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-The Project Gutenberg eBook of Twenty tales by twenty women, by
-Anonymous
-
-This eBook is for the use of anyone anywhere in the United States and
-most other parts of the world at no cost and with almost no restrictions
-whatsoever. You may copy it, give it away or re-use it under the terms
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-Title: Twenty tales by twenty women
- From real life in Chicago
-
-Author: Anonymous
-
-Release Date: September 1, 2022 [eBook #68894]
-
-Language: English
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-
-*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK TWENTY TALES BY TWENTY
-WOMEN ***
-
-
-
-
-
-
- TWENTY TALES
- BY
- Twenty Women
-
- From Real Life in Chicago
-
- ANONYMOUS
- ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
-
- FOR SALE ONLY
- BY
- NOVELTY PUBLISHING CO.
- CHICAGO, ILL.
-
- COPYRIGHT, 1903
- BY
- NOVELTY PUBLISHING CO.
-
-
-
-
-CONTENTS.
-
-
- PAGE
-
- PREFACE 3
-
- INTRODUCTION 5
-
- A WOMAN’S ANGUISH 13
-
- TALE ONE—The Diary of a Chicago Girl 17
-
- TALE TWO—The Life Story of a Southern Widow 33
-
- TALE THREE—A Story of the Chicago Ghetto 53
-
- TALE FOUR—A Woman of Thirty-eight 71
-
- TALE FIVE—A Forecast 89
-
- TALE SIX—A Daughter of Proud Kentucky 103
-
- TALE SEVEN—My Lover’s Bequest 129
-
- TALE EIGHT—The Victim of a Drug 145
-
- TALE NINE—What Happened to a Girl Who Flirted 163
-
- TALE TEN—Sold at a Fixed Price 173
-
- TALE ELEVEN—A Story of Suicide Bridge 181
-
- TALE TWELVE—Two Babes and Two Mothers 193
-
- TALE THIRTEEN—Not Guilty 205
-
- TALE FOURTEEN—My Lover’s Daughter 215
-
- TALE FIFTEEN—As Told to a Clergyman 221
-
- TALE SIXTEEN—A Story of Stage Life 231
-
- TALE SEVENTEEN—A Trip Across the Lake 261
-
- TALE EIGHTEEN—One Woman’s Way 269
-
- TALE NINETEEN—A Story of the Levee 291
-
- TALE TWENTY—A Scientific Phenomenon 305
-
-
-
-
-PREFACE.
-
- “It may be weeds I’ve gathered, too;
- But even weeds may be as fragrant,
- With some sweet memory.
- As the fairest flower.”
-
-
-Without apology this book goes forth. If it is productive of some good,
-it will have fulfilled its mission.
-
-In presenting this work it is with a feeling of restitution. If I have
-digressed from, or stormed the barricaded citadel of formal literature,
-I have done so without hesitation, simply complying with an obeisance
-to civility toward my fellow men. I have pictured life as a man of the
-world is sometimes forced to see it, and not altogether as angels would
-transcribe it.
-
-If the manner in which the subjects are hereinafter treated and woven
-into stories, meets the approval of the public, the work will have served
-to indicate the power and simplicity of truth.—THE AUTHOR.
-
- “All truth is precious, if not divine,
- And what dilates the pow’rs must needs refine.”
-
-
-
-
-INTRODUCTION.
-
-
-“Without women, the beginning of our life would be helpless; the middle,
-devoid of pleasure, and the end of consolation.”
-
- “The very first
- Of human life must spring from woman’s breast,
- Your first small words are taught you from her lips,
- Your first tears quench’d by her, and your last sighs
- Too often breathed out in a woman’s hearing,
- When men have shrunk from the ignoble care
- Of watching the last hour of him who led them.”
-
-In London alone there are eighty thousand fallen women, and, while the
-number is infinitely smaller in Chicago, they all have a history, an
-excuse to offer, and a tale to tell.
-
-We have resided upon this terrestrial sphere just long enough to know
-that the reformation of a fallen woman rivals the labors of Hercules. All
-men have a physical nature and must meet people who appeal to it.
-
-The conditions are such that there has arisen in society, a figure that
-is certainly the most mournful, and, in some respects, the most awful,
-upon which the eye of the moralist can dwell. That unhappy being, whose
-very name it is a shame to speak; who counterfeits, with a cold heart,
-the transports of affection and submits herself as the passive instrument
-of lust; who is scorned and insulted as the vilest of her sex, and
-doomed, for the most part, to disease and abject wretchedness of men,
-then death.
-
-Who will pity her? A poor unknown, who shall be lowered into a grave of
-cold clay (and possibly in the potter’s field), among slimy, creeping
-things that feed on foul air and putrid masses. Not even a slab to say,
-“Here lies.”
-
-With dreamy eyes and rum dulled brain, her companions take in the scene
-without warning. They shrink not from the horrors of the charnel house or
-the maggot filled grave; sin fascinates them as the cursed death giving
-flame does the foolish moth. They continue to cultivate avarice, defy all
-laws of nature and modesty, all rules of etiquette, and break down all
-barriers which ordinarily defend pure womanhood.
-
- “She is a rag and a bone and a hank of hair.”
-
-Women of this class feel that they are social outcasts, that their sins
-are as scarlet; they believe that they are past reform.
-
-Herself, the supreme type of vice, she is usually the most efficient
-guardian of virtue. But for her, the unchallenged purity of countless
-homes would be polluted, and not a few, who, in the pride of their
-untested chastity, think of her with an indignant shudder, would have
-known the agony of remorse and despair.
-
-On that one degraded and ignoble form are concentrated the passions that
-might have filled the world with shame.
-
-She remains while creeds and civilization rise and fall, the eternal
-priestess of humanity, blasted for the sins of the world.
-
-It is not our intention to perorate and dissertate on a theory calculated
-to turn the world into a miniature heaven, for we don’t believe for the
-fractional part of a moment that a general reformation of the fallen is
-practicable or possible. It is not unusual that the men who deplore so
-loudly the existence of soiled doves are the very men who are responsible
-for their existence.
-
-The only practicable solution that we may be tempted to offer, would be
-for society to brand the men with the stigma of its contempt, the same as
-it does the women, when he sinks himself below her level in an attempt to
-pervert her purity.
-
-If the immoral men were ostracized from polite society with the same
-despatch that a weak woman is, society would be composed almost entirely
-of women.
-
-The world’s fallen women are divided into two classes:
-
-The woman whose nature is depraved, who is too coarse to realize or heed
-the depth of her own infamy, and the woman whose circumstances have
-forced her to a life of shame. Of the former, it is useless to take heed
-for she understands nothing outside of her own depravity, and looks upon
-reformation as a thing to be avoided. Fortunately she constitutes but a
-small percentage of the half-world.
-
-The reclamation of the other woman is almost as utterly impossible for
-the reason that she has realized and suffered too much. We have homes of
-refuge for the friendless, retreats for the fallen, and hospitals for
-the poor, but after all the red tape formula for admittance has been
-complied with, they dispense only the cold crusts of charity.
-
-Where can a woman turn, whose suffering soul is tottering on the brink
-of the world’s damnation? To whom shall she turn for the tender touch of
-Christian pity, the charity of a human undertaking half divine? Surely,
-not to the church that “Bows the knee to pomp that loves to varnish
-guilt;” not to the women of merciless hearts and useless lives who
-boast of chastity because of frozen veins; not to public charities who
-advertise her squalor and her shame; not to the worldly man, whose aid
-is; almost invariably extended in return for favors their families know
-not of, but she turns to the hell of the world’s lost souls when men no
-longer find her a convenience.
-
-The modest woman of mental refinement finds a rival in the person with
-a good figure (no matter how blatant), who is able to set the pace that
-lures the men.
-
-Whatever her personal merits may be, her position precludes the
-possibility of her re-entering social circles that would be agreeable
-to her. She sees the girls about her who have smothered their moral
-scruples, wearing good clothes, going to entertainments and receiving the
-attentions of gentlemen who have no hesitancy in being parted from their
-money, if value is received, and it is small wonder if she, too, takes
-the initial step that leads to the “crib” in the “tenderloin.”
-
-After having established the reputation of being “game,” there is no
-dearth of so called respectable men who are willing to be “kind” to her.
-The men who are responsible for these conditions are not the rough men of
-the lower classes, but the professional men, the men in business; many
-with families and nice homes, who represent the respectable element in
-the community.
-
-If all the ancient prudes and wind-jammers, who are so intensely
-interested in the fallen, would give their support to the decent men who
-give their employes living wages, instead of straining their corsets to
-wedge in next to the bargain counter in the department stores, whose
-scale of wages breeds prostitution and moral depravity, they might
-discover in the next decade, more self-supporting, decent women, and less
-fair faces flushed with lust in the glare of the red light “brothel.”
-
-In presenting this work to the public it is not the intention of the
-author to bruise the hearts of fond parents, who may be able to recall
-sad occurrences, after having read the following chapters; nor to censure
-the subjects, whose life stories are told in the following narrations;
-not to bring down unjust criticism on the head of any class; but rather
-to point out in a measure, the reasons most apparent to a man of the
-world, for licentious crime.
-
-If asked why I have chosen Chicago as the field from which to gather data
-for this volume, my answer would be, “because of its great population”;
-because to it visitors flock from every part of; the United States and
-many foreign countries; because it is nearer to the center of population
-than any other large city, hence more often sought by wayward girls from
-the surrounding territory, and the inducements which are held out to the
-pleasure-loving public, whether those in quest of enjoyment be saint or
-sinner, wolf or lamb, in gay Chicago are conducive to the character of
-amusement and excitement necessary to the life of those whose stories are
-herein told.
-
-This book will claim its right to life by detailing the life story of
-each one of these children of God, from the child-life in a quiet,
-peaceful home in some rural hamlet, through the trials and vicissitudes
-of unfortunate or misspent life.
-
-This book, unlike the Bible, is all written in Chicago. The twenty
-disciples come from twenty different places. They, endeavoring to lose
-their identity in the whirl of racy life and excitement, seek the phantom
-happiness in this great city. For a time all goes well. Gaiety and mirth
-mingle, and fortune conspires with pleasure to mislead the novice; then
-the scenes grow old; happiness eludes the grasp; tawdry garments no
-longer please the eye; the tinsel tarnishes; disappointed hope begets
-despair, and then a few grains of a friendly drug or the cold waves, of
-the lake offer rest and relief. The city becomes pregnant with these poor
-unfortunates, tortured by regret and shame, goaded down by necessity and
-the scorn of former friends. Then there is birth—this book is born. It
-goes out into the world to tell the naked truth for the good of mankind.
-
-While this work is prepared from a truly moral standpoint, let it be
-known that it is the intention to entertain as well as to instruct, to
-deal with bare facts in order that the reader will thoroughly understand
-the situation as it exists.
-
-Should the reader, while in the act of drinking in the words of these
-crushed flowers, find an instance wherein, by the recital of her story,
-by sheer accident or otherwise, recognize the possessor of that story, do
-not, for the love of humanity, be so unkind as to say, “I told you so.”
-
-You may know, aye adore, some man whose fault it is that that particular
-girl was placed in the position which makes the tale of her life so
-miserably sad to some and yet so racy and full of color to others. If,
-after having read the story of his wrong-doing, together with the pain he
-has caused, he does not develop into a different sort of a man, put him
-down as an iniquitous night-bird, fit to flit and hoot by night in search
-of prey; one in whom a spark of manhood never glows and whose crimes and
-abominations are myriad, marking him as a loathsome creature, who fears
-the truth and shuns the light of day; one whose conscience is seared
-beyond redemption and who possesses no conception of charity, pity,
-sorrow or regret.
-
-It is a pitiable and cruel fact that the great source from which the
-ranks of scarlet are replenished, are young women from the country, who,
-disgraced in their own community, fly from home to escape the infamy and
-rush to the city with anger, desperation and revolt in their hearts. Oh,
-that society would punish more severely the respectable seducers and
-destroyers of innocent women.
-
-Another lamentable fact is that those who enter into this diabolical
-traffic, are seldom saved. We have avoided no labor or pains in our
-researches on this subject, and we wish all who read this to mark well
-our words.
-
-When a woman once enters a house of prostitution and leads the life of
-those who dwell there, it is too late for redemption and there is no
-hope for her. When a woman once nerves herself for the fatal plunge, a
-change comes over her whole character and, sustained by outraged love,
-transformed into hate by miscalculating but indomitable pride, revenge
-and the excitement of her new environments, her fate is fixed, her doom
-is sealed.
-
-Hence this book, “TWENTY TALES BY TWENTY WOMEN.”
-
-
-
-
-A WOMAN’S ANGUISH.
-
-
- “Sitting alone by the window, watching the moonlit street;
- Bending my head to listen to the well known sounds of your feet;
- I have been wondering, darling, how I could hear the pain,
- When I watched with sighs and tear-wet eyes and waited your coming in
- vain.
-
- “For I know the day approaches when you will tire of me,
- When by the door I may watch and wait for the form I will not see;
- When the love that is now my heaven, the kisses that make my life,
- You will bestow on another, and that other will be your wife.
-
- “You will grow tired of serving, though you do not call it so;
- You will long for a love that is pure, the love that we two know.
- God knows that I loved you dearly, with a passion strong and pure,
- But you will grow tired and leave me though I gave up all for you.
-
- “I was pure as the morning when I first looked upon your face;
- I knew I never could reach you, on your high exalted place,
- But I looked and loved and worshiped, as a flower might worship a star,
- But your eyes shone down on me and you seemed so far, so far.
-
- “And then I knew that you loved me, loved me with all your heart,
- But we could not stand at the altar, we were so far apart;
- If a star would wed a flower, the star must drop from the sky,
- Or the flower, in trying to reach it, would droop on its stalk and die.
-
- “And you said that you loved me dearly, and swore by the heaven above,
- That the Lord and all His angels would sanction and bless our love,
- And I was weak, not wicked, my love was pure and true,
- And sin itself seemed a virtue, when only shared by you.
-
- “We have been happy together, though, under a cloud of sin;
- But I know that the day approaches when my chastening will begin.
- You have been faithful and tender, but you will not always be,
- And I think I had better leave you while your thoughts are kind of me.
-
- “Oh, God! I could never bear it; it would madden my brain, I know;
- So while you love me dearly, I think I had better go.
- It is sweeter to feel my darling, to know as I fall asleep,
- That some one will mourn and miss me, that some one is left to weep.
-
- “That to die as I would in the future, to fall in the street some day,
- Unknown, unwept and forgotten, when you have cast me away;
- Perhaps the blood of the Savior can wash my garments clean;
- Perchance I may drink the water that flows through the pastures green.
-
- “Perchance we may meet in heaven, and walk in the streets above,
- With nothing to grieve or part us, since our sinning was all through
- love.
- God says, ‘Love one another,’ and down to the depths of hell
- Will he send the soul of a woman, because she loved and fell.
-
- “Perchance if we had never met, I had been spared this last regret,
- This endless striving to forget; and yet, I could not bear the pain
- Of never seeing you again.
- Ah, leave me not, I love but thee; blessing or curse whiche’er thou be;
- Oh, be as thou hast been to me, forever and forever.”’
-
- And so in the moonlight he found her, as around her beautiful clay
- (Lifeless and pallid as marble, for her spirit had flown away),
- The farewell words she had written she held to her cold, white breast,
- And the buried blade of a dagger told how she had done the rest.
-
-
-
-
-TALE ONE.
-
-THE DIARY OF A CHICAGO GIRL.
-
-This story is a copy of the diary kept by a wealthy Chicago girl, who was
-found dead in her room.
-
- “When lovely woman stoops to folly
- And finds too late that men betray,
- What charm can soothe her melancholy?
- What art can wash her guilt away?
-
- “The only art her guilt to cover,
- To hide her shame from every eye,
- To give repentance to her lover,
- And wring his bosom, is—to die.”
-
-
-JANUARY 1.
-
-I, Louise Montgomery, twenty-five years of age, and in full possession of
-all my faculties, do hereby affirm that I will herein chronicle all the
-noteworthy happenings of my life for the period of one year.
-
-Little diary, I am surprised that I, having reached the mature age of
-twenty-five, should become so sentimental as to wish to keep a diary.
-What has prompted me I cannot say. Time may reveal it.
-
-The old year has just passed into eternity and the New Year has
-but commenced his reign as I write. Yes, a new year with all its
-possibilities. I hope at the end of this year I may look back upon it
-as the one bright year of my life. I have not made a thousand good
-resolutions, as I have done hitherto, but mean to meet the trials and
-temptations of each day as bravely as possible.
-
-I am not in love yet, little diary, and I want you to bear witness to
-this fact. There is a man whom you do not know, and to whom I shall
-introduce you now, for if I can convert him to my way of thinking by the
-end of this year, I shall not have lived in vain, and I shall have much
-to tell you about him as the days go by.
-
-He is married, this man of whom I speak. That in itself would preclude
-the possibility of my loving him now, or falling in love with him in the
-future.
-
-He has a lovely wife and one child. He speaks of her often and dwells on
-her excellent qualities, until I too love her.
-
-He loves her? Maybe he does, but I fear he does not, not to the fullest
-extent. It must be my work of this year to teach him the error of his
-way. He has never by word or action intimated that he cares for me, but
-I am sensible, not conceited, and know he is—well, he likes to tell how
-happy he is, too well. People who are thoroughly happy give no thought
-to the opinion of the world, but live only in the sunshine of their
-beloved’s presence. I think my task will be a delightful one. He is
-awfully good looking, very tall and well developed, polished and withal
-so interesting. It was strange how we became interested in one another
-the very first night of our meeting. That Thanksgiving ball will be a
-memorable one. How striking he looked in his full dress suit and how
-perfectly he dances! I wonder what New Year resolutions he has made.
-I mean to ask him, if he is at the dance tonight. No, I guess I won’t
-either; men are conceited and he might think I had been giving him rather
-more thought than mere casual acquaintance would warrant. Perhaps he
-doesn’t realize his danger. Well, I must retire now to pleasant dreams.
-
-
-JANUARY 2.
-
-Oh, what a grand time I had last night. I was the belle of the ball and
-Mr. Forsythe said he never saw me so radiant. I felt a little as if I
-ought not to allow him to say it, but I couldn’t really find a reason for
-criticising him for what many others said, and then, too, if I assume
-that he is doing wrong, when he may never have thought of it, I shall
-spoil all my chances for doing good. I know I did look my best, for
-that clinging black crepe gown is most becoming. I wonder how Nell is
-progressing with her affair. Somehow she doesn’t seem to me to be looking
-very happy.
-
-
-JANUARY 6.
-
-I didn’t intend to neglect you so soon, my father confessor, but I have
-been so busy and so tired at night that I couldn’t keep my eyes open, and
-I want you to be as much of a credit to me in appearances as my own deeds
-are to be.
-
-There has been nothing of vital importance to set down here this time. I
-had a long talk with Nell Sears today and I conjectured correctly about
-her being unhappy. She is engaged to Professor Kurtz, but he says it is
-impossible for him to marry her publicly, as long as he teaches in the
-University, for they would discharge him. That seems queer to me. I
-think I shall investigate the matter for my own satisfaction, for who
-knows, a Professor might propose to me sometime. He wants her to marry
-him quietly, and she doesn’t want to do it I wouldn’t if I were she. A
-society girl in her position would run a great risk, I think.
-
-
-JANUARY 10.
-
-I had a long talk with Mr. Forsythe today. When I told him I was going
-away tomorrow he looked sad, and said he should miss me very much. You
-see it was this way. We met by sheer accident at the silk counter at
-Field’s. He was matching some silk for his wife, and I was searching
-for something suitable for a new evening gown. He helped me select an
-exquisite thing, all pink and silver. I think I overstepped my limit as
-to price, but I didn’t like to “haggle” when he was standing there. He
-said I would be the center of attraction wherever I wore that, and some
-other complimentary trifles, not worth mentioning. By the time we had
-concluded our purchases it was luncheon hour and he insisted on my going
-up to the tea-room with him.
-
-He asked me if I would write to him while I was away; that it would be
-such a pleasure to hear how I was enjoying myself. I gave a reluctant
-consent after he said, “If you knew how much good it would do me, you
-would not refuse.”
-
-I wish I knew whether I did right or not.
-
-
-JANUARY 25.
-
-Detroit is such a lovely city and I am having such a royal, good time,
-that I have neglected thee, my little white-faced friend.
-
-Florence has kept me going every minute. I met a Mr. Ford last night and
-of all the men I have met since coming here I like him the best. He loves
-music, poetry and flowers, and we are very congenial.
-
-I have been here two weeks and have not kept my promise to Mr. Forsythe
-to write. I must do so tonight, so farewell, my friend, for tonight.
-
-
-FEBRUARY 1.
-
-I received such a delightful letter from Mr. Forsythe this afternoon.
-Such poetical sentiments, such pen pictures! It was certainly the most
-beautiful letter I ever received. I wonder what he could have thought of
-my poor, little missive. Still it is worth something to have inspired
-such a beautiful reply. I wonder how soon I ought to answer. I should
-like to get another from him soon, but I wouldn’t have him know it for
-the world.
-
-
-FEBRUARY 15.
-
-I had another letter from Mr. Forsythe today. It was just a note
-inquiring for Mrs. Madden’s address. It makes me smile. Men aren’t so
-very sharp after all. As if I couldn’t see that the inquiry was only an
-excuse to write to me and a gentle reminder of the fact that I owe him a
-letter.
-
-
-FEBRUARY 23.
-
-Well, whom do you suppose was at the ball tonight? I was never so
-surprised in my life. It was a club dance and Mr. Forsythe was there. I
-did not know he was in the city. Oh, what a grand waltz we had! He said
-business had called him East and he thought he would stop at Detroit for
-a day before going on to New York.
-
-Of course we know it was some one who wore a pink gown and has brown
-eyes, don’t we?
-
-He is dear, he looked down into my eyes and said, “What beautiful
-unfathomed depths your soul has, though I can get but a peep at it
-through those eyes.”
-
-I can’t help it, I like to hear him say those things, although I ought
-not to allow it and I know it. He is coming to call this afternoon.
-
-
-FEBRUARY 25.
-
-Well, he was here and Florence thought he was lovely. She came in
-for a few moments and then excused herself, so we had the time all
-to ourselves. I don’t know how I dared to do it, but it seemed as if
-something impelled me to, and I said, “Mr. Forsythe, I don’t believe you
-are as happy as you say you are. If you were you would not encourage
-yourself so much.”
-
-He was silent what seemed to me an interminable length of time and I
-thought, “Now, my lady, you have spoiled your chances to do a good work,
-by a word inopportunely spoken.” But I was wrong. He came over to me and
-sat down beside me on the couch. He took my hand in his and said, “Miss
-Montgomery, you are right, but you are the only one who has discerned it,
-or at least the only one who has said so.”
-
-Then I told him I was sorry I had been so abrupt, but he assured me that
-it was all right and that he was glad I had spoken because now he would
-feel free to talk the whole matter over with me.
-
-He said his wife was good and kind, in fact, I don’t know that he said
-anything but nice things, now that I stop to think of it.
-
-But, little diary, I think I have discovered the trouble. I don’t believe
-she understands him. She doesn’t appreciate the depth of his nature. It
-may be no fault of hers; she associates with him daily and feels herself
-so much a part of him that she has ceased to analyze him. It is not that
-he has ceased to be interesting to her, for she loves him devotedly, but
-it is the nature of a man to desire commendation and encouragement. He
-doesn’t wish it to be taken for granted that he is doing well, but wishes
-to hear words, words.
-
-A deep bond of sympathy exists between us. I understand and he feels that
-I understand. Oh, I am sure now that I can do good!
-
-
-MARCH 1.
-
-Well, little diary, you and I are going to return to Chicago Wednesday,
-back to our home and our work. I am not going to send Mr. Forsythe any
-word, but will surprise him by appearing in person at Mrs. Carter’s party
-Friday night I wonder how he will look and what he will say.
-
-
-MARCH 7.
-
-The last words I wrote the other night were, “I wonder how he will
-look, what he will say.” His face was a study, pleasure and surprise the
-dominant emotions. He said only three words as he clasped my hand in his.
-“Welcome home, Louise.” Louise! How he drew out the syllables. I never
-before realized that my name was musical. I asked him how all the family
-were and he said well and happy. Then he said Mrs. Forsythe was there and
-he wanted us to meet. She is lovely, and as they came up to me she was
-looking at him so fondly and proudly, I could see the devotion in her
-eyes. I couldn’t help feeling a sharp twinge of my conscience as I stood
-chatting to her, but I should not, for my intentions are the best, and if
-she knew all the circumstances she would commend me, I know.
-
-
-MARCH 16.
-
-Sister and I were among several guests at Mr. and Mrs. Forsythe’s box
-party last night and Robert managed to have the chair next mine, and
-when “the lights were dim and low” he found my hand and gave it a gentle
-squeeze and said, “I want to have a long talk with you soon, without fear
-of interruption, and I know of no way this can be had unless you meet me
-down town and take dinner with me.”
-
-I asked him if he thought it was right, and he said, “You know I would
-not ask you to do anything I thought was wrong.”
-
-So I have promised to go. I wonder what in the world he is going to tell
-me.
-
-
-MARCH 27.
-
-We had dinner at Rector’s at four o’clock today. Robert told me that he
-loved me. I was dumbfounded and must have shown it plainly. I asked him
-if he was in the habit of making love to young women. His lips quivered
-and he said, “I don’t blame you for being offended, but I swear to you
-that this is the first time I ever told a woman I loved her when I had
-not the right to do so. I am sorry, so sorry, I have told you, for I
-might have gone on suffering alone, and you would have never been the
-wiser, while now I have made you unhappy, too. Can you forgive me?”
-
-He leaned over toward me and looked into my eyes so eagerly for an
-affirmative answer that—well, how could I refuse forgiveness, and then,
-you know, my work must be considered.
-
-
-APRIL 2.
-
-Nell had an “All Fool’s” party last night, and such pranks as we played!
-Of course Robert was not there, because only the young people were there,
-and it seemed rather strange; in fact, I know I missed him, but this is
-only for you to know, my faithful. Mr. Ford was there and he is awfully
-nice, knows just what to do to make a girl comfortable. I am going to the
-opera with him tonight. I shall enjoy it immensely with him, I know.
-
-
-APRIL 14.
-
-O dear! Robert is jealous of Mr. Ford. He happened to be at the opera
-that night and saw us. He says he did not mean to be too observing, but
-that he loved me so well that he couldn’t keep his eyes off me, and that
-Mr. Ford must be in love with me, too, from the attention he bestowed
-upon me.
-
-
-APRIL 26.
-
-Florence has been here since the 15th on a shopping expedition and we
-have had no end of fun. She insists on my returning with her and so I
-think we will go, you and I.
-
-
-MAY 15.
-
-Have been here two weeks and had a wire today from Robert. He will be
-here the 17th, to remain a few days. I am just wondering what I can do
-with Mr. Ford while he is here, for I shall have to devote every minute
-to Robert, and that won’t please Mr. Ford very well. Oh, dear! I’m always
-getting my wires crossed.
-
-
-MAY 17.
-
-I met Robert at the train today and before I could say a word he had put
-his arm around me and kissed me, right on the lips. His first kiss, May
-17th.
-
-
-MAY 20.
-
-Robert was here tonight and Florence had gone to the theater, we were
-left alone. He took me in his arms and kissed me again and again and
-every kiss thrilled me like an electric shock. I felt the blood tingling
-to the ends of my fingers. I never felt so strange in my life. I pulled
-away from him as soon as I could, but, oh, those kisses. They seemed to
-intoxicate me. I felt as if I had been transported to Elysian fields,
-and could die happy right there with my lips pressed to his. We had such
-a nice visit. He says I am his guiding star, and that everything has
-gone better since he knew me. I told him that he must never forget his
-wife and he assured me that he would not, could not when he had such a
-sweet reminder, even if she were not always so good and kind. He said,
-too, that she could not satisfy the longings in his soul which had been
-there for years, until he met me. That a man must have love, sympathy and
-encouragement to fill his life and make it complete.
-
-
-JUNE 4.
-
-I had a telegram from New York this morning. It was from Robert asking me
-to meet him there. I—shall I go or shall I not?
-
-
-JUNE 6.
-
-I have decided to go. I had some shopping to do anyway, and I can do
-better there than here or in Chicago.
-
-
-JUNE 10.
-
-When I arrived here, Robert had a beautiful suite of rooms engaged for me
-at the Fifth Avenue Hotel. He told me more about his life at home, and
-its deficiencies, and that his health was failing him. I am dreadfully
-worried about him, he looks badly. I wonder what I ought to do? If she
-only knew how he felt and that she was the cause of it, she might do
-differently, but it is such a delicate matter, I am afraid to interfere.
-I pity him so much. He is coming to see me tonight. He has said no word,
-but the hungry look in his eyes speaks to my heart more forcibly than
-words. He will take me in his arms again tonight, and once more I shall
-feel the thrill when our lips meet in one long kiss, and maybe I shall
-say, “Robert, take me for your own, if it will restore you to health.”
-
-
-JUNE 12.
-
-Robert came. We talked over the whole matter. I asked him if there was
-anyone else in his life. He said _no_! That he had never loved anyone but
-me. Then—then, I put myself in his arms and said, “Robert, take me!” He
-said, “Little girl, are you sure you want to make the sacrifice?” I said,
-“Yes.” I gave myself willingly for pity’s sake, not for love, because I
-do not love him. Then our compact was sealed with a kiss. Our lips met,
-and soon I was all his.
-
-How can I entrust this to you, my silent friend? How can I sully your
-white pages with a relation of my conduct. The world would call me bad if
-it knew. I should not be the highly respected Louise Montgomery, that I
-have always been, and all because I have chosen to bring happiness to one
-who was dying for love.
-
-I wonder if I can go back to the old scenes and feel the same; feel
-that I am worthy to mingle with the old friends. Yet why should I feel
-thus? If anyone is wronged it is I. It must be the imaginings of a
-super-sensitive conscience, or the result of early training which makes
-me feel unworthy. I wonder what our Rector would say if he could look
-down into my heart and see; can it be possible that there are others in
-our set who are as guilty—I must not think it, much less write it. But
-after all, I do not regret. I have made a sacrifice for a worthy cause.
-
-
-JUNE 30.
-
-Back home again and getting ready to go away for the summer. Have seen
-Robert three times since I returned, and we seem to grow nearer and
-dearer to each other.
-
-
-JULY 10.
-
-Petoskey never seemed one-half so beautiful to me as it does this season.
-Even the people are nicer. The men are kind and attentive but towering
-over and above them all, I can see the face of the one man I love. Yes,
-little diary, I love him now, he has woven himself into my very nature
-even in this short time. “I could not forget you, dear Robert, if all
-these men were kings and princes, for you are my prince and my king. Your
-dear letters are such a comfort to me, and I am so happy in your love,
-even though I know there is no future.”
-
-How I miss him! It is always he who thinks of the little things that go
-to make up a woman’s life.
-
-
-JULY 31.
-
-My sweetheart is coming today. I am counting the hours. Just three hours
-and twenty minutes and I shall be with him once more. What a perfect day
-this. Nature seems to reflect my joy.
-
-
-AUGUST 1.
-
-We are going for a long drive today, through the fragrant pine woods. We
-will be alone for the first time since he came. I can feel those dear
-arms about me, those full, soft lips on mine, even now.
-
-
-AUGUST 14.
-
-Robert is going today, and with him goes the brightness. We have had
-such a glorious two weeks of constant companionship. We will be reunited
-soon, though, for he is going up into Canada to find a quiet, country
-home where we can spend the best month of the whole year—beautiful, hazy
-October. I am supposed to be going to New York.
-
-“Oh, what a tangled web we weave, when first we practice to deceive.”
-
-
-SEPTEMBER 3.
-
-Florence is here and I have taken her into my confidence, not from
-choice, but because it seemed necessary. I am sure she loves me just as
-well as before, but she says it is wrong, all wrong. That I am making the
-greatest mistake of my life; that no man is worthy of the sacrifice, and
-that in time, even though he is true now, he will weary of me. Ugh! “She
-made me to shudder and grow sick at heart.” But I do not believe it. Is
-he not my “Roumald,” I his “Clarimonde”? How many times he has said, “To
-know you is to know all women.” And that satiety itself I set on fire.
-
-
-SEPTEMBER 30.
-
-At last, at last! I leave on the North-West today for the “Soo,” where
-Robert joins me, and together we go to Collinwood, on Georgian Bay.
-
-He found a beautiful country home near there, which is ideally quiet and
-overlooks the Bay.
-
-
-OCTOBER 2.
-
-We are on our way. Oh, the joy of this trip, the perfect contentment.
-Robert’s face has been radiant with happiness all day. When I see him
-in his strength, and manly beauty, enjoying God’s choicest gift, good
-health, and know that I am the cause, should I not rejoice?
-
-
-OCTOBER 16.
-
-What an ideal spot! It beggars description. We are so happy. Sometimes we
-stroll together through the woods, where the warm tinted Autumn leaves
-make a soft carpet for our feet. When we tire, we sit down and he reads
-to me by the hour. What a beautiful world! I never dreamed of such tender
-solicitude as he shows me in every action. At night if I stir or murmur
-in my sleep, he awakens me by drawing me closer to his heart and saying,
-“What is it, pet, are you in pain?” I laugh at him and tell him he must
-not be so foolish. He says in reply that he loves me every minute of the
-day and night, that his thoughts are filled with me, whether waking or
-sleeping, and that he loves to waken me for he is sure of two soft arms
-stealing around his neck in a warm embrace, and two red lips seeking his.
-
-
-NOVEMBER 1.
-
-Oh, dear! It is all ever, this, the very happiest month of my life. As
-we were about to leave the room where we have been so happy for the last
-time, he clasped me to his breast and sobbed like a baby and I wept
-with him. Oh, dear! how can I ever give him up again to those to whom he
-belongs?
-
-
-NOVEMBER 6.
-
-At home once more. I am so lonely and desolate. Little diary, I wonder if
-this is punishment. Yet, if I have done no wrong, why should I think this
-is punishment?
-
-
-NOVEMBER 23.
-
-Dear God! If I might have been spared this great agony! Anything but
-this! My idol shattered and my heart broken. He was not true, and I
-trusted him so implicitly! How could he deceive me so? There was another
-woman who entered his life before he ever met me. She either heard or
-imagined that he had transferred his affections to me and came to me with
-all, asking me to give him up, because he is all she has in the world.
-She has no home, no one to care for her and supply her wants as I have.
-How could he do it? How could he do it? Not quite a year. Oh, the agony
-of it!
-
-I went to him with her statement and he said it was true, but that
-he never loved her. I cannot believe him. I cannot believe anyone or
-anything now. I have no one I can tell. I must suffer all alone. Florence
-is the only one and I would die before I would tell her. My pride won’t
-allow me to admit his perfidy to anyone. I cannot bear to have the world
-think ill of him, even now. How can I live and bear it? I will not.
-I cannot. I will end it all. Goodbye, little diary, my only faithful
-friend. You, too, might have proved false had you the power. Goodbye.
-
-
-
-
-TALE TWO.
-
-THE LIFE STORY OF A SOUTHERN WIDOW.
-
-NOT QUITE THE SAME.
-
- “Not quite the same the springtime seems to me,
- Since that sad season when in separate ways
- Our paths diverged. There are no more such days
- As dawned for us in that last time when we
- Dwelt in the realm of dreams, illusive dreams;
- Spring may be just as fair now, but it seems
- Not quite the same.”
-
-
-“Ah, good evening, Mr. Philmore! I have been expecting you. Have this
-chair, please.”
-
-As I took the proffered seat I gazed steadily at my hostess. A woman
-in possession of all her natural charms, a picture of health, a vision
-of grace and an example of nobility. Time had softened her features;
-the sweetness of childhood had grown tenfold in the process of matronly
-perfection. The erectness of carriage, the finely traced features, the
-shapely hand and dainty foot, so highly arched, denoted the purest type
-of refinement, while no artist conceived more graceful curves than those
-which were so plainly noticeable as one ran one’s eyes from head to feet;
-gowned in some soft, clinging black silk, the contour of her figure was a
-feast for the eyes of gods. The soft, dulcet tones in which she plainly
-articulated, were of sufficient sweetness to attract one to her if that
-were the only charm which she could bring to bear.
-
-Nothing had been left undone in the furnishing of the elegant house in
-which she lived; rich draperies adorned the walls, tapestry of the rarest
-quality fittingly relieved the handsome oriental rugs and handsomely
-frescoed ceilings. Potted plants placed here and there sent out such a
-fragrant odor that it was almost impossible for one to believe that it
-was midwinter and that the mercury hovered uncomfortably near zero. The
-bric-a-brac and pictures were so well selected and artistically arranged
-that one could readily see the rare good taste and culture which was a
-dominant feature in the appointment of the entire establishment. The
-cheeriness seemed to add a halo to the surroundings; the perfect harmony
-with which all things were blended seemed to soften one’s nature to a
-sense of responsibility toward things infinite.
-
-Large, liquid brown eyes rested softly on me, and the satiny complexion
-of Mrs. Penway glowed with such a beaming radiance of congeniality that
-despite her forty or more years, I felt as though I were basking in the
-sunshine of youthful smiles. Coupled with all the beauty and symmetry
-there was a distinct imprint of sadness on her features, which was
-readily detected. They were not the hardened lines which denote misery
-and want as associates to suffering, not the expression of hardship, but
-rather that “resigned to duty” look.
-
-After commenting on the weather and general topics of the day I came to
-the point by asking Mrs. Penway if she had her narration written.
-
-“No; I think, Mr. Philmore, that I shall recite the incidents to you as
-they transpired and ask you to be kind enough to arrange the statement
-into sentences best suited to your purpose.”
-
-“Very well, I will do the best I can to tell the tale in a readable
-manner.”
-
-“To begin with, I am a native of Southern Missouri. My parents being
-Scotch, I feel that my ancestry is traceable through a long line of
-descendants. My father was engaged in the lumber business. It was his
-custom to buy large tracts of timber land, then placing his mill at
-convenient points he would proceed to convert all the available timber
-into marketable lumber. Money proved to be the blessing and curse, which
-was eventually the cause of more suffering than one cares to bear.
-
-“Years ago my father purchased a body of land in Arkansas, covering an
-area of twelve thousand acres. In the transaction he became financially
-involved to such an extent that he was compelled to go for assistance
-to some of the large dealers to whom he was in the habit of selling the
-greater part of his output. At this call for aid a man came to our home
-to talk the matter over. He had the appearance of being a man of fifty
-years of age; he was wealthy, very wealthy; he remained there for ten
-days, during which time he seemed to grow very fond of me as a child and
-would often pat me on the head, coaxingly calling me his little girl.
-
-“After he had gone, I overheard my parents talking. Father said, ‘Well,
-that is a load off my mind.’ ‘And one off mine,’ said my mother. Then
-she broke down and cried. Between the sobs I could gather but little.
-However, I heard her say, ‘I know she will never be happy.’
-
-“I had not the slightest idea to whom she referred. Next morning she
-called me to her. ‘Dear,’ she said, ‘you are going away.’
-
-“‘Oh, where to?’ I cried in my childish delight and anticipation of
-travel.
-
-“Noting my eagerness and mistaking it for joy at leaving home, my mother,
-with tears streaming down her dear white face, said, ‘Are you happy to
-think of it?’
-
-“‘No, not that, mother,’ said I, ‘but I should like to see and learn of
-things which I have heard so much about and have known so little.’
-
-“‘Well, dear, you are to go away from us and go into school. We, your
-father and I, have concluded that it is best.’
-
-“‘But mamma, won’t that cost a great deal of money?’
-
-“‘Yes, but your father now has his affairs in shape so that he can afford
-to educate you.’
-
-“As my mother finished this last sentence a fresh torrent of tears sprang
-from her eyes. It was all a mystery to me, for I had known of my father’s
-difficulties; I could not understand the sudden turn of affairs. I
-quickly resolved upon a plan which would at least enlighten me; there was
-in the employ of my father a young man by the name of Landrie Grayson,
-everyone called him ‘Lannie.’ He was a trusted man of affairs; things
-which other men were never consulted upon were always brought to Lannie
-for his advice. Lannie could explain to me the cause of this sudden
-resolution on the part of my parents.
-
-“Lannie stood quite six feet tall, while his broad shoulders looked as
-though he could carry with ease and grace the burdens which might quickly
-crush other men out of all semblance of humanity. If his blue eyes were
-tender, they were only a relief from the firmly set jaws, which plainly
-said, ‘I will,’ without so much as a movement of the rather thin lips. I
-knew that Lannie would know and tell me, for he was honest; he had been
-in the family for years; I had learned to lean upon him as a brother,
-and as I sought him out from among the whirling pullies, singing saws,
-and swiftly crawling belts that day, I felt proud to think that I had at
-different times during my infancy sat on one of those square shoulders or
-clung tenaciously to that sinewy neck, as Lannie had waded through slough
-and brush, taking me from place to place in the forest; he had killed
-the snakes and chased away the wild boars that would so frighten me in
-childhood, and when young squirrels were susceptible to capture he would
-always keep the cage well filled with every known variety with which the
-woods abounded. If Lannie was the strong rod on which I learned to lean,
-wherein was I to blame?
-
-“Lannie saw me as I wistfully watched and waited, then giving some orders
-(for he was papa’s foreman), he came to where I was standing and said,
-‘What is it, Ailene?’
-
-“‘Lannie, I want to tell you something.’ I think the tremor of my
-childish voice impressed Lannie, for he asked me to go to the office, a
-rough affair, but there were chairs there, and we could be alone and
-away from the clanging saws and flying dust.
-
-“‘Now tell me what it is, little one,’ said Lannie, as he closed the
-door and took up a handful of curls which had crowded out from under the
-gingham bonnet which I wore.
-
-“‘Lannie, I am going away,’ said I.
-
-“‘I know it,’ replied Lannie.
-
-“‘You; who told you?’
-
-“‘I heard the bargain.’
-
-“‘Bargain; what’s that, Lannie?’
-
-“‘I heard your father say that you could go.’
-
-“‘Oh, did you hear him tell mamma?’
-
-“‘No, I heard him tell the old man with the white side whiskers.’
-
-“‘Do you know where I am going to, Lannie?’
-
-“‘I only know that you are going away to school; the rich old man is to
-select the place and you are to be sent there, and⸺’
-
-“Lannie turned to the window without finishing the sentence. Presently he
-resumed his speech again by asking if I was glad. I did not know what the
-change in Lannie’s voice meant then, but I could not fail to notice it.
-
-“‘Yes, I want to go and learn to be a lady, but—I—don’t like to go away
-and leave mamma and⸺’
-
-“‘And who, Ailene?’
-
-“‘You, Lannie. I will be lonely with a whole lot of dressed up children
-and mean old teachers around.’
-
-“Before I had closed my sentence Lannie had drawn me to him and was
-kissing me fondly.
-
-“‘Oh, little girl, you don’t know how much Lannie will miss you, and to
-think I won’t see you any more.’
-
-“‘Why, Lannie, why do you say that? I won’t stay always.’
-
-“‘No, but you see, little one, the rich man wants you for his own; he is
-only waiting for you to be educated and grow into full womanhood. Then
-you are to be his.’
-
-“‘Hasn’t he any little girls of his own?’
-
-“‘No, you poor dear, you don’t know what I mean; what it all means.’
-
-“‘No, tell me, Lannie, for if it is not nice and good I don’t want to do
-anything but just stay here.’
-
-“‘Well, it’s this, Ailene; may God grant that you will forgive me for
-disturbing your young heart, but your father came near losing all he had.
-He applied to a firm for financial aid; the old gentleman who was here
-furnished the much needed assistance under these conditions: That you be
-educated at his expense and then he will marry you for he has fallen in
-love with you.’
-
-“‘Oh, the ugly old thing! I don’t want to marry him. I hate him. I don’t
-want to marry anybody. I want to stay where you are,’ I cried.
-
-“‘Yes, dear, I know, but a great deal depends on you, for you were not to
-know it yet, and as I have been a witness to the contract and have been
-sworn to secrecy you must not tell anyone that you know.’
-
-“‘But I won’t go.’
-
-“‘Yes, pet, you must go and remember that you are only fifteen now; you
-are not expected to marry your father’s benefactor until you are nineteen
-or twenty, changes may take place before the time arrives for you to
-give up all hope.’
-
-“It was a sad leave taking for more than me; I shall never forget the
-pained expression in my mother’s face and the stern, sad look of my
-father as I waved my hand from the car window.
-
-“Lannie had carried a little basket of luncheon to the station for me,
-and when I opened it on the train late that afternoon I found a handful
-of wild flowers wrapped in a piece of the “Lumberman’s Journal,” which I
-knew Lannie to be a regular subscriber of; there under the glass cover
-are those same flowers, withered and faded beyond recognition, but the
-sweet memory which clings to them makes them more precious to me than all
-the blossoms this world contains.
-
-“I had four years of school life with everything that money could buy,
-kind friends, pleasant surroundings and indulgent teachers.
-
-“But oh, how I longed for mother, for the woods, the vines and moss, the
-whirr of saws, and the scream of the mill whistle and for Lannie. Oh, for
-one hour in the tangled forest with strong, brave Lannie would have paid
-me for all the suffering which I had to bear.
-
-“At last the day arrived when Lannie’s reckoning proved correct; my
-father and Mr. Penway came to visit me at school; they quickly told me
-what the plans were, and for me to go on with a repetition of the details
-would only bore you. Mr. Penway made love to me in a manner that I then
-supposed was perfectly correct, but I have since been led to believe
-that his manner courtship was stereotyped, but it made no difference. I
-was the price of a home and a fortune, I saw it all; if I refused, my
-father’s years of labor would be lost, and he would be penniless and my
-mother homeless. I felt as though children were brought into the world
-much the same as horses, cattle and hogs, that a fixed sum might be
-realized on them.
-
-“We were married in a hotel in St. Louis. All of the luxuries were
-supplied, gowns of rarest and most exquisite texture, and as I rudely
-told one of my bridesmaids, every article was there which is needed at a
-first class funeral except the casket and hearse.
-
-“Music, ushers with stately tread, presents and flowers, great clusters
-of potted plants, waving ferns, roses, pure white lilies, narcissus,
-orange blossoms, loads of each, in full view; yes, and wrapped in a
-bit of white silk, nestled inside my clothing next to my heart, were a
-handful of withered wild flowers, which during four years had kept fresh
-in my memory.
-
-“We went to Europe, spent the winter in sunny Italy. At times I did
-imagine I was happy, then the ghost of something, I knew not what, arose
-before me and all I could see was a contract, wherein so many dollars
-in hand paid, had been exchanged for a human form, which was so like
-ice that the purchaser could only gaze on his possession with a feeling
-that he, at least, got it first hand, without it ever having been placed
-on the bargain counter. I had no conception of what married life was,
-and I fear my husband was a poor teacher. Many fine pictures and rare
-ornaments found their way into the great pile of treasures and relics
-which we gathered with no thought of cost. Mr. Penway was a connoisseur,
-but not a lover. He was proud of me. I was introduced to many of the
-noble families; I was catered to by those whose station in life was
-apparently so far above me that I shuddered when I thought of a saw mill.
-We returned from our trip abroad, only to be ushered into a house of
-magnificence; that is, so far as grandeur was concerned. Servants to do
-my bidding, carriages at my command; all, everything that money could
-buy, but not one bit of love; not a word of that soul sustaining love.
-
-“One year of this, and Mr. Penway was called to Europe again, this time
-on business. I had been in regular correspondence with my parents, and
-they insisted on my coming home for a visit during Mr. Penway’s sojourn
-abroad. I went and for the first time in nearly six years met Lannie.
-My first impulse was to throw myself into his arms, regardless of the
-presence of my parents, but I managed to control myself. However, during
-my stay there, I naturally roamed in the woods, through the mills; in
-that way saw much of Lannie. Dear old Lannie. With the same clock-like
-regularity he performed his duties; the same broad shoulders and the
-same tender blue eyes. If time had wrought changes in him, it was for
-the better. He seemed so mature with the full soft beard that covered
-his face. His words were all uttered in kindness. I asked my parents
-about him, and they told me how he had applied himself to my father’s
-interests, not losing a day from the confining duties of business and
-labor; in fact, he was the mainstay. If the head sawyer was sick or off
-duty, Lannie laid the master hand on the lever and the saws and the
-dust flew as the lumber piles grew higher and higher. If the engineer
-or fireman was absent, it was Lannie’s touch that put the machinery
-in motion, and his willing hands that heaved the great slabs into the
-furnace to make the steam. If any of the little colony were sick and
-needed attention, it was Lannie who kept the lonely vigil through the
-dark and solemn hours of blackest night, and when morning came he, mighty
-as the sun, shone all day, beaming with good nature; and when (as was
-often the case) the fever so prevalent in the swamps claimed a victim, it
-was Lannie’s gentle hands that folded the arms across the quiet breast
-and closed the staring eyes. It was his soothing, reassuring words which
-brought comfort to the poor mother whose heart bled in sorrow for her
-darling child; it was Lannie who would put his great, strong arms around
-the father and husband, as the clods fell with that sickening thud on
-the rough box that contained all that was left of the dearest treasure
-they had ever known; again, it was Lannie who took into his arms the
-fatherless children and told them that the father of all was God. In
-this way Lannie had lived, pouring out the generous love of his great
-warm nature, while I—Ugh! I shudder to think of it. I had been encased
-in a sheet of ice trying to freeze my emotion, trying to smother my
-heart throbs, lest, like some wild beast which in search of freedom and
-prey, plunges through the iron bars of its cage, it would bound through
-my breast, tearing and breaking the cords and crushing the coat of mail
-beyond repair.
-
-“Is it any wonder that that very thing occurred? Are you surprised to
-learn that my poor, heavy, tugging heart was torn by force from the
-delicate tendrils and with one wild plunge left the enclosure which it
-had so long occupied? With a suddenness born of despair, I packed and
-left, no one knew why, and I was too proud and self-reliant to tell.
-
-“I arrived home only to undergo days of torture and nights of sobbing
-misery. In about a week after my arrival I had a letter from my mother
-saying that Lannie was going to leave them. He had, by his frugal
-methods, saved a tidy sum, and, true to the teachings of the lumber camp,
-had invested in a tract of land, which at the time of purchase was almost
-valueless, but recently a railroad had been surveyed and was now being
-built through his broad acres, and Lannie was a rich man. He was coming
-to Chicago to buy machinery and set up in business of his own, and of
-course Lannie had been so good and nice always that he seemed just like
-one of the family, and if it was not too much trouble and embarrassment
-to have a countryman around, it would be nice for me to ask Lannie to
-spend a part of the time during his stay in the city at my house, etc.
-
-“Oh, joys of Heaven and earth! Lannie here, and in my house. Oh, Lannie,
-Lannie! We can be all alone—with that thought some horrible, creeping
-feeling seized me and I was soon dripping with cold perspiration. Horrors
-upon horrors! No—no, I could never do that. The fury of Hell would be
-visited upon me, just as sure as that temptation was put before me. What
-could I do? For the first time since I was married I prayed. I asked God
-to give me strength of mind and body to direct me as I should go. After
-that I grew calmer, called my maid, instructed her to write my mother and
-tell her that I had concluded to sail for Liverpool and join Mr. Penway.
-Then we hurriedly began to pack. To get away—get away, run, fly, anything
-to escape that which was bound to overtake me if I stayed, was the only
-thought of my mind.
-
-“Luncheon was served early. The train for New York left at three p.m.
-I would have time to send a cablegram to Mr. Penway, buy a few little
-trifles and then as fast as steam could carry me I would go from the gulf
-which seemed about to swallow me.
-
-“I had just left the dining room, as the bell rang. The butler announced
-a gentleman. I felt a pallor spread from my face to my neck; my breast
-felt clammy; the flesh on my arms seemed to crawl; my usually plump hand
-looked pale and thin, as I tremblingly took the card. My voice frightened
-me as I said ‘Not in’ to the waiting statue of ebony, at the same time
-tossing the little card onto a table without looking at it. It went short
-of the mark and as it fluttered to the floor turned over, my eyes were
-fastened on the name, ‘Landrie Grayson.’
-
-“Fever drove away the chill which had almost overcome me. No, no! I could
-not do it! It was just as impossible for me to turn Lannie away then as
-it is now to bring him back. With a bound, I was in the hall; the next
-leap put me alongside the stately, marching figure in livery; a dash and
-I was pulling and tugging at the great door, then I looked into those
-honest eyes of blue.
-
-“‘I thought I would call on you, Ailene,’ said Lannie, as we entered the
-drawing room.
-
-“‘Yes, Lannie, it was so good of you to come; and now, Lannie, you must
-be hungry. It is high noon, as you used to say,’ and without further ado
-I rang and ordered dinner served at once, for I knew that the people at
-home always had twelve o’clock dinner. That dinner was the best I ever
-tasted in my life. How I changed in a few moments from a dull, heavy
-hearted creature of nervous misery, back to the old happy stage of
-girlhood. We had dinner, and I did not send my baggage away.
-
-“When Lannie explained to me that he was stopping at a hotel, I said:
-‘Lannie, you cannot stay at a hotel in Chicago; you must make this your
-home.’
-
-“‘No, Ailene, I will be busy, and could not think of putting you to any
-inconvenience.’
-
-“‘But, Lannie, please do stay here. I am⸺’ I did not finish my sentence.
-I don’t think Lannie knew what I was about to utter. If he did know that
-I was on the point of telling him that I was alone, he paid no attention
-to it. Again that nightmare overcame me; I was speechless. Lannie thought
-I was hurt or offended because he refused my hospitality.
-
-“‘I’ll tell you what I’ll do, Ailene,’ he said. ‘We will go to some
-theater tonight. I will spend tomorrow evening here with you and then we
-will plan for the other days that I am to remain in the city.’
-
-“In spite of the fact that some of my dearest friends and members of the
-same social circle in which I moved attended the play that night and
-indulged in not a little whispering and smiling as they turned their
-eyes on us, I was proud. If Lannie did appear a little out of place, he
-was dear, true Lannie, just the same. The spirit which I knew to be
-encased in that noble character made up for all deficiencies in dress
-and manners. Each act was well received by the vast audience. As for me,
-the most interesting time of the performance was between acts, for it
-was then I could talk to Lannie and hear his voice. I saw little of the
-actors, for I was busy feasting my eyes on my companion. I studied his
-eyes, his face, and his feelings as he drank in the scenes which were
-enacted to the strains of music. That night my dreams were fraught with
-visions of strong men, happy children and contented women.
-
-“The next day dragged slowly enough, but at last, with happy delight,
-I welcomed the hour of Lannie’s coming. We dined, I played and sang,
-Lannie told me of all the things that had transpired since I had left
-the forest. At eleven o’clock Lannie arose to go, all too soon for me. I
-begged him to stay; I laid my hand on his arm and looking straight into
-his strong, clear face, said: ‘Lannie, oh, Lannie, don’t you know that I
-love you? Can’t you see that I am dying to be taken into your arms and
-receive that strong yet tender embrace which I know awaits the woman you
-love?’
-
-“Poor Lannie! He was dumfounded; he was white as death; not a muscle
-moved, not a word from those firm set lips; just a tender, pleading look
-from the eyes which I loved so well.
-
-“‘Lannie, speak to me,’ I cried. ‘Oh, dearest, give me some relief, say
-some kind word to me or I shall surely die.’ I threw myself into his
-arms. I pulled him down onto the divan and clung to him as though my
-life depended upon it. Oh, the emotion of the soul! I sometimes think
-that if the world knew what a woman must suffer at such times, it would
-not be so unkind. I was wild, and when Lannie freed his hands from my
-passionate clutch and tenderly lifted me from my knees to a position
-beside him, my joy knew no bounds. Oh, to think that he had once again
-taken me in his arms. Having gotten me to a position which seemed to
-please him, he put his dear face to mine and kissed me. The flight
-of time has never erased the memory of that thrill. Love, devotion,
-strength, happiness, all, all I say, went surging through me like an
-avalanche. ‘More, more, Lannie,’ I cried, and forgot all suffering as
-I, in my reclining position, could see the shadow of his great form as
-he bent over me again. I felt his burning lips on my brow, my cheek, my
-lips twitched in their feverish desire to be blessed with that lingering
-caress which is so soothing, yet so maddening. I think I must have
-fainted, for when I opened my eyes, Lannie was gone.
-
-“Next day I received a note from him saying good-bye, and that he would
-not call again. A tigress is not easily held at bay. My blood was
-aroused; my soul was fired. The lava was molten in the volcano and must
-find its way through the crest, no matter how many souls perished in the
-flood of fire. I was wild, methodically wild, and so determined was I in
-my purpose that I wrote him a note saying:
-
- “‘_Dear Lannie_:
-
- “‘This leaves me sick abed; please come to me. Oh, Lannie, do;
- I need you so much.
-
- “‘YOUR OWN AILENE.’
-
-“I went to my room, had my maid dress my hair carefully, then retired.
-Moments seemed as hours; hours as days. I was feverish and delirious.
-My maid insisted on calling a physician, but I would not hear to it. I
-gave orders to be left alone. The breeze fanned the lace curtains at
-the windows in a merry ripple; the soft mellow light of the setting sun
-shed a glow of golden hue throughout the room. My temples throbbed, my
-pulse fluttered, my eyes burned, as I bravely battled to kill time.
-Then the thought: What if he should not come? Cold sweat took the place
-of parching fever, and so I passed the early evening, going from one
-paroxysm to another. At last the bell rang, then that voice as I heard
-Lannie say, ‘Thank you,’ to the maid as she opened the door. My clean
-white gown was badly rumpled, my well dressed hair was in a confusion of
-disorder from the feverish tossing of the day, but I forgot all that; I
-forgot my appearances, feelings, manners, everything, only that Lannie
-was with me again. As he bent over my bed with anxious questions, I was
-quite happy. Suddenly reaching out my arms, I clasped them around his
-neck. Oh, the holy emotions, the rage of my love knew no master. I clung
-to him; he tried to free himself, but no, no! I would rather have died
-than give him up. Great, strong Lannie of Herculean strength, one who
-could have held a horse, or felled an ox by a blow of his strong right
-arm; one who could withstand the ravages of pestilence and disease; one
-on whom weak men looked with that feeling of admiration born of awe; one
-whose strength, broad judgment, and kindly temperament made him easily
-the master of any and all situations. But with all his bravery and
-fortitude, all his battles, all his years of duration, he had never been
-called upon to wage war upon a woman whose soul was starving for the
-loving caress, which is so dear to a lonely heart. He was as wax in my
-hands, as I clutched him fiercely yet fondly. ‘Oh, Lannie, Lannie! say
-that you love me,’ I cried, all the time raining kisses on his dear face,
-while he acquiesced in mute silence. With his eyes dilated, his nostrils
-distended, his lips drawn and white, he fought the silent battle which
-led to his defeat. In his years of physical building he had never been
-called upon to withstand the onslaught which I now brought to bear upon
-him; he had never been drilled in the tactics necessary to repel the
-attacks of passion. I could see my victory coming; the light of his eyes
-told me that the world was fast melting away. Then suddenly he clasped me
-to his dear self, saying, ‘Oh, Ailene, what is it? Why can I not go away
-from you? Yes, little girl, I love you, I love you.’
-
-“‘Kiss me, Lannie. There, dear; yes, that is right, Lannie! Hold me in
-your arms. Now, dearest, we are happy.’
-
-“Then, while tears of joy dimmed my eyes, in the madness of passion, my
-future was molded. As the poisonous little reptile stings the lion, who
-is king of the forest, and causes him to writhe in death’s agony, so
-did the lecherous fangs of passion fasten themselves into poor Lannie’s
-pure, white soul, sending the venomous poison into a heretofore healthful
-system.
-
-“If I could but live that hour over again. If I erred the sin was
-tempered with love.
-
- “I know, in the way that sins are reckoned,
- This thought is a sin of the deepest dye;
- But, I know, too, if an angel beckoned,
- Standing close by the throne on high,
- And you a-down by the gates infernal,
- Should open your loving arms and smile,
- I would turn my back on things supernal,
- To lie on your breast a little while,
- To know for an hour you were mine completely.
- Mine in body and soul, my own—
- I would bear unending tortures sweetly,
- With not a murmur and not a moan.”
-
- —_Wilcox._
-
-“Lannie went away. Our parting was like the clinging vine being torn from
-the stone wall. In ten weeks my husband arrived home. Ten days later he
-was the victim of a railroad accident and I was left a widow. I waited
-and longed for the love of my life, to take his place beside me, but
-Lannie did not come. At last, in sheer desperation, I wrote him. This was
-his answer:
-
- “‘_Dear Friend_:
-
- “‘I am pained to write you as I shall, but you cannot expect me
- to come to you. You know my ideas of purity so well, that I am
- surprised to be asked to call. I do love you, always have, and
- shall continue to do so, but I fear the sweetness of our love
- has been blighted by the madness of folly. This little verse is
- very expressive, I think:
-
- “A flower I feign would pluck today,
- From the garden above her dust,
- Not the pure, white lily of soulless sin,
- Nor the blood-red rose of lust,
- But the blossom of holy love.”
-
- “‘I shall always be interested in your welfare and shall ever
- seek to do you good. Yours devotedly,
-
- “‘LANNIE.’
-
-“The blow was cruel, but ‘As a man soweth, so shall he also reap.’ The
-same applies to women.
-
-“The next important event of my life was the announcement of the
-insolvency of my husband’s estate. He had died leaving me penniless; even
-the holdings my father had placed with him as security for his loan were
-swept away into the chasm with the other unrecoverable assets.”
-
-“But you live well.”
-
-“Yes; that is all on account of Lannie. He seemed to know the condition
-of Mr. Penway’s finances, and it was a tract of land that Mr. Penway
-was forced to sell that Lannie bought. He built mills, homes for the
-men, a comfortable home for my parents on his land, and when the crash
-came, transferred them to it. Then he came to the city and arranged with
-an attorney that I should have an annuity and I must accept it, the
-conditions being that if I refused my mother and father would be asked to
-relinquish their home. He bought this house, he pays the bills and I dare
-not refuse until my parents have gone to their home above.”
-
- “Not quite the same am I. My inner being
- Reasons and knows that all is for the best.
- Yet vague regrets stir always in my breast,
- As my soul’s eyes turn sadly backward, seeing
- The vanished self that evermore must be
- This side of what we call eternity,
- Not quite the same.”
-
-
-
-
-TALE THREE.
-
-A STORY OF THE CHICAGO GHETTO.
-
-PUNISHMENT.
-
- “Nor custom, nor example, nor vast numbers
- Of such as do offend, make less the sin;
- For each particular crime a strict account
- Will be exacted; and that comfort, which
- The damn’d pretend, follows in misery,
- Takes nothing from their torments; every one
- Must suffer in himself the measure of his wickedness.”
-
- —_Massinger._
-
-
-The wind howled, then carrying with it bits of paper, flurries of snow
-and great quantities of smoke and soot, it seemed to sink into the
-darkness with a dismal moan, which resembled the wailing of some great
-wild beast in search of its mate.
-
-Shops with their dim lights, which looked like tiny sparks clinging
-to a black wall, lined the street; tin signs creaked and crashed like
-miniature thunder; small pieces of shutters flopped against the sides of
-the weather beaten houses, only to swing into the breeze with each fresh
-gust, there to quiver on their rusty hinges until a weird, screeching,
-grating sound denoted that age and elements were victors and one more
-piece of some antiquated structure had cast anchor and would soon be used
-to infuse warmth into the body of some poor, unfortunate dweller in the
-immediate vicinity. The uncertainty of the board walks in this locality
-caused the pedestrian, whose lot it was to venture here for the first
-time, to use great care in setting down and picking up his feet.
-
-Half-clad children were there; some with small and precious packages
-of edibles clutched tightly in their begrimed and reddened hands, some
-laboring with a plank, which on account of the frozen slush that stuck to
-it, made it twice their weight; some fighting and sprawling in the filth
-of the narrow street for the possession of a two-pound lump of coal, that
-had been jostled from a wagon, while many of them clung tenaciously to
-the threadbare, misfit garments in which they were clad, with an apparent
-fear that the wind would use the tattered rags in whipping them to death.
-The flickering rays of the few and irregular gas lamps which the city had
-placed at long intervals, did not add cheer to the locality; they only
-made it more possible for a stranger to realize to a greater extent the
-squalor which existed there.
-
-Such is a poorly drawn picture of the Ghetto of Chicago.
-
-When compared to the commodious home on the lake front, with its coils of
-pipes conducting steam into every nook and corner, making even the cellar
-a place of comfort, the rich rugs, the substantial furnishing of oak and
-mahogany, the bright lights, the dear little mother, the happy children,
-the music, pictures and flowers, the well filled larder and comfortable
-clothing we all enjoy, it is inclined to cause one to forget to complain.
-
-It was no pleasant task, but it was a duty. I have set out to tell the
-life story of twenty different women, and to get these stories from the
-lips of the principals, it behooves me to appear to them in person, even
-though at times I am compelled to freeze myself against all humanity;
-and, again, so stirred with pity and aroused with sympathy, that I have
-frequently come away from hovels with just enough change in my pockets
-for car fare home.
-
-This night, after searching for blocks and burning many matches in a vain
-endeavor to find the number which I had been given, I was led to the
-point of my investigation by an old man, who was on his way home from his
-day’s begging and peddling. He was a kindly Hebrew. “Dis is de blace,”
-said he, with an instinctive stretching out of the right hand, palm
-upward. “Bud, meester, I don’t tink dey vill be ad home,” he added, as I
-laid a half dollar in the still outstretched hand.
-
-“Ah, oh vait! I vill see for you.”
-
-With that he shambled around the side of the tumble-down house, while I
-stamped my feet on the frozen cinders to keep up circulation, all the
-time thinking the old man was correct, for there was no sign of life
-anywhere about the house. Finally he came back.
-
-“Yes, dey vas dere, but you see, meester, Saturday nights iss a bat time
-to found ’em home.”
-
-“Why?”
-
-“Oh, it iss a goot time to find tings; so many grocery wagons on de
-streets und der vas some stores vat gif de peebles de rotten cabbages,
-und abbles und lots of vilted tings. You see, meester, we haf a hard time
-to eat.”
-
-The old man was an artist. His eyes shone with that everlasting thrift
-so characteristic of his race, and somehow I could not get away without
-handing him another quarter. Then, receiving his instructions as to
-getting into the house, I took up that part of my labor. I managed to
-keep myself separated from the piles of ashes and tin cans until I
-reached a rear door. The house was on the corner and was a basement
-affair, the first part being brick up to the level of the street, from
-that on up to the top it was frame. The house had been built before the
-street was filled in, so that when that operation took place one side and
-one end of the brick wall, being the parts of the house that were exposed
-to the street, had become submerged in a mixture of old bricks, pieces of
-bottles, mud and other rubbish that was from time to time scraped off the
-business portion of the street.
-
-It was difficult to distinguish my hard and vigorous rapping from the
-violent rattle of the door. Finally I heard a sound as though something
-was being dragged across the floor, then the door was pulled half way
-open and I was asked to enter.
-
-A tin lamp with a badly smoked chimney (or rather part of a chimney,
-for a large hole in the side represented nearly one-third of the
-surface) caused flickering, gloomy shadows to move about the room; a
-rough pine box with shelves served for a cupboard, in which there were
-a few battered tin pans, some broken handled knives and bent forks; a
-pile of straw in the corner, with some soiled remnants of blankets and
-quilts served for a bed. The warmth of the room was furnished by a badly
-broken cook stove; pieces of wood and coal mixed, laid on the grate,
-while in the oven and on the top of the stove were frozen chunks of
-mud with small pieces of coal all through them; wood covered with snow
-and ice, which had been put there to thaw out, so as to be usable; the
-formation of the sizzling steam as the water ran from this store of
-fuel did nothing to add a pleasant odor to that which arose from the
-conglomeration of filth which had been gathered from street and alley and
-was being roasted until it should give up bits of coal, which were as
-rare and precious to the half frozen inmates of this hole in the ground,
-as the bright shining metal is to the gold miner as he sees his piles of
-quartz crushed in the process of separation.
-
-“Is this Mrs. Densmore?” I asked, as I shook the snow from my long ulster.
-
-“No, this ain’t Mis Dinsmore,” growled the voice of the woman who stood
-in front of me.
-
-“I am sorry,” said I, “for I wanted to find her very much.”
-
-“Well, I guess you won’t find her.”
-
-“Can you tell me where she is?”
-
-“No, an’ if I could I wouldn’t. What do you want of her, anyway? Hain’t
-she had enough trouble, without some new thing bobbin’ up?”
-
-“I fear you misunderstand me; I want to see her for her own good.”
-
-“Yes, I s’pose so. I know what you want and you won’t git her, neither.
-She’s all I got, an’ she loves me, if I am pore and miserable.”
-
-I expressed my surprise at her remarks and followed up with the assurance
-that I knew she was the object of my search, but I said:
-
-“If you will tell me where I can get something to eat, I will first
-satisfy the inner man, then I want to have a long talk with you.”
-
-“My Lord, man, you don’t spect to find nothin’ to eat here, do you? Fer
-if you do, sir, you’re much mistaken. In the first place this hain’t no
-hotel nor ‘caffey.’ Why, we hain’t had a square meal in three months;
-fact; not sence her monkey died.”
-
-“Whose monkey? Who is ‘her’?”
-
-“Oh, that’s it, eh? Well, I guess you know.”
-
-“No, indeed, I don’t know what you mean, but if you will tell me where to
-find something fit for a man to take into his stomach, I will go and eat
-and bring you something.”
-
-“Oh, will you? Well, jes’ go to the next corner south, turn to the
-left and you will find ‘Peggy Pete’s’ place; I guess you can git about
-anything you want.”
-
-Following her directions, I soon found myself in a shop where every
-conceivable thing that a man could think of, was kept for sale.
-A stenciled bill of fare occupied a conspicuous place above the
-oilcloth covered lunch counter, telling in detail what was ready to
-serve; everything from tripe, all along, including such delicacies as
-pickled pig’s feet, fried liver, wienerwursts and winding up with the
-announcement that hot soup could be obtained at ten cents per gallon.
-
-The proprietor was a one-eyed, one-legged man of fat and greasy
-proportions and when I ordered a pound of ham, three loaves of bread, a
-pound of butter, a dozen eggs, some coffee, and finished by calling for
-cream, he looked at me in a way that surely strained his one organ of
-vision.
-
-“Goin’ to eat it here?” he asked, as he limped around selecting the
-articles as I ordered them.
-
-“No, I will take them along.” At this information he shot a quick
-gleaming look at me, then hastily grabbing the packages off the counter,
-laid them back on the shelf safely out of my reach, as he said, “Anything
-else?”
-
-“Yes, I want you to make me a gallon of soup, good oyster soup, and put
-lots of oysters in it.”
-
-“Now look here, feller, you needn’t git smart,” said the robust and
-reddened merchant.
-
-Then, as he pointed to the sign, he added: “That means shank soup. You
-can’t come no shenanigan on me; if you want oyster soup, yew can have it,
-but it will cost yer fifty cents per gal.”
-
-“All right; I want it.”
-
-A wait of twenty minutes and the soup was ready.
-
-“Now, let me have some crackers, and how much do I owe you?” said I, as I
-slowly counted a few pieces of silver which I drew from my pocket.
-
-“A dollar forty,” said the man, as he reached out for the money with one
-hand, while the other rested affectionately on the little pile of bundles
-as they lay beside the gallon apple can into which he had poured the soup.
-
-“Come in again,” said he, as he saw me start to leave after putting six
-silver quarters into his hand and not waiting for change. Then a thought
-struck me.
-
-“Have you any lamp chimneys?”
-
-“Yes, good ones, too; fifteen, or two for a quarter.”
-
-“Give me two,” said I.
-
-“Guess your jist settin’ up housekeepin’, ain’t yer?” said Pete, as he
-hobbled ahead of me to open the door. Having noticed the landmarks, I
-found my way back without difficulty. If I lied when I told the woman
-that I had lunched at “Peggy Pete’s” it was my own lie and I will suffer
-for it.
-
-My first move was to place one of the glass cylinders on the lamp. The
-improvement in the light added a cheeriness, which was partly in keeping
-with the steaming oyster soup. With the better light I was able to obtain
-a more distinct view of the woman.
-
-Tall, dark and gaunt, her claw-like hands jerked nervously as she hastily
-unwrapped the packages. Her hair was black as a raven’s wing; her high
-forehead showed unmistakable signs of intelligence; the rest of her face,
-save the little piercing black eyes, which now and then flashed with joy
-and hunger, was horribly misshapen; a huge scar, as from a burn, covered
-one whole side of her face, while the other was so badly distorted by
-something of the same nature, which drew her mouth down and back so far
-on one side, that her molars were plainly visible. She was devoid of
-eyelashes and her brows only remained in spots. Yet, in spite of her
-surroundings, her uncouth language, her privations and want, a kindly
-light shone out of those eyes of ebony, as she said:
-
-“Man, I believe you’re all right; anyways you know about what a hungry
-one wants. This seems like old times,” she added, as she unrolled the
-generous slices of ham.
-
-No persuasion was needed to induce her to eat and I fully enjoyed the
-spectacle. The feast added much amiability to her versatile nature.
-
-Finally she said: “Lord, I wisht the kid was here.”
-
-“Who is the kid, tell me,” I said.
-
-“Maybe I will, sometime, but tell me, what did you want of Mrs. Densmore?”
-
-“I want you to tell me all about yourself.”
-
-“And honor bright, now, it ain’t the kid ye want?”
-
-“No, bless me, no; I don’t want anybody’s kid.”
-
-“Well, you see, it was this way: I married young, married a man who
-was as handsome as he was mean. I was considered a beautiful girl and
-he thought he loved me, but he was so jealous that he was miserable.
-We lived happy for two years. I may as well say right here that I had
-a sister who was a beautiful blonde, and I being dark we were a great
-contrast. I loved my sister so devotedly that when we discovered that
-sooner or later I would become a mother we asked her to come and live
-with us. She had a friend who called frequently, a perfect gentleman, but
-my husband grew so jealous and finally became so enraged that he drove
-him from the house. Then my sister left. The rest of the time, up to the
-birth of my child, I spent in tears. I was almost killed to think my
-husband would be so brutal and so ill treat my dear sister.
-
-“At last the little fairy came, and with her came more suffering and
-misery for me. My husband flew into a vicious rage, for my baby was a
-blonde, as perfect as an angel. My husband was neither light nor dark.
-My sister’s friend was light. My husband charged me with infidelity,
-disowned the child, and one day in a fit of anger, he threw her from me
-hurling her against a red hot stove. The burn caused a scar on her little
-back, which she carries to this day.”
-
-Great tears rolled down the scarred face and splashed on those long talon
-shaped fingers. Then, with a shiver, she continued:
-
-“The Bible says something about, if one marries a man to stick to him. My
-people all tried to get me to leave him, but woman-like I left them and
-my baby. I proposed to go where no one knew us and begin life over. He
-said if I would leave the ‘brat,’ he would go.
-
-“We came to Chicago, but the same bitter feeling still existed in him.
-The evil mind brooded and the heart became affected until our lives were
-the lives of beasts. He lost one position after another. He began to
-drink and beat me terribly. Oh, sir, I would have stood all that, if he
-had only loved me. I would have willingly starved for bread if my heart
-could have had one morsel on which it might be sustained.
-
-“Finally we took a large house and began to take roomers. We did well
-for a while; then things began to go wrong and he suggested that we rent
-rooms to people for immoral purposes. My soul revolted against it, sir;
-indeed it did, but I consented! Oh, sir, many’s the time I’ve cried when
-I would see some sweet faced girl come to our house, for, sir, I could
-not help thinking that some day my baby would grow up and she might
-become the prey of some vulture.”
-
-As she progressed with her narrative she dropped the uncouth language of
-the locality in which she lived. The hot soup and the light, together
-with the living over the better times, seemed to have taken her out of
-herself for the time being.
-
-“My husband drifted from one bad crowd of associates to another. At last
-he was arrested and convicted of stealing and was sentenced to the
-penitentiary. The disgrace which this brought upon me was so terrible
-that it overwhelmed me. I lost all respect for everything and everybody.
-I removed from the semi-respectable district into the more notorious and
-better advertised portion of the city, and became the landlady of one
-of the most notorious resorts of the day. I made many friends among the
-class into which this life had thrown me. I developed into a woman of
-beauty. I had fine clothes and precious gems; money came easily and was
-spent with a lavish hand. Still I maintained a business presence of mind
-which gained for my house a reputation of good order. One of the inmates
-of my place was a beautiful blonde. She was proud and set herself up as
-being the most bewitching woman in Chicago. She had a dear friend, a very
-wealthy man, who called on her with great regularity. One night, in a
-jest, he put his arm around me and remarked that he was tired of blondes,
-anyway. All the fury that God allowed one woman to possess, arose in that
-blonde when he said that. She swore and tore and raved like one possessed
-of demons. After that she and I quarreled often. I would not have taken
-her lover. I did not like him, but I could not get her to understand. It
-all ended by her forcing her friend to take a magnificent house next door
-to mine. It was lavishly furnished and I soon had a rival in business
-that made that quarter of Chicago more famous than ever.
-
-“One day I met her admirer on the street, the first time I had ever
-talked with him since the gun was fired which had kept me in an incessant
-battle. He told me many things that she had said of me, which, in
-addition to the insults she had heretofore heaped upon me, made me boil.
-
-“Eighteen years had passed since my heart had been transformed from the
-organ of anticipation to the soul of a young mother, and a woman can
-grow very hard in that time; she can nerve herself to do anything at
-anyone’s cost, in order to crush a rival. I forgot all the goodness I had
-ever known. I did not want this man myself, but I wanted to sting his
-inamorata so as to cause her the most intense pain and mortification. I
-proposed to him that if he would abandon this woman I would get him a
-nice young girl.
-
-“‘Agreed,’ said he, ‘I will do that and it won’t be long till you’ll have
-the business of the block all your way again, for when I turn the ‘old
-girl’ down, the whole gang will quit her house.’
-
-“With thoughts of revenge and the anticipation of an increased bank
-account, I began the search for a candidate for the position of mistress
-to my enemy’s friend. It did not take me long. I was on the train one
-day, when I met a young girl, beautiful, graceful, fresh, but sad. My
-practical eye soon sized up the situation and I made friends with her.
-She explained to me that she was coming to Chicago to seek a position.
-Then, slowly, but as surely as the snake coils itself around the
-helpless, bleating kid, so did I spin my web of Hell around her. ‘Now,’ I
-said, after I had made all arrangements, ‘I don’t want to know your real
-name, for I don’t like to lie if anyone should ask for you.’
-
-“Ha, ha! Only think of it, sir! I was too good to lie!”
-
-The wild glitter of the black eyes made me think of a snake, as the woman
-writhed and twisted and uttered her maniacal screeches.
-
-“Well, I brought her in, as the saying goes. I took her to the
-dressmaker’s and in a week’s time she was ready to show. I notified the
-man. That night the scenes of revelry and debauchery outdid all former
-efforts. Men and women sang and danced, wine flowed and money was spent
-in the most reckless manner. The little girl easily outclassed all
-others. The wine soon caused her to cast aside her modesty, which was
-a part of her, and she was the merriest one of the lot. It was three
-o’clock when I assisted the man to undress her and put her into the
-best bed in the house, then I left for my own room. Night after night
-these scenes followed. Great was my glee when a carriage would come down
-the street and boldly drive up to the door. I was so delighted that I
-became bold and proceeded to return some of my now unpopular neighbor’s
-taunts and jeers. It was no uncommon thing for men to bring strange
-women to my place, so I was not surprised when, one evening about nine
-o’clock, I saw a veiled woman alight from a carriage and come to my
-door. The maid announced, ‘A lady to see you, madame.’ I went forward,
-and just as I pulled the door open a hand shot out from under the long
-cape and I felt a blinding, burning sensation spread over my face. I
-ran inside. Everything that was convenient was applied, and when the
-doctor came he told me it was acid. That is how I got the scars. I went
-to the hospital. The little girl came to see me daily. She spent as
-much time with me as the nurses would allow and in that way we became
-deeply attached to each other. I put her in charge of my affairs, and by
-her sweet ways she won the esteem and admiration of all the girls. We
-had little trouble in tracing the acid thrower. Next morning after it
-occurred my unfriendly neighbor was found dead in her room. A note pinned
-to her pillow told all. She had done me, then drank poison.
-
-“I recovered; that is, so far as you can see, but I was too badly
-disfigured for publicity, so I left my entire place in the hands of the
-little girl and opened a home for women during confinement.
-
-“Things ran on this way for two years. I had many bright but wayward
-girls in my care during that time. The little girl’s visits were less
-frequent to me and I had not seen her for months, when she came to me one
-day and told me she was to become a mother. I took her in, of course, and
-the former resort was rented. The time arrived for her expected illness.
-The baby was a bright girl. The little mother hung between life and death
-for days. She, in her delirium, roamed everywhere, called many by name,
-and spoke of places she had known. One day during her ravings I attempted
-to arrange her bed more comfortably, and in order to do so was compelled
-to turn her over. I discovered that her back and shoulders were covered
-with a rash. I thought a tepid bath would be just the thing, so I slipped
-her gown down and laid bare her back. I saw a scar. Believe me or not,
-mister, that acid felt cooling on my face compared to the pain which now
-fired me within and without. My daughter! I was able to be up and around
-the house when she regained her senses. She asked for her baby. I don’t
-know why, but I lied to her. I was not too good to lie this time.”
-
-The gurgle which emitted from the woman’s throat at this juncture was a
-poor excuse for a laugh.
-
-“Yes, I lied; I told her it had died; and to think it was then in the
-nursery with several others, and the jolliest, cunningest one of the lot!
-
-“The little mother got well and strong and she got a good position and a
-man, a real man, fell heels over head in love with her, and now they are
-married. Now she has three sweet children.”
-
-“Do you ever see your daughter?”
-
-At this question the small black eyes snapped, and the haggard woman
-started.
-
-“Don’t say that, mister, please; ’cause nobody knows.
-
-“Yes, I see her twice a week. She has a beautiful home and for the sake
-of old times she has me come and clean her room twice a week. She says
-I do it so much better than her regular servants. Oh, mister, you don’t
-know how long and faithful I work in that room.”
-
-“And the other little girl; her first baby?”
-
-“Oh, the kid?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“Well, you see, I’m trying to raise her right, for now you see I know
-right from wrong. She is nearly ten. A year ago a drunken man came down
-here and brought a monkey. He mistreated it so that it bit him and broke
-away. It ran to the kid and nothing could get it to leave, so the man
-told her to keep it, and he took rather a fancy to her in his drunken way
-and took her up town and bought her an organ. From that on we lived real
-well, but during the first cold snap the fire went out one night and when
-we got up ‘Pranks’ was froze to death. Since then she has begged a ‘right
-smart.’”
-
-“Does she ever see her mother?”
-
-“Sometimes; not often, though, mister. I took her with me onct jes’ after
-the coal oil man’s little girl died and his wife give me all her clothes,
-’cause she said I’d been there and helped so much. So I kind a dressed
-the little one up and took her over, and while I worked she played with
-her—I mean with the other children, and when I got ready to start home I
-like to never got her to come. She cried most all night, so I don’t take
-her no more, but she’s gone over there now. I was over there today and
-done the cleaning and the ‘lady’ (that’s what I always call her) said if
-I would send the little one over she would give her a suit or two of her
-older girl’s underclothes. You see her girl’s younger than the kid, but
-she’s fatter, so I guess they’ll fit. Lord, I wish she’d come, mister,
-for now I’ve told you all and you’ll be goin’ and it’ll be awful lonesome
-here.”
-
-“I will wait until she comes, if you don’t object.”
-
-“No, I will be glad, and I guess I’d better put this soup on and warm it,
-for she’ll be cold and hungry.”
-
-A few moments and a rattle at the door announced the “kid’s” coming.
-She was a sweet-faced child, but the beauty which would have been
-visible under favorable circumstances was marred by the pinched, drawn
-expression which always attends want. Without ado, or bashfulness, she
-unrolled a bundle, shouting, “Look Granny, two for you and two for me.
-The lady had some of her own that was too big and she said you could have
-’em.”
-
-And there, under the rays of light shed from the tin lamp, I saw articles
-of silk underwear with a monogram on the waistband, the same which
-adorned an invitation to a party for one night next week, which I had
-received that morning and now carried in my pocket.
-
-
-
-
-TALE FOUR.
-
-A WOMAN OF THIRTY-EIGHT.
-
- “Look at his pretty face for just one minute!
- His braided frock and dainty buttoned shoes;
- His firm shut hand, the favorite plaything in it—
- Then tell me, mothers, was’t not hard to lose
- And miss him from my side—
- My little boy that died?
-
- “How many another boy, as dear and charming,
- His father’s hope, his mother’s one delight,
- Slips through strange sicknesses, all fear disarming,
- And lives a long, long life in parent’s sight!
- Mine was so short a pride!
- And then—my poor boy died.”
-
-
-“Perhaps if he had lived,” she said, as she handed me a little tintype
-of a round-faced baby, whose laughing face was surrounded by ringlets of
-hair which looked as though they might have been silk.
-
-“Perhaps,” she repeated in a dreamy way, “it might have been different.”
-
-She was a woman of thirty-eight. She did not look it when I was first
-admitted to her apartments. She then appeared to be a very demure little
-housewife of ten years less. It was in the afternoon and she was suitably
-attired to receive callers, and had she not been, I am of the opinion
-that she would have bowed graciously to the inevitable, and received me
-just the same, for she was one of those matter-of-fact souls who do not
-allow formality to interfere with pleasure. Not that she would appear
-in a soiled dressing sacque, or an old skirt which bore evidence of the
-various strains, neither would she be guilty of coming to the front with
-ragged shoes on those dainty feet; but to make a long story short, she
-was too considerate of a man’s “fussy feeling” to keep him waiting an
-hour or more while she labored before the mirror trying to obliterate the
-traces of time and increase the beauty of form.
-
-Ethel Manning had been and still was more comely than many women in more
-favorable circumstances. She was not so tall that she was striking, but
-the willowness of her figure seemed to add power to the face on which
-every thought was plainly visible before she allowed the red curve,
-commonly called mouth, to open in utterance. She spoke slowly, and
-as each word fell on one’s ear the evidence of the voice having been
-cultivated became more convincing. Her deep violet eyes were luminous and
-seemed to grow darker with the earnestness of her sentiment. Her chin was
-a trifle short, however one would at once decide that it was made that
-way to correspond with the nose, which, to one critically inclined, might
-seem to be abbreviated to a certain extent. All in all, she was one of
-those people who are all life and activity, yet possessed with the gift
-of discreet executive ability. If she had lacked anywhere in personal
-charms the deficit was supplied to one’s mind’s eye the moment one would
-glance at her hair. It was plentiful and seemed to cover her head with
-bright rippling waves which shimmered with every motion of the well
-poised head.
-
-Bright colors might have been more becoming to her winsome nature, but
-she was clad in black, some soft, clinging material on the crepe de chene
-order. The neatness of the design, the fine texture, and the correctness
-of the fit only added to the grace with which she wore it.
-
-“No doubt you would have been happier,” I said, as I handed the little
-tintype back to her.
-
-“I don’t know,” she said sweetly; “perhaps somebody would have been purer
-today.”
-
-“Well, Miss Manning, I am all attention and over anxious to hear your
-story.”
-
-“All right, I will tell you all I know, and think that is enough,” she
-said, as she cast her eyes downward.
-
-“I was raised a Christian. I taught a Sunday-school class from the time I
-was sixteen until I was just turning my eighteenth year. At this point in
-my life my parents changed their place of abode; the only regret I felt
-aside from my breaking up of a general friendship, was the fact that I
-was called upon to leave my sweetheart.
-
-“David Strathmore was all to me that any young man can be to a girl who
-is in love. He had lived in the little village where I was born and
-raised for twelve years, during which time we had been school-mates,
-play-fellows, steadfast, youthful friends, and with the true congeniality
-of our young natures we became lovers early in life. He was constant,
-true and tender. I had learned to count upon his sagacity in all things.
-I was not alone in my admiration for him; that is to say, although I
-was the only girl who really loved him, but think that was because it
-was a foregone conclusion that marriage was to be the result of our
-constant association. Everybody who knew him admired him, and that meant
-nearly every man, woman and child in the locality, for his father was a
-grain merchant and David had grown up in his business there by coming in
-contact with almost every citizen.
-
-“I had never known what trouble was, and when, on the evening before we
-were to leave my native town, David and I took a long stroll, I felt as
-though each step brought me nearer to the grave.
-
-“‘But we will be true to each other,’ he said, as he held me in his arms
-pressing his warm lips to mine.
-
-“‘Yes, David, and you will come for me soon, won’t you, dear?’
-
-“‘Yes, Ethel, as soon as I have placed a sufficient sum in the bank to
-make us a home, I will come for my blue-eyed belle.’
-
-“So with promises of loyal devotion, we parted.
-
-“I really liked my new surroundings very much in our new home. The young
-people were very kind to me and I was soon on a firm footing with the
-best society of the town. It was a college town and I met a young man who
-was in his last year of school.
-
-“His name was Edward Singleton, and I was more than delighted to know
-that he and my David were warm friends. That fact bound us closer
-together, and I did not feel that I was being disloyal to David when I
-accepted the attentions of his friend Singleton.
-
-“He was very kind, a born aristocrat, and soon became devoted to me.
-
-“David came to see me as often as possible. At such times Singleton could
-call with him, but always retired from the scene as soon as propriety
-would allow. He seemed to know that David and I were engaged. Once
-when it was time for David to call, he failed. Fearing he was ill I
-immediately wrote to him to ascertain the cause. His very cold letter
-informed me that he had come to our town with the intention of making
-his regular call, but had learned that I was being attended in a very
-chivalrous manner by his old friend Singleton, and he did not wish to be
-classed as an interloper, etc.
-
-“That almost killed me; that letter petrified my heart. It took months of
-indulgence and constant coaxing for Mr. Singleton to convince me that it
-was David’s plan to jilt me.
-
-“‘You don’t know,’ he said, ‘but there is some one else he loves.’
-
-“He besought me to bestow my love on him, but I was true to David. It was
-a fact that I had not answered his letter. I simply ignored him. I still
-accepted Mr. Singleton’s attentions and allowed him to condemn David, but
-it took more than that to cause me to rescind my promise.
-
-“But the time came—it came, too, just as I had arrived at the conclusion
-that I could not live longer without David. Of course, I had Mr.
-Singleton at my feet making love to me all the time and I think that had
-much to do with my endurance in the matter, for when a woman loves a man
-and that man for any reason whatever goes out of her life, she can even
-appreciate the affection of a good loyal dog. It seems to fill an aching
-void, you know.
-
-“As I said, the time came when the last cord of love which bound me to
-David was called upon to stand a severe strain. It happened in this way:
-There was a party given near our home. I was invited to attend and Mr.
-Singleton had insisted on calling for me, but there had happened to be
-one girl in the crowd who had made the remark that I surely must be proud
-to be able to take up all of Ned Singleton’s time.
-
-“It stung me, and not caring to be the butt of remarks, I declined to go.
-I was at home that evening when about ten o’clock Mr. Singleton called.
-He apologized for the time and then went on to say smilingly that he
-could not resist the temptation of running in just to tell me that David
-was at the party with Emma Cline.
-
-“The blood left my face. I could feel the pallor creeping over me, then
-with a flash and a horrid thought, I almost screamed:
-
-“‘I don’t believe it.’
-
-“I was now burning up.
-
-“‘Come,’ said Singleton.
-
-“I went, and there through the bright plate glass I could see that the
-bad thought of calling Singleton a liar was entirely wrong. David was
-enjoying himself with the other young people.
-
-“The words of love that Mr. Singleton poured into my ear that night
-sounded like the song of the nightingale. It soothed my poor, troubled
-heart, and seemed to gather the torn and bleeding fragments together and
-they grew with a new hope. I did not know that I was yearning to be
-loved, but I was. My soul was fed to its full. I had never before fully
-enjoyed Singleton’s protestations of love, but now they were as healing
-balm, and I was glad to lay my face on his shoulder and weep as a child
-weeps for its lost mother, while his strong arms encircled my form. With
-each loving word he gave me a firm but gentle pressure, which only made
-the shivers and sobs more delightfully thrilling, and while his own great
-heart throbbed in muffled accord with mine he kissed away my tears,
-smoothed back the straggling locks of hair which clung to my feverish
-face and softened my feelings in such a way that when he tenderly took
-me in his arms for the last time that night I felt that there had been a
-death and a birth at one and the same time, and that I was the mother of
-two children and those two were each named Love, and that in the act of
-burying one in the darkness of the cavern of despair the other Love had
-shed its light and been born into my soul.
-
-“From that on I wondered how a girl could be so foolish as to think she
-was in love with anyone until she had known at least more than one man.
-
-“Those were happy days,” said the girl with a sigh, as she glanced at the
-little picture.
-
-“And of course you and Mr. Singleton were married,” said I.
-
-“I will tell you all, everything,” she said, then hastily rising, she
-walked across the room and gazed out of the window.
-
-When she returned tears were glistening on her cheeks.
-
-I waited for her to continue, which she did after a moment.
-
-“Those were happy days; I mean the last days of Ned’s school, for we
-planned our future, at least my future. He graduated with highest honors
-and came to see me often during vacation. He had intended to settle in
-business somewhere before the next term of school commenced. He was just
-killing time for one summer, he said. He seemed to fully realize that his
-boyhood days were over and put in his time calling on me and writing to
-old college chums.
-
-“We were much surprised when the management of the institution of
-learning which he had attended offered him a chair in the college. He had
-never aspired to become identified with the faculty, but the honor was
-so great for a young man that he was not long in allowing his friends to
-persuade him to accept.
-
-“Our wedding day was set; it was to occur during the holiday season.
-Just about the time that Ned took his position I realized that our
-indiscretions in love had led to a state of affairs that would be
-exceedingly embarrassing. I told Ned my trouble and insisted on an
-immediate marriage. But he, of course, would not do that. Now that he was
-a Professor there must be some deliberation in the matter of a ceremony.
-A big wedding must be planned. Then I began to fail in health, and a
-physician, who had been an old classmate of Ned’s, advised that I go
-South. My mother wished to accompany me, but as my father’s health was
-poor I simply declared myself against going unless she remained with him.
-I told her I would rather stay at home and die than go away and live at
-the expense of my father’s comfort.
-
-“I went alone; no power could help me from the predicament which had been
-wrought by folly.
-
-“My babe was born in New Orleans. Ned came to see me as often as his
-duties would permit; I had the tenderest of care, and he always commented
-on my good appearance when he was with me; but I am sure if he could have
-seen me one hour after he had gone he would have thought differently.
-
-“Of course, I begged him to marry me, and he faithfully promised to do
-so, but, he said, ‘We must first allow your dishonor to be forgotten.’”
-
-“Think of that, will you—my dishonor!”
-
-At this thought Ethel began to pace the floor, seeming to forget my
-presence.
-
-“Ah,” she said, “if the baby had only lived!” Then, clutching the little
-square of tin, she pressed it to her lips with the fervor of a loving
-mother.
-
-“If you had but lived,” she said, as her deep blue eyes gazed at the
-chubby face shown in the picture.
-
-“He put me off from time to time.”
-
-“One day I received a letter from my mother saying that she would visit
-me. Horrors! what was I to do. It was at this point that the good little
-French woman with whom I was making my home came to my rescue. She was a
-mother. She had a child a year older than mine, but still at the breast.
-I told her of my predicament.
-
-“‘Never mind, dear,’ said she, with a pat on the head, ‘tell your mere to
-come; I will save you.’”
-
-“On the day my mother was to arrive she sent her child to her sister’s
-home in the country, and for three days my child received the nourishment
-which rightfully belonged to another child.
-
-“I looked quite well and my mother insisted on my returning home with
-her, but I made the excuse that I was going to take a course and become a
-trained nurse. My argument prevailed.
-
-“In sixty days my baby was at rest in a far off corner in one of the
-famous cemeteries of New Orleans, which is the object of so much interest
-to travelers from the fact that all the vaults are above the ground.
-Then for many reasons, I did go into a training school and eventually
-graduated as a professional nurse.
-
-“I followed that occupation for eight years.”
-
-“But what became of Professor Singleton?”
-
-“Oh, he became Professor Doubleton,” said the girl, with a toss of her
-head, which denoted more sarcasm than words could imply.
-
-“You mean⸺”
-
-“Yes, I mean he was married three weeks after the baby died, while I was
-yet weeping my eyes red as I sat on that cold gray slab of stone each
-day.”
-
-“Did you not protest?”
-
-“Yes, I wrote, upbraiding him with all the power I had left, but sorrow
-for the loss of my baby had so softened me that my letter was more in the
-manner of an appeal than a command, and a man who is as heartless as he
-will quickly see a woman’s weak point and will not hesitate to grasp the
-opportunity of crushing her so completely that she loses all semblance of
-her former self.”
-
-“He did answer me; rather a long letter, too, it was, but among other
-things he said that his position in life was so changed and that he would
-be able to rise higher if he would marry some one in his present station,
-and a lot of such rot. He closed by saying that ‘a woman with a past has
-no future.’
-
-“At the end of eight years’ service as a nurse I was a mature woman of
-thirty. I had learned enough of the world to be able to take care of
-myself. The last patient for whom I cared in the capacity of nurse was a
-foreigner; he was a nobleman who had contracted the yellow fever which
-was raging in the South at that time.
-
-“One accomplishment which I had picked up at odd times was playing the
-guitar. I could sing a little, and this patient, who was wealthy, seemed
-to improve so rapidly after he was able to listen and enjoy music that I
-would often sit and play and sing softly to him for hours. The music was
-not grand, but, as he said, ‘it was vera sweet.’
-
-“As soon as he was able to leave the hospital he insisted that I take
-a vacation; purely out of gratitude he took me to New York, where he
-lavished many fine presents on me.
-
-“At last, and to my sorrow, the time arrived when the prince must sail
-for his native land, and while I did not love him I was sorry to have him
-go. He had never been anything to me nor I to him, except on the lines
-of purest Platonicy. True, we had been much together. He was kind and
-affectionate to me; he had held me in his arms, but beyond the admiration
-of pure loyal friendship he had never expressed himself. I think he
-detected my feelings as the time for his departure drew near, for I could
-tell that he was more attentive and considerate than ever before. One day
-he came to my room and found me crying, whereupon he took me gently in
-his arms and asked what caused my sorrow; as I sought to free myself that
-I might bathe my swollen eyes, this little picture dropped from my bosom
-where I had hastily thrust it. Out of chivalry he picked it up and handed
-it to me, glancing at it as he did so.
-
-“‘Ah,’ said he, ‘a story, eh?’
-
-“I indignantly replied that I had never lied to him, for I had never told
-him anything.
-
-“‘No, no. I mean you have—you—know—perhaps—ah—a life story.’
-
-“Then while he held me in his strong arms I told him all. I think I felt
-better after I had finished than I ever had since Ned Singleton had
-instilled a hope in my heart. It was only three hours until the boat
-would draw in the gang-plank and depart for sunny Italy.
-
-“The prince came to say goodbye, as he held my hands in both his and
-looked into my eyes I saw the tenderness shine out of his face, then,
-without warning, without power to stop, I burst into tears.
-
-“‘There, there, little girl,’ he said, ‘don’t cry, I won’t go and leave
-you; you shall go with me.’
-
-“Glad to leave the country where I had known so much misery and pain I
-did not wait for a second invitation. In one hour my trunk was aboard the
-vessel, and I was strolling about the deck taking in the wonders which
-the huge ocean liner affords the untrained mind of the untraveled novice.
-
-“The state room (our state room) was to me the most wonderful and
-interesting point on the boat, so cozy and secluded, to what I had
-anticipated, that I felt like lounging around all the time for the first
-day or two out.
-
-“The prince was so pleased to have me play and sing to him that I found
-great pleasure in that pastime.
-
-“I know you think it strange that a woman of the age that I had reached,
-should repeat my youthful indiscretions, but nevertheless I did so.
-The commonplace existence of man and mistress seemed very conducive to
-pleasure for we did enjoy each other’s society so much.
-
-“We traveled from one point of interest to another in the foreign
-country; six years had been spent in sight seeing and pleasure seeking.
-I was then thirty-six. We were in Paris when the Chicago World’s Fair
-opened. The Prince had often told me that we must begin to surrender each
-other, for he was expected to marry someone of rank; I knew all the time
-that he was everything to me that it was possible for him to be. I well
-knew that I was drifting down the stream of time only to be cast onto
-the breakers of separation. We could see the great ghost of dissolution
-looming up higher and higher as one by one the days were torn from our
-calendar of pleasure. That one haunting thought was the only blot on our
-title of happiness. I was surrounded by all the luxuries of the land. The
-Prince lavished costly presents on me and seemed so happy when he could
-think of some little act of kindness that would especially please me; he
-was ever thoughtful and kind, he cared nothing for the company of other
-women.
-
-“He came to our apartments one day. I was almost lost in thought and only
-looked up and smiled after he had taken my face between his soft hands
-and kissed me.
-
-“‘And what is my little Senorita dreaming about now?’ he asked.
