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-The Project Gutenberg eBook of Mrs. Arthur; vol. 2 of 3, by Mrs. Margaret
-Oliphant
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-*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK MRS. ARTHUR; VOL. 2 OF 3 ***
-
-
-
-
- MRS. ARTHUR.
-
- BY
-
- MRS. OLIPHANT,
-
- AUTHOR OF
-
- “The Chronicles of Carlingford,”
-
- &c. &c.
-
- “Fie, fie! unknit that threat’ning, unkind brow,
- And dart not scornful glances from those eyes.
-
- * * * * *
-
- A woman mov’d is like a fountain troubled.”
- TAMING OF THE SHREW.
-
- “He breathed a sigh, and toasted Nancy!”
- DIBDIN.
-
-
- IN THREE VOLUMES.
-
- VOL. II.
-
-
- LONDON:
- HURST AND BLACKETT, PUBLISHERS,
- 13, GREAT MARLBOROUGH STREET.
- 1877.
-
- _All rights reserved._
-
-
-
-
- MRS. ARTHUR.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER I.
-
-
-Arthur Curtis did not think of the letter which old Davies had given him
-till days after. It had been crushed up in the pocket of his coat, the
-sight of his sister, and all the contending emotions of the time having
-put it out of his head; and what could there be agreeable in such a
-communication at such a time? A final sermon to him upon his folly, a
-final admonition as to all the terrible consequences of his fault--he
-had, he thought, enough of these, and he had not cared to make himself
-miserable on his wedding-day with such a communication. It was not
-unmixed delight, even without that, though this was not a confession he
-made to himself, in words, at least. But the sight of his sister’s
-writing half sickened him when he saw it eventually. To be told that the
-course you are pursuing is ruinous, when you are entirely delighted with
-that course, is bad enough; but to be told so when the first shock of
-doubt, the first sharp suspicion of a mistake, has come into your mind,
-is unendurable. Arthur had not, it may be supposed, allowed to himself
-that this was already the state of affairs within a few days after his
-marriage. He was the “happiest of men;” the society of his bride was
-sweet to him, and her tenderness gave him an exquisite, indescribable,
-all-penetrating delight, notwithstanding everything. Is the sudden shock
-of that absolute identification of two different people, the one with
-the other, ever for the first moment, a happiness unmingled? It was not,
-at least, to Arthur. And Nancy was not one of those compliant,
-sweet-tempered women who swamp their own habits and ways in those of
-their husbands. Arthur had known these habits intimately enough; but the
-changed relationship brought such an entire change of aspect as was
-astonishing to himself. Heretofore he had been able to admire as
-piquant, or to laugh at as amusing, the roughnesses or simplicities of a
-breeding so different from his own; but suddenly an entire difference
-had come upon his feelings. Now that he was responsible for these
-peculiarities, they became alarming to him; he saw them with the eyes of
-other people, of his mother, his sister, of Durant even, who would
-wonder and be horrified to see Arthur’s wife so conducting herself. She
-was no longer Nancy Bates, the girl for whom he was willing to risk the
-world--but a part of himself, in whom his own character, his own very
-being, was involved. This made the strangest difference in everything.
-He had already felt it beginning for some time, but it was in full force
-from the moment which changed the tax-collector’s daughter into his
-wife. Thus he had felt, not amused, but irritated, when she made her
-appearance in that salmon-coloured “silk.” That Mrs. Bates’s daughter
-should wear the one fine and glistening garment she possessed to do
-honour to her bridegroom, and to dazzle the eyes of all beholders on her
-wedding-day, would there not have been in this a certain appropriateness
-in the midst of the inappropriateness, a _sancta simplicitas_ which
-would have charmed him? But it became all at once much more apparent to
-Arthur that his wife ought to know better than to set out on a journey
-in a pink silk gown; though when he tried by all manner of deceptive
-arguments to beguile her into the choice of a more suitable dress,
-representing that the dark blue serge or dark brown merino in the shops
-would be warmer, more easy and comfortable, less liable to be spoiled,
-and every other false yet true reason for preferring it that he could
-think of, Nancy remained unconvinced.
-
-“You shan’t make a dowdy of me, Arthur, I can tell you,” she said. “I
-didn’t get married to go about the world in these poor sort of clothes,
-like a dressmaker’s girl; and to France, where everybody dresses so
-well!”
-
-This was during the two or three days they stayed in London on purpose,
-if the truth had been told, to get a suitable outfit for her; but only
-Arthur, not Nancy, was aware of this true motive for the delay.
-
-“My dear girl, if they dress well it is by having suitable dresses for
-everything, not by being fine,” said Arthur, driven to his wit’s end.
-
-“Fine! you mean that I am dressed up,” cried Nancy, her colour rising,
-“and that is hard, for it was all done to please you; I thought you
-would like to see me fine. I never used to mind what clothes I wore;
-but I--and mamma too--tried to make as good a show as ever we could, for
-your sake!”
-
-What could Arthur do but protest that he loved her more, if that were
-possible, for the pains she had taken to please him, and thought the
-salmon-coloured dress lovely; but after a while he returned to the
-charge. “In France,” he said with the air of an authority, “they are
-great on having a dress for every different occasion. Their dresses for
-the morning they never wear in the evening, and their travelling
-dresses--”
-
-“But goodness me!” cried Nancy, “what an extravagant way of going on! It
-may be all very well for duchesses and grand ladies; but that would
-never do for a poor girl like me.”
-
-“You forget you are not a girl at all, much less a poor one,” he said,
-pursuing his wiles, “but a married lady, my Nancy.” Goodness me is not a
-pretty oath; he swallowed it however, not daring to attempt correction,
-with a secret grimace.
-
-“Yes, that is all very well,” she repeated, “but all the same we are
-poor enough. I shan’t be a bit richer than I was. I may be grander, I
-don’t know; for your folks have cast you off, Arthur, you mustn’t forget
-that.”
-
-“Oh! my _folks_!” cried the unhappy one under his breath; the word hurt
-him, in spite of himself. He had not been so delicate once; but this was
-like a dig in the ribs to Arthur. It made him cry out, though he stifled
-the cry.
-
-“No, I don’t think much of what you say if that is French fashion,” said
-Nancy, “English fashion is far better. Instead of fussing and changing
-all day long, and wasting one’s time, it is so convenient just to pin in
-a bit of lace and double back the fronts, and there you have a lovely
-dress for the evening; that’s what I like. No need to go and unpack
-one’s boxes and get out another dress, it’s done in a moment. You must
-allow, Arthur, that English fashion is best for that.”
-
-Poor Arthur! he thought of his sister’s little simple toilettes, so
-fresh, so crisp, so plain! and he did not know--what foolish young man
-ever does know? that whereas the finery is an easy matter, these dainty
-sobrieties of garb are the highest quintessence of art. In novels, which
-are the chief exponents of young women to young men, and of young men to
-young women, has not the captivating humble bride always a spotless
-collar and cuffs ready for every emergency, which make her exquisite on
-all occasions? Why had not Nancy the secret of that little collar and
-snowy cuff?
-
-All this, however, is a digression from the letter which he found in his
-pocket, having thrust it away there on his wedding morning. He tore it
-open impatiently after this talk. Did not he know very well what must be
-in it? But it was better to glance at it and be done with it at once.
-He found it, however, something so very unlike what he supposed, that
-the little letter completely unmanned him and took his strength away. He
-read it first with so much surprise that he could scarcely comprehend
-its meaning, and when he had fully mastered it, burst out into an abrupt
-break of sound of the most unintelligible description.
-
-“What is the matter?” cried Nancy; she was half frightened. She came to
-the door of the inner room in which she was, and looked out upon him,
-half dressed, wrapped in the shawl Matilda had lent her. “Are you
-laughing or crying?” Perhaps it had been a little of both; but at all
-events it had left the tears in his eyes.
-
-“Look here,” he said, with an unsteady voice, “this is the letter old
-Davies gave me on Tuesday;” and then he added in a lower tone, “God
-forgive me, I don’t deserve it,” with a half sob.
-
-Very coldly Nancy took the letter. She knew by instinct what it must
-be. It was written in a rather illegible but pretty handwriting, not at
-all like, but somehow superior she felt to the pointed precision of her
-own.
-
- “I am going to your wedding to-morrow, Arthur dear; not to see you,
- but to be there, that there may be some one that loves you all the
- same. That always goes without saying. We think that you may not
- have money enough to do all you want, so we have just been to the
- bank to get this. Dear, dear Arthur, God bless you! Mamma shakes
- her head, but she says it all the same.
-
- “LUCY.”
-
- And then there was added in another hand:
-
- “Surely I say it, surely I must say it always. And God forgive you,
- oh, my cruel boy.”
-
-Nancy puzzled over this for some time. She began to read it aloud and
-read it wrong, so that it took a ridiculous sound; then laughed; while
-Arthur made a furious step towards her to seize it out of her hand. She
-grew serious then, which quickened her wits and made her finish her
-reading in silence. When she had done so she flung it to him, letting
-the two notes enclosed flutter to the ground, and without a word turned
-round and shut the door violently in his face. He caught the letter; but
-the two fifty pound notes lay between him and the door, crumpled by
-Nancy’s angry fingers. He stood petrified for the moment, too much
-surprised to be either hurt or angry. Was this the way in which his wife
-received his first appeal to her sympathy? the first mention of those
-who, Arthur suddenly remembered, were next to herself the dearest to him
-in the world? Somehow he had forgotten this until now; but it suddenly
-gleamed upon him; a kind of revelation. Certainly it was so; his mother
-and sister, were they not his dearest friends, the most generous and
-kind? Was it possible that his wife could read this letter and not be
-touched? and yet she had tossed it at him, had crumpled up the notes
-like waste paper. Was this the attitude she meant to adopt towards his
-family? and he had been so tolerant of hers!
-
-Nancy did not say a word on the subject when they met again. She looked
-as if she had been crying; but said nothing, plunging into some
-indifferent subject with unusual interest. But it was not reasonable
-that the husband of three days could bear the matter like this. He said
-something about “my sister’s letter,” as soon as he had a chance. “We
-shall have a little more money to spend now, thanks to my mother’s
-thoughtfulness,” he said.
-
-“Oh, your mother!” she flung away from him, flushing crimson--a colour
-that meant anger as he already knew.
-
-“Yes, my mother,” he said, “why should not I speak of my mother? I
-never think it strange, Nancy, that you should think of yours.”
-
-“Mine!” she cried, turning back upon him with flashing eyes, “her
-thoughts have been as much for you as for me. She has been as kind to
-you as to me,” (this set Arthur thinking; but what could he answer to
-it?) “but there is not a word of me in all that letter, not a word,
-though they knew I should be your wife when you got it.”
-
-“What could they say? They did not know you, darling, and I had been
-silly, I had not written to conciliate as I ought to have done; but to
-defy them. What could they say?”
-
-“Say! it is just as good as if they had said, ‘She is no more to us than
-the dirt under our feet.’ They could not do anything against me or say
-anything against me, so they treat me as if I was not worthy to be
-noticed; oh, that is what they mean! they think if they keep that up
-they will bring you back to them again, and persuade you that I am not
-worth thinking of. Oh, I know women’s ways!”
-
-“You are mistaken, Nancy, I am sure you are entirely mistaken.”
-
-“A great deal you can tell! they will not show you what they are after.
-They will smooth you down and keep you not suspicious. Oh! I tell you I
-know women’s ways.”
-
-“You don’t know my mother and Lucy,” he said, making an effort to stand
-against her, “they are not like the women you--”
-
-“Not like the women I know? I knew you would come to that,” she said
-violently. “Oh, I knew it the very moment I set eyes upon her; but not
-yet, not so soon as this.” And Nancy, really wounded in her blaze of
-unnecessary wrath, burst into fiery tears. They were tears that might
-have been red hot, and scalded as they poured down in a very thunder
-shower. He had never seen such a torrent, and he stood thunderstruck;
-not melted as he had been before, when Nancy was moved in this way. Here
-too was a change. He stood still, he did not rush to her, and use all
-the blandishments he could think of to put a stop to the intolerable
-spectacle of her distress. He let her cry. He was confounded by the
-sudden outburst; and a sharp twinge of shame for her mingled with the
-pain she gave him. He was ashamed that _his wife_ should be so unjust,
-so hasty in her judgment, so violent in her mistaken ideas. When he did
-go to her it was slowly, with a hesitation very different from the
-lover’s rush. That she should be so foolish _now_, was not that
-something derogatory to him?
-
-“Nancy,” he said, “I cannot think how you can be so--unkind. Do you
-think I mean any offence to you, or that _they_ mean any offence? Of
-course you know they wanted me to marry some one--better off; some one
-they knew.”
-
-“Oh, let me go,” she cried, choking with pain and rage together, “I will
-go back to my mother; and you can go to yours, of whom you think so
-much. What does it matter about a common girl like me!”
-
-“I think you are trying to drive me mad,” he said, “have I ever wavered
-between you and my mother? but I see now where I did wrong; I should
-have gone to her and made a friend of her, instead of defying her. I
-should have taken you to her--”
-
-“Taken me!” she jumped up and faced him, trembling with agitation and
-fury, “taken _me_! am _I_ to be dragged about to people that don’t want
-me, to people that dare to despise me?”
-
-“Nancy!”
-
-“Nancy! that’s all you can call me now. I used to be your love and your
-darling; now we’re married, and I’m bound and can’t get free, and you
-call me Nancy! Oh! if it was all to do again, and I knew what I know
-now!”
-
-“What on earth do you know now that you did not know a week ago?” he
-cried with an impatience beyond words; and yet he felt half inclined to
-laugh. That the impassioned creature who stood defying him, blazing in
-impulsive wrath, should resent the absence of those loves and darlings
-and tender words with which he had hitherto caressed her ears, so hotly
-as to desire to break every bond between them, struck him with a sudden
-sense of the absurdity of their quarrel. He went suddenly up to her and
-took her into his arms. “But you _are_ my darling,” he said, “all the
-same; though you are the most unreasonable, the most quick-tempered, the
-most provoking. Sweet! what is everybody in the world to me compared
-with you?”
-
-Thus the first quarrel terminated, though not without considerably more
-trouble. Nancy perhaps saw too the foolishness of this impossible
-struggle, and yielded after a certain amount of flattery, coaxing, and
-caresses. And the cloud blew over so completely that, much to his
-surprise he found himself able to persuade this despairing bride next
-morning to get the travelling dress he wished her to have, and to tone
-herself down generally, and make herself warm and comfortable and less
-fine. They crossed the Channel two days after, more lovers than ever;
-but no longer publishing their recent nuptials in their appearance, with
-Nancy’s “silk” carefully packed at the bottom of her box, and herself in
-a dark blue gown and little plumed hat, looking more like Mrs. Arthur
-Curtis than Nancy Bates had ever done before. Arthur’s heart beat high
-with pride and pleasure as they watched the white cliffs disappearing.
-Nancy not without a little natural sentiment, for she had never been out
-of England before, and it seemed a great thing to her to be out of her
-own country, and on the verge of a “foreign land.” But fortunately the
-passage was a very good one, so that no less elevated feeling mingled
-with these tender regrets. He had her in his own hands now, the
-bridegroom said to himself; all her antecedents left behind, the home
-and relations happily got rid of, and all the influences of her new life
-around her to wean her from the past. And how tractable she had shown
-herself already, how willing to be convinced! a tender creature, who
-accepted his dictation sweetly two minutes after she had burst forth in
-rebellion against him; who had been indignant at his sister’s letter
-(and it was, Arthur allowed to himself, nasty of Lucy, rather like a
-spiteful girl after all as Nancy said, not to mention her in that little
-note which was intended to be so gentle and peace-making), and then had
-forgiven it so frankly as to use part of the money that Lucy sent. This
-unreasonable, inconsistent, foolish, generous, hot-headed, soft-hearted
-darling, could any man desire better than to have her wholly to himself
-to guide her wayward feet into the print of wifely, womanly ways? The
-mean little house, the poor form of existence at Underhayes (ungrateful
-young man! it had seemed an idyllic life, full of noble simplicity and
-poetry, when he knew her first) lay far behind, and while the probation
-lasted it would seem so natural that England itself should fade out of
-sight, and all that was past be forgotten; until by and by he should
-take his bride home a lady in every outward sign, as she was, he assured
-himself in heart. It is so easy in a young man’s glowing fancy to work
-this change. Likewise it is very quickly done in many novels, and with
-wonderful facility and completeness; and, as has been said, where but
-from novels was Arthur to have acquired any experience in the treatment
-of cases like his own? All went well during that journey. It was a
-beautiful day of the early winter; warmly soft as November can
-sometimes be, by way of contrast to its ordinary miseries, the sea and
-the sky alike blue; and if the wind was cold, what there was of it, the
-sun shining so warmly as to neutralize the wind. And Nancy now at least
-was well defended and need fear no chill. Her cheeks glowed with the
-fresh breeze, her little outcries, half of alarm half of exhilaration,
-when the steamboat gave a small pitch which hurt nobody, delighted
-Arthur. She clung to him and steadied herself by him with both hands
-clasped on his arm, and had no thought, now that her moment of sentiment
-was over, of anything but the excitement of this novel world into which
-she was hastening. All the clouds that had been upon their horizon
-seemed to float away.
-
-“I have been thinking,” she said, when they got into the
-railway-carriage on the other side, and Nancy had got over her first
-amused wonder and bewilderment, “to hear everybody talking and not to
-understand a word.” They had a carriage to themselves, though that is
-not so easy to manage on the other side, and Arthur, delighted with his
-task, had begun to teach her little phrases in the tongue, which
-notwithstanding her much-talked-of previous studies was quite an unknown
-tongue to Nancy. “I have been thinking--”
-
-“What is it? Something very grave indeed, judging from that serious
-face.”
-
-“Yes; something very important. I have always wished it, but they would
-never give in to me. Not that mamma did not think me quite right, but it
-is very difficult to break a habit in a family. But you must do it,
-Arthur; it is not such a very old habit with you.”
-
-“What is this great thing I am to do--give up smoking--take off my
-moustache?”
-
-“Oh! no!” cried Nancy, horrified. “The nicest thing about you!” which
-pleased Arthur much, for it was still new enough to give him unfeigned
-and honest pride. “But I will tell you what it is. Nancy is so vulgar,
-so common, not a name for a lady; and it will not sound well here,
-abroad, where people have such pretty names. Call me Anna--I have always
-wished it. I was christened Anna Frances, you know.”
-
-“And I could not think who she was when they married me to her,” cried
-Arthur. “I will call you what you like, my darling; but I like Nancy
-best.”
-
-Did ever young people start on a honeymoon expedition with a better
-understanding? He planned a hundred places to take her to, and things to
-do. The theatre every night!--How Nancy’s eyes sparkled! and the Louvre,
-of which she was quite willing to admit that it must be very fine,
-without knowing what it was; and the Tuileries gardens with the band
-playing, and the beautiful shops in the Boulevards. Even to hear of
-these delights was enough to charm any bride. They were to go
-everywhere, to see everything, to walk about and drive about always
-these two together--nobody to interfere with them; and the play every
-night! What could any bride desire more?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II.
-
-
-Paris, with all its lamps and shop-windows, dazzled Nancy. It was before
-the days in which ruins were visible from that brilliant Rue de Rivoli,
-through which they drove to their hotel. She thought it was an
-illumination as she saw the sweeping circles of light in the Place de la
-Concorde, and the long line of lamps under the archways, and could not
-be persuaded that this was how the brightest of cities adorned herself
-every night. And when she opened her eyes next morning to the brilliancy
-of the winter sunshine, and saw the brightness and gaiety of everything
-around, Nancy was fairly transported out of herself. She had never even
-been in a great hotel before, for Arthur had taken her to London
-lodgings he had been in the habit of using, in Jermyn Street, which were
-not dazzling. But here everything was lovely, Nancy thought. They had a
-little _appartement_ in one of the great hotels over-looking the garden
-of the Tuileries, with a little balcony; and from the white carpet with
-its bouquet, and the sparkling wood-fire which was so bright and clean,
-and supplemented the sunshine so delightfully, to the mirrors and
-gilding, and white panels of the walls, everything she looked upon
-filled Nancy with a bewildering delicious sense of having arrived at the
-summit of fineness and splendour, and being a lady indeed, a princess
-almost, enshrined in a bower of bliss. Nothing she had ever seen in all
-her limited experience was half so splendid; and the noiseless waiters
-who ran up and down with every luxury that Arthur could think of, and
-the dainty food, and the perpetual service bewildered her unaccustomed
-brain. This then was how great people lived! with carpets like velvet,
-sofas covered with satin, a host of eager servants to find out what they
-wanted, and bring them everything that could be thought of; mirrors to
-reflect them on every side (Nancy had never been so sure about the _sit_
-of her dress, or knew so well what her figure was like before--and it
-was a very pretty figure). No wonder they were happy! When they had
-breakfasted, a pretty Victoria, with a fur rug to cover their knees,
-came to the door, and in this they drove all about, taking what Arthur
-called a general view of Paris, its pretty streets, its river and quays,
-its boulevards, the Champs Elysées, brilliant in the sunshine, with the
-great arch at the end. When Arthur stopped to let her see Notre Dame,
-Nancy was respectful but failed a little in interest. It chilled her to
-go into a church in the middle of a week day so soon after she was
-married. Church was for Sundays, she felt, not a place to go into in the
-midst of laughing and talk. She felt it like a _memento mori_, a sudden
-chill upon her exhilaration, and supposed that Arthur took her there
-with the intention of making her remember her duty and her “latter end,”
-which was a suggestion she did not like.
-
-“Now you shall see something quite different in the ecclesiastical way,”
-he said, stopping at another church before they went back to their
-hotel; for he felt that somehow, though he did not quite know how, Notre
-Dame had not been successful with Nancy. But she altogether refused to
-go into the Madeleine.
-
-“I don’t know why you are so anxious that I should see the churches,”
-she said, pouting. “I never knew you were so religious.” Arthur made
-haste to disavow the imputation, as may be supposed, which all the same
-he did not like her to make. He was not “so religious,” but he did not
-like to hear women speak of the matter so--it was “bad taste.”
-
-“It is because the building is supposed to be fine,” he said, standing
-at the door of the little carriage to hand her out; but Nancy declined
-firmly. If she could not think of her duty without being taken into a
-lot of churches to be reminded of religion and of dying, and all that
-sort of thing, she did not feel at all disposed to be instructed so--and
-they came in from their drive a little silent, and not so delighted with
-each other, and with everything about them as they had been when they
-went out, though Arthur, for his part, had not the slightest idea why.
-
-Luncheon, however, obliterated all recollection of the churches, and
-made her again feel that everything was delightful in her present lot.
-Not that Nancy was _gourmande_, or given to dwell upon what she ate. One
-of those horrible luxuries, known in England as a Bath bun, would have
-contented her, so far as eatables went, quite as well as the daintiest
-little _fricandeau_. It was the accessories of the meal which told upon
-her, the obsequious attendants, the perpetual service, the silver
-dishes, the beautiful fruit on the table, and the sparkling wine, which
-she had heard the name of all her life, as the crown of luxury, but had
-never tasted it even in its cheapest form. They must be spending heaps
-of money, Nancy felt, to live like this. But she was not bold enough to
-interfere just then, and there was an unexpressed and subtle flattery in
-Arthur’s care to treat her as, she thought, only princesses, who were
-not brides, would be treated. As a bride, Nancy knew she had a
-prescriptive right to everything that was fine. Even in her own
-knowledge, sacrifices were made to secure everything that was better
-than usual, for the brief but exquisite moment in which a girl held this
-official position. A bride had a right to a drive in a cab if she
-wished it--to a glass of wine if she liked it--to cakes and dainties,
-and a great deal of coaxing and admiration. And to wear her best dress
-when she went out, even though it should be on a week-day. Arthur gave
-to his bride a glorified version of all these delights, except the last,
-the pretty Victoria instead of a Hansom, and this expedition to France
-and other unknown regions, instead of the day at the Crystal Palace,
-which Mr. Raisins would most likely suggest to Sarah Jane; though it was
-strange that he should object to her “silk,” the only thing of which she
-had been perfectly sure that it was right. It was in this point of view
-that she liked the dainty luncheon; and when they went out again
-arm-in-arm in the afternoon for a walk, the shops on the Boulevards
-threw her into an ecstasy. Arthur was complaisance itself to all her
-wishes here. He was willing to stand at the windows and look in as long
-as she pleased, and he took her here and there to glove-shops and
-milliners, and bought her a hundred pretty trifles. In every shop they
-entered, both men and women were so eager to know what pleased _Madame_,
-so anxious to prove triumphantly that this thing and the other was
-becoming to Madame, so openly admiring, so caressingly urgent, that
-Nancy’s head was turned. It seemed impossible not to believe in the
-sudden enthusiasm she called forth. Could it be only the ribbons, or
-collars, or gloves they bought that stimulated these delightful people
-into such warm and apparent admiration. No! Nancy could not entertain
-such an unworthy thought. It was their kindness, she said to herself,
-and something still more agreeable whispered in her heart that it was
-her own attractions that made these people so kind. Had they not a real
-pleasure in seeing a young bride like herself, so fair, so happy, making
-everything look well that was put upon her? Nancy did not flatter
-herself in this open way, but she had a pleased and delightful
-conviction that this was the feeling in their minds. She believed in
-their sincerity, and that she had made a real impression upon them. Was
-not this how all the _nice_ people in books, small and great, showed
-their appreciation of the lovely young heroine? Nancy had not as yet any
-experience of the great--and indeed it was an effort on her part to keep
-up in her mind a certainty that she herself was in a superior position
-to the masters and mistresses, the “young ladies” and “young gentlemen”
-in these very fine shops; a little while ago she would have looked up to
-_them_; now this consciousness made her head turn round, and gave the
-most curious piquancy to their admiration and enthusiasm for Madame.
-
-“How funny it is,” she said, as they came out into the crowded
-Boulevard, where the lamps were beginning to be lit, “to be called
-Madamm!”
-
-Arthur looked a little strange at this pronunciation; but he did not
-venture to criticise. It was necessary to go very quietly with this
-touchy young woman. He told her some pretty things that Monsieur in the
-shop had said to him while his wife had been fitting on her wares upon
-Nancy.
-
-“If you make as much sensation at the theatre,” he said, “what shall I
-do? I am nobody now. I am Madame’s attendant, her obsequious husband.”
-
-“Don’t talk nonsense,” said Nancy, radiant. “What funny people the
-French are! Are they always paying compliments?”
-
-“To people who have any right to them, yes; to pretty people, and those
-who pay well, and those who will be likely to believe them.”
-
-“Arthur, how unkind of you! I don’t believe that people are so
-barefaced, saying things they do not mean. One must have a very bad
-opinion of other people if one thinks that.”
-
-But for her own part, Nancy was not tempted to think so. She conceived a
-very high opinion of the French nation. If she could have got Arthur out
-of the way, she thought she would have liked to try a little
-conversation on her own account, for it would be delightful to be able
-to chatter as Arthur did, and talk to anyone; but in his presence she
-did not like to venture. Once more they went back to their hotel in the
-most delightful state of content with each other and all the world. They
-were to dine early, and then go to the “Français” to see the _Bourgeois
-Gentilhomme_. Arthur had told her the story of the play, and how she
-would be sure to like it, and that there was not a better French actor
-living, and not such a good English one; all which had impressed Nancy.
-And she was to be allowed to wear her pink dress, with a pretty wrap
-which he had bought, an Algerian mantle, softly white, with threads of
-gold, and a flower in her hair. Nancy’s heart beat with the thought of
-all this gaiety and grandeur. He had bought her also a pretty fan; and
-they were to have a box, which was a thing which conveyed very
-magnificent ideas to her mind. To sit there throned like a young
-princess, and allow herself to be admired while the best of actors did
-his best to amuse her, in the midst of that which imagination had always
-painted to her as, after a ball, the most seductive of pleasures, a
-gaily lighted and brilliant theatre, what could be more delightful? And
-at first Nancy was quite as happy as she expected to be. When she looked
-out from the corner of the box with its silken curtains upon the bright,
-many-coloured crowd, it seemed to her as if she could understand a
-little how the Queen must feel when she came forward to thank her loyal
-subjects for their kind reception of her. Half of the people seemed to
-be looking up admiringly, wonderingly. She had never felt so truly
-great before. How well she remembered, in the days of her humility, when
-the highest she could hope for was the upper boxes, watching beautiful
-ladies come into their box, and giving a careless, splendid look over
-the rustling company below before they sat down. And now it was she who
-was the beautiful lady in the box. Was there, perhaps, some poor girl
-somewhere like Nancy Bates, looking at the lovely new-comer, surveying
-and envying her with a wistful gaze in all her finery, watching her look
-down upon the crowd, then sink gracefully into her chair as Nancy did,
-half retired behind the curtain? It seemed to her that she was two
-people, herself in the box--Mrs. Arthur Curtis--and Nancy Bates watching
-from her inferior place; and this doubled the enjoyment in the most
-wonderful way. How she would have noticed everything, the beautiful
-white mantle with its gold threads, the flower in the lady’s hair, her
-dress, and everything about her! and with great, yet less absorbing
-interest, the handsome young husband who completed her belongings, and
-was so “devoted” to her. Nancy would scarcely have had eyes for the play
-in her admiration of the beautiful lady; and now she was the beautiful
-lady herself, in full possession of all the greatness a box at the play
-could bestow! How wonderful it was, and delightful; but yet, perhaps,
-not altogether so delightful and wonderful as it had seemed to Nancy in
-the pit.
-
-But when the curtain rose, Nancy was not so sure that it was delightful.
-She was not sufficiently at her ease to enter into even the frank fun of
-the _Bourgeois Gentilhomme_. She stared at M. Got with wondering
-curiosity and doubt. No doubt it must be very amusing, for everybody
-laughed, and so did Arthur; but Nancy could not laugh. What did that
-queer man on the stage mean by all those strange antics of his?--trying
-on his clothes in public, fencing with his maid-servant, making his
-mouth into round O’s, when the still funnier man in the witch-like black
-hat directed him to do so. It was all strange to her. She puzzled over
-him, and could not make him out. “What is he saying?” she whispered to
-Arthur when there was a wilder laugh than usual; but before she could
-understand what Arthur whispered back, laughing, there was another burst
-of amusement, and she was thrown out again. At first the sensation was
-only disappointment, but by and by it became irritation. She could not
-bear to feel herself the only one who did not know. High up in the
-gallery above her, she could see a little French girl in a cap, who was
-enjoying it with all her heart. And Arthur, though he tried to explain
-all the jokes, forgot now and then, and gave himself up to the fun too,
-and never thought of her sitting there who did not know what it meant,
-and could not possibly enjoy it. The doubtful smile which she kept on
-her face for the first scene or two, gave way to a fixed and somewhat
-sullen stare. She fixed her eyes obstinately on the stage, and gazed at
-the fun with unsympathising face, blank and immovable. If M. Got had
-seen her, she would have been like a beautiful nightmare to him; and as
-a matter of fact, that inimitable actor played all his pranks before
-Nancy without conveying a single humorous idea to her mind, or one smile
-to her face. How weary, how angry, how dull and miserable she grew while
-the house rang with laughter, and all that fun went on under her eyes,
-now sore with staring! All this time the little French girl in the cap,
-up above, a poor little girl, not at all equal even to Nancy Bates,
-laughed till the tears came to her eyes; and Arthur laughed, untiring,
-too, though sometimes wondering a little why Nancy should be so quiet,
-and stealing anxious looks at her, which she would not respond to, but
-kept her eyes riveted on the stage. When the curtain fell, she gave a
-sigh of relief, but turned her back upon Arthur, and would not answer
-his questions as to how she had enjoyed it. Enjoyed it! How could he ask
-her, he who had done nothing but laugh, and never cared for her. When he
-rose, she rose too, but repulsed his attempts to wrap her cloak more
-closely round her.
-
-“It will do very well as it is,” she said, twitching it out of his hand.
-
-“What is the matter?” he asked, wistfully, drawing her arm through his,
-not without a little resistance on her part.
-
-“The matter? What should be the matter? I am only tired, and I shall be
-glad to get home,” said Nancy.
-
-“I have made you do too much. I have dragged you about and worn you out,
-my poor darling!” cried Arthur, and he was full of compunctions, half
-carrying her downstairs. But when they got into the little _coupé_ which
-waited for them, she burst forth.
-
-“I can’t see what there was so very amusing. I don’t think it could be
-good French,” cried Nancy. “I don’t pretend that I can talk like you,
-but I learned French at school, and I am sure I could understand if it
-was good. You call that acting! I did not think he was clever at all.”
-
-“My love,” said poor Arthur, “it was the great Got, the best comic actor
-in the world, I think. I never saw anyone like him.”
-
-“I have seen a dozen better,” cried Nancy. “What did he do? nothing but
-make a fool of himself, putting on those ridiculous clothes, and dancing
-and singing, and learning lessons, an old man! The great Go! I wished he
-would go, I am sure, long before he did go,” she said, recovering her
-spirits a little by means of her pun. But the process was not so
-successful in respect to Arthur. He did not say anything, but shrugged
-his shoulders, which fortunately she did not perceive.
-
-“I see,” he said, at last. “That is not the kind of acting you care for;
-the higher walks perhaps would please you better. We will try something
-quite different to-morrow.”
-
-“Oh, to-morrow!” she said, with a little shiver. This delight of the
-play had already exploded for Nancy; and she recollected with dismay
-that they had agreed to go to a play _every night_! Was this how her
-life was to be spent? She thought regretfully of her mother and sisters
-sitting round the table, chatting about everything that had happened,
-and everything that was going to happen. The parlour was dingy, and she
-had thought of it with a wondering recoil of half disgust in comparison
-with her _appartement_, and all its coquetries, its white carpets and
-curtains; but she had never been so tired, so worn with trying to be
-happy at home. The little wood fire, however, was burning brightly, and
-the wax-candles lighted, and the pretty sitting-room looked very
-comfortable when they got back to the hotel, which they began to call
-“home,” with easy desecration of that word upon which the English pride
-themselves. Arthur put her into a comfortable chair, and made her take
-some wine, and petted and consoled her. Poor Arthur, he was disappointed
-too, but he concealed it manfully. His character was developing in this
-unexpected probation, he was growing patient, forbearing, ready to make
-all sorts of compromises and sacrifices, to ensure that his young wife
-should be happy. He had not been so good or so forbearing in his former
-relationships, when everything had been done to please him; but in
-marriage, if one will not be accommodating, why the other must, there is
-no changing that necessity of nature. This union which had cost so much
-must not turn out a failure. If she would not exert herself, he must.
-Therefore he swallowed his disappointment in respect to the immediate
-evening, and in respect to the narrowing of future resources, which, if
-Nancy could not be made to like the theatre, would be very serious, and
-also the deeper disappointment, which he scarcely allowed himself to
-look at, of finding in Nancy less understanding than he thought. He sat
-over the fire a little when she had gone to bed and pondered it all.
-After all, perhaps, it was not unnatural that a young girl who had no
-experience, and did not understand French, should not all at once
-appreciate Molière, even when interpreted by Got. Was it to be expected,
-was it likely? Arthur began to say to himself that his disappointment
-was the fault of his exaggerated expectations, and that he had been very
-foolish; poor Nancy, what an ordeal he had subjected her to! But he
-would not be discouraged, he would try again. Something romantic and
-sensational at the Porte St. Martin, or a sentimental comedy, such as
-was running at the Gymnase would do better. He would try that,
-something that would interest her. Arthur knew a good deal about the
-theatres, and he felt sure that one or the other would supply what was
-wanted. But there was a vague depression in his mind, notwithstanding
-the bright fire and the white carpets which were so warm and soft. This
-first effort had not been a success. Nancy had not responded to his
-call; it was, he supposed, his fault, but it was depressing. There was
-nothing injurious to Nancy in the comparison that suggested itself. He
-thought involuntarily of Lucy, how she would have laughed at Got’s
-acting, how lightly she would have come in and sat with him over the
-fire, and talked it all over, and enjoyed it a second time. All that
-this proved was the advantages of education--it proved nothing more--and
-he did not want to change Nancy for Lucy, or to abandon the ventures of
-this strange and alarming double existence, which, having once begun for
-him, could never end except by death. The little failures, the
-continual perils of opposition and resistance, excited at least, if they
-did not delight him. Life was no longer tame and monotonous whatever
-else might be said.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III.
-
-
-Next day Arthur made a further experiment with his bride. It was one of
-the things he had promised her when they talked of Paris, and it had not
-occurred to him that the very name of the Louvre conveyed no idea to
-Nancy’s mind. She had been quite willing to accept it as something
-vaguely splendid which she was to see, but that was all. He took her
-across the broad sunshiny courts with a little thrill of expectation,
-chiefly pleasurable, yet with a touch of doubt in it which perhaps made
-it more exciting. Arthur was not himself very learned in art, nor an
-enthusiast about it. He knew what a young man of his breeding could
-scarcely escape knowing--he knew which were the pictures that everybody
-admires; he had all his life been accustomed to believe that he admired
-them, and what with association, what with faith, what with some natural
-sense of beauty, such as few minds are quite destitute of, he had liked
-to go and look at them from time to time when he was in the way of it,
-and had a certain acquaintance with the great galleries in all the
-places he had visited. He knew the Louvre well enough to know his way
-about, to be able to lead a neophyte from one great picture to another,
-and even to have his favourites in the Salon Carré. This does not
-necessitate a very high appreciation of art, or much real acquaintance
-with its productions; but yet it was as the highest knowledge and the
-wildest furore in comparison with the absolute ignorance and
-indifference which exists in the class from which Nancy was taken. A
-less intelligent girl than Nancy, proceeding from the slightly elevated
-social position at which it has become known that pictures are things to
-be admired, and that admiration of them is a proof of superiority both
-in rank and intellect, would have known how to acquit herself in such an
-emergency. She would have gone through these galleries with a gush of
-indiscriminate delight, finding everything beautiful, or at the worst
-would have taken her cue from her husband, and admired what he admired.
-But Nancy had not been educated even up to this point. She knew nothing
-about them, had never heard of Raffaelle or Murillo, and when Arthur
-said, “This is the famous Assumption,” stared blankly, never having
-heard of it before; then turned her eyes up and down, gazing about her
-with that idea that one thing is as good as another, which is the very
-essence of ignorance. She had not even knowledge enough to be aware
-that it was becoming to feign an interest.
-
-“What nice rooms to dance in--are they all kept up for nothing but
-pictures?” she said, in deference to his apparent interest. Nancy did
-not say stupid pictures, as she had intended; and it is impossible to
-describe the disappointed feeling, the eager instructiveness of poor
-Arthur, who felt his own hitherto superficial conviction that every
-ordinarily well-endowed mind must care for pictures, at once confounded
-and intensified by the absolute blankness of his bride.
-
-“My dear Nancy, France is more proud of these than of anything she
-possesses. It is one of the finest collections in the world.”
-
-“I suppose they are worth a great deal of money,” she said, looking at
-them calmly, yet with a certain respect founded on this consideration.
-She was looking up at that divine wall upon which hangs the great
-Murillo, the Virgin of the Garden, and Her of the Veil, the sidelong
-penetrating fascination of the Gioconda, and many a wonder more; and her
-calm of incomprehension was almost sublime. Some were “pretty” she
-thought; but she pulled Arthur’s arm a little to go on, not knowing why
-he should wish to stay so long, and keep looking when she had seen
-everything. To be sure it was natural enough to respect things which
-were worth a great deal of money--the big vases, for instance, in the
-vestibules, of which she had felt that they must be worth a great deal,
-though they were not pretty. It was difficult to associate the same idea
-of value with the pictures, yet Nancy supposed nobody would make so much
-fuss about them but for this.
-
-“Money!” Arthur said, with a little groan, then making the best of it as
-he was learning to do: “Yes, dear, a great deal of money--and more than
-money. Any one of them, almost, is worth more, even in money, than all
-you and I have in the world.”
-
-“What a shame!” cried Nancy, “nasty old things,” and she pulled him on a
-little. Then she stopped for a second before the Leonardo in the corner,
-and laughed out. “What funny women! what are they sitting in each
-other’s laps for? That is the funniest I have seen yet,” she said.
-
-“Hush, Nancy! this is by a very famous painter; but I cannot say I am
-fond of it,” said Arthur, in his didactic vein. “That on the other side
-is his, too--the Gioconda it is called--I like it better.”
-
-“Not I,” said Nancy; “isn’t she _deep_! I can’t bear people with that
-look in their eyes. She is exactly like Lizzie Brown at home in
-Underhayes--you remember Lizzie Brown, Arthur? Come on, I am sure we
-have stayed long enough here.”
-
-“As you like,” he said, with a sigh; “but there are some more I should
-have liked to point out to you--”
-
-“That is pretty,” said Nancy, pointing to a bright-coloured copy which
-one of the many workers in the Salon Carré was making. “Mayn’t one look
-what they are doing? they would paint at home if they didn’t want to be
-seen. Oh, they are _copying_, are they? I am sure that is a great deal
-prettier than the old thing on the wall. What do they copy for?”
-
-“To sell chiefly,” said Arthur, with a certain sullenness in his
-despair.
-
-“Oh, to sell! I suppose people like to have them to hang in their rooms?
-how curious! I would much rather have a picture of you.”
-
-Now Arthur had been falling into lower and lower depths of despondency
-up to this moment. He had said to himself that all his efforts were mere
-failures--that he could do nothing, and must give up the attempt; but
-now he cheered up quite unaccountably, quite unreasonably. There was
-nothing in what she had said to throw a new light upon Nancy’s capacity
-and rehabilitate her in his eyes, yet somehow it did so. A sudden tender
-compunction for the harsh judgment he had been forming came into his
-mind, softening and melting him. He felt disposed to beg her pardon on
-his knees.
-
-“You silly girl,” he said, “what do you want with my picture? If it was
-of you, it might be worth something; but tell me, Nancy, if I were to
-buy you some of those copies, which would you choose?”
-
-“I don’t want one; you are buying too many things already. Well, perhaps
-_that_,” said Nancy at random, pointing at the picture which French
-taste entitles _La Belle Jardinière_. It was a lucky guess enough.
-
-“You shall have it, my darling,” cried Arthur delighted, “I knew you had
-real taste at the bottom of your heart.”
-
-“Oh no, not I,” cried Nancy, shrugging her shoulders and dragging him
-on, “I don’t care about it. It was only the first that caught my eye.
-Let us go on quickly through the other rooms; we have been such a long
-time here. You must not buy that thing, what should I do with it? I
-don’t really care for pictures. To be sure they make a room rather nice
-when they have nice frames; but we have not even a room to hang them in.
-But I will tell you what I should like to do,” she continued, leading
-him out and in of the smaller rooms. “Let us go and get photographed,
-Arthur, _together_, in a nice large size. It will be a much nicer
-memorial of Paris. And then mamma would like it so much to hang up in
-the parlour and show to everybody. We must take her a present of some
-sort, and that would please ourselves too. She would like it a great
-deal better than that pink lady with the little boy.”
-
-“For heaven’s sake don’t describe the picture like that! Do you know it
-is a famous Raffaelle,” said Arthur, all the more horrified that some
-one had heard her young confident voice and had turned round to admire.
-
-“What is a famous Raffaelle? I don’t pretend to know anything about it;
-and I’d much rather have a picture of you; but what would be really
-delightful would be to be photographed together. I wonder I never
-thought of it before. Let us go and find some one as soon as we get out
-of this stupid place. Oh yes, I have seen everything I want to see.”
-
-Poor Arthur! he was pleased that she should want a portrait of himself.
-This flattering touch mended his wounds a little, and as she hurried him
-out again into the bright wintry streets (breathing, herself, a sigh of
-relief when they got fairly clear of the galleries), he said to himself
-with the new philosophy which had come to his aid: Well! how was it to
-be expected she should care for pictures, she who had never seen any? Of
-course the anticipation was quite absurd on his part. Art demands a
-special education. To plunge an unsophisticated mind without any
-training, without any preface, straight into the profundities of
-Leonardo, of Raffaelle, of Perugino, was ever anything so unreasonable?
-and then to expect her to understand at once! The poor young fellow felt
-that he had been hard upon his Nancy, though heaven knows, without
-meaning it. And then what a pretty idea that was of hers about the
-photograph! He had winced a little at the idea of having it hung up in
-Mrs. Bates’s parlour, and exhibited to all her friends; but that was a
-paltry feeling--and what could be more natural and delightful than that
-she should wish for such a memento of their honeymoon? That she should
-be so eager about it, was not that a proof that she was happy,
-notwithstanding all the little frets of her new position, and those
-ill-advised efforts of his to force her into his own conventional code
-of the right things to be admired? That was all a matter of education,
-he felt sure. He had not thought it to be so before. He had supposed in
-his ignorance that a fine picture was like a fine landscape,
-comprehensible to everybody; but then Arthur recollected what he had
-read somewhere that it was very long even before people began to admire
-nature, that a generation or two back the Alps were only horrible snowy
-deserts, and mountains generally were looked upon as obstructions and
-eyesores by the common mind. This showed clearly (he said to himself)
-that education was everything. It not only _trained_ the eye but might
-be said to create it, giving perceptions of beauty that actually had not
-existed before. This thread of thought kept him occupied as he went on
-through the bright streets, drawn by Nancy’s eagerness to one of the
-shops where they had made their previous purchases, to ask about a
-photographer. She was in such spirits over the idea that she kept up the
-conversation and covered his silence; and he had conducted his
-cogitation to a most satisfactory end, the conclusion that Nancy had
-really shown originality in her remarks and that it was a mere absurdity
-on his part to look for art knowledge from her--by the time they reached
-the shop, where they were received with the most cordial satisfaction,
-and where there were a great many new things to see which Nancy admired
-greatly. The shopkeeper had no difficulty in indicating an artist of his
-own acquaintance who, he had no doubt, would do justice to Madame, and
-would be too proud and happy to have such a subject. Arthur, however,
-came to himself when they had got this length, whether by the touch of
-the practical involved in buying some more pretty things for Nancy, or
-by the fact that he had proved her to his entire satisfaction to be
-quite justified in her indifference to the pictures in the Louvre; and
-he had sufficient good sense left to avoid the recommendation of the
-_modiste_, and take Nancy to a really good photographer who gave them
-an appointment for the next day. They were both quite exhilarated by
-this engagement. It was something to do! They went back to their hotel
-in the afternoon, consoled and happy, talking about it. And while Nancy
-reposed herself and took out her dress for the evening, Arthur went to
-look at the newspapers as in duty bound. He took up the latest “Times,”
-and hid himself behind its ample sheet; but he did not get much good of
-his reading. However distinctly you may make out that it is unreasonable
-to expect your bride to be interested in the interesting things of the
-place in which you are living, it is impossible to deny that it is very
-embarrassing when she is not. A girl who was frightened and chilled by
-Notre Dame, wearied at the Français, uninterested in the Louvre, what
-was her poor young husband to do with her? The weather was not
-favourable for those excursions which are so easy in summer. And besides
-what interest could there be in Versailles, for example, to one who
-knew nothing about the Grand Monarque, and probably had never heard of
-Marie Antoinette? People do not marry their wives or their husbands
-because they understand Molière, and love the Great Masters, and know
-Continental history; but it is bewildering to be in Paris, or anywhere
-else for that matter, with a new companion who has no associations with
-anything, and is at once indifferent and ignorant of all that is in the
-past. What was he to do with her? Where was he to take her? Poor Arthur
-puzzled behind his “Times,” and did not know.
-
-That evening he took her to the Gymnase, and at first the spell seemed
-to tell. Nancy for the first act gave her attention to the stage, and
-certainly it was not such a failure as the Français. There was a good
-deal of love-making, and that interested her. But it ended as before, in
-disgust and weariness.
-
-“I wish you would not take me to such places,” she cried, “is it because
-you are afraid of an evening at home? When we are settled at home at
-Underhayes you will be obliged to put up with me, there will be no play
-there.”
-
-This speech was particularly galling to Arthur, because he had not the
-slightest intention of settling at Underhayes, and to have it taken for
-granted gave him a pang which was chiefly terror. Should he be able to
-resist the foregone conclusion which thus had established itself in
-Nancy’s mind?
-
-“Indeed,” he said, “I should be glad to stay at home. Indeed I don’t
-mind where I am, so long as you are there too. I do not care for the
-play.”
-
-“Then what do you go for? Ah! I know, to polish me up, to teach me how
-to behave, to remedy my defective education.” This was once more said in
-the carriage as they were driving home.
-
-“Nancy, you are unkind,” said Arthur, “why should you speak to me so? I
-know nothing about defective education. I took you to amuse you. You
-thought you would like it.”
-
-“I did not know they were such poor sticks,” said Nancy, “I did not
-suppose they would gabble their French so. The people in the shops talk
-a great deal better. I never mistake them; and it worries me to look so
-stupid,” she added relenting. “I should not mind for myself; but it
-looks so bad for you having a wife that does not understand.”
-
-“For me, my darling!” cried Arthur delighted. “Do I care? An evening at
-home will be a great deal more pleasant; but my wife never looks stupid,
-cannot look stupid,” said the foolish young man. And again all was well.
-
-Thus the course of their honey-days went on not without fluctuations.
-What he said in his foolishness, was true so far, that Nancy did not
-look stupid. She looked careless, defiant, indifferent, scornful of
-what she saw, as of something which was not worth the trouble even of an
-effort to understand; but there was nothing stupid in her aspect at any
-time, and in spite of herself, stray gleams of understanding came in to
-the girl’s mind. Gleams which did not enlighten her then; but which
-worked in the chaos, apart from any will of hers. Her will was all set
-steadfastly the other way, to reject all possibilities of improvement,
-and the idea of being educated up to her husband’s level. Was not she as
-good as he to start with, was not her family as good as his family, if
-not better? Not so rich, but nicer, kinder people, to be upheld in their
-plainness above any attempt to pull them down. Nancy’s native energy of
-mind all ran into vigorous scorn of any attempt to separate her from her
-own race and identify her with his. To think of her old self in the pit,
-admiring her new self triumphant in a private box was a sensation which,
-all delicious as it was, originated in herself and was not betrayed to
-anyone. Had Arthur seemed to think of this difference, Nancy would have
-proposed at once to descend to the pit as the preferable plan. She had
-made an immense ascent in the social scale by her marriage; but she
-never meant to acknowledge, not if she should die for it, that the
-ascent was of any consequence to her, or that it was expedient to change
-her manners or her smallest actions because of it; was she not “good
-enough” for Arthur? Then why did Arthur choose to marry her? It was he
-who had asked her, she would have said, not she who had asked him. He
-had pledged himself to take her for better for worse; but she had not
-pledged herself to change anything in her life or habits on his account.
-And she did not mean to do it. She was not a fine lady; she did not wish
-to look like a fine lady. It was far better that everybody should know
-what she was and who she was from the beginning. The idea that Arthur
-had begun a process of education struck her suddenly after that visit
-to the Louvre; why had he been so anxious that she should admire
-everything? Why should he take her to the theatre? He wanted her to
-learn French; but she would not learn French. She had not asked Arthur
-to marry her; he it was who had asked her, and he must take the
-consequences. She had no wish to be here in Paris. It would be far
-better to have a little house in Underhayes, where she could show her
-advancement to those who knew her, and distinguish herself in the only
-circle where as yet she wished to be distinguished. Such was the course
-of thought in Nancy’s mind. This was curiously interfered with by the
-new thoughts which arose in her in spite of herself; but she clung to it
-all the same. She would go back upon the first grievance of her dress,
-the pink silk which he would not let her travel in, long after she had
-been convinced that the blue serge was better and more comfortable, and
-even looked better, which was the most difficult doctrine of all. She
-was quite aware that if she had known then as much even as she knew now,
-she would never have dreamed of setting out upon her journey in her
-salmon-coloured “silk,” yet still resented the fact that Arthur had
-objected to her “silk.” She would not yield. She would not try to adapt
-herself to the “ways” he had been accustomed to. The Bateses were as
-good as the Curtises, and so she would prove. But every day, in spite of
-herself, Nancy became more and more aware how far different her habits
-were from her husband’s, how unlike his were all her ways of thinking.
-But she would never, never give in, she said to herself. It was he who
-had asked her, not she who had asked him.
-
-This was very different from Arthur’s eager desire to make out, after
-every new demonstration of the difference between them, that Nancy could
-not act in any other way, that it was absurd to expect other things
-from her. He was by far the humblest of the two, the most tolerant and
-forbearing. Indeed Nancy was not forbearing at all. She took offence at
-a look, and blazed into sudden wrath at the merest possibility of a
-suggestion of anything derogatory; whereas he bore numberless little
-shafts launched at his family, at fine people who thought themselves
-superior, at dainty ways and prejudices about dress and modes of living.
-Whenever she showed her ignorance more conspicuously than usual, or was
-more painfully unequal to some claim upon her, poor Arthur plunged once
-again into thought proving to himself that this was what he ought to
-have looked for, that nothing else would have been natural. He justified
-her in this way for everything she did, and everything she proved unable
-to do. But still it was rather a trying process, and the conclusion he
-came to at the end of a week was that Paris had not been a successful
-place to think of for the honeymoon. Honeymooning is more difficult in
-winter than in summer. There is so much more to be done in the latter
-season, and the open air harmonizes a great many things. Whereas two
-people not used to each other’s society, not interested in the same
-pursuits, brought up in perfectly different ways, and with no resources,
-shut up together even in a beautiful little apartment in a fine hotel on
-the Rue de Rivoli, what are they to do? The photograph was a charming
-occupation for one day, and it was tolerably successful, as successful
-as photographs ever are, and was the object of great admiration in
-Underhayes, when done up in a velvet frame. Nancy sent it home.
-
-“I hope you are soon going to follow,” Mrs. Bates wrote, and Nancy gave
-the letter to her husband to read. Certainly Paris had not been very
-successful. They had contented themselves with drives and walks after
-that mournful day at the Louvre, had gone to the Bois, which was rather
-naked at this time of the year, and walked about and got tired. And in
-the evening they had sat “at home” in the hotel. But Nancy had nothing
-to do, not even a scrap of fancy work, and when Arthur read to her, fell
-asleep; and they went to bed very early, which both of them felt was
-always a virtuous thing to do, if rather dull. And thus a fortnight of
-the honeymoon came not very cheerfully to an end.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV.
-
-
-“I don’t think you care for Paris,” said Arthur to his wife. They were
-driving out to the Bois, and the rain was drizzling, and it was not gay.
-There were fewer quarrels in this dull interval, but perhaps the fact
-scarcely improved the liveliness, if it slightly added to the happiness
-of their life.
-
-“No,” she said, with some vivacity; “not at all. It was very nice for a
-day or two. But now we seem to have got all we wanted, don’t we, Arthur?
-Another afternoon in the Roo, or in the Palay Royal, just to pick up a
-few little presents, and I should be quite content to go as soon as you
-please.”
-
-“You have seen very little, Nancy.”
-
-“Oh, little! I have seen the whole place, all the best shops, and the
-best streets. I don’t know what more there is to see.”
-
-“People will not talk about the shops and streets,” said Arthur, in his
-most didactic way; “but about the pictures in the Louvre, and about
-Notre Dame; and what music you have heard, and what plays you have
-seen.”
-
-“I am sure mamma will never ask me any such questions,” said Nancy, “and
-I don’t suppose you are going to take me to see your great friends.”
-
-“That reminds me,” said Arthur, nervously clearing his throat, “of a
-favour I was going to ask of you. Will you do something--that will be
-very disagreeable--for me, Nancy, for my sake?”
-
-She looked at him very keenly, examining his face, conscious that this
-seeming simple prayer meant something more than appeared. “What is it?”
-she said, with a gleam of suspicion in her eyes.
-
-“You will not promise then? you are cautious, Nancy. I should have
-pledged myself to do anything and everything for your sake.”
-
-“What is it?” she repeated. “It is so easy to say what it is at once.”
-
-“It is this then--do not reply in a hurry--I am very anxious about it,
-Nancy; don’t you think you might write a few lines--to my mother.”
-
-“To your mother!” the audacity of the proposal took away her breath.
-
-“Yes, I am going to write--to say what I truly feel: that I am sorry to
-have offended her--”
-
-“Sorry to have married me!” she cried, almost jumping out of the
-carriage in her vehemence. She looked at him, trembling with rage and
-wonder. How could he face her and ask such a thing? How could he frame
-the words? did he think she was going to give in, to yield now, without
-rhyme or reason, she who was certainly determined never to yield?
-
-“You know that is not the case,” he said; “you know that I have not
-repented marrying you--and never will. But, Nancy, it is not for our
-happiness or--well, I will say interest, though it is an ugly word--to
-be estranged from my mother. I want to write to her to tell her that I
-am grieved, hush! to have offended her. I should have known better. I
-should have managed so as that she might have seen you--known you,
-before she condemned me--”
-
-“That is that you are sorry you did not send me on approval, as the
-shopkeepers say--_me_! Do you suppose I would have done it? Do you think
-I could have endured for a moment--”
-
-“Can I not ask you a favour--acknowledging it to be a favour, without a
-quarrel?” said Arthur. “We have been married a fortnight, and how often
-have we quarrelled already? Nancy, is it worth the while? Could we not
-discuss a matter that concerns us both, calmly, without anger? If it
-seems to you impossible, say so. Am I unreasonable to torment you about
-a thing you refuse? But why quarrel--I hate it--and you cannot--like
-it.”
-
-“How do you know I don’t like it?” she cried; then stopped herself, with
-some dim perception of her folly. “I will not do it,” she said,
-doggedly, “that is enough. My lady has never taken any notice of me--no,
-nor even your sister, that you are always holding up as a model. I will
-not lay myself down at their feet to be trampled upon; you may do it
-yourself, if you please.”
-
-“I shall certainly write,” he said. “There will be no treading upon; but
-I shall write. If you will not do it, of course I cannot help it; but if
-you will be persuaded--out of your love for me--then I will be grateful
-to you, very grateful, Nancy. I will not say any more.”
-
-“I shall not do it,” she said; and then there ensued a silence, which
-was so long that it alarmed her. Generally Arthur had been but too
-obsequious, anxious to make up, to clear away any lingering cloud; but
-this time he said nothing. The fact was that his mind was too full of a
-multitude of thoughts to leave him any time to speak. He was wondering,
-in a kind of desolate way, what to do. He had ceased to be an
-independent agent, he could not go there and come here at his own
-pleasure. To be sure he was supposed to be the authority, to decide
-everything, to regulate every step they took; but how different this was
-in reality from the sound of it! A man has a right to take his wife
-where he pleases--yes, when she will go; but if the man is a
-tender-hearted, generous, foolish, impulsive young fellow in love, what
-becomes of this sublime authority of his? just about as much as comes of
-all the defences the law can place around a woman to save her from
-cruelty and oppression, when she happens to be of a like nature and
-loves her tyrant. Law is one thing, and love is another. Arthur did not
-know how to oppose Nancy, how to make any move without her agreement and
-sympathy, and he had already had many indications which way her mind was
-fixed. She wanted to go home to England, to Underhayes: and he wanted
-her to stay away, to remove further off from England. His whole mind
-was occupied by the discussion of expedients how to manage this, how to
-persuade her from her desire. And he was not even aware of the silence
-into which he sank, and which she thought so deliberate, and done with
-so distinct an intention of punishing her. They drove along in the
-Victoria, which had carried them about so often, side by side neither
-saying a word. Already Nancy’s appearance had changed. She had put aside
-her traveling-dress for another “silk” which Arthur had given her, and
-which was also dark blue in colour; over this she wore a warm mantle
-trimmed with soft fur about the throat and wrists, a delicate little
-bonnet, all corresponding, with that graceful Parisian taste, which is
-not to be picked up in the Paris streets any more than in the London
-shops, but dwells in its own costly shrine apart. All this changed
-Nancy’s appearance wonderfully. There was still, perhaps, something in
-her bearing when she was on foot, that showed the tax-collector’s
-daughter, the pretty girl of a country town, a little swing and
-loudness, a careless step and defiant pose; but in the carriage by her
-husband’s side, wrapped up in those furs, reclining in absolute ease and
-well-being, Nancy might have been a duke’s daughter for anything anyone
-could say. There were many of the people about who noticed them as they
-drove along, the handsome young English couple, usually so lively,
-to-day so taciturn. A man cannot belong to “Society,” cannot be brought
-up at Eton and Oxford, even if he is not in Society, without being
-known, and there were plenty of people who recognised Arthur Curtis, and
-wondered over his companion--who was she? They had not believed at first
-that she was his wife. One of these men, more curious than the rest,
-came to the edge of the pathway now as the Victoria got into the line,
-and was obliged to go slowly.
-
-“Curtis! is it really you, old fellow? I had been told you were here,
-but I could not believe my eyes.”
-
-“Was there anything so strange in my being here?” said Arthur, rousing
-himself up. This was one of the men who know everything and everybody,
-who have it in their power to convey a bad or good impression to more
-important persons than themselves. This put Arthur at once on his
-mettle. “You must let me introduce you to my wife,” he said, “My friend,
-Denham, Nancy. We have not been very long here.”
-
-Nancy was excited by this sudden encounter with one of Arthur’s friends,
-one of those, perhaps, who knew his “folks,” and belonged to that
-unknown sphere of which she felt at once curious and defiant. She did
-not know very well what to do, whether to shake hands with him, or to
-refrain. Happily the instinct of comfortableness which suggested no
-change of position made her bow only, and as this little gesture was
-accompanied by a blush, very natural to the bridal condition and
-sentiment, the new-comer swore to himself, by Jove! that, were she as
-good as she looked, Curtis had got a prize.
-
-“Beg pardon for intruding on your domestic happiness,” he said; “but the
-truth was I had not heard--Not much going on is there? But Paris is as
-good a place as another for this dreary time of the year.”
-
-“No, I don’t suppose there is much going on, we have been nowhere; and
-we are off again directly, for Rome, I think,” said Arthur. “Paris is
-empty like other places. We have not seen a soul we know.”
-
-“I don’t suppose you were likely to look for them,” said Denham. “Would
-Mrs. Curtis care to see the bear-fight in the Assembly? sometimes it is
-fun. I will see after it, if you like, on the first good day?”
-
-“Should you, Nancy?” said Arthur, turning to her. Nancy had not a notion
-what the Assembly or the bear-fight was. She positively trembled in
-terror of saying something wrong. She who had never hesitated before.
-
-“I--don’t know,” she said; “I don’t care for any--fighting.”
-
-“Oh, they are all muzzled,” said Denham, laughing. “Meurice’s? I will
-call and let you know.”
-
-“Thanks, but it is not worth the trouble; we shall be off in a few
-days.”
-
-“If you go to Rome, Neville is there,” cried the stranger after them, as
-the line moved on more quickly; and he took off his hat to Nancy with a
-respectful politeness that enchanted her; she was pleased with the
-novelty of talking to a stranger even for a moment. It made the air a
-little less still and self-absorbed.
-
-“Who is he?” she asked, with momentary awe.
-
-“Denham, he’s one of the attachés here, not a bad fellow; but talks like
-half-a-dozen old women.”
-
-“We need not mind how Mr. Denham talks,” said Nancy, with a little
-elevation of her head. “We have nothing to be afraid of. He can talk as
-much as he likes for what I care.”
-
-“Isn’t there? But he is Sir John, not Mr. Denham,” said Arthur,
-carelessly.
-
-Nancy sat a little more upright, shaking herself free of the wraps, and
-her eyes glistened. “Was that a baronet?” she said, with a little
-awe--then added, “And so will you be, Arthur. I don’t understand saying
-anything but Mr. to a gentleman. But you will be a baronet, too.”
-
-“Not for a long time, I hope,” said Arthur, with a sigh. It brought him
-back to all the tangled course of his own affairs. He was not by nature
-the kind of son who calculates on the time that must elapse before he
-comes to his kingdom, and it was very strange to him to see his wife’s
-eyes brighten at the idea of that “rise in life,” which meant his
-father’s death. “Poor old governor, I hope he may live to be a hundred,”
-he said, with a half-laugh, which was a half-sigh. Nancy did not join in
-this wish. She stared a little with consternation at the thought.
-
-“What did--the gentleman--mean about bear-fighting? Is it a Zoological
-garden? Assembly in some places means a ball,” said Nancy, “it was
-rather a jumble; what did he mean?”
-
-“He meant the French Parliament, in which they make the laws, as the
-House of Commons does in England--or at least, we may say so for the
-sake of description,” said Arthur; to which Nancy replied with a little
-startled “Oh!” of disappointment and suspicion.
-
-“Do ladies go to such places? I thought ladies had never anything to do
-with politics.”
-
-“My dear Nancy,” said Arthur, seizing the opportunity to be instructive,
-“when you go into society, you will find that people talk a great deal
-about such things, whether they care for them or not; they _are_ the
-things that people talk about. And it is reasonable to think,” he went
-on, more and more improving the occasion, “that, when you are in a
-foreign country, you should like to see what is most important in it.
-That is always taken for granted. You see Denham thought that was one of
-the things you would like to see.”
-
-This silenced Nancy more than could have been supposed possible. She
-had never seen this stranger before, and probably never would see him
-again; but the fact that he had expected her to know what he meant, and
-to be interested in the French Parliament, impressed her infinitely more
-than all Arthur’s anxious efforts for her improvement. Were ladies like
-that, she could not help asking herself? What a bother it would be to be
-a lady, if that was the sort of thing they were expected to care for--a
-lot of old men making speeches, which she could not understand one word
-of! but that of course nobody could be supposed to know. She was
-overawed, and received Arthur’s sermon more meekly than she had received
-any of his didactic addresses before. She supposed now that sister of
-his, that Lucy, would have gone and understood every word, that she
-would have liked the playacting, and talked about it, and laughed as
-Arthur did, that she would have seen a great deal in those stupid old
-pictures. Nancy was silent and dismayed. To be a lady seemed to her a
-hard trade. How different from the case of Underhayes, the talk about
-Lizzie Brown and Raisins, the grocer, in the snug parlour where
-everybody was so comfortable! Her mother and Sarah Jane never would ask
-her about the bear-fighting in the Assembly, nor how she liked M. Got. A
-longing for home seized the girl, and a terror of what seemed before
-her. To be sure, if she had known it, the talk about Lizzie Brown was
-quite as much in Sir John Denham’s way as in that of Mrs. Bates; but
-then his Lizzie Brown was perhaps an Empress, which makes a difference
-more or less. The two young people had never been so silent in each
-other’s company. They drove back so full of many thoughts that neither
-perceived the pre-occupation of the other, and oddly enough they were
-both thinking of their homes; Arthur, with a pang, but without any
-desire to find himself there--Nancy with the strongest determination to
-get back. There was a half-smile in Arthur’s eyes, but a smile which was
-strangely associated with that pain behind the eyeballs and slight
-constriction of the throat, which means unsheddable tears, as his home
-seemed to rise up before him among its woods. He saw his father in his
-library, his mother in that gilded and satin-hung morning-room, which
-was _à la Louis Quinze_, but which nobody thought in bad taste, as we
-see people in a dream. They did not look at him, nor welcome him, and he
-did not wish to be there. How could he take Nancy there? He was
-separated from them, perhaps for ever, and he could scarcely wish it to
-be otherwise. But Nancy on her side thought of home with much livelier
-feelings. Oh, only to be there! free to show all her pretty things, her
-new “silks,” her trinkets and furs: to let everybody see how fine she
-was: to talk just as she liked, not to be made to admire anything she
-did not understand--not to be burdened with bonds beyond her
-comprehension, limits of speech, and word, and action, beyond which it
-was not “becoming,” not “appropriate,” not “right” perhaps, that she
-should go. At home she had done what she liked, run out of doors when
-she pleased, laughed as loudly as she pleased, been as ignorant as she
-pleased. It did not occur to Nancy that at home it had been her
-inclination to stand on her superiority, as one who had been five
-quarters at school, and was altogether “a cut above” Matilda and Sarah
-Jane.
-
-They were sitting after dinner that evening, yawning a little, when Sir
-John Denham’s card was brought to Arthur. He looked at Nancy half
-doubtfully, an expression which she caught at once.
-
-“Shall he come up, or shall I go down to him?” he said.
-
-“Oh just as you like,” said Nancy, with the quick thought passing
-through her mind that Arthur did not choose that his fine friends should
-see her. He looked at her again; in reality to see what she wished; but
-to Nancy it seemed an inquisitorial glance, criticising her all over, if
-perhaps she was “fit to be seen.”
-
-“I will go down and bring him up,” he said. When he was gone, Nancy too
-looked at herself in one of the many mirrors. She still wore the dark
-blue silk dress which had been made for her since she came to Paris,
-with ruffles of lace at the throat and wrists. It was very plain. Should
-she run and put on the salmon-coloured one, which was a great deal
-finer, before Arthur returned with the stranger? She hesitated a moment;
-but her good angel interfered and kept her still. Sir John Denham
-thought her on the whole a lady-like young woman when he came into the
-room. Evidently there must be something queer about the business
-altogether, Denham thought; but she was very pretty, and looked _comme
-il faut_, so far as he could see.
-
-“I have to make a thousand apologies,” he said, “but I thought it better
-to run up and tell my story myself, hoping that Curtis would intercede
-for me as an old friend. May I be allowed to open my mouth at all, at
-such an inappropriate moment? A thousand thanks; I came to say that if
-you would be at the Palais de Justice at twelve to-morrow, I could meet
-you there with La Pic, who is a friend of mine, and would take you in.
-There is to be an _interpellation_ which probably may be amusing--and if
-you are going on so soon--”
-
-“It is very kind of you, Denham, I am sure my wife will like it.”
-
-“Mrs. Curtis looks a little doubtful, I think,” said Denham, “but of
-course you must not mind me. It is only if it will amuse you.”
-
-Nancy vacillated between two courses; she was tempted to a little
-bravado, to avow boldly her ignorance, and shame the pretensions which
-her husband made on her behalf; and on the other hand she was also
-tempted to commend herself to this stranger, who was a real baronet, and
-finer than anyone she had ever talked with before. Why should she let
-him see how little she knew? And in this wavering she took a long time
-to make up her reply.
-
-“I do not understand much about--politics,” she said.
-
-“Especially French politics, I suppose,” said Sir John, smiling and
-showing large white teeth. “So I should think, Mrs. Curtis; _I_ don’t
-understand them though it is my business; but it is fine to see how
-they fly at each other, and will not keep still for all the Presidents
-in the world. I hope Curtis has been letting you see a little of Paris.
-We must excuse him, I suppose, for keeping you so entirely to himself.”
-
-“We have been at a theatre or two,” said Arthur carelessly, “that is
-all; we are just passing through.”
-
-“And I am sorry there is nothing going on yet; after Christmas, if you
-were staying, I might be of some use. Some of the balls are worth going
-to in the Carnival. But why should I tell this to you who, probably know
-a great deal better than I do--”
-
-“Oh no,” said Nancy, “I have never been in Paris before.”
-
-“Ah, that accounts--” said Sir John. “The fact is I have been wondering
-that I had not seen you anywhere; what luck for Curtis to have so many
-new things to show you. But there is not much going on. I suppose you
-are going to Oakley for Christmas, Curtis. Lucky fellow, with nothing to
-do but amuse yourself. Put me at the feet of the ladies there; I have
-not seen Lady Curtis or your sister for ages. A poor beggar like me
-would not know what to do with such a place, otherwise I should envy
-you, Oakley. What a place! what woods! what a park! it is only in
-England that one sees anything like it.”
-
-“You were always a romancer, Denham, Oakley is nothing particular. Being
-home it is very pleasant; but as a model of an English house--”
-
-“I maintain it is, and Mrs. Curtis shall judge between us. It is not a
-feudal castle--I allow you might find finer things in that line; it has
-neither moat nor dungeon, I suppose; but for a gentleman’s house--why,
-we have nothing in the least like it here. Don’t you agree with me, Mrs.
-Curtis? You have not been long enough in the family to depreciate their
-good things as they do. I am sure you will give your vote for Oakley
-against anything you see between this and Rome, of its kind--I wait for
-your support.”
-
-It was a strange situation enough. Denham did not understand; but he
-divined, and liked to play with the unknown danger in Nancy’s doubtful
-looks, and Curtis’s evident anxiety. As for Nancy, she looked at her
-husband with a perceptible tremor. She wanted him to instruct her, to
-indicate what she was to say: though, had it been possible that he could
-have dictated to her, that very fact would have made her perverse. At
-last she said hesitating, “I have seen--so little--I could not judge--I
-have never been out of England before.”
