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-Title: Ronald and I
- or Studies from Life
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-***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK RONALD AND I***
-
-
-Transcribed from the 1899 Deighton Bell & Co. edition by David Price.
-
-
-
-
-
- RONALD AND I
-
-
- OR
-
- Studies from Life
-
- * * * * *
-
- BY
-
- ALFRED PRETOR
-
- * * * * *
-
- CAMBRIDGE
-
- DEIGHTON BELL & CO.
-
- LONDON GEORGE BELL & SONS
-
- 1899
-
- * * * * *
-
- CAMBRIDGE
- PRINTED BY JONATHAN PALMER
- ALEXANDRA STREET
-
-
-
-
-PREFACE
-
-
-Several of the following sketches have appeared already in the _Cambridge
-Review_ and the _Cantab_. Perhaps the friends who welcomed them then may
-welcome them now, on their reappearance in another and more permanent
-form.
-
-The story of “Our Rector” has been received in episcopal quarters with
-polite incredulity. It may be that episcopal supervision was less
-far-reaching in those days than now. At any rate, the things I have
-narrated, and things stranger still, _did_ occur in our village, and in
-all essential details, including the postprandial cigar, the story of
-“Our Rector” is a literal “study from life.”
-
-I would forget, if I could, that the “Cruel, Crawling Foam” is also a
-record of fact.
-
- A. P.
-
-CAMBRIDGE,
-
-_May_, 1899.
-
- * * * * *
-
- _To Mrs. Thomas Hardy_
- _who suggested and_
- _encouraged the writing_
- _of these tales_
-
-
-
-
-CONTENTS
-
-
-
-
- PAGE
-RONALD AND I:
- Broadwater: a Shadow from the Past 1
- On the Race Course at Bayview 25
- On the Sands 31
- Our Rector 41
- Echoes from an Organ Loft 55
- Fighting the Cholera 67
- Ronald’s Courtship 79
- Judy, or Retrieved 99
- The Professor 117
- The Cruel, Crawling Foam 133
- Our Queen 143
-BINDO: a Sketch 155
-‘DECLINED WITH THANKS’: a Postscript 181
-
-Ronald and I
-
-
-Broadwater
-A SHADOW FROM THE PAST
-
-
-I
-
-
-TURN your steps westward, and about four miles beyond Bayview you will
-come to a rising ground where three ways meet.
-
-One—the road to the right—trends northward, following with occasional
-deviations the coast line of Dead Man’s Bay, a replica in miniature of
-the Bay of Biscay, and one which claims, almost as regularly, its tithe
-of life and wreckage.
-
-The path on the left hand enters a lodge gate, and begins to fall gently
-but without intermission towards the sea. A curious impression that you
-are reaching the end of all things is followed by the feeling that your
-next step will be planted in the sea—and then you come to Broadwater.
-
-The huge square-set building stands on a level plateau, guarded by a
-semicircle of hills from every wind that blows, excepting the south-west.
-The architecture is neither impressive in itself nor characteristic of
-any particular period. Yet, looking down upon it from the hills above,
-the eye will find ample satisfaction in the colouring of the roof, for
-lichens have painted the crumbling tiles with every conceivable hue of
-vermilion and gold.
-
-A stranger, journeying for the first time along the road, would complain
-of the lack of trees. And trees in the open there are none. Nothing
-less cringing than gorse and heather can show front against the
-brine-laden winds of the Atlantic. The south-west wind is jealous of its
-prerogatives, and denudes a neighbourhood of isolated growth almost as
-surely as does the poison-steeped atmosphere of the midlands.
-
-Yet, if you trouble to make nearer acquaintance with Broadwater, you will
-find that every ravine and gully is crowded with trees—“groves” the
-villagers call them—whose tops lie level with the ground on either side,
-so that a slight divergence from the recognised track might land the
-unwary traveller among their foliage, almost without a change in his
-plane of elevation.
-
-The grand old house stands, as I have said, on a plateau, protected from
-the north and east by the hills, down which the road winds in and out
-like a white ribbon. On the west it faces the Atlantic, and the lawn,
-merging in the park, falls rapidly seawards till it meets the natural
-barrier of the beach. As a rule the barrier stands well; yet times there
-are when the sea will no longer “harrow the valleys, or be bound with a
-band in the furrow,” but, laughing at the puny obstruction, lays its
-tribute of drift and wreckage and human life almost on the very door-step
-of the house.
-
-Whether you love the scene or not, will depend on your age and
-temperament, and something, too, on the circumstances under which you
-view it. Steeped in the quiet twilight of an autumn evening, its perfect
-stillness and repose appeal irresistibly to a heart that yearns for rest,
-and many such have coveted it. But let a Londoner come upon it when a
-furious south-wester is raging, and the double windows are veiled with an
-impermeable film of brine, and you can feel the chimneys rocking
-overhead—and the chances are he will hurry from it as from the
-abomination of desolation.
-
-After our uncle’s death, Ronald, it was well known, was to reign in his
-stead—supplanting myself, albeit the son of an elder brother and the
-natural heir. But my father had been unlucky enough to marry the woman
-of old Heyward’s choice, and the sin of the father was to be visited upon
-the son. Our uncle (to do him justice) never made a pretence of equity
-in the matter. “I should turn in my grave,” he said, “if I thought that
-son of his was to follow in my room.” And there the matter ended. Short
-of this, he was fond of me in his own undemonstrative way. Only lately
-he had settled me at Bayview with a handsome allowance, where I was to
-make acquaintance with the rudiments of the law till it was time for me
-to enter at Cambridge.
-
-Honestly I can say that I never grudged Ronald his inheritance. He and I
-were brothers rather than cousins, and I cannot remember the time when
-the sturdy little Viking was not dear to my heart. Perhaps it was I who
-gave the most, and he who took it. But that is only as it should be,
-provided he who gives and he who takes are equally nothing loth.
-
-The house was an ideal home for us, so long as we shared it in common.
-When we were separated, it became unutterably dull for the one who was
-left companionless. Ghosts it must have had in plenty. There certainly
-was an “impluvium,” which in these days is rarer than a ghost. I mean
-that the whole centre of the house was open to the winds of heaven, for
-the purpose of collecting the rain water which fell into a huge reservoir
-at the basement.
-
-The ghosts, if any, never showed themselves—frightened in all probability
-by the antagonism of Ronald’s temperament. But we discovered what was
-next best to the real article—the equipments and paraphernalia of one.
-In a disused coach-house we came one day on an old travelling carriage of
-the fashion in use sixty years ago, when paterfamilias took himself and
-his family for a progress round the country. Rumble it had, and
-imperial, and a chest of most unearthly pattern, accommodated to the
-space under the back seat.
-
-But the glass was broken in the frames, and the hangings were mouldy.
-The very woodwork was so worm-eaten that at a touch you would expect it
-to crumble into dust, like one of the Pharaohs when he is disencumbered
-of his trappings. It was painted—or rather had been painted—a sable
-black, but the colour had deteriorated with time to the hue of rusty
-crêpe.
-
-Our first impression suggested that it was some time-honoured memorial of
-the past—the carriage, it might be, in which a bride and bridegroom had
-made their home-coming under auspices of exceptional promise. But a
-second glance through the broken semicircular skylight told rather of
-intentional neglect or indifference. The plaster of the coach-house,
-where it still clung to the lath, had broken out into patches of
-mouldiness, defiant of the first principles of cleanliness, while an army
-of spiders, who must have worked unmolested for years, had tied the
-carriage to the walls and floor with a net-work of dirt-begrimed strands.
-
-“What on earth is it? and why is it kept here?” asked Ronald of the
-groom. “I shall get the uncle to have it broken up and burned: it’s only
-filling the place with moths and insects.”
-
-“Don’t you do nought of the kind, Master Ronald,” said the coachman,
-lowering his voice to a whisper. “That carriage has been driven up to
-these very doors by old Nick himself, or one or other of his coachmen.
-Aye, you may laugh. But it’s true enough, and not so long ago neither.
-They’d forgotten—had your aunt and uncle—that it was here in the stable
-at all: it must have been here years before they bought the place—till
-_he_ came and drove it round to the front door one night, all mouldy and
-ramshackled just as you see it now.”
-
-“Do tell us, Frampton, about it. I’ll promise not to laugh.”
-
-“Well, ’twas the night before we were starting for the South of France,
-and I was going with them to look after the horses they were to hire in
-Paris. The house had been full of visitors for Christmas, but most of
-them had gone the day before, and the rest of them were to leave along
-with us.
-
-“It was in the middle of the night, though they never noticed the true
-time, when they heard, both of them, a carriage drive up to the front
-door.
-
-“They were fairly puzzled what it could mean, as they expected no
-visitors, least of all at that time of night. Your aunt got up first and
-then called your uncle. And there, full in the moonlight, stood that
-identical carriage, and the coachman was a skellington—dressed in black
-and weepers, for all the world like an undertaker at a funeral. He
-turned his eyes—or what should have been his eyes—full upon them both.
-And then your aunt went faint, and I believe your uncle did no better.
-Anyhow, when they came back to their senses, carriage and coachman were
-gone.”
-
-“And what did it mean, Frampton?”
-
-“Well, that’s more than I can tell you, Master Ronald. It’s fairly
-puzzled all of us. I’m sure I’ve bothered my head times over to try and
-piece it together, seeing it meant no harm to them, but only to a lot of
-folk they’d never seen or heard of.”
-
-“How did that come about?”
-
-“When we got to Paris, we put up at one of them big hotels—I forget the
-name of it. And one day he and she were going up to their rooms in the
-lift. Just as they were stepping aboard of it, they looked chanceways at
-the man who managed it, and I’m blessed if it wasn’t the same coachman as
-had driven that there carriage up to the door at Broadwater. They were
-that frightened that they stepped back, and the lift went up without
-them. And well it was they did so, for something or other went wrong
-with the hauling gear, and every soul on board of it was killed.
-
-“And now you know, Master Ronald, why your uncle won’t have that carriage
-never touched. He’s got it into his head, and you won’t get it out
-again, that it was sent to save his life. All I can say is that, if
-that’s what it did mean, old Nick carries on his business in a queer,
-roundabout kind of way.”
-
-
-II
-
-
-Not many days after Frampton had imparted to us his sensational story, we
-were told to expect a visit from the family lawyer. Ronald and I always
-hailed his visits with delight. He was one of those cheery individuals
-whom boys can chum with. In age he must have been nearly seventy-five,
-but hale and hearty still: entering into our amusements, never minding
-our noise, and tipping us when he left with a liberality that appalled
-our uncle. Ronald and I would have put him down for fifty. But boys do
-not recognise the gradations of age. To them a man seems definitely old
-at fifty, and live as long as he may after that, years will add nothing
-to the mystery of his age, if only he keeps young in heart and interests.
-At sixty, seventy, or even eighty, he will in their eyes be fifty still.
-
-As a matter of course Ronald and I were told to put in an appearance on
-the day of his arrival. The unvarying order of the programme was that,
-after he had had a few words with our uncle, we two should form his
-escort in a progress round the park and outlying farms.
-
-“So your uncle still cherishes the old Crofton coach,” he said, as we
-passed the outhouse tenanted by the family ghost. “I wonder he cares to
-keep it,”—almost Ronald’s own words to Frampton, the coachman—from which
-it was clear he had never heard of our uncle’s visitant, nor did we
-venture to enlighten him.
-
-“Do you know anything about it, Sir?” asked Ronald, in the eager tone of
-one who had by no means lost hope of solving the mystery.
-
-“My boy, I’ve _ridden in it_.”
-
-Ronald’s face was a study. “Ridden in it? actually _ridden_ in that
-coach? And did you, Sir, _did_ you see the devil?” he continued
-anxiously. “Frampton says he always drives it.”
-
-“Not exactly, Ronald. And, by the way, my lad, I wouldn’t, if I were
-you, introduce his name quite so familiarly into your conversation.
-Frampton must be cautioned, Fred, as to what he tells the boy.”
-
-“Well, he didn’t exactly say that, Sir,” continued Ronald, willing to
-justify his friend. “He called him old Nick.”
-
-“That’s a trifle better. Anyhow, I didn’t see him, though I can’t say
-honestly that my ride was a pleasant one. I’d been staying here with old
-Crofton, just before he sold the place to your uncle, and I had business
-too to transact with Thorpe of Thorpe Hill. As luck would have it, all
-the carriages here were in use but this one. It wasn’t in the state it
-is now, but it was out of date and uncomfortable even then. However, it
-took me there all right. It was on the way back that I had my adventure.
-
-“I had barely composed myself to sleep with the consciousness of having
-dined too well—Thorpe never stinted his guests—when I was roused by an
-uneasy feeling that I was not the sole occupant of the carriage. The
-interior was lit up by a weird, fantastic light that came and went, rose
-and fell, like the glow that throbs over a brick-kiln or a blast furnace.
-After all, it may have been only the reflection of my own cigar which I
-had instinctively kept alight during my short nap. From out the
-border-land which separates sleep from waking, I saw two figures on the
-opposite seat. For a time I studied them with hardly more interest than
-I should the figures in a pantomime, till it was forced upon me by their
-wild gesticulation that this was no pantomime enacting for my benefit,
-but a veritable tragedy of life and death. The one figure shrank
-cowering in a corner of the carriage; the other stood over it with
-uplifted hand. But no voice or sound proceeded from them. Only on the
-hand of one, the figure that crouched and trembled, I recognised the
-famous Thorpe emerald—as the family lawyer I knew it well—while the other
-that stormed and threatened might have passed for old Crofton himself, in
-so far as youth of twenty can anticipate the form and lineaments of
-seventy-five.
-
-“The details had hardly had time to shape themselves within my brain,
-when the light died out. I heard—or fancied I heard—a short, sharp gasp,
-an inarticulate cry for mercy, and the carriage drew up before the gate
-of Broadwater.”
-
-That night after dinner we were subjected to a close cross-examination by
-our uncle.
-
-“The boys have told me your surprising story, Mr. Roberts. May I ask how
-it is I never heard it from you before?”
-
-“Why, to tell you the truth, Mr. Heyward, you wouldn’t have heard it now
-if my little friend Ronald hadn’t rushed me into telling it by his burst
-of eagerness. You might have said I’d been dining too well—as indeed I
-had—and that isn’t exactly the thing to recommend a family lawyer. So
-you’ve got my reputation at your mercy, young gentlemen. For, of course,
-it _was_ the dinner—a nightmare of some kind, no doubt. Though I’m bound
-to say I never had a nightmare, either before or afterwards, that was
-half so vivid and real. It was quite the worst quarter of an hour I ever
-passed in my life.”
-
-“Perhaps not so much of a nightmare as you suppose,” rejoined the uncle,
-and then proceeded to narrate his own experiences. I remember thinking
-how much better Frampton told the story than he did, in spite of his
-rather unorthodox language.
-
-“Phew! that alters the whole question. Corroborative evidence with a
-vengeance—evidence that one might almost take into court. For even if
-_you_ had been dining not wisely, your sister hadn’t, I know. Anyhow, we
-three staid gentlefolk could create a pretty sensation with our three
-independent testimonies. To think that a belief in ghosts should be
-forced upon me at my age! Why I shall be dragged next into believing the
-village legend.”
-
-“What is it? I never even heard of it.”
-
-“That Ronald’s old carriage is somehow mixed up with the quarrel between
-Thorpe and Broadwater—that it stands in the way of their family union.
-So you see, young gentlemen, where you’ve got to look for a wife as soon
-as the carriage is gone. But it doesn’t look like it yet. Old Thorpe’s
-dead, and the house shut up, and the only survivor of the family is on
-the point, they tell me, of marrying her cousin. Above all, you guard
-the old carriage, Heyward, as if it were a priceless heirloom. But
-perhaps you are right; it isn’t your business to get rid of it.”
-
-
-III
-
-
-So the old carriage mouldered on in the coach-house, and its net-work of
-cobwebs grew grimier each day.
-
-How the spiders maintained themselves was a mystery, for no fly could
-have run the blockade of the window, even if the inducement had been
-greater. At last Ronald and I wove a legend around them in our turn,
-which terrified us more than did the carriage itself. We decided that,
-after long years of mutual slaughter, the victory had rested in the end
-with two or three hoary monsters, who had ensconced themselves within the
-framework of the ruined carriage, from which they looked out upon the
-solitude they were creating. Little by little the uncanny idea grew upon
-us till, regardless of all probability, we fancied we could see their
-eyes peering out of the darkness.
-
-More than once we made illicit expeditions at midnight in the hope that
-we might find the ghostly coachman cleaning and repairing his equipage
-for another sortie. But we could see nothing. If either of us had gone
-alone, the result might have been different; we should have seen, or
-pretended to see, many matters of interest.
-
-November was, as a rule, our month of storms at Broadwater, though
-February often ran it close; and, in the year that followed upon
-Frampton’s story, a gale broke upon us on the third of the month that
-beat the record of our times for violence. We had not been without
-warning of its coming. The sea had been “crying out” at intervals—sure
-token that the storm had paused to gather breath, bidding the sea take
-forward its message to the shore.
-
-Not when the gale is at its height—at any rate along our coast—can you
-best realise the grandeur of the sea. Study it rather on one of these
-quiet days of warning, when you can trace a wave almost from its
-inception, till it curls over at your feet with a dull roar, regular as
-the boom of a minute gun, and audible for miles inland.
-
-Lashed into foam, and its voice drowned by the wind, it parts with much
-of its majesty, and becomes merely a symbol of turmoil and unrest. What
-it gains in wildness, it loses in self-control, like the seething rapids
-of Niagara before they compose themselves into dignity prior to the final
-plunge.
-
-Then came another and a final warning. It was one of those rare sunsets
-which leave an imprint on the memory for life. Not a sunset in which
-conflicting colours are fused into each other by soft and subtle
-gradations—these we see often and soon forget—but one of war and discord;
-when colours, the most antagonistic, meet without blending, and produce
-effects that would be called crude and coarse upon a painter’s canvas.
-
-On a background of unvarying crimson, black and purple clouds were
-projected, clean cut in outline, and solid, to all appearance, as the
-hull of an Atlantic liner that was cleaving her way across the sea
-beneath them. The sea itself borrowed its colours from the sky, but
-jealously guarded them from encroaching on the beach beyond, which shone
-white as silver in the unnatural glow. Beyond it still, the valleys and
-hills that rose behind Broadwater were painted a dark and luminous green,
-on which a few scattered homesteads stood out in clear and startling
-relief. For the moment distance was annihilated, and a step or two, or
-so it seemed, might have compassed the mile of space that separated us
-from our own house door.
-
-A sunset like this, following upon a “crying” sea, can never be misread
-by the dwellers on our coast. It warns every fisherman that he must haul
-his lerret to the very summit of the ridge, and every Coastguard station
-along the dreaded Bay that it behoves them to be awake and watching. But
-it was not till midnight that the storm broke upon us.
-
-Our faith in the old house was strong. It had outlived so many storms,
-and the gale of ’24 must have been worse than this, or so we kept saying
-for mutual encouragement. But it was hard to believe it, and the comfort
-was quickly followed by a disquieting thought that each year, as it
-passed, left the chimneys older and less capable of resisting the
-pressure. We were disquieted, too, for others; we knew well by
-experience what a night like this might bring us from the sea. Times
-upon times, in similar gales, we had been hurried to the beach by signals
-of distress, and had helped the Coastguard, sometimes in saving life,
-oftener in furthering that painful recall to life which is more agonizing
-to witness than death itself.
-
-Happily there came to-night no appealing cry. Even if it had pierced its
-way through wind and rain, those whom it summoned could only have watched
-and waited for one of those strange freaks by which the sea now and again
-elects to spare a human life. At the height of the gale, when gust upon
-gust followed each other with ever increasing fury, we were still seated
-in the drawing-room under various pretences. Ronald and I said openly
-that we were afraid of venturing our lives in the upper rooms, just under
-the chimneys. Our uncle jeered at our cowardice, but stayed where he
-was. “The noise would prevent my sleeping,” he said, “but, as for
-danger, I’d as lief sleep in the garrets as anywhere; only the servants’
-beds ain’t as comfortable as my own. The old house’ll last our time
-yet.”
-
-As if in answer to his boast, the gale made another defiant howl. It was
-answered by a dull crash, followed by a continuous roar of falling
-materials—followed again by a dead silence that was audible above the
-rush of wind and rain. It took us only a few minutes to satisfy
-ourselves that the fabric of the house was safe. It was a chimney
-stablewards that had gone, crashing through a hay loft and lumber room
-right down on the top of our ghostly carriage, and clearing Broadwater of
-spiders for the period of our lives. Even the uncle himself could find
-no plea for extending his protection to a mass of shivered fragments. If
-the powers of darkness had destroyed their own handiwork, or failed in
-ability to protect it, there was no reason to suppose that the hand of
-man would be more successful. So the fiat went forth—not, I believe,
-without great searching of heart on the part of our uncle—and carriage
-and cobwebs, and even the stable itself were swept away, and, as Bunyan
-says, I saw them no more.
-
-“Well, I’m glad that it’s gone,” said a quiet, sweet voice at my elbow,
-as Ronald and I were watching the departure of the last load of
-materials. And, turning, I saw before me the woman who was to be the
-guiding star of Ronald’s life, yes, and my own life too. She was little
-more than a girl then—only a few years older than Ronald himself—with a
-great calm truthfulness in her eyes, and the air of one who had already
-known sorrow, and been refined, not hardened, by the experience.
-
-“Yes,” she repeated, “I am glad it’s gone. And now we can be friends.
-It has been so lonely for me at Thorpe ever since my father died, and I
-have so wanted to make friends with you; only that old carriage stood in
-the way. It was silly, no doubt, to be so much afraid, but then I am
-Scotch—and the Scotch you know are very superstitious,” she added with a
-smile. “Besides, ever since I can remember anything, I’ve been told that
-the old carriage meant mischief and trouble between Thorpe and
-Broadwater. It is true, no doubt, that an ancestor of mine did die in
-it, and that all sorts of ghastly rumours were current as to how he met
-his death. But nothing ever came of them, and it was commonly assumed
-that he died of heart disease; he had certainly been ailing for years
-before. Thank heaven! the very scene of the crime—if such it were—has
-been swept away at last. And it is pleasant, isn’t it? to recommence our
-life’s friendship here where it was wrecked. Though I fear we shan’t
-meet often as yet, for my husband that is to be lives abroad, till I can
-persuade him to give up his post and settle down with me for good in the
-dear old home. But you _will_ be my friends, won’t you, for always?”
-
-She held out her hand in pledge of her friendship. And we shall be
-friends, I think, “for always.” I like the old-fashioned phrase.
-
-Besides, it was her own.
-
-
-
-On the Racecourse at Bayview
-
-
-IT was Ronald’s birthday, and the day fixed for the Races at Bayview—an
-unlucky coincidence, for he always showed a keen spirit of enterprise on
-that particular morning. He was now fourteen, and looked a trifle older
-owing to his splendid physique. Even in the nursery visitors had
-christened him the “Infant Hercules.” A Viking he was in miniature, with
-clear blue eyes and short, crisp hair, carrying with him an atmosphere of
-suppressed fun that, dangerous as it might prove, was a certain guarantee
-against dulness or want of spirit. He had behaved himself beautifully
-for an entire month. But I distrusted him to-day. He had never seen the
-races, and had constantly signified his intention of doing so. So when
-his uncle said to him at breakfast, “You are not to go to the races; they
-are destructive of morality, especially to a boy of your age,” and Ronald
-winked at me across the table, I felt sure he intended to go.
-
-“No sir,” he said respectfully—“and I suppose you won’t go either. Of
-course they can’t do you any harm at your age; but they can’t do you any
-good.”
-
-“As it happens, Ronald, I shall go—just to make sure that you don’t.
-Besides, I think it a good principle that elderly people should be seen
-doing things which they forbid to their youngsters. Unquestioning
-obedience is a fine thing. It doesn’t follow that because I allow myself
-a cigar to quiet my nerves, therefore you should smoke who don’t know
-what a nerve means.”
-
-“No sir: of course it doesn’t”—and he winked again.
-
-For myself, I distinctly intended to go to the races, seeing that I was
-past the age at which my uncle feared their contagion; though neither was
-I old enough to plead the principle which he had so astutely paraded on
-his own account. And so I went.
-
-Ronald had left the house soon after breakfast—for a ride (he said)—and,
-as I saw nothing of him on the racecourse, I was comfortable in the
-belief that for once he had obeyed orders. When the races were nearly
-over, a little stable boy came up to me and touched his cap:
-
-“Hold your horse, sir?”
-
-By Jove, it was Ronald. He had borrowed Dick the groom’s livery, and had
-had a fine time of it, he told me, in that unconventional attire.
-
-Just then our uncle rode up. “Now stand away, Fred, and don’t be seen
-talking to me, and I’ll show you some rare sport.”
-
-“Hold your horse, sir?”—this to our uncle.
-
-“Well, I don’t mind if you do, and I’ll have a stroll with Fred here till
-it’s time to go home.”
-
-After a lounge along the course, chatting with friends and criticising
-the horses, we came back to where we left Ronald. “Thanks,” said the
-uncle, as he re-mounted, “here’s a shilling for you. A lucky dog you
-are, too, for it’s got a hole in it, I see. Good-day.”
-
-When dinner was over that evening, the uncle waxed genial over a bottle
-of ’75 Margaux. “We’d a capital day’s racing, Ronald. I’m almost sorry
-you weren’t with us. Next year, all well, my boy, I’ll take you myself.”
-
-“Thanks, sir”—and he winked the third time. “By the way, you haven’t
-lost a shilling, sir, have you? I picked up this one while you were at
-the races. You’re a lucky dog, sir, if it does belong to you, for it’s
-got a hole in it?”
-
-Verdict: _Acquitted_, _but don’t do it again_.
-
-
-
-On the Sands
-
-
-BROADWATER was fearfully dull on a Sunday, so I came over from Bayview
-where I was staying, that Ronald and I might help each other in getting
-through the day.
-
-It was a blazing afternoon in August, and the park, shut in by hills,
-shimmered in a haze of heat. “I can’t stand this,” said Ronald. “Air I
-must get somehow, and, as it’s not to be got nearer than the sea, we’ll
-walk to the shore in search of it. It’s rather hard on you, to be sure,
-who’ve done the walk once already. But it’s better than lounging about
-here, where it’s too hot to speak or think; and, at any rate, we shall
-see the trippers.”
-
-It happened, most unluckily, that just as we reached the pier, an open
-air service had begun. Of course they had chosen the hottest corner
-possible for it; a nook sheltered by the masonry of the pier, which
-carefully excluded every breath of wind that might be travelling to us
-from the sea. But, despite the heat, it was a temptation to mild
-excitement that Ronald found it impossible to resist.
-
-“Not so good as the nigger minstrels, but better than nothing,” he said.
-So we joined the throng of listeners. It was the usual audience, the
-devotees (mainly women) forming the inner circle, in close proximity to
-the preacher and the harmonium. Next came the half-hearted, weaker
-vessels, who separated the former as by a wall from the irreverent throng
-of idlers who laughed and talked and smoked on the outside fringe. The
-preacher was a man of the ordinary type, only a little stouter, a little
-more flaccid and even more illiterate than usual. Where do they come
-from, these preachers? Are they men who think they have a call or a
-gift? and are they accepted for the office on their own valuation?
-Certainly they are not chosen for any capability that can approve itself
-to the impartial hearer.
-
-The present representative of the school was enlarging, when we came up,
-upon the demerits of the publican. Ronald, after a few minutes, began to
-fume and fret. But he behaved for a while excellently well, though I
-could hear him muttering words in an undertone distinctly uncomplimentary
-to the preacher.
-
-“And it is publicans like these—the scum and refuse of Jerusalem—that are
-represented in this town to-day by the inn-keepers, barmen, and pot-boys,
-who an hour or two hence will be serving many of their fellow
-creatures—many, I fear, of this audience—with drink, to the ruin of their
-lives here and of their hopes of salvation hereafter.”
-
-“Nothing of the sort,” shouted Ronald, “he wasn’t an innkeeper at all; he
-was a tax-gatherer. Every schoolboy knows that.”
-
-The silence that followed was awful; every eye was turned upon the boy,
-and it was a strain upon my loyalty to remain at his side, and not then
-and there renounce his acquaintance.
-
-“Oh, he wasn’t, wasn’t he, young man?” said the preacher. “Well, as you
-seems to know more about the Bible than I do, perhaps you’ll step up here
-and take my place. Kindly tell us, if _you_ please, out of _your_
-superior knowledge, what he was, and why he was called a publican if he
-was a tax-collector; and why a poor collector of rates, who only did his
-duty, is held up to our scorn and reprobation; yes, our _reprobation_.”
-(This word he regarded as a crushing climax.)
-
-To my complete and indescribable confusion, Ronald, nothing loth,
-accepted the challenge with delight, and the next moment was standing on
-the platform addressing an appreciative audience. What a sermon he gave
-them!—lasting without a pause or break for exactly half-an-hour; every
-thought reasoned out, and closing with a peroration of consummate
-eloquence. By a clever feint he had diverted the text of the preacher to
-one on the Pharisee and the Publican, making a scathing attack on the
-Pharisaism of the day, which went to church, and gave its alms openly and
-never in secret; which paid its way and kept the conventional
-commandments, and neglected (as of little count) the weightier things of
-unselfishness and love. “A day is coming when it will matter nothing
-where we lived, nor in what occupations, nor amidst what circumstances,
-but only how we wrought, and in what spirit we suffered. Be the thing
-you say; be unselfish, in your own poor way, to your friends and to your
-home, and to the world about you; that is worth ten thousand sermons and
-a hundred thousand Articles of Religion.” A dead silence followed as he
-stepped down from the platform; he had left a charm upon us that it
-seemed sacrilege to break. Then came a word or two. “What a wonderful
-boy!—a second Spurgeon; with all his eloquence and none of his
-irreverence.”
-
-“Summat worth hearin’, I calls it; how he did pitch into they bloomin’
-aristocrats. I’ll come and hear ye, young master, whensomdever you holds
-forth agin.”
-
-“Well—I never!” It was with this ungrammatical aposiopesis that I
-started, so soon as I could find breath to start at all. “Where on
-earth, Ronald, did you get it all from?” The boy had come back to me
-looking as cool as a cucumber, and highly delighted with the sensation he
-had created.
-
-“Don’t tell, Fred,” he answered, “but it was a sermon of Vaughan’s. We
-are made to analyse his sermons at school, and say them afterwards for
-repetition lessons. So when that old donkey fell foul of the publican, I
-had one handy you see, on that very subject, and I thought it a pity not
-to fire it off.”
-
-Surely, I thought, he’ll be satisfied now, and I tried to draw him away
-from the crowd, who were becoming a trifle too much interested in our
-name and identity. But no; not a bit of it. The excitement was full
-upon him still. So up he went to the harmonium (they had now started a
-hymn), and looking over the shoulder of the performer (she was a pretty
-girl of eighteen) he began to sing as lustily as the best of them. By
-degrees his arm, I saw, began to steal about her waist, and, fuss and
-fidget as she might, she was powerless to help herself. Her hands were
-occupied with the keyboard, and her feet with the blower, and with her
-voice she had to lead the singing. So he had her at his mercy, and
-hugged her disgracefully, while she, poor girl, was powerless to resist.
-The audience all thought she was his sister, and highly commended him, it
-was clear, for the countenance and support he was giving her.
-
-While the last line of the last verse was being sung, the temptation
-became too strong for resistance, and Ronald stooped down and kissed
-her—an action which touched still further the sympathetic heart of the
-audience.
-
-“A dear, good young feller that, as ever I see’d”—said an old lady in my
-immediate neighbourhood. “I only wish as how he were a son of mine; a
-preachin’ that fine, for all the world like the Bishop, and a’ lookin’
-arter his sister so prettily—and a nice young girl she is too.”
-
-After this exploit he slipped across the circle and joined me, and a
-minute later—with hot and blazing cheeks—I was thankful to find myself
-round the corner, and well on the way home before the throng of listeners
-had begun to disperse. I felt, indeed, as must that Bishop, who, to
-oblige a small girl younger in years than in experience, condescended to
-ring at a street door, and was rewarded with the advice, “Run! _run_ for
-yer life! they’ll knock the ’ead off yer shoulders if they catches ye.”
-I wonder what he elected to do? pocket his dignity and run? or rely upon
-his clerical attire to see him through? In any case our anxiety would be
-more protracted. What if the escapade should reach our uncle’s ears?
-However I was spared this climax. The story of it got wind in the
-servants’ hall, as all stories do; but the servants were far too loyal to
-Master Ronald to betray him, and so it never made its way up stairs to
-the drawing room.
-
- * * * * *
-
-But the career of that preacher was ended—in Bayview.
-
-
-
-Our Rector
-
-
-WE had two, if not three, celebrities in our village. The Rector is
-dead; the Clerk is dead; the Professor still lives. But, independently
-of this claim to our respect, let us give precedence to the Church.
-
-Less than fifty years ago the services in a parish not ten miles from one
-of our well-known watering places were done—or left undone—by surely the
-queerest cleric of his time.
-
-A grand old man he was in person—tall, and venerable as Bede himself,
-with the most benevolent of faces and the most silver of silver hair.
-Fit to be an archbishop, so far as appearances went, but most unfit to
-have the charge of the hundred souls—there were no more of them—committed
-to his trust.
-
-To these he ministered, or (as I have said) failed to minister, on Sunday
-mornings; for often as not the services, stipulated for at the price of
-£75 per annum, were left unperformed on the shallowest of pretexts. It
-might be the weather; it might be that he was indisposed; often, I fear,
-it was from sheer disinclination.
-
-To the hamlet that clustered close round the church it was a matter of
-comparative indifference. They never believed by anticipation in the
-service till the bell was actually sounding; and his henchman (clerk,
-sexton, choirmaster and gravedigger in one) had strict orders to withhold
-this summons till the Rector himself was actually in view. But to our
-party, who lived two miles away, the question of service or no service
-was a serious one. It meant hesitation in starting, and reluctance to
-risk the chance—provocation, too, even to my long-suffering father, when
-he found the church door barred, and a south-wester brewing, in the teeth
-of which we had to struggle home over a barren down, unsupported by the
-nutriment, mental and moral, on which we had calculated. But the
-service, when it did take place, was a queerer experience by far than the
-service foregone. The orchestra would have been the despair of
-Nebuchadnezzar. It consisted of a single flageolet, blown by the wheezy
-old sexton—one Joseph Edwards by name. We did not even boast of a
-serpent—instrument immortalised by Mr. Hardy for its volume of tone in
-supplementing deficiencies. Now the flageolet is a pet aversion of mine,
-and I can forgive Nebuchadnezzar many of his iniquities for having (so
-far as we know) excluded it from his band. Indeed, musicians themselves
-would seem to be ashamed of it, for they have re-christened it, I am
-told, by a humbler name. But I was careful not to betray my feelings to
-my friend Joseph, and listened patiently while he enlarged on the
-capabilities and melodiousness of his pet instrument. “Not but what I’m
-getting a bit wheezy (he’d often say to me), and can’t make the
-flourishes as onst I could. But ’tis may be better as it is. They
-quieter tunes are belike more godly. Anyhow the choir—poor souls—got
-right puzzled among my turns and quavers, coming in here, there and no
-how at the finish.”
-
-But, praise it as he might, the flageolet is the worst instrument
-possible to constitute an orchestra; especially when played as Joseph
-played it. It gave out a series of squeaks and
-counter-squeaks—punctuated and accentuated by his wheezes rather than by
-the requirements of the tune. Indeed, a boy learning the bugle, or a
-Punch and Judy panpipe, would have discoursed more decorous music. To me
-the panpipe and the flageolet seem nearly akin; only the flageolet is the
-more powerful instrument of the two, and Punch is more exacting than we
-were in the choice of an executant.
-
-Once, as a special favour, I was invited by Joseph to attend a choir
-practice. It was before his hand or, I should say, his breath had lost
-its cunning; and it took place on this wise. An hour before service
-(which on this occasion was actually realised) Joseph took his stand in
-the reading desk, flageolet in hand, while a group of apple-cheeked
-cottagers—fishermen mainly, and plough-boys—grouped themselves in my
-father’s pew below. In one point at any rate Joseph had anticipated the
-ritual of later days; he repudiated all women from his choir. “’Taint no
-place for ’em,” he’d say; “I wonder what ’postle Paul ’d think, if he
-could ha’ heard they two women at S. Matthew’s screechin’ out ‘O ’twas a
-joyful sound to hear’—and none of us, let alone the choir, privileged to
-put in a joyful sound along wi ’em. If women baint allowed to preach in
-Church, stands to reason that they baint allowed to sing.”
-
-“Now boys, turn to ‘Aurelia,’ and go for to remember that we sing the
-whole on’t right through this time. Last time as ever we did it some on
-you took to skipping and one sang one verse and t’other the next, whereby
-I had to blow myself nigh faint to hide your discordance. And mind ye
-too, sing ’en slow, not as if you wanted to get shot on’t.”
-
-All went well at the first rehearsal, for Joseph played the air
-distinctly and without disturbing flourishes—only with an intolerable
-drawl, mindful in all probability of “passon’s” injunctions; of which
-more anon.
-
-“Well sung,” says he; “you be a good choir when you be so minded; and
-well instructed, too, though I says it as didn’t ought to. Now then,
-we’ll see what ye can do when I puts in the flourishes.”
-
-This was a change for the worse, and what had been a melancholy dirge
-became a haphazard scramble for notes, each boy seizing on the one that
-he could detect among the enveloping flourishes, regardless whether it
-was the same note that had found favour with his neighbour. In the end
-the hymn became a sacrilegious fugue, devoid of time, harmony or
-sequence. Yet Joseph was never disquieted at the result. On the
-contrary, he regarded it as a tribute to his skill, addressing his choir
-at the finish as a general might address his discomfited troops: “You’ve
-done your best, and none of us can’t do no more. Better luck at
-church-time, and this I do say, that ’tis few players can overlay a
-melody as I can wi’ flourishes and expect them as sings it to pick out
-the tune.”
-
-But to return to our Rector. The fun began (I write, remember, as a boy
-of ten) with the First Lesson. When the time for it approached, great
-preparations were seen to be in progress. Our benevolent Archbishop
-retired into the recesses of the reading desk (a high, square pew,
-scarcely to be differentiated from our own) and disposed his lunch in
-orderly array upon the sill overhanging my father’s head. And, to give
-time for its consumption, a boy was summoned from the
-congregation—usually it was his own son, a curly-pated lad of thirteen—to
-discourse the Lesson. Manfully he grappled with the difficulties and
-hard names of the Old Testament—sticking and halting at nothing, and
-making a record of false quantities and mispronunciations that I have
-never heard beaten during a twenty years’ experience of the average
-undergraduate. Meanwhile his father lunched peacefully, careless what
-havoc he made with the Kings of Israel and Judah. But woe betide the boy
-if ever he tried to skip a name. A guttural rebuke issued from the
-depths of the reading desk: “None of that, Jack; go back, my lad, and try
-it again.”
-
-But his greatest delight of all was to hear Jack struggling with the
-genealogy in St. Luke. A series of chuckles issued from the corner where
-the old man lay ensconced, that gathered in volume with every fresh fall;
-and when the boy, hot and discomfited, retired from the fray, there was a
-pause in the proceedings till the old man had recovered himself
-sufficiently to resume his functions. His luncheon meanwhile had been
-progressing steadily, not without the gurgling sound of something
-comforting to facilitate digestion. It puzzled me for years to discover
-the _raison d’ être_ of this extraordinary meal, knowing as I did that an
-hour later he would be dining with one of his cottagers, after careful
-preliminary enquiry as to which house could offer the most attractive
-fare. Only quite lately, long after the idea of luncheon had been
-stereotyped upon my brain, I found out that the so-called luncheon was,
-after all, no luncheon at all, but only a retarded breakfast. Our Rector
-being a late riser, and having a five-mile walk before him, could find no
-opportunity of taking it in comfort till he had reached the haven of the
-parish reading desk.
-
-A cigar was the indispensable accompaniment of the second Lesson, during
-which period its fumes could be seen ascending like “curling incense” to
-the blackened rafters of the roof. Indeed, the only thing that ever
-really shattered my father’s equanimity was the sight of its reeking end,
-projected over his head from the sill of the reading desk, where the
-Rector had reluctantly placed it while he applied himself to the
-requirements of the “Benedictus.”
-
-When the flageolet sounded the key note of the first hymn, the Rector
-regarded it as the signal of a temporary relaxation. He was for a time
-off duty, and the cigar was again in requisition. But in fine and balmy
-weather, he found the atmosphere of the church too close for its
-enjoyment. It “gathered sweetness from the open air.” So, attired in
-surplice, stole and bands, our Rector strolled out into the
-churchyard—giving us pleasant little vista-views of his enjoyment as he
-passed and re-passed the windows of the aisles. That it might be enjoyed
-in perfection and unto the end, the hymns selected were inordinately
-long. But, if fate was against him, and the wind light, and the cigar
-drew slowly, he had no false shame in appearing on the chancel steps to
-announce with all the dignity of a formal notice that the last two verses
-of the hymn would be repeated. After which he disappeared into the
-churchyard again.
-
-The sermon was to me, as a boy, full of the most delightful interest. It
-had an infinity of anticipation. No one knew what was coming—least of
-all the Rector himself. We felt stimulated by the chance of any and
-every possibility. A clergyman of the strictest sect of the
-Evangelicals, he always preached in a surplice. (It was in the days,
-remember, when the Geneva gown was the badge of that school, and the sign
-of a high church cleric was barely appearing above the horizon).
-
-But I sadly fear that our Rector was influenced by no question of
-principle or non-principle; I cannot, I think, be wronging him if I infer
-that his preference for the surplice was due to sheer indifference or
-indolence.
-
-Then came the always exciting task of moving the immense Bible from the
-reading desk to the pulpit. He regarded it, I think, almost in the light
-of a fetish, and certainly, so long as I knew him, would never have
-attempted a sermon with any smaller and less trustworthy guide. He
-balanced the enormous volume in his right hand, and, with his left hand
-on the rails, steadied himself as he made the painful and perilous
-ascent. The hope, I fear, of us boys was that the book would one day
-slip from his hand and imperil the head of the clerk beneath, who was now
-no longer choirmaster, but, like a Roman flute player, had crossed over
-to his proper seat and resumed his duties beneath the pulpit. But the
-hope was never realised, and I have felt ever since that my life has
-lacked something in consequence.
-
-The choice of his text was the longest part of his sermon. The Bible was
-opened haphazard, as though he intended to execute a sort of _sors
-Vergiliana_. But so casual a method was quite unsuited to the dignity of
-our Rector. The pages were turned and re-turned; whole chapters were
-read and carefully studied, and, after a quarter of an hour of this
-preliminary investigation, a text was given out, that for glaring
-irrelevance and disconnection with everything else could never have been
-surpassed if he had taken it at sight. A name out of a genealogy—the
-Christian name Mary—Tophet—the daubed wall—pillows for all armholes—are
-among the subjects that I distinctly remember were selected for our
-edification. But of the treatment alas! I remember nothing—nothing then,
-and certainly nothing now, when I would give £50 to trace the exact
-process of his reasoning.
-
-The last sermon I ever heard him deliver was on the text, “And there
-shall be no more sea”—an unwise and disquieting subject for a
-congregation, most of whom came of a race of fishermen, and gained their
-living from the element which he so confidently annihilated.
-
-“If there baint no sea, then ’tis no place for I,” I heard a man say to
-his neighbour as he passed out of church; “and sakes alive, where be ’en
-going to get their fish from?”
-
-Such was our Rector. Not reverent or discreet, you will say, in his
-capacity of priest. No, but a kindly, genial old man; devoted to his
-parishioners, if not to his duties; clever too, and companionable in
-society, and inexhaustible to the boys of the parish in the matter of
-marbles and gingerbread.
-
-It is with affection that I recall him, for, in spite of his
-eccentricities, and perhaps because of them, I loved him well.—_R.I.P._
-
-
-
-Echoes from an Organ Loft
-
-
- “Pale fingers moved upon the keys,
- The ghost hands of past centuries.”
-
-From Joseph’s flageolet to one of the finest organs in England—from the
-scene of “our Rector’s” ministrations to a building that could have
-swallowed up his church and his school room and all the house property in
-his parish—was a startling transition for a boy of fourteen.
-
-I wonder how often, during my first experience of a cathedral service, my
-thoughts travelled back to the tiny hamlet in the west, with its ruined
-chancel on which the Atlantic had spent its rage, and its few cottages
-straggling on and up behind an avenue of elms, to where the new church,
-safe in a sheltered paradise of its own, looks down compassionately upon
-the wreckage of the past.
