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- SYLVIA
-
-
-
-
- _By Upton Sinclair_
-
-
- SYLVIA
- LOVE’S PILGRIMAGE
- PLAYS OF PROTEST
- THE FASTING CURE
- THE JUNGLE
- THE INDUSTRIAL REPUBLIC
- THE METROPOLIS
- THE MONEYCHANGERS
- SAMUEL THE SEEKER
- KING MIDAS
- PRINCE HAGEN
- THE JOURNAL OF ARTHUR STIRLING
- MANASSAS
- THE OVERMAN
-
-
-
-
- SYLVIA
- _A NOVEL_
-
-
- ——BY——
-
- UPTON SINCLAIR
-
-
- THE JOHN C. WINSTON COMPANY
- PHILADELPHIA CHICAGO
-
-
-
-
- Copyright, 1913, by
- THE JOHN C. WINSTON CO.
-
-
- Published, May 15, 1913
- First Printing, April, 1913. Second Printing, May, 1913
- Third Printing, May, 1913
-
-
-
-
- TO
- THE PEOPLE AT HOME
-
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-
-
-
-
- CONTENTS
-
-
- BOOK I
-
- SYLVIA LOVES 11
-
-
- BOOK II
-
- SYLVIA LINGERS 147
-
-
- BOOK III
-
- SYLVIA LOSES 277
-
-
-
-
- SYLVIA
-
-
-
-
- BOOK I
- _Sylvia Loves_
-
-
- § 1
-
-This is the story of Sylvia Castleman, of her love and her marriage. The
-story goes back to the days of her golden youth; but it has to be told
-by an old woman who had no youth at all, and who never dreamed of having
-a story to tell. It begins with scenes of luxury among the proudest
-aristocracy of the South; it is told by one who for the first thirty
-years of her life was a farmer’s wife in a lonely pioneer homestead in
-Manitoba, and who, but for the pictures and stories in magazines, would
-never have known that such a world as Sylvia Castleman’s existed.
-
-Yet I believe that I can tell her story. Eight years of it I lived with
-her, so intensely that it became as my own existence to me. And the rest
-I gathered from her lips, even to the tiniest details. For years I went
-about my daily tasks with Sylvia’s memories as a kind of radiance about
-me, like a rainbow that shimmers over the head of a plodding traveler.
-In the time that I knew her, I never came to the end of her picturesque
-adventures, nor did I ever know what it was to be bored by them. The
-incident might be commonplace—a bit of a flirtation, the ordering of a
-costume, the blunder of a negro servant; but it was always Sylvia who
-was telling it—there was always the sparkle of her eyes, the mischievous
-smile, the swift glow of her countenance. And as the story progressed,
-suddenly would come some incident so wild that it would make you catch
-your breath; some fantastic, incredible extravagance; some strange,
-quixotic trait of character. You would find yourself face to face with
-an attitude to life out of the Middle Ages, with some fierce, vivid
-passion that carried you back even farther.
-
-What a world it is! I know that it exists—for Sylvia took me home with
-her twice. I saw the Major wearing his faded gray uniform (it was
-“Reunion Day”) and discoursing upon the therapeutic qualities of “hot
-toddies.” I watched the negro boy folding and unfolding the newspaper,
-because Mrs. Castleman was obeying her physician and avoiding
-unnecessary exertion. I shook hands with Master Castleman Lysle, whose
-names were reversed by special decree of the state legislature, so that
-the memory of his distinguished ancestress might be preserved to
-posterity. And yet it will always seem like a fairy-story world to me. I
-can no more believe in the courtly Bishop, praying over my unrepentant
-head, than I can believe in Don Quixote. As for “Uncle Mandeville”—I
-could more easily persuade myself that I once talked with Pan Zagloba in
-the flesh.
-
-I have Sylvia’s picture on my desk—the youthful picture that means so
-much to me, with its strange mixture of coquetry and wistfulness, of
-mischief and tenderness. Downstairs in the dining-room is the portrait
-of Lady Lysle, which is so much like her that strangers always mistook
-it. And if that be not enough, now and then Elaine steals into my room,
-and, silent as a shadow, takes her seat upon the little stool beside me,
-watching me with her sightless eyes. Her fingers fly swiftly at her
-knitting, and for hours, if need be, she moves nothing else. She knows
-by the sound of my pen that I am busy; with the wonderful acuteness of
-the blind she knows whether I am successful or not, whether what I write
-be joyous or painful.