-
-“Ah, that accounts--” said Denham vaguely; and he was very much puzzled
-by this subdued bride, who had no enthusiasm either for the new world
-she was visiting or the old world which she had left so lately. He tried
-to draw her out on a variety of subjects; but Nancy, though at intervals
-an impulse of self-revelation would come upon her, and it was on her
-lips to tell him that she knew nothing of Oakley, and cared nothing, and
-should never be there, nor go to Rome, nor do any one of these things he
-was talking of, was on the other hand so afraid of betraying herself
-that she held back, looking stiff and silent, and scarcely could be got
-to say a word. As for Arthur, his anxiety made him somewhat excited and
-restless, it took away all ease from his manner. He wanted her to join
-in the conversation, to come out of the shell of reserve in which she
-had shut herself up; and yet he was afraid of what she might say if once
-roused. She was a clever girl, with much natural energy and force; but
-yet it was annoying how entirely the daughter of Bates the tax-collector
-was at a loss listening to the conversation of the two men who were not
-clever, yet who knew by nature many things of which she had not a
-notion. This Assembly they wanted her to go to, what was it? Why should
-she go? What was an inter--inter--what? Their world and hers were
-totally different, though one of them was her husband. She was relieved
-when they veered into gossip and began to talk of people, though she did
-not know the people. There she could follow them even in her ignorance;
-for had not she too a Lizzie Brown?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V.
-
-
-“Why cannot we go home?” said Nancy. “I don’t want to stay here. I don’t
-want to go to your Rome, and places. What is the good of taking me away
-to make a show of me? I can speak English, but I don’t know any of those
-jargons. I am sure it is not good French here; and as for Italian, I
-never heard a word of it. It is only to make me look ridiculous. Denham
-thinks so, Arthur. He comes and looks at me, and asks me about old Lady
-So-and-So. I tell him I don’t know her, and I don’t want to know her. I
-shall tell him some day I never knew Lady Anybody in my life, and that
-_I_ am a nobody. I will, if you do not take me away!”
-
-“Do tell him so,” said Arthur, “if you please. I don’t mind what you
-tell him. You don’t think I want you to make believe? You are all I wish
-for, Nancy, yourself--better than if you had known a dozen Lady
-So-and-So’s.”
-
-“Oh, but I am sure you watch me,” she cried. “I always feel that your
-eye is upon me, Arthur. You are afraid I will say something wrong; and I
-am afraid too, except when I want to do it: and if I should do it some
-time, as I am sure I will if we go on, you will not like it. Arthur,
-don’t let us go further off; let us go home.”
-
-“Home? where is home?” he said. “I don’t know if I should have any
-welcome.”
-
-“But I should,” cried Nancy. “Mother and all of them would dance for
-joy. And think how much better we should be. We must be spending a mint
-of money here. You talk of going further, but I don’t believe you will
-be able to go further when you look into it. And I don’t know what we
-have to spend: you don’t tell me anything.”
-
-“I scarcely know myself,” said Arthur, with rather a bewildered look
-upon his face. “I don’t know what my father--things should be different
-now.”
-
-“And you are going away travelling without knowing? You will find,” said
-Nancy, becoming practical all at once, “that we have spent a great deal
-of money; always having carriages and going to the play--”
-
-“Not to many plays.”
-
-“Two; and that music Denham gave us tickets for--”
-
-“My darling, don’t be angry--but would you mind saying Sir John?”
-
-“Why should I say Sir John? You always call him Denham. And when we went
-to that Assembly there was another carriage. I suppose it would always
-be the same if we were going to other places; but at Underhayes it would
-not be like that. We could take a little house and furnish it, and you
-have such good taste, Arthur. We would make it so pretty, and everybody
-would be delighted to see us. I should manage everything, and keep the
-expenses right, and you--you--”
-
-“Yes!” said Arthur, taking her hands into his as she stood by him, “What
-for me? I should have nothing to do.”
-
-“Well! when one has plenty to live on, what does it matter? It will
-always be delightful. We shall take walks. Don’t you remember the
-common, how beautiful it was? And now and then we will go to London; and
-in the evening we can--you can read out loud to me,” said Nancy,
-stopping, with a little confusion. “We can go and see mother,” was what
-she was about to say; but she stopped instinctively, and kept that in
-the background. She was standing by his chair, putting her fingers
-through his hair, arranging and re-arranging it with soft touches, each
-one of which was a caress. It was seldom that she was in this tender
-mood, and he felt himself melting under it. Sometimes she would stoop
-down and put her cheek against his. “You would teach me all sorts of
-things,” said Nancy. “Sometimes I know I am not good-tempered, Arthur. I
-give you a great deal of trouble. It makes me wild to think that I am
-not like you, that I don’t do you credit; and then my temper gets the
-better of me, and I say I am as good as they are, why should I trouble?”
-
-As she made this confession, tears came trembling into Nancy’s eyes and
-stole into her voice. She had never before revealed to her husband the
-state of mind which made her so capricious, and as she told it, all
-those vagaries of temper which had tormented Arthur, became sacred
-things to him, and beautiful in the light of love and penitence. He took
-into his arms this tender culprit, whose avowal made all her faults into
-virtues.
-
-“Don’t, my darling!” he cried; “don’t! Not like me? You are far better
-than I am. Not do me credit? Nancy! don’t you know I am as proud of you
-as I am fond of you--and can anything be more than that? Teach you! What
-could I teach you? It is you who teach me.”
-
-And he meant what he said, and she meant it, to the bottom of their
-foolish young hearts, and it was all true and all false, as only human
-things can be. Nancy, though her heart was melting and running over
-with the tenderness of her confession, was as ready to be defiant as
-ever at half a moment’s notice, and Arthur as sure soon to be doubtful
-of her, alarmed and anxious, uncertain as to what she might do or say.
-But neither of them was at all aware of this as they clung together and
-mutually repented, and declared that never again, never again should
-anything disturb their harmony and full understanding of each other.
-
-“There are so many things you could teach me,” Nancy said, smiling
-through her tears, “in our own little house at home! You could make a
-lady of me. Oh, yes, we all thought you had done that when we were
-married, but now I know better. But you can make a lady of me, Arthur,
-if you will try.”
-
-“You are a lady already, my darling,” he said; but how sweet was this
-consciousness of what was wanting in herself, and the confidence that he
-could communicate all she wanted! It was like an inspiration direct from
-Heaven.
-
-“I will study whatever you wish,” said Nancy. “We could give ourselves
-up to it if we were only in a little house of our own. Whatever you
-please, Arthur; French if you like, for I am ashamed not to understand
-it when you talk it so well, and I don’t think it can have been much
-good what I learned at school; and about pictures and buildings, and
-everything. I don’t know _anything_, Arthur. I could not understand the
-things you were talking about, Denham and you; and I know you were vexed
-about the pictures, and the theatre.”
-
-“No, my sweetest, I was not vexed--perhaps a little disappointed; but I
-knew it was because you had not seen any before.”
-
-“That was all. I know a little better already; and, Arthur, if you were
-to give this winter to it, and help me, in our own little house! So near
-London as Underhayes is, we could go up and see things; and you could
-read books to me. I think I can see it all,” said Nancy, smiling upon
-him with her wet eyes; “a little drawing-room with lace curtains and
-windows that opened to the garden, and another nice little room with
-your pipes in it, where I could come and sit by your side while you
-smoked your cigar!”
-
-“But, Nancy, might not all this beautiful picture come to pass, just as
-well in Italy? You don’t know what Italy is. None of your dull wet days,
-but always soft, bright, sunshiny weather, and the bluest sky, and such
-moonlight nights. We need not go to Rome at all. I know a little village
-up amongst the woods with a view of the sea. Nancy! you can’t think how
-beautiful it is!”
-
-“I don’t care,” she said, with a little pout. “I don’t want to go to
-Italy. It is so far, so far away; and I cannot speak the language; and
-it is so dreary to live among people, and hear them chattering, and not
-understand.”
-
-“But you would very soon learn Italian. It is the easiest
-language--everybody says so,” said Arthur. “You could pick it up in a
-few weeks. You would so soon feel at home there. The good people are
-fond of everything that is beautiful. Oh, they are not all good people,
-I suppose. Sometimes they will ask too much from you; they will,
-perhaps, cheat you a little, in quite a friendly way--”
-
-“I could not endure that!” cried Nancy. “That is the one thing I could
-not put up with; and foreigners are all like that, Arthur; they pretend
-kindness so long as they have something to gain; but they don’t really
-care. Oh! there is nothing like England,” she cried, clasping her hands,
-“and a little house of our own! And in the summer, when, perhaps, your
-people may have changed their mind, Arthur, _then_ I should not be
-afraid to meet with them. I should know a great many things that I don’t
-know now. And we should be so happy, both together, and no one to
-interfere with us.”
-
-Arthur was moved to the bottom of his heart. It did not occur to him to
-think of her own description of “foreigners,” who pretend kindness as
-long as they have something to gain. Nay, more than that, _she_ did not
-think of it either. Nancy was quite sincere. By talking about it, she
-had made a certainty in her own mind that this was really all she
-wanted, that in such circumstances happiness would come of itself,
-without frets or interruption; and in what other way could that be
-secured? She was so earnest in carrying her point, that she really felt
-all she expressed. Whereas, if he took her away, if he insisted on _his_
-plan, Nancy felt that she could not answer for herself. It was for his
-sake as well as hers; it was for their good as well as for their
-happiness. And what could Arthur answer to all this? The fact that she
-wanted anything, was not that the most powerful argument for having it?
-His own inclinations were strongly in favour of absence, and he believed
-that this teaching of which she spoke, and which he had fully intended,
-could get itself accomplished far better on the Riviera, or in the villa
-among the chestnut woods at Castellamare than anywhere near the house of
-the Bates’. But what could he do or say against her? He tried to
-beguile her into talk of what might happen after, when they would go
-into society, and when, perhaps, he should be able to take her to Oakley
-to see all its beauties. But this was a subject of which Nancy was very
-shy. She would not speak of Arthur’s “people,” whom she no longer called
-“folks.” When she did make their acquaintance, she wanted to do so in a
-way which would dazzle them. She could not tolerate the idea of any
-condescension on their part to Arthur’s wife. No, she must have
-surmounted all difficulties, and feel able to consider herself as much a
-lady as any of them, before she met those ladies who were her natural
-enemies and rivals. For Arthur’s sake she would avoid them until she
-could burst upon them in full glory of new instruction and knowledge.
-
-“Don’t speak to me about Oakley,” she said. “It was all I could do to
-make sure Oakley was its name when Denham talked of it. It makes me
-angry to hear of it. I, your wife, not to know it, not to know anything
-about it or them! when every poor creature of an ambassador’s flunkey
-goes there.”
-
-“Don’t be too hard upon old Denham,” said Arthur, laughing. “How he
-would be pleased to hear you! But not Denham, Nancy, if you love me.
-Your mouth was not made to drop words in that careless way.”
-
-“Oh, nonsense, Arthur! What should I say? Sir John is so formal. _You_
-would not say Denham if it was wrong,” said Nancy, recovering a little
-from the too great amiability of this episode; and then she added, “You
-have asked me to do something for you. I will do it. I will not bargain
-with you, but I will do it; only you must not see my letter, or school
-me. I will write out of my own head.”
-
-“Will you, Nancy? You are always a darling, always kinder than I
-deserve; but at least you will let me see it--send it with mine?”
-
-“No,” she said; “no, no, no; but I will write. Now, will that please
-you? And you will yield to me, like a dear good Arthur, and take me
-home. I do so wish to go home.”
-
-“That looks as if you were tired of me, Nancy.”
-
-“Does it?” she said with a smile, putting her arm softly about his neck.
-
-She was not addicted to caresses. There was a kind of rude delicacy and
-reserve in her, which a little more gentleness of manner would have made
-into that exquisite bloom of modesty which is the crown of all graces.
-That soft touch said more from her than the utmost _abandon_ of
-lovingness from another. Poor Arthur was all subdued; he could not
-resist her; her tenderness filled him with happiness beyond expression.
-If she would but be always thus, in spite of all he might have to pay
-for it, what man was there in the world so blessed as he? That even at
-this exquisite moment he had the strength of mind not to commit himself
-finally to the carrying out of her wish, was more than could have been
-expected. It was, perhaps, because “Denham” arrived at that moment to
-accompany them to a morning performance at the “Conservatoire,” for
-which his zeal had with difficulty got them tickets. They had not wanted
-to go, but “Denham” had insisted upon it. Nancy went away to put on her
-bonnet as he came upstairs. How near she had been to success! Her heart
-was full of confidence and pleasure in the thought, and this gave a
-brightness to her countenance which was all it wanted.
-
-“What have you been doing to your wife? She is radiant. She will have a
-great _succès_, and you and I will shine in her lustre,” said their
-companion to Arthur, as they arrived at the concert-rooms.
-
-How proudly Arthur looked at her, exhilarated yet subdued as she was by
-that delightful sense of having got, or nearly got, her own way! This
-happiness had taken from Nancy the look of defiant watchfulness which
-generally gave a sense of unrest and discomfort to her beauty. For the
-first time since their marriage she looked at her ease and unafraid. He
-was so absorbed in her that he did not see a well-known face close to
-him, nor dream of any interruption of his felicity until, at the first
-interval in the music, some one reached a fan across from another bench
-and tapped him on the shoulder.
-
-“Why, Arthur, Arthur! don’t you know us?” a voice said. It seemed to
-curdle the blood in his veins. He turned round with a sense of absolute
-dismay.
-
-Behind him--how could he have missed the grey head of the old Indian,
-the overwhelming bonnet of his aunt, the demure correctness of the
-English young lady, all three in a row?--sat General Curtis, his uncle,
-father of the Rev. Hubert, who was Rector of Oakley, with the two ladies
-who ministered to him. What so natural as that these excellent people
-should be in Paris? They were on their way home from the German baths
-where the General went for his gout. And the wife and daughter, worn to
-death by the process which screwed the General up for the rest of the
-year, had need of a little taste of Paris to refresh their jaded souls.
-It was Mrs. Curtis who called “Arthur, Arthur!” A discussion had gone
-on between the three from the moment that Arthur appeared with the young
-woman, whose advent filled these ladies with a thrill of curiosity.
-“Don’t you meddle with what don’t concern you,” growled the General.
-Arthur was known to have made a dreadful connection, to have married
-somebody who was nobody, and generally to be in a bad way; and the sight
-of Nancy had startled this group beyond expression, as she came in
-looking happy and beautiful in her dainty Parisian bonnet.
-
-“She looks a perfect lady, mamma; why shouldn’t we?” said Mary Curtis,
-who was charitable and disposed to be “gushing.”
-
-“It concerns us as much as it concerns anyone, except his father and
-mother,” Mrs. Curtis said. Both wife and daughter were disposed to be
-rebellious to the dictum of the head of the house. They had gone through
-so much for him. Now they were on ground which they felt to be their
-own, and on which he was no longer supreme, and his opposition
-quickened their desire to penetrate Arthur’s mystery. No one in the
-family had seen her, they would be the first, and even that thought was
-pleasant. “That is Sir John Denham on the other side; if she was very
-bad would he show himself with them _in public_,” said Mrs. Curtis.
-
-“What does a fellow like that care?” the General growled back, “the
-_demimonde_ is what he likes best.”
-
-“Oh, hush, Anthony, think of Mary,” said his wife, “he may like the
-_demimonde_, as you say; but I don’t think he’d like to show himself
-with them _in public_. And really she looks very nice. What a pretty
-bonnet! Anthony, you cannot pass by your own nephew.”
-
-“I won’t have anything to say to him; if you do, you must take the
-consequence,” said the General.
-
-“Oh do, mamma, do!” cried Mary at her other side. And the result was
-that Mrs. Curtis put her fan over somebody’s shoulder and called
-“Arthur, Arthur!” and filled the young man’s mind with unutterable
-dismay.
-
-“Aunt Curtis!” said Arthur, rising to his feet. He grew crimson with the
-sudden emergency, with the surprise, “Who would have thought of seeing
-you here?”
-
-“Indeed if you had thought at all on the subject, you might have made
-sure we should be here,” said Mrs. Curtis, and then she stooped forward
-and raised her head to whisper: “She is very pretty, Arthur, and of
-course you think her as nice as she is pretty. Would she like to be
-introduced to me?”
-
-“She must be now that you are here,” said Arthur, not with any great
-eagerness. He took her offer a great deal too easily as a matter of
-course, not as the distinguished kindness she intended it to be. But her
-curiosity had reached to a very high point, and there was a touch of
-kindness as well as of self-importance in the idea of being able to
-mediate in the family affairs. Besides Sir John Denham was chatting
-familiarly on the other side of the bride, whose looks in her Paris
-bonnet were unexceptionable; and Sir John Denham was a very useful man
-to know in Paris, and one before whom many doors opened. And though her
-husband grumbled and held back, her daughter was still more anxious than
-she was.
-
-“Oh, Arthur, how pretty she is!” Mary Curtis murmured to her cousin,
-while her mother made up her mind. It was Mary or some one like her who
-ought to have been elected to fill the post Nancy had secured, to become
-the future Lady Curtis. If that post had been filled up by competitive
-examination, as men’s situations are nowadays, no doubt Mary would have
-got it; and looking at it entirely as a public position without
-reference to Arthur (who after all was but a necessary adjunct, and not
-everything) Mary felt a lively interest, touched with doubt of her
-qualifications, in the successful candidate. She was anxious to inspect
-her, to have the satisfaction of feeling, which is a very general
-sentiment, that she herself could have done it better. Would this girl
-have the least idea how to behave in so important a post? Mary gave her
-mother little pushes and pinches to urge her on.
-
-“I hope you have taken her to see your mother, Arthur,” said Mrs.
-Curtis, “she is of course the first person to be thought of. Ah, you
-have not, you naughty boy! well, if you wish it I will go and speak to
-her before the music begins again. No, Mary, not you, you had better
-stay where you are. Papa will be vexed if we both go.”
-
-“Oh, papa! it is always papa,” said Mary, as her mother swept past her,
-almost sweeping her out of her seat. Mrs. Curtis was large and ample
-both in figure and drapery, and looked like Society impersonated as she
-swept round in front into the vacant space before Nancy, with a
-solemnity becoming the occasion. Nancy looked up alarmed at the coming
-of this large lady, and if it was partly defiance and resistance, it was
-also partly shyness, and fright, and ignorance as to what it was right
-to do, that kept her from rising to receive this imposing introduction.
-Mrs. Curtis made her a curtsey, which the girl blushing hotly, and
-confused between pride and shame and helpless ignorance, returned only
-with a little tremulous inclination of her head. Oh, if she only knew
-what was the most polite yet the most disdainful thing to do!
-
-“I am afraid you scarcely know who I am,” said the large lady, “Arthur
-has not had much time yet to tell you about his relations. I am your
-husband’s aunt, Mrs. Arthur; we are all very fond of him. But you have
-not seen any of the family yet, I am sorry to hear.”
-
-“No,” said Nancy, feeling waves of hot blood come up to her temples. She
-confronted her new acquaintance without looking at her, with eyes half
-concealed by her eyelids, dumbly defiant. Arthur’s relations might come
-and stare at her, and talk to her as they pleased, but she would make no
-advances. And they could not make much, she thought, out of yes and no.
-
-“Arthur shall tell me where you are, and I will come to see you
-to-morrow,” said Mrs. Curtis. “I think it is only right for his sake,
-and I hope you will not be frightened of me. I will do anything I can to
-be of use to you, for Arthur’s sake, that is, of course, if you wish
-it. Sir John Denham, I think,” she added, turning to him. Denham had
-withdrawn a few steps from the family meeting, as courtesy demanded. “I
-met you, I think, years and years ago at the Carringtons’, though I see
-you have forgotten me.”
-
-“As if that were possible!” said Denham, in a tone which half offended
-Nancy. He had pretended to be her friend and Arthur’s; yet here he was
-just as friendly with the enemy. “But they are going to begin again, I
-am afraid. Will you take this place,” he said, offering her his vacant
-chair. Mrs. Curtis paused to reflect that to place herself beside
-Arthur’s wife _in public_, was more than was required of her; more,
-indeed, than was perfectly discreet in the circumstances. So she made
-her doubtful niece-in-law a bow, and took Arthur’s arm again.
-
-“I must return to my own party I fear,” she said, “but I shall hope to
-see you to-morrow.” Nancy found herself for a moment left entirely
-alone, while this unexpected intruder upon her happiness squeezed back
-again into her place, for Denham too had deserted her, as she saw by a
-backward glance, to renew acquaintance with the fine young lady behind,
-with whom Arthur too lingered, leaving her seated there in front alone.
-The din of the orchestra recommenced, which Nancy was not sufficiently
-instructed to admire, and her head began to ache with jealous pain and
-misery. The heat of the place, the languor of the afternoon, the crash
-of the music, made an atmosphere of confusion and sickening incongruity
-all around her. Oh, to be in the little parlour at home again! oh, to be
-Nancy Bates, with no fine ladies to question, or fine gentlemen to
-thrust the village girl to the front of this alien assembly, where all
-the people knew each other, and understood what was going on, except
-only she. These women! she had never expected any inquisition of this
-kind. She would have liked to jump up and rush away, no matter where,
-only to be free of it all. She said to herself she could not bear it.
-She would go home whatever happened; with Arthur or without Arthur, it
-did not seem to matter now.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI.
-
-
-Nancy had plenty of time to calm herself down before she received the
-promised visit of Mrs. Curtis. And Arthur, who had always been so
-anxiously compliant with all her wishes, and so ready to excuse all her
-shortcomings, looked so serious when she burst out into vituperation of
-the “big fat woman,” and declared her determination not to be spied
-upon, that even her impetuosity owned a check.
-
-“If you insist upon going away, and not receiving her, it will be a
-great vexation and pain to me,” he said, “and your own good sense will
-show you, Nancy--”
-
-“I have no good sense,” said the excited creature. “I never pretended to
-be sensible; you knew what I was when you married me, Arthur; and to be
-spied upon, and examined all over by a set of women--I can’t bear it,
-and I won’t, not for anybody in the world; not even for you!”
-
-Poor Arthur did not make any immediate reply. He walked about the little
-room with agitated steps; then went and stood at the window, looking out
-with a blank and hopeless face. Perhaps silence was, of all others, the
-thing which Nancy could least encounter. She sat gazing at him, ready to
-make off in a moment to her room, to snatch her hat, and fly out, she
-knew not where; anywhere to escape from those shackles of her new life
-which were so intolerable. That he would rush after her, entreat her to
-return, promise everything that she wished seemed certain to Nancy. She
-did not calculate upon this, but was sure of it without thinking. But
-his silence chilled her, and when he spoke it was in a voice she did not
-recognise, a voice out of which all the music and sweetness seemed to
-have gone.
-
-“I don’t know if this will have any influence upon you,” he said, “but
-it is worth thinking of: that we cannot live utterly estranged from my
-family. Some time or other we must seek a renewal of intercourse. _I_
-must seek it, not they; and if my Aunt Curtis could in the meantime
-convey a pleasant impression of you--if she was herself won to be on our
-side--I don’t say it would be of great consequence, but yet it would be
-a beginning. I don’t know what you think of my family, Nancy; if you
-think they are some kind of wild beasts to be avoided; but they can’t be
-avoided. We shall have to live by them, and it is for our good--it is
-indispensable--that we should be friends.”
-
-“Friends!” cried Nancy, breathless with the effort of listening to him
-and keeping silence. “Then you may as well throw me over once for all,
-Arthur. Friends! with those that would take no notice of me--that never
-so much as named me in their letter.”
-
-“That was my fault--that was my fault,” he said, turning round upon her.
-“I had no right to keep them in the dark. I ought to have gone to my
-mother and told her, not kept everything in holes and corners.”
-
-“You were not a baby!” cried Nancy. “Why, you are four and twenty! Men
-don’t go and ask their mamma’s leave like girls.”
-
-“That may be--but neither do men throw all their relatives over; tear
-themselves apart from their family. And I will not do it,” said Arthur
-with sudden self-assertion. “I will do anything in the world to please
-you but this. I will not quarrel with all who belong to me. As soon as I
-get an opportunity we must be reconciled to them--_must_, Nancy, there
-is no alternative. And why should you reject this easy way? My aunt is a
-kind woman. She will do us a good turn if she can. Try to please her,
-dear; won’t you try to please her for my sake?”
-
-Nancy had started to her feet, when he said with such energy that he
-would not do it: but something arrested her. Whether the reasonableness
-of it, which was not likely, or the new force and vigour with which he
-spoke, or the pathos of the entreaty at the end, it would be difficult
-to say. But she was arrested, her attention caught, and the rush of her
-hasty blood restrained. After all, perhaps, there was something in what
-he said. It was not worth her while to fly from them--to avoid them as
-if she was afraid. But rather to show them her own superiority--to
-convince them that she was as good as they were, and had no occasion to
-fear them. This, perhaps, was scarcely the sentiment inculcated by
-Arthur’s speech; but rather the turn it took in the alembic of her own
-mind, in which a hundred crude ideas were fermenting and getting fused
-daily. She sat down again after a moment, when he had ceased speaking.
-Arthur, notwithstanding his appeal, had excited himself too much to care
-precisely what she was thinking, and even this gave a wholesome stimulus
-to the turn in the tide of her thoughts. He did not care, but he should
-be made to care--he should be proud of her--he should feel that those
-people who slighted her were slighting something above themselves. She
-would not yield so far as to say anything, to give her promise that she
-would endeavour to conciliate Mrs. Curtis. Not for her life; but what
-she said did not need to be any criterion of what she would do. She took
-up a book which happened to be on the table, and pretended to read it
-with an absolute absorption of interest which justified her silence;
-while he, on the other hand, having no certainty that he had moved her,
-but rather fearing the worst, kept pacing up and down between the window
-and the door, excited beyond the immediate question, having, for the
-first time, opened up the ultimate matter with himself. And when he once
-began to think of it, he could not shake off the idea. It was no
-question of expediency or possibility--a thing which ought to be done
-perhaps, yet might not. It seemed to him, thinking of it, that he must
-at once explain everything, and claim his forgiveness, and the reception
-of his bride. “I have done wrong--but it cannot be undone; nor is the
-wrong half so serious as you think.” This was what he must say. He had
-intended to write ever since he got to Paris, but had deferred it as an
-unpleasant business which might stand off from day to day. But now it
-appeared to him, all at once, that nothing was so important. Whatever
-else he did, he must reconcile himself with his father and mother, his
-own flesh and blood. If they would not, he must bear it; but nothing
-must be left undone on his part. This sudden conviction was brought upon
-him--was it by the sight of his relations--was it by Nancy’s
-unreasonable and absurd antipathy to them? He could not tell--but the
-fact that he could think of any sentiment on Nancy’s part as absurd and
-unreasonable showed what a leap he had suddenly made.
-
-It was not till several hours later that Mrs. Curtis and her daughter
-appeared--for this time Mary had insisted upon coming, defying papa.
-
-“We have done nothing but think of papa for the last three months,” she
-said. “I think we may be allowed a little of our own way now.”
-
-Mary was very exact and particular, the essence of English duty and
-exact young-ladyhood. But there is a point at which duty and
-self-abnegation stop; and certainly, after spending three months at a
-German bath, a handmaiden to gout, it is not to be expected that the
-fortnight in Paris was to be spent in absolute devotion at the same
-gloomy shrine, especially as the General was better, and wound up for
-the year by all the sulphur he had imbibed. The young lady came
-accordingly with her mother, curious, and, indeed, eager to see how the
-successful competitor acquitted herself.
-
-“Is she a lady?” Mary had said on the previous evening,
-cross-questioning her mother; but Mrs. Curtis had declined to commit
-herself.
-
-“She said nothing but no, that I heard. How could I tell from a No?”
-
-“I could have told if she had only coughed,” Miss Curtis replied; and it
-may be supposed with what keen eyes she was prepared to investigate her
-new cousin. They were so late of coming that Arthur had gone out, and
-Nancy, in her blue gown, sat by the fire alone just as the afternoon
-sank into twilight. They could not even see each other very clearly, and
-Nancy did not give them a very warm welcome. She stood up against the
-light, so that they could not make out a feature of her, and made them a
-stiff little bow, which was very awkward and self-conscious, yet not
-ungraceful. And then they seated themselves, not by Nancy’s invitation.
-The log blazed up compassionately now and then on the hearth, and threw
-a gleam upon the three half-perceptible faces. It was a strange little
-scene in that genteel comedy which we call real life.
-
-“I am sorry we are so late,” said Mrs. Curtis. “We have been seeing our
-friends and making a few necessary purchases; and it is astonishing how
-trifles take up a winter’s day; it is soon over at this time of the
-year. We have stayed longer than we meant to do in Germany, the weather
-has been so mild. I hope the General may be able to come to see you
-before we leave; but he has to take care of himself just now, after his
-baths.” As all this elicited no response, Mrs. Curtis continued. “Is
-Arthur out?”
-
-“Yes.” Nancy had intended to keep to her monosyllables, but it was
-difficult, and she added, in spite of herself, “I expect him back very
-soon; he thought it was too late for you to-day.”
-
-“I am so sorry; if he had been here he would have made us acquainted.”
-
-“On the contrary,” said Mary, striking in, “I think, if Mrs. Arthur will
-not mind, it is better my cousin should not be here. Women understand
-each other better alone. Don’t you think so? I feel sure of it, for my
-part.”
-
-“I don’t know,” said Nancy out of the partial gloom; and then there was
-a pause.
-
-Mrs. Curtis made a fresh start, and the aspect of affairs was so
-strange, and the absolute passiveness of Nancy so apparent, that all
-polite feints were impossible, and the visitor plunged into the heart of
-the one subject, the only subject on which they could approach each
-other, feeling herself forced into it, whether she would or not.
-
-“I hope you will not think what I am going to say intrusive; but may I
-ask if it is true that you have not seen anything of your husband’s
-family, Mrs. Arthur--his immediate family, Lady Curtis, or Lucy, or any
-of them? Is it so indeed? But I hope you will do all you can to
-reconcile your husband with them. It cannot be good for you to be
-estranged.”
-
-“I know nothing about them,” said Nancy, with a toss of her head.
-
-“Indeed, I am very sorry for it. I think Arthur might have managed
-better. If he had played his cards rightly, when they saw it could not
-be helped they would certainly have yielded, and taken some notice of
-you.”
-
-“I wanted none of their notice,” cried Nancy, crimson with anger; and
-then Mary interfered.
-
-“Mamma, I don’t think you are treating it in the right way,” she said.
-“Mrs. Arthur does not know Aunt Curtis. Oh, what a pity that your people
-did not insist on seeing my aunt and uncle! that would have made
-everything easy. But I suppose you did not know.”
-
-“We did not care,” said Nancy, growing hotter and hotter. She would make
-no other reply.
-
-“But your people might have cared,” said Mrs. Curtis, “as my daughter
-says. I hope you will not take it amiss if I say that there has been
-very great negligence somewhere; and you ought to do all you can to set
-things to rights. It is all settled now, and past changing. Don’t you
-think that you should try to mend matters? Arthur may be very fond of
-you; I daresay he is. I am sure he has given good proof of it; but he
-cannot be happy separated from his family.”
-
-“Then he can go back to his family,” cried Nancy, with flashing eyes,
-rising suddenly to her feet. “If you are specimens of his family, coming
-and abusing me like this, when you don’t even know me--”
-
-“I do not think, Mrs. Arthur, that you are taking what we say in a very
-friendly way. What object could we have in coming but to assist you--or
-rather Arthur--in the circumstances? For, of course, we think most of
-him, it is only natural; and surely it is your duty to do what you can,
-as it is you who have brought him into trouble. It cannot be any offence
-to you to say as much as that.”
-
-“I wish you would go away,” cried Nancy, hotly. “What have you to do
-coming here? only to tell me that I am in Arthur’s way? How have I got
-him into trouble? Did I go and ask him to marry me? Did I make love to
-him? You think I am only a common girl, and you are ladies. Ladies! Do
-ladies behave so?--to bully a girl when she is by herself, when no one
-is by--a girl who has never done any harm to them, who is as good as
-they are?”
-
-“Oh, this is too much,” cried Mrs. Curtis. “I came to give you advice
-for your good--for Arthur’s sake; and this is how you receive it! I
-wanted to help you if I could.”
-
-“I did not ask anyone’s help,” said Nancy, defiant, facing them, always
-with her back to the light, invisible except as a shadow. Her heart beat
-so that every vein felt bursting. She had but one desire in her mind,
-and that was to rush off without stopping to see Arthur, without giving
-anyone the opportunity of insulting her further, and fly home as fast as
-the fastest train would carry her. What were the Curtises to Nancy? How
-could she bear this from anyone, to be schooled and dictated to, she who
-had never been scolded even at home, who had never been found fault
-with, whose whole being rose up in arms against anyone who ventured to
-criticise? There are people in all classes who are thus intolerant of a
-word, not to be interfered with, whom it is mortal offence to think less
-than perfect. She felt as if the blood in her veins had turned to fire.
-
-“Mamma,” said Mary, “Mrs. Arthur is quite right. We have no business to
-come here into her own rooms, and tell her what she ought to do. She
-knows better what to do than we can tell her. Why should you interfere?”
-
-“Because Mrs. Arthur is young, and does not know, Mary, and it is her
-duty to listen when one speaks for her good,” said Mrs. Curtis, furious
-in her turn. “But you need not be afraid, I will not say any more. I
-will only bid you good morning, Mrs. Arthur. It is no object to me what
-you do, or don’t do. If I could have smoothed matters I would; but I
-will not force my good offices upon you. I hope you will make your
-husband very happy, for otherwise I am sure he will be very miserable.
-He was always on such good terms with his family, and now you have made
-a complete breach.”
-
-“Will you go away?” cried Nancy, wild with anger.
-
-She made a step forward with her arm lifted. It is not likely that any
-provocation would have made her strike; but if the two ladies, alarmed,
-thought she was about to do so, no one could blame them. This appearance
-of violence appalled them. Such a threatening aspect in a woman was so
-foreign to the customs of society, so tremendous a breach of all
-decorum, that actual blows would have had no greater effect upon them.
-They both retreated before her, with alarm in their startled movements.
-Nancy could not see their faces, nor could they see hers.
-
-“Indeed, we will go,” cried Mrs. Curtis, with tones which were tremulous
-with wonder and anger, and the kind of moral fright which has been
-indicated.
-
-Mary had got her hand upon the door to open it, when some one suddenly
-pushed in from outside, and Arthur came into the room.
-
-“What is the matter?” he cried.
-
-All he could see was his wife against the light of the window,
-threatening, with her arm raised as if in the act to strike.
-
-“Oh, Arthur, stand between us and her!” cried Mrs. Curtis. “But I will
-not stay here another moment. Your wife has ordered us out. You poor
-boy, you can come to me if you like. Good-bye. I am very sorry for you;
-but I cannot stay another moment here.”
-
-“What is the matter?” he repeated, with a voice which was sharp and keen
-as a sword, as the two ladies disappeared hurriedly, and he stood alone
-opposite to his wife, gazing at her with eyes that blazed through the
-gloom. Her hand had dropped by her side at his entrance, but at the
-sound of his voice Nancy, who was beside herself with passion, raised it
-again and shook it at him in speechless excitement, then turned and fled
-into her own room, clashing the door behind her. He heard her lock it in
-her rage, panting for breath as she dashed away. Poor Arthur! he had no
-mind to follow her. She might have spared herself that precaution. He
-stood upon the hearth, looking mournfully into the big mirror, in which
-he could see himself a shadow in the surrounding gloom. Had not all life
-turned into a vision of shadows, everything that was lovely and fair
-disappearing from about him? There seemed no power in him to do
-anything. To go after his aunt and endeavour to make up for his wife’s
-incivility, was as impossible as to go after that wife and demand the
-meaning of her strange conduct. He had no heart for anything. He stood,
-as it were, amid the ruins of his bridal happiness, everything
-crumbling about him. Only to-day, only a few hours ago, she had stood by
-him, beguiling him with sweet smiles and caresses, she who this minute
-had confronted him like a fury, with her hand clenched, threatening
-violence. He had borne a good many shocks in this eventful fortnight;
-the bloom had been taken off his fond fancy of perfection in his bride.
-But this was the climax of all. It seemed to take at once his strength
-and his hope away.
-
-Meanwhile Nancy, her blood boiling, her countenance flushed, her eyes
-fiery with passion, had rushed out of the darkness into the soft light
-of her room, where the candles had been lighted, and where she saw
-herself entering like a fury in the great glass which was opposite to
-her as she rushed in. This sight made her pause in spite of herself; it
-sobered her all at once. Was that the aspect she had borne to these
-strangers? to her husband? The sudden shock of her own appearance had
-more effect upon her than any amount of moral reprobation. She calmed
-down in a moment. They had insulted her, she tried to say to herself;
-but what would they think of her, was what conscience said in her. What
-would they think of her?--and Arthur? The colour went out of the foolish
-creature’s face; a chill came over her. Oh, what was she to do, what was
-she to do? She had meant to impose upon them, to be more lady-like, more
-calm, more chilly in her politeness than anyone could be; and this was
-what it had come to. She threw herself down by her bedside in a passion
-of tears and penitence. Had Arthur come to her then, she would have
-thrown herself at his feet and asked his pardon; but Arthur was kept
-from her by the bolt she had herself drawn in her fury, and by--though
-this she was unaware of--the despair and dismay in his heart. She threw
-herself on the carpet, and found relief in a torrent of tears. Such
-tears! hot as her passion, overwhelming as the impulses that surged
-after one another through her heart. He must hear her sob, she felt, in
-the _abandon_ of her misery; and though Nancy did not sob to be heard,
-it gave her a flutter of hope to think that he must hear her, and must
-come to know what it was, to comfort her, even to scold her, it did not
-matter, so long as he came. But not a sound except those sobs of hers
-broke the silence. The candles burned softly, and glimmered in the
-mirror, which reflected her lying there upon the flowery whiteness of
-the carpet, a dark miserable figure; but there was no tap at the door,
-no voice asking for admission. After a little time, her passion being
-spent, she raised herself up, and without drying the tears from her
-woebegone countenance, or arranging her disordered hair, opened the door
-softly, and looked into the sitting-room where she had left him. All was
-changed there; the candles were lighted, the fire re-made, the room full
-of warmth and light; but no Arthur. It was vacant, put in good order by
-the servants, who knew nothing about what had been happening there. And
-Arthur was gone. Where had he gone? Had he followed those women, who
-were his relations, though they were her enemies? Was he hearing their
-story, who doubtless would paint her as a very devil of ill-temper and
-pride? Had he gone over to the other side, he who was the cause of it
-all? Her eyes began to flash again, and her veins to refill with that
-fire which had all but died out of them. She went back to her room, and
-dipped her burning forehead into water, and smoothed her hair, which she
-had pulled out of place with her passionate hands. When she had done
-this she stood for a moment between the two rooms in the silence, alone,
-asking herself what she should do. Had Arthur gone from her? Would he
-not come back again? A speechless dismay took possession of her soul,
-followed by flashes of passion, and still deeper and deeper despondency.
-There was but one thing that it seemed possible to do, except flight,
-which she was not equal to at this dreadful moment, when she was not
-sure whether he had flown from her. If he had been in the next room she
-might have had strength to flee; but not with this uncertainty and dread
-in her mind whether he had abandoned her. There was but one thing in
-this tremendous emergency which she could do. Had she not promised to
-him to write to his mother? She would do this now.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII.
-
-
-This period of early winter was a dull one at Oakley at all times. From
-October to Christmas it was not the custom of the family to invite the
-usual country-house array of defence against dullness. For some weeks
-after the partridge-shooting began there would be visitors
-about--luncheons at the coverside, dinners more or less sleepy, evenings
-more or less gay. And again at Christmas there was always a large party
-assembled; but between whiles the family were left to their own
-resources. How Sir John himself filled up his time was a profound and
-solemn mystery, which no one could entirely unravel. He spent it mostly
-in his library--in the perusal of Blue books, in the writing of
-letters, and in something which was called business, and supposed to be
-the management of his estate; but everybody who knew Sir John knew that
-there was not very much beyond the most ceremonial portion of a
-sovereign’s duty in his easy lot. The estate had been carefully managed
-all his life, by the most careful and sensible of functionaries, Mr.
-Rolt, who was the son of the last agent, and the brother of the
-solicitor at Oakenden who had the money matters of the family in his
-hands. And the family had been unexceptionable in its conduct for the
-last five-and-thirty years; there had been no extravagant heir, no heavy
-jointure diminishing its resources. General Anthony, who had done very
-well for himself, was Sir John’s only brother, the only other member of
-the family; and there had been nothing but unbroken respectability and
-discretion in the management of the finances of the house. The estate
-ran upon wheels, or upon velvet, and all but managed itself. Then as for
-Parliamentary business and the Blue books, Sir John was a sound
-reliable Conservative, who never dreamed of opening his mouth in the
-House. He voted as his leaders voted, who were the best able to judge,
-and the study of public affairs, to which he thus devoted himself, had
-all the merit of disinterestedness. It cannot even be said that it told
-greatly when he sat upon a Parliamentary committee, for he was apt to
-get confused on the points he knew best, and his knowledge did not stand
-him in stead at the moment it was wanted, as knowledge ought to do; but
-still what with the Blue books and the estate, he thought himself very
-fully occupied, and what could be desired more than this? Two or three
-times in the day, especially when it rained, he would come into his
-wife’s morning room, and stand up with his back to the fire and talk,
-sometimes relevantly, sometimes irrelevantly, like most other people.
-But he was always serious, whether relevant or not. He had a long face,
-with grey whiskers and grey hair, and a long upper lip shutting close
-upon the under, which was feeble, though the chin too was rather long.
-His face in these wintry days, when there was no news of Arthur, was as
-serious as a countenance well could be. Whether he was talking of his
-son or not, Arthur was always more or less in Sir John’s mind, and never
-smile, or glimmering of a smile, approached within a hundred miles of
-the serious lines of that long upper lip.
-
-Lady Curtis was of a different disposition altogether. The last
-extremity of grief even could not produce in her the monotony of
-melancholy which was possible to her husband. She would weep as he never
-wept; but then she would laugh also in sheer impatience of the weight of
-tedium and sameness. Her suffering was far more acute than his steady
-dullness; but it was broken by gleams of activity, by sudden impulses,
-by perpetual changes. She flung herself into her housekeeping, stirring
-up all the quiet corners, and making a commotion in the servants’ hall,
-such as for some time threatened the family peace--and into the parish,
-where Lucy did not always want her mother’s assistance. She wrote
-letters to her friends, half cynical, half sorrowful, and more than half
-amusing, in which Arthur indeed was never referred to; but where many a
-cutting sentence, sharp jest, or mocking reflection betrayed that sting
-of personal suffering which those who knew her best could read between
-the lines. Lady Curtis was clever. She wrote articles now and then in
-literary papers, even sometimes in magazines; but this was an indulgence
-of which she was not proud, and she prudently kept silence about it,
-being wise enough to know that any such crown of wild olive sits badly
-upon the matronly brow of a country lady, alarming some people, and
-giving to others occasion for ill-natured jibes and pleasantry. Not her
-husband certainly, and even not Lucy knew always when she took upon
-herself the office of critic; and the able editor who printed her
-reviews was not aware what had made his contributor more industrious
-than usual and more bitter. It was Arthur that pointed the clear steel
-of those polished little arrows which she discharged at the world. She
-did it as a relief to herself; but not that anyone might know. And it
-must be added that there was a certain satisfaction in this safety
-valve. Then there was crewel work, and the patterns of the Art
-Needlework Society, of which, however, she soon got tired. Altogether
-Lady Curtis’s activity was stimulated to its utmost. She had the
-happiness of discovering a source of waste in the house, and an abuse in
-the parish; and she fell upon a nest of foolish books to criticize, and
-began a series of papers upon “The Minor Morals of Society;” and she set
-vigorously to work upon a set of curtains in a bold and effective
-pattern of her own invention. And thus she beguiled away the weary days.
-
-Lucy was less difficult perhaps than either her father or her mother.
-She was young, and it still seemed to her that in the course of nature
-everything that was amiss must come right, and every breach be mended.
-Sir John’s opinion was that nothing would ever mend, and his wife’s
-that the only thing to be done was to keep yourself busy, and persuade
-yourself that there was no hope nor expectation of any change within
-you. But Lucy waited with as much patience as she could, crying
-sometimes over the estrangement of her brother, but with no despair in
-her; things would come right, nay, must come right some time or other.
-To suppose that you could be separated for ever from anyone who belonged
-to you, anyone you loved! could there be folly in earth so great as
-that? It was a question of time, and the time was long and dreary and
-hard to support; but yet by and by _of course_, who could doubt it?
-everything would be well. November and December are dreary months, let
-us make the best of them, and very dreary in the country when the day is
-over by four o’clock or little after, and there are hours upon hours to
-be got through in-doors, in a big empty house, pervaded everywhere by
-that sense of the absent which is so much more urgent and all-prevailing
-than any presence. When Arthur had been at home his being there was a
-matter of course, and no one thought much about it; but when Arthur was
-away! and away in this dismal manner, absorbed into another life,
-disjointed from theirs. Such an argument as this might make the dullest
-feel the superiority of an idea to all that is solid and practical. In
-her own room, which Arthur rarely entered, Lucy missed her brother, and
-she missed him going about the parish, where he never went with her. And
-Sir John missed him in the midst of those Blue Books at which the boy
-had made grimaces from a distance, but which he never approached; and
-Lady Curtis felt his absence when she wrote for her Review, though
-Arthur was the last person in the world to know anything of Reviews.
-This is at once the desolation and the power of death which fills our
-very atmosphere and daily breath with those whom it removes out of our
-sight for ever; and this it was that gave force to the words which both
-father and mother said of Arthur when he forsook them. It was as if he
-had died.
-
-The ladies of the family spent most of their time, as has been said, in
-the morning room, with its two tall windows looking out from between the
-pillars of the façade. The drawing-room, which was large and splendid,
-too fine and too big to be cosy in, suffered in consequence, and except
-when the house was very full, had much the air of an uninhabited place.
-The morning room was fine enough, too fine most people thought
-now-a-days. Lady Curtis was one of the people who most feel the
-influence of those successive waves of taste which sweep across the mind
-of the most cultivated portion of society from time to time. Had it been
-necessary to re-furnish this favourite room, she would have done it in
-the style of Queen Anne, with neutral tints and “flatted” colour, tiled
-fireplaces and high manteltops. And she was by times a little
-uncomfortable about the florid effect of her _Louis Quinze_ decoration;
-but there was no excuse for remodelling the pretty room which the
-children loved. It was florid, there could be no doubt. The cornice was
-rich with stucco wreaths, and there were Cupids about, and lyres and
-knots of ribbon, and glowing garlands of flowers. The carpet was white
-Aubusson with a great bouquet in the centre, as flowery and brilliant as
-that which had made Nancy happy in Paris. Lady Curtis’s writing table
-was a _bonheur de jour_ of the finest workmanship, and various articles
-of precious marqueterie stood about, flowery and dainty. Two robust gilt
-Cupids supported the white marble of the mantel-piece, and the satin
-curtains were looped and fringed, and festooned with the most elaborate
-art. Lucy sat and knitted stockings for the village children upon a
-satin sofa, with her warm wool in the drawer of an inlaid table with
-curved legs, which was worth half as much as the village. Everything in
-the room was framed on the principle of being beautiful, not for
-convenience or comfort, which is supposed to be the inspiration of
-various other styles of household decoration, but for beauty alone. And
-perhaps it was more suitable for the home of a bride, such as Lady
-Curtis had been when she collected all those pretty things about her,
-than for the centre of household life which it had become; though indeed
-it was very doubtful whether Lady Curtis, a clever, impatient-minded
-woman, had ever attained any ecstacy of happiness as the bride of good
-Sir John. She loved her dainty surroundings better now than she did when
-they were in all their freshness. She was aware of her husband’s
-steadfast goodness and truth, though he was not lively and amusing, and
-had more respect for him, and, at the same time, a tenderer sentiment
-for the father of her children than, perhaps, she had entertained for
-the good, dull bridegroom to whom she had been bound, not entirely,
-report said, with her own freewill. Therefore, perhaps, the beautiful
-room had never enshrined that impersonation of happiness, luxury, and
-splendour to whom all these decorations belonged by nature. Now-a-days,
-certainly, it was not any luxurious leisure and blessedness that dwelt
-there; but care and doubt, such as would have been consistent with very
-sombre surroundings. Lucy sat and knitted, her mind wandering after
-Arthur, trying to imagine the brightest winter weather in Paris, and her
-brother enjoying himself, instead of the rainy skies here, the muddy
-roads and grey miserable day. Lady Curtis was in her chair by the window
-for the sake of the light, busy with her crewels.
-
-“They may say what they like about the higher art of these subdued
-tints,” she said, “but nature is not subdued in her tints. How am I to
-do the autumn leaves in those tones of colour? They are high and bright
-in nature.” She said this, but she was thinking of Arthur all the time;
-and by and by Sir John came in from the library, and strolled up to the
-fire.
-
-“Have not you had tea yet?” he said, putting himself in front, between
-the Cupids. “I thought you must be having tea. What a dreary afternoon
-it is! and the hounds are out. They must be having a disagreeable run.”
-Thus he discoursed with his lips; but in his heart his thoughts were of
-Arthur too.
-
-“Lucy has been in the village, though it has been so wet. She says there
-is a very sad commotion going on. Young Jack Hodge, the blacksmith’s
-son--tell your papa, Lucy,” said Lady Curtis with a sigh.
-
-“I don’t think it is so very bad,” said Lucy, getting up to make the tea
-which had just been brought in. “And I am sure papa will not think so;
-but his mother is making a great fuss. She has got the Dissenting
-minister over from Oakenden to comfort her; and to hear him speak, you
-would think it was very bad indeed.”
-
-“What has happened,” said Sir John, “and why did not Bertie go?”
-
-“Oh, Bertie, papa! what is the good of Bertie? There is a look in his
-nose as if he smelt something disagreeable whenever he goes into one of
-the cottages. The people cannot put up with it, and why should they? I
-think the Dissenter was better on the whole. Jack has gone for a
-soldier, that is all. I tried to say there was nothing so very dreadful
-in that; but they would not listen to me.”
-
-“That is all the fault of your Dissenters,” said Sir John, “why
-shouldn’t the lad go for a soldier? They would do away with poor people
-altogether, these Dissenters if they could--and soldiers too I suppose.
-They would leave us all defenceless, at the mercy of anybody that
-chooses to make a run at us. They never have anything themselves. I
-suppose that is the reason why.”
-
-“Well, that is not bad logic,” said Lady Curtis, “I suppose they think
-those who have something to lose should defend themselves;” and she
-sighed again, thinking, where was the son of her own house, who was its
-natural defender? He was worse than Jack Hodge, who, at least, might be
-of use to his country even if he did break his mother’s heart.
-
-“You mean the Volunteers?” said Sir John, “but I never believed in the
-Volunteers. It is all very well to let them amuse themselves,
-soldiering. And, perhaps, in the country where they would be officered
-by the gentlemen they know,” he continued after a moment’s pause, with
-again Arthur, and not the Volunteers, in his thoughts, and echoing his
-wife’s sigh, “they might be of some use; but I don’t put any faith in
-them for the defence of the country. Thank you, my dear; on a wet
-afternoon like this one is glad of a cup of tea.”
-
-Sir John was generally glad of his cup of tea, if not for one reason,
-then for another, because it was wet, or because it was cold, or because
-it was sultry and stifling, or else for no reason at all. It formed a
-break in the long afternoon when there was nothing more interesting to
-do. For as he stood with his back to the fire, and his cup in his hand,
-he went on dully talking, as was his way.
-
-“It is the very essence of democracy you know--when you substitute what
-they call the citizen soldier, the man that is supposed to fight in his
-own defence, for the soldier that is paid for defending us: the very
-essence of democracy--it makes out that one man is just as good as
-another and that the Hodges want as much taking care of as you and I.”
-
-“So they do surely, papa,” said Lucy, “their lives are as precious to
-them as ours are--to us.”
-
-“You don’t know anything about it, Lucy; they are not half so important
-to the country, and it’s the country we ought to think of first,” said
-Sir John. “Without an army where should we be? The throne would have no
-authority--Volunteers mean democracy, my dear.”
-
-“And Jack Hodge is your true patriot,” said his wife.
-
-“Exactly so. I will tell his mother that is my opinion the next time I
-am in the village. A foolish woman with her Dissenters to put nonsense
-into her head. What could the boy do better. But Bertie ought to have
-been there? Bertie ought to have gone,” said the Baronet. “I allow there
-are bad smells in the cottages, Lucy; but surely, if I can bear it, he
-ought to bear it; and you, you never say anything about the smells--I
-don’t think Bertie can be doing his duty as a clergyman ought. The
-young men of the present day are beyond me,” Sir John added with another
-sigh; and he put down his cup with a dreary shrug of his shoulders, and
-shook his grey head as he went slowly away.
-
-How glad they all were when the long November day was over, and they
-could shut out the ceaseless drip-dripping of the rain, the sweep of the
-dead leaves across the windows! The autumn had been mild, and the
-foliage had lasted longer than usual. Now it came tumbling down with
-every breath, with every drop of rain, choking up the paths, and filling
-the air with the mournfullest downpouring of yellow. On such a day no
-one came up the avenue, unless it was a draggled villager bound for the
-servants’ door, or the Rector, or the Doctor, neither of whom
-contributed much to the gratification of the house; and to look out upon
-the misty vista of the spectral trees, the damp rising from the ground
-and falling from the skies, both of which were about the same colour,
-for even a short November day is not cheerful to the spirits. It was a
-relief when the house began to be dotted with lamps, when the shutters
-were closed and the curtains drawn. Lady Curtis, for some time, had not
-cared to have the shutters of her favourite room closed till bed-time.
-She did not give any reason for this fancy, but Sir John had found fault
-with it, and she had yielded. “It was not safe,” he said, “to leave the
-lower windows open. Some one might get in and frighten the house, if no
-more.” Lady Curtis had not stood out. She watched the servant close them
-with again a lingering sigh. She had meant nothing by having them open.
-No, nothing. Only if such a thing might happen as that--any one--moved
-by some impulse of the heart, should suddenly come home--why, then there
-would be a little light visible from the very end of the avenue to
-encourage him. Nothing was more unlikely than that such a thing should
-happen. But still granting that the impossible did sometimes come when
-no one expected it, then there might be use in the light. But as nobody
-could explain this, or say anything in defence of so painful a notion,
-of course it was done away when Sir John objected. My Lady sat in the
-gilded chair, cushioned with satin, that stood by the fire, and took a
-last look of the dull twilight with the trees looming through it like
-ghosts, as the footman began to shut up. It had been a dreary day; it
-was more agreeable to turn to the clear light of the lamp within, the
-subdued glimmer of the satin hangings, the sparkle of the fire. The day
-was done at last.
-
-And yet it was a little dreary, also, to think of the hours that
-remained unaccomplished--the long still evening in which there would be
-a little talk, very little, and the routine of dinner to go through, and
-the still evening after, which Lucy and she would spend together.
-Perhaps she would work, and Lucy read aloud; or Lucy would take to one
-of her many undertakings, which were of a homelier kind than Lady
-Curtis’s crewels, while her mother wrote. The house was very still, as
-it became a great house to be, lying folded in the darkness, in the
-great park, in the humid lawn and clouds of watery trees, without one
-gleam from all the windows in front to welcome anyone who, unexpected,
-might come out of the busy world to explore the stillness--the most
-unlikely thing in the world to happen; yet such things had been and, who
-could tell? might be. There was one event still possible, and that was
-the coming in of the post, which arrived after dinner, a most
-inappropriate moment, everybody said. Indeed, Sir John had often
-proposed not to send for the letters, but to leave them, when there were
-any, till next morning, rather than spoil the digestion of the family at
-such a moment. But Lady Curtis had a woman’s liking for letters, and
-never would hear of this. She had no experience of the letters which
-spoil digestion. Her milliners’ bills were no trouble to her. She had
-never been in debt, it is to be supposed, in her life, neither were
-there mysteries in her existence which she was afraid of; her letters
-were pleasant breaks upon the monotony, enriching the quiet of her
-country life; therefore she would have the post-bag brought up, whatever
-Sir John might say.
-
-And that night there were two letters that seemed to wake up even in the
-house itself something like the heart-beating that flutters in an
-individual bosom at sight of a long-expected communication--two letters
-which bore the Paris postmark, one to my lady, one to Sir John. The
-butler saw them at the first glance, recognising the writing of one,
-guessing at the other. He whispered to the housekeeper, before he went
-to my lady’s room with her share of the budget.
-
-“Summat from Mr. Arthur,” he whispered in her ear.
-
-“Oh, let me look,” she said.
-
-It was something to see, even the outside of the letters; and they
-looked at each other across that other one, and agreed in their guess as
-to what it was. Daly, the butler, was a man of discrimination. He knew,
-as well as she did, that, whereas Sir John was equally dull at all
-times, my lady expected the post with a thrill of nervous anxiety every
-night. He knew it by her eyes, by the clutch of her hand at the letters,
-by the inspection, quick as lightning, which she gave them, always
-curbing her disappointment. This was why Daly carried my lady’s letters
-the first especially to-night.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII.
-
-
-“Lucy, Lucy!” said Lady Curtis in a stifled voice.
-
-It was the postmark, the thin paper of the foreign letter, the stamp of
-the hotel which had caught her eye; and it had not occurred to her as
-she opened the envelope that it was not Arthur’s handwriting. Indeed,
-Nancy had been copying Arthur’s handwriting, and had partially succeeded
-in making her own like his, at least for the length of the address. When
-she called to Lucy, it was that she had perceived the different writing,
-the unexpected form of address within, and had jumped at the conclusion
-that something had happened to Arthur, and that it was his servant who
-was writing. Lucy rushed to her, seeing her agitation, and coming
-behind her, read over her shoulder the letter which Lady Curtis threw an
-alarmed glance over, trembling in every limb. They trembled, both of
-them, with excitement as they went on. It was not what they expected; it
-was neither a letter from Arthur, nor yet an announcement of his
-illness, but something else, which they had not anticipated or thought
-of. It was the letter Nancy had written in hot haste and desperation,
-after the visit of Mrs. Curtis had come to so violent and sudden an end.
-My lady read it, the paper trembling in her hand, and Lucy read it over
-her shoulder, with painful, suppressed exclamations. This is what Nancy
-had said:--
-
- “My Lady,
-
- “Arthur says I am to write to you, though I do not know why; and I
- have told him I will, if I may say what I like and not show it to
- him. So you will know, if you are offended, that he has no hand in
- this. I am to say, I suppose, that I am sorry, though why I cannot
- tell. I did not think about you when I consented to marry Arthur?
- Why should I? In our class of life we don’t think that a young
- man’s mother has any right to interfere. I never thought of you,
- therefore I maintain I have nothing to be sorry for about you. I
- have enough to do to please my own father and mother; why should
- not he manage his as I did mine?
-
- “And since we were married, what did I owe to you? You never did
- anything for me. You wrote to him, or you made Miss Lucy write to
- him on our wedding-day, and never once named me. You knew I would
- be his wife before he got it, but you never named me. Was that a
- way to make me wish to please you? And the best I could do was
- never to think of you at all. Was not that as good as putting him
- against me, never to mention my name on my wedding day? And why
- should I write to you now? You are old, and I am young. You ought
- to be the one to come and to say you are sorry. I am your son’s
- wife; therefore, I am as good as you are, whatever I may have been
- before; and I was an honest girl before, and as good as anybody.
- Why didn’t you come then, and make up to _me_? It is old people who
- ought to show an example to the young, not young people to the old.
-
- “Now that I have said this, I will just warn you that if you try to
- make Arthur think badly of me, to separate him from me (which you
- can’t do, however you may try), that I will keep him separate from
- you. If you are fond of him, you will have to be civil to me, you
- and Miss Lucy, grand ladies though you are. You think me no better
- than the dirt below your feet; but if you do not treat me as I
- ought to be treated, I will keep Arthur from you, so that you shall
- never see him again. I have the power to do it, not like you, who
- have no power. He can do without his mother, but he can’t do
- without me. I think it is honest to tell you this, because he
- insisted I was to write to you--I shouldn’t have written to you of
- myself--and because I mean to come back home to England and settle
- at Underhayes, to be near my people, who have always been (not
- like you) kind to him as well as to me. So that now, my lady, you
- know exactly what I mean, you and Miss Lucy, and what I will do.
-
- “ANNA FRANCES CURTIS.”
-
-Lady Curtis was flushed and agitated; her eyes blazed hotly over her
-crimson cheeks.
-
-“Was ever anyone so insolent?” she said, and bit her lip to keep from
-crying, altogether overwhelmed by the unexpected insult.
-
-“Oh, mamma, the girl does not mean it!” cried Lucy, distressed, trying
-to take the letter. It was bad enough to read it once, but to read it as
-she knew her mother would do, over and over again, feeling the enormity
-ever greater, would be terrible. Lucy put out her hand for it, to take
-it away.
-
-“I will not give it you, Lucy. I know what you mean to do; to put it in
-the fire that I may forget it, and think it is not half so bad.”
-
-“No, mamma; but why should you dwell upon it? She wrote it hastily.
-See, there is haste in every line; but we will read it at leisure, and
-go over it again and again. She is so uninstructed, so inexperienced;
-and there is a kind of savage justice in it, if you will but think,
-mamma.”
-
-“How dare you say so?” cried Lady Curtis, in whose mind the immediate
-pain and hurt received were too violent to be thus smoothed away, and
-who was as little able for the moment to inquire into the absolute
-justice of the matter as Nancy herself. The tears began to glisten in
-her eyes, tears of genuine suffering. “This is what our children bring
-us,” she said; “they for whom we are ready to make any
-sacrifice--insult, the flaunting in our face of some poor creature,
-surely, surely not worth as much as his mother was to him, Lucy; not
-worth you--_you_, my child; of that I may be sure at least; and his
-home, and all that was worth having in life--”
-
-And some scalding drops fell on her hands in a hot and sudden shower.
-Tears do not last at Lady Curtis’ age; they cost too much; only a sharp
-stab like this could bring them, hasty and unwilling, from her eyes.
-
-“I know it is hard, very hard; but, mamma--”
-
-Lucy was interrupted by the sound of her father’s heavy step approaching
-the room. He threw the door open and came in hastily. He, too, had a
-letter in his hand, and held it out to his wife as he came forward.
-
-“He has written at last,” he said. “It is a fine thing to have waited so
-long for. Look, Elizabeth, if you can read it, what your boy says.”
-
-Lady Curtis took the letter, looking anxiously at her husband’s face to
-read its effect. And then Lucy and she read it as they had read the
-other, the girl over her mother’s shoulder. The very sight of Arthur’s
-handwriting moved them. He had written a few words to Lucy to thank her
-for the money and the blessing conveyed to him on his wedding day; but
-except these few warm words they had not heard from him since that
-painful violent letter which Lady Curtis had received after the visit
-of Mr. Rolt, the family lawyer, to Underhayes. And that had given the
-ladies so much pain that the very sight of the dear and familiar
-handwriting brought it back. Sir John went to the fire as was his way,
-and set himself up against the mantel-piece, turning towards them the
-dullness of his long melancholy countenance, which showed little change
-of expression one way or another. His heavy repose, not unclouded with
-trouble, contrasted sharply with the eager and anxious looks of his wife
-and daughter already disturbed and excited. They read, breathless with
-anxiety and haste, flying over the paper, taking in its meaning almost
-at a glance in a way which was wonderful to him. He shook his head
-slightly as he saw this rapid process; it was impossible they could
-understand it, he said to himself; even Arthur’s letter! skimmed over
-with feminine want of thoroughness in anything, as if it had been a
-book.
-
-Arthur’s letter, so far as external forms went, was dutiful enough.
-
- “My dear father,
-
- “You may think that I ought to say something about the long break
- in my letters, and I am aware that it would not be without reason;
- but what am I to say? My marriage was really a thing which
- concerned me most. I would have been ready to make any apologies
- for the indiscretions with which it was accompanied, and for the
- fundamental mistake of not having explained my wishes and
- intentions to you from the first. But that is too late now, and you
- must permit me to say that the strange step you yourself took in
- sending Rolt to Underhayes to interfere in my business, justifies
- the silence in which I have taken refuge since, as being more
- respectful to you than anything I can say. I trust and desire to
- believe that the extraordinary proposals made by him did not
- emanate from you; nothing indeed but the mind of a pettifogging
- attorney could have suggested such means of endeavouring to outwit
- and frustrate an honourable attachment. I can never meet with
- civility the originator of these proposals, and it is a desire to
- say nothing on the subject which has kept me silent even to you.
-
- “I now write about a serious matter which it is necessary to call
- your attention to. The allowance which was ample for me at Oxford,
- or when I was in another condition of life, is naturally quite
- inadequate to the expenses of a married man. My wife and I are
- about to return to England, and at her desire we will proceed at
- first to Underhayes, where her family reside. Our plans are not yet
- decided; but the first requisite for any arrangement is to know
- exactly by what degree you may be disposed to increase my income,
- in order that I may be able to provide for the increased expense to
- which I am now subject. We have been in Paris some weeks, and had
- it not been for the succour which my mother’s generosity provided
- me, I do not see how I could have afforded to my wife all that it
- was indispensable my wife and Sir John Curtis’s daughter-in-law
- should have. These of course are extraneous expenses; but I must
- request that you will kindly come to a decision about my present
- income with as little delay as possible. This is doubly important,
- as we shall thus only be able to make up our minds on what scale of
- living it will be proper for us to make our start.
-
- “My wife desires her respects to my mother, Lucy, and yourself.
-
-“Affectionately,
-“ARTHUR CURTIS.”
-
-“And this is all!” said Lady Curtis, throwing it on the table with a
-mixture of scorn and grief; “in so short a time how well she has tutored
-him. Oh don’t say anything, Lucy! I can see that girl’s hand in every
-word; and this is all!”
-
-“Surely it is all,” said Sir John, “you don’t think I would keep back
-anything, why should I? It’s all, and enough too, I think. A fellow like
-that whom we’ve all petted and spoiled, thinking of nothing but his
-allowance! It’s disappointing, that it certainly is. When one thinks
-that’s Arthur!” said his father, his lower lip quivering with unusual
-emotion, yet something that was intended for a smile.
-
-“Oh don’t make him out any worse than he is,” said Lady Curtis, “I can
-see that girl’s hand through all.”
-
-Now a more gratuitous assertion than this could not be. Arthur had
-written when away from Nancy altogether in the writing room of the
-English Club. She had known nothing about what he was doing, and still
-less did she know that he had made up his mind not to struggle with his
-fate any longer, but to let her go back to her congenial soil, which
-would secure at least no further encounters with people of his own
-class, even when met in the recent accidental way. He could not, he
-felt, risk anything like this again. He had not strength for it. It was
-better to yield to her than to wear himself out with such paltry
-miseries; but up to this moment even Nancy herself did not know of his
-decision. Lady Curtis however did not know this, nor did the despair in
-Arthur’s mind ever occur to her, or the state of severance between him
-and his wife which had really existed when these two letters were
-written. It seemed to her that they were full of one spirit, and that
-Nancy had got the entire command and put her own unregulated soul into
-her husband. Dear as he was to his mother, the bold figure of this girl
-whom she had never seen, seem to rise up and obliterate her son before
-Lady Curtis’s eyes--obliterate him intellectually and morally--so that
-all she saw was a shadow of Nancy, not the reality of Arthur. Sir John
-did not take this figurative view. He took what he saw for granted,
-exercising no spirit of divination. He was wounded not to sharp pain
-like his wife, but with a heavy sense of evil. This was all Arthur
-wanted, not to be his father’s right hand man, to help him (for,
-privately, Sir John was of opinion that he had a great deal to do) to
-become the real head of the estate, understanding everything as his
-father had wished; but only to have his allowance increased! that was
-all. It did not give Sir John a less pang in his matter of fact way than
-it did his wife, but this was the low level of interpretation by which
-he explained to himself the boy who had been his pride.
-
-As for Lucy, she read the two letters with a double distress, as seeming
-to see something in both of them which escaped her parents. She thought
-it was because she was young, and in sympathy with these two foolish,
-erring, unkind, young people, that she was able to read between the
-lines and see that they were not so unkind as they seemed. There was, as
-she had said, a kind of savage justice in Nancy’s letter from Nancy’s
-point of view, and insolent though it was, Lucy felt that she could
-understand it, and could excuse it though it was inexcusable. And as for
-Arthur’s cold interestedness and apparent indifference to everything,
-was not this only a sign of mortal pain, a proof that he felt himself in
-a position from which he could not recede, which he dared not discuss or
-enter into? “Oh,” she cried in the tumult of feeling which rose within
-her, “do not take it all for granted like this. Arthur is not what you
-think him, papa. He feels it, oh, I know he feels it to the bottom of
-his heart; but how can he discuss it, how can he open such a subject
-with us? She is his wife, and she knows what we think of her.”
-
-“Oh, Lucy, hold your peace,” cried Lady Curtis, whose heart was wrung to
-breaking, “what is the use of this casuistry, as if you knew him better
-than we do. No, I cannot shut my eyes to the truth whatever you may do;
-this boy for whom we have done so much, whom we have brought up so
-carefully, finds something more congenial in low society than in ours.
-It is unworthy of us to groan over such a preference. See, he avows it.
-He is going back to that wretched place, to the society of his wife’s
-relations. We ought to be proud,” said Lady Curtis with her eyes
-flashing, with a miserable make believe of a smile on her lips, “that is
-what he likes best, _my_ boy!”
-
-“Oh, mamma, don’t be so hard upon him.”
-
-“So hard, am I hard? upon Arthur! God help me! I wish I could be a
-little harder; I wish I could think as little of him as he does of me
-or of what I feel,” cried Lady Curtis with a moan in her broken voice.
-Sir John did not show so much emotion. He stood gazing dully before him,
-not even looking at them, his eyes fixed upon vacancy; but many thoughts
-were revolving dully in his oppressed spirit too.
-
-“Now that he has written to me like this, he shall be attended to,” said
-Sir John, “since he wants nothing but money, he shall have his money,
-and I will wash my hands of him. People do not spend a great deal in
-that rank of life do they? If that is how he is going to live, he must
-be provided for accordingly. I will speak to Rolt about it to-morrow.
-You see how he speaks of poor Rolt, a most meritorious man, that has no
-thought except our interest. And if it had not been that Arthur got hold
-of it before he ought to have known, Rolt would have bought the girl off
-and freed us. Ah, yes--Rolt is the best man of business, and the most
-considerate family friend I know.”
-
-“But it was a dreadful thing to do; to buy her off! If you will think of
-it, papa, and think who she was, the girl whom Arthur _loved_. It does
-not matter,” cried Lucy with generous heat, “that we do not like her or
-approve of her. Arthur loved her; and this girl whom he loved so much,
-whom he thought more of than any one in the world, to be bought off!”
-
-“Ay, that’s it,” said Sir John, “it would have all gone on smoothly if
-he had not broke in with his high flown ideas just like you; the thing
-would have been done but for that; and he would have been clear of her.
-But now that it’s come to this he shall have what he wants, and he shall
-have what he’s entitled to. I will see Rolt to-morrow,” said Sir John,
-never changing the dull fixedness of his eyes.
-
-And it may be supposed that the remainder of the evening was not very
-cheerful. Lady Curtis locked both the letters up in a drawer of her
-writing-table. “It is a pity they should be separated, these two,” she
-said with that quivering smile of scorn which is so bitter, more
-painful than weeping. Yes, this was what all their hopes had come to.
-Arthur her boy, had chosen his own path, and this was what it was,
-nothing in which his father or mother had any share. What he liked
-better was the coarse girl who had married him for all the advantages he
-brought in his hand, and who had infatuated him, and made him such a one
-as herself. The sense of failure was in Lady Curtis’s mind, the pang of
-feeling that something inferior had been preferred to her, and to all
-that was worthy, by her boy. Can anything be more terrible than when
-father or mother is driven to despise the child of their bosoms? It
-happens often enough, and there is no such pang on earth. With trembling
-hands and this miserable quiver of a smile on her lip, she locked them
-away. Now surely it was time that they should rouse themselves, shake
-off the dull misery for Arthur’s loss which had paralysed the house, and
-brood no more over the desertion of one so unworthy their love.
-
-“We have enough of this,” she said, “come, Lucy! I do not mean that your
-life should be spent in sackcloth because Arthur is unworthy. Because he
-is hobnobbing with the tax-collector, are there to be no cakes and ale
-in Oakley? We will send our invitations to-morrow,” she said with a
-mocking little laugh of pain. Sir John opened his eyes a little at the
-levity of this unintelligible phrase about cakes and ale. But he had
-long ceased to criticise my lady whatever she might do or say. She had
-odd ways of expressing herself sometimes, but she was always to be
-trusted in the main points.
