap thrown carelessly down, no heavy boots drying on the hearth;
-one wouldn’t expect any of those things now. And yet their absence
-depressed her.
-</p>
-<p>
-She glided across the thickly-carpeted floor&mdash;it was a new carpet&mdash;and
-looked into his own particular little room. Nothing had changed there.
-The bureau from which he had taken the notes for Edred was open. The
-shabby rugs were kicked up, the plaster on the walls was in places
-discolored. His bicycle, all muddy, leaned against the window ledge,
-his gun, his boots, his cap, his thick woolen gloves were strewn about
-with masculine carelessness.
-</p>
-<p>
-“The last thing in the house that a man changes is his own room,” she
-said, looking tenderly at a shapeless, deplorable old shooting jacket
-which hung limply on a chair. “But she will make him tidy this place
-up.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She! She! She! Who was this girl? She ran through the list of likely
-maidens&mdash;every Jayne or Crisp or Turle or Furlonger under thirty-five.
-It couldn’t be Peggy Crisp of Liddleshorn. It was probably silly,
-pretentious Maria Furlonger of the Warren, as Barbara had said.
-</p>
-<p>
-She turned away, feeling a quick, painful affection for this little,
-dirty, dim, north room of his&mdash;the only room left untouched. She turned
-away, opened the other door, and went along the corridor, thinking that
-she might find him in the drawing-room.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-278">[278]</a></span> It was most unlikely; he
-disliked that room. But then he had always disliked coal fires, new
-furniture, many lights about the house. She was beginning to realize
-that only the unlikely would happen at Folly Corner that night.
-</p>
-<p>
-She turned the handle of the drawing-room door, stole in, and saw with
-satisfaction that very little had been touched. Her improvements were
-still rampant. The various slips of Eastern embroidery were disposed
-about the furniture&mdash;awkwardly, by an unskilled, stiff hand. The piano
-was draped. The door of the china closet stood ajar, showing the dark
-floor with its gaudy rug and the daintily-finished shelves holding the
-still daintier family china. The curtains&mdash;those curtains which they
-had bought together at Liddleshorn&mdash;were drawn; the standard lamp,
-which had been one of his last gifts before she went away, burned
-steadily. There were candles alight on the high shelf&mdash;she had always
-insisted on candles in the drawing-room; they made such cool pin-points
-of steel-blue and yellow. On one side of the hearth was the one thing
-that she had always longed for&mdash;a cozy corner. She didn’t think that
-you touched the water-mark of true refinement without a cozy corner.
-Jethro had stoutly resisted it. Yet there it was; no home-made affair,
-but a perfect thing, cunningly upholstered in the most artistic style
-known to Regent Street.
-</p>
-<p>
-The green sofa, the green chair, were still in the bay&mdash;that bay,
-curtained now, through whose leaded lights she had looked&mdash;weighing the
-uplands thick with grain in all their beauty and plenitude with<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-279">[279]</a></span>
-Edred’s shallow protestations of love and worldly success.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro was lying on the couch half asleep. She had seen him lie so on
-many autumn evenings when he came in tired after a day’s tramping on
-the farm, or in the stubble after partridges. He was dozing. She stood
-under the shade of the standard lamp and looked at him. He surprised
-her&mdash;everything did. He wore a brown velvet coat and waistcoat; his
-slippers had thin soles.
-</p>
-<p>
-She made an involuntary sound with her foot, and he was awake and erect
-in a moment, stirred like a watch-dog by the least noise.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Jethro!” she said humbly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Pamela&mdash;Cousin Pamela! You’ve come to Folly Corner at last.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He was on his feet, at her side. He stooped and kissed her lightly,
-conventionally&mdash;the lukewarm kiss of a relative, to whom a kiss has no
-background. He seemed to regard it as the proper thing to do&mdash;proper,
-and perfectly safe. That matter-of-fact kiss of his made her more
-wildly miserable than many of Edred’s blows had done.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’ve come!” He looked behind her, a curious, questioning glance, as
-if he were waiting for the second indispensable figure. But the door
-was closed; she offered no explanation.
-</p>
-<p>
-“How cold and wet you are!” He ran his hand down her coat. “Take that
-thing off. I’ll ring for tea; you could always drink tea at any moment.
-You see I remember&mdash;everything.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He had his hand out to the bell&mdash;bells had been<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-280">[280]</a></span> added to the old place
-with other things. She put out her chilled hand and tapped him lightly
-on his hairy wrist, where the skin was so white.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Not just yet. No one saw me come in. I’m cold. I had a terrible walk.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But you didn’t come alone! Where is Edred? If he couldn’t leave his
-business you should have wired. I would have driven to the station. I
-would have brought the new Battlesden. You know you had set your heart
-on one. I bought it soon after you went away. It’s only been used once.
-Did Edred&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Sit down,” she said, with another light touch. “Oh! this fire is
-glorious.” She turned up the hem of her skirt and let the warmth touch
-her icy ankles.
-</p>
-<p>
-“It’s Friday,” Jethro continued thoughtfully. “Is he coming down
-to-morrow? You must stay a week at least.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll stay longer&mdash;if you will have me,” she said, looking at him
-queerly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Good! I didn’t suppose he’d be able to get away from business for more
-than a week. All the summer I’ve been talking of running up to town,
-but I’ve been prevented: haying, harvest, one thing and the other. You
-never wrote”&mdash;his voice was gently reproachful&mdash;“but I remembered the
-address&mdash;Marquise Mansions.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’ve been making improvements,” she said, looking round the room.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes, I’ve done a few things&mdash;the things we settled to do before you
-went away,” he returned, in a calm voice, “I knew you’d be coming down
-sooner<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-281">[281]</a></span> or later, and that you would be pleased. Let me ring for
-tea&mdash;though there will be dinner in half an hour”&mdash;he pulled out the
-big, ancestral watch. “I dine late now, as they do at the Warren.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The Warren! Oh, yes. Of course you dine late now.”
-</p>
-<p>
-So it <i>was</i> Maria Furlonger of the Warren&mdash;Maria Furlonger, who made
-such agonized efforts to get on socially.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I know you like late dinner. I thought it was as well to have it, so
-that when you and Edred came down there would be no fuss&mdash;everything
-ready and as usual. He used to say that early dinner gave him
-indigestion. Late ones make me sleepy; I’m ready for bed before nine.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But you haven’t done all these things; you don’t dine late&mdash;for us?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The place had to be done up,” he said, rather curtly, as if he thought
-she laid too much stress on a trivial point. “It doesn’t matter much
-whether you call your last meal dinner or supper.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“But&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-She broke off. The fire was warm and crackling, his voice so calm, she
-didn’t wish to disturb things. She recoiled from telling him the truth,
-she shrank from hearing it. For she was certain that he meant to marry.
-He had learnt to be indifferent to her&mdash;his kiss was an admission of
-that.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We must have Gainah in.” He put his hand out again to that little knob
-on the wall. “She shall tell them to get the guest-room ready. You’d
-like to go upstairs?”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-282">[282]</a></span>
-“Not yet. There is something I must tell you first. Perhaps you’ll turn
-me out&mdash;I don’t know. In any case you will wish me to go to-morrow
-morning; even if you were willing to let me stay, she wouldn’t hear of
-it.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Gainah! She doesn’t rule me any longer,” he laughed. “Poor old Gainah!
-She’s old&mdash;and queer. Aunt Sophy is afraid she is breaking up. That
-would be awkward for me; a man can’t manage maids.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I didn’t mean Gainah. I meant Maria Furlonger. She is a good
-housekeeper. She’ll make a good mistress for Folly Corner. When you
-tell her the truth&mdash;and you must tell her&mdash;she’ll be indignant. There
-isn’t much mercy in Maria. But I congratulate you, Jethro.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You talk as if I meant to marry Maria.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“And you don’t? Who is it, then?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’m not going to marry at all,” he returned soberly. “You ought to
-know that, Pamela.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You are not going to marry!” she cried out in a shrill, happy,
-half-incredulous voice. “I am so glad. Barbara Clutton said you were. I
-thought you were doing up the place for your wife.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I did it up for you. I thought you’d be pleased. The men had begun
-before you went away; it seemed a mistake to stop them. I should have
-lost by it; the builder could have claimed.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’re not going to be married,” she repeated, as if it were too good
-to be true. “Then, I am not afraid of you. Men are kind and just. They
-don’t understand; they don’t pet you and croon over<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-283">[283]</a></span> you, as a woman
-does. They talk hard business and look at things from the practical
-side. You, for example, would urge me to expose him, and I could never
-do it, never.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He started.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Has he got into trouble again? Is he in prison?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She shook her head.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Worse&mdash;from my point of view. He is married. His lawful wife comes
-first; he married her before he ever met me. He thought she was dead&mdash;I
-do not blame him for that; it was a mistake. But other things!” She
-bent forward and took his big, hard hands. “You don’t know what I’ve
-suffered,” she continued in a quick, passionately vibrant whisper.
-“Blows! Worse than blows. He constantly urged me to terrible things.
-There was one man; there were two. The second one told me the truth and
-offered, in a spirit of superb generosity, to marry me. He wanted me to
-run away with one&mdash;a man I loathed, whose hand I would hardly touch.