-
-How much she knows—much more than I dream, perhaps! I wonder about it,
-but I never ask her. Both Frank and I have tried to talk to her, but we
-cannot; it is cowardly, pitiful, perhaps—but we cannot! She used to ask
-questions in the beginning, but she must have felt our pain, for she
-asks no more; she simply haunts our home, the incarnation of the
-tragedy. So much of her mother she has—the wonderful red-brown eyes, the
-golden hair, the mobile, delicate features. But the sparkle of the eyes
-and the glow in the cheeks, the gaiety, the rapture—where are they? When
-I think of this, I clutch my hands in a sort of spasm, and go to my work
-again.
-
-Or perhaps I go into Frank’s den and see him sitting there, with his
-haggard, brooding face, his hair that turned gray in one week. He never
-asks the question, but I see it in his eyes: “How much have you done
-to-day?” A cruel taskmaster is that face of Frank’s! He is haunted by
-the thought that I may not live to finish the story.
-
-The hardest thing of all will be to make you see Sylvia as she was in
-that wild, wonderful youth of hers, when she was the belle of her state,
-when the suitors crowded about her like moths about a candle-flame. How
-shall one who is old and full of bitter memories bring back the magic
-spirit of youth, the glamor and the glow of it, the terrifying
-blindness, the torrent-like rush, the sheer, quivering ecstasy of it?
-
-What words shall I choose to bring before you the joyfulness of Sylvia?
-When I first met her she was twenty-six, and had known the kind of
-sorrow that eats into a woman’s soul as acid might eat into her eyes;
-and yet you would think she had never been touched by pain—she moved
-through life, serene, unflinching, a lamp of cheerfulness to every soul
-who knew her. I met her and proceeded to fall in love with her like the
-veriest schoolgirl; I would go away and think of her, and clasp my hands
-together in delight. There was one word that kept coming to me; I would
-repeat it over and over again—“Happy! Happy! Happy!” She was the
-happiest soul that I have ever known upon the earth; a veritable
-fountain of joy.
-
-I say that much; and then I hasten to correct it. It seems to be easy
-for some people to smile. There comes to me another word that I used to
-find myself repeating about Sylvia. She was wise! She was wise! She was
-wise with a strange, uncanny wisdom, the wisdom of ages upon ages of
-womanhood—women who have been mothers and counselors and homekeepers,
-but above all, women who have been managers of men! Oh, what a manager
-of men was Sylvia! For the most part, she told me, she managed them for
-their own good; but now and then the irresistible imp of mischievousness
-broke loose in her, and then she managed them any way at all, so long as
-she managed them!
-
-Yet that, too, does her less than justice, I think. For you might search
-all over the states of the South, where she lived and visited, and where
-now they mention her name only in whispers; and nowhere, I wager, could
-you find a man who had ceased to love her. You might find hundreds who
-would wish to God that she were alive again, so that they might run away
-with her. For that is the third thing to be noted about Sylvia
-Castleman—that she was good. She was so good that when you knew her you
-went down upon your knees before her, and never got up again. How many
-times I have seen the tears start into her eyes over the memory of what
-the imp of mischievousness and the genius of management had made her do
-to men! How many times have I heard her laughter, as she told how she
-broke their hearts, and then used her tears for cement to patch them up
-again!
-
-
- § 2
-
-I realize that I must make some effort to tell you how she looked. But
-when I think of words—how futile, stale and shopworn seem all the words
-that come to me. In my early days my one recreation was cheap
-paper-covered novels and historical romances, from which I got my idea
-of the _grand monde_. Now, when I try to think of words with which to
-describe Sylvia, it is their words that come to me. I know that a
-heroine must be slender and exquisite, must be sensitive and haughty and
-aristocratic. Sylvia was all this, in truth; but how shall I bring to
-you the thrill of wonder that came to me when I encountered her—that
-living joy she was to me forever after, so different from anything the
-books had ever brought me!