-
-“‘I was just thinking,’ I said, ‘that my boy would have been almost a man
-now had he lived, and now that I must give you up soon I would have had
-some one to love me.’
-
-“‘Oh, don’t worry, little girl,’ (he always called me little girl), ‘I
-guess some one will love you.’ He seemed to forget that I was growing
-old. I have forgotten to mention that my musical education had been taken
-up and I had learned to sing fairly well. I had been thinking how I might
-earn a living and when he came in I told him my quandary. He suggested
-that I take instruction in French dancing and come to America and join
-the profession.
-
-“I hesitated, I could not bring myself to the point of considering such a
-proposition, while such joy as I now possessed lasted. Then the necessity
-of supporting myself again forced itself into my mind, and we laid the
-plans which later brought me to this city. I gained a fair knowledge of
-heel and toe dancing, and believing what my teacher said, I considered
-myself competent to fill an engagement in America. As a last farewell
-trip my Prince concluded to sail with me, we would take in the sights of
-the World’s Fair here and he would then say goodbye and leave me in my
-native land, older, wiser and as unhappy as when he found me, but it must
-all end. He had done all and more for me than he had promised. It was
-such a rarity for a man to keep his word with me that the novelty of the
-thing was entrancing.
-
-“The Fair and all its glories were viewed and absorbed by us. Then came
-the sad bitter end of all; we must give up all pleasures. I shall never
-forget the last few days of his stay. We sat up late into the night,
-reviewing all our travels.
-
-“Then goodbye—I lived days in blank despair. Each time I looked on some
-treasure he had given me, tears would flow so freely as to indicate no
-control of the flood gates which my eyes appeared to be.
-
-“At last, more to attract my mind to other things, I made application for
-a position. I did not need to work yet, for the Prince had left me with a
-well filled purse. I had no trouble in getting an engagement. I rehearsed
-all day, performed in the evening, went to my room at night and looked
-at this poor little picture and cried myself to sleep. My boy would have
-been nineteen. I used to try and imagine what he would have been like as
-a full grown man.
-
-“One night as I was doing my turn I saw in the audience Professor
-Singleton. He did not recognize me, and fool like I left the stage and
-cried. I arose the next day with that long reaching determination and
-desire to see him and talk with him. It was an easy matter to search
-the hotels. I found him. He failed to recognize me at first, but a few
-words from me quickly convinced him of my identity. I learned that his
-daughter, who was nearly seventeen, was attending a musical college here.
-Then I wanted to see her, but was careful not to let him know my wishes
-in that direction.
-
-“I soon found her and managed to make her my friend. She was a sweet
-girl; I often closed my eyes and took her in my arms with brain afire and
-ears strained, almost expecting to hear her call me mamma.
-
-“We grew fond of each other. She was filled with a desire to go on the
-stage.
-
-“I dared not ask her about her home or her parents. One day she came to
-me asking me to go with her to the station to meet a friend, as she put
-it. That friend was her father. I would not have gone for worlds for I
-was not inclined to make anyone suffer. I am sure I did not expect to
-be a witness of what happened. I gave him credit for having more sense,
-but as she led me to meet him, instead of being a man and accepting
-his position by bowing to the circumstances, he turned his back on me,
-grabbed Ione by the arm, and hurried her into a carriage.
-
-“He came to me the next day and his abuse was as shameful and disgraceful
-as it was uncalled for. He insisted that I had taken foul means to poison
-his child’s mind. I begged for pity. I tried to stay his scathing tongue;
-but, no. He would show me, a public woman, how to entice a pure young
-girl from her duty. Then he struck me, the brute. I might have forgiven
-all he said, for I suppose he was sincere in his belief, but he should
-not have been so cruel as to use personal violence. He went away and left
-me lying on the floor in agony. My mind was quickly made up. He prized
-this daughter so highly that he could lay me low in the dust and dirt. I,
-who should have been mother to his second child the same as I was to the
-first. My child by him had long ago been food for the worms. I resolved
-that his daughter should meet a fate worse than did his son. I would ruin
-her and then ask him to strike again, strike the kind of a blow that _he_
-deserved when I was young and fair like his much beloved daughter.
-
-“The plan was long. I had many admirers, several of whom professed to
-love me; one in particular whom I think meant it. I sent for him and
-quickly told him that I had been injured, and that a certain young lady
-was the cause of it. He immediately grew gallant and suggested that he
-assist me in punishing my tormenter. That was what I wanted. He would
-do anything for me especially when there was a girl in the case. I told
-him how he could meet her. He followed my instructions, went to her and
-represented himself as a theatrical man who was just organizing a company.
-
-“She took the bait easily and when she was more than half drunk he
-brought her to my home, where several members of the profession had
-gathered for a little dinner. She soon forgot all about the footlights,
-and when she was thoroughly under the influence we put her to bed. Her
-downfall was as complete as the plan that caused it. We kept her there
-for four days and to make my victory more pronounced I wired for her
-father. His curse on her was worse than the one that rested upon me. He
-cast her off and attempted to strike her but I was on the lookout. I put
-myself between him and her with a dagger. He was a coward.
-
-“He went away. Ione became herself again but she was a pitiable
-object. She wanted so much to die. Just at this time the Prince came
-unexpectedly; he had concluded that he could not live without me and had
-come to take me, rank or no rank. He met Ione Singleton; her sadness
-caused him to ask questions. I told him all, and then with my arms around
-his neck asked him if he wished me to be happy.
-
-“‘Of course I do, dearest, and came to try and make you so.’
-
-“‘Then,’ said I, ‘marry Ione, and not me.’
-
-“He objected, but I would not yield, and she is a princess now, having
-lavished upon her the same kind treatment which almost healed the wound
-so much like hers, that I had suffered.”
-
-
-
-
-TALE FIVE.
-
-A FORECAST.
-
- “Ah, that is the ship from over the sea,
- That is bringing my lover back to me,
- Bringing my lover so fond and true,
- Who does not change like the wind like you.”
-
-
-“Oh, my! Look at that. Money, a letter, and good news. Oh, jolly! Three
-aces, change of places, and affection of a dark man, and a diamond woman
-has good hearts for me, and great days! Of all things! Well, just look at
-that! The nine of diamonds, my wish! I am going to get my wish, so I am,
-’cause the cards say so!”
-
-I stood in the open door as the above monologue was being rendered,
-feeling a trifle guilty at the thought that I was even a friendly
-eavesdropper. I consoled myself, however, with the assurance that I did
-not intend to listen, and that I stood as I did all on account of the
-picture before me. Even the calloused heart of the writer was felt to
-swell, and his mind counted backward to a time when he often looked upon
-such sights as I now beheld.
-
-The room was small, but very cozy and well furnished. The careless
-confusion with which the pillows and doilies were scattered around the
-room was so absolutely natural that it helped me to form an opinion
-of the occupant. And she was but little more than a child. There she
-sat tailor fashion on the soft, fur rug, shuffling and dealing a pack
-of cards, all the time prattling to herself as some card was turned
-over that would signify any important event in her life. Her sweet,
-youthful voice was in unison with the rings of light shining hair, while
-the rosebud mouth seemed to talk only to keep the big blue eyes from
-expressing the feelings of this care free heart.
-
-When the merry chattering ceased I concluded it was absolutely necessary,
-for manner’s sake if nothing more, to make my presence known. I did so by
-addressing the young lady.
-
-“Ah, are you here? When did you come? Won’t you sit down?”
-
-The running fire of questions did not disturb me in the least, for before
-I could frame an answer to any of them she continued to talk.
-
-“Now, that is right; take that big, soft chair and here, for goodness
-sake, let me take your hat. I was just telling my fortune, and don’t you
-know, it just came out fine, not a bad card in it—isn’t that jolly? And
-would you like to have your fortune told? No, I am not in that business
-and will not charge you, so there now, isn’t that cheap enough?”
-
-To which I replied that I should prefer to be entertained by her own
-conversation than to have any forecast added by reading the spots.
-
-“Oh, well, I can’t entertain.”
-
-“Yes, but you can give me some news.”
-
-“News?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“What subject can I enlighten you on?”
-
-“Well, you are such an interesting little body I think I should like to
-know all about yourself.”
-
-“All that I know is that I am in love, and, oh, yes, I am very, very
-rich, I guess, at least my lawyer says so.”
-
-“I did not know you were a woman of wealth.”
-
-“I know. You see no one knows that but my attorney and myself, and now
-that I have told you, you also know it, but you won’t tell it, will you?”
-
-“Not if you wish it to remain a secret, but now that you have told me so
-much, will you tell me why you do not want the fact to become public?”
-
-“Well, you see, as I said, I am in love, and I guess to tell you one part
-I must tell you all, but you are one of those horrid newspaper reporters.
-You will have that all printed.”
-
-“No, not until you have given your permission.”
-
-“Have some candy, and see, here is a present I just received yesterday.
-Isn’t he a little darling?”
-
-Whereupon this little one hundred ten pound mite of humanity dropped a
-silk poodle from under a soft comforter with one hand while she passed a
-box of Allegrettis to me with the other. While I in turn patted the dog
-with one hand and at the same time relieved the box of a couple of pieces
-of the sweet-meats.
-
-“Now,” said I, “let’s have a story.”
-
-“Well, you see, it was this way. I was born in Janesville, Wisconsin. My
-father was a mechanic; he was poor, so very poor, that my mother’s folks,
-who were rich, got awfully mad when she married papa. They would not go
-to see her nor allow her to go to see them.
-
-“Finally my father was injured by a falling building and for two years we
-were dependent on charity or, as some children used to say to me, we were
-county charges. I was so young then that I did not realize what it really
-meant. At last papa gave up his last breath of this life and the county
-buried him. Mamma’s rich relatives never came near during the trouble.
-After papa’s death, mamma obtained work in the home of a family in
-Milwaukee. She was housekeeper for an old gentleman of about sixty-five.
-His wife had died years before and his family now consisted of himself,
-two grown daughters and one son about twenty-two. I was then fourteen,
-and it was so arranged that I was to assist with the work and go to
-school. That all seemed very nice, for mamma and I could live together.
-All went well for a year, during which time my mother’s two brothers died
-and as they were the only remaining heirs to the large estate, their
-demise left my grandmother the only legal heir, as my grandfather had
-so provided in his will that my mother was entirely cut off. At the end
-of the first year in our Milwaukee position, Edmund Decker came home
-from college ready to do battle with the world. I felt the effects of
-the menial exactness of my position. I was but fifteen then, but he of
-twenty-three, fell in love with me and fearing his father’s objections,
-our meetings were secret. Oh, how I have watched and waited for him, and
-how the moments would fly as he held me in his arms and breathed words
-into my young ears that made the rich, warm blood of my youth leap and
-bound through my veins, while my lips and cheeks burned as though they
-were being bathed in fire. Alas, our anticipations were true; we were
-caught fairly in one of our little love-making scenes. It happened one
-afternoon when we supposed everyone was away. Edmund came to the house
-and we were having a tete-a-tete in a little alcove off the library.
-Nothing so bad about that, but one of the sisters who existed chiefly on
-suspicion, had hidden behind some heavy curtains, within three feet of
-us, and after hearing as much as she liked she stepped out of her hiding
-place and found me contentedly curled up on Edmund’s lap.
-
-“It all ended by my running away and coming to Chicago. I did not let
-anyone know where I was. I succeeded in getting a position as a nurse
-girl in one of the best South Side homes. One day I was in the park with
-the babe who was entrusted to my care, and by sheer accident met Edmund.
-He explained to me that he was located in the city and had taken up the
-study of law. We arranged and met often after that; finally Edmund asked
-me to go out to the theater with him one evening and by a great effort I
-managed to get away from my duties long enough to accept. After the play
-Edmund suggested that we call on a friend of his who was preparing to
-leave the city that night and bid her goodbye. We called at the flat of
-his friend. She had changed her plans some and would not go until three
-o’clock the next morning. She was just preparing some lunch after her
-day of packing. We stayed to lunch and had wine. That was the first I
-had ever tasted. I never did return to the nursery. Edmund arranged that
-night to rent his friend’s furnished apartment and she went away leaving
-us in charge of everything. Edmund said it was all right, for we were
-going to be married anyway just as soon as he was admitted to the bar, so
-that he did not have to depend upon his father for support.
-
-“We lived very happy, my husband and I, for he was my husband and he used
-to call me his wee little wifey. It is no use for me to describe all the
-fun of the few short months we dwelt together there, but it all ended in
-this way:
-
-“Edmund was so devoted and attached to me that in order to be with me
-constantly he neglected his studies in the law office. Sometimes he would
-not leave me for days, and the firm with whom he was studying notified
-his father of his dilatory conduct. His father was a shrewd man and was
-not long in guessing that there was a woman in the affair some place. He
-had Edmund watched, followed and located in the house, discovered that he
-was living under an assumed name with some woman but failed to determine
-who the woman was.
-
-“One day I watched and waited for Edmund as usual. Night came, but
-no Edmund; all night I waited by the window for that form to appear.
-Daylight broke in all its freshness and glory only to find me still
-longing for the loving caress on which I had learned to exist. Long days
-and dreary nights dragged slowly enough. I could not imagine why Edmund
-did not return or at least write me. I listened for the familiar step
-along the hall, and when exhaustion compelled me to seek rest and sleep,
-I would dream of rivers of dirty, black water, and finally awoke from
-some horrible nightmare screaming for Edmund. I did not lose faith in
-him and I thank God for that. I knew some terrible calamity had befallen
-him, but silly little goose that I was, dared not tell anyone nor try
-to find him. Each day the sun rose with more spots on it, each night
-was darker than the preceding one; every hour brought more misery and
-desolation to my young heart and with nothing to console or encourage me,
-I almost cried my eyes out. I had no appetite, consequently at the end of
-three weeks I was a fit subject for a dime museum. Oh, I looked terrible!
-At that time I was confronted with a new trouble which absorbed some of
-my time and attention. When Edmund went away he left very little money in
-the house and I was suddenly brought face to face with the fact that I
-was almost penniless. My maid of all work left at this stage, and I was
-entirely alone in my misery.
-
-“For three days and nights I had not a bite to eat, then a strange thing
-happened; a woman came to my house and asked me if I would rent her and
-her husband a room. She was a handsome, dignified, well dressed woman
-and offered to pay liberally and in advance. I hesitated, not because I
-thought of refusing but for the reason that I was faint and hungry and
-not strong enough to talk glibly; the woman mistook my slowness of reply.
-She thought I was afraid she would not pay, whereupon she took from her
-purse a roll of bills greater than I had ever before seen, at the same
-time asking me how much I wanted for the front room. Visions of loaded
-tables, steaming dishes and dainty salads rushed past my eyes while the
-aroma of hot coffee seemed to fill my nostrils until my wasted frame
-shook with an excited hunger. I managed to state a price. She paid me
-and went to bring her trunks. Oh, at last, I could have something to eat;
-I could regale myself with food such as I had not tasted for days. I went
-to my room to dress thinking it best to go to a restaurant. Fortunately
-I had given my roomer a key and when she returned that night she found
-me where I had fallen, half dressed on the floor of my room, while
-clasped tightly in my hand were the crumpled bills she had given me. I
-battled long and hard with a fever, all the time calling for Edmund. At
-last the fever broke, leaving me a poor, emaciated wreck. The doctor
-told me I would be all right soon and added that I would soon be able
-to go to work. That sounded so strange to me who had learned to depend
-on someone else; time did bring my complete physical recovery, but I
-had added responsibilities. I owed a large doctor bill which came to me
-with the request to remit before I was fairly able to sit up all day. I
-could not pay it, and could not figure out how and when I could expect
-to pay. Almost daily the medical man’s collector called. He harassed me
-so that I actually wished the doctor had allowed me to die. In spite of
-all this I grew strong; color came to my cheeks, my lips took on the rosy
-hue which had so many times drawn complimentary remarks from Edmund. My
-eyes shone with their old time brightness, and when people told me I was
-getting pretty, they said it in such an earnest way that I was inclined
-to believe them. My improved condition was due to the kindness of the
-woman who was rooming at my house; during my illness she assumed entire
-control of everything, and was to me all that a mother could be.
-
-“At last the doctor’s demands became unbearable. He called personally one
-day; his salute was genial and his manner kindly, but his remarks were
-burdened with sarcasm. He went even so far as to make improper advances
-to me, saying that I might liquidate my obligations to him by becoming
-his friend. I was so indignant that the words I used in telling him of
-his unprofessional conduct could not well be mistaken. He laughed at my
-rage and informed me that he knew of my affair with Edmund; also that
-the woman living in my house was a person of improper character and
-accused me of being aware of the fact. His argument was no good. I would
-not listen to his demands. After he had gone I went to the lady in the
-house and told her all that had passed. She acknowledged that she was
-not married to the man whose name she bore, and even half advised me to
-accept the doctor’s offer. I was desperate and had it not been for the
-mean advantage he had taken I believe I would have consented to the plan,
-but the man had completely killed all feeling in my breast for him and it
-was now but a matter of business. I owed and must pay, and pay I would,
-but in cash. I resolved upon one thing, and that was that if my soul was
-to be disposed of in a mercenary manner it would go to some one who was
-willing to strike a bargain and not because I was under obligations to
-that one. I thought of one more plan and acted upon it as a last resort.
-I put an advertisement in the leading papers, asking Edmund to return
-to me or send me some word. I put it in as a blind advertisement. I
-received one reply and it stated that the party advertised for had gone
-to Europe and I need not expect to see him as he was through with me.
-Heavens! how my Scotch blood boiled. I branded the whole thing as a lie.
-Again the lady roomer helped me out. I counselled with her and she went
-to the law office where he had been studying and there she saw a letter
-from him postmarked Berlin. That settled it; my mind was now made up as
-to my next step. I began a methodical canvass of the houses of ill repute
-and when I found one that I thought was of the better class of places
-of that nature I applied for admission and was admitted. This occurred
-about four o’clock in the afternoon, one cold, dreary, cloudy day, not
-a fitting atmosphere for one to begin a new undertaking, but a fitting
-inducement to tempt one to rid one’s self of the blues. I was to go to
-my new home at once and fired with the fever of excitement and firm
-determination to bury the past, I took my trunk and was assigned to my
-room in the midst of public debauchery and iniquity. I must say that the
-surroundings were very inviting. I soon learned that I was not the only
-unfortunate girl in the world; many more who were there had even more sad
-experiences than I, owing to the fact, perhaps, that they had been in the
-world longer.
-
-“As I did not have the proper clothes upon my arrival I was not asked to
-go to the parlor the first evening, so I spent the time visiting with the
-other members of this sinful family, during such time as they were not
-engaged.
-
-“The next morning a modiste took my measure. At noon several flowing
-robes of silk were sent to my room for trial. I selected three beautiful
-ones, which were fitted to me. The landlady had them charged to her
-account and I was told to dress myself and appear in the parlor at eight
-that evening.
-
-“I dressed; I appeared; my face burned, my fingers tingled and I know my
-eyes stared. It was a beautifully furnished home, music, birds, flowers,
-gayety and mirth, answered the clink of the wine glasses, as long as
-the parlor was the scene of the festivities, but I knew that burning,
-scalding tears were the sequels to all this as soon as the participants
-were allowed to retire to their rooms alone. The shudders which convulsed
-me were noticed by others of the house and many a kind touch and look
-was given me. Fate seemed to be my Saviour that night, for it was nearly
-midnight and for some reason none of the many male visitors seemed
-inclined to cultivate my acquaintance.
-
-“I had just received permission to go to my room when the bell rang.
-And, oh Gods! I was told to wait. I waited and as the visitors were
-ushered into the reception room I heard a voice that chilled my flesh,
-and caused my blood to stand still; it was the voice of one I knew well.
-Then a vivid, wild thought came to me. Had Edmund found me at last? Thank
-Heaven, he was in time to save me!
-
-“It was with hope wandering and blind stupidity that I managed to answer
-the call and go forward to meet the newcomers. Those ten steps covered
-ten years in flight of time; what could I tell him? What would he say?
-How could I look him in the face? While all these mental problems were
-racing through my brain, I was drawing nearer to the little group of men.
-
-“‘Gentlemen, this is Miss Adele.’ (That was the name I had chosen.)
-
-“The announcement aroused me from my trance-like condition and I raised
-my eyes and looked squarely in the face of Edmund’s father. The other
-men I did not know. Edmund’s father stared, started and then with a gasp
-cried, ‘My God, girl! Child, what are you doing here?’
-
-“‘I am here to make a living,’ I said frankly.
-
-“Without excuse or apology to his friends he drew me to a seat. I almost
-fainted at the thought of meeting him and being chosen by him in such a
-place; my very soul revolted.”
-
-“But where was Edmund?”
-
-“Ah, there you are. You see when I heard the voice I knew it was that
-of his father. I, grasping at a forlorn hope, naturally supposed that
-Edmund had come back, gained his father’s consent to marry me, and they
-had started out to find me. It was very natural to think they would be
-successful for a girl in that position is always expecting the worst to
-happen, or rather to be exposed to some one whom they do not wish to see.”
-
-“And Edmund was not in the party at all?”
-
-“No. His father was a man of slightly sporty inclinations, and he with
-his party of friends were simply out for a night and happened to come to
-the place where I was. But the turn of affairs seemed to change his mind
-a bit, for he questioned me so closely as to my whereabouts in the past,
-and as to how long I had been in that house, that I became suspicious,
-but I told him all, everything truthfully that had happened to me since
-I had left his home; but one thing I sought to keep secret and that was
-the name of the man with whom I had lived. But it seemed impossible for
-one so unused to intrigue to keep a secret. I had a chain (this chain)
-around my neck, and on the chain this locket, and as I leaned my head
-forward it dangled in the air and unknown to me he took the locket and
-opened it and this picture, Edmund’s picture, was in it.
-
-“At first he raved and swore, ‘to think that I, a common woman of the
-town, should dare to wear his son’s picture in such a place as that!’ I
-don’t know how I held myself together, but I did, and gently reminded
-him that he should not object to his son’s picture being worn in a place
-which he himself frequented.
-
-“He gradually became reasonable and we talked matters over in general,
-he finally drawing out of me that it was his son whom I had looked upon
-as my husband. He satisfied himself as to my purity, otherwise, then
-made a confession. It was he who had caused Edmund to be spirited away
-to Europe. Edmund had endeavored to correspond with me, directing his
-letters to the name that we were making temporary use of, but his father
-had intercepted them, thinking that the boy had fallen into the hands
-of some very bad woman who would eventually ruin his life. It was he,
-of course, who answered my advertisement, but to make amends for his
-mistakes, he made me the proposition that I should have a good home, go
-to school, take music, and in fact qualify myself in every possible way,
-during the two years following, all at his expense. At the end of the
-two years he promised that if I had been good and true Edmund should come
-back from Europe and marry me. And the two years will be up in just three
-weeks, and I am so happy.”
-
-“You were telling your fortune when I came in; will you tell me what you
-wished?”
-
-“Oh, sure! I wished Edmund would come back before the three weeks are up.”
-
-“You said you were rich.”
-
-“Yes, you see, Grandma died and left me all the money my mother has been
-kept out of all this time, but don’t tell that, will you? For I want to
-know for sure that Edmund loves me for just me.”
-
-As the writer arose to leave, a messenger boy brought in a strange
-looking envelope and after being convinced that he was talking to Leonore
-Marks, he handed the envelope to her, saying, “Cablegram for you.”
-
-It read, “Home in ten days. Be ready to be married.
-
- EDMUND.”
-
-“Now, you see, the cards were right. I shall get my wish.”
-
-As the writer left Miss Marks, in her joyous delight, was administering
-such caresses to the silk poodle that he half wished he too were a little
-white dog.
-
-
-
-
-TALE SIX.
-
-A DAUGHTER OF PROUD KENTUCKY.
-
- “One sin, I know, another doth provoke;
- Murder’s as near to lust, as flame to smoke.”
-
-
-In response to a vigorous rap, I was admitted to a scantily furnished but
-clean apartment, the warmth and glow of which made a pleasant contrast
-to the drizzling rain, the rows of flickering gas lamps, and the sloppy
-streets that I had been plodding through for several moments.
-
-Leaving my hat and coat in the narrow hall, I followed the directions
-of the little girl who opened the door, and soon found myself in the
-parlor which contained furniture that was old, badly matched and much
-worn; pictures—well, two portraits, and a few little cards on which some
-enterprising merchant had printed his name, all of which failed to add
-greatly to the attractiveness of the room. My scrutiny was not to be
-confined to the handiwork of man, however, for by the time I had taken a
-complete inventory of the room, my attention was attracted to an object
-of nature. I heard a soft voice say, “Good evening, sir.” The full tone
-and sweet southern accent caused me to turn, and as I did so my mind was
-filled with anticipation.
-
-Before me stood a girlish figure. She might have been twenty-five,
-although she did not look it; there was that in the deep gray eyes
-which told of trouble rather than the joy of youth. Her soft hair was
-rolled loosely back from the low brow, leaving only a little curl or two
-above her temples. Her neat fitting house dress of princess design did
-little to add a matronly air. Mature youthfulness sweetened by cares, is
-what flashed through my mind as I took the slender white hand which she
-extended with the dignity of a court lady.
-
-“I am Mr. ⸺,” I said.
-
-“Yes, I have been expecting you,” she said, as she pointed to a wobbly
-rocker, at the same time gliding across the room to a little divan.
-
-“And are you ready to proceed?” I asked, in the cold mechanical way that
-had been supplied by nature and developed by cultivation.
-
-“I suppose so, sir, but what am I to tell you first?”
-
-“Tell me where you were born and grew up, and so on, right through to the
-present time.”
-
-“Well, I was born in Kentucky, and there grew to—to—yes, I might say
-to womanhood, although I was young when I left there. I was an only
-child; my father was a wealthy stockman and during my childhood want was
-an unknown word to me. My earliest recollections were of my old black
-mammy, who used to croon to me, in a voice that was always soothing. I
-was taught to believe that the world was at my command; a mother’s care
-I never knew, for my advent into this world cost her her life. Ah, sir,
-I have often longed for a real mother, one to whom I could go and tell
-all my little secrets, one who could feel the love for me which my nature
-seems to crave.
-
-“My father was a most indulgent parent, but I fear that in his great
-goodness he failed to conceive the emotions of a girl’s heart.
-
-“When I was fifteen I met a young man from the North. It was quite an
-accidental meeting, but it was not an accident that I loved him, nor
-that he worshiped me. He came to our plantation to buy some horses for
-his stables in Chicago; he was honorable enough to ask my father for my
-hand in marriage, whereupon my father flew into a rage, told him that his
-business there was buying horses and not putting foolish notions into a
-young girl’s head. The scene was a stormy one and closed by the young
-man being ordered to leave. He left that night and took me with him. We
-crossed the river into Indiana and tried to get married, but on account
-of my extreme youthful appearance we were unable to obtain the license.
-We traveled on to Cincinnati, failure again confronted us. Just as we
-were in the act of boarding a train for Chicago an officer arrested us.
-I was taken back to my home, while my lover was placed in jail on the
-charge of abduction. A taste of the things in the outer world only made
-the fancies in my childish brain grow. I soon found myself planning how I
-could leave my father’s home and secure freedom for the only man I loved.
-I begged and pleaded with my father, but to no avail; finally he informed
-me that he would horsewhip me and lock me up if I ever mentioned the
-matter again. This was too much; all the pride within me bounded to the
-surface, my hot Southern blood tingled, my cheeks flamed in anger. It was
-then that I missed my mother more than any time in my life, the thought
-of her put a new idea into my disturbed brain. I would go to the spot
-where she was laid to rest, there to find relief in the desolation of the
-grave.
-
-“It seems as but yesterday that I strolled down the lane, across the
-meadow, and entered the little enclosure that had been set apart for a
-final resting place for the members of our little family, the ripened
-blue grass waved gently at the bidding of the gentle breeze, the full,
-warm October sun shed its beauteous rays of light upon the great
-spreading trees, the birds seemed to be chanting their last song of
-summer, the red and brown leaves lay scattered on the hillside, making
-a scene of gorgeous splendor in the bright sunlight. Drooping flowers
-showed signs of the first frost, chattering squirrels scurrying hither
-and thither, gathering the winter’s store of food, added to the fullness
-of nature.
-
-“As I followed the little unused path, keeping before me all the time
-the tall, white shaft, I seemed to leave the world in which I had been
-living, the choking sensation gave way, my eyes no longer burned, the
-great relief I sought seemed granted, and instead of gasping for breath
-and feeling the hot scalding tears running down my cheeks, I kneeled
-down on my mother’s grave and gave way to the sobs that came, it seemed
-to me, like great waves of comfort, and felt tears that were cool and
-refreshing. I remained there for hours, never looking up and not till a
-well known fluttering sound reached my ear, did I think of leaving. The
-noise was made by a flock of blackbirds that had come to seek shelter for
-the night. As I passed down the sloping hillside where the long shadows
-were fast fading into the twilight, the first feeling of loneliness crept
-over me but I did not want to leave. I loved the place. It seemed the
-most sacred place on earth to me.
-
-“That night as I rolled and tossed in my bed, I fully realized that
-I had been wrong. Yes—it was wrong for me to disobey my father and I
-had aggravated him until he was cross. It was all my fault that he had
-threatened me. I had no business to annoy him and would go now and ask
-his forgiveness. I stole out of my room feeling like a guilty culprit. I
-can see myself now as I crept through the long hall of our old Southern
-home, closer and closer to his door, until at last I could hear his deep,
-heavy breathing. I pushed the door open, then at the critical moment
-I became frightened lest I should waken him, still I was firm in my
-purpose. There in the darkness of his room I saw the hillside, saw the
-birds and heard the soft rustling of the leaves. Oh, how my heart went
-out to poor papa, alone—alone—in the world, with only an ungrateful,
-disobedient daughter as his nearest of kin. I am sure that the time
-spent at the grave created a communion of souls. I could almost see my
-mother as she had been pictured to me, and the vision drew me nearer to
-papa. One step more and I was inside the room, cautiously I crept to the
-bedside, then quietly kneeling on the carpet, I buried my face in the
-pillow beside his head, then for the first time that I could remember I
-put my arms around his neck and kissed him. His first words brought a
-flood of tears to my eyes and caused such a lump to rise in my throat
-that I could not say a word. I knew now that he misunderstood me, for
-with a muttered curse he commanded me to go back to my room.
-
-“‘But please, papa, hear me,’ I begged.
-
-“‘No, I don’t want any more foolish nonsense out of you,’ he said.
-
-“Nothing could induce him to hear me, and I was compelled to leave
-without making him understand that it was forgiveness and just a word of
-love that my young heart yearned for, instead of his permission to see my
-lover.
-
-“Back to the loneliness of my own room I went. As I felt my way along the
-dark hall I wished that I might die. Ah, if I could only have heard one
-kind word from him I would—well, I am sure that you would not have had
-this story for your book, but I suppose,” said the girl with a dreamy
-sigh, “that the foundation of your work is cemented together with the
-mortar made from mistakes.”
-
-“Yes, I quite agree with you, that if there were no sorrow in this world
-this book never would have been written.”
-
-“Well, back to the story,” she said, with a toss of her head, as though
-she would have it done with.
-
-“Yes, go on.”
-
-“I returned to bed but not to sleep; I tossed about in frantic efforts to
-forget the burning wound I felt. When daylight came I arose and dressed
-myself without calling my maid. My eyes were so red and swollen that I
-could not go down to breakfast at the usual hour and when I did go I
-asked for my father.
-
-“‘Law sakes alive, honey, you fadah done lef de place mos’ an houah
-ago,’ said my old black mammy.
-
-“‘Did he leave any word for me?’ I asked.
-
-“‘No, Mis’ Abbie, he jes went and nevah said nothin’.’
-
-“My heart fell within me. I had intended to try again to explain to him
-my resolutions of the day before. Later in the day I learned that my
-father had gone on a ten days’ trip. Oh, how desolate I felt, with no one
-but the colored servants about. I am not surprised now that I was easily
-persuaded to leave my home, and it came about in this way: On the evening
-of the day of my father’s departure, a man came to our house on business;
-he was not an entire stranger for he had been there many times before
-although I had seen but little of him. He was a noted horseman from
-California and his business, like my lover’s, was to purchase horses.
-He was received into our house and all the generous hospitality of a
-Kentucky home was extended to him, and I, being the only member of the
-family at home, took upon myself the duty of entertaining our guest. He
-was a man of fifty and his gray hairs added much to his polite dignity.
-He was a much traveled man and his stories of adventure were so thrilling
-and interesting that he quickly had me wrapped in attention. The evening
-being warm, we sat on the broad gallery (better known as a veranda in the
-North) and after asking my permission, he lit a cigar and as he leisurely
-puffed and blew out clouds of smoke, he explained to me how he had been
-all over the world, and where he lived. In doing so he painted such
-pictures of the beauties of nature that I lost interest in the little
-world that I had always known. A new desire was created within me and
-then a new thought came to me. I wondered if this kind old gentleman had
-any daughters of his own, and if he had I wanted to hear about them; that
-desire was followed with the thought that it would be nice if my father
-were like him. I finally asked him if he had a daughter, but he seemed
-reticent as to her. At last with a struggle born of desperation I asked
-him if his daughter loved him and should come to him for advice would he
-give it.
-
-“‘Bless your heart, yes, any father would do that,’ said he.
-
-“I did not think he could hear me crying softly, and I made no reply
-for some moments, that my quivering voice might not be the talisman of
-betrayal. At last I ventured to say, ‘It would be so nice if such were
-really the case.’
-
-“At that he said, ‘Come here, little girl, and tell me what the trouble
-is.’
-
-“With that great desire to unload my heart, I could not resist. I needed
-but one invitation. I told him all. When I had finished he said, ‘I know
-your father very, very well, and do not think he will consent, but I will
-help you.’
-
-“‘Oh! you will,’ I exclaimed, ‘I knew you would; you are so good, so
-kind;’ and I fell upon my knees in front of him.
-
-“The plans were quickly made. I was to leave the house the next day, go
-to the railway station which was but a mile distant, buy a ticket and
-go to Indianapolis, wait until my benefactor could go to Cincinnati to
-secure the release of my lover, then they would join me and we would
-be married. It all carried nicely. After we were married the question
-arose as to how to keep out of reach of my father’s wrath. That was soon
-settled by our accepting an invitation to visit our champion in San
-Francisco. My father made no attempt to follow me so far as I know.
-
-“We set up housekeeping in the West. My husband was devoted to me and
-we could never thank our ‘good Samaritan,’ as we called him, enough
-for helping us. As you well know, a Southern bud soon bursts into a
-full grown flower, consequently I was not long in developing into a
-full fledged woman, and in spite of my tender years, I felt the full
-importance that devolved upon me, when, after twelve months of wedded
-life, a baby girl came to brighten our home.
-
-“My husband had not entered into business of any kind, he having plenty
-of money, and as he said, cared to do nothing but love his ‘little girl.’
-Happy? I was as happy as an angel and sometimes think that the memory
-of those days keeps me alive now; again, the thought almost crushes me.
-I shall never forget the first cloud that hovered over my sunlit career
-of wifehood and motherhood. It was in the evening of one of the days of
-the great race meet. I was waiting for my husband to come home, sitting
-in the window as was my custom. It was after nightfall, but many of the
-pleasure seekers of the day had extended the revelry into twilight sport.
-Handsome equipages, loaded with gaily dressed women and well groomed men,
-rolled by one after another. Some were singing, while some more fortunate
-carried buglers and other musicians. I had not attended the races, on
-account of not wishing to leave the baby, but Harry, my husband, had
-gone. We had been invited by our old friend and while Harry gently
-protested that he would not go a step without me, he finally consented
-after considerable persuasion on my part. At nine o’clock in the evening
-my weary vigil was rewarded. A four-in-hand drawing a handsome tally-ho
-drew rein in front of our home. I could not see any of the faces and the
-first intimation I had of Harry’s being in the crowd was a remark some
-one addressed to him, saying, ‘It’s all dark, Hal, old man, nobody at
-home, don’t get out.’
-
-“Then I heard him say, ‘Oh yes, I know she is here waiting for me, and I
-must leave you.’
-
-“Then a jangle of maudlin voices, one saying one thing and one another,
-but among the many things that were said were, ‘Goodnight, sweetheart,’
-and ‘Here, kiss me once more before you leave.’ ‘Be sure and come up
-tomorrow.’
-
-“I could stand no more; I moved from my position to a point where I could
-touch the button which turned on the electric lights, then I heard this:
-
-“‘Hist, sh—be still,’ and then in the brave and manly tones, I heard him
-thank his host. The host asked to be remembered to me, and to assure
-me that he was sorry I could not be with them, etc.,—then respectable,
-cheery good nights, were the parting salutes.
-
-“Harry came into the house and as was his custom, took me in his arms. I
-discovered that he had been drinking, but uttered no word of reproach,
-neither did he offer to explain. Next day after he had gone down town,
-I sent a note to our old friend which he answered in person. I begged
-him not to take Harry on any more escapades. He laughingly answered that
-a man must see a little of the world; I did not like his manner, and
-frankly asked him to tell me all about the affair.
-
-“‘There’s nothing to tell,’ said he, ‘except that as you know, Harry is
-a fine fellow and a good entertainer, and I needed him to help to take
-care of that jolly little party and I must say that he was a success. Ah,
-yes—Harry is a prime favorite, and you, my little girl, should be proud
-to know that since he has been so unfortunate as to lose every dollar of
-his own that he can yet be of such service to me that I can afford to pay
-him a princely sum for his good qualities.’
-
-“‘Lost every dollar! why, what do you mean Mr. ⸺?’
-
-“‘I mean that unfortunate speculation has caused your husband to—to—Ah,
-well never mind, little girl, I did not come here to tell you bad news,
-but, rather to comfort and assist you. Come, come, cheer up,’ he said, as
-he laid his hand on my bowed head in a kindly manner.
-
-“‘But I implore you to tell all. All, everything!’
-
-“‘Yes, let the worst be known. It is I who can help him most, I, his wife
-who has shared his comforts during days of plenty who must now cling to
-him in his penniless misery.’
-
-“‘Oh, come now, don’t take it so hard, it is not so bad as that; he can
-make a very comfortable living for you and the baby.’
-
-“‘But how? He has no money,—no business,—no position.’
-
-“‘Have I not just told you that as an entertainer he was valuable? I can
-use him to good advantage. You see, little girl, I travel much, have many
-horses, and consequently many followers. During racing season I sometimes
-have a full carload of ladies and gentlemen going where I go and backing
-my horses, and we entertain the hosts who gather at the race tracks.’
-
-“‘Oh, you are so kind, sir; and we can travel and help you,’ I said
-eagerly.
-
-“‘Well, yes, or rather Harry can, but you see, little girl, you must not
-want to go.’
-
-“‘Why not, why cannot I go too? I will do all I can to help; I want to go
-with Harry, and I know he will want me.’
-
-“‘Yes, all that is true, but you can see, my dear girl, the people we
-have are—well—at any rate you might not like them.’
-
-“‘But I will try, I will do all I can to make them like me.’
-
-“‘Yes, I know,—but the truth of the matter is they are not fit for you to
-associate with.’
-
-“‘Not fit—why, what do you mean? Not fit companions for me and yet my
-husband is to become your hireling and mingle with them.’
-
-“My blood boiled, my heart seemed to leap to my throat, while my temples
-throbbed until my head was in a whirl.
-
-“‘Oh, but you see that is another matter,’ said my caller. ‘With your
-husband going it is simply a business proposition, while with you, to say
-the least, it would ruin your reputation.’
-
-“‘And my husband’s name, how about that? Is that not to be considered?
-Am I to sit at home idle and permit my husband to join a party of men
-and women whose companionship is of such a nature as would ruin a decent
-woman who happened to be in their company? No! no, Mr. ⸺, if the company
-is unfit for me, it is not good enough for him.’
-
-“‘But you must live.’
-
-“‘Yes, but not on the price of my husband’s honor.’
-
-“‘Oh, my! what a fine little lady you are, but come now, think it over
-a while and I will see you later, and here, for fear you will need
-something, take this,’ and he pushed a roll of bills into my hand, then
-added, as he saw the look of disgust on my face, ‘it is all right, I owe
-it to Harry and you are entitled to it.’
-
-“I took the money and he departed.
-
-“That night Harry did not come home, though I watched and waited until
-nearly daylight. When morning came, I sent a note to Mr. ⸺, asking for
-Harry. He replied that he would see me later in the day, and if Harry was
-not home by the time he called, he would tell me where he had gone.
-
-“Gone—what did all this mean? Oh, the agony of that day. When night
-came I was years older. As I then thought the climax of my sorrows was
-reached. In the evening our old friend called to inform me that Harry
-had recently been drinking and gambling, and associating with improper
-persons until not only was all his money gone, but his good name as
-well; in fact, he had incriminated himself by obtaining money by false
-representations, and had left for parts unknown.
-
-“‘But that need not have bothered him, for the man he had defrauded was
-our old friend himself, and he would not have punished him, for my sake
-if for no other reason,’ so he told me by way of explanation.
-
-“Oh, what was I to do? Left almost destitute and disgraced by my baby’s
-father. Our friend kindly offered to assist me, but how could I accept
-it? for I knew no way by which I could repay him. Well, finally he left
-me, after doing all he could to comfort me while I wept, using the
-kindest words and softest tones. He averred no harm could come to me from
-any source, and as a parting salute kissed my tear stained cheek and
-said, ‘rather than have you suffer, little girl, I will personally supply
-all your wants.’
-
-“The long hours dragged on until gray streaks of dawn were visible
-breaking in the East before my weary eyes closed in slumber. I was
-awakened early by the maid, only to be notified that I had a caller who
-insisted on seeing me at once.
-
-“I dressed hurriedly and sallied forth to greet my caller, who proved to
-be a neighbor lady. She was one of those people who at times suddenly
-become deeply interested in other people’s affairs. She had just run in
-to tell me that it was something terrible the way I was carryin’ on.”
-
-“‘Just think,’ she said, ‘your husband gone and left you, and all because
-of that old dog who comes here every night! Oh, I am sorry for you, but I
-want you to know that you are not the first woman who has been deserted
-by her husband on account of seeing too much of that “licentious old
-cur.”’
-
-“I was too dumfounded to answer her, and only told her that I did
-not understand, consequently did not choose to enter into a lengthy
-discussion of the matter. I closed the short but stormy interview by
-asking to be excused and was highly gratified by seeing my early and
-impertinent caller pass out with her nose high in the air.
-
-“My time was absorbed during the morning hours trying to determine the
-cause of her violent abuse of our friend. My mind was relieved about
-the luncheon hour, when I had another caller; this one also a neighbor
-and a woman of refinement. She came to console me in my trouble, saying
-among other things, that it was an event which had been looked for as the
-inevitable result, for many weeks. I was not overjoyed at the particular
-kind of consolation which she dealt out, but my spirit was subdued to
-some extent and my anger of the early morning somewhat mollified. I was
-curious to know in just what position I was.
-
-“My second caller soon made me acquainted with facts that surprised
-me. She told me that the uncouth old lady who had called first was the
-mother of a poor unfortunate, who had at one time possessed a charming
-figure and a pretty face; their former residence had been in the slums
-of the city. One day our friend saw her and took a fancy to her, induced
-her to accompany him in a round of debauchery, and while yet under the
-influence of the drunken infatuation, he had purchased the beautiful
-home near by and moved the girl and her mother into it; but the flower
-soon faded and the attraction which the poor young thing had held for
-him was soon gone. He settled with them in a financial way that afforded
-the means to maintain the well located home. The fact that he paid no
-further attention to them angered the old lady and she made use of every
-opportunity to abuse and decry him.
-
-“That same evening I was favored with another call from the gentleman
-himself; he had heard nothing from Harry, and could give me no
-information as to his whereabouts. I asked him for advice and he
-suggested that I wait a reasonable time for news from Harry, and if I
-did not hear from him, he thought it would be well for me to start out
-to find him. Next day the agent who had charge of the house in which we
-lived, called.
-
-“‘I came,’ he said, ‘to collect the rent.’
-
-“‘I was not aware that we owed any rent,’ was my response.
-
-“‘Oh, yes, two months.’
-
-“‘But I was under the impression that my husband leased the premises for
-a year.’
-
-“‘So he did, but did not pay the rent for a year.’
-
-“In my ignorance of city affairs I never dreamed but that city homes were
-rented the same as farms. Then, with a happy thought, I said, ‘I will pay
-you, how much is it?’
-
-“‘Well, the fact is, if you want the house it will be $150 per month.’
-
-“‘But that is more than we were to pay.’
-
-“‘Yes, I know, but I have been compelled to raise the rent.’
-
-“‘Why?’ then thinking of the lease I said, ‘does not the contract hold
-good?’
-
-“‘No, you see you have forfeited your rights in the lease by a failure to
-pay according to the terms stipulated in it.’
-
-“‘But why do you ask double?’
-
-“‘I have reasons which I would rather not make known to you.’
-
-“‘I suppose it is because my husband is away, and you think you are in a
-position to take advantage of me,’ I said warmly.
-
-“‘No, it is not that, but if you insist on knowing, I will tell you.’
-
-“‘Proceed.’
-
-“‘I am sorry, but it is because this is an irreproachable neighborhood,
-and some of the residents of this locality object to your living here
-any longer, and as I have many clients in this immediate vicinity, it
-behooves me to heed their demands.’
-
-“I was almost too wild to speak but finally found my mind and tongue in a
-co-operative state long enough to ask him the reason why I was ostracised
-by the neighbors.
-
-“‘Because you have Mr. ⸺ call here, and it is a well known fact that he
-was the cause of your husband’s leaving you.’
-
-“My head swam, my throat ached as I forced back the sobs which almost
-choked me. My pride was not to be crushed in this manner, so I went to
-my room and produced the roll of bills which this man, whose very touch
-seemed poison to a woman’s name, had given me; for the first time I
-counted the money, just three hundred dollars, how gladly and proudly I
-handed it to the agent, never thinking where my next dollar was coming
-from, and he, crafty man that he was, gave me two receipts, one for the
-two months we owed him, at seventy-five dollars per month, the other
-for one hundred and fifty dollars in advance. Within two hours after he
-left the house I received a notice that my rent had been raised to three
-hundred dollars per month, and in addition he must ask me to give him
-a secured lease. What to do I did not know. I sat down and wrote to my
-father. I waited five days for the answer which I hoped would contain
-an enclosure, during which time I remained indoors not speaking to a
-person except my maid. I fed my soul on the anticipation that I should
-be able to live down the unearned shame which had fallen upon me. I
-knew, of course, when papa understood my position he would be liberal,
-and that after all, the pitiless neighbors must apologize to me, for I
-was as good as any of them. The reply came. Oh, joy of heaven and earth!
-how I kissed the envelope on which was the well known chirography of my
-dear old papa. Then with trembling hands and joyous exclamations, I tore
-the end off, and nervously pulled out the reply. The sheet on which the
-answer was written was crumpled and clinched tightly in my hand when I
-regained consciousness; the maid and the kind old doctor were the only
-ones with me; the doctor soon left and I read the answer again, ‘Better
-get the man who helped you to marry that dog, to help you now.’ That was
-all, and that was written across the back of the envelope which contained
-the letter which I had written him. Just at nightfall the door bell
-rang; the maid reported that my old friend had called. But the doctor
-had left strict orders that I see no one, and she sent him away; in less
-than an hour several bottles of the rarest wine that his famous cellar
-contained, were sent to me, along with an armful of most beautiful cut
-flowers.
-
-“For three weeks I laid in a bed of fever, during which time the only
-feminine voices that reached my ears were those of the trained nurse and
-my maid. Each day dainty ices and fresh flowers were sent to me, all by
-the hand of the man whose acquaintance was a black mark on the white
-character of any woman.
-
-“During all those days of tossing in burning delirium, no women in the
-neighborhood crossed the threshold of my home. I often thought as I
-rolled and twisted in search of some cool spot in the bed, that if some
-kind hearted woman would just come in and touch me or look on me with a
-feeling of friendship, I would have been ready to take a good cry, then
-close my eyes to all things earthly. But no—I lived to feel the sting of
-and be despised by my sex.
-
-“After I recovered my old friend called. I was so grateful for all he had
-done, that he really seemed near to me; then I told him the incident of
-the lease, and my appeal to my father, whereupon he scolded me gently,
-for not having come to him in the first place.
-
-“When I was able to go out he took me for a drive; his company was all
-the pleasure I enjoyed. Women whom I had known, turned their noses up
-when I met them on the street. Finally the time came for the rent to be
-paid again. I was still weak from my recent illness. We had just started
-for a drive when the agent called again. I told him at the door that I
-had not the money with which to pay the enormous sum due for rent, and
-it ended by his giving me notice to vacate.
-
-“Next day a special messenger brought me a signed receipt for a year’s
-rent, together with a brief note from my friend, saying that he had just
-bought the property and was now the landlord. I could not see then what
-it all meant, but I know now, that I was simply sold to the highest
-bidder, and the buyer conducted the sale and purchase all on his own
-account.
-
-“I shall never forget my seduction; it occurred right there where I
-had known so many happy hours with Harry, in the same room where I had
-been accustomed to receive his beautiful caresses, there in the midst
-of condemning neighbors; flowers filled the room in wild profusion.
-We had a dinner, my friend had invited a few gentlemen to spend the
-evening, the feast of good things was freely washed down with wine.
-A musician had kept the piano ringing out sweet melodies; everything
-appeared bright; words seemed soft and soothing, time passed quickly, the
-callers were gone all too soon, in fact, just as I had begun to fully
-enjoy the evening, they seemed to fade away almost before I knew they
-were gone. The lights were lowered, as though being smothered by the
-perfume that filled the house; everything looked soft and velvety, the
-flowers organized themselves into a kaleidoscopic scene as though they
-understood that it was time for retirement and so effectually blended
-their different hues as to cause one to feel that sweet repose abided in
-the air.
-
-“I was so glad when I reached my bed and realized in a dreamy way that I
-was being disrobed and fondled at the same time. At last with the silken
-folds of a new gown, that I did not know was in my wardrobe, clinging
-softly to my excited, trembling form, I reached the point where the
-curtain must be drawn.
-
-“When I awoke the next morning, my head throbbed wildly, my eyes smarted,
-while my hands seemed pale and weak. As I staggered from room to room
-in search of I don’t know what, strange sights met my gaze; a table in
-a bad state of disorder, chairs misplaced and flowers whose heads had
-once been held high in the air were now drooping, while many petals were
-scattered about the room. An air of desolation hovered in every nook
-and corner, the atmosphere seemed stifling, the rays of morning sun
-straggled through the half open slats of the window shutters. My heart
-was heavier than ever before, the consolation I sought when I thought of
-my seducer’s kindness in comparison to my father’s cruel treatment was
-of small consequence. I tried to blame my father for the loss of that
-which heretofore I had held so holy and sacred, that even the thought of
-surrendering it to any man not rightfully possessing it had never entered
-my innocent mind. I went to the little nursery and there in the morning
-light, my baby was slumbering in perfect peace, no trial, no sorrow, no
-temptation had as yet come to the pure infantile heart.
-
-“The following nights for a fortnight were only repetitions of the acts
-of the night just described. I learned to sleep by day, and as the shades
-of evening gathered, shutting out the glaring light of the setting sun,
-I would find myself engaged with my toilet, endeavoring to appear at my
-best, for my friend took great pains to compliment me on my personal
-appearance, consequently my pride knew no bounds.
-
-“Every night he spent with me fondling me as a child does a new toy, and
-why not? Was I not a new plaything for this man of millions?
-
-“I had lost interest in my baby, so much so, that I would not see her
-for days at a time, leaving her to the care of a nurse girl. I had given
-up hope of ever seeing Harry again, and cared little about him. He had
-willfully wronged and deserted me, he was a thing of the past to my
-frivolous mind. If I became blue and depressed, I would have the maid
-bring me a bottle of wine from the well stocked cellar. But all this must
-end. A change such as the frailties of humanity seek, is sure to come. I
-grew tired of the solitude that I had to contend with; I was a prisoner.
-One day I told my friend that I wanted to travel some.
-
-“‘All right,’ said he, ‘I am going to Chicago, I start in two days, get
-ready and make the trip with me.’
-
-“I was wild and in my delight I threw my arms around his neck and thanked
-him. It was agreed that we should spend one more night in the house
-where we had known so many pleasures before departing. That night of all
-nights, we had a sumptuous dinner, wine, cordials, everything that two
-happy, healthy people could indulge in. It was on that occasion that I
-fully concluded that I could not live without him, and discovered that
-things which I had hitherto loathed and despised, I now looked upon as a
-part of my daily existence.
-
-“The city was reached in due time. The first day here was given to rest,
-then a round of sightseeing which fairly dazzled me. I had never given
-much thought as to the immensity of Chicago, and it is little wonder that
-my unsophisticated mind was overcrowded with the many things that were on
-every hand for it to feed upon.
-
-“It was after ten days of revelry, during which time we went to every
-place of entertainment, both high and low, that this city contains, that
-my mind for the first time reverted to my baby, and then to Harry. Not
-that I cared for him still, but I was seized with a fit of curiosity.
-About this time horse racing began here at Washington Park track, and
-as my friend and admirer was in that business, I, too, became very
-enthusiastic in the sport. Every day I could be seen in a box, the most
-lavishly gowned woman at the ring side. I had money and tips, and being
-full of the blood that tingles with feverish excitement when anything
-is at stake, I quickly and easily became the best known woman among the
-talent which frequents the race course; I wagered and won and lost with
-the same confiding nonchalance. I cared nothing for the money, for I
-knew not the value, but I was filled with the true desire to be able
-to pick the winner. At last the season ended, but not until a certain
-influential and wealthy man of this city managed to fall desperately in
-love with me, and as he was young, handsome and clever I must admit that
-the fickle goddess who waves the magic wand over such affairs succeeded
-in convincing me that my California friend had faded some, the glamour
-seemed to have receded, but honesty and gratitude had not yet been
-completely eliminated from my sinful soul, and it was with real tears and
-sobs that I told him that I had learned to love the younger man. His
-reply only verified statements which I had heard made in regard to him,
-being that he was always cool, even at the betting stand. He would lose
-or win a fortune without a change of countenance.
-
-“‘But his reply.’
-
-“‘Oh, yes,’ he simply said, ‘all right, the season is ended, I am through
-with you, anyway.’ Then taking my hand in his, he said good-bye and
-departed.
-
-“Then began the new life. Oh, how easy the second step! Rather than
-dread it, I looked forward to the completing of the arrangements with
-pleasure. My new suitor knew my past history except that I had a child.
-We took elegant apartments, and he spent the greater portion of his
-time with me. We were very congenial companions; for months this life
-continued; at last the existence became monotonous to me. I began to long
-for something, I knew not what. I often found myself thinking of my past
-life, my childhood home and my child—the memory of whom I had allowed
-to go almost entirely out of my mind. One day Mr. Eddy came to see me
-and found me weeping; he questioned me and then I told him of my baby,
-and God bless him, he insisted on my sending for her, which I did. He
-arranged it all for the nurse to come to me and in seven days my little
-girl was in my arms. I then became possessed of a new feeling, such, I
-think, as only a mother can experience. I felt as if I must change my
-mode of living, but how? To go to my father meant to be turned away and
-the burden was double when the care of a baby and earning a living were
-both to be considered. Again I put the matter before my friend; he was
-kindness itself and proposed to marry me and be the father that my child
-needed. I gladly accepted his offer, but before we could be legally
-married, it was necessary for me to obtain a divorce from Harry. We took
-the first steps in that direction, one of which was to advertise as the
-law specified, and lo and behold! the advertisement had an unlooked for
-effect. It brought Harry from his long silence. He found me and we talked
-the matter over with my husband to be. It was at this meeting that I
-learned the cause of Harry’s action. He told us as follows:
-
-“Our old California friend had induced him to bet his every cent on
-certain races on the day he came home with the crowd, and he had lost
-all. Then in order to retrieve his losses he was advised to become a
-forger in order to get more money with which to again play the races.
-It was the same old story, he lost, then for fear of punishment he left
-the country. I then told him all. Oh, how sorry I felt for poor Harry!
-After exchanging ideas, we became convinced that it was all a plot of
-the kind old man in California to get me in his clutches. After we were
-assured of that, Harry asked me to promise not to go further with divorce
-proceedings until he saw me again. I promised him. I also promised him
-not to receive a penny from the man who now wanted to marry me, and as I
-could not live as I had been, with my child under the same roof, we left.
-I sold my handsome gowns, and jewelry, furnished this poor little home
-and baby and I have lived here since.
-
-“‘But Harry, where is he?’
-
-“‘In the State’s Prison of California.’
-
-“‘Ah, he was caught at last and punished for forgery.’
-
-“‘No, when he left me he went to California and killed my traducer, he is
-serving a term of ten years for manslaughter, and I am waiting for him.’”
-
-
-
-
-TALE SEVEN.
-
-MY LOVER’S BEQUEST.
-
-TWO WOMEN.
-
- “I know two women and one is chaste,
- And cold as the snows on a Winter waste,
- Stainless ever in act and thought
- A cruel tongue and a jealous mind.
- (As a man, born dumb, in his speech errs not),
- But she had malice toward her kind,
- Void of pity and full of greed,
- She judges the world by her narrow creed;
- A brewer of quarrels, a breeder of hate,
- Yet she holds the key to ‘Society’s’ gate.
-
- The other woman with heart of flame,
- Went mad for love that marred her name;
- And out of the grave of her murdered faith,
- She rose like a soul that has passed through death.
- Her aims are noble, her pity so broad,
- It covers the world like the mercy of God,
- A soother of discord, a healer of woes,
- Peace follows her footsteps wherever she goes,
- The worthier life of the two no doubt,
- And yet ‘Society’ locks her out.”
-
-
-“You ask me why my house is so gorgeously furnished, why the music, why
-the beautiful young women lounging about? You say the oriental splendor
-reminds you of what your ideas have always been as to the making of a
-typical harem. I do not blame you. Men are very apt to make more serious
-mistakes than you have made in this instance. Would you like to see my
-girls? You would, eh?”
-
-As this tall, dignified woman completed her monologue, she touched an
-ivory button on the side of the mahogany secretary in front of which
-she was seated. The silence which followed the closing of her remarks
-was broken only by the sounds of sweet strains of music, which floated
-through this spacious house on one of the notable streets of the
-“Tenderloin” district of Chicago.
-
-I sat and quietly waited for the response, which I knew would come at
-the touch of that bell. A description of the interior of that palace
-is beyond my power, and had I tried to take mental notes, I would have
-failed completely, for I felt the steady gaze of her blue eyes upon me
-so strong that I could not center my mind on anything but the woman. In
-spite of the fact that she was not more than thirty-five years old, her
-hair was silvery gray; her eyes were bright, her skin soft and fair; a
-smile of natural sincerity helped to light the sweet face, adding an
-expression to the pink and white that would cause any man to become a
-close observer, if not an admirer, of the woman, even without making
-a more scrutinizing survey of her many other charms. The poise of her
-head, the full, round neck, the broad, yet plump shoulders, the long,
-beautifully moulded arm and tapering fingers, served to attract a
-reasonable share of attention from the heaving bosom and slender waist
-of my hostess. My going over process was interrupted by a merry laugh,
-which caused my fair entertainer to rise, then with the grace and dignity
-of a queen, she presented to me the entire coterie of new comers, who
-constituted the bevy of young ladies which came into the room.
-
-I was at once convinced that all the income of this house was not spent
-on the furnishings, for each young woman was gowned in a manner befitting
-the occasion. Some music and a few songs occupied the next fifteen or
-twenty minutes, during which time I used my eyes with as much of a
-critical air as was possible. Presently I told the lady of the house that
-I wished to talk with her in person before I made further acquaintance
-with any of the inmates of her rendezvous. The hint was sufficient, and
-we were soon alone.
-
-“Well,” said she pleasantly.
-
-“Yes, I want to talk privately with you.”
-
-“Proceed.”
-
-“But, had we not better retire to some private room where we will not be
-in danger of being disturbed?”
-
-“This house is mine; we will not be interrupted here,” she said sweetly.
-
-“Thank you. Then I will tell you what I want. I am looking for facts and
-wish you to give me the entire history of your life.”
-
-The smile of anticipation faded into a look of remorse, that expression
-in turn was followed by an inquisitive look which told me that the woman
-was feigning misunderstanding.
-
-“Yes,” I continued, “I want to know how you happened to be here.” The
-fair cheeks flushed, the intelligent brow wrinkled, while hard lines were
-plainly visible around her mouth, as I finished the sentence.
-
-“It may be a long story,” said the woman, as she gazed at the bright
-buckles on the dainty slippers which encased her feet.
-
-“I am willing to listen if you will be kind enough to tell me all,” said
-I.
-
-“My early life was devoid of anything more than most girls are called
-upon to endure. At the age of twelve I lost my mother, at fifteen death
-claimed my father, then I went to live with a maiden aunt in Columbus,
-Ind. I was poor, very poor. As I now look back and view the past, I
-wonder that I was able to continue my studies until I graduated with
-high honors, but I did and the day I was seventeen my greatest heights
-of happiness were scaled, for it was on that eventful day that my
-youthful lover, Jamie Harris and I became engaged with the consent of my
-auntie, provided, however, we would not think of marriage until Jamie
-had finished his course at college, which he was taking at the State
-University, located at Bloomington, Ind. We two young lovers, eager in
-our happiness, consented to the plans which my spinster relative laid for
-us. Jamie was twenty; he had two more years in the regular collegiate
-course, then a professional course of some sort and we would be ready to
-take up life’s journey.
-
-“Meanwhile, I bided my time, looking forward to the longed for event with
-anticipation in every way worthy of the reward. One long year dragged
-along; I cared for no one, thought of nothing but to dream of Jamie.
-All the little details of ‘love in a cottage’ had been thoroughly gone
-over, and directed, I, in my own mind, trying to find some method of
-improvement on the time worn ethics of a wife’s duty.
-
-“When morning came I busied myself with the affairs of my aunt’s humble
-home, which I, too, had known as my only shelter for years. I moved with
-the spirit of love. I became mechanical in doing things while I drew on
-my imagination to such an extent, that at times I almost fancied that it
-was our home (Jamie’s and mine), and that I was serving him. I planned
-and thought so much of how I would always have his slippers ready, and
-papers and cigars, for he smoked. Oh, all the dreams made me so happy and
-contented.
-
-“It was the beginning of the second year that I received an invitation to
-visit a friend in Franklin, Ind., a near-by town. During my stay there
-I met many and made scores of friends; it was then that I realized how
-closely my life and Jamie’s had become cemented together. I saw the world
-as I had never before known it to exist; I was the recipient of many
-favors at the hands of my new friends. If I failed to write to Jamie as
-often as I had done, he excused me by saying in his letters that he was
-glad I was having a good time. Theaters, drives, parties, dinners, etc.,
-to the fulfillment of my fondest hopes. More excitement than I had ever
-expected to know.
-
-“The friend whom I was visiting was a few years my senior, and when I
-explained to her that I was engaged and suggested that it might not
-be good form for me to receive the attentions of a certain young man,
-who insisted on occupying most of my time, she only laughed and said I
-had lots to learn. She then gave me much information along the lines
-of society conventionalities. She was my best friend. I heard all she
-said and allowed myself to put too broad a construction on her words. I
-allowed words to be poured into my ears that changed the feeling which I
-had had for poor Jamie. My new admirer was rich, handsome and gallant and
-much admired by all the girls of ‘the set.’
-
-“True to the expectation of those girls, I seemed to win Francis Winslow.
-He had no eyes for any but me. Things drifted along until the time came
-for my home going, then all on account of his persuasions, I remained a
-week longer than my allotted time. When I arrived home I received several
-letters from Jamie and a severe scolding from my aunt. The letters dated
-back ten days; the tone of the oldest one was the same sweet, endearing
-sentiment, which had always made his messages so precious, but as I sat
-reading through the many pages, I perceived as I thought a coldness
-(though I know now it was love’s anxiety). The last two hurt me; they
-referred to things which I could not account for his knowing. Finally
-the closing of the last letter said, ‘If not too busy flirting with your
-friend, Winslow, please answer.’
-
-“It was more than my young heart could bear. I did not know then that I
-was just looking for some excuse for stinging him and now it had come.
-I had never flirted; I had met Mr. Winslow under proper conditions and
-circumstances. He had always been courteous to me. I had been true to
-Jamie, though my love had faltered. Next day’s mail brought a letter to
-my aunt and one to me; the one to aunt was from Jamie. I do not know what
-it contained, but it was of such a nature that she heaped a tirade of
-abuse on me.
-
-“‘Just to think!’ said she. ‘I’ve worked and done for you all these
-years and tried to raise you decent, and done all this for my poor dead
-sister’s sake, and when I’ve got you fit to marry a good man, you go and
-spoil it all by takin’ up with a fop you nor the Lord don’t know nothin’
-about.’
-
-“The letter which I had tucked away in my bosom was from Mr. Winslow.
-It stated that he was going to visit in this city and he would be glad
-to have me join him. ‘I know,’ it said, ‘that you will have to invent
-some excuse for your absence from home, but that can be arranged by your
-saying you met my cousin, while in Franklin, and she will write you soon,
-asking you to spend a week with her in Chicago. She is the wife of a
-railroad man and will send you transportation.’
-
-“My mind was quickly made up; I would not stand my aunt’s abuse and
-Jamie’s insults. If Mr. Winslow liked me, as he said, he would probably
-propose to me and we would get married, ‘so there now.’ That letter was
-followed two days later by one from Mr. Winslow’s cousin, enclosing
-a ticket, which auntie did not know from a pass. The invitation was
-pressing and I came here.”
-
-“But go on,” said I, as the long pause seemed to add solemnity to the
-stillness. “Tell me more of Jamie, of Winslow and of this,” said I, with
-a wave of my hand, indicating the interior of the spacious house.
-
-“Be patient,” she said, and then continued.
-
-“Winslow met me at the station, then it was a ceaseless round
-of theaters, dinners and other amusements, which were new to my
-unsophisticated mind. His cousin was a myth. The woman who claimed to be
-his relative was none other than a hireling, who did all in her power to
-assist him in entrapping me. The speed with which I fell was something
-terrific; the bottomless pit of Hell was not very far away and I was an
-easy victim to the seductive plans of my pretended friend. The scene of
-my defamation is still fresh in my mind. It seems but yesterday, since
-he called for me at the home of the supposed cousin. Oh, the blackness
-of that night as it now appears to me, is only intensified and made more
-dismal, when I think of the lights, the gay music, the finely arrayed
-women and the entrancing wine; it was a long night of song and revelry,
-only to end in the beginning of a long day of miserable, torturing,
-painful existence. That fortress of purity, which is all a girl has
-upon which she can rely at all times, was stormed. The excitement, the
-glittering lights, and the enchanting environment added such argument
-as the man lacked in his make up. I suppose I was an easy victim, wine
-dulled my senses to such an extent that, as God is my judge, I was not
-wholly responsible for my acts; when morning came I awoke and knew that
-the great white star of virginity, which I had heretofore followed, had
-been transformed into a dull leaden aspect, which would only bespeak for
-me sullen misery and degradation.”
-
-“Where did it all happen?”
-
-“Right here in this house,” sighed the woman.
-
-“Here, and you have lived here ever since?”
-
-“No, at least not all of the time; after a few days of sobbing, longing
-for the old life and for Jamie returned to me. Then the horrible fact
-that I could never return to Jamie confronted me. Oh, what was I to do?
-With nothing in view and no aim in life, I returned to my aunt’s home
-only to be told that I could get out and ‘shift for myself.’ ‘This ain’t
-no home for no good for nuthin’ strumpet like you; clear out, I say! You
-ungrateful hussy.’
-
-“If you will excuse me I will not detail to you the feelings of pain
-which I endured as stings from her lash. It is quite enough to be
-compelled to live through such periods without being called upon to
-recite them in after years.
-
-“From there I went to the home of the friend in whose house I had met
-Mr. Winslow, then with that feeling of trust and confidence, I told
-her all; she blandly stated that she was sorry, but that I should have
-known better. Oh! that bitter sting, and from this woman, who could have
-taken me in her arms and heard my sobs, that act alone, I think, would
-have consoled me some; but no; she who could have replaced me upon the
-pedestal from which all women shine, said, ‘Well, run along now, I must
-dress for Mrs. ⸺’s reception. Maybe some day I will talk it all over with
-you.’
-
-“‘But, oh, please hear me! just a little. Help me,’ I begged.
-
-“‘I will see; I heard of some one who wanted a good girl, and I will try
-to find out, for you see, Lillian, you could do housework.’
-
-“Bah! ruined, turned into the street, scorned, too miserable to live,
-afraid to die.
-
-“I was not too good, nor too proud to work, but that was not what my
-heart yearned for; pity, love, sympathy, a kind look, a gentle touch
-would have done much to heal my troubled mind. I came back to Chicago. I
-went to Mr. Winslow’s cousin; she told me the cold, hard, cruel truth.
-I had been enticed to the city for the one purpose of gratifying the
-amorous desire of Mr. Winslow. The truth had long ago forced itself upon
-me, but the confession by the woman who had assisted in the plot made me
-desperate.
-
-“What to do? Where to go, were the questions. Home I had none; true
-friends were far away and unknown things to me. The lake! Oh, at last a
-friend, who could receive me in all my sorrow and shame, a refuge which
-never failed to take suffering humanity into its safe retreat, giving
-solace to all pain. Yes, I would write to my aunt and Jamie; I would
-confess to them what I was afraid to confront God with. My plans were
-all completed; I had one dollar to my name, enough to pay for a night’s
-lodging at some fairly respectable hotel. There I could write to them,
-and then when all was quiet, steal out to the pier and * * * then.”
-
- * * * * *
-
-“Four o’clock next morning I was ready. I stole out of the hotel, wended
-my way to the nearest place where I could walk far out on the timbers
-which projected into the moaning water. No hesitancy on my part; I
-deliberately tied the cord which I had brought around my skirts, let my
-hair down, so that the long plaits hung below my waist, then pressing
-the locket, (this locket) which contained my father’s miniature, to my
-lips, I leaped as far out as I could.
-
-“Down, down, below the gurgling waters, up to the surface, then down
-again, with just a faint dreamy view of the lights on Michigan avenue,
-then all was dark, all I could see was Jamie, as I felt myself being
-pulled along by some irresistible force. I only remember saying,
-‘Good-bye, Jamie.’”
-
- * * * * *
-
-“‘Oh, I think she is alive yet, Capin’,’ was what I heard a voice say
-long before I was able to assure the speaker that he was correct.
-
-“I had been picked up by a fisherman as the boat was starting out for
-the day’s haul. I recovered only to suffer more, too miserable to live,
-too unfortunate to die. A few days of privation and want brought me to
-this house, where I took up the routine life of the other members of the
-establishment, and vied with my associates for favors from the opposite
-sex. Success was the result of my efforts; I was soon known as a favorite
-of the frequenters of the resort; when wine held sway in my brain, I was
-glad the fisherman heard the splash of the water. Again, when my brain
-was dull from isolation and inactivity, my heart was sad. One evening
-the bell rang just as it did this evening; the signal was given for the
-‘ladies’ to appear in the parlor, as was the custom when callers were
-announced. With ill-feigned pleasure I led the way, being followed by the
-other girls. I marched through the hall, across the back parlor, treading
-always on soft rugs, my white satin gown flowing in rhythmical time to
-the strains of the music; and there amid the scenes of splendor for which
-this luxurious establishment was noted I found myself standing face to
-face with Jamie. Yes, my own dear, true Jamie. Oh, forgive me, sir, for
-this expression of feeling, but again to live those moments of delirious
-joy, mingled with fear and anticipation, is more than I can bear. With
-one bound I left the other girls far behind me. Swiftly crossing the room
-I appealed to him as only a love maddened girl can appeal to the object
-of her devotion.
-
-“Oh, God! what horrible retribution was about to be brought upon me; how
-much more was I to suffer and how long would my breath continue to come
-in sobbing gasps as I begged and prayed and pleaded with him to take me
-in his arms as of old. ‘Jamie, Jamie, my own dear Jamie!’ I cried. ‘Hear
-me, see me, touch me! Oh, I beg of you, Jamie, listen. Don’t you know it
-is I? It is your Lillian! What, Jamie, don’t you know me?’
-
-“In spite of all my entreaties he stood like stone unmoved and unaffected
-by anything I said or did. Presently a new thought struck me. I thought
-of the cottage and of the roses which Jamie loved so well; then madly
-tearing a white rose which I wore on my breast I handed it to him,
-begging him to take it.
-
-“‘Do take it, Jamie,’ I said; ‘it is as pure as I once was. Ah, but then
-you loved me, Jamie, and your love was pure, too, was it not? Tell me,
-Jamie, tell me, oh, even if you hate me now, tell me in that same soft
-voice that I know so well, that you loved me then. The memory of that
-love will make me pure again, Jamie, if you will only speak to me again.
-Jamie, take this rose; take it, Jamie, for the sake of the memory of
-that love which I had for you. I know, Jamie, it’s all my fault; it’s
-not your will that I am here; I wronged you cruelly. Don’t you think,
-Jamie, that I have suffered enough, or do you still insist on making my
-life death?’ All my supplication to him was in vain. He stood with that
-firm, determined air which I knew so well, with his hand extended with
-palm toward me, as if to push me away as he would some vile, loathsome
-creature. He did not speak to me; he seemed to know that he would find
-me here. When I had ceased pleading with him he handed me a large white
-envelope. With feverish delight I clutched it. As I did so I saw an
-inscription upon it. Forgetting my pain, misery and degradation, with a
-wild cry I ran to a position near a light. What was it I read? ‘To be
-opened after I am gone.’
-
-“What, I thought, Jamie going? No! he must not. Then, turning to go back
-to Jamie, I was just in time to see him place a pistol to his heart and
-fire. He died without a word. The spot over which you see the urn full of
-roses is the exact location where Jamie fell. The other girls had left
-me. There, bending over him, frantically tearing his garments to see if
-I might render him some assistance, the white rose dropped from my dress
-where I had carelessly replaced it and became stained with Jamie’s life
-blood, making a fitting semblance to the tragedy which had been enacted
-in this same house a few months prior, where the spotless character of an
-innocent girl had been transformed from pure white to a charred remnant.
-
-“They took him away. I saw him once more at the morgue; then the officers
-took me to a cell; then there was a trial. I was accused of murdering
-Jamie and almost convicted, when the thought struck me to send for the
-packet which he had placed in my hand. It contained, besides this letter,
-which you may read, other things which the letter will make plain:
-
- “‘My Poor Dear Lillian: As I write this letter I know not what
- your fate is, but I fear that something terrible has befallen
- you. I start out to find you, if on earth. Since leaving your
- old home I have come into a large inheritance, which will
- afford me ample means with which to pursue my aim. May God
- grant that I may find you pure and unstained, and that I shall
- be able to take you to my bosom; that we may be allowed to
- enjoy the fruits which have fallen to us as two lovers should
- enjoy life.
-
- “‘Yours lovingly,
-
- ‘JAMIE.’
-
- “‘Later.—I have discovered you. My love is buried in sorrow;
- I have nothing to live for, no ambition, no soul, no heart.
- I have but one request, which is as follows: You will find
- enclosed negotiable papers to all the wealth which I possess.
- It is yours; the same as my life has been yours. I want you
- to take it and spend it in saving the blossoms of this earth.
- I have yet enough confidence in you to cause me to believe
- that if the circumstances were conducive to honor and purity
- that you would court the same with the ambition and zeal which
- is a part of your nature. I leave the method of restitution
- entirely in your hands; only asking you in closing to put
- forth your every effort to snatch the burning brands from the
- fiery furnace which is ever ready to engulf the innocent,
- unsophisticated representative of purity.
-
- “‘As ever yours,
-
- JAMIE.’
-
-“Well,” said I, as I handed the letters back to the woman, “do you make
-much money here? I suppose you had a good time while Jamie’s cash lasted?”
-
-“Jamie’s cash is still lasting,” said she.
-
-“You don’t mean to tell me that you have the heart to support this place
-as a house of ill-repute by spending poor Jamie’s money in that way?”
-
-“Bless your heart, no. I own this property, a monument to Jamie’s pure
-devotion and good intentions. It not only serves to remind me of where
-I last looked upon him alive, thereby making the associations more
-pleasant, but also keeps fresh in my mind the night that I leaped in the
-darkness and landed into the mire of debauchery.”
-
-“Do your girls know your story?”
-
-“In part, yes.”
-
-“Do they enjoy the existence of soiled doves?”
-
-“But, my dear sir, they are not soiled doves; they are brands which I
-have snatched from the burning.”
-
-“Then this is not a house of⸺”
-
-“No, sir! This is an harbor of restitution, where souls may be anchored
-to hope, where hope fills the heart with a longing for better and purer
-things; a home where I am trying to atone for my own misdeeds.”
-
-
-
-
-TALE EIGHT.
-
-THE VICTIM OF A DRUG.
-
- “Blank the mind, sad the heart,
- Supple the form, sweet the face;
- Pure the soul, sold on the mart,
- To suffer ever in vile disgrace.
-
- “Neither bended knees,
- Pure hands held out,
- Sad sighs, deep groans, nor
- Silvery-shedding tears,
- Could penetrate the uncompassionate shout
- That, in spite of all, fell on her bloodless ears.”
-
-
-“I am sorry,” said the girl, “that you have concluded to abandon the
-detective business, for I am sure that you accomplished much good while
-thus engaged.”
-
-If I had not been attracted by the strong personality of the speaker I
-should have been favorably impressed with the sincerity of her tone. She
-was pale, very pale; her eyes were large and brown. As she spoke she
-gazed on me with the languid expression so in keeping with one of great
-volume of earnestness. Her nose was thin; I might say drawn and pinched;
-her lips as red as cherries, parted slightly as the soft words left them,
-showing a mouth full of regular, well-kept teeth. The forehead was not
-higher than the ordinary, but it made a fitting support for the crown
-of dark brown hair, which was artistically dressed in a manner to form a
-frame about the face, which seemingly did not end at the chin, as most
-faces do, but it was possessed of a broadness and deepness of nature
-which illumined the pallid cheeks on either side back as far as the
-little, thin ears.
-
-She was not large, neither could she be considered under size, not
-altogether on account of her stature, which might have seemed diminutive
-to the eye in search of physical development, but rather because the
-intelligence which this creature possessed seemed to reach out and
-permeate every nook and corner of the lavishly furnished parlor.
-
-“I thank you for your kindly allusion and feel that if I have been the
-cause of good that there must have been some good enveloped in the
-subjects with which I had to deal during my professional career. In
-pursuance of the fact that good may come from good, I have retired from
-the secret service business and am now preparing a work which will be
-largely based upon the experience of former days. I find it necessary for
-me to glean from others some of the facts of their lives in order that
-I may not digress from the truth and that the twenty stories that will
-compose my book may be hinged upon different modes of existence, hence my
-call upon you to-day.
-
-“I well remember the last words you uttered when I left you in a
-convalescent condition in the hospital: ‘If I can ever serve you, command
-me.’ I am not here to command you, but to ask you for your life’s story.”
-
-“And did you know, Mr. Spencer, that if you are put in possession of the
-facts as they exist, that you will have something which the world knows
-nothing of?”
-
-“I trust, however, that you will place in me the confidence of your
-history.”
-
-“But what time in life do you desire that I begin?”
-
-“I want you to tell me how you happened to come to Chicago before I ever
-met you.”
-
-At this request the woman seemed to draw herself together and with a
-movement of her figure that impressed me as a straightening out process,
-she began by saying:
-
-“I came to Chicago when I was sixteen. I came to visit my aunt. It was
-during my last year in high school. I don’t believe I had ever known
-what love was. I had lost my mother when an infant. My father was a
-stereotyped business man, with so many affairs to keep his mind employed
-that he evidently did not have the time nor inclination to take me in
-his arms and show me any devotion whatever. I had two brothers, both
-of them several years my senior, and by the time I was old enough to
-appreciate the brotherly protection and love which their existence might
-have afforded me they were married. True, I had my school day episodes of
-note writing and had indulged in the blissful pastime of a few kissing
-parties, but never the full realization of loving caresses.
-
-“I had been in the city three days when I met a young man. I was quick
-to listen to his avowal of love. It seemed to bring to me new joys; it
-directed my feet into newer and brighter paths of life and all wound
-up with an elopement and a marriage, after which I wrote to my father
-for his blessing and, as I have since learned through the influence of
-my step-mother, received his curse. His cold letter informing me that
-if I wished to return to the old home and continue in my studies as I
-had suggested, that he would certainly offer no objection, as I was now
-mistress of my own affairs, and if I chose to continue in school he could
-see no reason why I should not do so, as the school house still remained.
-Of course, I didn’t go. I fell ill and this necessitated the absence of
-my husband from his duties for such a long time that he lost his position.
-
-“When I regained my health I set out to find employment, and met with
-partial success. That is, I could have the position on conditions, one
-of them being that I was not married and that I would not marry while in
-their employ. I was compelled to sign an affidavit to that effect.
-
-“The position which I obtained seemed to me of little importance.
-I was reception lady in the office of a coterie of physicians, who
-announced themselves on gayly printed circulars as the medical staff of
-a certain institution, each one being a specialist in treating different
-afflictions. My duties required me to report at the office at 10 in the
-morning and remain there until 4 in the afternoon. I went along in the
-even tenor of my way for six months, during which time my husband was
-searching for employment. He came to me one day, the first time that he
-had been in the office since my entrance there, to tell me that he had a
-position offered him, but that he must acknowledge that he was married,
-as the gentleman who wished to employ him could not engage a single man.
-
-“Our work was to consist of caring for an invalid who was kept in a
-beautiful cottage in the outskirts of the city.
-
-“We fully considered the conditions, terms, etc., and decided to accept
-the trust. I gave notice to my employers that I should leave, but agreed
-to remain one week through courtesy. Three days before I was to leave a
-gentleman of middle age, one who often came to the office and held long
-consultations with one or two members of the staff and frequently went
-away with them, came out of the private office of one of the physicians
-and approached me, saying: ‘Much to my regret, I have just learned that
-you are about to leave the establishment. I have a little gift here which
-I wish to give you in consideration of your kind treatment of me during
-my many calls.’”
-
-As the girl’s voice fell and ended in a soft monotone she drew from
-her bosom a little chamois pouch and took from that a ring set with a
-beautiful diamond.
-
-“And this,” she said, as she touched it with her lips, while the tears
-which gleamed in her eyes outshone the gem itself, “this I have kept.”
-
-“I suppose there must be some little sentiment clinging to the bitter
-cruelty which makes it as precious to you as the sweet violets are to the
-lover of dainty flowers.”
-
-“Yes,” she said, “the fact that I have kept this ring is, in part, the
-reason of my long suffering, but as it was given to me, according to my
-belief, in purity, I kept it in memory of the thoughts which emanated
-from my heart when I took it. My mind was as pure then as the gem itself.
-If I have become contaminated by adversity I can proudly say that this
-gleaming white stone, on account of its flinty hardness, has escaped the
-fire of degradation.
-
-“It was five days subsequent to our going to the cottage that my husband
-and I were seated on the veranda of our little cottage, congratulating
-ourselves on having secured such an easy position and liberal
-compensation for the light services rendered.
-
-“‘I wonder,’ said Dan, ‘why the old gentleman doesn’t take her to some
-private hospital, where she could receive proper medical attention, as
-well as the benefit of trained nurses?’
-
-“‘But you know, dear,’ said I, ‘that a rich man does not like to have
-his daughter in an asylum; and besides I don’t think we should complain,
-because the care of this poor girl is not a great burden and her
-unbalanced condition serves for us to be together all the time.’
-
-“‘Yes, I know,’ said Dannie; ‘but I can’t stand it to hear her moan and
-weep the way she does. Sometimes in the night when I am but half asleep
-her screams and groans disturb me so that I get to dreaming somehow or
-other that it is you who are locked up in that horrible but softly padded
-room. It is so real that it is like a nightmare, and finally, as I fancy
-myself struggling against a wall trying to free you, with a mighty lunge
-I awake, and while I then know it is only a dream I am dripping with cold
-perspiration. My nerves are all unstrung, and I feel just like reaching
-over and taking you in my arms and running away, leaving the old man and
-his crazy daughter far behind.’”
-
-“Then it really was a crazy girl you had to care for?”
-
-“Oh, yes. You see, this old gentleman had married years ago. I remember
-how he told us all about it. How his sweet young wife had been killed
-in a railroad accident and his little daughter went raving mad when her
-mother’s mangled form was brought home to her. And he seemed to be doing
-all he could to make the poor demented creature happy.”
-
-At this she laughed discordantly. It seemed so out of place to me, for to
-look at her and hear her voice was to be inspired with a sense of harmony.
-
-“I left my chair and went over to him. I crawled up into his lap and
-nestled my face against his. ‘You mustn’t dream that way, dear,’ said I.
-‘It is bad for you, and besides you know I am always by your side.’
-
-“One day when I had gone to the city to do some shopping the man who had
-engaged my husband came out to the cottage to have a talk with him. When
-I came home I found my husband all excitement.
-
-“‘What in the world is the matter with you?’ said I. ‘Mr. Leighton was
-here to-day and he wants me to leave you in direct charge of things here
-while I go out West and look after his interests in the oil fields.’ He
-had given him a week in which to decide whether or not he would go, but I
-could see that Dannie feared to refuse. I cried and clung to him, for I
-couldn’t bear to be separated from him; so he decided not to go.
-
-“When he went to the city to meet Mr. Leighton and give him his decision
-Mr. Leighton was quite haughty and seemed offended. He as good as told
-Dan that if he did not go he would have to find some one else to go to
-the cottage and take care of the invalid.
-
-“Dan came home thoroughly disheartened. I tried to cheer him and said
-maybe I could go with him, but he said no, he had asked Mr. Leighton
-about that and he had very decidedly said that it would not do. We talked
-it all over quietly and the question resolved itself into a matter of
-dollars and cents. If Dan refused to go we must give up the cottage, and
-that meant all our income. If he went he would be well paid in addition
-to the amount we received for the care of the cottage. So we decided that
-it was best for him to go and we would try and save enough money to start
-in business.
-
-“After Dannie left I took up the duties of nurse, for which I was not
-altogether unfitted, being patient and persevering.
-
-“Mr. Leighton’s daughter was as frail as a lily, and when I took her
-meals in to her I used to sit and watch her and wonder how she lived, for
-she ate almost nothing.
-
-“I concluded it must be the medicine which she took in the wine that gave
-her the little vitality she possessed.
-
-“She rarely noticed me and I am sure my coming and going was of no
-interest to her. She was not often violent these days; on the contrary,
-she was very tractable.
-
-“Two weeks had passed since Dannie left and I had had three letters from
-him, all of which breathed of his love and devotion to me and bade me
-be cheerful, that the time would soon pass and we would be reunited. No
-word had been received from Mr. Leighton yet, and I was just wondering
-what had become of him when the bell rang. When I was called down to the
-parlor whom should I meet but the kind gentleman who gave me the ring,
-Mr. Price.
-
-“‘I am ever so glad to see you,’ said I; but I don’t believe my tones
-half expressed my feelings, for I was so lonely there, all alone with
-that poor girl, with only the servants for companions. Our cottage was
-built in the center of a large plot of ground, and there were no houses
-very near us. Mr. Leighton told Dan that he had built the house that way
-purposely, so Lita’s ravings would not disturb the neighbors.
-
-“‘How in the world did you happen to come here, Mr. Price?’ said I.
-
-“‘Well, you see—I—I am Lita’s father.’
-
-“‘Why, what do you mean? Lita’s father’s name is Mr. Leighton.’
-
-“‘Yes, I know; but I can explain it all to you in a few moments. It is
-such a terrible thing, I could not endure to have it generally known that
-my daughter was hopelessly insane, so when I arranged to have her brought
-here I decided it was best to have her known as Lita Leighton.’
-
-“‘Oh, yes,’ said I, ‘it must be very terrible to have such a misfortune
-befall a member of one’s family; but you surely couldn’t call it a
-disgrace.’
-
-“‘Well, perhaps not; but, you know, it would injure my business if it
-were known. But what are you doing here?’ he said.
-
-“‘Why, I am Dannie’s wife.’
-
-“He seemed to be greatly surprised, and asked me why I did not tell him
-long before. I told him that I could not occupy the position which I
-held when he first met me if it had become known that I was married. I
-followed on with my whole life’s story, and he shed tears at my recital
-of woes and my father’s unkind treatment.
-
-“‘How I should have cherished such a beautiful daughter,’ said he, and
-came over to my chair, bent over and kissed me. ‘Won’t you be a daughter
-to me in place of my poor demented Lita?’
-
-“My heart went out to him then and there, and I put my arms around his
-neck and kissed him.
-
-“By and by we went in to see Lita. At the sight of her father and me she
-ran into the furthest corner and no amount of coaxing could induce her to
-come out. Finally he asked me to leave him alone with her. Just as I was
-leaving I saw him give her her medicine.
-
-“‘Oh,’ I exclaimed, ‘it is not time to give her that yet.’
-
-“‘It is harmless enough,’ he said, closing the door.
-
-“He remained in her room an hour or more and left the house soon after.
-At parting he said: ‘I shall come out often now, because I have two
-daughters instead of one to visit.’
-
-“That night Lita was very violent. She shrieked and moaned most
-pitifully. My heart ached for her, but I did not dare to go to her while
-she was in such a state.
-
-“At last she fell asleep, I suppose, for she ceased her ravings. When I
-took her breakfast to her the following morning I found her prone upon
-the floor, with hands clinched together as if in mortal agony. I was
-horror-stricken. I had never seen her like this before and had never
-heard that she had spells like this.
-
-“She looked like death, and without regard to the strict orders we had
-had, never to call in a stranger, I fairly flew to the nearest doctor’s
-office.
-
-“He responded at once, and after heroic treatments revived her. He asked
-to see the medicine we had been giving her. I showed it to him and he
-examined it critically, then looked grave.
-
-“‘This is a drug which should not be administered except in an extreme
-case and then only in small doses,’ he said.
-
-“Then I explained to him how her father had been there and how Lita had
-acted, and that it must have been necessary or he would not have given
-it. He told me I must not give her any more of it for three days and at
-the end of that time he would call again.
-
-“After he had gone I went in to see Lita and she seemed brighter than
-I had ever seen her. On the evening of the second day she showed real
-interest in things and had a good appetite. There was a faint tinge of
-red in her cheeks and she was almost pretty.
-
-“She asked me who I was and what my name was.
-
-“‘I am your nurse, and you have been very ill, but are getting better
-now,’ said I, ‘and my name is quite a little like yours; it is Anita.’
-
-“I was so delighted at her apparent improvement that I determined to
-write her father the good news, but on second thought concluded I would
-not, as he had said he would come out often.
-
-“On the third day the doctor called and was greatly pleased at his
-patient’s progress. ‘Just continue to give her this tonic and keep the
-other away from her,’ said he.
-
-“‘I think you had better not tell her father what we have done if he
-calls soon; better wait a couple of weeks and surprise him.’
-
-“Then I thought of my orders not to call in a stranger and told the
-doctor about it. He passed the matter by as a trifle, saying: ‘They
-probably feared the excitement.’
-
-“Two weeks passed and no Mr. Leighton and no word from Dannie. I was
-getting desperate at Dannie’s neglect and telegraphed him. The telegram
-came back, so I knew it had not found him. Mr. Leighton came the same
-afternoon and found me a pitiful looking object. My eyes were red and
-swollen with weeping.
-
-“‘What is the matter with you, little daughter?’ said he, kissing me on
-each cheek.
-
-“I told him about Dannie and he begged me not to worry; that he was
-probably out of town in the oil fields and too busy to write.
-
-“We went in together to see Lita, and she acted as she had done on the
-previous occasion when he called. He did not stay long with her, but
-devoted most of his time to me, trying to cheer me up, which he certainly
-knew how to do. He remained to dinner and brought out some of the wine
-which we kept for Lita’s use.
-
-“After dinner I felt so drowsy that I laid down and he covered me up
-carefully and told me to take a good sleep; that he would take a late
-train to the city.
-
-“That was the last innocent sleep I had. When I awoke, in the night,
-I was undressed and in bed. I could not think where I was, and when I
-turned I thought Dannie was there and I put my arms about him.
-
-“When morning came—ah! how can I tell it?” she said shuddering. “When
-morning came—well, I knew I was no longer what I had been—a true wife.”
-
-“Mr. Leighton was very tender to me and tried to soothe my feverish
-unrest, and after awhile I passed into a quiet slumber. When I awoke I
-was alone. It was late in the afternoon and I thought with a start of
-Lita.
-
-“When I entered her room she came toward me with outstretched arms.
-
-“‘I am so glad to see you, Anita,’ she said. ‘Where have you been all
-this time? If you had not locked me in so securely, I should have found
-you before this time.’ She pulled me down on her cot and said: ‘I want to
-tell you something.’
-
-“I always indulged her whims, so I sat down beside her.
-
-“‘You have been so good to me that I have learned to love you, Anita, and
-I want you to love me, too; but I have much to tell you, and maybe you
-will hate me when you have heard all,’ she said, her lips quivering.
-
-“I was surprised at her rational manner, yet delighted. I put my arms
-around her and said: ‘Tell me all, Lita. I shall not hate you, no matter
-how bad it is.’
-
-“‘You think I am crazy, but I am not,’ she said, ‘although I have had
-enough to make me so in the past two years. My senses have been so
-benumbed since I have been here that I don’t know all I have done. I
-have had a terrible experience, and my mother is the cause of it all.
-Several years ago my father began to speculate; he was a wealthy man
-at that time, but with the speculation the trouble began. He became
-deeply involved, and when one of his creditors fell on him and demanded
-a settlement he collapsed. My mother met the man and he demanded me as
-the price of liquidation. Rather than suffer the financial loss and the
-disgrace of the penitentiary, which stared my father in the face, my
-mother sold my honor, my virtue, my all to this scoundrel who poses as my
-father. He took me abroad with him and traveled with me as my husband. He
-was ideally kind to me for more than a year, or until he had worn me out
-and my health began to fail. Little by little he began to neglect me, and
-at last I was furious. One night when he did condescend to come home I
-met him at my door with a revolver and told him to take another step at
-his peril. This was the beginning of the end. As soon as we returned to
-this country he brought me directly to Chicago, where he had me examined
-and pronounced of unsound mind. After that he kept me under the influence
-of some opiate and the next thing I knew I was here, in this cottage.
-It is no wonder I have acted insane, no wonder they padded this room to
-keep me from doing myself violence. Every time he came here he gave me
-more medicine and then treated me with every indignity possible. I grew
-to loathe him and feared the very sight of him. Since this doctor came I
-feel so much better, and I am going to get well and punish that vile man.’
-
-“I was so filled with dismay I could only gasp: ‘And this man isn’t your
-father after all?’
-
-“‘No, indeed,’ she said.
-
-“Well, as you may imagine, my suspicions were aroused; yet I felt, too,
-the whole story might be the vagary of her imagination.
-
-“After thinking it over I resolved to tell Mr. Leighton all. While he
-talked to me and I was under his mesmeric influence my suspicions were
-lulled to rest and I felt that he was the best and kindest man I had ever
-met.
-
-“One day soon after this I received a telegram stating that Dannie was
-dead. I got Mr. Leighton to investigate the matter and he found it was
-too true. He had been killed and robbed. For a time I was inconsolable,
-and it was then that Mr. Leighton was most tender. When I began to
-recover from the blow I wondered why he had not asked me to be his wife,
-for he had often told me he loved me better than his life. I waited
-several weeks and he said no word, so I finally decided to speak of the
-matter myself, thinking he might feel reticent considering my recent
-bereavement.
-
-“When I did muster up courage to speak to him he said: ‘Why, my dear,
-when I marry and give a woman my name she must be pure.’
-
-“‘And if I am not pure, who is to blame?’ said I, quivering with rage.
-
-“‘There, there, we won’t talk about it any more,’ said he.
-
-“He went away and left me in an agony of despair. I went to Lita’s room
-and told her the whole story, for I knew she was rational and had told me
-the truth.
-
-“When I had sobbed out all my troubles on her breast she soothed me and
-said: ‘Listen, Anita, you will believe me, I am sure, so I will tell you
-something. Dr. Snyder, whom you called in that day I was so ill, has
-learned to love me. He knows all my story and is willing to marry me. We
-were going to run away from here together at the first opportunity. If
-you will, you shall go with us. We are going to have a beautiful home on
-Drexel Boulevard, and you will be a most welcome guest.’”
-
-“I suppose this is the place,” said I. “You certainly have a lovely home.”
-
-“Yes, and Lita has more than repaid me for what I did for her. The
-doctor went to the doctors who employed me before we took the cottage
-and learned all about his doings. He had him arrested and he is now
-languishing in jail. Dannie will be here in three days now. Oh, I am so
-happy!”
-
-“Dannie! Why, I thought you said he was dead?”
-
-“Oh, you see, that was a part of Mr. Leighton’s nefarious plot. He
-intercepted all the letters that passed between Dannie and me and bribed
-a man to send that telegram to me; then sent a man to Dannie to prove I
-was untrue to him.
-
-“He seemed to be highly successful in carrying out his plans for a long
-time, but you see he was caught in his own toils.
-
-“Dr. Snyder was so kind that he went out West and searched for Dannie
-until he found him and told him all and Dannie forgave everything. He
-had invested some of his money in the oil lands there and we will have
-plenty of money now, for they turned out well. He was coming to me on the
-first train, but the doctor prevailed upon him to stay and finish up his
-affairs first, so that he would not lose anything.
-
-“Just think! only three days more until we are reunited.”
-
-
-
-
-TALE NINE.
-
-WHAT HAPPENED TO A GIRL WHO FLIRTED.
-
- “The thorns which I have reap’d are of the tree
- I planted,—they have torn me and I bleed:
- I should have known what fruit would spring from such a seed.”
-
-
-“If all girls had as bitter an experience as I had, and all brought about
-by their first venture at flirting, I am sure there would be less of it.
-
-“I had lived in Chicago a number of years, but had been so carefully
-reared that I knew absolutely nothing of the snares set for the feet of
-the unsophisticated.
-
-“My parents died within a few weeks of each other and I was left all
-alone, so far as near relatives were concerned. After the estate was
-settled up and I had recovered from the shock of their death, I was left
-to my own devices, and while I had many invitations to make my home with
-relatives I decided I should like to be alone for awhile, so I went to
-live with a widow and her daughter. I enjoyed my Bohemian life very much,
-for it was such a change from the old way of living and I was bent on
-making the most of it. I was engaged to a young man from the South at
-this time. He was a young man of the highest principles and unimpeachable
-honor, and one of whom my parents thoroughly approved. I think mamma felt
-quite happy and resigned when she took Will’s hand and placed mine in
-it and said: ‘Will, you will take good care of my baby after I am gone,
-for I shall leave you all very soon now. I shall die happy if I have your
-promise,’ she said faintly.
-
-“He leaned over her and said: ‘Mother, dear, I promise. Agneta shall
-always have my tenderest love and devotion.’
-
-“Well, as I was saying, I went to live with this kind family and they
-granted me every privilege that I could have had in my own home. Will was
-an ideal lover and caretaker; in fact, he was too good, and I was not
-sensible enough to appreciate it then. Ah, if I could only live over the
-old days once more, things might have been different. One needs to live
-three score and ten years before one knows how to live.
-
-“One day I dressed myself with unusual care, entirely in black, of
-course, but it was quite as becoming as any color. I could not have told
-why I was so painstaking in making my toilet; it must have been an unkind
-fate at work while the angel guardian of my peace and happiness, slept.
-
-“I bought a few articles at Field’s and ordered them sent out, then went
-up to the waiting room on the second floor, where I could look down from
-the gallery to the main floor and watch the throng of shoppers. While
-I was sitting there I saw a fine looking young man standing near me,
-engaged in conversation with some ladies. At the first glance I took
-him to be an old acquaintance of mine. He was not very tall, but had
-beautiful wavy black hair and eyes of a soft brown.
-
-“I suppose my gaze, which was a little more ardent than custom would
-permit, attracted his attention, for he glanced at me frequently, and as
-those things sometimes happen caught my glance every time. I knew by this
-time that he was not the acquaintance for whom I had taken him the first
-time I looked at him, but his face was so handsome it seemed to fascinate
-me, although on a closer inspection it was slightly effeminate. I think
-we kept that up for nearly half an hour, but all this time no word was
-spoken. I decided that I had better leave, and I arose to go and was soon
-lost in the throng. I was walking east on Madison when someone walked up
-beside me and tipping his hat said: ‘Pardon me, may I walk with you?’
-
-“I was not so disconcerted as I had always supposed a girl must feel
-under such circumstances. I looked around and, of course, it was not the
-young man, but Will. I was half vexed and treated him very coldly, until
-he told me that he had seen me at Field’s and had noticed the conduct of
-the man in question who had held my attention so long, and believed he
-had evil designs on me.
-
-“This made me really angry, and I told him that was just like a man to
-think that every glance another man bestowed upon the woman he loved was
-evil. ‘One would think I had no individuality, no charm of person at all
-to hear you talk,’ I said.
-
-“‘Well, I know the men better than you do, dear; so please be careful,
-won’t you? Men never have a good opinion of a woman who will flirt with
-them.’