-
-In times to come I got to know every nook and corner of the great organ
-loft at K. It was built in those large minded days before architects had
-conceived the fatal idea of economising space. Ascending by a broad
-staircase that rose with the dignity of an inclined plane, you came out
-upon a plateau, roomier and more comfortable than many a London flat.
-The sanctum of the organist—indeed, the huge instrument itself—were
-little more than incidents of the loft. There was a chamber for the wife
-of the dean, and another chamber for the wife of the organist, together
-with a library for the Church music; and still there was room in it for
-blind man’s buff—when the choristers could get the chance.
-
-The organ itself might have been a mile away—so little did you hear of
-it. In this respect the loft resembled the deck of a battleship, where
-the men who work the guns hear least of the explosion. Only a few
-muttered growls from the big pipes that lined the walls on either side,
-or burrowed in the caverns underneath, suggested the proximity of sound.
-The crash of the full organ was delivered at a point far above your head,
-somewhere among the shadowy outlines of the roof.
-
-The space allotted to the dean’s wife on the other side of the organ was
-less comfortable than ours, but far more interesting. The floor outside
-her enclosure was broken by yawning chasms to give the great pipes
-breathing room; and though they were of wood, and spoke, as wooden pipes
-should speak, in hollow muffled tones, they must, I fancy, have confused
-her devotions and raised a small hurricane about the nape of her neck.
-
-Linking the present to the past were the names of by-gone choristers,
-carved in schoolboy fashion upon the old oak panels, who had sung their
-last note a hundred years ago—it might be in this very gallery. It was
-easy to picture them passing and re-passing still through the trap door
-which opened at our feet—a white robed procession of the voiceless dead.
-
-An organ loft is a delightfully irresponsible place from which to take
-part in a service, especially when the instrument is a large one, well
-removed from the congregation on the top of a screen—above all, when you
-do not happen to be the organist.
-
-I would not for an instant be understood to imply that the sense of
-aloofness necessarily engenders irreverence. On the contrary, many of
-the most solemn hours of my life were passed within the recesses of the
-great organ at K., and my friend the organist might have been a pattern
-to the congregation in true devotional spirit. But the necessities
-imposed by a choral service afforded him little opportunity for a
-devotional attitude, while he would have been more, or less, than human
-if he had not utilised our isolation to impart to me pleasant little
-details regarding the progress of the service. These would be
-interrupted at intervals by parenthetical instructions whenever he wanted
-help in the management of his stops.
-
-A reminiscence of an organ-loft monologue would read something as
-follows: “_Draw the Gamba_, _please_. How flat that boy Robinson’s
-singing; and oh! those _h_’s of his! _Principal_, _please_, _and now the
-mixtures_. Green’s getting shaky in his top notes; he only looked at
-that upper G. _Take care_; _you put in that coupler before I had
-finished the bar_. What a nuisance it is! I shall never get a boy like
-him . . . The finest hymn written, don’t you think? (They were singing
-Stainer’s ‘Saints of God’) . . . and ‘Aurelia’ is the second best. (Well
-done! Joseph, I thought; you’re in it after all.) Get me Wely’s
-Offertoire in G, will you? It’s poor stuff, but the people will have it.
-_The Oboe_, _please_, _for the air_ . . . And now for the scramble . . .
-_Turn over in good time_; _I can see ahead of me_, _but I can’t see
-through the page_.” And he dashed into the finale at the hurricane pace
-that alone makes the thing endurable. Even he couldn’t talk till it was
-done.
-
-Sometimes we were interested in events that were proceeding in the world
-beneath us. “What on earth’s the man reading the fifteenth for? it’s the
-sixteenth that’s the lesson for the day.” “Oh, it’s Henderson,” would be
-my reply. “He always chooses a fine chapter to show off his voice and
-elocution. If he’s hauled up for it, he’ll say he did it by mistake.”
-
-On one occasion we were favoured by a reader, fresh from the study of
-Aristophanes, with the startling announcement that the First Lesson for
-the day was taken from the Book of _Ecclesiazusae_.
-
-One day I heard voices in the choir beneath. I knew, before I saw the
-speakers reflected from the mirror in front of me, that they were two
-limp figures in blue serge and coal-scuttle bonnets. The strident tones
-were unmistakeable, the product, in so far as the human throat can
-compass it, of a long and careful assimilation of the clash of the
-cymbals.
-
-“A rare fine buildin’, this,” said one, “and what a hinstrument! I only
-wish we ’ad it in our place; draw a sight better than drums and cymbals,
-wouldn’t it? And a deal noisier.”
-
-“You’re right,” answered the other, “but, for all that, I wouldn’t
-exchange with that lot to get it. They deans and chapters and canons,
-and heaven knows what they calls theirselves, aye, and the bisshup
-hisself, is that sunk in ignorance and self-conceit that they can’t see
-the right way; no, nor never will.”
-
-Occasionally, but very rarely, matters went wrong in our own department.
-The water that fed the hydraulic gear failed, or was cut off at the main,
-and the organ “went out” in the middle of an anthem. One afternoon in
-November it clouded over so suddenly that we could hardly see our faces
-in the organ loft. Worse luck still, the matches were damp, and till I
-could be back with some more, Dr. H. had to guess at the anthem as best
-he could. I am not musician enough to know how he surmounted the
-difficulty, but I suspect that the choir that day must have been treated
-to an amount of improvisation to which they were wholly unaccustomed from
-an organist who, as a rule, played what he had to play, and rarely
-indulged in vagaries.
-
-But our worst disaster was of earlier date. Bildad the Shuhite blew the
-organ. He had received that name because he cleaned shoes in a corner of
-the Close. It was in prehistoric days before hydraulic gear was dreamed
-of in connexion with the organ. As luck would have it, Bildad fell sick,
-and had to supply a deputy at the last moment. Dr. H. studied the man
-carefully, mistrusting, I think, his intelligence. But his answers were
-satisfactory, though I thought with the Doctor that he protested too
-much. Anyhow, the service was due, and we had no time to waste on our
-fears. The singing began, but the organ was irresponsive, and, hurrying
-to the back of the loft, I found our deputy-blower contemplating with
-blank stolidity the mechanism at his command, and pleading with an
-injured air, “Sir, I am a’ waitin’ for you to begin!”
-
-One day I was laboriously extracting discords from the great instrument
-with Dr. H. at my elbow, when a gentle voice at our side asked for
-permission to try the instrument. What a delight it was, after the
-horrors I had been perpetrating, to see the long fingers charm out the
-melody, till they drifted at last into the chords of Chopin’s great
-march. Surely, I thought, the composer must hear and welcome such a
-perfect realisation of his wondrous dream.
-
-“Charrlie, me boy, thry the pey-dals,” came a voice from below, with the
-raciest and most captivating of brogues. It was my first introduction to
-Ireland’s great musician—Sir Robert Stewart—and his still greater pupil,
-composer in prospective of the _Requiem_ and _Revenge_.
-
-At our next interview the Professor of the future gave me a friendly
-lecture on Wagner, emphasising his teaching the while by illustrative
-passages, which he played, I remember, in thick woollen gloves, of which
-he hadn’t troubled to divest himself, being pressed for time and the
-organ loft none too warm. The mechanism of the organ, I am bound to add,
-was old and antiquated—not as it is in these days, when the notes speak
-if a fly sits upon them, or you venture to sneeze in their neighbourhood.
-
-I have made acquaintance with strange scenes in an organ loft—an organist
-of surpassing ability playing through a service when he was drunk, but
-certainly not incapable. Yet a deputy sat by him, ready to take his
-place in case he should prove unequal to retaining his seat at the
-instrument. I have seen a fight between two choristers who had been sent
-to fetch music for the choir. It began on this wise. “I can lick you
-’ead over ’eels in ’oly ’oly ’oly,” said one. The taunt was not to be
-endured by a chorister of spirit, so “Come on!” said the other; and they
-had fought it out to the bitter end at the back of the organ before ever
-Dr. H. was aware that the battle was in progress. I have seen courtship
-too—ending, as all courtship should do, in matrimony—while the organist
-played unsuspiciously a soft and dreamy accompaniment. And I have seen
-heroism too—grand as any displayed upon a field of battle—when my friend
-came from his sick bed and played through a service magnificently while
-the death dew gathered on his face. And I coveted, as I never coveted
-before or since, the divine gift of music, which would have enabled me to
-spare him his long and patient hour of martyrdom.
-
-And, at the end, he played the Dead March, never knowing that it was for
-himself he played it, while a furious thunder-storm raged over head, and
-the roll of the thirty-two-foot pipes was drowned by reverberating peals.
-As the final chords came crashing from his hands, he said to me, “Handel
-must have written it, I think, to an accompaniment like this. And yet
-the modern school of organists would have us leave out the drums! I
-shall never care to play it again.”
-
-And three weeks afterwards he was dead.
-
-
-
-Fighting the Cholera
-
-
-WAS it an escapade, I wonder? or was it something greater and grander?
-There are, I suppose, escapades good and bad; heroic and unheroic.
-
-One evening I was tidying up Ronald’s room at Cambridge. We were both of
-us in residence now: I as an M.A., while he had just entered as an
-undergraduate. He was as studiously untidy as I was the reverse, and,
-but for me, his room, artistic as it was, would always have looked like a
-boudoir that had been used over-night for a tap-room. Pipes, tobacco,
-and matches met the eye everywhere, scattered among vases of flowers and
-ferns; no two sheets of the _Times_ were together in one place; “Esmond”
-lay cheek by jowl with “Tom Jones” (the former, I was glad to see, the
-better worn), while there was more than a suspicion that his surplice was
-in use as a bed for a litter of kittens.
-
-Ronald himself lay at his ease upon the sofa, watching—I cannot say with
-interest, but at any rate without prejudice—my improvements for the
-worse. But I roused him at last. In replacing a small box of Italian
-olive wood I knocked off the lid, and an aggregation of articles
-unimaginable were scattered on the floor.
-
-“Hullo! stop that, old man,” he said. “You’ll be losing or breaking some
-of my most cherished possessions.”
-
-“What on earth are they, Ronald? Here’s a small crucifix and a missal
-(you haven’t turned Roman Catholic, have you?) and any amount of
-rings—most of them brass—and, by Jove, a lock of hair! Is the last a
-love token? It looks uncommonly like the relic of another escapade. Did
-it belong to the girl who played the harmonium on the beach at Bayview?
-I didn’t know you’d got so far as that. Besides, her hair was light, if
-I remember. Out with it, old man, and clear your conscience by
-confession.”
-
-“Have done with your jokes, Fred; you’re the last fellow to chaff like
-that if you knew the rights of it. And, if I must tell you, I must. But
-I didn’t want you to know of the matter; it looks too much like boasting.
-However, you find out everything I do; so I may as well tell you all
-about this, before you hunt it up for yourself in some underhand way, or
-make a tale out of it that isn’t the true one. You know Richards, Fred;
-the man my uncle made me travel with last autumn—to see the world, as he
-called it. I never liked the fellow, and always thought him a cad; but I
-didn’t know till then that he was a coward as well as a cad.”
-
-“I always thought him both,” was my reply.
-
-“Taormina in Sicily was one of the places we stopped at: the loveliest
-spot that you could dream of, if you dreamed your hardest. You’ve never
-been there, have you? Well: the town itself is a fair day’s walk up hill
-from the sea, and Mola’s another day’s walk above that; by which time
-you’ve nearly reached the clouds—only, as it happens, Sicily doesn’t
-boast of any. But you needn’t go higher than Taormina for the loveliest
-view on earth. They may talk of seeing Madrid, Seville, Naples, and a
-hundred other places, and then dying contented—why, there’s none of them
-that’s a patch on Taormina. Sit down in the proscenium of the old
-theatre, facing Etna, with the Straits of Messina and the foot of Italy
-laid out like a map on your left: and you can do without another view for
-the rest of your natural life. The only objection we found to it was
-that in September of last year it was most awfully hot, and Taormina is
-pestiferous enough to be a Turkish settlement. It is worse, I think,
-than the old town of Granada, which is perhaps the filthiest place that I
-know in Europe. The cholera, too, was about last year, especially in
-Italy; and, if it _did_ cross the Straits, Taormina was ripe and handy
-for it.
-
-“After we’d been there for a week or so it _did_ come with a vengeance.
-First a suspicious case or two, then a case that was not suspicious at
-all, and then it fell like a thunderbolt on the town. Richards was off
-directly, and with him everyone in the place who could afford to go; so
-the poorer people, with their old priest, who stuck to his work like a
-man, had it all to themselves.
-
-“Now it looks like boasting, but I didn’t like to run. Besides, I had
-come there for a fortnight, and I was fond of the place and the view and
-the old theatre—so why go? Anyhow I didn’t budge, and did what I could
-to help the old man in his difficulty—it was little enough. However, I
-had heaps of money, and they wanted that more than anything. And he
-taught me something about medicine—what little he knew of it; though,
-after all, nothing but stimulants at one stage and opium at another
-seemed to do them the slightest good.
-
-“What a time it was! I pray that I may never stand face to face with
-cholera again. Overhead, a sky like brass, and, veiling the town, a
-dusky, steel-blue haze, almost as palpable as gauze: the distinctive
-colour (I’ve been told) of a cholera atmosphere. They died like flies,
-crowded in their close, evil-smelling dwellings, though we lighted fires
-in the streets to clear the air; an idea I borrowed, I believe, from ‘Old
-St. Paul’s.’
-
-“Late one evening I hurried from a sick room to get a breath of air in
-the theatre below. My friend, the old priest, was there before me. This
-was an unusual coincidence, as he scarcely ever gave himself a moment’s
-rest. Yet he might have done so now, for in ten days’ time the disease
-abated as rapidly as it had begun. And besides, he had organised a band
-of fairly efficient helpers.
-
-“‘Good evening, signor,’ he said. ‘You see me in my church; for I find
-in it the same relief that my brethren in the cities find within the
-walls of a cathedral. To me it would seem a poor exchange—for what
-cathedral built by man could match this view?’ As he spoke he pointed
-through the ruined arches to where Etna towered in the distance. Surely
-the noblest drop-scene ever fashioned by the hand of nature, and not
-unworthily framed by the artist who had designed the theatre. Between
-the ruined columns on the left a steamer, environed by a little group of
-feluccas, made a series of dissolving views as it overtook and passed
-them on the sea below. But I saw he had some trouble on his mind over
-and above his care for his patients.
-
-“‘Take courage, padre mio. The worst is over. That shroud of steel-blue
-mist is lifting day by day. I should like to know what causes it. I
-believe if we had had the power of gauging it, its changes would have
-made no bad register of the death-rate in the town.’
-
-“‘You are right, my son; the worst _is_ past; and, thanks mainly to you,
-I have been enabled to do my duty while it lasted. Without you I could
-have done little. Take an old man’s thanks, signor, on behalf of those
-who are left and those who are gone. Neither the one nor the other will
-ever forget you, here or in the world that holds them now. Yet I could
-almost wish that you had never come.’
-
-“‘Why so?’ I asked.
-
-“‘I wish, at any rate’ (speaking with more vehemence than his wont),
-‘that you had not brought with you that false-hearted friend of yours.’
-
-“‘You mean Richards. Yes, he is a coward to run away like that.’
-
-“‘Worse, far worse. You know little Ninetta well, who lives at your
-lodgings up the hill—the prettiest girl in Taormina they call her, and I
-fancy they are right. She is down with the cholera—didn’t you know it?
-Taken this morning, and, unless I am wrong in my judgment, it is one of
-the worst cases we have had—hopeless, I should say, from the very first.’
-
-“‘Poor little Ninetta! It does seem hard; taken, too, just when the
-disease was dying out. But what has Richards to do with it?’
-
-“‘The confessional is sacred, my friend. But it may be that, in this one
-case, the cholera has struck in kindliness. Though I am sorry he should
-be away when he might have made her end more peaceful. Even when I left
-her to come and find you, she was perpetually calling for him. Put her
-off with excuses; it won’t be for long. Don’t let her think him a coward
-as well as a villain. If you weren’t a heretic, I would absolve you
-beforehand for any necessary evasion.’
-
-“‘You may be sure I’ll do my best. The evasions won’t lie heavy upon my
-conscience. Goodnight.’
-
-“There was no hope for her, as he had said. During the early stage of
-her illness she was always asking for him—wondering why he stayed
-away—for I obeyed the priest’s injunctions, and never told her he’d been
-coward enough to run. As she got worse, she began to wander, and, from
-having seen us so often together, she would confuse him with me; and, at
-the last, was perfectly happy so long as I was with her; calling me by
-his name, and thanking him, as she imagined, for all his care and
-kindness to her. The lock of hair that puzzled you is hers. She gave it
-to me just before she died (she had nothing else to give, poor girl) in
-the belief she was giving it to Richards. And then, quite quietly, still
-in the belief that he was with her, and that it was his hand and not mine
-that she was holding, she died.
-
-“There you have the story, Fred, such as it is. All the other things
-were given me by the villagers—the few of them, that is, who lived—all
-except the missal, which came from my old friend the priest. It was his
-most cherished possession; given, I believe, in the hope of converting
-me. Well, if conversion would make me another such as he was, I wouldn’t
-say no to it.
-
-“Shall I ever see him again, I wonder? Some day, Fred, you and I will go
-and hunt him up.”
-
-
-
-Ronald’s Courtship
-
-
-I
-
-
-I HAVE been looking through all my old letters to-night. It is a strange
-sensation in these days, when the shuttle spins so fast, to re-read the
-letters between childhood and manhood. All details seem softened, viewed
-through the haze of time. Human nature was (or so it seems to one) so
-much kindlier then than now. What pleasant ghosts are raised by these
-old letters; what touches that one missed in them in the hurried,
-feverish days when they were written! In so very many cases, too, the
-hands that penned them are still. I have come upon one from Ronald,
-written when he was just twenty-five. It is singularly devoid of
-romance, compared with many of the others, and has “brisked me up”
-considerably, when I was verging on melancholia.
-
- “DEAR FRED (it runs),
-
- “I shall want you for a wedding a month hence. Guess the name of the
- happy lady. No more escapades from—Yours respectably,
-
- “RONALD.”
-
-Who was she? and how had he managed it? were the questions I asked myself
-at the time. Somehow or other, I couldn’t imagine Ronald proposing to
-his lady-love in a conventional, Christianlike way. True, time had
-sobered him considerably. He was now a handsome young fellow, living
-quietly and sedately with his uncle at Broadwater; not easy to recognise
-as the lad who had discomfited an itinerant preacher, and played the
-stable-boy on the race-course at Bayview. But the spirit of Bohemianism
-dies hard, and I was possessed with the idea that, even in the act of
-“placing himself” for life, Ronald would make opportunity for a final
-fling. He was having a really bad time of it with his uncle, and, in
-spite of occasional outbursts, when the Viking blood got the better of
-him, had been fairly amenable to discipline. The old man, I know, must
-have been a constant thorn in his flesh; very selfish, and very dogmatic
-on all points, especially politics. If he could have reasoned logically
-himself, or have listened to reason in others, he would have been less
-objectionable. But he formed his opinions on grounds as strictly
-illogical as does the average woman, and, to do him justice, never
-abandoned them. For example:
-
-“What a grand speech that was of Gladstone’s yesterday, Ronald!”
-
-“Do you think so, sir? It seemed a trifle commonplace to me in
-comparison with Dizzy’s reply.”
-
-“Pshaw! Dizzy’s no speaker at all compared with him.”
-
-“Did you ever hear him, sir?”
-
-“Never—and don’t want to.”
-
-“Then you have read his speeches, sir?”
-
-“Never—and I hope I never may.”
-
-This was his recognised line of argument (Heaven save the mark!) on all
-topics. Yet to differ from any of his conclusions was a most serious
-offence, which Ronald in time learned how to avoid. His own part in a
-conversation became limited to a series of characterless phrases—“Yes,
-sir,” “No, sir,” “Of course, sir”—which passed muster as entirely
-satisfactory. Occasionally, it is true, they were flavoured with a salt
-of sarcasm, but as this only rebounded harmlessly, without piercing his
-uncle’s pachydermatous hide, the peace was seldom broken between them.
-Outsiders were less merciful.
-
-“Growing a trifle dogmatical is Heyward, isn’t he?”—one club member would
-say to another—when a theory, accepted obediently by my uncle’s
-household, had been thrust a little prematurely down a stranger’s throat.
-“But there: he’s getting on in years—sixty, I should say, if he’s a
-day—and we shall all of us like our own way then. Indeed, youngsters
-like it too, as a Master of Trinity found with his junior Fellows. ‘Not
-one of us is infallible,’ he said to them, ‘not even the youngest.’”
-
-It was a gentlemanly face, was old Heyward’s, though, if you happened to
-be a judge of faces, you would probably have added “a weak one.” Yes,
-and—No. Not strong, certainly, in intellect or knowledge, though the
-features are scored with deep-cut lines, that might be mistaken by the
-casual observer for traces of reflective thought. But lines traced by
-the hand of intellect ennoble and brighten the face, even in the act of
-carving it; these had only soured and embittered it. Such strength as
-they show is the strength of a dogged persistency, which clings to an
-opinion, right or wrong, because it admits no counter argument, and
-always carries its point by a process of blank obstructiveness. But each
-victory thus gained is of the nature of a defeat, narrowing and confining
-the soul still more within its self-imposed limits, deafening it to the
-interests of an outer world, and to the joys and sorrows of humanity at
-large.
-
-His sister was a tall, angular woman, with thin, compressed lips and a
-cold, grey eye, betokening a far more active and aggressive will. But
-probably no two people were ever more entirely in harmony, till Ronald
-sowed dissension between them. Even dissimilarities, in their case,
-became points of agreement. For instance, the uncle read much and forgot
-all that he read, while she read nothing and had consequently nothing to
-forget. Then again, they were united in their devotion to comfort, for
-which each required the other. Wider forms of attachment they ignored
-and dispensed with, as unprofitable for the furtherance of the main
-issue. Friends, servants, animals, who were found detrimental, simply
-disappeared without comment, as unobtrusively as did the obnoxious
-teachers in Madame Beck’s famous _pensionnat_ in the Rue Fossette.
-
-In the art of “nagging” our uncle was supreme, bearing out Sarah Grand’s
-theory that women are nowhere in this province, which has been reckoned
-peculiarly their own. Curling himself up gracefully in his favourite
-armchair, and lighting a cigar, he would prepare himself to enjoy it.
-Sometimes the attack would be sudden and wanting in delicacy.
-
-“Ronald, I wish you could manage to be down in time for dinner.” Ronald,
-be it observed, had been five minutes late, but yet five minutes prior to
-its announcement by the butler.
-
-“My tie was so infern—intolerably hard to fasten, sir. I must get a
-_Jemima_.”
-
-“A _Jemima_!” shouted the uncle—scandalised at the idea of Ronald
-contemplating the introduction of some rustic handmaid—“What on earth do
-you mean?”
-
-“A hand-made tie, sir.” (The pun is yours, old man, not mine. Besides,
-the uncle wouldn’t have seen it, even if he’d given me the chance.—R.)
-
-A mollified pause of ten minutes. The next time he would preface his
-thrust with a feint, to throw Ronald off his guard.
-
-“What a wonderfully nice young fellow Carter is. Gets himself up as if
-he were living in town. I _do_ like to see a fellow wear a tall hat on
-Sunday; it’s far and away more respectable than a round one.”
-
-Ronald was incorrigible in this respect, and became as the deaf adder.
-
-Five minutes’ grace.
-
-“How that fellow Stanton did talk at dinner; one couldn’t get a word in
-edgeways. By-the-by, I think _you_ talk a little too freely, Ronald, to
-men older and wiser than yourself.”
-
-“_Semper ego auditor tantum_?” muttered Ronald.
-
-“What is it you are saying, Ronald? I do wish you would speak up.”
-
-“I said I would only listen in future, sir. _Nunquamne reponam_?” (the
-latter _sotto voce_).
-
-“There you are—muttering again.”
-
-“I was only saying I wished I could write a book, sir.”
-
-Miss Heyward couldn’t hold a candle to her brother in this particular
-department. She lacked altogether the delicacy of “finesse” which is
-essential to its development, and, strange to say, possessed in a high
-degree by people of feeble intelligence. But she seconded him bravely in
-cases where temper and determination would serve its purpose. Here it
-was to advocate stronger measures, and hers was the master mind. She was
-not without a suspicion that time and reiteration had blunted the edge of
-her brother’s innuendo. When therefore she was called in for
-consultation, Ronald knew that it betokened a definite and concerted
-campaign. He would be sent to Coventry, or fed on roast pork, and
-specialities that his soul abhorred, or (but for his age) have been
-whipped. Finally, and in the last resort, his pocket money would be
-docked—a punishment that was known to be effective. Spending little upon
-himself, he had always a band of pensioners who were dependent on him for
-assistance. So it was through them that he could most surely be reached.
-“Seething the kid in the mother’s milk,” as we are told in ‘Kenilworth,’
-is an occupation that offers a wide field to the ingenuity of the
-inventive.
-
-“Two’s company and three’s none,” muttered Ronald, when, on entering a
-room suddenly, he found an animated conversation drop suddenly into
-silence, while an echo of his own escapades and iniquities lingered in
-the air.
-
-
-II
-
-
-A strange and melancholy life it was for a lad of Ronald’s temperament; a
-strange and incongruous fellowship:
-
- “For East is East, and West is West, and never the twain shall meet”
-
-Yet it had in it one redeeming feature. Only a mile from Broadwater, in
-the white house that nestles in the heart of the valley, just visible to
-us over a depression in the lulls, lived a young widow of
-twenty-eight—Ronald’s dearest friend, and his comforter and consoler
-whenever the monotony of existence seemed almost intolerable to the lad
-just entering on manhood.
-
-The coalition between Ronald and Mrs. Thorpe was regarded with extreme
-disfavour by the uncle. “Making a milksop of the lad,” he called it
-sneeringly. But the villagers, one and all of them, were emphatic in
-their praise. “A nice couple they’d make,” said old widow Denvers. “I
-only hope it may come off, and that I may be alive to see it. And love
-each other they do already, unless my old eyes deceive me. See how he
-follers her about and well nigh wusshups the ground she treads on. Why
-he’d be at Thorpe Hill all day, if only that old aunt of his didn’t watch
-him like a cat. Drat her!”
-
-A feeling of companionship had steadily grown up between them. The
-almost daily meetings and constant interchange of ideas had produced
-their natural result, and the companionship that had at first been a
-pleasure had long become a necessity. Yet, strange to say, neither had
-recognised the fact. Ronald himself would have scouted the idea.
-Possessed of not a penny in his own rights, and dependent only on what
-his uncle allowed him, he would have ridiculed the notion of asking the
-richest woman in the county to become his wife. Indeed it was the
-deterrent influence of their relative positions that had excluded the
-possibility from finding a place among the contingencies of his life.
-Yet she it was, however unwittingly, who was the cause of Ronald’s last
-escapade.
-
-The idea had frequently occurred to him that she had inspired his uncle
-with the nearest approximation to love of which his nature was capable.
-Not according to the accepted traditions of lovemaking, nor exhibited in
-a manner that would be patent to the world at large. But he showed her
-attentions that he withheld from all other women. He would enquire
-solicitously after her health, and the health of her dogs, in huge
-Grandisonian phrases; above all, he would vacate for her his favourite
-armchair, and waive her into it with a bow of old-world politeness. (To
-his sister, who ruled his household, the chair in question was rigorously
-debarred). Then again, she was a Liberal in politics. Not that this
-counted for much, because he maintained that women should be allowed no
-politics at all, beyond presenting a feeble reflex of the man who was
-nearest or dearest to them. Much as he hated Conservatism, he would
-sooner have seen the wife of his friend Jacobs pose as the rankest of
-Tories, than at variance with her husband in a way so subversive of the
-relation of the sexes.
-
-“What a blessing it is to get across here for a change of air,” said
-Ronald, flinging himself down on a chair in Mrs. Thorpe’s drawing-room,
-where she was arranging her flowers for the day.
-
-“Well, what’s the matter now? Is it the aunt or the uncle who has
-ruffled you this morning?”
-
-“Not so much the people as the atmosphere. The air seems laden with
-small trivialities. I feel like the man in ‘Pilgrim’s Progress,’ who
-lived in a cloud of dust that he was constantly raising. Whereas life
-ought to be lived on a breezy upland, with your face to the sea.”
-
-“I think I understand what you mean, though your reminiscences of Bunyan
-are a trifle mixed. And perhaps the dust is better for you.”
-
-“Not a bit of it, when it’s of one’s own making. Now _you_ haven’t a
-scrap of dust in your house.”
-
-“I’m not so sure. Look at that piano. Anyhow, you didn’t come all this
-way so early in the morning to treat me to a revised version of Bunyan’s
-allegory. What’s the matter, Ronald?”
-
-“I believe the old man’s jealous of me. He says I’m over here too
-often—that people are beginning to talk, and all manner of rot. I’m
-almost sure he wants to marry you himself.”
-
-“My dear boy, you’re dreaming. Do you think that I would abandon my
-independence, and all my advanced theories on women, to adopt your
-uncle’s musty, antediluvian ideas? Not a bit of it. Why I’d sooner
-marry _you_, if the worst came to the worst, though even that wouldn’t
-suit me either.”
-
-“It would suit _me_,” muttered Ronald, “just down to the ground.”
-
-The uncle’s sight had of late been failing him, owing to some weakness or
-lesion of the nerve that no spectacles could remedy. Under these
-circumstances, his favourite amanuensis was Ronald; for, though I regret
-to say it, his sister’s spelling was occasionally defective, and his
-uncle was particular above all things that his correspondence should be
-strictly orthographic. Not that this characteristic could be imputed to
-Miss Heyward as a fault, especially in these days, when even Peeresses (I
-am told) have adopted phonetic spelling, and orthography has been
-relegated to our village schools as the symbol of a lower and less
-intellectual class. But the uncle was conservative in everything but
-politics, and regarded the innovation as a forecast of the nation’s
-decadence.
-
-One morning he called Ronald into his study, with a thoughtful,
-pre-occupied air that betokened business of more than average importance.
-
-“Ronald, I’m thinking of marrying—and who do you suppose is my choice? A
-great friend of yours by the way, Mrs. Thorpe. I like her amazingly; a
-most well-bred woman, who will look famously at the head of my table.
-Then again, she’s got money, though it’s true I don’t want it. And her
-property marches with mine; and we’ll enclose it all in a ring fence, and
-have the finest estate in the county. She’s got a few crotchets, I know,
-but they’ll soon be ousted when she’s found a sensible man to advise her.
-I grant I’m a trifle old for her, but people think nothing of that in
-these days when the fault is on the right side. What do you say to it? a
-good idea, isn’t it?”
-
-“Very good indeed, sir,” said Ronald—demurely, but doubtingly.
-
-“You ain’t very hearty about it, Ronald. I expected you to jump at the
-suggestion. Indeed, I thought you were a little gone on her yourself,
-and would have welcomed her warmly for your aunt. You’re across at her
-house pretty well every day.”
-
-“Yes, sir, I am; and I do like her very much. Indeed, I wouldn’t have
-minded marrying her myself.”
-
-“Good Lord! if that doesn’t beat everything! A mere boy like you,
-without a penny in the world except what you get from me—and I’m not dead
-yet by a long way, Ronald—_you_ to be in love with the richest woman in
-the county! God bless me! What are the boys coming to? But there—it’s
-nonsense. Put it out of your head, my lad, and sit down and write what I
-tell you.”
-
-The letter, when it was forwarded, ran thus:
-
- “DEAR MRS. THORPE,
-
- “I write on a subject that touches very nearly the happiness of my
- future life (‘it touches mine, R.’) You must have seen, I imagine,
- how much I have admired and loved you (‘my sentiments exactly R.’);
- nor can you be blind to the fact that no other woman occupies the
- place in my esteem which has been wholly given to you (‘couldn’t have
- expressed myself better, R.’) I now offer you my hand and heart
- (‘savours of the complete letter writer, but true notwithstanding,
- R.’), together with all my worldly possessions (‘£50, all included,
- R.’) You know, I fancy, my ways and habits as no other woman can
- know them (‘too well by half, R.’) My temper is equable, and I am, I
- think, companionable (‘query? R.’) My nephew Ronald will continue to
- live with us; you know him well (‘I should just think so, R.’) He is
- a really good-hearted, well-meaning lad (‘thanks, old man, R.’), but
- a little uppish at times, and thinks he knows everything, like all
- the boys of the present day (‘I retract my thanks, R.’) But I fancy
- that you and he will get on together (‘admirably, R.’)
-
- “I shall await your answer with impatience, and anxiously hope it may
- be favourable (‘to me, R.’)
-
- “I remain,
-
- “Your sincere admirer,
-
- “A. HEYWARD.”
- (‘Your loving friend, R.’)
-
-The answer came next day, and was a crushing blow to my uncle’s hopes.
-She thanked him gratefully for the offer, and regretted the
-disappointment her answer would cause him. But her affections, she said,
-had long been bestowed on his nephew, and she had lately had _reason to
-believe_ (italics at Ronald’s request) that the feeling was reciprocated.
-She was in a position, she added, to disregard monetary considerations in
-the choice of a husband.
-
- * * * *
-
-There was strife within the gates of Broadwater on the announcement of
-Ronald’s engagement. The uncle was furious at being supplanted this
-second time, and, to make matters worse, the offender in this case was
-the nephew of his choice. So wroth was he that he nearly made me his
-heir out of spite, and, for two or three days, my price rose considerably
-on the matrimonial market. But, on giving tongue to his wrath, he found
-himself without a supporter. “A servile war had broken out” (to quote
-from ‘Cometh up,’—sweetest of all love stories, but, Great _Dionysius_!
-what Greek!) and his sister was in a state of open rebellion. It was she
-who headed the rising, and with her went all the servants, which left our
-uncle in a minority of one. She was, naturally enough, well pleased at
-the progress of events, and anticipated with satisfaction the continuance
-of her reign.
-
-Ronald, so soon as his month’s probation was ended, was thankful to be
-received out of the fray into the sanctuary of Thorpe. Not that he was
-at peace, even there. His conscience gave him twinges, and I had a word
-to say to him on the subject, and his wife had a word or two more. But
-it was all for his good, and he had brought it upon himself by treating
-matrimony (of all estates in the world) in a spirit of graceless levity.
-
- * * * * *
-
-And what of myself? Well, reader, I had lost my chance, or, perhaps,
-willingly foregone it. All Ronald’s pet schemes had been safe in my
-hands, and I was little likely to oppose the present one, when, almost
-from the first, I had pictured its realisation, and seen how necessary it
-was to the happiness and stability of his life. My unselfishness—call it
-passivity if you will—carried with it its own reward, for neither of the
-two was happy without me, and Thorpe Hill practically became my home.
-
-
-
-Judy, or Retrieved
-
-
-RONALD became her ‘fidus Achates’ and Lord High Almoner in all her acts
-of charity. Occasionally, it is true, he misunderstood or exceeded his
-instructions, as, for instance, when he went round with a parcel of
-physic to a sick cottager.
-
-“How be I to take ’m? did she tell ’e?”
-
-“No: she didn’t, but she meant all, I suppose, unless it’s written
-inside.”
-
-This was a large order, as the parcel contained castor oil, a black
-draught, and six blue pills.
-
-“And which be I to take fust? She must ha’ told ’e that.”
-
-Again Ronald was at fault.
-
-“Much, I allow, as the gentry do their vittles—solids fust, and drinks
-atterwards.”
-
-The prescriptions, whatever the order observed in their administration,
-answered to perfection, and Ronald’s fame was greatly magnified by the
-result. His drugs were in high request everywhere, and were reported to
-be “powerfully fine.”
-
-One day his wife said to him, “Ronald, would you like to hear a project I
-have in hand for reclaiming a pet drunkard?”
-
-“Very much: what is it?”
-
-“I shall give him a dog.”
-
-“Good Lord! how will that help him? It reminds one of a story in the
-‘Arabian Nights,’ where somebody with a crack-jaw name gives to somebody
-else—a porter, I think it was—a lump of lead, promising it will make his
-fortune. But he wisely declined to specify by what particular method the
-charm would work. I think the man weighted a fish-line with it, and
-caught a salmon with a diamond in its mouth. But you can hardly expect
-your scheme to work like that.”
-
-“Wait and see, Ronald. I read in a German story book the other day how a
-dog had turned a man into an early riser (I shall give you one, Ronald),
-and made him charitable, and religious, and all the rest of it. Surely I
-can trust my dog to reclaim a man from one single failing.”
-
-“I should like to see how he’s going to do it,” said Ronald
-incredulously. “The chances are your _protégé_ will take his dog the
-first day to the nearest public-house. And, if he gets biscuits there,
-as a nice dog is sure to do, he’ll want no coaxing to take his master
-there every day. And the last state of that man will be worse than the
-first.”
-
-“I am afraid there is no worse possible in this case. At any rate I have
-faith in my dog.”
-
-The next day a ragged little hound, called “Judy,” was selected from the
-kennels at Thorpe Hill, and despatched to the _protégé_ in question.
-Pure white she was, and so small, that, at a shift, you could hold her in
-the hollow of your hand. A veritable little mongrel, of course, if ever
-there was one. Indeed, nothing but a mongrel would have had the capacity
-for so delicate a mission. For, as we all know, it is to the mongrel
-that we look for intelligence and originality. The consciousness of
-inherited merit is fatal to intellectual progress in an animal of
-pedigree. Partiality—but only the most prejudiced—might have called Judy
-a rough Irish terrier. Only her ears didn’t lop, but were carried erect
-like a donkey’s, and her legs were too long, and her tail had an ugly
-“kinck” in it.
-
-Having abused her sufficiently for her personal appearance, let me add
-that she had the sweetest and most winning of faces—chiefly composed of
-eyes, which were so large in comparison with the rest of her features
-that they seemed to swallow them up, giving to the face, as a whole, the
-thin, troubled look of premature age, which is so pathetic in any sick
-animal. But Judy was far from being delicate, and enjoyed to the full
-the zest and sparkle of life. With her head on one side, and her ears
-pricked up, and attention bestowed on the curl of her tail, a matter in
-which she was often negligent, she would have matched the best of them as
-a study of arrested life.
-
-The two—the dog and the young reprobate she was expected to reform—took
-to each other with all their hearts, and soon became inseparable. But at
-first Ronald’s pessimistic prophecy seemed likely to be realised. True
-to his natural instinct, her master took Judy at once to the nearest
-public-house, and, as the biscuits due to an intelligent dog were always
-forthcoming, Judy fell in entirely with her master’s view as to the
-direction their daily walk should take. Ronald triumphed maliciously but
-prematurely. For Judy was to be recalled to her duty by a stern
-dispensation.
-
-It happened one day, that, as she and her master were starting, a troop
-of bicyclists came scorching down the hill, and Judy, caught off her
-guard and losing her head, was run over, and taken up for dead. After
-long days of anxious nursing she was called slowly back to life, at least
-to a measure of life. But the little dog’s nerve was gone. From that
-day forward no persuasion could tempt her to follow her master along the
-public road. Warned by experience, she dreaded bicyclists at every
-turning. Just so far as the garden gate, and no further, she would
-follow him, and, with a thin little feeble whine, plead almost in words
-for a change of route. But the master’s heart was steeled. It was to be
-a conflict of will between them. And which was to conquer? the dog or
-the man? For days and weeks the result trembled in the scale. But the
-walk grew dreary apart from his companion, and, going and returning, he
-was haunted by the piteous whine. Then at last he succumbed. The day’s
-walk along the high road was exchanged for a run in the nearest field or
-common, and Judy’s heart rejoiced, and her spirit came again to her, and
-she became—almost, but never quite—her natural self again.
-
-Thenceforth the sympathy between these two was complete. When Judy was
-ill again, almost to death, she was restful nowhere but in her master’s
-presence. When he left the room, her eyes would languidly follow him;
-when he came back, they kindled to life again, breathed into by a new
-spirit; and when he took her in his arms, all pain and disquiet ceased,
-and she lay neither shivering nor moaning—lost to all feeling but the
-satisfied assurance of his love.
-
-“Well, Ronald, and how about my experiment?”
-
-“You’ve beaten me,” was the reply. “What a wonderful woman you are!”
-
-
-II
-
-
- “In quo tam similem videbis Issam
- Ut sit tam similis sibi nec ipsa.”
-
- MARTIAL.
-
-She was a very little dog with a very large soul, and all her soul looked
-out of her eyes. No one whom she loved could doubt her love, when once
-her eyes had assumed their final expression. “I am your friend for
-life,” they said, “and for death—and perhaps beyond it.”
-
-In the frivolous days of her youth she had snapped at the knickerbockers
-of a chubby errand boy, and been promptly handed over for punishment.
-But she broke from the executioner under the indignity of the first
-stroke, and fled for refuge to her master’s bedroom, from which no
-efforts could dislodge her. So, making the best of a bad business, he
-took to his bed too for company’s sake. Judy was deeply touched by this
-practical sympathy, and it formed, I believe, the historic ground-work of
-their life-long friendship.
-
-Her pedigree was mixed. Her father was a white English terrier of
-unimpeachable breed, who lived a sober, self-contained existence, with no
-friend but the postman, whom he followed conscientiously on all his
-rounds of delivery. Her mother was the daughter of a “King Charles,” who
-had been woo’d and won by a fox. Fair and frail, she was careless of the
-duties of life, and passed her time in eating and sleeping, sleeping and
-eating—she is sleeping and eating still, the latter with an ever
-increasing appetite as the time at her disposal grows less.
-
-Judy repudiated _in toto_ her maternal parentage, and reproduced all the
-best characteristics of her father, combined with a brilliant
-intelligence, and a far wider appreciation of the sympathies of life.
-Her minor peculiarities were borrowed from those of a cat. She sat like
-a cat, pounced like a cat, and washed her face like a cat, using either
-or both of her paws with a truly feline indifference. She could climb
-bushes, too, hanging on by her teeth, to the detriment of any unwary
-fledgling who presumed over confidently upon the limitation of natural
-gifts.
-
-Judy often came on a visit to Thorpe Hill, where she regularly spent an
-hour after dinner in digging at the root of a favourite beech tree, with
-the energy of a dog that is close on a prize. From which I inferred that
-she was a truffle-terrier in disguise, who would make all our fortunes,
-and set Matthew to dig in her place till he blasphemed against Judy and
-the truffles and me. But Matthew didn’t put his heart into his work, or
-realise the fact that Judy’s credit was at stake. And I always believed
-in her more than I did in him. Later on she justified my confidence—not,
-I admit, by a discovery of truffles, but (better still) of a full-grown
-Roman or Anglo-Saxon, crouching among his household divinities. Judy was
-complacently proud of him as a very superior find, in spite of Matthew’s
-sneer, “Tweren’t triffles, _I_ knowed,” and forthwith transferred her
-attentions to a neighbouring tree, under which, for all I know, others of
-his family may still be reposing.
-
-It is humbling to admit that she was wholly devoid of tricks, properly so
-called: partly because no one had troubled to teach her any, and partly,
-I think, because she accounted it a waste of time to try and acquire
-them. No one who studied her thoughtful little face could doubt that she
-held higher and more recondite theories of the responsibilities of life.
-
-It was probably the same reason that led her to pass her days in silence.
-Few objects she thought were worth the trouble involved of setting in
-motion the harsh and cumbrous method by which alone a dog
-converses—certainly not meat and drink, and therefore she declined to ask
-for them. The prospect of a walk, or the sight of a blackbird deriding
-her from a twig, formed the only exceptions and proved the rule.
-Otherwise Judy would have been a canine Trappist. And her reticence was
-the more remarkable, seeing that her mother passed her time in futile and
-vociferous talking. Probable Judy regarded her as an object lesson and a
-warning. She was certainly disdainful of her noise.
-
-But she had two natural gifts: you may call them tricks if you will. She
-took her meals like a Christian, seated, or rather kneeling, at table
-beside her master, with her paws doubled under her knees. From this post
-of vantage she would watch the whole proceedings of dinner with the
-curiosity of an epicure. But dining on her own account offered little
-attraction. The position of her paws, it is true, suggested an attitude
-of devotion and gained for her the reputation of saying grace before
-meat. But her own diet was strictly limited to morsels of bread and
-biscuit, which she received with indifference, and apparently without
-gratitude. It may be that she dined in the night-time, as Amina did with
-the ghoul. If so, I hope she selected more desirable company.