-
-She was tall and very straight, free in her carriage; her look, her
-whole aspect was quick and eager. I sit and try to analyze her charm,
-and I think the first quality was the sense she gave you of cleanness. I
-lived with her much; I saw her, not merely made up for parties, but as
-she opened her eyes in the morning; and I cannot recall that I ever saw
-about her any of those things that offend us in the body. Her eyes were
-always clear, her skin always fair; I never saw her with a cold, or
-heard her speak of a headache. If she were tired, she would not tell you
-so—at least, not if she thought you needed her. If there was anything
-the matter with her, there was only one way you found it out—that she
-stopped eating.
-
-She would do that at home, when someone was ill and she was under a
-strain. She would literally fade away before your eyes—but still just as
-cheerful and brave, laughing at the protests of the doctors, the
-outcries of her aunts and her colored “aunties.” At such times she had a
-quite new kind of beauty, that seemed to strike men dumb; she used to
-make merry over it, saying that she could go out when other women had to
-shut themselves behind curtains. For thinness brought out every line of
-her exquisitely chiseled features; every quiver of her soul seemed to
-show—her tense, swift being was as if cut there in living marble, and
-she was some unearthly creature, wraith-like, wonderful, thrilling.
-There were poets in Castleman County; they would meet her in this
-depleted state, and behave after the fashion of poets in semi-tropical
-climates—stand with their knees knocking and the perspiration oozing out
-upon their foreheads; they would wander off by moonlight-haunted streams
-and compose enraptured verses, and come back and fall upon their knees
-and implore her to accept the poor, feeble tribute of their adoration.
-
-I have seen her, too, when she was strong and happy, and then she would
-be well-made and shapely, with a charm of a more earthly sort. Then her
-color would be like the roses she always carried; and in each of her
-cheeks would appear the most adorable of dimples, and under her chin
-another. She had a nose that was very straight and finely carved; and
-right in the center, under the tip, the sculptor had put a tiny little
-groove. She had also a chin that was very straight, and right in the
-center of this was a corresponding little groove. You will laugh
-perhaps; but those touches added marvelously to the expressiveness of
-her countenance. How they would shift and change when, for instance, her
-nostrils quivered with anger, or when the imp of mischievousness took
-possession of her, and the network of quaint wrinkles gathered round her
-eyes!
-
-Dimples, I know, are an ultra-feminine property; but Sylvia’s face was
-not what is ordinarily called feminine—it was a kind of face that
-painters would give to a young boy singing in a church. I used to tell
-her that it was the kind they gave to angels of the higher orders;
-whereupon she would put her arms about me and whisper, “You old goose!”
-She had a pair of the strangest red-brown eyes, soft and tender; and
-then suddenly lighting up—shining, shining!
-
-I don’t know if I make you see her. I can add only one detail more, the
-one that people talked of most—her hair. You may see her hair, very
-beautifully done, in the portrait of Lady Lysle. The artist was shrewd
-and put the great lady in a morning robe, standing by the open window,
-the sunlight falling upon a cascade of golden tresses. The color of
-Sylvia’s hair was toned down when I knew her, but they told me that in
-her prime it had been vivid to outrageousness. I sit before the
-painting, and the present slips away and I see her as she was in the
-glow of her youth—eager, impetuous, swept with gusts of merriment and
-tenderness, like a mountain lake in April.
-
-So the old chroniclers report her, nine generations back, when she came
-over to marry the Governor of Massachusetts! They have her wedding gown
-preserved in a Boston Museum, and the Lysles have a copy of it, so that
-each generation can be married in one like it. But Sylvia was the first
-it became, being the first blonde since her great progenitor. How
-strange seems such a whim of heredity—not merely the color of the hair
-and eyes, the cut of the features, but a whole character, a personality
-hidden away somewhere in the germ-plasm, and suddenly breaking out,
-without warning, after a couple of hundred years!