-
-“Now, you see, if there is anything a girl hates it is to have her
-sweetheart assume superiority over her in knowledge of men; so it all
-combined to make me disagreeable.
-
-“He walked as far as Lyon & Healy’s with me and I went in to buy some
-music. He went on back to his office. After I had bought my music I
-sauntered into the room where the pianolas are on exhibition and sat down
-near the window to listen to the music. It was not long before some one
-at my elbow said: ‘How do you do? I have been trying to find you ever
-since you left Field’s, and was just despairing when I passed this window
-and saw you. Are you enjoying the music?’
-
-“I looked up into two brown eyes and my heart fluttered painfully.
-
-“No, I didn’t feel any remorse yet, for I was still piqued at Will’s
-interference with my innocent pastime and what he had said still rankled
-in my heart.
-
-“He sat down and we talked a few moments, and then he suggested that we
-walk up to the Auditorium and sit in the parlor, as it would be so much
-more quiet there. So I walked up there with him. We had a very pleasant
-chat and I thought more and more how ill-timed Will’s remarks were and
-how unjust. Why, this man was every bit as much a gentleman as Will
-himself.
-
-“‘Pardon me, but are you not in mourning?’ he asked, noting my black
-apparel. ‘As you have probably noticed, I am wearing deep mourning and
-perhaps that is why I noticed yours.’
-
-“I told him the circumstances, and then he told me he was mourning the
-loss of his wife, who had been dead three months. He seemed to feel like
-talking of her, so I encouraged him, thinking it might be a relief to
-his feelings. He did not say a great deal, except that they were very
-happy and she died, leaving a sweet baby girl, who survived her mother
-seven weeks.
-
-“When at last I arose to go he laid a detaining hand on me and said:
-‘Allow me to present my card, and will you allow me to call?
-
-“‘I should like to tell you all about our life, if it will not bore you.
-You are such a sympathetic little woman that it will be a great relief to
-unburden my heart to you.’ Tears stood in his eyes as he spoke. If there
-was anything needed to win me, more than his words, it was those tears.
-So, after hesitating a little and alluding to the unconventional manner
-in which we met, he said: ‘I know; I can understand how you might feel,
-but this is not a day of strict conventionalities, and you know that if
-we all waited for a formal introduction we should miss a great deal in
-the world. Many of the truest friendships are formed in this way.’
-
-“So we decided on the following Wednesday. I suggested that night because
-I knew Will would be out of the city on that night.
-
-“Wednesday night came at last and found me waiting expectantly. I was
-delighted at the prospect of doing something a little risque. He came and
-I introduced him to my friends and they were very favorably impressed
-with him, I could see by their actions. I didn’t tell them how I met him
-though. After visiting awhile he asked me if I would not go down town and
-have dinner with him, and I thought that would be fine. We drove down
-town and stopped in front of a well-known restaurant; that is, well
-known to all but the novice.
-
-“We alighted and were shown to a little room, which I have since learned
-was a private dining room. I did not exactly like the idea of being shut
-up in a room alone with him at the time, but did not dare comment on the
-matter for fear of showing my ignorance. He ordered a nice dinner and
-asked me what I would have to drink. I told him I never drank, so he did
-not insist on my taking anything, but ordered whiskey for himself. On the
-pretext of getting his handkerchief out of his overcoat, which hung back
-of me, he passed me and bent over and kissed me. Not a kiss of respect,
-but a kiss of vile, lecherous passion, and one, no doubt, intended to
-inflame me. I pushed him away from me disgusted and reprimanded him
-severely. He apologized and said: ‘You are so sweet, so irresistible I
-could not help it.’
-
-“After dinner he came over to me again and kissed me. I was very angry
-this time and resolved to go home at once. He pushed me down into the
-chair and told me I could not go yet. I finally succeeded in rising to
-my feet and he sat down in the chair I vacated and pulled me down in his
-lap. I struggled to free myself and reached the door. He caught me in
-his arms and pressed me to him in a passionate embrace, raining burning
-kisses on my face. He subjected me to every indignity that was possible
-considering that I was fighting all the time to get away. I tried to
-reach the electric bell and summon aid, but he divined my intention
-and drew me back. I was afraid to scream for fear of creating a scene
-and perhaps getting my name in the paper in connection with such a
-scandalous affair.
-
-“I prayed for deliverance from that man as I never prayed before in all
-my life, and promised myself if I got home safely I would never, never
-flirt with anyone again.
-
-“As if in answer to my prayer, a thought flashed across my brain. My hat
-pins! They were of very stiff steel, and I snatched one out of my hat
-and plunged it viciously into his arm. It broke. I took the other and
-struck him with all my strength and that broke and I could not see that
-I had hurt him a particle. My strength was fast giving out, and I was in
-despair. I feared he would force me to yield that which I would rather
-die than part with. But joy! by this time the blood was running down his
-arm in a stream. He saw it and let me go. ‘My God! girl! What have you
-done? Look at the blood!’
-
-“He took off his coat and rolled up his shirt sleeve. His heavy flannel
-undershirt was saturated with blood. The pin points had entered the upper
-arm with great force and the wounds were bleeding profusely. I felt sorry
-when I saw what I had done, and I offered to bind them up for him. He
-gave me his handkerchief and I bandaged it up tightly. Then he sat down,
-pale and trembling, weak from the loss of blood. I was in about the same
-condition from nervousness. He urged me to take a stimulant of some kind,
-and I finally consented and took my first drink of whiskey and absinthe.
-He told me all about his wife and how happy they had been the one short
-year she had been spared to him. He told me how she suffered on her
-deathbed and with what fortitude she bore up under it, trying with her
-last breath to cheer him and asking him to live for her baby’s sake.
-
-“The tears rolled down his cheeks and I cried in sympathy.
-
-“‘My angel wife is dead and her baby—our baby. No one cares for me now
-nor what I do. I have lost all my friends since she died and nearly all
-my money. I have been drinking and gambling and was in my cups when I
-came to you to-night. I would not hesitate a minute to kill myself if it
-were not for the fear that I should never meet her in heaven.”
-
-“‘Do you think what you have done to-night would please her if she can
-look down and see you? You deliberately enticed an innocent girl here,
-one whom you surely must know was innocent, and for what purpose I can
-form but one opinion.’
-
-“He went down on his knees beside me and begged my forgiveness.
-
-“‘Give me one kiss to show me that you forgive me,’ he said.
-
-“He called the waiter and ordered another drink apiece, which I should
-not have taken. It went to my head and when I tried to walk I staggered.
-He took me in his arms and that is the last I remember until I felt the
-wind blowing on my face.
-
-“I was leaning against him in the carriage. I did not know where I was
-going and I did not care. The thought of Will came to me but dimly. I
-felt no compunction, and if I had it would not have aroused me from my
-stupor sufficiently to make me active.
-
-“When I came to my senses I was home, thank heaven! Just as pure as when
-I left. They told me I had been brought home ill; had had a sudden attack
-of heart failure and had been given something to stimulate me. So much
-for the whiskey breath.
-
-“When Will returned I met him as usual, but with, oh, so much keener
-appreciation of his goodness than I had ever felt before. I had had
-an experience which taught me his sterling worth. I realized how
-unscrupulous men were when they had no interest in a woman beyond that of
-a passing fancy.
-
-“No, I have not told Will. I could not see that it would do any good. I
-committed one indiscretion and I think I should commit another if I told
-him. He might not forgive me, or, if he did, he would never feel quite
-the same toward me, perhaps, and both his happiness and mine would be
-ruined. I say ruined, for we are certainly very congenial and I believe
-God intended us for each other, and perhaps it was part of His divine
-providence that I passed through what I did.”
-
-
-
-
-TALE TEN.
-
-SOLD AT A FIXED PRICE.
-
-TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE.
-
- “By thine own soul’s law learn to live,
- And if men thwart thee, take no heed,
- And if men hate thee, have no care;
- Sing thou thy song and do thy deed.
- Hope thou thy hope and pray thy prayer,
- And claim no crown they will not give,
- Nor bays they grudge thee for thy hair.
-
- “Keep thou thy soul-sworn, steadfast oath,
- And to thy heart be true thy heart;
- What thy soul teaches learn to know,
- And play out thine appointed part,
- And thou shalt reap as thou shalt sow,
- Nor helped nor hindered in thy growth,
- To thy full stature thou shalt grow.
-
- “Fix on the future’s goal thy face,
- And let thy feet be lured to stray
- Nowhither, but be swift to run,
- And nowhere tarry by the way,
- Until at last the end is won
- And thou mayst look back from thy place
- And see thy long day’s journey done.”
-
-
-“Dearest Arthur: Sounds strange, does it not, or, perhaps, no sound
-escapes your lips as your eyes scan this letter. I write you; you are
-surprised, I know, but you should not be, for stranger things than this
-have happened. My reasons for writing, I say reasons because they are
-numerous, will be divulged either by statements from my pen or by a
-critical reading between the lines.
-
-“You asked me to write, though why you should have done so is more than
-I am able to determine. I am sure it was not all love which prompted you
-to make the request. I feel that you did at one time love me. No, a man
-of your force of character cannot love truly and allow that love to die
-while the object of his devotion lives. If you ever loved, you still
-love. The only question that remains unanswered is, ‘Am I the only one to
-whom your whole heart has gone out?’ Be that as it may, I have concluded
-that, wise or unwise, right or wrong, the same untiring love which has
-inspired me to worship you, day by day and the long night through, since
-first we met, must live on until the words, ‘Dust to dust’ have echoed
-through the tall pines and rolling mounds of our Southern city of the
-dead, while the clods fall heavily on the rough box that contains my
-casket. I feel I could court even death while reveling in the sunshine of
-your beauteous love, and smilingly challenge the chords of life to snap
-and precipitate me into that unknown beyond, with the memory of your dear
-kisses on my cold, blue lips.
-
-“I feel that way now, when so many leagues separate us, but I presume
-that should I be blessed with one smile from you, I should want to live
-always. I think one slight token of recognition, one little sign of
-memory of the old days, spreading over your features would be food and
-drink to me ever. But such joys do not spread themselves on my table of
-anticipation. I know not love. I only know what it is to love. I have
-hesitated about writing you as I shall before I close.
-
-“I have wondered if by holding open the bleeding wounds of my breast,
-the breast you have made love to, the breast that gave life and strength
-to your child, while the thrills of motherhood overcame me even to tears
-of joy, would pain you. I have summed it all up and have concluded that
-nothing will pain you, so will not hesitate to show to you the every
-heart-beat as it forces the blood through the veins which your heartless
-acts have drained. Forgive me, darling, if I inflict any injury upon your
-feelings by any reference to the past, but then you know your short note
-said, ‘Do not conceal a single thought nor withhold one particle of the
-emotion with which your voluptuous body abounds.’ I will pour out the
-soul that you have penned up. I will account to you for the acts which
-you refer to as unladylike. I will bring to your mind new fancies, born
-of reflection. I will accuse you of no wrong, for you in your exalted
-goodness and influential position must know right from wrong. If I am
-wrong, God is just. If He allowed you to misjudge me, I beseech Him to
-prevent you from branding another woman with the same iron. While I have
-been writing one day has died and another been born. With the passing
-of the hour I have passed another milepost. I am now one year older. My
-birthday and my baby are the only things I can claim without dispute as
-to title.
-
-“I have been to his bed, the baby’s bed, and shall I tell you—his
-father—how sweetly he sleeps, how my burning kisses did not startle him?
-You will know whether or not these lips of mine will arouse a man to
-his greatest efforts. You, and you alone, have tasted the sweets that I
-longed to lavish upon you until satiety was a far away and unknown thing.
-
-“You said: ‘Write. I am interested in your welfare.’
-
-“I believe you, for you fear me as the bleating lamb fears the ravenous
-wolf; but fear not, oh, god of mine; you are my child’s father, and for
-the gracious act of begetting me an image of thine own self I shall
-always be devoted to you.
-
-“Oh, that I could live on and on into the ages that are only obscured
-by oblivion. But no. Face to face with a world, I must accept death as
-a charm to enduring existence. You must know, dearest, that I love you,
-have always loved you and shall always love you. As I sit and look into
-the fire which from great red flames has sunk to an ember glow, I liken
-it to your love; for in the manliness of your youthfulness you loved me
-with a passion that was all consuming. I bathed your soul in the divine
-worship and devotion such as only a pure woman can pour out on a man
-whom she extols above all others. In your letter there appears not one
-allusion to love. Is it possible that you do not love me? You who have
-held me so close while spasms of delight have shaken your stalwart frame,
-and the flame of passion has reddened your otherwise placid brow, while
-exclamations of joy poured forth from your lips between the spasmodic
-kisses which held my lips as in a vice. You, a man of equal parts, do
-not mention love; you may remain silent on that subject, but if you tell
-yourself that you do not love you _lie_, and your heart bears witness to
-it.
-
-“You can love; I know you can, for I can love with a wild desire to die
-in your arms, and I am a student of no school but your own.
-
-“Do you imagine that the cold indifference which your letter displays
-will have a tendency to lessen my love for you? Do not be misled, I beg
-of you, for you once descended from your proud station to make love to
-me, and I have treasured that love and it has grown into such a mountain
-that no chasm of indifference can ever engulf it, and remember you are
-his father—my child’s father. He would love you, too, for having loved
-me, if for no other reason, for, God bless him, he is in love with your
-old sweetheart. Where I go he will go. I do not love you still with the
-hope that as in our case at first, love begets love.
-
-“I have long since learned to live to love, and expect nothing but dreams
-in return. You did love me. No, you did not, or else all the world could
-not have torn you from me; but you cannot love another. I wish you might,
-for the goodness which lies within you would shine out and light a world
-of laggards.
-
-“You ask me if I am comfortable. Yes. I have everything that my physical
-needs require. I have a good home and plenty to eat and wear. You say you
-often wonder how I manage to get along in such an expensive city. Now, if
-you mean that, you love me and you feel that every dollar I have comes
-without the soil of dishonor. I will tell you how I—we—live. You have
-raved over my figure; you have worshipped my body as though the presence
-of my heart were an unheard of thing. Other men have evidently been
-schooled in the same house of learning as you, for they, too, admire my
-flesh and bone. Not a day passes but that I form some new acquaintance,
-and, as I take it, all on account of my shapely limbs, my slender waist
-and swelling bosoms. Those very possessions which were once yours, all
-yours for your own aggrandizement and worshipful indulgence; those charms
-which held you to me—the wealth of red-gold hair, the pink-tipped ears,
-the pearly white teeth, the tapering hands, the high-arched foot, the
-delicately moulded ankles, the laughing eyes and supple grace that you so
-admired, even before I gave to you a son, are as much admired by other
-men as they once were admired by you.
-
-“It is different, though, with them and you. You held all of the then
-priceless pearls with nothing but love; the same possessions which were
-then yours because I loved you, are now dispensed at intervals to suit
-the convenience of other men and for financial consideration.
-
-“We—you and I—can remember the time when no man but you could lay claim
-to any of my charms except my ready smile and kindly word.
-
-“Now, and for two years past, my charms have been the property of a
-public who, while not so demonstrative as you once were, seem wild to
-have me disport myself for the edification of mankind.
-
-“I often ask if I wrong a nature-loving public by allowing the use of my
-body to fulfill their desires.
-
-“My natural answer is no. I feel, in fact, that I may be the means of
-saving some timid girl the embarrassment of assuming my place in the
-world. I am sure I can do more to satisfy the whims of humanity than can
-a novice, for I am a student of your school and your ideas are instilled
-within me until I feel that my efforts will avail more than the efforts
-of an inexperienced girl. Again, I am feeding and clothing myself and
-our baby, and I love you. The world will, in part, frown upon me for the
-part I am playing; others silently applaud me, and I congratulate myself
-and feel, in a certain degree, I am a guardian angel and the precepts
-inculcated by my conduct will be fittingly heralded to ears which will
-transmit them to the heart with a good effect. I am doing what you might
-not object to your divorced wife doing, but that which no man of high
-honor would consent to his daughter doing.
-
-“I am a model at the Art Institute. I pose in the nude, and I thank God
-I am an honorable woman, and, in spite of all the years of suffering, I
-am still devoted to the man who taught me to love. With thanks for your
-inquiry, I beg to sign for this once,
-
- “Your wife,
-
- “NORA.”
-
-
-
-
-TALE ELEVEN.
-
-A STORY OF SUICIDE BRIDGE.
-
- “Age cannot love destroy,
- But perfidy can blast the flower,
- Even when in most unwary hour,
- It blooms in Fancy’s bower.
- Age cannot love destroy,
- But perfidy can rend the shrine
- In which its vermeil splendors shine.”
-
-
-It was a blustering winter day and a heavy snow was falling, making the
-streets exceedingly disagreeable to traverse. State street was crowded
-with shoppers evidently bent on taking advantage of the annual clearing
-sale which always takes place at the beginning of the new year.
-
-I was elbowing my way through the crowd on the east side of the street,
-about as uncomfortable as a man could be, when I passed Kehoe’s. I had
-not gone a dozen steps when it occurred to me that a cup of hot chocolate
-would taste good. I turned abruptly and encountered an umbrella, which
-flashed dangerously close to my eyes. Somewhat confused, I entered
-the door behind a woman. She had pushed the door open and dropped her
-skirts directly in front of me. It was too late for me to catch myself
-and in less time than it takes to tell it, I had stepped on them. The
-suddenness with which she let that door swing back was appalling. It took
-me squarely on the nose, a fact which I do not now regret, inasmuch
-as it led to a very pleasant acquaintance. She glanced around to learn
-the cause of all the trouble and accepted my humble apologies with good
-grace, and seemed to feel sorry when she saw her carelessness was the
-cause of a great deal of suffering, for I could not well disguise the
-fact as the tears ran down my cheeks.
-
-All the tables but one were taken and that was a small one in the corner,
-at which there were two chairs. She made her way to it quickly and when
-she saw me waiting she sent the waitress to me to tell me to come to her
-table. I bowed in response and crossed the room.
-
-“I feel that I owe you some consideration for the unfortunate occurrence
-of a few moments ago,” she said, “and I hope you’ll accept my apologies
-in turn.”
-
-I replied that it was my own stupidity and assured her that I already
-began to feel it was rather a fortunate than unfortunate occurrence.
-
-She smiled, yet at the same time drew herself up with a quiet dignity
-that was unmistakable, and I knew I had taken the wrong tack when I made
-my gallant speech.
-
-By this time my eyes were somewhat cleaned of tears and I was able to get
-a distant view of my vis-a-vis. I had already discovered that she was
-of medium height and quite slender. Her face was oval, her eyes large
-and brown, and looked liquid in the half light of our corner; her chin
-was round, her mouth was rather large and when she smiled her full, red
-lips disclosed a set of well kept teeth; her nose was neither long nor
-short, but quite in keeping with the contour of her face. Her eyebrows
-were dark and beautifully arched. Her forehead was high and full and an
-abundance of real golden hair was drawn back and concealed under the
-large, black beaver hat she wore so becomingly.
-
-The real beauty of her face, however, was in its expression. Every
-emotion was clearly defined in the wonderful eyes and, though when
-smiling they would light up with a merry laughter, their general
-expression was one of sweet sadness.
-
-When I assisted her to remove her coat, can I be blamed for feasting my
-eyes on the beautiful bust and shoulders with which nature had endowed
-her?
-
-We chatted idly on the topics of the day as we sipped our chocolate, and
-when we had finished I handed her my card, saying, “If you ever need
-services in my line, I shall be pleased to render them.”
-
-She thanked me and said as she read “Attorney at Law,” “I might have been
-grateful for your proffered aid a few years ago, but now, thank God, I do
-not need such aid, and I hope I shall never need it.”
-
-Then she handed me her card. “Mrs. Geoffrey Nye Melville.” As I read I
-could not restrain the exclamation that arose to my lips.
-
-“Why, I once had a friend by that name who was an official on the St.
-Paul road. He and I were the best of friends in St. Paul five years ago.
-I was at that time their attorney.”
-
-“It is certainly my husband whom you know,” she said, “and you must come
-and call on us at your earliest convenience.”
-
-I thanked her and on the strength of my friendship for her husband asked
-to escort her to the train.
-
-I was not long in taking advantage of her invitation, and felt doubly
-free to do so, inasmuch as her husband had hunted me up the very next day
-after our meeting, and had insisted on my coming as soon as possible.
-
-It happened that the night I called her husband was away, having been
-unexpectedly summoned to St. Paul on business.
-
-I found her alone and looking almost beautiful in the bright red crepe
-gown she wore. Her skin was fair but pale and her cheeks reflected
-just enough of the color to enhance the effect. We had a long talk on
-generalities and gradually drifted to personalities.
-
-“I am quite surprised at Geoffrey’s marrying again,” said I. “I had begun
-to think him proof against the fair sex five years ago, and it seems to
-me he added four more to that, with all due respect for you, my charming
-hostess.”
-
-“Well,” she sighed, “he might still have remained single had not he
-met me in my forlorn condition, and I often think pity was the deepest
-sentiment he felt until we had been married several months. Well, you
-see, like most Chicago women, I have a story, and mine is a long one, but
-probably not an unusual one.”
-
-“Dare I presume to ask you for it, on the strength of my long friendship
-for your husband?”
-
-She was gazing dreamily into the grate and did not reply for a moment,
-then she turned her glorious eyes toward me and said slowly, “Yes, I will
-tell you if you think it will interest you.”
-
-I assured her it would and asked her to proceed.
-
-“I was married once before, too,” she said, “but was so unhappy that I
-left my husband and secured a divorce on the grounds of cruelty. I was
-granted a small alimony, enough to supply my modest wants.
-
-“As time went on, I became rather dissatisfied with my quiet life and was
-filled with a desire to enter the business world. It was just about this
-time that a friend of mine, being too ill to go down town, asked me to do
-an errand for her. It took me into an office building, and when I entered
-the reception room I was told that the party for whom I inquired was not
-in, but was expected soon, so I sat down and waited.
-
-“While I was waiting a man came out of one of the private offices, and as
-he saw me waiting he stopped and asked me whom I wished to see. When I
-told him he asked me into his office to wait, saying I would find it more
-pleasant there than in the reception room.
-
-“As I think of it now, I wonder why I did not always adhere to my
-first impression of him, which presented itself so forcibly. It must
-have been fate, I guess. He was not at all handsome; he, in fact, was
-homely, especially his mouth, which was too coarse, yet when he spoke
-his countenance lighted up and there was an earnestness about him that
-partially restored my confidence. He had a fine physique, a large,
-brainy head, and carried himself with dignity. Well, we drifted into the
-discussion of literature, and I found this was a well chosen subject, for
-we were both deeply interested in it.
-
-“After visiting an hour or more with him, I decided to wait no longer for
-the man I had called to see, and I left. Not long after this my friend
-called at the same suite of offices and she met Mr. Ferris. She seemed
-very favorably impressed with him, so much so that she asked him to call,
-and I must say that in spite of my prejudice I enjoyed the evening. He
-called often after that and my friend said that he was in love with me.
-I did not believe it at the time, probably because I was so utterly
-indifferent to him at that time. He interested me greatly, however, for
-many reasons, not least among which was the fact that he was in touch
-with the business world and I thought I saw possibilities through him.
-
-“It was not a month after this that he proposed to me. We were sitting on
-the couch together, and I had been telling him of the unexpected visit of
-a little friend of mine from Buffalo. He suddenly took my hand in his and
-said, ‘Claire, I want you, and before anyone comes into this home to rob
-me of you, I want your promise to be mine, all mine.’
-
-“I felt within myself that he had endeared himself to me considerably,
-but did not feel at all sure that I wanted to marry him, and told him so,
-so we left the matter in that way, although I accepted his ring, but it
-was with the understanding that if in the course of a few months I wished
-to retract, I was at liberty to do so.
-
-“On the following Wednesday Gretta came. Dear little Gretta. Pretty,
-petite and winsome, so sweet yet so frivolous.
-
-“I introduced Mr. Ferris to her and they soon became good friends; no one
-could help being nice to her. I was slightly indisposed at this time and
-was very glad that Ned could take her out, for it relieved me of the
-burden of entertaining her, for a burden it was, in my present condition.
-
-“One night, while I was confined to my room, she came to me and told me
-that she loved Ned, and that she believed he loved her, for he had kissed
-her and called her his dear little girl.
-
-“As if by magic, the demon of jealousy reared his head and began to sting
-me. I loved him now, I knew it, for I was unmistakably jealous. I was
-jealous of a pretty, voluptuous, little doll, with no thought beyond her
-present gratification, be it a new gown or a dinner, both of which she
-enjoyed with all the fervor of her nature. They had not one thing in
-common, unless it was their passionate natures. I tried to reason with
-myself, to assure myself of the fact that a man of his calibre could not
-really love so frivolous a creature as she; that it was merely a passing
-fancy. But having been married, I knew a man’s nature so well, knew how
-often a magnetic personality lured them on to mistakes fatal to the
-happiness of both, that my theory of incompatibility was not altogether a
-consolation.
-
-“During this period of uneasiness, I did not mention the matter to him.
-I was too proud to mention it to him, and felt it would be beneath my
-dignity to admit that I had a possible rival in one so shallow. Perhaps
-that is where I made my mistake; I don’t know.
-
-“I tried to lull my suspicions to rest, but they would none of it, and
-one night after they had gone to the theater I dragged myself wearily
-down stairs to the library, which was off the parlor and separated from
-it by heavy portieres. I became tired of reading at last and turned out
-the gas and laid down determined to await their return and be convinced
-that my suspicions were groundless, if possible; at least I wanted to
-hear how he made love to her and decide for myself whether he meant it or
-not.
-
-“I must have fallen asleep, for the first thing I remember was his saying
-in most pleading tones, ‘Come in here a moment, dear, and let me love
-you, as only I can love you.’
-
-“She danced into the darkened room beside him and he led her across it
-to the large leather couch. He picked her up bodily and laid her on the
-couch, and before she could demur, had she been so inclined, he was
-bending over her and raining fervent kisses upon her and she nestled up
-to him and sighed in an abandonment of ecstacy, fearing nothing, hoping
-nothing, only living in the delight of the moment.
-
-“I don’t know how I expected her to resist him; in fact, I’m sure I
-didn’t. I would have saved her, but for the fact that I seemed as if in
-a nightmare, unable to move or utter a sound. I lived hours in those
-moments.
-
-“After awhile I heard a sobbing. Then his voice, all tenderness and
-commiseration, ‘There, there, dear, don’t cry. You are all right. Don’t
-feel so badly; we are just human, and are no worse than hundreds of
-others.’
-
-“‘Humph!’ thought I, suffering though I was, ‘there is a great deal of
-consolation in that!’
-
-“Gradually the sobs ceased, and then he bade her good-night. I knew she
-would not go into my room this night, so had no need to fear my absence
-from my room would be discovered.
-
-“What I suffered that night, only God knows. I laid there all night in my
-misery, freezing and burning by turns. It seemed to me my hair must be
-gray. My idol was shattered, it lay in fragments at my feet, but alas!
-as with the shattered vase, round which the scent of the roses still
-clung, so did the virtues with which I had endowed this being continue
-to obtrude themselves to the complete obliteration of the crime he had
-committed before my very eyes.
-
-“At daybreak I went to my room and bathed my haggard face and tried to
-make myself presentable, at least, to Gretta when she should come in to
-see me. I had not decided what to do for the immediate present, only that
-I would say nothing.
-
-“Much to my surprise, Gretta came in beaming as usual, her volatile
-spirits were incapable of more than momentary depression, and I wondered
-vaguely if it could all be a horrible dream.
-
-“Out of the chaos of my brain one idea resolved itself, and that was to
-tell him all after she left, unless he, in his desire to right the wrong,
-asked for his release.
-
-“She went. A week passed and nothing was said, and I knew then nothing
-would be said. He was going out of the city and I determined to tell him
-about it on his return Sunday night.
-
-“He came and after he had chatted awhile he got up and said he would go
-out and order an ice sent up from the drug store around the corner. As
-he bent to pick up his hat, a letter fell unnoticed from his pocket.
-Perhaps I should not have done so, but I concealed it with my skirt until
-he left the room. It was from Gretta, I found, and I have it yet,” she
-said, as she crossed the room to the little inlaid writing desk, and took
-from it a plain white envelope bordered in black.
-
-“I am going to let you read it,” she said, handing it to me.
-
- “Dearest Ned:—
-
- “I am going to die, I am sure. I am grieving myself to death
- over you. The sun never shines brightly any more and my heart
- aches all the time now. I am disgraced, or soon will be. Oh,
- Ned, come and take your poor, little Gretta away. Tell Claire
- what you did and she is so good and sweet she will send you to
- me, I know. Please take me away and marry me and I will tell
- them all that we went to St. Joe and were married when I was
- there visiting in Chicago. Come, dear, or I shall surely die. I
- ordered this black bordered paper because I am sure mamma will
- have use for it soon; anyway I am in mourning for the loss of
- what even you, with all your tenderness, cannot give back to me.
-
- “Come, Ned, for baby’s sake.
-
- “Your heart broken
-
- GRETTA.”
-
-“When I had finished my head swam, and I felt but one mad desire, and
-that was to fly. I acted on the impulse and after pinning a note to the
-letter saying, ‘Ned, I knew some of this before, now I know all. I am
-going away where you will never see me or hear from me again. You _must_
-do your duty no matter what the sacrifice. A lifetime of devotion cannot
-repay her for her loss.
-
- CLAIRE.’
-
-“I put on my hat and left by the side entrance. I had not the remotest
-idea of where I was going or what I was going to do. I was numb with
-agony and wandered aimlessly on until I came to a car line, then the
-thought flashed across my mind to go to ‘Suicide Bridge,’ and thither I
-went.
-
-“It was yet early in the evening and many people were lingering in the
-park. I walked onto the bridge with perfect calmness, the calmness of
-despair (for what was there now to live for), and on to my fate. I walked
-to the center of the bridge, as nearly as I can remember, and looking
-carefully around and seeing no one, I climbed upon the railing and jumped.
-
-“God must have raised up that man at that particular moment from mere
-nothingness, for I was so sure I was the only one on the structure at the
-time. He caught my skirt and by an almost superhuman effort drew me back
-onto the bridge. He did not ask a question, but took me in his arms and
-carried me until he met a policeman, to whom he said, ‘My wife became
-dizzy and fainted. Please call a carriage.’
-
-“He took me to the Virginia hotel, and when I had sufficiently recovered
-to talk he said with decision, ‘I feel you were sent to me this night,
-raised up from the ashes of my buried hopes, and if you are free to
-marry I want you for my wife. I care not what your past has been or what
-caused you to try such a rash act. Your sweet, refined face tells me
-you are good and for the rest I care naught. I do not profess to love
-you, neither do I expect you to love me, but we will try to make life
-endurable together. You saved my life as much as I saved yours, for by
-saving you I saved my own, for I went there tonight for the very purpose
-of doing what you tried to do. Come now, what do you say?’ he said
-earnestly.”
-
-“And what did you say?”
-
-“I said I was willing to try, and thank God that I did, for I have never
-regretted it. We were married that night between eleven and twelve.”
-
-“And what about Gretta?”
-
-“Ned made what reparation he could; that is, he married her, and they
-have a dear little Ned eight months old.”
-
-
-
-
-TALE TWELVE.
-
-TWO BABES AND TWO MOTHERS.
-
- “They say best men are moulded out of faults;
- And for the most, become much more the better
- For being a little bad.”
-
-
-“Yes, we are very happy here.”
-
-“That fact is very evident and, as I am out for a story today, I am going
-to be so rude as to ask you if there is not some pain back of all this
-peacefulness?”
-
-The woman addressed drew herself up to her full height, which was little
-more than five feet, while her gray eyes gleamed with the assurance of
-complete possession of some article of value.
-
-This woman was not handsome, in fact had she been placed in less
-effective surroundings she would have been homely.
-
-But she was good, although the fact that she had borne cares could not
-well be concealed. It was her nature and intention to see the brightest
-side of any object, and that trait in her character was so dominant that
-it outshone her physical imperfections. The writer had known her a very
-long time, and she had often promised him a story, so that it took but
-little urging on his part to get her to talk of her past life.
-
-“I was never a famous beauty, an actress, a singer of note, nor a rich
-man’s daughter,” she said, by way of beginning. “I was a simple country
-girl whose chief duties consisted in helping my mother wash, iron, churn
-and pull weeds in the garden in the summer months, while the winter days
-were whiled away by washing dishes, going to school, and if nothing of
-greater importance came up for the evening, sewing carpet rags until bed
-time.
-
-“Such was the monotony of the life of Virginia Dawson. My father thought
-little of the future, not that he failed to care, but that he failed to
-see that the future held anything in store for him or his children. He
-had been taught the lesson of frugality, the same being demonstrated by
-poverty. It seems strange that a discovery of nature’s deposits would
-be the turning point in my humdrum existence, but such was the case. My
-parental home was but a few miles from the now busy city of Anderson,
-Ind., and it was the finding of natural gas near our house that threw me
-into the company of Arthur Blake. He was the son of wealthy parents and,
-though all my sufferings are directly traceable to my early association
-with him, I must say that he is one of the most noble of men. He came to
-the community in which we dwelt as a civil engineer, having fancied that
-profession more than any other. A firm of Boston capitalists had employed
-him to investigate the extent and certainty of the gas belt. He was
-instructed to keep his business quiet and to conceal his real identity.
-To do this, he assumed the role of a laborer, going about and actually
-toiling with the derricks, ropes and pipes just as though he was not an
-heir to a large fortune.
-
-“While thus engaged he came to our humble home to board. I was just such
-a strip of awkward girlhood as any man might expect to find in a child
-of the rural district.
-
-“I know I was the most unsophisticated creature that ever lived. I knew
-nothing of life outside the five-room house in which my parents had lived
-for twenty years and in which I had been born nearly seventeen years
-before I met Arthur Blake.
-
-“He remained at our house for three months, and so refined and dignified
-was he that he won a place in our hearts that was hard to fill by any
-others. He was rather reticent and made few friends. My father was
-dumfounded when one day Arthur proposed that he, my father, go and buy a
-new buggy.
-
-“‘What would I buy a buggy with and what for?’” asked my father.
-
-“‘With this,’ said Arthur, as he handed father a roll of bills, ‘and for
-my use. I shall have to do a great deal of driving. I will hire a horse
-from you, but I want everyone to understand that the whole outfit is
-yours.’
-
-“So it was arranged, and it was generally said by less fortunate
-neighbors that ‘Dawson must be makin’ money keepin’ boarders.’
-
-“Then came a long series of drives over the broad expanse of the gas
-fields. My parents did not object to my going with him, for he was very
-considerate of my welfare. It was during these trips that I learned of
-the beauties of nature. I soon became thrilled with the songs of birds,
-the chirping of crickets and the humming of bees, none of which had held
-any charms for me before. Plants that to me had always been known as
-weeds now bore bright blossoms; the green leaves meant more to me. I saw
-beauty in the undulating fields which I had always known as plain hills.
-The whole world seemed to put on a new garment. You see that I was not
-experienced enough to know that I saw everything with different eyes than
-before. I did not know that a little word of four letters told all that
-affected me, in fact I did not know what love meant until he told me, and
-then I did not fully understand it until he was away from me for three
-weeks.
-
-“He went home, back to Pittsburg on a visit, and while he was gone the
-brightness of the flowers faded. The frosts of October withered the
-foliage, and the brown of the leaves seemed to resemble the solemnity
-of my heart when I would walk along the well known paths with pleasant
-memories in my mind. Every bush and tree seemed to add to the sentiment
-with which my heart was filled and sobs choked me. The notes of the few
-birds that had remained tempting fate by braving the elements were even
-sobbing.
-
-“Then he came back, and the glinting of the sunshine on the early morning
-frost was not brighter than my life. After that he made real love to me,
-and I have always thought he meant it. Our love was like that of many
-others and led to grave indiscretions, and in due time I realized that I
-was in serious trouble. I told Arthur and he said he would go back to his
-father and get some money and come and marry me. Instead, he went away
-and during those months of waiting my suffering was beyond description.
-
-“I was finally forced to tell my parents. My mother wept herself sick;
-father became morose and said little; my trouble became neighborhood
-gossip; one old lady going so far as to say it was good enough and she
-guessed most anybody could have a new buggy for that price.
-
-“One day after my baby was born, a well dressed stranger called at our
-house and asked for my father. He was a lawyer that Arthur had sent. He
-had a great lot of papers he wanted us to sign, and after a long talk
-with father, we signed them as directed. After that father seemed to get
-along better; he was kinder to me and seemed to like the baby better. He
-seemed to have more money and the first day of each month, rain or shine,
-he went to town and nearly always brought mother and me a new dress or
-some article of apparel that was most needed. He gave me money to buy
-the baby’s clothes without a murmur, and took a more cheerful view of
-everything.
-
-“At last the land in our section became so valuable for the gas that was
-under it that the little forty-acre tract on which my father had been a
-tenant so long, was sold to a party of capitalists, and our occupation as
-farmers was gone.
-
-“We moved to town, I mean Anderson, Indiana. There my father obtained
-work in a factory. All this time my baby was growing from the sphere of
-long clothes, into prattling, toddling childhood. Father toiled long and
-faithfully day by day; mother and I managed the housework, nor was our
-strength taxed, for we had but a five-room cottage, and it seemed a shame
-that poor father should work so hard, so many long hours of the day and
-we have so much time to spend in idleness. It was decided that I should
-seek employment and I obtained a situation as maid in the home of one
-of the large factory owners. I had a very pleasant place, and when at
-the end of two years, the family decided to remove to Chicago, it was
-arranged that I go with them. My mother could easily get along without
-me, and she had grown so fond of the baby that she would not hear of my
-taking her with me.
-
-“I was soon located in my new home on one of the principal North Side
-thoroughfares of the city. All went well until one day the lady of the
-house announced that she expected some company from California, and
-wished me to be in attendance to them during their stay.
-
-“When the visitors arrived I was at my station in the hall on the second
-floor; the hostess greeted them, and in her demonstration of hospitality
-showed the lady the suite they were to occupy during their stay. She
-rang and I went in to assist in putting away the wraps. The lady was a
-sweet young matron, and when she said, ‘Now I must have my baby with me a
-little while,’ I could have hugged her.
-
-“‘Yes,’ said the hostess; ‘Virginia, run down and bring the baby up; he
-is with his papa in the reception room.’
-
-“Then, with a motherly feeling growing in my breast, I descended the
-heavily carpeted stairs, three steps at a time, but even in my flight I
-had taken time to fall in love with that baby before I ever set eyes on
-it.
-
-“I told the gentleman that I would take the baby up to its mother.
-I saw the pallor on his face as I spoke, but when I took my baby’s
-half-brother into my arms none of the spectators suspected the truth.”
-
-“Then the man was⸺?”
-
-“Yes, it was my Arthur who had brought his wife and child to visit in the
-home where I was a servant, quite accidental, of course, and thanks to my
-rugged nature, I did not faint nor in any way betray my feelings.
-
-“For two weeks I held my post of duty. Once he tried to speak to me in
-the hall, but I ran away from him. I felt that my claim had been settled.
-The day they left he pushed an envelope into my hand as I was packing
-his wife’s trunks. It contained a fifty-dollar bill and a letter. The
-money was an insult; the letter told me of his sympathy for me, and how
-he had been engaged to his wife long before he met me, but had loved me
-and still did. It all aroused my anger. I brooded over the matter for
-three weeks, then concluded to go to his home and expose the whole affair
-to his wife. I went to Anderson, got my little girl and departed for the
-west. I had no difficulty in finding his home. I was admitted and ushered
-into the parlor. His wife soon came to me; the moment she saw my little
-girl she began to weep and took her in her arms. My first impression
-was that he had told her everything. But no, she explained to me that
-her baby boy had contracted a cold in Chicago, from which he had never
-recovered, and they had buried him but two days before. She insisted
-on knowing whose child I had with me. Her suffering had the effect of
-changing my plans. Poor soul, I did not wish to add to her misery. After
-wringing a promise from her never to tell anyone, not even her husband,
-I told my story. I told her all except who the man was, and I concealed
-that fact from her. She insisted on my staying at their home for a few
-days until I found work. I was eager to do so, for she said baby and I
-would be such a comfort to her.
-
-“I left with a promise to return. I found Arthur’s office and told him
-why I had come west, also how my plans were altered. He listened in
-silence until I had finished, then tenderly he took the baby into his
-arms and kissed her—just think, the first father’s kiss she had ever
-known.
-
-“In spite of all my desire to expose him I was now fully convinced that
-it would be a great wrong to wreck his life and that of the woman who was
-his wife, and whom he had loved before he met me. He joined his wife in
-her entreaties for me to make my home with them, at least, he said, until
-I could do better.
-
-“All went well for two months. Suffer? Yes, I suffered more than I dared
-then admit, but I was doing good, I was making his wife happy instead of
-dealing out pain, as I first intended. I am sure he suffered also, but I
-think he, too, found a great deal of happiness in the fact that he was
-doing all in his power for me and my child, without doing any harm to
-anyone. But an end must come, even to good intentions. One evening we
-were all sitting in the library of his home; my little girl was playing
-with a doll house he had given her. She had been quietly engaged in this
-pursuit for some moments, and so still was she we almost forgot that she
-was in the room. All at once she left her play and ran to Arthur and
-proceeded to climb up in his lap. Then putting her chubby arms around
-his neck and kissing his cheek, she said, ‘I wish you was my papa.’ And
-before anyone could answer her she turned to me and said, ‘Mamma, ain’t I
-dot no papa? Why tant you det me a nice papa like—like—Unca Arter?’
-
-“It was too much for him. Tears sprang into his eyes and, putting her
-gently from him, he left the room. His wife thought his grief was caused
-by the sad recollection of their baby, but I knew. Such scenes were
-exceedingly straining, so I avowed my intention to return to Chicago,
-whereupon they begged me to leave my little Harriet with them. We talked
-it over while Arthur held her on his knee. I finally consented, for I
-knew she would be better cared for there with them than she would with
-me. I felt the greatest pain, though, when, after it was settled, Arthur
-lovingly folded her in his arms and said, ‘Now, darling, I am going to be
-your papa.’ Freeing herself from him, and not quite understanding it all,
-she ran to me and said, ‘Who’s doin’ to be my mamma now, you, mamma, or
-Auntie Arter?’ I could only take her in my arms and weep.
-
-“Good-byes were said and I came here and found work in a restaurant.
-Letters came and went with the regularity of the rising sun. Always a
-little sheet of scribbles from my baby. They never allowed her to forget
-me. To my surprise one day I received a telegram from Arthur saying that
-his wife, the baby and himself would arrive in Chicago in three days.
-I did not understand at the time, but learned upon their arrival that
-Arthur’s wife had become afflicted with some malady which required a
-difficult surgical operation, and she was coming here for that purpose.
-
-“The operation was performed and everything done to save her precious
-life, but it became the painful duty of the nurse to tell Arthur that
-all efforts had resulted in failure. The slender thread of life seemed
-about to be severed. They sent for me to come to the hospital and bring
-my baby. I went and was shown to the room where white sheets seemed
-to predominate, the monotony of which was only broken by the vases of
-beautiful flowers which filled the room with sweet perfume.
-
-“Arthur and the nurse were with her. She feebly requested the nurse to
-leave us alone, then she kissed me and the baby, and reached out her
-feverish hands to Arthur.
-
-“‘Arthur,’ she said, in trembling tones, ‘Arthur, say once more that you
-love me and for the sake of that love will do something for me.’
-
-“The scene was pitiful. Arthur knelt beside the bed and took the death
-marked face between his strong hands and said, ‘Nannie, dear, I do love
-you, and will do anything you ask.’
-
-“Poor soul, how she struggled for breath while Arthur with his face
-buried in the white linen sobbed his heart out.
-
-“Then she said, ‘Now the baby.’
-
-“He took the baby and placed her on the bed as she requested, where she
-could pat and caress her.
-
-“‘And now you come, too, Virginia.’
-
-“And there, with death stealing in on the bright rays of sunlight, we
-knelt one on either side of the baby.
-
-“With a look of love which I shall always cherish, she began by
-addressing me:
-
-“‘Virginia, I know all; he, Arthur, my Arthur and your Arthur, dear, has
-been good and truthful, and baby, God bless you, you have a real papa now
-and one of your choice. Listen—Arthur—Virginia⸺,’ her breath now came
-in gasps,—‘I’m—going to our little Arthur—see—see—he is watching us—and
-he’s waiting—for—me. Promise—Arthur—promise—Vir-gin—ia, that when I am
-gone—you will marry—for the baby’s—sake—and—my—sake—promise.’
-
-“The sun crept through the blinds and lighted the smile that flitted over
-her face as I closed the bloodless eyelids.
-
-“As soon as Arthur could arrange his business affairs in California, he
-went to New York, where baby and I were to join him.
-
-“We were married quietly there a month after Nannie died. Quietly,
-because the world would have censured us for lack of respect had it known
-just that much of the affair.
-
-“We sailed for Liverpool, and traveled abroad a year, and on our return
-we married again, and this time publicly. We are very happy, although
-there was much pain behind it all. We both know now what true happiness
-is.”
-
-
-
-
-TALE THIRTEEN.
-
-NOT GUILTY.
-
- “I have so loved thee, but cannot, cannot hold thee,
- Fading like a dream, the shadows fold thee;
- Slowly thy perfect beauty fades away,
- Good-bye, sweet day; good-bye, sweet day.”
-
-
-I stood outside and listened. The silvery, sweet tones of the singer rose
-clear above the soft guitar accompaniment. As the last words died away
-on the stillness of the evening air, I rang the bell. It seemed almost
-sacrilege to break in on her quiet enjoyment, although I knew she must
-soon be expecting me. She responded to the summons at the door herself.
-Of medium height, with beautiful, sloping shoulders, a tiny waist and
-perfectly moulded hips, she would have inspired an artist. Her hair
-was prematurely gray, and dressed low on her neck. Her face was almost
-perfect in feature and the only traces of sorrow time had left visible
-were the gray hairs and lines about the slightly drooping mouth. It was
-the heart which bore the scars of agony, invisible to all but her and her
-God. She had passed through the fire and had come forth purer, fairer,
-sweeter, more charitable, more forgiving, better fitted to cope with the
-world.
-
-This was the woman as I knew her now, and had known her for the past
-year. She was to be married on the morrow (lucky man), and had promised
-to tell me her life’s story before she married.
-
-“For I shall want to forget all that sad past after the last day of this
-life, for tomorrow, I trust, a new era shall have dawned for me,” she
-said, when she gave me her promise.
-
-When I heard her singing I wondered if she longed, yet feared, the new
-life, and if she wished to hold the day yet a little longer, which she
-had evidently given over to reminiscences, for I knew the past held some
-sweet memories, for every past has them, no matter how bitter it has
-been. And those sweet memories seem the brighter for their setting of
-darkness.
-
-“I have been thinking of my past life all day,” she said, after we were
-seated, “and you know when one indulges in such a review a thousand
-things recur to one’s mind which are really irrelevant to the real story,
-yet they all combine to make up one’s life, and may have some bearing on
-the case after all.”
-
-She was silent a long time, looking out into the twilight with unseeing
-eyes.
-
-“You know I was accused of murder,” she said, abruptly. “I was tried and
-acquitted owing to insufficient evidence.”
-
-“Yes, I remember something about it.”
-
-“Five years ago, when I was nineteen, I married a man who was twenty
-years my senior. I met him out west while I was visiting there. He was a
-miner then, not actively engaged in digging the gold out of mother earth,
-nor panning it, but he was on the ground and superintended the work. He
-was a handsome man, although bronzed by exposure to the sun and wind; a
-Yale graduate, and every inch a gentleman, although thoroughly a man of
-the world. To sentimental nineteen, he had all the qualifications of a
-god, and although he was not the only one in Colorado Springs who was
-attentive to me, he was the one altogether lovely in my eyes. To be Mrs.
-Chauncey M. Dare was the height of my girlish ambition, and I used to
-write my name ‘Lucile Dare’ just to see how it would look on paper, and
-all this was before he had asked me to take his name.
-
-“My auntie, who was a wealthy widow, thoroughly approved of him and
-thought him a most eligible parti. He was reputed wealthy and, as Auntie
-said, he was old enough to be staid in his ways. I am sure she had my
-best interests at heart, but it seems strange to me now that she did not
-realize that he was too many years my senior and also that she did not
-deem it necessary to look into his antecedents. But if she had, she might
-not have found out, and I suppose I should not have this story to tell,
-and perhaps, too, I should have always been a careless child, with no
-thought for the comfort and welfare of others.
-
-“Well, we were married on the fifteenth of October and took apartments at
-The Arlington, instead of going to housekeeping, because he said he did
-not expect to remain there long, and it was an easy matter to pack and
-leave the hotel.
-
-“It was his desire to go back to New York City and show his ‘girl bride,’
-as he called me, to all his friends and have a taste of real life.
-
-“He met the highest ideal of all my girlish fancies, and was as tender a
-husband as he was a lover.
-
-“After we had been married six months he came home one night and said,
-‘Hurrah, babe, we are going east in a fortnight, thank God, so get your
-duds packed and be ready.’
-
-“I was glad to make the change, too, for youth loves a change, and I was
-delighted at the prospect of going to New York, for I had never been
-further east than Chicago.
-
-“We went at the end of the two weeks. I was received with open arms by
-all his friends in the east and I thought myself the happiest girl in
-the world, for he seemed so proud of me. I know now it was not the right
-kind of pride. He was not proud of me for my goodness and purity, it was
-rather the pride in the possession of some coveted article, for I was
-conceded to be beautiful then, and I suppose my figure was good. His was
-not a nature capable of appreciating nobility of character.
-
-“He took a house there, and we entertained a great deal and on a large
-scale. I think I might say I was a favorite in his set, but what does
-all that amount to? His was a fickle nature and when he thought he had
-fathomed mine, when he thought he knew me in the perfection of every
-art I possessed, he began to weary. I did not know it at the time, I
-knew something had caused a change, but always attributed it to business
-cares. He began by neglecting me occasionally; from that it grew to
-continuous neglect, even to the point of ignoring my existence altogether.
-
-“Endowed by nature with a cheerful disposition, my volatile spirits were
-continually on the rebound and even his gross neglect I did not feel
-deeply until it was brought home to me very forcibly after a year’s time.
-
-“It was by one of his best friends, although many years his junior. He
-had long treated me with a great deal of consideration, but I never felt
-it was more than the ordinary courtesy that one friend would show to the
-wife of another until that night.
-
-“We had been dancing together and he took me to the conservatory to rest
-and sat down beside me to talk. Perhaps I was unusually tired that night,
-or perhaps, owing to the round of gayety, I looked worn. At any rate Mr.
-Mansfield leaned over me with an air of anxiety and said, ‘Lucile, are
-you sure you are quite well tonight?’
-
-“‘Why, yes, of course I am,’ I responded, laughingly. ‘Why?’
-
-“‘You look thoroughly disconsolate tonight. Are you worrying about
-something? About—about Chauncey and his doings?’
-
-“‘About Chauncey and his doings? Why, what do you mean? Why should I? He
-is perfectly well, isn’t he?’
-
-“‘Yes, his physical health is good, but you surely know that he is
-drinking hard, and his neglect of you is occasioning a great deal of
-comment. It isn’t right, and we all feel it.’
-
-“‘Why, I hadn’t thought about it,’ I said, ‘only that he was very busy.’
-
-“‘Do you mean to say you don’t know the way he has been doing. Why, I
-could take you to him this very minute.’
-
-“My face burned, my heart began to throb violently. Tears of anger slowly
-welled up and overflowed my eyes. And yet I really could not comprehend
-it all.
-
-“‘You must be mistaken, Horace. Surely Chauncey loves me still. We have
-never had any cross words or misunderstandings.’
-
-“It may have been pique at my incredulity that made him say suddenly,
-‘Lucile, come with me. Get your wraps and come, and put on a heavy veil.
-I will show you.’
-
-“Mechanically I obeyed him. We entered his carriage together and drove,
-miles and miles, it seemed to me. I was very nervous and trembled
-violently. Horace tried to reassure me and stroked my hand tenderly.
-
-“‘Brace up, little girl,’ he said; ‘you need all your strength for the
-ordeal before you. Perhaps I have done wrong to tell you this or to
-take you where you can see it, but you are too young, too good to be
-treated in this manner and you ought to see for yourself the depth of his
-depravity.’
-
-“‘Do you think I will be any happier for being disillusioned?’ I asked.
-‘Would it not have been better for me to have gone on blindly trusting?
-Oh, why did you tell me, why did I come, anyway?’
-
-“‘If you wish to, we will return at once.’
-
-“‘No, I must see it through to the bitter end. I could never be happy
-again now, knowing even as much as I do.’
-
-“We drew up in front of a large house ablaze with light. We alighted,
-rang the bell, and were ushered into a sumptuously furnished parlor.
-Everything that was picturesque met the eye. Beautiful pictures and
-statues, elegant furniture and beautiful women, elaborately attired, and
-behind the palms in the corner was an orchestra. Everything combined to
-make the scene enchanting. I clung bewildered to Horace’s arm.
-
-“He led me to a small room off a large salon, where there were many
-tables. It was a scene of wild revelry, wine flowed freely and the air
-was heavy with the odor of many flowers. Horace pointed out a table near
-the center of the room. Seated at this table were two women and a man.
-The women were horribly made up and gowned in extreme decollete gowns,
-only fit for the most formal affair, and were laughing boisterously at
-something.
-
-“When the man turned his head I recognized my husband, and as I gazed he
-placed his hand on the exposed chest of one of his blasé companions, and
-patted it just as he had mine a thousand times when we first married.
-The spectacle was too revolting for words. I gave a slight scream. But
-Horace had anticipated some such occurrence and pressed my face against
-his broad shoulder. When I had partially recovered my normal condition we
-left. Back home—yes, now a home no longer! Back to the place where I had
-known so many happy days. Horace bade me good-night in the reception hall.
-
-“‘Lucile,’ said he, ‘you don’t know how sorry I am to have been the one
-to change the whole tenor of your life, but it was more honorable in me,
-was it not, than to maintain silence?’
-
-“‘Yes,’ I said, calmly.
-
-“I went into the library and took a new magazine from the table, sat
-down and waited. Two o’clock, three o’clock, four o’clock and still no
-Chauncey. My eyes were glued to the clock; 4:15 and I heard a step.
-I half rose in my nervous expectancy and was appalled to see an arm
-uplifted over me as to strike. I threw up my right hand, which held the
-paper knife, to ward off the blow which seemed imminent.
-
- * * * * *
-
-“When I returned to consciousness I was lying on a couch by the window,
-my head was dizzy and the room was filled with imaginary voices. I
-wondered where I could be; then the occurrences of the previous night
-passed before me in rapid succession. I jumped up and the sight which met
-my eyes froze the blood in my veins.
-
-“There weltering in his own life blood, with the steel paper knife buried
-in his throat, lay Horace.
-
-“Words cannot express the agony of the hours that followed. I managed to
-arouse the servants and they called the police. They asked me to explain,
-but they could not get a satisfactory explanation from me. I did not know
-how it all happened and I was mentally incapable of doing myself justice
-in telling what I knew. My account was so confused that I was remanded to
-jail without bail, pending my trial. Oh, those awful days! Not a friend
-came to see me. While I was living in affluence I had scores of friends,
-but now that I was in trouble and disgrace there was not one of all the
-number that would take me by the hand.”
-
-“But where was your husband all this time?”
-
-“Yes, you may well ask.
-
-“When they questioned him as to his whereabouts on that night, he proved
-an alibi. He gave a detailed account of his doings every hour of that
-night and, while it did not redound to his credit, it saved him from the
-penitentiary, and nearly sent me there.
-
-“There were three reasons why I was cleared. Firstly, they could prove no
-motive for the act; secondly, it seemed impossible for a woman to strike
-such a powerful blow; and last, but not least, the efficiency of my
-counsel.
-
-“He was an entire stranger to me. He had read the newspaper accounts of
-the affair, which stated, among other things, that I had no counsel,
-and his sympathies were aroused. He took up my case with no prospect of
-compensation.”
-
-“But, tell me, what became of your husband and who killed Horace?”
-
-“That mystery was not solved until six months ago. I had come to Chicago
-after the trial was over to get away from all the old environments and
-the old scenes, in the most miserable health. I found employment here and
-as soon as my mind became occupied with other things I began to recover.
-One day I received a telegram which had been forwarded from place to
-place in search of me. It came from my husband’s physician, and told me
-to come at once, as Chauncey was dying, and it was his last request that
-they find me and bring me there at any cost. I went and he confessed
-before witnesses that he was guilty of the crime for which I had been
-arrested.
-
-“It seems that Horace never left the house that night, fearing, I
-suppose, that I might do myself some injury. He saw Chauncey come in
-intoxicated, and fearing he might do me bodily harm he ran in to warn
-me. It must have been his raised arm, silently motioning me to fly, which
-I, in my dazed condition, mistook for Chauncey, and in fear threw up my
-arm for protection, then fainted. Chauncey staggered in and the sight of
-Horace there with me so angered him that he picked up the first thing he
-could lay his hands on, which chanced to be the paper knife, and in his
-drunken rage he killed him.
-
-“The sight of his crime sobered him and self-protection was his first
-thought. He placed me on the couch, never stopping to revive me, and
-fled, leaving me to my fate.
-
-“Ah, well,” she shuddered, “it is all over now. He died repentant in my
-arms, begging me to forgive him with his last breath.
-
-“Tomorrow I marry Mr. Graves, the attorney who defended me, and God grant
-that I may be happy. I shall try to deserve it.”
-
-“Amen,” said I.
-
-
-
-
-TALE FOURTEEN.
-
-MY LOVER’S DAUGHTER.
-
- “He
- That kills himself to avoid misery, fears it;
- And at the best shows but a bastard valor.”
-
-
-Dear Stella:—How strange that you should write me; do you know, girlie,
-that it has been almost five years since we have had any correspondence?
-
-It was only yesterday that I got out all of your old letters and re-read
-them, then put them away with the forlorn hope that I might sometime
-hear from you again. The last letter that I had from you told me of your
-engagement to Alfred, and cruel, heartless creature that I was, I did
-not even answer. I wrote you once since then, that was after my trouble.
-I did not tell you what it was, but told you that I would if you felt
-interested. You did not answer my letter and I, of course, took it for
-granted that you did not wish to be burdened with the knowledge of my
-misfortune, so never wrote you again. And now, bless your dear heart, you
-have written after so long, and in just the same sweet way as of old,
-even though you have so recently undergone such a great bereavement. You
-are a widow. How strange! And I am still unmarried, and have taken a vow
-to remain so always.
-
-Oh, how I long to visit you and go over all the old, happy days which we
-lived together. You ask me to tell you all that has happened to me. Well,
-nothing has occurred to change the humdrum existence of my life since I
-came here to live. I have worked every working day but five during my
-residence here. You well remember when I went to California to spend
-the winter. It was the winter I was twenty, and I think you know that
-when we parted, with the vow that we would write each other all our joys
-and sorrows, that I left heart whole. I have not kept my word in full,
-but will now endeavor to cover all important points. I arrived in San
-Francisco on schedule time, and was so delighted with the climate, the
-fragrant flowers and singing birds that I do not wonder that I was ready
-to admire the first man whose conduct and appearance was on par with the
-beauties of nature that abounded everywhere.
-
-Still I knew better than to fall in love, for I was given to understand
-by mamma that I was to marry Harry Caruthers. I fairly hated him,
-and besides he was papa’s nephew, and I always had a horror of blood
-relations intermarrying. Mamma said that did not matter, and Harry would
-be a very wealthy man some day. And you remember mamma, too. She was one
-of those sweet, dignified, haughty women who needed nothing but her own
-opinion to conclude an argument, and this with all due respect.
-
-Well, I fully understood that to apprise them of the fact that I had
-become greatly interested in any one man, save that red faced Caruthers,
-meant that my visit would suddenly terminate and that I would return to
-cold, cold Wisconsin, to face the storms for the rest of the winter.
-
-It was only the girlish ingenuity then which prompted me to omit the name
-of Capt. Elerding from all my letters for more than three months after I
-had met him. Oh, he was so good and kind, so considerate of my welfare,
-and I think the most refined gentleman I ever met. I would not blame any
-woman for falling in love with him. I fell desperately in love with him
-and, strange to say, without any solicitation on his part. He never once
-told me that he loved me, but I knew it by his every glance and his every
-act. The feeling became so strong within me that I decided that sooner or
-later he would propose to me, and as I did not care to run any chance of
-losing him by asking him to wait, I thought I should at least get some
-expression from my parents in regard to the attachment which had sprung
-up.
-
-I wrote to mamma. My letter brought a hasty reply refusing to tolerate
-the attentions of any one, and a request for a full and complete
-description of the handsome captain. I took the command as a matter of
-course, for mamma wanted to have Harry Caruthers for a son-in-law.
-
-Out of courtesy to my parents, I drew a pen picture of Captain Elerding.
-I told how gallant, how handsome, how brave, how popular, how genteel,
-and even how old he was. I elaborated upon his good qualities with the
-zeal of a loving girl. I left the age till the last, for I knew that when
-my parents learned that he was forty-five and quite gray that it would
-have the effect of a bomb bursting in camp; but of course the gray hair
-was caused by the many years of service for his country. Think of it! He
-was so devoted to his country that he had never been married, so there
-was no danger of my having to assume the responsibility of mother to a
-lot of grown up sons and daughters.
-
-This description of the charming captain brought a telegram to me saying:
-“Inez Manford, come home on first train.”
-
-It was signed by both my mother and father. I did not quite understand
-it, but wired back: “Delayed, see letter.”
-
-Then I wrote my parents a letter, explaining that Captain Elerding was
-expecting a party of friends soon and very much wished me to extend my
-visit another month, and with their consent I should be delighted to
-do so. The reply to that letter was mamma herself. She came post haste
-and superintended the packing of my trunks with such dispatch that we
-were east bound seven hours after her arrival in ’Frisco. I asked to
-be allowed to introduce the captain, believing his winning ways would
-capture mamma’s heart. She was obdurate and refused to see him or allow
-me to see him.
-
-It was two days after we arrived home before I could steal away alone
-long enough to write him. I think the letter only increased the desire to
-talk with him, and I resolved to run away and return to him. I felt sure
-he would lose no time in making me his wife if he had but a chance, and
-I would be the gainer, for he was very wealthy, in fact, more so by far
-than Harry Caruthers ever would be, and, more than all, I knew we would
-be happy.
-
-I stole out into the darkness of the night after everybody had retired.
-I knew that the Limited stopped to take water just at the edge of town,
-about a mile from our house.
-
-Through the biting cold I forged my way, dodging from one alley to
-another, until the railroad tracks were reached, then a long line of
-green and red lights guided me to where I caught the train as it was
-pulling out, and I was soon speeding to my dear captain.
-
-The time seemed to drag so slowly, each day seeming longer than the
-one before, until I reached my destination. I took a carriage and went
-directly to the captain’s hotel. I asked for him, but no one seemed to be
-able to talk to me; everyone was excited beyond reason. I finally got the
-attention of the clerk long enough to learn that the chambermaid had just
-discovered Captain Elerding in his room, _dead_.
-
-In his strong, right hand was still clenched the deadly pistol. The ugly
-hole in his temple and the powder burns around it told the story. In
-front of him were two papers, one a letter from my mother in which she
-upbraided him unmercifully for having cultivated my acquaintance. The
-other was his last will and testament, stating that he was in possession
-of all his faculties. It said: “I hereby bequeath, demise, convey and
-assign all of my money, property, goods and chattels whatsoever, that I
-now own, to my beloved illegitimate child, Inez Manford.”
-
-I left on the next train and have been a resident of Chicago ever since.
-
-Please write me at once, Stella, and tell me all that has happened to you
-since last we met.
-
- Yours as of old,
-
- INEZ.
-
-
-
-
-TALE FIFTEEN.
-
-AS TOLD TO A CLERGYMAN.
-
- “The night has a thousand eyes,
- The day but one;
- Yet the light of the bright world dies
- With the dying sun.
-
- “The wind has a thousand eyes,
- And the heart but one;
- Yet the light of a whole life dies,
- When love is done.”
-
-
-“You sent for me?” he said, gently, as he looked down at the emaciated
-form before him. Her eyes were unnaturally brilliant, her brow, with the
-thick, clustering curls brushed back from it, was as white as marble;
-the nose was sharp and had that pinched expression which is so sure a
-forerunner of dissolution. On each cheek was a small, red spot which
-indicated the fever which was consuming her. The chest heaved rapidly and
-as the clergyman leaned over her and looked into the hazel depths, he
-laid his hand almost caressingly upon her head.
-
-At that touch she caught his hand in both her own frail palms, and
-sobbed, “Yes, I asked to have a clergyman sent to me.”
-
-“I am James Townsend, the rector of St. Anne’s,” he said.
-
-But before he had disclosed his identity she had fainted. He hastily
-summoned assistance and in a few moments she was restored to
-consciousness, although very weak.
-
-He sat down near her couch and quietly stroked the masses of hair, the
-only charm left her by the ravages of disease. Her face seemed to him
-to be strangely familiar, and as she laid with closed eyes he had ample
-opportunity to study it as intently as he wished.
-
-Where had he seen that face before? He bent more closely and, as if
-attracted by the scrutinizing gaze, she slowly lifted the deep fringed
-lids until her eyes met his.
-
-“What is it?” she asked, faintly.
-
-“Nothing but a little fainting fit, and you are all right now.”
-
-“Yes, I’ll soon be out of all my trouble. I am so tired—so tired! I shall
-be so glad to rest at last,” she said.
-
-He administered another stimulant and gradually she became stronger,
-until at length she was able to talk.
-
-“I think, that is the last I remember, I was going to tell you why I
-sent for you. It was not to have you pray for me or to have you quote
-scripture. I sent for you because you are a clergyman and ought to be a
-good man. I know I am dying, although they tell me I will be better when
-the warm days come; but I know that when that time comes the grass will
-be growing over my grave, and that is why I want to tell you my life’s
-story. I do not feel that I ought to be absolved because I confess my
-story to you, but it will be a relief to tell some one all and the plain
-truth of every detail. I shall die easier, I know.”
-
-“Aren’t you in danger of overtaxing your strength?” he asked.
-
-“No, I feel quite strong again, and if you will give me some more wine I
-feel quite confident that I can tell you the whole story without a break.
-It is a long one, though, and may weary you.”
-
-“Do not fear, I shall be an attentive and interested listener,” he said.
-
-“Well, to begin at the very beginning, I must tell you that I was left
-an orphan very early in life. I was the youngest of three children,
-and after the small estate was divided my brother and sister held a
-consultation and decided to educate me for a kindergarten teacher, as
-there was less expense connected with the fitting for this work. I
-finished my course in due time and went to Peoria to organize a private
-class. Among the names of those given me who had children likely to join
-my class was a Mrs. Ames. I called at her home early in the week and
-secured her two children very easily. She seemed to take quite a fancy to
-me, I thought, a theory which afterward proved to be correct.
-
-“One day I received a very urgent invitation from Mrs. Ames to lunch with
-them. I gladly accepted. We did not wait for Mr. Ames, as he was often
-detained beyond luncheon hour at his office. As we sat at the table idly
-chatting he entered. Up to this time I had never seen Mr. Ames and, in
-fact, had scarcely given his existence a thought. I gave him a casual
-glance as Mrs. Ames presented him to me, and noticed what a strong,
-finely developed man he was.
-
-“He was rather quiet during the hour and had little to say, but when
-he was leaving he came over to me and said, ‘I am glad to have had the
-pleasure of meeting you at last, for I have heard your praises sung by
-many and was quite anxious to know this little paragon of virtues.’”
-
-She shuddered as she said this and perhaps the quiver which shook the
-clergyman’s frame in his effort at self-control at this mention of the
-name Ames had communicated itself to her, and she remained silent for
-awhile.
-
-Again the clergyman’s sympathetic hand sought to soothe and encourage her
-by stroking her hair.
-
-Reassured, she continued:
-
-“Not long after this I was quite ill, and much to my surprise,
-considering my limited acquaintance in the city, received a large box of
-American Beauties. The card accompanying them was that of Mr. Ames. On
-the back was written, ‘Because you are so like one I used to know.’
-
-“I wondered whom he could mean and resolved to ask him the first time I
-saw him, yet I felt rather timid because he was quite a stranger to me.
-I need have felt no timidity, however, because he embraced the first
-opportunity to tell me when we were quite alone that I was so like his
-first wife, Laura, the mother of his children. He told me what a good,
-true woman the present Mrs. Ames was, and what a good mother she had
-made his children, but explained to me that it had been a matter of
-convenience on both sides—not a love affair. She had passed the age when
-women are most sought and was glad to accept the luxurious home he
-offered her, and he was glad to have such a sensible woman for the mother
-of his children.
-
-“It was but a short time after that that Mrs. Ames asked me to come
-to her house and make my home with them as one of the family. No one
-but myself knew what a God-send that was. My class had been greatly
-decreased by a diphtheria scare and my finances were low, and now that
-I had no board to pay I could manage very nicely. Everyone at the house
-was so kind to me except Mrs. Ames’ mother, who lived with them, and
-she seemed to look upon me as an intruder, but I was thoroughly happy
-notwithstanding.
-
-“I was at that time as innocent as a child, with absolutely no knowledge
-of the world except what I had seen in my own little sphere.
-
-“One night Mr. Ames whispered to me that he was coming up to my room at
-Mrs. Ames’ request as soon as I retired. I had been in my room but a few
-minutes when he tapped on the door. I opened it and let him in. Be drew
-me to the window seat and put his arms around me and said:
-
-“‘Little girlie, I have come to tell you a few things which you or any
-other innocent girl ought to know. It is for your own protection that I
-tell you. I would that I could spare you the revelation, but I cannot,
-for you are unsafe, there are so many unscrupulous men in the world who
-would take advantage of innocence.’
-
-“I did not understand the drift of his remarks and was half vexed. He
-kissed me then for the first time. Then he told me about myself and
-about men and women and their relations to each other.
-
-“It was a great shock to me and I hid my face on his broad shoulder and
-cried as if my heart would break. After he had quieted me, we talked a
-long time and I could see what a good thing it was that he had told me as
-much as he had.
-
-“It was one night some weeks after this had occurred that Mr. Ames and I
-were left alone in the parlor. We had waited a long time for grandma to
-retire, and when she finally went he turned out the electric light for a
-moment, so that he could take me in his arms and kiss me good-night. It
-was a mistake, for grandma stood on the landing above and saw it.
-
-“Nothing was ever said about it, but I could feel the change in the
-atmosphere and luckily, as my school term was out that week, I was
-able to leave without occasioning comment. I returned to Chicago with
-little money and secured a pleasant room with a private family on Drexel
-boulevard. I had not been there a week, when Mr. Ames, to whom I had
-promised to send my address, came to see me. I was so discouraged and
-blue that his presence was a panacea for all my ills. He laid down on the
-couch and asked me to come and sit down beside him, and took me in his
-arms.
-
-“I was just in the state of mind to receive caresses and to return them;
-his were balm to my aching heart. He caressed me until—well, I don’t know
-how it all happened—if anyone had asked me the next morning if I had done
-wrong, I should have said no, with a clear conscience, for I did not
-know then that that which a good woman prizes higher than life had been
-taken from me.
-
-“After this he came as often as his business cares would permit, always
-the same, tender and true. One day he came as usual and said, ‘I have
-planned your vacation trip for the summer, dear, and although it will
-deprive me of the pleasure of your company for a long time and I hardly
-know how I am going to get along without the sunshine of your presence;
-but you are not well and I think the change will do you good.’
-
-“Then he unfolded his plan to me. I was to go to Mackinac for the summer.
-He gave me $200 when I left. I staid three months and was really very
-lonely at times without Fred, but not as lonely as he was without me, for
-I had many friends among the young people, while he was obliged to come
-to the city regularly and stay for a day or two every week as usual, to
-keep up appearance at home.
-
-“He sent me many pretty little gowns and waists, and showed rare good
-taste in their selection, and was so thoughtful in every way that it
-was little wonder that I leaned on him more than I realized. And, then,
-too, his letters were so beautiful, every one of them breathing of his
-devotion to me. When fall came, with it came the thought of what I was
-to do to support myself. I came back to Chicago and Fred met me. We had
-a long talk and he asked me if I thought I could manage to live on $10
-a week. I felt very rich at the prospect of having an income assured me
-every week, and think I enjoyed it, small though it was, more than I did
-the days of prosperity that followed.
-
-“I boarded all winter with a friend who had moved to Chicago during my
-absence. The next spring he invested $200 for me and in a year it had
-made $5,000. He felt he was better able to provide me with a good home of
-my own now, and so he found a beautiful little flat, which he furnished
-very cozily.
-
-“He came to Chicago every week, ostensibly on business, and remained two
-days. Of course my living this kind of a life necessitated my giving up
-all my former friends; they would wonder and ask questions and rather
-than lie, I ostracised myself.
-
-“I had learned to love him devotedly by this time, for he was so good
-to me, my slightest wish was anticipated, and he loved me with such
-tenderness as only a strong man can bestow.”
-
-“Tell me again that he was good to you,” said the clergyman.
-
-“Why,” she said, wonderingly, her eyes meeting his for the first time
-since she began her narrative.
-
-“I—I only wanted to be reassured of the fact that while Fre—this man, I
-mean, had done you the greatest wrong that a man can do a woman, he tried
-to make reparation.”
-
-“Yes, he was good, until—until,” and again her face was drawn in agony
-and her frail form quivered, “well, until the time came when he could not
-come every week. Business was such that it was impossible, he said. I
-grew so lonely that I thought I should die.
-
-“During this period of loneliness, I met an old school mate on the
-street one day. She seemed very glad to see me and insisted on my going
-to Rector’s with her, where she had an appointment to dine with her
-friend. I went and it was the same old story. Her friend was a strikingly
-handsome fellow and I was a pretty girl then,” she said with a wan smile,
-“and we became enamored of each other.
-
-“He asked to call and I allowed him to come. He came often and finally in
-a moment of weakness I yielded to his importunities. This was my fatal
-mistake. Fred came unexpectedly the next day and I was so remorseful and
-conscious stricken that I could not appear natural. He took me gently in
-his arms and begged me to tell him what the matter was. I sobbed it all
-out to him, yes, every word of the truth, and instead of forgiving me as
-he should have done, he tore my arms from about his neck, and threw me
-from him.
-
-“I think I must have fainted, for when I became conscious of my
-surroundings, he had gone.”
-
-The clergyman groaned aloud, but so absorbed was she in her contemplation
-of that past, that she did not heed it.
-
-“I laid on the floor all night, just where he had thrown me. Morning came
-and brought with it more misery. A special delivery letter was brought to
-me; it contained a draft for $5,000 to be deposited to my credit in the
-bank, and a short note saying that he did not wish to see me again. That
-my sin had found me out.
-
-“I was crushed and heartbroken. My illness began with that day. The
-doctors say it is pulmonary trouble, but it is not that. It is a
-consumption of the heart and brain, and the desire to live vanished when
-I knew he had gone out of my life forever.”
-
-The last words were scarcely audible. The clergyman leaned over her and
-took her in his arms and wiped the death sweat from her brow.
-
-She looked at him and whispered, “Why are you so good to me?”
-
-He thought a moment, fearing to tell her the truth lest the shock prove
-too much for her rapidly ebbing strength, but the pleading eyes were
-fixed on his and he could not withhold the truth.
-
-“Because,” he said, gently, “the man who ruined you is my half brother.
-He was younger than I by ten years, and I loved him better than my life
-and cared for him after our mother died. I could not believe he would
-have done such a thing, had not you yourself told me. I have seen your
-picture in their home, and that is why your face seemed so strangely
-familiar to me when I first came in. There is but one thing I can do that
-will in the least atone for what he has done, and it is this: Marry me
-within an hour, that you may at least have a name. I will take you away
-with me to a warmer climate and change of scene and you may yet recover
-and learn to be happy. I think God must have sent me to you at just the
-right time. Will you marry me?”
-
-He bent over her almost eagerly, longing to hear her say yes, now that he
-had made up his mind to make the sacrifice.
-
-But she had gone where there is neither marrying nor giving in marriage.
-
-
-
-
-TALE SIXTEEN.
-
-A STORY OF STAGE LIFE.
-
-SOUL.
-
- “But whither went his soul, let such relate
- Who search the secrets of the future state;
- Divines can say but what themselves believe;
- Strong proofs they have, but not demonstrative;
- For, were all plain, then all sides must agree,
- And faith itself be lost in certainty;
- To live uprightly, then, is sure the best,
- To save ourselves, and not damn the rest.”
-
-
-“Tired of the stage? Yes, I am tired, but what am I to do?”
-
-“Don’t you know anything but to sing and dance and act?”
-
-“Yes and no.”
-
-“Why not seek other employment?”
-
-“Simply because I am too energetic; life on the stage is hard work; some
-day I suppose I shall break down entirely, then—and then,” she repeated
-dreamily, “I don’t know where it will all end.”
-
-“I am interested,” said the man, as he toyed with the wine glass, which
-he had just drained in company with the girl.
-
-They were seated in what is known as the “cafe” of one of the theaters
-of the city wherein humanity is represented in the audience by bald men
-and ribald youths; and on the stage by feminine apararies, whose make up
-consisted principally of blonde wigs and carmine; some were women of good
-figures; some whose figures were in evidence on account of the assistance
-the arts of man had rendered nature; some had charms which even the faded
-eyes, paint and powder could not hide.
-
-Each performer had a part to play, which was outlined on the program;
-if some were playing a role which was not on the regular line of her
-profession, no one seemed to care.
-
-A large placard, which hung behind the scenes warning the members of the
-company from receiving any attentions from any spectator, did not have
-the effect which its strict wording would imply. The writer is of the
-opinion that the police inspector is the only person who is sure the sign
-existed; it being there for his benefit, one cannot think strange if he
-did see it and report to the chief that the laws of the state and city
-were being complied with.
-
-The cafe was always well filled between acts, especially during the
-thirty minutes intermission which was allowed the performers about midway
-of the evening’s entertainment. If I say this time was alloted to give
-the performers a breathing spell, I fear that the sympathy that was felt
-in each heart for the poor overworked chorus girls, would be felt more in
-behalf of the much wanted bar boy, as the numerous parties wrapped on the
-tables in their haste to be served first with the liquid refreshments,
-which were dealt out to the men and women with the same free hand.
-
-The girl who did the speaking in the opening of this story, was one of
-the first to appear through the stage entrance to the large room, where
-classes met in a motley crew. She had caught the gleam of the small brown
-eyes of the man in the front box, and as she passed off the stage, she
-plainly heard him say, “Go down to the wine room.”
-
-“Go on and tell me,” he nodded, as the girl said, “Manhattan,” to the
-inquiring look of the waiter, who had rushed to the table at a signal
-from the man.
-
-“No,” she said doggedly, “I don’t want to talk; bring me a package of
-cigarettes, Otto,” she said, as the waiter moved away.
-
-“It’s no use; what do you want to know for?” Then the lines around her
-mouth became hard, while she tapped the heel of her dancing slippers on
-the floor. She may have been pretty; she may have been good and pure at
-some time, but the deep laid wrinkles, the flaring nostrils and bleared
-eyes told of the long days of hardships and nights of dissipation.
-
-“Oh, no matter,” said the man, with a shrug of his shoulders. “I just
-thought you might have known better days; I have, and thought we might
-talk of other times, besides,” said the man leisurely, “I used to be in
-the profession.”
-
-“What line, specialty or legit.?” asked the girl, with a show of interest.
-
-“Oh, most anything, heavies principally, though.”
-
-“Why did you leave it?”
-
-“Went to the bad,” said the man, nonchalantly.
-
-The man’s remarks had the desired effect; a feeling of closer fellowship
-began to develop and that, coupled with the warming up process which the
-second cocktail afforded, caused the woman’s tongue to run glibly.
-
-“Oh, I don’t mind,” she said, between inhalations of cigarette smoke,
-“but you see a girl don’t like to break open and tell some stranger all
-she knows about herself.”
-
-“Go on,” said the man, confidently, “I am very much interested. But
-first,” he added, “how much time have you? For if you are in danger of
-being interrupted, we had best make an appointment to meet later.”
-
-“Oh, I don’t know,” said the girl in a hard, bantering tone; “you see we
-girls are allowed the privilege of entertaining friends, in fact, salary
-cuts such a small figure in this joint, that it is absolutely necessary
-for us to get some money on the side.”
-
-“But I hope you don’t expect to get any money from me for just talking
-with you; of course I will buy drinks, lunch or anything you like, but
-there is where I draw the line. You see I am only a curiosity seeker.”
-
-“In that case,” said the girl, “I must leave you, for if I am not on the
-stage at the call, the manager will have a kick coming.”
-
-“How do you appease his wrath when you stay away, that is to say, when
-you are getting the money?”
-
-“Oh, that’s different,” said the girl, rising. “I always cut it with him.”
-
-“Oh, I see,” said the man, musingly. “How much does it take to satisfy
-him?”
-
-“Oh, I guess I can fix him for a dollar.”
-
-“Then here, I’ll give you the dollar, now we will go into a private wine
-room and have a good hour’s chat.”
-
-“What! and let all these sure things around here go? I guess not! Don’t
-you see that old guy over there making eyes at me now? He’s a regular
-here and always ready money, too.”
-
-“Have another drink,” said the man, as he took a cigarette from the
-package which the girl held in her hand.
-
-“All right, I’ll have one more, then bid you good night. I’ll see you
-again,” she said reassuringly.
-
-The man was wise. When the boy brought the drinks, he produced a roll of
-tens and twenties, which would cause the eyes of most people to dilate
-with greed.
-
-Tossing a bill on the table, he carelessly placed the roll in his
-waistcoat pocket, and when the waiter returned with the change, he
-generously insisted on his taking a dollar for the drinks.
-
-“Now it is my time to buy,” said the girl, before the boy had left the
-table.
-
-“Bring me a whisky sour, and what is yours,” she said merrily as she
-leaned over and placed one hand on the man’s knee.
-
-“I will take a small bottle of beer,” said the man, slowly.
-
-“Oh, come now, old brown eyes, take something better; some kind of a
-mixed drink.”
-
-“No, please let me have beer; you see I am thirsty. I have drank nothing
-but whisky all day.”
-
-After this speech the man placed his elbows on the table and almost fell
-asleep.
-
-“Come, cheer up, dearie!” said the girl with a slap on the man’s back.
-
-“Yesh, I’m all right,” said the man, “only you see, I’m so tired let’s
-go into a wine room where people won’t see us.”
-
-“All right,” said the girl, “but first let’s have this drink that’s
-coming, then we can tell our waiter where to find us.”
-
-The girl had forgotten the “old guy,” and seemed only to remember the
-visions which floated through the air in the forms of tens and twenties.
-She would look at the man hopefully, then her eyes would fall on the vest
-pocket on the side furthest from her.
-
-“How old are you?” asked the man, as he laid his arm along the back of
-her chair and gazed steadily into her face, after they had been enclosed
-in the wine room.
-
-“No matter, you don’t care,” she returned, coyly.
-
-“Yes, but I do. You see, I want you to tell me everything. How old are
-you; where were you born; when did you come to Chicago, all?” said the
-man, earnestly.
-
-“I am twenty-four,” she muttered, and she probed the bottom of the glass
-with a toothpick for the cherry, which so persistently rolls around in a
-cocktail.
-
-“You look it,” said he, frankly.
-
-Tears sprang into the girl’s eyes, as she said, “My God, man, if you had
-gone through what I have, you would look old, too.”
-
-“Now come, I did not mean that to hurt, but I am blunt and to the point;
-if I have hurt you, forgive me,” said the man.
-
-“Oh, that’s nothing,” said the girl, “only, you see, I guess I am wrong
-someway tonight. I don’t like to swear, and feel too mean to cry.”
-
-“You seem worried or sad.”
-
-“No, I am—am—nothing,” said the girl, dreamily.
-
-“Oh, I guess you are a great deal,” said he, as he passed his hand down
-the woman’s bare arm, with a soft caress, from her shoulder to the
-hand that hung listlessly at her side. In spite of the man’s maudlin
-condition, his touch was soft and gentle; the stroke seemed to soothe the
-mind of the girl; tears sprang into her eyes as the man took her hand and
-patted it in a kindly manner; hope seemed to take root in her breast and
-the man, throwing off all assumption of intoxication, looked her squarely
-in the eyes and said: “Come, now, I know you have a story. The thrill
-which your soft hand sends through me tells me that you have known better
-things, that you have graced a throne more becoming to womanly instincts,
-with which your nature is so bountifully supplied.”
-
-“Don’t, oh please don’t talk like that,” cried the girl, “it—it—makes me
-so sad.”
-
-“Have you ever told your story,” asked the man, paying no attention to
-the now sobbing girl.
-
-“N—o—, but—I have wanted to, oh so much, for some time I shall die, and
-while I have sinned much, I want some one to know that I was reared
-right, and that even after I had fallen from the great white throne of
-purity I had some good thoughts, but I have always been afraid to tell
-any one especially since⸺” here the creature broke down entirely, moaning
-and writhing in bitter agony.
-
-“Since when?” asked the man, gently, as she seemed to get her grief
-partially under control.
-
-“Oh, since I have gotten so low.”
-
-“Come, now, you’re not so bad off, and besides you are going to tell me
-the truth, and I am going to believe you, for a woman never gets too
-low, even in her own estimation, to tell the truth when she refers to a
-beautiful past.”
-
-“Oh, yes, if it were all as you say, but then I think I will tell you,”
-said the girl, bravely.
-
-“My parents were natives of the New England states. When I was four
-years old they removed from our eastern home to a small town in McLean
-county, Illinois. My father was a Baptist minister, and I was taught
-all the principles of the true Christian and, believe me, I enjoyed the
-Sunday-schools, prayer-meetings and all the devotional exercises. Music
-always charmed me and when the question arose as to whether or not an
-organ should be placed in the church, I think it was due to my influence
-over my father that one was installed there, for he opposed it at first.
-The most looked for event of the year was Christmas time, for it was the
-custom to have a Christmas tree at the church, at which time the music
-would excel all other occasions. Once the local paper of our town offered
-a fine, large doll (lifelike in every particular) as a prize to the
-girl over nine years and under twelve years of age, who would write the
-best Christmas story, the stories to be published several weeks before
-Christmas. The names of the writers were to be kept secret, while the
-patrons of the papers sent in votes denoting their choice; the doll was
-given Christmas eve. I think as I now look back over a career that is not
-spotless, that the moment when the great wax figure with the big blue
-eyes and masses of soft, fluffy hair, the kid body of which was clothed
-in the finest array imaginable, was placed in my arms, was the happiest
-moment of all my life. I knew I had sent in a story, but never dreamed
-of being the winner; my heart was full, my life complete. I had no
-longings or dreads; my childish competitors took their defeat like little
-women; the next week my parents assisted me in giving my first party and
-the invitations were issued only to those dear little friends, who had
-competed for the prize; we called it a christening party, for we named
-the dollie.
-
-“Tired, aren’t you?” said the girl.
-
-“No—go on!”
-
-“I cannot understand how all this stuff about my dolls, etc., will
-interest you.”
-
-“But you have not always played with dolls,” said the man as he elevated
-his brows.
-
-“I am sorry to say I have not. The next important event of my life
-was the death of my father, which caused my first real sadness. I was
-fourteen then; how well I remember the night after we buried all that was
-left of our dear protector. I dressed for bed, then, as was my custom,
-went to say good-night to papa and mamma; my prayers were always said at
-my father’s knee; that night from force of habit I went from the door
-of my room and walked straightway to my father’s chair and was just
-bowing my head as I prepared to kneel, when the vacant chair caught my
-eye. Oh, sir! I can’t tell you how desolate, how dreary I felt when I
-fully realized that the blessed privilege of snuggling into his lap and
-putting my arms around his neck and having a good talk with him was gone
-forever; my father always trusted me as a good friend and companion,
-confiding in me and often advising with me on different topics pertaining
-to his sermons, so that even at this tender age I was well advanced in
-mental training; he never told me no if I asked him if I should read a
-certain book, or go any place, or do anything; if my act did not meet
-his approval he never indulged in a long lecture about disobedient and
-headstrong children, but would take me gently into his arms and say,
-‘Now, let’s see, we will talk it over,’ and before I left him I would
-know and understand why my contemplated step was wrong and no amount of
-persuasion would induce me to go contrary to his wishes. Not only would
-he cause me to see things his way on these occasions, but he would insert
-some request, some little point he wanted me to look up in the Bible or
-history for him, so that my mind became so full of interest in doing
-these things that my own ideas were submerged. I was told once by a girl
-friend who was hurt at some little indiscretion on my part that I need
-not be so smart, my father was not always a preacher, while I, in the
-full confidence of religion and clerical importance, naturally supposed
-that he had been and replied to her sharply that ‘I knew better.’
-
-“‘Well, I know better, too,’ she retorted, ‘for my papa knew him when he
-was a bad, wicked man, so there, now!’
-
-“I was so hurt and humiliated that I burst into tears, and made no reply
-but went home and running into my father’s arms, I cried and sobbed until
-I was sure I should die; it was a long time before I could calm myself
-sufficiently to answer questions which my father and mother poured in
-upon me. Finally I told them the circumstances; I noted the pallor which
-spread over papa’s face, but mistook it. I thought he was angry.
-
-“In about thirty days from that time my father was called to go to the
-country, some sixteen miles, to officiate at the funeral of an old member
-of his flock. The day was bitter cold; the wind howled, while the snow
-went swirling and drifting everywhere. It was necessary for him to drive;
-he arrived home late that night, chilled and benumbed from the cold and
-exposure; in three days pneumonia had added poor papa to its long list of
-victims.
-
-“A parson’s salary is not a source of large bank accounts, and by the
-time all the expenses which were incurred by the illness and death of
-my father were paid we were without means; then the regulation donation
-party was inaugurated and by that means we were put in possession of a
-sufficient amount of the necessities of life to exist on for several
-months, and to help, the official board met and passed a resolution that
-they would not engage a regular pastor for the remainder of the winter,
-so mamma and I could ‘just as well’ live in the parsonage right along
-until further notice. Christmas passed that year with as much sadness
-in it for me as there had been joy and pleasure in the preceding ones;
-cold, dreary winter days did nothing to enhance the value of our lives;
-then came spring, ushered in by the songs of birds and the breath of
-roses. The official board met again and a new pastor was called to take
-the place of him who had been the light of my life. The members of the
-church were not thoughtless by any means, for they, in their goodness,
-provided for us; in a certain town in Eastern Indiana there is a Baptist
-hospital; it was through the generous and kindly directed influence of my
-father’s flock that my mother was offered the position of matron of this
-institution. We took up our abode there and it was there that my real
-life began.
-
-“When I was fifteen years old I tried my hand at writing again, but not
-for a doll this time; I was successful enough to have a story received by
-a popular magazine, for which they paid me fifty dollars. This brought
-me not a little notoriety and I was asked to join a literary club and
-practically taken into the arms of the social leaders of the town. If I
-say I was good looking, I do so only because others declared such to be
-the case. I seemed to be a favorite; I was much wanted at the different
-social functions for I had learned to play and sing. It was little wonder
-that when a young man came into the city and arranged with the Ladies’
-Club to produce an opera, solely with local talent, that my name was
-mentioned as being the one for the leading part. The part required youth,
-grace, modesty and vigor, a combination which the director told me was
-not easily found.
-
-“‘The Little Tycoon’ was the title of the production. My part was a
-singing part and it required much training and long practice. I strove to
-please the young man who had the affair in charge and worked many hours
-after the other performers had gone home. The young man, Leon La Dew, was
-also greatly interested in my success and he spent hour upon hour with
-me that I might attain the proficiency which I aspired to reach.
-
-“The entertainment was a success from every standpoint, so much so, that
-hundreds were turned away and by request it was repeated on the following
-night; after the last performance, I hurried home with my mother, as
-I had upon all occasions of rehearsal during the preparations for the
-event. Next day the papers were full of praise for the participants, many
-of them getting what we now call a ‘special.’ An interview with Mr. La
-Dew held a conspicuous place on the first page. He lauded all the people
-who had so ably assisted, and the interview closed by saying, ‘Mr. La Dew
-informs the press that much of the success of the performance was due to
-the excellent work of Miss Althea Noble, in fact, Mr. La Dew assures us
-that should Miss Noble aspire to the stage as a profession, she, without
-a doubt, has a great future before her.’
-
-“How my heart throbbed, how my blood surged. I was not stage struck, I
-actually abhorred the thought of it, but I had been praised by Mr. La
-Dew. I wept with joy; he had been so kind, so sweet and tender, never
-scolding or fretting when we girls made blunders, he had just that even,
-patient temperament which will conquer all things, and he was rather
-handsome, too. Not strikingly so, but so much so, that if he suddenly
-came into a room crowded with people, no matter how unassuming he might
-appear, everyone would see him. Then for me there was a familiar look
-and attraction in his manner. I felt as if I had known him always. I
-once expressed my feelings about him to mamma, and she explained that
-the feeling was born of a memory, Mr. La Dew being the first man I had
-associated with in any manner since my father’s death. I accepted her
-explanations for the time, but before Mr. La Dew was gone from the town
-three days, I knew I was in love. On the fifth day, after he had gone,
-I ran to my mother, uttering screams of delight, all brought about by
-reason of a letter which I pushed into her hands as she gazed at me in
-an amazed way. The letter was from him. It said, ‘I have arranged to put
-on “The Little Tycoon” here (a near-by town), but am unable to fill the
-part which you so ably took in your home town; I showed the ladies here
-the press notices, whereupon they insisted on my asking you to help us
-out here, hence this letter. Now, if you can be prevailed upon to come,
-please advise me by wire. You will, of course, be liberally compensated.
-
- “‘Yours respectfully,
-
- “‘LEON LA DEW.’
-
-“I insisted so hard that my mother finally said in a relenting tone, ‘of
-course, we could use the money.’
-
-“I went several days before the performance. I was to assist Mr. La Dew
-in drilling some of the characters; I was housed in the home of one of
-the best families in the city and the lady of the house was all a mother
-could be. I was protected in every way and Leon was so good, so kind and
-gentle.
-
-“On the afternoon of the performance, we were very, very busy at the
-theater, everything in a turmoil, so I told my hostess that after the
-last full-dress rehearsal she could run on home and dress and that I
-would stay and assist in getting everything in shape for the evening. At
-six o’clock I tapped on the door of the managers’ office and told Mr. La
-Dew that I would run out, get some supper and return, so that I could be
-there to help some of the young ladies with their ‘make-up.’
-
-“‘No,’ said he, ‘I have sent out and within ten minutes our suppers will
-be here; I cannot leave and there is no use in your going out, Miss
-Noble.’
-
-“We waited but a short time until the boy arrived with our suppers.
-
-“If I sang better that night, if the roses seemed sweeter and the music
-more dreamy, if I at times imagined that the flitting forms on the stage
-were angels and that I, too, held a harp and chanted the songs of the
-seraphs, it was all because Leon had told me of his love. I did not act
-that night, I just lived my part in the ecstacy of my new found joy. When
-I went home, Leon went with me. We told my mother all; our whole life’s
-plans were changed. We quickly arranged for Leon and me to marry. Mother
-was to leave her position and we were all to travel in the same line, in
-which Leon had established himself. I disliked the business, but with the
-assurance that he would save our earnings and enter into some business in
-the future that would be more to my liking, I consented. Oh, the joy, the
-happiness of true love. It now seemed that all the world was bright and
-cheery. We had no time to lose, as Leon had engagements to fill. After
-our plans were completed Leon said to me, ‘Althea, dearest, I want to
-have a talk with you, there is something I want to tell you.’
-
-“What is it, Leon?” said I, as my heart stopped with a throb.
-
-“He, perceiving my agitation, took my face in his two dear hands, and
-kissed my brow.
-
-“‘Oh, it is not much, darling, only I must tell you. I know your love for
-me will make things all right.’
-
-“‘Well, Leon, tell me;’ as anxious as I was to hear his round full tones,
-I trembled with fear. I never knew why I felt that way.
-
-“‘I must tell you,’ he continued, ‘something of my past life.’
-
-“‘Oh, never mind, Leon, I know you are nothing but a dear, good boy, and
-I will not believe anything else of you.’
-
-“‘No, Althea, it is not that, for believe me, I love you too much to have
-caused you pain by spoiling your life by my own association if I thought
-I were not worthy, but there is a blot on the abstract of my life and
-before it is too late, I must tell you all.’
-
-“I begged of him to keep the secret, but no, he was too honest.
-
-“‘My mother was like you, Althea, a sweet, innocent girl; the man who
-is my father I have never known, but he, like myself, was theatrically
-inclined; he came to the town which was my mother’s home and much the
-same as in our case, my mother took the leading role in the production
-which he was playing; he became infatuated with her, they were quietly
-married, but he soon became tired, deserted her, and there was a life
-with all the glory and sweetness taken out of it. My mother died from
-disgrace, when I was eight; she held me in her arms and told me the
-story, then giving me a locket, which contained my father’s picture,
-‘take this,’ said she, ‘and when you are a man, find him if you can; be
-gentle with him and tell him I died thinking of him.’
-
-“‘And have you the locket, Leon?’ I cried eagerly.
-
-“‘Yes, here it is.’
-
- * * * * *
-
-“I regained consciousness, surrounded by friends; all I could see as I
-slowly opened my eyes, was a little gold locket. The picture which it
-contained was that of my father.
-
-“No amount of coaxing or force would cause me to tell what the cause of
-the shock was; as soon as I revived sufficiently to talk, I asked for
-Leon. When he came I signified a desire to be left alone with him and
-told him all, then the dear, generous brother, that he was, insisted on
-taking my mother into the secret. That is where I blundered. In order to
-spare my poor mother the pain and anguish which I knew the news would
-bring, I objected. Leon and I argued the matter, he contending that he
-could at least go on with our plans in regard to the show business; he
-could at least assist me on to fame, but no, I would not agree with him.
-He finally left me in as much misery as he himself was surrounded with.
-I have seen him twice since then, once, soon after I came to Chicago and
-adopted the stage, for I was compelled to seek employment. My fainting
-spell which occurred while all alone with Leon was food and drink for the
-‘I told you so’s’ of the little town where I had sprung into popularity
-in spite of the fact that some of the more conservative residents
-insisted on saying that ‘nobody really knows what she is.’
-
-“I left mamma there; when I arrived here I applied to one of the most
-fashionable play houses in the city. They were in need of chorus girls;
-my voice was tried and I was told to go to the costumer’s for my
-wardrobe; that worthy gentleman handed me a large paper box, saying, with
-a sardonic grin, ‘if they are too tight be careful about stooping in
-them, for they might split and we are short on outfits right now.’
-
-“They. I wondered for a moment what he meant; tears sprang to my eyes
-when I unfolded the silken tights, which the box contained. I proceeded
-to take each article from the box, tights, fancy hose, girdle, etc.,
-hardly enough clothes to make a respectable suit of underwear, still
-I was to appear under the glare of strong lights, before hundreds of
-pleasure-seeking people in this scanty array. I thought of my mother,
-then Leon, and with a shudder of indignation I thought of my father as I
-had seen him the last time. I cried some, then with the feeling that it
-was not all my fault, I managed to get into the abbreviated garments and
-reported to the stage manager for full-dress rehearsal.
-
-“‘Zound!’ I heard the musical director say, ‘where did you pick that one
-up?’
-
-“‘Oh, from the country,’ replied the manager.
-
-“A giggle ran along the rows of girls at this sally.
-
-“I took naturally to the work, and at the end of the rehearsal was told
-by the director to ‘come on’ for that evening’s performance, ‘but mind,
-my little scared dear, make up some.’ I failed to understand him, for if
-the clothes which I wore were supposed to fit a good figure, I felt that
-I filled the bill, for the costume was very snugly fitted; at last it
-dawned upon me that it was my face, so I asked some of the older girls
-to make me up. I was sent from one to another, until one girl, who seemed
-to be a little new, told me to go to Dollie Squires. ‘She can do it and
-if she does, the director is sure to be pleased, for she is Prof’s pet,
-and she knows what will please him.’
-
-“Of course it was my desire to make the best appearance possible, it was
-simply a matter of business, so I trusted all to Dollie. When I went on
-in the first scene, the titter which fluttered around the stage almost
-spoiled the act. Little did I dream that it was I who was the innocent
-cause of all the sensation among the performers, until after the curtain
-had been drawn.
-
-“I had seen Leon in the audience. I was most miserable lest he should
-recognize me; my fear was changed to hurt, however, when the musical
-director ran pell mell all over the stage until he found me.
-
-“‘Who made you up?” said he.
-
-“I told him. He raved, he tore, and stormed; his language was so bitter
-and I was so hurt that I was unable to go on any more that night. Next
-day he came to me in a more quiet manner and explained that he had
-intended to ‘feature’ me and that my make up had so horrified him that he
-really lost his temper. It took days for me to see clearly that Dollie
-put up the job on me, because she was jealous, but such was the case,
-and I could thank her for one thing, that being that Leon had failed to
-penetrate the disguise which she had placed upon me.
-
-“Then there was a ceaseless round of rehearsals; during the day and in
-the evening after a general mix up of legs, bare arms, slippers and
-tights, in the main dressing-room, the call boy would summon us to
-appear in the first act. The music, the lights and the favors which
-men heaped upon me did much to keep the excitement at a fever heat.