-
-She had one other peculiarity. I cannot call it an accomplishment,
-though it found her a number of admirers. After studying you intently
-with eyes that looked you through and through, as though she were
-appraising carefully your capacity for friendship, she would raise a
-delicate fur-capped paw, and lay it gently upon your nose—never anywhere
-else. It was a favour accorded to no stranger, never indeed till she had
-known you for months. For it was an oath of allegiance, emblematic as
-the solemn transfusion of blood, and renewable on occasion, if you cared
-to elicit it by staring her well out of countenance. Yet it was trying
-to be reminded of the fact when you were kneeling at prayers in full view
-of the servants, simply because Judy regarded your attitude and
-surroundings as a ceremonial specially designed for the re-enactment of
-her vow.
-
-Being a good friend, Judy was, by consequence, an equally good nurse.
-The attributes of the two are indeed strangely akin, if the latter be not
-a natural development of the former. For in sickness, as in sorrow,
-there are times when a sympathetic silence is a better restorative than
-more obtrusive remedies. Her master found it so when Judy nursed him for
-four months at a stretch, sacrificing without a whine the most brilliant
-summer on record. Cleverer than many a nurse or doctor, she inferred his
-condition from certain changes of face and expression, unappreciable by
-their less intuitive faculties. Satisfied by a careful inspection that
-he was for the moment improving, she would fall back on the pillow with a
-sigh of satisfaction, till he was restless again, or till the time
-came—she knew it as well as did the nurse—when he had to be roused for
-his medicine.
-
-Judy was sorry, I fancy, on her own account when the days of her nursing
-were ended by her master’s recovery. For she never disguised her real
-sentiments, whether creditable or the reverse, differing therein from the
-race of men, at whose feelings and motives one can only hazard a
-bewildered guess.
-
-Judy taught her master many things: among them how to win the love of her
-community. Jealousy, it seems, is the family failing. It is idle, she
-told him, to imagine that a few scraps of half-hearted affection can
-claim the devotion of a life. Careless, casual attentions may gratify an
-unexacting dog; they can never win his heart’s love. It is not for
-pity’s sake, as some will tell you, that the mongrel of the streets is
-attracted by preference to the vagabond and outcast, who is as lonely as
-himself; rather, because he feels that here at any rate is a field
-unoccupied, a mine of sympathy that will royally repay for working.
-
-But let the master of his affection form other and more engrossing ties,
-and the love that he has given he will infallibly withdraw—not hastily,
-capriciously, or for the moment, but slowly, deliberately, and for
-ever—at what cost to himself is happily not ours to fathom.
-
-
-III
-
-
- “They sin who tell as love can die.”
-
- SOUTHEY.
-
-Retrieved by Judy from a life of shame, her master had become a
-respectable character, and the year afterwards found work as a carpenter
-in an adjoining town, which compelled him to migrate from our village.
-
-How to dispose of his dog was the question. His lodgings were situated
-in a crowded street, through which a continuous stream of the vehicles
-most dreaded by Judy, bicycles included, was passing literally by night
-and day. Garden he had none—only a small paved court-yard, tenanted in
-the main by children and cats, Judy’s natural enemies, while the nearest
-field was two miles off. It was clearly impossible to transfer her to
-such surroundings. Her future was settled thus. She was left in his old
-rooms under special charge of the landlady, and every evening when his
-day’s work was done, wet or fine, winter or summer, her master walked out
-to console her for the long hours of his absence.
-
-Such affection might have satisfied a reasonable dog. But Judy was
-distinctly unreasonable. She remembered—none better—how in former times
-she was with him all the day, and sometimes, when she willed to have it
-so, all the night as well. _Now_ she was left to her own devices, and
-only caught a hurried glimpse of him in the evening when she was too
-sleepy to enjoy it. Besides, when he left her at the garden gate, she
-was strictly enjoined not to follow him—a prohibition which, while it
-whetted her curiosity, was also regarded as a direct insult, viewed in
-the light of former days, and the unrestricted licence that had been
-accorded to her then.
-
-So Judy put on her considering cap. “He can’t go far,” she said, “else
-he could never leave me so late and get home in time for bed. And I’m
-sure he doesn’t drive or travel by train, else his boots would never be
-so muddy when he comes here at seven. So it’s clear that he walks. And,
-in that case, a dog of the feeblest intelligence can follow in his
-track.”
-
-Accordingly, on a wet and windy evening, when bicyclists were not likely
-to be abroad, a little wistful-eyed face peered out into the road,
-growing bolder and bolder as her master receded from view, but ever and
-again hurriedly withdrawn whenever he turned upon her with a threatening
-hand. Then he vanished behind a hill, and Judy felt that her opportunity
-was come. But a mob of children ran by with sticks in their hands, and
-Judy slunk back in alarm. As soon as these had passed, she made another
-attempt. But horror of horrors! a bicyclist scorched by, and back she
-shrank again into the friendly shade. At last the road was empty and
-silent. The most careful inspection to the right hand and to the left
-could find no sign of life, and the keenest ears with which ever dog was
-gifted failed to detect a sound.
-
-“Now or never,” said Judy, and with tail erect, and her tiny snub nose
-well to ground on the scent, she rushed out into the night.
-
- * * * * *
-
-An hour later a man was sitting down to his supper in the adjoining town,
-cursing the noise of the street in which he lived, with its wrangling
-women and screaming children, and cabs and drays coming home for the
-night, when a little dog whined and scraped at his door, and Judy rushed
-in, mud-stained and panting and panic-stricken with fear.
-
-It was probably the fright that killed her; it may have been some injury.
-Her master never knew.
-
-Only a brief friendship, measured by the standard of time. But perhaps
-what Southey says is true, and “love is indestructible”—even the love
-that bound these two.
-
-
-
-Our Professor
-
-
-NO: he was no Professor in the recognised sense of the term; not a bit of
-it. Neither can I tell you how he acquired the title, unless it were in
-recognition of his original wit. He was simply my factotum or Man
-Friday, ready for shooting, fishing, game-keeping, or gardening, as the
-emergency of the moment required. He could neither read nor write. But
-what are trifling details like these in comparison with ’cuteness.
-Institute a Tripos for originality and native wit, and Matthew would even
-now, at the age of seventy, pass with high honours. But the examination
-must be strictly _viva voce_, and not allowed to wander into the region
-of conventional knowledge.
-
-“Matthew,” I said, “this isn’t work,” as I bestowed a kick upon an object
-that lay prone upon the lawn, when it ought to have been digging at our
-garden border.
-
-“No, sir; but it’s _preparin_’ for it,” was the prompt reply. For
-myself, I was knocked out of time, though I felt I was clearly within my
-rights. Fancy a man, roused from a peaceful siesta, being ready with a
-retort of such preternatural smartness!
-
-Unhappily Matthew had two failings, by which his career was handicapped.
-He was always lazy, and sometimes inebriate. Of the former he never
-repented so long as I knew him; the latter he was always repenting of and
-always repeating. And the stage of repentance was the more acute and the
-more grievous, at any rate to his neighbours. After a bout of drinking
-he would wander through the house with his hands on the pit of his
-stomach—as if the seat of his iniquity lay there—moaning in a dreary,
-exasperating way, “The Lord forgie I; I’ll never be drunk agin.” “How
-can you _expect_ him to?” said his wife, in a tone of the bitterest
-sarcasm.
-
-Every time he repented he took the pledge anew. The consequence was, his
-bosom was garnished with blue ribbons—his “decorations” he called
-them—for he never cast off one when he assumed another, but regarded them
-as an old soldier does his medals, traces of many a scar and many a
-conflict, in which, unhappily, he always fell.
-
-“Decorations!” said his wife, “fine decorations! Call ’em rather
-sign-posts along the road to perdition. If you stick to ’em all when
-you’re buried, they’ll have no trouble in fixing _your_ whereabouts.”
-
-Sometimes, when he was particularly exasperating, she would take the law
-in her own hands. “My head’s swimmin’ like a tee-total,” Matthew would
-say pathetically. “The very last thing it ought to swim like,” retorted
-his wife, a woman with a ready wit, “but I’ll soon make it do so.” And
-with that she would take him in her strong arms and give him a twist, as
-boys do when they give its first impetus to a top, after which she would
-wait patiently for the result. The result was, of course, collapse as
-soon as the primary impulse had run down; whereupon she would catch him
-up when he was on the point of falling, and bear him off to repentance
-and bed.
-
-Matthew’s dialect was unique. I question whether a specialist could have
-reproduced it in its integrity, if only because it never reached
-finality, but was always in process of development. For myself, I had
-studied it for years, and could never get any nearer towards the
-discovery of its principles. Every day he was startling you with some
-new combination, as a rule strictly ungrammatical, but often a reversion
-to some lost or more accurate phraseology. For example: “Let I go,”
-“Would you like I to do it”?—the latter a reproduction, as near as may
-be, of the Latin formula _visne ego faciam_? A still more perplexing
-characteristic in his speech was that he used many of his words in a
-variety of senses.
-
-“Cuss they nigglin’ weeds,” he’d say, and “Cuss my nigglin’
-toothache”—phrases in which the adjective (or participle) carried an
-appreciable meaning, even when he didn’t add the word “darn’d” as an
-explanatory gloss. But when he transferred the phrase a minute
-afterwards to a splendid crop of potatoes, in which my inexperienced eye
-could detect no possible fault, I was all at sea again, and had to ask
-him to explain himself.
-
-“I means they’m small,” he answered, with a contemptuous sniff at my
-ignorance.
-
-“But, Matthew, you told me just now that ‘nigglin’’ meant ‘darn’d.’”
-
-“And so it do—darn’d small;” looking at me as if he thought the epithet
-suited me as much as the potatoes.
-
-When Matthew had pneumonia and lay _in extremis_, his friends came round
-to console him with the assurance that he would die at the turn of the
-tide.
-
-“What time, Matthew, do ’en begin to turn?” they said.
-
-“At seven o’clock, ezzactly,” whispered the inveterate old humorist. And
-it was not till the next morning they discovered that he had defrauded
-them of one whole hour of pleasant anticipation.
-
-In his sober moments Matthew was a brilliant story-teller (in both
-senses, I fear); though his brilliancy now is limited to occasional
-flashes of wit. The following is one of his best reminiscences. I have
-selected it out of many because I have since discovered that it was
-founded on fact. Not only was it authenticated by a clergyman in whose
-neighbourhood it was enacted, but it was told and re-told by one of the
-actors in the tragedy, though he had passed to a land from which no
-testimony is available long before I heard the story at second-hand from
-Matthew.
-
-“’Twas in December, 1824, that it happened. So Joseph told I.” (This,
-at any rate, was Matthew’s recognised formula.) “’Tis true he were a
-great liar, and I didn’t take no count o’ the main o’ his tales; for he’d
-tell you most anything, he would; ’specially if he see’d the price of a
-glass of fourpenny for tellin’ it. But, in proof ’tis true, they’d tell
-it to the childer at night time, when they was obstrepulous and wouldn’t
-go to bed—just for a joke like, to fright ’em to sleep.
-
-“’Twas in December, 1824; and not likely he were to forget it. For ’twas
-the year of the great gale (the ‘Outrage’ they calls it hereabouts), when
-the sea broke clean over Rudge and washed away th’ old church, all but
-the chancel. Joseph never took kindly-like to the new church they built
-for ’en higher up i’ the valley, out o’ reach o’ the sea. ’Twas too
-spick and span, he said, to suit he—all white and glitterin’ like
-chalk—though ’twere built of the best Portland stone, and a sight
-prettier to my thinkin’ than the tumble down old barn that’s all that’s
-left o’ th’ old un. But the visitors and gentry, they takes after
-Joseph, and for one what goes to see the new church there’s hundreds ’ll
-bring their vittles and sit and peant th’ old ’un—studyin’ all the
-tombstones, and what’s writ on ’em—mostly shipwrecks it be, for I doubt
-if there’s half-a-dozen stones in th’ old grave-yard but what tells of
-someone or t’other who was drownded at sea. In that one gale of ’24
-’twas thousands that perished, and all that was found on ’em Joseph
-buried there, when the sea gived back her dead, and he could get at his
-grave-yard. Though, to be sure, nought was left but the chancel, so you
-could scarce say as how, poor souls, they got a decent buryin’.
-
-“Anyhow ’twas in that very month, just arter the ‘Outrage,’ that one
-Price—a farmer he called hisself—was livin’ high up yonder among they
-hills that you can see faint-like in the distance, nigh agin they ricks.
-A bleak and dreary place it were at the best o’ times, and a job to get
-at it at all when a strong so’wester were blowin’. And most every
-November it _do_ blow cruel strong along they high downs, wi’ no cover to
-speak on’t ’cept scraps of fuz and heather, and a small thorn tree, may
-be, now and agin, wi’ ’is branches all leanin’ to the nor’-east, as
-though ’twas an old man a holdin’ out his arms for shelter. And the road
-to Price’s farm were no better nor a sheep run. A godless man Price
-were, as you’d expect wi’ a man who lived so far from all we decent
-folks. And he never com’d nigh no church. Passon, he said, didn’t suit
-he, and he weren’t a goin’ to trapeze over hill and dale—not he—when
-chance ’twas he’d find no passon and no service at t’other end. And if
-passon went to he—as he did now and agin—he’d find the door shut in his
-face. And for vittles—not a bite nor a sup of anything did he offer ’en,
-though passon was a rare ’un at that kind of work. Sunday after Sunday
-he’d look in reg’lar nigh about dinner time, and savour by his nose, he
-would, where there was a chance for ’en of summat enticin’. Not but what
-’twere bad for the childer where he _did_ settle hisself, for ’twas
-little of the pudden was left for they when he’d a’ had his turn on’t.
-
-“Howsomever, ’twas there Price lived, wi’ hisself for his company. So no
-wonder strange tales got abroad about ’m. ’Twas said, though Joseph
-never gived no heed to ’t, that three wives had entered his doors, and
-never one of ’em had come out agin—no, not for buryin’. And Joseph must
-have known on’t if so be they had, seein’ he were clerk and sexton and
-grave-digger, let alone the head o’ the choir. ’Twas thought that he’d
-buried ’em in another parish, more nigher to the house he lived in, and
-wi’ a better road ’long which to carry ’em. But, Lord save us! tweren’t
-nothin’ of the kind.
-
-“One morning, early in December, ’twas nine o’ the clock, may be, or
-thereabouts—for Joseph had just been out to pen the sheep in the
-church-yard—a tall fine old genelman called at the door, and he knowed by
-his dress ’twere the Bishop. Not that he’d cast eyes on ’en before, for
-our youngsters are confirmed a way off; there baint enough of them to
-claim a Bishop for theirselves. But he knowed ’twere the Bishop, what
-wi’ his gaiters, fittin’ as though they’d grow’d to his legs, and his
-broad hat as shiny as if you’d smoothed it wi’ a flat iron.
-
-“‘Good morning to you,’ says he, as pleasant as anyone could say it.
-‘You be clerk of the parish, baint you?’ ‘True, your wusshup,’ he
-replied. ‘And sexton too’ says he. ‘Right you be; and grave-digger and
-choir leader as well,’ for he thought it no sin to make the most to ’m of
-his preferments. ‘Well,’ says he, ‘I want you for a buryin’—this night
-at eight o’clock.’ ‘A buryin’, your wusshup,’ says he, ‘and at night?’
-‘Yes, and three on ’em,’ says he, ‘all in one grave.’ ‘Well, it _do_
-sound mortial strange, your wusshup, but ’tis you that says it, and not
-I.’ ‘You’d better go at once,’ he says, ‘and begin the grave, for you
-won’t have none too much time to spare on’t, ’specially as I want it done
-on the quiet, so to speak, and you mustn’t take no hand to help you, and
-meet me punctually as ever is at eight o’clock at Farmer Price’s, up
-along the hill, and bring a lantern and the parish hand-bier ’long wi’
-’e.’
-
-“He hadn’t much time to ponder on it, as you may suppose, with that grave
-to dig, and no one to gi’ ’m a helpin’ hand. And mortial hard work he
-found it, too, for the frost set in early that year, and the ground that
-hard that, young and lusty as he were, he found it a job to get the
-pick-axe into ’en.
-
-“Howsomever he did get ’en done, and at eight o’clock he was at Farmer
-Price’s door, and ’twas opened to ’en by the Bishop hisself. And so,
-hand in hand as you may say, he and the Bishop, they went into the
-kitchen. And there right facin’ ’em—packed up agin the wall like so many
-old grandfeyther clocks—stood three coffins, with a piece of glass let in
-’em to show the face, and a dead woman in each!
-
-“Close handy they were to ’m when he took his meals, or smoked his pipe;
-and when he felt a bit lonesome (so he told Joseph) he’d go up to ’em and
-ask ’em how they did, and if they felt comferable. And fresh as peant
-they were, too: only a bit shrivelled, like as ’twere an apple in April.
-Perhaps ’twas the heat of the kitchen, or may be some stuff he’d put in
-along wi’ ’em; anyhow you could see their faces right enough and tell
-they was women.
-
-“‘Take ’em down,’ says the Bishop; ‘Farmer Price’ll lend ’e a helpin’
-hand: and we’ve none too much time to get ’em back to the churchyard and
-bury ’em.’ Joseph hisself could scarce do nought but stare at ’em. To
-think that that godless man had kep’ ’em there—one on ’em for nigh on ten
-years—never thinkin’, not he, that he was keepin’ ’em tied hand and foot
-to this world, with never no chance of a resurrection till he took it
-into his wicked head to let ’em go. And there they’d a’ been for ten
-years longer—for just so long he lived—if Bishop hisself hadn’t got wind
-on’t and come down right away to bury ’em.
-
-“Anyhow they _did_ get decent burial—the three on ’em—at last. For they
-had Bishop, and Joseph and Farmer Price; though I don’t take no count o’
-he, ’cept that he helped to lower ’em and fill in the grave.
-
-“But Joseph were right glad, he were—and so he told I—to see the rare tug
-he had in draggin’ they three dead women up hill and down hill ’cross to
-the church-yard. For Joseph never gived ’en no helpin’ hand—you may take
-your oath on’t—though he did make a show of pushin’ at the bier
-whensomever the Bishop looked his way.
-
-“Didn’t no one never hear on’t? Yes, they did. But they didn’t take no
-count on’t. Our people baint over wise about religion, and things were
-done in those days that’d make a rare potheration now. Besides, you see,
-Bishop were there, and he made a sight o’ difference. ’Twas a rare fine
-buryin’, people thought, wi’ a Bishop to put you unnerground; though ’tis
-true he hadn’t his fine gran’ toggery on, and his girt white sleeves.”
-
- * * * * *
-
-The actors in our humble drama are dead and gone. The Bishop and Price
-and Joseph have, each in his turn, been followed to the grave, only with
-less eccentric rites. But the story of the farmer’s “Happy Family” still
-lingers in the village, and is told and re-told round many a cottage
-hearth under the quaint but significant title of “Price’s Menagerie.”
-
- * * * * *
-
-P.S. The “Professor” himself came round to-day—“for a pipe of baccy,
-Sir, if you have such a thing about you”—so I have utilised him to
-correct his own proof sheets. “There baint nothin’ wrong in ’em,
-_Master_ Fred (this to a man of sixty!), so fur as I sees. Only you says
-‘gived’ where I says ‘gi’ed.’ But taint no odds. Like enough they’ll
-guess what you means whatsomever you writes down.” Thanks, Matthew, for
-your tribute to my clearness of expression.
-
-
-
-The Cruel Crawling Foam
-
-
-IT was a touch of the old wilfulness in Ronald, which cost him dear, and
-saddened all his future life.
-
-A windy storm-swept sky, though the wind was only playing with the sea as
-yet. Still, it met us, as we went down to the shore, with a drift of
-sand that stung the face like pin-pricks—trying, one might easily fancy,
-to warn us back from our foolhardy enterprise.
-
-A painter would have needed only his blends of grey to paint the scene,
-till we came upon it, and added, I suppose, a patch of colour. Wiser
-people than ourselves kept quietly indoors; and the sand, the sea, the
-gulls, and the hurrying scud could all have been rendered in varying
-shades of grey. It is, to me, the most fascinating hue that the
-changeful sea can wear. One great artist, whose sketches are the glory
-of Girton College, knew it well. With an unerring eye for this sad unity
-of tone, she admits no faintest touch of colour into her cold grey wastes
-of sea and sky.
-
-It was a risky and foolhardy attempt on the part of Ronald, and one that
-he has bitterly repented of, to launch a boat that afternoon. I can
-never quite forgive him for the sorrow it was to bring on us. But his
-wife would have it so. It was her greatest enjoyment to put out to sea
-on such a day. A calm aimless drift, in life or on the sea, was out of
-harmony with her bright and nerve-wrought soul.
-
-Where Ronald was still more at fault was in the choice of our third hand.
-True, we had a fair amount of experience between us. But, with a strong
-south-wester to fight against, weight and strength are the two things
-needed, and will often win through a gale when experience is powerless.
-Ronald, however, was in one of his obstinate moods. He would take Oswald
-or no one, and his wife said ditto. Now Oswald was a lad of eighteen: a
-good seaman, I grant, but quite unequal to the work we had in view.
-However, he was the son of Ronald’s favourite gardener, and had been his
-wife’s pet scholar at her Sunday school, since which time he had been her
-devoted slave, making himself useful about the house, and looking after
-her specialities in the garden and conservatory.
-
-“Isn’t that boat too big for us, Oswald? Remember, there are only two of
-us to handle it, for Ronald’s ill, and can’t be reckoned on for much.
-Unless I’m mistaken, it intends to blow harder than this before it’s
-done.”
-
-“Yes, sir. You’re right in a way. But we’ve got the winch to lower and
-haul her up with. And once at sea she’ll be a deal safer and stauncher
-than that one,” pointing to a lean, wall-sided thing that was our only
-alternative. “Besides, we’ll set very little canvas; indeed, to all
-appearance we shan’t want much.”
-
-What a sail we had that afternoon! I think that I, who had countenanced
-it least, enjoyed it most. For Ronald was only just recovering from
-influenza, and certainly not up to a rough and tumble experience of this
-sort. And Oswald, too, for a lad of his spirits, was strangely
-depressed. “Never felt like it before,” he said, “and I shall be
-thankful when we’re safe on shore again. Our old people at home would
-say that I was walking over my grave, or some folly of the kind. But
-that can’t be out here,” he added, with a poor attempt to laugh it off.
-
-First of all we took her along under the lee of the shore, where we were
-able to carry a fair amount of sail, and when we had worked her well
-round the bay we put her head straight for the south-east, and, with the
-wind on our beam, raced out into the open sea.
-
-It was a longer and heavier business to work her back again, with the
-wind right in our teeth, and freshening steadily as the evening wore on.
-Fortunately for us it had only blown fitfully, and without much weight in
-it till now. It was still “making up its mind,” as sailors say, whether
-it would blow or not. But as we were beaching her in a deep sandy cove
-it had finished apparently with indecision, and began to blow in earnest.
-
-Just as we had landed, and Oswald was preparing to follow us, a terrific
-squall burst full upon the boat, which lay beam on to it. Relieved of
-her last weight, as Oswald stepped on shore, she yielded to the pressure,
-and, heeling over on her side, pinned him to the ground. In a moment the
-horror of it broke upon us. What could we do, the two of us, even if
-Ronald hadn’t been shorn of half his strength? It would have taken ten
-men to pull her over in the face of the gale that was blowing. And the
-tide was rising rapidly. It was idle to look for help. We had beached
-her in a quiet sequestered cove, used only by ourselves. But it was
-closer to Thorpe Hill than the regular landing stage, and, after a hard
-day’s work, saved us a tedious beat along the coast when the wind was
-blowing from its present quarter. The high land above us was private
-property, with no right of way, and on a day like this, for it was
-beginning to rain, would be lonely as a desert.
-
-Our first thought was of the winch. We had had one fitted up under the
-cliff in order to save labour in launching and beaching the boat. But,
-even if it were possible, we had no time nor knowledge how to alter the
-gear so as to utilise the leverage for righting her. No doubt the
-incoming tide would help us later on, but its help, when it did come,
-would come too late. Yet to do anything was better than to do nothing.
-So we took the balers out of the boat, and, kneeling down beside Oswald,
-attempted the hopeless task of freeing him by scooping out the sand on
-either side, till he begged us to desist, as the boat only fell over more
-heavily, and imprisoned him still deeper in the yielding sand.
-
-And all the time that we were working, Kingsley’s “cruel, crawling foam”
-beat persistently upon my brain, maddening me with its ghastly congruity.
-And yet “cruel and crawling” it was not. Quicker it could scarcely have
-been, and its quickest was (I saw) its kindliest. Already it was playing
-with the lad’s hair, though his mistress, careless of the risk she ran,
-knelt down beside him and supported his head in her arms.
-
-“Pray for me,” he said.
-
-She whispered the words in his ear, though if she had shouted them with
-all her strength they would not have reached us on the other side of the
-boat, where, with a hope that was hopeless now, we were straining
-ourselves to no purpose in the attempt to right her.
-
-But Oswald was satisfied. A look of repose and even comfort settled upon
-his face before the last words came.
-
-“Thank you,” he said, “you have made death easy for me. And you have
-done so at the risk of your own life. Tell them at home I was not
-afraid.”
-
-She bent down and kissed his forehead.
-
-“And now—cover my face.”
-
-
-
-Our Queen
-
-
- “And the stars—they shall fall, and the Angels go weeping,
- Ere I cease to love her, my Queen, my Queen.”
-
-
-
-I
-
-
-“OUR Queen” she was to me and Ronald, ever since we first met her at
-Broadwater, and Ronald had dared to love her. And now that she is gone
-from us there is little fear that her title will ever be questioned.
-Neither he nor I need any coarser picture of her than that engraved by
-memory. But for others—for those who knew her little, or less well—let
-me try to call her back in clearer and less shadowy outline.
-
-A woman this, to whom you gave your confidence with your first greeting,
-and never afterwards withdrew it.
-
-Not the face to tempt an artist by its regularity of feature or beauty of
-colouring. Madonna-like some would call it, and so it was in sweet and
-loving trustfulness, but far too mobile and human, too full of interest
-and human sympathy to suggest the reposeful placidity of conventional
-art. Instinct, rather, with the life and animation that inspires the
-best work of Gainsborough and Reynolds, and frank with a simplicity that
-is careless of its surroundings, and therefore conquers them. The centre
-of her interest was home; thence it radiated outwards. From her family
-to her friends, from friends to neighbours, her influence passed in ever
-widening circles like a ripple that, stirred in the centre of some pool,
-travels to the extremest edge.
-
-Nature creates not many such. Happy the man who has known and honoured
-one.
-
-Over and over again I have tried to unravel the secret of her
-inexplicable charm. Seating myself in some sequestered nook, where
-Ronald himself would find it hard to discover me, it has been my
-pleasure, through a long evening’s entertainment, to watch her in every
-graceful word and greeting that she exchanged with her friends. It was a
-satisfaction even to see her walk across the room—a lost art (they tell
-us) in these hurried and inartistic days. I tried to learn the mystery
-from her conversation. The words told nothing, but the tone was less
-secretive; and, after all, how much more the tone always does tell of the
-spirit of the speaker than the conventional coinage we have devised in
-words.
-
-“And how’s that sweet little bairn of yours, Mrs. Macpherson?” (She was
-half Scotch by birth, and now and again her descent betrayed itself in a
-pretty mannerism of word and accent.) “I lost my heart to her, I did,
-when I met her yesterday on the Parade with her nurse.” A greeting old
-as time can make it, but new, entirely new, in the sympathy she threw
-into it right from the depths of her heart. No one could hear her and
-not believe; and Mrs. Macpherson was won. Sometimes, almost awestruck, I
-asked myself, Is there, _can_ there be a human nature so nearly
-approximating to the divine as to possess the verity of universal
-sympathy? And, knowing this woman so nearly and so closely as I knew
-her, it was impossible, I found, to answer the question with a negative.
-
-“If you are in doubt, play trumps” used to be the rule in whist, and “If
-you are in doubt, wear black” would be my advice to a lady in difficulty
-about her dress. And Ronald’s wife suggested it.
-
-To-night she was looking her best—in black, and silver and diamonds. She
-and Ronald were giving their largest ball of the season, due regularly at
-this period of the year, and every family of standing for miles round had
-sent its representative. For a wonder I hadn’t been watching her that
-evening, and was surprised to feel her gentle touch on my arm.
-
-“Come with me, Fred,” she said, “I want you for a few minutes upstairs.
-Poor old nurse is dying. We’ve been expecting it, you know, at any
-moment for some weeks past. But I wish it hadn’t come to-night. It
-looks so heartless to have all these people about us; and yet I know she
-wouldn’t have had the ball put off. She was the last person ever to
-think of self. Still it _does_ look unfeeling to go to her straight from
-all this light and merriment. Yet I feel it less than most would. Life
-and death seem to me so closely mixed, that wherever one is there you may
-expect the other.”
-
-“Of course I’ll come. But oughtn’t Ronald to be there too?”
-
-“Yes; but, you see, we cannot both be spared. He must be here to make
-excuses for me if I am missed. I don’t want to spoil the pleasure of all
-these young things during their one great evening of the year.”
-
-“But you’ll change your dress?” I said aghast.
-
-“No, I think not. If death is always so very near to us, it hardly seems
-worth while to change one’s dress to meet him. Besides, I have a special
-reason in this case. All her life long dear old nurse has liked to see
-me in my ball-room dress, and I’m sure she will to-night. She said it
-gave her an idea of what the angels were like better than did her Bible.
-And if it could give her one comforting thought to help her, I’d have
-dressed on purpose as I am.”
-
-There was little need for Ronald to make excuses for our absence. The
-old woman was dying when they called us. But her eyes opened and
-brightened as she saw her mistress.
-
-“What! an angel?” she cried. “No, but my own dear mistress, the best
-angel of them all, and dressed as I would have her—not yet in her robe of
-white—not yet.” And, with her mistress’ face pressed close to hers, and
-the diamonds and silver rippling and shimmering about her pillow, our old
-nurse died as she would have chosen. Half-an-hour later “Our Queen” was
-back in the ball-room: bright, and, to all appearance, cheerful as the
-rest. None that saw her would have guessed the scene from which she had
-come back to them. “Heartless” they would have said, and will say so
-still. But Ronald and I knew better. Her heart was in the nursery up
-stairs.
-
-She wears her white robe now. But, in reverence be it written, I would
-fain see her come to welcome me, clothed, as she was clothed that night,
-in black and silver and diamonds.
-
-
-II
-
-
-When her own time came, as it did soon after, she met death with the same
-fearless, friendly courage. Her thoughts were wholly for those who were
-to stay, and she was even playful in urging upon me never to leave Ronald
-and the children, but learn to “take her place.” I own I was troubled at
-times by what seemed almost levity in the face of death, till I began by
-degrees to realise her point of view.
-
-“I think it will be a very short distance,” she said, “perhaps into
-another room, perhaps not even so far as that; and the time (to me, at
-any rate) will certainly seem short—no longer than the night of sleep
-which separates us from our loved ones till the morning.” And of the
-future she had no fear. “Nothing,” she said, “could persuade me that the
-light which has been fanned and quickened here will be extinguished for
-ever by the incident we call death. The jest would be too horribly,
-inconceivably malicious. Yet our choice lies between this and the
-crowning impossibility of a self-created world.”
-
-Not thoughtlessly, but in the hope of finding a standing ground for
-myself, I would ask her sometimes if she had no misgivings regarding the
-re-existence of the body, and mutual recognition, and the endless
-difficulties that centre round the subject.
-
-“None,” she answered, “none. Why should I? Look at the natural world.
-I know that space must be either limited or limitless; but can I form a
-conception of either alternative? Yet the problem may be simplicity
-itself to some larger mind than ours. So why trouble myself about
-difficulties which may be easier of solution still to those who hold the
-key? And you think it hard, I know—you have often said so—that many
-should die, as we know they must, without a friend on earth to whom they
-can look forward for a welcome when they reach the further shore. To me,
-I confess, it seems quite the contrary. Surely the burst of welcome will
-be greater in their ears than in ours, who have lived surrounded by
-friends, and never known the dearth of sympathy.”
-
-And every difficulty, as I raised it, she met with the same calm,
-unquestioning certainty.
-
-She died, as she had lived, in ministering to others. Oswald’s death was
-the first blow. From the exposure and the physical effects she soon
-recovered—sooner than we expected, considering her frail and uncertain
-hold on life. But the horror of it was always with her, especially the
-feeling that it was she who had suggested the fatal experiment. Ever and
-again, as the subject was referred to, I could see her shuddering at the
-reminiscence, blaming herself with what was surely the only reproach that
-can have harassed her bright and blameless conscience. And the
-remembrance was still upon her when her two children sickened with the
-scarlet fever. Considering her weak state, and consequent liability to
-infection, the doctor had strictly forbidden her to enter their room. “I
-can make no promises,” she said; “if they want me I must go. Till then I
-will obey your orders. We are told to give up father and mother, and
-perhaps oneself for one’s husband, but our children, I think, have a
-prior claim to all.” And so she watched and waited at their door,
-stealing along the corridor in her robe of white at all hours of the
-night, listening and listening to hear if a summons came.
-
-One night, unhappily, it came—a summons she was powerless to resist. The
-elder child was delirious, and she heard it moaning piteously, “Mother,
-mother, why don’t you come to me?” Without a moment’s hesitation she had
-entered the room, signing her own death-warrant in the act.
-
-She did not linger long in dying; lingering was little in her way. On a
-grey morning in October, just ten days after she was taken ill, the gun
-which welcomes sunrise from the signal-station on the pier echoed like a
-call. She opened her eyes to greet us, and with the diamonds flickering
-again about her head—only they were sunbeams now—she passed to that
-“larger life” of which she, if anyone, held the key.
-
- “Lest we forget.”
-
- * * * * *
-
-
-
-
-Bindo A Sketch
-
-
-I
-
-
-THE last notes of “Jerusalem, Jerusalem!”—sung as no other boy on earth
-could sing it—had just died away in a storm of applause. Now and again
-the surge of voices reached the green-room in a muffled roar, where Eric
-was protesting to the Manager that nothing would induce him to sing
-another note that night. “They’ve had four songs,” he said, “what on
-earth do they want more? As it is, I shall break my voice some day in
-that confounded hall. It was never meant for a boy to sing in—all wood
-and iron and glass—with nothing to help you or carry the voice. No! I
-_won’t_ sing, that’s flat; tell them I’m ill, or my mother’s come for me,
-or anything you like. Sing again, I _won’t_.” “Yes, I’ll tell them your
-mother’s come for you,” said the Manager with a laugh, “but, remember,
-they’ll be clamouring for ‘A boy’s best friend is his mother’ if I do.”
-
-As if to confirm Eric in his determination there came a knock at the
-door, and a boyish face peeped _in_. “Sorry, Hudson, if I’ve interrupted
-business, but they told me the show was over, and I want Eric for supper.
-By the way, you can come too, if you like. Andrews and Thorne are there
-already, and have finished supper by this time, I expect. But there’ll
-be some champagne and lobster-salad left for us.”
-
-“Thanks, Lord Eastonville, I’ll come with pleasure, but I must first go
-and quiet these lunatics. They’re roaring for Eric like a lioness robbed
-of her cub.”
-
-Ten minutes later the three were entering a room in Hope Square, so rich
-in its decorations of china, tapestries, and antique bronzes that it
-might have been transported by a slave of the lamp direct from Aladdin’s
-palace, or have done duty for a catalogue of Roman luxury: “The
-merchandise of gold and silver and precious stones and of pearls and fine
-linen and silk and scarlet and all manner of vessels of most precious
-wood and of brass and iron and marble and frankincense, and souls of
-men.”
-
-By the fire (for it was early in May) stood an oval table, covered with
-old glass and silver in pleasant confusion. The fruit—a distinctive
-feature—piled artistically in a ribbed basket of the Queen Anne period,
-not disposed at the rate of four apples here, flanked by four oranges
-there, after the fashion dear to the soul of the British householder when
-he calls his neighbours to a feast.
-
-The three new comers were greeted with a round of applause as hearty in
-spirit as the cheer which had followed them from the hall.
-
-“Why, Bindo, you’ve the very boy we’ve been longing for. We’ve finished
-supper and used up our talk, and it’s too late for a theatre and too
-early for bed. Singing will just fill the interval before cards.”
-
-“Not a note from me, Thorne, till I’ve had some supper. I must clear my
-throat from the dust of the hall with champagne first. Why you’re as bad
-as the audience, who think that songs can be pumped out of one as easily
-as you can get squeaks out of a gutta-percha doll.”
-
-While Eric is better employed we can introduce the party.
-
-Lord Eastonville, who owns the rooms, is a thorough gentleman of the
-well-bred English type, with brains enough to carry him safely through
-life—good-looking, generous, easy-going to a fault, and twenty-five. Too
-fond, it may be, of taking his ease, as all well-to-do Englishmen are
-now-a-days, but a man who could fight for his country, as in the old
-Crimean times, when war galvanised our lethargy into life. War is no
-unmixed evil; it carries with it a blessing in disguise. It is the scare
-and shadow of war that is the curse without the blessing.
-
-Thorne, as a minute in his company would prove to you, is a hard-headed
-journalist; witty, and an excellent talker; facile, of course, with his
-pen, and ready to turn out a new theology as easily as he could write an
-article on the last discovered butterfly or grub.
-
-Andrews is a graduate of London University, spending with Eastonville the
-remnant of a holiday. Fairly humorous and incorrigibly deaf—never more
-so (his friends say) than when a subject bores him—he is himself a trifle
-of a bore to-night. In his latest translation of Vergil “ploughed with a
-team” has become in the hands of the printers “ploughed with steam,” an
-anachronism that pleases him mightily.
-
-He is also sorely exercised over the term “Prolegomena,” used in
-connexion with our classical editions. “Either the word’s bad Greek,” he
-says, “or else it’s rank nonsense. ‘Things that are being said before’
-means just nothing at all. What they want is a Perfect, ‘things that
-have been said beforehand,’ which is not only more grammatical, but also
-(he adds with a chuckle) much more descriptive of prefaces in general.”
-
-“Well, I don’t understand Greek and Latin,” said Thorne, “so suppose we
-talk English. I have been studying you carefully, Bindo, and have come
-to the conclusion that you look highly picturesque among all that fruit
-and flowers. I wonder what made you so good looking; was your father
-particularly lovely?”
-
-“Neither my father nor my mother, Thorne, though she _has_ contrived to
-marry again; and the consequence is I’m not so well looked after as I
-ought to have been, else I shouldn’t be here to-night. Fate, I think,
-must have made a judicious blend of the best points in his face with the
-best features of hers. And the result is me.”
-
-“First class grammar, Bindo. She must have sent you to a good school at
-any rate.”
-
-“Anything else to ask, old man? You seem to be in an inquisitive mood
-to-night.”
-
-“Yes; who taught you to sing?”
-
-“Le bon Dieu, I suppose, as Patti said. I had only the training of a
-country choir boy. By the by, my master’s name was Thorne, a matter full
-of interest to you. I believe I sang by intuition.”
-
-“A Hamiltonian philosopher,” muttered Andrews, “only he has developed
-theory into practice.”
-
-“Anyhow, when your voice goes I shall put on mourning,” said Eastonville,
-“not black, for I don’t believe in it. Purple’s the farthest I can go.”
-
-“You may put on white or canary yellow, like a heathen Chinee, for all I
-care.”
-
-“Don’t lose your temper, Bindo.”
-
-And Eric, _alias_ Bindo, how shall I describe him? A fair boy, delicate
-looking, but with lungs that can fill the biggest concert room in London,
-with wavy golden hair flung back on his forehead, and the long dreamy
-eyes so dear to the soul of Raphael. In fact, it was Raphael’s picture
-of Bindo Altoviti (long supposed to be a portrait of the painter) that
-had won him his name. Framed in the cabin window of a Bournemouth
-steamer (excursion boats in these days do not condescend to port holes),
-his arms resting on the sill, the resemblance had struck me irresistibly.
-From that day he became “Bindo” to all of us, and would scarcely have
-recognised an appeal to him as “Eric,” if we had lighted on the name by
-accident. His hair perhaps was one of his most telling points. It
-reflected under strong lights brilliant flakes of gold, isolated like the
-motes that are suspended in certain liqueurs.
-
-But after all it was his manner that took so much with all his friends.
-He had the timid deprecating caress of a half-tamed animal, like
-Hawthorne’s Donatello before he had won himself a soul. Alas! poor Bindo
-was hardly allowed time to win it.
-
-“And what was the show like to-night, Bindo?” asked Eastonville.
-
-“Oh, the same old game. Nothing would suit them out of sixty songs but
-‘Jerusalem,’ ‘Rags and Tatters,’ and ‘Home, sweet Home.’ They don’t mind
-‘A boy’s best friend’ for an encore when they are in a strictly domestic
-mood. But anything really worth singing they won’t look at.”
-
-“Well, we’ll follow their better mood and have ‘Jerusalem.’ You’ve got
-back your voice by now, old chap, and we’ve been waiting for you
-patiently this last half-hour or more.”
-
-Once again that night the glorious voice rang out into the thin air,
-startling the silent square. Windows were hastily flung up, and the word
-“Bindo” was passed from sill to sill. Even a drowsy canary was
-stimulated to try a note or two in emulation of a method more attractive
-than its own. And through the open window came, for an accompaniment,
-the voice of London, soft as the murmur of a far-off sea.
-
-With the end of the song a sharp rattle of applause ran round the square,
-marked by distinctive intervals, like the volley at a soldier’s funeral.
-
-“Bravo, Bindo,” said Eastonville, “it would pay you to send the hat round
-to-night. Here’s a fiver, young ’un, to open the bank with, though why I
-should give it you passes my comprehension. A boy who can earn ten
-pounds a night at sixteen is a sight better off than I am. If you lose
-it, you’ll have to try the others. I’m pretty well cleared out. After
-all you’re detestable, Bindo. Just when we want you most, your voice
-will be gone, and you’ll have spoiled us for all other singing, precisely
-as the great Sarah has spoiled us for any acting but her own. If we
-could only forget and start fresh with each week, how nice and pleasant
-everything would be. I believe Nelly is right in ‘Cometh up,’ when she
-says that memory is often a cruel gift. No one would choose to remember
-a feeble show, or to spoil his enjoyment of average singing by a
-recollection of the best. Why are ‘Jack Sheppard’ and ‘Geneviève de
-Brabant’ practically withdrawn from the London stage? Because elderly
-playgoers cannot forget the days when Mrs. Keeley played ‘Jack,’ or when
-Emily Soldene and the Dolaro drew all Mayfair to Islington by the
-witchery of a serenade. But now for ‘A boy’s best friend’—we’re all in a
-domestic mood to-night—and then cards.”
-
-
-
-II
-
-
-Bindo was very docile as a rule, especially in the hands of those who
-loved and cared for him. But on some points he was obdurate as steel.
-For instance, I could never persuade him, try what I would, to invest his
-salary, nor could anything induce him to learn a profession against the
-day when his voice should fail him. Singing, he said, had come naturally
-to him; a good voice, a good ear, and a little training had done the
-trick; and he thought, or pretended to think, that the evil day, when it
-did come, would bring with it its own resource. “Sufficient unto the day
-is the _good_ thereof” was Bindo’s motto throughout.
-
-And it was impossible to teach him the value of money. He spent it
-royally on others, lavishly on himself. “Where have you been, Bindo?” I
-said to him one Monday, when he hadn’t turned up as usual on the previous
-afternoon. “Oh, I took Harry out of town. He’s been seedy, you know,
-and wanted change. So we went to Brighton.” “And you travelled
-first-class, and put up at the Bedford, and lost money to him at cards in
-the evening?” “You have hit it _exactly_, old man,” was the reply.
-
-I believe that most of his money went on Quixotic kindnesses of this
-sort. One night when I was with him at the Queen’s Hall (he liked to run
-round to me between his “turns” and criticise the show from the front)
-his salary for two nights went before it was earned to the first violin,
-a blind little snuff-powdered man, but Bindo’s very particular friend,
-because he had stumbled in getting down from the stage and damaged his
-instrument.
-
-When the end did come, it came suddenly. His voice cracked on an upper
-G—sudden and short like the string of a violin—in the very hall he had so
-emphatically abused for its acoustic deficiencies. Of course he came to
-me, if it can be said that he came to me, when he had always been with me
-for most of his time. But the life bored him. I had my own work to do
-in the evenings, and couldn’t go with him to restaurants, theatres, and
-concerts, the excitement of which had become a second nature to Bindo.
-And so we drifted, little by little, but still very surely, farther and
-farther apart.