-
-
- § 3
-
-When I think of Sylvia’s childhood and all the hairbreadth escapes of
-which she told me, I marvel that she ever came to womanhood. It would
-seem to be a perilous part of the world to raise children in, with
-horses and dogs and guns, and so many half-tamed negroes—to say nothing
-of all the half-tamed white people. Sylvia had three younger sisters and
-whole troops of cousins—the Bishop’s eleven children, and the children
-of Barry Chilton, his brother. I picture their existence as one long
-series of perilous escapes, with runaway horses, kicking mules and
-biting dogs, and negroes who shot and stabbed one another in sudden,
-ferocious brawls, or set fire to Castleman Hall in order that some other
-negro might be suspected and lynched.
-
-Also there were the more subtle perils of the pantry and the green-apple
-orchard. I did not see any accident during my brief stay at the place,
-but I saw the dietetic ferocities of the family and marveled at them. It
-seemed to me that the life of that most precious of infants, Castleman
-Lysle, was one endless succession of adventures with mustard and ipecac
-and castor oil. I want somehow to make you realize this world of
-Sylvia’s, and I don’t know how I can do it better than by telling of my
-first vision of that future heir of all the might, majesty and dominion
-of the Lysles. It was one of the rare occasions when the Major was
-taking him on a journey. The old family horses were hitched to the old
-family carriage, and with a negro on the box, another walking at the
-horses’ heads, a third riding on a mule behind, and a fourth sent ahead
-to notify the police, the procession set forth to the station. I know
-quite well that I shall be called a liar; yet I can only give my solemn
-word that I saw it with my own eyes—the chief of police, duly notified,
-had informed all the officers on duty, and the population of a bustling
-town of forty thousand inhabitants, in the United States of America in
-the twentieth century, were politely requested not to drive automobiles
-along the principal avenue during the half hour that it took to convey
-Master Lysle to the train! And of course such a “request” was a command
-to all the inhabitants who were genteel enough to own automobiles. Was
-not this the grandson of the late General Castleman, the grand-nephew of
-a former territorial governor? Was he not the heir of the largest, the
-oldest and the most famous plantation in the county, the future
-dispenser of favors and arbiter of social fates? Was he not,
-incidentally, the brother of the loveliest girl in the state, to whom
-most of the automobile owners in the town had made violent love?
-
-I would like to tell more about that world and Sylvia’s experiences in
-it—some of those amazing tales! Of the negro boy who bit a piece out of
-the baby’s leg, because he had heard someone say that the baby looked
-sweet enough to eat; of the negro girl who heard a war-story about “a
-train of gun-powder,” and proceeded with Sylvia’s aid to lay such a
-train from the cellar to the attic of the house. I would like to tell
-the whole story of her girlhood, and the strange ideas they taught her;
-but I have to pick and choose, saving my space for the things that are
-necessary to the understanding of her character.
-
-Sylvia’s education was a decidedly miscellaneous one at first. “I think
-it is time the child had some regular training,” her great-aunt, Lady
-Dee, would say to the child’s mother. “Yes, I suppose you are right,”
-would be the answer. But then Lady Dee would go, and Major Castleman
-would come in, observing, “It’s marvelous the way that child picks
-things up, Miss Margaret.” (A habit from his courtship days, you
-understand.) “We must be careful not to overstimulate her mind.” To
-which his wife would respond, agreeably, “I’m sure you know best, Mr.
-Castleman.”
-
-Every morning Sylvia would go with her father on his rounds to interview
-the managers of the three plantations; the Major in his black broadcloth
-frock-coat, a wide black hat and a white “bosom” shirt, riding horseback
-with an umbrella over his head, and followed at a respectful distance by
-his “boy” upon a mule. On these excursions Sylvia would recite the
-multiplication table, and receive lessons in the history of her country,
-from the point of view of its unreconstructed minority. Also she had
-lessons on this subject from her great-aunt, who never paid one of her
-numerous servants their small quarterly stipend that she did not
-exclaim: “Oh, how I _hate_ the Yankees!”
