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-The Project Gutenberg eBook, Grey Wethers, by V. (Victoria) Sackville-West
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-Title: Grey Wethers
- A Romantic Novel
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-GREY WETHERS
-
-
- * * * * * *
-
-_By_ V. SACKVILLE-WEST
-
-
-GREY WETHERS
-
-THE HEIR AND OTHER STORIES
-
-CHALLENGE
-
-HERITAGE
-
-KNOLE AND THE SACKVILLES
-
-_New York_:
-_George H. Doran Company_
-
- * * * * * *
-
-
-GREY WETHERS
-
-A Romantic Novel
-
-by
-
-V. SACKVILLE-WEST
-
-
-New [Illustration: Logo] York
-George H. Doran Company
-
-Copyright, 1923,
-by George H. Doran Company
-
-
-[Illustration: Logo]
-
-
-GREY WETHERS. II
-
-Printed in the United States of America
-
-
-
-
- _CLAIRE_
-
- _Ces fantômes charmants que nous croyons à nous..._
-
- _Ils sont là, près de nous, jouant sur notre route;_
- _Ils ne dédaignent pas notre soleil obscur,_
- _Et derrière eux, et sans que leur candeur s’en doute,_
- _Leurs ailes font parfois de l’ombre sur le mur._
-
- _Ils ont ce grand dégout mystérieux de l’âme_
- _Pour notre chair coupable et pour notre destin;_
- _Ils ont, êtres rêveurs qu’un autre azur réclame,_
- _Je ne sais quelle soif de mourir le matin._
- VICTOR HUGO.
-
-
-
-
-GREY WETHERS
-
-PART ONE
-
-
-
-
-GREY WETHERS
-
-
-
-
-_Part One_
-
-
-More than half a century has now elapsed since the events which added
-a new legend to the hard ancient hills lying about Marlborough and
-King’s Avon. The last organised rustic Scouring of the White Horse of
-King’s Avon,--from which occasion these events may properly be said to
-date, although a believer in predestination might be found to contend
-that they dated, indeed, from the very births of Clare Warrener and
-Nicholas Lovel,--that last organised Scouring took place more than
-half a century ago. The White Horse remains, the same gaunt, hoary
-relic; King’s Avon remains, secluded, tragic, rearing its great stones
-within the circle of its strange earthwork; the Downs remain, and every
-winter, now as then, shroud their secrets and the memory of their
-secrets beneath the same mantle of snow away from the speculation of
-the curious. But of Clare Warrener and Nicholas Lovel no trace remains,
-unless indeed they have passed into the wind and become incorporate
-with the intractable spaces and uncompromising heights. A great many
-tales are locally told of them, all too fantastic to be set down in
-print; the chalky soil, so unpropitious to other crops, grew at least
-a rich crop of superstition, especially in an age and district when
-stories of witches and burnings were curiously mingled in the minds
-of the ignorant with the opening of barrows and the fable of British
-princes. So it is not surprising that the disappearance of these two
-persons should have given rise to a jabber of conjecture which rapidly
-came to be explained away by a variety of legends following the line of
-approved local tradition. It is not the business of print to enter into
-these conjectures or their interpretation. It is the business of print
-to set down, in as practical a manner as may be, the circumstances
-leading up to the final catastrophe,--or fulfilment, call it which you
-will, according to the point of view from which you approach it,--and
-to leave the reader to carry on the narrative for himself in the manner
-best suited to his own fancy and requirements.
-
-
-A peculiar silence reigned over the village; no children shouted,
-and no young men or girls passed down the street with that exact air
-of energy and enterprise that youth alone can produce. Somnolence
-predominated; it seemed a village inhabited only by the aged, and by
-those sparsely; a small gaggle of geese quacked and pried with their
-flat beaks along the cobbles; but for them, the cats and the old men
-had the place to themselves. The cats slumbered, curled round in the
-corners of doorsteps, where the sun struck hot on the stone; and on a
-bench outside the Waggon of Hay the four old men sat in a row, leaning
-on their knobly sticks, and holding pewter mugs in their hands. Brown
-old men, brown of hide and brown of garment, so that it was difficult
-to tell where their clothes began or their hands and faces left off.
-Eight boots of similar pattern set squarely side by side on the stones;
-four heads of almost equal similarity nodded together over the pewter,
-sagely and immemorially, for it would be safe to say that those four
-old men of King’s Avon might have been at any moment replaced by
-another set of four old men out of another century, without a casual
-observer remarking on the difference. It was the day out of half a
-score of years when they were left in supreme sovereignty over the
-village. The Waggon of Hay became then what they considered it always
-ought to be, and what they chose to maintain it had been at that epoch
-of time called “when we were young,” a place of meeting sober and
-stagnant, undisturbed by the rude, hobnailed entrance of young men,
-calling for spirits in a tap-room where they should have been content
-with beer or cider. It was the day when they might sit at peace in
-their row on the bench, sure that no lout of a blunderer would stumble
-over their toes. It was the day when they might indulge themselves to
-their hearts’ content in gossip and politics, uninterrupted by the
-revolutionary opinions of their juniors. They could go back to the
-time when no railway disfigured the valley of the Frome, when the old
-horned breed of true Wiltshire sheep wandered upon the heights, and
-when no man dreamt of threshing his wheat save by flail, or of crushing
-his apples in any but a wooden press. They could recall without effort
-those days in the ’thirties, when, themselves but little older than the
-century, they had gone in bands with rude weapons to break up the new
-and hateful machinery in the farmers’ barns. They could tell again the
-tales of superstition, and the sights which their fathers’ generation
-had seen; and above all, most succulently, they could recall how old
-Mother Lovel had been burnt on the top of Silbury Hill for a witch,
-the bogey their mothers had used to frighten them with; and, nodding
-together, the four heads coming closer, whisper that Nicholas Lovel
-had all the black arts at his disposal, and had in a fit of rage put
-a curse upon his own brother, so that the lad no longer had his wits
-about him, but loitered around, the anxiety and disgrace of the village.
-
-They had the whole day to themselves, in which to say over and over
-again the things they had said many times before, and, greedy, would
-have liked to have the evening too, but far from it, the evening of
-that day was worse than any other evening, for the young men returned,
-already uproarious and in their numbers, full of song and boastfulness,
-their boots white with the chalk of the Downs, and their broad hats
-stuck round with the grasses and sorrel that grew up there on those
-unfertile heights. The old men would collect together in a corner,
-remotely grumbling, watching the young men as they lounged against
-the bar, filling the tap-room with their ribald good-humour and their
-tobacco smoke. The old men disapproved of the young because they feared
-in them the jostle of the oncoming generation, but the young men merely
-laughed carelessly at the old, having from them no longer anything to
-fear. The young men, on the evening of that particular day, would be
-more than usually vainglorious, bragging of their exploits, growing
-with every glass more direct in their modes of expression and more
-hilarious in their laughter. It was the day when all prudery was thrown
-aside, when each girl must look after herself as best she could or
-would, when from the earliest hour of exodus from the village along the
-road to the Downs the band of youths and girls fell into two primitive
-groups of hunter and quarry, a scramble of catch-who-catch-can, an
-escapade of wholesome license over the slopes of the Downs. It is true
-that they started out armed with trowels and rakes, but even these
-implements of homely design were soon garlanded with vetch and campion
-torn from the hedgerows as the party went along, nor were these, the
-ostensible justification of the expedition, the true weapons of the
-day; the true weapons were the muslin frocks, the black shoes and
-white stockings, the ribbons, the sunbonnets, and the eyes and curls
-beneath the sunbonnets; and the leather leggings of the young men,
-their strong brown hands, their belted smocks, their insolent air.
-Impossible that a few wounds should not result from the marshalling of
-such an armoury. And while the girls on their return must needs carry
-away to their bedrooms the secrets of the day, evading the inquisitive
-eye of their mothers, who, not condescending to ask, although burning
-to know, remembered with a sigh similar feasts of their own youth,
-the young men might gather in the tap-room and between hints and
-guffaws convey to all who cared to hear that they were fine young men
-worthy of their sex and of a sound country tradition. It was perhaps
-from an unacknowledged flicker of envy that the old men frowned upon
-their honest coarseness, for occasionally one of them, forgetting
-his attitude of rebuke, would let out a cackle of enjoyment and
-appreciation, much to his own dismay, and much to the amusement of the
-youths, who would cry, “Hey, gaffer, don’t you wish you’d be with us?
-Don’t you, you old dog?”
-
-But until this lusty return filled the tap-room with its uproar, the
-cats and the ancients of the village were left undisturbed. Both in
-their several ways made the most of their opportunity, the cats to
-sleep, since little boys who threw stones had gone with the party,
-hangers-on and peeping-Toms of the day, and the ancients to utter
-their sage words, to echo approval of one another, and to bury their
-faces deep in the pewter mugs, from which they emerged with beards
-dripping foam. A suck of the lips, a wipe with the back of the hand, a
-long “A-ah,” of contentment, and the mumble of anecdote flowed again
-upon its course. Sitting there in the sun was favourable to such
-occupations. Since the strenuousness of life’s work was over,--the
-early winter rising, the trudges after a lost ewe across snow-swept
-Downs, the unearthing of mangolds from the frosted ridge, the hours
-of scything swathe by swathe under burning midday,--what could remain
-better to do than to sit upon a bench in the sun, with companions
-who in colour and outlook were the very spit of oneself, to grumble
-against new-fangled notions, and to wet one’s gizzard with a long pull
-of ale, which, at all events, however ignominious to admit it, had not
-deteriorated in quality since one’s youth?
-
-Amongst the four old men, he who carried perhaps most authority, if
-any difference could be said to exist amongst the ancient cronies, was
-John Sparrow, who out-topped them by a year or so of age. Not that
-this fact in itself constituted so marked a superiority; it placed the
-senior rather at a disadvantage, since there existed amongst the four a
-tacit competition as to which should outlive the other, and each within
-his own mind dwelt upon the day when a fresh mound should be turned in
-the neighbouring church-yard, and a shrunken row of three should sit
-upon the bench, and the new topic, surprising by virtue of its very
-novelty, be introduced among them, the topic of their missing member.
-Each probably knew his companions well enough to hope for little
-charity at their hands. It would be fine fun, to have John Sparrow, or
-Caleb Patch, or Timothy Cutbush, or Eli Sheppard, lying there silent
-and unable to protest, to pick to pieces at their leisure. No, the
-few additional years of John Sparrow were not precisely the reason of
-his weight of word. But Sparrow’s daughter Martha, called “my gal,”
-although she would never again see sixty, was servant at the Manor
-House, where lived the only gentry of the village, and consequently
-whenever Sparrow began his phrase, “My gal says,” his utterance was
-awaited with a certain degree of respect. The village was proud of its
-gentry; Mr. Warrener was a scholar, and Miss Clare a lady. Although she
-went everywhere alone, and rode her pony like a boy, her ladylikeness
-could never be in question. Hence it came about that John Sparrow’s
-quotations from Martha held a little flavour of high life, a very
-remote echo of fashion; nothing more vicarious could well be imagined,
-but to the fuddled minds of the other three it sufficed: John Sparrow
-was in touch with elegance. He did not much look like it, as he sat
-at the end of the row on the bench, the colour of a hayseed, having
-now deposited his empty mug on the bench beside him and drawn from
-his pocket a long clay pipe whose small bowl he was very carefully
-ramming with tobacco. His daughter Martha was altogether a different
-question; she wore a lilac print dress and an apron over it; her grey
-hair was partly covered by a cap; she had a sedate manner and shining
-old cheeks; she was clean and respectful. She had entirely ceased to
-live at her father’s house, having her own bare but immaculate attic
-bedroom at the Manor House, and periodically she allowed her father
-to come there to tea in the kitchen, where he sat very neat and
-intimidated and impressed, enjoying most that part of his visit when he
-was boasting about it to his cronies afterwards. Being without subtlety
-they betrayed every corner of their envy and curiosity, to which John
-Sparrow was not loth to pander. They had had a table-cloth, and cups
-and saucers--china, not tin--and Martha had put flowers on the table.
-After tea Martha had played the musical box, but in the garden he had
-heard Miss Clare laughing as she strolled up and down with her father.
-That young lady was getting to a marriageable age; and here John
-Sparrow’s recital, which began with veracity, was apt to go astray. He
-would make a feeble attempt to convey a sense of his privity to secret
-counsels by pursing up his lips, nodding his head, spreading out his
-hands, and suchlike indications, without actually committing himself to
-the indiscretion of words; but presently under the fire of questions,
-the “Come now, John, out with it,” and the final shaft of scepticism
-to the effect that he knew no more than they did themselves, he would
-invariably be led into confidences which had no bearing whatsoever upon
-the truth. Martha had whispered this, Martha had told him that, Miss
-Clare, he doubted, was not in truth the daughter of Mr. Warrener; or,
-if so be she was his daughter, then no daughter that he ought to own
-to, but rather should pass her off as his niece or his ward.... The
-other three accepted all such statements round-eyed, and the more they
-gaped the more inventive he grew. Their credulity was his undoing.
-
-And as they drowsed and maundered, they saw Miss Clare emerge presently
-from the gates of the Manor House, with their glimpse of garden, lawn,
-and cedars, riding astride upon her pony, whose little hoofs came
-slipping and shambling over the cobbles, down the street, past the
-old men, and took the road out towards the Downs. The old men raised
-their heads at all this little clatter, and a greeting passed between
-them and Miss Clare; they touched their hats, she waved her whip to
-them and called out something which they were too deaf to catch, but
-to which they responded with the “Ay, ay” and the gesture of tolerant
-encouragement accorded by age towards popular youth. There was a mumble
-amongst them after she had passed, of unspecified vague approval,
-before the straggly old beards drooped again upon the chests, and the
-street resumed the quiet broken by that small disturbance.
-
-
-It was not a very great wonder that the village should look upon
-its gentry as so exclusively its own. Its situation was such, that
-everything which took place within its enclosure was peculiarly
-focussed and self-contained. In the first place, it was isolated far
-from other villages, at the foot of the Downs, which loomed over it on
-three sides like a huge natural rampart, and in the second place it was
-entirely surrounded by an ancient earthwork in a complete and perfect
-circle. This earthwork was broken only at two points, to allow the road
-to enter the circle, and to leave it again on the opposite side. Within
-this little enclosed ring of thirty acres lay the village, complete
-with church, Manor House, and village street, incapable of expansion
-in any direction, unless it overflowed its boundary, which it had
-never done. A few outlying farms at a little distance were included,
-properly speaking, in the parish, but they were either too remote or
-too well screened by voluminous trees to distract the eye from the
-compact symmetry of the little town within the circle. Strangers to
-the country, coming unawares upon this singular encampment, were at
-first amazed; but presently there crept into their minds the sense
-that the whole country traversed by them had been, in a way, but the
-natural preparation to precisely such a mysterious and secluded patch
-of human habitation. They recalled the straight white road driven
-across the Downs; the pits of poor blanched chalk; the shaven clumps
-of beech, like giant ricks, upon the skyline; mounds and barrows; the
-perfect cone of Silbury Hill, which, rooted in its greater antiquity,
-had forced the Roman road to deflect from its course; the loneliness
-of the magnificent Downs; the primitive shapes surviving in the White
-Horses cut as landmarks upon their flanks. Above all they would recall
-those strange monuments of English paganism, the sarsen stones,
-hewn by Nature and transported by man to be the instruments of his
-superstition, left where they had fallen, singly or in rings, obscure
-in a fold of the Downs, or reared to accord with the eternal procession
-of the heavens in the gaunt majesty of Stonehenge.
-
-The stranger would recall these stones as he followed the road through
-the gap into the circle of King’s Avon, for there in an ordinary field
-to the right of the road, just within the embankment, he would see,
-standing upright to the height of ten or twelve feet, a number of
-these stones, standing there with such apparent fixity and permanence
-that it was disconcerting to observe, on a closer inspection, an equal
-number of the stones fallen flat and half-buried in the ground. Their
-impressiveness grew, as the beholder began to realise from their
-symmetrical disposition that what he was considering was no less than
-the ruins of a temple. The village lay just beyond the field, and in
-the rough ground, near the field,--partly ditch below the embankment,
-partly undergrowth,--many more of the stones might be discovered,
-half-hidden by dead leaves and mosses, or even by tins and rubbish,
-and in one or two cases made prisoner, like some inarticulate Laocoon,
-by the serpenting roots of a beech overhanging the scarp. And as the
-stranger, after poking about among this tangle, proceeded along the
-lane towards the village, he would come upon other isolated stones,
-either embedded in the bank below the hedge, or used as a gate-post
-into a paddock, standing there patiently enough, towering above the
-gate and above the hedge, indifferent to the fate that had come upon
-it; and one, by the roadside, had been made to do duty as a milestone,
-and bore upon its face the distances to Bath and Marlborough in
-eighteenth-century script and Roman numerals. But, although
-the stones were now thus scattered and even totally removed for
-purposes of quarrying material, a patient observer might still piece
-together the design and dimension of the temple, standing once like
-Stonehenge in rings, when no human dwellings were there, in, as it
-were, a cup of the Downs, open to sun and rain. But this imaginary
-stranger would probably dwell rather upon the relationship between the
-stones of King’s Avon, and the stars that they had known unaltered, and
-the barrows humped upon the Downs, and the roughly-hewn flints turned
-up by the plough, the bones and antlers, and the stray tokens left,
-with very little fame, about the country, silent and enduring while
-religions perhaps slightly more enlightened because more charitable
-passed with the ages above their surfaces.
-
-This paganism of England, he might have reflected as he made his way
-slowly from stone to stone, pausing before each and finding in each
-the same monotonous and uncommunicative austerity, this early English
-paganism, how bleakly different it was from the paganism of the South!
-Indeed, he might wonder whether to call his forebear pagan, which had
-a rich full-blooded sound, or, stripping him of garlands, to call him
-simply heathen. Here, in this flint country of the small northern
-island, no flowers and fruit had surrounded the sacrifice, no cymbals
-clashed, no grapes and plaited maize wreathed the horns of the victim,
-no songs accompanied the priest. A stone, a knife, and blood, red and
-grey, sufficed their ritual. This was no country to see nymphs in the
-streams and oaks, to hear the flute of a satyr in the beechwood. Yet
-there was a harsher dignity, beside which the Southern paganism was
-soft and ample, over-ripe with sweetness. It was a creed which would
-not concern itself with the fruits of earth; Demeter was not for it,
-nor lecherous Pan, nor a god clothed in the plumes of a swan. It would
-concern itself with nothing lower than the most majestic of human
-contemplations, the sun and the stars in their courses, so that after
-the lapse of centuries the upright stones still aspired to celestial
-communion when the gentle or the angry dawn broke over the rounded
-Atlantean shoulders of the Downs.
-
-Clare Warrener rode idly along the leafy lane, her pony’s hoofs raising
-little grey puffs of dust. Nothing in particular occupied her mind,
-beyond the sight which she was going to see, and which for weeks now
-she had been anticipating. She had promised herself that she would ride
-on this day up on to the Downs, cast her eye over the festivity, and
-ride on again, with perhaps a slight resentment at this invasion of the
-hills; a resentment she knew to be absurd, since the rustic youths and
-girls at their celebrating had a better right to the hills than she
-had herself, they who were the descendants of shepherds and farmers,
-wresting for centuries a living from the poor stony soil. She loved in
-the hills their spaciousness, and their refusal to yield to tillage; at
-most they would grant pasture to the sheep crawling on their slopes,
-but for the rest they remained eternally, in the heart of an amenable
-and complacent island, the untamed spot--they, and the moorlands, and
-the hills of Wales and the North.
-
-The shady lane which she had been following soon ceased to be bordered
-by trees and took an upward direction leading to the foot of the Downs.
-It became a steep white road mounting straight up the unboundaried
-slopes, with high banks on either side, and the winter rain-runnels
-marked in little zig-zagging ruts and pebbles. Some clumps of furze
-and a few thorn-trees grew on the lower reaches, but presently even
-these ceased, and the short turf was the only vegetation. Up here the
-air was pure and sharp; the grasses waved as they were blown by the
-breeze; in some places fires had left their blackened patches; a trail
-of smoke-coloured sheep moved cropping in the dip of a valley. Larks
-rose continually, soaring straight up into the air, impelled either
-by some impulse of their own or else disturbed by the sound of the
-pony’s passage. Clare rode with loose reins, letting the pony pick his
-own way among the pebbles. The road began to wind; it curved round a
-shoulder of hill, dipped into a hollow, rose steeply again, and all
-the time its direction was hidden round the next corner. At moments
-it reached a high point of vantage, whence Clare, looking down in the
-direction she had come, could see the low fertile lands, the farms, and
-the clump of trees pierced by the church-spire which was King’s Avon.
-But to north, east, and west, nothing but Downs, the great back of the
-south of England. She rode on. The pony climbed, his head down, his
-withers high. She felt the muscles of his flank moving warm beneath
-her leg; he climbed, strong and willing, and she put him at short cuts
-which entailed mounting an almost perpendicular slope of grass, for the
-pleasure of feeling him buckle to the effort.
-
-Presently she heard voices and laughter borne to her on the wind.
-Before long she reached a kind of plateau of grass, the highest point
-of all, which commanded a wide view of both Downs and the chessboard
-landscape far below, crossed by the white roads like streamers from
-a Maypole; and at the further end of this plateau she saw scattered
-in pairs over the grass, and assembled at one point as a nucleus from
-which these couples had detached themselves, the youth of the village
-of King’s Avon in holiday clothes with wild flowers strung about them.
-She reined in her pony, not liking to interrupt their fun by drawing
-too near or seeming to admire them as a curiosity. She could recognise
-most of them at that distance; she picked out the red head of Daisy
-Morland, the long limbs of Peter Gorwyn, the sunbonnet of Phoebe Patch,
-the silly laugh of young Baskett, the straw-coloured shock of hair
-belonging to Job Lackland, the black strap-shoes and white stockings
-of Annabel Blagdon, who was the belle of the village, and, finally,
-prowling on the outskirts rather like a pariah dog, the indefinably
-misshapen form of Olver Lovel. Near by the group were set down the
-wicker baskets in which they had brought their meal, also the trowels,
-spades, turf-cutters, and hoes, apparently forgotten. The occasion of
-the expedition was rendered completely invisible by the sprawling of
-the persons seated upon it. This was none other than one of the famous
-White Horses, which on that day must be scoured, that is to say,
-cleaned of ten years’ accumulation of weeds and grasses; though it was
-said that less plantains were uprooted than matches made that day, and
-that the true business of keeping the White Horse duly scoured was
-performed by some sober shepherd with a pocket-knife, idling away the
-hours while his sheep moved slowly within his sight. Nevertheless the
-tradition must be maintained. Clare felt a slight wistfulness that she
-might not join in with the party, but she had been for so many years
-strictly forbidden to do this by an indignant Martha Sparrow,--“’Twould
-not be befitting your station at all, Miss Clare, indeed, to go with
-those rough louts of boys and hoydens of girls,”--that she had come to
-accept this ban as a law of nature, without question. She therefore
-sat her pony at a distance, looking on enviously at the clumsy fun
-in progress, watching the boys roll over and over down the slope and
-get up dusting themselves and laughing, or wrestling with one another
-on the grass and making a show of their superior strength before
-the girls, who laughed and applauded. She felt especially envious
-when she saw Job Lackland pick up his fiddle, settle it firm under
-his chin, and begin to play, the notes of the old-fashioned tune
-reaching her as clearly as notes struck on a bell, and she could see
-the sprigged waistcoat and cut-away coat which Job always wore on
-feast-days when he thought he might be called upon to play the fiddle.
-The others scrambled to their feet and began a country-dance, a sort
-of combination of a Morris dance and Sir Roger de Coverley, for they
-fluttered their handkerchiefs as they danced, and at the same time ran
-in couples up and down between two lines formed by the other dancers.
-
-The muslin dresses and coal-scuttle bonnets of the girls, and the
-smocks of the young men, together with their fluttering handkerchiefs
-and their hands gaily clasped high as they turned and twisted beneath,
-made a coloured and merry patch on the top of the hill, like a lot of
-butterflies.
-
-Job fiddled with increasing energy, and as he fiddled he tried to
-beat time for the dancers with his bow, so that every now and then he
-would miss out a bar while he waved his bow to re-establish order in
-the dance which threatened to become confused. At last they all fell
-exhausted upon the grass, and cider was passed round, and the old White
-Horse, who had been temporarily revealed during the dance, was once
-more hidden from view by the spreading frocks and sprawling limbs.
-
-There were other preparations now in evidence, for to emulate the
-scouring of the greater White Horse of Berkshire the youth of King’s
-Avon indulged themselves in more or less organised games, which again
-were but a cloak to their braggart vanity towards the girls. A rude
-platform was erected on trestles on the flat summit of the hill, and
-towards this the whole company surged, leaving the white scar of the
-Horse once more exposed and placid upon the hillside. The direction of
-the games was in the hands of young Gorwyn; he beat a small drum to
-call his audience to order; he marshalled the competitors; he posted
-tow-headed Lackland with his fiddle to strike up a tune during the
-intervals.
-
-The competitors stood in a group to one side, suddenly sheepish; the
-audience, which by now consisted almost entirely of girls, ranged
-themselves beneath the platform with the nudges and upturned faces
-of anticipation. Clare could only see the crowns of their hats and
-sunbonnets.
-
-Half a dozen young men stood up on the platform, exposed to the jokes
-and encouragements of their friends; in their embarrassment they did
-not know what expression to assume; some scowled, some tried to stare
-with an indifferent gaze out over the distance, some sought the faces
-of their special friends among the audience and grinned awkwardly. All
-were in the same predicament as to how to dispose of their hands and
-feet; some stood stiff and erect, with arms folded severely across
-their chests; others thrust their hands down into the pockets of their
-breeches; others bent to fidget with a bootlace.
-
-Some were for wrestling, others for the races; the bolder spirits, and
-the most admired, were for broadstick. Gorwyn himself, the broadstick
-champion of the village, was, as the last and principal event of the
-day, to challenge the winner.
-
-Clare, growing interested, rode a little nearer; the young men touched
-their foreheads to her, some of the girls dropped a curtsy; her advance
-caused a little ripple in the crowd. Again she felt the slight regret
-that she might not mingle freely and on an equal footing with them;
-surely they were clean, English young men, honest enough if a trifle
-crude, and the girls were healthy and fresh in their muslins; but she
-was too simply a child to dream of disobeying Martha’s mandate. She sat
-her pony at her distance, looking on.
-
-The first event was a bout of wrestling; not perhaps, a very scientific
-exhibition, but the rivals went at it with a will, good-tempered and
-full of zest, staggering about the platform, their fine, young-men’s
-bodies knotted together like a piece of ever-changing sculpture in
-a natural setting, not cooped into the dinginess of a studio or a
-gallery. Clare saw the shock heads imprisoned under an arm, or going to
-butt lowered like young rams; she could hear the deep breathing, and
-the muffled shock as limbs and torsos closed anew together.
-
-And the audience of girls cried out and applauded, or uttered little
-screams when a fall seemed imminent; but the wrestlers themselves were
-silent, save for their heavy breathing; and the feminine cries and
-rustlings of admiration or dismay formed the natural accompaniment to
-the masculine concentration.
-
-The wrestling over, the wrestlers descended to mix in with the girls,
-and the competition was eager and frank among the girls to get
-possession of one of these heroes and to keep him by her side for
-the rest of the afternoon. Only Annabel Blagdon, the belle, remained
-unexcited and scornful; she affected to despise the mere wrestlers:
-broadstick was the only game for her, as she had already advertised,
-and her smiles were reserved for some broadstick champion with his
-broken head. Therefore the wrestlers made for her all the more; made
-awkward advances towards her, neglecting the blandishments of the
-others which were lavished too cheaply upon them. But she scarcely
-answered; she knew her power, she knew and savoured the irritation
-of her sisters; she tapped her foot in its white stocking and black
-strapped shoe, and scorned the wrestlers for their undamaged skins,
-though secretly she could not help esteeming their broad shoulders and
-their narrow loins.
-
-Job Lackland meanwhile had struck up a tune on his crazy fiddle, and
-made the air gay with his old jingling melody, until the tapping of
-Gorwyn’s little drum announced a fresh event; this was a race after a
-cheese down the steepest side of the hill, an all-but-perpendicular
-bank, round which the ordinary pedestrian would have skirted, but the
-lads started down it helter-skelter after the round cheese which was
-bowling down, bumping and jumping, after its send-off push. Some few
-of them kept their feet, others slithered down on their backsides, like
-boys on an ice-slide, some in their effort to keep upright tumbled head
-over heels; one, a wag, went down, rolled round in a ball, hands locked
-under knees, in a series of somersaults.
-
-No one was hurt, and the girls peering after them over the top, laughed
-and danced in delight as the medley of arms and legs and bodies
-reached the bottom, and a scrum for the prize ensued. It was finally
-carried off by Olver Lovel, who, it was averred, crept in between the
-scrambling legs and fetched it away in a moment when the object of the
-race was forgotten, and only the fun of the scrimmage remembered.
-
-No one quite knew in what spirit to take Olver’s success. It was too
-unpopular for congratulations to ring genuine, so most of the party
-turned aside and pretended to be busy with other things, sooner than
-betray their disappointment,--for they were kindly folk,--and to spare
-themselves the necessity of smiling to Olver. In fact, it was felt
-that a slight chill had been cast over the afternoon by the simpleton
-getting the better of the cheese.
-
-As for Olver he was quite happy with his cheese, which was large and
-round, and beside which he sat at a little distance on the grass,
-occasionally patting it and stroking its smooth cool rotundity. Clare
-let her interest stray from the platform, in order to observe him; like
-most of the others he had put a wreath of sorrel and grasses round his
-hat, but whereas the others acquired thereby merely a merry-making,
-country appearance, Olver was made to look crazy and erratic, and twice
-as simple as usual. He sat now on the grass making a daisy-chain to go
-round the belly of his cheese; his legs were stretched out childishly
-straight in front of him, and his shovel hat with the waving wreath was
-bent down over his occupation.
-
-Simple, thought Clare; but how quick and cunning were his fingers! that
-was no unmixed simplicity.
-
-He reached out his daisy-chain to measure against the cheese; he was
-engrossed and took no notice of any one or of anything. She wondered
-whether Nicholas Lovel knew that Olver was up here; usually he kept his
-brother away from any gathering of the villagers, lest he annoy them in
-any way. She had already noticed that Nicholas was not of the party and
-smiled to imagine him as one of that hearty gang. She even wondered the
-more, so aloof did he keep himself from the rest of the village, that
-he allowed his brother to join with them. But she remembered then that
-he made laws for himself only, and did not expect others to keep them;
-he was too indifferent, rather than too tolerant, for that.
-
-Clare thought that she would wait to see the broadstick contest, which
-apparently was about to take place, and that she would then ride away,
-for she knew that as the afternoon advanced, and especially as the
-discreet twilight arrived to throw its veil over the passions aroused
-by the prowess of the games, the party would become less rowdy, less
-athletic, and more sentimental, more inclined to break up into couples
-and to dispose itself thus about the grass, where no cover existed,
-but where privacy was guaranteed by a tacit convention that all wore
-blinkers. Clare remembered then,--what Martha Sparrow, gossiping, had
-told her,--that Olver Lovel sometimes made himself very unpopular by
-creeping up noiselessly behind some pair just as they were circling
-round the most critical stages of their courtship, either to shout
-loudly in their ears or else to tickle the backs of their necks with a
-straw, so that it had even been discussed in the Waggon of Hay whether
-he should be ostracised from the festival of the scouring. The threat
-of ostracism, however, had not been carried out. They were all too
-much afraid of Olver and of the tricks he might play in revenge on
-them, worse than shouting in their ears, or tickling the backs of their
-necks, or even than putting caterpillars up girl’s legs, which he had
-been known to do; and in a less degree they were also afraid of his
-brother Nicholas, not to mention the old mother, whom none of them had
-ever seen, and for whose continued existence they had to take Nicholas’
-word for granted.
-
-Perhaps this fear of the Lovels, and of the queer powers they were
-reputed to possess, weighed even more with the ignorant village folk
-than the rough, kindly pity they felt for Nicholas in the affliction
-put upon him.
-
-Clare was eager to watch the broadstick play, which she had never
-seen; Martha had told her that those who had taken part were to be
-seen going about for days afterwards with bandaged heads, and even
-kept the bandage on for longer than they need, as a badge that they
-practised the old sturdy sport, and that he who carried off the honours
-was entitled to the respect of the men in the Waggon of Hay, be they
-natives or strangers passing through, and that there wasn’t a girl
-in the parish would refuse him her lips. Martha, quite carried away,
-had given her these accounts with enthusiasm. Clare had teased her,
-“I believe you remember a scouring when you were young, Martha,” and
-Martha had blushed and bridled, and declared she saw no harm in having
-once been as young as Miss Clare herself, and went on to relate that
-once she had been to the scouring of the great White Horse of White
-Horse Vale, where teams of the Wiltshire men met teams of the Berkshire
-men at wrestling and broadstick, so that it was not the little family
-affair of the King’s Avon White Horse, but a great celebration that
-lasted two days, and included roundabouts and side-show booths. But
-broadstick play was dying out, and young men were not so keen to get
-their heads broken as once they had been, which was a pity, for it
-showed up their manliness, in spite of what the parsons might say;
-that was Martha’s view.
-
-Therefore Clare was especially anxious to see the play, for she thought
-she might never have an opportunity of seeing it again.
-
-Just then she heard the trot of a horse on the turf behind her, turf
-baked so hard that it rang hollow. She did not turn round, but sat
-waiting for the horseman to come up beside her. “So,” she thought to
-herself, as a little expectant smile parted her lips, “Lovel has come
-after all to have a look at the scouring.” The trot slackened into a
-walk, and the head of a horse came alongside that of her own pony. A
-voice said, “Good afternoon, Miss Warrener,” and looking round she saw
-a man with iron-grey hair in the act of lifting his hat to her; but he
-was not the man she had expected.
-
-“Mr. Calladine,” she said, smiling after her first little shock of
-surprise and disappointment.
-
-“So you, too, have come to look on at the scouring,” he began.
-“Whenever I hear of a scouring in the neighbourhood I am enticed to
-watch it, and every time I go home realising that I have wasted my
-time. But, after all, as well ride here as anywhere else, and better,
-if I am to have the good fortune of meeting you.”
-
-Clare was far too unpolished and simple to know how to reply to such
-compliments. She only blushed, was angry with herself for blushing, and
-stared the harder in silence at the party on the grass. Calladine saw
-her deepened colour, and savoured to the full its unconscious charm;
-he leant forward with a creaking of saddle-leather, his gloved hand
-resting with the bunch of reins on the peak of his saddle.
-
-“Will you ride a little way with me? There is not much more to be seen
-here, and I fancy they have noticed us, and are getting shy. Ah, it’s
-too late, for here comes young Gorwyn to offer us a drink. We must
-accept it, I suppose, and only pray that ’tisn’t in a cup they have all
-been using.”
-
-Young Gorwyn, the master of the ceremonies, the son and apprentice
-of the blacksmith, carried the cup of cider very carefully in his
-immense hands, like a child carries a nest, as though he were afraid of
-crushing it between them.
-
-“Farmer Morland’s brewing,” he said, grinning foolishly as he offered
-it.
-
-Clare drank; it was clean and sweet, pure apple-juice and sugar. She
-was then confronted by a difficulty with which she had no idea of how
-to cope: ought she to offer the cup to Calladine after having drunk
-from it herself?
-
-She had always the uneasy feeling in Calladine’s company that more
-ceremony was necessary than in her dealings with other human beings,
-conducted with perfect and unthinking naturalness. But Calladine, who
-was so grave and courtly, and who looked at her so intently while
-speaking to her, and again so intently while she replied, seemed to
-exact a different standard of manners.
-
-In this case, fortunately, he saw her unhappy hesitation, and solved
-the difficulty for her by stretching out his hand for the cup and
-draining it right off.
-
-But Gorwyn was watching, and, kindled by the unusualness of the day,
-winked broadly as Calladine drank, and said heartily, “There’s luck to
-you both!”
-
-“I hope so,” said Calladine in a low voice. He glanced quickly at
-Clare; she had either not heard, not noticed, or failed to interpret.
-
-“Admirable, Peter!” he said in a louder tone, as he handed back the
-cup. “Tell Daisy Morland from me and Miss Warrener, that her father’s
-brewing, which I suspect she superintends, is first class.”
-
-Young Gorwyn grinned again. “But you’ll stay to watch the broadstick,
-now you’re here?” he said eagerly, since to him it was the great event
-of the day.
-
-“Well, I think perhaps broadstick is scarcely a suitable entertainment
-for a young lady,--eh, Gorwyn?” said Mr. Calladine. “Races, or even
-wrestling, but scarcely broadstick,--a rough game, and usually
-unpleasant to watch at the end. I think Miss Warrener and I will ride
-away and leave you to your sports.”
-
-Gorwyn, who had at first looked astonished, opened his mouth to
-protest, then a look of contempt came over his ruddy face, succeeded
-by a sudden shyness; he mumbled something, and scampered back to his
-companions.
-
-“Oh, but I wanted to see the broadstick,” began Clare.
-
-“My _dear_ young lady,” said Mr. Calladine, leaning sideways in
-his saddle towards her, “may I, for once, stand in the place of
-your father, and say that I am sure he would never approve of your
-witnessing this rough display, and indeed would be most grieved if it
-came to his ears that you had done so? May I beg you to have confidence
-in my judgment? Come, now, let us ride away together, and if you can
-obtain your father’s consent I will promise to escort you to some fair
-where you may see the game,--will that content you?”
-
-Clare, greatly disappointed, was too young to question Calladine’s
-decision. If he said her father would disapprove, then he must be
-right; although, privately she thought that her father, mild and vague,
-would have no views at all on the subject. Obediently, however, she
-wheeled her pony after Calladine’s horse, and they rode quietly away
-along the top of the ridge. She was thinking how sorry she was that he
-had come instead of Lovel. She did not very much like Mr. Calladine,
-although she was kind to him out of goodness of heart, because she
-thought he seemed lonely; indeed, he never ceased talking to her about
-his loneliness.
-
-He lived some way out of King’s Avon, right in the country; it must be,
-she thought, very lonely in his small farm-house in the evenings, so
-she sometimes persuaded her father to ask him to dinner.
-
-On such occasions, not knowing how else to entertain her father and
-guest, she would play to them both such simple airs as she could
-command upon the piano, and sometimes would sing, accompanying herself,
-such little songs as she had picked up from Martha Sparrow or the
-country people. Mr. Calladine would come then and lean over the top
-of the piano, watching her in the candlelight in that intent way he
-had. She did not like this either; it was part of his elaborate and
-disturbing manner, but she had too much pity for him to ask him to
-desist. He seemed to like her singing; he always clapped his fine hands
-softly together and begged for more. On the whole, she did not much
-enjoy the evenings he spent at the Manor House; they were strained and
-difficult; or, at least, so she thought, although he appeared unaware
-of this, perfectly content, and in no hurry to take his leave. When
-he at last did so, Clare, whose country idea of hospitality involved
-accompanying her guest to the front door to see the last of him, was
-always slightly relieved when she watched him button up his greatcoat,
-climb into his gig, gather up the reins, and drive away into the night.
-
-His horse paced now beside hers, and, riding with his beautifully
-light hands, he restrained its paces to suit her pony’s, all with that
-air of chivalrous deference which she found so subtly irritating.
-It conveyed that she was not able to take care of herself, but that
-he must do it for her, in a playful, tactful way, while allowing her
-apparent liberty, and she felt now that he had taken her away from the
-games as he might have taken a little girl. It made her inclined to
-start her pony off into a gallop, but she reproved herself, remembering
-that Mr. Calladine was very much older than she was,--he must be
-quite fifty,--and that it was kind and condescending of one so fine
-and cultured to desire her company. At the same time, she could not
-help contrasting his manner with Lovel’s; Lovel was often brusque and
-even rude to her; he lost his temper with her sometimes, and never
-apologised afterwards; it was all the more insolent in Lovel, for he
-was not the gentleman that Calladine was.
-
-But she never felt with him the sense of strain that she felt with
-Calladine. It seemed to her as natural to meet Lovel upon the Downs as
-it would have been to meet a flock of sheep, and it never occurred to
-her either to mention or to conceal the fact to her father. Calladine,
-on the other hand,--she knew that when she got home, some obscure
-instinct would impel her to say, “Father, I rode with Mr. Calladine.”
-
-They had allowed their horses to follow their own course, which in that
-open country was possible for miles, and Clare now perceived that they
-were being carried in the direction of a group of Grey Wethers. She did
-not at all want to go to these particular Grey Wethers with Calladine;
-but when she tried to head her pony away he immediately said, “Do let
-us ride on as far as the Grey Wethers, Miss Clare. We have never been
-there together, and I have a fancy to go there with you.” Clare gave
-way; it was not worth hurting his feelings, perhaps, for a whim. They
-rode on accordingly until they came to the strange derelict stones,
-where, at Calladine’s instigation, they got off their horses and sat
-down side by side on one of the stones. Clare wondered what the object
-of this pause could be; then, looking at Calladine, she saw that he was
-nervously twisting his fingers together, and appeared by the agitation
-of his manner to have something on his mind which he was trying to say.
-She was not much surprised; she had often seen him break out under the
-influence of some unexplained emotion, and waited quietly for what was
-to come. She was not much interested either; but if it did him good to
-speak, then, poor man, by all means let him speak his fill. Finally,
-she prompted him, almost with mischief, “You seem full of disturbing
-thoughts, Mr. Calladine?”
-
-“I have something to say to you,” he began. “An explanation, more than
-a confession. What do you know of me, after all? Very little, beyond
-that I am a stranger settled in these parts, living a lonely life in
-a remote farm-house with one old servant and a groom. You know that I
-have no regular occupation; that I read the classics in a desultory
-way; dabble in archæology, and interest myself in the local customs and
-topography. You know that my leisure is unlimited, and my means ample.
-You appear to take me for granted, but then I never attributed to you
-an inquisitive mind. Have you ever wondered where I came from, and
-why? have you, above all, never despised me a little for my idleness
-of a dilettante while all around you you saw other men work for their
-livelihood?”
-
-“Perhaps I have despised you a little for that,” she said frankly. “As
-for the rest, no, I don’t think I have wondered. I don’t see why you
-shouldn’t lead the life that pleases you best.”
-
-“Nevertheless,” he said, “I should like to give you my explanation,
-if you will be patient enough to listen. I loved a woman once,” he
-said, in a low mournful voice, as though he were disinterring the
-memory of the dead from his very bowels, and while he spoke he kept
-his eyes averted from Clare and held his unseeing gaze upon the clump
-of beeches on the high skyline; “she was wholly a woman, yet every
-great quality of woman she lacked; I mean to say, that in every mood
-of capriciousness and grace she was as wholly and divinely a woman
-as any woman who ever enchanted man and coloured the loveliness of
-his days, but under the test of all graver issues her fluidity turned
-to falseness and she slipped between my fingers. I never held her;
-no, though I held her in my arms she eluded me; even while I thought
-to possess her, her soul slid away from me in some new protean
-shape, and danced and laughed and mocked my pursuit. Oh, she was a
-will-o’-the-wisp dancing across the marshes of my life. For my life was
-indeed a marsh in those days; I sank in quicksands; I struggled out
-on to a tussock; I trusted myself again on what I took to be firmer
-ground, I sank once more, I was sucked back at every step, I was
-tempted to let myself sink for ever from sheer weariness and despair.
-But she,--she was at home among the treacheries and miasmas where she
-had led me; that light, vain soul could skim where I could only sink.
-Do you wonder,” he said, letting his eyes travel slowly round the clean
-sweep of the Downs, bare of all softness, and bringing them at last
-to rest upon her face, “can you wonder that I came to repair my life
-in this old, hard country? You may believe me or not, as you choose,
-but I got that image of the marsh so firmly fixed in my mind that to
-this day I can’t bear to walk across a bit of swampy ground, or even
-along a muddy lane. You have water here, in your country, that’s true,
-and plenty of it; but it’s straightforward water: running rivers, and
-dew-ponds up here on the heights.”
-
-“It’s true,” she said; “’tis an old, hard country; and such ghosts as
-there are are bleached bones by now, dry and clean; there’s no decay
-about them. Why, I think that the ghosts that walk among the stones
-must be as stern as the stones themselves; and that’s my fancy.”
-
-“And mine too,” he replied, considering her; “and if anywhere the
-uneasy dead return from their sleep,--though I am not saying that I
-believe it to be so,--it should surely be hereabouts, for in the last
-century there were enough tales current of witches and wise men, and
-similar fascinations of the simple, to raise the longest-dead of old
-Britons from his grave. But I scarcely think the local folk are much
-troubled with such ideas. They come more readily to you and me, for I
-am a stranger, as strangers are reckoned in country districts, where
-the years only begin to count as they pass into centuries; the space of
-time for an acorn to grow into an oak; and even you, who have been here
-all your life long, are not native born. The spirit of this country
-does not come to either of us as a natural right. We have learnt it,
-and so must remain always more conscious of it than those to whom it is
-as native speech.”
-
-She looked at him with the faintly puzzled expression of one who is out
-of his depth.
-
-“Yes,” she murmured uneasily, looking down at the ground, and kicking a
-lump of chalk into powder with the toe of her shoe. She deeply resented
-this association of herself and him as strangers to the country; Lovel
-would not have spoken so!
-
-“You and I,” he went on, for it caressed his soul merely to utter
-those words thus coupled, “tread at least as reverent intruders among
-the rings and barrows. We do not rest among them, as the shepherds
-do, simply for shelter against the winds and sleets. I came to them
-for healing; and you, even had you not been born with the capacity
-for awe,--as you were, oh, as indeed I know you were!--would have
-learnt it from that wise old man, your father. I have thought watching
-him at that delicate fingering of his shards, how he had dealt out
-to you the store of his scholar’s brain. To him, neat, tabulated,
-chronological, precise, but filtering through to yours in a strange
-jumble,--the painting of a bison on the wall of a cave, a man in thongs
-and bearskins sharpening a flint, slow glaciers crawling over England,
-kings buried on horseback in full panoply under a mound.”
-
-“And did you find healing?” she inquired, catching on to the remark she
-could pursue with the least resentment.
-
-“Oh, I found it, yes, I found it,” he replied, morosely, “if I may call
-that healing, which but exchanges one wound for another,--a poisonous
-wound, let us say, for a clean sharp one. Yes, I may call it healing,
-I suppose, for although my heart’s blood ebbs away through the fresh
-wound, there is no longer any gangrene in my system. I am purified;
-true, I may be dying, but at least I am purified. Yes, I found healing.”
-
-“Dying?” she exclaimed.
-
-“Oh, I spoke figuratively,” he replied with a toss of his hand; “don’t
-be afraid, Miss Clare, that in the course of your rambles you will come
-upon my body toppled down the side of a barrow,--though how should
-that distress you, indeed, beyond the ordinary shock of stumbling
-across a man recently dead? I am healthy enough of limb for a man of my
-age. Fifty, I am, you know,--old enough to be your father. It was kind
-of you to ask whether I found healing, and I am thankful to be able to
-tell you that I did find it; the winds of my first winter, which nearly
-blew my head off my shoulders and sent it bowling along these slopes,
-blew away my noxious thoughts. I told you I was led into miasmas; well,
-I brought them up here, clinging about me like a cloud, and the wind
-blew them away.”
-
-“Yet you spoke of that woman just now with a good tang of bitterness,”
-she said shrewdly.
-
-“Ah, well, I grudge the wasted years,” he returned, as though desirous
-of dismissing it thus lightly. “You may take my word for it, Miss
-Clare, that I have never bared that story to a soul except yourself;
-and probably should never have bared it to you but for some foolish,
-trivial reason I was anxious that you should hear it. Now that you
-have heard it you shall not be troubled with it again, I promise you.
-It is, moreover, an old story now; a score of years old, I should say,
-though I have forgotten the dates, and in the ordinary way of things I
-never think of it now. But people hereabouts have gossiped about me, I
-know, as was only natural, and lest any story should come to your ears,
-I prefer you to know the true one. You know it now; you know I am
-neither a prisoner escaped, nor a deserter from the army, nor a hunter
-of buried gold, nor any of the things which I have no doubt the village
-has credited me with, but simply a man once disappointed in love, as
-the saying goes, though Heaven knows whether those who coined that
-saying knew what they were talking about, or to what tragedy they were
-putting a name.”
-
-“All that’s said for my benefit,” said Clare sturdily; “you do think
-on it now, and you haven’t forgotten the date; though maybe you will
-cease to think on it, since you’ve spoken it out; and it’s no longer
-simmering in your heart.”
-
-He was gratified that she should so readily have caught that inflection
-in the voice which was meant to convey courage under sorrow, rather
-than forgetfulness after the passing of years.
-
-“And should trouble come upon _you_,” he said very earnestly, “would
-you place your confidence in me? I ask it as a favour,--as a slight
-return. Whatsoever a duty a man might perform for you, will you call
-upon me and no other? You cannot know how happy your promise would make
-me. You are youth incarnate amongst these ancient hills.” He dared not
-say more, but continued to gaze at her with urgent and beseeching eyes.
-
-“Why, I think I can promise that,” she said slowly, though puzzled
-again and perplexed by his earnestness. “I think one could place
-confidence in you, although you are so strange and unaccountable
-both in your ways and talk. I think you would be as vehement in your
-friendship as you seem to be in your thoughts. I think you would grieve
-very much,” she continued, examining him, “if you were to fail in
-carrying out a mission for a friend.”
-
-“For you,” he interjected. “My service is not so freely placed at
-everybody’s disposal. You will have no rival claimant on my obedience.”
-
-“Well, I will give you my promise,” she said, “though I would have you
-understand, Mr. Calladine,” she added with a childish importance, “that
-I am not in the least likely to make any call upon you. I am very well
-able to take care of myself, nor is any trouble, as you say, likely to
-come upon me.”
-
-“Hush, don’t boast,” he cried, looking fearfully round, and half in
-mocking he added, “Who knows what sardonic spirits may be listening to
-your boasting? Anyway, you have given me your promise, and I should
-like you to seal it. Give me your hand,--not so reluctantly,”--for he
-had felt it struggle faintly like a caught bird,--“we are friends, you
-know,--and for one who professes to have confidence in me, I declare
-you give proof of having very little,--now lay your hand upon this
-stone, and I will put mine over it,--now repeat this vow after me....”
-
-“No, no,” she said, frightened, and trying to draw her hand away;
-“it’s profane; that may be a sacrificial stone for all we know....”
-
-“And so resent the invocation of a Christian God?” he completed for
-her with a laugh, but the extreme agitation of his manner underneath
-his laughter alarmed her. “Or is it of me, and not really of the
-stone, that you are afraid? Surely you cannot think that your own Grey
-Wethers would harm you? So it must be of me,--a bad beginning to your
-confidence! Why, before very long you will be giving the same promise
-to another man lest you should require defence against myself.”
-
-“I was never afraid of any one yet,” she said, flaming up, “Mr.
-Calladine, and as a proof of it there is my hand; now do what you like
-with it. I think that you are very bitter and wild, but I am sure that
-you would not make the worse ally for that. And no woman would say less
-than that you were wild and bitter, if she had heard you talk the way
-I have often heard you talk; but that does not mean that I am afraid
-of you, for I am not, nor of any one in this world,” she repeated,
-challenging him to contradict her.
-
-“No, daughter of the Downs,” he said with much gravity, still holding
-her hand in his own.
-
-She stamped her foot.
-
-“You laugh at me, Mr. Calladine; well, if you treat me as a child, why
-exact such promises from me as the one you have just asked for? But I
-am not a child; I am nineteen,” she said.
-
-“My dear,--my dear young lady,” he said, amending the endearment into
-that conventional phrase, “it is only because you are, or soon will be,
-so very much of a woman that I besought your promise. Come, solemnize
-it without any further delay; swear, not by the Christian God, but by
-the Grey Wethers themselves, by their age, and their mystery. You will
-have the advantage of me if you can devise an oath more potent or more
-occult.”
-
-He laid her hand, which he had not relinquished, palm downward upon the
-stone. The stone was cold to her touch, but Calladine’s hand pressed
-over her own was by contrast dry and burning. She swore as he had
-commanded her to do, half in derision of his fancifulness, half still
-in the lurking alarm she was too proud to betray. He appeared to be
-satisfied, and released her, though not without reluctance at letting
-her hand go, and for a moment he wished he had never taken possession
-of it, when he noted the alacrity with which she took it back, and
-the surreptitious rub she gave it on the side of her riding-coat. “So
-that is how she feels about my touch!” he said to himself, but only
-a greater gentleness stole into his manner as he thanked her for her
-compliance and held her stirrup for her to mount her pony. She sat
-easily, boyishly, in her saddle, looking down on him, and a certain
-melancholy, that was not without its solicitude on her part, and its
-wistfulness on his, overcame them both in reaction to the overcharged
-scene which had taken place between them.
-
-“I don’t want you to be unhappy,--indeed I don’t,” she said, “Mr.
-Calladine; and please do not think it impertinence on my part to
-assume that you are. I know of course that I am too young to pry into
-your affairs; I haven’t the wisdom necessary; in fact I haven’t any
-qualification except sympathy, and I do ask you to believe that I have
-that. We have been friends for such a long time,” she said, looking
-down at him as though she felt a passing though true impulse to come
-closer to the bitterness of his spirit.
-
-His hand resting on her pony’s neck, he looked up with a rueful
-gratitude, by no means displeased that she should use the words “wild”
-and “bitter” about him, or treat his sorrows with so much veneration.
-He had not the heart to break her illusion of her own kindness with
-scornful words, but gave her a smile, which cost him a greater effort
-than he would have cared to acknowledge, and which he hoped would be
-adequate to reassure her. She smiled back at him, brightly; and with a
-touch of the heel put her pony into motion. He watched her ride away,
-along the ridge of Down, her slight figure swaying easily to the pony’s
-walk; and presently he saw her break into a canter, and heard the beat
-of the pony’s hoofs on the hard turf, until she was carried out of
-sight and hearing over the curve of the hill.
-
-
-It was so characteristic of Nicholas Lovel to keep away from the
-Scouring! Clare thought how the rest of the villagers must dislike
-him for his detachment. Not that he cared what the villagers said,
-beyond wishing that they would leave him and his affairs alone as far
-as possible,--a vain hope. Clare knew quite well that she could never
-have inveigled him into making friends with her but for their very
-early friendship when she was a child and he little more than a boy,
-when, in fact, he could not fear a rebuff from her, and, meeting her
-on the Downs, he had told her how to ride her pony, how to read the
-signs of the weather, and a dozen scraps of country craft which she had
-assimilated with great respect for his wisdom. They had drifted into
-a curious, desultory intimacy. Because they knew each other only in
-this detached way,--etherialised, as it were; stripped of the ordinary
-routine of friendship;--because she knew nothing of his life, and he
-nothing of hers; each knowing only the other’s Down-life; each admitted
-only into the other’s solitude, a part of that solitude rather than an
-intrusion; because they were really strangers to one another,--there
-existed between them a complete ease and understanding. All formalities
-were absent; they never thought of greeting one another when they met;
-they never thought of talking except when they could continue the
-current of their thoughts aloud. When they sighted one another upon
-the Downs, they simply converged until their horses fell into pace
-side by side. Often their first remark, spoken after long preliminary
-silence, was without context or explanation, like a bubble rising to
-the surface from what had been going on within their minds beneath. To
-be together was like being alone. Clare never talked to Lovel about
-her father, or about the Manor House; Lovel never talked to her about
-his difficulties, or about his pursuits, legitimate or illegitimate.
-At times their talk was purely practical, when he would show her how
-to cast a fly, or how to throw a sheep for shearing, or how to twist a
-rough basket out of osiers; at other times it was all theoretical, and
-there was no puzzle, discontent, or aspiration they would not touch on
-or thrash out. Quite abruptly, sometimes, he would break off and leave
-her. She never thought of asking him, next time, why he had done so,
-any more than she would have thought of asking the breeze why it had
-dropped. There were weeks together in which she never saw him at all;
-he came and went in her life like the rover that he was. When they
-passed each other in the village, they gave no sign of recognition;
-they had never alluded to this, yet each knew that the other was
-amused by the tacit convention. She knew, of course, where he lived,
-though the site, appearance, and actuality of his dwelling seemed to
-her singularly unimportant. Half way down the village street stood
-a house, small, but very massively built of grey stones, quarried,
-in point of fact, barbarously from the monoliths that had been the
-constant resource of the local builders. The front door, when it stood
-open on to the street, showed to passers-by a long dark passage,
-like a tunnel, at the further end of which opened suddenly the light
-and glow of the square walled garden, with its brilliant green turf,
-its one dark cedar, and its patches of sunlit flowers. The front door
-was surmounted by a porch, resting on two round columns; along the
-architrave of this porch was painted in neat black lettering the name:
-NICHOLAS LOVEL. It might have seemed curious to a stranger that no
-further indication should follow on to this superscription; there was
-nothing to inform the ignorant whether Nicholas Lovel was by trade a
-farrier, a joiner, a shoesmith, a tailor, or even the keeper of an inn;
-whether one might enter by the open door, and, taking one’s seat at a
-table within, rap against a glass and call loudly for the landlord. But
-strangers were few and far between, and among the habitual population
-of the village the circumstances of the Lovels had been threshed out so
-often that you might have imagined the topic would fall upon wearied
-ears. There were few trades to which young Lovel could not turn his
-hand. He could plough a field,--and in straight furrows, too,--he could
-build a rick, and thatch it when it was built, he could repair a waggon
-or repaint a gig, he could get the better of a horse-coper at his own
-job, or of a pedlar at his own chaffering, he could cure a sick ewe and
-bring back to life a weakling lamb, he could cane a chair and twist
-up a basket of osiers in less time than it takes to tell, he could
-snare a rabbit and slip under the very nose of the keepers, he could
-drink most men under the table and walk most men off their legs, and
-amongst the girls of the village there was not one who at one time or
-another had not set her cap at young Lovel, and got from him in return
-neither a civil nor an uncivil word. Yet for all these, and other,
-accomplishments, there was no one trade which he regularly practised.
-Any man might call him in for a stray job, whether as a farm-hand,
-a carpenter, or a shepherd, and many were the bribes which had been
-offered to induce him to accept regular employment: he declined them
-all. Gipsy Lovel, they called him in the village; whether on account
-of his name, his looks, or his vagrant practising, was not defined,
-probably all three. In appearance he was dark and lean; his Roman
-features bronzed to a polish, so tightly his skin seemed stretched
-over his bones; and with the brown corduroy breeches of an ordinary
-yeoman he usually wore a dark red shirt, which accentuated his already
-outlandish appearance. In speech he was reserved and sardonic, as might
-be expected by those who knew,--at least by report,--the circumstances
-of his life at home. Except by report, none could know them, for no one
-was ever invited to cross that most inhospitable of thresholds.
-
-And further, there was Nicholas Lovel’s younger brother Olver, by the
-kind-hearted given occasional employment on odd jobs of carpentering,
-house-painting, and the like, for he was skilful enough as a workman,
-and could be trusted to carry out his directions with the fidelity of
-that kind of brain commonly known as “simple.” He might have passed
-as a good-looking youth, with tight, chestnut curls and eyes of a
-curiously pale blue, rimmed with black round the iris, but for the
-oblique and cunning expression that was apt to cross his face like a
-cloud drifting across the moon, and the slight hint of deformity that
-clung about him,--a deformity so indefinite, that it was impossible to
-say precisely where it lay, whether in his neck being slightly sunk
-into his shoulders, or in his head being slightly too large for his
-body, or in his hands being slightly too well-formed, too sensitive
-for the hands of a workman, or in his tread being slightly too catlike
-for one of his build and bulk. He had in the village the reputation
-of slyness, a sudden shrewdness, that was disquieting and therefore
-repulsive in one whom mere simplicity would have entitled to the
-charity of all men. From this reputation of cunning the legend had
-grown in the village, as such things grow always in that fertile virgin
-soil of ignorance, the legend had grown into a variety of sinister
-shapes, all ornamented with copious and more or less picturesque
-detail: Olver Lovel’s grandmother had been burned for a witch; his
-mother, who was kept in such seclusion now by the severity of Nicholas,
-was a witch also; Olver himself practised wizardry; he went out of
-his mind when the moon was full; he was mortally feared by all
-animals,--this indeed was true, and a matter of common knowledge;--he
-controlled his evil impulses only through fear of his brother, but
-if his brother were to be taken away, then God help them all! These
-were only a few of the things that were openly uttered about Olver
-Lovel. Nicholas himself was not above suspicion. He had the same eyes
-as his brother, of the palest blue with those curious black rims,
-and the effect in his dark face, with his black hair, was certainly
-very strange. But people did not fear Nicholas as they feared Olver.
-Nicholas was a straight-forward man, reserved and uncompromising
-because his pride had so much to suffer, and no doubt his endurance
-too, living as he did between his two unusual relations; they had, on
-the whole, a good deal of sympathy and respect for Nicholas. It was
-no life, they said, for a young man. But who could help him? He would
-let no one near him, either literally or figuratively; pride was the
-hardest defence to deal with. A harsh young man; but he had much to put
-up with. And if he was harsh towards himself and forbidding towards
-other men, let them at least do him the justice to say that towards
-dumb beasts he had the gentleness of a woman for a child; ay, and the
-instinct too: the quick kind touch, and the certain remedy.
-
-
-The villagers thought him lonely,--even lonelier than he actually was,
-for they knew nothing of the friendship between him and Miss Warrener.
-They knew, certainly, that he sometimes went fishing with her down
-to the Kennet, but they thought nothing of that, for any young lady
-might be expected to take a man to carry her rod and landing-net, to
-fix her bait, and to deal with her catch. It wasn’t likely that even
-Miss Warrener would care to dabble in a mess of worms, or to get her
-fingers covered with scales, slime, and cold blood. No, nor to have
-the troublesome job of killing a pike, who of all the animal creation
-surely clung the most tenaciously to life. What they did not know of
-was the Down-life shared by Clare and Lovel; for on those splendid,
-solitary heights they could meet and meet again, unobserved by any save
-the sheep, the larks, and the circling hawks, indifferent to the pacing
-side by side of the two horses over the bitten turf. Various were the
-avocations which took Lovel to the Downs, and if occasion required he
-would call on Clare to lend him a hand, ordering her about, and she,
-meekly, followed his directions as an apprentice. She had even been in
-his shepherd’s-hut with him all day during the lambing season, when
-a blizzard swept across the hills, and he had his hands so full with
-his poor ewes that must be tended and sheltered that he had no time
-left for niceties to spare Clare’s feelings. With set teeth she had
-helped him that day, and had counted his brief comment at the end as
-a well-earned reward. And she had ridden away in the evening with her
-head held down against the driven sleet, and her pony’s mane blown
-right across his neck with little lumps of ice in the rough hair, and
-behind her the yellow light that shown in the window of Lovel’s hut had
-grown smaller and more distant, and she had known that during the whole
-of the night and of many days and nights to follow he would keep the
-vigil attendant upon his trade, and would lay on the straw beside his
-little paraffin lamp the poor weak new-comers into so unpropitious a
-world.
-
-In all seasons and weathers she had known the Downs with him, and like
-sailors at sea they had accepted the bad with the good, without thought
-of avoidance. Like all English country people, they disliked extremes
-of heat as well as extremes of cold; a high summer’s day, when the
-heat winked along the ridge of the hills, held for them none of that
-poetic quality it holds for the idle. Their point of view was sober
-and practical; if feed grew short, they hoped for rain; if the corn in
-the lowlands were flattened by rain, they hoped for fine weather; it
-was simple. If the day were a holiday,--that is to say, if Lovel had
-taken no job,--then they were as content as any other idlers to lie
-soaked in sun upon the most exposed flank of upland they could find.
-They would pull the long grass to nibble it down to the juice at the
-end, or Lovel with a blade of grass drawn taut between his thumbs would
-shrill the empty air with strange whistlings, or they would tease the
-ants and small insects by walling them in with a circle of miniature
-chalk cliffs. Their laughter spread with the song of the larks as
-fresh and clear as water, and the great spaces lay all around them with
-the cloud-shadows chasing one another down and over the slopes, and
-creating in their overhead passage the perpetual variety of mood and
-colour of the Down-country.
-
-Down-country, so temperamental; in halcyon days bright and blithe;
-candid in its well-being, wholesome in its wind-cleaned delight; yet
-keeping in the valleys and sweeping folds the deeper shadows which
-gave it tone like the soberness of some latent melancholy. Upon the
-heights it would receive the sun, and glitter and rejoice like a woman
-in love, but the cup of the valleys was deep with a greater richness,
-with remembrance, and foreboding. So, although simple and large in
-outline, the country,--to Clare and Lovel personal, not inanimate,--was
-not simple with a shallow or trivial simplicity; not the simplicity
-of ignorance or emotional poverty; but with a wisdom that still
-had the courage to be gay,--the reckless gaiety of the profoundly
-tragic. No monotony was possible over that landscape of sunburnt tan,
-of blue distances, and stains of a lowering purple. No monotony,
-no sentimentality; the moods all visible at once over the range of
-country, all definite and certain of their intention, whether the naked
-sunburnt heights, or the brooding plunge of shadow.
-
-Only in winter that ever-present reminder of tragedy fulfilled
-itself. In summer and in autumn it robed itself in peacock colours,
-blue and bronze, a sorrow as sumptuous as the sorrow of a queen. But
-in the winter the splendour was gone, only an austerity like stone
-remained; grey disillusioned Downs, shaven by the winds, shelterless,
-inconsolable. Then came the snow; and up here, where no trees but
-the beech-clumps broke the white, where no hedges strove with their
-little maudlin pretence of security to lessen the rigour of the country
-towards the softness of man, here no flinching availed; grief was
-naked as joy had been naked, to be met and fought with, until that
-despondency should pass and the heights leap out once more into the
-sun of spring, with only the reverberations of the storm rolling still
-about the valleys.
-
-Lovel, who resembled the Downs themselves both in his exuberance of
-spirit with the threat ever-lurking, and in his despair, which was so
-extravagant and so profound when it overcame him that it seemed he
-could never again lift himself out of the slough,--Lovel who for all
-his thought and his reading had never looked into himself or named what
-he would have found there,--Lovel who could no more control his moods
-than the Downs could forbid the sun to burnish their gold-brown slopes
-or the blizzard to rack them with a hell-ride of gale and sleet,--Lovel
-came upon Clare standing in the sun knee-deep in a dew-pond on one of
-the highest ridges of the Downs.
-
-Her patient pony, well-accustomed, strayed and browsed near at hand;
-he snuffed the dry thymy turf; he plucked with disdain at a tuft of
-grass fit only for sheep-pasture. This was not horse-pasture, this
-bare beggarly brown turf up here in the glitter of the sun, beneath
-the exposed and unsheltered windiness of the sky. Open country, open
-country; no higher peaks to climb; miles of open rolling country
-on every side. The clean and airy liberty of open country under a
-blue-and-white heaven. Clare stood in the circle of the dew-pond
-holding her skirts picked up above her knees. She was laughing; she had
-seen first the ears of Lovel’s horse prick up over the rim of the hill,
-then she had seen Lovel himself, not looking to find her, then the
-shoulders of his horse, breasting the sharp climb, then the complete
-slim silhouette of horse and rider and two dogs at heel. And she had
-hailed him; a shout of laughter mingled in with his name; she had
-hailed him. At the top he had drawn rein, shading his eyes against the
-sun, and looking down he had seen her, standing down in the bowl of the
-dew-pond. He had caught her in the act of hesitation, afraid lest she
-should venture out of her depth. Capless, she stood in the dew-pond,
-holding up her skirts, and her white legs disappeared just below the
-knee into the water. She laughed up at him, holding her head a little
-on one side in the way he knew well, which gave her a fleeting and
-elusive appearance, so that her mouth and eyes seemed to slant upwards
-with a fugitive and sylvan air, which materialised but rarely,--or
-when, as now, he caught her at an angle,--but which always hovered
-there, not always willing to be revealed, but ready to glance out at
-the right summons, to whomsoever should hold the shibboleth to produce
-it.
-
-He drew rein, looking down at her, and her pony whinnied a recognition,
-and strayed loose to join Lovel’s horse.
-
-“Not deep!” he called to her.
-
-She ventured a few steps further.
-
-“You have seen it empty,” he rallied her.
-
-“Do you know the secret?” she asked, stopping. The water, disturbed by
-her advance, rippled round her knees.
-
-“Very few know it,” he replied cryptically.
-
-“Ah, but you, Lovel, you know all those secrets. How do they puddle the
-clay? How, to hold the water? I am sure you know it, Lovel! Are you a
-dowser, too? they say so, in the village. They say you can pace over
-the country until the hazel-twigs jump in your hand. Is it true?”
-
-“They say a lot of things in the village,” he replied laughing.
-
-“Does it matter to you what they say?”
-
-“Not when I’m up here,” he replied, tossing his head, and his horse
-tossed his head too, and the bridle jingled.
-
-“Well, but tell me the secret of how they make the dew-ponds,” she
-persisted, kicking with her foot into the water.
-
-“The secret would soon be a secret no longer,” he answered, putting
-her off. “And I never said I knew it.”
-
-“Ah, but you do,” she said; and thought that those who knew the secret
-of the dew-ponds got their knowledge in a straight line of tradition
-from the earliest inhabitants of those regions. “Oh, I do envy you,
-Lovel,” she said, forgetting that she stood in water and stamping with
-her foot so that it splashed up round her, “I do envy you all the queer
-things you have got behind you,--they all seem to run into your fingers
-with your blood.”
-
-He laughed again,--he seemed to be in a good humour to-day, and well
-he might be, with the bright grass glistening round his horse’s feet,
-and over his head the bright blue-and-white spaces where the kestrels
-hovered like little specks, and the green pattern of the fields far,
-far below. He leant over in his saddle to pat the neck of Clare’s
-muzzling pony; they were very much alone up there, with the two
-horses and the two dogs, and the clouds racing by. She stood in the
-dew-pond with that fleeting look still upon her face, as though she
-were a nymph,--a nymph of English uplands, of so fresh and candid and
-sky-mirroring a thing as a dew-pond. The olive and the myrtle were
-alien to her; the pony and the sheep were her beasts, not the goat;
-the round pool of water at her feet shone like the fallen shield of a
-young Amazon. He looked down at her; she looked up at him; they both
-represented their own particular aspect of romance, each to the other.
-“Lovel!” she said, happily. They shared well-being; their own physical
-well-being, and the wholesome cleanliness of the Downs and sky.
-
-
-It was some days after this that Clare received from Calladine an
-invitation to visit him at Starvecrow. Although she was immediately
-aware that she would not reply with a refusal, she felt a shiver of
-chill as though she had been beckoned in from the warm sunshine to a
-cold and cavernous place. The impression was alarmingly vivid both
-in generality and detail. She had met the groom coming up the short
-carriage-drive of the Manor House, and after reading Calladine’s note
-looked up at the gaunt, raw-boned animal that the groom was riding, at
-its ugly quarters, and long melancholy head; she looked into the basket
-in which Calladine had sent her an offering, and saw the trout lying on
-their bed of long grasses, neatly ranged, pointed nose alternating with
-forked tail. The gift seemed to her gruesome and faintly absurd; trout,
-cold, plump, and dead. Yet on the evenings when she had gone fishing
-with Lovel under the willows, the trout as they laid them in the long
-lush grass had seemed gleaming and iridescent, cool from the water, and
-together they had examined the scales on the meshes of the landing-net.
-Lovel had lifted up their gills with his fingers, and had compared
-them to the under-side of a mushroom. But these trout of Calladine’s
-were merely dead; their eyes protruded; their gills were closed. She
-glanced up at the groom, and fancied that a despondency clung about
-him as about his horse, an absence of joy; and then she thought that
-this gloom came upon Calladine’s possessions because he revelled in
-having it so; the very name of his house, Starvecrow!--had he taken the
-house for the sake of its name! had he bought this horse because of its
-starting bones and dejected droop? engaged the groom for his sallow,
-unshaven appearance and lank hair? dismal envoys that he might send in
-reminder from Starvecrow out into a cheerful world?
-
-She turned slowly towards the house, carrying the basket of trout on
-her arm. She had sent back a message of thanks to Calladine with an
-intimation that she would visit him on the following day, and already
-the prospect of this visit was hanging over her, damp and chill.
-Listlessly, when the afternoon arrived she put on her muslin frock and
-her big straw bonnet, listening meanwhile for the sound of wheels on
-the gravel; she saw her own reflection in her mirror, saw herself cool
-and outwardly serene, but the picture gave her little pleasure. This
-with Calladine was one of the few appointments she had ever made in
-her free life, and it irked her curiously. From the first moment of
-her waking in the morning she had felt tied. Like a hobbled colt she
-wanted to kick herself free. That her afternoon should be restricted,
-ordained in advance,--in the midst of her resentment she had laughed
-at her childishness, had been ashamed of her egoism. What would become
-of her were she suddenly to find herself bound for life? She had been
-content to look after her father’s innocent wants; she had not shown
-herself selfish towards him; she could absolve herself from that
-charge; but then, he had not encroached on her comings and goings; she
-had given freely from love what she might have refused from duty. This
-appointment with Calladine was a duty; now she was tied; she could not
-take her pony or her fishing-rod this afternoon if the whim seized
-her. No, she must wait obediently for the arrival of Calladine’s gig;
-she must climb into it and sit meekly beside the sallow groom while
-he drove her to Starvecrow. Arrived there, Calladine would be waiting
-for her, and his pleasure would be her irritation. The appointment
-which had been a restraint to her would have been only a delight to
-him. A sulky child, she stared out of the window for the approach of
-the gig. She heard it now; the scrunch of the wheels, the clop-clop
-of the horse’s trot, and now it came into sight, the familiar high,
-ramshackle affair, gaunt horse and all, clanking up the carriage-drive
-and stopping in its abrupt, dislocated way in front of the door. Clare
-went down. Martha Sparrow was in the hall; she crooned over Clare in
-her lilac-coloured gown. “A flower come to life, my pretty child....”
-Mr. Warrener came out of his study; he saw Clare standing in the
-shadowy hall with Martha fingering round at her flounces; he pushed his
-spectacles on to his forehead. “Why, Clare, where are you going?” “To
-Mr. Calladine, father, I told you.” “Ah, to be sure, to be sure; well,
-he has all the luck; you’re a pretty thing to see.” She kissed him,
-laughed, sprang up into the gig, it started off clumsily, swaying from
-side to side, and the Manor House was lost to sight behind the trees.
-
-The gaunt horse spanked along the lanes; Clare did not talk to the
-groom, who drove with a serious concentration which promised no
-unbending. She wondered whether all the servants with whom Calladine
-surrounded himself were as unprepossessing. She was often more than
-a little impatient with Calladine for his deliberate mournfulness;
-but, more especially since he had told her in so strange a manner the
-history of his life’s passion, she had tried to school herself into a
-reverent sympathy. She felt that she was very young and consequently
-ignorant, and that he was old, sad, experienced, and entitled to her
-respect. Instinctively she folded her hands in her lap, and sat demure.
-But in a moment she was again laughing at herself, and, although she
-tried to reprove herself for the levity, at him. The vexation of the
-appointment was lifting from her; her spirits rose, now that she
-was out in the lanes and could watch the caterpillars hanging from
-the oaks; she would not be affected by Calladine’s gloom, by his
-soberness, his measured smiles. Of what use could she be to him if
-she allowed herself to become as repressed in his presence as he was
-himself? Turning to the groom, she began to talk to him, persevering
-until she got a response, and even some growls of information about
-Mr. Calladine’s stable; as Clare uncovered her own knowledge, the man
-became less grudging, and presently as their argument developed along
-lines of expert interest he was impelled to say that Miss Warrener
-evidently knew a horse when she saw one. Clare laughed merrily, and
-valued the compliment extremely. What she knew, she replied, she had
-learnt from experience and from Gipsy Lovel,--for she was glad of an
-opportunity of pronouncing his name. Ah, that was a chap for a horse,
-he said; or indeed for anything that went on four legs; that was the
-chap to go to a horse-fair with; Miss Warrener would never be cheated
-if she had Gipsy Lovel to give her advice. He seemed to have a feeling
-about horse-flesh; no need to pull their mouths open or run his hand
-over their fetlocks. He, the groom, wondered that Lovel didn’t set up
-as a horse-dealer himself. He would guarantee that Lovel could take
-in most men in the county; yes, and the whole West of England, for
-the matter of that. Clare triumphed in his sudden loquacity. Even
-the gaunt horse seemed to be sharpening its pace,--though possibly
-that might be only because they were drawing nearer to Starvecrow.
-The groom laid the whip across its withers, and it broke into a sort
-of bundling half-canter which rocked the gig up and down and obliged
-Clare to cling on to her big hat; she was amused, because she thought
-that this was the effect of Lovel. They had come now to a particularly
-deserted tract of country, along the foot of the Downs; and, after
-climbing the slope a little way, they saw a group of buildings upon an
-eminence, sheltered,--if shelter it might be called,--by a thicket of
-wind-blown thorn upon the easterly side. Other trees there were none,
-nor any other houses within sight, nothing but the tan rolling of the
-Downs and the road that climbed the hill and was lost to sight over the
-other side. She descried Calladine there at his gate, waiting for her,
-exactly as she had expected to find him. “I hesitated between coming to
-fetch you myself, and remaining here to welcome you when you arrived,”
-he said, as he came forward to help her out of the gig.
-
-She knew at once how pleased he was to see her. There was no
-affectation about his pleasure. It was a tremendous event for him
-to receive her at his house, and he conducted her with infinite
-solicitude, and a half-hesitation which, she knew, was intended to
-give her the opportunity of noticing and commenting upon every detail.
-By a curious process now all the naïveté of her childishness and her
-upbringing dropped from her, and she became as delicately gracious as
-any skilful woman; she remained a little aloof from him, receiving
-his deference as though it were her due, rewarding him in exchange
-with her friendliness and her interest, smiling at his eagerness with
-an amused and sympathetic smile, placing here and there the word of
-approval he most desired, and bestowing upon his possessions the
-appreciation or the gentle derision which for ever after would advance
-them in his eyes. He had never before seen her in this mood. He was
-bewildered and charmed. He had known her delightful and inconsequent,
-wayward and perplexing; he had seen her as a child, he had thought
-of her as a spirit, he had never yet seen her as a woman. Her very
-gestures, he thought, were different; quieter, more secure; and yet she
-had not lost that fugitive air of hers, that shy grace; the combination
-enchanted him. He followed her into the house; he was sure, now, that
-Starvecrow was pleasing her; he need not have been so apprehensive. To
-rest his eyes upon her in his little hall, so cool in her lilac frock,
-filled him with the deepest and most disturbing joy. It was he, now,
-who grew tremulous and at a loss, while she remained so exquisitely
-self-possessed. Seeing that he scarcely knew how best to carry on his
-hospitality,--for he seemed incapable of anything but of gazing at
-her,--it was she who led the way into the inner room, and touched his
-books and looked at the pictures on his walls, and at the view out of
-his window. Had he but known it, she was thinking Starvecrow worthy of
-its name, a desolate place, in a situation without the grandeur to
-compensate for its austerity, and without the comfort to excuse its
-meanness.
-
-“You should plant some cottage roses against your house,” she said,
-“and some bushes of Old Man’s Beard.”
-
-“It shall be done,” he replied, without taking his eyes off her.
-
-She sat down in his worn old leather chair, took off her hat, and
-hung it on the chair-knob. She seemed to him to light the room by her
-presence, the room which was dingy if not actually poor, and which had
-never before had in it anything so delicate and fresh as Clare with
-her muslins and her small yellow head leaning against the chair-back.
-But he was afraid almost of speaking to her, lest he should scare her
-away, so like was she to some small shy animal which by wary gentleness
-he should have enticed into his home. “You are wearing all the colours
-of the dawn,” he said, “lavender and primrose,” and ceased because he
-dared not go on to the blue of her eyes, that he thought like the blue
-of the early sky.
-
-She smiled at him. “You have made no garden here, in all your twenty
-years,” she said. “You should build a wall round a square enclosure,
-and fill the beds between your paths. The wall would protect you
-against the wind and you should grow lupin and iris and tulips,
-honesty, sweet sultan, and snapdragons, and a path down the centre
-between cottage lilies and China roses.”
-
-She was speaking against her own convictions; she infinitely preferred
-her Downs uncultivated; but her instinct, strangely indulgent towards
-Calladine, told her what would most comfort him.
-
-“I have no heart to do such things,” he replied, “but since you order
-it I will set about it immediately.”
-
-“Mr. Calladine,” she said, leaning forward, “when you answer me so
-gravely, are you indeed serious, or are you laughing at me in your
-sleeve?”
-
-“Serious! you can have no idea how serious,” he exclaimed, tempted to
-speak out his whole heart, as he had never before been tempted, by the
-sight of her earnest eyes; and he got up, and walked about the room.
-“Don’t you know, that your caprice would be my only interest? my only
-law? You are the only person,” he said, recollecting himself, “that has
-taken an interest in my poor concerns,--cared whether I steeped myself
-in sorrow or dragged myself out into the wholesomeness of a new life.”
-(“Ah,” cried Clare’s conscience within her, “how little I have cared!”)
-“But for you,” he went on, “I should have continued in my dejection;
-only your encouragement, lately, has revived me, and I have realised
-that I was not the old and finished man I had resigned myself to be. If
-you order me a garden, I will turn gardener at fifty,--if you, that is,
-will be my critic and my adviser, if you will command me to do this and
-do that.”
-
-She saw, then, how easily swayed he was, and how an idea could take
-possession of his mind, for beyond an occasional kindness she could not
-be said to have interested herself at all in his concerns or to have
-encouraged him to forsake the gloomy ways of retrospect or his solitary
-habits of life. Still she was very glad that his imagination should be
-able to thrive on such meagre nourishment; it did her no harm, and she
-was glad if it might do him good.
-
-“You have surely thought for long enough about the past,” she said idly.
-
-Again he seized upon her words, and she reflected with some amusement
-that she had never imagined any one so susceptible to suggestion.
-
-“I will act on what you say,” he exclaimed. He went across to his
-writing table and took from his drawer an etching of a woman, slightly
-tinted, with coarse curly hair, cruel eyes, and a large beautiful
-mouth. Calladine tore it into fragments; he flung the pieces on the
-ground and stamped on them. “I never had the courage to do that
-before,” he said, staring at Clare and breathing heavily; he looked
-really frightened at what he had done, and she knew that he wanted
-her to reassure him. For her part she wanted to laugh, but knew that
-she must not. “You should have done it years ago,” she said sensibly,
-“instead of living in the house with that locked into your drawer.”
-
-“I used to take it out in the evening and pore over it until it nearly
-came alive,” whispered Calladine. He kicked the fragments with his
-toe. “You are my angel,--my guardian,” he said, turning passionately to
-Clare.
-
-She saw that the contradictory being was greatly shaken by what he
-had done. “He will regret it, and be glad,--be glad, and then regret
-again,” she thought shrewdly to herself. She wondered whether she had
-done wisely in not stopping his hand: would he be freed henceforth, or
-would he be haunted? “Now burn those pieces,” she said with authority,
-“or I shall think of you trying to piece them together again, when you
-sit alone here in the evenings.” The idea was half-frightening to her,
-and half-absurd. “Burn them,” she repeated, pointing to the grate.
-
-There was no fire, but Calladine obediently gathered up the fragments
-and burnt each one separately, holding its corner to a lighted match.
-Clare watched him, thinking how familiar must once have been to him
-those shredded features, how he must have kissed that beautiful mouth
-and imagined that he sought for truth in those narrow eyes which only
-returned him mockery. He knelt beside the grate, burning carefully, and
-crumbling the charred paper between his fingers, piece by piece. She
-felt sorry for him suddenly.
-
-“You must not be lonely without your picture,” she said with great
-gentleness.
-
-“I hated it,” said Calladine; “let it go; you have delivered me. You
-saw her, didn’t you, before I burnt her? you saw her exactly as she
-was: I was no match for her.” Clare thought that he could probably
-say this without exaggeration, and that, had she herself met the
-other woman, few words would have been necessary between them for the
-understanding of Calladine. How deep was the confederacy of sex! she
-had never thought of it before; she smiled at Calladine with a detached
-pity. “I have no longer any past,” he went on, “only the present,
-hourly more lovely. Shall we go out for a little and leave the dust of
-the past to settle in this room?”
-
-Clare was glad to go out, for the room was making upon her a sad and
-cold impression, but she found little comfort in the exterior of the
-house, ungarnished as it well could be. She began to talk to Calladine
-again about the garden he must make, for not only was she really
-distressed for his own sake by the bleakness of his dwelling, but
-annoyed, almost, in a feminine way, by the man’s incompetence to deal
-with his own existence, and not unflattered, either, by his submission
-to her directions and the attentiveness with which he received every
-word that came from her lips. She saw that he clung to her as his
-salvation; she became more autocratic, with a pretty tyranny. She would
-transform his patch of desert into an oasis; she, over at King’s Avon
-would think of this Starvecrow as blooming into gaiety and colour by
-her orders. Calladine watched her, and she knew that he watched. But
-she never allowed him to speak of herself, keeping him rigorously
-to the business of his new garden; her laughter rang out, and she
-rallied him, awaking almost against his will the rare smile on his
-melancholy lips. At moments he thought, as he followed her about, that
-he must stretch out his hands and cry to her “Clare! Clare!” No one
-ever treated him as Clare treated him; other people always took him at
-the valuation he set upon himself, composed their faces to a becoming
-sobriety as soon as they perceived his own, and quitted his grave
-company with relief. He chose to construe their acquiescence into a
-grim sort of flattery. But Clare was privileged; Clare might assume
-whatever mood she would; he would endeavour to follow her, perhaps
-clumsily, for he had lost,--or liked to think that he had lost,--the
-habit of lightheartedness; still, she should teach it to him again and
-he would renew his youth.
-
-He had come to the age when the sense of passing days induced a panic.
-Clare had youth, Clare had a reserve of youth on which he could draw
-without impoverishing her; he felt that she gave him life as surely as
-if he drank it at her breast.
-
-She seemed, as she stood in the centre of the square she had designated
-as his future garden, to be all the flowers which should blow there
-presently at her command. He said this to her, in that courtly
-artificial manner he had of saying such things, with so much froth of
-emotion underneath. It was the first personal remark he had made to
-her since they had come out of the house, and it gave him relief. But
-she only laughed again, and this time he could have shaken her with
-rough hands for her laughter, and for her holding off the words which
-would stifle him if they remained unspoken. “Clare,” he said violently.
-
-She glanced at him with that new self-possession; she was maddening
-him, though not with the purpose he would have attributed to any other
-woman. How she eluded him! how she would perpetually elude him! and so
-hold him forever. He knew himself to be fastidious enough to esteem
-only that which he had lost, or could never hope to seize. “Clare,” he
-repeated, this time with a genuine despair.
-
-They went back into the house, where tea had been made ready; she noted
-his preparations, the honey, the girdle-cakes, the fruit and cream.
-He deprecated them, “A bachelor’s house....” “What could be better?”
-she replied; and had slipped from him once more. She ate heartily,
-borrowing a handkerchief to wipe the cream from her lips, unaccountably
-a child again, and a new bewilderment to him. He now felt that what
-he might have said to the woman of whom he had had a glimpse, he
-could not say to the child who trusted herself in his house, and he
-thought with baffled anger, how ably she managed her alternative of
-weapons. A spoonful of honey in one hand, and a cake in the other,
-she leaned forward, talking to him, he more helpless than ever, and
-she more completely in control. He dared not think of his house when
-her presence should have gone out of it; he wondered whether he would
-suffer least pain by returning to his sitting-room directly the gig had
-driven away, by going for a walk on the Downs and returning only after
-dusk, or by driving her himself back to the Manor House. The idea of
-her going at all was intolerable; perhaps he had been unwise to ask her
-to come; perhaps he had only been at his favourite trick of turning the
-knife in the wound. But she was speaking, she was saying, “I shall come
-again to see whether you have prepared our garden against the autumn.”
-
-By her movement he saw that she was about to take her leave; he leapt
-out of his own chair and stood over her, saying wildly, “Don’t go,
-Clare, don’t; how can I bear your going? don’t leave me again, stay
-with me a little longer, I can’t face the loneliness without you,” and
-a stream of incoherent ejaculations flooded from his lips, while his
-hands fumbled towards her, yet with a remnant of soberness he strove to
-restrain them. Clare looked at him calmly, with wondering eyes. “But I
-must go home if my father is not to be kept waiting for his dinner,”
-she said.
-
-Calladine stepped back instantly and released her. “I am sorry,” he
-said. “The loneliness, perhaps, gets a little on my nerves.” He passed
-his hand across his eyes. “You are the first visitor I have welcomed
-here for many years, and your presence threw me off my balance.” He
-tried to speak lightly. “Come, I will take you to the gig,” but still
-he lingered, looking to see whether she had left anything behind,
-in a last attempt to delay her. “Shall I drive you home?” he asked
-desperately.
-
-“No,” she said, not wanting his company at all, “stay here and begin to
-dig the garden.” She smiled. She was anxious to get away. Not until she
-was out in the lanes would she again breathe freely. She went without
-any appearance of hurry, thanking Calladine, who tore from his solitary
-rose-bush all the branches he could crowd into her arms, and climbed
-back into the gig as she had come. He saw her go, despair and joy and
-anguish rending him.
-
-
-The strain and anxiety of being with Calladine drove her, as always,
-towards the wish to be with Lovel. “Brother,” she could have called
-him, from the ease of his companionship. She could have put her hand
-into his, simply for the trust she had in him. But she knew too well
-that the indifference of his greeting would repulse instantly any
-such movement of confidence on her part; he would glance at her, when
-they met, and his glance would take her back into the assurance of
-their old intimacy, but there would be no softening of sentiment in
-it. Never that; a challenge and a bracing, but never compassion or a
-caress. Could she ever go with a trouble to Lovel? Her instinct leapt
-up into an affirmative; he would listen gravely, would understand
-without commiserating, would counsel quietly, and would fortify her
-with a sense of his reliance in her trustworthiness. He would trust
-her to behave always as he would expect that she should behave. She
-would endure anything rather than disappoint Lovel. More: even in his
-absence, even though he should know nothing of it, she kept herself
-constantly up to the level of his standards. She winced at any thought
-of his possible disapproval. She had not for him, nor could she imagine
-herself having, the indulgent and,--school herself to reverence as
-she would,--contemptuous pity she had for Calladine; what had she
-told Calladine to do? to grow lupin and iris, tulips and honesty,
-sweet sultan and snapdragons, in a walled patch of what had once been
-Down-land! to _wall_ the Down? was it possible that she had told him to
-wall in the Down? what gulf she must divine between him and herself,
-between him and the Down-country in which he had elected to live, if
-she could tell him to wall in the Down. Yes, even a square, a stray
-square of Down, forgotten between a lane and Starvecrow’s farm-house.
-What would Lovel say, if she told him that? True, Lovel himself was
-sometimes set on to plough the Down, and willingly proceeded with the
-task; but that was different: that was the old struggle between man
-and the soil from which he wrested his daily bread; Lovel would tame
-the Down to grow barley for man or roots for his cattle,--a poor crop
-at best, extorted from the recalcitrant soil, like charity from an
-irreconcilable spirit, a poor crop, flaunting red poppies for its last
-flag of insubordination,--Lovel would plough the Down for that purpose,
-and relish the tussle, meeting in mutual understanding an adversary as
-stubborn as he himself; but for his mere pleasure he would not wall in
-a square to grow the effeminate flowers of decoration. They would blow
-and curtsey, Calladine’s flowers, until a wind swept over them from the
-angry Downs and laid them low,--but stay, what had she said?--“The wall
-will protect them against the wind.” Yes, and protect Calladine too: he
-could not stand up against the winds from the Downs. So, in her heart,
-she pitied Calladine and was disposed to see him protected? What had
-he done to deserve from her the insult of that charity? She had seen
-Lovel go out into a snowstorm on the heights and had not feared for his
-discomfort or his danger, any more than he feared for hers. Calladine
-she would have prevented with kind, firm words on the threshold of the
-door.
-
-And it so happened, at her first meeting with Lovel after her visit to
-Starvecrow, that she, riding, sighted him in the distance following
-a plough-team over a curve of hill. He was not at work in one of the
-folds of the lower reaches, the favourite position for the rare stains
-of cultivation. He and his team were in outline against the sky,
-following the slow and classical progression of the furrow over the
-curve; the hempen reins looped slackly from the horses’ heads to his
-hand; the man, the horses, and the plough pursued their way, disengaged
-from all but the essentials of their labour, with the old inevitable
-simplicity. Clare rode towards the brown patch and, reaching Lovel,
-rode at a walk beside him up and down the freshly-turned furrows.
-The bright share cut cleanly into the sod, turning it over. They
-both watched it, as it slid through the sod, with a professional and
-satisfied criticism. “Poor soil,” Lovel said once; otherwise they had
-not spoken. She liked to watch him plough, appreciating his dexterity,
-and the jump of the plough-shaft under his hand; she liked his voice
-ringing out to the horses at the turn. The slow rhythm soothed her.
-“Who are you ploughing for?” she asked. “Morland,” he said briefly.
-“Shall you be finished by six?” she asked, looking across at the
-westering sun; and he nodded. “I’ll wait,” she said, and getting off
-her pony, she slipped the reins over her arm and stood watching Lovel
-without impatience.
-
-At six he unhitched his team and came across to her, the horses
-slouching along behind him. “An ungrateful job,” he remarked, staring
-resentfully at the stony furrows; “they never put me on to the loam;
-always the chalk for me.” “I wish you had a bit of land of your own,”
-she said. “Ay, I’d get the better of it,” he replied, suddenly eager.
-
-His team stood patient, heavy and shining compared to her small pony.
-The curious light of sunset began to creep over the Downs, turning
-their tan to a rosy orange. “Fine weather,” nodded Lovel. He turned
-to his horses, and began to adjust a bit. The rooks were settling on
-the patch that he had ploughed. He stooped down, and picking up a lump
-of earth, crumbled it between his fingers. Clare, observing his fine,
-bony, downward-bent face, knew that he was reflecting. Sure enough, he
-raised it to say, “How would you bring them up, if you had children?”
-
-“Have you been thinking about children?” she asked, amused.
-
-“It’s thinking about children,” he replied seriously, “that shows
-you the things we base life on. There’s money, there’s humbug, and
-there’s death. What do we say over and over again to children? ‘Don’t
-touch that, you’ll break it, it’ll cost money to replace.’ ‘Be
-polite,’--that’s humbug. ‘Don’t do that, you’ll hurt yourself,’--that’s
-death, really, or at any rate the fear of injury. A child doesn’t see
-much difference between being alive or being dead. As for money, or
-for time, which is the same thing, it takes him years to get his brain
-round those two things. It’s a fine and careful system we’ve got,
-haven’t we? While I was following the plough, I was having an imaginary
-conversation with a child. ‘If I was dead,’ said he, ‘I shouldn’t know
-that I was dead, so what would it matter?’ And I couldn’t find an
-answer in my head.”
-
-“But if you had children of your own,” said Clare, “you would find
-yourself bringing them up in the same way.”
-
-“Oh, perforce,” he replied, “but that’s the end of all theories. We’re
-chained by necessity; it’s the wire across the path that brings the
-horse down in mid-gallop. We’ve got to teach our children caution,--the
-fear of death,--merely to keep them alive until they grow up. And all
-that we should enjoy teaching them is obscured by the don’ts and the
-shoutings-out to keep their limbs whole and our crockery unbroken.”
-
-“Well,--and humbug?” she said.
-
-“That’s civilisation. ‘What’s polite,’ asks the child, and ‘what’s a
-lie?’”
-
-“Would you like to have children of your own?” asked Clare.
-
-“Yes,” replied Lovel briefly, and changed the subject. “I have to bring
-a handful of sheep home for Mr. Morland from the fair at Marlborough on
-Tuesday. Will you be going to the fair? Horses, mostly.”
-
-“I’ll go with you,” said Clare in delight, clapping her hands.
-
-“Better meet me there, as ’twere by chance,” said Lovel, suddenly a
-little grim. “‘Miss Warrener taking up with gipsies,’--I can hear them
-talk. No, meet me there, make out you’re interested in a pony, and
-fetch me to have a look at him.”
-
-“But we can ride home together?” said Clare crestfallen.
-
-“We’ll meet outside the town and come home over the Downs. I don’t want
-all the gig-wheels in amongst my sheep.”
-
-She laughed suddenly, seeing how practical he was, and liking it.
-
-He slipped the reins of his team from off the gate-post where he had
-hitched them, and hoisted himself, sitting side-ways, on to one of the
-great elephantine backs. He sat there, slack and swaying to the horse’s
-tread, in the manner of all carters, and the other two horses lumbered
-after him, their hoofs going plop-plop in the thick dust of the road,
-and the hair round their fetlocks flopping as on spaniels’ paws. Clare
-followed him, light on her pony. They did not become him well, she
-thought, those great horses; he demanded the slimmer, swifter animals
-of creation, hares, Arabs, or deer. But it amused him to play the
-plough-boy. How indifferent he seemed, she thought,--scarcely looking
-at her, riding on with his gaze held towards the sunset; how different
-from Mr. Calladine’s eagerness to propitiate her; and a tiny sore of
-feminine vanity was pricked. Then she laughed at herself, immediately;
-what was she expecting from Lovel, her Lovel? expecting him to be
-different from himself? she would not like it if he were. And she knew
-that he was content to have her there, even though he never troubled to
-look around.
-
-Lovel set off in a practical mood for Marlborough fair. He was thinking
-of the sheep he had to buy and bring home for Farmer Morland; in a way
-the farmer’s trust provoked in him a sort of contemptuous pride, and,
-poacher and free-lance though he was, he would have scorned to make
-a penny’s profit for himself out of the transaction. The commission
-was given him to execute; the farmer relied upon his honesty and his
-knowledge; the thing was simple: that was a trust of which he would not
-take advantage. On his lawless expeditions, he was betraying no man’s
-confidence; the keepers all knew him, and, meeting him unprofessionally
-in the lanes, would exchange with him a grin and even a wink of
-understanding. They stood for the law, and he for the skill that would
-defeat the law; they knew it, and he knew that they knew it; that was
-a frank challenge, with sport in it on either side; but as for Farmer
-Morland’s sheep, a mere matter of money, he would never demean himself
-to a bargain with the middle-man, and the farmer’s interests, for the
-moment, were his own. He might next week be snaring the same farmer’s
-ditches; that was a separate matter.
-
-At the back of his mind, as he rode ambling along on the strip of grass
-at the roadside towards Marlborough, he retained the knowledge that he
-had arranged with Clare a meeting at the fair. The knowledge lay there,
-like a warm patch in his consciousness, and he enjoyed keeping it just
-out of sight, while he directed his thoughts on to the sheep, and noted
-the farmers, shepherds, and cattle-men who streamed along the road in
-the same direction that he himself was taking, some on horseback going
-at a quick trot, some in their high spanking gigs, and some crawling
-in farm-carts with pigs and calves bundled up under a net. All the
-pastoral population of the district seemed to be streaming towards
-Marlborough along the great arterial road, and Lovel had no doubt that
-they were streaming equally towards it along the road on the further
-side of the town, and not along the main road only, but converging
-upon Marlborough by all the lanes and lesser roads, from Devizes and
-Savernake, from Ogbourne St. George and Ogbourne St. Andrew, from the
-Winterbournes and the Hintons. He surveyed them as they passed him;
-they were known to him for the most part, solid men and honest enough,
-their faces as broad and open as the country which had bred them;
-and the shepherds, who with their slow, limited movements seemed to
-resemble the animals committed to their care, contented in not having
-a preoccupation beyond the recurrent business of the animal year,
-with its breeding, shearing, and dipping; and the old wiseacres, who,
-although they no longer bought or sold, made a practice of attending
-all the local fairs where their fat cobs would carry them, there to
-criticise and shake their heads over the methods of their juniors.
-Lovel watched them all go by, feeling himself slightly alien, as
-though he had been all the while conscious of his darkness beside their
-ruddiness.
-
-Gig-wheels rattled and hoofs spanked crisply along the ringing road,
-and Lovel watched them go by, the stream, like life itself, hurrying
-past him. That old road had known the traffic of the past and present,
-and,--although there was not much to tempt his reflectiveness in
-the wide airiness of the light-coloured summer morning,--he said
-to himself, addressing his thoughts to the rubicund pre-occupied
-agriculturists, that after all the hair-splitting and tangle introduced
-by love, malice, envy, ambition, or their kindred, were cleared aside
-and done with, the main business of life was nothing more than the
-maintenance of life, else why all this buying and selling, this labour
-and breeding, this system which produced tilled fields and stout
-farmers trotting to market, cattle-pens in Marlborough market-place,
-and booths with headstalls and shovels? so that nine-tenths of the
-population were so taken up with the business of living that it was
-time to die before they had ever had leisure to take a look at life at
-all. Lovel, thinking thus, looked at them in his detached way with a
-little envy, a good deal of sarcasm, and a complex wistfulness, failing
-to find any meaning in the conclusions his logic had led him to. A lot
-of pother, just to keep alive; and for what purpose?
-
-All over the civilised world, on which Marlborough was a speck, they
-were doing it; but they would not understand Lovel if he told them so,
-and he knew better than to diminish his reputation of being a practical
-man.
-
-And now in spite of all his thoughts which bore him away on absences
-of speculation, his horse, which had been carrying him more soberly
-along, brought him in sight of Marlborough, and he saw the concourse of
-gigs, from which the horses had been unharnessed and led away, standing
-parked with the shafts stuck upright in the air, and beyond them the
-lime-whitened hurdles which penned up the tossing sheep; he saw the
-gaitered legs moving among the open spaces; he heard the barking of
-sheep-dogs as they rushed excitedly round, he heard the cries of the
-vendors and the lowing of the puzzled cattle. A cattle-market and horse
-fair was to him no novelty; he got off his horse, and, not thinking any
-more now of the cumbersome system of civilisation which had gathered
-all those men and beasts together from their homes to the same spot at
-the same hour, he walked round surveying with as shrewd an eye as any
-farmer there the merits and demerits of the goods and livestock offered
-for sale. The principal business of the sale was not yet begun, but
-a good deal of private bartering and haggling was going on, and the
-sellers at the opening of their booths were crying their wares, whether
-wooden baskets, hay-rakes, tarred twine, leggings, hedging gloves,
-chaff-cutters, milking-stools, scythes, sickles, carters’ whips,
-churns, shears, or in fact any of the smaller articles necessary to
-pastoral or agricultural existence. The whips hung up in heaves made
-gay with scarlet braid; the wooden goods were displayed along the front
-of the booths, clean and newly-planed, showing the honest grain of
-the wood and smelling fresh of sawn edges and rosin; and on some of
-the booths, fluttering like flags, were hung coloured petticoats and
-shawls to tempt the men to bring home a remembrance to their women.
-There were tinkers too, selling shining saucepans, and gipsies with
-bead necklaces; a dancing bear ambling along on a leash; hokey-pokey
-carts, and a hurdy-gurdy; and outside the town, in a field, was
-encamped a travelling circus, with a roundabout and a set of swings,
-that awoke in its progress shrieks of terror and ecstasy all over
-rural England. Among the various attractions, Lovel moved quietly and
-alone, his two dogs at his heels, as self-contained as their master.
-Several strangers threw curious glances at him, for his quiet step,
-which they thought stealthy, and the darkness and leanness of his air,
-which so differentiated him from the fair sturdy weight of the crowd
-of countrymen. Interrogation by these strangers evoked a glance and a
-reply, contemptuous in intention, yet respectful in its immediate hint
-of mystery, “Egyptian, they do say ... queer tales.” But Lovel, if he
-noticed these rare enquiries, paid no attention; he was accustomed to
-feel himself shunned and dreaded, and his dogs seemed to share his
-loneliness, for they never crossed the road to nose another dog, but
-kept to Lovel’s heels, and woke to interest only when there were sheep
-or steers to be shepherded, in the same way as the man was scornful
-and kept himself aloof, but spoke keenly and with authority when any
-question arose relating to his various professions.