-
-It was about this time that his friend Harry, the same whom he had
-entertained so royally at Brighton, fell ill. Bindo had been anxious
-about him for a long while, and never passed a day without seeing him.
-But it was only quite lately that the doctors had begun to suspect a
-rapid form of consumption. Bindo was full of trouble. I think he liked
-Harry best of all his friends, perhaps excepting me.
-
-One day he burst into my room, with something more akin to tears in his
-eyes than I had ever seen in them before. “What _is_ to be done,
-Charlie? They’ve given Harry the sack at his office because he’s too ill
-to do his work properly. They won’t even keep it open for him for a week
-or two on the chance. What brutes they are! And, poor old chap, he’s
-got nothing. If it were only this time last year, and I had my voice
-again, we could do famously. I wish I’d taken your advice, old man, and
-saved my pile while I had the chance. By the way: happy thought! I have
-a heap of rings and pins and watches at home that the swells gave me last
-year for singing at their matinees and concerts—enough of them to stock a
-pawnshop. By Jove! they _shall_ help to stock Attenborough’s; and we’ll
-live on the proceeds, at any rate till things look more rosy.” He was
-off then and there, and for the next six months, till Harry died, I
-scarcely saw him. One excitement in his case had cast out the others,
-and while Harry lived he hardly cared to be outside his room. Brother
-and nurse in one he was to him—with him night and day—and, whatever money
-or love could do, Bindo did for him.
-
-Afterwards he came back to me, looking a trifle older, a trifle more
-depressed; but improved, or so it seemed to me, by the experience he had
-undergone. I forgot that there are natures receptive of vigorous and
-even intense impressions, but absolutely incapable of retaining them. So
-soon as one predominant idea has passed from the brain, its place must be
-occupied by another, for good or else for evil. Which of the two it may
-be, seems almost a matter of indifference; it is the law, so to speak, of
-their being that it _should_ be indifferent.
-
-I almost wished in those days that I could fall ill myself. Five or six
-months of nursing under Bindo’s hand would have been a lazy delight to
-me, and (selfish as it may seem) better far for him than the life he was
-leading. Unhappily I never felt fitter, much too fit and too
-self-occupied to be interesting to Bindo, and so he left me for others,
-more at liberty and likely to be more amusing.
-
-All this time he was (to quote his own words) “looking about for
-something”—the Micawber-like expression that does duty for an idle life.
-Whatever Bindo’s interpretation may have been, I know it made him very
-late in coming home of an evening. Yet he never asked me for money. His
-resources seemed boundless, and the stock of rings and watches
-inexhaustible. But, portable and useful property as they are, you must
-have a good supply of them in hand to live upon it for a year in the
-style Bindo was doing. Besides, it occurred to me as strange that I had
-never had a sight of them; in old days I had always had the first view of
-any present that was made him. On another point, too, he was inflexible
-as ever. Advice and help towards securing permanent employment he
-absolutely and positively refused. “Better that, old boy,” he said,
-“than do what most people do—bother their friends all round for an
-opinion when they’ve decided all along to follow their own.”
-
-Your practical and steady-going individual—the one, for example, who can
-“see nothing” in _Alice in Wonderland_—never admits into his reckoning
-the influence of excitement. It disturbs and disarranges his equilibrium
-of life. Yet, disparage it as you may, it is one of the most important
-factors in shaping life and character, and perhaps the very strongest
-lever that operates for the development of vice. Fortunately, a fair
-number of mankind can do with a small and weak modicum of this dangerous
-stimulant. Individuals like Bindo, who ask for more, are classed among
-the eccentricities of nature, for whom it is impossible to prescribe.
-Yet, think what it means for a boy of sixteen, without discipline or
-experience to steady him, to drop, literally in a moment, from notoriety
-to neglect, activity to stagnation; almost from life to death.
-
-No wonder Bindo pined and drooped. I knew the alternative that lay
-before him: life and death—not in metaphor this time, but in sober
-earnest. Yet I let him go, for he had taught me himself, if I had wanted
-the knowledge, that no man can cage a human will. So from the very
-moment I had become more hopeful about him, the gulf widened between us.
-But only in companionship; never in spirit—
-
- “For, till the thunder in the trumpet be,
- Soul may divide from body, but not we,
- One from the other.”
-
-Meanwhile he had retained all his old friends—no one who had known Bindo
-was in a hurry to part company with him—but he had made other and less
-reputable ones. The strange and (to me) disquieting element in the
-situation was that he never, even now, seemed to be in want of money.
-Yet Harry’s illness alone must have cost him a fortune. All his old
-luxuries were resumed. Dinners to his friends, at which Bindo was always
-paymaster, with periodical trips to Brighton and Bournemouth for change,
-succeeded one another with the same regularity as when the boy was
-earning £10 a night. “Where _does_ the money come from?” I asked myself
-again and again. Alas! the knowledge was to come soon.
-
-Late one evening, as I was finishing an article for the editor who
-employed me, Thorne and Eastonville called at my rooms. That they had
-come on no pleasant errand was written on their faces. “Charlie,” said
-Thorne, “we are here on a disagreeable business. I hope it may prove
-less disagreeable than it looks. The fact is we’ve been losing a lot of
-things for some time past; at least we’ve tried our level best to _think_
-we’ve lost them. But it won’t do. The thing is far too systematic to be
-accidental. Sometimes it has been money—a sovereign or two at a time;
-then it was a diamond ring of Eastonville’s that went, and then some
-valuable scarf-pins of mine. So the thing must be stopped. But who has
-done it? I may as well out with it at once, though it burns my throat to
-tell it. We can’t help fancying it’s Bindo. No one but he has had
-access to our rooms at all hours, and you know how suspicious he has made
-us all by the pile of money he’s been spending.”
-
-“Yes: it _is_ Bindo, Thorne.”
-
-What was the good of attempting to deny it, when it flashed across me in
-a moment where all his jewellery had come from? No, not all perhaps.
-Probably—for I never asked him—he had started with articles that were
-legitimately his own, and then, when these had failed him, had been
-tempted to supplement them less creditably in the time of Harry’s need.
-
-Of course we found the things, as I anticipated, at Attenborough’s; all
-of them, that is, but one. Bindo was not the boy to try and hide his
-work, as an expert would have done, by distributing the articles at
-different shops, or even by signing under an assumed name. On the
-contrary, there was a contemptuous candour in his method of dealing that
-actually surprised and puzzled us for a moment at starting.
-
-I would allow no one but myself to liquidate on behalf of Bindo. But I
-as steadily refused to be the bearer to him of the discovery we had made.
-None of the others volunteered for the office, or showed the faintest
-ambition to be the one selected for the murder of a friendship. So we
-cast lots for the office, whose it should be, in true melodramatic style,
-and the lot fell upon me.
-
-“Cheer up, old fellow,” said Eastonville. “Bindo’s a deal fonder of you
-than he is of the rest of us, and won’t take it so hardly if it comes
-through you. The fact is we’ve spoiled him; all of us, that is, but you.
-And he knew it too, and I believe he liked the preaching you gave him
-better than all my five-pound notes; not that he showed any objection to
-the notes, I’m bound to say. Now, don’t look so savage, old man. I’m
-bound to try and laugh over it, because, if I didn’t, I feel sure I
-should do the other thing. And after all this business may be the making
-of Bindo.”
-
-But he didn’t know Bindo as I did. The boy came to me with outstretched
-hand, and with the old frank look in his eyes. But I could not trust
-myself to return it. What I did, must, I felt, be done quickly. If I
-waited for words in which to break the news to him; above all, if I gave
-him the chance of speaking first, I knew it was all up with me. So I
-just put the things on the table in front of him—how I hated the sight of
-them!—and said, “These things have come into my hands, no matter by what
-means.” He looked at them, and the faintest flush imaginable crept over
-his face. “Before you leave me to-night we will do them up for the post,
-and you will address them to the respective owners and leave them in my
-hands.” I did not dare to look at him, but turned away to another table,
-making up the parcels one by one and handing them to him where he stood
-behind my back. He addressed each parcel as he received it, never
-betraying by a word or sign what I knew the effort must have cost him.
-
-“And now, Eric, you and I part company.” I saw him wince at the name;
-almost as if he had received a blow. No doubt it implied to him, far
-more plainly than I had intended, that the Bindo of the past was lost
-beyond recall. It was not said in heedlessness, still less in
-heartlessness; it was simply loss of self-control. The old familiar name
-_could_ not be forced past my lips. In a moment I saw what I had done,
-and would have given worlds to repair it. “Bindo,” I cried impulsively,
-“come back.” But it was too late; the mischief was done. I had lost my
-last chance by that one word.
-
-“Good-bye,” he answered, and was gone.
-
-
-
-III
-
-
-The characters we meet with in this world are composite, all of them—not
-saint or sinner; not this or else that, but something betwixt and
-between; the good in them not permanent, the bad in them not hopeless;
-and Bindo’s short life had exemplified the fact with startling clearness.
-
-From that day forward my influence over him was gone. He must have kept
-studiously out of my path—an easy thing for him to do, as he knew all my
-habits and places of resort. I used to try and persuade myself that I
-was guiltless of the result, whatever it might be; that “unstable as
-water” his character was past all guidance, and would in any case have
-drifted to the end that seemed to be in view. Yet it was hard to feel
-all the while that a strong, kind word from me that night might have
-nerved him to fresh energy.
-
-“And what about Bindo?” I asked of Eastonville one day.
-
-“Going to the dogs, and pretty rapidly, too, I’m afraid. The last time I
-saw him, he was with Hutchinson and all that crew. You know what comes
-of mixing with loafers like that. He wouldn’t look at me, though I tried
-hard to get a talk with him. He’d had more to drink, too, than a boy of
-seventeen can carry. The pity of it all. What a voice he had, and what
-a good fellow, too, at heart! How he nursed poor Harry! Few Samaritans
-of the present day would have given up six months of their time to spend
-them in a sick room. But I’m afraid it’s all up with him.”
-
-“Can’t Thorne do anything?”
-
-“No; Bindo fights shy of us all, and no wonder either. I am sure I
-should do the same in his place. If _you_ could only have got hold of
-him, and made him feel that we were rather glad than otherwise that our
-useless belongings had gone towards nursing Harry, he’d have got back his
-self-respect and been less shy of us. But our last hope went when _you_
-failed. What the plague made you call him Eric instead of Bindo?”
-
-“Heaven only knows,” I answered, “or its Antipodes.”
-
-I told Thorne one day of Eastonville’s report, and asked him what he
-thought of it.
-
-“Just nothing at all,” he said. “He knows no more of what Bindo’s doing
-than all the rest of us. For myself, I believe he’s got work of some
-kind. I grant he’s seen sometimes at shady music halls with shady
-companions; and that’s what Eastonville means. But, after all, a fellow
-must have some one to speak to in the evening, especially if he’s at work
-all day; and if he’s lost his old friends he must fill up their places
-with the best he can. Besides, it’s quite possible that Bindo has grown
-wise enough by this time to make sure they do him no harm.”
-
-A few months later Thorne dropped in again. “Now you’ll be happy, I
-suppose; at least I am. Bindo starts to-morrow for Brazil in the
-_Magdalena_. We came across him to-day. He’s had work on hand all the
-year, though he kept it quietly to himself; and now he’ll be quit of all
-his old associations and be able to make another, and, I hope, a better
-start.”
-
-I made up my mind, of course, that I must see him before he sailed. But
-how to do it? Fortunately I knew the name of the boat he was to travel
-by, unless he had wilfully put Thorne off the scent. But it was too late
-to get a train that night, and, as the boat I knew sailed at two o’clock,
-it gave me none too much time to hunt him up at Southampton.
-
-When a letter came to me next morning by the early post, requiring an
-article at once for the afternoon papers, it was only what I expected.
-Fate had come between me and Bindo every time I had wished to help him,
-and she was at her old games again. So I sat down and wrote off my
-article—doggedly rather than savagely—in the spirit of one who gives up
-the game against chance, yet knowing, all the time I was writing, that I
-was losing my train, and that it was doubtful whether the next one would
-catch the _Magdalena_ at all. The official at the Dock entrance told me
-that she was already throwing off from the quay wall, and it would be
-quite impossible to get on board. “Far and away your best chance,” he
-added, “is to run round this way to the Dock gates. You’ll be there
-before she is, for it takes a lot of time to back and turn her. Then if
-you want to say good-bye to anyone _very_ particularly (and he smiled),
-you’ll get a word with her perhaps. For the vessel’s loaded deep, and
-her portholes won’t stand very high above the quay wall. Besides, she’ll
-only creep through the gates, but you’ve no time to lose.”
-
-I hardly stopped to thank him _then_. On my way back he got, not only
-thanks, but, to his great astonishment, a five-shilling piece. “Well; he
-must have wanted to see her badly,” I heard him whisper to his mate.
-
-The preliminaries of throwing off, backing, warping, were all over by the
-time I reached the gates, and the big vessel was beginning to make a move
-under her own steam. I looked eagerly for Bindo among the passengers.
-Fate had been kind to me, and given me yet another chance. What if I
-missed it like the last? But she favoured me this time. He was leaning
-over the deck-rail, watching the leave-takings as the great vessel swept
-slowly past the wall. His cap was thrown back and his hair blown off his
-forehead. What a boy he looked to be starting a new life in a new world,
-without a friend and with worse than failure for the past!
-
-Just then he caught sight of me. For a moment he hesitated—I could _see_
-him hesitate; then he left the deck and re-appeared at a port-hole in the
-aft part of the ship, framed once more (and it was my last picture of
-him) as the very Bindo of old. “Good-bye,” he said, “old man; it was
-good of you to come, after the way I’ve treated you. Thanks again, most
-faithful of friends, and good-bye. Forgive and forget. This time,
-believe me, I’ll go straight. By the way,” he added, “just give this
-parcel for me to Fred—naming one of his chums—I had intended it for the
-pilot, but it will be safer in your hands.”
-
-A wave of the hand, as the ship headed for the open water, was the last I
-saw of Bindo. But a load was off my mind as I walked back to the
-station. I could look forward hopefully now and patiently to our next
-meeting.
-
-Glancing at the parcel he had given me, I found it was addressed to
-myself. It contained a small diamond ring without word or comment. At
-the time when we found the jewellery at Attenborough’s, this ring had
-been missing, and, as it belonged to me, I had said nothing to the others
-about it. I might easily have lost it, and at any rate I gladly gave
-Bindo the benefit of the doubt. He had pledged it apparently at a
-different shop; perhaps because it was mine, and he did not wish it to be
-discovered with the rest; perhaps to remind him more vividly of the task
-he had set himself during the year to come. Till this ring could be
-redeemed, he must wait and work in London, and though all his hopes were
-centred in life abroad, it must not be thought of till this one act of
-reparation had been done. I never saw or heard from him directly again.
-
-Two years later he died of yellow fever in hospital at Rio; and his last
-act, while he still had strength to hold a pen, was to write me a loving
-letter of farewell, enclosing a cheque that covered the sums I had
-expended on his account. The letter was forwarded to me by the nurse who
-attended him.
-
- “Is it well with the lad? It is well.”
-
- * * * * *
-
-
-
-
-‘Declined with Thanks’
-A Postscript
-
-
-“READ and rejected” would be a more satisfying formula. But the Oracle
-is discreetly vague, and condescends not to particulars. Editorial
-reticence is surely a queer anomaly in these days when a reason is
-required for everything. When my own effusions have come back to me with
-the trite ascription, I could have welcomed enthusiastically the
-scantiest information, the liveliest abuse, in exchange for that
-exasperating commonplace.
-
-Sometimes even this amount of formal recognition was deferred. At first
-I augured hopefully from the delay, till experience taught me otherwise.
-Once, when an editor had kept my MS kicking about in this way, I actually
-wrote him my mind in free and unorthodox language. “Unwise, most
-unwise,” you will say. “Yes, but oh! _so_ satisfactory.” Add to which,
-my letter effected its purpose. He made up his mind then and there on
-the merits of my article and “declined it _with thanks_.” (The italics
-are his own.)
-
-But the mystery remains a mystery. He did not reveal it to me, in spite
-of his gratitude for my contribution, and I still hold to my opinion that
-such delay is discourteous to a male contributor, and ungallant to a
-lady. Besides, what is the reason? Is it that the editor waits to see
-what space he has got left at the finish, and then accepts an article,
-not for its merits, but for its length, on much the same principle as a
-lady will ask you at breakfast for _just_ the amount of bread that will
-suit a remnant of butter, or _vice versa_? If so, Aristophanes had
-anticipated the process, or one very nearly resembling it—“Man, man,” he
-says, “they are weighing my tragedy as if it were a pound of beef!”
-
-By the way, why shouldn’t the editorial chair be thrown open to
-competition? It is thus we elect our Professors, or some of them, at
-Cambridge. Let a candidate for the office be required to compose an
-“Exercise”—say a complete story for the magazine he aspires to conduct.
-So should we respect an editor more, or (possibly) fear him less. At any
-rate, no order of men, least of all one which examines others, should be
-debarred now-a-days from the privilege of being examined in its turn.
-
-The fear is that, if my suggestion were acted upon, it would empty the
-Universities of their Professors. Who could resist the attraction of a
-post which limits the bulk of its correspondence to one conventional
-formula? Besides, to a tired Tripos examiner, the duty of looking over a
-few hundred magazine articles per month would be a frolic—a light and
-airy holiday task. But he’d think the rules of the competition a trifle
-rough on the candidates, and might be tempted to violate decorum by an
-occasional word of encouragement and help.
-
-Apart from the suspense they inflicted upon me, due no doubt to the care
-they bestowed on the investigation, I think the editors were not far out
-in their judgment of my work. It always looked so heavy, even to a
-partial critic like myself, on the morning after I had written it. Once,
-in despair, I showed an article to a great novelist, who is happily also
-a great friend. “What _is_ the reason,” I asked him, “that it always
-looks so lumpy and devoid of wit and smartness?”
-
-I wonder he had patience to read it through. Perhaps it was my presence
-that inspired him. Then he said, “Not so bad in sense, but, as you say,
-terribly cumbrous in form. Let’s see what’s the matter with it. Why,
-it’s description, description, description, instead of action, action,
-action, as Demosthenes recommended in a kindred art. It’s an essay—good
-enough so far as the matter goes—but wearisome and heavy almost beyond
-_my_ endurance.”
-
-“Well, what’s to be done with it?”
-
-“Break it up,” was the reply, “and make them talk. See, here’s a man
-called Fred. Make him talk to the first woman he meets—Susan, I see,
-you’ve called her—let him ask her how she is, and where she’s going, and
-whether it’s a fine day. Do this with every proper name you can find,
-and you’ll soon see the mass disintegrate and look promising for the
-printer’s hands.”
-
-I followed his advice, and (triumph of triumphs) the article was
-accepted. But I felt unhappy and disquieted even in my hour of success.
-The fact is, the plot of my story was a dream. Yes; it came straight to
-me at midnight from the god Oneiros himself, complete to the very
-smallest detail, and where was I to look for another? I very seldom
-dream at all, and never, before or afterwards, a complete story; and, as
-I can never originate a plot, my chances for the future are the reverse
-of promising. Yet I labour on with a persistency beyond all praise, and
-always during the night—a detrimental practice, involving great
-expenditure of candles and tissue. By daylight my ideas entirely
-evaporate, and I have abandoned the attempt as hopeless. The sight, too,
-of a fair blank sheet of paper makes my thoughts take wing on the
-instant. They can only be arrested on scraps of waste paper or (best of
-all) on the pages of a novel.
-
-It is said that the criticisms on Corelli are literally “given to the
-dogs.” But my revenge upon a dull novel is, I flatter myself, more
-recondite still. I punish a poor story by using it as the palimpsest for
-a poorer one. Hence the highest tribute I can pay to my heroes in
-literature is an unspoken (I mean an unwritten) one. I leave their pages
-immaculate. My mind might be teeming at midnight with the noblest of
-thoughts, yet I could not bring myself to record them, even in thought,
-upon the pages of “Quentin Durward,” “Esmond,” “Silas Marner,” the
-“Return of the Native,” or “Wuthering Heights.”
-
-Judging it for power alone—power that never flags from the first page to
-the last—I know of nothing that approaches “Wuthering Heights,” except
-the preface Charlotte Bronte wrote for it. Yet I never read the book
-without compassionating the authoress. The creation of a character like
-Heathcliff must have been one long struggle against herself, to be faced
-without flinching, as one of the penalties of genius. What her own
-choice would have been is shown by the relief with which she flings
-behind her the nightmare of the past to picture the hope and happiness of
-Earnshaw’s love. Her second book, if she had lived to write it, would
-certainly have been more genial; it could scarcely have been so great.
-
- * * * * *
-
- THE END
-
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-***START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK RONALD AND I***
-</pre>
-<p>Transcribed from the 1899 Deighton Bell &amp; Co. edition by
-David Price.</p>
-<h1>RONALD AND I</h1>
-<p style="text-align: center"><span
-class="GutSmall">OR</span></p>
-<p style="text-align: center"><b>Studies from Life</b></p>
-
-<div class="gapspace">&nbsp;</div>
-<p style="text-align: center"><span
-class="GutSmall">BY</span></p>
-<p style="text-align: center">ALFRED PRETOR</p>
-
-<div class="gapspace">&nbsp;</div>
-<p style="text-align: center">CAMBRIDGE</p>
-<p style="text-align: center">DEIGHTON BELL &amp; CO.</p>
-<p style="text-align: center">LONDON GEORGE BELL &amp; SONS</p>
-<p style="text-align: center">1899</p>
-
-<div class="gapspace">&nbsp;</div>
-<p style="text-align: center"><a name="pageii"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. ii</span><span
-class="GutSmall">CAMBRIDGE</span><br />
-<span class="GutSmall">PRINTED BY JONATHAN PALMER</span><br />
-<span class="GutSmall">ALEXANDRA STREET</span></p>
-<h2><a name="pageiii"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-iii</span>PREFACE</h2>
-<p>Several of the following sketches have appeared already in the
-<i>Cambridge Review</i> and the <i>Cantab</i>.&nbsp; Perhaps the
-friends who welcomed them then may welcome them now, on their
-reappearance in another and more permanent form.</p>
-<p>The story of &ldquo;Our Rector&rdquo; has been received in
-episcopal quarters with polite incredulity.&nbsp; It may be that
-episcopal supervision was less far-reaching in those days than
-now.&nbsp; At any rate, the things I have narrated, and things
-stranger still, <i>did</i> occur in our village, and in all
-essential details, including the postprandial cigar, the story of
-&ldquo;Our Rector&rdquo; is a literal &ldquo;study from
-life.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>I would forget, if I could, that the &ldquo;Cruel, Crawling
-Foam&rdquo; is also a record of fact.</p>
-<p style="text-align: right">A. P.</p>
-<p><span class="smcap">Cambridge</span>,</p>
-<p><i>May</i>, 1899.</p>
-
-<div class="gapspace">&nbsp;</div>
-<p style="text-align: center"><a name="pagev"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. v</span><i>To Mrs. Thomas Hardy</i><br />
-<i>who suggested and</i><br />
-<i>encouraged the writing</i><br />
-<i>of these tales</i></p>
-<h2><a name="pagevii"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-vii</span>CONTENTS</h2>
-<p>&nbsp;</p>
-<table>
-<tr>
-<td colspan='2'></td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span
-class="GutSmall">PAGE</span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td colspan='3'><p><span class="smcap">Ronald and I</span>:</p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td></td>
-<td><p>Broadwater: a Shadow from the Past</p>
-</td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span class="indexpageno"><a
-href="#page1">1</a></span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td></td>
-<td><p>On the Race Course at Bayview</p>
-</td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span class="indexpageno"><a
-href="#page25">25</a></span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td></td>
-<td><p>On the Sands</p>
-</td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span class="indexpageno"><a
-href="#page31">31</a></span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td></td>
-<td><p>Our Rector</p>
-</td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span class="indexpageno"><a
-href="#page41">41</a></span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td></td>
-<td><p>Echoes from an Organ Loft</p>
-</td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span class="indexpageno"><a
-href="#page55">55</a></span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td></td>
-<td><p>Fighting the Cholera</p>
-</td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span class="indexpageno"><a
-href="#page67">67</a></span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td></td>
-<td><p>Ronald&rsquo;s Courtship</p>
-</td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span class="indexpageno"><a
-href="#page79">79</a></span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td></td>
-<td><p>Judy, or Retrieved</p>
-</td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span class="indexpageno"><a
-href="#page99">99</a></span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td></td>
-<td><p>The Professor</p>
-</td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span class="indexpageno"><a
-href="#page117">117</a></span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td></td>
-<td><p>The Cruel, Crawling Foam</p>
-</td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span class="indexpageno"><a
-href="#page133">133</a></span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td></td>
-<td><p>Our Queen</p>
-</td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span class="indexpageno"><a
-href="#page143">143</a></span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td colspan='2'><p><span class="smcap">Bindo</span>: a Sketch</p>
-</td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span class="indexpageno"><a
-href="#page155">155</a></span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-<tr>
-<td colspan='2'><p>&lsquo;<span class="smcap">Declined with
-Thanks</span>&rsquo;: a Postscript</p>
-</td>
-<td><p style="text-align: right"><span class="indexpageno"><a
-href="#page181">181</a></span></p>
-</td>
-</tr>
-</table>
-<h2><a name="pageix"></a><span class="pagenum">p. ix</span>Ronald
-and I</h2>
-<h3><a name="page1"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-1</span>Broadwater<br />
-<span class="GutSmall">A SHADOW FROM THE PAST</span></h3>
-<h4>I</h4>
-<p><span class="smcap">Turn</span> your steps westward, and about
-four miles beyond Bayview you will come to a rising ground where
-three ways meet.</p>
-<p>One&mdash;the road to the right&mdash;trends northward,
-following with occasional deviations the coast line of Dead
-Man&rsquo;s Bay, a replica in miniature of the Bay of Biscay, and
-one which claims, almost as regularly, its tithe of life and
-wreckage.</p>
-<p>The path on the left hand enters a lodge gate, and begins to
-fall gently but without intermission towards the sea.&nbsp; A
-curious impression that you are reaching the end of all things is
-followed by the feeling that your next step will be planted in
-the sea&mdash;and then you come to Broadwater.</p>
-<p><a name="page2"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 2</span>The huge
-square-set building stands on a level plateau, guarded by a
-semicircle of hills from every wind that blows, excepting the
-south-west.&nbsp; The architecture is neither impressive in
-itself nor characteristic of any particular period.&nbsp; Yet,
-looking down upon it from the hills above, the eye will find
-ample satisfaction in the colouring of the roof, for lichens have
-painted the crumbling tiles with every conceivable hue of
-vermilion and gold.</p>
-<p>A stranger, journeying for the first time along the road,
-would complain of the lack of trees.&nbsp; And trees in the open
-there are none.&nbsp; Nothing less cringing than gorse and
-heather can show front against the brine-laden winds of the
-Atlantic.&nbsp; The south-west wind is jealous of its
-prerogatives, and denudes a neighbourhood of isolated growth
-almost as surely as does the poison-steeped atmosphere of the
-midlands.</p>
-<p>Yet, if you trouble to make nearer acquaintance with
-Broadwater, you will find that every ravine and gully is crowded
-with trees&mdash;&ldquo;groves&rdquo; the villagers call
-them&mdash;whose tops lie level with the ground on either side,
-so that a slight divergence from <a name="page3"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 3</span>the recognised track might land the
-unwary traveller among their foliage, almost without a change in
-his plane of elevation.</p>
-<p>The grand old house stands, as I have said, on a plateau,
-protected from the north and east by the hills, down which the
-road winds in and out like a white ribbon.&nbsp; On the west it
-faces the Atlantic, and the lawn, merging in the park, falls
-rapidly seawards till it meets the natural barrier of the
-beach.&nbsp; As a rule the barrier stands well; yet times there
-are when the sea will no longer &ldquo;harrow the valleys, or be
-bound with a band in the furrow,&rdquo; but, laughing at the puny
-obstruction, lays its tribute of drift and wreckage and human
-life almost on the very door-step of the house.</p>
-<p>Whether you love the scene or not, will depend on your age and
-temperament, and something, too, on the circumstances under which
-you view it.&nbsp; Steeped in the quiet twilight of an autumn
-evening, its perfect stillness and repose appeal irresistibly to
-a heart that yearns for rest, and many such have coveted
-it.&nbsp; But let a Londoner come upon it when a furious
-south-wester is raging, and the double windows are veiled with an
-<a name="page4"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 4</span>impermeable
-film of brine, and you can feel the chimneys rocking
-overhead&mdash;and the chances are he will hurry from it as from
-the abomination of desolation.</p>
-<p>After our uncle&rsquo;s death, Ronald, it was well known, was
-to reign in his stead&mdash;supplanting myself, albeit the son of
-an elder brother and the natural heir.&nbsp; But my father had
-been unlucky enough to marry the woman of old Heyward&rsquo;s
-choice, and the sin of the father was to be visited upon the
-son.&nbsp; Our uncle (to do him justice) never made a pretence of
-equity in the matter.&nbsp; &ldquo;I should turn in my
-grave,&rdquo; he said, &ldquo;if I thought that son of his was to
-follow in my room.&rdquo;&nbsp; And there the matter ended.&nbsp;
-Short of this, he was fond of me in his own undemonstrative
-way.&nbsp; Only lately he had settled me at Bayview with a
-handsome allowance, where I was to make acquaintance with the
-rudiments of the law till it was time for me to enter at
-Cambridge.</p>
-<p>Honestly I can say that I never grudged Ronald his
-inheritance.&nbsp; He and I were brothers rather than cousins,
-and I cannot remember the time when the sturdy little Viking was
-not dear to my heart.&nbsp; Perhaps <a name="page5"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 5</span>it was I who gave the most, and he who
-took it.&nbsp; But that is only as it should be, provided he who
-gives and he who takes are equally nothing loth.</p>
-<p>The house was an ideal home for us, so long as we shared it in
-common.&nbsp; When we were separated, it became unutterably dull
-for the one who was left companionless.&nbsp; Ghosts it must have
-had in plenty.&nbsp; There certainly was an
-&ldquo;impluvium,&rdquo; which in these days is rarer than a
-ghost.&nbsp; I mean that the whole centre of the house was open
-to the winds of heaven, for the purpose of collecting the rain
-water which fell into a huge reservoir at the basement.</p>
-<p>The ghosts, if any, never showed themselves&mdash;frightened
-in all probability by the antagonism of Ronald&rsquo;s
-temperament.&nbsp; But we discovered what was next best to the
-real article&mdash;the equipments and paraphernalia of one.&nbsp;
-In a disused coach-house we came one day on an old travelling
-carriage of the fashion in use sixty years ago, when
-paterfamilias took himself and his family for a progress round
-the country.&nbsp; Rumble it had, and imperial, and a chest of
-most unearthly pattern, accommodated to the space under the back
-seat.</p>
-<p><a name="page6"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 6</span>But the
-glass was broken in the frames, and the hangings were
-mouldy.&nbsp; The very woodwork was so worm-eaten that at a touch
-you would expect it to crumble into dust, like one of the
-Pharaohs when he is disencumbered of his trappings.&nbsp; It was
-painted&mdash;or rather had been painted&mdash;a sable black, but
-the colour had deteriorated with time to the hue of rusty
-cr&ecirc;pe.</p>
-<p>Our first impression suggested that it was some time-honoured
-memorial of the past&mdash;the carriage, it might be, in which a
-bride and bridegroom had made their home-coming under auspices of
-exceptional promise.&nbsp; But a second glance through the broken
-semicircular skylight told rather of intentional neglect or
-indifference.&nbsp; The plaster of the coach-house, where it
-still clung to the lath, had broken out into patches of
-mouldiness, defiant of the first principles of cleanliness, while
-an army of spiders, who must have worked unmolested for years,
-had tied the carriage to the walls and floor with a net-work of
-dirt-begrimed strands.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;What on earth is it? and why is it kept here?&rdquo;
-asked Ronald of the groom.&nbsp; &ldquo;I shall get the uncle to
-have it broken up and burned: <a name="page7"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 7</span>it&rsquo;s only filling the place with
-moths and insects.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Don&rsquo;t you do nought of the kind, Master
-Ronald,&rdquo; said the coachman, lowering his voice to a
-whisper.&nbsp; &ldquo;That carriage has been driven up to these
-very doors by old Nick himself, or one or other of his
-coachmen.&nbsp; Aye, you may laugh.&nbsp; But it&rsquo;s true
-enough, and not so long ago neither.&nbsp; They&rsquo;d
-forgotten&mdash;had your aunt and uncle&mdash;that it was here in
-the stable at all: it must have been here years before they
-bought the place&mdash;till <i>he</i> came and drove it round to
-the front door one night, all mouldy and ramshackled just as you
-see it now.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Do tell us, Frampton, about it.&nbsp; I&rsquo;ll
-promise not to laugh.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Well, &rsquo;twas the night before we were starting for
-the South of France, and I was going with them to look after the
-horses they were to hire in Paris.&nbsp; The house had been full
-of visitors for Christmas, but most of them had gone the day
-before, and the rest of them were to leave along with us.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;It was in the middle of the night, though they never
-noticed the true time, when they <a name="page8"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 8</span>heard, both of them, a carriage drive
-up to the front door.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;They were fairly puzzled what it could mean, as they
-expected no visitors, least of all at that time of night.&nbsp;
-Your aunt got up first and then called your uncle.&nbsp; And
-there, full in the moonlight, stood that identical carriage, and
-the coachman was a skellington&mdash;dressed in black and
-weepers, for all the world like an undertaker at a funeral.&nbsp;
-He turned his eyes&mdash;or what should have been his
-eyes&mdash;full upon them both.&nbsp; And then your aunt went
-faint, and I believe your uncle did no better.&nbsp; Anyhow, when
-they came back to their senses, carriage and coachman were
-gone.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;And what did it mean, Frampton?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Well, that&rsquo;s more than I can tell you, Master
-Ronald.&nbsp; It&rsquo;s fairly puzzled all of us.&nbsp;
-I&rsquo;m sure I&rsquo;ve bothered my head times over to try and
-piece it together, seeing it meant no harm to them, but only to a
-lot of folk they&rsquo;d never seen or heard of.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;How did that come about?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;When we got to Paris, we put up at one of them big
-hotels&mdash;I forget the name of it.&nbsp; And one day he and
-she were going up <a name="page9"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-9</span>to their rooms in the lift.&nbsp; Just as they were
-stepping aboard of it, they looked chanceways at the man who
-managed it, and I&rsquo;m blessed if it wasn&rsquo;t the same
-coachman as had driven that there carriage up to the door at
-Broadwater.&nbsp; They were that frightened that they stepped
-back, and the lift went up without them.&nbsp; And well it was
-they did so, for something or other went wrong with the hauling
-gear, and every soul on board of it was killed.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;And now you know, Master Ronald, why your uncle
-won&rsquo;t have that carriage never touched.&nbsp; He&rsquo;s
-got it into his head, and you won&rsquo;t get it out again, that
-it was sent to save his life.&nbsp; All I can say is that, if
-that&rsquo;s what it did mean, old Nick carries on his business
-in a queer, roundabout kind of way.&rdquo;</p>
-<h4>II</h4>
-<p>Not many days after Frampton had imparted to us his
-sensational story, we were told to expect a visit from the family
-lawyer.&nbsp; Ronald and I always hailed his visits with
-delight.&nbsp; He was one of those cheery individuals <a
-name="page10"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 10</span>whom boys can
-chum with.&nbsp; In age he must have been nearly seventy-five,
-but hale and hearty still: entering into our amusements, never
-minding our noise, and tipping us when he left with a liberality
-that appalled our uncle.&nbsp; Ronald and I would have put him
-down for fifty.&nbsp; But boys do not recognise the gradations of
-age.&nbsp; To them a man seems definitely old at fifty, and live
-as long as he may after that, years will add nothing to the
-mystery of his age, if only he keeps young in heart and
-interests.&nbsp; At sixty, seventy, or even eighty, he will in
-their eyes be fifty still.</p>
-<p>As a matter of course Ronald and I were told to put in an
-appearance on the day of his arrival.&nbsp; The unvarying order
-of the programme was that, after he had had a few words with our
-uncle, we two should form his escort in a progress round the park
-and outlying farms.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;So your uncle still cherishes the old Crofton
-coach,&rdquo; he said, as we passed the outhouse tenanted by the
-family ghost.&nbsp; &ldquo;I wonder he cares to keep
-it,&rdquo;&mdash;almost Ronald&rsquo;s own words to Frampton, the
-coachman&mdash;from which it was clear he had never heard <a
-name="page11"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 11</span>of our
-uncle&rsquo;s visitant, nor did we venture to enlighten him.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Do you know anything about it, Sir?&rdquo; asked
-Ronald, in the eager tone of one who had by no means lost hope of
-solving the mystery.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;My boy, I&rsquo;ve <i>ridden in it</i>.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Ronald&rsquo;s face was a study.&nbsp; &ldquo;Ridden in it?
-actually <i>ridden</i> in that coach?&nbsp; And did you, Sir,
-<i>did</i> you see the devil?&rdquo; he continued
-anxiously.&nbsp; &ldquo;Frampton says he always drives
-it.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Not exactly, Ronald.&nbsp; And, by the way, my lad, I
-wouldn&rsquo;t, if I were you, introduce his name quite so
-familiarly into your conversation.&nbsp; Frampton must be
-cautioned, Fred, as to what he tells the boy.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Well, he didn&rsquo;t exactly say that, Sir,&rdquo;
-continued Ronald, willing to justify his friend.&nbsp; &ldquo;He
-called him old Nick.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;That&rsquo;s a trifle better.&nbsp; Anyhow, I
-didn&rsquo;t see him, though I can&rsquo;t say honestly that my
-ride was a pleasant one.&nbsp; I&rsquo;d been staying here with
-old Crofton, just before he sold the place to your uncle, and I
-had business too to transact with Thorpe of Thorpe Hill.&nbsp; As
-luck would have it, all the carriages here <a
-name="page12"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 12</span>were in use
-but this one.&nbsp; It wasn&rsquo;t in the state it is now, but
-it was out of date and uncomfortable even then.&nbsp; However, it
-took me there all right.&nbsp; It was on the way back that I had
-my adventure.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I had barely composed myself to sleep with the
-consciousness of having dined too well&mdash;Thorpe never stinted
-his guests&mdash;when I was roused by an uneasy feeling that I
-was not the sole occupant of the carriage.&nbsp; The interior was
-lit up by a weird, fantastic light that came and went, rose and
-fell, like the glow that throbs over a brick-kiln or a blast
-furnace.&nbsp; After all, it may have been only the reflection of
-my own cigar which I had instinctively kept alight during my
-short nap.&nbsp; From out the border-land which separates sleep
-from waking, I saw two figures on the opposite seat.&nbsp; For a
-time I studied them with hardly more interest than I should the
-figures in a pantomime, till it was forced upon me by their wild
-gesticulation that this was no pantomime enacting for my benefit,
-but a veritable tragedy of life and death.&nbsp; The one figure
-shrank cowering in a corner of the carriage; the other stood over
-it with uplifted hand.&nbsp; But no voice or sound proceeded <a
-name="page13"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 13</span>from
-them.&nbsp; Only on the hand of one, the figure that crouched and
-trembled, I recognised the famous Thorpe emerald&mdash;as the
-family lawyer I knew it well&mdash;while the other that stormed
-and threatened might have passed for old Crofton himself, in so
-far as youth of twenty can anticipate the form and lineaments of
-seventy-five.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;The details had hardly had time to shape themselves
-within my brain, when the light died out.&nbsp; I heard&mdash;or
-fancied I heard&mdash;a short, sharp gasp, an inarticulate cry
-for mercy, and the carriage drew up before the gate of
-Broadwater.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>That night after dinner we were subjected to a close
-cross-examination by our uncle.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;The boys have told me your surprising story, Mr.