-How well I remember the first pay day, I paid my little bills with the
-importance of a king of Wall street. Flowers filled my room each day,
-and if I became a favorite it was simply because I worked with a desire
-to please. One day the musical director stopped me as I was going out of
-the theater; we had quite a talk, all in an undertone and all in regard
-to my work. He was simply advising me; as I started away, Dollie Squires
-stepped from behind a wing.
-
-“‘It’s a wonder you wouldn’t talk to that country girl all day,’ she said
-to the Prof.
-
-“I was too intensely exercised at the remark to reply; I went to my room
-and related the incident to Bertha Walls, my room-mate. She laughed loud
-and long.
-
-“‘That is good,’ she finally said, as she struggled for breath.
-
-“‘Why?’ said I.
-
-“‘Because, you see, she is jealous and I am glad of it. Go in, little
-country girl, and show her a thing or two.’
-
-“‘Nothing to be gained by that,’ said I.
-
-“‘Yes there is, she is as mean as the old scratch, not a girl likes her,
-and if she doesn’t make you trouble, I’ll lose my guess.’
-
-“‘How can she make me trouble?’
-
-“‘Easy enough. If she wants you put out of the company, out you go. You
-see, she is a pet of the Prof’s, and if he kicks on your work, Althy,
-your time is up.’
-
-“‘But she won’t do that, will she?’
-
-“‘Sure she will; she has put lots of girls out of business in this house.’
-
-“Next night as I left the stage door a hand was laid on my arm, and,
-looking up, I saw Leon. I was glad, yet sorry to see him.
-
-“‘Althea,’ said he, ‘I bring you bad news.’
-
-“‘What can it be?’ I asked.
-
-“‘Your mother is very ill.’
-
-“I questioned him closely and learned that my mother had been sick abed
-for ten days. He had set out to find me, and if possible, persuade me
-to return home, but I could not do that, much as I wished to, for I was
-now a bread-winner and the support of an afflicted mother. My argument
-won, and he finally left me; it was not long until I needed him, for
-the second day after that I received notice that my contract would be
-canceled at the end of the week.
-
-“What was I to do? I told some of the girls, and one of them, a little
-brunette, said to me, ‘Well, I am leaving the company this week, anyway,
-and I don’t mind telling you where your trouble started.’
-
-“‘Tell me please,’ said I.
-
-“‘Dollie Squires, of course.’
-
-“‘But I have never harmed Dollie; tell me some way that I can become
-reinstated.’
-
-“‘Go to the musical director, he is the power behind the throne.’
-
-“I went. That night I went to lunch with him after the performance. Next
-day, Dollie, on small pretext, assailed me in an unmerciful manner; she
-heaped abuse upon my head. I said nothing when she had finished, but had
-the regulation cry; when I came out I came with teeth set hard, what was
-the use? My condition was not to be considered. My poor mother was a
-deceived and ruined woman, my father whom I had worshiped as a divinity,
-was a bigamist and a seducer. The blight was on me. My mother was ill; it
-was due to my father’s misstep that I was placed where I now was. I must
-now feed, clothe, and house the woman whose life he had ruined.
-
-“Professor Riggles was ugly, red-faced and slouchy in his habits, but he
-told me his wife objected to his dressing better, and besides, he was
-so wrapped up in his music that he cared little, in fact, there was not
-much in this world to make him happy. I was touched by his pitiful story.
-I asked him how Dollie happened to have such an influence over him; he
-laughed and said she was a willful, headstrong girl.
-
-“The fact that I could hurt her never entered my head until I was
-dressing for the first call after she had abused me so, when I overheard
-a conversation between two of the girls.
-
-“‘I wish she would,’ said one, ‘it would be just good enough for her, and
-if Althy would try she could make herself so solid with old Rig. that he
-would throw that smarty Squires out.’
-
-“That was enough, I had nothing to lose.
-
-“Just before the overture, Prof. Riggles came on the stage and left a
-note with the call boy for me. It said, ‘Meet me at the ⸺ Hotel, twelve
-tonight.’
-
-“I was curious to know why it should take him so long to go the short
-distance (for we always got out at 10:45). I watched and when he left,
-Dollie was with him. I saw them get into a carriage and drive rapidly
-south; I began to dream and wonder what it all meant, then like ‘a good
-little girl’ I went to the appointed place and waited; he came at twelve;
-we had a dinner, some wine, and then⸺” the girl snapped the stub of a
-cigarette across the small room, during the pause.
-
-“After Prof, had gone from the room next morning I found a door key on
-the floor, which, as I afterwards learned, had fallen from his pocket.
-That night I was placed in a more prominent part in the piece. I was
-kindly received; my old admirers were joined by numerous new ones; after
-the show Prof. Riggles came to me and said, ‘my girl, you did fine.’
-
-“Dollie Squires never spoke to me after that; she told some of the girls
-that she ‘would put me to sleep.’ When the time came for me to leave, I
-simply asked the Prof. if he could assist me to a place; he told me that
-the leading lady was suffering from a cold and that I was to rehearse for
-the understudy’s part in the piece as I might be called at any time.
-
-“When the director made the announcement on the stage that I would be
-called to play the leading role and the entire company should stay for
-two rehearsals, Dollie ‘went up in the air.’ She flew into a rage, then
-into hysterics, for she was supposed to be the next girl up.
-
-“She left the theater in a rage; the next day at noon, I received a
-note from Prof. Riggles, telling me to come to a certain number on the
-south side. I went and was let into a handsomely furnished flat, by a
-colored maid. I found the Prof. in bed with a bullet hole in his arm.
-He explained to me how he had been held up the night before. It was a
-week before he could attend to his duties, meantime, I continued to take
-the leading role each day, not because I loved him, but from a point
-of appreciation I took many of the flowers which I received the night
-previous and arranged them in his room. One day I asked him where his
-wife was.
-
-“‘Oh, over on the west side,’ he said.
-
-“‘But had you not better go home?’
-
-“‘No, not until the measly arm gets good. You see, Althy, I am in New
-York now, working on a new piece.’
-
-“Presents of every form and description poured in upon me; I was wined
-and dined; poor little simpering fool, I thought it was life. Men
-insisted on paying my bills; I received money as tokens of kindness.
-
-“So great was the line of my gifts, that on each pay-day I was able to
-send my mother all my salary. Silk from the skin out, my head adorned
-with the most exquisite Parisian creations, and some blithering idiot
-always at my heels. Is it any wonder my head was turned?
-
-“When the Prof. recovered he told me that the apartment in which I had
-visited him was to be my home; my breath almost failed me, but the
-arrangements were quickly made, then there was a long series of late
-dinners in my flat; no home had more luxuries; I received many callers.
-It was not until this had been going on for three months that I was
-awakened, then I got a letter from Dollie. She was living in a house in
-a disreputable part of the city; she told me it was she who had shot
-the Prof., ‘and if you knew,’ she said, ‘that old Rig. gets from five to
-fifty dollars from every one he introduces to you, you would make him
-divide. You need not think he gets all he spends on you from his salary.’
-
-“Of course I did not believe it. She closed by saying that the home I now
-occupied had once been her own, and of course, I, in time, must give up
-to some one else, ‘for you will grow tired of being his dog, and you had
-as well come where I am.’
-
-“I asked Prof. about it all and he persuaded me to believe that she was
-only indulging in sour grapes. A few days later I managed to win favor
-in the eyes of the colored girl by giving her a bright red skirt that
-an admirer from Milwaukee had insisted on buying for me; the next day I
-clinched the compact by presenting her with a heavy gold chain, which had
-also been placed at my disposal by some country bumpkin. Then as I handed
-her a glass of wine, I said, ‘Alice, what was the girl’s name who was
-here just before I was, I mean the one who shot Prof?’
-
-“‘Oh, honey, doan you know?’
-
-“I have forgotten the last name. Dollie somebody, wasn’t it?’
-
-“‘Yes, honey, dat jes it, Dollie Squires,’ she said as she smacked her
-wine laden lips. Then she told me the whole story. I heard her through,
-went to my room, took a key from my dresser drawer and tried it in
-the front door. That night I gave the Professor the key and told him
-everything I knew. He grew pale and quivered like an aspen leaf. I would
-have killed him if I had been armed.
-
-“The season closed; I visited my mother, took her up into the mountains
-and resolved to tell her all, but while there she improved so rapidly
-and seemed so happy at my success as a singer, that my heart failed me.
-I could not take away the little sweetness that remained in her life;
-it only spurred me on to greater deeds, when day by day I saw her eyes
-grow brighter, her cheeks take on a healthy glow, her voice become more
-cheery, I actually could not end it all.
-
-“When the season opened I left her and came back, back to the theater
-with its rows of light and entrancing music, back to the dinners and
-flowers and back to the flat and Riggles, for my mother I could do all.
-I was soon relieved of that responsibility, for mother died suddenly one
-day. I went home and for fear that her spirit might learn what I knew in
-regard to my father, I took all that remained and the casket containing
-the same, and buried it beside the only man she had loved. It was a
-cold, dreary day; snow, which was half rain when it struck the streets,
-was sifting heavily through the air. I arrived from the scene of death
-over the Burlington route; when I reached the Union Station it was eight
-o’clock, the atmosphere seemed tuned to my oppressed frame of mind; I
-thought to walk part way up town. I had gone but a short distance when I
-met a little girl about seven years old; she stopped me to beg. I looked
-her over, and there, under the flickering light, I saw a pinched face,
-so poor and thin that the drawn mouth only added pity to the expression
-of the big, blue eyes; the little calico frock which the wind whipped
-tightly around her skinny form looked as though it would fall to pieces
-with each gust. The pale forehead was made more ghostly by the large
-blue veins that were plainly seen, while the one poor little plait of
-hair seemed to add loneliness to the big, white ears, that I could see
-through.
-
-“‘Where do you live?’ was my first remark.
-
-“‘Oh, ma’m, I—I—don’t want to tell you, it isn’t a bit nice place, but
-you see, we can’t help it; mamma, she is sick and papa don’t have work
-all the time, and grandma, she is sick and papa he has to go stay at her
-house three nights a week, and that leaves mamma and me awful lonesome
-sometimes, but mamma told me to-day that she guessed she’d die before
-long, then I would go and live with grandma, then I could see papa every
-day. But, please, ma’m, I don’t want mamma to die; I don’t want to live
-with grandma, and I des know if mamma had somethin’ to eat she wouldn’t
-die, either.’
-
-“I went with the child. I thanked God for having found her. Such a
-wretched place to live; four dingy rooms on an alley, a poor, miserable
-cook stove, made all the heat the apartment had. A grimy, smoking
-kerosene lamp in the hands of the child, led me to a coop of a bedroom
-and there, amid a pile of soiled and torn rubbish that had at some time
-been entitled to the name bed clothing, lay a half starved, pain-racked
-wretch, called woman, in filth too great for a beast, in pain too intense
-for a strong man to bear, burning with fever and shivering with chills,
-and at the same time moaning, tossing and suffering only as a neglected
-soul and body can suffer.
-
-“I spoke to her; she tried to sit up in bed, but fell back with a wild
-stare which told that it would require but little excitement to bring
-an end to all her suffering. I went out and bought everything I could
-think of; I can even now feel a tinge of happiness, as I think of how
-I ordered the best imported delicacies; I bought coal, a new lamp, and
-sent a doctor. That night, when I arrived at my elaborately furnished
-apartments, I sat in my satin house robe and slippers and as my maid
-brushed my hair I compared my surroundings with those I had visited
-earlier in the evening, and became happy.
-
-“At midnight the Prof. came; I had concluded I would not tell him of my
-experience of the evening; it was none of his business and now that mamma
-was gone, I had no one to care for and I could spend some of my salary in
-helping some poor soul.
-
-“Next day I called on my patient, as I called her, again; this time I
-superintended and assisted in placing a new mattress and clean linen and
-blankets on the bed, then, after calling the janitor’s wife, and having
-her put a new gown on the woman, I left. I could not return that evening
-as I had notified the manager that I would be on for my part and the
-Prof. was going home with me after the theater, so I planned to go the
-next night after the performance, for he told me that he had been away
-from home two consecutive nights, and he ‘must show up’ at home that
-night. He bade me good-night, when I got into the carriage. My driver
-started out in the usual way for home, but owing to pre-arranged plans,
-turned west as soon as we were out of sight of the theater. I was soon
-in the sickroom and was delighted to see a great improvement; I carried
-my arms full of flowers and when the bedside was reached, the poor woman
-said, ‘Oh, these dear roses; that reminds me of when my husband used to
-have steady work at the theater, he nearly always brought home flowers
-that some of the ladies would give him, for he could not well afford to
-buy them, and me sick. Oh, you don’t know, Miss, what a burden I have
-been to him.’
-
-“‘Did you say your husband was at some time employed at a theater,’ I
-asked, with bright visions of what a star might be able to do to get him
-a place.
-
-“‘Yes, more than two years ago.’
-
-“‘Tell him to come to me at the ⸺ theater tomorrow, and I will see if I
-cannot get him a place.’
-
-“‘Oh, then⸺’
-
-“The words were stopped by the sound of a key in the lock and the little
-girl running toward the door, shouting, ‘Oh, it’s papa, I know, for he
-said he’d come home to-night.’
-
-“How my heart bounded to think I could say some encouraging word to that
-husband and father; my lips were shaped ready to speak my thoughts when
-the child came into the room aglow and excited, trying to tell what a
-good lady had done. I suppose I should have fainted when I looked up and
-saw the Prof., but I didn’t. I arose and extended my hand, saying to
-the little girl as I drew her to me with my left arm, ‘and this is your
-papa,’ well, I am glad, so glad that I waited until you came, Mr. Rig;
-‘Riggles,’ he stammered, as it slowly dawned upon him that I did not mean
-to disclose the truth.
-
-“I arranged to meet him the next day and assist him in procuring a
-position. We met; I told him a few things; the fourth day after, I went
-to his home in my own carriage, took his wife and child to my erstwhile
-flat, explained to them that he had secured the position and could afford
-them a better home.
-
-“That was the last ride I ever took in my own private carriage. I sold my
-horses, carriage, all my jewelry and many fine gowns, placed the proceeds
-where Mrs. Riggles could draw a fixed sum weekly, then I sailed for
-Europe. But a star in America is not always a star in a foreign country.
-I stuck it out three years and then returned.
-
-“Riggles? Oh, well, his wife died, he took up with Dollie Squires again,
-and a double suicide in a Clark street resort put an end to his career
-along with Dollie’s.
-
-“The little girl? She grew up sweet like her mother; she is in a convent
-now, be out soon, then my work is done.”
-
-
-
-
-TALE SEVENTEEN.
-
-A TRIP ACROSS THE LAKE.
-
- “When Happiness comes knocking at my door,
- I may not lift the latch to let her in,
- Because, ah me! one forced his way before—
- The ugly phantom of an ancient Sin.”
-
-
-“It is a strange thing for me to want to tell you my story, but something
-about you inspires me with a desire to confide in you, even though I have
-not known you long.”
-
-The speaker was tall with the angularity of an undeveloped school girl,
-although self-confessed twenty-one years of age. She had bright, laughing
-eyes, a large mouth, whose thick lips left an impression of coarseness.
-Her hair was very heavy and dark, and she wore it dressed low over her
-left eye, in the style of the day, which gave her an unnecessarily rakish
-appearance. Yet, notwithstanding her unprepossessing appearance, there
-was an indescribable something about her which drew one to her.
-
-I assured her that I appreciated her confidence and thanked her for it.
-
-“My parents were Methodists, and while I was carefully trained, they did
-not keep me under such strict surveillance that I was not able to have
-many liberties. At fifteen I was as large as I am now, and was in for
-every bit of fun there was going. I always had a crowd with me, and
-we rode our wheels everywhere (it was when the wheel craze was at its
-height). I played the piano then even more than I do now, and lots of
-times we would ride out to the parks and go to one of the club houses in
-the vicinity to rest and I would play the piano and they would dance. So
-the spring was passed, and mamma never reprimanded me if I was in the
-house by ten or ten thirty. She must have thought no harm could befall me
-as long as there was a crowd with me.
-
-“One day mamma gave me permission to go to St. Joe with one of my girl
-friends. We left on the nine o’clock boat, and were to return on the one
-which arrives at midnight. We crossed without incident worthy of note.
-On the return I noticed a tall, fine looking fellow watching us. He
-was sitting on the upper deck. Girl like, my friend and I started up a
-flirtation. He came over and talked to us and finally my friend asked me
-to play. I did, and I have thought since that perhaps that was my chief
-attraction for him then, as he was very fond of music. In the meantime
-my friend had found some one to take up her time and Jack and I went up
-on deck by ourselves. We sat side by side and the gentle motion of the
-boat, the moon shining on the waters, the soft, warm breeze floating past
-us, were enchanting and very conducive to love-making. He was much older
-than I, but that made no difference to me. I thought only of the romantic
-situation, and wondered if fate had brought this prince of men to me. He
-kissed me and loved me as I had not imagined in my fondest dreams, and I
-drank it all in, and returned it with interest.
-
-“Before the boat reached Chicago he gave me his name and address, and I
-had given him mine, and it was arranged that we should correspond. For
-several weeks I heard from him regularly and then came a long silence. At
-first I was hopeful, but at last my hope gave way to doubt, and I became
-morose. I refused to eat and became as miserable as a sentimental girl of
-fifteen could possibly be. I left school, finally, having prevailed upon
-my mother to allow me to learn stenography. She consented, thinking, I
-presume, that it was the best thing that could be done as long as I was
-in my present frame of mind, although the cause of it was all a mystery
-at the time.
-
-“One night when I came home from school, I found a letter from the
-Alexian Brothers’ hospital, telling me of the severe illness of Jack,
-and that if I would see him alive, I must come at once. My heart was
-almost bursting with its strain of conflicting emotions. At one moment I
-was on the mountain top, filled with joy at the thought that he had not
-forgotten me; the next, down in the valley of despair, fearing his death.
-
-“I told mamma the whole occurrence, and while she did not approve of
-an acquaintance made in such a way, she concluded to go with me to the
-hospital. When we arrived we talked to the nurse a few moments, and
-she told us that he had constantly called for Carrie in his delirium.
-He never mentioned my last name, and as a last resort they thought of
-looking through all his effects to see if there was anything among them
-which would throw light on the subject.
-
-“In his coat pocket they found his last letter to me, which he had
-evidently not sent for some reason, and in this way they learned my
-address. They thought it best for mamma to remain outside at first, until
-they saw what effect, if any, my presence had upon him.
-
-“I went up to the cot and kneeled beside it, putting my cool hand on his
-burning forehead, and whispered ‘Jack’ very softly.
-
-“He ceased his ravings and seemed to be listening. I repeated his name
-and he murmured ‘Carrie.’
-
-“That was the turning point in his disease. The fever abated and I
-continued to visit him almost daily, sometimes in company with mamma,
-sometimes alone. Mamma liked him very much indeed, and soon lost sight of
-the way I met him.
-
-“When he had recovered sufficiently to go out, he came over to our
-house. He won papa over directly, a feat I had feared far more than that
-of winning mamma, for he was so set in his ways. He improved the first
-opportunity to ask papa for my hand, and he consented on condition that
-we wait one year at least, for he thought I was too young to assume the
-responsibilities of married life. So it was arranged. I continued with
-my shorthand, and after I finished found a nice position in a lawyer’s
-office.
-
-“Jack would give me no peace until I would consent to marry him secretly.
-He said he was afraid he would lose me. So one day we stole away and were
-married. He was very tender with me, and taught me the beauty of married
-relations, so slowly and gently, that I was not shocked, as I might
-have been had he been different. To outward appearances he was only the
-devoted lover and I, being his fiancee, he was allowed to call as often
-as he chose and stay as late as he liked, for my parents had implicit
-confidence in him.
-
-“One day, six months after we were married, a strange man called at the
-office to see me. I met him with a great deal of trepidation, fearing, I
-don’t know what.
-
-“‘Is your name Carrie Barnes?’ said he.
-
-“I said, ‘Yes, what do you want?’
-
-“‘Do you know one Jack Bates?’
-
-“‘I do,’ said I, now thoroughly aroused to anger. ‘Is it any of your
-business if I do?’
-
-“He looked at me kindly, yet gravely, and replied in even tones, ‘I am
-sorry to say it is some of my business, and a very unpleasant business at
-that.’
-
-“Then he asked me if there was not a private office where he could talk
-his business over with me. So I took him into Mr. Walton’s private office.
-
-“He said, ‘Will you tell me what you know of Mr. Bates?’
-
-“I told him I didn’t know anything against him, if that was what he was
-waiting to hear me say.
-
-“‘Will you tell me what your relations are with him?’
-
-“I could feel the blood leaving my face, and I must have repeated his
-question, for he said, ‘Yes, tell me whether you have ever had any
-relations with him which you should not hold.’
-
-“‘I will not tell you a thing,’ said I. ‘Who are you and what do you mean
-by asking me such questions?’
-
-“He was exasperated, I suppose, by my impudence, for he said, ‘I’ll tell
-you my business. I am an attorney representing my client, and in his
-behalf I am tracing the career of Jack Bates. It is known that he has
-been to your home frequently, and that you have been out together a great
-deal. It will be to your advantage to tell all you know.’
-
-“At this critical juncture, I heard Mr. Walton coming. I ran out in the
-hall to meet him and managed to gasp out, ‘I want to see you a minute.’
-
-“I told him what the man had said, and he said, ‘Carrie, tell me all
-about it. What do you know about him?’
-
-“Then I told him we were married, and had been for six months. He scowled
-and said, ‘Bad, very bad. I advise you to tell the gentleman the whole
-affair, just as it is. Do not try to protect the man; let him stand on
-his own merits.’
-
-“So I went back to the attorney.
-
-“‘Well,’ he said, ‘are you ready to tell me all you know?’
-
-“‘Yes,’ I said, ‘but I have not much to tell. It is only this. Mr. Bates
-and I were married six months ago, so I guess even you will admit that we
-had a right to be seen together often, if we chose to.’
-
-“He said, ‘My child, I am sorry to be obliged to tell you, but the
-fact of the matter is, you are not his legal wife. I am representing
-the father of a girl fifteen years old, whom he has seduced, and in my
-investigations I have learned that he has a legal wife and one child
-living.’
-
-“How do people live through such awful ordeals, yet possess their senses?
-I was young and believe that was my only salvation. The world turned
-suddenly as dark as death; all the sunshine and mirth had gone out of
-it. That night when I went home I saw other girls laughing and talking as
-if they had not a care in the world, and I wondered how they could do it.
-I was still stunned by the awful blow which had fallen upon me. I might
-have found a little consolation in talking to Jack, but even that was
-denied me, for the attorney told me that he had been taken into custody,
-arrested on the charge of seduction.
-
-“I did not know what to do. I could not tell my parents of my marriage,
-for I knew my father’s pride and sternness, and I feared he would turn me
-out of doors when he knew the truth. I managed to live through the night
-somehow, and dragged myself to the office the next morning. Mr. Walton
-asked me if I had told my parents and I told him I had not, and asked him
-to break the news to me, which he consented to do.
-
-“After he had gone I sat in the office trembling for the result.
-
-“He came back at last, after what seemed to me an interminable length
-of time, and told me to go home. Mamma took me in her arms and tried to
-console me, but papa ignored my presence entirely and refused to speak to
-me for months.
-
-“When Jack came to trial they brought his wife to appear against him;
-that is, it went against him, of course. She was a sweet young woman,
-just the age that I am now, twenty-one years, and he had married her as
-soon as she came out of the convent. I was not able to go on the witness
-stand, the shock of the whole thing had proved too much for me, so they
-took my deposition and the trial went on without me.”
-
-“What was the result of the trial?” I asked.
-
-“He was sentenced to a term in Joliet, and is serving his time there now,
-and I never want to see his hateful face again.
-
-“His wife came to see me and brought her little year-old girl with her.
-The dear little thing was as bright and sweet as she could be, and my
-heart went out to both of them. Later, Jack’s mother came to see me, bent
-and worn with her grief and the disgrace her only son had brought upon
-her.”
-
-“And what became of the other girl?”
-
-“Oh, she died of a broken heart, so they say. What a world of misery one
-man can create!
-
-“I was very ill for a long time, and when I recovered my father felt very
-differently toward me; he seemed to be reconciled to the affair, and I
-was fully forgiven.
-
-“I simply existed for two years, not caring for anything. I met Harold
-about this time, and you know the rest.
-
-“He took me knowing all, and we are quite happy; at least, I try to make
-him happy, but I can never forget that first awful disappointment. It
-rises like a specter at the very moment I think I have forgotten.”
-
-
-
-
-TALE EIGHTEEN.
-
-ONE WOMAN’S WAY.
-
- “What men gain fairly—that they should possess,
- And children may inherit idleness,
- From him who earns it—this is understood;
- Private injustice may be general good.
- But he who gains by base and armed wrong,
- Or guilty fraud, or base compliances,
- May be despoiled even as a stolen dress
- Is stript from a convicted thief and he
- Left in the nakedness of infamy.”
-
-
-“Yes, I think women have great control over some branches of politics,
-or, at least, I will say that some women lend their influence in such a
-way that political aspirants are masters of the situation at times.”
-
-The speaker was a woman too distinguished looking to be classed as an
-ordinary person; tall, straight and dignified, the auburn hair looked
-almost red, as the glints of sunshine rested on one massive coil, which
-had been so neatly arranged high upon the well-shaped head, giving her a
-queenly bearing.
-
-The forehead, a trifle low, added much to the determination of the rather
-square-set jaws; the thin lips curved into a knowing smile, while the
-hazel eyes shone with the unmistakable signs of wit and ingenuity. If she
-appeared taller than the average woman it was partly due to the fact that
-she had a way of looking at people with seeming downcast expression; the
-effect of this look was produced by the erection of the woman’s head,
-together with the long eyelashes, which appeared to creep from under the
-heavy brows; if at first glance one should judge her to be from the ranks
-of the common, a moment’s study of the face, ending in a glance at the
-symmetrical figure, would emphatically impress one with the thought that
-some unusual event had some time in her life mixed the surroundings so
-thoroughly into her plastic nature that it caused some of the rougher
-elements to crop out in spite of her complete control, and well planned
-efforts of concealment.
-
-She had answered my question, so I took courage and asked her another.
-
-“Can you tell me of an instance wherein a woman has, by her own efforts,
-been able to control the political situation?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-She spoke almost snappishly, then in a softer tone she continued:
-
-“If you will excuse a personal allusion, I will give you a story.”
-
-“The more personal, the better it will be told,” I said with a nod.
-
-“Then,” she said, as she pointed to a chair with an inviting air, and
-proceeded to deposit herself into a comfortable rocker, “I will tell you
-one that is founded on facts.”
-
-“I, like all girls, was once in love.”
-
-“Once,” said I, as I looked around the room of the neatly furnished
-cottage in which we sat, finally resting my eyes on the crayon portrait
-of a man, whose face, though not handsome, denoted such honest industry
-that it was easy for me to imagine that he would love the woman of his
-choice devotedly, that unless she was a woman of barbarous mind she must
-at least love him out of gratitude.
-
-“Yes, that is my husband; I can read your thoughts,” she said, with no
-show of further attention to the interrupting gaze, “and thereby hangs a
-tale.”
-
-“This is my home, and the price I paid for it should have been the means
-of my presiding over a palace. I grew from the ranks of blithesome,
-prattling childhood to the age of sixteen, on a farm; wild roses and
-butterflies were my companions in the summer months, while the winter
-days were spent in school. I was thrown much into the society of a young
-man, who had come to our neighborhood as an applicant for the position
-of school teacher; at the time of his introduction into the district my
-father was a candidate for the office of township trustee; that worthy
-official has a great deal to do with the selection of the pedagogues, and
-it was well understood that if a teacher in search of a place find favor
-in the eyes of the superior officers of the township, his success was
-assured.
-
-“It had been the custom up to this time to employ lady teachers in the
-rural districts, but when Roy Sunderman came on the field he came to
-win. It was generally believed that my father would have little or no
-opposition in his race for office, but when he was questioned on the
-policy of changing from female to male teachers, he was so indiscreet as
-to commit himself in favor of male instructors; this turned the tide
-against him, and public sentiment threatened to defeat him.
-
-“It was nearing the time for election; no time was to be lost. One
-evening a neighbor of ours called to take me for a drive and incidentally
-to a lawn social, which was to be held a few miles from my father’s home.
-After we had gotten fairly started, my escort, who was a well-to-do
-farmer’s son, told me that some of the school and political directors had
-met at his father’s house on the night previous, and had besieged his
-father to make the race for trustee against my father, ‘But I hope he
-won’t,’ said he.
-
-“‘Why,’ I asked.
-
-“‘Because I—I—don’t want our people to oppose each other in any manner,’
-said he.
-
-“I was a schoolgirl and cared very little for politics, and knew no
-reason why Elmer Lane should be so deeply interested in the peace and
-tranquillity which existed between our respective families. Still, I
-wanted my father to win. I would have been a strange child if I had not
-wanted such a result.
-
-“Suddenly a light dawned upon me; if the elder Lane could be kept out
-of the race, or even defeated, my father would be the victor; then, for
-the first time in my life, I began to formulate a scheme which would
-upset the plans of the opposing side; I was not long in drawing out of
-my companion the statement that he loved me; then I was able to see why
-he was so keen to have the present standard of friendship maintained.
-He begged me to say that I loved him. I put him off by saying that if I
-did I would be afraid to confess it, for fear our families might become
-antagonized in the coming political battle which was near at hand.
-
-“‘But,’ said he, ‘if that is any barrier, say that you love me and I will
-compel my father to decline to run, or, better still, I will advise him
-to accept the nomination; then, after it is too late to select another
-candidate in his stead, withdraw, leaving the field clear for your
-father.’
-
-“I had confidence in Elmer’s ability, but did not bind myself by a
-promise. I told him he must first show his ability to keep the track
-clear.
-
-“We arrived at the lawn fete with our love affairs in embryo; all was
-merry; country girls were there from miles around; white swiss and
-flowered lawn dresses fluttered softly among the rose bushes and other
-flower laden shrubbery; while the young men, with bronzed faces and a
-distinct line of bleached skin around their necks, showing evidence of a
-fresh haircut, sallied about behind gaily colored neckties and ever ready
-grins of more or less magnitude, as the occasion demanded. All the games
-so pleasing to the young folks were indulged in by the frivolous guests.
-
-“I had strayed away from the center of the group, which was indulging
-in some pastime, because I did not have the interest of the evening at
-heart. I had been told for the first time that I was loved, and while
-that did not create any strange feeling in my bosom, I could not banish
-from my mind the thought that the man who professed love to me had
-endeavored to purchase mine. I was not posted in chivalry, but I did feel
-as if I might have been more susceptible to his pleadings if he had
-based his ideas altogether on the fact that he loved me without trying to
-buy favor by the sacrifice of some other aspiration.
-
-“I was seated on a rough wooden bench near a tall stump around which was
-twined a profusion of morning glories. I could see everything that was
-going on around me, but was myself out of the direct ray of light which
-the many Japanese lanterns shed through their variegated sides. I think I
-must have started when I heard a voice say, ‘Is this Miss Dalby?’
-
-“The voice was strange and so unlike the uncultured nasal tones which I
-was accustomed to hear.
-
-“‘Y—e—s,’ I drawled, as I looked up into a mature face, ‘my name is
-Dalby.’
-
-“‘My name is Sunderman—Roy Sunderman,’ said the voice. ‘I have tried to
-be introduced to you, Miss Dalby, but fate seems to have blocked my way.’
-
-“‘I—I did not know you wanted to meet me,’ I stammered.
-
-“Roy Sunderman was a full grown man, and I was not long in becoming
-interested in what he was saying. The time sped so rapidly that the crowd
-was half gone before I thought of it being the hour for leaving. Then,
-so wrapped was I in what Mr. Sunderman was saying, that my escort of the
-evening called me twice before he attracted my attention to get me to
-join him on the homeward trip.
-
-“I had not granted Mr. Sunderman’s request to be allowed to call, but
-told him I would consider the matter and notify him if I concluded to
-allow him to come.
-
-“Elmer Lane upbraided me so unmercifully on my way home for my conduct
-of the evening that my mind was made up before I went to bed. I wrote
-Mr. Sunderman a note asking him to call on the Sunday evening following.
-Long before the summer sun had gone to rest on that Sunday evening, Elmer
-called for his answer, saying that he had persuaded his father to decline
-the honor of being a candidate. ‘And now,’ said he, ‘I want you to say
-that you will love me.’
-
-“‘But I don’t love you,’ said I.
-
-“‘No, I suppose that young snob from town has filled your head full of
-poetry and such like.’
-
-“‘I don’t know what you mean.’
-
-“‘I mean that smarty that you sneaked off in the dark with, over at
-Wilson’s party.’
-
-“‘If you mean Mr. Sunderman, you are mistaken,’ said I.
-
-“‘Well, that’s who I mean, and I’ll tell you now that he’s the cause of
-all the trouble about this trustee business, and what’s more, I’ll show
-you mighty quick where he will end. I mean to have my dad run, and he’ll
-beat your ‘old man’ all holler, so good-bye, Miss Dalby.’
-
-“He left. When Mr. Sunderman came I was in tears; I was alone at home,
-my parents having gone out for the day and remaining away late. I was
-so hurt. I could now see that I had put myself in a bad plight. Mr.
-Sunderman begged me till I told him all. His words of comfort were soft,
-tender and reassuring, and by the time my parents came home, I concluded
-to tell them the whole affair, and with kind and genial Mr. Sunderman’s
-help, I did so. The following Tuesday the papers announced the name of
-Thomas Lane as candidate for township trustee.
-
-“Never before was the local talent so pressed into service and the issue
-was one of merit. Many of the people came out in open defiance of my
-father; he was quoted and misquoted. Meanwhile Roy Sunderman was showing
-his ability as a politician. He made speech after speech at the school
-houses in the township; his diplomacy steered clear of the real issue,
-as he knew that the odds were heavily against him; he not only saw that
-the public was in favor of women teachers, but he realized that he stood
-before the people an abject subject to the severest forms of criticism.
-Still, this man of personal magnetism made many friends and fast friends
-everywhere he went; his arguments were forceful and conclusive and at the
-closing of each speech he made the announcement that on the day before
-the election he would address the people en masse, and if every voter
-would promise to come he would obligate himself to tell them something
-startling, and that something would be proven to them, that they would
-weigh the facts in their own active minds and be guided by their own
-decisions; in other words, they would be given facts that would put them
-on their honor as patrons of the public schools, as husbands of their
-homes and as fathers of their children. Such orations had the desired
-effect. It set everybody talking and the result was that when the day
-arrived for the ‘firing of the gun,’ as many of the skeptical ones put
-it, the entire populace was in the grove that had been chosen for the
-occasion. I am sure no one knew what was coming. All of the school
-directors were invited to seats on the rough platform by the speaker. His
-speech was a marvel of philosophy, his language was one continuous flow
-of correct and convincing utterances. The attention which was accorded
-him was within itself a mark of the appreciation of his efforts.
-
-“Then he made the statement that on a certain night the school directors
-had met in caucus at the home of one of the candidates (namely, Mr.
-Lane), and solicited him to enter the race, and that he considered the
-matter in a favorable manner, and that Mr. Lane’s son had gone to the
-daughter of Mr. Dalby and made the proposition that in consideration of
-her giving to him her love he would dissuade his father from entering
-the race, and, pending the decision of the young woman, the Board of
-Directors had received this letter:
-
-“‘Fellow Citizens,’ shouted the enthusiastic speaker, as he waved a sheet
-of fool’s cap aloft, ‘declining to become a candidate, then within two
-days after the young woman had decided that a man of the mercenary ideas
-of Elmer Lane was unworthy the love of a true woman, the father of the
-purchaser of love announces himself as a candidate, and young Mr. Lane
-had menacingly declared that ‘Old Man Dalby would be beat all holler if
-the young lady refused him.’”
-
-“‘Now, ladies and gentlemen, if you want a man in the position of honor
-and responsibility, which it is in the power of this fair minded people
-to tender a man, who is making the fight simply to gratify the revengeful
-feelings which are harbored by a whimsical and love sick youth, it is
-your duty to vote for Thomas Lane. If you want a man to represent you in
-public affairs who is more loyal to the cause of education, and who has
-the interest of your home at heart as well as his own, and a man who is
-as far above the pusillanimous acts of coercion as the angels are above
-Satan, then vote for Caspian Dalby.’”
-
-“Mr. Sunderman closed his remarks by challenging any one to refute
-his statements. No one made answer to this remark and the truth won.
-Of course there was a great deal of talk when my father insisted on
-employing Mr. Sunderman. He was tendered the position of principal of the
-academy in town, but he declined, saying that he preferred country life
-and that all he could accept would be a school in the country. Then he
-was intrusted with the school in the district in which we lived.
-
-“It was an easy thing for me to fall in love with him, and I am sure he
-loved me. My father did not object to the match, he only insisted on our
-waiting, but lovers cannot wait, so we went quietly away, got married and
-wrote home for forgiveness. It came in time and we, instead of returning,
-settled down in a small Wisconsin town, where Roy began the practice of
-law. Sixteen months of happiness is well worth the price of sixteen years
-of sadness. Our boy was about four months old when Roy came home one day
-with a cloud on his face. I finally persuaded him to tell me what his
-trouble was, and he took me in his arms and told me of another marriage
-in which he was a principal. It occurred two years before he came to our
-house. He had applied for a divorce and supposed himself free, but it
-seemed a technical point had been overlooked and he was still legally
-bound to the other woman. I am too mature now to explain to you how
-my tender nerves were shocked. I asked him if he could not yet get a
-divorce. He was afraid not, and besides he had a letter from his father
-who was very wealthy stating that unless he came home and took care of
-his wife he would be disinherited.
-
-“‘But what about me?’ I asked.
-
-“‘Oh dear,’ he said, ‘I don’t know; it nearly drives me mad. If I go I
-will lose you and if I stay I will lose fortune and position, and will
-eventually be torn from you.’”
-
-“I could see it all; he was right. It was arranged for me to live in
-Chicago. He would support me and move his wife there so that he could see
-me as often as possible.
-
-“‘Cold, isn’t it?’ said the woman, as her eyes glowed like coals of fire.
-
-“I would have died to make him happy, but it was not my lot to die.
-
-“He had lived here about one year, when his legal wife died in child
-birth. I mourned with him, for she was a good angel. I went so far as
-to have her baby girl brought to my cottage and cared for her as I did
-my own child. He called often, and it was quite natural for me to now
-look forward to taking the position which was rightfully mine. After six
-months I ventured to mention it to him. He said: ‘Yes, dear, just as soon
-as the proper time has elapsed, you know. I am in politics and I cannot
-afford to cause comment such as a public man must suffer by the failure
-to observe the proper respect.’”
-
-“Yes, I could see he was right. All of the bright future which remained
-before him could be turned to inky darkness by just such a mistake as
-this. He received an appointment at Washington, consequently was away
-from me a great deal. Finally, on one of his trips home, he suggested the
-idea of sending his girl baby to some of his people.
-
-“‘It is too much for you, dear,’ he said.
-
-“I had learned to love the little darling and I was lonesome when he took
-her away. He never forgot to send the remittance for my support, and his
-visits continued the same.
-
-“One day after he had been in Washington a year I met a lady from there.
-In our general talk I mentioned that I knew a gentleman there.
-
-“‘Who?’ she asked.
-
-“‘Mr. Sunderman.’
-
-“‘Oh, do you know him?’ she exclaimed, with a show of delight.
-
-“Pleased to know that I had met one of his friends, I felt the flood of
-joy which shone out of my face as I said, ‘Yes, I have known him a long
-time.’”
-
-“‘And do you know his wife?’ said my friend, as we started across the
-street.
-
-“‘I met her once,’ I said, ‘just before she died.’
-
-“‘Oh, I mean his present wife, formerly Miss Bringhurst.’
-
-“‘Is he mar⸺’
-
-“I heard the shout. I caught a glimpse of the horse’s hoofs as they pawed
-the air near my head, but I was falling, and all I know was that I could
-not stop. When I awoke I was in the hospital.
-
-“I was not so badly injured from the fall as was at first supposed,
-although I received a bad scalp wound, which caused me to bleed so
-profusely that I must have been a terrible sight. I quickly recovered
-sufficiently to be taken to my home. I suffered days of untold agony. I
-could not believe what I had heard; I was sure it must be false. Roy, my
-Roy, was true to me; he was too true to our boy to do anything to make us
-suffer.
-
-“Each day made my load heavier. Years were added to my age by the
-terrible strain which was brought to bear on me. I viewed my position
-from every standpoint and at last with a love greatly overshadowed with
-fear and doubt, I took steps to ascertain what amount of truth there was
-in the report.
-
-“It was true. He had been married three months, during which time he had
-called on me twice, and it was now almost time for his regular visit.
-I received a letter saying he would arrive in this city on the day
-following. What was I to do? When I thought of openly accusing him of his
-perfidy my heart sank within me. Oh, to think that he would be untrue
-to me; to know that I was not loved. For to know that was to desire to
-die, and why not? No sooner had the thought flashed into my mind than the
-plan developed in all its maturity. But what would I do with the baby? I
-loved him, and surely no one else would care for him since his father had
-deserted him and I would be dead.”
-
-At this point my hostess paused, and walking across the room took from a
-drawer a photograph of a youth in military costume.
-
-“This is my baby’s picture,” she said, with a tremor in her voice; then,
-giving way to her feelings, she buried her face in her hands and sobbed.
-
-“And to think,” she said, “a fine boy like that with no one to call
-father.”
-
-So calmly did this woman of nerve tell me of her intention that I became
-engrossed with the idea and listened as though some one was presenting a
-business proposition to me.
-
-“Then you changed your mind?” I said.
-
-“No, I tried to put my plans into execution. I put the baby to bed,
-closed the room up tightly and turned on the three gas jets, took my all
-in my arms and closed my eyes.
-
-“I have a distinct memory of the darkness, the shooting pains in my head
-and the choking sensation which seemed to so nearly strangle me that I
-had no ambition left with which to struggle for life; then I went to
-sleep.
-
-“The next thing I knew the fresh air was blowing on my brow and I heard
-some one calling my name. ‘O, Mary, Mary, speak to me. Wake up, dearest,
-and say that you know and love me. It is Roy. Don’t you know me, precious
-one?’
-
-“Oh, how I longed to die while those words were being uttered; how I
-prayed in my semi-conscious stupor that his kisses would assist in
-smothering the breath which, in spite of my efforts, had begun to come
-and go softly through my purple lips. His loving words were as the music
-of angels, and my only wish was to be wafted away to the sweet sound of
-his endearing tones. My dreaded fear was made complete when I awoke to a
-full sense of realization.
-
-“I opened my eyes to find myself in Roy’s arms. I saw that tender look
-of the strong man; I heard him say: ‘Darling, I love you.’ I felt myself
-clasped to his breast and I was glad I lived. God seemed to have sent him
-at the right time. I asked him how it came that he was there and he told
-me that he was so anxious to see me that he left business and all and
-came one day sooner. He had let himself into the house as usual and found
-me in time to bring me back to life. The baby was not so badly affected
-as I was, for the reason, I think, that he had cuddled close to me and
-in so doing had gotten his face under the bed clothing, consequently the
-fumes of gaseous poison had not penetrated his retreat.
-
-“Roy was so tender and good that I could not bring myself to the point
-of asking him about his marriage. He asked me why I had undertaken the
-rash act and I told him that I was lonesome for him. Things drifted on
-for months, and he returned to this city to live. It was then that he
-came to me and told me that he was married. He explained how he had
-been compelled to have a certain sum of money in order to maintain his
-influence in the political circle and that he had married a wealthy
-woman. He insisted that I meet his wife, but I refused. I also refused
-to accept any financial aid from him. If it had been his money I should
-gladly have taken it, but I would not take a cent of the funds which had
-been the means of buying my place at my husband’s side. I then answered
-an advertisement for ‘housekeeper wanted’ and accepted a position with
-a small family, which only lasted a few weeks, at which time I found
-myself penniless. Next, I was a chambermaid in a hotel, but left because
-I could not have my boy with me. Then kind heaven seemed to favor me,
-for I secured a position as companion to an old lady. I remained there
-seven years; my boy was allowed to live in the house with me, and went
-to school as soon as he had reached the proper age. I saw Mr. Sunderman
-occasionally. He was a well known attorney and a man of affairs. During
-my stay at the home of the old lady I became very much attached to her,
-and it was little wonder that when she passed into the peaceful slumber
-of death that I was much moved.
-
-“Many relatives that I had neither seen nor heard of attended the
-funeral. When the procession was forming to leave the house my attention
-was attracted to a beautiful woman, who had a little girl with her. She
-was an earnest mourner; it seemed almost impossible for her to give up
-her dear aunt to the relentless hand of death. She moaned and sobbed
-so pitifully as the casket was borne from the house that I thought to
-lead her; she leaned heavily on my arm and we slowly followed the form
-we loved so well and sadly watched the pall bearers as they placed
-the black case in the sombre vehicle. Then the carriages, which were
-silently waiting, began to draw up to the curbing as the huge burial
-car moved away. One, two, three handsomely groomed teams stopped, until
-the curtained doors of the carriages to which they were hitched closed
-with a muffled sound, when they would slowly walk away as though they
-understood they were to make room for the next.
-
-“The fourth carriage halted; the attentive assistant opened the door and
-the lady I was supporting moved toward it, leading the little girl with
-her.
-
-“‘Would you mind letting this lady ride with you?’ asked the undertaker,
-with a bow.
-
-“For the first time she looked at me and seemed to recognize me as the
-woman whom she had seen in charge of affairs in the house when she had
-first arrived.
-
-“‘No,’ she said, with a toss of her head, ‘I don’t care to take any
-servants in with me.’
-
-“I watched the streets and boulevards for months before I again set eyes
-on that turnout; when I did it was but a matter of inquiry to find out it
-was the private equipage of Mrs. R. Sunderman.
-
-“I had reached the stage of desperation, where I was ready to do anything
-but one thing, and that was to die. I wanted to live long enough to
-impress upon her mind who I was. It was while in this frame of mind
-that I met my husband. I had lost all respect for myself; I had reached
-that stage of degradation which is worse than to resolve to take one’s
-life. I had decided to sell my soul in order to have sufficient funds
-to at some time humiliate this woman who had refused to carry me in her
-carriage, which should have been mine. I went to a house of bad repute to
-apply for admission; while talking to the proprietress a man came in. He
-signified a desire to talk to me, and we left the place together. He was
-only a poor man, but his soul contains some of the rarest qualities of
-manliness that has ever been discovered in the human race. In ten days
-we were married. I did not love him, but he offered me and my boy a home.
-He asked no questions but, as he said, took it for granted that I was as
-good as himself; I have never loved him with that pure, unselfish love
-which is so essential to real happiness, but he has been good to me and I
-have done my duty.”
-
-“But what about your first—er—Mr. Sunderman, I mean?”
-
-“Well, he followed his political ambitions, and his party has been
-victorious in nearly all its efforts. Money has come to him without
-apparent effort.
-
-“My husband finally purchased a grocery store in which he toiled
-incessantly to provide for us. Such life grew monotonous. I was seeking
-some way of relieving him, when one day I picked up a paper and saw great
-headlines saying, ‘Sunderman Faction Wins.’
-
-“‘The result of yesterday’s caucus plainly shows Hon. Roy Sunderman
-master of the situation. His position and power unquestionably defined,’
-etc.
-
-“In reading the article I discovered that Sunderman had gained control
-of the political situation. He did not seek any office, but rather chose
-to be dictator, thereby holding the patronage of high officials in his
-hand. I next ascertained that he would be appointed minister to some
-foreign country to intercede in issues of great importance which at that
-time held the public eye, as he saw fit. The newspaper account which
-contained the latter statement went on to say that the great honor shown
-Mr. Sunderman was only a fitting tribute in return for the effective
-and valuable services which he had rendered the party, and that he was
-given the choice of several different appointments, but preferred the one
-named because it would afford him an opportunity to take his family on a
-sojourn in Europe with him.
-
-“At last, I had not waited so long for nothing. This is an exact copy of
-the letter I wrote him.”
-
-The letter was as forceful in expression as was the writer in her
-deliberate narration. I will produce it word for word:
-
- “_Hon. Roy Sunderman._
-
- “DEAR SIR: No doubt you have expected to hear from me ere
- this; I have been waiting for the opportunity which your
- popularity has just now afforded me. If the monotony of my
- humdrum existence has taken me entirely out of your life, it
- is only the more reason why your rise to prominence has been
- more plain to me; I have no favors to ask, but a request to
- make, hence this letter. I can see no happiness in having for
- a husband a man who on the stroke of five in the morning rolls
- out of his bed, hurries into his clothes and rushes away to his
- stall, where he deals out potatoes and codfish to the dictation
- of those to whom he must humbly bow in order to retain their
- patronage; remaining away all day without his lunch and only
- arriving home in the evening in time to eat dinner, which has
- been spoiled by being kept warm, and then tired, cross and
- peevish, he goes off to seek the rest from the day’s toil and
- worry, only to rise and repeat the program as the days go by.
- The man is all right, I have no fault to find with him, but his
- ill health and the overwork have sapped his vitality until
- ambition in him is a gone and forgotten element. You have power
- and my husband is well qualified to fill some office, which
- would be an honor to him and a glory to me. He is educated and
- I want you to have him appointed to a position. I also want you
- to arrange to have _our_ boy sent to school.
-
- “These things I _know_ you will take pleasure in doing,
- believing as I do, that my wish is your pleasure.
-
- I remain,
-
- ⸺ nee Mary Dalby.”
-
-“He came to me upon receipt of the letter ready to advance me money,
-anything, that he could do, but the appointment was out of the question.
-
-“‘No,’ I said, ‘it is not; I shall expect you to do as I say.’
-
-“‘But, listen, Mary, the positions which I did control have all been
-tendered to others since I accepted my appointment, and the only way I
-could get any favors now would be to withdraw.”
-
-“‘All right, sir, withdraw,’ said I.
-
-“‘But now, dear, be reasonable. My family is all ready to sail.’
-
-“‘Well, let them sail.’
-
-“‘Yes, I—I know,’ he stammered. ‘But they can’t sail without me and I
-can’t disappoint them now.’
-
-“‘You can send them and join them later.’
-
-“‘No, I cannot afford it.’
-
-“‘Cannot afford it,’ I gasped.
-
-“‘No. You see, Mary, I have to spend so much keeping pace with the crowd,
-that money is not at all plentiful with me.’
-
-“‘And this appointment is the only means you have of going abroad?’
-
-“‘Yes, Mary.’
-
-“I looked at him, his eyes were filled with tears. My heart softened;
-I saw the tender emotion as it lit up his face until a halo seemed to
-surround his head. I knew that I loved him yet. I heard his trembling
-voice, as he pleaded with me, I saw his soft, white hands as they reached
-out to me in mute appeal; I think the tears which now half blinded me
-must have had a softening effect on my callous nature. Then with a flash
-I thought of a son without a father, I again went through years of toil,
-and as if a panoramic view was being unrolled before me, I saw a house in
-mourning, a hearse drawn by black horses, draped with great, black nets,
-whose fringe hung almost to the ground. I saw a line of vehicles moving
-slowly, a man opened the door, then I heard a voice say, ‘No, I do not
-care to take any servants.’ Then with the pride wrought by the tingling
-of the warm blood which coursed through my veins, I said, ‘Well, Mr.
-Sunderman, I am sorry, but I must ask you and your family to forego this
-one pleasure.’
-
-“He did not mistake my sarcasm; he only asked me what would be the
-consequences, if he refused.
-
-“‘If you are anxious to know,’ said I, ‘just refuse and wait twenty-four
-hours.’
-
-“Within two days the papers were full of Mr. Sunderman’s withdrawal on
-account of a sudden breaking down of his health. He had many applicants
-for his influence, but he did not tell anyone that he had given up the
-only position over which he had any influence for reasons of his own.
-
-“In less than thirty days, a rural looking man called at my husband’s
-place of business, and stated that he was looking for an opportunity to
-buy a store something on the order of his; my husband priced the store,
-and the man took it without a word; my husband is industrious and I had
-a hard time keeping him in a contented frame of mind for thirty days
-more, but I insisted so strongly on his taking a much needed rest, that
-he was still idle when he was notified that he had been selected to fill
-a position as a postoffice inspector. His instructions were for him to
-proceed to headquarters at once to qualify. Our boy, Roy’s and mine, is
-in a military school and I anticipate that he will be selected as a West
-Point cadet, when he has made the proper advancement.”
-
-“And does your husband know?”
-
-“He knows nothing, except that five thousand a year is better than
-running a shop.”
-
-
-
-
-TALE NINETEEN.
-
-A STORY OF THE LEVEE.
-
- “Ah, yes, ’tis sweet still to remember,
- Though ’twere less painful to forget;
- For while my heart glows like an ember.
- Mine eyes with sorrow’s drops are wet,
- And oh, my heart is aching yet.
- It is a law of mortal pain
- That old wounds, long accounted well,
- Beneath the memory’s potent spell,
- Will wake to life and bleed again.”
-
-
-In spite of police rules and the fact that there is a city ordinance
-prohibiting the admission of women in saloons in Chicago, in spite of the
-reported raids on dens in what has been known as the levee district for
-years, the writer indulged in a little slumming last evening.
-
-One engaged in Dr. Parkhurst’s favorite pastime need go but a few blocks
-from the Central Police Station to find sufficient fields of labor to
-keep one busy for days. South State street appeared to be more attractive
-to a man going out on such an expedition alone, for the section of the
-street chosen for the work was nearly as black as Hades while strictly
-speaking it was as light as day owing to the numerous arc lights which
-served to light the inexperienced to these shining dens of vice.
-
-The thrum of the guitar and the twang of the banjo and pounding of the
-piano served to entice me to enter a resort that is well known as the
-rendezvous of as precious a lot of thieving “old Mols,” pickpockets and
-grafters of all sorts as any city should care to boast.
-
-Upon my entrance my attention was attracted by the many signs of fresh
-paint which was smeared over the faces of the denizens of gaudy attire
-which in some cases could almost be described by saying they were
-attired in a pair of red hose and a short bodice. In many instances the
-flaring nostrils and flaming eyes were temporarily obscured by clouds of
-cigarette smoke, only to be assisted in their display of dissipation by
-a liberal supply of gold teeth, as the degraded creatures would eagerly
-open their carmined lips to receive again the agent of insanity.
-
-I was greeted with all the endearing terms known to the human tongue,
-from “Hello, sweetheart,” to “Honey, buy your baby a drink.”
-
-I saw everything from a friendly handshake to a hugging match behind an
-artificial palm. Every inducement to a man of virile, animal instincts
-was held out to the male visitors of this law abiding place, while the
-revolting scenes of depraved humanity were made more distasteful to the
-refined person on account of the pit of hellish wretchedness his fellow
-men had fallen into.
-
-So much for a city which is regarded as being under the surveillance, of
-proper authorities at all times.
-
-I sat down at a table alone. The three-man band struck up a waltz, the
-notes arose and mingled with smoke, curses and a discordant humming which
-came from the husky throats of a dozen or more wearers of bleached hair
-and otherwise falsified females.
-
-As the music continued I glanced around the large room. The sight of
-drunken men lolling over women whose only claim to life and conviviality
-was supplied by the effect of the different intoxicants which these
-daughters of misfortune had freely indulged in, was sufficiently
-disgusting to cause me to desire to make my exit without further delay.
-
-I arose to go; just as I did so, I caught the eye of a creature whose
-smile showed in itself just how much of an effort it cost for the woman
-to present it. I lingered by the chair, and she approached me timidly.
-Her action, combined with her appearance, served to mislead me. I mistook
-her for a novice; on account of her seemingly natural shyness I looked
-upon her as being wholly out of place. Her general appearance too was far
-above the ordinary “she frequenters” of this place.
-
-She was young, well preserved, modestly dressed and talked with a
-degree of sense and moral refinement unknown to the patrons of the
-establishment. Notwithstanding the fact that circumstances were against
-her, I believed her when she told me that she was not an habitue of this
-particular resort.
-
-“But why are you here tonight?” I asked.
-
-“Oh, I have the blues, good and plenty,” she said, as she dropped into a
-chair.
-
-“For why?” was my bantering query.
-
-It was then that I was treated to a square look into her face. She was
-pretty to say the least. Her soft hazel eyes denoted everything but
-viciousness; her full, round face carried the freshness of youth and she
-made feeble attempts to smile pleasantly, at which time she showed a set
-of white, firm, but very short teeth. She gazed at me for a full moment,
-then with an air of wisdom she said: “I suppose you are fixing to make a
-raid on all the ‘joints’?”
-
-“No, I am not,” was my honest reply, the meaning of which was so well
-taken that this girl admitted that I was surely “off my beat.”
-
-“You do not look like a man who chose his society from the ranks of these
-people,” said she, with a look around the room.
-
-“I should think you would know whether you had ever seen me around here
-before,” said I.
-
-“Nothing strange in that, for this is the first time I was ever in this
-place in my life.”
-
-By this time I had convinced her that I was not a “fly cop.” She had
-caused me to believe that she, too, was telling the truth. I finally
-invited her to have a drink.
-
-“No. At least not here; this is too tough for me,” she said as she arose.
-
-“But I want to talk to you.”
-
-“I am willing to talk, but not here and if you will meet me at the next
-corner in the basement, I will talk as long as you like. It is better and
-cleaner there,” she added.
-
-“Shall I go with you?”
-
-“No, I will go alone. You follow.”
-
-After she had gone out, I viewed myself in the dingy mirror. I wondered
-if I really looked easy to that sly lady. I was not inclined to follow
-her into any basement den and run the chance of her having told some of
-the gang that I had insulted her, so they might have an excuse to beat me
-into insensibility, rob me and throw me into the gutter, from whence I
-would be gathered up by the kind hearted policeman and carted away to the
-station more dead than alive and be called upon to answer to the charge
-of drunk and disorderly conduct, the next day, and pay tribute to the
-tune of a big fine, while my assailants were waiting for more “suckers.”
-
-Curiosity and stubbornness led me to follow at a safe distance and try if
-possible to ascertain what sort of a place she entered.
-
-It was on a corner; a view of the marble steps and shining brass rails
-denoted cleanliness. Bright lights diffused a warmth of welcome, while
-strains of music floated from the farther recesses of the basement. An
-expensive sign told me that the place was a “cafe.” “Ladies’ Entrance”
-was the inimitable farce that adorned the wall directly over one pair
-of steps leading downward, while numerous announcements over the other
-stairway announced all that was to be found by a respectable man of
-leisure. With a slight feeling of trepidation, I descended to the source
-of hilarity; as I drew nearer the music I became braver. I sought a
-table in a far off corner, and had not been there long when my new found
-acquaintance approached me.
-
-“Now,” I said, “I want you to tell me all about yourself.”
-
-“And if I do will you advise me as to what course to pursue to right a
-wrong?”
-
-“I will try. But first have a drink. You are all upset; take a little
-liquor to steady your nerves.”
-
-The drinks being disposed of, she began.
-
-“Ah well, it is a short story. I came to Chicago during the World’s
-Fair. I was a pretty child of seventeen. My parents were very wealthy.
-My former home was Grand Rapids, Michigan, but I became so enamored with
-the exciting life of this great city that I prevailed upon my parents to
-allow me to remain here and enter a school of music. For four years I
-advanced rapidly. Society’s doors were wide open to me everywhere. I was
-in great demand at all social functions on account of my rich voice. I
-made many friends and was loved and petted by all. I met a man, one who
-also sang; our sympathetic natures readily embraced each other, our souls
-were in harmony, we saw with the same eyes, heard with the same ears, and
-lived by the agencies of the same heart beats.
-
-“Time flew as it only can for lovers. We became engaged. All looked like
-one eternal, joyous day, but as time brings joy, so does it also bring
-pain. My fiance held a position of trust and responsibility. He came to
-me one day and said: ‘Jeanette, we must break our engagement,’ I thought
-he was joking, but no such good fortune. He meant he was thousands of
-dollars short in his accounts and wished to break off with me before it
-became public, so that the disgrace would not rest so heavily on me. He
-was noble for that, but I refused to release him, and wired my father,
-who came. I told him all, and my Dad was a good Dad; he anticipated my
-wish, and at once offered to make good all of Leslie’s shortage. It was
-decided that the matter should be settled in that way. Just then a new
-feature came to light. It developed that before I met Leslie he had been
-badly smitten on his employer’s daughter, Emily Sutton. I had never seen
-her; in fact, up to this time I did not know there was such a girl on
-earth. Miss Sutton was conscious of Leslie’s financial trouble, and as
-she had recently come into a large fortune in her own right, she, too,
-offered aid to the man we both loved. She had heard of me and demanded
-that I be jilted, and she become his wife. He refused, whereupon her
-influence was brought to bear upon her father and to spite me, Leslie was
-taken into custody. My father was true blue, and furnished the necessary
-bond which gave Leslie his liberty. He disappeared, and the affair caused
-an estrangement between my parents, which eventually drove my father to
-suicide. My mother and I quarreled; she said such bitter things about the
-loss my father had sustained by reason of his signing Leslie’s bond, that
-I refused to accept a dollar of the balance of the estate. She eventually
-married again and her second husband lost all my poor Dad had left.
-
-“I applied for a position as soloist at a number of the different
-churches, and each time some promise was made, but in every instance I
-afterward received a brief note, saying the committee had decided not
-to employ me at present. I went so far as to offer my services gratis,
-but the offer was gracefully rejected. I had been so deeply worried that
-I had failed to notice the lack of attention and invitations from my
-old circle of friends, which had gradually narrowed down to a handful,
-compared to former days. Finally I thought as a last resort and an
-excuse for remaining on earth, I would apply for a position on the stage.
-I had no trouble in securing what I thought was a very good contract. I
-made my debut at the Masonic Temple and had the newspapers let me alone,
-all would have gone well, but it appeared to be their duty to take up my
-thread of existence from childhood and around me they wove a romantic
-story. They told how one man had so lost his head over me that he became
-an embezzler; how the publicity had caused my father to fill a suicide’s
-grave, and how I had been a social favorite until this trouble came,
-etc. I suppose they meant it kindly, for the article closed by assuring
-the public that my smiles were as winsome as ever and my voice as sweet,
-and no doubt but that the Temple Garden would have the honor of having
-more real society people in attendance during my engagement, than any
-other place of amusement in the city. And they were there like curiosity
-seekers at a funeral. When the hour came for my second appearance (the
-matinee), every seat was taken and the “Standing Room Only” card had been
-put up an hour before the curtain raised. My number came; I went onto
-the stage and proceeded to disappoint my former friends by being seized
-with stage fright, and instead of singing, I stood in dumb consternation.
-Again and again the orchestra repeated the introduction; again and again
-did the director give me my cue. I heard nothing. I could see in the
-distance fans and handkerchiefs waving in the air. I saw a hundred pair
-of hands extended, and brought quickly together, but heard no clapping
-sound. I saw the many gorgeous flowers that were tossed upon the stage
-in massive bouquets. I saw the footlights as they seemed to grow more
-dazzling and then recede to a glimmering yellow flame, then I saw⸺.
-
-“When I revived the manager was furious. They said I had fainted. I guess
-I did. I know a very strange feeling came over me.
-
-“Now I have recited my entire stage career to you. After this experience
-my nerves seemed to fail me and I was unfit for anything. I had the
-misfortune one day to meet one of my old friends, who happened to be in
-the audience when I broke down. We had a long talk over our lunch which
-lasted from two till five o’clock. He was so sorry for me, and said the
-thing I needed was travel. I felt myself as if something was needed.
-He proposed to assist me financially, and insisted on my going to Mt.
-Clemmens to take a course of sulphur baths. I really felt that it would
-benefit me, and hoped it would refit me for some sort of service by which
-I might earn a living. I accepted the proffered aid and left Chicago to
-seek health and strength. I spent seven weeks at the baths, and was so
-much improved that I felt that life was again worth living. At the end
-of that time my benefactor came to me. He told me two things and one was
-that he had seen Leslie in Chicago; that since the forfeiture of his
-bond he had decided to return here and had married his former employer’s
-daughter, Emily. The other thing he told me was that he was just starting
-for a year’s sojourn in Europe and wished me to join him. I did not know
-what it meant, but he plainly told me that I would be expected to travel
-as his wife. His request had a crushing effect on me. I could see why he
-had entertained so much sympathy for me in my days of trouble.
-
-“I wanted to kill him. I asked him why he had not let me starve or die
-from the effects of the malady from which I was suffering. He listened
-quietly and then talked soothingly to me, until he convinced me that
-in reality he was my only friend. I then became suspicious. I did not
-believe he had seen Leslie, and I did not believe Leslie was married. I
-still loved him with the devotion that had eaten into my childish heart.
-I made my tormentor this proposition: That I would return to Chicago
-and see Leslie. If he really was married and could not marry me, I
-would return to him and accompany him to Europe. I had two reasons for
-making this request. First, I really wished to see Leslie, and second,
-I considered it a good plan to get away from the man who had befriended
-me, and to whom I found it quite a task to say no after all his kindness.
-He consented to the return to Chicago, and suggested that if I wished to
-go with him that I meet him in New York in two weeks. He filled my purse
-and I came here. I easily found Leslie. I told him I still loved him and
-begged him to marry me or kill me and end my suffering. He denounced me
-bitterly, accusing me of every sin a mortal can commit, and wound up by
-telling me he was married and showed me a picture of his wife. Here, this
-is the very picture,” said the girl as she drew a photograph from the
-envelope.
-
-“And you, of course, snatched it out of his hand.”
-
-“No, I will tell you how I got it when I get to that part.”
-
-“I left him, my heart heavy within me. Again I sought employment in this
-city; for days I almost ran from one building to another in answer to
-some advertisement, only to find that I was too late, or in order to
-obtain this position I must submit to such proposals as I could not bear.
-Two weeks’ continuous trying and almost begging will tire the bravest. I
-found nothing that I could accept. My money was going fast; as I counted
-over my little store of currency my mind returned to him who gave it to
-me. Should I go and meet him? No! Die first, was my resolve. Then the
-thought came to me that possibly I could do better in New York, so after
-satisfying myself that he would have sailed before I could reach there, I
-left. I spent nearly all the money I had left for passage to New York. I
-felt that I never wanted to hear the name Chicago again, and as the train
-pulled out, I closed my eyes lest I should see something that would add
-more to my misery.
-
-“I arrived at the Eastern metropolis without accident. I went straightway
-to a music hall and sought an engagement. I was accepted and was to
-appear in “The Spider and the Fly” Co. and told to report for rehearsal
-the next morning at ten. I went and lo! another calamity. The manager
-produced a picture of me, one which had been taken to decorate the
-billboards at the time of my debut here. He also informed me that I was
-on the black list for feigning illness at that time that I might be
-relieved from my contract.
-
-“I needed a friend then to show that I was entitled to better treatment.
-The manager suggested that I change my name and get some one to vouch
-for me and then apply to some other manager.
-
-“I thanked him for the advice and started out to find some one, but whom
-could I find? The only person I knew in New York had undoubtedly left
-there, and if he had not I would not dare go to him. But I did dare
-anyway. I knew not what else to do. I made inquiry at his hotel, and
-found to my half hearted delight that he had not yet sailed, but would
-leave that night. ‘Good!’ I thought, ‘I will detain him but a short time;
-he will help me to a position and it will not interfere with his trip.’
-
-“I waited for his coming. He greeted me effusively, and told me he had
-waited and knew I would come.
-
-“I explained all to him and asked him to help me that I might secure a
-position and be able to repay him all he had expended in my behalf. He
-laughed at me and said: ‘Yes, of course, but let’s talk it over.’
-
-“It was dinner time and he suggested that as he had lunched early and I
-looked tired and hungry, that we go to dinner.
-
-“We had dinner at Delmonico’s, and breakfast on board an ocean liner
-bound for Liverpool. People can say all they please about not knowing
-what they do while under the influence of intoxicants, but I know that
-as a rule they are conscious of every act, but simply do not care. At
-the dinner I have just told you of, we had wine. I rather enjoyed the
-sensation it produced, it made me forgetful of all my troubles, and
-appreciative of all my friend had done, so that when he proposed that we
-sail and not try for the stage again, I was a willing participant in the
-carriage ride that took us to the docks. How I got on board the ship
-I do not know. What happened during the night I cannot remember, for
-slumber relieved me of all the horror attending the desecration of my
-virginity. I simply know that during our trip I was Mrs. H. Bartel.
-
-“We traveled for a year and then he brought me back to Chicago. He
-furnished a house, put $1,000 in the bank to my credit, and bade me
-good-by.
-
-“He went out of my life as quickly as I seemed to have lost cast in
-his. I began by keeping roomers; that did not pay. Then some of the
-fashionable men whom I had known in my palmy days approached me with a
-request that I allow them to hold clandestine meetings with women at my
-home. They paid well for the liberty.
-
-“From that I went one step further, and became the landlady of a house of
-bad repute, entering the field openly and above board.
-
-“Three months ago a woman applied to my house for admission. She looked
-fairly good and I took her in. I paid little attention to her, and such
-affairs were so common that I did not attempt to wring from her any
-ancient history. Her face had a familiar look, that at times puzzled me,
-but I did not give her much thought. One day I found a picture on her
-dresser. It was a picture of Leslie. I flew into a rage and questioned
-her closely. She told me she was his wife, made so by circumstances not
-conducive to happiness. I concealed my surprise. I knew then where I had
-seen her face. I managed to keep the truth from her and in a day or two
-found an excuse to expel her from my house. The last I heard of her she
-had become a frequenter of these places along the street here. Today
-I received this letter and picture from Leslie, and my business here
-tonight is to comply with his request if possible. Here is the letter, I
-will read it:
-
-“‘Dear Jeanette: I have just learned what you are engaged in, also that
-my wife is an inmate of your establishment. May God grant that you are
-not aware of the fact, for although I have mistreated you shamefully, I
-will not believe that you have hunted her up and taken this method of
-revenge on me. Enclosed find her picture, the one I showed you before.
-For Heaven’s sake, send her to me and my baby.
-
-“‘Kill me or torture me personally in any way you desire, but I beg of
-you do not be a party to the visitation of disgrace on my child. Yours,
-
- “‘LESLIE.’
-
-“And I am hunting Emily Sutton Marsh with a view to returning her to the
-place where she belongs.”
-
-
-
-
-TALE TWENTY.
-
-A SCIENTIFIC PHENOMENON.
-
- “When I remember something which I had,
- But which is gone, and I must do without,
- I sometimes wonder how I can be glad,
- Even in cowslip time, when hedges sprout;
- It makes me sigh to think on it,—but yet
- My days will not be better days, should I forget.”
-
-
-“Yes, art brought me to this.”
-
-The speaker was a tall, thin, young woman of a nervous temperament. The
-storm of dark hair was pushed back in hurried confusion; the heavy brows
-and long lashes which protected the dark blue eyes seemed a fitting
-division between the high cheek bones and the bloodless forehead; her
-nose, so straight and thin that it corresponded with the lines or
-wrinkles which extended upward at either end of the mouth, and seemed
-to cut short the smile which otherwise might have been as merry as the
-dimple in her little chin would indicate.
-
-Nature had left the stamp of refinement on her face, perhaps for no
-other purpose than to show the world that Celeste Moss had not always
-had a bent back and pricked fingers—the effect of shop duties. Her home
-was in two rooms, which, in spite of the lack of elegant furniture and
-rare bric-a-brac, showed signs of culture, if in no other way than the
-tidiness of the floors, which were without carpets or rugs.
-
-The only new article in the room which was visible was a pair of
-trousers, and they were just being wrapped into a neat bundle by the deft
-and willing hands of this industrious woman, as she opened the interview
-with the first remark of this story.
-
-“Art seems to have launched your ship of destiny into strange channels,”
-I ventured in way of reply.
-
-“Yes, and I have been called upon to face many breakers and tide the
-waves of furious storms in the best way I could.”
-
-“I am sure your career has been an interesting one.”
-
-“Not so interesting as unpleasant,” she said, “and if you will excuse me
-for a moment, I will tell you all.”
-
-That moment she consumed by carefully dusting and closing the machine
-with the same tenderness and precision with which some musician might put
-away his beloved instrument.
-
-“You take good care of your machine.”
-
-“Yes, that is all there is between me and the street; I must take good
-care of that.”
-
-“I believe you said art transposed you from some other sphere in life to
-your present position,” said I, anxious to draw her back to her subject.
-
-“Yes, I was born into a rich home, wherein the merry jingle of dollars
-was of less consequence to the different members of my family, than the
-rattle of pennies is to me now. I received all the finishing touches of
-education, then as my indulgent father said—”just for pastime“—I took
-up drawing and painting. My heart, brain and fingers seemed tuned with
-one accord, so that taking the brush and palette in my hand was only
-striking the chords of my artistic nature, and the harmony which was
-thereby inspired spread itself in delicate tints and shades, producing
-pictures which were as natural as those of the old masters were. So much
-attention was paid to my amateurish productions that I soon found myself
-famous. Then I fell in love; art and love should have been brother and
-sister, born of the same woman and nurtured on the same sweet food. To
-love a man was to love to draw beautiful pictures as nearly perfect as
-my accomplishment would allow, then no matter what the canvas portrayed
-after it had received my finishing touches, I took great pleasure in
-likening the work to that of my idol, and always found my production
-wanting. Long days I spent in my studio, striving to make a picture of
-something which would show as much excellence as a work of art as my
-lover showed as a man; each time I tried I improved, but before I had
-reached that stage of supremacy as an artist, I had so lost my head along
-with my heart that it was a hopeless task; there was nothing so true, so
-sweet, so perfect as my Reginald.”
-
-“We were married. The conditions and circumstances under which we met
-at the altar were favorable in the extreme. My husband was a musician
-of note; in fact, he knew nothing but music and love; certainly nothing
-was more natural than the blending of our souls in love, inspired by
-ambition; then to add joy to the happy situation my husband’s best and
-dearest friend, Jean Vincent (whom he had long since given up as dead),
-returned to our home town two days before the nuptials. Wealth was a
-thing easy of access to us, as both our families were independently rich.
-I was an only child and it was a common expression of my father’s that
-as I was so careless in regard to my sex, it would be my duty to the
-family to produce a son. We were very happy, my husband, Mr. Vincent and
-I, for Reginald insisted on his taking up his residence with us during
-his stay; he, too, was an artist of no mean ability, and as Reggie said,
-we could share the same studio and perhaps be of assistance to each
-other, and besides my husband was teaching a great deal now, and it would
-be so nice to have Jean in the house for company.”
-
-“We spent many happy days; I could sit for hours and listen to those two
-“chums” discuss their travels, one in quest of musical education, the
-other chasing art in its various forms and a part of the time the two
-royal rovers spent their time in quest of pleasure; but Reginald had
-tired sooner than his friend, and the date of his homecoming had been the
-beginning of the love match which had culminated so happily. Mr. Vincent
-had remained in Italy for a time, then visited the Sahara desert, climbed
-the pyramids of Egypt and scaled the dangerous peaks of the Alps; he had
-hunted in the jungles of Africa, and probed mother earth for gold in far
-off Australia; in fact, he had been everywhere, from the scenes of direst
-poverty to the grandeur of royal palaces. It was not strange, therefore,
-that this swarthy man of Oriental customs could entertain, instruct and
-make friends at one and the same time.
-
-“There was such a striking contrast between him and Reginald that many
-spoke of it. Reginald was one of those dear little, short, fat men, who
-seemed to beam with good nature; his round face was pink and white, while
-his clear blue eyes shown with that merry twinkle of tenderness so
-characteristic of the German type, while Mr. Vincent was tall and broad
-shouldered, with a face which was a study of stern determination. The
-years of hardship were not without effect, neither did his dark skin,
-black curly hair and luminous eyes of ebony have a tendency to soften
-the expression which the ravages of time had stamped upon his face. So
-much did these men enjoy the companionship of one another that they
-were always together when it was possible and it was only natural that
-I should join in all their conversation. You may imagine my joy when
-Reginald came to me and said:
-
-“‘Celeste, I want you to make a portrait of Jean, and, dear, make it your
-masterpiece.’
-
-“Then came long days of close association; we were closeted for hours in
-the studio; we talked art; we exchanged views; Jean sat for me and then
-I persuaded him to reciprocate. I told him that as he was sitting for a
-picture of himself for my husband that it would be a grand opportunity
-for him to put my face on canvas, and after the deliberate conclusion
-that we would surprise Reggie, we decided to present him with my likeness
-at the same time Jean’s was finished.
-
-“We worked with a will; when Reginald was away from home we often went to
-the church or the theatre or took a drive together. I know some people
-indulged in a little of that putrid gossip, which is sure to follow the
-act of any gallant man. We did nothing that could in any way be construed
-as disloyal to my husband; he knew our every move and sanctioned it all.
-It was during this period of sitting and painting that I made a happy
-discovery, and when I told Reginald he was so delighted that he lost no
-time in conveying the glad tidings to my parents; the prospects of an
-heir caused joy in their hearts. Finally the pictures were completed, and
-with them Mr. Vincent’s visit, for, as he put, he had stayed long enough
-in one place and would move on.
-
-“Reginald used to stand and look at his picture at times after he had
-gone, as though he were looking on the face of a dead brother. The manly
-love and devotion which existed between Reggie and Mr. Vincent was very
-touching.
-
-“In due time my child was born—and blessed be the star which controls
-such events—it was a boy. Reginald came to me while the nurse was
-dressing the babe, and taking me tenderly in his arms uttered words of
-praise in my ears, and showed me that devotion which is so reassuring and
-precious to the heart of a young mother. O, how grand I felt when I heard
-him say:
-
-“‘God bless you, darling! You are the dearest, truest treasure on earth.’
-
-“I felt that I could have died for him then and there, and I have wished
-many times since that I had. His dear head was nestled close beside mine
-on the pillow when the nurse brought the child in; then he arose, and
-taking the wee bit of humanity in his arms, turned towards me as if to
-place it where it belonged; as he peered through the lace to get a view
-of its features, I saw his face take on the pallor of death. My blood
-felt like ice, as I tried to raise myself, at the same time crying out:
-
-“‘What is it, Reggie?’
-
-“Then with a groan he fell across the bed unconscious; my only thought
-was that our baby had been injured in some way and suddenly expired, and
-with the picture of a little white casket, covered with lilies, before my
-eyes, I fainted; I revived, only to succumb to an attack of brain fever.
-When I recovered they told me that Reginald had gone.
-
-“‘Gone? Gone where?’ I cried in amazement.
-
-“For an answer they brought me this letter:
-
- “‘Dear Celeste: I will call you dear this time, for it is
- the last. I do not blame you so much for what has happened;
- I should not have trusted even the best friend on earth with
- you and your charms. I can easily account for all. You longed
- for the companionship which my profession robbed you of, but
- you should have prepared me for this blow. I go now to find
- your traducer, and if he refuses to take you and live with
- you honorably, his body will meet the same fate his picture
- has just met. Would to God I had died before I knew of your
- infidelity. Good-by forever,
-
- REGINALD.’
-
-“What on earth did it all mean? I went to the library, and there found
-Mr. Vincent’s likeness simply cut and slashed into ribbons. Reginald
-had left orders not to remove it; as I gazed on the ruined portrait
-and thought of the part of my husband’s letter wherein a like fate was
-promised Jean, I realized how utterly impossible it would be to consent
-to Reginald’s demands, for to do so would be an open confession of
-wrong, with a defined effort to right it, and so help me, God, we were
-as innocent as the now fatherless babe, and I knew Jean Vincent to be a
-man of principle; then I thought of Reginald’s obdurate nature, and—Oh,
-horrors! he would be a murderer.
-
-“With the thought of blood running from gaping wounds, I swooned away.
-When I opened my eyes again the doctor was standing over me; I asked for
-my baby; the nurse brought it, and I was so mystified that I shrieked
-in my despair; the poor little black thing, black eyes, ringlets of jet
-black hair and skin as swarthy as the cuticle of an Italian. A long
-talk with the physician shed light on the subject. He explained how the
-constant association with some dark person at such a time as that in
-which I happened to be with Mr. Vincent would bring about just such a
-result.
-
-“The scandal killed my mother; my father was just as unreasonable as my
-husband and refused to advise or assist me, even denying me the privilege
-of seeing him. After two years he died cursing me, but not before he had
-willed all of his fortune to a distant relative, leaving me penniless.
-
-“On the advice of neighbors, who were sufficiently interested in me to
-at least want me to leave the community, I put my baby boy in a home for
-waifs; then selling such articles of personal property as I possessed, I
-started on a journey which will only end in death.
-
-“I came direct to Chicago, thinking to hide myself in the whirl of a busy
-city, but soon the little store of wealth which I had realized from the
-sale of my belongings had melted down until there was only a thin wall
-of finance between me and starvation. I sought a position and in each
-attempt was defeated on account of not having a business education; I was
-not even fitted to do housework; it was then I realized how painfully
-helpless a girl is in a strange land with no means, who has been born
-and reared in luxury without even a smattering of domesticity in her
-character.”
-
-“Why did you not try your hand at painting?”
-
-“I did try, but no use; when I took up a brush and palette my hand was
-seized with palsy when I touched the brush to the canvas, I fancied I
-could hear the sounds of ripping, tearing cloth, and to save my life the
-best I could do was to make zig-zag lines; all of the love for art, all
-of the ambition had vanished.
-
-“Finally I secured a position as governess, and had it not been for
-the ideas of liberality which the man of the house in whose home I was
-employed entertained, I might have regained some of my loss; at any rate,
-he seemed to conceive the idea that my life was an aimless existence and
-that I was only waiting to be won with endearing words of love.
-
-“The days of trouble were not conducive to strengthening my character and
-my tempter was a man of wiles and charms, so much so that his constant
-observation disclosed my different moods to his discernible mind. His
-plans were carried out with that accuracy and precision so characteristic
-of a man of the world.
-
-“That was the first step down the incline of rectitude; other men sought
-me and so surely did I descend into the valley of shame that it was an
-easy matter for me to consent to live with men in open defiance of the
-law.
-
-“During my career I met a gentleman who was more interested in me than
-any one I had ever met; he lived in a small town in the west; he was a
-man of great tenderness and we in time grew fond of each other. Much of
-our time was consumed in talking of schools, books, music and travel. I
-knew little of him and he nothing of me, any more than he had met me one
-day as I was buying tickets for a matinee; the line at the window doubled
-back around the entrance of the theatre. As the crowd crawled slowly
-along I found myself standing beside him; he addressed me, whereupon
-a conversation sprung up and he kindly offered to buy my tickets for
-me when he reached the window, which would save me a delay of several
-moments. As he handed me the tickets he apologized for his intrusion; I
-thanked him for his kindness and was not at all surprised when I found
-him in the seat next to mine. Our friendship grew and finally ripened
-into such mutual admiration that I frequently found myself counting
-the days that I must wait for his coming. Finally his visits grew less
-frequent; I did not ask him why he came so seldom, for I considered it
-none of my business; one of the waits proved longer than any before. He
-did not come for a year, but when he came he found me in my old haunt.
-This time he explained why his visits had been so far apart; his wife had
-been ill and he had lost her six months before; they had a child, a boy
-by adoption, and he could not well leave the little fellow. I insisted on
-his bringing his boy along next time.
-
-“I had become so attached to this man of genial nature that I was quick
-to become interested in anything which was of importance to him. He came
-again in two weeks, and with him came the boy. I met them in the parlor
-of a hotel, and oh, how my heart fluttered as I saw the youngster; all
-the love, pity and compassion of my happier days rushed back into the
-places of my nature, which had been devoid of anything sweet for the
-last six years. The boy was standing with his back to me talking to his
-father. As I approached with outstretched hand to welcome my friend,
-who stood with his back to the mirror, he reached out to clasp mine and
-stepped slightly to one side, revealing the complete image of the child
-in the mirror.
-
-“God only knows what I suffered in that one brief second. The picture
-I saw there in the frame of the mirror was more vivid than any work of
-art ever produced. My own child stood beside me. The hardening process
-of years did much to assist me in my self-control. We went to dinner; my
-friend was aware of my unhappy state of mind and questioned me closely.
-I could not tell him the whole truth; I simply told him that I had been
-married and that I had had a boy so much like this adopted son that the
-sight of his boy had refreshed my memory, had recalled the sad hour of
-parting with him when I had to give him up.”
-
-“‘And his father—is he dead, too?’ he asked, as he gently put his arm
-around me.
-
-“‘Yes,’ I sobbed, ‘dead, everything is dead to me.’
-
-“My sufferings must have touched the strings of his harp of love and
-caused a melody to re-echo from his soul.
-
-“‘Come, and be a mother to my little chap,’ said he.
-
-“‘Oh, please don’t! I beg of you not to punish me by such jests.’
-
-“‘But I mean it.’
-
-“I hope that God in his goodness will never allow any poor woman to
-suffer as I did. I would have gladly gone, but no, I could not marry one
-man when I was the legal wife of another. Oh, I wanted to go so much, but
-I could not. I loved my child too purely to go and be a mother to him,
-while I was mistress to the one whom he was to know as a father.
-
-“That night ended my downward flight; I felt in my own mind that I had
-reached the bottomless pit of degradation, so low, so impure, so tainted
-with vice, that I dared not take my own child in my arms and lavish that
-love on him which was now consuming me, for fear that the taste of bliss
-would plunge me into a sea of desperation and cause me to commit myself
-in some way that would contaminate his sweet, young life.
-
-“I had saved some money, enough to live on while I served an
-apprenticeship in a sewing shop. I have taught myself the lessons of
-economy and domesticity so necessary to one who intends to follow the
-life of humble purity.”
-
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-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_1"></a>[1]</span></p>
-
-<h1>TWENTY TALES<br />
-<span class="smaller">BY</span><br />
-Twenty Women</h1>
-
-<p class="titlepage">From Real Life in Chicago</p>
-
-<p class="titlepage">ANONYMOUS<br />
-ALL RIGHTS RESERVED</p>
-
-<p class="titlepage">FOR SALE ONLY<br />
-BY<br />
-<span class="larger">NOVELTY PUBLISHING CO.</span><br />
-CHICAGO, ILL.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_2"></a>[2]</span></p>
-
-<p class="titlepage smaller">COPYRIGHT, 1903<br />
-BY<br />
-NOVELTY PUBLISHING CO.</p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_3"></a>[3]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="CONTENTS">CONTENTS.</h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<table>
- <tr>
- <td></td>
- <td class="tdpg">PAGE</td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Preface</span></td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#PREFACE">3</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Introduction</span></td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#INTRODUCTION">5</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">A Woman’s Anguish</span></td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#A_WOMANS_ANGUISH">13</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale One</span>—The Diary of a Chicago Girl</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_ONE">17</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Two</span>—The Life Story of a Southern Widow</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_TWO">33</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Three</span>—A Story of the Chicago Ghetto</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_THREE">53</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Four</span>—A Woman of Thirty-eight</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_FOUR">71</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Five</span>—A Forecast</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_FIVE">89</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Six</span>—A Daughter of Proud Kentucky</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_SIX">103</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Seven</span>—My Lover’s Bequest</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_SEVEN">129</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Eight</span>—The Victim of a Drug</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_EIGHT">145</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Nine</span>—What Happened to a Girl Who Flirted</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_NINE">163</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Ten</span>—Sold at a Fixed Price</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_TEN">173</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Eleven</span>—A Story of Suicide Bridge</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_ELEVEN">181</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Twelve</span>—Two Babes and Two Mothers</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_TWELVE">193</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Thirteen</span>—Not Guilty</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_THIRTEEN">205</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Fourteen</span>—My Lover’s Daughter</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_FOURTEEN">215</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Fifteen</span>—As Told to a Clergyman</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_FIFTEEN">221</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Sixteen</span>—A Story of Stage Life</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_SIXTEEN">231</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Seventeen</span>—A Trip Across the Lake</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_SEVENTEEN">261</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Eighteen</span>—One Woman’s Way</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_EIGHTEEN">269</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Nineteen</span>—A Story of the Levee</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_NINETEEN">291</a></td>
- </tr>
- <tr>
- <td><span class="smcap">Tale Twenty</span>—A Scientific Phenomenon</td>
- <td class="tdpg"><a href="#TALE_TWENTY">305</a></td>
- </tr>
-</table>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_4"></a>[4]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="PREFACE">PREFACE.</h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“It may be weeds I’ve gathered, too;</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">But even weeds may be as fragrant,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">With some sweet memory.</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">As the fairest flower.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>Without apology this book goes forth. If it is productive
-of some good, it will have fulfilled its mission.</p>
-
-<p>In presenting this work it is with a feeling of restitution.
-If I have digressed from, or stormed the barricaded
-citadel of formal literature, I have done so
-without hesitation, simply complying with an obeisance
-to civility toward my fellow men. I have pictured life
-as a man of the world is sometimes forced to see it,
-and not altogether as angels would transcribe it.</p>
-
-<p>If the manner in which the subjects are hereinafter
-treated and woven into stories, meets the approval of
-the public, the work will have served to indicate the
-power and simplicity of truth.—<span class="smcap">The Author.</span></p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“All truth is precious, if not divine,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And what dilates the pow’rs must needs refine.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_5"></a>[5]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="INTRODUCTION">INTRODUCTION.</h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<p>“Without women, the beginning of our life would
-be helpless; the middle, devoid of pleasure, and the
-end of consolation.”</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent28">“The very first</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Of human life must spring from woman’s breast,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Your first small words are taught you from her lips,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Your first tears quench’d by her, and your last sighs</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Too often breathed out in a woman’s hearing,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">When men have shrunk from the ignoble care</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Of watching the last hour of him who led them.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>In London alone there are eighty thousand fallen
-women, and, while the number is infinitely smaller in
-Chicago, they all have a history, an excuse to offer,
-and a tale to tell.</p>
-
-<p>We have resided upon this terrestrial sphere just
-long enough to know that the reformation of a fallen
-woman rivals the labors of Hercules. All men have
-a physical nature and must meet people who appeal to
-it.</p>
-
-<p>The conditions are such that there has arisen in society,
-a figure that is certainly the most mournful,
-and, in some respects, the most awful, upon which
-the eye of the moralist can dwell. That unhappy being,
-whose very name it is a shame to speak; who
-counterfeits, with a cold heart, the transports of affection
-and submits herself as the passive instrument
-of lust; who is scorned and insulted as the vilest of<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_6"></a>[6]</span>
-her sex, and doomed, for the most part, to disease
-and abject wretchedness of men, then death.</p>
-
-<p>Who will pity her? A poor unknown, who shall
-be lowered into a grave of cold clay (and possibly in
-the potter’s field), among slimy, creeping things that
-feed on foul air and putrid masses. Not even a slab
-to say, “Here lies.”</p>
-
-<p>With dreamy eyes and rum dulled brain, her companions
-take in the scene without warning. They
-shrink not from the horrors of the charnel house or
-the maggot filled grave; sin fascinates them as the
-cursed death giving flame does the foolish moth. They
-continue to cultivate avarice, defy all laws of nature
-and modesty, all rules of etiquette, and break down
-all barriers which ordinarily defend pure womanhood.</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“She is a rag and a bone and a hank of hair.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>Women of this class feel that they are social outcasts,
-that their sins are as scarlet; they believe that
-they are past reform.</p>
-
-<p>Herself, the supreme type of vice, she is usually
-the most efficient guardian of virtue. But for her,
-the unchallenged purity of countless homes would be
-polluted, and not a few, who, in the pride of their
-untested chastity, think of her with an indignant
-shudder, would have known the agony of remorse
-and despair.</p>
-
-<p>On that one degraded and ignoble form are concentrated
-the passions that might have filled the world
-with shame.</p>
-
-<p>She remains while creeds and civilization rise<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_7"></a>[7]</span>
-and fall, the eternal priestess of humanity, blasted for
-the sins of the world.</p>
-
-<p>It is not our intention to perorate and dissertate on
-a theory calculated to turn the world into a miniature
-heaven, for we don’t believe for the fractional part of
-a moment that a general reformation of the fallen
-is practicable or possible. It is not unusual that the
-men who deplore so loudly the existence of soiled
-doves are the very men who are responsible for their
-existence.</p>
-
-<p>The only practicable solution that we may be
-tempted to offer, would be for society to brand the
-men with the stigma of its contempt, the same as it
-does the women, when he sinks himself below her
-level in an attempt to pervert her purity.</p>
-
-<p>If the immoral men were ostracized from polite
-society with the same despatch that a weak woman is,
-society would be composed almost entirely of women.</p>
-
-<p>The world’s fallen women are divided into two
-classes:</p>
-
-<p>The woman whose nature is depraved, who is too
-coarse to realize or heed the depth of her own infamy,
-and the woman whose circumstances have forced
-her to a life of shame. Of the former, it is useless
-to take heed for she understands nothing outside of
-her own depravity, and looks upon reformation as a
-thing to be avoided. Fortunately she constitutes but
-a small percentage of the half-world.</p>
-
-<p>The reclamation of the other woman is almost as
-utterly impossible for the reason that she has realized
-and suffered too much. We have homes of refuge for
-the friendless, retreats for the fallen, and hospitals for<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_8"></a>[8]</span>
-the poor, but after all the red tape formula for admittance
-has been complied with, they dispense only
-the cold crusts of charity.</p>
-
-<p>Where can a woman turn, whose suffering soul is
-tottering on the brink of the world’s damnation? To
-whom shall she turn for the tender touch of Christian
-pity, the charity of a human undertaking half divine?
-Surely, not to the church that “Bows the knee to
-pomp that loves to varnish guilt;” not to the women
-of merciless hearts and useless lives who boast of
-chastity because of frozen veins; not to public charities
-who advertise her squalor and her shame; not to
-the worldly man, whose aid is; almost invariably extended
-in return for favors their families know not of,
-but she turns to the hell of the world’s lost souls when
-men no longer find her a convenience.</p>
-
-<p>The modest woman of mental refinement finds a
-rival in the person with a good figure (no matter how
-blatant), who is able to set the pace that lures the
-men.</p>
-
-<p>Whatever her personal merits may be, her position
-precludes the possibility of her re-entering social circles
-that would be agreeable to her. She sees the girls
-about her who have smothered their moral scruples,
-wearing good clothes, going to entertainments and
-receiving the attentions of gentlemen who have no
-hesitancy in being parted from their money, if value
-is received, and it is small wonder if she, too, takes
-the initial step that leads to the “crib” in the “tenderloin.”</p>
-
-<p>After having established the reputation of being
-“game,” there is no dearth of so called respectable<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_9"></a>[9]</span>
-men who are willing to be “kind” to her. The men
-who are responsible for these conditions are not the
-rough men of the lower classes, but the professional
-men, the men in business; many with families and
-nice homes, who represent the respectable element in
-the community.</p>
-
-<p>If all the ancient prudes and wind-jammers, who
-are so intensely interested in the fallen, would give
-their support to the decent men who give their employes
-living wages, instead of straining their corsets
-to wedge in next to the bargain counter in the department
-stores, whose scale of wages breeds prostitution
-and moral depravity, they might discover in the
-next decade, more self-supporting, decent women, and
-less fair faces flushed with lust in the glare of the red
-light “brothel.”</p>
-
-<p>In presenting this work to the public it is not the
-intention of the author to bruise the hearts of fond
-parents, who may be able to recall sad occurrences,
-after having read the following chapters; nor to censure
-the subjects, whose life stories are told in the
-following narrations; not to bring down unjust criticism
-on the head of any class; but rather to point out
-in a measure, the reasons most apparent to a man of
-the world, for licentious crime.</p>
-
-<p>If asked why I have chosen Chicago as the field from
-which to gather data for this volume, my answer would
-be, “because of its great population”; because to it
-visitors flock from every part of; the United States
-and many foreign countries; because it is nearer to
-the center of population than any other large city,
-hence more often sought by wayward girls from the<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_10"></a>[10]</span>
-surrounding territory, and the inducements which are
-held out to the pleasure-loving public, whether those
-in quest of enjoyment be saint or sinner, wolf or
-lamb, in gay Chicago are conducive to the character
-of amusement and excitement necessary to the
-life of those whose stories are herein told.</p>
-
-<p>This book will claim its right to life by detailing the
-life story of each one of these children of God, from
-the child-life in a quiet, peaceful home in some
-rural hamlet, through the trials and vicissitudes of
-unfortunate or misspent life.</p>
-
-<p>This book, unlike the Bible, is all written in Chicago.
-The twenty disciples come from twenty different
-places. They, endeavoring to lose their identity
-in the whirl of racy life and excitement, seek the
-phantom happiness in this great city. For a time all
-goes well. Gaiety and mirth mingle, and fortune conspires
-with pleasure to mislead the novice; then the
-scenes grow old; happiness eludes the grasp; tawdry
-garments no longer please the eye; the tinsel tarnishes;
-disappointed hope begets despair, and then a few
-grains of a friendly drug or the cold waves, of the
-lake offer rest and relief. The city becomes pregnant
-with these poor unfortunates, tortured by regret and
-shame, goaded down by necessity and the scorn of
-former friends. Then there is birth—this book is
-born. It goes out into the world to tell the naked
-truth for the good of mankind.</p>
-
-<p>While this work is prepared from a truly moral
-standpoint, let it be known that it is the intention to
-entertain as well as to instruct, to deal with bare<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_11"></a>[11]</span>
-facts in order that the reader will thoroughly understand
-the situation as it exists.</p>
-
-<p>Should the reader, while in the act of drinking in
-the words of these crushed flowers, find an instance
-wherein, by the recital of her story, by sheer accident
-or otherwise, recognize the possessor of that story, do
-not, for the love of humanity, be so unkind as to say,
-“I told you so.”</p>
-
-<p>You may know, aye adore, some man whose fault it
-is that that particular girl was placed in the position
-which makes the tale of her life so miserably sad to
-some and yet so racy and full of color to others. If,
-after having read the story of his wrong-doing, together
-with the pain he has caused, he does not develop into
-a different sort of a man, put him down as an iniquitous
-night-bird, fit to flit and hoot by night in search
-of prey; one in whom a spark of manhood never glows
-and whose crimes and abominations are myriad, marking
-him as a loathsome creature, who fears the truth
-and shuns the light of day; one whose conscience is
-seared beyond redemption and who possesses no conception
-of charity, pity, sorrow or regret.</p>
-
-<p>It is a pitiable and cruel fact that the great source
-from which the ranks of scarlet are replenished, are
-young women from the country, who, disgraced in
-their own community, fly from home to escape the infamy
-and rush to the city with anger, desperation and
-revolt in their hearts. Oh, that society would punish
-more severely the respectable seducers and destroyers
-of innocent women.</p>
-
-<p>Another lamentable fact is that those who enter into
-this diabolical traffic, are seldom saved. We have<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_12"></a>[12]</span>
-avoided no labor or pains in our researches on this
-subject, and we wish all who read this to mark well
-our words.</p>
-
-<p>When a woman once enters a house of prostitution
-and leads the life of those who dwell there, it is too
-late for redemption and there is no hope for her.
-When a woman once nerves herself for the fatal
-plunge, a change comes over her whole character and,
-sustained by outraged love, transformed into hate by
-miscalculating but indomitable pride, revenge and the
-excitement of her new environments, her fate is fixed,
-her doom is sealed.</p>
-
-<p>Hence this book, “TWENTY TALES BY
-TWENTY WOMEN.”</p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_13"></a>[13]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="A_WOMANS_ANGUISH">A WOMAN’S ANGUISH.</h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Sitting alone by the window, watching the moonlit street;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Bending my head to listen to the well known sounds of your feet;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">I have been wondering, darling, how I could hear the pain,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">When I watched with sighs and tear-wet eyes and waited your coming in vain.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“For I know the day approaches when you will tire of me,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">When by the door I may watch and wait for the form I will not see;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">When the love that is now my heaven, the kisses that make my life,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">You will bestow on another, and that other will be your wife.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“You will grow tired of serving, though you do not call it so;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">You will long for a love that is pure, the love that we two know.</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">God knows that I loved you dearly, with a passion strong and pure,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">But you will grow tired and leave me though I gave up all for you.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“I was pure as the morning when I first looked upon your face;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">I knew I never could reach you, on your high exalted place,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">But I looked and loved and worshiped, as a flower might worship a star,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">But your eyes shone down on me and you seemed so far, so far.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“And then I knew that you loved me, loved me with all your heart,</div><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_14"></a>[14]</span>
- <div class="verse indent0">But we could not stand at the altar, we were so far apart;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">If a star would wed a flower, the star must drop from the sky,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Or the flower, in trying to reach it, would droop on its stalk and die.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“And you said that you loved me dearly, and swore by the heaven above,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">That the Lord and all His angels would sanction and bless our love,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And I was weak, not wicked, my love was pure and true,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And sin itself seemed a virtue, when only shared by you.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“We have been happy together, though, under a cloud of sin;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">But I know that the day approaches when my chastening will begin.</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">You have been faithful and tender, but you will not always be,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And I think I had better leave you while your thoughts are kind of me.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Oh, God! I could never bear it; it would madden my brain, I know;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">So while you love me dearly, I think I had better go.</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">It is sweeter to feel my darling, to know as I fall asleep,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">That some one will mourn and miss me, that some one is left to weep.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“That to die as I would in the future, to fall in the street some day,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Unknown, unwept and forgotten, when you have cast me away;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Perhaps the blood of the Savior can wash my garments clean;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Perchance I may drink the water that flows through the pastures green.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Perchance we may meet in heaven, and walk in the streets above,</div><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_15"></a>[15]</span>
- <div class="verse indent0">With nothing to grieve or part us, since our sinning was all through love.</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">God says, ‘Love one another,’ and down to the depths of hell</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Will he send the soul of a woman, because she loved and fell.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Perchance if we had never met, I had been spared this last regret,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">This endless striving to forget; and yet, I could not bear the pain</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Of never seeing you again.</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Ah, leave me not, I love but thee; blessing or curse whiche’er thou be;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Oh, be as thou hast been to me, forever and forever.”’</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">And so in the moonlight he found her, as around her beautiful clay</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">(Lifeless and pallid as marble, for her spirit had flown away),</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">The farewell words she had written she held to her cold, white breast,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And the buried blade of a dagger told how she had done the rest.</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_16"></a>[16]</span></p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_17"></a>[17]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_ONE">TALE ONE.<br />
-<span class="smaller">THE DIARY OF A CHICAGO GIRL.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<p>This story is a copy of the diary kept by a wealthy Chicago
-girl, who was found dead in her room.</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“When lovely woman stoops to folly</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">And finds too late that men betray,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">What charm can soothe her melancholy?</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">What art can wash her guilt away?</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“The only art her guilt to cover,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">To hide her shame from every eye,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">To give repentance to her lover,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">And wring his bosom, is—to die.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">January 1.</span></h3>
-
-<p>I, Louise Montgomery, twenty-five years of age, and
-in full possession of all my faculties, do hereby affirm
-that I will herein chronicle all the noteworthy happenings
-of my life for the period of one year.</p>
-
-<p>Little diary, I am surprised that I, having reached
-the mature age of twenty-five, should become so sentimental
-as to wish to keep a diary. What has prompted
-me I cannot say. Time may reveal it.</p>
-
-<p>The old year has just passed into eternity and the
-New Year has but commenced his reign as I write.