-There are some like that: you couldn’t kiss them, not if you were as
-free as air, not if they were the only ones in the world. Do you ever
-feel like that about particular women?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I never thought about women&mdash;only one.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You are different. I think these things out, just for amusement: women
-do. I imagine what might happen in particular circumstances. He wanted
-to get rid of me; I was a constant danger. He was tired of me&mdash;he never
-cared, after the first few weeks: no one is indifferent to an absolute
-novelty.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-284">[284]</a></span> I went away directly I heard he was married. I have never seen
-him, never heard of him since. Barbara Clutton took me in. This morning
-I found a periwinkle. You haven’t dug up that patch near the granary?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes. Everything is altered out there. You’ll see.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“It reminded me of you. I put on my things and drove straight away to
-the station, the flower in my hand. I threw it out of the railway
-carriage window. It had done its work; to bring it with me would have
-been sentimental, stupid.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Poor Cousin Pamela!” He just pressed her fingers, then gently pushed
-them away, as if they were a danger. “You must forget him. You are
-free.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I was always free. But I went away. I left you for him.”
-</p>
-<p>
-They looked deeply into each other’s eyes. Until that moment they had
-not trusted themselves to embark on a long, steady gaze. She saw in
-Jethro’s nothing but intense, almost brotherly, affection and pity.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You might leave me again to go to him?” he asked quietly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I don’t know&mdash;I think, never. But I don’t know&mdash;so long as he is
-alive.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“You are free. But he isn’t. He can’t marry you&mdash;can’t make it up to
-you.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Can’t make an honest woman of me,” she said, with bitter bluntness.
-“That is what the women say about here when they force the young men
-to<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-285">[285]</a></span> marry their daughters. No, he cannot. But that would make no
-difference to me&mdash;if he wanted me. He was first. I don’t even hate him.
-Sometimes I think I am getting indifferent; but I felt like that
-before, when he was in prison. I never know&mdash;unless he dies. That would
-break the terrible spell.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He looked into her eyes again; he gave her hand a significant grip.
-They understood each other. They were to be cousins&mdash;nothing more.
-Nothing more was possible&mdash;she wasn’t even sure that she desired more,
-and she feared that he did not. Nothing was possible now. Their love
-had come to a full stop.
-</p>
-<p>
-He got up, saying:
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll go and speak to Gainah. I’ll prepare her. She’s getting old, and
-surprises upset her.”
-</p>
-<p>
-When he came back, he looked a little stubborn&mdash;the old familiar look
-of rebellion at woman’s tyranny.
-</p>
-<p>
-“She’ll be all right to-morrow,” he said, in answering Pamela’s
-eloquent querying look. “She’ll be glad to-morrow. You know that her
-temper’s an odd one.”
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-They dined alone. Everything seemed strange&mdash;Jethro so unusually
-precise in dress and manner, the dining-room so conventionally elegant.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_120">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-286">[286]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_120_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_120_toc">CHAPTER XX.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-A<small>FTER</small> dinner they went back to the drawing-room together. Nettie
-brought in coffee. She looked at Pamela curiously&mdash;with no very good
-feeling. Her sharp, impudent eyes dropped to the left hand, where
-Edred’s meaningless ring still gleamed. The look was not lost on
-Pamela. Directly the maid had left the room she slipped the ring off
-and put it in her purse. Jethro watched her, keen pity and indignation
-in his light eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-“If ever he comes here,” he said grimly, and with the eager instinct of
-a sportsman, “you must let me settle with him.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He will never come,” she said, slowly shaking her head. “He took all
-he wanted from Folly Corner.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes; I shall never see my two hundred pounds again,” the other
-returned ruefully, and a disagreeable silence fell over the room, the
-fire standing red on those two painfully tense faces.
-</p>
-<p>
-Soon after coffee Jethro grew sleepy. He dozed spasmodically,
-shaking himself up at intervals, with apologetic murmurs. Pamela
-sat silent, her unringed hands on her lap, her eyes sadly on the
-coals. She resented the lack of drama in what she regarded as her
-home-coming. The long, varying walk had been so pregnant with
-possibilities. She had imagined,<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-287">[287]</a></span> dreaded, dared to hope&mdash;so much. This
-was the end&mdash;Jethro, inert with food, sleeping like a tired dog in the
-armchair. Everything was settled. They had talked themselves out
-already. She was to stay; she was to be Cousin Pamela again. Whether
-they were really cousins or not they did not know&mdash;they had agreed not
-to trouble&mdash;it mattered not. She was back at Folly Corner. To-morrow
-she would pick up her dropped reins. She would go to Turle, to the
-Warren, to all the roomy, warm old houses; she would kiss again the
-placid, clumsy-souled woman. No one was to know the truth. Everything
-would be just as it had been before&mdash;except that there would be no
-question of love between her and Jethro. He tacitly insinuated that,
-and she as delicately agreed. It had all been conveyed by a look.
-</p>
-<p>
-When the clock struck ten, he shook himself up for the last time,
-stumbled to his feet, yawned openly, and said that it was late. Was she
-quite ready for bed? They went round the house together, winding the
-thirty-hour clock in the kitchen, which Gainah, strangely enough, had
-forgotten, trying bolts and locks, turning out lights. They went up the
-oak steps. At the door of the guest-room he kissed her calmly above the
-eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-When she was half undressed she discovered that the bed had not been
-made. The blankets and quilt were there, but there were no sheets, no
-slips on the pillows. She was half amused and half angry, divining at
-once what had happened. Gainah with a last kick of authority had bidden
-the maids prepare<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-288">[288]</a></span> the inferior room which had been hers in former days.
-</p>
-<p>
-She went softly along the corridor and into that room. The bed was
-made. She did not intend to sleep there: Gainah must be grasped with a
-firm hand from the very start. She set her candle down, peeled off the
-sheets, piled them with the pillows in her arms, and turned to go back
-to the guest-room. When she opened the door, a puff of wind&mdash;the
-draughty old house was full of strange gusts&mdash;blew out her candle.
-Before the candle blew out she noticed that the key was gone from the
-door.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was a wild autumn night, the wind rising and calling warningly down
-the chimney. The room was dark, the curtains closely drawn. One gleam
-of light, narrow and pointed, pierced through the uncurtained window in
-the corridor and fell on the tumbled bed. She had dragged the sheets up
-roughly; the blankets were in billows under the cotton quilt, the
-bolster, in a case of some coarse, dark stuff, was half doubled and
-partly buried beneath the humped-up coverings. As she gave the last
-look back before shutting the door she was struck by the oddity of that
-untidy bed. Quite unwittingly, in her hurried gathering of linen, she
-had achieved the similitude of a human form. The appearance was
-sufficiently startling. It was one of those queer, accidental effects
-which sometimes occur. The tumbled blankets, under the white quilt
-which she had hastily smoothed, the doubled, coarsely-covered bolster,
-half hidden, were like the curled-up body and round head of some
-sleeper.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-289">[289]</a></span>
-She went softly along the passage, down the steps, round the angles, in
-the dark, knowing every turn of the way. When she reached the
-guest-room she locked the door, lighted the candle, and made the bed.
-Directly she was in the shadow of the dim old hangings she fell asleep.
-</p>
-<p>
-When the house was quiet and dark Gainah crept out of her room and
-slipped, in her flat cloth shoes, down the stairs. She had not
-undressed, had not even taken the band of dusty velvet from the top of
-her head. She crept down to the lower rooms, where the fires were still
-burning steadily, and where every article of furniture, new or old,
-took fantastic shape. She went about lingeringly from one room to the
-other, moving about slowly and stiffly in the dim circle of light which
-came from the candle in her quivering hand.
-</p>
-<p>
-She walked about through one room into another, along the corridor and
-back again. Sometimes she sat down for a moment: sometimes she just
-stealthily opened a door and peered in. The two clocks, the eight-day
-in the dining-room and the thirty-hour in the kitchen, had clanging
-tongues of brass. They were the only sounds in the sleeping house. The
-hours struck. She did not seem to notice. A threatening change had come
-over her. She was full of fever and tremor. Her cold eyes burned with
-the fire of amethysts. Her ever-increasing restlessness would not let
-her stay in one room long. She went about wearily, stiffly, driven by
-some malignant whip. She went into the drawing-room and screwed herself
-awkwardly at one end<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-290">[290]</a></span> of the cozy corner. She started up almost
-immediately. To her hardihood there was a feeling of oppressive luxury
-and enervation about that soft, gayly-tricked room. She was such a
-persistent worker that her back felt strange against stuffing; she was
-more at ease with the broad bars of a rush-seated chair cutting from
-shoulder to shoulder.
-</p>
-<p>
-She went out in the kitchen and moved about uneasily, peering, by long
-habit, into drawers, and sniffing, like an eager old dog, for fire.
-</p>
-<p>
-There was a fatty frying-pan on the top of the kitchen range&mdash;that
-new-fangled range that Pamela had made Jethro buy. A victorious gleam
-hardened her glittering eyes: the maids had been cutting rashers for
-their supper. Her rule was bread, cheese, and water or cider. This was
-a battle to be fought out in the morning. The jades! And not wit enough
-to scour the pan!
-</p>
-<p>
-The knife-box stood on the dresser. Gainah bent over it, from habit
-again. Everything definite that she did that night was done quite
-mechanically and from unquenchable habit. It was her habit to peer for
-dirty knives sneaked in among the clean: that was a cardinal offense.
-</p>
-<p>
-The box was made of mahogany. There was a brass handle; it gleamed in
-the light of her candle. The knives had heavy buck-horn handles. Old
-Jethro had been proud of them, his son took to them as a matter of
-course, but Pamela had sneered and said they were barbarous.