-
-Amongst the cries and distractions of the market Lovel tried to keep
-his mind fixed upon the sheep business which had brought him there,
-until that should be despatched, but there was another business which
-kept his eyes straying round, and that was the hope of perceiving
-Clare, a small and merry figure, with her pony’s rein slung over her
-arm. He did not shirk, in his own mind, the desire he had to catch
-sight of her, or the sudden relief and satisfaction that sight would
-bring him. So long as she was there, Heaven might pour and thunder;
-but all would still be well. So long as he had not seen her, the sun
-might shine; there would still be a darkness at his heart. Lovel long
-since had faced this truth with resolution and a complete despair; but
-with no attempt to delude himself or to minimise. It lay quietly at
-the bottom of his heart, a quiet patch of certainty, which shouts and
-jostlings and an alert scrutiny of the frightened herds were powerless
-to disturb. It was there, like a thing he must put out of sight for the
-moment, but to which he would have to turn presently, when his business
-was finished; he would have to turn to it,--not reluctantly, but in
-due course, like returning home,--he would have to attend to it,
-grapple with it, decide what was to be done.
-
-He found that his eyes strayed round increasingly, looking for her; her
-continued absence produced an emptiness, in which all things seemed
-meaningless and noisy. Then he saw her, standing at a little distance
-chatting to the landlord of the Royal George Inn, and a great calm
-spread, lake-like, over him. She was at hand; nothing else mattered. He
-proceeded quietly to transact his business, having all his faculties
-now undistracted about him; he did not even want to look at her, now
-that he knew that she was there; she would wait for him and though they
-both stood talking to other people, without betraying the consciousness
-of one another he knew that they were really converging, that their
-two lives were really converging upon the same moment when they would
-join up and turn to leave the market-place, without a word spoken,
-together. Sure enough, next time that he looked up, she had drawn a
-little nearer; he was glad; he felt his absolute silent unity with her,
-without any question of command or submission on either side, an almost
-sexless unity, and one that had grown up without any agreement spoken
-in words.
-
-“Those’ll be father’s sheep, Lovel?” said a voice ingratiating, at his
-elbow.
-
-He looked down, and saw Daisy Morland, the farmer’s daughter, her large
-freckled face raised amiably to his between the puffed red ringlets.
-Lovel disliked Daisy as much as Daisy liked him; he avoided her company
-as pointedly as she sought his; the fact that he was for the moment in
-her father’s employ no doubt encouraged her to think that she had a
-certain claim on him; and now especially when his mind was bent upon
-Clare she seemed to him more than usually aggressive.
-
-“I’ll help you drive them home,” she exclaimed brightly.
-
-“No need, I have the dogs,” said Lovel, and added, “thanks,” which he
-was far from feeling.
-
-“No trouble, you know,” said Daisy, giving him a look full of meaning.
-
-Several of their neighbours were watching the scene with amusement.
-
-“Best let me take them quietly,” said Lovel; “and anyhow,” he added, as
-though that settled the matter, “I’m riding.”
-
-“Oh, but I’ve got the cob!” cried Daisy triumphantly.
-
-“Best not,” said Lovel, for he could think of nothing else to say.
-
-“But I say yes,” said Daisy. “Come, Lovel,” she persisted in a coaxing
-voice, “my own father’s sheep? You wouldn’t stop me riding alongside
-you?”
-
-Lovel felt himself beaten; he had, indeed, no reasonable objection to
-raise.
-
-“I shan’t be taking them by the high road.”
-
-“So much the better,” said Daisy.
-
-A clear voice said beside them suddenly, “Lovel, I have a favour to
-ask; I don’t like riding alone in such a crowd of people, may I ask
-your escort back to the Manor House when you go?”
-
-He turned upon Clare, who had come up unobserved, and saw the mischief
-beneath the request so formally and demurely proffered.
-
-“Of course, Miss Warrener, I am at your service,” he replied instantly,
-and they stood, for a moment, the two of them together, looking at
-Daisy, whose freckled face had grown suffused with an unbecoming red,
-that clashed with the red of her hair and spread patchily round her
-throat down to the opening of her gown.
-
-“Forgive me for interrupting you, Daisy,” said Clare serenely.
-
-Daisy mumbled a “No matter, miss,” class triumphing over sex.
-
-“Can I get your pony for you, Miss Warrener?” said Lovel to Clare
-politely.
-
-“I will wait till you are ready,” said Clare politely to Lovel!
-
-Their eyes met.
-
-“Let us go,” said Lovel irresistibly.
-
-With the clamour of the market all round them they manœuvred the little
-flock of sheep out of their pen into a side-street, leading their
-horses till they should be clear of the town. The cries of the market
-place died away behind them,--the market place where Daisy still stared
-after them with a stare of dull, revengeful anger, too stupefied to
-care as yet that the whole of Marlborough should have witnessed her
-humiliation. But, having no pride, she minded this less than the loss
-of the ride she had promised herself with Lovel. Miss Warrener had got
-him, taken him coolly away from under her very nose; they had drifted
-away together without any fuss as though they belonged naturally to
-one another. Miss Warrener! Who would have thought of meeting Miss
-Warrener at a cattle-market? It was not the first time, either, that
-Daisy had seen Lovel and Miss Warrener together, not by any means the
-first time, since she was not above following Lovel secretly and spying
-upon him up there on the Downs when he thought himself safe. But who
-could have thought that the girl would have come to Marlborough fair
-for the purpose of meeting Lovel? for Daisy had no doubt that that had
-been Clare’s intention; and so cool about it, so lady-like, “Lovel,
-I have a favour to ask” indeed! “Lardy-da!” said Daisy to herself,
-mincingly, as she angrily imitated Clare’s manner in her own mind,
-affecting to despise it, while really envying it as she would never
-have acknowledged.
-
-She woke to the realisation that the market was still proceeding,
-with its shouts, its jostlings, and its huddling of beasts, round her
-immobilised figure, and, bestirring herself, she went in search of the
-fat cob, meaning to follow (at a distance, and keeping out of sight),
-Lovel and Clare on their ponies, who, she calculated, must by now be
-driving the little flock before them over the crest of the hill.
-
-And she saw them go, with the eyes of a jealous woman, and knew that
-during the two succeeding days, while Lovel kept the flock at pasture,
-Miss Warrener joined him again, and sat with him on the Grey Wethers;
-she saw all his length stretched on the grass at Miss Warrener’s feet,
-and saw their fingers close together over some cat’s cradle that they
-were playing. But she saw no more than that, though she watched so that
-there wasn’t much that her eyes could have missed.
-
-
-Lovel rode slowly away along the back of the Down, the woolly flock
-tossing and huddling along in front of him, in a hurried, senseless
-way, controlled by the barking of the two sheepdogs, who were swift to
-chase up a straggler, or to straighten out any unseemly bulge at the
-side of the flock,--that same flock that he had bought at Marlborough
-fair for Farmer Morland. Lovel, knowing he could trust his dogs, rode
-in an abstraction. The afternoon sun cast fitful, fan-shaped gleams
-down through the thin clouds, like sunbeams passed through a sieve, or
-seen through a veil of the finest rain; it produced an effect of shadow
-and wet gold familiar to him in his comings and goings over the Downs,
-but now for the first time it occurred to him to compare the outside
-world with his own life; and, while his meetings with Clare might
-stand for that wet gold, the shadows fell mournfully into a yet more
-inevitable analogy.
-
-He came down into the village by dusk, regretful as ever to exchange
-the heights for the hollow. Up there he seemed to shake off for a
-little the burden of his life, which as soon as he re-entered the ring
-of the village he resumed. He was, however, too well-accustomed to this
-sensation to pay any particular attention as he passed through the
-gap of the embankment. “Charmed circle,” his mother had often croaked
-to him, but he always shrugged disdainfully, knowing well that his
-imagination was all too ready to be led away along such lines, and
-being determined to keep his good sense wholesomely about him. The
-tossing woolly backs of the sheep preceded him now in a long wedge,
-four or five abreast, down the narrow road; they bleated uneasily, and
-tried to break through the hedge on either side. “Poor silly things,
-ye don’t like being penned up any better than the rest of us,” Lovel
-said to them, as he bent from his horse to open the gate into the
-field, and called to his dogs to head off the flock, which crowded back
-helter-skelter through the gate and then dispersed themselves in a
-sudden browsing content in the field among the monoliths.
-
-Lovel called off his dogs and pulled the gate shut again, with the
-crook of his riding whip. He surveyed the sheep for a moment over
-the gate: they were already grazing, dim shapes in the dusk, on the
-comparatively rich pasture after the short turf of the Downs. “A
-good lot,” Lovel thought professionally, “and all for the butcher
-to-morrow,” but he had no sentiment to waste over the fate of the
-sheep. He rode on into the village, leaving the circle of the
-embankment with its few naked trees, behind him; ahead of him, the
-church spire rose up against the sky, and presently as he turned the
-corner the village street came fully into view, with all its necessary
-provisions for the conduct of existence: houses for folk to be born in,
-shops where they might purchase the paraphernalia of daily life, the
-tavern where they might be merry, the church where they might worship,
-be christened, married, or buried according to their passing needs,
-and the chapel where, if they were so inclined, they might differ as
-to their faith with their fellow-men. Church and Chapel Lovel ignored
-altogether, a work which his mother had begun for him by refusing
-flatly to have him made a Christian. “You’ll call him Nicholas Lovel
-for all that Parson don’t souse him,” she had said, arms akimbo, to the
-indignant deputation of the parish.
-
-John Sparrow was turning into the Waggon of Hay as Lovel rode past it.
-“Come join us, neighbour?” he said half in mischief; the wits of the
-village lived in constant hope that some day, some day, a liquor potent
-or sufficient enough should be found to loosen the lips of Gipsy Lovel,
-and what secrets they would hear then! Lovel was briefly tempted, then
-he shook his head, and passed on: his mother and brother would be
-waiting for their meal for him, too helpless to begin without him since
-he had said he would be home by four. At that moment the Church clock
-struck six: he was two hours late, two hours he had idled away with
-Clare. He strung himself up to endure the reproaches with which he knew
-he would be greeted.
-
-He left his horse in the small paddock at the back of the house, and,
-carrying the bridle and saddle over his arm, returned to the street and
-went into the house by the front door. The passage within was dark, but
-by long habit he found the hooks on which to hang up his gear, and at
-the noise he made in doing so, and the tread of his riding boots on the
-flagged floor, his brother came eagerly out into the passage, carrying
-a candle.
-
-“Oh, Nicholas, is it you? Why, you promised to be home by four, and it
-is gone six; where in the world have you been all this time? I have
-been three times down the road to look for you.”
-
-“I wish you would do nothing of the sort when I am late,” Lovel said
-curtly. He hated his brother at that moment, he hated the dark house
-and the implied reproach; his two hours with Clare flooded over him.
-“Is supper ready, at least?”
-
-Olver whined, “I had forgotten about supper,--I thought only of
-you,--don’t be angry with me, Nicco,--I know I should have set it out.”
-
-“It does not matter,” said Lovel: if he got angry Olver would cringe,
-and whine the more. “Give me the candle, I will see to it.” He took
-the candle from Olver’s hand, and Olver’s strange eyes gleamed on him
-in its light with questioning timidity. The grandfather’s clock ticked
-loudly out of the dark recesses of the passage. “I hope you have kept
-the fire going,” said Nicholas, opening the door into the living room.
-Olver followed at his heels with the dogs.
-
-The living-room was dark and low, lit redly by the logs in the open
-fire-place, and because there was neither paint nor paper on the
-walls the great stones of the masonry were visible. The eye looked
-down instinctively to find a floor of hard-trodden mud,--and was
-disappointed, for the floor here, like that of the passage, was formed
-of flag stones. There was little furniture: a centre table, which
-served for meals, a few chairs of cane and wood, a tall dresser reared
-against one wall, containing on its shelves the crockery for everyday
-use, and a shelf above the fire-place, on which stood a row of china
-fruits in bright, shining colours,--this comprised the sum total of
-furniture and decoration in the whole room. Lovel scarcely noticed
-what was in the room and what was not; he liked the stone walls, and
-would not have them covered up, but them he liked for the sake of their
-tradition and of the quarry from which they had come.
-
-He now set the candle on the table, and got from out of the cupboard
-under the dresser a loaf of bread, some cheese and butter, and the
-necessary knives and plates. He did this menial work mechanically; he
-had long ceased to expostulate with his brother, or to induce him to
-mend his neglectful ways. He supposed, when he thought about it at all,
-that till the end of his life he would continue to serve and provide
-for his mother and his brother. He was their provider, their protector,
-their victim, their master, and their slave; that was his function, and
-he did not complain against it. A servant he would not get, even could
-he have paid the wages ten times over, because of the tattle carried
-to the village. He saw, then, in the simplicity of his mind, no other
-course open to him than to perform all the duties himself.
-
-He set aside upon a tray a cup of tea, when he had made it, and a bowl
-of gruel for the bedridden old woman upstairs. This he gave to Olver,
-telling him to carry it up carefully, and stood himself at the foot of
-the stairs holding up the candle for a light. He heard the door open
-above, and his mother’s querulous voice. He smiled grimly to himself as
-he thought of how long she had been waiting for her tea, and of what
-she would have said could she have known the cause, and have seen the
-two figures of himself and Clare standing in the sunlight on the Downs.
-This radiant vision of Clare crossed his heart in a flash; it hurt him.
-_Had_ his mother seen them? he never knew himself the true extent of
-the powers he must not allow himself to think about, because he was
-afraid of them. Gipsy Lovel, he knew they called him in the village....
-
-Olver came down again, and still his eyes sought his brother’s face
-to find whether he had been forgiven. His brother’s servility and
-excessive devotion to himself exasperated Nicholas. He sat over his
-supper tossing bits of food to the dogs, and trying to pretend to
-himself that Olver with his searching eyes and anxious face was not
-sitting opposite to him in mute beseeching, hanging on to his looks and
-gestures. Nicholas despised himself for his churlishness, but to-night
-his home, his brother, were violently intolerable to him. He could not
-breathe, he was being stifled; he rose nervously and kicked the logs
-into a blaze; in the middle of doing this he swung round.
-
-“Why do you follow me so with your gaze?” he asked impatiently.
-
-“You are angry with me, Nicco, for having forgotten the supper, but
-indeed I thought only of you, and you are all I have in the world.”
-
-Lovel said, not unkindly, “Well, you wasted your anxiety: I am better
-able than most to look after myself. I am not angry any more,” but in
-spite of his words he still felt that the house oppressed him, and
-that a restlessness, usually kept under control, was gnawing at him.
-He knew well whom to blame: it was Clare, who appeared to him the
-personification of all he had abjured. He had had Clare for two hours
-before his eyes, the sight of her stirring him as the wind stirs a
-bell, and now in the place of Clare he was returned to the monotony
-of his sad home; in the full determination not to think of Clare he
-crossed over to the fire where his dogs already lay sleeping, filled
-his pipe and lighted it, and forthwith began to dream of nothing but
-Clare as he sat gazing into the heart of the red ashes.
-
-She was so little known to him; he liked to picture,--yet his
-bashfulness made of it a fearful pleasure,--the ordering of her room,
-of her clothes laid neatly in drawers; he thought of her ribbons; he
-knew that in the evenings she discarded her gauntlets and her cap and
-wore soft coloured silks--he had heard Martha Sparrow say so. He had
-never seen her in these; was never likely so to see her; he trembled
-at the thrill of so seeing her: her arms would be bare, her throat
-rounded and white, with red corals up it. Yet he was not sure that he
-desired to see her thus, save as an experience, for thus the difference
-between them would be most emphasised; when he met her upon the Downs,
-and their ponies fell into step side by side, then she was at her
-closest to him, seeing the heavens and the hills with the same eye,
-knowing the same things as he knew, reading the signs of the weather,
-picking up the same landmarks familiar to them both; but such was the
-tremulousness of his mind that he wavered between the preference of
-knowing her at her closest, or at her most remote: the one caressed
-him infinitely, but the other mystified and tempted him, and made his
-pleasure into a rapturous pain. What hope had he of ever beholding
-in the flesh that wraith which his fancy evoked? he, Lovel, sitting
-over the fire with his two rough dogs and his mazed brother, and at
-the end of a day’s shepherding, while she dined at the Manor House
-with her father in the warmth of lamplight and the quiet dignity of
-pervading scholarship? She was gracious enough to him when they met on
-the hills; there, the closeness of their age and pursuits made them
-forgetful of their other disparities; the same rain made them both
-wet, the same wind ruffled their hair; but with her nod of farewell,
-kindly though it might be, they were instantly severed: he sank, she
-rose, and drifted out of his reach. He was indignant that an accident
-of fortune should be the mean occasion of parting them, an accident of
-fortune, not of birth, for by lineage the Lovels, although so fallen,
-had, in the pride of their Egyptian blood, no comparison to fear. Then
-he remembered that a deeper irony kept him apart from any woman. He had
-before him constantly the sight of his mother and brother to uphold
-him in the resolution that with the three of them the race must end.
-Such blood must not be carried on. But because the primitive instincts
-were deep and intractable in him, the renunciation roused his anger;
-his animal birthright was to beget sons, and he rebelled against the
-chance that cheated him of it; and in the same train of thought came
-the image, whose lovely audacity appalled even while it enraptured
-him, of his children and Clare’s; he saw their strong limbs and heard
-their laughter, an image vivid and actual, and--he swore to himself--of
-a wholesome inspiration. He must see and think no more of Clare! But
-as he came to this conclusion, Olver, who had been squatting on the
-opposite side of the hearth, stirring the ashes and shooting furtive
-glances from time to time at his brother, said, “There came for you a
-message while you were away, from Mr. Warrener, to know would you go
-up to the Manor House to-morrow, to fix shelves for his books. William
-Baskett came with the message, and says, Mr. Warrener is impatient, and
-though the books have been stacked up on the floor for over a year,
-must needs have the shelves ready to-morrow now that he had at last
-taken the idea into his head.”
-
-“I cannot go,” said Lovel moodily.
-
-He gave no reason. He thought that the effort was being made
-unnecessarily hard for him by this chance intervention. True, he
-might not set eyes on Clare, but even so the Manor House would be so
-redolent of her as to trouble him to the soul. She might be absent;
-but, again, she might come into the room and stand over him while he
-sawed and planed, chattering to him in her fashion, at once grave and
-light-hearted. “I cannot go,” he said, afraid for himself.
-
-Olver shuffled across the hearth and knelt at his brother’s feet,
-looking up into his face.
-
-“There is a weight on your mind, brother. Oh, yes, no use in shaking
-your head: I always know. Won’t you tell Olver? You don’t know what
-powers I might have to help you,--no, no, nothing that you disapprove
-of,” he added hastily, seeing Lovel’s face darken, “but you know, you
-often say I’ve a kink of wisdom, and so I have,” he went on, carried
-away, as he readily was, by his vanity. “Only you cannot appreciate it,
-brother, or you would trust me more.”
-
-Lovel would have given much to be left in peace just then in order
-to pursue his quarrel with his own heart, but he was incapable of
-slighting his brother’s demonstrations of affection, so he put his hand
-on the head pressed against his knee, and, without speaking, caressed
-the curls in a manner he hoped was not too obviously perfunctory. He
-felt Olver’s instant yielding under the caress, and the creature’s
-pathetic dependence only increased his melancholy. “It costs me so
-little, and means so much to him,” he thought, and continued to soothe
-Olver’s temples with the tips of his fingers.
-
-They sat in silence for some time, a silence disturbed only by the sigh
-of a tired dog in his sleep, or by the falling apart and flaring of a
-log. Presently Olver said, in a meditative tone, without moving, “You
-hated me, Nicco, when you first came in and I asked you where you had
-been. Yet I have often asked you that, and you have not been angry.”
-
-“You knew where I had been: driving sheep for Mr. Morland,” replied
-Lovel mechanically.
-
-“Yes,--and meeting Miss Warrener.” Olver gave a great chuckle. “Oh,
-yes, I know,” he continued, “because the first time I went down the
-road to see whether you were coming I met Miss Warrener, riding on her
-pony, and she stopped to ask me how I did, and said that she had seen
-you. She carried a bunch of gorse slung at her saddle, which she said
-you had cut for her. Is that how the land lies, brother?”
-
-“No, no,--simple boy,--never hint such a thing.” Lovel was angry, and
-extraordinarily distressed.
-
-“_I_ know,” said Olver, nodding sagely. He rambled on, “Daisy Morland
-has seen you together, and because she wants you for herself her
-eyes are sharpened. I found her in Farmer Morland’s barn, cutting
-mangolds for the cattle. She asked me to help her. Very soon I was
-cutting mangolds alone, and she was lying in the hay watching me. She
-said, ‘That brother of yours is a sly dog,--hoity, toity with us poor
-girls,--too good to speak to a Christian,--and all because he fries
-other fish in secret.’ I asked her what she meant. She tossed her head
-and said it was not for her to give away your secrets to me. So I
-stopped cutting, and threw her down on her back in the hay, and tickled
-her till she promised she would tell me. She was soft to tickle; she
-squealed and wriggled about. Why don’t you like her?” asked Olver.
-
-“Go on,” Nicholas answered.
-
-“Then she said she had been hiding behind a rick somewhere up near
-the Grey Wethers, and she had seen you come riding along with Miss
-Warrener. She said you got off your horses when you came to the
-Wethers, and sat down on one of the stones, and stayed there till the
-sun began to sink; then you caught your horses and rode away, very
-close together. She said you had talked all the time as though a week
-was too little for all you had to say. She said she had seen you both
-at Marlborough market, too. Then she began to cry; she cried so loud I
-was afraid Farmer Morland would come in to see what was ado, so I held
-my hand over her mouth until she stopped. She said you were breaking
-her heart, and she cared nothing what became of her. She said she was
-reckless. What’s the meaning of it all?”
-
-“Jealousy,” said Lovel, with suppressed fury.
-
-Olver said nothing, but his conviction remained sagely the same. He was
-sorry he dared not tell Nicholas the rest of the story, but Nicholas
-was inexpressibly severe and prudish; he would not have approved of
-the scenes in the barn, neither of the knock-about scene of tickling
-and squealing amongst the hay, nor of the subsequent scene, when
-Olver had laid his hand over Daisy’s mouth, and, half-strangled, she
-had spluttered against his hand, and the wetness of her mouth had
-mingled with the wetness of her tears to inflame his rustic senses,
-and in the indifference to her misery she had not resisted him. He
-smiled to himself as he remembered, but he knew better than to tell
-this to Nicholas. Only once had he seen Nicholas really violent, on
-one occasion when he had come artlessly to his brother with the tale
-of his first exploit; Nicholas’ explosion of anger was a thing Olver
-had never forgotten. It remained lurking, a thing which at any moment
-might flare up again. He kept such stories now for his mother’s ear
-alone; the old woman, enchanted at this surreptitious alliance against
-Nicholas’ hateful authority, would cackle in sympathy, and, making
-her hand a trumpet to her ear, invite Olver to pour out in a whisper
-details increasingly succulent, and so passed hours, Olver with an eye
-constantly on the door, lest Nicholas should unexpectedly return, but
-turning always again to whisper to his mother, who with her “Hee! hee!
-and did you so? good lad!” and similar ejaculations, would puff him
-up to thinking himself a man where he was most an animal. Lovel was
-thinking only of how he might best delude his brother’s shrewdness,
-and how discover whether the girl was scattering this gossip broadcast
-over the village. He had always disliked the girl,--her red hair, pale
-blue eyes, loose mouth, and freckles,--nor was it likely that he would
-turn to civility now in order to coax her into discretion. He was
-inexpressibly concerned, perplexed and discouraged, and the longer did
-he remain brooding over the fire, the more convinced did Olver grow
-that Daisy’s hysterical theory was the true one.
-
-They heard the rapping of their mother’s stick on the floor overhead;
-it was the signal that she needed something. The dogs raised their
-heads and began to growl. Lovel, wrenched back to the actualities of
-his daily life, said, “Go, you, Olver.”
-
-He sat on after Olver had gone, but he was not allowed to pursue his
-reflections, for the sounds of violent quarrelling reached him from
-overhead: his mother’s voice raised to a scream, and Olver’s to an
-indignant bellow. He knew that he must go up and separate them. The
-cause of their quarrels never transpired; the outburst was puerile,
-violent, and senseless, and came to an end with the same childish
-suddenness as it had begun. Lovel never knew which he dreaded most,
-and which most filled him with anxiety and distaste: their alliance or
-their hostility.
-
-He rose, and taking the candle he went upstairs to his mother’s room.
-He went with an extreme weariness and repugnance, feeling that the
-burden he had to carry was too heavy when private sorrow was added to
-it, and wishing for once, strong though he was, that he might lay it
-down and be seen no more in that country. The sound of the quarrelling
-voices continued as he made his way along the upstairs passage, but
-they fell into an abrupt silence in the presence of his authority. He
-stood in the doorway and they looked at him guiltily. The old woman,
-huddled in her chair, muttered something under her breath. He took in
-the squalid disorder of the badly-lighted room.
-
-“Go down to the kitchen, Olver,” he said.
-
-Olver slunk away. Lovel came forward, and patiently began setting the
-room to rights; although he was too practical a man to indulge himself
-in the fastidiousness which might have been his by nature, he was often
-sickened by the loathsomeness of the many tasks he had to perform for
-his mother: he was sickened now. She was utterly without regard for
-decency; but for her son, she would have wallowed contentedly in the
-squalor of her room; it was amazing to him how, helpless though she
-was, and able to travel about only by propelling herself in her wheeled
-chair, she yet contrived during his short absences to reduce the room
-she inhabited to the appearance of a hovel.
-
-“Can Olver not fetch away your supper, but you must start quarrelling
-with the lad?” he said.
-
-Immediately she broke into a torrent of grievances, in the high, shrill
-voice of her petulance, which Lovel knew so well; and he regretted that
-he had not let the matter pass uncommented, since it was irremediable.
-He waited until she had finished, then bent over and said with his
-usual gentleness, “Come, mother, let me help you to bed.”
-
-She allowed him to raise her from her chair, first throwing back
-the old miscellaneous shawls and coverings, and, half lifting, half
-carrying her across the room, he deposited her on her bed. She kept up
-meanwhile a continual grumble: where had he been all day, that he had
-so neglected her? Since early morning he had not been near her; she had
-been dependent upon Olver for her food and her company; but Olver was
-a good lad; he did not go off all day like Nicholas did, wenching, no
-doubt,--Nicholas pressed his hands tightly together, to keep himself
-silent,--Olver had sat with her that afternoon, and they had talked;
-where would she be, without Olver for company?
-
-During this complaining and muttering Lovel had busied himself with
-making her comfortable in bed; he covered her over, arranged her pillow
-for her, placed a glass of water within her reach,--she always wanted
-matches too, but was not allowed them;--he now looked down upon her
-as she lay, her helpless form under the shapeless heap of bedclothes
-and her scant grey locks straggling over the pillow. She had the same
-eyes as her sons, in what must have been a fine bony face; and the same
-cunning look frequently stole into them as stole into Olver’s.
-
-“I hope you have not again been filling the lad’s head with the rubbish
-I have so often forbidden,” said Lovel anxiously in reply to her last
-remark.
-
-“A nice way for you to speak to your mother!” she croaked. “Olver
-doesn’t speak so to me; forbidden, indeed! Never you mind what Olver
-and I have been saying. If I had only been given Olver to myself I
-could have made him into something better than a mere simpleton, as
-you all dub him; but no, I wasn’t to have Olver to myself: there was
-always Nicholas between us, with his ‘forbidden’ ... forbidden....
-Anyhow, Nicholas hasn’t won altogether,” she muttered, not quite daring
-to speak too distinctly; “there are hours every day when Nicholas isn’t
-at home.”
-
-“I can always get Olver to tell me the truth,” said Lovel, “and if I
-find you have been at your tricks I shall have to keep him away from
-your room.”
-
-The old woman laughed; a grating and unpleasant laugh, between fear and
-amusement.
-
-“And to do that you will have to stay at home, and then where will the
-money come from, my pretty boy?”
-
-“True,” said Lovel, “I am obliged to go out to work to make money for
-you and Olver, but Olver can come with me, and so he shall.”
-
-“And leave me alone here to die, if so be,” said the old woman,
-beginning to whimper, and she snuffled into her bed-clothes, and said
-that Nicholas was a cruel son to her.
-
-“The remedy lies with you,” he said quietly; and then, straightening
-the clothes for her again, he told her that he would not take Olver
-away from her unless she obliged him to. “But I am responsible for
-Olver,” he added, “and we are ill enough looked upon in the village
-already; you know, mother, that I must keep Olver in order, and his
-brain is too weak to be trusted with dangerous matter.” He wondered
-why he took the trouble to say this, since he knew that it was useless
-attempting to appeal to the old woman’s good sense or better feelings,
-as she had neither.
-
-She only laughed again. He paused beside her for a moment, but there
-was nothing more to say, and wishing her good-night he took up the
-candle and left the room. Out in the passage he heard her voice calling
-him back.
-
-“Matches, Nicholas: let me have the matches to-night.” He shook his
-head in refusal. “Cruel to me, Nicholas; and my own son too: cruel and
-hard; he bullies us both....” Lovel shut the door and went downstairs,
-but the mumble of her complaining pursued him still.
-
-Olver crouched by the fire between the dogs, his curls almost as matted
-as their pelt. He eyed his brother from under his brows, as though
-he expected to be scolded. Lovel however only said quietly, “I shall
-remain at home to-morrow, and if you choose you can go to the Manor
-House for me.” He let fall this remark in the midst of his occupation
-of clearing the room before going to bed; he let it fall so casually
-that no trace appeared of the effort it cost him. “But if you should
-see Miss Warrener,” he added, “you must breathe no word of the folly
-you uttered to me. I must have your word on that, you have never yet
-broken your word to me.”
-
-“I will not tell Miss Warrener,” said Olver.
-
-Lovel was satisfied.
-
-Olver set out early on the following morning, carrying his basket of
-tools slung on his back, and a number of clean new planks, smelling
-of resin, under his arm. Nicholas stood at the door to watch him go,
-envious, regretful, but sturdy in his determination. Olver walked
-quickly up the village street; the morning was bright; he felt good and
-competent this morning, and full of importance: not only had Nicholas
-trusted him to do his work, but he was full of a private intention to
-spy out the land at the Manor House; if Nicholas wanted Clare, why,
-then Nicholas must have what he wanted; it seemed to Olver quite simple
-and direct. He turned in at the gates of the Manor House, pleased by
-the pretty garden and the cool house with its long windows and open
-shutters. The lowering mood which was usual to him receded further and
-further; it was pleasant to feel so good; he looked all round him as
-he walked, smiling. The door was opened to him by Martha Sparrow in a
-clean cap and apron; he wanted to kiss her soft old face, which looked
-as though it smelt of soap, but instead of doing that he pulled off
-his cap very civilly and said that he had come to fix the bookshelves
-since his brother was unable. Martha Sparrow looked at his tight curls
-and thought with surprise that he was an agreeable-looking lad; telling
-him to wait a moment, she left him on the doorstep and went to Mr.
-Warrener. “Young Lovel, sir,” she said, “have sent the zany in his
-stead.”
-
-Mr. Warrener had forgotten all about the book-shelves; he pushed his
-spectacles up on his forehead and stared at Martha.
-
-“Sent the zany, Martha? What for?”
-
-Martha respectfully and patiently reminded him.
-
-“To be sure, to be sure.” He turned and surveyed with a helpless
-resentment the books piled up in a corner of his room. “Bring him in,
-Martha,” he said, resignedly.
-
-“You’ll have him in the room, sir, then?” said Martha dubiously.
-
-“Why not? why not? to be sure, he has to put up the shelves,” replied
-Mr. Warrener, scenting disapproval.
-
-“These gipsies, sir ... and the zany as naughty as a magpie?”
-
-“I’ll stop with him, Martha,” said Mr. Warrener, who before the rebuke
-of his old servant instantly became a great coward.
-
-He could not, however, endure the noise of sawing and nailing which
-began as soon as Olver had spread out his dust-sheet on the floor, but
-took his bee-hive hat and stole quietly away from the room. He greatly
-preferred that Olver should do the work wrong, or even that he should
-pilfer in the room, than that he should himself have to remain at
-hand to supervise or to furnish any further directions. He therefore
-retreated to a bench at the remotest corner of the garden, hoping
-that Martha would not detect him, where, taking his book from his
-pocket, he gave himself up to his interrupted reading, to the pleasant
-accompaniment of the bees busy in the limes, and of the distant small
-noises of a summer day. He had soon forgotten Martha’s remonstrance,
-and vaguely relied as usual on Clare guessing his wishes, as indeed she
-always seemed to do, and seeing to it on his behalf that Olver Lovel
-made no impossible mistake over the shelves.
-
-Before Olver had been at work very long he became aware that Mr.
-Warrener was no longer in the room. He sat back on his heels and
-examined his surroundings. The soft carpet and deep chairs especially
-took his fancy, and he was much impressed by the spacious writing table
-littered with so many papers, and the number of reference books, held
-open at a special page by various incongruous objects, this one by a
-piece of flint, that one by a ruler, and yet a third by the shoe-horn
-brought down from Mr. Warrener’s dressing-table. Olver rose to his
-feet, and tip-toed about, looking at the books and at the specimens
-of pottery, bones, arrow-heads, and what not, in the show cases which
-composed Mr. Warrener’s little museum. Arrived at the chimney piece he
-came to a pause, for here he discovered an object which pleased him
-more than anything he had ever seen, namely a small circular mirror,
-mounted on a handle, which by reason of its convexity had the property
-of reflecting everything in a slight distortion,--small, brilliant,
-precise and peculiar. He was so fascinated by this toy that he ventured
-to pick it up; first he looked at his own face in it, and laughed
-childishly to see the widened cheek-bones, the slanting and Puckish
-eyes; then he turned it this way and that, to make it reflect different
-corners of the room; and finally he got a tiny picture of the garden in
-it, seen through the windows, with a miniature Mr. Warrener sitting on
-a bench, slightly out of focus, in the background. So absorbed was he
-that he did not notice the entrance of Clare; she came in, wearing a
-dress of sprigged muslin, and swinging her hat by its ribbons from her
-hand, and she entered with just that degree of nonchalance which would
-have led a shrewd observer to the certainty that she expected to find
-in the room some person other than the person she actually found. So it
-was that they both appeared, and Olver gaped at her, very much taken
-aback at being discovered on the side of the room opposite to his work,
-and with the mirror in his hand.
-
-“Why, I understand Martha to say that Lovel was here,” Clare said
-inconsequently.
-
-Olver seemed to find no reply; he stood, holding the mirror, and
-scrutinizing Clare as though he beheld an unbelievable vision, and
-yet wished to be certain of recollecting that vision in every detail.
-In the diversion of the mirror he had momentarily forgotten not only
-his work, but also the ulterior motive for which he had come. He
-now remembered both. So this was the lass that Nicco wanted! Olver,
-envisaging such desires with the utmost crudeness, was not in the
-least surprised. He would not have cared for the lass himself,--she was
-too limber of build for him,--but he could see her very well as the
-complement of Nicco, his swarthiness and her fairness side by side.
-
-“He could not come; I am here for him,” he replied at last, thinking
-himself very artful for saying “he could not” instead of “he would not.”
-
-“Was he busy?” asked Clare.
-
-“No,” said Olver heedlessly, for he was now thinking of the mirror and
-wondering how he could dispose of it before she should observe it in
-his hand, “he has stayed at home.”
-
-“Oh,” said Clare. She saw the mirror. “Why, what are you doing with
-that?” she asked, amused, and she looked brightly and interrogatively
-at him.
-
-Seeing that she was not angry, he gave a shy smile and looked into the
-mirror once again, laughing delightedly at the little picture of his
-own face, and glancing at Clare.
-
-“Do you like it? you may have it for your own if you like,” she said,
-partly because he was simple, and partly because he was her friend
-Lovel’s brother, and she knew that he would show it to Lovel.
-
-“For my own? But can you give it to me?” said Olver, clasping his
-treasure and grinning.
-
-“Yes, it is mine, so I can give it to you. Would you like it?”
-
-“But this is Mr. Warrener’s room.”
-
-“Yes, but the mirror is mine for all that--_was_ mine, I should say,
-since it is yours now.”
-
-“Really and truly mine? to take home with me? to break if I like?”
-
-“Really and truly yours; but you must try not to break it: a broken
-mirror brings bad luck on a house.”
-
-“There is bad luck enough on our house already without that,” said
-Olver, suddenly gloomy.
-
-“Bad luck,--how do you mean?”
-
-“I don’t know; Nicco says so sometimes, when he has a black fit on him.”
-
-“Nicco?”
-
-“My brother.”
-
-It was a little shock to her to find that Lovel, whom she knew only as
-a figure so detached and self-reliant, should own a childish name. It
-seemed to make him suddenly human; her eyes softened.
-
-“Does he often have a black fit on him?” she pursued, but as soon as
-she had spoken the words her loyalty repented of them, and she said,
-“No, you should not tell me.”
-
-“There is no harm,” said Olver, thinking that he saw a chance to
-interest her; and he went on, steering away from direct allusion to his
-brother until he should see a chance to draw round again insensibly to
-that subject. “My mother says always that our house is unlucky, and,
-according to her interpretation, ’tis because of the stones that built
-it,--sacrificial stones, you know they be, Miss Warrener, angered at
-the desecration. So says my mother, and she should know, seeing that
-her mother was hanged for a witch, as is common talk hereabouts, and
-for once the common talk is true. But for my part I have never been
-able to see that our house was unlucky; we have enough to eat, and
-a fire to warm ourselves by, though, indeed,” he added, as though
-the idea had but just now occurred to him, “that is thanks to my
-brother, and I do not know how my mother and myself would fare but for
-him,--hee! hee!”
-
-Clare was far too honest to wish to play the spy upon Lovel, yet she
-was so much impressed by this suggestion of the half-wit youth and his
-bedridden mother being left to their own devices, and feeling moreover
-that the most scrupulous conscience could not accuse her of spying upon
-Lovel when she was to hear something to his credit, that she did not
-forbear from encouraging Olver, “I have heard that his devotion to you
-both was extreme.”
-
-Olver needed no encouragement.
-
-“Without him, I should die. It is true that sometimes he is stern, and
-he sits staring into the fire, and I can get no word from him, but I
-have learnt that at those times he is unhappy. But he is so gentle,
-Miss Warrener, you would not believe; at one moment he will seem
-withdrawn and angry, and the next moment he is all pity. He gives his
-life up to us; he does not say so, but I know he does. Once when I was
-a child the village boys threw stones at me, as they might at a dog,
-but Nicholas he came and beat them all with his fists and carried me
-home in his arms, and never left me till I was mended.”
-
-“He has a great affection for you,” said Clare, not knowing what to say.
-
-“Oh no,--that is quite impossible,” Olver replied naïvely, surprised at
-the suggestion.
-
-Clare was touched by his humility, so obviously genuine. It seemed to
-him, indeed impossible that the demi-god who in his eyes was Lovel,
-should stoop to any feelings other than pity and obligation towards
-a poor contemptible burden like himself. Clare began to catch the
-infection of this idealisation of Lovel; she saw him through Olver’s
-eyes: humane where he need only have been conscientious; generous where
-he need only have been just; yet preserving always that aloofness and
-detachment which safeguarded him from all true contact with sordid
-things. When she had met him on the highway, or on the Downs, she had
-not wondered much about the background of his life; she had accepted
-him as an isolated and romantic figure, organic with the Downs
-themselves; to her, he was the rider on the skyline, the shepherd of
-the folds.
-
-“There’s a girl in the village would give five years of life for a kind
-word from Nicholas,” Olver pursued, considering himself meanwhile in
-his mirror with an air of great detachment, “but Nicholas has no eye
-for girls. Oh, see,” he broke off, pointing at the mirror, “my face is
-like seen in water,--stretched wide. I often saw it so in a spoon, but
-I never dreamt of so pretty a toy as this. Has it magical properties,
-do you think? It should have, to match its freakishness. Could I look
-into it, do you think, in the moonlight, and see the picture, all pale,
-of what you were doing, Miss Warrener, in the face of the mirror, round
-like another little moon itself?”
-
-Clare was startled by his outburst, and the laughter that accompanied
-it. Until then she had almost forgotten that he was reputed mad.
-
-“I’ll ask my mother,” he added, forgetting his prudence in his
-excitement. “Nicco does not like my learning of her, so we have to
-whisper it when he is away from the house, and you could not believe
-the things she tells me. And shows me, too. Why, I can make an object
-travel towards me, without touching it; and I have seen visions in a
-pool of water. It is our secret. Shall I show you? Watch the curtains:
-I will make them belly out, though no wind blows them.”
-
-“No ...” said Clare, stretching out her hand. “If you love your brother
-as you appear to,” she said rapidly, “don’t do what he disapproves;
-don’t, Olver Lovel. I am sure he is right to disapprove; I am sure he
-is wise. Respect him. I am sure he deserves your respect.”
-
-She spoke with energy. “Why?” said Olver suspiciously. “Do you know
-anything of such things? Would you not like to see the curtains move
-towards me? My mother says, that with a hair from the head of a person,
-she could bring that person, willy-nilly, to her. She has tried it
-with Nicholas, but she could not bring him. He is too strong. He is so
-strong, that, if he gave his mind to it, he could bring any one; yes,
-Miss Warrener, he could bring you. He could bring you to him on the
-Downs, at midnight or when he would.”
-
-“For pity’s sake, Olver Lovel!” cried Clare.
-
-He came close up to her.
-
-“Don’t fear my brother, Miss Warrener. There are powers in our
-family,--but he does not practise them. I think he does not believe.
-He is scornful,--and busy. Oh, he is a fool; that girl I was telling
-you of, he turns away from her and half a dozen more. A dandy lad, they
-say, and are angry. But that is not the reason. I could tell you the
-reason, if I would. But I shan’t. No, Miss Warrener, I keep my counsel.”
-
-He leered at her. “Give me your hand,” he said, catching it, “and I
-will show you something.”
-
-“No,” said Clare, trying to draw it away. “Look at your bookshelves,”
-she added, to distract his ideas, “you are leaving them unfinished, and
-my father will be in presently, to ask why they are not done. If he
-takes it into his head to be annoyed, he will complain to your brother.”
-
-“Nicholas won’t listen to complaints about me,” Olver returned
-loftily. “He may curse me within our own doors, but no one from outside
-may say a word against me. If Mr. Warrener complains, he will only tell
-him not to employ me again. We don’t care whether we are given work or
-not, Nicholas and I don’t.”
-
-“You forget,” said Clare, “that my father sent for your brother and not
-for you.”
-
-“Ah, but he wouldn’t come, would he?” said Olver, highly amused. She
-was relieved to see that he had got out of his sinister mood and was
-again prepared to laugh and be childish. “You don’t know, because you
-didn’t see him, Miss Warrener, how he sat glowering at the fire last
-night, and ended by telling me that I could come here in his place. You
-don’t see him at nights, when he comes home tired and has to be patient
-with our mother. He’s patient with her, yes; but he’d get on better if
-he humoured her more: he’s too unbending.”
-
-“How shrewd you are, Olver,” Clare was surprised into saying.
-
-“Hoi, hoi,” said Olver, wagging his head. “I know my Nicholas; he’ll
-break sooner than bend. I told him he could come, and take the chance
-of not meeting--the person he didn’t want to meet; but he wouldn’t
-have that, not he. He’s stayed at home, to dig in the garden. Time and
-again, he takes a day or an afternoon off to do that, for he’s mighty
-fond of the garden, and that’s queer, seeing that his days are spent
-on the bare Downs, whether or not his business sends him there, where
-nothing grew that I ever saw, but sorrel and poor grasses.”
-
-Clare wondered how she could best end the conversation, in which Olver
-hovered evidently around some topic he might not broach, but she did
-not forbear from smiling when he mentioned Lovel in his garden; she had
-often seen the garden at the end of the long, tunnel-like passage as
-she turned down the village street; and the little picture of Lovel’s
-affection for it was like discovering a patch of sun in a thunderous
-landscape. Olver meanwhile had turned back to his planks and tools; he
-was fingering the latter; the little round mirror he had put carefully
-into his pocket. “I am a good carpenter, you know, Miss Warrener,” he
-said, as though he were letting her into a secret, and she saw that his
-attention had changed its object.
-
-
-Nevertheless she wondered greatly at Lovel’s refusal to do work at
-the Manor House. She wondered whether she had inadvertently offended
-him, but could recall nothing; their last meeting had been as friendly
-as ever, nor had his manner in any way betrayed anything amiss. He
-was, however, so strange and fiery a creature, so unaccountable in
-his moods, that some chance word of hers might well have rankled,
-grown during the night, and borne fruit upon the following day. She
-went carefully in her mind over their recent conversations, which,
-happily inconsequent and spasmodic, were a little difficult to
-recollect in detail; but she achieved this feat, smiling again with
-a little heartache over Lovel’s remarks about children,--ah, what a
-good friendship it had been!--but her sifting of their talks revealed
-nothing. She went about the house, still wondering after Lovel. What
-if she had imagined the whole thing? What if he had been genuinely
-prevented? the hints that Olver had let drop might well be the progeny
-only of that sickly brain. Revived by this idea, yet apprehensive of
-its allusion, she sought out William Baskett and sent him off to Lovel
-with a message. “Say to him, William, that I have a small repair to be
-done to the cupboard in my room, and beg him to come with his bag of
-tools as quickly as may be. Say that it is a neat job I require or I
-would not otherwise disturb him. Say that it is in my room, and for my
-own particular use.”
-
-A quarter of an hour later William returned: Lovel must ask Miss
-Warrener to excuse him, he was busy and could not come.
-
-At that Clare flamed into anger. What! she held out an olive branch to
-the man, over some imaginary affront, and he rejected it? Very well.
-Let him nurse his grievance; he should not be given another chance. She
-was all the angrier with him because she was angry with herself for
-having sent a verbal message by Baskett; the story, conceivably, would
-be repeated at the Waggon of Hay, in which case it would be all over
-the village; she ought to have written Lovel a note. The whole of her
-day was spoilt by her resentment; it pricked her constantly through
-all her occupations; she dared not go outside the gates for fear of
-meeting the offender; she hated him for thus disturbing her peace of
-mind and inconveniencing her movements. One thing at least was clear by
-now, that he was deliberately avoiding her. He should not have cause to
-complain that she sought him out.
-
-But by the next day her mood was already softened and her conscience
-again at work. She was sorry to think that she might, however
-unintentionally, have hurt him so deeply. Poor Lovel! his position and
-his family made her over-sensitive. She would not willingly add to his
-burden. Perhaps he was already regretting a too hasty refusal. But how
-to approach him as it were by chance? for she felt she would sooner
-lose his friendship altogether than send a second message to his house.
-There was one very obvious course open to her: she took her pony and
-rode up to the Downs.
-
-But although she rode up to the White Horse, and down again to the Grey
-Wethers, and round by Lovel’s hut, and skirted most of the valleys
-where there was likely shelter and pasture for sheep, she saw no sign
-of Lovel. She was again angry with him for not being there, nor did
-the fact that he followed many trades besides that of a shepherd do
-anything to soothe her annoyance. She came back, entering the village
-on the farther side to avoid passing his house. She felt as though
-something whose value she had never realised while she still possessed
-it, had gone out of her life; and here again she found cause for anger
-with Lovel.
-
-But she could not remain angry with him for very long together. She
-wondered what he was doing; whether he missed her as much as she missed
-him; whether his mood had passed by now into a sulky childish obstinacy
-that was determined not to make the first advance, but that, if it
-were dragged out of its corner, could be willing enough to be coaxed
-into making friends. Clare smiled fondly as she thought how well she
-knew him. She thought that she had only to meet him face to face for
-laughter to spring into his eyes,--laughter both at the relief of their
-reconciliation, and at himself for his past foolishness.
-
-In the meantime she fell to dwelling upon his occupations, and
-recalling all the gossip she had ever heard on his account, the stories
-of his skill, and of his almost miraculous cures performed upon ailing
-animals; of his breaking-in colts in record time; of his more illicit
-career as a poacher. There was something in her which enjoyed this
-train of thought and the pictures it evoked. She liked to think of
-Lovel moving as stealthy as a cat through the woods at midnight, a
-snare in his hand and a game-bag across his back. She liked to think
-of him thus alone with the woods, the night, and the slinking animals,
-his foot cautious upon the leaves; she thought that he must be happy
-thus. She even liked to think of him bending over his victim, and of
-the warm, smoking blood spurted over his hands. Although he hunted
-them, he had a kinship with the animals. When he crouched, motionless
-as a hare, at the approach of a keeper, he, the hunter, was suddenly on
-the animals’ side more truly than the keeper, who was there to protect
-them. There was something ridiculous in the idea of a keeper protecting
-the animals against Lovel; even the rabbit squealing in the noose must
-know that only by chance was Lovel out for its capture,--an enemy of
-superior force, merely, rather than anything so utterly removed as a
-man.
-
-All this dwelling upon Lovel, which sent her absent-minded about the
-house and garden, did not bring her any nearer to making her peace
-with him. She was now no longer angry, but sore and puzzled, and she
-was sure that he must be unhappy too, although she knew that even
-after their reconciliation,--ultimately inevitable, to her mind,--he
-would never own to this. The necessity of this reconciliation seemed
-to her so simple and so obvious that she never thought of questioning
-her pride. Daily she rode upon the Down, and daily as she returned
-disappointed she contemplated in greater detail the possibility of
-sending, after all, a second message to Lovel. She could even send
-it in her father’s name. But he would not come. She was convinced he
-would not come. That was not the method to adopt. She must take him by
-surprise; she must startle him; appear suddenly before him, so that he
-would smile before he had time to remember his grievance, and, having
-once smiled, it would be too late to resume a severe face.
-
-In the midst of this pre-occupation, she almost forgot Calladine, that
-theatrical man, and the excitability of his manner recently towards
-her. She had not seen him again, for which she was thankful; she
-could not have met him without embarrassment. The idea of marriage
-was incongruous and slightly absurd. She belonged to herself, and to
-herself only; and the suggestion that Calladine or any one else should
-wish to capture her was not serious but merely laughable. It had not
-occurred to her that he, as well as Lovel, might be unhappy on her
-account; such a thought would have distressed her exceedingly. It was
-entirely without thought of Calladine, save for an occasional fleeting
-hope that he might not have chosen to ride in the direction as herself,
-that she roved over the Downs in search of Lovel. A fortnight passed
-before she found him. She could, doubtless, have met him long before
-by simply walking down the village street, but that would not have
-been at all to her purpose, and she had in fact been at pains to avoid
-any such encounter. At the end of a fortnight, having ridden up to
-the White Horse, from where the widest view was to be obtained, she
-discerned a long way off, up by the clump of beeches on the horizon, a
-flock of sheep accompanied by a shepherd. Unhesitatingly, even gaily,
-she started off in his pursuit. She was happy to think that their long
-estrangement was drawing to its end. She skipped in her mind over the
-preliminaries which must be got over before they could take up their
-friendship again on its old easy terms. She, with a mind impatient
-of all but essentials, would preferably have dispensed with these
-preliminaries, explanations, upbraidings, and possibly abuse. She
-wanted to waste no time; there were so many things she wanted to tell
-him; she wanted to tell him how her pony had gone lame from picking up
-a stone in his shoe; she wanted to tell him again of the melancholy
-effect produced upon her by her visit to Starvecrow; she wanted to
-ask him to splice her trout-rod and come with her one evening down to
-the quiet pool of the brook. Her eagerness grew with the seething of
-these small schemes as she urged her pony across the grass. She was
-approaching Lovel by a devious way, going down into the valleys, where
-she would escape his notice, until she could strike directly up the
-hill and top the crest suddenly before his eyes. Her own eyes sparkled
-over the precautions she was taking. She thought that she had now gone
-far enough along the low reaches of the valleys, and set her pony at
-the hill; they mounted the long, steep incline, like going upon an
-adventure.
-
-On the breeze came the tinkling of the sheep-bells, as the flock moved
-cropping.
-
-She had calculated her distance well, for when she finally reached the
-top of the hill, she found that she had exactly hit off the flock of
-sheep cropping beside the clump of beeches. Close by them lay a bundle
-of osiers, hastily thrown down, and several wattled hurdles, with
-fresh osiers threaded into them for repair; a knife, the sun shining
-on its strong, curved blade; and a small bundle tied up in a red
-pocket handkerchief. There were all these signs of the recent presence
-of the shepherd, but he himself was nowhere to be seen. Clare looked
-round in perplexity. The sun was strong, the breeze fresh, the grasses
-glittered and curtsied, the shadows of the clouds bowled down the hills
-and ran up the opposite side, the view was broad, but it revealed no
-Lovel. With all that open country lying spread out, he must have taken
-refuge in the small beech-wood,--watching her, perhaps, from behind
-the trunk of a tree. She was almost amused by this childish game of
-hide and seek, and in any case was determined not to be baffled by him
-now that she had come so far; she could not now turn and ride away in
-acknowledgment of defeat. Swinging herself off her pony she knotted
-the reins loosely and let it turn away to snuff the grass, while she
-herself entered the little wood, brave though tremulous, her optimism
-ebbing as her obstinacy increased. The tree-trunks were not very close
-together, so that she could look through the clump from one side out to
-the other; she often went into these clumps of beech, and lay down on
-the bare ground, looking up the smooth grey trunks, watching the sun
-glint its shivered rays through the branches, and listening to the wind
-among the leaves; she had even been into them with Lovel, and he had
-knocked the warts off the trunks and carved them into frightening faces
-with his knife to amuse her.
-
-She paused with her hand upon the tree. “Lovel!” she cried. “I know
-you are here, don’t hide from me; come out, Lovel!” There was no
-answer, and after a little hesitation she went deeper into the wood.
-She saw him then; he was not hiding, he was standing there perfectly
-motionless, in the midst of a small clearing in the trees, standing
-very quiet, like a man who after a long pursuit sees himself finally
-brought to bay. He was looking straight at her, as though he knew the
-direction in which she would come.
-
-Now that she was confronted with him, a little of her self-confidence
-went; he had, for a long fortnight now, inhabited her mind only, and
-her vision not at all; and in her mind their meeting had run always
-on the lines she devised for it, but here she had Lovel himself of
-untested inflexibility, to trip the running of her programme. She gazed
-at him beseechingly, but he still stood, in an attitude of expectant
-resignation, waiting for her to open the attack. It came into her mind
-that even now she might turn away, without a word spoken, having learnt
-all that there was to be learnt from a single look. Instead, she went
-up to him, saying “Lovel?” and upon an impulse she held out her hand.
-
-He remained unmoved, examining her with a sort of abstracted interest.
-She thought that she had never seen him so much like an animal,
-pausing even while poised for flight, and a despair overcame her when
-she remembered her own conceit that she could tame and bring to heel
-again a creature so wild. She was ashamed when she remembered that she
-had pitied him, had assumed that he must be unhappy, had smiled to
-herself when she thought of keeping up his pretence of temper like a
-sulky child. That smile had had in it much that was tender, much that
-was maternal; had she then forgotten Lovel, or had her imagination
-so metamorphosed his image, that she could have persuaded herself of
-his need for tenderness, tolerance, or pity? He had need for none of
-those soft things; she had been mistaken in thinking that he in any way
-needed her; he needed no one; he stood alone. Nevertheless, she would
-not retreat without some struggle; he might, still, prove to be no
-worse than angry and hurt; if he insisted on remaining so, it should,
-at least, not be owing to a lack of good-will on her part. “Lovel,” she
-said, “Lovel, have I offended you in any way? See, I have come here
-deliberately to ask you and to say that I am sorry for whatever I may
-have done; how can I say more?”
-
-Still he did not reply, but turned his head slightly and uneasily as
-though looking for escape. He still had that air of being poised in
-the clearing of the trees, alienating him from her as if she had come
-upon him in the midst of some secret rite which he only awaited her
-departure to resume. She felt inclined to cry out, “We were so close
-to one another, once!” and the pain of the loss stabbed her sharply,
-but instead she pleaded again with him, “Lovel, if you would only
-speak to me we could put this misunderstanding right.” Where was the
-smile she had so confidently hoped to startle into his eyes? He had
-never shown himself so aloof or so forbidding; she felt herself small,
-insignificant, and importunate; if she had found him in the open, she
-thought, he would have been more vulnerable, but here among the trees
-he seemed curiously protected.
-
-He had not moved a step ever since she came up with him; was he rooted
-there, a tree himself, or a sapling? she did not know; and a panic
-began to spread over her at his fancied communion and alliance with
-nature. He was as brown as the earth, his clothes were the colour of
-dead leaves, his shirt was red like a robin’s breast. She remembered
-again the tales she had heard of him, and her own fancies that had
-followed him at the poacher’s trade, and this time she was afraid. She
-wove them together with the ignorant tales of the witchcraft among
-the Lovels. Could there be any truth in these fantastic notions? a
-secret of harmony in nature which entitled the initiated to powers
-inexplicable to the uninitiated? why did all animals so dread Olver
-Lovel? so trust to Nicholas? what of her own intuitions? her sudden,
-reasonless terrors? her mingled love and fear of the sarsen stones and
-of trees? her constant phrase, uttered half in jest, that some day she
-would be fetched away? And how was Lovel concerned? what part was he
-to have in the fetching? If only he were not so brown, brown as earth,
-lithe as the saplings, his shirt red as a robin’s breast; if only his
-eyes were not constant pilgrims to the horizon.
-
-She turned to leave him; at all costs she must get out of this wood,
-where she felt the old threat closing in round her, and in which Lovel
-was so mysteriously implicated. She turned slowly, not to betray her
-panic, still with the half-hope that he would speak and thereby break
-her spell. But when he spoke, it only deepened.
-
-“There is no misunderstanding,” he said.
-
-She wheeled round again upon him.
-
-“Then why have you so avoided me?” she said passionately. “A fortnight
-ago we met by the Grey Wethers, we had no quarrel, we parted friends.
-The next day you were sent for to the Manor House, you would not come,
-you sent your brother. I sent for you later myself,--a special message.
-You would not come. I thought I had offended you in some way. Do you
-know that I have looked for you all over the hills to ask you for your
-reason? A fortnight I have spent in looking for you.”
-
-“I know,” he said. “I have seen you.”
-
-Her voice died away; she had thrown herself against his defences and
-bruised herself. Her indignation had made a tiny uproar in the wood
-without detracting from the calm of the trees or the dignity of Lovel.
-She made a small gesture of abandonment; her one desire now was to get
-away. “There is nothing more to be said.”
-
-“Set your mind at ease,” he observed unexpectedly. “You never offended
-me. Believe me, you could not do so even if you tried; believe me, you
-are too sweet and gentle to do such a thing. Put all the blame on to
-me. I am capricious and wayward, you know; any one in the village will
-tell you as much and a dozen worse things besides. You must believe
-them all. You have my word on it that they are all true. But as for
-blaming yourself, never dream of doing so. Think only that I am not fit
-for you to associate with, and let me go my way without looking for me
-any more.”
-
-“Is this your only reason?” said Clare.
-
-He hesitated. He was still standing motionless and every moment she
-felt that he was being farther and farther withdrawn from her.
-
-“No, it is not my only reason,” he said at last, “but it is the only
-one I choose to give to you. It is enough surely. I come of a family
-with a very ill-name, and I myself would see the inside of a prison
-over and over again if the guardians of the law were as cute at their
-work as I, perhaps, am at mine. I think it is sufficient reason.”
-
-“Have you robbed, or even murdered, Lovel?” she asked.
-
-“Would you be convinced if I told you that I had?” he replied with idle
-curiosity. “I have robbed crowded coverts, if you call that robbing,
-but as for the rest, although I have taken the lives of pheasants and
-partridges, I have not taken the life of man or made away with the
-property of any of my employers while it was in my charge.”
-
-“Your reason is a very insufficient one,” she said, “you are telling me
-nothing that I did not know already. Will you come outside the trees? I
-cannot talk to you in here, I feel trapped.”
-
-“No,” he said, retreating a step. “I came in here to avoid you, but
-since you have followed me we stay in the place I chose. And my other
-reason is fully adequate,--oh, fully, fully!” he said with great
-feeling, “so now leave me, Clare, and think of me as harshly as
-you can. If you meet me anywhere, pass me by; I ask that of you as
-earnestly as ever a favour was asked.”
-
-“You ask me to pass you by even on the Downs?” she said slowly.
-
-“I do,” he replied. He rushed on, not looking at her, “I must not
-make friends. I want to be alone. You stole my friendship, and I have
-resented it. Call me ill-mannered, even brutal; call me ungrateful,
-boorish. I was angry when I saw you riding to-day. It is better that
-you should know the truth, and it cannot hurt you, coming from me. What
-am I to you? a peasant, a gipsy, a Jack-of-all-trades. I have nothing
-to do with your life or you with mine, so leave me alone,--leave me
-alone,” he said.
-
-All her pride was lashed alive now; she was utterly astonished, and, in
-her simplicity, convinced. “I have forced my friendship upon you,” she
-stammered. “Yes, yes,” said Lovel, driving it home. She stared at him,
-lovely in her distress. But even in her humiliation she was generous.
-“Forgive me,” she stammered again. She turned and fled out from amongst
-the trees, aware,--but not knowing how truly,--that she had left there
-something which she would never regain. She came out by the osiers,
-the hurdles, and Lovel’s knife lying upon the ground. The sight of
-it, in its familiarity, stung tears to her eyes. If he had not wanted
-her, why had he carved faces from the warts of the beech-trees for her
-amusement. Why had he tired so suddenly? rebelled so wildly against
-the slight tie of her friendship? She swung herself on to her pony and
-galloped away, not seeing where she was going, but only mad to put the
-greatest possible distance between herself and that wood whence she had
-escaped indeed, but only with her life.
-
-
-Calladine meanwhile, who knew nothing of Clare’s friendship with Lovel,
-and who would have stared had he heard it mentioned, had lived in a
-torment ever since her visit. She had come and gone again, and he felt
-as though during her brief sojourn she had stirred round the sluggish
-atmosphere of his house with a wand. His eye became more critical as he
-surveyed his surroundings from her point of view. He tried to imagine
-what she would say were she to take his house thoroughly in hand, and
-began to introduce such alterations as he thought she would approve;
-he rearranged his books, he re-hung his pictures, he ordered patterns
-from London and had his leather chairs covered with a flowered chintz.
-His servant Mrs. Quince was at first at a loss to know what had come
-over her master, but after she and Martha Sparrow had put their heads
-together they arrived at the obvious conclusion. “’Tis a woman’s house
-now, Martha,--dimity in the windows, and what do you think? dried rose
-leaves and spices among the linen!--though as yet there’s no woman to
-live in it.” Calladine shut his mind obstinately to the curiosity he
-knew he must be awaking in Mrs. Quince; he daily informed her of his
-wishes while inviting no comment, and she, on her part, took advantage
-of his new mood, and of the good-humour in which, she argued, he must
-be anxious to keep her, to ask for an extra pair of hands for all the
-new work she pretended he was creating. “There’s that girl of Farmer
-Morland’s, sir, casting round for a place.” Calladine agreed at once,
-without argument or enquiry. Let Farmer Morland’s girl be engaged by
-all means; and Daisy, with her red head, her freckles, her pale blue
-eyes, and her frilled Sunday muslins, was installed in the attic.
-Calladine, in so far as he noticed her at all, disliked her at sight;
-she dropped a curtsey to him the first time she met him, and tried
-to ingratiate him with a smile. But he was too deeply bent upon his
-own concerns to pay her more than the tribute of a passing distaste.
-Clare had been to his house, his room had contained Clare, her voice
-had vibrated through the air he breathed, her hand had rested on his
-door handle, her foot had trodden his stair. She might come again--but
-such was his fantasy that he all but dreaded lest the return of her
-presence should disturb the perfection of his memory. He was almost
-content, for the moment, that he might remain at Starvecrow, doing her
-service. A garden, she had said; and he toiled at the obstinate soil
-till his hands lost their refinement and hardened in the palms, and he
-smiled to see his broken nails. Mrs. Quince observed him sarcastically
-from the windows of the house, hands on hips. He had thrown aside his
-coat and rolled up his shirt-sleeves. “But he’ll need to do away with
-those silk shirts if he’s to go in for pick and mattock,” she grumbled,
-between tenderness and scorn. Calladine was indeed an incongruous
-figure, spare and delicate of build, with his greying hair that gave
-him a slightly eighteenth century appearance, and his long back bent
-over the stones and flints of that untilled hillside. He thought,
-sometimes ruefully, when he stood up to stretch his back and to survey
-the little progress he had made, that Clare had set him a harder task
-than she knew. He began to invest it with characteristically romantic
-properties. It was like scaling the Hill of Glass, or separating the
-wheat from the millet, or travelling to the ends of the earth to bring
-back a jet bottled from the Singing Fountain. If he could transform
-this strong wilderness to a blowing curtseying garden, might he, having
-accomplished his task, present himself to claim his prize? And what
-would she say, she the distant, she the all-unconscious, when she came
-to inspect the results of his labours? Would she praise? would she
-deride? he swung his pick again with an unconvinced jeer at himself for
-the fabric of symbolism he was creating.
-
-“The new mistress’ll have nothing to say to my old-fashioned ways,”
-Mrs. Quince observed to Martha, suggesting that it was she herself whom
-she thus slightly derided. Martha, simple soul, was taken in. “Likely
-enough, Mrs. Quince, she has a rare eye to the ordering of a house.”
-Mrs. Quince smiled on one side of her face. “She took over from me when
-she was fifteen,” continued Martha in perfect good faith, “and I wasn’t
-able to call my dusters my own. Look what she has made Mr. Calladine do
-already; the house isn’t the gloomy place it was.”
-
-“What he has done was Mr. Calladine’s own choice,” said Mrs. Quince
-tartly.
-
-“But you may be sure she put him up to it,” Martha replied.
-
-So for hours they talked round and round the central subject, avoiding
-always the crux of the discussion, which was that Martha, with the
-match-making instinct, longed for the day when she should let Clare
-pass from her hands as a bride, and that Mrs. Quince, who had governed
-and mothered Calladine (in so far as so uncomfortable and so unreal
-a man would allow himself to be mothered) equally dreaded the day
-when another woman should take over from her the reins of Starvecrow.
-Calladine himself remarked her altered manner. “Will you be taking
-your lemon and hot water the same as usual at night, sir?” she asked
-him, and when in surprise he said, “Why shouldn’t I, Mrs. Quince?”
-she replied in a voice full of vague and sinister suggestion, “Well,
-I thought as things was so changed, and likely to be more changed in
-future, that that might be going overboard with the rest.”
-
-Because Mrs. Quince could not keep off her idea, which buzzed in her
-head as tirelessly as a mosquito, in between Martha’s visits she began
-to throw out dark hints to Daisy Morland. Daisy absorbed them with the
-intelligence she brought to bear only on questions connected with the
-sexual relationship of any two persons. She was careful not to betray
-too much of her interest to Mrs. Quince; only a modicum sufficient to
-keep the housekeeper going; and thus judiciously she was able to give
-the impression that she took in only about half of what was said, so
-that Mrs. Quince loosened her tongue to her more than she ventured
-to loosen it to Martha Sparrow, and presently, encouraged by Daisy’s
-ejaculations of sympathy and admiration, she fell into the habit of
-speaking her mind freely as to the vexatious prospect of having a young
-mistress in the house, “With her notions and her fandangles, upsetting
-folk that knew their work inside out long before she was born.” Daisy
-echoed the complaint; but inwardly she devoutly favoured the scheme of
-a marriage between Mr. Calladine and Miss Warrener. A parallel plan
-was maturing slowly in her brain, that she would turn Mr. Calladine’s
-name to her own advantage. She recalled all too vividly the faces of
-Miss Warrener and young Lovel as she had seen them upon the Downs,
-when, as she had expressed it in a bout of jealous despair to Olver,
-“a week wouldn’t have been enough for all they had to say to one
-another.” It was true that she had not seen them touch so much as each
-other’s hands, which seemed remarkable to her ideas, accustomed to the
-loose, inarticulate, indiscriminate rustic fondling, but this, with a
-sneer, her instinct working less subtly than it might have worked, she
-attributed to Miss Clare being “gentry,” and to Lovel fancying himself
-“gentry” too, though every one knew in what poverty he lived, for
-all his ancestors and his book-reading. But, she reflected, with the
-satisfaction of reducing even “gentry” to a least common denominator
-with simple folk like herself, in the end it came to the same thing
-for everybody; and there was only one way of begetting children:
-no amount of gentility was able to refine _that_ away! She put it
-crudely to herself, and grinned. But a thought struck her: what if
-young Lovel in that high-handed way he had with him, should actually
-succeed in getting Miss Warrener before Mr. Calladine had spoken?
-Mr. Calladine was a gentleman,--she couldn’t call him a man, no, but
-a gentleman he certainly was, and she was even a little overawed by
-his gentility,--who would take a long time in coming to the point;
-he would dawdle the thing out, just for the sake of tickling his own
-feelings; she could tell that merely by looking at him. Oh, he might
-have made up his mind long ago, but that wouldn’t prevent him from
-dallying with a girl, seeing her often, teasing himself and her with
-doubts, wondering whether he would want her quite so much once he had
-got her, and preferring to live on the whole, in the uncertainty of
-courtship.... She could see through Mr. Calladine; that was one effect
-being “gentry” had on people. She had nothing but scorn for men like
-that. Look at him now, digging up a patch for a garden, and all to
-please Miss Clare,--Mrs. Quince had said so,--and not as though he had
-been a poor man digging over his potato-patch against the day when he
-would have to keep a wife. Lovel wasn’t like that; and therein lay both
-her fear and her respect. She tried to console herself by thinking how
-preposterous was the idea that Lovel should ever hope to get Miss
-Warrener, he, a village boy when all was said and done, with an old
-bed-ridden witch for a mother and a daft hobgoblin for a brother; but
-her own feelings for Lovel stepped in to destroy this consolation:
-wasn’t he a proper strong young man, as difficult to catch as a colt
-turned loose on the Downs, with his wild dark air, enough to touch the
-fancy of a girl? She couldn’t tell herself why she had so set her heart
-on Lovel, if it wasn’t for that air of his,--so set her heart on him
-that she was ready to take on the zany and the old witch and all, if
-only she could get him. He had never looked twice at her, for all she
-had tried hard enough to attract his attention; yet she preferred him
-to any young man in the village, even to Peter Gorwyn, the smith’s son,
-with his muscular six foot two, with whom she had made so merry on the
-day of the Scouring, or Job Lackland, who played the fiddle and whose
-appearance of fair girlishness was so misleading. They were all very
-well, either of those two, for a one day’s fooling; she reckoned them
-at their proper worth, just as they reckoned her; Lovel alone was the
-serious business. She supposed that she could get Peter Gorwyn to marry
-her; he was a decent boy, and his sense of decency would certainly get
-him as far as the church,--and suddenly, in her mind, she saw quite
-complete the scheme by which she would decoy Lovel.
-
-She brooded over this for some time, perfecting its details, with
-little gusts of excitement. There was as yet no very great urgency;
-she could afford to wait a week or two. Olver, moreover, whom she met
-one day that Mrs. Quince had sent her on an errand to King’s Avon,
-informed her that his brother seemed very moody of late and short
-in the temper, from which she deduced that he was either not seeing
-Clare or that something had happened to cloud their friendship. The
-information reassured her, and she cheerfully completed her purchases,
-passing the time of day with her acquaintances and even accepting a
-glass of stout at the Waggon of Hay from young Gorwyn, of which she
-knew that Mrs. Quince would not approve; she looked at young Gorwyn
-over the rim of her glass as she drank, and wondered whether the day
-would ever come when she could tell him what she owed him: perhaps on
-the occasion of some future Scouring, when he and she were left behind
-among the old folks of the village, to dodder and dither in the sun of
-the street, perhaps she would tell him then, and a fine astonishment
-and a good though quavering laugh, he would get out of it. It was funny
-to look at him now, handsome enough as he lounged beside the bar, and
-to think of him bent double over a stick; funny, too, to think of what
-had been between them and of what it was perhaps to lead to. One never
-knew how things were going to turn out.... She set down her glass
-on the counter, thanked him, and gathered up her parcels to go. He
-offered to accompany her, but she declined the offer; she had plenty to
-think about in her walk home over the Downs. “You’re mighty pernickety
-to-day,” he twitted her, rather relieved to be let off the consequences
-of the offer gallantry had prompted, and went with her as far as the
-door, and the old men sitting with their pipes in the chimney corner
-commented, “A hefty pair.”
-
-She took the road which led out of the village on the western side and
-which presently ceased to be a metalled way and dissolved into one of
-those broad green tracks that all over the Downlands of England mark
-the course of the ancient paths. She had a good three miles to walk,
-but her numerous small parcels of groceries and haberdashery were not
-heavy, and her mind was occupied with the account she had heard of
-Lovel. She could think it over at peace while it was still fresh in
-her memory; at Starvecrow, Mrs. Quince would hustle her, and she would
-not have time to sort her impressions until she went up to her attic
-for the night, when she would be too tired for anything but sleep. It
-had been clever of her to refuse young Gorwyn’s suggestion, although
-it went sorely against the grain with her ever to decline any man’s
-company. Still, she had done well; this was the very place to think
-out ways and means, with the peace of evening falling and only the
-distant bleatings of sheep to disturb a body’s thoughts. So Lovel was
-moody, was he? something had gone wrong, and according to her shrewd
-and simple creed nothing could go wrong enough to provoke moodiness in
-a man who had no crops or beasts of his own to worry about except his
-dealings with a woman. Had Miss Warrener given him the cold shoulder at
-last? she wouldn’t wonder, and was maliciously glad that Lovel should
-have met at last with a match in his own hoity-toity ways. That would
-show him, what it felt like. But she perceived that, although she had
-hitherto only congratulated herself over his discomfiture, it was in
-reality full of danger, for where was the danger to equal the danger
-of a reconciliation? She must, she saw it now, shoot her dart before
-Lovel and that hussy could make it up. But how to meet him? how to get
-so soon after this expedition, an afternoon’s leave from Mrs. Quince?
-Besides, there was the circus soon visiting King’s Avon; she didn’t
-want to imperil her chance of getting leave to attend that with her
-father and mother. She paused, cogitating, her finger pressed against
-the side of her nose. She looked around for inspiration. Nothing but
-the emptiness of the rolling country oddly broken by a few stray
-barrows and tumuli; a little farm half-hidden in a clump of trees; a
-water-mill slowly revolving with a recurrent flash from the setting
-sun; a hay-stack standing in a wattled enclosure by the side of the
-track. “As well look for an idea as for a needle in a bundle of hay,”
-she muttered to herself. The very thing! the very idea she wanted!
-Glancing cautiously round to see that no one was in sight, she bestrode
-the hurdles and thrust into the dusty depths of the haystack the most
-urgent and necessary of Mrs. Quince’s many commissions. She would get
-a sound rating for her forgetfulness, but she would surely be sent
-back next day to King’s Avon to repair the negligence, and then, if
-she could not contrive to find Lovel, might she be called a fool for
-ever after! Chuckling over her own ingenuousness, she hurried on her
-way. She had no eye for the beauty of the late summer evening, that so
-dusted with gold the hills that they might all have been one rolling
-field of standing corn, but hurried on, her mind full of her own small
-and artful schemes, and dwelling with relish on the thought of Clare
-and Lovel estranged within a stone’s throw of one another in the
-village she had left behind her.
-
-
-Her gauge of Mrs. Quince’s irritability had been very accurate. The
-other parcels duly handed over, Mrs. Quince had demanded her thread,
-of which, she declared, she had not a morsel left in the house. She
-inveighed against Calladine, who was so impatient that he daily
-enquired when the new curtains would be finished, but she inveighed
-still more against Daisy, who, she exclaimed, must be bereft of all
-ordinary sense to forget any item of so careful a list as she, Mrs.
-Quince, had herself prepared. Well, there was no help for it: back
-Daisy must go, and that no later than to-morrow, for besides the
-curtains there was all the mending to be done, and if she got a corn or
-a blister tramping the extra six miles she would only have herself to
-blame.
-
-Daisy made no complaint. She was beginning to feel herself a match for
-them all, for if she could outwit Mrs. Quince, who was a woman, how
-much more easily would she be able to outwit Lovel, who was only a man?
-
-Accordingly she started out on the following day, ostensibly penitent
-but inwardly triumphant, and slung down the hill, leaving on its
-height Starvecrow with its blown thorn trees and Calladine swinging
-his pick in the garden. The only thought which pre-occupied her, was
-where to find Lovel, for as she knew, his occupations took him in many
-various directions, and he was just as likely to be driving a herd into
-Marlborough to market as watching sheep on the Downs. Olver, however,
-she could be tolerably certain of finding in the village, and he, at
-least, might know his brother’s whereabouts. On the way she retrieved
-the packet of thread from its hiding place in the stack, since she was
-too thrifty a soul to waste her own money in buying a new lot from the
-shop, and as she climbed rather laboriously back over the hurdles, she
-saw Lovel himself riding idly towards her up the green track.
-
-He was alone; he had not seen her, for his head was sunk and he rode
-with loose reins as a man profoundly dejected, not caring whither he
-went. Daisy stood watching his approach, superstitiously encouraged as
-to her ultimate enterprise by her initial good luck. Not only would
-no time be wasted, but she would be spared quite a mile’s walk, for
-they were a good half-mile out of the village. How slack he rode! had
-she not been a woman in love with him, she would have pitied him. His
-horse slunk along as dejected as he, with drooping head and careless
-stumbling foot. They came up the track towards her at a walk, the
-reins swinging loosely from side to side, but even though he sat so
-lackadaisical in his saddle she noted the easy give of his body to the
-horse’s gait, and the light touch of the hands that would tauten to an
-instant check should the animal start or shy. Shy indeed it did, as
-Daisy stepped suddenly out from the side of the track to intercept it,
-and Lovel was startled into instinctive vigilance, raising his eyes
-under the brim of his wide hat to see what stood in the way. But not so
-much life as even an expression of annoyance crept in his mournful eyes
-as he saw Daisy; he lifted his hat civilly, and would have ridden on,
-but that she detained him.
-
-“Not so fast, Gipsy Lovel, when I’ve walked all this way from
-Starvecrow on purpose to see you.”
-
-She tried to make her tone arch rather than threatening; it was her
-habit to coax men rather than to coerce them. She might have known
-that no woman, not even Clare, could coax Lovel when he was in the
-opposite humour, but the manner was too habitual for her to discard.
-“Won’t you get off your horse,” she said, “and sit down on the grass
-beside me while I say what I have to say to you?”
-
-She sighted the hay-stack, out of which a section had already been cut,
-and thought in her cheap and common mind that if only she could get him
-to rest there with her, leaning back against the warm dusty hay, she
-would find greater ease in bringing him round to her point of view, for
-she was a staunch believer in the influence of physical comfort upon
-the tempers of men. “See, here’s a nice place,” she invited him, but
-with a cold patience he surveyed her from the height of his horse and
-begged that she would say her say with the utmost possible brevity and
-allow him to pass on.
-
-The corners of her mouth began to go down ugly and sulky, as the
-first obstacle thwarted her on the path which had hitherto been so
-surprisingly smooth, but she hastily lifted them again, for it would
-not do to let ill-humour creep into their relations.
-
-“Oh, well, I’ll begin,” she said as brightly as she could, “and if you
-feel like coming down from your grandeur half-way through, just stop me
-and I’ll give you a breathing-space.”
-
-Lovel waited gravely, the shadow of his hat heavy across his eyes.
-
-Now that Daisy was face to face with him, she was at a loss how to
-begin; she could not just blurt out her story and ask him to marry her;
-and anyway, he made her feel so insignificant, sitting there on a great
-horse like an idol, or like one of those soldiers she’d seen pictures
-of, in a steel helmet and a leather jacket and an upright lance in his
-hand. She told him this, and he listened unbending, silhouetted for her
-against the sky, mollified neither by her archness nor by her genuine
-confusion. “Oh, well, if you will have it up there,” she said at last
-in despair, “I’ll have to shout it up to you, but surely a poor girl
-never told a story in such a gawk of a position.”
-
-She began then, but, disconcerted, she began as she had not meant to
-begin, by saying “Do you recollect the Scouring this year?” and then
-hastily correcting herself, “No, no, I don’t mean that at all, what I
-mean is, your young brother Olver....”
-
-“No, I don’t mean that either,” she said, seeing that his expression
-had become, if anything, a little sterner at the mention of Olver’s
-name. “It’s like this,” she said desperately, “I’m over to Starvecrow
-now, at Mr. Calladine’s, but it’s a question how long I’ll be able to
-remain in the place. And I thought that you, Nick Lovel, being a decent
-man in spite of all your pride, would be the last one not to help a
-poor girl when she had no one but you to turn to, and afraid to face
-her own parents, and not so much as a married sister she could go to,
-or a penny of money saved, seeing Mr. Calladine’s is my first place
-and Dad never paid me for the work I did on the farm, but a bit now
-and then to buy myself a pair of new shoes or a ribbon, and anything
-I had went on muslin for a dress to the Scouring, which I made myself
-instead of taking it to the dressmaker in Marlborough same as Annabel
-Blagdon. And it isn’t for Mr. Calladine’s getting married that I do
-be afraid of leaving the place, but for my own trouble, and that’s a
-thing that Mrs. Quince is bound to find out sooner or later, and the
-only wonder is she hasn’t started asking questions already, but now
-every time she opens her mouth I’m feared it’s coming that I do feel
-my cheeks going all patchy, red and white, same as sometimes in the
-spring ’mong boys and girls. But I knew if I came to you, you would see
-it in the Christian light, and I could give in my notice and say I was
-leaving to get married, and ’twould be all envy and bless-you-Daisy,
-and Come-and-see-us-when-you’re-a-married-woman, instead of
-Out-you-go-you-wanton-sheltering-behind-a-proper-gentleman’s-name.”
-
-“What in God’s name are you trying to tell me?” said Lovel.
-
-“I’m trying to tell you I’m going to have a baby,” replied Daisy,
-beginning to cry in good earnest.
-
-“Well, that’s no affair of mine; what is it you want of me?” said
-Lovel. “If it’s money you want, you’re welcome to anything I can
-spare,--if you will only let me go my ways now,” he added inaudibly.
-
-“What good would money be to me,” sobbed Daisy, “when I haven’t a home
-to go to or a man to give me his name? My father’d turn me out, I know
-he would,--he wouldn’t give me a corner of his barn or a truss of his
-hay for my baby to be born on, he wouldn’t, and my mother wouldn’t give
-me my own long-clothes to clothe its nakedness.”
-
-“You must get the fellow to marry you,--is he a native of these parts?”
-asked Lovel, perfunctorily, aware only of the overwhelming oppression
-of his own spirit and his urgent longing for solitude.
-
-A cunning look came into her eyes when he mentioned marriage, and for
-the first time she recovered a little of her direction, which she had
-lost in her floundering to and fro.
-
-“Ah, so you think he ought to marry me? Well, so do I,” she said.
-“You’d think ill of a man who could let a girl go down and her child be
-nameless save for the name of a woman, which isn’t a name at all?”
-
-“Yes, yes,” said Lovel, fretting to be at an end.
-
-“Supposing I told you,” she proceeded, slowly now and with caution,
-“that he couldn’t marry? wasn’t fit to marry?”
-
-“Not fit to marry? if he’s fit to be the father of your child he’s
-surely fit enough to marry,” said Lovel.
-
-“Well, but there might be other reasons,--ill-health, mightn’t there?
-or he might be married already, let’s say....”
-
-“In any case, it doesn’t concern me. I’m sorry,” said Lovel, “but
-you’re talking to me of things you’d better be talking of to another
-man.”
-
-“Are you so sure of that?” she asked, coming up to him and putting her
-hand on the neck of his horse. She was aware that her eyes must be
-all puffy and blubbered after her recent crying, but the crisis being
-at hand now, for good or for bad, she was not going to delay it until
-another occasion when she should have had a better chance of setting
-herself to rights. “Are you so sure of that?” she asked, in a tone she
-tried to make impressive.
-
-“Sure?” echoed Lovel, looking at her in disgust at the implication that
-he himself could ever have touched her. He even gathered up his reins
-as a sign that he definitely wanted her to release him now.
-
-“Not so fast,” she said again. “There’s such a thing as responsibility
-for other’s actions, whether you like it or no. And it’s a
-responsibility I’m not in a position to let you off. I have to think of
-my baby as well as of myself, you see, and so long as he gets the name
-of Lovel I’m willing to overlook him not getting it from the proper
-quarter. Though why I talk of my baby as he, I’m sure I don’t know,”
-she added with a giggle, “for it’s even chances it’ll be a girl.”
-
-“What in the devil’s name are you saying?” ejaculated Lovel
-contemptuously. “Name of Lovel? is your trouble sending you out of your
-senses?”
-
-“No, it’s brought me to them,” she said tartly. “I may have been a fool
-in the past, and taken my pleasures too light where I found them, but
-that’s over now, and for the future I’m going to look after myself and
-my baby. And if you don’t take the proper steps, and the only decent
-steps, and the steps I want, there’s not a soul in Wilts and Somerset
-but shall know the scandal of that daft beast you let roam about at his
-own free-will.”
-
-“What ...” began Lovel, aghast.
-
-“Yes,” she cried shrilly. “’Tis all very well for you to be sitting
-up there so grand on your horse, with your eyes looking out over
-your nose, while your brother Olver who ought to be in Marlborough
-lock-up--and so ought you too, you poacher, for that matter--skulks
-about in dark barns taking advantage like the beast he is of poor girls
-on a scatter of straw. And I saw you, yes, I saw you, not only coming
-home from Marlborough fair, but often, quite the gentleman with Miss
-Warrener, and where had you two been, I should like to know? and it
-made me so mad seeing you that I didn’t care what any one done to me,
-whether it was Olver Lovel or another. I was crying after you all the
-time, if you want to know, so as I scarcely noticed a thing. And now,
-since even _you’d_ scarcely see me married to that hoddy-doddy, you’ll
-just have to marry me yourself, and pass off your nephew as your son
-for the rest of our life, and have only yourself to thank. And you
-needn’t think you’ll be losing your Miss Warrener any the more, for
-she’s been promised to Mr. Calladine this many a week back.”
-
-“Promised to Mr. Calladine?” said Lovel, starting. “How do you know
-that?”
-
-“Every one in the village knows it but you,” she jeered, “and if you
-wasn’t too proud to consort with your equals a bit more you’d know it
-too. Ask Martha Sparrow or William Baskett or any of them. Ask Mrs.
-Quince over to Starvecrow. Ask her if the house isn’t being done up
-all grand against the lady coming. Ride over and see if Mr. Calladine
-isn’t picking up a patch of garden with his own hands, forsooth. Ask
-parson if he hasn’t had notice yet to call the banns. We’ll have ours
-called the same Sunday. ‘Richard Calladine and Clare Warrener, Nicholas
-Lovel and Margaret Morland, all of this parish.’ That’ll be a fine
-sit-up-and-take-notice for the congregation.”
-
-“I must speak to Olver first,” said Lovel dully.
-
-“Then you’ll do it?” urged Daisy. “If you find that what I’ve told
-you’s true, you’ll do it?”
-
-“Oh, yes, I’ll marry you,” said Lovel, tonelessly. “But I’ll speak to
-Olver first,” he added, “and you’ll see the doctor.”
-
-“Oh, there’s no mistake, you’ll find,” said Daisy, bursting into a
-hysterical laugh. “And I’m not so bad as you think me, Lovel. I’m
-thrifty in a house, and I’ll make you a good wife, and I’ve loved you
-truly this long time, as well you know.”
-
-“For God’s sake, spare me that at least, for God’s sake spare me that,”
-said Lovel in a voice of such anguish that even Daisy in the midst of
-her relief and jubilation was struck silent and ashamed.
-
-
-The gossip of Mrs. Quince and Martha Sparrow had not taken long to
-reach the Waggon of Hay through the medium of John Sparrow. Blowing his
-old frame out with importance, he had hastened off to this favourite
-resort with the intelligence as soon as his daughter had whispered
-it to him, fearful lest any might have forestalled him, and he be
-greeted with derision as a bringer of stale news. But he need not have
-feared: he was the first direct link between the Waggon of Hay and
-Starvecrow, and it was to a gratifying inquisitive audience that, after
-due mystification, he finally made his announcement. Mr. Calladine
-to marry Miss Clare! Well, here was good health to them both, and a
-strapping posterity, and a bumper went round. The topic took its place
-in popularity with the continuance of the dry weather (which was
-spoiling the roots), and the imminent arrival of a travelling circus,
-already advertised on hand-bills and posters all over the village. John
-Sparrow sat in the chimney corner with his pipe and his mug, and by
-recurrent reminders kept the fact green in the memory of his companions
-that, but for his connection with the Manor House, they would not yet
-have been in possession of the news. (And indeed, had they best known
-it, they were in possession of it even before the two persons chiefly
-concerned.) Every fresh arrival had to be told--“Well, now, Job, or
-Luke, or William, what sort of surprise do you think we have got for
-you?”--and laughter of the most elementary sort stirred the cobwebs
-about the rafters at every, “Well, to be sure, now, who would have
-thought it?” and the expressions of good-will to Miss Clare were many,
-though it was wished that she might have chosen a man who was a bit
-more of a man than Mr. Calladine.
-
-One listener there was, who had received the information with anxiety,
-though without raising his voice in comment. Olver Lovel, for some days
-now, had haunted the Waggon of Hay, tolerated though not encouraged
-by the rustics. So long as he did no harm, made no noise, did not get
-drunk, and got in nobody’s way, they would not object to his slinking
-round, surreptitiously finishing up the dregs out of other people’s
-glasses. They were a little surprised to see him there, for they knew
-that in the past his brother (who, let them do him justice, saw to
-it that the zany gave as little annoyance as possible), had put the
-Waggon strictly out of bounds for Olver. Olver knew it too; he knew
-also, what they did not know, that the embargo had never been removed,
-and that the Waggon was as much out of bounds now as it had ever
-been; but Nicco had been in so strange a mood of late--so strange,
-inattentive, and lenient a mood--that Olver was ready to run the risk
-of taking advantage. He did not know what had come over Nicco. Money
-and food seemed plentiful, although Nicco rarely went out poaching
-now; he would break into the savings-box and not seem to mind; he had
-even given Olver, on a bare request, enough money to buy a new smock;
-and their mother was allowed the matches at night now, for all the
-world as though Nicco no longer cared whether the house was burnt
-down about their ears or not. Olver had rejoiced greatly in this new
-order of things. Day by day he had grown more daring; little acts
-of insubordination passing unnoticed, he had at last achieved the
-supreme defiance of creeping down to the Waggon one evening, and had
-stayed there drinking up the dregs and listening to the conversation,
-half of which was to him unintelligible and half a source of awe and
-admiration, until ten o’clock at night. Still Nicco said nothing; did
-not ask where he had been; did not even comment on his absence from
-supper. Olver was full of contempt for this new, lax Nicholas--full
-of contempt, but determined to make hay while the sun shone. No doubt
-the day would come when Nicco would fly into a rage, recover the
-matches, give Olver a thrashing, take away his new smock, and the old
-redoubtable order would be re-established. Somewhere, perversely,
-secretly, Olver hoped for that day; at present he felt himself a little
-like a horse allowed his head down a slippery hill. But this small,
-perverse and secret hope he did not admit even to himself. What!
-deplore the new system which permitted him to go to the Waggon almost
-every evening, to beg a twist of tobacco, to sit on the floor near the
-fire in the chimney corner, to listen, and to look--to look through
-the tobacco smoke at all the different-coloured spirits in the range
-of shining bottles, which reflected the tap-room rather in the same
-distorted way as his own little round mirror; at the steel handles on
-the bar-counter; at the coloured picture of the Queen and the late
-Prince Consort; at the photograph of the landlord standing beside a
-giant eight foot high--how could he deplore a system which permitted
-these delights?
-
-And now in this same tap-room he had picked up the one piece of
-information he wanted. He knew now what was the matter with Nicco: Miss
-Warrener was promised to Mr. Calladine.
-
-His gratitude to Miss Warrener doubled: not only did he owe her the
-mirror, which was incomparably the dearest of his few possessions,
-but he also owed her, indirectly, his new smock and his visits to the
-Waggon of Hay. He owed her all Nicco’s sad indulgence. His mother owed
-her the matches placed beside her bed every night. What benefits had
-Miss Warrener not conferred upon Olver and his mother!
-
-So for a long time his feeble mind played round his debt to Miss
-Warrener, before it dawned upon him that Nicholas, to be so changed,
-must be very unhappy. His involved but absolute devotion to his
-brother flared instantly; he might deceive Nicholas, he might have
-fretted once, not so very long ago, beneath his severity; but in his
-eyes Nicholas was nevertheless God. At the mere thought that Nicholas
-might be unhappy,--might even now be sitting over the hearth at
-home, not angry with Olver because he no longer had the spirit left
-in him to be angry with anything or any one,--at these thoughts,
-which reached Olver’s poor brain in a more or less confused form, he
-scrambled to his feet, much to the surprise of the company, which had
-been sitting quietly smoking and talking around him. He stood up by
-the bar, a wild and startling figure; ashes from the fire had blown
-into his hair, which moreover stood straight up on end as he ran his
-fingers despairingly through it. He burst into abuse, unmistakably
-directed against some woman. “Here, here: order!” cried authority,
-stepping hastily forward, but before it became necessary to eject the
-disturber, he had vanished of his own accord out into the street.
-
-Olver ran as fast as he could go down the street towards his own home.
-A light burnt behind the ill-fitting shutters both upstairs and down;
-that meant that his mother was not yet gone to bed, and that Nicco was
-at home. He irrupted violently into the kitchen; Nicco was sitting
-there, just as he had imagined him; doing nothing, staring into the
-fire. There was no sign of his having had any supper. Olver rushed up
-to his brother and threw his arms about him. “Nicco, I know it all now,
-the bitch, the baggage, but you shan’t lose her if you want her. I’ll
-get her for you,--trust Olver,--I’ll get her out on to the Downs with
-something she gave me,--or I’ll lend it to you to get her yourself if
-you like. I once told her you could if you were so minded. You shall
-have her. They said down at the Waggon that she was promised to Mr.
-Calladine. But she shan’t go to him, she shall go to you.”
-
-“Olver,” said Lovel quietly, “why did you never tell me about yourself
-and Daisy Morland in the barn?”
-
-Olver began to stammer; he said, “I did tell you,--I told you she had
-seen you with Miss Warrener,--I told you I held her down and tickled
-her till she squealed,--I did tell you, Nicco.”
-
-“You told me half,” said Lovel. A hope pricked at his heart that
-Daisy’s story might be false. “She has told me herself,” he added.
-
-Olver was quite sure now that his brother would kill him for this and
-for going to the Waggon of Hay,--for the two things together. He looked
-at Nicholas with his shifty blue eyes so oddly rimmed with black, and
-shuffled one foot over the other, but Nicholas’ eyes held him and asked
-for the truth.
-
-“Well ...” he muttered.
-
-“You had her?” said Lovel without mercy.
-
-“And why not?” burst out Olver. “All the boys do,--yes, and brag about
-it. Look at Peg Lackland, going....”
-
-“All right,” said Lovel, with the same quietness; “I’m not blaming
-you.” Not blaming him? had the world stopped going round? “Only if you
-ever tell any one this I shall kill you,--do you quite understand?”
-
-Olver stared, but with Nicco’s threat stability and familiarity seemed
-to be returning in some degree to his world. He nodded his head.
-
-“I’m going to marry Daisy Morland myself,” added Lovel, still fixing
-him with his eyes, “and I can’t have it said that she has ever gone
-with my brother. You understand that, don’t you?”
-
-“Going to marry Daisy Morland? but Miss Warrener ...” began Olver.
-
-“Miss Warrener is going to marry Mr. Calladine,” said Lovel steadily;
-“that has nothing to do with me, except that she was always civil to
-me when I met her on the Downs. I know my standing, and Miss Warrener
-knows hers. She marries a gentleman, and I marry a farmer’s girl;
-that’s as it should be.”
-
-“So Daisy will come to live here?” said Olver, completely amazed now.
-
-“Yes,” said Lovel brutally, “she will come to live here. She will be
-useful looking after our mother and keeping the place a bit better than
-you and I can keep it. And if ever it gets out that she once went with
-you, I break your head.”
-
-“Yes, Nicco,” said Olver humbly.
-
-“You can tell all the village, if you like, down at the Waggon, that I
-am going to marry her,” said Lovel.
-
-“Yes, Nicco,” said Olver again, not fully grasping the implied
-sanction. “I’m sorry I went with her,” he added out of his confusion.
-
-“That doesn’t matter,” replied Lovel in his old weary voice. “Poor
-Olver, what does it matter? We’re all so greatly to be pitied, what’s
-that the more or the less?”
-
-
-Calladine announced to Mrs. Quince that he was dining at the Manor
-House. Daisy rejoiced at this piece of news, for ever since her return
-to Starvecrow she had been nervous lest Lovel and Miss Warrener should
-meet and Lovel discover that she, Daisy, had in one particular exceeded
-the truth in her assertions. She hoped,--and would have prayed, but
-that her superstitious faith feared the possible blasphemy,--that
-Calladine would no longer delay his avowal, but would return after
-dinner that night a betrothed man. Indeed, for all she knew, he might
-be secretly betrothed even now, not merely contemplating betrothal,
-and she thus have spoken the truth after all, albeit inadvertently to
-Lovel. Luck had been so much upon her side, that perhaps it might have
-favoured her also in this instance.
-
-Never did lover set out accompanied by more earnest wishes for his
-success than Calladine that evening accompanied by the wishes of his
-housemaid.
-
-Calladine found Mr. Warrener alone.
-
-“I don’t know what has become of Clare,” said the old gentleman after
-greeting his guest; “it’s unlike her to be late for dinner, especially
-when she knew you were coming. Perhaps I allow her too much liberty,”
-he added, peering into Calladine’s face to read whether he found any
-condemnation therein.
-
-“Miss Clare,” said Calladine, speaking gently, for he knew Mr.
-Warrener’s occasional uneasiness, “is not a young lady whom it would be
-judicious to confine.”
-
-“Um,--wild, you think her?” said Mr. Warrener, rubbing his chin.
-
-“Not wild,--only free....” Calladine breathed.
-
-“She is a very great responsibility,” said Mr. Warrener, perplexed.
-
-Calladine smiled. Who were they, two cultured and scholarly men pacing
-a lamplit study, to be disposing of the freedom of that airy spirit?
-
-But he was gentle to the old man, for in many ways he loved him.
-
-“Your safeguard, sir, lies in her trustworthiness.”
-
-“A happy word,” said Mr. Warrener, immensely relieved, and they
-continued to pace the room, talking of other things, until Martha
-summoned them to dinner.
-
-The candles between them, they dined. They spoke the same language, and
-the suavity that reigned was not only the suavity of the room. Almost,
-Clare’s absence was a relief; always, her elusiveness was a slight
-trouble, like a breeze in the room. Even now, she was present in their
-minds; their eyes flickered towards the door; where was she? dancing
-after what Will-o’-the-Wisp?
-
-She came, more vivacious than Calladine had ever seen her; so lively
-now, that he thought her feverish, now drooping silent and listless,
-rousing herself to Mr. Warrener’s “Clare! Clare, you don’t hear what I
-am saying,” with a startled smile,--Mr. Warrener, in excellent spirits
-and full of discourse. Calladine watched her covertly, between the
-candles on the dinner-table. He would speak to her to-night; speak,
-lest he should lose her for the sake of a fancy. He could not wait,
-until the garden which she had ordained should be finished.
-
-Yet, what haunted her? What wild grief lay beneath her gaiety?
-
-But there was Mr. Warrener to reckon with, eager and garrulous
-to-night, and oblivious to the fact that Calladine wanted to stray out
-into the garden through the French windows with Clare. Calladine was
-enraged with impatience against the old gentleman, in whose trained
-and scholarly mind he usually delighted. Having wondered whether Mr.
-Warrener realised that he came to the Manor House as a suitor for his
-daughter’s hand, to-night he crossly decided that the idea had never
-once entered Mr. Warrener’s head. Otherwise it was impossible that he
-should be so obtuse ... scrupulously courteous as he always was, and
-considerate the moment he recognised the need for any consideration.
-Calladine nearly laughed for his irritation, as Mr. Warrener, who was
-at work upon a new theme, brought out diagram after diagram, specimen
-after specimen, in his zeal to prove his point, dropping dates and
-facts into place like the cubes of a patterned mosaic. But to-night
-the facts and figures seemed to Calladine only brittle and dry, when
-life was waiting for him in the shadowed corner of the room. Clare
-sat there, in her rose-red dress, and now that she believed the eye
-of neither of the two men to be upon her, Calladine could furtively
-observe that she had relaxed the strain of her attention, and sat
-limp with her gaze fixed upon the dark garden through the window. The
-tight bodice moulded the extreme youth of her form; her hands lay
-idly clasped in her lap. His egoism vanished before the pathos of
-her attitude. She became a child in his eyes: a child broken by some
-unexplained sorrow,--yet what sorrow, what sorrow could have come upon
-her in her free yet sheltered life? And because, however genuine his
-sentiment, he must always attitudinise to himself, he saw himself a
-sage and tender protector, the guardian of this too-emotional child
-against the fancied ills,--for how should they be otherwise than
-fancied?--that beset her. He realised then that he had lost count,
-as much as Clare herself, of what Mr. Warrener was saying, and saw
-to his relief, as he tried to make a flurried return to archæology,
-that Mr. Warrener was no longer addressing him, but had drifted into
-a soliloquy, according to his wont, with the little flints and shards
-ranged upon his desk.
-
-“May Clare and I go out, sir?” said Calladine softly.
-
-They wandered into the garden, Calladine tall and grave, Clare with the
-rustle of her silks and the little crunch of her heels, racing beside
-him up and down the garden path. She had been afraid, for a moment,
-that he was about to ask her to play or sing: music, with him leaning
-towards her over the piano.... Reprieved from music, it was indifferent
-to her what she did. They paced the path; an owl whooped softly from
-the cedar; was answered, from afar off, out on the Downs.
-
-Through the lighted windows they saw Mr. Warrener, his lips still
-mumbling, bent meticulously over his shards.
-
-Clare, with the rustle of her silks and the tap of her heels, and the
-private knowledge of her mind, looked away from Calladine.
-
-He examined the words that she flippantly threw out, looking for
-bitterness, but no bitterness escaped her, looking for cynicism,
-but her lips were innocent of it. And nothing came to him but
-matter-of-fact questions, “Where had you been, Miss Clare?” and the
-like, which she answered civilly, though he knew that where her body
-had been was of no import, the only thing of import was the adventure
-of her spirit, and that he could never seize or follow. She was a
-stranger to him, irrevocably, and he savoured all the full pain of that
-phrase. “Where had you been, Miss Clare?”--oh, empty enquiry! what
-could she tell him, that would bring him nearer to her? but at the same
-time in a sudden frustrated rage he thought that were she ever to be
-his he would not let her out of his sight for a moment. Revengeful, he
-was; petulant; snatching,--and she so detached, cool, tantalising.
-
-He called himself back; Clare made him lose his sense; he could put
-out his hand now and touch her bare arm, touch her flesh; such contact
-would be reassuring, would chase from his mind all ideas of her
-elusiveness; he could handle her roughly, if he would; drag her up into
-his arms, mutter angrily against her lips,--but even so, would he hold
-her?--and the old despair came back upon him. She made him angry;
-there was no happiness for him, even in winning her, yet win her he
-must, and was determined upon it, for he was an obstinate man, with
-room in his head only for one idea once it had taken hold of him.
-
-But he must be gentle with her, or else she would blow away from him
-like thistledown.
-
-And while he was wondering how he might least scare her, he was shaking
-with his rage and his desire and his anxiety.