-Yes, a new year with all its possibilities. I hope at the
-end of this year I may look back upon it as the one<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_18"></a>[18]</span>
-bright year of my life. I have not made a thousand
-good resolutions, as I have done hitherto, but mean to
-meet the trials and temptations of each day as bravely
-as possible.</p>
-
-<p>I am not in love yet, little diary, and I want you to
-bear witness to this fact. There is a man whom you
-do not know, and to whom I shall introduce you now,
-for if I can convert him to my way of thinking by
-the end of this year, I shall not have lived in vain, and
-I shall have much to tell you about him as the days
-go by.</p>
-
-<p>He is married, this man of whom I speak. That in
-itself would preclude the possibility of my loving him
-now, or falling in love with him in the future.</p>
-
-<p>He has a lovely wife and one child. He speaks of
-her often and dwells on her excellent qualities, until
-I too love her.</p>
-
-<p>He loves her? Maybe he does, but I fear he does not,
-not to the fullest extent. It must be my work of this
-year to teach him the error of his way. He has never
-by word or action intimated that he cares for me, but
-I am sensible, not conceited, and know he is—well, he
-likes to tell how happy he is, too well. People who
-are thoroughly happy give no thought to the opinion of
-the world, but live only in the sunshine of their beloved’s
-presence. I think my task will be a delightful
-one. He is awfully good looking, very tall and well
-developed, polished and withal so interesting. It was
-strange how we became interested in one another the
-very first night of our meeting. That Thanksgiving
-ball will be a memorable one. How striking he looked
-in his full dress suit and how perfectly he dances! I<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_19"></a>[19]</span>
-wonder what New Year resolutions he has made. I
-mean to ask him, if he is at the dance tonight. No, I
-guess I won’t either; men are conceited and he might
-think I had been giving him rather more thought than
-mere casual acquaintance would warrant. Perhaps he
-doesn’t realize his danger. Well, I must retire now to
-pleasant dreams.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">January 2.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Oh, what a grand time I had last night. I was the
-belle of the ball and Mr. Forsythe said he never saw
-me so radiant. I felt a little as if I ought not to allow
-him to say it, but I couldn’t really find a reason for
-criticising him for what many others said, and then,
-too, if I assume that he is doing wrong, when he may
-never have thought of it, I shall spoil all my chances
-for doing good. I know I did look my best, for that
-clinging black crepe gown is most becoming. I wonder
-how Nell is progressing with her affair. Somehow
-she doesn’t seem to me to be looking very happy.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">January 6.</span></h3>
-
-<p>I didn’t intend to neglect you so soon, my father confessor,
-but I have been so busy and so tired at night that
-I couldn’t keep my eyes open, and I want you to be as
-much of a credit to me in appearances as my own deeds
-are to be.</p>
-
-<p>There has been nothing of vital importance to set
-down here this time. I had a long talk with Nell Sears
-today and I conjectured correctly about her being unhappy.
-She is engaged to Professor Kurtz, but he says
-it is impossible for him to marry her publicly, as long
-as he teaches in the University, for they would discharge<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_20"></a>[20]</span>
-him. That seems queer to me. I think I shall
-investigate the matter for my own satisfaction, for who
-knows, a Professor might propose to me sometime. He
-wants her to marry him quietly, and she doesn’t want
-to do it I wouldn’t if I were she. A society girl in
-her position would run a great risk, I think.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">January 10.</span></h3>
-
-<p>I had a long talk with Mr. Forsythe today. When I
-told him I was going away tomorrow he looked sad,
-and said he should miss me very much. You see
-it was this way. We met by sheer accident at the
-silk counter at Field’s. He was matching some silk
-for his wife, and I was searching for something suitable
-for a new evening gown. He helped me select
-an exquisite thing, all pink and silver. I think I
-overstepped my limit as to price, but I didn’t like to
-“haggle” when he was standing there. He said I
-would be the center of attraction wherever I wore
-that, and some other complimentary trifles, not worth
-mentioning. By the time we had concluded our purchases
-it was luncheon hour and he insisted on my
-going up to the tea-room with him.</p>
-
-<p>He asked me if I would write to him while I was
-away; that it would be such a pleasure to hear how
-I was enjoying myself. I gave a reluctant consent
-after he said, “If you knew how much good it would
-do me, you would not refuse.”</p>
-
-<p>I wish I knew whether I did right or not.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">January 25.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Detroit is such a lovely city and I am having<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_21"></a>[21]</span>
-such a royal, good time, that I have neglected thee,
-my little white-faced friend.</p>
-
-<p>Florence has kept me going every minute. I met
-a Mr. Ford last night and of all the men I have met
-since coming here I like him the best. He loves music,
-poetry and flowers, and we are very congenial.</p>
-
-<p>I have been here two weeks and have not kept
-my promise to Mr. Forsythe to write. I must do
-so tonight, so farewell, my friend, for tonight.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">February 1.</span></h3>
-
-<p>I received such a delightful letter from Mr. Forsythe
-this afternoon. Such poetical sentiments, such
-pen pictures! It was certainly the most beautiful letter
-I ever received. I wonder what he could have
-thought of my poor, little missive. Still it is worth
-something to have inspired such a beautiful reply. I
-wonder how soon I ought to answer. I should like
-to get another from him soon, but I wouldn’t have
-him know it for the world.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">February 15.</span></h3>
-
-<p>I had another letter from Mr. Forsythe today. It
-was just a note inquiring for Mrs. Madden’s address.
-It makes me smile. Men aren’t so very sharp after
-all. As if I couldn’t see that the inquiry was only an
-excuse to write to me and a gentle reminder of the
-fact that I owe him a letter.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">February 23.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Well, whom do you suppose was at the ball tonight?
-I was never so surprised in my life. It was a club<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_22"></a>[22]</span>
-dance and Mr. Forsythe was there. I did not know he
-was in the city. Oh, what a grand waltz we had! He
-said business had called him East and he thought he
-would stop at Detroit for a day before going on to
-New York.</p>
-
-<p>Of course we know it was some one who wore a
-pink gown and has brown eyes, don’t we?</p>
-
-<p>He is dear, he looked down into my eyes and said,
-“What beautiful unfathomed depths your soul has,
-though I can get but a peep at it through those eyes.”</p>
-
-<p>I can’t help it, I like to hear him say those things,
-although I ought not to allow it and I know it. He
-is coming to call this afternoon.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">February 25.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Well, he was here and Florence thought he was
-lovely. She came in for a few moments and then
-excused herself, so we had the time all to ourselves.
-I don’t know how I dared to do it, but it seemed as
-if something impelled me to, and I said, “Mr. Forsythe,
-I don’t believe you are as happy as you say you are.
-If you were you would not encourage yourself so
-much.”</p>
-
-<p>He was silent what seemed to me an interminable
-length of time and I thought, “Now, my lady, you
-have spoiled your chances to do a good work, by a
-word inopportunely spoken.” But I was wrong. He
-came over to me and sat down beside me on the
-couch. He took my hand in his and said, “Miss Montgomery,
-you are right, but you are the only one who
-has discerned it, or at least the only one who has said
-so.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_23"></a>[23]</span></p>
-
-<p>Then I told him I was sorry I had been so abrupt,
-but he assured me that it was all right and that he
-was glad I had spoken because now he would feel
-free to talk the whole matter over with me.</p>
-
-<p>He said his wife was good and kind, in fact, I don’t
-know that he said anything but nice things, now that
-I stop to think of it.</p>
-
-<p>But, little diary, I think I have discovered the
-trouble. I don’t believe she understands him. She
-doesn’t appreciate the depth of his nature. It may be
-no fault of hers; she associates with him daily and
-feels herself so much a part of him that she has ceased
-to analyze him. It is not that he has ceased to be
-interesting to her, for she loves him devotedly, but
-it is the nature of a man to desire commendation and
-encouragement. He doesn’t wish it to be taken for
-granted that he is doing well, but wishes to hear words,
-words.</p>
-
-<p>A deep bond of sympathy exists between us. I
-understand and he feels that I understand. Oh, I
-am sure now that I can do good!</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">March 1.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Well, little diary, you and I are going to return to
-Chicago Wednesday, back to our home and our work.
-I am not going to send Mr. Forsythe any word, but
-will surprise him by appearing in person at Mrs.
-Carter’s party Friday night I wonder how he will
-look and what he will say.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">March 7.</span></h3>
-
-<p>The last words I wrote the other night were, “I<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_24"></a>[24]</span>
-wonder how he will look, what he will say.” His
-face was a study, pleasure and surprise the dominant
-emotions. He said only three words as he clasped my
-hand in his. “Welcome home, Louise.” Louise!
-How he drew out the syllables. I never before realized
-that my name was musical. I asked him how all the
-family were and he said well and happy. Then he
-said Mrs. Forsythe was there and he wanted us to
-meet. She is lovely, and as they came up to me she
-was looking at him so fondly and proudly, I could see
-the devotion in her eyes. I couldn’t help feeling a
-sharp twinge of my conscience as I stood chatting to
-her, but I should not, for my intentions are the best,
-and if she knew all the circumstances she would commend
-me, I know.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">March 16.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Sister and I were among several guests at Mr. and
-Mrs. Forsythe’s box party last night and Robert managed
-to have the chair next mine, and when “the lights
-were dim and low” he found my hand and gave it a
-gentle squeeze and said, “I want to have a long talk
-with you soon, without fear of interruption, and I
-know of no way this can be had unless you meet me
-down town and take dinner with me.”</p>
-
-<p>I asked him if he thought it was right, and he
-said, “You know I would not ask you to do anything
-I thought was wrong.”</p>
-
-<p>So I have promised to go. I wonder what in the
-world he is going to tell me.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">March 27.</span></h3>
-
-<p>We had dinner at Rector’s at four o’clock today.<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_25"></a>[25]</span>
-Robert told me that he loved me. I was dumbfounded
-and must have shown it plainly. I asked him if he
-was in the habit of making love to young women. His
-lips quivered and he said, “I don’t blame you for being
-offended, but I swear to you that this is the first time
-I ever told a woman I loved her when I had not the
-right to do so. I am sorry, so sorry, I have told you,
-for I might have gone on suffering alone, and you
-would have never been the wiser, while now I have
-made you unhappy, too. Can you forgive me?”</p>
-
-<p>He leaned over toward me and looked into my eyes
-so eagerly for an affirmative answer that—well, how
-could I refuse forgiveness, and then, you know, my
-work must be considered.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">April 2.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Nell had an “All Fool’s” party last night, and such
-pranks as we played! Of course Robert was not
-there, because only the young people were there, and
-it seemed rather strange; in fact, I know I missed
-him, but this is only for you to know, my faithful.
-Mr. Ford was there and he is awfully nice, knows
-just what to do to make a girl comfortable. I am
-going to the opera with him tonight. I shall enjoy it
-immensely with him, I know.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">April 14.</span></h3>
-
-<p>O dear! Robert is jealous of Mr. Ford. He happened
-to be at the opera that night and saw us. He
-says he did not mean to be too observing, but that he
-loved me so well that he couldn’t keep his eyes off
-me, and that Mr. Ford must be in love with me, too,
-from the attention he bestowed upon me.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_26"></a>[26]</span></p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">April 26.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Florence has been here since the 15th on a shopping
-expedition and we have had no end of fun. She
-insists on my returning with her and so I think we
-will go, you and I.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">May 15.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Have been here two weeks and had a wire today
-from Robert. He will be here the 17th, to remain a
-few days. I am just wondering what I can do with
-Mr. Ford while he is here, for I shall have to devote
-every minute to Robert, and that won’t please Mr.
-Ford very well. Oh, dear! I’m always getting my
-wires crossed.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">May 17.</span></h3>
-
-<p>I met Robert at the train today and before I could
-say a word he had put his arm around me and kissed
-me, right on the lips. His first kiss, May 17th.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">May 20.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Robert was here tonight and Florence had gone to
-the theater, we were left alone. He took me in his
-arms and kissed me again and again and every kiss
-thrilled me like an electric shock. I felt the blood
-tingling to the ends of my fingers. I never felt so
-strange in my life. I pulled away from him as soon
-as I could, but, oh, those kisses. They seemed to intoxicate
-me. I felt as if I had been transported to
-Elysian fields, and could die happy right there with
-my lips pressed to his. We had such a nice visit. He
-says I am his guiding star, and that everything has<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_27"></a>[27]</span>
-gone better since he knew me. I told him that he must
-never forget his wife and he assured me that he would
-not, could not when he had such a sweet reminder,
-even if she were not always so good and kind. He
-said, too, that she could not satisfy the longings in his
-soul which had been there for years, until he met me.
-That a man must have love, sympathy and encouragement
-to fill his life and make it complete.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">June 4.</span></h3>
-
-<p>I had a telegram from New York this morning. It
-was from Robert asking me to meet him there. I—shall
-I go or shall I not?</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">June 6.</span></h3>
-
-<p>I have decided to go. I had some shopping to do
-anyway, and I can do better there than here or in
-Chicago.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">June 10.</span></h3>
-
-<p>When I arrived here, Robert had a beautiful suite
-of rooms engaged for me at the Fifth Avenue Hotel.
-He told me more about his life at home, and its
-deficiencies, and that his health was failing him. I
-am dreadfully worried about him, he looks badly. I
-wonder what I ought to do? If she only knew how he
-felt and that she was the cause of it, she might do
-differently, but it is such a delicate matter, I am afraid
-to interfere. I pity him so much. He is coming to
-see me tonight. He has said no word, but the hungry
-look in his eyes speaks to my heart more forcibly than
-words. He will take me in his arms again tonight,
-and once more I shall feel the thrill when our lips<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_28"></a>[28]</span>
-meet in one long kiss, and maybe I shall say, “Robert,
-take me for your own, if it will restore you to health.”</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">June 12.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Robert came. We talked over the whole matter. I
-asked him if there was anyone else in his life. He
-said <i>no</i>! That he had never loved anyone but me.
-Then—then, I put myself in his arms and said, “Robert,
-take me!” He said, “Little girl, are you sure
-you want to make the sacrifice?” I said, “Yes.” I
-gave myself willingly for pity’s sake, not for love,
-because I do not love him. Then our compact was
-sealed with a kiss. Our lips met, and soon I was
-all his.</p>
-
-<p>How can I entrust this to you, my silent friend?
-How can I sully your white pages with a relation of
-my conduct. The world would call me bad if it knew.
-I should not be the highly respected Louise Montgomery,
-that I have always been, and all because I have
-chosen to bring happiness to one who was dying for
-love.</p>
-
-<p>I wonder if I can go back to the old scenes and
-feel the same; feel that I am worthy to mingle with
-the old friends. Yet why should I feel thus? If anyone
-is wronged it is I. It must be the imaginings
-of a super-sensitive conscience, or the result of early
-training which makes me feel unworthy. I wonder
-what our Rector would say if he could look down into
-my heart and see; can it be possible that there are
-others in our set who are as guilty—I must not think
-it, much less write it. But after all, I do not regret.
-I have made a sacrifice for a worthy cause.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_29"></a>[29]</span></p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">June 30.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Back home again and getting ready to go away for
-the summer. Have seen Robert three times since I
-returned, and we seem to grow nearer and dearer to
-each other.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">July 10.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Petoskey never seemed one-half so beautiful to me
-as it does this season. Even the people are nicer. The
-men are kind and attentive but towering over and above
-them all, I can see the face of the one man I love.
-Yes, little diary, I love him now, he has woven himself
-into my very nature even in this short time. “I could
-not forget you, dear Robert, if all these men were
-kings and princes, for you are my prince and my king.
-Your dear letters are such a comfort to me, and I am
-so happy in your love, even though I know there is
-no future.”</p>
-
-<p>How I miss him! It is always he who thinks of the
-little things that go to make up a woman’s life.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">July 31.</span></h3>
-
-<p>My sweetheart is coming today. I am counting the
-hours. Just three hours and twenty minutes and I
-shall be with him once more. What a perfect day this.
-Nature seems to reflect my joy.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">August 1.</span></h3>
-
-<p>We are going for a long drive today, through the
-fragrant pine woods. We will be alone for the first
-time since he came. I can feel those dear arms about
-me, those full, soft lips on mine, even now.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_30"></a>[30]</span></p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">August 14.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Robert is going today, and with him goes the brightness.
-We have had such a glorious two weeks of
-constant companionship. We will be reunited soon,
-though, for he is going up into Canada to find a quiet,
-country home where we can spend the best month of
-the whole year—beautiful, hazy October. I am supposed
-to be going to New York.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, what a tangled web we weave, when first we
-practice to deceive.”</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">September 3.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Florence is here and I have taken her into my confidence,
-not from choice, but because it seemed necessary.
-I am sure she loves me just as well as before,
-but she says it is wrong, all wrong. That I am making
-the greatest mistake of my life; that no man is
-worthy of the sacrifice, and that in time, even though
-he is true now, he will weary of me. Ugh! “She
-made me to shudder and grow sick at heart.” But I
-do not believe it. Is he not my “Roumald,” I his
-“Clarimonde”? How many times he has said, “To
-know you is to know all women.” And that satiety
-itself I set on fire.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">September 30.</span></h3>
-
-<p>At last, at last! I leave on the North-West today
-for the “Soo,” where Robert joins me, and together
-we go to Collinwood, on Georgian Bay.</p>
-
-<p>He found a beautiful country home near there,
-which is ideally quiet and overlooks the Bay.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_31"></a>[31]</span></p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">October 2.</span></h3>
-
-<p>We are on our way. Oh, the joy of this trip, the
-perfect contentment. Robert’s face has been radiant
-with happiness all day. When I see him in his
-strength, and manly beauty, enjoying God’s choicest
-gift, good health, and know that I am the cause, should
-I not rejoice?</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">October 16.</span></h3>
-
-<p>What an ideal spot! It beggars description. We
-are so happy. Sometimes we stroll together through
-the woods, where the warm tinted Autumn leaves make
-a soft carpet for our feet. When we tire, we sit down
-and he reads to me by the hour. What a beautiful
-world! I never dreamed of such tender solicitude as
-he shows me in every action. At night if I stir or
-murmur in my sleep, he awakens me by drawing
-me closer to his heart and saying, “What is it,
-pet, are you in pain?” I laugh at him and tell him
-he must not be so foolish. He says in reply that he
-loves me every minute of the day and night, that his
-thoughts are filled with me, whether waking or sleeping,
-and that he loves to waken me for he is sure of
-two soft arms stealing around his neck in a warm
-embrace, and two red lips seeking his.</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">November 1.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Oh, dear! It is all ever, this, the very happiest month
-of my life. As we were about to leave the room
-where we have been so happy for the last time, he
-clasped me to his breast and sobbed like a baby and I<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_32"></a>[32]</span>
-wept with him. Oh, dear! how can I ever give him
-up again to those to whom he belongs?</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">November 6.</span></h3>
-
-<p>At home once more. I am so lonely and desolate.
-Little diary, I wonder if this is punishment. Yet, if
-I have done no wrong, why should I think this is
-punishment?</p>
-
-<h3><span class="smcap">November 23.</span></h3>
-
-<p>Dear God! If I might have been spared this great
-agony! Anything but this! My idol shattered and
-my heart broken. He was not true, and I trusted him
-so implicitly! How could he deceive me so? There
-was another woman who entered his life before he
-ever met me. She either heard or imagined that he had
-transferred his affections to me and came to me with
-all, asking me to give him up, because he is all she
-has in the world. She has no home, no one to care for
-her and supply her wants as I have. How could he
-do it? How could he do it? Not quite a year. Oh,
-the agony of it!</p>
-
-<p>I went to him with her statement and he said it
-was true, but that he never loved her. I cannot believe
-him. I cannot believe anyone or anything now.
-I have no one I can tell. I must suffer all alone. Florence
-is the only one and I would die before I would
-tell her. My pride won’t allow me to admit his perfidy
-to anyone. I cannot bear to have the world think ill
-of him, even now. How can I live and bear it? I
-will not. I cannot. I will end it all. Goodbye, little
-diary, my only faithful friend. You, too, might have
-proved false had you the power. Goodbye.</p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_33"></a>[33]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_TWO">TALE TWO.<br />
-<span class="smaller">THE LIFE STORY OF A SOUTHERN WIDOW.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="center">NOT QUITE THE SAME.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Not quite the same the springtime seems to me,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Since that sad season when in separate ways</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Our paths diverged. There are no more such days</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">As dawned for us in that last time when we</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Dwelt in the realm of dreams, illusive dreams;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Spring may be just as fair now, but it seems</div>
- <div class="verse indent6">Not quite the same.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“Ah, good evening, Mr. Philmore! I have been
-expecting you. Have this chair, please.”</p>
-
-<p>As I took the proffered seat I gazed steadily at
-my hostess. A woman in possession of all her natural
-charms, a picture of health, a vision of grace and an
-example of nobility. Time had softened her features;
-the sweetness of childhood had grown tenfold in the
-process of matronly perfection. The erectness of carriage,
-the finely traced features, the shapely hand and
-dainty foot, so highly arched, denoted the purest type
-of refinement, while no artist conceived more graceful
-curves than those which were so plainly noticeable
-as one ran one’s eyes from head to feet; gowned in
-some soft, clinging black silk, the contour of her figure
-was a feast for the eyes of gods. The soft, dulcet
-tones in which she plainly articulated, were of sufficient
-sweetness to attract one to her if that were the only
-charm which she could bring to bear.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_34"></a>[34]</span></p>
-
-<p>Nothing had been left undone in the furnishing of
-the elegant house in which she lived; rich draperies
-adorned the walls, tapestry of the rarest quality fittingly
-relieved the handsome oriental rugs and handsomely
-frescoed ceilings. Potted plants placed here
-and there sent out such a fragrant odor that it was
-almost impossible for one to believe that it was midwinter
-and that the mercury hovered uncomfortably
-near zero. The bric-a-brac and pictures were so well
-selected and artistically arranged that one could readily
-see the rare good taste and culture which was a
-dominant feature in the appointment of the entire
-establishment. The cheeriness seemed to add a halo
-to the surroundings; the perfect harmony with which
-all things were blended seemed to soften one’s nature
-to a sense of responsibility toward things infinite.</p>
-
-<p>Large, liquid brown eyes rested softly on me, and
-the satiny complexion of Mrs. Penway glowed with
-such a beaming radiance of congeniality that despite
-her forty or more years, I felt as though I were basking
-in the sunshine of youthful smiles. Coupled with
-all the beauty and symmetry there was a distinct imprint
-of sadness on her features, which was readily
-detected. They were not the hardened lines which
-denote misery and want as associates to suffering, not
-the expression of hardship, but rather that “resigned
-to duty” look.</p>
-
-<p>After commenting on the weather and general topics
-of the day I came to the point by asking Mrs. Penway
-if she had her narration written.</p>
-
-<p>“No; I think, Mr. Philmore, that I shall recite the
-incidents to you as they transpired and ask you to be<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_35"></a>[35]</span>
-kind enough to arrange the statement into sentences
-best suited to your purpose.”</p>
-
-<p>“Very well, I will do the best I can to tell the tale in
-a readable manner.”</p>
-
-<p>“To begin with, I am a native of Southern Missouri.
-My parents being Scotch, I feel that my ancestry is
-traceable through a long line of descendants. My
-father was engaged in the lumber business. It was
-his custom to buy large tracts of timber land, then placing
-his mill at convenient points he would proceed to
-convert all the available timber into marketable lumber.
-Money proved to be the blessing and curse, which
-was eventually the cause of more suffering than one
-cares to bear.</p>
-
-<p>“Years ago my father purchased a body of land in
-Arkansas, covering an area of twelve thousand
-acres. In the transaction he became financially involved
-to such an extent that he was compelled to
-go for assistance to some of the large dealers to whom
-he was in the habit of selling the greater part of his
-output. At this call for aid a man came to our home
-to talk the matter over. He had the appearance of
-being a man of fifty years of age; he was wealthy, very
-wealthy; he remained there for ten days, during which
-time he seemed to grow very fond of me as a child
-and would often pat me on the head, coaxingly calling
-me his little girl.</p>
-
-<p>“After he had gone, I overheard my parents talking.
-Father said, ‘Well, that is a load off my mind.’ ‘And
-one off mine,’ said my mother. Then she broke down
-and cried. Between the sobs I could gather but little.<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_36"></a>[36]</span>
-However, I heard her say, ‘I know she will never be
-happy.’</p>
-
-<p>“I had not the slightest idea to whom she referred.
-Next morning she called me to her. ‘Dear,’ she said,
-‘you are going away.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, where to?’ I cried in my childish delight and
-anticipation of travel.</p>
-
-<p>“Noting my eagerness and mistaking it for joy at
-leaving home, my mother, with tears streaming down
-her dear white face, said, ‘Are you happy to think of
-it?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, not that, mother,’ said I, ‘but I should like to
-see and learn of things which I have heard so much
-about and have known so little.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Well, dear, you are to go away from us and go into
-school. We, your father and I, have concluded that it
-is best.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But mamma, won’t that cost a great deal of
-money?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, but your father now has his affairs in shape
-so that he can afford to educate you.’</p>
-
-<p>“As my mother finished this last sentence a fresh
-torrent of tears sprang from her eyes. It was all a
-mystery to me, for I had known of my father’s difficulties;
-I could not understand the sudden turn of
-affairs. I quickly resolved upon a plan which would at
-least enlighten me; there was in the employ of my
-father a young man by the name of Landrie Grayson,
-everyone called him ‘Lannie.’ He was a trusted man
-of affairs; things which other men were never
-consulted upon were always brought to Lannie for his<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_37"></a>[37]</span>
-advice. Lannie could explain to me the cause of this
-sudden resolution on the part of my parents.</p>
-
-<p>“Lannie stood quite six feet tall, while his broad
-shoulders looked as though he could carry with ease
-and grace the burdens which might quickly crush
-other men out of all semblance of humanity. If his
-blue eyes were tender, they were only a relief from
-the firmly set jaws, which plainly said, ‘I will,’ without
-so much as a movement of the rather thin lips. I
-knew that Lannie would know and tell me, for he was
-honest; he had been in the family for years; I had
-learned to lean upon him as a brother, and as I sought
-him out from among the whirling pullies, singing saws,
-and swiftly crawling belts that day, I felt proud to
-think that I had at different times during my infancy
-sat on one of those square shoulders or clung tenaciously
-to that sinewy neck, as Lannie had waded
-through slough and brush, taking me from place to
-place in the forest; he had killed the snakes and chased
-away the wild boars that would so frighten me in childhood,
-and when young squirrels were susceptible to
-capture he would always keep the cage well filled with
-every known variety with which the woods abounded.
-If Lannie was the strong rod on which I learned to
-lean, wherein was I to blame?</p>
-
-<p>“Lannie saw me as I wistfully watched and waited,
-then giving some orders (for he was papa’s foreman),
-he came to where I was standing and said, ‘What is it,
-Ailene?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Lannie, I want to tell you something.’ I think
-the tremor of my childish voice impressed Lannie, for
-he asked me to go to the office, a rough affair, but<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_38"></a>[38]</span>
-there were chairs there, and we could be alone and
-away from the clanging saws and flying dust.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Now tell me what it is, little one,’ said Lannie, as
-he closed the door and took up a handful of curls which
-had crowded out from under the gingham bonnet
-which I wore.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Lannie, I am going away,’ said I.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I know it,’ replied Lannie.</p>
-
-<p>“‘You; who told you?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I heard the bargain.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Bargain; what’s that, Lannie?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I heard your father say that you could go.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, did you hear him tell mamma?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, I heard him tell the old man with the white
-side whiskers.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Do you know where I am going to, Lannie?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I only know that you are going away to school;
-the rich old man is to select the place and you are to
-be sent there, and⸺’</p>
-
-<p>“Lannie turned to the window without finishing the
-sentence. Presently he resumed his speech again by
-asking if I was glad. I did not know what the change
-in Lannie’s voice meant then, but I could not fail to
-notice it.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, I want to go and learn to be a lady, but—I—don’t
-like to go away and leave mamma and⸺’</p>
-
-<p>“‘And who, Ailene?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘You, Lannie. I will be lonely with a whole lot of
-dressed up children and mean old teachers around.’</p>
-
-<p>“Before I had closed my sentence Lannie had drawn
-me to him and was kissing me fondly.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, little girl, you don’t know how much Lannie<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_39"></a>[39]</span>
-will miss you, and to think I won’t see you any more.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Why, Lannie, why do you say that? I won’t stay
-always.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, but you see, little one, the rich man wants you
-for his own; he is only waiting for you to be educated
-and grow into full womanhood. Then you are to be
-his.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Hasn’t he any little girls of his own?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, you poor dear, you don’t know what I mean;
-what it all means.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, tell me, Lannie, for if it is not nice and good
-I don’t want to do anything but just stay here.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Well, it’s this, Ailene; may God grant that you will
-forgive me for disturbing your young heart, but your
-father came near losing all he had. He applied to a
-firm for financial aid; the old gentleman who was here
-furnished the much needed assistance under these conditions:
-That you be educated at his expense and
-then he will marry you for he has fallen in love with
-you.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, the ugly old thing! I don’t want to marry
-him. I hate him. I don’t want to marry anybody. I
-want to stay where you are,’ I cried.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, dear, I know, but a great deal depends on you,
-for you were not to know it yet, and as I have been a
-witness to the contract and have been sworn to secrecy
-you must not tell anyone that you know.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But I won’t go.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, pet, you must go and remember that you are
-only fifteen now; you are not expected to marry your
-father’s benefactor until you are nineteen or twenty,<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_40"></a>[40]</span>
-changes may take place before the time arrives for you
-to give up all hope.’</p>
-
-<p>“It was a sad leave taking for more than me; I
-shall never forget the pained expression in my mother’s
-face and the stern, sad look of my father as I waved
-my hand from the car window.</p>
-
-<p>“Lannie had carried a little basket of luncheon to the
-station for me, and when I opened it on the train late
-that afternoon I found a handful of wild flowers
-wrapped in a piece of the “Lumberman’s Journal,”
-which I knew Lannie to be a regular subscriber of;
-there under the glass cover are those same flowers,
-withered and faded beyond recognition, but the sweet
-memory which clings to them makes them more precious
-to me than all the blossoms this world contains.</p>
-
-<p>“I had four years of school life with everything
-that money could buy, kind friends, pleasant surroundings
-and indulgent teachers.</p>
-
-<p>“But oh, how I longed for mother, for the woods,
-the vines and moss, the whirr of saws, and the scream
-of the mill whistle and for Lannie. Oh, for one hour
-in the tangled forest with strong, brave Lannie would
-have paid me for all the suffering which I had to bear.</p>
-
-<p>“At last the day arrived when Lannie’s reckoning
-proved correct; my father and Mr. Penway came to
-visit me at school; they quickly told me what the plans
-were, and for me to go on with a repetition of the details
-would only bore you. Mr. Penway made love to me in
-a manner that I then supposed was perfectly correct,
-but I have since been led to believe that his manner
-courtship was stereotyped, but it made no difference.
-I was the price of a home and a fortune, I saw it all;<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_41"></a>[41]</span>
-if I refused, my father’s years of labor would be lost,
-and he would be penniless and my mother homeless.
-I felt as though children were brought into the world
-much the same as horses, cattle and hogs, that a fixed
-sum might be realized on them.</p>
-
-<p>“We were married in a hotel in St. Louis. All of
-the luxuries were supplied, gowns of rarest and most
-exquisite texture, and as I rudely told one of my bridesmaids,
-every article was there which is needed at a
-first class funeral except the casket and hearse.</p>
-
-<p>“Music, ushers with stately tread, presents and flowers,
-great clusters of potted plants, waving ferns, roses,
-pure white lilies, narcissus, orange blossoms, loads
-of each, in full view; yes, and wrapped in a bit of white
-silk, nestled inside my clothing next to my heart, were
-a handful of withered wild flowers, which during four
-years had kept fresh in my memory.</p>
-
-<p>“We went to Europe, spent the winter in sunny Italy.
-At times I did imagine I was happy, then the ghost
-of something, I knew not what, arose before me and
-all I could see was a contract, wherein so many dollars
-in hand paid, had been exchanged for a human form,
-which was so like ice that the purchaser could only gaze
-on his possession with a feeling that he, at least, got it
-first hand, without it ever having been placed on the
-bargain counter. I had no conception of what married
-life was, and I fear my husband was a poor teacher.
-Many fine pictures and rare ornaments found
-their way into the great pile of treasures and relics
-which we gathered with no thought of cost. Mr.
-Penway was a connoisseur, but not a lover. He was
-proud of me. I was introduced to many of the noble<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_42"></a>[42]</span>
-families; I was catered to by those whose station in
-life was apparently so far above me that I shuddered
-when I thought of a saw mill. We returned from our
-trip abroad, only to be ushered into a house of magnificence;
-that is, so far as grandeur was concerned.
-Servants to do my bidding, carriages at my command;
-all, everything that money could buy, but not one
-bit of love; not a word of that soul sustaining love.</p>
-
-<p>“One year of this, and Mr. Penway was called to
-Europe again, this time on business. I had been in
-regular correspondence with my parents, and they insisted
-on my coming home for a visit during Mr. Penway’s
-sojourn abroad. I went and for the first time
-in nearly six years met Lannie. My first impulse was
-to throw myself into his arms, regardless of the presence
-of my parents, but I managed to control myself.
-However, during my stay there, I naturally roamed
-in the woods, through the mills; in that way saw
-much of Lannie. Dear old Lannie. With the same
-clock-like regularity he performed his duties; the same
-broad shoulders and the same tender blue eyes. If
-time had wrought changes in him, it was for the better.
-He seemed so mature with the full soft beard that
-covered his face. His words were all uttered in kindness.
-I asked my parents about him, and they told
-me how he had applied himself to my father’s interests,
-not losing a day from the confining duties of
-business and labor; in fact, he was the mainstay. If
-the head sawyer was sick or off duty, Lannie laid
-the master hand on the lever and the saws and the
-dust flew as the lumber piles grew higher and higher.
-If the engineer or fireman was absent, it was Lannie’s<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_43"></a>[43]</span>
-touch that put the machinery in motion, and his willing
-hands that heaved the great slabs into the furnace
-to make the steam. If any of the little colony were
-sick and needed attention, it was Lannie who kept the
-lonely vigil through the dark and solemn hours of
-blackest night, and when morning came he, mighty as
-the sun, shone all day, beaming with good nature;
-and when (as was often the case) the fever so prevalent
-in the swamps claimed a victim, it was Lannie’s
-gentle hands that folded the arms across the quiet
-breast and closed the staring eyes. It was his soothing,
-reassuring words which brought comfort to the
-poor mother whose heart bled in sorrow for her darling
-child; it was Lannie who would put his great,
-strong arms around the father and husband, as the
-clods fell with that sickening thud on the rough box
-that contained all that was left of the dearest treasure
-they had ever known; again, it was Lannie who took
-into his arms the fatherless children and told them
-that the father of all was God. In this way Lannie
-had lived, pouring out the generous love of his great
-warm nature, while I—Ugh! I shudder to think of
-it. I had been encased in a sheet of ice trying to
-freeze my emotion, trying to smother my heart throbs,
-lest, like some wild beast which in search of freedom
-and prey, plunges through the iron bars of its
-cage, it would bound through my breast, tearing and
-breaking the cords and crushing the coat of mail beyond
-repair.</p>
-
-<p>“Is it any wonder that that very thing occurred?
-Are you surprised to learn that my poor, heavy, tugging
-heart was torn by force from the delicate tendrils<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_44"></a>[44]</span>
-and with one wild plunge left the enclosure which
-it had so long occupied? With a suddenness born of
-despair, I packed and left, no one knew why, and
-I was too proud and self-reliant to tell.</p>
-
-<p>“I arrived home only to undergo days of torture
-and nights of sobbing misery. In about a week after
-my arrival I had a letter from my mother saying that
-Lannie was going to leave them. He had, by his
-frugal methods, saved a tidy sum, and, true to the
-teachings of the lumber camp, had invested in a tract
-of land, which at the time of purchase was almost
-valueless, but recently a railroad had been surveyed
-and was now being built through his broad acres, and
-Lannie was a rich man. He was coming to Chicago
-to buy machinery and set up in business of his own,
-and of course Lannie had been so good and nice always
-that he seemed just like one of the family, and
-if it was not too much trouble and embarrassment to
-have a countryman around, it would be nice for me
-to ask Lannie to spend a part of the time during his
-stay in the city at my house, etc.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, joys of Heaven and earth! Lannie here, and
-in my house. Oh, Lannie, Lannie! We can be all
-alone—with that thought some horrible, creeping feeling
-seized me and I was soon dripping with cold perspiration.
-Horrors upon horrors! No—no, I could
-never do that. The fury of Hell would be visited upon
-me, just as sure as that temptation was put before me.
-What could I do? For the first time since I was married
-I prayed. I asked God to give me strength of
-mind and body to direct me as I should go. After<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_45"></a>[45]</span>
-that I grew calmer, called my maid, instructed her to
-write my mother and tell her that I had concluded to
-sail for Liverpool and join Mr. Penway. Then we
-hurriedly began to pack. To get away—get away, run,
-fly, anything to escape that which was bound to overtake
-me if I stayed, was the only thought of my mind.</p>
-
-<p>“Luncheon was served early. The train for New
-York left at three p.m. I would have time to send a
-cablegram to Mr. Penway, buy a few little trifles and
-then as fast as steam could carry me I would go from
-the gulf which seemed about to swallow me.</p>
-
-<p>“I had just left the dining room, as the bell rang.
-The butler announced a gentleman. I felt a pallor
-spread from my face to my neck; my breast felt
-clammy; the flesh on my arms seemed to crawl; my
-usually plump hand looked pale and thin, as I tremblingly
-took the card. My voice frightened me as I
-said ‘Not in’ to the waiting statue of ebony, at the
-same time tossing the little card onto a table without
-looking at it. It went short of the mark and as it
-fluttered to the floor turned over, my eyes were fastened
-on the name, ‘Landrie Grayson.’</p>
-
-<p>“Fever drove away the chill which had almost overcome
-me. No, no! I could not do it! It was just as
-impossible for me to turn Lannie away then as it is
-now to bring him back. With a bound, I was in the
-hall; the next leap put me alongside the stately, marching
-figure in livery; a dash and I was pulling and
-tugging at the great door, then I looked into those
-honest eyes of blue.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I thought I would call on you, Ailene,’ said Lannie,
-as we entered the drawing room.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_46"></a>[46]</span></p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, Lannie, it was so good of you to come; and
-now, Lannie, you must be hungry. It is high noon,
-as you used to say,’ and without further ado I rang
-and ordered dinner served at once, for I knew that
-the people at home always had twelve o’clock dinner.
-That dinner was the best I ever tasted in my life.
-How I changed in a few moments from a dull, heavy
-hearted creature of nervous misery, back to the old
-happy stage of girlhood. We had dinner, and I did
-not send my baggage away.</p>
-
-<p>“When Lannie explained to me that he was stopping
-at a hotel, I said: ‘Lannie, you cannot stay at a hotel
-in Chicago; you must make this your home.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, Ailene, I will be busy, and could not think of
-putting you to any inconvenience.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But, Lannie, please do stay here. I am⸺’ I
-did not finish my sentence. I don’t think Lannie knew
-what I was about to utter. If he did know that I
-was on the point of telling him that I was alone, he
-paid no attention to it. Again that nightmare overcame
-me; I was speechless. Lannie thought I was
-hurt or offended because he refused my hospitality.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I’ll tell you what I’ll do, Ailene,’ he said. ‘We
-will go to some theater tonight. I will spend tomorrow
-evening here with you and then we will plan for the
-other days that I am to remain in the city.’</p>
-
-<p>“In spite of the fact that some of my dearest friends
-and members of the same social circle in which I moved
-attended the play that night and indulged in not a
-little whispering and smiling as they turned their eyes
-on us, I was proud. If Lannie did appear a little out
-of place, he was dear, true Lannie, just the same.<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_47"></a>[47]</span>
-The spirit which I knew to be encased in that noble
-character made up for all deficiencies in dress and
-manners. Each act was well received by the vast
-audience. As for me, the most interesting time of the
-performance was between acts, for it was then I could
-talk to Lannie and hear his voice. I saw little of the
-actors, for I was busy feasting my eyes on my companion.
-I studied his eyes, his face, and his feelings
-as he drank in the scenes which were enacted to the
-strains of music. That night my dreams were fraught
-with visions of strong men, happy children and contented
-women.</p>
-
-<p>“The next day dragged slowly enough, but at last,
-with happy delight, I welcomed the hour of Lannie’s
-coming. We dined, I played and sang, Lannie told
-me of all the things that had transpired since I had
-left the forest. At eleven o’clock Lannie arose to go,
-all too soon for me. I begged him to stay; I laid
-my hand on his arm and looking straight into his
-strong, clear face, said: ‘Lannie, oh, Lannie, don’t
-you know that I love you? Can’t you see that I am
-dying to be taken into your arms and receive that
-strong yet tender embrace which I know awaits the
-woman you love?’</p>
-
-<p>“Poor Lannie! He was dumfounded; he was white
-as death; not a muscle moved, not a word from those
-firm set lips; just a tender, pleading look from the
-eyes which I loved so well.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Lannie, speak to me,’ I cried. ‘Oh, dearest, give
-me some relief, say some kind word to me or I shall
-surely die.’ I threw myself into his arms. I pulled
-him down onto the divan and clung to him as though<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_48"></a>[48]</span>
-my life depended upon it. Oh, the emotion of the
-soul! I sometimes think that if the world knew what
-a woman must suffer at such times, it would not be
-so unkind. I was wild, and when Lannie freed his
-hands from my passionate clutch and tenderly lifted
-me from my knees to a position beside him, my joy
-knew no bounds. Oh, to think that he had once again
-taken me in his arms. Having gotten me to a position
-which seemed to please him, he put his dear face to
-mine and kissed me. The flight of time has never
-erased the memory of that thrill. Love, devotion,
-strength, happiness, all, all I say, went surging through
-me like an avalanche. ‘More, more, Lannie,’ I cried,
-and forgot all suffering as I, in my reclining position,
-could see the shadow of his great form as he bent over
-me again. I felt his burning lips on my brow, my
-cheek, my lips twitched in their feverish desire to be
-blessed with that lingering caress which is so soothing,
-yet so maddening. I think I must have fainted,
-for when I opened my eyes, Lannie was gone.</p>
-
-<p>“Next day I received a note from him saying good-bye,
-and that he would not call again. A tigress is not
-easily held at bay. My blood was aroused; my soul
-was fired. The lava was molten in the volcano and
-must find its way through the crest, no matter how
-many souls perished in the flood of fire. I was wild,
-methodically wild, and so determined was I in my
-purpose that I wrote him a note saying:</p>
-
-<div class="blockquote">
-
-<p class="noindent">“‘<i>Dear Lannie</i>:</p>
-
-<p>“‘This leaves me sick abed; please come to me. Oh,
-Lannie, do; I need you so much.</p>
-
-<p class="right">“‘<span class="smcap">Your Own Ailene.</span>’</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_49"></a>[49]</span></p>
-
-<p>“I went to my room, had my maid dress my hair
-carefully, then retired. Moments seemed as hours;
-hours as days. I was feverish and delirious. My
-maid insisted on calling a physician, but I would not
-hear to it. I gave orders to be left alone. The breeze
-fanned the lace curtains at the windows in a merry
-ripple; the soft mellow light of the setting sun shed
-a glow of golden hue throughout the room. My temples
-throbbed, my pulse fluttered, my eyes burned, as I
-bravely battled to kill time. Then the thought: What
-if he should not come? Cold sweat took the place of
-parching fever, and so I passed the early evening, going
-from one paroxysm to another. At last the bell rang,
-then that voice as I heard Lannie say, ‘Thank you,’
-to the maid as she opened the door. My clean white
-gown was badly rumpled, my well dressed hair was in
-a confusion of disorder from the feverish tossing of
-the day, but I forgot all that; I forgot my appearances,
-feelings, manners, everything, only that Lannie was
-with me again. As he bent over my bed with anxious
-questions, I was quite happy. Suddenly reaching out
-my arms, I clasped them around his neck. Oh, the
-holy emotions, the rage of my love knew no master.
-I clung to him; he tried to free himself, but no, no! I
-would rather have died than give him up. Great,
-strong Lannie of Herculean strength, one who could
-have held a horse, or felled an ox by a blow of his
-strong right arm; one who could withstand the ravages
-of pestilence and disease; one on whom weak men
-looked with that feeling of admiration born of awe;
-one whose strength, broad judgment, and kindly temperament
-made him easily the master of any and all<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_50"></a>[50]</span>
-situations. But with all his bravery and fortitude, all
-his battles, all his years of duration, he had never been
-called upon to wage war upon a woman whose soul
-was starving for the loving caress, which is so dear
-to a lonely heart. He was as wax in my hands, as I
-clutched him fiercely yet fondly. ‘Oh, Lannie, Lannie!
-say that you love me,’ I cried, all the time raining
-kisses on his dear face, while he acquiesced in mute
-silence. With his eyes dilated, his nostrils distended,
-his lips drawn and white, he fought the silent battle
-which led to his defeat. In his years of physical building
-he had never been called upon to withstand the
-onslaught which I now brought to bear upon him;
-he had never been drilled in the tactics necessary to
-repel the attacks of passion. I could see my victory
-coming; the light of his eyes told me that the world
-was fast melting away. Then suddenly he clasped me
-to his dear self, saying, ‘Oh, Ailene, what is it? Why
-can I not go away from you? Yes, little girl, I love
-you, I love you.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Kiss me, Lannie. There, dear; yes, that is right,
-Lannie! Hold me in your arms. Now, dearest, we
-are happy.’</p>
-
-<p>“Then, while tears of joy dimmed my eyes, in the
-madness of passion, my future was molded. As the
-poisonous little reptile stings the lion, who is king of
-the forest, and causes him to writhe in death’s agony,
-so did the lecherous fangs of passion fasten themselves
-into poor Lannie’s pure, white soul, sending the venomous
-poison into a heretofore healthful system.</p>
-
-<p>“If I could but live that hour over again. If I erred
-the sin was tempered with love.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_51"></a>[51]</span></p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“I know, in the way that sins are reckoned,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">This thought is a sin of the deepest dye;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">But, I know, too, if an angel beckoned,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Standing close by the throne on high,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And you a-down by the gates infernal,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Should open your loving arms and smile,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">I would turn my back on things supernal,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">To lie on your breast a little while,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">To know for an hour you were mine completely.</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Mine in body and soul, my own—</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">I would bear unending tortures sweetly,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">With not a murmur and not a moan.”</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse right">—<i>Wilcox.</i></div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“Lannie went away. Our parting was like the clinging
-vine being torn from the stone wall. In ten weeks
-my husband arrived home. Ten days later he was
-the victim of a railroad accident and I was left a
-widow. I waited and longed for the love of my life,
-to take his place beside me, but Lannie did not come.
-At last, in sheer desperation, I wrote him. This was
-his answer:</p>
-
-<div class="blockquote">
-
-<p class="noindent">“‘<i>Dear Friend</i>:</p>
-
-<p>“‘I am pained to write you as I shall, but you cannot
-expect me to come to you. You know my ideas of
-purity so well, that I am surprised to be asked to call.
-I do love you, always have, and shall continue to do
-so, but I fear the sweetness of our love has been
-blighted by the madness of folly. This little verse is
-very expressive, I think:</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“A flower I feign would pluck today,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">From the garden above her dust,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Not the pure, white lily of soulless sin,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Nor the blood-red rose of lust,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">But the blossom of holy love.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_52"></a>[52]</span></p>
-
-<p>“‘I shall always be interested in your welfare and
-shall ever seek to do you good. Yours devotedly,</p>
-
-<p class="right">“‘<span class="smcap">Lannie</span>.’</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p>“The blow was cruel, but ‘As a man soweth, so shall
-he also reap.’ The same applies to women.</p>
-
-<p>“The next important event of my life was the announcement
-of the insolvency of my husband’s estate.
-He had died leaving me penniless; even the holdings
-my father had placed with him as security for his loan
-were swept away into the chasm with the other unrecoverable
-assets.”</p>
-
-<p>“But you live well.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; that is all on account of Lannie. He seemed
-to know the condition of Mr. Penway’s finances, and it
-was a tract of land that Mr. Penway was forced to
-sell that Lannie bought. He built mills, homes for
-the men, a comfortable home for my parents on his
-land, and when the crash came, transferred them to it.
-Then he came to the city and arranged with an attorney
-that I should have an annuity and I must accept it, the
-conditions being that if I refused my mother and father
-would be asked to relinquish their home. He bought
-this house, he pays the bills and I dare not refuse until
-my parents have gone to their home above.”</p>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Not quite the same am I. My inner being</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Reasons and knows that all is for the best.</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Yet vague regrets stir always in my breast,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">As my soul’s eyes turn sadly backward, seeing</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">The vanished self that evermore must be</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">This side of what we call eternity,</div>
- <div class="verse indent6">Not quite the same.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_53"></a>[53]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_THREE">TALE THREE.<br />
-<span class="smaller">A STORY OF THE CHICAGO GHETTO.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="center">PUNISHMENT.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Nor custom, nor example, nor vast numbers</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Of such as do offend, make less the sin;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">For each particular crime a strict account</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Will be exacted; and that comfort, which</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">The damn’d pretend, follows in misery,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Takes nothing from their torments; every one</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Must suffer in himself the measure of his wickedness.”</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse right">—<i>Massinger.</i></div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>The wind howled, then carrying with it bits of
-paper, flurries of snow and great quantities of smoke
-and soot, it seemed to sink into the darkness with a
-dismal moan, which resembled the wailing of some
-great wild beast in search of its mate.</p>
-
-<p>Shops with their dim lights, which looked like tiny
-sparks clinging to a black wall, lined the street; tin
-signs creaked and crashed like miniature thunder; small
-pieces of shutters flopped against the sides of the
-weather beaten houses, only to swing into the breeze
-with each fresh gust, there to quiver on their rusty
-hinges until a weird, screeching, grating sound denoted
-that age and elements were victors and one more
-piece of some antiquated structure had cast anchor and
-would soon be used to infuse warmth into the body
-of some poor, unfortunate dweller in the immediate
-vicinity. The uncertainty of the board walks in this
-locality caused the pedestrian, whose lot it was to venture<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_54"></a>[54]</span>
-here for the first time, to use great care in setting
-down and picking up his feet.</p>
-
-<p>Half-clad children were there; some with small and
-precious packages of edibles clutched tightly in their
-begrimed and reddened hands, some laboring with
-a plank, which on account of the frozen slush that stuck
-to it, made it twice their weight; some fighting and
-sprawling in the filth of the narrow street for the
-possession of a two-pound lump of coal, that had been
-jostled from a wagon, while many of them clung tenaciously
-to the threadbare, misfit garments in which
-they were clad, with an apparent fear that the wind
-would use the tattered rags in whipping them to death.
-The flickering rays of the few and irregular gas lamps
-which the city had placed at long intervals, did not
-add cheer to the locality; they only made it more possible
-for a stranger to realize to a greater extent the
-squalor which existed there.</p>
-
-<p>Such is a poorly drawn picture of the Ghetto of
-Chicago.</p>
-
-<p>When compared to the commodious home on
-the lake front, with its coils of pipes conducting
-steam into every nook and corner, making even the
-cellar a place of comfort, the rich rugs, the substantial
-furnishing of oak and mahogany, the bright
-lights, the dear little mother, the happy children, the
-music, pictures and flowers, the well filled larder and
-comfortable clothing we all enjoy, it is inclined to
-cause one to forget to complain.</p>
-
-<p>It was no pleasant task, but it was a duty. I have
-set out to tell the life story of twenty different women,
-and to get these stories from the lips of the principals,<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_55"></a>[55]</span>
-it behooves me to appear to them in person, even
-though at times I am compelled to freeze myself against
-all humanity; and, again, so stirred with pity and
-aroused with sympathy, that I have frequently come
-away from hovels with just enough change in my pockets
-for car fare home.</p>
-
-<p>This night, after searching for blocks and burning
-many matches in a vain endeavor to find the number
-which I had been given, I was led to the point of my
-investigation by an old man, who was on his way home
-from his day’s begging and peddling. He was a
-kindly Hebrew. “Dis is de blace,” said he, with an
-instinctive stretching out of the right hand, palm upward.
-“Bud, meester, I don’t tink dey vill be ad home,”
-he added, as I laid a half dollar in the still outstretched
-hand.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, oh vait! I vill see for you.”</p>
-
-<p>With that he shambled around the side of the tumble-down
-house, while I stamped my feet on the frozen
-cinders to keep up circulation, all the time thinking
-the old man was correct, for there was no sign of life
-anywhere about the house. Finally he came back.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, dey vas dere, but you see, meester, Saturday
-nights iss a bat time to found ’em home.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, it iss a goot time to find tings; so many grocery
-wagons on de streets und der vas some stores
-vat gif de peebles de rotten cabbages, und abbles
-und lots of vilted tings. You see, meester, we haf
-a hard time to eat.”</p>
-
-<p>The old man was an artist. His eyes shone with
-that everlasting thrift so characteristic of his race,<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_56"></a>[56]</span>
-and somehow I could not get away without handing
-him another quarter. Then, receiving his instructions
-as to getting into the house, I took up that part of my
-labor. I managed to keep myself separated from the
-piles of ashes and tin cans until I reached a rear door.
-The house was on the corner and was a basement affair,
-the first part being brick up to the level of the
-street, from that on up to the top it was frame. The
-house had been built before the street was filled in,
-so that when that operation took place one side and one
-end of the brick wall, being the parts of the house
-that were exposed to the street, had become submerged
-in a mixture of old bricks, pieces of bottles, mud and
-other rubbish that was from time to time scraped off
-the business portion of the street.</p>
-
-<p>It was difficult to distinguish my hard and vigorous
-rapping from the violent rattle of the door. Finally
-I heard a sound as though something was being
-dragged across the floor, then the door was pulled
-half way open and I was asked to enter.</p>
-
-<p>A tin lamp with a badly smoked chimney (or rather
-part of a chimney, for a large hole in the side represented
-nearly one-third of the surface) caused flickering,
-gloomy shadows to move about the room; a rough
-pine box with shelves served for a cupboard, in which
-there were a few battered tin pans, some broken handled
-knives and bent forks; a pile of straw in the corner,
-with some soiled remnants of blankets and quilts
-served for a bed. The warmth of the room was furnished
-by a badly broken cook stove; pieces of wood
-and coal mixed, laid on the grate, while in the oven
-and on the top of the stove were frozen chunks of<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_57"></a>[57]</span>
-mud with small pieces of coal all through them; wood
-covered with snow and ice, which had been put there
-to thaw out, so as to be usable; the formation of the
-sizzling steam as the water ran from this store of fuel
-did nothing to add a pleasant odor to that which arose
-from the conglomeration of filth which had been gathered
-from street and alley and was being roasted until
-it should give up bits of coal, which were as rare and
-precious to the half frozen inmates of this hole in
-the ground, as the bright shining metal is to the gold
-miner as he sees his piles of quartz crushed in the
-process of separation.</p>
-
-<p>“Is this Mrs. Densmore?” I asked, as I shook the
-snow from my long ulster.</p>
-
-<p>“No, this ain’t Mis Dinsmore,” growled the voice
-of the woman who stood in front of me.</p>
-
-<p>“I am sorry,” said I, “for I wanted to find her very
-much.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, I guess you won’t find her.”</p>
-
-<p>“Can you tell me where she is?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, an’ if I could I wouldn’t. What do you want
-of her, anyway? Hain’t she had enough trouble, without
-some new thing bobbin’ up?”</p>
-
-<p>“I fear you misunderstand me; I want to see her for
-her own good.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I s’pose so. I know what you want and you
-won’t git her, neither. She’s all I got, an’ she loves
-me, if I am pore and miserable.”</p>
-
-<p>I expressed my surprise at her remarks and followed
-up with the assurance that I knew she was the
-object of my search, but I said:</p>
-
-<p>“If you will tell me where I can get something to<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_58"></a>[58]</span>
-eat, I will first satisfy the inner man, then I want
-to have a long talk with you.”</p>
-
-<p>“My Lord, man, you don’t spect to find nothin’ to
-eat here, do you? Fer if you do, sir, you’re much mistaken.
-In the first place this hain’t no hotel nor
-‘caffey.’ Why, we hain’t had a square meal in three
-months; fact; not sence her monkey died.”</p>
-
-<p>“Whose monkey? Who is ‘her’?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, that’s it, eh? Well, I guess you know.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, indeed, I don’t know what you mean, but if
-you will tell me where to find something fit for a man
-to take into his stomach, I will go and eat and bring
-you something.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, will you? Well, jes’ go to the next corner
-south, turn to the left and you will find ‘Peggy Pete’s’
-place; I guess you can git about anything you want.”</p>
-
-<p>Following her directions, I soon found myself in a
-shop where every conceivable thing that a man could
-think of, was kept for sale. A stenciled bill of fare
-occupied a conspicuous place above the oilcloth covered
-lunch counter, telling in detail what was ready to serve;
-everything from tripe, all along, including such delicacies
-as pickled pig’s feet, fried liver, wienerwursts
-and winding up with the announcement that hot soup
-could be obtained at ten cents per gallon.</p>
-
-<p>The proprietor was a one-eyed, one-legged man of
-fat and greasy proportions and when I ordered a pound
-of ham, three loaves of bread, a pound of butter, a
-dozen eggs, some coffee, and finished by calling for
-cream, he looked at me in a way that surely strained
-his one organ of vision.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_59"></a>[59]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Goin’ to eat it here?” he asked, as he limped around
-selecting the articles as I ordered them.</p>
-
-<p>“No, I will take them along.” At this information
-he shot a quick gleaming look at me, then hastily
-grabbing the packages off the counter, laid them back
-on the shelf safely out of my reach, as he said, “Anything
-else?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I want you to make me a gallon of soup,
-good oyster soup, and put lots of oysters in it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Now look here, feller, you needn’t git smart,” said
-the robust and reddened merchant.</p>
-
-<p>Then, as he pointed to the sign, he added: “That
-means shank soup. You can’t come no shenanigan on
-me; if you want oyster soup, yew can have it, but it
-will cost yer fifty cents per gal.”</p>
-
-<p>“All right; I want it.”</p>
-
-<p>A wait of twenty minutes and the soup was ready.</p>
-
-<p>“Now, let me have some crackers, and how much
-do I owe you?” said I, as I slowly counted a few pieces
-of silver which I drew from my pocket.</p>
-
-<p>“A dollar forty,” said the man, as he reached out
-for the money with one hand, while the other rested
-affectionately on the little pile of bundles as they lay
-beside the gallon apple can into which he had poured
-the soup.</p>
-
-<p>“Come in again,” said he, as he saw me start to leave
-after putting six silver quarters into his hand and
-not waiting for change. Then a thought struck me.</p>
-
-<p>“Have you any lamp chimneys?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, good ones, too; fifteen, or two for a quarter.”</p>
-
-<p>“Give me two,” said I.</p>
-
-<p>“Guess your jist settin’ up housekeepin’, ain’t yer?”<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_60"></a>[60]</span>
-said Pete, as he hobbled ahead of me to open the door.
-Having noticed the landmarks, I found my way back
-without difficulty. If I lied when I told the woman
-that I had lunched at “Peggy Pete’s” it was my own
-lie and I will suffer for it.</p>
-
-<p>My first move was to place one of the glass cylinders
-on the lamp. The improvement in the light added
-a cheeriness, which was partly in keeping with the
-steaming oyster soup. With the better light I was
-able to obtain a more distinct view of the woman.</p>
-
-<p>Tall, dark and gaunt, her claw-like hands jerked
-nervously as she hastily unwrapped the packages. Her
-hair was black as a raven’s wing; her high forehead
-showed unmistakable signs of intelligence; the rest
-of her face, save the little piercing black eyes, which
-now and then flashed with joy and hunger, was horribly
-misshapen; a huge scar, as from a burn, covered
-one whole side of her face, while the other was so
-badly distorted by something of the same nature, which
-drew her mouth down and back so far on one side,
-that her molars were plainly visible. She was devoid
-of eyelashes and her brows only remained in spots.
-Yet, in spite of her surroundings, her uncouth language,
-her privations and want, a kindly light shone
-out of those eyes of ebony, as she said:</p>
-
-<p>“Man, I believe you’re all right; anyways you know
-about what a hungry one wants. This seems like
-old times,” she added, as she unrolled the generous
-slices of ham.</p>
-
-<p>No persuasion was needed to induce her to eat and
-I fully enjoyed the spectacle. The feast added much
-amiability to her versatile nature.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_61"></a>[61]</span></p>
-
-<p>Finally she said: “Lord, I wisht the kid was here.”</p>
-
-<p>“Who is the kid, tell me,” I said.</p>
-
-<p>“Maybe I will, sometime, but tell me, what did you
-want of Mrs. Densmore?”</p>
-
-<p>“I want you to tell me all about yourself.”</p>
-
-<p>“And honor bright, now, it ain’t the kid ye want?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, bless me, no; I don’t want anybody’s kid.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, you see, it was this way: I married young,
-married a man who was as handsome as he was mean.
-I was considered a beautiful girl and he thought he
-loved me, but he was so jealous that he was miserable.
-We lived happy for two years. I may as well say right
-here that I had a sister who was a beautiful blonde,
-and I being dark we were a great contrast. I loved
-my sister so devotedly that when we discovered that
-sooner or later I would become a mother we asked her
-to come and live with us. She had a friend who called
-frequently, a perfect gentleman, but my husband grew
-so jealous and finally became so enraged that he drove
-him from the house. Then my sister left. The rest
-of the time, up to the birth of my child, I spent in
-tears. I was almost killed to think my husband would
-be so brutal and so ill treat my dear sister.</p>
-
-<p>“At last the little fairy came, and with her came more
-suffering and misery for me. My husband flew into
-a vicious rage, for my baby was a blonde, as perfect
-as an angel. My husband was neither light nor dark.
-My sister’s friend was light. My husband charged
-me with infidelity, disowned the child, and one day in
-a fit of anger, he threw her from me hurling her
-against a red hot stove. The burn caused a scar on
-her little back, which she carries to this day.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_62"></a>[62]</span></p>
-
-<p>Great tears rolled down the scarred face and splashed
-on those long talon shaped fingers. Then, with a
-shiver, she continued:</p>
-
-<p>“The Bible says something about, if one marries a
-man to stick to him. My people all tried to get me to
-leave him, but woman-like I left them and my baby.
-I proposed to go where no one knew us and begin life
-over. He said if I would leave the ‘brat,’ he would go.</p>
-
-<p>“We came to Chicago, but the same bitter feeling
-still existed in him. The evil mind brooded and the
-heart became affected until our lives were the lives
-of beasts. He lost one position after another. He
-began to drink and beat me terribly. Oh, sir, I would
-have stood all that, if he had only loved me. I would
-have willingly starved for bread if my heart could have
-had one morsel on which it might be sustained.</p>
-
-<p>“Finally we took a large house and began to take
-roomers. We did well for a while; then things began
-to go wrong and he suggested that we rent rooms to
-people for immoral purposes. My soul revolted against
-it, sir; indeed it did, but I consented! Oh, sir, many’s
-the time I’ve cried when I would see some sweet faced
-girl come to our house, for, sir, I could not help thinking
-that some day my baby would grow up and she
-might become the prey of some vulture.”</p>
-
-<p>As she progressed with her narrative she dropped
-the uncouth language of the locality in which she lived.
-The hot soup and the light, together with the living
-over the better times, seemed to have taken her out of
-herself for the time being.</p>
-
-<p>“My husband drifted from one bad crowd of associates
-to another. At last he was arrested and convicted<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_63"></a>[63]</span>
-of stealing and was sentenced to the penitentiary.
-The disgrace which this brought upon me was
-so terrible that it overwhelmed me. I lost all respect
-for everything and everybody. I removed from the
-semi-respectable district into the more notorious and
-better advertised portion of the city, and became the
-landlady of one of the most notorious resorts of the
-day. I made many friends among the class into which
-this life had thrown me. I developed into a woman of
-beauty. I had fine clothes and precious gems; money
-came easily and was spent with a lavish hand. Still
-I maintained a business presence of mind which gained
-for my house a reputation of good order. One of the
-inmates of my place was a beautiful blonde. She
-was proud and set herself up as being the most bewitching
-woman in Chicago. She had a dear friend,
-a very wealthy man, who called on her with great
-regularity. One night, in a jest, he put his arm around
-me and remarked that he was tired of blondes, anyway.
-All the fury that God allowed one woman to
-possess, arose in that blonde when he said that. She
-swore and tore and raved like one possessed of demons.
-After that she and I quarreled often. I would not
-have taken her lover. I did not like him, but I could
-not get her to understand. It all ended by her forcing
-her friend to take a magnificent house next door to
-mine. It was lavishly furnished and I soon had a
-rival in business that made that quarter of Chicago
-more famous than ever.</p>
-
-<p>“One day I met her admirer on the street, the first
-time I had ever talked with him since the gun was
-fired which had kept me in an incessant battle. He<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_64"></a>[64]</span>
-told me many things that she had said of me, which,
-in addition to the insults she had heretofore heaped
-upon me, made me boil.</p>
-
-<p>“Eighteen years had passed since my heart had
-been transformed from the organ of anticipation to
-the soul of a young mother, and a woman can grow
-very hard in that time; she can nerve herself to do
-anything at anyone’s cost, in order to crush a rival.
-I forgot all the goodness I had ever known. I did
-not want this man myself, but I wanted to sting his
-inamorata so as to cause her the most intense pain
-and mortification. I proposed to him that if he would
-abandon this woman I would get him a nice young
-girl.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Agreed,’ said he, ‘I will do that and it won’t be
-long till you’ll have the business of the block all your
-way again, for when I turn the ‘old girl’ down, the
-whole gang will quit her house.’</p>
-
-<p>“With thoughts of revenge and the anticipation of
-an increased bank account, I began the search for a
-candidate for the position of mistress to my enemy’s
-friend. It did not take me long. I was on the train
-one day, when I met a young girl, beautiful, graceful,
-fresh, but sad. My practical eye soon sized up the
-situation and I made friends with her. She explained
-to me that she was coming to Chicago to seek a position.
-Then, slowly, but as surely as the snake coils
-itself around the helpless, bleating kid, so did I spin
-my web of Hell around her. ‘Now,’ I said, after I had
-made all arrangements, ‘I don’t want to know your
-real name, for I don’t like to lie if anyone should ask
-for you.’</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_65"></a>[65]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Ha, ha! Only think of it, sir! I was too good
-to lie!”</p>
-
-<p>The wild glitter of the black eyes made me think of
-a snake, as the woman writhed and twisted and uttered
-her maniacal screeches.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, I brought her in, as the saying goes. I took
-her to the dressmaker’s and in a week’s time she was
-ready to show. I notified the man. That night the
-scenes of revelry and debauchery outdid all former
-efforts. Men and women sang and danced, wine
-flowed and money was spent in the most reckless manner.
-The little girl easily outclassed all others. The
-wine soon caused her to cast aside her modesty, which
-was a part of her, and she was the merriest one of the
-lot. It was three o’clock when I assisted the man to
-undress her and put her into the best bed in the house,
-then I left for my own room. Night after night these
-scenes followed. Great was my glee when a carriage
-would come down the street and boldly drive up to the
-door. I was so delighted that I became bold and proceeded
-to return some of my now unpopular neighbor’s
-taunts and jeers. It was no uncommon thing for men
-to bring strange women to my place, so I was not surprised
-when, one evening about nine o’clock, I saw a
-veiled woman alight from a carriage and come to my
-door. The maid announced, ‘A lady to see you, madame.’
-I went forward, and just as I pulled the door
-open a hand shot out from under the long cape and I
-felt a blinding, burning sensation spread over my
-face. I ran inside. Everything that was convenient
-was applied, and when the doctor came he told me<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_66"></a>[66]</span>
-it was acid. That is how I got the scars. I went to
-the hospital. The little girl came to see me daily.
-She spent as much time with me as the nurses would
-allow and in that way we became deeply attached to
-each other. I put her in charge of my affairs, and
-by her sweet ways she won the esteem and admiration
-of all the girls. We had little trouble in tracing
-the acid thrower. Next morning after it occurred my
-unfriendly neighbor was found dead in her room. A
-note pinned to her pillow told all. She had done me,
-then drank poison.</p>
-
-<p>“I recovered; that is, so far as you can see, but I
-was too badly disfigured for publicity, so I left my
-entire place in the hands of the little girl and opened
-a home for women during confinement.</p>
-
-<p>“Things ran on this way for two years. I had
-many bright but wayward girls in my care during
-that time. The little girl’s visits were less frequent
-to me and I had not seen her for months, when she
-came to me one day and told me she was to become
-a mother. I took her in, of course, and the former
-resort was rented. The time arrived for her expected
-illness. The baby was a bright girl. The little mother
-hung between life and death for days. She, in her
-delirium, roamed everywhere, called many by name,
-and spoke of places she had known. One day during
-her ravings I attempted to arrange her bed more comfortably,
-and in order to do so was compelled to turn
-her over. I discovered that her back and shoulders
-were covered with a rash. I thought a tepid bath
-would be just the thing, so I slipped her gown down
-and laid bare her back. I saw a scar. Believe me or<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_67"></a>[67]</span>
-not, mister, that acid felt cooling on my face compared
-to the pain which now fired me within and without.
-My daughter! I was able to be up and around the
-house when she regained her senses. She asked for her
-baby. I don’t know why, but I lied to her. I was not
-too good to lie this time.”</p>
-
-<p>The gurgle which emitted from the woman’s throat
-at this juncture was a poor excuse for a laugh.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I lied; I told her it had died; and to think it
-was then in the nursery with several others, and the
-jolliest, cunningest one of the lot!</p>
-
-<p>“The little mother got well and strong and she got
-a good position and a man, a real man, fell heels over
-head in love with her, and now they are married. Now
-she has three sweet children.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you ever see your daughter?”</p>
-
-<p>At this question the small black eyes snapped, and
-the haggard woman started.</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t say that, mister, please; ’cause nobody knows.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I see her twice a week. She has a beautiful
-home and for the sake of old times she has me come
-and clean her room twice a week. She says I do it so
-much better than her regular servants. Oh, mister,
-you don’t know how long and faithful I work in that
-room.”</p>
-
-<p>“And the other little girl; her first baby?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, the kid?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, you see, I’m trying to raise her right, for now
-you see I know right from wrong. She is nearly ten.
-A year ago a drunken man came down here and
-brought a monkey. He mistreated it so that it bit him<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_68"></a>[68]</span>
-and broke away. It ran to the kid and nothing could
-get it to leave, so the man told her to keep it, and
-he took rather a fancy to her in his drunken way and
-took her up town and bought her an organ. From that
-on we lived real well, but during the first cold snap
-the fire went out one night and when we got up
-‘Pranks’ was froze to death. Since then she has begged
-a ‘right smart.’”</p>
-
-<p>“Does she ever see her mother?”</p>
-
-<p>“Sometimes; not often, though, mister. I took her
-with me onct jes’ after the coal oil man’s little girl
-died and his wife give me all her clothes, ’cause she
-said I’d been there and helped so much. So I kind
-a dressed the little one up and took her over, and
-while I worked she played with her—I mean with
-the other children, and when I got ready to start home
-I like to never got her to come. She cried most all
-night, so I don’t take her no more, but she’s gone
-over there now. I was over there today and done the
-cleaning and the ‘lady’ (that’s what I always call her)
-said if I would send the little one over she would
-give her a suit or two of her older girl’s underclothes.
-You see her girl’s younger than the kid, but she’s fatter,
-so I guess they’ll fit. Lord, I wish she’d come,
-mister, for now I’ve told you all and you’ll be goin’
-and it’ll be awful lonesome here.”</p>
-
-<p>“I will wait until she comes, if you don’t object.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, I will be glad, and I guess I’d better put this
-soup on and warm it, for she’ll be cold and hungry.”</p>
-
-<p>A few moments and a rattle at the door announced
-the “kid’s” coming. She was a sweet-faced child, but
-the beauty which would have been visible under favorable<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_69"></a>[69]</span>
-circumstances was marred by the pinched, drawn
-expression which always attends want. Without ado,
-or bashfulness, she unrolled a bundle, shouting, “Look
-Granny, two for you and two for me. The lady had
-some of her own that was too big and she said you
-could have ’em.”</p>
-
-<p>And there, under the rays of light shed from the tin
-lamp, I saw articles of silk underwear with a monogram
-on the waistband, the same which adorned an invitation
-to a party for one night next week, which I
-had received that morning and now carried in my
-pocket.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_70"></a>[70]</span></p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_71"></a>[71]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_FOUR">TALE FOUR.<br />
-<span class="smaller">A WOMAN OF THIRTY-EIGHT.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Look at his pretty face for just one minute!</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">His braided frock and dainty buttoned shoes;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">His firm shut hand, the favorite plaything in it—</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Then tell me, mothers, was’t not hard to lose</div>
- <div class="verse indent4">And miss him from my side—</div>
- <div class="verse indent4">My little boy that died?</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“How many another boy, as dear and charming,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">His father’s hope, his mother’s one delight,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Slips through strange sicknesses, all fear disarming,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">And lives a long, long life in parent’s sight!</div>
- <div class="verse indent4">Mine was so short a pride!</div>
- <div class="verse indent4">And then—my poor boy died.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“Perhaps if he had lived,” she said, as she handed
-me a little tintype of a round-faced baby, whose laughing
-face was surrounded by ringlets of hair which
-looked as though they might have been silk.</p>
-
-<p>“Perhaps,” she repeated in a dreamy way, “it might
-have been different.”</p>
-
-<p>She was a woman of thirty-eight. She did not look
-it when I was first admitted to her apartments. She
-then appeared to be a very demure little housewife of
-ten years less. It was in the afternoon and she was suitably
-attired to receive callers, and had she not been,
-I am of the opinion that she would have bowed graciously
-to the inevitable, and received me just the<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_72"></a>[72]</span>
-same, for she was one of those matter-of-fact souls
-who do not allow formality to interfere with pleasure.
-Not that she would appear in a soiled dressing
-sacque, or an old skirt which bore evidence of the
-various strains, neither would she be guilty of coming
-to the front with ragged shoes on those dainty feet;
-but to make a long story short, she was too considerate
-of a man’s “fussy feeling” to keep him waiting an
-hour or more while she labored before the mirror
-trying to obliterate the traces of time and increase the
-beauty of form.</p>
-
-<p>Ethel Manning had been and still was more comely
-than many women in more favorable circumstances.
-She was not so tall that she was striking, but the
-willowness of her figure seemed to add power to the
-face on which every thought was plainly visible before
-she allowed the red curve, commonly called mouth, to
-open in utterance. She spoke slowly, and as each word
-fell on one’s ear the evidence of the voice having been
-cultivated became more convincing. Her deep violet
-eyes were luminous and seemed to grow darker with
-the earnestness of her sentiment. Her chin was a
-trifle short, however one would at once decide that it
-was made that way to correspond with the nose, which,
-to one critically inclined, might seem to be abbreviated
-to a certain extent. All in all, she was one of those
-people who are all life and activity, yet possessed with
-the gift of discreet executive ability. If she had lacked
-anywhere in personal charms the deficit was supplied
-to one’s mind’s eye the moment one would glance at
-her hair. It was plentiful and seemed to cover her<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_73"></a>[73]</span>
-head with bright rippling waves which shimmered
-with every motion of the well poised head.</p>
-
-<p>Bright colors might have been more becoming to her
-winsome nature, but she was clad in black, some soft,
-clinging material on the crepe de chene order. The
-neatness of the design, the fine texture, and the correctness
-of the fit only added to the grace with which
-she wore it.</p>
-
-<p>“No doubt you would have been happier,” I said,
-as I handed the little tintype back to her.</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know,” she said sweetly; “perhaps somebody
-would have been purer today.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, Miss Manning, I am all attention and over
-anxious to hear your story.”</p>
-
-<p>“All right, I will tell you all I know, and think that
-is enough,” she said, as she cast her eyes downward.</p>
-
-<p>“I was raised a Christian. I taught a Sunday-school
-class from the time I was sixteen until I was just
-turning my eighteenth year. At this point in my life
-my parents changed their place of abode; the only regret
-I felt aside from my breaking up of a general
-friendship, was the fact that I was called upon to leave
-my sweetheart.</p>
-
-<p>“David Strathmore was all to me that any young
-man can be to a girl who is in love. He had lived
-in the little village where I was born and raised for
-twelve years, during which time we had been school-mates,
-play-fellows, steadfast, youthful friends, and
-with the true congeniality of our young natures we became
-lovers early in life. He was constant, true and
-tender. I had learned to count upon his sagacity in all
-things. I was not alone in my admiration for him;<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_74"></a>[74]</span>
-that is to say, although I was the only girl who really
-loved him, but think that was because it was a foregone
-conclusion that marriage was to be the result of our
-constant association. Everybody who knew him admired
-him, and that meant nearly every man, woman
-and child in the locality, for his father was a grain
-merchant and David had grown up in his business there
-by coming in contact with almost every citizen.</p>
-
-<p>“I had never known what trouble was, and when,
-on the evening before we were to leave my native
-town, David and I took a long stroll, I felt as though
-each step brought me nearer to the grave.</p>
-
-<p>“‘But we will be true to each other,’ he said, as
-he held me in his arms pressing his warm lips to mine.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, David, and you will come for me soon, won’t
-you, dear?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, Ethel, as soon as I have placed a sufficient
-sum in the bank to make us a home, I will come for
-my blue-eyed belle.’</p>
-
-<p>“So with promises of loyal devotion, we parted.</p>
-
-<p>“I really liked my new surroundings very much
-in our new home. The young people were very kind
-to me and I was soon on a firm footing with the best
-society of the town. It was a college town and I met
-a young man who was in his last year of school.</p>
-
-<p>“His name was Edward Singleton, and I was more
-than delighted to know that he and my David were
-warm friends. That fact bound us closer together, and
-I did not feel that I was being disloyal to David when
-I accepted the attentions of his friend Singleton.</p>
-
-<p>“He was very kind, a born aristocrat, and soon became
-devoted to me.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_75"></a>[75]</span></p>
-
-<p>“David came to see me as often as possible. At
-such times Singleton could call with him, but always
-retired from the scene as soon as propriety would allow.
-He seemed to know that David and I were engaged.
-Once when it was time for David to call, he failed.
-Fearing he was ill I immediately wrote to him to ascertain
-the cause. His very cold letter informed me
-that he had come to our town with the intention of
-making his regular call, but had learned that I was
-being attended in a very chivalrous manner by his old
-friend Singleton, and he did not wish to be classed as
-an interloper, etc.</p>
-
-<p>“That almost killed me; that letter petrified my heart.
-It took months of indulgence and constant coaxing for
-Mr. Singleton to convince me that it was David’s plan
-to jilt me.</p>
-
-<p>“‘You don’t know,’ he said, ‘but there is some one
-else he loves.’</p>
-
-<p>“He besought me to bestow my love on him, but I
-was true to David. It was a fact that I had not answered
-his letter. I simply ignored him. I still accepted
-Mr. Singleton’s attentions and allowed him to
-condemn David, but it took more than that to cause
-me to rescind my promise.</p>
-
-<p>“But the time came—it came, too, just as I had
-arrived at the conclusion that I could not live longer
-without David. Of course, I had Mr. Singleton at
-my feet making love to me all the time and I think
-that had much to do with my endurance in the matter,
-for when a woman loves a man and that man for any
-reason whatever goes out of her life, she can even appreciate<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_76"></a>[76]</span>
-the affection of a good loyal dog. It seems
-to fill an aching void, you know.</p>
-
-<p>“As I said, the time came when the last cord of love
-which bound me to David was called upon to stand a
-severe strain. It happened in this way: There was
-a party given near our home. I was invited to attend
-and Mr. Singleton had insisted on calling for me, but
-there had happened to be one girl in the crowd who
-had made the remark that I surely must be proud to
-be able to take up all of Ned Singleton’s time.</p>
-
-<p>“It stung me, and not caring to be the butt of remarks,
-I declined to go. I was at home that evening
-when about ten o’clock Mr. Singleton called. He apologized
-for the time and then went on to say smilingly
-that he could not resist the temptation of running in
-just to tell me that David was at the party with Emma
-Cline.</p>
-
-<p>“The blood left my face. I could feel the pallor
-creeping over me, then with a flash and a horrid
-thought, I almost screamed:</p>
-
-<p>“‘I don’t believe it.’</p>
-
-<p>“I was now burning up.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Come,’ said Singleton.</p>
-
-<p>“I went, and there through the bright plate glass
-I could see that the bad thought of calling Singleton
-a liar was entirely wrong. David was enjoying himself
-with the other young people.</p>
-
-<p>“The words of love that Mr. Singleton poured into
-my ear that night sounded like the song of the nightingale.
-It soothed my poor, troubled heart, and seemed
-to gather the torn and bleeding fragments together
-and they grew with a new hope. I did not know that<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_77"></a>[77]</span>
-I was yearning to be loved, but I was. My soul was
-fed to its full. I had never before fully enjoyed Singleton’s
-protestations of love, but now they were as
-healing balm, and I was glad to lay my face on his
-shoulder and weep as a child weeps for its lost mother,
-while his strong arms encircled my form. With each
-loving word he gave me a firm but gentle pressure,
-which only made the shivers and sobs more delightfully
-thrilling, and while his own great heart throbbed in
-muffled accord with mine he kissed away my tears,
-smoothed back the straggling locks of hair which clung
-to my feverish face and softened my feelings in such
-a way that when he tenderly took me in his arms for
-the last time that night I felt that there had been a
-death and a birth at one and the same time, and that
-I was the mother of two children and those two were
-each named Love, and that in the act of burying one
-in the darkness of the cavern of despair the other Love
-had shed its light and been born into my soul.</p>
-
-<p>“From that on I wondered how a girl could be so
-foolish as to think she was in love with anyone until
-she had known at least more than one man.</p>
-
-<p>“Those were happy days,” said the girl with a sigh,
-as she glanced at the little picture.</p>
-
-<p>“And of course you and Mr. Singleton were married,”
-said I.</p>
-
-<p>“I will tell you all, everything,” she said, then hastily
-rising, she walked across the room and gazed out of the
-window.</p>
-
-<p>When she returned tears were glistening on her
-cheeks.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_78"></a>[78]</span></p>
-
-<p>I waited for her to continue, which she did after
-a moment.</p>
-
-<p>“Those were happy days; I mean the last days of
-Ned’s school, for we planned our future, at least my
-future. He graduated with highest honors and came
-to see me often during vacation. He had intended
-to settle in business somewhere before the next term
-of school commenced. He was just killing time for
-one summer, he said. He seemed to fully realize that
-his boyhood days were over and put in his time calling
-on me and writing to old college chums.</p>
-
-<p>“We were much surprised when the management
-of the institution of learning which he had attended
-offered him a chair in the college. He had never
-aspired to become identified with the faculty, but the
-honor was so great for a young man that he was not
-long in allowing his friends to persuade him to accept.</p>
-
-<p>“Our wedding day was set; it was to occur during
-the holiday season. Just about the time that Ned took
-his position I realized that our indiscretions in love
-had led to a state of affairs that would be exceedingly
-embarrassing. I told Ned my trouble and insisted
-on an immediate marriage. But he, of course,
-would not do that. Now that he was a Professor
-there must be some deliberation in the matter of a
-ceremony. A big wedding must be planned. Then I
-began to fail in health, and a physician, who had been
-an old classmate of Ned’s, advised that I go South.
-My mother wished to accompany me, but as my
-father’s health was poor I simply declared myself
-against going unless she remained with him. I told<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_79"></a>[79]</span>
-her I would rather stay at home and die than go away
-and live at the expense of my father’s comfort.</p>
-
-<p>“I went alone; no power could help me from the
-predicament which had been wrought by folly.</p>
-
-<p>“My babe was born in New Orleans. Ned came
-to see me as often as his duties would permit; I had
-the tenderest of care, and he always commented on
-my good appearance when he was with me; but I am
-sure if he could have seen me one hour after he had
-gone he would have thought differently.</p>
-
-<p>“Of course, I begged him to marry me, and he faithfully
-promised to do so, but, he said, ‘We must first
-allow your dishonor to be forgotten.’”</p>
-
-<p>“Think of that, will you—my dishonor!”</p>
-
-<p>At this thought Ethel began to pace the floor, seeming
-to forget my presence.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah,” she said, “if the baby had only lived!” Then,
-clutching the little square of tin, she pressed it to her
-lips with the fervor of a loving mother.</p>
-
-<p>“If you had but lived,” she said, as her deep blue
-eyes gazed at the chubby face shown in the picture.</p>
-
-<p>“He put me off from time to time.”</p>
-
-<p>“One day I received a letter from my mother saying
-that she would visit me. Horrors! what was I to do.
-It was at this point that the good little French woman
-with whom I was making my home came to my rescue.
-She was a mother. She had a child a year older than
-mine, but still at the breast. I told her of my predicament.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Never mind, dear,’ said she, with a pat on the
-head, ‘tell your mere to come; I will save you.’”</p>
-
-<p>“On the day my mother was to arrive she sent her<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_80"></a>[80]</span>
-child to her sister’s home in the country, and for three
-days my child received the nourishment which rightfully
-belonged to another child.</p>
-
-<p>“I looked quite well and my mother insisted on
-my returning home with her, but I made the excuse
-that I was going to take a course and become a trained
-nurse. My argument prevailed.</p>
-
-<p>“In sixty days my baby was at rest in a far off
-corner in one of the famous cemeteries of New Orleans,
-which is the object of so much interest to travelers
-from the fact that all the vaults are above the
-ground. Then for many reasons, I did go into a
-training school and eventually graduated as a professional
-nurse.</p>
-
-<p>“I followed that occupation for eight years.”</p>
-
-<p>“But what became of Professor Singleton?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, he became Professor Doubleton,” said the girl,
-with a toss of her head, which denoted more sarcasm
-than words could imply.</p>
-
-<p>“You mean⸺”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I mean he was married three weeks after the
-baby died, while I was yet weeping my eyes red as I
-sat on that cold gray slab of stone each day.”</p>
-
-<p>“Did you not protest?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I wrote, upbraiding him with all the power
-I had left, but sorrow for the loss of my baby had so
-softened me that my letter was more in the manner of
-an appeal than a command, and a man who is as heartless
-as he will quickly see a woman’s weak point and
-will not hesitate to grasp the opportunity of crushing
-her so completely that she loses all semblance of her
-former self.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_81"></a>[81]</span></p>
-
-<p>“He did answer me; rather a long letter, too, it was,
-but among other things he said that his position in life
-was so changed and that he would be able to rise
-higher if he would marry some one in his present station,
-and a lot of such rot. He closed by saying that
-‘a woman with a past has no future.’</p>
-
-<p>“At the end of eight years’ service as a nurse I
-was a mature woman of thirty. I had learned enough
-of the world to be able to take care of myself. The
-last patient for whom I cared in the capacity of nurse
-was a foreigner; he was a nobleman who had contracted
-the yellow fever which was raging in the
-South at that time.</p>
-
-<p>“One accomplishment which I had picked up at odd
-times was playing the guitar. I could sing a little,
-and this patient, who was wealthy, seemed to improve
-so rapidly after he was able to listen and enjoy music
-that I would often sit and play and sing softly to him
-for hours. The music was not grand, but, as he said,
-‘it was vera sweet.’</p>
-
-<p>“As soon as he was able to leave the hospital he
-insisted that I take a vacation; purely out of gratitude
-he took me to New York, where he lavished many fine
-presents on me.</p>
-
-<p>“At last, and to my sorrow, the time arrived when
-the prince must sail for his native land, and while
-I did not love him I was sorry to have him go. He
-had never been anything to me nor I to him, except on
-the lines of purest Platonicy. True, we had been
-much together. He was kind and affectionate to me;
-he had held me in his arms, but beyond the admiration
-of pure loyal friendship he had never expressed himself.<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_82"></a>[82]</span>
-I think he detected my feelings as the time for
-his departure drew near, for I could tell that he was
-more attentive and considerate than ever before. One
-day he came to my room and found me crying, whereupon
-he took me gently in his arms and asked what
-caused my sorrow; as I sought to free myself that I
-might bathe my swollen eyes, this little picture dropped
-from my bosom where I had hastily thrust it. Out of
-chivalry he picked it up and handed it to me, glancing
-at it as he did so.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Ah,’ said he, ‘a story, eh?’</p>
-
-<p>“I indignantly replied that I had never lied to him,
-for I had never told him anything.</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, no. I mean you have—you—know—perhaps—ah—a
-life story.’</p>
-
-<p>“Then while he held me in his strong arms I told
-him all. I think I felt better after I had finished than
-I ever had since Ned Singleton had instilled a hope in
-my heart. It was only three hours until the boat
-would draw in the gang-plank and depart for sunny
-Italy.</p>
-
-<p>“The prince came to say goodbye, as he held my
-hands in both his and looked into my eyes I saw the
-tenderness shine out of his face, then, without warning,
-without power to stop, I burst into tears.</p>
-
-<p>“‘There, there, little girl,’ he said, ‘don’t cry, I
-won’t go and leave you; you shall go with me.’</p>
-
-<p>“Glad to leave the country where I had known so
-much misery and pain I did not wait for a second invitation.
-In one hour my trunk was aboard the vessel,
-and I was strolling about the deck taking in the wonders<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_83"></a>[83]</span>
-which the huge ocean liner affords the untrained
-mind of the untraveled novice.</p>
-
-<p>“The state room (our state room) was to me the
-most wonderful and interesting point on the boat, so
-cozy and secluded, to what I had anticipated, that I
-felt like lounging around all the time for the first
-day or two out.</p>
-
-<p>“The prince was so pleased to have me play and sing
-to him that I found great pleasure in that pastime.</p>
-
-<p>“I know you think it strange that a woman of the
-age that I had reached, should repeat my youthful indiscretions,
-but nevertheless I did so. The commonplace
-existence of man and mistress seemed very conducive
-to pleasure for we did enjoy each other’s society
-so much.</p>
-
-<p>“We traveled from one point of interest to another
-in the foreign country; six years had been spent in
-sight seeing and pleasure seeking. I was then thirty-six.
-We were in Paris when the Chicago World’s Fair
-opened. The Prince had often told me that we must
-begin to surrender each other, for he was expected to
-marry someone of rank; I knew all the time that he
-was everything to me that it was possible for him to
-be. I well knew that I was drifting down the stream
-of time only to be cast onto the breakers of separation.
-We could see the great ghost of dissolution looming
-up higher and higher as one by one the days were
-torn from our calendar of pleasure. That one haunting
-thought was the only blot on our title of happiness.
-I was surrounded by all the luxuries of the land. The
-Prince lavished costly presents on me and seemed so
-happy when he could think of some little act of kindness<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_84"></a>[84]</span>
-that would especially please me; he was ever
-thoughtful and kind, he cared nothing for the company
-of other women.</p>
-
-<p>“He came to our apartments one day. I was almost
-lost in thought and only looked up and smiled after
-he had taken my face between his soft hands and
-kissed me.</p>
-
-<p>“‘And what is my little Senorita dreaming about
-now?’ he asked.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I was just thinking,’ I said, ‘that my boy would
-have been almost a man now had he lived, and now
-that I must give you up soon I would have had some
-one to love me.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, don’t worry, little girl,’ (he always called me
-little girl), ‘I guess some one will love you.’ He
-seemed to forget that I was growing old. I have forgotten
-to mention that my musical education had been
-taken up and I had learned to sing fairly well. I had
-been thinking how I might earn a living and when he
-came in I told him my quandary. He suggested that
-I take instruction in French dancing and come to
-America and join the profession.</p>
-
-<p>“I hesitated, I could not bring myself to the point
-of considering such a proposition, while such joy as I
-now possessed lasted. Then the necessity of supporting
-myself again forced itself into my mind, and we
-laid the plans which later brought me to this city. I
-gained a fair knowledge of heel and toe dancing, and
-believing what my teacher said, I considered myself
-competent to fill an engagement in America. As a
-last farewell trip my Prince concluded to sail with
-me, we would take in the sights of the World’s Fair<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_85"></a>[85]</span>
-here and he would then say goodbye and leave me in
-my native land, older, wiser and as unhappy as when
-he found me, but it must all end. He had done all
-and more for me than he had promised. It was such a
-rarity for a man to keep his word with me that the
-novelty of the thing was entrancing.</p>
-
-<p>“The Fair and all its glories were viewed and absorbed
-by us. Then came the sad bitter end of all;
-we must give up all pleasures. I shall never forget
-the last few days of his stay. We sat up late into
-the night, reviewing all our travels.</p>
-
-<p>“Then goodbye—I lived days in blank despair. Each
-time I looked on some treasure he had given me, tears
-would flow so freely as to indicate no control of the
-flood gates which my eyes appeared to be.</p>
-
-<p>“At last, more to attract my mind to other things,
-I made application for a position. I did not need to
-work yet, for the Prince had left me with a well filled
-purse. I had no trouble in getting an engagement. I
-rehearsed all day, performed in the evening, went to
-my room at night and looked at this poor little picture
-and cried myself to sleep. My boy would have been
-nineteen. I used to try and imagine what he would
-have been like as a full grown man.</p>
-
-<p>“One night as I was doing my turn I saw in the
-audience Professor Singleton. He did not recognize
-me, and fool like I left the stage and cried. I arose
-the next day with that long reaching determination and
-desire to see him and talk with him. It was an easy
-matter to search the hotels. I found him. He failed
-to recognize me at first, but a few words from me
-quickly convinced him of my identity. I learned that<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_86"></a>[86]</span>
-his daughter, who was nearly seventeen, was attending
-a musical college here. Then I wanted to see her,
-but was careful not to let him know my wishes in that
-direction.</p>
-
-<p>“I soon found her and managed to make her my
-friend. She was a sweet girl; I often closed my eyes
-and took her in my arms with brain afire and ears
-strained, almost expecting to hear her call me mamma.</p>
-
-<p>“We grew fond of each other. She was filled with
-a desire to go on the stage.</p>
-
-<p>“I dared not ask her about her home or her parents.
-One day she came to me asking me to go with
-her to the station to meet a friend, as she put it. That
-friend was her father. I would not have gone for
-worlds for I was not inclined to make anyone suffer. I
-am sure I did not expect to be a witness of what happened.
-I gave him credit for having more sense, but
-as she led me to meet him, instead of being a man and
-accepting his position by bowing to the circumstances,
-he turned his back on me, grabbed Ione by the arm,
-and hurried her into a carriage.</p>
-
-<p>“He came to me the next day and his abuse was as
-shameful and disgraceful as it was uncalled for. He
-insisted that I had taken foul means to poison his
-child’s mind. I begged for pity. I tried to stay his
-scathing tongue; but, no. He would show me, a public
-woman, how to entice a pure young girl from her
-duty. Then he struck me, the brute. I might have
-forgiven all he said, for I suppose he was sincere in
-his belief, but he should not have been so cruel as to
-use personal violence. He went away and left me lying
-on the floor in agony. My mind was quickly made<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_87"></a>[87]</span>
-up. He prized this daughter so highly that he could
-lay me low in the dust and dirt. I, who should have
-been mother to his second child the same as I was
-to the first. My child by him had long ago been food
-for the worms. I resolved that his daughter should
-meet a fate worse than did his son. I would ruin her
-and then ask him to strike again, strike the kind of a
-blow that <i>he</i> deserved when I was young and fair like
-his much beloved daughter.</p>
-
-<p>“The plan was long. I had many admirers, several
-of whom professed to love me; one in particular whom
-I think meant it. I sent for him and quickly told
-him that I had been injured, and that a certain young
-lady was the cause of it. He immediately grew gallant
-and suggested that he assist me in punishing my tormenter.
-That was what I wanted. He would do anything
-for me especially when there was a girl in the
-case. I told him how he could meet her. He followed
-my instructions, went to her and represented himself
-as a theatrical man who was just organizing a company.</p>
-
-<p>“She took the bait easily and when she was more
-than half drunk he brought her to my home, where
-several members of the profession had gathered for a
-little dinner. She soon forgot all about the footlights,
-and when she was thoroughly under the influence we
-put her to bed. Her downfall was as complete as the
-plan that caused it. We kept her there for four days
-and to make my victory more pronounced I wired for
-her father. His curse on her was worse than the one
-that rested upon me. He cast her off and attempted
-to strike her but I was on the lookout. I put myself
-between him and her with a dagger. He was a coward.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_88"></a>[88]</span></p>
-
-<p>“He went away. Ione became herself again but she
-was a pitiable object. She wanted so much to die.
-Just at this time the Prince came unexpectedly; he had
-concluded that he could not live without me and had
-come to take me, rank or no rank. He met Ione Singleton;
-her sadness caused him to ask questions. I
-told him all, and then with my arms around his neck
-asked him if he wished me to be happy.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Of course I do, dearest, and came to try and make
-you so.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Then,’ said I, ‘marry Ione, and not me.’</p>
-
-<p>“He objected, but I would not yield, and she is a
-princess now, having lavished upon her the same kind
-treatment which almost healed the wound so much like
-hers, that I had suffered.”</p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_89"></a>[89]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_FIVE">TALE FIVE.<br />
-<span class="smaller">A FORECAST.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Ah, that is the ship from over the sea,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">That is bringing my lover back to me,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Bringing my lover so fond and true,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Who does not change like the wind like you.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“Oh, my! Look at that. Money, a letter, and good
-news. Oh, jolly! Three aces, change of places, and
-affection of a dark man, and a diamond woman has
-good hearts for me, and great days! Of all things!
-Well, just look at that! The nine of diamonds, my
-wish! I am going to get my wish, so I am, ’cause the
-cards say so!”</p>
-
-<p>I stood in the open door as the above monologue
-was being rendered, feeling a trifle guilty at the
-thought that I was even a friendly eavesdropper. I
-consoled myself, however, with the assurance that I
-did not intend to listen, and that I stood as I did all
-on account of the picture before me. Even the calloused
-heart of the writer was felt to swell, and his
-mind counted backward to a time when he often
-looked upon such sights as I now beheld.</p>
-
-<p>The room was small, but very cozy and well furnished.
-The careless confusion with which the pillows
-and doilies were scattered around the room was
-so absolutely natural that it helped me to form an opinion
-of the occupant. And she was but little more<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_90"></a>[90]</span>
-than a child. There she sat tailor fashion on the soft,
-fur rug, shuffling and dealing a pack of cards, all the
-time prattling to herself as some card was turned over
-that would signify any important event in her life.
-Her sweet, youthful voice was in unison with the
-rings of light shining hair, while the rosebud mouth
-seemed to talk only to keep the big blue eyes from expressing
-the feelings of this care free heart.</p>
-
-<p>When the merry chattering ceased I concluded it
-was absolutely necessary, for manner’s sake if nothing
-more, to make my presence known. I did so by addressing
-the young lady.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, are you here? When did you come? Won’t
-you sit down?”</p>
-
-<p>The running fire of questions did not disturb me in
-the least, for before I could frame an answer to any
-of them she continued to talk.</p>
-
-<p>“Now, that is right; take that big, soft chair and
-here, for goodness sake, let me take your hat. I was
-just telling my fortune, and don’t you know, it just
-came out fine, not a bad card in it—isn’t that jolly?