-
-“I shall speak to Rolt to-morrow,” he said for his part, which was more
-reasonable, as he went back to his room and resumed his Blue book. And
-he read till his usual hour, and lighted his candle exactly at the same
-moment as every other night, though his heart was heavy in his bosom
-like a lump of lead, not warming his blood as it ought to do. The ladies
-were not so reasonable, I need not say. They sat over the fire till it
-died out between them, neither of them remarking the blackness, or
-being aware that the cold they felt had anything to do with the external
-circumstances--talking it over and over, arguing, fighting even: Lucy
-taking the side of defense, while her mother darted arrows of bitter
-words at Arthur and the girl who had got such empire over him. Men do
-not make their miseries subjects of endless discussion like this,
-perhaps because two men are scarcely ever so much like the two halves of
-one soul as mother and daughter are; nor could any brother and father
-throw themselves wholly into such a question as the sister could do with
-the mother. Lucy fought for him, condemned him, justified him, all in a
-breath; and cried and struggled and held up Arthur’s standard even while
-she threw herself with passionate sympathy into the proud and sore
-disappointment of the mother whose hopes had been thus deceived. They
-were still there over the dead fire in full tide when the solemn little
-stroke of one startled them, and drove them to their rooms, chilled and
-miserable. How dark it was outside, the rain falling, the last leaves
-dropping, in the middle of the December night! It added a shivering of
-physical sympathy to eyes exhausted with crying and voices exhausted
-with talking over this ever expanding subject. Every thought and plan of
-the house had borne reference to Arthur for how many years; and this was
-how he dropped them, turned from them, threw himself upon the lower and
-baser elements of life.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IX.
-
-
-According to Lady Curtis’s hasty resolution, the invitations, to some at
-least, of the ordinary Christmas party were for an earlier date than
-usual. The climax of the distress produced by Arthur had come, and
-though the struggle was hard to pick up the ordinary occupations of life
-again, and go on as if nothing had happened, at a time when Arthur’s
-absence was so doubly felt and apparent, the impatient soul of his
-mother was better able to bear this variety of pain than the monotonous
-heaviness of the other, the dull presence of one thought that had been
-upon the house like bonds of iron. One of the first visitors who arrived
-was Durant, who had always been the first in Arthur’s time, next to the
-son of the house in familiarity and knowledge of everything and
-everybody about. Even during the miserable interval now passed, Durant’s
-letters had given a certain solace to Lady Curtis, as furnishing her
-always with something to talk of, something to discuss with Lucy, to
-whom she would point out freely the weakness of his arguments which were
-always in Arthur’s favour, and for which Arthur’s mother loved him, even
-while she took a delight in demonstrating their futility. Lucy had a
-long round to make among her poor people on the afternoon on which
-Durant was expected. She could not have told why it was that she chose
-that special day; perhaps because it was fine, a simple reason, quite
-satisfactory to the ordinary intelligence; perhaps because the
-association of ideas with him, whom she had not seen since he took her
-to Arthur’s wedding, was so painful that she was willing to postpone the
-meeting as long as possible; or perhaps she was desirous in Arthur’s
-interest that Lady Curtis should have her first conversation with his
-faithful friend undisturbed by any third person; or, perhaps, again Lucy
-had reasons of her own, into which none of us have any right to pry. She
-was for a long time at the almshouses, having started early to take
-advantage of the brightest part of the short winter day, and took her
-luncheon with Mrs. Rolt, the wife of the good agent, to whom the
-children at Oakley had been as her own since ever they were born. Mrs.
-Rolt had no children of her own, and she had as great a desire to talk
-about Arthur as his mother herself had. She plunged into the subject as
-soon as Lucy appeared, and there was nothing but sympathy and tenderness
-in the bosom of this simple-hearted retainer of the family, who was at
-the same time a far away cousin, and therefore on more familiar terms
-than are usually permitted to an agent’s wife. This visit detained Lucy
-also, so that it was four o’clock, and the red winter sunset just over
-when she started to walk up the long avenue. Durant had been expected by
-an earlier train at the station which was a mile or two off, so that
-Lucy felt herself safe. She set out upon her walk very full of a new
-incident which she had not previously heard of, the meeting between her
-aunt and her brother at Paris of which Mrs. Rolt had been informed by
-the Rector. “Why did not he tell us, or why did not Aunt Anthony write?”
-Lucy had said.
-
-“Oh, my pet, what could she write? I don’t suppose it was pleasant,”
-Mrs. Rolt said, “however angry you, may be with your own, you don’t like
-to hear them blamed by others; and Mrs. Anthony has sense enough to know
-that.”
-
-“Then why did she mention it at all?” said Lucy.
-
-“Oh, my love, that would have been more than flesh and blood is equal
-to. To have had an adventure like that, and not to have mentioned it at
-all! She said Mrs. Arthur behaved _dreadfully_ to her, abused her,
-turned her out of her rooms. But we must take all that with a great many
-grains of salt, for you know your Aunt Anthony, my dear.”
-
-“Yes, I know Aunt Anthony; but how dreadful it is that Arthur’s
-wife--fancy, _Arthur’s wife_!--should give anyone occasion to say that
-she behaved badly. You will not tell mamma?”
-
-“No, indeed, I promise you; and I daresay, if we could know it all, the
-half isn’t true. You mustn’t worry about it, my darling,” said Mrs.
-Rolt, kissing Lucy as she went away.
-
-The girl shook her head. Why should they tell her such things if they
-meant her not to worry? and yet she was feverishly glad that she had
-been told, as people are in respect to every such family misery. She
-went in at the great gates, with her cheek still flushed by the
-agitation of the news. To hear that a friend, a member of the family,
-had actually met and spoken with Nancy, seemed to bring her nearer, to
-make her more real. And perhaps there was a personal advantage in this
-thrill of renewed agitation about Arthur, which replaced for the moment
-some of her own thoughts. For lo! it so occurred that all Lucy’s
-precautions had been futile. She had not walked half-a-dozen yards when
-she heard behind her the rattle of the dogcart swinging round the corner
-to the gate, that had been sent for Durant to the station; and before
-she had time to collect her thoughts, it drew up suddenly just behind
-her, and Durant himself sprung out of it, and in a moment was at her
-side. The dogcart went on with his portmanteau, and she felt herself
-exactly in the circumstances she had so elaborately avoided, bound,
-without chance of escape, to a long solitary walk through the still
-avenue, and a long confidential talk before he had seen anyone else,
-with her brother’s friend.
-
-“Yes, the train was late; there was some slight accident on the line, at
-which I have been fuming and fretting. But, as it happens, it has been a
-lucky detention,” said Durant.
-
-Lucy took no notice, not even so much as by a smile.
-
-“You said you were very busy.”
-
-“Yes, I am getting plenty of work to do; not very distinguished work as
-yet, but I hope better may come.”
-
-“Your leading counsel will fall ill some day, and it will be a very
-interesting, romantic case, and you will be inspired to make the most
-eloquent speech, and your fortune will be made.”
-
-“I see you know how such things happen,” he said with a laugh.
-
-“Oh, yes, I have read a great many novels,” said Lucy. “That is always
-how young barristers get on; and between that and the woolsack is but a
-step.”
-
-“A very long stride, I fear; but I do not insist on the woolsack,” said
-Durant; and then there was a pause, and he said lower, “I saw Arthur a
-few days ago.”
-
-“Did you see him? Oh, Mr. Durant, you must not mind what mamma says. She
-has begun to jeer at him, and that is the worst of all. How was he
-looking? Poor Arthur, poor boy! And his wife--did you see her? Oh, I
-have been hearing such a story of her!”
-
-“What story?” he asked anxiously.
-
-_He_ had heard many; but on the whole he was no enemy to Nancy. He saw
-the glimmer of tears in Lucy’s eyes, and this did much to steel his
-heart against Arthur’s wife; but still he had no feeling against Nancy.
-He was ready even, more or less, to stand up in her defence.
-
-“My aunt, it appears, saw her in Paris, Mr. Durant.”
-
-“Oh, it is Mrs. Curtis’s story then?” he said.
-
-“You speak as if there were a great many stories about her,” said Lucy,
-with sudden heat.
-
-“No; but one hears everything, you know, in town--especially, I think,
-at this time of the year, when there are few men about, and they talk of
-everything.”
-
-“Yes,” said Lucy, “I have heard often of the gossip in your clubs, that
-it is worse and more unkind than any other gossip.”
-
-“Do not be too hard upon us! It is as petty and miserable as gossip is
-everywhere. But I have seen Mrs. Curtis, and heard it from herself. It
-is nothing, a misunderstanding between women--”
-
-“Which, of course, you consider the merest trifle,” cried Lucy, much
-more piqued by this countershot than he had been by the assault on the
-clubs. Women are certainly on this point more ready to take offence than
-men, who have the calm confidence of their own superiority to fall back
-upon.
-
-“I do not, indeed; but the women in question are not of the highest
-order. Mrs. Curtis most likely was fussy and interfering; and Nancy--”
-
-“Do you call her Nancy?” cried Lucy, opening wide eyes.
-
-“I beg your pardon. I got used to the name before she was Mrs. Arthur;
-and there is such a wonderful incongruity in the idea that she is Mrs.
-Arthur,” he said, doing his best to conciliate by this remark; but this
-slip of the name had evidently had a bad effect, he could not tell why.
-He thought that Lucy (in whom he had never before seen any indication of
-such foolish family pride) was offended by such a familiarity; and yet
-what could he say to excuse it? “Mrs. Curtis was intrusive, probably,”
-he went on, “and Mrs. Arthur resented it.”
-
-“Oh, do not change the name you are accustomed to for me, Mr. Durant!”
-
-“I am not accustomed to it,” he answered meekly, feeling that something
-was wrong, but not knowing what it was. “She resented it, I suppose. I
-do not wish to be disagreeable, but you know that a lady like Mrs.
-Curtis can be very officious and interfering; and _she_ resented it, I
-suppose.”
-
-Poor Durant! if he thought he was mending matters by calling Arthur’s
-wife _she_, with that little emphasis, how mistaken he was! Lucy’s heart
-was conscious of a thrill and jar, such as one’s foot or hand might
-experience if suddenly striking against some sharp angle in the dark.
-She had no right to feel so unreasonably offended with Durant, so
-unreasonably disdainful of Arthur’s wife. Lucy was angry with herself
-for the force of her sentiments, which seemed so utterly out of
-proportion with the matter on hand. She thought it more dignified and
-befitting to retire from any further question of it. But her aspect
-changed unawares, her very form grew stiffer and more erect, and she
-said, icily, “You said you saw Arthur. Is he looking better than when
-we saw him last?”
-
-“No,” said Durant, hesitating; “I am not able to say that he is. I hope
-Lady Curtis will not ask me that question.”
-
-“Oh!” said Lucy, the tears springing to her eyes, “do you think I am not
-as anxious about my only brother--as concerned as mamma?”
-
-“Indeed I do not mean anything of the kind; but I can speak to you more
-freely. _You_ understand; you always did understand, Miss Curtis,” he
-said, looking at her with a tender admiration which stole the hardness
-from Lucy’s heart in spite of herself. “I do not know how it was. It is
-so natural that Lady Curtis--that all his family should see the folly
-and the unkindness of it most. But you always saw the whole--and
-understood.”
-
-“I never excused Arthur, Mr. Durant. No one could know the evil of what
-he has done--the pain it has produced so well as I.”
-
-“I know,” he said softly, “all the more honour to your delicate heart
-that understood. I beg your pardon--I was only speaking by way of
-explanation. I can speak to you as I cannot speak--to any one else.
-Arthur is not looking well, poor fellow--he is harassed and worried to
-death. All the glamour has gone out of his eyes, and he sees his wife’s
-family now as other people see them, as very common-place, sordid,
-uneducated people, with whom, or with their like, he has no affinity. I
-would not say even that he did not see this more deeply than--I do, for
-instance, who am quite indifferent. To me they seem good sort of people
-enough--in their way. But Arthur has the horror of feeling that they
-belong to him more or less--and that he is called upon to associate with
-them.”
-
-“Poor boy! oh, poor boy! and he was always so fastidious! But that is
-nothing, Mr. Durant--they do _not_ belong to him. He can shake them off
-whenever he likes; but her--what of her? She is the chief person to be
-thought of,” said Lucy, with a sigh that it should be so.
-
-“This is precisely the thing which I can say to you, and to no other,”
-said Durant. “She is not the same as they are. If you could fancy one of
-the stories of a stolen child--that was always different, always
-superior to the children of the people who brought it up--”
-
-“Superior--Aunt Anthony’s story does not sound much like superiority! I
-think you are influenced, as they say gentlemen always are, by her good
-looks, and that is why you make an exception in favour of--my
-sister-in-law,” said Lucy, with a sound in those words such as Durant
-had never heard before from her lips. He looked at her in the growing
-twilight with wonder and pain. Was his certainty of _her_ superiority to
-every other person concerned, about to turn out vain? It was almost
-dark, and he could not make out the expression of Lucy’s face; and of
-all things in the world the last that could have occurred to the young
-man was any thing to account for this, which should have been flattering
-to himself.
-
-When he spoke again, there was some distress in his voice, and a half
-tone of complaint, “I thought I might venture on saying this to
-_you_--I thought you would understand; the facts are all against her. I
-believe she has managed very badly; and allowed everybody to see her
-want of cultivation--her strange--ignorance. Nevertheless,” he said
-earnestly, “I do not despair of Nancy. As for her good looks, they count
-for very little with me. What effect they may have on idle and
-unoccupied minds, I cannot pretend to say; but for a man like myself
-with a busy life and a pre-occupied imagination--”
-
-“Oh, I beg your pardon, Mr. Durant,” cried Lucy, “I did not wish to pry
-into your secrets.”
-
-She would not have said it had she taken time to think. What folly to
-let him know that she understood that enigmatical phrase about the
-pre-occupied imagination! Lucy went on, quickening her pace, feeling the
-glow of a sudden blush run all over her in the gathering dark. And the
-silence seemed to thrill about them with all manner of possibilities of
-what might be said next. They were as much alone as if they had been in
-a desert island--bare trees standing closely about, the twilight all
-grey among the branches, the whole world still and listening. The thrill
-came to Lucy too, a kind of visionary tremor.
-
-“Mamma will be looking out for you,” she said, hurriedly. “She will
-scold me for keeping you so long walking, when you might have been there
-in the dogcart half an hour ago;” and she sensibly quickened her own
-pace.
-
-But Durant did not share in that thrill. It affected him only with a
-contrary touch of despondency. Lucy’s fright lest he should go on to
-tell her who it was who had pre-occupied his imagination (could she
-entertain any doubt who it was?) reflected itself in his melancholy
-sense that he dared not tell her any more. He dared not because he was
-poor, he who, even if he had been rich, would not have been thought her
-equal by anyone belonging to her; and because he was her father’s guest,
-and incapable of betraying his hospitality by a word to his daughter
-which Sir John would not have permitted. Thus that suggestion of
-self-disclosure ended in a blank silence which neither would break. He,
-too, quickened his steps to keep up with her, and in a few minutes they
-reached the house, which rayed out light into the darkness from the open
-door and windows. It seemed all bright, all open, full of hospitable
-warmth and radiance. When Durant had come here before, he had come with
-Arthur, and there had been a rush of mother and sister to the door to
-meet the heir of everything, the first thought and hope of all within
-these walls. Durant had been half-saddened many a time by that warm and
-exuberant welcome which Arthur always received. He himself had been
-received kindly too, but with what a difference! and as there was no
-particular enthusiasm about him in his own home, notwithstanding the
-fact that his family were indebted to him for everything, he had never
-been able to divest himself of a certain envy for Arthur. But he was a
-thousand times more saddened now to go up the great steps into the hall,
-and see no mother hurrying out to receive her son, no Arthur coming
-with cheerful outcry, nothing but himself stealing in softly, half
-ashamed of being there without Arthur, half afraid to look at Lucy, who
-must feel it too, he felt. He did not know how to go on and meet Lady
-Curtis’s eyes. He felt sure they must meet him with a reproach. “Where
-is Arthur?” he felt the very house say to him; and almost wished that he
-had been guilty, that he could have taken their reproaches to himself,
-and answered for his friend’s sake, “It is my fault.” He paused in the
-hall, and looked round wistfully at Lucy. Her eyes were wet, her lips
-faltering. She held out that hand to him.
-
-“I know,” she said; “but when we have got over the first, it will be
-almost as if he had come too.”
-
-“Almost!” he said shaking his head. He felt his eyes grow wet, and held
-her hand almost without knowing that he held it. Lady Curtis had heard
-the movement in the hall, though she had been trying not to hear it, and
-the shock had been broken to her by the arrival of the dogcart which
-she thought was bringing him. She came out now hiding her agitation with
-a smile, and held out her hands. Neither of them could speak. But when
-they got into that room which had seen so many happy meetings, it was
-too much for Arthur’s mother. She took hold of his arm convulsively with
-both her hands, and leaned her weight upon his shoulder and cried, “Oh,
-my boy!” through the sobs which she could not suppress. Durant was
-overcome at once by the emotion and the confidence. He stooped down with
-tender reverence and kissed her cheek.
-
-“He is all the brother I have ever known,” he said.
-
-“Yes, Lewis, yes, I know; God bless you! you have always been on
-Arthur’s side.”
-
-Lucy stood by with strange currents of thought going through her mind,
-dimly understanding the man who was not her lover, but whose imagination
-was pre-occupied past being touched by any one else--yet tempted
-grievously to misunderstand him, and wondering with a latent pain just
-ready to come into being, whether this was one of the common mockeries
-of fate which made her mother receive him thus almost as a son, at the
-very time when he had ceased to entertain that sentiment which might
-have made a true son of him? Strange are the vagaries of young minds at
-this doubtful period, when everything is undisclosed and uncertain. She
-had entertained no doubt as to who it was who occupied his imagination
-when he had said those words. Did she really entertain a doubt now? or
-was she fostering such a thing into being--trying to make herself
-believe it? it would be hard to say. She stood by wondering, feeling in
-herself all the germs of doubt, and that inclination to nurse and
-develope them, and make herself unhappy which most of us have felt; all
-this, however, tempered by a curious thrill of pleasure to hear what
-Lady Curtis said. Lewis! they had called him Lewis Durant among themself
-for years, as (she felt no doubt) he had called her Lucy; but the name
-had never been employed before by anyone but Arthur. This was a leap
-unspeakable in intimacy. Lady Curtis had adopted him, so to speak, by
-thus involuntary casting herself upon him, and the sudden use of his
-name. But what did _he_ think? was it Arthur only that was in his mind?
-
-Lucy drew her mother’s chair to the fire, and pulled off her own thick
-outdoor jacket. There was tea on the table ready to be poured out, and
-the soft lamplight and warm glow of the fire brought out all the
-prettiness of the room, with its gay tints and gleams of gold. What had
-trouble to do in that cheerful place, amid those artificial graces which
-had become natural and kindly by use and wont? The stir of her
-daughter’s movements brought Lady Curtis to herself. They sat down round
-the fire as if the new comer had been another son, and talked of Arthur.
-It was almost as endless, almost as engrossing a talk as when the mother
-and sister sat alone together, and felt as if they could never cease.
-But by and by Sir John came in for his cup of tea, and asked how it was
-the train was so late, and all the particulars of the journey. Sir John
-himself had delayed half an hour beyond his usual time in coming for his
-tea. He had felt Durant’s arrival too.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER X.
-
-
-The next day the ordinary guests began to arrive at Oakley. They were
-not of a very lively character. With an instinctive sense of the
-difference, which the family were scarcely conscious of, changes had
-been made in the list of visitors which would have been got together in
-Arthur’s time. Scarcely any young men were of the party. When there is
-not a young man in the house what use in asking young men? unless it had
-been in a matrimonial point of view for Lucy’s sake, an idea which not
-only Lucy but her mother regarded (in the latter case injudiciously, it
-ought to be said) with scorn. Sir John had given up hunting long ago,
-and if he made a serious shot once or twice in a season, it was more
-upon the principle which makes an old king open a ball than any more
-active personal liking for the sport. The party accordingly consisted in
-great part of his contemporaries, some in Parliament, some in the law,
-chiefly belonging to the learned professions. There was a judge, and
-there was the head of a college, and for a few days there was a bishop;
-but as this latter functionary was the most sportive member of the
-party, he could not be counted as adding to its solemnity; and these
-magnates of course did not stay long. And then there was the Master of
-the Hounds who was more solemn; and there were the wives of these
-gentlemen, and in some cases their daughters, and a stray man or two of
-the order of those who know everybody and have been everywhere, and have
-done a little of everything, without getting more than a general
-reputation for themselves, and without giving any very clear indications
-to the world where they sprang from or to whom they belonged. There were
-also a few ladies of the same species, but whose families and
-antecedents were unimpeachable. It was Lady Curtis who abhored dullness,
-who had added these. Sir John liked the dullness, and did not object to
-having a lady next to him who dined well and said little. In spite of
-Lady Curtis’s efforts, however, the party was dull. It was perhaps too
-elderly and too serious. Well conducted married people are dull in
-society. They are not sufficiently interested in each other to exert
-themselves for each other’s amusement, and there can be little doubt
-that as a source of diversion and interest to their fellow creatures, a
-couple of naughty persons bent on flirtation and ill-behaviour make a
-better recompense to their entertainers. This element was sadly wanting
-at Oakley; there was no little drama to watch, legitimate genteel comedy
-ripening towards marriage and all the domestic joys, or more
-reprehensible episode tending the other way, such as often proves more
-exciting still to the jaded appetite of society. And it can scarcely be
-wondered at, if in the absence of other fun this respectable assembly
-threw itself on the affairs of the family. There was a great deal of
-conversation in corners about Arthur’s marriage. The Bates family were
-too low down in the world to have even reached the level of gossip, and
-except that he had made a very foolish marriage, a _mésalliance_ in
-every sense of the word, no one knew anything further, except one lady
-was acquainted with Mrs. Anthony Curtis, and had received from her a
-vague account of her meeting with Nancy. This lady had formed an idea,
-quite erroneous as it happened, yet an idea, of Arthur’s wife, which was
-a point not attained to by anybody else in the house. She thought (as
-seemed so natural) that Nancy must have been an actress in a minor
-theatre, a nameless _figurante_, one of the class who are supposed to
-enthral well-born young men, and who, wonder of wonders, do so, to the
-everlasting astonishment of the world, notwithstanding all its theories
-on the subject. But it did not enter into anybody’s mind to suppose that
-the girl whom Arthur had married had not the advantage of being wicked
-and shameless. The lady who knew the story whispered it to others when
-none of the family were present. “Turned her out of her rooms, I assure
-you, my dear,” she said; “they were in the best rooms of a most
-expensive hotel, I need not say. Such people never spare any expense.”
-
-“A girl from a theatre!--but what theatre? There are such differences;
-that means anything, from a lady to a dressing-girl.”
-
-“She was not a lady, at least; that is the only one thing that is
-certain. She was a--” Here the teller of the tale stopped abruptly,
-adding in a louder tone, “I know only one lady on the stage, but she is
-enough to justify any amount of raving. Mrs. Kenworthy--don’t you
-know--you must have seen her.”
-
-It need not be added that it was one of Lady Curtis’s friends, a
-middle-aged person who knew everybody, who spoke, and that the sudden
-break was owing to the entrance of Lucy, who came in unsuspicious, and
-caught them in the middle of their talk.
-
-“Oh, yes, I have seen her,” said another, faltering, while the other
-members of the party broke up suspiciously, and began to talk to each
-other with great earnestness. Lucy had thought no evil when she came in,
-to see all the heads together, but this breaking up and evident desire
-to conceal the subject of discussion roused her. These were the sort of
-conversations that went on through the hospitable house. When Sir John
-was alone for a few minutes with the Judge, who had been the friend of
-his youth, that learned functionary took him by the buttonhole, and
-said, “What’s this, what’s this, Curtis, I hear about your son?” They
-talked of it under Lady Curtis’s eye in the drawing-room as they sipped
-their tea. Poor Arthur had been cast off by his family, they said; he
-must have been living a bad life before, or he could never have been
-thrown in the way of such a person, and never could have married her.
-Had he married her? that was the next question. Or was it not
-altogether disreputable, the connection itself and everything about it?
-So they talked; and Lucy for once got to feel it in the air, and to lose
-her temper sometimes at the sense of this strange mass of secret
-criticism of which her family was the object. She made an assault upon
-her cousin, the Rector, in the midst of it with nervous vehemence. He
-had been talking to Miss Wilton, the lady who had rushed into a
-description of Mrs. Kenworthy, when Lucy came into the room that morning
-and interrupted more important talk. Lucy, watching, had perceived that
-Bertie had held back while the other had been pressing questions upon
-him, and that after the interview Miss Wilton had hurried to a pair of
-expecting friends, and communicated to them the information which she
-had acquired. Miss Curtis called her cousin to her with a somewhat
-imperious gesture, a gesture, however, which he was very willing to
-obey.
-
-Hubert Curtis had not found himself, so far, any the better for the
-misfortune which had happened to Arthur. He was not taken more into
-favour at the Hall, nor did Lucy incline more to his society than when
-her brother was at Oakley. He had not gained any ground. However likely
-it might be that she would have a larger portion of the family goods,
-Bertie saw no probability that the advantage would in any way come to
-himself; he had almost, he thought, lost instead of gaining by Arthur’s
-absence. When Arthur was at home, he, as the nearest neighbour, the only
-man of anything near his own age close at hand, had a natural place at
-Oakley besides that derived from his relationship. But now what had he
-to do at the Hall? Lucy did not encourage him, certainly, in any
-devotion to her. Lady Curtis had an instinctive, half-jealous dislike to
-him, as she would have had probably to any young man whose sensible and
-correct behaviour was a standing reproach to Arthur. And Sir John could
-not be troubled by Bertie’s peace-making and desire to persuade him that
-all would eventually be well. Therefore he had suffered with Arthur,
-which was a thing he did not calculate upon; and it would be impossible
-to deny that his mother’s story about Arthur’s wife had given him a kind
-of grim satisfaction. If he were not bettered, at least others were the
-worse; he said, “poor Arthur!” with contemptuous content. If a man chose
-to make a fool of himself like that, it was only right that he should
-pay the penalty, and he had been unable to refrain from repeating his
-mother’s story to Mrs. Rolt, who was shocked and grieved, as Bertie,
-too, assumed to be. But he had not been guilty of the treachery of
-discussing it at the Hall. When Miss Wilton spoke to him, he had no
-desire to give her any further information, but answered as sparingly as
-possible. Of course it was now, when he really had been exercising a
-certain amount of virtue, that his punishment came.
-
-“Bertie,” said Lucy, as he came up to her, “I want to know why my aunt
-goes on spreading that story, and why you talk it over with everybody
-except mamma and me?”
-
-“What story?” But he did not attempt to deceive her further by
-pretending that he did not know.
-
-“We were the most interested,” said Lucy. “If you had told us it would
-have been natural, and perhaps kind; but why do you tell it to other
-people? What good could that do?”
-
-“What other people have I told it to?” he said. “I was questioned over
-there, but I made no reply, or at least as little as I could. I told
-Mrs. Rolt, and I beg your pardon for that. She was so anxious to know
-something, and I knew she was to be trusted. Don’t blame me, Lucy; I
-have not intended to be hard upon Arthur.”
-
-“Hard upon Arthur! I did not suppose so; he can fight his own battles,”
-said Lucy, raising her head with a look which was almost haughty. “But
-you are unkind to us. You are my cousin, our nearest relation, Bertie.
-You should not go about telling disagreeable stories. And then you are
-a--”
-
-“Go on,” he said; “recall me to my duties. I am a clergyman--was not
-that what you were about to say? and I ought not to be a gossip, going
-from house to house. I will not attempt to defend myself, Lucy. If that
-is my character, it is better I should say nothing; and certainly, if
-you think so, I cannot undertake to undeceive you. It is you who are
-unkind to me.”
-
-“I don’t think so. I did not mean to say so much as that,” said Lucy,
-abashed. “But oh, Bertie, why should you treat us so? Are not we, is not
-Arthur, your own flesh and blood.”
-
-“I am but too ready to acknowledge it, too glad to think of it,” he said
-with a sudden smile.
-
-And as Lucy had no difficulty in looking at him, no shyness about
-meeting his eyes, she could not help seeing the eagerness in them, and
-softening of unmistakeable sentiment. Altogether, apart from the fact
-that she would be very well off and an excellent match, he liked her as
-sincerely as was in him. Love, perhaps, is too strong a word; but he
-liked her, well enough to have wanted to marry her if she had only
-possessed a competence and nothing more, if she had not been in any
-exceptional position as the only obedient and dutiful child of the
-house. Whether his sentiment was of a robust enough kind to have made
-him seek Lucy had she been poor, is a different question; but it might
-even have been strong enough for this, perhaps, for all anyone could
-say.
-
-She was softened too. Lucy was not one of those _farouche_ young women
-who resent being loved. She was sorry that any such mistaken feeling
-should be in his mind, if it was in his mind; but all the same she was
-rather softened than hardened by the look of eager conciliatoriness and
-desire to please her, which was in his face.
-
-“Aunt Anthony might have told us herself. She need not have let other
-people know,” she said, shifting her ground, and in a gentler tone.
-
-But here he had a very good answer provided.
-
-“My mother is not here,” he said, quite gently, without a tinge of
-reproach. “She cannot either explain or defend herself.”
-
-What could Lucy say? She blushed crimson, deeply moved by the sting of
-this retort courteous.
-
-“I wished her to be here,” she said.
-
-“You always wish what is kind. I did not think it was you; but, Lucy,
-don’t you see--”
-
-At this moment Sir John came up, placing himself so that the
-conversation was interrupted. As the mantel-piece was not near enough to
-be leant upon, he leaned upon one of the marble consoles behind which a
-big glass rose to the ceiling, reflecting his figure and the faces of
-the two in front of him.
-
-“I have often noticed,” he said, “that when we have a mild rainy
-November, the cold is bitter in spring. Have you remarked that, Bertie?
-But, to be sure, you are not a country bird, you don’t know much about
-the weather; but you will learn, you will learn before you are my age.”
-
-“It seems a simple enough conclusion, and I don’t mind accepting it as
-part of my creed,” said the Rector with a laugh, in which, however,
-there was some surprise mixed, for he did not understand what motive
-his uncle could have in placing himself there to make this very
-unimportant remark.
-
-“They tell me the meet is to be here to-morrow,” said Sir John; “and
-some of the ladies are going to ride. I am very glad Lucy doesn’t hunt.
-You had better come up and make yourself useful, Bertie, now that
-there’s nobody in the house. I suppose you don’t ride now to speak of?
-Of course, there’s Durant; I don’t know what his fancy is. I never was a
-cross-country man myself. I was always fond of more serious pursuits.
-Your father now, my brother Tony, he was always fond of it--a sort of
-practical fellow. As for me, I always took a pleasure in more serious
-things.”
-
-“You were born for Parliament, Sir,” said the Rector, half with veiled
-satire, half with a disposition to please his uncle, who had been kind
-enough, and from whom more kindness yet might come.
-
-“Well, yes, perhaps you are right,” said Sir John; “that was more in my
-way; I always took an interest in public business. When I was a boy at
-Eton I used to read the debates as regularly as I do now--and I have
-never changed my principles or turned my coat, Bertie. That is something
-to say after thirty years of public life. I have never seen reason to
-modify my opinions as so many people do. One set of principles has been
-enough to guide me through life, and I cannot believe that any man wants
-more.”
-
-“It is a very happy state of mind, Sir,” said the Rector, wondering more
-and more why his uncle had elected him to hear the characteristics of
-his wisdom. Lucy had cleverly stolen away to do her duty by the other
-guests, and only Lady Curtis was aware of her husband’s real meaning.
-She smiled within herself at his simple device to separate Lucy from a
-man who might put in the pretensions of a lover. But when Lucy, after
-stealing away from her cousin’s side, was to be seen a little while
-after at Durant’s, then it was Lady Curtis’s turn to look serious, and
-she herself moved from her own chair when she saw them talking, with a
-lively sense of the same need for interference which had moved her
-husband. When Lady Curtis joined them their conversation was simple
-enough, nothing to alarm any parent; but yet she remained there talking
-with something of her old brightness, until Lucy had left that end of
-the room, too, in turn, and had gone to carry consolation to old Mrs.
-Nuttenden in the corner, who was slightly deaf, and not amusing--with
-her efforts to amuse whom, nobody interfered.
-
-Durant did not notice the gentle interference in the Rector’s case, but
-he felt it very distinctly in his own, and with a little pang said to
-himself, that he would give no occasion for this watchfulness, but would
-shorten his proposed stay as he had already intended to do. This was not
-because there was any failure of the kindness, even the affection with
-which he had been first received. Lady Curtis talked to him as she did
-to nobody else but Lucy, confided in him--called him Lewis, as she had
-done when he arrived, and discussed her son with him, with family
-freedom and trust, in a manner indeed which would have filled many young
-men with fond imaginations and made them feel themselves almost wooed.
-And Sir John was quite kind, though in a different way. He had always
-been slightly suspicious of Durant as one of those clever men who are
-never quite safe, and of whom you cannot be too sure what levelling and
-atheistical sentiments may accompany their intellectual gifts. One of my
-Lady’s sort of people, Sir John had always considered him, not a
-retainer of his own, but on the other side; yet because he was so
-associated with Arthur, Sir John’s heart had melted to him also. So that
-it was no failure of the most cordial welcome which made Durant feel it
-better to hasten away. He went to his room that night quite decided by
-the manner of the woman who called him by his Christian name, and looked
-at him with such motherly affection in her eyes. Was it Lady Curtis’s
-fault? He did not blame her. He said to himself, that had Lucy been his
-own sister, he would not have given her to a poor barrister without
-family, without connections, with burdens of his own upon his shoulders,
-and no honours to bestow. Why should he linger there? Now that Arthur
-was so far off from Oakley--now, above all, that Arthur was _married_,
-the most complete of severing influences, it was inevitable (he said)
-that his connection with Oakley must gradually drop off. They would not
-mean it--they would not wish it--yet it would come to pass; and why
-should he seek to prevent it? Was there not between them a great gulf
-fixed--that gulf which wealth might fill up, perhaps, which his old
-grandfather’s money might have thrown a golden bridge across, had it
-still existed; but which now gaped like the bottomless pit, and could
-never be crossed by any skill or effort of his. Should he stay only to
-impress this more and more upon himself? He made up his mind that very
-night.
-
-But that did not hinder him on the next day after these events, which
-was Sunday, from finding himself by Lucy’s side in one of the quiet
-moments of that quiet day. He was going off the next morning, and it
-chanced to him, unawares, to come into the Louis Quinze room in the
-interval between church and luncheon, which is a moment of general
-dispersion in which no one knows where any one is. Lucy was in the
-morning-room writing a letter, when Durant came in. He was very
-self-denying, yet when she stopped and laid down her pen, and said,
-“Come in, don’t go away!” he could not resist the invitation. He came in
-and stood near her, leaning upon the corner of the mantel-shelf close to
-one of those big rococo Cupids between whom Sir John was so fond of
-placing himself. And Lucy was a little eager, almost agitated, more
-resolute to talk to him than he was to talk to her. She said without any
-preface, “Are you really going away to-morrow? I was surprised--and I
-don’t seem to have seen you at all, or to have said half I had to say.”
-
-“I must go,” he said with a sigh, “for many reasons; and chiefly
-because--”
-
-“Because what? You do not think there is any change, Mr. Durant? You
-must not think there is any change: there is no one mamma trusts in so
-entirely as in you.”
-
-“I am very glad to think so,” he said, “and to believe that she would
-trust me if any thing occurred--if I was wanted.” Here he made a pause,
-and added in a low tone, “and you too?”
-
-“And I too! can you doubt it? I know,” said Lucy faltering, “that Arthur
-has no such true friend.”
-
-He made a little unconscious gesture with his hand. She knew exactly
-what it meant. It meant Arthur, always Arthur! never anything on his own
-account; always for the use that might be made of him. But this would
-have been very unreasonable had he put it into words, for it was
-precisely on this reason that he had claimed to be trusted, “if anything
-occurred--if he was wanted.” Very unreasonable and inconsistent; but
-then men are so.
-
-And what could she say? She could not take the initiative, and tell him
-that her interest in him, at least, was not all on account of Arthur.
-She made a tremulous pause, and then said, “Everything is so different
-this year. We have done nothing but talk to you of Arthur. The time
-seems gone in which we used to talk so freely--of, us all.”
-
-“Yes,” he said, “it is kind, very kind of you to use such words. What
-talks we have had here of--us all! before we had began to feel the
-differences between us.”
-
-“What differences?” she said eagerly. “Mr. Durant, I hope you are too
-generous to think that any outside differences--” Poor Lucy coloured and
-grew so eager, that her earnestness defeated its object, and she could
-not get the words out.
-
-“Not that,” he said, “not the loss of our money. I know no one here
-would think the less of me for that--perhaps the better,” he added with
-a smile, “as being just a poor man now, without any pretence of equality
-on account of wealth. I did not mean that; but rather the enlightenment
-that comes with years, and that shows to me how little I, being what I
-am, ever could be on the same footing with you.”
-
-“Mr. Durant, you are unkind--you _are_ ungenerous!”
-
-“Not so--not so; but I am older and a little wiser. And according to the
-custom of mortal things, this enlightenment comes just when it is most
-painful to me--most bitter to realise.”
-
-“I cannot hear you say so,” Lucy said, getting up trembling from her
-chair. “Difference--what difference? I know none. I never have been told
-of any.”
-
-And he looked at her all quivering with the desire to say more--to set
-open the doors of his heart, and show her herself in it, and all that
-was there. He looked at her, and shook his head sadly.
-
-“I have no right to say any more. I would be a poor creature if I said
-any more; but still it is so--and it is better for me to go away. You
-will not misunderstand me? That would be the cruellest of all.”
-
-“I think there is one thing more cruel,” said Lucy with an impulse which
-carried her away, and for which she could not forgive herself
-afterwards, “and that is to speak mysteries to your friends, and expect
-them to understand you, yet never tell them what you mean--that is the
-thing that is most cruel.”
-
-“Should I speak then, though it is hopeless--though it is almost
-dishonourable?” he cried excited and breathless. Lucy trembling, turned
-half, yet but half away.
-
-“Ah! you are here then! I have been looking for you,” said the voice of
-Lady Curtis at the door. “You are talking to Lucy who has a letter to
-write, and I have something to say to you, Lewis--come to me here.”
-
-Lucy had gone back to her writing before her mother stopped speaking;
-she did not even look at him again; but she said very low, “I think I
-understand,” as he passed her slowly to obey that call.
-
-And next morning he went away.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XI.
-
-
-After the crisis of that conversation with Mrs. Curtis, which was at the
-bottom of so much harm and mischief, Arthur and Nancy stopped
-quarrelling with each other. They had each done and said things which
-they were disposed to repent of--and felt the existence generally of a
-state of things which was alarming, which at their worst they could not
-see without feeling that it might be possible to go too far. The fact
-that Arthur had gone away without seeing her after her rudeness to his
-aunt, his absence for hours, his absolute silence on the subject when
-they met at dinner had produced a great effect upon Nancy. It had been
-on her lips all the evening through to introduce the subject, to excuse
-herself or defend herself according as might be most suitable at the
-moment. But Arthur gave her no occasion. He had the advantage of
-education over her, the habit of self-restraint, at least the sense that
-it was necessary on occasion to restrain himself, an elementary lesson
-which Nancy had not as yet arrived at. And the effect upon her was
-great. She, too, kept silent, though against her will. She shut up in
-her breast this subject which, if she had talked about it, would, no
-doubt, have inflamed her to double wrath. And she grew a little
-frightened of the husband whom hitherto she had played with as she
-would, but who now in his newborn reserve and stillness was more than
-she could manage. She was afraid of him for the moment. He was no longer
-in her power. A tremendous menace seemed to lurk in his silence; and the
-consequence was that they lived in much greater harmony for the next
-week, both a little alarmed and penitent, and afraid of taking another
-step in the wrong direction. At the end of that time Arthur made the
-discovery which Nancy had already suggested to him, that howsoever great
-might be his desire to go to Italy, his means would not permit it. They
-had been living in their charming little apartment for three weeks, they
-had used a carriage constantly, and all that a Paris hotel can furnish
-that was most agreeable to eye and palate, and there was nothing, or
-next to nothing left. Arthur had not realised this fact when he had
-written his letter to his father. He had written indeed more out of the
-painful determination within him to uphold his wife, even in the face of
-what she had done to his relatives, by yielding to her will about their
-future, than from any more reasonable motive. He knew very well how that
-story would fly, how it would get to the ears of his mother and Lucy,
-and how everybody who knew him would pity poor Arthur. This it was which
-made him suddenly abandon his opposition, and determine to do as she
-wished. At all hazards he would maintain her credit, whatever might be
-her treatment of him. They might make her out to be what they pleased,
-they might tell what stories they would--he could not he knew contest
-them, but at all events everybody should see that he at least upheld her
-in her way of acting, gave her his support through all. This generous,
-if perhaps foolish, resolution, which was full of that grieved and
-suffering love which can no longer deny the justice of the accusations
-against its beloved, had been come to before he knew the necessity of
-returning home; but that necessity made it less forced and unnatural.
-For the last week of their stay there was little attempt at amusement.
-Denham, who had found great satisfaction in watching the proceedings of
-the bride, and who had already made many circles merry by his
-descriptions of her husband’s anxious endeavours to interest her in what
-she saw and heard, and her own absolute ignorance and unconcealed
-_ennui_, was ever at hand to suggest something, and had indeed two or
-three plans of his own for sharing this charming spectacle with some of
-his friends, with a trust in Arthur’s simplicity, which might not have
-been justified by the event. There were two in particular to whom he had
-promised an introduction to his “delicious Englishwoman,” had the young
-pair accepted the box at the Odéon which he had offered them, and the
-mischievous attaché was much disappointed by the failure of his plans.
-They declined it, however, with one accord. Nancy had quite convinced
-herself that it was “no fun” going to plays when you did not understand
-a word, and Arthur, on his side, had become disgusted with everything
-public. How did he know that they might not meet some one else whom he
-should be obliged to introduce to his wife, and whom his wife would
-receive with the same amiability which she had shown to Mrs. Curtis? The
-Curtises were still in Paris, and he had himself held an agitating
-conference with his aunt and Mary; but they came no more to the Rue
-Rivoli. This opportunity of making friends had been turned into the
-easiest way of making enemies. He would make no more such essays.
-Accordingly they sat “at home,” in the pretty little room with the
-white walls and white curtains. Arthur could always write his
-letters--it was not many he had to write now, as his family
-correspondence was cut off, and he had dropped most of his friends, but
-still he kept up the phrase; he wrote his letters, while she sat by the
-fire, sometimes taking out and putting in frills or trimmings to her
-dresses, sometimes yawning over a newspaper; they talked to each other a
-little now and then, and yawned in the intervals; they had no books
-except a few Tauchnitz volumes, which saved them from a complete
-breakdown, and they went early to bed which seemed always a virtuous
-thing to do. Thus the days went by. They did not talk any longer about
-going “home,” but it was tacitly understood between them that they were
-going _back_. This was what they had got to call it. And the day was
-fixed, and the boxes packed, and all settled, with scarcely any further
-consultation. Life, however, had become very sober prose after the
-triumphant exultation of the beginning, when three weeks after their
-marriage they crossed the Channel again on an early morning, Nancy very
-ill, and Arthur dignified but pale, and arrived at London on a rainy
-December night, wet and miserable as anything could well be.
-
-Next day they went _back_. Arthur had taken rooms at the little inn
-which stood opposite Mr. Eagles’ house, looking on the green, where
-Durant had been lodged. But before they reached that place there was a
-greeting to be got through at the station, the whole Bates family, no
-less, having assembled to welcome their daughter. Nancy’s spirits had
-risen from the moment she had touched English soil. She had talked to
-everybody, guards, porters, the servants at the hotel, with exuberant
-satisfaction, notwithstanding the bad passage and its natural
-consequences.
-
-“Oh, what a blessing to be at home!” she said. “Oh, Arthur, isn’t it
-nice to be back? I feel as if I should like to hug everybody. How much
-nicer everything looks in England! One can have some tea or some beer,
-instead of always that sour wine; and sausage-rolls and Bath buns!”
-cried Nancy, looking at these appalling luxuries in the Dover
-refreshment-room with unfeigned delight. It had been on Arthur’s lips to
-cry out, “For heaven’s sake speak a little lower!” but he said to
-himself, what was the use? One or two people turned round and smiled.
-And she bought a Bath-bun notwithstanding her recent sufferings. It
-seemed to Nancy better than all the delicate _plats_ in the world. It
-was English, it was adapted to her native tastes and her usually fine
-digestion. Arthur hurried her away with the objectionable dainty in a
-little paper-bag in her hand.
-
-“We must give in to prejudices a little,” he said. “You know most people
-think there is nothing like French cookery.”
-
-“I would not give a nice plain English dinner--mother will have one for
-us to-morrow, I know--for all the little oddments they have in France,”
-said Nancy.
-
-When she was Nancy Bates she did not talk like this, nor eat Bath-buns
-out of paper bags. The fact of being Mrs. Arthur Curtis, with a fine
-gentleman, an unmistakeable “swell” for a husband, became again an
-exhilarating consciousness, and turned Nancy’s head a little as soon as
-she had got to England again; and how could she show her satisfaction so
-well as by that demonstrative indulgence of personal tastes, and
-ostentation of personal satisfaction which is the essence of vulgarity,
-yet may be the mere froth of ignorance and light-hearted confidence? All
-this was sufficiently trying to Arthur, especially when strangers heard
-these patriotic outbursts, and showed by their smiles, as they passed,
-their appreciation of her simplicity. But when they got to Underhayes
-station, where Mrs. Bates, Matilda, and Sarah Jane stood on the platform
-waiting, Arthur’s heart sank in his bosom. Why? If Nancy’s mother had
-been a duchess, she could not have done anything different. But Mrs.
-Bates, with her brown front, and the flowers in her bonnet, and Sarah
-Jane in the latest fashion, were too much for poor Arthur. He busied
-himself about the luggage, and wondered how it was, for all so many
-times as he had seen them before, that he had never seen them until now?
-And this was how he was to be surrounded for the rest of his life!
-Visions of his mother and Lucy came gliding before him as he saw Nancy’s
-boxes, so much larger and heavier now than when they went away, lifted
-out--his own people! with their light steps, their soft voices, the
-tender delight in their eyes. Mrs. Bates was probably as fond of her
-child as Lady Curtis was of Arthur; that she should show that fondness
-so differently was not her fault, but that of Providence which had
-settled her lot in life. He tried to say to himself that this was so,
-but it was hard. On the whole, the best thing was to look after the
-boxes until those welcomes and embraces were over, which all the town
-seemed to have come out to see. Some of Mr. Eagles’ “men” were among the
-passengers by the train. Arthur shrank among the luggage altogether to
-escape from their eyes.
-
-“Where is Arthur?” said Mrs. Bates. “I hope Arthur knows that you’re not
-going to be allowed to go off to an inn the first day you come back. To
-be sure, it’s tea, not dinner, as I suppose you’ve been accustomed to;
-but tea, with a nice roast chicken and sausages, which is as good as a
-dinner every day; and it’s all ready and waiting. Arthur! How long he is
-about the boxes to be sure. Shall we leave him to send them down to the
-‘Dragon,’ and you come along, my Nancy, with me?”
-
-“Arthur! Arthur!” cried Sarah Jane at the top of her voice, rushing
-towards him, “mother’s gone on with Nancy, and I’m to wait for you. You
-needn’t be so particular about the boxes, the porter will take them safe
-enough. And come along, do come along! Nancy’s gone on before with
-mother, and I’m quite hungry for my tea.”
-
-One of the “men” at Mr. Eagles’ turned round, hearing every word of this
-speech, and grinned, Arthur thought, in derision.
-
-“Don’t wait for me,” he said, faintly. “Go on, please, and I will
-follow. There are a great many things to be looked after, and I must see
-what sort of rooms they have given us. Go on, and never mind me.”
-
-“Oh, if you’re too fine to walk down Underhayes with your own
-sister-in-law!” cried Sarah Jane; and to Arthur’s great relief she took
-offence, and rushed after her mother and sisters, calling this time,
-“Nancy! Nancy! stop a bit, I’m coming.”
-
-The “man” lingered till she was gone, perhaps with a little pity for the
-bridegroom. He was a happy boy of twenty, working his eyes out for the
-Indian Civil examination, who had always been accustomed to think that
-his was rather a hard case, and that Curtis was a great “swell.”
-
-“How d’ye do, Curtis? Can I look after these things for you?” he said,
-coming up shyly. Arthur made haste to clear every sign of cloudy weather
-from his downcast face.
-
-“It is a bother looking after them,” he said; “my first try, you
-know--and one loses one’s temper. Still grinding hard, I suppose?”
-
-“Harder and harder! Eagles gets more mad every day. What lucky fellows
-some people are!” said the young man with a little sigh, as he nodded
-and turned away.
-
-Arthur felt himself echo the sigh. Was it he that was the lucky fellow?
-He had thought so too when he left Underhayes, carrying with him the
-bride for whom he had felt willing to relinquish all the world. This is
-an easy thing enough to say. To relinquish all the world, and carry
-one’s Nancy off into some flowery Eden where nobody could intermeddle
-with one’s bliss--ah, yes; but the Bates family! They, it was evident
-would not permit themselves to be relinquished like all the world.
-Arthur walked at his leisure, glad to defer the moment of reunion, down
-to the inn, and saw his rooms and deposited his luggage. Perhaps Nancy
-had a right to be angry when at last he followed her. They had waited
-till the chicken and sausages were nearly cold; but by this time they
-were in the middle of their meal, Mr. Bates already in his slippers at
-the foot of the table when Arthur arrived. The little parlour was hot
-and close, full of mingled odours; they were all a little flushed, what
-with the unusual warmth, what with the meal. Nancy herself had been
-placed next to the fire, as the traveller to whom the best place was
-necessarily given, and she was crimson with excitement, pleasure, anger,
-and the stifling atmosphere all combined. The voices all ceased when
-Arthur came in.
-
-“I think you might have paid my mother the respect of coming directly,”
-said Nancy in high tones.
-
-“Oh, hush, dear, hush! I am sure Arthur didn’t mean any rudeness,” said
-Mrs. Bates.
-
-But there was an interval of silence, marking general disapproval, and
-they all turned to look at him as at a culprit. He sat down in the
-vacant place much against his will, amid unfriendly or indignant looks.
-Even to the Bates’ family he was no longer welcome as an angel from
-Heaven.
-
-“I am sorry everything is cold,” said Mrs. Bates; “we waited as long as
-we could. But Nancy wanted her tea very badly after her journey. Here is
-a leg of chicken I saved for you.”
-
-“I am not hungry,” said Arthur, feeling his new alienation and
-separation amid all the silent party. “I will take a cup of tea,
-please. I had the boxes to look after.”
-
-“You might have left the boxes to take care of themselves,” said his
-wife; “you are not always so careful. You might have come with me when I
-first came home after being married. And all the people about staring;
-but you don’t mind. It used to be different when we were here before;
-but I ain’t of so much consequence now,” cried Nancy. “Wives are
-different from sweethearts; I see that all now.”
-
-Arthur felt a sensation of chill despair come over him in the midst of
-this domestic heat. He restrained himself by a strange effort and would
-say nothing; and, indeed, he did not feel the impulse of passion to
-speak. A dreary despondency took possession of him. How often he had sat
-there on the sofa in the corner, and felt himself happy! What was it
-that made the change? for Nancy had shown “tempers,” fits of caprice,
-uncertainty of mood before their marriage. But it had not affected him
-as it did now. Succour came to him, however, in an unexpected way.
-
-“I don’t approve of nagging at a man, whatever he’s done,” said Mr.
-Bates. “If you’ve had any tiffs honeymooning, you should have the sense
-to stop ’em now. If you like to quarrel in your own place, I’ll not
-interfere, I haven’t got the right; but don’t do it here. Your father’s
-house is no more than a friend’s house so far as that goes. It ain’t
-your place, Nancy, to expose your husband here.”
-
-“I hope I know what’s my place, as well as you or anyone,” said Nancy,
-growing red, and accepting the challenge. She had never been fond of
-restraint, and she liked it now less than ever. She gave her head a toss
-of defiance, entrenched as she was behind the walls of support and
-shelter which her mother and sisters gave, who unconditionally took her
-side. She flashed defiance at the other end of the table, where Arthur
-sat with a flush of shame on his face, and poor Mr. Bates in his
-crumpled white tie for his sole partisan.
-
-“I think Mr. Bates is right,” said Arthur, “and that it would be better
-to postpone this question till we are alone.”
-
-“And I hope you found Paris pleasant, Sir,” said the well-intentioned
-father. “I have often heard that it was a very fine city. It must have
-been a great advantage for Nancy, seeing it with one that knew it well.
-In my young days going to France was more of a business than going to
-America is now. Me and Mrs. Bates never had the benefit of foreign
-travel; but there are a many things you young people enjoy now that your
-fathers and your mothers didn’t have.”
-
-“You may speak for yourself, Mr. Bates,” said his wife. “I cannot say
-that I ever had any desire to go to foreign parts. There is plenty to
-learn in England if one would make a good use of what one knows; and
-Nancy, poor child, don’t seem to have enjoyed it. Look how thin she is,
-and so pale. She quite frightened me when I saw her first. ‘Is that my
-blooming Nancy?’ I said to myself--not meaning to throw any reflection
-upon Arthur. What does man know of such things? She’s been doing too
-much. I feel sure that’s what it is, rattling about here and there and
-everywhere, and engagements in the evening--”
-
-“We didn’t have many engagements in the evening,” said Nancy. “We used
-to go to the theatres at first; but we soon got tired. The acting was so
-bad, not like English acting; and such queer French, not a bit like
-anything I ever learnt. For one thing, they talk so fast. But I could
-not understand a bit, and what was the good of going to a play and not
-understanding a word? And we never saw anybody, except an aunt of
-Arthur’s, a person--but I won’t speak of her, for she was rude to
-me--and Sir John Denham, who used to come and sit of an evening, and who
-brought us tickets for places. It was very kind of him; and there was a
-lot of places to see, and a whole lot of old pictures and things that
-Arthur thought I was to go crazy over; but I never did. One place was
-where some prison was knocked down (I never remembered the names) and,
-another was where the Queen had her head cut off.”
-
-“Oh, la!” cried Sarah Jane.
-
-“Yes, that was a pleasant thing to be interested in, wasn’t it? Oh, the
-lots and lots of people that had their heads cut off, if you could put
-any faith in it! As if that was what one wanted to see! I never believed
-one quarter of what they said.”
-
-“And quite right,” said her mother; “they do make up stories; but didn’t
-you go to see something a little livelier, Nancy? I thought there was
-everything that was gay in Paris. But if that was all, my poor child, I
-don’t wonder if you felt low, away from everybody you knew. But things
-will be quite different now,” she said, encouragingly. “You will settle
-down, you and Arthur, in a nice snug little English ’ome. There is no
-place like ’ome, as the song says. And you’ll fall into each other’s
-ways; and you’ll have us close at hand if anything’s wrong. Oh, you’ll
-see everything will go as smooth as velvet! and me, or Sarah Jane, or
-Matty always to help you to put things straight.”
-
-At this prospect Nancy brightened up, and the conversation went on in a
-livelier strain. But Nancy’s brows lowered when Arthur, feeling it all
-grow more and more intolerable, got up just before the rum-and-water
-stage, under pretence of business.
-
-“I have some letters which I must write,” he said. Nancy’s countenance
-grew dark again, and Mr. Bates lamented audibly.
-
-“I thought you’d have joined me and been comfortable, now you’re a
-married man and got your courting over,” said the tax-collector. Poor
-Arthur! was this expected of him, that he should share the rum-and-water
-too? He scarcely knew how he managed to get away at last, promising to
-return for his wife when his letters were written. But he had in reality
-no letters to write. He walked about through the darkness very sadly,
-wondering what he was to do. It was weak perhaps to have yielded to her,
-to have suffered her to lead him back here; it was all intolerable, the
-house, the family, the talk. They had been well enough once, how did it
-happen that they were beyond all patience now?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVI.
-
-
-Next day, restored to perfect good-humour by the occupation, Nancy went
-out with her mother to look at some houses which they had already
-selected for her choice. She came into the little sitting-room, in which
-Arthur had talked to Durant about his marriage, and where the young pair
-were established now--glowing and beaming from her early walk, to tell
-him all about these desirable residences. Rose Villas, Glenfield Road,
-was the name of the row, in which there were two houses, one empty, and
-one furnished, to be let.
-
-“You must come with me and see them the moment you have had your
-lunch--I don’t want any lunch,” cried Nancy. “I am so delighted! The
-dearest little houses, Arthur! just big enough for us, and so bright,
-with gardens back and front, and everything that heart could desire.”
-
-“But we don’t want two houses, do we?” he said.
-
-“No, you silly boy; but if we take the one that is furnished, don’t you
-see, for little while, and the one that is not furnished for a
-permanency, then we can be comfortable in the one house while we furnish
-the other; ain’t that clever?” said Nancy, laughing. “I can’t fancy
-anything more delightful. Make haste with your luncheon, Arthur. Oh,
-yes, I will sit down with you, I will take a morsel; but I am in such a
-hurry. I do hope you will like them as much as I do. It is so nice to
-think of having a ’ome, as mother says.”
-
-Arthur did not make any reply; after so much stormy weather as there had
-been, it grieved him to destroy all this sunshine by any remonstrances.
-He was glad to bask in it a little and put off the next difficulty. It
-was a bright winter afternoon when they sallied forth together, the red
-sun descending towards the west, and throwing up all the leafless trees
-beyond Mr. Eagles’ great house as on a crimson background, against which
-every branch and twig stood out--the Green more brilliantly green than
-usual from the many rains and from the afternoon redness which enhanced
-its colour--the red-brick houses all ruddy and warm in the light. Even
-to Arthur, whose heart was heavy, it was a pleasant walk to Glenfield
-Road. They were alone, and Nancy was in the gayest humour, full of
-satisfaction with herself. Though she had lost her confidence in the
-Paris dresses, which had much disappointed her mother and sisters, and
-was afraid that her travelling costume looked dreadfully dowdy (which
-was Sarah Jane’s opinion)--yet the sense of being at home, able to
-dazzle all her old companions with her good fortune, and to feel that
-her house and husband, and all her possessions, would be admired and to
-envied by the right people, had calmed all Nancy’s susceptibilities and
-raised her spirits to the highest point. She all but danced along the
-street, holding Arthur’s arm in a way which may be old-fashioned, but
-still comes natural to a bride. She was about to have a house of her
-own, a house fit for a lady, where obsequious tradesmen, once her
-equals, or better than she, would come for orders. She was about to have
-servants of her own--not a “girl,” as in the Bates’ establishment, but a
-cook and housemaid, as good as the Vicar or any of the fine people on
-the Green. And all these fine people would call upon her, Nancy thought;
-who was there among them equal to Mrs. Arthur Curtis, a baronet’s
-daughter-in-law, some time or other to be Lady Curtis--a baronet’s
-wife?--and who could speak familiarly of other baronets, Denham, for
-instance, as an intimate friend. And then there was Durant.
-
-“Who is Durant,” she said, “Arthur? Is he anybody, is his father
-anybody? I had a long talk with him here once. I was angry--But on the
-whole I liked Durant.”
-
-“He is--my oldest friend; and the man in all the world who knows most
-about me,” said Arthur, laughing in spite of himself; “but further
-information would not enlighten you, Nancy--”
-
-“You mean that I don’t know your peerages, and that sort of thing,” said
-Nancy, piqued a little.
-
-This time Arthur laughed with good will. “I don’t think the peerages
-would help you much,” he said. “Lewis Durant is a clergyman’s son,
-Nancy.”
-
-“_Only_ a clergyman?” She was disappointed. “But they must have been
-very rich or something, Arthur, or such proud folks as your people would
-not have let Durant be so intimate with you.”
-
-“My people,” said Arthur with some haste, “would not have thought of
-interfering with my school friends to ask whose sons they were; and
-Lewis’s family, _were_ rich--but they are not rich now. Call him Lewis,
-if you please, when you speak of him, Nancy; but don’t say Durant. It
-sounds _fast_; and you never will be fast, I hope.”
-
-“Oh, it sounds fast, do you think?” Nancy was mollified. When he had
-made the same request before, she had thought it a stigma upon her as
-not knowing how a lady should talk, but this was a lesser offence. “Well
-then, Mr. Durant--if I must say Mr. Durant--isn’t he rich now?”
-
-“No, not at all rich.”
-
-“Oh, then I suppose he has to work for his living like--any common man?
-I am so glad you are not like that, Arthur. What a difference it must
-make! To have one’s husband away all day at his work--or to have one’s
-husband always at one’s side, ready to take a walk, or to answer a
-question, or anything. I am so glad you are a gentleman, Arthur. I never
-should have been happy had I married a man in any other rank of life.”
-
-“Durant is just as much a gentleman as I am, Nancy.”
-
-“What! when he has to work for his living? Oh, yes, I know. Whoever
-wears good clothes, and knows how to behave himself in society, is
-called a gentleman for the name of the thing, Arthur. The assistants in
-Shoolbred’s are all gentlemen, of course; but that is not what I
-mean--you know what I mean. Now supposing that Durant--I mean Mr.
-Durant--had known us longer, and got to coming to our house as you did,
-and Sarah Jane and he had fancied each other, she would not have been
-nearly so happy as I am.”
-
-“Was _that_ thought of?” said Arthur, with a smile which did not
-evidence any real amusement. “I did not know that had been seriously
-thought of.”
-
-“Oh, yes, it was thought of. Why shouldn’t it have happened? He was your
-friend; and they say one wedding brings on another. I don’t think Sarah
-Jane would have minded,” said Nancy in perfect good faith. “She would
-have thrown Raisins over in a moment; and indeed I think she treats
-Raisins very badly with all her flirtations. I tell her it is he who
-will throw her over one of these days.”
-
-“So Durant might have been preferred to Mr. Raisins,” said Arthur. “What
-a chance for Lewis!”
-
-Nancy did not feel quite comfortable about the meaning of this laugh.
-Perhaps it was not entirely regret for what Durant had lost; but as at
-this moment they came in sight of Rose Villas, her whole attention was
-drawn to the more exciting subject. “There is the empty one, Arthur,”
-she said, “look, how pretty! But I see the door of No. 6 is open, so let
-us go there first. There is such a pretty garden behind, and the windows
-open into it. There is not much in the garden now, but it will be
-delicious in summer. Oh, yes, here we are; this is Mr. Curtis, Mrs.
-Smith. We have come again, if you please, to go over the house.”
-
-“If you please, ma’am,” said the prim little landlady, whose lodgings
-had not let so well as usual, and who was not unwilling to get rid of
-her house. Nancy ran through it delighted, taking her husband from one
-room to another. “This you could have to write your letters in, Arthur,
-and this would be my drawing-room,” cried Nancy, glowing with not
-unlovely pride; “and look what a dear little Davenport, and an inlaid
-table, and that funny little three-cornered thing in the corner, and a
-nice white cloth over the carpet--so clean-looking--almost like our
-white carpets in Paris.”
-
-Arthur allowed himself to be dragged all over the house. It was like a
-hundred, nay a million other semi-detached suburban villakins. The
-little rooms were neat enough, if not beautiful; and Arthur, though he
-had been brought up in Oakley, amid his mother’s favourite splendours,
-was not sufficiently fastidious to be annoyed by the common-place
-surroundings. It was not the want of beauty that moved him; but the
-sensation of “settling down,” which was so delightful to Nancy, affected
-his imagination like a nightmare. She was so satisfied herself, so
-anxious to know every particular about the maids whom Mrs. Smith “could
-recommend,” so eager about everything, that his gloomy looks passed
-without remark. And Arthur did not check her delight until, having
-settled matters with Mrs. Smith, she insisted upon carrying him next to
-No. 9, which was to let unfurnished. “This is the most interesting,” she
-said. “Come along, Arthur; for you know this will be our real
-’ome--this we will furnish ourselves;” and she dragged him to the door.
-Nancy did not usually drop her h’s, but she was too familiar with this
-form of the word to call it anything but ’ome.
-
-Here, however, Arthur had strength of mind to resist. “That is enough
-for to-day. You must not ask me to do more to-day. After dinner we will
-talk it all over, all about it, over the fire.”
-
-“After dinner?” said Nancy. “Oh! I said we would go and see mother, and
-tell her what we had settled. Why, what is the matter, Arthur--may not I
-go and see mother? We have only been one day back, and you begin to make
-faces already! You cannot say I am bringing my people on _you_.”
-
-“I think you might be content with me sometimes,” said Arthur, with an
-attempt at a smile.
-
-“I have been content with you for three weeks,” said Nancy. “I have
-never seen a soul but you. I should think you would like to see another
-face now and again as well as I do--and my own folks!” Arthur did not
-say any more. He diverted the conversation into other channels, and led
-her back to the subject of the villa, which on the whole was safer
-ground; and when the evening came and their dinner was over, and Nancy
-went off with a certain gay temerity, yet not without alarm, to get her
-wrap, Arthur took his hat to accompany her without saying a word. She
-was in a state of the greatest exultation, scarcely able to restrain
-little songs of triumph as they walked along the half-lighted street,
-and clasping his arm close, with a show of affection which went to
-Arthur’s heart.
-
-“At what time shall I come for you?” he said, as they drew near the
-door.
-
-“Come for me! are you not coming with me, Arthur?”
-
-“I have not finished my letters,” he said; “as _you_ say, we have had
-three weeks of holiday; and then I was out with you all this afternoon.
-I must finish my letters for the post to-night.”
-
-She unclasped her hands from his arm without a word, and went in; and
-the glimpse Arthur had of the parlour did not tempt him to follow. Young
-Raisins was one of the company. He was seated on the sofa where Arthur
-had been in the habit of sitting, presumably behind backs, and out of
-the observation of the others, with Nancy. Young Raisins was now the
-lover on hand, and the sight of him in that place sent the blood to
-Arthur’s head as he walked away. Could it be possible that he himself
-had been unspeakably happy there a few weeks ago, finding nothing but
-pleasantness in the four straight walls, and beauty in the family
-affection that made all these people hang so closely together. Raisins
-now occupied the foreground of the picture as he had done before, with
-infinitely greater suitability. And this was the home which his wife
-loved. There was the sting of it! had she been indifferent,
-undutiful--even careless, as he thought he remembered that she once was;
-but Nancy’s matrimonial experience, which was not entirely successful,
-perhaps, had thrown her back upon her earlier affections in a way which
-is not unusual, though Arthur was not aware of that. Her husband and
-she had only their love to hold them together; their habits were not
-like, their manner of thought was different. Even when she was at her
-boldest and most confident point, Nancy was never quite at home with the
-“gentleman” she had married; but with her own people, she was entirely
-at her ease. Arthur did not take this into consideration; but he was
-candid enough to feel a compunction as he walked away, and to
-acknowledge that from Nancy’s point of view, it might seem hard that he
-could not spend an hour or two without complaining in the society of the
-family who had been everything to her all her life. It was hard, that so
-soon, before a month of her married life was over, she should have to
-choose between the old home and the new, between her parents and her
-husband. Arthur had a generous mind, and this perception kept him from
-feeling himself the aggrieved person, as he had been half disposed to
-do. It forced him, also, instead of wandering about as he had done on
-the previous night, and brooding over the difficulties of his new
-position, to go back to his hotel and really write the half imaginary
-letters which were his only business, and the reason which he had again
-given for his abandonment of that family circle. His letters were not
-all imaginary: there was one from Mr. Rolt, the agent, in answer to
-Arthur’s letter to his father. Sir John had been too indignant, as well
-as perhaps (but this he was not conscious of) too little disposed for
-exertion to answer it himself. He had handed over the note, not to the
-lawyer brother, against whom Arthur had vowed vengeance, but to the
-agent, who had always been a favourite, the friend of their youth, with
-the young Curtises, both boy and girl. Mr. Rolt’s letter was very kind
-and reasonable, and to answer it without proving himself to be in the
-wrong was difficult. Sir John did not object to raising his
-allowance--he did not refuse anything Arthur asked him. There was
-nothing hard in the stipulations, nothing forbidding in what his
-father’s deputy wrote.
-
-“Your family do not wish you to suffer, how could you think it?--they
-do not wish to reduce you from your natural position. Had you treated
-them as they might have expected to be treated, my dear Arthur,” wrote
-the good man who had known him all his life, “you might, I think, have
-reckoned on Sir John’s indulgence to any extent; but you have not put
-that trust in your father and mother, though they certainly deserved it
-at your hands; and can you wonder if Sir John is angry? He will not
-write to you himself, feeling that your letter is not the kind of letter
-he ought to have had from you in the circumstances; but he has
-instructed me to tell you that your wishes shall be complied with to any
-reasonable amount. He does not wish you to suffer in personal comfort in
-consequence of the step you have taken.”
-
-This was the letter which Arthur had to answer. He paused, reflecting on
-it, repeating to himself, “does not wish you to suffer in personal
-comfort.” Were there other ways which they suspected and calculated upon
-in which he might suffer for his disobedience? He paused to go over all
-that had happened within the last three months. Could he have acted
-otherwise than he had done? If he had given his confidence to his
-parents from the beginning, as they reproached him for not doing, what
-would have been the issue? With what eyes would Lady Curtis and Lucy
-have looked upon his Nancy, who, for her part, would have defied them?
-He shook his head as he sat pondering over the sheet of paper before
-him. No! no! had he confided in them things would have been worse, not
-better--for anyhow he would have married Nancy, if without their
-consent, if against their deliberate judgment, what did it matter?
-except that the last would have been the worst. He could fancy how she
-would have met their inspection--how she would have repulsed and scorned
-them. No--no, he repeated to himself. Better to leave them in ignorance
-than to hazard the open quarrels, the inevitable rending asunder that
-must have followed. They could not have withdrawn his heart from Nancy.
-No, again no! And the breach would have been more bitter, not less. With
-a sigh he decided that, on the whole, he had not chosen the worst way.
-He did not say to himself that both were bad enough, but he sighed.
-Nancy had left him to go to her family, to be happy in the stuffy little
-parlour, where her father drank his rum and water; and he--he sighed,
-going no further--for _his_ belongings, for his home, for the natural
-occupations of his life. They did not regret their choice either of
-them; but yet within the first month of their marriage, this curious
-return upon themselves had happened to both. Perhaps this is not so
-wonderful even among the happiest as we pretend; for is not the
-beginning the hardest, in marriage as in so many other things? Arthur
-wrote and posted his letter, feeling himself bound to do so after what
-he had said; then went on to fetch his wife from her father’s house.
-They were very merry there, he could hear as he passed the lighted
-window; and it was more and more curious to him when he went in to find
-young Raisins the master of the situation, amusing them all with his
-jokes. Arthur, in his time, had never had so much _succès_. He was
-rather glad to see that Nancy was not enjoying the fun like the rest,
-but sat a little apart and with a somewhat moody countenance until he
-entered, when she flung off her gravity, plunged into the riot that was
-going on round the table, where Mr. Raisins was doing tricks with cards,
-and laughed and talked with the best. Arthur could not make out whether
-this was to show him her superior gaiety and light-heartedness at home,
-or whether it was his own presence which brought back her
-light-heartedness. And he himself, touched by compunction, did his best
-to make himself agreeable, to show that he wished for a good
-intelligence between them. He was more successful in this than he had
-hoped. Young Raisins’ fine qualities had so charmed and delighted the
-house that Arthur too shared the good feeling he had called forth. Mrs.
-Bates melted altogether, and spreading out her hands declared that
-“this _was_ a happy meeting,” and that “parents” had reason to be
-satisfied, indeed, when their girls were thus happily settled. “When you
-all rally round the ‘old house,’” were the words the gratified mother
-used; but unfortunately in the general impulse of emotion that followed,
-Arthur could scarcely restrain a slight laugh, which Nancy, who seemed
-to be all ear, remarked, though no one else noticed it. Why should he
-laugh? He would not have laughed had it been the old house of Oakley,
-amid its trees and parks, that was to be rallied round; and why not the
-small tenement in East Street, Underhayes? Was it possible that
-materialism could go so far as to measure sentiment by the size of the
-house? He said this to himself, yet still laughed in his mind, and could
-not tell why.
-
-“I hope you have written your letters,” Nancy said, coldly, as they
-walked home.
-
-“Yes; the one I specially wanted to write is gone. It was an answer to
-Mr. Rolt’s which I told you about.”
-
-“Then you will have no excuse about writing letters to-mor--I mean
-another night. You will not have that reason to give for staying away.”
-
-“You do not want me to spend every evening at your mother’s, Nancy?”
-
-“Ah, now it comes out,” she said. “I knew it all along. It was not
-letters, but because you wanted to escape from us, from my family, whom
-you look down upon. If you despise them, you should never have married
-me; for I will stick to them as long as I live.”
-
-“I am not in the habit of making lying excuses,” said Arthur, as calmly
-as he could; “and it is not necessary,” he added after a pause,
-controlling the sentiment in his voice, “to despise a family because you
-do not wish to be with them every night.”
-
-“Every night! this is the second night,” cried Nancy in high disdain.
-
-“Nancy,” said Arthur, “do not let us quarrel. I don’t want to interfere
-with your natural affection, but you cannot expect me to feel exactly as
-you do. It is not possible! And don’t you think it would be wise to
-agree that there are great differences between your family and me? that
-we are likely to agree better apart, and that a meeting now and then
-would be best, not too often? I don’t want to dictate to you--”
-
-“No; it would be more wise, as you say, not to try,” said Nancy. “I see
-now. This is why you wouldn’t condescend to look at the other house. Ah,
-I see! you mean to go away, to leave this place, which is the only place
-I can be happy in. This is your plan? Oh, I allow it is a fine plan! but
-it will not be so easy to carry out.”