-
-I must not delay to introduce this great-aunt, who was Sylvia’s
-monitress in the arts and graces of life, and left her on her death-bed
-such a curious heritage of worldliness. Lady Dee was the last surviving
-member of a younger branch of the line of the Lysles. She was not a real
-countess, like her great ancestress; the name “Lady” had been given her
-in baptism. Early in the last century she had come over the mountains in
-a lumbering coach, with an escort of mounted riders, to marry the
-Surveyor General of the Territory. She still had a picture of this
-coach, along with innumerable other treasures in cedar chests in her
-attic: fan-sticks of carved ivory, inlaid with gold; gold garter buckles
-with wonderful enameling; old seals and silver snuff-boxes; rare jewels,
-such as white topazes and red amethysts; and a whole trunkful of the
-curious tiny silk parasols with which great ladies used to protect their
-creamy complexions—no more than ten inches across, and with handles of
-inlaid and carven ivory. When Sylvia was a little girl with two pigtails
-hanging down her back, it was one of the joys of her life to explore
-these treasures, and deck herself in faded ball costumes and chains of
-jewels and gold.
-
-Also, from Lady Dee she received contributions to her moral training;
-not in set discourses, but incidentally and by allusions. Rummaging in
-the cedar chests she once came upon a miniature which she had never seen
-before; a lady in whom she recognized the eyes of the Lysles, and the
-arrogance which all their portraits show. “Who is this, Aunt Lady?” she
-asked; and the old gentlewoman frowned and answered, “We never speak of
-her, my dear. She is the one woman who ever disgraced our name.”
-
-Sylvia hesitated a long time before she spoke again. She had heard much
-of family skeletons in the table-talk—but always other families. “What
-did she do?” she asked, at last.
-
-“She was married to three men,” was the reply.
-
-Again Sylvia hesitated. “You mean,” she ventured—“you mean—at the same
-time?”
-
-Lady Dee stared. “No, my dear,” she said, gravely. “Her husbands died.”
-
-“But—but—” began the other, timidly, groping to find her way in a
-strange field of thought.
-
-“If she had been a woman of delicacy,” pronounced Lady Dee, “she would
-have been true to one love.” Then, after a pause, she added, solemnly,
-“Remember this, my child. Think before you choose, for the women of our
-family are like Sterne’s starling—when they have once entered their
-cage, they never come out.”
-
-It was Lady Dee who objected to the desultory nature of Sylvia’s
-education, and began a campaign, as a result of which the Major sent her
-off to a “college” at the age of thirteen. You must not be frightened by
-this imposing statement, for it is easy to call yourself a “college” in
-the South. Sylvia was away for three years, during which she really
-studied, and acquired much more than the usual accomplishments of a
-young lady.
-
-She had an extraordinarily capable mind; serene and efficient, like
-everything else about her. When I met her I was a woman of forty-five,
-who a few years before had broken with my whole past, having discovered
-the universe of knowledge. I had been like a starving person breaking
-into a well-filled larder, and stuffing myself greedily and
-promiscuously. I had taken upon myself the task of contending with other
-people’s prejudices, and my rapture over Sylvia Castleman was partly the
-realization that here was a woman—actually a woman—who had no prejudices
-whatever. She wanted me to tell her all I knew; and it was a great
-delight to expound to her a new set of ideas, and see her mind go from
-point to point, leaping swiftly, laying hold of details, ordering,
-comparing—above all, applying. That you may have a picture of this mind
-in action, let me tell you what she did in her girlhood, all
-unassisted—how she broke with the religion of her forefathers.
-
-
- § 4
-
-That brings me to the Bishop, Basil Chilton, who had come into the
-family by marriage to one of Sylvia’s aunts. At the time of his marriage
-he had been a young Louisiana planter, handsome and fascinating. He had
-met Nannie Castleman at a ball, and at four o’clock in the morning had
-secured her promise to marry him before sunset. People said that he was
-half drunk at the time, and this was probably a moderate estimate, for
-he had been wholly drunk for a year or two afterwards. Then he had shot
-a man in a brawl and, despite the fact that he was a gentleman, had
-almost been punished for it. The peril had sobered him; a month or two
-later, at a Methodist revival, he was converted, made a sensational
-confession of his sins, and then, to the horror of his friends, became a
-preacher of Methodism.
-
-To the Castlemans this was a calamity—to Lady Dee a personal affront.