-Roberts.&nbsp; May I ask how it is I never heard it from you
-before?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Why, to tell you the truth, Mr. Heyward, you
-wouldn&rsquo;t have heard it now if my little friend Ronald
-hadn&rsquo;t rushed me into telling it by his burst of
-eagerness.&nbsp; You might have said I&rsquo;d been dining too
-well&mdash;as indeed I had&mdash;and that isn&rsquo;t exactly the
-thing to recommend a family lawyer.&nbsp; So you&rsquo;ve got my
-reputation at your mercy, young gentlemen.&nbsp; <a
-name="page14"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 14</span>For, of
-course, it <i>was</i> the dinner&mdash;a nightmare of some kind,
-no doubt.&nbsp; Though I&rsquo;m bound to say I never had a
-nightmare, either before or afterwards, that was half so vivid
-and real.&nbsp; It was quite the worst quarter of an hour I ever
-passed in my life.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Perhaps not so much of a nightmare as you
-suppose,&rdquo; rejoined the uncle, and then proceeded to narrate
-his own experiences.&nbsp; I remember thinking how much better
-Frampton told the story than he did, in spite of his rather
-unorthodox language.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Phew! that alters the whole question.&nbsp;
-Corroborative evidence with a vengeance&mdash;evidence that one
-might almost take into court.&nbsp; For even if <i>you</i> had
-been dining not wisely, your sister hadn&rsquo;t, I know.&nbsp;
-Anyhow, we three staid gentlefolk could create a pretty sensation
-with our three independent testimonies.&nbsp; To think that a
-belief in ghosts should be forced upon me at my age!&nbsp; Why I
-shall be dragged next into believing the village
-legend.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;What is it?&nbsp; I never even heard of it.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;That Ronald&rsquo;s old carriage is somehow mixed up
-with the quarrel between Thorpe and Broadwater&mdash;that it
-stands in the way <a name="page15"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-15</span>of their family union.&nbsp; So you see, young
-gentlemen, where you&rsquo;ve got to look for a wife as soon as
-the carriage is gone.&nbsp; But it doesn&rsquo;t look like it
-yet.&nbsp; Old Thorpe&rsquo;s dead, and the house shut up, and
-the only survivor of the family is on the point, they tell me, of
-marrying her cousin.&nbsp; Above all, you guard the old carriage,
-Heyward, as if it were a priceless heirloom.&nbsp; But perhaps
-you are right; it isn&rsquo;t your business to get rid of
-it.&rdquo;</p>
-<h4>III</h4>
-<p>So the old carriage mouldered on in the coach-house, and its
-net-work of cobwebs grew grimier each day.</p>
-<p>How the spiders maintained themselves was a mystery, for no
-fly could have run the blockade of the window, even if the
-inducement had been greater.&nbsp; At last Ronald and I wove a
-legend around them in our turn, which terrified us more than did
-the carriage itself.&nbsp; We decided that, after long years of
-mutual slaughter, the victory had rested in the end with two or
-three hoary monsters, who had ensconced themselves within the <a
-name="page16"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 16</span>framework of
-the ruined carriage, from which they looked out upon the solitude
-they were creating.&nbsp; Little by little the uncanny idea grew
-upon us till, regardless of all probability, we fancied we could
-see their eyes peering out of the darkness.</p>
-<p>More than once we made illicit expeditions at midnight in the
-hope that we might find the ghostly coachman cleaning and
-repairing his equipage for another sortie.&nbsp; But we could see
-nothing.&nbsp; If either of us had gone alone, the result might
-have been different; we should have seen, or pretended to see,
-many matters of interest.</p>
-<p>November was, as a rule, our month of storms at Broadwater,
-though February often ran it close; and, in the year that
-followed upon Frampton&rsquo;s story, a gale broke upon us on the
-third of the month that beat the record of our times for
-violence.&nbsp; We had not been without warning of its
-coming.&nbsp; The sea had been &ldquo;crying out&rdquo; at
-intervals&mdash;sure token that the storm had paused to gather
-breath, bidding the sea take forward its message to the
-shore.</p>
-<p>Not when the gale is at its height&mdash;at any rate along our
-coast&mdash;can you best realise <a name="page17"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 17</span>the grandeur of the sea.&nbsp; Study
-it rather on one of these quiet days of warning, when you can
-trace a wave almost from its inception, till it curls over at
-your feet with a dull roar, regular as the boom of a minute gun,
-and audible for miles inland.</p>
-<p>Lashed into foam, and its voice drowned by the wind, it parts
-with much of its majesty, and becomes merely a symbol of turmoil
-and unrest.&nbsp; What it gains in wildness, it loses in
-self-control, like the seething rapids of Niagara before they
-compose themselves into dignity prior to the final plunge.</p>
-<p>Then came another and a final warning.&nbsp; It was one of
-those rare sunsets which leave an imprint on the memory for
-life.&nbsp; Not a sunset in which conflicting colours are fused
-into each other by soft and subtle gradations&mdash;these we see
-often and soon forget&mdash;but one of war and discord; when
-colours, the most antagonistic, meet without blending, and
-produce effects that would be called crude and coarse upon a
-painter&rsquo;s canvas.</p>
-<p>On a background of unvarying crimson, black and purple clouds
-were projected, clean cut in outline, and solid, to all
-appearance, as the hull of an Atlantic liner that was cleaving <a
-name="page18"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 18</span>her way
-across the sea beneath them.&nbsp; The sea itself borrowed its
-colours from the sky, but jealously guarded them from encroaching
-on the beach beyond, which shone white as silver in the unnatural
-glow.&nbsp; Beyond it still, the valleys and hills that rose
-behind Broadwater were painted a dark and luminous green, on
-which a few scattered homesteads stood out in clear and startling
-relief.&nbsp; For the moment distance was annihilated, and a step
-or two, or so it seemed, might have compassed the mile of space
-that separated us from our own house door.</p>
-<p>A sunset like this, following upon a &ldquo;crying&rdquo; sea,
-can never be misread by the dwellers on our coast.&nbsp; It warns
-every fisherman that he must haul his lerret to the very summit
-of the ridge, and every Coastguard station along the dreaded Bay
-that it behoves them to be awake and watching.&nbsp; But it was
-not till midnight that the storm broke upon us.</p>
-<p>Our faith in the old house was strong.&nbsp; It had outlived
-so many storms, and the gale of &rsquo;24 must have been worse
-than this, or so we kept saying for mutual encouragement.&nbsp;
-But it was hard to believe it, and the comfort was quickly
-followed by a disquieting thought <a name="page19"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 19</span>that each year, as it passed, left
-the chimneys older and less capable of resisting the
-pressure.&nbsp; We were disquieted, too, for others; we knew well
-by experience what a night like this might bring us from the
-sea.&nbsp; Times upon times, in similar gales, we had been
-hurried to the beach by signals of distress, and had helped the
-Coastguard, sometimes in saving life, oftener in furthering that
-painful recall to life which is more agonizing to witness than
-death itself.</p>
-<p>Happily there came to-night no appealing cry.&nbsp; Even if it
-had pierced its way through wind and rain, those whom it summoned
-could only have watched and waited for one of those strange
-freaks by which the sea now and again elects to spare a human
-life.&nbsp; At the height of the gale, when gust upon gust
-followed each other with ever increasing fury, we were still
-seated in the drawing-room under various pretences.&nbsp; Ronald
-and I said openly that we were afraid of venturing our lives in
-the upper rooms, just under the chimneys.&nbsp; Our uncle jeered
-at our cowardice, but stayed where he was.&nbsp; &ldquo;The noise
-would prevent my sleeping,&rdquo; he said, &ldquo;but, as for
-danger, I&rsquo;d as lief sleep in the garrets as <a
-name="page20"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 20</span>anywhere;
-only the servants&rsquo; beds ain&rsquo;t as comfortable as my
-own.&nbsp; The old house&rsquo;ll last our time yet.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>As if in answer to his boast, the gale made another defiant
-howl.&nbsp; It was answered by a dull crash, followed by a
-continuous roar of falling materials&mdash;followed again by a
-dead silence that was audible above the rush of wind and
-rain.&nbsp; It took us only a few minutes to satisfy ourselves
-that the fabric of the house was safe.&nbsp; It was a chimney
-stablewards that had gone, crashing through a hay loft and lumber
-room right down on the top of our ghostly carriage, and clearing
-Broadwater of spiders for the period of our lives.&nbsp; Even the
-uncle himself could find no plea for extending his protection to
-a mass of shivered fragments.&nbsp; If the powers of darkness had
-destroyed their own handiwork, or failed in ability to protect
-it, there was no reason to suppose that the hand of man would be
-more successful.&nbsp; So the fiat went forth&mdash;not, I
-believe, without great searching of heart on the part of our
-uncle&mdash;and carriage and cobwebs, and even the stable itself
-were swept away, and, as Bunyan says, I saw them no more.</p>
-<p><a name="page21"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-21</span>&ldquo;Well, I&rsquo;m glad that it&rsquo;s gone,&rdquo;
-said a quiet, sweet voice at my elbow, as Ronald and I were
-watching the departure of the last load of materials.&nbsp; And,
-turning, I saw before me the woman who was to be the guiding star
-of Ronald&rsquo;s life, yes, and my own life too.&nbsp; She was
-little more than a girl then&mdash;only a few years older than
-Ronald himself&mdash;with a great calm truthfulness in her eyes,
-and the air of one who had already known sorrow, and been
-refined, not hardened, by the experience.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Yes,&rdquo; she repeated, &ldquo;I am glad it&rsquo;s
-gone.&nbsp; And now we can be friends.&nbsp; It has been so
-lonely for me at Thorpe ever since my father died, and I have so
-wanted to make friends with you; only that old carriage stood in
-the way.&nbsp; It was silly, no doubt, to be so much afraid, but
-then I am Scotch&mdash;and the Scotch you know are very
-superstitious,&rdquo; she added with a smile.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;Besides, ever since I can remember anything, I&rsquo;ve
-been told that the old carriage meant mischief and trouble
-between Thorpe and Broadwater.&nbsp; It is true, no doubt, that
-an ancestor of mine did die in it, and that all sorts of ghastly
-rumours were current as to how he met his death.&nbsp; <a
-name="page22"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 22</span>But nothing
-ever came of them, and it was commonly assumed that he died of
-heart disease; he had certainly been ailing for years
-before.&nbsp; Thank heaven! the very scene of the crime&mdash;if
-such it were&mdash;has been swept away at last.&nbsp; And it is
-pleasant, isn&rsquo;t it? to recommence our life&rsquo;s
-friendship here where it was wrecked.&nbsp; Though I fear we
-shan&rsquo;t meet often as yet, for my husband that is to be
-lives abroad, till I can persuade him to give up his post and
-settle down with me for good in the dear old home.&nbsp; But you
-<i>will</i> be my friends, won&rsquo;t you, for
-always?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>She held out her hand in pledge of her friendship.&nbsp; And
-we shall be friends, I think, &ldquo;for always.&rdquo;&nbsp; I
-like the old-fashioned phrase.</p>
-<p>Besides, it was her own.</p>
-<h3><a name="page25"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 25</span>On the
-Racecourse at Bayview</h3>
-<p><span class="smcap">It</span> was Ronald&rsquo;s birthday, and
-the day fixed for the Races at Bayview&mdash;an unlucky
-coincidence, for he always showed a keen spirit of enterprise on
-that particular morning.&nbsp; He was now fourteen, and looked a
-trifle older owing to his splendid physique.&nbsp; Even in the
-nursery visitors had christened him the &ldquo;Infant
-Hercules.&rdquo;&nbsp; A Viking he was in miniature, with clear
-blue eyes and short, crisp hair, carrying with him an atmosphere
-of suppressed fun that, dangerous as it might prove, was a
-certain guarantee against dulness or want of spirit.&nbsp; He had
-behaved himself beautifully for an entire month.&nbsp; But I
-distrusted him to-day.&nbsp; He had never seen the races, and had
-constantly signified his intention of doing so.&nbsp; So when his
-uncle said to him at breakfast, &ldquo;You are not to go to the
-races; they are destructive of morality, especially to a boy of
-your age,&rdquo; and Ronald <a name="page26"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 26</span>winked at me across the table, I felt
-sure he intended to go.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;No sir,&rdquo; he said respectfully&mdash;&ldquo;and I
-suppose you won&rsquo;t go either.&nbsp; Of course they
-can&rsquo;t do you any harm at your age; but they can&rsquo;t do
-you any good.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;As it happens, Ronald, I shall go&mdash;just to make
-sure that you don&rsquo;t.&nbsp; Besides, I think it a good
-principle that elderly people should be seen doing things which
-they forbid to their youngsters.&nbsp; Unquestioning obedience is
-a fine thing.&nbsp; It doesn&rsquo;t follow that because I allow
-myself a cigar to quiet my nerves, therefore you should smoke who
-don&rsquo;t know what a nerve means.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;No sir: of course it doesn&rsquo;t&rdquo;&mdash;and he
-winked again.</p>
-<p>For myself, I distinctly intended to go to the races, seeing
-that I was past the age at which my uncle feared their contagion;
-though neither was I old enough to plead the principle which he
-had so astutely paraded on his own account.&nbsp; And so I
-went.</p>
-<p>Ronald had left the house soon after breakfast&mdash;for a
-ride (he said)&mdash;and, as I saw nothing of him on the
-racecourse, I was comfortable in the belief that for once he had
-<a name="page27"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 27</span>obeyed
-orders.&nbsp; When the races were nearly over, a little stable
-boy came up to me and touched his cap:</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Hold your horse, sir?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>By Jove, it was Ronald.&nbsp; He had borrowed Dick the
-groom&rsquo;s livery, and had had a fine time of it, he told me,
-in that unconventional attire.</p>
-<p>Just then our uncle rode up.&nbsp; &ldquo;Now stand away,
-Fred, and don&rsquo;t be seen talking to me, and I&rsquo;ll show
-you some rare sport.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Hold your horse, sir?&rdquo;&mdash;this to our
-uncle.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Well, I don&rsquo;t mind if you do, and I&rsquo;ll have
-a stroll with Fred here till it&rsquo;s time to go
-home.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>After a lounge along the course, chatting with friends and
-criticising the horses, we came back to where we left
-Ronald.&nbsp; &ldquo;Thanks,&rdquo; said the uncle, as he
-re-mounted, &ldquo;here&rsquo;s a shilling for you.&nbsp; A lucky
-dog you are, too, for it&rsquo;s got a hole in it, I see.&nbsp;
-Good-day.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>When dinner was over that evening, the uncle waxed genial over
-a bottle of &rsquo;75 Margaux.&nbsp; &ldquo;We&rsquo;d a capital
-day&rsquo;s racing, Ronald.&nbsp; I&rsquo;m almost sorry you
-weren&rsquo;t with us.&nbsp; Next year, all well, my boy,
-I&rsquo;ll take you myself.&rdquo;</p>
-<p><a name="page28"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-28</span>&ldquo;Thanks, sir&rdquo;&mdash;and he winked the third
-time.&nbsp; &ldquo;By the way, you haven&rsquo;t lost a shilling,
-sir, have you?&nbsp; I picked up this one while you were at the
-races.&nbsp; You&rsquo;re a lucky dog, sir, if it does belong to
-you, for it&rsquo;s got a hole in it?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Verdict: <i>Acquitted</i>, <i>but don&rsquo;t do it
-again</i>.</p>
-<h3><a name="page31"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 31</span>On the
-Sands</h3>
-<p><span class="smcap">Broadwater</span> was fearfully dull on a
-Sunday, so I came over from Bayview where I was staying, that
-Ronald and I might help each other in getting through the
-day.</p>
-<p>It was a blazing afternoon in August, and the park, shut in by
-hills, shimmered in a haze of heat.&nbsp; &ldquo;I can&rsquo;t
-stand this,&rdquo; said Ronald.&nbsp; &ldquo;Air I must get
-somehow, and, as it&rsquo;s not to be got nearer than the sea,
-we&rsquo;ll walk to the shore in search of it.&nbsp; It&rsquo;s
-rather hard on you, to be sure, who&rsquo;ve done the walk once
-already.&nbsp; But it&rsquo;s better than lounging about here,
-where it&rsquo;s too hot to speak or think; and, at any rate, we
-shall see the trippers.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>It happened, most unluckily, that just as we reached the pier,
-an open air service had begun.&nbsp; Of course they had chosen
-the hottest corner possible for it; a nook sheltered by the
-masonry of the pier, which carefully excluded every breath of
-wind that might be <a name="page32"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-32</span>travelling to us from the sea.&nbsp; But, despite the
-heat, it was a temptation to mild excitement that Ronald found it
-impossible to resist.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Not so good as the nigger minstrels, but better than
-nothing,&rdquo; he said.&nbsp; So we joined the throng of
-listeners.&nbsp; It was the usual audience, the devotees (mainly
-women) forming the inner circle, in close proximity to the
-preacher and the harmonium.&nbsp; Next came the half-hearted,
-weaker vessels, who separated the former as by a wall from the
-irreverent throng of idlers who laughed and talked and smoked on
-the outside fringe.&nbsp; The preacher was a man of the ordinary
-type, only a little stouter, a little more flaccid and even more
-illiterate than usual.&nbsp; Where do they come from, these
-preachers?&nbsp; Are they men who think they have a call or a
-gift? and are they accepted for the office on their own
-valuation?&nbsp; Certainly they are not chosen for any capability
-that can approve itself to the impartial hearer.</p>
-<p>The present representative of the school was enlarging, when
-we came up, upon the demerits of the publican.&nbsp; Ronald,
-after a few minutes, began to fume and fret.&nbsp; But he behaved
-for a while excellently well, though <a name="page33"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 33</span>I could hear him muttering words in
-an undertone distinctly uncomplimentary to the preacher.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;And it is publicans like these&mdash;the scum and
-refuse of Jerusalem&mdash;that are represented in this town
-to-day by the inn-keepers, barmen, and pot-boys, who an hour or
-two hence will be serving many of their fellow
-creatures&mdash;many, I fear, of this audience&mdash;with drink,
-to the ruin of their lives here and of their hopes of salvation
-hereafter.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Nothing of the sort,&rdquo; shouted Ronald, &ldquo;he
-wasn&rsquo;t an innkeeper at all; he was a tax-gatherer.&nbsp;
-Every schoolboy knows that.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>The silence that followed was awful; every eye was turned upon
-the boy, and it was a strain upon my loyalty to remain at his
-side, and not then and there renounce his acquaintance.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Oh, he wasn&rsquo;t, wasn&rsquo;t he, young man?&rdquo;
-said the preacher.&nbsp; &ldquo;Well, as you seems to know more
-about the Bible than I do, perhaps you&rsquo;ll step up here and
-take my place.&nbsp; Kindly tell us, if <i>you</i> please, out of
-<i>your</i> superior knowledge, what he was, and why he was
-called a publican if he was a tax-collector; and why a poor
-collector of rates, <a name="page34"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-34</span>who only did his duty, is held up to our scorn and
-reprobation; yes, our <i>reprobation</i>.&rdquo;&nbsp; (This word
-he regarded as a crushing climax.)</p>
-<p>To my complete and indescribable confusion, Ronald, nothing
-loth, accepted the challenge with delight, and the next moment
-was standing on the platform addressing an appreciative
-audience.&nbsp; What a sermon he gave them!&mdash;lasting without
-a pause or break for exactly half-an-hour; every thought reasoned
-out, and closing with a peroration of consummate eloquence.&nbsp;
-By a clever feint he had diverted the text of the preacher to one
-on the Pharisee and the Publican, making a scathing attack on the
-Pharisaism of the day, which went to church, and gave its alms
-openly and never in secret; which paid its way and kept the
-conventional commandments, and neglected (as of little count) the
-weightier things of unselfishness and love.&nbsp; &ldquo;A day is
-coming when it will matter nothing where we lived, nor in what
-occupations, nor amidst what circumstances, but only how we
-wrought, and in what spirit we suffered.&nbsp; Be the thing you
-say; be unselfish, in your own poor way, to your friends and to
-your home, and to the world about you; that is worth <a
-name="page35"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 35</span>ten thousand
-sermons and a hundred thousand Articles of Religion.&rdquo;&nbsp;
-A dead silence followed as he stepped down from the platform; he
-had left a charm upon us that it seemed sacrilege to break.&nbsp;
-Then came a word or two.&nbsp; &ldquo;What a wonderful
-boy!&mdash;a second Spurgeon; with all his eloquence and none of
-his irreverence.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Summat worth hearin&rsquo;, I calls it; how he did
-pitch into they bloomin&rsquo; aristocrats.&nbsp; I&rsquo;ll come
-and hear ye, young master, whensomdever you holds forth
-agin.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Well&mdash;I never!&rdquo;&nbsp; It was with this
-ungrammatical aposiopesis that I started, so soon as I could find
-breath to start at all.&nbsp; &ldquo;Where on earth, Ronald, did
-you get it all from?&rdquo;&nbsp; The boy had come back to me
-looking as cool as a cucumber, and highly delighted with the
-sensation he had created.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Don&rsquo;t tell, Fred,&rdquo; he answered, &ldquo;but
-it was a sermon of Vaughan&rsquo;s.&nbsp; We are made to analyse
-his sermons at school, and say them afterwards for repetition
-lessons.&nbsp; So when that old donkey fell foul of the publican,
-I had one handy you see, on that very subject, and I thought it a
-pity not to fire it off.&rdquo;</p>
-<p><a name="page36"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 36</span>Surely,
-I thought, he&rsquo;ll be satisfied now, and I tried to draw him
-away from the crowd, who were becoming a trifle too much
-interested in our name and identity.&nbsp; But no; not a bit of
-it.&nbsp; The excitement was full upon him still.&nbsp; So up he
-went to the harmonium (they had now started a hymn), and looking
-over the shoulder of the performer (she was a pretty girl of
-eighteen) he began to sing as lustily as the best of them.&nbsp;
-By degrees his arm, I saw, began to steal about her waist, and,
-fuss and fidget as she might, she was powerless to help
-herself.&nbsp; Her hands were occupied with the keyboard, and her
-feet with the blower, and with her voice she had to lead the
-singing.&nbsp; So he had her at his mercy, and hugged her
-disgracefully, while she, poor girl, was powerless to
-resist.&nbsp; The audience all thought she was his sister, and
-highly commended him, it was clear, for the countenance and
-support he was giving her.</p>
-<p>While the last line of the last verse was being sung, the
-temptation became too strong for resistance, and Ronald stooped
-down and kissed her&mdash;an action which touched still further
-the sympathetic heart of the audience.</p>
-<p><a name="page37"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-37</span>&ldquo;A dear, good young feller that, as ever I
-see&rsquo;d&rdquo;&mdash;said an old lady in my immediate
-neighbourhood.&nbsp; &ldquo;I only wish as how he were a son of
-mine; a preachin&rsquo; that fine, for all the world like the
-Bishop, and a&rsquo; lookin&rsquo; arter his sister so
-prettily&mdash;and a nice young girl she is too.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>After this exploit he slipped across the circle and joined me,
-and a minute later&mdash;with hot and blazing cheeks&mdash;I was
-thankful to find myself round the corner, and well on the way
-home before the throng of listeners had begun to disperse.&nbsp;
-I felt, indeed, as must that Bishop, who, to oblige a small girl
-younger in years than in experience, condescended to ring at a
-street door, and was rewarded with the advice, &ldquo;Run!
-<i>run</i> for yer life! they&rsquo;ll knock the &rsquo;ead off
-yer shoulders if they catches ye.&rdquo;&nbsp; I wonder what he
-elected to do? pocket his dignity and run? or rely upon his
-clerical attire to see him through?&nbsp; In any case our anxiety
-would be more protracted.&nbsp; What if the escapade should reach
-our uncle&rsquo;s ears?&nbsp; However I was spared this
-climax.&nbsp; The story of it got wind in the servants&rsquo;
-hall, as all stories do; but the servants were far too loyal to
-Master <a name="page38"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-38</span>Ronald to betray him, and so it never made its way up
-stairs to the drawing room.</p>
-
-<div class="gapspace">&nbsp;</div>
-<p>But the career of that preacher was ended&mdash;in
-Bayview.</p>
-<h3><a name="page41"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 41</span>Our
-Rector</h3>
-<p><span class="smcap">We</span> had two, if not three,
-celebrities in our village.&nbsp; The Rector is dead; the Clerk
-is dead; the Professor still lives.&nbsp; But, independently of
-this claim to our respect, let us give precedence to the
-Church.</p>
-<p>Less than fifty years ago the services in a parish not ten
-miles from one of our well-known watering places were
-done&mdash;or left undone&mdash;by surely the queerest cleric of
-his time.</p>
-<p>A grand old man he was in person&mdash;tall, and venerable as
-Bede himself, with the most benevolent of faces and the most
-silver of silver hair.&nbsp; Fit to be an archbishop, so far as
-appearances went, but most unfit to have the charge of the
-hundred souls&mdash;there were no more of them&mdash;committed to
-his trust.</p>
-<p>To these he ministered, or (as I have said) failed to
-minister, on Sunday mornings; for often as not the services,
-stipulated for at the price of &pound;75 per annum, were left
-unperformed on the shallowest of pretexts.&nbsp; It might be <a
-name="page42"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 42</span>the weather;
-it might be that he was indisposed; often, I fear, it was from
-sheer disinclination.</p>
-<p>To the hamlet that clustered close round the church it was a
-matter of comparative indifference.&nbsp; They never believed by
-anticipation in the service till the bell was actually sounding;
-and his henchman (clerk, sexton, choirmaster and gravedigger in
-one) had strict orders to withhold this summons till the Rector
-himself was actually in view.&nbsp; But to our party, who lived
-two miles away, the question of service or no service was a
-serious one.&nbsp; It meant hesitation in starting, and
-reluctance to risk the chance&mdash;provocation, too, even to my
-long-suffering father, when he found the church door barred, and
-a south-wester brewing, in the teeth of which we had to struggle
-home over a barren down, unsupported by the nutriment, mental and
-moral, on which we had calculated.&nbsp; But the service, when it
-did take place, was a queerer experience by far than the service
-foregone.&nbsp; The orchestra would have been the despair of
-Nebuchadnezzar.&nbsp; It consisted of a single flageolet, blown
-by the wheezy old sexton&mdash;one Joseph Edwards by name.&nbsp;
-We did not <a name="page43"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-43</span>even boast of a serpent&mdash;instrument immortalised by
-Mr. Hardy for its volume of tone in supplementing
-deficiencies.&nbsp; Now the flageolet is a pet aversion of mine,
-and I can forgive Nebuchadnezzar many of his iniquities for
-having (so far as we know) excluded it from his band.&nbsp;
-Indeed, musicians themselves would seem to be ashamed of it, for
-they have re-christened it, I am told, by a humbler name.&nbsp;
-But I was careful not to betray my feelings to my friend Joseph,
-and listened patiently while he enlarged on the capabilities and
-melodiousness of his pet instrument.&nbsp; &ldquo;Not but what
-I&rsquo;m getting a bit wheezy (he&rsquo;d often say to me), and
-can&rsquo;t make the flourishes as onst I could.&nbsp; But
-&rsquo;tis may be better as it is.&nbsp; They quieter tunes are
-belike more godly.&nbsp; Anyhow the choir&mdash;poor
-souls&mdash;got right puzzled among my turns and quavers, coming
-in here, there and no how at the finish.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>But, praise it as he might, the flageolet is the worst
-instrument possible to constitute an orchestra; especially when
-played as Joseph played it.&nbsp; It gave out a series of squeaks
-and counter-squeaks&mdash;punctuated and accentuated by his
-wheezes rather than <a name="page44"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-44</span>by the requirements of the tune.&nbsp; Indeed, a boy
-learning the bugle, or a Punch and Judy panpipe, would have
-discoursed more decorous music.&nbsp; To me the panpipe and the
-flageolet seem nearly akin; only the flageolet is the more
-powerful instrument of the two, and Punch is more exacting than
-we were in the choice of an executant.</p>
-<p>Once, as a special favour, I was invited by Joseph to attend a
-choir practice.&nbsp; It was before his hand or, I should say,
-his breath had lost its cunning; and it took place on this
-wise.&nbsp; An hour before service (which on this occasion was
-actually realised) Joseph took his stand in the reading desk,
-flageolet in hand, while a group of apple-cheeked
-cottagers&mdash;fishermen mainly, and plough-boys&mdash;grouped
-themselves in my father&rsquo;s pew below.&nbsp; In one point at
-any rate Joseph had anticipated the ritual of later days; he
-repudiated all women from his choir.&nbsp; &ldquo;&rsquo;Taint no
-place for &rsquo;em,&rdquo; he&rsquo;d say; &ldquo;I wonder what
-&rsquo;postle Paul &rsquo;d think, if he could ha&rsquo; heard
-they two women at S. Matthew&rsquo;s screechin&rsquo; out
-&lsquo;O &rsquo;twas a joyful sound to hear&rsquo;&mdash;and none
-of us, let alone the choir, privileged to put in a joyful sound
-along wi &rsquo;em.&nbsp; If women <a name="page45"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 45</span>baint allowed to preach in Church,
-stands to reason that they baint allowed to sing.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Now boys, turn to &lsquo;Aurelia,&rsquo; and go for to
-remember that we sing the whole on&rsquo;t right through this
-time.&nbsp; Last time as ever we did it some on you took to
-skipping and one sang one verse and t&rsquo;other the next,
-whereby I had to blow myself nigh faint to hide your
-discordance.&nbsp; And mind ye too, sing &rsquo;en slow, not as
-if you wanted to get shot on&rsquo;t.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>All went well at the first rehearsal, for Joseph played the
-air distinctly and without disturbing flourishes&mdash;only with
-an intolerable drawl, mindful in all probability of
-&ldquo;passon&rsquo;s&rdquo; injunctions; of which more anon.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Well sung,&rdquo; says he; &ldquo;you be a good choir
-when you be so minded; and well instructed, too, though I says it
-as didn&rsquo;t ought to.&nbsp; Now then, we&rsquo;ll see what ye
-can do when I puts in the flourishes.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>This was a change for the worse, and what had been a
-melancholy dirge became a haphazard scramble for notes, each boy
-seizing on the one that he could detect among the enveloping
-flourishes, regardless whether it was the same note that had
-found favour <a name="page46"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-46</span>with his neighbour.&nbsp; In the end the hymn became a
-sacrilegious fugue, devoid of time, harmony or sequence.&nbsp;
-Yet Joseph was never disquieted at the result.&nbsp; On the
-contrary, he regarded it as a tribute to his skill, addressing
-his choir at the finish as a general might address his
-discomfited troops: &ldquo;You&rsquo;ve done your best, and none
-of us can&rsquo;t do no more.&nbsp; Better luck at church-time,
-and this I do say, that &rsquo;tis few players can overlay a
-melody as I can wi&rsquo; flourishes and expect them as sings it
-to pick out the tune.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>But to return to our Rector.&nbsp; The fun began (I write,
-remember, as a boy of ten) with the First Lesson.&nbsp; When the
-time for it approached, great preparations were seen to be in
-progress.&nbsp; Our benevolent Archbishop retired into the
-recesses of the reading desk (a high, square pew, scarcely to be
-differentiated from our own) and disposed his lunch in orderly
-array upon the sill overhanging my father&rsquo;s head.&nbsp;
-And, to give time for its consumption, a boy was summoned from
-the congregation&mdash;usually it was his own son, a curly-pated
-lad of thirteen&mdash;to discourse the Lesson.&nbsp; Manfully he
-grappled with the difficulties and hard names of the Old
-Testament&mdash;<a name="page47"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-47</span>sticking and halting at nothing, and making a record of
-false quantities and mispronunciations that I have never heard
-beaten during a twenty years&rsquo; experience of the average
-undergraduate.&nbsp; Meanwhile his father lunched peacefully,
-careless what havoc he made with the Kings of Israel and
-Judah.&nbsp; But woe betide the boy if ever he tried to skip a
-name.&nbsp; A guttural rebuke issued from the depths of the
-reading desk: &ldquo;None of that, Jack; go back, my lad, and try
-it again.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>But his greatest delight of all was to hear Jack struggling
-with the genealogy in St. Luke.&nbsp; A series of chuckles issued
-from the corner where the old man lay ensconced, that gathered in
-volume with every fresh fall; and when the boy, hot and
-discomfited, retired from the fray, there was a pause in the
-proceedings till the old man had recovered himself sufficiently
-to resume his functions.&nbsp; His luncheon meanwhile had been
-progressing steadily, not without the gurgling sound of something
-comforting to facilitate digestion.&nbsp; It puzzled me for years
-to discover the <i>raison d&rsquo; &ecirc;tre</i> of this
-extraordinary meal, knowing as I did that an hour later he would
-be dining with one of his cottagers, after careful preliminary <a
-name="page48"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 48</span>enquiry as to
-which house could offer the most attractive fare.&nbsp; Only
-quite lately, long after the idea of luncheon had been
-stereotyped upon my brain, I found out that the so-called
-luncheon was, after all, no luncheon at all, but only a retarded
-breakfast.&nbsp; Our Rector being a late riser, and having a
-five-mile walk before him, could find no opportunity of taking it
-in comfort till he had reached the haven of the parish reading
-desk.</p>
-<p>A cigar was the indispensable accompaniment of the second
-Lesson, during which period its fumes could be seen ascending
-like &ldquo;curling incense&rdquo; to the blackened rafters of
-the roof.&nbsp; Indeed, the only thing that ever really shattered
-my father&rsquo;s equanimity was the sight of its reeking end,
-projected over his head from the sill of the reading desk, where
-the Rector had reluctantly placed it while he applied himself to
-the requirements of the &ldquo;Benedictus.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>When the flageolet sounded the key note of the first hymn, the
-Rector regarded it as the signal of a temporary relaxation.&nbsp;
-He was for a time off duty, and the cigar was again in
-requisition.&nbsp; But in fine and balmy <a
-name="page49"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 49</span>weather, he
-found the atmosphere of the church too close for its
-enjoyment.&nbsp; It &ldquo;gathered sweetness from the open
-air.&rdquo;&nbsp; So, attired in surplice, stole and bands, our
-Rector strolled out into the churchyard&mdash;giving us pleasant
-little vista-views of his enjoyment as he passed and re-passed
-the windows of the aisles.&nbsp; That it might be enjoyed in
-perfection and unto the end, the hymns selected were inordinately
-long.&nbsp; But, if fate was against him, and the wind light, and
-the cigar drew slowly, he had no false shame in appearing on the
-chancel steps to announce with all the dignity of a formal notice
-that the last two verses of the hymn would be repeated.&nbsp;
-After which he disappeared into the churchyard again.</p>
-<p>The sermon was to me, as a boy, full of the most delightful
-interest.&nbsp; It had an infinity of anticipation.&nbsp; No one
-knew what was coming&mdash;least of all the Rector himself.&nbsp;
-We felt stimulated by the chance of any and every
-possibility.&nbsp; A clergyman of the strictest sect of the
-Evangelicals, he always preached in a surplice.&nbsp; (It was in
-the days, remember, when the Geneva gown was the badge of that
-school, and the sign of a high church cleric was barely appearing
-above the horizon).</p>
-<p><a name="page50"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 50</span>But I
-sadly fear that our Rector was influenced by no question of
-principle or non-principle; I cannot, I think, be wronging him if
-I infer that his preference for the surplice was due to sheer
-indifference or indolence.</p>
-<p>Then came the always exciting task of moving the immense Bible
-from the reading desk to the pulpit.&nbsp; He regarded it, I
-think, almost in the light of a fetish, and certainly, so long as
-I knew him, would never have attempted a sermon with any smaller
-and less trustworthy guide.&nbsp; He balanced the enormous volume
-in his right hand, and, with his left hand on the rails, steadied
-himself as he made the painful and perilous ascent.&nbsp; The
-hope, I fear, of us boys was that the book would one day slip
-from his hand and imperil the head of the clerk beneath, who was
-now no longer choirmaster, but, like a Roman flute player, had
-crossed over to his proper seat and resumed his duties beneath
-the pulpit.&nbsp; But the hope was never realised, and I have
-felt ever since that my life has lacked something in
-consequence.</p>
-<p>The choice of his text was the longest part of his
-sermon.&nbsp; The Bible was opened haphazard, as though he
-intended to execute <a name="page51"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-51</span>a sort of <i>sors Vergiliana</i>.&nbsp; But so casual a
-method was quite unsuited to the dignity of our Rector.&nbsp; The
-pages were turned and re-turned; whole chapters were read and
-carefully studied, and, after a quarter of an hour of this
-preliminary investigation, a text was given out, that for glaring
-irrelevance and disconnection with everything else could never
-have been surpassed if he had taken it at sight.&nbsp; A name out
-of a genealogy&mdash;the Christian name
-Mary&mdash;Tophet&mdash;the daubed wall&mdash;pillows for all
-armholes&mdash;are among the subjects that I distinctly remember
-were selected for our edification.&nbsp; But of the treatment
-alas! I remember nothing&mdash;nothing then, and certainly
-nothing now, when I would give &pound;50 to trace the exact
-process of his reasoning.</p>
-<p>The last sermon I ever heard him deliver was on the text,
-&ldquo;And there shall be no more sea&rdquo;&mdash;an unwise and
-disquieting subject for a congregation, most of whom came of a
-race of fishermen, and gained their living from the element which
-he so confidently annihilated.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;If there baint no sea, then &rsquo;tis no place for
-I,&rdquo; I heard a man say to his neighbour as <a
-name="page52"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 52</span>he passed out
-of church; &ldquo;and sakes alive, where be &rsquo;en going to
-get their fish from?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Such was our Rector.&nbsp; Not reverent or discreet, you will
-say, in his capacity of priest.&nbsp; No, but a kindly, genial
-old man; devoted to his parishioners, if not to his duties;
-clever too, and companionable in society, and inexhaustible to
-the boys of the parish in the matter of marbles and
-gingerbread.</p>
-<p>It is with affection that I recall him, for, in spite of his
-eccentricities, and perhaps because of them, I loved him
-well.&mdash;<i>R.I.P.</i></p>
-<h3><a name="page55"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 55</span>Echoes
-from an Organ Loft</h3>
-<blockquote><p>&ldquo;Pale fingers moved upon the keys,<br />
-The ghost hands of past centuries.&rdquo;</p>
-</blockquote>
-<p>From Joseph&rsquo;s flageolet to one of the finest organs in
-England&mdash;from the scene of &ldquo;our Rector&rsquo;s&rdquo;
-ministrations to a building that could have swallowed up his
-church and his school room and all the house property in his
-parish&mdash;was a startling transition for a boy of
-fourteen.</p>
-<p>I wonder how often, during my first experience of a cathedral
-service, my thoughts travelled back to the tiny hamlet in the
-west, with its ruined chancel on which the Atlantic had spent its
-rage, and its few cottages straggling on and up behind an avenue
-of elms, to where the new church, safe in a sheltered paradise of
-its own, looks down compassionately upon the wreckage of the
-past.</p>
-<p>In times to come I got to know every nook and corner of the
-great organ loft at K.&nbsp; <a name="page56"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 56</span>It was built in those large minded
-days before architects had conceived the fatal idea of
-economising space.&nbsp; Ascending by a broad staircase that rose
-with the dignity of an inclined plane, you came out upon a
-plateau, roomier and more comfortable than many a London
-flat.&nbsp; The sanctum of the organist&mdash;indeed, the huge
-instrument itself&mdash;were little more than incidents of the
-loft.&nbsp; There was a chamber for the wife of the dean, and
-another chamber for the wife of the organist, together with a
-library for the Church music; and still there was room in it for
-blind man&rsquo;s buff&mdash;when the choristers could get the
-chance.</p>
-<p>The organ itself might have been a mile away&mdash;so little
-did you hear of it.&nbsp; In this respect the loft resembled the
-deck of a battleship, where the men who work the guns hear least
-of the explosion.&nbsp; Only a few muttered growls from the big
-pipes that lined the walls on either side, or burrowed in the
-caverns underneath, suggested the proximity of sound.&nbsp; The
-crash of the full organ was delivered at a point far above your
-head, somewhere among the shadowy outlines of the roof.</p>
-<p>The space allotted to the dean&rsquo;s wife on <a
-name="page57"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 57</span>the other
-side of the organ was less comfortable than ours, but far more
-interesting.&nbsp; The floor outside her enclosure was broken by
-yawning chasms to give the great pipes breathing room; and though
-they were of wood, and spoke, as wooden pipes should speak, in
-hollow muffled tones, they must, I fancy, have confused her
-devotions and raised a small hurricane about the nape of her
-neck.</p>
-<p>Linking the present to the past were the names of by-gone
-choristers, carved in schoolboy fashion upon the old oak panels,
-who had sung their last note a hundred years ago&mdash;it might
-be in this very gallery.&nbsp; It was easy to picture them
-passing and re-passing still through the trap door which opened
-at our feet&mdash;a white robed procession of the voiceless
-dead.</p>
-<p>An organ loft is a delightfully irresponsible place from which
-to take part in a service, especially when the instrument is a
-large one, well removed from the congregation on the top of a
-screen&mdash;above all, when you do not happen to be the
-organist.</p>
-<p>I would not for an instant be understood to imply that the
-sense of aloofness necessarily engenders irreverence.&nbsp; On
-the contrary, many <a name="page58"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-58</span>of the most solemn hours of my life were passed within
-the recesses of the great organ at K., and my friend the organist
-might have been a pattern to the congregation in true devotional
-spirit.&nbsp; But the necessities imposed by a choral service
-afforded him little opportunity for a devotional attitude, while
-he would have been more, or less, than human if he had not
-utilised our isolation to impart to me pleasant little details
-regarding the progress of the service.&nbsp; These would be
-interrupted at intervals by parenthetical instructions whenever
-he wanted help in the management of his stops.</p>
-<p>A reminiscence of an organ-loft monologue would read something
-as follows: &ldquo;<i>Draw the Gamba</i>, <i>please</i>.&nbsp;
-How flat that boy Robinson&rsquo;s singing; and oh! those
-<i>h</i>&rsquo;s of his!&nbsp; <i>Principal</i>, <i>please</i>,
-<i>and now the mixtures</i>.&nbsp; Green&rsquo;s getting shaky in
-his top notes; he only looked at that upper G.&nbsp; <i>Take
-care</i>; <i>you put in that coupler before I had finished the
-bar</i>.&nbsp; What a nuisance it is!&nbsp; I shall never get a
-boy like him . . .&nbsp; The finest hymn written, don&rsquo;t you
-think?&nbsp; (They were singing Stainer&rsquo;s &lsquo;Saints of
-God&rsquo;) . . . and &lsquo;Aurelia&rsquo; is the second
-best.&nbsp; (Well done! Joseph, I thought; <a
-name="page59"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 59</span>you&rsquo;re
-in it after all.)&nbsp; Get me Wely&rsquo;s Offertoire in G, will
-you?&nbsp; It&rsquo;s poor stuff, but the people will have
-it.&nbsp; <i>The Oboe</i>, <i>please</i>, <i>for the air</i> . .