-
-It was quiet in the garden; he liked the security of gardens, he liked
-the gentleness of these little grey West-country manor-houses such as
-the Manor House of King’s Avon; they shut out the wild; they ignored
-the great pale Downs, and the rovings of such dark people as Gipsy
-Lovel. And he began to talk, murmuring much of what he had obscurely
-felt, “A pastoral country,” he said, “fair and straightforward, a
-stranger might think; and yet we who live in it know better, we know
-its dim hauntings, we know how present are the dead, we know the little
-countless tragedies,--the rabbit squealing beneath the stoat, the
-blackbird pecked by the sparrowhawk. We know the perpetual enmity that
-goes on under the apparent harmony.” And,--what possessed him?--he
-spoke also of Lovel. “That dark, supple fellow,--he knows as much as
-anybody of the secrets of the woods; he’s got a quick eye and a sure
-hand, and a glance like the glance of an animal ready to spring away;
-it’s a wild blood they have in them, the gipsies, whether they live
-in a house or move their hearth about with them,--a strong stain of
-blood, that never gets washed out. Look at that fellow, now,--he never
-takes a regular job,--he strays from farmer to farmer, when he isn’t
-sneaking on his own concerns. And it’s all the gipsy blood in him, Miss
-Clare,--untamed he lives, and untamed he’ll die. But he understands the
-country, I dare wager, as well as any hare or kestrel that hides or
-flies, taking its chance of life and death.”
-
-It struck him as absurd that in this hour when all his faculty was
-bent upon so different a matter, he should be discoursing idly of the
-country and the vagrant fellow he was accustomed to sight sometimes
-upon a distant skyline; but he knew that some connection existed in his
-mind, and traced it down to his constant uneasiness about Clare. It was
-all very well for him to speak airily, confident now in the security
-of the Manor House garden,--outside the garden lay the Downs,--and
-where had Clare been? where did Clare spend all her days? Demure she
-paced beside him, and the black cedar spread its flat branches above
-the lawn, and within the lighted windows Mr. Warrener poked among the
-shards on his desk; secure! secure! but danger lay behind the pretence,
-danger in confederacy with Clare. Demure she paced beside him in the
-summer night, drawing her lace scarf close about her shoulders, so that
-one pale gleaming hand lay against her breast, holding the lace, but
-she was silent, shut away with her uncommunicated thoughts.
-
-He trusted himself abruptly to the direct question.
-
-“Clare, what is the matter?”
-
-She was too big, too simple, to defend herself with the ready-to-hand
-artifice of denial or evasion.
-
-“Nothing is the matter which you can help, Mr. Calladine, thank you,
-and nothing that I shall not recover from.” She spoke the truth as far
-as she knew it. “I own that I have been vexed,--even hurt, perhaps,”
-she put her head up as she made the admission. “But I could scarcely
-hope to go through life, could I, without meeting some vexation by the
-way? and now that I have met it, I must take it, mustn’t I, without
-losing my sense of proportion?”
-
-He smiled, in the darkness which secured his smile from her
-observation, at the phraseology of her piteous wisdom.
-
-“But why not confide it to me?” he said, bending down towards her.
-“I am older than you, you know, and a trouble shared, they say, is a
-trouble halved.”
-
-“My God, no,” she breathed.
-
-He was shocked at such an expression on her lips. Had something or some
-one then really driven the child up to the bounds of her endurance?
-Was she too readily driven to such extremity of feeling? or was the
-provocation she had received sufficient to justify it? alas, he had
-no experience of her capacity for emotion. But he thought, from what
-he knew of her, that she must be indeed profoundly troubled before she
-would betray her distress.
-
-“If any man has hurt you,” he burst out, “only tell me his name.”
-
-She opened her mouth and stared at him as though she were about to
-utter a name as he bade her, so strong was in her the habit of childish
-obedience, but with the name ringing, although not for expression, in
-her head, she covered her face with her hands and burst into tears.
-He was appalled at the passion of her crying. She had sunk down upon
-a bench, and he knelt beside her, trying to pull her hands away from
-her face, but she shook her head and turned away from him, isolating
-herself in the grief she was not yet accustomed to and could not yet
-understand. She could not understand it, and, tormented, desired only
-an escape from its weight and astonishment. “I am crying because
-you made me cry,” she said, at last to Calladine; “I have not cried
-before,--I promise you I have not cried before,” and at the thought of
-Lovel, absent and unconscious that she was weeping, unconscious of the
-fruit his harshness had borne, she wept afresh.
-
-“Clare, Clare,” said Calladine, pulling at her wet hands, “don’t you
-remember, up by the Grey Wethers, a promise you made me? that if ever
-trouble came upon you, you would come to me for help? Don’t you
-remember,--the day of the Scouring? Where’s your promise gone now? I
-would have held my hand in a flame that you would never break your
-word. Perhaps you thought it was fancy on my part; I was never more
-deadly serious. Isn’t this the moment to give me my chance of serving
-you?”
-
-She was so much surprised by the reminder that she took her hands away
-from before her face and gazed at him. Her tears over, the idea that
-she should go to Calladine for help against Lovel caused her to laugh
-mirthlessly. That Mr. Calladine should protect her against Lovel! well!
-well! She laughed again. “Clare,” he exclaimed, “don’t laugh so, you
-frighten me.”
-
-“There is one thing which you can do,” she said slowly. He grasped at
-it; besought her to tell him what it was. Still she hesitated; yes,
-anything to get away from the pain of Lovel. And it would please Mr.
-Calladine; and if it pleased him what did it matter? perhaps she had
-often hurt him in the past as Lovel had hurt her now. “Marry me,” she
-said; and added candidly, “I know you want to.”
-
-
-The arrival of the circus created an excitement in the village, poor
-affair though it was. It trailed in, one afternoon, trailed in through
-the gap in the earth-works; a couple of caravans, a merry-go-round, two
-or three cages on wheels, and some led horses; it trailed in with its
-air of perpetual perambulation and its poor pretence of gaiety, and
-encamped itself, as it must have encamped countless times before, and
-would do countless times again, choosing this time the field of the
-sarsen stones, which by virtue of tradition was looked upon as common
-land, where any farmer might turn his beasts overnight before a market,
-or any fair or circus, as now, claim hospitality. The village boys came
-to stare at the preparations, at the gaudy yellow carts marooned among
-the grave ancient stones; they stared, vacantly chewing grass stalks,
-at the men who were getting up the tent, running with the ropes that
-were to fasten down the great, flapping thing, and heaving up the poles
-that transformed the amorphous folds into a shape and a transitory
-shelter. Of the animals there was not much to be seen; the cages
-were roped off behind the caravans, and nothing but a desultory roar
-betrayed the presence of these aliens among the English Downs.
-
-Shortly after nightfall a man with red and yellow streamers pinned
-on to his coat and tied round the crown of his hat, passed down the
-village street beating a drum as a signal that the performance was
-about to begin. There proceeded already a stream of the population
-towards the fields, by twos or in families, and between the gate of the
-field and the tent the grass was already trampled into a track. Night
-was come; and within the opening of the tent the interior lighting
-glowed warm and fulvid; towards this square of light in the centre of
-the field, thus inviting, the procession of villagers made its way,
-inwardly eager, outwardly sheepish, and drew together at the entrance,
-where a rude box-office had been erected, and another man with red
-and yellow streamers dispensed tickets in return for the coppers and
-six-pences paid across his little counter.
-
-Inside the tent, the newcomers herded, uncertain. Most of the benches
-immediately around the central oval of grass were already filled
-up, and the rows of faces and hands were uniformly lit by the two
-gas-flares, one on either side of the supporting pole. The grass oval,
-under this light, appeared most brilliantly green. The roof and sides
-of the tent swept away into shadow,--shadow dimly peopled by the
-audience on the rising tiers of benches, of whom only the first two
-or three rows were illuminated, and the rest indistinguishable, save
-as vague rings of buff-coloured hands and faces, over which the light
-sometimes flickered fitfully. Over in one corner stood one of the
-yellow carts, its shafts propped up somewhat foolishly into the air,
-and its body, on which was painted in large black letters the single
-word, ORCHESTRA, filled by members of the company with bassoons and
-other wind instruments, the lower parts of their persons concealed by
-the sides of the cart, and the upper emerging like so many jacks in the
-box. Beside this cart was the opening for the entrance and exit of the
-performers.
-
-Into this scene of flaming light, strong colours, and deep shadows,
-came Lovel and his brother, the former so scowling and dark,--for he
-detested this appearance in public,--that he might rather have been a
-member of the traveling mountebanks than of the yokel audience. As he
-stepped out into the light, followed by Olver, this defiance was almost
-absurdly evident in his manner. He knew that the light was full on his
-face and on the figure that shambled behind him, and that the eyes of
-the audience were turned with a mild curiosity towards the pair; he
-felt himself to be an incident of the show they had all come to see.
-He looked round for a place. A few kindly neighbours made room on one
-of the front benches, so that, although Lovel would have preferred a
-more retiring seat, he was obliged to take his place there with Olver,
-at his side. Olver was gazing all round with the fascination of a
-child. He had never seen so many people gathered all together before,
-and his neighbours, familiar to him as individuals, acquired a new
-impressiveness when seen thus together in their numbers; he had never
-seen a circus ring, or an illumination so strange or so effective as
-that cast by the gas-flares; and as for the performance itself, he had
-nothing but vague and fantastic ideas of what he was about to behold.
-Very furtively he brought out from his coat pocket the round mirror
-which Clare had given him, and bent over it; reflected in it, he saw
-the lights, and the ring of faces, the thin scarlet rope, the shadows,
-the green grass, the yellow cart, according as he turned it. Lovel sat
-stiff and erect beside him, staring straight ahead, his arms folded
-across his chest. Olver bent lower over his mirror. He chuckled softly
-over it. The orchestra now stood up in the cart and began to play,
-brassily, noisily, but to the great delight of the audience.
-
-Olver was annoyed because he could not see reflected in his mirror the
-agreeable noise which the band was making, and the tiny reproduction
-of the scene was thus rendered incomplete. Still he peered into the
-mirror, where the picture was small and distant, as seen through the
-wrong end of field-glasses, and also with that slight distortion which
-never failed to enchant him: the supporting pole appeared slightly
-bent, the scarlet ropes curved round like serpents, and each face, as
-he examined it separately, was a tiny caricature of the face reflected.
-
-With the blare of the band Lovel relaxed a little from his rigidity;
-he glanced round him, nodded briefly to a few acquaintances, and
-considered with an uninterested eye the scanty properties of the show
-standing prepared near the performers’ entrance. He heard the eager
-whispering going on in the audience, and, being himself scornful and
-unhappy, was possessed by a passing contempt. He saw Martha Sparrow
-there with her brother John, and a group of the cronies from the Waggon
-of Hay; he caught sight of Farmer Morland with his wife and daughter,
-and instantly looked away, for he had seen Daisy’s eyes fixed upon
-him, and had no wish to respond to the smile she was holding in
-readiness. No doubt they considered that he ought to have escorted her.
-At that moment he saw Clare come in with Mr. Calladine.
-
-He had not expected this, and remained transfixed, staring at them in
-complete dismay. Clare came in shyly, turning to speak to Calladine
-over her shoulder; she was wearing a dark blue cloak over her muslin
-dress, and no hat, only a dark blue ribbon in her hair. Coming, in
-her turn, into the light, she hesitated with a perceptible confusion
-that seized Lovel by the heart. Calladine came forward, competent and
-proprietary, found her a seat, and took his place beside her; they bent
-together over the leaflet of the programme. Still Lovel stared; she
-looked up, and their eyes met across the width of the ring. Her lips
-parted; for a full minute they stared at one another. He saw the blush
-rising, like a flame of reproach, in her cheeks. For that minute, as
-their heads swam, they had no thought of the pairs of eyes observing
-them: of Olver’s, of Daisy Morland’s, or of Calladine’s, respectively
-with a mischievous, a jealous, and a dismayed absorption. Then Clare
-came to her senses; she looked deliberately away, looked around,
-searching for faces she might greet, found Martha Sparrow, found
-some of the tradesmen, and smiled to them all with disproportionate
-alacrity. She spoke again to Calladine, whose pride in her had changed
-to a visible moodiness; he answered her indeed, but briefly, and
-sat angrily tapping the top of his walking-stick against his teeth.
-Lovel, having no knowledge of the world, but only his instincts,
-wondered whether he should leave the tent, or should remain to enjoy
-the atrocious pleasure of watching her once again. He knew that now he
-would have to fight out his renunciation afresh from the beginning;
-the dull resignation which had clouded over him of late had all melted
-away in a second before her restored presence. Merely to see her sent
-the heat and ecstasy of life back into his veins. Twenty-eight years of
-existence had not accustomed him to the rush of his own emotions. Such
-a reasonless joy as this which seized him even while he knew that she
-was promised to Calladine, still had the power to surprise him.
-
-The beginning of the circus did not distract him; rather it favoured
-him, for under the cover of the general interest he was able to gloat
-his eyes upon her to his heart’s content. Olver, who had long ago made
-up his mind about his brother, had now little desire to watch for the
-manifestations of a passion he took for granted in spite of all Nicco’s
-denials, and devoted the whole of his rapt attention to the events
-of the ring. These were enough to transport his simple soul, easily
-pleased at best. Piebald horses, and fat thighs encased in pink tights,
-curvetted before him; while with flashing smiles young men and women
-performed apparently impossible feats of strength and balance. Olver
-presently conceived the idea of following the circus in his mirror, and
-alternated between the actual, which was already entrancing enough, and
-the reflected, which provided him with a world so indescribably and
-doubly queer. He hoped that the little, queer, brilliant pictures would
-be preserved forever in the depths of the glass. A fat woman in pink
-and spangles jumped through paper hoops off the back of a cantering
-horse, crying “Hop!” as she jumped and again as she landed, and the
-manager standing in the centre cracked his long whip at the horse’s
-fetlocks, but only hit the clown, whose whitened face, ghastly under
-the gas-jets, went bowling round in somersaults over the grass of the
-ring. There was also a snake-man, dressed from head to foot in emerald
-green, who contorted himself in the midst of a silence rendered more
-impressive by the sudden cessation of the braying band, into the knots
-common to all such performers; and the laughter which had accompanied
-the clown was stilled into a respectful awe. The snake-man, Olver
-found, was especially effective seen in the mirror.
-
-The atmosphere in the tent by now was somewhat clouded by tobacco
-smoke, softening the hard, high glare of the gas, and through the smoke
-the faces appeared hazy, sitting round in their rows, likewise the
-hands, that periodically broke out into a beating of applause. But to
-Lovel, who had not taken his eyes off Clare, her face was distinct as
-ever; and his own face, to Daisy Morland, was distinct, and, above his
-red shirt, dark and proud.
-
-In the ring now were three small bears, one dressed as a
-clergyman,--whose appearance had provoked roars of laughter,--one
-as a lady, with a poke bonnet and bustle, and the third as a clown,
-the buffoon and wag of the party. These three sad animals were at
-their tasks of travelling round the ring on large balls, pushing a
-perambulator, balancing on a tight rope, or whatever it might be;
-Lovel, in so far as he bestowed a passing interest in the show,
-was indignant at the pitiful degradation. The audience had no such
-niceness; they roared their hearty laughter, and some of those sitting
-immediately behind the scarlet ropes even thrust a foot towards the
-bears as they passed round in their drab monotony, provoking a dull
-turn of the head and a lack-lustre glance, too spiritless even for
-a snarl. Arm in arm the clergyman and the lady paraded the ring on
-their hind legs, stopping now and then to bow gravely; they stopped
-thus opposite to Clare and Calladine, recognised by the quick eye of
-the manager as the only gentry present. Clare and Lovel looked at one
-another once more when this occurred, a look in which their personal
-passion, for once, had no part, but only discomfort and sympathy with
-the indignity put upon the beasts. Yet that look, impersonal though it
-was, only tightened Lovel’s heart the more, for it had in it all the
-intimacy of their understanding, in the same way as when they had been
-used to look across the Downs, and, seeing the bowling shadows of the
-clouds, had spoken no word, but sometimes smiled, knowing each so well
-the thoughts that were passing in the mind of the other.
-
-He began to wonder what he should do when the show was over, and the
-moment came for every one to leave the tent. He was near the exit;
-should he hurry out and hasten home, shutting the door of his house
-behind him, before Clare and Calladine had so much as turned into the
-street? “Likely they’ll wander home by the fields, being lovers,” he
-said to himself. Or should he go boldly up to Daisy and invite her
-to walk home with him, in order to prove to Clare the extent of his
-indifference? He rejected this course, despising its cheapness. Or
-should he remain seated where he was, letting Clare and Calladine
-pass out of the tent before him? The one thing to be avoided was the
-jostle in the exit. He might get pushed up against her, or against
-Calladine,--if he felt Calladine jostle against him he would turn and
-hit him. But he had Olver to reckon with; Olver who would tug at his
-coat and bid him come, if he tried to remain behind; Olver who would
-in any case torment him afterwards with questions as whether he had
-seen Clare; and, half turning to look at Olver, he caught sight of the
-mirror held tilted, over which the boy stooped with such absorption,
-and he wondered idly where Olver had got this toy, that seemed so to
-fascinate him and to occupy so much of his time; but after that passing
-curiosity he returned to his own miserable concerns that gnawed like
-rodents at his brain, and his eyes perpetually sought the face of
-Clare, as though in her fairness lay simultaneously both the problem
-and the solution.
-
-So turned inward upon himself was he, that a sudden shout was the
-first thing to rouse him. He raised his head; a sheet of flame shot
-upwards from the gas; all was confusion suddenly; the audience rose
-and stampeded into the ring, trying to get to the exits; benches were
-overturned; women screamed, men swore; overhead the flame tore a great
-hole in the darkness, and portions of the burning canvas floated,
-turning over and over, down to the ground.
-
-Lovel fought his way through the striving mass of people like one
-possessed, caring nothing who he pushed aside or who he struck and
-elbowed. For one second he came upon the terrified face of Daisy; she
-tried to cling to him, but he threw her off. He was fighting against
-the tide of the crowd. By now the canvas was roaring overhead, the
-shouts increased, the panic surged wildly towards the narrow openings,
-all round was nothing but terror and a mad confusion. Lovel clove his
-way through the sea of limbs and faces; he tore a path by sheer fury.
-Reaching Calladine, he thrust him aside, and seized Clare by the hand.
-“Come,” he said, dragging her. He was obliged to put his arm round
-her shoulders and half carry her along as with the other arm he opened
-up a way for them both. The exit was hopelessly blocked; he took his
-knife from his pocket and ripped a long vertical slit in the side of
-the tent, through which he forced her first and then himself after her,
-and the crowd seeing this escape, streamed through after them. The
-night air was suddenly cool around them. He picked her up and carried
-her away to the top of the encircling embankment. The Downs were black
-behind them, and from the height of the ridge they gazed down upon the
-red leaping flames in the field below.
-
-The field was wildly lit up, and around the blazing tent stood the
-crowd in a circle, watching the destruction they could not prevent.
-The flames reared to the height of trees, holding up the blackness;
-the light fell upon the shapes of the sarsen stones, that, unmoved,
-regarded this disaster as they might have regarded any other. Clare
-seized Lovel’s arm.
-
-“Are they all safe?”
-
-“They will be, by now,” Lovel replied mechanically.
-
-“The animals,” cried Clare.
-
-At that, Lovel returned to earth, and a slow smile of amusement crept
-over his mouth.
-
-“Why, they will have escaped,” he said slowly; “escaped and be roaming
-about till morning. The village besieged by bears. Well, Miss
-Warrener, it will not be the first time that bears will have been loose
-among these stones or prowling on the Downs. Will we all turn out with
-sticks and staves to-morrow to drive ’em in? Come and ride them in,
-Miss Warrener, to-morrow morning before any one else is astir. Will you
-do that?”
-
-“With you?” she asked.
-
-“Why not?” he replied. “But I forgot,” he added, “Mr. Calladine has
-the disposal of your doings now, has he not? Many’s the pleasant hour
-you spend over books or in your garden; gentle and pleasant. There was
-a time when you rode rough as a boy; but that’s over now. Your finger
-nails are smooth,” he said, taking her hand and examining it critically
-by the vague light of the flames; “the hand of a lady,” and he lifted
-it up and sniffed it. “Scented too!” he said. “Scented for Calladine to
-kiss and fondle,” and gently he gave it back into her keeping, shaking
-his head. “Ah, Miss Warrener, it was a terrible mistake you made when
-you rode your pony in your little shepherd’s cap; ’twasn’t that you
-were cut out for. No, but for a lady’s life. ‘I shall want the carriage
-this afternoon, Mrs. Quince, to drive to Shrivenham.’” He minced the
-words. “‘And I shall want the rug put in the carriage lest it turn cold
-at sunset.’ No more catching your pony in the paddock when the fancy
-takes you for a gallop across the hills. I’ll come as your groom,
-if you’ll have me, and promise to keep away my brother, whose touch
-startles horses.”
-
-“You must let me go home,” said Clare, who, white-faced, was holding
-her cloak about her.
-
-“Remember, there are bears,” said Lovel. “A bear dressed as a lady, a
-bear dressed as a clergyman, and one, poor soul, as a clown. They are
-walking arm-in-arm, perhaps, as they did in the ring, but if they met
-you walking alone across the fields they might remember that they were
-born wild. They might forget that they had been tamed to civility. Cap
-off: ‘Good evening, miss,’ as I might meet you in the lane. Never trust
-the brute too far. But shouldn’t Mr. Calladine be here to protect you?”
-
-“How can he see me up here?” said Clare. “The night is very dark, and
-the light down there must blind him.”
-
-“You have on a light dress under that cloak,” mocked Lovel, “if you
-want him to see you.” But she did not throw aside her cloak, and he
-noted it.
-
-At that moment came a cracking sound, as the central pole of the
-tent crashed down, bringing with it what was left of the flaming
-canvas. A loud cheer went up from the crowd, who, now that their own
-skins were safe, were irresponsibly quite ready to accept one form
-of entertainment in substitution for another. The fire died down for
-a moment, then flared up again, as some of the benches and trestles
-caught alight. The proprietor of the circus raged round, clasping his
-head with his hands, but there was nothing to be done, and the few
-buckets of water brought from a neighbouring well made no difference at
-all.
-
-“Mr. Calladine is not more prompt at finding you here that he was in
-getting you away from the tent,” said Lovel.
-
-“Why do you gibe at Mr. Calladine?” Clare burst out. “He has had a
-great deal to suffer at my hands, and it ill becomes you to sneer,” she
-finished inconsequently.
-
-The inconsequence did not trouble Lovel; his mind leapt the gap with
-the ellipsis.
-
-“At all events he has nothing to complain of at present,” he remarked.
-“Nothing, except that he is not the man to take good care of what he
-has obtained. Born irresolute--there’s a disadvantage of birth as bad
-as any other. Yet, I’d exchange my own for it; I’d accept to have only
-myself to overcome. Yes, by God, I’ve no sympathy for him. Why doesn’t
-he carry away his conquest? Too uncertain of his own worth? Look at
-his face--haggard with doubt of himself. I scarcely envy Calladine.
-He’s a straw to be swept away by a strong current, safe only so long
-as he may lie in shelter. If I wanted to undo Calladine, I should
-say to him, ‘Are you sure that you are the man to hold so untamed a
-thing?’ As yourself, I mean, Miss Warrener. Or am I mistaken? Are you
-a lady at heart--a lady and not a woman? Mrs. Richard Calladine. The
-muslin dress, or the shepherd’s cap? If the muslin dress, then go to
-Calladine. If the shepherd’s cap, then....”
-
-He paused.
-
-“I should not listen to you, reducing Mr. Calladine to this
-insignificance,” murmured Clare in great distress.
-
-Calladine had become a shadow; a poor grey wisp drained of blood. Only
-Lovel and herself seemed alive, so terribly alive that the wraith which
-was Calladine faded between them. So far, no one had noticed them
-standing up on the ridge of the embankment; the night was, as Clare had
-said, very dark, and furthermore a few sparse trees helped to conceal
-them. They stood, not very far from one another, very much isolated,
-detached from the glow and excitement of the fire down in the field
-below, as though they were two travellers come to a brief surveying
-pause on the road which they pursued together.
-
-“Mr. Calladine is not the poor creature you think him,” said Clare on
-an impulse. “Years ago he loved a woman, still unforgotten. That is not
-the fidelity of a weak man. I tell you this, in order that you should
-think better of him, and knowing that you will keep it to yourself.”
-
-“A woman he never got?” said Lovel. “And brooded over her ever since?
-Do not doubt--Miss Warrener, he coaxed himself into loving her more,
-during all those years of brooding, than ever he did when he had her
-before his eyes. Be very sure, she made a proper fool of him, to
-embitter him so for a lifetime--until he found you. Don’t be too sorry
-for him. He has enjoyed living upon that memory.”
-
-“Oh, you are hard and cynical,” said Clare, vexed, because she saw
-suddenly the whole of that episode, which, in her eyes, had always
-thrown so picturesque a colour over Calladine’s melancholy--saw it now
-in a cruel, naked light, Calladine duped first, and then retiring in
-sulky discomfiture, to build upon a silly, sordid, mismanaged story an
-erection of wordy romance: “I wish I had not told you; you take every
-opportunity, to-night, of belittling Mr. Calladine.”
-
-“I? Oh, no,” said Lovel, carelessly, “and in any case, why do we talk
-about him so much? he is not here, but to-morrow you will again be with
-him, and the day after that, and the day after that. Even now he is
-probably arrived breathless at the Manor House, where he will tell your
-father that that gipsy fellow snatched you away, and that he has lost
-you altogether. He has never given me anything but black looks, ever
-since he came to live here. How much have you told him about yourself
-and me?”
-
-“There was nothing to tell,” said Clare.
-
-“True,” said Lovel. “There was nothing to tell.”
-
-They were silent. She felt that he was in a highly dangerous mood.
-Calladine was not dangerous; violent, but not dangerous; not as Lovel’s
-contained quietness was dangerous. Lovel, at any moment, might suddenly
-leap upon her; he was so lithe and quick. Moreover, she felt now, in
-his company, that she was alone with him on a hill or a wide heath, for
-the people down in the field below had no significance whatever, no
-more than had Calladine, to whom she was promised.
-
-“I ought to go home now,” she said presently.
-
-“Oh, yes,” said Lovel, turning on her, “you ought to go home. Go home
-and tell them that the gipsy fellow took you out, rudely enough, but
-still into safety. Go and tell them that once or twice on the Downs
-you gave him a few kind words and that he presumed upon them to get
-you out of that tent to-night. Tell them that once he rejected your
-kindness,--which you offered out of your pity for him,--and drove you
-away with harsh words.”
-
-“We have not spoken since,” she said.
-
-“No,” he replied without comment.
-
-Suddenly they began talking quite naturally and gently with one another.
-
-“Who would have thought,” said Lovel, “that you would be coming to the
-circus. Not that I should have come, nor you, I fancy, either, had
-we known what we were to see. Yet we might have thought. Wild beasts
-turned to buffoons. I would have liked to let a tiger out of its cage,
-loose among the crowd. Did you see their eyes? yes, even the little
-pig-eyes of the bears. I wouldn’t like to look into the eyes of the
-tigers in their cages, when they stare through the bars. Trundled about
-over England in those cages.... Why did you come? I came to please
-poor Olver.”
-
-“And I because Mr. Calladine was dining at the Manor House, and I ...
-oh, there is nothing to do after dinner,” she finished lamely.
-
-“What do you do as a rule?” he inquired, with a passing curiosity.
-
-“I don’t know,” she replied. “Sometimes he talks to my father,
-sometimes we walk in the garden, sometimes I sing.”
-
-“You sing,” he repeated. “You sing.”
-
-“Sometimes he and my father go over the things in my father’s cases,
-and they forget me, and I sit in a corner with some stitching.”
-
-“Yes,” said Lovel, “and the windows are open down to the floor, and the
-moths and cockchafters fly in from the garden towards the lamps, and
-you let your stitching fall into your lap while you watch them.”
-
-Clare was utterly startled.
-
-“How do you know?” she murmured.
-
-“Oh, I know,” he replied. His vision of the room, and of the three, was
-so sifted and precise. “Sometimes you sing?” he prompted her.
-
-“Mr. Calladine leans over the piano, when I sing,” she said, looking at
-him big-eyed.
-
-“That frightens you?” he said, more as a statement than as a question.
-
-“A little,” she said, telling him what she had thought she could never
-tell to a soul. “He seems so soft, and yet so hungry.” Her voice sank.
-
-Lovel understood; he nodded.
-
-“If he would sit away in the corner,” continued Clare, “I should not be
-afraid of him. It is his leaning over me like that. It makes me look at
-him all the while I sing. But he likes my singing; he asks me to do it,
-and he will not let me refuse.”
-
-“And sometimes you walk in the garden,” he said, still in the same
-voice, as though he were looking at a tiny picture seen down the end of
-a long vista; “does he frighten you then?”
-
-“Less out of doors; less when we are not shut in. I avoid the trees;
-being under them is more like having a ceiling over our heads. I keep
-to the lawn.--He is more in his place, within doors,” she said, making
-a discovery which answered many of her problems.
-
-“Lamplight suits him,” said Lovel, his perceptions very clear and
-malicious.
-
-She saw Calladine leaning over the piano; she saw his greying hair and
-his fine hands lying loosely clasped on the ebony lid. She heard the
-notes under her own fingers playing a slow gavotte; it was the music he
-liked. She felt her eyes coming round again and again in fascination
-drawn towards his face. A breeze fanned her cheek; and she saw herself
-standing with Lovel on the earthwork, the stars above their heads, and
-the red glow of the dying flames deepening the shadow of his brow.
-
-“We have always been in the open together,” she murmured involuntarily.
-
-
-“I have never seen you in a room,” Lovel corroborated.
-
-“The day that I found you on the Downs,” she said painfully, “the day
-when I last saw you,--you tried to hide from me among the beeches. Why
-was that? Did you hope that they would protect you? Did the sense of
-enclosure give you strength? Would the Downs have compelled you to be
-more honest? I believe it was that. One can lie better,--can’t one?--in
-a room; and as you had no room you took the shelter of the trees. You
-couldn’t tell me lies out on the Downs?”
-
-“Is that why Calladine prefers a room?” he enquired.
-
-“Mr. Calladine tells me no lies,” she said, with a small flicker of
-pride.
-
-“Oh, no,” said Lovel easily; “he only tells lies to himself. Through
-and through. Or are they lies? Romances, perhaps. Only romances. And
-you are part of them. But they couldn’t thrive in sunshine.”
-
-“We are not in sunshine now,” she said; “only in star-shine, and losing
-our heads a little. I am going to marry Mr. Calladine, you know, Lovel.
-So perhaps I should not talk about him to you as I have been talking,
-or ... or indulge myself in these fancies. You asked me what I had told
-him about yourself and me; I answered that there was nothing to tell;
-nor is there.”
-
-“But if I had not gone into the beech-clump ...” began Lovel. He was
-suddenly Puckish, mischievous; or so she thought.
-
-“But you did go into it!” she cried out.
-
-“And stayed in it till you were out of sight. But Calladine,” he
-resumed, disregarding her effort to restore the balance of their
-conversation, “Calladine will get you into a room for the rest of your
-life. It will be a dim room, with the light shrouded from it. He will
-talk in it, and you will listen, and his talk will seem to you less and
-less unconvincing. Presently you will accept it as natural talk; you
-will answer in the same key. You will play sad old tunes, and Calladine
-will lean over the piano. But he will grow less graceful and more
-ungainly, and his joints will crack when he stoops over your hand to
-kiss it. And always you will be in the house,--in the room.”
-
-“Lovel!” she cried.
-
-“The dimness of the room will bleach your spirit,” he said finally and
-remorselessly.
-
-What strange mood possessed him? Were the legends true? had he the gift
-of prophecy? His very language had a sonorous, almost a Biblical, ring.
-It was true that the occasion fostered it, and that he might be taken
-for a prophet, standing there on the elevation, ringed with darkness,
-and with that pool of dying fire at his feet.
-
-“Is it kind, Lovel, is it kind to put these thoughts into my head?” she
-cried, distressed.
-
-“Kind,” he said scornfully. “When did ever you want kindness from
-me? I haven’t given you kindness, or romance like Calladine’s. I keep
-kindness for Olver.”
-
-“And for animals,” she interjected, remembering. The remembrance
-softened her marvellously towards him.
-
-“And for animals. But for you....” He scanned her from head to foot,
-as though the term for what he had given her were inexpressible. “Not
-kindness for you,” he finished up.
-
-A great uproar arose in the field below; the crowd scattered, and down
-the pathway thus cleft they saw, by the light of the flames, a small
-black shape bundling helter-skelter along, till a ring of shouting men
-closed round it and hid it from view.
-
-“Rounding up the wild beasts,” said Lovel, amused. “They won’t
-sacrifice them on the stones,--not they. They’ll all be chivvied back
-into their cages after a few louts have got a nip on the ankle. I
-wonder how many will remain at large? All the old women of the village
-will be going about to-morrow with umbrellas and pokers. See, now, they
-are beating out the fire.”
-
-The last sparks flew large and red in the darkness.
-
-“Fire and wild beasts and the stones,” murmured Lovel dreamily. “How
-many centuries is it, do you think, since those three things have met
-together here? The place will get a bad name among owners of circuses.
-They will say that it clamours for its natural prey; that the circle
-is under a curse; that it scents blood; and a hundred such fabulous
-things.” He laughed as he spoke, but Clare, looking at him, thought
-that the fantastic creature half believed it himself. “What will you
-say, when they want to know where you have been?” he asked. “You won’t
-dare own up to the gipsy fellow. You’ll say you watched the fire, and
-let it be understood that you were alone,--isn’t that so?”
-
-“Of course I shall say I have been with you; why not?” said Clare.
-
-“Ah, but I’d rather you didn’t,” he said earnestly. “Keep it a
-secret,--that we stood and talked unseen while the rest beat the fire
-out down below. I had not thought that I should see you again, and now
-I know that I shall not see you again,--in the distance, perhaps,--and
-hear the bells for your wedding,--and see you driving by,--Mrs. Richard
-Calladine,--but I shall never stand again with you alone as in this
-hour. Let us keep it a secret. I don’t care what you think of me. Look,
-the fire has gone out now, and it is quite dark, but the time I spent
-with you was lit by the fire. I will walk round with you to the Manor
-House, and let you go.”
-
-In silence they started off to walk round the top of the earthwork
-towards the Manor House. The village lay below them in its strange cup,
-and around outside the circle lay the Downs hunched in the starlight.
-Where the road intersected the circle they ran down the slope and
-crossed it, their footsteps briefly crunching on the gravel, but on
-the opposite side they scrambled up again and silenced steps on the
-turf and continued side by side along the high ridge above the ditch.
-A breeze from the Downs blew cool against their cheeks; they knew it
-well, it was a friend pleading with them, calling them back to the
-open. They both knew the Downs so well that in their consciousness
-they were all the time aware of the country’s geography, stretching
-before them like a foreshortened map; the long roads, the little
-English towns with their broad main-street that was only a section
-of the Roman highway, the ancient green tracks over the hills, and
-the angular spatchcock landmark of the White Horse, straddling on the
-hillside. Neither of them had thought sufficiently beyond these things
-to be tormented by the further world. But, on the other hand, they
-had attained a degree of familiarity and concentration undiminished
-by any scattering of their faculties. They had not sprinkled their
-interest over other lands and other folk. They had dwelt only on their
-country and on themselves, so that the breeze came to them direct as a
-messenger from the Grey Wethers lying out derelict on the hills, and
-the sickness of the desire of each to respond to the call found an echo
-in the soul of the other.
-
-So vivid was the call, so absurd the refusal, that as they reached the
-point above the trees of the Manor House garden, Lovel stood still and
-laughed out loud.
-
-“So you go back to rooms,” he said, and laughed again, but more
-bitterly. “You!” he said, charged with contempt.
-
-They were closer in understanding than ever they had been in their
-lives. He began to speak low and rapidly, “Clare,” he said, “there is
-no more softness in you or in me than there is in this soil. There is
-no flabby flesh, only bone. No trappings, only the hard skeleton. We’ve
-pared away.... If I had not taken shelter in the beechwood,--and it
-was the nearest approach to shelter I could get,--I might have taken
-you by the hand and galloped away with you; you would have come. That
-would have been mad. I have got my mother and Olver, and not only that,
-but I’ve got their blood in me. I want to have sons, and I may not,
-because of that blood. That was why I said I envied Calladine having
-only himself to overcome, when here am I as hard as flint, who might
-beget sons with that soft squelch in them that has rotted Olver. A
-bad stock, I said to myself; be strong; let it die out. And then the
-irony ... well, you know nothing about that, and even that seems not to
-matter now. Never be surprised, now, if you hear that I have been borne
-a son or a daughter, only don’t judge me too harshly. But how could I
-have brought you to my mother and Olver? and our children, yours and
-mine,--how could I, Clare? What chance had I but to cease from seeing
-you? Oh, if it had not been for them and my blood, then there would
-have been the Downs for you and me, Clare. Don’t share the Downs with
-Calladine; he lives among them, but he isn’t strong enough to endure
-them. There are some countries that it takes a strong man to endure.
-They don’t generate strength, and they crush weakness. Calladine should
-have lived in towns. But now that he has got you he may be rescued.”
-
-“You know that Mr. Calladine has not got me, and never will have me,
-except in name,” said Clare.
-
-“That’s true,” replied Lovel, not disputing her statement. “Let him
-live with you by his side, you listening, listening patiently, for as
-long as he chooses to discourse, and looking at him with the eyes of
-a stranger. I don’t say that I envy him. (“How you despise him!” she
-breathed.) And yet,” he said, “don’t I envy him a little? Can I help
-myself? He will see you every day, he will be able to call your name
-through the house at any moment and hear your answer. Don’t I envy
-him that? Wouldn’t I change places with him for that?--But he’ll tire
-of you, perhaps,” he added, dropping from his sudden anguish into the
-old whimsicality, “tire of you even though he has never got you. No, I
-don’t envy him. I’ll be less lonely,” he said with a fine insolence,
-“than he.”
-
-“I must go, Lovel,” cried Clare.
-
-He stepped back from her instantly.
-
-“Go to Calladine,--in name. Go from me,--in name,” he said, out of his
-torn heart. “Only go,--go,--go!” he added, turning away from her and
-laying his arm across his eyes.
-
-
-She left him then, feeling, although he had not once touched her, as
-though she had slipped all on fire from his clasp, so close had been
-their communion in spite of their immense separation. She did not know
-where he would go, or how long he would remain, gazing after her,
-standing on the height of the circle. For her own part she ran down
-amongst the trees, across the lawn, and entered the study by one of the
-French windows, to find her father absorbed in his work, not having
-noticed her absence, and blissfully unaware of any excitement or of his
-daughter having been in the slightest degree in danger. He said, “Bless
-me! bless me!” several times while she flung herself with exaggerated
-animation into a description of the fire, and pushed his spectacles up
-on to his forehead, and stared at her with an absent-minded interest
-as though she had just come straight out of the heart of the flames.
-“Dear, dear, and where’s Calladine?” he said at last. “There was
-something very curious I’ve come across and particularly wanted to show
-him. It quite corroborates my ideas. I made sure he’d bring you home.”
-“But you don’t understand, father: the circus-tent caught fire, and
-we got separated.” “Of course, to be sure,” said Mr. Warrener mildly.
-“Well, I daresay he’ll come over to-morrow, and I can show it him then.
-It’ll interest you too, Clare....”
-
-Clare lay awake for a long time. The windows of her room were open, and
-outside the breeze sighed, a plaintive spirit trying to get into the
-house. The world outside was crying to her, endeavouring to reach her,
-sending its gentle messengers to plead with her. The heavy-foliaged
-trees rustled, as it seemed, with an unwonted nearness to her window,
-and the room was full of the insects of the night, which as soon as
-she had turned out her lamp woke into life and fluttered against her
-cheek and thudded softly against the ceiling like small downy ghosts.
-A moth imprisoned beneath her hand struggled for freedom; she shook
-it off with a gesture between tenderness and revulsion. Several times
-she lit a match, and the little creatures became still, flecking the
-bed with their long mottled bodies and closed wings, but no sooner
-had darkness fallen again than they returned in greater numbers to
-their soft wheeling and the bruising of their voiceless plea. She lay
-now shivering in spite of the summer warmth, awed to her very soul
-by the deepened significance of night. Darkness by shutting away the
-visible and reassuring world opened the field to all finer perceptions,
-to all the mysterious relationships, to the purified intuition of
-essential unity. That sense,--the sense of unity, the discarding of
-all irrelevancies,--was an unexpressed link between herself and Lovel;
-she was not sure, everything else being sifted down to its last bare
-expression, that it was not _the_ link. Out in the night somewhere an
-owl hooted, and she heard the distant baying of a dog; the spacious
-presence of the Downs opened out before her widened senses, their
-loneliness, and the secret of their ancient tombs; their untilled
-defiance rolling eternally under the stars. Where was Lovel now? Was he
-still standing like a sentinel on the dyke, between the Downs and the
-sleeping village, with only the vault of the black sequined sky above
-his head? as she fancied him there he seemed to grow in stature until
-in his heroic proportions he became an embodiment of that open country
-which called to her, and his voice rose harmoniously in a long cry
-above the soughing of the breeze in the trees. Or had he plunged down
-from the circle after she had left him, to roam across the uplands, a
-wisdom in his feet, a swiftness that lifted him above fatigue? That he
-was out somewhere in the night she was sure; no house would confine
-him, not even a house whose walls were built of the sarsen stones. He
-was out somewhere, and every moth that bruised itself so plaintively
-and so impotently against her was his envoy; every sound that reached
-her, whether the whisper of the breeze or the churning of a night-jar,
-bore the burden of its message from him to her. If she called back to
-him “Lovel! Lovel!” surely in one form or another her voice would find
-him among the hills.
-
-
-
-
-PART TWO
-
-
-
-
-_Part Two_
-
-
-She had been married for four months to Calladine.
-
-Evening after evening they sat opposite to one another over the fire
-at Starvecrow. Often they played chess,--a pastime to which he seemed
-tirelessly addicted.
-
-He would rarely go out; he shivered and said that it was cold,--it
-was true that snow lay upon the Downs and that the wind blew
-incessantly,--and why should a man face the bitter cold of March when
-no necessity compelled him and when a pleasant fire could console him
-within doors? Nor did he like her going out without him. So they stayed
-in, until she felt that she could have sent walls and ceiling flying by
-one extravagant gesture of her arms.
-
-But he,--oh, how content he was! He had lost his melancholy; he had
-brought out for her benefit from cases and cupboards numerous objects
-wherewith to beautify their rooms, but her inability to distinguish
-among the various artists was a source of infinitesimal friction
-between them; “No, no, my dear; _Clodion_, not _Houdon_,” he would say,
-and she would accept the correction meekly with a little laugh implying
-that the matter was not of very great importance after all, and with
-that little laugh would undo all the merit of her meekness.
-
-At first he had enjoyed making these corrections. It flattered him to
-think that he had brought into an atmosphere of artistic refinement
-this child of the hills whose knowledge although so thorough as far
-as it went, was concerned with such rude things as rocks and skulls
-and antlers, supplemented by a working experience of shepherds’ and
-woodman’s lore. Certainly he had always been ready to take an interest
-in Mr. Warrener’s work, and to entertain a respectful admiration for
-the old gentleman’s scholarship, but that was a different matter: it
-was a tabulated profession, archæology was a branch of study suitable
-to gentlemen, especially old gentlemen; Mr. Warrener contributed papers
-to the journals of several societies; he was a distinguished and
-accepted authority. That was quite another matter. It had been amusing,
-even, to find Clare dabbling her fingers in the same research; amusing
-to hear the terms so glib upon her lips; surprisingly instructive,
-sometimes, to catch the odd bits of information she let fall while
-out riding with him on the Downs. But what had been amusing in the
-child was insufficient, even unbecoming, in the married woman. To
-dilettantism, _per se_, he had no objection; he was a believer in
-dilettantism; but in the name of all good taste let it be dilettantism
-in graceful and becoming subjects! So he tried to interest Clare
-in _terres cuites_, in crystals and in the bindings of books. She
-looked at them at first with pleasure, they were exquisite; she had
-never seen such things before, or suspected their existence; she
-exclaimed over them, marvelled at their workmanship, fingered them,
-discovered new loveliness in them as she turned them this way and
-that. Calladine was enchanted by her appreciation; he thought he might
-venture further; he tempted her with subtler baits. But she returned
-to the fragile eighteenth century statuettes. He let her have her
-way, tolerant, determined not to force her interest. He watched her.
-There was about the little terra cotta groups a false paganism, a
-windy grace, that intrigued and allured her. Here was something that
-she could nearly understand; nearly, if not quite; not quite, for
-there was still something, or the lack of something, which troubled
-her; she could not put a name to it, consider how she might, with a
-pucker between her brows. These dimpled children, with the thighs
-and hoofs of goats,--these girls with draperies blown by the wind at
-the moment when the sculptor caught and fixed them motionless for
-ever,--these young men with slanting eyes and laughing mouths,--of what
-did they remind her? and in what were they so evasively deficient?
-She circled round the table on which they stood. Calladine’s eyes
-followed her in amusement. She was puzzled, this nymph who was so much
-more like a nymph than any nymph that Clodion ever made, puzzled by
-the drawing-room _faroucherie_ of these false fugitives. “A little
-self-conscious, you find them?” he had murmured at last.
-
-But the artistic education of Clare proved a game that had palled. She
-had gone clean through his objects of virtue, and had come out the
-other side. She seemed to have been briefly deluded by them, then to
-have sized them up, to have detected their essential fraud, and to have
-discarded them from her interest. Mortified though he was, he perceived
-somewhere in himself a respect for her pure, uneducated instinct.
-Still, as this was a thing he could not, out of self-respect, admit, he
-continued at intervals his efforts to guide her feet into the paths he
-himself found so pleasant. He liked to sit within doors re-ordering his
-books and his treasures, while the snow drifted up against the windows
-and the wind cried unappeasably across the Downs. “Why are you staring
-out at that ugly landscape, Clare? Don’t you like the fire better, and
-a chair, and a book to read?” But she read very seldom; only once,
-when she had been reading, he saw to his consternation that tears were
-falling silently down her cheeks, and, going up behind her, he had seen
-over her shoulder that Shelley lay open on her knee:
-
-
- If I were a dead leaf thou mightest bear,
- If I were a swift cloud to fly with thee,
- A wave to pant beneath thy power, and share
- The impulse of thy strength, only less free
- Than thou, O uncontrollable!...
-
-
-“Clare, why so silent? I declare, you’ve grown more meditative than
-I,--where’s your irresponsibility? is the dignity of marriage so heavy
-upon you? Were you as silent with your friend Lovel? didn’t you prattle
-to _him_? eh, tell me?”
-
-“What funny questions you ask, Richard. Lovel? I don’t remember. No, I
-don’t think I ever talked much to Lovel.”
-
-“Well, but in all those hours you spent, riding with him, fishing, and
-I don’t know what else....”
-
-“Well, we were busy, Richard; too busy to talk.”
-
-“And he was a common fellow, wasn’t he? it’s not to be expected you
-would have talked much to him? eh?”
-
-“He certainly wasn’t fine like you, Richard.”
-
-“Now how do you mean that? Too fine, am I? And he,--a poacher, wasn’t
-he? a bit of good-for-nothing? You don’t answer. A queer fellow, not
-without good looks; oh, I wouldn’t deny him that. A romantical sort of
-fellow, Clare?”
-
-“Practical as he could be, on the contrary.”
-
-“Maybe; none the less, there was something romantical about him....”
-
-So he tormented himself by this small constant nagging about Lovel,
-liking to dress the man’s personality up in the lyrical words of his
-own choosing; but for the rest he appeared satisfied, living with Clare
-a captive under his roof.
-
-But sometimes she eluded his company. Then he roamed about the house,
-up and down stairs, out at the front door, down to the little wicket
-gate in the new wall, holding his muffler close under his chin, for
-the wind tore at his coverings, tweaking his scarf, flapping his coat,
-freezing his fingers, blowing his grey hair about in wild strands. He
-stood at the little gate, vainly trying to smooth his hair, gazing
-round the expanse of the hills, and calling from time to time as loudly
-as he could call, “Clare!” The wind took his voice and dispersed it
-like smoke; instantly tattered, it streamed away on the wind. No hope
-that Clare should hear that futile call, and it seemed to him that the
-empty Downs must from her childhood onwards have accumulated the echoes
-of voices crying “Clare! Clare!” A bell-like and doleful name, so
-cried; a name made to ring out; a wailing appeal; a name to cry after
-a gay truant, knowing that no answer would be returned. A gay truant,
-marked out for tragedy, dancing away, while those who remained behind
-cried after her and broke their hearts.
-
-All his complacency dropped from him, he stood at the gate, looking
-and calling; then turning back to the house he sought her again in
-every room, even up to the attic where Phoebe Batch, startled at his
-intrusion and dishevelled appearance, gaped at her master and stammered
-out her, “No, sir,”--she had seen nothing of Mrs. Calladine. Mrs.
-Calladine! She was Clare, just Clare; Calladine with a bitter twist
-could not at that moment associate her with the respectable title. He
-turned away, downstairs again, and back to the front door, to stand on
-the doorstep, gazing across the little garden, over the low wall, up to
-the pale inhospitable hills.
-
-She returned, of course; every time she duly returned; and he upbraided
-her, and almost wept, but she said nothing, only looked at him with
-wide eyes, indifferent and remote. He upbraided her more loudly, even
-shook her on one occasion and “Don’t stand there,” he cried, “as though
-you had left your wits out in the blizzard,” and he flacked his fingers
-in his hysteria, and his voice grew shrill. But after a little while
-he would quieten down, and his melancholy would return, and he would
-sit with his head in his hands, saying that for his unhappiness he had
-married an elf and not a woman.
-
-Clare looked at him, sitting sunk in his chair, and presently she
-would thaw, as though those wits which he said she had left out in the
-blizzard were creeping back little by little into her body, and then
-she would put her hand kindly on his head and tell him not to fret.
-But that was all the explanation or comfort he ever got, to his great
-exasperation, being a man who liked to know how his wife had occupied
-every moment of her time,--to know, indeed, every thought which passed
-through her head.
-
-Fortunately for himself, he soon forgot; the next morning he would
-descend, serene as ever, and set himself after his breakfast to his
-usual mild pursuits. Only in a sudden suspicious glance shot at Clare
-would his anxiety reawaken, and he would look at her feet, to see
-whether she wore her black strapped shoes and white stockings, peeping
-out under the fulness of her skirt. And sometimes, for a day or two
-after one of her escapades,--her evasions, as he called them in his own
-mind,--he would follow her upstairs if she went up to her bedroom.
-
-Inquiringly she looked at him.
-
-“Yes, Richard?”--for she was always gentle, save when she gazed past
-him with that far-away look, that seemed to range the Downs though her
-husband’s body and the walls of the house stood in her way,--“Yes,
-Richard?”
-
-He mumbled, half-ashamed.
-
-“I came to see what you were doing....” He could not bring himself to
-say, “I came to see whether you were changing your shoes,” for that
-seemed ridiculous, beneath his dignity.
-
-
-He had his happy moments. Sitting in his little room with her after
-they had dined, in the firelight, he beheld the very picture he had so
-often imagined. He had got her there, for his own; and his eyes rested
-long upon her grace, travelling, with delicate sensuality, over her
-young body and the little hands lying idle along the arms of her chair.
-“You never sew, my Clare,” he observed to her once, regretting this,
-for he luxuriated in all the pretty attributes of woman. She smiled at
-him. “What are you thinking of?”--his favourite question, and he bent
-forward to pick up her limp hand and fondle it. “Tell me what you were
-thinking,” he repeated jealously.
-
-For once she lifted frank eyes and gave a frank answer.
-
-“I was wondering how much real need you had of me, Richard.”
-
-“Remember the man I was before you came to me,” he said reproachfully,
-yet with a certain pride in recalling the gloom which had been his to
-discard.
-
-Then she said no more,--a trick of hers, which irritated him when he
-would fain have had her explain and amplify. He liked argument, he
-liked analysis; and into neither could he draw her.
-
-“How unwillingly,” he said, “do you dwell upon personal relationships!”
-
-
-He had lost his gloom and melancholy,--or was it that he had begun
-to think that hobby ridden to death, sometimes inconvenient to
-himself and possibly diminishing in impressiveness to other people,
-and had welcomed his marriage as a plausible reason for abjuring it?
-His habitual manner he had not altered; he still maintained towards
-her the same elaborate courtesy and his air of rather patronising
-protectiveness, as though thanks to the one convention, he revered
-her, and thanks to the other, condescended.
-
-Yet, he had changed; changed from the very day of their marriage. He
-had paraded her on his arm before their wedding-guests, the smile
-had wandered perpetually over his lips, he had abandoned his slight
-stoop, he had straightened himself up into a handsome and possessive
-bridegroom. She had been too apathetic at heart to be nettled by his so
-parading her in public: “My wife,” the formula constantly on his lips,
-had not stirred her resentment; those were the outward shows,--they
-could not touch her secret being. And, looking at him perhaps
-nevertheless with a faint surprise, she had ascribed this new manner
-to his natural triumph at getting her, and had expected a relapse as
-soon as the novelty should have staled into habit. But there had been
-no relapse. He had brought her home to Starvecrow, and then she had
-realised how all the new chintzes, the curtains in the windows, the
-works of art brought out from the drawers where all these years they
-had lain concealed, had been but the preparation for this long-schemed
-change in his mode of thought. They slipped now into their place, they
-came into their own, small but significant. He had at last now an
-excuse for shedding with relief the strenuous manner of years. There
-remained no work for her to do.
-
-Oh, little objects of art and skill. What hours he must have spent
-trifling with their suavity, taking them from their hiding-places of
-an evening after he had heard Mrs. Quince go safely up to bed, and
-knew that no one was looking, no one likely to break in upon him and
-surprise him at his comfortable pottering; the hours of mansuetude he
-must have spent turning and caressing them between his fine sensitive
-hands! He had not brought out those little objects to show her the day
-she had gone to tea with him at Starvecrow; oh no! the only thing he
-had brought out had been the drawing of that woman’s head, which he had
-so dramatically destroyed in her presence. She saw that destruction
-now as the first step taken towards his emancipation. But the little
-objects he had not shown her,--those delicate fraudulent statuettes
-in terra cotta, those chiselled and prismatic crystals. How bare, how
-cheerless she had thought his room! those heavy leather armchairs, now
-so jaunty with chintz! She had pitied him, genuinely and kindly, even
-through her impatience at his mismanagement of his life. She had chided
-herself for any passing suspicions that his gloom might be deliberate.
-And she had seen in her marriage with him an opportunity to perform,
-supremely at her own expense, a task perhaps worth performing.
-
-But what right had she to murmur, when she saw her intentions
-crumble? She had, indeed, achieved her object, albeit in a manner so
-disconcertingly unforeseen. She reproached herself, in her mind which
-gave no quarter, any more than Lovel gave quarter; she reproached
-herself for not rendering thanks that her task had been thus made easy.
-What! she dare to murmur because she had been spared the strain of
-months, even of years? because she had not been permitted to string
-herself up to an effort daily renewed, an exertion in which her own
-weariness must never for an instant be allowed to appear? because
-Calladine had taken the law out of her hands, and had ordained for
-himself the resurrection to which she had intended to force him? She
-looked back with the smile of rueful irony to her brave and pitiful
-plans for his redemption. She had intended,--so gallantly--to set her
-back for ever towards her old life. She would have devoted herself,--so
-sturdily,--to the man who had need of her. She would not have flagged.
-The vision of her married life had disclosed itself during the weeks
-of her engagement in detail to her anticipation. There was no detail
-she had shirked,--not even the least picturesque. She had not tried to
-idealise Calladine; no, rather she had tried to see him in the light
-that Lovel’s careless scorn had thrown; not as a romantic figure,
-blasted by the catastrophe of an early passion, but as an incompetent,
-bungling, pitiable figure. Her pity, her charity, and her contempt
-would between them have carried her through. But now that she found
-herself forestalled, as it were,--found that Calladine had already
-accomplished for himself precisely what she had intended to accomplish
-for him,--she was disconcerted, almost angry. It was in vain that
-she upbraided herself for her own ingratitude. The life that she had
-planned for herself was not falling out according to her design. She
-was cheated; a person who has tried to take in the dark a step that was
-never there. Let her keep her sense of proportion,--her refuge now, her
-only refuge,--and she would not even yet be wholly lost. Then she could
-laugh at the futility of her plans; she could see, as from without,
-their derision, and their full pitifulness. Her life at Starvecrow had
-not fallen out according to her design. What of it?
-
-A woman spending thirty, forty, wasted years in a forgotten corner of
-the Downs. What of it?
-
-Her memory would not cling about the place after she should be dead,
-any more than the memory of victims clung about the sacrificial
-stones. “Here blood was shed,” but that was a collective phrase; all
-individuality had long since,--almost immediately,--been telescoped
-into the clemency of perspective. So it would be with her, and she saw
-herself already as part of that anonymous crowd, whether of the victims
-of a savage creed, or of the women with the wasted lives,--no sublime
-and legendary sorrow, except in so far that all sorrow shared in the
-same great dignity,--women who had lost children or lovers, women who
-had trailed ill-health about their daily business, women who had borne
-the long, mute burden of uncertainty, all the grey, silent, muffled
-women that whispered round her, and that had taken to their graves
-unchronicled the blunt or the poignant sorrow of their hearts.
-
-Nameless, they lived for her now. For her now, the Downs, hitherto
-so void and so spacious under the freedom of the winds and the cycle
-of the seasons, for her now the Downs were peopled. Their dews were
-brushed dark with footsteps. Their heights were scanned by searching
-eyes. Their flanks were bruised by the stumble of weary limbs. Their
-beech-clumps were threaded with the breath of secrets. She had not
-known, at first, whether to resent or to welcome the looming-up of
-this hushed population. It seemed to her that they rose up out of the
-ground, stealthy, ashen, tall. They were everywhere about her. They had
-known the Downs as she knew them, and the changing seasons had found as
-they did for her either a significant echo or an incongruous irony in
-their souls. Their presence did away with the loneliness, the untouched
-and indifferent loneliness of the uplands, which in her egoism she had
-seen as a background to her life and Lovel’s populated only, in so
-far as they were populated at all, by the rough figures of the men of
-barbarous ages, men who fought for the simple preservation of their own
-existence, undivided by any shredding of their moods, whose religion
-was one of fear and not of charity, the men who had set up the stones
-and raised the barrows in order to propitiate the dark Unknown of
-creation and of death with such rude pomp as they could devise. They
-had been stark, striding elementary figures, one with the tree-trunks
-and the sarsen stones. They had ennobled the Downs by the record of
-their constructions. It had seemed to Clare that the intervening
-centuries between their age and the present day had been blank,--that
-she inherited the Downs direct from their hands,--those Downs which
-revealed themselves to her eyes unchanged from the hour when the stone
-men had passed away from them. The barrows, the dew-ponds, the Grey
-Wethers, the green tracks, the hawks and the larks, the space,--all
-unaltered; the stone men, returning, would find no change. What had she
-said, long ago, to Calladine, “an old, hard country; and such ghosts as
-there are, are bleached bones by now, dry and clean. I think,” she had
-said, “that the ghosts that walk among the stones must be as stern as
-the stones themselves; and that’s my fancy.”
-
-And now there came to her this newly-realised population, bruised by
-life down to the softness of humanity. As to her those dry, bleached
-ghosts of the rude ages were masculine, so those more human ghosts that
-rose up out of the centuries were feminine. Increasingly, they had
-splintered their emotions; they had departed from the stark, simple
-facts; they had become more complex and more wistful. The stars and the
-stones had meant less and less to them; the Man of Sorrows, and not
-the terrible orbs of heaven, had been their god. They were kneaded,
-malleable. They had endured much, but in the full consciousness of
-endurance; their spirit, even if not their voice, had groaned under
-the load of life and its ironies; they had not accepted as a matter
-of course, unquestioning, a lot that was hard. For all that, they had
-not been the less courageous; perhaps even their courage had been of a
-sublimer brand. And they were women, women, always women. The men had
-remained nearer to the old, strong, practical stock,--the purveyors of
-necessities. It was upon the women that civilisation had had the most
-effect. Calladine himself, the most highly civilised man that Clare
-knew, had always seemed to her instinct more like a woman,--sitting in
-his house and picking his griefs into smaller and smaller pieces. But
-Calladine’s griefs were not very real griefs,--she knew that now. She
-knew that he was, really, quite negligible.
-
-She had been almost afraid, for a brief period, to go out upon the
-Downs,--afraid of forms rising up round her, of hands pulling at
-her garments, and of eyes seeking hers until she was forced to look
-into their depths. It was not that she any longer felt resentment
-against the population her own imagination had evoked; no, the Downs
-were enriched by their company, and the calm heights acquired a new
-significance by contrast with their soft rustling tumult. It was that
-she feared the knowledge which would come to her if she spent many
-hours alone with those ghostly inhabitants whispering round her like
-dead leaves; she feared what she would learn; she would not probe her
-new half-guessed discovery. Things were a degree less terrible so long
-as they remained without a name.
-
-But she could not fear for long. She had pushed them back, averting
-her head, into the shadows, and there they had taken up their abode.
-They would not leave her again. Not even in the midst of joy,--if joy
-should ever visit,--would they leave her, any more than the shadows
-were ever completely absent even in the midst of sunshine on the Downs.
-She was grateful to them for the way they had come, stealing in upon
-her, silent and gradual, not in a sudden irruption that would have
-broken her. But now that she no longer feared them, no longer feared
-the learning that solitude might bring, it was for solitude that she
-craved, and solitude, she found, was the thing that she might not have.
-Calladine, who was so content in her company, expected that she should
-be equally content in his. When she went out, he went with her; when he
-was not inclined to go out, he begged that she would remain at home.
-“It is a rough day, Clare; let us stay happily by the fire.” Or he
-would consent to pace the garden, sheltered now by a little wall, and
-together they would look at the bare winter beds, and he would talk
-cheerfully of the flowers that would blow there in the spring.
-
-She renounced the Downs. Since she might not wander there alone, she
-restricted herself to the house and the square of garden, or to the
-green track that led to King’s Avon when she went to see her father.
-Even on this expedition Calladine accompanied her. He did not notice
-that she walked with her eyes bent upon the ground, never allowing
-them to lift and stray over the rolling country; or if he noticed he
-gave no sign. All the time he talked of minor things, and to his talk
-she made adequate response. Arrived at King’s Avon she would quicken
-her steps and pass rapidly down the village street, glancing about
-her only sufficiently to acknowledge the greetings of her humble
-acquaintances, and only when safe within the Manor House gates would
-she relax a little, and show herself gentle and affectionate towards
-her father, who, absent as ever, would presently forget that she was
-married and would invite Calladine to remain to dinner, “Clare and I,
-my dear friend, may so rarely welcome a visitor.” Through her laughter
-she looked at him wistfully; he was dear and familiar, his old beehive
-hat as wide and as shabby as ever, his spectacles still on his nose
-and his mild blue eyes looking out through them. She wondered how he
-got on without her, but Martha told her he did not seem to notice her
-absence much; only once, she had found him in Miss Clare’s old bedroom,
-wandering round, and touching everything in a gently puzzled way. Clare
-was glad that he should continue his busy, happy existence. Martha
-she could trust, “To be sure, Miss Clare, I look after him as though
-he was your own baby. It’s all I can do, not to powder him after his
-bath.” But she sometimes fancied that his eyes followed her a little
-sorrowfully down the avenue when she went away, as he stood watching
-their departure and waving his big silk handkerchief.
-
-And they would set off on their homeward journey up the village
-street, along the road through the cut in the embankment, and along
-the road until it dissolved into the green track that led across the
-Downs. Still with her eyes upon the ground she walked rapidly, as
-though anxious to find herself once more safe within the shelter of
-Starvecrow. Calladine’s long legs easily kept pace with her; and she
-had the impression that, even were she to run, she could never escape
-from him. He strode beside her, talking of her father, talking of those
-minor things which, she had found, occupied so much of his attention,
-and always with the assumption that her interest equalled his own. Once
-or twice he wanted to leave the track and make their way home across
-country, but when he suggested this she always pretexed her anxiety to
-be once more ensconced in their own room. This invariably pleased him,
-and he acquiesced. She could not, no, she could not, stray across the
-Downs with him.
-
-She renounced the Downs. She could not share them with Calladine; not
-even with his mere physical presence could she share them. She cramped
-herself within the house and the little garden. The moment came when
-Calladine commented upon it. “Don’t you want to go for a walk, Clare?”
-She did not;--she clung to their meagre patch of cultivation. “You are
-grown quite stay-at-home,” he prodded, fondly.
-
-The great Downs,--that stealthy population out on the Downs. Waiting
-for her,--the call of nature, always, and now the call of humanity. Out
-there, she could respond, she could feel, she could learn. Once she had
-not wanted to learn. She had shirked knowledge. Now, she had acquired
-knowledge, and could bear a yet deeper learning. She was avid, indeed,
-for the deepest draught of knowledge. Those bare great Downs, they were
-not bare; they were peopled. She might learn the first lesson from
-their storm, and the ultimate lesson from their serenity. But it was
-not in Calladine’s company that she would learn it. Such lessons were
-learnt in the severest solitude, with the senses of the soul stripped
-to flagellation.
-
-Therefore she clung to Starvecrow. “An uncouth name,” said Calladine
-discontentedly, after relishing it for years; “shall we change it?”
-But she begged him not to, without clearly knowing why. “Very well, we
-keep it,” said Calladine, smiling down at her, “as a contrast to the
-snug life we live beneath that uncomfortable label.” She smiled back;
-she could smile, always; it had become mechanical, costing her little.
-She clung to Starvecrow, without affection, but also without anything
-so precise as distaste; it, like Calladine, was negligible really, and
-she had never gone back on her first opinion of it,--that it was not
-austere enough to excuse its barrenness, and merely mean in its lack
-of comfort. It was no different from the Manor House, which, although
-at first sight incongruous perhaps in the midst of the village and its
-barbarous temple, was in truth no more incongruous than her old father,
-who pottered in his big hat about the garden, or peered through his big
-spectacles at the shards set out upon his desk.
-
-But still she clung to Starvecrow; it was just bleak enough to match
-the bleak, small disaster of her life; just comfortless enough to
-accord with the blank at the root of her life with Calladine.
-
-There had been the days of her engagement, when convention demanded
-that she should go over and at least appear to take an interest in
-her future home. She had gone, driven by Calladine himself through
-the village in the high dog-cart; holding on to her hat she had gone,
-rattling along the lanes behind the raw-boned animal, the gig rocking
-slightly from side to side, and the low branches of the trees almost
-sweeping against her as they passed. Calladine had looked fondly
-down upon her holding on to her hat, and in response to his murmur
-as he bent down towards her, she had looked up, and thought, in a
-detached way, that he was agreeable to look at, very gentlemanly and
-rather interesting, with his sallow, high-bred face, his many-caped
-driving coat, and his fine skilful hands encased in his gauntlets. She
-wondered, in the same detached fashion, what it would feel like when
-he stood tall by her side, and she could say “my husband.” Already
-she had had little foretastes of it, when he accompanied her to the
-village shops, and the shopkeepers said, in their familiar, respectful
-way, with an admiring gaze at the couple, “Here’s our best wishes,
-I’m sure, Miss Clare, to you and your gentleman.” And they had come
-to Starvecrow, where Mrs. Quince was waiting to receive them, and
-for all the smiles and curtseys and the insistence that Clare should
-inspect every cupboard, Clare had been conscious of the hostility
-of the elderly woman. But she had gone,--gone all over the house
-under the escort of Mrs. Quince, accompanied by Calladine as far as
-the first floor, where with his elaborate deferential manner he had
-retired, conveying by all that he left unsaid, that women were best
-left to themselves over household matters. There was in the manner of
-his retirement the indefinable condescension which to Clare was so
-subtly irritating. A wholesome male contempt she could more easily
-have pardoned.... But she had not stopped to think of that, in her
-dismay at finding herself alone with Mrs. Quince; she needed all her
-wits to balance the tension between herself and the housekeeper. Mrs.
-Quince seemed determined to outrage down to the least detail of her
-own feelings; all the doors of her most sacred cupboards were thrown
-open with a jingling of keys, and their immaculate depths revealed to
-Clare, who, her criticism being all the time slavishly invited, could
-respond with nothing but approval. “Though I am sure, miss, there’s
-many a thing in this house not carried out according to your ideas.”
-Mrs. Quince, indeed, seemed so anxious to be found fault with, that
-Clare, feeling that she must exhibit her own competence or forfeit from
-the outset the housekeeper’s respect, at last did offer some small
-disparaging comment. “Ah, there, what did I tell you?” said Mrs. Quince
-instantly, as though satisfied to have got finally what she had been
-expecting all along; “’tis not likely that old eyes and young ones
-should always see alike.” After this her urbanity and her constant
-return to the point that Clare had condemned became so excessive that
-Clare devoutly wished she might have forfeited all Mrs. Quince’s
-esteem for ever only not to be pursued by this constant reference and
-exaggerated subservience. And Mrs. Quince would spare her nothing, but
-led her up to the second storey, where, pausing on a landing carpeted
-with coarse matting and lit by a small skylight, she explained that
-“the girl” slept. Clare shrank; “Oh, no, Mrs. Quince, don’t disturb her
-if she is in her room.” “Indeed, and why not, miss?” said Mrs. Quince
-stoutly, advancing towards the door; “’tis only her room on sufferance,
-as you might say; and likely there would be something you would wish
-altered.” She threw open the door as she spoke, and Daisy Morland,
-rising in confusion, let fall on to the ground the scraps of white
-linen at which she had been stitching.
-
-Clare recoiled on the threshold; she had known that Daisy Morland was
-in the house, but had not expected to come face to face with her. Nor
-had Daisy expected to see Clare,--whose arrival with Calladine she
-had watched on tiptoe from her little dormer window,--thus ushered
-into her room. The mischievous eye of Mrs. Quince superintended the
-clash between the two girls. She had manœuvred ably; she congratulated
-herself. Daisy,--Daisy was curtseying,--had recovered herself so far
-as to remember her curtsey,--what gall, what mockery, was in that
-curtsey!--Miss Warrener,--Miss Warrener was nodding to her,--saying
-something about “nice little room,” and looking sideways all the time
-at the pieces of linen fallen on the floor. Mrs. Quince folded her arms
-and superintended. She wore a smile,--outwardly benevolent, inwardly
-immensely ironical. The two girls,--much of an age. Daisy, blowsy and
-flustered, hardly able to repress her jeer; Clare, cool and wounded,
-but too proud to betray her wound. A lady: Mrs. Quince paid her that
-grudging acknowledgment. Well, Daisy had got the gipsy fellow, and Miss
-Warrener had got Mr. Calladine. As it should be.
-
-They came out of the room together, Clare and Mrs. Quince. Mrs. Quince
-drew back a little, respectfully, to let her go first, and closed
-the door gently behind her. “I wouldn’t have taken you in there
-miss,” she began, “if I’d known what that shameless baggage was to be
-at,--stitching away at her own baby’s clothes a fortnight before her
-marriage. Perhaps I should not say such things to you,--but there,
-you’ll be married yourself before the month’s out. And I wouldn’t
-have kept Daisy Morland here, knowing about her what I do know now,
-but that I wanted to have the house well set to rights against your
-coming, and, thought I, why not make use of a pair of hands that’ll
-never do a turn of work again for honest folks, but only for herself
-and a shame-begotten brat and a ’scape-the-gallows husband. It’s a hard
-bit of luck for Farmer Morland and his wife,” continued Mrs. Quince
-as she followed Clare down the stairs, “after they brought their girl
-up decent; but what can you expect with such poachers and loafers and
-gipsy-like stuff hanging about the village? ’Twas the easiest thing in
-the world for Daisy to go sweethearting on the hills, and what with
-shepherds’ huts and hurdles handy there was all the chance of a bit
-of trouble. Well, and now she’s got it, and lucky for her, _I_ say,
-that Lovel’s ready to turn her into an honest woman, for there’s many
-stouter bred than him that hasn’t stuck to their girls, and I always
-say....” Here Calladine had come out of the sitting-room, hearing
-the sound of voices; he came pleasantly towards them, rubbing his
-hands together and bending towards Clare, “Tired, my dear? tired? a
-little bit, I think,--too bad, too bad, Mrs. Quince, we’ve tired her
-out between us; well, come in here and rest in this big chair....” he
-pressed her into the sitting-room, and Mrs. Quince with much solicitude
-settled cushions for her and placed her feet upon a footstool in spite
-of all Clare’s protests.
-
-She had dreaded to find Daisy still at Starvecrow when she returned
-there after her marriage. It would have been simple for her to find
-out, but she lacked the courage to ask. And would Calladine know?
-would he know if one girl rather than another slept in the attic at
-the top of his house? She could have asked Martha Sparrow, but pride
-withheld her from making enquiries as to Lovel’s wedding. True, Mrs.
-Quince had mentioned a fortnight, but she did not trust Mrs. Quince;
-the elderly woman would relish laying a trap for her. But at the end
-of the fortnight she had known that Mrs. Quince had spoken accurately,
-for Martha Sparrow, coming into her room to call her that morning and
-whisking back the curtains along the curtain-rods, had said cheerfully,
-“A fine day for the gipsy’s wedding; and I wonder how many of the folk
-will turn out to see the customs a common Christian wouldn’t practise?”
-
-But those folk, skulking round the church, had been disappointed. They
-had seen no swarthy women in scarlet handkerchiefs, no dark men with
-little gold rings in their ears. They had heard no gibberish, and
-seen no gestures of incantation or abracadabra. They had seen only
-Nicholas Lovel in his ordinary clothes, inaccessibly severe, with his
-young woman, all simpers and dimples, on his arm; and Olver Lovel in
-the nave, watching the scene at the altar, obliquely in that queer
-little round mirror he always seemed to carry. Not even the Lovels’ old
-mother had they seen; and for a glimpse of her they had greatly hoped,
-for surely, even of a witch and a gipsy, it might be expected that she
-would turn out to witness the marriage of her own son. But no, she had
-not caused herself to be wheeled as far as the church, the bedridden
-old woman; and, indignant because they were disappointed of their
-spectacle, the village folk muttered, “Unnatural,--but what would you
-expect?”
-
-Disappointed though they were, they had remained to watch the ceremony.
-Some of the bolder spirits had gone to the church, edging their way,
-sheepish but defiant, along the pews; but the majority had crowded
-near the door, peeping, nudging, jostling backwards whenever Lovel
-up at the altar threatened to turn round. There had been none of the
-coarse, friendly atmosphere that surrounded most village weddings.
-There had been, instead, an atmosphere of curiosity and fear; and at
-Daisy looks were thrown, full of commiseration and a fearful respect,
-by the villagers as at one of their own comfortable number, about to
-cut herself adrift from them and to become enrolled among an alien
-community. They fully expected that Daisy, hitherto so plump and jolly
-and normal, would be initiated into dark rites beyond their imagination
-when once she had been swallowed up into the shadows of the dim,
-tunnel-like passage of the Lovels’ house and the Lovels’ door closed
-behind her. They never expected to see her emerge again in precisely
-the semblance of herself familiar to them. Or would Lovel deny his
-secrets even to his wife? Would he keep her there, in his dark house,
-as a servant and a convenience, to wait on his old mother, to cook his
-meals and obey his behests, and above all things to hold her tongue
-as to all the unexplained things she might happen to witness in the
-course of years? Would she be no more than a terrorized servant in that
-house they thought so vaguely sinister? There was Olver Lovel, too;
-was he a sort of accomplice to his brother, a sort of sly malignant
-accomplice, who in his brother’s absence would bully his brother’s wife
-by deputed authority, so that she would be at the mercy not only of the
-elder Lovel, who was an unknown quantity if ever there was one, but
-against whom nothing but his practices in defiance of the game laws was
-definitely known,--not only would she be at his hard mercy, but also at
-that of his younger brother, of whom the blackest and most cunning arts
-might be believed. There were a hundred ways, they decided, talking it
-over between a horrid fascination and a still more horrid relish, in
-which Olver might exercise his nasty talents upon Daisy. John Sparrow
-even went so far as to predict that the day would come when she would
-be found wandering, as crazy as Olver himself, upon the Downs, but
-others more sagely replied that if indeed she were to lose her wits she
-would never be allowed to escape from the house. And that opened up
-another series of pictures, in which Daisy, crazed and foolishly happy,
-went about her work singing little ditties, and the door of the dark
-house was closed daily by Lovel upon the three inmates, the mother, the
-brother, and the wife, and the key lay close within his pocket.
-
-But in the meantime the spectacle before their eyes was quite different
-from those evoked by their imaginations. It might be true that Lovel
-looked lean and stern, and that Olver followed the ceremony in that
-slanting way within his little round mirror, but the words the
-clergyman uttered were the same that they were accustomed to hear at
-all respectable unions, and as for Daisy, she was the picture of all
-a bride ought to be, muslin flounces and coyness, and if her figure
-was a little oddly thickened, why, that also was a thing that had been
-seen before at village weddings. She looked pleased with her young man;
-she kept glancing proudly at his height; she sniggered with content as
-he repeated the beautiful threadbare words after the priest, repeated
-them gravely and firmly, but as though he were utterly indifferent
-to the obligations they imposed upon him. There was nothing very
-startlingly unusual about the wedding. True, neither Daisy’s father
-nor her mother were present, but the whole village knew that Lovel was
-marrying the girl because he had got her into trouble, and it was not
-likely that the Morlands, steady and decent folk, would be present to
-give the sanction of their approval. Perhaps later on, when the child
-was born, they might come round; for the moment, no doubt,--and very
-naturally,--they were sore over both the cause of the marriage and the
-son-in-law imposed upon them. Daisy did not seem to care. Ever since
-the publication of her banns she had gone about flaunting as though her
-marriage were a reason for pride rather than for shame and apology.
-Not that the village saw much shame in circumstances so common. It
-had, rather, a certain respect for Daisy, who, having set her heart on
-the gipsy,--a strange taste, but that was her business,--had at last
-got him to the altar. There was a tacit convention that a girl was
-justified in using all her weapons if she could not otherwise carry
-her point: and there was also, in the present instance, a peculiar
-satisfaction in feeling that the gipsy had been worsted. So grand, so
-stuck-up, Nicholas Lovel, but a girl had got the better of him in the
-end.
-
-When the bridal pair came out of the vestry and proceeded down the
-aisle, there was a scattering in the little crowd at the church door;
-a lane opened, and Lovel and his wife passed out between the craning,
-curious faces. Lovel looked neither to left nor to right; his arm was
-crooked to allow Daisy’s hand to rest within it, but that was the only
-concession he made to his newly-married state. She, on the contrary,
-sought eagerly for the faces of her friends; she dragged upon Lovel’s
-arm, but he moved unyielding forward. Daisy, who was trying to lag,
-had to take a little run, like a child that cannot keep pace with the
-advance of a grown-up person. With her head half-turned, her eyes
-still lingered over the little crowd that was once more closing in
-behind them. There were not many girls in the party; she knew why, and
-a sense of triumph came over her; they might affect to despise Lovel,
-but for all that they did not care to see him married to one of their
-own number,--ah, how clever she had been!--not many girls; two men,
-doddering on their sticks; and a group of young men, the lounging,
-insolent handsome young men, with their hands stuck into the belts of
-their smocks, chewing straws for all the world as though they had been
-in the Waggon of Hay and not on the threshold of a church. It was then
-that an incident occurred, the recollection of which was frequently
-to dash Daisy’s triumph into a sinking of uneasiness; towering behind
-the group she caught sight of Peter Gorwyn’s grinning, good-humoured
-face on the top of his enormous proportions, and as she looked at
-him in a sort of terror of recognition that _he_ of all men should
-have come to attend her wedding, he very slowly winked, so slowly
-that time seemed to be suspended between the beginning of the wink
-and the completion of it; and in that suspension of time, while her
-eyes had leisure to dwell in fascination upon the subtle and quite
-unambiguous process of a wink, her mind had leisure also to take in its
-whole significance: Peter Gorwyn _knew_. In that wink the day of the
-Scouring was evoked; the fun they had shared; the irresponsibility, the
-momentary drunkenness. There was no reproach in the wink; there was no
-reproof; there was not even a threat; there was simply the amusement
-of a confederate, of one who knew himself quite well to be a party to
-a hoax. There was humour in it too; in that broad, ruddy face and blue
-eyes there was humour; there was even congratulation, a kind of silent
-applause; and a hint of gratitude to Daisy for having let him off so
-easily,--for having got Lovel to stand there in his place. This was all
-very re-assuring; there was such a phrase as honour among thieves, and
-big Peter, with her, was a thief if he was willing to let Lovel take
-his place and pay the price which should have been exacted of his own
-responsibility. But at the same time that wink came as a sharp shock
-to her, the shock that a second person shared her hoaxing secret. She
-thought that presently, when she had had time to settle down a little
-in her new life, she would catch young Gorwyn for an interview, and,
-without giving herself away, make quite sure, that, although he had
-guessed what she had concealed, he was ready to grin and hold his
-tongue. She thought this in a flustered way, as she came out of the
-church on Lovel’s arm into the warmth of the sunny morning, and they
-proceeded down the path between the grave-stones, a stiff little group,
-robbed momentarily even of the slight relief of the bride’s simpering,
-with Olver bringing up the rear. Daisy shivered for the first time;
-this wedding was not being conducted according to her idea of weddings;
-there were no emotional relatives, no weeping mother, no bells
-pealing from the calm grey spire overhead, no bridesmaids, no best
-man,--only Olver shambling behind them as they proceeded between the
-grave-stones, Olver so slightly and indefinably mis-shapen, a solitary
-evil attendant, shambling as though he might at any moment break into
-a fawning gambol around them, a senseless dance full of irony and
-mischief. And Lovel, himself, dearly as she had set her heart upon
-him, was throwing a chill by his demeanour over the occasion; he had
-not once looked at her, he had offered her his arm in a coldly civil
-way,--less he could not do,--he had stood up stern and unbending; she
-was afraid of him, and discouragement began to cloud over her triumph.
-
-They were walking now down the street towards his house, and the
-shopkeepers came to their doors to stare at them as they passed.
-Still Lovel marched on, undeviating, and Daisy began to feel herself
-a captive being led towards her prison. She clasped her fingers
-tighter round Lovel’s arm; it was hard and sinewy, typical of his lean
-strength. Here was a harshness she would find tough to propitiate;
-and jealousy shot through her; had he shown himself harsh towards Miss
-Warrener? or had she discovered an unguessed marvellous Lovel? What
-secret understanding had they shared? Daisy scarcely understood the
-pain. “The minx!” she muttered; it was the only analysis she could
-find of her sudden twist of anguish, blind and inarticulate. Up to
-the present she had been too much occupied with securing Lovel; in
-future she would have leisure to dwell upon those memories of his which
-would lie for ever concealed from her. “We’re married now, aren’t we,
-Nicholas? I’ve got you?” she said, looking up into his face.
-
-He took her into his house, where during the whole time of their
-engagement he had never allowed her to come. They were in the dark cold
-passage, at the end of which, in the sun, opened the little square
-of garden where Lovel like any other cottager grew his cabbages,
-his patch of flowers, his gooseberries, and his beans. Daisy became
-excited again; she forgot Gorwyn, she forgot her discouragement and
-her jealousy; she was a woman brought for the first time to her home.
-She peered about her with interest, while Lovel shut the door, and the
-passage became quite dark but for the door at the further end opening
-bright arch-wise on to the garden. “Oh, Nicholas,” she said, “I can’t
-see and it’s cold; leave open the door.” “For all the village to spy in
-upon us?” he returned, and she perceived that in this as in everything
-else he would have his way. “It’s more friendly,” she ventured, but he
-did not move towards it, and she desisted: after all, she had got him,
-she had fooled him, the score so far was heavily in her favour; if she
-let him have his way now, she would get him more completely in the end.
-“It’s rather cold,” she said nevertheless, repressing a shiver, and,
-hearing a small chuckle in the shadows behind her, she turned and saw
-Olver crouched up against the wall.
-
-“Take me into the kitchen!” she cried, pressing herself against Lovel.
-
-Kitchen! the word was reassuring; her mother had kept a spruce,
-spacious kitchen, where bottled fruit stood ranged on shelves, and
-trays of floury scones stood on the scrubbed deal table, and the big
-Parliament clock tick-tocked in comfortable regularity against the
-wall. Very different was the room to which Lovel sarcastically admitted
-her; she stopped with the dismay of the conventional person suddenly
-confronted with rebel views. She was shocked as at something unseemly
-and profane. “Oh,” she cried, “but this isn’t a kitchen?”
-
-She turned as though to make her escape; before her was the room with
-its walls of rough stone, its rafters, shadows and cobwebs, behind
-her was Lovel in the doorway and the dark passage beyond him, with
-Olver crouching in it. She stared round her, and was met everywhere by
-silence. “I don’t like it!” she cried in shrill terror. Lovel continued
-to look at her without speaking. “Mother! dad!” she cried, “I want to
-go home!” She rushed to Lovel and beat her hands against his chest.
-His physical contact recalled her, and she began to sob. “Nicholas,
-Nicholas,” she sobbed, “I love you, I don’t understand.” She sobbed
-against him.
-
-He stood still, hard and carven, while the waves of her panic broke
-over him. Presently a loud tapping sounded overhead, and she raised her
-face, mouth moist and wide open, to listen. “What’s that?” she uttered.
-“My mother,” he replied grimly. “Then she _is_ alive?” breathed
-Daisy, her common curiosity coming back to her, and she felt suddenly
-important, since she was about to see,--redoubtable privilege,--the
-legendary figure of the village witch. Speaking over his shoulder,
-Lovel said, “Olver, go you and tell her I am bringing Daisy up in a
-moment,” and she heard Olver shuffle off, and knew the mysterious
-suggestion of hearing footsteps mount an unknown stair, and the voice
-of an unvisualised person speaking in the recesses of an unknown house.
-
-“Must I go up?” she said to Lovel, between fear and desire.
-
-She wondered when she would have the chance of pouring into the ears of
-one of her confidential friends the account of her first entry into the
-old woman’s room. Not that she could be so very old in years,--not more
-than sixty or sixty-five, Daisy hazarded,--but her bedridden condition
-and the squalor of rugs and coverings under which she croaked and
-feebly moved lent to her an appearance of almost fabulous age. Dirty
-and tattered, a heap on the bed in the corner of the dark room, her
-grey locks straggled about her face, her shaking fingers crooked
-themselves at Daisy, and her mouth mumbled out unintelligible phrases,
-in which the words, “A hard son to me, Nicco ... a hard husband ...
-you’ll see,” alone detached themselves with any significance to the
-bride. She was herself too much overawed to speak, but stood close
-to Lovel, who, forbidding though he was, was yet the only familiar
-landmark in the whole of that house. For his part, he said nothing,
-not a word to help Daisy out of her fear or her embarrassment; he
-stood there, and had he not appeared so utterly indifferent she would
-have said he seemed resigned; he stood there waiting while his mother
-mumbled out her accusations,--how many years was it since she had had
-the opportunity of doing so save to Olver?--willing to wait although
-scorning to justify himself; and it was clear that he cared no more
-for his wife’s opinion than he did for his mother’s or anybody else’s,
-but had within himself a reserve of some unknown, unexplained quality,
-whether pride, or contempt, or self-communion, or all three, but which
-in any case left him invulnerable and as though he could close his ears
-at will when he did not choose to hear.
-
-But although even through her fright Daisy was thinking of the
-succulent story she would make out of this first glimpse of the old
-woman, the closing incident was one she would not retail. No, she
-would not tell any one that when the mumble had finally died away, the
-mumble and the bursts of laughter, she would not tell any one that as
-she and Lovel had started to move towards the door the old woman had
-raised herself up on her extraordinary mountain of sacks and pillows,
-heaving herself up under all the rugs, and pointing an accusing finger
-at her daughter-in-law, had cried in an access of malevolent amusement,
-“Big already, my lass, and on your wedding-day!” She would not tell
-any one that. She could not, even had she been willing, have described
-the effect that the old woman’s words, uttered in such a tone of
-discovery and delight, produced upon her. Hitherto she had not thought
-very much about her condition; it was an inconvenient consequence that
-often overtook girls of her class when they had omitted to behave with
-too self-righteous a prudery; and in her own particular case she had
-been able to turn her “trouble” to excellent account. But with that
-witchlike cackle a whole future of foreboding rushed up at her, a whole
-revelation of mischievous malignity. The cackle and the wink--Gorwyn
-knew her secret; did Lovel’s mother know it too? she was credited with
-sly powers; did Lovel’s brother know it? and would they sit for years
-upon their knowledge until one day it should hatch out, sudden and
-disastrous? Or had Lovel told them both that the child was Olver’s
-child? Olver would accept that, surely; he had the memory of the scene
-in the barn to convince him. What had Lovel told them? she would never
-dare to ask him, and his inscrutability gave her no hope of discovering
-by chance.
-
-And then she had been astonished to find how gentle he could be towards
-her. It was true that he was stern in his injunctions,--no tales of his
-house to be carried about the village, he said, and poor Daisy saw her
-one consolation evaporate,--but in his personal dealings with her he
-was uniformly gentle. Distant always, never relaxing, never easy; but
-kind with a kindness that wrung the very heart of her love for him. It
-was as though he pitied her, and was kind to her as he would have been
-to an animal; although she thought bitterly, there would have been more
-of love and less of duty in his kindness towards the meanest animal.
-She could not cajole herself with the idea that anything but duty lay
-beneath his kindness to her. He was equally gentle, she observed, with
-his brother Olver, and with his mother, never betraying by any sign
-his repulsion or his impatience; and Daisy thought sometimes with
-terror that she herself might be as repulsive to him as the old woman
-must surely be, but never would she know it, for he would never allow
-it to appear. And at moments, loving him, she could forget herself
-sufficiently to be sorry for him in his loneliness and his unrelaxing
-self-command.
-
-She began to know the full significance of suffering. Before very
-long she was suffering, in her blind, ignorant way, down to the bone.
-For discomfort she had bargained; for a hard life of work, since she
-knew that the business of keeping the house and its three inmates
-would after her marriage devolve upon her, she had bargained also;
-for Lovel’s severity she had bargained, and with an obscure sense
-of justice and fair play she had been prepared to accept without
-complaint these things that she was voluntarily bringing upon herself
-as the price of securing Lovel for her own, for her husband; but for
-the torment of his kindness and his proximity she had not bargained.
-The work she had envisaged with a practical eye; that was within the
-reach of her capacity, but the emotional problem had altogether eluded
-her anticipation. She had thought, if she thought at all, that once
-she had got Lovel safely over that ticklish business of marriage, she
-would have consummated her supreme ambition. She had not understood
-that then and then only would her problem truly begin. It had been
-easy, pitifully easy, to trick Lovel into marriage, easy to play upon
-the double string of his dejection and his sense of honour; he had
-allowed himself to be conducted through preliminaries and ceremony
-alike with the same cold, trance-like indifference; that had been easy
-for her; but how to dig through to the man beneath that blameless mask?
-“Nicholas, will you take me to Bath some day, anywhen you’ve time?
-I’ve never seen a bigger town than Marlborough,” and he would answer,
-kindly, always kindly, but like a man who might well be dead before the
-day for going to Bath arrived, “I’ll take you to Bath, my dear,” and
-she would sidle up to him and say, “That’ll be a treat for you too,
-Nicco?” and he would acquiesce, and at the same time, on some murmured
-excuse, would put her gently away.
-
-She waited hungrily all day for his return in the evening. His presence
-exasperated and tortured her, but his absence left her in a perpetual
-fret, swallowing up what she had anticipated as the principal trial of
-her days, the sinister companionship of Olver and the old woman. Now
-that she knew her way about the house,--knew the full squalor of the
-old woman’s room,--had grown accustomed to the croak and the pointing
-finger,--no longer started at Olver’s sudden laughter in the dark
-passage,--she was not so much oppressed by them; but Lovel, Lovel, was
-always what she wanted and what she could not have. At first she had
-restrained herself, not knowing the temper with which she had to deal,
-but, seeing him so kind, she slackened her restraint, and her affection
-slopped increasingly over him. He could not be in the house but what
-she must waddle after him, pawing at his hand or trying to entice him
-into some friendly phrase. “You like having your house kept by me,
-don’t you, Nicco? You like getting hot meals, don’t you, darling?” and
-often she whined, “I love you, Nicco!”
-
-It was not in her to suffer in silence. When she craved too strongly
-for him to touch her, she would take his hand and hold it against her
-full, warm breast. She would sit at his feet in front of the fire, as
-Olver had been used to do, and lean her head against his knee with
-sentimental sighs, for she quickly learnt that although he might ignore
-her he would never repulse her. In the kitchen, when she did this,
-Olver sat at the centre table squinting into his little mirror at the
-reflected group of his sister-in-law, his brother, and the red glow of
-the fire. He was content to sit doing this by the hour, but Daisy could
-not endure it; she clambered to her feet,--for she was rapidly growing
-more clumsy in her movements,--and went about the room finding small
-unnecessary tasks to ease her discomfort. Sometimes she turned noisily
-on Lovel:
-
-“What are you thinking of, sitting there?”
-
-He was mild in his reply, or else did not reply at all.
-
-“Oh, _I_ know, _I_ know!” she would cry, in an access of jealousy, but
-dared say no more.
-
-Only once, when he caught her with his strong hand as she stumbled on
-the stair, and uttered a word of caution, she turned on him and cried,
-“You’re mighty careful of another man’s brat.” But it seemed that he
-had set his will against being goaded into any retort.
-
-The other man’s brat troubled her now, for she could not escape from
-what seemed to her an absurd desire that it should be Lovel’s. The
-Scouring had taken place in May; it was now December, so that she was
-approaching her seventh month,--but Lovel must not know that: he must
-think her only in the sixth month, for the incident with Olver in the
-barn had happened in June; she must always be careful to remember
-that, or the whole fabrication would be ruinously exposed. She must
-run the risk of incomplete preparations,--a misled midwife, a probably
-unavailable doctor should things go wrong. The resented child moved now
-vigorous within her; she had a full-blown appearance without which she
-still thought in her naïveté that she might have been attractive to
-Lovel. In the autumn his bitch had whelped, and she had watched with
-real anguish his tenderness towards the blind crawling puppies in their
-wooden box, and later his patient hands teaching them to drink as they
-crowded round and blew bubbles in the bowl of milk, and later still,
-when they grew into fluffy balls, cuffing one another and snarling in
-their small rage, she watched him dangling old cotton-reels for their
-amusement, or saw him cross the kitchen with the little pack prancing
-after him, and was shrewd enough to recognise that this was the first
-thing which had given him pleasure for many months. Now, when he was
-out at work, she watched them tumbling over each other on the flags of
-the kitchen, staggering on their still uncertain legs, and the longing
-grew within her that they should be babies instead, fat babies, hers
-and Lovel’s, and the more she longed for this the less she welcomed
-the child that struck so strongly against her flanks. It should be a
-hearty child, conceived in laughter of healthy parents, a child that
-would lie content and kick and crow; a little ploughboy; but already
-she dreaded to see it with Lovel,--would he touch it with his hands
-that were so light and loving to train and fondle all young things?
-or would he avert his eyes from it? would it grow up to toddle always
-after him in preference to any one else, while he endured it between
-pity and loathing, and would it call him father, poor fraudulent little
-stranger in a house where it had no right? Only in one degree less did
-she speculate over Olver’s attitude towards it,--Olver who was being
-passed off as its father,--would he believe himself the father or did
-he know better? and would he croon in his odd slanting way over the
-cot, with a grotesque affection? and would he later try to win over the
-child and fill its head with queer lore? and here a fire of maternal
-protectiveness and indignation flamed through her, rising suddenly from
-the depth, as she discovered that she was not willing that her child
-should come under the influence of Olver.
-
-There were endless possible groupings to be foreseen about the tiny,
-dangerous, controversial person of the child.
-
-Its burden weighed her down more and more as the seasons deepened
-towards winter. This child, so light-heartedly conceived on a day in
-spring, its presence unnoticeable through the early summer, began to
-oppress its mother in the saddening autumn, and with winter when the
-days were dark and short and gloomy, she could no longer forget its
-existence for a moment. The burden of the child and the burden of the
-year moved together increasingly towards their culmination. She looked
-back sadly to the easy days when the child had been light and even her
-preoccupations had been leavened with hope. Now everything weighed upon
-her, even the weather which was bleak and dismal: “I declare,” she
-said fretfully to herself, “I’d be no worse off in the Kennet,” and
-she skirted the idea, but lacked the desperation to execute it. She
-was, however, by now quite sufficiently unhappy. She had nearly lost
-any hope of gaining Lovel, her days were leaden, she lumbered about
-the house in slovenly clothes, since at the beginning she had used
-up all her poor finery by wearing her best every day in the hopes of
-pleasing Lovel’s eye, but now in an access of dejection, she went to
-the opposite extreme, and took a wilful pleasure in letting him see her
-at her most sluttish and ungainly. But nothing, she noticed, caused him
-to alter his manner towards her whether she presented herself in her
-muslin, or in an old bodice made of some gray tartan-like material, not
-joining on to her skirt, so that she appeared to be dressed in some
-thrown-on coverings from off his mother’s bed. But he never varied in
-his patience and his impersonal kindness; he neither retreated to a
-greater distance, nor allowed himself to become more approachable.
-Every evening he returned to his house to rejoin the company of Olver,
-his mother, and the cumbersome and plangent woman, but by no word did
-he betray either his nausea or his weariness. “Oh, yes, he’s a good
-husband,” said Daisy bitterly to young Gorwyn, “he doesn’t drink, he
-doesn’t hit me, and he gives me all his money. He’s a good husband
-enough.”
-
-Young Gorwyn lounged gracefully round the house-door.
-
-“Then you’ve fallen soft,” he observed in his drawling voice, surveying
-Daisy from head to foot as she stood just within the entrance to the
-dark passage.
-
-“I’ve fallen soft,” she echoed, full of sarcasm.
-
-This was in October, and in the blue early dusk people were gossiping
-at their house-doors, up and down the street. Young Gorwyn felt a
-spice of adventure in philandering thus openly with the newly-wedded
-wife of the redoubtable Lovel,--advertising to the whole street his
-disregard of Lovel. Not that there was any glory in passing the time of
-day with Daisy; everybody knew that Daisy was cheap and easy, giving
-impudence for impudence, a joke for a joke. But in making free with
-Lovel’s property there was glory, in being so near to Lovel’s house;
-almost inside it, one might say; in dawdling there, treating it as any
-ordinary house. He thrust his hands into the pockets of his breeches,
-and lounged, and stared at Daisy. She was a good sort, and he had got
-off cheap, were his dominant reflections; and was quite sure,--with a
-grin,--that she read his thoughts and wholly sympathised with them;
-would not have been shocked, in fact, had he voiced them and held out
-his hand, thanking her for the escape she had allowed him. He did not
-credit her perhaps with very much respect for him, but then he had
-equally little for her.
-
-“Let’s see our kid now and then,” he said.
-
-“What?” she said sharply.
-
-“Let’s see the kid now and then,” he repeated, so that she wondered
-whether she had heard him right the first time.
-
-“Oh,--maybe,” she replied, trying to show herself nonchalant about it
-as he, being a woman who readily took her cue from men.
-
-She remembered the wink in the porch of the church, and that small,
-all-compromising word, so slily slipped into his phrase, seemed to her
-a first cousin of the wink; they had the same family air of innuendo,
-of confederacy. The impertinence! she thought, in her heart of hearts
-frightened rather than indignant, and she had a good mind to have the
-question out with him then and there, but, giving him a preliminary
-look, she decided to hold her tongue; an admission, once made, could
-not be recalled, whereas silence committed one to nothing. She was far,
-however, from trusting young Gorwyn now that she came to examine him
-more closely; he was strong and sleepy and graceful, lounging against
-the door-post, but there was something of the cat in his face with the
-broad cheek-bones, and the fair-lashed blue eyes so deep-set that when
-he smiled they almost disappeared into two little slits, and the way
-his fair hair grew so thick and low on his forehead; and she knew from
-experience,--all too well,--how caressing were his hands, caressing
-and heavy, when he reached them out towards a girl. A return of the
-passing attraction he had had for her came upon her, and she had a
-moment of queer disloyalty to Lovel, contrasting his slim darkness with
-the square Saxon strength of Gorwyn, to whom she was really so suitably
-mated. Their glances crossed; they understood one another too well, and
-looked away. “I must be getting on,” said Gorwyn after a pause which
-lasted a perceptible moment.
-
-But that was in October, and she had not seen him again for any private
-conversation, however evasive. Autumn had gone, winter had come, with
-the violence and completeness to which dwellers on those uplands were
-accustomed. Snow blocked the roads. Communication with Marlborough
-was cut off, the inhabitants of King’s Avon resigned themselves to
-rely upon their own store of provisions, the Downs lay around them,
-white and enormous. They did not resent their isolation, but accepted
-it, almost yearly, as coming in its turn in the nature of things. It
-imprisoned them, more than ever self-contained, in their cup within
-the earthwork, with their pagan stones, their Christian church,
-their shops, and their Manor House, where Mr. Warrener was now their
-only representative of gentry; snugly a homogenous community. Lovel
-alone saw in the snow something more than a mere barrier against the
-outside world, a barrier that was almost a defence; he saw the stones
-standing up black out of a white field, the black trees powdered and
-spangled; he knew that he could go up on to the Downs without the fear
-of meeting any stranger riding there for pleasure. He could look from
-the crest of the White Horse Hill out over the country, without seeing
-the roads of civilisation, without seeing the White Horse itself, and
-his shepherd’s hut was as rough a shelter as primitive man would have
-devised. He took a certain pleasure in the discomfort and severity of
-his winter life. Often he would be the only man to leave the village of
-a morning, passing out on his way to the uplands while a few isolated
-figures trudged up the draughty street against the blizzard with sacks
-thrown round their shoulders, going to their cowsheds or to clear a
-space for their poultry; but Lovel passed them, leaving them to such
-domestic occupations, and sought the high lands, where wind and sleet
-swept across like aerial cavalry, and the driven snow was banked deep
-in drifts against the scars and scoops of the hillsides. Here, as he
-stood alone with the spears of the weather driving through him, he
-had a sense of triumph: he had got the better of the Downs, he had
-got the better of his own soul. His physical and mental endurance
-were alike strong enough to cope with the utmost rigours that Nature
-and fate were able to devise for his trial. This grim satisfaction,
-he felt, was the last luxury he permitted himself to indulge. For the
-rest, he had stripped himself bare of soft superfluities as a man
-could be; down to bone and sinew he had stripped himself. At times,
-in his moments of strange, harsh exaltation, when the gale screamed
-most piteously around him, he wished he might divest himself of his
-clothing, outward symbol of protection, and stand naked to support the
-lashings of the wind and the frozen hail; he thought proudly that no
-harm would come of it to his lean body. But although he never allowed
-himself to exploit the desires of this fanatical folly, he knew that
-he had touched the apex of his conquest over himself and his country,
-and, relaxing, he considered with a grin the superstitious amazement
-of his fellow-villagers should they, passing below, chance to see upon
-the skyline the naked figure of Lovel (whom they had always known for a
-wizard) crucified against elements where horse and man might scarcely
-hope to live.
-
-He had his reward when the storm ceased, and, again alone upon the
-heights, he surveyed, as though his will alone had imposed the calm,
-the thick smooth quilt of snow and the blood-red sun descending towards
-the beech-clump through the perfect stillness.
-
-But in the direction of Starvecrow he never wandered, where Calladine
-edged with some rare book closer to the fire, and Clare stood with her
-face against the panes staring out of the window over the snowy Downs.
-
-Daisy began now to cling to him more and more. Her child was nearly
-due, but since she alone knew this,--and perhaps young Gorwyn, if he
-took the trouble to reckon up the dates,--every one believed the birth
-to be distant yet another month. Daisy was frightened; she dared not
-tell Lovel that the child might now be born any day; but she dreaded
-his long absences, for she feared that she might die without making her
-confession or obtaining his forgiveness. If all went well, she had no
-intention of confessing; but if she saw her life in any danger she had
-made up her mind to barter the security of this life against that of
-the next. Superstitious, she imagined that she would run more danger
-through bearing this child that she had carried during the months of
-deception and fraud, than she would through bearing a child honestly
-conceived and carried. She was mortally afraid of death, and mortally
-afraid of losing Lovel. She tried to sound him, “You’d be sorry if
-anything happened to me, Nicco?”
-
-Lovel had heard this a dozen times already.
-
-“Why should anything happen to you?” he replied.