-
-“I don’t want, I say, to dictate to you. I don’t want you to give up
-anything that is important for your happiness. But I have given up my
-people for you, Nancy--”
-
-“Then go back to your people, and have done with it!” cried Nancy,
-throwing herself free from his arm, to which she had been clinging, and
-pushing him from her. Arthur was so startled to find himself driven to
-the edge of the pavement by this energetic impulse, that even the power
-of speech seemed taken from him. And what was there to say?
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIII.
-
-
-Mr. and Mrs. Arthur Curtis settled down in a day or two into No. 6, Rose
-Villas, where Nancy had her two maids to manage, and all that had seemed
-to her most delightful and desirable in life. The little drawing-room
-was not a particularly genial place in winter weather; the carpet was
-covered with a white linen cloth tightly strained, there were white
-muslin curtains at the windows, the walls were white and gold, after the
-approved fashion of little drawing-rooms in little villas. All this, if
-it was very clean-looking, as Nancy said, was chilly in December, and
-the little fireplace was so near the long French window, and both were
-so near the door, that the room was draughty, and scarcely so cosy as
-might have been desired. There was a piano in it, upon which Nancy could
-not play, though she had received lessons on the piano during those five
-quarters in which she had been at school; and a work-table, which she
-did not employ much for work; but no books, nor any pictures on the
-white-and-gold walls. When Arthur had exerted himself in the
-re-arrangement of the furniture, which Nancy did not go into with any
-enthusiasm--for she was still of opinion that a row of chairs set
-against the wall were “in their proper place,” and that to disturb them
-was almost an immorality--the discovery that he had nothing to do
-pressed with more and more force upon him. What did he want with
-anything to do? Nancy thought. Was it not the best thing in the world
-not to require to do anything, the true sign of being a gentleman? A
-certain scorn of people who worked for their living had taken possession
-of Mrs. Arthur Curtis. Why should they give themselves airs when they
-were all as one as a bricklayer, working for their bread? But anyone
-could see that Arthur was a gentleman. It is to be hoped that gentlemen
-in general were more at their ease under the burden of their gentility
-than Arthur. It was not--let no one be deceived--that he wanted to work.
-Work when he had read with Mr. Eagles had been extremely irksome to the
-young man. It was true he had not remained very long to try it, but he
-had not loved his studies, especially under the spur of the sharp and
-urgent “coach.” There are other things, however, which young men think
-of when they talk of having “something to do,” which do not tell very
-much in an industrial point of view. In his natural condition and at
-home, Arthur had many occupations. He shot, he hunted, he rode about the
-country, he paid visits; he was appealed to by people in trouble; he was
-consulted about the affairs of the estate. Sometimes he had to appear on
-the hustings in support of his father’s election; he had speeches to
-make now and then, and that interest in public business which is
-indispensable to one who may sometimes have to take part in it. All this
-was at an end now. The calm, not to stay stagnation of his present
-existence dropped over him as the curtain drops in a theatre upon the
-animated and busy scene. After the drama is over, or in the moment of
-repose between its acts, it is some immoveable representation of life or
-scenery, an unchangeable incident or landscape, that closes for us the
-brilliant stage upon which human life in all its changeableness and
-variety of emotion has been represented. Arthur’s domestic bliss was
-like this drop scene. His life was gone from him, with all its hopes and
-occupations; he was no longer the young Squire, as potent within his
-small territory as any Prince of Wales, no longer the budding magnate of
-the county, with responsibilities rising round him, with the covers to
-think of (if nothing more), and poachers to take in hand, and public
-life to look forward to. All that fuller existence had departed. The
-drop scene, representing a white-and-gold bower of bliss, with two
-figures seated (before the fire, but that was a matter of detail), all
-in all to each other, as romantic people say, had fallen with a
-remorseless completeness, hiding everything. He took a long walk with
-his wife every afternoon. Often he went out in the evening to fetch her
-from her father’s, or else he had the pleasure of entertaining her
-father and mother at home; and he would stroll out on his own account
-here and there, in the mornings, while Nancy was pretending to do her
-housekeeping, or read the _Times_ languidly in the room appropriated to
-him, feeling as if all the busy commotion of the world indicated in it
-had gone away to such a distance from him that he could but faintly
-apprehend or understand it. The drop scene! To what innocent bosom would
-not that picture have commended itself? Two figures, young and fair to
-behold, the world forgetting, by the world forgot; living for each
-other, all for love, and the world well lost.
-
-This went on for what was really a long time without disturbance. The
-establishment of the Arthur Curtises in Rose Villas gave the little
-world of Underhayes many causes of deliberation. Should they call? was a
-question hotly discussed. Call? on Bates the tax-collector’s daughter!
-Could anything be more absurd? the elder ladies said. But the younger
-ones were interested; who would not be interested in such a romantic
-business? and the gentlemen were either sorry for or curious about the
-young husband who had thus sacrificed everything to “a pretty face.” For
-the girl was just an uneducated girl like any other in her position,
-everybody said. There was no innate superiority in Nancy to justify her
-elevation, neither had her husband taken pains as even a romantic young
-fool, now and then, did, to educate her before making her his wife. Even
-now, so far as anyone knew, no attempt was being made to qualify Mrs.
-Arthur for her husband’s position in society. They had settled at Rose
-Villas, avowedly that she might be near her mother--with whom she was
-said to spend half her time; and no judicious governess or master able
-to impart instruction in those accomplishments which must have been
-wanting in her, was ever seen to enter her gates. Not even trying to
-improve her mind! She got the pick of the novels which came in Mudie’s
-box to the local library, in right of an unusually liberal subscription;
-but what could novels do for her? Under these circumstances, it became a
-doubly difficult question to know what to do. When she came home at
-first she had been very well dressed, which had made an impression in
-her favour. Her dark blue “silk” had filled the Green with admiration
-and envy. “Paris, of course!” the ladies said, who, notwithstanding
-their disapproval of such a marriage, were very curious indeed about the
-bride; and some added a joke or a sigh at the idea of putting delicate
-garments from Paris, not upon such as themselves, who could appreciate
-them, but upon Nancy Bates! However, this mingled approbation and
-disdain soon came to an end, for it was not long before the dark blue
-silk was thrown aside in favour of more showy garments. “If that is all
-they can do in Paris!” Sarah Jane had said, at the sight of it, and she
-had spent some time at a milliner’s in town and ought to know. Her own
-family all thought Nancy’s dresses dowdy, and ridiculously quiet for a
-bride; and the original “silk” which her parents had given her had been
-brought to the front again, with others of a similar character.
-
-“I made myself a dowdy to please Arthur. He likes it,” said Nancy; “but
-one can’t go on humouring one’s husband for ever, can one, mamma? One
-must think for one’s self sooner or later, and ladies surely know best
-about their own dress.”
-
-Arthur had not attempted any remonstrance, what was the use? And Nancy
-had reappeared with a brightness of colour and breadth of ornament,
-which pleased her family a great deal better.
-
-“Now you look something like a newly-married lady, with a husband that
-grudges you nothing,” Mrs. Bates said proudly, on that day when the
-Green shuddered at Mrs. Arthur’s new costume, and resolved with one
-mind, now at least, that nobody could be expected to call. But such
-resolutions did not always overcome the stronger inducements of
-curiosity, or of that pity and interest which moved some bosoms. Mrs.
-Eagles was the first to break the reserve. Her husband insisted upon it,
-she said. And she not only called, but asked “the Arthur Curtises” to
-dinner. Mrs. Eagles was a mild little woman, as soft-voiced as her
-husband was peremptory. She avowed frankly that she had been “very fond”
-of Arthur while he lived in her house. “He was so nice, he never would
-give any trouble that he could help, so unlike your _parvenus_; he was
-always so ready to do anything for you. Yes, I was very fond of him. The
-pupils are not attractive as a rule, but young Mr. Curtis was charming.”
-This was what she said to her neighbours when it was known that she had
-asked the bride to dinner, the boldest thing that had been done on the
-Green for many a day.
-
-“I hope you found _her_ charming, too,” said the Vicar’s wife, who was
-not disposed to compromise her dignity in such a way. Mrs. Eagles took a
-little time to answer the question, and cleared her throat.
-
-“She is--quite unformed--I almost wonder that associating with a
-well-bred man should have had so little effect upon her manners. But
-then, she is natural--she has no affectations; that is always
-something,” said Mrs. Eagles, which was not the case with the Vicar’s
-wife. She did not, however, ask the dignified couple from the vicarage,
-but only a humbler newly married curate to meet the young pair, who, for
-their part, were thrown into considerable excitement by the invitation.
-How Nancy might have taken it on her own account is doubtful; but the
-delight of her family had driven all thoughts from her mind but those of
-delightful elevation in the world and entrance into society.
-
-“It’s only a schoolmaster, it is true,” said Mrs. Bates; “no better,
-indeed not so good as ourselves, for I never was brought to such a pass
-that I had to take in lodgers to interfere with the family. I always was
-able to keep ourselves to ourselves, and of course the pupils are all
-the same as lodgers; but still you’ll meet the real gentry there, my
-pet, and it will be a beginning, and you needn’t be shy with people
-like them.” Thus encouraged, Nancy allowed herself to feel that to go
-out to a party was pleasant. For she too, though she had the
-distractions of her family and her housekeeping, was growing a little
-tired perhaps of the drop scene.
-
-They were all very indignant, however, when Arthur suggested that she
-should wear a simple white dress for this first appearance. White, like
-an unmarried girl! and as if her husband was not well enough off to
-afford her a “silk!” Finally, with great hurry and strain of all their
-efforts to get it ready in time, Nancy appeared in light blue, which was
-becoming enough, though rather incomplete in those finishing touches
-which mark the difference between a home-made garment and one which has
-come from the hands of the initiated. As for Arthur he laughed at
-himself, not without a little bitterness, as he made his simple toilet.
-He was pleased to be asked out to dinner by his former “coach.” It
-excited him vaguely, partly with pleasure, partly with anxiety. It was
-“revisiting the glimpses of the moon,” for the first time for all these
-months; for the slow winter had crept round to March again, and all the
-world was stirring into life. To describe the kind of Christmas this
-poor young fellow had spent would be too much for ordinary
-powers--exiled as he was from everything belonging to himself, and
-driven into close, too close encounter with all the jollities of so
-different a sphere. He had borne them, and kept them at arm’s length, as
-far as he could, and thank heaven, they were over. But the impatience in
-his heart grew stronger as the days grew longer, and the world turned to
-spring. He was as glad of Mr. Eagles’ invitation as if the “coach” had
-been Prime Minister with all manner of advantages to bestow. That
-impetuous little personage could not, had he gained first places for all
-his pupils in all the examinations under the sun, have put himself in
-the same position with the son of such a rural magnate as Sir John
-Curtis; but Arthur was as glad of his notice and his wife’s notice, as
-if the level of the Bates family had been his own original level.
-Nevertheless, there were difficulties in launching Nancy even into this
-mild little scholastic world. Arthur did not feel that he could venture
-to give her those hints about the manners of ordinary society, which
-might have steered her safely through the not appalling dangers of a
-dinner party. He did what he could by way of suggestion and supposition,
-taking it for granted that she would know; but even that simple mode of
-communicating instruction aroused her suspicions. “Oh, you needn’t be
-afraid, I know how to behave myself,” she said, with a toss of her head.
-How did she know--was it by instinct? instinct is a doubtful guide
-through the usages of society; but anyhow, Arthur did not venture to say
-any more. When she came downstairs, however, ready to start, with her
-blue dress all decorated and looped up with orange-blossoms, Arthur made
-a determined stand. He said, “You must take those things off, they are
-ridiculous,” with a peremptoriness which she could not resist, saucy as
-she was. Arthur at this moment did not seem a person to be trifled with.
-“Do you want to make a laughing-stock of your sister?” the young man
-said, confounding them all; and the obnoxious decorations were taken off
-with a silent speed that was wonderful. It was wonderful, as being
-inspired by a mysterious sense of having made a mistake. They had no
-idea what the mistake was; and their pride would not permit them to ask
-enlightenment; but they felt it the more from its mysterious and unknown
-character. When Nancy was ready, and wrapped in the warm white _sortie
-du bal_ which they had bought in Paris, the effect of this error was
-sufficiently obliterated; and the young husband’s heart swelled with a
-little pride when he presented her to the man who had sent him out of
-his house because of Nancy. That practical protestation had not done
-much more good than all the other efforts which had been made to sever
-Arthur from his love; and here she was now, fair and blooming, an
-unquestionable fact, which they were all compelled to recognize. But as
-he left her in charge of Mrs. Eagles, and dropped off behind, what
-anxiety was in Arthur’s thoughts! It was her first essay in society;
-would she take the trouble to please? He stood furtively watching her as
-he talked to the Curate, whose wife was also on her trial, but caused
-him no such tremour. The Curate’s wife was a small young lady of
-ordinary breeding and appearance, not to be compared with Nancy in any
-possible respect. But she had been born a clergyman’s, not a
-tax-collector’s daughter. She knew the outside of social ways, and how
-not to commit herself, which was exactly what Nancy did not know.
-
-And it must be allowed that, when Arthur saw that only this Curate and
-his wife had been invited to meet them, he was wroth with a savage sort
-of anger and scornful humiliation. He gave no sign of his feelings; but
-he had been accustomed to be somebody wherever he went, and the sense
-that he had now dropped into a doubtful position, in which only the
-Curate could be supposed likely to countenance him, gave him a sense of
-what had befallen him more sharp and sudden than anything else that had
-happened, even than the familiarities of the Bates family. To say that
-Nancy was angry too, would be little. Her whole soul rose up in a blaze
-of wrath. She had expected to see everything that was fine and famous on
-the Green, and to receive, in a way, the homage of the assembled
-aristocracy. Nobody with a title lived at Underhayes, and Nancy
-considered that she herself had all but a title, and was to be admired
-in proportion; yet there was no one here but the little Curate’s wife.
-She talked largely to Mr. Eagles during dinner, giving him her opinion
-of Society in England.
-
-“Of course being brought up in a place like this, I have seen but
-little; and here not much to speak of,” she said, with a frankness that
-prepossessed her host--himself so trenchant and decided at all times.
-
-“You are right, very right, Mrs. Curtis. The people about here are not
-much to speak of. We have to put up with it, for we can get no better.
-Retired people are mostly a set of nuisances; having done all the
-mischief they can in the world in their own persons, they revile
-everybody who is beginning, and put mischief into their heads.”
-
-“Yes, Dr. Eagles.” He was called Doctor by the common people about, and
-he did not like it. “Yes; there never was such a gossiping place, I’ve
-heard many people say. They have nothing to do themselves, and they pull
-everybody to pieces. I have never gone into it, but I can’t abide that
-sort of thing. They are so stuck up; don’t you think they are dreadfully
-stuck up? and what is there in them to make them better than their
-neighbours? Don’t you think so, Dr. Eagles? I do hate everything like
-that,” said Nancy, energetically. “I suppose you did not like to ask
-them to meet Arthur and me?”
-
-“I--I don’t ask anyone,” said Mr. Eagles, taken aback for the moment.
-“It is my wife that asks the people.” Then he began to realize that
-getting out of a difficulty by putting it upon his wife, was not a noble
-proceeding. “The fact is, I don’t think anyone was asked. We thought, I
-suppose, that you didn’t care for it. I don’t myself; I hope Curtis is
-not giving up work altogether. He may be tempted to do so, having no
-immediate object, but he ought never to interrupt his course of study.
-He was getting on very well with me.”
-
-“What should he go on with his studies for?” said Nancy; “he does not
-require it to make a living. He may please himself what he does. Oh, I
-shouldn’t like my husband to have to work! When a man is born a
-gentleman, Dr. Eagles--”
-
-“You have been good enough to bestow a degree upon me to which I have no
-right,” said Mr. Eagles. “I am simple Mr., like all the rest, though I
-am obliged to work for my living, and it would be of use to me. A man
-ought to work, however, when he’s young like Curtis. If he doesn’t now,
-he will miss it after. I’ve always told him so.”
-
-“I am sure I don’t think so at all,” said Nancy. “Why should he work?
-or anyone in the position of a gentleman? You know what I mean by a
-gentleman. Father is as good as Arthur, or anyone, and he has to work.”
-
-This mollified Mr. Eagles.
-
-“I hope we are all gentlemen,” he said, as lightly as was possible for
-him, “whether we work or not.”
-
-“Oh yes, in a kind of a way,” said Nancy, with careless scorn, “in your
-manners, and so forth. And clergymen, and teachers, and those sort of
-people are called so out of civility; but I never think anybody is a
-gentleman that has his own living to make.”
-
-“I think you are a little hard upon us, Mrs. Curtis,” said the Curate,
-with a smile.
-
-“Oh, I didn’t mean to be hard,” said Nancy. “You are just as good as
-anyone else. Those that have plenty to live on are the best off, but I
-don’t say that I despise those that have to work. They are good enough
-in their way. It isn’t their fault they were born as they are, nor was
-it any virtue in my husband to be born Arthur Curtis. He couldn’t help
-it, neither can you.”
-
-Thus Nancy vanquished the adversary at the dinner-table. When the ladies
-went back to the drawing-room, which was not till a late hour, for it
-took a long time to make Nancy understand Mrs. Eagles’ little nods and
-signs from the other end of the table--but when they got upstairs at
-last, the Curate’s wife benevolently interfered to set Nancy at her ease
-after this mistake.
-
-“I daresay you have been used to the French way of the men coming
-upstairs along with the ladies; and a far better plan it is, I think.”
-
-Nancy looked coolly at the questioner. She was more comfortable when
-Arthur’s eyes were not upon her, watching everything she said and did.
-
-“I didn’t make any mistake,” she said, “but gentlemen’s conversation is
-the best, isn’t it? I wanted to have as much as I could of that. I
-didn’t want to be left to women’s society--three petticoats together,”
-and she laughed with insolent meaning. Nancy had read a great many
-novels, and she knew that these were the sentiments generally attributed
-to a heroine, and she was determined that there should be nothing in
-her mind which she would not have the courage to say.
-
-“I hope we shall not be so very tiresome to you,” said Mrs. Eagles, with
-an involuntary glance at the other. “We hear you have been in Paris,
-Mrs. Curtis. You must have enjoyed that. It is always so bright and
-gay.”
-
-“I did not think it was gay at all,” said Nancy, “a very stupid place.
-Everybody talked so queerly, not at all like the French one learns at
-school; and they have such queer dishes, and altogether they are so
-queer. Have you been in Paris? I did not find it at all gay.”
-
-“There are so many things to see,” Mrs. Eagles suggested.
-
-“Oh, what sort of things to see! Places where things have happened that
-nobody knows anything about, or if one ever heard of them one has
-forgotten. I don’t call that amusing,” said Nancy. “There are very
-handsome shops, but I did not care much for French taste, do you? they
-are so fond of dingy colours; nothing clean-looking nor bright. I was so
-glad to get back to England.”
-
-“So was I,” said the Curate’s wife, “when we were abroad; but I thought
-it all so interesting. I did enjoy it when we were there. The very names
-of the places that one had read about in history!”
-
-“I never read history,” said Nancy, carelessly. “I like to see things
-happening now; and nothing seemed to happen, but just hearing about old
-dusty rubbish. Oh, yes, the streets were nice. Arthur says that in
-summer there are races, and amusements, and concerts out of doors, and
-all that sort of thing, but it was too cold when we were there. I went
-to hear the men speaking in Parliament, but it was dull; what is the
-good of listening to long speeches? One of Arthur’s friends took us--Sir
-John Denham--you may have heard of him. He was always offering us boxes
-for the theatre, but that was dull too.”
-
-“I am afraid you were difficult to please,” said Mrs. Eagles; but the
-Curate’s wife began to listen with a certain interest. It is always
-pleasant to hear familiarly about the Sir Johns of this world.
-
-“Yes, they all said I was difficult to please,” said Nancy, sweeping
-out of the chair she had just chosen, and nearly knocking down a small
-table on which stood a lamp. “Did you get your furniture from town, Mrs
-Eagles? Did you have one of the tip-top upholsterers to do it, or did
-you pick up things cheap?”
-
-“I am afraid we tried as much as we could to pick up things cheap,” said
-Mrs. Eagles, restraining the inclination to laugh which was gaining upon
-her. The other young woman was listening anxiously, seeing no fun in it,
-and their entertainer thought she liked Mrs. Arthur best.
-
-“I thought so,” said Nancy, calmly, fixing her eyes upon an Italian
-cabinet which was the pride of the house, “but I should just put my
-house into the hands of some tip-top man. I don’t like making up with
-part old and part new. I shall have everything of the best and the
-newest fashion,” she said, looking round with a delightful glow of
-complaisant superiority. But then she was Sir John Curtis’s
-daughter-in-law, and Mrs. Eagles was but a schoolmaster’s wife.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIV.
-
-
-“Party! it was no party at all!” said Nancy, “I have just been giving
-Arthur a piece of my mind. If he thinks I am going to take the trouble
-to have a dress made, and go out among folks I don’t know, to meet the
-Curate and his wife! why, we are just as good as they are! or rather, I
-should say, a deal better.” She was sitting over the fire next morning,
-by no means pleased with her entertainment. Now, indeed, was the time
-when she felt it most--for it had been sweet to think of dazzling her
-mother and sisters with an account of the grand ladies of the Green; and
-there was nothing now to comment upon, save poor little Mrs. Curate in
-her muslin frock! Arthur was in the room behind, shut off with folding
-doors from this; and she spoke loud that he might have the benefit of
-her remarks.
-
-“The Curate!” said Mrs. Bates, “my dear, it’s no compliment, it’s an
-insult to ask you; as if you are not good enough to meet the best.”
-
-“That is just what I said. I tell Arthur, if he were to stick up for me
-as he ought, nobody would dare to treat me like that. I consider,” said
-Nancy, “that we paid those Eagles a great compliment going; and to meet
-the Curate! as if we were not good enough to sit down with the finest
-folks in this wretched little hole of a place.”
-
-“The Curate is a very nice young man,” said Sarah Jane. “I should not
-mind him a bit. _I_ call him handsome; but then he’s married,” she added
-with lessened satisfaction. “And so are you married, so it comes to the
-same thing. I dare say they thought as you were both young couples--”
-
-“I wish you would think a little what you’re saying,” said Nancy. “Me!
-and her! a bit of a girl in white muslin! with a hundred and fifty a
-year, at the outside, to live on; and obliged to work hard among the
-poor, as hard as if she was a curate too--and me!”
-
-“Yes, indeed, there is no comparison,” said Mrs. Bates. “For shame,
-Sarah Jane! But, Nancy, you mustn’t forget that your sister has chosen
-her lot very different. John Raisins is an excellent young man; but he
-can’t open the doors of high life to her, as Arthur can open them to
-you. And it’s best that she should make up her mind to what she can
-have--not hanker after what she can’t. It’s very different, my darling
-child, with you.”
-
-“I am sure I don’t know if it’s different,” said Nancy. “He hasn’t
-opened many doors to me yet, and I think he’d shut your door if he
-could, which is the only one that’s left. Oh, why do girls marry? they
-are a deal better, if they could only think it, at home.” And with this
-Nancy began to cry.
-
-Arthur heard everything in the next room. He had himself felt the
-change in his position sorely on the previous night; and Mr. Eagles’
-sharp, yet somewhat mournful adjurations to him not to lose his time, to
-go on with his work, to do something, had intensified the effect. He had
-come upstairs early enough to hear the style of Nancy’s conversation
-with the two ladies, and this also had touched him deeply. What is more
-painful than to see those whom we love giving what, to our eyes, is a
-false representation of themselves to the outside world, which does not
-know them? Arthur felt this tingle to his very finger-points--a painful
-shame; her foolish rudeness, and the wrong which she did herself by this
-misrepresentation had made him miserable. If they could but see her as
-he knew her--as she was on other occasions? This, he said to himself,
-was not Nancy; it was a foolish braggart of the village, the type of the
-Bates family, not his wife, who was as much above the Bates in fine
-taste and perception as she was in beauty. To be sure, her taste had not
-lately told for very much. But that had been the influence of the
-uncomfortable position in which she had felt herself, or of her
-connections, whom she had so unfortunately insisted on coming back to.
-The pain had been exquisite with which Arthur watched his bride through
-this first appearance in society. It brought back to him the feelings
-which he had tried to forget, with which he had come in upon the violent
-termination of her interview with Mrs. Anthony Curtis. Was there nothing
-he could do, or say, which would persuade her that this was not the way
-to meet strangers who might turn out to be friends? He was sitting
-unhappy enough over his fire, having taken out a book or two, which lay
-on the table beside the “Times,” the usual occupation of his aimless
-morning. He had been trying to “read” as Mr. Eagles understood reading;
-but what were Demosthenes and Cicero to him? He could not go back now,
-and toil over the intricacies of language and argument which wanted all
-his attention ceaselessly, with happy ease of mind, not with painful
-pre-occupation of it, as he had pursued those studies in their earlier
-stages. He had never been a hard student, and why should he read now?
-What good would it do him? Would all the reading in the world, or his
-degree, when he had taken it, restore him to the world in which his wife
-could not accompany him, and would not try to accompany him, and where
-he could not go without her? He had been sitting dreamily over the fire,
-thinking it all over. The vague plan in his mind had been when Nancy was
-a little better prepared for it, a little more likely to incline in her
-own mind towards it, and willing to try to make the experiment
-successful, to take her home and present her to his father and mother,
-hoping that the surprise and the pleasure of his own return might
-procure them a welcome; this is what he had thought of even when he had
-written formal letters to Sir John, and those brief notes to Lucy or his
-mother, in which there was no reference to Nancy. When he could get her
-guided to that point--when he could feel that she could bear the trial,
-then to go. It had been his hope all through, a something vaguely looked
-forward to, though never brought down to any settled moment of time.
-But, alas! it had receded before him point by point. Nancy was not
-willing to do anything to please. She was of opinion that by herself,
-without any effort, she ought to rule easily over a subject world. She
-felt herself--not as he did, to be upon the painful threshold of an
-unexplored country, full of perils, in which all her efforts were needed
-to find herself a place--but rather to have conquered all that could be
-put in her way and attained every object--with the exception of the
-homage of those “stuck up” and disagreeable people, who were envious of
-her, and therefore would not pay her the attention to which she had a
-right, and whom Nancy would scorn to do anything to conciliate. What a
-difference between their points of view! And he who ought to have been
-the strongest, who was infinitely better educated, and more reasonable
-than Nancy, he was powerless to convey any other conviction to her
-mind; although she succeeded in agitating his with all sorts of tumults,
-with shame that she should show her worse qualities, and earn the
-disapproval she incurred--yet with hot resentment towards those who
-disapproved of her. Such sentiments are not unusual in human bosoms.
-Husbands feel so for their wives, and wives for their husbands, and
-parents for their children. Why will they show themselves at their worst
-to make strangers laugh, or wonder, or despise; and at the same time,
-how do they dare, these strangers, to despise, or laugh, or wonder? A
-more painful conflict of feeling cannot be.
-
-This was what Arthur was thinking, sitting drearily, not among the ruins
-of his domestic happiness, but before the sunny, common-place, too
-trimly new and flimsy altar of those capricious deities who rule the
-hearth. He had not yet been six months married: but how the bloom had
-gone off all his hopes, and with how little confidence he regarded the
-future, which once had seemed to him so bright! And as he sat there,
-with his books thrown down at his elbow, and the “Times” thrust away
-from him upon the table, with a sort of loathing in his mind both of the
-studies which could now, he thought, do him no good if he returned to
-them, and of the public life, once certain, which now seemed to have
-become impossible and undesirable, he heard Mrs. Bates and Sarah Jane
-come in and the conversation that followed. Even now Arthur had sense
-enough (and it was creditable to him) to throw himself into no vulgar
-vituperation of his mother-in-law. The woman was well enough; she was
-kind, and almost fierce in independence, taking nothing from him, giving
-not receiving hospitality, and in no way disposed to encourage his wife
-in anything disagreeable to him. It was not Mrs. Bates that was in
-fault, but Nancy herself--she who had seemed to him such a lily of grace
-and sweetness among all these common-place people. She was so still, he
-believed; she was not like them, who were natural to their sphere, and
-suggested nothing better. He was faithful notwithstanding all
-imperfections to his first ideal of her; but her words thrilled through
-and through him, scarring him as with burning arrows. “He had not opened
-any doors to her. Oh, why did girls marry!” was this what his wife asked
-after five months of marriage with him? Arthur’s veins seemed to fill
-full as if some essence of pain had been poured into them. He darted up
-overcome by sharp misery and shame, and a passionate resentment which he
-could not restrain. It took him but a moment to throw open the folding
-doors. If one minute more had elapsed, it would have brought a second
-thought, but there was no interval in which this was possible. He threw
-open the door and stood looking at her, for the moment too tremulous and
-agitated to speak. She had put shame upon him before those women who
-were the only visitors she cared for. When she saw him, Nancy jumped up
-too and confronted him.
-
-“Well?” she said, loudly, with a sharp and tremulous voice of
-interrogation. What had he to say for himself? She had said nothing
-which she was not ready to stand to, which she would not defend with all
-her powers. No one had ever known Nancy to flinch. However hot and hasty
-had been her assertions, however lightly said, she had always stood up
-for them; and to such a palpable challenge and trumpet call to conflict,
-it was not likely she would give in now.
-
-He stood and looked at her for a moment almost wavering. It was not the
-first time she had said such things, why should he resent it so much
-more than usual?
-
-“Did you mean that?” he said. “Do you really think that I have closed
-doors but opened none, and that girls would not marry if they knew--”
-
-“I said it, therefore I must have meant it,” cried Nancy, with a flush
-of angry red. “If you sit and listen to what women are saying! But I
-never say anything I will not stand to. Yes: what door have you opened
-to me, Arthur? it was mother’s words first. Not your father and
-mother’s, which was the first to be thought of, nor any of your
-friends’; but mother’s has always been open to you.”
-
-“Oh, hush, hush!” cried Mrs. Bates. “Oh, children, you don’t know what
-you’re doing. Why should you quarrel? Nancy, hold your tongue--you’ll be
-sorry after that you ever said a word.”
-
-“Not I!” cried Nancy. “I am not one to bottle things up. I’ll say it out
-plain before you both, and you can be my witness, mother. When I knew
-Arthur first, I never thought what he was. Gentleman or poor man it was
-all one to me. He was my fancy, and that was all I thought of. When that
-man came, that Durant, then I began to see what I was bringing on me;
-but it was too late to draw back. And I said to myself, I’d let him see
-it wasn’t his money I wanted, and that I’d never kootoo to one of his
-grand friends. And I never have,” she cried, with angry energy, “and I
-never will. You’ve opened no doors to me--nor I don’t want you to; but
-you shan’t think that it’s been a grand thing for me to marry you,
-neither you nor anyone belonging to you. It hasn’t. You’d separate me
-from my own people if you could, and you don’t give me any other; and I
-say again, if girls only knew--”
-
-“Mrs. Bates,” said Arthur, with trembling lips. “I do not think I have
-tried to separate your daughter from you. I may defend myself so far as
-this; and I had hoped that some time or other she would have gone with
-me to knock at that door which you upbraid me with not having opened.
-But what am I to do if, as she tells you, she never will? she never has
-shown the slightest inclination to do so, that is the truth indeed.”
-
-“It was them that should have come to her--that’s what she thinks,” said
-Mrs. Bates, “and she’s hot-tempered. You know she’s hot-tempered. She
-don’t mean half of what she says. Oh, don’t now, don’t quarrel,
-children!” cried the mother. In the _mêlée_ Sarah Jane thought she might
-as well take a part too.
-
-“I don’t wonder that Nancy was affronted. That stuck up Miss Curtis
-coming with her ‘dear Arthur’s,’ and her ‘dear brother’s,’ and taking no
-notice, no more than if we were cabbages, of us; but as for Nancy not
-thinking of who he was, and that it was a grand marriage, oh, didn’t she
-just! You may tell that to those that will believe it, you had better
-not tell it to me.”
-
-“You nasty, spiteful, tale-telling disagreeable thing!” cried Nancy,
-furious, turning upon her sister, who laughed in her face, and ran round
-in fright, which was half real, half pretended, to the other side of the
-round table. Arthur stood aghast while this playful episode, so much out
-of keeping with his feelings, went on. It was out of keeping to Nancy
-too. No smile came upon her face. “I thought it was a great marriage I
-was making, if you please,” she said, after she too had paused with the
-sense of a crisis, and stared at her sister’s pretended sportiveness. No
-smile relaxed the lips of either of the contending pair. “I thought so,
-you may say it. I thought I should be a lady, and mix with the best in
-the land; what’s come of it? Have I ever set foot among the folks you
-belong to, or their kind? No, I said the truth, there’s no door been
-open to me--the other way! You would shut mother’s door upon me if you
-could, you would keep me away from my own folks--the only friends I
-have. But you’ll never do it, Arthur, you may as well give it up at
-once. I’ll stick to them that’s good to me, and I won’t stir a step to
-court your people, nor to curry favour--no, not if you would ask me on
-your knees. I wrote to my lady, because I promised, but my lady wouldn’t
-make much of my letter; and never will I make myself so cheap again,
-never if I should live hundreds of years.”
-
-“Nancy, Nancy, my child!” cried her mother, “you must not make rash
-vows. You don’t know what you’ll do till the time comes. She’s
-hot-tempered. That’s all about. And if Arthur will say he is sorry--”
-
-“What shall I say I am sorry for, Mrs. Bates?”
-
-“Oh, now this is too bad. Don’t you see it will please her? She always
-was a bit unreasonable and high-tempered. You can’t help your temper,
-it’s a thing that’s born with you. Say you’re sorry, and smooth her down
-a little, and she’ll soon come round and promise anything you like. I
-know my Nancy. She is hot-headed, and she’s contrairy, but her heart’s
-in the right place,” said the mother. Mrs. Bates was frightened by the
-contraction in Arthur’s face.
-
-“I have nothing to be sorry for,” he said. “I have made no accusations
-against anyone; but I cannot always give in. I have come here to please
-her, and she is not pleased. Let us go away. Let Nancy second me in my
-attempt to get back into a natural life. It is not natural that I should
-be cooped up here, doing nothing, wasting my time. I must get out of it
-somehow. Either you will go with me, Nancy, or I must go alone. I cannot
-go on in this way any longer.”
-
-“You shan’t then!” she cried, with redoubled heat. “Go--wherever you
-like for me. Oh, yes, go back to your family that you’re so fond of. You
-and your friends do nothing but despise me, even a bit of a
-schoolmaster’s wife! Don’t hold me, don’t keep me back, mamma. I’ll not
-be left, whatever happens; it’s me that will go, and he can do what he
-pleases. Don’t I tell you! Nobody shall hold me, nobody shall keep me in
-one place rather than another against my will. But I shan’t stay to be
-forsaken. Oh, don’t think it, Arthur! It’s me that will go.”
-
-“I have said nothing about forsaking you,” he said; but he was wearied
-out with such struggles, and he made no appeal to her to stay. This
-decided Nancy. She rushed impetuously from the room, leaving them all
-staring at each other, without giving a word of explanation. Mrs. Bates,
-whose face was somewhat blank, called to Sarah Jane to follow her
-sister, and herself turned to Arthur with an attempt at a smile.
-
-“It will soon be over now,” she said. “You mustn’t be hard upon her,
-Arthur. For all we know, there may be something working with her that
-she can’t resist. Young women have queer ways, and you can’t tell what’s
-the cause of it till after. Don’t you mind; go back to your books,
-there’s a dear, and take no notice. She’ll have a good cry, and she’ll
-come to herself, and you mustn’t mind.”
-
-It was not this address that quieted him; but what could he do? The
-position was so impossible that he was glad to withdraw from it. It was
-worse than ever, now that one of these altercations had taken place
-before witnesses; he went back sadly to his fire and sat down again,
-blaming himself for the exasperation which had made him speak. Probably
-Mrs. Bates was right, and it was all over. She might come downstairs,
-looking as if nothing had happened, or she might come down penitent, as
-she sometimes did; and this got the better of him at once. But anyhow,
-he would not insist upon continuing the altercation, he was too glad
-that it was over. He sat down, sighing, and drearily drew towards him
-the Demosthenes that lay on the table. How unimportant all that dead
-eloquence was, side by side with living passion! The petty stir of
-domestic dissensions was too near to let him hear the ring of the old
-disputations, the flow and flood of the old eloquence. Nancy’s voice, in
-all the warmth of passion, rang more clear on the ear than the greatest
-of orators. He sat with his nerves all thrilling, and his mind vainly
-striving to get a little instruction through his eyes. Those eyes read
-easily enough, hot though they were with the strain they had been
-subjected to, but the mind received no impression. It was more busy in
-his ears, listening to what was going on. He heard the hasty sound of
-Nancy’s footstep upstairs; then he heard her come down, and there were
-voices in the little hall, confused and undertoned, one voice mingling
-with another; and then there was the sound of the hall-door closing. He
-sat after this with a strange sensation, as if that sound of the door
-had jarred him in every limb. He did not seem able to move to see what
-it was. But the stillness that fell upon the little house was ominous.
-Instead of the excited voices which had been audible a little while ago,
-filling the place with contention, what a strange deadly sort of quiet!
-Arthur was wearied out. So many vicissitudes of feeling had not occurred
-in all his previous life as had come to him within these five months
-past. Happiness, delight, disappointment, vexation, irritated nerves,
-wounded affection, mortified pride, and that combination of impassioned
-love and disenchanted vision which is of all things in the world the
-hardest to bear. How different, how different from his anticipations!
-How lightly the lovers’ quarrels had gone off, quenched in tears and
-smiles, and mutual confessions and warmer fondness. “The falling out of
-faithful friends renewing is of love.” But then that must not go too
-far, or continue too long, and the shiver of hot shame which she had
-brought over him so often, the uncertainty as to how she would acquit
-herself which was always present, the passionate mortification with
-which he had seen other people’s smiles, or heard other people’s
-comments, all these were very different from the lovers’ quarrels. He
-held his Demosthenes steadily in his hand, and attempted to read. How
-far off it was! and the other so near; and of all the things that can
-occupy a man’s ear, what is so absorbing as the dead silence of vacancy
-after a struggle which has threatened everything, and had ended
-in--what? Nothing, silence, vacancy, probably bringing no consequence at
-all.
-
-Nancy did not come in at the hour of luncheon. He waited for her,
-refusing that refreshment until it was clear she did not mean to come
-back. Then he swallowed a glass of wine hastily, and prepared in his
-turn to go out--not to seek her. He was resolved that this time, at
-least, she should be left in tranquillity, left to do what pleased her
-best. He had just gone into the hall to get his hat when some one came
-to the door. How his heart jumped! and how sick it grew again when it
-turned out to be only Mr. Eagles, who had come to make a serious
-remonstrance.
-
-“You oughtn’t to lose your time,” the “coach” said, bending his brows.
-“If you can’t do anything better, you should come back to me. The old
-set are still hard at work, and there are two or three new men that
-will make their mark. It can’t be lively here, doing nothing. Why,
-you’ve nothing to do, not even fishing or football, eh? I never hear of
-you playing football. What do you do?”
-
-“Nothing,” said Arthur; “and I can’t say I like it; but what’s the good?
-I am too old for football and that sort of thing.”
-
-“Ah, four-and-twenty, that’s a great age; but I know what you mean.
-Married! there’s the rub--feel yourself too grand for it. But look here,
-Curtis. A man can’t live with nothing to do.”
-
-“The wonder to me is how long a man can live with nothing to do,” said
-Arthur. “But as I say, what’s the good? I’m too old now to care about my
-degree. What does it matter, one way or the other? I have got beyond
-that stage.”
-
-“Married, again!” said Mr. Eagles; “that is what drives me wild--not the
-fact, which is harmless enough; but Lord, how grand you all think
-yourselves! However, it don’t last. You can’t feed upon strawberries and
-cream all your lives, my dear fellow. You must buckle to at something,
-or you will be nobody. I don’t like anyone who has passed through my
-hands, to be nobody. You had better read, Curtis, you had better read.”
-
-“Yes,” said Arthur, vaguely.
-
-He was quite willing to pledge himself to anything so long as Mr. Eagles
-would but go away, and leave him to listen and make sure if anyone came:
-or get out into the air and distract his mind from listening. One or the
-other, he felt, he must do.
-
-“The best thing will be to come back to me,” said Mr. Eagles; “at least
-you won’t lose your time completely, and you’ll find it a relief. Too
-many sweets will pall upon you; take them in measure and they are
-delightful enough. Come, Curtis, I make you an offer I needn’t say, for
-you know, that I don’t require to go hunting for pupils; but, my good
-fellow, for your own sake you had better come back.”
-
-“Yes,” said Arthur, with a sudden lightening and ease which diffused
-itself all over him. There was another sound at the door; and this time
-it must, there could be no doubt, be Nancy. This relief made it
-possible for him to listen. His countenance cleared. He had not really
-known what his fears were, but he felt the vague greatness of them in
-this sense of immediate ease and relief.
-
-But all the blood rushed to his head again, and the pulses began to beat
-in his brow when the door opened, and not Nancy appeared, but the maid,
-showing in the unexpected, and in the circumstances, alarming figure of
-Durant.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XV.
-
-
-“There is something wrong at home!”
-
-This most natural of all the ideas with which foreboding human nature
-sees a sudden arrival, sprang to Arthur’s lips almost in spite of
-himself. He was already so torn by anxiety and alarm that it seemed
-perfectly appropriate that other griefs should come to distract him, and
-he scarcely understood the eager “No” with which Durant replied. It was
-not till they were seated together, one at each side of the fire--Mr.
-Eagles having taken his departure--that Arthur realized that the burning
-confusion and pain in his head arose from the fact that his wife had
-gone out in a fit of passion a few hours ago and had not yet come back,
-not so very serious a matter--and was not owing to any suddenly heard
-of calamity, at home.
-
-“No, things are all well, but I have something to say to you, Arthur,”
-said Durant. And he began a long commission, which Arthur heard vaguely
-and did not understand. It was to the effect that the post of attaché to
-a foreign embassy which the young man had wished for, was open to him,
-and this was coupled with overtures from the parents whose hearts were
-yearning over Arthur. Probably there is after all nothing so well
-calculated as long silence to wear out the indignation and resentment of
-fathers and mothers. However hot these may be at first, the blank misery
-of knowing nothing about a child beloved, damps and quenches the ardour
-of offence, and in a great many cases the cruel son or daughter has his
-or her will out of the sheer intolerableness of this break, and anxiety
-of the tender hearts on whom this unfeeling passiveness tells more
-severely than any more actively offensive treatment. This had been
-working for all these months at Oakley. Hearing nothing! it was almost
-worse than death, of which this miserable certainty that we shall hear
-no more of those we have lost, is the greatest bitterness--tempered,
-however, with the counterbalancing certainty which alone makes us
-capable of bearing it, that human events are over to them, and that none
-of the calamities with which we are familiar can happen to those who are
-beyond the veil. But the Curtises knew that anything or everything might
-be happening to Arthur, while they had no news of him, and were as
-ignorant of all his ways as if he had been dead. And when the
-information came of this vacancy which he had desired so much, the
-opportunity was not to be resisted. They had said nothing about it to
-each other for twenty-four hours, and then had burst forth the universal
-feeling. Let him accept this, and let him come home and bring his wife,
-if no better might be. She had been insolent, what did it matter? She
-was the price that must be paid for Arthur; and the moment it became
-possible to have Arthur, they all felt that they were too ready to pay
-any price. Lady Curtis had telegraphed for Durant when the general
-conviction burst forth, and the household at Oakley were now full of
-excitement, already beginning to prepare rooms for Arthur and his wife,
-and forgetting all other feelings in the pleasure of seeing their boy
-again. Durant had lost no time. He was too faithful a friend to consider
-that Arthur had all but repulsed his friendly offices after the
-marriage, and that not a word of recollection had reached him from
-Underhayes during the entire winter. He went down to Oakley at once to
-receive his commission, and here he was with full credentials. The
-father and mother made no conditions. If Arthur accepted this
-appointment, which was the best thing he could do, let him come home and
-bring his wife. That was all. And it may be supposed that Durant,
-feeling himself the bearer of proposals both generous and tender, was
-startled and affronted by the confused and pre-occupied way in which
-Arthur seemed to listen, not understanding him, starting at every sound
-outside, continually disturbed, and with a look of nervous agitation
-which had evidently nothing to do with the question in hand.
-
-“Do you not understand me?” he cried at last, indignant: and then the
-rising excitement in Arthur’s mind burst forth.
-
-“Durant, my wife has gone away to her mother’s. I--I can’t answer all at
-once.”
-
-“What do you mean, Arthur? How disturbed you look! Has anything
-happened?” cried Durant. Arthur made an effort to recover himself. He
-laughed tremulously.
-
-“You know me, Lewis,” he said, “I am a--nervous sort of fellow, though I
-don’t look it perhaps.”
-
-“I know. There _is_ something the matter, Arthur. What is it? Is your
-wife ill? What has happened?”
-
-“Well--nothing has happened. I have been living rather a solitary life,
-and one gets irritable--and easily put out.”
-
-“You have had a--difficulty, as the Americans call it--a lover’s
-quarrel,” said Durant, with a laugh, which was far from according with
-his feelings.
-
-“That is just it. No, not a lover’s quarrel, but a difficulty. We see
-things from different points of view; and I don’t know how she will like
-this, I must wait. I cannot decide until I know.”
-
-“Arthur, it is all very well, all very right to consult your wife; but
-you can’t think of neglecting such an opportunity. It is altogether
-unconditional. They will receive her, as if she were a Duke’s daughter;
-you know, when once they have made up their minds to it, there will be
-no stint, she will have no reason to complain of her reception.”
-
-Arthur’s head was turned to the door.
-
-“You will think me silly,” he said; “a fool! but I cannot help it. One
-thing I will tell you, Durant; I will go to Vienna. I don’t think it’s
-too late; five months is not long enough at my age to put a man out
-altogether, is it? But as for Nancy, I can’t answer. If she will go with
-me home, if she will go with me to Vienna, I can’t tell you. We must see
-her first. She is at her mother’s--”
-
-“You don’t mean to say that she has left you, Arthur?”
-
-“Oh no, no,” he said; “that is rather too absurd, the most ridiculous
-idea. Come along, Durant, let us get out and stretch our legs. I have
-not had a real walk for ages. Of course, as it’s Saturday you are going
-to stay till Monday? That is right, that is a true pleasure. She is
-at--her mother’s,” he added, changing the subject abruptly, and dropping
-his voice.
-
-What did it mean? Durant could not tell. He had not disliked Nancy;
-though she had defied him too, it had been done in a way which did not
-offend the young man. He had admired her, even when she attacked himself
-personally; and he had been inclined to think as Arthur did, that she
-was a lily among those weeds. He had not been surprised at his friend’s
-infatuation. He had thought her a beautiful high-spirited girl, full of
-a generous if over vehement disdain for the conventional judgment that
-made her appear an unfit wife for a man of worldly position superior to
-her own. Her threat to give up her lover, and her counter decision to
-marry him disinherited, in order to show his friends how little she
-cared about his money, were fresh in his mind. And he had liked Nancy;
-though he had been formally on the other side as Lady Curtis’s agent, he
-had never really been unfriendly; he remembered well his old
-difficulties when he had tried to persuade Arthur to relinquish his
-faith to this girl who trusted in him, and with what a sense of relief
-he had found that all his arguments were vain, and Arthur’s honour and
-love invulnerable. He was mystified and perplexed, as well as grieved,
-by Arthur’s painful pre-occupation now, not knowing what could have
-happened. They went out in the teeth of the March wind, which blew sharp
-and keen along the suburban roads.
-
-“I have not had anything to call a walk for weeks,” Arthur said, with a
-feverish look of eagerness, as they reached the fresh breadth of the
-common, with the green fields and country paths beyond. The hedgerows
-were bristling with buds, the skies softly blue, where they could be
-seen through the masses of cloud that swept across the great vault
-overhead. The young man sped along like a loosened greyhound, and his
-friend, fresh from the confinement of town, had hard ado to follow him.
-He talked little as he went along. Was he walking so fast to escape some
-care that weighed upon him? If it was not for that there was no other
-motive, for the walk was without any object. Now and then he would break
-forth for a moment about this prospect which Durant had come to offer
-him. “It would be the best thing,” he would say, “far the best thing. I
-must get rid of this one way or other.” Then he would be silent, and
-after a mile or so say to himself again, “Yes, _this_ will not do--I
-must go, it is plain. Going may be salvation.” Durant did not know what
-irrepressible cares were plucking at his friend’s skirts and compelling
-him to these resolutions; and he himself talked calmly of Oakley, of the
-desires of the family there, and the haste they were in to send him off
-upon his mission, and all the anticipations of Arthur’s return which
-they had already begun to entertain. At this Arthur did nothing but
-shake his head, “Will _she_ consent?” he said once. Would Nancy consent?
-was that what he meant? Consent! what excuse could she have not to
-consent? They walked far, at a great pace, and Durant was almost worn
-out. He lagged behind his friend as he approached the house. It was
-still all dark, one faint gleam of firelight in the drawing-room
-contending feebly with the grey of the twilight, no one at the window
-looking out for them, no lamp lighted. “Has Mrs. Curtis returned?”
-Arthur asked of the maid, as they went on, and was answered No. They
-went into her part of the house, the white little drawing-room, where
-indeed there were no pretty signs of Nancy’s presence, no work or books
-to mar the trimness of the place, but all the chairs set against the
-wall, and the fire flickering dimly in the grate. And the dinner hour
-came without any appearance of Nancy. Arthur got more and more agitated
-as the time went on--and Durant more and more surprised.
-
-“Is your wife dining out?” he said, when he found they were about to sit
-down at the table without her. Arthur made no distinct answer; he said
-after a while, as if he had then heard the question for the first
-time--“She is at her mother’s.” He did not change his dress before
-dinner, or show any recollection of the need of such preliminaries, but
-sat over the fire, vaguely replying now and then when his friend spoke
-to him, and starting at every sound.
-
-“Shall you not wait for Mrs. Curtis?” Durant said, as Arthur took him
-into the little dining-room.
-
-“She is at her mother’s,” was all Arthur replied. Altogether it was very
-mysterious, and Durant could not but feel that there was mischief in the
-air.
-
-At last when the clock had struck ten, and there was no appearance of
-Nancy, Arthur sprang to his feet. “I must go and fetch her,” he said,
-“this will never do--this will never do!” Durant took his hat
-mechanically also, and they walked out without another word into the
-windy night. The sky looked widened and enlarged by the boisterous
-breeze which drove mass after mass of clouds across the blue, and across
-the face of the waning moon, which shone out at intervals only to be
-swallowed up again by those floating vapours. There was a certain hurry,
-and coldness, and agitation in the night. The way from Rose Villas into
-the lighted street of Underhayes was dark, and the alternations of gloom
-and light in the sky made the vision uncertain. Durant could see how
-anxiously his friend peered at all the figures they met on the darkling
-road; but Nancy was not on her way home. They went on in silence to the
-street which Durant remembered perfectly, and to the door, at which
-Arthur left him standing as he went in. He had stood there before, and
-heard the voices in the parlour when he came here first in search of
-Arthur; how strange to come here now in search of Arthur’s runaway wife!
-for this was what it seemed to be now. He could hear the silence which
-followed Arthur’s entrance--a pause which was impressive from the
-confusion of voices that had been audible before. “I have come for
-Nancy,” he heard him say.
-
-Arthur had gone in without any question. He had left his friend at the
-door, neither thinking nor caring that some revelation might be made
-which it was better Durant should not hear. He steadied his own
-countenance not to look angry or anxious. “Are you ready?” he said,
-addressing his wife, “I did not think you meant to stay so long.”
-
-“You have not given yourself much trouble to look after me,” said Nancy.
-“No, I am not ready. I don’t mean to go.”
-
-“What does she mean?” he said with a tremble in his voice, turning to
-Mrs. Bates.
-
-“Oh, Arthur, I don’t know what she means. She is as hot-tempered and as
-contrary as possible. She takes up things quite wrong. You never meant
-to drive her away, did you? You had not thought of leaving her--tell her
-for heaven’s sake! She will not listen to me.”
-
-There was no one in the parlour but Mrs. Bates and Sarah Jane. It was a
-night when the tax-collector was busy adding up one of his lists of
-defaulters, and it was the same party which had witnessed the dispute of
-the morning which was assembled now. That was one reason of the sudden
-quiet; the other was, the awe and horror that had come over the family
-at Nancy’s obstinate resolution to stay at home, and return to her
-husband no more--a resolution which he had divined, and which had
-weighed on him for the whole day.
-
-“I--leave her!” said Arthur, “what did I say that looked like leaving
-her? Nancy, come home. I have been very unhappy, not knowing why you
-stayed away from me, and now I have something to consult you about. Come
-home.”
-
-“I am at home,” said Nancy, sullenly. “It is no use talking. I have
-taken my resolution. Go away, Arthur, as you said, I mean to stay here.”
-
-“What does she mean?” he cried in dismay.
-
-“Oh! I mean what I say. You told me you were going. You said I might
-come if I pleased. I--who hate strangers--I, after all the slights
-you’ve brought upon me! but that any how you were going. I’ve left for
-good and all. Mother can go and pack up the things, and dismiss the
-servants, and leave you free; but one word’s enough to me, Arthur, you
-shall never have occasion to say another. I don’t budge from here unless
-mother turns me out. And as soon as you please, you can go.”
-
-They all looked at each other--the others pale, Nancy red with
-excitement and passion.
-
-“You don’t mean this, Nancy,” Arthur said. “You cannot mean, for a hasty
-word, to forsake me; it is not possible. A hasty word! how many have you
-said to me. Come--come, you are angry; but how little there is to be
-angry about! We have had more serious discussions before,” he added with
-a faint smile, “and you have said much worse things to me.”
-
-“It does not matter what I said, but what you said. No, Arthur, you may
-put up with whatever you like; but I won’t put up with it,” she said,
-in all the unreasonableness of passion. “You might think it didn’t
-matter what I say; but I think it does matter what you say. No, I am not
-going back. You may talk till you’re sick--it won’t make any difference
-to me.”
-
-“Nancy! don’t be such a fool,” said Sarah Jane. “Why, only think how
-people will talk. Not six months married, and coming back home! And
-after all the fuss that was made about your marrying, and the grand
-catch we fancied it was. When you come to think of it you can’t be such
-a fool.”
-
-“Nancy--Nancy, my dear, you’re unreasonable! indeed you’re
-unreasonable--when Arthur says he did not mean it.”
-
-“Nancy!” cried the young man, “why do you torment me like this--what
-have I done to you? You make my life a constant contention. We never
-have a quiet moment. Have I failed in love to you--have I not thought of
-you in everything? You will drive me mad, I think. Have I ever
-neglected you, or injured you?”
-
-“You said you would leave me,” said Nancy, “that’s enough, I told you at
-the time. Oh! never a man in this world shall say that he has forsaken
-_me_! I am not one that will be forsaken. Go, Arthur, go where you
-please. I shall stay here.”
-
-“Nancy, Lewis Durant is at the door. He has brought a message of the
-greatest importance from Oakley.”
-
-“Lewis Durant!” she started to her feet with fresh impetuosity, “that
-was all that was wanted. Do you think I will stay behind to see Lewis
-Durant--to let him spy and tell my Lady. No, mamma, no! That’s decided
-me. Good night to you all. You may do what you please--but here I’ll
-stay.”
-
-And Nancy darted out of the midst of them, quick as thought, while they
-all stood stupefied, and rushed out of the room and upstairs, where, as
-they listened they heard her quick steps overhead thrilling through the
-little house, and the quick closing and locking of the door.
-
-The shock affected the three in different ways. Sarah Jane began to cry.
-Mrs. Bates, trembling, went up to Arthur and caught him by the arm. This
-strange, terrible incident changed him from her son-in-law, with whom
-she was familiar, into her daughter’s judge, before whom she trembled.
-
-“Oh, Mr. Curtis, Mr. Curtis!” she said. “The girl’s wild and out of her
-senses. Don’t think too badly of her. It’s like a madness. Oh, forgive
-her!” The mother was in too deadly earnest to be able for tears.
-
-“What am I to do?” said Arthur, overcome, with a gasp as if for breath.
-
-“Oh, my dear, my dear! Leave her; she is out of her senses, she is out
-of her senses, she is out of her mind! Leave her to me, and I’ll bring
-her to you to-morrow to beg your pardon. I will, Arthur, if anything in
-this world can do it,” Mrs. Bates said, clasping her hands.
-
-“There is nothing else to be done,” said Arthur. He was as pale as
-death. He seemed to get his breath with difficulty as he stood there,
-struck with wonder, paralyzed with the sense of impotence in his mind,
-and the dire injury that had been done him. A friend may leave a friend,
-or even a child a parent; but when a wife, a six months’ bride, leaves
-her husband even for a day, even in the house of her father, it is as if
-some horrible convulsion had happened which turns the world upside down.
-He said nothing more to anyone, but went out, and caught at Durant’s arm
-to support him, and walked home under the flying clouds, through the
-stormy, agitated night. The night was like his mind, swept by wild
-thoughts, overclouded by profound glooms. He scarcely said anything to
-Durant, who seemed to divine all that happened, though nothing was said
-to him. It was well he was there. When they went back to the villa, the
-poor little villa, which was at once so desolate and so meaningless
-without Nancy, the young man gave a heavy groan, which seemed to echo
-through the mean little rooms. Could anything change this fact, any
-coming back again, any penitence? His wife had forsaken him. Nancy had
-gone back to her mother’s. It might be only for a night, but could
-anything change the fact? His life had come to a stop; no making up
-could alter that. As he had been even this morning, he could never be
-again any more.
-
-It was Durant who told that little falsehood to the servants about why
-their mistress stayed away. She was not well, he said, and they need not
-wait up, as it was doubtful whether she would come home. And he stayed
-by Arthur through the long dull hours, hearing in breaks and snatches
-something of the story which poor Arthur felt was now over: how they had
-lived together, and how, according to all he could tell, they had
-parted. When the flood-tides were opened, it relieved Arthur to speak.
-He showed his friend in his despair all that was in his heart, his love
-for Nancy, which was ready to forgive everything, and yet the wounds
-which she had given to him.
-
-“It is not her fault,” he said. “It is the want of training. She has
-never realised it, what she married for. She thinks it was only to be
-happy, to be loved and flattered, to have everything happy round her.”
-This the poor young fellow said as if it was the best excuse in the
-world. “That is how she has been brought up. It is not her fault. She
-has not considered me, nor that there is a duty; and was I to be the one
-to remind her of her duty, Durant? I did not want her to love me because
-it was her duty. I wanted her to do her duty because of her love,” said
-Arthur, unconsciously antithetical. Durant listened to everything, and
-made few comments. If he said anything in sympathy for his friend which
-meant condemnation of Nancy, Arthur rose up and stopped him. “How can
-you tell how she was aggravated?” he said. It was not till the middle of
-the night that Durant could persuade him to go to bed; and by that time
-the desolateness of the dreary little house without Nancy, which had no
-soul or meaning but Nancy, struck Lewis almost as much as it did Arthur.
-Poor little miserable shell of a place, which had outgrown its sense and
-its use!
-
-Next day was a busy but a miserable day. Durant was at the Bates’ little
-house as soon as it was opened in the morning, hoping that his eloquence
-might be more effectual than that of the poor young husband, and that he
-might be able, through her mother, to induce Nancy to come back. He
-found Mrs. Bates very anxious and tearful, very well disposed, but
-powerless. He gave her a hint of the proposal he had brought from
-Oakley, and of the unconditional surrender of the Curtises, which the
-mother carried to her daughter upstairs, but without any favourable
-issue. Later he came back with Arthur. Nancy kept upstairs, she would
-not show--and all the household was against her.
-
-“I never held with it,” said the tax-collector. “I told my wife so from
-the first. I never hold with a young woman complaining of her husband.
-Mrs. Bates is too kind a mother, that’s what it is.”
-
-These things penetrated into Arthur’s heart almost unawares; that his
-wife had complained of him all through; that there had been talk of the
-advantages of the marriage, and that Nancy had hoped to be well off, and
-to make a great match, and had married him with that view. All these
-things sank into his heart. Was this true, or was it all the truth? It
-cannot be said that he believed it, yet it acted upon him as if he had
-believed, bringing a mingled pain and bitterness, against which at this
-moment he was incapable of struggling. All that day long they kept
-coming and going, pleading with her to return; but when another night
-came, and the slow hours dragged through with the same excitements as
-before--without her, or hope of her--all sense of possible renewal died
-out of these hasty young hearts, and the severance seemed complete.
-
-
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-<a href="#CHAPTER_I">CHAPTER I., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_II"> II., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_III"> III., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_IV"> IV., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_V"> V., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_VI"> VI., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_VII"> VII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_VIII"> VIII., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_IX"> IX., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_X"> X., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XI"> XI., </a>
-<a href="#CHAPTER_XVI"> XVI., </a>
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-<a href="#CHAPTER_XIV"> XIV., </a>
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-
-<h1>MRS. ARTHUR.</h1>
-
-<p class="c"><small>BY</small><br /><br />
-
-MRS. OLIPHANT,<br /><br />
-
-<small>AUTHOR OF</small><br /><br /><span class="eng">
-“The Chronicles of Carlingford,”<br /><br />
-&amp;c. &amp;c.</span></p>
-
-<div class="poetry">
-<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<span class="i0">“Fie, fie! unknit that threat’ning, unkind brow,<br /></span>
-<span class="i0">And dart not scornful glances from those eyes.<br /></span>
-<span class="i4e"> . . . . . . .<br /></span>
-<span class="i0">A woman mov’d is like a fountain troubled.”<br /></span>
-<span class="i12">TAMING OF THE SHREW.<br /></span>
-</div></div>
-</div>
-
-<div class="poetry">
-<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<span class="i0">“He breathed a sigh, and toasted Nancy!”<br /></span>
-<span class="i12">DIBDIN.<br /></span>
-</div></div>
-</div>
-
-<p class="c">
-IN THREE VOLUMES.<br />
-<br />
-VOL. II.<br />
-<br />
-LONDON:<br />
-HURST AND BLACKETT, PUBLISHERS,<br />
-13, GREAT MARLBOROUGH STREET.<br />
-<br />
-1877.<br />
-<br />
-<i>All rights reserved.</i><br />
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_1" id="page_1">{1}</a></span></p>
-
-<h1>MRS. ARTHUR.</h1>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_I" id="CHAPTER_I"></a>CHAPTER I.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">A</span>RTHUR CURTIS did not think of the letter which old Davies had given him
-till days after. It had been crushed up in the pocket of his coat, the
-sight of his sister, and all the contending emotions of the time having
-put it out of his head; and what could there be agreeable in such a
-communication at such a time? A final sermon to him upon his folly, a
-final admonition as to all the terrible consequences of his fault&mdash;he
-had, he thought, enough of these, and he had not cared to make himself
-miserable on his wedding-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_2" id="page_2">{2}</a></span>day with such a communication. It was not
-unmixed delight, even without that, though this was not a confession he
-made to himself, in words, at least. But the sight of his sister’s
-writing half sickened him when he saw it eventually. To be told that the
-course you are pursuing is ruinous, when you are entirely delighted with
-that course, is bad enough; but to be told so when the first shock of
-doubt, the first sharp suspicion of a mistake, has come into your mind,
-is unendurable. Arthur had not, it may be supposed, allowed to himself
-that this was already the state of affairs within a few days after his
-marriage. He was the “happiest of men;” the society of his bride was
-sweet to him, and her tenderness gave him an exquisite, indescribable,
-all-penetrating delight, notwithstanding everything. Is the sudden shock
-of that absolute identification of two different people, the one with
-the other, ever for the first moment, a happiness unmingled? It was not,
-at least,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_3" id="page_3">{3}</a></span> to Arthur. And Nancy was not one of those compliant,
-sweet-tempered women who swamp their own habits and ways in those of
-their husbands. Arthur had known these habits intimately enough; but the
-changed relationship brought such an entire change of aspect as was
-astonishing to himself. Heretofore he had been able to admire as
-piquant, or to laugh at as amusing, the roughnesses or simplicities of a
-breeding so different from his own; but suddenly an entire difference
-had come upon his feelings. Now that he was responsible for these
-peculiarities, they became alarming to him; he saw them with the eyes of
-other people, of his mother, his sister, of Durant even, who would
-wonder and be horrified to see Arthur’s wife so conducting herself. She
-was no longer Nancy Bates, the girl for whom he was willing to risk the
-world&mdash;but a part of himself, in whom his own character, his own very
-being, was involved. This made the strangest differ<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_4" id="page_4">{4}</a></span>ence in everything.
-He had already felt it beginning for some time, but it was in full force
-from the moment which changed the tax-collector’s daughter into his
-wife. Thus he had felt, not amused, but irritated, when she made her
-appearance in that salmon-coloured “silk.” That Mrs. Bates’s daughter
-should wear the one fine and glistening garment she possessed to do
-honour to her bridegroom, and to dazzle the eyes of all beholders on her
-wedding-day, would there not have been in this a certain appropriateness
-in the midst of the inappropriateness, a <i>sancta simplicitas</i> which
-would have charmed him? But it became all at once much more apparent to
-Arthur that his wife ought to know better than to set out on a journey
-in a pink silk gown; though when he tried by all manner of deceptive
-arguments to beguile her into the choice of a more suitable dress,
-representing that the dark blue serge or dark brown merino in the shops
-would be warmer, more easy and comfortable, less<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_5" id="page_5">{5}</a></span> liable to be spoiled,
-and every other false yet true reason for preferring it that he could
-think of, Nancy remained unconvinced.</p>
-
-<p>“You shan’t make a dowdy of me, Arthur, I can tell you,” she said. “I
-didn’t get married to go about the world in these poor sort of clothes,
-like a dressmaker’s girl; and to France, where everybody dresses so
-well!”</p>
-
-<p>This was during the two or three days they stayed in London on purpose,
-if the truth had been told, to get a suitable outfit for her; but only
-Arthur, not Nancy, was aware of this true motive for the delay.</p>
-
-<p>“My dear girl, if they dress well it is by having suitable dresses for
-everything, not by being fine,” said Arthur, driven to his wit’s end.</p>
-
-<p>“Fine! you mean that I am dressed up,” cried Nancy, her colour rising,
-“and that is hard, for it was all done to please you; I thought you
-would like to see me fine. I never used to mind<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_6" id="page_6">{6}</a></span> what clothes I wore;
-but I&mdash;and mamma too&mdash;tried to make as good a show as ever we could, for
-your sake!”</p>
-
-<p>What could Arthur do but protest that he loved her more, if that were
-possible, for the pains she had taken to please him, and thought the
-salmon-coloured dress lovely; but after a while he returned to the
-charge. “In France,” he said with the air of an authority, “they are
-great on having a dress for every different occasion. Their dresses for
-the morning they never wear in the evening, and their travelling
-dresses&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“But goodness me!” cried Nancy, “what an extravagant way of going on! It
-may be all very well for duchesses and grand ladies; but that would
-never do for a poor girl like me.”</p>
-
-<p>“You forget you are not a girl at all, much less a poor one,” he said,
-pursuing his wiles, “but a married lady, my Nancy.” Goodness me is not a
-pretty oath; he swallowed it however, not daring<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_7" id="page_7">{7}</a></span> to attempt correction,
-with a secret grimace.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, that is all very well,” she repeated, “but all the same we are
-poor enough. I shan’t be a bit richer than I was. I may be grander, I
-don’t know; for your folks have cast you off, Arthur, you mustn’t forget
-that.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh! my <i>folks</i>!” cried the unhappy one under his breath; the word hurt
-him, in spite of himself. He had not been so delicate once; but this was
-like a dig in the ribs to Arthur. It made him cry out, though he stifled
-the cry.</p>
-
-<p>“No, I don’t think much of what you say if that is French fashion,” said
-Nancy, “English fashion is far better. Instead of fussing and changing
-all day long, and wasting one’s time, it is so convenient just to pin in
-a bit of lace and double back the fronts, and there you have a lovely
-dress for the evening; that’s what I like. No need to go and unpack
-one’s boxes and get out another dress, it’s done<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_8" id="page_8">{8}</a></span> in a moment. You must
-allow, Arthur, that English fashion is best for that.”</p>
-
-<p>Poor Arthur! he thought of his sister’s little simple toilettes, so
-fresh, so crisp, so plain! and he did not know&mdash;what foolish young man
-ever does know? that whereas the finery is an easy matter, these dainty
-sobrieties of garb are the highest quintessence of art. In novels, which
-are the chief exponents of young women to young men, and of young men to
-young women, has not the captivating humble bride always a spotless
-collar and cuffs ready for every emergency, which make her exquisite on
-all occasions? Why had not Nancy the secret of that little collar and
-snowy cuff?</p>
-
-<p>All this, however, is a digression from the letter which he found in his
-pocket, having thrust it away there on his wedding morning. He tore it
-open impatiently after this talk. Did not he know very well what must be
-in it? But it was better to glance at it and be done<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_9" id="page_9">{9}</a></span> with it at once.
-He found it, however, something so very unlike what he supposed, that
-the little letter completely unmanned him and took his strength away. He
-read it first with so much surprise that he could scarcely comprehend
-its meaning, and when he had fully mastered it, burst out into an abrupt
-break of sound of the most unintelligible description.</p>
-
-<p>“What is the matter?” cried Nancy; she was half frightened. She came to
-the door of the inner room in which she was, and looked out upon him,
-half dressed, wrapped in the shawl Matilda had lent her. “Are you
-laughing or crying?” Perhaps it had been a little of both; but at all
-events it had left the tears in his eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Look here,” he said, with an unsteady voice, “this is the letter old
-Davies gave me on Tuesday;” and then he added in a lower tone, “God
-forgive me, I don’t deserve it,” with a half sob.</p>
-
-<p>Very coldly Nancy took the letter. She<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_10" id="page_10">{10}</a></span> knew by instinct what it must
-be. It was written in a rather illegible but pretty handwriting, not at
-all like, but somehow superior she felt to the pointed precision of her
-own.</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot"><p>“I am going to your wedding to-morrow, Arthur dear; not to see you,
-but to be there, that there may be some one that loves you all the
-same. That always goes without saying. We think that you may not
-have money enough to do all you want, so we have just been to the
-bank to get this. Dear, dear Arthur, God bless you! Mamma shakes
-her head, but she says it all the same.</p>
-
-<p class="r">
-“<span class="smcap">Lucy.</span>”<br />
-</p>
-
-<p>And then there was added in another hand:</p>
-
-<p>“Surely I say it, surely I must say it always. And God forgive you,
-oh, my cruel boy.”</p></div>
-
-<p>Nancy puzzled over this for some time.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_11" id="page_11">{11}</a></span> She began to read it aloud and
-read it wrong, so that it took a ridiculous sound; then laughed; while
-Arthur made a furious step towards her to seize it out of her hand. She
-grew serious then, which quickened her wits and made her finish her
-reading in silence. When she had done so she flung it to him, letting
-the two notes enclosed flutter to the ground, and without a word turned
-round and shut the door violently in his face. He caught the letter; but
-the two fifty pound notes lay between him and the door, crumpled by
-Nancy’s angry fingers. He stood petrified for the moment, too much
-surprised to be either hurt or angry. Was this the way in which his wife
-received his first appeal to her sympathy? the first mention of those
-who, Arthur suddenly remembered, were next to herself the dearest to him
-in the world? Somehow he had forgotten this until now; but it suddenly
-gleamed upon him; a kind of revelation. Certainly it was so; his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_12" id="page_12">{12}</a></span> mother
-and sister, were they not his dearest friends, the most generous and
-kind? Was it possible that his wife could read this letter and not be
-touched? and yet she had tossed it at him, had crumpled up the notes
-like waste paper. Was this the attitude she meant to adopt towards his
-family? and he had been so tolerant of hers!</p>
-
-<p>Nancy did not say a word on the subject when they met again. She looked
-as if she had been crying; but said nothing, plunging into some
-indifferent subject with unusual interest. But it was not reasonable
-that the husband of three days could bear the matter like this. He said
-something about “my sister’s letter,” as soon as he had a chance. “We
-shall have a little more money to spend now, thanks to my mother’s
-thoughtfulness,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, your mother!” she flung away from him, flushing crimson&mdash;a colour
-that meant anger as he already knew.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, my mother,” he said, “why<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_13" id="page_13">{13}</a></span> should not I speak of my mother? I
-never think it strange, Nancy, that you should think of yours.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mine!” she cried, turning back upon him with flashing eyes, “her
-thoughts have been as much for you as for me. She has been as kind to
-you as to me,” (this set Arthur thinking; but what could he answer to
-it?) “but there is not a word of me in all that letter, not a word,
-though they knew I should be your wife when you got it.”</p>
-
-<p>“What could they say? They did not know you, darling, and I had been
-silly, I had not written to conciliate as I ought to have done; but to
-defy them. What could they say?”</p>
-
-<p>“Say! it is just as good as if they had said, ‘She is no more to us than
-the dirt under our feet.’ They could not do anything against me or say
-anything against me, so they treat me as if I was not worthy to be
-noticed; oh, that is what they mean! they think if they keep<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_14" id="page_14">{14}</a></span> that up
-they will bring you back to them again, and persuade you that I am not
-worth thinking of. Oh, I know women’s ways!”</p>
-
-<p>“You are mistaken, Nancy, I am sure you are entirely mistaken.”</p>
-
-<p>“A great deal you can tell! they will not show you what they are after.