-.&nbsp; And now for the scramble . . .&nbsp; <i>Turn over in good
-time</i>; <i>I can see ahead of me</i>, <i>but I can&rsquo;t see
-through the page</i>.&rdquo;&nbsp; And he dashed into the finale
-at the hurricane pace that alone makes the thing endurable.&nbsp;
-Even he couldn&rsquo;t talk till it was done.</p>
-<p>Sometimes we were interested in events that were proceeding in
-the world beneath us.&nbsp; &ldquo;What on earth&rsquo;s the man
-reading the fifteenth for? it&rsquo;s the sixteenth that&rsquo;s
-the lesson for the day.&rdquo;&nbsp; &ldquo;Oh, it&rsquo;s
-Henderson,&rdquo; would be my reply.&nbsp; &ldquo;He always
-chooses a fine chapter to show off his voice and elocution.&nbsp;
-If he&rsquo;s hauled up for it, he&rsquo;ll say he did it by
-mistake.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>On one occasion we were favoured by a reader, fresh from the
-study of Aristophanes, with the startling announcement that the
-First Lesson for the day was taken from the Book of
-<i>Ecclesiazusae</i>.</p>
-<p>One day I heard voices in the choir beneath.&nbsp; I knew,
-before I saw the speakers reflected from the mirror in front of
-me, that they were two limp figures in blue serge and <a
-name="page60"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 60</span>coal-scuttle
-bonnets.&nbsp; The strident tones were unmistakeable, the
-product, in so far as the human throat can compass it, of a long
-and careful assimilation of the clash of the cymbals.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;A rare fine buildin&rsquo;, this,&rdquo; said one,
-&ldquo;and what a hinstrument!&nbsp; I only wish we &rsquo;ad it
-in our place; draw a sight better than drums and cymbals,
-wouldn&rsquo;t it?&nbsp; And a deal noisier.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;You&rsquo;re right,&rdquo; answered the other,
-&ldquo;but, for all that, I wouldn&rsquo;t exchange with that lot
-to get it.&nbsp; They deans and chapters and canons, and heaven
-knows what they calls theirselves, aye, and the bisshup hisself,
-is that sunk in ignorance and self-conceit that they can&rsquo;t
-see the right way; no, nor never will.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Occasionally, but very rarely, matters went wrong in our own
-department.&nbsp; The water that fed the hydraulic gear failed,
-or was cut off at the main, and the organ &ldquo;went out&rdquo;
-in the middle of an anthem.&nbsp; One afternoon in November it
-clouded over so suddenly that we could hardly see our faces in
-the organ loft.&nbsp; Worse luck still, the matches were damp,
-and till I could be back with some more, Dr. H. had to guess at
-the anthem as best he could.&nbsp; I am <a
-name="page61"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 61</span>not musician
-enough to know how he surmounted the difficulty, but I suspect
-that the choir that day must have been treated to an amount of
-improvisation to which they were wholly unaccustomed from an
-organist who, as a rule, played what he had to play, and rarely
-indulged in vagaries.</p>
-<p>But our worst disaster was of earlier date.&nbsp; Bildad the
-Shuhite blew the organ.&nbsp; He had received that name because
-he cleaned shoes in a corner of the Close.&nbsp; It was in
-prehistoric days before hydraulic gear was dreamed of in
-connexion with the organ.&nbsp; As luck would have it, Bildad
-fell sick, and had to supply a deputy at the last moment.&nbsp;
-Dr. H. studied the man carefully, mistrusting, I think, his
-intelligence.&nbsp; But his answers were satisfactory, though I
-thought with the Doctor that he protested too much.&nbsp; Anyhow,
-the service was due, and we had no time to waste on our
-fears.&nbsp; The singing began, but the organ was irresponsive,
-and, hurrying to the back of the loft, I found our deputy-blower
-contemplating with blank stolidity the mechanism at his command,
-and pleading with an injured air, &ldquo;Sir, I am a&rsquo;
-waitin&rsquo; for you to begin!&rdquo;</p>
-<p><a name="page62"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 62</span>One day
-I was laboriously extracting discords from the great instrument
-with Dr. H. at my elbow, when a gentle voice at our side asked
-for permission to try the instrument.&nbsp; What a delight it
-was, after the horrors I had been perpetrating, to see the long
-fingers charm out the melody, till they drifted at last into the
-chords of Chopin&rsquo;s great march.&nbsp; Surely, I thought,
-the composer must hear and welcome such a perfect realisation of
-his wondrous dream.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Charrlie, me boy, thry the pey-dals,&rdquo; came a
-voice from below, with the raciest and most captivating of
-brogues.&nbsp; It was my first introduction to Ireland&rsquo;s
-great musician&mdash;Sir Robert Stewart&mdash;and his still
-greater pupil, composer in prospective of the <i>Requiem</i> and
-<i>Revenge</i>.</p>
-<p>At our next interview the Professor of the future gave me a
-friendly lecture on Wagner, emphasising his teaching the while by
-illustrative passages, which he played, I remember, in thick
-woollen gloves, of which he hadn&rsquo;t troubled to divest
-himself, being pressed for time and the organ loft none too
-warm.&nbsp; The mechanism of the organ, I am bound to add, was
-old and antiquated&mdash;not <a name="page63"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 63</span>as it is in these days, when the
-notes speak if a fly sits upon them, or you venture to sneeze in
-their neighbourhood.</p>
-<p>I have made acquaintance with strange scenes in an organ
-loft&mdash;an organist of surpassing ability playing through a
-service when he was drunk, but certainly not incapable.&nbsp; Yet
-a deputy sat by him, ready to take his place in case he should
-prove unequal to retaining his seat at the instrument.&nbsp; I
-have seen a fight between two choristers who had been sent to
-fetch music for the choir.&nbsp; It began on this wise.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;I can lick you &rsquo;ead over &rsquo;eels in &rsquo;oly
-&rsquo;oly &rsquo;oly,&rdquo; said one.&nbsp; The taunt was not
-to be endured by a chorister of spirit, so &ldquo;Come on!&rdquo;
-said the other; and they had fought it out to the bitter end at
-the back of the organ before ever Dr. H. was aware that the
-battle was in progress.&nbsp; I have seen courtship
-too&mdash;ending, as all courtship should do, in
-matrimony&mdash;while the organist played unsuspiciously a soft
-and dreamy accompaniment.&nbsp; And I have seen heroism
-too&mdash;grand as any displayed upon a field of
-battle&mdash;when my friend came from his sick bed and played
-through a service magnificently while the death dew gathered <a
-name="page64"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 64</span>on his
-face.&nbsp; And I coveted, as I never coveted before or since,
-the divine gift of music, which would have enabled me to spare
-him his long and patient hour of martyrdom.</p>
-<p>And, at the end, he played the Dead March, never knowing that
-it was for himself he played it, while a furious thunder-storm
-raged over head, and the roll of the thirty-two-foot pipes was
-drowned by reverberating peals.&nbsp; As the final chords came
-crashing from his hands, he said to me, &ldquo;Handel must have
-written it, I think, to an accompaniment like this.&nbsp; And yet
-the modern school of organists would have us leave out the
-drums!&nbsp; I shall never care to play it again.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>And three weeks afterwards he was dead.</p>
-<h3><a name="page67"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-67</span>Fighting the Cholera</h3>
-<p><span class="smcap">Was</span> it an escapade, I wonder? or
-was it something greater and grander?&nbsp; There are, I suppose,
-escapades good and bad; heroic and unheroic.</p>
-<p>One evening I was tidying up Ronald&rsquo;s room at
-Cambridge.&nbsp; We were both of us in residence now: I as an
-M.A., while he had just entered as an undergraduate.&nbsp; He was
-as studiously untidy as I was the reverse, and, but for me, his
-room, artistic as it was, would always have looked like a boudoir
-that had been used over-night for a tap-room.&nbsp; Pipes,
-tobacco, and matches met the eye everywhere, scattered among
-vases of flowers and ferns; no two sheets of the <i>Times</i>
-were together in one place; &ldquo;Esmond&rdquo; lay cheek by
-jowl with &ldquo;Tom Jones&rdquo; (the former, I was glad to see,
-the better worn), while there was more than a suspicion that his
-surplice was in use as a bed for a litter of kittens.</p>
-<p>Ronald himself lay at his ease upon the sofa, watching&mdash;I
-cannot say with interest, <a name="page68"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 68</span>but at any rate without
-prejudice&mdash;my improvements for the worse.&nbsp; But I roused
-him at last.&nbsp; In replacing a small box of Italian olive wood
-I knocked off the lid, and an aggregation of articles
-unimaginable were scattered on the floor.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Hullo! stop that, old man,&rdquo; he said.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;You&rsquo;ll be losing or breaking some of my most
-cherished possessions.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;What on earth are they, Ronald?&nbsp; Here&rsquo;s a
-small crucifix and a missal (you haven&rsquo;t turned Roman
-Catholic, have you?) and any amount of rings&mdash;most of them
-brass&mdash;and, by Jove, a lock of hair!&nbsp; Is the last a
-love token?&nbsp; It looks uncommonly like the relic of another
-escapade.&nbsp; Did it belong to the girl who played the
-harmonium on the beach at Bayview?&nbsp; I didn&rsquo;t know
-you&rsquo;d got so far as that.&nbsp; Besides, her hair was
-light, if I remember.&nbsp; Out with it, old man, and clear your
-conscience by confession.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Have done with your jokes, Fred; you&rsquo;re the last
-fellow to chaff like that if you knew the rights of it.&nbsp;
-And, if I must tell you, I must.&nbsp; But I didn&rsquo;t want
-you to know of the matter; it looks too much like boasting.&nbsp;
-However, you find out everything I do; so <a
-name="page69"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 69</span>I may as well
-tell you all about this, before you hunt it up for yourself in
-some underhand way, or make a tale out of it that isn&rsquo;t the
-true one.&nbsp; You know Richards, Fred; the man my uncle made me
-travel with last autumn&mdash;to see the world, as he called
-it.&nbsp; I never liked the fellow, and always thought him a cad;
-but I didn&rsquo;t know till then that he was a coward as well as
-a cad.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I always thought him both,&rdquo; was my reply.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Taormina in Sicily was one of the places we stopped at:
-the loveliest spot that you could dream of, if you dreamed your
-hardest.&nbsp; You&rsquo;ve never been there, have you?&nbsp;
-Well: the town itself is a fair day&rsquo;s walk up hill from the
-sea, and Mola&rsquo;s another day&rsquo;s walk above that; by
-which time you&rsquo;ve nearly reached the clouds&mdash;only, as
-it happens, Sicily doesn&rsquo;t boast of any.&nbsp; But you
-needn&rsquo;t go higher than Taormina for the loveliest view on
-earth.&nbsp; They may talk of seeing Madrid, Seville, Naples, and
-a hundred other places, and then dying contented&mdash;why,
-there&rsquo;s none of them that&rsquo;s a patch on
-Taormina.&nbsp; Sit down in the proscenium of the old theatre,
-facing Etna, with the Straits of Messina and the foot of <a
-name="page70"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 70</span>Italy laid
-out like a map on your left: and you can do without another view
-for the rest of your natural life.&nbsp; The only objection we
-found to it was that in September of last year it was most
-awfully hot, and Taormina is pestiferous enough to be a Turkish
-settlement.&nbsp; It is worse, I think, than the old town of
-Granada, which is perhaps the filthiest place that I know in
-Europe.&nbsp; The cholera, too, was about last year, especially
-in Italy; and, if it <i>did</i> cross the Straits, Taormina was
-ripe and handy for it.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;After we&rsquo;d been there for a week or so it
-<i>did</i> come with a vengeance.&nbsp; First a suspicious case
-or two, then a case that was not suspicious at all, and then it
-fell like a thunderbolt on the town.&nbsp; Richards was off
-directly, and with him everyone in the place who could afford to
-go; so the poorer people, with their old priest, who stuck to his
-work like a man, had it all to themselves.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Now it looks like boasting, but I didn&rsquo;t like to
-run.&nbsp; Besides, I had come there for a fortnight, and I was
-fond of the place and the view and the old theatre&mdash;so why
-go?&nbsp; Anyhow I didn&rsquo;t budge, and did what I could to
-help the old man in his difficulty&mdash;it was little <a
-name="page71"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 71</span>enough.&nbsp;
-However, I had heaps of money, and they wanted that more than
-anything.&nbsp; And he taught me something about
-medicine&mdash;what little he knew of it; though, after all,
-nothing but stimulants at one stage and opium at another seemed
-to do them the slightest good.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;What a time it was!&nbsp; I pray that I may never stand
-face to face with cholera again.&nbsp; Overhead, a sky like
-brass, and, veiling the town, a dusky, steel-blue haze, almost as
-palpable as gauze: the distinctive colour (I&rsquo;ve been told)
-of a cholera atmosphere.&nbsp; They died like flies, crowded in
-their close, evil-smelling dwellings, though we lighted fires in
-the streets to clear the air; an idea I borrowed, I believe, from
-&lsquo;Old St. Paul&rsquo;s.&rsquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Late one evening I hurried from a sick room to get a
-breath of air in the theatre below.&nbsp; My friend, the old
-priest, was there before me.&nbsp; This was an unusual
-coincidence, as he scarcely ever gave himself a moment&rsquo;s
-rest.&nbsp; Yet he might have done so now, for in ten days&rsquo;
-time the disease abated as rapidly as it had begun.&nbsp; And
-besides, he had organised a band of fairly efficient helpers.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&lsquo;Good evening, signor,&rsquo; he said.&nbsp;
-&lsquo;You see <a name="page72"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-72</span>me in my church; for I find in it the same relief that
-my brethren in the cities find within the walls of a
-cathedral.&nbsp; To me it would seem a poor exchange&mdash;for
-what cathedral built by man could match this view?&rsquo;&nbsp;
-As he spoke he pointed through the ruined arches to where Etna
-towered in the distance.&nbsp; Surely the noblest drop-scene ever
-fashioned by the hand of nature, and not unworthily framed by the
-artist who had designed the theatre.&nbsp; Between the ruined
-columns on the left a steamer, environed by a little group of
-feluccas, made a series of dissolving views as it overtook and
-passed them on the sea below.&nbsp; But I saw he had some trouble
-on his mind over and above his care for his patients.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&lsquo;Take courage, padre mio.&nbsp; The worst is
-over.&nbsp; That shroud of steel-blue mist is lifting day by
-day.&nbsp; I should like to know what causes it.&nbsp; I believe
-if we had had the power of gauging it, its changes would have
-made no bad register of the death-rate in the town.&rsquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&lsquo;You are right, my son; the worst <i>is</i> past;
-and, thanks mainly to you, I have been enabled to do my duty
-while it lasted.&nbsp; Without you I could have done
-little.&nbsp; Take <a name="page73"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-73</span>an old man&rsquo;s thanks, signor, on behalf of those
-who are left and those who are gone.&nbsp; Neither the one nor
-the other will ever forget you, here or in the world that holds
-them now.&nbsp; Yet I could almost wish that you had never
-come.&rsquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&lsquo;Why so?&rsquo; I asked.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&lsquo;I wish, at any rate&rsquo; (speaking with more
-vehemence than his wont), &lsquo;that you had not brought with
-you that false-hearted friend of yours.&rsquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&lsquo;You mean Richards.&nbsp; Yes, he is a coward to
-run away like that.&rsquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&lsquo;Worse, far worse.&nbsp; You know little Ninetta
-well, who lives at your lodgings up the hill&mdash;the prettiest
-girl in Taormina they call her, and I fancy they are right.&nbsp;
-She is down with the cholera&mdash;didn&rsquo;t you know
-it?&nbsp; Taken this morning, and, unless I am wrong in my
-judgment, it is one of the worst cases we have
-had&mdash;hopeless, I should say, from the very first.&rsquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&lsquo;Poor little Ninetta!&nbsp; It does seem hard;
-taken, too, just when the disease was dying out.&nbsp; But what
-has Richards to do with it?&rsquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&lsquo;The confessional is sacred, my friend.&nbsp; But
-it may be that, in this one case, the <a name="page74"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 74</span>cholera has struck in
-kindliness.&nbsp; Though I am sorry he should be away when he
-might have made her end more peaceful.&nbsp; Even when I left her
-to come and find you, she was perpetually calling for him.&nbsp;
-Put her off with excuses; it won&rsquo;t be for long.&nbsp;
-Don&rsquo;t let her think him a coward as well as a
-villain.&nbsp; If you weren&rsquo;t a heretic, I would absolve
-you beforehand for any necessary evasion.&rsquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&lsquo;You may be sure I&rsquo;ll do my best.&nbsp; The
-evasions won&rsquo;t lie heavy upon my conscience.&nbsp;
-Goodnight.&rsquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;There was no hope for her, as he had said.&nbsp; During
-the early stage of her illness she was always asking for
-him&mdash;wondering why he stayed away&mdash;for I obeyed the
-priest&rsquo;s injunctions, and never told her he&rsquo;d been
-coward enough to run.&nbsp; As she got worse, she began to
-wander, and, from having seen us so often together, she would
-confuse him with me; and, at the last, was perfectly happy so
-long as I was with her; calling me by his name, and thanking him,
-as she imagined, for all his care and kindness to her.&nbsp; The
-lock of hair that puzzled you is hers.&nbsp; She gave it to me
-just before she died (she had nothing else to give, poor girl) in
-the belief she was giving it <a name="page75"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 75</span>to Richards.&nbsp; And then, quite
-quietly, still in the belief that he was with her, and that it
-was his hand and not mine that she was holding, she died.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;There you have the story, Fred, such as it is.&nbsp;
-All the other things were given me by the villagers&mdash;the few
-of them, that is, who lived&mdash;all except the missal, which
-came from my old friend the priest.&nbsp; It was his most
-cherished possession; given, I believe, in the hope of converting
-me.&nbsp; Well, if conversion would make me another such as he
-was, I wouldn&rsquo;t say no to it.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Shall I ever see him again, I wonder?&nbsp; Some day,
-Fred, you and I will go and hunt him up.&rdquo;</p>
-<h3><a name="page79"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-79</span>Ronald&rsquo;s Courtship</h3>
-<h4>I</h4>
-<p>I <span class="GutSmall">HAVE</span> been looking through all
-my old letters to-night.&nbsp; It is a strange sensation in these
-days, when the shuttle spins so fast, to re-read the letters
-between childhood and manhood.&nbsp; All details seem softened,
-viewed through the haze of time.&nbsp; Human nature was (or so it
-seems to one) so much kindlier then than now.&nbsp; What pleasant
-ghosts are raised by these old letters; what touches that one
-missed in them in the hurried, feverish days when they were
-written!&nbsp; In so very many cases, too, the hands that penned
-them are still.&nbsp; I have come upon one from Ronald, written
-when he was just twenty-five.&nbsp; It is singularly devoid of
-romance, compared with many of the others, and has &ldquo;brisked
-me up&rdquo; considerably, when I was verging on melancholia.</p>
-<blockquote><p>&ldquo;<span class="smcap">Dear Fred</span> (it
-runs),</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I shall want you for a wedding a month hence.&nbsp;
-Guess the name of the happy lady.&nbsp; No more escapades
-from&mdash;Yours respectably,</p>
-<p style="text-align: right">&ldquo;<span
-class="smcap">Ronald</span>.&rdquo;</p>
-</blockquote>
-<p><a name="page80"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 80</span>Who was
-she? and how had he managed it? were the questions I asked myself
-at the time.&nbsp; Somehow or other, I couldn&rsquo;t imagine
-Ronald proposing to his lady-love in a conventional,
-Christianlike way.&nbsp; True, time had sobered him
-considerably.&nbsp; He was now a handsome young fellow, living
-quietly and sedately with his uncle at Broadwater; not easy to
-recognise as the lad who had discomfited an itinerant preacher,
-and played the stable-boy on the race-course at Bayview.&nbsp;
-But the spirit of Bohemianism dies hard, and I was possessed with
-the idea that, even in the act of &ldquo;placing himself&rdquo;
-for life, Ronald would make opportunity for a final fling.&nbsp;
-He was having a really bad time of it with his uncle, and, in
-spite of occasional outbursts, when the Viking blood got the
-better of him, had been fairly amenable to discipline.&nbsp; The
-old man, I know, must have been a constant thorn in his flesh;
-very selfish, and very dogmatic on all points, especially
-politics.&nbsp; If he could have reasoned logically himself, or
-have listened to reason in others, he would have been less
-objectionable.&nbsp; But he formed his opinions on grounds as
-strictly illogical as does the average woman, and, to <a
-name="page81"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 81</span>do him
-justice, never abandoned them.&nbsp; For example:</p>
-<p>&ldquo;What a grand speech that was of Gladstone&rsquo;s
-yesterday, Ronald!&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Do you think so, sir?&nbsp; It seemed a trifle
-commonplace to me in comparison with Dizzy&rsquo;s
-reply.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Pshaw!&nbsp; Dizzy&rsquo;s no speaker at all compared
-with him.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Did you ever hear him, sir?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Never&mdash;and don&rsquo;t want to.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Then you have read his speeches, sir?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Never&mdash;and I hope I never may.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>This was his recognised line of argument (Heaven save the
-mark!) on all topics.&nbsp; Yet to differ from any of his
-conclusions was a most serious offence, which Ronald in time
-learned how to avoid.&nbsp; His own part in a conversation became
-limited to a series of characterless phrases&mdash;&ldquo;Yes,
-sir,&rdquo; &ldquo;No, sir,&rdquo; &ldquo;Of course,
-sir&rdquo;&mdash;which passed muster as entirely
-satisfactory.&nbsp; Occasionally, it is true, they were flavoured
-with a salt of sarcasm, but as this only rebounded harmlessly,
-without piercing his uncle&rsquo;s pachydermatous hide, the peace
-was seldom broken between them.&nbsp; Outsiders were less
-merciful.</p>
-<p><a name="page82"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-82</span>&ldquo;Growing a trifle dogmatical is Heyward,
-isn&rsquo;t he?&rdquo;&mdash;one club member would say to
-another&mdash;when a theory, accepted obediently by my
-uncle&rsquo;s household, had been thrust a little prematurely
-down a stranger&rsquo;s throat.&nbsp; &ldquo;But there:
-he&rsquo;s getting on in years&mdash;sixty, I should say, if
-he&rsquo;s a day&mdash;and we shall all of us like our own way
-then.&nbsp; Indeed, youngsters like it too, as a Master of
-Trinity found with his junior Fellows.&nbsp; &lsquo;Not one of us
-is infallible,&rsquo; he said to them, &lsquo;not even the
-youngest.&rsquo;&rdquo;</p>
-<p>It was a gentlemanly face, was old Heyward&rsquo;s, though, if
-you happened to be a judge of faces, you would probably have
-added &ldquo;a weak one.&rdquo;&nbsp; Yes, and&mdash;No.&nbsp;
-Not strong, certainly, in intellect or knowledge, though the
-features are scored with deep-cut lines, that might be mistaken
-by the casual observer for traces of reflective thought.&nbsp;
-But lines traced by the hand of intellect ennoble and brighten
-the face, even in the act of carving it; these had only soured
-and embittered it.&nbsp; Such strength as they show is the
-strength of a dogged persistency, which clings to an opinion,
-right or wrong, because it admits no counter argument, and always
-carries its point by a process of blank obstructiveness.&nbsp;
-But <a name="page83"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 83</span>each
-victory thus gained is of the nature of a defeat, narrowing and
-confining the soul still more within its self-imposed limits,
-deafening it to the interests of an outer world, and to the joys
-and sorrows of humanity at large.</p>
-<p>His sister was a tall, angular woman, with thin, compressed
-lips and a cold, grey eye, betokening a far more active and
-aggressive will.&nbsp; But probably no two people were ever more
-entirely in harmony, till Ronald sowed dissension between
-them.&nbsp; Even dissimilarities, in their case, became points of
-agreement.&nbsp; For instance, the uncle read much and forgot all
-that he read, while she read nothing and had consequently nothing
-to forget.&nbsp; Then again, they were united in their devotion
-to comfort, for which each required the other.&nbsp; Wider forms
-of attachment they ignored and dispensed with, as unprofitable
-for the furtherance of the main issue.&nbsp; Friends, servants,
-animals, who were found detrimental, simply disappeared without
-comment, as unobtrusively as did the obnoxious teachers in Madame
-Beck&rsquo;s famous <i>pensionnat</i> in the Rue Fossette.</p>
-<p>In the art of &ldquo;nagging&rdquo; our uncle was supreme,
-bearing out Sarah Grand&rsquo;s theory that women are nowhere in
-this province, <a name="page84"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-84</span>which has been reckoned peculiarly their own.&nbsp;
-Curling himself up gracefully in his favourite armchair, and
-lighting a cigar, he would prepare himself to enjoy it.&nbsp;
-Sometimes the attack would be sudden and wanting in delicacy.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Ronald, I wish you could manage to be down in time for
-dinner.&rdquo;&nbsp; Ronald, be it observed, had been five
-minutes late, but yet five minutes prior to its announcement by
-the butler.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;My tie was so infern&mdash;intolerably hard to fasten,
-sir.&nbsp; I must get a <i>Jemima</i>.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;A <i>Jemima</i>!&rdquo; shouted the
-uncle&mdash;scandalised at the idea of Ronald contemplating the
-introduction of some rustic handmaid&mdash;&ldquo;What on earth
-do you mean?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;A hand-made tie, sir.&rdquo;&nbsp; (The pun is yours,
-old man, not mine.&nbsp; Besides, the uncle wouldn&rsquo;t have
-seen it, even if he&rsquo;d given me the chance.&mdash;R.)</p>
-<p>A mollified pause of ten minutes.&nbsp; The next time he would
-preface his thrust with a feint, to throw Ronald off his
-guard.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;What a wonderfully nice young fellow Carter is.&nbsp;
-Gets himself up as if he were living in town.&nbsp; I <i>do</i>
-like to see a fellow wear <a name="page85"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 85</span>a tall hat on Sunday; it&rsquo;s far
-and away more respectable than a round one.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Ronald was incorrigible in this respect, and became as the
-deaf adder.</p>
-<p>Five minutes&rsquo; grace.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;How that fellow Stanton did talk at dinner; one
-couldn&rsquo;t get a word in edgeways.&nbsp; By-the-by, I think
-<i>you</i> talk a little too freely, Ronald, to men older and
-wiser than yourself.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;<i>Semper ego auditor tantum</i>?&rdquo; muttered
-Ronald.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;What is it you are saying, Ronald?&nbsp; I do wish you
-would speak up.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I said I would only listen in future, sir.&nbsp;
-<i>Nunquamne reponam</i>?&rdquo; (the latter <i>sotto
-voce</i>).</p>
-<p>&ldquo;There you are&mdash;muttering again.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I was only saying I wished I could write a book,
-sir.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Miss Heyward couldn&rsquo;t hold a candle to her brother in
-this particular department.&nbsp; She lacked altogether the
-delicacy of &ldquo;finesse&rdquo; which is essential to its
-development, and, strange to say, possessed in a high degree by
-people of feeble intelligence.&nbsp; But she seconded him bravely
-in cases where temper and determination would serve its
-purpose.&nbsp; <a name="page86"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-86</span>Here it was to advocate stronger measures, and hers was
-the master mind.&nbsp; She was not without a suspicion that time
-and reiteration had blunted the edge of her brother&rsquo;s
-innuendo.&nbsp; When therefore she was called in for
-consultation, Ronald knew that it betokened a definite and
-concerted campaign.&nbsp; He would be sent to Coventry, or fed on
-roast pork, and specialities that his soul abhorred, or (but for
-his age) have been whipped.&nbsp; Finally, and in the last
-resort, his pocket money would be docked&mdash;a punishment that
-was known to be effective.&nbsp; Spending little upon himself, he
-had always a band of pensioners who were dependent on him for
-assistance.&nbsp; So it was through them that he could most
-surely be reached.&nbsp; &ldquo;Seething the kid in the
-mother&rsquo;s milk,&rdquo; as we are told in
-&lsquo;Kenilworth,&rsquo; is an occupation that offers a wide
-field to the ingenuity of the inventive.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Two&rsquo;s company and three&rsquo;s none,&rdquo;
-muttered Ronald, when, on entering a room suddenly, he found an
-animated conversation drop suddenly into silence, while an echo
-of his own escapades and iniquities lingered in the air.</p>
-<h4><a name="page87"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-87</span>II</h4>
-<p>A strange and melancholy life it was for a lad of
-Ronald&rsquo;s temperament; a strange and incongruous
-fellowship:</p>
-<blockquote><p>&ldquo;For East is East, and West is West, and
-never the twain shall meet&rdquo;</p>
-</blockquote>
-<p>Yet it had in it one redeeming feature.&nbsp; Only a mile from
-Broadwater, in the white house that nestles in the heart of the
-valley, just visible to us over a depression in the lulls, lived
-a young widow of twenty-eight&mdash;Ronald&rsquo;s dearest
-friend, and his comforter and consoler whenever the monotony of
-existence seemed almost intolerable to the lad just entering on
-manhood.</p>
-<p>The coalition between Ronald and Mrs. Thorpe was regarded with
-extreme disfavour by the uncle.&nbsp; &ldquo;Making a milksop of
-the lad,&rdquo; he called it sneeringly.&nbsp; But the villagers,
-one and all of them, were emphatic in their praise.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;A nice couple they&rsquo;d make,&rdquo; said old widow
-Denvers.&nbsp; &ldquo;I only hope it may come off, and that I may
-be alive to see it.&nbsp; And love each other they do already,
-unless my old eyes deceive me.&nbsp; See how he follers her about
-and well nigh wusshups the ground <a name="page88"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 88</span>she treads on.&nbsp; Why he&rsquo;d
-be at Thorpe Hill all day, if only that old aunt of his
-didn&rsquo;t watch him like a cat.&nbsp; Drat her!&rdquo;</p>
-<p>A feeling of companionship had steadily grown up between
-them.&nbsp; The almost daily meetings and constant interchange of
-ideas had produced their natural result, and the companionship
-that had at first been a pleasure had long become a
-necessity.&nbsp; Yet, strange to say, neither had recognised the
-fact.&nbsp; Ronald himself would have scouted the idea.&nbsp;
-Possessed of not a penny in his own rights, and dependent only on
-what his uncle allowed him, he would have ridiculed the notion of
-asking the richest woman in the county to become his wife.&nbsp;
-Indeed it was the deterrent influence of their relative positions
-that had excluded the possibility from finding a place among the
-contingencies of his life.&nbsp; Yet she it was, however
-unwittingly, who was the cause of Ronald&rsquo;s last
-escapade.</p>
-<p>The idea had frequently occurred to him that she had inspired
-his uncle with the nearest approximation to love of which his
-nature was capable.&nbsp; Not according to the accepted
-traditions of lovemaking, nor exhibited in a manner that would be
-patent to the world at large.&nbsp; But <a
-name="page89"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 89</span>he showed her
-attentions that he withheld from all other women.&nbsp; He would
-enquire solicitously after her health, and the health of her
-dogs, in huge Grandisonian phrases; above all, he would vacate
-for her his favourite armchair, and waive her into it with a bow
-of old-world politeness.&nbsp; (To his sister, who ruled his
-household, the chair in question was rigorously debarred).&nbsp;
-Then again, she was a Liberal in politics.&nbsp; Not that this
-counted for much, because he maintained that women should be
-allowed no politics at all, beyond presenting a feeble reflex of
-the man who was nearest or dearest to them.&nbsp; Much as he
-hated Conservatism, he would sooner have seen the wife of his
-friend Jacobs pose as the rankest of Tories, than at variance
-with her husband in a way so subversive of the relation of the
-sexes.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;What a blessing it is to get across here for a change
-of air,&rdquo; said Ronald, flinging himself down on a chair in
-Mrs. Thorpe&rsquo;s drawing-room, where she was arranging her
-flowers for the day.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Well, what&rsquo;s the matter now?&nbsp; Is it the aunt
-or the uncle who has ruffled you this morning?&rdquo;</p>
-<p><a name="page90"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-90</span>&ldquo;Not so much the people as the atmosphere.&nbsp;
-The air seems laden with small trivialities.&nbsp; I feel like
-the man in &lsquo;Pilgrim&rsquo;s Progress,&rsquo; who lived in a
-cloud of dust that he was constantly raising.&nbsp; Whereas life
-ought to be lived on a breezy upland, with your face to the
-sea.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I think I understand what you mean, though your
-reminiscences of Bunyan are a trifle mixed.&nbsp; And perhaps the
-dust is better for you.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Not a bit of it, when it&rsquo;s of one&rsquo;s own
-making.&nbsp; Now <i>you</i> haven&rsquo;t a scrap of dust in
-your house.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I&rsquo;m not so sure.&nbsp; Look at that piano.&nbsp;
-Anyhow, you didn&rsquo;t come all this way so early in the
-morning to treat me to a revised version of Bunyan&rsquo;s
-allegory.&nbsp; What&rsquo;s the matter, Ronald?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I believe the old man&rsquo;s jealous of me.&nbsp; He
-says I&rsquo;m over here too often&mdash;that people are
-beginning to talk, and all manner of rot.&nbsp; I&rsquo;m almost
-sure he wants to marry you himself.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;My dear boy, you&rsquo;re dreaming.&nbsp; Do you think
-that I would abandon my independence, and all my advanced
-theories on women, to adopt your uncle&rsquo;s musty,
-antediluvian ideas?&nbsp; <a name="page91"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 91</span>Not a bit of it.&nbsp; Why I&rsquo;d
-sooner marry <i>you</i>, if the worst came to the worst, though
-even that wouldn&rsquo;t suit me either.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;It would suit <i>me</i>,&rdquo; muttered Ronald,
-&ldquo;just down to the ground.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>The uncle&rsquo;s sight had of late been failing him, owing to
-some weakness or lesion of the nerve that no spectacles could
-remedy.&nbsp; Under these circumstances, his favourite amanuensis
-was Ronald; for, though I regret to say it, his sister&rsquo;s
-spelling was occasionally defective, and his uncle was particular
-above all things that his correspondence should be strictly
-orthographic.&nbsp; Not that this characteristic could be imputed
-to Miss Heyward as a fault, especially in these days, when even
-Peeresses (I am told) have adopted phonetic spelling, and
-orthography has been relegated to our village schools as the
-symbol of a lower and less intellectual class.&nbsp; But the
-uncle was conservative in everything but politics, and regarded
-the innovation as a forecast of the nation&rsquo;s decadence.</p>
-<p>One morning he called Ronald into his study, with a
-thoughtful, pre-occupied air that betokened business of more than
-average importance.</p>
-<p><a name="page92"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-92</span>&ldquo;Ronald, I&rsquo;m thinking of marrying&mdash;and
-who do you suppose is my choice?&nbsp; A great friend of yours by
-the way, Mrs. Thorpe.&nbsp; I like her amazingly; a most
-well-bred woman, who will look famously at the head of my
-table.&nbsp; Then again, she&rsquo;s got money, though it&rsquo;s
-true I don&rsquo;t want it.&nbsp; And her property marches with
-mine; and we&rsquo;ll enclose it all in a ring fence, and have
-the finest estate in the county.&nbsp; She&rsquo;s got a few
-crotchets, I know, but they&rsquo;ll soon be ousted when
-she&rsquo;s found a sensible man to advise her.&nbsp; I grant
-I&rsquo;m a trifle old for her, but people think nothing of that
-in these days when the fault is on the right side.&nbsp; What do
-you say to it? a good idea, isn&rsquo;t it?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Very good indeed, sir,&rdquo; said
-Ronald&mdash;demurely, but doubtingly.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;You ain&rsquo;t very hearty about it, Ronald.&nbsp; I
-expected you to jump at the suggestion.&nbsp; Indeed, I thought
-you were a little gone on her yourself, and would have welcomed
-her warmly for your aunt.&nbsp; You&rsquo;re across at her house
-pretty well every day.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Yes, sir, I am; and I do like her very much.&nbsp;
-Indeed, I wouldn&rsquo;t have minded marrying her
-myself.&rdquo;</p>
-<p><a name="page93"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-93</span>&ldquo;Good Lord! if that doesn&rsquo;t beat
-everything!&nbsp; A mere boy like you, without a penny in the
-world except what you get from me&mdash;and I&rsquo;m not dead
-yet by a long way, Ronald&mdash;<i>you</i> to be in love with the
-richest woman in the county!&nbsp; God bless me!&nbsp; What are
-the boys coming to?&nbsp; But there&mdash;it&rsquo;s
-nonsense.&nbsp; Put it out of your head, my lad, and sit down and
-write what I tell you.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>The letter, when it was forwarded, ran thus:</p>
-<blockquote><p>&ldquo;<span class="smcap">Dear Mrs.
-Thorpe</span>,</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I write on a subject that touches very nearly the
-happiness of my future life (&lsquo;it touches mine,
-R.&rsquo;)&nbsp; You must have seen, I imagine, how much I have
-admired and loved you (&lsquo;my sentiments exactly R.&rsquo;);
-nor can you be blind to the fact that no other woman occupies the
-place in my esteem which has been wholly given to you
-(&lsquo;couldn&rsquo;t have expressed myself better,
-R.&rsquo;)&nbsp; I now offer you my hand and heart
-(&lsquo;savours of the complete letter writer, but true
-notwithstanding, R.&rsquo;), together with all my worldly
-possessions (&lsquo;&pound;50, all included, R.&rsquo;)&nbsp; You
-know, I fancy, my ways and habits as no other woman can know them
-(&lsquo;too well by half, R.&rsquo;)&nbsp; My temper is equable,
-and I am, I think, companionable (&lsquo;query? R.&rsquo;)&nbsp;
-My nephew Ronald will continue to live with us; you know him well
-(&lsquo;I should just think so, R.&rsquo;)&nbsp; He is a really
-good-hearted, well-meaning lad (&lsquo;thanks, <a
-name="page94"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 94</span>old man,
-R.&rsquo;), but a little uppish at times, and thinks he knows
-everything, like all the boys of the present day (&lsquo;I
-retract my thanks, R.&rsquo;)&nbsp; But I fancy that you and he
-will get on together (&lsquo;admirably, R.&rsquo;)</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I shall await your answer with impatience, and
-anxiously hope it may be favourable (&lsquo;to me, R.&rsquo;)</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I remain,</p>
-<p style="text-align: center">&ldquo;Your sincere admirer,</p>
-<p style="text-align: right">&ldquo;A. <span
-class="smcap">Heyward</span>.&rdquo;<br />
-(&lsquo;Your loving friend, R.&rsquo;)</p>
-</blockquote>
-<p>The answer came next day, and was a crushing blow to my
-uncle&rsquo;s hopes.&nbsp; She thanked him gratefully for the
-offer, and regretted the disappointment her answer would cause
-him.&nbsp; But her affections, she said, had long been bestowed
-on his nephew, and she had lately had <i>reason to believe</i>
-(italics at Ronald&rsquo;s request) that the feeling was
-reciprocated.&nbsp; She was in a position, she added, to
-disregard monetary considerations in the choice of a husband.</p>
-<p style="text-align: center">* * * *</p>
-<p>There was strife within the gates of Broadwater on the
-announcement of Ronald&rsquo;s engagement.&nbsp; The uncle was
-furious at being supplanted this second time, and, to make
-matters worse, the offender in this case was <a
-name="page95"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 95</span>the nephew of
-his choice.&nbsp; So wroth was he that he nearly made me his heir
-out of spite, and, for two or three days, my price rose
-considerably on the matrimonial market.&nbsp; But, on giving
-tongue to his wrath, he found himself without a supporter.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;A servile war had broken out&rdquo; (to quote from
-&lsquo;Cometh up,&rsquo;&mdash;sweetest of all love stories, but,
-Great <i>Dionysius</i>! what Greek!) and his sister was in a
-state of open rebellion.&nbsp; It was she who headed the rising,
-and with her went all the servants, which left our uncle in a
-minority of one.&nbsp; She was, naturally enough, well pleased at
-the progress of events, and anticipated with satisfaction the
-continuance of her reign.</p>
-<p>Ronald, so soon as his month&rsquo;s probation was ended, was
-thankful to be received out of the fray into the sanctuary of
-Thorpe.&nbsp; Not that he was at peace, even there.&nbsp; His
-conscience gave him twinges, and I had a word to say to him on
-the subject, and his wife had a word or two more.&nbsp; But it
-was all for his good, and he had brought it upon himself by
-treating matrimony (of all estates in the world) in a spirit of
-graceless levity.</p>
-<p style="text-align: center">* * * * *</p>
-<p><a name="page96"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 96</span>And
-what of myself?&nbsp; Well, reader, I had lost my chance, or,
-perhaps, willingly foregone it.&nbsp; All Ronald&rsquo;s pet
-schemes had been safe in my hands, and I was little likely to
-oppose the present one, when, almost from the first, I had
-pictured its realisation, and seen how necessary it was to the
-happiness and stability of his life.&nbsp; My
-unselfishness&mdash;call it passivity if you will&mdash;carried
-with it its own reward, for neither of the two was happy without
-me, and Thorpe Hill practically became my home.</p>
-<h3><a name="page99"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 99</span>Judy,
-or Retrieved</h3>
-<p><span class="smcap">Ronald</span> became her &lsquo;fidus
-Achates&rsquo; and Lord High Almoner in all her acts of
-charity.&nbsp; Occasionally, it is true, he misunderstood or
-exceeded his instructions, as, for instance, when he went round
-with a parcel of physic to a sick cottager.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;How be I to take &rsquo;m? did she tell
-&rsquo;e?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;No: she didn&rsquo;t, but she meant all, I suppose,
-unless it&rsquo;s written inside.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>This was a large order, as the parcel contained castor oil, a
-black draught, and six blue pills.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;And which be I to take fust?&nbsp; She must ha&rsquo;
-told &rsquo;e that.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Again Ronald was at fault.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Much, I allow, as the gentry do their
-vittles&mdash;solids fust, and drinks atterwards.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>The prescriptions, whatever the order observed in their
-administration, answered to perfection, and Ronald&rsquo;s fame
-was greatly magnified by the result.&nbsp; His drugs were in <a
-name="page100"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 100</span>high
-request everywhere, and were reported to be &ldquo;powerfully
-fine.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>One day his wife said to him, &ldquo;Ronald, would you like to
-hear a project I have in hand for reclaiming a pet
-drunkard?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Very much: what is it?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I shall give him a dog.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Good Lord! how will that help him?&nbsp; It reminds one
-of a story in the &lsquo;Arabian Nights,&rsquo; where somebody
-with a crack-jaw name gives to somebody else&mdash;a porter, I
-think it was&mdash;a lump of lead, promising it will make his
-fortune.&nbsp; But he wisely declined to specify by what
-particular method the charm would work.&nbsp; I think the man
-weighted a fish-line with it, and caught a salmon with a diamond
-in its mouth.&nbsp; But you can hardly expect your scheme to work
-like that.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Wait and see, Ronald.&nbsp; I read in a German story
-book the other day how a dog had turned a man into an early riser
-(I shall give you one, Ronald), and made him charitable, and
-religious, and all the rest of it.&nbsp; Surely I can trust my
-dog to reclaim a man from one single failing.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I should like to see how he&rsquo;s going to do
-it,&rdquo; said Ronald incredulously.&nbsp; &ldquo;The chances <a
-name="page101"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 101</span>are your
-<i>prot&eacute;g&eacute;</i> will take his dog the first day to
-the nearest public-house.&nbsp; And, if he gets biscuits there,
-as a nice dog is sure to do, he&rsquo;ll want no coaxing to take
-his master there every day.&nbsp; And the last state of that man