-</p>
-<p>
-There were two sets&mdash;a dozen to each set. One<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-291">[291]</a></span> was of lighter make
-than the other; their handles were straight and tipped with steel. The
-heavier set had stouter handles, which bulged out in knots at the ends.
-Gainah picked out the two carving-knives and scrutinized the blades.
-There was a weary, speculative look on her wasted, corpse-white face,
-in which the brilliant eyes stood out so unnaturally. The frying-pan
-was at her feet, but at the touch of the keen knives she absolutely
-whirled away from trivial offenses&mdash;she was swept by one superb,
-dangerous emotion.
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked round the polished, scoured kitchen, as if asking those dumb
-gleaming metal things on walls and shelves to help her&mdash;to suggest.
-</p>
-<p>
-Then she moved toward the scullery and quietly drew the long bolts of
-the door. She went across the yard, skirting the generous pile of
-farm-buildings. They had been overhauled with the rest of the place.
-The brick walls had been pointed; she could see every even, white line
-of mortar. The roofs of thick thatch had been covered with sheets of
-corrugated iron, which were hard and gray in the dim night. She went to
-the tool-shed. That, by some oversight or by intention, had been left
-untouched. It stood apart&mdash;the walls red patched with green, the roof
-of rough tiles covered with a luxurious growth of lichens and
-stonecrop.
-</p>
-<p>
-She pushed back the door and went in. There were tools and labor
-implements of many sorts in the house: all the deadly array of weapons
-permitted to the peaceful agriculturist. Every one was familiar, to
-her; she had known them all from her<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-292">[292]</a></span> very birth&mdash;pronged fork, long
-scythe, solid spade, rakes with long pointed teeth.
-</p>
-<p>
-She sat down on a heap of sacks and rubbish by the wall. Her oddly
-bright eyes roved feverishly over the collection; some on the earthen
-floor, some sentinel-like against the wall, some slipped up in the
-rafters, lying stealthily in wait.
-</p>
-<p>
-After a little she got up stiffly, the rheumatism gripping her cold
-limbs, and touched these things one by one lingeringly. She ran her
-fingers along edges, pressed them against teeth: the speculative,
-questioning look crossed her face again. Yes. She must do it. That was
-necessary for the peaceful carrying on of the farm life. She had never
-scrupled to destroy anything that came in the way of the farm. It must
-be done. But how?
-</p>
-<p>
-She took the hedgebill down. It had a long rounded handle of wood; its
-iron head was reared, as if to strike; there was the malignity of a
-cobra in the curve.
-</p>
-<p>
-There was the scythe with which through so many early summers she had
-seen them cut down the young grass; the sickle, the almost circular
-faghook, the solid billhook of shining steel with which the men chopped
-thick sticks that were bound in the very hearts of the fagots.
-</p>
-<p>
-There was an old tragic tale bound round the sickle. Years ago
-Chalcraft had made a clean cut with it through his child’s leg&mdash;a
-three-year-old asleep in the quivering oats. They said that Chalcraft,
-when the child died, tried to hang himself in<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-293">[293]</a></span> the granary; but it was
-before she came to Folly Corner.
-</p>
-<p>
-There were the shears&mdash;long-handled shears, short-handled. She stood
-thoughtfully moving the handles. What sharp wide jaws! One could almost
-catch a head, a human head, in them, and clip it off as easily as one
-would the head of a dandelion.
-</p>
-<p>
-She dropped the tools as wearily as she had dropped the knives, with as
-great an air of bewilderment. She went back to the house, in at the
-open door. She stood for a moment looking out, seeing faintly some of
-the changes that had taken place and imagining the rest. Nothing was
-the same. The old prosperous, easy, untidy time had gone forever. The
-Jaynes were trying to be gentry. She felt convinced that there was ruin
-involved in the effort&mdash;ruin to the place, ruin to the family. She
-loved the place: the hard iron roofs, the white-seamed bricks affronted
-her. It wasn’t the Folly Corner she loved, outside nor in. She loved
-the family; loved Jethro: hadn’t she almost married his father and been
-a Jayne herself? And he! He was going to marry the girl who had lightly
-altered everything. He was going to marry her&mdash;the girl who had come
-back with the easy, insolent air of a devil that night when the shadows
-were falling. It must not be. She must save the farm, save the family.
-Yes. That was certain, that was settled. She had always made up her
-mind that, if Pamela ever dared return, then Pamela must be done away
-with. One had to get rid of certain nuisances, certain unprofitable
-things about a farm. It was settled. But how?
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-294">[294]</a></span>
-She went back to the mahogany box, bent over it, brooded. She took out
-the carver again, the poultry carver with the long slender blade and
-the sharply pointed tip. She rubbed it stealthily along the stone
-coping of the sink, then she carried it back to the kitchen and slowly
-swished it backward and forward along the steel, doing everything as
-silently as possible. By and by she drew the edge of the blade along
-her finger. It was so keen that a thin red line of blood ran up.
-</p>
-<p>
-She went upstairs. In one hand she carried the flat, winking
-candlestick of brass, in the other the knife. Her fingers gripped the
-smooth golden-brown handle convulsively. The wicked point she held
-outward, her eyes fixed on it with much satisfaction. It was the best
-thing after all. The tool-house, with its rude weapons of earth, had
-not helped her. The knife-box had.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was at the door of the room where she believed Pamela was sleeping.
-Leaving the light outside, she turned the handle with a sure grasp. She
-knew that the door could not be locked; the key was weighting her long
-pocket. She had remembered to take away the key.
-</p>
-<p>
-The room was dark. She went like a slow, certain arrow to the bed. All
-her movements were slow, sure, horribly deliberate. She was used to
-killing things. She knew that the great secret of success was to keep
-cool. It didn’t seem to her any worse to kill a woman, when the woman
-was a distinct obstruction and hindrance, than it was to kill a bird.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-295">[295]</a></span>
-The knife was in her hand. She gripped the handle fiercely; the shining
-red bone of her wrist stood out. She shut her eyes; it was a habit of
-hers to shut her eyes at the very moment of killing&mdash;her ineradicable,
-nervous, womanly habit.
-</p>
-<p>
-She darted the point of the blade down, jabbing it furiously through
-the heaped-up bedclothes. Then, her eyes hardly open, her hand out to
-feel the way, she crept away, softly shutting the door behind her.
-</p>
-<p>
-The hard lines of her worn face had relaxed, the feverish shine of her
-eyes had given place to a calm light. The strained, hunted, uncertain
-expression had gone forever. The rebellion and misery, the desperate
-catechising of herself, were all ended. The question which, a year ago,
-had rung and rung in her head so persistently, which had rung again so
-noisily to-night when she heard that Pamela had come back, was
-answered. That question, that weary, bitter question which had chimed
-above her brow and made it ache so dully, would chime no more. There
-was silence, a strange feeling of ease and lightness above her eyes,
-where that maddening noise had been.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her smoldering hatred of Pamela had taken tangible form. She wasn’t
-clever; she knew not the meaning of finesse nor the nature of
-conspiracy. It had never occurred to her that she might get rid of
-Pamela by skillful appeal to Jethro’s dearest emotions. That was not
-her way. Her way was more rough and ready, more grewsomely certain than
-that. Pamela must be got rid of in the usual manner.<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-296">[296]</a></span> There were plenty
-of precedents on the farm. A knife was the only solution&mdash;knife, or a
-trap, or a quick twist of the neck. But you could not twist a woman’s
-neck; neither could you pin her in a gin. A knife&mdash;that was the only
-way. She condemned Pamela in exactly the same spirit that she would
-have condemned an unprofitable animal. She arrived at the decision with
-stolidity. Her nerve had shaken a little at the actual act&mdash;that was
-all: it needed a man to do the killing properly&mdash;it wasn’t woman’s
-work on the farm.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pests must be exterminated; that was the simplest rule of domestic
-economy.
-</p>
-<p>
-As she went along the narrow, silent passage and up the stairs to her
-own room everything was strangely threatening. The candle was burning
-short and leaping desperately in the stick. All the familiar things,
-things of common life, reassuring things by day, were weird now with
-night and sleep.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was afraid. She didn’t know why: she fought the feeling. She had
-earned the right to repose.
-</p>
-<p>
-She shut her bedroom door, shooting the bolt convulsively. It was the
-first time in her life that she had locked herself in at night. She
-undressed quickly, the candle shooting up spasmodically before it died.
-She laid her clothes, precisely folded, on the particular chair. She
-took the velvet band from her head, parted her poor wisps of hair into
-even strands, and twisted each strand into a wisp of rag.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom"><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-297">[297]</a></span>
-She peeled herself of the various flannel wrappings which increasing
-rheumatism demanded. Then she took off her stockings and slipped on her
-coarse nightgown and got into bed, drawing the belated last leg in with
-a frightened jerk.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_121">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-298">[298]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_121_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_121_toc">CHAPTER XXI.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-T<small>HE</small> sun, peering through the carelessly-drawn curtain and falling
-across her eyes, awakened Pamela next morning.
-</p>
-<p>
-She jumped briskly to the floor from the high, enshrouded bed. She
-realized, with a joyful thrill, that this was not London&mdash;not Beaufort
-Street. She must write to Barbara, who had been kind; but the bread of
-dependence, when a woman hands it, is never sweet.
-</p>
-<p>
-When she was half dressed she threw back the casement and occasionally
-bobbed out her head to look at the garden. Beneath her stretched the
-closely-shaven, vividly green grass, the accurately-cut beds, the long,
-flower-tangled borders. She saw with satisfaction, with a thrill of
-gratitude to Jethro, that everything had been kept in exactly the order
-that she wished.