-
-“I shouldn’t have gone with Olver,” she mumbled, twisting the corner of
-her skirt.
-
-“That’s a long time ago,--that’s over and done with,” he replied
-patiently and cheerfully, feeling sorry for what he thought was her
-genuine repentance.
-
-“But this is the result,” she said, not consoled.
-
-“Don’t distress yourself,” he said.
-
-“Supposing I was tooken bad,” she began again.
-
-“’Tisn’t for a month yet,” said Lovel.
-
-“One doesn’t know always, with such things.”
-
-“Will you see the midwife?” he asked, perceiving that she was worried.
-But the whole subject, and Daisy’s very existence, though he spoke with
-solicitude and bent a kindly gaze on her to discover what were the poor
-creature’s real wishes,--the whole subject to him was utterly remote
-and meaningless.
-
-“The midwife over to Marlborough by this snow-fall!” she cried
-disdainfully.
-
-“I’ll ride over and get her if you like,--I’ll bring her out on a
-pillion.”
-
-“No, no, Lovel,” she said, shaking her head, “neither now nor when the
-child is born,--I’ll die without midwife, or doctor, more likely.”
-
-“You’re determined to see it in its blackest light,” said Lovel, but he
-spoke good-humouredly, without losing his patience.
-
-“Well, it isn’t of me or my baby you think, when you sit silent by the
-hour, is it?” said Daisy, suddenly losing her temper, pulling herself
-up with the help of the table, and wandering aimlessly around. “’Tisn’t
-your baby, so why should you think of it? and if I come to die, well,
-good riddance for you, and you’ll be able to think you did your duty
-by me. But much you care now, when you go out into the snow like the
-crazed gipsy you are,--to meet Miss Warrener, Mrs. Calladine, for all I
-know,--much you care that I sit at home and think myself sick over the
-danger I’ll run and the pain I’ll suffer, while you maybe won’t come
-near home till it’s all over one way or the other.”
-
-“When the time gets near I’ll stop closer to home.”
-
-She wanted to cry out, “You dolt, you blockhead, the time is near
-_now_,” but dared only repeat “One doesn’t always know ...” and began
-to whimper.
-
-“I won’t go far afield,” said Lovel, soothing her. He was full of pity
-for all women in her condition, so that none of her words had power to
-anger him.
-
-A small remorse came over her when he was kind like this, a compunction
-for having tricked him: would he have been so kind, so long-suffering
-about the child had he not believed without question in his own
-brother’s guilt? She tried to edge closer to him; “Nicholas, if
-anything happened to me, you wouldn’t think too hardly of me, would
-you?”
-
-“Nothing’s going to happen to you,” said Lovel, weary of the
-discussion, but still patient and kind.
-
-“You won’t go far, Nicco, will you?”
-
-“No, if that comforts you.”
-
-He was committed now, having given his promise; there would be no more
-roamings for him; but he was willing to forgo their small solace,
-negligible in the midst of his desolation, if thereby he might reassure
-the poor contemptible creature.
-
-“Nicco,” she said timidly, with an impulse of honesty, prompted by his
-gentleness, “’tisn’t fair to ask you, hardly ... ’tisn’t your child,
-after all’s said and done.”
-
-“I’m responsible for my brother,” said Lovel, and she turned away from
-him and wept, overcome.
-
-“You’re an upright man, Lovel,” she cried through her tears, “too
-upright for such as me.”
-
-He had not understood her full meaning, of course; he had told her
-again not to distress herself, he had assured her again that he would
-not go far from home, he had even patted her shoulder, letting her
-see nothing of the effort it cost him, and he had gone out then, to a
-house down the street where he had a small carpentering job to finish.
-Daisy remained alone in the kitchen, alone with the satisfaction of
-having gained her point that he would abandon his long absences, but
-still she was not satisfied as she expected; she sat on where he had
-left her, bluntly probed by conscience, she whose conscience had never
-troubled her until this contact with Lovel and his standards: what was
-she doing to Lovel, she asked herself now? she had got him, but was
-that all? was that enough for her? to have got him and to know she had
-caught him by a trick? to see him inert under his dull unhappiness?
-never to hear him complain, never to catch him at fault, but to see
-him quiet as though his spirit was ebbing daily from him? Even she,
-in her blundering insensitiveness, stirred uneasily at the thought
-of his injuries. “But what was I to be at?” she cried to herself in
-self-justification; “I wanted him, and all’s fair....” She moved in
-her chair and twisted her hands. “Nicco, Nicco,” she moaned. “If he
-knew how I wanted him he’d forgive me,” and with this reflection came
-a deeper stab: it was probably true that he would indeed forgive
-her,--that she had indeed broken him down to the extent of that
-saint-like clemency. What would put anger and mettle back into him?
-what would put life back into him? Clare, nothing but Clare, without
-whom he was incomplete, only a gentle husk; and for a passing moment
-her thoughts travelled to Clare, living out her life in some fashion
-or another by Calladine’s side at Starvecrow. What, in her ignorance,
-had she helped to bring about? She paused and drew back on the brink of
-things she did not understand, taking refuge again in her own miseries,
-comfortably familiar by reason of the many times she had pored over
-them, with no dark corners or frightening perspectives, but all close,
-small and personal, under the range of her poor niggling microscope.
-And she was in the right frame of mind for such brooding, feeling
-herself oppressed and full of foreboding, as she sat in the kitchen big
-with the child, and big with the failure of her life, waiting indeed
-for deliverance from the child, but seeing no solution to the greater
-oppression, which she might expect to continue until she should grow
-as spiritless and broken as Lovel and their existence should dwindle
-to a grey twilight of apathy unenlivened even by anger or revolt. She
-had rarely felt so dejected; the very stones of the kitchen walls
-crushed her with their rude size; the child within her, usually so
-active, so ironically vigorous, was so quiet to-day that she began to
-wonder whether it were dead; the old woman overhead made no sound; and
-all round the house lay the thick soft deadening pall of snow that
-muffled the country from Thames to Severn. She wished that Lovel had
-not gone out; disheartened though she now was, she still clung to the
-tormenting comfort of his presence; it was almost a consolation to see
-him suffering beside her. Since life held neither hope nor joy for
-either of them, let her in her own pain at least be able to sneer at
-the sight of his; let them be together in their separation. She grew
-frightened at the wildness and virulence of her thoughts. They were
-not so much thoughts, as impulses that floated a little crazily across
-her mind. She was not well to-day; it was not surprising; it was cruel
-of Nicholas to leave her alone. She stirred, and looked round, saw
-no one, but fancied that eyes watched her. “Olver!” she cried out,
-although she had seen nothing.
-
-In a pause that followed her cry she breathed heavily, staring round
-with eyes that dared not flutter into a blink. Her eyeballs became
-tense and dry, her hands strained at the edge of the table. For all
-that she knew, her brother-in-law might have been in the room all the
-time; she was still startled by his soft appearances and vanishings,
-as by his sudden meaningless laughter, and by the arrows of shrewdness
-that would dart across his erratic brain. “Olver?” she whispered next,
-half-expecting him to answer from under her very feet, and little
-as she desired his company, she thought that any answer would be
-preferable to the continued silence in the room and to the doubt as to
-whether Olver was there or not.
-
-She was coming to the conclusion that her instinct had been a mistaken
-one, since five minutes had certainly elapsed while she stared and
-peered round the room, and she was about to relax from her strain of
-looking and listening for Olver, when she heard a faint tap on the
-window, and, looking round, she saw his face pressed against the window
-pane from outside. Her fright gave way to petulance; she called out
-to him to give over his tricks, and at the same time she beckoned
-imperiously to him to come into the house. Well-accustomed to him by
-now, she felt relief when he materialised out of the silence. “How
-long had you been watching me?” she asked.
-
-“That’s my secret,” he replied.
-
-She struggled, impatient of the little mysteries he liked to make.
-
-“Anyhow, Nicholas isn’t here,” she observed, turning away from Olver
-and tapping her fingers irritably upon the table.
-
-“I don’t want Nicholas,” said Olver, “I want you.”
-
-He came further into the room, while she looked at him in enquiry.
-
-“Oh, you’ve found an old bird’s nest you want to show me,” she said
-disdainfully.
-
-“That’s as far as you can think,” replied Olver with equal disdain. He
-came up to her. “Have you ever thought that there’s things you’ve no
-idea of going on all round you?”
-
-“Why,” she said, fright again overtaking her, “that’s what I was
-thinking just now.”
-
-“But you didn’t like to think too close on it?”
-
-“No, perhaps I didn’t. Let me be, Olver; I’ve troubles enough without
-you moidering me.”
-
-“And are you the only one to have troubles?”
-
-“Let me be, Olver, I tell you.”
-
-“No, I won’t let you be. I’ve a grudge against you. I’ve thought it
-out.”
-
-“I’m not well, Olver; keep your grudge till I’ve got my baby. Then I’ll
-have it out with you if I must.”
-
-“You hadn’t any pity on Nicco.”
-
-“Oh, that’s how the land lies, is it?”
-
-“No use being brazen about it, Daisy. I’m here to speak for Nicco, and
-nothing you say’ll stop me.”
-
-“If you don’t let me be, I’ll tell Nicholas, and he’ll be angry with
-you.”
-
-“I’m not afraid of Nicco.”
-
-“Oh, yes, you are. We all are. Even me,--and I’m his wife.”
-
-“A pretty wife. Nicco can kill me if he likes; I’ll speak first. I know
-better what’s good for him than he knows himself. You’ve broken his
-heart.”
-
-“Not me, Olver, not me only. His heart would have been broken anyhow.
-And God knows he’s breaking mine.”
-
-“Who cares about yours? Nicco’s worth everything.”
-
-“I know that, do you suppose I don’t know that? It’s making me mad,
-Olver. Can’t you have a little pity on me and leave me to myself?”
-
-“I wouldn’t have any pity for you, not if you were dying.”
-
-“Well, I shall be dying before very long, if that’s any consolation to
-you.”
-
-“You aren’t the sort that dies. Nicco’ll have you stuck to him for
-years; he’ll leave you before you leave him.”
-
-“Don’t say that, Olver; he’s strong; different, but as strong as me.”
-
-“Oh, his body’s strong enough, but there’s something burns him away
-inside. Look at his eyes.”
-
-“Olver, don’t say such terrible things. What do you know? I never
-can tell how much you know,--you’re simple, aren’t you? He doesn’t
-complain. He doesn’t complain to you, does he?”
-
-“He’ll die, but he won’t have complained once. And we shall never know.
-He’s good to us both, isn’t he?”
-
-“Good,--yes, he’s good; but you don’t understand, Olver, you needn’t
-rub it into me how good he is or how much he’s worth. I know it
-already, I love him so much it makes me sick and mad. It’s almost
-too much for me, what I have to put up with, what with one thing and
-another.... Now go away, can’t you? I’ve told you, I’ve admitted it all
-to you; I can’t put it more plainly.”
-
-“He’s good to you just as he’s good to me; he hasn’t a ha’pennyworth of
-feeling for you.”
-
-“I know, Olver, I know; can’t you leave me alone? I’m not well, I tell
-you; it isn’t the moment to come baiting me.”
-
-“There’s another woman he wanted....”
-
-“You shan’t speak of her!” screamed Daisy.
-
-“Oh, yes, I will,” said Olver, seizing her by the wrists. “Do you call
-to mind what you once told me, that you saw them together, and it
-seemed a week wasn’t enough for all they had to say? Where are they
-now. Three miles apart, yet they haven’t seen one another for six
-months,--from the time the Downs were green to the time the Downs are
-white. And do you suppose he’s left her for a moment in thought, or
-she left him? Not they. They used to slip together to the Kennet, those
-two, and they’ve been suddenly divided. And you whine to me because
-you’re unhappy. You say you’re not well. Not well! You! Who cares? You
-could whelp a litter and be none the worse, and you can stand a bit of
-unhappiness just as well as you can stand your baby. I’ve no pity for
-you. But Nicco,--he’ll break,--he’ll die inside.”
-
-“Don’t, Olver, don’t; what’s the good of torturing me now. What can I
-do?”
-
-“What can you do? You can clear out, can’t you? Go and have your baby
-in a ditch, somewhere where Nicco can never find you again,” he said
-brutally.
-
-“Where would be the good of that? She’s married herself, Miss Warrener
-is, and I love Nicco, I keep on telling you; I can’t give him up,”
-cried Daisy, confused and hunted to the last extremity; and she thought
-of something she could say to Olver, something which would either
-silence him or else force him to throw down all his cards upon the
-table, “Whose fault is it, anyhow, that Nicco had to marry me, to save
-me from the shame his own brother brought upon me?”
-
-“You think you can trick me like you tricked him,” cried Olver,
-horrible with rage. “Why don’t you say the shame Peter Gorwyn brought
-on you? You might be a little nearer the mark.”
-
-“Peter Gorwyn?”
-
-They faced one another, all civilisation gone from them. They struck
-blindly at one another, keeping nothing back.
-
-“I saw you, oh, I saw you, the day of the Scouring.”
-
-“I loved Nicco, I do love him; I had to have him!”
-
-“_You_ love him?--you’re killing him.”
-
-“He couldn’t have got Miss Warrener,--not with a brother like you. Do
-you hear? ’Tisn’t me that keeps him from her; it’s you, you, you.”
-
-“Me?” shouted Olver.
-
-“You, did you never think of that before? It doesn’t matter whether
-my baby is your baby or Peter Gorwyn’s baby. It’s you that spoil his
-life for him, you and your mother, you mischievous dolt, and your dirty
-blood in him. He’s tainted, and he knows it. ’Tisn’t me. I came long
-after; I’m just an extra. ’Tis you and your mother destroyed him, from
-the day he was born.”
-
-She clasped her hands suddenly to her side and fell back on to her
-chair.
-
-“You’ve done for me,” she groaned.
-
-The door opened and Lovel stood upon the threshold. Olver ran to him,
-touching him all over with his hands, reaching up to pass his hands
-even over his brother’s head.
-
-“Look at her, Nicco; she’s tricked you, the brat isn’t mine, it’s Peter
-Gorwyn’s, and she says ’tis I that kept you from Miss Warrener. Why
-don’t you kill her, Nicco? and I’ll go right away if it’s true; I love
-you better than she does; you shall have Miss Warrener.”
-
-“What’s all this?” said Lovel. He put Olver’s passionate fumbling hands
-aside, and went over to Daisy. “You’re ill,” he said in a practical
-voice; “What is it? has Olver hurt you?”
-
-“You heard what he said,” she replied, looking up at him with terrified
-and pain-racked eyes.
-
-“Never mind about that. Are you ill? Let me help you up.”
-
-“She’s tricked you, Nicco,” cried Olver, fawning round him.
-
-“Hold your tongue, Olver; she’s in pain. You poor fool, why didn’t you
-tell me? Heaven knows if I can get to Marlborough through this snow
-with darkness coming on. Lean on me, I’ll take you upstairs. Lean on
-me; never mind anything else.”
-
-Olver was pulling frantically at him.
-
-“Is it true, Nicco? is it me? Oh, my poor Nicco,--first me and then
-her,--what can I do?--but I’ll do something,--I’ll find something to
-do,--oh, my head, my heart.”
-
-“The pain, the pain!” cried Daisy.
-
-“Lean on me,” said Lovel, putting his arm round her.
-
-“Gorwyn’s child!” screamed Olver in a frenzy. He followed them to the
-foot of the stairs, where he stumbled and fell on the lowermost step,
-still calling incoherently after Lovel, who was persuading his wife up
-to her room, saying meanwhile, “Lean on me, Daisy, I won’t let you
-fall, don’t be afraid, it’ll all be over soon.”
-
-
-The word was quickly passed down the village street that Daisy Lovel’s
-time was come, and that Lovel begged the kindness of some charitable
-woman to remain near his wife while he rode to Marlborough in search
-of the midwife. “There’s a chance for somebody,” said one woman, “to
-see the inside of that house for herself.” “And there’s a come-down
-for Gipsy Lovel,” said another, “to have to beg for one of us to go
-into his place. Where would he be if we all refused?” “Her time come
-already? and she married,--let me see,--four, five months, is it?” said
-a third. But in spite of these and other scornful remarks, volunteers
-were forthcoming, and even those who had lagged most behind, or who had
-recommended that Lovel be left to suffer now the penalty of his years
-of unneighbourliness, watched enviously the departure of Mrs. Blagdon
-for the house of mystery and evil legend. They saw her received at the
-door by Lovel, drawn in and swallowed up, as to their imagination Daisy
-herself had been swallowed up on the day of her wedding.
-
-They continued, however, to observe Lovel’s house for some time,
-glancing at intervals between the lace curtains which decked their
-own windows, and saw a light spring up in the room they assumed to be
-Daisy’s, and a gigantic shadow passing to and fro upon the blind.
-Evening had come, swiftly to be followed by night; the snow had
-begun to fall again in large flakes; very soon the street was white,
-unbroken by footmarks, since every soul was within doors. The women
-idly watching between their curtains saw Lovel emerge from his house,
-close the door behind him, and pass down the alley between two houses
-to the shed where he kept his horse. They saw him emerge again, leading
-the horse; they saw him swing himself into the saddle and ride away,
-his coat collar turned up high against the snow, tall and spare as he
-disappeared silently into the thick dusk. The women said, “He’s off to
-Marlborough to find the midwife. Things can’t be going,” they added
-with relish, “as well as they should.” The men only growled, “He must
-be crazed to think he can find the road to Marlborough on a night like
-this; he’ll break his own neck and his horse’s legs.” But the women had
-a curious faith in Lovel’s efficiency.
-
-Few village confinements were honoured with so much interest. The
-darkness in the street was now intense, heightened by the snow that
-continued to float down in large, soft flakes; only the little yellow
-lights in the windows broke it, all on the ground-floor level but for
-the significant exception of Daisy’s window, whose lighted rectangle
-on the upper storey threw its beams out against the falling snow. All
-was silent in the Lovels’ house; ever Mrs. Blagdon seemed to have
-fallen into the clandestine habits of her hosts, for she had not
-once run out across the street in an interval for a moment’s gossip
-with a neighbour; only the shadow passed upon the blind, enormous and
-suggestive, to show that any life stirred within the house. The snow
-fell thicker; the few black holes left by the hoofs of Lovel’s horse
-had been long since blotted out, and Lovel himself had disappeared into
-the night as completely as though he had no intention of ever coming
-back. Hours had passed, suppers were finished and cleared away in all
-the little lighted kitchens, still the good wives were reluctant to
-move upstairs to bed, while careful to conceal their reluctance from
-the men. And Mrs. Blagdon, when she finally threw up a window in spite
-of the steely cold, to call out in an irritable and impatient voice,
-“Anybody seen anything of Lovel?” was answered by a dozen voices in
-negation.
-
-“How’s things, Mrs. Blagdon?”
-
-“Turned round the wrong way,” came the reply laconically.
-
-The street fell back into its silence after the small disturbance.
-Women who had been through the experience gave a moment’s pity
-to Daisy. Gorwyn, the smith, knocking out his pipe against his
-hearthstone, reiterated the opinion that Lovel would not be seen again
-that night. Peter, his son, stirred uneasily. “Is it all up with her,
-would you think, mother?” But Mrs. Gorwyn was contemptuous. “Lord, no;
-a solid girl like Daisy’d stand a deal more than that.”
-
-
-Country news, that most unaccountable traveller, spread even to
-Starvecrow in its isolation. Mrs. Quince was full of it,--she who
-towards Clare had kept herself so very prim and respectfully reserved.
-“You will remember, madam, the girl you saw in the attic bedroom here,
-Daisy Morland by name?”
-
-“I remember perfectly, Mrs. Quince; what of her?”
-
-“You will remember she was stitching at some baby-linen,--she was
-married to that good-for-nothing Lovel,--Gipsy Lovel, they call him,--a
-fortnight later,--a matter of three weeks before you were married
-yourself, madam.”
-
-“Yes, Mrs. Quince?”
-
-“She was brought to bed of a son in the early hours of this morning,
-madam,” said Mrs. Quince importantly.
-
-“Really. I hope she is well?”
-
-“Well enough; these country girls make nothing of it. Lightly born
-as lightly come by, I always say. Yet at one time it was a question
-whether they could save the baby.” Mrs. Quince added some details.
-“Yes, madam. Her husband had to ride to Marlborough and brought the
-doctor out a-pillion, and how he could ha’ done it with the night as
-black as pitch, and the snow falling, and the roads hedge-deep in
-snow, is what the folk are all asking themselves. They saw him start,
-but no one saw him come back, but sure enough when they went to unbar
-their doors this morning there were the tracks of a horse up the
-street. A fine boy, they say. It’s fortunate he hasn’t taken after his
-Uncle Olver.”
-
-“Yes,” said Clare.
-
-“It’s my opinion, madam, I don’t know if it’s yours too,--that people
-like that have no business to get children. ’Tisn’t fair, as a matter
-of conscience, when you don’t know what dark blood you may be handing
-on. Anybody has only got to look at the Lovels to know there’s no good
-in them,--well, they ought to restrain themselves, that’s what I say.”
-
-Seeing that Clare did not reply, Mrs. Quince resumed after a moment,
-“There always were things about those Lovels that weren’t natural. Now
-here’s another thing: how did he ride from King’s Avon to Marlborough
-and back on a night like last night, if something unholy wasn’t in
-league with him? No other man in the village could have done it, and
-there’s not many that would have tried. No, let the baby go, they’d
-have said, and the woman too, if need be. And he’s always out on those
-hills; if he had to go after sheep there would be some sense in it, but
-he just goes straying alone when most men are glad enough to keep their
-fireside. He’s been seen on the top of White Horse Hill, in the middle
-of a blizzard fit to cut you in half. And I have heard it told, that
-after he’s passed by, the Grey Wethers have been found uncovered; yes,
-even though they were at the bottom of the deepest drift there they’ll
-be, sticking up black in the middle of the snow.”
-
-“You can’t believe everything you’re told, Mrs. Quince.”
-
-“Well, that’s as it may be, madam. All the same, I stick to it that
-there is something unholy about those Lovels; it’s easy to say the
-younger one is daft, but there’s nothing daft about Nicholas,--far from
-it. So why does he look so dark and queer? and why must he pass on his
-sly Egyptian blood to an English girl? if he must get children, let him
-get them on one of his own sort, that’s what I say.”
-
-Here Calladine came in.
-
-“Secrets?” he asked in his most urbane manner, seeing Mrs. Quince
-become silent in the midst of garrulity.
-
-“No,” said Clare. “Mrs. Quince was telling me that Lovel’s wife has had
-a son, and that Lovel had to go to Marlborough in the middle of the
-night to fetch the doctor.”
-
-“Dear me, that’s a daring, uncomfortable thing to do,” said Calladine,
-smiling in a patronising way.
-
-“Yes,” said Clare, looking at him. “Not many people would have cared
-for the job, I think.”
-
-Calladine laughed negligently.
-
-“You always had a weakness for your poacher,” he replied.
-
-“Would you be wanting me any more, madam?” enquired Mrs. Quince.
-
-“If Lovel’s wife is in need of anything I can send her, please let me
-know, Mrs. Quince.”
-
-“Yes, madam. Very good of you, madam.”
-
-When the housekeeper had left the room, Calladine said, “I never
-question your actions, as you know, Clare, but do you think it
-judicious to encourage these people? The woman was married not very
-long before ourselves, yet she already gives birth to a baby; the man
-is well-known as an undesirable in the whole neighbourhood.”
-
-Clare went up to him. “Oh, Richard,” she cried gaily, “are they worth
-talking about any longer?” She pushed him down into his armchair and
-knelt at his feet. “What are we going to do to-day, tell me?”
-
-“To do?” repeated Calladine in surprise. “Why, what is there that
-we could possibly do on a day like this? What a restless spirit it
-is--always crying out to be up and doing--when I am quite content if I
-may sit and look into your eyes.”
-
-“That’s very pretty, Richard, but it doesn’t mean much; don’t you ever
-want to be out, moving, riding, anything! anything but sit cooped
-indoors day after day with books?”
-
-“I confess I haven’t much desire to be riding into snow-drifts on this
-particular morning,” said Calladine, glancing at the white-and-leaden
-prospect out of the window.
-
-“And you wouldn’t allow me to do so either, if I had a mind to?”
-
-“Such a wild child!” said Calladine fondly, stroking her hair. “How
-fortunate that you should have a staid, elderly husband to look after
-you.”
-
-“How do you think I looked after myself for nineteen years, then,
-Richard?”
-
-“Heaven knows,” said Calladine in mock dismay; banter with Clare was
-a form of conversation he particularly enjoyed. The morning promised
-to pass agreeably; there was nothing he liked better than for Clare
-to kneel at his feet, as she was doing now, sitting back on her
-heels, while he looked at her fresh youthfulness with that fond and
-tender glance of his, and rallied her gently, or caressed her with
-the courtly phrases she had heard from him alone among men. “How
-_did_ you look after yourself?” he repeated. “You always escaped from
-old Martha Sparrow, and even the poacher cannot always have been at
-hand for a ready rescue, and in any case he is scarcely my idea of a
-knight-errant.”
-
-“No,” said Clare, “he hasn’t such pretty manners as you, Richard.”
-
-“Now you’re laughing at me,--are you, or aren’t you? I never know,” and
-he caught her to him and began flecking her face and hair with quick
-kisses, but desisted to say more seriously, “You’re so exquisitely a
-woman, Clare, so deliciously a child; I realised that you were both
-from the day you first came to visit me here.”
-
-The phrase had a vague echo of familiarity for Clare; “so exquisitely
-a woman”; she felt sure that she had heard him say that, or something
-very like it, before; and she thought with the hardness that was
-becoming habitual to her where he was concerned, that from no woman
-would he demand anything further.
-
-“What a toy I am to you, Richard,” she said idly; “what a toy you like
-to make of me.”
-
-“The most exquisite toy that ever came into the life of a sad and
-lonely man,” he said, with a return to his old manner, and he took her
-hand and began to play with the bangle on her wrist. He handled her
-much as he would handle his terra-cotta statuettes, and for a while she
-endured it, but presently sprang away and went to stand at the window
-where she might look out upon the prospect of shining snow.
-
-“Always looking out, Clare? what liberty do you see out there? you
-think I ought to let you go, little caged bird, but you would soon
-perish,--your pretty limbs wouldn’t stand the cold,--better stay
-happily where you are, believe me,--don’t fret,--come back to me,--let
-me whisper how precious you are,--come back to our lovely idleness.”
-
-“But I don’t like idleness, Richard; no use pretending I do; you should
-not have married some one so restless as I.” His hands were upon her
-shoulders; she wanted to shake them off.
-
-“Did the poacher ...” began Calladine.
-
-“Ah, leave Lovel alone,” she cried; “what impels you to speak of him
-this morning? Leave him alone, with his wife and his baby; they can
-very well look after themselves without any interest from us.”
-
-“But, Clare, Mrs. Quince was speaking of them; it’s only natural that
-my thoughts should continue to run in that direction; and even you
-yourself....”
-
-“You’re fascinated by the subject of Lovel,” she said, whirling
-round on him, “now, aren’t you? own to it. You always bring him in:
-the Downs, the circus, and now his baby,--everything’s an excuse
-for bringing in Lovel. And why? Is it because he took me out of the
-circus-tent that night? is it because I rode with him? why not speak
-out what’s at the back of your mind?”
-
-“But, Clare, Clare! why so fierce and challenging suddenly? there’s
-nothing at the back of my mind.” (“There is,” she thought, “and you too
-great a coward to face it out.”) “Come now, don’t let us quarrel and we
-won’t speak of Lovel if it offends you,--will that satisfy you?”
-
-“It’s of no importance whether we speak of a man in the village or
-not,” she said, turning away and hunching her shoulders.
-
-They went back to sit by the fire, a bulk of hostility unspoken
-between them. Calladine felt peevish; his indolent, graceful, vaguely
-amorous morning had been spoilt; and spoilt by what? by the presence
-of Lovel. “You’ve never yet shaken off that lean rogue,” he broke
-out once, sudden and querulous after a spell of silence. They both
-sat staring into the fire, separate as they could be. They had not
-previously spoken of Lovel, not directly, not insistently; only to
-range round him with that nagging, niggling hesitation that seemed to
-pull at Calladine. But now his presence blocked every other road of
-conversation; he got in the way, he was near, he could not be got rid
-of. Almost, he was in the room.
-
-Calladine looked at Clare; fair and slight, delicate even, but so
-unafraid. A touch, and she was instantly up and all-daring. She kindled
-at a spark. What was it that she and Lovel had in common? the same
-apparent frailty of body, the same flame of spirit,--Calladine had all
-the lyricism to clothe his perceptions with words. He had apprehended
-Lovel; on the rare occasion when he had seen him, he had apprehended
-him fully, to his own disquietude. And he apprehended Clare and
-their resemblance, with pain and resentment. They were two fine and
-vulnerable things, he thought; vulnerable and brave. But he thought it
-with only half of his brain, the lyrical, romantic half; with the other
-half he was peevish and irritated.
-
-If only they were not so silent; Clare had never faltered or
-complained. Only she had wanted to go out; she had looked out of the
-window with a kind of homesickness. He was always catching her eyes
-at their straying, and being made aware how far removed she was from
-himself. But this, again, had been with half of his brain; with the
-other half he had known that she was his wife and that he had got her
-under his roof. And he had not allowed his lyrical self to call her a
-prisoner.
-
-What if she were to escape? He would be without persuasion or authority.
-
-“You stay with me out of apathy,” he cried. “If once your fancy
-changed, you would be gone.”
-
-Clare, who had not been thinking of him, turned a mild glance of slight
-attention on him. He was glaring at her, frightened and angry.
-
-“Yes,” he continued, “I don’t hold you; you’re kind to me, and you
-indulge my game of pretence. But you’re not really here. You’re
-indulgent to me as if I were a child,--‘yes, dear, very nice,’ between
-your own, grown-up preoccupations. But you ought to remember that I am
-your husband,” he said.
-
-“When have I forgotten it?”
-
-He sulked. It was true she had not forgotten it. He had no reproaches
-against her; she had been patient, gentle.
-
-“I don’t hold you,” he grumbled.
-
-It was a long time since she had seen him like this; usually he was
-assertive and complacent. How slight a thing it took to disturb him!
-His complacency was only a façade, a painted hoarding propped up by
-struts,--theatrical, like everything else about him. But she really
-bothered very little with him, now that she had found him out.
-
-“Oh, yes, Richard,” she said, to pacify him and to be done with the
-argument.
-
-“But I say no,” he cried, hitting his fist on the arm of his chair.
-“You’re for ever looking out of the window, and sometimes when I speak
-to you, you answer beside the point. I married you to get a wife, not a
-woman languishing like a captive in my house.”
-
-She laughed at that, quite amusedly, and he felt he had been foolish.
-Still he would not abandon his point.
-
-“That fellow would only have to beckon ...” he grumbled.
-
-“Lovel again?” asked Clare.
-
-“You enjoy saying his name.”
-
-“I do not,” said Clare quietly.
-
-“No,” he said, staring at her, “perhaps you do not.”
-
-Perhaps she did not. Perhaps the very name was pain to her. But he must
-go wrangling on at her.
-
-“Lovel wouldn’t keep you indoors, perhaps you think.--He would let you
-out into the snow,--take you out into it himself perhaps.”
-
-She only looked at him. He went on, more judicial now; deliberate, less
-blatantly bad-tempered.
-
-“Yet, after all, I don’t know why you hold such a good opinion of
-this fellow Lovel. He sticks to no trade,--he gets a country girl
-into trouble and has to marry her,--not a very creditable record, it
-seems to me.” He was leaning back in his chair, with his finger-tips
-together. “And, judging by his stock, he has no right to beget
-sons,--better if he did not associate with women at all,--such people
-should be allowed to die out.”
-
-“So Mrs. Quince was saying. Perhaps he feels the same himself,” said
-Clare in a contained voice.
-
-“It looks like it! a child born after four months of marriage. I
-am bound to say, my dear, your suggestion isn’t very convincing.
-But there, what should you know of the lusts of these country young
-men? Animals, merely. Forgive me if I seem self-righteous. I feel
-strongly,--very strongly.” He leaned forward and patted her. “You can
-understand that I don’t like to think of my Clare contaminated by such
-company.”
-
-“You mean Lovel?”
-
-“Most certainly I mean Lovel.--Why do you look at me so darkly, Clare?”
-
-“Did I look at you darkly? I didn’t mean to. My thoughts were far away.”
-
-“And where....”
-
-“Ah, Richard, mayn’t I have my thoughts to myself?”
-
-“By all means, Clare. I hope, my dear, that no one has ever accused
-me of being a tyrant. Of course your thoughts are your own.--But you
-don’t resent, do you, the things I have been saying of Lovel?”
-
-“I am only tired of the whole subject.”
-
-“Yes,--of course,--naturally,--I quite understand that. Mrs. Quince is
-an old gossip. I must tell her that it really doesn’t interest you to
-be informed every time a woman in the village has a baby. It doesn’t
-does it?”
-
-“No, of course not,--but don’t say anything to Mrs. Quince, I beg you.”
-
-“But I can’t have my wife bothered by my old gossip of a housekeeper. I
-daresay she meant it well, thinking you were interested in Lovel.”
-
-“Richard, please,--let us leave Lovel now,--I shall begin to scream if
-I hear his name mentioned again, I warn you.”
-
-“Clare. You try to joke, but the idea of saying that wouldn’t come into
-your head if there were not some truth in it.”
-
-“Well, I told you I was tired of the subject.”
-
-“You are talking now like an irritable woman.”
-
-“Am I? But I _am_ a woman, and not a man, and therefore I daresay as
-irritable as all other women.”
-
-“You mean that men can be every whit as irritable,--myself, for
-example.”
-
-“Now you are putting words into my mouth that I never said. Is it a
-guilty conscience, Richard?”
-
-“You persist in joking when I want you to be serious!”
-
-“Oh, Richard, what a childish conversation. Instead of sitting here and
-talking, let us....”
-
-“Well, what? Let us what?”
-
-“Nothing, I’ve thought better of it.”
-
-“Let us go out, you were going to say. Always the same folly! Have you
-any idea of the depth of the snow? Out, indeed!”
-
-“I never said it.”
-
-“No, but you thought it.--Ah, if I say that, you will ask again if you
-mayn’t have your thoughts to yourself. There are moments when I don’t
-know how to deal with you, Clare.” He knew his own injustice, but his
-querulous jealousy pricked him on. “Any other woman would be content to
-sit by her own fireside this bitter day with the man she had married so
-short a time ago.”
-
-“Four months,--getting on for half a year.”
-
-“I see,--you have found the time long. If you entered a little more
-into my interests, instead of having your own thoughts to yourself so
-much, my dear, perhaps you would find it pass quicker, and it would be
-more companionable.”
-
-Clare thought that he looked at her almost with hatred. She was herself
-too indifferent to be interested either one way or the other.
-
-“I shall be glad when this accursed snow is melted and gone,” he added,
-“and you will perhaps be a little less restless.”
-
-At that moment Mrs. Quince came in, looking perturbed.
-
-“There is Olver Lovel downstairs, madam, asking to see you,--I didn’t
-know what to say,--he seems so bent upon it,--but he looks like a
-scarecrow, that he does, with his coat torn and his hat stove in, and
-bits of straw all over him as though he had spent the night sleeping in
-a barn.”
-
-Clare rose.
-
-“Where is he, Mrs. Quince?”
-
-Calladine started forward with a detaining hand.
-
-“No, Clare, you can’t see this man,--let me speak to him first,--at
-least it’s not right, not safe, for you to see him.”
-
-“And he says he must speak to Mrs. Calladine alone, sir,” Mrs. Quince
-put in.
-
-“Of course I shall see him,” said Clare.
-
-Calladine grew agitated. “Mrs. Quince, you need not wait; please leave
-the room. Now, Clare, understand: it is against my wishes that you see
-this man. Let me go down and find out what he wants, and then if I find
-that he is quiet and reasonable I will allow you to interview him in my
-presence. He has probably come to beg, in which case I can give him a
-few shillings as well as you can, and send him away.”
-
-Clare faced him. “Please let me pass, Richard; I am sorry to do
-anything against your wishes, but I intend to speak to Olver,--and
-alone.”
-
-“Let me make myself quite clear: it is not only against my wishes, but,
-since my wishes fail to touch you, also against my orders.”
-
-“I am sorry, Richard, but I mean what I said.”
-
-He blustered; she remained quiet; in their first encounter he was no
-match for her.
-
-“You disobey me deliberately, then?”
-
-“This is a case in which I must use my own judgment.”
-
-“You will not expect me to receive you back into my favour afterwards.”
-
-She smiled a little.
-
-“Really, Richard, I am afraid I must take the risk of that.”
-
-“Go, then,” he said, stepping dramatically aside, “go, in direct
-defiance.” Still he did not quite expect her to flout his authority,
-and remained amazed when she passed him and went swiftly out of the
-room.
-
-Left to himself, he made a movement to follow her, but drew back. Let
-her go, to her Lovels and her secret life: he had never really held
-her. Let her go, to the summons which had come, and to which she had
-so instantly responded. He himself, from the moment Olver Lovel’s name
-had been pronounced, had dwindled to nullity; he had ceased, on the
-spot, to exist for her. All these months, she had lived with him, a
-stranger, away from her kind. And he recalled Mrs. Quince’s description
-of Olver,--“he looks like a scarecrow, that he does,”--this emissary
-from Nicholas Lovel to his, Calladine’s wife.
-
-Calladine strode up and down the room. She was downstairs now with
-Olver; what was he saying to her? What was in the future, haunted by
-the presence of Lovel as the past had never been? How should they
-ever get rid of Lovel now, standing between them? That uncomfortable
-presence of Lovel in the past, at which Calladine had pecked and
-nagged, was nothing to his dominion over the future. Surely he had been
-mad not to take Clare’s acquaintance with the poacher as a matter of
-course? mad to harass her as he had harassed her that morning? By his
-own folly he had created the spectre, the giant, of the situation. He
-strode up and down, hitting fist against palm in his vexation. Then he
-grew afraid; what if the poacher should not restrict his poaching to
-game alone? What if he should entice Clare by the occult powers with
-which the countryside credited him? Occult powers, or human powers, it
-was all one. Calladine felt his helplessness; he was weak, wordy, he
-could be set aside. They would set him aside, those two.
-
-He was an ill-used man. Self-pity nearly brought tears to his eyes.
-Life used him ill: first the woman who had fooled him, now Clare.
-Clare’s kindness to him had been a dalliance, while she had nothing
-better to do; it had evaporated at the mention of a name. He hated
-her, he hated Lovel, he hated the Downs and the snow. Glittering and
-cold, without compromise; he did not understand the Downs and the
-winter, but Clare and Lovel understood them. What was Olver saying to
-Clare? Calladine felt his life finished; and through his perfectly
-genuine anguish he did not fail to perceive the romantic value of his
-situation. He fell into a chair, and remained there with his legs
-extended as he gazed despondently on the floor before him.
-
-Clare would tell him nothing. He foresaw that, and his foresight
-was justified. She came back, immeasurably far removed from him. He
-wanted to ignore her return, to remain stiff with dignity, but it was
-not long before his curiosity weakened him. “Well, you are not very
-communicative. I see that you have no desire to make amends for the
-distress you have caused me. Was the poacher’s message, then, too
-sacred,--too personal,--to be imparted to me?”
-
-Clare’s eyes, when she turned them on him, were narrowed with pain.
-
-“Richard, must you ask me questions now? I have come back to you; I ask
-you only to leave me to myself.”
-
-But that was precisely what he could not do.
-
-“You ask a good deal, don’t you, in asking that? I see you white and
-shaken, yet I am not to know the cause. You ask a good deal of my
-forbearance, indeed. I am not to know what messages another man sends
-you. I am not to know what is going on, nearly under my nose, but kept
-away from me. I am to be defied by my wife, and then kept in ignorance
-by her. This is the state of affairs we have come to in one short
-morning! What has happened to us? it bewilders me.... I insist upon
-knowing,--I _will_ know,--has that half-wit come to you with a message
-from his brother?”
-
-“No,” said Clare.
-
-“How you have to force even that one monosyllable from your lips!
-What, he came on his own initiative? Clare, you are not speaking the
-truth.--Yes, I am sure you are; I beg your pardon. You distract me by
-your coldness. Clare, forgive me, I scarcely knew what I was saying.”
-
-“Don’t touch me,” said Clare, recoiling, “for pity’s sake don’t touch
-me now.”
-
-“I am a very unhappy man,” said Calladine, falling again into his
-chair and taking his head between his hands. “I am indeed an unhappy
-man,--what am I to do with my life?”
-
-He remained for some time with his head sunk between his hands, then,
-glancing up to see what effect his attitude might have had upon Clare,
-he found her gazing out of the window.
-
-“I see,--you forget my very presence,” he said reproachfully, and his
-sense of injury was doubled. But because his distress was genuine,
-although he could not refrain from rhetoric, he followed her across the
-room in a tormented way, and tried to see into her face. “Clare, speak
-to me; I am not angry, only unhappy. There is something now in your
-mind which I do not share; you live in a half-hour which is secret from
-me.--Or have you always,” he cried suddenly, “lived in hours I knew
-nothing of?”
-
-Mrs. Quince peeped in through the door.
-
-“Ah, that’s good,” she said in a relieved tone; “I wasn’t easy so long
-as I thought Mrs. Calladine was with that scamp,” and she retired.
-
-“Even the servants, you see, Clare, are concerned for you.”
-
-“Mrs. Quince, far from being concerned,” Clare said, returning briefly
-to a consciousness of Calladine and of the house that held her, “is
-full of delight.”
-
-“Clare, these bitter words from you! you are changed indeed, or am I
-seeing you as you are for the first time? I begin to look back at these
-four months as at a long delusion; I am utterly bewildered. You are
-withdrawn to an unbelievable distance from me; I feel it, yet I cannot
-say what has taken place. This morning, we were close to one another;
-we were, as it seemed, enclosed by our little room, leisured, snug,
-sheltered; now, I am striving to reach you, and am held off.” His words
-beat without meaning against Clare’s isolation; she could not emerge at
-all from the tumult of the terrible scene she had endured from Olver.
-She looked, indeed, at Calladine, intently, as though she were trying
-to bring herself back to the importance of his world, but her eyes were
-empty.
-
-The day dragged away; Calladine continued to clamour fitfully. He could
-not leave her alone, and, though she clearly suffered, he, perverse,
-must torment her. By adding to her pain, he added to his own, but could
-not desist. She answered him very little; a negative, an affirmative
-now and then, was all he could get from her; for her part, all that she
-wished was that his voice might cease, so that she might have a lull,
-a silence, alone with her own mind. Yet it seemed to her that she had,
-indeed, a silence at the core of her being, still and inviolate against
-his ineffectual clamour, like the stillness in the heart of a cyclone,
-where birds poise and sing. At this core, this kernel, this patch of
-peace, she dwelt apart; Lovel was there, and so was Olver, Olver with
-the urgent hands and fanatical eyes, passing from Lovel to her and
-from her to Lovel, almost crushing them up against one another by the
-force of his urgency, Olver’s determination was like a menace, becoming
-almost malevolent by virtue of its very violence. He overwhelmed, he
-terrified her; she had nothing but weak refusal; she had tried to push
-him away with hands that had no strength in them. She had covered
-her eyes, but he had forced away her hands; she had shut her ears,
-but he had screamed past her defences. It was easy to remain deaf to
-Calladine’s whining; it had been impossible to shut out the ferocity
-of Olver’s attack. And yet, in spite of the din, she was aware of
-that core of silence, in which she and Lovel were, with Olver rushing
-between.
-
-She and Calladine, Lovel and Daisy, there they were, the four of them,
-all separate; and Olver, like a firebrand, a trail of fire, working
-between them. They might have had some control, the four, but for this
-crazy creature, obsessed by the one idea, not to be reasoned with. He
-was the incalculable element; he made the others helpless, taking their
-intentions out of their hands and throwing them away.
-
-The danger of Olver,--what if he should see Calladine? What if he
-should irrupt into the room and shout irreparable words before she had
-time to stop him? The danger of Olver,--what had he said to Lovel?
-what to Lovel’s wife? But Calladine and Lovel’s wife alike remained
-insignificant; she and Lovel were the two full of meaning, shut up with
-the wild, charging Olver in their core of silence.
-
-Vaguely somewhere, she was sorry for Calladine, but he was
-insignificant; she could not pause to consider him; where she and Lovel
-came together, he faded into that poor wisp drained of blood, that he
-had dwindled to on the evening of the circus fire, when she and Lovel
-had stood together on the embankment. They shed him; he slipped off,
-and only his noise reached them intermittently, scarcely troublesome.
-
-Daisy herself was less unreal than Calladine; Daisy knew suffering too,
-Clare supposed; in a clumsy, common way she knew it; blundering, but
-human; yes, she could be sorry for the other woman.
-
-But they must be sacrificed, the two, Calladine and Daisy, if matters
-came to a head; sacrificed to the blazing reality of herself and Lovel.
-
-Would Olver come again? Would he leave her alone now? Would he give her
-a chance to forget the words he had spoken? some of them remained, rang
-in her head, brassy, like beaten gongs; fell on her like big sparks
-from an anvil, burning. It had been a strange experience, to hear Olver
-voice the passion that had upreared itself, always mute, in Lovel.
-
-Olver came again. He came like an avenging angel, inspired, the crazed
-creature, by the urgency of his message. Like a reproachful angel he
-came to rebuke her, grotesquely disguised in his scarecrow travesty;
-the beauty of his selflessness shone through the ramshackle of his
-appearance. She scarcely knew whether to find him pathetic or alarming;
-she wanted to pity, she could only be disturbed; he disturbed her to
-the darkest places of her soul. The fixity of his idea, the strength
-of his purpose, his devotion, his anger, raised his simplicity to the
-plane of nobleness. She could not answer him; she was abashed before
-him.
-
-She was afraid of him, his image pursued her, his upraised hand
-denouncing her, his eyes and tongue pouring scorn upon her. At moments
-he seemed like fate itself, like a thing she could not escape from.
-She never knew at what hour of the day he would come, so all day,
-sometimes for two or three days on end, she waited, dreading and
-longing for his coming. She could have refused to see him, but had not
-the strength; but when she must crush Calladine’s protests, then she
-had strength in plenty.
-
-The snow lay deeper than ever, after another heavy fall, upon the
-Downs, but although still a prisoner her restlessness had left her:
-the life she had wanted came now to her from without. Olver brought
-that life; he brought tumult, anguish, but it was life that he brought,
-besieging her. And although he was not Lovel’s envoy, still it was
-straight from Lovel that he came. His eyes, as they flamed on Clare,
-an hour earlier had been filled with Lovel; she could fancy Lovel’s
-image still lingering in them. And after he had left her, it was to
-Lovel’s presence that he would return; he would hear Lovel’s voice and
-see Lovel’s hands, that so haunted her. Once she broke her silence to
-ask about Lovel, “What does he do, these days of snow? does he get out?
-stay at home?” and Olver answered, “To-day he has been twisting new
-snares, and last night he brought home a lamb that still lies by our
-fire.”
-
-She knew that an end must come; beleaguered, she knew that. She had
-pushed life away, but it had followed her, even into her retreat. It
-was useless; Calladine was not life; his need of her had not been life.
-He was a shadow, a man of pretence, sufficient to himself, with his
-own pretences for company. It was only the true solitaries, the really
-lonely people, like Lovel, who had absolute need of their chosen loves.
-The strong, clamping loves, that fastened on to one another, to lose
-their hold only when they lost their hold on life; the unalterable,
-ordained loves. She could not justify the argument; her selfishness
-towards Calladine remained unjustified. But she knew that that would
-not weigh with her; she and Lovel would reach one another when the day
-came, even through a stone wall.
-
-Still she could not justify it. She tried to, perfunctorily. She sat
-frowning, and saying the words over to herself. Selfishness, duty.
-They remained mere words; she could not feel them in her blood, as
-she felt her need for Lovel and Lovel’s need for her; they were words
-pitted against instinct. Was it love, that need? Was it no more than
-that ordinary miracle, love? She thought that it was more. They had
-the Downs as a bond between them; the Downs, and all nature, of which
-Lovel seemed the spirit, the incarnation. He was the darkness of the
-Downs, their threat, their solitude, their intractability; she was
-their light, their windiness, their sunlit flanks, their springiness of
-turf. United, they formed a whole. There was an essential significance
-in Lovel, as there was an essential insignificance in Calladine.
-
-Olver seemed to know these things; he had an untutored insight.
-Calladine seemed to know them too, but that was less surprising; with
-his subtle, lyrical mind he might well be expected to apprehend, and
-apprehending, to drape in wordiness; to give a name; to illuminate
-blind impulse by giving a name. Poor Calladine; she watched him,
-detached, as he rambled from discovery to definition, tormenting
-himself by the beauty of his own phrasing. At moments he viewed them,
-herself and Lovel, as a spectator, losing himself in the romanticism he
-wove around them; recalled to the fact that it was his own wife of whom
-he spoke, he relapsed into the gloom and terror of his pain. For he
-lived in terror, impotent terror. And Clare watched him, living herself
-in her hours with Olver and in her consciousness of Lovel.
-
-
-There was the little round mirror she had given to Olver. He always
-brought it with him; he told her, chuckling, and tapping its bright
-surface with his finger, that he could see her in it even when she was
-not present. She did not believe this, but still she half believed it.
-“Look into it now,” he said, thrusting it under her eyes, “and you
-will see Nicholas.” She shrank back, afraid; he could not persuade her
-to look into it, he could not even deride her into looking into it.
-“You don’t believe me, yet you won’t look,” he said, “but if you don’t
-believe me, why then won’t you look?” He was for ever daring her to
-look into it, to find the image of Nicholas. She would not; she did not
-believe in the magical properties of the mirror, yet nothing would
-induce her to glance into its queer convexity. “I watched the circus in
-this, the night Nicholas took you out of the tent,” he said, and she
-wondered whether he knew how bound to Lovel she had felt herself that
-night; “I watched Nicholas’ wedding in this; I looked in this at him
-and Daisy sitting in the kitchen. Look into it now,” he said, offering
-it to her again: “maybe you’ll see Daisy nursing her baby; maybe you’ll
-see Nicholas twisting snares; maybe you’ll see him riding up on White
-Horse Hill, alone, in the snow.”
-
-“Do you remember what I told you once?” he said to her another time,
-“that Nicholas could bring you out to him, even at midnight, if he gave
-his mind to it?”
-
-She wondered how long this strange period would last; she was not even
-impatient; the core of peace and silence within her lay so certain, so
-quiet, that she dwelt already as it were serene in the fulfilment of
-herself and Lovel.
-
-Calladine came to her door to find it locked against him. He shook the
-handle. “Clare! it is I.” A wild winter night; the wind blew along the
-passage, lifting the loose matting on the floor, the gas-jet on the
-stair flickered and below the well of the staircase was dark. “Clare!”
-said Calladine again, shaking the handle.
-
-Her voice within answered him, faint, shut away.
-
-“Yes, I am here; I am in bed.”
-
-She was there! the house contained her at least; she had not fled.
-
-“Let me come in, Clare.”
-
-A long pause, and then her voice again.
-
-“I cannot, Richard.”
-
-“You have locked me out?”
-
-“I am sorry, Richard; I can’t let you in.”
-
-He stood irresolute. Then he started shaking the door, frightened by
-its wooden resistance. Still she did not come to open, she remained
-hard to him, did not even pray him to desist. He ceased his useless
-shaking and began to plead with her, tears in his voice, humiliating
-himself. She made no answer. He went away, down into the sitting-room,
-where the embers of the fire still gleamed red between the bars. “I
-gave her everything,” he whispered, looking round upon the comfort of
-the room. Upstairs, she lay in her bed, soft and sweet and indifferent
-as he had always known her,--lost to him. He went over to the window
-and looked out; the masses of the clouds flew before the wind, so
-that the stars seen between the rifts seemed to be rushing across
-heaven. Starvecrow lay beneath them, small and lonely. A hatred of
-the place overcame him. “I shall take her away,” he muttered; “we
-will go to London.” And he saw her a fleeting figure, hurrying down
-straight narrow London streets, her footsteps that were used to the
-short turf ringing forlornly along the pavement. He pitied her in the
-midst of his anger and frustration: surely in London she would droop
-and pine. But she must be the one to suffer now; it was her turn; he
-had suffered enough. He could not run the risk of leaving her among
-these open hills, in league with the Lovels,--even now that crazy boy,
-that wild scarecrow figure, might be frisking beneath the windows.
-His wife, linked with those dark people,--so linked, that she was and
-always had been a stranger to him. Misery drove him to superstition:
-there was a kinship between the Lovels and the country, witchcraft and
-legend, the crazy boy, the sarsen stones, the ancient sacrifices, Lovel
-the vagabond poacher, the wayward shepherd, his immunity from cold or
-fatigue,--all these things ran together in Calladine’s unhappy head.
-
-And Clare, what place had she among them? she was the country in its
-loveliness, the running brooks, the soaring birds, the sheep-bells, the
-dew, the distance, the manifold music.
-
-He would take her away. Next day, he told her so, challenging her
-refusal. And although she neither refused, nor, indeed, made any
-answer, he insisted on the point, growing noisy in his insistence.
-“We shall leave this place, do you hear? We shall go, we shall take
-the railroad to London.” But London must be an empty sound to her,
-he thought, whose world was the Downs. “The city of London,” he
-emphasised, seeing the streets, the squares, the endless houses,--a
-maze of streets, in which she would lose herself, seeking in vain the
-way out. He looked at her with hatred; there, in London, where he
-would feel himself at home, he would at last get the better of her, be
-revenged upon her for all the pain she had made him endure; there, she
-would be the bewildered stranger, and not he; perhaps she would even
-cling to him for reassurance, and he would mock at her in her distress,
-and spurn her, over and over again, until she crept broken at his heels.
-
-Then, seeing her so pale and fragile, he was remorseful, and fell on
-his knees beside her, crying, “Forgive me, Clare.”
-
-She sat with him after dinner in their room. He was not restive,
-that evening; his panics overtook him only periodically; sometimes
-he appeared to regain all his old confidence. Olver had not troubled
-Starvecrow for several days, and Calladine readily forgot. He was
-standing now by his bookcase, lovingly shifting the volumes; his touch
-slipped like velvet over the frail old leather; delicately he fluttered
-over the pages. Clare could even find it in her heart to envy him,
-life to her came so rough and violent, to him so veiled and mellowed,
-always, so to speak, at second-hand. He murmured to himself over his
-books, or was it to her that he addressed his murmurings? how real
-was her presence to him? was she more real than those fugitive terra
-cotta nymphs of his? was she perhaps less real? as lovely, but more
-troublesome? a nymph that would not stay there quiet on her stand, but
-whose draperies were blown by the wild wind from outside, and whose
-feet stirred mutinous towards escape? Still he murmured over his books,
-without that uneasy glance which meant that he was afraid of losing
-her; he had forgotten, for the moment; it was providential how easily
-he forgot, his excitability easily roused, and almost as easily abated.
-
-But as for her, an oppression was on her, an exaltation. She rose.
-“Richard, I am going to the door to look at the night; don’t come; it’s
-cold outside.”
-
-He was startled, but he had known her do this before, and he had no
-desire to leave his books or the warmth of the room. “Take a coat,” he
-said. She went up to him and kissed him lightly. He patted her shoulder
-with affection, and watched her cross the room to the door. “Graceful
-... graceful,” he murmured to himself in appreciation, turning again to
-his shelves.
-
-Clare passed downstairs to the hall. She moved as though her feet did
-not touch earth. With a fur cloak thrown round her, she opened the door
-and stepped out into the night, closing the door again behind her. The
-Downs were there, white in the starlight. Overhead, in a black sky,
-blazed the constellations, not yet sunk from the splendour of winter:
-Orion, low in the west, the splendid Plough, and Sirius, single and
-more brilliant than the rest. Clare passed down the dark path, swept
-clear of snow, to the little gate; at the gate the dark shape of a man
-came forward to meet her; it was Lovel.
-
-“I knew you would be here,” she said without surprise.
-
-“I have not been before,” he answered.
-
-“No,” she replied, “I knew that.”
-
-There was a little silence.
-
-“Will you come with me now?” he said.
-
-“What, out on the Downs?” she asked, trying to see his face through the
-darkness.
-
-“Well, we belong there, don’t we?” he said patiently.
-
-“Then what has kept us apart, I wonder?” she said. She wondered
-genuinely; their union seemed so large and simple. “Yes, I will come,”
-she added then.
-
-“I have tried not to come to you, Clare,” said Lovel. “The child is not
-mine, you know,” he went on.
-
-“I know; Olver told me. But what does it matter? Shall we go?”
-
-He followed her through the gate, and they took the track up on to the
-Downs.
-
-
-Three days later Calladine rode into King’s Avon, turning in at the
-Manor House gates at the slow walk which had been his pace for the
-whole three miles of his journey. He rode slackly and without interest,
-letting his horse stumble; even the instinctive check on the reins
-seemed to have deserted him. He gave his horse to William Baskett, who
-ran out from the stables, and, laying his gloves and crop on the bench
-in the hall, trod wearily into Mr. Warrener’s presence. The old man
-was surprised and delighted to see him. “My dear Calladine,--my dear
-Richard, fancy your riding over in this snowy weather,--why, I thought
-you scarcely stirred out of doors. And what brings you?” He peered
-closer. “Dear me, there’s surely nothing the matter?”
-
-“Clare has left me,” said Calladine. The phrase had been in his head
-for three days now. It was a relief to him to pronounce it at last
-aloud. “She has gone away with young Lovel.”
-
-“But I don’t understand,” said Mr. Warrener. “Left you? gone away with
-young Lovel? The shepherd fellow? But why? where have they gone to?
-what for?”
-
-Calladine raised his hands and let them fall again with a gesture of
-hopelessness,--the hopelessness of explaining to Mr. Warrener. Yet in a
-way he relished lacerating himself with the explanation.
-
-“Clare and the shepherd fellow,” he said, “are lovers. Yes, it is as
-I tell you. They have been lovers for many months, perhaps for many
-years. They were in the habit of meeting on the Downs,--I don’t know
-how often,--frequently,--perhaps every day. I can’t tell. Since Clare
-has been married to me they had not, so far as I know, met at all. She
-has only seen Lovel’s brother,--the simpleton. He has come over to
-Starvecrow to see her. I don’t know what he has said to her. I can only
-suppose that he engineered their meeting. All I can tell you is that
-three evenings ago she went out, as she said, to look at the night, and
-has not since returned.”
-
-“Three evenings ago!” exclaimed Warrener. “But I knew nothing of all
-this.”
-
-“No,” said Calladine wearily, “I gave strict orders that you were not
-to be told. I thought she would come back, you see. But as she has not
-come back, I cannot keep it a secret from you any longer. We must take
-some action, I suppose, if you think it necessary. Or shall we leave
-them to themselves. If any one is capable of looking after her, Lovel
-is the man. And he knows the Downs,--they both know the Downs,--surely
-the Downs wouldn’t hurt them?”
-
-Mr. Warrener took no notice of this pitiable cry wrung suddenly out of
-his anxiety.
-
-“Of course we must search for them,” he said, frightened and bewildered
-and angry. “But,--really this is a most extraordinary story,--how do
-you _know_ she has gone with young Lovel? Clare!” he said, indignant,
-“whom I trusted to wander about at will,--to deceive me in this
-fashion!--but she never came to any harm, whilst she was under my
-care,--no, not until _you_ were responsible for her. Upon my word, sir,
-you’ve fulfilled your charge very badly,--what excuse have you to give
-to me?”
-
-“You let her grow up into a wild thing,--the blame’s with you as much
-as with me,--and as to responsibility, she’s my wife even if she _is_
-your daughter.”
-
-“Well, well,” said Mr. Warrener, relapsing into his customary mildness,
-“it won’t help matters if you and I start wrangling. But tell me
-now, what makes you so certain she has gone with this ... his name
-positively sticks in my throat,--this shepherd fellow?”
-
-“What makes me so certain? What do you suppose I have been doing these
-three days?” said Calladine querulously. “What do you suppose my state
-of mind has been? I knew Clare was safe, in one sense, I know she was
-with Lovel. Yes. His wife came to Starvecrow after him; she had guessed
-where he was going. Oh, a pretty interview I had with her--I have Clare
-to thank for that. She came crying to the door, and Mrs. Quince let her
-in, so Mrs. Quince, at least, guesses the whole story. She brought the
-woman up to my room, and left her alone with me, and I saw her smirk
-as she went out of the door. A pretty business.... She cried to me,
-this woman; she sat in Clare’s chair and cried. She owned up--a long
-tale--how she had got Lovel to marry her and how her child was neither
-his child nor his brother’s; I really don’t know what else--a long
-tale. She talked very extravagantly--said she was dying for love of
-him--and how he had never touched her,--a lot of nauseous detail. She
-kept on saying that he was decent,--decent, decent to her,--that kept
-on coming back,--and that she was sorry now,--she was being punished
-for what she had done. He was civil to her always, she said, but as
-cold as winter, and now he had gone. There was nothing left for her
-now, she said, but to stay looking after his people,--his old mother
-and his mad brother,--that was her idea of making amends. We went out
-together and looked all over the Downs for Clare and Lovel; she sobbed
-and cried all the time. She wanted me to raise a hue and cry, to put
-the police on their trail, but of course I would not do that. ‘If they
-want to go,’ I said, ‘let them go with as little noise as possible.’
-But I looked for them myself, and if I had found them I would have
-besought Clare to come back. She was with me nearly all the time, this
-dreadful woman. I kept sending her away, but half an hour later there
-she was again. She brought her child with her, wrapped in a shawl.
-She said she felt like drowning it,--a shocking thing to hear a woman
-say. Saxon fair it was, and I believed her when she told me Lovel had
-nothing to do with it. She has been with me almost uninterruptedly now
-for three days; I kept her at Starvecrow because I didn’t want the
-story trumpeted over the whole village. Certain that she has gone with
-Lovel, indeed! Of course I am certain. Besides, I found the tracks of
-two persons’ feet in the snow--a man’s and a woman’s.”
-
-“Well, why didn’t you follow those tracks?” asked Mr. Warrener, who had
-been staring at Calladine all through his recital.
-
-“You may be sure I did, and they led me to the top of the
-Downs,--knee-deep in some places. Then snow began to fall again and the
-tracks were blotted out,--I lost them,--I fancied the Downs and the
-snow were conspiring against me with Clare and Lovel. Lovel’s wife grew
-frantic when she saw the tracks blurring; she began running round and
-round in a senseless circle. There was I, up on the height with that
-common woman, she having lost her husband and I having lost my wife.
-That is what your daughter, sir, has exposed me to.”
-
-“Is that all you think about?” said Mr. Warrener.
-
-“Heaven knows it isn’t!” cried Calladine. “I think horrible things,--I
-think of Clare suffering from the cold, and then I think of her close
-with Lovel, and upon my soul I don’t know whether to wish her dead or
-alive. You don’t understand, Mr. Warrener, the passion they have for
-one another. I suppose I knew it, a long way back, but I shut my mind
-to it. It seemed preposterous. I put it away. And then, when it began
-to come closer, I did not know how to fight it,--I knew how strong it
-was. And Clare was like a little trapped thing all the while; gentle
-to me, but always looking out of the window. I tried to tame her; she
-pretended to be quite tame, but all the while she kept that poised look
-about her,--ready to spread her wings.”
-
-“You seem to have a good deal to say about it all,” Mr. Warrener
-observed.
-
-Calladine was silent; he felt rebuked.
-
-“I have been crushing down my thoughts for three days,” he muttered
-then, sulkily.
-
-“But what are we to do?” said Mr. Warrener. He took out his big
-handkerchief and began to mop his forehead, then, remembering that the
-day was cold, he replaced it in his pocket. “Is it snowing now?” he
-asked irrelevantly.
-
-“No,” said Calladine. “It is bright and frosty, and there is no wind;
-the wind has dropped ever since the night that Clare went. I used to
-think the wind made her more restless, ‘Le vent qui vient à travers la
-montagne,’ you know, ‘me rendra fou.’”
-
-“But what are we to do?” said Mr. Warrener again. They were two
-helpless beings, to confront such a problem. “At all events, she
-is safe enough with young Lovel; I believe he is a capable sort of
-creature; he won’t let her come to any harm.”
-
-“Curse him,” said Calladine, resentful that the legend of Lovel’s
-efficiency should have percolated even to Mr. Warrener’s secluded room.
-
-“We must go out and look for them,” said Mr. Warrener. “Come,
-Calladine,” he said, rousing himself, “you don’t seem able to take any
-action. Bestir yourself; we must go out and look for them.”
-
-“Must we?” said Calladine without interest. “But I don’t think it’s
-any good, you know. I have a superstitious feeling about it; there was
-something intangible about Clare. I never got hold of her,--she was my
-joy, she tinkled about my house, in and out of my rooms, but it was
-like having a linnet in a cage. You know how the men go out and snare
-the larks under nets on the Downs; well, it was like that. She didn’t
-mope; no, never; but I think she was only waiting for the day when she
-should fly away.”
-
-“Nonsense, nonsense,” said Mr. Warrener. “Don’t encourage such
-ridiculous fancies, Richard.”
-
-“I’ve seen her,” said Calladine, “looking out of the window, looking
-out of the window....”
-
-“Come,” said Mr. Warrener again; “if you won’t come with me I must go
-alone.”
-
-“And the man too,” said Calladine, obstinately; “he was always on the
-Downs; he wouldn’t bind himself down to a master; he slipped free.”
-
-“Are you coming?” asked Mr. Warrener, standing up. He cast a glance at
-his writing-table. “Fancy Clare....” he said with a sigh. “She was a
-help to me, Calladine, you don’t know. I made a sacrifice in giving her
-to you. But I thought it was for the child’s happiness; and she hadn’t
-a mother. I missed her more than anybody knew. You never realised how
-much she helped me; why, look here....” and he showed Calladine a thick
-note-book filled with Clare’s handwriting. “She had an instinct for
-archæology,” he said, “and she wrote a beautiful hand--clear and pretty
-both.”
-
-“You make it sound like an epitaph,” said Calladine bitterly.
-
-“Heaven forbid,” said Mr. Warrener, a little startled. “She’s safe
-enough, never you fear. All we have to do is to get her back and
-perhaps we’ll find your fears were groundless,--a burst of wildness,
-only,--she was accustomed to liberty, you know,--perhaps it’s no worse
-than that,--lovers, you said,--but oh, no, I can’t believe....”
-
-“You and I, Mr. Warrener,” said Calladine, fixing the old man with a
-gaze full of meaning, “have perhaps lived a little too remote from
-life. Clare is alive, Lovel is alive; you and I are left behind.”
-
-“But all the same....” said Mr. Warrener, greatly troubled, “all
-the same.... Lovers, you said. Oh, no, surely not,” and he looked
-embarrassed, uncomfortable, as at an indecency.
-
-
-They went out together. They went on foot, with no very definite scheme
-of action in their minds. Vaguely they intended to make their way up on
-to the Downs, on to the topmost height if possible, and from there to
-scan the rolling country. They went side by side, Calladine long and
-spare, Mr. Warrener, round, short and bespectacled, and as they went
-they tried to disguise their anxiety from one another, and to pretend
-that they had gone out for no more serious purpose than to recall a
-troublesome child from an escapade. But there were periods of silence
-between them, broken with a jerk by Mr. Warrener with brisk questions,
-“Now in what direction did she ride for choice, Calladine?” or “If the
-fellow is a shepherd, he must have a hut up on these hills.” “Yes, I
-have visited that: it was empty,” said Calladine, forced into a morose
-reply.
-
-They took the road out of the village, the only road cleared by the
-snow-plough, and presently struck up into the hills, climbing with
-caution, for they were afraid of sinking suddenly into a drift against
-a bank. They climbed, prodding with long sticks before them, a long
-wearisome climb, their feet sinking over the ankle at every step into
-the soft snow; by now they had the excuse for speaking very little, for
-their energies went all on their progress. “I have spent my time like
-this for the last three days,” said Calladine, grimly.
-
-It was noteworthy that neither of them considered for a moment that
-Clare and Lovel might have moved on to another part of the country;
-they took it for granted that they had remained among the Downs.
-
-No paths were to be seen anywhere, only the rolling white hills, broken
-by the sky-line beech-clumps. No sound; neither the tinkling of water,
-nor the quivering of larks, nor the quaver of sheep, nor even the wind;
-only the hush of quiet snow lying spread. It was a stillness that grew
-as they climbed; a stillness, a shroud. There was the glitter of the
-snow, and the black clubbed trees, and the white sky, and the silence.
-
-It occurred to them that they might get lost, for all the hills looked
-much the same, and the landmarks were all covered up; the White Horse,
-the Grey Wethers. Still, Calladine was contemptuous of that; and as for
-Mr. Warrener, he plodded on with an unrepining, pathetic obstinacy.
-
-At last they came to the top, and stood on White Horse Hill, two puny
-figures scanning the horizon. “There is Lovel’s hut,” said Calladine,
-pointing it out. “We had better go down to it,” said Mr. Warrener, and
-they began the descent, which was almost as trying as their climb, for
-they had to hold themselves back, the snow being blown into deeper
-drifts on that side of the hill.
-
-The great scoops in the flank of the hill forced them to follow a
-circular route which lengthened their road. The hut seemed to stand
-always equally far ahead, and never to draw any nearer; nor had they
-much hope of finding either Clare or Lovel within it. Mr. Warrener,
-now that he had gained a few hours of experience, was beginning to
-share Calladine’s hopelessness; before they started, it had seemed
-comparatively simple an undertaking to go out and search and shout for
-Clare over the Downs. Now, although he called her name tentatively on
-approaching the hut, the quilted silence swallowed up the small echo
-of his voice. Yet it was a bell-like name to call, “Clare! Clare!”
-
-Calladine let Mr. Warrener go forward and peer into the hut, and he
-felt a sudden tenderness for the old man. “If,” he said to himself,
-“Clare should never return to me, Mr. Warrener and I must keep house
-together,” but the idea of Clare not returning gave him a pang which
-eclipsed the amenities of the prospect with Mr. Warrener, leading a
-scholar’s life, and he was ashamed of the glimpse that had opened out
-on to a life so congenial, so secure.
-
-Mr. Warrener turned in the doorway and beckoned.
-
-“They have been here,” he said.
-
-Calladine drew near and looked. Yes, they had been there. The hut was
-poor, a shepherd’s shelter, with a rough table arranged on a couple
-of boxes, and a thick pallet of bracken on the floor; warm enough,
-no doubt, and even snug, with the paraffin lamp burning and the door
-closed against the cold. Mr. Warrener and Calladine looked in silence.
-A horn mug stood on the table, beside a loaf of bread; two sugar-boxes
-served as stools. A couple of blankets were thrown over the bracken; a
-bag stuffed with bracken did for a pillow. There was nothing else.
-
-“My God,” said Calladine, staring at the pallet, “they lay there last
-night,--they lay there!” He looked round the pitiful cabin, and a groan
-was forced from him. “He brought her here!” he said, “and I who gave
-her everything she could desire,--comfort, even beauty, refinement....”
-He sat down and buried his face, and touched perhaps the bitterest
-moment he had yet gone through. “How much she must have loved him,” he
-said, raising a suddenly haggard face to Mr. Warrener.
-
-Mr. Warrener was deeply perturbed and distressed. Such things were
-altogether beyond his experience and understanding.
-
-“Hush,--don’t take it so much to heart,” he said, confused, but meaning
-to be kind, and he touched Calladine on the shoulder with a gesture
-singularly awkward. “Now let us think what is to be done. Shall we
-remain here, and trust to their return at nightfall? It is true that we
-could not, all four of us, spend the night in this hut, but probably
-Lovel knows the way,--he can take us all home safely.”
-
-“You seem to have a curious confidence in the fellow,” growled
-Calladine.
-
-Mr. Warrener blinked in his mild fashion.
-
-“Yes,--I don’t quite know why,” he said, “except that I’ve seen
-him about the village,--he seemed an alert, romantic kind of
-creature.--Forgive me, I see that pains you.”
-
-“Oh, not at all,” said Calladine, ironical.
-
-“We must wait,--there is nothing else to be done,” said Mr. Warrener,
-reluctantly.
-
-“No,” said Calladine, rousing himself to a sudden determination,
-“I will wait, but you, Mr. Warrener, must make your way home while
-daylight lasts. You will only have to follow our own tracks in
-the snow. Indeed, I should prefer it,” he said, seeing the old man
-hesitate, and gently he took Mr. Warrener by the arm and urged him out
-of the hut. A hard cruel sun was already setting red behind a clump of
-beeches. The white sky became suffused with crimson in the west; on the
-rounded tops of the hills the snow flushed to pink. But it was a hard,
-cruel world that they saw, the hard red of the snow where the sunset
-did not catch it. The line of the beech-clump curved already across the
-slowly sinking sun, and presently hid it altogether from sight; the
-tops of the hills lost their flush, and only a few red bars lingered
-still in the sky.
-
-“What a desolate spot!” exclaimed Mr. Warrener, impressed, “and what a
-spot,” he went on, “for a shepherd to study the courses of the stars,
-for such has been the tradition of shepherds since the days when the
-known world was not one tithe of the size we now learn it to be. Think
-of that, Calladine,” said the old man, warming to his subject, “those
-early shepherds on the hills were more conversant with the cycle of the
-heavenly bodies than with the distribution of their own planet. A fine
-tradition among shepherds--for what else have they to do? They don’t
-read in books, but they read in the heavens through the long, lonely
-nights; and observe, Calladine, that in winter, when the pleasures
-of the earth are less, the heavens in compensation treble their
-magnificence. I don’t believe that a man who spends his nights alone
-in the open remains similar to other men. He’s soaked in the sense of
-space; and young Lovel....”
-
-“Yes, yes,” said Calladine impatiently, “but there is no time to be
-lost if you are to reach King’s Avon before dark. Follow our tracks;
-there are no other tracks to confuse you, for it snowed a little this
-morning; indeed, there is still snow about in the air.”
-
-“I don’t like to leave you alone in this lonely place,” said Mr.
-Warrener, still hesitating.
-
-“Doubtless Clare and Lovel found no fault with its loneliness last
-night,” Calladine replied harshly.
-
-“My dear Richard,” said Mr. Warrener, vexed at his son-in-law’s harping
-on this theme, “I am sure you distress yourself unnecessarily. Clare
-will be able to reassure you,--and she is a very truthful child,”
-he added, with a certain pleading pathos, as though to justify his
-upbringing of her.
-
-“Where, then, did the man sleep?” said Calladine, turning on him.
-“Supposing he gave Clare the pallet, where did he pass the night
-himself? Tell me that.”
-
-“Why, I don’t know,--sitting up, I suppose,--he could lean his back
-against the wall,” replied Mr. Warrener.
-
-Finally he consented to go, and set off, Calladine watching him
-until after trudging up the hill he topped its crest and was lost to
-sight. Calladine then, a prey to such loneliness as he had never
-dreamt, returned into the hut to wait. Twilight came, the long, cold,
-late-winter twilight when the world seems dead. The last vestiges of
-colour faded out of the west. Such sharp shadows as there had been,
-merged into a greyer, universal shadow; the hard black and the hard
-white turned to grey, vast and mournful; the sky was all grey now,
-and the dusk heavy with impending snow. The quietness and the poverty
-of the hut settled down round Calladine. He had examined its few poor
-resources, fingering the utensils he found in the little cupboard on
-the wall, the tea-pot, the canister of tea and sugar, the rasher of
-bacon put ready on a plate; but now he sat listless, with hanging
-hands, and not so much as a sound came to make him raise his head.
-He did not know how long he sat there. The darkness deepened; soon
-the black night was again over the Downs, vaulted; the big golden
-stars, and the dim huge shapes of the hills. He was without sensation,
-numb, having the consciousness only of his extreme solitude. So numb
-was he, that he was scarcely aware what he waited for. He simply
-sat on, in complete darkness now, feeling neither hunger nor cold,
-forgetful almost of his sorrow, patient only like a man condemned to an
-indefinite suspense.
-
-When he heard the sound of a voice singing out on the hill, he raised
-his head and waited. The voice drew nearer, singing a cheerful song;
-it trilled and carolled, as in an exuberant lightheartedness. To
-Calladine it came with a strange effect, this voice singing out in
-the night, unexplained, bearing down upon the hut, frivolous and
-rollicking. Suddenly it sounded quite close, outside. The door was
-torn open, a figure carrying a lantern appeared on the threshold, and
-Calladine beheld the grinning face and battered hat of Olver Lovel.
-
-The boy carried parcels in his arms, besides the lantern swinging from
-his wrist. He appeared in excellent spirits, grinning broadly, skipping
-as he stood on the threshold of the door, with little excited skips
-from foot to foot. He seemed scarcely able to contain his high spirits
-and his excitement. When he saw that the hut was already occupied, he
-gaped stupidly, then burst into peals of laughter. Calladine, remaining
-seated, looked at him without a word. He perceived nothing startling
-in the advent of this apparition, apathetic as he was, and at the same
-time strung up to the most improbable occurrences. It seemed to him
-quite natural that Olver should stand shouting with laughter in the
-doorway; he saw nothing grotesque in the encounter of himself with the
-crazy boy out in this hut on the hills. Clare!--this was the note to
-which Clare had re-tuned his life.
-
-“Mr. Calladine!” said Olver, ceasing from his laughter. He came forward
-and put his parcels and his lantern down on the table. Its rays
-illuminated the little hut. “So you were waiting for them, sitting
-here in the dark, were you?” he observed.
-
-“Will they come?” asked Calladine.
-
-“Oh yes, they’ll come,” replied Olver easily. “But they won’t let you
-stop here, you know,” he added. “No, nor me either,” he pursued, coming
-closer to Calladine and speaking confidentially. “They’ll put us both
-out into the snow, get-yourselves-home-as-best-you-can. They won’t
-care. They won’t notice us, scarcely. They’re in a dream. Nod to me,
-perhaps; give me a pat, like a dog. Good Olver; he brings our food. But
-do they eat it? they seem like they don’t need food.”
-
-“Have you seen them, then?” said Calladine.
-
-“Seen them? Lord bless you, yes; and seen you too, wandering round with
-Daisy. I was behind you, many and many a time, but you didn’t turn.”
-
-He began now to unpack his parcels, bringing out a loaf of bread, a
-tin of milk, some eggs, and finally some raw meat in slices. Calladine
-watched him in silence. He disposed of everything in a business-like
-manner, fetching two plates out of the cupboard, laying the table,
-putting ready the tea-pot and the canister.
-
-“You might well have lit the lamp for them,” he said reproachfully to
-Calladine.
-
-He lit the little paraffin lamp himself, and the hut was further
-irradiated by its yellow glow. The hut made now a patch of warmth and
-light among the cold, dark hills; a box of light, like a star in the
-blackness of space. Calladine felt the warmth creep through him, as
-though he were admitted to a hint of the sufficient and radiant secret
-of those lovers. The poverty of the shelter disappeared now, in the
-golden warmth of the light from within. And he felt that he, and not
-they, was the pauper.
-
-Olver meanwhile had set the meat to fry over the lamp. It frizzled as
-he turned it with a fork, and he crouched over it, humming his song.
-“You seem very well contented,” said Calladine.
-
-Olver looked up, having forgotten Calladine’s presence.
-
-“I am contented, because Nicholas is happy,” he replied.
-
-“Simple enough!” said Calladine.
-
-“But she is happy too,” said Olver, sitting back on his heels and
-staring at Calladine.
-
-“He is only a mad boy,” thought Calladine to himself.
-
-Olver sang. He sang an old song, of a girl drowned in the mill-pool
-because she had lost her lover. The wistful beat of the ballad came
-back at the end of each verse; it droned on, with mournful persistence.
-At last Calladine could bear its monotony no longer, and asked, “When
-will they come?”
-
-Olver shrugged. “Who can tell?”
-
-“Where are they?” Calladine asked.
-
-Olver shrugged again. “Who can tell?”
-
-Calladine remembered how often he had asked Clare, “Where have you
-been? where have you been?”
-
-He remembered that her answers had never left him any the wiser; he had
-never come near to what he really wanted to know.
-
-What was it, indeed, that he had really wanted to know? the whole
-secret of her being, to be explained in a dozen words?
-
-He said to Olver, “It is night, it is cold; have they lost their way
-out on the hills?”
-
-Olver laughed at him. “Lost? They?”
-
-“They are only human!” cried Calladine, afraid. He got up and stood
-over Olver. “Tell me, they are human, aren’t they?”
-
-Olver laughed again.
-
-Calladine went to the door. He opened it and looked out; the cold met
-him, and the stars in the blackness. “Clare!” he cried. “Clare!”
-
-“I am going mad,” he said to himself. “I am going out of my mind.”
-
-Looking back into the hut, he saw Olver still on his knees on the
-floor, prodding at the meat over the lamp. He went back, bent down, and
-cried close to Olver’s ear, “What are we doing here? they are keeping
-us waiting.”
-
-“We don’t count,” replied Olver indifferently.
-
-He began his song again. He had taken his mirror from his pocket, and
-was squinting into it, at the reflection of the hut; on each beat of
-the measure, he nodded down towards it.
-
-
- “Her hair was tangled in the reeds.
- Her hair so gold and gay,”
-
-
-he sang.
-
-“Would you like to look into my mirror?” he asked Calladine.
-
-An idea took him; he scrambled to his feet.
-
-“They’re all afraid of my mirror,” he said. “_She_ wouldn’t look into
-it, for fear of what she might see there. But you shall look. Look into
-it now, and you’ll see them; you shall see them as they were in here,
-last night.”
-
-Calladine pushed him away; made him stagger against the wall of the hut.
-
-“You would see them! you would see them!” cried Olver, delighted.
-
-Neither of them noticed that the door had opened, and that Lovel stood
-in the hut.
-
-“Nicco!” cried Olver.
-
-Calladine wheeled round. Clare came into the hut, and her face shone
-out like Lovel’s, both golden in the light, both arrested in the midst
-of their carelessness.
-
-Lovel spoke to Calladine.
-
-“This was the only place we had,” he said, “couldn’t you leave it to
-us?”
-
-Clare looked at Calladine; her face wore that oblique, fugitive look
-which he had known, and loved, and dreaded.
-
-She turned to Lovel, and they swayed towards one another as though
-something drew them.
-
-“We had better go,” she said, inviting him.
-
-“Yes,” he replied, drifting idly on the stream of her will, of their
-common will, one with her.
-
-She gave him her hand, and in the gold light they hung briefly,
-transient creatures of eternal flight. The curtain of night and stars
-stretched behind them, in the rectangle of the open door.
-
-“The scenery is set!” cried Calladine hysterically, pointing with his
-hand.
-
-The rays of the lantern streamed out towards the snow, gilding a path
-up the whiteness, quickly lost into the dark.
-
-“They need no shelter,” cried Calladine.
-
-The hills were outside, waiting, and the stars, silent.
-
-“Why linger?” cried Calladine to Clare and Lovel.
-
-They faded into the night, noiseless and swift. Calladine ran out of
-the hut, he ran up and down, he cried “Clare! Clare!” and the hills
-answered him. He came back into the hut, where Olver, dancing, held the
-mirror up to his eyes. “Look! and you shall see them.” He dashed the
-mirror out of Olver’s hand; it smashed upon the ground. “You will never
-see them again, now,” cried Olver, “you will never see them again.”
-
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-<p> A Romantic Novel</p>
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-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_1" id="Page_1">[Pg 1]</a></span></p>
-
-<h1>GREY WETHERS</h1>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_2" id="Page_2">[Pg 2]</a></span></p>
-
-<p><i>By</i> V. SACKVILLE-WEST</p>
-
-<hr class="smler" />
-
-<p>GREY WETHERS<br />
-THE HEIR AND OTHER STORIES<br />CHALLENGE<br />HERITAGE<br />KNOLE AND THE SACKVILLES</p>
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-<hr class="smler" />
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-<p><i>New York</i>:<br /><i>George H. Doran Company</i></p>
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-<hr />
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-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_3" id="Page_3">[Pg 3]</a></span></p>
-
-<p class="bold2">GREY WETHERS</p>
-
-<p class="bold"><i>A Romantic Novel</i></p>
-
-<p class="bold space-above">BY</p>
-
-<p class="bold2">V. SACKVILLE-WEST</p>
-
-<p class="bold space-above">NEW <img src="images/logo.jpg" alt="logo" /> YORK<br />GEORGE H. DORAN COMPANY</p>
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-<hr />
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-<div class="center"><img src="images/copyright.jpg" alt="copyright page" /></div>
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-<hr />
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-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_4" id="Page_4">[Pg 4]</a></span></p>
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-<p class="center">COPYRIGHT, 1923,<br />BY GEORGE H. DORAN COMPANY<br /><img src="images/logo2.jpg" alt="logo" /></p>
-
-<p class="center space-above">GREY WETHERS. II<br />&mdash;&mdash;&mdash;<br />PRINTED IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_5" id="Page_5">[Pg 5]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2><i>CLAIRE</i></h2>
-
-<div class="center"><div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<div><i>Ces fantômes charmants que nous croyons à nous...</i></div>
-</div><div class="stanza">
-<div><i>Ils sont là, près de nous, jouant sur notre route;</i></div>
-<div class="i1"><i>Ils ne dédaignent pas notre soleil obscur,</i></div>
-<div><i>Et derrière eux, et sans que leur candeur s&#8217;en doute,</i></div>
-<div class="i1"><i>Leurs ailes font parfois de l&#8217;ombre sur le mur.</i></div>
-</div><div class="stanza">
-<div><i>Ils ont ce grand dégout mystérieux de l&#8217;âme</i></div>
-<div class="i1"><i>Pour notre chair coupable et pour notre destin;</i></div>
-<div><i>Ils ont, êtres rêveurs qu&#8217;un autre azur réclame,</i></div>
-<div class="i1"><i>Je ne sais quelle soif de mourir le matin.</i></div>
-<div class="right"><span class="smcap">Victor Hugo.</span></div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_7" id="Page_7">[Pg 7]</a></span></p>
-
-<p class="bold2">GREY WETHERS</p>
-
-<hr class="smler2" />
-
-<h2>PART ONE</h2>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_9" id="Page_9">[Pg 9]</a></span></p>
-
-<p class="bold2">GREY WETHERS</p>
-
-<p class="bold2"><i>Part One</i></p>
-
-<p>More than half a century has now elapsed since the events which added
-a new legend to the hard ancient hills lying about Marlborough and
-King&#8217;s Avon. The last organised rustic Scouring of the White Horse of
-King&#8217;s Avon,&mdash;from which occasion these events may properly be said to
-date, although a believer in predestination might be found to contend
-that they dated, indeed, from the very births of Clare Warrener and
-Nicholas Lovel,&mdash;that last organised Scouring took place more than
-half a century ago. The White Horse remains, the same gaunt, hoary
-relic; King&#8217;s Avon remains, secluded, tragic, rearing its great stones
-within the circle of its strange earthwork; the Downs remain, and every
-winter, now as then, shroud their secrets and the memory of their
-secrets beneath the same mantle of snow away from the speculation of
-the curious. But of Clare Warrener and Nicholas Lovel no trace remains,
-unless indeed they have passed into the wind and become incorporate
-with the intractable spaces and <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_10" id="Page_10">[Pg 10]</a></span>uncompromising heights. A great many
-tales are locally told of them, all too fantastic to be set down in
-print; the chalky soil, so unpropitious to other crops, grew at least
-a rich crop of superstition, especially in an age and district when
-stories of witches and burnings were curiously mingled in the minds
-of the ignorant with the opening of barrows and the fable of British
-princes. So it is not surprising that the disappearance of these two
-persons should have given rise to a jabber of conjecture which rapidly
-came to be explained away by a variety of legends following the line of
-approved local tradition. It is not the business of print to enter into
-these conjectures or their interpretation. It is the business of print
-to set down, in as practical a manner as may be, the circumstances
-leading up to the final catastrophe,&mdash;or fulfilment, call it which you
-will, according to the point of view from which you approach it,&mdash;and
-to leave the reader to carry on the narrative for himself in the manner
-best suited to his own fancy and requirements.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">A peculiar silence reigned over the village; no children shouted,
-and no young men or girls passed down the street with that exact air
-of energy and enterprise that youth alone can produce. Somnolence
-predominated; it seemed a village inhabited only by the aged, and by
-those sparsely; a small gaggle of geese quacked and pried with their
-flat beaks along the cobbles; but for them, the cats and the old men
-had the place<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_11" id="Page_11">[Pg 11]</a></span> to themselves. The cats slumbered, curled round in the
-corners of doorsteps, where the sun struck hot on the stone; and on a
-bench outside the Waggon of Hay the four old men sat in a row, leaning
-on their knobly sticks, and holding pewter mugs in their hands. Brown
-old men, brown of hide and brown of garment, so that it was difficult
-to tell where their clothes began or their hands and faces left off.
-Eight boots of similar pattern set squarely side by side on the stones;
-four heads of almost equal similarity nodded together over the pewter,
-sagely and immemorially, for it would be safe to say that those four
-old men of King&#8217;s Avon might have been at any moment replaced by
-another set of four old men out of another century, without a casual
-observer remarking on the difference. It was the day out of half a
-score of years when they were left in supreme sovereignty over the
-village. The Waggon of Hay became then what they considered it always
-ought to be, and what they chose to maintain it had been at that epoch
-of time called &#8220;when we were young,&#8221; a place of meeting sober and
-stagnant, undisturbed by the rude, hobnailed entrance of young men,
-calling for spirits in a tap-room where they should have been content
-with beer or cider. It was the day when they might sit at peace in
-their row on the bench, sure that no lout of a blunderer would stumble
-over their toes. It was the day when they might indulge themselves to
-their hearts&#8217; content in gossip and politics, uninterrupted by the
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_12" id="Page_12">[Pg 12]</a></span>revolutionary opinions of their juniors. They could go back to the
-time when no railway disfigured the valley of the Frome, when the old
-horned breed of true Wiltshire sheep wandered upon the heights, and
-when no man dreamt of threshing his wheat save by flail, or of crushing
-his apples in any but a wooden press. They could recall without effort
-those days in the &#8217;thirties, when, themselves but little older than the
-century, they had gone in bands with rude weapons to break up the new
-and hateful machinery in the farmers&#8217; barns. They could tell again the
-tales of superstition, and the sights which their fathers&#8217; generation
-had seen; and above all, most succulently, they could recall how old
-Mother Lovel had been burnt on the top of Silbury Hill for a witch,
-the bogey their mothers had used to frighten them with; and, nodding
-together, the four heads coming closer, whisper that Nicholas Lovel
-had all the black arts at his disposal, and had in a fit of rage put
-a curse upon his own brother, so that the lad no longer had his wits
-about him, but loitered around, the anxiety and disgrace of the village.</p>
-
-<p>They had the whole day to themselves, in which to say over and over
-again the things they had said many times before, and, greedy, would
-have liked to have the evening too, but far from it, the evening of
-that day was worse than any other evening, for the young men returned,
-already uproarious and in their numbers, full of song and boastfulness,
-their boots white with the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_13" id="Page_13">[Pg 13]</a></span> chalk of the Downs, and their broad hats
-stuck round with the grasses and sorrel that grew up there on those
-unfertile heights. The old men would collect together in a corner,
-remotely grumbling, watching the young men as they lounged against
-the bar, filling the tap-room with their ribald good-humour and their
-tobacco smoke. The old men disapproved of the young because they feared
-in them the jostle of the oncoming generation, but the young men merely
-laughed carelessly at the old, having from them no longer anything to
-fear. The young men, on the evening of that particular day, would be
-more than usually vainglorious, bragging of their exploits, growing
-with every glass more direct in their modes of expression and more
-hilarious in their laughter. It was the day when all prudery was thrown
-aside, when each girl must look after herself as best she could or
-would, when from the earliest hour of exodus from the village along the
-road to the Downs the band of youths and girls fell into two primitive
-groups of hunter and quarry, a scramble of catch-who-catch-can, an
-escapade of wholesome license over the slopes of the Downs. It is true
-that they started out armed with trowels and rakes, but even these
-implements of homely design were soon garlanded with vetch and campion
-torn from the hedgerows as the party went along, nor were these, the
-ostensible justification of the expedition, the true weapons of the
-day; the true weapons were the muslin<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_14" id="Page_14">[Pg 14]</a></span> frocks, the black shoes and
-white stockings, the ribbons, the sunbonnets, and the eyes and curls
-beneath the sunbonnets; and the leather leggings of the young men,
-their strong brown hands, their belted smocks, their insolent air.
-Impossible that a few wounds should not result from the marshalling of
-such an armoury. And while the girls on their return must needs carry
-away to their bedrooms the secrets of the day, evading the inquisitive
-eye of their mothers, who, not condescending to ask, although burning
-to know, remembered with a sigh similar feasts of their own youth,
-the young men might gather in the tap-room and between hints and
-guffaws convey to all who cared to hear that they were fine young men
-worthy of their sex and of a sound country tradition. It was perhaps
-from an unacknowledged flicker of envy that the old men frowned upon
-their honest coarseness, for occasionally one of them, forgetting
-his attitude of rebuke, would let out a cackle of enjoyment and
-appreciation, much to his own dismay, and much to the amusement of the
-youths, who would cry, &#8220;Hey, gaffer, don&#8217;t you wish you&#8217;d be with us?
-Don&#8217;t you, you old dog?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>But until this lusty return filled the tap-room with its uproar, the
-cats and the ancients of the village were left undisturbed. Both in
-their several ways made the most of their opportunity, the cats to
-sleep, since little boys who threw stones had gone with the party,
-hangers-on and peeping-Toms of the day, and the ancients to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_15" id="Page_15">[Pg 15]</a></span> utter
-their sage words, to echo approval of one another, and to bury their
-faces deep in the pewter mugs, from which they emerged with beards
-dripping foam. A suck of the lips, a wipe with the back of the hand, a
-long &#8220;A-ah,&#8221; of contentment, and the mumble of anecdote flowed again
-upon its course. Sitting there in the sun was favourable to such
-occupations. Since the strenuousness of life&#8217;s work was over,&mdash;the
-early winter rising, the trudges after a lost ewe across snow-swept
-Downs, the unearthing of mangolds from the frosted ridge, the hours
-of scything swathe by swathe under burning midday,&mdash;what could remain
-better to do than to sit upon a bench in the sun, with companions
-who in colour and outlook were the very spit of oneself, to grumble
-against new-fangled notions, and to wet one&#8217;s gizzard with a long pull
-of ale, which, at all events, however ignominious to admit it, had not
-deteriorated in quality since one&#8217;s youth?</p>
-
-<p>Amongst the four old men, he who carried perhaps most authority, if
-any difference could be said to exist amongst the ancient cronies, was
-John Sparrow, who out-topped them by a year or so of age. Not that
-this fact in itself constituted so marked a superiority; it placed the
-senior rather at a disadvantage, since there existed amongst the four a
-tacit competition as to which should outlive the other, and each within
-his own mind dwelt upon the day when a fresh mound should be turned in
-the neighbouring<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_16" id="Page_16">[Pg 16]</a></span> church-yard, and a shrunken row of three should sit
-upon the bench, and the new topic, surprising by virtue of its very
-novelty, be introduced among them, the topic of their missing member.
-Each probably knew his companions well enough to hope for little
-charity at their hands. It would be fine fun, to have John Sparrow, or
-Caleb Patch, or Timothy Cutbush, or Eli Sheppard, lying there silent
-and unable to protest, to pick to pieces at their leisure. No, the
-few additional years of John Sparrow were not precisely the reason of
-his weight of word. But Sparrow&#8217;s daughter Martha, called &#8220;my gal,&#8221;
-although she would never again see sixty, was servant at the Manor
-House, where lived the only gentry of the village, and consequently
-whenever Sparrow began his phrase, &#8220;My gal says,&#8221; his utterance was
-awaited with a certain degree of respect. The village was proud of its
-gentry; Mr. Warrener was a scholar, and Miss Clare a lady. Although she
-went everywhere alone, and rode her pony like a boy, her ladylikeness
-could never be in question. Hence it came about that John Sparrow&#8217;s
-quotations from Martha held a little flavour of high life, a very
-remote echo of fashion; nothing more vicarious could well be imagined,
-but to the fuddled minds of the other three it sufficed: John Sparrow
-was in touch with elegance. He did not much look like it, as he sat
-at the end of the row on the bench, the colour of a hayseed, having
-now deposited his empty mug on the bench beside him<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_17" id="Page_17">[Pg 17]</a></span> and drawn from
-his pocket a long clay pipe whose small bowl he was very carefully
-ramming with tobacco. His daughter Martha was altogether a different
-question; she wore a lilac print dress and an apron over it; her grey
-hair was partly covered by a cap; she had a sedate manner and shining
-old cheeks; she was clean and respectful. She had entirely ceased to
-live at her father&#8217;s house, having her own bare but immaculate attic
-bedroom at the Manor House, and periodically she allowed her father
-to come there to tea in the kitchen, where he sat very neat and
-intimidated and impressed, enjoying most that part of his visit when he
-was boasting about it to his cronies afterwards. Being without subtlety
-they betrayed every corner of their envy and curiosity, to which John
-Sparrow was not loth to pander. They had had a table-cloth, and cups
-and saucers&mdash;china, not tin&mdash;and Martha had put flowers on the table.
-After tea Martha had played the musical box, but in the garden he had
-heard Miss Clare laughing as she strolled up and down with her father.
-That young lady was getting to a marriageable age; and here John
-Sparrow&#8217;s recital, which began with veracity, was apt to go astray. He
-would make a feeble attempt to convey a sense of his privity to secret
-counsels by pursing up his lips, nodding his head, spreading out his
-hands, and suchlike indications, without actually committing himself to
-the indiscretion of words; but presently under the fire of questions,
-the &#8220;Come now,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_18" id="Page_18">[Pg 18]</a></span> John, out with it,&#8221; and the final shaft of scepticism
-to the effect that he knew no more than they did themselves, he would
-invariably be led into confidences which had no bearing whatsoever upon
-the truth. Martha had whispered this, Martha had told him that, Miss
-Clare, he doubted, was not in truth the daughter of Mr. Warrener; or,
-if so be she was his daughter, then no daughter that he ought to own
-to, but rather should pass her off as his niece or his ward.... The
-other three accepted all such statements round-eyed, and the more they
-gaped the more inventive he grew. Their credulity was his undoing.</p>
-
-<p>And as they drowsed and maundered, they saw Miss Clare emerge presently
-from the gates of the Manor House, with their glimpse of garden, lawn,
-and cedars, riding astride upon her pony, whose little hoofs came
-slipping and shambling over the cobbles, down the street, past the
-old men, and took the road out towards the Downs. The old men raised
-their heads at all this little clatter, and a greeting passed between
-them and Miss Clare; they touched their hats, she waved her whip to
-them and called out something which they were too deaf to catch, but
-to which they responded with the &#8220;Ay, ay&#8221; and the gesture of tolerant
-encouragement accorded by age towards popular youth. There was a mumble
-amongst them after she had passed, of unspecified vague approval,
-before the straggly old beards drooped again upon the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_19" id="Page_19">[Pg 19]</a></span> chests, and the
-street resumed the quiet broken by that small disturbance.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">It was not a very great wonder that the village should look upon
-its gentry as so exclusively its own. Its situation was such, that
-everything which took place within its enclosure was peculiarly
-focussed and self-contained. In the first place, it was isolated far
-from other villages, at the foot of the Downs, which loomed over it on
-three sides like a huge natural rampart, and in the second place it was
-entirely surrounded by an ancient earthwork in a complete and perfect
-circle. This earthwork was broken only at two points, to allow the road
-to enter the circle, and to leave it again on the opposite side. Within
-this little enclosed ring of thirty acres lay the village, complete
-with church, Manor House, and village street, incapable of expansion
-in any direction, unless it overflowed its boundary, which it had
-never done. A few outlying farms at a little distance were included,
-properly speaking, in the parish, but they were either too remote or
-too well screened by voluminous trees to distract the eye from the
-compact symmetry of the little town within the circle. Strangers to
-the country, coming unawares upon this singular encampment, were at
-first amazed; but presently there crept into their minds the sense
-that the whole country traversed by them had been, in a way, but the
-natural preparation to precisely such a mysterious and secluded patch<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_20" id="Page_20">[Pg 20]</a></span>
-of human habitation. They recalled the straight white road driven
-across the Downs; the pits of poor blanched chalk; the shaven clumps
-of beech, like giant ricks, upon the skyline; mounds and barrows; the
-perfect cone of Silbury Hill, which, rooted in its greater antiquity,
-had forced the Roman road to deflect from its course; the loneliness
-of the magnificent Downs; the primitive shapes surviving in the White
-Horses cut as landmarks upon their flanks. Above all they would recall
-those strange monuments of English paganism, the sarsen stones,
-hewn by Nature and transported by man to be the instruments of his
-superstition, left where they had fallen, singly or in rings, obscure
-in a fold of the Downs, or reared to accord with the eternal procession
-of the heavens in the gaunt majesty of Stonehenge.</p>
-
-<p>The stranger would recall these stones as he followed the road through
-the gap into the circle of King&#8217;s Avon, for there in an ordinary field
-to the right of the road, just within the embankment, he would see,
-standing upright to the height of ten or twelve feet, a number of
-these stones, standing there with such apparent fixity and permanence
-that it was disconcerting to observe, on a closer inspection, an equal
-number of the stones fallen flat and half-buried in the ground. Their
-impressiveness grew, as the beholder began to realise from their
-symmetrical disposition that what he was considering was no less than
-the ruins of a temple. The village<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_21" id="Page_21">[Pg 21]</a></span> lay just beyond the field, and in
-the rough ground, near the field,&mdash;partly ditch below the embankment,
-partly undergrowth,&mdash;many more of the stones might be discovered,
-half-hidden by dead leaves and mosses, or even by tins and rubbish,
-and in one or two cases made prisoner, like some inarticulate Laocoon,
-by the serpenting roots of a beech overhanging the scarp. And as the
-stranger, after poking about among this tangle, proceeded along the
-lane towards the village, he would come upon other isolated stones,
-either embedded in the bank below the hedge, or used as a gate-post
-into a paddock, standing there patiently enough, towering above the
-gate and above the hedge, indifferent to the fate that had come upon
-it; and one, by the roadside, had been made to do duty as a milestone,
-and bore upon its face the distances to Bath and Marlborough in
-eighteenth-century script and Roman numerals. But, although
-the stones were now thus scattered and even totally removed for
-purposes of quarrying material, a patient observer might still piece
-together the design and dimension of the temple, standing once like
-Stonehenge in rings, when no human dwellings were there, in, as it
-were, a cup of the Downs, open to sun and rain. But this imaginary
-stranger would probably dwell rather upon the relationship between the
-stones of King&#8217;s Avon, and the stars that they had known unaltered, and
-the barrows humped upon the Downs, and the roughly-hewn flints turned
-up<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_22" id="Page_22">[Pg 22]</a></span> by the plough, the bones and antlers, and the stray tokens left,
-with very little fame, about the country, silent and enduring while
-religions perhaps slightly more enlightened because more charitable
-passed with the ages above their surfaces.</p>
-
-<p>This paganism of England, he might have reflected as he made his way
-slowly from stone to stone, pausing before each and finding in each
-the same monotonous and uncommunicative austerity, this early English
-paganism, how bleakly different it was from the paganism of the South!