-They will smooth you down and keep you not suspicious. Oh! I tell you I
-know women’s ways.”</p>
-
-<p>“You don’t know my mother and Lucy,” he said, making an effort to stand
-against her, “they are not like the women you&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Not like the women I know? I knew you would come to that,” she said
-violently. “Oh, I knew it the very moment I set eyes upon her; but not
-yet, not so soon as this.” And Nancy, really wounded in her blaze of
-unnecessary wrath, burst into fiery tears. They were tears that might
-have been red hot, and scalded as they poured down in a very<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_15" id="page_15">{15}</a></span> thunder
-shower. He had never seen such a torrent, and he stood thunderstruck;
-not melted as he had been before, when Nancy was moved in this way. Here
-too was a change. He stood still, he did not rush to her, and use all
-the blandishments he could think of to put a stop to the intolerable
-spectacle of her distress. He let her cry. He was confounded by the
-sudden outburst; and a sharp twinge of shame for her mingled with the
-pain she gave him. He was ashamed that <i>his wife</i> should be so unjust,
-so hasty in her judgment, so violent in her mistaken ideas. When he did
-go to her it was slowly, with a hesitation very different from the
-lover’s rush. That she should be so foolish <i>now</i>, was not that
-something derogatory to him?</p>
-
-<p>“Nancy,” he said, “I cannot think how you can be so&mdash;unkind. Do you
-think I mean any offence to you, or that <i>they</i> mean any offence? Of
-course you know they wanted me to marry some<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_16" id="page_16">{16}</a></span> one&mdash;better off; some one
-they knew.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, let me go,” she cried, choking with pain and rage together, “I will
-go back to my mother; and you can go to yours, of whom you think so
-much. What does it matter about a common girl like me!”</p>
-
-<p>“I think you are trying to drive me mad,” he said, “have I ever wavered
-between you and my mother? but I see now where I did wrong; I should
-have gone to her and made a friend of her, instead of defying her. I
-should have taken you to her&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Taken me!” she jumped up and faced him, trembling with agitation and
-fury, “taken <i>me</i>! am <i>I</i> to be dragged about to people that don’t want
-me, to people that dare to despise me?”</p>
-
-<p>“Nancy!”</p>
-
-<p>“Nancy! that’s all you can call me now. I used to be your love and your
-darling; now we’re married, and I’m bound and can’t get free, and you
-call me Nancy!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_17" id="page_17">{17}</a></span> Oh! if it was all to do again, and I knew what I know
-now!”</p>
-
-<p>“What on earth do you know now that you did not know a week ago?” he
-cried with an impatience beyond words; and yet he felt half inclined to
-laugh. That the impassioned creature who stood defying him, blazing in
-impulsive wrath, should resent the absence of those loves and darlings
-and tender words with which he had hitherto caressed her ears, so hotly
-as to desire to break every bond between them, struck him with a sudden
-sense of the absurdity of their quarrel. He went suddenly up to her and
-took her into his arms. “But you <i>are</i> my darling,” he said, “all the
-same; though you are the most unreasonable, the most quick-tempered, the
-most provoking. Sweet! what is everybody in the world to me compared
-with you?”</p>
-
-<p>Thus the first quarrel terminated, though not without considerably more
-trouble. Nancy perhaps saw too the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_18" id="page_18">{18}</a></span> foolishness of this impossible
-struggle, and yielded after a certain amount of flattery, coaxing, and
-caresses. And the cloud blew over so completely that, much to his
-surprise he found himself able to persuade this despairing bride next
-morning to get the travelling dress he wished her to have, and to tone
-herself down generally, and make herself warm and comfortable and less
-fine. They crossed the Channel two days after, more lovers than ever;
-but no longer publishing their recent nuptials in their appearance, with
-Nancy’s “silk” carefully packed at the bottom of her box, and herself in
-a dark blue gown and little plumed hat, looking more like Mrs. Arthur
-Curtis than Nancy Bates had ever done before. Arthur’s heart beat high
-with pride and pleasure as they watched the white cliffs disappearing.
-Nancy not without a little natural sentiment, for she had never been out
-of England before, and it seemed a great thing to her to be out of her
-own country,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_19" id="page_19">{19}</a></span> and on the verge of a “foreign land.” But fortunately the
-passage was a very good one, so that no less elevated feeling mingled
-with these tender regrets. He had her in his own hands now, the
-bridegroom said to himself; all her antecedents left behind, the home
-and relations happily got rid of, and all the influences of her new life
-around her to wean her from the past. And how tractable she had shown
-herself already, how willing to be convinced! a tender creature, who
-accepted his dictation sweetly two minutes after she had burst forth in
-rebellion against him; who had been indignant at his sister’s letter
-(and it was, Arthur allowed to himself, nasty of Lucy, rather like a
-spiteful girl after all as Nancy said, not to mention her in that little
-note which was intended to be so gentle and peace-making), and then had
-forgiven it so frankly as to use part of the money that Lucy sent. This
-unreasonable, inconsistent, foolish, generous,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_20" id="page_20">{20}</a></span> hot-headed, soft-hearted
-darling, could any man desire better than to have her wholly to himself
-to guide her wayward feet into the print of wifely, womanly ways? The
-mean little house, the poor form of existence at Underhayes (ungrateful
-young man! it had seemed an idyllic life, full of noble simplicity and
-poetry, when he knew her first) lay far behind, and while the probation
-lasted it would seem so natural that England itself should fade out of
-sight, and all that was past be forgotten; until by and by he should
-take his bride home a lady in every outward sign, as she was, he assured
-himself in heart. It is so easy in a young man’s glowing fancy to work
-this change. Likewise it is very quickly done in many novels, and with
-wonderful facility and completeness; and, as has been said, where but
-from novels was Arthur to have acquired any experience in the treatment
-of cases like his own? All went well during that journey. It was a
-beautiful<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_21" id="page_21">{21}</a></span> day of the early winter; warmly soft as November can
-sometimes be, by way of contrast to its ordinary miseries, the sea and
-the sky alike blue; and if the wind was cold, what there was of it, the
-sun shining so warmly as to neutralize the wind. And Nancy now at least
-was well defended and need fear no chill. Her cheeks glowed with the
-fresh breeze, her little outcries, half of alarm half of exhilaration,
-when the steamboat gave a small pitch which hurt nobody, delighted
-Arthur. She clung to him and steadied herself by him with both hands
-clasped on his arm, and had no thought, now that her moment of sentiment
-was over, of anything but the excitement of this novel world into which
-she was hastening. All the clouds that had been upon their horizon
-seemed to float away.</p>
-
-<p>“I have been thinking,” she said, when they got into the
-railway-carriage on the other side, and Nancy had got over her first
-amused wonder and bewilderment,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_22" id="page_22">{22}</a></span> “to hear everybody talking and not to
-understand a word.” They had a carriage to themselves, though that is
-not so easy to manage on the other side, and Arthur, delighted with his
-task, had begun to teach her little phrases in the tongue, which
-notwithstanding her much-talked-of previous studies was quite an unknown
-tongue to Nancy. “I have been thinking&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“What is it? Something very grave indeed, judging from that serious
-face.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; something very important. I have always wished it, but they would
-never give in to me. Not that mamma did not think me quite right, but it
-is very difficult to break a habit in a family. But you must do it,
-Arthur; it is not such a very old habit with you.”</p>
-
-<p>“What is this great thing I am to do&mdash;give up smoking&mdash;take off my
-moustache?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh! no!” cried Nancy, horrified. “The nicest thing about you!” which
-pleased Arthur much, for it was still new<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_23" id="page_23">{23}</a></span> enough to give him unfeigned
-and honest pride. “But I will tell you what it is. Nancy is so vulgar,
-so common, not a name for a lady; and it will not sound well here,
-abroad, where people have such pretty names. Call me Anna&mdash;I have always
-wished it. I was christened Anna Frances, you know.”</p>
-
-<p>“And I could not think who she was when they married me to her,” cried
-Arthur. “I will call you what you like, my darling; but I like Nancy
-best.”</p>
-
-<p>Did ever young people start on a honeymoon expedition with a better
-understanding? He planned a hundred places to take her to, and things to
-do. The theatre every night!&mdash;How Nancy’s eyes sparkled! and the Louvre,
-of which she was quite willing to admit that it must be very fine,
-without knowing what it was; and the Tuileries gardens with the band
-playing, and the beautiful shops in the Boulevards. Even to hear of
-these delights was enough to charm any bride.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_24" id="page_24">{24}</a></span> They were to go
-everywhere, to see everything, to walk about and drive about always
-these two together&mdash;nobody to interfere with them; and the play every
-night! What could any bride desire more?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_25" id="page_25">{25}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_II" id="CHAPTER_II"></a>CHAPTER II.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">P</span>ARIS, with all its lamps and shop-windows, dazzled Nancy. It was before
-the days in which ruins were visible from that brilliant Rue de Rivoli,
-through which they drove to their hotel. She thought it was an
-illumination as she saw the sweeping circles of light in the Place de la
-Concorde, and the long line of lamps under the archways, and could not
-be persuaded that this was how the brightest of cities adorned herself
-every night. And when she opened her eyes next morning to the brilliancy
-of the winter sunshine, and saw the brightness and gaiety of everything
-around, Nancy<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_26" id="page_26">{26}</a></span> was fairly transported out of herself. She had never even
-been in a great hotel before, for Arthur had taken her to London
-lodgings he had been in the habit of using, in Jermyn Street, which were
-not dazzling. But here everything was lovely, Nancy thought. They had a
-little <i>appartement</i> in one of the great hotels over-looking the garden
-of the Tuileries, with a little balcony; and from the white carpet with
-its bouquet, and the sparkling wood-fire which was so bright and clean,
-and supplemented the sunshine so delightfully, to the mirrors and
-gilding, and white panels of the walls, everything she looked upon
-filled Nancy with a bewildering delicious sense of having arrived at the
-summit of fineness and splendour, and being a lady indeed, a princess
-almost, enshrined in a bower of bliss. Nothing she had ever seen in all
-her limited experience was half so splendid; and the noiseless waiters
-who ran up and down with every luxury that Arthur could<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_27" id="page_27">{27}</a></span> think of, and
-the dainty food, and the perpetual service bewildered her unaccustomed
-brain. This then was how great people lived! with carpets like velvet,
-sofas covered with satin, a host of eager servants to find out what they
-wanted, and bring them everything that could be thought of; mirrors to
-reflect them on every side (Nancy had never been so sure about the <i>sit</i>
-of her dress, or knew so well what her figure was like before&mdash;and it
-was a very pretty figure). No wonder they were happy! When they had
-breakfasted, a pretty Victoria, with a fur rug to cover their knees,
-came to the door, and in this they drove all about, taking what Arthur
-called a general view of Paris, its pretty streets, its river and quays,
-its boulevards, the Champs Elysées, brilliant in the sunshine, with the
-great arch at the end. When Arthur stopped to let her see Notre Dame,
-Nancy was respectful but failed a little in interest. It chilled her to
-go into a church in the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_28" id="page_28">{28}</a></span> middle of a week day so soon after she was
-married. Church was for Sundays, she felt, not a place to go into in the
-midst of laughing and talk. She felt it like a <i>memento mori</i>, a sudden
-chill upon her exhilaration, and supposed that Arthur took her there
-with the intention of making her remember her duty and her “latter end,”
-which was a suggestion she did not like.</p>
-
-<p>“Now you shall see something quite different in the ecclesiastical way,”
-he said, stopping at another church before they went back to their
-hotel; for he felt that somehow, though he did not quite know how, Notre
-Dame had not been successful with Nancy. But she altogether refused to
-go into the Madeleine.</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know why you are so anxious that I should see the churches,”
-she said, pouting. “I never knew you were so religious.” Arthur made
-haste to disavow the imputation, as may be supposed, which all the same
-he did not like her to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_29" id="page_29">{29}</a></span> make. He was not “so religious,” but he did not
-like to hear women speak of the matter so&mdash;it was “bad taste.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is because the building is supposed to be fine,” he said, standing
-at the door of the little carriage to hand her out; but Nancy declined
-firmly. If she could not think of her duty without being taken into a
-lot of churches to be reminded of religion and of dying, and all that
-sort of thing, she did not feel at all disposed to be instructed so&mdash;and
-they came in from their drive a little silent, and not so delighted with
-each other, and with everything about them as they had been when they
-went out, though Arthur, for his part, had not the slightest idea why.</p>
-
-<p>Luncheon, however, obliterated all recollection of the churches, and
-made her again feel that everything was delightful in her present lot.
-Not that Nancy was <i>gourmande</i>, or given to dwell upon what she ate. One
-of those horrible luxuries, known in England as a Bath bun, would<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_30" id="page_30">{30}</a></span> have
-contented her, so far as eatables went, quite as well as the daintiest
-little <i>fricandeau</i>. It was the accessories of the meal which told upon
-her, the obsequious attendants, the perpetual service, the silver
-dishes, the beautiful fruit on the table, and the sparkling wine, which
-she had heard the name of all her life, as the crown of luxury, but had
-never tasted it even in its cheapest form. They must be spending heaps
-of money, Nancy felt, to live like this. But she was not bold enough to
-interfere just then, and there was an unexpressed and subtle flattery in
-Arthur’s care to treat her as, she thought, only princesses, who were
-not brides, would be treated. As a bride, Nancy knew she had a
-prescriptive right to everything that was fine. Even in her own
-knowledge, sacrifices were made to secure everything that was better
-than usual, for the brief but exquisite moment in which a girl held this
-official position. A bride had a right to a drive in a cab if<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_31" id="page_31">{31}</a></span> she
-wished it&mdash;to a glass of wine if she liked it&mdash;to cakes and dainties,
-and a great deal of coaxing and admiration. And to wear her best dress
-when she went out, even though it should be on a week-day. Arthur gave
-to his bride a glorified version of all these delights, except the last,
-the pretty Victoria instead of a Hansom, and this expedition to France
-and other unknown regions, instead of the day at the Crystal Palace,
-which Mr. Raisins would most likely suggest to Sarah Jane; though it was
-strange that he should object to her “silk,” the only thing of which she
-had been perfectly sure that it was right. It was in this point of view
-that she liked the dainty luncheon; and when they went out again
-arm-in-arm in the afternoon for a walk, the shops on the Boulevards
-threw her into an ecstasy. Arthur was complaisance itself to all her
-wishes here. He was willing to stand at the windows and look in as long
-as she pleased, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_32" id="page_32">{32}</a></span> he took her here and there to glove-shops and
-milliners, and bought her a hundred pretty trifles. In every shop they
-entered, both men and women were so eager to know what pleased <i>Madame</i>,
-so anxious to prove triumphantly that this thing and the other was
-becoming to Madame, so openly admiring, so caressingly urgent, that
-Nancy’s head was turned. It seemed impossible not to believe in the
-sudden enthusiasm she called forth. Could it be only the ribbons, or
-collars, or gloves they bought that stimulated these delightful people
-into such warm and apparent admiration. No! Nancy could not entertain
-such an unworthy thought. It was their kindness, she said to herself,
-and something still more agreeable whispered in her heart that it was
-her own attractions that made these people so kind. Had they not a real
-pleasure in seeing a young bride like herself, so fair, so happy, making
-everything look well that was put upon her? Nancy did not flatter
-herself in<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_33" id="page_33">{33}</a></span> this open way, but she had a pleased and delightful
-conviction that this was the feeling in their minds. She believed in
-their sincerity, and that she had made a real impression upon them. Was
-not this how all the <i>nice</i> people in books, small and great, showed
-their appreciation of the lovely young heroine? Nancy had not as yet any
-experience of the great&mdash;and indeed it was an effort on her part to keep
-up in her mind a certainty that she herself was in a superior position
-to the masters and mistresses, the “young ladies” and “young gentlemen”
-in these very fine shops; a little while ago she would have looked up to
-<i>them</i>; now this consciousness made her head turn round, and gave the
-most curious piquancy to their admiration and enthusiasm for Madame.</p>
-
-<p>“How funny it is,” she said, as they came out into the crowded
-Boulevard, where the lamps were beginning to be lit, “to be called
-Madamm!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_34" id="page_34">{34}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>Arthur looked a little strange at this pronunciation; but he did not
-venture to criticise. It was necessary to go very quietly with this
-touchy young woman. He told her some pretty things that Monsieur in the
-shop had said to him while his wife had been fitting on her wares upon
-Nancy.</p>
-
-<p>“If you make as much sensation at the theatre,” he said, “what shall I
-do? I am nobody now. I am Madame’s attendant, her obsequious husband.”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t talk nonsense,” said Nancy, radiant. “What funny people the
-French are! Are they always paying compliments?”</p>
-
-<p>“To people who have any right to them, yes; to pretty people, and those
-who pay well, and those who will be likely to believe them.”</p>
-
-<p>“Arthur, how unkind of you! I don’t believe that people are so
-barefaced, saying things they do not mean. One must<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_35" id="page_35">{35}</a></span> have a very bad
-opinion of other people if one thinks that.”</p>
-
-<p>But for her own part, Nancy was not tempted to think so. She conceived a
-very high opinion of the French nation. If she could have got Arthur out
-of the way, she thought she would have liked to try a little
-conversation on her own account, for it would be delightful to be able
-to chatter as Arthur did, and talk to anyone; but in his presence she
-did not like to venture. Once more they went back to their hotel in the
-most delightful state of content with each other and all the world. They
-were to dine early, and then go to the “Français” to see the <i>Bourgeois
-Gentilhomme</i>. Arthur had told her the story of the play, and how she
-would be sure to like it, and that there was not a better French actor
-living, and not such a good English one; all which had impressed Nancy.
-And she was to be allowed to wear her pink dress, with a pretty wrap
-which he had bought, an<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_36" id="page_36">{36}</a></span> Algerian mantle, softly white, with threads of
-gold, and a flower in her hair. Nancy’s heart beat with the thought of
-all this gaiety and grandeur. He had bought her also a pretty fan; and
-they were to have a box, which was a thing which conveyed very
-magnificent ideas to her mind. To sit there throned like a young
-princess, and allow herself to be admired while the best of actors did
-his best to amuse her, in the midst of that which imagination had always
-painted to her as, after a ball, the most seductive of pleasures, a
-gaily lighted and brilliant theatre, what could be more delightful? And
-at first Nancy was quite as happy as she expected to be. When she looked
-out from the corner of the box with its silken curtains upon the bright,
-many-coloured crowd, it seemed to her as if she could understand a
-little how the Queen must feel when she came forward to thank her loyal
-subjects for their kind reception of her. Half of the people seemed to
-be looking up admiringly,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_37" id="page_37">{37}</a></span> wonderingly. She had never felt so truly
-great before. How well she remembered, in the days of her humility, when
-the highest she could hope for was the upper boxes, watching beautiful
-ladies come into their box, and giving a careless, splendid look over
-the rustling company below before they sat down. And now it was she who
-was the beautiful lady in the box. Was there, perhaps, some poor girl
-somewhere like Nancy Bates, looking at the lovely new-comer, surveying
-and envying her with a wistful gaze in all her finery, watching her look
-down upon the crowd, then sink gracefully into her chair as Nancy did,
-half retired behind the curtain? It seemed to her that she was two
-people, herself in the box&mdash;Mrs. Arthur Curtis&mdash;and Nancy Bates watching
-from her inferior place; and this doubled the enjoyment in the most
-wonderful way. How she would have noticed everything, the beautiful
-white mantle with its gold threads, the flower in the lady’s hair, her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_38" id="page_38">{38}</a></span>
-dress, and everything about her! and with great, yet less absorbing
-interest, the handsome young husband who completed her belongings, and
-was so “devoted” to her. Nancy would scarcely have had eyes for the play
-in her admiration of the beautiful lady; and now she was the beautiful
-lady herself, in full possession of all the greatness a box at the play
-could bestow! How wonderful it was, and delightful; but yet, perhaps,
-not altogether so delightful and wonderful as it had seemed to Nancy in
-the pit.</p>
-
-<p>But when the curtain rose, Nancy was not so sure that it was delightful.
-She was not sufficiently at her ease to enter into even the frank fun of
-the <i>Bourgeois Gentilhomme</i>. She stared at M. Got with wondering
-curiosity and doubt. No doubt it must be very amusing, for everybody
-laughed, and so did Arthur; but Nancy could not laugh. What did that
-queer man on the stage mean by all those strange antics of his?&mdash;trying
-on his clothes<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_39" id="page_39">{39}</a></span> in public, fencing with his maid-servant, making his
-mouth into round O’s, when the still funnier man in the witch-like black
-hat directed him to do so. It was all strange to her. She puzzled over
-him, and could not make him out. “What is he saying?” she whispered to
-Arthur when there was a wilder laugh than usual; but before she could
-understand what Arthur whispered back, laughing, there was another burst
-of amusement, and she was thrown out again. At first the sensation was
-only disappointment, but by and by it became irritation. She could not
-bear to feel herself the only one who did not know. High up in the
-gallery above her, she could see a little French girl in a cap, who was
-enjoying it with all her heart. And Arthur, though he tried to explain
-all the jokes, forgot now and then, and gave himself up to the fun too,
-and never thought of her sitting there who did not know what it meant,
-and could not possibly enjoy it. The doubtful smile which<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_40" id="page_40">{40}</a></span> she kept on
-her face for the first scene or two, gave way to a fixed and somewhat
-sullen stare. She fixed her eyes obstinately on the stage, and gazed at
-the fun with unsympathising face, blank and immovable. If M. Got had
-seen her, she would have been like a beautiful nightmare to him; and as
-a matter of fact, that inimitable actor played all his pranks before
-Nancy without conveying a single humorous idea to her mind, or one smile
-to her face. How weary, how angry, how dull and miserable she grew while
-the house rang with laughter, and all that fun went on under her eyes,
-now sore with staring! All this time the little French girl in the cap,
-up above, a poor little girl, not at all equal even to Nancy Bates,
-laughed till the tears came to her eyes; and Arthur laughed, untiring,
-too, though sometimes wondering a little why Nancy should be so quiet,
-and stealing anxious looks at her, which she would not respond to, but
-kept her eyes riveted on the stage. When the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_41" id="page_41">{41}</a></span> curtain fell, she gave a
-sigh of relief, but turned her back upon Arthur, and would not answer
-his questions as to how she had enjoyed it. Enjoyed it! How could he ask
-her, he who had done nothing but laugh, and never cared for her. When he
-rose, she rose too, but repulsed his attempts to wrap her cloak more
-closely round her.</p>
-
-<p>“It will do very well as it is,” she said, twitching it out of his hand.</p>
-
-<p>“What is the matter?” he asked, wistfully, drawing her arm through his,
-not without a little resistance on her part.</p>
-
-<p>“The matter? What should be the matter? I am only tired, and I shall be
-glad to get home,” said Nancy.</p>
-
-<p>“I have made you do too much. I have dragged you about and worn you out,
-my poor darling!” cried Arthur, and he was full of compunctions, half
-carrying her downstairs. But when they got into the little <i>coupé</i> which
-waited for them, she burst forth.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_42" id="page_42">{42}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“I can’t see what there was so very amusing. I don’t think it could be
-good French,” cried Nancy. “I don’t pretend that I can talk like you,
-but I learned French at school, and I am sure I could understand if it
-was good. You call that acting! I did not think he was clever at all.”</p>
-
-<p>“My love,” said poor Arthur, “it was the great Got, the best comic actor
-in the world, I think. I never saw anyone like him.”</p>
-
-<p>“I have seen a dozen better,” cried Nancy. “What did he do? nothing but
-make a fool of himself, putting on those ridiculous clothes, and dancing
-and singing, and learning lessons, an old man! The great Go! I wished he
-would go, I am sure, long before he did go,” she said, recovering her
-spirits a little by means of her pun. But the process was not so
-successful in respect to Arthur. He did not say anything, but shrugged
-his shoulders, which fortunately she did not perceive.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_43" id="page_43">{43}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“I see,” he said, at last. “That is not the kind of acting you care for;
-the higher walks perhaps would please you better. We will try something
-quite different to-morrow.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, to-morrow!” she said, with a little shiver. This delight of the
-play had already exploded for Nancy; and she recollected with dismay
-that they had agreed to go to a play <i>every night</i>! Was this how her
-life was to be spent? She thought regretfully of her mother and sisters
-sitting round the table, chatting about everything that had happened,
-and everything that was going to happen. The parlour was dingy, and she
-had thought of it with a wondering recoil of half disgust in comparison
-with her <i>appartement</i>, and all its coquetries, its white carpets and
-curtains; but she had never been so tired, so worn with trying to be
-happy at home. The little wood fire, however, was burning brightly, and
-the wax-candles lighted, and the pretty<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_44" id="page_44">{44}</a></span> sitting-room looked very
-comfortable when they got back to the hotel, which they began to call
-“home,” with easy desecration of that word upon which the English pride
-themselves. Arthur put her into a comfortable chair, and made her take
-some wine, and petted and consoled her. Poor Arthur, he was disappointed
-too, but he concealed it manfully. His character was developing in this
-unexpected probation, he was growing patient, forbearing, ready to make
-all sorts of compromises and sacrifices, to ensure that his young wife
-should be happy. He had not been so good or so forbearing in his former
-relationships, when everything had been done to please him; but in
-marriage, if one will not be accommodating, why the other must, there is
-no changing that necessity of nature. This union which had cost so much
-must not turn out a failure. If she would not exert herself, he must.
-Therefore he swallowed his disappointment in respect<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_45" id="page_45">{45}</a></span> to the immediate
-evening, and in respect to the narrowing of future resources, which, if
-Nancy could not be made to like the theatre, would be very serious, and
-also the deeper disappointment, which he scarcely allowed himself to
-look at, of finding in Nancy less understanding than he thought. He sat
-over the fire a little when she had gone to bed and pondered it all.
-After all, perhaps, it was not unnatural that a young girl who had no
-experience, and did not understand French, should not all at once
-appreciate Molière, even when interpreted by Got. Was it to be expected,
-was it likely? Arthur began to say to himself that his disappointment
-was the fault of his exaggerated expectations, and that he had been very
-foolish; poor Nancy, what an ordeal he had subjected her to! But he
-would not be discouraged, he would try again. Something romantic and
-sensational at the Porte St. Martin, or a sentimental comedy, such as
-was running at the Gymnase would do better. He<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_46" id="page_46">{46}</a></span> would try that,
-something that would interest her. Arthur knew a good deal about the
-theatres, and he felt sure that one or the other would supply what was
-wanted. But there was a vague depression in his mind, notwithstanding
-the bright fire and the white carpets which were so warm and soft. This
-first effort had not been a success. Nancy had not responded to his
-call; it was, he supposed, his fault, but it was depressing. There was
-nothing injurious to Nancy in the comparison that suggested itself. He
-thought involuntarily of Lucy, how she would have laughed at Got’s
-acting, how lightly she would have come in and sat with him over the
-fire, and talked it all over, and enjoyed it a second time. All that
-this proved was the advantages of education&mdash;it proved nothing more&mdash;and
-he did not want to change Nancy for Lucy, or to abandon the ventures of
-this strange and alarming double existence, which, having once begun for
-him,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_47" id="page_47">{47}</a></span> could never end except by death. The little failures, the
-continual perils of opposition and resistance, excited at least, if they
-did not delight him. Life was no longer tame and monotonous whatever
-else might be said.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_48" id="page_48">{48}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_III" id="CHAPTER_III"></a>CHAPTER III.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">N</span>EXT day Arthur made a further experiment with his bride. It was one of
-the things he had promised her when they talked of Paris, and it had not
-occurred to him that the very name of the Louvre conveyed no idea to
-Nancy’s mind. She had been quite willing to accept it as something
-vaguely splendid which she was to see, but that was all. He took her
-across the broad sunshiny courts with a little thrill of expectation,
-chiefly pleasurable, yet with a touch of doubt in it which perhaps made
-it more exciting. Arthur was not himself very learned in art, nor an
-en<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_49" id="page_49">{49}</a></span>thusiast about it. He knew what a young man of his breeding could
-scarcely escape knowing&mdash;he knew which were the pictures that everybody
-admires; he had all his life been accustomed to believe that he admired
-them, and what with association, what with faith, what with some natural
-sense of beauty, such as few minds are quite destitute of, he had liked
-to go and look at them from time to time when he was in the way of it,
-and had a certain acquaintance with the great galleries in all the
-places he had visited. He knew the Louvre well enough to know his way
-about, to be able to lead a neophyte from one great picture to another,
-and even to have his favourites in the Salon Carré. This does not
-necessitate a very high appreciation of art, or much real acquaintance
-with its productions; but yet it was as the highest knowledge and the
-wildest furore in comparison with the absolute ignorance and
-indifference which exists in the class from<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_50" id="page_50">{50}</a></span> which Nancy was taken. A
-less intelligent girl than Nancy, proceeding from the slightly elevated
-social position at which it has become known that pictures are things to
-be admired, and that admiration of them is a proof of superiority both
-in rank and intellect, would have known how to acquit herself in such an
-emergency. She would have gone through these galleries with a gush of
-indiscriminate delight, finding everything beautiful, or at the worst
-would have taken her cue from her husband, and admired what he admired.
-But Nancy had not been educated even up to this point. She knew nothing
-about them, had never heard of Raffaelle or Murillo, and when Arthur
-said, “This is the famous Assumption,” stared blankly, never having
-heard of it before; then turned her eyes up and down, gazing about her
-with that idea that one thing is as good as another, which is the very
-essence of ignorance. She had not even knowledge enough to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_51" id="page_51">{51}</a></span> be aware
-that it was becoming to feign an interest.</p>
-
-<p>“What nice rooms to dance in&mdash;are they all kept up for nothing but
-pictures?” she said, in deference to his apparent interest. Nancy did
-not say stupid pictures, as she had intended; and it is impossible to
-describe the disappointed feeling, the eager instructiveness of poor
-Arthur, who felt his own hitherto superficial conviction that every
-ordinarily well-endowed mind must care for pictures, at once confounded
-and intensified by the absolute blankness of his bride.</p>
-
-<p>“My dear Nancy, France is more proud of these than of anything she
-possesses. It is one of the finest collections in the world.”</p>
-
-<p>“I suppose they are worth a great deal of money,” she said, looking at
-them calmly, yet with a certain respect founded on this consideration.
-She was looking up at that divine wall upon which hangs the great
-Murillo, the Virgin of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_52" id="page_52">{52}</a></span> Garden, and Her of the Veil, the sidelong
-penetrating fascination of the Gioconda, and many a wonder more; and her
-calm of incomprehension was almost sublime. Some were “pretty” she
-thought; but she pulled Arthur’s arm a little to go on, not knowing why
-he should wish to stay so long, and keep looking when she had seen
-everything. To be sure it was natural enough to respect things which
-were worth a great deal of money&mdash;the big vases, for instance, in the
-vestibules, of which she had felt that they must be worth a great deal,
-though they were not pretty. It was difficult to associate the same idea
-of value with the pictures, yet Nancy supposed nobody would make so much
-fuss about them but for this.</p>
-
-<p>“Money!” Arthur said, with a little groan, then making the best of it as
-he was learning to do: “Yes, dear, a great deal of money&mdash;and more than
-money. Any one of them, almost, is worth<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_53" id="page_53">{53}</a></span> more, even in money, than all
-you and I have in the world.”</p>
-
-<p>“What a shame!” cried Nancy, “nasty old things,” and she pulled him on a
-little. Then she stopped for a second before the Leonardo in the corner,
-and laughed out. “What funny women! what are they sitting in each
-other’s laps for? That is the funniest I have seen yet,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Hush, Nancy! this is by a very famous painter; but I cannot say I am
-fond of it,” said Arthur, in his didactic vein. “That on the other side
-is his, too&mdash;the Gioconda it is called&mdash;I like it better.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not I,” said Nancy; “isn’t she <i>deep</i>! I can’t bear people with that
-look in their eyes. She is exactly like Lizzie Brown at home in
-Underhayes&mdash;you remember Lizzie Brown, Arthur? Come on, I am sure we
-have stayed long enough here.”</p>
-
-<p>“As you like,” he said, with a sigh;<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_54" id="page_54">{54}</a></span> “but there are some more I should
-have liked to point out to you&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“That is pretty,” said Nancy, pointing to a bright-coloured copy which
-one of the many workers in the Salon Carré was making. “Mayn’t one look
-what they are doing? they would paint at home if they didn’t want to be
-seen. Oh, they are <i>copying</i>, are they? I am sure that is a great deal
-prettier than the old thing on the wall. What do they copy for?”</p>
-
-<p>“To sell chiefly,” said Arthur, with a certain sullenness in his
-despair.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, to sell! I suppose people like to have them to hang in their rooms?
-how curious! I would much rather have a picture of you.”</p>
-
-<p>Now Arthur had been falling into lower and lower depths of despondency
-up to this moment. He had said to himself that all his efforts were mere
-failures&mdash;that he could do nothing, and must give up the attempt; but
-now he cheered up quite unaccountably, quite unreasonably.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_55" id="page_55">{55}</a></span> There was
-nothing in what she had said to throw a new light upon Nancy’s capacity
-and rehabilitate her in his eyes, yet somehow it did so. A sudden tender
-compunction for the harsh judgment he had been forming came into his
-mind, softening and melting him. He felt disposed to beg her pardon on
-his knees.</p>
-
-<p>“You silly girl,” he said, “what do you want with my picture? If it was
-of you, it might be worth something; but tell me, Nancy, if I were to
-buy you some of those copies, which would you choose?”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t want one; you are buying too many things already. Well, perhaps
-<i>that</i>,” said Nancy at random, pointing at the picture which French
-taste entitles <i>La Belle Jardinière</i>. It was a lucky guess enough.</p>
-
-<p>“You shall have it, my darling,” cried Arthur delighted, “I knew you had
-real taste at the bottom of your heart.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh no, not I,” cried Nancy, shrug<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_56" id="page_56">{56}</a></span>ging her shoulders and dragging him
-on, “I don’t care about it. It was only the first that caught my eye.
-Let us go on quickly through the other rooms; we have been such a long
-time here. You must not buy that thing, what should I do with it? I
-don’t really care for pictures. To be sure they make a room rather nice
-when they have nice frames; but we have not even a room to hang them in.
-But I will tell you what I should like to do,” she continued, leading
-him out and in of the smaller rooms. “Let us go and get photographed,
-Arthur, <i>together</i>, in a nice large size. It will be a much nicer
-memorial of Paris. And then mamma would like it so much to hang up in
-the parlour and show to everybody. We must take her a present of some
-sort, and that would please ourselves too. She would like it a great
-deal better than that pink lady with the little boy.”</p>
-
-<p>“For heaven’s sake don’t describe the picture like that! Do you know it
-is a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_57" id="page_57">{57}</a></span> famous Raffaelle,” said Arthur, all the more horrified that some
-one had heard her young confident voice and had turned round to admire.</p>
-
-<p>“What is a famous Raffaelle? I don’t pretend to know anything about it;
-and I’d much rather have a picture of you; but what would be really
-delightful would be to be photographed together. I wonder I never
-thought of it before. Let us go and find some one as soon as we get out
-of this stupid place. Oh yes, I have seen everything I want to see.”</p>
-
-<p>Poor Arthur! he was pleased that she should want a portrait of himself.
-This flattering touch mended his wounds a little, and as she hurried him
-out again into the bright wintry streets (breathing, herself, a sigh of
-relief when they got fairly clear of the galleries), he said to himself
-with the new philosophy which had come to his aid: Well! how was it to
-be expected she should care for pictures, she who had never seen any? Of
-course the anticipa<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_58" id="page_58">{58}</a></span>tion was quite absurd on his part. Art demands a
-special education. To plunge an unsophisticated mind without any
-training, without any preface, straight into the profundities of
-Leonardo, of Raffaelle, of Perugino, was ever anything so unreasonable?
-and then to expect her to understand at once! The poor young fellow felt
-that he had been hard upon his Nancy, though heaven knows, without
-meaning it. And then what a pretty idea that was of hers about the
-photograph! He had winced a little at the idea of having it hung up in
-Mrs. Bates’s parlour, and exhibited to all her friends; but that was a
-paltry feeling&mdash;and what could be more natural and delightful than that
-she should wish for such a memento of their honeymoon? That she should
-be so eager about it, was not that a proof that she was happy,
-notwithstanding all the little frets of her new position, and those
-ill-advised efforts of his to force her into his own conventional code
-of the right things to be admired?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_59" id="page_59">{59}</a></span> That was all a matter of education,
-he felt sure. He had not thought it to be so before. He had supposed in
-his ignorance that a fine picture was like a fine landscape,
-comprehensible to everybody; but then Arthur recollected what he had
-read somewhere that it was very long even before people began to admire
-nature, that a generation or two back the Alps were only horrible snowy
-deserts, and mountains generally were looked upon as obstructions and
-eyesores by the common mind. This showed clearly (he said to himself)
-that education was everything. It not only <i>trained</i> the eye but might
-be said to create it, giving perceptions of beauty that actually had not
-existed before. This thread of thought kept him occupied as he went on
-through the bright streets, drawn by Nancy’s eagerness to one of the
-shops where they had made their previous purchases, to ask about a
-photographer. She was in such spirits over the idea that she kept up the
-conversation and covered his silence; and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_60" id="page_60">{60}</a></span> he had conducted his
-cogitation to a most satisfactory end, the conclusion that Nancy had
-really shown originality in her remarks and that it was a mere absurdity
-on his part to look for art knowledge from her&mdash;by the time they reached
-the shop, where they were received with the most cordial satisfaction,
-and where there were a great many new things to see which Nancy admired
-greatly. The shopkeeper had no difficulty in indicating an artist of his
-own acquaintance who, he had no doubt, would do justice to Madame, and
-would be too proud and happy to have such a subject. Arthur, however,
-came to himself when they had got this length, whether by the touch of
-the practical involved in buying some more pretty things for Nancy, or
-by the fact that he had proved her to his entire satisfaction to be
-quite justified in her indifference to the pictures in the Louvre; and
-he had sufficient good sense left to avoid the recommendation of the
-<i>modiste</i>, and take Nancy to a really good<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_61" id="page_61">{61}</a></span> photographer who gave them
-an appointment for the next day. They were both quite exhilarated by
-this engagement. It was something to do! They went back to their hotel
-in the afternoon, consoled and happy, talking about it. And while Nancy
-reposed herself and took out her dress for the evening, Arthur went to
-look at the newspapers as in duty bound. He took up the latest “Times,”
-and hid himself behind its ample sheet; but he did not get much good of
-his reading. However distinctly you may make out that it is unreasonable
-to expect your bride to be interested in the interesting things of the
-place in which you are living, it is impossible to deny that it is very
-embarrassing when she is not. A girl who was frightened and chilled by
-Notre Dame, wearied at the Français, uninterested in the Louvre, what
-was her poor young husband to do with her? The weather was not
-favourable for those excursions which are so easy in summer. And besides
-what in<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_62" id="page_62">{62}</a></span>terest could there be in Versailles, for example, to one who
-knew nothing about the Grand Monarque, and probably had never heard of
-Marie Antoinette? People do not marry their wives or their husbands
-because they understand Molière, and love the Great Masters, and know
-Continental history; but it is bewildering to be in Paris, or anywhere
-else for that matter, with a new companion who has no associations with
-anything, and is at once indifferent and ignorant of all that is in the
-past. What was he to do with her? Where was he to take her? Poor Arthur
-puzzled behind his “Times,” and did not know.</p>
-
-<p>That evening he took her to the Gymnase, and at first the spell seemed
-to tell. Nancy for the first act gave her attention to the stage, and
-certainly it was not such a failure as the Français. There was a good
-deal of love-making, and that interested her. But it ended as before, in
-disgust and weariness.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_63" id="page_63">{63}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“I wish you would not take me to such places,” she cried, “is it because
-you are afraid of an evening at home? When we are settled at home at
-Underhayes you will be obliged to put up with me, there will be no play
-there.”</p>
-
-<p>This speech was particularly galling to Arthur, because he had not the
-slightest intention of settling at Underhayes, and to have it taken for
-granted gave him a pang which was chiefly terror. Should he be able to
-resist the foregone conclusion which thus had established itself in
-Nancy’s mind?</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed,” he said, “I should be glad to stay at home. Indeed I don’t
-mind where I am, so long as you are there too. I do not care for the
-play.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then what do you go for? Ah! I know, to polish me up, to teach me how
-to behave, to remedy my defective education.” This was once more said in
-the carriage as they were driving home.</p>
-
-<p>“Nancy, you are unkind,” said Arthur,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_64" id="page_64">{64}</a></span> “why should you speak to me so? I
-know nothing about defective education. I took you to amuse you. You
-thought you would like it.”</p>
-
-<p>“I did not know they were such poor sticks,” said Nancy, “I did not
-suppose they would gabble their French so. The people in the shops talk
-a great deal better. I never mistake them; and it worries me to look so
-stupid,” she added relenting. “I should not mind for myself; but it
-looks so bad for you having a wife that does not understand.”</p>
-
-<p>“For me, my darling!” cried Arthur delighted. “Do I care? An evening at
-home will be a great deal more pleasant; but my wife never looks stupid,
-cannot look stupid,” said the foolish young man. And again all was well.</p>
-
-<p>Thus the course of their honey-days went on not without fluctuations.
-What he said in his foolishness, was true so far, that Nancy did not
-look stupid. She looked careless, defiant, indifferent,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_65" id="page_65">{65}</a></span> scornful of
-what she saw, as of something which was not worth the trouble even of an
-effort to understand; but there was nothing stupid in her aspect at any
-time, and in spite of herself, stray gleams of understanding came in to
-the girl’s mind. Gleams which did not enlighten her then; but which
-worked in the chaos, apart from any will of hers. Her will was all set
-steadfastly the other way, to reject all possibilities of improvement,
-and the idea of being educated up to her husband’s level. Was not she as
-good as he to start with, was not her family as good as his family, if
-not better? Not so rich, but nicer, kinder people, to be upheld in their
-plainness above any attempt to pull them down. Nancy’s native energy of
-mind all ran into vigorous scorn of any attempt to separate her from her
-own race and identify her with his. To think of her old self in the pit,
-admiring her new self triumphant in a private box was a sensation which,
-all delicious as it was, originated in herself<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_66" id="page_66">{66}</a></span> and was not betrayed to
-anyone. Had Arthur seemed to think of this difference, Nancy would have
-proposed at once to descend to the pit as the preferable plan. She had
-made an immense ascent in the social scale by her marriage; but she
-never meant to acknowledge, not if she should die for it, that the
-ascent was of any consequence to her, or that it was expedient to change
-her manners or her smallest actions because of it; was she not “good
-enough” for Arthur? Then why did Arthur choose to marry her? It was he
-who had asked her, she would have said, not she who had asked him. He
-had pledged himself to take her for better for worse; but she had not
-pledged herself to change anything in her life or habits on his account.
-And she did not mean to do it. She was not a fine lady; she did not wish
-to look like a fine lady. It was far better that everybody should know
-what she was and who she was from the beginning. The idea that Arthur
-had begun a process<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_67" id="page_67">{67}</a></span> of education struck her suddenly after that visit
-to the Louvre; why had he been so anxious that she should admire
-everything? Why should he take her to the theatre? He wanted her to
-learn French; but she would not learn French. She had not asked Arthur
-to marry her; he it was who had asked her, and he must take the
-consequences. She had no wish to be here in Paris. It would be far
-better to have a little house in Underhayes, where she could show her
-advancement to those who knew her, and distinguish herself in the only
-circle where as yet she wished to be distinguished. Such was the course
-of thought in Nancy’s mind. This was curiously interfered with by the
-new thoughts which arose in her in spite of herself; but she clung to it
-all the same. She would go back upon the first grievance of her dress,
-the pink silk which he would not let her travel in, long after she had
-been convinced that the blue serge was better and more comfortable,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_68" id="page_68">{68}</a></span> and
-even looked better, which was the most difficult doctrine of all. She
-was quite aware that if she had known then as much even as she knew now,
-she would never have dreamed of setting out upon her journey in her
-salmon-coloured “silk,” yet still resented the fact that Arthur had
-objected to her “silk.” She would not yield. She would not try to adapt
-herself to the “ways” he had been accustomed to. The Bateses were as
-good as the Curtises, and so she would prove. But every day, in spite of
-herself, Nancy became more and more aware how far different her habits
-were from her husband’s, how unlike his were all her ways of thinking.
-But she would never, never give in, she said to herself. It was he who
-had asked her, not she who had asked him.</p>
-
-<p>This was very different from Arthur’s eager desire to make out, after
-every new demonstration of the difference between them, that Nancy could
-not act in any<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_69" id="page_69">{69}</a></span> other way, that it was absurd to expect other things
-from her. He was by far the humblest of the two, the most tolerant and
-forbearing. Indeed Nancy was not forbearing at all. She took offence at
-a look, and blazed into sudden wrath at the merest possibility of a
-suggestion of anything derogatory; whereas he bore numberless little
-shafts launched at his family, at fine people who thought themselves
-superior, at dainty ways and prejudices about dress and modes of living.
-Whenever she showed her ignorance more conspicuously than usual, or was
-more painfully unequal to some claim upon her, poor Arthur plunged once
-again into thought proving to himself that this was what he ought to
-have looked for, that nothing else would have been natural. He justified
-her in this way for everything she did, and everything she proved unable
-to do. But still it was rather a trying process, and the conclusion he
-came to at the end of a week was that Paris had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_70" id="page_70">{70}</a></span> not been a successful
-place to think of for the honeymoon. Honeymooning is more difficult in
-winter than in summer. There is so much more to be done in the latter
-season, and the open air harmonizes a great many things. Whereas two
-people not used to each other’s society, not interested in the same
-pursuits, brought up in perfectly different ways, and with no resources,
-shut up together even in a beautiful little apartment in a fine hotel on
-the Rue de Rivoli, what are they to do? The photograph was a charming
-occupation for one day, and it was tolerably successful, as successful
-as photographs ever are, and was the object of great admiration in
-Underhayes, when done up in a velvet frame. Nancy sent it home.</p>
-
-<p>“I hope you are soon going to follow,” Mrs. Bates wrote, and Nancy gave
-the letter to her husband to read. Certainly Paris had not been very
-successful. They had contented themselves with drives and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_71" id="page_71">{71}</a></span> walks after
-that mournful day at the Louvre, had gone to the Bois, which was rather
-naked at this time of the year, and walked about and got tired. And in
-the evening they had sat “at home” in the hotel. But Nancy had nothing
-to do, not even a scrap of fancy work, and when Arthur read to her, fell
-asleep; and they went to bed very early, which both of them felt was
-always a virtuous thing to do, if rather dull. And thus a fortnight of
-the honeymoon came not very cheerfully to an end.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_72" id="page_72">{72}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_IV" id="CHAPTER_IV"></a>CHAPTER IV.</h2>
-
-<p>“I don’t think you care for Paris,” said Arthur to his wife. They were
-driving out to the Bois, and the rain was drizzling, and it was not gay.
-There were fewer quarrels in this dull interval, but perhaps the fact
-scarcely improved the liveliness, if it slightly added to the happiness
-of their life.</p>
-
-<p>“No,” she said, with some vivacity; “not at all. It was very nice for a
-day or two. But now we seem to have got all we wanted, don’t we, Arthur?
-Another afternoon in the Roo, or in the Palay Royal, just to pick up a
-few little presents, and I should be quite content to go as soon as you
-please.”</p>
-
-<p>“You have seen very little, Nancy.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_73" id="page_73">{73}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, little! I have seen the whole place, all the best shops, and the
-best streets. I don’t know what more there is to see.”</p>
-
-<p>“People will not talk about the shops and streets,” said Arthur, in his
-most didactic way; “but about the pictures in the Louvre, and about
-Notre Dame; and what music you have heard, and what plays you have
-seen.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am sure mamma will never ask me any such questions,” said Nancy, “and
-I don’t suppose you are going to take me to see your great friends.”</p>
-
-<p>“That reminds me,” said Arthur, nervously clearing his throat, “of a
-favour I was going to ask of you. Will you do something&mdash;that will be
-very disagreeable&mdash;for me, Nancy, for my sake?”</p>
-
-<p>She looked at him very keenly, examining his face, conscious that this
-seeming simple prayer meant something more than appeared. “What is it?”
-she said, with a gleam of suspicion in her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“You will not promise then? you are cautious, Nancy. I should have
-pledged<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_74" id="page_74">{74}</a></span> myself to do anything and everything for your sake.”</p>
-
-<p>“What is it?” she repeated. “It is so easy to say what it is at once.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is this then&mdash;do not reply in a hurry&mdash;I am very anxious about it,
-Nancy; don’t you think you might write a few lines&mdash;to my mother.”</p>
-
-<p>“To your mother!” the audacity of the proposal took away her breath.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I am going to write&mdash;to say what I truly feel: that I am sorry to
-have offended her&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Sorry to have married me!” she cried, almost jumping out of the
-carriage in her vehemence. She looked at him, trembling with rage and
-wonder. How could he face her and ask such a thing? How could he frame
-the words? did he think she was going to give in, to yield now, without
-rhyme or reason, she who was certainly determined never to yield?</p>
-
-<p>“You know that is not the case,” he said; “you know that I have not
-repented marrying you&mdash;and never will.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_75" id="page_75">{75}</a></span> But, Nancy, it is not for our
-happiness or&mdash;well, I will say interest, though it is an ugly word&mdash;to
-be estranged from my mother. I want to write to her to tell her that I
-am grieved, hush! to have offended her. I should have known better. I
-should have managed so as that she might have seen you&mdash;known you,
-before she condemned me&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“That is that you are sorry you did not send me on approval, as the
-shopkeepers say&mdash;<i>me</i>! Do you suppose I would have done it? Do you think
-I could have endured for a moment&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Can I not ask you a favour&mdash;acknowledging it to be a favour, without a
-quarrel?” said Arthur. “We have been married a fortnight, and how often
-have we quarrelled already? Nancy, is it worth the while? Could we not
-discuss a matter that concerns us both, calmly, without anger? If it
-seems to you impossible, say so. Am I unreasonable to torment you about
-a thing you refuse? But why quarrel&mdash;I hate it&mdash;and you cannot&mdash;like
-it.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_76" id="page_76">{76}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“How do you know I don’t like it?” she cried; then stopped herself, with
-some dim perception of her folly. “I will not do it,” she said,
-doggedly, “that is enough. My lady has never taken any notice of me&mdash;no,
-nor even your sister, that you are always holding up as a model. I will
-not lay myself down at their feet to be trampled upon; you may do it
-yourself, if you please.”</p>
-
-<p>“I shall certainly write,” he said. “There will be no treading upon; but
-I shall write. If you will not do it, of course I cannot help it; but if
-you will be persuaded&mdash;out of your love for me&mdash;then I will be grateful
-to you, very grateful, Nancy. I will not say any more.”</p>
-
-<p>“I shall not do it,” she said; and then there ensued a silence, which
-was so long that it alarmed her. Generally Arthur had been but too
-obsequious, anxious to make up, to clear away any lingering cloud; but
-this time he said nothing. The fact was that his mind was too full of a
-multitude of thoughts to leave him any time to speak. He was wondering,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_77" id="page_77">{77}</a></span>
-in a kind of desolate way, what to do. He had ceased to be an
-independent agent, he could not go there and come here at his own
-pleasure. To be sure he was supposed to be the authority, to decide
-everything, to regulate every step they took; but how different this was
-in reality from the sound of it! A man has a right to take his wife
-where he pleases&mdash;yes, when she will go; but if the man is a
-tender-hearted, generous, foolish, impulsive young fellow in love, what
-becomes of this sublime authority of his? just about as much as comes of
-all the defences the law can place around a woman to save her from
-cruelty and oppression, when she happens to be of a like nature and
-loves her tyrant. Law is one thing, and love is another. Arthur did not
-know how to oppose Nancy, how to make any move without her agreement and
-sympathy, and he had already had many indications which way her mind was
-fixed. She wanted to go home to England, to Underhayes: and he wanted
-her to stay away, to remove further off from Eng<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_78" id="page_78">{78}</a></span>land. His whole mind
-was occupied by the discussion of expedients how to manage this, how to
-persuade her from her desire. And he was not even aware of the silence
-into which he sank, and which she thought so deliberate, and done with
-so distinct an intention of punishing her. They drove along in the
-Victoria, which had carried them about so often, side by side neither
-saying a word. Already Nancy’s appearance had changed. She had put aside
-her traveling-dress for another “silk” which Arthur had given her, and
-which was also dark blue in colour; over this she wore a warm mantle
-trimmed with soft fur about the throat and wrists, a delicate little
-bonnet, all corresponding, with that graceful Parisian taste, which is
-not to be picked up in the Paris streets any more than in the London
-shops, but dwells in its own costly shrine apart. All this changed
-Nancy’s appearance wonderfully. There was still, perhaps, something in
-her bearing when she was on foot, that showed the tax-collector’s
-daughter, the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_79" id="page_79">{79}</a></span> pretty girl of a country town, a little swing and
-loudness, a careless step and defiant pose; but in the carriage by her
-husband’s side, wrapped up in those furs, reclining in absolute ease and
-well-being, Nancy might have been a duke’s daughter for anything anyone
-could say. There were many of the people about who noticed them as they
-drove along, the handsome young English couple, usually so lively,
-to-day so taciturn. A man cannot belong to “Society,” cannot be brought
-up at Eton and Oxford, even if he is not in Society, without being
-known, and there were plenty of people who recognised Arthur Curtis, and
-wondered over his companion&mdash;who was she? They had not believed at first
-that she was his wife. One of these men, more curious than the rest,
-came to the edge of the pathway now as the Victoria got into the line,
-and was obliged to go slowly.</p>
-
-<p>“Curtis! is it really you, old fellow? I had been told you were here,
-but I could not believe my eyes.”</p>
-
-<p>“Was there anything so strange in my<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_80" id="page_80">{80}</a></span> being here?” said Arthur, rousing
-himself up. This was one of the men who know everything and everybody,
-who have it in their power to convey a bad or good impression to more
-important persons than themselves. This put Arthur at once on his
-mettle. “You must let me introduce you to my wife,” he said, “My friend,
-Denham, Nancy. We have not been very long here.”</p>
-
-<p>Nancy was excited by this sudden encounter with one of Arthur’s friends,
-one of those, perhaps, who knew his “folks,” and belonged to that
-unknown sphere of which she felt at once curious and defiant. She did
-not know very well what to do, whether to shake hands with him, or to
-refrain. Happily the instinct of comfortableness which suggested no
-change of position made her bow only, and as this little gesture was
-accompanied by a blush, very natural to the bridal condition and
-sentiment, the new-comer swore to himself, by Jove! that, were she as
-good as she looked, Curtis had got a prize.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_81" id="page_81">{81}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“Beg pardon for intruding on your domestic happiness,” he said; “but the
-truth was I had not heard&mdash;Not much going on is there? But Paris is as
-good a place as another for this dreary time of the year.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, I don’t suppose there is much going on, we have been nowhere; and
-we are off again directly, for Rome, I think,” said Arthur. “Paris is
-empty like other places. We have not seen a soul we know.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t suppose you were likely to look for them,” said Denham. “Would
-Mrs. Curtis care to see the bear-fight in the Assembly? sometimes it is
-fun. I will see after it, if you like, on the first good day?”</p>
-
-<p>“Should you, Nancy?” said Arthur, turning to her. Nancy had not a notion
-what the Assembly or the bear-fight was. She positively trembled in
-terror of saying something wrong. She who had never hesitated before.</p>
-
-<p>“I&mdash;don’t know,” she said; “I don’t care for any&mdash;fighting.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_82" id="page_82">{82}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, they are all muzzled,” said Denham, laughing. “Meurice’s? I will
-call and let you know.”</p>
-
-<p>“Thanks, but it is not worth the trouble; we shall be off in a few
-days.”</p>
-
-<p>“If you go to Rome, Neville is there,” cried the stranger after them, as
-the line moved on more quickly; and he took off his hat to Nancy with a
-respectful politeness that enchanted her; she was pleased with the
-novelty of talking to a stranger even for a moment. It made the air a
-little less still and self-absorbed.</p>
-
-<p>“Who is he?” she asked, with momentary awe.</p>
-
-<p>“Denham, he’s one of the attachés here, not a bad fellow; but talks like
-half-a-dozen old women.”</p>
-
-<p>“We need not mind how Mr. Denham talks,” said Nancy, with a little
-elevation of her head. “We have nothing to be afraid of. He can talk as
-much as he likes for what I care.”</p>
-
-<p>“Isn’t there? But he is Sir John, not Mr. Denham,” said Arthur,
-carelessly.</p>
-
-<p>Nancy sat a little more upright, shak<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_83" id="page_83">{83}</a></span>ing herself free of the wraps, and
-her eyes glistened. “Was that a baronet?” she said, with a little
-awe&mdash;then added, “And so will you be, Arthur. I don’t understand saying
-anything but Mr. to a gentleman. But you will be a baronet, too.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not for a long time, I hope,” said Arthur, with a sigh. It brought him
-back to all the tangled course of his own affairs. He was not by nature
-the kind of son who calculates on the time that must elapse before he
-comes to his kingdom, and it was very strange to him to see his wife’s
-eyes brighten at the idea of that “rise in life,” which meant his
-father’s death. “Poor old governor, I hope he may live to be a hundred,”
-he said, with a half-laugh, which was a half-sigh. Nancy did not join in
-this wish. She stared a little with consternation at the thought.</p>
-
-<p>“What did&mdash;the gentleman&mdash;mean about bear-fighting? Is it a Zoological
-garden? Assembly in some places means a ball,” said Nancy, “it was
-rather a jumble; what did he mean?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_84" id="page_84">{84}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“He meant the French Parliament, in which they make the laws, as the
-House of Commons does in England&mdash;or at least, we may say so for the
-sake of description,” said Arthur; to which Nancy replied with a little
-startled “Oh!” of disappointment and suspicion.</p>
-
-<p>“Do ladies go to such places? I thought ladies had never anything to do
-with politics.”</p>
-
-<p>“My dear Nancy,” said Arthur, seizing the opportunity to be instructive,
-“when you go into society, you will find that people talk a great deal
-about such things, whether they care for them or not; they <i>are</i> the
-things that people talk about. And it is reasonable to think,” he went
-on, more and more improving the occasion, “that, when you are in a
-foreign country, you should like to see what is most important in it.
-That is always taken for granted. You see Denham thought that was one of
-the things you would like to see.”</p>
-
-<p>This silenced Nancy more than could have been supposed possible. She
-had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_85" id="page_85">{85}</a></span> never seen this stranger before, and probably never would see him
-again; but the fact that he had expected her to know what he meant, and
-to be interested in the French Parliament, impressed her infinitely more
-than all Arthur’s anxious efforts for her improvement. Were ladies like
-that, she could not help asking herself? What a bother it would be to be
-a lady, if that was the sort of thing they were expected to care for&mdash;a
-lot of old men making speeches, which she could not understand one word
-of! but that of course nobody could be supposed to know. She was
-overawed, and received Arthur’s sermon more meekly than she had received
-any of his didactic addresses before. She supposed now that sister of
-his, that Lucy, would have gone and understood every word, that she
-would have liked the playacting, and talked about it, and laughed as
-Arthur did, that she would have seen a great deal in those stupid old
-pictures. Nancy was silent and dismayed. To be a lady seemed to her a
-hard trade. How different from the case of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_86" id="page_86">{86}</a></span> Underhayes, the talk about
-Lizzie Brown and Raisins, the grocer, in the snug parlour where
-everybody was so comfortable! Her mother and Sarah Jane never would ask
-her about the bear-fighting in the Assembly, nor how she liked M. Got. A
-longing for home seized the girl, and a terror of what seemed before
-her. To be sure, if she had known it, the talk about Lizzie Brown was
-quite as much in Sir John Denham’s way as in that of Mrs. Bates; but
-then his Lizzie Brown was perhaps an Empress, which makes a difference
-more or less. The two young people had never been so silent in each
-other’s company. They drove back so full of many thoughts that neither
-perceived the pre-occupation of the other, and oddly enough they were
-both thinking of their homes; Arthur, with a pang, but without any
-desire to find himself there&mdash;Nancy with the strongest determination to
-get back. There was a half-smile in Arthur’s eyes, but a smile which was
-strangely associated with that pain behind the eyeballs and slight
-constriction of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_87" id="page_87">{87}</a></span> throat, which means unsheddable tears, as his home
-seemed to rise up before him among its woods. He saw his father in his
-library, his mother in that gilded and satin-hung morning-room, which
-was <i>à la Louis Quinze</i>, but which nobody thought in bad taste, as we
-see people in a dream. They did not look at him, nor welcome him, and he
-did not wish to be there. How could he take Nancy there? He was
-separated from them, perhaps for ever, and he could scarcely wish it to
-be otherwise. But Nancy on her side thought of home with much livelier
-feelings. Oh, only to be there! free to show all her pretty things, her
-new “silks,” her trinkets and furs: to let everybody see how fine she
-was: to talk just as she liked, not to be made to admire anything she
-did not understand&mdash;not to be burdened with bonds beyond her
-comprehension, limits of speech, and word, and action, beyond which it
-was not “becoming,” not “appropriate,” not “right” perhaps, that she
-should go. At home she had done what she liked, run out of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_88" id="page_88">{88}</a></span> doors when
-she pleased, laughed as loudly as she pleased, been as ignorant as she
-pleased. It did not occur to Nancy that at home it had been her
-inclination to stand on her superiority, as one who had been five
-quarters at school, and was altogether “a cut above” Matilda and Sarah
-Jane.</p>
-
-<p>They were sitting after dinner that evening, yawning a little, when Sir
-John Denham’s card was brought to Arthur. He looked at Nancy half
-doubtfully, an expression which she caught at once.</p>
-
-<p>“Shall he come up, or shall I go down to him?” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh just as you like,” said Nancy, with the quick thought passing
-through her mind that Arthur did not choose that his fine friends should
-see her. He looked at her again; in reality to see what she wished; but
-to Nancy it seemed an inquisitorial glance, criticising her all over, if
-perhaps she was “fit to be seen.”</p>
-
-<p>“I will go down and bring him up,” he said. When he was gone, Nancy too
-looked at herself in one of the many mirrors. She still wore the dark
-blue silk<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_89" id="page_89">{89}</a></span> dress which had been made for her since she came to Paris,
-with ruffles of lace at the throat and wrists. It was very plain. Should
-she run and put on the salmon-coloured one, which was a great deal
-finer, before Arthur returned with the stranger? She hesitated a moment;
-but her good angel interfered and kept her still. Sir John Denham
-thought her on the whole a lady-like young woman when he came into the
-room. Evidently there must be something queer about the business
-altogether, Denham thought; but she was very pretty, and looked <i>comme
-il faut</i>, so far as he could see.</p>
-
-<p>“I have to make a thousand apologies,” he said, “but I thought it better
-to run up and tell my story myself, hoping that Curtis would intercede
-for me as an old friend. May I be allowed to open my mouth at all, at
-such an inappropriate moment? A thousand thanks; I came to say that if
-you would be at the Palais de Justice at twelve to-morrow, I could meet
-you there with La Pic, who is a friend of mine, and would take you in.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_90" id="page_90">{90}</a></span>
-There is to be an <i>interpellation</i> which probably may be amusing&mdash;and if
-you are going on so soon&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“It is very kind of you, Denham, I am sure my wife will like it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mrs. Curtis looks a little doubtful, I think,” said Denham, “but of
-course you must not mind me. It is only if it will amuse you.”</p>
-
-<p>Nancy vacillated between two courses; she was tempted to a little
-bravado, to avow boldly her ignorance, and shame the pretensions which
-her husband made on her behalf; and on the other hand she was also
-tempted to commend herself to this stranger, who was a real baronet, and
-finer than anyone she had ever talked with before. Why should she let
-him see how little she knew? And in this wavering she took a long time
-to make up her reply.</p>
-
-<p>“I do not understand much about&mdash;politics,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“Especially French politics, I suppose,” said Sir John, smiling and
-showing large white teeth. “So I should think, Mrs. Curtis; <i>I</i> don’t
-understand them though<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_91" id="page_91">{91}</a></span> it is my business; but it is fine to see how
-they fly at each other, and will not keep still for all the Presidents
-in the world. I hope Curtis has been letting you see a little of Paris.
-We must excuse him, I suppose, for keeping you so entirely to himself.”</p>
-
-<p>“We have been at a theatre or two,” said Arthur carelessly, “that is
-all; we are just passing through.”</p>
-
-<p>“And I am sorry there is nothing going on yet; after Christmas, if you
-were staying, I might be of some use. Some of the balls are worth going
-to in the Carnival. But why should I tell this to you who, probably know
-a great deal better than I do&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh no,” said Nancy, “I have never been in Paris before.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, that accounts&mdash;” said Sir John. “The fact is I have been wondering
-that I had not seen you anywhere; what luck for Curtis to have so many
-new things to show you. But there is not much going on. I suppose you
-are going to Oakley for Christmas, Curtis. Lucky fellow, with nothing to
-do but amuse yourself. Put<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_92" id="page_92">{92}</a></span> me at the feet of the ladies there; I have
-not seen Lady Curtis or your sister for ages. A poor beggar like me
-would not know what to do with such a place, otherwise I should envy
-you, Oakley. What a place! what woods! what a park! it is only in
-England that one sees anything like it.”</p>
-
-<p>“You were always a romancer, Denham, Oakley is nothing particular. Being
-home it is very pleasant; but as a model of an English house&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I maintain it is, and Mrs. Curtis shall judge between us. It is not a
-feudal castle&mdash;I allow you might find finer things in that line; it has
-neither moat nor dungeon, I suppose; but for a gentleman’s house&mdash;why,
-we have nothing in the least like it here. Don’t you agree with me, Mrs.
-Curtis? You have not been long enough in the family to depreciate their
-good things as they do. I am sure you will give your vote for Oakley
-against anything you see between this and Rome, of its kind&mdash;I wait for
-your support.”</p>
-
-<p>It was a strange situation enough. Denham did not understand; but he<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_93" id="page_93">{93}</a></span>
-divined, and liked to play with the unknown danger in Nancy’s doubtful
-looks, and Curtis’s evident anxiety. As for Nancy, she looked at her
-husband with a perceptible tremor. She wanted him to instruct her, to
-indicate what she was to say: though, had it been possible that he could
-have dictated to her, that very fact would have made her perverse. At
-last she said hesitating, “I have seen&mdash;so little&mdash;I could not judge&mdash;I
-have never been out of England before.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, that accounts&mdash;” said Denham vaguely; and he was very much puzzled
-by this subdued bride, who had no enthusiasm either for the new world
-she was visiting or the old world which she had left so lately. He tried
-to draw her out on a variety of subjects; but Nancy, though at intervals
-an impulse of self-revelation would come upon her, and it was on her
-lips to tell him that she knew nothing of Oakley, and cared nothing, and
-should never be there, nor go to Rome, nor do any one of these things he
-was talking of, was on the other hand so<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_94" id="page_94">{94}</a></span> afraid of betraying herself
-that she held back, looking stiff and silent, and scarcely could be got
-to say a word. As for Arthur, his anxiety made him somewhat excited and
-restless, it took away all ease from his manner. He wanted her to join
-in the conversation, to come out of the shell of reserve in which she
-had shut herself up; and yet he was afraid of what she might say if once
-roused. She was a clever girl, with much natural energy and force; but
-yet it was annoying how entirely the daughter of Bates the tax-collector
-was at a loss listening to the conversation of the two men who were not
-clever, yet who knew by nature many things of which she had not a
-notion. This Assembly they wanted her to go to, what was it? Why should
-she go? What was an inter&mdash;inter&mdash;what? Their world and hers were
-totally different, though one of them was her husband. She was relieved
-when they veered into gossip and began to talk of people, though she did
-not know the people. There she could follow them even in her ignorance;
-for had not she too a Lizzie Brown?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_95" id="page_95">{95}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_V" id="CHAPTER_V"></a>CHAPTER V.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">“W</span>HY cannot we go home?” said Nancy. “I don’t want to stay here. I don’t
-want to go to your Rome, and places. What is the good of taking me away
-to make a show of me? I can speak English, but I don’t know any of those
-jargons. I am sure it is not good French here; and as for Italian, I
-never heard a word of it. It is only to make me look ridiculous. Denham
-thinks so, Arthur. He comes and looks at me, and asks me about old Lady
-So-and-So. I tell him I don’t know her, and I don’t want to know her. I
-shall tell him some day I never knew Lady Anybody in my life, and that
-<i>I</i> am a nobody. I will, if you do not take me away!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_96" id="page_96">{96}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Do tell him so,” said Arthur, “if you please. I don’t mind what you
-tell him. You don’t think I want you to make believe? You are all I wish
-for, Nancy, yourself&mdash;better than if you had known a dozen Lady
-So-and-So’s.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, but I am sure you watch me,” she cried. “I always feel that your
-eye is upon me, Arthur. You are afraid I will say something wrong; and I
-am afraid too, except when I want to do it: and if I should do it some
-time, as I am sure I will if we go on, you will not like it. Arthur,
-don’t let us go further off; let us go home.”</p>
-
-<p>“Home? where is home?” he said. “I don’t know if I should have any
-welcome.”</p>
-
-<p>“But I should,” cried Nancy. “Mother and all of them would dance for
-joy. And think how much better we should be. We must be spending a mint
-of money here. You talk of going further, but I don’t believe you will
-be able to go further when you look into it. And I don’t know what we
-have to spend: you don’t tell me anything.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_97" id="page_97">{97}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“I scarcely know myself,” said Arthur, with rather a bewildered look
-upon his face. “I don’t know what my father&mdash;things should be different
-now.”</p>
-
-<p>“And you are going away travelling without knowing? You will find,” said
-Nancy, becoming practical all at once, “that we have spent a great deal
-of money; always having carriages and going to the play&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Not to many plays.”</p>
-
-<p>“Two; and that music Denham gave us tickets for&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“My darling, don’t be angry&mdash;but would you mind saying Sir John?”</p>
-
-<p>“Why should I say Sir John? You always call him Denham. And when we went
-to that Assembly there was another carriage. I suppose it would always
-be the same if we were going to other places; but at Underhayes it would
-not be like that. We could take a little house and furnish it, and you
-have such good taste, Arthur. We would make it so pretty, and everybody
-would be delighted to see us. I should manage everything, and keep the
-expenses right, and you&mdash;you<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_98" id="page_98">{98}</a></span>&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes!” said Arthur, taking her hands into his as she stood by him, “What
-for me? I should have nothing to do.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well! when one has plenty to live on, what does it matter? It will
-always be delightful. We shall take walks. Don’t you remember the
-common, how beautiful it was? And now and then we will go to London; and
-in the evening we can&mdash;you can read out loud to me,” said Nancy,
-stopping, with a little confusion. “We can go and see mother,” was what
-she was about to say; but she stopped instinctively, and kept that in
-the background. She was standing by his chair, putting her fingers
-through his hair, arranging and re-arranging it with soft touches, each
-one of which was a caress. It was seldom that she was in this tender
-mood, and he felt himself melting under it. Sometimes she would stoop
-down and put her cheek against his. “You would teach me all sorts of
-things,” said Nancy. “Sometimes I know I am not good-tempered, Arthur. I
-give you a great deal of trouble. It makes me wild to think that I am
-not<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_99" id="page_99">{99}</a></span> like you, that I don’t do you credit; and then my temper gets the
-better of me, and I say I am as good as they are, why should I trouble?”</p>
-
-<p>As she made this confession, tears came trembling into Nancy’s eyes and
-stole into her voice. She had never before revealed to her husband the
-state of mind which made her so capricious, and as she told it, all
-those vagaries of temper which had tormented Arthur, became sacred
-things to him, and beautiful in the light of love and penitence. He took
-into his arms this tender culprit, whose avowal made all her faults into
-virtues.</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t, my darling!” he cried; “don’t! Not like me? You are far better
-than I am. Not do me credit? Nancy! don’t you know I am as proud of you
-as I am fond of you&mdash;and can anything be more than that? Teach you! What
-could I teach you? It is you who teach me.”</p>
-
-<p>And he meant what he said, and she meant it, to the bottom of their
-foolish young hearts, and it was all true and all false, as only human
-things can be.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_100" id="page_100">{100}</a></span> Nancy, though her heart was melting and running over
-with the tenderness of her confession, was as ready to be defiant as
-ever at half a moment’s notice, and Arthur as sure soon to be doubtful
-of her, alarmed and anxious, uncertain as to what she might do or say.