-“Whoever heard of a gentleman who was a Methodist?” she demanded; and as
-the convert had no precedents to cite, she quarreled with him and for
-many years never spoke his name. Also it was hard upon Nannie
-Castleman—who had entered her cage and had to stay! They had compromised
-on the bargain that the children were to be brought up in her own faith,
-which was Very High Church. So now the unhappy preacher, later Bishop,
-sat in his study and wrote his sermons, while one by one his eleven
-children came of age, and danced and gambled and drank themselves to
-perdition in the very best form imaginable. When I met the family, the
-last of the daughters, Caroline, was just making her _début_, and her
-mother, nearly sixty, was the gayest dancer on the floor. It was the
-joke of the county, how the family automobile would first take the
-Bishop to prayer meeting, and then return to take the mother and the
-children to a ball.
-
-Basil Chilton looked like an old-world diplomat, as I had come to
-conceive that personage from reading novels. He had the most charming
-manners—the kind of manners which cannot be cultivated, but come from
-nobility of soul. He was gentle and gracious even to servants; and yet
-imposing, with his stately figure and smooth, ascetic face, lined by
-care. He lived just a pony-ride from Castleman Hall, and almost every
-morning during vacations Sylvia would stop and spend a little while with
-him. People said that he loved her more than any of his own children.
-
-So you can imagine what it meant when one day the girl said to him,
-“Uncle Basil, I have something to tell you. I’ve been thinking about it,
-and I’ve made up my mind that I don’t believe in either heaven or hell.”
-
-Where had she got such an idea? She had certainly not learned it at the
-“college,” for the institution was “denominational” and had no
-text-books of later date than 1850. Somewhere she had found a volume of
-Huxley’s “Lay Sermons,” but she had got nothing out of that, for the
-Major had discovered her reading page three, and had solemnly consigned
-the book to the flames. No, it was simply that she had been thinking for
-herself.
-
-The Bishop took it well. He did not try to frighten her, he did not even
-show her his distress of mind. He told her that she was an angel, the
-very soul of purity and goodness, and that God would surely lead her to
-truth if only she kept herself humble. As Sylvia put it to me: “He knew
-that I would come back, and I knew that I would never come back.”
-
-And that was the situation between them to the very end—the bitter end.
-He always believed that she would learn to see things as he saw them. He
-died a year or so ago, the courtly old gentleman—consoled by the thought
-that he was now to meet his God and Sylvia face to face, and hear the
-former explain to the latter the difference between Divine Law and mere
-human ideas of Justice.
-
-The rest of the family were not so patient as the Bishop. To have a
-heretic in the household was even worse than having a Methodist! Mrs.
-Castleman, who agreed with the Bible as she agreed with everything, was
-dumb with bewilderment; while the Major set to work to hunt out dusty
-volumes from the attic. He read every word of Paley’s “Evidences” aloud
-to his daughter, and some of Gladstone’s essays, and several other
-books, the very names of which she forgot. You may smile at this
-picture, but it was a serious matter to the Castlemans, who had based
-their morality upon the fear of fire and brimstone and the weeping and
-gnashing of teeth, and who kept Sylvia three months from school to
-impress such images upon her imagination.
-
-There were several religious sects represented in the county. These were
-generally at war with one another, but they all made common cause in
-this emergency, and committees of old ladies from the “Christians,” the
-“hard-shell Baptists,” the “predestination Presbyterians,” would come to
-condole with “Miss Margaret,” and would kneel down in the parlor with
-Sylvia and pray for her salvation, shedding tears over the cream velour
-upholstery of the hand-carved mahogany sofas. A distant cousin who was
-“in orders,” a young gentleman of charming presence and special training
-in dialectics, was called in to answer the arguments of this wayward
-young lady, and stayed for three days, probing deeply into his patient’s
-mind—not merely her theological beliefs, but the attitude to life which
-underlay them. When he had finished he said to her, “My dear Sylvia, it
-is my opinion that you are the most dangerous person in this county.”
-She told me the story, and added, “I hadn’t the remotest idea what the
-man meant!” But I answered her that he had been perfectly right. In
-truth, he was a seer, that young clergyman!