-will be worse than the first.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I am afraid there is no worse possible in this
-case.&nbsp; At any rate I have faith in my dog.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>The next day a ragged little hound, called &ldquo;Judy,&rdquo;
-was selected from the kennels at Thorpe Hill, and despatched to
-the <i>prot&eacute;g&eacute;</i> in question.&nbsp; Pure white
-she was, and so small, that, at a shift, you could hold her in
-the hollow of your hand.&nbsp; A veritable little mongrel, of
-course, if ever there was one.&nbsp; Indeed, nothing but a
-mongrel would have had the capacity for so delicate a
-mission.&nbsp; For, as we all know, it is to the mongrel that we
-look for intelligence and originality.&nbsp; The consciousness of
-inherited merit is fatal to intellectual progress in an animal of
-pedigree.&nbsp; Partiality&mdash;but only the most
-prejudiced&mdash;might have called Judy a rough Irish
-terrier.&nbsp; Only her ears didn&rsquo;t lop, but were carried
-erect like a donkey&rsquo;s, and her legs were too long, and her
-tail had an ugly &ldquo;kinck&rdquo; in it.</p>
-<p><a name="page102"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-102</span>Having abused her sufficiently for her personal
-appearance, let me add that she had the sweetest and most winning
-of faces&mdash;chiefly composed of eyes, which were so large in
-comparison with the rest of her features that they seemed to
-swallow them up, giving to the face, as a whole, the thin,
-troubled look of premature age, which is so pathetic in any sick
-animal.&nbsp; But Judy was far from being delicate, and enjoyed
-to the full the zest and sparkle of life.&nbsp; With her head on
-one side, and her ears pricked up, and attention bestowed on the
-curl of her tail, a matter in which she was often negligent, she
-would have matched the best of them as a study of arrested
-life.</p>
-<p>The two&mdash;the dog and the young reprobate she was expected
-to reform&mdash;took to each other with all their hearts, and
-soon became inseparable.&nbsp; But at first Ronald&rsquo;s
-pessimistic prophecy seemed likely to be realised.&nbsp; True to
-his natural instinct, her master took Judy at once to the nearest
-public-house, and, as the biscuits due to an intelligent dog were
-always forthcoming, Judy fell in entirely with her master&rsquo;s
-view as to the direction their daily walk should take.&nbsp;
-Ronald triumphed <a name="page103"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-103</span>maliciously but prematurely.&nbsp; For Judy was to be
-recalled to her duty by a stern dispensation.</p>
-<p>It happened one day, that, as she and her master were
-starting, a troop of bicyclists came scorching down the hill, and
-Judy, caught off her guard and losing her head, was run over, and
-taken up for dead.&nbsp; After long days of anxious nursing she
-was called slowly back to life, at least to a measure of
-life.&nbsp; But the little dog&rsquo;s nerve was gone.&nbsp; From
-that day forward no persuasion could tempt her to follow her
-master along the public road.&nbsp; Warned by experience, she
-dreaded bicyclists at every turning.&nbsp; Just so far as the
-garden gate, and no further, she would follow him, and, with a
-thin little feeble whine, plead almost in words for a change of
-route.&nbsp; But the master&rsquo;s heart was steeled.&nbsp; It
-was to be a conflict of will between them.&nbsp; And which was to
-conquer? the dog or the man?&nbsp; For days and weeks the result
-trembled in the scale.&nbsp; But the walk grew dreary apart from
-his companion, and, going and returning, he was haunted by the
-piteous whine.&nbsp; Then at last he succumbed.&nbsp; The
-day&rsquo;s walk along the high road was exchanged for a run in
-the nearest field or common, and Judy&rsquo;s heart rejoiced, and
-her <a name="page104"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-104</span>spirit came again to her, and she became&mdash;almost,
-but never quite&mdash;her natural self again.</p>
-<p>Thenceforth the sympathy between these two was complete.&nbsp;
-When Judy was ill again, almost to death, she was restful nowhere
-but in her master&rsquo;s presence.&nbsp; When he left the room,
-her eyes would languidly follow him; when he came back, they
-kindled to life again, breathed into by a new spirit; and when he
-took her in his arms, all pain and disquiet ceased, and she lay
-neither shivering nor moaning&mdash;lost to all feeling but the
-satisfied assurance of his love.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Well, Ronald, and how about my experiment?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;You&rsquo;ve beaten me,&rdquo; was the reply.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;What a wonderful woman you are!&rdquo;</p>
-<h4>II</h4>
-<blockquote><p>&ldquo;In quo tam similem videbis Issam<br />
-Ut sit tam similis sibi nec ipsa.&rdquo;</p>
-<p style="text-align: right"><span
-class="smcap">Martial</span>.</p>
-</blockquote>
-<p>She was a very little dog with a very large soul, and all her
-soul looked out of her eyes.&nbsp; No one whom she loved could
-doubt <a name="page105"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-105</span>her love, when once her eyes had assumed their final
-expression.&nbsp; &ldquo;I am your friend for life,&rdquo; they
-said, &ldquo;and for death&mdash;and perhaps beyond
-it.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>In the frivolous days of her youth she had snapped at the
-knickerbockers of a chubby errand boy, and been promptly handed
-over for punishment.&nbsp; But she broke from the executioner
-under the indignity of the first stroke, and fled for refuge to
-her master&rsquo;s bedroom, from which no efforts could dislodge
-her.&nbsp; So, making the best of a bad business, he took to his
-bed too for company&rsquo;s sake.&nbsp; Judy was deeply touched
-by this practical sympathy, and it formed, I believe, the
-historic ground-work of their life-long friendship.</p>
-<p>Her pedigree was mixed.&nbsp; Her father was a white English
-terrier of unimpeachable breed, who lived a sober, self-contained
-existence, with no friend but the postman, whom he followed
-conscientiously on all his rounds of delivery.&nbsp; Her mother
-was the daughter of a &ldquo;King Charles,&rdquo; who had been
-woo&rsquo;d and won by a fox.&nbsp; Fair and frail, she was
-careless of the duties of life, and passed her time in eating and
-sleeping, sleeping and eating&mdash;she is sleeping and eating
-still, the latter with an <a name="page106"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 106</span>ever increasing appetite as the time
-at her disposal grows less.</p>
-<p>Judy repudiated <i>in toto</i> her maternal parentage, and
-reproduced all the best characteristics of her father, combined
-with a brilliant intelligence, and a far wider appreciation of
-the sympathies of life.&nbsp; Her minor peculiarities were
-borrowed from those of a cat.&nbsp; She sat like a cat, pounced
-like a cat, and washed her face like a cat, using either or both
-of her paws with a truly feline indifference.&nbsp; She could
-climb bushes, too, hanging on by her teeth, to the detriment of
-any unwary fledgling who presumed over confidently upon the
-limitation of natural gifts.</p>
-<p>Judy often came on a visit to Thorpe Hill, where she regularly
-spent an hour after dinner in digging at the root of a favourite
-beech tree, with the energy of a dog that is close on a
-prize.&nbsp; From which I inferred that she was a truffle-terrier
-in disguise, who would make all our fortunes, and set Matthew to
-dig in her place till he blasphemed against Judy and the truffles
-and me.&nbsp; But Matthew didn&rsquo;t put his heart into his
-work, or realise the fact that Judy&rsquo;s credit was at
-stake.&nbsp; And I always believed in her more than I did in
-him.&nbsp; Later <a name="page107"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-107</span>on she justified my confidence&mdash;not, I admit, by a
-discovery of truffles, but (better still) of a full-grown Roman
-or Anglo-Saxon, crouching among his household divinities.&nbsp;
-Judy was complacently proud of him as a very superior find, in
-spite of Matthew&rsquo;s sneer, &ldquo;Tweren&rsquo;t triffles,
-<i>I</i> knowed,&rdquo; and forthwith transferred her attentions
-to a neighbouring tree, under which, for all I know, others of
-his family may still be reposing.</p>
-<p>It is humbling to admit that she was wholly devoid of tricks,
-properly so called: partly because no one had troubled to teach
-her any, and partly, I think, because she accounted it a waste of
-time to try and acquire them.&nbsp; No one who studied her
-thoughtful little face could doubt that she held higher and more
-recondite theories of the responsibilities of life.</p>
-<p>It was probably the same reason that led her to pass her days
-in silence.&nbsp; Few objects she thought were worth the trouble
-involved of setting in motion the harsh and cumbrous method by
-which alone a dog converses&mdash;certainly not meat and drink,
-and therefore she declined to ask for them.&nbsp; The prospect of
-a walk, or the sight of a blackbird deriding <a
-name="page108"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 108</span>her from a
-twig, formed the only exceptions and proved the rule.&nbsp;
-Otherwise Judy would have been a canine Trappist.&nbsp; And her
-reticence was the more remarkable, seeing that her mother passed
-her time in futile and vociferous talking.&nbsp; Probable Judy
-regarded her as an object lesson and a warning.&nbsp; She was
-certainly disdainful of her noise.</p>
-<p>But she had two natural gifts: you may call them tricks if you
-will.&nbsp; She took her meals like a Christian, seated, or
-rather kneeling, at table beside her master, with her paws
-doubled under her knees.&nbsp; From this post of vantage she
-would watch the whole proceedings of dinner with the curiosity of
-an epicure.&nbsp; But dining on her own account offered little
-attraction.&nbsp; The position of her paws, it is true, suggested
-an attitude of devotion and gained for her the reputation of
-saying grace before meat.&nbsp; But her own diet was strictly
-limited to morsels of bread and biscuit, which she received with
-indifference, and apparently without gratitude.&nbsp; It may be
-that she dined in the night-time, as Amina did with the
-ghoul.&nbsp; If so, I hope she selected more desirable
-company.</p>
-<p>She had one other peculiarity.&nbsp; I cannot <a
-name="page109"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 109</span>call it an
-accomplishment, though it found her a number of admirers.&nbsp;
-After studying you intently with eyes that looked you through and
-through, as though she were appraising carefully your capacity
-for friendship, she would raise a delicate fur-capped paw, and
-lay it gently upon your nose&mdash;never anywhere else.&nbsp; It
-was a favour accorded to no stranger, never indeed till she had
-known you for months.&nbsp; For it was an oath of allegiance,
-emblematic as the solemn transfusion of blood, and renewable on
-occasion, if you cared to elicit it by staring her well out of
-countenance.&nbsp; Yet it was trying to be reminded of the fact
-when you were kneeling at prayers in full view of the servants,
-simply because Judy regarded your attitude and surroundings as a
-ceremonial specially designed for the re-enactment of her
-vow.</p>
-<p>Being a good friend, Judy was, by consequence, an equally good
-nurse.&nbsp; The attributes of the two are indeed strangely akin,
-if the latter be not a natural development of the former.&nbsp;
-For in sickness, as in sorrow, there are times when a sympathetic
-silence is a better restorative than more obtrusive
-remedies.&nbsp; Her master found it so when Judy <a
-name="page110"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 110</span>nursed him
-for four months at a stretch, sacrificing without a whine the
-most brilliant summer on record.&nbsp; Cleverer than many a nurse
-or doctor, she inferred his condition from certain changes of
-face and expression, unappreciable by their less intuitive
-faculties.&nbsp; Satisfied by a careful inspection that he was
-for the moment improving, she would fall back on the pillow with
-a sigh of satisfaction, till he was restless again, or till the
-time came&mdash;she knew it as well as did the nurse&mdash;when
-he had to be roused for his medicine.</p>
-<p>Judy was sorry, I fancy, on her own account when the days of
-her nursing were ended by her master&rsquo;s recovery.&nbsp; For
-she never disguised her real sentiments, whether creditable or
-the reverse, differing therein from the race of men, at whose
-feelings and motives one can only hazard a bewildered guess.</p>
-<p>Judy taught her master many things: among them how to win the
-love of her community.&nbsp; Jealousy, it seems, is the family
-failing.&nbsp; It is idle, she told him, to imagine that a few
-scraps of half-hearted affection can claim the devotion of a
-life.&nbsp; Careless, casual attentions may gratify an unexacting
-dog; <a name="page111"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-111</span>they can never win his heart&rsquo;s love.&nbsp; It is
-not for pity&rsquo;s sake, as some will tell you, that the
-mongrel of the streets is attracted by preference to the vagabond
-and outcast, who is as lonely as himself; rather, because he
-feels that here at any rate is a field unoccupied, a mine of
-sympathy that will royally repay for working.</p>
-<p>But let the master of his affection form other and more
-engrossing ties, and the love that he has given he will
-infallibly withdraw&mdash;not hastily, capriciously, or for the
-moment, but slowly, deliberately, and for ever&mdash;at what cost
-to himself is happily not ours to fathom.</p>
-<h4>III</h4>
-<blockquote><p>&ldquo;They sin who tell as love can
-die.&rdquo;</p>
-<p style="text-align: right"><span
-class="smcap">Southey</span>.</p>
-</blockquote>
-<p>Retrieved by Judy from a life of shame, her master had become
-a respectable character, and the year afterwards found work as a
-carpenter in an adjoining town, which compelled him to migrate
-from our village.</p>
-<p>How to dispose of his dog was the question.&nbsp; His lodgings
-were situated in a crowded street, <a name="page112"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 112</span>through which a continuous stream of
-the vehicles most dreaded by Judy, bicycles included, was passing
-literally by night and day.&nbsp; Garden he had none&mdash;only a
-small paved court-yard, tenanted in the main by children and
-cats, Judy&rsquo;s natural enemies, while the nearest field was
-two miles off.&nbsp; It was clearly impossible to transfer her to
-such surroundings.&nbsp; Her future was settled thus.&nbsp; She
-was left in his old rooms under special charge of the landlady,
-and every evening when his day&rsquo;s work was done, wet or
-fine, winter or summer, her master walked out to console her for
-the long hours of his absence.</p>
-<p>Such affection might have satisfied a reasonable dog.&nbsp;
-But Judy was distinctly unreasonable.&nbsp; She
-remembered&mdash;none better&mdash;how in former times she was
-with him all the day, and sometimes, when she willed to have it
-so, all the night as well.&nbsp; <i>Now</i> she was left to her
-own devices, and only caught a hurried glimpse of him in the
-evening when she was too sleepy to enjoy it.&nbsp; Besides, when
-he left her at the garden gate, she was strictly enjoined not to
-follow him&mdash;a prohibition which, while it whetted her
-curiosity, was also regarded as a direct insult, viewed in the <a
-name="page113"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 113</span>light of
-former days, and the unrestricted licence that had been accorded
-to her then.</p>
-<p>So Judy put on her considering cap.&nbsp; &ldquo;He
-can&rsquo;t go far,&rdquo; she said, &ldquo;else he could never
-leave me so late and get home in time for bed.&nbsp; And
-I&rsquo;m sure he doesn&rsquo;t drive or travel by train, else
-his boots would never be so muddy when he comes here at
-seven.&nbsp; So it&rsquo;s clear that he walks.&nbsp; And, in
-that case, a dog of the feeblest intelligence can follow in his
-track.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Accordingly, on a wet and windy evening, when bicyclists were
-not likely to be abroad, a little wistful-eyed face peered out
-into the road, growing bolder and bolder as her master receded
-from view, but ever and again hurriedly withdrawn whenever he
-turned upon her with a threatening hand.&nbsp; Then he vanished
-behind a hill, and Judy felt that her opportunity was come.&nbsp;
-But a mob of children ran by with sticks in their hands, and Judy
-slunk back in alarm.&nbsp; As soon as these had passed, she made
-another attempt.&nbsp; But horror of horrors! a bicyclist
-scorched by, and back she shrank again into the friendly
-shade.&nbsp; At last the road was empty and silent.&nbsp; The
-most careful inspection to the <a name="page114"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 114</span>right hand and to the left could
-find no sign of life, and the keenest ears with which ever dog
-was gifted failed to detect a sound.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Now or never,&rdquo; said Judy, and with tail erect,
-and her tiny snub nose well to ground on the scent, she rushed
-out into the night.</p>
-<p style="text-align: center">* * * * *</p>
-<p>An hour later a man was sitting down to his supper in the
-adjoining town, cursing the noise of the street in which he
-lived, with its wrangling women and screaming children, and cabs
-and drays coming home for the night, when a little dog whined and
-scraped at his door, and Judy rushed in, mud-stained and panting
-and panic-stricken with fear.</p>
-<p>It was probably the fright that killed her; it may have been
-some injury.&nbsp; Her master never knew.</p>
-<p>Only a brief friendship, measured by the standard of
-time.&nbsp; But perhaps what Southey says is true, and
-&ldquo;love is indestructible&rdquo;&mdash;even the love that
-bound these two.</p>
-<h3><a name="page117"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 117</span>Our
-Professor</h3>
-<p><span class="smcap">No</span>: he was no Professor in the
-recognised sense of the term; not a bit of it.&nbsp; Neither can
-I tell you how he acquired the title, unless it were in
-recognition of his original wit.&nbsp; He was simply my factotum
-or Man Friday, ready for shooting, fishing, game-keeping, or
-gardening, as the emergency of the moment required.&nbsp; He
-could neither read nor write.&nbsp; But what are trifling details
-like these in comparison with &rsquo;cuteness.&nbsp; Institute a
-Tripos for originality and native wit, and Matthew would even
-now, at the age of seventy, pass with high honours.&nbsp; But the
-examination must be strictly <i>viva voce</i>, and not allowed to
-wander into the region of conventional knowledge.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Matthew,&rdquo; I said, &ldquo;this isn&rsquo;t
-work,&rdquo; as I bestowed a kick upon an object that lay prone
-upon the lawn, when it ought to have been digging at our garden
-border.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;No, sir; but it&rsquo;s <i>preparin</i>&rsquo; for
-it,&rdquo; was the prompt reply.&nbsp; For myself, I was knocked
-<a name="page118"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 118</span>out of
-time, though I felt I was clearly within my rights.&nbsp; Fancy a
-man, roused from a peaceful siesta, being ready with a retort of
-such preternatural smartness!</p>
-<p>Unhappily Matthew had two failings, by which his career was
-handicapped.&nbsp; He was always lazy, and sometimes
-inebriate.&nbsp; Of the former he never repented so long as I
-knew him; the latter he was always repenting of and always
-repeating.&nbsp; And the stage of repentance was the more acute
-and the more grievous, at any rate to his neighbours.&nbsp; After
-a bout of drinking he would wander through the house with his
-hands on the pit of his stomach&mdash;as if the seat of his
-iniquity lay there&mdash;moaning in a dreary, exasperating way,
-&ldquo;The Lord forgie I; I&rsquo;ll never be drunk
-agin.&rdquo;&nbsp; &ldquo;How can you <i>expect</i> him
-to?&rdquo; said his wife, in a tone of the bitterest sarcasm.</p>
-<p>Every time he repented he took the pledge anew.&nbsp; The
-consequence was, his bosom was garnished with blue
-ribbons&mdash;his &ldquo;decorations&rdquo; he called
-them&mdash;for he never cast off one when he assumed another, but
-regarded them as an old soldier does his medals, traces of many a
-scar and many a conflict, in which, unhappily, he always
-fell.</p>
-<p><a name="page119"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-119</span>&ldquo;Decorations!&rdquo; said his wife, &ldquo;fine
-decorations!&nbsp; Call &rsquo;em rather sign-posts along the
-road to perdition.&nbsp; If you stick to &rsquo;em all when
-you&rsquo;re buried, they&rsquo;ll have no trouble in fixing
-<i>your</i> whereabouts.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Sometimes, when he was particularly exasperating, she would
-take the law in her own hands.&nbsp; &ldquo;My head&rsquo;s
-swimmin&rsquo; like a tee-total,&rdquo; Matthew would say
-pathetically.&nbsp; &ldquo;The very last thing it ought to swim
-like,&rdquo; retorted his wife, a woman with a ready wit,
-&ldquo;but I&rsquo;ll soon make it do so.&rdquo;&nbsp; And with
-that she would take him in her strong arms and give him a twist,
-as boys do when they give its first impetus to a top, after which
-she would wait patiently for the result.&nbsp; The result was, of
-course, collapse as soon as the primary impulse had run down;
-whereupon she would catch him up when he was on the point of
-falling, and bear him off to repentance and bed.</p>
-<p>Matthew&rsquo;s dialect was unique.&nbsp; I question whether a
-specialist could have reproduced it in its integrity, if only
-because it never reached finality, but was always in process of
-development.&nbsp; For myself, I had studied it for years, and
-could never get any nearer towards the discovery of its
-principles.&nbsp; Every day he was <a name="page120"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 120</span>startling you with some new
-combination, as a rule strictly ungrammatical, but often a
-reversion to some lost or more accurate phraseology.&nbsp; For
-example: &ldquo;Let I go,&rdquo; &ldquo;Would you like I to do
-it&rdquo;?&mdash;the latter a reproduction, as near as may be, of
-the Latin formula <i>visne ego faciam</i>?&nbsp; A still more
-perplexing characteristic in his speech was that he used many of
-his words in a variety of senses.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Cuss they nigglin&rsquo; weeds,&rdquo; he&rsquo;d say,
-and &ldquo;Cuss my nigglin&rsquo; toothache&rdquo;&mdash;phrases
-in which the adjective (or participle) carried an appreciable
-meaning, even when he didn&rsquo;t add the word
-&ldquo;darn&rsquo;d&rdquo; as an explanatory gloss.&nbsp; But
-when he transferred the phrase a minute afterwards to a splendid
-crop of potatoes, in which my inexperienced eye could detect no
-possible fault, I was all at sea again, and had to ask him to
-explain himself.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I means they&rsquo;m small,&rdquo; he answered, with a
-contemptuous sniff at my ignorance.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;But, Matthew, you told me just now that
-&lsquo;nigglin&rsquo;&rsquo; meant
-&lsquo;darn&rsquo;d.&rsquo;&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;And so it do&mdash;darn&rsquo;d small;&rdquo; looking
-at me as if he thought the epithet suited me as much as the
-potatoes.</p>
-<p><a name="page121"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 121</span>When
-Matthew had pneumonia and lay <i>in extremis</i>, his friends
-came round to console him with the assurance that he would die at
-the turn of the tide.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;What time, Matthew, do &rsquo;en begin to turn?&rdquo;
-they said.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;At seven o&rsquo;clock, ezzactly,&rdquo; whispered the
-inveterate old humorist.&nbsp; And it was not till the next
-morning they discovered that he had defrauded them of one whole
-hour of pleasant anticipation.</p>
-<p>In his sober moments Matthew was a brilliant story-teller (in
-both senses, I fear); though his brilliancy now is limited to
-occasional flashes of wit.&nbsp; The following is one of his best
-reminiscences.&nbsp; I have selected it out of many because I
-have since discovered that it was founded on fact.&nbsp; Not only
-was it authenticated by a clergyman in whose neighbourhood it was
-enacted, but it was told and re-told by one of the actors in the
-tragedy, though he had passed to a land from which no testimony
-is available long before I heard the story at second-hand from
-Matthew.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&rsquo;Twas in December, 1824, that it happened.&nbsp;
-So Joseph told I.&rdquo;&nbsp; (This, at any rate, was
-Matthew&rsquo;s recognised formula.)&nbsp; &ldquo;&rsquo;Tis true
-<a name="page122"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 122</span>he were
-a great liar, and I didn&rsquo;t take no count o&rsquo; the main
-o&rsquo; his tales; for he&rsquo;d tell you most anything, he
-would; &rsquo;specially if he see&rsquo;d the price of a glass of
-fourpenny for tellin&rsquo; it.&nbsp; But, in proof &rsquo;tis
-true, they&rsquo;d tell it to the childer at night time, when
-they was obstrepulous and wouldn&rsquo;t go to bed&mdash;just for
-a joke like, to fright &rsquo;em to sleep.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&rsquo;Twas in December, 1824; and not likely he were
-to forget it.&nbsp; For &rsquo;twas the year of the great gale
-(the &lsquo;Outrage&rsquo; they calls it hereabouts), when the
-sea broke clean over Rudge and washed away th&rsquo; old church,
-all but the chancel.&nbsp; Joseph never took kindly-like to the
-new church they built for &rsquo;en higher up i&rsquo; the
-valley, out o&rsquo; reach o&rsquo; the sea.&nbsp; &rsquo;Twas
-too spick and span, he said, to suit he&mdash;all white and
-glitterin&rsquo; like chalk&mdash;though &rsquo;twere built of
-the best Portland stone, and a sight prettier to my
-thinkin&rsquo; than the tumble down old barn that&rsquo;s all
-that&rsquo;s left o&rsquo; th&rsquo; old un.&nbsp; But the
-visitors and gentry, they takes after Joseph, and for one what
-goes to see the new church there&rsquo;s hundreds &rsquo;ll bring
-their vittles and sit and peant th&rsquo; old
-&rsquo;un&mdash;studyin&rsquo; all the tombstones, and
-what&rsquo;s writ on &rsquo;em&mdash;mostly shipwrecks it be, for
-I doubt if there&rsquo;s half-a-dozen <a name="page123"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 123</span>stones in th&rsquo; old grave-yard
-but what tells of someone or t&rsquo;other who was drownded at
-sea.&nbsp; In that one gale of &rsquo;24 &rsquo;twas thousands
-that perished, and all that was found on &rsquo;em Joseph buried
-there, when the sea gived back her dead, and he could get at his
-grave-yard.&nbsp; Though, to be sure, nought was left but the
-chancel, so you could scarce say as how, poor souls, they got a
-decent buryin&rsquo;.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Anyhow &rsquo;twas in that very month, just arter the
-&lsquo;Outrage,&rsquo; that one Price&mdash;a farmer he called
-hisself&mdash;was livin&rsquo; high up yonder among they hills
-that you can see faint-like in the distance, nigh agin they
-ricks.&nbsp; A bleak and dreary place it were at the best
-o&rsquo; times, and a job to get at it at all when a strong
-so&rsquo;wester were blowin&rsquo;.&nbsp; And most every November
-it <i>do</i> blow cruel strong along they high downs, wi&rsquo;
-no cover to speak on&rsquo;t &rsquo;cept scraps of fuz and
-heather, and a small thorn tree, may be, now and agin, wi&rsquo;
-&rsquo;is branches all leanin&rsquo; to the nor&rsquo;-east, as
-though &rsquo;twas an old man a holdin&rsquo; out his arms for
-shelter.&nbsp; And the road to Price&rsquo;s farm were no better
-nor a sheep run.&nbsp; A godless man Price were, as you&rsquo;d
-expect wi&rsquo; a man who lived so far from all we decent
-folks.&nbsp; And he never com&rsquo;d <a name="page124"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 124</span>nigh no church.&nbsp; Passon, he
-said, didn&rsquo;t suit he, and he weren&rsquo;t a goin&rsquo; to
-trapeze over hill and dale&mdash;not he&mdash;when chance
-&rsquo;twas he&rsquo;d find no passon and no service at
-t&rsquo;other end.&nbsp; And if passon went to he&mdash;as he did
-now and agin&mdash;he&rsquo;d find the door shut in his
-face.&nbsp; And for vittles&mdash;not a bite nor a sup of
-anything did he offer &rsquo;en, though passon was a rare
-&rsquo;un at that kind of work.&nbsp; Sunday after Sunday
-he&rsquo;d look in reg&rsquo;lar nigh about dinner time, and
-savour by his nose, he would, where there was a chance for
-&rsquo;en of summat enticin&rsquo;.&nbsp; Not but what
-&rsquo;twere bad for the childer where he <i>did</i> settle
-hisself, for &rsquo;twas little of the pudden was left for they
-when he&rsquo;d a&rsquo; had his turn on&rsquo;t.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Howsomever, &rsquo;twas there Price lived, wi&rsquo;
-hisself for his company.&nbsp; So no wonder strange tales got
-abroad about &rsquo;m.&nbsp; &rsquo;Twas said, though Joseph
-never gived no heed to &rsquo;t, that three wives had entered his
-doors, and never one of &rsquo;em had come out agin&mdash;no, not
-for buryin&rsquo;.&nbsp; And Joseph must have known on&rsquo;t if
-so be they had, seein&rsquo; he were clerk and sexton and
-grave-digger, let alone the head o&rsquo; the choir.&nbsp;
-&rsquo;Twas thought that he&rsquo;d buried &rsquo;em in another
-parish, more nigher to the house <a name="page125"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 125</span>he lived in, and wi&rsquo; a better
-road &rsquo;long which to carry &rsquo;em.&nbsp; But, Lord save
-us! tweren&rsquo;t nothin&rsquo; of the kind.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;One morning, early in December, &rsquo;twas nine
-o&rsquo; the clock, may be, or thereabouts&mdash;for Joseph had
-just been out to pen the sheep in the church-yard&mdash;a tall
-fine old genelman called at the door, and he knowed by his dress
-&rsquo;twere the Bishop.&nbsp; Not that he&rsquo;d cast eyes on
-&rsquo;en before, for our youngsters are confirmed a way off;
-there baint enough of them to claim a Bishop for
-theirselves.&nbsp; But he knowed &rsquo;twere the Bishop, what
-wi&rsquo; his gaiters, fittin&rsquo; as though they&rsquo;d
-grow&rsquo;d to his legs, and his broad hat as shiny as if
-you&rsquo;d smoothed it wi&rsquo; a flat iron.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&lsquo;Good morning to you,&rsquo; says he, as pleasant
-as anyone could say it.&nbsp; &lsquo;You be clerk of the parish,
-baint you?&rsquo;&nbsp; &lsquo;True, your wusshup,&rsquo; he
-replied.&nbsp; &lsquo;And sexton too&rsquo; says he.&nbsp;
-&lsquo;Right you be; and grave-digger and choir leader as
-well,&rsquo; for he thought it no sin to make the most to
-&rsquo;m of his preferments.&nbsp; &lsquo;Well,&rsquo; says he,
-&lsquo;I want you for a buryin&rsquo;&mdash;this night at eight
-o&rsquo;clock.&rsquo;&nbsp; &lsquo;A buryin&rsquo;, your
-wusshup,&rsquo; says he, &lsquo;and at night?&rsquo;&nbsp;
-&lsquo;Yes, and three on &rsquo;em,&rsquo; says he, &lsquo;all in
-one grave.&rsquo;&nbsp; &lsquo;Well, it <i>do</i> sound <a
-name="page126"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 126</span>mortial
-strange, your wusshup, but &rsquo;tis you that says it, and not
-I.&rsquo;&nbsp; &lsquo;You&rsquo;d better go at once,&rsquo; he
-says, &lsquo;and begin the grave, for you won&rsquo;t have none
-too much time to spare on&rsquo;t, &rsquo;specially as I want it
-done on the quiet, so to speak, and you mustn&rsquo;t take no
-hand to help you, and meet me punctually as ever is at eight
-o&rsquo;clock at Farmer Price&rsquo;s, up along the hill, and
-bring a lantern and the parish hand-bier &rsquo;long wi&rsquo;
-&rsquo;e.&rsquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;He hadn&rsquo;t much time to ponder on it, as you may
-suppose, with that grave to dig, and no one to gi&rsquo; &rsquo;m
-a helpin&rsquo; hand.&nbsp; And mortial hard work he found it,
-too, for the frost set in early that year, and the ground that
-hard that, young and lusty as he were, he found it a job to get
-the pick-axe into &rsquo;en.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Howsomever he did get &rsquo;en done, and at eight
-o&rsquo;clock he was at Farmer Price&rsquo;s door, and
-&rsquo;twas opened to &rsquo;en by the Bishop hisself.&nbsp; And
-so, hand in hand as you may say, he and the Bishop, they went
-into the kitchen.&nbsp; And there right facin&rsquo;
-&rsquo;em&mdash;packed up agin the wall like so many old
-grandfeyther clocks&mdash;stood three coffins, with a piece of
-glass let in &rsquo;em to show the face, and a dead woman in
-each!</p>
-<p><a name="page127"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-127</span>&ldquo;Close handy they were to &rsquo;m when he took
-his meals, or smoked his pipe; and when he felt a bit lonesome
-(so he told Joseph) he&rsquo;d go up to &rsquo;em and ask
-&rsquo;em how they did, and if they felt comferable.&nbsp; And
-fresh as peant they were, too: only a bit shrivelled, like as
-&rsquo;twere an apple in April.&nbsp; Perhaps &rsquo;twas the
-heat of the kitchen, or may be some stuff he&rsquo;d put in along
-wi&rsquo; &rsquo;em; anyhow you could see their faces right
-enough and tell they was women.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;&lsquo;Take &rsquo;em down,&rsquo; says the Bishop;
-&lsquo;Farmer Price&rsquo;ll lend &rsquo;e a helpin&rsquo; hand:
-and we&rsquo;ve none too much time to get &rsquo;em back to the
-churchyard and bury &rsquo;em.&rsquo;&nbsp; Joseph hisself could
-scarce do nought but stare at &rsquo;em.&nbsp; To think that that
-godless man had kep&rsquo; &rsquo;em there&mdash;one on &rsquo;em
-for nigh on ten years&mdash;never thinkin&rsquo;, not he, that he
-was keepin&rsquo; &rsquo;em tied hand and foot to this world,
-with never no chance of a resurrection till he took it into his
-wicked head to let &rsquo;em go.&nbsp; And there they&rsquo;d
-a&rsquo; been for ten years longer&mdash;for just so long he
-lived&mdash;if Bishop hisself hadn&rsquo;t got wind on&rsquo;t
-and come down right away to bury &rsquo;em.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Anyhow they <i>did</i> get decent burial&mdash;the <a
-name="page128"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 128</span>three on
-&rsquo;em&mdash;at last.&nbsp; For they had Bishop, and Joseph
-and Farmer Price; though I don&rsquo;t take no count o&rsquo; he,
-&rsquo;cept that he helped to lower &rsquo;em and fill in the
-grave.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;But Joseph were right glad, he were&mdash;and so he
-told I&mdash;to see the rare tug he had in draggin&rsquo; they
-three dead women up hill and down hill &rsquo;cross to the
-church-yard.&nbsp; For Joseph never gived &rsquo;en no
-helpin&rsquo; hand&mdash;you may take your oath
-on&rsquo;t&mdash;though he did make a show of pushin&rsquo; at
-the bier whensomever the Bishop looked his way.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Didn&rsquo;t no one never hear on&rsquo;t?&nbsp; Yes,
-they did.&nbsp; But they didn&rsquo;t take no count
-on&rsquo;t.&nbsp; Our people baint over wise about religion, and
-things were done in those days that&rsquo;d make a rare
-potheration now.&nbsp; Besides, you see, Bishop were there, and
-he made a sight o&rsquo; difference.&nbsp; &rsquo;Twas a rare
-fine buryin&rsquo;, people thought, wi&rsquo; a Bishop to put you
-unnerground; though &rsquo;tis true he hadn&rsquo;t his fine
-gran&rsquo; toggery on, and his girt white sleeves.&rdquo;</p>
-
-<div class="gapspace">&nbsp;</div>
-<p>The actors in our humble drama are dead and gone.&nbsp; The
-Bishop and Price and Joseph have, each in his turn, been followed
-to the grave, only with less eccentric rites.&nbsp; But the <a
-name="page129"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 129</span>story of
-the farmer&rsquo;s &ldquo;Happy Family&rdquo; still lingers in
-the village, and is told and re-told round many a cottage hearth
-under the quaint but significant title of &ldquo;Price&rsquo;s
-Menagerie.&rdquo;</p>
-
-<div class="gapspace">&nbsp;</div>
-<p>P.S.&nbsp; The &ldquo;Professor&rdquo; himself came round
-to-day&mdash;&ldquo;for a pipe of baccy, Sir, if you have such a
-thing about you&rdquo;&mdash;so I have utilised him to correct
-his own proof sheets.&nbsp; &ldquo;There baint nothin&rsquo;
-wrong in &rsquo;em, <i>Master</i> Fred (this to a man of sixty!),
-so fur as I sees.&nbsp; Only you says &lsquo;gived&rsquo; where I
-says &lsquo;gi&rsquo;ed.&rsquo;&nbsp; But taint no odds.&nbsp;
-Like enough they&rsquo;ll guess what you means whatsomever you
-writes down.&rdquo;&nbsp; Thanks, Matthew, for your tribute to my
-clearness of expression.</p>
-<h3><a name="page133"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 133</span>The
-Cruel Crawling Foam</h3>
-<p><span class="smcap">It</span> was a touch of the old
-wilfulness in Ronald, which cost him dear, and saddened all his
-future life.</p>
-<p>A windy storm-swept sky, though the wind was only playing with
-the sea as yet.&nbsp; Still, it met us, as we went down to the
-shore, with a drift of sand that stung the face like
-pin-pricks&mdash;trying, one might easily fancy, to warn us back
-from our foolhardy enterprise.</p>
-<p>A painter would have needed only his blends of grey to paint
-the scene, till we came upon it, and added, I suppose, a patch of
-colour.&nbsp; Wiser people than ourselves kept quietly indoors;
-and the sand, the sea, the gulls, and the hurrying scud could all
-have been rendered in varying shades of grey.&nbsp; It is, to me,
-the most fascinating hue that the changeful sea can wear.&nbsp;
-One great artist, whose sketches are the glory of Girton College,
-knew it well.&nbsp; <a name="page134"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 134</span>With an unerring eye for this sad
-unity of tone, she admits no faintest touch of colour into her
-cold grey wastes of sea and sky.</p>
-<p>It was a risky and foolhardy attempt on the part of Ronald,
-and one that he has bitterly repented of, to launch a boat that
-afternoon.&nbsp; I can never quite forgive him for the sorrow it
-was to bring on us.&nbsp; But his wife would have it so.&nbsp; It
-was her greatest enjoyment to put out to sea on such a day.&nbsp;
-A calm aimless drift, in life or on the sea, was out of harmony
-with her bright and nerve-wrought soul.</p>
-<p>Where Ronald was still more at fault was in the choice of our
-third hand.&nbsp; True, we had a fair amount of experience
-between us.&nbsp; But, with a strong south-wester to fight
-against, weight and strength are the two things needed, and will
-often win through a gale when experience is powerless.&nbsp;
-Ronald, however, was in one of his obstinate moods.&nbsp; He
-would take Oswald or no one, and his wife said ditto.&nbsp; Now
-Oswald was a lad of eighteen: a good seaman, I grant, but quite
-unequal to the work we had in view.&nbsp; However, he was the son
-of Ronald&rsquo;s favourite gardener, and had been his
-wife&rsquo;s pet scholar at her Sunday school, since which time
-he had been her <a name="page135"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-135</span>devoted slave, making himself useful about the house,
-and looking after her specialities in the garden and
-conservatory.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Isn&rsquo;t that boat too big for us, Oswald?&nbsp;
-Remember, there are only two of us to handle it, for
-Ronald&rsquo;s ill, and can&rsquo;t be reckoned on for
-much.&nbsp; Unless I&rsquo;m mistaken, it intends to blow harder
-than this before it&rsquo;s done.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Yes, sir.&nbsp; You&rsquo;re right in a way.&nbsp; But
-we&rsquo;ve got the winch to lower and haul her up with.&nbsp;
-And once at sea she&rsquo;ll be a deal safer and stauncher than
-that one,&rdquo; pointing to a lean, wall-sided thing that was
-our only alternative.&nbsp; &ldquo;Besides, we&rsquo;ll set very
-little canvas; indeed, to all appearance we shan&rsquo;t want
-much.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>What a sail we had that afternoon!&nbsp; I think that I, who
-had countenanced it least, enjoyed it most.&nbsp; For Ronald was
-only just recovering from influenza, and certainly not up to a
-rough and tumble experience of this sort.&nbsp; And Oswald, too,
-for a lad of his spirits, was strangely depressed.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;Never felt like it before,&rdquo; he said, &ldquo;and I
-shall be thankful when we&rsquo;re safe on shore again.&nbsp; Our
-old people at home would say that I was walking over my grave, or
-some folly of the kind.&nbsp; <a name="page136"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 136</span>But that can&rsquo;t be out
-here,&rdquo; he added, with a poor attempt to laugh it off.</p>
-<p>First of all we took her along under the lee of the shore,
-where we were able to carry a fair amount of sail, and when we
-had worked her well round the bay we put her head straight for
-the south-east, and, with the wind on our beam, raced out into
-the open sea.</p>
-<p>It was a longer and heavier business to work her back again,
-with the wind right in our teeth, and freshening steadily as the
-evening wore on.&nbsp; Fortunately for us it had only blown
-fitfully, and without much weight in it till now.&nbsp; It was
-still &ldquo;making up its mind,&rdquo; as sailors say, whether
-it would blow or not.&nbsp; But as we were beaching her in a deep
-sandy cove it had finished apparently with indecision, and began
-to blow in earnest.</p>
-<p>Just as we had landed, and Oswald was preparing to follow us,
-a terrific squall burst full upon the boat, which lay beam on to
-it.&nbsp; Relieved of her last weight, as Oswald stepped on
-shore, she yielded to the pressure, and, heeling over on her
-side, pinned him to the ground.&nbsp; In a moment the horror of
-it broke upon us.&nbsp; What could we do, the two of us, even if
-Ronald hadn&rsquo;t been shorn of half his <a
-name="page137"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-137</span>strength?&nbsp; It would have taken ten men to pull her
-over in the face of the gale that was blowing.&nbsp; And the tide
-was rising rapidly.&nbsp; It was idle to look for help.&nbsp; We
-had beached her in a quiet sequestered cove, used only by
-ourselves.&nbsp; But it was closer to Thorpe Hill than the
-regular landing stage, and, after a hard day&rsquo;s work, saved
-us a tedious beat along the coast when the wind was blowing from
-its present quarter.&nbsp; The high land above us was private
-property, with no right of way, and on a day like this, for it
-was beginning to rain, would be lonely as a desert.</p>
-<p>Our first thought was of the winch.&nbsp; We had had one
-fitted up under the cliff in order to save labour in launching
-and beaching the boat.&nbsp; But, even if it were possible, we
-had no time nor knowledge how to alter the gear so as to utilise
-the leverage for righting her.&nbsp; No doubt the incoming tide
-would help us later on, but its help, when it did come, would
-come too late.&nbsp; Yet to do anything was better than to do
-nothing.&nbsp; So we took the balers out of the boat, and,
-kneeling down beside Oswald, attempted the hopeless task of
-freeing him by scooping out the sand on <a
-name="page138"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 138</span>either
-side, till he begged us to desist, as the boat only fell over
-more heavily, and imprisoned him still deeper in the yielding
-sand.</p>
-<p>And all the time that we were working, Kingsley&rsquo;s
-&ldquo;cruel, crawling foam&rdquo; beat persistently upon my
-brain, maddening me with its ghastly congruity.&nbsp; And yet
-&ldquo;cruel and crawling&rdquo; it was not.&nbsp; Quicker it
-could scarcely have been, and its quickest was (I saw) its
-kindliest.&nbsp; Already it was playing with the lad&rsquo;s
-hair, though his mistress, careless of the risk she ran, knelt
-down beside him and supported his head in her arms.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Pray for me,&rdquo; he said.</p>
-<p>She whispered the words in his ear, though if she had shouted
-them with all her strength they would not have reached us on the
-other side of the boat, where, with a hope that was hopeless now,
-we were straining ourselves to no purpose in the attempt to right
-her.</p>
-<p>But Oswald was satisfied.&nbsp; A look of repose and even
-comfort settled upon his face before the last words came.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Thank you,&rdquo; he said, &ldquo;you have made death
-easy for me.&nbsp; And you have done so <a
-name="page139"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 139</span>at the risk
-of your own life.&nbsp; Tell them at home I was not
-afraid.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>She bent down and kissed his forehead.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;And now&mdash;cover my face.&rdquo;</p>
-<h3><a name="page143"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 143</span>Our
-Queen</h3>
-<blockquote><p>&ldquo;And the stars&mdash;they shall fall, and
-the Angels go weeping,<br />
-Ere I cease to love her, my Queen, my Queen.&rdquo;</p>
-</blockquote>
-<h4>I</h4>
-<p>&ldquo;<span class="smcap">Our</span> Queen&rdquo; she was to
-me and Ronald, ever since we first met her at Broadwater, and
-Ronald had dared to love her.&nbsp; And now that she is gone from
-us there is little fear that her title will ever be
-questioned.&nbsp; Neither he nor I need any coarser picture of
-her than that engraved by memory.&nbsp; But for others&mdash;for
-those who knew her little, or less well&mdash;let me try to call
-her back in clearer and less shadowy outline.</p>
-<p>A woman this, to whom you gave your confidence with your first
-greeting, and never afterwards withdrew it.</p>
-<p>Not the face to tempt an artist by its regularity of feature
-or beauty of colouring.&nbsp; Madonna-like some would call it,
-and so it was in sweet and loving trustfulness, but far too
-mobile and human, too full of interest <a
-name="page144"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 144</span>and human
-sympathy to suggest the reposeful placidity of conventional
-art.&nbsp; Instinct, rather, with the life and animation that
-inspires the best work of Gainsborough and Reynolds, and frank
-with a simplicity that is careless of its surroundings, and
-therefore conquers them.&nbsp; The centre of her interest was
-home; thence it radiated outwards.&nbsp; From her family to her
-friends, from friends to neighbours, her influence passed in ever
-widening circles like a ripple that, stirred in the centre of
-some pool, travels to the extremest edge.</p>
-<p>Nature creates not many such.&nbsp; Happy the man who has
-known and honoured one.</p>
-<p>Over and over again I have tried to unravel the secret of her
-inexplicable charm.&nbsp; Seating myself in some sequestered
-nook, where Ronald himself would find it hard to discover me, it
-has been my pleasure, through a long evening&rsquo;s
-entertainment, to watch her in every graceful word and greeting
-that she exchanged with her friends.&nbsp; It was a satisfaction
-even to see her walk across the room&mdash;a lost art (they tell
-us) in these hurried and inartistic days.&nbsp; I tried to learn
-the mystery from her conversation.&nbsp; The words told nothing,
-but the tone was less secretive; and, after all, how much more
-the <a name="page145"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 145</span>tone
-always does tell of the spirit of the speaker than the
-conventional coinage we have devised in words.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;And how&rsquo;s that sweet little bairn of yours, Mrs.