-And would you like to have your fortune told? No,
-I am not in that business and will not charge you, so
-there now, isn’t that cheap enough?”</p>
-
-<p>To which I replied that I should prefer to be entertained
-by her own conversation than to have any forecast
-added by reading the spots.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, well, I can’t entertain.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, but you can give me some news.”</p>
-
-<p>“News?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p>“What subject can I enlighten you on?”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_91"></a>[91]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Well, you are such an interesting little body I think
-I should like to know all about yourself.”</p>
-
-<p>“All that I know is that I am in love, and, oh, yes,
-I am very, very rich, I guess, at least my lawyer says
-so.”</p>
-
-<p>“I did not know you were a woman of wealth.”</p>
-
-<p>“I know. You see no one knows that but my attorney
-and myself, and now that I have told you, you also
-know it, but you won’t tell it, will you?”</p>
-
-<p>“Not if you wish it to remain a secret, but now that
-you have told me so much, will you tell me why you
-do not want the fact to become public?”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, you see, as I said, I am in love, and I guess
-to tell you one part I must tell you all, but you are
-one of those horrid newspaper reporters. You will
-have that all printed.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, not until you have given your permission.”</p>
-
-<p>“Have some candy, and see, here is a present I just
-received yesterday. Isn’t he a little darling?”</p>
-
-<p>Whereupon this little one hundred ten pound mite
-of humanity dropped a silk poodle from under a soft
-comforter with one hand while she passed a box of
-Allegrettis to me with the other. While I in turn
-patted the dog with one hand and at the same time
-relieved the box of a couple of pieces of the sweet-meats.</p>
-
-<p>“Now,” said I, “let’s have a story.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, you see, it was this way. I was born in
-Janesville, Wisconsin. My father was a mechanic;
-he was poor, so very poor, that my mother’s folks, who
-were rich, got awfully mad when she married papa.
-They would not go to see her nor allow her to go to
-see them.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_92"></a>[92]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Finally my father was injured by a falling building
-and for two years we were dependent on charity or,
-as some children used to say to me, we were county
-charges. I was so young then that I did not realize
-what it really meant. At last papa gave up his last
-breath of this life and the county buried him. Mamma’s
-rich relatives never came near during the trouble.
-After papa’s death, mamma obtained work in the home
-of a family in Milwaukee. She was housekeeper for
-an old gentleman of about sixty-five. His wife had
-died years before and his family now consisted of himself,
-two grown daughters and one son about twenty-two.
-I was then fourteen, and it was so arranged
-that I was to assist with the work and go to school.
-That all seemed very nice, for mamma and I could
-live together. All went well for a year, during which
-time my mother’s two brothers died and as they were
-the only remaining heirs to the large estate, their demise
-left my grandmother the only legal heir, as my
-grandfather had so provided in his will that my mother
-was entirely cut off. At the end of the first year in
-our Milwaukee position, Edmund Decker came home
-from college ready to do battle with the world. I
-felt the effects of the menial exactness of my position.
-I was but fifteen then, but he of twenty-three, fell
-in love with me and fearing his father’s objections, our
-meetings were secret. Oh, how I have watched and
-waited for him, and how the moments would fly as he
-held me in his arms and breathed words into my young
-ears that made the rich, warm blood of my youth leap
-and bound through my veins, while my lips and cheeks
-burned as though they were being bathed in fire. Alas,<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_93"></a>[93]</span>
-our anticipations were true; we were caught fairly in
-one of our little love-making scenes. It happened one
-afternoon when we supposed everyone was away. Edmund
-came to the house and we were having a tete-a-tete
-in a little alcove off the library. Nothing so
-bad about that, but one of the sisters who existed
-chiefly on suspicion, had hidden behind some heavy
-curtains, within three feet of us, and after hearing as
-much as she liked she stepped out of her hiding place
-and found me contentedly curled up on Edmund’s
-lap.</p>
-
-<p>“It all ended by my running away and coming to Chicago.
-I did not let anyone know where I was. I succeeded
-in getting a position as a nurse girl in one of
-the best South Side homes. One day I was in the
-park with the babe who was entrusted to my care, and
-by sheer accident met Edmund. He explained to me
-that he was located in the city and had taken up the
-study of law. We arranged and met often after that;
-finally Edmund asked me to go out to the theater with
-him one evening and by a great effort I managed to
-get away from my duties long enough to accept. After
-the play Edmund suggested that we call on a friend
-of his who was preparing to leave the city that night
-and bid her goodbye. We called at the flat of his
-friend. She had changed her plans some and would
-not go until three o’clock the next morning. She was
-just preparing some lunch after her day of packing.
-We stayed to lunch and had wine. That was the first
-I had ever tasted. I never did return to the nursery.
-Edmund arranged that night to rent his friend’s furnished
-apartment and she went away leaving us in<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_94"></a>[94]</span>
-charge of everything. Edmund said it was all right,
-for we were going to be married anyway just as soon
-as he was admitted to the bar, so that he did not have
-to depend upon his father for support.</p>
-
-<p>“We lived very happy, my husband and I, for he
-was my husband and he used to call me his wee little
-wifey. It is no use for me to describe all the fun of
-the few short months we dwelt together there, but it
-all ended in this way:</p>
-
-<p>“Edmund was so devoted and attached to me that
-in order to be with me constantly he neglected his
-studies in the law office. Sometimes he would not
-leave me for days, and the firm with whom he was
-studying notified his father of his dilatory conduct.
-His father was a shrewd man and was not long in
-guessing that there was a woman in the affair some
-place. He had Edmund watched, followed and located
-in the house, discovered that he was living under an
-assumed name with some woman but failed to determine
-who the woman was.</p>
-
-<p>“One day I watched and waited for Edmund as usual.
-Night came, but no Edmund; all night I waited by
-the window for that form to appear. Daylight broke
-in all its freshness and glory only to find me still longing
-for the loving caress on which I had learned to
-exist. Long days and dreary nights dragged slowly
-enough. I could not imagine why Edmund did not
-return or at least write me. I listened for the familiar
-step along the hall, and when exhaustion compelled me
-to seek rest and sleep, I would dream of rivers of
-dirty, black water, and finally awoke from some horrible
-nightmare screaming for Edmund. I did not<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_95"></a>[95]</span>
-lose faith in him and I thank God for that. I knew
-some terrible calamity had befallen him, but silly little
-goose that I was, dared not tell anyone nor try to find
-him. Each day the sun rose with more spots on it,
-each night was darker than the preceding one; every
-hour brought more misery and desolation to my young
-heart and with nothing to console or encourage me, I
-almost cried my eyes out. I had no appetite, consequently
-at the end of three weeks I was a fit subject
-for a dime museum. Oh, I looked terrible! At that
-time I was confronted with a new trouble which absorbed
-some of my time and attention. When Edmund
-went away he left very little money in the house and
-I was suddenly brought face to face with the fact that
-I was almost penniless. My maid of all work left at
-this stage, and I was entirely alone in my misery.</p>
-
-<p>“For three days and nights I had not a bite to eat,
-then a strange thing happened; a woman came to my
-house and asked me if I would rent her and her husband
-a room. She was a handsome, dignified, well
-dressed woman and offered to pay liberally and in advance.
-I hesitated, not because I thought of refusing
-but for the reason that I was faint and hungry and not
-strong enough to talk glibly; the woman mistook my
-slowness of reply. She thought I was afraid she would
-not pay, whereupon she took from her purse a roll of
-bills greater than I had ever before seen, at the same
-time asking me how much I wanted for the front
-room. Visions of loaded tables, steaming dishes and
-dainty salads rushed past my eyes while the aroma of
-hot coffee seemed to fill my nostrils until my wasted
-frame shook with an excited hunger. I managed to<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_96"></a>[96]</span>
-state a price. She paid me and went to bring her
-trunks. Oh, at last, I could have something to eat; I
-could regale myself with food such as I had not tasted
-for days. I went to my room to dress thinking it best
-to go to a restaurant. Fortunately I had given my
-roomer a key and when she returned that night she
-found me where I had fallen, half dressed on the floor
-of my room, while clasped tightly in my hand were the
-crumpled bills she had given me. I battled long and
-hard with a fever, all the time calling for Edmund.
-At last the fever broke, leaving me a poor, emaciated
-wreck. The doctor told me I would be all right soon
-and added that I would soon be able to go to work.
-That sounded so strange to me who had learned to depend
-on someone else; time did bring my complete
-physical recovery, but I had added responsibilities. I
-owed a large doctor bill which came to me with the
-request to remit before I was fairly able to sit up all
-day. I could not pay it, and could not figure out
-how and when I could expect to pay. Almost daily
-the medical man’s collector called. He harassed me
-so that I actually wished the doctor had allowed me
-to die. In spite of all this I grew strong; color came
-to my cheeks, my lips took on the rosy hue which had
-so many times drawn complimentary remarks from Edmund.
-My eyes shone with their old time brightness,
-and when people told me I was getting pretty, they
-said it in such an earnest way that I was inclined to
-believe them. My improved condition was due to the
-kindness of the woman who was rooming at my house;<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_97"></a>[97]</span>
-during my illness she assumed entire control of everything,
-and was to me all that a mother could be.</p>
-
-<p>“At last the doctor’s demands became unbearable.
-He called personally one day; his salute was genial and
-his manner kindly, but his remarks were burdened with
-sarcasm. He went even so far as to make improper
-advances to me, saying that I might liquidate my
-obligations to him by becoming his friend. I was so
-indignant that the words I used in telling him of his
-unprofessional conduct could not well be mistaken. He
-laughed at my rage and informed me that he knew of
-my affair with Edmund; also that the woman living
-in my house was a person of improper character and
-accused me of being aware of the fact. His argument
-was no good. I would not listen to his demands. After
-he had gone I went to the lady in the house and told
-her all that had passed. She acknowledged that she
-was not married to the man whose name she bore, and
-even half advised me to accept the doctor’s offer. I
-was desperate and had it not been for the mean advantage
-he had taken I believe I would have consented to
-the plan, but the man had completely killed all feeling
-in my breast for him and it was now but a matter of
-business. I owed and must pay, and pay I would,
-but in cash. I resolved upon one thing, and that was
-that if my soul was to be disposed of in a mercenary
-manner it would go to some one who was willing to
-strike a bargain and not because I was under obligations
-to that one. I thought of one more plan and
-acted upon it as a last resort. I put an advertisement
-in the leading papers, asking Edmund to return to me
-or send me some word. I put it in as a blind advertisement.<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_98"></a>[98]</span>
-I received one reply and it stated that the party
-advertised for had gone to Europe and I need not
-expect to see him as he was through with me. Heavens!
-how my Scotch blood boiled. I branded the whole
-thing as a lie. Again the lady roomer helped me out.
-I counselled with her and she went to the law office
-where he had been studying and there she saw a letter
-from him postmarked Berlin. That settled it; my mind
-was now made up as to my next step. I began a methodical
-canvass of the houses of ill repute and when I
-found one that I thought was of the better class of
-places of that nature I applied for admission and was
-admitted. This occurred about four o’clock in the afternoon,
-one cold, dreary, cloudy day, not a fitting atmosphere
-for one to begin a new undertaking, but a
-fitting inducement to tempt one to rid one’s self of the
-blues. I was to go to my new home at once and fired
-with the fever of excitement and firm determination to
-bury the past, I took my trunk and was assigned to
-my room in the midst of public debauchery and iniquity.
-I must say that the surroundings were very inviting.
-I soon learned that I was not the only unfortunate
-girl in the world; many more who were there
-had even more sad experiences than I, owing to the
-fact, perhaps, that they had been in the world longer.</p>
-
-<p>“As I did not have the proper clothes upon my arrival
-I was not asked to go to the parlor the first evening, so
-I spent the time visiting with the other members of
-this sinful family, during such time as they were not
-engaged.</p>
-
-<p>“The next morning a modiste took my measure. At
-noon several flowing robes of silk were sent to my<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_99"></a>[99]</span>
-room for trial. I selected three beautiful ones, which
-were fitted to me. The landlady had them charged to
-her account and I was told to dress myself and appear
-in the parlor at eight that evening.</p>
-
-<p>“I dressed; I appeared; my face burned, my fingers
-tingled and I know my eyes stared. It was a beautifully
-furnished home, music, birds, flowers, gayety and
-mirth, answered the clink of the wine glasses, as long
-as the parlor was the scene of the festivities, but
-I knew that burning, scalding tears were the sequels
-to all this as soon as the participants were allowed to
-retire to their rooms alone. The shudders which convulsed
-me were noticed by others of the house and
-many a kind touch and look was given me. Fate
-seemed to be my Saviour that night, for it was nearly
-midnight and for some reason none of the many male
-visitors seemed inclined to cultivate my acquaintance.</p>
-
-<p>“I had just received permission to go to my room
-when the bell rang. And, oh Gods! I was told to
-wait. I waited and as the visitors were ushered into
-the reception room I heard a voice that chilled my flesh,
-and caused my blood to stand still; it was the voice of
-one I knew well. Then a vivid, wild thought came to
-me. Had Edmund found me at last? Thank Heaven,
-he was in time to save me!</p>
-
-<p>“It was with hope wandering and blind stupidity that
-I managed to answer the call and go forward to meet
-the newcomers. Those ten steps covered ten years in
-flight of time; what could I tell him? What would he
-say? How could I look him in the face? While all
-these mental problems were racing through my brain,
-I was drawing nearer to the little group of men.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_100"></a>[100]</span></p>
-
-<p>“‘Gentlemen, this is Miss Adele.’ (That was the
-name I had chosen.)</p>
-
-<p>“The announcement aroused me from my trance-like
-condition and I raised my eyes and looked squarely in
-the face of Edmund’s father. The other men I did not
-know. Edmund’s father stared, started and then with a
-gasp cried, ‘My God, girl! Child, what are you doing
-here?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I am here to make a living,’ I said frankly.</p>
-
-<p>“Without excuse or apology to his friends he drew
-me to a seat. I almost fainted at the thought of meeting
-him and being chosen by him in such a place; my
-very soul revolted.”</p>
-
-<p>“But where was Edmund?”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, there you are. You see when I heard the
-voice I knew it was that of his father. I, grasping at
-a forlorn hope, naturally supposed that Edmund had
-come back, gained his father’s consent to marry me,
-and they had started out to find me. It was very
-natural to think they would be successful for a girl
-in that position is always expecting the worst to happen,
-or rather to be exposed to some one whom they
-do not wish to see.”</p>
-
-<p>“And Edmund was not in the party at all?”</p>
-
-<p>“No. His father was a man of slightly sporty
-inclinations, and he with his party of friends were
-simply out for a night and happened to come to the
-place where I was. But the turn of affairs seemed to
-change his mind a bit, for he questioned me so closely
-as to my whereabouts in the past, and as to how long
-I had been in that house, that I became suspicious, but
-I told him all, everything truthfully that had happened<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_101"></a>[101]</span>
-to me since I had left his home; but one thing
-I sought to keep secret and that was the name of the
-man with whom I had lived. But it seemed impossible
-for one so unused to intrigue to keep a secret. I
-had a chain (this chain) around my neck, and on the
-chain this locket, and as I leaned my head forward
-it dangled in the air and unknown to me he took the
-locket and opened it and this picture, Edmund’s picture,
-was in it.</p>
-
-<p>“At first he raved and swore, ‘to think that I, a common
-woman of the town, should dare to wear his
-son’s picture in such a place as that!’ I don’t know
-how I held myself together, but I did, and gently
-reminded him that he should not object to his son’s
-picture being worn in a place which he himself frequented.</p>
-
-<p>“He gradually became reasonable and we talked
-matters over in general, he finally drawing out of me
-that it was his son whom I had looked upon as my
-husband. He satisfied himself as to my purity, otherwise,
-then made a confession. It was he who had
-caused Edmund to be spirited away to Europe. Edmund
-had endeavored to correspond with me, directing
-his letters to the name that we were making temporary
-use of, but his father had intercepted them,
-thinking that the boy had fallen into the hands of some
-very bad woman who would eventually ruin his life. It
-was he, of course, who answered my advertisement,
-but to make amends for his mistakes, he made me the
-proposition that I should have a good home, go to
-school, take music, and in fact qualify myself in every
-possible way, during the two years following, all at<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_102"></a>[102]</span>
-his expense. At the end of the two years he promised
-that if I had been good and true Edmund should come
-back from Europe and marry me. And the two years
-will be up in just three weeks, and I am so happy.”</p>
-
-<p>“You were telling your fortune when I came in;
-will you tell me what you wished?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, sure! I wished Edmund would come back
-before the three weeks are up.”</p>
-
-<p>“You said you were rich.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, you see, Grandma died and left me all the
-money my mother has been kept out of all this time,
-but don’t tell that, will you? For I want to know for
-sure that Edmund loves me for just me.”</p>
-
-<p>As the writer arose to leave, a messenger boy
-brought in a strange looking envelope and after being
-convinced that he was talking to Leonore Marks, he
-handed the envelope to her, saying, “Cablegram for
-you.”</p>
-
-<p>It read, “Home in ten days. Be ready to be married.</p>
-
-<p class="right"><span class="smcap">Edmund.</span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Now, you see, the cards were right. I shall get
-my wish.”</p>
-
-<p>As the writer left Miss Marks, in her joyous delight,
-was administering such caresses to the silk
-poodle that he half wished he too were a little white
-dog.</p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_103"></a>[103]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_SIX">TALE SIX.<br />
-<span class="smaller">A DAUGHTER OF PROUD KENTUCKY.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“One sin, I know, another doth provoke;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Murder’s as near to lust, as flame to smoke.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>In response to a vigorous rap, I was admitted to a
-scantily furnished but clean apartment, the warmth
-and glow of which made a pleasant contrast to the
-drizzling rain, the rows of flickering gas lamps, and
-the sloppy streets that I had been plodding through
-for several moments.</p>
-
-<p>Leaving my hat and coat in the narrow hall, I followed
-the directions of the little girl who opened the
-door, and soon found myself in the parlor which contained
-furniture that was old, badly matched and
-much worn; pictures—well, two portraits, and a few
-little cards on which some enterprising merchant had
-printed his name, all of which failed to add greatly to
-the attractiveness of the room. My scrutiny was not
-to be confined to the handiwork of man, however, for
-by the time I had taken a complete inventory of the
-room, my attention was attracted to an object of
-nature. I heard a soft voice say, “Good evening, sir.”
-The full tone and sweet southern accent caused me to
-turn, and as I did so my mind was filled with anticipation.</p>
-
-<p>Before me stood a girlish figure. She might have
-been twenty-five, although she did not look it; there<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_104"></a>[104]</span>
-was that in the deep gray eyes which told of trouble
-rather than the joy of youth. Her soft hair was
-rolled loosely back from the low brow, leaving only
-a little curl or two above her temples. Her neat fitting
-house dress of princess design did little to add a
-matronly air. Mature youthfulness sweetened by
-cares, is what flashed through my mind as I took the
-slender white hand which she extended with the dignity
-of a court lady.</p>
-
-<p>“I am Mr. ⸺,” I said.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I have been expecting you,” she said, as she
-pointed to a wobbly rocker, at the same time gliding
-across the room to a little divan.</p>
-
-<p>“And are you ready to proceed?” I asked, in the
-cold mechanical way that had been supplied by nature
-and developed by cultivation.</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose so, sir, but what am I to tell you first?”</p>
-
-<p>“Tell me where you were born and grew up, and
-so on, right through to the present time.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, I was born in Kentucky, and there grew to—to—yes,
-I might say to womanhood, although I was
-young when I left there. I was an only child; my
-father was a wealthy stockman and during my childhood
-want was an unknown word to me. My earliest
-recollections were of my old black mammy, who used
-to croon to me, in a voice that was always soothing.
-I was taught to believe that the world was at my command;
-a mother’s care I never knew, for my advent
-into this world cost her her life. Ah, sir, I have often
-longed for a real mother, one to whom I could go and
-tell all my little secrets, one who could feel the love
-for me which my nature seems to crave.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_105"></a>[105]</span></p>
-
-<p>“My father was a most indulgent parent, but I fear
-that in his great goodness he failed to conceive the
-emotions of a girl’s heart.</p>
-
-<p>“When I was fifteen I met a young man from the
-North. It was quite an accidental meeting, but it
-was not an accident that I loved him, nor that he
-worshiped me. He came to our plantation to buy
-some horses for his stables in Chicago; he was honorable
-enough to ask my father for my hand in marriage,
-whereupon my father flew into a rage, told him
-that his business there was buying horses and not
-putting foolish notions into a young girl’s head. The
-scene was a stormy one and closed by the young man
-being ordered to leave. He left that night and took
-me with him. We crossed the river into Indiana and
-tried to get married, but on account of my extreme
-youthful appearance we were unable to obtain the
-license. We traveled on to Cincinnati, failure again
-confronted us. Just as we were in the act of boarding
-a train for Chicago an officer arrested us. I was
-taken back to my home, while my lover was placed in
-jail on the charge of abduction. A taste of the things
-in the outer world only made the fancies in my childish
-brain grow. I soon found myself planning how
-I could leave my father’s home and secure freedom
-for the only man I loved. I begged and pleaded with
-my father, but to no avail; finally he informed me
-that he would horsewhip me and lock me up if I ever
-mentioned the matter again. This was too much; all
-the pride within me bounded to the surface, my hot
-Southern blood tingled, my cheeks flamed in anger.
-It was then that I missed my mother more than any<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_106"></a>[106]</span>
-time in my life, the thought of her put a new idea into
-my disturbed brain. I would go to the spot where
-she was laid to rest, there to find relief in the desolation
-of the grave.</p>
-
-<p>“It seems as but yesterday that I strolled down the
-lane, across the meadow, and entered the little enclosure
-that had been set apart for a final resting place
-for the members of our little family, the ripened blue
-grass waved gently at the bidding of the gentle breeze,
-the full, warm October sun shed its beauteous rays
-of light upon the great spreading trees, the birds
-seemed to be chanting their last song of summer, the
-red and brown leaves lay scattered on the hillside,
-making a scene of gorgeous splendor in the bright
-sunlight. Drooping flowers showed signs of the first
-frost, chattering squirrels scurrying hither and thither,
-gathering the winter’s store of food, added to the
-fullness of nature.</p>
-
-<p>“As I followed the little unused path, keeping before
-me all the time the tall, white shaft, I seemed to
-leave the world in which I had been living, the choking
-sensation gave way, my eyes no longer burned, the
-great relief I sought seemed granted, and instead of
-gasping for breath and feeling the hot scalding tears
-running down my cheeks, I kneeled down on my
-mother’s grave and gave way to the sobs that came, it
-seemed to me, like great waves of comfort, and felt
-tears that were cool and refreshing. I remained there
-for hours, never looking up and not till a well known
-fluttering sound reached my ear, did I think of leaving.
-The noise was made by a flock of blackbirds that had
-come to seek shelter for the night. As I passed down<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_107"></a>[107]</span>
-the sloping hillside where the long shadows were fast
-fading into the twilight, the first feeling of loneliness
-crept over me but I did not want to leave. I loved
-the place. It seemed the most sacred place on earth
-to me.</p>
-
-<p>“That night as I rolled and tossed in my bed, I
-fully realized that I had been wrong. Yes—it was
-wrong for me to disobey my father and I had aggravated
-him until he was cross. It was all my fault that
-he had threatened me. I had no business to annoy
-him and would go now and ask his forgiveness. I
-stole out of my room feeling like a guilty culprit. I
-can see myself now as I crept through the long hall
-of our old Southern home, closer and closer to his door,
-until at last I could hear his deep, heavy breathing. I
-pushed the door open, then at the critical moment I
-became frightened lest I should waken him, still I was
-firm in my purpose. There in the darkness of his
-room I saw the hillside, saw the birds and heard the
-soft rustling of the leaves. Oh, how my heart went
-out to poor papa, alone—alone—in the world, with
-only an ungrateful, disobedient daughter as his nearest
-of kin. I am sure that the time spent at the grave
-created a communion of souls. I could almost see my
-mother as she had been pictured to me, and the vision
-drew me nearer to papa. One step more and I was
-inside the room, cautiously I crept to the bedside, then
-quietly kneeling on the carpet, I buried my face in
-the pillow beside his head, then for the first time that
-I could remember I put my arms around his neck
-and kissed him. His first words brought a flood of
-tears to my eyes and caused such a lump to rise in my<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_108"></a>[108]</span>
-throat that I could not say a word. I knew now that
-he misunderstood me, for with a muttered curse he
-commanded me to go back to my room.</p>
-
-<p>“‘But please, papa, hear me,’ I begged.</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, I don’t want any more foolish nonsense out
-of you,’ he said.</p>
-
-<p>“Nothing could induce him to hear me, and I was
-compelled to leave without making him understand
-that it was forgiveness and just a word of love that
-my young heart yearned for, instead of his permission
-to see my lover.</p>
-
-<p>“Back to the loneliness of my own room I went.
-As I felt my way along the dark hall I wished that
-I might die. Ah, if I could only have heard one kind
-word from him I would—well, I am sure that you
-would not have had this story for your book, but I
-suppose,” said the girl with a dreamy sigh, “that the
-foundation of your work is cemented together with
-the mortar made from mistakes.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I quite agree with you, that if there were no
-sorrow in this world this book never would have been
-written.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, back to the story,” she said, with a toss of
-her head, as though she would have it done with.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, go on.”</p>
-
-<p>“I returned to bed but not to sleep; I tossed about
-in frantic efforts to forget the burning wound I felt.
-When daylight came I arose and dressed myself without
-calling my maid. My eyes were so red and swollen
-that I could not go down to breakfast at the usual hour
-and when I did go I asked for my father.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Law sakes alive, honey, you fadah done lef de<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_109"></a>[109]</span>
-place mos’ an houah ago,’ said my old black mammy.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Did he leave any word for me?’ I asked.</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, Mis’ Abbie, he jes went and nevah said
-nothin’.’</p>
-
-<p>“My heart fell within me. I had intended to try
-again to explain to him my resolutions of the day before.
-Later in the day I learned that my father had
-gone on a ten days’ trip. Oh, how desolate I felt,
-with no one but the colored servants about. I am not
-surprised now that I was easily persuaded to leave my
-home, and it came about in this way: On the evening
-of the day of my father’s departure, a man came to
-our house on business; he was not an entire stranger
-for he had been there many times before although I
-had seen but little of him. He was a noted horseman
-from California and his business, like my lover’s, was
-to purchase horses. He was received into our house
-and all the generous hospitality of a Kentucky home
-was extended to him, and I, being the only member of
-the family at home, took upon myself the duty of entertaining
-our guest. He was a man of fifty and his
-gray hairs added much to his polite dignity. He was
-a much traveled man and his stories of adventure were
-so thrilling and interesting that he quickly had me
-wrapped in attention. The evening being warm, we
-sat on the broad gallery (better known as a veranda in
-the North) and after asking my permission, he lit a
-cigar and as he leisurely puffed and blew out clouds
-of smoke, he explained to me how he had been all over
-the world, and where he lived. In doing so he painted
-such pictures of the beauties of nature that I lost
-interest in the little world that I had always known.<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_110"></a>[110]</span>
-A new desire was created within me and then a new
-thought came to me. I wondered if this kind old
-gentleman had any daughters of his own, and if he
-had I wanted to hear about them; that desire was
-followed with the thought that it would be nice if my
-father were like him. I finally asked him if he had a
-daughter, but he seemed reticent as to her. At last
-with a struggle born of desperation I asked him if his
-daughter loved him and should come to him for
-advice would he give it.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Bless your heart, yes, any father would do that,’
-said he.</p>
-
-<p>“I did not think he could hear me crying softly, and
-I made no reply for some moments, that my quivering
-voice might not be the talisman of betrayal. At last
-I ventured to say, ‘It would be so nice if such were
-really the case.’</p>
-
-<p>“At that he said, ‘Come here, little girl, and tell me
-what the trouble is.’</p>
-
-<p>“With that great desire to unload my heart, I could
-not resist. I needed but one invitation. I told him all.
-When I had finished he said, ‘I know your father
-very, very well, and do not think he will consent, but
-I will help you.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh! you will,’ I exclaimed, ‘I knew you would;
-you are so good, so kind;’ and I fell upon my knees
-in front of him.</p>
-
-<p>“The plans were quickly made. I was to leave the
-house the next day, go to the railway station which
-was but a mile distant, buy a ticket and go to Indianapolis,
-wait until my benefactor could go to Cincinnati
-to secure the release of my lover, then they would join<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_111"></a>[111]</span>
-me and we would be married. It all carried nicely.
-After we were married the question arose as to how
-to keep out of reach of my father’s wrath. That was
-soon settled by our accepting an invitation to visit our
-champion in San Francisco. My father made no attempt
-to follow me so far as I know.</p>
-
-<p>“We set up housekeeping in the West. My husband
-was devoted to me and we could never thank our
-‘good Samaritan,’ as we called him, enough for helping
-us. As you well know, a Southern bud soon bursts
-into a full grown flower, consequently I was not long
-in developing into a full fledged woman, and in spite
-of my tender years, I felt the full importance that devolved
-upon me, when, after twelve months of wedded
-life, a baby girl came to brighten our home.</p>
-
-<p>“My husband had not entered into business of any
-kind, he having plenty of money, and as he said,
-cared to do nothing but love his ‘little girl.’ Happy?
-I was as happy as an angel and sometimes think that
-the memory of those days keeps me alive now; again,
-the thought almost crushes me. I shall never forget
-the first cloud that hovered over my sunlit career of
-wifehood and motherhood. It was in the evening of
-one of the days of the great race meet. I was waiting
-for my husband to come home, sitting in the window
-as was my custom. It was after nightfall, but many
-of the pleasure seekers of the day had extended the
-revelry into twilight sport. Handsome equipages,
-loaded with gaily dressed women and well groomed
-men, rolled by one after another. Some were singing,
-while some more fortunate carried buglers and other
-musicians. I had not attended the races, on account<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_112"></a>[112]</span>
-of not wishing to leave the baby, but Harry, my husband,
-had gone. We had been invited by our old
-friend and while Harry gently protested that he would
-not go a step without me, he finally consented after
-considerable persuasion on my part. At nine o’clock
-in the evening my weary vigil was rewarded. A four-in-hand
-drawing a handsome tally-ho drew rein in
-front of our home. I could not see any of the faces
-and the first intimation I had of Harry’s being in the
-crowd was a remark some one addressed to him, saying,
-‘It’s all dark, Hal, old man, nobody at home, don’t
-get out.’</p>
-
-<p>“Then I heard him say, ‘Oh yes, I know she is here
-waiting for me, and I must leave you.’</p>
-
-<p>“Then a jangle of maudlin voices, one saying one
-thing and one another, but among the many things that
-were said were, ‘Goodnight, sweetheart,’ and ‘Here,
-kiss me once more before you leave.’ ‘Be sure and
-come up tomorrow.’</p>
-
-<p>“I could stand no more; I moved from my position
-to a point where I could touch the button which turned
-on the electric lights, then I heard this:</p>
-
-<p>“‘Hist, sh—be still,’ and then in the brave and manly
-tones, I heard him thank his host. The host asked to
-be remembered to me, and to assure me that he was
-sorry I could not be with them, etc.,—then respectable,
-cheery good nights, were the parting salutes.</p>
-
-<p>“Harry came into the house and as was his custom,
-took me in his arms. I discovered that he had been
-drinking, but uttered no word of reproach, neither did
-he offer to explain. Next day after he had gone down
-town, I sent a note to our old friend which he answered<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_113"></a>[113]</span>
-in person. I begged him not to take Harry on
-any more escapades. He laughingly answered that a
-man must see a little of the world; I did not like his
-manner, and frankly asked him to tell me all about the
-affair.</p>
-
-<p>“‘There’s nothing to tell,’ said he, ‘except that as you
-know, Harry is a fine fellow and a good entertainer,
-and I needed him to help to take care of that jolly little
-party and I must say that he was a success. Ah, yes—Harry
-is a prime favorite, and you, my little girl, should
-be proud to know that since he has been so unfortunate
-as to lose every dollar of his own that he can yet be
-of such service to me that I can afford to pay him a
-princely sum for his good qualities.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Lost every dollar! why, what do you mean
-Mr. ⸺?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I mean that unfortunate speculation has caused
-your husband to—to—Ah, well never mind, little girl, I
-did not come here to tell you bad news, but, rather
-to comfort and assist you. Come, come, cheer up,’ he
-said, as he laid his hand on my bowed head in a kindly
-manner.</p>
-
-<p>“‘But I implore you to tell all. All, everything!’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, let the worst be known. It is I who can help
-him most, I, his wife who has shared his comforts
-during days of plenty who must now cling to him in his
-penniless misery.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, come now, don’t take it so hard, it is not so
-bad as that; he can make a very comfortable living for
-you and the baby.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But how? He has no money,—no business,—no
-position.’</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_114"></a>[114]</span></p>
-
-<p>“‘Have I not just told you that as an entertainer
-he was valuable? I can use him to good advantage.
-You see, little girl, I travel much, have many horses,
-and consequently many followers. During racing season
-I sometimes have a full carload of ladies and gentlemen
-going where I go and backing my horses, and
-we entertain the hosts who gather at the race tracks.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, you are so kind, sir; and we can travel and
-help you,’ I said eagerly.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Well, yes, or rather Harry can, but you see, little
-girl, you must not want to go.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Why not, why cannot I go too? I will do all I
-can to help; I want to go with Harry, and I know
-he will want me.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, all that is true, but you can see, my dear girl,
-the people we have are—well—at any rate you might
-not like them.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But I will try, I will do all I can to make them like
-me.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, I know,—but the truth of the matter is they
-are not fit for you to associate with.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Not fit—why, what do you mean? Not fit companions
-for me and yet my husband is to become your
-hireling and mingle with them.’</p>
-
-<p>“My blood boiled, my heart seemed to leap to my
-throat, while my temples throbbed until my head was
-in a whirl.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, but you see that is another matter,’ said my
-caller. ‘With your husband going it is simply a business
-proposition, while with you, to say the least, it
-would ruin your reputation.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘And my husband’s name, how about that? Is<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_115"></a>[115]</span>
-that not to be considered? Am I to sit at home idle
-and permit my husband to join a party of men and
-women whose companionship is of such a nature as
-would ruin a decent woman who happened to be in their
-company? No! no, Mr. ⸺, if the company is unfit
-for me, it is not good enough for him.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But you must live.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, but not on the price of my husband’s honor.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, my! what a fine little lady you are, but come
-now, think it over a while and I will see you later, and
-here, for fear you will need something, take this,’ and
-he pushed a roll of bills into my hand, then added, as
-he saw the look of disgust on my face, ‘it is all right,
-I owe it to Harry and you are entitled to it.’</p>
-
-<p>“I took the money and he departed.</p>
-
-<p>“That night Harry did not come home, though I
-watched and waited until nearly daylight. When
-morning came, I sent a note to Mr. ⸺, asking for
-Harry. He replied that he would see me later in the
-day, and if Harry was not home by the time he called,
-he would tell me where he had gone.</p>
-
-<p>“Gone—what did all this mean? Oh, the agony of
-that day. When night came I was years older. As I
-then thought the climax of my sorrows was reached.
-In the evening our old friend called to inform me that
-Harry had recently been drinking and gambling, and
-associating with improper persons until not only was
-all his money gone, but his good name as well; in fact,
-he had incriminated himself by obtaining money by
-false representations, and had left for parts unknown.</p>
-
-<p>“‘But that need not have bothered him, for the man
-he had defrauded was our old friend himself, and he<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_116"></a>[116]</span>
-would not have punished him, for my sake if for no
-other reason,’ so he told me by way of explanation.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, what was I to do? Left almost destitute and
-disgraced by my baby’s father. Our friend kindly offered
-to assist me, but how could I accept it? for I
-knew no way by which I could repay him. Well, finally
-he left me, after doing all he could to comfort me while
-I wept, using the kindest words and softest tones. He
-averred no harm could come to me from any source,
-and as a parting salute kissed my tear stained cheek
-and said, ‘rather than have you suffer, little girl, I will
-personally supply all your wants.’</p>
-
-<p>“The long hours dragged on until gray streaks of
-dawn were visible breaking in the East before my
-weary eyes closed in slumber. I was awakened early
-by the maid, only to be notified that I had a caller who
-insisted on seeing me at once.</p>
-
-<p>“I dressed hurriedly and sallied forth to greet my
-caller, who proved to be a neighbor lady. She was
-one of those people who at times suddenly become
-deeply interested in other people’s affairs. She had
-just run in to tell me that it was something terrible the
-way I was carryin’ on.”</p>
-
-<p>“‘Just think,’ she said, ‘your husband gone and left
-you, and all because of that old dog who comes here
-every night! Oh, I am sorry for you, but I want you
-to know that you are not the first woman who has been
-deserted by her husband on account of seeing too much
-of that “licentious old cur.”’</p>
-
-<p>“I was too dumfounded to answer her, and only told
-her that I did not understand, consequently did not
-choose to enter into a lengthy discussion of the matter.<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_117"></a>[117]</span>
-I closed the short but stormy interview by asking to be
-excused and was highly gratified by seeing my early
-and impertinent caller pass out with her nose high in
-the air.</p>
-
-<p>“My time was absorbed during the morning hours
-trying to determine the cause of her violent abuse of
-our friend. My mind was relieved about the luncheon
-hour, when I had another caller; this one also a neighbor
-and a woman of refinement. She came to console
-me in my trouble, saying among other things, that it
-was an event which had been looked for as the inevitable
-result, for many weeks. I was not overjoyed at
-the particular kind of consolation which she dealt out,
-but my spirit was subdued to some extent and my anger
-of the early morning somewhat mollified. I was
-curious to know in just what position I was.</p>
-
-<p>“My second caller soon made me acquainted with
-facts that surprised me. She told me that the uncouth
-old lady who had called first was the mother of a poor
-unfortunate, who had at one time possessed a charming
-figure and a pretty face; their former residence had
-been in the slums of the city. One day our friend saw
-her and took a fancy to her, induced her to accompany
-him in a round of debauchery, and while yet under
-the influence of the drunken infatuation, he had purchased
-the beautiful home near by and moved the girl
-and her mother into it; but the flower soon faded and
-the attraction which the poor young thing had held for
-him was soon gone. He settled with them in a financial
-way that afforded the means to maintain the well located
-home. The fact that he paid no further attention<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_118"></a>[118]</span>
-to them angered the old lady and she made use
-of every opportunity to abuse and decry him.</p>
-
-<p>“That same evening I was favored with another
-call from the gentleman himself; he had heard nothing
-from Harry, and could give me no information as to
-his whereabouts. I asked him for advice and he suggested
-that I wait a reasonable time for news from
-Harry, and if I did not hear from him, he thought it
-would be well for me to start out to find him. Next
-day the agent who had charge of the house in which
-we lived, called.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I came,’ he said, ‘to collect the rent.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I was not aware that we owed any rent,’ was my
-response.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, yes, two months.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But I was under the impression that my husband
-leased the premises for a year.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘So he did, but did not pay the rent for a year.’</p>
-
-<p>“In my ignorance of city affairs I never dreamed
-but that city homes were rented the same as farms.
-Then, with a happy thought, I said, ‘I will pay you,
-how much is it?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Well, the fact is, if you want the house it will be
-$150 per month.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But that is more than we were to pay.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, I know, but I have been compelled to raise
-the rent.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Why?’ then thinking of the lease I said, ‘does
-not the contract hold good?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, you see you have forfeited your rights in the
-lease by a failure to pay according to the terms stipulated
-in it.’</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_119"></a>[119]</span></p>
-
-<p>“‘But why do you ask double?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I have reasons which I would rather not make
-known to you.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I suppose it is because my husband is away, and
-you think you are in a position to take advantage of
-me,’ I said warmly.</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, it is not that, but if you insist on knowing, I
-will tell you.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Proceed.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I am sorry, but it is because this is an irreproachable
-neighborhood, and some of the residents of this
-locality object to your living here any longer, and as I
-have many clients in this immediate vicinity, it behooves
-me to heed their demands.’</p>
-
-<p>“I was almost too wild to speak but finally found
-my mind and tongue in a co-operative state long
-enough to ask him the reason why I was ostracised by
-the neighbors.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Because you have Mr. ⸺ call here, and it is a
-well known fact that he was the cause of your husband’s
-leaving you.’</p>
-
-<p>“My head swam, my throat ached as I forced back
-the sobs which almost choked me. My pride was not
-to be crushed in this manner, so I went to my room
-and produced the roll of bills which this man, whose
-very touch seemed poison to a woman’s name, had
-given me; for the first time I counted the money, just
-three hundred dollars, how gladly and proudly I
-handed it to the agent, never thinking where my next
-dollar was coming from, and he, crafty man that he
-was, gave me two receipts, one for the two months we
-owed him, at seventy-five dollars per month, the other<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_120"></a>[120]</span>
-for one hundred and fifty dollars in advance. Within
-two hours after he left the house I received a notice
-that my rent had been raised to three hundred dollars
-per month, and in addition he must ask me to give
-him a secured lease. What to do I did not know. I
-sat down and wrote to my father. I waited five days
-for the answer which I hoped would contain an enclosure,
-during which time I remained indoors not
-speaking to a person except my maid. I fed my soul
-on the anticipation that I should be able to live down
-the unearned shame which had fallen upon me. I
-knew, of course, when papa understood my position he
-would be liberal, and that after all, the pitiless neighbors
-must apologize to me, for I was as good as any
-of them. The reply came. Oh, joy of heaven and
-earth! how I kissed the envelope on which was the well
-known chirography of my dear old papa. Then with
-trembling hands and joyous exclamations, I tore the
-end off, and nervously pulled out the reply. The sheet
-on which the answer was written was crumpled and
-clinched tightly in my hand when I regained consciousness;
-the maid and the kind old doctor were the
-only ones with me; the doctor soon left and I read the
-answer again, ‘Better get the man who helped you
-to marry that dog, to help you now.’ That was all,
-and that was written across the back of the envelope
-which contained the letter which I had written him.
-Just at nightfall the door bell rang; the maid reported
-that my old friend had called. But the doctor had left
-strict orders that I see no one, and she sent him away;
-in less than an hour several bottles of the rarest wine<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_121"></a>[121]</span>
-that his famous cellar contained, were sent to me,
-along with an armful of most beautiful cut flowers.</p>
-
-<p>“For three weeks I laid in a bed of fever, during
-which time the only feminine voices that reached my
-ears were those of the trained nurse and my maid.
-Each day dainty ices and fresh flowers were sent to
-me, all by the hand of the man whose acquaintance
-was a black mark on the white character of any
-woman.</p>
-
-<p>“During all those days of tossing in burning delirium,
-no women in the neighborhood crossed the threshold
-of my home. I often thought as I rolled and twisted
-in search of some cool spot in the bed, that if some
-kind hearted woman would just come in and touch
-me or look on me with a feeling of friendship, I would
-have been ready to take a good cry, then close my
-eyes to all things earthly. But no—I lived to feel the
-sting of and be despised by my sex.</p>
-
-<p>“After I recovered my old friend called. I was so
-grateful for all he had done, that he really seemed
-near to me; then I told him the incident of the lease,
-and my appeal to my father, whereupon he scolded me
-gently, for not having come to him in the first place.</p>
-
-<p>“When I was able to go out he took me for a drive;
-his company was all the pleasure I enjoyed. Women
-whom I had known, turned their noses up when I met
-them on the street. Finally the time came for the rent
-to be paid again. I was still weak from my recent
-illness. We had just started for a drive when the
-agent called again. I told him at the door that I had
-not the money with which to pay the enormous sum<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_122"></a>[122]</span>
-due for rent, and it ended by his giving me notice to
-vacate.</p>
-
-<p>“Next day a special messenger brought me a signed
-receipt for a year’s rent, together with a brief note
-from my friend, saying that he had just bought the
-property and was now the landlord. I could not see
-then what it all meant, but I know now, that I was
-simply sold to the highest bidder, and the buyer conducted
-the sale and purchase all on his own account.</p>
-
-<p>“I shall never forget my seduction; it occurred right
-there where I had known so many happy hours with
-Harry, in the same room where I had been accustomed
-to receive his beautiful caresses, there in the midst of
-condemning neighbors; flowers filled the room in wild
-profusion. We had a dinner, my friend had invited
-a few gentlemen to spend the evening, the feast of
-good things was freely washed down with wine. A
-musician had kept the piano ringing out sweet melodies;
-everything appeared bright; words seemed soft
-and soothing, time passed quickly, the callers were
-gone all too soon, in fact, just as I had begun to fully
-enjoy the evening, they seemed to fade away almost
-before I knew they were gone. The lights were lowered,
-as though being smothered by the perfume that
-filled the house; everything looked soft and velvety,
-the flowers organized themselves into a kaleidoscopic
-scene as though they understood that it was time for retirement
-and so effectually blended their different hues
-as to cause one to feel that sweet repose abided in the
-air.</p>
-
-<p>“I was so glad when I reached my bed and realized
-in a dreamy way that I was being disrobed and fondled<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_123"></a>[123]</span>
-at the same time. At last with the silken folds of a
-new gown, that I did not know was in my wardrobe,
-clinging softly to my excited, trembling form, I
-reached the point where the curtain must be drawn.</p>
-
-<p>“When I awoke the next morning, my head throbbed
-wildly, my eyes smarted, while my hands seemed pale
-and weak. As I staggered from room to room in
-search of I don’t know what, strange sights met my
-gaze; a table in a bad state of disorder, chairs misplaced
-and flowers whose heads had once been held
-high in the air were now drooping, while many petals
-were scattered about the room. An air of desolation
-hovered in every nook and corner, the atmosphere
-seemed stifling, the rays of morning sun straggled
-through the half open slats of the window shutters.
-My heart was heavier than ever before, the consolation
-I sought when I thought of my seducer’s kindness in
-comparison to my father’s cruel treatment was of small
-consequence. I tried to blame my father for the loss
-of that which heretofore I had held so holy and sacred,
-that even the thought of surrendering it to any man
-not rightfully possessing it had never entered my innocent
-mind. I went to the little nursery and there in
-the morning light, my baby was slumbering in perfect
-peace, no trial, no sorrow, no temptation had as yet
-come to the pure infantile heart.</p>
-
-<p>“The following nights for a fortnight were only
-repetitions of the acts of the night just described. I
-learned to sleep by day, and as the shades of evening
-gathered, shutting out the glaring light of the setting
-sun, I would find myself engaged with my toilet, endeavoring
-to appear at my best, for my friend took<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_124"></a>[124]</span>
-great pains to compliment me on my personal appearance,
-consequently my pride knew no bounds.</p>
-
-<p>“Every night he spent with me fondling me as a
-child does a new toy, and why not? Was I not a new
-plaything for this man of millions?</p>
-
-<p>“I had lost interest in my baby, so much so, that I
-would not see her for days at a time, leaving her to
-the care of a nurse girl. I had given up hope of ever
-seeing Harry again, and cared little about him. He
-had willfully wronged and deserted me, he was a thing
-of the past to my frivolous mind. If I became blue and
-depressed, I would have the maid bring me a bottle of
-wine from the well stocked cellar. But all this must
-end. A change such as the frailties of humanity seek,
-is sure to come. I grew tired of the solitude that I
-had to contend with; I was a prisoner. One day I
-told my friend that I wanted to travel some.</p>
-
-<p>“‘All right,’ said he, ‘I am going to Chicago, I start
-in two days, get ready and make the trip with me.’</p>
-
-<p>“I was wild and in my delight I threw my arms
-around his neck and thanked him. It was agreed that
-we should spend one more night in the house where we
-had known so many pleasures before departing. That
-night of all nights, we had a sumptuous dinner,
-wine, cordials, everything that two happy, healthy people
-could indulge in. It was on that occasion that I
-fully concluded that I could not live without him, and
-discovered that things which I had hitherto loathed
-and despised, I now looked upon as a part of my daily
-existence.</p>
-
-<p>“The city was reached in due time. The first day
-here was given to rest, then a round of sightseeing<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_125"></a>[125]</span>
-which fairly dazzled me. I had never given much
-thought as to the immensity of Chicago, and it is little
-wonder that my unsophisticated mind was overcrowded
-with the many things that were on every hand for it
-to feed upon.</p>
-
-<p>“It was after ten days of revelry, during which time
-we went to every place of entertainment, both high and
-low, that this city contains, that my mind for the first
-time reverted to my baby, and then to Harry. Not that
-I cared for him still, but I was seized with a fit of
-curiosity. About this time horse racing began here
-at Washington Park track, and as my friend and admirer
-was in that business, I, too, became very enthusiastic
-in the sport. Every day I could be seen in a box,
-the most lavishly gowned woman at the ring side. I
-had money and tips, and being full of the blood that
-tingles with feverish excitement when anything is at
-stake, I quickly and easily became the best known
-woman among the talent which frequents the race
-course; I wagered and won and lost with the same
-confiding nonchalance. I cared nothing for the money,
-for I knew not the value, but I was filled with the true
-desire to be able to pick the winner. At last the season
-ended, but not until a certain influential and wealthy
-man of this city managed to fall desperately in love
-with me, and as he was young, handsome and clever
-I must admit that the fickle goddess who waves the
-magic wand over such affairs succeeded in convincing
-me that my California friend had faded some, the
-glamour seemed to have receded, but honesty and gratitude
-had not yet been completely eliminated from my
-sinful soul, and it was with real tears and sobs that I<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_126"></a>[126]</span>
-told him that I had learned to love the younger man.
-His reply only verified statements which I had heard
-made in regard to him, being that he was always cool,
-even at the betting stand. He would lose or win a
-fortune without a change of countenance.</p>
-
-<p>“‘But his reply.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, yes,’ he simply said, ‘all right, the season is
-ended, I am through with you, anyway.’ Then taking
-my hand in his, he said good-bye and departed.</p>
-
-<p>“Then began the new life. Oh, how easy the second
-step! Rather than dread it, I looked forward to the
-completing of the arrangements with pleasure. My new
-suitor knew my past history except that I had a child.
-We took elegant apartments, and he spent the greater
-portion of his time with me. We were very congenial
-companions; for months this life continued; at last the
-existence became monotonous to me. I began to long
-for something, I knew not what. I often found myself
-thinking of my past life, my childhood home and my
-child—the memory of whom I had allowed to go almost
-entirely out of my mind. One day Mr. Eddy
-came to see me and found me weeping; he questioned
-me and then I told him of my baby, and God bless him,
-he insisted on my sending for her, which I did. He arranged
-it all for the nurse to come to me and in seven
-days my little girl was in my arms. I then became
-possessed of a new feeling, such, I think, as only a
-mother can experience. I felt as if I must change my
-mode of living, but how? To go to my father meant
-to be turned away and the burden was double when the
-care of a baby and earning a living were both to be
-considered. Again I put the matter before my friend;<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_127"></a>[127]</span>
-he was kindness itself and proposed to marry me and
-be the father that my child needed. I gladly accepted
-his offer, but before we could be legally married, it
-was necessary for me to obtain a divorce from Harry.
-We took the first steps in that direction, one of which
-was to advertise as the law specified, and lo and behold!
-the advertisement had an unlooked for effect. It
-brought Harry from his long silence. He found me
-and we talked the matter over with my husband to be.
-It was at this meeting that I learned the cause of
-Harry’s action. He told us as follows:</p>
-
-<p>“Our old California friend had induced him to bet
-his every cent on certain races on the day he came home
-with the crowd, and he had lost all. Then in order to
-retrieve his losses he was advised to become a forger in
-order to get more money with which to again play the
-races. It was the same old story, he lost, then for fear
-of punishment he left the country. I then told him all.
-Oh, how sorry I felt for poor Harry! After exchanging
-ideas, we became convinced that it was all a plot of the
-kind old man in California to get me in his clutches.
-After we were assured of that, Harry asked me to
-promise not to go further with divorce proceedings until
-he saw me again. I promised him. I also promised
-him not to receive a penny from the man who now
-wanted to marry me, and as I could not live as I had
-been, with my child under the same roof, we left. I
-sold my handsome gowns, and jewelry, furnished this
-poor little home and baby and I have lived here since.</p>
-
-<p>“‘But Harry, where is he?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘In the State’s Prison of California.’</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_128"></a>[128]</span></p>
-
-<p>“‘Ah, he was caught at last and punished for forgery.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, when he left me he went to California and
-killed my traducer, he is serving a term of ten years
-for manslaughter, and I am waiting for him.’”</p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_129"></a>[129]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_SEVEN">TALE SEVEN.<br />
-<span class="smaller">MY LOVER’S BEQUEST.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="center">TWO WOMEN.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“I know two women and one is chaste,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And cold as the snows on a Winter waste,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Stainless ever in act and thought</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">A cruel tongue and a jealous mind.</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">(As a man, born dumb, in his speech errs not),</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">But she had malice toward her kind,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Void of pity and full of greed,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">She judges the world by her narrow creed;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">A brewer of quarrels, a breeder of hate,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Yet she holds the key to ‘Society’s’ gate.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">The other woman with heart of flame,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Went mad for love that marred her name;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And out of the grave of her murdered faith,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">She rose like a soul that has passed through death.</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Her aims are noble, her pity so broad,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">It covers the world like the mercy of God,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">A soother of discord, a healer of woes,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Peace follows her footsteps wherever she goes,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">The worthier life of the two no doubt,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And yet ‘Society’ locks her out.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“You ask me why my house is so gorgeously furnished,
-why the music, why the beautiful young
-women lounging about? You say the oriental splendor
-reminds you of what your ideas have always been
-as to the making of a typical harem. I do not blame
-you. Men are very apt to make more serious mistakes<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_130"></a>[130]</span>
-than you have made in this instance. Would you like
-to see my girls? You would, eh?”</p>
-
-<p>As this tall, dignified woman completed her monologue,
-she touched an ivory button on the side of the
-mahogany secretary in front of which she was seated.
-The silence which followed the closing of her remarks
-was broken only by the sounds of sweet strains of
-music, which floated through this spacious house on
-one of the notable streets of the “Tenderloin” district
-of Chicago.</p>
-
-<p>I sat and quietly waited for the response, which I
-knew would come at the touch of that bell. A description
-of the interior of that palace is beyond my power,
-and had I tried to take mental notes, I would have
-failed completely, for I felt the steady gaze of her
-blue eyes upon me so strong that I could not center
-my mind on anything but the woman. In spite of the
-fact that she was not more than thirty-five years old,
-her hair was silvery gray; her eyes were bright, her
-skin soft and fair; a smile of natural sincerity helped
-to light the sweet face, adding an expression to the
-pink and white that would cause any man to become
-a close observer, if not an admirer, of the woman,
-even without making a more scrutinizing survey of her
-many other charms. The poise of her head, the full,
-round neck, the broad, yet plump shoulders, the long,
-beautifully moulded arm and tapering fingers, served
-to attract a reasonable share of attention from the heaving
-bosom and slender waist of my hostess. My going
-over process was interrupted by a merry laugh, which
-caused my fair entertainer to rise, then with the grace
-and dignity of a queen, she presented to me the entire<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_131"></a>[131]</span>
-coterie of new comers, who constituted the bevy of
-young ladies which came into the room.</p>
-
-<p>I was at once convinced that all the income of this
-house was not spent on the furnishings, for each young
-woman was gowned in a manner befitting the occasion.
-Some music and a few songs occupied the next fifteen
-or twenty minutes, during which time I used my eyes
-with as much of a critical air as was possible. Presently
-I told the lady of the house that I wished to
-talk with her in person before I made further acquaintance
-with any of the inmates of her rendezvous.
-The hint was sufficient, and we were soon alone.</p>
-
-<p>“Well,” said she pleasantly.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I want to talk privately with you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Proceed.”</p>
-
-<p>“But, had we not better retire to some private room
-where we will not be in danger of being disturbed?”</p>
-
-<p>“This house is mine; we will not be interrupted
-here,” she said sweetly.</p>
-
-<p>“Thank you. Then I will tell you what I want. I
-am looking for facts and wish you to give me the entire
-history of your life.”</p>
-
-<p>The smile of anticipation faded into a look of remorse,
-that expression in turn was followed by an inquisitive
-look which told me that the woman was
-feigning misunderstanding.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” I continued, “I want to know how you happened
-to be here.” The fair cheeks flushed, the intelligent
-brow wrinkled, while hard lines were plainly
-visible around her mouth, as I finished the sentence.</p>
-
-<p>“It may be a long story,” said the woman, as she<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_132"></a>[132]</span>
-gazed at the bright buckles on the dainty slippers
-which encased her feet.</p>
-
-<p>“I am willing to listen if you will be kind enough
-to tell me all,” said I.</p>
-
-<p>“My early life was devoid of anything more than
-most girls are called upon to endure. At the age of
-twelve I lost my mother, at fifteen death claimed my
-father, then I went to live with a maiden aunt in Columbus,
-Ind. I was poor, very poor. As I now look
-back and view the past, I wonder that I was able to
-continue my studies until I graduated with high
-honors, but I did and the day I was seventeen my
-greatest heights of happiness were scaled, for it was
-on that eventful day that my youthful lover, Jamie
-Harris and I became engaged with the consent of my
-auntie, provided, however, we would not think of marriage
-until Jamie had finished his course at college,
-which he was taking at the State University, located at
-Bloomington, Ind. We two young lovers, eager in
-our happiness, consented to the plans which my spinster
-relative laid for us. Jamie was twenty; he had two
-more years in the regular collegiate course, then a
-professional course of some sort and we would be
-ready to take up life’s journey.</p>
-
-<p>“Meanwhile, I bided my time, looking forward to the
-longed for event with anticipation in every way worthy
-of the reward. One long year dragged along; I cared
-for no one, thought of nothing but to dream of Jamie.
-All the little details of ‘love in a cottage’ had been
-thoroughly gone over, and directed, I, in my own
-mind, trying to find some method of improvement on
-the time worn ethics of a wife’s duty.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_133"></a>[133]</span></p>
-
-<p>“When morning came I busied myself with the affairs
-of my aunt’s humble home, which I, too, had
-known as my only shelter for years. I moved with the
-spirit of love. I became mechanical in doing things
-while I drew on my imagination to such an extent,
-that at times I almost fancied that it was our home
-(Jamie’s and mine), and that I was serving him. I
-planned and thought so much of how I would always
-have his slippers ready, and papers and cigars, for
-he smoked. Oh, all the dreams made me so happy and
-contented.</p>
-
-<p>“It was the beginning of the second year that I received
-an invitation to visit a friend in Franklin, Ind.,
-a near-by town. During my stay there I met many
-and made scores of friends; it was then that I realized
-how closely my life and Jamie’s had become cemented
-together. I saw the world as I had never before
-known it to exist; I was the recipient of many favors
-at the hands of my new friends. If I failed to write
-to Jamie as often as I had done, he excused me by
-saying in his letters that he was glad I was having a
-good time. Theaters, drives, parties, dinners, etc., to
-the fulfillment of my fondest hopes. More excitement
-than I had ever expected to know.</p>
-
-<p>“The friend whom I was visiting was a few years
-my senior, and when I explained to her that I was
-engaged and suggested that it might not be good form
-for me to receive the attentions of a certain young
-man, who insisted on occupying most of my time, she
-only laughed and said I had lots to learn. She then
-gave me much information along the lines of society
-conventionalities. She was my best friend. I heard<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_134"></a>[134]</span>
-all she said and allowed myself to put too broad a
-construction on her words. I allowed words to be
-poured into my ears that changed the feeling which I
-had had for poor Jamie. My new admirer was rich,
-handsome and gallant and much admired by all the
-girls of ‘the set.’</p>
-
-<p>“True to the expectation of those girls, I seemed to
-win Francis Winslow. He had no eyes for any but
-me. Things drifted along until the time came for my
-home going, then all on account of his persuasions, I
-remained a week longer than my allotted time. When
-I arrived home I received several letters from Jamie
-and a severe scolding from my aunt. The letters dated
-back ten days; the tone of the oldest one was the same
-sweet, endearing sentiment, which had always made
-his messages so precious, but as I sat reading through
-the many pages, I perceived as I thought a coldness
-(though I know now it was love’s anxiety). The last
-two hurt me; they referred to things which I could not
-account for his knowing. Finally the closing of the last
-letter said, ‘If not too busy flirting with your friend,
-Winslow, please answer.’</p>
-
-<p>“It was more than my young heart could bear. I
-did not know then that I was just looking for some
-excuse for stinging him and now it had come. I had
-never flirted; I had met Mr. Winslow under proper
-conditions and circumstances. He had always been
-courteous to me. I had been true to Jamie, though my
-love had faltered. Next day’s mail brought a letter
-to my aunt and one to me; the one to aunt was from
-Jamie. I do not know what it contained, but it was<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_135"></a>[135]</span>
-of such a nature that she heaped a tirade of abuse on
-me.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Just to think!’ said she. ‘I’ve worked and done
-for you all these years and tried to raise you decent,
-and done all this for my poor dead sister’s sake, and
-when I’ve got you fit to marry a good man, you go
-and spoil it all by takin’ up with a fop you nor the
-Lord don’t know nothin’ about.’</p>
-
-<p>“The letter which I had tucked away in my bosom
-was from Mr. Winslow. It stated that he was going to
-visit in this city and he would be glad to have me join
-him. ‘I know,’ it said, ‘that you will have to invent
-some excuse for your absence from home, but
-that can be arranged by your saying you met my
-cousin, while in Franklin, and she will write you soon,
-asking you to spend a week with her in Chicago. She
-is the wife of a railroad man and will send you transportation.’</p>
-
-<p>“My mind was quickly made up; I would not stand
-my aunt’s abuse and Jamie’s insults. If Mr. Winslow
-liked me, as he said, he would probably propose to me
-and we would get married, ‘so there now.’ That letter
-was followed two days later by one from Mr. Winslow’s
-cousin, enclosing a ticket, which auntie did
-not know from a pass. The invitation was pressing
-and I came here.”</p>
-
-<p>“But go on,” said I, as the long pause seemed to
-add solemnity to the stillness. “Tell me more of
-Jamie, of Winslow and of this,” said I, with a wave
-of my hand, indicating the interior of the spacious
-house.</p>
-
-<p>“Be patient,” she said, and then continued.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_136"></a>[136]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Winslow met me at the station, then it was a ceaseless
-round of theaters, dinners and other amusements,
-which were new to my unsophisticated mind. His
-cousin was a myth. The woman who claimed to be
-his relative was none other than a hireling, who did
-all in her power to assist him in entrapping me. The
-speed with which I fell was something terrific; the
-bottomless pit of Hell was not very far away and I
-was an easy victim to the seductive plans of my pretended
-friend. The scene of my defamation is still
-fresh in my mind. It seems but yesterday, since he
-called for me at the home of the supposed cousin. Oh,
-the blackness of that night as it now appears to me, is
-only intensified and made more dismal, when I think
-of the lights, the gay music, the finely arrayed women
-and the entrancing wine; it was a long night of song
-and revelry, only to end in the beginning of a long
-day of miserable, torturing, painful existence. That
-fortress of purity, which is all a girl has upon which
-she can rely at all times, was stormed. The excitement,
-the glittering lights, and the enchanting environment
-added such argument as the man lacked in his
-make up. I suppose I was an easy victim, wine dulled
-my senses to such an extent that, as God is my judge,
-I was not wholly responsible for my acts; when morning
-came I awoke and knew that the great white star
-of virginity, which I had heretofore followed, had
-been transformed into a dull leaden aspect, which
-would only bespeak for me sullen misery and degradation.”</p>
-
-<p>“Where did it all happen?”</p>
-
-<p>“Right here in this house,” sighed the woman.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_137"></a>[137]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Here, and you have lived here ever since?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, at least not all of the time; after a few days
-of sobbing, longing for the old life and for Jamie
-returned to me. Then the horrible fact that I could
-never return to Jamie confronted me. Oh, what was
-I to do? With nothing in view and no aim in life, I
-returned to my aunt’s home only to be told that I could
-get out and ‘shift for myself.’ ‘This ain’t no home
-for no good for nuthin’ strumpet like you; clear out, I
-say! You ungrateful hussy.’</p>
-
-<p>“If you will excuse me I will not detail to you
-the feelings of pain which I endured as stings from
-her lash. It is quite enough to be compelled to live
-through such periods without being called upon to
-recite them in after years.</p>
-
-<p>“From there I went to the home of the friend in
-whose house I had met Mr. Winslow, then with that
-feeling of trust and confidence, I told her all; she
-blandly stated that she was sorry, but that I should
-have known better. Oh! that bitter sting, and from
-this woman, who could have taken me in her arms and
-heard my sobs, that act alone, I think, would have consoled
-me some; but no; she who could have replaced
-me upon the pedestal from which all women shine,
-said, ‘Well, run along now, I must dress for Mrs.
-⸺’s reception. Maybe some day I will talk it all
-over with you.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But, oh, please hear me! just a little. Help me,’
-I begged.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I will see; I heard of some one who wanted a good
-girl, and I will try to find out, for you see, Lillian,
-you could do housework.’</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_138"></a>[138]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Bah! ruined, turned into the street, scorned, too
-miserable to live, afraid to die.</p>
-
-<p>“I was not too good, nor too proud to work, but
-that was not what my heart yearned for; pity, love,
-sympathy, a kind look, a gentle touch would have done
-much to heal my troubled mind. I came back to Chicago.
-I went to Mr. Winslow’s cousin; she told me
-the cold, hard, cruel truth. I had been enticed to the
-city for the one purpose of gratifying the amorous desire
-of Mr. Winslow. The truth had long ago forced
-itself upon me, but the confession by the woman who
-had assisted in the plot made me desperate.</p>
-
-<p>“What to do? Where to go, were the questions.
-Home I had none; true friends were far away and
-unknown things to me. The lake! Oh, at last a
-friend, who could receive me in all my sorrow and
-shame, a refuge which never failed to take suffering
-humanity into its safe retreat, giving solace to all
-pain. Yes, I would write to my aunt and Jamie; I
-would confess to them what I was afraid to confront
-God with. My plans were all completed; I had one
-dollar to my name, enough to pay for a night’s lodging
-at some fairly respectable hotel. There I could write
-to them, and then when all was quiet, steal out to the
-pier and * * * then.”</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>“Four o’clock next morning I was ready. I stole
-out of the hotel, wended my way to the nearest place
-where I could walk far out on the timbers which projected
-into the moaning water. No hesitancy on my
-part; I deliberately tied the cord which I had brought
-around my skirts, let my hair down, so that the long<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_139"></a>[139]</span>
-plaits hung below my waist, then pressing the locket,
-(this locket) which contained my father’s miniature,
-to my lips, I leaped as far out as I could.</p>
-
-<p>“Down, down, below the gurgling waters, up to
-the surface, then down again, with just a faint dreamy
-view of the lights on Michigan avenue, then all was
-dark, all I could see was Jamie, as I felt myself being
-pulled along by some irresistible force. I only remember
-saying, ‘Good-bye, Jamie.’”</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>“‘Oh, I think she is alive yet, Capin’,’ was what I
-heard a voice say long before I was able to assure the
-speaker that he was correct.</p>
-
-<p>“I had been picked up by a fisherman as the boat
-was starting out for the day’s haul. I recovered only
-to suffer more, too miserable to live, too unfortunate
-to die. A few days of privation and want brought
-me to this house, where I took up the routine life of
-the other members of the establishment, and vied with
-my associates for favors from the opposite sex. Success
-was the result of my efforts; I was soon known
-as a favorite of the frequenters of the resort; when
-wine held sway in my brain, I was glad the fisherman
-heard the splash of the water. Again, when my brain
-was dull from isolation and inactivity, my heart was
-sad. One evening the bell rang just as it did this
-evening; the signal was given for the ‘ladies’ to appear
-in the parlor, as was the custom when callers
-were announced. With ill-feigned pleasure I led the
-way, being followed by the other girls. I marched
-through the hall, across the back parlor, treading always
-on soft rugs, my white satin gown flowing in<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_140"></a>[140]</span>
-rhythmical time to the strains of the music; and there
-amid the scenes of splendor for which this luxurious
-establishment was noted I found myself standing face
-to face with Jamie. Yes, my own dear, true Jamie.
-Oh, forgive me, sir, for this expression of feeling, but
-again to live those moments of delirious joy, mingled
-with fear and anticipation, is more than I can bear.
-With one bound I left the other girls far behind me.
-Swiftly crossing the room I appealed to him as only
-a love maddened girl can appeal to the object of her
-devotion.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, God! what horrible retribution was about to
-be brought upon me; how much more was I to suffer
-and how long would my breath continue to come in
-sobbing gasps as I begged and prayed and pleaded
-with him to take me in his arms as of old. ‘Jamie,
-Jamie, my own dear Jamie!’ I cried. ‘Hear me, see
-me, touch me! Oh, I beg of you, Jamie, listen. Don’t
-you know it is I? It is your Lillian! What, Jamie,
-don’t you know me?’</p>
-
-<p>“In spite of all my entreaties he stood like stone
-unmoved and unaffected by anything I said or did.
-Presently a new thought struck me. I thought of the
-cottage and of the roses which Jamie loved so well;
-then madly tearing a white rose which I wore on my
-breast I handed it to him, begging him to take it.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Do take it, Jamie,’ I said; ‘it is as pure as I once
-was. Ah, but then you loved me, Jamie, and your
-love was pure, too, was it not? Tell me, Jamie, tell
-me, oh, even if you hate me now, tell me in that same
-soft voice that I know so well, that you loved me then.
-The memory of that love will make me pure again,<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_141"></a>[141]</span>
-Jamie, if you will only speak to me again. Jamie,
-take this rose; take it, Jamie, for the sake of the
-memory of that love which I had for you. I know,
-Jamie, it’s all my fault; it’s not your will that I am
-here; I wronged you cruelly. Don’t you think, Jamie,
-that I have suffered enough, or do you still insist on
-making my life death?’ All my supplication to him
-was in vain. He stood with that firm, determined air
-which I knew so well, with his hand extended with
-palm toward me, as if to push me away as he
-would some vile, loathsome creature. He did not speak
-to me; he seemed to know that he would find me here.
-When I had ceased pleading with him he handed me a
-large white envelope. With feverish delight I clutched
-it. As I did so I saw an inscription upon it. Forgetting
-my pain, misery and degradation, with a wild
-cry I ran to a position near a light. What was it I
-read? ‘To be opened after I am gone.’</p>
-
-<p>“What, I thought, Jamie going? No! he must not.
-Then, turning to go back to Jamie, I was just in time
-to see him place a pistol to his heart and fire. He died
-without a word. The spot over which you see the
-urn full of roses is the exact location where Jamie
-fell. The other girls had left me. There, bending
-over him, frantically tearing his garments to see if I
-might render him some assistance, the white rose
-dropped from my dress where I had carelessly replaced
-it and became stained with Jamie’s life blood,
-making a fitting semblance to the tragedy which had
-been enacted in this same house a few months prior,
-where the spotless character of an innocent girl had<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_142"></a>[142]</span>
-been transformed from pure white to a charred
-remnant.</p>
-
-<p>“They took him away. I saw him once more at the
-morgue; then the officers took me to a cell; then there
-was a trial. I was accused of murdering Jamie and
-almost convicted, when the thought struck me to send
-for the packet which he had placed in my hand. It
-contained, besides this letter, which you may read,
-other things which the letter will make plain:</p>
-
-<div class="blockquote">
-
-<p>“‘My Poor Dear Lillian: As I write this letter I
-know not what your fate is, but I fear that something
-terrible has befallen you. I start out to find you, if on
-earth. Since leaving your old home I have come into
-a large inheritance, which will afford me ample means
-with which to pursue my aim. May God grant that
-I may find you pure and unstained, and that I shall
-be able to take you to my bosom; that we may
-be allowed to enjoy the fruits which have fallen to us
-as two lovers should enjoy life.</p>
-
-<p class="center">“‘Yours lovingly,</p>
-
-<p class="right">‘<span class="smcap">Jamie</span>.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Later.—I have discovered you. My love is
-buried in sorrow; I have nothing to live for, no ambition,
-no soul, no heart. I have but one request,
-which is as follows: You will find enclosed negotiable
-papers to all the wealth which I possess. It is yours;
-the same as my life has been yours. I want you to
-take it and spend it in saving the blossoms of this
-earth. I have yet enough confidence in you to cause me
-to believe that if the circumstances were conducive
-to honor and purity that you would court the same
-with the ambition and zeal which is a part of your
-nature. I leave the method of restitution entirely in<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_143"></a>[143]</span>
-your hands; only asking you in closing to put forth
-your every effort to snatch the burning brands from
-the fiery furnace which is ever ready to engulf the
-innocent, unsophisticated representative of purity.</p>
-
-<p class="center">“‘As ever yours,</p>
-
-<p class="right"><span class="smcap">Jamie</span>.’</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p>“Well,” said I, as I handed the letters back to the
-woman, “do you make much money here? I suppose
-you had a good time while Jamie’s cash lasted?”</p>
-
-<p>“Jamie’s cash is still lasting,” said she.</p>
-
-<p>“You don’t mean to tell me that you have the heart
-to support this place as a house of ill-repute by spending
-poor Jamie’s money in that way?”</p>
-
-<p>“Bless your heart, no. I own this property, a
-monument to Jamie’s pure devotion and good intentions.
-It not only serves to remind me of where I last
-looked upon him alive, thereby making the associations
-more pleasant, but also keeps fresh in my mind
-the night that I leaped in the darkness and landed
-into the mire of debauchery.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do your girls know your story?”</p>
-
-<p>“In part, yes.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do they enjoy the existence of soiled doves?”</p>
-
-<p>“But, my dear sir, they are not soiled doves; they
-are brands which I have snatched from the burning.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then this is not a house of⸺”</p>
-
-<p>“No, sir! This is an harbor of restitution, where
-souls may be anchored to hope, where hope fills the
-heart with a longing for better and purer things; a
-home where I am trying to atone for my own misdeeds.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_144"></a>[144]</span></p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_145"></a>[145]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_EIGHT">TALE EIGHT.<br />
-<span class="smaller">THE VICTIM OF A DRUG.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Blank the mind, sad the heart,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Supple the form, sweet the face;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Pure the soul, sold on the mart,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">To suffer ever in vile disgrace.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Neither bended knees,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Pure hands held out,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Sad sighs, deep groans, nor</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Silvery-shedding tears,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Could penetrate the uncompassionate shout</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">That, in spite of all, fell on her bloodless ears.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“I am sorry,” said the girl, “that you have concluded
-to abandon the detective business, for I am
-sure that you accomplished much good while thus
-engaged.”</p>
-
-<p>If I had not been attracted by the strong personality
-of the speaker I should have been favorably
-impressed with the sincerity of her tone. She was
-pale, very pale; her eyes were large and brown. As
-she spoke she gazed on me with the languid expression
-so in keeping with one of great volume of earnestness.
-Her nose was thin; I might say drawn and
-pinched; her lips as red as cherries, parted slightly
-as the soft words left them, showing a mouth full
-of regular, well-kept teeth. The forehead was not
-higher than the ordinary, but it made a fitting support<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_146"></a>[146]</span>
-for the crown of dark brown hair, which was artistically
-dressed in a manner to form a frame about
-the face, which seemingly did not end at the chin, as
-most faces do, but it was possessed of a broadness
-and deepness of nature which illumined the pallid
-cheeks on either side back as far as the little, thin
-ears.</p>
-
-<p>She was not large, neither could she be considered
-under size, not altogether on account of her stature,
-which might have seemed diminutive to the eye in
-search of physical development, but rather because
-the intelligence which this creature possessed seemed
-to reach out and permeate every nook and corner of
-the lavishly furnished parlor.</p>
-
-<p>“I thank you for your kindly allusion and feel that
-if I have been the cause of good that there must have
-been some good enveloped in the subjects with which
-I had to deal during my professional career. In pursuance
-of the fact that good may come from good, I
-have retired from the secret service business and am
-now preparing a work which will be largely based
-upon the experience of former days. I find it necessary
-for me to glean from others some of the facts of
-their lives in order that I may not digress from the
-truth and that the twenty stories that will compose
-my book may be hinged upon different modes of
-existence, hence my call upon you to-day.</p>
-
-<p>“I well remember the last words you uttered when I
-left you in a convalescent condition in the hospital:
-‘If I can ever serve you, command me.’ I am not
-here to command you, but to ask you for your life’s
-story.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_147"></a>[147]</span></p>
-
-<p>“And did you know, Mr. Spencer, that if you are
-put in possession of the facts as they exist, that you
-will have something which the world knows nothing
-of?”</p>
-
-<p>“I trust, however, that you will place in me the confidence
-of your history.”</p>
-
-<p>“But what time in life do you desire that I begin?”</p>
-
-<p>“I want you to tell me how you happened to come to
-Chicago before I ever met you.”</p>
-
-<p>At this request the woman seemed to draw herself
-together and with a movement of her figure that impressed
-me as a straightening out process, she began
-by saying:</p>
-
-<p>“I came to Chicago when I was sixteen. I came to
-visit my aunt. It was during my last year in high
-school. I don’t believe I had ever known what love
-was. I had lost my mother when an infant. My father
-was a stereotyped business man, with so many affairs
-to keep his mind employed that he evidently did not
-have the time nor inclination to take me in his arms
-and show me any devotion whatever. I had two
-brothers, both of them several years my senior, and
-by the time I was old enough to appreciate the
-brotherly protection and love which their existence
-might have afforded me they were married. True, I
-had my school day episodes of note writing and had
-indulged in the blissful pastime of a few kissing parties,
-but never the full realization of loving caresses.</p>
-
-<p>“I had been in the city three days when I met a
-young man. I was quick to listen to his avowal of
-love. It seemed to bring to me new joys; it directed
-my feet into newer and brighter paths of life and all<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_148"></a>[148]</span>
-wound up with an elopement and a marriage, after
-which I wrote to my father for his blessing and, as
-I have since learned through the influence of my
-step-mother, received his curse. His cold letter informing
-me that if I wished to return to the old
-home and continue in my studies as I had suggested,
-that he would certainly offer no objection, as I was
-now mistress of my own affairs, and if I chose to
-continue in school he could see no reason why I
-should not do so, as the school house still remained.
-Of course, I didn’t go. I fell ill and this necessitated
-the absence of my husband from his duties for
-such a long time that he lost his position.</p>
-
-<p>“When I regained my health I set out to find employment,
-and met with partial success. That is, I
-could have the position on conditions, one of them
-being that I was not married and that I would not
-marry while in their employ. I was compelled to
-sign an affidavit to that effect.</p>
-
-<p>“The position which I obtained seemed to me of
-little importance. I was reception lady in the office
-of a coterie of physicians, who announced themselves
-on gayly printed circulars as the medical staff of a
-certain institution, each one being a specialist in treating
-different afflictions. My duties required me to
-report at the office at 10 in the morning and remain
-there until 4 in the afternoon. I went along in the
-even tenor of my way for six months, during which
-time my husband was searching for employment. He
-came to me one day, the first time that he had been
-in the office since my entrance there, to tell me that
-he had a position offered him, but that he must acknowledge<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_149"></a>[149]</span>
-that he was married, as the gentleman
-who wished to employ him could not engage a single
-man.</p>
-
-<p>“Our work was to consist of caring for an invalid
-who was kept in a beautiful cottage in the outskirts
-of the city.</p>
-
-<p>“We fully considered the conditions, terms, etc.,
-and decided to accept the trust. I gave notice to my
-employers that I should leave, but agreed to remain
-one week through courtesy. Three days before I
-was to leave a gentleman of middle age, one who
-often came to the office and held long consultations
-with one or two members of the staff and frequently
-went away with them, came out of the private office of
-one of the physicians and approached me, saying:
-‘Much to my regret, I have just learned that you are
-about to leave the establishment. I have a little gift
-here which I wish to give you in consideration of
-your kind treatment of me during my many calls.’”</p>
-
-<p>As the girl’s voice fell and ended in a soft monotone
-she drew from her bosom a little chamois pouch and
-took from that a ring set with a beautiful diamond.</p>
-
-<p>“And this,” she said, as she touched it with her
-lips, while the tears which gleamed in her eyes outshone
-the gem itself, “this I have kept.”</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose there must be some little sentiment clinging
-to the bitter cruelty which makes it as precious
-to you as the sweet violets are to the lover of dainty
-flowers.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” she said, “the fact that I have kept this ring
-is, in part, the reason of my long suffering, but as it
-was given to me, according to my belief, in purity, I<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_150"></a>[150]</span>
-kept it in memory of the thoughts which emanated
-from my heart when I took it. My mind was as pure
-then as the gem itself. If I have become contaminated
-by adversity I can proudly say that this gleaming
-white stone, on account of its flinty hardness, has
-escaped the fire of degradation.</p>
-
-<p>“It was five days subsequent to our going to the
-cottage that my husband and I were seated on the
-veranda of our little cottage, congratulating ourselves
-on having secured such an easy position and liberal
-compensation for the light services rendered.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I wonder,’ said Dan, ‘why the old gentleman
-doesn’t take her to some private hospital, where she
-could receive proper medical attention, as well as the
-benefit of trained nurses?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But you know, dear,’ said I, ‘that a rich man
-does not like to have his daughter in an asylum; and
-besides I don’t think we should complain, because
-the care of this poor girl is not a great burden and
-her unbalanced condition serves for us to be together
-all the time.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, I know,’ said Dannie; ‘but I can’t stand it
-to hear her moan and weep the way she does. Sometimes
-in the night when I am but half asleep her
-screams and groans disturb me so that I get to dreaming
-somehow or other that it is you who are locked up
-in that horrible but softly padded room. It is so real
-that it is like a nightmare, and finally, as I fancy myself
-struggling against a wall trying to free you, with a
-mighty lunge I awake, and while I then know it is
-only a dream I am dripping with cold perspiration.
-My nerves are all unstrung, and I feel just like reaching<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_151"></a>[151]</span>
-over and taking you in my arms and running away,
-leaving the old man and his crazy daughter far behind.’”</p>
-
-<p>“Then it really was a crazy girl you had to care for?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, yes. You see, this old gentleman had married
-years ago. I remember how he told us all about it.
-How his sweet young wife had been killed in a railroad
-accident and his little daughter went raving mad
-when her mother’s mangled form was brought home
-to her. And he seemed to be doing all he could to
-make the poor demented creature happy.”</p>
-
-<p>At this she laughed discordantly. It seemed so out
-of place to me, for to look at her and hear her voice
-was to be inspired with a sense of harmony.</p>
-
-<p>“I left my chair and went over to him. I crawled
-up into his lap and nestled my face against his. ‘You
-mustn’t dream that way, dear,’ said I. ‘It is bad for
-you, and besides you know I am always by your
-side.’</p>
-
-<p>“One day when I had gone to the city to do some
-shopping the man who had engaged my husband
-came out to the cottage to have a talk with him. When
-I came home I found my husband all excitement.</p>
-
-<p>“‘What in the world is the matter with you?’ said I.
-‘Mr. Leighton was here to-day and he wants me to
-leave you in direct charge of things here while I go
-out West and look after his interests in the oil fields.’
-He had given him a week in which to decide whether
-or not he would go, but I could see that Dannie feared
-to refuse. I cried and clung to him, for I couldn’t
-bear to be separated from him; so he decided not to go.</p>
-
-<p>“When he went to the city to meet Mr. Leighton and<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_152"></a>[152]</span>
-give him his decision Mr. Leighton was quite haughty
-and seemed offended. He as good as told Dan that
-if he did not go he would have to find some one else
-to go to the cottage and take care of the invalid.</p>
-
-<p>“Dan came home thoroughly disheartened. I tried
-to cheer him and said maybe I could go with him, but
-he said no, he had asked Mr. Leighton about that and
-he had very decidedly said that it would not do. We
-talked it all over quietly and the question resolved
-itself into a matter of dollars and cents. If Dan refused
-to go we must give up the cottage, and that
-meant all our income. If he went he would be well
-paid in addition to the amount we received for the
-care of the cottage. So we decided that it was best
-for him to go and we would try and save enough money
-to start in business.</p>
-
-<p>“After Dannie left I took up the duties of nurse,
-for which I was not altogether unfitted, being patient
-and persevering.</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Leighton’s daughter was as frail as a lily, and
-when I took her meals in to her I used to sit and
-watch her and wonder how she lived, for she ate
-almost nothing.</p>
-
-<p>“I concluded it must be the medicine which she took
-in the wine that gave her the little vitality she possessed.</p>
-
-<p>“She rarely noticed me and I am sure my coming
-and going was of no interest to her. She was not
-often violent these days; on the contrary, she was very
-tractable.</p>
-
-<p>“Two weeks had passed since Dannie left and I had
-had three letters from him, all of which breathed of<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_153"></a>[153]</span>
-his love and devotion to me and bade me be cheerful,
-that the time would soon pass and we would be reunited.
-No word had been received from Mr. Leighton
-yet, and I was just wondering what had become
-of him when the bell rang. When I was called down
-to the parlor whom should I meet but the kind gentleman
-who gave me the ring, Mr. Price.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I am ever so glad to see you,’ said I; but I don’t
-believe my tones half expressed my feelings, for I
-was so lonely there, all alone with that poor girl, with
-only the servants for companions. Our cottage was
-built in the center of a large plot of ground, and there
-were no houses very near us. Mr. Leighton told Dan
-that he had built the house that way purposely, so
-Lita’s ravings would not disturb the neighbors.</p>
-
-<p>“‘How in the world did you happen to come here,
-Mr. Price?’ said I.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Well, you see—I—I am Lita’s father.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Why, what do you mean? Lita’s father’s name is
-Mr. Leighton.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, I know; but I can explain it all to you in a
-few moments. It is such a terrible thing, I could not
-endure to have it generally known that my daughter
-was hopelessly insane, so when I arranged to have
-her brought here I decided it was best to have her
-known as Lita Leighton.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, yes,’ said I, ‘it must be very terrible to have
-such a misfortune befall a member of one’s family; but
-you surely couldn’t call it a disgrace.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Well, perhaps not; but, you know, it would injure
-my business if it were known. But what are you
-doing here?’ he said.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_154"></a>[154]</span></p>
-
-<p>“‘Why, I am Dannie’s wife.’</p>
-
-<p>“He seemed to be greatly surprised, and asked me
-why I did not tell him long before. I told him that
-I could not occupy the position which I held when he
-first met me if it had become known that I was married.
-I followed on with my whole life’s story, and
-he shed tears at my recital of woes and my father’s
-unkind treatment.</p>
-
-<p>“‘How I should have cherished such a beautiful
-daughter,’ said he, and came over to my chair, bent
-over and kissed me. ‘Won’t you be a daughter to me
-in place of my poor demented Lita?’</p>
-
-<p>“My heart went out to him then and there, and I
-put my arms around his neck and kissed him.</p>
-
-<p>“By and by we went in to see Lita. At the sight of
-her father and me she ran into the furthest corner and
-no amount of coaxing could induce her to come out.
-Finally he asked me to leave him alone with her. Just
-as I was leaving I saw him give her her medicine.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh,’ I exclaimed, ‘it is not time to give her that
-yet.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘It is harmless enough,’ he said, closing the door.</p>
-
-<p>“He remained in her room an hour or more and left
-the house soon after. At parting he said: ‘I shall
-come out often now, because I have two daughters
-instead of one to visit.’</p>
-
-<p>“That night Lita was very violent. She shrieked
-and moaned most pitifully. My heart ached for her,
-but I did not dare to go to her while she was in such
-a state.</p>
-
-<p>“At last she fell asleep, I suppose, for she ceased
-her ravings. When I took her breakfast to her the<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_155"></a>[155]</span>
-following morning I found her prone upon the floor,
-with hands clinched together as if in mortal agony.
-I was horror-stricken. I had never seen her like this
-before and had never heard that she had spells like
-this.</p>
-
-<p>“She looked like death, and without regard to the
-strict orders we had had, never to call in a stranger,
-I fairly flew to the nearest doctor’s office.</p>
-
-<p>“He responded at once, and after heroic treatments
-revived her. He asked to see the medicine we had
-been giving her. I showed it to him and he examined
-it critically, then looked grave.</p>
-
-<p>“‘This is a drug which should not be administered
-except in an extreme case and then only in small doses,’
-he said.</p>
-
-<p>“Then I explained to him how her father had been
-there and how Lita had acted, and that it must have
-been necessary or he would not have given it. He
-told me I must not give her any more of it for three
-days and at the end of that time he would call again.</p>
-
-<p>“After he had gone I went in to see Lita and she
-seemed brighter than I had ever seen her. On the
-evening of the second day she showed real interest in
-things and had a good appetite. There was a faint
-tinge of red in her cheeks and she was almost pretty.</p>
-
-<p>“She asked me who I was and what my name was.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I am your nurse, and you have been very ill, but
-are getting better now,’ said I, ‘and my name is quite
-a little like yours; it is Anita.’</p>
-
-<p>“I was so delighted at her apparent improvement
-that I determined to write her father the good news,<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_156"></a>[156]</span>
-but on second thought concluded I would not, as he
-had said he would come out often.</p>
-
-<p>“On the third day the doctor called and was greatly
-pleased at his patient’s progress. ‘Just continue to
-give her this tonic and keep the other away from her,’
-said he.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I think you had better not tell her father what
-we have done if he calls soon; better wait a couple of
-weeks and surprise him.’</p>
-
-<p>“Then I thought of my orders not to call in a
-stranger and told the doctor about it. He passed the
-matter by as a trifle, saying: ‘They probably feared
-the excitement.’</p>
-
-<p>“Two weeks passed and no Mr. Leighton and no
-word from Dannie. I was getting desperate at
-Dannie’s neglect and telegraphed him. The telegram
-came back, so I knew it had not found him. Mr.
-Leighton came the same afternoon and found me a
-pitiful looking object. My eyes were red and swollen
-with weeping.</p>
-
-<p>“‘What is the matter with you, little daughter?’
-said he, kissing me on each cheek.</p>
-
-<p>“I told him about Dannie and he begged me not to
-worry; that he was probably out of town in the oil
-fields and too busy to write.</p>
-
-<p>“We went in together to see Lita, and she acted as
-she had done on the previous occasion when he called.
-He did not stay long with her, but devoted most of
-his time to me, trying to cheer me up, which he certainly
-knew how to do. He remained to dinner and
-brought out some of the wine which we kept for Lita’s
-use.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_157"></a>[157]</span></p>
-
-<p>“After dinner I felt so drowsy that I laid down and
-he covered me up carefully and told me to take a good
-sleep; that he would take a late train to the city.</p>
-
-<p>“That was the last innocent sleep I had. When I
-awoke, in the night, I was undressed and in bed. I
-could not think where I was, and when I turned I
-thought Dannie was there and I put my arms about
-him.</p>
-
-<p>“When morning came—ah! how can I tell it?” she
-said shuddering. “When morning came—well, I knew
-I was no longer what I had been—a true wife.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Leighton was very tender to me and tried to
-soothe my feverish unrest, and after awhile I passed
-into a quiet slumber. When I awoke I was alone. It
-was late in the afternoon and I thought with a start of
-Lita.</p>
-
-<p>“When I entered her room she came toward me with
-outstretched arms.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I am so glad to see you, Anita,’ she said. ‘Where
-have you been all this time? If you had not locked
-me in so securely, I should have found you before this
-time.’ She pulled me down on her cot and said: ‘I
-want to tell you something.’</p>
-
-<p>“I always indulged her whims, so I sat down beside
-her.</p>
-
-<p>“‘You have been so good to me that I have learned
-to love you, Anita, and I want you to love me, too; but
-I have much to tell you, and maybe you will hate me
-when you have heard all,’ she said, her lips quivering.</p>
-
-<p>“I was surprised at her rational manner, yet delighted.
-I put my arms around her and said: ‘Tell<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_158"></a>[158]</span>
-me all, Lita. I shall not hate you, no matter how
-bad it is.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘You think I am crazy, but I am not,’ she said,
-‘although I have had enough to make me so in the
-past two years. My senses have been so benumbed
-since I have been here that I don’t know all I have
-done. I have had a terrible experience, and my mother
-is the cause of it all. Several years ago my father
-began to speculate; he was a wealthy man at that time,
-but with the speculation the trouble began. He became
-deeply involved, and when one of his creditors fell on
-him and demanded a settlement he collapsed. My
-mother met the man and he demanded me as the
-price of liquidation. Rather than suffer the financial
-loss and the disgrace of the penitentiary, which stared
-my father in the face, my mother sold my honor, my
-virtue, my all to this scoundrel who poses as my
-father. He took me abroad with him and traveled with
-me as my husband. He was ideally kind to me for
-more than a year, or until he had worn me out and my
-health began to fail. Little by little he began to
-neglect me, and at last I was furious. One night when
-he did condescend to come home I met him at my door
-with a revolver and told him to take another step at his
-peril. This was the beginning of the end. As soon as
-we returned to this country he brought me directly to
-Chicago, where he had me examined and pronounced
-of unsound mind. After that he kept me under the
-influence of some opiate and the next thing I knew
-I was here, in this cottage. It is no wonder I have
-acted insane, no wonder they padded this room to
-keep me from doing myself violence. Every time he<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_159"></a>[159]</span>
-came here he gave me more medicine and then treated
-me with every indignity possible. I grew to loathe
-him and feared the very sight of him. Since this
-doctor came I feel so much better, and I am going to
-get well and punish that vile man.’</p>
-
-<p>“I was so filled with dismay I could only gasp: ‘And
-this man isn’t your father after all?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, indeed,’ she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, as you may imagine, my suspicions were
-aroused; yet I felt, too, the whole story might be the
-vagary of her imagination.</p>
-
-<p>“After thinking it over I resolved to tell Mr. Leighton
-all. While he talked to me and I was under his
-mesmeric influence my suspicions were lulled to rest
-and I felt that he was the best and kindest man I had
-ever met.</p>
-
-<p>“One day soon after this I received a telegram stating
-that Dannie was dead. I got Mr. Leighton to investigate
-the matter and he found it was too true. He had
-been killed and robbed. For a time I was inconsolable,
-and it was then that Mr. Leighton was most tender.
-When I began to recover from the blow I wondered
-why he had not asked me to be his wife, for he had
-often told me he loved me better than his life. I waited
-several weeks and he said no word, so I finally decided
-to speak of the matter myself, thinking he might feel
-reticent considering my recent bereavement.</p>
-
-<p>“When I did muster up courage to speak to him he
-said: ‘Why, my dear, when I marry and give a woman
-my name she must be pure.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘And if I am not pure, who is to blame?’ said I,
-quivering with rage.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_160"></a>[160]</span></p>
-
-<p>“‘There, there, we won’t talk about it any more,’
-said he.</p>
-
-<p>“He went away and left me in an agony of despair.
-I went to Lita’s room and told her the whole story, for
-I knew she was rational and had told me the truth.</p>
-
-<p>“When I had sobbed out all my troubles on her
-breast she soothed me and said: ‘Listen, Anita, you
-will believe me, I am sure, so I will tell you something.
-Dr. Snyder, whom you called in that day I was so ill,
-has learned to love me. He knows all my story and is
-willing to marry me. We were going to run away
-from here together at the first opportunity. If you
-will, you shall go with us. We are going to have a
-beautiful home on Drexel Boulevard, and you will be
-a most welcome guest.’”</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose this is the place,” said I. “You certainly
-have a lovely home.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, and Lita has more than repaid me for what I
-did for her. The doctor went to the doctors who
-employed me before we took the cottage and learned
-all about his doings. He had him arrested and he is
-now languishing in jail. Dannie will be here in three
-days now. Oh, I am so happy!”</p>
-
-<p>“Dannie! Why, I thought you said he was dead?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, you see, that was a part of Mr. Leighton’s
-nefarious plot. He intercepted all the letters that
-passed between Dannie and me and bribed a man to
-send that telegram to me; then sent a man to Dannie to
-prove I was untrue to him.</p>
-
-<p>“He seemed to be highly successful in carrying out
-his plans for a long time, but you see he was caught
-in his own toils.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_161"></a>[161]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Dr. Snyder was so kind that he went out West and
-searched for Dannie until he found him and told him
-all and Dannie forgave everything. He had invested
-some of his money in the oil lands there and we will
-have plenty of money now, for they turned out well.
-He was coming to me on the first train, but the doctor
-prevailed upon him to stay and finish up his affairs
-first, so that he would not lose anything.</p>
-
-<p>“Just think! only three days more until we are reunited.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_162"></a>[162]</span></p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_163"></a>[163]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_NINE">TALE NINE.<br />
-<span class="smaller">WHAT HAPPENED TO A GIRL WHO FLIRTED.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“The thorns which I have reap’d are of the tree</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">I planted,—they have torn me and I bleed:</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">I should have known what fruit would spring from such a seed.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“If all girls had as bitter an experience as I had,
-and all brought about by their first venture at flirting,
-I am sure there would be less of it.</p>
-
-<p>“I had lived in Chicago a number of years, but had
-been so carefully reared that I knew absolutely nothing
-of the snares set for the feet of the unsophisticated.</p>
-
-<p>“My parents died within a few weeks of each other
-and I was left all alone, so far as near relatives were
-concerned. After the estate was settled up and I had
-recovered from the shock of their death, I was left
-to my own devices, and while I had many invitations
-to make my home with relatives I decided I should
-like to be alone for awhile, so I went to live with a
-widow and her daughter. I enjoyed my Bohemian
-life very much, for it was such a change from the old
-way of living and I was bent on making the most of it.
-I was engaged to a young man from the South at this
-time. He was a young man of the highest principles
-and unimpeachable honor, and one of whom my parents
-thoroughly approved. I think mamma felt quite
-happy and resigned when she took Will’s hand and<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_164"></a>[164]</span>
-placed mine in it and said: ‘Will, you will take good
-care of my baby after I am gone, for I shall leave you
-all very soon now. I shall die happy if I have your
-promise,’ she said faintly.</p>
-
-<p>“He leaned over her and said: ‘Mother, dear, I
-promise. Agneta shall always have my tenderest love
-and devotion.’</p>
-
-<p>“Well, as I was saying, I went to live with this kind
-family and they granted me every privilege that I
-could have had in my own home. Will was an ideal
-lover and caretaker; in fact, he was too good, and I
-was not sensible enough to appreciate it then. Ah, if
-I could only live over the old days once more, things
-might have been different. One needs to live three
-score and ten years before one knows how to live.</p>
-
-<p>“One day I dressed myself with unusual care, entirely
-in black, of course, but it was quite as becoming
-as any color. I could not have told why I was so
-painstaking in making my toilet; it must have been
-an unkind fate at work while the angel guardian of
-my peace and happiness, slept.</p>
-
-<p>“I bought a few articles at Field’s and ordered them
-sent out, then went up to the waiting room on the
-second floor, where I could look down from the gallery
-to the main floor and watch the throng of shoppers.
-While I was sitting there I saw a fine looking young
-man standing near me, engaged in conversation with
-some ladies. At the first glance I took him to be an
-old acquaintance of mine. He was not very tall, but
-had beautiful wavy black hair and eyes of a soft
-brown.</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose my gaze, which was a little more ardent<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_165"></a>[165]</span>
-than custom would permit, attracted his attention, for
-he glanced at me frequently, and as those things sometimes
-happen caught my glance every time. I knew
-by this time that he was not the acquaintance for whom
-I had taken him the first time I looked at him, but his
-face was so handsome it seemed to fascinate me, although
-on a closer inspection it was slightly effeminate.
-I think we kept that up for nearly half an hour, but
-all this time no word was spoken. I decided that I
-had better leave, and I arose to go and was soon lost
-in the throng. I was walking east on Madison when
-someone walked up beside me and tipping his hat said:
-‘Pardon me, may I walk with you?’</p>
-
-<p>“I was not so disconcerted as I had always supposed
-a girl must feel under such circumstances. I looked
-around and, of course, it was not the young man, but
-Will. I was half vexed and treated him very coldly,
-until he told me that he had seen me at Field’s and
-had noticed the conduct of the man in question who
-had held my attention so long, and believed he had evil
-designs on me.</p>
-
-<p>“This made me really angry, and I told him that was
-just like a man to think that every glance another man
-bestowed upon the woman he loved was evil. ‘One
-would think I had no individuality, no charm of person
-at all to hear you talk,’ I said.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Well, I know the men better than you do, dear;
-so please be careful, won’t you? Men never have a
-good opinion of a woman who will flirt with them.’</p>
-
-<p>“Now, you see, if there is anything a girl hates it is
-to have her sweetheart assume superiority over her<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_166"></a>[166]</span>
-in knowledge of men; so it all combined to make me
-disagreeable.</p>
-
-<p>“He walked as far as Lyon &amp; Healy’s with me and
-I went in to buy some music. He went on back to
-his office. After I had bought my music I sauntered
-into the room where the pianolas are on exhibition
-and sat down near the window to listen to the music.