-But neither of them was at all aware of this as they clung together and
-mutually repented, and declared that never again, never again should
-anything disturb their harmony and full understanding of each other.</p>
-
-<p>“There are so many things you could teach me,” Nancy said, smiling
-through her tears, “in our own little house at home! You could make a
-lady of me. Oh, yes, we all thought you had done that when we were
-married, but now I know better. But you can make a lady of me, Arthur,
-if you will try.”</p>
-
-<p>“You are a lady already, my darling,” he said; but how sweet was this
-consciousness of what was wanting in herself, and the confidence that he
-could communicate all she wanted! It was like an inspiration direct from
-Heaven.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_101" id="page_101">{101}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“I will study whatever you wish,” said Nancy. “We could give ourselves
-up to it if we were only in a little house of our own. Whatever you
-please, Arthur; French if you like, for I am ashamed not to understand
-it when you talk it so well, and I don’t think it can have been much
-good what I learned at school; and about pictures and buildings, and
-everything. I don’t know <i>anything</i>, Arthur. I could not understand the
-things you were talking about, Denham and you; and I know you were vexed
-about the pictures, and the theatre.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, my sweetest, I was not vexed&mdash;perhaps a little disappointed; but I
-knew it was because you had not seen any before.”</p>
-
-<p>“That was all. I know a little better already; and, Arthur, if you were
-to give this winter to it, and help me, in our own little house! So near
-London as Underhayes is, we could go up and see things; and you could
-read books to me. I think I can see it all,” said Nancy, smiling upon
-him with her wet eyes; “a little drawing-<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_102" id="page_102">{102}</a></span>room with lace curtains and
-windows that opened to the garden, and another nice little room with
-your pipes in it, where I could come and sit by your side while you
-smoked your cigar!”</p>
-
-<p>“But, Nancy, might not all this beautiful picture come to pass, just as
-well in Italy? You don’t know what Italy is. None of your dull wet days,
-but always soft, bright, sunshiny weather, and the bluest sky, and such
-moonlight nights. We need not go to Rome at all. I know a little village
-up amongst the woods with a view of the sea. Nancy! you can’t think how
-beautiful it is!”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t care,” she said, with a little pout. “I don’t want to go to
-Italy. It is so far, so far away; and I cannot speak the language; and
-it is so dreary to live among people, and hear them chattering, and not
-understand.”</p>
-
-<p>“But you would very soon learn Italian. It is the easiest
-language&mdash;everybody says so,” said Arthur. “You could pick it up in a
-few weeks. You would so soon feel<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_103" id="page_103">{103}</a></span> at home there. The good people are
-fond of everything that is beautiful. Oh, they are not all good people,
-I suppose. Sometimes they will ask too much from you; they will,
-perhaps, cheat you a little, in quite a friendly way&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I could not endure that!” cried Nancy. “That is the one thing I could
-not put up with; and foreigners are all like that, Arthur; they pretend
-kindness so long as they have something to gain; but they don’t really
-care. Oh! there is nothing like England,” she cried, clasping her hands,
-“and a little house of our own! And in the summer, when, perhaps, your
-people may have changed their mind, Arthur, <i>then</i> I should not be
-afraid to meet with them. I should know a great many things that I don’t
-know now. And we should be so happy, both together, and no one to
-interfere with us.”</p>
-
-<p>Arthur was moved to the bottom of his heart. It did not occur to him to
-think of her own description of “foreigners,” who pretend kindness as
-long as they have something to gain. Nay, more than that,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_104" id="page_104">{104}</a></span> <i>she</i> did not
-think of it either. Nancy was quite sincere. By talking about it, she
-had made a certainty in her own mind that this was really all she
-wanted, that in such circumstances happiness would come of itself,
-without frets or interruption; and in what other way could that be
-secured? She was so earnest in carrying her point, that she really felt
-all she expressed. Whereas, if he took her away, if he insisted on <i>his</i>
-plan, Nancy felt that she could not answer for herself. It was for his
-sake as well as hers; it was for their good as well as for their
-happiness. And what could Arthur answer to all this? The fact that she
-wanted anything, was not that the most powerful argument for having it?
-His own inclinations were strongly in favour of absence, and he believed
-that this teaching of which she spoke, and which he had fully intended,
-could get itself accomplished far better on the Riviera, or in the villa
-among the chestnut woods at Castellamare than anywhere near the house of
-the Bates’. But what could he do or say against her? He<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_105" id="page_105">{105}</a></span> tried to
-beguile her into talk of what might happen after, when they would go
-into society, and when, perhaps, he should be able to take her to Oakley
-to see all its beauties. But this was a subject of which Nancy was very
-shy. She would not speak of Arthur’s “people,” whom she no longer called
-“folks.” When she did make their acquaintance, she wanted to do so in a
-way which would dazzle them. She could not tolerate the idea of any
-condescension on their part to Arthur’s wife. No, she must have
-surmounted all difficulties, and feel able to consider herself as much a
-lady as any of them, before she met those ladies who were her natural
-enemies and rivals. For Arthur’s sake she would avoid them until she
-could burst upon them in full glory of new instruction and knowledge.</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t speak to me about Oakley,” she said. “It was all I could do to
-make sure Oakley was its name when Denham talked of it. It makes me
-angry to hear of it. I, your wife, not to know it, not to know anything
-about it or them! when<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_106" id="page_106">{106}</a></span> every poor creature of an ambassador’s flunkey
-goes there.”</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t be too hard upon old Denham,” said Arthur, laughing. “How he
-would be pleased to hear you! But not Denham, Nancy, if you love me.
-Your mouth was not made to drop words in that careless way.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, nonsense, Arthur! What should I say? Sir John is so formal. <i>You</i>
-would not say Denham if it was wrong,” said Nancy, recovering a little
-from the too great amiability of this episode; and then she added, “You
-have asked me to do something for you. I will do it. I will not bargain
-with you, but I will do it; only you must not see my letter, or school
-me. I will write out of my own head.”</p>
-
-<p>“Will you, Nancy? You are always a darling, always kinder than I
-deserve; but at least you will let me see it&mdash;send it with mine?”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” she said; “no, no, no; but I will write. Now, will that please
-you? And you will yield to me, like a dear good<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_107" id="page_107">{107}</a></span> Arthur, and take me
-home. I do so wish to go home.”</p>
-
-<p>“That looks as if you were tired of me, Nancy.”</p>
-
-<p>“Does it?” she said with a smile, putting her arm softly about his neck.</p>
-
-<p>She was not addicted to caresses. There was a kind of rude delicacy and
-reserve in her, which a little more gentleness of manner would have made
-into that exquisite bloom of modesty which is the crown of all graces.
-That soft touch said more from her than the utmost <i>abandon</i> of
-lovingness from another. Poor Arthur was all subdued; he could not
-resist her; her tenderness filled him with happiness beyond expression.
-If she would but be always thus, in spite of all he might have to pay
-for it, what man was there in the world so blessed as he? That even at
-this exquisite moment he had the strength of mind not to commit himself
-finally to the carrying out of her wish, was more than could have been
-expected. It was, perhaps, because “Denham” arrived at that moment to
-accompany them to a morning<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_108" id="page_108">{108}</a></span> performance at the “Conservatoire,” for
-which his zeal had with difficulty got them tickets. They had not wanted
-to go, but “Denham” had insisted upon it. Nancy went away to put on her
-bonnet as he came upstairs. How near she had been to success! Her heart
-was full of confidence and pleasure in the thought, and this gave a
-brightness to her countenance which was all it wanted.</p>
-
-<p>“What have you been doing to your wife? She is radiant. She will have a
-great <i>succès</i>, and you and I will shine in her lustre,” said their
-companion to Arthur, as they arrived at the concert-rooms.</p>
-
-<p>How proudly Arthur looked at her, exhilarated yet subdued as she was by
-that delightful sense of having got, or nearly got, her own way! This
-happiness had taken from Nancy the look of defiant watchfulness which
-generally gave a sense of unrest and discomfort to her beauty. For the
-first time since their marriage she looked at her ease and unafraid. He
-was so absorbed in her that he did not see a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_109" id="page_109">{109}</a></span> well-known face close to
-him, nor dream of any interruption of his felicity until, at the first
-interval in the music, some one reached a fan across from another bench
-and tapped him on the shoulder.</p>
-
-<p>“Why, Arthur, Arthur! don’t you know us?” a voice said. It seemed to
-curdle the blood in his veins. He turned round with a sense of absolute
-dismay.</p>
-
-<p>Behind him&mdash;how could he have missed the grey head of the old Indian,
-the overwhelming bonnet of his aunt, the demure correctness of the
-English young lady, all three in a row?&mdash;sat General Curtis, his uncle,
-father of the Rev. Hubert, who was Rector of Oakley, with the two ladies
-who ministered to him. What so natural as that these excellent people
-should be in Paris? They were on their way home from the German baths
-where the General went for his gout. And the wife and daughter, worn to
-death by the process which screwed the General up for the rest of the
-year, had need of a little taste of Paris to refresh their jaded souls.
-It was Mrs. Curtis who called “Arthur, Arthur!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_110" id="page_110">{110}</a></span>” A discussion had gone
-on between the three from the moment that Arthur appeared with the young
-woman, whose advent filled these ladies with a thrill of curiosity.
-“Don’t you meddle with what don’t concern you,” growled the General.
-Arthur was known to have made a dreadful connection, to have married
-somebody who was nobody, and generally to be in a bad way; and the sight
-of Nancy had startled this group beyond expression, as she came in
-looking happy and beautiful in her dainty Parisian bonnet.</p>
-
-<p>“She looks a perfect lady, mamma; why shouldn’t we?” said Mary Curtis,
-who was charitable and disposed to be “gushing.”</p>
-
-<p>“It concerns us as much as it concerns anyone, except his father and
-mother,” Mrs. Curtis said. Both wife and daughter were disposed to be
-rebellious to the dictum of the head of the house. They had gone through
-so much for him. Now they were on ground which they felt to be their
-own, and on which he was no longer supreme, and his opposition
-quickened<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_111" id="page_111">{111}</a></span> their desire to penetrate Arthur’s mystery. No one in the
-family had seen her, they would be the first, and even that thought was
-pleasant. “That is Sir John Denham on the other side; if she was very
-bad would he show himself with them <i>in public</i>,” said Mrs. Curtis.</p>
-
-<p>“What does a fellow like that care?” the General growled back, “the
-<i>demimonde</i> is what he likes best.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, hush, Anthony, think of Mary,” said his wife, “he may like the
-<i>demimonde</i>, as you say; but I don’t think he’d like to show himself
-with them <i>in public</i>. And really she looks very nice. What a pretty
-bonnet! Anthony, you cannot pass by your own nephew.”</p>
-
-<p>“I won’t have anything to say to him; if you do, you must take the
-consequence,” said the General.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh do, mamma, do!” cried Mary at her other side. And the result was
-that Mrs. Curtis put her fan over somebody’s shoulder and called
-“Arthur, Arthur!” and filled the young man’s mind with unutterable
-dismay.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_112" id="page_112">{112}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“Aunt Curtis!” said Arthur, rising to his feet. He grew crimson with the
-sudden emergency, with the surprise, “Who would have thought of seeing
-you here?”</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed if you had thought at all on the subject, you might have made
-sure we should be here,” said Mrs. Curtis, and then she stooped forward
-and raised her head to whisper: “She is very pretty, Arthur, and of
-course you think her as nice as she is pretty. Would she like to be
-introduced to me?”</p>
-
-<p>“She must be now that you are here,” said Arthur, not with any great
-eagerness. He took her offer a great deal too easily as a matter of
-course, not as the distinguished kindness she intended it to be. But her
-curiosity had reached to a very high point, and there was a touch of
-kindness as well as of self-importance in the idea of being able to
-mediate in the family affairs. Besides Sir John Denham was chatting
-familiarly on the other side of the bride, whose looks in her Paris
-bonnet were unexceptionable; and Sir John Denham was a very useful man
-to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_113" id="page_113">{113}</a></span> know in Paris, and one before whom many doors opened. And though her
-husband grumbled and held back, her daughter was still more anxious than
-she was.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Arthur, how pretty she is!” Mary Curtis murmured to her cousin,
-while her mother made up her mind. It was Mary or some one like her who
-ought to have been elected to fill the post Nancy had secured, to become
-the future Lady Curtis. If that post had been filled up by competitive
-examination, as men’s situations are nowadays, no doubt Mary would have
-got it; and looking at it entirely as a public position without
-reference to Arthur (who after all was but a necessary adjunct, and not
-everything) Mary felt a lively interest, touched with doubt of her
-qualifications, in the successful candidate. She was anxious to inspect
-her, to have the satisfaction of feeling, which is a very general
-sentiment, that she herself could have done it better. Would this girl
-have the least idea how to behave in so important a post? Mary gave her
-mother little pushes and pinches to urge her on.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_114" id="page_114">{114}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“I hope you have taken her to see your mother, Arthur,” said Mrs.
-Curtis, “she is of course the first person to be thought of. Ah, you
-have not, you naughty boy! well, if you wish it I will go and speak to
-her before the music begins again. No, Mary, not you, you had better
-stay where you are. Papa will be vexed if we both go.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, papa! it is always papa,” said Mary, as her mother swept past her,
-almost sweeping her out of her seat. Mrs. Curtis was large and ample
-both in figure and drapery, and looked like Society impersonated as she
-swept round in front into the vacant space before Nancy, with a
-solemnity becoming the occasion. Nancy looked up alarmed at the coming
-of this large lady, and if it was partly defiance and resistance, it was
-also partly shyness, and fright, and ignorance as to what it was right
-to do, that kept her from rising to receive this imposing introduction.
-Mrs. Curtis made her a curtsey, which the girl blushing hotly, and
-confused between pride and shame and helpless ignorance, returned<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_115" id="page_115">{115}</a></span> only
-with a little tremulous inclination of her head. Oh, if she only knew
-what was the most polite yet the most disdainful thing to do!</p>
-
-<p>“I am afraid you scarcely know who I am,” said the large lady, “Arthur
-has not had much time yet to tell you about his relations. I am your
-husband’s aunt, Mrs. Arthur; we are all very fond of him. But you have
-not seen any of the family yet, I am sorry to hear.”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” said Nancy, feeling waves of hot blood come up to her temples. She
-confronted her new acquaintance without looking at her, with eyes half
-concealed by her eyelids, dumbly defiant. Arthur’s relations might come
-and stare at her, and talk to her as they pleased, but she would make no
-advances. And they could not make much, she thought, out of yes and no.</p>
-
-<p>“Arthur shall tell me where you are, and I will come to see you
-to-morrow,” said Mrs. Curtis. “I think it is only right for his sake,
-and I hope you will not be frightened of me. I will do anything I can to
-be of use to you, for Arthur’s sake,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_116" id="page_116">{116}</a></span> that is, of course, if you wish
-it. Sir John Denham, I think,” she added, turning to him. Denham had
-withdrawn a few steps from the family meeting, as courtesy demanded. “I
-met you, I think, years and years ago at the Carringtons’, though I see
-you have forgotten me.”</p>
-
-<p>“As if that were possible!” said Denham, in a tone which half offended
-Nancy. He had pretended to be her friend and Arthur’s; yet here he was
-just as friendly with the enemy. “But they are going to begin again, I
-am afraid. Will you take this place,” he said, offering her his vacant
-chair. Mrs. Curtis paused to reflect that to place herself beside
-Arthur’s wife <i>in public</i>, was more than was required of her; more,
-indeed, than was perfectly discreet in the circumstances. So she made
-her doubtful niece-in-law a bow, and took Arthur’s arm again.</p>
-
-<p>“I must return to my own party I fear,” she said, “but I shall hope to
-see you to-morrow.” Nancy found herself for a moment left entirely
-alone, while this unexpected intruder upon her happiness squeezed back
-again into her place,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_117" id="page_117">{117}</a></span> for Denham too had deserted her, as she saw by a
-backward glance, to renew acquaintance with the fine young lady behind,
-with whom Arthur too lingered, leaving her seated there in front alone.
-The din of the orchestra recommenced, which Nancy was not sufficiently
-instructed to admire, and her head began to ache with jealous pain and
-misery. The heat of the place, the languor of the afternoon, the crash
-of the music, made an atmosphere of confusion and sickening incongruity
-all around her. Oh, to be in the little parlour at home again! oh, to be
-Nancy Bates, with no fine ladies to question, or fine gentlemen to
-thrust the village girl to the front of this alien assembly, where all
-the people knew each other, and understood what was going on, except
-only she. These women! she had never expected any inquisition of this
-kind. She would have liked to jump up and rush away, no matter where,
-only to be free of it all. She said to herself she could not bear it.
-She would go home whatever happened; with Arthur or without Arthur, it
-did not seem to matter now.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_118" id="page_118">{118}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_VI" id="CHAPTER_VI"></a>CHAPTER VI.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">N</span>ANCY had plenty of time to calm herself down before she received the
-promised visit of Mrs. Curtis. And Arthur, who had always been so
-anxiously compliant with all her wishes, and so ready to excuse all her
-shortcomings, looked so serious when she burst out into vituperation of
-the “big fat woman,” and declared her determination not to be spied
-upon, that even her impetuosity owned a check.</p>
-
-<p>“If you insist upon going away, and not receiving her, it will be a
-great vexation and pain to me,” he said, “and your own good sense will
-show you, Nancy&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I have no good sense,” said the excited creature. “I never pretended to
-be sensible; you knew what I was when<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_119" id="page_119">{119}</a></span> you married me, Arthur; and to be
-spied upon, and examined all over by a set of women&mdash;I can’t bear it,
-and I won’t, not for anybody in the world; not even for you!”</p>
-
-<p>Poor Arthur did not make any immediate reply. He walked about the little
-room with agitated steps; then went and stood at the window, looking out
-with a blank and hopeless face. Perhaps silence was, of all others, the
-thing which Nancy could least encounter. She sat gazing at him, ready to
-make off in a moment to her room, to snatch her hat, and fly out, she
-knew not where; anywhere to escape from those shackles of her new life
-which were so intolerable. That he would rush after her, entreat her to
-return, promise everything that she wished seemed certain to Nancy. She
-did not calculate upon this, but was sure of it without thinking. But
-his silence chilled her, and when he spoke it was in a voice she did not
-recognise, a voice out of which all the music and sweetness seemed to
-have gone.</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know if this will have any in<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_120" id="page_120">{120}</a></span>fluence upon you,” he said, “but
-it is worth thinking of: that we cannot live utterly estranged from my
-family. Some time or other we must seek a renewal of intercourse. <i>I</i>
-must seek it, not they; and if my Aunt Curtis could in the meantime
-convey a pleasant impression of you&mdash;if she was herself won to be on our
-side&mdash;I don’t say it would be of great consequence, but yet it would be
-a beginning. I don’t know what you think of my family, Nancy; if you
-think they are some kind of wild beasts to be avoided; but they can’t be
-avoided. We shall have to live by them, and it is for our good&mdash;it is
-indispensable&mdash;that we should be friends.”</p>
-
-<p>“Friends!” cried Nancy, breathless with the effort of listening to him
-and keeping silence. “Then you may as well throw me over once for all,
-Arthur. Friends! with those that would take no notice of me&mdash;that never
-so much as named me in their letter.”</p>
-
-<p>“That was my fault&mdash;that was my fault,” he said, turning round upon her.
-“I had no right to keep them in the dark.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_121" id="page_121">{121}</a></span> I ought to have gone to my
-mother and told her, not kept everything in holes and corners.”</p>
-
-<p>“You were not a baby!” cried Nancy. “Why, you are four and twenty! Men
-don’t go and ask their mamma’s leave like girls.”</p>
-
-<p>“That may be&mdash;but neither do men throw all their relatives over; tear
-themselves apart from their family. And I will not do it,” said Arthur
-with sudden self-assertion. “I will do anything in the world to please
-you but this. I will not quarrel with all who belong to me. As soon as I
-get an opportunity we must be reconciled to them&mdash;<i>must</i>, Nancy, there
-is no alternative. And why should you reject this easy way? My aunt is a
-kind woman. She will do us a good turn if she can. Try to please her,
-dear; won’t you try to please her for my sake?”</p>
-
-<p>Nancy had started to her feet, when he said with such energy that he
-would not do it: but something arrested her. Whether the reasonableness
-of it, which was not likely, or the new force and vigour with<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_122" id="page_122">{122}</a></span> which he
-spoke, or the pathos of the entreaty at the end, it would be difficult
-to say. But she was arrested, her attention caught, and the rush of her
-hasty blood restrained. After all, perhaps, there was something in what
-he said. It was not worth her while to fly from them&mdash;to avoid them as
-if she was afraid. But rather to show them her own superiority&mdash;to
-convince them that she was as good as they were, and had no occasion to
-fear them. This, perhaps, was scarcely the sentiment inculcated by
-Arthur’s speech; but rather the turn it took in the alembic of her own
-mind, in which a hundred crude ideas were fermenting and getting fused
-daily. She sat down again after a moment, when he had ceased speaking.
-Arthur, notwithstanding his appeal, had excited himself too much to care
-precisely what she was thinking, and even this gave a wholesome stimulus
-to the turn in the tide of her thoughts. He did not care, but he should
-be made to care&mdash;he should be proud of her&mdash;he should feel that those
-people who slighted her were slighting something<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_123" id="page_123">{123}</a></span> above themselves. She
-would not yield so far as to say anything, to give her promise that she
-would endeavour to conciliate Mrs. Curtis. Not for her life; but what
-she said did not need to be any criterion of what she would do. She took
-up a book which happened to be on the table, and pretended to read it
-with an absolute absorption of interest which justified her silence;
-while he, on the other hand, having no certainty that he had moved her,
-but rather fearing the worst, kept pacing up and down between the window
-and the door, excited beyond the immediate question, having, for the
-first time, opened up the ultimate matter with himself. And when he once
-began to think of it, he could not shake off the idea. It was no
-question of expediency or possibility&mdash;a thing which ought to be done
-perhaps, yet might not. It seemed to him, thinking of it, that he must
-at once explain everything, and claim his forgiveness, and the reception
-of his bride. “I have done wrong&mdash;but it cannot be undone; nor is the
-wrong half so serious as you think.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_124" id="page_124">{124}</a></span>” This was what he must say. He had
-intended to write ever since he got to Paris, but had deferred it as an
-unpleasant business which might stand off from day to day. But now it
-appeared to him, all at once, that nothing was so important. Whatever
-else he did, he must reconcile himself with his father and mother, his
-own flesh and blood. If they would not, he must bear it; but nothing
-must be left undone on his part. This sudden conviction was brought upon
-him&mdash;was it by the sight of his relations&mdash;was it by Nancy’s
-unreasonable and absurd antipathy to them? He could not tell&mdash;but the
-fact that he could think of any sentiment on Nancy’s part as absurd and
-unreasonable showed what a leap he had suddenly made.</p>
-
-<p>It was not till several hours later that Mrs. Curtis and her daughter
-appeared&mdash;for this time Mary had insisted upon coming, defying papa.</p>
-
-<p>“We have done nothing but think of papa for the last three months,” she
-said. “I think we may be allowed a little of our own way now.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_125" id="page_125">{125}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>Mary was very exact and particular, the essence of English duty and
-exact young-ladyhood. But there is a point at which duty and
-self-abnegation stop; and certainly, after spending three months at a
-German bath, a handmaiden to gout, it is not to be expected that the
-fortnight in Paris was to be spent in absolute devotion at the same
-gloomy shrine, especially as the General was better, and wound up for
-the year by all the sulphur he had imbibed. The young lady came
-accordingly with her mother, curious, and, indeed, eager to see how the
-successful competitor acquitted herself.</p>
-
-<p>“Is she a lady?” Mary had said on the previous evening,
-cross-questioning her mother; but Mrs. Curtis had declined to commit
-herself.</p>
-
-<p>“She said nothing but no, that I heard. How could I tell from a No?”</p>
-
-<p>“I could have told if she had only coughed,” Miss Curtis replied; and it
-may be supposed with what keen eyes she was prepared to investigate her
-new cousin. They were so late of coming that Arthur<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_126" id="page_126">{126}</a></span> had gone out, and
-Nancy, in her blue gown, sat by the fire alone just as the afternoon
-sank into twilight. They could not even see each other very clearly, and
-Nancy did not give them a very warm welcome. She stood up against the
-light, so that they could not make out a feature of her, and made them a
-stiff little bow, which was very awkward and self-conscious, yet not
-ungraceful. And then they seated themselves, not by Nancy’s invitation.
-The log blazed up compassionately now and then on the hearth, and threw
-a gleam upon the three half-perceptible faces. It was a strange little
-scene in that genteel comedy which we call real life.</p>
-
-<p>“I am sorry we are so late,” said Mrs. Curtis. “We have been seeing our
-friends and making a few necessary purchases; and it is astonishing how
-trifles take up a winter’s day; it is soon over at this time of the
-year. We have stayed longer than we meant to do in Germany, the weather
-has been so mild. I hope the General may be able to come to see you
-before we leave; but he has to take care<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_127" id="page_127">{127}</a></span> of himself just now, after his
-baths.” As all this elicited no response, Mrs. Curtis continued. “Is
-Arthur out?”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes.” Nancy had intended to keep to her monosyllables, but it was
-difficult, and she added, in spite of herself, “I expect him back very
-soon; he thought it was too late for you to-day.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am so sorry; if he had been here he would have made us acquainted.”</p>
-
-<p>“On the contrary,” said Mary, striking in, “I think, if Mrs. Arthur will
-not mind, it is better my cousin should not be here. Women understand
-each other better alone. Don’t you think so? I feel sure of it, for my
-part.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t know,” said Nancy out of the partial gloom; and then there was
-a pause.</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Curtis made a fresh start, and the aspect of affairs was so
-strange, and the absolute passiveness of Nancy so apparent, that all
-polite feints were impossible, and the visitor plunged into the heart of
-the one subject, the only subject on which they could approach each
-other, feeling herself forced into it, whether she would or not.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_128" id="page_128">{128}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“I hope you will not think what I am going to say intrusive; but may I
-ask if it is true that you have not seen anything of your husband’s
-family, Mrs. Arthur&mdash;his immediate family, Lady Curtis, or Lucy, or any
-of them? Is it so indeed? But I hope you will do all you can to
-reconcile your husband with them. It cannot be good for you to be
-estranged.”</p>
-
-<p>“I know nothing about them,” said Nancy, with a toss of her head.</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed, I am very sorry for it. I think Arthur might have managed
-better. If he had played his cards rightly, when they saw it could not
-be helped they would certainly have yielded, and taken some notice of
-you.”</p>
-
-<p>“I wanted none of their notice,” cried Nancy, crimson with anger; and
-then Mary interfered.</p>
-
-<p>“Mamma, I don’t think you are treating it in the right way,” she said.
-“Mrs. Arthur does not know Aunt Curtis. Oh, what a pity that your people
-did not insist on seeing my aunt and uncle! that would have made
-everything easy. But I suppose you did not know.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_129" id="page_129">{129}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“We did not care,” said Nancy, growing hotter and hotter. She would make
-no other reply.</p>
-
-<p>“But your people might have cared,” said Mrs. Curtis, “as my daughter
-says. I hope you will not take it amiss if I say that there has been
-very great negligence somewhere; and you ought to do all you can to set
-things to rights. It is all settled now, and past changing. Don’t you
-think that you should try to mend matters? Arthur may be very fond of
-you; I daresay he is. I am sure he has given good proof of it; but he
-cannot be happy separated from his family.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then he can go back to his family,” cried Nancy, with flashing eyes,
-rising suddenly to her feet. “If you are specimens of his family, coming
-and abusing me like this, when you don’t even know me&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I do not think, Mrs. Arthur, that you are taking what we say in a very
-friendly way. What object could we have in coming but to assist you&mdash;or
-rather Arthur&mdash;in the circumstances? For, of course, we<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_130" id="page_130">{130}</a></span> think most of
-him, it is only natural; and surely it is your duty to do what you can,
-as it is you who have brought him into trouble. It cannot be any offence
-to you to say as much as that.”</p>
-
-<p>“I wish you would go away,” cried Nancy, hotly. “What have you to do
-coming here? only to tell me that I am in Arthur’s way? How have I got
-him into trouble? Did I go and ask him to marry me? Did I make love to
-him? You think I am only a common girl, and you are ladies. Ladies! Do
-ladies behave so?&mdash;to bully a girl when she is by herself, when no one
-is by&mdash;a girl who has never done any harm to them, who is as good as
-they are?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, this is too much,” cried Mrs. Curtis. “I came to give you advice
-for your good&mdash;for Arthur’s sake; and this is how you receive it! I
-wanted to help you if I could.”</p>
-
-<p>“I did not ask anyone’s help,” said Nancy, defiant, facing them, always
-with her back to the light, invisible except as a shadow. Her heart beat
-so that every<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_131" id="page_131">{131}</a></span> vein felt bursting. She had but one desire in her mind,
-and that was to rush off without stopping to see Arthur, without giving
-anyone the opportunity of insulting her further, and fly home as fast as
-the fastest train would carry her. What were the Curtises to Nancy? How
-could she bear this from anyone, to be schooled and dictated to, she who
-had never been scolded even at home, who had never been found fault
-with, whose whole being rose up in arms against anyone who ventured to
-criticise? There are people in all classes who are thus intolerant of a
-word, not to be interfered with, whom it is mortal offence to think less
-than perfect. She felt as if the blood in her veins had turned to fire.</p>
-
-<p>“Mamma,” said Mary, “Mrs. Arthur is quite right. We have no business to
-come here into her own rooms, and tell her what she ought to do. She
-knows better what to do than we can tell her. Why should you interfere?”</p>
-
-<p>“Because Mrs. Arthur is young, and does not know, Mary, and it is her
-duty<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_132" id="page_132">{132}</a></span> to listen when one speaks for her good,” said Mrs. Curtis, furious
-in her turn. “But you need not be afraid, I will not say any more. I
-will only bid you good morning, Mrs. Arthur. It is no object to me what
-you do, or don’t do. If I could have smoothed matters I would; but I
-will not force my good offices upon you. I hope you will make your
-husband very happy, for otherwise I am sure he will be very miserable.
-He was always on such good terms with his family, and now you have made
-a complete breach.”</p>
-
-<p>“Will you go away?” cried Nancy, wild with anger.</p>
-
-<p>She made a step forward with her arm lifted. It is not likely that any
-provocation would have made her strike; but if the two ladies, alarmed,
-thought she was about to do so, no one could blame them. This appearance
-of violence appalled them. Such a threatening aspect in a woman was so
-foreign to the customs of society, so tremendous a breach of all
-decorum, that actual blows would have had no greater effect upon them.
-They both retreated<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_133" id="page_133">{133}</a></span> before her, with alarm in their startled movements.
-Nancy could not see their faces, nor could they see hers.</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed, we will go,” cried Mrs. Curtis, with tones which were tremulous
-with wonder and anger, and the kind of moral fright which has been
-indicated.</p>
-
-<p>Mary had got her hand upon the door to open it, when some one suddenly
-pushed in from outside, and Arthur came into the room.</p>
-
-<p>“What is the matter?” he cried.</p>
-
-<p>All he could see was his wife against the light of the window,
-threatening, with her arm raised as if in the act to strike.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Arthur, stand between us and her!” cried Mrs. Curtis. “But I will
-not stay here another moment. Your wife has ordered us out. You poor
-boy, you can come to me if you like. Good-bye. I am very sorry for you;
-but I cannot stay another moment here.”</p>
-
-<p>“What is the matter?” he repeated, with a voice which was sharp and keen
-as a sword, as the two ladies disappeared hurriedly, and he stood alone
-opposite to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_134" id="page_134">{134}</a></span> his wife, gazing at her with eyes that blazed through the
-gloom. Her hand had dropped by her side at his entrance, but at the
-sound of his voice Nancy, who was beside herself with passion, raised it
-again and shook it at him in speechless excitement, then turned and fled
-into her own room, clashing the door behind her. He heard her lock it in
-her rage, panting for breath as she dashed away. Poor Arthur! he had no
-mind to follow her. She might have spared herself that precaution. He
-stood upon the hearth, looking mournfully into the big mirror, in which
-he could see himself a shadow in the surrounding gloom. Had not all life
-turned into a vision of shadows, everything that was lovely and fair
-disappearing from about him? There seemed no power in him to do
-anything. To go after his aunt and endeavour to make up for his wife’s
-incivility, was as impossible as to go after that wife and demand the
-meaning of her strange conduct. He had no heart for anything. He stood,
-as it were, amid the ruins of his bridal happiness, everything<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_135" id="page_135">{135}</a></span>
-crumbling about him. Only to-day, only a few hours ago, she had stood by
-him, beguiling him with sweet smiles and caresses, she who this minute
-had confronted him like a fury, with her hand clenched, threatening
-violence. He had borne a good many shocks in this eventful fortnight;
-the bloom had been taken off his fond fancy of perfection in his bride.
-But this was the climax of all. It seemed to take at once his strength
-and his hope away.</p>
-
-<p>Meanwhile Nancy, her blood boiling, her countenance flushed, her eyes
-fiery with passion, had rushed out of the darkness into the soft light
-of her room, where the candles had been lighted, and where she saw
-herself entering like a fury in the great glass which was opposite to
-her as she rushed in. This sight made her pause in spite of herself; it
-sobered her all at once. Was that the aspect she had borne to these
-strangers? to her husband? The sudden shock of her own appearance had
-more effect upon her than any amount of moral reprobation. She calmed
-down in a moment. They had insulted her, she tried to say to herself;
-but what would<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_136" id="page_136">{136}</a></span> they think of her, was what conscience said in her. What
-would they think of her?&mdash;and Arthur? The colour went out of the foolish
-creature’s face; a chill came over her. Oh, what was she to do, what was
-she to do? She had meant to impose upon them, to be more lady-like, more
-calm, more chilly in her politeness than anyone could be; and this was
-what it had come to. She threw herself down by her bedside in a passion
-of tears and penitence. Had Arthur come to her then, she would have
-thrown herself at his feet and asked his pardon; but Arthur was kept
-from her by the bolt she had herself drawn in her fury, and by&mdash;though
-this she was unaware of&mdash;the despair and dismay in his heart. She threw
-herself on the carpet, and found relief in a torrent of tears. Such
-tears! hot as her passion, overwhelming as the impulses that surged
-after one another through her heart. He must hear her sob, she felt, in
-the <i>abandon</i> of her misery; and though Nancy did not sob to be heard,
-it gave her a flutter of hope to think that he must hear her, and must
-come to know what it was, to com<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_137" id="page_137">{137}</a></span>fort her, even to scold her, it did not
-matter, so long as he came. But not a sound except those sobs of hers
-broke the silence. The candles burned softly, and glimmered in the
-mirror, which reflected her lying there upon the flowery whiteness of
-the carpet, a dark miserable figure; but there was no tap at the door,
-no voice asking for admission. After a little time, her passion being
-spent, she raised herself up, and without drying the tears from her
-woebegone countenance, or arranging her disordered hair, opened the door
-softly, and looked into the sitting-room where she had left him. All was
-changed there; the candles were lighted, the fire re-made, the room full
-of warmth and light; but no Arthur. It was vacant, put in good order by
-the servants, who knew nothing about what had been happening there. And
-Arthur was gone. Where had he gone? Had he followed those women, who
-were his relations, though they were her enemies? Was he hearing their
-story, who doubtless would paint her as a very devil of ill-temper and
-pride? Had he gone over to the other side, he who was the cause of it<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_138" id="page_138">{138}</a></span>
-all? Her eyes began to flash again, and her veins to refill with that
-fire which had all but died out of them. She went back to her room, and
-dipped her burning forehead into water, and smoothed her hair, which she
-had pulled out of place with her passionate hands. When she had done
-this she stood for a moment between the two rooms in the silence, alone,
-asking herself what she should do. Had Arthur gone from her? Would he
-not come back again? A speechless dismay took possession of her soul,
-followed by flashes of passion, and still deeper and deeper despondency.
-There was but one thing that it seemed possible to do, except flight,
-which she was not equal to at this dreadful moment, when she was not
-sure whether he had flown from her. If he had been in the next room she
-might have had strength to flee; but not with this uncertainty and dread
-in her mind whether he had abandoned her. There was but one thing in
-this tremendous emergency which she could do. Had she not promised to
-him to write to his mother? She would do this now.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_139" id="page_139">{139}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_VII" id="CHAPTER_VII"></a>CHAPTER VII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span>HIS period of early winter was a dull one at Oakley at all times. From
-October to Christmas it was not the custom of the family to invite the
-usual country-house array of defence against dullness. For some weeks
-after the partridge-shooting began there would be visitors
-about&mdash;luncheons at the coverside, dinners more or less sleepy, evenings
-more or less gay. And again at Christmas there was always a large party
-assembled; but between whiles the family were left to their own
-resources. How Sir John himself filled up his time was a profound and
-solemn mystery, which no one could entirely unravel. He spent it mostly
-in his library&mdash;in the perusal of Blue books, in<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_140" id="page_140">{140}</a></span> the writing of
-letters, and in something which was called business, and supposed to be
-the management of his estate; but everybody who knew Sir John knew that
-there was not very much beyond the most ceremonial portion of a
-sovereign’s duty in his easy lot. The estate had been carefully managed
-all his life, by the most careful and sensible of functionaries, Mr.
-Rolt, who was the son of the last agent, and the brother of the
-solicitor at Oakenden who had the money matters of the family in his
-hands. And the family had been unexceptionable in its conduct for the
-last five-and-thirty years; there had been no extravagant heir, no heavy
-jointure diminishing its resources. General Anthony, who had done very
-well for himself, was Sir John’s only brother, the only other member of
-the family; and there had been nothing but unbroken respectability and
-discretion in the management of the finances of the house. The estate
-ran upon wheels, or upon velvet, and all but managed itself. Then as for
-Parliamentary business and the Blue books, Sir<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_141" id="page_141">{141}</a></span> John was a sound
-reliable Conservative, who never dreamed of opening his mouth in the
-House. He voted as his leaders voted, who were the best able to judge,
-and the study of public affairs, to which he thus devoted himself, had
-all the merit of disinterestedness. It cannot even be said that it told
-greatly when he sat upon a Parliamentary committee, for he was apt to
-get confused on the points he knew best, and his knowledge did not stand
-him in stead at the moment it was wanted, as knowledge ought to do; but
-still what with the Blue books and the estate, he thought himself very
-fully occupied, and what could be desired more than this? Two or three
-times in the day, especially when it rained, he would come into his
-wife’s morning room, and stand up with his back to the fire and talk,
-sometimes relevantly, sometimes irrelevantly, like most other people.
-But he was always serious, whether relevant or not. He had a long face,
-with grey whiskers and grey hair, and a long upper lip shutting close
-upon the under, which was feeble, though the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_142" id="page_142">{142}</a></span> chin too was rather long.
-His face in these wintry days, when there was no news of Arthur, was as
-serious as a countenance well could be. Whether he was talking of his
-son or not, Arthur was always more or less in Sir John’s mind, and never
-smile, or glimmering of a smile, approached within a hundred miles of
-the serious lines of that long upper lip.</p>
-
-<p>Lady Curtis was of a different disposition altogether. The last
-extremity of grief even could not produce in her the monotony of
-melancholy which was possible to her husband. She would weep as he never
-wept; but then she would laugh also in sheer impatience of the weight of
-tedium and sameness. Her suffering was far more acute than his steady
-dullness; but it was broken by gleams of activity, by sudden impulses,
-by perpetual changes. She flung herself into her housekeeping, stirring
-up all the quiet corners, and making a commotion in the servants’ hall,
-such as for some time threatened the family peace&mdash;and into the parish,
-where Lucy did not always want her mothe<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_143" id="page_143">{143}</a></span>r’s assistance. She wrote
-letters to her friends, half cynical, half sorrowful, and more than half
-amusing, in which Arthur indeed was never referred to; but where many a
-cutting sentence, sharp jest, or mocking reflection betrayed that sting
-of personal suffering which those who knew her best could read between
-the lines. Lady Curtis was clever. She wrote articles now and then in
-literary papers, even sometimes in magazines; but this was an indulgence
-of which she was not proud, and she prudently kept silence about it,
-being wise enough to know that any such crown of wild olive sits badly
-upon the matronly brow of a country lady, alarming some people, and
-giving to others occasion for ill-natured jibes and pleasantry. Not her
-husband certainly, and even not Lucy knew always when she took upon
-herself the office of critic; and the able editor who printed her
-reviews was not aware what had made his contributor more industrious
-than usual and more bitter. It was Arthur that pointed the clear steel
-of those polished little arrows which she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_144" id="page_144">{144}</a></span> discharged at the world. She
-did it as a relief to herself; but not that anyone might know. And it
-must be added that there was a certain satisfaction in this safety
-valve. Then there was crewel work, and the patterns of the Art
-Needlework Society, of which, however, she soon got tired. Altogether
-Lady Curtis’s activity was stimulated to its utmost. She had the
-happiness of discovering a source of waste in the house, and an abuse in
-the parish; and she fell upon a nest of foolish books to criticize, and
-began a series of papers upon “The Minor Morals of Society;” and she set
-vigorously to work upon a set of curtains in a bold and effective
-pattern of her own invention. And thus she beguiled away the weary days.</p>
-
-<p>Lucy was less difficult perhaps than either her father or her mother.
-She was young, and it still seemed to her that in the course of nature
-everything that was amiss must come right, and every breach be mended.
-Sir John’s opinion was that nothing would ever mend, and his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_145" id="page_145">{145}</a></span> wife’s
-that the only thing to be done was to keep yourself busy, and persuade
-yourself that there was no hope nor expectation of any change within
-you. But Lucy waited with as much patience as she could, crying
-sometimes over the estrangement of her brother, but with no despair in
-her; things would come right, nay, must come right some time or other.
-To suppose that you could be separated for ever from anyone who belonged
-to you, anyone you loved! could there be folly in earth so great as
-that? It was a question of time, and the time was long and dreary and
-hard to support; but yet by and by <i>of course</i>, who could doubt it?
-everything would be well. November and December are dreary months, let
-us make the best of them, and very dreary in the country when the day is
-over by four o’clock or little after, and there are hours upon hours to
-be got through in-doors, in a big empty house, pervaded everywhere by
-that sense of the absent which is so much more urgent and all-prevailing
-than any presence. When Arthur had been at home<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_146" id="page_146">{146}</a></span> his being there was a
-matter of course, and no one thought much about it; but when Arthur was
-away! and away in this dismal manner, absorbed into another life,
-disjointed from theirs. Such an argument as this might make the dullest
-feel the superiority of an idea to all that is solid and practical. In
-her own room, which Arthur rarely entered, Lucy missed her brother, and
-she missed him going about the parish, where he never went with her. And
-Sir John missed him in the midst of those Blue Books at which the boy
-had made grimaces from a distance, but which he never approached; and
-Lady Curtis felt his absence when she wrote for her Review, though
-Arthur was the last person in the world to know anything of Reviews.
-This is at once the desolation and the power of death which fills our
-very atmosphere and daily breath with those whom it removes out of our
-sight for ever; and this it was that gave force to the words which both
-father and mother said of Arthur when he forsook them. It was as if he
-had died.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_147" id="page_147">{147}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>The ladies of the family spent most of their time, as has been said, in
-the morning room, with its two tall windows looking out from between the
-pillars of the façade. The drawing-room, which was large and splendid,
-too fine and too big to be cosy in, suffered in consequence, and except
-when the house was very full, had much the air of an uninhabited place.
-The morning room was fine enough, too fine most people thought
-now-a-days. Lady Curtis was one of the people who most feel the
-influence of those successive waves of taste which sweep across the mind
-of the most cultivated portion of society from time to time. Had it been
-necessary to re-furnish this favourite room, she would have done it in
-the style of Queen Anne, with neutral tints and “flatted” colour, tiled
-fireplaces and high manteltops. And she was by times a little
-uncomfortable about the florid effect of her <i>Louis Quinze</i> decoration;
-but there was no excuse for remodelling the pretty room which the
-children loved. It was florid, there could be no doubt. The cornice<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_148" id="page_148">{148}</a></span> was
-rich with stucco wreaths, and there were Cupids about, and lyres and
-knots of ribbon, and glowing garlands of flowers. The carpet was white
-Aubusson with a great bouquet in the centre, as flowery and brilliant as
-that which had made Nancy happy in Paris. Lady Curtis’s writing table
-was a <i>bonheur de jour</i> of the finest workmanship, and various articles
-of precious marqueterie stood about, flowery and dainty. Two robust gilt
-Cupids supported the white marble of the mantel-piece, and the satin
-curtains were looped and fringed, and festooned with the most elaborate
-art. Lucy sat and knitted stockings for the village children upon a
-satin sofa, with her warm wool in the drawer of an inlaid table with
-curved legs, which was worth half as much as the village. Everything in
-the room was framed on the principle of being beautiful, not for
-convenience or comfort, which is supposed to be the inspiration of
-various other styles of household decoration, but for beauty alone. And
-perhaps it was more suitable for the home of a bride, such as Lady<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_149" id="page_149">{149}</a></span>
-Curtis had been when she collected all those pretty things about her,
-than for the centre of household life which it had become; though indeed
-it was very doubtful whether Lady Curtis, a clever, impatient-minded
-woman, had ever attained any ecstacy of happiness as the bride of good
-Sir John. She loved her dainty surroundings better now than she did when
-they were in all their freshness. She was aware of her husband’s
-steadfast goodness and truth, though he was not lively and amusing, and
-had more respect for him, and, at the same time, a tenderer sentiment
-for the father of her children than, perhaps, she had entertained for
-the good, dull bridegroom to whom she had been bound, not entirely,
-report said, with her own freewill. Therefore, perhaps, the beautiful
-room had never enshrined that impersonation of happiness, luxury, and
-splendour to whom all these decorations belonged by nature. Now-a-days,
-certainly, it was not any luxurious leisure and blessedness that dwelt
-there; but care and doubt, such<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_150" id="page_150">{150}</a></span> as would have been consistent with very
-sombre surroundings. Lucy sat and knitted, her mind wandering after
-Arthur, trying to imagine the brightest winter weather in Paris, and her
-brother enjoying himself, instead of the rainy skies here, the muddy
-roads and grey miserable day. Lady Curtis was in her chair by the window
-for the sake of the light, busy with her crewels.</p>
-
-<p>“They may say what they like about the higher art of these subdued
-tints,” she said, “but nature is not subdued in her tints. How am I to
-do the autumn leaves in those tones of colour? They are high and bright
-in nature.” She said this, but she was thinking of Arthur all the time;
-and by and by Sir John came in from the library, and strolled up to the
-fire.</p>
-
-<p>“Have not you had tea yet?” he said, putting himself in front, between
-the Cupids. “I thought you must be having tea. What a dreary afternoon
-it is! and the hounds are out. They must be having a disagreeable run.”
-Thus he discoursed<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_151" id="page_151">{151}</a></span> with his lips; but in his heart his thoughts were of
-Arthur too.</p>
-
-<p>“Lucy has been in the village, though it has been so wet. She says there
-is a very sad commotion going on. Young Jack Hodge, the blacksmith’s
-son&mdash;tell your papa, Lucy,” said Lady Curtis with a sigh.</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t think it is so very bad,” said Lucy, getting up to make the tea
-which had just been brought in. “And I am sure papa will not think so;
-but his mother is making a great fuss. She has got the Dissenting
-minister over from Oakenden to comfort her; and to hear him speak, you
-would think it was very bad indeed.”</p>
-
-<p>“What has happened,” said Sir John, “and why did not Bertie go?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Bertie, papa! what is the good of Bertie? There is a look in his
-nose as if he smelt something disagreeable whenever he goes into one of
-the cottages. The people cannot put up with it, and why should they? I
-think the Dissenter was better on the whole. Jack has gone for<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_152" id="page_152">{152}</a></span> a
-soldier, that is all. I tried to say there was nothing so very dreadful
-in that; but they would not listen to me.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is all the fault of your Dissenters,” said Sir John, “why
-shouldn’t the lad go for a soldier? They would do away with poor people
-altogether, these Dissenters if they could&mdash;and soldiers too I suppose.
-They would leave us all defenceless, at the mercy of anybody that
-chooses to make a run at us. They never have anything themselves. I
-suppose that is the reason why.”</p>
-
-<p>“Well, that is not bad logic,” said Lady Curtis, “I suppose they think
-those who have something to lose should defend themselves;” and she
-sighed again, thinking, where was the son of her own house, who was its
-natural defender? He was worse than Jack Hodge, who, at least, might be
-of use to his country even if he did break his mother’s heart.</p>
-
-<p>“You mean the Volunteers?” said Sir John, “but I never believed in the
-Volunteers. It is all very well to let them amuse themselves,
-soldiering. And, perhaps,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_153" id="page_153">{153}</a></span> in the country where they would be officered
-by the gentlemen they know,” he continued after a moment’s pause, with
-again Arthur, and not the Volunteers, in his thoughts, and echoing his
-wife’s sigh, “they might be of some use; but I don’t put any faith in
-them for the defence of the country. Thank you, my dear; on a wet
-afternoon like this one is glad of a cup of tea.”</p>
-
-<p>Sir John was generally glad of his cup of tea, if not for one reason,
-then for another, because it was wet, or because it was cold, or because
-it was sultry and stifling, or else for no reason at all. It formed a
-break in the long afternoon when there was nothing more interesting to
-do. For as he stood with his back to the fire, and his cup in his hand,
-he went on dully talking, as was his way.</p>
-
-<p>“It is the very essence of democracy you know&mdash;when you substitute what
-they call the citizen soldier, the man that is supposed to fight in his
-own defence, for the soldier that is paid for defending us: the very
-essence of democracy&mdash;it makes<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_154" id="page_154">{154}</a></span> out that one man is just as good as
-another and that the Hodges want as much taking care of as you and I.”</p>
-
-<p>“So they do surely, papa,” said Lucy, “their lives are as precious to
-them as ours are&mdash;to us.”</p>
-
-<p>“You don’t know anything about it, Lucy; they are not half so important
-to the country, and it’s the country we ought to think of first,” said
-Sir John. “Without an army where should we be? The throne would have no
-authority&mdash;Volunteers mean democracy, my dear.”</p>
-
-<p>“And Jack Hodge is your true patriot,” said his wife.</p>
-
-<p>“Exactly so. I will tell his mother that is my opinion the next time I
-am in the village. A foolish woman with her Dissenters to put nonsense
-into her head. What could the boy do better. But Bertie ought to have
-been there? Bertie ought to have gone,” said the Baronet. “I allow there
-are bad smells in the cottages, Lucy; but surely, if I can bear it, he
-ought to bear it; and you, you never say anything about the smells&mdash;I
-don’t think<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_155" id="page_155">{155}</a></span> Bertie can be doing his duty as a clergyman ought. The
-young men of the present day are beyond me,” Sir John added with another
-sigh; and he put down his cup with a dreary shrug of his shoulders, and
-shook his grey head as he went slowly away.</p>
-
-<p>How glad they all were when the long November day was over, and they
-could shut out the ceaseless drip-dripping of the rain, the sweep of the
-dead leaves across the windows! The autumn had been mild, and the
-foliage had lasted longer than usual. Now it came tumbling down with
-every breath, with every drop of rain, choking up the paths, and filling
-the air with the mournfullest downpouring of yellow. On such a day no
-one came up the avenue, unless it was a draggled villager bound for the
-servants’ door, or the Rector, or the Doctor, neither of whom
-contributed much to the gratification of the house; and to look out upon
-the misty vista of the spectral trees, the damp rising from the ground
-and falling from the skies, both of which were about the same<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_156" id="page_156">{156}</a></span> colour,
-for even a short November day is not cheerful to the spirits. It was a
-relief when the house began to be dotted with lamps, when the shutters
-were closed and the curtains drawn. Lady Curtis, for some time, had not
-cared to have the shutters of her favourite room closed till bed-time.
-She did not give any reason for this fancy, but Sir John had found fault
-with it, and she had yielded. “It was not safe,” he said, “to leave the
-lower windows open. Some one might get in and frighten the house, if no
-more.” Lady Curtis had not stood out. She watched the servant close them
-with again a lingering sigh. She had meant nothing by having them open.
-No, nothing. Only if such a thing might happen as that&mdash;any one&mdash;moved
-by some impulse of the heart, should suddenly come home&mdash;why, then there
-would be a little light visible from the very end of the avenue to
-encourage him. Nothing was more unlikely than that such a thing should
-happen. But still granting that the impossible did sometimes come when
-no<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_157" id="page_157">{157}</a></span> one expected it, then there might be use in the light. But as nobody
-could explain this, or say anything in defence of so painful a notion,
-of course it was done away when Sir John objected. My Lady sat in the
-gilded chair, cushioned with satin, that stood by the fire, and took a
-last look of the dull twilight with the trees looming through it like
-ghosts, as the footman began to shut up. It had been a dreary day; it
-was more agreeable to turn to the clear light of the lamp within, the
-subdued glimmer of the satin hangings, the sparkle of the fire. The day
-was done at last.</p>
-
-<p>And yet it was a little dreary, also, to think of the hours that
-remained unaccomplished&mdash;the long still evening in which there would be
-a little talk, very little, and the routine of dinner to go through, and
-the still evening after, which Lucy and she would spend together.
-Perhaps she would work, and Lucy read aloud; or Lucy would take to one
-of her many undertakings, which were of a homelier kind than Lady
-Curtis’s crewels, while her mother wrote. The house was very still, as<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_158" id="page_158">{158}</a></span>
-it became a great house to be, lying folded in the darkness, in the
-great park, in the humid lawn and clouds of watery trees, without one
-gleam from all the windows in front to welcome anyone who, unexpected,
-might come out of the busy world to explore the stillness&mdash;the most
-unlikely thing in the world to happen; yet such things had been and, who
-could tell? might be. There was one event still possible, and that was
-the coming in of the post, which arrived after dinner, a most
-inappropriate moment, everybody said. Indeed, Sir John had often
-proposed not to send for the letters, but to leave them, when there were
-any, till next morning, rather than spoil the digestion of the family at
-such a moment. But Lady Curtis had a woman’s liking for letters, and
-never would hear of this. She had no experience of the letters which
-spoil digestion. Her milliners’ bills were no trouble to her. She had
-never been in debt, it is to be supposed, in her life, neither were
-there mysteries in her existence which she was afraid of; her letters<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_159" id="page_159">{159}</a></span>
-were pleasant breaks upon the monotony, enriching the quiet of her
-country life; therefore she would have the post-bag brought up, whatever
-Sir John might say.</p>
-
-<p>And that night there were two letters that seemed to wake up even in the
-house itself something like the heart-beating that flutters in an
-individual bosom at sight of a long-expected communication&mdash;two letters
-which bore the Paris postmark, one to my lady, one to Sir John. The
-butler saw them at the first glance, recognising the writing of one,
-guessing at the other. He whispered to the housekeeper, before he went
-to my lady’s room with her share of the budget.</p>
-
-<p>“Summat from Mr. Arthur,” he whispered in her ear.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, let me look,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>It was something to see, even the outside of the letters; and they
-looked at each other across that other one, and agreed in their guess as
-to what it was. Daly, the butler, was a man of discrimination. He knew,
-as well as she did, that, whereas Sir John was equally dull at all
-times, my<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_160" id="page_160">{160}</a></span> lady expected the post with a thrill of nervous anxiety every
-night. He knew it by her eyes, by the clutch of her hand at the letters,
-by the inspection, quick as lightning, which she gave them, always
-curbing her disappointment. This was why Daly carried my lady’s letters
-the first especially to-night.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_161" id="page_161">{161}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_VIII" id="CHAPTER_VIII"></a>CHAPTER VIII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">“L</span>UCY, Lucy!” said Lady Curtis in a stifled voice.</p>
-
-<p>It was the postmark, the thin paper of the foreign letter, the stamp of
-the hotel which had caught her eye; and it had not occurred to her as
-she opened the envelope that it was not Arthur’s handwriting. Indeed,
-Nancy had been copying Arthur’s handwriting, and had partially succeeded
-in making her own like his, at least for the length of the address. When
-she called to Lucy, it was that she had perceived the different writing,
-the unexpected form of address within, and had jumped at the conclusion
-that something had happened to Arthur, and that it was his servant who
-was writing. Lucy rushed to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_162" id="page_162">{162}</a></span> her, seeing her agitation, and coming
-behind her, read over her shoulder the letter which Lady Curtis threw an
-alarmed glance over, trembling in every limb. They trembled, both of
-them, with excitement as they went on. It was not what they expected; it
-was neither a letter from Arthur, nor yet an announcement of his
-illness, but something else, which they had not anticipated or thought
-of. It was the letter Nancy had written in hot haste and desperation,
-after the visit of Mrs. Curtis had come to so violent and sudden an end.
-My lady read it, the paper trembling in her hand, and Lucy read it over
-her shoulder, with painful, suppressed exclamations. This is what Nancy
-had said:&mdash;</p>
-
-<div class="blockquot"><p>&nbsp; &nbsp; “My Lady,</p>
-
-<p>“Arthur says I am to write to you, though I do not know why; and I
-have told him I will, if I may say what I like and not show it to
-him. So you will know, if you are offended, that he has no hand in
-this. I am to say, I suppose, that I am sorry, though why I cannot
-tell. I<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_163" id="page_163">{163}</a></span> did not think about you when I consented to marry Arthur?
-Why should I? In our class of life we don’t think that a young
-man’s mother has any right to interfere. I never thought of you,
-therefore I maintain I have nothing to be sorry for about you. I
-have enough to do to please my own father and mother; why should
-not he manage his as I did mine?</p>
-
-<p>“And since we were married, what did I owe to you? You never did
-anything for me. You wrote to him, or you made Miss Lucy write to
-him on our wedding-day, and never once named me. You knew I would
-be his wife before he got it, but you never named me. Was that a
-way to make me wish to please you? And the best I could do was
-never to think of you at all. Was not that as good as putting him
-against me, never to mention my name on my wedding day? And why
-should I write to you now? You are old, and I am young. You ought
-to be the one to come and to say you are sorry. I am your son’s
-wife; therefore, I am as good as you are, whatever I may have been<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_164" id="page_164">{164}</a></span>
-before; and I was an honest girl before, and as good as anybody.
-Why didn’t you come then, and make up to <i>me</i>? It is old people who
-ought to show an example to the young, not young people to the old.</p>
-
-<p>“Now that I have said this, I will just warn you that if you try to
-make Arthur think badly of me, to separate him from me (which you
-can’t do, however you may try), that I will keep him separate from
-you. If you are fond of him, you will have to be civil to me, you
-and Miss Lucy, grand ladies though you are. You think me no better
-than the dirt below your feet; but if you do not treat me as I
-ought to be treated, I will keep Arthur from you, so that you shall
-never see him again. I have the power to do it, not like you, who
-have no power. He can do without his mother, but he can’t do
-without me. I think it is honest to tell you this, because he
-insisted I was to write to you&mdash;I shouldn’t have written to you of
-myself&mdash;and because I mean to come back home to England and settle
-at Underhayes, to be near my people, who have always been<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_165" id="page_165">{165}</a></span> (not
-like you) kind to him as well as to me. So that now, my lady, you
-know exactly what I mean, you and Miss Lucy, and what I will do.</p>
-
-<p class="r">
-“<span class="smcap">Anna Frances Curtis.</span>”<br />
-</p></div>
-
-<p>Lady Curtis was flushed and agitated; her eyes blazed hotly over her
-crimson cheeks.</p>
-
-<p>“Was ever anyone so insolent?” she said, and bit her lip to keep from
-crying, altogether overwhelmed by the unexpected insult.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, mamma, the girl does not mean it!” cried Lucy, distressed, trying
-to take the letter. It was bad enough to read it once, but to read it as
-she knew her mother would do, over and over again, feeling the enormity
-ever greater, would be terrible. Lucy put out her hand for it, to take
-it away.</p>
-
-<p>“I will not give it you, Lucy. I know what you mean to do; to put it in
-the fire that I may forget it, and think it is not half so bad.”</p>
-
-<p>“No, mamma; but why should you<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_166" id="page_166">{166}</a></span> dwell upon it? She wrote it hastily.
-See, there is haste in every line; but we will read it at leisure, and
-go over it again and again. She is so uninstructed, so inexperienced;
-and there is a kind of savage justice in it, if you will but think,
-mamma.”</p>
-
-<p>“How dare you say so?” cried Lady Curtis, in whose mind the immediate
-pain and hurt received were too violent to be thus smoothed away, and
-who was as little able for the moment to inquire into the absolute
-justice of the matter as Nancy herself. The tears began to glisten in
-her eyes, tears of genuine suffering. “This is what our children bring
-us,” she said; “they for whom we are ready to make any
-sacrifice&mdash;insult, the flaunting in our face of some poor creature,
-surely, surely not worth as much as his mother was to him, Lucy; not
-worth you&mdash;<i>you</i>, my child; of that I may be sure at least; and his
-home, and all that was worth having in life&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>And some scalding drops fell on her hands in a hot and sudden shower.
-Tears do not last at Lady Curtis’ age; they cost too much; only a sharp
-stab like this<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_167" id="page_167">{167}</a></span> could bring them, hasty and unwilling, from her eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“I know it is hard, very hard; but, mamma&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>Lucy was interrupted by the sound of her father’s heavy step approaching
-the room. He threw the door open and came in hastily. He, too, had a
-letter in his hand, and held it out to his wife as he came forward.</p>
-
-<p>“He has written at last,” he said. “It is a fine thing to have waited so
-long for. Look, Elizabeth, if you can read it, what your boy says.”</p>
-
-<p>Lady Curtis took the letter, looking anxiously at her husband’s face to
-read its effect. And then Lucy and she read it as they had read the
-other, the girl over her mother’s shoulder. The very sight of Arthur’s
-handwriting moved them. He had written a few words to Lucy to thank her
-for the money and the blessing conveyed to him on his wedding day; but
-except these few warm words they had not heard from him since that
-painful violent letter which Lady Curtis had re<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_168" id="page_168">{168}</a></span>ceived after the visit
-of Mr. Rolt, the family lawyer, to Underhayes. And that had given the
-ladies so much pain that the very sight of the dear and familiar
-handwriting brought it back. Sir John went to the fire as was his way,
-and set himself up against the mantel-piece, turning towards them the
-dullness of his long melancholy countenance, which showed little change
-of expression one way or another. His heavy repose, not unclouded with
-trouble, contrasted sharply with the eager and anxious looks of his wife
-and daughter already disturbed and excited. They read, breathless with
-anxiety and haste, flying over the paper, taking in its meaning almost
-at a glance in a way which was wonderful to him. He shook his head
-slightly as he saw this rapid process; it was impossible they could
-understand it, he said to himself; even Arthur’s letter! skimmed over
-with feminine want of thoroughness in anything, as if it had been a
-book.</p>
-
-<p>Arthur’s letter, so far as external forms went, was dutiful enough.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_169" id="page_169">{169}</a></span></p>
-
-<div class="blockquot"><p>&nbsp; &nbsp; “My dear father,</p>
-
-<p>“You may think that I ought to say something about the long break
-in my letters, and I am aware that it would not be without reason;
-but what am I to say? My marriage was really a thing which
-concerned me most. I would have been ready to make any apologies
-for the indiscretions with which it was accompanied, and for the
-fundamental mistake of not having explained my wishes and
-intentions to you from the first. But that is too late now, and you
-must permit me to say that the strange step you yourself took in
-sending Rolt to Underhayes to interfere in my business, justifies
-the silence in which I have taken refuge since, as being more
-respectful to you than anything I can say. I trust and desire to
-believe that the extraordinary proposals made by him did not
-emanate from you; nothing indeed but the mind of a pettifogging
-attorney could have suggested such means of endeavouring to outwit
-and frustrate an honourable attachment. I can never meet with
-civility the originator<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_170" id="page_170">{170}</a></span> of these proposals, and it is a desire to
-say nothing on the subject which has kept me silent even to you.</p>
-
-<p>“I now write about a serious matter which it is necessary to call
-your attention to. The allowance which was ample for me at Oxford,
-or when I was in another condition of life, is naturally quite
-inadequate to the expenses of a married man. My wife and I are
-about to return to England, and at her desire we will proceed at
-first to Underhayes, where her family reside. Our plans are not yet
-decided; but the first requisite for any arrangement is to know
-exactly by what degree you may be disposed to increase my income,
-in order that I may be able to provide for the increased expense to
-which I am now subject. We have been in Paris some weeks, and had
-it not been for the succour which my mother’s generosity provided
-me, I do not see how I could have afforded to my wife all that it
-was indispensable my wife and Sir John Curtis’s daughter-in-law
-should have. These of course are extraneous expenses; but I<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_171" id="page_171">{171}</a></span> must
-request that you will kindly come to a decision about my present
-income with as little delay as possible. This is doubly important,
-as we shall thus only be able to make up our minds on what scale of
-living it will be proper for us to make our start.</p>
-
-<p>“My wife desires her respects to my mother, Lucy, and yourself.</p>
-
-<p class="rt">
-<span style="margin-right: 10%;">“Affectionately,</span><br />
-“<span class="smcap">Arthur Curtis</span>.”<br />
-</p></div>
-
-<p>“And this is all!” said Lady Curtis, throwing it on the table with a
-mixture of scorn and grief; “in so short a time how well she has tutored
-him. Oh don’t say anything, Lucy! I can see that girl’s hand in every
-word; and this is all!”</p>
-
-<p>“Surely it is all,” said Sir John, “you don’t think I would keep back
-anything, why should I? It’s all, and enough too, I think. A fellow like
-that whom we’ve all petted and spoiled, thinking of nothing but his
-allowance! It’s disappointing, that it certainly is. When one thinks
-that’s Arthur!” said his father, his lower<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_172" id="page_172">{172}</a></span> lip quivering with unusual
-emotion, yet something that was intended for a smile.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh don’t make him out any worse than he is,” said Lady Curtis, “I can
-see that girl’s hand through all.”</p>
-
-<p>Now a more gratuitous assertion than this could not be. Arthur had
-written when away from Nancy altogether in the writing room of the
-English Club. She had known nothing about what he was doing, and still
-less did she know that he had made up his mind not to struggle with his
-fate any longer, but to let her go back to her congenial soil, which
-would secure at least no further encounters with people of his own
-class, even when met in the recent accidental way. He could not, he
-felt, risk anything like this again. He had not strength for it. It was
-better to yield to her than to wear himself out with such paltry
-miseries; but up to this moment even Nancy herself did not know of his
-decision. Lady Curtis however did not know this, nor did the despair in
-Arthur’s mind ever occur to her, or the state of severance between him
-and his wife<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_173" id="page_173">{173}</a></span> which had really existed when these two letters were
-written. It seemed to her that they were full of one spirit, and that
-Nancy had got the entire command and put her own unregulated soul into
-her husband. Dear as he was to his mother, the bold figure of this girl
-whom she had never seen, seem to rise up and obliterate her son before
-Lady Curtis’s eyes&mdash;obliterate him intellectually and morally&mdash;so that
-all she saw was a shadow of Nancy, not the reality of Arthur. Sir John
-did not take this figurative view. He took what he saw for granted,
-exercising no spirit of divination. He was wounded not to sharp pain
-like his wife, but with a heavy sense of evil. This was all Arthur
-wanted, not to be his father’s right hand man, to help him (for,
-privately, Sir John was of opinion that he had a great deal to do) to
-become the real head of the estate, understanding everything as his
-father had wished; but only to have his allowance increased! that was
-all. It did not give Sir John a less pang in his matter of fact way than
-it did his wife, but this was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_174" id="page_174">{174}</a></span> the low level of interpretation by which
-he explained to himself the boy who had been his pride.</p>
-
-<p>As for Lucy, she read the two letters with a double distress, as seeming
-to see something in both of them which escaped her parents. She thought
-it was because she was young, and in sympathy with these two foolish,
-erring, unkind, young people, that she was able to read between the
-lines and see that they were not so unkind as they seemed. There was, as
-she had said, a kind of savage justice in Nancy’s letter from Nancy’s
-point of view, and insolent though it was, Lucy felt that she could
-understand it, and could excuse it though it was inexcusable. And as for
-Arthur’s cold interestedness and apparent indifference to everything,
-was not this only a sign of mortal pain, a proof that he felt himself in
-a position from which he could not recede, which he dared not discuss or
-enter into? “Oh,” she cried in the tumult of feeling which rose within
-her, “do not take it all for granted like this. Arthur is not what you
-think him,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_175" id="page_175">{175}</a></span> papa. He feels it, oh, I know he feels it to the bottom of
-his heart; but how can he discuss it, how can he open such a subject
-with us? She is his wife, and she knows what we think of her.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Lucy, hold your peace,” cried Lady Curtis, whose heart was wrung to
-breaking, “what is the use of this casuistry, as if you knew him better
-than we do. No, I cannot shut my eyes to the truth whatever you may do;
-this boy for whom we have done so much, whom we have brought up so
-carefully, finds something more congenial in low society than in ours.
-It is unworthy of us to groan over such a preference. See, he avows it.
-He is going back to that wretched place, to the society of his wife’s
-relations. We ought to be proud,” said Lady Curtis with her eyes
-flashing, with a miserable make believe of a smile on her lips, “that is
-what he likes best, <i>my</i> boy!”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, mamma, don’t be so hard upon him.”</p>
-
-<p>“So hard, am I hard? upon Arthur! God help me! I wish I could be a
-little<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_176" id="page_176">{176}</a></span> harder; I wish I could think as little of him as he does of me
-or of what I feel,” cried Lady Curtis with a moan in her broken voice.
-Sir John did not show so much emotion. He stood gazing dully before him,
-not even looking at them, his eyes fixed upon vacancy; but many thoughts
-were revolving dully in his oppressed spirit too.</p>
-
-<p>“Now that he has written to me like this, he shall be attended to,” said
-Sir John, “since he wants nothing but money, he shall have his money,
-and I will wash my hands of him. People do not spend a great deal in
-that rank of life do they? If that is how he is going to live, he must
-be provided for accordingly. I will speak to Rolt about it to-morrow.
-You see how he speaks of poor Rolt, a most meritorious man, that has no
-thought except our interest. And if it had not been that Arthur got hold
-of it before he ought to have known, Rolt would have bought the girl off
-and freed us. Ah, yes&mdash;Rolt is the best man of business, and the most
-considerate family friend I know.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_177" id="page_177">{177}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“But it was a dreadful thing to do; to buy her off! If you will think of
-it, papa, and think who she was, the girl whom Arthur <i>loved</i>. It does
-not matter,” cried Lucy with generous heat, “that we do not like her or
-approve of her. Arthur loved her; and this girl whom he loved so much,
-whom he thought more of than any one in the world, to be bought off!”</p>
-
-<p>“Ay, that’s it,” said Sir John, “it would have all gone on smoothly if
-he had not broke in with his high flown ideas just like you; the thing
-would have been done but for that; and he would have been clear of her.
-But now that it’s come to this he shall have what he wants, and he shall
-have what he’s entitled to. I will see Rolt to-morrow,” said Sir John,
-never changing the dull fixedness of his eyes.</p>
-
-<p>And it may be supposed that the remainder of the evening was not very
-cheerful. Lady Curtis locked both the letters up in a drawer of her
-writing-table. “It is a pity they should be separated, these two,” she
-said with that quivering<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_178" id="page_178">{178}</a></span> smile of scorn which is so bitter, more
-painful than weeping. Yes, this was what all their hopes had come to.