-Macpherson?&rdquo;&nbsp; (She was half Scotch by birth, and now
-and again her descent betrayed itself in a pretty mannerism of
-word and accent.)&nbsp; &ldquo;I lost my heart to her, I did,
-when I met her yesterday on the Parade with her
-nurse.&rdquo;&nbsp; A greeting old as time can make it, but new,
-entirely new, in the sympathy she threw into it right from the
-depths of her heart.&nbsp; No one could hear her and not believe;
-and Mrs. Macpherson was won.&nbsp; Sometimes, almost awestruck, I
-asked myself, Is there, <i>can</i> there be a human nature so
-nearly approximating to the divine as to possess the verity of
-universal sympathy?&nbsp; And, knowing this woman so nearly and
-so closely as I knew her, it was impossible, I found, to answer
-the question with a negative.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;If you are in doubt, play trumps&rdquo; used to be the
-rule in whist, and &ldquo;If you are in doubt, wear black&rdquo;
-would be my advice to a lady in difficulty about her dress.&nbsp;
-And Ronald&rsquo;s wife suggested it.</p>
-<p>To-night she was looking her best&mdash;in <a
-name="page146"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 146</span>black, and
-silver and diamonds.&nbsp; She and Ronald were giving their
-largest ball of the season, due regularly at this period of the
-year, and every family of standing for miles round had sent its
-representative.&nbsp; For a wonder I hadn&rsquo;t been watching
-her that evening, and was surprised to feel her gentle touch on
-my arm.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Come with me, Fred,&rdquo; she said, &ldquo;I want you
-for a few minutes upstairs.&nbsp; Poor old nurse is dying.&nbsp;
-We&rsquo;ve been expecting it, you know, at any moment for some
-weeks past.&nbsp; But I wish it hadn&rsquo;t come to-night.&nbsp;
-It looks so heartless to have all these people about us; and yet
-I know she wouldn&rsquo;t have had the ball put off.&nbsp; She
-was the last person ever to think of self.&nbsp; Still it
-<i>does</i> look unfeeling to go to her straight from all this
-light and merriment.&nbsp; Yet I feel it less than most
-would.&nbsp; Life and death seem to me so closely mixed, that
-wherever one is there you may expect the other.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Of course I&rsquo;ll come.&nbsp; But oughtn&rsquo;t
-Ronald to be there too?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Yes; but, you see, we cannot both be spared.&nbsp; He
-must be here to make excuses for me if I am missed.&nbsp; I
-don&rsquo;t want to spoil <a name="page147"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 147</span>the pleasure of all these young
-things during their one great evening of the year.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;But you&rsquo;ll change your dress?&rdquo; I said
-aghast.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;No, I think not.&nbsp; If death is always so very near
-to us, it hardly seems worth while to change one&rsquo;s dress to
-meet him.&nbsp; Besides, I have a special reason in this
-case.&nbsp; All her life long dear old nurse has liked to see me
-in my ball-room dress, and I&rsquo;m sure she will
-to-night.&nbsp; She said it gave her an idea of what the angels
-were like better than did her Bible.&nbsp; And if it could give
-her one comforting thought to help her, I&rsquo;d have dressed on
-purpose as I am.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>There was little need for Ronald to make excuses for our
-absence.&nbsp; The old woman was dying when they called us.&nbsp;
-But her eyes opened and brightened as she saw her mistress.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;What! an angel?&rdquo; she cried.&nbsp; &ldquo;No, but
-my own dear mistress, the best angel of them all, and dressed as
-I would have her&mdash;not yet in her robe of white&mdash;not
-yet.&rdquo;&nbsp; And, with her mistress&rsquo; face pressed
-close to hers, and the diamonds and silver rippling and
-shimmering about her pillow, our old nurse died as she would have
-chosen.&nbsp; Half-an-hour later &ldquo;Our <a
-name="page148"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-148</span>Queen&rdquo; was back in the ball-room: bright, and, to
-all appearance, cheerful as the rest.&nbsp; None that saw her
-would have guessed the scene from which she had come back to
-them.&nbsp; &ldquo;Heartless&rdquo; they would have said, and
-will say so still.&nbsp; But Ronald and I knew better.&nbsp; Her
-heart was in the nursery up stairs.</p>
-<p>She wears her white robe now.&nbsp; But, in reverence be it
-written, I would fain see her come to welcome me, clothed, as she
-was clothed that night, in black and silver and diamonds.</p>
-<h4>II</h4>
-<p>When her own time came, as it did soon after, she met death
-with the same fearless, friendly courage.&nbsp; Her thoughts were
-wholly for those who were to stay, and she was even playful in
-urging upon me never to leave Ronald and the children, but learn
-to &ldquo;take her place.&rdquo;&nbsp; I own I was troubled at
-times by what seemed almost levity in the face of death, till I
-began by degrees to realise her point of view.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;I think it will be a very short distance,&rdquo; she
-said, &ldquo;perhaps into another room, perhaps not even so far
-as that; and the time (to me, at any rate) will certainly seem
-short&mdash;no <a name="page149"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-149</span>longer than the night of sleep which separates us from
-our loved ones till the morning.&rdquo;&nbsp; And of the future
-she had no fear.&nbsp; &ldquo;Nothing,&rdquo; she said,
-&ldquo;could persuade me that the light which has been fanned and
-quickened here will be extinguished for ever by the incident we
-call death.&nbsp; The jest would be too horribly, inconceivably
-malicious.&nbsp; Yet our choice lies between this and the
-crowning impossibility of a self-created world.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Not thoughtlessly, but in the hope of finding a standing
-ground for myself, I would ask her sometimes if she had no
-misgivings regarding the re-existence of the body, and mutual
-recognition, and the endless difficulties that centre round the
-subject.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;None,&rdquo; she answered, &ldquo;none.&nbsp; Why
-should I?&nbsp; Look at the natural world.&nbsp; I know that
-space must be either limited or limitless; but can I form a
-conception of either alternative?&nbsp; Yet the problem may be
-simplicity itself to some larger mind than ours.&nbsp; So why
-trouble myself about difficulties which may be easier of solution
-still to those who hold the key?&nbsp; And you think it hard, I
-know&mdash;you have often said so&mdash;that many should die, as
-we know they must, without a friend on earth to <a
-name="page150"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 150</span>whom they
-can look forward for a welcome when they reach the further
-shore.&nbsp; To me, I confess, it seems quite the contrary.&nbsp;
-Surely the burst of welcome will be greater in their ears than in
-ours, who have lived surrounded by friends, and never known the
-dearth of sympathy.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>And every difficulty, as I raised it, she met with the same
-calm, unquestioning certainty.</p>
-<p>She died, as she had lived, in ministering to others.&nbsp;
-Oswald&rsquo;s death was the first blow.&nbsp; From the exposure
-and the physical effects she soon recovered&mdash;sooner than we
-expected, considering her frail and uncertain hold on life.&nbsp;
-But the horror of it was always with her, especially the feeling
-that it was she who had suggested the fatal experiment.&nbsp;
-Ever and again, as the subject was referred to, I could see her
-shuddering at the reminiscence, blaming herself with what was
-surely the only reproach that can have harassed her bright and
-blameless conscience.&nbsp; And the remembrance was still upon
-her when her two children sickened with the scarlet fever.&nbsp;
-Considering her weak state, and consequent liability to
-infection, the doctor had strictly forbidden her to enter their
-room.&nbsp; &ldquo;I can make no <a name="page151"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 151</span>promises,&rdquo; she said; &ldquo;if
-they want me I must go.&nbsp; Till then I will obey your
-orders.&nbsp; We are told to give up father and mother, and
-perhaps oneself for one&rsquo;s husband, but our children, I
-think, have a prior claim to all.&rdquo;&nbsp; And so she watched
-and waited at their door, stealing along the corridor in her robe
-of white at all hours of the night, listening and listening to
-hear if a summons came.</p>
-<p>One night, unhappily, it came&mdash;a summons she was
-powerless to resist.&nbsp; The elder child was delirious, and she
-heard it moaning piteously, &ldquo;Mother, mother, why
-don&rsquo;t you come to me?&rdquo;&nbsp; Without a moment&rsquo;s
-hesitation she had entered the room, signing her own
-death-warrant in the act.</p>
-<p>She did not linger long in dying; lingering was little in her
-way.&nbsp; On a grey morning in October, just ten days after she
-was taken ill, the gun which welcomes sunrise from the
-signal-station on the pier echoed like a call.&nbsp; She opened
-her eyes to greet us, and with the diamonds flickering again
-about her head&mdash;only they were sunbeams now&mdash;she passed
-to that &ldquo;larger life&rdquo; of which she, if anyone, held
-the key.</p>
-<p style="text-align: center">&ldquo;<b>Lest we
-forget</b>.&rdquo;</p>
-
-<div class="gapshortline">&nbsp;</div>
-<h2><a name="page155"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-155</span>Bindo A Sketch</h2>
-<h3>I</h3>
-<p><span class="smcap">The</span> last notes of &ldquo;Jerusalem,
-Jerusalem!&rdquo;&mdash;sung as no other boy on earth could sing
-it&mdash;had just died away in a storm of applause.&nbsp; Now and
-again the surge of voices reached the green-room in a muffled
-roar, where Eric was protesting to the Manager that nothing would
-induce him to sing another note that night.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;They&rsquo;ve had four songs,&rdquo; he said, &ldquo;what
-on earth do they want more?&nbsp; As it is, I shall break my
-voice some day in that confounded hall.&nbsp; It was never meant
-for a boy to sing in&mdash;all wood and iron and glass&mdash;with
-nothing to help you or carry the voice.&nbsp; No!&nbsp; I
-<i>won&rsquo;t</i> sing, that&rsquo;s flat; tell them I&rsquo;m
-ill, or my mother&rsquo;s come for me, or anything you
-like.&nbsp; Sing again, I <i>won&rsquo;t</i>.&rdquo;&nbsp;
-&ldquo;Yes, I&rsquo;ll tell them your mother&rsquo;s come for
-you,&rdquo; said the Manager with a laugh, &ldquo;but, remember,
-they&rsquo;ll be clamouring for &lsquo;A boy&rsquo;s best friend
-is his mother&rsquo; if I do.&rdquo;</p>
-<p><a name="page156"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 156</span>As if
-to confirm Eric in his determination there came a knock at the
-door, and a boyish face peeped <i>in</i>.&nbsp; &ldquo;Sorry,
-Hudson, if I&rsquo;ve interrupted business, but they told me the
-show was over, and I want Eric for supper.&nbsp; By the way, you
-can come too, if you like.&nbsp; Andrews and Thorne are there
-already, and have finished supper by this time, I expect.&nbsp;
-But there&rsquo;ll be some champagne and lobster-salad left for
-us.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Thanks, Lord Eastonville, I&rsquo;ll come with
-pleasure, but I must first go and quiet these lunatics.&nbsp;
-They&rsquo;re roaring for Eric like a lioness robbed of her
-cub.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Ten minutes later the three were entering a room in Hope
-Square, so rich in its decorations of china, tapestries, and
-antique bronzes that it might have been transported by a slave of
-the lamp direct from Aladdin&rsquo;s palace, or have done duty
-for a catalogue of Roman luxury: &ldquo;The merchandise of gold
-and silver and precious stones and of pearls and fine linen and
-silk and scarlet and all manner of vessels of most precious wood
-and of brass and iron and marble and frankincense, and souls of
-men.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>By the fire (for it was early in May) stood an oval table,
-covered with old glass and silver <a name="page157"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 157</span>in pleasant confusion.&nbsp; The
-fruit&mdash;a distinctive feature&mdash;piled artistically in a
-ribbed basket of the Queen Anne period, not disposed at the rate
-of four apples here, flanked by four oranges there, after the
-fashion dear to the soul of the British householder when he calls
-his neighbours to a feast.</p>
-<p>The three new comers were greeted with a round of applause as
-hearty in spirit as the cheer which had followed them from the
-hall.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Why, Bindo, you&rsquo;ve the very boy we&rsquo;ve been
-longing for.&nbsp; We&rsquo;ve finished supper and used up our
-talk, and it&rsquo;s too late for a theatre and too early for
-bed.&nbsp; Singing will just fill the interval before
-cards.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Not a note from me, Thorne, till I&rsquo;ve had some
-supper.&nbsp; I must clear my throat from the dust of the hall
-with champagne first.&nbsp; Why you&rsquo;re as bad as the
-audience, who think that songs can be pumped out of one as easily
-as you can get squeaks out of a gutta-percha doll.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>While Eric is better employed we can introduce the party.</p>
-<p>Lord Eastonville, who owns the rooms, is a thorough gentleman
-of the well-bred English <a name="page158"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 158</span>type, with brains enough to carry
-him safely through life&mdash;good-looking, generous, easy-going
-to a fault, and twenty-five.&nbsp; Too fond, it may be, of taking
-his ease, as all well-to-do Englishmen are now-a-days, but a man
-who could fight for his country, as in the old Crimean times,
-when war galvanised our lethargy into life.&nbsp; War is no
-unmixed evil; it carries with it a blessing in disguise.&nbsp; It
-is the scare and shadow of war that is the curse without the
-blessing.</p>
-<p>Thorne, as a minute in his company would prove to you, is a
-hard-headed journalist; witty, and an excellent talker; facile,
-of course, with his pen, and ready to turn out a new theology as
-easily as he could write an article on the last discovered
-butterfly or grub.</p>
-<p>Andrews is a graduate of London University, spending with
-Eastonville the remnant of a holiday.&nbsp; Fairly humorous and
-incorrigibly deaf&mdash;never more so (his friends say) than when
-a subject bores him&mdash;he is himself a trifle of a bore
-to-night.&nbsp; In his latest translation of Vergil
-&ldquo;ploughed with a team&rdquo; has become in the hands of the
-printers &ldquo;ploughed with steam,&rdquo; an anachronism that
-pleases him mightily.</p>
-<p><a name="page159"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 159</span>He is
-also sorely exercised over the term &ldquo;Prolegomena,&rdquo;
-used in connexion with our classical editions.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;Either the word&rsquo;s bad Greek,&rdquo; he says,
-&ldquo;or else it&rsquo;s rank nonsense.&nbsp; &lsquo;Things that
-are being said before&rsquo; means just nothing at all.&nbsp;
-What they want is a Perfect, &lsquo;things that have been said
-beforehand,&rsquo; which is not only more grammatical, but also
-(he adds with a chuckle) much more descriptive of prefaces in
-general.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Well, I don&rsquo;t understand Greek and Latin,&rdquo;
-said Thorne, &ldquo;so suppose we talk English.&nbsp; I have been
-studying you carefully, Bindo, and have come to the conclusion
-that you look highly picturesque among all that fruit and
-flowers.&nbsp; I wonder what made you so good looking; was your
-father particularly lovely?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Neither my father nor my mother, Thorne, though she
-<i>has</i> contrived to marry again; and the consequence is
-I&rsquo;m not so well looked after as I ought to have been, else
-I shouldn&rsquo;t be here to-night.&nbsp; Fate, I think, must
-have made a judicious blend of the best points in his face with
-the best features of hers.&nbsp; And the result is me.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;First class grammar, Bindo.&nbsp; She must <a
-name="page160"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 160</span>have sent
-you to a good school at any rate.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Anything else to ask, old man?&nbsp; You seem to be in
-an inquisitive mood to-night.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Yes; who taught you to sing?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Le bon Dieu, I suppose, as Patti said.&nbsp; I had only
-the training of a country choir boy.&nbsp; By the by, my
-master&rsquo;s name was Thorne, a matter full of interest to
-you.&nbsp; I believe I sang by intuition.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;A Hamiltonian philosopher,&rdquo; muttered Andrews,
-&ldquo;only he has developed theory into practice.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Anyhow, when your voice goes I shall put on
-mourning,&rdquo; said Eastonville, &ldquo;not black, for I
-don&rsquo;t believe in it.&nbsp; Purple&rsquo;s the farthest I
-can go.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;You may put on white or canary yellow, like a heathen
-Chinee, for all I care.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Don&rsquo;t lose your temper, Bindo.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>And Eric, <i>alias</i> Bindo, how shall I describe him?&nbsp;
-A fair boy, delicate looking, but with lungs that can fill the
-biggest concert room in London, with wavy golden hair flung back
-on his forehead, and the long dreamy eyes so dear to the soul of
-Raphael.&nbsp; In fact, it was Raphael&rsquo;s picture of Bindo
-Altoviti (long <a name="page161"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-161</span>supposed to be a portrait of the painter) that had won
-him his name.&nbsp; Framed in the cabin window of a Bournemouth
-steamer (excursion boats in these days do not condescend to port
-holes), his arms resting on the sill, the resemblance had struck
-me irresistibly.&nbsp; From that day he became
-&ldquo;Bindo&rdquo; to all of us, and would scarcely have
-recognised an appeal to him as &ldquo;Eric,&rdquo; if we had
-lighted on the name by accident.&nbsp; His hair perhaps was one
-of his most telling points.&nbsp; It reflected under strong
-lights brilliant flakes of gold, isolated like the motes that are
-suspended in certain liqueurs.</p>
-<p>But after all it was his manner that took so much with all his
-friends.&nbsp; He had the timid deprecating caress of a
-half-tamed animal, like Hawthorne&rsquo;s Donatello before he had
-won himself a soul.&nbsp; Alas! poor Bindo was hardly allowed
-time to win it.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;And what was the show like to-night, Bindo?&rdquo;
-asked Eastonville.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Oh, the same old game.&nbsp; Nothing would suit them
-out of sixty songs but &lsquo;Jerusalem,&rsquo; &lsquo;Rags and
-Tatters,&rsquo; and &lsquo;Home, sweet Home.&rsquo;&nbsp; They
-don&rsquo;t mind &lsquo;A boy&rsquo;s best friend&rsquo; for an
-encore when they are in a strictly domestic <a
-name="page162"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 162</span>mood.&nbsp;
-But anything really worth singing they won&rsquo;t look
-at.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Well, we&rsquo;ll follow their better mood and have
-&lsquo;Jerusalem.&rsquo;&nbsp; You&rsquo;ve got back your voice
-by now, old chap, and we&rsquo;ve been waiting for you patiently
-this last half-hour or more.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Once again that night the glorious voice rang out into the
-thin air, startling the silent square.&nbsp; Windows were hastily
-flung up, and the word &ldquo;Bindo&rdquo; was passed from sill
-to sill.&nbsp; Even a drowsy canary was stimulated to try a note
-or two in emulation of a method more attractive than its
-own.&nbsp; And through the open window came, for an
-accompaniment, the voice of London, soft as the murmur of a
-far-off sea.</p>
-<p>With the end of the song a sharp rattle of applause ran round
-the square, marked by distinctive intervals, like the volley at a
-soldier&rsquo;s funeral.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Bravo, Bindo,&rdquo; said Eastonville, &ldquo;it would
-pay you to send the hat round to-night.&nbsp; Here&rsquo;s a
-fiver, young &rsquo;un, to open the bank with, though why I
-should give it you passes my comprehension.&nbsp; A boy who can
-earn ten pounds a night at sixteen is a sight better off <a
-name="page163"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 163</span>than I
-am.&nbsp; If you lose it, you&rsquo;ll have to try the
-others.&nbsp; I&rsquo;m pretty well cleared out.&nbsp; After all
-you&rsquo;re detestable, Bindo.&nbsp; Just when we want you most,
-your voice will be gone, and you&rsquo;ll have spoiled us for all
-other singing, precisely as the great Sarah has spoiled us for
-any acting but her own.&nbsp; If we could only forget and start
-fresh with each week, how nice and pleasant everything would
-be.&nbsp; I believe Nelly is right in &lsquo;Cometh up,&rsquo;
-when she says that memory is often a cruel gift.&nbsp; No one
-would choose to remember a feeble show, or to spoil his enjoyment
-of average singing by a recollection of the best.&nbsp; Why are
-&lsquo;Jack Sheppard&rsquo; and &lsquo;Genevi&egrave;ve de
-Brabant&rsquo; practically withdrawn from the London stage?&nbsp;
-Because elderly playgoers cannot forget the days when Mrs. Keeley
-played &lsquo;Jack,&rsquo; or when Emily Soldene and the Dolaro
-drew all Mayfair to Islington by the witchery of a
-serenade.&nbsp; But now for &lsquo;A boy&rsquo;s best
-friend&rsquo;&mdash;we&rsquo;re all in a domestic mood
-to-night&mdash;and then cards.&rdquo;</p>
-<h3>II</h3>
-<p>Bindo was very docile as a rule, especially in the hands of
-those who loved and cared for him.&nbsp; But on some points he
-was obdurate as <a name="page164"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-164</span>steel.&nbsp; For instance, I could never persuade him,
-try what I would, to invest his salary, nor could anything induce
-him to learn a profession against the day when his voice should
-fail him.&nbsp; Singing, he said, had come naturally to him; a
-good voice, a good ear, and a little training had done the trick;
-and he thought, or pretended to think, that the evil day, when it
-did come, would bring with it its own resource.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;Sufficient unto the day is the <i>good</i> thereof&rdquo;
-was Bindo&rsquo;s motto throughout.</p>
-<p>And it was impossible to teach him the value of money.&nbsp;
-He spent it royally on others, lavishly on himself.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;Where have you been, Bindo?&rdquo; I said to him one
-Monday, when he hadn&rsquo;t turned up as usual on the previous
-afternoon.&nbsp; &ldquo;Oh, I took Harry out of town.&nbsp;
-He&rsquo;s been seedy, you know, and wanted change.&nbsp; So we
-went to Brighton.&rdquo;&nbsp; &ldquo;And you travelled
-first-class, and put up at the Bedford, and lost money to him at
-cards in the evening?&rdquo;&nbsp; &ldquo;You have hit it
-<i>exactly</i>, old man,&rdquo; was the reply.</p>
-<p>I believe that most of his money went on Quixotic kindnesses
-of this sort.&nbsp; One night when I was with him at the
-Queen&rsquo;s Hall (he <a name="page165"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 165</span>liked to run round to me between his
-&ldquo;turns&rdquo; and criticise the show from the front) his
-salary for two nights went before it was earned to the first
-violin, a blind little snuff-powdered man, but Bindo&rsquo;s very
-particular friend, because he had stumbled in getting down from
-the stage and damaged his instrument.</p>
-<p>When the end did come, it came suddenly.&nbsp; His voice
-cracked on an upper G&mdash;sudden and short like the string of a
-violin&mdash;in the very hall he had so emphatically abused for
-its acoustic deficiencies.&nbsp; Of course he came to me, if it
-can be said that he came to me, when he had always been with me
-for most of his time.&nbsp; But the life bored him.&nbsp; I had
-my own work to do in the evenings, and couldn&rsquo;t go with him
-to restaurants, theatres, and concerts, the excitement of which
-had become a second nature to Bindo.&nbsp; And so we drifted,
-little by little, but still very surely, farther and farther
-apart.</p>
-<p>It was about this time that his friend Harry, the same whom he
-had entertained so royally at Brighton, fell ill.&nbsp; Bindo had
-been anxious about him for a long while, and never passed a day
-without seeing him.&nbsp; But it was only quite lately that the
-doctors had begun to <a name="page166"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 166</span>suspect a rapid form of
-consumption.&nbsp; Bindo was full of trouble.&nbsp; I think he
-liked Harry best of all his friends, perhaps excepting me.</p>
-<p>One day he burst into my room, with something more akin to
-tears in his eyes than I had ever seen in them before.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;What <i>is</i> to be done, Charlie?&nbsp; They&rsquo;ve
-given Harry the sack at his office because he&rsquo;s too ill to
-do his work properly.&nbsp; They won&rsquo;t even keep it open
-for him for a week or two on the chance.&nbsp; What brutes they
-are!&nbsp; And, poor old chap, he&rsquo;s got nothing.&nbsp; If
-it were only this time last year, and I had my voice again, we
-could do famously.&nbsp; I wish I&rsquo;d taken your advice, old
-man, and saved my pile while I had the chance.&nbsp; By the way:
-happy thought!&nbsp; I have a heap of rings and pins and watches
-at home that the swells gave me last year for singing at their
-matinees and concerts&mdash;enough of them to stock a
-pawnshop.&nbsp; By Jove! they <i>shall</i> help to stock
-Attenborough&rsquo;s; and we&rsquo;ll live on the proceeds, at
-any rate till things look more rosy.&rdquo;&nbsp; He was off then
-and there, and for the next six months, till Harry died, I
-scarcely saw him.&nbsp; One excitement in his case had cast out
-the others, and while Harry lived he hardly cared to be outside
-his room.&nbsp; <a name="page167"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-167</span>Brother and nurse in one he was to him&mdash;with him
-night and day&mdash;and, whatever money or love could do, Bindo
-did for him.</p>
-<p>Afterwards he came back to me, looking a trifle older, a
-trifle more depressed; but improved, or so it seemed to me, by
-the experience he had undergone.&nbsp; I forgot that there are
-natures receptive of vigorous and even intense impressions, but
-absolutely incapable of retaining them.&nbsp; So soon as one
-predominant idea has passed from the brain, its place must be
-occupied by another, for good or else for evil.&nbsp; Which of
-the two it may be, seems almost a matter of indifference; it is
-the law, so to speak, of their being that it <i>should</i> be
-indifferent.</p>
-<p>I almost wished in those days that I could fall ill
-myself.&nbsp; Five or six months of nursing under Bindo&rsquo;s
-hand would have been a lazy delight to me, and (selfish as it may
-seem) better far for him than the life he was leading.&nbsp;
-Unhappily I never felt fitter, much too fit and too self-occupied
-to be interesting to Bindo, and so he left me for others, more at
-liberty and likely to be more amusing.</p>
-<p>All this time he was (to quote his own words) &ldquo;looking
-about for something&rdquo;&mdash;the <a name="page168"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 168</span>Micawber-like expression that does
-duty for an idle life.&nbsp; Whatever Bindo&rsquo;s
-interpretation may have been, I know it made him very late in
-coming home of an evening.&nbsp; Yet he never asked me for
-money.&nbsp; His resources seemed boundless, and the stock of
-rings and watches inexhaustible.&nbsp; But, portable and useful
-property as they are, you must have a good supply of them in hand
-to live upon it for a year in the style Bindo was doing.&nbsp;
-Besides, it occurred to me as strange that I had never had a
-sight of them; in old days I had always had the first view of any
-present that was made him.&nbsp; On another point, too, he was
-inflexible as ever.&nbsp; Advice and help towards securing
-permanent employment he absolutely and positively refused.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;Better that, old boy,&rdquo; he said, &ldquo;than do what
-most people do&mdash;bother their friends all round for an
-opinion when they&rsquo;ve decided all along to follow their
-own.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Your practical and steady-going individual&mdash;the one, for
-example, who can &ldquo;see nothing&rdquo; in <i>Alice in
-Wonderland</i>&mdash;never admits into his reckoning the
-influence of excitement.&nbsp; It disturbs and disarranges his
-equilibrium of life.&nbsp; Yet, disparage it as you may, it is
-one <a name="page169"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 169</span>of
-the most important factors in shaping life and character, and
-perhaps the very strongest lever that operates for the
-development of vice.&nbsp; Fortunately, a fair number of mankind
-can do with a small and weak modicum of this dangerous
-stimulant.&nbsp; Individuals like Bindo, who ask for more, are
-classed among the eccentricities of nature, for whom it is
-impossible to prescribe.&nbsp; Yet, think what it means for a boy
-of sixteen, without discipline or experience to steady him, to
-drop, literally in a moment, from notoriety to neglect, activity
-to stagnation; almost from life to death.</p>
-<p>No wonder Bindo pined and drooped.&nbsp; I knew the
-alternative that lay before him: life and death&mdash;not in
-metaphor this time, but in sober earnest.&nbsp; Yet I let him go,
-for he had taught me himself, if I had wanted the knowledge, that
-no man can cage a human will.&nbsp; So from the very moment I had
-become more hopeful about him, the gulf widened between us.&nbsp;
-But only in companionship; never in spirit&mdash;</p>
-<blockquote><p>&ldquo;For, till the thunder in the trumpet be,<br
-/>
-Soul may divide from body, but not we,<br />
-One from the other.&rdquo;</p>
-</blockquote>
-<p>Meanwhile he had retained all his old friends&mdash;no one who
-had known Bindo was <a name="page170"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 170</span>in a hurry to part company with
-him&mdash;but he had made other and less reputable ones.&nbsp;
-The strange and (to me) disquieting element in the situation was
-that he never, even now, seemed to be in want of money.&nbsp; Yet
-Harry&rsquo;s illness alone must have cost him a fortune.&nbsp;
-All his old luxuries were resumed.&nbsp; Dinners to his friends,
-at which Bindo was always paymaster, with periodical trips to
-Brighton and Bournemouth for change, succeeded one another with
-the same regularity as when the boy was earning &pound;10 a
-night.&nbsp; &ldquo;Where <i>does</i> the money come from?&rdquo;
-I asked myself again and again.&nbsp; Alas! the knowledge was to
-come soon.</p>
-<p>Late one evening, as I was finishing an article for the editor
-who employed me, Thorne and Eastonville called at my rooms.&nbsp;
-That they had come on no pleasant errand was written on their
-faces.&nbsp; &ldquo;Charlie,&rdquo; said Thorne, &ldquo;we are
-here on a disagreeable business.&nbsp; I hope it may prove less
-disagreeable than it looks.&nbsp; The fact is we&rsquo;ve been
-losing a lot of things for some time past; at least we&rsquo;ve
-tried our level best to <i>think</i> we&rsquo;ve lost them.&nbsp;
-But it won&rsquo;t do.&nbsp; The thing is far too systematic to
-be accidental.&nbsp; Sometimes it has <a name="page171"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 171</span>been money&mdash;a sovereign or two
-at a time; then it was a diamond ring of Eastonville&rsquo;s that
-went, and then some valuable scarf-pins of mine.&nbsp; So the
-thing must be stopped.&nbsp; But who has done it?&nbsp; I may as
-well out with it at once, though it burns my throat to tell
-it.&nbsp; We can&rsquo;t help fancying it&rsquo;s Bindo.&nbsp; No
-one but he has had access to our rooms at all hours, and you know
-how suspicious he has made us all by the pile of money he&rsquo;s
-been spending.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Yes: it <i>is</i> Bindo, Thorne.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>What was the good of attempting to deny it, when it flashed
-across me in a moment where all his jewellery had come
-from?&nbsp; No, not all perhaps.&nbsp; Probably&mdash;for I never
-asked him&mdash;he had started with articles that were
-legitimately his own, and then, when these had failed him, had
-been tempted to supplement them less creditably in the time of
-Harry&rsquo;s need.</p>
-<p>Of course we found the things, as I anticipated, at
-Attenborough&rsquo;s; all of them, that is, but one.&nbsp; Bindo
-was not the boy to try and hide his work, as an expert would have
-done, by distributing the articles at different shops, or even by
-signing under an assumed <a name="page172"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 172</span>name.&nbsp; On the contrary, there
-was a contemptuous candour in his method of dealing that actually
-surprised and puzzled us for a moment at starting.</p>
-<p>I would allow no one but myself to liquidate on behalf of
-Bindo.&nbsp; But I as steadily refused to be the bearer to him of
-the discovery we had made.&nbsp; None of the others volunteered
-for the office, or showed the faintest ambition to be the one
-selected for the murder of a friendship.&nbsp; So we cast lots
-for the office, whose it should be, in true melodramatic style,
-and the lot fell upon me.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Cheer up, old fellow,&rdquo; said Eastonville.&nbsp;
-&ldquo;Bindo&rsquo;s a deal fonder of you than he is of the rest
-of us, and won&rsquo;t take it so hardly if it comes through
-you.&nbsp; The fact is we&rsquo;ve spoiled him; all of us, that
-is, but you.&nbsp; And he knew it too, and I believe he liked the
-preaching you gave him better than all my five-pound notes; not
-that he showed any objection to the notes, I&rsquo;m bound to
-say.&nbsp; Now, don&rsquo;t look so savage, old man.&nbsp;
-I&rsquo;m bound to try and laugh over it, because, if I
-didn&rsquo;t, I feel sure I should do the other thing.&nbsp; And
-after all this business may be the making of Bindo.&rdquo;</p>
-<p><a name="page173"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 173</span>But
-he didn&rsquo;t know Bindo as I did.&nbsp; The boy came to me
-with outstretched hand, and with the old frank look in his
-eyes.&nbsp; But I could not trust myself to return it.&nbsp; What
-I did, must, I felt, be done quickly.&nbsp; If I waited for words
-in which to break the news to him; above all, if I gave him the
-chance of speaking first, I knew it was all up with me.&nbsp; So
-I just put the things on the table in front of him&mdash;how I
-hated the sight of them!&mdash;and said, &ldquo;These things have
-come into my hands, no matter by what means.&rdquo;&nbsp; He
-looked at them, and the faintest flush imaginable crept over his
-face.&nbsp; &ldquo;Before you leave me to-night we will do them
-up for the post, and you will address them to the respective
-owners and leave them in my hands.&rdquo;&nbsp; I did not dare to
-look at him, but turned away to another table, making up the
-parcels one by one and handing them to him where he stood behind
-my back.&nbsp; He addressed each parcel as he received it, never
-betraying by a word or sign what I knew the effort must have cost
-him.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;And now, Eric, you and I part company.&rdquo;&nbsp; I
-saw him wince at the name; almost as if he had received a
-blow.&nbsp; No doubt it implied to him, far more plainly than I
-had intended, <a name="page174"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-174</span>that the Bindo of the past was lost beyond
-recall.&nbsp; It was not said in heedlessness, still less in
-heartlessness; it was simply loss of self-control.&nbsp; The old
-familiar name <i>could</i> not be forced past my lips.&nbsp; In a
-moment I saw what I had done, and would have given worlds to
-repair it.&nbsp; &ldquo;Bindo,&rdquo; I cried impulsively,
-&ldquo;come back.&rdquo;&nbsp; But it was too late; the mischief
-was done.&nbsp; I had lost my last chance by that one word.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Good-bye,&rdquo; he answered, and was gone.</p>
-<h3>III</h3>
-<p>The characters we meet with in this world are composite, all
-of them&mdash;not saint or sinner; not this or else that, but
-something betwixt and between; the good in them not permanent,
-the bad in them not hopeless; and Bindo&rsquo;s short life had
-exemplified the fact with startling clearness.</p>
-<p>From that day forward my influence over him was gone.&nbsp; He
-must have kept studiously out of my path&mdash;an easy thing for
-him to do, as he knew all my habits and places of resort.&nbsp; I
-used to try and persuade myself that I was guiltless of the
-result, whatever it might be; <a name="page175"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 175</span>that &ldquo;unstable as water&rdquo;
-his character was past all guidance, and would in any case have
-drifted to the end that seemed to be in view.&nbsp; Yet it was
-hard to feel all the while that a strong, kind word from me that
-night might have nerved him to fresh energy.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;And what about Bindo?&rdquo; I asked of Eastonville one
-day.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Going to the dogs, and pretty rapidly, too, I&rsquo;m
-afraid.&nbsp; The last time I saw him, he was with Hutchinson and
-all that crew.&nbsp; You know what comes of mixing with loafers
-like that.&nbsp; He wouldn&rsquo;t look at me, though I tried
-hard to get a talk with him.&nbsp; He&rsquo;d had more to drink,
-too, than a boy of seventeen can carry.&nbsp; The pity of it
-all.&nbsp; What a voice he had, and what a good fellow, too, at
-heart!&nbsp; How he nursed poor Harry!&nbsp; Few Samaritans of
-the present day would have given up six months of their time to
-spend them in a sick room.&nbsp; But I&rsquo;m afraid it&rsquo;s
-all up with him.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Can&rsquo;t Thorne do anything?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;No; Bindo fights shy of us all, and no wonder
-either.&nbsp; I am sure I should do the same in his place.&nbsp;
-If <i>you</i> could only have got hold of him, and made him feel
-that we were rather glad than otherwise that our useless <a
-name="page176"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 176</span>belongings
-had gone towards nursing Harry, he&rsquo;d have got back his
-self-respect and been less shy of us.&nbsp; But our last hope
-went when <i>you</i> failed.&nbsp; What the plague made you call
-him Eric instead of Bindo?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Heaven only knows,&rdquo; I answered, &ldquo;or its
-Antipodes.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>I told Thorne one day of Eastonville&rsquo;s report, and asked
-him what he thought of it.</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Just nothing at all,&rdquo; he said.&nbsp; &ldquo;He
-knows no more of what Bindo&rsquo;s doing than all the rest of
-us.&nbsp; For myself, I believe he&rsquo;s got work of some
-kind.&nbsp; I grant he&rsquo;s seen sometimes at shady music
-halls with shady companions; and that&rsquo;s what Eastonville
-means.&nbsp; But, after all, a fellow must have some one to speak
-to in the evening, especially if he&rsquo;s at work all day; and
-if he&rsquo;s lost his old friends he must fill up their places
-with the best he can.&nbsp; Besides, it&rsquo;s quite possible
-that Bindo has grown wise enough by this time to make sure they
-do him no harm.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>A few months later Thorne dropped in again.&nbsp; &ldquo;Now
-you&rsquo;ll be happy, I suppose; at least I am.&nbsp; Bindo
-starts to-morrow for Brazil in the <i>Magdalena</i>.&nbsp; We
-came across him to-day.&nbsp; He&rsquo;s had work on hand all the
-year, <a name="page177"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-177</span>though he kept it quietly to himself; and now
-he&rsquo;ll be quit of all his old associations and be able to
-make another, and, I hope, a better start.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>I made up my mind, of course, that I must see him before he
-sailed.&nbsp; But how to do it?&nbsp; Fortunately I knew the name
-of the boat he was to travel by, unless he had wilfully put
-Thorne off the scent.&nbsp; But it was too late to get a train
-that night, and, as the boat I knew sailed at two o&rsquo;clock,
-it gave me none too much time to hunt him up at Southampton.</p>
-<p>When a letter came to me next morning by the early post,
-requiring an article at once for the afternoon papers, it was
-only what I expected.&nbsp; Fate had come between me and Bindo
-every time I had wished to help him, and she was at her old games
-again.&nbsp; So I sat down and wrote off my
-article&mdash;doggedly rather than savagely&mdash;in the spirit
-of one who gives up the game against chance, yet knowing, all the
-time I was writing, that I was losing my train, and that it was
-doubtful whether the next one would catch the <i>Magdalena</i> at
-all.&nbsp; The official at the Dock entrance told me that she was
-already throwing off from the quay wall, and it would be quite <a
-name="page178"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 178</span>impossible
-to get on board.&nbsp; &ldquo;Far and away your best
-chance,&rdquo; he added, &ldquo;is to run round this way to the
-Dock gates.&nbsp; You&rsquo;ll be there before she is, for it
-takes a lot of time to back and turn her.&nbsp; Then if you want
-to say good-bye to anyone <i>very</i> particularly (and he
-smiled), you&rsquo;ll get a word with her perhaps.&nbsp; For the
-vessel&rsquo;s loaded deep, and her portholes won&rsquo;t stand
-very high above the quay wall.&nbsp; Besides, she&rsquo;ll only
-creep through the gates, but you&rsquo;ve no time to
-lose.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>I hardly stopped to thank him <i>then</i>.&nbsp; On my way
-back he got, not only thanks, but, to his great astonishment, a
-five-shilling piece.&nbsp; &ldquo;Well; he must have wanted to
-see her badly,&rdquo; I heard him whisper to his mate.</p>
-<p>The preliminaries of throwing off, backing, warping, were all
-over by the time I reached the gates, and the big vessel was
-beginning to make a move under her own steam.&nbsp; I looked
-eagerly for Bindo among the passengers.&nbsp; Fate had been kind
-to me, and given me yet another chance.&nbsp; What if I missed it
-like the last?&nbsp; But she favoured me this time.&nbsp; He was
-leaning over the deck-rail, watching the leave-takings as the
-great vessel swept slowly past the wall.&nbsp; His cap was thrown
-back and <a name="page179"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-179</span>his hair blown off his forehead.&nbsp; What a boy he
-looked to be starting a new life in a new world, without a friend
-and with worse than failure for the past!</p>
-<p>Just then he caught sight of me.&nbsp; For a moment he
-hesitated&mdash;I could <i>see</i> him hesitate; then he left the
-deck and re-appeared at a port-hole in the aft part of the ship,
-framed once more (and it was my last picture of him) as the very
-Bindo of old.&nbsp; &ldquo;Good-bye,&rdquo; he said, &ldquo;old
-man; it was good of you to come, after the way I&rsquo;ve treated
-you.&nbsp; Thanks again, most faithful of friends, and
-good-bye.&nbsp; Forgive and forget.&nbsp; This time, believe me,
-I&rsquo;ll go straight.&nbsp; By the way,&rdquo; he added,
-&ldquo;just give this parcel for me to Fred&mdash;naming one of
-his chums&mdash;I had intended it for the pilot, but it will be
-safer in your hands.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>A wave of the hand, as the ship headed for the open water, was
-the last I saw of Bindo.&nbsp; But a load was off my mind as I
-walked back to the station.&nbsp; I could look forward hopefully
-now and patiently to our next meeting.</p>
-<p>Glancing at the parcel he had given me, I found it was
-addressed to myself.&nbsp; It contained a small diamond ring
-without word or <a name="page180"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-180</span>comment.&nbsp; At the time when we found the jewellery
-at Attenborough&rsquo;s, this ring had been missing, and, as it
-belonged to me, I had said nothing to the others about it.&nbsp;
-I might easily have lost it, and at any rate I gladly gave Bindo
-the benefit of the doubt.&nbsp; He had pledged it apparently at a
-different shop; perhaps because it was mine, and he did not wish
-it to be discovered with the rest; perhaps to remind him more
-vividly of the task he had set himself during the year to
-come.&nbsp; Till this ring could be redeemed, he must wait and
-work in London, and though all his hopes were centred in life
-abroad, it must not be thought of till this one act of reparation
-had been done.&nbsp; I never saw or heard from him directly
-again.</p>
-<p>Two years later he died of yellow fever in hospital at Rio;
-and his last act, while he still had strength to hold a pen, was
-to write me a loving letter of farewell, enclosing a cheque that
-covered the sums I had expended on his account.&nbsp; The letter
-was forwarded to me by the nurse who attended him.</p>
-<p style="text-align: center">&ldquo;<b>Is it well with the
-lad</b>?&nbsp; <b>It is well</b>.&rdquo;</p>
-
-<div class="gapshortline">&nbsp;</div>
-<h2><a name="page181"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-181</span>&lsquo;Declined with Thanks&rsquo;<br />
-A Postscript</h2>
-<p><a name="page183"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-183</span>&ldquo;<span class="smcap">Read</span> and
-rejected&rdquo; would be a more satisfying formula.&nbsp; But the
-Oracle is discreetly vague, and condescends not to
-particulars.&nbsp; Editorial reticence is surely a queer anomaly
-in these days when a reason is required for everything.&nbsp;
-When my own effusions have come back to me with the trite
-ascription, I could have welcomed enthusiastically the scantiest
-information, the liveliest abuse, in exchange for that
-exasperating commonplace.</p>
-<p>Sometimes even this amount of formal recognition was
-deferred.&nbsp; At first I augured hopefully from the delay, till
-experience taught me otherwise.&nbsp; Once, when an editor had
-kept my MS kicking about in this way, I actually wrote him my
-mind in free and unorthodox language.&nbsp; &ldquo;Unwise, most
-unwise,&rdquo; you will say.&nbsp; &ldquo;Yes, but oh! <i>so</i>
-satisfactory.&rdquo;&nbsp; <a name="page184"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 184</span>Add to which, my letter effected its
-purpose.&nbsp; He made up his mind then and there on the merits
-of my article and &ldquo;declined it <i>with
-thanks</i>.&rdquo;&nbsp; (The italics are his own.)</p>
-<p>But the mystery remains a mystery.&nbsp; He did not reveal it
-to me, in spite of his gratitude for my contribution, and I still
-hold to my opinion that such delay is discourteous to a male
-contributor, and ungallant to a lady.&nbsp; Besides, what is the
-reason?&nbsp; Is it that the editor waits to see what space he
-has got left at the finish, and then accepts an article, not for
-its merits, but for its length, on much the same principle as a
-lady will ask you at breakfast for <i>just</i> the amount of
-bread that will suit a remnant of butter, or <i>vice
-versa</i>?&nbsp; If so, Aristophanes had anticipated the process,
-or one very nearly resembling it&mdash;&ldquo;Man, man,&rdquo; he
-says, &ldquo;they are weighing my tragedy as if it were a pound
-of beef!&rdquo;</p>
-<p>By the way, why shouldn&rsquo;t the editorial chair be thrown
-open to competition?&nbsp; It is thus we elect our Professors, or
-some of them, at Cambridge.&nbsp; Let a candidate for the office
-be required to compose an &ldquo;Exercise&rdquo;&mdash;say a
-complete story for the magazine he aspires to conduct.&nbsp; So
-should we respect an editor <a name="page185"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 185</span>more, or (possibly) fear him
-less.&nbsp; At any rate, no order of men, least of all one which
-examines others, should be debarred now-a-days from the privilege
-of being examined in its turn.</p>
-<p>The fear is that, if my suggestion were acted upon, it would
-empty the Universities of their Professors.&nbsp; Who could
-resist the attraction of a post which limits the bulk of its
-correspondence to one conventional formula?&nbsp; Besides, to a
-tired Tripos examiner, the duty of looking over a few hundred
-magazine articles per month would be a frolic&mdash;a light and
-airy holiday task.&nbsp; But he&rsquo;d think the rules of the
-competition a trifle rough on the candidates, and might be
-tempted to violate decorum by an occasional word of encouragement
-and help.</p>
-<p>Apart from the suspense they inflicted upon me, due no doubt
-to the care they bestowed on the investigation, I think the
-editors were not far out in their judgment of my work.&nbsp; It
-always looked so heavy, even to a partial critic like myself, on
-the morning after I had written it.&nbsp; Once, in despair, I
-showed an article to a great novelist, who is happily also a
-great friend.&nbsp; &ldquo;What <i>is</i> the <a
-name="page186"></a><span class="pagenum">p.
-186</span>reason,&rdquo; I asked him, &ldquo;that it always looks
-so lumpy and devoid of wit and smartness?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>I wonder he had patience to read it through.&nbsp; Perhaps it
-was my presence that inspired him.&nbsp; Then he said, &ldquo;Not
-so bad in sense, but, as you say, terribly cumbrous in
-form.&nbsp; Let&rsquo;s see what&rsquo;s the matter with
-it.&nbsp; Why, it&rsquo;s description, description, description,
-instead of action, action, action, as Demosthenes recommended in
-a kindred art.&nbsp; It&rsquo;s an essay&mdash;good enough so far
-as the matter goes&mdash;but wearisome and heavy almost beyond
-<i>my</i> endurance.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Well, what&rsquo;s to be done with it?&rdquo;</p>
-<p>&ldquo;Break it up,&rdquo; was the reply, &ldquo;and make them
-talk.&nbsp; See, here&rsquo;s a man called Fred.&nbsp; Make him
-talk to the first woman he meets&mdash;Susan, I see, you&rsquo;ve
-called her&mdash;let him ask her how she is, and where
-she&rsquo;s going, and whether it&rsquo;s a fine day.&nbsp; Do
-this with every proper name you can find, and you&rsquo;ll soon
-see the mass disintegrate and look promising for the
-printer&rsquo;s hands.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>I followed his advice, and (triumph of triumphs) the article
-was accepted.&nbsp; But I felt unhappy and disquieted even in my
-hour of success.&nbsp; The fact is, the plot of my story <a
-name="page187"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 187</span>was a
-dream.&nbsp; Yes; it came straight to me at midnight from the god
-Oneiros himself, complete to the very smallest detail, and where
-was I to look for another?&nbsp; I very seldom dream at all, and
-never, before or afterwards, a complete story; and, as I can
-never originate a plot, my chances for the future are the reverse
-of promising.&nbsp; Yet I labour on with a persistency beyond all
-praise, and always during the night&mdash;a detrimental practice,
-involving great expenditure of candles and tissue.&nbsp; By
-daylight my ideas entirely evaporate, and I have abandoned the
-attempt as hopeless.&nbsp; The sight, too, of a fair blank sheet
-of paper makes my thoughts take wing on the instant.&nbsp; They
-can only be arrested on scraps of waste paper or (best of all) on
-the pages of a novel.</p>
-<p>It is said that the criticisms on Corelli are literally
-&ldquo;given to the dogs.&rdquo;&nbsp; But my revenge upon a dull
-novel is, I flatter myself, more recondite still.&nbsp; I punish
-a poor story by using it as the palimpsest for a poorer
-one.&nbsp; Hence the highest tribute I can pay to my heroes in
-literature is an unspoken (I mean an unwritten) one.&nbsp; I
-leave their pages immaculate.&nbsp; My mind might be teeming at
-<a name="page188"></a><span class="pagenum">p. 188</span>midnight
-with the noblest of thoughts, yet I could not bring myself to
-record them, even in thought, upon the pages of &ldquo;Quentin
-Durward,&rdquo; &ldquo;Esmond,&rdquo; &ldquo;Silas Marner,&rdquo;
-the &ldquo;Return of the Native,&rdquo; or &ldquo;Wuthering
-Heights.&rdquo;</p>
-<p>Judging it for power alone&mdash;power that never flags from
-the first page to the last&mdash;I know of nothing that
-approaches &ldquo;Wuthering Heights,&rdquo; except the preface
-Charlotte Bronte wrote for it.&nbsp; Yet I never read the book
-without compassionating the authoress.&nbsp; The creation of a
-character like Heathcliff must have been one long struggle
-against herself, to be faced without flinching, as one of the
-penalties of genius.&nbsp; What her own choice would have been is
-shown by the relief with which she flings behind her the
-nightmare of the past to picture the hope and happiness of
-Earnshaw&rsquo;s love.&nbsp; Her second book, if she had lived to
-write it, would certainly have been more genial; it could
-scarcely have been so great.</p>
-
-<div class="gapspace">&nbsp;</div>
-<p style="text-align: center">THE END</p>
-
-<div class="gapspace">&nbsp;</div>
-<p style="text-align: center"><a name="page189"></a><span
-class="pagenum">p. 189</span><span
-class="GutSmall">CAMBRIDGE</span><br />
-<span class="GutSmall">PRINTED BY JONATHAN PALMER</span><br />
-<span class="GutSmall">ALEXANDRA STREET</span></p>
-<pre>
-
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