-It was not long before some one at my elbow said:
-‘How do you do? I have been trying to find you
-ever since you left Field’s, and was just despairing
-when I passed this window and saw you. Are you
-enjoying the music?’</p>
-
-<p>“I looked up into two brown eyes and my heart
-fluttered painfully.</p>
-
-<p>“No, I didn’t feel any remorse yet, for I was still
-piqued at Will’s interference with my innocent pastime
-and what he had said still rankled in my heart.</p>
-
-<p>“He sat down and we talked a few moments, and
-then he suggested that we walk up to the Auditorium
-and sit in the parlor, as it would be so much more quiet
-there. So I walked up there with him. We had a very
-pleasant chat and I thought more and more how ill-timed
-Will’s remarks were and how unjust. Why,
-this man was every bit as much a gentleman as Will
-himself.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Pardon me, but are you not in mourning?’ he
-asked, noting my black apparel. ‘As you have probably
-noticed, I am wearing deep mourning and perhaps
-that is why I noticed yours.’</p>
-
-<p>“I told him the circumstances, and then he told me
-he was mourning the loss of his wife, who had been
-dead three months. He seemed to feel like talking of<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_167"></a>[167]</span>
-her, so I encouraged him, thinking it might be a relief
-to his feelings. He did not say a great deal, except
-that they were very happy and she died, leaving a
-sweet baby girl, who survived her mother seven weeks.</p>
-
-<p>“When at last I arose to go he laid a detaining hand
-on me and said: ‘Allow me to present my card, and
-will you allow me to call?</p>
-
-<p>“‘I should like to tell you all about our life, if it will
-not bore you. You are such a sympathetic little woman
-that it will be a great relief to unburden my heart to
-you.’ Tears stood in his eyes as he spoke. If there
-was anything needed to win me, more than his words,
-it was those tears. So, after hesitating a little and
-alluding to the unconventional manner in which we
-met, he said: ‘I know; I can understand how you
-might feel, but this is not a day of strict conventionalities,
-and you know that if we all waited for a formal
-introduction we should miss a great deal in the world.
-Many of the truest friendships are formed in this
-way.’</p>
-
-<p>“So we decided on the following Wednesday. I suggested
-that night because I knew Will would be out
-of the city on that night.</p>
-
-<p>“Wednesday night came at last and found me waiting
-expectantly. I was delighted at the prospect of
-doing something a little risque. He came and I introduced
-him to my friends and they were very favorably
-impressed with him, I could see by their actions. I
-didn’t tell them how I met him though. After visiting
-awhile he asked me if I would not go down town and
-have dinner with him, and I thought that would be
-fine. We drove down town and stopped in front of a<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_168"></a>[168]</span>
-well-known restaurant; that is, well known to all but
-the novice.</p>
-
-<p>“We alighted and were shown to a little room, which
-I have since learned was a private dining room. I
-did not exactly like the idea of being shut up in a
-room alone with him at the time, but did not dare
-comment on the matter for fear of showing my ignorance.
-He ordered a nice dinner and asked me what
-I would have to drink. I told him I never drank, so
-he did not insist on my taking anything, but ordered
-whiskey for himself. On the pretext of getting his
-handkerchief out of his overcoat, which hung back of
-me, he passed me and bent over and kissed me. Not a
-kiss of respect, but a kiss of vile, lecherous passion,
-and one, no doubt, intended to inflame me. I pushed
-him away from me disgusted and reprimanded him
-severely. He apologized and said: ‘You are so sweet,
-so irresistible I could not help it.’</p>
-
-<p>“After dinner he came over to me again and kissed
-me. I was very angry this time and resolved to go
-home at once. He pushed me down into the chair and
-told me I could not go yet. I finally succeeded in
-rising to my feet and he sat down in the chair I vacated
-and pulled me down in his lap. I struggled to free
-myself and reached the door. He caught me in his
-arms and pressed me to him in a passionate embrace,
-raining burning kisses on my face. He subjected me
-to every indignity that was possible considering that
-I was fighting all the time to get away. I tried to reach
-the electric bell and summon aid, but he divined my intention
-and drew me back. I was afraid to scream for
-fear of creating a scene and perhaps getting my name<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_169"></a>[169]</span>
-in the paper in connection with such a scandalous
-affair.</p>
-
-<p>“I prayed for deliverance from that man as I never
-prayed before in all my life, and promised myself if I
-got home safely I would never, never flirt with anyone
-again.</p>
-
-<p>“As if in answer to my prayer, a thought flashed
-across my brain. My hat pins! They were of very
-stiff steel, and I snatched one out of my hat and
-plunged it viciously into his arm. It broke. I took
-the other and struck him with all my strength and
-that broke and I could not see that I had hurt him a
-particle. My strength was fast giving out, and I was
-in despair. I feared he would force me to yield that
-which I would rather die than part with. But joy! by
-this time the blood was running down his arm in a
-stream. He saw it and let me go. ‘My God! girl!
-What have you done? Look at the blood!’</p>
-
-<p>“He took off his coat and rolled up his shirt sleeve.
-His heavy flannel undershirt was saturated with blood.
-The pin points had entered the upper arm with great
-force and the wounds were bleeding profusely. I felt
-sorry when I saw what I had done, and I offered to
-bind them up for him. He gave me his handkerchief
-and I bandaged it up tightly. Then he sat down, pale
-and trembling, weak from the loss of blood. I was in
-about the same condition from nervousness. He urged
-me to take a stimulant of some kind, and I finally consented
-and took my first drink of whiskey and absinthe.
-He told me all about his wife and how happy they had
-been the one short year she had been spared to him.
-He told me how she suffered on her deathbed and with<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_170"></a>[170]</span>
-what fortitude she bore up under it, trying with her
-last breath to cheer him and asking him to live for
-her baby’s sake.</p>
-
-<p>“The tears rolled down his cheeks and I cried in
-sympathy.</p>
-
-<p>“‘My angel wife is dead and her baby—our baby.
-No one cares for me now nor what I do. I have lost
-all my friends since she died and nearly all my money.
-I have been drinking and gambling and was in my cups
-when I came to you to-night. I would not hesitate
-a minute to kill myself if it were not for the fear that
-I should never meet her in heaven.”</p>
-
-<p>“‘Do you think what you have done to-night would
-please her if she can look down and see you? You deliberately
-enticed an innocent girl here, one whom you
-surely must know was innocent, and for what purpose
-I can form but one opinion.’</p>
-
-<p>“He went down on his knees beside me and begged
-my forgiveness.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Give me one kiss to show me that you forgive
-me,’ he said.</p>
-
-<p>“He called the waiter and ordered another drink
-apiece, which I should not have taken. It went to my
-head and when I tried to walk I staggered. He took
-me in his arms and that is the last I remember until I
-felt the wind blowing on my face.</p>
-
-<p>“I was leaning against him in the carriage. I did
-not know where I was going and I did not care. The
-thought of Will came to me but dimly. I felt no compunction,
-and if I had it would not have aroused me
-from my stupor sufficiently to make me active.</p>
-
-<p>“When I came to my senses I was home, thank<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_171"></a>[171]</span>
-heaven! Just as pure as when I left. They told me
-I had been brought home ill; had had a sudden attack
-of heart failure and had been given something to stimulate
-me. So much for the whiskey breath.</p>
-
-<p>“When Will returned I met him as usual, but with,
-oh, so much keener appreciation of his goodness than
-I had ever felt before. I had had an experience which
-taught me his sterling worth. I realized how unscrupulous
-men were when they had no interest in a woman
-beyond that of a passing fancy.</p>
-
-<p>“No, I have not told Will. I could not see that it
-would do any good. I committed one indiscretion and
-I think I should commit another if I told him. He
-might not forgive me, or, if he did, he would never
-feel quite the same toward me, perhaps, and both his
-happiness and mine would be ruined. I say ruined,
-for we are certainly very congenial and I believe God
-intended us for each other, and perhaps it was part of
-His divine providence that I passed through what
-I did.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_172"></a>[172]</span></p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_173"></a>[173]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_TEN">TALE TEN.<br />
-<span class="smaller">SOLD AT A FIXED PRICE.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="center">TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“By thine own soul’s law learn to live,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">And if men thwart thee, take no heed,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And if men hate thee, have no care;</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Sing thou thy song and do thy deed.</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Hope thou thy hope and pray thy prayer,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">And claim no crown they will not give,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Nor bays they grudge thee for thy hair.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Keep thou thy soul-sworn, steadfast oath,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">And to thy heart be true thy heart;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">What thy soul teaches learn to know,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">And play out thine appointed part,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And thou shalt reap as thou shalt sow,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Nor helped nor hindered in thy growth,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">To thy full stature thou shalt grow.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Fix on the future’s goal thy face,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">And let thy feet be lured to stray</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Nowhither, but be swift to run,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">And nowhere tarry by the way,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Until at last the end is won</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">And thou mayst look back from thy place</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And see thy long day’s journey done.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“Dearest Arthur: Sounds strange, does it not, or,
-perhaps, no sound escapes your lips as your eyes scan
-this letter. I write you; you are surprised, I know, but
-you should not be, for stranger things than this have<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_174"></a>[174]</span>
-happened. My reasons for writing, I say reasons
-because they are numerous, will be divulged either by
-statements from my pen or by a critical reading between
-the lines.</p>
-
-<p>“You asked me to write, though why you should
-have done so is more than I am able to determine. I
-am sure it was not all love which prompted you to
-make the request. I feel that you did at one time
-love me. No, a man of your force of character cannot
-love truly and allow that love to die while the object
-of his devotion lives. If you ever loved, you still
-love. The only question that remains unanswered is,
-‘Am I the only one to whom your whole heart has
-gone out?’ Be that as it may, I have concluded that,
-wise or unwise, right or wrong, the same untiring love
-which has inspired me to worship you, day by day
-and the long night through, since first we met, must
-live on until the words, ‘Dust to dust’ have echoed
-through the tall pines and rolling mounds of our
-Southern city of the dead, while the clods fall heavily
-on the rough box that contains my casket. I feel I
-could court even death while reveling in the sunshine
-of your beauteous love, and smilingly challenge the
-chords of life to snap and precipitate me into that
-unknown beyond, with the memory of your dear kisses
-on my cold, blue lips.</p>
-
-<p>“I feel that way now, when so many leagues separate
-us, but I presume that should I be blessed with one
-smile from you, I should want to live always. I think
-one slight token of recognition, one little sign of
-memory of the old days, spreading over your features
-would be food and drink to me ever. But such joys<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_175"></a>[175]</span>
-do not spread themselves on my table of anticipation.
-I know not love. I only know what it is to love. I
-have hesitated about writing you as I shall before I
-close.</p>
-
-<p>“I have wondered if by holding open the bleeding
-wounds of my breast, the breast you have made love to,
-the breast that gave life and strength to your child,
-while the thrills of motherhood overcame me even to
-tears of joy, would pain you. I have summed it all
-up and have concluded that nothing will pain you, so
-will not hesitate to show to you the every heart-beat as
-it forces the blood through the veins which your heartless
-acts have drained. Forgive me, darling, if I inflict
-any injury upon your feelings by any reference to the
-past, but then you know your short note said, ‘Do not
-conceal a single thought nor withhold one particle of
-the emotion with which your voluptuous body abounds.’
-I will pour out the soul that you have penned up. I
-will account to you for the acts which you refer to as
-unladylike. I will bring to your mind new fancies,
-born of reflection. I will accuse you of no wrong,
-for you in your exalted goodness and influential position
-must know right from wrong. If I am wrong,
-God is just. If He allowed you to misjudge me, I
-beseech Him to prevent you from branding another
-woman with the same iron. While I have been writing
-one day has died and another been born. With the
-passing of the hour I have passed another milepost.
-I am now one year older. My birthday and my baby
-are the only things I can claim without dispute as to
-title.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_176"></a>[176]</span></p>
-
-<p>“I have been to his bed, the baby’s bed, and shall
-I tell you—his father—how sweetly he sleeps, how my
-burning kisses did not startle him? You will know
-whether or not these lips of mine will arouse a man
-to his greatest efforts. You, and you alone, have tasted
-the sweets that I longed to lavish upon you until
-satiety was a far away and unknown thing.</p>
-
-<p>“You said: ‘Write. I am interested in your welfare.’</p>
-
-<p>“I believe you, for you fear me as the bleating lamb
-fears the ravenous wolf; but fear not, oh, god of mine;
-you are my child’s father, and for the gracious act of
-begetting me an image of thine own self I shall always
-be devoted to you.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, that I could live on and on into the ages that
-are only obscured by oblivion. But no. Face to face
-with a world, I must accept death as a charm to enduring
-existence. You must know, dearest, that I love
-you, have always loved you and shall always love you.
-As I sit and look into the fire which from great red
-flames has sunk to an ember glow, I liken it to your
-love; for in the manliness of your youthfulness you
-loved me with a passion that was all consuming. I
-bathed your soul in the divine worship and devotion
-such as only a pure woman can pour out on a man
-whom she extols above all others. In your letter there
-appears not one allusion to love. Is it possible that you
-do not love me? You who have held me so close
-while spasms of delight have shaken your stalwart
-frame, and the flame of passion has reddened your
-otherwise placid brow, while exclamations of joy
-poured forth from your lips between the spasmodic<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_177"></a>[177]</span>
-kisses which held my lips as in a vice. You, a man
-of equal parts, do not mention love; you may remain
-silent on that subject, but if you tell yourself that you
-do not love you <i>lie</i>, and your heart bears witness to it.</p>
-
-<p>“You can love; I know you can, for I can love with a
-wild desire to die in your arms, and I am a student of
-no school but your own.</p>
-
-<p>“Do you imagine that the cold indifference which
-your letter displays will have a tendency to lessen my
-love for you? Do not be misled, I beg of you, for you
-once descended from your proud station to make love
-to me, and I have treasured that love and it has grown
-into such a mountain that no chasm of indifference can
-ever engulf it, and remember you are his father—my
-child’s father. He would love you, too, for having
-loved me, if for no other reason, for, God bless him,
-he is in love with your old sweetheart. Where I go
-he will go. I do not love you still with the hope that
-as in our case at first, love begets love.</p>
-
-<p>“I have long since learned to live to love, and expect
-nothing but dreams in return. You did love me.
-No, you did not, or else all the world could not have
-torn you from me; but you cannot love another. I
-wish you might, for the goodness which lies within you
-would shine out and light a world of laggards.</p>
-
-<p>“You ask me if I am comfortable. Yes. I have
-everything that my physical needs require. I have a
-good home and plenty to eat and wear. You say you
-often wonder how I manage to get along in such an
-expensive city. Now, if you mean that, you love me
-and you feel that every dollar I have comes without
-the soil of dishonor. I will tell you how I—we—live.<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_178"></a>[178]</span>
-You have raved over my figure; you have worshipped
-my body as though the presence of my heart were an
-unheard of thing. Other men have evidently been
-schooled in the same house of learning as you, for
-they, too, admire my flesh and bone. Not a day passes
-but that I form some new acquaintance, and, as I take
-it, all on account of my shapely limbs, my slender
-waist and swelling bosoms. Those very possessions
-which were once yours, all yours for your own aggrandizement
-and worshipful indulgence; those charms
-which held you to me—the wealth of red-gold hair,
-the pink-tipped ears, the pearly white teeth, the tapering
-hands, the high-arched foot, the delicately moulded
-ankles, the laughing eyes and supple grace that you so
-admired, even before I gave to you a son, are as much
-admired by other men as they once were admired
-by you.</p>
-
-<p>“It is different, though, with them and you. You
-held all of the then priceless pearls with nothing but
-love; the same possessions which were then yours
-because I loved you, are now dispensed at intervals to
-suit the convenience of other men and for financial
-consideration.</p>
-
-<p>“We—you and I—can remember the time when no
-man but you could lay claim to any of my charms except
-my ready smile and kindly word.</p>
-
-<p>“Now, and for two years past, my charms have been
-the property of a public who, while not so demonstrative
-as you once were, seem wild to have me
-disport myself for the edification of mankind.</p>
-
-<p>“I often ask if I wrong a nature-loving public by
-allowing the use of my body to fulfill their desires.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_179"></a>[179]</span></p>
-
-<p>“My natural answer is no. I feel, in fact, that I
-may be the means of saving some timid girl the embarrassment
-of assuming my place in the world. I am
-sure I can do more to satisfy the whims of humanity
-than can a novice, for I am a student of your school
-and your ideas are instilled within me until I feel that
-my efforts will avail more than the efforts of an inexperienced
-girl. Again, I am feeding and clothing
-myself and our baby, and I love you. The world will,
-in part, frown upon me for the part I am playing;
-others silently applaud me, and I congratulate myself
-and feel, in a certain degree, I am a guardian angel
-and the precepts inculcated by my conduct will be
-fittingly heralded to ears which will transmit them to the
-heart with a good effect. I am doing what you might
-not object to your divorced wife doing, but that which
-no man of high honor would consent to his daughter
-doing.</p>
-
-<p>“I am a model at the Art Institute. I pose in the
-nude, and I thank God I am an honorable woman, and,
-in spite of all the years of suffering, I am still devoted
-to the man who taught me to love. With thanks for
-your inquiry, I beg to sign for this once,</p>
-
-<p class="center">“Your wife,</p>
-
-<p class="right">“<span class="smcap">Nora</span>.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_181"></a>[181]</span></p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_180"></a>[180]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_ELEVEN">TALE ELEVEN.<br />
-<span class="smaller">A STORY OF SUICIDE BRIDGE.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Age cannot love destroy,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">But perfidy can blast the flower,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Even when in most unwary hour,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">It blooms in Fancy’s bower.</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Age cannot love destroy,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">But perfidy can rend the shrine</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">In which its vermeil splendors shine.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>It was a blustering winter day and a heavy snow was
-falling, making the streets exceedingly disagreeable to
-traverse. State street was crowded with shoppers evidently
-bent on taking advantage of the annual clearing
-sale which always takes place at the beginning of the
-new year.</p>
-
-<p>I was elbowing my way through the crowd on the
-east side of the street, about as uncomfortable as a
-man could be, when I passed Kehoe’s. I had not gone
-a dozen steps when it occurred to me that a cup of hot
-chocolate would taste good. I turned abruptly and
-encountered an umbrella, which flashed dangerously
-close to my eyes. Somewhat confused, I entered the
-door behind a woman. She had pushed the door open
-and dropped her skirts directly in front of me. It was
-too late for me to catch myself and in less time than
-it takes to tell it, I had stepped on them. The
-suddenness with which she let that door swing back
-was appalling. It took me squarely on the nose, a<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_182"></a>[182]</span>
-fact which I do not now regret, inasmuch as it led to
-a very pleasant acquaintance. She glanced around to
-learn the cause of all the trouble and accepted my
-humble apologies with good grace, and seemed to feel
-sorry when she saw her carelessness was the cause of
-a great deal of suffering, for I could not well disguise
-the fact as the tears ran down my cheeks.</p>
-
-<p>All the tables but one were taken and that was a
-small one in the corner, at which there were two
-chairs. She made her way to it quickly and when she
-saw me waiting she sent the waitress to me to tell me
-to come to her table. I bowed in response and crossed
-the room.</p>
-
-<p>“I feel that I owe you some consideration for the
-unfortunate occurrence of a few moments ago,” she
-said, “and I hope you’ll accept my apologies in turn.”</p>
-
-<p>I replied that it was my own stupidity and assured
-her that I already began to feel it was rather a fortunate
-than unfortunate occurrence.</p>
-
-<p>She smiled, yet at the same time drew herself up
-with a quiet dignity that was unmistakable, and I knew
-I had taken the wrong tack when I made my gallant
-speech.</p>
-
-<p>By this time my eyes were somewhat cleaned of
-tears and I was able to get a distant view of my
-vis-a-vis. I had already discovered that she was of
-medium height and quite slender. Her face was oval,
-her eyes large and brown, and looked liquid in the
-half light of our corner; her chin was round, her mouth
-was rather large and when she smiled her full, red
-lips disclosed a set of well kept teeth; her nose was
-neither long nor short, but quite in keeping with the<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_183"></a>[183]</span>
-contour of her face. Her eyebrows were dark and
-beautifully arched. Her forehead was high and full
-and an abundance of real golden hair was drawn back
-and concealed under the large, black beaver hat she
-wore so becomingly.</p>
-
-<p>The real beauty of her face, however, was in its
-expression. Every emotion was clearly defined in the
-wonderful eyes and, though when smiling they would
-light up with a merry laughter, their general expression
-was one of sweet sadness.</p>
-
-<p>When I assisted her to remove her coat, can I be
-blamed for feasting my eyes on the beautiful bust and
-shoulders with which nature had endowed her?</p>
-
-<p>We chatted idly on the topics of the day as we
-sipped our chocolate, and when we had finished I
-handed her my card, saying, “If you ever need services
-in my line, I shall be pleased to render them.”</p>
-
-<p>She thanked me and said as she read “Attorney at
-Law,” “I might have been grateful for your proffered
-aid a few years ago, but now, thank God, I do not
-need such aid, and I hope I shall never need it.”</p>
-
-<p>Then she handed me her card. “Mrs. Geoffrey Nye
-Melville.” As I read I could not restrain the exclamation
-that arose to my lips.</p>
-
-<p>“Why, I once had a friend by that name who was
-an official on the St. Paul road. He and I were the
-best of friends in St. Paul five years ago. I was at
-that time their attorney.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is certainly my husband whom you know,” she
-said, “and you must come and call on us at your
-earliest convenience.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_184"></a>[184]</span></p>
-
-<p>I thanked her and on the strength of my friendship
-for her husband asked to escort her to the train.</p>
-
-<p>I was not long in taking advantage of her invitation,
-and felt doubly free to do so, inasmuch as her husband
-had hunted me up the very next day after our meeting,
-and had insisted on my coming as soon as possible.</p>
-
-<p>It happened that the night I called her husband was
-away, having been unexpectedly summoned to St. Paul
-on business.</p>
-
-<p>I found her alone and looking almost beautiful in the
-bright red crepe gown she wore. Her skin was fair
-but pale and her cheeks reflected just enough of the
-color to enhance the effect. We had a long talk on
-generalities and gradually drifted to personalities.</p>
-
-<p>“I am quite surprised at Geoffrey’s marrying again,”
-said I. “I had begun to think him proof against the
-fair sex five years ago, and it seems to me he added
-four more to that, with all due respect for you, my
-charming hostess.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well,” she sighed, “he might still have remained
-single had not he met me in my forlorn condition, and
-I often think pity was the deepest sentiment he felt
-until we had been married several months. Well, you
-see, like most Chicago women, I have a story, and
-mine is a long one, but probably not an unusual one.”</p>
-
-<p>“Dare I presume to ask you for it, on the strength of
-my long friendship for your husband?”</p>
-
-<p>She was gazing dreamily into the grate and did
-not reply for a moment, then she turned her glorious
-eyes toward me and said slowly, “Yes, I will tell you
-if you think it will interest you.”</p>
-
-<p>I assured her it would and asked her to proceed.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_185"></a>[185]</span></p>
-
-<p>“I was married once before, too,” she said, “but
-was so unhappy that I left my husband and secured
-a divorce on the grounds of cruelty. I was granted
-a small alimony, enough to supply my modest wants.</p>
-
-<p>“As time went on, I became rather dissatisfied with
-my quiet life and was filled with a desire to enter the
-business world. It was just about this time that a
-friend of mine, being too ill to go down town, asked
-me to do an errand for her. It took me into an office
-building, and when I entered the reception room I
-was told that the party for whom I inquired was not
-in, but was expected soon, so I sat down and waited.</p>
-
-<p>“While I was waiting a man came out of one of the
-private offices, and as he saw me waiting he stopped
-and asked me whom I wished to see. When I told
-him he asked me into his office to wait, saying I would
-find it more pleasant there than in the reception room.</p>
-
-<p>“As I think of it now, I wonder why I did not
-always adhere to my first impression of him, which
-presented itself so forcibly. It must have been fate,
-I guess. He was not at all handsome; he, in fact, was
-homely, especially his mouth, which was too coarse, yet
-when he spoke his countenance lighted up and there
-was an earnestness about him that partially restored
-my confidence. He had a fine physique, a large, brainy
-head, and carried himself with dignity. Well, we drifted
-into the discussion of literature, and I found this
-was a well chosen subject, for we were both deeply
-interested in it.</p>
-
-<p>“After visiting an hour or more with him, I decided
-to wait no longer for the man I had called to see, and I
-left. Not long after this my friend called at the<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_186"></a>[186]</span>
-same suite of offices and she met Mr. Ferris. She
-seemed very favorably impressed with him, so much so
-that she asked him to call, and I must say that in spite
-of my prejudice I enjoyed the evening. He called
-often after that and my friend said that he was in love
-with me. I did not believe it at the time, probably
-because I was so utterly indifferent to him at that
-time. He interested me greatly, however, for many
-reasons, not least among which was the fact that he
-was in touch with the business world and I thought
-I saw possibilities through him.</p>
-
-<p>“It was not a month after this that he proposed to
-me. We were sitting on the couch together, and I
-had been telling him of the unexpected visit of a little
-friend of mine from Buffalo. He suddenly took my
-hand in his and said, ‘Claire, I want you, and before
-anyone comes into this home to rob me of you, I want
-your promise to be mine, all mine.’</p>
-
-<p>“I felt within myself that he had endeared himself
-to me considerably, but did not feel at all sure that I
-wanted to marry him, and told him so, so we left the
-matter in that way, although I accepted his ring, but
-it was with the understanding that if in the course of
-a few months I wished to retract, I was at liberty to
-do so.</p>
-
-<p>“On the following Wednesday Gretta came. Dear
-little Gretta. Pretty, petite and winsome, so sweet
-yet so frivolous.</p>
-
-<p>“I introduced Mr. Ferris to her and they soon became
-good friends; no one could help being nice to her. I
-was slightly indisposed at this time and was very
-glad that Ned could take her out, for it relieved me of<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_187"></a>[187]</span>
-the burden of entertaining her, for a burden it was, in
-my present condition.</p>
-
-<p>“One night, while I was confined to my room, she
-came to me and told me that she loved Ned, and that
-she believed he loved her, for he had kissed her and
-called her his dear little girl.</p>
-
-<p>“As if by magic, the demon of jealousy reared his
-head and began to sting me. I loved him now, I
-knew it, for I was unmistakably jealous. I was jealous
-of a pretty, voluptuous, little doll, with no thought
-beyond her present gratification, be it a new gown
-or a dinner, both of which she enjoyed with all the
-fervor of her nature. They had not one thing in common,
-unless it was their passionate natures. I tried to
-reason with myself, to assure myself of the fact that
-a man of his calibre could not really love so frivolous
-a creature as she; that it was merely a passing fancy.
-But having been married, I knew a man’s nature so
-well, knew how often a magnetic personality lured
-them on to mistakes fatal to the happiness of both,
-that my theory of incompatibility was not altogether a
-consolation.</p>
-
-<p>“During this period of uneasiness, I did not mention
-the matter to him. I was too proud to mention
-it to him, and felt it would be beneath my dignity to
-admit that I had a possible rival in one so shallow.
-Perhaps that is where I made my mistake; I don’t
-know.</p>
-
-<p>“I tried to lull my suspicions to rest, but they would
-none of it, and one night after they had gone to the
-theater I dragged myself wearily down stairs to the
-library, which was off the parlor and separated from<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_188"></a>[188]</span>
-it by heavy portieres. I became tired of reading at
-last and turned out the gas and laid down determined
-to await their return and be convinced that my suspicions
-were groundless, if possible; at least I wanted to
-hear how he made love to her and decide for myself
-whether he meant it or not.</p>
-
-<p>“I must have fallen asleep, for the first thing I remember
-was his saying in most pleading tones, ‘Come
-in here a moment, dear, and let me love you, as only I
-can love you.’</p>
-
-<p>“She danced into the darkened room beside him
-and he led her across it to the large leather couch.
-He picked her up bodily and laid her on the couch, and
-before she could demur, had she been so inclined, he
-was bending over her and raining fervent kisses upon
-her and she nestled up to him and sighed in an abandonment
-of ecstacy, fearing nothing, hoping nothing,
-only living in the delight of the moment.</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know how I expected her to resist him;
-in fact, I’m sure I didn’t. I would have saved her,
-but for the fact that I seemed as if in a nightmare,
-unable to move or utter a sound. I lived hours in
-those moments.</p>
-
-<p>“After awhile I heard a sobbing. Then his voice,
-all tenderness and commiseration, ‘There, there, dear,
-don’t cry. You are all right. Don’t feel so badly; we
-are just human, and are no worse than hundreds of
-others.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Humph!’ thought I, suffering though I was,
-‘there is a great deal of consolation in that!’</p>
-
-<p>“Gradually the sobs ceased, and then he bade her
-good-night. I knew she would not go into my room<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_189"></a>[189]</span>
-this night, so had no need to fear my absence from
-my room would be discovered.</p>
-
-<p>“What I suffered that night, only God knows. I
-laid there all night in my misery, freezing and burning
-by turns. It seemed to me my hair must be gray. My
-idol was shattered, it lay in fragments at my feet, but
-alas! as with the shattered vase, round which the scent
-of the roses still clung, so did the virtues with which I
-had endowed this being continue to obtrude themselves
-to the complete obliteration of the crime he had committed
-before my very eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“At daybreak I went to my room and bathed my
-haggard face and tried to make myself presentable,
-at least, to Gretta when she should come in to see me.
-I had not decided what to do for the immediate present,
-only that I would say nothing.</p>
-
-<p>“Much to my surprise, Gretta came in beaming as
-usual, her volatile spirits were incapable of more than
-momentary depression, and I wondered vaguely if it
-could all be a horrible dream.</p>
-
-<p>“Out of the chaos of my brain one idea resolved
-itself, and that was to tell him all after she left, unless
-he, in his desire to right the wrong, asked for his
-release.</p>
-
-<p>“She went. A week passed and nothing was said,
-and I knew then nothing would be said. He was
-going out of the city and I determined to tell him
-about it on his return Sunday night.</p>
-
-<p>“He came and after he had chatted awhile he got
-up and said he would go out and order an ice sent up
-from the drug store around the corner. As he bent
-to pick up his hat, a letter fell unnoticed from his<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_190"></a>[190]</span>
-pocket. Perhaps I should not have done so, but I
-concealed it with my skirt until he left the room. It
-was from Gretta, I found, and I have it yet,” she said,
-as she crossed the room to the little inlaid writing
-desk, and took from it a plain white envelope bordered
-in black.</p>
-
-<p>“I am going to let you read it,” she said, handing it
-to me.</p>
-
-<div class="blockquote">
-
-<p class="noindent">“Dearest Ned:—</p>
-
-<p>“I am going to die, I am sure. I am grieving myself
-to death over you. The sun never shines brightly
-any more and my heart aches all the time now. I am
-disgraced, or soon will be. Oh, Ned, come and take
-your poor, little Gretta away. Tell Claire what you
-did and she is so good and sweet she will send you
-to me, I know. Please take me away and marry me
-and I will tell them all that we went to St. Joe and
-were married when I was there visiting in Chicago.
-Come, dear, or I shall surely die. I ordered this black
-bordered paper because I am sure mamma will have
-use for it soon; anyway I am in mourning for the loss
-of what even you, with all your tenderness, cannot
-give back to me.</p>
-
-<p>“Come, Ned, for baby’s sake.</p>
-
-<p class="center">“Your heart broken</p>
-
-<p class="right"><span class="smcap">Gretta</span>.”</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p>“When I had finished my head swam, and I felt but
-one mad desire, and that was to fly. I acted on the
-impulse and after pinning a note to the letter saying,
-‘Ned, I knew some of this before, now I know all.
-I am going away where you will never see me or hear
-from me again. You <i>must</i> do your duty no matter<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_191"></a>[191]</span>
-what the sacrifice. A lifetime of devotion cannot repay
-her for her loss.</p>
-
-<p class="right"><span class="smcap">Claire.</span>’</p>
-
-<p>“I put on my hat and left by the side entrance. I
-had not the remotest idea of where I was going or
-what I was going to do. I was numb with agony and
-wandered aimlessly on until I came to a car line, then
-the thought flashed across my mind to go to ‘Suicide
-Bridge,’ and thither I went.</p>
-
-<p>“It was yet early in the evening and many people
-were lingering in the park. I walked onto the bridge
-with perfect calmness, the calmness of despair (for
-what was there now to live for), and on to my fate.
-I walked to the center of the bridge, as nearly as I can
-remember, and looking carefully around and seeing no
-one, I climbed upon the railing and jumped.</p>
-
-<p>“God must have raised up that man at that particular
-moment from mere nothingness, for I was so sure I
-was the only one on the structure at the time. He
-caught my skirt and by an almost superhuman effort
-drew me back onto the bridge. He did not ask a
-question, but took me in his arms and carried me until
-he met a policeman, to whom he said, ‘My wife became
-dizzy and fainted. Please call a carriage.’</p>
-
-<p>“He took me to the Virginia hotel, and when I had
-sufficiently recovered to talk he said with decision, ‘I
-feel you were sent to me this night, raised up
-from the ashes of my buried hopes, and if you are free
-to marry I want you for my wife. I care not what
-your past has been or what caused you to try such a
-rash act. Your sweet, refined face tells me you are
-good and for the rest I care naught. I do not profess
-to love you, neither do I expect you to love me, but we<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_192"></a>[192]</span>
-will try to make life endurable together. You saved
-my life as much as I saved yours, for by saving you I
-saved my own, for I went there tonight for the very
-purpose of doing what you tried to do. Come now,
-what do you say?’ he said earnestly.”</p>
-
-<p>“And what did you say?”</p>
-
-<p>“I said I was willing to try, and thank God that I
-did, for I have never regretted it. We were married
-that night between eleven and twelve.”</p>
-
-<p>“And what about Gretta?”</p>
-
-<p>“Ned made what reparation he could; that is, he
-married her, and they have a dear little Ned eight
-months old.”</p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_193"></a>[193]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_TWELVE">TALE TWELVE.<br />
-<span class="smaller">TWO BABES AND TWO MOTHERS.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“They say best men are moulded out of faults;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And for the most, become much more the better</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">For being a little bad.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“Yes, we are very happy here.”</p>
-
-<p>“That fact is very evident and, as I am out for a
-story today, I am going to be so rude as to ask you
-if there is not some pain back of all this peacefulness?”</p>
-
-<p>The woman addressed drew herself up to her full
-height, which was little more than five feet, while her
-gray eyes gleamed with the assurance of complete
-possession of some article of value.</p>
-
-<p>This woman was not handsome, in fact had she
-been placed in less effective surroundings she would
-have been homely.</p>
-
-<p>But she was good, although the fact that she had
-borne cares could not well be concealed. It was her
-nature and intention to see the brightest side of any
-object, and that trait in her character was so dominant
-that it outshone her physical imperfections. The writer
-had known her a very long time, and she had often
-promised him a story, so that it took but little urging
-on his part to get her to talk of her past life.</p>
-
-<p>“I was never a famous beauty, an actress, a singer
-of note, nor a rich man’s daughter,” she said, by way
-of beginning. “I was a simple country girl
-whose chief duties consisted in helping my mother<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_194"></a>[194]</span>
-wash, iron, churn and pull weeds in the garden in the
-summer months, while the winter days were whiled
-away by washing dishes, going to school, and if nothing
-of greater importance came up for the evening,
-sewing carpet rags until bed time.</p>
-
-<p>“Such was the monotony of the life of Virginia Dawson.
-My father thought little of the future, not that
-he failed to care, but that he failed to see that the
-future held anything in store for him or his children.
-He had been taught the lesson of frugality, the same
-being demonstrated by poverty. It seems strange that
-a discovery of nature’s deposits would be the turning
-point in my humdrum existence, but such was the case.
-My parental home was but a few miles from the now
-busy city of Anderson, Ind., and it was the finding of
-natural gas near our house that threw me into the company
-of Arthur Blake. He was the son of wealthy
-parents and, though all my sufferings are directly
-traceable to my early association with him, I must
-say that he is one of the most noble of men. He came
-to the community in which we dwelt as a civil engineer,
-having fancied that profession more than any other.
-A firm of Boston capitalists had employed him to investigate
-the extent and certainty of the gas belt. He
-was instructed to keep his business quiet and to
-conceal his real identity. To do this, he assumed the
-role of a laborer, going about and actually toiling with
-the derricks, ropes and pipes just as though he was
-not an heir to a large fortune.</p>
-
-<p>“While thus engaged he came to our humble home to
-board. I was just such a strip of awkward girlhood<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_195"></a>[195]</span>
-as any man might expect to find in a child of the rural
-district.</p>
-
-<p>“I know I was the most unsophisticated creature that
-ever lived. I knew nothing of life outside the five-room
-house in which my parents had lived for twenty years
-and in which I had been born nearly seventeen years
-before I met Arthur Blake.</p>
-
-<p>“He remained at our house for three months, and
-so refined and dignified was he that he won a place
-in our hearts that was hard to fill by any others. He
-was rather reticent and made few friends. My father
-was dumfounded when one day Arthur proposed that
-he, my father, go and buy a new buggy.</p>
-
-<p>“‘What would I buy a buggy with and what for?’”
-asked my father.</p>
-
-<p>“‘With this,’ said Arthur, as he handed father a roll
-of bills, ‘and for my use. I shall have to do a great
-deal of driving. I will hire a horse from you, but I
-want everyone to understand that the whole outfit is
-yours.’</p>
-
-<p>“So it was arranged, and it was generally said by less
-fortunate neighbors that ‘Dawson must be makin’
-money keepin’ boarders.’</p>
-
-<p>“Then came a long series of drives over the broad
-expanse of the gas fields. My parents did not object to
-my going with him, for he was very considerate of my
-welfare. It was during these trips that I learned of
-the beauties of nature. I soon became thrilled with
-the songs of birds, the chirping of crickets and the
-humming of bees, none of which had held any charms
-for me before. Plants that to me had always been
-known as weeds now bore bright blossoms; the green<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_196"></a>[196]</span>
-leaves meant more to me. I saw beauty in the undulating
-fields which I had always known as plain hills.
-The whole world seemed to put on a new garment.
-You see that I was not experienced enough to know
-that I saw everything with different eyes than before.
-I did not know that a little word of four letters told all
-that affected me, in fact I did not know what love
-meant until he told me, and then I did not fully
-understand it until he was away from me for three
-weeks.</p>
-
-<p>“He went home, back to Pittsburg on a visit, and
-while he was gone the brightness of the flowers faded.
-The frosts of October withered the foliage, and the
-brown of the leaves seemed to resemble the solemnity
-of my heart when I would walk along the well known
-paths with pleasant memories in my mind. Every bush
-and tree seemed to add to the sentiment with which my
-heart was filled and sobs choked me. The notes of the
-few birds that had remained tempting fate by braving
-the elements were even sobbing.</p>
-
-<p>“Then he came back, and the glinting of the sunshine
-on the early morning frost was not brighter than
-my life. After that he made real love to me, and I
-have always thought he meant it. Our love was like
-that of many others and led to grave indiscretions, and
-in due time I realized that I was in serious trouble. I
-told Arthur and he said he would go back to his father
-and get some money and come and marry me. Instead,
-he went away and during those months of waiting my
-suffering was beyond description.</p>
-
-<p>“I was finally forced to tell my parents. My mother
-wept herself sick; father became morose and said little;<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_197"></a>[197]</span>
-my trouble became neighborhood gossip; one old
-lady going so far as to say it was good enough and
-she guessed most anybody could have a new buggy
-for that price.</p>
-
-<p>“One day after my baby was born, a well dressed
-stranger called at our house and asked for my father.
-He was a lawyer that Arthur had sent. He had a
-great lot of papers he wanted us to sign, and after a
-long talk with father, we signed them as directed.
-After that father seemed to get along better; he was
-kinder to me and seemed to like the baby better. He
-seemed to have more money and the first day of each
-month, rain or shine, he went to town and nearly always
-brought mother and me a new dress or some
-article of apparel that was most needed. He gave me
-money to buy the baby’s clothes without a murmur,
-and took a more cheerful view of everything.</p>
-
-<p>“At last the land in our section became so valuable
-for the gas that was under it that the little forty-acre
-tract on which my father had been a tenant so
-long, was sold to a party of capitalists, and our occupation
-as farmers was gone.</p>
-
-<p>“We moved to town, I mean Anderson, Indiana.
-There my father obtained work in a factory. All this
-time my baby was growing from the sphere of long
-clothes, into prattling, toddling childhood. Father
-toiled long and faithfully day by day; mother and I
-managed the housework, nor was our strength taxed,
-for we had but a five-room cottage, and it seemed a
-shame that poor father should work so hard, so
-many long hours of the day and we have so much
-time to spend in idleness. It was decided that I should<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_198"></a>[198]</span>
-seek employment and I obtained a situation as maid
-in the home of one of the large factory owners. I
-had a very pleasant place, and when at the end of two
-years, the family decided to remove to Chicago, it
-was arranged that I go with them. My mother could
-easily get along without me, and she had grown so
-fond of the baby that she would not hear of my taking
-her with me.</p>
-
-<p>“I was soon located in my new home on one of the
-principal North Side thoroughfares of the city. All
-went well until one day the lady of the house announced
-that she expected some company from California,
-and wished me to be in attendance to them during
-their stay.</p>
-
-<p>“When the visitors arrived I was at my station in
-the hall on the second floor; the hostess greeted them,
-and in her demonstration of hospitality showed the
-lady the suite they were to occupy during their stay.
-She rang and I went in to assist in putting away the
-wraps. The lady was a sweet young matron, and when
-she said, ‘Now I must have my baby with me a little
-while,’ I could have hugged her.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes,’ said the hostess; ‘Virginia, run down and
-bring the baby up; he is with his papa in the reception
-room.’</p>
-
-<p>“Then, with a motherly feeling growing in my
-breast, I descended the heavily carpeted stairs, three
-steps at a time, but even in my flight I had taken time
-to fall in love with that baby before I ever set eyes
-on it.</p>
-
-<p>“I told the gentleman that I would take the baby up
-to its mother. I saw the pallor on his face as I spoke,<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_199"></a>[199]</span>
-but when I took my baby’s half-brother into my arms
-none of the spectators suspected the truth.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then the man was⸺?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, it was my Arthur who had brought his wife
-and child to visit in the home where I was a servant,
-quite accidental, of course, and thanks to my rugged
-nature, I did not faint nor in any way betray my feelings.</p>
-
-<p>“For two weeks I held my post of duty. Once he
-tried to speak to me in the hall, but I ran away from
-him. I felt that my claim had been settled. The day
-they left he pushed an envelope into my hand as I was
-packing his wife’s trunks. It contained a fifty-dollar
-bill and a letter. The money was an insult; the letter
-told me of his sympathy for me, and how he had been
-engaged to his wife long before he met me, but had
-loved me and still did. It all aroused my anger. I
-brooded over the matter for three weeks, then concluded
-to go to his home and expose the whole affair
-to his wife. I went to Anderson, got my little girl
-and departed for the west. I had no difficulty in finding
-his home. I was admitted and ushered into the
-parlor. His wife soon came to me; the moment she
-saw my little girl she began to weep and took her in
-her arms. My first impression was that he had told
-her everything. But no, she explained to me that her
-baby boy had contracted a cold in Chicago, from which
-he had never recovered, and they had buried him but
-two days before. She insisted on knowing whose child
-I had with me. Her suffering had the effect of changing
-my plans. Poor soul, I did not wish to add to her
-misery. After wringing a promise from her never to<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_200"></a>[200]</span>
-tell anyone, not even her husband, I told my story. I
-told her all except who the man was, and I concealed
-that fact from her. She insisted on my staying at their
-home for a few days until I found work. I was eager
-to do so, for she said baby and I would be such a
-comfort to her.</p>
-
-<p>“I left with a promise to return. I found Arthur’s
-office and told him why I had come west, also how
-my plans were altered. He listened in silence until I
-had finished, then tenderly he took the baby into his
-arms and kissed her—just think, the first father’s kiss
-she had ever known.</p>
-
-<p>“In spite of all my desire to expose him I was now
-fully convinced that it would be a great wrong to
-wreck his life and that of the woman who was his wife,
-and whom he had loved before he met me. He joined
-his wife in her entreaties for me to make my home
-with them, at least, he said, until I could do better.</p>
-
-<p>“All went well for two months. Suffer? Yes, I
-suffered more than I dared then admit, but I was doing
-good, I was making his wife happy instead of dealing
-out pain, as I first intended. I am sure he suffered
-also, but I think he, too, found a great deal of happiness
-in the fact that he was doing all in his power for me
-and my child, without doing any harm to anyone. But
-an end must come, even to good intentions. One
-evening we were all sitting in the library of his home;
-my little girl was playing with a doll house he had
-given her. She had been quietly engaged in this
-pursuit for some moments, and so still was she we
-almost forgot that she was in the room. All at once
-she left her play and ran to Arthur and proceeded to<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_201"></a>[201]</span>
-climb up in his lap. Then putting her chubby arms
-around his neck and kissing his cheek, she said, ‘I
-wish you was my papa.’ And before anyone could
-answer her she turned to me and said, ‘Mamma, ain’t
-I dot no papa? Why tant you det me a nice papa like—like—Unca
-Arter?’</p>
-
-<p>“It was too much for him. Tears sprang into his
-eyes and, putting her gently from him, he left the
-room. His wife thought his grief was caused by the
-sad recollection of their baby, but I knew. Such
-scenes were exceedingly straining, so I avowed my
-intention to return to Chicago, whereupon they begged
-me to leave my little Harriet with them. We talked
-it over while Arthur held her on his knee. I finally
-consented, for I knew she would be better cared for
-there with them than she would with me. I felt the
-greatest pain, though, when, after it was settled,
-Arthur lovingly folded her in his arms and said, ‘Now,
-darling, I am going to be your papa.’ Freeing herself
-from him, and not quite understanding it all, she ran
-to me and said, ‘Who’s doin’ to be my mamma now,
-you, mamma, or Auntie Arter?’ I could only take
-her in my arms and weep.</p>
-
-<p>“Good-byes were said and I came here and found
-work in a restaurant. Letters came and went with
-the regularity of the rising sun. Always a little sheet
-of scribbles from my baby. They never allowed her
-to forget me. To my surprise one day I received
-a telegram from Arthur saying that his wife, the baby
-and himself would arrive in Chicago in three days.
-I did not understand at the time, but learned upon
-their arrival that Arthur’s wife had become afflicted<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_202"></a>[202]</span>
-with some malady which required a difficult surgical
-operation, and she was coming here for that purpose.</p>
-
-<p>“The operation was performed and everything done
-to save her precious life, but it became the painful
-duty of the nurse to tell Arthur that all efforts had
-resulted in failure. The slender thread of life seemed
-about to be severed. They sent for me to come to the
-hospital and bring my baby. I went and was shown
-to the room where white sheets seemed to predominate,
-the monotony of which was only broken by the
-vases of beautiful flowers which filled the room with
-sweet perfume.</p>
-
-<p>“Arthur and the nurse were with her. She feebly
-requested the nurse to leave us alone, then she kissed
-me and the baby, and reached out her feverish hands
-to Arthur.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Arthur,’ she said, in trembling tones, ‘Arthur, say
-once more that you love me and for the sake of that
-love will do something for me.’</p>
-
-<p>“The scene was pitiful. Arthur knelt beside the bed
-and took the death marked face between his strong
-hands and said, ‘Nannie, dear, I do love you, and will
-do anything you ask.’</p>
-
-<p>“Poor soul, how she struggled for breath while
-Arthur with his face buried in the white linen sobbed
-his heart out.</p>
-
-<p>“Then she said, ‘Now the baby.’</p>
-
-<p>“He took the baby and placed her on the bed as she
-requested, where she could pat and caress her.</p>
-
-<p>“‘And now you come, too, Virginia.’</p>
-
-<p>“And there, with death stealing in on the bright<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_203"></a>[203]</span>
-rays of sunlight, we knelt one on either side of the
-baby.</p>
-
-<p>“With a look of love which I shall always cherish,
-she began by addressing me:</p>
-
-<p>“‘Virginia, I know all; he, Arthur, my Arthur and
-your Arthur, dear, has been good and truthful, and
-baby, God bless you, you have a real papa now and
-one of your choice. Listen—Arthur—Virginia⸺,’
-her breath now came in gasps,—‘I’m—going to our
-little Arthur—see—see—he is watching us—and he’s
-waiting—for—me. Promise—Arthur—promise—Vir-gin—ia,
-that when I am gone—you will marry—for
-the baby’s—sake—and—my—sake—promise.’</p>
-
-<p>“The sun crept through the blinds and lighted the
-smile that flitted over her face as I closed the bloodless
-eyelids.</p>
-
-<p>“As soon as Arthur could arrange his business affairs
-in California, he went to New York, where baby
-and I were to join him.</p>
-
-<p>“We were married quietly there a month after Nannie
-died. Quietly, because the world would have
-censured us for lack of respect had it known just that
-much of the affair.</p>
-
-<p>“We sailed for Liverpool, and traveled abroad a
-year, and on our return we married again, and this
-time publicly. We are very happy, although there was
-much pain behind it all. We both know now what
-true happiness is.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_204"></a>[204]</span></p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_205"></a>[205]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_THIRTEEN">TALE THIRTEEN.<br />
-<span class="smaller">NOT GUILTY.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“I have so loved thee, but cannot, cannot hold thee,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Fading like a dream, the shadows fold thee;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Slowly thy perfect beauty fades away,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Good-bye, sweet day; good-bye, sweet day.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>I stood outside and listened. The silvery, sweet
-tones of the singer rose clear above the soft guitar
-accompaniment. As the last words died away on the
-stillness of the evening air, I rang the bell. It seemed
-almost sacrilege to break in on her quiet enjoyment,
-although I knew she must soon be expecting me. She
-responded to the summons at the door herself. Of
-medium height, with beautiful, sloping shoulders, a
-tiny waist and perfectly moulded hips, she would have
-inspired an artist. Her hair was prematurely gray,
-and dressed low on her neck. Her face was almost
-perfect in feature and the only traces of sorrow time
-had left visible were the gray hairs and lines about
-the slightly drooping mouth. It was the heart which
-bore the scars of agony, invisible to all but her and her
-God. She had passed through the fire and had come
-forth purer, fairer, sweeter, more charitable, more
-forgiving, better fitted to cope with the world.</p>
-
-<p>This was the woman as I knew her now, and had
-known her for the past year. She was to be married
-on the morrow (lucky man), and had promised to tell
-me her life’s story before she married.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_206"></a>[206]</span></p>
-
-<p>“For I shall want to forget all that sad past after
-the last day of this life, for tomorrow, I trust, a new
-era shall have dawned for me,” she said, when she
-gave me her promise.</p>
-
-<p>When I heard her singing I wondered if she longed,
-yet feared, the new life, and if she wished to hold the
-day yet a little longer, which she had evidently given
-over to reminiscences, for I knew the past held some
-sweet memories, for every past has them, no matter
-how bitter it has been. And those sweet memories
-seem the brighter for their setting of darkness.</p>
-
-<p>“I have been thinking of my past life all day,” she
-said, after we were seated, “and you know when one
-indulges in such a review a thousand things recur to
-one’s mind which are really irrelevant to the real
-story, yet they all combine to make up one’s life, and
-may have some bearing on the case after all.”</p>
-
-<p>She was silent a long time, looking out into the
-twilight with unseeing eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“You know I was accused of murder,” she said,
-abruptly. “I was tried and acquitted owing to insufficient
-evidence.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I remember something about it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Five years ago, when I was nineteen, I married a
-man who was twenty years my senior. I met him out
-west while I was visiting there. He was a miner
-then, not actively engaged in digging the gold out of
-mother earth, nor panning it, but he was on the
-ground and superintended the work. He was a handsome
-man, although bronzed by exposure to the sun
-and wind; a Yale graduate, and every inch a gentleman,
-although thoroughly a man of the world. To<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_207"></a>[207]</span>
-sentimental nineteen, he had all the qualifications of
-a god, and although he was not the only one in Colorado
-Springs who was attentive to me, he was the one
-altogether lovely in my eyes. To be Mrs. Chauncey
-M. Dare was the height of my girlish ambition, and I
-used to write my name ‘Lucile Dare’ just to see how
-it would look on paper, and all this was before he had
-asked me to take his name.</p>
-
-<p>“My auntie, who was a wealthy widow, thoroughly
-approved of him and thought him a most eligible
-parti. He was reputed wealthy and, as Auntie said,
-he was old enough to be staid in his ways. I am sure
-she had my best interests at heart, but it seems strange
-to me now that she did not realize that he was too
-many years my senior and also that she did not deem
-it necessary to look into his antecedents. But if she
-had, she might not have found out, and I suppose I
-should not have this story to tell, and perhaps, too, I
-should have always been a careless child, with no
-thought for the comfort and welfare of others.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, we were married on the fifteenth of October
-and took apartments at The Arlington, instead of
-going to housekeeping, because he said he did not
-expect to remain there long, and it was an easy matter
-to pack and leave the hotel.</p>
-
-<p>“It was his desire to go back to New York City
-and show his ‘girl bride,’ as he called me, to all his
-friends and have a taste of real life.</p>
-
-<p>“He met the highest ideal of all my girlish fancies,
-and was as tender a husband as he was a lover.</p>
-
-<p>“After we had been married six months he came
-home one night and said, ‘Hurrah, babe, we are going<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_208"></a>[208]</span>
-east in a fortnight, thank God, so get your duds
-packed and be ready.’</p>
-
-<p>“I was glad to make the change, too, for youth loves
-a change, and I was delighted at the prospect of going
-to New York, for I had never been further east than
-Chicago.</p>
-
-<p>“We went at the end of the two weeks. I was received
-with open arms by all his friends in the east
-and I thought myself the happiest girl in the world,
-for he seemed so proud of me. I know now it was
-not the right kind of pride. He was not proud of me
-for my goodness and purity, it was rather the pride in
-the possession of some coveted article, for I was conceded
-to be beautiful then, and I suppose my figure
-was good. His was not a nature capable of appreciating
-nobility of character.</p>
-
-<p>“He took a house there, and we entertained a great
-deal and on a large scale. I think I might say I
-was a favorite in his set, but what does all that amount
-to? His was a fickle nature and when he thought
-he had fathomed mine, when he thought he knew me
-in the perfection of every art I possessed, he began to
-weary. I did not know it at the time, I knew something
-had caused a change, but always attributed it
-to business cares. He began by neglecting me occasionally;
-from that it grew to continuous neglect, even
-to the point of ignoring my existence altogether.</p>
-
-<p>“Endowed by nature with a cheerful disposition,
-my volatile spirits were continually on the rebound
-and even his gross neglect I did not feel deeply until
-it was brought home to me very forcibly after a year’s
-time.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_209"></a>[209]</span></p>
-
-<p>“It was by one of his best friends, although many
-years his junior. He had long treated me with a
-great deal of consideration, but I never felt it was
-more than the ordinary courtesy that one friend would
-show to the wife of another until that night.</p>
-
-<p>“We had been dancing together and he took me to
-the conservatory to rest and sat down beside me to
-talk. Perhaps I was unusually tired that night, or
-perhaps, owing to the round of gayety, I looked worn.
-At any rate Mr. Mansfield leaned over me with an
-air of anxiety and said, ‘Lucile, are you sure you are
-quite well tonight?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Why, yes, of course I am,’ I responded, laughingly.
-‘Why?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘You look thoroughly disconsolate tonight. Are
-you worrying about something? About—about
-Chauncey and his doings?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘About Chauncey and his doings? Why, what
-do you mean? Why should I? He is perfectly well,
-isn’t he?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, his physical health is good, but you surely
-know that he is drinking hard, and his neglect of you
-is occasioning a great deal of comment. It isn’t right,
-and we all feel it.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Why, I hadn’t thought about it,’ I said, ‘only
-that he was very busy.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Do you mean to say you don’t know the way
-he has been doing. Why, I could take you to him this
-very minute.’</p>
-
-<p>“My face burned, my heart began to throb violently.
-Tears of anger slowly welled up and overflowed my
-eyes. And yet I really could not comprehend it all.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_210"></a>[210]</span></p>
-
-<p>“‘You must be mistaken, Horace. Surely Chauncey
-loves me still. We have never had any cross
-words or misunderstandings.’</p>
-
-<p>“It may have been pique at my incredulity that
-made him say suddenly, ‘Lucile, come with me. Get
-your wraps and come, and put on a heavy veil. I
-will show you.’</p>
-
-<p>“Mechanically I obeyed him. We entered his carriage
-together and drove, miles and miles, it seemed
-to me. I was very nervous and trembled violently.
-Horace tried to reassure me and stroked my hand
-tenderly.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Brace up, little girl,’ he said; ‘you need all your
-strength for the ordeal before you. Perhaps I have
-done wrong to tell you this or to take you where
-you can see it, but you are too young, too good to be
-treated in this manner and you ought to see for yourself
-the depth of his depravity.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Do you think I will be any happier for being
-disillusioned?’ I asked. ‘Would it not have been better
-for me to have gone on blindly trusting? Oh, why
-did you tell me, why did I come, anyway?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘If you wish to, we will return at once.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, I must see it through to the bitter end. I
-could never be happy again now, knowing even as
-much as I do.’</p>
-
-<p>“We drew up in front of a large house ablaze with
-light. We alighted, rang the bell, and were ushered
-into a sumptuously furnished parlor. Everything that
-was picturesque met the eye. Beautiful pictures and
-statues, elegant furniture and beautiful women, elaborately
-attired, and behind the palms in the corner<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_211"></a>[211]</span>
-was an orchestra. Everything combined to make the
-scene enchanting. I clung bewildered to Horace’s
-arm.</p>
-
-<p>“He led me to a small room off a large salon, where
-there were many tables. It was a scene of wild revelry,
-wine flowed freely and the air was heavy with
-the odor of many flowers. Horace pointed out a table
-near the center of the room. Seated at this table
-were two women and a man. The women were horribly
-made up and gowned in extreme decollete
-gowns, only fit for the most formal affair, and were
-laughing boisterously at something.</p>
-
-<p>“When the man turned his head I recognized my
-husband, and as I gazed he placed his hand
-on the exposed chest of one of his blasé
-companions, and patted it just as he had mine a
-thousand times when we first married. The spectacle
-was too revolting for words. I gave a slight scream.
-But Horace had anticipated some such occurrence and
-pressed my face against his broad shoulder. When
-I had partially recovered my normal condition we
-left. Back home—yes, now a home no longer! Back
-to the place where I had known so many happy days.
-Horace bade me good-night in the reception hall.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Lucile,’ said he, ‘you don’t know how sorry I am
-to have been the one to change the whole tenor of
-your life, but it was more honorable in me, was it
-not, than to maintain silence?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes,’ I said, calmly.</p>
-
-<p>“I went into the library and took a new magazine
-from the table, sat down and waited. Two o’clock,
-three o’clock, four o’clock and still no Chauncey. My<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_212"></a>[212]</span>
-eyes were glued to the clock; 4:15 and I heard a
-step. I half rose in my nervous expectancy and was
-appalled to see an arm uplifted over me as to strike. I
-threw up my right hand, which held the paper knife,
-to ward off the blow which seemed imminent.</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>“When I returned to consciousness I was lying on
-a couch by the window, my head was dizzy and the
-room was filled with imaginary voices. I wondered
-where I could be; then the occurrences of the previous
-night passed before me in rapid succession. I
-jumped up and the sight which met my eyes froze
-the blood in my veins.</p>
-
-<p>“There weltering in his own life blood, with the
-steel paper knife buried in his throat, lay Horace.</p>
-
-<p>“Words cannot express the agony of the hours that
-followed. I managed to arouse the servants and they
-called the police. They asked me to explain, but they
-could not get a satisfactory explanation from me. I
-did not know how it all happened and I was mentally
-incapable of doing myself justice in telling what I
-knew. My account was so confused that I was remanded
-to jail without bail, pending my trial. Oh,
-those awful days! Not a friend came to see me.
-While I was living in affluence I had scores of friends,
-but now that I was in trouble and disgrace there was
-not one of all the number that would take me by the
-hand.”</p>
-
-<p>“But where was your husband all this time?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, you may well ask.</p>
-
-<p>“When they questioned him as to his whereabouts<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_213"></a>[213]</span>
-on that night, he proved an alibi. He gave a detailed
-account of his doings every hour of that night and,
-while it did not redound to his credit, it saved him
-from the penitentiary, and nearly sent me there.</p>
-
-<p>“There were three reasons why I was cleared.
-Firstly, they could prove no motive for the act; secondly,
-it seemed impossible for a woman to strike
-such a powerful blow; and last, but not least, the
-efficiency of my counsel.</p>
-
-<p>“He was an entire stranger to me. He had read
-the newspaper accounts of the affair, which stated,
-among other things, that I had no counsel, and his
-sympathies were aroused. He took up my case with
-no prospect of compensation.”</p>
-
-<p>“But, tell me, what became of your husband and
-who killed Horace?”</p>
-
-<p>“That mystery was not solved until six months
-ago. I had come to Chicago after the trial was over
-to get away from all the old environments and the
-old scenes, in the most miserable health. I found employment
-here and as soon as my mind became occupied
-with other things I began to recover. One day
-I received a telegram which had been forwarded from
-place to place in search of me. It came from my
-husband’s physician, and told me to come at once, as
-Chauncey was dying, and it was his last request that
-they find me and bring me there at any cost. I went
-and he confessed before witnesses that he was guilty
-of the crime for which I had been arrested.</p>
-
-<p>“It seems that Horace never left the house that
-night, fearing, I suppose, that I might do myself some
-injury. He saw Chauncey come in intoxicated, and<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_214"></a>[214]</span>
-fearing he might do me bodily harm he ran in to warn
-me. It must have been his raised arm, silently motioning
-me to fly, which I, in my dazed condition, mistook
-for Chauncey, and in fear threw up my arm for protection,
-then fainted. Chauncey staggered in and the
-sight of Horace there with me so angered him that
-he picked up the first thing he could lay his hands
-on, which chanced to be the paper knife, and in his
-drunken rage he killed him.</p>
-
-<p>“The sight of his crime sobered him and self-protection
-was his first thought. He placed me on the couch,
-never stopping to revive me, and fled, leaving me to
-my fate.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, well,” she shuddered, “it is all over now. He
-died repentant in my arms, begging me to forgive
-him with his last breath.</p>
-
-<p>“Tomorrow I marry Mr. Graves, the attorney who
-defended me, and God grant that I may be happy.
-I shall try to deserve it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Amen,” said I.</p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_215"></a>[215]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_FOURTEEN">TALE FOURTEEN.<br />
-<span class="smaller">MY LOVER’S DAUGHTER.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent18">“He</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">That kills himself to avoid misery, fears it;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And at the best shows but a bastard valor.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>Dear Stella:—How strange that you should write
-me; do you know, girlie, that it has been almost five
-years since we have had any correspondence?</p>
-
-<p>It was only yesterday that I got out all of your old
-letters and re-read them, then put them away with
-the forlorn hope that I might sometime hear from you
-again. The last letter that I had from you told me
-of your engagement to Alfred, and cruel, heartless
-creature that I was, I did not even answer. I wrote
-you once since then, that was after my trouble. I
-did not tell you what it was, but told you that I
-would if you felt interested. You did not answer my
-letter and I, of course, took it for granted that you
-did not wish to be burdened with the knowledge of
-my misfortune, so never wrote you again. And now,
-bless your dear heart, you have written after so long,
-and in just the same sweet way as of old, even though
-you have so recently undergone such a great bereavement.
-You are a widow. How strange! And I am
-still unmarried, and have taken a vow to remain so
-always.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_216"></a>[216]</span></p>
-
-<p>Oh, how I long to visit you and go over all the old,
-happy days which we lived together. You ask me
-to tell you all that has happened to me. Well, nothing
-has occurred to change the humdrum existence of
-my life since I came here to live. I have worked every
-working day but five during my residence here. You
-well remember when I went to California to spend the
-winter. It was the winter I was twenty, and I think
-you know that when we parted, with the vow that we
-would write each other all our joys and sorrows, that
-I left heart whole. I have not kept my word in full,
-but will now endeavor to cover all important points.
-I arrived in San Francisco on schedule time, and was
-so delighted with the climate, the fragrant flowers
-and singing birds that I do not wonder that I was
-ready to admire the first man whose conduct and
-appearance was on par with the beauties of nature
-that abounded everywhere.</p>
-
-<p>Still I knew better than to fall in love, for I was
-given to understand by mamma that I was to marry
-Harry Caruthers. I fairly hated him, and besides he
-was papa’s nephew, and I always had a horror of
-blood relations intermarrying. Mamma said that did
-not matter, and Harry would be a very wealthy man
-some day. And you remember mamma, too. She
-was one of those sweet, dignified, haughty women
-who needed nothing but her own opinion to conclude
-an argument, and this with all due respect.</p>
-
-<p>Well, I fully understood that to apprise them of the
-fact that I had become greatly interested in any one
-man, save that red faced Caruthers, meant that my
-visit would suddenly terminate and that I would return<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_217"></a>[217]</span>
-to cold, cold Wisconsin, to face the storms for
-the rest of the winter.</p>
-
-<p>It was only the girlish ingenuity then which
-prompted me to omit the name of Capt. Elerding from
-all my letters for more than three months after I had
-met him. Oh, he was so good and kind, so considerate
-of my welfare, and I think the most refined gentleman
-I ever met. I would not blame any woman for
-falling in love with him. I fell desperately in love
-with him and, strange to say, without any solicitation
-on his part. He never once told me that he loved me,
-but I knew it by his every glance and his every act.
-The feeling became so strong within me that I decided
-that sooner or later he would propose to me, and as
-I did not care to run any chance of losing him by
-asking him to wait, I thought I should at least get
-some expression from my parents in regard to the
-attachment which had sprung up.</p>
-
-<p>I wrote to mamma. My letter brought a hasty
-reply refusing to tolerate the attentions of any one,
-and a request for a full and complete description of
-the handsome captain. I took the command as a
-matter of course, for mamma wanted to have Harry
-Caruthers for a son-in-law.</p>
-
-<p>Out of courtesy to my parents, I drew a pen picture
-of Captain Elerding. I told how gallant, how
-handsome, how brave, how popular, how genteel, and
-even how old he was. I elaborated upon his good
-qualities with the zeal of a loving girl. I left the age
-till the last, for I knew that when my parents learned
-that he was forty-five and quite gray that it would
-have the effect of a bomb bursting in camp; but of<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_218"></a>[218]</span>
-course the gray hair was caused by the many years
-of service for his country. Think of it! He was so
-devoted to his country that he had never been married,
-so there was no danger of my having to assume
-the responsibility of mother to a lot of grown up sons
-and daughters.</p>
-
-<p>This description of the charming captain brought
-a telegram to me saying: “Inez Manford, come home
-on first train.”</p>
-
-<p>It was signed by both my mother and father. I did
-not quite understand it, but wired back: “Delayed,
-see letter.”</p>
-
-<p>Then I wrote my parents a letter, explaining that
-Captain Elerding was expecting a party of friends
-soon and very much wished me to extend my visit
-another month, and with their consent I should be delighted
-to do so. The reply to that letter was mamma
-herself. She came post haste and superintended
-the packing of my trunks with such dispatch that we
-were east bound seven hours after her arrival in
-’Frisco. I asked to be allowed to introduce the captain,
-believing his winning ways would capture mamma’s
-heart. She was obdurate and refused to see him or
-allow me to see him.</p>
-
-<p>It was two days after we arrived home before I
-could steal away alone long enough to write him. I
-think the letter only increased the desire to talk with
-him, and I resolved to run away and return to him.
-I felt sure he would lose no time in making me his
-wife if he had but a chance, and I would be the
-gainer, for he was very wealthy, in fact, more so by<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_219"></a>[219]</span>
-far than Harry Caruthers ever would be, and, more
-than all, I knew we would be happy.</p>
-
-<p>I stole out into the darkness of the night after
-everybody had retired. I knew that the Limited
-stopped to take water just at the edge of town, about
-a mile from our house.</p>
-
-<p>Through the biting cold I forged my way, dodging
-from one alley to another, until the railroad tracks
-were reached, then a long line of green and red lights
-guided me to where I caught the train as it was pulling
-out, and I was soon speeding to my dear captain.</p>
-
-<p>The time seemed to drag so slowly, each day seeming
-longer than the one before, until I reached my
-destination. I took a carriage and went directly to
-the captain’s hotel. I asked for him, but no one
-seemed to be able to talk to me; everyone was excited
-beyond reason. I finally got the attention of the clerk
-long enough to learn that the chambermaid had just
-discovered Captain Elerding in his room, <i>dead</i>.</p>
-
-<p>In his strong, right hand was still clenched the
-deadly pistol. The ugly hole in his temple and the
-powder burns around it told the story. In front of
-him were two papers, one a letter from my mother in
-which she upbraided him unmercifully for having cultivated
-my acquaintance. The other was his last will
-and testament, stating that he was in possession of
-all his faculties. It said: “I hereby bequeath, demise,
-convey and assign all of my money, property, goods
-and chattels whatsoever, that I now own, to my beloved
-illegitimate child, Inez Manford.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_220"></a>[220]</span></p>
-
-<p>I left on the next train and have been a resident
-of Chicago ever since.</p>
-
-<p>Please write me at once, Stella, and tell me all that
-has happened to you since last we met.</p>
-
-<p class="center">Yours as of old,</p>
-
-<p class="right"><span class="smcap">Inez</span>.</p>
-
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_221"></a>[221]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_FIFTEEN">TALE FIFTEEN.<br />
-<span class="smaller">AS TOLD TO A CLERGYMAN.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“The night has a thousand eyes,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">The day but one;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Yet the light of the bright world dies</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">With the dying sun.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“The wind has a thousand eyes,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">And the heart but one;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Yet the light of a whole life dies,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">When love is done.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“You sent for me?” he said, gently, as he looked
-down at the emaciated form before him. Her eyes
-were unnaturally brilliant, her brow, with the thick,
-clustering curls brushed back from it, was as white
-as marble; the nose was sharp and had that pinched
-expression which is so sure a forerunner of dissolution.
-On each cheek was a small, red spot which
-indicated the fever which was consuming her. The
-chest heaved rapidly and as the clergyman leaned over
-her and looked into the hazel depths, he laid his hand
-almost caressingly upon her head.</p>
-
-<p>At that touch she caught his hand in both her own
-frail palms, and sobbed, “Yes, I asked to have a clergyman
-sent to me.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am James Townsend, the rector of St. Anne’s,”
-he said.</p>
-
-<p>But before he had disclosed his identity she had
-fainted. He hastily summoned assistance and in a<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_222"></a>[222]</span>
-few moments she was restored to consciousness, although
-very weak.</p>
-
-<p>He sat down near her couch and quietly stroked the
-masses of hair, the only charm left her by the ravages
-of disease. Her face seemed to him to be strangely
-familiar, and as she laid with closed eyes he had ample
-opportunity to study it as intently as he wished.</p>
-
-<p>Where had he seen that face before? He bent more
-closely and, as if attracted by the scrutinizing gaze,
-she slowly lifted the deep fringed lids until her eyes
-met his.</p>
-
-<p>“What is it?” she asked, faintly.</p>
-
-<p>“Nothing but a little fainting fit, and you are all
-right now.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I’ll soon be out of all my trouble. I am so
-tired—so tired! I shall be so glad to rest at last,”
-she said.</p>
-
-<p>He administered another stimulant and gradually
-she became stronger, until at length she was able to
-talk.</p>
-
-<p>“I think, that is the last I remember, I was going
-to tell you why I sent for you. It was not to have you
-pray for me or to have you quote scripture. I sent
-for you because you are a clergyman and ought to be
-a good man. I know I am dying, although they tell
-me I will be better when the warm days come; but
-I know that when that time comes the grass will be
-growing over my grave, and that is why I want to tell
-you my life’s story. I do not feel that I ought to be
-absolved because I confess my story to you, but it
-will be a relief to tell some one all and the plain truth
-of every detail. I shall die easier, I know.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_223"></a>[223]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Aren’t you in danger of overtaxing your strength?”
-he asked.</p>
-
-<p>“No, I feel quite strong again, and if you will give
-me some more wine I feel quite confident that I can
-tell you the whole story without a break. It is a long
-one, though, and may weary you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do not fear, I shall be an attentive and interested
-listener,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, to begin at the very beginning, I must tell
-you that I was left an orphan very early in life. I
-was the youngest of three children, and after the
-small estate was divided my brother and sister held
-a consultation and decided to educate me for a kindergarten
-teacher, as there was less expense connected
-with the fitting for this work. I finished my course
-in due time and went to Peoria to organize a private
-class. Among the names of those given me who had
-children likely to join my class was a Mrs. Ames. I
-called at her home early in the week and secured her
-two children very easily. She seemed to take quite a
-fancy to me, I thought, a theory which afterward
-proved to be correct.</p>
-
-<p>“One day I received a very urgent invitation from
-Mrs. Ames to lunch with them. I gladly accepted.
-We did not wait for Mr. Ames, as he was often detained
-beyond luncheon hour at his office. As we sat
-at the table idly chatting he entered. Up to this
-time I had never seen Mr. Ames and, in fact, had
-scarcely given his existence a thought. I gave him
-a casual glance as Mrs. Ames presented him to me,
-and noticed what a strong, finely developed man he
-was.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_224"></a>[224]</span></p>
-
-<p>“He was rather quiet during the hour and had little
-to say, but when he was leaving he came over to me
-and said, ‘I am glad to have had the pleasure of
-meeting you at last, for I have heard your praises
-sung by many and was quite anxious to know this
-little paragon of virtues.’”</p>
-
-<p>She shuddered as she said this and perhaps the
-quiver which shook the clergyman’s frame in his effort
-at self-control at this mention of the name Ames had
-communicated itself to her, and she remained silent
-for awhile.</p>
-
-<p>Again the clergyman’s sympathetic hand sought to
-soothe and encourage her by stroking her hair.</p>
-
-<p>Reassured, she continued:</p>
-
-<p>“Not long after this I was quite ill, and much to my
-surprise, considering my limited acquaintance in the
-city, received a large box of American Beauties. The
-card accompanying them was that of Mr. Ames. On
-the back was written, ‘Because you are so like one
-I used to know.’</p>
-
-<p>“I wondered whom he could mean and resolved to
-ask him the first time I saw him, yet I felt rather
-timid because he was quite a stranger to me. I need
-have felt no timidity, however, because he embraced
-the first opportunity to tell me when we were quite
-alone that I was so like his first wife, Laura, the
-mother of his children. He told me what a good,
-true woman the present Mrs. Ames was, and what a
-good mother she had made his children, but explained
-to me that it had been a matter of convenience on
-both sides—not a love affair. She had passed the age
-when women are most sought and was glad to accept<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_225"></a>[225]</span>
-the luxurious home he offered her, and he was glad
-to have such a sensible woman for the mother of his
-children.</p>
-
-<p>“It was but a short time after that that Mrs. Ames
-asked me to come to her house and make my home
-with them as one of the family. No one but myself
-knew what a God-send that was. My class had been
-greatly decreased by a diphtheria scare and my finances
-were low, and now that I had no board
-to pay I could manage very nicely. Everyone at the
-house was so kind to me except Mrs. Ames’ mother,
-who lived with them, and she seemed to look upon me
-as an intruder, but I was thoroughly happy notwithstanding.</p>
-
-<p>“I was at that time as innocent as a child, with
-absolutely no knowledge of the world except what I
-had seen in my own little sphere.</p>
-
-<p>“One night Mr. Ames whispered to me that he was
-coming up to my room at Mrs. Ames’ request as soon
-as I retired. I had been in my room but a few minutes
-when he tapped on the door. I opened it and let him
-in. Be drew me to the window seat and put his
-arms around me and said:</p>
-
-<p>“‘Little girlie, I have come to tell you a few things
-which you or any other innocent girl ought to know.
-It is for your own protection that I tell you. I would
-that I could spare you the revelation, but I cannot,
-for you are unsafe, there are so many unscrupulous
-men in the world who would take advantage of innocence.’</p>
-
-<p>“I did not understand the drift of his remarks and
-was half vexed. He kissed me then for the first time.<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_226"></a>[226]</span>
-Then he told me about myself and about men and
-women and their relations to each other.</p>
-
-<p>“It was a great shock to me and I hid my face on
-his broad shoulder and cried as if my heart would
-break. After he had quieted me, we talked a long
-time and I could see what a good thing it was that
-he had told me as much as he had.</p>
-
-<p>“It was one night some weeks after this had occurred
-that Mr. Ames and I were left alone in the
-parlor. We had waited a long time for grandma to
-retire, and when she finally went he turned out the
-electric light for a moment, so that he could take me
-in his arms and kiss me good-night. It was a mistake,
-for grandma stood on the landing above and
-saw it.</p>
-
-<p>“Nothing was ever said about it, but I could feel
-the change in the atmosphere and luckily, as my school
-term was out that week, I was able to leave without
-occasioning comment. I returned to Chicago with little
-money and secured a pleasant room with a private
-family on Drexel boulevard. I had not been there a
-week, when Mr. Ames, to whom I had promised to
-send my address, came to see me. I was so discouraged
-and blue that his presence was a panacea for all
-my ills. He laid down on the couch and asked me
-to come and sit down beside him, and took me in his
-arms.</p>
-
-<p>“I was just in the state of mind to receive caresses
-and to return them; his were balm to my aching heart.
-He caressed me until—well, I don’t know how it all
-happened—if anyone had asked me the next morning
-if I had done wrong, I should have said no, with a<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_227"></a>[227]</span>
-clear conscience, for I did not know then that that
-which a good woman prizes higher than life had been
-taken from me.</p>
-
-<p>“After this he came as often as his business cares
-would permit, always the same, tender and true. One
-day he came as usual and said, ‘I have planned your
-vacation trip for the summer, dear, and although it
-will deprive me of the pleasure of your company for
-a long time and I hardly know how I am going to get
-along without the sunshine of your presence; but you
-are not well and I think the change will do you good.’</p>
-
-<p>“Then he unfolded his plan to me. I was to go to
-Mackinac for the summer. He gave me $200 when
-I left. I staid three months and was really very lonely
-at times without Fred, but not as lonely as he was
-without me, for I had many friends among the young
-people, while he was obliged to come to the city regularly
-and stay for a day or two every week as usual,
-to keep up appearance at home.</p>
-
-<p>“He sent me many pretty little gowns and waists,
-and showed rare good taste in their selection, and
-was so thoughtful in every way that it was little
-wonder that I leaned on him more than I realized.
-And, then, too, his letters were so beautiful, every one
-of them breathing of his devotion to me. When fall
-came, with it came the thought of what I was to do to
-support myself. I came back to Chicago and Fred
-met me. We had a long talk and he asked me if I
-thought I could manage to live on $10 a week. I
-felt very rich at the prospect of having an income assured
-me every week, and think I enjoyed it, small<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_228"></a>[228]</span>
-though it was, more than I did the days of prosperity
-that followed.</p>
-
-<p>“I boarded all winter with a friend who had moved
-to Chicago during my absence. The next spring he
-invested $200 for me and in a year it had made $5,000.
-He felt he was better able to provide me with a good
-home of my own now, and so he found a beautiful
-little flat, which he furnished very cozily.</p>
-
-<p>“He came to Chicago every week, ostensibly on
-business, and remained two days. Of course my living
-this kind of a life necessitated my giving up all
-my former friends; they would wonder and ask questions
-and rather than lie, I ostracised myself.</p>
-
-<p>“I had learned to love him devotedly by this time,
-for he was so good to me, my slightest wish was anticipated,
-and he loved me with such tenderness as only
-a strong man can bestow.”</p>
-
-<p>“Tell me again that he was good to you,” said the
-clergyman.</p>
-
-<p>“Why,” she said, wonderingly, her eyes meeting
-his for the first time since she began her narrative.</p>
-
-<p>“I—I only wanted to be reassured of the fact that
-while Fre—this man, I mean, had done you the greatest
-wrong that a man can do a woman, he tried to
-make reparation.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, he was good, until—until,” and again her
-face was drawn in agony and her frail form quivered,
-“well, until the time came when he could not come
-every week. Business was such that it was impossible,
-he said. I grew so lonely that I thought I should die.</p>
-
-<p>“During this period of loneliness, I met an old school
-mate on the street one day. She seemed very glad to<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_229"></a>[229]</span>
-see me and insisted on my going to Rector’s with her,
-where she had an appointment to dine with her friend.
-I went and it was the same old story. Her friend
-was a strikingly handsome fellow and I was a pretty
-girl then,” she said with a wan smile, “and we became
-enamored of each other.</p>
-
-<p>“He asked to call and I allowed him to come. He
-came often and finally in a moment of weakness I
-yielded to his importunities. This was my fatal mistake.
-Fred came unexpectedly the next day and I
-was so remorseful and conscious stricken that I could
-not appear natural. He took me gently in his arms
-and begged me to tell him what the matter was. I
-sobbed it all out to him, yes, every word of the truth,
-and instead of forgiving me as he should have done,
-he tore my arms from about his neck, and threw me
-from him.</p>
-
-<p>“I think I must have fainted, for when I became
-conscious of my surroundings, he had gone.”</p>
-
-<p>The clergyman groaned aloud, but so absorbed was
-she in her contemplation of that past, that she did not
-heed it.</p>
-
-<p>“I laid on the floor all night, just where he had
-thrown me. Morning came and brought with it more
-misery. A special delivery letter was brought to me;
-it contained a draft for $5,000 to be deposited to my
-credit in the bank, and a short note saying that he did
-not wish to see me again. That my sin had found me
-out.</p>
-
-<p>“I was crushed and heartbroken. My illness began
-with that day. The doctors say it is pulmonary
-trouble, but it is not that. It is a consumption of the<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_230"></a>[230]</span>
-heart and brain, and the desire to live vanished when
-I knew he had gone out of my life forever.”</p>
-
-<p>The last words were scarcely audible. The clergyman
-leaned over her and took her in his arms and
-wiped the death sweat from her brow.</p>
-
-<p>She looked at him and whispered, “Why are you so
-good to me?”</p>
-
-<p>He thought a moment, fearing to tell her the truth
-lest the shock prove too much for her rapidly ebbing
-strength, but the pleading eyes were fixed on his and
-he could not withhold the truth.</p>
-
-<p>“Because,” he said, gently, “the man who ruined you
-is my half brother. He was younger than I by ten
-years, and I loved him better than my life and cared
-for him after our mother died. I could not believe
-he would have done such a thing, had not you yourself
-told me. I have seen your picture in their home,
-and that is why your face seemed so strangely familiar
-to me when I first came in. There is but one
-thing I can do that will in the least atone for what he
-has done, and it is this: Marry me within an hour,
-that you may at least have a name. I will take you
-away with me to a warmer climate and change of
-scene and you may yet recover and learn to be happy.
-I think God must have sent me to you at just the right
-time. Will you marry me?”</p>
-
-<p>He bent over her almost eagerly, longing to hear
-her say yes, now that he had made up his mind to
-make the sacrifice.</p>
-
-<p>But she had gone where there is neither marrying
-nor giving in marriage.</p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_231"></a>[231]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_SIXTEEN">TALE SIXTEEN.<br />
-<span class="smaller">A STORY OF STAGE LIFE.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="center">SOUL.</div>
- </div>
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“But whither went his soul, let such relate</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Who search the secrets of the future state;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Divines can say but what themselves believe;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Strong proofs they have, but not demonstrative;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">For, were all plain, then all sides must agree,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And faith itself be lost in certainty;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">To live uprightly, then, is sure the best,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">To save ourselves, and not damn the rest.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“Tired of the stage? Yes, I am tired, but what am
-I to do?”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t you know anything but to sing and dance
-and act?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes and no.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why not seek other employment?”</p>
-
-<p>“Simply because I am too energetic; life on the stage
-is hard work; some day I suppose I shall break down
-entirely, then—and then,” she repeated dreamily, “I
-don’t know where it will all end.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am interested,” said the man, as he toyed with
-the wine glass, which he had just drained in company
-with the girl.</p>
-
-<p>They were seated in what is known as the “cafe”
-of one of the theaters of the city wherein humanity is
-represented in the audience by bald men and ribald
-youths; and on the stage by feminine apararies, whose<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_232"></a>[232]</span>
-make up consisted principally of blonde wigs and carmine;
-some were women of good figures; some whose
-figures were in evidence on account of the assistance
-the arts of man had rendered nature; some had charms
-which even the faded eyes, paint and powder could not
-hide.</p>
-
-<p>Each performer had a part to play, which was outlined
-on the program; if some were playing a role
-which was not on the regular line of her profession,
-no one seemed to care.</p>
-
-<p>A large placard, which hung behind the scenes
-warning the members of the company from receiving
-any attentions from any spectator, did not have the
-effect which its strict wording would imply. The
-writer is of the opinion that the police inspector is the
-only person who is sure the sign existed; it being there
-for his benefit, one cannot think strange if he did see
-it and report to the chief that the laws of the state
-and city were being complied with.</p>
-
-<p>The cafe was always well filled between acts, especially
-during the thirty minutes intermission which
-was allowed the performers about midway of the
-evening’s entertainment. If I say this time was alloted
-to give the performers a breathing spell, I fear that
-the sympathy that was felt in each heart for the poor
-overworked chorus girls, would be felt more in behalf
-of the much wanted bar boy, as the numerous parties
-wrapped on the tables in their haste to be served first
-with the liquid refreshments, which were dealt out to
-the men and women with the same free hand.</p>
-
-<p>The girl who did the speaking in the opening of this
-story, was one of the first to appear through the stage<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_233"></a>[233]</span>
-entrance to the large room, where classes met in a
-motley crew. She had caught the gleam of the small
-brown eyes of the man in the front box, and as she
-passed off the stage, she plainly heard him say, “Go
-down to the wine room.”</p>
-
-<p>“Go on and tell me,” he nodded, as the girl said,
-“Manhattan,” to the inquiring look of the waiter, who
-had rushed to the table at a signal from the man.</p>
-
-<p>“No,” she said doggedly, “I don’t want to talk;
-bring me a package of cigarettes, Otto,” she said, as
-the waiter moved away.</p>
-
-<p>“It’s no use; what do you want to know for?” Then
-the lines around her mouth became hard, while she
-tapped the heel of her dancing slippers on the floor.
-She may have been pretty; she may have been good
-and pure at some time, but the deep laid wrinkles, the
-flaring nostrils and bleared eyes told of the long days
-of hardships and nights of dissipation.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, no matter,” said the man, with a shrug of his
-shoulders. “I just thought you might have known
-better days; I have, and thought we might talk of other
-times, besides,” said the man leisurely, “I used to be in
-the profession.”</p>
-
-<p>“What line, specialty or legit.?” asked the girl, with
-a show of interest.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, most anything, heavies principally, though.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why did you leave it?”</p>
-
-<p>“Went to the bad,” said the man, nonchalantly.</p>
-
-<p>The man’s remarks had the desired effect; a feeling
-of closer fellowship began to develop and that, coupled
-with the warming up process which the second cocktail
-afforded, caused the woman’s tongue to run glibly.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_234"></a>[234]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I don’t mind,” she said, between inhalations of
-cigarette smoke, “but you see a girl don’t like to break
-open and tell some stranger all she knows about herself.”</p>
-
-<p>“Go on,” said the man, confidently, “I am very much
-interested. But first,” he added, “how much time have
-you? For if you are in danger of being interrupted,
-we had best make an appointment to meet later.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I don’t know,” said the girl in a hard, bantering
-tone; “you see we girls are allowed the privilege
-of entertaining friends, in fact, salary cuts such a small
-figure in this joint, that it is absolutely necessary for us
-to get some money on the side.”</p>
-
-<p>“But I hope you don’t expect to get any money from
-me for just talking with you; of course I will buy
-drinks, lunch or anything you like, but there is where
-I draw the line. You see I am only a curiosity seeker.”</p>
-
-<p>“In that case,” said the girl, “I must leave you, for
-if I am not on the stage at the call, the manager will
-have a kick coming.”</p>
-
-<p>“How do you appease his wrath when you stay
-away, that is to say, when you are getting the money?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, that’s different,” said the girl, rising. “I always
-cut it with him.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I see,” said the man, musingly. “How much
-does it take to satisfy him?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I guess I can fix him for a dollar.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then here, I’ll give you the dollar, now we will
-go into a private wine room and have a good hour’s
-chat.”</p>
-
-<p>“What! and let all these sure things around here go?
-I guess not! Don’t you see that old guy over there<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_235"></a>[235]</span>
-making eyes at me now? He’s a regular here and always
-ready money, too.”</p>
-
-<p>“Have another drink,” said the man, as he took a
-cigarette from the package which the girl held in her
-hand.</p>
-
-<p>“All right, I’ll have one more, then bid you good
-night. I’ll see you again,” she said reassuringly.</p>
-
-<p>The man was wise. When the boy brought the
-drinks, he produced a roll of tens and twenties, which
-would cause the eyes of most people to dilate with
-greed.</p>
-
-<p>Tossing a bill on the table, he carelessly placed the
-roll in his waistcoat pocket, and when the waiter returned
-with the change, he generously insisted on his
-taking a dollar for the drinks.</p>
-
-<p>“Now it is my time to buy,” said the girl, before the
-boy had left the table.</p>
-
-<p>“Bring me a whisky sour, and what is yours,” she
-said merrily as she leaned over and placed one hand
-on the man’s knee.</p>
-
-<p>“I will take a small bottle of beer,” said the man,
-slowly.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, come now, old brown eyes, take something better;
-some kind of a mixed drink.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, please let me have beer; you see I am thirsty.
-I have drank nothing but whisky all day.”</p>
-
-<p>After this speech the man placed his elbows on the
-table and almost fell asleep.</p>
-
-<p>“Come, cheer up, dearie!” said the girl with a slap
-on the man’s back.</p>
-
-<p>“Yesh, I’m all right,” said the man, “only you see,<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_236"></a>[236]</span>
-I’m so tired let’s go into a wine room where people
-won’t see us.”</p>
-
-<p>“All right,” said the girl, “but first let’s have this
-drink that’s coming, then we can tell our waiter where
-to find us.”</p>
-
-<p>The girl had forgotten the “old guy,” and seemed
-only to remember the visions which floated through the
-air in the forms of tens and twenties. She would look
-at the man hopefully, then her eyes would fall on the
-vest pocket on the side furthest from her.</p>
-
-<p>“How old are you?” asked the man, as he laid
-his arm along the back of her chair and gazed steadily
-into her face, after they had been enclosed in the
-wine room.</p>
-
-<p>“No matter, you don’t care,” she returned, coyly.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, but I do. You see, I want you to tell me
-everything. How old are you; where were you born;
-when did you come to Chicago, all?” said the man,
-earnestly.</p>
-
-<p>“I am twenty-four,” she muttered, and she probed
-the bottom of the glass with a toothpick for the
-cherry, which so persistently rolls around in a cocktail.</p>
-
-<p>“You look it,” said he, frankly.</p>
-
-<p>Tears sprang into the girl’s eyes, as she said, “My
-God, man, if you had gone through what I have, you
-would look old, too.”</p>
-
-<p>“Now come, I did not mean that to hurt, but I am
-blunt and to the point; if I have hurt you, forgive me,”
-said the man.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, that’s nothing,” said the girl, “only, you see,
-I guess I am wrong someway tonight. I don’t like
-to swear, and feel too mean to cry.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_237"></a>[237]</span></p>
-
-<p>“You seem worried or sad.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, I am—am—nothing,” said the girl, dreamily.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I guess you are a great deal,” said he, as he
-passed his hand down the woman’s bare arm, with
-a soft caress, from her shoulder to the hand
-that hung listlessly at her side. In spite of the man’s
-maudlin condition, his touch was soft and gentle; the
-stroke seemed to soothe the mind of the girl; tears
-sprang into her eyes as the man took her hand and
-patted it in a kindly manner; hope seemed to take root
-in her breast and the man, throwing off all assumption
-of intoxication, looked her squarely in the eyes and
-said: “Come, now, I know you have a story. The
-thrill which your soft hand sends through me tells
-me that you have known better things, that you have
-graced a throne more becoming to womanly instincts,
-with which your nature is so bountifully supplied.”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t, oh please don’t talk like that,” cried the
-girl, “it—it—makes me so sad.”</p>
-
-<p>“Have you ever told your story,” asked the man,
-paying no attention to the now sobbing girl.</p>
-
-<p>“N—o—, but—I have wanted to, oh so much, for
-some time I shall die, and while I have sinned much,
-I want some one to know that I was reared right,
-and that even after I had fallen from the great white
-throne of purity I had some good thoughts, but I
-have always been afraid to tell any one especially
-since⸺” here the creature broke down entirely,
-moaning and writhing in bitter agony.</p>
-
-<p>“Since when?” asked the man, gently, as she seemed
-to get her grief partially under control.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, since I have gotten so low.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_238"></a>[238]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Come, now, you’re not so bad off, and besides
-you are going to tell me the truth, and I am going to
-believe you, for a woman never gets too low, even in
-her own estimation, to tell the truth when she refers
-to a beautiful past.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, yes, if it were all as you say, but then I think
-I will tell you,” said the girl, bravely.</p>
-
-<p>“My parents were natives of the New England
-states. When I was four years old they removed from
-our eastern home to a small town in McLean county,
-Illinois. My father was a Baptist minister, and I was
-taught all the principles of the true Christian and,
-believe me, I enjoyed the Sunday-schools, prayer-meetings
-and all the devotional exercises. Music always
-charmed me and when the question arose as to
-whether or not an organ should be placed in the
-church, I think it was due to my influence over my
-father that one was installed there, for he opposed it
-at first. The most looked for event of the year was
-Christmas time, for it was the custom to have a
-Christmas tree at the church, at which time the music
-would excel all other occasions. Once the local paper
-of our town offered a fine, large doll (lifelike in every
-particular) as a prize to the girl over nine years and
-under twelve years of age, who would write the best
-Christmas story, the stories to be published several
-weeks before Christmas. The names of the writers
-were to be kept secret, while the patrons of the papers
-sent in votes denoting their choice; the doll was given
-Christmas eve. I think as I now look back over a
-career that is not spotless, that the moment when
-the great wax figure with the big blue eyes and masses<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_239"></a>[239]</span>
-of soft, fluffy hair, the kid body of which was clothed
-in the finest array imaginable, was placed in my arms,
-was the happiest moment of all my life. I knew I had
-sent in a story, but never dreamed of being the winner;
-my heart was full, my life complete. I had no
-longings or dreads; my childish competitors took their
-defeat like little women; the next week my parents assisted
-me in giving my first party and the invitations
-were issued only to those dear little friends, who had
-competed for the prize; we called it a christening
-party, for we named the dollie.</p>
-
-<p>“Tired, aren’t you?” said the girl.</p>
-
-<p>“No—go on!”</p>
-
-<p>“I cannot understand how all this stuff about my
-dolls, etc., will interest you.”</p>
-
-<p>“But you have not always played with dolls,” said
-the man as he elevated his brows.</p>
-
-<p>“I am sorry to say I have not. The next important
-event of my life was the death of my father, which
-caused my first real sadness. I was fourteen then; how
-well I remember the night after we buried all that was
-left of our dear protector. I dressed for bed, then, as
-was my custom, went to say good-night to papa and
-mamma; my prayers were always said at my father’s
-knee; that night from force of habit I went from the
-door of my room and walked straightway to my father’s
-chair and was just bowing my head as I prepared
-to kneel, when the vacant chair caught my eye. Oh,
-sir! I can’t tell you how desolate, how dreary I felt
-when I fully realized that the blessed privilege of snuggling
-into his lap and putting my arms around his neck
-and having a good talk with him was gone forever;<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_240"></a>[240]</span>
-my father always trusted me as a good friend and companion,
-confiding in me and often advising with me
-on different topics pertaining to his sermons, so that
-even at this tender age I was well advanced in mental
-training; he never told me no if I asked him if I should
-read a certain book, or go any place, or do anything;
-if my act did not meet his approval he never indulged
-in a long lecture about disobedient and headstrong
-children, but would take me gently into his arms and
-say, ‘Now, let’s see, we will talk it over,’ and before I
-left him I would know and understand why my contemplated
-step was wrong and no amount of persuasion
-would induce me to go contrary to his wishes. Not
-only would he cause me to see things his way on these
-occasions, but he would insert some request, some little
-point he wanted me to look up in the Bible or history
-for him, so that my mind became so full of interest
-in doing these things that my own ideas were submerged.
-I was told once by a girl friend who was hurt
-at some little indiscretion on my part that I need not
-be so smart, my father was not always a preacher,
-while I, in the full confidence of religion and clerical
-importance, naturally supposed that he had been and
-replied to her sharply that ‘I knew better.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Well, I know better, too,’ she retorted, ‘for my
-papa knew him when he was a bad, wicked man, so
-there, now!’</p>
-
-<p>“I was so hurt and humiliated that I burst into tears,
-and made no reply but went home and running into
-my father’s arms, I cried and sobbed until I was sure
-I should die; it was a long time before I could calm myself
-sufficiently to answer questions which my father<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_241"></a>[241]</span>
-and mother poured in upon me. Finally I told them
-the circumstances; I noted the pallor which spread
-over papa’s face, but mistook it. I thought he was
-angry.</p>
-
-<p>“In about thirty days from that time my father was
-called to go to the country, some sixteen miles, to officiate
-at the funeral of an old member of his flock.
-The day was bitter cold; the wind howled, while the
-snow went swirling and drifting everywhere. It was
-necessary for him to drive; he arrived home late that
-night, chilled and benumbed from the cold and exposure;
-in three days pneumonia had added poor papa to
-its long list of victims.</p>
-
-<p>“A parson’s salary is not a source of large bank accounts,
-and by the time all the expenses which were
-incurred by the illness and death of my father were
-paid we were without means; then the regulation donation
-party was inaugurated and by that means we
-were put in possession of a sufficient amount of the
-necessities of life to exist on for several months, and
-to help, the official board met and passed a resolution
-that they would not engage a regular pastor for the
-remainder of the winter, so mamma and I could ‘just
-as well’ live in the parsonage right along until further
-notice. Christmas passed that year with as much sadness
-in it for me as there had been joy and pleasure in
-the preceding ones; cold, dreary winter days did nothing
-to enhance the value of our lives; then came spring,
-ushered in by the songs of birds and the breath of roses.
-The official board met again and a new pastor was
-called to take the place of him who had been the light
-of my life. The members of the church were not<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_242"></a>[242]</span>
-thoughtless by any means, for they, in their goodness,
-provided for us; in a certain town in Eastern Indiana
-there is a Baptist hospital; it was through the generous
-and kindly directed influence of my father’s flock that
-my mother was offered the position of matron of this
-institution. We took up our abode there and it was
-there that my real life began.</p>
-
-<p>“When I was fifteen years old I tried my hand at
-writing again, but not for a doll this time; I was successful
-enough to have a story received by a popular
-magazine, for which they paid me fifty dollars. This
-brought me not a little notoriety and I was asked to
-join a literary club and practically taken into the arms
-of the social leaders of the town. If I say I was good
-looking, I do so only because others declared such to
-be the case. I seemed to be a favorite; I was much
-wanted at the different social functions for I had
-learned to play and sing. It was little wonder that
-when a young man came into the city and arranged
-with the Ladies’ Club to produce an opera, solely
-with local talent, that my name was mentioned as being
-the one for the leading part. The part required
-youth, grace, modesty and vigor, a combination which
-the director told me was not easily found.</p>
-
-<p>“‘The Little Tycoon’ was the title of the production.
-My part was a singing part and it required much training
-and long practice. I strove to please the young
-man who had the affair in charge and worked many
-hours after the other performers had gone home. The
-young man, Leon La Dew, was also greatly interested
-in my success and he spent hour upon hour with me<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_243"></a>[243]</span>
-that I might attain the proficiency which I aspired to
-reach.</p>
-
-<p>“The entertainment was a success from every standpoint,
-so much so, that hundreds were turned away
-and by request it was repeated on the following night;
-after the last performance, I hurried home with my
-mother, as I had upon all occasions of rehearsal during
-the preparations for the event. Next day the papers
-were full of praise for the participants, many
-of them getting what we now call a ‘special.’ An interview
-with Mr. La Dew held a conspicuous place
-on the first page. He lauded all the people who had
-so ably assisted, and the interview closed by saying,
-‘Mr. La Dew informs the press that much of the success
-of the performance was due to the excellent work
-of Miss Althea Noble, in fact, Mr. La Dew assures
-us that should Miss Noble aspire to the stage as a profession,
-she, without a doubt, has a great future before
-her.’</p>
-
-<p>“How my heart throbbed, how my blood surged. I
-was not stage struck, I actually abhorred the thought
-of it, but I had been praised by Mr. La Dew. I wept
-with joy; he had been so kind, so sweet and tender,
-never scolding or fretting when we girls made blunders,
-he had just that even, patient temperament which
-will conquer all things, and he was rather handsome,
-too. Not strikingly so, but so much so, that if he
-suddenly came into a room crowded with people, no
-matter how unassuming he might appear, everyone
-would see him. Then for me there was a familiar look
-and attraction in his manner. I felt as if I had known
-him always. I once expressed my feelings about him<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_244"></a>[244]</span>
-to mamma, and she explained that the feeling was
-born of a memory, Mr. La Dew being the first man
-I had associated with in any manner since my father’s
-death. I accepted her explanations for the time, but
-before Mr. La Dew was gone from the town three days,
-I knew I was in love. On the fifth day, after he had
-gone, I ran to my mother, uttering screams of delight,
-all brought about by reason of a letter which I pushed
-into her hands as she gazed at me in an amazed way.