-Arthur her boy, had chosen his own path, and this was what it was,
-nothing in which his father or mother had any share. What he liked
-better was the coarse girl who had married him for all the advantages he
-brought in his hand, and who had infatuated him, and made him such a one
-as herself. The sense of failure was in Lady Curtis’s mind, the pang of
-feeling that something inferior had been preferred to her, and to all
-that was worthy, by her boy. Can anything be more terrible than when
-father or mother is driven to despise the child of their bosoms? It
-happens often enough, and there is no such pang on earth. With trembling
-hands and this miserable quiver of a smile on her lip, she locked them
-away. Now surely it was time that they should rouse themselves, shake
-off the dull misery for Arthur’s loss which had paralysed the house, and
-brood no more over the desertion of one so unworthy their love.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_179" id="page_179">{179}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“We have enough of this,” she said, “come, Lucy! I do not mean that your
-life should be spent in sackcloth because Arthur is unworthy. Because he
-is hobnobbing with the tax-collector, are there to be no cakes and ale
-in Oakley? We will send our invitations to-morrow,” she said with a
-mocking little laugh of pain. Sir John opened his eyes a little at the
-levity of this unintelligible phrase about cakes and ale. But he had
-long ceased to criticise my lady whatever she might do or say. She had
-odd ways of expressing herself sometimes, but she was always to be
-trusted in the main points.</p>
-
-<p>“I shall speak to Rolt to-morrow,” he said for his part, which was more
-reasonable, as he went back to his room and resumed his Blue book. And
-he read till his usual hour, and lighted his candle exactly at the same
-moment as every other night, though his heart was heavy in his bosom
-like a lump of lead, not warming his blood as it ought to do. The ladies
-were not so reasonable, I need not say. They sat over the fire till it
-died out be<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_180" id="page_180">{180}</a></span>tween them, neither of them remarking the blackness, or
-being aware that the cold they felt had anything to do with the external
-circumstances&mdash;talking it over and over, arguing, fighting even: Lucy
-taking the side of defense, while her mother darted arrows of bitter
-words at Arthur and the girl who had got such empire over him. Men do
-not make their miseries subjects of endless discussion like this,
-perhaps because two men are scarcely ever so much like the two halves of
-one soul as mother and daughter are; nor could any brother and father
-throw themselves wholly into such a question as the sister could do with
-the mother. Lucy fought for him, condemned him, justified him, all in a
-breath; and cried and struggled and held up Arthur’s standard even while
-she threw herself with passionate sympathy into the proud and sore
-disappointment of the mother whose hopes had been thus deceived. They
-were still there over the dead fire in full tide when the solemn little
-stroke of one startled them, and drove them to their rooms,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_181" id="page_181">{181}</a></span> chilled and
-miserable. How dark it was outside, the rain falling, the last leaves
-dropping, in the middle of the December night! It added a shivering of
-physical sympathy to eyes exhausted with crying and voices exhausted
-with talking over this ever expanding subject. Every thought and plan of
-the house had borne reference to Arthur for how many years; and this was
-how he dropped them, turned from them, threw himself upon the lower and
-baser elements of life.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_182" id="page_182">{182}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_IX" id="CHAPTER_IX"></a>CHAPTER IX.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">A</span>CCORDING to Lady Curtis’s hasty resolution, the invitations, to some at
-least, of the ordinary Christmas party were for an earlier date than
-usual. The climax of the distress produced by Arthur had come, and
-though the struggle was hard to pick up the ordinary occupations of life
-again, and go on as if nothing had happened, at a time when Arthur’s
-absence was so doubly felt and apparent, the impatient soul of his
-mother was better able to bear this variety of pain than the monotonous
-heaviness of the other, the dull presence of one thought that had been
-upon the house like bonds of iron. One of the first visitors who arrived
-was Durant, who had always been the first in<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_183" id="page_183">{183}</a></span> Arthur’s time, next to the
-son of the house in familiarity and knowledge of everything and
-everybody about. Even during the miserable interval now passed, Durant’s
-letters had given a certain solace to Lady Curtis, as furnishing her
-always with something to talk of, something to discuss with Lucy, to
-whom she would point out freely the weakness of his arguments which were
-always in Arthur’s favour, and for which Arthur’s mother loved him, even
-while she took a delight in demonstrating their futility. Lucy had a
-long round to make among her poor people on the afternoon on which
-Durant was expected. She could not have told why it was that she chose
-that special day; perhaps because it was fine, a simple reason, quite
-satisfactory to the ordinary intelligence; perhaps because the
-association of ideas with him, whom she had not seen since he took her
-to Arthur’s wedding, was so painful that she was willing to postpone the
-meeting as long as possible; or perhaps she was desirous in Arthur’s
-interest that Lady Curtis should<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_184" id="page_184">{184}</a></span> have her first conversation with his
-faithful friend undisturbed by any third person; or, perhaps, again Lucy
-had reasons of her own, into which none of us have any right to pry. She
-was for a long time at the almshouses, having started early to take
-advantage of the brightest part of the short winter day, and took her
-luncheon with Mrs. Rolt, the wife of the good agent, to whom the
-children at Oakley had been as her own since ever they were born. Mrs.
-Rolt had no children of her own, and she had as great a desire to talk
-about Arthur as his mother herself had. She plunged into the subject as
-soon as Lucy appeared, and there was nothing but sympathy and tenderness
-in the bosom of this simple-hearted retainer of the family, who was at
-the same time a far away cousin, and therefore on more familiar terms
-than are usually permitted to an agent’s wife. This visit detained Lucy
-also, so that it was four o’clock, and the red winter sunset just over
-when she started to walk up the long avenue. Durant had been expected by
-an earlier<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_185" id="page_185">{185}</a></span> train at the station which was a mile or two off, so that
-Lucy felt herself safe. She set out upon her walk very full of a new
-incident which she had not previously heard of, the meeting between her
-aunt and her brother at Paris of which Mrs. Rolt had been informed by
-the Rector. “Why did not he tell us, or why did not Aunt Anthony write?”
-Lucy had said.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, my pet, what could she write? I don’t suppose it was pleasant,”
-Mrs. Rolt said, “however angry you, may be with your own, you don’t like
-to hear them blamed by others; and Mrs. Anthony has sense enough to know
-that.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then why did she mention it at all?” said Lucy.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, my love, that would have been more than flesh and blood is equal
-to. To have had an adventure like that, and not to have mentioned it at
-all! She said Mrs. Arthur behaved <i>dreadfully</i> to her, abused her,
-turned her out of her rooms. But we must take all that with a great many
-grains of salt, for you know your Aunt Anthony, my dear.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_186" id="page_186">{186}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I know Aunt Anthony; but how dreadful it is that Arthur’s
-wife&mdash;fancy, <i>Arthur’s wife</i>!&mdash;should give anyone occasion to say that
-she behaved badly. You will not tell mamma?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, indeed, I promise you; and I daresay, if we could know it all, the
-half isn’t true. You mustn’t worry about it, my darling,” said Mrs.
-Rolt, kissing Lucy as she went away.</p>
-
-<p>The girl shook her head. Why should they tell her such things if they
-meant her not to worry? and yet she was feverishly glad that she had
-been told, as people are in respect to every such family misery. She
-went in at the great gates, with her cheek still flushed by the
-agitation of the news. To hear that a friend, a member of the family,
-had actually met and spoken with Nancy, seemed to bring her nearer, to
-make her more real. And perhaps there was a personal advantage in this
-thrill of renewed agitation about Arthur, which replaced for the moment
-some of her own thoughts. For lo! it so occurred that all Lucy’s
-precautions had been futile.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_187" id="page_187">{187}</a></span> She had not walked half-a-dozen yards when
-she heard behind her the rattle of the dogcart swinging round the corner
-to the gate, that had been sent for Durant to the station; and before
-she had time to collect her thoughts, it drew up suddenly just behind
-her, and Durant himself sprung out of it, and in a moment was at her
-side. The dogcart went on with his portmanteau, and she felt herself
-exactly in the circumstances she had so elaborately avoided, bound,
-without chance of escape, to a long solitary walk through the still
-avenue, and a long confidential talk before he had seen anyone else,
-with her brother’s friend.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, the train was late; there was some slight accident on the line, at
-which I have been fuming and fretting. But, as it happens, it has been a
-lucky detention,” said Durant.</p>
-
-<p>Lucy took no notice, not even so much as by a smile.</p>
-
-<p>“You said you were very busy.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, I am getting plenty of work to do; not very distinguished work as
-yet, but I hope better may come.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_188" id="page_188">{188}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Your leading counsel will fall ill some day, and it will be a very
-interesting, romantic case, and you will be inspired to make the most
-eloquent speech, and your fortune will be made.”</p>
-
-<p>“I see you know how such things happen,” he said with a laugh.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, yes, I have read a great many novels,” said Lucy. “That is always
-how young barristers get on; and between that and the woolsack is but a
-step.”</p>
-
-<p>“A very long stride, I fear; but I do not insist on the woolsack,” said
-Durant; and then there was a pause, and he said lower, “I saw Arthur a
-few days ago.”</p>
-
-<p>“Did you see him? Oh, Mr. Durant, you must not mind what mamma says. She
-has begun to jeer at him, and that is the worst of all. How was he
-looking? Poor Arthur, poor boy! And his wife&mdash;did you see her? Oh, I
-have been hearing such a story of her!”</p>
-
-<p>“What story?” he asked anxiously.</p>
-
-<p><i>He</i> had heard many; but on the whole he was no enemy to Nancy. He saw
-the glimmer of tears in Lucy’s eyes, and this<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_189" id="page_189">{189}</a></span> did much to steel his
-heart against Arthur’s wife; but still he had no feeling against Nancy.
-He was ready even, more or less, to stand up in her defence.</p>
-
-<p>“My aunt, it appears, saw her in Paris, Mr. Durant.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, it is Mrs. Curtis’s story then?” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“You speak as if there were a great many stories about her,” said Lucy,
-with sudden heat.</p>
-
-<p>“No; but one hears everything, you know, in town&mdash;especially, I think,
-at this time of the year, when there are few men about, and they talk of
-everything.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said Lucy, “I have heard often of the gossip in your clubs, that
-it is worse and more unkind than any other gossip.”</p>
-
-<p>“Do not be too hard upon us! It is as petty and miserable as gossip is
-everywhere. But I have seen Mrs. Curtis, and heard it from herself. It
-is nothing, a misunderstanding between women&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Which, of course, you consider the merest trifle,” cried Lucy, much
-more piqued by this countershot than he had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_190" id="page_190">{190}</a></span> been by the assault on the
-clubs. Women are certainly on this point more ready to take offence than
-men, who have the calm confidence of their own superiority to fall back
-upon.</p>
-
-<p>“I do not, indeed; but the women in question are not of the highest
-order. Mrs. Curtis most likely was fussy and interfering; and Nancy&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Do you call her Nancy?” cried Lucy, opening wide eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“I beg your pardon. I got used to the name before she was Mrs. Arthur;
-and there is such a wonderful incongruity in the idea that she is Mrs.
-Arthur,” he said, doing his best to conciliate by this remark; but this
-slip of the name had evidently had a bad effect, he could not tell why.
-He thought that Lucy (in whom he had never before seen any indication of
-such foolish family pride) was offended by such a familiarity; and yet
-what could he say to excuse it? “Mrs. Curtis was intrusive, probably,”
-he went on, “and Mrs. Arthur resented it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, do not change the name you<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_191" id="page_191">{191}</a></span> are accustomed to for me, Mr. Durant!”</p>
-
-<p>“I am not accustomed to it,” he answered meekly, feeling that something
-was wrong, but not knowing what it was. “She resented it, I suppose. I
-do not wish to be disagreeable, but you know that a lady like Mrs.
-Curtis can be very officious and interfering; and <i>she</i> resented it, I
-suppose.”</p>
-
-<p>Poor Durant! if he thought he was mending matters by calling Arthur’s
-wife <i>she</i>, with that little emphasis, how mistaken he was! Lucy’s heart
-was conscious of a thrill and jar, such as one’s foot or hand might
-experience if suddenly striking against some sharp angle in the dark.
-She had no right to feel so unreasonably offended with Durant, so
-unreasonably disdainful of Arthur’s wife. Lucy was angry with herself
-for the force of her sentiments, which seemed so utterly out of
-proportion with the matter on hand. She thought it more dignified and
-befitting to retire from any further question of it. But her aspect
-changed unawares, her very form grew stiffer and more erect, and she
-said, icily,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_192" id="page_192">{192}</a></span> “You said you saw Arthur. Is he looking better than when
-we saw him last?”</p>
-
-<p>“No,” said Durant, hesitating; “I am not able to say that he is. I hope
-Lady Curtis will not ask me that question.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh!” said Lucy, the tears springing to her eyes, “do you think I am not
-as anxious about my only brother&mdash;as concerned as mamma?”</p>
-
-<p>“Indeed I do not mean anything of the kind; but I can speak to you more
-freely. <i>You</i> understand; you always did understand, Miss Curtis,” he
-said, looking at her with a tender admiration which stole the hardness
-from Lucy’s heart in spite of herself. “I do not know how it was. It is
-so natural that Lady Curtis&mdash;that all his family should see the folly
-and the unkindness of it most. But you always saw the whole&mdash;and
-understood.”</p>
-
-<p>“I never excused Arthur, Mr. Durant. No one could know the evil of what
-he has done&mdash;the pain it has produced so well as I.”</p>
-
-<p>“I know,” he said softly, “all the more honour to your delicate heart
-that under<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_193" id="page_193">{193}</a></span>stood. I beg your pardon&mdash;I was only speaking by way of
-explanation. I can speak to you as I cannot speak&mdash;to any one else.
-Arthur is not looking well, poor fellow&mdash;he is harassed and worried to
-death. All the glamour has gone out of his eyes, and he sees his wife’s
-family now as other people see them, as very common-place, sordid,
-uneducated people, with whom, or with their like, he has no affinity. I
-would not say even that he did not see this more deeply than&mdash;I do, for
-instance, who am quite indifferent. To me they seem good sort of people
-enough&mdash;in their way. But Arthur has the horror of feeling that they
-belong to him more or less&mdash;and that he is called upon to associate with
-them.”</p>
-
-<p>“Poor boy! oh, poor boy! and he was always so fastidious! But that is
-nothing, Mr. Durant&mdash;they do <i>not</i> belong to him. He can shake them off
-whenever he likes; but her&mdash;what of her? She is the chief person to be
-thought of,” said Lucy, with a sigh that it should be so.</p>
-
-<p>“This is precisely the thing which I<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_194" id="page_194">{194}</a></span> can say to you, and to no other,”
-said Durant. “She is not the same as they are. If you could fancy one of
-the stories of a stolen child&mdash;that was always different, always
-superior to the children of the people who brought it up&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Superior&mdash;Aunt Anthony’s story does not sound much like superiority! I
-think you are influenced, as they say gentlemen always are, by her good
-looks, and that is why you make an exception in favour of&mdash;my
-sister-in-law,” said Lucy, with a sound in those words such as Durant
-had never heard before from her lips. He looked at her in the growing
-twilight with wonder and pain. Was his certainty of <i>her</i> superiority to
-every other person concerned, about to turn out vain? It was almost
-dark, and he could not make out the expression of Lucy’s face; and of
-all things in the world the last that could have occurred to the young
-man was any thing to account for this, which should have been flattering
-to himself.</p>
-
-<p>When he spoke again, there was some distress in his voice, and a half
-tone of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_195" id="page_195">{195}</a></span> complaint, “I thought I might venture on saying this to
-<i>you</i>&mdash;I thought you would understand; the facts are all against her. I
-believe she has managed very badly; and allowed everybody to see her
-want of cultivation&mdash;her strange&mdash;ignorance. Nevertheless,” he said
-earnestly, “I do not despair of Nancy. As for her good looks, they count
-for very little with me. What effect they may have on idle and
-unoccupied minds, I cannot pretend to say; but for a man like myself
-with a busy life and a pre-occupied imagination&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I beg your pardon, Mr. Durant,” cried Lucy, “I did not wish to pry
-into your secrets.”</p>
-
-<p>She would not have said it had she taken time to think. What folly to
-let him know that she understood that enigmatical phrase about the
-pre-occupied imagination! Lucy went on, quickening her pace, feeling the
-glow of a sudden blush run all over her in the gathering dark. And the
-silence seemed to thrill about them with all manner of possibilities of
-what might be said next. They were as<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_196" id="page_196">{196}</a></span> much alone as if they had been in
-a desert island&mdash;bare trees standing closely about, the twilight all
-grey among the branches, the whole world still and listening. The thrill
-came to Lucy too, a kind of visionary tremor.</p>
-
-<p>“Mamma will be looking out for you,” she said, hurriedly. “She will
-scold me for keeping you so long walking, when you might have been there
-in the dogcart half an hour ago;” and she sensibly quickened her own
-pace.</p>
-
-<p>But Durant did not share in that thrill. It affected him only with a
-contrary touch of despondency. Lucy’s fright lest he should go on to
-tell her who it was who had pre-occupied his imagination (could she
-entertain any doubt who it was?) reflected itself in his melancholy
-sense that he dared not tell her any more. He dared not because he was
-poor, he who, even if he had been rich, would not have been thought her
-equal by anyone belonging to her; and because he was her father’s guest,
-and incapable of betraying his hospitality by a word to his daughter
-which<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_197" id="page_197">{197}</a></span> Sir John would not have permitted. Thus that suggestion of
-self-disclosure ended in a blank silence which neither would break. He,
-too, quickened his steps to keep up with her, and in a few minutes they
-reached the house, which rayed out light into the darkness from the open
-door and windows. It seemed all bright, all open, full of hospitable
-warmth and radiance. When Durant had come here before, he had come with
-Arthur, and there had been a rush of mother and sister to the door to
-meet the heir of everything, the first thought and hope of all within
-these walls. Durant had been half-saddened many a time by that warm and
-exuberant welcome which Arthur always received. He himself had been
-received kindly too, but with what a difference! and as there was no
-particular enthusiasm about him in his own home, notwithstanding the
-fact that his family were indebted to him for everything, he had never
-been able to divest himself of a certain envy for Arthur. But he was a
-thousand times more saddened now to go up the great steps into the hall,
-and see<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_198" id="page_198">{198}</a></span> no mother hurrying out to receive her son, no Arthur coming
-with cheerful outcry, nothing but himself stealing in softly, half
-ashamed of being there without Arthur, half afraid to look at Lucy, who
-must feel it too, he felt. He did not know how to go on and meet Lady
-Curtis’s eyes. He felt sure they must meet him with a reproach. “Where
-is Arthur?” he felt the very house say to him; and almost wished that he
-had been guilty, that he could have taken their reproaches to himself,
-and answered for his friend’s sake, “It is my fault.” He paused in the
-hall, and looked round wistfully at Lucy. Her eyes were wet, her lips
-faltering. She held out that hand to him.</p>
-
-<p>“I know,” she said; “but when we have got over the first, it will be
-almost as if he had come too.”</p>
-
-<p>“Almost!” he said shaking his head. He felt his eyes grow wet, and held
-her hand almost without knowing that he held it. Lady Curtis had heard
-the movement in the hall, though she had been trying not to hear it, and
-the shock had been broken to her by the arrival of the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_199" id="page_199">{199}</a></span> dogcart which
-she thought was bringing him. She came out now hiding her agitation with
-a smile, and held out her hands. Neither of them could speak. But when
-they got into that room which had seen so many happy meetings, it was
-too much for Arthur’s mother. She took hold of his arm convulsively with
-both her hands, and leaned her weight upon his shoulder and cried, “Oh,
-my boy!” through the sobs which she could not suppress. Durant was
-overcome at once by the emotion and the confidence. He stooped down with
-tender reverence and kissed her cheek.</p>
-
-<p>“He is all the brother I have ever known,” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, Lewis, yes, I know; God bless you! you have always been on
-Arthur’s side.”</p>
-
-<p>Lucy stood by with strange currents of thought going through her mind,
-dimly understanding the man who was not her lover, but whose imagination
-was pre-occupied past being touched by any one else&mdash;yet tempted
-grievously to misunderstand him,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_200" id="page_200">{200}</a></span> and wondering with a latent pain just
-ready to come into being, whether this was one of the common mockeries
-of fate which made her mother receive him thus almost as a son, at the
-very time when he had ceased to entertain that sentiment which might
-have made a true son of him? Strange are the vagaries of young minds at
-this doubtful period, when everything is undisclosed and uncertain. She
-had entertained no doubt as to who it was who occupied his imagination
-when he had said those words. Did she really entertain a doubt now? or
-was she fostering such a thing into being&mdash;trying to make herself
-believe it? it would be hard to say. She stood by wondering, feeling in
-herself all the germs of doubt, and that inclination to nurse and
-develope them, and make herself unhappy which most of us have felt; all
-this, however, tempered by a curious thrill of pleasure to hear what
-Lady Curtis said. Lewis! they had called him Lewis Durant among themself
-for years, as (she felt no doubt) he had called her Lucy; but the name
-had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_201" id="page_201">{201}</a></span> never been employed before by anyone but Arthur. This was a leap
-unspeakable in intimacy. Lady Curtis had adopted him, so to speak, by
-thus involuntary casting herself upon him, and the sudden use of his
-name. But what did <i>he</i> think? was it Arthur only that was in his mind?</p>
-
-<p>Lucy drew her mother’s chair to the fire, and pulled off her own thick
-outdoor jacket. There was tea on the table ready to be poured out, and
-the soft lamplight and warm glow of the fire brought out all the
-prettiness of the room, with its gay tints and gleams of gold. What had
-trouble to do in that cheerful place, amid those artificial graces which
-had become natural and kindly by use and wont? The stir of her
-daughter’s movements brought Lady Curtis to herself. They sat down round
-the fire as if the new comer had been another son, and talked of Arthur.
-It was almost as endless, almost as engrossing a talk as when the mother
-and sister sat alone together, and felt as if they could never cease.
-But by and by Sir John came in for his cup of tea, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_202" id="page_202">{202}</a></span> asked how it was
-the train was so late, and all the particulars of the journey. Sir John
-himself had delayed half an hour beyond his usual time in coming for his
-tea. He had felt Durant’s arrival too.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_203" id="page_203">{203}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_X" id="CHAPTER_X"></a>CHAPTER X.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">T</span>HE next day the ordinary guests began to arrive at Oakley. They were
-not of a very lively character. With an instinctive sense of the
-difference, which the family were scarcely conscious of, changes had
-been made in the list of visitors which would have been got together in
-Arthur’s time. Scarcely any young men were of the party. When there is
-not a young man in the house what use in asking young men? unless it had
-been in a matrimonial point of view for Lucy’s sake, an idea which not
-only Lucy but her mother regarded (in the latter case injudiciously, it
-ought to be said) with scorn. Sir John had given up hunting long ago,
-and if he made a serious shot once or<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_204" id="page_204">{204}</a></span> twice in a season, it was more
-upon the principle which makes an old king open a ball than any more
-active personal liking for the sport. The party accordingly consisted in
-great part of his contemporaries, some in Parliament, some in the law,
-chiefly belonging to the learned professions. There was a judge, and
-there was the head of a college, and for a few days there was a bishop;
-but as this latter functionary was the most sportive member of the
-party, he could not be counted as adding to its solemnity; and these
-magnates of course did not stay long. And then there was the Master of
-the Hounds who was more solemn; and there were the wives of these
-gentlemen, and in some cases their daughters, and a stray man or two of
-the order of those who know everybody and have been everywhere, and have
-done a little of everything, without getting more than a general
-reputation for themselves, and without giving any very clear indications
-to the world where they sprang from or to whom they belonged. There were
-also a few ladies of the same species,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_205" id="page_205">{205}</a></span> but whose families and
-antecedents were unimpeachable. It was Lady Curtis who abhored dullness,
-who had added these. Sir John liked the dullness, and did not object to
-having a lady next to him who dined well and said little. In spite of
-Lady Curtis’s efforts, however, the party was dull. It was perhaps too
-elderly and too serious. Well conducted married people are dull in
-society. They are not sufficiently interested in each other to exert
-themselves for each other’s amusement, and there can be little doubt
-that as a source of diversion and interest to their fellow creatures, a
-couple of naughty persons bent on flirtation and ill-behaviour make a
-better recompense to their entertainers. This element was sadly wanting
-at Oakley; there was no little drama to watch, legitimate genteel comedy
-ripening towards marriage and all the domestic joys, or more
-reprehensible episode tending the other way, such as often proves more
-exciting still to the jaded appetite of society. And it can scarcely be
-wondered at, if in the absence of other fun this res<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_206" id="page_206">{206}</a></span>pectable assembly
-threw itself on the affairs of the family. There was a great deal of
-conversation in corners about Arthur’s marriage. The Bates family were
-too low down in the world to have even reached the level of gossip, and
-except that he had made a very foolish marriage, a <i>mésalliance</i> in
-every sense of the word, no one knew anything further, except one lady
-was acquainted with Mrs. Anthony Curtis, and had received from her a
-vague account of her meeting with Nancy. This lady had formed an idea,
-quite erroneous as it happened, yet an idea, of Arthur’s wife, which was
-a point not attained to by anybody else in the house. She thought (as
-seemed so natural) that Nancy must have been an actress in a minor
-theatre, a nameless <i>figurante</i>, one of the class who are supposed to
-enthral well-born young men, and who, wonder of wonders, do so, to the
-everlasting astonishment of the world, notwithstanding all its theories
-on the subject. But it did not enter into anybody’s mind to suppose that
-the girl whom Arthur had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_207" id="page_207">{207}</a></span> married had not the advantage of being wicked
-and shameless. The lady who knew the story whispered it to others when
-none of the family were present. “Turned her out of her rooms, I assure
-you, my dear,” she said; “they were in the best rooms of a most
-expensive hotel, I need not say. Such people never spare any expense.”</p>
-
-<p>“A girl from a theatre!&mdash;but what theatre? There are such differences;
-that means anything, from a lady to a dressing-girl.”</p>
-
-<p>“She was not a lady, at least; that is the only one thing that is
-certain. She was a&mdash;” Here the teller of the tale stopped abruptly,
-adding in a louder tone, “I know only one lady on the stage, but she is
-enough to justify any amount of raving. Mrs. Kenworthy&mdash;don’t you
-know&mdash;you must have seen her.”</p>
-
-<p>It need not be added that it was one of Lady Curtis’s friends, a
-middle-aged person who knew everybody, who spoke, and that the sudden
-break was owing to the entrance of Lucy, who came in unsuspi<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_208" id="page_208">{208}</a></span>cious, and
-caught them in the middle of their talk.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, yes, I have seen her,” said another, faltering, while the other
-members of the party broke up suspiciously, and began to talk to each
-other with great earnestness. Lucy had thought no evil when she came in,
-to see all the heads together, but this breaking up and evident desire
-to conceal the subject of discussion roused her. These were the sort of
-conversations that went on through the hospitable house. When Sir John
-was alone for a few minutes with the Judge, who had been the friend of
-his youth, that learned functionary took him by the buttonhole, and
-said, “What’s this, what’s this, Curtis, I hear about your son?” They
-talked of it under Lady Curtis’s eye in the drawing-room as they sipped
-their tea. Poor Arthur had been cast off by his family, they said; he
-must have been living a bad life before, or he could never have been
-thrown in the way of such a person, and never could have married her.
-Had he married her? that was the next<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_209" id="page_209">{209}</a></span> question. Or was it not
-altogether disreputable, the connection itself and everything about it?
-So they talked; and Lucy for once got to feel it in the air, and to lose
-her temper sometimes at the sense of this strange mass of secret
-criticism of which her family was the object. She made an assault upon
-her cousin, the Rector, in the midst of it with nervous vehemence. He
-had been talking to Miss Wilton, the lady who had rushed into a
-description of Mrs. Kenworthy, when Lucy came into the room that morning
-and interrupted more important talk. Lucy, watching, had perceived that
-Bertie had held back while the other had been pressing questions upon
-him, and that after the interview Miss Wilton had hurried to a pair of
-expecting friends, and communicated to them the information which she
-had acquired. Miss Curtis called her cousin to her with a somewhat
-imperious gesture, a gesture, however, which he was very willing to
-obey.</p>
-
-<p>Hubert Curtis had not found himself, so far, any the better for the
-misfortune which<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_210" id="page_210">{210}</a></span> had happened to Arthur. He was not taken more into
-favour at the Hall, nor did Lucy incline more to his society than when
-her brother was at Oakley. He had not gained any ground. However likely
-it might be that she would have a larger portion of the family goods,
-Bertie saw no probability that the advantage would in any way come to
-himself; he had almost, he thought, lost instead of gaining by Arthur’s
-absence. When Arthur was at home, he, as the nearest neighbour, the only
-man of anything near his own age close at hand, had a natural place at
-Oakley besides that derived from his relationship. But now what had he
-to do at the Hall? Lucy did not encourage him, certainly, in any
-devotion to her. Lady Curtis had an instinctive, half-jealous dislike to
-him, as she would have had probably to any young man whose sensible and
-correct behaviour was a standing reproach to Arthur. And Sir John could
-not be troubled by Bertie’s peace-making and desire to persuade him that
-all would eventually be well. Therefore he had suffered with Arthur,
-which was a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_211" id="page_211">{211}</a></span> thing he did not calculate upon; and it would be impossible
-to deny that his mother’s story about Arthur’s wife had given him a kind
-of grim satisfaction. If he were not bettered, at least others were the
-worse; he said, “poor Arthur!” with contemptuous content. If a man chose
-to make a fool of himself like that, it was only right that he should
-pay the penalty, and he had been unable to refrain from repeating his
-mother’s story to Mrs. Rolt, who was shocked and grieved, as Bertie,
-too, assumed to be. But he had not been guilty of the treachery of
-discussing it at the Hall. When Miss Wilton spoke to him, he had no
-desire to give her any further information, but answered as sparingly as
-possible. Of course it was now, when he really had been exercising a
-certain amount of virtue, that his punishment came.</p>
-
-<p>“Bertie,” said Lucy, as he came up to her, “I want to know why my aunt
-goes on spreading that story, and why you talk it over with everybody
-except mamma and me?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_212" id="page_212">{212}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“What story?” But he did not attempt to deceive her further by
-pretending that he did not know.</p>
-
-<p>“We were the most interested,” said Lucy. “If you had told us it would
-have been natural, and perhaps kind; but why do you tell it to other
-people? What good could that do?”</p>
-
-<p>“What other people have I told it to?” he said. “I was questioned over
-there, but I made no reply, or at least as little as I could. I told
-Mrs. Rolt, and I beg your pardon for that. She was so anxious to know
-something, and I knew she was to be trusted. Don’t blame me, Lucy; I
-have not intended to be hard upon Arthur.”</p>
-
-<p>“Hard upon Arthur! I did not suppose so; he can fight his own battles,”
-said Lucy, raising her head with a look which was almost haughty. “But
-you are unkind to us. You are my cousin, our nearest relation, Bertie.
-You should not go about telling disagreeable stories. And then you are
-a&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Go on,” he said; “recall me to my duties. I am a clergyman&mdash;was not
-that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_213" id="page_213">{213}</a></span> what you were about to say? and I ought not to be a gossip, going
-from house to house. I will not attempt to defend myself, Lucy. If that
-is my character, it is better I should say nothing; and certainly, if
-you think so, I cannot undertake to undeceive you. It is you who are
-unkind to me.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t think so. I did not mean to say so much as that,” said Lucy,
-abashed. “But oh, Bertie, why should you treat us so? Are not we, is not
-Arthur, your own flesh and blood.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am but too ready to acknowledge it, too glad to think of it,” he said
-with a sudden smile.</p>
-
-<p>And as Lucy had no difficulty in looking at him, no shyness about
-meeting his eyes, she could not help seeing the eagerness in them, and
-softening of unmistakeable sentiment. Altogether, apart from the fact
-that she would be very well off and an excellent match, he liked her as
-sincerely as was in him. Love, perhaps, is too strong a word; but he
-liked her, well enough to have wanted to marry her if she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_214" id="page_214">{214}</a></span> had only
-possessed a competence and nothing more, if she had not been in any
-exceptional position as the only obedient and dutiful child of the
-house. Whether his sentiment was of a robust enough kind to have made
-him seek Lucy had she been poor, is a different question; but it might
-even have been strong enough for this, perhaps, for all anyone could
-say.</p>
-
-<p>She was softened too. Lucy was not one of those <i>farouche</i> young women
-who resent being loved. She was sorry that any such mistaken feeling
-should be in his mind, if it was in his mind; but all the same she was
-rather softened than hardened by the look of eager conciliatoriness and
-desire to please her, which was in his face.</p>
-
-<p>“Aunt Anthony might have told us herself. She need not have let other
-people know,” she said, shifting her ground, and in a gentler tone.</p>
-
-<p>But here he had a very good answer provided.</p>
-
-<p>“My mother is not here,” he said, quite gently, without a tinge of
-reproach. “She cannot either explain or defend herself.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_215" id="page_215">{215}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>What could Lucy say? She blushed crimson, deeply moved by the sting of
-this retort courteous.</p>
-
-<p>“I wished her to be here,” she said.</p>
-
-<p>“You always wish what is kind. I did not think it was you; but, Lucy,
-don’t you see&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>At this moment Sir John came up, placing himself so that the
-conversation was interrupted. As the mantel-piece was not near enough to
-be leant upon, he leaned upon one of the marble consoles behind which a
-big glass rose to the ceiling, reflecting his figure and the faces of
-the two in front of him.</p>
-
-<p>“I have often noticed,” he said, “that when we have a mild rainy
-November, the cold is bitter in spring. Have you remarked that, Bertie?
-But, to be sure, you are not a country bird, you don’t know much about
-the weather; but you will learn, you will learn before you are my age.”</p>
-
-<p>“It seems a simple enough conclusion, and I don’t mind accepting it as
-part of my creed,” said the Rector with a laugh, in which, however,
-there was some surprise<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_216" id="page_216">{216}</a></span> mixed, for he did not understand what motive
-his uncle could have in placing himself there to make this very
-unimportant remark.</p>
-
-<p>“They tell me the meet is to be here to-morrow,” said Sir John; “and
-some of the ladies are going to ride. I am very glad Lucy doesn’t hunt.
-You had better come up and make yourself useful, Bertie, now that
-there’s nobody in the house. I suppose you don’t ride now to speak of?
-Of course, there’s Durant; I don’t know what his fancy is. I never was a
-cross-country man myself. I was always fond of more serious pursuits.
-Your father now, my brother Tony, he was always fond of it&mdash;a sort of
-practical fellow. As for me, I always took a pleasure in more serious
-things.”</p>
-
-<p>“You were born for Parliament, Sir,” said the Rector, half with veiled
-satire, half with a disposition to please his uncle, who had been kind
-enough, and from whom more kindness yet might come.</p>
-
-<p>“Well, yes, perhaps you are right,” said Sir John; “that was more in my
-way; I always took an interest in public busi<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_217" id="page_217">{217}</a></span>ness. When I was a boy at
-Eton I used to read the debates as regularly as I do now&mdash;and I have
-never changed my principles or turned my coat, Bertie. That is something
-to say after thirty years of public life. I have never seen reason to
-modify my opinions as so many people do. One set of principles has been
-enough to guide me through life, and I cannot believe that any man wants
-more.”</p>
-
-<p>“It is a very happy state of mind, Sir,” said the Rector, wondering more
-and more why his uncle had elected him to hear the characteristics of
-his wisdom. Lucy had cleverly stolen away to do her duty by the other
-guests, and only Lady Curtis was aware of her husband’s real meaning.
-She smiled within herself at his simple device to separate Lucy from a
-man who might put in the pretensions of a lover. But when Lucy, after
-stealing away from her cousin’s side, was to be seen a little while
-after at Durant’s, then it was Lady Curtis’s turn to look serious, and
-she herself moved from her own chair when she saw them talking,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_218" id="page_218">{218}</a></span> with a
-lively sense of the same need for interference which had moved her
-husband. When Lady Curtis joined them their conversation was simple
-enough, nothing to alarm any parent; but yet she remained there talking
-with something of her old brightness, until Lucy had left that end of
-the room, too, in turn, and had gone to carry consolation to old Mrs.
-Nuttenden in the corner, who was slightly deaf, and not amusing&mdash;with
-her efforts to amuse whom, nobody interfered.</p>
-
-<p>Durant did not notice the gentle interference in the Rector’s case, but
-he felt it very distinctly in his own, and with a little pang said to
-himself, that he would give no occasion for this watchfulness, but would
-shorten his proposed stay as he had already intended to do. This was not
-because there was any failure of the kindness, even the affection with
-which he had been first received. Lady Curtis talked to him as she did
-to nobody else but Lucy, confided in him&mdash;called him Lewis, as she had
-done when he arrived, and dis<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_219" id="page_219">{219}</a></span>cussed her son with him, with family
-freedom and trust, in a manner indeed which would have filled many young
-men with fond imaginations and made them feel themselves almost wooed.
-And Sir John was quite kind, though in a different way. He had always
-been slightly suspicious of Durant as one of those clever men who are
-never quite safe, and of whom you cannot be too sure what levelling and
-atheistical sentiments may accompany their intellectual gifts. One of my
-Lady’s sort of people, Sir John had always considered him, not a
-retainer of his own, but on the other side; yet because he was so
-associated with Arthur, Sir John’s heart had melted to him also. So that
-it was no failure of the most cordial welcome which made Durant feel it
-better to hasten away. He went to his room that night quite decided by
-the manner of the woman who called him by his Christian name, and looked
-at him with such motherly affection in her eyes. Was it Lady Curtis’s
-fault? He did not blame her. He said to himself, that had Lucy<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_220" id="page_220">{220}</a></span> been his
-own sister, he would not have given her to a poor barrister without
-family, without connections, with burdens of his own upon his shoulders,
-and no honours to bestow. Why should he linger there? Now that Arthur
-was so far off from Oakley&mdash;now, above all, that Arthur was <i>married</i>,
-the most complete of severing influences, it was inevitable (he said)
-that his connection with Oakley must gradually drop off. They would not
-mean it&mdash;they would not wish it&mdash;yet it would come to pass; and why
-should he seek to prevent it? Was there not between them a great gulf
-fixed&mdash;that gulf which wealth might fill up, perhaps, which his old
-grandfather’s money might have thrown a golden bridge across, had it
-still existed; but which now gaped like the bottomless pit, and could
-never be crossed by any skill or effort of his. Should he stay only to
-impress this more and more upon himself? He made up his mind that very
-night.</p>
-
-<p>But that did not hinder him on the next day after these events, which
-was Sunday,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_221" id="page_221">{221}</a></span> from finding himself by Lucy’s side in one of the quiet
-moments of that quiet day. He was going off the next morning, and it
-chanced to him, unawares, to come into the Louis Quinze room in the
-interval between church and luncheon, which is a moment of general
-dispersion in which no one knows where any one is. Lucy was in the
-morning-room writing a letter, when Durant came in. He was very
-self-denying, yet when she stopped and laid down her pen, and said,
-“Come in, don’t go away!” he could not resist the invitation. He came in
-and stood near her, leaning upon the corner of the mantel-shelf close to
-one of those big rococo Cupids between whom Sir John was so fond of
-placing himself. And Lucy was a little eager, almost agitated, more
-resolute to talk to him than he was to talk to her. She said without any
-preface, “Are you really going away to-morrow? I was surprised&mdash;and I
-don’t seem to have seen you at all, or to have said half I had to say.”</p>
-
-<p>“I must go,” he said with a sigh, “for many reasons; and chiefly
-because<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_222" id="page_222">{222}</a></span>&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Because what? You do not think there is any change, Mr. Durant? You
-must not think there is any change: there is no one mamma trusts in so
-entirely as in you.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am very glad to think so,” he said, “and to believe that she would
-trust me if any thing occurred&mdash;if I was wanted.” Here he made a pause,
-and added in a low tone, “and you too?”</p>
-
-<p>“And I too! can you doubt it? I know,” said Lucy faltering, “that Arthur
-has no such true friend.”</p>
-
-<p>He made a little unconscious gesture with his hand. She knew exactly
-what it meant. It meant Arthur, always Arthur! never anything on his own
-account; always for the use that might be made of him. But this would
-have been very unreasonable had he put it into words, for it was
-precisely on this reason that he had claimed to be trusted, “if anything
-occurred&mdash;if he was wanted.” Very unreasonable and inconsistent; but
-then men are so.</p>
-
-<p>And what could she say? She could<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_223" id="page_223">{223}</a></span> not take the initiative, and tell him
-that her interest in him, at least, was not all on account of Arthur.
-She made a tremulous pause, and then said, “Everything is so different
-this year. We have done nothing but talk to you of Arthur. The time
-seems gone in which we used to talk so freely&mdash;of, us all.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” he said, “it is kind, very kind of you to use such words. What
-talks we have had here of&mdash;us all! before we had began to feel the
-differences between us.”</p>
-
-<p>“What differences?” she said eagerly. “Mr. Durant, I hope you are too
-generous to think that any outside differences&mdash;” Poor Lucy coloured and
-grew so eager, that her earnestness defeated its object, and she could
-not get the words out.</p>
-
-<p>“Not that,” he said, “not the loss of our money. I know no one here
-would think the less of me for that&mdash;perhaps the better,” he added with
-a smile, “as being just a poor man now, without any pretence of equality
-on account of wealth.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_224" id="page_224">{224}</a></span> I did not mean that; but rather the enlightenment
-that comes with years, and that shows to me how little I, being what I
-am, ever could be on the same footing with you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Mr. Durant, you are unkind&mdash;you <i>are</i> ungenerous!”</p>
-
-<p>“Not so&mdash;not so; but I am older and a little wiser. And according to the
-custom of mortal things, this enlightenment comes just when it is most
-painful to me&mdash;most bitter to realise.”</p>
-
-<p>“I cannot hear you say so,” Lucy said, getting up trembling from her
-chair. “Difference&mdash;what difference? I know none. I never have been told
-of any.”</p>
-
-<p>And he looked at her all quivering with the desire to say more&mdash;to set
-open the doors of his heart, and show her herself in it, and all that
-was there. He looked at her, and shook his head sadly.</p>
-
-<p>“I have no right to say any more. I would be a poor creature if I said
-any more; but still it is so&mdash;and it is better for me to go away. You
-will not misunderstand me? That would be the cruellest of all.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_225" id="page_225">{225}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“I think there is one thing more cruel,” said Lucy with an impulse which
-carried her away, and for which she could not forgive herself
-afterwards, “and that is to speak mysteries to your friends, and expect
-them to understand you, yet never tell them what you mean&mdash;that is the
-thing that is most cruel.”</p>
-
-<p>“Should I speak then, though it is hopeless&mdash;though it is almost
-dishonourable?” he cried excited and breathless. Lucy trembling, turned
-half, yet but half away.</p>
-
-<p>“Ah! you are here then! I have been looking for you,” said the voice of
-Lady Curtis at the door. “You are talking to Lucy who has a letter to
-write, and I have something to say to you, Lewis&mdash;come to me here.”</p>
-
-<p>Lucy had gone back to her writing before her mother stopped speaking;
-she did not even look at him again; but she said very low, “I think I
-understand,” as he passed her slowly to obey that call.</p>
-
-<p>And next morning he went away.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_226" id="page_226">{226}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XI" id="CHAPTER_XI"></a>CHAPTER XI.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">A</span>FTER the crisis of that conversation with Mrs. Curtis, which was at the
-bottom of so much harm and mischief, Arthur and Nancy stopped
-quarrelling with each other. They had each done and said things which
-they were disposed to repent of&mdash;and felt the existence generally of a
-state of things which was alarming, which at their worst they could not
-see without feeling that it might be possible to go too far. The fact
-that Arthur had gone away without seeing her after her rudeness to his
-aunt, his absence for hours, his absolute silence on the subject when
-they met at dinner had produced a great effect upon Nancy. It had been
-on her lips all the evening through to intro<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_227" id="page_227">{227}</a></span>duce the subject, to excuse
-herself or defend herself according as might be most suitable at the
-moment. But Arthur gave her no occasion. He had the advantage of
-education over her, the habit of self-restraint, at least the sense that
-it was necessary on occasion to restrain himself, an elementary lesson
-which Nancy had not as yet arrived at. And the effect upon her was
-great. She, too, kept silent, though against her will. She shut up in
-her breast this subject which, if she had talked about it, would, no
-doubt, have inflamed her to double wrath. And she grew a little
-frightened of the husband whom hitherto she had played with as she
-would, but who now in his newborn reserve and stillness was more than
-she could manage. She was afraid of him for the moment. He was no longer
-in her power. A tremendous menace seemed to lurk in his silence; and the
-consequence was that they lived in much greater harmony for the next
-week, both a little alarmed and penitent, and afraid of taking another
-step in the wrong direction. At<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_228" id="page_228">{228}</a></span> the end of that time Arthur made the
-discovery which Nancy had already suggested to him, that howsoever great
-might be his desire to go to Italy, his means would not permit it. They
-had been living in their charming little apartment for three weeks, they
-had used a carriage constantly, and all that a Paris hotel can furnish
-that was most agreeable to eye and palate, and there was nothing, or
-next to nothing left. Arthur had not realised this fact when he had
-written his letter to his father. He had written indeed more out of the
-painful determination within him to uphold his wife, even in the face of
-what she had done to his relatives, by yielding to her will about their
-future, than from any more reasonable motive. He knew very well how that
-story would fly, how it would get to the ears of his mother and Lucy,
-and how everybody who knew him would pity poor Arthur. This it was which
-made him suddenly abandon his opposition, and determine to do as she
-wished. At all hazards he would maintain her credit, whatever might be
-her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_229" id="page_229">{229}</a></span> treatment of him. They might make her out to be what they pleased,
-they might tell what stories they would&mdash;he could not he knew contest
-them, but at all events everybody should see that he at least upheld her
-in her way of acting, gave her his support through all. This generous,
-if perhaps foolish, resolution, which was full of that grieved and
-suffering love which can no longer deny the justice of the accusations
-against its beloved, had been come to before he knew the necessity of
-returning home; but that necessity made it less forced and unnatural.
-For the last week of their stay there was little attempt at amusement.
-Denham, who had found great satisfaction in watching the proceedings of
-the bride, and who had already made many circles merry by his
-descriptions of her husband’s anxious endeavours to interest her in what
-she saw and heard, and her own absolute ignorance and unconcealed
-<i>ennui</i>, was ever at hand to suggest something, and had indeed two or
-three plans of his own for sharing this charming spectacle with some of
-his friends, with a trust in Arthur’s sim<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_230" id="page_230">{230}</a></span>plicity, which might not have
-been justified by the event. There were two in particular to whom he had
-promised an introduction to his “delicious Englishwoman,” had the young
-pair accepted the box at the Odéon which he had offered them, and the
-mischievous attaché was much disappointed by the failure of his plans.
-They declined it, however, with one accord. Nancy had quite convinced
-herself that it was “no fun” going to plays when you did not understand
-a word, and Arthur, on his side, had become disgusted with everything
-public. How did he know that they might not meet some one else whom he
-should be obliged to introduce to his wife, and whom his wife would
-receive with the same amiability which she had shown to Mrs. Curtis? The
-Curtises were still in Paris, and he had himself held an agitating
-conference with his aunt and Mary; but they came no more to the Rue
-Rivoli. This opportunity of making friends had been turned into the
-easiest way of making enemies. He would make no more such essays.
-Ac<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_231" id="page_231">{231}</a></span>cordingly they sat “at home,” in the pretty little room with the
-white walls and white curtains. Arthur could always write his
-letters&mdash;it was not many he had to write now, as his family
-correspondence was cut off, and he had dropped most of his friends, but
-still he kept up the phrase; he wrote his letters, while she sat by the
-fire, sometimes taking out and putting in frills or trimmings to her
-dresses, sometimes yawning over a newspaper; they talked to each other a
-little now and then, and yawned in the intervals; they had no books
-except a few Tauchnitz volumes, which saved them from a complete
-breakdown, and they went early to bed which seemed always a virtuous
-thing to do. Thus the days went by. They did not talk any longer about
-going “home,” but it was tacitly understood between them that they were
-going <i>back</i>. This was what they had got to call it. And the day was
-fixed, and the boxes packed, and all settled, with scarcely any further
-consultation. Life, however, had become very sober prose after the
-triumphant exultation<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_232" id="page_232">{232}</a></span> of the beginning, when three weeks after their
-marriage they crossed the Channel again on an early morning, Nancy very
-ill, and Arthur dignified but pale, and arrived at London on a rainy
-December night, wet and miserable as anything could well be.</p>
-
-<p>Next day they went <i>back</i>. Arthur had taken rooms at the little inn
-which stood opposite Mr. Eagles’ house, looking on the green, where
-Durant had been lodged. But before they reached that place there was a
-greeting to be got through at the station, the whole Bates family, no
-less, having assembled to welcome their daughter. Nancy’s spirits had
-risen from the moment she had touched English soil. She had talked to
-everybody, guards, porters, the servants at the hotel, with exuberant
-satisfaction, notwithstanding the bad passage and its natural
-consequences.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, what a blessing to be at home!” she said. “Oh, Arthur, isn’t it
-nice to be back? I feel as if I should like to hug everybody. How much
-nicer everything looks in England! One can have some tea or some beer,
-instead of always that<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_233" id="page_233">{233}</a></span> sour wine; and sausage-rolls and Bath buns!”
-cried Nancy, looking at these appalling luxuries in the Dover
-refreshment-room with unfeigned delight. It had been on Arthur’s lips to
-cry out, “For heaven’s sake speak a little lower!” but he said to
-himself, what was the use? One or two people turned round and smiled.
-And she bought a Bath-bun notwithstanding her recent sufferings. It
-seemed to Nancy better than all the delicate <i>plats</i> in the world. It
-was English, it was adapted to her native tastes and her usually fine
-digestion. Arthur hurried her away with the objectionable dainty in a
-little paper-bag in her hand.</p>
-
-<p>“We must give in to prejudices a little,” he said. “You know most people
-think there is nothing like French cookery.”</p>
-
-<p>“I would not give a nice plain English dinner&mdash;mother will have one for
-us to-morrow, I know&mdash;for all the little oddments they have in France,”
-said Nancy.</p>
-
-<p>When she was Nancy Bates she did not talk like this, nor eat Bath-buns
-out of paper bags. The fact of being Mrs. Arthur<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_234" id="page_234">{234}</a></span> Curtis, with a fine
-gentleman, an unmistakeable “swell” for a husband, became again an
-exhilarating consciousness, and turned Nancy’s head a little as soon as
-she had got to England again; and how could she show her satisfaction so
-well as by that demonstrative indulgence of personal tastes, and
-ostentation of personal satisfaction which is the essence of vulgarity,
-yet may be the mere froth of ignorance and light-hearted confidence? All
-this was sufficiently trying to Arthur, especially when strangers heard
-these patriotic outbursts, and showed by their smiles, as they passed,
-their appreciation of her simplicity. But when they got to Underhayes
-station, where Mrs. Bates, Matilda, and Sarah Jane stood on the platform
-waiting, Arthur’s heart sank in his bosom. Why? If Nancy’s mother had
-been a duchess, she could not have done anything different. But Mrs.
-Bates, with her brown front, and the flowers in her bonnet, and Sarah
-Jane in the latest fashion, were too much for poor Arthur. He busied
-himself about the luggage, and wondered how it was, for all<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_235" id="page_235">{235}</a></span> so many
-times as he had seen them before, that he had never seen them until now?
-And this was how he was to be surrounded for the rest of his life!
-Visions of his mother and Lucy came gliding before him as he saw Nancy’s
-boxes, so much larger and heavier now than when they went away, lifted
-out&mdash;his own people! with their light steps, their soft voices, the
-tender delight in their eyes. Mrs. Bates was probably as fond of her
-child as Lady Curtis was of Arthur; that she should show that fondness
-so differently was not her fault, but that of Providence which had
-settled her lot in life. He tried to say to himself that this was so,
-but it was hard. On the whole, the best thing was to look after the
-boxes until those welcomes and embraces were over, which all the town
-seemed to have come out to see. Some of Mr. Eagles’ “men” were among the
-passengers by the train. Arthur shrank among the luggage altogether to
-escape from their eyes.</p>
-
-<p>“Where is Arthur?” said Mrs. Bates. “I hope Arthur knows that you’re not
-going to be allowed to go off to an inn the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_236" id="page_236">{236}</a></span> first day you come back. To
-be sure, it’s tea, not dinner, as I suppose you’ve been accustomed to;
-but tea, with a nice roast chicken and sausages, which is as good as a
-dinner every day; and it’s all ready and waiting. Arthur! How long he is
-about the boxes to be sure. Shall we leave him to send them down to the
-‘Dragon,’ and you come along, my Nancy, with me?”</p>
-
-<p>“Arthur! Arthur!” cried Sarah Jane at the top of her voice, rushing
-towards him, “mother’s gone on with Nancy, and I’m to wait for you. You
-needn’t be so particular about the boxes, the porter will take them safe
-enough. And come along, do come along! Nancy’s gone on before with
-mother, and I’m quite hungry for my tea.”</p>
-
-<p>One of the “men” at Mr. Eagles’ turned round, hearing every word of this
-speech, and grinned, Arthur thought, in derision.</p>
-
-<p>“Don’t wait for me,” he said, faintly. “Go on, please, and I will
-follow. There are a great many things to be looked after, and I must see
-what sort of rooms they have given us. Go on, and never mind me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, if you’re too fine to walk down<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_237" id="page_237">{237}</a></span> Underhayes with your own
-sister-in-law!” cried Sarah Jane; and to Arthur’s great relief she took
-offence, and rushed after her mother and sisters, calling this time,
-“Nancy! Nancy! stop a bit, I’m coming.”</p>
-
-<p>The “man” lingered till she was gone, perhaps with a little pity for the
-bridegroom. He was a happy boy of twenty, working his eyes out for the
-Indian Civil examination, who had always been accustomed to think that
-his was rather a hard case, and that Curtis was a great “swell.”</p>
-
-<p>“How d’ye do, Curtis? Can I look after these things for you?” he said,
-coming up shyly. Arthur made haste to clear every sign of cloudy weather
-from his downcast face.</p>
-
-<p>“It is a bother looking after them,” he said; “my first try, you
-know&mdash;and one loses one’s temper. Still grinding hard, I suppose?”</p>
-
-<p>“Harder and harder! Eagles gets more mad every day. What lucky fellows
-some people are!” said the young man with a little sigh, as he nodded
-and turned away.</p>
-
-<p>Arthur felt himself echo the sigh. Was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_238" id="page_238">{238}</a></span> it he that was the lucky fellow?
-He had thought so too when he left Underhayes, carrying with him the
-bride for whom he had felt willing to relinquish all the world. This is
-an easy thing enough to say. To relinquish all the world, and carry
-one’s Nancy off into some flowery Eden where nobody could intermeddle
-with one’s bliss&mdash;ah, yes; but the Bates family! They, it was evident
-would not permit themselves to be relinquished like all the world.
-Arthur walked at his leisure, glad to defer the moment of reunion, down
-to the inn, and saw his rooms and deposited his luggage. Perhaps Nancy
-had a right to be angry when at last he followed her. They had waited
-till the chicken and sausages were nearly cold; but by this time they
-were in the middle of their meal, Mr. Bates already in his slippers at
-the foot of the table when Arthur arrived. The little parlour was hot
-and close, full of mingled odours; they were all a little flushed, what
-with the unusual warmth, what with the meal. Nancy herself had been
-placed next to the fire, as the tra<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_239" id="page_239">{239}</a></span>veller to whom the best place was
-necessarily given, and she was crimson with excitement, pleasure, anger,
-and the stifling atmosphere all combined. The voices all ceased when
-Arthur came in.</p>
-
-<p>“I think you might have paid my mother the respect of coming directly,”
-said Nancy in high tones.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, hush, dear, hush! I am sure Arthur didn’t mean any rudeness,” said
-Mrs. Bates.</p>
-
-<p>But there was an interval of silence, marking general disapproval, and
-they all turned to look at him as at a culprit. He sat down in the
-vacant place much against his will, amid unfriendly or indignant looks.
-Even to the Bates’ family he was no longer welcome as an angel from
-Heaven.</p>
-
-<p>“I am sorry everything is cold,” said Mrs. Bates; “we waited as long as
-we could. But Nancy wanted her tea very badly after her journey. Here is
-a leg of chicken I saved for you.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am not hungry,” said Arthur, feeling his new alienation and
-separation amid all the silent party. “I will take a cup of<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_240" id="page_240">{240}</a></span> tea,
-please. I had the boxes to look after.”</p>
-
-<p>“You might have left the boxes to take care of themselves,” said his
-wife; “you are not always so careful. You might have come with me when I
-first came home after being married. And all the people about staring;
-but you don’t mind. It used to be different when we were here before;
-but I ain’t of so much consequence now,” cried Nancy. “Wives are
-different from sweethearts; I see that all now.”</p>
-
-<p>Arthur felt a sensation of chill despair come over him in the midst of
-this domestic heat. He restrained himself by a strange effort and would
-say nothing; and, indeed, he did not feel the impulse of passion to
-speak. A dreary despondency took possession of him. How often he had sat
-there on the sofa in the corner, and felt himself happy! What was it
-that made the change? for Nancy had shown “tempers,” fits of caprice,
-uncertainty of mood before their marriage. But it had not affected him
-as it did now. Succour came to him, however, in an unexpected way.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_241" id="page_241">{241}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>“I don’t approve of nagging at a man, whatever he’s done,” said Mr.
-Bates. “If you’ve had any tiffs honeymooning, you should have the sense
-to stop ’em now. If you like to quarrel in your own place, I’ll not
-interfere, I haven’t got the right; but don’t do it here. Your father’s
-house is no more than a friend’s house so far as that goes. It ain’t
-your place, Nancy, to expose your husband here.”</p>
-
-<p>“I hope I know what’s my place, as well as you or anyone,” said Nancy,
-growing red, and accepting the challenge. She had never been fond of
-restraint, and she liked it now less than ever. She gave her head a toss
-of defiance, entrenched as she was behind the walls of support and
-shelter which her mother and sisters gave, who unconditionally took her
-side. She flashed defiance at the other end of the table, where Arthur
-sat with a flush of shame on his face, and poor Mr. Bates in his
-crumpled white tie for his sole partisan.</p>
-
-<p>“I think Mr. Bates is right,” said Arthur, “and that it would be better
-to postpone this question till we are alone.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_242" id="page_242">{242}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“And I hope you found Paris pleasant, Sir,” said the well-intentioned
-father. “I have often heard that it was a very fine city. It must have
-been a great advantage for Nancy, seeing it with one that knew it well.
-In my young days going to France was more of a business than going to
-America is now. Me and Mrs. Bates never had the benefit of foreign
-travel; but there are a many things you young people enjoy now that your
-fathers and your mothers didn’t have.”</p>
-
-<p>“You may speak for yourself, Mr. Bates,” said his wife. “I cannot say
-that I ever had any desire to go to foreign parts. There is plenty to
-learn in England if one would make a good use of what one knows; and
-Nancy, poor child, don’t seem to have enjoyed it. Look how thin she is,
-and so pale. She quite frightened me when I saw her first. ‘Is that my
-blooming Nancy?’ I said to myself&mdash;not meaning to throw any reflection
-upon Arthur. What does man know of such things? She’s been doing too
-much. I feel sure that’s what it is, rattling about<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_243" id="page_243">{243}</a></span> here and there and
-everywhere, and engagements in the evening&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“We didn’t have many engagements in the evening,” said Nancy. “We used
-to go to the theatres at first; but we soon got tired. The acting was so
-bad, not like English acting; and such queer French, not a bit like
-anything I ever learnt. For one thing, they talk so fast. But I could
-not understand a bit, and what was the good of going to a play and not
-understanding a word? And we never saw anybody, except an aunt of
-Arthur’s, a person&mdash;but I won’t speak of her, for she was rude to
-me&mdash;and Sir John Denham, who used to come and sit of an evening, and who
-brought us tickets for places. It was very kind of him; and there was a
-lot of places to see, and a whole lot of old pictures and things that
-Arthur thought I was to go crazy over; but I never did. One place was
-where some prison was knocked down (I never remembered the names) and,
-another was where the Queen had her head cut off.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_244" id="page_244">{244}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, la!” cried Sarah Jane.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, that was a pleasant thing to be interested in, wasn’t it? Oh, the
-lots and lots of people that had their heads cut off, if you could put
-any faith in it! As if that was what one wanted to see! I never believed
-one quarter of what they said.”</p>
-
-<p>“And quite right,” said her mother; “they do make up stories; but didn’t
-you go to see something a little livelier, Nancy? I thought there was
-everything that was gay in Paris. But if that was all, my poor child, I
-don’t wonder if you felt low, away from everybody you knew. But things
-will be quite different now,” she said, encouragingly. “You will settle
-down, you and Arthur, in a nice snug little English ’ome. There is no
-place like ’ome, as the song says. And you’ll fall into each other’s
-ways; and you’ll have us close at hand if anything’s wrong. Oh, you’ll
-see everything will go as smooth as velvet! and me, or Sarah Jane, or
-Matty always to help you to put things straight.”</p>
-
-<p>At this prospect Nancy brightened up, and the conversation went on in a
-livelier<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_245" id="page_245">{245}</a></span> strain. But Nancy’s brows lowered when Arthur, feeling it all
-grow more and more intolerable, got up just before the rum-and-water
-stage, under pretence of business.</p>
-
-<p>“I have some letters which I must write,” he said. Nancy’s countenance
-grew dark again, and Mr. Bates lamented audibly.</p>
-
-<p>“I thought you’d have joined me and been comfortable, now you’re a
-married man and got your courting over,” said the tax-collector. Poor
-Arthur! was this expected of him, that he should share the rum-and-water
-too? He scarcely knew how he managed to get away at last, promising to
-return for his wife when his letters were written. But he had in reality
-no letters to write. He walked about through the darkness very sadly,
-wondering what he was to do. It was weak perhaps to have yielded to her,
-to have suffered her to lead him back here; it was all intolerable, the
-house, the family, the talk. They had been well enough once, how did it
-happen that they were beyond all patience now?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_246" id="page_246">{246}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XVI" id="CHAPTER_XVI"></a>CHAPTER XVI.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">N</span>EXT day, restored to perfect good-humour by the occupation, Nancy went
-out with her mother to look at some houses which they had already
-selected for her choice. She came into the little sitting-room, in which
-Arthur had talked to Durant about his marriage, and where the young pair
-were established now&mdash;glowing and beaming from her early walk, to tell
-him all about these desirable residences. Rose Villas, Glenfield Road,
-was the name of the row, in which there were two houses, one empty, and
-one furnished, to be let.</p>
-
-<p>“You must come with me and see them the moment you have had your
-lunch&mdash;I don’t want any lunch,” cried Nancy. “I am so delighted! The
-dearest little houses,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_247" id="page_247">{247}</a></span> Arthur! just big enough for us, and so bright,
-with gardens back and front, and everything that heart could desire.”</p>
-
-<p>“But we don’t want two houses, do we?” he said.</p>
-
-<p>“No, you silly boy; but if we take the one that is furnished, don’t you
-see, for little while, and the one that is not furnished for a
-permanency, then we can be comfortable in the one house while we furnish
-the other; ain’t that clever?” said Nancy, laughing. “I can’t fancy
-anything more delightful. Make haste with your luncheon, Arthur. Oh,
-yes, I will sit down with you, I will take a morsel; but I am in such a
-hurry. I do hope you will like them as much as I do. It is so nice to
-think of having a ’ome, as mother says.”</p>
-
-<p>Arthur did not make any reply; after so much stormy weather as there had
-been, it grieved him to destroy all this sunshine by any remonstrances.
-He was glad to bask in it a little and put off the next difficulty. It
-was a bright winter afternoon when they sallied forth together,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_248" id="page_248">{248}</a></span> the red
-sun descending towards the west, and throwing up all the leafless trees
-beyond Mr. Eagles’ great house as on a crimson background, against which
-every branch and twig stood out&mdash;the Green more brilliantly green than
-usual from the many rains and from the afternoon redness which enhanced
-its colour&mdash;the red-brick houses all ruddy and warm in the light. Even
-to Arthur, whose heart was heavy, it was a pleasant walk to Glenfield
-Road. They were alone, and Nancy was in the gayest humour, full of
-satisfaction with herself. Though she had lost her confidence in the
-Paris dresses, which had much disappointed her mother and sisters, and
-was afraid that her travelling costume looked dreadfully dowdy (which
-was Sarah Jane’s opinion)&mdash;yet the sense of being at home, able to
-dazzle all her old companions with her good fortune, and to feel that
-her house and husband, and all her possessions, would be admired and to
-envied by the right people, had calmed all Nancy’s susceptibilities and
-raised her spirits to the highest point. She all but<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_249" id="page_249">{249}</a></span> danced along the
-street, holding Arthur’s arm in a way which may be old-fashioned, but
-still comes natural to a bride. She was about to have a house of her
-own, a house fit for a lady, where obsequious tradesmen, once her
-equals, or better than she, would come for orders. She was about to have
-servants of her own&mdash;not a “girl,” as in the Bates’ establishment, but a
-cook and housemaid, as good as the Vicar or any of the fine people on
-the Green. And all these fine people would call upon her, Nancy thought;
-who was there among them equal to Mrs. Arthur Curtis, a baronet’s
-daughter-in-law, some time or other to be Lady Curtis&mdash;a baronet’s
-wife?&mdash;and who could speak familiarly of other baronets, Denham, for
-instance, as an intimate friend. And then there was Durant.</p>
-
-<p>“Who is Durant,” she said, “Arthur? Is he anybody, is his father
-anybody? I had a long talk with him here once. I was angry&mdash;But on the
-whole I liked Durant.”</p>
-
-<p>“He is&mdash;my oldest friend; and the man in all the world who knows most
-about<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_250" id="page_250">{250}</a></span> me,” said Arthur, laughing in spite of himself; “but further
-information would not enlighten you, Nancy&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“You mean that I don’t know your peerages, and that sort of thing,” said
-Nancy, piqued a little.</p>
-
-<p>This time Arthur laughed with good will. “I don’t think the peerages
-would help you much,” he said. “Lewis Durant is a clergyman’s son,
-Nancy.”</p>
-
-<p>“<i>Only</i> a clergyman?” She was disappointed. “But they must have been
-very rich or something, Arthur, or such proud folks as your people would
-not have let Durant be so intimate with you.”</p>
-
-<p>“My people,” said Arthur with some haste, “would not have thought of
-interfering with my school friends to ask whose sons they were; and
-Lewis’s family, <i>were</i> rich&mdash;but they are not rich now. Call him Lewis,
-if you please, when you speak of him, Nancy; but don’t say Durant. It
-sounds <i>fast</i>; and you never will be fast, I hope.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, it sounds fast, do you think?” Nancy was mollified. When he had
-made<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_251" id="page_251">{251}</a></span> the same request before, she had thought it a stigma upon her as
-not knowing how a lady should talk, but this was a lesser offence. “Well
-then, Mr. Durant&mdash;if I must say Mr. Durant&mdash;isn’t he rich now?”</p>
-
-<p>“No, not at all rich.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, then I suppose he has to work for his living like&mdash;any common man?
-I am so glad you are not like that, Arthur. What a difference it must
-make! To have one’s husband away all day at his work&mdash;or to have one’s
-husband always at one’s side, ready to take a walk, or to answer a
-question, or anything. I am so glad you are a gentleman, Arthur. I never
-should have been happy had I married a man in any other rank of life.”</p>
-
-<p>“Durant is just as much a gentleman as I am, Nancy.”</p>
-
-<p>“What! when he has to work for his living? Oh, yes, I know. Whoever
-wears good clothes, and knows how to behave himself in society, is
-called a gentleman for the name of the thing, Arthur. The assistants in
-Shoolbred’s are all gentlemen, of course; but that is not what I
-mean<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_252" id="page_252">{252}</a></span>&mdash;you know what I mean. Now supposing that Durant&mdash;I mean Mr.
-Durant&mdash;had known us longer, and got to coming to our house as you did,
-and Sarah Jane and he had fancied each other, she would not have been
-nearly so happy as I am.”</p>
-
-<p>“Was <i>that</i> thought of?” said Arthur, with a smile which did not
-evidence any real amusement. “I did not know that had been seriously
-thought of.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, yes, it was thought of. Why shouldn’t it have happened? He was your
-friend; and they say one wedding brings on another. I don’t think Sarah
-Jane would have minded,” said Nancy in perfect good faith. “She would
-have thrown Raisins over in a moment; and indeed I think she treats
-Raisins very badly with all her flirtations. I tell her it is he who
-will throw her over one of these days.”</p>
-
-<p>“So Durant might have been preferred to Mr. Raisins,” said Arthur. “What
-a chance for Lewis!”</p>
-
-<p>Nancy did not feel quite comfortable about the meaning of this laugh.
-Perhaps it was not entirely regret for what Durant<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_253" id="page_253">{253}</a></span> had lost; but as at
-this moment they came in sight of Rose Villas, her whole attention was
-drawn to the more exciting subject. “There is the empty one, Arthur,”
-she said, “look, how pretty! But I see the door of No. 6 is open, so let
-us go there first. There is such a pretty garden behind, and the windows
-open into it. There is not much in the garden now, but it will be
-delicious in summer. Oh, yes, here we are; this is Mr. Curtis, Mrs.
-Smith. We have come again, if you please, to go over the house.”</p>
-
-<p>“If you please, ma’am,” said the prim little landlady, whose lodgings
-had not let so well as usual, and who was not unwilling to get rid of
-her house. Nancy ran through it delighted, taking her husband from one
-room to another. “This you could have to write your letters in, Arthur,
-and this would be my drawing-room,” cried Nancy, glowing with not
-unlovely pride; “and look what a dear little Davenport, and an inlaid
-table, and that funny little three-cornered thing in the corner, and a
-nice white cloth over the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_254" id="page_254">{254}</a></span> carpet&mdash;so clean-looking&mdash;almost like our
-white carpets in Paris.”</p>
-
-<p>Arthur allowed himself to be dragged all over the house. It was like a
-hundred, nay a million other semi-detached suburban villakins. The
-little rooms were neat enough, if not beautiful; and Arthur, though he
-had been brought up in Oakley, amid his mother’s favourite splendours,
-was not sufficiently fastidious to be annoyed by the common-place
-surroundings. It was not the want of beauty that moved him; but the
-sensation of “settling down,” which was so delightful to Nancy, affected
-his imagination like a nightmare. She was so satisfied herself, so
-anxious to know every particular about the maids whom Mrs. Smith “could
-recommend,” so eager about everything, that his gloomy looks passed
-without remark. And Arthur did not check her delight until, having
-settled matters with Mrs. Smith, she insisted upon carrying him next to
-No. 9, which was to let unfurnished. “This is the most interesting,” she
-said. “Come along, Arthur; for you know this<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_255" id="page_255">{255}</a></span> will be our real
-’ome&mdash;this we will furnish ourselves;” and she dragged him to the door.
-Nancy did not usually drop her h’s, but she was too familiar with this
-form of the word to call it anything but ’ome.</p>
-
-<p>Here, however, Arthur had strength of mind to resist. “That is enough
-for to-day. You must not ask me to do more to-day. After dinner we will
-talk it all over, all about it, over the fire.”</p>
-
-<p>“After dinner?” said Nancy. “Oh! I said we would go and see mother, and
-tell her what we had settled. Why, what is the matter, Arthur&mdash;may not I
-go and see mother? We have only been one day back, and you begin to make
-faces already! You cannot say I am bringing my people on <i>you</i>.”</p>
-
-<p>“I think you might be content with me sometimes,” said Arthur, with an
-attempt at a smile.</p>
-
-<p>“I have been content with you for three weeks,” said Nancy. “I have
-never seen a soul but you. I should think you would like to see another
-face now and again as well as I do&mdash;and my own folks!” Arthur did not
-say any more. He diverted the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_256" id="page_256">{256}</a></span> conversation into other channels, and led
-her back to the subject of the villa, which on the whole was safer
-ground; and when the evening came and their dinner was over, and Nancy
-went off with a certain gay temerity, yet not without alarm, to get her
-wrap, Arthur took his hat to accompany her without saying a word. She
-was in a state of the greatest exultation, scarcely able to restrain
-little songs of triumph as they walked along the half-lighted street,
-and clasping his arm close, with a show of affection which went to
-Arthur’s heart.</p>
-
-<p>“At what time shall I come for you?” he said, as they drew near the
-door.</p>
-
-<p>“Come for me! are you not coming with me, Arthur?”</p>
-
-<p>“I have not finished my letters,” he said; “as <i>you</i> say, we have had
-three weeks of holiday; and then I was out with you all this afternoon.