-Indeed, he might wonder whether to call his forebear pagan, which had
-a rich full-blooded sound, or, stripping him of garlands, to call him
-simply heathen. Here, in this flint country of the small northern
-island, no flowers and fruit had surrounded the sacrifice, no cymbals
-clashed, no grapes and plaited maize wreathed the horns of the victim,
-no songs accompanied the priest. A stone, a knife, and blood, red and
-grey, sufficed their ritual. This was no country to see nymphs in the
-streams and oaks, to hear the flute of a satyr in the beechwood. Yet
-there was a harsher dignity, beside which the Southern paganism was
-soft and ample, over-ripe with sweetness. It was a creed which would
-not concern itself with the fruits of earth; Demeter was not for it,
-nor lecherous Pan, nor a god clothed in the plumes of a swan. It would
-concern itself with nothing lower than the most majestic of human
-contemplations, the sun and the stars in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_23" id="Page_23">[Pg 23]</a></span> their courses, so that after
-the lapse of centuries the upright stones still aspired to celestial
-communion when the gentle or the angry dawn broke over the rounded
-Atlantean shoulders of the Downs.</p>
-
-<p>Clare Warrener rode idly along the leafy lane, her pony&#8217;s hoofs raising
-little grey puffs of dust. Nothing in particular occupied her mind,
-beyond the sight which she was going to see, and which for weeks now
-she had been anticipating. She had promised herself that she would ride
-on this day up on to the Downs, cast her eye over the festivity, and
-ride on again, with perhaps a slight resentment at this invasion of the
-hills; a resentment she knew to be absurd, since the rustic youths and
-girls at their celebrating had a better right to the hills than she
-had herself, they who were the descendants of shepherds and farmers,
-wresting for centuries a living from the poor stony soil. She loved in
-the hills their spaciousness, and their refusal to yield to tillage; at
-most they would grant pasture to the sheep crawling on their slopes,
-but for the rest they remained eternally, in the heart of an amenable
-and complacent island, the untamed spot&mdash;they, and the moorlands, and
-the hills of Wales and the North.</p>
-
-<p>The shady lane which she had been following soon ceased to be bordered
-by trees and took an upward direction leading to the foot of the Downs.
-It became a steep white road mounting straight up the unboundaried
-slopes, with high<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_24" id="Page_24">[Pg 24]</a></span> banks on either side, and the winter rain-runnels
-marked in little zig-zagging ruts and pebbles. Some clumps of furze
-and a few thorn-trees grew on the lower reaches, but presently even
-these ceased, and the short turf was the only vegetation. Up here the
-air was pure and sharp; the grasses waved as they were blown by the
-breeze; in some places fires had left their blackened patches; a trail
-of smoke-coloured sheep moved cropping in the dip of a valley. Larks
-rose continually, soaring straight up into the air, impelled either
-by some impulse of their own or else disturbed by the sound of the
-pony&#8217;s passage. Clare rode with loose reins, letting the pony pick his
-own way among the pebbles. The road began to wind; it curved round a
-shoulder of hill, dipped into a hollow, rose steeply again, and all
-the time its direction was hidden round the next corner. At moments
-it reached a high point of vantage, whence Clare, looking down in the
-direction she had come, could see the low fertile lands, the farms, and
-the clump of trees pierced by the church-spire which was King&#8217;s Avon.
-But to north, east, and west, nothing but Downs, the great back of the
-south of England. She rode on. The pony climbed, his head down, his
-withers high. She felt the muscles of his flank moving warm beneath
-her leg; he climbed, strong and willing, and she put him at short cuts
-which entailed mounting an almost perpendicular slope of grass, for the
-pleasure of feeling him buckle to the effort. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_25" id="Page_25">[Pg 25]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Presently she heard voices and laughter borne to her on the wind.
-Before long she reached a kind of plateau of grass, the highest point
-of all, which commanded a wide view of both Downs and the chessboard
-landscape far below, crossed by the white roads like streamers from
-a Maypole; and at the further end of this plateau she saw scattered
-in pairs over the grass, and assembled at one point as a nucleus from
-which these couples had detached themselves, the youth of the village
-of King&#8217;s Avon in holiday clothes with wild flowers strung about them.
-She reined in her pony, not liking to interrupt their fun by drawing
-too near or seeming to admire them as a curiosity. She could recognise
-most of them at that distance; she picked out the red head of Daisy
-Morland, the long limbs of Peter Gorwyn, the sunbonnet of Phoebe Patch,
-the silly laugh of young Baskett, the straw-coloured shock of hair
-belonging to Job Lackland, the black strap-shoes and white stockings
-of Annabel Blagdon, who was the belle of the village, and, finally,
-prowling on the outskirts rather like a pariah dog, the indefinably
-misshapen form of Olver Lovel. Near by the group were set down the
-wicker baskets in which they had brought their meal, also the trowels,
-spades, turf-cutters, and hoes, apparently forgotten. The occasion of
-the expedition was rendered completely invisible by the sprawling of
-the persons seated upon it. This was none other than one of the famous
-White Horses, which on that day<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_26" id="Page_26">[Pg 26]</a></span> must be scoured, that is to say,
-cleaned of ten years&#8217; accumulation of weeds and grasses; though it was
-said that less plantains were uprooted than matches made that day, and
-that the true business of keeping the White Horse duly scoured was
-performed by some sober shepherd with a pocket-knife, idling away the
-hours while his sheep moved slowly within his sight. Nevertheless the
-tradition must be maintained. Clare felt a slight wistfulness that she
-might not join in with the party, but she had been for so many years
-strictly forbidden to do this by an indignant Martha Sparrow,&mdash;&#8220;&#8217;Twould
-not be befitting your station at all, Miss Clare, indeed, to go with
-those rough louts of boys and hoydens of girls,&#8221;&mdash;that she had come to
-accept this ban as a law of nature, without question. She therefore
-sat her pony at a distance, looking on enviously at the clumsy fun
-in progress, watching the boys roll over and over down the slope and
-get up dusting themselves and laughing, or wrestling with one another
-on the grass and making a show of their superior strength before
-the girls, who laughed and applauded. She felt especially envious
-when she saw Job Lackland pick up his fiddle, settle it firm under
-his chin, and begin to play, the notes of the old-fashioned tune
-reaching her as clearly as notes struck on a bell, and she could see
-the sprigged waistcoat and cut-away coat which Job always wore on
-feast-days when he thought he might be called upon to play the fiddle.
-The others scrambled<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_27" id="Page_27">[Pg 27]</a></span> to their feet and began a country-dance, a sort
-of combination of a Morris dance and Sir Roger de Coverley, for they
-fluttered their handkerchiefs as they danced, and at the same time ran
-in couples up and down between two lines formed by the other dancers.</p>
-
-<p>The muslin dresses and coal-scuttle bonnets of the girls, and the
-smocks of the young men, together with their fluttering handkerchiefs
-and their hands gaily clasped high as they turned and twisted beneath,
-made a coloured and merry patch on the top of the hill, like a lot of
-butterflies.</p>
-
-<p>Job fiddled with increasing energy, and as he fiddled he tried to
-beat time for the dancers with his bow, so that every now and then he
-would miss out a bar while he waved his bow to re-establish order in
-the dance which threatened to become confused. At last they all fell
-exhausted upon the grass, and cider was passed round, and the old White
-Horse, who had been temporarily revealed during the dance, was once
-more hidden from view by the spreading frocks and sprawling limbs.</p>
-
-<p>There were other preparations now in evidence, for to emulate the
-scouring of the greater White Horse of Berkshire the youth of King&#8217;s
-Avon indulged themselves in more or less organised games, which again
-were but a cloak to their braggart vanity towards the girls. A rude
-platform was erected on trestles on the flat summit of the hill, and
-towards this the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_28" id="Page_28">[Pg 28]</a></span> whole company surged, leaving the white scar of the
-Horse once more exposed and placid upon the hillside. The direction of
-the games was in the hands of young Gorwyn; he beat a small drum to
-call his audience to order; he marshalled the competitors; he posted
-tow-headed Lackland with his fiddle to strike up a tune during the
-intervals.</p>
-
-<p>The competitors stood in a group to one side, suddenly sheepish; the
-audience, which by now consisted almost entirely of girls, ranged
-themselves beneath the platform with the nudges and upturned faces
-of anticipation. Clare could only see the crowns of their hats and
-sunbonnets.</p>
-
-<p>Half a dozen young men stood up on the platform, exposed to the jokes
-and encouragements of their friends; in their embarrassment they did
-not know what expression to assume; some scowled, some tried to stare
-with an indifferent gaze out over the distance, some sought the faces
-of their special friends among the audience and grinned awkwardly. All
-were in the same predicament as to how to dispose of their hands and
-feet; some stood stiff and erect, with arms folded severely across
-their chests; others thrust their hands down into the pockets of their
-breeches; others bent to fidget with a bootlace.</p>
-
-<p>Some were for wrestling, others for the races; the bolder spirits, and
-the most admired, were for broadstick. Gorwyn himself, the broadstick
-champion of the village, was, as the last and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_29" id="Page_29">[Pg 29]</a></span> principal event of the
-day, to challenge the winner.</p>
-
-<p>Clare, growing interested, rode a little nearer; the young men touched
-their foreheads to her, some of the girls dropped a curtsy; her advance
-caused a little ripple in the crowd. Again she felt the slight regret
-that she might not mingle freely and on an equal footing with them;
-surely they were clean, English young men, honest enough if a trifle
-crude, and the girls were healthy and fresh in their muslins; but she
-was too simply a child to dream of disobeying Martha&#8217;s mandate. She sat
-her pony at her distance, looking on.</p>
-
-<p>The first event was a bout of wrestling; not perhaps, a very scientific
-exhibition, but the rivals went at it with a will, good-tempered and
-full of zest, staggering about the platform, their fine, young-men&#8217;s
-bodies knotted together like a piece of ever-changing sculpture in
-a natural setting, not cooped into the dinginess of a studio or a
-gallery. Clare saw the shock heads imprisoned under an arm, or going to
-butt lowered like young rams; she could hear the deep breathing, and
-the muffled shock as limbs and torsos closed anew together.</p>
-
-<p>And the audience of girls cried out and applauded, or uttered little
-screams when a fall seemed imminent; but the wrestlers themselves were
-silent, save for their heavy breathing; and the feminine cries and
-rustlings of admiration<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_30" id="Page_30">[Pg 30]</a></span> or dismay formed the natural accompaniment to
-the masculine concentration.</p>
-
-<p>The wrestling over, the wrestlers descended to mix in with the girls,
-and the competition was eager and frank among the girls to get
-possession of one of these heroes and to keep him by her side for
-the rest of the afternoon. Only Annabel Blagdon, the belle, remained
-unexcited and scornful; she affected to despise the mere wrestlers:
-broadstick was the only game for her, as she had already advertised,
-and her smiles were reserved for some broadstick champion with his
-broken head. Therefore the wrestlers made for her all the more; made
-awkward advances towards her, neglecting the blandishments of the
-others which were lavished too cheaply upon them. But she scarcely
-answered; she knew her power, she knew and savoured the irritation
-of her sisters; she tapped her foot in its white stocking and black
-strapped shoe, and scorned the wrestlers for their undamaged skins,
-though secretly she could not help esteeming their broad shoulders and
-their narrow loins.</p>
-
-<p>Job Lackland meanwhile had struck up a tune on his crazy fiddle, and
-made the air gay with his old jingling melody, until the tapping of
-Gorwyn&#8217;s little drum announced a fresh event; this was a race after a
-cheese down the steepest side of the hill, an all-but-perpendicular
-bank, round which the ordinary pedestrian would have skirted, but the
-lads started down it helter-skelter after the round cheese which was
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_31" id="Page_31">[Pg 31]</a></span>bowling down, bumping and jumping, after its send-off push. Some few
-of them kept their feet, others slithered down on their backsides, like
-boys on an ice-slide, some in their effort to keep upright tumbled head
-over heels; one, a wag, went down, rolled round in a ball, hands locked
-under knees, in a series of somersaults.</p>
-
-<p>No one was hurt, and the girls peering after them over the top, laughed
-and danced in delight as the medley of arms and legs and bodies
-reached the bottom, and a scrum for the prize ensued. It was finally
-carried off by Olver Lovel, who, it was averred, crept in between the
-scrambling legs and fetched it away in a moment when the object of the
-race was forgotten, and only the fun of the scrimmage remembered.</p>
-
-<p>No one quite knew in what spirit to take Olver&#8217;s success. It was too
-unpopular for congratulations to ring genuine, so most of the party
-turned aside and pretended to be busy with other things, sooner than
-betray their disappointment,&mdash;for they were kindly folk,&mdash;and to spare
-themselves the necessity of smiling to Olver. In fact, it was felt
-that a slight chill had been cast over the afternoon by the simpleton
-getting the better of the cheese.</p>
-
-<p>As for Olver he was quite happy with his cheese, which was large and
-round, and beside which he sat at a little distance on the grass,
-occasionally patting it and stroking its smooth cool rotundity. Clare
-let her interest stray from the platform, in order to observe him; like
-most<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_32" id="Page_32">[Pg 32]</a></span> of the others he had put a wreath of sorrel and grasses round his
-hat, but whereas the others acquired thereby merely a merry-making,
-country appearance, Olver was made to look crazy and erratic, and twice
-as simple as usual. He sat now on the grass making a daisy-chain to go
-round the belly of his cheese; his legs were stretched out childishly
-straight in front of him, and his shovel hat with the waving wreath was
-bent down over his occupation.</p>
-
-<p>Simple, thought Clare; but how quick and cunning were his fingers! that
-was no unmixed simplicity.</p>
-
-<p>He reached out his daisy-chain to measure against the cheese; he was
-engrossed and took no notice of any one or of anything. She wondered
-whether Nicholas Lovel knew that Olver was up here; usually he kept his
-brother away from any gathering of the villagers, lest he annoy them in
-any way. She had already noticed that Nicholas was not of the party and
-smiled to imagine him as one of that hearty gang. She even wondered the
-more, so aloof did he keep himself from the rest of the village, that
-he allowed his brother to join with them. But she remembered then that
-he made laws for himself only, and did not expect others to keep them;
-he was too indifferent, rather than too tolerant, for that.</p>
-
-<p>Clare thought that she would wait to see the broadstick contest, which
-apparently was about to take place, and that she would then ride away,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_33" id="Page_33">[Pg 33]</a></span>
-for she knew that as the afternoon advanced, and especially as the
-discreet twilight arrived to throw its veil over the passions aroused
-by the prowess of the games, the party would become less rowdy, less
-athletic, and more sentimental, more inclined to break up into couples
-and to dispose itself thus about the grass, where no cover existed,
-but where privacy was guaranteed by a tacit convention that all wore
-blinkers. Clare remembered then,&mdash;what Martha Sparrow, gossiping, had
-told her,&mdash;that Olver Lovel sometimes made himself very unpopular by
-creeping up noiselessly behind some pair just as they were circling
-round the most critical stages of their courtship, either to shout
-loudly in their ears or else to tickle the backs of their necks with a
-straw, so that it had even been discussed in the Waggon of Hay whether
-he should be ostracised from the festival of the scouring. The threat
-of ostracism, however, had not been carried out. They were all too
-much afraid of Olver and of the tricks he might play in revenge on
-them, worse than shouting in their ears, or tickling the backs of their
-necks, or even than putting caterpillars up girl&#8217;s legs, which he had
-been known to do; and in a less degree they were also afraid of his
-brother Nicholas, not to mention the old mother, whom none of them had
-ever seen, and for whose continued existence they had to take Nicholas&#8217;
-word for granted.</p>
-
-<p>Perhaps this fear of the Lovels, and of the queer powers they were
-reputed to possess,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_34" id="Page_34">[Pg 34]</a></span> weighed even more with the ignorant village folk
-than the rough, kindly pity they felt for Nicholas in the affliction
-put upon him.</p>
-
-<p>Clare was eager to watch the broadstick play, which she had never
-seen; Martha had told her that those who had taken part were to be
-seen going about for days afterwards with bandaged heads, and even
-kept the bandage on for longer than they need, as a badge that they
-practised the old sturdy sport, and that he who carried off the honours
-was entitled to the respect of the men in the Waggon of Hay, be they
-natives or strangers passing through, and that there wasn&#8217;t a girl
-in the parish would refuse him her lips. Martha, quite carried away,
-had given her these accounts with enthusiasm. Clare had teased her,
-&#8220;I believe you remember a scouring when you were young, Martha,&#8221; and
-Martha had blushed and bridled, and declared she saw no harm in having
-once been as young as Miss Clare herself, and went on to relate that
-once she had been to the scouring of the great White Horse of White
-Horse Vale, where teams of the Wiltshire men met teams of the Berkshire
-men at wrestling and broadstick, so that it was not the little family
-affair of the King&#8217;s Avon White Horse, but a great celebration that
-lasted two days, and included roundabouts and side-show booths. But
-broadstick play was dying out, and young men were not so keen to get
-their heads broken as once they had been, which was a pity, for it
-showed up their manliness, in spite of what<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_35" id="Page_35">[Pg 35]</a></span> the parsons might say;
-that was Martha&#8217;s view.</p>
-
-<p>Therefore Clare was especially anxious to see the play, for she thought
-she might never have an opportunity of seeing it again.</p>
-
-<p>Just then she heard the trot of a horse on the turf behind her, turf
-baked so hard that it rang hollow. She did not turn round, but sat
-waiting for the horseman to come up beside her. &#8220;So,&#8221; she thought to
-herself, as a little expectant smile parted her lips, &#8220;Lovel has come
-after all to have a look at the scouring.&#8221; The trot slackened into a
-walk, and the head of a horse came alongside that of her own pony. A
-voice said, &#8220;Good afternoon, Miss Warrener,&#8221; and looking round she saw
-a man with iron-grey hair in the act of lifting his hat to her; but he
-was not the man she had expected.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Mr. Calladine,&#8221; she said, smiling after her first little shock of
-surprise and disappointment.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;So you, too, have come to look on at the scouring,&#8221; he began.
-&#8220;Whenever I hear of a scouring in the neighbourhood I am enticed to
-watch it, and every time I go home realising that I have wasted my
-time. But, after all, as well ride here as anywhere else, and better,
-if I am to have the good fortune of meeting you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare was far too unpolished and simple to know how to reply to such
-compliments. She only blushed, was angry with herself for blushing, and
-stared the harder in silence at the party on the grass. Calladine saw
-her deepened colour,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_36" id="Page_36">[Pg 36]</a></span> and savoured to the full its unconscious charm;
-he leant forward with a creaking of saddle-leather, his gloved hand
-resting with the bunch of reins on the peak of his saddle.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Will you ride a little way with me? There is not much more to be seen
-here, and I fancy they have noticed us, and are getting shy. Ah, it&#8217;s
-too late, for here comes young Gorwyn to offer us a drink. We must
-accept it, I suppose, and only pray that &#8217;tisn&#8217;t in a cup they have all
-been using.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Young Gorwyn, the master of the ceremonies, the son and apprentice
-of the blacksmith, carried the cup of cider very carefully in his
-immense hands, like a child carries a nest, as though he were afraid of
-crushing it between them.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Farmer Morland&#8217;s brewing,&#8221; he said, grinning foolishly as he offered
-it.</p>
-
-<p>Clare drank; it was clean and sweet, pure apple-juice and sugar. She
-was then confronted by a difficulty with which she had no idea of how
-to cope: ought she to offer the cup to Calladine after having drunk
-from it herself?</p>
-
-<p>She had always the uneasy feeling in Calladine&#8217;s company that more
-ceremony was necessary than in her dealings with other human beings,
-conducted with perfect and unthinking naturalness. But Calladine, who
-was so grave and courtly, and who looked at her so intently while
-speaking to her, and again so intently while she replied, seemed to
-exact a different standard of manners. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_37" id="Page_37">[Pg 37]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>In this case, fortunately, he saw her unhappy hesitation, and solved
-the difficulty for her by stretching out his hand for the cup and
-draining it right off.</p>
-
-<p>But Gorwyn was watching, and, kindled by the unusualness of the day,
-winked broadly as Calladine drank, and said heartily, &#8220;There&#8217;s luck to
-you both!&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I hope so,&#8221; said Calladine in a low voice. He glanced quickly at
-Clare; she had either not heard, not noticed, or failed to interpret.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Admirable, Peter!&#8221; he said in a louder tone, as he handed back the
-cup. &#8220;Tell Daisy Morland from me and Miss Warrener, that her father&#8217;s
-brewing, which I suspect she superintends, is first class.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Young Gorwyn grinned again. &#8220;But you&#8217;ll stay to watch the broadstick,
-now you&#8217;re here?&#8221; he said eagerly, since to him it was the great event
-of the day.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, I think perhaps broadstick is scarcely a suitable entertainment
-for a young lady,&mdash;eh, Gorwyn?&#8221; said Mr. Calladine. &#8220;Races, or even
-wrestling, but scarcely broadstick,&mdash;a rough game, and usually
-unpleasant to watch at the end. I think Miss Warrener and I will ride
-away and leave you to your sports.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Gorwyn, who had at first looked astonished, opened his mouth to
-protest, then a look of contempt came over his ruddy face, succeeded
-by a sudden shyness; he mumbled something, and scampered back to his
-companions. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_38" id="Page_38">[Pg 38]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, but I wanted to see the broadstick,&#8221; began Clare.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;My <i>dear</i> young lady,&#8221; said Mr. Calladine, leaning sideways in
-his saddle towards her, &#8220;may I, for once, stand in the place of
-your father, and say that I am sure he would never approve of your
-witnessing this rough display, and indeed would be most grieved if it
-came to his ears that you had done so? May I beg you to have confidence
-in my judgment? Come, now, let us ride away together, and if you can
-obtain your father&#8217;s consent I will promise to escort you to some fair
-where you may see the game,&mdash;will that content you?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare, greatly disappointed, was too young to question Calladine&#8217;s
-decision. If he said her father would disapprove, then he must be
-right; although, privately she thought that her father, mild and vague,
-would have no views at all on the subject. Obediently, however, she
-wheeled her pony after Calladine&#8217;s horse, and they rode quietly away
-along the top of the ridge. She was thinking how sorry she was that he
-had come instead of Lovel. She did not very much like Mr. Calladine,
-although she was kind to him out of goodness of heart, because she
-thought he seemed lonely; indeed, he never ceased talking to her about
-his loneliness.</p>
-
-<p>He lived some way out of King&#8217;s Avon, right in the country; it must be,
-she thought, very lonely in his small farm-house in the evenings,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_39" id="Page_39">[Pg 39]</a></span> so
-she sometimes persuaded her father to ask him to dinner.</p>
-
-<p>On such occasions, not knowing how else to entertain her father and
-guest, she would play to them both such simple airs as she could
-command upon the piano, and sometimes would sing, accompanying herself,
-such little songs as she had picked up from Martha Sparrow or the
-country people. Mr. Calladine would come then and lean over the top
-of the piano, watching her in the candlelight in that intent way he
-had. She did not like this either; it was part of his elaborate and
-disturbing manner, but she had too much pity for him to ask him to
-desist. He seemed to like her singing; he always clapped his fine hands
-softly together and begged for more. On the whole, she did not much
-enjoy the evenings he spent at the Manor House; they were strained and
-difficult; or, at least, so she thought, although he appeared unaware
-of this, perfectly content, and in no hurry to take his leave. When
-he at last did so, Clare, whose country idea of hospitality involved
-accompanying her guest to the front door to see the last of him, was
-always slightly relieved when she watched him button up his greatcoat,
-climb into his gig, gather up the reins, and drive away into the night.</p>
-
-<p>His horse paced now beside hers, and, riding with his beautifully
-light hands, he restrained its paces to suit her pony&#8217;s, all with that
-air of chivalrous deference which she found so subtly<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_40" id="Page_40">[Pg 40]</a></span> irritating.
-It conveyed that she was not able to take care of herself, but that
-he must do it for her, in a playful, tactful way, while allowing her
-apparent liberty, and she felt now that he had taken her away from the
-games as he might have taken a little girl. It made her inclined to
-start her pony off into a gallop, but she reproved herself, remembering
-that Mr. Calladine was very much older than she was,&mdash;he must be
-quite fifty,&mdash;and that it was kind and condescending of one so fine
-and cultured to desire her company. At the same time, she could not
-help contrasting his manner with Lovel&#8217;s; Lovel was often brusque and
-even rude to her; he lost his temper with her sometimes, and never
-apologised afterwards; it was all the more insolent in Lovel, for he
-was not the gentleman that Calladine was.</p>
-
-<p>But she never felt with him the sense of strain that she felt with
-Calladine. It seemed to her as natural to meet Lovel upon the Downs as
-it would have been to meet a flock of sheep, and it never occurred to
-her either to mention or to conceal the fact to her father. Calladine,
-on the other hand,&mdash;she knew that when she got home, some obscure
-instinct would impel her to say, &#8220;Father, I rode with Mr. Calladine.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>They had allowed their horses to follow their own course, which in that
-open country was possible for miles, and Clare now perceived that they
-were being carried in the direction of a group of Grey Wethers. She did
-not at all want to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_41" id="Page_41">[Pg 41]</a></span> go to these particular Grey Wethers with Calladine;
-but when she tried to head her pony away he immediately said, &#8220;Do let
-us ride on as far as the Grey Wethers, Miss Clare. We have never been
-there together, and I have a fancy to go there with you.&#8221; Clare gave
-way; it was not worth hurting his feelings, perhaps, for a whim. They
-rode on accordingly until they came to the strange derelict stones,
-where, at Calladine&#8217;s instigation, they got off their horses and sat
-down side by side on one of the stones. Clare wondered what the object
-of this pause could be; then, looking at Calladine, she saw that he was
-nervously twisting his fingers together, and appeared by the agitation
-of his manner to have something on his mind which he was trying to say.
-She was not much surprised; she had often seen him break out under the
-influence of some unexplained emotion, and waited quietly for what was
-to come. She was not much interested either; but if it did him good to
-speak, then, poor man, by all means let him speak his fill. Finally,
-she prompted him, almost with mischief, &#8220;You seem full of disturbing
-thoughts, Mr. Calladine?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I have something to say to you,&#8221; he began. &#8220;An explanation, more than
-a confession. What do you know of me, after all? Very little, beyond
-that I am a stranger settled in these parts, living a lonely life in
-a remote farm-house with one old servant and a groom. You know that I
-have no regular occupation; that I read the <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_42" id="Page_42">[Pg 42]</a></span>classics in a desultory
-way; dabble in archæology, and interest myself in the local customs and
-topography. You know that my leisure is unlimited, and my means ample.
-You appear to take me for granted, but then I never attributed to you
-an inquisitive mind. Have you ever wondered where I came from, and
-why? have you, above all, never despised me a little for my idleness
-of a dilettante while all around you you saw other men work for their
-livelihood?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Perhaps I have despised you a little for that,&#8221; she said frankly. &#8220;As
-for the rest, no, I don&#8217;t think I have wondered. I don&#8217;t see why you
-shouldn&#8217;t lead the life that pleases you best.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Nevertheless,&#8221; he said, &#8220;I should like to give you my explanation,
-if you will be patient enough to listen. I loved a woman once,&#8221; he
-said, in a low mournful voice, as though he were disinterring the
-memory of the dead from his very bowels, and while he spoke he kept
-his eyes averted from Clare and held his unseeing gaze upon the clump
-of beeches on the high skyline; &#8220;she was wholly a woman, yet every
-great quality of woman she lacked; I mean to say, that in every mood
-of capriciousness and grace she was as wholly and divinely a woman
-as any woman who ever enchanted man and coloured the loveliness of
-his days, but under the test of all graver issues her fluidity turned
-to falseness and she slipped between my fingers. I never held her;
-no, though I held her in my arms she eluded me; even while I thought
-to possess her, her soul slid<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_43" id="Page_43">[Pg 43]</a></span> away from me in some new protean
-shape, and danced and laughed and mocked my pursuit. Oh, she was a
-will-o&#8217;-the-wisp dancing across the marshes of my life. For my life was
-indeed a marsh in those days; I sank in quicksands; I struggled out
-on to a tussock; I trusted myself again on what I took to be firmer
-ground, I sank once more, I was sucked back at every step, I was
-tempted to let myself sink for ever from sheer weariness and despair.
-But she,&mdash;she was at home among the treacheries and miasmas where she
-had led me; that light, vain soul could skim where I could only sink.
-Do you wonder,&#8221; he said, letting his eyes travel slowly round the clean
-sweep of the Downs, bare of all softness, and bringing them at last
-to rest upon her face, &#8220;can you wonder that I came to repair my life
-in this old, hard country? You may believe me or not, as you choose,
-but I got that image of the marsh so firmly fixed in my mind that to
-this day I can&#8217;t bear to walk across a bit of swampy ground, or even
-along a muddy lane. You have water here, in your country, that&#8217;s true,
-and plenty of it; but it&#8217;s straightforward water: running rivers, and
-dew-ponds up here on the heights.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;It&#8217;s true,&#8221; she said; &#8220;&#8217;tis an old, hard country; and such ghosts as
-there are are bleached bones by now, dry and clean; there&#8217;s no decay
-about them. Why, I think that the ghosts that walk among the stones
-must be as stern as the stones themselves; and that&#8217;s my fancy.&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_44" id="Page_44">[Pg 44]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And mine too,&#8221; he replied, considering her; &#8220;and if anywhere the
-uneasy dead return from their sleep,&mdash;though I am not saying that I
-believe it to be so,&mdash;it should surely be hereabouts, for in the last
-century there were enough tales current of witches and wise men, and
-similar fascinations of the simple, to raise the longest-dead of old
-Britons from his grave. But I scarcely think the local folk are much
-troubled with such ideas. They come more readily to you and me, for I
-am a stranger, as strangers are reckoned in country districts, where
-the years only begin to count as they pass into centuries; the space of
-time for an acorn to grow into an oak; and even you, who have been here
-all your life long, are not native born. The spirit of this country
-does not come to either of us as a natural right. We have learnt it,
-and so must remain always more conscious of it than those to whom it is
-as native speech.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She looked at him with the faintly puzzled expression of one who is out
-of his depth.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes,&#8221; she murmured uneasily, looking down at the ground, and kicking a
-lump of chalk into powder with the toe of her shoe. She deeply resented
-this association of herself and him as strangers to the country; Lovel
-would not have spoken so!</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You and I,&#8221; he went on, for it caressed his soul merely to utter
-those words thus coupled, &#8220;tread at least as reverent intruders among
-the rings and barrows. We do not rest among them,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_45" id="Page_45">[Pg 45]</a></span> as the shepherds
-do, simply for shelter against the winds and sleets. I came to them
-for healing; and you, even had you not been born with the capacity
-for awe,&mdash;as you were, oh, as indeed I know you were!&mdash;would have
-learnt it from that wise old man, your father. I have thought watching
-him at that delicate fingering of his shards, how he had dealt out
-to you the store of his scholar&#8217;s brain. To him, neat, tabulated,
-chronological, precise, but filtering through to yours in a strange
-jumble,&mdash;the painting of a bison on the wall of a cave, a man in thongs
-and bearskins sharpening a flint, slow glaciers crawling over England,
-kings buried on horseback in full panoply under a mound.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And did you find healing?&#8221; she inquired, catching on to the remark she
-could pursue with the least resentment.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, I found it, yes, I found it,&#8221; he replied, morosely, &#8220;if I may call
-that healing, which but exchanges one wound for another,&mdash;a poisonous
-wound, let us say, for a clean sharp one. Yes, I may call it healing,
-I suppose, for although my heart&#8217;s blood ebbs away through the fresh
-wound, there is no longer any gangrene in my system. I am purified;
-true, I may be dying, but at least I am purified. Yes, I found healing.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Dying?&#8221; she exclaimed.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, I spoke figuratively,&#8221; he replied with a toss of his hand; &#8220;don&#8217;t
-be afraid, Miss Clare, that in the course of your rambles you will come
-upon my body toppled down the side of a <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_46" id="Page_46">[Pg 46]</a></span>barrow,&mdash;though how should
-that distress you, indeed, beyond the ordinary shock of stumbling
-across a man recently dead? I am healthy enough of limb for a man of my
-age. Fifty, I am, you know,&mdash;old enough to be your father. It was kind
-of you to ask whether I found healing, and I am thankful to be able to
-tell you that I did find it; the winds of my first winter, which nearly
-blew my head off my shoulders and sent it bowling along these slopes,
-blew away my noxious thoughts. I told you I was led into miasmas; well,
-I brought them up here, clinging about me like a cloud, and the wind
-blew them away.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yet you spoke of that woman just now with a good tang of bitterness,&#8221;
-she said shrewdly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Ah, well, I grudge the wasted years,&#8221; he returned, as though desirous
-of dismissing it thus lightly. &#8220;You may take my word for it, Miss
-Clare, that I have never bared that story to a soul except yourself;
-and probably should never have bared it to you but for some foolish,
-trivial reason I was anxious that you should hear it. Now that you
-have heard it you shall not be troubled with it again, I promise you.
-It is, moreover, an old story now; a score of years old, I should say,
-though I have forgotten the dates, and in the ordinary way of things I
-never think of it now. But people hereabouts have gossiped about me, I
-know, as was only natural, and lest any story should come to your ears,
-I prefer you to know the true one. You know it now; you<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_47" id="Page_47">[Pg 47]</a></span> know I am
-neither a prisoner escaped, nor a deserter from the army, nor a hunter
-of buried gold, nor any of the things which I have no doubt the village
-has credited me with, but simply a man once disappointed in love, as
-the saying goes, though Heaven knows whether those who coined that
-saying knew what they were talking about, or to what tragedy they were
-putting a name.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;All that&#8217;s said for my benefit,&#8221; said Clare sturdily; &#8220;you do think
-on it now, and you haven&#8217;t forgotten the date; though maybe you will
-cease to think on it, since you&#8217;ve spoken it out; and it&#8217;s no longer
-simmering in your heart.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He was gratified that she should so readily have caught that inflection
-in the voice which was meant to convey courage under sorrow, rather
-than forgetfulness after the passing of years.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And should trouble come upon <i>you</i>,&#8221; he said very earnestly, &#8220;would
-you place your confidence in me? I ask it as a favour,&mdash;as a slight
-return. Whatsoever a duty a man might perform for you, will you call
-upon me and no other? You cannot know how happy your promise would make
-me. You are youth incarnate amongst these ancient hills.&#8221; He dared not
-say more, but continued to gaze at her with urgent and beseeching eyes.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Why, I think I can promise that,&#8221; she said slowly, though puzzled
-again and perplexed by his earnestness. &#8220;I think one could place
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_48" id="Page_48">[Pg 48]</a></span>confidence in you, although you are so strange and unaccountable
-both in your ways and talk. I think you would be as vehement in your
-friendship as you seem to be in your thoughts. I think you would grieve
-very much,&#8221; she continued, examining him, &#8220;if you were to fail in
-carrying out a mission for a friend.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;For you,&#8221; he interjected. &#8220;My service is not so freely placed at
-everybody&#8217;s disposal. You will have no rival claimant on my obedience.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, I will give you my promise,&#8221; she said, &#8220;though I would have you
-understand, Mr. Calladine,&#8221; she added with a childish importance, &#8220;that
-I am not in the least likely to make any call upon you. I am very well
-able to take care of myself, nor is any trouble, as you say, likely to
-come upon me.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Hush, don&#8217;t boast,&#8221; he cried, looking fearfully round, and half in
-mocking he added, &#8220;Who knows what sardonic spirits may be listening to
-your boasting? Anyway, you have given me your promise, and I should
-like you to seal it. Give me your hand,&mdash;not so reluctantly,&#8221;&mdash;for he
-had felt it struggle faintly like a caught bird,&mdash;&#8220;we are friends, you
-know,&mdash;and for one who professes to have confidence in me, I declare
-you give proof of having very little,&mdash;now lay your hand upon this
-stone, and I will put mine over it,&mdash;now repeat this vow after me....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No, no,&#8221; she said, frightened, and trying to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_49" id="Page_49">[Pg 49]</a></span> draw her hand away;
-&#8220;it&#8217;s profane; that may be a sacrificial stone for all we know....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And so resent the invocation of a Christian God?&#8221; he completed for
-her with a laugh, but the extreme agitation of his manner underneath
-his laughter alarmed her. &#8220;Or is it of me, and not really of the
-stone, that you are afraid? Surely you cannot think that your own Grey
-Wethers would harm you? So it must be of me,&mdash;a bad beginning to your
-confidence! Why, before very long you will be giving the same promise
-to another man lest you should require defence against myself.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I was never afraid of any one yet,&#8221; she said, flaming up, &#8220;Mr.
-Calladine, and as a proof of it there is my hand; now do what you like
-with it. I think that you are very bitter and wild, but I am sure that
-you would not make the worse ally for that. And no woman would say less
-than that you were wild and bitter, if she had heard you talk the way
-I have often heard you talk; but that does not mean that I am afraid
-of you, for I am not, nor of any one in this world,&#8221; she repeated,
-challenging him to contradict her.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No, daughter of the Downs,&#8221; he said with much gravity, still holding
-her hand in his own.</p>
-
-<p>She stamped her foot.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You laugh at me, Mr. Calladine; well, if you treat me as a child, why
-exact such promises from me as the one you have just asked for? But I
-am not a child; I am nineteen,&#8221; she said.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;My dear,&mdash;my dear young lady,&#8221; he said,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_50" id="Page_50">[Pg 50]</a></span> amending the endearment into
-that conventional phrase, &#8220;it is only because you are, or soon will be,
-so very much of a woman that I besought your promise. Come, solemnize
-it without any further delay; swear, not by the Christian God, but by
-the Grey Wethers themselves, by their age, and their mystery. You will
-have the advantage of me if you can devise an oath more potent or more
-occult.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He laid her hand, which he had not relinquished, palm downward upon the
-stone. The stone was cold to her touch, but Calladine&#8217;s hand pressed
-over her own was by contrast dry and burning. She swore as he had
-commanded her to do, half in derision of his fancifulness, half still
-in the lurking alarm she was too proud to betray. He appeared to be
-satisfied, and released her, though not without reluctance at letting
-her hand go, and for a moment he wished he had never taken possession
-of it, when he noted the alacrity with which she took it back, and
-the surreptitious rub she gave it on the side of her riding-coat. &#8220;So
-that is how she feels about my touch!&#8221; he said to himself, but only
-a greater gentleness stole into his manner as he thanked her for her
-compliance and held her stirrup for her to mount her pony. She sat
-easily, boyishly, in her saddle, looking down on him, and a certain
-melancholy, that was not without its solicitude on her part, and its
-wistfulness on his, overcame them both in reaction to the overcharged
-scene which had taken place between them. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_51" id="Page_51">[Pg 51]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t want you to be unhappy,&mdash;indeed I don&#8217;t,&#8221; she said, &#8220;Mr.
-Calladine; and please do not think it impertinence on my part to
-assume that you are. I know of course that I am too young to pry into
-your affairs; I haven&#8217;t the wisdom necessary; in fact I haven&#8217;t any
-qualification except sympathy, and I do ask you to believe that I have
-that. We have been friends for such a long time,&#8221; she said, looking
-down at him as though she felt a passing though true impulse to come
-closer to the bitterness of his spirit.</p>
-
-<p>His hand resting on her pony&#8217;s neck, he looked up with a rueful
-gratitude, by no means displeased that she should use the words &#8220;wild&#8221;
-and &#8220;bitter&#8221; about him, or treat his sorrows with so much veneration.
-He had not the heart to break her illusion of her own kindness with
-scornful words, but gave her a smile, which cost him a greater effort
-than he would have cared to acknowledge, and which he hoped would be
-adequate to reassure her. She smiled back at him, brightly; and with a
-touch of the heel put her pony into motion. He watched her ride away,
-along the ridge of Down, her slight figure swaying easily to the pony&#8217;s
-walk; and presently he saw her break into a canter, and heard the beat
-of the pony&#8217;s hoofs on the hard turf, until she was carried out of
-sight and hearing over the curve of the hill.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">It was so characteristic of Nicholas Lovel to keep away from the
-Scouring! Clare thought<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_52" id="Page_52">[Pg 52]</a></span> how the rest of the villagers must dislike
-him for his detachment. Not that he cared what the villagers said,
-beyond wishing that they would leave him and his affairs alone as far
-as possible,&mdash;a vain hope. Clare knew quite well that she could never
-have inveigled him into making friends with her but for their very
-early friendship when she was a child and he little more than a boy,
-when, in fact, he could not fear a rebuff from her, and, meeting her
-on the Downs, he had told her how to ride her pony, how to read the
-signs of the weather, and a dozen scraps of country craft which she had
-assimilated with great respect for his wisdom. They had drifted into
-a curious, desultory intimacy. Because they knew each other only in
-this detached way,&mdash;etherialised, as it were; stripped of the ordinary
-routine of friendship;&mdash;because she knew nothing of his life, and he
-nothing of hers; each knowing only the other&#8217;s Down-life; each admitted
-only into the other&#8217;s solitude, a part of that solitude rather than an
-intrusion; because they were really strangers to one another,&mdash;there
-existed between them a complete ease and understanding. All formalities
-were absent; they never thought of greeting one another when they met;
-they never thought of talking except when they could continue the
-current of their thoughts aloud. When they sighted one another upon
-the Downs, they simply converged until their horses fell into pace
-side by side. Often their first remark, spoken after long preliminary
-silence,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_53" id="Page_53">[Pg 53]</a></span> was without context or explanation, like a bubble rising to
-the surface from what had been going on within their minds beneath. To
-be together was like being alone. Clare never talked to Lovel about
-her father, or about the Manor House; Lovel never talked to her about
-his difficulties, or about his pursuits, legitimate or illegitimate.
-At times their talk was purely practical, when he would show her how
-to cast a fly, or how to throw a sheep for shearing, or how to twist a
-rough basket out of osiers; at other times it was all theoretical, and
-there was no puzzle, discontent, or aspiration they would not touch on
-or thrash out. Quite abruptly, sometimes, he would break off and leave
-her. She never thought of asking him, next time, why he had done so,
-any more than she would have thought of asking the breeze why it had
-dropped. There were weeks together in which she never saw him at all;
-he came and went in her life like the rover that he was. When they
-passed each other in the village, they gave no sign of recognition;
-they had never alluded to this, yet each knew that the other was
-amused by the tacit convention. She knew, of course, where he lived,
-though the site, appearance, and actuality of his dwelling seemed to
-her singularly unimportant. Half way down the village street stood
-a house, small, but very massively built of grey stones, quarried,
-in point of fact, barbarously from the monoliths that had been the
-constant resource of the local builders. The front door, when it stood
-open on to the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_54" id="Page_54">[Pg 54]</a></span> street, showed to passers-by a long dark passage,
-like a tunnel, at the further end of which opened suddenly the light
-and glow of the square walled garden, with its brilliant green turf,
-its one dark cedar, and its patches of sunlit flowers. The front door
-was surmounted by a porch, resting on two round columns; along the
-architrave of this porch was painted in neat black lettering the name:
-<span class="smcap">Nicholas Lovel</span>. It might have seemed curious to a stranger
-that no further indication should follow on to this superscription;
-there was nothing to inform the ignorant whether Nicholas Lovel was by
-trade a farrier, a joiner, a shoesmith, a tailor, or even the keeper
-of an inn; whether one might enter by the open door, and, taking
-one&#8217;s seat at a table within, rap against a glass and call loudly for
-the landlord. But strangers were few and far between, and among the
-habitual population of the village the circumstances of the Lovels had
-been threshed out so often that you might have imagined the topic would
-fall upon wearied ears. There were few trades to which young Lovel
-could not turn his hand. He could plough a field,&mdash;and in straight
-furrows, too,&mdash;he could build a rick, and thatch it when it was built,
-he could repair a waggon or repaint a gig, he could get the better of
-a horse-coper at his own job, or of a pedlar at his own chaffering,
-he could cure a sick ewe and bring back to life a weakling lamb, he
-could cane a chair and twist up a basket of osiers in less time than it
-takes to tell, he could snare a rabbit and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_55" id="Page_55">[Pg 55]</a></span> slip under the very nose
-of the keepers, he could drink most men under the table and walk most
-men off their legs, and amongst the girls of the village there was not
-one who at one time or another had not set her cap at young Lovel, and
-got from him in return neither a civil nor an uncivil word. Yet for
-all these, and other, accomplishments, there was no one trade which he
-regularly practised. Any man might call him in for a stray job, whether
-as a farm-hand, a carpenter, or a shepherd, and many were the bribes
-which had been offered to induce him to accept regular employment: he
-declined them all. Gipsy Lovel, they called him in the village; whether
-on account of his name, his looks, or his vagrant practising, was
-not defined, probably all three. In appearance he was dark and lean;
-his Roman features bronzed to a polish, so tightly his skin seemed
-stretched over his bones; and with the brown corduroy breeches of an
-ordinary yeoman he usually wore a dark red shirt, which accentuated his
-already outlandish appearance. In speech he was reserved and sardonic,
-as might be expected by those who knew,&mdash;at least by report,&mdash;the
-circumstances of his life at home. Except by report, none could know
-them, for no one was ever invited to cross that most inhospitable of
-thresholds.</p>
-
-<p>And further, there was Nicholas Lovel&#8217;s younger brother Olver, by the
-kind-hearted given occasional employment on odd jobs of carpentering,
-house-painting, and the like, for he was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_56" id="Page_56">[Pg 56]</a></span> skilful enough as a workman,
-and could be trusted to carry out his directions with the fidelity of
-that kind of brain commonly known as &#8220;simple.&#8221; He might have passed
-as a good-looking youth, with tight, chestnut curls and eyes of a
-curiously pale blue, rimmed with black round the iris, but for the
-oblique and cunning expression that was apt to cross his face like a
-cloud drifting across the moon, and the slight hint of deformity that
-clung about him,&mdash;a deformity so indefinite, that it was impossible to
-say precisely where it lay, whether in his neck being slightly sunk
-into his shoulders, or in his head being slightly too large for his
-body, or in his hands being slightly too well-formed, too sensitive
-for the hands of a workman, or in his tread being slightly too catlike
-for one of his build and bulk. He had in the village the reputation
-of slyness, a sudden shrewdness, that was disquieting and therefore
-repulsive in one whom mere simplicity would have entitled to the
-charity of all men. From this reputation of cunning the legend had
-grown in the village, as such things grow always in that fertile virgin
-soil of ignorance, the legend had grown into a variety of sinister
-shapes, all ornamented with copious and more or less picturesque
-detail: Olver Lovel&#8217;s grandmother had been burned for a witch; his
-mother, who was kept in such seclusion now by the severity of Nicholas,
-was a witch also; Olver himself practised wizardry; he went out of
-his mind when the moon was full; he was mortally<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_57" id="Page_57">[Pg 57]</a></span> feared by all
-animals,&mdash;this indeed was true, and a matter of common knowledge;&mdash;he
-controlled his evil impulses only through fear of his brother, but
-if his brother were to be taken away, then God help them all! These
-were only a few of the things that were openly uttered about Olver
-Lovel. Nicholas himself was not above suspicion. He had the same eyes
-as his brother, of the palest blue with those curious black rims,
-and the effect in his dark face, with his black hair, was certainly
-very strange. But people did not fear Nicholas as they feared Olver.
-Nicholas was a straight-forward man, reserved and uncompromising
-because his pride had so much to suffer, and no doubt his endurance
-too, living as he did between his two unusual relations; they had, on
-the whole, a good deal of sympathy and respect for Nicholas. It was
-no life, they said, for a young man. But who could help him? He would
-let no one near him, either literally or figuratively; pride was the
-hardest defence to deal with. A harsh young man; but he had much to put
-up with. And if he was harsh towards himself and forbidding towards
-other men, let them at least do him the justice to say that towards
-dumb beasts he had the gentleness of a woman for a child; ay, and the
-instinct too: the quick kind touch, and the certain remedy.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">The villagers thought him lonely,&mdash;even lonelier than he actually was,
-for they knew nothing of the friendship between him and Miss <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_58" id="Page_58">[Pg 58]</a></span>Warrener.
-They knew, certainly, that he sometimes went fishing with her down
-to the Kennet, but they thought nothing of that, for any young lady
-might be expected to take a man to carry her rod and landing-net, to
-fix her bait, and to deal with her catch. It wasn&#8217;t likely that even
-Miss Warrener would care to dabble in a mess of worms, or to get her
-fingers covered with scales, slime, and cold blood. No, nor to have
-the troublesome job of killing a pike, who of all the animal creation
-surely clung the most tenaciously to life. What they did not know of
-was the Down-life shared by Clare and Lovel; for on those splendid,
-solitary heights they could meet and meet again, unobserved by any save
-the sheep, the larks, and the circling hawks, indifferent to the pacing
-side by side of the two horses over the bitten turf. Various were the
-avocations which took Lovel to the Downs, and if occasion required he
-would call on Clare to lend him a hand, ordering her about, and she,
-meekly, followed his directions as an apprentice. She had even been in
-his shepherd&#8217;s-hut with him all day during the lambing season, when
-a blizzard swept across the hills, and he had his hands so full with
-his poor ewes that must be tended and sheltered that he had no time
-left for niceties to spare Clare&#8217;s feelings. With set teeth she had
-helped him that day, and had counted his brief comment at the end as
-a well-earned reward. And she had ridden away in the evening with her
-head held down against the driven sleet, and her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_59" id="Page_59">[Pg 59]</a></span> pony&#8217;s mane blown
-right across his neck with little lumps of ice in the rough hair, and
-behind her the yellow light that shown in the window of Lovel&#8217;s hut had
-grown smaller and more distant, and she had known that during the whole
-of the night and of many days and nights to follow he would keep the
-vigil attendant upon his trade, and would lay on the straw beside his
-little paraffin lamp the poor weak new-comers into so unpropitious a
-world.</p>
-
-<p>In all seasons and weathers she had known the Downs with him, and like
-sailors at sea they had accepted the bad with the good, without thought
-of avoidance. Like all English country people, they disliked extremes
-of heat as well as extremes of cold; a high summer&#8217;s day, when the
-heat winked along the ridge of the hills, held for them none of that
-poetic quality it holds for the idle. Their point of view was sober
-and practical; if feed grew short, they hoped for rain; if the corn in
-the lowlands were flattened by rain, they hoped for fine weather; it
-was simple. If the day were a holiday,&mdash;that is to say, if Lovel had
-taken no job,&mdash;then they were as content as any other idlers to lie
-soaked in sun upon the most exposed flank of upland they could find.
-They would pull the long grass to nibble it down to the juice at the
-end, or Lovel with a blade of grass drawn taut between his thumbs would
-shrill the empty air with strange whistlings, or they would tease the
-ants and small insects by walling them in with a circle of miniature
-chalk cliffs.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_60" id="Page_60">[Pg 60]</a></span> Their laughter spread with the song of the larks as
-fresh and clear as water, and the great spaces lay all around them with
-the cloud-shadows chasing one another down and over the slopes, and
-creating in their overhead passage the perpetual variety of mood and
-colour of the Down-country.</p>
-
-<p>Down-country, so temperamental; in halcyon days bright and blithe;
-candid in its well-being, wholesome in its wind-cleaned delight; yet
-keeping in the valleys and sweeping folds the deeper shadows which
-gave it tone like the soberness of some latent melancholy. Upon the
-heights it would receive the sun, and glitter and rejoice like a woman
-in love, but the cup of the valleys was deep with a greater richness,
-with remembrance, and foreboding. So, although simple and large in
-outline, the country,&mdash;to Clare and Lovel personal, not inanimate,&mdash;was
-not simple with a shallow or trivial simplicity; not the simplicity
-of ignorance or emotional poverty; but with a wisdom that still
-had the courage to be gay,&mdash;the reckless gaiety of the profoundly
-tragic. No monotony was possible over that landscape of sunburnt tan,
-of blue distances, and stains of a lowering purple. No monotony,
-no sentimentality; the moods all visible at once over the range of
-country, all definite and certain of their intention, whether the naked
-sunburnt heights, or the brooding plunge of shadow.</p>
-
-<p>Only in winter that ever-present reminder of tragedy fulfilled
-itself. In summer and in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_61" id="Page_61">[Pg 61]</a></span> autumn it robed itself in peacock colours,
-blue and bronze, a sorrow as sumptuous as the sorrow of a queen. But
-in the winter the splendour was gone, only an austerity like stone
-remained; grey disillusioned Downs, shaven by the winds, shelterless,
-inconsolable. Then came the snow; and up here, where no trees but
-the beech-clumps broke the white, where no hedges strove with their
-little maudlin pretence of security to lessen the rigour of the country
-towards the softness of man, here no flinching availed; grief was
-naked as joy had been naked, to be met and fought with, until that
-despondency should pass and the heights leap out once more into the
-sun of spring, with only the reverberations of the storm rolling still
-about the valleys.</p>
-
-<p>Lovel, who resembled the Downs themselves both in his exuberance of
-spirit with the threat ever-lurking, and in his despair, which was so
-extravagant and so profound when it overcame him that it seemed he
-could never again lift himself out of the slough,&mdash;Lovel who for all
-his thought and his reading had never looked into himself or named what
-he would have found there,&mdash;Lovel who could no more control his moods
-than the Downs could forbid the sun to burnish their gold-brown slopes
-or the blizzard to rack them with a hell-ride of gale and sleet,&mdash;Lovel
-came upon Clare standing in the sun knee-deep in a dew-pond on one of
-the highest ridges of the Downs.</p>
-
-<p>Her patient pony, well-accustomed, strayed<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_62" id="Page_62">[Pg 62]</a></span> and browsed near at hand;
-he snuffed the dry thymy turf; he plucked with disdain at a tuft of
-grass fit only for sheep-pasture. This was not horse-pasture, this
-bare beggarly brown turf up here in the glitter of the sun, beneath
-the exposed and unsheltered windiness of the sky. Open country, open
-country; no higher peaks to climb; miles of open rolling country
-on every side. The clean and airy liberty of open country under a
-blue-and-white heaven. Clare stood in the circle of the dew-pond
-holding her skirts picked up above her knees. She was laughing; she had
-seen first the ears of Lovel&#8217;s horse prick up over the rim of the hill,
-then she had seen Lovel himself, not looking to find her, then the
-shoulders of his horse, breasting the sharp climb, then the complete
-slim silhouette of horse and rider and two dogs at heel. And she had
-hailed him; a shout of laughter mingled in with his name; she had
-hailed him. At the top he had drawn rein, shading his eyes against the
-sun, and looking down he had seen her, standing down in the bowl of the
-dew-pond. He had caught her in the act of hesitation, afraid lest she
-should venture out of her depth. Capless, she stood in the dew-pond,
-holding up her skirts, and her white legs disappeared just below the
-knee into the water. She laughed up at him, holding her head a little
-on one side in the way he knew well, which gave her a fleeting and
-elusive appearance, so that her mouth and eyes seemed to slant upwards
-with a fugitive and sylvan air, which materialised<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_63" id="Page_63">[Pg 63]</a></span> but rarely,&mdash;or
-when, as now, he caught her at an angle,&mdash;but which always hovered
-there, not always willing to be revealed, but ready to glance out at
-the right summons, to whomsoever should hold the shibboleth to produce
-it.</p>
-
-<p>He drew rein, looking down at her, and her pony whinnied a recognition,
-and strayed loose to join Lovel&#8217;s horse.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Not deep!&#8221; he called to her.</p>
-
-<p>She ventured a few steps further.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You have seen it empty,&#8221; he rallied her.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Do you know the secret?&#8221; she asked, stopping. The water, disturbed by
-her advance, rippled round her knees.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Very few know it,&#8221; he replied cryptically.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Ah, but you, Lovel, you know all those secrets. How do they puddle the
-clay? How, to hold the water? I am sure you know it, Lovel! Are you a
-dowser, too? they say so, in the village. They say you can pace over
-the country until the hazel-twigs jump in your hand. Is it true?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;They say a lot of things in the village,&#8221; he replied laughing.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Does it matter to you what they say?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Not when I&#8217;m up here,&#8221; he replied, tossing his head, and his horse
-tossed his head too, and the bridle jingled.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, but tell me the secret of how they make the dew-ponds,&#8221; she
-persisted, kicking with her foot into the water.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;The secret would soon be a secret no longer,&#8221;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_64" id="Page_64">[Pg 64]</a></span> he answered, putting
-her off. &#8220;And I never said I knew it.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Ah, but you do,&#8221; she said; and thought that those who knew the secret
-of the dew-ponds got their knowledge in a straight line of tradition
-from the earliest inhabitants of those regions. &#8220;Oh, I do envy you,
-Lovel,&#8221; she said, forgetting that she stood in water and stamping with
-her foot so that it splashed up round her, &#8220;I do envy you all the queer
-things you have got behind you,&mdash;they all seem to run into your fingers
-with your blood.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He laughed again,&mdash;he seemed to be in a good humour to-day, and well
-he might be, with the bright grass glistening round his horse&#8217;s feet,
-and over his head the bright blue-and-white spaces where the kestrels
-hovered like little specks, and the green pattern of the fields far,
-far below. He leant over in his saddle to pat the neck of Clare&#8217;s
-muzzling pony; they were very much alone up there, with the two
-horses and the two dogs, and the clouds racing by. She stood in the
-dew-pond with that fleeting look still upon her face, as though she
-were a nymph,&mdash;a nymph of English uplands, of so fresh and candid and
-sky-mirroring a thing as a dew-pond. The olive and the myrtle were
-alien to her; the pony and the sheep were her beasts, not the goat;
-the round pool of water at her feet shone like the fallen shield of a
-young Amazon. He looked down at her; she looked up at him; they both
-represented their own particular aspect of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_65" id="Page_65">[Pg 65]</a></span> romance, each to the other.
-&#8220;Lovel!&#8221; she said, happily. They shared well-being; their own physical
-well-being, and the wholesome cleanliness of the Downs and sky.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">It was some days after this that Clare received from Calladine an
-invitation to visit him at Starvecrow. Although she was immediately
-aware that she would not reply with a refusal, she felt a shiver of
-chill as though she had been beckoned in from the warm sunshine to a
-cold and cavernous place. The impression was alarmingly vivid both
-in generality and detail. She had met the groom coming up the short
-carriage-drive of the Manor House, and after reading Calladine&#8217;s note
-looked up at the gaunt, raw-boned animal that the groom was riding, at
-its ugly quarters, and long melancholy head; she looked into the basket
-in which Calladine had sent her an offering, and saw the trout lying on
-their bed of long grasses, neatly ranged, pointed nose alternating with
-forked tail. The gift seemed to her gruesome and faintly absurd; trout,
-cold, plump, and dead. Yet on the evenings when she had gone fishing
-with Lovel under the willows, the trout as they laid them in the long
-lush grass had seemed gleaming and iridescent, cool from the water, and
-together they had examined the scales on the meshes of the landing-net.
-Lovel had lifted up their gills with his fingers, and had compared
-them to the under-side of a mushroom. But these trout of Calladine&#8217;s<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_66" id="Page_66">[Pg 66]</a></span>
-were merely dead; their eyes protruded; their gills were closed. She
-glanced up at the groom, and fancied that a despondency clung about
-him as about his horse, an absence of joy; and then she thought that
-this gloom came upon Calladine&#8217;s possessions because he revelled in
-having it so; the very name of his house, Starvecrow!&mdash;had he taken the
-house for the sake of its name! had he bought this horse because of its
-starting bones and dejected droop? engaged the groom for his sallow,
-unshaven appearance and lank hair? dismal envoys that he might send in
-reminder from Starvecrow out into a cheerful world?</p>
-
-<p>She turned slowly towards the house, carrying the basket of trout on
-her arm. She had sent back a message of thanks to Calladine with an
-intimation that she would visit him on the following day, and already
-the prospect of this visit was hanging over her, damp and chill.
-Listlessly, when the afternoon arrived she put on her muslin frock and
-her big straw bonnet, listening meanwhile for the sound of wheels on
-the gravel; she saw her own reflection in her mirror, saw herself cool
-and outwardly serene, but the picture gave her little pleasure. This
-with Calladine was one of the few appointments she had ever made in
-her free life, and it irked her curiously. From the first moment of
-her waking in the morning she had felt tied. Like a hobbled colt she
-wanted to kick herself free. That her afternoon should be restricted,
-ordained in advance,&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_67" id="Page_67">[Pg 67]</a></span>in the midst of her resentment she had laughed
-at her childishness, had been ashamed of her egoism. What would become
-of her were she suddenly to find herself bound for life? She had been
-content to look after her father&#8217;s innocent wants; she had not shown
-herself selfish towards him; she could absolve herself from that
-charge; but then, he had not encroached on her comings and goings; she
-had given freely from love what she might have refused from duty. This
-appointment with Calladine was a duty; now she was tied; she could not
-take her pony or her fishing-rod this afternoon if the whim seized
-her. No, she must wait obediently for the arrival of Calladine&#8217;s gig;
-she must climb into it and sit meekly beside the sallow groom while
-he drove her to Starvecrow. Arrived there, Calladine would be waiting
-for her, and his pleasure would be her irritation. The appointment
-which had been a restraint to her would have been only a delight to
-him. A sulky child, she stared out of the window for the approach of
-the gig. She heard it now; the scrunch of the wheels, the clop-clop
-of the horse&#8217;s trot, and now it came into sight, the familiar high,
-ramshackle affair, gaunt horse and all, clanking up the carriage-drive
-and stopping in its abrupt, dislocated way in front of the door. Clare
-went down. Martha Sparrow was in the hall; she crooned over Clare in
-her lilac-coloured gown. &#8220;A flower come to life, my pretty child....&#8221;
-Mr. Warrener came out of his study; he saw Clare standing in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_68" id="Page_68">[Pg 68]</a></span> the
-shadowy hall with Martha fingering round at her flounces; he pushed his
-spectacles on to his forehead. &#8220;Why, Clare, where are you going?&#8221; &#8220;To
-Mr. Calladine, father, I told you.&#8221; &#8220;Ah, to be sure, to be sure; well,
-he has all the luck; you&#8217;re a pretty thing to see.&#8221; She kissed him,
-laughed, sprang up into the gig, it started off clumsily, swaying from
-side to side, and the Manor House was lost to sight behind the trees.</p>
-
-<p>The gaunt horse spanked along the lanes; Clare did not talk to the
-groom, who drove with a serious concentration which promised no
-unbending. She wondered whether all the servants with whom Calladine
-surrounded himself were as unprepossessing. She was often more than
-a little impatient with Calladine for his deliberate mournfulness;
-but, more especially since he had told her in so strange a manner the
-history of his life&#8217;s passion, she had tried to school herself into a
-reverent sympathy. She felt that she was very young and consequently
-ignorant, and that he was old, sad, experienced, and entitled to her
-respect. Instinctively she folded her hands in her lap, and sat demure.
-But in a moment she was again laughing at herself, and, although she
-tried to reprove herself for the levity, at him. The vexation of the
-appointment was lifting from her; her spirits rose, now that she
-was out in the lanes and could watch the caterpillars hanging from
-the oaks; she would not be affected by Calladine&#8217;s gloom, by his<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_69" id="Page_69">[Pg 69]</a></span>
-soberness, his measured smiles. Of what use could she be to him if
-she allowed herself to become as repressed in his presence as he was
-himself? Turning to the groom, she began to talk to him, persevering
-until she got a response, and even some growls of information about
-Mr. Calladine&#8217;s stable; as Clare uncovered her own knowledge, the man
-became less grudging, and presently as their argument developed along
-lines of expert interest he was impelled to say that Miss Warrener
-evidently knew a horse when she saw one. Clare laughed merrily, and
-valued the compliment extremely. What she knew, she replied, she had
-learnt from experience and from Gipsy Lovel,&mdash;for she was glad of an
-opportunity of pronouncing his name. Ah, that was a chap for a horse,
-he said; or indeed for anything that went on four legs; that was the
-chap to go to a horse-fair with; Miss Warrener would never be cheated
-if she had Gipsy Lovel to give her advice. He seemed to have a feeling
-about horse-flesh; no need to pull their mouths open or run his hand
-over their fetlocks. He, the groom, wondered that Lovel didn&#8217;t set up
-as a horse-dealer himself. He would guarantee that Lovel could take
-in most men in the county; yes, and the whole West of England, for
-the matter of that. Clare triumphed in his sudden loquacity. Even
-the gaunt horse seemed to be sharpening its pace,&mdash;though possibly
-that might be only because they were drawing nearer to Starvecrow.
-The groom laid the whip across<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_70" id="Page_70">[Pg 70]</a></span> its withers, and it broke into a sort
-of bundling half-canter which rocked the gig up and down and obliged
-Clare to cling on to her big hat; she was amused, because she thought
-that this was the effect of Lovel. They had come now to a particularly
-deserted tract of country, along the foot of the Downs; and, after
-climbing the slope a little way, they saw a group of buildings upon an
-eminence, sheltered,&mdash;if shelter it might be called,&mdash;by a thicket of
-wind-blown thorn upon the easterly side. Other trees there were none,
-nor any other houses within sight, nothing but the tan rolling of the
-Downs and the road that climbed the hill and was lost to sight over the
-other side. She descried Calladine there at his gate, waiting for her,
-exactly as she had expected to find him. &#8220;I hesitated between coming to
-fetch you myself, and remaining here to welcome you when you arrived,&#8221;
-he said, as he came forward to help her out of the gig.</p>
-
-<p>She knew at once how pleased he was to see her. There was no
-affectation about his pleasure. It was a tremendous event for him
-to receive her at his house, and he conducted her with infinite
-solicitude, and a half-hesitation which, she knew, was intended to
-give her the opportunity of noticing and commenting upon every detail.
-By a curious process now all the naïveté of her childishness and her
-upbringing dropped from her, and she became as delicately gracious as
-any skilful woman; she remained a little aloof from him, receiving
-his deference as<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_71" id="Page_71">[Pg 71]</a></span> though it were her due, rewarding him in exchange
-with her friendliness and her interest, smiling at his eagerness with
-an amused and sympathetic smile, placing here and there the word of
-approval he most desired, and bestowing upon his possessions the
-appreciation or the gentle derision which for ever after would advance
-them in his eyes. He had never before seen her in this mood. He was
-bewildered and charmed. He had known her delightful and inconsequent,
-wayward and perplexing; he had seen her as a child, he had thought
-of her as a spirit, he had never yet seen her as a woman. Her very
-gestures, he thought, were different; quieter, more secure; and yet she
-had not lost that fugitive air of hers, that shy grace; the combination
-enchanted him. He followed her into the house; he was sure, now, that
-Starvecrow was pleasing her; he need not have been so apprehensive. To
-rest his eyes upon her in his little hall, so cool in her lilac frock,
-filled him with the deepest and most disturbing joy. It was he, now,
-who grew tremulous and at a loss, while she remained so exquisitely
-self-possessed. Seeing that he scarcely knew how best to carry on his
-hospitality,&mdash;for he seemed incapable of anything but of gazing at
-her,&mdash;it was she who led the way into the inner room, and touched his
-books and looked at the pictures on his walls, and at the view out of
-his window. Had he but known it, she was thinking Starvecrow worthy of
-its name, a desolate place, in a situation without the grandeur<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_72" id="Page_72">[Pg 72]</a></span> to
-compensate for its austerity, and without the comfort to excuse its
-meanness.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You should plant some cottage roses against your house,&#8221; she said,
-&#8220;and some bushes of Old Man&#8217;s Beard.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;It shall be done,&#8221; he replied, without taking his eyes off her.</p>
-
-<p>She sat down in his worn old leather chair, took off her hat, and
-hung it on the chair-knob. She seemed to him to light the room by her
-presence, the room which was dingy if not actually poor, and which had
-never before had in it anything so delicate and fresh as Clare with
-her muslins and her small yellow head leaning against the chair-back.
-But he was afraid almost of speaking to her, lest he should scare her
-away, so like was she to some small shy animal which by wary gentleness
-he should have enticed into his home. &#8220;You are wearing all the colours
-of the dawn,&#8221; he said, &#8220;lavender and primrose,&#8221; and ceased because he
-dared not go on to the blue of her eyes, that he thought like the blue
-of the early sky.</p>
-
-<p>She smiled at him. &#8220;You have made no garden here, in all your twenty
-years,&#8221; she said. &#8220;You should build a wall round a square enclosure,
-and fill the beds between your paths. The wall would protect you
-against the wind and you should grow lupin and iris and tulips,
-honesty, sweet sultan, and snapdragons, and a path down the centre
-between cottage lilies and China roses.&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_73" id="Page_73">[Pg 73]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>She was speaking against her own convictions; she infinitely preferred
-her Downs uncultivated; but her instinct, strangely indulgent towards
-Calladine, told her what would most comfort him.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I have no heart to do such things,&#8221; he replied, &#8220;but since you order
-it I will set about it immediately.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Mr. Calladine,&#8221; she said, leaning forward, &#8220;when you answer me so
-gravely, are you indeed serious, or are you laughing at me in your
-sleeve?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Serious! you can have no idea how serious,&#8221; he exclaimed, tempted to
-speak out his whole heart, as he had never before been tempted, by the
-sight of her earnest eyes; and he got up, and walked about the room.
-&#8220;Don&#8217;t you know, that your caprice would be my only interest? my only
-law? You are the only person,&#8221; he said, recollecting himself, &#8220;that has
-taken an interest in my poor concerns,&mdash;cared whether I steeped myself
-in sorrow or dragged myself out into the wholesomeness of a new life.&#8221;
-(&#8220;Ah,&#8221; cried Clare&#8217;s conscience within her, &#8220;how little I have cared!&#8221;)
-&#8220;But for you,&#8221; he went on, &#8220;I should have continued in my dejection;
-only your encouragement, lately, has revived me, and I have realised
-that I was not the old and finished man I had resigned myself to be. If
-you order me a garden, I will turn gardener at fifty,&mdash;if you, that is,
-will be my critic and my adviser, if you will command me to do this and
-do that.&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_74" id="Page_74">[Pg 74]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>She saw, then, how easily swayed he was, and how an idea could take
-possession of his mind, for beyond an occasional kindness she could not
-be said to have interested herself at all in his concerns or to have
-encouraged him to forsake the gloomy ways of retrospect or his solitary
-habits of life. Still she was very glad that his imagination should be
-able to thrive on such meagre nourishment; it did her no harm, and she
-was glad if it might do him good.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You have surely thought for long enough about the past,&#8221; she said idly.</p>
-
-<p>Again he seized upon her words, and she reflected with some amusement
-that she had never imagined any one so susceptible to suggestion.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I will act on what you say,&#8221; he exclaimed. He went across to his
-writing table and took from his drawer an etching of a woman, slightly
-tinted, with coarse curly hair, cruel eyes, and a large beautiful
-mouth. Calladine tore it into fragments; he flung the pieces on the
-ground and stamped on them. &#8220;I never had the courage to do that
-before,&#8221; he said, staring at Clare and breathing heavily; he looked
-really frightened at what he had done, and she knew that he wanted
-her to reassure him. For her part she wanted to laugh, but knew that
-she must not. &#8220;You should have done it years ago,&#8221; she said sensibly,
-&#8220;instead of living in the house with that locked into your drawer.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I used to take it out in the evening and pore over it until it nearly
-came alive,&#8221; whispered<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_75" id="Page_75">[Pg 75]</a></span> Calladine. He kicked the fragments with his
-toe. &#8220;You are my angel,&mdash;my guardian,&#8221; he said, turning passionately to
-Clare.</p>
-
-<p>She saw that the contradictory being was greatly shaken by what he
-had done. &#8220;He will regret it, and be glad,&mdash;be glad, and then regret
-again,&#8221; she thought shrewdly to herself. She wondered whether she had
-done wisely in not stopping his hand: would he be freed henceforth, or
-would he be haunted? &#8220;Now burn those pieces,&#8221; she said with authority,
-&#8220;or I shall think of you trying to piece them together again, when you
-sit alone here in the evenings.&#8221; The idea was half-frightening to her,
-and half-absurd. &#8220;Burn them,&#8221; she repeated, pointing to the grate.</p>
-
-<p>There was no fire, but Calladine obediently gathered up the fragments
-and burnt each one separately, holding its corner to a lighted match.
-Clare watched him, thinking how familiar must once have been to him
-those shredded features, how he must have kissed that beautiful mouth
-and imagined that he sought for truth in those narrow eyes which only
-returned him mockery. He knelt beside the grate, burning carefully, and
-crumbling the charred paper between his fingers, piece by piece. She
-felt sorry for him suddenly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You must not be lonely without your picture,&#8221; she said with great
-gentleness.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I hated it,&#8221; said Calladine; &#8220;let it go; you have delivered me. You
-saw her, didn&#8217;t you, before I burnt her? you saw her exactly as she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_76" id="Page_76">[Pg 76]</a></span>
-was: I was no match for her.&#8221; Clare thought that he could probably
-say this without exaggeration, and that, had she herself met the
-other woman, few words would have been necessary between them for the
-understanding of Calladine. How deep was the confederacy of sex! she
-had never thought of it before; she smiled at Calladine with a detached
-pity. &#8220;I have no longer any past,&#8221; he went on, &#8220;only the present,
-hourly more lovely. Shall we go out for a little and leave the dust of
-the past to settle in this room?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare was glad to go out, for the room was making upon her a sad and
-cold impression, but she found little comfort in the exterior of the
-house, ungarnished as it well could be. She began to talk to Calladine
-again about the garden he must make, for not only was she really
-distressed for his own sake by the bleakness of his dwelling, but
-annoyed, almost, in a feminine way, by the man&#8217;s incompetence to deal
-with his own existence, and not unflattered, either, by his submission
-to her directions and the attentiveness with which he received every
-word that came from her lips. She saw that he clung to her as his
-salvation; she became more autocratic, with a pretty tyranny. She would
-transform his patch of desert into an oasis; she, over at King&#8217;s Avon
-would think of this Starvecrow as blooming into gaiety and colour by
-her orders. Calladine watched her, and she knew that he watched. But
-she never allowed him to speak<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_77" id="Page_77">[Pg 77]</a></span> of herself, keeping him rigorously
-to the business of his new garden; her laughter rang out, and she
-rallied him, awaking almost against his will the rare smile on his
-melancholy lips. At moments he thought, as he followed her about, that
-he must stretch out his hands and cry to her &#8220;Clare! Clare!&#8221; No one
-ever treated him as Clare treated him; other people always took him at
-the valuation he set upon himself, composed their faces to a becoming
-sobriety as soon as they perceived his own, and quitted his grave
-company with relief. He chose to construe their acquiescence into a
-grim sort of flattery. But Clare was privileged; Clare might assume
-whatever mood she would; he would endeavour to follow her, perhaps
-clumsily, for he had lost,&mdash;or liked to think that he had lost,&mdash;the
-habit of lightheartedness; still, she should teach it to him again and
-he would renew his youth.</p>
-
-<p>He had come to the age when the sense of passing days induced a panic.
-Clare had youth, Clare had a reserve of youth on which he could draw
-without impoverishing her; he felt that she gave him life as surely as
-if he drank it at her breast.</p>
-
-<p>She seemed, as she stood in the centre of the square she had designated
-as his future garden, to be all the flowers which should blow there
-presently at her command. He said this to her, in that courtly
-artificial manner he had of saying such things, with so much froth of
-emotion underneath. It was the first personal remark he had<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_78" id="Page_78">[Pg 78]</a></span> made to
-her since they had come out of the house, and it gave him relief. But
-she only laughed again, and this time he could have shaken her with
-rough hands for her laughter, and for her holding off the words which
-would stifle him if they remained unspoken. &#8220;Clare,&#8221; he said violently.</p>
-
-<p>She glanced at him with that new self-possession; she was maddening
-him, though not with the purpose he would have attributed to any other
-woman. How she eluded him! how she would perpetually elude him! and so
-hold him forever. He knew himself to be fastidious enough to esteem
-only that which he had lost, or could never hope to seize. &#8220;Clare,&#8221; he
-repeated, this time with a genuine despair.</p>
-
-<p>They went back into the house, where tea had been made ready; she noted
-his preparations, the honey, the girdle-cakes, the fruit and cream.
-He deprecated them, &#8220;A bachelor&#8217;s house....&#8221; &#8220;What could be better?&#8221;
-she replied; and had slipped from him once more. She ate heartily,
-borrowing a handkerchief to wipe the cream from her lips, unaccountably
-a child again, and a new bewilderment to him. He now felt that what
-he might have said to the woman of whom he had had a glimpse, he
-could not say to the child who trusted herself in his house, and he
-thought with baffled anger, how ably she managed her alternative of
-weapons. A spoonful of honey in one hand, and a cake in the other,
-she leaned forward, talking to him, he more helpless<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_79" id="Page_79">[Pg 79]</a></span> than ever, and
-she more completely in control. He dared not think of his house when
-her presence should have gone out of it; he wondered whether he would
-suffer least pain by returning to his sitting-room directly the gig had
-driven away, by going for a walk on the Downs and returning only after
-dusk, or by driving her himself back to the Manor House. The idea of
-her going at all was intolerable; perhaps he had been unwise to ask her
-to come; perhaps he had only been at his favourite trick of turning the
-knife in the wound. But she was speaking, she was saying, &#8220;I shall come
-again to see whether you have prepared our garden against the autumn.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>By her movement he saw that she was about to take her leave; he leapt
-out of his own chair and stood over her, saying wildly, &#8220;Don&#8217;t go,
-Clare, don&#8217;t; how can I bear your going? don&#8217;t leave me again, stay
-with me a little longer, I can&#8217;t face the loneliness without you,&#8221; and
-a stream of incoherent ejaculations flooded from his lips, while his
-hands fumbled towards her, yet with a remnant of soberness he strove to
-restrain them. Clare looked at him calmly, with wondering eyes. &#8220;But I
-must go home if my father is not to be kept waiting for his dinner,&#8221;
-she said.</p>
-
-<p>Calladine stepped back instantly and released her. &#8220;I am sorry,&#8221; he
-said. &#8220;The loneliness, perhaps, gets a little on my nerves.&#8221; He passed
-his hand across his eyes. &#8220;You are the first <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_80" id="Page_80">[Pg 80]</a></span>visitor I have welcomed
-here for many years, and your presence threw me off my balance.&#8221; He
-tried to speak lightly. &#8220;Come, I will take you to the gig,&#8221; but still
-he lingered, looking to see whether she had left anything behind,
-in a last attempt to delay her. &#8220;Shall I drive you home?&#8221; he asked
-desperately.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; she said, not wanting his company at all, &#8220;stay here and begin to
-dig the garden.&#8221; She smiled. She was anxious to get away. Not until she
-was out in the lanes would she again breathe freely. She went without
-any appearance of hurry, thanking Calladine, who tore from his solitary
-rose-bush all the branches he could crowd into her arms, and climbed
-back into the gig as she had come. He saw her go, despair and joy and
-anguish rending him.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">The strain and anxiety of being with Calladine drove her, as always,
-towards the wish to be with Lovel. &#8220;Brother,&#8221; she could have called
-him, from the ease of his companionship. She could have put her hand
-into his, simply for the trust she had in him. But she knew too well
-that the indifference of his greeting would repulse instantly any
-such movement of confidence on her part; he would glance at her, when
-they met, and his glance would take her back into the assurance of
-their old intimacy, but there would be no softening of sentiment in
-it. Never that; a challenge and a bracing, but never compassion or a
-caress. Could she ever go with a trouble to Lovel? Her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_81" id="Page_81">[Pg 81]</a></span> instinct leapt
-up into an affirmative; he would listen gravely, would understand
-without commiserating, would counsel quietly, and would fortify her
-with a sense of his reliance in her trustworthiness. He would trust
-her to behave always as he would expect that she should behave. She
-would endure anything rather than disappoint Lovel. More: even in his
-absence, even though he should know nothing of it, she kept herself
-constantly up to the level of his standards. She winced at any thought
-of his possible disapproval. She had not for him, nor could she imagine
-herself having, the indulgent and,&mdash;school herself to reverence as
-she would,&mdash;contemptuous pity she had for Calladine; what had she
-told Calladine to do? to grow lupin and iris, tulips and honesty,
-sweet sultan and snapdragons, in a walled patch of what had once been
-Down-land! to <i>wall</i> the Down? was it possible that she had told him to
-wall in the Down? what gulf she must divine between him and herself,
-between him and the Down-country in which he had elected to live, if
-she could tell him to wall in the Down. Yes, even a square, a stray
-square of Down, forgotten between a lane and Starvecrow&#8217;s farm-house.
-What would Lovel say, if she told him that? True, Lovel himself was
-sometimes set on to plough the Down, and willingly proceeded with the
-task; but that was different: that was the old struggle between man
-and the soil from which he wrested his daily bread; Lovel would tame
-the Down to grow <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_82" id="Page_82">[Pg 82]</a></span>barley for man or roots for his cattle,&mdash;a poor crop
-at best, extorted from the recalcitrant soil, like charity from an
-irreconcilable spirit, a poor crop, flaunting red poppies for its last
-flag of insubordination,&mdash;Lovel would plough the Down for that purpose,
-and relish the tussle, meeting in mutual understanding an adversary as
-stubborn as he himself; but for his mere pleasure he would not wall in
-a square to grow the effeminate flowers of decoration. They would blow
-and curtsey, Calladine&#8217;s flowers, until a wind swept over them from the
-angry Downs and laid them low,&mdash;but stay, what had she said?&mdash;&#8220;The wall
-will protect them against the wind.&#8221; Yes, and protect Calladine too: he
-could not stand up against the winds from the Downs. So, in her heart,
-she pitied Calladine and was disposed to see him protected? What had
-he done to deserve from her the insult of that charity? She had seen
-Lovel go out into a snowstorm on the heights and had not feared for his
-discomfort or his danger, any more than he feared for hers. Calladine
-she would have prevented with kind, firm words on the threshold of the
-door.</p>
-
-<p>And it so happened, at her first meeting with Lovel after her visit to
-Starvecrow, that she, riding, sighted him in the distance following
-a plough-team over a curve of hill. He was not at work in one of the
-folds of the lower reaches, the favourite position for the rare stains
-of cultivation. He and his team were in outline against the sky,
-following the slow and classical<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_83" id="Page_83">[Pg 83]</a></span> progression of the furrow over the
-curve; the hempen reins looped slackly from the horses&#8217; heads to his
-hand; the man, the horses, and the plough pursued their way, disengaged
-from all but the essentials of their labour, with the old inevitable
-simplicity. Clare rode towards the brown patch and, reaching Lovel,
-rode at a walk beside him up and down the freshly-turned furrows.
-The bright share cut cleanly into the sod, turning it over. They
-both watched it, as it slid through the sod, with a professional and
-satisfied criticism. &#8220;Poor soil,&#8221; Lovel said once; otherwise they had
-not spoken. She liked to watch him plough, appreciating his dexterity,
-and the jump of the plough-shaft under his hand; she liked his voice
-ringing out to the horses at the turn. The slow rhythm soothed her.
-&#8220;Who are you ploughing for?&#8221; she asked. &#8220;Morland,&#8221; he said briefly.
-&#8220;Shall you be finished by six?&#8221; she asked, looking across at the
-westering sun; and he nodded. &#8220;I&#8217;ll wait,&#8221; she said, and getting off
-her pony, she slipped the reins over her arm and stood watching Lovel
-without impatience.</p>
-
-<p>At six he unhitched his team and came across to her, the horses
-slouching along behind him. &#8220;An ungrateful job,&#8221; he remarked, staring
-resentfully at the stony furrows; &#8220;they never put me on to the loam;
-always the chalk for me.&#8221; &#8220;I wish you had a bit of land of your own,&#8221;
-she said. &#8220;Ay, I&#8217;d get the better of it,&#8221; he replied, suddenly eager. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_84" id="Page_84">[Pg 84]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>His team stood patient, heavy and shining compared to her small pony.
-The curious light of sunset began to creep over the Downs, turning
-their tan to a rosy orange. &#8220;Fine weather,&#8221; nodded Lovel. He turned
-to his horses, and began to adjust a bit. The rooks were settling on
-the patch that he had ploughed. He stooped down, and picking up a lump
-of earth, crumbled it between his fingers. Clare, observing his fine,
-bony, downward-bent face, knew that he was reflecting. Sure enough, he
-raised it to say, &#8220;How would you bring them up, if you had children?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Have you been thinking about children?&#8221; she asked, amused.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;It&#8217;s thinking about children,&#8221; he replied seriously, &#8220;that shows
-you the things we base life on. There&#8217;s money, there&#8217;s humbug, and
-there&#8217;s death. What do we say over and over again to children? &#8216;Don&#8217;t
-touch that, you&#8217;ll break it, it&#8217;ll cost money to replace.&#8217; &#8216;Be
-polite,&#8217;&mdash;that&#8217;s humbug. &#8216;Don&#8217;t do that, you&#8217;ll hurt yourself,&#8217;&mdash;that&#8217;s
-death, really, or at any rate the fear of injury. A child doesn&#8217;t see
-much difference between being alive or being dead. As for money, or
-for time, which is the same thing, it takes him years to get his brain
-round those two things. It&#8217;s a fine and careful system we&#8217;ve got,
-haven&#8217;t we? While I was following the plough, I was having an imaginary
-conversation with a child. &#8216;If I was dead,&#8217; said he, &#8216;I shouldn&#8217;t know
-that I was dead, so what<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_85" id="Page_85">[Pg 85]</a></span> would it matter?&#8217; And I couldn&#8217;t find an
-answer in my head.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But if you had children of your own,&#8221; said Clare, &#8220;you would find
-yourself bringing them up in the same way.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, perforce,&#8221; he replied, &#8220;but that&#8217;s the end of all theories. We&#8217;re
-chained by necessity; it&#8217;s the wire across the path that brings the
-horse down in mid-gallop. We&#8217;ve got to teach our children caution,&mdash;the
-fear of death,&mdash;merely to keep them alive until they grow up. And all
-that we should enjoy teaching them is obscured by the don&#8217;ts and the
-shoutings-out to keep their limbs whole and our crockery unbroken.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well,&mdash;and humbug?&#8221; she said.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;That&#8217;s civilisation. &#8216;What&#8217;s polite,&#8217; asks the child, and &#8216;what&#8217;s a
-lie?&#8217;&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Would you like to have children of your own?&#8221; asked Clare.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes,&#8221; replied Lovel briefly, and changed the subject. &#8220;I have to bring
-a handful of sheep home for Mr. Morland from the fair at Marlborough on
-Tuesday. Will you be going to the fair? Horses, mostly.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll go with you,&#8221; said Clare in delight, clapping her hands.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Better meet me there, as &#8217;twere by chance,&#8221; said Lovel, suddenly a
-little grim. &#8220;&#8216;Miss Warrener taking up with gipsies,&#8217;&mdash;I can hear them
-talk. No, meet me there, make out you&#8217;re interested in a pony, and
-fetch me to have a look at him.&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_86" id="Page_86">[Pg 86]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But we can ride home together?&#8221; said Clare crestfallen.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;We&#8217;ll meet outside the town and come home over the Downs. I don&#8217;t want
-all the gig-wheels in amongst my sheep.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She laughed suddenly, seeing how practical he was, and liking it.</p>
-
-<p>He slipped the reins of his team from off the gate-post where he had
-hitched them, and hoisted himself, sitting side-ways, on to one of the
-great elephantine backs. He sat there, slack and swaying to the horse&#8217;s
-tread, in the manner of all carters, and the other two horses lumbered
-after him, their hoofs going plop-plop in the thick dust of the road,
-and the hair round their fetlocks flopping as on spaniels&#8217; paws. Clare
-followed him, light on her pony. They did not become him well, she
-thought, those great horses; he demanded the slimmer, swifter animals
-of creation, hares, Arabs, or deer. But it amused him to play the
-plough-boy. How indifferent he seemed, she thought,&mdash;scarcely looking
-at her, riding on with his gaze held towards the sunset; how different
-from Mr. Calladine&#8217;s eagerness to propitiate her; and a tiny sore of
-feminine vanity was pricked. Then she laughed at herself, immediately;
-what was she expecting from Lovel, her Lovel? expecting him to be
-different from himself? she would not like it if he were. And she knew
-that he was content to have her there, even though he never troubled to
-look around. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_87" id="Page_87">[Pg 87]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Lovel set off in a practical mood for Marlborough fair. He was thinking
-of the sheep he had to buy and bring home for Farmer Morland; in a way
-the farmer&#8217;s trust provoked in him a sort of contemptuous pride, and,
-poacher and free-lance though he was, he would have scorned to make
-a penny&#8217;s profit for himself out of the transaction. The commission
-was given him to execute; the farmer relied upon his honesty and his
-knowledge; the thing was simple: that was a trust of which he would not
-take advantage. On his lawless expeditions, he was betraying no man&#8217;s
-confidence; the keepers all knew him, and, meeting him unprofessionally
-in the lanes, would exchange with him a grin and even a wink of
-understanding. They stood for the law, and he for the skill that would
-defeat the law; they knew it, and he knew that they knew it; that was
-a frank challenge, with sport in it on either side; but as for Farmer
-Morland&#8217;s sheep, a mere matter of money, he would never demean himself
-to a bargain with the middle-man, and the farmer&#8217;s interests, for the
-moment, were his own. He might next week be snaring the same farmer&#8217;s
-ditches; that was a separate matter.</p>
-
-<p>At the back of his mind, as he rode ambling along on the strip of grass
-at the roadside towards Marlborough, he retained the knowledge that he
-had arranged with Clare a meeting at the fair. The knowledge lay there,
-like a warm patch in his consciousness, and he enjoyed <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_88" id="Page_88">[Pg 88]</a></span>keeping it just
-out of sight, while he directed his thoughts on to the sheep, and noted
-the farmers, shepherds, and cattle-men who streamed along the road in
-the same direction that he himself was taking, some on horseback going
-at a quick trot, some in their high spanking gigs, and some crawling
-in farm-carts with pigs and calves bundled up under a net. All the
-pastoral population of the district seemed to be streaming towards
-Marlborough along the great arterial road, and Lovel had no doubt that
-they were streaming equally towards it along the road on the further
-side of the town, and not along the main road only, but converging
-upon Marlborough by all the lanes and lesser roads, from Devizes and
-Savernake, from Ogbourne St. George and Ogbourne St. Andrew, from the
-Winterbournes and the Hintons. He surveyed them as they passed him;
-they were known to him for the most part, solid men and honest enough,
-their faces as broad and open as the country which had bred them;
-and the shepherds, who with their slow, limited movements seemed to
-resemble the animals committed to their care, contented in not having
-a preoccupation beyond the recurrent business of the animal year,
-with its breeding, shearing, and dipping; and the old wiseacres, who,
-although they no longer bought or sold, made a practice of attending
-all the local fairs where their fat cobs would carry them, there to
-criticise and shake their heads over the methods of their juniors.
-Lovel watched them all go by,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_89" id="Page_89">[Pg 89]</a></span> feeling himself slightly alien, as
-though he had been all the while conscious of his darkness beside their
-ruddiness.</p>
-
-<p>Gig-wheels rattled and hoofs spanked crisply along the ringing road,
-and Lovel watched them go by, the stream, like life itself, hurrying
-past him. That old road had known the traffic of the past and present,
-and,&mdash;although there was not much to tempt his reflectiveness in
-the wide airiness of the light-coloured summer morning,&mdash;he said
-to himself, addressing his thoughts to the rubicund pre-occupied
-agriculturists, that after all the hair-splitting and tangle introduced
-by love, malice, envy, ambition, or their kindred, were cleared aside
-and done with, the main business of life was nothing more than the
-maintenance of life, else why all this buying and selling, this labour
-and breeding, this system which produced tilled fields and stout
-farmers trotting to market, cattle-pens in Marlborough market-place,
-and booths with headstalls and shovels? so that nine-tenths of the
-population were so taken up with the business of living that it was
-time to die before they had ever had leisure to take a look at life at
-all. Lovel, thinking thus, looked at them in his detached way with a
-little envy, a good deal of sarcasm, and a complex wistfulness, failing
-to find any meaning in the conclusions his logic had led him to. A lot
-of pother, just to keep alive; and for what purpose?</p>
-
-<p>All over the civilised world, on which Marlborough was a speck, they
-were doing it; but<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_90" id="Page_90">[Pg 90]</a></span> they would not understand Lovel if he told them so,
-and he knew better than to diminish his reputation of being a practical
-man.</p>
-
-<p>And now in spite of all his thoughts which bore him away on absences
-of speculation, his horse, which had been carrying him more soberly
-along, brought him in sight of Marlborough, and he saw the concourse of
-gigs, from which the horses had been unharnessed and led away, standing
-parked with the shafts stuck upright in the air, and beyond them the
-lime-whitened hurdles which penned up the tossing sheep; he saw the
-gaitered legs moving among the open spaces; he heard the barking of
-sheep-dogs as they rushed excitedly round, he heard the cries of the
-vendors and the lowing of the puzzled cattle. A cattle-market and horse
-fair was to him no novelty; he got off his horse, and, not thinking any
-more now of the cumbersome system of civilisation which had gathered
-all those men and beasts together from their homes to the same spot at
-the same hour, he walked round surveying with as shrewd an eye as any
-farmer there the merits and demerits of the goods and livestock offered
-for sale. The principal business of the sale was not yet begun, but
-a good deal of private bartering and haggling was going on, and the
-sellers at the opening of their booths were crying their wares, whether
-wooden baskets, hay-rakes, tarred twine, leggings, hedging gloves,
-chaff-cutters, milking-stools, scythes, sickles, carters&#8217; whips,
-churns, shears, or in fact any of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_91" id="Page_91">[Pg 91]</a></span> the smaller articles necessary to
-pastoral or agricultural existence. The whips hung up in heaves made
-gay with scarlet braid; the wooden goods were displayed along the front
-of the booths, clean and newly-planed, showing the honest grain of
-the wood and smelling fresh of sawn edges and rosin; and on some of
-the booths, fluttering like flags, were hung coloured petticoats and
-shawls to tempt the men to bring home a remembrance to their women.
-There were tinkers too, selling shining saucepans, and gipsies with
-bead necklaces; a dancing bear ambling along on a leash; hokey-pokey
-carts, and a hurdy-gurdy; and outside the town, in a field, was
-encamped a travelling circus, with a roundabout and a set of swings,
-that awoke in its progress shrieks of terror and ecstasy all over
-rural England. Among the various attractions, Lovel moved quietly and
-alone, his two dogs at his heels, as self-contained as their master.
-Several strangers threw curious glances at him, for his quiet step,
-which they thought stealthy, and the darkness and leanness of his air,
-which so differentiated him from the fair sturdy weight of the crowd
-of countrymen. Interrogation by these strangers evoked a glance and a
-reply, contemptuous in intention, yet respectful in its immediate hint
-of mystery, &#8220;Egyptian, they do say ... queer tales.&#8221; But Lovel, if he
-noticed these rare enquiries, paid no attention; he was accustomed to
-feel himself shunned and dreaded, and his dogs seemed to share his
-loneliness, for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_92" id="Page_92">[Pg 92]</a></span> they never crossed the road to nose another dog, but
-kept to Lovel&#8217;s heels, and woke to interest only when there were sheep
-or steers to be shepherded, in the same way as the man was scornful
-and kept himself aloof, but spoke keenly and with authority when any
-question arose relating to his various professions.</p>
-
-<p>Amongst the cries and distractions of the market Lovel tried to keep
-his mind fixed upon the sheep business which had brought him there,
-until that should be despatched, but there was another business which
-kept his eyes straying round, and that was the hope of perceiving
-Clare, a small and merry figure, with her pony&#8217;s rein slung over her
-arm. He did not shirk, in his own mind, the desire he had to catch
-sight of her, or the sudden relief and satisfaction that sight would
-bring him. So long as she was there, Heaven might pour and thunder;
-but all would still be well. So long as he had not seen her, the sun
-might shine; there would still be a darkness at his heart. Lovel long
-since had faced this truth with resolution and a complete despair; but
-with no attempt to delude himself or to minimise. It lay quietly at
-the bottom of his heart, a quiet patch of certainty, which shouts and
-jostlings and an alert scrutiny of the frightened herds were powerless
-to disturb. It was there, like a thing he must put out of sight for the
-moment, but to which he would have to turn presently, when his business
-was finished; he would have to turn to it,&mdash;not reluctantly, but in
-due<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_93" id="Page_93">[Pg 93]</a></span> course, like returning home,&mdash;he would have to attend to it,
-grapple with it, decide what was to be done.</p>
-
-<p>He found that his eyes strayed round increasingly, looking for her; her
-continued absence produced an emptiness, in which all things seemed
-meaningless and noisy. Then he saw her, standing at a little distance
-chatting to the landlord of the Royal George Inn, and a great calm
-spread, lake-like, over him. She was at hand; nothing else mattered. He
-proceeded quietly to transact his business, having all his faculties
-now undistracted about him; he did not even want to look at her, now
-that he knew that she was there; she would wait for him and though they
-both stood talking to other people, without betraying the consciousness
-of one another he knew that they were really converging, that their
-two lives were really converging upon the same moment when they would
-join up and turn to leave the market-place, without a word spoken,
-together. Sure enough, next time that he looked up, she had drawn a
-little nearer; he was glad; he felt his absolute silent unity with her,
-without any question of command or submission on either side, an almost
-sexless unity, and one that had grown up without any agreement spoken
-in words.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Those&#8217;ll be father&#8217;s sheep, Lovel?&#8221; said a voice ingratiating, at his
-elbow.</p>
-
-<p>He looked down, and saw Daisy Morland, the farmer&#8217;s daughter, her large
-freckled face raised amiably to his between the puffed red ringlets.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_94" id="Page_94">[Pg 94]</a></span>
-Lovel disliked Daisy as much as Daisy liked him; he avoided her company
-as pointedly as she sought his; the fact that he was for the moment in
-her father&#8217;s employ no doubt encouraged her to think that she had a
-certain claim on him; and now especially when his mind was bent upon
-Clare she seemed to him more than usually aggressive.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll help you drive them home,&#8221; she exclaimed brightly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No need, I have the dogs,&#8221; said Lovel, and added, &#8220;thanks,&#8221; which he
-was far from feeling.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No trouble, you know,&#8221; said Daisy, giving him a look full of meaning.</p>
-
-<p>Several of their neighbours were watching the scene with amusement.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Best let me take them quietly,&#8221; said Lovel; &#8220;and anyhow,&#8221; he added, as
-though that settled the matter, &#8220;I&#8217;m riding.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, but I&#8217;ve got the cob!&#8221; cried Daisy triumphantly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Best not,&#8221; said Lovel, for he could think of nothing else to say.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But I say yes,&#8221; said Daisy. &#8220;Come, Lovel,&#8221; she persisted in a coaxing
-voice, &#8220;my own father&#8217;s sheep? You wouldn&#8217;t stop me riding alongside
-you?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Lovel felt himself beaten; he had, indeed, no reasonable objection to
-raise.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I shan&#8217;t be taking them by the high road.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;So much the better,&#8221; said Daisy. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_95" id="Page_95">[Pg 95]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>A clear voice said beside them suddenly, &#8220;Lovel, I have a favour to
-ask; I don&#8217;t like riding alone in such a crowd of people, may I ask
-your escort back to the Manor House when you go?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He turned upon Clare, who had come up unobserved, and saw the mischief
-beneath the request so formally and demurely proffered.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Of course, Miss Warrener, I am at your service,&#8221; he replied instantly,
-and they stood, for a moment, the two of them together, looking at
-Daisy, whose freckled face had grown suffused with an unbecoming red,
-that clashed with the red of her hair and spread patchily round her
-throat down to the opening of her gown.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Forgive me for interrupting you, Daisy,&#8221; said Clare serenely.</p>
-
-<p>Daisy mumbled a &#8220;No matter, miss,&#8221; class triumphing over sex.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Can I get your pony for you, Miss Warrener?&#8221; said Lovel to Clare
-politely.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I will wait till you are ready,&#8221; said Clare politely to Lovel!</p>
-
-<p>Their eyes met.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Let us go,&#8221; said Lovel irresistibly.</p>
-
-<p>With the clamour of the market all round them they man&#339;uvred the little
-flock of sheep out of their pen into a side-street, leading their
-horses till they should be clear of the town. The cries of the market
-place died away behind them,&mdash;the market place where Daisy still stared
-after them with a stare of dull, revengeful anger, too<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_96" id="Page_96">[Pg 96]</a></span> stupefied to
-care as yet that the whole of Marlborough should have witnessed her
-humiliation. But, having no pride, she minded this less than the loss
-of the ride she had promised herself with Lovel. Miss Warrener had got
-him, taken him coolly away from under her very nose; they had drifted
-away together without any fuss as though they belonged naturally to
-one another. Miss Warrener! Who would have thought of meeting Miss
-Warrener at a cattle-market? It was not the first time, either, that
-Daisy had seen Lovel and Miss Warrener together, not by any means the
-first time, since she was not above following Lovel secretly and spying
-upon him up there on the Downs when he thought himself safe. But who
-could have thought that the girl would have come to Marlborough fair
-for the purpose of meeting Lovel? for Daisy had no doubt that that had
-been Clare&#8217;s intention; and so cool about it, so lady-like, &#8220;Lovel,
-I have a favour to ask&#8221; indeed! &#8220;Lardy-da!&#8221; said Daisy to herself,
-mincingly, as she angrily imitated Clare&#8217;s manner in her own mind,
-affecting to despise it, while really envying it as she would never
-have acknowledged.</p>
-
-<p>She woke to the realisation that the market was still proceeding,
-with its shouts, its jostlings, and its huddling of beasts, round her
-immobilised figure, and, bestirring herself, she went in search of the
-fat cob, meaning to follow (at a distance, and keeping out of sight),
-Lovel and Clare on their ponies, who, she calculated, must by now<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_97" id="Page_97">[Pg 97]</a></span> be
-driving the little flock before them over the crest of the hill.</p>
-
-<p>And she saw them go, with the eyes of a jealous woman, and knew that
-during the two succeeding days, while Lovel kept the flock at pasture,
-Miss Warrener joined him again, and sat with him on the Grey Wethers;
-she saw all his length stretched on the grass at Miss Warrener&#8217;s feet,
-and saw their fingers close together over some cat&#8217;s cradle that they
-were playing. But she saw no more than that, though she watched so that
-there wasn&#8217;t much that her eyes could have missed.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">Lovel rode slowly away along the back of the Down, the woolly flock
-tossing and huddling along in front of him, in a hurried, senseless
-way, controlled by the barking of the two sheepdogs, who were swift to
-chase up a straggler, or to straighten out any unseemly bulge at the
-side of the flock,&mdash;that same flock that he had bought at Marlborough
-fair for Farmer Morland. Lovel, knowing he could trust his dogs, rode
-in an abstraction. The afternoon sun cast fitful, fan-shaped gleams
-down through the thin clouds, like sunbeams passed through a sieve, or
-seen through a veil of the finest rain; it produced an effect of shadow
-and wet gold familiar to him in his comings and goings over the Downs,
-but now for the first time it occurred to him to compare the outside
-world with his own life; and, while his meetings with Clare might
-stand for that wet<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_98" id="Page_98">[Pg 98]</a></span> gold, the shadows fell mournfully into a yet more
-inevitable analogy.</p>
-
-<p>He came down into the village by dusk, regretful as ever to exchange
-the heights for the hollow. Up there he seemed to shake off for a
-little the burden of his life, which as soon as he re-entered the ring
-of the village he resumed. He was, however, too well-accustomed to this
-sensation to pay any particular attention as he passed through the
-gap of the embankment. &#8220;Charmed circle,&#8221; his mother had often croaked
-to him, but he always shrugged disdainfully, knowing well that his
-imagination was all too ready to be led away along such lines, and
-being determined to keep his good sense wholesomely about him. The
-tossing woolly backs of the sheep preceded him now in a long wedge,
-four or five abreast, down the narrow road; they bleated uneasily, and
-tried to break through the hedge on either side. &#8220;Poor silly things,
-ye don&#8217;t like being penned up any better than the rest of us,&#8221; Lovel
-said to them, as he bent from his horse to open the gate into the
-field, and called to his dogs to head off the flock, which crowded back
-helter-skelter through the gate and then dispersed themselves in a
-sudden browsing content in the field among the monoliths.</p>
-
-<p>Lovel called off his dogs and pulled the gate shut again, with the
-crook of his riding whip. He surveyed the sheep for a moment over
-the gate: they were already grazing, dim shapes in the dusk, on the
-comparatively rich pasture after<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_99" id="Page_99">[Pg 99]</a></span> the short turf of the Downs. &#8220;A
-good lot,&#8221; Lovel thought professionally, &#8220;and all for the butcher
-to-morrow,&#8221; but he had no sentiment to waste over the fate of the
-sheep. He rode on into the village, leaving the circle of the
-embankment with its few naked trees, behind him; ahead of him, the
-church spire rose up against the sky, and presently as he turned the
-corner the village street came fully into view, with all its necessary
-provisions for the conduct of existence: houses for folk to be born in,
-shops where they might purchase the paraphernalia of daily life, the
-tavern where they might be merry, the church where they might worship,
-be christened, married, or buried according to their passing needs,
-and the chapel where, if they were so inclined, they might differ as
-to their faith with their fellow-men. Church and Chapel Lovel ignored
-altogether, a work which his mother had begun for him by refusing
-flatly to have him made a Christian. &#8220;You&#8217;ll call him Nicholas Lovel
-for all that Parson don&#8217;t souse him,&#8221; she had said, arms akimbo, to the
-indignant deputation of the parish.</p>
-
-<p>John Sparrow was turning into the Waggon of Hay as Lovel rode past it.