-</p>
-<p>
-The garden drew her, looking up at her with a bright, magnetic glance:
-the satisfying, intense, and comprehensive love for a garden caught her
-once more; she marveled because she had once cared more passionately
-for something else.
-</p>
-<p>
-All the things that should be blooming in that month were there. Daborn
-had been very good; not a single chrysanthemum&mdash;those choice, delicate
-ones&mdash;had been lost. He had taken cuttings from<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-299">[299]</a></span> her dahlias, or
-preserved the tubers. They were there too. Her eyes dwelt almost
-tearfully on the blazing red cactus which had been her favorite. Her
-Japanese anemones, with their rough dull leaves, were heavy with pure
-white or pale pink flowers&mdash;widely open and waxen, like small saucers
-of the finest porcelain.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was going to be very happy in a placid way&mdash;the most satisfactory
-form of happiness. She would always be happy; the garden needed her
-every month of the twelve. She had passed the stage of rapturous,
-transient happiness; she was too old. As she looked in the glass,
-twisting her dull, abundant hair, she saw, for the first time,
-accusing, brutally frank lines across her face.
-</p>
-<p>
-She clasped the silver buckle at her waist with a click, and settled
-the crimson tie which made a mark of flame down the front of her white
-flannel shirt. She ran downstairs, humming under her breath, saying to
-herself that it was fortunate that Jethro was indifferent to the old,
-agitating passion&mdash;looking forward to his tepid, brother’s kiss above
-the eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-It seemed as if the whole world of Folly Corner rejoiced at her return.
-There was a busy cackling in the poultry yard; the bees were flying in
-the sun; the geese went, in their waddling, ludicrously dignified way,
-along the dry road, cackling with satisfaction. It was like a May
-morning&mdash;so blue, so warm, so golden. It was like spring; all over the
-garden were little chirrups and snatches of song, as if the birds were
-nesting.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-300">[300]</a></span>
-The dining-room was empty; so was Jethro’s room. She went into the
-drawing-room, opened the window, jubilantly ran her fingers over the
-keyboard of the piano. Then she went into the kitchen; she must show
-herself, assert herself.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah was frying sausages over the wood fire in the back kitchen. She
-rigorously tabooed the new range, and she never allowed anyone to touch
-her sausages. She made them from the very foundation&mdash;putting in a good
-taste of sage, in the Sussex way. She fried them, set the dish on the
-table with her own hands. She had a reputation for her sausages.
-</p>
-<p>
-Some of them were sizzling in a copper pan, others waited, long and
-lean and red, on a plate close by. They were not very appetizing to
-look at, although they were admittedly delicious to eat. They gave out
-a great deal of fat; the pan needed frequent emptying.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah had a Windsor chair with a round back set near the fire. She had
-a table at her elbow. Every minute or so she got up and emptied the
-surplus fat into a bowl. It was a yellow bowl, ringed with lines of
-white, and decorated with brown trees roughly run on&mdash;a common yellow
-bowl such as they sell in country shops.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela stepped across the bricks, her high heels clittering. She put
-out her hand with nonchalance, smiled, tried to look pleasant&mdash;but she
-had always been repelled by Gainah.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Good-morning,” she said.
-</p>
-<p>
-The pan of red copper, half full of fat and bubbling<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-301">[301]</a></span> sausages, was in
-Gainah’s hand. It was tipped toward the yellow bowl.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Good-morning,” repeated Pamela, the wide smile of greeting exposing
-her teeth. “Why didn’t you come into the drawing-room last night to
-welcome me back?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah gave a choking cry and fell forward in the wooden chair. The pan
-dropped from her nerveless hand. The sausages were thrown about the
-brick floor, the fat streamed along sluggishly, a hot brown stream,
-rapidly settling.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela started back. Some of those spitting brown grease spots were
-already hardening on her skirt, on the toes of her shoes.
-</p>
-<p>
-“How careless of you!” she cried wrathfully. “You have spoilt my
-skirt.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah made that disquieting sound again. It did not seem to come from
-her throat: it was a threatening sound&mdash;outside, beyond her. She was
-now sitting bolt-upright in the chair. She made an odd figure, with her
-stiff, blanched face, her unreadable eyes, her uncouthly-cut gown, and
-her flat, stiffly planted feet. The fat was settling around her, going
-white and hard on the cold floor. The sausages were stuck in it. The
-pan was face downward on the floor.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her crooked fingers were caught in at her throat, between the limp
-collar and the gown. She seemed to be desperately clawing the stuff
-away from her skin, as if she could bear no contact, as if she
-suffocated. Her feet were fast in grease, it molded them like a plaster
-cast. She didn’t seem to be in<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-302">[302]</a></span> any pain, although the fat was thick
-on her feet. Her jaw had dropped, like a poor dead jaw. Her eyes were
-blank.
-</p>
-<p>
-Such eyes! Pamela thought of a mechanical toy&mdash;broken. Gainah looked
-like that. Something had given the last pull at the wire, the
-superfluous dangerous turn of the key&mdash;the one turn too many, the last
-turn. It was just the same: there was the fixed grin, the hard stare,
-the obstinate refusal to perform. There had been too violent a pull;
-now there was Oblivion where a moment before there had been a semblance
-at least of intelligence. She had always intolerantly considered Gainah
-very stupid, only half developed in a mental sense. Yet she had never
-before been an absolute, helpless, insensate, staring fool.
-</p>
-<p>
-The door opened, Jethro came in.
-</p>
-<p>
-He had been out early in the keen brief frost. The bridge of his high
-nose was ruddy, his eyes shone. There was about him the intolerant
-aggravating air of the person who gets up and goes out while others
-sleep. He seemed hungry&mdash;a trifle cross.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I saw you through the window,” he said curtly, giving her a bluff
-little nod, and approaching as if to kiss her&mdash;the calm kiss that she
-imagined she wanted from his mouth. “Haven’t they got breakfast ready?
-Will you make the coffee, Pamela? The way you used to make it; nobody
-does it so well.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes, yes!&mdash;but look! But what is the matter with her, Jethro? Is it a
-fit?”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-303">[303]</a></span>
-She pointed to Gainah, stiff, staring, widely smiling; a terrified grin
-that had petrified on her wrinkled mouth. He looked. He gave a long,
-high whistle, then he seemed terribly touched.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Aunt Sophy’s been afraid of this,” he said gravely. “We must get her
-up to bed.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He picked the rigid figure up tenderly, as he would have picked up an
-ailing child.
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela followed him. On the way through the kitchen she told the maids
-to send two messengers&mdash;one to Turle, another to Liddleshorn for
-Egbert.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro was halfway up the stairs, the odd figure bunched up like a
-short-coated baby in his long arms. It looked so ludicrous, so
-fearsome, that Pamela stepped back from the fixed eyes and stretched
-mouth. He went slowly, his hands gripped round the blue gown. He paused
-on the landing; paused by the window, with its tiny dull panes, its
-wide ledge, on which stood a jar of white honesty-pods&mdash;“money in both
-pockets,” as Gainah had always called it. Pamela slid by him, keeping
-her skirt, her head and hands from contact with the blue gown and
-hanging arms. She flung back the door of her old room.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Carry her in here,” she said. “It is nearer. It is a better room than
-her own, too. When the doctor comes&mdash;I have sent for Egbert&mdash;the room
-must be tidy.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He crossed the threshold; she ran in front and flung back the curtains,
-letting in the glad November sun.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Put her in here. Then go down and send<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-304">[304]</a></span> Nettie up. We’ll undress her,”
-she said tersely, with the cool air of business that follows a shock.
-</p>
-<p>
-They both looked at the bed at the same moment. Pamela stared, started,
-contracted her forehead. Then she threw a stronger look of terror and
-dislike at the doll-like, silly head of Gainah, which hung over
-Jethro’s shoulder.
-</p>
-<p>
-“The wicked old woman!” she gasped. “I always knew she wasn’t safe;
-these queer people are much more dangerous than a full-blown lunatic.
-All the crimes that one reads of in the newspapers are committed by
-people like she was&mdash;peculiar people. She meant to murder me. She
-thought I was sleeping in this bed. Look at the knife.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She stopped, with a wild leaping at her throat. Jethro had tumbled his
-burden down on one side of the humped-up bed. He drew out the knife.
-Pamela was close behind him. Together they traced its course. She put
-her shaking, twitching fingers through the close long cuts, which rent
-everything down to the very bed. All around the cut in the ticking were
-down and feathers that had puffed out. The down flew about their heads,
-stirred by the quick, short breaths of horror which gushed from their
-lungs.
-</p>
-<p>
-“She meant to kill me. I took the sheets away and slept in the
-guest-room. It looked rather like a body&mdash;you can see the likeness
-yourself: the doubled-up bolster, the blankets all heaped up under the
-quilt. She meant to kill me. Show her the knife.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She took it from Jethro and held it up, held it<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-305">[305]</a></span> close to the stony,
-widely-opened eyes of the figure at the edge of the bed. But the eyes
-gave no sign, the mouth did not relax.
-</p>
-<p>
-“She doesn’t understand; it is no good trying to make any impression on
-her.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She put the knife on the dressing-table.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’m afraid to touch her,” she said. “What an escape!”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She’s lost her reason.” He looked down sorrowfully.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You don’t care for <i>me.</i> You don’t think of my escape.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He lifted his eyes from the bed, seeming suddenly to remember. Then he
-pulled her to him, kissed her with all the calm restraint of last
-night, smoothed her hair&mdash;petted her as if she were a startled bird.