-I must finish my letters for the post to-night.”</p>
-
-<p>She unclasped her hands from his arm without a word, and went in; and
-the glimpse Arthur had of the parlour did not tempt him to follow. Young
-Raisins was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_257" id="page_257">{257}</a></span> one of the company. He was seated on the sofa where Arthur
-had been in the habit of sitting, presumably behind backs, and out of
-the observation of the others, with Nancy. Young Raisins was now the
-lover on hand, and the sight of him in that place sent the blood to
-Arthur’s head as he walked away. Could it be possible that he himself
-had been unspeakably happy there a few weeks ago, finding nothing but
-pleasantness in the four straight walls, and beauty in the family
-affection that made all these people hang so closely together. Raisins
-now occupied the foreground of the picture as he had done before, with
-infinitely greater suitability. And this was the home which his wife
-loved. There was the sting of it! had she been indifferent,
-undutiful&mdash;even careless, as he thought he remembered that she once was;
-but Nancy’s matrimonial experience, which was not entirely successful,
-perhaps, had thrown her back upon her earlier affections in a way which
-is not unusual, though Arthur was not aware of that. Her husband and
-she<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_258" id="page_258">{258}</a></span> had only their love to hold them together; their habits were not
-like, their manner of thought was different. Even when she was at her
-boldest and most confident point, Nancy was never quite at home with the
-“gentleman” she had married; but with her own people, she was entirely
-at her ease. Arthur did not take this into consideration; but he was
-candid enough to feel a compunction as he walked away, and to
-acknowledge that from Nancy’s point of view, it might seem hard that he
-could not spend an hour or two without complaining in the society of the
-family who had been everything to her all her life. It was hard, that so
-soon, before a month of her married life was over, she should have to
-choose between the old home and the new, between her parents and her
-husband. Arthur had a generous mind, and this perception kept him from
-feeling himself the aggrieved person, as he had been half disposed to
-do. It forced him, also, instead of wandering about as he had done on
-the previous night, and brooding over the difficulties of his new<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_259" id="page_259">{259}</a></span>
-position, to go back to his hotel and really write the half imaginary
-letters which were his only business, and the reason which he had again
-given for his abandonment of that family circle. His letters were not
-all imaginary: there was one from Mr. Rolt, the agent, in answer to
-Arthur’s letter to his father. Sir John had been too indignant, as well
-as perhaps (but this he was not conscious of) too little disposed for
-exertion to answer it himself. He had handed over the note, not to the
-lawyer brother, against whom Arthur had vowed vengeance, but to the
-agent, who had always been a favourite, the friend of their youth, with
-the young Curtises, both boy and girl. Mr. Rolt’s letter was very kind
-and reasonable, and to answer it without proving himself to be in the
-wrong was difficult. Sir John did not object to raising his
-allowance&mdash;he did not refuse anything Arthur asked him. There was
-nothing hard in the stipulations, nothing forbidding in what his
-father’s deputy wrote.</p>
-
-<p>“Your family do not wish you to suffer,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_260" id="page_260">{260}</a></span> how could you think it?&mdash;they
-do not wish to reduce you from your natural position. Had you treated
-them as they might have expected to be treated, my dear Arthur,” wrote
-the good man who had known him all his life, “you might, I think, have
-reckoned on Sir John’s indulgence to any extent; but you have not put
-that trust in your father and mother, though they certainly deserved it
-at your hands; and can you wonder if Sir John is angry? He will not
-write to you himself, feeling that your letter is not the kind of letter
-he ought to have had from you in the circumstances; but he has
-instructed me to tell you that your wishes shall be complied with to any
-reasonable amount. He does not wish you to suffer in personal comfort in
-consequence of the step you have taken.”</p>
-
-<p>This was the letter which Arthur had to answer. He paused, reflecting on
-it, repeating to himself, “does not wish you to suffer in personal
-comfort.” Were there other ways which they suspected and calculated upon
-in which he might<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_261" id="page_261">{261}</a></span> suffer for his disobedience? He paused to go over all
-that had happened within the last three months. Could he have acted
-otherwise than he had done? If he had given his confidence to his
-parents from the beginning, as they reproached him for not doing, what
-would have been the issue? With what eyes would Lady Curtis and Lucy
-have looked upon his Nancy, who, for her part, would have defied them?
-He shook his head as he sat pondering over the sheet of paper before
-him. No! no! had he confided in them things would have been worse, not
-better&mdash;for anyhow he would have married Nancy, if without their
-consent, if against their deliberate judgment, what did it matter?
-except that the last would have been the worst. He could fancy how she
-would have met their inspection&mdash;how she would have repulsed and scorned
-them. No&mdash;no, he repeated to himself. Better to leave them in ignorance
-than to hazard the open quarrels, the inevitable rending asunder that
-must have followed. They could not have withdrawn his heart from<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_262" id="page_262">{262}</a></span> Nancy.
-No, again no! And the breach would have been more bitter, not less. With
-a sigh he decided that, on the whole, he had not chosen the worst way.
-He did not say to himself that both were bad enough, but he sighed.
-Nancy had left him to go to her family, to be happy in the stuffy little
-parlour, where her father drank his rum and water; and he&mdash;he sighed,
-going no further&mdash;for <i>his</i> belongings, for his home, for the natural
-occupations of his life. They did not regret their choice either of
-them; but yet within the first month of their marriage, this curious
-return upon themselves had happened to both. Perhaps this is not so
-wonderful even among the happiest as we pretend; for is not the
-beginning the hardest, in marriage as in so many other things? Arthur
-wrote and posted his letter, feeling himself bound to do so after what
-he had said; then went on to fetch his wife from her father’s house.
-They were very merry there, he could hear as he passed the lighted
-window; and it was more and more curious to him when he<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_263" id="page_263">{263}</a></span> went in to find
-young Raisins the master of the situation, amusing them all with his
-jokes. Arthur, in his time, had never had so much <i>succès</i>. He was
-rather glad to see that Nancy was not enjoying the fun like the rest,
-but sat a little apart and with a somewhat moody countenance until he
-entered, when she flung off her gravity, plunged into the riot that was
-going on round the table, where Mr. Raisins was doing tricks with cards,
-and laughed and talked with the best. Arthur could not make out whether
-this was to show him her superior gaiety and light-heartedness at home,
-or whether it was his own presence which brought back her
-light-heartedness. And he himself, touched by compunction, did his best
-to make himself agreeable, to show that he wished for a good
-intelligence between them. He was more successful in this than he had
-hoped. Young Raisins’ fine qualities had so charmed and delighted the
-house that Arthur too shared the good feeling he had called forth. Mrs.
-Bates melted altogether, and spreading out her hands de<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_264" id="page_264">{264}</a></span>clared that
-“this <i>was</i> a happy meeting,” and that “parents” had reason to be
-satisfied, indeed, when their girls were thus happily settled. “When you
-all rally round the ‘old house,’<span class="lftspc">”</span> were the words the gratified mother
-used; but unfortunately in the general impulse of emotion that followed,
-Arthur could scarcely restrain a slight laugh, which Nancy, who seemed
-to be all ear, remarked, though no one else noticed it. Why should he
-laugh? He would not have laughed had it been the old house of Oakley,
-amid its trees and parks, that was to be rallied round; and why not the
-small tenement in East Street, Underhayes? Was it possible that
-materialism could go so far as to measure sentiment by the size of the
-house? He said this to himself, yet still laughed in his mind, and could
-not tell why.</p>
-
-<p>“I hope you have written your letters,” Nancy said, coldly, as they
-walked home.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes; the one I specially wanted to write is gone. It was an answer to
-Mr. Rolt’s which I told you about.”</p>
-
-<p>“Then you will have no excuse about<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_265" id="page_265">{265}</a></span> writing letters to-mor&mdash;I mean
-another night. You will not have that reason to give for staying away.”</p>
-
-<p>“You do not want me to spend every evening at your mother’s, Nancy?”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, now it comes out,” she said. “I knew it all along. It was not
-letters, but because you wanted to escape from us, from my family, whom
-you look down upon. If you despise them, you should never have married
-me; for I will stick to them as long as I live.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am not in the habit of making lying excuses,” said Arthur, as calmly
-as he could; “and it is not necessary,” he added after a pause,
-controlling the sentiment in his voice, “to despise a family because you
-do not wish to be with them every night.”</p>
-
-<p>“Every night! this is the second night,” cried Nancy in high disdain.</p>
-
-<p>“Nancy,” said Arthur, “do not let us quarrel. I don’t want to interfere
-with your natural affection, but you cannot expect me to feel exactly as
-you do. It is not possible! And don’t you think it would be wise to
-agree that there are great differ<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_266" id="page_266">{266}</a></span>ences between your family and me? that
-we are likely to agree better apart, and that a meeting now and then
-would be best, not too often? I don’t want to dictate to you&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“No; it would be more wise, as you say, not to try,” said Nancy. “I see
-now. This is why you wouldn’t condescend to look at the other house. Ah,
-I see! you mean to go away, to leave this place, which is the only place
-I can be happy in. This is your plan? Oh, I allow it is a fine plan! but
-it will not be so easy to carry out.”</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t want, I say, to dictate to you. I don’t want you to give up
-anything that is important for your happiness. But I have given up my
-people for you, Nancy&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Then go back to your people, and have done with it!” cried Nancy,
-throwing herself free from his arm, to which she had been clinging, and
-pushing him from her. Arthur was so startled to find himself driven to
-the edge of the pavement by this energetic impulse, that even the power
-of speech seemed taken from him. And what was there to say?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_267" id="page_267">{267}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XIII" id="CHAPTER_XIII"></a>CHAPTER XIII.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">M</span>R. and Mrs. Arthur Curtis settled down in a day or two into No. 6, Rose
-Villas, where Nancy had her two maids to manage, and all that had seemed
-to her most delightful and desirable in life. The little drawing-room
-was not a particularly genial place in winter weather; the carpet was
-covered with a white linen cloth tightly strained, there were white
-muslin curtains at the windows, the walls were white and gold, after the
-approved fashion of little drawing-rooms in little villas. All this, if
-it was very clean-looking, as Nancy said, was chilly in December, and
-the little fireplace was so near the long French window, and both were
-so near the door, that the room was draughty, and scarcely so<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_268" id="page_268">{268}</a></span> cosy as
-might have been desired. There was a piano in it, upon which Nancy could
-not play, though she had received lessons on the piano during those five
-quarters in which she had been at school; and a work-table, which she
-did not employ much for work; but no books, nor any pictures on the
-white-and-gold walls. When Arthur had exerted himself in the
-re-arrangement of the furniture, which Nancy did not go into with any
-enthusiasm&mdash;for she was still of opinion that a row of chairs set
-against the wall were “in their proper place,” and that to disturb them
-was almost an immorality&mdash;the discovery that he had nothing to do
-pressed with more and more force upon him. What did he want with
-anything to do? Nancy thought. Was it not the best thing in the world
-not to require to do anything, the true sign of being a gentleman? A
-certain scorn of people who worked for their living had taken possession
-of Mrs. Arthur Curtis. Why should they give themselves airs when they
-were all as one as a bricklayer, working for their bread? But anyone
-could<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_269" id="page_269">{269}</a></span> see that Arthur was a gentleman. It is to be hoped that gentlemen
-in general were more at their ease under the burden of their gentility
-than Arthur. It was not&mdash;let no one be deceived&mdash;that he wanted to work.
-Work when he had read with Mr. Eagles had been extremely irksome to the
-young man. It was true he had not remained very long to try it, but he
-had not loved his studies, especially under the spur of the sharp and
-urgent “coach.” There are other things, however, which young men think
-of when they talk of having “something to do,” which do not tell very
-much in an industrial point of view. In his natural condition and at
-home, Arthur had many occupations. He shot, he hunted, he rode about the
-country, he paid visits; he was appealed to by people in trouble; he was
-consulted about the affairs of the estate. Sometimes he had to appear on
-the hustings in support of his father’s election; he had speeches to
-make now and then, and that interest in public business which is
-indispensable to one who may sometimes have to take part in it. All this
-was at an end now. The calm, not to stay stagnation<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_270" id="page_270">{270}</a></span> of his present
-existence dropped over him as the curtain drops in a theatre upon the
-animated and busy scene. After the drama is over, or in the moment of
-repose between its acts, it is some immoveable representation of life or
-scenery, an unchangeable incident or landscape, that closes for us the
-brilliant stage upon which human life in all its changeableness and
-variety of emotion has been represented. Arthur’s domestic bliss was
-like this drop scene. His life was gone from him, with all its hopes and
-occupations; he was no longer the young Squire, as potent within his
-small territory as any Prince of Wales, no longer the budding magnate of
-the county, with responsibilities rising round him, with the covers to
-think of (if nothing more), and poachers to take in hand, and public
-life to look forward to. All that fuller existence had departed. The
-drop scene, representing a white-and-gold bower of bliss, with two
-figures seated (before the fire, but that was a matter of detail), all
-in all to each other, as romantic people say, had fallen with a
-remorseless completeness, hiding everything. He took a long walk<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_271" id="page_271">{271}</a></span> with
-his wife every afternoon. Often he went out in the evening to fetch her
-from her father’s, or else he had the pleasure of entertaining her
-father and mother at home; and he would stroll out on his own account
-here and there, in the mornings, while Nancy was pretending to do her
-housekeeping, or read the <i>Times</i> languidly in the room appropriated to
-him, feeling as if all the busy commotion of the world indicated in it
-had gone away to such a distance from him that he could but faintly
-apprehend or understand it. The drop scene! To what innocent bosom would
-not that picture have commended itself? Two figures, young and fair to
-behold, the world forgetting, by the world forgot; living for each
-other, all for love, and the world well lost.</p>
-
-<p>This went on for what was really a long time without disturbance. The
-establishment of the Arthur Curtises in Rose Villas gave the little
-world of Underhayes many causes of deliberation. Should they call? was a
-question hotly discussed. Call? on Bates the tax-collector’s daughter!
-Could<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_272" id="page_272">{272}</a></span> anything be more absurd? the elder ladies said. But the younger
-ones were interested; who would not be interested in such a romantic
-business? and the gentlemen were either sorry for or curious about the
-young husband who had thus sacrificed everything to “a pretty face.” For
-the girl was just an uneducated girl like any other in her position,
-everybody said. There was no innate superiority in Nancy to justify her
-elevation, neither had her husband taken pains as even a romantic young
-fool, now and then, did, to educate her before making her his wife. Even
-now, so far as anyone knew, no attempt was being made to qualify Mrs.
-Arthur for her husband’s position in society. They had settled at Rose
-Villas, avowedly that she might be near her mother&mdash;with whom she was
-said to spend half her time; and no judicious governess or master able
-to impart instruction in those accomplishments which must have been
-wanting in her, was ever seen to enter her gates. Not even trying to
-improve her mind! She got the pick of the novels which came<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_273" id="page_273">{273}</a></span> in Mudie’s
-box to the local library, in right of an unusually liberal subscription;
-but what could novels do for her? Under these circumstances, it became a
-doubly difficult question to know what to do. When she came home at
-first she had been very well dressed, which had made an impression in
-her favour. Her dark blue “silk” had filled the Green with admiration
-and envy. “Paris, of course!” the ladies said, who, notwithstanding
-their disapproval of such a marriage, were very curious indeed about the
-bride; and some added a joke or a sigh at the idea of putting delicate
-garments from Paris, not upon such as themselves, who could appreciate
-them, but upon Nancy Bates! However, this mingled approbation and
-disdain soon came to an end, for it was not long before the dark blue
-silk was thrown aside in favour of more showy garments. “If that is all
-they can do in Paris!” Sarah Jane had said, at the sight of it, and she
-had spent some time at a milliner’s in town and ought to know. Her own
-family all thought Nancy’s dresses<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_274" id="page_274">{274}</a></span> dowdy, and ridiculously quiet for a
-bride; and the original “silk” which her parents had given her had been
-brought to the front again, with others of a similar character.</p>
-
-<p>“I made myself a dowdy to please Arthur. He likes it,” said Nancy; “but
-one can’t go on humouring one’s husband for ever, can one, mamma? One
-must think for one’s self sooner or later, and ladies surely know best
-about their own dress.”</p>
-
-<p>Arthur had not attempted any remonstrance, what was the use? And Nancy
-had reappeared with a brightness of colour and breadth of ornament,
-which pleased her family a great deal better.</p>
-
-<p>“Now you look something like a newly-married lady, with a husband that
-grudges you nothing,” Mrs. Bates said proudly, on that day when the
-Green shuddered at Mrs. Arthur’s new costume, and resolved with one
-mind, now at least, that nobody could be expected to call. But such
-resolutions did not always overcome the stronger inducements of
-curiosity, or of that pity and interest which moved some bosoms. Mrs.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_275" id="page_275">{275}</a></span>
-Eagles was the first to break the reserve. Her husband insisted upon it,
-she said. And she not only called, but asked “the Arthur Curtises” to
-dinner. Mrs. Eagles was a mild little woman, as soft-voiced as her
-husband was peremptory. She avowed frankly that she had been “very fond”
-of Arthur while he lived in her house. “He was so nice, he never would
-give any trouble that he could help, so unlike your <i>parvenus</i>; he was
-always so ready to do anything for you. Yes, I was very fond of him. The
-pupils are not attractive as a rule, but young Mr. Curtis was charming.”
-This was what she said to her neighbours when it was known that she had
-asked the bride to dinner, the boldest thing that had been done on the
-Green for many a day.</p>
-
-<p>“I hope you found <i>her</i> charming, too,” said the Vicar’s wife, who was
-not disposed to compromise her dignity in such a way. Mrs. Eagles took a
-little time to answer the question, and cleared her throat.</p>
-
-<p>“She is&mdash;quite unformed&mdash;I almost<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_276" id="page_276">{276}</a></span> wonder that associating with a
-well-bred man should have had so little effect upon her manners. But
-then, she is natural&mdash;she has no affectations; that is always
-something,” said Mrs. Eagles, which was not the case with the Vicar’s
-wife. She did not, however, ask the dignified couple from the vicarage,
-but only a humbler newly married curate to meet the young pair, who, for
-their part, were thrown into considerable excitement by the invitation.
-How Nancy might have taken it on her own account is doubtful; but the
-delight of her family had driven all thoughts from her mind but those of
-delightful elevation in the world and entrance into society.</p>
-
-<p>“It’s only a schoolmaster, it is true,” said Mrs. Bates; “no better,
-indeed not so good as ourselves, for I never was brought to such a pass
-that I had to take in lodgers to interfere with the family. I always was
-able to keep ourselves to ourselves, and of course the pupils are all
-the same as lodgers; but still you’ll meet the real gentry there, my
-pet, and it will be<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_277" id="page_277">{277}</a></span> a beginning, and you needn’t be shy with people
-like them.” Thus encouraged, Nancy allowed herself to feel that to go
-out to a party was pleasant. For she too, though she had the
-distractions of her family and her housekeeping, was growing a little
-tired perhaps of the drop scene.</p>
-
-<p>They were all very indignant, however, when Arthur suggested that she
-should wear a simple white dress for this first appearance. White, like
-an unmarried girl! and as if her husband was not well enough off to
-afford her a “silk!” Finally, with great hurry and strain of all their
-efforts to get it ready in time, Nancy appeared in light blue, which was
-becoming enough, though rather incomplete in those finishing touches
-which mark the difference between a home-made garment and one which has
-come from the hands of the initiated. As for Arthur he laughed at
-himself, not without a little bitterness, as he made his simple toilet.
-He was pleased to be asked out to dinner by his former “coach.” It
-excited him vaguely, partly with pleasure, partly with<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_278" id="page_278">{278}</a></span> anxiety. It was
-“revisiting the glimpses of the moon,” for the first time for all these
-months; for the slow winter had crept round to March again, and all the
-world was stirring into life. To describe the kind of Christmas this
-poor young fellow had spent would be too much for ordinary
-powers&mdash;exiled as he was from everything belonging to himself, and
-driven into close, too close encounter with all the jollities of so
-different a sphere. He had borne them, and kept them at arm’s length, as
-far as he could, and thank heaven, they were over. But the impatience in
-his heart grew stronger as the days grew longer, and the world turned to
-spring. He was as glad of Mr. Eagles’ invitation as if the “coach” had
-been Prime Minister with all manner of advantages to bestow. That
-impetuous little personage could not, had he gained first places for all
-his pupils in all the examinations under the sun, have put himself in
-the same position with the son of such a rural magnate as Sir John
-Curtis; but Arthur was as glad of his notice and his wife’s notice, as
-if the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_279" id="page_279">{279}</a></span> level of the Bates family had been his own original level.
-Nevertheless, there were difficulties in launching Nancy even into this
-mild little scholastic world. Arthur did not feel that he could venture
-to give her those hints about the manners of ordinary society, which
-might have steered her safely through the not appalling dangers of a
-dinner party. He did what he could by way of suggestion and supposition,
-taking it for granted that she would know; but even that simple mode of
-communicating instruction aroused her suspicions. “Oh, you needn’t be
-afraid, I know how to behave myself,” she said, with a toss of her head.
-How did she know&mdash;was it by instinct? instinct is a doubtful guide
-through the usages of society; but anyhow, Arthur did not venture to say
-any more. When she came downstairs, however, ready to start, with her
-blue dress all decorated and looped up with orange-blossoms, Arthur made
-a determined stand. He said, “You must take those things off, they are
-ridiculous,” with a peremptoriness which she could not resist,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_280" id="page_280">{280}</a></span> saucy as
-she was. Arthur at this moment did not seem a person to be trifled with.
-“Do you want to make a laughing-stock of your sister?” the young man
-said, confounding them all; and the obnoxious decorations were taken off
-with a silent speed that was wonderful. It was wonderful, as being
-inspired by a mysterious sense of having made a mistake. They had no
-idea what the mistake was; and their pride would not permit them to ask
-enlightenment; but they felt it the more from its mysterious and unknown
-character. When Nancy was ready, and wrapped in the warm white <i>sortie
-du bal</i> which they had bought in Paris, the effect of this error was
-sufficiently obliterated; and the young husband’s heart swelled with a
-little pride when he presented her to the man who had sent him out of
-his house because of Nancy. That practical protestation had not done
-much more good than all the other efforts which had been made to sever
-Arthur from his love; and here she was now, fair and blooming, an
-unquestionable fact, which they were<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_281" id="page_281">{281}</a></span> all compelled to recognize. But as
-he left her in charge of Mrs. Eagles, and dropped off behind, what
-anxiety was in Arthur’s thoughts! It was her first essay in society;
-would she take the trouble to please? He stood furtively watching her as
-he talked to the Curate, whose wife was also on her trial, but caused
-him no such tremour. The Curate’s wife was a small young lady of
-ordinary breeding and appearance, not to be compared with Nancy in any
-possible respect. But she had been born a clergyman’s, not a
-tax-collector’s daughter. She knew the outside of social ways, and how
-not to commit herself, which was exactly what Nancy did not know.</p>
-
-<p>And it must be allowed that, when Arthur saw that only this Curate and
-his wife had been invited to meet them, he was wroth with a savage sort
-of anger and scornful humiliation. He gave no sign of his feelings; but
-he had been accustomed to be somebody wherever he went, and the sense
-that he had now dropped into a doubtful position, in which only<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_282" id="page_282">{282}</a></span> the
-Curate could be supposed likely to countenance him, gave him a sense of
-what had befallen him more sharp and sudden than anything else that had
-happened, even than the familiarities of the Bates family. To say that
-Nancy was angry too, would be little. Her whole soul rose up in a blaze
-of wrath. She had expected to see everything that was fine and famous on
-the Green, and to receive, in a way, the homage of the assembled
-aristocracy. Nobody with a title lived at Underhayes, and Nancy
-considered that she herself had all but a title, and was to be admired
-in proportion; yet there was no one here but the little Curate’s wife.
-She talked largely to Mr. Eagles during dinner, giving him her opinion
-of Society in England.</p>
-
-<p>“Of course being brought up in a place like this, I have seen but
-little; and here not much to speak of,” she said, with a frankness that
-prepossessed her host&mdash;himself so trenchant and decided at all times.</p>
-
-<p>“You are right, very right, Mrs. Curtis.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_283" id="page_283">{283}</a></span> The people about here are not
-much to speak of. We have to put up with it, for we can get no better.
-Retired people are mostly a set of nuisances; having done all the
-mischief they can in the world in their own persons, they revile
-everybody who is beginning, and put mischief into their heads.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, Dr. Eagles.” He was called Doctor by the common people about, and
-he did not like it. “Yes; there never was such a gossiping place, I’ve
-heard many people say. They have nothing to do themselves, and they pull
-everybody to pieces. I have never gone into it, but I can’t abide that
-sort of thing. They are so stuck up; don’t you think they are dreadfully
-stuck up? and what is there in them to make them better than their
-neighbours? Don’t you think so, Dr. Eagles? I do hate everything like
-that,” said Nancy, energetically. “I suppose you did not like to ask
-them to meet Arthur and me?”</p>
-
-<p>“I&mdash;I don’t ask anyone,” said Mr. Eagles, taken aback for the moment.
-“It is my wife that asks the people.” Then<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_284" id="page_284">{284}</a></span> he began to realize that
-getting out of a difficulty by putting it upon his wife, was not a noble
-proceeding. “The fact is, I don’t think anyone was asked. We thought, I
-suppose, that you didn’t care for it. I don’t myself; I hope Curtis is
-not giving up work altogether. He may be tempted to do so, having no
-immediate object, but he ought never to interrupt his course of study.
-He was getting on very well with me.”</p>
-
-<p>“What should he go on with his studies for?” said Nancy; “he does not
-require it to make a living. He may please himself what he does. Oh, I
-shouldn’t like my husband to have to work! When a man is born a
-gentleman, Dr. Eagles&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“You have been good enough to bestow a degree upon me to which I have no
-right,” said Mr. Eagles. “I am simple Mr., like all the rest, though I
-am obliged to work for my living, and it would be of use to me. A man
-ought to work, however, when he’s young like Curtis. If he doesn’t now,
-he will miss it after. I’ve always told him so.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am sure I don’t think so at all,” said Nancy. “Why should he work?
-or<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_285" id="page_285">{285}</a></span> anyone in the position of a gentleman? You know what I mean by a
-gentleman. Father is as good as Arthur, or anyone, and he has to work.”</p>
-
-<p>This mollified Mr. Eagles.</p>
-
-<p>“I hope we are all gentlemen,” he said, as lightly as was possible for
-him, “whether we work or not.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh yes, in a kind of a way,” said Nancy, with careless scorn, “in your
-manners, and so forth. And clergymen, and teachers, and those sort of
-people are called so out of civility; but I never think anybody is a
-gentleman that has his own living to make.”</p>
-
-<p>“I think you are a little hard upon us, Mrs. Curtis,” said the Curate,
-with a smile.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, I didn’t mean to be hard,” said Nancy. “You are just as good as
-anyone else. Those that have plenty to live on are the best off, but I
-don’t say that I despise those that have to work. They are good enough
-in their way. It isn’t their fault they were born as they are, nor was
-it any virtue in my husband to be born Arthur Curtis. He couldn’t help
-it, neither can you.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_286" id="page_286">{286}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>Thus Nancy vanquished the adversary at the dinner-table. When the ladies
-went back to the drawing-room, which was not till a late hour, for it
-took a long time to make Nancy understand Mrs. Eagles’ little nods and
-signs from the other end of the table&mdash;but when they got upstairs at
-last, the Curate’s wife benevolently interfered to set Nancy at her ease
-after this mistake.</p>
-
-<p>“I daresay you have been used to the French way of the men coming
-upstairs along with the ladies; and a far better plan it is, I think.”</p>
-
-<p>Nancy looked coolly at the questioner. She was more comfortable when
-Arthur’s eyes were not upon her, watching everything she said and did.</p>
-
-<p>“I didn’t make any mistake,” she said, “but gentlemen’s conversation is
-the best, isn’t it? I wanted to have as much as I could of that. I
-didn’t want to be left to women’s society&mdash;three petticoats together,”
-and she laughed with insolent meaning. Nancy had read a great many
-novels, and she knew that these were the sentiments generally attributed
-to a heroine, and she was determined that there<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_287" id="page_287">{287}</a></span> should be nothing in
-her mind which she would not have the courage to say.</p>
-
-<p>“I hope we shall not be so very tiresome to you,” said Mrs. Eagles, with
-an involuntary glance at the other. “We hear you have been in Paris,
-Mrs. Curtis. You must have enjoyed that. It is always so bright and
-gay.”</p>
-
-<p>“I did not think it was gay at all,” said Nancy, “a very stupid place.
-Everybody talked so queerly, not at all like the French one learns at
-school; and they have such queer dishes, and altogether they are so
-queer. Have you been in Paris? I did not find it at all gay.”</p>
-
-<p>“There are so many things to see,” Mrs. Eagles suggested.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, what sort of things to see! Places where things have happened that
-nobody knows anything about, or if one ever heard of them one has
-forgotten. I don’t call that amusing,” said Nancy. “There are very
-handsome shops, but I did not care much for French taste, do you? they
-are so fond of dingy colours; nothing clean-looking nor bright. I was so
-glad to get back to England.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_288" id="page_288">{288}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>“So was I,” said the Curate’s wife, “when we were abroad; but I thought
-it all so interesting. I did enjoy it when we were there. The very names
-of the places that one had read about in history!”</p>
-
-<p>“I never read history,” said Nancy, carelessly. “I like to see things
-happening now; and nothing seemed to happen, but just hearing about old
-dusty rubbish. Oh, yes, the streets were nice. Arthur says that in
-summer there are races, and amusements, and concerts out of doors, and
-all that sort of thing, but it was too cold when we were there. I went
-to hear the men speaking in Parliament, but it was dull; what is the
-good of listening to long speeches? One of Arthur’s friends took us&mdash;Sir
-John Denham&mdash;you may have heard of him. He was always offering us boxes
-for the theatre, but that was dull too.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am afraid you were difficult to please,” said Mrs. Eagles; but the
-Curate’s wife began to listen with a certain interest. It is always
-pleasant to hear familiarly about the Sir Johns of this world.</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, they all said I was difficult to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_289" id="page_289">{289}</a></span> please,” said Nancy, sweeping
-out of the chair she had just chosen, and nearly knocking down a small
-table on which stood a lamp. “Did you get your furniture from town, Mrs
-Eagles? Did you have one of the tip-top upholsterers to do it, or did
-you pick up things cheap?”</p>
-
-<p>“I am afraid we tried as much as we could to pick up things cheap,” said
-Mrs. Eagles, restraining the inclination to laugh which was gaining upon
-her. The other young woman was listening anxiously, seeing no fun in it,
-and their entertainer thought she liked Mrs. Arthur best.</p>
-
-<p>“I thought so,” said Nancy, calmly, fixing her eyes upon an Italian
-cabinet which was the pride of the house, “but I should just put my
-house into the hands of some tip-top man. I don’t like making up with
-part old and part new. I shall have everything of the best and the
-newest fashion,” she said, looking round with a delightful glow of
-complaisant superiority. But then she was Sir John Curtis’s
-daughter-in-law, and Mrs. Eagles was but a schoolmaster’s wife.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_290" id="page_290">{290}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XIV" id="CHAPTER_XIV"></a>CHAPTER XIV.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">“P</span>ARTY! it was no party at all!” said Nancy, “I have just been giving
-Arthur a piece of my mind. If he thinks I am going to take the trouble
-to have a dress made, and go out among folks I don’t know, to meet the
-Curate and his wife! why, we are just as good as they are! or rather, I
-should say, a deal better.” She was sitting over the fire next morning,
-by no means pleased with her entertainment. Now, indeed, was the time
-when she felt it most&mdash;for it had been sweet to think of dazzling her
-mother and sisters with an account of the grand ladies of the Green; and
-there was nothing now to comment upon, save poor little Mrs. Curate in
-her muslin frock! Arthur was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_291" id="page_291">{291}</a></span> in the room behind, shut off with folding
-doors from this; and she spoke loud that he might have the benefit of
-her remarks.</p>
-
-<p>“The Curate!” said Mrs. Bates, “my dear, it’s no compliment, it’s an
-insult to ask you; as if you are not good enough to meet the best.”</p>
-
-<p>“That is just what I said. I tell Arthur, if he were to stick up for me
-as he ought, nobody would dare to treat me like that. I consider,” said
-Nancy, “that we paid those Eagles a great compliment going; and to meet
-the Curate! as if we were not good enough to sit down with the finest
-folks in this wretched little hole of a place.”</p>
-
-<p>“The Curate is a very nice young man,” said Sarah Jane. “I should not
-mind him a bit. <i>I</i> call him handsome; but then he’s married,” she added
-with lessened satisfaction. “And so are you married, so it comes to the
-same thing. I dare say they thought as you were both young couples&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I wish you would think a little what you’re saying,” said Nancy. “Me!
-and<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_292" id="page_292">{292}</a></span> her! a bit of a girl in white muslin! with a hundred and fifty a
-year, at the outside, to live on; and obliged to work hard among the
-poor, as hard as if she was a curate too&mdash;and me!”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes, indeed, there is no comparison,” said Mrs. Bates. “For shame,
-Sarah Jane! But, Nancy, you mustn’t forget that your sister has chosen
-her lot very different. John Raisins is an excellent young man; but he
-can’t open the doors of high life to her, as Arthur can open them to
-you. And it’s best that she should make up her mind to what she can
-have&mdash;not hanker after what she can’t. It’s very different, my darling
-child, with you.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am sure I don’t know if it’s different,” said Nancy. “He hasn’t
-opened many doors to me yet, and I think he’d shut your door if he
-could, which is the only one that’s left. Oh, why do girls marry? they
-are a deal better, if they could only think it, at home.” And with this
-Nancy began to cry.</p>
-
-<p>Arthur heard everything in the next<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_293" id="page_293">{293}</a></span> room. He had himself felt the
-change in his position sorely on the previous night; and Mr. Eagles’
-sharp, yet somewhat mournful adjurations to him not to lose his time, to
-go on with his work, to do something, had intensified the effect. He had
-come upstairs early enough to hear the style of Nancy’s conversation
-with the two ladies, and this also had touched him deeply. What is more
-painful than to see those whom we love giving what, to our eyes, is a
-false representation of themselves to the outside world, which does not
-know them? Arthur felt this tingle to his very finger-points&mdash;a painful
-shame; her foolish rudeness, and the wrong which she did herself by this
-misrepresentation had made him miserable. If they could but see her as
-he knew her&mdash;as she was on other occasions? This, he said to himself,
-was not Nancy; it was a foolish braggart of the village, the type of the
-Bates family, not his wife, who was as much above the Bates in fine
-taste and perception as she was in beauty. To be sure, her taste had not
-lately told<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_294" id="page_294">{294}</a></span> for very much. But that had been the influence of the
-uncomfortable position in which she had felt herself, or of her
-connections, whom she had so unfortunately insisted on coming back to.
-The pain had been exquisite with which Arthur watched his bride through
-this first appearance in society. It brought back to him the feelings
-which he had tried to forget, with which he had come in upon the violent
-termination of her interview with Mrs. Anthony Curtis. Was there nothing
-he could do, or say, which would persuade her that this was not the way
-to meet strangers who might turn out to be friends? He was sitting
-unhappy enough over his fire, having taken out a book or two, which lay
-on the table beside the “Times,” the usual occupation of his aimless
-morning. He had been trying to “read” as Mr. Eagles understood reading;
-but what were Demosthenes and Cicero to him? He could not go back now,
-and toil over the intricacies of language and argument which wanted all
-his attention ceaselessly, with happy<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_295" id="page_295">{295}</a></span> ease of mind, not with painful
-pre-occupation of it, as he had pursued those studies in their earlier
-stages. He had never been a hard student, and why should he read now?
-What good would it do him? Would all the reading in the world, or his
-degree, when he had taken it, restore him to the world in which his wife
-could not accompany him, and would not try to accompany him, and where
-he could not go without her? He had been sitting dreamily over the fire,
-thinking it all over. The vague plan in his mind had been when Nancy was
-a little better prepared for it, a little more likely to incline in her
-own mind towards it, and willing to try to make the experiment
-successful, to take her home and present her to his father and mother,
-hoping that the surprise and the pleasure of his own return might
-procure them a welcome; this is what he had thought of even when he had
-written formal letters to Sir John, and those brief notes to Lucy or his
-mother, in which there was no reference to Nancy. When he could get her
-guided to that point<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_296" id="page_296">{296}</a></span>&mdash;when he could feel that she could bear the trial,
-then to go. It had been his hope all through, a something vaguely looked
-forward to, though never brought down to any settled moment of time.
-But, alas! it had receded before him point by point. Nancy was not
-willing to do anything to please. She was of opinion that by herself,
-without any effort, she ought to rule easily over a subject world. She
-felt herself&mdash;not as he did, to be upon the painful threshold of an
-unexplored country, full of perils, in which all her efforts were needed
-to find herself a place&mdash;but rather to have conquered all that could be
-put in her way and attained every object&mdash;with the exception of the
-homage of those “stuck up” and disagreeable people, who were envious of
-her, and therefore would not pay her the attention to which she had a
-right, and whom Nancy would scorn to do anything to conciliate. What a
-difference between their points of view! And he who ought to have been
-the strongest, who was infinitely better educated, and more reasonable
-than Nancy, he was<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_297" id="page_297">{297}</a></span> powerless to convey any other conviction to her
-mind; although she succeeded in agitating his with all sorts of tumults,
-with shame that she should show her worse qualities, and earn the
-disapproval she incurred&mdash;yet with hot resentment towards those who
-disapproved of her. Such sentiments are not unusual in human bosoms.
-Husbands feel so for their wives, and wives for their husbands, and
-parents for their children. Why will they show themselves at their worst
-to make strangers laugh, or wonder, or despise; and at the same time,
-how do they dare, these strangers, to despise, or laugh, or wonder? A
-more painful conflict of feeling cannot be.</p>
-
-<p>This was what Arthur was thinking, sitting drearily, not among the ruins
-of his domestic happiness, but before the sunny, common-place, too
-trimly new and flimsy altar of those capricious deities who rule the
-hearth. He had not yet been six months married: but how the bloom had
-gone off all his hopes, and with how little confidence he regarded the
-future, which<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_298" id="page_298">{298}</a></span> once had seemed to him so bright! And as he sat there,
-with his books thrown down at his elbow, and the “Times” thrust away
-from him upon the table, with a sort of loathing in his mind both of the
-studies which could now, he thought, do him no good if he returned to
-them, and of the public life, once certain, which now seemed to have
-become impossible and undesirable, he heard Mrs. Bates and Sarah Jane
-come in and the conversation that followed. Even now Arthur had sense
-enough (and it was creditable to him) to throw himself into no vulgar
-vituperation of his mother-in-law. The woman was well enough; she was
-kind, and almost fierce in independence, taking nothing from him, giving
-not receiving hospitality, and in no way disposed to encourage his wife
-in anything disagreeable to him. It was not Mrs. Bates that was in
-fault, but Nancy herself&mdash;she who had seemed to him such a lily of grace
-and sweetness among all these common-place people. She was so still, he
-believed; she was not like them, who were natural to their sphere, and
-suggested<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_299" id="page_299">{299}</a></span> nothing better. He was faithful notwithstanding all
-imperfections to his first ideal of her; but her words thrilled through
-and through him, scarring him as with burning arrows. “He had not opened
-any doors to her. Oh, why did girls marry!” was this what his wife asked
-after five months of marriage with him? Arthur’s veins seemed to fill
-full as if some essence of pain had been poured into them. He darted up
-overcome by sharp misery and shame, and a passionate resentment which he
-could not restrain. It took him but a moment to throw open the folding
-doors. If one minute more had elapsed, it would have brought a second
-thought, but there was no interval in which this was possible. He threw
-open the door and stood looking at her, for the moment too tremulous and
-agitated to speak. She had put shame upon him before those women who
-were the only visitors she cared for. When she saw him, Nancy jumped up
-too and confronted him.</p>
-
-<p>“Well?” she said, loudly, with a sharp and tremulous voice of
-interrogation. What had he to say for himself? She had<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_300" id="page_300">{300}</a></span> said nothing
-which she was not ready to stand to, which she would not defend with all
-her powers. No one had ever known Nancy to flinch. However hot and hasty
-had been her assertions, however lightly said, she had always stood up
-for them; and to such a palpable challenge and trumpet call to conflict,
-it was not likely she would give in now.</p>
-
-<p>He stood and looked at her for a moment almost wavering. It was not the
-first time she had said such things, why should he resent it so much
-more than usual?</p>
-
-<p>“Did you mean that?” he said. “Do you really think that I have closed
-doors but opened none, and that girls would not marry if they knew&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“I said it, therefore I must have meant it,” cried Nancy, with a flush
-of angry red. “If you sit and listen to what women are saying! But I
-never say anything I will not stand to. Yes: what door have you opened
-to me, Arthur? it was mother’s words first. Not your father and
-mother’s, which was the first to<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_301" id="page_301">{301}</a></span> be thought of, nor any of your
-friends’; but mother’s has always been open to you.”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, hush, hush!” cried Mrs. Bates. “Oh, children, you don’t know what
-you’re doing. Why should you quarrel? Nancy, hold your tongue&mdash;you’ll be
-sorry after that you ever said a word.”</p>
-
-<p>“Not I!” cried Nancy. “I am not one to bottle things up. I’ll say it out
-plain before you both, and you can be my witness, mother. When I knew
-Arthur first, I never thought what he was. Gentleman or poor man it was
-all one to me. He was my fancy, and that was all I thought of. When that
-man came, that Durant, then I began to see what I was bringing on me;
-but it was too late to draw back. And I said to myself, I’d let him see
-it wasn’t his money I wanted, and that I’d never kootoo to one of his
-grand friends. And I never have,” she cried, with angry energy, “and I
-never will. You’ve opened no doors to me&mdash;nor I don’t want you to; but
-you shan’t think that it’s been a grand thing for me to marry you,
-neither you nor anyone belong<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_302" id="page_302">{302}</a></span>ing to you. It hasn’t. You’d separate me
-from my own people if you could, and you don’t give me any other; and I
-say again, if girls only knew&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“Mrs. Bates,” said Arthur, with trembling lips. “I do not think I have
-tried to separate your daughter from you. I may defend myself so far as
-this; and I had hoped that some time or other she would have gone with
-me to knock at that door which you upbraid me with not having opened.
-But what am I to do if, as she tells you, she never will? she never has
-shown the slightest inclination to do so, that is the truth indeed.”</p>
-
-<p>“It was them that should have come to her&mdash;that’s what she thinks,” said
-Mrs. Bates, “and she’s hot-tempered. You know she’s hot-tempered. She
-don’t mean half of what she says. Oh, don’t now, don’t quarrel,
-children!” cried the mother. In the <i>mêlée</i> Sarah Jane thought she might
-as well take a part too.</p>
-
-<p>“I don’t wonder that Nancy was affronted. That stuck up Miss Curtis
-coming with her ‘dear Arthur’s,’ and her ‘dear brother’s,’ and taking no
-notice, no more<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_303" id="page_303">{303}</a></span> than if we were cabbages, of us; but as for Nancy not
-thinking of who he was, and that it was a grand marriage, oh, didn’t she
-just! You may tell that to those that will believe it, you had better
-not tell it to me.”</p>
-
-<p>“You nasty, spiteful, tale-telling disagreeable thing!” cried Nancy,
-furious, turning upon her sister, who laughed in her face, and ran round
-in fright, which was half real, half pretended, to the other side of the
-round table. Arthur stood aghast while this playful episode, so much out
-of keeping with his feelings, went on. It was out of keeping to Nancy
-too. No smile came upon her face. “I thought it was a great marriage I
-was making, if you please,” she said, after she too had paused with the
-sense of a crisis, and stared at her sister’s pretended sportiveness. No
-smile relaxed the lips of either of the contending pair. “I thought so,
-you may say it. I thought I should be a lady, and mix with the best in
-the land; what’s come of it? Have I ever set foot among the folks you
-belong to, or their<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_304" id="page_304">{304}</a></span> kind? No, I said the truth, there’s no door been
-open to me&mdash;the other way! You would shut mother’s door upon me if you
-could, you would keep me away from my own folks&mdash;the only friends I
-have. But you’ll never do it, Arthur, you may as well give it up at
-once. I’ll stick to them that’s good to me, and I won’t stir a step to
-court your people, nor to curry favour&mdash;no, not if you would ask me on
-your knees. I wrote to my lady, because I promised, but my lady wouldn’t
-make much of my letter; and never will I make myself so cheap again,
-never if I should live hundreds of years.”</p>
-
-<p>“Nancy, Nancy, my child!” cried her mother, “you must not make rash
-vows. You don’t know what you’ll do till the time comes. She’s
-hot-tempered. That’s all about. And if Arthur will say he is sorry&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“What shall I say I am sorry for, Mrs. Bates?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, now this is too bad. Don’t you see it will please her? She always
-was a bit unreasonable and high-tempered. You<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_305" id="page_305">{305}</a></span> can’t help your temper,
-it’s a thing that’s born with you. Say you’re sorry, and smooth her down
-a little, and she’ll soon come round and promise anything you like. I
-know my Nancy. She is hot-headed, and she’s contrairy, but her heart’s
-in the right place,” said the mother. Mrs. Bates was frightened by the
-contraction in Arthur’s face.</p>
-
-<p>“I have nothing to be sorry for,” he said. “I have made no accusations
-against anyone; but I cannot always give in. I have come here to please
-her, and she is not pleased. Let us go away. Let Nancy second me in my
-attempt to get back into a natural life. It is not natural that I should
-be cooped up here, doing nothing, wasting my time. I must get out of it
-somehow. Either you will go with me, Nancy, or I must go alone. I cannot
-go on in this way any longer.”</p>
-
-<p>“You shan’t then!” she cried, with redoubled heat. “Go&mdash;wherever you
-like for me. Oh, yes, go back to your family that you’re so fond of. You
-and your friends do nothing but despise me, even a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_306" id="page_306">{306}</a></span> bit of a
-schoolmaster’s wife! Don’t hold me, don’t keep me back, mamma. I’ll not
-be left, whatever happens; it’s me that will go, and he can do what he
-pleases. Don’t I tell you! Nobody shall hold me, nobody shall keep me in
-one place rather than another against my will. But I shan’t stay to be
-forsaken. Oh, don’t think it, Arthur! It’s me that will go.”</p>
-
-<p>“I have said nothing about forsaking you,” he said; but he was wearied
-out with such struggles, and he made no appeal to her to stay. This
-decided Nancy. She rushed impetuously from the room, leaving them all
-staring at each other, without giving a word of explanation. Mrs. Bates,
-whose face was somewhat blank, called to Sarah Jane to follow her
-sister, and herself turned to Arthur with an attempt at a smile.</p>
-
-<p>“It will soon be over now,” she said. “You mustn’t be hard upon her,
-Arthur. For all we know, there may be something working with her that
-she can’t resist. Young women have queer ways, and you can’t tell what’s
-the cause of it till after.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_307" id="page_307">{307}</a></span> Don’t you mind; go back to your books,
-there’s a dear, and take no notice. She’ll have a good cry, and she’ll
-come to herself, and you mustn’t mind.”</p>
-
-<p>It was not this address that quieted him; but what could he do? The
-position was so impossible that he was glad to withdraw from it. It was
-worse than ever, now that one of these altercations had taken place
-before witnesses; he went back sadly to his fire and sat down again,
-blaming himself for the exasperation which had made him speak. Probably
-Mrs. Bates was right, and it was all over. She might come downstairs,
-looking as if nothing had happened, or she might come down penitent, as
-she sometimes did; and this got the better of him at once. But anyhow,
-he would not insist upon continuing the altercation, he was too glad
-that it was over. He sat down, sighing, and drearily drew towards him
-the Demosthenes that lay on the table. How unimportant all that dead
-eloquence was, side by side with living passion! The petty stir of
-domestic dissensions was too near to let him hear<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_308" id="page_308">{308}</a></span> the ring of the old
-disputations, the flow and flood of the old eloquence. Nancy’s voice, in
-all the warmth of passion, rang more clear on the ear than the greatest
-of orators. He sat with his nerves all thrilling, and his mind vainly
-striving to get a little instruction through his eyes. Those eyes read
-easily enough, hot though they were with the strain they had been
-subjected to, but the mind received no impression. It was more busy in
-his ears, listening to what was going on. He heard the hasty sound of
-Nancy’s footstep upstairs; then he heard her come down, and there were
-voices in the little hall, confused and undertoned, one voice mingling
-with another; and then there was the sound of the hall-door closing. He
-sat after this with a strange sensation, as if that sound of the door
-had jarred him in every limb. He did not seem able to move to see what
-it was. But the stillness that fell upon the little house was ominous.
-Instead of the excited voices which had been audible a little while ago,
-filling the place with contention, what a strange deadly<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_309" id="page_309">{309}</a></span> sort of quiet!
-Arthur was wearied out. So many vicissitudes of feeling had not occurred
-in all his previous life as had come to him within these five months
-past. Happiness, delight, disappointment, vexation, irritated nerves,
-wounded affection, mortified pride, and that combination of impassioned
-love and disenchanted vision which is of all things in the world the
-hardest to bear. How different, how different from his anticipations!
-How lightly the lovers’ quarrels had gone off, quenched in tears and
-smiles, and mutual confessions and warmer fondness. “The falling out of
-faithful friends renewing is of love.” But then that must not go too
-far, or continue too long, and the shiver of hot shame which she had
-brought over him so often, the uncertainty as to how she would acquit
-herself which was always present, the passionate mortification with
-which he had seen other people’s smiles, or heard other people’s
-comments, all these were very different from the lovers’ quarrels. He
-held his Demosthenes steadily in his hand, and attempted to read. How
-far off it<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_310" id="page_310">{310}</a></span> was! and the other so near; and of all the things that can
-occupy a man’s ear, what is so absorbing as the dead silence of vacancy
-after a struggle which has threatened everything, and had ended
-in&mdash;what? Nothing, silence, vacancy, probably bringing no consequence at
-all.</p>
-
-<p>Nancy did not come in at the hour of luncheon. He waited for her,
-refusing that refreshment until it was clear she did not mean to come
-back. Then he swallowed a glass of wine hastily, and prepared in his
-turn to go out&mdash;not to seek her. He was resolved that this time, at
-least, she should be left in tranquillity, left to do what pleased her
-best. He had just gone into the hall to get his hat when some one came
-to the door. How his heart jumped! and how sick it grew again when it
-turned out to be only Mr. Eagles, who had come to make a serious
-remonstrance.</p>
-
-<p>“You oughtn’t to lose your time,” the “coach” said, bending his brows.
-“If you can’t do anything better, you should come back to me. The old
-set are still hard at work, and there are two or three new men<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_311" id="page_311">{311}</a></span> that
-will make their mark. It can’t be lively here, doing nothing. Why,
-you’ve nothing to do, not even fishing or football, eh? I never hear of
-you playing football. What do you do?”</p>
-
-<p>“Nothing,” said Arthur; “and I can’t say I like it; but what’s the good?
-I am too old for football and that sort of thing.”</p>
-
-<p>“Ah, four-and-twenty, that’s a great age; but I know what you mean.
-Married! there’s the rub&mdash;feel yourself too grand for it. But look here,
-Curtis. A man can’t live with nothing to do.”</p>
-
-<p>“The wonder to me is how long a man can live with nothing to do,” said
-Arthur. “But as I say, what’s the good? I’m too old now to care about my
-degree. What does it matter, one way or the other? I have got beyond
-that stage.”</p>
-
-<p>“Married, again!” said Mr. Eagles; “that is what drives me wild&mdash;not the
-fact, which is harmless enough; but Lord, how grand you all think
-yourselves! However, it don’t last. You can’t feed upon strawberries and
-cream all your lives, my dear fellow. You must buckle to at some<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_312" id="page_312">{312}</a></span>thing,
-or you will be nobody. I don’t like anyone who has passed through my
-hands, to be nobody. You had better read, Curtis, you had better read.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said Arthur, vaguely.</p>
-
-<p>He was quite willing to pledge himself to anything so long as Mr. Eagles
-would but go away, and leave him to listen and make sure if anyone came:
-or get out into the air and distract his mind from listening. One or the
-other, he felt, he must do.</p>
-
-<p>“The best thing will be to come back to me,” said Mr. Eagles; “at least
-you won’t lose your time completely, and you’ll find it a relief. Too
-many sweets will pall upon you; take them in measure and they are
-delightful enough. Come, Curtis, I make you an offer I needn’t say, for
-you know, that I don’t require to go hunting for pupils; but, my good
-fellow, for your own sake you had better come back.”</p>
-
-<p>“Yes,” said Arthur, with a sudden lightening and ease which diffused
-itself all over him. There was another sound at the door; and this time
-it must, there<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_313" id="page_313">{313}</a></span> could be no doubt, be Nancy. This relief made it
-possible for him to listen. His countenance cleared. He had not really
-known what his fears were, but he felt the vague greatness of them in
-this sense of immediate ease and relief.</p>
-
-<p>But all the blood rushed to his head again, and the pulses began to beat
-in his brow when the door opened, and not Nancy appeared, but the maid,
-showing in the unexpected, and in the circumstances, alarming figure of
-Durant.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_314" id="page_314">{314}</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><a name="CHAPTER_XV" id="CHAPTER_XV"></a>CHAPTER XV.</h2>
-
-<p class="nind"><span class="letra">“T</span>HERE is something wrong at home!”</p>
-
-<p>This most natural of all the ideas with which foreboding human nature
-sees a sudden arrival, sprang to Arthur’s lips almost in spite of
-himself. He was already so torn by anxiety and alarm that it seemed
-perfectly appropriate that other griefs should come to distract him, and
-he scarcely understood the eager “No” with which Durant replied. It was
-not till they were seated together, one at each side of the fire&mdash;Mr.
-Eagles having taken his departure&mdash;that Arthur realized that the burning
-confusion and pain in his head arose from the fact that his wife had
-gone out in a fit of passion a few hours ago and had not yet come back,
-not so very serious a<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_315" id="page_315">{315}</a></span> matter&mdash;and was not owing to any suddenly heard
-of calamity, at home.</p>
-
-<p>“No, things are all well, but I have something to say to you, Arthur,”
-said Durant. And he began a long commission, which Arthur heard vaguely
-and did not understand. It was to the effect that the post of attaché to
-a foreign embassy which the young man had wished for, was open to him,
-and this was coupled with overtures from the parents whose hearts were
-yearning over Arthur. Probably there is after all nothing so well
-calculated as long silence to wear out the indignation and resentment of
-fathers and mothers. However hot these may be at first, the blank misery
-of knowing nothing about a child beloved, damps and quenches the ardour
-of offence, and in a great many cases the cruel son or daughter has his
-or her will out of the sheer intolerableness of this break, and anxiety
-of the tender hearts on whom this unfeeling passiveness tells more
-severely than any more actively offensive treatment. This had been
-working for all these months at Oakley. Hearing<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_316" id="page_316">{316}</a></span> nothing! it was almost
-worse than death, of which this miserable certainty that we shall hear
-no more of those we have lost, is the greatest bitterness&mdash;tempered,
-however, with the counterbalancing certainty which alone makes us
-capable of bearing it, that human events are over to them, and that none
-of the calamities with which we are familiar can happen to those who are
-beyond the veil. But the Curtises knew that anything or everything might
-be happening to Arthur, while they had no news of him, and were as
-ignorant of all his ways as if he had been dead. And when the
-information came of this vacancy which he had desired so much, the
-opportunity was not to be resisted. They had said nothing about it to
-each other for twenty-four hours, and then had burst forth the universal
-feeling. Let him accept this, and let him come home and bring his wife,
-if no better might be. She had been insolent, what did it matter? She
-was the price that must be paid for Arthur; and the moment it became
-possible to have Arthur, they all felt that they were too<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_317" id="page_317">{317}</a></span> ready to pay
-any price. Lady Curtis had telegraphed for Durant when the general
-conviction burst forth, and the household at Oakley were now full of
-excitement, already beginning to prepare rooms for Arthur and his wife,
-and forgetting all other feelings in the pleasure of seeing their boy
-again. Durant had lost no time. He was too faithful a friend to consider
-that Arthur had all but repulsed his friendly offices after the
-marriage, and that not a word of recollection had reached him from
-Underhayes during the entire winter. He went down to Oakley at once to
-receive his commission, and here he was with full credentials. The
-father and mother made no conditions. If Arthur accepted this
-appointment, which was the best thing he could do, let him come home and
-bring his wife. That was all. And it may be supposed that Durant,
-feeling himself the bearer of proposals both generous and tender, was
-startled and affronted by the confused and pre-occupied way in which
-Arthur seemed to listen, not understanding him, starting at every sound<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_318" id="page_318">{318}</a></span>
-outside, continually disturbed, and with a look of nervous agitation
-which had evidently nothing to do with the question in hand.</p>
-
-<p>“Do you not understand me?” he cried at last, indignant: and then the
-rising excitement in Arthur’s mind burst forth.</p>
-
-<p>“Durant, my wife has gone away to her mother’s. I&mdash;I can’t answer all at
-once.”</p>
-
-<p>“What do you mean, Arthur? How disturbed you look! Has anything
-happened?” cried Durant. Arthur made an effort to recover himself. He
-laughed tremulously.</p>
-
-<p>“You know me, Lewis,” he said, “I am a&mdash;nervous sort of fellow, though I
-don’t look it perhaps.”</p>
-
-<p>“I know. There <i>is</i> something the matter, Arthur. What is it? Is your
-wife ill? What has happened?”</p>
-
-<p>“Well&mdash;nothing has happened. I have been living rather a solitary life,
-and one gets irritable&mdash;and easily put out.”</p>
-
-<p>“You have had a&mdash;difficulty, as the Americans call it&mdash;a lover’s
-quarrel,” said<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_319" id="page_319">{319}</a></span> Durant, with a laugh, which was far from according with
-his feelings.</p>
-
-<p>“That is just it. No, not a lover’s quarrel, but a difficulty. We see
-things from different points of view; and I don’t know how she will like
-this, I must wait. I cannot decide until I know.”</p>
-
-<p>“Arthur, it is all very well, all very right to consult your wife; but
-you can’t think of neglecting such an opportunity. It is altogether
-unconditional. They will receive her, as if she were a Duke’s daughter;
-you know, when once they have made up their minds to it, there will be
-no stint, she will have no reason to complain of her reception.”</p>
-
-<p>Arthur’s head was turned to the door.</p>
-
-<p>“You will think me silly,” he said; “a fool! but I cannot help it. One
-thing I will tell you, Durant; I will go to Vienna. I don’t think it’s
-too late; five months is not long enough at my age to put a man out
-altogether, is it? But as for Nancy, I can’t answer. If she will go with
-me home, if she will go with me to Vienna, I can’t tell you. We must see
-her first. She is at her mother’s<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_320" id="page_320">{320}</a></span>&mdash;”</p>
-
-<p>“You don’t mean to say that she has left you, Arthur?”</p>
-
-<p>“Oh no, no,” he said; “that is rather too absurd, the most ridiculous
-idea. Come along, Durant, let us get out and stretch our legs. I have
-not had a real walk for ages. Of course, as it’s Saturday you are going
-to stay till Monday? That is right, that is a true pleasure. She is
-at&mdash;her mother’s,” he added, changing the subject abruptly, and dropping
-his voice.</p>
-
-<p>What did it mean? Durant could not tell. He had not disliked Nancy;
-though she had defied him too, it had been done in a way which did not
-offend the young man. He had admired her, even when she attacked himself
-personally; and he had been inclined to think as Arthur did, that she
-was a lily among those weeds. He had not been surprised at his friend’s
-infatuation. He had thought her a beautiful high-spirited girl, full of
-a generous if over vehement disdain for the conventional judgment that
-made her appear an unfit wife for a man of worldly position superior to
-her<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_321" id="page_321">{321}</a></span> own. Her threat to give up her lover, and her counter decision to
-marry him disinherited, in order to show his friends how little she
-cared about his money, were fresh in his mind. And he had liked Nancy;
-though he had been formally on the other side as Lady Curtis’s agent, he
-had never really been unfriendly; he remembered well his old
-difficulties when he had tried to persuade Arthur to relinquish his
-faith to this girl who trusted in him, and with what a sense of relief
-he had found that all his arguments were vain, and Arthur’s honour and
-love invulnerable. He was mystified and perplexed, as well as grieved,
-by Arthur’s painful pre-occupation now, not knowing what could have
-happened. They went out in the teeth of the March wind, which blew sharp
-and keen along the suburban roads.</p>
-
-<p>“I have not had anything to call a walk for weeks,” Arthur said, with a
-feverish look of eagerness, as they reached the fresh breadth of the
-common, with the green fields and country paths beyond. The hedgerows
-were bristling with buds,<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_322" id="page_322">{322}</a></span> the skies softly blue, where they could be
-seen through the masses of cloud that swept across the great vault
-overhead. The young man sped along like a loosened greyhound, and his
-friend, fresh from the confinement of town, had hard ado to follow him.
-He talked little as he went along. Was he walking so fast to escape some
-care that weighed upon him? If it was not for that there was no other
-motive, for the walk was without any object. Now and then he would break
-forth for a moment about this prospect which Durant had come to offer
-him. “It would be the best thing,” he would say, “far the best thing. I
-must get rid of this one way or other.” Then he would be silent, and
-after a mile or so say to himself again, “Yes, <i>this</i> will not do&mdash;I
-must go, it is plain. Going may be salvation.” Durant did not know what
-irrepressible cares were plucking at his friend’s skirts and compelling
-him to these resolutions; and he himself talked calmly of Oakley, of the
-desires of the family there, and the haste they were in to send him off
-upon his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_323" id="page_323">{323}</a></span> mission, and all the anticipations of Arthur’s return which
-they had already begun to entertain. At this Arthur did nothing but
-shake his head, “Will <i>she</i> consent?” he said once. Would Nancy consent?
-was that what he meant? Consent! what excuse could she have not to
-consent? They walked far, at a great pace, and Durant was almost worn
-out. He lagged behind his friend as he approached the house. It was
-still all dark, one faint gleam of firelight in the drawing-room
-contending feebly with the grey of the twilight, no one at the window
-looking out for them, no lamp lighted. “Has Mrs. Curtis returned?”
-Arthur asked of the maid, as they went on, and was answered No. They
-went into her part of the house, the white little drawing-room, where
-indeed there were no pretty signs of Nancy’s presence, no work or books
-to mar the trimness of the place, but all the chairs set against the
-wall, and the fire flickering dimly in the grate. And the dinner hour
-came without any appearance of Nancy. Arthur got more and more agitated
-as the<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_324" id="page_324">{324}</a></span> time went on&mdash;and Durant more and more surprised.</p>
-
-<p>“Is your wife dining out?” he said, when he found they were about to sit
-down at the table without her. Arthur made no distinct answer; he said
-after a while, as if he had then heard the question for the first
-time&mdash;“She is at her mother’s.” He did not change his dress before
-dinner, or show any recollection of the need of such preliminaries, but
-sat over the fire, vaguely replying now and then when his friend spoke
-to him, and starting at every sound.</p>
-
-<p>“Shall you not wait for Mrs. Curtis?” Durant said, as Arthur took him
-into the little dining-room.</p>
-
-<p>“She is at her mother’s,” was all Arthur replied. Altogether it was very
-mysterious, and Durant could not but feel that there was mischief in the
-air.</p>
-
-<p>At last when the clock had struck ten, and there was no appearance of
-Nancy, Arthur sprang to his feet. “I must go and fetch her,” he said,
-“this will never do&mdash;this will never do!” Durant took his<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_325" id="page_325">{325}</a></span> hat
-mechanically also, and they walked out without another word into the
-windy night. The sky looked widened and enlarged by the boisterous
-breeze which drove mass after mass of clouds across the blue, and across
-the face of the waning moon, which shone out at intervals only to be
-swallowed up again by those floating vapours. There was a certain hurry,
-and coldness, and agitation in the night. The way from Rose Villas into
-the lighted street of Underhayes was dark, and the alternations of gloom
-and light in the sky made the vision uncertain. Durant could see how
-anxiously his friend peered at all the figures they met on the darkling
-road; but Nancy was not on her way home. They went on in silence to the
-street which Durant remembered perfectly, and to the door, at which
-Arthur left him standing as he went in. He had stood there before, and
-heard the voices in the parlour when he came here first in search of
-Arthur; how strange to come here now in search of Arthur’s runaway wife!
-for this was what it seemed to be now. He could<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_326" id="page_326">{326}</a></span> hear the silence which
-followed Arthur’s entrance&mdash;a pause which was impressive from the
-confusion of voices that had been audible before. “I have come for
-Nancy,” he heard him say.</p>
-
-<p>Arthur had gone in without any question. He had left his friend at the
-door, neither thinking nor caring that some revelation might be made
-which it was better Durant should not hear. He steadied his own
-countenance not to look angry or anxious. “Are you ready?” he said,
-addressing his wife, “I did not think you meant to stay so long.”</p>
-
-<p>“You have not given yourself much trouble to look after me,” said Nancy.
-“No, I am not ready. I don’t mean to go.”</p>
-
-<p>“What does she mean?” he said with a tremble in his voice, turning to
-Mrs. Bates.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Arthur, I don’t know what she means. She is as hot-tempered and as
-contrary as possible. She takes up things quite wrong. You never meant
-to drive her away, did you? You had not thought of leaving her&mdash;tell her
-for heaven’s sake! She will not listen to me.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_327" id="page_327">{327}</a></span>”</p>
-
-<p>There was no one in the parlour but Mrs. Bates and Sarah Jane. It was a
-night when the tax-collector was busy adding up one of his lists of
-defaulters, and it was the same party which had witnessed the dispute of
-the morning which was assembled now. That was one reason of the sudden
-quiet; the other was, the awe and horror that had come over the family
-at Nancy’s obstinate resolution to stay at home, and return to her
-husband no more&mdash;a resolution which he had divined, and which had
-weighed on him for the whole day.</p>
-
-<p>“I&mdash;leave her!” said Arthur, “what did I say that looked like leaving
-her? Nancy, come home. I have been very unhappy, not knowing why you
-stayed away from me, and now I have something to consult you about. Come
-home.”</p>
-
-<p>“I am at home,” said Nancy, sullenly. “It is no use talking. I have
-taken my resolution. Go away, Arthur, as you said, I mean to stay here.”</p>
-
-<p>“What does she mean?” he cried in dismay.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh! I mean what I say. You told<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_328" id="page_328">{328}</a></span> me you were going. You said I might
-come if I pleased. I&mdash;who hate strangers&mdash;I, after all the slights
-you’ve brought upon me! but that any how you were going. I’ve left for
-good and all. Mother can go and pack up the things, and dismiss the
-servants, and leave you free; but one word’s enough to me, Arthur, you
-shall never have occasion to say another. I don’t budge from here unless
-mother turns me out. And as soon as you please, you can go.”</p>
-
-<p>They all looked at each other&mdash;the others pale, Nancy red with
-excitement and passion.</p>
-
-<p>“You don’t mean this, Nancy,” Arthur said. “You cannot mean, for a hasty
-word, to forsake me; it is not possible. A hasty word! how many have you
-said to me. Come&mdash;come, you are angry; but how little there is to be
-angry about! We have had more serious discussions before,” he added with
-a faint smile, “and you have said much worse things to me.”</p>
-
-<p>“It does not matter what I said, but what you said. No, Arthur, you may
-put<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_329" id="page_329">{329}</a></span> up with whatever you like; but I won’t put up with it,” she said,
-in all the unreasonableness of passion. “You might think it didn’t
-matter what I say; but I think it does matter what you say. No, I am not
-going back. You may talk till you’re sick&mdash;it won’t make any difference
-to me.”</p>
-
-<p>“Nancy! don’t be such a fool,” said Sarah Jane. “Why, only think how
-people will talk. Not six months married, and coming back home! And
-after all the fuss that was made about your marrying, and the grand
-catch we fancied it was. When you come to think of it you can’t be such
-a fool.”</p>
-
-<p>“Nancy&mdash;Nancy, my dear, you’re unreasonable! indeed you’re
-unreasonable&mdash;when Arthur says he did not mean it.”</p>
-
-<p>“Nancy!” cried the young man, “why do you torment me like this&mdash;what
-have I done to you? You make my life a constant contention. We never
-have a quiet moment. Have I failed in love to you&mdash;have I not thought of
-you in everything?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_330" id="page_330">{330}</a></span> You will drive me mad, I think. Have I ever
-neglected you, or injured you?”</p>
-
-<p>“You said you would leave me,” said Nancy, “that’s enough, I told you at
-the time. Oh! never a man in this world shall say that he has forsaken
-<i>me</i>! I am not one that will be forsaken. Go, Arthur, go where you
-please. I shall stay here.”</p>
-
-<p>“Nancy, Lewis Durant is at the door. He has brought a message of the
-greatest importance from Oakley.”</p>
-
-<p>“Lewis Durant!” she started to her feet with fresh impetuosity, “that
-was all that was wanted. Do you think I will stay behind to see Lewis
-Durant&mdash;to let him spy and tell my Lady. No, mamma, no! That’s decided
-me. Good night to you all. You may do what you please&mdash;but here I’ll
-stay.”</p>
-
-<p>And Nancy darted out of the midst of them, quick as thought, while they
-all stood stupefied, and rushed out of the room and upstairs, where, as
-they listened they heard her quick steps overhead thrilling through the
-little house, and the quick closing and locking of the door.<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_331" id="page_331">{331}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>The shock affected the three in different ways. Sarah Jane began to cry.
-Mrs. Bates, trembling, went up to Arthur and caught him by the arm. This
-strange, terrible incident changed him from her son-in-law, with whom
-she was familiar, into her daughter’s judge, before whom she trembled.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, Mr. Curtis, Mr. Curtis!” she said. “The girl’s wild and out of her
-senses. Don’t think too badly of her. It’s like a madness. Oh, forgive
-her!” The mother was in too deadly earnest to be able for tears.</p>
-
-<p>“What am I to do?” said Arthur, overcome, with a gasp as if for breath.</p>
-
-<p>“Oh, my dear, my dear! Leave her; she is out of her senses, she is out
-of her senses, she is out of her mind! Leave her to me, and I’ll bring
-her to you to-morrow to beg your pardon. I will, Arthur, if anything in
-this world can do it,” Mrs. Bates said, clasping her hands.</p>
-
-<p>“There is nothing else to be done,” said Arthur. He was as pale as
-death. He seemed to get his breath with difficulty as<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_332" id="page_332">{332}</a></span> he stood there,
-struck with wonder, paralyzed with the sense of impotence in his mind,
-and the dire injury that had been done him. A friend may leave a friend,
-or even a child a parent; but when a wife, a six months’ bride, leaves
-her husband even for a day, even in the house of her father, it is as if
-some horrible convulsion had happened which turns the world upside down.
-He said nothing more to anyone, but went out, and caught at Durant’s arm
-to support him, and walked home under the flying clouds, through the
-stormy, agitated night. The night was like his mind, swept by wild
-thoughts, overclouded by profound glooms. He scarcely said anything to
-Durant, who seemed to divine all that happened, though nothing was said
-to him. It was well he was there. When they went back to the villa, the
-poor little villa, which was at once so desolate and so meaningless
-without Nancy, the young man gave a heavy groan, which seemed to echo
-through the mean little rooms. Could anything change this fact, any
-coming back again, any penitence?<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_333" id="page_333">{333}</a></span> His wife had forsaken him. Nancy had
-gone back to her mother’s. It might be only for a night, but could
-anything change the fact? His life had come to a stop; no making up
-could alter that. As he had been even this morning, he could never be
-again any more.</p>
-
-<p>It was Durant who told that little falsehood to the servants about why
-their mistress stayed away. She was not well, he said, and they need not
-wait up, as it was doubtful whether she would come home. And he stayed
-by Arthur through the long dull hours, hearing in breaks and snatches
-something of the story which poor Arthur felt was now over: how they had
-lived together, and how, according to all he could tell, they had
-parted. When the flood-tides were opened, it relieved Arthur to speak.
-He showed his friend in his despair all that was in his heart, his love
-for Nancy, which was ready to forgive everything, and yet the wounds
-which she had given to him.</p>
-
-<p>“It is not her fault,” he said. “It is the want of training. She has
-never<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_334" id="page_334">{334}</a></span> realised it, what she married for. She thinks it was only to be
-happy, to be loved and flattered, to have everything happy round her.”
-This the poor young fellow said as if it was the best excuse in the
-world. “That is how she has been brought up. It is not her fault. She
-has not considered me, nor that there is a duty; and was I to be the one
-to remind her of her duty, Durant? I did not want her to love me because
-it was her duty. I wanted her to do her duty because of her love,” said
-Arthur, unconsciously antithetical. Durant listened to everything, and
-made few comments. If he said anything in sympathy for his friend which
-meant condemnation of Nancy, Arthur rose up and stopped him. “How can
-you tell how she was aggravated?” he said. It was not till the middle of
-the night that Durant could persuade him to go to bed; and by that time
-the desolateness of the dreary little house without Nancy, which had no
-soul or meaning but Nancy, struck Lewis almost as much as it did Arthur.
-Poor little miserable shell of a place, which had outgrown its sense and
-its use!<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_335" id="page_335">{335}</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Next day was a busy but a miserable day. Durant was at the Bates’ little
-house as soon as it was opened in the morning, hoping that his eloquence
-might be more effectual than that of the poor young husband, and that he
-might be able, through her mother, to induce Nancy to come back. He
-found Mrs. Bates very anxious and tearful, very well disposed, but
-powerless. He gave her a hint of the proposal he had brought from
-Oakley, and of the unconditional surrender of the Curtises, which the
-mother carried to her daughter upstairs, but without any favourable
-issue. Later he came back with Arthur. Nancy kept upstairs, she would
-not show&mdash;and all the household was against her.</p>
-
-<p>“I never held with it,” said the tax-collector. “I told my wife so from
-the first. I never hold with a young woman complaining of her husband.
-Mrs. Bates is too kind a mother, that’s what it is.”</p>
-
-<p>These things penetrated into Arthur’s heart almost unawares; that his
-wife had complained of him all through; that there<span class="pagenum"><a name="page_336" id="page_336">{336}</a></span> had been talk of the
-advantages of the marriage, and that Nancy had hoped to be well off, and
-to make a great match, and had married him with that view. All these
-things sank into his heart. Was this true, or was it all the truth? It
-cannot be said that he believed it, yet it acted upon him as if he had
-believed, bringing a mingled pain and bitterness, against which at this
-moment he was incapable of struggling. All that day long they kept
-coming and going, pleading with her to return; but when another night
-came, and the slow hours dragged through with the same excitements as
-before&mdash;without her, or hope of her&mdash;all sense of possible renewal died
-out of these hasty young hearts, and the severance seemed complete.</p>
-
-<p class="fint">END OF THE SECOND VOLUME.<br /><br /><br />
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