-&#8220;Come join us, neighbour?&#8221; he said half in mischief; the wits of the
-village lived in constant hope that some day, some day, a liquor potent
-or sufficient enough should be found to loosen the lips of Gipsy Lovel,
-and what secrets they would hear then! Lovel was briefly tempted, then
-he shook his head, and passed on: his mother and brother<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_100" id="Page_100">[Pg 100]</a></span> would be
-waiting for their meal for him, too helpless to begin without him since
-he had said he would be home by four. At that moment the Church clock
-struck six: he was two hours late, two hours he had idled away with
-Clare. He strung himself up to endure the reproaches with which he knew
-he would be greeted.</p>
-
-<p>He left his horse in the small paddock at the back of the house, and,
-carrying the bridle and saddle over his arm, returned to the street and
-went into the house by the front door. The passage within was dark, but
-by long habit he found the hooks on which to hang up his gear, and at
-the noise he made in doing so, and the tread of his riding boots on the
-flagged floor, his brother came eagerly out into the passage, carrying
-a candle.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, Nicholas, is it you? Why, you promised to be home by four, and it
-is gone six; where in the world have you been all this time? I have
-been three times down the road to look for you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I wish you would do nothing of the sort when I am late,&#8221; Lovel said
-curtly. He hated his brother at that moment, he hated the dark house
-and the implied reproach; his two hours with Clare flooded over him.
-&#8220;Is supper ready, at least?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Olver whined, &#8220;I had forgotten about supper,&mdash;I thought only of
-you,&mdash;don&#8217;t be angry with me, Nicco,&mdash;I know I should have set it out.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;It does not matter,&#8221; said Lovel: if he got angry Olver would cringe,
-and whine the more.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_101" id="Page_101">[Pg 101]</a></span> &#8220;Give me the candle, I will see to it.&#8221; He took
-the candle from Olver&#8217;s hand, and Olver&#8217;s strange eyes gleamed on him
-in its light with questioning timidity. The grandfather&#8217;s clock ticked
-loudly out of the dark recesses of the passage. &#8220;I hope you have kept
-the fire going,&#8221; said Nicholas, opening the door into the living room.
-Olver followed at his heels with the dogs.</p>
-
-<p>The living-room was dark and low, lit redly by the logs in the open
-fire-place, and because there was neither paint nor paper on the
-walls the great stones of the masonry were visible. The eye looked
-down instinctively to find a floor of hard-trodden mud,&mdash;and was
-disappointed, for the floor here, like that of the passage, was formed
-of flag stones. There was little furniture: a centre table, which
-served for meals, a few chairs of cane and wood, a tall dresser reared
-against one wall, containing on its shelves the crockery for everyday
-use, and a shelf above the fire-place, on which stood a row of china
-fruits in bright, shining colours,&mdash;this comprised the sum total of
-furniture and decoration in the whole room. Lovel scarcely noticed
-what was in the room and what was not; he liked the stone walls, and
-would not have them covered up, but them he liked for the sake of their
-tradition and of the quarry from which they had come.</p>
-
-<p>He now set the candle on the table, and got from out of the cupboard
-under the dresser a loaf of bread, some cheese and butter, and the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_102" id="Page_102">[Pg 102]</a></span>
-necessary knives and plates. He did this menial work mechanically; he
-had long ceased to expostulate with his brother, or to induce him to
-mend his neglectful ways. He supposed, when he thought about it at all,
-that till the end of his life he would continue to serve and provide
-for his mother and his brother. He was their provider, their protector,
-their victim, their master, and their slave; that was his function, and
-he did not complain against it. A servant he would not get, even could
-he have paid the wages ten times over, because of the tattle carried
-to the village. He saw, then, in the simplicity of his mind, no other
-course open to him than to perform all the duties himself.</p>
-
-<p>He set aside upon a tray a cup of tea, when he had made it, and a bowl
-of gruel for the bedridden old woman upstairs. This he gave to Olver,
-telling him to carry it up carefully, and stood himself at the foot of
-the stairs holding up the candle for a light. He heard the door open
-above, and his mother&#8217;s querulous voice. He smiled grimly to himself as
-he thought of how long she had been waiting for her tea, and of what
-she would have said could she have known the cause, and have seen the
-two figures of himself and Clare standing in the sunlight on the Downs.
-This radiant vision of Clare crossed his heart in a flash; it hurt him.
-<i>Had</i> his mother seen them? he never knew himself the true extent of
-the powers he must not allow himself to think about, because he was
-afraid of them.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_103" id="Page_103">[Pg 103]</a></span> Gipsy Lovel, he knew they called him in the village....</p>
-
-<p>Olver came down again, and still his eyes sought his brother&#8217;s face
-to find whether he had been forgiven. His brother&#8217;s servility and
-excessive devotion to himself exasperated Nicholas. He sat over his
-supper tossing bits of food to the dogs, and trying to pretend to
-himself that Olver with his searching eyes and anxious face was not
-sitting opposite to him in mute beseeching, hanging on to his looks and
-gestures. Nicholas despised himself for his churlishness, but to-night
-his home, his brother, were violently intolerable to him. He could not
-breathe, he was being stifled; he rose nervously and kicked the logs
-into a blaze; in the middle of doing this he swung round.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Why do you follow me so with your gaze?&#8221; he asked impatiently.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You are angry with me, Nicco, for having forgotten the supper, but
-indeed I thought only of you, and you are all I have in the world.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Lovel said, not unkindly, &#8220;Well, you wasted your anxiety: I am better
-able than most to look after myself. I am not angry any more,&#8221; but in
-spite of his words he still felt that the house oppressed him, and
-that a restlessness, usually kept under control, was gnawing at him.
-He knew well whom to blame: it was Clare, who appeared to him the
-personification of all he had abjured. He had had Clare for two hours
-before his eyes, the sight of her stirring him as the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_104" id="Page_104">[Pg 104]</a></span> wind stirs a
-bell, and now in the place of Clare he was returned to the monotony
-of his sad home; in the full determination not to think of Clare he
-crossed over to the fire where his dogs already lay sleeping, filled
-his pipe and lighted it, and forthwith began to dream of nothing but
-Clare as he sat gazing into the heart of the red ashes.</p>
-
-<p>She was so little known to him; he liked to picture,&mdash;yet his
-bashfulness made of it a fearful pleasure,&mdash;the ordering of her room,
-of her clothes laid neatly in drawers; he thought of her ribbons; he
-knew that in the evenings she discarded her gauntlets and her cap and
-wore soft coloured silks&mdash;he had heard Martha Sparrow say so. He had
-never seen her in these; was never likely so to see her; he trembled
-at the thrill of so seeing her: her arms would be bare, her throat
-rounded and white, with red corals up it. Yet he was not sure that he
-desired to see her thus, save as an experience, for thus the difference
-between them would be most emphasised; when he met her upon the Downs,
-and their ponies fell into step side by side, then she was at her
-closest to him, seeing the heavens and the hills with the same eye,
-knowing the same things as he knew, reading the signs of the weather,
-picking up the same landmarks familiar to them both; but such was the
-tremulousness of his mind that he wavered between the preference of
-knowing her at her closest, or at her most remote: the one caressed
-him infinitely, but the other mystified and tempted him, and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_105" id="Page_105">[Pg 105]</a></span> made his
-pleasure into a rapturous pain. What hope had he of ever beholding
-in the flesh that wraith which his fancy evoked? he, Lovel, sitting
-over the fire with his two rough dogs and his mazed brother, and at
-the end of a day&#8217;s shepherding, while she dined at the Manor House
-with her father in the warmth of lamplight and the quiet dignity of
-pervading scholarship? She was gracious enough to him when they met on
-the hills; there, the closeness of their age and pursuits made them
-forgetful of their other disparities; the same rain made them both
-wet, the same wind ruffled their hair; but with her nod of farewell,
-kindly though it might be, they were instantly severed: he sank, she
-rose, and drifted out of his reach. He was indignant that an accident
-of fortune should be the mean occasion of parting them, an accident of
-fortune, not of birth, for by lineage the Lovels, although so fallen,
-had, in the pride of their Egyptian blood, no comparison to fear. Then
-he remembered that a deeper irony kept him apart from any woman. He had
-before him constantly the sight of his mother and brother to uphold
-him in the resolution that with the three of them the race must end.
-Such blood must not be carried on. But because the primitive instincts
-were deep and intractable in him, the renunciation roused his anger;
-his animal birthright was to beget sons, and he rebelled against the
-chance that cheated him of it; and in the same train of thought came
-the image, whose lovely audacity<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_106" id="Page_106">[Pg 106]</a></span> appalled even while it enraptured
-him, of his children and Clare&#8217;s; he saw their strong limbs and heard
-their laughter, an image vivid and actual, and&mdash;he swore to himself&mdash;of
-a wholesome inspiration. He must see and think no more of Clare! But
-as he came to this conclusion, Olver, who had been squatting on the
-opposite side of the hearth, stirring the ashes and shooting furtive
-glances from time to time at his brother, said, &#8220;There came for you a
-message while you were away, from Mr. Warrener, to know would you go
-up to the Manor House to-morrow, to fix shelves for his books. William
-Baskett came with the message, and says, Mr. Warrener is impatient, and
-though the books have been stacked up on the floor for over a year,
-must needs have the shelves ready to-morrow now that he had at last
-taken the idea into his head.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I cannot go,&#8221; said Lovel moodily.</p>
-
-<p>He gave no reason. He thought that the effort was being made
-unnecessarily hard for him by this chance intervention. True, he
-might not set eyes on Clare, but even so the Manor House would be so
-redolent of her as to trouble him to the soul. She might be absent;
-but, again, she might come into the room and stand over him while he
-sawed and planed, chattering to him in her fashion, at once grave and
-light-hearted. &#8220;I cannot go,&#8221; he said, afraid for himself.</p>
-
-<p>Olver shuffled across the hearth and knelt at his brother&#8217;s feet,
-looking up into his face. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_107" id="Page_107">[Pg 107]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;There is a weight on your mind, brother. Oh, yes, no use in shaking
-your head: I always know. Won&#8217;t you tell Olver? You don&#8217;t know what
-powers I might have to help you,&mdash;no, no, nothing that you disapprove
-of,&#8221; he added hastily, seeing Lovel&#8217;s face darken, &#8220;but you know, you
-often say I&#8217;ve a kink of wisdom, and so I have,&#8221; he went on, carried
-away, as he readily was, by his vanity. &#8220;Only you cannot appreciate it,
-brother, or you would trust me more.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Lovel would have given much to be left in peace just then in order
-to pursue his quarrel with his own heart, but he was incapable of
-slighting his brother&#8217;s demonstrations of affection, so he put his hand
-on the head pressed against his knee, and, without speaking, caressed
-the curls in a manner he hoped was not too obviously perfunctory. He
-felt Olver&#8217;s instant yielding under the caress, and the creature&#8217;s
-pathetic dependence only increased his melancholy. &#8220;It costs me so
-little, and means so much to him,&#8221; he thought, and continued to soothe
-Olver&#8217;s temples with the tips of his fingers.</p>
-
-<p>They sat in silence for some time, a silence disturbed only by the sigh
-of a tired dog in his sleep, or by the falling apart and flaring of a
-log. Presently Olver said, in a meditative tone, without moving, &#8220;You
-hated me, Nicco, when you first came in and I asked you where you had
-been. Yet I have often asked you that, and you have not been angry.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You knew where I had been: driving sheep<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_108" id="Page_108">[Pg 108]</a></span> for Mr. Morland,&#8221; replied
-Lovel mechanically.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes,&mdash;and meeting Miss Warrener.&#8221; Olver gave a great chuckle. &#8220;Oh,
-yes, I know,&#8221; he continued, &#8220;because the first time I went down the
-road to see whether you were coming I met Miss Warrener, riding on her
-pony, and she stopped to ask me how I did, and said that she had seen
-you. She carried a bunch of gorse slung at her saddle, which she said
-you had cut for her. Is that how the land lies, brother?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No, no,&mdash;simple boy,&mdash;never hint such a thing.&#8221; Lovel was angry, and
-extraordinarily distressed.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;<i>I</i> know,&#8221; said Olver, nodding sagely. He rambled on, &#8220;Daisy Morland
-has seen you together, and because she wants you for herself her
-eyes are sharpened. I found her in Farmer Morland&#8217;s barn, cutting
-mangolds for the cattle. She asked me to help her. Very soon I was
-cutting mangolds alone, and she was lying in the hay watching me. She
-said, &#8216;That brother of yours is a sly dog,&mdash;hoity, toity with us poor
-girls,&mdash;too good to speak to a Christian,&mdash;and all because he fries
-other fish in secret.&#8217; I asked her what she meant. She tossed her head
-and said it was not for her to give away your secrets to me. So I
-stopped cutting, and threw her down on her back in the hay, and tickled
-her till she promised she would tell me. She was soft to tickle; she
-squealed and wriggled about. Why don&#8217;t you like her?&#8221; asked Olver.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Go on,&#8221; Nicholas answered. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_109" id="Page_109">[Pg 109]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Then she said she had been hiding behind a rick somewhere up near
-the Grey Wethers, and she had seen you come riding along with Miss
-Warrener. She said you got off your horses when you came to the
-Wethers, and sat down on one of the stones, and stayed there till the
-sun began to sink; then you caught your horses and rode away, very
-close together. She said you had talked all the time as though a week
-was too little for all you had to say. She said she had seen you both
-at Marlborough market, too. Then she began to cry; she cried so loud I
-was afraid Farmer Morland would come in to see what was ado, so I held
-my hand over her mouth until she stopped. She said you were breaking
-her heart, and she cared nothing what became of her. She said she was
-reckless. What&#8217;s the meaning of it all?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Jealousy,&#8221; said Lovel, with suppressed fury.</p>
-
-<p>Olver said nothing, but his conviction remained sagely the same. He was
-sorry he dared not tell Nicholas the rest of the story, but Nicholas
-was inexpressibly severe and prudish; he would not have approved of
-the scenes in the barn, neither of the knock-about scene of tickling
-and squealing amongst the hay, nor of the subsequent scene, when
-Olver had laid his hand over Daisy&#8217;s mouth, and, half-strangled, she
-had spluttered against his hand, and the wetness of her mouth had
-mingled with the wetness of her tears to inflame his rustic senses,
-and in the indifference to her misery she had not resisted him.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_110" id="Page_110">[Pg 110]</a></span> He
-smiled to himself as he remembered, but he knew better than to tell
-this to Nicholas. Only once had he seen Nicholas really violent, on
-one occasion when he had come artlessly to his brother with the tale
-of his first exploit; Nicholas&#8217; explosion of anger was a thing Olver
-had never forgotten. It remained lurking, a thing which at any moment
-might flare up again. He kept such stories now for his mother&#8217;s ear
-alone; the old woman, enchanted at this surreptitious alliance against
-Nicholas&#8217; hateful authority, would cackle in sympathy, and, making
-her hand a trumpet to her ear, invite Olver to pour out in a whisper
-details increasingly succulent, and so passed hours, Olver with an eye
-constantly on the door, lest Nicholas should unexpectedly return, but
-turning always again to whisper to his mother, who with her &#8220;Hee! hee!
-and did you so? good lad!&#8221; and similar ejaculations, would puff him
-up to thinking himself a man where he was most an animal. Lovel was
-thinking only of how he might best delude his brother&#8217;s shrewdness,
-and how discover whether the girl was scattering this gossip broadcast
-over the village. He had always disliked the girl,&mdash;her red hair, pale
-blue eyes, loose mouth, and freckles,&mdash;nor was it likely that he would
-turn to civility now in order to coax her into discretion. He was
-inexpressibly concerned, perplexed and discouraged, and the longer did
-he remain brooding over the fire, the more convinced did Olver grow
-that Daisy&#8217;s hysterical theory was the true one. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_111" id="Page_111">[Pg 111]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>They heard the rapping of their mother&#8217;s stick on the floor overhead;
-it was the signal that she needed something. The dogs raised their
-heads and began to growl. Lovel, wrenched back to the actualities of
-his daily life, said, &#8220;Go, you, Olver.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He sat on after Olver had gone, but he was not allowed to pursue his
-reflections, for the sounds of violent quarrelling reached him from
-overhead: his mother&#8217;s voice raised to a scream, and Olver&#8217;s to an
-indignant bellow. He knew that he must go up and separate them. The
-cause of their quarrels never transpired; the outburst was puerile,
-violent, and senseless, and came to an end with the same childish
-suddenness as it had begun. Lovel never knew which he dreaded most,
-and which most filled him with anxiety and distaste: their alliance or
-their hostility.</p>
-
-<p>He rose, and taking the candle he went upstairs to his mother&#8217;s room.
-He went with an extreme weariness and repugnance, feeling that the
-burden he had to carry was too heavy when private sorrow was added to
-it, and wishing for once, strong though he was, that he might lay it
-down and be seen no more in that country. The sound of the quarrelling
-voices continued as he made his way along the upstairs passage, but
-they fell into an abrupt silence in the presence of his authority. He
-stood in the doorway and they looked at him guiltily. The old woman,
-huddled in her chair, muttered something under<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_112" id="Page_112">[Pg 112]</a></span> her breath. He took in
-the squalid disorder of the badly-lighted room.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Go down to the kitchen, Olver,&#8221; he said.</p>
-
-<p>Olver slunk away. Lovel came forward, and patiently began setting the
-room to rights; although he was too practical a man to indulge himself
-in the fastidiousness which might have been his by nature, he was often
-sickened by the loathsomeness of the many tasks he had to perform for
-his mother: he was sickened now. She was utterly without regard for
-decency; but for her son, she would have wallowed contentedly in the
-squalor of her room; it was amazing to him how, helpless though she
-was, and able to travel about only by propelling herself in her wheeled
-chair, she yet contrived during his short absences to reduce the room
-she inhabited to the appearance of a hovel.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Can Olver not fetch away your supper, but you must start quarrelling
-with the lad?&#8221; he said.</p>
-
-<p>Immediately she broke into a torrent of grievances, in the high, shrill
-voice of her petulance, which Lovel knew so well; and he regretted that
-he had not let the matter pass uncommented, since it was irremediable.
-He waited until she had finished, then bent over and said with his
-usual gentleness, &#8220;Come, mother, let me help you to bed.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She allowed him to raise her from her chair, first throwing back
-the old miscellaneous shawls and coverings, and, half lifting, half
-carrying her across the room, he deposited her on her bed.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_113" id="Page_113">[Pg 113]</a></span> She kept up
-meanwhile a continual grumble: where had he been all day, that he had
-so neglected her? Since early morning he had not been near her; she had
-been dependent upon Olver for her food and her company; but Olver was
-a good lad; he did not go off all day like Nicholas did, wenching, no
-doubt,&mdash;Nicholas pressed his hands tightly together, to keep himself
-silent,&mdash;Olver had sat with her that afternoon, and they had talked;
-where would she be, without Olver for company?</p>
-
-<p>During this complaining and muttering Lovel had busied himself with
-making her comfortable in bed; he covered her over, arranged her pillow
-for her, placed a glass of water within her reach,&mdash;she always wanted
-matches too, but was not allowed them;&mdash;he now looked down upon her
-as she lay, her helpless form under the shapeless heap of bedclothes
-and her scant grey locks straggling over the pillow. She had the same
-eyes as her sons, in what must have been a fine bony face; and the same
-cunning look frequently stole into them as stole into Olver&#8217;s.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I hope you have not again been filling the lad&#8217;s head with the rubbish
-I have so often forbidden,&#8221; said Lovel anxiously in reply to her last
-remark.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;A nice way for you to speak to your mother!&#8221; she croaked. &#8220;Olver
-doesn&#8217;t speak so to me; forbidden, indeed! Never you mind what Olver
-and I have been saying. If I had only been given Olver to myself I
-could have made him<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_114" id="Page_114">[Pg 114]</a></span> into something better than a mere simpleton, as
-you all dub him; but no, I wasn&#8217;t to have Olver to myself: there was
-always Nicholas between us, with his &#8216;forbidden&#8217; ... forbidden....
-Anyhow, Nicholas hasn&#8217;t won altogether,&#8221; she muttered, not quite daring
-to speak too distinctly; &#8220;there are hours every day when Nicholas isn&#8217;t
-at home.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I can always get Olver to tell me the truth,&#8221; said Lovel, &#8220;and if I
-find you have been at your tricks I shall have to keep him away from
-your room.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>The old woman laughed; a grating and unpleasant laugh, between fear and
-amusement.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And to do that you will have to stay at home, and then where will the
-money come from, my pretty boy?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;True,&#8221; said Lovel, &#8220;I am obliged to go out to work to make money for
-you and Olver, but Olver can come with me, and so he shall.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And leave me alone here to die, if so be,&#8221; said the old woman,
-beginning to whimper, and she snuffled into her bed-clothes, and said
-that Nicholas was a cruel son to her.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;The remedy lies with you,&#8221; he said quietly; and then, straightening
-the clothes for her again, he told her that he would not take Olver
-away from her unless she obliged him to. &#8220;But I am responsible for
-Olver,&#8221; he added, &#8220;and we are ill enough looked upon in the village
-already; you know, mother, that I must keep Olver in order, and his
-brain is too weak to be trusted<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_115" id="Page_115">[Pg 115]</a></span> with dangerous matter.&#8221; He wondered
-why he took the trouble to say this, since he knew that it was useless
-attempting to appeal to the old woman&#8217;s good sense or better feelings,
-as she had neither.</p>
-
-<p>She only laughed again. He paused beside her for a moment, but there
-was nothing more to say, and wishing her good-night he took up the
-candle and left the room. Out in the passage he heard her voice calling
-him back.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Matches, Nicholas: let me have the matches to-night.&#8221; He shook his
-head in refusal. &#8220;Cruel to me, Nicholas; and my own son too: cruel and
-hard; he bullies us both....&#8221; Lovel shut the door and went downstairs,
-but the mumble of her complaining pursued him still.</p>
-
-<p>Olver crouched by the fire between the dogs, his curls almost as matted
-as their pelt. He eyed his brother from under his brows, as though
-he expected to be scolded. Lovel however only said quietly, &#8220;I shall
-remain at home to-morrow, and if you choose you can go to the Manor
-House for me.&#8221; He let fall this remark in the midst of his occupation
-of clearing the room before going to bed; he let it fall so casually
-that no trace appeared of the effort it cost him. &#8220;But if you should
-see Miss Warrener,&#8221; he added, &#8220;you must breathe no word of the folly
-you uttered to me. I must have your word on that, you have never yet
-broken your word to me.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I will not tell Miss Warrener,&#8221; said Olver.</p>
-
-<p>Lovel was satisfied. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_116" id="Page_116">[Pg 116]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Olver set out early on the following morning, carrying his basket of
-tools slung on his back, and a number of clean new planks, smelling
-of resin, under his arm. Nicholas stood at the door to watch him go,
-envious, regretful, but sturdy in his determination. Olver walked
-quickly up the village street; the morning was bright; he felt good and
-competent this morning, and full of importance: not only had Nicholas
-trusted him to do his work, but he was full of a private intention to
-spy out the land at the Manor House; if Nicholas wanted Clare, why,
-then Nicholas must have what he wanted; it seemed to Olver quite simple
-and direct. He turned in at the gates of the Manor House, pleased by
-the pretty garden and the cool house with its long windows and open
-shutters. The lowering mood which was usual to him receded further and
-further; it was pleasant to feel so good; he looked all round him as
-he walked, smiling. The door was opened to him by Martha Sparrow in a
-clean cap and apron; he wanted to kiss her soft old face, which looked
-as though it smelt of soap, but instead of doing that he pulled off
-his cap very civilly and said that he had come to fix the bookshelves
-since his brother was unable. Martha Sparrow looked at his tight curls
-and thought with surprise that he was an agreeable-looking lad; telling
-him to wait a moment, she left him on the doorstep and went to Mr.
-Warrener. &#8220;Young Lovel, sir,&#8221; she said, &#8220;have sent the zany in his
-stead.&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_117" id="Page_117">[Pg 117]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Mr. Warrener had forgotten all about the book-shelves; he pushed his
-spectacles up on his forehead and stared at Martha.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Sent the zany, Martha? What for?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Martha respectfully and patiently reminded him.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;To be sure, to be sure.&#8221; He turned and surveyed with a helpless
-resentment the books piled up in a corner of his room. &#8220;Bring him in,
-Martha,&#8221; he said, resignedly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You&#8217;ll have him in the room, sir, then?&#8221; said Martha dubiously.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Why not? why not? to be sure, he has to put up the shelves,&#8221; replied
-Mr. Warrener, scenting disapproval.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;These gipsies, sir ... and the zany as naughty as a magpie?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll stop with him, Martha,&#8221; said Mr. Warrener, who before the rebuke
-of his old servant instantly became a great coward.</p>
-
-<p>He could not, however, endure the noise of sawing and nailing which
-began as soon as Olver had spread out his dust-sheet on the floor, but
-took his bee-hive hat and stole quietly away from the room. He greatly
-preferred that Olver should do the work wrong, or even that he should
-pilfer in the room, than that he should himself have to remain at
-hand to supervise or to furnish any further directions. He therefore
-retreated to a bench at the remotest corner of the garden, hoping
-that Martha would not detect him, where, taking his book from his
-pocket, he gave himself<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_118" id="Page_118">[Pg 118]</a></span> up to his interrupted reading, to the pleasant
-accompaniment of the bees busy in the limes, and of the distant small
-noises of a summer day. He had soon forgotten Martha&#8217;s remonstrance,
-and vaguely relied as usual on Clare guessing his wishes, as indeed she
-always seemed to do, and seeing to it on his behalf that Olver Lovel
-made no impossible mistake over the shelves.</p>
-
-<p>Before Olver had been at work very long he became aware that Mr.
-Warrener was no longer in the room. He sat back on his heels and
-examined his surroundings. The soft carpet and deep chairs especially
-took his fancy, and he was much impressed by the spacious writing table
-littered with so many papers, and the number of reference books, held
-open at a special page by various incongruous objects, this one by a
-piece of flint, that one by a ruler, and yet a third by the shoe-horn
-brought down from Mr. Warrener&#8217;s dressing-table. Olver rose to his
-feet, and tip-toed about, looking at the books and at the specimens
-of pottery, bones, arrow-heads, and what not, in the show cases which
-composed Mr. Warrener&#8217;s little museum. Arrived at the chimney piece he
-came to a pause, for here he discovered an object which pleased him
-more than anything he had ever seen, namely a small circular mirror,
-mounted on a handle, which by reason of its convexity had the property
-of reflecting everything in a slight distortion,&mdash;small, brilliant,
-precise and peculiar. He was so fascinated by this toy that he ventured
-to pick it<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_119" id="Page_119">[Pg 119]</a></span> up; first he looked at his own face in it, and laughed
-childishly to see the widened cheek-bones, the slanting and Puckish
-eyes; then he turned it this way and that, to make it reflect different
-corners of the room; and finally he got a tiny picture of the garden in
-it, seen through the windows, with a miniature Mr. Warrener sitting on
-a bench, slightly out of focus, in the background. So absorbed was he
-that he did not notice the entrance of Clare; she came in, wearing a
-dress of sprigged muslin, and swinging her hat by its ribbons from her
-hand, and she entered with just that degree of nonchalance which would
-have led a shrewd observer to the certainty that she expected to find
-in the room some person other than the person she actually found. So it
-was that they both appeared, and Olver gaped at her, very much taken
-aback at being discovered on the side of the room opposite to his work,
-and with the mirror in his hand.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Why, I understand Martha to say that Lovel was here,&#8221; Clare said
-inconsequently.</p>
-
-<p>Olver seemed to find no reply; he stood, holding the mirror, and
-scrutinizing Clare as though he beheld an unbelievable vision, and
-yet wished to be certain of recollecting that vision in every detail.
-In the diversion of the mirror he had momentarily forgotten not only
-his work, but also the ulterior motive for which he had come. He
-now remembered both. So this was the lass that Nicco wanted! Olver,
-envisaging such <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_120" id="Page_120">[Pg 120]</a></span>desires with the utmost crudeness, was not in the
-least surprised. He would not have cared for the lass himself,&mdash;she was
-too limber of build for him,&mdash;but he could see her very well as the
-complement of Nicco, his swarthiness and her fairness side by side.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;He could not come; I am here for him,&#8221; he replied at last, thinking
-himself very artful for saying &#8220;he could not&#8221; instead of &#8220;he would not.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Was he busy?&#8221; asked Clare.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; said Olver heedlessly, for he was now thinking of the mirror and
-wondering how he could dispose of it before she should observe it in
-his hand, &#8220;he has stayed at home.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh,&#8221; said Clare. She saw the mirror. &#8220;Why, what are you doing with
-that?&#8221; she asked, amused, and she looked brightly and interrogatively
-at him.</p>
-
-<p>Seeing that she was not angry, he gave a shy smile and looked into the
-mirror once again, laughing delightedly at the little picture of his
-own face, and glancing at Clare.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Do you like it? you may have it for your own if you like,&#8221; she said,
-partly because he was simple, and partly because he was her friend
-Lovel&#8217;s brother, and she knew that he would show it to Lovel.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;For my own? But can you give it to me?&#8221; said Olver, clasping his
-treasure and grinning.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes, it is mine, so I can give it to you. Would you like it?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But this is Mr. Warrener&#8217;s room.&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_121" id="Page_121">[Pg 121]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes, but the mirror is mine for all that&mdash;<i>was</i> mine, I should say,
-since it is yours now.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Really and truly mine? to take home with me? to break if I like?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Really and truly yours; but you must try not to break it: a broken
-mirror brings bad luck on a house.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;There is bad luck enough on our house already without that,&#8221; said
-Olver, suddenly gloomy.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Bad luck,&mdash;how do you mean?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t know; Nicco says so sometimes, when he has a black fit on him.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Nicco?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;My brother.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>It was a little shock to her to find that Lovel, whom she knew only as
-a figure so detached and self-reliant, should own a childish name. It
-seemed to make him suddenly human; her eyes softened.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Does he often have a black fit on him?&#8221; she pursued, but as soon as
-she had spoken the words her loyalty repented of them, and she said,
-&#8220;No, you should not tell me.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;There is no harm,&#8221; said Olver, thinking that he saw a chance to
-interest her; and he went on, steering away from direct allusion to his
-brother until he should see a chance to draw round again insensibly to
-that subject. &#8220;My mother says always that our house is unlucky, and,
-according to her interpretation, &#8217;tis because of the stones that built
-it,&mdash;sacrificial stones, you know<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_122" id="Page_122">[Pg 122]</a></span> they be, Miss Warrener, angered at
-the desecration. So says my mother, and she should know, seeing that
-her mother was hanged for a witch, as is common talk hereabouts, and
-for once the common talk is true. But for my part I have never been
-able to see that our house was unlucky; we have enough to eat, and
-a fire to warm ourselves by, though, indeed,&#8221; he added, as though
-the idea had but just now occurred to him, &#8220;that is thanks to my
-brother, and I do not know how my mother and myself would fare but for
-him,&mdash;hee! hee!&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare was far too honest to wish to play the spy upon Lovel, yet she
-was so much impressed by this suggestion of the half-wit youth and his
-bedridden mother being left to their own devices, and feeling moreover
-that the most scrupulous conscience could not accuse her of spying upon
-Lovel when she was to hear something to his credit, that she did not
-forbear from encouraging Olver, &#8220;I have heard that his devotion to you
-both was extreme.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Olver needed no encouragement.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Without him, I should die. It is true that sometimes he is stern, and
-he sits staring into the fire, and I can get no word from him, but I
-have learnt that at those times he is unhappy. But he is so gentle,
-Miss Warrener, you would not believe; at one moment he will seem
-withdrawn and angry, and the next moment he is all pity. He gives his
-life up to us; he does not say so, but I know he does. Once when I was
-a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_123" id="Page_123">[Pg 123]</a></span> child the village boys threw stones at me, as they might at a dog,
-but Nicholas he came and beat them all with his fists and carried me
-home in his arms, and never left me till I was mended.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;He has a great affection for you,&#8221; said Clare, not knowing what to say.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh no,&mdash;that is quite impossible,&#8221; Olver replied naïvely, surprised at
-the suggestion.</p>
-
-<p>Clare was touched by his humility, so obviously genuine. It seemed to
-him, indeed impossible that the demi-god who in his eyes was Lovel,
-should stoop to any feelings other than pity and obligation towards
-a poor contemptible burden like himself. Clare began to catch the
-infection of this idealisation of Lovel; she saw him through Olver&#8217;s
-eyes: humane where he need only have been conscientious; generous where
-he need only have been just; yet preserving always that aloofness and
-detachment which safeguarded him from all true contact with sordid
-things. When she had met him on the highway, or on the Downs, she had
-not wondered much about the background of his life; she had accepted
-him as an isolated and romantic figure, organic with the Downs
-themselves; to her, he was the rider on the skyline, the shepherd of
-the folds.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;There&#8217;s a girl in the village would give five years of life for a kind
-word from Nicholas,&#8221; Olver pursued, considering himself meanwhile in
-his mirror with an air of great detachment, &#8220;but Nicholas has no eye
-for girls. Oh, see,&#8221;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_124" id="Page_124">[Pg 124]</a></span> he broke off, pointing at the mirror, &#8220;my face is
-like seen in water,&mdash;stretched wide. I often saw it so in a spoon, but
-I never dreamt of so pretty a toy as this. Has it magical properties,
-do you think? It should have, to match its freakishness. Could I look
-into it, do you think, in the moonlight, and see the picture, all pale,
-of what you were doing, Miss Warrener, in the face of the mirror, round
-like another little moon itself?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare was startled by his outburst, and the laughter that accompanied
-it. Until then she had almost forgotten that he was reputed mad.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll ask my mother,&#8221; he added, forgetting his prudence in his
-excitement. &#8220;Nicco does not like my learning of her, so we have to
-whisper it when he is away from the house, and you could not believe
-the things she tells me. And shows me, too. Why, I can make an object
-travel towards me, without touching it; and I have seen visions in a
-pool of water. It is our secret. Shall I show you? Watch the curtains:
-I will make them belly out, though no wind blows them.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No ...&#8221; said Clare, stretching out her hand. &#8220;If you love your brother
-as you appear to,&#8221; she said rapidly, &#8220;don&#8217;t do what he disapproves;
-don&#8217;t, Olver Lovel. I am sure he is right to disapprove; I am sure he
-is wise. Respect him. I am sure he deserves your respect.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She spoke with energy. &#8220;Why?&#8221; said Olver suspiciously. &#8220;Do you know
-anything of such<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_125" id="Page_125">[Pg 125]</a></span> things? Would you not like to see the curtains move
-towards me? My mother says, that with a hair from the head of a person,
-she could bring that person, willy-nilly, to her. She has tried it
-with Nicholas, but she could not bring him. He is too strong. He is so
-strong, that, if he gave his mind to it, he could bring any one; yes,
-Miss Warrener, he could bring you. He could bring you to him on the
-Downs, at midnight or when he would.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;For pity&#8217;s sake, Olver Lovel!&#8221; cried Clare.</p>
-
-<p>He came close up to her.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Don&#8217;t fear my brother, Miss Warrener. There are powers in our
-family,&mdash;but he does not practise them. I think he does not believe.
-He is scornful,&mdash;and busy. Oh, he is a fool; that girl I was telling
-you of, he turns away from her and half a dozen more. A dandy lad, they
-say, and are angry. But that is not the reason. I could tell you the
-reason, if I would. But I shan&#8217;t. No, Miss Warrener, I keep my counsel.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He leered at her. &#8220;Give me your hand,&#8221; he said, catching it, &#8220;and I
-will show you something.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; said Clare, trying to draw it away. &#8220;Look at your bookshelves,&#8221;
-she added, to distract his ideas, &#8220;you are leaving them unfinished, and
-my father will be in presently, to ask why they are not done. If he
-takes it into his head to be annoyed, he will complain to your brother.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Nicholas won&#8217;t listen to complaints about<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_126" id="Page_126">[Pg 126]</a></span> me,&#8221; Olver returned
-loftily. &#8220;He may curse me within our own doors, but no one from outside
-may say a word against me. If Mr. Warrener complains, he will only tell
-him not to employ me again. We don&#8217;t care whether we are given work or
-not, Nicholas and I don&#8217;t.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You forget,&#8221; said Clare, &#8220;that my father sent for your brother and not
-for you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Ah, but he wouldn&#8217;t come, would he?&#8221; said Olver, highly amused. She
-was relieved to see that he had got out of his sinister mood and was
-again prepared to laugh and be childish. &#8220;You don&#8217;t know, because you
-didn&#8217;t see him, Miss Warrener, how he sat glowering at the fire last
-night, and ended by telling me that I could come here in his place. You
-don&#8217;t see him at nights, when he comes home tired and has to be patient
-with our mother. He&#8217;s patient with her, yes; but he&#8217;d get on better if
-he humoured her more: he&#8217;s too unbending.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;How shrewd you are, Olver,&#8221; Clare was surprised into saying.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Hoi, hoi,&#8221; said Olver, wagging his head. &#8220;I know my Nicholas; he&#8217;ll
-break sooner than bend. I told him he could come, and take the chance
-of not meeting&mdash;the person he didn&#8217;t want to meet; but he wouldn&#8217;t
-have that, not he. He&#8217;s stayed at home, to dig in the garden. Time and
-again, he takes a day or an afternoon off to do that, for he&#8217;s mighty
-fond of the garden, and that&#8217;s queer, seeing that his days are spent
-on the bare Downs, whether or not his business sends him<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_127" id="Page_127">[Pg 127]</a></span> there, where
-nothing grew that I ever saw, but sorrel and poor grasses.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare wondered how she could best end the conversation, in which Olver
-hovered evidently around some topic he might not broach, but she did
-not forbear from smiling when he mentioned Lovel in his garden; she had
-often seen the garden at the end of the long, tunnel-like passage as
-she turned down the village street; and the little picture of Lovel&#8217;s
-affection for it was like discovering a patch of sun in a thunderous
-landscape. Olver meanwhile had turned back to his planks and tools; he
-was fingering the latter; the little round mirror he had put carefully
-into his pocket. &#8220;I am a good carpenter, you know, Miss Warrener,&#8221; he
-said, as though he were letting her into a secret, and she saw that his
-attention had changed its object.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">Nevertheless she wondered greatly at Lovel&#8217;s refusal to do work at
-the Manor House. She wondered whether she had inadvertently offended
-him, but could recall nothing; their last meeting had been as friendly
-as ever, nor had his manner in any way betrayed anything amiss. He
-was, however, so strange and fiery a creature, so unaccountable in
-his moods, that some chance word of hers might well have rankled,
-grown during the night, and borne fruit upon the following day. She
-went carefully in her mind over their recent conversations, which,
-happily inconsequent and spasmodic, were a little <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_128" id="Page_128">[Pg 128]</a></span>difficult to
-recollect in detail; but she achieved this feat, smiling again with
-a little heartache over Lovel&#8217;s remarks about children,&mdash;ah, what a
-good friendship it had been!&mdash;but her sifting of their talks revealed
-nothing. She went about the house, still wondering after Lovel. What
-if she had imagined the whole thing? What if he had been genuinely
-prevented? the hints that Olver had let drop might well be the progeny
-only of that sickly brain. Revived by this idea, yet apprehensive of
-its allusion, she sought out William Baskett and sent him off to Lovel
-with a message. &#8220;Say to him, William, that I have a small repair to be
-done to the cupboard in my room, and beg him to come with his bag of
-tools as quickly as may be. Say that it is a neat job I require or I
-would not otherwise disturb him. Say that it is in my room, and for my
-own particular use.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>A quarter of an hour later William returned: Lovel must ask Miss
-Warrener to excuse him, he was busy and could not come.</p>
-
-<p>At that Clare flamed into anger. What! she held out an olive branch to
-the man, over some imaginary affront, and he rejected it? Very well.
-Let him nurse his grievance; he should not be given another chance. She
-was all the angrier with him because she was angry with herself for
-having sent a verbal message by Baskett; the story, conceivably, would
-be repeated at the Waggon of Hay, in which case it would be all over
-the village; she ought to have written<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_129" id="Page_129">[Pg 129]</a></span> Lovel a note. The whole of her
-day was spoilt by her resentment; it pricked her constantly through
-all her occupations; she dared not go outside the gates for fear of
-meeting the offender; she hated him for thus disturbing her peace of
-mind and inconveniencing her movements. One thing at least was clear by
-now, that he was deliberately avoiding her. He should not have cause to
-complain that she sought him out.</p>
-
-<p>But by the next day her mood was already softened and her conscience
-again at work. She was sorry to think that she might, however
-unintentionally, have hurt him so deeply. Poor Lovel! his position and
-his family made her over-sensitive. She would not willingly add to his
-burden. Perhaps he was already regretting a too hasty refusal. But how
-to approach him as it were by chance? for she felt she would sooner
-lose his friendship altogether than send a second message to his house.
-There was one very obvious course open to her: she took her pony and
-rode up to the Downs.</p>
-
-<p>But although she rode up to the White Horse, and down again to the Grey
-Wethers, and round by Lovel&#8217;s hut, and skirted most of the valleys
-where there was likely shelter and pasture for sheep, she saw no sign
-of Lovel. She was again angry with him for not being there, nor did
-the fact that he followed many trades besides that of a shepherd do
-anything to soothe her annoyance. She came back, entering the village
-on<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_130" id="Page_130">[Pg 130]</a></span> the farther side to avoid passing his house. She felt as though
-something whose value she had never realised while she still possessed
-it, had gone out of her life; and here again she found cause for anger
-with Lovel.</p>
-
-<p>But she could not remain angry with him for very long together. She
-wondered what he was doing; whether he missed her as much as she missed
-him; whether his mood had passed by now into a sulky childish obstinacy
-that was determined not to make the first advance, but that, if it
-were dragged out of its corner, could be willing enough to be coaxed
-into making friends. Clare smiled fondly as she thought how well she
-knew him. She thought that she had only to meet him face to face for
-laughter to spring into his eyes,&mdash;laughter both at the relief of their
-reconciliation, and at himself for his past foolishness.</p>
-
-<p>In the meantime she fell to dwelling upon his occupations, and
-recalling all the gossip she had ever heard on his account, the stories
-of his skill, and of his almost miraculous cures performed upon ailing
-animals; of his breaking-in colts in record time; of his more illicit
-career as a poacher. There was something in her which enjoyed this
-train of thought and the pictures it evoked. She liked to think of
-Lovel moving as stealthy as a cat through the woods at midnight, a
-snare in his hand and a game-bag across his back. She liked to think
-of him thus alone with the woods, the night, and the slinking animals,
-his foot cautious upon the leaves; she thought that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_131" id="Page_131">[Pg 131]</a></span> he must be happy
-thus. She even liked to think of him bending over his victim, and of
-the warm, smoking blood spurted over his hands. Although he hunted
-them, he had a kinship with the animals. When he crouched, motionless
-as a hare, at the approach of a keeper, he, the hunter, was suddenly on
-the animals&#8217; side more truly than the keeper, who was there to protect
-them. There was something ridiculous in the idea of a keeper protecting
-the animals against Lovel; even the rabbit squealing in the noose must
-know that only by chance was Lovel out for its capture,&mdash;an enemy of
-superior force, merely, rather than anything so utterly removed as a
-man.</p>
-
-<p>All this dwelling upon Lovel, which sent her absent-minded about the
-house and garden, did not bring her any nearer to making her peace
-with him. She was now no longer angry, but sore and puzzled, and she
-was sure that he must be unhappy too, although she knew that even
-after their reconciliation,&mdash;ultimately inevitable, to her mind,&mdash;he
-would never own to this. The necessity of this reconciliation seemed
-to her so simple and so obvious that she never thought of questioning
-her pride. Daily she rode upon the Down, and daily as she returned
-disappointed she contemplated in greater detail the possibility of
-sending, after all, a second message to Lovel. She could even send
-it in her father&#8217;s name. But he would not come. She was convinced he
-would not come. That was not the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_132" id="Page_132">[Pg 132]</a></span> method to adopt. She must take him by
-surprise; she must startle him; appear suddenly before him, so that he
-would smile before he had time to remember his grievance, and, having
-once smiled, it would be too late to resume a severe face.</p>
-
-<p>In the midst of this pre-occupation, she almost forgot Calladine, that
-theatrical man, and the excitability of his manner recently towards
-her. She had not seen him again, for which she was thankful; she
-could not have met him without embarrassment. The idea of marriage
-was incongruous and slightly absurd. She belonged to herself, and to
-herself only; and the suggestion that Calladine or any one else should
-wish to capture her was not serious but merely laughable. It had not
-occurred to her that he, as well as Lovel, might be unhappy on her
-account; such a thought would have distressed her exceedingly. It was
-entirely without thought of Calladine, save for an occasional fleeting
-hope that he might not have chosen to ride in the direction as herself,
-that she roved over the Downs in search of Lovel. A fortnight passed
-before she found him. She could, doubtless, have met him long before
-by simply walking down the village street, but that would not have
-been at all to her purpose, and she had in fact been at pains to avoid
-any such encounter. At the end of a fortnight, having ridden up to
-the White Horse, from where the widest view was to be obtained, she
-discerned a long way off, up by the clump of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_133" id="Page_133">[Pg 133]</a></span> beeches on the horizon, a
-flock of sheep accompanied by a shepherd. Unhesitatingly, even gaily,
-she started off in his pursuit. She was happy to think that their long
-estrangement was drawing to its end. She skipped in her mind over the
-preliminaries which must be got over before they could take up their
-friendship again on its old easy terms. She, with a mind impatient
-of all but essentials, would preferably have dispensed with these
-preliminaries, explanations, upbraidings, and possibly abuse. She
-wanted to waste no time; there were so many things she wanted to tell
-him; she wanted to tell him how her pony had gone lame from picking up
-a stone in his shoe; she wanted to tell him again of the melancholy
-effect produced upon her by her visit to Starvecrow; she wanted to
-ask him to splice her trout-rod and come with her one evening down to
-the quiet pool of the brook. Her eagerness grew with the seething of
-these small schemes as she urged her pony across the grass. She was
-approaching Lovel by a devious way, going down into the valleys, where
-she would escape his notice, until she could strike directly up the
-hill and top the crest suddenly before his eyes. Her own eyes sparkled
-over the precautions she was taking. She thought that she had now gone
-far enough along the low reaches of the valleys, and set her pony at
-the hill; they mounted the long, steep incline, like going upon an
-adventure.</p>
-
-<p>On the breeze came the tinkling of the sheep-bells, as the flock moved
-cropping. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_134" id="Page_134">[Pg 134]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>She had calculated her distance well, for when she finally reached the
-top of the hill, she found that she had exactly hit off the flock of
-sheep cropping beside the clump of beeches. Close by them lay a bundle
-of osiers, hastily thrown down, and several wattled hurdles, with
-fresh osiers threaded into them for repair; a knife, the sun shining
-on its strong, curved blade; and a small bundle tied up in a red
-pocket handkerchief. There were all these signs of the recent presence
-of the shepherd, but he himself was nowhere to be seen. Clare looked
-round in perplexity. The sun was strong, the breeze fresh, the grasses
-glittered and curtsied, the shadows of the clouds bowled down the hills
-and ran up the opposite side, the view was broad, but it revealed no
-Lovel. With all that open country lying spread out, he must have taken
-refuge in the small beech-wood,&mdash;watching her, perhaps, from behind
-the trunk of a tree. She was almost amused by this childish game of
-hide and seek, and in any case was determined not to be baffled by him
-now that she had come so far; she could not now turn and ride away in
-acknowledgment of defeat. Swinging herself off her pony she knotted
-the reins loosely and let it turn away to snuff the grass, while she
-herself entered the little wood, brave though tremulous, her optimism
-ebbing as her obstinacy increased. The tree-trunks were not very close
-together, so that she could look through the clump from one side out to
-the other; she often went into these clumps of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_135" id="Page_135">[Pg 135]</a></span> beech, and lay down on
-the bare ground, looking up the smooth grey trunks, watching the sun
-glint its shivered rays through the branches, and listening to the wind
-among the leaves; she had even been into them with Lovel, and he had
-knocked the warts off the trunks and carved them into frightening faces
-with his knife to amuse her.</p>
-
-<p>She paused with her hand upon the tree. &#8220;Lovel!&#8221; she cried. &#8220;I know
-you are here, don&#8217;t hide from me; come out, Lovel!&#8221; There was no
-answer, and after a little hesitation she went deeper into the wood.
-She saw him then; he was not hiding, he was standing there perfectly
-motionless, in the midst of a small clearing in the trees, standing
-very quiet, like a man who after a long pursuit sees himself finally
-brought to bay. He was looking straight at her, as though he knew the
-direction in which she would come.</p>
-
-<p>Now that she was confronted with him, a little of her self-confidence
-went; he had, for a long fortnight now, inhabited her mind only, and
-her vision not at all; and in her mind their meeting had run always
-on the lines she devised for it, but here she had Lovel himself of
-untested inflexibility, to trip the running of her programme. She gazed
-at him beseechingly, but he still stood, in an attitude of expectant
-resignation, waiting for her to open the attack. It came into her mind
-that even now she might turn away, without a word spoken, having learnt
-all that there was to be learnt from a single look. Instead,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_136" id="Page_136">[Pg 136]</a></span> she went
-up to him, saying &#8220;Lovel?&#8221; and upon an impulse she held out her hand.</p>
-
-<p>He remained unmoved, examining her with a sort of abstracted interest.
-She thought that she had never seen him so much like an animal,
-pausing even while poised for flight, and a despair overcame her when
-she remembered her own conceit that she could tame and bring to heel
-again a creature so wild. She was ashamed when she remembered that she
-had pitied him, had assumed that he must be unhappy, had smiled to
-herself when she thought of keeping up his pretence of temper like a
-sulky child. That smile had had in it much that was tender, much that
-was maternal; had she then forgotten Lovel, or had her imagination
-so metamorphosed his image, that she could have persuaded herself of
-his need for tenderness, tolerance, or pity? He had need for none of
-those soft things; she had been mistaken in thinking that he in any way
-needed her; he needed no one; he stood alone. Nevertheless, she would
-not retreat without some struggle; he might, still, prove to be no
-worse than angry and hurt; if he insisted on remaining so, it should,
-at least, not be owing to a lack of good-will on her part. &#8220;Lovel,&#8221; she
-said, &#8220;Lovel, have I offended you in any way? See, I have come here
-deliberately to ask you and to say that I am sorry for whatever I may
-have done; how can I say more?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Still he did not reply, but turned his head slightly and uneasily as
-though looking for <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_137" id="Page_137">[Pg 137]</a></span>escape. He still had that air of being poised in
-the clearing of the trees, alienating him from her as if she had come
-upon him in the midst of some secret rite which he only awaited her
-departure to resume. She felt inclined to cry out, &#8220;We were so close
-to one another, once!&#8221; and the pain of the loss stabbed her sharply,
-but instead she pleaded again with him, &#8220;Lovel, if you would only
-speak to me we could put this misunderstanding right.&#8221; Where was the
-smile she had so confidently hoped to startle into his eyes? He had
-never shown himself so aloof or so forbidding; she felt herself small,
-insignificant, and importunate; if she had found him in the open, she
-thought, he would have been more vulnerable, but here among the trees
-he seemed curiously protected.</p>
-
-<p>He had not moved a step ever since she came up with him; was he rooted
-there, a tree himself, or a sapling? she did not know; and a panic
-began to spread over her at his fancied communion and alliance with
-nature. He was as brown as the earth, his clothes were the colour of
-dead leaves, his shirt was red like a robin&#8217;s breast. She remembered
-again the tales she had heard of him, and her own fancies that had
-followed him at the poacher&#8217;s trade, and this time she was afraid. She
-wove them together with the ignorant tales of the witchcraft among
-the Lovels. Could there be any truth in these fantastic notions? a
-secret of harmony in nature which entitled the initiated to powers
-inexplicable to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_138" id="Page_138">[Pg 138]</a></span> the uninitiated? why did all animals so dread Olver
-Lovel? so trust to Nicholas? what of her own intuitions? her sudden,
-reasonless terrors? her mingled love and fear of the sarsen stones and
-of trees? her constant phrase, uttered half in jest, that some day she
-would be fetched away? And how was Lovel concerned? what part was he
-to have in the fetching? If only he were not so brown, brown as earth,
-lithe as the saplings, his shirt red as a robin&#8217;s breast; if only his
-eyes were not constant pilgrims to the horizon.</p>
-
-<p>She turned to leave him; at all costs she must get out of this wood,
-where she felt the old threat closing in round her, and in which Lovel
-was so mysteriously implicated. She turned slowly, not to betray her
-panic, still with the half-hope that he would speak and thereby break
-her spell. But when he spoke, it only deepened.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;There is no misunderstanding,&#8221; he said.</p>
-
-<p>She wheeled round again upon him.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Then why have you so avoided me?&#8221; she said passionately. &#8220;A fortnight
-ago we met by the Grey Wethers, we had no quarrel, we parted friends.
-The next day you were sent for to the Manor House, you would not come,
-you sent your brother. I sent for you later myself,&mdash;a special message.
-You would not come. I thought I had offended you in some way. Do you
-know that I have looked for you all over the hills to ask you for your
-reason? A fortnight I have spent in looking for you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I know,&#8221; he said. &#8220;I have seen you.&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_139" id="Page_139">[Pg 139]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Her voice died away; she had thrown herself against his defences and
-bruised herself. Her indignation had made a tiny uproar in the wood
-without detracting from the calm of the trees or the dignity of Lovel.
-She made a small gesture of abandonment; her one desire now was to get
-away. &#8220;There is nothing more to be said.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Set your mind at ease,&#8221; he observed unexpectedly. &#8220;You never offended
-me. Believe me, you could not do so even if you tried; believe me, you
-are too sweet and gentle to do such a thing. Put all the blame on to
-me. I am capricious and wayward, you know; any one in the village will
-tell you as much and a dozen worse things besides. You must believe
-them all. You have my word on it that they are all true. But as for
-blaming yourself, never dream of doing so. Think only that I am not fit
-for you to associate with, and let me go my way without looking for me
-any more.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Is this your only reason?&#8221; said Clare.</p>
-
-<p>He hesitated. He was still standing motionless and every moment she
-felt that he was being farther and farther withdrawn from her.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No, it is not my only reason,&#8221; he said at last, &#8220;but it is the only
-one I choose to give to you. It is enough surely. I come of a family
-with a very ill-name, and I myself would see the inside of a prison
-over and over again if the guardians of the law were as cute at their
-work as I, perhaps, am at mine. I think it is sufficient reason.&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_140" id="Page_140">[Pg 140]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Have you robbed, or even murdered, Lovel?&#8221; she asked.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Would you be convinced if I told you that I had?&#8221; he replied with idle
-curiosity. &#8220;I have robbed crowded coverts, if you call that robbing,
-but as for the rest, although I have taken the lives of pheasants and
-partridges, I have not taken the life of man or made away with the
-property of any of my employers while it was in my charge.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Your reason is a very insufficient one,&#8221; she said, &#8220;you are telling me
-nothing that I did not know already. Will you come outside the trees? I
-cannot talk to you in here, I feel trapped.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; he said, retreating a step. &#8220;I came in here to avoid you, but
-since you have followed me we stay in the place I chose. And my other
-reason is fully adequate,&mdash;oh, fully, fully!&#8221; he said with great
-feeling, &#8220;so now leave me, Clare, and think of me as harshly as
-you can. If you meet me anywhere, pass me by; I ask that of you as
-earnestly as ever a favour was asked.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You ask me to pass you by even on the Downs?&#8221; she said slowly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I do,&#8221; he replied. He rushed on, not looking at her, &#8220;I must not
-make friends. I want to be alone. You stole my friendship, and I have
-resented it. Call me ill-mannered, even brutal; call me ungrateful,
-boorish. I was angry when I saw you riding to-day. It is better that
-you should know the truth, and it cannot hurt you, coming from me. What
-am I to you? a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_141" id="Page_141">[Pg 141]</a></span> peasant, a gipsy, a Jack-of-all-trades. I have nothing
-to do with your life or you with mine, so leave me alone,&mdash;leave me
-alone,&#8221; he said.</p>
-
-<p>All her pride was lashed alive now; she was utterly astonished, and, in
-her simplicity, convinced. &#8220;I have forced my friendship upon you,&#8221; she
-stammered. &#8220;Yes, yes,&#8221; said Lovel, driving it home. She stared at him,
-lovely in her distress. But even in her humiliation she was generous.
-&#8220;Forgive me,&#8221; she stammered again. She turned and fled out from amongst
-the trees, aware,&mdash;but not knowing how truly,&mdash;that she had left there
-something which she would never regain. She came out by the osiers,
-the hurdles, and Lovel&#8217;s knife lying upon the ground. The sight of
-it, in its familiarity, stung tears to her eyes. If he had not wanted
-her, why had he carved faces from the warts of the beech-trees for her
-amusement. Why had he tired so suddenly? rebelled so wildly against
-the slight tie of her friendship? She swung herself on to her pony and
-galloped away, not seeing where she was going, but only mad to put the
-greatest possible distance between herself and that wood whence she had
-escaped indeed, but only with her life.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">Calladine meanwhile, who knew nothing of Clare&#8217;s friendship with Lovel,
-and who would have stared had he heard it mentioned, had lived in a
-torment ever since her visit. She had come and gone again, and he felt
-as though during her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_142" id="Page_142">[Pg 142]</a></span> brief sojourn she had stirred round the sluggish
-atmosphere of his house with a wand. His eye became more critical as he
-surveyed his surroundings from her point of view. He tried to imagine
-what she would say were she to take his house thoroughly in hand, and
-began to introduce such alterations as he thought she would approve;
-he rearranged his books, he re-hung his pictures, he ordered patterns
-from London and had his leather chairs covered with a flowered chintz.
-His servant Mrs. Quince was at first at a loss to know what had come
-over her master, but after she and Martha Sparrow had put their heads
-together they arrived at the obvious conclusion. &#8220;&#8217;Tis a woman&#8217;s house
-now, Martha,&mdash;dimity in the windows, and what do you think? dried rose
-leaves and spices among the linen!&mdash;though as yet there&#8217;s no woman to
-live in it.&#8221; Calladine shut his mind obstinately to the curiosity he
-knew he must be awaking in Mrs. Quince; he daily informed her of his
-wishes while inviting no comment, and she, on her part, took advantage
-of his new mood, and of the good-humour in which, she argued, he must
-be anxious to keep her, to ask for an extra pair of hands for all the
-new work she pretended he was creating. &#8220;There&#8217;s that girl of Farmer
-Morland&#8217;s, sir, casting round for a place.&#8221; Calladine agreed at once,
-without argument or enquiry. Let Farmer Morland&#8217;s girl be engaged by
-all means; and Daisy, with her red head, her freckles, her pale blue
-eyes, and her frilled Sunday muslins,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_143" id="Page_143">[Pg 143]</a></span> was installed in the attic.
-Calladine, in so far as he noticed her at all, disliked her at sight;
-she dropped a curtsey to him the first time she met him, and tried
-to ingratiate him with a smile. But he was too deeply bent upon his
-own concerns to pay her more than the tribute of a passing distaste.
-Clare had been to his house, his room had contained Clare, her voice
-had vibrated through the air he breathed, her hand had rested on his
-door handle, her foot had trodden his stair. She might come again&mdash;but
-such was his fantasy that he all but dreaded lest the return of her
-presence should disturb the perfection of his memory. He was almost
-content, for the moment, that he might remain at Starvecrow, doing her
-service. A garden, she had said; and he toiled at the obstinate soil
-till his hands lost their refinement and hardened in the palms, and he
-smiled to see his broken nails. Mrs. Quince observed him sarcastically
-from the windows of the house, hands on hips. He had thrown aside his
-coat and rolled up his shirt-sleeves. &#8220;But he&#8217;ll need to do away with
-those silk shirts if he&#8217;s to go in for pick and mattock,&#8221; she grumbled,
-between tenderness and scorn. Calladine was indeed an incongruous
-figure, spare and delicate of build, with his greying hair that gave
-him a slightly eighteenth century appearance, and his long back bent
-over the stones and flints of that untilled hillside. He thought,
-sometimes ruefully, when he stood up to stretch his back and to survey
-the little progress he had made, that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_144" id="Page_144">[Pg 144]</a></span> Clare had set him a harder task
-than she knew. He began to invest it with characteristically romantic
-properties. It was like scaling the Hill of Glass, or separating the
-wheat from the millet, or travelling to the ends of the earth to bring
-back a jet bottled from the Singing Fountain. If he could transform
-this strong wilderness to a blowing curtseying garden, might he, having
-accomplished his task, present himself to claim his prize? And what
-would she say, she the distant, she the all-unconscious, when she came
-to inspect the results of his labours? Would she praise? would she
-deride? he swung his pick again with an unconvinced jeer at himself for
-the fabric of symbolism he was creating.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;The new mistress&#8217;ll have nothing to say to my old-fashioned ways,&#8221;
-Mrs. Quince observed to Martha, suggesting that it was she herself whom
-she thus slightly derided. Martha, simple soul, was taken in. &#8220;Likely
-enough, Mrs. Quince, she has a rare eye to the ordering of a house.&#8221;
-Mrs. Quince smiled on one side of her face. &#8220;She took over from me when
-she was fifteen,&#8221; continued Martha in perfect good faith, &#8220;and I wasn&#8217;t
-able to call my dusters my own. Look what she has made Mr. Calladine do
-already; the house isn&#8217;t the gloomy place it was.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What he has done was Mr. Calladine&#8217;s own choice,&#8221; said Mrs. Quince
-tartly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But you may be sure she put him up to it,&#8221; Martha replied.</p>
-
-<p>So for hours they talked round and round the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_145" id="Page_145">[Pg 145]</a></span> central subject, avoiding
-always the crux of the discussion, which was that Martha, with the
-match-making instinct, longed for the day when she should let Clare
-pass from her hands as a bride, and that Mrs. Quince, who had governed
-and mothered Calladine (in so far as so uncomfortable and so unreal
-a man would allow himself to be mothered) equally dreaded the day
-when another woman should take over from her the reins of Starvecrow.
-Calladine himself remarked her altered manner. &#8220;Will you be taking
-your lemon and hot water the same as usual at night, sir?&#8221; she asked
-him, and when in surprise he said, &#8220;Why shouldn&#8217;t I, Mrs. Quince?&#8221;
-she replied in a voice full of vague and sinister suggestion, &#8220;Well,
-I thought as things was so changed, and likely to be more changed in
-future, that that might be going overboard with the rest.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Because Mrs. Quince could not keep off her idea, which buzzed in her
-head as tirelessly as a mosquito, in between Martha&#8217;s visits she began
-to throw out dark hints to Daisy Morland. Daisy absorbed them with the
-intelligence she brought to bear only on questions connected with the
-sexual relationship of any two persons. She was careful not to betray
-too much of her interest to Mrs. Quince; only a modicum sufficient to
-keep the housekeeper going; and thus judiciously she was able to give
-the impression that she took in only about half of what was said, so
-that Mrs. Quince loosened her tongue<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_146" id="Page_146">[Pg 146]</a></span> to her more than she ventured
-to loosen it to Martha Sparrow, and presently, encouraged by Daisy&#8217;s
-ejaculations of sympathy and admiration, she fell into the habit of
-speaking her mind freely as to the vexatious prospect of having a young
-mistress in the house, &#8220;With her notions and her fandangles, upsetting
-folk that knew their work inside out long before she was born.&#8221; Daisy
-echoed the complaint; but inwardly she devoutly favoured the scheme of
-a marriage between Mr. Calladine and Miss Warrener. A parallel plan
-was maturing slowly in her brain, that she would turn Mr. Calladine&#8217;s
-name to her own advantage. She recalled all too vividly the faces of
-Miss Warrener and young Lovel as she had seen them upon the Downs,
-when, as she had expressed it in a bout of jealous despair to Olver,
-&#8220;a week wouldn&#8217;t have been enough for all they had to say to one
-another.&#8221; It was true that she had not seen them touch so much as each
-other&#8217;s hands, which seemed remarkable to her ideas, accustomed to the
-loose, inarticulate, indiscriminate rustic fondling, but this, with a
-sneer, her instinct working less subtly than it might have worked, she
-attributed to Miss Clare being &#8220;gentry,&#8221; and to Lovel fancying himself
-&#8220;gentry&#8221; too, though every one knew in what poverty he lived, for
-all his ancestors and his book-reading. But, she reflected, with the
-satisfaction of reducing even &#8220;gentry&#8221; to a least common denominator
-with simple folk like herself, in the end it came to the same thing
-for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_147" id="Page_147">[Pg 147]</a></span> everybody; and there was only one way of begetting children:
-no amount of gentility was able to refine <i>that</i> away! She put it
-crudely to herself, and grinned. But a thought struck her: what if
-young Lovel in that high-handed way he had with him, should actually
-succeed in getting Miss Warrener before Mr. Calladine had spoken?
-Mr. Calladine was a gentleman,&mdash;she couldn&#8217;t call him a man, no, but
-a gentleman he certainly was, and she was even a little overawed by
-his gentility,&mdash;who would take a long time in coming to the point;
-he would dawdle the thing out, just for the sake of tickling his own
-feelings; she could tell that merely by looking at him. Oh, he might
-have made up his mind long ago, but that wouldn&#8217;t prevent him from
-dallying with a girl, seeing her often, teasing himself and her with
-doubts, wondering whether he would want her quite so much once he had
-got her, and preferring to live on the whole, in the uncertainty of
-courtship.... She could see through Mr. Calladine; that was one effect
-being &#8220;gentry&#8221; had on people. She had nothing but scorn for men like
-that. Look at him now, digging up a patch for a garden, and all to
-please Miss Clare,&mdash;Mrs. Quince had said so,&mdash;and not as though he had
-been a poor man digging over his potato-patch against the day when he
-would have to keep a wife. Lovel wasn&#8217;t like that; and therein lay both
-her fear and her respect. She tried to console herself by thinking how
-preposterous was the idea that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_148" id="Page_148">[Pg 148]</a></span> Lovel should ever hope to get Miss
-Warrener, he, a village boy when all was said and done, with an old
-bed-ridden witch for a mother and a daft hobgoblin for a brother; but
-her own feelings for Lovel stepped in to destroy this consolation:
-wasn&#8217;t he a proper strong young man, as difficult to catch as a colt
-turned loose on the Downs, with his wild dark air, enough to touch the
-fancy of a girl? She couldn&#8217;t tell herself why she had so set her heart
-on Lovel, if it wasn&#8217;t for that air of his,&mdash;so set her heart on him
-that she was ready to take on the zany and the old witch and all, if
-only she could get him. He had never looked twice at her, for all she
-had tried hard enough to attract his attention; yet she preferred him
-to any young man in the village, even to Peter Gorwyn, the smith&#8217;s son,
-with his muscular six foot two, with whom she had made so merry on the
-day of the Scouring, or Job Lackland, who played the fiddle and whose
-appearance of fair girlishness was so misleading. They were all very
-well, either of those two, for a one day&#8217;s fooling; she reckoned them
-at their proper worth, just as they reckoned her; Lovel alone was the
-serious business. She supposed that she could get Peter Gorwyn to marry
-her; he was a decent boy, and his sense of decency would certainly get
-him as far as the church,&mdash;and suddenly, in her mind, she saw quite
-complete the scheme by which she would decoy Lovel. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_149" id="Page_149">[Pg 149]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>She brooded over this for some time, perfecting its details, with
-little gusts of excitement. There was as yet no very great urgency;
-she could afford to wait a week or two. Olver, moreover, whom she met
-one day that Mrs. Quince had sent her on an errand to King&#8217;s Avon,
-informed her that his brother seemed very moody of late and short
-in the temper, from which she deduced that he was either not seeing
-Clare or that something had happened to cloud their friendship. The
-information reassured her, and she cheerfully completed her purchases,
-passing the time of day with her acquaintances and even accepting a
-glass of stout at the Waggon of Hay from young Gorwyn, of which she
-knew that Mrs. Quince would not approve; she looked at young Gorwyn
-over the rim of her glass as she drank, and wondered whether the day
-would ever come when she could tell him what she owed him: perhaps on
-the occasion of some future Scouring, when he and she were left behind
-among the old folks of the village, to dodder and dither in the sun of
-the street, perhaps she would tell him then, and a fine astonishment
-and a good though quavering laugh, he would get out of it. It was funny
-to look at him now, handsome enough as he lounged beside the bar, and
-to think of him bent double over a stick; funny, too, to think of what
-had been between them and of what it was perhaps to lead to. One never
-knew how things<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_150" id="Page_150">[Pg 150]</a></span> were going to turn out.... She set down her glass
-on the counter, thanked him, and gathered up her parcels to go. He
-offered to accompany her, but she declined the offer; she had plenty to
-think about in her walk home over the Downs. &#8220;You&#8217;re mighty pernickety
-to-day,&#8221; he twitted her, rather relieved to be let off the consequences
-of the offer gallantry had prompted, and went with her as far as the
-door, and the old men sitting with their pipes in the chimney corner
-commented, &#8220;A hefty pair.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She took the road which led out of the village on the western side and
-which presently ceased to be a metalled way and dissolved into one of
-those broad green tracks that all over the Downlands of England mark
-the course of the ancient paths. She had a good three miles to walk,
-but her numerous small parcels of groceries and haberdashery were not
-heavy, and her mind was occupied with the account she had heard of
-Lovel. She could think it over at peace while it was still fresh in
-her memory; at Starvecrow, Mrs. Quince would hustle her, and she would
-not have time to sort her impressions until she went up to her attic
-for the night, when she would be too tired for anything but sleep. It
-had been clever of her to refuse young Gorwyn&#8217;s suggestion, although
-it went sorely against the grain with her ever to decline any man&#8217;s
-company. Still, she had done well; this was the very place to think
-out ways and means, with the peace of evening falling and only the
-distant<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_151" id="Page_151">[Pg 151]</a></span> bleatings of sheep to disturb a body&#8217;s thoughts. So Lovel was
-moody, was he? something had gone wrong, and according to her shrewd
-and simple creed nothing could go wrong enough to provoke moodiness in
-a man who had no crops or beasts of his own to worry about except his
-dealings with a woman. Had Miss Warrener given him the cold shoulder at
-last? she wouldn&#8217;t wonder, and was maliciously glad that Lovel should
-have met at last with a match in his own hoity-toity ways. That would
-show him, what it felt like. But she perceived that, although she had
-hitherto only congratulated herself over his discomfiture, it was in
-reality full of danger, for where was the danger to equal the danger
-of a reconciliation? She must, she saw it now, shoot her dart before
-Lovel and that hussy could make it up. But how to meet him? how to get
-so soon after this expedition, an afternoon&#8217;s leave from Mrs. Quince?
-Besides, there was the circus soon visiting King&#8217;s Avon; she didn&#8217;t
-want to imperil her chance of getting leave to attend that with her
-father and mother. She paused, cogitating, her finger pressed against
-the side of her nose. She looked around for inspiration. Nothing but
-the emptiness of the rolling country oddly broken by a few stray
-barrows and tumuli; a little farm half-hidden in a clump of trees; a
-water-mill slowly revolving with a recurrent flash from the setting
-sun; a hay-stack standing in a wattled enclosure by the side of the
-track. &#8220;As well look for an idea as for a needle in a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_152" id="Page_152">[Pg 152]</a></span> bundle of hay,&#8221;
-she muttered to herself. The very thing! the very idea she wanted!
-Glancing cautiously round to see that no one was in sight, she bestrode
-the hurdles and thrust into the dusty depths of the haystack the most
-urgent and necessary of Mrs. Quince&#8217;s many commissions. She would get
-a sound rating for her forgetfulness, but she would surely be sent
-back next day to King&#8217;s Avon to repair the negligence, and then, if
-she could not contrive to find Lovel, might she be called a fool for
-ever after! Chuckling over her own ingenuousness, she hurried on her
-way. She had no eye for the beauty of the late summer evening, that so
-dusted with gold the hills that they might all have been one rolling
-field of standing corn, but hurried on, her mind full of her own small
-and artful schemes, and dwelling with relish on the thought of Clare
-and Lovel estranged within a stone&#8217;s throw of one another in the
-village she had left behind her.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">Her gauge of Mrs. Quince&#8217;s irritability had been very accurate. The
-other parcels duly handed over, Mrs. Quince had demanded her thread,
-of which, she declared, she had not a morsel left in the house. She
-inveighed against Calladine, who was so impatient that he daily
-enquired when the new curtains would be finished, but she inveighed
-still more against Daisy, who, she exclaimed, must be bereft of all
-ordinary sense to forget any item of so careful a list as she, Mrs.
-Quince, had herself prepared.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_153" id="Page_153">[Pg 153]</a></span> Well, there was no help for it: back
-Daisy must go, and that no later than to-morrow, for besides the
-curtains there was all the mending to be done, and if she got a corn or
-a blister tramping the extra six miles she would only have herself to
-blame.</p>
-
-<p>Daisy made no complaint. She was beginning to feel herself a match for
-them all, for if she could outwit Mrs. Quince, who was a woman, how
-much more easily would she be able to outwit Lovel, who was only a man?</p>
-
-<p>Accordingly she started out on the following day, ostensibly penitent
-but inwardly triumphant, and slung down the hill, leaving on its
-height Starvecrow with its blown thorn trees and Calladine swinging
-his pick in the garden. The only thought which pre-occupied her, was
-where to find Lovel, for as she knew, his occupations took him in many
-various directions, and he was just as likely to be driving a herd into
-Marlborough to market as watching sheep on the Downs. Olver, however,
-she could be tolerably certain of finding in the village, and he, at
-least, might know his brother&#8217;s whereabouts. On the way she retrieved
-the packet of thread from its hiding place in the stack, since she was
-too thrifty a soul to waste her own money in buying a new lot from the
-shop, and as she climbed rather laboriously back over the hurdles, she
-saw Lovel himself riding idly towards her up the green track.</p>
-
-<p>He was alone; he had not seen her, for his<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_154" id="Page_154">[Pg 154]</a></span> head was sunk and he rode
-with loose reins as a man profoundly dejected, not caring whither he
-went. Daisy stood watching his approach, superstitiously encouraged as
-to her ultimate enterprise by her initial good luck. Not only would
-no time be wasted, but she would be spared quite a mile&#8217;s walk, for
-they were a good half-mile out of the village. How slack he rode! had
-she not been a woman in love with him, she would have pitied him. His
-horse slunk along as dejected as he, with drooping head and careless
-stumbling foot. They came up the track towards her at a walk, the
-reins swinging loosely from side to side, but even though he sat so
-lackadaisical in his saddle she noted the easy give of his body to the
-horse&#8217;s gait, and the light touch of the hands that would tauten to an
-instant check should the animal start or shy. Shy indeed it did, as
-Daisy stepped suddenly out from the side of the track to intercept it,
-and Lovel was startled into instinctive vigilance, raising his eyes
-under the brim of his wide hat to see what stood in the way. But not so
-much life as even an expression of annoyance crept in his mournful eyes
-as he saw Daisy; he lifted his hat civilly, and would have ridden on,
-but that she detained him.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Not so fast, Gipsy Lovel, when I&#8217;ve walked all this way from
-Starvecrow on purpose to see you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She tried to make her tone arch rather than threatening; it was her
-habit to coax men rather<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_155" id="Page_155">[Pg 155]</a></span> than to coerce them. She might have known
-that no woman, not even Clare, could coax Lovel when he was in the
-opposite humour, but the manner was too habitual for her to discard.
-&#8220;Won&#8217;t you get off your horse,&#8221; she said, &#8220;and sit down on the grass
-beside me while I say what I have to say to you?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She sighted the hay-stack, out of which a section had already been cut,
-and thought in her cheap and common mind that if only she could get him
-to rest there with her, leaning back against the warm dusty hay, she
-would find greater ease in bringing him round to her point of view, for
-she was a staunch believer in the influence of physical comfort upon
-the tempers of men. &#8220;See, here&#8217;s a nice place,&#8221; she invited him, but
-with a cold patience he surveyed her from the height of his horse and
-begged that she would say her say with the utmost possible brevity and
-allow him to pass on.</p>
-
-<p>The corners of her mouth began to go down ugly and sulky, as the
-first obstacle thwarted her on the path which had hitherto been so
-surprisingly smooth, but she hastily lifted them again, for it would
-not do to let ill-humour creep into their relations.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, well, I&#8217;ll begin,&#8221; she said as brightly as she could, &#8220;and if you
-feel like coming down from your grandeur half-way through, just stop me
-and I&#8217;ll give you a breathing-space.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Lovel waited gravely, the shadow of his hat heavy across his eyes. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_156" id="Page_156">[Pg 156]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Now that Daisy was face to face with him, she was at a loss how to
-begin; she could not just blurt out her story and ask him to marry her;
-and anyway, he made her feel so insignificant, sitting there on a great
-horse like an idol, or like one of those soldiers she&#8217;d seen pictures
-of, in a steel helmet and a leather jacket and an upright lance in his
-hand. She told him this, and he listened unbending, silhouetted for her
-against the sky, mollified neither by her archness nor by her genuine
-confusion. &#8220;Oh, well, if you will have it up there,&#8221; she said at last
-in despair, &#8220;I&#8217;ll have to shout it up to you, but surely a poor girl
-never told a story in such a gawk of a position.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She began then, but, disconcerted, she began as she had not meant to
-begin, by saying &#8220;Do you recollect the Scouring this year?&#8221; and then
-hastily correcting herself, &#8220;No, no, I don&#8217;t mean that at all, what I
-mean is, your young brother Olver....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No, I don&#8217;t mean that either,&#8221; she said, seeing that his expression
-had become, if anything, a little sterner at the mention of Olver&#8217;s
-name. &#8220;It&#8217;s like this,&#8221; she said desperately, &#8220;I&#8217;m over to Starvecrow
-now, at Mr. Calladine&#8217;s, but it&#8217;s a question how long I&#8217;ll be able to
-remain in the place. And I thought that you, Nick Lovel, being a decent
-man in spite of all your pride, would be the last one not to help a
-poor girl when she had no one but you to turn to, and afraid to face
-her own parents, and not so much<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_157" id="Page_157">[Pg 157]</a></span> as a married sister she could go to,
-or a penny of money saved, seeing Mr. Calladine&#8217;s is my first place
-and Dad never paid me for the work I did on the farm, but a bit now
-and then to buy myself a pair of new shoes or a ribbon, and anything
-I had went on muslin for a dress to the Scouring, which I made myself
-instead of taking it to the dressmaker in Marlborough same as Annabel
-Blagdon. And it isn&#8217;t for Mr. Calladine&#8217;s getting married that I do
-be afraid of leaving the place, but for my own trouble, and that&#8217;s a
-thing that Mrs. Quince is bound to find out sooner or later, and the
-only wonder is she hasn&#8217;t started asking questions already, but now
-every time she opens her mouth I&#8217;m feared it&#8217;s coming that I do feel
-my cheeks going all patchy, red and white, same as sometimes in the
-spring &#8217;mong boys and girls. But I knew if I came to you, you would see
-it in the Christian light, and I could give in my notice and say I was
-leaving to get married, and &#8217;twould be all envy and bless-you-Daisy,
-and Come-and-see-us-when-you&#8217;re-a-married-woman, instead of
-Out-you-go-you-wanton-sheltering-behind-a-proper-gentleman&#8217;s-name.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What in God&#8217;s name are you trying to tell me?&#8221; said Lovel.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m trying to tell you I&#8217;m going to have a baby,&#8221; replied Daisy,
-beginning to cry in good earnest.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, that&#8217;s no affair of mine; what is it you want of me?&#8221; said
-Lovel. &#8220;If it&#8217;s money you<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_158" id="Page_158">[Pg 158]</a></span> want, you&#8217;re welcome to anything I can
-spare,&mdash;if you will only let me go my ways now,&#8221; he added inaudibly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What good would money be to me,&#8221; sobbed Daisy, &#8220;when I haven&#8217;t a home
-to go to or a man to give me his name? My father&#8217;d turn me out, I know
-he would,&mdash;he wouldn&#8217;t give me a corner of his barn or a truss of his
-hay for my baby to be born on, he wouldn&#8217;t, and my mother wouldn&#8217;t give
-me my own long-clothes to clothe its nakedness.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You must get the fellow to marry you,&mdash;is he a native of these parts?&#8221;
-asked Lovel, perfunctorily, aware only of the overwhelming oppression
-of his own spirit and his urgent longing for solitude.</p>
-
-<p>A cunning look came into her eyes when he mentioned marriage, and for
-the first time she recovered a little of her direction, which she had
-lost in her floundering to and fro.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Ah, so you think he ought to marry me? Well, so do I,&#8221; she said.
-&#8220;You&#8217;d think ill of a man who could let a girl go down and her child be
-nameless save for the name of a woman, which isn&#8217;t a name at all?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes, yes,&#8221; said Lovel, fretting to be at an end.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Supposing I told you,&#8221; she proceeded, slowly now and with caution,
-&#8220;that he couldn&#8217;t marry? wasn&#8217;t fit to marry?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Not fit to marry? if he&#8217;s fit to be the father<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_159" id="Page_159">[Pg 159]</a></span> of your child he&#8217;s
-surely fit enough to marry,&#8221; said Lovel.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, but there might be other reasons,&mdash;ill-health, mightn&#8217;t there?
-or he might be married already, let&#8217;s say....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;In any case, it doesn&#8217;t concern me. I&#8217;m sorry,&#8221; said Lovel, &#8220;but
-you&#8217;re talking to me of things you&#8217;d better be talking of to another
-man.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Are you so sure of that?&#8221; she asked, coming up to him and putting her
-hand on the neck of his horse. She was aware that her eyes must be
-all puffy and blubbered after her recent crying, but the crisis being
-at hand now, for good or for bad, she was not going to delay it until
-another occasion when she should have had a better chance of setting
-herself to rights. &#8220;Are you so sure of that?&#8221; she asked, in a tone she
-tried to make impressive.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Sure?&#8221; echoed Lovel, looking at her in disgust at the implication that
-he himself could ever have touched her. He even gathered up his reins
-as a sign that he definitely wanted her to release him now.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Not so fast,&#8221; she said again. &#8220;There&#8217;s such a thing as responsibility
-for other&#8217;s actions, whether you like it or no. And it&#8217;s a
-responsibility I&#8217;m not in a position to let you off. I have to think of
-my baby as well as of myself, you see, and so long as he gets the name
-of Lovel I&#8217;m willing to overlook him not getting<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_160" id="Page_160">[Pg 160]</a></span> it from the proper
-quarter. Though why I talk of my baby as he, I&#8217;m sure I don&#8217;t know,&#8221;
-she added with a giggle, &#8220;for it&#8217;s even chances it&#8217;ll be a girl.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What in the devil&#8217;s name are you saying?&#8221; ejaculated Lovel
-contemptuously. &#8220;Name of Lovel? is your trouble sending you out of your
-senses?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No, it&#8217;s brought me to them,&#8221; she said tartly. &#8220;I may have been a fool
-in the past, and taken my pleasures too light where I found them, but
-that&#8217;s over now, and for the future I&#8217;m going to look after myself and
-my baby. And if you don&#8217;t take the proper steps, and the only decent
-steps, and the steps I want, there&#8217;s not a soul in Wilts and Somerset
-but shall know the scandal of that daft beast you let roam about at his
-own free-will.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What ...&#8221; began Lovel, aghast.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes,&#8221; she cried shrilly. &#8220;&#8217;Tis all very well for you to be sitting
-up there so grand on your horse, with your eyes looking out over
-your nose, while your brother Olver who ought to be in Marlborough
-lock-up&mdash;and so ought you too, you poacher, for that matter&mdash;skulks
-about in dark barns taking advantage like the beast he is of poor girls
-on a scatter of straw. And I saw you, yes, I saw you, not only coming
-home from Marlborough fair, but often, quite the gentleman with Miss
-Warrener, and where had you two been, I should like to know? and it
-made me so mad seeing you that I didn&#8217;t care what<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_161" id="Page_161">[Pg 161]</a></span> any one done to me,
-whether it was Olver Lovel or another. I was crying after you all the
-time, if you want to know, so as I scarcely noticed a thing. And now,
-since even <i>you&#8217;d</i> scarcely see me married to that hoddy-doddy, you&#8217;ll
-just have to marry me yourself, and pass off your nephew as your son
-for the rest of our life, and have only yourself to thank. And you
-needn&#8217;t think you&#8217;ll be losing your Miss Warrener any the more, for
-she&#8217;s been promised to Mr. Calladine this many a week back.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Promised to Mr. Calladine?&#8221; said Lovel, starting. &#8220;How do you know
-that?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Every one in the village knows it but you,&#8221; she jeered, &#8220;and if you
-wasn&#8217;t too proud to consort with your equals a bit more you&#8217;d know it
-too. Ask Martha Sparrow or William Baskett or any of them. Ask Mrs.
-Quince over to Starvecrow. Ask her if the house isn&#8217;t being done up
-all grand against the lady coming. Ride over and see if Mr. Calladine
-isn&#8217;t picking up a patch of garden with his own hands, forsooth. Ask
-parson if he hasn&#8217;t had notice yet to call the banns. We&#8217;ll have ours
-called the same Sunday. &#8216;Richard Calladine and Clare Warrener, Nicholas
-Lovel and Margaret Morland, all of this parish.&#8217; That&#8217;ll be a fine
-sit-up-and-take-notice for the congregation.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I must speak to Olver first,&#8221; said Lovel dully.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Then you&#8217;ll do it?&#8221; urged Daisy. &#8220;If you find that what I&#8217;ve told
-you&#8217;s true, you&#8217;ll do it?&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_162" id="Page_162">[Pg 162]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, yes, I&#8217;ll marry you,&#8221; said Lovel, tonelessly. &#8220;But I&#8217;ll speak to
-Olver first,&#8221; he added, &#8220;and you&#8217;ll see the doctor.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, there&#8217;s no mistake, you&#8217;ll find,&#8221; said Daisy, bursting into a
-hysterical laugh. &#8220;And I&#8217;m not so bad as you think me, Lovel. I&#8217;m
-thrifty in a house, and I&#8217;ll make you a good wife, and I&#8217;ve loved you
-truly this long time, as well you know.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;For God&#8217;s sake, spare me that at least, for God&#8217;s sake spare me that,&#8221;
-said Lovel in a voice of such anguish that even Daisy in the midst of
-her relief and jubilation was struck silent and ashamed.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">The gossip of Mrs. Quince and Martha Sparrow had not taken long to
-reach the Waggon of Hay through the medium of John Sparrow. Blowing his
-old frame out with importance, he had hastened off to this favourite
-resort with the intelligence as soon as his daughter had whispered
-it to him, fearful lest any might have forestalled him, and he be
-greeted with derision as a bringer of stale news. But he need not have
-feared: he was the first direct link between the Waggon of Hay and
-Starvecrow, and it was to a gratifying inquisitive audience that, after
-due mystification, he finally made his announcement. Mr. Calladine
-to marry Miss Clare! Well, here was good health to them both, and a
-strapping posterity, and a bumper went round. The topic took its place
-in popularity with the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_163" id="Page_163">[Pg 163]</a></span> continuance of the dry weather (which was
-spoiling the roots), and the imminent arrival of a travelling circus,
-already advertised on hand-bills and posters all over the village. John
-Sparrow sat in the chimney corner with his pipe and his mug, and by
-recurrent reminders kept the fact green in the memory of his companions
-that, but for his connection with the Manor House, they would not yet
-have been in possession of the news. (And indeed, had they best known
-it, they were in possession of it even before the two persons chiefly
-concerned.) Every fresh arrival had to be told&mdash;&#8220;Well, now, Job, or
-Luke, or William, what sort of surprise do you think we have got for
-you?&#8221;&mdash;and laughter of the most elementary sort stirred the cobwebs
-about the rafters at every, &#8220;Well, to be sure, now, who would have
-thought it?&#8221; and the expressions of good-will to Miss Clare were many,
-though it was wished that she might have chosen a man who was a bit
-more of a man than Mr. Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>One listener there was, who had received the information with anxiety,
-though without raising his voice in comment. Olver Lovel, for some days
-now, had haunted the Waggon of Hay, tolerated though not encouraged
-by the rustics. So long as he did no harm, made no noise, did not get
-drunk, and got in nobody&#8217;s way, they would not object to his slinking
-round, surreptitiously finishing up the dregs out of other people&#8217;s
-glasses. They were a little surprised to see him there, for they knew
-that in the past<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_164" id="Page_164">[Pg 164]</a></span> his brother (who, let them do him justice, saw to
-it that the zany gave as little annoyance as possible), had put the
-Waggon strictly out of bounds for Olver. Olver knew it too; he knew
-also, what they did not know, that the embargo had never been removed,
-and that the Waggon was as much out of bounds now as it had ever
-been; but Nicco had been in so strange a mood of late&mdash;so strange,
-inattentive, and lenient a mood&mdash;that Olver was ready to run the risk
-of taking advantage. He did not know what had come over Nicco. Money
-and food seemed plentiful, although Nicco rarely went out poaching
-now; he would break into the savings-box and not seem to mind; he had
-even given Olver, on a bare request, enough money to buy a new smock;
-and their mother was allowed the matches at night now, for all the
-world as though Nicco no longer cared whether the house was burnt
-down about their ears or not. Olver had rejoiced greatly in this new
-order of things. Day by day he had grown more daring; little acts
-of insubordination passing unnoticed, he had at last achieved the
-supreme defiance of creeping down to the Waggon one evening, and had
-stayed there drinking up the dregs and listening to the conversation,
-half of which was to him unintelligible and half a source of awe and
-admiration, until ten o&#8217;clock at night. Still Nicco said nothing; did
-not ask where he had been; did not even comment on his absence from
-supper. Olver was full of contempt for this new, lax Nicholas&mdash;full<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_165" id="Page_165">[Pg 165]</a></span>
-of contempt, but determined to make hay while the sun shone. No doubt
-the day would come when Nicco would fly into a rage, recover the
-matches, give Olver a thrashing, take away his new smock, and the old
-redoubtable order would be re-established. Somewhere, perversely,
-secretly, Olver hoped for that day; at present he felt himself a little
-like a horse allowed his head down a slippery hill. But this small,
-perverse and secret hope he did not admit even to himself. What!
-deplore the new system which permitted him to go to the Waggon almost
-every evening, to beg a twist of tobacco, to sit on the floor near the
-fire in the chimney corner, to listen, and to look&mdash;to look through
-the tobacco smoke at all the different-coloured spirits in the range
-of shining bottles, which reflected the tap-room rather in the same
-distorted way as his own little round mirror; at the steel handles on
-the bar-counter; at the coloured picture of the Queen and the late
-Prince Consort; at the photograph of the landlord standing beside a
-giant eight foot high&mdash;how could he deplore a system which permitted
-these delights?</p>
-
-<p>And now in this same tap-room he had picked up the one piece of
-information he wanted. He knew now what was the matter with Nicco: Miss
-Warrener was promised to Mr. Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>His gratitude to Miss Warrener doubled: not only did he owe her the
-mirror, which was incomparably the dearest of his few possessions,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_166" id="Page_166">[Pg 166]</a></span>
-but he also owed her, indirectly, his new smock and his visits to the
-Waggon of Hay. He owed her all Nicco&#8217;s sad indulgence. His mother owed
-her the matches placed beside her bed every night. What benefits had
-Miss Warrener not conferred upon Olver and his mother!</p>
-
-<p>So for a long time his feeble mind played round his debt to Miss
-Warrener, before it dawned upon him that Nicholas, to be so changed,
-must be very unhappy. His involved but absolute devotion to his
-brother flared instantly; he might deceive Nicholas, he might have
-fretted once, not so very long ago, beneath his severity; but in his
-eyes Nicholas was nevertheless God. At the mere thought that Nicholas
-might be unhappy,&mdash;might even now be sitting over the hearth at
-home, not angry with Olver because he no longer had the spirit left
-in him to be angry with anything or any one,&mdash;at these thoughts,
-which reached Olver&#8217;s poor brain in a more or less confused form, he
-scrambled to his feet, much to the surprise of the company, which had
-been sitting quietly smoking and talking around him. He stood up by
-the bar, a wild and startling figure; ashes from the fire had blown
-into his hair, which moreover stood straight up on end as he ran his
-fingers despairingly through it. He burst into abuse, unmistakably
-directed against some woman. &#8220;Here, here: order!&#8221; cried authority,
-stepping hastily forward, but before it became necessary<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_167" id="Page_167">[Pg 167]</a></span> to eject the
-disturber, he had vanished of his own accord out into the street.</p>
-
-<p>Olver ran as fast as he could go down the street towards his own home.
-A light burnt behind the ill-fitting shutters both upstairs and down;
-that meant that his mother was not yet gone to bed, and that Nicco was
-at home. He irrupted violently into the kitchen; Nicco was sitting
-there, just as he had imagined him; doing nothing, staring into the
-fire. There was no sign of his having had any supper. Olver rushed up
-to his brother and threw his arms about him. &#8220;Nicco, I know it all now,
-the bitch, the baggage, but you shan&#8217;t lose her if you want her. I&#8217;ll
-get her for you,&mdash;trust Olver,&mdash;I&#8217;ll get her out on to the Downs with
-something she gave me,&mdash;or I&#8217;ll lend it to you to get her yourself if
-you like. I once told her you could if you were so minded. You shall
-have her. They said down at the Waggon that she was promised to Mr.
-Calladine. But she shan&#8217;t go to him, she shall go to you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Olver,&#8221; said Lovel quietly, &#8220;why did you never tell me about yourself
-and Daisy Morland in the barn?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Olver began to stammer; he said, &#8220;I did tell you,&mdash;I told you she had
-seen you with Miss Warrener,&mdash;I told you I held her down and tickled
-her till she squealed,&mdash;I did tell you, Nicco.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You told me half,&#8221; said Lovel. A hope<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_168" id="Page_168">[Pg 168]</a></span> pricked at his heart that
-Daisy&#8217;s story might be false. &#8220;She has told me herself,&#8221; he added.</p>
-
-<p>Olver was quite sure now that his brother would kill him for this and
-for going to the Waggon of Hay,&mdash;for the two things together. He looked
-at Nicholas with his shifty blue eyes so oddly rimmed with black, and
-shuffled one foot over the other, but Nicholas&#8217; eyes held him and asked
-for the truth.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well ...&#8221; he muttered.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You had her?&#8221; said Lovel without mercy.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And why not?&#8221; burst out Olver. &#8220;All the boys do,&mdash;yes, and brag about
-it. Look at Peg Lackland, going....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;All right,&#8221; said Lovel, with the same quietness; &#8220;I&#8217;m not blaming
-you.&#8221; Not blaming him? had the world stopped going round? &#8220;Only if you
-ever tell any one this I shall kill you,&mdash;do you quite understand?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Olver stared, but with Nicco&#8217;s threat stability and familiarity seemed
-to be returning in some degree to his world. He nodded his head.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m going to marry Daisy Morland myself,&#8221; added Lovel, still fixing
-him with his eyes, &#8220;and I can&#8217;t have it said that she has ever gone
-with my brother. You understand that, don&#8217;t you?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Going to marry Daisy Morland? but Miss Warrener ...&#8221; began Olver.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Miss Warrener is going to marry Mr. Calladine,&#8221; said Lovel steadily;
-&#8220;that has nothing to do with me, except that she was always civil to
-me when I met her on the Downs. I know my<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_169" id="Page_169">[Pg 169]</a></span> standing, and Miss Warrener
-knows hers. She marries a gentleman, and I marry a farmer&#8217;s girl;
-that&#8217;s as it should be.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;So Daisy will come to live here?&#8221; said Olver, completely amazed now.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes,&#8221; said Lovel brutally, &#8220;she will come to live here. She will be
-useful looking after our mother and keeping the place a bit better than
-you and I can keep it. And if ever it gets out that she once went with
-you, I break your head.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes, Nicco,&#8221; said Olver humbly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You can tell all the village, if you like, down at the Waggon, that I
-am going to marry her,&#8221; said Lovel.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes, Nicco,&#8221; said Olver again, not fully grasping the implied
-sanction. &#8220;I&#8217;m sorry I went with her,&#8221; he added out of his confusion.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;That doesn&#8217;t matter,&#8221; replied Lovel in his old weary voice. &#8220;Poor
-Olver, what does it matter? We&#8217;re all so greatly to be pitied, what&#8217;s
-that the more or the less?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">Calladine announced to Mrs. Quince that he was dining at the Manor
-House. Daisy rejoiced at this piece of news, for ever since her return
-to Starvecrow she had been nervous lest Lovel and Miss Warrener should
-meet and Lovel discover that she, Daisy, had in one particular exceeded
-the truth in her assertions. She hoped,&mdash;and would have prayed, but
-that her superstitious faith feared the possible blasphemy,&mdash;that
-Calladine would no longer delay his avowal,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_170" id="Page_170">[Pg 170]</a></span> but would return after
-dinner that night a betrothed man. Indeed, for all she knew, he might
-be secretly betrothed even now, not merely contemplating betrothal,
-and she thus have spoken the truth after all, albeit inadvertently to
-Lovel. Luck had been so much upon her side, that perhaps it might have
-favoured her also in this instance.</p>
-
-<p>Never did lover set out accompanied by more earnest wishes for his
-success than Calladine that evening accompanied by the wishes of his
-housemaid.</p>
-
-<p>Calladine found Mr. Warrener alone.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t know what has become of Clare,&#8221; said the old gentleman after
-greeting his guest; &#8220;it&#8217;s unlike her to be late for dinner, especially
-when she knew you were coming. Perhaps I allow her too much liberty,&#8221;
-he added, peering into Calladine&#8217;s face to read whether he found any
-condemnation therein.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Miss Clare,&#8221; said Calladine, speaking gently, for he knew Mr.
-Warrener&#8217;s occasional uneasiness, &#8220;is not a young lady whom it would be
-judicious to confine.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Um,&mdash;wild, you think her?&#8221; said Mr. Warrener, rubbing his chin.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Not wild,&mdash;only free....&#8221; Calladine breathed.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;She is a very great responsibility,&#8221; said Mr. Warrener, perplexed.</p>
-
-<p>Calladine smiled. Who were they, two cultured and scholarly men pacing
-a lamplit study,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_171" id="Page_171">[Pg 171]</a></span> to be disposing of the freedom of that airy spirit?</p>
-
-<p>But he was gentle to the old man, for in many ways he loved him.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Your safeguard, sir, lies in her trustworthiness.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;A happy word,&#8221; said Mr. Warrener, immensely relieved, and they
-continued to pace the room, talking of other things, until Martha
-summoned them to dinner.</p>
-
-<p>The candles between them, they dined. They spoke the same language, and
-the suavity that reigned was not only the suavity of the room. Almost,
-Clare&#8217;s absence was a relief; always, her elusiveness was a slight
-trouble, like a breeze in the room. Even now, she was present in their
-minds; their eyes flickered towards the door; where was she? dancing
-after what Will-o&#8217;-the-Wisp?</p>
-
-<p>She came, more vivacious than Calladine had ever seen her; so lively
-now, that he thought her feverish, now drooping silent and listless,
-rousing herself to Mr. Warrener&#8217;s &#8220;Clare! Clare, you don&#8217;t hear what I
-am saying,&#8221; with a startled smile,&mdash;Mr. Warrener, in excellent spirits
-and full of discourse. Calladine watched her covertly, between the
-candles on the dinner-table. He would speak to her to-night; speak,
-lest he should lose her for the sake of a fancy. He could not wait,
-until the garden which she had ordained should be finished.</p>
-
-<p>Yet, what haunted her? What wild grief lay beneath her gaiety? </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_172" id="Page_172">[Pg 172]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>But there was Mr. Warrener to reckon with, eager and garrulous
-to-night, and oblivious to the fact that Calladine wanted to stray out
-into the garden through the French windows with Clare. Calladine was
-enraged with impatience against the old gentleman, in whose trained
-and scholarly mind he usually delighted. Having wondered whether Mr.
-Warrener realised that he came to the Manor House as a suitor for his
-daughter&#8217;s hand, to-night he crossly decided that the idea had never
-once entered Mr. Warrener&#8217;s head. Otherwise it was impossible that he
-should be so obtuse ... scrupulously courteous as he always was, and
-considerate the moment he recognised the need for any consideration.
-Calladine nearly laughed for his irritation, as Mr. Warrener, who was
-at work upon a new theme, brought out diagram after diagram, specimen
-after specimen, in his zeal to prove his point, dropping dates and
-facts into place like the cubes of a patterned mosaic. But to-night
-the facts and figures seemed to Calladine only brittle and dry, when
-life was waiting for him in the shadowed corner of the room. Clare
-sat there, in her rose-red dress, and now that she believed the eye
-of neither of the two men to be upon her, Calladine could furtively
-observe that she had relaxed the strain of her attention, and sat
-limp with her gaze fixed upon the dark garden through the window. The
-tight bodice moulded the extreme youth of her form; her hands lay
-idly clasped in her lap. His egoism<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_173" id="Page_173">[Pg 173]</a></span> vanished before the pathos of
-her attitude. She became a child in his eyes: a child broken by some
-unexplained sorrow,&mdash;yet what sorrow, what sorrow could have come upon
-her in her free yet sheltered life? And because, however genuine his
-sentiment, he must always attitudinise to himself, he saw himself a
-sage and tender protector, the guardian of this too-emotional child
-against the fancied ills,&mdash;for how should they be otherwise than
-fancied?&mdash;that beset her. He realised then that he had lost count,
-as much as Clare herself, of what Mr. Warrener was saying, and saw
-to his relief, as he tried to make a flurried return to archæology,
-that Mr. Warrener was no longer addressing him, but had drifted into
-a soliloquy, according to his wont, with the little flints and shards
-ranged upon his desk.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;May Clare and I go out, sir?&#8221; said Calladine softly.</p>
-
-<p>They wandered into the garden, Calladine tall and grave, Clare with the
-rustle of her silks and the little crunch of her heels, racing beside
-him up and down the garden path. She had been afraid, for a moment,
-that he was about to ask her to play or sing: music, with him leaning
-towards her over the piano.... Reprieved from music, it was indifferent
-to her what she did. They paced the path; an owl whooped softly from
-the cedar; was answered, from afar off, out on the Downs.</p>
-
-<p>Through the lighted windows they saw Mr.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_174" id="Page_174">[Pg 174]</a></span> Warrener, his lips still
-mumbling, bent meticulously over his shards.</p>
-
-<p>Clare, with the rustle of her silks and the tap of her heels, and the
-private knowledge of her mind, looked away from Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>He examined the words that she flippantly threw out, looking for
-bitterness, but no bitterness escaped her, looking for cynicism,
-but her lips were innocent of it. And nothing came to him but
-matter-of-fact questions, &#8220;Where had you been, Miss Clare?&#8221; and the
-like, which she answered civilly, though he knew that where her body
-had been was of no import, the only thing of import was the adventure
-of her spirit, and that he could never seize or follow. She was a
-stranger to him, irrevocably, and he savoured all the full pain of that
-phrase. &#8220;Where had you been, Miss Clare?&#8221;&mdash;oh, empty enquiry! what
-could she tell him, that would bring him nearer to her? but at the same
-time in a sudden frustrated rage he thought that were she ever to be
-his he would not let her out of his sight for a moment. Revengeful, he
-was; petulant; snatching,&mdash;and she so detached, cool, tantalising.</p>
-
-<p>He called himself back; Clare made him lose his sense; he could put
-out his hand now and touch her bare arm, touch her flesh; such contact
-would be reassuring, would chase from his mind all ideas of her
-elusiveness; he could handle her roughly, if he would; drag her up into
-his arms, mutter angrily against her lips,&mdash;but even so, would he hold
-her?&mdash;and the old despair came<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_175" id="Page_175">[Pg 175]</a></span> back upon him. She made him angry;
-there was no happiness for him, even in winning her, yet win her he
-must, and was determined upon it, for he was an obstinate man, with
-room in his head only for one idea once it had taken hold of him.</p>
-
-<p>But he must be gentle with her, or else she would blow away from him
-like thistledown.</p>
-
-<p>And while he was wondering how he might least scare her, he was shaking
-with his rage and his desire and his anxiety.</p>
-
-<p>It was quiet in the garden; he liked the security of gardens, he liked
-the gentleness of these little grey West-country manor-houses such as
-the Manor House of King&#8217;s Avon; they shut out the wild; they ignored
-the great pale Downs, and the rovings of such dark people as Gipsy
-Lovel. And he began to talk, murmuring much of what he had obscurely
-felt, &#8220;A pastoral country,&#8221; he said, &#8220;fair and straightforward, a
-stranger might think; and yet we who live in it know better, we know
-its dim hauntings, we know how present are the dead, we know the little
-countless tragedies,&mdash;the rabbit squealing beneath the stoat, the
-blackbird pecked by the sparrowhawk. We know the perpetual enmity that
-goes on under the apparent harmony.&#8221; And,&mdash;what possessed him?&mdash;he
-spoke also of Lovel. &#8220;That dark, supple fellow,&mdash;he knows as much as
-anybody of the secrets of the woods; he&#8217;s got a quick eye and a sure
-hand, and a glance like the glance of an animal ready to spring away;
-it&#8217;s<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_176" id="Page_176">[Pg 176]</a></span> a wild blood they have in them, the gipsies, whether they live
-in a house or move their hearth about with them,&mdash;a strong stain of
-blood, that never gets washed out. Look at that fellow, now,&mdash;he never
-takes a regular job,&mdash;he strays from farmer to farmer, when he isn&#8217;t
-sneaking on his own concerns. And it&#8217;s all the gipsy blood in him, Miss
-Clare,&mdash;untamed he lives, and untamed he&#8217;ll die. But he understands the
-country, I dare wager, as well as any hare or kestrel that hides or
-flies, taking its chance of life and death.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>It struck him as absurd that in this hour when all his faculty was
-bent upon so different a matter, he should be discoursing idly of the
-country and the vagrant fellow he was accustomed to sight sometimes
-upon a distant skyline; but he knew that some connection existed in his
-mind, and traced it down to his constant uneasiness about Clare. It was
-all very well for him to speak airily, confident now in the security
-of the Manor House garden,&mdash;outside the garden lay the Downs,&mdash;and
-where had Clare been? where did Clare spend all her days? Demure she
-paced beside him, and the black cedar spread its flat branches above
-the lawn, and within the lighted windows Mr. Warrener poked among the
-shards on his desk; secure! secure! but danger lay behind the pretence,
-danger in confederacy with Clare. Demure she paced beside him in the
-summer night, drawing her lace scarf close about her shoulders, so that
-one pale <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_177" id="Page_177">[Pg 177]</a></span>gleaming hand lay against her breast, holding the lace, but
-she was silent, shut away with her uncommunicated thoughts.</p>
-
-<p>He trusted himself abruptly to the direct question.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Clare, what is the matter?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She was too big, too simple, to defend herself with the ready-to-hand
-artifice of denial or evasion.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Nothing is the matter which you can help, Mr. Calladine, thank you,
-and nothing that I shall not recover from.&#8221; She spoke the truth as far
-as she knew it. &#8220;I own that I have been vexed,&mdash;even hurt, perhaps,&#8221;
-she put her head up as she made the admission. &#8220;But I could scarcely
-hope to go through life, could I, without meeting some vexation by the
-way? and now that I have met it, I must take it, mustn&#8217;t I, without
-losing my sense of proportion?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He smiled, in the darkness which secured his smile from her
-observation, at the phraseology of her piteous wisdom.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But why not confide it to me?&#8221; he said, bending down towards her.