-The letter was from him. It said, ‘I have arranged to
-put on “The Little Tycoon” here (a near-by town),
-but am unable to fill the part which you so ably took
-in your home town; I showed the ladies here the
-press notices, whereupon they insisted on my asking
-you to help us out here, hence this letter. Now, if
-you can be prevailed upon to come, please advise me
-by wire. You will, of course, be liberally compensated.</p>
-
-<p class="center">“‘Yours respectfully,</p>
-
-<p class="right">“‘<span class="smcap">Leon La Dew</span>.’</p>
-
-<p>“I insisted so hard that my mother finally said in
-a relenting tone, ‘of course, we could use the money.’</p>
-
-<p>“I went several days before the performance. I
-was to assist Mr. La Dew in drilling some of the
-characters; I was housed in the home of one of the
-best families in the city and the lady of the house was
-all a mother could be. I was protected in every way
-and Leon was so good, so kind and gentle.</p>
-
-<p>“On the afternoon of the performance, we were
-very, very busy at the theater, everything in a turmoil,
-so I told my hostess that after the last full-dress rehearsal
-she could run on home and dress and that I<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_245"></a>[245]</span>
-would stay and assist in getting everything in shape
-for the evening. At six o’clock I tapped on the door
-of the managers’ office and told Mr. La Dew that I
-would run out, get some supper and return, so that I
-could be there to help some of the young ladies with
-their ‘make-up.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No,’ said he, ‘I have sent out and within ten minutes
-our suppers will be here; I cannot leave and there
-is no use in your going out, Miss Noble.’</p>
-
-<p>“We waited but a short time until the boy arrived
-with our suppers.</p>
-
-<p>“If I sang better that night, if the roses seemed
-sweeter and the music more dreamy, if I at times
-imagined that the flitting forms on the stage were angels
-and that I, too, held a harp and chanted the songs
-of the seraphs, it was all because Leon had told me
-of his love. I did not act that night, I just lived my
-part in the ecstacy of my new found joy. When I
-went home, Leon went with me. We told my mother
-all; our whole life’s plans were changed. We quickly
-arranged for Leon and me to marry. Mother was to
-leave her position and we were all to travel in the
-same line, in which Leon had established himself. I
-disliked the business, but with the assurance that he
-would save our earnings and enter into some business
-in the future that would be more to my liking, I consented.
-Oh, the joy, the happiness of true love. It
-now seemed that all the world was bright and cheery.
-We had no time to lose, as Leon had engagements to
-fill. After our plans were completed Leon said to me,
-‘Althea, dearest, I want to have a talk with you, there
-is something I want to tell you.’</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_246"></a>[246]</span></p>
-
-<p>“What is it, Leon?” said I, as my heart stopped
-with a throb.</p>
-
-<p>“He, perceiving my agitation, took my face in his
-two dear hands, and kissed my brow.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, it is not much, darling, only I must tell you.
-I know your love for me will make things all right.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Well, Leon, tell me;’ as anxious as I was to hear
-his round full tones, I trembled with fear. I never
-knew why I felt that way.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I must tell you,’ he continued, ‘something of my
-past life.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, never mind, Leon, I know you are nothing but
-a dear, good boy, and I will not believe anything else
-of you.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, Althea, it is not that, for believe me, I love
-you too much to have caused you pain by spoiling your
-life by my own association if I thought I were not
-worthy, but there is a blot on the abstract of my life
-and before it is too late, I must tell you all.’</p>
-
-<p>“I begged of him to keep the secret, but no, he was
-too honest.</p>
-
-<p>“‘My mother was like you, Althea, a sweet, innocent
-girl; the man who is my father I have never known,
-but he, like myself, was theatrically inclined; he came
-to the town which was my mother’s home and much
-the same as in our case, my mother took the leading
-role in the production which he was playing; he became
-infatuated with her, they were quietly married,
-but he soon became tired, deserted her, and there was
-a life with all the glory and sweetness taken out of it.
-My mother died from disgrace, when I was eight;
-she held me in her arms and told me the story, then<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_247"></a>[247]</span>
-giving me a locket, which contained my father’s picture,
-‘take this,’ said she, ‘and when you are a man,
-find him if you can; be gentle with him and tell him I
-died thinking of him.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘And have you the locket, Leon?’ I cried eagerly.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, here it is.’</p>
-
-<hr class="tb" />
-
-<p>“I regained consciousness, surrounded by friends; all
-I could see as I slowly opened my eyes, was a little gold
-locket. The picture which it contained was that of
-my father.</p>
-
-<p>“No amount of coaxing or force would cause me to
-tell what the cause of the shock was; as soon as I revived
-sufficiently to talk, I asked for Leon. When he
-came I signified a desire to be left alone with him and
-told him all, then the dear, generous brother, that he
-was, insisted on taking my mother into the secret.
-That is where I blundered. In order to spare my poor
-mother the pain and anguish which I knew the news
-would bring, I objected. Leon and I argued the matter,
-he contending that he could at least go on with
-our plans in regard to the show business; he could at
-least assist me on to fame, but no, I would not agree
-with him. He finally left me in as much misery as he
-himself was surrounded with. I have seen him twice
-since then, once, soon after I came to Chicago and
-adopted the stage, for I was compelled to seek employment.
-My fainting spell which occurred while all
-alone with Leon was food and drink for the ‘I told
-you so’s’ of the little town where I had sprung into
-popularity in spite of the fact that some of the more
-conservative residents insisted on saying that ‘nobody
-really knows what she is.’</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_248"></a>[248]</span></p>
-
-<p>“I left mamma there; when I arrived here I applied
-to one of the most fashionable play houses in the city.
-They were in need of chorus girls; my voice was tried
-and I was told to go to the costumer’s for my wardrobe;
-that worthy gentleman handed me a large paper box,
-saying, with a sardonic grin, ‘if they are too tight be
-careful about stooping in them, for they might split
-and we are short on outfits right now.’</p>
-
-<p>“They. I wondered for a moment what he meant;
-tears sprang to my eyes when I unfolded the silken
-tights, which the box contained. I proceeded to take
-each article from the box, tights, fancy hose, girdle,
-etc., hardly enough clothes to make a respectable suit
-of underwear, still I was to appear under the glare of
-strong lights, before hundreds of pleasure-seeking people
-in this scanty array. I thought of my mother, then
-Leon, and with a shudder of indignation I thought of
-my father as I had seen him the last time. I cried
-some, then with the feeling that it was not all my fault,
-I managed to get into the abbreviated garments and reported
-to the stage manager for full-dress rehearsal.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Zound!’ I heard the musical director say, ‘where
-did you pick that one up?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, from the country,’ replied the manager.</p>
-
-<p>“A giggle ran along the rows of girls at this sally.</p>
-
-<p>“I took naturally to the work, and at the end of the
-rehearsal was told by the director to ‘come on’ for that
-evening’s performance, ‘but mind, my little scared
-dear, make up some.’ I failed to understand him, for
-if the clothes which I wore were supposed to fit a good
-figure, I felt that I filled the bill, for the costume was
-very snugly fitted; at last it dawned upon me that it<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_249"></a>[249]</span>
-was my face, so I asked some of the older girls to make
-me up. I was sent from one to another, until one girl,
-who seemed to be a little new, told me to go to Dollie
-Squires. ‘She can do it and if she does, the director
-is sure to be pleased, for she is Prof’s pet, and she
-knows what will please him.’</p>
-
-<p>“Of course it was my desire to make the best appearance
-possible, it was simply a matter of business, so
-I trusted all to Dollie. When I went on in the first
-scene, the titter which fluttered around the stage almost
-spoiled the act. Little did I dream that it was I
-who was the innocent cause of all the sensation among
-the performers, until after the curtain had been drawn.</p>
-
-<p>“I had seen Leon in the audience. I was most miserable
-lest he should recognize me; my fear was changed
-to hurt, however, when the musical director ran pell
-mell all over the stage until he found me.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Who made you up?” said he.</p>
-
-<p>“I told him. He raved, he tore, and stormed; his
-language was so bitter and I was so hurt that I was
-unable to go on any more that night. Next day he
-came to me in a more quiet manner and explained that
-he had intended to ‘feature’ me and that my make up
-had so horrified him that he really lost his temper. It
-took days for me to see clearly that Dollie put up the
-job on me, because she was jealous, but such was the
-case, and I could thank her for one thing, that being
-that Leon had failed to penetrate the disguise which
-she had placed upon me.</p>
-
-<p>“Then there was a ceaseless round of rehearsals;
-during the day and in the evening after a general mix
-up of legs, bare arms, slippers and tights, in the main<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_250"></a>[250]</span>
-dressing-room, the call boy would summon us to appear
-in the first act. The music, the lights and the favors
-which men heaped upon me did much to keep the
-excitement at a fever heat. How well I remember the
-first pay day, I paid my little bills with the importance
-of a king of Wall street. Flowers filled my room each
-day, and if I became a favorite it was simply because
-I worked with a desire to please. One day the musical
-director stopped me as I was going out of the theater;
-we had quite a talk, all in an undertone and all in regard
-to my work. He was simply advising me; as I
-started away, Dollie Squires stepped from behind a
-wing.</p>
-
-<p>“‘It’s a wonder you wouldn’t talk to that country girl
-all day,’ she said to the Prof.</p>
-
-<p>“I was too intensely exercised at the remark to reply;
-I went to my room and related the incident to
-Bertha Walls, my room-mate. She laughed loud and
-long.</p>
-
-<p>“‘That is good,’ she finally said, as she struggled for
-breath.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Why?’ said I.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Because, you see, she is jealous and I am glad of
-it. Go in, little country girl, and show her a thing or
-two.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Nothing to be gained by that,’ said I.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes there is, she is as mean as the old scratch, not
-a girl likes her, and if she doesn’t make you trouble,
-I’ll lose my guess.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘How can she make me trouble?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Easy enough. If she wants you put out of the
-company, out you go. You see, she is a pet of the<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_251"></a>[251]</span>
-Prof’s, and if he kicks on your work, Althy, your time
-is up.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But she won’t do that, will she?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Sure she will; she has put lots of girls out of
-business in this house.’</p>
-
-<p>“Next night as I left the stage door a hand was laid
-on my arm, and, looking up, I saw Leon. I was glad,
-yet sorry to see him.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Althea,’ said he, ‘I bring you bad news.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘What can it be?’ I asked.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Your mother is very ill.’</p>
-
-<p>“I questioned him closely and learned that my
-mother had been sick abed for ten days. He had set out
-to find me, and if possible, persuade me to return home,
-but I could not do that, much as I wished to, for I was
-now a bread-winner and the support of an afflicted
-mother. My argument won, and he finally left me; it
-was not long until I needed him, for the second day
-after that I received notice that my contract would be
-canceled at the end of the week.</p>
-
-<p>“What was I to do? I told some of the girls, and
-one of them, a little brunette, said to me, ‘Well, I am
-leaving the company this week, anyway, and I don’t
-mind telling you where your trouble started.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Tell me please,’ said I.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Dollie Squires, of course.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But I have never harmed Dollie; tell me some way
-that I can become reinstated.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Go to the musical director, he is the power behind
-the throne.’</p>
-
-<p>“I went. That night I went to lunch with him after
-the performance. Next day, Dollie, on small pretext,<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_252"></a>[252]</span>
-assailed me in an unmerciful manner; she heaped abuse
-upon my head. I said nothing when she had finished,
-but had the regulation cry; when I came out I came
-with teeth set hard, what was the use? My condition
-was not to be considered. My poor mother was a
-deceived and ruined woman, my father whom I had
-worshiped as a divinity, was a bigamist and a seducer.
-The blight was on me. My mother was ill; it
-was due to my father’s misstep that I was placed where
-I now was. I must now feed, clothe, and house the
-woman whose life he had ruined.</p>
-
-<p>“Professor Riggles was ugly, red-faced and slouchy
-in his habits, but he told me his wife objected to his
-dressing better, and besides, he was so wrapped up
-in his music that he cared little, in fact, there was not
-much in this world to make him happy. I was touched
-by his pitiful story. I asked him how Dollie happened
-to have such an influence over him; he laughed and said
-she was a willful, headstrong girl.</p>
-
-<p>“The fact that I could hurt her never entered my
-head until I was dressing for the first call after she had
-abused me so, when I overheard a conversation between
-two of the girls.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I wish she would,’ said one, ‘it would be just good
-enough for her, and if Althy would try she could make
-herself so solid with old Rig. that he would throw that
-smarty Squires out.’</p>
-
-<p>“That was enough, I had nothing to lose.</p>
-
-<p>“Just before the overture, Prof. Riggles came on the
-stage and left a note with the call boy for me. It said,
-‘Meet me at the ⸺ Hotel, twelve tonight.’</p>
-
-<p>“I was curious to know why it should take him so<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_253"></a>[253]</span>
-long to go the short distance (for we always got out at
-10:45). I watched and when he left, Dollie was with
-him. I saw them get into a carriage and drive rapidly
-south; I began to dream and wonder what it all meant,
-then like ‘a good little girl’ I went to the appointed
-place and waited; he came at twelve; we had a dinner,
-some wine, and then⸺” the girl snapped the stub
-of a cigarette across the small room, during the pause.</p>
-
-<p>“After Prof, had gone from the room next morning
-I found a door key on the floor, which, as I afterwards
-learned, had fallen from his pocket. That night I was
-placed in a more prominent part in the piece. I was
-kindly received; my old admirers were joined by numerous
-new ones; after the show Prof. Riggles came
-to me and said, ‘my girl, you did fine.’</p>
-
-<p>“Dollie Squires never spoke to me after that; she
-told some of the girls that she ‘would put me to sleep.’
-When the time came for me to leave, I simply asked
-the Prof. if he could assist me to a place; he told me
-that the leading lady was suffering from a cold and
-that I was to rehearse for the understudy’s part in the
-piece as I might be called at any time.</p>
-
-<p>“When the director made the announcement on the
-stage that I would be called to play the leading role and
-the entire company should stay for two rehearsals,
-Dollie ‘went up in the air.’ She flew into a rage, then
-into hysterics, for she was supposed to be the next
-girl up.</p>
-
-<p>“She left the theater in a rage; the next day at noon,
-I received a note from Prof. Riggles, telling me to come
-to a certain number on the south side. I went and was
-let into a handsomely furnished flat, by a colored maid.<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_254"></a>[254]</span>
-I found the Prof. in bed with a bullet hole in his arm.
-He explained to me how he had been held up the night
-before. It was a week before he could attend to his
-duties, meantime, I continued to take the leading role
-each day, not because I loved him, but from a point of
-appreciation I took many of the flowers which I received
-the night previous and arranged them in his
-room. One day I asked him where his wife was.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, over on the west side,’ he said.</p>
-
-<p>“‘But had you not better go home?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, not until the measly arm gets good. You
-see, Althy, I am in New York now, working on a new
-piece.’</p>
-
-<p>“Presents of every form and description poured in
-upon me; I was wined and dined; poor little simpering
-fool, I thought it was life. Men insisted on paying my
-bills; I received money as tokens of kindness.</p>
-
-<p>“So great was the line of my gifts, that on each pay-day
-I was able to send my mother all my salary. Silk
-from the skin out, my head adorned with the most exquisite
-Parisian creations, and some blithering idiot
-always at my heels. Is it any wonder my head was
-turned?</p>
-
-<p>“When the Prof. recovered he told me that the apartment
-in which I had visited him was to be my home;
-my breath almost failed me, but the arrangements were
-quickly made, then there was a long series of late dinners
-in my flat; no home had more luxuries; I received
-many callers. It was not until this had been going on
-for three months that I was awakened, then I got a letter
-from Dollie. She was living in a house in a disreputable
-part of the city; she told me it was she who<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_255"></a>[255]</span>
-had shot the Prof., ‘and if you knew,’ she said, ‘that old
-Rig. gets from five to fifty dollars from every one he
-introduces to you, you would make him divide. You
-need not think he gets all he spends on you from his
-salary.’</p>
-
-<p>“Of course I did not believe it. She closed by saying
-that the home I now occupied had once been her
-own, and of course, I, in time, must give up to some
-one else, ‘for you will grow tired of being his dog, and
-you had as well come where I am.’</p>
-
-<p>“I asked Prof. about it all and he persuaded me to
-believe that she was only indulging in sour grapes. A
-few days later I managed to win favor in the eyes of
-the colored girl by giving her a bright red skirt that an
-admirer from Milwaukee had insisted on buying for
-me; the next day I clinched the compact by presenting
-her with a heavy gold chain, which had also been placed
-at my disposal by some country bumpkin. Then as I
-handed her a glass of wine, I said, ‘Alice, what was the
-girl’s name who was here just before I was, I mean
-the one who shot Prof?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, honey, doan you know?’</p>
-
-<p>“I have forgotten the last name. Dollie somebody,
-wasn’t it?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, honey, dat jes it, Dollie Squires,’ she said as
-she smacked her wine laden lips. Then she told me the
-whole story. I heard her through, went to my room,
-took a key from my dresser drawer and tried it in the
-front door. That night I gave the Professor the key
-and told him everything I knew. He grew pale and
-quivered like an aspen leaf. I would have killed him if
-I had been armed.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_256"></a>[256]</span></p>
-
-<p>“The season closed; I visited my mother, took her up
-into the mountains and resolved to tell her all, but
-while there she improved so rapidly and seemed so
-happy at my success as a singer, that my heart failed
-me. I could not take away the little sweetness that remained
-in her life; it only spurred me on to greater
-deeds, when day by day I saw her eyes grow brighter,
-her cheeks take on a healthy glow, her voice become
-more cheery, I actually could not end it all.</p>
-
-<p>“When the season opened I left her and came back,
-back to the theater with its rows of light and entrancing
-music, back to the dinners and flowers and back to the
-flat and Riggles, for my mother I could do all. I was
-soon relieved of that responsibility, for mother died suddenly
-one day. I went home and for fear that her spirit
-might learn what I knew in regard to my father, I took
-all that remained and the casket containing the same,
-and buried it beside the only man she had loved. It
-was a cold, dreary day; snow, which was half rain
-when it struck the streets, was sifting heavily through
-the air. I arrived from the scene of death over the
-Burlington route; when I reached the Union Station
-it was eight o’clock, the atmosphere seemed tuned to
-my oppressed frame of mind; I thought to walk part
-way up town. I had gone but a short distance when I
-met a little girl about seven years old; she stopped
-me to beg. I looked her over, and there, under the
-flickering light, I saw a pinched face, so poor and thin
-that the drawn mouth only added pity to the expression
-of the big, blue eyes; the little calico frock which
-the wind whipped tightly around her skinny form
-looked as though it would fall to pieces with each<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_257"></a>[257]</span>
-gust. The pale forehead was made more ghostly by
-the large blue veins that were plainly seen, while the
-one poor little plait of hair seemed to add loneliness
-to the big, white ears, that I could see through.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Where do you live?’ was my first remark.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, ma’m, I—I—don’t want to tell you, it isn’t a
-bit nice place, but you see, we can’t help it; mamma,
-she is sick and papa don’t have work all the time, and
-grandma, she is sick and papa he has to go stay at her
-house three nights a week, and that leaves mamma and
-me awful lonesome sometimes, but mamma told me to-day
-that she guessed she’d die before long, then I would
-go and live with grandma, then I could see papa every
-day. But, please, ma’m, I don’t want mamma to die; I
-don’t want to live with grandma, and I des know if
-mamma had somethin’ to eat she wouldn’t die, either.’</p>
-
-<p>“I went with the child. I thanked God for having
-found her. Such a wretched place to live; four dingy
-rooms on an alley, a poor, miserable cook stove, made
-all the heat the apartment had. A grimy, smoking kerosene
-lamp in the hands of the child, led me to a coop of
-a bedroom and there, amid a pile of soiled and torn
-rubbish that had at some time been entitled to the name
-bed clothing, lay a half starved, pain-racked wretch,
-called woman, in filth too great for a beast, in pain
-too intense for a strong man to bear, burning with fever
-and shivering with chills, and at the same time moaning,
-tossing and suffering only as a neglected soul and
-body can suffer.</p>
-
-<p>“I spoke to her; she tried to sit up in bed, but fell
-back with a wild stare which told that it would require
-but little excitement to bring an end to all her suffering.<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_258"></a>[258]</span>
-I went out and bought everything I could think of; I
-can even now feel a tinge of happiness, as I think of
-how I ordered the best imported delicacies; I bought
-coal, a new lamp, and sent a doctor. That night, when
-I arrived at my elaborately furnished apartments, I sat
-in my satin house robe and slippers and as my maid
-brushed my hair I compared my surroundings with
-those I had visited earlier in the evening, and became
-happy.</p>
-
-<p>“At midnight the Prof. came; I had concluded I
-would not tell him of my experience of the evening;
-it was none of his business and now that mamma was
-gone, I had no one to care for and I could spend some
-of my salary in helping some poor soul.</p>
-
-<p>“Next day I called on my patient, as I called her,
-again; this time I superintended and assisted in placing
-a new mattress and clean linen and blankets on the bed,
-then, after calling the janitor’s wife, and having her put
-a new gown on the woman, I left. I could not return
-that evening as I had notified the manager that I would
-be on for my part and the Prof. was going home with
-me after the theater, so I planned to go the next night
-after the performance, for he told me that he had been
-away from home two consecutive nights, and he ‘must
-show up’ at home that night. He bade me good-night,
-when I got into the carriage. My driver started out
-in the usual way for home, but owing to pre-arranged
-plans, turned west as soon as we were out of sight
-of the theater. I was soon in the sickroom and was
-delighted to see a great improvement; I carried my
-arms full of flowers and when the bedside was reached,
-the poor woman said, ‘Oh, these dear roses; that reminds<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_259"></a>[259]</span>
-me of when my husband used to have steady
-work at the theater, he nearly always brought home
-flowers that some of the ladies would give him, for he
-could not well afford to buy them, and me sick. Oh,
-you don’t know, Miss, what a burden I have been to
-him.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Did you say your husband was at some time employed
-at a theater,’ I asked, with bright visions of
-what a star might be able to do to get him a place.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, more than two years ago.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Tell him to come to me at the ⸺ theater tomorrow,
-and I will see if I cannot get him a place.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, then⸺’</p>
-
-<p>“The words were stopped by the sound of a key in
-the lock and the little girl running toward the door,
-shouting, ‘Oh, it’s papa, I know, for he said he’d come
-home to-night.’</p>
-
-<p>“How my heart bounded to think I could say some
-encouraging word to that husband and father; my lips
-were shaped ready to speak my thoughts when the child
-came into the room aglow and excited, trying to tell
-what a good lady had done. I suppose I should have
-fainted when I looked up and saw the Prof., but I
-didn’t. I arose and extended my hand, saying to the
-little girl as I drew her to me with my left arm, ‘and
-this is your papa,’ well, I am glad, so glad that I waited
-until you came, Mr. Rig; ‘Riggles,’ he stammered, as it
-slowly dawned upon him that I did not mean to disclose
-the truth.</p>
-
-<p>“I arranged to meet him the next day and assist him
-in procuring a position. We met; I told him a few
-things; the fourth day after, I went to his home in my<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_260"></a>[260]</span>
-own carriage, took his wife and child to my erstwhile
-flat, explained to them that he had secured the position
-and could afford them a better home.</p>
-
-<p>“That was the last ride I ever took in my own private
-carriage. I sold my horses, carriage, all my jewelry
-and many fine gowns, placed the proceeds where Mrs.
-Riggles could draw a fixed sum weekly, then I sailed
-for Europe. But a star in America is not always a star
-in a foreign country. I stuck it out three years and
-then returned.</p>
-
-<p>“Riggles? Oh, well, his wife died, he took up with
-Dollie Squires again, and a double suicide in a Clark
-street resort put an end to his career along with
-Dollie’s.</p>
-
-<p>“The little girl? She grew up sweet like her mother;
-she is in a convent now, be out soon, then my work is
-done.”</p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_261"></a>[261]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_SEVENTEEN">TALE SEVENTEEN.<br />
-<span class="smaller">A TRIP ACROSS THE LAKE.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“When Happiness comes knocking at my door,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">I may not lift the latch to let her in,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Because, ah me! one forced his way before—</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">The ugly phantom of an ancient Sin.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“It is a strange thing for me to want to tell you my
-story, but something about you inspires me with a desire
-to confide in you, even though I have not known
-you long.”</p>
-
-<p>The speaker was tall with the angularity of an undeveloped
-school girl, although self-confessed twenty-one
-years of age. She had bright, laughing eyes, a
-large mouth, whose thick lips left an impression of
-coarseness. Her hair was very heavy and dark, and she
-wore it dressed low over her left eye, in the style of the
-day, which gave her an unnecessarily rakish appearance.
-Yet, notwithstanding her unprepossessing appearance,
-there was an indescribable something about
-her which drew one to her.</p>
-
-<p>I assured her that I appreciated her confidence and
-thanked her for it.</p>
-
-<p>“My parents were Methodists, and while I was carefully
-trained, they did not keep me under such strict
-surveillance that I was not able to have many liberties.
-At fifteen I was as large as I am now, and was
-in for every bit of fun there was going. I always had<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_262"></a>[262]</span>
-a crowd with me, and we rode our wheels everywhere
-(it was when the wheel craze was at its height). I
-played the piano then even more than I do now, and
-lots of times we would ride out to the parks and go
-to one of the club houses in the vicinity to rest and
-I would play the piano and they would dance. So the
-spring was passed, and mamma never reprimanded
-me if I was in the house by ten or ten thirty. She
-must have thought no harm could befall me as long
-as there was a crowd with me.</p>
-
-<p>“One day mamma gave me permission to go to St.
-Joe with one of my girl friends. We left on the nine
-o’clock boat, and were to return on the one which arrives
-at midnight. We crossed without incident worthy
-of note. On the return I noticed a tall, fine looking
-fellow watching us. He was sitting on the upper
-deck. Girl like, my friend and I started up a flirtation.
-He came over and talked to us and finally my
-friend asked me to play. I did, and I have thought
-since that perhaps that was my chief attraction for
-him then, as he was very fond of music. In the meantime
-my friend had found some one to take up her
-time and Jack and I went up on deck by ourselves.
-We sat side by side and the gentle motion of the boat,
-the moon shining on the waters, the soft, warm breeze
-floating past us, were enchanting and very conducive
-to love-making. He was much older than I, but that
-made no difference to me. I thought only of the romantic
-situation, and wondered if fate had brought
-this prince of men to me. He kissed me and loved me
-as I had not imagined in my fondest dreams, and I
-drank it all in, and returned it with interest.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_263"></a>[263]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Before the boat reached Chicago he gave me his
-name and address, and I had given him mine, and it
-was arranged that we should correspond. For several
-weeks I heard from him regularly and then came
-a long silence. At first I was hopeful, but at last my
-hope gave way to doubt, and I became morose. I refused
-to eat and became as miserable as a sentimental
-girl of fifteen could possibly be. I left school, finally,
-having prevailed upon my mother to allow me to learn
-stenography. She consented, thinking, I presume, that
-it was the best thing that could be done as long as I
-was in my present frame of mind, although the cause
-of it was all a mystery at the time.</p>
-
-<p>“One night when I came home from school, I
-found a letter from the Alexian Brothers’ hospital,
-telling me of the severe illness of Jack, and that if I
-would see him alive, I must come at once. My heart
-was almost bursting with its strain of conflicting
-emotions. At one moment I was on the mountain
-top, filled with joy at the thought that he had not
-forgotten me; the next, down in the valley of despair,
-fearing his death.</p>
-
-<p>“I told mamma the whole occurrence, and while she
-did not approve of an acquaintance made in such a
-way, she concluded to go with me to the hospital.
-When we arrived we talked to the nurse a few moments,
-and she told us that he had constantly called
-for Carrie in his delirium. He never mentioned my
-last name, and as a last resort they thought of looking
-through all his effects to see if there was anything
-among them which would throw light on the subject.</p>
-
-<p>“In his coat pocket they found his last letter to me,<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_264"></a>[264]</span>
-which he had evidently not sent for some reason, and
-in this way they learned my address. They thought it
-best for mamma to remain outside at first, until they
-saw what effect, if any, my presence had upon him.</p>
-
-<p>“I went up to the cot and kneeled beside it, putting
-my cool hand on his burning forehead, and whispered
-‘Jack’ very softly.</p>
-
-<p>“He ceased his ravings and seemed to be listening.
-I repeated his name and he murmured ‘Carrie.’</p>
-
-<p>“That was the turning point in his disease. The
-fever abated and I continued to visit him almost daily,
-sometimes in company with mamma, sometimes alone.
-Mamma liked him very much indeed, and soon lost
-sight of the way I met him.</p>
-
-<p>“When he had recovered sufficiently to go out, he
-came over to our house. He won papa over directly,
-a feat I had feared far more than that of winning
-mamma, for he was so set in his ways. He improved
-the first opportunity to ask papa for my hand, and he
-consented on condition that we wait one year at least,
-for he thought I was too young to assume the responsibilities
-of married life. So it was arranged. I
-continued with my shorthand, and after I finished
-found a nice position in a lawyer’s office.</p>
-
-<p>“Jack would give me no peace until I would consent
-to marry him secretly. He said he was afraid he
-would lose me. So one day we stole away and were
-married. He was very tender with me, and taught
-me the beauty of married relations, so slowly and
-gently, that I was not shocked, as I might have been
-had he been different. To outward appearances he
-was only the devoted lover and I, being his fiancee,<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_265"></a>[265]</span>
-he was allowed to call as often as he chose and stay as
-late as he liked, for my parents had implicit confidence
-in him.</p>
-
-<p>“One day, six months after we were married, a
-strange man called at the office to see me. I met
-him with a great deal of trepidation, fearing, I don’t
-know what.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Is your name Carrie Barnes?’ said he.</p>
-
-<p>“I said, ‘Yes, what do you want?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Do you know one Jack Bates?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I do,’ said I, now thoroughly aroused to anger.
-‘Is it any of your business if I do?’</p>
-
-<p>“He looked at me kindly, yet gravely, and replied in
-even tones, ‘I am sorry to say it is some of my business,
-and a very unpleasant business at that.’</p>
-
-<p>“Then he asked me if there was not a private office
-where he could talk his business over with me. So
-I took him into Mr. Walton’s private office.</p>
-
-<p>“He said, ‘Will you tell me what you know of Mr.
-Bates?’</p>
-
-<p>“I told him I didn’t know anything against him, if
-that was what he was waiting to hear me say.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Will you tell me what your relations are with
-him?’</p>
-
-<p>“I could feel the blood leaving my face, and I must
-have repeated his question, for he said, ‘Yes, tell me
-whether you have ever had any relations with him
-which you should not hold.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I will not tell you a thing,’ said I. ‘Who are you
-and what do you mean by asking me such questions?’</p>
-
-<p>“He was exasperated, I suppose, by my impudence,
-for he said, ‘I’ll tell you my business. I am an attorney<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_266"></a>[266]</span>
-representing my client, and in his behalf I am
-tracing the career of Jack Bates. It is known that he
-has been to your home frequently, and that you have
-been out together a great deal. It will be to your
-advantage to tell all you know.’</p>
-
-<p>“At this critical juncture, I heard Mr. Walton
-coming. I ran out in the hall to meet him and managed
-to gasp out, ‘I want to see you a minute.’</p>
-
-<p>“I told him what the man had said, and he said,
-‘Carrie, tell me all about it. What do you know about
-him?’</p>
-
-<p>“Then I told him we were married, and had been
-for six months. He scowled and said, ‘Bad, very
-bad. I advise you to tell the gentleman the whole
-affair, just as it is. Do not try to protect the man;
-let him stand on his own merits.’</p>
-
-<p>“So I went back to the attorney.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Well,’ he said, ‘are you ready to tell me all you
-know?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes,’ I said, ‘but I have not much to tell. It is
-only this. Mr. Bates and I were married six months
-ago, so I guess even you will admit that we had a
-right to be seen together often, if we chose to.’</p>
-
-<p>“He said, ‘My child, I am sorry to be obliged to tell
-you, but the fact of the matter is, you are not his
-legal wife. I am representing the father of a girl fifteen
-years old, whom he has seduced, and in my investigations
-I have learned that he has a legal wife and
-one child living.’</p>
-
-<p>“How do people live through such awful ordeals,
-yet possess their senses? I was young and believe
-that was my only salvation. The world turned suddenly<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_267"></a>[267]</span>
-as dark as death; all the sunshine and mirth had
-gone out of it. That night when I went home I saw
-other girls laughing and talking as if they had not a
-care in the world, and I wondered how they could
-do it. I was still stunned by the awful blow which
-had fallen upon me. I might have found a little consolation
-in talking to Jack, but even that was denied
-me, for the attorney told me that he had been taken
-into custody, arrested on the charge of seduction.</p>
-
-<p>“I did not know what to do. I could not tell my
-parents of my marriage, for I knew my father’s pride
-and sternness, and I feared he would turn me out of
-doors when he knew the truth. I managed to live
-through the night somehow, and dragged myself to
-the office the next morning. Mr. Walton asked me if
-I had told my parents and I told him I had not, and
-asked him to break the news to me, which he consented
-to do.</p>
-
-<p>“After he had gone I sat in the office trembling for
-the result.</p>
-
-<p>“He came back at last, after what seemed to me an
-interminable length of time, and told me to go home.
-Mamma took me in her arms and tried to console me,
-but papa ignored my presence entirely and refused to
-speak to me for months.</p>
-
-<p>“When Jack came to trial they brought his wife
-to appear against him; that is, it went against him,
-of course. She was a sweet young woman, just the
-age that I am now, twenty-one years, and he had married
-her as soon as she came out of the convent. I
-was not able to go on the witness stand, the shock of<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_268"></a>[268]</span>
-the whole thing had proved too much for me, so they
-took my deposition and the trial went on without me.”</p>
-
-<p>“What was the result of the trial?” I asked.</p>
-
-<p>“He was sentenced to a term in Joliet, and is serving
-his time there now, and I never want to see his hateful
-face again.</p>
-
-<p>“His wife came to see me and brought her little year-old
-girl with her. The dear little thing was as bright
-and sweet as she could be, and my heart went out to
-both of them. Later, Jack’s mother came to see me,
-bent and worn with her grief and the disgrace her only
-son had brought upon her.”</p>
-
-<p>“And what became of the other girl?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, she died of a broken heart, so they say. What
-a world of misery one man can create!</p>
-
-<p>“I was very ill for a long time, and when I recovered
-my father felt very differently toward me; he
-seemed to be reconciled to the affair, and I was fully
-forgiven.</p>
-
-<p>“I simply existed for two years, not caring for anything.
-I met Harold about this time, and you know
-the rest.</p>
-
-<p>“He took me knowing all, and we are quite happy;
-at least, I try to make him happy, but I can never forget
-that first awful disappointment. It rises like a
-specter at the very moment I think I have forgotten.”</p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_269"></a>[269]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_EIGHTEEN">TALE EIGHTEEN.<br />
-<span class="smaller">ONE WOMAN’S WAY.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“What men gain fairly—that they should possess,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">And children may inherit idleness,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">From him who earns it—this is understood;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Private injustice may be general good.</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">But he who gains by base and armed wrong,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Or guilty fraud, or base compliances,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">May be despoiled even as a stolen dress</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Is stript from a convicted thief and he</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Left in the nakedness of infamy.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“Yes, I think women have great control over some
-branches of politics, or, at least, I will say that some
-women lend their influence in such a way that political
-aspirants are masters of the situation at times.”</p>
-
-<p>The speaker was a woman too distinguished looking
-to be classed as an ordinary person; tall, straight and
-dignified, the auburn hair looked almost red, as the
-glints of sunshine rested on one massive coil, which
-had been so neatly arranged high upon the well-shaped
-head, giving her a queenly bearing.</p>
-
-<p>The forehead, a trifle low, added much to the determination
-of the rather square-set jaws; the thin lips
-curved into a knowing smile, while the hazel eyes
-shone with the unmistakable signs of wit and ingenuity.
-If she appeared taller than the average woman
-it was partly due to the fact that she had a way of
-looking at people with seeming downcast expression;<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_270"></a>[270]</span>
-the effect of this look was produced by the erection of
-the woman’s head, together with the long eyelashes,
-which appeared to creep from under the heavy brows;
-if at first glance one should judge her to be from the
-ranks of the common, a moment’s study of the face,
-ending in a glance at the symmetrical figure, would
-emphatically impress one with the thought that some
-unusual event had some time in her life mixed the
-surroundings so thoroughly into her plastic nature that
-it caused some of the rougher elements to crop out in
-spite of her complete control, and well planned efforts
-of concealment.</p>
-
-<p>She had answered my question, so I took courage
-and asked her another.</p>
-
-<p>“Can you tell me of an instance wherein a woman
-has, by her own efforts, been able to control the political
-situation?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes.”</p>
-
-<p>She spoke almost snappishly, then in a softer tone
-she continued:</p>
-
-<p>“If you will excuse a personal allusion, I will give
-you a story.”</p>
-
-<p>“The more personal, the better it will be told,” I
-said with a nod.</p>
-
-<p>“Then,” she said, as she pointed to a chair with an
-inviting air, and proceeded to deposit herself into a
-comfortable rocker, “I will tell you one that is founded
-on facts.”</p>
-
-<p>“I, like all girls, was once in love.”</p>
-
-<p>“Once,” said I, as I looked around the room of the
-neatly furnished cottage in which we sat, finally resting
-my eyes on the crayon portrait of a man, whose face,<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_271"></a>[271]</span>
-though not handsome, denoted such honest industry
-that it was easy for me to imagine that he would love
-the woman of his choice devotedly, that unless she was
-a woman of barbarous mind she must at least love him
-out of gratitude.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, that is my husband; I can read your thoughts,”
-she said, with no show of further attention to the interrupting
-gaze, “and thereby hangs a tale.”</p>
-
-<p>“This is my home, and the price I paid for it should
-have been the means of my presiding over a palace.
-I grew from the ranks of blithesome, prattling childhood
-to the age of sixteen, on a farm; wild roses and
-butterflies were my companions in the summer months,
-while the winter days were spent in school. I was
-thrown much into the society of a young man, who had
-come to our neighborhood as an applicant for the position
-of school teacher; at the time of his introduction
-into the district my father was a candidate for the office
-of township trustee; that worthy official has a great
-deal to do with the selection of the pedagogues, and it
-was well understood that if a teacher in search of a
-place find favor in the eyes of the superior officers of
-the township, his success was assured.</p>
-
-<p>“It had been the custom up to this time to employ
-lady teachers in the rural districts, but when Roy Sunderman
-came on the field he came to win. It was
-generally believed that my father would have little or
-no opposition in his race for office, but when he was
-questioned on the policy of changing from female to
-male teachers, he was so indiscreet as to commit himself
-in favor of male instructors; this turned the tide<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_272"></a>[272]</span>
-against him, and public sentiment threatened to defeat
-him.</p>
-
-<p>“It was nearing the time for election; no time was
-to be lost. One evening a neighbor of ours called to
-take me for a drive and incidentally to a lawn social,
-which was to be held a few miles from my father’s
-home. After we had gotten fairly started, my escort,
-who was a well-to-do farmer’s son, told me that some
-of the school and political directors had met at his
-father’s house on the night previous, and had besieged
-his father to make the race for trustee against
-my father, ‘But I hope he won’t,’ said he.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Why,’ I asked.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Because I—I—don’t want our people to oppose
-each other in any manner,’ said he.</p>
-
-<p>“I was a schoolgirl and cared very little for politics,
-and knew no reason why Elmer Lane should be so
-deeply interested in the peace and tranquillity which
-existed between our respective families. Still, I
-wanted my father to win. I would have been a
-strange child if I had not wanted such a result.</p>
-
-<p>“Suddenly a light dawned upon me; if the elder
-Lane could be kept out of the race, or even defeated,
-my father would be the victor; then, for the first time
-in my life, I began to formulate a scheme which would
-upset the plans of the opposing side; I was not long in
-drawing out of my companion the statement that he
-loved me; then I was able to see why he was so keen
-to have the present standard of friendship maintained.
-He begged me to say that I loved him. I put him off
-by saying that if I did I would be afraid to confess<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_273"></a>[273]</span>
-it, for fear our families might become antagonized in
-the coming political battle which was near at hand.</p>
-
-<p>“‘But,’ said he, ‘if that is any barrier, say that you
-love me and I will compel my father to decline to run,
-or, better still, I will advise him to accept the nomination;
-then, after it is too late to select another candidate
-in his stead, withdraw, leaving the field clear for
-your father.’</p>
-
-<p>“I had confidence in Elmer’s ability, but did not
-bind myself by a promise. I told him he must first
-show his ability to keep the track clear.</p>
-
-<p>“We arrived at the lawn fete with our love affairs
-in embryo; all was merry; country girls were there
-from miles around; white swiss and flowered lawn
-dresses fluttered softly among the rose bushes and
-other flower laden shrubbery; while the young men,
-with bronzed faces and a distinct line of bleached
-skin around their necks, showing evidence of a fresh
-haircut, sallied about behind gaily colored neckties
-and ever ready grins of more or less magnitude, as
-the occasion demanded. All the games so pleasing
-to the young folks were indulged in by the frivolous
-guests.</p>
-
-<p>“I had strayed away from the center of the group,
-which was indulging in some pastime, because I did
-not have the interest of the evening at heart. I had
-been told for the first time that I was loved, and while
-that did not create any strange feeling in my bosom, I
-could not banish from my mind the thought that the
-man who professed love to me had endeavored to purchase
-mine. I was not posted in chivalry, but I did
-feel as if I might have been more susceptible to his<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_274"></a>[274]</span>
-pleadings if he had based his ideas altogether on the
-fact that he loved me without trying to buy favor
-by the sacrifice of some other aspiration.</p>
-
-<p>“I was seated on a rough wooden bench near a tall
-stump around which was twined a profusion of morning
-glories. I could see everything that was going
-on around me, but was myself out of the direct ray of
-light which the many Japanese lanterns shed through
-their variegated sides. I think I must have started
-when I heard a voice say, ‘Is this Miss Dalby?’</p>
-
-<p>“The voice was strange and so unlike the uncultured
-nasal tones which I was accustomed to hear.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Y—e—s,’ I drawled, as I looked up into a mature
-face, ‘my name is Dalby.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘My name is Sunderman—Roy Sunderman,’ said
-the voice. ‘I have tried to be introduced to you, Miss
-Dalby, but fate seems to have blocked my way.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I—I did not know you wanted to meet me,’ I
-stammered.</p>
-
-<p>“Roy Sunderman was a full grown man, and I was
-not long in becoming interested in what he was saying.
-The time sped so rapidly that the crowd was
-half gone before I thought of it being the hour for
-leaving. Then, so wrapped was I in what Mr. Sunderman
-was saying, that my escort of the evening
-called me twice before he attracted my attention to
-get me to join him on the homeward trip.</p>
-
-<p>“I had not granted Mr. Sunderman’s request to be
-allowed to call, but told him I would consider the
-matter and notify him if I concluded to allow him to
-come.</p>
-
-<p>“Elmer Lane upbraided me so unmercifully on my<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_275"></a>[275]</span>
-way home for my conduct of the evening that my
-mind was made up before I went to bed. I wrote
-Mr. Sunderman a note asking him to call on the
-Sunday evening following. Long before the summer
-sun had gone to rest on that Sunday evening,
-Elmer called for his answer, saying that he had persuaded
-his father to decline the honor of being a
-candidate. ‘And now,’ said he, ‘I want you to say that
-you will love me.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But I don’t love you,’ said I.</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, I suppose that young snob from town has
-filled your head full of poetry and such like.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I don’t know what you mean.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘I mean that smarty that you sneaked off in the
-dark with, over at Wilson’s party.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘If you mean Mr. Sunderman, you are mistaken,’
-said I.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Well, that’s who I mean, and I’ll tell you now
-that he’s the cause of all the trouble about this trustee
-business, and what’s more, I’ll show you mighty quick
-where he will end. I mean to have my dad run, and
-he’ll beat your ‘old man’ all holler, so good-bye, Miss
-Dalby.’</p>
-
-<p>“He left. When Mr. Sunderman came I was in
-tears; I was alone at home, my parents having gone
-out for the day and remaining away late. I was so
-hurt. I could now see that I had put myself in a
-bad plight. Mr. Sunderman begged me till I told
-him all. His words of comfort were soft, tender and
-reassuring, and by the time my parents came home,
-I concluded to tell them the whole affair, and with kind
-and genial Mr. Sunderman’s help, I did so. The following<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_276"></a>[276]</span>
-Tuesday the papers announced the name of
-Thomas Lane as candidate for township trustee.</p>
-
-<p>“Never before was the local talent so pressed into
-service and the issue was one of merit. Many of the
-people came out in open defiance of my father; he
-was quoted and misquoted. Meanwhile Roy Sunderman
-was showing his ability as a politician. He made
-speech after speech at the school houses in the township;
-his diplomacy steered clear of the real issue, as
-he knew that the odds were heavily against him; he
-not only saw that the public was in favor of women
-teachers, but he realized that he stood before the
-people an abject subject to the severest forms of criticism.
-Still, this man of personal magnetism made
-many friends and fast friends everywhere he went;
-his arguments were forceful and conclusive and at the
-closing of each speech he made the announcement that
-on the day before the election he would address the
-people en masse, and if every voter would promise to
-come he would obligate himself to tell them something
-startling, and that something would be proven to them,
-that they would weigh the facts in their own active
-minds and be guided by their own decisions; in other
-words, they would be given facts that would put them
-on their honor as patrons of the public schools, as husbands
-of their homes and as fathers of their children.
-Such orations had the desired effect. It set everybody
-talking and the result was that when the day
-arrived for the ‘firing of the gun,’ as many of the
-skeptical ones put it, the entire populace was in the
-grove that had been chosen for the occasion. I am
-sure no one knew what was coming. All of the school<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_277"></a>[277]</span>
-directors were invited to seats on the rough platform
-by the speaker. His speech was a marvel of philosophy,
-his language was one continuous flow of correct
-and convincing utterances. The attention which
-was accorded him was within itself a mark of the
-appreciation of his efforts.</p>
-
-<p>“Then he made the statement that on a certain night
-the school directors had met in caucus at the home of
-one of the candidates (namely, Mr. Lane), and solicited
-him to enter the race, and that he considered
-the matter in a favorable manner, and that Mr. Lane’s
-son had gone to the daughter of Mr. Dalby and made
-the proposition that in consideration of her giving to
-him her love he would dissuade his father from entering
-the race, and, pending the decision of the young
-woman, the Board of Directors had received this letter:</p>
-
-<p>“‘Fellow Citizens,’ shouted the enthusiastic speaker,
-as he waved a sheet of fool’s cap aloft, ‘declining to
-become a candidate, then within two days after the
-young woman had decided that a man of the mercenary
-ideas of Elmer Lane was unworthy the love of
-a true woman, the father of the purchaser of love
-announces himself as a candidate, and young Mr. Lane
-had menacingly declared that ‘Old Man Dalby would
-be beat all holler if the young lady refused him.’”</p>
-
-<p>“‘Now, ladies and gentlemen, if you want a man
-in the position of honor and responsibility, which it is
-in the power of this fair minded people to tender a
-man, who is making the fight simply to gratify the
-revengeful feelings which are harbored by a whimsical
-and love sick youth, it is your duty to vote for Thomas<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_278"></a>[278]</span>
-Lane. If you want a man to represent you in public
-affairs who is more loyal to the cause of education,
-and who has the interest of your home at heart as
-well as his own, and a man who is as far above the
-pusillanimous acts of coercion as the angels are above
-Satan, then vote for Caspian Dalby.’”</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Sunderman closed his remarks by challenging
-any one to refute his statements. No one made answer
-to this remark and the truth won. Of course
-there was a great deal of talk when my father insisted
-on employing Mr. Sunderman. He was tendered the
-position of principal of the academy in town, but he
-declined, saying that he preferred country life and that
-all he could accept would be a school in the country.
-Then he was intrusted with the school in the district
-in which we lived.</p>
-
-<p>“It was an easy thing for me to fall in love with
-him, and I am sure he loved me. My father did not
-object to the match, he only insisted on our waiting,
-but lovers cannot wait, so we went quietly away, got
-married and wrote home for forgiveness. It came in
-time and we, instead of returning, settled down in a
-small Wisconsin town, where Roy began the practice
-of law. Sixteen months of happiness is well worth
-the price of sixteen years of sadness. Our boy was
-about four months old when Roy came home one day
-with a cloud on his face. I finally persuaded him to
-tell me what his trouble was, and he took me in his
-arms and told me of another marriage in which he
-was a principal. It occurred two years before he
-came to our house. He had applied for a divorce and
-supposed himself free, but it seemed a technical point<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_279"></a>[279]</span>
-had been overlooked and he was still legally bound to
-the other woman. I am too mature now to explain
-to you how my tender nerves were shocked. I asked
-him if he could not yet get a divorce. He was afraid
-not, and besides he had a letter from his father who
-was very wealthy stating that unless he came home
-and took care of his wife he would be disinherited.</p>
-
-<p>“‘But what about me?’ I asked.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh dear,’ he said, ‘I don’t know; it nearly drives
-me mad. If I go I will lose you and if I stay I will
-lose fortune and position, and will eventually be torn
-from you.’”</p>
-
-<p>“I could see it all; he was right. It was arranged
-for me to live in Chicago. He would support me and
-move his wife there so that he could see me as often
-as possible.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Cold, isn’t it?’ said the woman, as her eyes glowed
-like coals of fire.</p>
-
-<p>“I would have died to make him happy, but it was
-not my lot to die.</p>
-
-<p>“He had lived here about one year, when his legal
-wife died in child birth. I mourned with him, for she
-was a good angel. I went so far as to have her baby
-girl brought to my cottage and cared for her as I did
-my own child. He called often, and it was quite
-natural for me to now look forward to taking the
-position which was rightfully mine. After six months
-I ventured to mention it to him. He said: ‘Yes, dear,
-just as soon as the proper time has elapsed, you know.
-I am in politics and I cannot afford to cause comment
-such as a public man must suffer by the failure to
-observe the proper respect.’”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_280"></a>[280]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I could see he was right. All of the bright
-future which remained before him could be turned to
-inky darkness by just such a mistake as this. He received
-an appointment at Washington, consequently
-was away from me a great deal. Finally, on one of his
-trips home, he suggested the idea of sending his girl
-baby to some of his people.</p>
-
-<p>“‘It is too much for you, dear,’ he said.</p>
-
-<p>“I had learned to love the little darling and I was
-lonesome when he took her away. He never forgot
-to send the remittance for my support, and his visits
-continued the same.</p>
-
-<p>“One day after he had been in Washington a year I
-met a lady from there. In our general talk I mentioned
-that I knew a gentleman there.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Who?’ she asked.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Mr. Sunderman.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, do you know him?’ she exclaimed, with a
-show of delight.</p>
-
-<p>“Pleased to know that I had met one of his friends,
-I felt the flood of joy which shone out of my face as I
-said, ‘Yes, I have known him a long time.’”</p>
-
-<p>“‘And do you know his wife?’ said my friend, as
-we started across the street.</p>
-
-<p>“‘I met her once,’ I said, ‘just before she died.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, I mean his present wife, formerly Miss
-Bringhurst.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Is he mar⸺’</p>
-
-<p>“I heard the shout. I caught a glimpse of the horse’s
-hoofs as they pawed the air near my head, but I was
-falling, and all I know was that I could not stop. When
-I awoke I was in the hospital.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_281"></a>[281]</span></p>
-
-<p>“I was not so badly injured from the fall as was at
-first supposed, although I received a bad scalp wound,
-which caused me to bleed so profusely that I must have
-been a terrible sight. I quickly recovered sufficiently
-to be taken to my home. I suffered days of untold
-agony. I could not believe what I had heard; I was
-sure it must be false. Roy, my Roy, was true to me;
-he was too true to our boy to do anything to make us
-suffer.</p>
-
-<p>“Each day made my load heavier. Years were
-added to my age by the terrible strain which was
-brought to bear on me. I viewed my position from
-every standpoint and at last with a love greatly overshadowed
-with fear and doubt, I took steps to ascertain
-what amount of truth there was in the report.</p>
-
-<p>“It was true. He had been married three months,
-during which time he had called on me twice, and it
-was now almost time for his regular visit. I received
-a letter saying he would arrive in this city on the
-day following. What was I to do? When I thought
-of openly accusing him of his perfidy my heart sank
-within me. Oh, to think that he would be untrue
-to me; to know that I was not loved. For to know
-that was to desire to die, and why not? No sooner
-had the thought flashed into my mind than the plan
-developed in all its maturity. But what would I do
-with the baby? I loved him, and surely no one else
-would care for him since his father had deserted him
-and I would be dead.”</p>
-
-<p>At this point my hostess paused, and walking across
-the room took from a drawer a photograph of a youth
-in military costume.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_282"></a>[282]</span></p>
-
-<p>“This is my baby’s picture,” she said, with a tremor
-in her voice; then, giving way to her feelings, she
-buried her face in her hands and sobbed.</p>
-
-<p>“And to think,” she said, “a fine boy like that with
-no one to call father.”</p>
-
-<p>So calmly did this woman of nerve tell me of her
-intention that I became engrossed with the idea and
-listened as though some one was presenting a business
-proposition to me.</p>
-
-<p>“Then you changed your mind?” I said.</p>
-
-<p>“No, I tried to put my plans into execution. I put
-the baby to bed, closed the room up tightly and
-turned on the three gas jets, took my all in my arms
-and closed my eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“I have a distinct memory of the darkness, the
-shooting pains in my head and the choking sensation
-which seemed to so nearly strangle me that I had no
-ambition left with which to struggle for life; then I
-went to sleep.</p>
-
-<p>“The next thing I knew the fresh air was blowing
-on my brow and I heard some one calling my name.
-‘O, Mary, Mary, speak to me. Wake up, dearest, and
-say that you know and love me. It is Roy. Don’t you
-know me, precious one?’</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, how I longed to die while those words were
-being uttered; how I prayed in my semi-conscious
-stupor that his kisses would assist in smothering the
-breath which, in spite of my efforts, had begun to
-come and go softly through my purple lips. His loving
-words were as the music of angels, and my only wish
-was to be wafted away to the sweet sound of his<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_283"></a>[283]</span>
-endearing tones. My dreaded fear was made complete
-when I awoke to a full sense of realization.</p>
-
-<p>“I opened my eyes to find myself in Roy’s arms.
-I saw that tender look of the strong man; I heard him
-say: ‘Darling, I love you.’ I felt myself clasped to
-his breast and I was glad I lived. God seemed to
-have sent him at the right time. I asked him how it
-came that he was there and he told me that he was so
-anxious to see me that he left business and all and
-came one day sooner. He had let himself into the
-house as usual and found me in time to bring me back
-to life. The baby was not so badly affected as I was,
-for the reason, I think, that he had cuddled close to
-me and in so doing had gotten his face under the bed
-clothing, consequently the fumes of gaseous poison
-had not penetrated his retreat.</p>
-
-<p>“Roy was so tender and good that I could not
-bring myself to the point of asking him about his
-marriage. He asked me why I had undertaken the
-rash act and I told him that I was lonesome for him.
-Things drifted on for months, and he returned to this
-city to live. It was then that he came to me and told
-me that he was married. He explained how he had
-been compelled to have a certain sum of money in
-order to maintain his influence in the political circle
-and that he had married a wealthy woman. He insisted
-that I meet his wife, but I refused. I also
-refused to accept any financial aid from him. If it
-had been his money I should gladly have taken it,
-but I would not take a cent of the funds which had
-been the means of buying my place at my husband’s
-side. I then answered an advertisement for ‘housekeeper<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_284"></a>[284]</span>
-wanted’ and accepted a position with a small
-family, which only lasted a few weeks, at which time
-I found myself penniless. Next, I was a chambermaid
-in a hotel, but left because I could not have my
-boy with me. Then kind heaven seemed to favor me,
-for I secured a position as companion to an old lady.
-I remained there seven years; my boy was allowed to
-live in the house with me, and went to school as soon
-as he had reached the proper age. I saw Mr. Sunderman
-occasionally. He was a well known attorney and
-a man of affairs. During my stay at the home of the
-old lady I became very much attached to her, and it
-was little wonder that when she passed into the
-peaceful slumber of death that I was much moved.</p>
-
-<p>“Many relatives that I had neither seen nor heard
-of attended the funeral. When the procession was
-forming to leave the house my attention was attracted
-to a beautiful woman, who had a little girl with her.
-She was an earnest mourner; it seemed almost impossible
-for her to give up her dear aunt to the relentless
-hand of death. She moaned and sobbed so
-pitifully as the casket was borne from the house that
-I thought to lead her; she leaned heavily on my arm
-and we slowly followed the form we loved so well
-and sadly watched the pall bearers as they placed the
-black case in the sombre vehicle. Then the carriages,
-which were silently waiting, began to draw up to the
-curbing as the huge burial car moved away. One,
-two, three handsomely groomed teams stopped, until
-the curtained doors of the carriages to which they
-were hitched closed with a muffled sound, when they<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_285"></a>[285]</span>
-would slowly walk away as though they understood
-they were to make room for the next.</p>
-
-<p>“The fourth carriage halted; the attentive assistant
-opened the door and the lady I was supporting moved
-toward it, leading the little girl with her.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Would you mind letting this lady ride with you?’
-asked the undertaker, with a bow.</p>
-
-<p>“For the first time she looked at me and seemed to
-recognize me as the woman whom she had seen in
-charge of affairs in the house when she had first
-arrived.</p>
-
-<p>“‘No,’ she said, with a toss of her head, ‘I don’t
-care to take any servants in with me.’</p>
-
-<p>“I watched the streets and boulevards for months
-before I again set eyes on that turnout; when I did
-it was but a matter of inquiry to find out it was the
-private equipage of Mrs. R. Sunderman.</p>
-
-<p>“I had reached the stage of desperation, where I
-was ready to do anything but one thing, and that was
-to die. I wanted to live long enough to impress upon
-her mind who I was. It was while in this frame of
-mind that I met my husband. I had lost all respect
-for myself; I had reached that stage of degradation
-which is worse than to resolve to take one’s life. I
-had decided to sell my soul in order to have sufficient
-funds to at some time humiliate this woman who had
-refused to carry me in her carriage, which should have
-been mine. I went to a house of bad repute to apply
-for admission; while talking to the proprietress a man
-came in. He signified a desire to talk to me, and we
-left the place together. He was only a poor man, but
-his soul contains some of the rarest qualities of manliness<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_286"></a>[286]</span>
-that has ever been discovered in the human race.
-In ten days we were married. I did not love him,
-but he offered me and my boy a home. He asked no
-questions but, as he said, took it for granted that I
-was as good as himself; I have never loved him with
-that pure, unselfish love which is so essential to real
-happiness, but he has been good to me and I have done
-my duty.”</p>
-
-<p>“But what about your first—er—Mr. Sunderman, I
-mean?”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, he followed his political ambitions, and his
-party has been victorious in nearly all its efforts.
-Money has come to him without apparent effort.</p>
-
-<p>“My husband finally purchased a grocery store in
-which he toiled incessantly to provide for us. Such
-life grew monotonous. I was seeking some way of
-relieving him, when one day I picked up a paper and
-saw great headlines saying, ‘Sunderman Faction
-Wins.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘The result of yesterday’s caucus plainly shows
-Hon. Roy Sunderman master of the situation. His
-position and power unquestionably defined,’ etc.</p>
-
-<p>“In reading the article I discovered that Sunderman
-had gained control of the political situation. He did
-not seek any office, but rather chose to be dictator,
-thereby holding the patronage of high officials in his
-hand. I next ascertained that he would be appointed
-minister to some foreign country to intercede in issues
-of great importance which at that time held the public
-eye, as he saw fit. The newspaper account which contained
-the latter statement went on to say that the great
-honor shown Mr. Sunderman was only a fitting tribute<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_287"></a>[287]</span>
-in return for the effective and valuable services which
-he had rendered the party, and that he was given the
-choice of several different appointments, but preferred
-the one named because it would afford him an opportunity
-to take his family on a sojourn in Europe with
-him.</p>
-
-<p>“At last, I had not waited so long for nothing. This
-is an exact copy of the letter I wrote him.”</p>
-
-<p>The letter was as forceful in expression as was the
-writer in her deliberate narration. I will produce it
-word for word:</p>
-
-<div class="blockquote">
-
-<p class="noindent">“<i>Hon. Roy Sunderman.</i></p>
-
-<p>“<span class="smcap">Dear Sir</span>: No doubt you have expected to hear
-from me ere this; I have been waiting for the opportunity
-which your popularity has just now afforded
-me. If the monotony of my humdrum existence has
-taken me entirely out of your life, it is only the more
-reason why your rise to prominence has been more
-plain to me; I have no favors to ask, but a request to
-make, hence this letter. I can see no happiness in
-having for a husband a man who on the stroke of five
-in the morning rolls out of his bed, hurries into his
-clothes and rushes away to his stall, where he deals
-out potatoes and codfish to the dictation of those to
-whom he must humbly bow in order to retain their
-patronage; remaining away all day without his lunch
-and only arriving home in the evening in time to eat
-dinner, which has been spoiled by being kept warm,
-and then tired, cross and peevish, he goes off to seek
-the rest from the day’s toil and worry, only to rise and
-repeat the program as the days go by. The man is
-all right, I have no fault to find with him, but his ill<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_288"></a>[288]</span>
-health and the overwork have sapped his vitality until
-ambition in him is a gone and forgotten element. You
-have power and my husband is well qualified to fill
-some office, which would be an honor to him and a
-glory to me. He is educated and I want you to have
-him appointed to a position. I also want you to arrange
-to have <i>our</i> boy sent to school.</p>
-
-<p>“These things I <i>know</i> you will take pleasure in
-doing, believing as I do, that my wish is your pleasure.</p>
-
-<p class="center">I remain,</p>
-
-<p class="right">⸺ nee Mary Dalby.”</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p>“He came to me upon receipt of the letter ready to
-advance me money, anything, that he could do, but
-the appointment was out of the question.</p>
-
-<p>“‘No,’ I said, ‘it is not; I shall expect you to do as
-I say.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But, listen, Mary, the positions which I did control
-have all been tendered to others since I accepted
-my appointment, and the only way I could get any
-favors now would be to withdraw.”</p>
-
-<p>“‘All right, sir, withdraw,’ said I.</p>
-
-<p>“‘But now, dear, be reasonable. My family is all
-ready to sail.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Well, let them sail.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, I—I know,’ he stammered. ‘But they can’t
-sail without me and I can’t disappoint them now.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘You can send them and join them later.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘No, I cannot afford it.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Cannot afford it,’ I gasped.</p>
-
-<p>“‘No. You see, Mary, I have to spend so much
-keeping pace with the crowd, that money is not at all
-plentiful with me.’</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_289"></a>[289]</span></p>
-
-<p>“‘And this appointment is the only means you have
-of going abroad?’</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes, Mary.’</p>
-
-<p>“I looked at him, his eyes were filled with tears. My
-heart softened; I saw the tender emotion as it lit up
-his face until a halo seemed to surround his head. I
-knew that I loved him yet. I heard his trembling
-voice, as he pleaded with me, I saw his soft, white
-hands as they reached out to me in mute appeal; I
-think the tears which now half blinded me must have
-had a softening effect on my callous nature. Then
-with a flash I thought of a son without a father, I
-again went through years of toil, and as if a panoramic
-view was being unrolled before me, I saw a
-house in mourning, a hearse drawn by black horses,
-draped with great, black nets, whose fringe hung almost
-to the ground. I saw a line of vehicles moving
-slowly, a man opened the door, then I heard a voice
-say, ‘No, I do not care to take any servants.’ Then
-with the pride wrought by the tingling of the warm
-blood which coursed through my veins, I said, ‘Well,
-Mr. Sunderman, I am sorry, but I must ask you and
-your family to forego this one pleasure.’</p>
-
-<p>“He did not mistake my sarcasm; he only asked me
-what would be the consequences, if he refused.</p>
-
-<p>“‘If you are anxious to know,’ said I, ‘just refuse
-and wait twenty-four hours.’</p>
-
-<p>“Within two days the papers were full of Mr. Sunderman’s
-withdrawal on account of a sudden breaking
-down of his health. He had many applicants for
-his influence, but he did not tell anyone that he had<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_290"></a>[290]</span>
-given up the only position over which he had any influence
-for reasons of his own.</p>
-
-<p>“In less than thirty days, a rural looking man called
-at my husband’s place of business, and stated that he
-was looking for an opportunity to buy a store something
-on the order of his; my husband priced the store,
-and the man took it without a word; my husband is
-industrious and I had a hard time keeping him in a
-contented frame of mind for thirty days more, but I insisted
-so strongly on his taking a much needed rest, that
-he was still idle when he was notified that he had been
-selected to fill a position as a postoffice inspector. His
-instructions were for him to proceed to headquarters
-at once to qualify. Our boy, Roy’s and mine, is in
-a military school and I anticipate that he will be selected
-as a West Point cadet, when he has made the
-proper advancement.”</p>
-
-<p>“And does your husband know?”</p>
-
-<p>“He knows nothing, except that five thousand a
-year is better than running a shop.”</p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_291"></a>[291]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_NINETEEN">TALE NINETEEN.<br />
-<span class="smaller">A STORY OF THE LEVEE.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“Ah, yes, ’tis sweet still to remember,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Though ’twere less painful to forget;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">For while my heart glows like an ember.</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Mine eyes with sorrow’s drops are wet,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">And oh, my heart is aching yet.</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">It is a law of mortal pain</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">That old wounds, long accounted well,</div>
- <div class="verse indent2">Beneath the memory’s potent spell,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Will wake to life and bleed again.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>In spite of police rules and the fact that there is a
-city ordinance prohibiting the admission of women in
-saloons in Chicago, in spite of the reported raids on
-dens in what has been known as the levee district for
-years, the writer indulged in a little slumming last
-evening.</p>
-
-<p>One engaged in Dr. Parkhurst’s favorite pastime
-need go but a few blocks from the Central Police
-Station to find sufficient fields of labor to keep one
-busy for days. South State street appeared to be
-more attractive to a man going out on such an expedition
-alone, for the section of the street chosen for
-the work was nearly as black as Hades while strictly
-speaking it was as light as day owing to the numerous
-arc lights which served to light the inexperienced to
-these shining dens of vice.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_292"></a>[292]</span></p>
-
-<p>The thrum of the guitar and the twang of the banjo
-and pounding of the piano served to entice me to enter
-a resort that is well known as the rendezvous of as
-precious a lot of thieving “old Mols,” pickpockets and
-grafters of all sorts as any city should care to boast.</p>
-
-<p>Upon my entrance my attention was attracted by
-the many signs of fresh paint which was smeared over
-the faces of the denizens of gaudy attire which in
-some cases could almost be described by saying they
-were attired in a pair of red hose and a short bodice.
-In many instances the flaring nostrils and flaming
-eyes were temporarily obscured by clouds of cigarette
-smoke, only to be assisted in their display of dissipation
-by a liberal supply of gold teeth, as the degraded
-creatures would eagerly open their carmined
-lips to receive again the agent of insanity.</p>
-
-<p>I was greeted with all the endearing terms known
-to the human tongue, from “Hello, sweetheart,” to
-“Honey, buy your baby a drink.”</p>
-
-<p>I saw everything from a friendly handshake to a
-hugging match behind an artificial palm. Every inducement
-to a man of virile, animal instincts was held
-out to the male visitors of this law abiding place, while
-the revolting scenes of depraved humanity were
-made more distasteful to the refined person on account
-of the pit of hellish wretchedness his fellow men
-had fallen into.</p>
-
-<p>So much for a city which is regarded as being under
-the surveillance, of proper authorities at all times.</p>
-
-<p>I sat down at a table alone. The three-man band
-struck up a waltz, the notes arose and mingled with
-smoke, curses and a discordant humming which came<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_293"></a>[293]</span>
-from the husky throats of a dozen or more wearers
-of bleached hair and otherwise falsified females.</p>
-
-<p>As the music continued I glanced around the large
-room. The sight of drunken men lolling over women
-whose only claim to life and conviviality was supplied
-by the effect of the different intoxicants which these
-daughters of misfortune had freely indulged in, was
-sufficiently disgusting to cause me to desire to make
-my exit without further delay.</p>
-
-<p>I arose to go; just as I did so, I caught the eye of
-a creature whose smile showed in itself just how much
-of an effort it cost for the woman to present it. I
-lingered by the chair, and she approached me timidly.
-Her action, combined with her appearance, served to
-mislead me. I mistook her for a novice; on account
-of her seemingly natural shyness I looked upon her as
-being wholly out of place. Her general appearance too
-was far above the ordinary “she frequenters” of this
-place.</p>
-
-<p>She was young, well preserved, modestly dressed
-and talked with a degree of sense and moral refinement
-unknown to the patrons of the establishment. Notwithstanding
-the fact that circumstances were against
-her, I believed her when she told me that she was not
-an habitue of this particular resort.</p>
-
-<p>“But why are you here tonight?” I asked.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I have the blues, good and plenty,” she said, as
-she dropped into a chair.</p>
-
-<p>“For why?” was my bantering query.</p>
-
-<p>It was then that I was treated to a square look into
-her face. She was pretty to say the least. Her soft
-hazel eyes denoted everything but viciousness; her full,<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_294"></a>[294]</span>
-round face carried the freshness of youth and she
-made feeble attempts to smile pleasantly, at which
-time she showed a set of white, firm, but very short
-teeth. She gazed at me for a full moment, then with
-an air of wisdom she said: “I suppose you are fixing
-to make a raid on all the ‘joints’?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, I am not,” was my honest reply, the meaning
-of which was so well taken that this girl admitted that
-I was surely “off my beat.”</p>
-
-<p>“You do not look like a man who chose his society
-from the ranks of these people,” said she, with a look
-around the room.</p>
-
-<p>“I should think you would know whether you had
-ever seen me around here before,” said I.</p>
-
-<p>“Nothing strange in that, for this is the first time
-I was ever in this place in my life.”</p>
-
-<p>By this time I had convinced her that I was not a
-“fly cop.” She had caused me to believe that she, too,
-was telling the truth. I finally invited her to have a
-drink.</p>
-
-<p>“No. At least not here; this is too tough for me,”
-she said as she arose.</p>
-
-<p>“But I want to talk to you.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am willing to talk, but not here and if you will
-meet me at the next corner in the basement, I will
-talk as long as you like. It is better and cleaner there,”
-she added.</p>
-
-<p>“Shall I go with you?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, I will go alone. You follow.”</p>
-
-<p>After she had gone out, I viewed myself in the
-dingy mirror. I wondered if I really looked easy to
-that sly lady. I was not inclined to follow her into<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_295"></a>[295]</span>
-any basement den and run the chance of her having
-told some of the gang that I had insulted her, so they
-might have an excuse to beat me into insensibility, rob
-me and throw me into the gutter, from whence I would
-be gathered up by the kind hearted policeman and
-carted away to the station more dead than alive and
-be called upon to answer to the charge of drunk and
-disorderly conduct, the next day, and pay tribute to
-the tune of a big fine, while my assailants were waiting
-for more “suckers.”</p>
-
-<p>Curiosity and stubbornness led me to follow at a
-safe distance and try if possible to ascertain what sort
-of a place she entered.</p>
-
-<p>It was on a corner; a view of the marble steps and
-shining brass rails denoted cleanliness. Bright lights
-diffused a warmth of welcome, while strains of music
-floated from the farther recesses of the basement. An
-expensive sign told me that the place was a “cafe.”
-“Ladies’ Entrance” was the inimitable farce that
-adorned the wall directly over one pair of steps leading
-downward, while numerous announcements over the
-other stairway announced all that was to be found by
-a respectable man of leisure. With a slight feeling of
-trepidation, I descended to the source of hilarity; as I
-drew nearer the music I became braver. I sought a
-table in a far off corner, and had not been there long
-when my new found acquaintance approached me.</p>
-
-<p>“Now,” I said, “I want you to tell me all about yourself.”</p>
-
-<p>“And if I do will you advise me as to what course
-to pursue to right a wrong?”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_296"></a>[296]</span></p>
-
-<p>“I will try. But first have a drink. You are all
-upset; take a little liquor to steady your nerves.”</p>
-
-<p>The drinks being disposed of, she began.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah well, it is a short story. I came to Chicago during
-the World’s Fair. I was a pretty child of seventeen.
-My parents were very wealthy. My former
-home was Grand Rapids, Michigan, but I became so
-enamored with the exciting life of this great city that
-I prevailed upon my parents to allow me to remain
-here and enter a school of music. For four years I
-advanced rapidly. Society’s doors were wide open to
-me everywhere. I was in great demand at all social
-functions on account of my rich voice. I made many
-friends and was loved and petted by all. I met a
-man, one who also sang; our sympathetic natures readily
-embraced each other, our souls were in harmony,
-we saw with the same eyes, heard with the same ears,
-and lived by the agencies of the same heart beats.</p>
-
-<p>“Time flew as it only can for lovers. We became
-engaged. All looked like one eternal, joyous day,
-but as time brings joy, so does it also bring pain. My
-fiance held a position of trust and responsibility. He
-came to me one day and said: ‘Jeanette, we must break
-our engagement,’ I thought he was joking, but no
-such good fortune. He meant he was thousands of
-dollars short in his accounts and wished to break off
-with me before it became public, so that the disgrace
-would not rest so heavily on me. He was noble for
-that, but I refused to release him, and wired my father,
-who came. I told him all, and my Dad was a good
-Dad; he anticipated my wish, and at once offered to
-make good all of Leslie’s shortage. It was decided that<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_297"></a>[297]</span>
-the matter should be settled in that way. Just then a
-new feature came to light. It developed that before I
-met Leslie he had been badly smitten on his employer’s
-daughter, Emily Sutton. I had never seen her; in fact,
-up to this time I did not know there was such a girl on
-earth. Miss Sutton was conscious of Leslie’s financial
-trouble, and as she had recently come into a large fortune
-in her own right, she, too, offered aid to the man
-we both loved. She had heard of me and demanded
-that I be jilted, and she become his wife. He refused,
-whereupon her influence was brought to bear upon her
-father and to spite me, Leslie was taken into custody.
-My father was true blue, and furnished the necessary
-bond which gave Leslie his liberty. He disappeared,
-and the affair caused an estrangement between my parents,
-which eventually drove my father to suicide.
-My mother and I quarreled; she said such bitter things
-about the loss my father had sustained by reason of
-his signing Leslie’s bond, that I refused to accept a
-dollar of the balance of the estate. She eventually married
-again and her second husband lost all my poor
-Dad had left.</p>
-
-<p>“I applied for a position as soloist at a number of
-the different churches, and each time some promise
-was made, but in every instance I afterward received
-a brief note, saying the committee had decided not to
-employ me at present. I went so far as to offer my
-services gratis, but the offer was gracefully rejected.
-I had been so deeply worried that I had failed to notice
-the lack of attention and invitations from my old
-circle of friends, which had gradually narrowed down
-to a handful, compared to former days. Finally I<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_298"></a>[298]</span>
-thought as a last resort and an excuse for remaining on
-earth, I would apply for a position on the stage. I
-had no trouble in securing what I thought was a very
-good contract. I made my debut at the Masonic Temple
-and had the newspapers let me alone, all would
-have gone well, but it appeared to be their duty to take
-up my thread of existence from childhood and around
-me they wove a romantic story. They told how one
-man had so lost his head over me that he became an
-embezzler; how the publicity had caused my father to
-fill a suicide’s grave, and how I had been a social favorite
-until this trouble came, etc. I suppose they meant
-it kindly, for the article closed by assuring the public
-that my smiles were as winsome as ever and my voice
-as sweet, and no doubt but that the Temple Garden
-would have the honor of having more real society people
-in attendance during my engagement, than any
-other place of amusement in the city. And they were
-there like curiosity seekers at a funeral. When the
-hour came for my second appearance (the matinee),
-every seat was taken and the “Standing Room Only”
-card had been put up an hour before the curtain raised.
-My number came; I went onto the stage and proceeded
-to disappoint my former friends by being seized with
-stage fright, and instead of singing, I stood in dumb
-consternation. Again and again the orchestra repeated
-the introduction; again and again did the director give
-me my cue. I heard nothing. I could see in the distance
-fans and handkerchiefs waving in the air. I saw
-a hundred pair of hands extended, and brought quickly
-together, but heard no clapping sound. I saw the
-many gorgeous flowers that were tossed upon the stage<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_299"></a>[299]</span>
-in massive bouquets. I saw the footlights as they
-seemed to grow more dazzling and then recede to a
-glimmering yellow flame, then I saw⸺.</p>
-
-<p>“When I revived the manager was furious. They
-said I had fainted. I guess I did. I know a very
-strange feeling came over me.</p>
-
-<p>“Now I have recited my entire stage career to you.
-After this experience my nerves seemed to fail me and
-I was unfit for anything. I had the misfortune one day
-to meet one of my old friends, who happened to be
-in the audience when I broke down. We had a long
-talk over our lunch which lasted from two till five
-o’clock. He was so sorry for me, and said the thing I
-needed was travel. I felt myself as if something was
-needed. He proposed to assist me financially, and insisted
-on my going to Mt. Clemmens to take a course
-of sulphur baths. I really felt that it would benefit
-me, and hoped it would refit me for some sort of service
-by which I might earn a living. I accepted the
-proffered aid and left Chicago to seek health and
-strength. I spent seven weeks at the baths, and was so
-much improved that I felt that life was again worth
-living. At the end of that time my benefactor came
-to me. He told me two things and one was that he
-had seen Leslie in Chicago; that since the forfeiture of
-his bond he had decided to return here and had married
-his former employer’s daughter, Emily. The other
-thing he told me was that he was just starting for a
-year’s sojourn in Europe and wished me to join him.
-I did not know what it meant, but he plainly told me
-that I would be expected to travel as his wife. His
-request had a crushing effect on me. I could see why<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_300"></a>[300]</span>
-he had entertained so much sympathy for me in my
-days of trouble.</p>
-
-<p>“I wanted to kill him. I asked him why he had not
-let me starve or die from the effects of the malady from
-which I was suffering. He listened quietly and then
-talked soothingly to me, until he convinced me that
-in reality he was my only friend. I then became suspicious.
-I did not believe he had seen Leslie, and I
-did not believe Leslie was married. I still loved him
-with the devotion that had eaten into my childish
-heart. I made my tormentor this proposition: That
-I would return to Chicago and see Leslie. If he
-really was married and could not marry me, I would
-return to him and accompany him to Europe. I had
-two reasons for making this request. First, I really
-wished to see Leslie, and second, I considered it a
-good plan to get away from the man who had befriended
-me, and to whom I found it quite a task to
-say no after all his kindness. He consented to the return
-to Chicago, and suggested that if I wished to go
-with him that I meet him in New York in two weeks.
-He filled my purse and I came here. I easily found
-Leslie. I told him I still loved him and begged him to
-marry me or kill me and end my suffering. He denounced
-me bitterly, accusing me of every sin a mortal
-can commit, and wound up by telling me he was
-married and showed me a picture of his wife. Here,
-this is the very picture,” said the girl as she drew a
-photograph from the envelope.</p>
-
-<p>“And you, of course, snatched it out of his hand.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, I will tell you how I got it when I get to that
-part.”</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_301"></a>[301]</span></p>
-
-<p>“I left him, my heart heavy within me. Again I
-sought employment in this city; for days I almost ran
-from one building to another in answer to some advertisement,
-only to find that I was too late, or in order
-to obtain this position I must submit to such proposals
-as I could not bear. Two weeks’ continuous trying
-and almost begging will tire the bravest. I found nothing
-that I could accept. My money was going fast;
-as I counted over my little store of currency my mind
-returned to him who gave it to me. Should I go and
-meet him? No! Die first, was my resolve. Then the
-thought came to me that possibly I could do better
-in New York, so after satisfying myself that he would
-have sailed before I could reach there, I left. I spent
-nearly all the money I had left for passage to New
-York. I felt that I never wanted to hear the name
-Chicago again, and as the train pulled out, I closed my
-eyes lest I should see something that would add more
-to my misery.</p>
-
-<p>“I arrived at the Eastern metropolis without accident.
-I went straightway to a music hall and sought
-an engagement. I was accepted and was to appear in
-“The Spider and the Fly” Co. and told to report for
-rehearsal the next morning at ten. I went and lo!
-another calamity. The manager produced a picture of
-me, one which had been taken to decorate the billboards
-at the time of my debut here. He also informed me
-that I was on the black list for feigning illness at that
-time that I might be relieved from my contract.</p>
-
-<p>“I needed a friend then to show that I was entitled
-to better treatment. The manager suggested that I<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_302"></a>[302]</span>
-change my name and get some one to vouch for me
-and then apply to some other manager.</p>
-
-<p>“I thanked him for the advice and started out to
-find some one, but whom could I find? The only person
-I knew in New York had undoubtedly left there,
-and if he had not I would not dare go to him. But
-I did dare anyway. I knew not what else to do. I
-made inquiry at his hotel, and found to my half hearted
-delight that he had not yet sailed, but would leave that
-night. ‘Good!’ I thought, ‘I will detain him but a
-short time; he will help me to a position and it will
-not interfere with his trip.’</p>
-
-<p>“I waited for his coming. He greeted me effusively,
-and told me he had waited and knew I would come.</p>
-
-<p>“I explained all to him and asked him to help me that
-I might secure a position and be able to repay him all
-he had expended in my behalf. He laughed at me and
-said: ‘Yes, of course, but let’s talk it over.’</p>
-
-<p>“It was dinner time and he suggested that as he
-had lunched early and I looked tired and hungry, that
-we go to dinner.</p>
-
-<p>“We had dinner at Delmonico’s, and breakfast on
-board an ocean liner bound for Liverpool. People can
-say all they please about not knowing what they do
-while under the influence of intoxicants, but I know
-that as a rule they are conscious of every act, but simply
-do not care. At the dinner I have just told you
-of, we had wine. I rather enjoyed the sensation it
-produced, it made me forgetful of all my troubles, and
-appreciative of all my friend had done, so that when
-he proposed that we sail and not try for the stage
-again, I was a willing participant in the carriage ride<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_303"></a>[303]</span>
-that took us to the docks. How I got on board the
-ship I do not know. What happened during the night
-I cannot remember, for slumber relieved me of all the
-horror attending the desecration of my virginity. I
-simply know that during our trip I was Mrs. H. Bartel.</p>
-
-<p>“We traveled for a year and then he brought me
-back to Chicago. He furnished a house, put $1,000 in
-the bank to my credit, and bade me good-by.</p>
-
-<p>“He went out of my life as quickly as I seemed to
-have lost cast in his. I began by keeping roomers; that
-did not pay. Then some of the fashionable men whom
-I had known in my palmy days approached me with a
-request that I allow them to hold clandestine meetings
-with women at my home. They paid well for the liberty.</p>
-
-<p>“From that I went one step further, and became the
-landlady of a house of bad repute, entering the field
-openly and above board.</p>
-
-<p>“Three months ago a woman applied to my house
-for admission. She looked fairly good and I took her
-in. I paid little attention to her, and such affairs were
-so common that I did not attempt to wring from her
-any ancient history. Her face had a familiar look,
-that at times puzzled me, but I did not give her much
-thought. One day I found a picture on her dresser.
-It was a picture of Leslie. I flew into a rage and questioned
-her closely. She told me she was his wife,
-made so by circumstances not conducive to happiness.
-I concealed my surprise. I knew then where I had
-seen her face. I managed to keep the truth from her
-and in a day or two found an excuse to expel her from<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_304"></a>[304]</span>
-my house. The last I heard of her she had become a
-frequenter of these places along the street here. Today
-I received this letter and picture from Leslie, and
-my business here tonight is to comply with his request
-if possible. Here is the letter, I will read it:</p>
-
-<p>“‘Dear Jeanette: I have just learned what you are
-engaged in, also that my wife is an inmate of your
-establishment. May God grant that you are not aware
-of the fact, for although I have mistreated you shamefully,
-I will not believe that you have hunted her up
-and taken this method of revenge on me. Enclosed
-find her picture, the one I showed you before. For
-Heaven’s sake, send her to me and my baby.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Kill me or torture me personally in any way you
-desire, but I beg of you do not be a party to the visitation
-of disgrace on my child. Yours,</p>
-
-<p class="right">“‘LESLIE.’</p>
-
-<p>“And I am hunting Emily Sutton Marsh with a
-view to returning her to the place where she belongs.”</p>
-
-<hr class="chap x-ebookmaker-drop" />
-
-<div class="chapter">
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_305"></a>[305]</span></p>
-
-<h2 class="nobreak" id="TALE_TWENTY">TALE TWENTY.<br />
-<span class="smaller">A SCIENTIFIC PHENOMENON.</span></h2>
-
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry-container">
-<div class="poetry">
- <div class="stanza">
- <div class="verse indent0">“When I remember something which I had,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">But which is gone, and I must do without,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">I sometimes wonder how I can be glad,</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">Even in cowslip time, when hedges sprout;</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">It makes me sigh to think on it,—but yet</div>
- <div class="verse indent0">My days will not be better days, should I forget.”</div>
- </div>
-</div>
-</div>
-
-<p>“Yes, art brought me to this.”</p>
-
-<p>The speaker was a tall, thin, young woman of a nervous
-temperament. The storm of dark hair was
-pushed back in hurried confusion; the heavy brows
-and long lashes which protected the dark blue eyes
-seemed a fitting division between the high cheek bones
-and the bloodless forehead; her nose, so straight and
-thin that it corresponded with the lines or wrinkles
-which extended upward at either end of the mouth,
-and seemed to cut short the smile which otherwise
-might have been as merry as the dimple in her little
-chin would indicate.</p>
-
-<p>Nature had left the stamp of refinement on her face,
-perhaps for no other purpose than to show the world
-that Celeste Moss had not always had a bent back and
-pricked fingers—the effect of shop duties. Her home
-was in two rooms, which, in spite of the lack of elegant
-furniture and rare bric-a-brac, showed signs of culture,
-if in no other way than the tidiness of the floors, which
-were without carpets or rugs.</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_306"></a>[306]</span></p>
-
-<p>The only new article in the room which was visible
-was a pair of trousers, and they were just being
-wrapped into a neat bundle by the deft and willing
-hands of this industrious woman, as she opened the
-interview with the first remark of this story.</p>
-
-<p>“Art seems to have launched your ship of destiny into
-strange channels,” I ventured in way of reply.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, and I have been called upon to face many
-breakers and tide the waves of furious storms in the
-best way I could.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am sure your career has been an interesting one.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not so interesting as unpleasant,” she said, “and if
-you will excuse me for a moment, I will tell you all.”</p>
-
-<p>That moment she consumed by carefully dusting and
-closing the machine with the same tenderness and precision
-with which some musician might put away his
-beloved instrument.</p>
-
-<p>“You take good care of your machine.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, that is all there is between me and the street;
-I must take good care of that.”</p>
-
-<p>“I believe you said art transposed you from some
-other sphere in life to your present position,” said I,
-anxious to draw her back to her subject.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I was born into a rich home, wherein the
-merry jingle of dollars was of less consequence to the
-different members of my family, than the rattle of pennies
-is to me now. I received all the finishing touches
-of education, then as my indulgent father said—”just
-for pastime“—I took up drawing and painting. My
-heart, brain and fingers seemed tuned with one accord,
-so that taking the brush and palette in my hand was
-only striking the chords of my artistic nature, and the<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_307"></a>[307]</span>
-harmony which was thereby inspired spread itself in
-delicate tints and shades, producing pictures which
-were as natural as those of the old masters were. So
-much attention was paid to my amateurish productions
-that I soon found myself famous. Then I fell in love;
-art and love should have been brother and sister, born
-of the same woman and nurtured on the same sweet
-food. To love a man was to love to draw beautiful
-pictures as nearly perfect as my accomplishment would
-allow, then no matter what the canvas portrayed after
-it had received my finishing touches, I took great pleasure
-in likening the work to that of my idol, and always
-found my production wanting. Long days I spent in
-my studio, striving to make a picture of something
-which would show as much excellence as a work of
-art as my lover showed as a man; each time I tried I
-improved, but before I had reached that stage of supremacy
-as an artist, I had so lost my head along with
-my heart that it was a hopeless task; there was nothing
-so true, so sweet, so perfect as my Reginald.”</p>
-
-<p>“We were married. The conditions and circumstances
-under which we met at the altar were favorable
-in the extreme. My husband was a musician of
-note; in fact, he knew nothing but music and love;
-certainly nothing was more natural than the blending
-of our souls in love, inspired by ambition; then to add
-joy to the happy situation my husband’s best and dearest
-friend, Jean Vincent (whom he had long since
-given up as dead), returned to our home town two days
-before the nuptials. Wealth was a thing easy of access
-to us, as both our families were independently rich.
-I was an only child and it was a common expression<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_308"></a>[308]</span>
-of my father’s that as I was so careless in regard to
-my sex, it would be my duty to the family to produce
-a son. We were very happy, my husband, Mr. Vincent
-and I, for Reginald insisted on his taking up his residence
-with us during his stay; he, too, was an artist
-of no mean ability, and as Reggie said, we could share
-the same studio and perhaps be of assistance to each
-other, and besides my husband was teaching a great
-deal now, and it would be so nice to have Jean in the
-house for company.”</p>
-
-<p>“We spent many happy days; I could sit for hours
-and listen to those two “chums” discuss their travels,
-one in quest of musical education, the other chasing
-art in its various forms and a part of the time the two
-royal rovers spent their time in quest of pleasure; but
-Reginald had tired sooner than his friend, and the date
-of his homecoming had been the beginning of the love
-match which had culminated so happily. Mr. Vincent
-had remained in Italy for a time, then visited the Sahara
-desert, climbed the pyramids of Egypt and scaled
-the dangerous peaks of the Alps; he had hunted in the
-jungles of Africa, and probed mother earth for gold
-in far off Australia; in fact, he had been everywhere,
-from the scenes of direst poverty to the grandeur of
-royal palaces. It was not strange, therefore, that this
-swarthy man of Oriental customs could entertain, instruct
-and make friends at one and the same time.</p>
-
-<p>“There was such a striking contrast between him and
-Reginald that many spoke of it. Reginald was one
-of those dear little, short, fat men, who seemed to beam
-with good nature; his round face was pink and white,
-while his clear blue eyes shown with that merry twinkle<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_309"></a>[309]</span>
-of tenderness so characteristic of the German type,
-while Mr. Vincent was tall and broad shouldered, with
-a face which was a study of stern determination. The
-years of hardship were not without effect, neither did
-his dark skin, black curly hair and luminous eyes of
-ebony have a tendency to soften the expression which
-the ravages of time had stamped upon his face. So much
-did these men enjoy the companionship of one another
-that they were always together when it was possible
-and it was only natural that I should join in all their
-conversation. You may imagine my joy when Reginald
-came to me and said:</p>
-
-<p>“‘Celeste, I want you to make a portrait of Jean,
-and, dear, make it your masterpiece.’</p>
-
-<p>“Then came long days of close association; we were
-closeted for hours in the studio; we talked art; we
-exchanged views; Jean sat for me and then I persuaded
-him to reciprocate. I told him that as he was sitting
-for a picture of himself for my husband that it would
-be a grand opportunity for him to put my face on
-canvas, and after the deliberate conclusion that we
-would surprise Reggie, we decided to present him
-with my likeness at the same time Jean’s was finished.</p>
-
-<p>“We worked with a will; when Reginald was away
-from home we often went to the church or the theatre
-or took a drive together. I know some people indulged
-in a little of that putrid gossip, which is sure to follow
-the act of any gallant man. We did nothing that could
-in any way be construed as disloyal to my husband; he
-knew our every move and sanctioned it all. It was
-during this period of sitting and painting that I made
-a happy discovery, and when I told Reginald he was so<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_310"></a>[310]</span>
-delighted that he lost no time in conveying the glad
-tidings to my parents; the prospects of an heir caused
-joy in their hearts. Finally the pictures were completed,
-and with them Mr. Vincent’s visit, for, as he
-put, he had stayed long enough in one place and
-would move on.</p>
-
-<p>“Reginald used to stand and look at his picture at
-times after he had gone, as though he were looking on
-the face of a dead brother. The manly love and devotion
-which existed between Reggie and Mr. Vincent
-was very touching.</p>
-
-<p>“In due time my child was born—and blessed be the
-star which controls such events—it was a boy. Reginald
-came to me while the nurse was dressing the
-babe, and taking me tenderly in his arms uttered words
-of praise in my ears, and showed me that devotion
-which is so reassuring and precious to the heart of a
-young mother. O, how grand I felt when I heard
-him say:</p>
-
-<p>“‘God bless you, darling! You are the dearest,
-truest treasure on earth.’</p>
-
-<p>“I felt that I could have died for him then and there,
-and I have wished many times since that I had. His
-dear head was nestled close beside mine on the pillow
-when the nurse brought the child in; then he arose,
-and taking the wee bit of humanity in his arms,
-turned towards me as if to place it where it belonged;
-as he peered through the lace to get a view of its features,
-I saw his face take on the pallor of death. My
-blood felt like ice, as I tried to raise myself, at the
-same time crying out:</p>
-
-<p>“‘What is it, Reggie?’</p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_311"></a>[311]</span></p>
-
-<p>“Then with a groan he fell across the bed unconscious;
-my only thought was that our baby had been
-injured in some way and suddenly expired, and with
-the picture of a little white casket, covered with lilies,
-before my eyes, I fainted; I revived, only to succumb
-to an attack of brain fever. When I recovered they
-told me that Reginald had gone.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Gone? Gone where?’ I cried in amazement.</p>
-
-<p>“For an answer they brought me this letter:</p>
-
-<div class="blockquote">
-
-<p>“‘Dear Celeste: I will call you dear this time,
-for it is the last. I do not blame you so much for
-what has happened; I should not have trusted even
-the best friend on earth with you and your charms.
-I can easily account for all. You longed for the companionship
-which my profession robbed you of, but you
-should have prepared me for this blow. I go now to
-find your traducer, and if he refuses to take you and
-live with you honorably, his body will meet the same
-fate his picture has just met. Would to God I had
-died before I knew of your infidelity. Good-by forever,</p>
-
-<p class="right">REGINALD.’</p>
-
-</div>
-
-<p>“What on earth did it all mean? I went to the
-library, and there found Mr. Vincent’s likeness simply
-cut and slashed into ribbons. Reginald had left orders
-not to remove it; as I gazed on the ruined portrait and
-thought of the part of my husband’s letter wherein a
-like fate was promised Jean, I realized how utterly impossible
-it would be to consent to Reginald’s demands,
-for to do so would be an open confession of wrong,
-with a defined effort to right it, and so help me, God,
-we were as innocent as the now fatherless babe, and I
-knew Jean Vincent to be a man of principle; then I<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_312"></a>[312]</span>
-thought of Reginald’s obdurate nature, and—Oh, horrors!
-he would be a murderer.</p>
-
-<p>“With the thought of blood running from gaping
-wounds, I swooned away. When I opened my eyes
-again the doctor was standing over me; I asked for
-my baby; the nurse brought it, and I was so mystified
-that I shrieked in my despair; the poor little black
-thing, black eyes, ringlets of jet black hair and skin as
-swarthy as the cuticle of an Italian. A long talk with
-the physician shed light on the subject. He explained
-how the constant association with some dark person at
-such a time as that in which I happened to be with Mr.
-Vincent would bring about just such a result.</p>
-
-<p>“The scandal killed my mother; my father was just
-as unreasonable as my husband and refused to advise
-or assist me, even denying me the privilege of seeing
-him. After two years he died cursing me, but not before
-he had willed all of his fortune to a distant relative,
-leaving me penniless.</p>
-
-<p>“On the advice of neighbors, who were sufficiently
-interested in me to at least want me to leave the community,
-I put my baby boy in a home for waifs; then
-selling such articles of personal property as I possessed,
-I started on a journey which will only end in death.</p>
-
-<p>“I came direct to Chicago, thinking to hide myself
-in the whirl of a busy city, but soon the little store of
-wealth which I had realized from the sale of my belongings
-had melted down until there was only a thin
-wall of finance between me and starvation. I sought
-a position and in each attempt was defeated on account
-of not having a business education; I was not even
-fitted to do housework; it was then I realized how painfully<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_313"></a>[313]</span>
-helpless a girl is in a strange land with no means,
-who has been born and reared in luxury without even
-a smattering of domesticity in her character.”</p>
-
-<p>“Why did you not try your hand at painting?”</p>
-
-<p>“I did try, but no use; when I took up a brush and
-palette my hand was seized with palsy when I touched
-the brush to the canvas, I fancied I could hear the
-sounds of ripping, tearing cloth, and to save my life
-the best I could do was to make zig-zag lines; all
-of the love for art, all of the ambition had vanished.</p>
-
-<p>“Finally I secured a position as governess, and had
-it not been for the ideas of liberality which the man
-of the house in whose home I was employed entertained,
-I might have regained some of my loss; at any
-rate, he seemed to conceive the idea that my life was
-an aimless existence and that I was only waiting to be
-won with endearing words of love.</p>
-
-<p>“The days of trouble were not conducive to strengthening
-my character and my tempter was a man of wiles
-and charms, so much so that his constant observation
-disclosed my different moods to his discernible mind.
-His plans were carried out with that accuracy and precision
-so characteristic of a man of the world.</p>
-
-<p>“That was the first step down the incline of rectitude;
-other men sought me and so surely did I descend
-into the valley of shame that it was an easy matter for
-me to consent to live with men in open defiance of the
-law.</p>
-
-<p>“During my career I met a gentleman who was more
-interested in me than any one I had ever met; he lived
-in a small town in the west; he was a man of great
-tenderness and we in time grew fond of each other.<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_314"></a>[314]</span>
-Much of our time was consumed in talking of schools,
-books, music and travel. I knew little of him and he
-nothing of me, any more than he had met me one day
-as I was buying tickets for a matinee; the line at the
-window doubled back around the entrance of the theatre.
-As the crowd crawled slowly along I found myself
-standing beside him; he addressed me, whereupon
-a conversation sprung up and he kindly offered to buy
-my tickets for me when he reached the window, which
-would save me a delay of several moments. As he
-handed me the tickets he apologized for his intrusion;
-I thanked him for his kindness and was not at all surprised
-when I found him in the seat next to mine. Our
-friendship grew and finally ripened into such mutual
-admiration that I frequently found myself counting the
-days that I must wait for his coming. Finally his visits
-grew less frequent; I did not ask him why he came so
-seldom, for I considered it none of my business; one of
-the waits proved longer than any before. He did not
-come for a year, but when he came he found me in
-my old haunt. This time he explained why his visits
-had been so far apart; his wife had been ill and he
-had lost her six months before; they had a child, a boy
-by adoption, and he could not well leave the little fellow.
-I insisted on his bringing his boy along next
-time.</p>
-
-<p>“I had become so attached to this man of genial nature
-that I was quick to become interested in anything
-which was of importance to him. He came again in
-two weeks, and with him came the boy. I met them
-in the parlor of a hotel, and oh, how my heart fluttered
-as I saw the youngster; all the love, pity and<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_315"></a>[315]</span>
-compassion of my happier days rushed back into the
-places of my nature, which had been devoid of anything
-sweet for the last six years. The boy was standing
-with his back to me talking to his father. As I approached
-with outstretched hand to welcome my friend,
-who stood with his back to the mirror, he reached out
-to clasp mine and stepped slightly to one side, revealing
-the complete image of the child in the mirror.</p>
-
-<p>“God only knows what I suffered in that one brief
-second. The picture I saw there in the frame of the
-mirror was more vivid than any work of art ever produced.
-My own child stood beside me. The hardening
-process of years did much to assist me in my self-control.
-We went to dinner; my friend was aware of my
-unhappy state of mind and questioned me closely. I
-could not tell him the whole truth; I simply told him
-that I had been married and that I had had a boy so
-much like this adopted son that the sight of his boy
-had refreshed my memory, had recalled the sad hour
-of parting with him when I had to give him up.”</p>
-
-<p>“‘And his father—is he dead, too?’ he asked, as he
-gently put his arm around me.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Yes,’ I sobbed, ‘dead, everything is dead to me.’</p>
-
-<p>“My sufferings must have touched the strings of his
-harp of love and caused a melody to re-echo from his
-soul.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Come, and be a mother to my little chap,’ said he.</p>
-
-<p>“‘Oh, please don’t! I beg of you not to punish me
-by such jests.’</p>
-
-<p>“‘But I mean it.’</p>
-
-<p>“I hope that God in his goodness will never allow
-any poor woman to suffer as I did. I would have gladly<span class="pagenum"><a id="Page_316"></a>[316]</span>
-gone, but no, I could not marry one man when I was
-the legal wife of another. Oh, I wanted to go so much,
-but I could not. I loved my child too purely to go and
-be a mother to him, while I was mistress to the one
-whom he was to know as a father.</p>
-
-<p>“That night ended my downward flight; I felt in my
-own mind that I had reached the bottomless pit of degradation,
-so low, so impure, so tainted with vice, that
-I dared not take my own child in my arms and lavish
-that love on him which was now consuming me, for
-fear that the taste of bliss would plunge me into a sea
-of desperation and cause me to commit myself in some
-way that would contaminate his sweet, young life.</p>
-
-<p>“I had saved some money, enough to live on while I
-served an apprenticeship in a sewing shop. I have
-taught myself the lessons of economy and domesticity
-so necessary to one who intends to follow the life of
-humble purity.”</p>
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