-But all the time his eyes were turning to the bed. He treated her
-tenderly&mdash;as a pet thing who had narrowly missed destruction. But any
-pet was less than a woman. Gainah was a woman&mdash;the wreck of the woman
-who had been his mother, his mentor, his tyrant all his days. His eyes
-dwelt sorrowfully on the bed. Pamela pushed him to the door rather
-pettishly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We must get her undressed,” she said. “Egbert will be here soon. Tell
-Nettie to bring up a needle and thread. The tick must be sewn or we
-shall have the feathers all over the place.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He went away reluctantly. When Pamela was alone she sat down on the
-edge of the sofa. Once she shrugged her shoulders and gave a cold short
-laugh of terror. Only last night she had been discontented<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-306">[306]</a></span> because her
-return to Folly Corner had lacked the elements of drama. There had been
-tragedy brewing for her all the while.
-</p>
-<p>
-Gainah was on her side, just as Jethro had left her. A gentle, almost
-imperceptible, vibration of her head was unceasing; it extended to her
-hands, which clutched round the edge of the blanket. She seemed to be
-slowly crawling back to some muffled kind of consciousness. Once, when
-her eyes met Pamela’s, the girl fancied that she saw a gleam of terror.
-In another moment she felt certain that Gainah recognized her, was
-abjectly afraid of her, was trying, in an agony and without the least
-avail, to slip down in the bed and get out of sight.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was the monthly washing day. It had been the day of the monthly wash
-when Pamela first came to Folly Corner. She thought of that as she
-threw back the window and heard the rasping, spasmodic sound of the
-brush.
-</p>
-<p>
-Nettie came up. Between them they took off Gainah’s clothes, divested
-her of her many flannel packings. Then Pamela went and looked for a
-nightgown. She opened all Gainah’s boxes and drawers in the search. She
-wanted a fairly smart nightgown&mdash;for the doctor. She rejected those of
-daily wear&mdash;coarse, plain things which any self-respecting housemaid
-would disdain&mdash;narrow things, like bolster-cases with the bottoms out.
-</p>
-<p>
-She found, at last, a parcel sewn in linen. On it was pinned a paper
-with the words, written in an uncertain, illiterate hand:
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-307">[307]</a></span>
-“For my laying out.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She hesitated&mdash;for sentimental reasons. Then&mdash;for practical reasons,
-and the practical was usually uppermost with her when it came to other
-people’s affairs&mdash;she unpinned the parcel. Woman’s pity for another
-woman touched her heart as she flipped the carefully-made nightgown, of
-fair, thin stuff, over her arm.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Poor thing!” she said pitifully, and hesitated once more. Then she
-said brusquely to herself:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Well, at the worst, if she dies, it can be washed, and she can be
-buried in it as she wished.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She shut the drawer, it was a bottom drawer, with her foot. Gainah’s
-quilts, the blue one still unfinished, were folded carefully away.
-</p>
-<p>
-When she went back she found the cook and washerwoman standing by the
-bed. The former had brought clean sheets, the latter was standing
-stolidly, her crinkled hands on her hips. She sent them all away and
-finished Gainah’s toilet herself. She fancied that the helpless figure
-shrank from the touch of her hands; fancied that the eyes tried
-eloquently and quite in vain to say things which the lips could not.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-When the bed was made and Gainah was stretched straight and stiff and
-robed in snow-white linen of the very finest, Pamela tidied the room.
-She picked up the old woman’s garments with a “finicky,” fine air of
-distaste. She twisted together strips of flannel and rolled up
-stockings which had been frugally re-footed. Last of all she<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-308">[308]</a></span> plunged
-her hand into the pocket of the dim blue gown and brought out the heavy
-bunch of housekeeping keys. The clinking sound they made roused Gainah.
-She tried piteously to move in the bed.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_122">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-309">[309]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_122_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_122_toc">CHAPTER XXII.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-“T<small>HAT</small> head-flannel may do for Annie; you know there is to be another
-little one about Lady Day. I must say that it is a pity when young
-wives have a family too fast.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Mrs. Turle gently laved her ample hands in the fancy-work box,
-apportioning the different articles according to her mind.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Nancy would like that embroidered newspaper rack. She and Duncan are
-so very literary. I’m sure Nancy would have distinguished herself in
-literature, if it had been necessary. She would have made her
-mark&mdash;ladies take up so many things nowadays, and are received by the
-best people just the same. When Nancy stayed with the Cluttons she
-moved in a very literary set, and was much admired.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Have you heard from Barbara lately?” asked Pamela.
-</p>
-<p>
-She was sitting by the fire, with her back to the view of gravel drive
-and brand-new park land of Turle House. The big, dazzling white
-mantelpiece was a little above her head, loaded with family photos&mdash;a
-long, ogling, simpering line of family features.
-</p>
-<p>
-“No. But I saw her name in the papers; I am always seeing it. Her
-husband is really a very distinguished<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-310">[310]</a></span> man in his way. I can’t think
-why she buried herself at the Buttery, and talked so much at random,
-making enemies of so many people. How could anyone be expected to
-understand her? Nancy says that in London, when staying with the
-Cluttons, she met a great many women of that type&mdash;ill-balanced
-women, my dear, with a trick of extravagant talk and an unchristian,
-uncomfortable habit of poking fun at everything.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Pamela shifted her chair a little back from the hot fire. A quick,
-poignant shadow just flecked her face. A vivid picture of London, hot,
-restless, virile, flamed before her eyes and shook her calm for a
-moment. Then the peaceful slowness dropped down on her again. She
-looked, with a gasp of relief, at her surroundings&mdash;the big, ugly
-room&mdash;old-fashioned enough in its appointments and furniture to mark a
-distinct period. She looked at Mrs. Turle&mdash;who might or might not be
-her Aunt Sophy&mdash;looked at her motherly figure and hard, high-featured
-face. She remembered that Barbara had once said, with a laugh, that
-there was a strong streak of “old cat” in Aunt Sophy’s face.
-</p>
-<p>
-Nothing changed: nothing ever would change. Everything in that room was
-the same as it had always been in her knowledge of it. It was restful
-and slow: it fed and stilled one’s nerves. She no longer wanted London,
-no more wanted Love. But the mention of London, which had held Love,
-just stirred her&mdash;made her remember that she had never heard anything
-of Edred. She wondered if he and Sutton were still at Marquise
-Mansions; if they,<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-311">[311]</a></span> with Milligan and a few more, were still carrying
-on risky financial schemes. The newspapers never mentioned them, the
-advertisements of their companies no longer necessitated an extra sheet.
-</p>
-<p>
-“How is Gainah?” Mrs. Turle brought out a cushion of crazy patchwork.
-“I’ll buy this for her, poor soul! What an invaluable woman she was!
-What a manager! Folly Corner would have gone all to pieces after Lilith
-died but for Gainah. It is a dreadful end for an active woman. I
-suppose, dear, you notice no change?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“None. She just sits upstairs&mdash;she won’t leave that room; my old room,
-you know&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I know. You certainly had a most providential escape.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She does patchwork; she cries to Jethro&mdash;never to me&mdash;for new pieces.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“She shall certainly have this cushion. It would give her a new idea.
-She might copy it. She has never done crazy patchwork.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“If any of you have any pieces, do send them to Folly Corner. Whenever
-we drive into Liddleshorn I will buy her some.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I’ll have a hunt. We all remember Gainah. Maria brought some over from
-the Warren last week&mdash;you can take them back with you. And Annie had
-some beautiful corners of sateen. She has been re-covering the cot
-eiderdown. I went to help her last Monday; it takes two&mdash;one to machine
-and the other to hold the work perfectly steady. Annie is rather early
-with her preparations, but your Aunt Jerusha always insisted on having
-everything<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-312">[312]</a></span> ready at least three months before: Annie is a very dutiful
-daughter. And Gainah still has that extraordinary dislike for you?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes. She is afraid of me. It is natural and uncanny. She thinks I am a
-ghost; she knows she killed me. The knife was dug in to the very hilt.
-What an escape I had! Jethro won’t send her to the asylum. He could
-pay. She would have every care. Half the parlormaid’s time is taken up
-with Gainah.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“I can understand that it is a trial for you. It is telling on you,
-dear. You really look quite faded. I can see by your eyes that your
-head is aching at this moment. Take a dose of caffeine when you get
-back. And ask Egbert to give you a tonic. I must say that it isn’t
-natural, dear, for a young woman not quite thirty to look so yellow.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Gainah and Chalcraft ought to be comfortably provided for away from
-Folly Corner,” Pamela persisted. “Chalcraft is anything but a graceful
-pauper. He is most familiar to me whenever I go to his cottage.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She laughed uncomfortably. She had grown into an elegant habit of
-philanthropy, after the manner of country ladies. Philanthropy was very
-gratifying. She bought courtesy with old gowns and paid for heavenly
-benedictions with a milk pudding. But Chalcraft was obdurate. He
-declined to bend his ancient knee to the interloper. He kept his bed
-nearly all the winter. He made his “missus” bring it down to the
-living-room and set it behind the door, so that he might see, in part,
-how<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-313">[313]</a></span> the world went. At Pamela’s entrance, foolish, half-daft Mrs.
-Chalcraft would courtesy and flip a chair, but Chalcraft only grunted.