-&#8220;I am older than you, you know, and a trouble shared, they say, is a
-trouble halved.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;My God, no,&#8221; she breathed.</p>
-
-<p>He was shocked at such an expression on her lips. Had something or some
-one then really driven the child up to the bounds of her endurance?
-Was she too readily driven to such extremity of feeling? or was the
-provocation she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_178" id="Page_178">[Pg 178]</a></span> had received sufficient to justify it? alas, he had
-no experience of her capacity for emotion. But he thought, from what
-he knew of her, that she must be indeed profoundly troubled before she
-would betray her distress.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;If any man has hurt you,&#8221; he burst out, &#8220;only tell me his name.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She opened her mouth and stared at him as though she were about to
-utter a name as he bade her, so strong was in her the habit of childish
-obedience, but with the name ringing, although not for expression, in
-her head, she covered her face with her hands and burst into tears.
-He was appalled at the passion of her crying. She had sunk down upon
-a bench, and he knelt beside her, trying to pull her hands away from
-her face, but she shook her head and turned away from him, isolating
-herself in the grief she was not yet accustomed to and could not yet
-understand. She could not understand it, and, tormented, desired only
-an escape from its weight and astonishment. &#8220;I am crying because
-you made me cry,&#8221; she said, at last to Calladine; &#8220;I have not cried
-before,&mdash;I promise you I have not cried before,&#8221; and at the thought of
-Lovel, absent and unconscious that she was weeping, unconscious of the
-fruit his harshness had borne, she wept afresh.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Clare, Clare,&#8221; said Calladine, pulling at her wet hands, &#8220;don&#8217;t you
-remember, up by the Grey Wethers, a promise you made me? that if ever
-trouble came upon you, you would come to me<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_179" id="Page_179">[Pg 179]</a></span> for help? Don&#8217;t you
-remember,&mdash;the day of the Scouring? Where&#8217;s your promise gone now? I
-would have held my hand in a flame that you would never break your
-word. Perhaps you thought it was fancy on my part; I was never more
-deadly serious. Isn&#8217;t this the moment to give me my chance of serving
-you?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She was so much surprised by the reminder that she took her hands away
-from before her face and gazed at him. Her tears over, the idea that
-she should go to Calladine for help against Lovel caused her to laugh
-mirthlessly. That Mr. Calladine should protect her against Lovel! well!
-well! She laughed again. &#8220;Clare,&#8221; he exclaimed, &#8220;don&#8217;t laugh so, you
-frighten me.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;There is one thing which you can do,&#8221; she said slowly. He grasped at
-it; besought her to tell him what it was. Still she hesitated; yes,
-anything to get away from the pain of Lovel. And it would please Mr.
-Calladine; and if it pleased him what did it matter? perhaps she had
-often hurt him in the past as Lovel had hurt her now. &#8220;Marry me,&#8221; she
-said; and added candidly, &#8220;I know you want to.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">The arrival of the circus created an excitement in the village, poor
-affair though it was. It trailed in, one afternoon, trailed in through
-the gap in the earth-works; a couple of caravans, a merry-go-round, two
-or three cages on wheels, and some led horses; it trailed in with its
-air of perpetual perambulation and its poor pretence<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_180" id="Page_180">[Pg 180]</a></span> of gaiety, and
-encamped itself, as it must have encamped countless times before, and
-would do countless times again, choosing this time the field of the
-sarsen stones, which by virtue of tradition was looked upon as common
-land, where any farmer might turn his beasts overnight before a market,
-or any fair or circus, as now, claim hospitality. The village boys came
-to stare at the preparations, at the gaudy yellow carts marooned among
-the grave ancient stones; they stared, vacantly chewing grass stalks,
-at the men who were getting up the tent, running with the ropes that
-were to fasten down the great, flapping thing, and heaving up the poles
-that transformed the amorphous folds into a shape and a transitory
-shelter. Of the animals there was not much to be seen; the cages
-were roped off behind the caravans, and nothing but a desultory roar
-betrayed the presence of these aliens among the English Downs.</p>
-
-<p>Shortly after nightfall a man with red and yellow streamers pinned
-on to his coat and tied round the crown of his hat, passed down the
-village street beating a drum as a signal that the performance was
-about to begin. There proceeded already a stream of the population
-towards the fields, by twos or in families, and between the gate of the
-field and the tent the grass was already trampled into a track. Night
-was come; and within the opening of the tent the interior lighting
-glowed warm and fulvid; towards this square of light in the centre of
-the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_181" id="Page_181">[Pg 181]</a></span> field, thus inviting, the procession of villagers made its way,
-inwardly eager, outwardly sheepish, and drew together at the entrance,
-where a rude box-office had been erected, and another man with red
-and yellow streamers dispensed tickets in return for the coppers and
-six-pences paid across his little counter.</p>
-
-<p>Inside the tent, the newcomers herded, uncertain. Most of the benches
-immediately around the central oval of grass were already filled
-up, and the rows of faces and hands were uniformly lit by the two
-gas-flares, one on either side of the supporting pole. The grass
-oval, under this light, appeared most brilliantly green. The roof and
-sides of the tent swept away into shadow,&mdash;shadow dimly peopled by
-the audience on the rising tiers of benches, of whom only the first
-two or three rows were illuminated, and the rest indistinguishable,
-save as vague rings of buff-coloured hands and faces, over which the
-light sometimes flickered fitfully. Over in one corner stood one of
-the yellow carts, its shafts propped up somewhat foolishly into the
-air, and its body, on which was painted in large black letters the
-single word, <span class="smaller">ORCHESTRA</span>, filled by members of the company with
-bassoons and other wind instruments, the lower parts of their persons
-concealed by the sides of the cart, and the upper emerging like so many
-jacks in the box. Beside this cart was the opening for the entrance and
-exit of the performers.</p>
-
-<p>Into this scene of flaming light, strong colours,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_182" id="Page_182">[Pg 182]</a></span> and deep shadows,
-came Lovel and his brother, the former so scowling and dark,&mdash;for he
-detested this appearance in public,&mdash;that he might rather have been a
-member of the traveling mountebanks than of the yokel audience. As he
-stepped out into the light, followed by Olver, this defiance was almost
-absurdly evident in his manner. He knew that the light was full on his
-face and on the figure that shambled behind him, and that the eyes of
-the audience were turned with a mild curiosity towards the pair; he
-felt himself to be an incident of the show they had all come to see.
-He looked round for a place. A few kindly neighbours made room on one
-of the front benches, so that, although Lovel would have preferred a
-more retiring seat, he was obliged to take his place there with Olver,
-at his side. Olver was gazing all round with the fascination of a
-child. He had never seen so many people gathered all together before,
-and his neighbours, familiar to him as individuals, acquired a new
-impressiveness when seen thus together in their numbers; he had never
-seen a circus ring, or an illumination so strange or so effective as
-that cast by the gas-flares; and as for the performance itself, he had
-nothing but vague and fantastic ideas of what he was about to behold.
-Very furtively he brought out from his coat pocket the round mirror
-which Clare had given him, and bent over it; reflected in it, he saw
-the lights, and the ring of faces, the thin scarlet rope, the shadows,
-the green grass, the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_183" id="Page_183">[Pg 183]</a></span> yellow cart, according as he turned it. Lovel sat
-stiff and erect beside him, staring straight ahead, his arms folded
-across his chest. Olver bent lower over his mirror. He chuckled softly
-over it. The orchestra now stood up in the cart and began to play,
-brassily, noisily, but to the great delight of the audience.</p>
-
-<p>Olver was annoyed because he could not see reflected in his mirror the
-agreeable noise which the band was making, and the tiny reproduction
-of the scene was thus rendered incomplete. Still he peered into the
-mirror, where the picture was small and distant, as seen through the
-wrong end of field-glasses, and also with that slight distortion which
-never failed to enchant him: the supporting pole appeared slightly
-bent, the scarlet ropes curved round like serpents, and each face, as
-he examined it separately, was a tiny caricature of the face reflected.</p>
-
-<p>With the blare of the band Lovel relaxed a little from his rigidity;
-he glanced round him, nodded briefly to a few acquaintances, and
-considered with an uninterested eye the scanty properties of the show
-standing prepared near the performers&#8217; entrance. He heard the eager
-whispering going on in the audience, and, being himself scornful and
-unhappy, was possessed by a passing contempt. He saw Martha Sparrow
-there with her brother John, and a group of the cronies from the Waggon
-of Hay; he caught sight of Farmer Morland with his wife and daughter,
-and instantly looked away, for he had<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_184" id="Page_184">[Pg 184]</a></span> seen Daisy&#8217;s eyes fixed upon
-him, and had no wish to respond to the smile she was holding in
-readiness. No doubt they considered that he ought to have escorted her.
-At that moment he saw Clare come in with Mr. Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>He had not expected this, and remained transfixed, staring at them in
-complete dismay. Clare came in shyly, turning to speak to Calladine
-over her shoulder; she was wearing a dark blue cloak over her muslin
-dress, and no hat, only a dark blue ribbon in her hair. Coming, in
-her turn, into the light, she hesitated with a perceptible confusion
-that seized Lovel by the heart. Calladine came forward, competent and
-proprietary, found her a seat, and took his place beside her; they bent
-together over the leaflet of the programme. Still Lovel stared; she
-looked up, and their eyes met across the width of the ring. Her lips
-parted; for a full minute they stared at one another. He saw the blush
-rising, like a flame of reproach, in her cheeks. For that minute, as
-their heads swam, they had no thought of the pairs of eyes observing
-them: of Olver&#8217;s, of Daisy Morland&#8217;s, or of Calladine&#8217;s, respectively
-with a mischievous, a jealous, and a dismayed absorption. Then Clare
-came to her senses; she looked deliberately away, looked around,
-searching for faces she might greet, found Martha Sparrow, found
-some of the tradesmen, and smiled to them all with disproportionate
-alacrity. She spoke again to Calladine, whose pride in her had changed
-to a visible<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_185" id="Page_185">[Pg 185]</a></span> moodiness; he answered her indeed, but briefly, and
-sat angrily tapping the top of his walking-stick against his teeth.
-Lovel, having no knowledge of the world, but only his instincts,
-wondered whether he should leave the tent, or should remain to enjoy
-the atrocious pleasure of watching her once again. He knew that now he
-would have to fight out his renunciation afresh from the beginning;
-the dull resignation which had clouded over him of late had all melted
-away in a second before her restored presence. Merely to see her sent
-the heat and ecstasy of life back into his veins. Twenty-eight years of
-existence had not accustomed him to the rush of his own emotions. Such
-a reasonless joy as this which seized him even while he knew that she
-was promised to Calladine, still had the power to surprise him.</p>
-
-<p>The beginning of the circus did not distract him; rather it favoured
-him, for under the cover of the general interest he was able to gloat
-his eyes upon her to his heart&#8217;s content. Olver, who had long ago made
-up his mind about his brother, had now little desire to watch for the
-manifestations of a passion he took for granted in spite of all Nicco&#8217;s
-denials, and devoted the whole of his rapt attention to the events
-of the ring. These were enough to transport his simple soul, easily
-pleased at best. Piebald horses, and fat thighs encased in pink tights,
-curvetted before him; while with flashing smiles young men and women
-performed apparently impossible feats<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_186" id="Page_186">[Pg 186]</a></span> of strength and balance. Olver
-presently conceived the idea of following the circus in his mirror, and
-alternated between the actual, which was already entrancing enough, and
-the reflected, which provided him with a world so indescribably and
-doubly queer. He hoped that the little, queer, brilliant pictures would
-be preserved forever in the depths of the glass. A fat woman in pink
-and spangles jumped through paper hoops off the back of a cantering
-horse, crying &#8220;Hop!&#8221; as she jumped and again as she landed, and the
-manager standing in the centre cracked his long whip at the horse&#8217;s
-fetlocks, but only hit the clown, whose whitened face, ghastly under
-the gas-jets, went bowling round in somersaults over the grass of the
-ring. There was also a snake-man, dressed from head to foot in emerald
-green, who contorted himself in the midst of a silence rendered more
-impressive by the sudden cessation of the braying band, into the knots
-common to all such performers; and the laughter which had accompanied
-the clown was stilled into a respectful awe. The snake-man, Olver
-found, was especially effective seen in the mirror.</p>
-
-<p>The atmosphere in the tent by now was somewhat clouded by tobacco
-smoke, softening the hard, high glare of the gas, and through the smoke
-the faces appeared hazy, sitting round in their rows, likewise the
-hands, that periodically broke out into a beating of applause. But to
-Lovel, who had not taken his eyes off Clare, her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_187" id="Page_187">[Pg 187]</a></span> face was distinct as
-ever; and his own face, to Daisy Morland, was distinct, and, above his
-red shirt, dark and proud.</p>
-
-<p>In the ring now were three small bears, one dressed as a
-clergyman,&mdash;whose appearance had provoked roars of laughter,&mdash;one
-as a lady, with a poke bonnet and bustle, and the third as a clown,
-the buffoon and wag of the party. These three sad animals were at
-their tasks of travelling round the ring on large balls, pushing a
-perambulator, balancing on a tight rope, or whatever it might be;
-Lovel, in so far as he bestowed a passing interest in the show,
-was indignant at the pitiful degradation. The audience had no such
-niceness; they roared their hearty laughter, and some of those sitting
-immediately behind the scarlet ropes even thrust a foot towards the
-bears as they passed round in their drab monotony, provoking a dull
-turn of the head and a lack-lustre glance, too spiritless even for
-a snarl. Arm in arm the clergyman and the lady paraded the ring on
-their hind legs, stopping now and then to bow gravely; they stopped
-thus opposite to Clare and Calladine, recognised by the quick eye of
-the manager as the only gentry present. Clare and Lovel looked at one
-another once more when this occurred, a look in which their personal
-passion, for once, had no part, but only discomfort and sympathy with
-the indignity put upon the beasts. Yet that look, impersonal though it
-was, only tightened Lovel&#8217;s heart the more, for it had in<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_188" id="Page_188">[Pg 188]</a></span> it all the
-intimacy of their understanding, in the same way as when they had been
-used to look across the Downs, and, seeing the bowling shadows of the
-clouds, had spoken no word, but sometimes smiled, knowing each so well
-the thoughts that were passing in the mind of the other.</p>
-
-<p>He began to wonder what he should do when the show was over, and the
-moment came for every one to leave the tent. He was near the exit;
-should he hurry out and hasten home, shutting the door of his house
-behind him, before Clare and Calladine had so much as turned into the
-street? &#8220;Likely they&#8217;ll wander home by the fields, being lovers,&#8221; he
-said to himself. Or should he go boldly up to Daisy and invite her
-to walk home with him, in order to prove to Clare the extent of his
-indifference? He rejected this course, despising its cheapness. Or
-should he remain seated where he was, letting Clare and Calladine
-pass out of the tent before him? The one thing to be avoided was the
-jostle in the exit. He might get pushed up against her, or against
-Calladine,&mdash;if he felt Calladine jostle against him he would turn and
-hit him. But he had Olver to reckon with; Olver who would tug at his
-coat and bid him come, if he tried to remain behind; Olver who would
-in any case torment him afterwards with questions as whether he had
-seen Clare; and, half turning to look at Olver, he caught sight of the
-mirror held tilted, over which the boy stooped with such <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_189" id="Page_189">[Pg 189]</a></span>absorption,
-and he wondered idly where Olver had got this toy, that seemed so to
-fascinate him and to occupy so much of his time; but after that passing
-curiosity he returned to his own miserable concerns that gnawed like
-rodents at his brain, and his eyes perpetually sought the face of
-Clare, as though in her fairness lay simultaneously both the problem
-and the solution.</p>
-
-<p>So turned inward upon himself was he, that a sudden shout was the
-first thing to rouse him. He raised his head; a sheet of flame shot
-upwards from the gas; all was confusion suddenly; the audience rose
-and stampeded into the ring, trying to get to the exits; benches were
-overturned; women screamed, men swore; overhead the flame tore a great
-hole in the darkness, and portions of the burning canvas floated,
-turning over and over, down to the ground.</p>
-
-<p>Lovel fought his way through the striving mass of people like one
-possessed, caring nothing who he pushed aside or who he struck and
-elbowed. For one second he came upon the terrified face of Daisy; she
-tried to cling to him, but he threw her off. He was fighting against
-the tide of the crowd. By now the canvas was roaring overhead, the
-shouts increased, the panic surged wildly towards the narrow openings,
-all round was nothing but terror and a mad confusion. Lovel clove his
-way through the sea of limbs and faces; he tore a path by sheer fury.
-Reaching Calladine, he thrust him aside, and seized Clare by the hand.
-&#8220;Come,&#8221; he said,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_190" id="Page_190">[Pg 190]</a></span> dragging her. He was obliged to put his arm round
-her shoulders and half carry her along as with the other arm he opened
-up a way for them both. The exit was hopelessly blocked; he took his
-knife from his pocket and ripped a long vertical slit in the side of
-the tent, through which he forced her first and then himself after her,
-and the crowd seeing this escape, streamed through after them. The
-night air was suddenly cool around them. He picked her up and carried
-her away to the top of the encircling embankment. The Downs were black
-behind them, and from the height of the ridge they gazed down upon the
-red leaping flames in the field below.</p>
-
-<p>The field was wildly lit up, and around the blazing tent stood the
-crowd in a circle, watching the destruction they could not prevent.
-The flames reared to the height of trees, holding up the blackness;
-the light fell upon the shapes of the sarsen stones, that, unmoved,
-regarded this disaster as they might have regarded any other. Clare
-seized Lovel&#8217;s arm.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Are they all safe?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;They will be, by now,&#8221; Lovel replied mechanically.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;The animals,&#8221; cried Clare.</p>
-
-<p>At that, Lovel returned to earth, and a slow smile of amusement crept
-over his mouth.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Why, they will have escaped,&#8221; he said slowly; &#8220;escaped and be roaming
-about till morning.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_191" id="Page_191">[Pg 191]</a></span> The village besieged by bears. Well, Miss
-Warrener, it will not be the first time that bears will have been loose
-among these stones or prowling on the Downs. Will we all turn out with
-sticks and staves to-morrow to drive &#8217;em in? Come and ride them in,
-Miss Warrener, to-morrow morning before any one else is astir. Will you
-do that?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;With you?&#8221; she asked.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Why not?&#8221; he replied. &#8220;But I forgot,&#8221; he added, &#8220;Mr. Calladine has
-the disposal of your doings now, has he not? Many&#8217;s the pleasant hour
-you spend over books or in your garden; gentle and pleasant. There was
-a time when you rode rough as a boy; but that&#8217;s over now. Your finger
-nails are smooth,&#8221; he said, taking her hand and examining it critically
-by the vague light of the flames; &#8220;the hand of a lady,&#8221; and he lifted
-it up and sniffed it. &#8220;Scented too!&#8221; he said. &#8220;Scented for Calladine to
-kiss and fondle,&#8221; and gently he gave it back into her keeping, shaking
-his head. &#8220;Ah, Miss Warrener, it was a terrible mistake you made when
-you rode your pony in your little shepherd&#8217;s cap; &#8217;twasn&#8217;t that you
-were cut out for. No, but for a lady&#8217;s life. &#8216;I shall want the carriage
-this afternoon, Mrs. Quince, to drive to Shrivenham.&#8217;&#8221; He minced the
-words. &#8220;&#8216;And I shall want the rug put in the carriage lest it turn cold
-at sunset.&#8217; No more catching your pony in the paddock when the fancy
-takes you for a gallop across the hills.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_192" id="Page_192">[Pg 192]</a></span> I&#8217;ll come as your groom,
-if you&#8217;ll have me, and promise to keep away my brother, whose touch
-startles horses.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You must let me go home,&#8221; said Clare, who, white-faced, was holding
-her cloak about her.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Remember, there are bears,&#8221; said Lovel. &#8220;A bear dressed as a lady, a
-bear dressed as a clergyman, and one, poor soul, as a clown. They are
-walking arm-in-arm, perhaps, as they did in the ring, but if they met
-you walking alone across the fields they might remember that they were
-born wild. They might forget that they had been tamed to civility. Cap
-off: &#8216;Good evening, miss,&#8217; as I might meet you in the lane. Never trust
-the brute too far. But shouldn&#8217;t Mr. Calladine be here to protect you?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;How can he see me up here?&#8221; said Clare. &#8220;The night is very dark, and
-the light down there must blind him.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You have on a light dress under that cloak,&#8221; mocked Lovel, &#8220;if you
-want him to see you.&#8221; But she did not throw aside her cloak, and he
-noted it.</p>
-
-<p>At that moment came a cracking sound, as the central pole of the
-tent crashed down, bringing with it what was left of the flaming
-canvas. A loud cheer went up from the crowd, who, now that their own
-skins were safe, were irresponsibly quite ready to accept one form
-of entertainment in substitution for another. The fire died down for
-a moment, then flared up again, as some of the benches and trestles
-caught alight. The <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_193" id="Page_193">[Pg 193]</a></span>proprietor of the circus raged round, clasping his
-head with his hands, but there was nothing to be done, and the few
-buckets of water brought from a neighbouring well made no difference at
-all.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Mr. Calladine is not more prompt at finding you here that he was in
-getting you away from the tent,&#8221; said Lovel.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Why do you gibe at Mr. Calladine?&#8221; Clare burst out. &#8220;He has had a
-great deal to suffer at my hands, and it ill becomes you to sneer,&#8221; she
-finished inconsequently.</p>
-
-<p>The inconsequence did not trouble Lovel; his mind leapt the gap with
-the ellipsis.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;At all events he has nothing to complain of at present,&#8221; he remarked.
-&#8220;Nothing, except that he is not the man to take good care of what he
-has obtained. Born irresolute&mdash;there&#8217;s a disadvantage of birth as bad
-as any other. Yet, I&#8217;d exchange my own for it; I&#8217;d accept to have only
-myself to overcome. Yes, by God, I&#8217;ve no sympathy for him. Why doesn&#8217;t
-he carry away his conquest? Too uncertain of his own worth? Look at
-his face&mdash;haggard with doubt of himself. I scarcely envy Calladine.
-He&#8217;s a straw to be swept away by a strong current, safe only so long
-as he may lie in shelter. If I wanted to undo Calladine, I should
-say to him, &#8216;Are you sure that you are the man to hold so untamed a
-thing?&#8217; As yourself, I mean, Miss Warrener. Or am I mistaken? Are you
-a lady at heart&mdash;a lady and not a woman? Mrs. Richard Calladine. The
-muslin dress, or the shepherd&#8217;s cap?<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_194" id="Page_194">[Pg 194]</a></span> If the muslin dress, then go to
-Calladine. If the shepherd&#8217;s cap, then....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He paused.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I should not listen to you, reducing Mr. Calladine to this
-insignificance,&#8221; murmured Clare in great distress.</p>
-
-<p>Calladine had become a shadow; a poor grey wisp drained of blood. Only
-Lovel and herself seemed alive, so terribly alive that the wraith which
-was Calladine faded between them. So far, no one had noticed them
-standing up on the ridge of the embankment; the night was, as Clare had
-said, very dark, and furthermore a few sparse trees helped to conceal
-them. They stood, not very far from one another, very much isolated,
-detached from the glow and excitement of the fire down in the field
-below, as though they were two travellers come to a brief surveying
-pause on the road which they pursued together.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Mr. Calladine is not the poor creature you think him,&#8221; said Clare on
-an impulse. &#8220;Years ago he loved a woman, still unforgotten. That is not
-the fidelity of a weak man. I tell you this, in order that you should
-think better of him, and knowing that you will keep it to yourself.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;A woman he never got?&#8221; said Lovel. &#8220;And brooded over her ever since?
-Do not doubt&mdash;Miss Warrener, he coaxed himself into loving her more,
-during all those years of brooding, than ever he did when he had her
-before his eyes. Be very sure, she made a proper fool of him, to<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_195" id="Page_195">[Pg 195]</a></span>
-embitter him so for a lifetime&mdash;until he found you. Don&#8217;t be too sorry
-for him. He has enjoyed living upon that memory.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, you are hard and cynical,&#8221; said Clare, vexed, because she saw
-suddenly the whole of that episode, which, in her eyes, had always
-thrown so picturesque a colour over Calladine&#8217;s melancholy&mdash;saw it now
-in a cruel, naked light, Calladine duped first, and then retiring in
-sulky discomfiture, to build upon a silly, sordid, mismanaged story an
-erection of wordy romance: &#8220;I wish I had not told you; you take every
-opportunity, to-night, of belittling Mr. Calladine.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I? Oh, no,&#8221; said Lovel, carelessly, &#8220;and in any case, why do we talk
-about him so much? he is not here, but to-morrow you will again be with
-him, and the day after that, and the day after that. Even now he is
-probably arrived breathless at the Manor House, where he will tell your
-father that that gipsy fellow snatched you away, and that he has lost
-you altogether. He has never given me anything but black looks, ever
-since he came to live here. How much have you told him about yourself
-and me?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;There was nothing to tell,&#8221; said Clare.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;True,&#8221; said Lovel. &#8220;There was nothing to tell.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>They were silent. She felt that he was in a highly dangerous mood.
-Calladine was not dangerous; violent, but not dangerous; not as Lovel&#8217;s
-contained quietness was dangerous. Lovel, at any moment, might suddenly
-leap upon her;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_196" id="Page_196">[Pg 196]</a></span> he was so lithe and quick. Moreover, she felt now, in
-his company, that she was alone with him on a hill or a wide heath, for
-the people down in the field below had no significance whatever, no
-more than had Calladine, to whom she was promised.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I ought to go home now,&#8221; she said presently.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, yes,&#8221; said Lovel, turning on her, &#8220;you ought to go home. Go home
-and tell them that the gipsy fellow took you out, rudely enough, but
-still into safety. Go and tell them that once or twice on the Downs
-you gave him a few kind words and that he presumed upon them to get
-you out of that tent to-night. Tell them that once he rejected your
-kindness,&mdash;which you offered out of your pity for him,&mdash;and drove you
-away with harsh words.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;We have not spoken since,&#8221; she said.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; he replied without comment.</p>
-
-<p>Suddenly they began talking quite naturally and gently with one another.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Who would have thought,&#8221; said Lovel, &#8220;that you would be coming to the
-circus. Not that I should have come, nor you, I fancy, either, had
-we known what we were to see. Yet we might have thought. Wild beasts
-turned to buffoons. I would have liked to let a tiger out of its cage,
-loose among the crowd. Did you see their eyes? yes, even the little
-pig-eyes of the bears. I wouldn&#8217;t like to look into the eyes of the
-tigers in their cages, when they stare through the bars. Trundled about
-over England in those<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_197" id="Page_197">[Pg 197]</a></span> cages.... Why did you come? I came to please
-poor Olver.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And I because Mr. Calladine was dining at the Manor House, and I ...
-oh, there is nothing to do after dinner,&#8221; she finished lamely.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What do you do as a rule?&#8221; he inquired, with a passing curiosity.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t know,&#8221; she replied. &#8220;Sometimes he talks to my father,
-sometimes we walk in the garden, sometimes I sing.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You sing,&#8221; he repeated. &#8220;You sing.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Sometimes he and my father go over the things in my father&#8217;s cases,
-and they forget me, and I sit in a corner with some stitching.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes,&#8221; said Lovel, &#8220;and the windows are open down to the floor, and the
-moths and cockchafters fly in from the garden towards the lamps, and
-you let your stitching fall into your lap while you watch them.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare was utterly startled.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;How do you know?&#8221; she murmured.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, I know,&#8221; he replied. His vision of the room, and of the three, was
-so sifted and precise. &#8220;Sometimes you sing?&#8221; he prompted her.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Mr. Calladine leans over the piano, when I sing,&#8221; she said, looking at
-him big-eyed.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;That frightens you?&#8221; he said, more as a statement than as a question.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;A little,&#8221; she said, telling him what she had thought she could never
-tell to a soul. &#8220;He seems so soft, and yet so hungry.&#8221; Her voice sank. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_198" id="Page_198">[Pg 198]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Lovel understood; he nodded.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;If he would sit away in the corner,&#8221; continued Clare, &#8220;I should not be
-afraid of him. It is his leaning over me like that. It makes me look at
-him all the while I sing. But he likes my singing; he asks me to do it,
-and he will not let me refuse.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And sometimes you walk in the garden,&#8221; he said, still in the same
-voice, as though he were looking at a tiny picture seen down the end of
-a long vista; &#8220;does he frighten you then?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Less out of doors; less when we are not shut in. I avoid the trees;
-being under them is more like having a ceiling over our heads. I keep
-to the lawn.&mdash;He is more in his place, within doors,&#8221; she said, making
-a discovery which answered many of her problems.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Lamplight suits him,&#8221; said Lovel, his perceptions very clear and
-malicious.</p>
-
-<p>She saw Calladine leaning over the piano; she saw his greying hair and
-his fine hands lying loosely clasped on the ebony lid. She heard the
-notes under her own fingers playing a slow gavotte; it was the music he
-liked. She felt her eyes coming round again and again in fascination
-drawn towards his face. A breeze fanned her cheek; and she saw herself
-standing with Lovel on the earthwork, the stars above their heads, and
-the red glow of the dying flames deepening the shadow of his brow.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;We have always been in the open together,&#8221; she murmured involuntarily.</p>
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_199" id="Page_199">[Pg 199]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I have never seen you in a room,&#8221; Lovel corroborated.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;The day that I found you on the Downs,&#8221; she said painfully, &#8220;the day
-when I last saw you,&mdash;you tried to hide from me among the beeches. Why
-was that? Did you hope that they would protect you? Did the sense of
-enclosure give you strength? Would the Downs have compelled you to be
-more honest? I believe it was that. One can lie better,&mdash;can&#8217;t one?&mdash;in
-a room; and as you had no room you took the shelter of the trees. You
-couldn&#8217;t tell me lies out on the Downs?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Is that why Calladine prefers a room?&#8221; he enquired.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Mr. Calladine tells me no lies,&#8221; she said, with a small flicker of
-pride.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, no,&#8221; said Lovel easily; &#8220;he only tells lies to himself. Through
-and through. Or are they lies? Romances, perhaps. Only romances. And
-you are part of them. But they couldn&#8217;t thrive in sunshine.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;We are not in sunshine now,&#8221; she said; &#8220;only in star-shine, and losing
-our heads a little. I am going to marry Mr. Calladine, you know, Lovel.
-So perhaps I should not talk about him to you as I have been talking,
-or ... or indulge myself in these fancies. You asked me what I had told
-him about yourself and me; I answered that there was nothing to tell;
-nor is there.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But if I had not gone into the <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_200" id="Page_200">[Pg 200]</a></span>beech-clump ...&#8221; began Lovel. He was
-suddenly Puckish, mischievous; or so she thought.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But you did go into it!&#8221; she cried out.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And stayed in it till you were out of sight. But Calladine,&#8221; he
-resumed, disregarding her effort to restore the balance of their
-conversation, &#8220;Calladine will get you into a room for the rest of your
-life. It will be a dim room, with the light shrouded from it. He will
-talk in it, and you will listen, and his talk will seem to you less and
-less unconvincing. Presently you will accept it as natural talk; you
-will answer in the same key. You will play sad old tunes, and Calladine
-will lean over the piano. But he will grow less graceful and more
-ungainly, and his joints will crack when he stoops over your hand to
-kiss it. And always you will be in the house,&mdash;in the room.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Lovel!&#8221; she cried.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;The dimness of the room will bleach your spirit,&#8221; he said finally and
-remorselessly.</p>
-
-<p>What strange mood possessed him? Were the legends true? had he the gift
-of prophecy? His very language had a sonorous, almost a Biblical, ring.
-It was true that the occasion fostered it, and that he might be taken
-for a prophet, standing there on the elevation, ringed with darkness,
-and with that pool of dying fire at his feet.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Is it kind, Lovel, is it kind to put these thoughts into my head?&#8221; she
-cried, distressed.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Kind,&#8221; he said scornfully. &#8220;When did ever<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_201" id="Page_201">[Pg 201]</a></span> you want kindness from
-me? I haven&#8217;t given you kindness, or romance like Calladine&#8217;s. I keep
-kindness for Olver.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And for animals,&#8221; she interjected, remembering. The remembrance
-softened her marvellously towards him.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And for animals. But for you....&#8221; He scanned her from head to foot,
-as though the term for what he had given her were inexpressible. &#8220;Not
-kindness for you,&#8221; he finished up.</p>
-
-<p>A great uproar arose in the field below; the crowd scattered, and down
-the pathway thus cleft they saw, by the light of the flames, a small
-black shape bundling helter-skelter along, till a ring of shouting men
-closed round it and hid it from view.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Rounding up the wild beasts,&#8221; said Lovel, amused. &#8220;They won&#8217;t
-sacrifice them on the stones,&mdash;not they. They&#8217;ll all be chivvied back
-into their cages after a few louts have got a nip on the ankle. I
-wonder how many will remain at large? All the old women of the village
-will be going about to-morrow with umbrellas and pokers. See, now, they
-are beating out the fire.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>The last sparks flew large and red in the darkness.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Fire and wild beasts and the stones,&#8221; murmured Lovel dreamily. &#8220;How
-many centuries is it, do you think, since those three things have met
-together here? The place will get a bad name among owners of circuses.
-They will say<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_202" id="Page_202">[Pg 202]</a></span> that it clamours for its natural prey; that the circle
-is under a curse; that it scents blood; and a hundred such fabulous
-things.&#8221; He laughed as he spoke, but Clare, looking at him, thought
-that the fantastic creature half believed it himself. &#8220;What will you
-say, when they want to know where you have been?&#8221; he asked. &#8220;You won&#8217;t
-dare own up to the gipsy fellow. You&#8217;ll say you watched the fire, and
-let it be understood that you were alone,&mdash;isn&#8217;t that so?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Of course I shall say I have been with you; why not?&#8221; said Clare.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Ah, but I&#8217;d rather you didn&#8217;t,&#8221; he said earnestly. &#8220;Keep it a
-secret,&mdash;that we stood and talked unseen while the rest beat the fire
-out down below. I had not thought that I should see you again, and now
-I know that I shall not see you again,&mdash;in the distance, perhaps,&mdash;and
-hear the bells for your wedding,&mdash;and see you driving by,&mdash;Mrs. Richard
-Calladine,&mdash;but I shall never stand again with you alone as in this
-hour. Let us keep it a secret. I don&#8217;t care what you think of me. Look,
-the fire has gone out now, and it is quite dark, but the time I spent
-with you was lit by the fire. I will walk round with you to the Manor
-House, and let you go.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>In silence they started off to walk round the top of the earthwork
-towards the Manor House. The village lay below them in its strange cup,
-and around outside the circle lay the Downs hunched in the starlight.
-Where the road intersected the circle they ran down the slope and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_203" id="Page_203">[Pg 203]</a></span>
-crossed it, their footsteps briefly crunching on the gravel, but on
-the opposite side they scrambled up again and silenced steps on the
-turf and continued side by side along the high ridge above the ditch.
-A breeze from the Downs blew cool against their cheeks; they knew it
-well, it was a friend pleading with them, calling them back to the
-open. They both knew the Downs so well that in their consciousness
-they were all the time aware of the country&#8217;s geography, stretching
-before them like a foreshortened map; the long roads, the little
-English towns with their broad main-street that was only a section
-of the Roman highway, the ancient green tracks over the hills, and
-the angular spatchcock landmark of the White Horse, straddling on the
-hillside. Neither of them had thought sufficiently beyond these things
-to be tormented by the further world. But, on the other hand, they
-had attained a degree of familiarity and concentration undiminished
-by any scattering of their faculties. They had not sprinkled their
-interest over other lands and other folk. They had dwelt only on their
-country and on themselves, so that the breeze came to them direct as a
-messenger from the Grey Wethers lying out derelict on the hills, and
-the sickness of the desire of each to respond to the call found an echo
-in the soul of the other.</p>
-
-<p>So vivid was the call, so absurd the refusal, that as they reached the
-point above the trees of the Manor House garden, Lovel stood still and
-laughed out loud. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_204" id="Page_204">[Pg 204]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;So you go back to rooms,&#8221; he said, and laughed again, but more
-bitterly. &#8220;You!&#8221; he said, charged with contempt.</p>
-
-<p>They were closer in understanding than ever they had been in their
-lives. He began to speak low and rapidly, &#8220;Clare,&#8221; he said, &#8220;there is
-no more softness in you or in me than there is in this soil. There is
-no flabby flesh, only bone. No trappings, only the hard skeleton. We&#8217;ve
-pared away.... If I had not taken shelter in the beechwood,&mdash;and it
-was the nearest approach to shelter I could get,&mdash;I might have taken
-you by the hand and galloped away with you; you would have come. That
-would have been mad. I have got my mother and Olver, and not only that,
-but I&#8217;ve got their blood in me. I want to have sons, and I may not,
-because of that blood. That was why I said I envied Calladine having
-only himself to overcome, when here am I as hard as flint, who might
-beget sons with that soft squelch in them that has rotted Olver. A
-bad stock, I said to myself; be strong; let it die out. And then the
-irony ... well, you know nothing about that, and even that seems not to
-matter now. Never be surprised, now, if you hear that I have been borne
-a son or a daughter, only don&#8217;t judge me too harshly. But how could I
-have brought you to my mother and Olver? and our children, yours and
-mine,&mdash;how could I, Clare? What chance had I but to cease from seeing
-you? Oh, if it had not been for them and my blood, then there would
-have been the Downs<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_205" id="Page_205">[Pg 205]</a></span> for you and me, Clare. Don&#8217;t share the Downs with
-Calladine; he lives among them, but he isn&#8217;t strong enough to endure
-them. There are some countries that it takes a strong man to endure.
-They don&#8217;t generate strength, and they crush weakness. Calladine should
-have lived in towns. But now that he has got you he may be rescued.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You know that Mr. Calladine has not got me, and never will have me,
-except in name,&#8221; said Clare.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;That&#8217;s true,&#8221; replied Lovel, not disputing her statement. &#8220;Let him
-live with you by his side, you listening, listening patiently, for as
-long as he chooses to discourse, and looking at him with the eyes of
-a stranger. I don&#8217;t say that I envy him. (&#8220;How you despise him!&#8221; she
-breathed.) And yet,&#8221; he said, &#8220;don&#8217;t I envy him a little? Can I help
-myself? He will see you every day, he will be able to call your name
-through the house at any moment and hear your answer. Don&#8217;t I envy
-him that? Wouldn&#8217;t I change places with him for that?&mdash;But he&#8217;ll tire
-of you, perhaps,&#8221; he added, dropping from his sudden anguish into the
-old whimsicality, &#8220;tire of you even though he has never got you. No, I
-don&#8217;t envy him. I&#8217;ll be less lonely,&#8221; he said with a fine insolence,
-&#8220;than he.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I must go, Lovel,&#8221; cried Clare.</p>
-
-<p>He stepped back from her instantly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Go to Calladine,&mdash;in name. Go from me,&mdash;in name,&#8221; he said, out of his
-torn heart. &#8220;Only<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_206" id="Page_206">[Pg 206]</a></span> go,&mdash;go,&mdash;go!&#8221; he added, turning away from her and
-laying his arm across his eyes.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">She left him then, feeling, although he had not once touched her, as
-though she had slipped all on fire from his clasp, so close had been
-their communion in spite of their immense separation. She did not know
-where he would go, or how long he would remain, gazing after her,
-standing on the height of the circle. For her own part she ran down
-amongst the trees, across the lawn, and entered the study by one of the
-French windows, to find her father absorbed in his work, not having
-noticed her absence, and blissfully unaware of any excitement or of his
-daughter having been in the slightest degree in danger. He said, &#8220;Bless
-me! bless me!&#8221; several times while she flung herself with exaggerated
-animation into a description of the fire, and pushed his spectacles up
-on to his forehead, and stared at her with an absent-minded interest
-as though she had just come straight out of the heart of the flames.
-&#8220;Dear, dear, and where&#8217;s Calladine?&#8221; he said at last. &#8220;There was
-something very curious I&#8217;ve come across and particularly wanted to show
-him. It quite corroborates my ideas. I made sure he&#8217;d bring you home.&#8221;
-&#8220;But you don&#8217;t understand, father: the circus-tent caught fire, and
-we got separated.&#8221; &#8220;Of course, to be sure,&#8221; said Mr. Warrener mildly.
-&#8220;Well, I daresay he&#8217;ll come over to-morrow, and I can show it him then.
-It&#8217;ll interest you too, Clare....&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_207" id="Page_207">[Pg 207]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Clare lay awake for a long time. The windows of her room were open, and
-outside the breeze sighed, a plaintive spirit trying to get into the
-house. The world outside was crying to her, endeavouring to reach her,
-sending its gentle messengers to plead with her. The heavy-foliaged
-trees rustled, as it seemed, with an unwonted nearness to her window,
-and the room was full of the insects of the night, which as soon as
-she had turned out her lamp woke into life and fluttered against her
-cheek and thudded softly against the ceiling like small downy ghosts.
-A moth imprisoned beneath her hand struggled for freedom; she shook
-it off with a gesture between tenderness and revulsion. Several times
-she lit a match, and the little creatures became still, flecking the
-bed with their long mottled bodies and closed wings, but no sooner
-had darkness fallen again than they returned in greater numbers to
-their soft wheeling and the bruising of their voiceless plea. She lay
-now shivering in spite of the summer warmth, awed to her very soul
-by the deepened significance of night. Darkness by shutting away the
-visible and reassuring world opened the field to all finer perceptions,
-to all the mysterious relationships, to the purified intuition of
-essential unity. That sense,&mdash;the sense of unity, the discarding of
-all irrelevancies,&mdash;was an unexpressed link between herself and Lovel;
-she was not sure, everything else being sifted down to its last bare
-expression, that it was not <i>the</i> link. Out in the night <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_208" id="Page_208">[Pg 208]</a></span>somewhere an
-owl hooted, and she heard the distant baying of a dog; the spacious
-presence of the Downs opened out before her widened senses, their
-loneliness, and the secret of their ancient tombs; their untilled
-defiance rolling eternally under the stars. Where was Lovel now? Was he
-still standing like a sentinel on the dyke, between the Downs and the
-sleeping village, with only the vault of the black sequined sky above
-his head? as she fancied him there he seemed to grow in stature until
-in his heroic proportions he became an embodiment of that open country
-which called to her, and his voice rose harmoniously in a long cry
-above the soughing of the breeze in the trees. Or had he plunged down
-from the circle after she had left him, to roam across the uplands, a
-wisdom in his feet, a swiftness that lifted him above fatigue? That he
-was out somewhere in the night she was sure; no house would confine
-him, not even a house whose walls were built of the sarsen stones. He
-was out somewhere, and every moth that bruised itself so plaintively
-and so impotently against her was his envoy; every sound that reached
-her, whether the whisper of the breeze or the churning of a night-jar,
-bore the burden of its message from him to her. If she called back to
-him &#8220;Lovel! Lovel!&#8221; surely in one form or another her voice would find
-him among the hills.</p>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_209" id="Page_209">[Pg 209]</a></span></p>
-
-<h2>PART TWO </h2>
-
-<hr />
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_211" id="Page_211">[Pg 211]</a></span></p>
-
-<p class="bold2"><i>Part Two</i></p>
-
-<p>She had been married for four months to Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>Evening after evening they sat opposite to one another over the fire
-at Starvecrow. Often they played chess,&mdash;a pastime to which he seemed
-tirelessly addicted.</p>
-
-<p>He would rarely go out; he shivered and said that it was cold,&mdash;it
-was true that snow lay upon the Downs and that the wind blew
-incessantly,&mdash;and why should a man face the bitter cold of March when
-no necessity compelled him and when a pleasant fire could console him
-within doors? Nor did he like her going out without him. So they stayed
-in, until she felt that she could have sent walls and ceiling flying by
-one extravagant gesture of her arms.</p>
-
-<p>But he,&mdash;oh, how content he was! He had lost his melancholy; he had
-brought out for her benefit from cases and cupboards numerous objects
-wherewith to beautify their rooms, but her inability to distinguish
-among the various artists was a source of infinitesimal friction
-between them; &#8220;No, no, my dear; <i>Clodion</i>, not <i>Houdon</i>,&#8221; he would say,
-and she would accept the correction meekly with a little laugh implying
-that the matter was not of very great importance after<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_212" id="Page_212">[Pg 212]</a></span> all, and with
-that little laugh would undo all the merit of her meekness.</p>
-
-<p>At first he had enjoyed making these corrections. It flattered him to
-think that he had brought into an atmosphere of artistic refinement
-this child of the hills whose knowledge although so thorough as far
-as it went, was concerned with such rude things as rocks and skulls
-and antlers, supplemented by a working experience of shepherds&#8217; and
-woodman&#8217;s lore. Certainly he had always been ready to take an interest
-in Mr. Warrener&#8217;s work, and to entertain a respectful admiration for
-the old gentleman&#8217;s scholarship, but that was a different matter: it
-was a tabulated profession, archæology was a branch of study suitable
-to gentlemen, especially old gentlemen; Mr. Warrener contributed papers
-to the journals of several societies; he was a distinguished and
-accepted authority. That was quite another matter. It had been amusing,
-even, to find Clare dabbling her fingers in the same research; amusing
-to hear the terms so glib upon her lips; surprisingly instructive,
-sometimes, to catch the odd bits of information she let fall while
-out riding with him on the Downs. But what had been amusing in the
-child was insufficient, even unbecoming, in the married woman. To
-dilettantism, <i>per se</i>, he had no objection; he was a believer in
-dilettantism; but in the name of all good taste let it be dilettantism
-in graceful and becoming subjects! So he tried to interest Clare
-in <i>terres cuites</i>, in crystals and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_213" id="Page_213">[Pg 213]</a></span> in the bindings of books. She
-looked at them at first with pleasure, they were exquisite; she had
-never seen such things before, or suspected their existence; she
-exclaimed over them, marvelled at their workmanship, fingered them,
-discovered new loveliness in them as she turned them this way and
-that. Calladine was enchanted by her appreciation; he thought he might
-venture further; he tempted her with subtler baits. But she returned
-to the fragile eighteenth century statuettes. He let her have her
-way, tolerant, determined not to force her interest. He watched her.
-There was about the little terra cotta groups a false paganism, a
-windy grace, that intrigued and allured her. Here was something that
-she could nearly understand; nearly, if not quite; not quite, for
-there was still something, or the lack of something, which troubled
-her; she could not put a name to it, consider how she might, with a
-pucker between her brows. These dimpled children, with the thighs
-and hoofs of goats,&mdash;these girls with draperies blown by the wind at
-the moment when the sculptor caught and fixed them motionless for
-ever,&mdash;these young men with slanting eyes and laughing mouths,&mdash;of what
-did they remind her? and in what were they so evasively deficient?
-She circled round the table on which they stood. Calladine&#8217;s eyes
-followed her in amusement. She was puzzled, this nymph who was so much
-more like a nymph than any nymph that Clodion ever made, puzzled by
-the drawing-room <i>faroucherie</i><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_214" id="Page_214">[Pg 214]</a></span> of these false fugitives. &#8220;A little
-self-conscious, you find them?&#8221; he had murmured at last.</p>
-
-<p>But the artistic education of Clare proved a game that had palled. She
-had gone clean through his objects of virtue, and had come out the
-other side. She seemed to have been briefly deluded by them, then to
-have sized them up, to have detected their essential fraud, and to have
-discarded them from her interest. Mortified though he was, he perceived
-somewhere in himself a respect for her pure, uneducated instinct.
-Still, as this was a thing he could not, out of self-respect, admit, he
-continued at intervals his efforts to guide her feet into the paths he
-himself found so pleasant. He liked to sit within doors re-ordering his
-books and his treasures, while the snow drifted up against the windows
-and the wind cried unappeasably across the Downs. &#8220;Why are you staring
-out at that ugly landscape, Clare? Don&#8217;t you like the fire better, and
-a chair, and a book to read?&#8221; But she read very seldom; only once,
-when she had been reading, he saw to his consternation that tears were
-falling silently down her cheeks, and, going up behind her, he had seen
-over her shoulder that Shelley lay open on her knee:</p>
-
-<div class="center"><div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<div>If I were a dead leaf thou mightest bear,</div>
-<div class="i1">If I were a swift cloud to fly with thee,</div>
-<div>A wave to pant beneath thy power, and share</div>
-<div class="i1">The impulse of thy strength, only less free</div>
-<div class="i1">Than thou, O uncontrollable!...</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_215" id="Page_215">[Pg 215]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Clare, why so silent? I declare, you&#8217;ve grown more meditative than
-I,&mdash;where&#8217;s your irresponsibility? is the dignity of marriage so heavy
-upon you? Were you as silent with your friend Lovel? didn&#8217;t you prattle
-to <i>him</i>? eh, tell me?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What funny questions you ask, Richard. Lovel? I don&#8217;t remember. No, I
-don&#8217;t think I ever talked much to Lovel.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, but in all those hours you spent, riding with him, fishing, and
-I don&#8217;t know what else....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, we were busy, Richard; too busy to talk.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And he was a common fellow, wasn&#8217;t he? it&#8217;s not to be expected you
-would have talked much to him? eh?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;He certainly wasn&#8217;t fine like you, Richard.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Now how do you mean that? Too fine, am I? And he,&mdash;a poacher, wasn&#8217;t
-he? a bit of good-for-nothing? You don&#8217;t answer. A queer fellow, not
-without good looks; oh, I wouldn&#8217;t deny him that. A romantical sort of
-fellow, Clare?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Practical as he could be, on the contrary.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Maybe; none the less, there was something romantical about him....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>So he tormented himself by this small constant nagging about Lovel,
-liking to dress the man&#8217;s personality up in the lyrical words of his
-own choosing; but for the rest he appeared satisfied, living with Clare
-a captive under his roof. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_216" id="Page_216">[Pg 216]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>But sometimes she eluded his company. Then he roamed about the house,
-up and down stairs, out at the front door, down to the little wicket
-gate in the new wall, holding his muffler close under his chin, for
-the wind tore at his coverings, tweaking his scarf, flapping his coat,
-freezing his fingers, blowing his grey hair about in wild strands. He
-stood at the little gate, vainly trying to smooth his hair, gazing
-round the expanse of the hills, and calling from time to time as loudly
-as he could call, &#8220;Clare!&#8221; The wind took his voice and dispersed it
-like smoke; instantly tattered, it streamed away on the wind. No hope
-that Clare should hear that futile call, and it seemed to him that the
-empty Downs must from her childhood onwards have accumulated the echoes
-of voices crying &#8220;Clare! Clare!&#8221; A bell-like and doleful name, so
-cried; a name made to ring out; a wailing appeal; a name to cry after
-a gay truant, knowing that no answer would be returned. A gay truant,
-marked out for tragedy, dancing away, while those who remained behind
-cried after her and broke their hearts.</p>
-
-<p>All his complacency dropped from him, he stood at the gate, looking
-and calling; then turning back to the house he sought her again in
-every room, even up to the attic where Phoebe Batch, startled at his
-intrusion and dishevelled appearance, gaped at her master and stammered
-out her, &#8220;No, sir,&#8221;&mdash;she had seen nothing of Mrs. Calladine. Mrs.
-Calladine! She was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_217" id="Page_217">[Pg 217]</a></span> Clare, just Clare; Calladine with a bitter twist
-could not at that moment associate her with the respectable title. He
-turned away, downstairs again, and back to the front door, to stand on
-the doorstep, gazing across the little garden, over the low wall, up to
-the pale inhospitable hills.</p>
-
-<p>She returned, of course; every time she duly returned; and he upbraided
-her, and almost wept, but she said nothing, only looked at him with
-wide eyes, indifferent and remote. He upbraided her more loudly, even
-shook her on one occasion and &#8220;Don&#8217;t stand there,&#8221; he cried, &#8220;as though
-you had left your wits out in the blizzard,&#8221; and he flacked his fingers
-in his hysteria, and his voice grew shrill. But after a little while
-he would quieten down, and his melancholy would return, and he would
-sit with his head in his hands, saying that for his unhappiness he had
-married an elf and not a woman.</p>
-
-<p>Clare looked at him, sitting sunk in his chair, and presently she
-would thaw, as though those wits which he said she had left out in the
-blizzard were creeping back little by little into her body, and then
-she would put her hand kindly on his head and tell him not to fret.
-But that was all the explanation or comfort he ever got, to his great
-exasperation, being a man who liked to know how his wife had occupied
-every moment of her time,&mdash;to know, indeed, every thought which passed
-through her head.</p>
-
-<p>Fortunately for himself, he soon forgot; the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_218" id="Page_218">[Pg 218]</a></span> next morning he would
-descend, serene as ever, and set himself after his breakfast to his
-usual mild pursuits. Only in a sudden suspicious glance shot at Clare
-would his anxiety reawaken, and he would look at her feet, to see
-whether she wore her black strapped shoes and white stockings, peeping
-out under the fulness of her skirt. And sometimes, for a day or two
-after one of her escapades,&mdash;her evasions, as he called them in his own
-mind,&mdash;he would follow her upstairs if she went up to her bedroom.</p>
-
-<p>Inquiringly she looked at him.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes, Richard?&#8221;&mdash;for she was always gentle, save when she gazed past
-him with that far-away look, that seemed to range the Downs though her
-husband&#8217;s body and the walls of the house stood in her way,&mdash;&#8220;Yes,
-Richard?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He mumbled, half-ashamed.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I came to see what you were doing....&#8221; He could not bring himself to
-say, &#8220;I came to see whether you were changing your shoes,&#8221; for that
-seemed ridiculous, beneath his dignity.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">He had his happy moments. Sitting in his little room with her after
-they had dined, in the firelight, he beheld the very picture he had so
-often imagined. He had got her there, for his own; and his eyes rested
-long upon her grace, travelling, with delicate sensuality, over her
-young body and the little hands lying idle along the arms of her chair.
-&#8220;You never sew, my Clare,&#8221; he observed to her once, regretting this,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_219" id="Page_219">[Pg 219]</a></span>
-for he luxuriated in all the pretty attributes of woman. She smiled at
-him. &#8220;What are you thinking of?&#8221;&mdash;his favourite question, and he bent
-forward to pick up her limp hand and fondle it. &#8220;Tell me what you were
-thinking,&#8221; he repeated jealously.</p>
-
-<p>For once she lifted frank eyes and gave a frank answer.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I was wondering how much real need you had of me, Richard.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Remember the man I was before you came to me,&#8221; he said reproachfully,
-yet with a certain pride in recalling the gloom which had been his to
-discard.</p>
-
-<p>Then she said no more,&mdash;a trick of hers, which irritated him when he
-would fain have had her explain and amplify. He liked argument, he
-liked analysis; and into neither could he draw her.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;How unwillingly,&#8221; he said, &#8220;do you dwell upon personal relationships!&#8221;</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">He had lost his gloom and melancholy,&mdash;or was it that he had begun
-to think that hobby ridden to death, sometimes inconvenient to
-himself and possibly diminishing in impressiveness to other people,
-and had welcomed his marriage as a plausible reason for abjuring it?
-His habitual manner he had not altered; he still maintained towards
-her the same elaborate courtesy and his air of rather patronising
-protectiveness, as though thanks to the one <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_220" id="Page_220">[Pg 220]</a></span>convention, he revered
-her, and thanks to the other, condescended.</p>
-
-<p>Yet, he had changed; changed from the very day of their marriage. He
-had paraded her on his arm before their wedding-guests, the smile
-had wandered perpetually over his lips, he had abandoned his slight
-stoop, he had straightened himself up into a handsome and possessive
-bridegroom. She had been too apathetic at heart to be nettled by his so
-parading her in public: &#8220;My wife,&#8221; the formula constantly on his lips,
-had not stirred her resentment; those were the outward shows,&mdash;they
-could not touch her secret being. And, looking at him perhaps
-nevertheless with a faint surprise, she had ascribed this new manner
-to his natural triumph at getting her, and had expected a relapse as
-soon as the novelty should have staled into habit. But there had been
-no relapse. He had brought her home to Starvecrow, and then she had
-realised how all the new chintzes, the curtains in the windows, the
-works of art brought out from the drawers where all these years they
-had lain concealed, had been but the preparation for this long-schemed
-change in his mode of thought. They slipped now into their place, they
-came into their own, small but significant. He had at last now an
-excuse for shedding with relief the strenuous manner of years. There
-remained no work for her to do.</p>
-
-<p>Oh, little objects of art and skill. What hours he must have spent
-trifling with their suavity,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_221" id="Page_221">[Pg 221]</a></span> taking them from their hiding-places of
-an evening after he had heard Mrs. Quince go safely up to bed, and
-knew that no one was looking, no one likely to break in upon him and
-surprise him at his comfortable pottering; the hours of mansuetude he
-must have spent turning and caressing them between his fine sensitive
-hands! He had not brought out those little objects to show her the day
-she had gone to tea with him at Starvecrow; oh no! the only thing he
-had brought out had been the drawing of that woman&#8217;s head, which he had
-so dramatically destroyed in her presence. She saw that destruction
-now as the first step taken towards his emancipation. But the little
-objects he had not shown her,&mdash;those delicate fraudulent statuettes
-in terra cotta, those chiselled and prismatic crystals. How bare, how
-cheerless she had thought his room! those heavy leather armchairs, now
-so jaunty with chintz! She had pitied him, genuinely and kindly, even
-through her impatience at his mismanagement of his life. She had chided
-herself for any passing suspicions that his gloom might be deliberate.
-And she had seen in her marriage with him an opportunity to perform,
-supremely at her own expense, a task perhaps worth performing.</p>
-
-<p>But what right had she to murmur, when she saw her intentions
-crumble? She had, indeed, achieved her object, albeit in a manner so
-disconcertingly unforeseen. She reproached herself, in her mind which
-gave no quarter, any<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_222" id="Page_222">[Pg 222]</a></span> more than Lovel gave quarter; she reproached
-herself for not rendering thanks that her task had been thus made easy.
-What! she dare to murmur because she had been spared the strain of
-months, even of years? because she had not been permitted to string
-herself up to an effort daily renewed, an exertion in which her own
-weariness must never for an instant be allowed to appear? because
-Calladine had taken the law out of her hands, and had ordained for
-himself the resurrection to which she had intended to force him? She
-looked back with the smile of rueful irony to her brave and pitiful
-plans for his redemption. She had intended,&mdash;so gallantly&mdash;to set her
-back for ever towards her old life. She would have devoted herself,&mdash;so
-sturdily,&mdash;to the man who had need of her. She would not have flagged.
-The vision of her married life had disclosed itself during the weeks
-of her engagement in detail to her anticipation. There was no detail
-she had shirked,&mdash;not even the least picturesque. She had not tried to
-idealise Calladine; no, rather she had tried to see him in the light
-that Lovel&#8217;s careless scorn had thrown; not as a romantic figure,
-blasted by the catastrophe of an early passion, but as an incompetent,
-bungling, pitiable figure. Her pity, her charity, and her contempt
-would between them have carried her through. But now that she found
-herself forestalled, as it were,&mdash;found that Calladine had already
-accomplished for himself precisely what she had intended to accomplish
-for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_223" id="Page_223">[Pg 223]</a></span> him,&mdash;she was disconcerted, almost angry. It was in vain that
-she upbraided herself for her own ingratitude. The life that she had
-planned for herself was not falling out according to her design. She
-was cheated; a person who has tried to take in the dark a step that was
-never there. Let her keep her sense of proportion,&mdash;her refuge now, her
-only refuge,&mdash;and she would not even yet be wholly lost. Then she could
-laugh at the futility of her plans; she could see, as from without,
-their derision, and their full pitifulness. Her life at Starvecrow had
-not fallen out according to her design. What of it?</p>
-
-<p>A woman spending thirty, forty, wasted years in a forgotten corner of
-the Downs. What of it?</p>
-
-<p>Her memory would not cling about the place after she should be dead,
-any more than the memory of victims clung about the sacrificial
-stones. &#8220;Here blood was shed,&#8221; but that was a collective phrase; all
-individuality had long since,&mdash;almost immediately,&mdash;been telescoped
-into the clemency of perspective. So it would be with her, and she saw
-herself already as part of that anonymous crowd, whether of the victims
-of a savage creed, or of the women with the wasted lives,&mdash;no sublime
-and legendary sorrow, except in so far that all sorrow shared in the
-same great dignity,&mdash;women who had lost children or lovers, women who
-had trailed ill-health about their daily business, women who had borne
-the long, mute burden of uncertainty, all the grey, silent,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_224" id="Page_224">[Pg 224]</a></span> muffled
-women that whispered round her, and that had taken to their graves
-unchronicled the blunt or the poignant sorrow of their hearts.</p>
-
-<p>Nameless, they lived for her now. For her now, the Downs, hitherto
-so void and so spacious under the freedom of the winds and the cycle
-of the seasons, for her now the Downs were peopled. Their dews were
-brushed dark with footsteps. Their heights were scanned by searching
-eyes. Their flanks were bruised by the stumble of weary limbs. Their
-beech-clumps were threaded with the breath of secrets. She had not
-known, at first, whether to resent or to welcome the looming-up of
-this hushed population. It seemed to her that they rose up out of the
-ground, stealthy, ashen, tall. They were everywhere about her. They had
-known the Downs as she knew them, and the changing seasons had found as
-they did for her either a significant echo or an incongruous irony in
-their souls. Their presence did away with the loneliness, the untouched
-and indifferent loneliness of the uplands, which in her egoism she had
-seen as a background to her life and Lovel&#8217;s populated only, in so
-far as they were populated at all, by the rough figures of the men of
-barbarous ages, men who fought for the simple preservation of their own
-existence, undivided by any shredding of their moods, whose religion
-was one of fear and not of charity, the men who had set up the stones
-and raised the barrows in order to propitiate the dark Unknown of
-creation and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_225" id="Page_225">[Pg 225]</a></span> of death with such rude pomp as they could devise. They
-had been stark, striding elementary figures, one with the tree-trunks
-and the sarsen stones. They had ennobled the Downs by the record of
-their constructions. It had seemed to Clare that the intervening
-centuries between their age and the present day had been blank,&mdash;that
-she inherited the Downs direct from their hands,&mdash;those Downs which
-revealed themselves to her eyes unchanged from the hour when the stone
-men had passed away from them. The barrows, the dew-ponds, the Grey
-Wethers, the green tracks, the hawks and the larks, the space,&mdash;all
-unaltered; the stone men, returning, would find no change. What had she
-said, long ago, to Calladine, &#8220;an old, hard country; and such ghosts as
-there are, are bleached bones by now, dry and clean. I think,&#8221; she had
-said, &#8220;that the ghosts that walk among the stones must be as stern as
-the stones themselves; and that&#8217;s my fancy.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>And now there came to her this newly-realised population, bruised by
-life down to the softness of humanity. As to her those dry, bleached
-ghosts of the rude ages were masculine, so those more human ghosts that
-rose up out of the centuries were feminine. Increasingly, they had
-splintered their emotions; they had departed from the stark, simple
-facts; they had become more complex and more wistful. The stars and the
-stones had meant less and less to them; the Man of Sorrows, and not
-the terrible orbs of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_226" id="Page_226">[Pg 226]</a></span> heaven, had been their god. They were kneaded,
-malleable. They had endured much, but in the full consciousness of
-endurance; their spirit, even if not their voice, had groaned under
-the load of life and its ironies; they had not accepted as a matter
-of course, unquestioning, a lot that was hard. For all that, they had
-not been the less courageous; perhaps even their courage had been of a
-sublimer brand. And they were women, women, always women. The men had
-remained nearer to the old, strong, practical stock,&mdash;the purveyors of
-necessities. It was upon the women that civilisation had had the most
-effect. Calladine himself, the most highly civilised man that Clare
-knew, had always seemed to her instinct more like a woman,&mdash;sitting in
-his house and picking his griefs into smaller and smaller pieces. But
-Calladine&#8217;s griefs were not very real griefs,&mdash;she knew that now. She
-knew that he was, really, quite negligible.</p>
-
-<p>She had been almost afraid, for a brief period, to go out upon the
-Downs,&mdash;afraid of forms rising up round her, of hands pulling at
-her garments, and of eyes seeking hers until she was forced to look
-into their depths. It was not that she any longer felt resentment
-against the population her own imagination had evoked; no, the Downs
-were enriched by their company, and the calm heights acquired a new
-significance by contrast with their soft rustling tumult. It was that
-she feared the knowledge which would come to her if she spent many
-hours alone with those<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_227" id="Page_227">[Pg 227]</a></span> ghostly inhabitants whispering round her like
-dead leaves; she feared what she would learn; she would not probe her
-new half-guessed discovery. Things were a degree less terrible so long
-as they remained without a name.</p>
-
-<p>But she could not fear for long. She had pushed them back, averting
-her head, into the shadows, and there they had taken up their abode.
-They would not leave her again. Not even in the midst of joy,&mdash;if joy
-should ever visit,&mdash;would they leave her, any more than the shadows
-were ever completely absent even in the midst of sunshine on the Downs.
-She was grateful to them for the way they had come, stealing in upon
-her, silent and gradual, not in a sudden irruption that would have
-broken her. But now that she no longer feared them, no longer feared
-the learning that solitude might bring, it was for solitude that she
-craved, and solitude, she found, was the thing that she might not have.
-Calladine, who was so content in her company, expected that she should
-be equally content in his. When she went out, he went with her; when he
-was not inclined to go out, he begged that she would remain at home.
-&#8220;It is a rough day, Clare; let us stay happily by the fire.&#8221; Or he
-would consent to pace the garden, sheltered now by a little wall, and
-together they would look at the bare winter beds, and he would talk
-cheerfully of the flowers that would blow there in the spring.</p>
-
-<p>She renounced the Downs. Since she might<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_228" id="Page_228">[Pg 228]</a></span> not wander there alone, she
-restricted herself to the house and the square of garden, or to the
-green track that led to King&#8217;s Avon when she went to see her father.
-Even on this expedition Calladine accompanied her. He did not notice
-that she walked with her eyes bent upon the ground, never allowing
-them to lift and stray over the rolling country; or if he noticed he
-gave no sign. All the time he talked of minor things, and to his talk
-she made adequate response. Arrived at King&#8217;s Avon she would quicken
-her steps and pass rapidly down the village street, glancing about
-her only sufficiently to acknowledge the greetings of her humble
-acquaintances, and only when safe within the Manor House gates would
-she relax a little, and show herself gentle and affectionate towards
-her father, who, absent as ever, would presently forget that she was
-married and would invite Calladine to remain to dinner, &#8220;Clare and I,
-my dear friend, may so rarely welcome a visitor.&#8221; Through her laughter
-she looked at him wistfully; he was dear and familiar, his old beehive
-hat as wide and as shabby as ever, his spectacles still on his nose
-and his mild blue eyes looking out through them. She wondered how he
-got on without her, but Martha told her he did not seem to notice her
-absence much; only once, she had found him in Miss Clare&#8217;s old bedroom,
-wandering round, and touching everything in a gently puzzled way. Clare
-was glad that he should continue his busy, happy existence. Martha
-she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_229" id="Page_229">[Pg 229]</a></span> could trust, &#8220;To be sure, Miss Clare, I look after him as though
-he was your own baby. It&#8217;s all I can do, not to powder him after his
-bath.&#8221; But she sometimes fancied that his eyes followed her a little
-sorrowfully down the avenue when she went away, as he stood watching
-their departure and waving his big silk handkerchief.</p>
-
-<p>And they would set off on their homeward journey up the village
-street, along the road through the cut in the embankment, and along
-the road until it dissolved into the green track that led across the
-Downs. Still with her eyes upon the ground she walked rapidly, as
-though anxious to find herself once more safe within the shelter of
-Starvecrow. Calladine&#8217;s long legs easily kept pace with her; and she
-had the impression that, even were she to run, she could never escape
-from him. He strode beside her, talking of her father, talking of those
-minor things which, she had found, occupied so much of his attention,
-and always with the assumption that her interest equalled his own. Once
-or twice he wanted to leave the track and make their way home across
-country, but when he suggested this she always pretexed her anxiety to
-be once more ensconced in their own room. This invariably pleased him,
-and he acquiesced. She could not, no, she could not, stray across the
-Downs with him.</p>
-
-<p>She renounced the Downs. She could not share them with Calladine; not
-even with his mere physical presence could she share them.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_230" id="Page_230">[Pg 230]</a></span> She cramped
-herself within the house and the little garden. The moment came when
-Calladine commented upon it. &#8220;Don&#8217;t you want to go for a walk, Clare?&#8221;
-She did not;&mdash;she clung to their meagre patch of cultivation. &#8220;You are
-grown quite stay-at-home,&#8221; he prodded, fondly.</p>
-
-<p>The great Downs,&mdash;that stealthy population out on the Downs. Waiting
-for her,&mdash;the call of nature, always, and now the call of humanity. Out
-there, she could respond, she could feel, she could learn. Once she had
-not wanted to learn. She had shirked knowledge. Now, she had acquired
-knowledge, and could bear a yet deeper learning. She was avid, indeed,
-for the deepest draught of knowledge. Those bare great Downs, they were
-not bare; they were peopled. She might learn the first lesson from
-their storm, and the ultimate lesson from their serenity. But it was
-not in Calladine&#8217;s company that she would learn it. Such lessons were
-learnt in the severest solitude, with the senses of the soul stripped
-to flagellation.</p>
-
-<p>Therefore she clung to Starvecrow. &#8220;An uncouth name,&#8221; said Calladine
-discontentedly, after relishing it for years; &#8220;shall we change it?&#8221;
-But she begged him not to, without clearly knowing why. &#8220;Very well, we
-keep it,&#8221; said Calladine, smiling down at her, &#8220;as a contrast to the
-snug life we live beneath that uncomfortable label.&#8221; She smiled back;
-she could smile, always; it had become mechanical, costing her little.
-She clung to Starvecrow, without affection, but also<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_231" id="Page_231">[Pg 231]</a></span> without anything
-so precise as distaste; it, like Calladine, was negligible really, and
-she had never gone back on her first opinion of it,&mdash;that it was not
-austere enough to excuse its barrenness, and merely mean in its lack
-of comfort. It was no different from the Manor House, which, although
-at first sight incongruous perhaps in the midst of the village and its
-barbarous temple, was in truth no more incongruous than her old father,
-who pottered in his big hat about the garden, or peered through his big
-spectacles at the shards set out upon his desk.</p>
-
-<p>But still she clung to Starvecrow; it was just bleak enough to match
-the bleak, small disaster of her life; just comfortless enough to
-accord with the blank at the root of her life with Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>There had been the days of her engagement, when convention demanded
-that she should go over and at least appear to take an interest in
-her future home. She had gone, driven by Calladine himself through
-the village in the high dog-cart; holding on to her hat she had gone,
-rattling along the lanes behind the raw-boned animal, the gig rocking
-slightly from side to side, and the low branches of the trees almost
-sweeping against her as they passed. Calladine had looked fondly
-down upon her holding on to her hat, and in response to his murmur
-as he bent down towards her, she had looked up, and thought, in a
-detached way, that he was agreeable to look at, very gentlemanly and
-rather <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_232" id="Page_232">[Pg 232]</a></span>interesting, with his sallow, high-bred face, his many-caped
-driving coat, and his fine skilful hands encased in his gauntlets. She
-wondered, in the same detached fashion, what it would feel like when
-he stood tall by her side, and she could say &#8220;my husband.&#8221; Already
-she had had little foretastes of it, when he accompanied her to the
-village shops, and the shopkeepers said, in their familiar, respectful
-way, with an admiring gaze at the couple, &#8220;Here&#8217;s our best wishes,
-I&#8217;m sure, Miss Clare, to you and your gentleman.&#8221; And they had come
-to Starvecrow, where Mrs. Quince was waiting to receive them, and
-for all the smiles and curtseys and the insistence that Clare should
-inspect every cupboard, Clare had been conscious of the hostility
-of the elderly woman. But she had gone,&mdash;gone all over the house
-under the escort of Mrs. Quince, accompanied by Calladine as far as
-the first floor, where with his elaborate deferential manner he had
-retired, conveying by all that he left unsaid, that women were best
-left to themselves over household matters. There was in the manner of
-his retirement the indefinable condescension which to Clare was so
-subtly irritating. A wholesome male contempt she could more easily
-have pardoned.... But she had not stopped to think of that, in her
-dismay at finding herself alone with Mrs. Quince; she needed all her
-wits to balance the tension between herself and the housekeeper. Mrs.
-Quince seemed determined to outrage down to the least detail of her
-own feelings; all the doors<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_233" id="Page_233">[Pg 233]</a></span> of her most sacred cupboards were thrown
-open with a jingling of keys, and their immaculate depths revealed to
-Clare, who, her criticism being all the time slavishly invited, could
-respond with nothing but approval. &#8220;Though I am sure, miss, there&#8217;s
-many a thing in this house not carried out according to your ideas.&#8221;
-Mrs. Quince, indeed, seemed so anxious to be found fault with, that
-Clare, feeling that she must exhibit her own competence or forfeit from
-the outset the housekeeper&#8217;s respect, at last did offer some small
-disparaging comment. &#8220;Ah, there, what did I tell you?&#8221; said Mrs. Quince
-instantly, as though satisfied to have got finally what she had been
-expecting all along; &#8220;&#8217;tis not likely that old eyes and young ones
-should always see alike.&#8221; After this her urbanity and her constant
-return to the point that Clare had condemned became so excessive that
-Clare devoutly wished she might have forfeited all Mrs. Quince&#8217;s
-esteem for ever only not to be pursued by this constant reference and
-exaggerated subservience. And Mrs. Quince would spare her nothing, but
-led her up to the second storey, where, pausing on a landing carpeted
-with coarse matting and lit by a small skylight, she explained that
-&#8220;the girl&#8221; slept. Clare shrank; &#8220;Oh, no, Mrs. Quince, don&#8217;t disturb her
-if she is in her room.&#8221; &#8220;Indeed, and why not, miss?&#8221; said Mrs. Quince
-stoutly, advancing towards the door; &#8220;&#8217;tis only her room on sufferance,
-as you might say; and likely there would be something you would wish
-altered.&#8221; She threw<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_234" id="Page_234">[Pg 234]</a></span> open the door as she spoke, and Daisy Morland,
-rising in confusion, let fall on to the ground the scraps of white
-linen at which she had been stitching.</p>
-
-<p>Clare recoiled on the threshold; she had known that Daisy Morland was
-in the house, but had not expected to come face to face with her. Nor
-had Daisy expected to see Clare,&mdash;whose arrival with Calladine she
-had watched on tiptoe from her little dormer window,&mdash;thus ushered
-into her room. The mischievous eye of Mrs. Quince superintended the
-clash between the two girls. She had man&#339;uvred ably; she congratulated
-herself. Daisy,&mdash;Daisy was curtseying,&mdash;had recovered herself so far
-as to remember her curtsey,&mdash;what gall, what mockery, was in that
-curtsey!&mdash;Miss Warrener,&mdash;Miss Warrener was nodding to her,&mdash;saying
-something about &#8220;nice little room,&#8221; and looking sideways all the time
-at the pieces of linen fallen on the floor. Mrs. Quince folded her arms
-and superintended. She wore a smile,&mdash;outwardly benevolent, inwardly
-immensely ironical. The two girls,&mdash;much of an age. Daisy, blowsy and
-flustered, hardly able to repress her jeer; Clare, cool and wounded,
-but too proud to betray her wound. A lady: Mrs. Quince paid her that
-grudging acknowledgment. Well, Daisy had got the gipsy fellow, and Miss
-Warrener had got Mr. Calladine. As it should be.</p>
-
-<p>They came out of the room together, Clare and Mrs. Quince. Mrs. Quince
-drew back a <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_235" id="Page_235">[Pg 235]</a></span>little, respectfully, to let her go first, and closed
-the door gently behind her. &#8220;I wouldn&#8217;t have taken you in there
-miss,&#8221; she began, &#8220;if I&#8217;d known what that shameless baggage was to be
-at,&mdash;stitching away at her own baby&#8217;s clothes a fortnight before her
-marriage. Perhaps I should not say such things to you,&mdash;but there,
-you&#8217;ll be married yourself before the month&#8217;s out. And I wouldn&#8217;t
-have kept Daisy Morland here, knowing about her what I do know now,
-but that I wanted to have the house well set to rights against your
-coming, and, thought I, why not make use of a pair of hands that&#8217;ll
-never do a turn of work again for honest folks, but only for herself
-and a shame-begotten brat and a &#8217;scape-the-gallows husband. It&#8217;s a hard
-bit of luck for Farmer Morland and his wife,&#8221; continued Mrs. Quince
-as she followed Clare down the stairs, &#8220;after they brought their girl
-up decent; but what can you expect with such poachers and loafers and
-gipsy-like stuff hanging about the village? &#8217;Twas the easiest thing in
-the world for Daisy to go sweethearting on the hills, and what with
-shepherds&#8217; huts and hurdles handy there was all the chance of a bit
-of trouble. Well, and now she&#8217;s got it, and lucky for her, <i>I</i> say,
-that Lovel&#8217;s ready to turn her into an honest woman, for there&#8217;s many
-stouter bred than him that hasn&#8217;t stuck to their girls, and I always
-say....&#8221; Here Calladine had come out of the sitting-room, hearing
-the sound of voices; he came pleasantly towards them, rubbing his
-hands together and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_236" id="Page_236">[Pg 236]</a></span> bending towards Clare, &#8220;Tired, my dear? tired? a
-little bit, I think,&mdash;too bad, too bad, Mrs. Quince, we&#8217;ve tired her
-out between us; well, come in here and rest in this big chair....&#8221; he
-pressed her into the sitting-room, and Mrs. Quince with much solicitude
-settled cushions for her and placed her feet upon a footstool in spite
-of all Clare&#8217;s protests.</p>
-
-<p>She had dreaded to find Daisy still at Starvecrow when she returned
-there after her marriage. It would have been simple for her to find
-out, but she lacked the courage to ask. And would Calladine know?
-would he know if one girl rather than another slept in the attic at
-the top of his house? She could have asked Martha Sparrow, but pride
-withheld her from making enquiries as to Lovel&#8217;s wedding. True, Mrs.
-Quince had mentioned a fortnight, but she did not trust Mrs. Quince;
-the elderly woman would relish laying a trap for her. But at the end
-of the fortnight she had known that Mrs. Quince had spoken accurately,
-for Martha Sparrow, coming into her room to call her that morning and
-whisking back the curtains along the curtain-rods, had said cheerfully,
-&#8220;A fine day for the gipsy&#8217;s wedding; and I wonder how many of the folk
-will turn out to see the customs a common Christian wouldn&#8217;t practise?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>But those folk, skulking round the church, had been disappointed. They
-had seen no swarthy women in scarlet handkerchiefs, no dark men with
-little gold rings in their ears. They had<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_237" id="Page_237">[Pg 237]</a></span> heard no gibberish, and
-seen no gestures of incantation or abracadabra. They had seen only
-Nicholas Lovel in his ordinary clothes, inaccessibly severe, with his
-young woman, all simpers and dimples, on his arm; and Olver Lovel in
-the nave, watching the scene at the altar, obliquely in that queer
-little round mirror he always seemed to carry. Not even the Lovels&#8217; old
-mother had they seen; and for a glimpse of her they had greatly hoped,
-for surely, even of a witch and a gipsy, it might be expected that she
-would turn out to witness the marriage of her own son. But no, she had
-not caused herself to be wheeled as far as the church, the bedridden
-old woman; and, indignant because they were disappointed of their
-spectacle, the village folk muttered, &#8220;Unnatural,&mdash;but what would you
-expect?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Disappointed though they were, they had remained to watch the ceremony.
-Some of the bolder spirits had gone to the church, edging their way,
-sheepish but defiant, along the pews; but the majority had crowded
-near the door, peeping, nudging, jostling backwards whenever Lovel
-up at the altar threatened to turn round. There had been none of the
-coarse, friendly atmosphere that surrounded most village weddings.
-There had been, instead, an atmosphere of curiosity and fear; and at
-Daisy looks were thrown, full of commiseration and a fearful respect,
-by the villagers as at one of their own comfortable number, about to
-cut herself adrift from them and to become enrolled among an alien
-community.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_238" id="Page_238">[Pg 238]</a></span> They fully expected that Daisy, hitherto so plump and jolly
-and normal, would be initiated into dark rites beyond their imagination
-when once she had been swallowed up into the shadows of the dim,
-tunnel-like passage of the Lovels&#8217; house and the Lovels&#8217; door closed
-behind her. They never expected to see her emerge again in precisely
-the semblance of herself familiar to them. Or would Lovel deny his
-secrets even to his wife? Would he keep her there, in his dark house,
-as a servant and a convenience, to wait on his old mother, to cook his
-meals and obey his behests, and above all things to hold her tongue
-as to all the unexplained things she might happen to witness in the
-course of years? Would she be no more than a terrorized servant in that
-house they thought so vaguely sinister? There was Olver Lovel, too;
-was he a sort of accomplice to his brother, a sort of sly malignant
-accomplice, who in his brother&#8217;s absence would bully his brother&#8217;s wife
-by deputed authority, so that she would be at the mercy not only of the
-elder Lovel, who was an unknown quantity if ever there was one, but
-against whom nothing but his practices in defiance of the game laws was
-definitely known,&mdash;not only would she be at his hard mercy, but also at
-that of his younger brother, of whom the blackest and most cunning arts
-might be believed. There were a hundred ways, they decided, talking it
-over between a horrid fascination and a still more horrid relish, in
-which Olver might exercise his nasty talents upon<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_239" id="Page_239">[Pg 239]</a></span> Daisy. John Sparrow
-even went so far as to predict that the day would come when she would
-be found wandering, as crazy as Olver himself, upon the Downs, but
-others more sagely replied that if indeed she were to lose her wits she
-would never be allowed to escape from the house. And that opened up
-another series of pictures, in which Daisy, crazed and foolishly happy,
-went about her work singing little ditties, and the door of the dark
-house was closed daily by Lovel upon the three inmates, the mother, the
-brother, and the wife, and the key lay close within his pocket.</p>
-
-<p>But in the meantime the spectacle before their eyes was quite different
-from those evoked by their imaginations. It might be true that Lovel
-looked lean and stern, and that Olver followed the ceremony in that
-slanting way within his little round mirror, but the words the
-clergyman uttered were the same that they were accustomed to hear at
-all respectable unions, and as for Daisy, she was the picture of all
-a bride ought to be, muslin flounces and coyness, and if her figure
-was a little oddly thickened, why, that also was a thing that had been
-seen before at village weddings. She looked pleased with her young man;
-she kept glancing proudly at his height; she sniggered with content as
-he repeated the beautiful threadbare words after the priest, repeated
-them gravely and firmly, but as though he were utterly indifferent
-to the obligations they imposed upon him. There was nothing very
-startlingly unusual about the wedding. True, neither Daisy&#8217;s<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_240" id="Page_240">[Pg 240]</a></span> father
-nor her mother were present, but the whole village knew that Lovel was
-marrying the girl because he had got her into trouble, and it was not
-likely that the Morlands, steady and decent folk, would be present to
-give the sanction of their approval. Perhaps later on, when the child
-was born, they might come round; for the moment, no doubt,&mdash;and very
-naturally,&mdash;they were sore over both the cause of the marriage and the
-son-in-law imposed upon them. Daisy did not seem to care. Ever since
-the publication of her banns she had gone about flaunting as though her
-marriage were a reason for pride rather than for shame and apology.
-Not that the village saw much shame in circumstances so common. It
-had, rather, a certain respect for Daisy, who, having set her heart on
-the gipsy,&mdash;a strange taste, but that was her business,&mdash;had at last
-got him to the altar. There was a tacit convention that a girl was
-justified in using all her weapons if she could not otherwise carry
-her point: and there was also, in the present instance, a peculiar
-satisfaction in feeling that the gipsy had been worsted. So grand, so
-stuck-up, Nicholas Lovel, but a girl had got the better of him in the
-end.</p>
-
-<p>When the bridal pair came out of the vestry and proceeded down the
-aisle, there was a scattering in the little crowd at the church door;
-a lane opened, and Lovel and his wife passed out between the craning,
-curious faces. Lovel looked neither to left nor to right; his arm was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_241" id="Page_241">[Pg 241]</a></span>
-crooked to allow Daisy&#8217;s hand to rest within it, but that was the only
-concession he made to his newly-married state. She, on the contrary,
-sought eagerly for the faces of her friends; she dragged upon Lovel&#8217;s
-arm, but he moved unyielding forward. Daisy, who was trying to lag,
-had to take a little run, like a child that cannot keep pace with the
-advance of a grown-up person. With her head half-turned, her eyes
-still lingered over the little crowd that was once more closing in
-behind them. There were not many girls in the party; she knew why, and
-a sense of triumph came over her; they might affect to despise Lovel,
-but for all that they did not care to see him married to one of their
-own number,&mdash;ah, how clever she had been!&mdash;not many girls; two men,
-doddering on their sticks; and a group of young men, the lounging,
-insolent handsome young men, with their hands stuck into the belts of
-their smocks, chewing straws for all the world as though they had been
-in the Waggon of Hay and not on the threshold of a church. It was then
-that an incident occurred, the recollection of which was frequently
-to dash Daisy&#8217;s triumph into a sinking of uneasiness; towering behind
-the group she caught sight of Peter Gorwyn&#8217;s grinning, good-humoured
-face on the top of his enormous proportions, and as she looked at
-him in a sort of terror of recognition that <i>he</i> of all men should
-have come to attend her wedding, he very slowly winked, so slowly
-that time seemed to be suspended between the beginning of the wink<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_242" id="Page_242">[Pg 242]</a></span>
-and the completion of it; and in that suspension of time, while her
-eyes had leisure to dwell in fascination upon the subtle and quite
-unambiguous process of a wink, her mind had leisure also to take in its
-whole significance: Peter Gorwyn <i>knew</i>. In that wink the day of the
-Scouring was evoked; the fun they had shared; the irresponsibility, the
-momentary drunkenness. There was no reproach in the wink; there was no
-reproof; there was not even a threat; there was simply the amusement
-of a confederate, of one who knew himself quite well to be a party to
-a hoax. There was humour in it too; in that broad, ruddy face and blue
-eyes there was humour; there was even congratulation, a kind of silent
-applause; and a hint of gratitude to Daisy for having let him off so
-easily,&mdash;for having got Lovel to stand there in his place. This was all
-very re-assuring; there was such a phrase as honour among thieves, and
-big Peter, with her, was a thief if he was willing to let Lovel take
-his place and pay the price which should have been exacted of his own
-responsibility. But at the same time that wink came as a sharp shock
-to her, the shock that a second person shared her hoaxing secret. She
-thought that presently, when she had had time to settle down a little
-in her new life, she would catch young Gorwyn for an interview, and,
-without giving herself away, make quite sure, that, although he had
-guessed what she had concealed, he was ready to grin and hold his
-tongue. She thought this in a flustered way, as<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_243" id="Page_243">[Pg 243]</a></span> she came out of the
-church on Lovel&#8217;s arm into the warmth of the sunny morning, and they
-proceeded down the path between the grave-stones, a stiff little group,
-robbed momentarily even of the slight relief of the bride&#8217;s simpering,
-with Olver bringing up the rear. Daisy shivered for the first time;
-this wedding was not being conducted according to her idea of weddings;
-there were no emotional relatives, no weeping mother, no bells
-pealing from the calm grey spire overhead, no bridesmaids, no best
-man,&mdash;only Olver shambling behind them as they proceeded between the
-grave-stones, Olver so slightly and indefinably mis-shapen, a solitary
-evil attendant, shambling as though he might at any moment break into
-a fawning gambol around them, a senseless dance full of irony and
-mischief. And Lovel, himself, dearly as she had set her heart upon
-him, was throwing a chill by his demeanour over the occasion; he had
-not once looked at her, he had offered her his arm in a coldly civil
-way,&mdash;less he could not do,&mdash;he had stood up stern and unbending; she
-was afraid of him, and discouragement began to cloud over her triumph.</p>
-
-<p>They were walking now down the street towards his house, and the
-shopkeepers came to their doors to stare at them as they passed.
-Still Lovel marched on, undeviating, and Daisy began to feel herself
-a captive being led towards her prison. She clasped her fingers
-tighter round Lovel&#8217;s arm; it was hard and sinewy, typical of his lean
-strength. Here was a harshness she<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_244" id="Page_244">[Pg 244]</a></span> would find tough to propitiate;
-and jealousy shot through her; had he shown himself harsh towards Miss
-Warrener? or had she discovered an unguessed marvellous Lovel? What
-secret understanding had they shared? Daisy scarcely understood the
-pain. &#8220;The minx!&#8221; she muttered; it was the only analysis she could
-find of her sudden twist of anguish, blind and inarticulate. Up to
-the present she had been too much occupied with securing Lovel; in
-future she would have leisure to dwell upon those memories of his which
-would lie for ever concealed from her. &#8220;We&#8217;re married now, aren&#8217;t we,
-Nicholas? I&#8217;ve got you?&#8221; she said, looking up into his face.</p>
-
-<p>He took her into his house, where during the whole time of their
-engagement he had never allowed her to come. They were in the dark cold
-passage, at the end of which, in the sun, opened the little square
-of garden where Lovel like any other cottager grew his cabbages,
-his patch of flowers, his gooseberries, and his beans. Daisy became
-excited again; she forgot Gorwyn, she forgot her discouragement and
-her jealousy; she was a woman brought for the first time to her home.
-She peered about her with interest, while Lovel shut the door, and the
-passage became quite dark but for the door at the further end opening
-bright arch-wise on to the garden. &#8220;Oh, Nicholas,&#8221; she said, &#8220;I can&#8217;t
-see and it&#8217;s cold; leave open the door.&#8221; &#8220;For all the village to spy in
-upon us?&#8221; he returned, and she perceived that in this as in everything
-else he would<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_245" id="Page_245">[Pg 245]</a></span> have his way. &#8220;It&#8217;s more friendly,&#8221; she ventured, but he
-did not move towards it, and she desisted: after all, she had got him,
-she had fooled him, the score so far was heavily in her favour; if she
-let him have his way now, she would get him more completely in the end.
-&#8220;It&#8217;s rather cold,&#8221; she said nevertheless, repressing a shiver, and,
-hearing a small chuckle in the shadows behind her, she turned and saw
-Olver crouched up against the wall.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Take me into the kitchen!&#8221; she cried, pressing herself against Lovel.</p>
-
-<p>Kitchen! the word was reassuring; her mother had kept a spruce,
-spacious kitchen, where bottled fruit stood ranged on shelves, and
-trays of floury scones stood on the scrubbed deal table, and the big
-Parliament clock tick-tocked in comfortable regularity against the
-wall. Very different was the room to which Lovel sarcastically admitted
-her; she stopped with the dismay of the conventional person suddenly
-confronted with rebel views. She was shocked as at something unseemly
-and profane. &#8220;Oh,&#8221; she cried, &#8220;but this isn&#8217;t a kitchen?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She turned as though to make her escape; before her was the room with
-its walls of rough stone, its rafters, shadows and cobwebs, behind
-her was Lovel in the doorway and the dark passage beyond him, with
-Olver crouching in it. She stared round her, and was met everywhere by
-silence. &#8220;I don&#8217;t like it!&#8221; she cried in shrill terror. Lovel continued
-to look at her without<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_246" id="Page_246">[Pg 246]</a></span> speaking. &#8220;Mother! dad!&#8221; she cried, &#8220;I want to
-go home!&#8221; She rushed to Lovel and beat her hands against his chest.
-His physical contact recalled her, and she began to sob. &#8220;Nicholas,
-Nicholas,&#8221; she sobbed, &#8220;I love you, I don&#8217;t understand.&#8221; She sobbed
-against him.</p>
-
-<p>He stood still, hard and carven, while the waves of her panic broke
-over him. Presently a loud tapping sounded overhead, and she raised her
-face, mouth moist and wide open, to listen. &#8220;What&#8217;s that?&#8221; she uttered.
-&#8220;My mother,&#8221; he replied grimly. &#8220;Then she <i>is</i> alive?&#8221; breathed
-Daisy, her common curiosity coming back to her, and she felt suddenly
-important, since she was about to see,&mdash;redoubtable privilege,&mdash;the
-legendary figure of the village witch. Speaking over his shoulder,
-Lovel said, &#8220;Olver, go you and tell her I am bringing Daisy up in a
-moment,&#8221; and she heard Olver shuffle off, and knew the mysterious
-suggestion of hearing footsteps mount an unknown stair, and the voice
-of an unvisualised person speaking in the recesses of an unknown house.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Must I go up?&#8221; she said to Lovel, between fear and desire.</p>
-
-<p>She wondered when she would have the chance of pouring into the ears of
-one of her confidential friends the account of her first entry into the
-old woman&#8217;s room. Not that she could be so very old in years,&mdash;not more
-than sixty or sixty-five, Daisy hazarded,&mdash;but her bedridden condition
-and the squalor of rugs and coverings under<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_247" id="Page_247">[Pg 247]</a></span> which she croaked and
-feebly moved lent to her an appearance of almost fabulous age. Dirty
-and tattered, a heap on the bed in the corner of the dark room, her
-grey locks straggled about her face, her shaking fingers crooked
-themselves at Daisy, and her mouth mumbled out unintelligible phrases,
-in which the words, &#8220;A hard son to me, Nicco ... a hard husband ...
-you&#8217;ll see,&#8221; alone detached themselves with any significance to the
-bride. She was herself too much overawed to speak, but stood close
-to Lovel, who, forbidding though he was, was yet the only familiar
-landmark in the whole of that house. For his part, he said nothing,
-not a word to help Daisy out of her fear or her embarrassment; he
-stood there, and had he not appeared so utterly indifferent she would
-have said he seemed resigned; he stood there waiting while his mother
-mumbled out her accusations,&mdash;how many years was it since she had had
-the opportunity of doing so save to Olver?&mdash;willing to wait although
-scorning to justify himself; and it was clear that he cared no more
-for his wife&#8217;s opinion than he did for his mother&#8217;s or anybody else&#8217;s,
-but had within himself a reserve of some unknown, unexplained quality,
-whether pride, or contempt, or self-communion, or all three, but which
-in any case left him invulnerable and as though he could close his ears
-at will when he did not choose to hear.</p>
-
-<p>But although even through her fright Daisy was thinking of the
-succulent story she would<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_248" id="Page_248">[Pg 248]</a></span> make out of this first glimpse of the old
-woman, the closing incident was one she would not retail. No, she
-would not tell any one that when the mumble had finally died away, the
-mumble and the bursts of laughter, she would not tell any one that as
-she and Lovel had started to move towards the door the old woman had
-raised herself up on her extraordinary mountain of sacks and pillows,
-heaving herself up under all the rugs, and pointing an accusing finger
-at her daughter-in-law, had cried in an access of malevolent amusement,
-&#8220;Big already, my lass, and on your wedding-day!&#8221; She would not tell
-any one that. She could not, even had she been willing, have described
-the effect that the old woman&#8217;s words, uttered in such a tone of
-discovery and delight, produced upon her. Hitherto she had not thought
-very much about her condition; it was an inconvenient consequence that
-often overtook girls of her class when they had omitted to behave with
-too self-righteous a prudery; and in her own particular case she had
-been able to turn her &#8220;trouble&#8221; to excellent account. But with that
-witchlike cackle a whole future of foreboding rushed up at her, a whole
-revelation of mischievous malignity. The cackle and the wink&mdash;Gorwyn
-knew her secret; did Lovel&#8217;s mother know it too? she was credited with
-sly powers; did Lovel&#8217;s brother know it? and would they sit for years
-upon their knowledge until one day it should hatch out, sudden and
-disastrous? Or had Lovel told them both that the child was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_249" id="Page_249">[Pg 249]</a></span> Olver&#8217;s
-child? Olver would accept that, surely; he had the memory of the scene
-in the barn to convince him. What had Lovel told them? she would never
-dare to ask him, and his inscrutability gave her no hope of discovering
-by chance.</p>
-
-<p>And then she had been astonished to find how gentle he could be towards
-her. It was true that he was stern in his injunctions,&mdash;no tales of his
-house to be carried about the village, he said, and poor Daisy saw her
-one consolation evaporate,&mdash;but in his personal dealings with her he
-was uniformly gentle. Distant always, never relaxing, never easy; but
-kind with a kindness that wrung the very heart of her love for him. It
-was as though he pitied her, and was kind to her as he would have been
-to an animal; although she thought bitterly, there would have been more
-of love and less of duty in his kindness towards the meanest animal.
-She could not cajole herself with the idea that anything but duty lay
-beneath his kindness to her. He was equally gentle, she observed, with
-his brother Olver, and with his mother, never betraying by any sign
-his repulsion or his impatience; and Daisy thought sometimes with
-terror that she herself might be as repulsive to him as the old woman
-must surely be, but never would she know it, for he would never allow
-it to appear. And at moments, loving him, she could forget herself
-sufficiently to be sorry for him in his loneliness and his unrelaxing
-self-command.</p>
-
-<p>She began to know the full significance of <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_250" id="Page_250">[Pg 250]</a></span>suffering. Before very
-long she was suffering, in her blind, ignorant way, down to the bone.
-For discomfort she had bargained; for a hard life of work, since she
-knew that the business of keeping the house and its three inmates
-would after her marriage devolve upon her, she had bargained also;
-for Lovel&#8217;s severity she had bargained, and with an obscure sense
-of justice and fair play she had been prepared to accept without
-complaint these things that she was voluntarily bringing upon herself
-as the price of securing Lovel for her own, for her husband; but for
-the torment of his kindness and his proximity she had not bargained.
-The work she had envisaged with a practical eye; that was within the
-reach of her capacity, but the emotional problem had altogether eluded
-her anticipation. She had thought, if she thought at all, that once
-she had got Lovel safely over that ticklish business of marriage, she
-would have consummated her supreme ambition. She had not understood
-that then and then only would her problem truly begin. It had been
-easy, pitifully easy, to trick Lovel into marriage, easy to play upon
-the double string of his dejection and his sense of honour; he had
-allowed himself to be conducted through preliminaries and ceremony
-alike with the same cold, trance-like indifference; that had been easy
-for her; but how to dig through to the man beneath that blameless mask?
-&#8220;Nicholas, will you take me to Bath some day, anywhen you&#8217;ve time?
-I&#8217;ve never seen a bigger town<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_251" id="Page_251">[Pg 251]</a></span> than Marlborough,&#8221; and he would answer,
-kindly, always kindly, but like a man who might well be dead before the
-day for going to Bath arrived, &#8220;I&#8217;ll take you to Bath, my dear,&#8221; and
-she would sidle up to him and say, &#8220;That&#8217;ll be a treat for you too,
-Nicco?&#8221; and he would acquiesce, and at the same time, on some murmured
-excuse, would put her gently away.</p>
-
-<p>She waited hungrily all day for his return in the evening. His presence
-exasperated and tortured her, but his absence left her in a perpetual
-fret, swallowing up what she had anticipated as the principal trial of
-her days, the sinister companionship of Olver and the old woman. Now
-that she knew her way about the house,&mdash;knew the full squalor of the
-old woman&#8217;s room,&mdash;had grown accustomed to the croak and the pointing
-finger,&mdash;no longer started at Olver&#8217;s sudden laughter in the dark
-passage,&mdash;she was not so much oppressed by them; but Lovel, Lovel, was
-always what she wanted and what she could not have. At first she had
-restrained herself, not knowing the temper with which she had to deal,
-but, seeing him so kind, she slackened her restraint, and her affection
-slopped increasingly over him. He could not be in the house but what
-she must waddle after him, pawing at his hand or trying to entice him
-into some friendly phrase. &#8220;You like having your house kept by me,
-don&#8217;t you, Nicco? You like getting hot meals, don&#8217;t you, darling?&#8221; and
-often she whined, &#8220;I love you, Nicco!&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_252" id="Page_252">[Pg 252]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>It was not in her to suffer in silence. When she craved too strongly
-for him to touch her, she would take his hand and hold it against her
-full, warm breast. She would sit at his feet in front of the fire, as
-Olver had been used to do, and lean her head against his knee with
-sentimental sighs, for she quickly learnt that although he might ignore
-her he would never repulse her. In the kitchen, when she did this,
-Olver sat at the centre table squinting into his little mirror at the
-reflected group of his sister-in-law, his brother, and the red glow of
-the fire. He was content to sit doing this by the hour, but Daisy could
-not endure it; she clambered to her feet,&mdash;for she was rapidly growing
-more clumsy in her movements,&mdash;and went about the room finding small
-unnecessary tasks to ease her discomfort. Sometimes she turned noisily
-on Lovel:</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What are you thinking of, sitting there?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He was mild in his reply, or else did not reply at all.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, <i>I</i> know, <i>I</i> know!&#8221; she would cry, in an access of jealousy, but
-dared say no more.</p>
-
-<p>Only once, when he caught her with his strong hand as she stumbled on
-the stair, and uttered a word of caution, she turned on him and cried,
-&#8220;You&#8217;re mighty careful of another man&#8217;s brat.&#8221; But it seemed that he
-had set his will against being goaded into any retort.</p>
-
-<p>The other man&#8217;s brat troubled her now, for she could not escape from
-what seemed to her an absurd desire that it should be Lovel&#8217;s. The<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_253" id="Page_253">[Pg 253]</a></span>
-Scouring had taken place in May; it was now December, so that she was
-approaching her seventh month,&mdash;but Lovel must not know that: he must
-think her only in the sixth month, for the incident with Olver in the
-barn had happened in June; she must always be careful to remember
-that, or the whole fabrication would be ruinously exposed. She must
-run the risk of incomplete preparations,&mdash;a misled midwife, a probably
-unavailable doctor should things go wrong. The resented child moved now
-vigorous within her; she had a full-blown appearance without which she
-still thought in her naïveté that she might have been attractive to
-Lovel. In the autumn his bitch had whelped, and she had watched with
-real anguish his tenderness towards the blind crawling puppies in their
-wooden box, and later his patient hands teaching them to drink as they
-crowded round and blew bubbles in the bowl of milk, and later still,
-when they grew into fluffy balls, cuffing one another and snarling in
-their small rage, she watched him dangling old cotton-reels for their
-amusement, or saw him cross the kitchen with the little pack prancing
-after him, and was shrewd enough to recognise that this was the first
-thing which had given him pleasure for many months. Now, when he was
-out at work, she watched them tumbling over each other on the flags of
-the kitchen, staggering on their still uncertain legs, and the longing
-grew within her that they should be babies instead, fat babies, hers
-and Lovel&#8217;s, and the more she longed for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_254" id="Page_254">[Pg 254]</a></span> this the less she welcomed
-the child that struck so strongly against her flanks. It should be a
-hearty child, conceived in laughter of healthy parents, a child that
-would lie content and kick and crow; a little ploughboy; but already
-she dreaded to see it with Lovel,&mdash;would he touch it with his hands
-that were so light and loving to train and fondle all young things?
-or would he avert his eyes from it? would it grow up to toddle always
-after him in preference to any one else, while he endured it between
-pity and loathing, and would it call him father, poor fraudulent little
-stranger in a house where it had no right? Only in one degree less did
-she speculate over Olver&#8217;s attitude towards it,&mdash;Olver who was being
-passed off as its father,&mdash;would he believe himself the father or did
-he know better? and would he croon in his odd slanting way over the
-cot, with a grotesque affection? and would he later try to win over the
-child and fill its head with queer lore? and here a fire of maternal
-protectiveness and indignation flamed through her, rising suddenly from
-the depth, as she discovered that she was not willing that her child
-should come under the influence of Olver.</p>
-
-<p>There were endless possible groupings to be foreseen about the tiny,
-dangerous, controversial person of the child.</p>
-
-<p>Its burden weighed her down more and more as the seasons deepened
-towards winter. This child, so light-heartedly conceived on a day in
-spring, its presence unnoticeable through the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_255" id="Page_255">[Pg 255]</a></span> early summer, began to
-oppress its mother in the saddening autumn, and with winter when the
-days were dark and short and gloomy, she could no longer forget its
-existence for a moment. The burden of the child and the burden of the
-year moved together increasingly towards their culmination. She looked
-back sadly to the easy days when the child had been light and even her
-preoccupations had been leavened with hope. Now everything weighed upon
-her, even the weather which was bleak and dismal: &#8220;I declare,&#8221; she
-said fretfully to herself, &#8220;I&#8217;d be no worse off in the Kennet,&#8221; and
-she skirted the idea, but lacked the desperation to execute it. She
-was, however, by now quite sufficiently unhappy. She had nearly lost
-any hope of gaining Lovel, her days were leaden, she lumbered about
-the house in slovenly clothes, since at the beginning she had used
-up all her poor finery by wearing her best every day in the hopes of
-pleasing Lovel&#8217;s eye, but now in an access of dejection, she went to
-the opposite extreme, and took a wilful pleasure in letting him see her
-at her most sluttish and ungainly. But nothing, she noticed, caused him
-to alter his manner towards her whether she presented herself in her
-muslin, or in an old bodice made of some gray tartan-like material, not
-joining on to her skirt, so that she appeared to be dressed in some
-thrown-on coverings from off his mother&#8217;s bed. But he never varied in
-his patience and his impersonal kindness; he neither retreated to a
-greater distance,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_256" id="Page_256">[Pg 256]</a></span> nor allowed himself to become more approachable.
-Every evening he returned to his house to rejoin the company of Olver,
-his mother, and the cumbersome and plangent woman, but by no word did
-he betray either his nausea or his weariness. &#8220;Oh, yes, he&#8217;s a good
-husband,&#8221; said Daisy bitterly to young Gorwyn, &#8220;he doesn&#8217;t drink, he
-doesn&#8217;t hit me, and he gives me all his money. He&#8217;s a good husband
-enough.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Young Gorwyn lounged gracefully round the house-door.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Then you&#8217;ve fallen soft,&#8221; he observed in his drawling voice, surveying
-Daisy from head to foot as she stood just within the entrance to the
-dark passage.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ve fallen soft,&#8221; she echoed, full of sarcasm.</p>
-
-<p>This was in October, and in the blue early dusk people were gossiping
-at their house-doors, up and down the street. Young Gorwyn felt a
-spice of adventure in philandering thus openly with the newly-wedded
-wife of the redoubtable Lovel,&mdash;advertising to the whole street his
-disregard of Lovel. Not that there was any glory in passing the time of
-day with Daisy; everybody knew that Daisy was cheap and easy, giving
-impudence for impudence, a joke for a joke. But in making free with
-Lovel&#8217;s property there was glory, in being so near to Lovel&#8217;s house;
-almost inside it, one might say; in dawdling there, treating it as any
-ordinary house. He thrust his hands into the pockets of his breeches,
-and lounged, and stared at Daisy. She was a good<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_257" id="Page_257">[Pg 257]</a></span> sort, and he had got
-off cheap, were his dominant reflections; and was quite sure,&mdash;with a
-grin,&mdash;that she read his thoughts and wholly sympathised with them;
-would not have been shocked, in fact, had he voiced them and held out
-his hand, thanking her for the escape she had allowed him. He did not
-credit her perhaps with very much respect for him, but then he had
-equally little for her.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Let&#8217;s see our kid now and then,&#8221; he said.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What?&#8221; she said sharply.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Let&#8217;s see the kid now and then,&#8221; he repeated, so that she wondered
-whether she had heard him right the first time.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh,&mdash;maybe,&#8221; she replied, trying to show herself nonchalant about it
-as he, being a woman who readily took her cue from men.</p>
-
-<p>She remembered the wink in the porch of the church, and that small,
-all-compromising word, so slily slipped into his phrase, seemed to her
-a first cousin of the wink; they had the same family air of innuendo,
-of confederacy. The impertinence! she thought, in her heart of hearts
-frightened rather than indignant, and she had a good mind to have the
-question out with him then and there, but, giving him a preliminary
-look, she decided to hold her tongue; an admission, once made, could
-not be recalled, whereas silence committed one to nothing. She was far,
-however, from trusting young Gorwyn now that she came to examine him
-more closely; he was strong and sleepy and graceful, lounging against<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_258" id="Page_258">[Pg 258]</a></span>
-the door-post, but there was something of the cat in his face with the
-broad cheek-bones, and the fair-lashed blue eyes so deep-set that when
-he smiled they almost disappeared into two little slits, and the way
-his fair hair grew so thick and low on his forehead; and she knew from
-experience,&mdash;all too well,&mdash;how caressing were his hands, caressing
-and heavy, when he reached them out towards a girl. A return of the
-passing attraction he had had for her came upon her, and she had a
-moment of queer disloyalty to Lovel, contrasting his slim darkness with
-the square Saxon strength of Gorwyn, to whom she was really so suitably
-mated. Their glances crossed; they understood one another too well, and
-looked away. &#8220;I must be getting on,&#8221; said Gorwyn after a pause which
-lasted a perceptible moment.</p>
-
-<p>But that was in October, and she had not seen him again for any private
-conversation, however evasive. Autumn had gone, winter had come, with
-the violence and completeness to which dwellers on those uplands were
-accustomed. Snow blocked the roads. Communication with Marlborough
-was cut off, the inhabitants of King&#8217;s Avon resigned themselves to
-rely upon their own store of provisions, the Downs lay around them,
-white and enormous. They did not resent their isolation, but accepted
-it, almost yearly, as coming in its turn in the nature of things. It
-imprisoned them, more than ever self-contained, in their cup within
-the <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_259" id="Page_259">[Pg 259]</a></span>earthwork, with their pagan stones, their Christian church,
-their shops, and their Manor House, where Mr. Warrener was now their
-only representative of gentry; snugly a homogenous community. Lovel
-alone saw in the snow something more than a mere barrier against the
-outside world, a barrier that was almost a defence; he saw the stones
-standing up black out of a white field, the black trees powdered and
-spangled; he knew that he could go up on to the Downs without the fear
-of meeting any stranger riding there for pleasure. He could look from
-the crest of the White Horse Hill out over the country, without seeing
-the roads of civilisation, without seeing the White Horse itself, and
-his shepherd&#8217;s hut was as rough a shelter as primitive man would have
-devised. He took a certain pleasure in the discomfort and severity of
-his winter life. Often he would be the only man to leave the village of
-a morning, passing out on his way to the uplands while a few isolated
-figures trudged up the draughty street against the blizzard with sacks
-thrown round their shoulders, going to their cowsheds or to clear a
-space for their poultry; but Lovel passed them, leaving them to such
-domestic occupations, and sought the high lands, where wind and sleet
-swept across like aerial cavalry, and the driven snow was banked deep
-in drifts against the scars and scoops of the hillsides. Here, as he
-stood alone with the spears of the weather driving through him, he
-had a sense of triumph: he had got the better<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_260" id="Page_260">[Pg 260]</a></span> of the Downs, he had
-got the better of his own soul. His physical and mental endurance
-were alike strong enough to cope with the utmost rigours that Nature
-and fate were able to devise for his trial. This grim satisfaction,
-he felt, was the last luxury he permitted himself to indulge. For the
-rest, he had stripped himself bare of soft superfluities as a man
-could be; down to bone and sinew he had stripped himself. At times,
-in his moments of strange, harsh exaltation, when the gale screamed
-most piteously around him, he wished he might divest himself of his
-clothing, outward symbol of protection, and stand naked to support the
-lashings of the wind and the frozen hail; he thought proudly that no
-harm would come of it to his lean body. But although he never allowed
-himself to exploit the desires of this fanatical folly, he knew that
-he had touched the apex of his conquest over himself and his country,
-and, relaxing, he considered with a grin the superstitious amazement
-of his fellow-villagers should they, passing below, chance to see upon
-the skyline the naked figure of Lovel (whom they had always known for a
-wizard) crucified against elements where horse and man might scarcely
-hope to live.</p>
-
-<p>He had his reward when the storm ceased, and, again alone upon the
-heights, he surveyed, as though his will alone had imposed the calm,
-the thick smooth quilt of snow and the blood-red sun descending towards
-the beech-clump through the perfect stillness. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_261" id="Page_261">[Pg 261]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>But in the direction of Starvecrow he never wandered, where Calladine
-edged with some rare book closer to the fire, and Clare stood with her
-face against the panes staring out of the window over the snowy Downs.</p>
-
-<p>Daisy began now to cling to him more and more. Her child was nearly
-due, but since she alone knew this,&mdash;and perhaps young Gorwyn, if he
-took the trouble to reckon up the dates,&mdash;every one believed the birth
-to be distant yet another month. Daisy was frightened; she dared not
-tell Lovel that the child might now be born any day; but she dreaded
-his long absences, for she feared that she might die without making her
-confession or obtaining his forgiveness. If all went well, she had no
-intention of confessing; but if she saw her life in any danger she had
-made up her mind to barter the security of this life against that of
-the next. Superstitious, she imagined that she would run more danger
-through bearing this child that she had carried during the months of
-deception and fraud, than she would through bearing a child honestly
-conceived and carried. She was mortally afraid of death, and mortally
-afraid of losing Lovel. She tried to sound him, &#8220;You&#8217;d be sorry if
-anything happened to me, Nicco?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Lovel had heard this a dozen times already.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Why should anything happen to you?&#8221; he replied.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I shouldn&#8217;t have gone with Olver,&#8221; she mumbled, twisting the corner of
-her skirt. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_262" id="Page_262">[Pg 262]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;That&#8217;s a long time ago,&mdash;that&#8217;s over and done with,&#8221; he replied
-patiently and cheerfully, feeling sorry for what he thought was her
-genuine repentance.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But this is the result,&#8221; she said, not consoled.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Don&#8217;t distress yourself,&#8221; he said.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Supposing I was tooken bad,&#8221; she began again.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;&#8217;Tisn&#8217;t for a month yet,&#8221; said Lovel.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;One doesn&#8217;t know always, with such things.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Will you see the midwife?&#8221; he asked, perceiving that she was worried.
-But the whole subject, and Daisy&#8217;s very existence, though he spoke with
-solicitude and bent a kindly gaze on her to discover what were the poor
-creature&#8217;s real wishes,&mdash;the whole subject to him was utterly remote
-and meaningless.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;The midwife over to Marlborough by this snow-fall!&#8221; she cried
-disdainfully.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ll ride over and get her if you like,&mdash;I&#8217;ll bring her out on a
-pillion.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No, no, Lovel,&#8221; she said, shaking her head, &#8220;neither now nor when the
-child is born,&mdash;I&#8217;ll die without midwife, or doctor, more likely.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You&#8217;re determined to see it in its blackest light,&#8221; said Lovel, but he
-spoke good-humouredly, without losing his patience.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, it isn&#8217;t of me or my baby you think, when you sit silent by the
-hour, is it?&#8221; said Daisy, suddenly losing her temper, pulling herself
-up with the help of the table, and wandering aimlessly around. &#8220;&#8217;Tisn&#8217;t
-your baby, so why<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_263" id="Page_263">[Pg 263]</a></span> should you think of it? and if I come to die, well,
-good riddance for you, and you&#8217;ll be able to think you did your duty
-by me. But much you care now, when you go out into the snow like the
-crazed gipsy you are,&mdash;to meet Miss Warrener, Mrs. Calladine, for all I
-know,&mdash;much you care that I sit at home and think myself sick over the
-danger I&#8217;ll run and the pain I&#8217;ll suffer, while you maybe won&#8217;t come
-near home till it&#8217;s all over one way or the other.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;When the time gets near I&#8217;ll stop closer to home.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She wanted to cry out, &#8220;You dolt, you blockhead, the time is near
-<i>now</i>,&#8221; but dared only repeat &#8220;One doesn&#8217;t always know ...&#8221; and began
-to whimper.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I won&#8217;t go far afield,&#8221; said Lovel, soothing her. He was full of pity
-for all women in her condition, so that none of her words had power to
-anger him.</p>
-
-<p>A small remorse came over her when he was kind like this, a compunction
-for having tricked him: would he have been so kind, so long-suffering
-about the child had he not believed without question in his own
-brother&#8217;s guilt? She tried to edge closer to him; &#8220;Nicholas, if
-anything happened to me, you wouldn&#8217;t think too hardly of me, would
-you?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Nothing&#8217;s going to happen to you,&#8221; said Lovel, weary of the
-discussion, but still patient and kind.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You won&#8217;t go far, Nicco, will you?&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_264" id="Page_264">[Pg 264]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No, if that comforts you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He was committed now, having given his promise; there would be no more
-roamings for him; but he was willing to forgo their small solace,
-negligible in the midst of his desolation, if thereby he might reassure
-the poor contemptible creature.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Nicco,&#8221; she said timidly, with an impulse of honesty, prompted by his
-gentleness, &#8220;&#8217;tisn&#8217;t fair to ask you, hardly ... &#8217;tisn&#8217;t your child,
-after all&#8217;s said and done.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m responsible for my brother,&#8221; said Lovel, and she turned away from
-him and wept, overcome.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You&#8217;re an upright man, Lovel,&#8221; she cried through her tears, &#8220;too
-upright for such as me.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He had not understood her full meaning, of course; he had told her
-again not to distress herself, he had assured her again that he would
-not go far from home, he had even patted her shoulder, letting her
-see nothing of the effort it cost him, and he had gone out then, to a
-house down the street where he had a small carpentering job to finish.
-Daisy remained alone in the kitchen, alone with the satisfaction of
-having gained her point that he would abandon his long absences, but
-still she was not satisfied as she expected; she sat on where he had
-left her, bluntly probed by conscience, she whose conscience had never
-troubled her until this contact with Lovel and his standards: what was
-she doing to Lovel,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_265" id="Page_265">[Pg 265]</a></span> she asked herself now? she had got him, but was
-that all? was that enough for her? to have got him and to know she had
-caught him by a trick? to see him inert under his dull unhappiness?
-never to hear him complain, never to catch him at fault, but to see
-him quiet as though his spirit was ebbing daily from him? Even she,
-in her blundering insensitiveness, stirred uneasily at the thought
-of his injuries. &#8220;But what was I to be at?&#8221; she cried to herself in
-self-justification; &#8220;I wanted him, and all&#8217;s fair....&#8221; She moved in
-her chair and twisted her hands. &#8220;Nicco, Nicco,&#8221; she moaned. &#8220;If he
-knew how I wanted him he&#8217;d forgive me,&#8221; and with this reflection came
-a deeper stab: it was probably true that he would indeed forgive
-her,&mdash;that she had indeed broken him down to the extent of that
-saint-like clemency. What would put anger and mettle back into him?
-what would put life back into him? Clare, nothing but Clare, without
-whom he was incomplete, only a gentle husk; and for a passing moment
-her thoughts travelled to Clare, living out her life in some fashion
-or another by Calladine&#8217;s side at Starvecrow. What, in her ignorance,
-had she helped to bring about? She paused and drew back on the brink of
-things she did not understand, taking refuge again in her own miseries,
-comfortably familiar by reason of the many times she had pored over
-them, with no dark corners or frightening perspectives, but all close,
-small and personal, under the range of<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_266" id="Page_266">[Pg 266]</a></span> her poor niggling microscope.
-And she was in the right frame of mind for such brooding, feeling
-herself oppressed and full of foreboding, as she sat in the kitchen big
-with the child, and big with the failure of her life, waiting indeed
-for deliverance from the child, but seeing no solution to the greater
-oppression, which she might expect to continue until she should grow
-as spiritless and broken as Lovel and their existence should dwindle
-to a grey twilight of apathy unenlivened even by anger or revolt. She
-had rarely felt so dejected; the very stones of the kitchen walls
-crushed her with their rude size; the child within her, usually so
-active, so ironically vigorous, was so quiet to-day that she began to
-wonder whether it were dead; the old woman overhead made no sound; and
-all round the house lay the thick soft deadening pall of snow that
-muffled the country from Thames to Severn. She wished that Lovel had
-not gone out; disheartened though she now was, she still clung to the
-tormenting comfort of his presence; it was almost a consolation to see
-him suffering beside her. Since life held neither hope nor joy for
-either of them, let her in her own pain at least be able to sneer at
-the sight of his; let them be together in their separation. She grew
-frightened at the wildness and virulence of her thoughts. They were
-not so much thoughts, as impulses that floated a little crazily across
-her mind. She was not well to-day; it was not surprising; it was cruel
-of Nicholas to leave her alone. She stirred, and looked round,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_267" id="Page_267">[Pg 267]</a></span> saw
-no one, but fancied that eyes watched her. &#8220;Olver!&#8221; she cried out,
-although she had seen nothing.</p>
-
-<p>In a pause that followed her cry she breathed heavily, staring round
-with eyes that dared not flutter into a blink. Her eyeballs became
-tense and dry, her hands strained at the edge of the table. For all
-that she knew, her brother-in-law might have been in the room all the
-time; she was still startled by his soft appearances and vanishings,
-as by his sudden meaningless laughter, and by the arrows of shrewdness
-that would dart across his erratic brain. &#8220;Olver?&#8221; she whispered next,
-half-expecting him to answer from under her very feet, and little
-as she desired his company, she thought that any answer would be
-preferable to the continued silence in the room and to the doubt as to
-whether Olver was there or not.</p>
-
-<p>She was coming to the conclusion that her instinct had been a mistaken
-one, since five minutes had certainly elapsed while she stared and
-peered round the room, and she was about to relax from her strain of
-looking and listening for Olver, when she heard a faint tap on the
-window, and, looking round, she saw his face pressed against the window
-pane from outside. Her fright gave way to petulance; she called out
-to him to give over his tricks, and at the same time she beckoned
-imperiously to him to come into the house. Well-accustomed to him by
-now, she felt relief when he materialised out of the silence.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_268" id="Page_268">[Pg 268]</a></span> &#8220;How
-long had you been watching me?&#8221; she asked.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;That&#8217;s my secret,&#8221; he replied.</p>
-
-<p>She struggled, impatient of the little mysteries he liked to make.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Anyhow, Nicholas isn&#8217;t here,&#8221; she observed, turning away from Olver
-and tapping her fingers irritably upon the table.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t want Nicholas,&#8221; said Olver, &#8220;I want you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He came further into the room, while she looked at him in enquiry.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, you&#8217;ve found an old bird&#8217;s nest you want to show me,&#8221; she said
-disdainfully.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;That&#8217;s as far as you can think,&#8221; replied Olver with equal disdain. He
-came up to her. &#8220;Have you ever thought that there&#8217;s things you&#8217;ve no
-idea of going on all round you?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Why,&#8221; she said, fright again overtaking her, &#8220;that&#8217;s what I was
-thinking just now.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But you didn&#8217;t like to think too close on it?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No, perhaps I didn&#8217;t. Let me be, Olver; I&#8217;ve troubles enough without
-you moidering me.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And are you the only one to have troubles?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Let me be, Olver, I tell you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No, I won&#8217;t let you be. I&#8217;ve a grudge against you. I&#8217;ve thought it
-out.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m not well, Olver; keep your grudge till I&#8217;ve got my baby. Then I&#8217;ll
-have it out with you if I must.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You hadn&#8217;t any pity on Nicco.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, that&#8217;s how the land lies, is it?&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_269" id="Page_269">[Pg 269]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No use being brazen about it, Daisy. I&#8217;m here to speak for Nicco, and
-nothing you say&#8217;ll stop me.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;If you don&#8217;t let me be, I&#8217;ll tell Nicholas, and he&#8217;ll be angry with
-you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I&#8217;m not afraid of Nicco.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, yes, you are. We all are. Even me,&mdash;and I&#8217;m his wife.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;A pretty wife. Nicco can kill me if he likes; I&#8217;ll speak first. I know
-better what&#8217;s good for him than he knows himself. You&#8217;ve broken his
-heart.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Not me, Olver, not me only. His heart would have been broken anyhow.
-And God knows he&#8217;s breaking mine.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Who cares about yours? Nicco&#8217;s worth everything.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I know that, do you suppose I don&#8217;t know that? It&#8217;s making me mad,
-Olver. Can&#8217;t you have a little pity on me and leave me to myself?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I wouldn&#8217;t have any pity for you, not if you were dying.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, I shall be dying before very long, if that&#8217;s any consolation to
-you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You aren&#8217;t the sort that dies. Nicco&#8217;ll have you stuck to him for
-years; he&#8217;ll leave you before you leave him.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Don&#8217;t say that, Olver; he&#8217;s strong; different, but as strong as me.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, his body&#8217;s strong enough, but there&#8217;s something burns him away
-inside. Look at his eyes.&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_270" id="Page_270">[Pg 270]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Olver, don&#8217;t say such terrible things. What do you know? I never
-can tell how much you know,&mdash;you&#8217;re simple, aren&#8217;t you? He doesn&#8217;t
-complain. He doesn&#8217;t complain to you, does he?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;He&#8217;ll die, but he won&#8217;t have complained once. And we shall never know.
-He&#8217;s good to us both, isn&#8217;t he?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Good,&mdash;yes, he&#8217;s good; but you don&#8217;t understand, Olver, you needn&#8217;t
-rub it into me how good he is or how much he&#8217;s worth. I know it
-already, I love him so much it makes me sick and mad. It&#8217;s almost
-too much for me, what I have to put up with, what with one thing and
-another.... Now go away, can&#8217;t you? I&#8217;ve told you, I&#8217;ve admitted it all
-to you; I can&#8217;t put it more plainly.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;He&#8217;s good to you just as he&#8217;s good to me; he hasn&#8217;t a ha&#8217;pennyworth of
-feeling for you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I know, Olver, I know; can&#8217;t you leave me alone? I&#8217;m not well, I tell
-you; it isn&#8217;t the moment to come baiting me.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;There&#8217;s another woman he wanted....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You shan&#8217;t speak of her!&#8221; screamed Daisy.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, yes, I will,&#8221; said Olver, seizing her by the wrists. &#8220;Do you call
-to mind what you once told me, that you saw them together, and it
-seemed a week wasn&#8217;t enough for all they had to say? Where are they
-now. Three miles apart, yet they haven&#8217;t seen one another for six
-months,&mdash;from the time the Downs were green to the time the Downs are
-white. And do you <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_271" id="Page_271">[Pg 271]</a></span>suppose he&#8217;s left her for a moment in thought, or
-she left him? Not they. They used to slip together to the Kennet, those
-two, and they&#8217;ve been suddenly divided. And you whine to me because
-you&#8217;re unhappy. You say you&#8217;re not well. Not well! You! Who cares? You
-could whelp a litter and be none the worse, and you can stand a bit of
-unhappiness just as well as you can stand your baby. I&#8217;ve no pity for
-you. But Nicco,&mdash;he&#8217;ll break,&mdash;he&#8217;ll die inside.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Don&#8217;t, Olver, don&#8217;t; what&#8217;s the good of torturing me now. What can I
-do?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What can you do? You can clear out, can&#8217;t you? Go and have your baby
-in a ditch, somewhere where Nicco can never find you again,&#8221; he said
-brutally.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Where would be the good of that? She&#8217;s married herself, Miss Warrener
-is, and I love Nicco, I keep on telling you; I can&#8217;t give him up,&#8221;
-cried Daisy, confused and hunted to the last extremity; and she thought
-of something she could say to Olver, something which would either
-silence him or else force him to throw down all his cards upon the
-table, &#8220;Whose fault is it, anyhow, that Nicco had to marry me, to save
-me from the shame his own brother brought upon me?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You think you can trick me like you tricked him,&#8221; cried Olver,
-horrible with rage. &#8220;Why don&#8217;t you say the shame Peter Gorwyn brought
-on you? You might be a little nearer the mark.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Peter Gorwyn?&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_272" id="Page_272">[Pg 272]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>They faced one another, all civilisation gone from them. They struck
-blindly at one another, keeping nothing back.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I saw you, oh, I saw you, the day of the Scouring.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I loved Nicco, I do love him; I had to have him!&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;<i>You</i> love him?&mdash;you&#8217;re killing him.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;He couldn&#8217;t have got Miss Warrener,&mdash;not with a brother like you. Do
-you hear? &#8217;Tisn&#8217;t me that keeps him from her; it&#8217;s you, you, you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Me?&#8221; shouted Olver.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You, did you never think of that before? It doesn&#8217;t matter whether
-my baby is your baby or Peter Gorwyn&#8217;s baby. It&#8217;s you that spoil his
-life for him, you and your mother, you mischievous dolt, and your dirty
-blood in him. He&#8217;s tainted, and he knows it. &#8217;Tisn&#8217;t me. I came long
-after; I&#8217;m just an extra. &#8217;Tis you and your mother destroyed him, from
-the day he was born.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She clasped her hands suddenly to her side and fell back on to her
-chair.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You&#8217;ve done for me,&#8221; she groaned.</p>
-
-<p>The door opened and Lovel stood upon the threshold. Olver ran to him,
-touching him all over with his hands, reaching up to pass his hands
-even over his brother&#8217;s head.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Look at her, Nicco; she&#8217;s tricked you, the brat isn&#8217;t mine, it&#8217;s Peter
-Gorwyn&#8217;s, and she says &#8217;tis I that kept you from Miss Warrener. Why
-don&#8217;t you kill her, Nicco? and I&#8217;ll go right away<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_273" id="Page_273">[Pg 273]</a></span> if it&#8217;s true; I love
-you better than she does; you shall have Miss Warrener.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What&#8217;s all this?&#8221; said Lovel. He put Olver&#8217;s passionate fumbling hands
-aside, and went over to Daisy. &#8220;You&#8217;re ill,&#8221; he said in a practical
-voice; &#8220;What is it? has Olver hurt you?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You heard what he said,&#8221; she replied, looking up at him with terrified
-and pain-racked eyes.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Never mind about that. Are you ill? Let me help you up.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;She&#8217;s tricked you, Nicco,&#8221; cried Olver, fawning round him.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Hold your tongue, Olver; she&#8217;s in pain. You poor fool, why didn&#8217;t you
-tell me? Heaven knows if I can get to Marlborough through this snow
-with darkness coming on. Lean on me, I&#8217;ll take you upstairs. Lean on
-me; never mind anything else.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Olver was pulling frantically at him.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Is it true, Nicco? is it me? Oh, my poor Nicco,&mdash;first me and then
-her,&mdash;what can I do?&mdash;but I&#8217;ll do something,&mdash;I&#8217;ll find something to
-do,&mdash;oh, my head, my heart.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;The pain, the pain!&#8221; cried Daisy.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Lean on me,&#8221; said Lovel, putting his arm round her.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Gorwyn&#8217;s child!&#8221; screamed Olver in a frenzy. He followed them to the
-foot of the stairs, where he stumbled and fell on the lowermost step,
-still calling incoherently after Lovel, who was persuading his wife up
-to her room, saying <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_274" id="Page_274">[Pg 274]</a></span>meanwhile, &#8220;Lean on me, Daisy, I won&#8217;t let you
-fall, don&#8217;t be afraid, it&#8217;ll all be over soon.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">The word was quickly passed down the village street that Daisy Lovel&#8217;s
-time was come, and that Lovel begged the kindness of some charitable
-woman to remain near his wife while he rode to Marlborough in search
-of the midwife. &#8220;There&#8217;s a chance for somebody,&#8221; said one woman, &#8220;to
-see the inside of that house for herself.&#8221; &#8220;And there&#8217;s a come-down
-for Gipsy Lovel,&#8221; said another, &#8220;to have to beg for one of us to go
-into his place. Where would he be if we all refused?&#8221; &#8220;Her time come
-already? and she married,&mdash;let me see,&mdash;four, five months, is it?&#8221; said
-a third. But in spite of these and other scornful remarks, volunteers
-were forthcoming, and even those who had lagged most behind, or who had
-recommended that Lovel be left to suffer now the penalty of his years
-of unneighbourliness, watched enviously the departure of Mrs. Blagdon
-for the house of mystery and evil legend. They saw her received at the
-door by Lovel, drawn in and swallowed up, as to their imagination Daisy
-herself had been swallowed up on the day of her wedding.</p>
-
-<p>They continued, however, to observe Lovel&#8217;s house for some time,
-glancing at intervals between the lace curtains which decked their
-own windows, and saw a light spring up in the room they assumed to be
-Daisy&#8217;s, and a gigantic shadow passing to and fro upon the blind.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_275" id="Page_275">[Pg 275]</a></span>
-Evening had come, swiftly to be followed by night; the snow had
-begun to fall again in large flakes; very soon the street was white,
-unbroken by footmarks, since every soul was within doors. The women
-idly watching between their curtains saw Lovel emerge from his house,
-close the door behind him, and pass down the alley between two houses
-to the shed where he kept his horse. They saw him emerge again, leading
-the horse; they saw him swing himself into the saddle and ride away,
-his coat collar turned up high against the snow, tall and spare as he
-disappeared silently into the thick dusk. The women said, &#8220;He&#8217;s off to
-Marlborough to find the midwife. Things can&#8217;t be going,&#8221; they added
-with relish, &#8220;as well as they should.&#8221; The men only growled, &#8220;He must
-be crazed to think he can find the road to Marlborough on a night like
-this; he&#8217;ll break his own neck and his horse&#8217;s legs.&#8221; But the women had
-a curious faith in Lovel&#8217;s efficiency.</p>
-
-<p>Few village confinements were honoured with so much interest. The
-darkness in the street was now intense, heightened by the snow that
-continued to float down in large, soft flakes; only the little yellow
-lights in the windows broke it, all on the ground-floor level but for
-the significant exception of Daisy&#8217;s window, whose lighted rectangle
-on the upper storey threw its beams out against the falling snow. All
-was silent in the Lovels&#8217; house; ever Mrs. Blagdon seemed to have
-fallen into the clandestine habits of her<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_276" id="Page_276">[Pg 276]</a></span> hosts, for she had not
-once run out across the street in an interval for a moment&#8217;s gossip
-with a neighbour; only the shadow passed upon the blind, enormous and
-suggestive, to show that any life stirred within the house. The snow
-fell thicker; the few black holes left by the hoofs of Lovel&#8217;s horse
-had been long since blotted out, and Lovel himself had disappeared into
-the night as completely as though he had no intention of ever coming
-back. Hours had passed, suppers were finished and cleared away in all
-the little lighted kitchens, still the good wives were reluctant to
-move upstairs to bed, while careful to conceal their reluctance from
-the men. And Mrs. Blagdon, when she finally threw up a window in spite
-of the steely cold, to call out in an irritable and impatient voice,
-&#8220;Anybody seen anything of Lovel?&#8221; was answered by a dozen voices in
-negation.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;How&#8217;s things, Mrs. Blagdon?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Turned round the wrong way,&#8221; came the reply laconically.</p>
-
-<p>The street fell back into its silence after the small disturbance.
-Women who had been through the experience gave a moment&#8217;s pity
-to Daisy. Gorwyn, the smith, knocking out his pipe against his
-hearthstone, reiterated the opinion that Lovel would not be seen again
-that night. Peter, his son, stirred uneasily. &#8220;Is it all up with her,
-would you think, mother?&#8221; But Mrs. Gorwyn was contemptuous. &#8220;Lord, no;
-a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_277" id="Page_277">[Pg 277]</a></span> solid girl like Daisy&#8217;d stand a deal more than that.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">Country news, that most unaccountable traveller, spread even to
-Starvecrow in its isolation. Mrs. Quince was full of it,&mdash;she who
-towards Clare had kept herself so very prim and respectfully reserved.
-&#8220;You will remember, madam, the girl you saw in the attic bedroom here,
-Daisy Morland by name?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I remember perfectly, Mrs. Quince; what of her?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You will remember she was stitching at some baby-linen,&mdash;she was
-married to that good-for-nothing Lovel,&mdash;Gipsy Lovel, they call him,&mdash;a
-fortnight later,&mdash;a matter of three weeks before you were married
-yourself, madam.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes, Mrs. Quince?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;She was brought to bed of a son in the early hours of this morning,
-madam,&#8221; said Mrs. Quince importantly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Really. I hope she is well?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well enough; these country girls make nothing of it. Lightly born
-as lightly come by, I always say. Yet at one time it was a question
-whether they could save the baby.&#8221; Mrs. Quince added some details.
-&#8220;Yes, madam. Her husband had to ride to Marlborough and brought the
-doctor out a-pillion, and how he could ha&#8217; done it with the night as
-black as pitch, and the snow falling, and the roads hedge-deep in
-snow,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_278" id="Page_278">[Pg 278]</a></span> is what the folk are all asking themselves. They saw him start,
-but no one saw him come back, but sure enough when they went to unbar
-their doors this morning there were the tracks of a horse up the
-street. A fine boy, they say. It&#8217;s fortunate he hasn&#8217;t taken after his
-Uncle Olver.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes,&#8221; said Clare.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;It&#8217;s my opinion, madam, I don&#8217;t know if it&#8217;s yours too,&mdash;that people
-like that have no business to get children. &#8217;Tisn&#8217;t fair, as a matter
-of conscience, when you don&#8217;t know what dark blood you may be handing
-on. Anybody has only got to look at the Lovels to know there&#8217;s no good
-in them,&mdash;well, they ought to restrain themselves, that&#8217;s what I say.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Seeing that Clare did not reply, Mrs. Quince resumed after a moment,
-&#8220;There always were things about those Lovels that weren&#8217;t natural. Now
-here&#8217;s another thing: how did he ride from King&#8217;s Avon to Marlborough
-and back on a night like last night, if something unholy wasn&#8217;t in
-league with him? No other man in the village could have done it, and
-there&#8217;s not many that would have tried. No, let the baby go, they&#8217;d
-have said, and the woman too, if need be. And he&#8217;s always out on those
-hills; if he had to go after sheep there would be some sense in it, but
-he just goes straying alone when most men are glad enough to keep their
-fireside. He&#8217;s been seen on the top of White Horse Hill, in the middle
-of a blizzard fit to cut you in half. And I have heard it told, that
-after he&#8217;s passed by,<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_279" id="Page_279">[Pg 279]</a></span> the Grey Wethers have been found uncovered; yes,
-even though they were at the bottom of the deepest drift there they&#8217;ll
-be, sticking up black in the middle of the snow.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You can&#8217;t believe everything you&#8217;re told, Mrs. Quince.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, that&#8217;s as it may be, madam. All the same, I stick to it that
-there is something unholy about those Lovels; it&#8217;s easy to say the
-younger one is daft, but there&#8217;s nothing daft about Nicholas,&mdash;far from
-it. So why does he look so dark and queer? and why must he pass on his
-sly Egyptian blood to an English girl? if he must get children, let him
-get them on one of his own sort, that&#8217;s what I say.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Here Calladine came in.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Secrets?&#8221; he asked in his most urbane manner, seeing Mrs. Quince
-become silent in the midst of garrulity.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; said Clare. &#8220;Mrs. Quince was telling me that Lovel&#8217;s wife has had
-a son, and that Lovel had to go to Marlborough in the middle of the
-night to fetch the doctor.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Dear me, that&#8217;s a daring, uncomfortable thing to do,&#8221; said Calladine,
-smiling in a patronising way.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes,&#8221; said Clare, looking at him. &#8220;Not many people would have cared
-for the job, I think.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Calladine laughed negligently.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You always had a weakness for your poacher,&#8221; he replied. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_280" id="Page_280">[Pg 280]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Would you be wanting me any more, madam?&#8221; enquired Mrs. Quince.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;If Lovel&#8217;s wife is in need of anything I can send her, please let me
-know, Mrs. Quince.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes, madam. Very good of you, madam.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>When the housekeeper had left the room, Calladine said, &#8220;I never
-question your actions, as you know, Clare, but do you think it
-judicious to encourage these people? The woman was married not very
-long before ourselves, yet she already gives birth to a baby; the man
-is well-known as an undesirable in the whole neighbourhood.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare went up to him. &#8220;Oh, Richard,&#8221; she cried gaily, &#8220;are they worth
-talking about any longer?&#8221; She pushed him down into his armchair and
-knelt at his feet. &#8220;What are we going to do to-day, tell me?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;To do?&#8221; repeated Calladine in surprise. &#8220;Why, what is there that
-we could possibly do on a day like this? What a restless spirit it
-is&mdash;always crying out to be up and doing&mdash;when I am quite content if I
-may sit and look into your eyes.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;That&#8217;s very pretty, Richard, but it doesn&#8217;t mean much; don&#8217;t you ever
-want to be out, moving, riding, anything! anything but sit cooped
-indoors day after day with books?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I confess I haven&#8217;t much desire to be riding into snow-drifts on this
-particular morning,&#8221; said Calladine, glancing at the white-and-leaden
-prospect out of the window. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_281" id="Page_281">[Pg 281]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And you wouldn&#8217;t allow me to do so either, if I had a mind to?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Such a wild child!&#8221; said Calladine fondly, stroking her hair. &#8220;How
-fortunate that you should have a staid, elderly husband to look after
-you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;How do you think I looked after myself for nineteen years, then,
-Richard?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Heaven knows,&#8221; said Calladine in mock dismay; banter with Clare was
-a form of conversation he particularly enjoyed. The morning promised
-to pass agreeably; there was nothing he liked better than for Clare
-to kneel at his feet, as she was doing now, sitting back on her
-heels, while he looked at her fresh youthfulness with that fond and
-tender glance of his, and rallied her gently, or caressed her with
-the courtly phrases she had heard from him alone among men. &#8220;How
-<i>did</i> you look after yourself?&#8221; he repeated. &#8220;You always escaped from
-old Martha Sparrow, and even the poacher cannot always have been at
-hand for a ready rescue, and in any case he is scarcely my idea of a
-knight-errant.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; said Clare, &#8220;he hasn&#8217;t such pretty manners as you, Richard.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Now you&#8217;re laughing at me,&mdash;are you, or aren&#8217;t you? I never know,&#8221; and
-he caught her to him and began flecking her face and hair with quick
-kisses, but desisted to say more seriously, &#8220;You&#8217;re so exquisitely a
-woman, Clare, so deliciously a child; I realised that you were both<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_282" id="Page_282">[Pg 282]</a></span>
-from the day you first came to visit me here.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>The phrase had a vague echo of familiarity for Clare; &#8220;so exquisitely
-a woman&#8221;; she felt sure that she had heard him say that, or something
-very like it, before; and she thought with the hardness that was
-becoming habitual to her where he was concerned, that from no woman
-would he demand anything further.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What a toy I am to you, Richard,&#8221; she said idly; &#8220;what a toy you like
-to make of me.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;The most exquisite toy that ever came into the life of a sad and
-lonely man,&#8221; he said, with a return to his old manner, and he took her
-hand and began to play with the bangle on her wrist. He handled her
-much as he would handle his terra-cotta statuettes, and for a while she
-endured it, but presently sprang away and went to stand at the window
-where she might look out upon the prospect of shining snow.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Always looking out, Clare? what liberty do you see out there? you
-think I ought to let you go, little caged bird, but you would soon
-perish,&mdash;your pretty limbs wouldn&#8217;t stand the cold,&mdash;better stay
-happily where you are, believe me,&mdash;don&#8217;t fret,&mdash;come back to me,&mdash;let
-me whisper how precious you are,&mdash;come back to our lovely idleness.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But I don&#8217;t like idleness, Richard; no use pretending I do; you should
-not have married some one so restless as I.&#8221; His hands were upon her
-shoulders; she wanted to shake them off. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_283" id="Page_283">[Pg 283]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Did the poacher ...&#8221; began Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Ah, leave Lovel alone,&#8221; she cried; &#8220;what impels you to speak of him
-this morning? Leave him alone, with his wife and his baby; they can
-very well look after themselves without any interest from us.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But, Clare, Mrs. Quince was speaking of them; it&#8217;s only natural that
-my thoughts should continue to run in that direction; and even you
-yourself....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You&#8217;re fascinated by the subject of Lovel,&#8221; she said, whirling
-round on him, &#8220;now, aren&#8217;t you? own to it. You always bring him in:
-the Downs, the circus, and now his baby,&mdash;everything&#8217;s an excuse
-for bringing in Lovel. And why? Is it because he took me out of the
-circus-tent that night? is it because I rode with him? why not speak
-out what&#8217;s at the back of your mind?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But, Clare, Clare! why so fierce and challenging suddenly? there&#8217;s
-nothing at the back of my mind.&#8221; (&#8220;There is,&#8221; she thought, &#8220;and you too
-great a coward to face it out.&#8221;) &#8220;Come now, don&#8217;t let us quarrel and we
-won&#8217;t speak of Lovel if it offends you,&mdash;will that satisfy you?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;It&#8217;s of no importance whether we speak of a man in the village or
-not,&#8221; she said, turning away and hunching her shoulders.</p>
-
-<p>They went back to sit by the fire, a bulk of hostility unspoken
-between them. Calladine felt peevish; his indolent, graceful, vaguely
-amorous morning had been spoilt; and spoilt by what?<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_284" id="Page_284">[Pg 284]</a></span> by the presence
-of Lovel. &#8220;You&#8217;ve never yet shaken off that lean rogue,&#8221; he broke
-out once, sudden and querulous after a spell of silence. They both
-sat staring into the fire, separate as they could be. They had not
-previously spoken of Lovel, not directly, not insistently; only to
-range round him with that nagging, niggling hesitation that seemed to
-pull at Calladine. But now his presence blocked every other road of
-conversation; he got in the way, he was near, he could not be got rid
-of. Almost, he was in the room.</p>
-
-<p>Calladine looked at Clare; fair and slight, delicate even, but so
-unafraid. A touch, and she was instantly up and all-daring. She kindled
-at a spark. What was it that she and Lovel had in common? the same
-apparent frailty of body, the same flame of spirit,&mdash;Calladine had all
-the lyricism to clothe his perceptions with words. He had apprehended
-Lovel; on the rare occasion when he had seen him, he had apprehended
-him fully, to his own disquietude. And he apprehended Clare and
-their resemblance, with pain and resentment. They were two fine and
-vulnerable things, he thought; vulnerable and brave. But he thought it
-with only half of his brain, the lyrical, romantic half; with the other
-half he was peevish and irritated.</p>
-
-<p>If only they were not so silent; Clare had never faltered or
-complained. Only she had wanted to go out; she had looked out of the
-window with a kind of homesickness. He was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_285" id="Page_285">[Pg 285]</a></span> always catching her eyes
-at their straying, and being made aware how far removed she was from
-himself. But this, again, had been with half of his brain; with the
-other half he had known that she was his wife and that he had got her
-under his roof. And he had not allowed his lyrical self to call her a
-prisoner.</p>
-
-<p>What if she were to escape? He would be without persuasion or authority.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You stay with me out of apathy,&#8221; he cried. &#8220;If once your fancy
-changed, you would be gone.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare, who had not been thinking of him, turned a mild glance of slight
-attention on him. He was glaring at her, frightened and angry.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes,&#8221; he continued, &#8220;I don&#8217;t hold you; you&#8217;re kind to me, and you
-indulge my game of pretence. But you&#8217;re not really here. You&#8217;re
-indulgent to me as if I were a child,&mdash;&#8216;yes, dear, very nice,&#8217; between
-your own, grown-up preoccupations. But you ought to remember that I am
-your husband,&#8221; he said.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;When have I forgotten it?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He sulked. It was true she had not forgotten it. He had no reproaches
-against her; she had been patient, gentle.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t hold you,&#8221; he grumbled.</p>
-
-<p>It was a long time since she had seen him like this; usually he was
-assertive and complacent. How slight a thing it took to disturb him!
-His complacency was only a façade, a painted hoarding propped up by
-struts,&mdash;theatrical, like <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_286" id="Page_286">[Pg 286]</a></span>everything else about him. But she really
-bothered very little with him, now that she had found him out.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, yes, Richard,&#8221; she said, to pacify him and to be done with the
-argument.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But I say no,&#8221; he cried, hitting his fist on the arm of his chair.
-&#8220;You&#8217;re for ever looking out of the window, and sometimes when I speak
-to you, you answer beside the point. I married you to get a wife, not a
-woman languishing like a captive in my house.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She laughed at that, quite amusedly, and he felt he had been foolish.
-Still he would not abandon his point.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;That fellow would only have to beckon ...&#8221; he grumbled.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Lovel again?&#8221; asked Clare.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You enjoy saying his name.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I do not,&#8221; said Clare quietly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; he said, staring at her, &#8220;perhaps you do not.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Perhaps she did not. Perhaps the very name was pain to her. But he must
-go wrangling on at her.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Lovel wouldn&#8217;t keep you indoors, perhaps you think.&mdash;He would let you
-out into the snow,&mdash;take you out into it himself perhaps.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She only looked at him. He went on, more judicial now; deliberate, less
-blatantly bad-tempered.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yet, after all, I don&#8217;t know why you hold such a good opinion of
-this fellow Lovel. He<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_287" id="Page_287">[Pg 287]</a></span> sticks to no trade,&mdash;he gets a country girl
-into trouble and has to marry her,&mdash;not a very creditable record, it
-seems to me.&#8221; He was leaning back in his chair, with his finger-tips
-together. &#8220;And, judging by his stock, he has no right to beget
-sons,&mdash;better if he did not associate with women at all,&mdash;such people
-should be allowed to die out.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;So Mrs. Quince was saying. Perhaps he feels the same himself,&#8221; said
-Clare in a contained voice.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;It looks like it! a child born after four months of marriage. I
-am bound to say, my dear, your suggestion isn&#8217;t very convincing.
-But there, what should you know of the lusts of these country young
-men? Animals, merely. Forgive me if I seem self-righteous. I feel
-strongly,&mdash;very strongly.&#8221; He leaned forward and patted her. &#8220;You can
-understand that I don&#8217;t like to think of my Clare contaminated by such
-company.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You mean Lovel?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Most certainly I mean Lovel.&mdash;Why do you look at me so darkly, Clare?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Did I look at you darkly? I didn&#8217;t mean to. My thoughts were far away.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And where....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Ah, Richard, mayn&#8217;t I have my thoughts to myself?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;By all means, Clare. I hope, my dear, that no one has ever accused
-me of being a tyrant. Of course your thoughts are your own.&mdash;But<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_288" id="Page_288">[Pg 288]</a></span> you
-don&#8217;t resent, do you, the things I have been saying of Lovel?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I am only tired of the whole subject.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes,&mdash;of course,&mdash;naturally,&mdash;I quite understand that. Mrs. Quince is
-an old gossip. I must tell her that it really doesn&#8217;t interest you to
-be informed every time a woman in the village has a baby. It doesn&#8217;t
-does it?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No, of course not,&mdash;but don&#8217;t say anything to Mrs. Quince, I beg you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But I can&#8217;t have my wife bothered by my old gossip of a housekeeper. I
-daresay she meant it well, thinking you were interested in Lovel.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Richard, please,&mdash;let us leave Lovel now,&mdash;I shall begin to scream if
-I hear his name mentioned again, I warn you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Clare. You try to joke, but the idea of saying that wouldn&#8217;t come into
-your head if there were not some truth in it.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, I told you I was tired of the subject.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You are talking now like an irritable woman.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Am I? But I <i>am</i> a woman, and not a man, and therefore I daresay as
-irritable as all other women.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You mean that men can be every whit as irritable,&mdash;myself, for
-example.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Now you are putting words into my mouth that I never said. Is it a
-guilty conscience, Richard?&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_289" id="Page_289">[Pg 289]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You persist in joking when I want you to be serious!&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, Richard, what a childish conversation. Instead of sitting here and
-talking, let us....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, what? Let us what?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Nothing, I&#8217;ve thought better of it.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Let us go out, you were going to say. Always the same folly! Have you
-any idea of the depth of the snow? Out, indeed!&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I never said it.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No, but you thought it.&mdash;Ah, if I say that, you will ask again if you
-mayn&#8217;t have your thoughts to yourself. There are moments when I don&#8217;t
-know how to deal with you, Clare.&#8221; He knew his own injustice, but his
-querulous jealousy pricked him on. &#8220;Any other woman would be content to
-sit by her own fireside this bitter day with the man she had married so
-short a time ago.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Four months,&mdash;getting on for half a year.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I see,&mdash;you have found the time long. If you entered a little more
-into my interests, instead of having your own thoughts to yourself so
-much, my dear, perhaps you would find it pass quicker, and it would be
-more companionable.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare thought that he looked at her almost with hatred. She was herself
-too indifferent to be interested either one way or the other.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I shall be glad when this accursed snow is melted and gone,&#8221; he added,
-&#8220;and you will perhaps be a little less restless.&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_290" id="Page_290">[Pg 290]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>At that moment Mrs. Quince came in, looking perturbed.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;There is Olver Lovel downstairs, madam, asking to see you,&mdash;I didn&#8217;t
-know what to say,&mdash;he seems so bent upon it,&mdash;but he looks like a
-scarecrow, that he does, with his coat torn and his hat stove in, and
-bits of straw all over him as though he had spent the night sleeping in
-a barn.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare rose.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Where is he, Mrs. Quince?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Calladine started forward with a detaining hand.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No, Clare, you can&#8217;t see this man,&mdash;let me speak to him first,&mdash;at
-least it&#8217;s not right, not safe, for you to see him.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And he says he must speak to Mrs. Calladine alone, sir,&#8221; Mrs. Quince
-put in.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Of course I shall see him,&#8221; said Clare.</p>
-
-<p>Calladine grew agitated. &#8220;Mrs. Quince, you need not wait; please leave
-the room. Now, Clare, understand: it is against my wishes that you see
-this man. Let me go down and find out what he wants, and then if I find
-that he is quiet and reasonable I will allow you to interview him in my
-presence. He has probably come to beg, in which case I can give him a
-few shillings as well as you can, and send him away.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare faced him. &#8220;Please let me pass, Richard; I am sorry to do
-anything against your wishes, but I intend to speak to Olver,&mdash;and
-alone.&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_291" id="Page_291">[Pg 291]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Let me make myself quite clear: it is not only against my wishes, but,
-since my wishes fail to touch you, also against my orders.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I am sorry, Richard, but I mean what I said.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He blustered; she remained quiet; in their first encounter he was no
-match for her.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You disobey me deliberately, then?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;This is a case in which I must use my own judgment.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You will not expect me to receive you back into my favour afterwards.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She smiled a little.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Really, Richard, I am afraid I must take the risk of that.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Go, then,&#8221; he said, stepping dramatically aside, &#8220;go, in direct
-defiance.&#8221; Still he did not quite expect her to flout his authority,
-and remained amazed when she passed him and went swiftly out of the
-room.</p>
-
-<p>Left to himself, he made a movement to follow her, but drew back. Let
-her go, to her Lovels and her secret life: he had never really held
-her. Let her go, to the summons which had come, and to which she had
-so instantly responded. He himself, from the moment Olver Lovel&#8217;s name
-had been pronounced, had dwindled to nullity; he had ceased, on the
-spot, to exist for her. All these months, she had lived with him, a
-stranger, away from her kind. And he recalled Mrs. Quince&#8217;s description
-of Olver,&mdash;&#8220;he looks like a scarecrow, that he does,&#8221;&mdash;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_292" id="Page_292">[Pg 292]</a></span>this emissary
-from Nicholas Lovel to his, Calladine&#8217;s wife.</p>
-
-<p>Calladine strode up and down the room. She was downstairs now with
-Olver; what was he saying to her? What was in the future, haunted by
-the presence of Lovel as the past had never been? How should they
-ever get rid of Lovel now, standing between them? That uncomfortable
-presence of Lovel in the past, at which Calladine had pecked and
-nagged, was nothing to his dominion over the future. Surely he had been
-mad not to take Clare&#8217;s acquaintance with the poacher as a matter of
-course? mad to harass her as he had harassed her that morning? By his
-own folly he had created the spectre, the giant, of the situation. He
-strode up and down, hitting fist against palm in his vexation. Then he
-grew afraid; what if the poacher should not restrict his poaching to
-game alone? What if he should entice Clare by the occult powers with
-which the countryside credited him? Occult powers, or human powers, it
-was all one. Calladine felt his helplessness; he was weak, wordy, he
-could be set aside. They would set him aside, those two.</p>
-
-<p>He was an ill-used man. Self-pity nearly brought tears to his eyes.
-Life used him ill: first the woman who had fooled him, now Clare.
-Clare&#8217;s kindness to him had been a dalliance, while she had nothing
-better to do; it had evaporated at the mention of a name. He hated
-her, he hated Lovel, he hated the Downs and the<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_293" id="Page_293">[Pg 293]</a></span> snow. Glittering and
-cold, without compromise; he did not understand the Downs and the
-winter, but Clare and Lovel understood them. What was Olver saying to
-Clare? Calladine felt his life finished; and through his perfectly
-genuine anguish he did not fail to perceive the romantic value of his
-situation. He fell into a chair, and remained there with his legs
-extended as he gazed despondently on the floor before him.</p>
-
-<p>Clare would tell him nothing. He foresaw that, and his foresight
-was justified. She came back, immeasurably far removed from him. He
-wanted to ignore her return, to remain stiff with dignity, but it was
-not long before his curiosity weakened him. &#8220;Well, you are not very
-communicative. I see that you have no desire to make amends for the
-distress you have caused me. Was the poacher&#8217;s message, then, too
-sacred,&mdash;too personal,&mdash;to be imparted to me?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare&#8217;s eyes, when she turned them on him, were narrowed with pain.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Richard, must you ask me questions now? I have come back to you; I ask
-you only to leave me to myself.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>But that was precisely what he could not do.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You ask a good deal, don&#8217;t you, in asking that? I see you white and
-shaken, yet I am not to know the cause. You ask a good deal of my
-forbearance, indeed. I am not to know what messages another man sends
-you. I am not to know what is going on, nearly under my nose, but kept
-away from me. I am to be defied by<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_294" id="Page_294">[Pg 294]</a></span> my wife, and then kept in ignorance
-by her. This is the state of affairs we have come to in one short
-morning! What has happened to us? it bewilders me.... I insist upon
-knowing,&mdash;I <i>will</i> know,&mdash;has that half-wit come to you with a message
-from his brother?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; said Clare.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;How you have to force even that one monosyllable from your lips!
-What, he came on his own initiative? Clare, you are not speaking the
-truth.&mdash;Yes, I am sure you are; I beg your pardon. You distract me by
-your coldness. Clare, forgive me, I scarcely knew what I was saying.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Don&#8217;t touch me,&#8221; said Clare, recoiling, &#8220;for pity&#8217;s sake don&#8217;t touch
-me now.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I am a very unhappy man,&#8221; said Calladine, falling again into his
-chair and taking his head between his hands. &#8220;I am indeed an unhappy
-man,&mdash;what am I to do with my life?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He remained for some time with his head sunk between his hands, then,
-glancing up to see what effect his attitude might have had upon Clare,
-he found her gazing out of the window.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I see,&mdash;you forget my very presence,&#8221; he said reproachfully, and his
-sense of injury was doubled. But because his distress was genuine,
-although he could not refrain from rhetoric, he followed her across the
-room in a tormented way, and tried to see into her face. &#8220;Clare, speak
-to me; I am not angry, only unhappy. There is<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_295" id="Page_295">[Pg 295]</a></span> something now in your
-mind which I do not share; you live in a half-hour which is secret from
-me.&mdash;Or have you always,&#8221; he cried suddenly, &#8220;lived in hours I knew
-nothing of?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Mrs. Quince peeped in through the door.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Ah, that&#8217;s good,&#8221; she said in a relieved tone; &#8220;I wasn&#8217;t easy so long
-as I thought Mrs. Calladine was with that scamp,&#8221; and she retired.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Even the servants, you see, Clare, are concerned for you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Mrs. Quince, far from being concerned,&#8221; Clare said, returning briefly
-to a consciousness of Calladine and of the house that held her, &#8220;is
-full of delight.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Clare, these bitter words from you! you are changed indeed, or am I
-seeing you as you are for the first time? I begin to look back at these
-four months as at a long delusion; I am utterly bewildered. You are
-withdrawn to an unbelievable distance from me; I feel it, yet I cannot
-say what has taken place. This morning, we were close to one another;
-we were, as it seemed, enclosed by our little room, leisured, snug,
-sheltered; now, I am striving to reach you, and am held off.&#8221; His words
-beat without meaning against Clare&#8217;s isolation; she could not emerge at
-all from the tumult of the terrible scene she had endured from Olver.
-She looked, indeed, at Calladine, intently, as though she were trying
-to bring herself back to the importance of his world, but her eyes were
-empty. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_296" id="Page_296">[Pg 296]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>The day dragged away; Calladine continued to clamour fitfully. He could
-not leave her alone, and, though she clearly suffered, he, perverse,
-must torment her. By adding to her pain, he added to his own, but could
-not desist. She answered him very little; a negative, an affirmative
-now and then, was all he could get from her; for her part, all that she
-wished was that his voice might cease, so that she might have a lull,
-a silence, alone with her own mind. Yet it seemed to her that she had,
-indeed, a silence at the core of her being, still and inviolate against
-his ineffectual clamour, like the stillness in the heart of a cyclone,
-where birds poise and sing. At this core, this kernel, this patch of
-peace, she dwelt apart; Lovel was there, and so was Olver, Olver with
-the urgent hands and fanatical eyes, passing from Lovel to her and
-from her to Lovel, almost crushing them up against one another by the
-force of his urgency, Olver&#8217;s determination was like a menace, becoming
-almost malevolent by virtue of its very violence. He overwhelmed, he
-terrified her; she had nothing but weak refusal; she had tried to push
-him away with hands that had no strength in them. She had covered
-her eyes, but he had forced away her hands; she had shut her ears,
-but he had screamed past her defences. It was easy to remain deaf to
-Calladine&#8217;s whining; it had been impossible to shut out the ferocity
-of Olver&#8217;s attack. And yet, in spite of the din, she was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_297" id="Page_297">[Pg 297]</a></span> aware of
-that core of silence, in which she and Lovel were, with Olver rushing
-between.</p>
-
-<p>She and Calladine, Lovel and Daisy, there they were, the four of them,
-all separate; and Olver, like a firebrand, a trail of fire, working
-between them. They might have had some control, the four, but for this
-crazy creature, obsessed by the one idea, not to be reasoned with. He
-was the incalculable element; he made the others helpless, taking their
-intentions out of their hands and throwing them away.</p>
-
-<p>The danger of Olver,&mdash;what if he should see Calladine? What if he
-should irrupt into the room and shout irreparable words before she had
-time to stop him? The danger of Olver,&mdash;what had he said to Lovel?
-what to Lovel&#8217;s wife? But Calladine and Lovel&#8217;s wife alike remained
-insignificant; she and Lovel were the two full of meaning, shut up with
-the wild, charging Olver in their core of silence.</p>
-
-<p>Vaguely somewhere, she was sorry for Calladine, but he was
-insignificant; she could not pause to consider him; where she and Lovel
-came together, he faded into that poor wisp drained of blood, that he
-had dwindled to on the evening of the circus fire, when she and Lovel
-had stood together on the embankment. They shed him; he slipped off,
-and only his noise reached them intermittently, scarcely troublesome.</p>
-
-<p>Daisy herself was less unreal than Calladine; Daisy knew suffering too,
-Clare supposed; in a<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_298" id="Page_298">[Pg 298]</a></span> clumsy, common way she knew it; blundering, but
-human; yes, she could be sorry for the other woman.</p>
-
-<p>But they must be sacrificed, the two, Calladine and Daisy, if matters
-came to a head; sacrificed to the blazing reality of herself and Lovel.</p>
-
-<p>Would Olver come again? Would he leave her alone now? Would he give her
-a chance to forget the words he had spoken? some of them remained, rang
-in her head, brassy, like beaten gongs; fell on her like big sparks
-from an anvil, burning. It had been a strange experience, to hear Olver
-voice the passion that had upreared itself, always mute, in Lovel.</p>
-
-<p>Olver came again. He came like an avenging angel, inspired, the crazed
-creature, by the urgency of his message. Like a reproachful angel he
-came to rebuke her, grotesquely disguised in his scarecrow travesty;
-the beauty of his selflessness shone through the ramshackle of his
-appearance. She scarcely knew whether to find him pathetic or alarming;
-she wanted to pity, she could only be disturbed; he disturbed her to
-the darkest places of her soul. The fixity of his idea, the strength
-of his purpose, his devotion, his anger, raised his simplicity to the
-plane of nobleness. She could not answer him; she was abashed before
-him.</p>
-
-<p>She was afraid of him, his image pursued her, his upraised hand
-denouncing her, his eyes and tongue pouring scorn upon her. At moments
-he seemed like fate itself, like a thing she could<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_299" id="Page_299">[Pg 299]</a></span> not escape from.
-She never knew at what hour of the day he would come, so all day,
-sometimes for two or three days on end, she waited, dreading and
-longing for his coming. She could have refused to see him, but had not
-the strength; but when she must crush Calladine&#8217;s protests, then she
-had strength in plenty.</p>
-
-<p>The snow lay deeper than ever, after another heavy fall, upon the
-Downs, but although still a prisoner her restlessness had left her:
-the life she had wanted came now to her from without. Olver brought
-that life; he brought tumult, anguish, but it was life that he brought,
-besieging her. And although he was not Lovel&#8217;s envoy, still it was
-straight from Lovel that he came. His eyes, as they flamed on Clare,
-an hour earlier had been filled with Lovel; she could fancy Lovel&#8217;s
-image still lingering in them. And after he had left her, it was to
-Lovel&#8217;s presence that he would return; he would hear Lovel&#8217;s voice and
-see Lovel&#8217;s hands, that so haunted her. Once she broke her silence to
-ask about Lovel, &#8220;What does he do, these days of snow? does he get out?
-stay at home?&#8221; and Olver answered, &#8220;To-day he has been twisting new
-snares, and last night he brought home a lamb that still lies by our
-fire.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She knew that an end must come; beleaguered, she knew that. She had
-pushed life away, but it had followed her, even into her retreat. It
-was useless; Calladine was not life; his need of her had not been life.
-He was a shadow, a man<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_300" id="Page_300">[Pg 300]</a></span> of pretence, sufficient to himself, with his
-own pretences for company. It was only the true solitaries, the really
-lonely people, like Lovel, who had absolute need of their chosen loves.
-The strong, clamping loves, that fastened on to one another, to lose
-their hold only when they lost their hold on life; the unalterable,
-ordained loves. She could not justify the argument; her selfishness
-towards Calladine remained unjustified. But she knew that that would
-not weigh with her; she and Lovel would reach one another when the day
-came, even through a stone wall.</p>
-
-<p>Still she could not justify it. She tried to, perfunctorily. She sat
-frowning, and saying the words over to herself. Selfishness, duty.
-They remained mere words; she could not feel them in her blood, as
-she felt her need for Lovel and Lovel&#8217;s need for her; they were words
-pitted against instinct. Was it love, that need? Was it no more than
-that ordinary miracle, love? She thought that it was more. They had
-the Downs as a bond between them; the Downs, and all nature, of which
-Lovel seemed the spirit, the incarnation. He was the darkness of the
-Downs, their threat, their solitude, their intractability; she was
-their light, their windiness, their sunlit flanks, their springiness of
-turf. United, they formed a whole. There was an essential significance
-in Lovel, as there was an essential insignificance in Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>Olver seemed to know these things; he had an untutored insight.
-Calladine seemed to know<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_301" id="Page_301">[Pg 301]</a></span> them too, but that was less surprising; with
-his subtle, lyrical mind he might well be expected to apprehend, and
-apprehending, to drape in wordiness; to give a name; to illuminate
-blind impulse by giving a name. Poor Calladine; she watched him,
-detached, as he rambled from discovery to definition, tormenting
-himself by the beauty of his own phrasing. At moments he viewed them,
-herself and Lovel, as a spectator, losing himself in the romanticism he
-wove around them; recalled to the fact that it was his own wife of whom
-he spoke, he relapsed into the gloom and terror of his pain. For he
-lived in terror, impotent terror. And Clare watched him, living herself
-in her hours with Olver and in her consciousness of Lovel.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">There was the little round mirror she had given to Olver. He always
-brought it with him; he told her, chuckling, and tapping its bright
-surface with his finger, that he could see her in it even when she was
-not present. She did not believe this, but still she half believed it.
-&#8220;Look into it now,&#8221; he said, thrusting it under her eyes, &#8220;and you
-will see Nicholas.&#8221; She shrank back, afraid; he could not persuade her
-to look into it, he could not even deride her into looking into it.
-&#8220;You don&#8217;t believe me, yet you won&#8217;t look,&#8221; he said, &#8220;but if you don&#8217;t
-believe me, why then won&#8217;t you look?&#8221; He was for ever daring her to
-look into it, to find the image of Nicholas. She would not; she did not
-believe in the magical<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_302" id="Page_302">[Pg 302]</a></span> properties of the mirror, yet nothing would
-induce her to glance into its queer convexity. &#8220;I watched the circus in
-this, the night Nicholas took you out of the tent,&#8221; he said, and she
-wondered whether he knew how bound to Lovel she had felt herself that
-night; &#8220;I watched Nicholas&#8217; wedding in this; I looked in this at him
-and Daisy sitting in the kitchen. Look into it now,&#8221; he said, offering
-it to her again: &#8220;maybe you&#8217;ll see Daisy nursing her baby; maybe you&#8217;ll
-see Nicholas twisting snares; maybe you&#8217;ll see him riding up on White
-Horse Hill, alone, in the snow.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Do you remember what I told you once?&#8221; he said to her another time,
-&#8220;that Nicholas could bring you out to him, even at midnight, if he gave
-his mind to it?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She wondered how long this strange period would last; she was not even
-impatient; the core of peace and silence within her lay so certain, so
-quiet, that she dwelt already as it were serene in the fulfilment of
-herself and Lovel.</p>
-
-<p>Calladine came to her door to find it locked against him. He shook the
-handle. &#8220;Clare! it is I.&#8221; A wild winter night; the wind blew along the
-passage, lifting the loose matting on the floor, the gas-jet on the
-stair flickered and below the well of the staircase was dark. &#8220;Clare!&#8221;
-said Calladine again, shaking the handle.</p>
-
-<p>Her voice within answered him, faint, shut away.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes, I am here; I am in bed.&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_303" id="Page_303">[Pg 303]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>She was there! the house contained her at least; she had not fled.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Let me come in, Clare.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>A long pause, and then her voice again.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I cannot, Richard.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You have locked me out?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I am sorry, Richard; I can&#8217;t let you in.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He stood irresolute. Then he started shaking the door, frightened by
-its wooden resistance. Still she did not come to open, she remained
-hard to him, did not even pray him to desist. He ceased his useless
-shaking and began to plead with her, tears in his voice, humiliating
-himself. She made no answer. He went away, down into the sitting-room,
-where the embers of the fire still gleamed red between the bars. &#8220;I
-gave her everything,&#8221; he whispered, looking round upon the comfort of
-the room. Upstairs, she lay in her bed, soft and sweet and indifferent
-as he had always known her,&mdash;lost to him. He went over to the window
-and looked out; the masses of the clouds flew before the wind, so
-that the stars seen between the rifts seemed to be rushing across
-heaven. Starvecrow lay beneath them, small and lonely. A hatred of
-the place overcame him. &#8220;I shall take her away,&#8221; he muttered; &#8220;we
-will go to London.&#8221; And he saw her a fleeting figure, hurrying down
-straight narrow London streets, her footsteps that were used to the
-short turf ringing forlornly along the pavement. He pitied her in the
-midst of his anger and frustration: surely in London she would<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_304" id="Page_304">[Pg 304]</a></span> droop
-and pine. But she must be the one to suffer now; it was her turn; he
-had suffered enough. He could not run the risk of leaving her among
-these open hills, in league with the Lovels,&mdash;even now that crazy boy,
-that wild scarecrow figure, might be frisking beneath the windows.
-His wife, linked with those dark people,&mdash;so linked, that she was and
-always had been a stranger to him. Misery drove him to superstition:
-there was a kinship between the Lovels and the country, witchcraft and
-legend, the crazy boy, the sarsen stones, the ancient sacrifices, Lovel
-the vagabond poacher, the wayward shepherd, his immunity from cold or
-fatigue,&mdash;all these things ran together in Calladine&#8217;s unhappy head.</p>
-
-<p>And Clare, what place had she among them? she was the country in its
-loveliness, the running brooks, the soaring birds, the sheep-bells, the
-dew, the distance, the manifold music.</p>
-
-<p>He would take her away. Next day, he told her so, challenging her
-refusal. And although she neither refused, nor, indeed, made any
-answer, he insisted on the point, growing noisy in his insistence.
-&#8220;We shall leave this place, do you hear? We shall go, we shall take
-the railroad to London.&#8221; But London must be an empty sound to her,
-he thought, whose world was the Downs. &#8220;The city of London,&#8221; he
-emphasised, seeing the streets, the squares, the endless houses,&mdash;a
-maze of streets, in which she would lose herself, seeking in vain the
-way out.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_305" id="Page_305">[Pg 305]</a></span> He looked at her with hatred; there, in London, where he
-would feel himself at home, he would at last get the better of her, be
-revenged upon her for all the pain she had made him endure; there, she
-would be the bewildered stranger, and not he; perhaps she would even
-cling to him for reassurance, and he would mock at her in her distress,
-and spurn her, over and over again, until she crept broken at his heels.</p>
-
-<p>Then, seeing her so pale and fragile, he was remorseful, and fell on
-his knees beside her, crying, &#8220;Forgive me, Clare.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>She sat with him after dinner in their room. He was not restive,
-that evening; his panics overtook him only periodically; sometimes
-he appeared to regain all his old confidence. Olver had not troubled
-Starvecrow for several days, and Calladine readily forgot. He was
-standing now by his bookcase, lovingly shifting the volumes; his touch
-slipped like velvet over the frail old leather; delicately he fluttered
-over the pages. Clare could even find it in her heart to envy him,
-life to her came so rough and violent, to him so veiled and mellowed,
-always, so to speak, at second-hand. He murmured to himself over his
-books, or was it to her that he addressed his murmurings? how real
-was her presence to him? was she more real than those fugitive terra
-cotta nymphs of his? was she perhaps less real? as lovely, but more
-troublesome? a nymph that would not stay there quiet on her stand, but
-whose draperies were blown by the wild wind<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_306" id="Page_306">[Pg 306]</a></span> from outside, and whose
-feet stirred mutinous towards escape? Still he murmured over his books,
-without that uneasy glance which meant that he was afraid of losing
-her; he had forgotten, for the moment; it was providential how easily
-he forgot, his excitability easily roused, and almost as easily abated.</p>
-
-<p>But as for her, an oppression was on her, an exaltation. She rose.
-&#8220;Richard, I am going to the door to look at the night; don&#8217;t come; it&#8217;s
-cold outside.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He was startled, but he had known her do this before, and he had no
-desire to leave his books or the warmth of the room. &#8220;Take a coat,&#8221; he
-said. She went up to him and kissed him lightly. He patted her shoulder
-with affection, and watched her cross the room to the door. &#8220;Graceful
-... graceful,&#8221; he murmured to himself in appreciation, turning again to
-his shelves.</p>
-
-<p>Clare passed downstairs to the hall. She moved as though her feet did
-not touch earth. With a fur cloak thrown round her, she opened the door
-and stepped out into the night, closing the door again behind her. The
-Downs were there, white in the starlight. Overhead, in a black sky,
-blazed the constellations, not yet sunk from the splendour of winter:
-Orion, low in the west, the splendid Plough, and Sirius, single and
-more brilliant than the rest. Clare passed down the dark path, swept
-clear of snow, to the little gate; at the gate the dark shape of a man
-came forward to meet her; it was Lovel. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_307" id="Page_307">[Pg 307]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I knew you would be here,&#8221; she said without surprise.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I have not been before,&#8221; he answered.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; she replied, &#8220;I knew that.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>There was a little silence.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Will you come with me now?&#8221; he said.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What, out on the Downs?&#8221; she asked, trying to see his face through the
-darkness.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, we belong there, don&#8217;t we?&#8221; he said patiently.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Then what has kept us apart, I wonder?&#8221; she said. She wondered
-genuinely; their union seemed so large and simple. &#8220;Yes, I will come,&#8221;
-she added then.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I have tried not to come to you, Clare,&#8221; said Lovel. &#8220;The child is not
-mine, you know,&#8221; he went on.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I know; Olver told me. But what does it matter? Shall we go?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He followed her through the gate, and they took the track up on to the
-Downs.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">Three days later Calladine rode into King&#8217;s Avon, turning in at the
-Manor House gates at the slow walk which had been his pace for the
-whole three miles of his journey. He rode slackly and without interest,
-letting his horse stumble; even the instinctive check on the reins
-seemed to have deserted him. He gave his horse to William Baskett, who
-ran out from the stables, and, laying his gloves and crop on the bench
-in the hall, trod wearily into Mr. <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_308" id="Page_308">[Pg 308]</a></span>Warrener&#8217;s presence. The old man
-was surprised and delighted to see him. &#8220;My dear Calladine,&mdash;my dear
-Richard, fancy your riding over in this snowy weather,&mdash;why, I thought
-you scarcely stirred out of doors. And what brings you?&#8221; He peered
-closer. &#8220;Dear me, there&#8217;s surely nothing the matter?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Clare has left me,&#8221; said Calladine. The phrase had been in his head
-for three days now. It was a relief to him to pronounce it at last
-aloud. &#8220;She has gone away with young Lovel.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But I don&#8217;t understand,&#8221; said Mr. Warrener. &#8220;Left you? gone away with
-young Lovel? The shepherd fellow? But why? where have they gone to?
-what for?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Calladine raised his hands and let them fall again with a gesture of
-hopelessness,&mdash;the hopelessness of explaining to Mr. Warrener. Yet in a
-way he relished lacerating himself with the explanation.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Clare and the shepherd fellow,&#8221; he said, &#8220;are lovers. Yes, it is as
-I tell you. They have been lovers for many months, perhaps for many
-years. They were in the habit of meeting on the Downs,&mdash;I don&#8217;t know
-how often,&mdash;frequently,&mdash;perhaps every day. I can&#8217;t tell. Since Clare
-has been married to me they had not, so far as I know, met at all. She
-has only seen Lovel&#8217;s brother,&mdash;the simpleton. He has come over to
-Starvecrow to see her. I don&#8217;t know what he has said to her. I can only
-suppose that he<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_309" id="Page_309">[Pg 309]</a></span> engineered their meeting. All I can tell you is that
-three evenings ago she went out, as she said, to look at the night, and
-has not since returned.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Three evenings ago!&#8221; exclaimed Warrener. &#8220;But I knew nothing of all
-this.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; said Calladine wearily, &#8220;I gave strict orders that you were not
-to be told. I thought she would come back, you see. But as she has not
-come back, I cannot keep it a secret from you any longer. We must take
-some action, I suppose, if you think it necessary. Or shall we leave
-them to themselves. If any one is capable of looking after her, Lovel
-is the man. And he knows the Downs,&mdash;they both know the Downs,&mdash;surely
-the Downs wouldn&#8217;t hurt them?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Warrener took no notice of this pitiable cry wrung suddenly out of
-his anxiety.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Of course we must search for them,&#8221; he said, frightened and bewildered
-and angry. &#8220;But,&mdash;really this is a most extraordinary story,&mdash;how do
-you <i>know</i> she has gone with young Lovel? Clare!&#8221; he said, indignant,
-&#8220;whom I trusted to wander about at will,&mdash;to deceive me in this
-fashion!&mdash;but she never came to any harm, whilst she was under my
-care,&mdash;no, not until <i>you</i> were responsible for her. Upon my word, sir,
-you&#8217;ve fulfilled your charge very badly,&mdash;what excuse have you to give
-to me?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You let her grow up into a wild thing,&mdash;the blame&#8217;s with you as much
-as with me,&mdash;and<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_310" id="Page_310">[Pg 310]</a></span> as to responsibility, she&#8217;s my wife even if she <i>is</i>
-your daughter.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, well,&#8221; said Mr. Warrener, relapsing into his customary mildness,
-&#8220;it won&#8217;t help matters if you and I start wrangling. But tell me
-now, what makes you so certain she has gone with this ... his name
-positively sticks in my throat,&mdash;this shepherd fellow?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What makes me so certain? What do you suppose I have been doing these
-three days?&#8221; said Calladine querulously. &#8220;What do you suppose my state
-of mind has been? I knew Clare was safe, in one sense, I know she was
-with Lovel. Yes. His wife came to Starvecrow after him; she had guessed
-where he was going. Oh, a pretty interview I had with her&mdash;I have Clare
-to thank for that. She came crying to the door, and Mrs. Quince let her
-in, so Mrs. Quince, at least, guesses the whole story. She brought the
-woman up to my room, and left her alone with me, and I saw her smirk
-as she went out of the door. A pretty business.... She cried to me,
-this woman; she sat in Clare&#8217;s chair and cried. She owned up&mdash;a long
-tale&mdash;how she had got Lovel to marry her and how her child was neither
-his child nor his brother&#8217;s; I really don&#8217;t know what else&mdash;a long
-tale. She talked very extravagantly&mdash;said she was dying for love of
-him&mdash;and how he had never touched her,&mdash;a lot of nauseous detail. She
-kept on saying that he was decent,&mdash;decent, decent to her,&mdash;that kept
-on coming back,&mdash;and that she was<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_311" id="Page_311">[Pg 311]</a></span> sorry now,&mdash;she was being punished
-for what she had done. He was civil to her always, she said, but as
-cold as winter, and now he had gone. There was nothing left for her
-now, she said, but to stay looking after his people,&mdash;his old mother
-and his mad brother,&mdash;that was her idea of making amends. We went out
-together and looked all over the Downs for Clare and Lovel; she sobbed
-and cried all the time. She wanted me to raise a hue and cry, to put
-the police on their trail, but of course I would not do that. &#8216;If they
-want to go,&#8217; I said, &#8216;let them go with as little noise as possible.&#8217;
-But I looked for them myself, and if I had found them I would have
-besought Clare to come back. She was with me nearly all the time, this
-dreadful woman. I kept sending her away, but half an hour later there
-she was again. She brought her child with her, wrapped in a shawl.
-She said she felt like drowning it,&mdash;a shocking thing to hear a woman
-say. Saxon fair it was, and I believed her when she told me Lovel had
-nothing to do with it. She has been with me almost uninterruptedly now
-for three days; I kept her at Starvecrow because I didn&#8217;t want the
-story trumpeted over the whole village. Certain that she has gone with
-Lovel, indeed! Of course I am certain. Besides, I found the tracks of
-two persons&#8217; feet in the snow&mdash;a man&#8217;s and a woman&#8217;s.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Well, why didn&#8217;t you follow those tracks?&#8221; asked Mr. Warrener, who had
-been staring at Calladine all through his recital. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_312" id="Page_312">[Pg 312]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You may be sure I did, and they led me to the top of the
-Downs,&mdash;knee-deep in some places. Then snow began to fall again and the
-tracks were blotted out,&mdash;I lost them,&mdash;I fancied the Downs and the
-snow were conspiring against me with Clare and Lovel. Lovel&#8217;s wife grew
-frantic when she saw the tracks blurring; she began running round and
-round in a senseless circle. There was I, up on the height with that
-common woman, she having lost her husband and I having lost my wife.
-That is what your daughter, sir, has exposed me to.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Is that all you think about?&#8221; said Mr. Warrener.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Heaven knows it isn&#8217;t!&#8221; cried Calladine. &#8220;I think horrible things,&mdash;I
-think of Clare suffering from the cold, and then I think of her close
-with Lovel, and upon my soul I don&#8217;t know whether to wish her dead or
-alive. You don&#8217;t understand, Mr. Warrener, the passion they have for
-one another. I suppose I knew it, a long way back, but I shut my mind
-to it. It seemed preposterous. I put it away. And then, when it began
-to come closer, I did not know how to fight it,&mdash;I knew how strong it
-was. And Clare was like a little trapped thing all the while; gentle
-to me, but always looking out of the window. I tried to tame her; she
-pretended to be quite tame, but all the while she kept that poised look
-about her,&mdash;ready to spread her wings.&#8221; </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_313" id="Page_313">[Pg 313]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You seem to have a good deal to say about it all,&#8221; Mr. Warrener
-observed.</p>
-
-<p>Calladine was silent; he felt rebuked.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I have been crushing down my thoughts for three days,&#8221; he muttered
-then, sulkily.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But what are we to do?&#8221; said Mr. Warrener. He took out his big
-handkerchief and began to mop his forehead, then, remembering that the
-day was cold, he replaced it in his pocket. &#8220;Is it snowing now?&#8221; he
-asked irrelevantly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; said Calladine. &#8220;It is bright and frosty, and there is no wind;
-the wind has dropped ever since the night that Clare went. I used to
-think the wind made her more restless, &#8216;Le vent qui vient à travers la
-montagne,&#8217; you know, &#8216;me rendra fou.&#8217;&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But what are we to do?&#8221; said Mr. Warrener again. They were two
-helpless beings, to confront such a problem. &#8220;At all events, she
-is safe enough with young Lovel; I believe he is a capable sort of
-creature; he won&#8217;t let her come to any harm.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Curse him,&#8221; said Calladine, resentful that the legend of Lovel&#8217;s
-efficiency should have percolated even to Mr. Warrener&#8217;s secluded room.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;We must go out and look for them,&#8221; said Mr. Warrener. &#8220;Come,
-Calladine,&#8221; he said, rousing himself, &#8220;you don&#8217;t seem able to take any
-action. Bestir yourself; we must go out and look for them.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Must we?&#8221; said Calladine without interest.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_314" id="Page_314">[Pg 314]</a></span> &#8220;But I don&#8217;t think it&#8217;s
-any good, you know. I have a superstitious feeling about it; there was
-something intangible about Clare. I never got hold of her,&mdash;she was my
-joy, she tinkled about my house, in and out of my rooms, but it was
-like having a linnet in a cage. You know how the men go out and snare
-the larks under nets on the Downs; well, it was like that. She didn&#8217;t
-mope; no, never; but I think she was only waiting for the day when she
-should fly away.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Nonsense, nonsense,&#8221; said Mr. Warrener. &#8220;Don&#8217;t encourage such
-ridiculous fancies, Richard.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I&#8217;ve seen her,&#8221; said Calladine, &#8220;looking out of the window, looking
-out of the window....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Come,&#8221; said Mr. Warrener again; &#8220;if you won&#8217;t come with me I must go
-alone.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;And the man too,&#8221; said Calladine, obstinately; &#8220;he was always on the
-Downs; he wouldn&#8217;t bind himself down to a master; he slipped free.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Are you coming?&#8221; asked Mr. Warrener, standing up. He cast a glance at
-his writing-table. &#8220;Fancy Clare....&#8221; he said with a sigh. &#8220;She was a
-help to me, Calladine, you don&#8217;t know. I made a sacrifice in giving her
-to you. But I thought it was for the child&#8217;s happiness; and she hadn&#8217;t
-a mother. I missed her more than anybody knew. You never realised how
-much she helped me; why, look here....&#8221; and he showed Calladine a thick
-note-book filled with Clare&#8217;s handwriting. &#8220;She had an instinct for<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_315" id="Page_315">[Pg 315]</a></span>
-archæology,&#8221; he said, &#8220;and she wrote a beautiful hand&mdash;clear and pretty
-both.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You make it sound like an epitaph,&#8221; said Calladine bitterly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Heaven forbid,&#8221; said Mr. Warrener, a little startled. &#8220;She&#8217;s safe
-enough, never you fear. All we have to do is to get her back and
-perhaps we&#8217;ll find your fears were groundless,&mdash;a burst of wildness,
-only,&mdash;she was accustomed to liberty, you know,&mdash;perhaps it&#8217;s no worse
-than that,&mdash;lovers, you said,&mdash;but oh, no, I can&#8217;t believe....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You and I, Mr. Warrener,&#8221; said Calladine, fixing the old man with a
-gaze full of meaning, &#8220;have perhaps lived a little too remote from
-life. Clare is alive, Lovel is alive; you and I are left behind.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But all the same....&#8221; said Mr. Warrener, greatly troubled, &#8220;all
-the same.... Lovers, you said. Oh, no, surely not,&#8221; and he looked
-embarrassed, uncomfortable, as at an indecency.</p>
-
-<p class="space-above">They went out together. They went on foot, with no very definite scheme
-of action in their minds. Vaguely they intended to make their way up on
-to the Downs, on to the topmost height if possible, and from there to
-scan the rolling country. They went side by side, Calladine long and
-spare, Mr. Warrener, round, short and bespectacled, and as they went
-they tried to disguise their anxiety from one another, and to pretend
-that they had gone out for no more<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_316" id="Page_316">[Pg 316]</a></span> serious purpose than to recall a
-troublesome child from an escapade. But there were periods of silence
-between them, broken with a jerk by Mr. Warrener with brisk questions,
-&#8220;Now in what direction did she ride for choice, Calladine?&#8221; or &#8220;If the
-fellow is a shepherd, he must have a hut up on these hills.&#8221; &#8220;Yes, I
-have visited that: it was empty,&#8221; said Calladine, forced into a morose
-reply.</p>
-
-<p>They took the road out of the village, the only road cleared by the
-snow-plough, and presently struck up into the hills, climbing with
-caution, for they were afraid of sinking suddenly into a drift against
-a bank. They climbed, prodding with long sticks before them, a long
-wearisome climb, their feet sinking over the ankle at every step into
-the soft snow; by now they had the excuse for speaking very little, for
-their energies went all on their progress. &#8220;I have spent my time like
-this for the last three days,&#8221; said Calladine, grimly.</p>
-
-<p>It was noteworthy that neither of them considered for a moment that
-Clare and Lovel might have moved on to another part of the country;
-they took it for granted that they had remained among the Downs.</p>
-
-<p>No paths were to be seen anywhere, only the rolling white hills, broken
-by the sky-line beech-clumps. No sound; neither the tinkling of water,
-nor the quivering of larks, nor the quaver of sheep, nor even the wind;
-only the hush of quiet snow lying spread. It was a stillness that<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_317" id="Page_317">[Pg 317]</a></span> grew
-as they climbed; a stillness, a shroud. There was the glitter of the
-snow, and the black clubbed trees, and the white sky, and the silence.</p>
-
-<p>It occurred to them that they might get lost, for all the hills looked
-much the same, and the landmarks were all covered up; the White Horse,
-the Grey Wethers. Still, Calladine was contemptuous of that; and as for
-Mr. Warrener, he plodded on with an unrepining, pathetic obstinacy.</p>
-
-<p>At last they came to the top, and stood on White Horse Hill, two puny
-figures scanning the horizon. &#8220;There is Lovel&#8217;s hut,&#8221; said Calladine,
-pointing it out. &#8220;We had better go down to it,&#8221; said Mr. Warrener, and
-they began the descent, which was almost as trying as their climb, for
-they had to hold themselves back, the snow being blown into deeper
-drifts on that side of the hill.</p>
-
-<p>The great scoops in the flank of the hill forced them to follow a
-circular route which lengthened their road. The hut seemed to stand
-always equally far ahead, and never to draw any nearer; nor had they
-much hope of finding either Clare or Lovel within it. Mr. Warrener,
-now that he had gained a few hours of experience, was beginning to
-share Calladine&#8217;s hopelessness; before they started, it had seemed
-comparatively simple an undertaking to go out and search and shout for
-Clare over the Downs. Now, although he called her name tentatively on
-approaching the hut, the quilted silence swallowed up the small<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_318" id="Page_318">[Pg 318]</a></span> echo
-of his voice. Yet it was a bell-like name to call, &#8220;Clare! Clare!&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Calladine let Mr. Warrener go forward and peer into the hut, and he
-felt a sudden tenderness for the old man. &#8220;If,&#8221; he said to himself,
-&#8220;Clare should never return to me, Mr. Warrener and I must keep house
-together,&#8221; but the idea of Clare not returning gave him a pang which
-eclipsed the amenities of the prospect with Mr. Warrener, leading a
-scholar&#8217;s life, and he was ashamed of the glimpse that had opened out
-on to a life so congenial, so secure.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Warrener turned in the doorway and beckoned.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;They have been here,&#8221; he said.</p>
-
-<p>Calladine drew near and looked. Yes, they had been there. The hut was
-poor, a shepherd&#8217;s shelter, with a rough table arranged on a couple
-of boxes, and a thick pallet of bracken on the floor; warm enough,
-no doubt, and even snug, with the paraffin lamp burning and the door
-closed against the cold. Mr. Warrener and Calladine looked in silence.
-A horn mug stood on the table, beside a loaf of bread; two sugar-boxes
-served as stools. A couple of blankets were thrown over the bracken; a
-bag stuffed with bracken did for a pillow. There was nothing else.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;My God,&#8221; said Calladine, staring at the pallet, &#8220;they lay there last
-night,&mdash;they lay there!&#8221; He looked round the pitiful cabin, and a groan
-was forced from him. &#8220;He brought her here!&#8221;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_319" id="Page_319">[Pg 319]</a></span> he said, &#8220;and I who gave
-her everything she could desire,&mdash;comfort, even beauty, refinement....&#8221;
-He sat down and buried his face, and touched perhaps the bitterest
-moment he had yet gone through. &#8220;How much she must have loved him,&#8221; he
-said, raising a suddenly haggard face to Mr. Warrener.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Warrener was deeply perturbed and distressed. Such things were
-altogether beyond his experience and understanding.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Hush,&mdash;don&#8217;t take it so much to heart,&#8221; he said, confused, but meaning
-to be kind, and he touched Calladine on the shoulder with a gesture
-singularly awkward. &#8220;Now let us think what is to be done. Shall we
-remain here, and trust to their return at nightfall? It is true that we
-could not, all four of us, spend the night in this hut, but probably
-Lovel knows the way,&mdash;he can take us all home safely.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You seem to have a curious confidence in the fellow,&#8221; growled
-Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>Mr. Warrener blinked in his mild fashion.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes,&mdash;I don&#8217;t quite know why,&#8221; he said, &#8220;except that I&#8217;ve seen
-him about the village,&mdash;he seemed an alert, romantic kind of
-creature.&mdash;Forgive me, I see that pains you.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh, not at all,&#8221; said Calladine, ironical.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;We must wait,&mdash;there is nothing else to be done,&#8221; said Mr. Warrener,
-reluctantly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; said Calladine, rousing himself to a sudden determination,
-&#8220;I will wait, but you, Mr. Warrener, must make your way home while
-<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_320" id="Page_320">[Pg 320]</a></span>daylight lasts. You will only have to follow our own tracks in
-the snow. Indeed, I should prefer it,&#8221; he said, seeing the old man
-hesitate, and gently he took Mr. Warrener by the arm and urged him out
-of the hut. A hard cruel sun was already setting red behind a clump of
-beeches. The white sky became suffused with crimson in the west; on the
-rounded tops of the hills the snow flushed to pink. But it was a hard,
-cruel world that they saw, the hard red of the snow where the sunset
-did not catch it. The line of the beech-clump curved already across the
-slowly sinking sun, and presently hid it altogether from sight; the
-tops of the hills lost their flush, and only a few red bars lingered
-still in the sky.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;What a desolate spot!&#8221; exclaimed Mr. Warrener, impressed, &#8220;and what a
-spot,&#8221; he went on, &#8220;for a shepherd to study the courses of the stars,
-for such has been the tradition of shepherds since the days when the
-known world was not one tithe of the size we now learn it to be. Think
-of that, Calladine,&#8221; said the old man, warming to his subject, &#8220;those
-early shepherds on the hills were more conversant with the cycle of the
-heavenly bodies than with the distribution of their own planet. A fine
-tradition among shepherds&mdash;for what else have they to do? They don&#8217;t
-read in books, but they read in the heavens through the long, lonely
-nights; and observe, Calladine, that in winter, when the pleasures
-of the earth are less, the heavens in compensation<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_321" id="Page_321">[Pg 321]</a></span> treble their
-magnificence. I don&#8217;t believe that a man who spends his nights alone
-in the open remains similar to other men. He&#8217;s soaked in the sense of
-space; and young Lovel....&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes, yes,&#8221; said Calladine impatiently, &#8220;but there is no time to be
-lost if you are to reach King&#8217;s Avon before dark. Follow our tracks;
-there are no other tracks to confuse you, for it snowed a little this
-morning; indeed, there is still snow about in the air.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t like to leave you alone in this lonely place,&#8221; said Mr.
-Warrener, still hesitating.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Doubtless Clare and Lovel found no fault with its loneliness last
-night,&#8221; Calladine replied harshly.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;My dear Richard,&#8221; said Mr. Warrener, vexed at his son-in-law&#8217;s harping
-on this theme, &#8220;I am sure you distress yourself unnecessarily. Clare
-will be able to reassure you,&mdash;and she is a very truthful child,&#8221;
-he added, with a certain pleading pathos, as though to justify his
-upbringing of her.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Where, then, did the man sleep?&#8221; said Calladine, turning on him.
-&#8220;Supposing he gave Clare the pallet, where did he pass the night
-himself? Tell me that.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Why, I don&#8217;t know,&mdash;sitting up, I suppose,&mdash;he could lean his back
-against the wall,&#8221; replied Mr. Warrener.</p>
-
-<p>Finally he consented to go, and set off, Calladine watching him
-until after trudging up the hill he topped its crest and was lost to
-sight.<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_322" id="Page_322">[Pg 322]</a></span> Calladine then, a prey to such loneliness as he had never
-dreamt, returned into the hut to wait. Twilight came, the long, cold,
-late-winter twilight when the world seems dead. The last vestiges of
-colour faded out of the west. Such sharp shadows as there had been,
-merged into a greyer, universal shadow; the hard black and the hard
-white turned to grey, vast and mournful; the sky was all grey now,
-and the dusk heavy with impending snow. The quietness and the poverty
-of the hut settled down round Calladine. He had examined its few poor
-resources, fingering the utensils he found in the little cupboard on
-the wall, the tea-pot, the canister of tea and sugar, the rasher of
-bacon put ready on a plate; but now he sat listless, with hanging
-hands, and not so much as a sound came to make him raise his head.
-He did not know how long he sat there. The darkness deepened; soon
-the black night was again over the Downs, vaulted; the big golden
-stars, and the dim huge shapes of the hills. He was without sensation,
-numb, having the consciousness only of his extreme solitude. So numb
-was he, that he was scarcely aware what he waited for. He simply
-sat on, in complete darkness now, feeling neither hunger nor cold,
-forgetful almost of his sorrow, patient only like a man condemned to an
-indefinite suspense.</p>
-
-<p>When he heard the sound of a voice singing out on the hill, he raised
-his head and waited. The voice drew nearer, singing a cheerful song;<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_323" id="Page_323">[Pg 323]</a></span>
-it trilled and carolled, as in an exuberant lightheartedness. To
-Calladine it came with a strange effect, this voice singing out in
-the night, unexplained, bearing down upon the hut, frivolous and
-rollicking. Suddenly it sounded quite close, outside. The door was
-torn open, a figure carrying a lantern appeared on the threshold, and
-Calladine beheld the grinning face and battered hat of Olver Lovel.</p>
-
-<p>The boy carried parcels in his arms, besides the lantern swinging from
-his wrist. He appeared in excellent spirits, grinning broadly, skipping
-as he stood on the threshold of the door, with little excited skips
-from foot to foot. He seemed scarcely able to contain his high spirits
-and his excitement. When he saw that the hut was already occupied, he
-gaped stupidly, then burst into peals of laughter. Calladine, remaining
-seated, looked at him without a word. He perceived nothing startling
-in the advent of this apparition, apathetic as he was, and at the same
-time strung up to the most improbable occurrences. It seemed to him
-quite natural that Olver should stand shouting with laughter in the
-doorway; he saw nothing grotesque in the encounter of himself with the
-crazy boy out in this hut on the hills. Clare!&mdash;this was the note to
-which Clare had re-tuned his life.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Mr. Calladine!&#8221; said Olver, ceasing from his laughter. He came forward
-and put his parcels and his lantern down on the table. Its rays
-illuminated the little hut. &#8220;So you were <span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_324" id="Page_324">[Pg 324]</a></span>waiting for them, sitting
-here in the dark, were you?&#8221; he observed.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Will they come?&#8221; asked Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Oh yes, they&#8217;ll come,&#8221; replied Olver easily. &#8220;But they won&#8217;t let you
-stop here, you know,&#8221; he added. &#8220;No, nor me either,&#8221; he pursued, coming
-closer to Calladine and speaking confidentially. &#8220;They&#8217;ll put us both
-out into the snow, get-yourselves-home-as-best-you-can. They won&#8217;t
-care. They won&#8217;t notice us, scarcely. They&#8217;re in a dream. Nod to me,
-perhaps; give me a pat, like a dog. Good Olver; he brings our food. But
-do they eat it? they seem like they don&#8217;t need food.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Have you seen them, then?&#8221; said Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Seen them? Lord bless you, yes; and seen you too, wandering round with
-Daisy. I was behind you, many and many a time, but you didn&#8217;t turn.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He began now to unpack his parcels, bringing out a loaf of bread, a
-tin of milk, some eggs, and finally some raw meat in slices. Calladine
-watched him in silence. He disposed of everything in a business-like
-manner, fetching two plates out of the cupboard, laying the table,
-putting ready the tea-pot and the canister.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You might well have lit the lamp for them,&#8221; he said reproachfully to
-Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>He lit the little paraffin lamp himself, and the hut was further
-irradiated by its yellow glow. The hut made now a patch of warmth and
-light<span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_325" id="Page_325">[Pg 325]</a></span> among the cold, dark hills; a box of light, like a star in the
-blackness of space. Calladine felt the warmth creep through him, as
-though he were admitted to a hint of the sufficient and radiant secret
-of those lovers. The poverty of the shelter disappeared now, in the
-golden warmth of the light from within. And he felt that he, and not
-they, was the pauper.</p>
-
-<p>Olver meanwhile had set the meat to fry over the lamp. It frizzled as
-he turned it with a fork, and he crouched over it, humming his song.
-&#8220;You seem very well contented,&#8221; said Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>Olver looked up, having forgotten Calladine&#8217;s presence.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I am contented, because Nicholas is happy,&#8221; he replied.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Simple enough!&#8221; said Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;But she is happy too,&#8221; said Olver, sitting back on his heels and
-staring at Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;He is only a mad boy,&#8221; thought Calladine to himself.</p>
-
-<p>Olver sang. He sang an old song, of a girl drowned in the mill-pool
-because she had lost her lover. The wistful beat of the ballad came
-back at the end of each verse; it droned on, with mournful persistence.
-At last Calladine could bear its monotony no longer, and asked, &#8220;When
-will they come?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Olver shrugged. &#8220;Who can tell?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Where are they?&#8221; Calladine asked. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_326" id="Page_326">[Pg 326]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>Olver shrugged again. &#8220;Who can tell?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Calladine remembered how often he had asked Clare, &#8220;Where have you
-been? where have you been?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>He remembered that her answers had never left him any the wiser; he had
-never come near to what he really wanted to know.</p>
-
-<p>What was it, indeed, that he had really wanted to know? the whole
-secret of her being, to be explained in a dozen words?</p>
-
-<p>He said to Olver, &#8220;It is night, it is cold; have they lost their way
-out on the hills?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Olver laughed at him. &#8220;Lost? They?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;They are only human!&#8221; cried Calladine, afraid. He got up and stood
-over Olver. &#8220;Tell me, they are human, aren&#8217;t they?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Olver laughed again.</p>
-
-<p>Calladine went to the door. He opened it and looked out; the cold met
-him, and the stars in the blackness. &#8220;Clare!&#8221; he cried. &#8220;Clare!&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;I am going mad,&#8221; he said to himself. &#8220;I am going out of my mind.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Looking back into the hut, he saw Olver still on his knees on the
-floor, prodding at the meat over the lamp. He went back, bent down, and
-cried close to Olver&#8217;s ear, &#8220;What are we doing here? they are keeping
-us waiting.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;We don&#8217;t count,&#8221; replied Olver indifferently.</p>
-
-<p>He began his song again. He had taken his mirror from his pocket, and
-was squinting into it, at the reflection of the hut; on each beat of
-the measure, he nodded down towards it. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_327" id="Page_327">[Pg 327]</a></span></p>
-
-<div class="center"><div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
-<div>&#8220;Her hair was tangled in the reeds.</div>
-<div class="i1">Her hair so gold and gay,&#8221;</div>
-</div></div></div>
-
-<p>he sang.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Would you like to look into my mirror?&#8221; he asked Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>An idea took him; he scrambled to his feet.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;They&#8217;re all afraid of my mirror,&#8221; he said. &#8220;<i>She</i> wouldn&#8217;t look into
-it, for fear of what she might see there. But you shall look. Look into
-it now, and you&#8217;ll see them; you shall see them as they were in here,
-last night.&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Calladine pushed him away; made him stagger against the wall of the hut.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;You would see them! you would see them!&#8221; cried Olver, delighted.</p>
-
-<p>Neither of them noticed that the door had opened, and that Lovel stood
-in the hut.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Nicco!&#8221; cried Olver.</p>
-
-<p>Calladine wheeled round. Clare came into the hut, and her face shone
-out like Lovel&#8217;s, both golden in the light, both arrested in the midst
-of their carelessness.</p>
-
-<p>Lovel spoke to Calladine.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;This was the only place we had,&#8221; he said, &#8220;couldn&#8217;t you leave it to
-us?&#8221;</p>
-
-<p>Clare looked at Calladine; her face wore that oblique, fugitive look
-which he had known, and loved, and dreaded.</p>
-
-<p>She turned to Lovel, and they swayed towards one another as though
-something drew them.</p>
-
-<p>&#8220;We had better go,&#8221; she said, inviting him. </p>
-
-<p><span class="pagenum"><a name="Page_328" id="Page_328">[Pg 328]</a></span></p>
-
-<p>&#8220;Yes,&#8221; he replied, drifting idly on the stream of her will, of their
-common will, one with her.</p>
-
-<p>She gave him her hand, and in the gold light they hung briefly,
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