-The cold stare of his rheumy blue eyes reminded her of the day when she
-first came to Folly Corner, when she trod down the gray tendrils of the
-vine with the pointed toes of her town shoes. She had been an
-adventuress then. She was assured now&mdash;the mistress of Folly Corner.
-She had routed them all&mdash;Gainah, Chalcraft, the rude manner of life.
-The fierce old head on the pillow behind the door, the blank, worn old
-face at the window of her old room, were unpleasant reminders. She
-would gladly have sent Chalcraft and Gainah away. But this was the one
-point on which Jethro was firm.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You haven’t heard from Edred lately?”
-</p>
-<p>
-Aunt Sophy’s placid, purring query struck her ears like a gunshot.
-“No,” she said shortly.
-</p>
-<p>
-Aunt Sophy’s keen blue eyes were full on her face.
-</p>
-<p>
-“He had a very serious illness?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Yes.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Why doesn’t he come down to Folly Corner?”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He’s busy. The train service is so bad.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“The train service is very good, now that we have the new line. He
-could go up every morning quite easily, with a quick horse to take him
-to the station. It would be better, dear. We hardly care for you to
-live alone with Jethro. You’re really much younger than you look.
-Strangers might consider the arrangement a fitting one, but we in the
-family, who know that you are really not thirty, consider it hardly
-proper. People talk. You<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-314">[314]</a></span> know,” she laughed indulgently, “what a long
-tongue Maria has&mdash;and she visits at so many nice houses. You and
-Jethro ought to marry. Why doesn’t the wedding come off? Everyone is
-wondering. It is fifteen months since you came back from nursing
-Edred.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“We have changed our minds. We neither of us wish to marry. It doesn’t
-matter what people say.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“My dear, your family has every confidence. But I’m sure my idea is
-excellent. Let Edred come and live at Folly Corner. If you had your
-brother with you no one could say a word. Isn’t this a pretty workbag?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She held up a limp blue thing, worked with straggling leaves in brown
-silk. She held it so persistently, swinging it tantalizingly by the
-string, that Pamela was compelled to meet her inquisitive eyes&mdash;eyes
-that she had always known suspected her. There was more than a spark of
-malice in Aunt Sophy. She had been young once, a coquette, so they
-said. The embers of coquetry lay in her eyes still. She had never been
-a mere pink and silly girl like her daughter Nancy.
-</p>
-<p>
-“If you had your brother with you,” she repeated with emphasis, “no one
-could say a word. Why doesn’t he come? Is it because of Nancy? He was
-in love with Nancy. But she is married now.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“He cannot come. He has his business.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Well, then, my dear,”&mdash;she never shifted her questioning eyes,&mdash;“I
-must say that you ought to marry to Jethro.”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-315">[315]</a></span>
-Pamela walked home thoughtfully. There was, then, nothing stationary in
-life&mdash;outside a happy marriage. The family had combined to drive her
-from Folly Corner or into Jethro’s arms. The family did not know the
-cold, sad repugnance that they both had for love-making&mdash;the dread
-avoidance of it, as a poignant, heart-wrenching thing. Aunt Sophy might
-suspect, but she would never be sure.
-</p>
-<p>
-She walked through the woods which she had once trodden with Edred on a
-spring day. Crisp frost&mdash;like the icing of Maria’s cakes: Maria’s forte
-was iced cake&mdash;spread over the thick, dead leaves. Every point on which
-her eye dwelt was glittering and white. When she reached Folly Corner
-she stopped to look at the cows, standing in golden straw and fenced by
-a gray paling on which serpent-green moss stood in a thick pile. Why
-wouldn’t the family let them alone&mdash;she and Jethro? They were
-happy&mdash;slow, peaceful, like their cattle: <i>their</i> cattle&mdash;she had come
-to believe that everything was hers, without the burning, binding tie
-of marriage. They were happy. The pensive melancholy and roundness of
-the old place, which no builder could inspire with modern feeling, had
-eaten into them. They only wanted to be left alone.
-</p>
-<p>
-She went round the house, meaning to enter, as she usually did, by the
-garden door. As she passed beneath the window of her old room she
-looked up. It stood open. Gainah was indifferent to temperature: she
-was stitching at her interminable quilts. All she had kept of her sane
-days was the<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-316">[316]</a></span> feverish energy, which now wrought itself on snipping up
-stuff and sewing it together again. She wore the same old gown of
-blue&mdash;they could not take it from her; her hair bunched out on each
-side of her chalky face in the absurd bunches of corkscrew curls. The
-velvet band across her head was tightly strained: it had made a bald
-spot in the middle of the parting&mdash;a spot which was rapidly spreading.
-Pamela saw her plainly: the restless fingers, distorted by rheumatism,
-but quite clean and yellow-white, now that she did not do any housework
-or cooking; the worn, blank face, the constantly moving lips. She stood
-looking up, not knowing why she stopped, lost in speculation which had
-little enough to do with this dormant Gainah.
-</p>
-<p>
-As she stood there Gainah suddenly looked down. She met the upturned
-eyes and gave a terrified baby’s cry. She tried to move, to scuttle out
-of sight. But her stricken limbs refused their aid; she began to
-whimper with fright at the sight of her victim. A flash of anger
-lighted on Pamela’s face. She had never forgiven.
-</p>
-<p>
-She held up her finger and shook it threateningly.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Go back,” she cried, “go back to the fire at once,” forgetting in her
-irritation that the old woman could not move across the room without
-help.
-</p>
-<p>
-The parlormaid came forward to the window. She caught Gainah by the
-shoulder, none too gently, and pulled her away, shutting the casement
-with an impatient click.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro was in the field beyond the garden. Pamela<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-317">[317]</a></span> went to him over the
-border of crisp, crunching grass which edged the furrows. She loved
-that field in all its moods. She had watched it, consulted it so often
-from the shadow of the deep bay window. She remembered just how it
-appeared at each particular crisis of her life at Folly Corner&mdash;half
-shorn of its yellow corn on that first day; mystic with clearing mist
-and great green moon the night she came back; dull brown to-day with
-thin ice on the upturned tips of its even furrows.
-</p>
-<p>
-He was near the hedge, talking to Buckman, who was ditching. She went
-up and hooked her hand through his arm without saying a word. They had
-grown into that attitude&mdash;the affectionate, silent attitude of long,
-dear familiarity. Sometimes they would sit without speech for a whole
-evening, until he suddenly looked up from the paper with a tender look
-and stretched his big hand out to touch her fingers.
-</p>
-<p>
-The ditch was clean, the hedge hacked. Small heaps of black leaf mold
-spotted the fringe of grass.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You’ll be about done that job to-morrow,” Jethro said. “Just tie the
-fagots together and put them on the stack.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The two walked toward the house.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I think,” she said timidly, “that I would like to go to London
-to-morrow. Some shopping&mdash;that’s all. And I’d like a sight of London
-streets&mdash;a bit of color and movement. One wants that twice in a
-winter.”
-</p>
-<p>
-He looked at her suspiciously. The clear fire blazed in her face.
-Standing there with the icy<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-318">[318]</a></span> ground under their feet and the scurrying,
-sunless sky above their heads, they read each other’s souls.
-</p>
-<p>
-“No,” she said passionately; “you can trust me. I think I can trust
-myself. London is very big. I am not likely to meet him.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Go, if you like. But there will be a hard frost to-night and very
-likely snow to-morrow,” he returned, looking up to the sky for a
-weather sign.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-The clear, hard light showed his rugged face, stern and simple.
-</p>
-</div>
-
-<div class="chapter" id="chapter_123">
-<p>
-<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-319">[319]</a></span>
-</p>
-<h2 class="chap" id="chapter_123_hdg">
-<a href="#chapter_123_toc">CHAPTER XXIII.</a>
-</h2>
-<p class="no_top">
-H<small>E</small> stopped at the door and said he must drive over to the Flagon House
-before dusk. Pamela went alone into the drawing-room and sat by the
-fire. The luxury and completeness of the room touched her with a sense
-of Jethro’s boundless generosity&mdash;all the more creditable because he
-was a frugal man. It was quite a modern room now&mdash;it had the thin,
-elegant touch which she preferred.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her tea came in. She threw aside her hat and coat, and toasted her
-knees while she read the newspaper. A queer hurry and unrest had taken
-possession of her. She kept worrying herself. Should she go to London
-to-morrow? Aunt Sophy had stirred her by the mere mention of London.
-Should she go? Should she stay at home?
-</p>
-<p>
-There was no harm in going. Shopping, tea with Barbara perhaps&mdash;nothing
-more. She would stop at Liddleshorn and ask Nancy or Egbert’s wife to
-go with her. There would surely be safety in that. Safety! The word
-made her blench and shrink. She instantly suspected herself. So there
-was really danger!
-</p>
-<p>
-She wasn’t sure of herself&mdash;not yet: wasn’t sure&mdash;would never be.
-Wasn’t it more than possible that, directly she was in London alone,
-unchecked, unwatched, she would go straight to Marquise Mansions,<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-320">[320]</a></span> not
-meaning to enter? But, at the foot of the stairs, wasn’t it certain,
-miserably certain, that she would go up? If she saw him! Then&mdash;that
-she admitted, with a violent shame and misery&mdash;everything would depend
-on his attitude. The woman in brown! The woman&mdash;didn’t count.
-</p>
-<p>
-She wouldn’t think, wouldn’t speculate, wouldn’t decide just now. It
-would be premature to decide yet. There was no hurry.
-</p>
-<p>
-She picked up the paper, which had dropped to the floor. Then she
-remembered that it had been the paper which had tempted her to leave
-Jethro before. Suppose Edred’s name should be on the next sheet! That
-would settle everything&mdash;so she feared.
-</p>
-<p>
-Would it never end&mdash;this evil, incomprehensible witchery? Wasn’t she
-ever going to be safe? Was her life to be spent in veering between the
-happy lethargy of Folly Corner and the periodic joy and black misery of
-life with Edred? She despaired of herself. She hadn’t any shame, any
-self-respect, any modesty&mdash;any of those cold, praiseworthy qualities
-which romance has for centuries built up and labeled “feminine
-character.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She read on. One word, at last, became more than a dancing string of
-letters. It was the word Sutton. Here at last, after fifteen months of
-vigilant watching, was a sign. Here, beneath her eyes, was an indirect
-message from Marquise Mansions.
-</p>
-<p>
-Had he been knighted or sent to penal servitude? Either was equally
-likely&mdash;in their mode of life. She read. It was a highly respectable
-announcement:<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-321">[321]</a></span> he was a member of the County Council&mdash;a prominent
-member&mdash;and he had been agitating about some strike&mdash;yes, the
-plasterers’ strike. Whatever sympathy had he with plasterers? She
-laughed softly, and put the paper down. He was evidently prosperous,
-this sleek minion of Edred’s. The paragraph was redolent of prosperity.
-He was spoken of deferentially as a promising man&mdash;a coming man. She
-knew his future. He’d go into Parliament, pick his way up the social
-ladder.
-</p>
-<p>
-There was no word of Edred. The omission was a knell on her brow.
-</p>
-<p>
-She must go to London to-morrow. It would be safe. She wasn’t quite so
-weak as she supposed. After all, there really would not be much danger
-in going to Marquise Mansions&mdash;just to inquire of the porter.
-</p>
-<p>
-The room grew dark as she sat, stooping forward, her chin in her hands.
-The wind rose, and lapped like rising waves about the lonely house. She
-put more coal on the fire, feeling the intense cold of the night even
-there, in the nest of carpets, thick curtains, and cushions.
-</p>
-<p>
-Suddenly she heard muffled feet on the red, newly-spread gravel
-outside. No wheels, but the steady, heavy tramping of feet! She heard
-voices, the rustic, slow voices of the farm men. There was a momentary
-silence: then Jethro spoke. She could not catch the words, but there
-was a sinister intonation in his voice.
-</p>
-<p>
-She ran to the window. When she hastily dragged the curtain back she
-saw that the glass was<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-322">[322]</a></span> spread with a fine cloth of silver. The
-casement was fast with frost; it took a determined movement of her
-wrist to throw it back.
-</p>
-<p>
-When she put her head stealthily out into the night, the cold dashed
-against her with the sting of a blow. There had not been so cold a
-night that winter. The snow fell in solid steady flakes.
-</p>
-<p>
-It was a typical winter’s night; it was quite theatrical in its
-completeness. She might have been looking at the drop-scene of a
-domestic drama. Snow, intense cold, slow-tongued, heavy-footed
-rustics&mdash;everything was ripe for a crisis; but there was to be no
-crisis in her life, no more drama. She was in harbor.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro saw her before she spoke.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Go back!” he said peremptorily. “Go back to the fire!”
-</p>
-<p>
-Those were the words she had used to Gainah.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Go back!” he repeated.
-</p>
-<p>
-She couldn’t see his face; she could see nothing distinctly. The men
-were in a circle, as if they covered something. But she didn’t want to
-see. The strange ring in his voice was enough.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-She shut the window, caught a rug from the cozy corner, and went
-through the warm, well-lighted corridor out of doors.
-</p>
-<p class="break">
-*<span class="lftspc_brk">*</span><span class="lftspc_brk">*</span><span class="lftspc_brk">*</span><span class="lftspc_brk">*</span>
-</p>
-<p class="no_top">
-They were going very slowly, very cautiously, the group of farm men,
-headed by Jethro, toward the barn. She could see them&mdash;the bent
-shoulders, the rough clothes, the shambling, swinging steps and loose
-swing of the body. They were all<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-323">[323]</a></span> familiar, these men. She knew them
-by name&mdash;knew how many shillings a week each had, and of how many
-children each was the father. At that moment she didn’t seem to know
-them at all. They were instinct with mystery&mdash;mystery flavored with
-dread.
-</p>
-<p>
-What were they carrying? She could see now, as she gained on them
-silently in her thin slippers, that they guardedly carried a thing&mdash;a
-long, shrouded bundle. It was shapeless; yet, somehow, it cried out of
-life beneath the roughly piled coverings. It was nothing agricultural
-that they were carrying toward the barn so carefully.
-</p>
-<p>
-She heard them speak, heard Daborn say in his cheery voice and
-deferential way:
-</p>
-<p>
-“<span class="lftspc">’</span>Course, sir, it aint as <i>I</i> thinks, it’s as <i>you</i> thinks. But <i>I</i>
-should jus’ lay ’un in the barn.”
-</p>
-<p>
-Lay what in the barn? A formless fear quickened her feet. She was very
-close, none of them yet suspected her presence&mdash;the heavy snow now
-extinguished all sound of feet.
-</p>
-<p>
-They had covered the shrouded thing with sacks&mdash;wet sacks that were
-already stiffening with frost.
-</p>
-<p>
-She crept behind them in the shadow of the newly-planted shrubs. She
-followed to the barn&mdash;the great barn, full of cobwebs, scored by huge
-beams. Its new roof of corrugated iron, covering the heavy thatch,
-gleamed like a strange, new precious metal.
-</p>
-<p>
-They stopped to throw open the great door. How cold she was! And yet
-how her heart under the<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-324">[324]</a></span> sofa-rug blazed and beat&mdash;she couldn’t have
-told why.
-</p>
-<p>
-They all went stolidly, carefully into the barn. She slipped like a
-wraith in after them.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro turned and saw her.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Go back!” he said wrathfully. “Go back!” repeating it, with no wrath
-at all, but with exquisite pleading and gentleness. “Go back! Dear
-love, go back to the fire.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked up at him meaningly, knowingly. She began to feel what it
-was that stretched under those wet sacks. Dear love! It was the first
-time since her return that he had used those words&mdash;his favorite pet
-expression during the brief, agitated period of their engagement.
-</p>
-<p>
-There were frozen flakes of snow scattered over the orange silk rug
-which wrapped her from her chin to the toe-caps of her slippers. Her
-white face, framed in disheveled, dust-colored hair, was shadowy. They
-stood together at the door of the barn. At the back of them, the men,
-each with his lantern, made a patch of light. An evil spirit seemed to
-stare out of each corner of the vast raftered place&mdash;to stare down at
-the thing under the sacks.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I will not go back,” she said firmly. “I want to see. What is there?”
-</p>
-<p>
-She pointed with a steady finger. They had improvised a bench. They
-were laying it out&mdash;straightening it, with rough, pitiful reverence, as
-she could very well see.
-</p>
-<p>
-“What is there?”
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-325">[325]</a></span>
-Her voice rang out in the lofty barn amid the perfect, unnatural
-silence which suddenly fell over the rest. Jethro only repeated,
-touching her coaxingly on the wrist:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Go back. I’ll come in and tell you presently.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She shook her head.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I stay. I mean to see.”
-</p>
-<p>
-The group of men, with rare delicacy, without a word or a gesture of
-recognition, clumped out, with heads down and heavy feet, trying in
-vain to tread lightly.
-</p>
-<p>
-Jethro and Pamela were alone. She shot forward and touched the sacks.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You mustn’t touch. I insist on your going in, Pamela.”
-</p>
-<p>
-But her hand was already on the soiled, wet sacking, and she flipped it
-down with fearful eagerness.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I knew, I knew,” she called out almost exultingly. “I felt sure.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She looked at the dead face for a long time, and very steadily.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I was driving home from the Flagon House,” Jethro explained in a husky
-voice and averting his eyes from those dead ones which would not close.
-“Something went wrong with the harness just as I got to the pond. I
-jumped down. By the light of the lamps. I saw&mdash;his arm was thrust out.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She didn’t speak. Her eyes were steady and luminous on Edred’s rigid
-face. There was a ticking sound as the water dropped from his sodden
-clothes to the floor. Then a quick clatter of a horse’s hoofs fell on
-their ears.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-326">[326]</a></span>
-Jethro said simply:
-</p>
-<p>
-“That’s young Buckman gone to Liddleshorn for Egbert. I told him to
-saddle the black mare.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She only looked and looked. Her eyes were unnaturally bright, her lips
-were steady. She looked from the handsome dead face to the shabby,
-drenched clothes, which were splintered all over with little
-spear-shaped fragments of ice.
-</p>
-<p>
-They were the clothes of a tramp. His boots were burst, a dirty
-handkerchief was knotted round his long throat, and on his chin was an
-unkempt beard&mdash;a piebald beard, half black, half gray. He was handsome
-still, but it was the wreck of comeliness&mdash;the sodden face of a
-dissolute man of fifty.
-</p>
-<p>
-“He must have had ill luck lately,” Jethro said. “He was evidently
-coming back to us.”
-</p>
-<p>
-“If he had come back&mdash;alive,” she said thoughtfully, “I wonder&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-Her steady gaze on the dead, aged, handsome face never wavered. If he
-had come back to Folly Corner alive&mdash;so&mdash;would he have possessed the
-old magic?
-</p>
-<p>
-His eyes were fathoming the raftered roof. In every corner, clothed in
-the swaying black cobwebs, was an imp&mdash;the evil spirits who had swayed
-his life.
-</p>
-<p>
-“We shall never know what brought him to this. Come away, dear,” urged
-Jethro.
-</p>
-<p>
-She shook Jethro’s big hand off with petulance. The water from the dead
-man’s clothes was freezing at her feet, beneath her slippers, and
-chilled her. That was the nearest approach to contact she<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-327">[327]</a></span> reached with
-the dead. She made no attempt to touch him, to go a little nearer, to
-stoop and stare into the glazing, fearful surface of his wide dark eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-What a mystery he had always been! What a mystery he was now! She had
-never been certain even of his name. She didn’t know and never would
-know the secret history of the last fifteen months. Two might tell
-her&mdash;Sutton or the woman in brown. But she did not wish to revive
-either of them. That was past. Everything was past. She was stripped at
-last of everything; the world was simply Folly Corner. She felt as a
-slave might feel when he heard the blows which loosened his shackles.
-She was free. She had always been free&mdash;in the letter; in the spirit
-she had been a wretched slave. A slave to first love&mdash;that indefinable,
-holding thing.
-</p>
-<p>
-She turned away suddenly, turned her back on the dead man&mdash;not with
-horror, grief, or repulsion, but apathetically&mdash;as if she had seen
-enough. She dismissed him. She put her head to Jethro’s coat, with the
-persuasive, rubbing air of a cat.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I can’t feel,” she said, holding one hand out toward the roughly
-improvised bier. “I thank God that I don’t feel any longer. I’m not
-touched in the least, not even by ordinary natural emotions. I’m not
-sorry; I’m not ashamed; I’m not even glad. I’m only free. Jethro!”
-</p>
-<p>
-“Dear love!” His great hand was on her hair.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I don’t feel&mdash;for him,” she went on with more passion, “the ordinary
-pity and sadness that one<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-328">[328]</a></span> feels for any dead thing. I can’t&mdash;for him.
-There’s no dignity, no pathos in Death when it touches him. You mustn’t
-think me hard; mustn’t put this down to vengeance because he injured
-me. I can still feel pity. I cried only this morning over a tomtit
-which the cat had mangled. But I don’t cry for this. I don’t feel. I’m
-stone where he is concerned. Until to-night I have been wax. I’m not
-sorry or shocked; not anything womanly, anything human that I ought to
-be. I can’t feel. I’m free. Take me away. We’ll get warm in the house.”
-</p>
-<p>
-They stepped out into the driving snow. The world was white and
-pitiless that night.
-</p>
-<p>
-The door thudded solemnly when Jethro pulled it to. He had his arm
-round Pamela, his coat held out to form a screen for her. Midway to the
-house she stopped, the blinding, desolate snow whirling above their
-heads. She looked up and he looked down. There was a strange fire in
-each pair of eyes. Suddenly he stooped and kissed her on the
-mouth&mdash;roughly, brutally.
-</p>
-<p>
-Her mouth smarted with the rudeness of that kiss, but a sweet,
-permanent content ran through her body. He loved her! She would be
-Cousin Pamela no more, save in the tender jest of matrimony. He had
-always loved her. His reserve, his brotherly attitude, had been forced.
-They were part of his prudent nature, part of his hereditary economy.
-He would never expend when there was small chance of any result.
-</p>
-<p>
-The house was warm&mdash;a gently filtering warmth<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-329">[329]</a></span> that seemed to wrap them
-directly they shut the door.
-</p>
-<p>
-The discreet clink of china, the savory smell of soup, came from the
-kitchen. They were preparing dinner&mdash;the place was wholly regardless of
-that miserable dead man.
-</p>
-<p>
-They shut themselves in the drawing-room. Pamela abandoned herself to
-the luxury of the fire. Jethro paced about nervously, his ears alert
-for wheels.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Egbert can do nothing,” he said. “The poor chap was dead when I found
-him&mdash;dead and stiff. He must have been in the pond some time. If I
-hadn’t found him to-night the ice would have pinned him in by
-to-morrow. We should have been obliged to cut him out. I can’t think
-how he got in. It isn’t dark: he never drank&mdash;too much. His head was
-strong. He could stand a lot of whisky. We don’t know&mdash;&mdash;”
-</p>
-<p>
-“We shall never know,” she said with the oddest lethargy.
-</p>
-<p>
-All the time he walked about the room, indulging as he did so in kind
-commonplace reflections concerning Edred, she was saying to
-herself&mdash;lilting the words to a queer dancing air that hummed in her
-head:
-</p>
-<p>
-“Free, free, free.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She tried herself, probed herself, insisted on proving. She recalled
-all sorts of things&mdash;her happiest, tenderest moments with the dead man.
-She felt nothing at all, except faint disgust for the woman&mdash;it could
-not have been herself&mdash;who had so madly<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-330">[330]</a></span> loved that creature who was
-lying in the barn searching the roof with his fixed, shallow eyes.
-</p>
-<p>
-“No,” she said, half to herself, half to Jethro, “I don’t feel.”
-</p>
-<p>
-She waited a moment, let that flow of recollections rush on. Nothing
-touched her. It had been another woman&mdash;a dogged, shameful, spiritless
-creature. She repeated devotionally, as if she had been kneeling in a
-great church, swept by religious frenzy:
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-“I thank God. I don’t feel.”
-</p>
-<p class="break">
-*<span class="lftspc_brk">*</span><span class="lftspc_brk">*</span><span class="lftspc_brk">*</span><span class="lftspc_brk">*</span>
-</p>
-<p class="dateline">
-“Beaufort Street, May 24.
-</p>
-<p>
-“M<small>Y</small> D<small>EAREST</small> P<small>AMELA</small>: Tim and I will be delighted to spend all June at
-Folly Corner, as you suggest: you’ll really see Tim at last!
-</p>
-<p>
-“We have let this house, and think of settling in the country. It will
-not be the real thing, as you have it. We shall go to one of those
-intellectual settlements with a good railway service to town; a theater
-train once a week. We shall live on a hill; there will be a splendid
-view from our windows. We shall have to pay for that view; we shall ask
-our friends down to look at it; we shall see it every morning&mdash;rave
-over it, become callous to it, abuse it&mdash;want to murder it. A true
-English home is in a hollow, like Folly Corner. I shall have to content
-myself with the hard monotony of a pine wood&mdash;after Sussex oak! We
-shall belong to a coterie&mdash;everybody will be an artistic something.
-Everybody will flatter and hate his neighbor.
-</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="page-331">[331]</a></span>
-“I want to see the baby. Of course you’ll call him Jethro. I can
-understand your disquietude at Gainah’s fondness for him.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Your letter was too domestic altogether. <i>Do</i> remember that a ‘good
-manager’ degenerates into a shrew after thirty.
-</p>
-<p>
-“Of course your husband is trying&mdash;it is a way they have: a man is the
-most difficult of all domestic pets. Never mind his occasional morose
-moods; never mind his attempts at domestic economy. When a man decides
-on domestic economy he smokes a shilling cigar while he lectures his
-wife on the sinful extravagance of afternoon tea. A wise woman gives
-him his head on such occasions, and never varies her course.
-</p>
-<p>
-“You are very much to be envied; our life is a struggle to make both
-ends meet. Tim’s book of essays, which made such a splash last year,
-has been the ruin of him. He is a melancholy object lesson&mdash;a man
-ruined by press notices. Still, that is not a fate likely to befall you
-or Mr. Jayne. My poor Tim no longer has confidence in anything he does.
-I tell him&mdash;without making the least impression on him&mdash;that a thing
-doesn’t cease to be clever because you’ve found out the way to do it.
-He’s versatile&mdash;that is his stumbling-block. To succeed, you must be
-superlatively skillful at one thing, and a perfect fool at everything
-else.
-</p>
-<p>
-“So Nancy has won the literary prize in the <i>Liddleshorn Herald</i>
-competition&mdash;and dear Mrs. Turle has justified her opinion.
-</p>
-<p>
-“As Chalcraft and his wife are dead, of course<span class="pagenum"><a id="page-332">[332]</a></span> there will be a sale.
-Buy me the oak chair, if I am not present to buy it myself.
-</p>
-<p>
-“I remember Nettie; she didn’t look the kind of girl who would go off
-in a decline. But the rustics are dreadfully unhealthy. When I was at
-the Buttery buying things of the cottagers I had a fixed rule by which
-I ingratiated myself. If a woman was under fifty I inquired after the
-baby; over fifty, I inquired after the bad leg. It sounds horrid, but
-was invariably successful. If the victim was a man, I asked if his
-ground grew good onions, and said how sorry I was that I couldn’t keep
-a pig.
-</p>
-<p>
-“By the way, when you see Mrs. Silas Daborn, ask her to save me a
-kitten next time they occur. The cat we have won’t catch mice&mdash;lets
-them frisk with the tip of her tail. I cannot think what cats are
-coming to. Tim, who is not a Progressive, says it is all the fault of
-the School Board.
-</p>
-<p class="no_bottom">
-“We shall come by the quick afternoon train on Wednesday, June 2. We
-arrive at five something; Mr. Jayne will please look it up in the
-time-table.
-</p>
-<p class="closing">
-“Affectionately yours, with a kiss for the baby,
-</p>
-<p class="signature">
-“B<small>ARBARA</small> C<small>LUTTON</small>.”
-</p>
-<p class="end">
-THE END.
-</p>
-</div>
-
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