-
-
- § 5
-
-There was a general feeling that Sylvia had learned more than was good
-for her; and so the family made inquiries, and selected the most
-exclusive and expensive “finishing school” in New York, for the purpose
-of putting a stop to her intellectual development. And so we come to the
-beginning of Sylvia’s wordly career, and to the visit she paid to Lady
-Dee—who now, at the age of ninety, felt herself failing rapidly, and
-wished to leave to her great-niece her treasures of worldly counsel.
-
-Lady Dee was one of those quaint figures you meet in the South, who go
-to balls and parties when they are old enough to be sewing the
-_layettes_ of their great-grandchildren. I have seen a picture of her at
-the age of eighty-five, in a cerise-colored silk ball-gown with a lace
-“bertha,” her white hair curled in front and done in a pile with a
-coronet of diamonds. You must imagine her now, in an invalid’s chair
-upon the gallery, but still with her hair dressed as of old; telling to
-Sylvia tales of her own young ladyhood—and incidentally, with such
-deftness that the girl never guessed her purpose, introducing
-instruction in the strategy and tactics of the sex war.
-
-Life was short, according to Lady Dee, and the future was uncertain. A
-woman bloomed but once, and must make the most of that. To be the center
-of events during her hour, that was life’s purpose; and to achieve it,
-it was necessary to know how to hold men. Men were sometimes said to be
-strange and difficult creatures, but in reality they were simple and
-easily handled. The trouble was that most women went blindly at the
-task, instead of availing themselves of the wisdom which their sex had
-been storing up for ages, in the minds of such authorities as Lady Dee.
-
-The old lady went on to expound the science of coquetry. I had read of
-the sex game, as it is played in the _grand monde_, but I had never
-supposed that the players were as conscious and deliberate as this
-veteran expert. She even used the language of battle: “A woman’s shield,
-my child, is her innocence; her sharpest weapon is her _naïveté_. The
-way to disarm a man’s suspicions is to tell him what you’re doing to
-him—then you’re sure he won’t believe it!”
-
-She would go into minute details of these Amazonian arts: how to beguile
-a man, how to promise to marry him without really promising, how to keep
-him at the proper temperature by judicious applications of jealousy. Nor
-was this sex war to stop after the wedding ceremony—when most women
-foolishly laid down their weapons. A woman must sleep in her armor,
-according to Lady Dee. She must never let her husband know how much she
-loved him, she must make him think of her as something rare and
-unattainable, she must keep him in a state where her smile was the
-greatest thing in life to him. Said the old lady, gravely: “The women of
-our family are famous for henpecking their husbands—they don’t even take
-the trouble to hide it. I’ve heard your grandfather, the General, say
-that it was all right for a man to be henpecked, if only it was by the
-right hen.”
-
-A training, you perceive, of a decidedly worldly character; and yet
-there was nothing upon which Sylvia’s relatives laid more stress than
-the preserving of what they called her “innocence.” There were wild
-people in this part of the world—high-spirited and hot-tempered, hard
-drinkers and fast livers; there were deeds of violence, and strange and
-terrible tales that you might hear. But when these tales had anything to
-do with sex, they were carefully kept from Sylvia’s ears. Only once had
-this rule been broken—an occasion which made a great impression upon the
-child. The daughter of one of the neighboring families had eloped, and
-the dreadful rumor was whispered that she had traveled in a sleeping-car
-with the man, and been married at the end of the journey, instead of at
-the beginning.
-
-And there was Uncle Mandeville, the youngest of the Major’s
-brothers—half drunk, though Sylvia did not know it—pacing the veranda
-and discussing the offending bridegroom. “He should have been shot!”
-cried Mandeville. “The damned scoundrel, he should have been shot like a
-dog!” And suddenly he paused before the startled child. He was a giant
-of a man, and his voice had the power of a church-organ. He placed his
-hands upon Sylvia’s shoulders, pronouncing in solemn tones, “Little
-girl, I want you to know that I will protect the honor of the women of
-our family with my life! Do you understand me, little girl?”
-
-And Sylvia, awe-stricken, answered, “Yes, Uncle Mandeville.” The worthy
-gentleman was so much moved by his own nobility and courage that the
-tears stood in his eyes; he went on, melodramatically, “With my life!
-With my life! And remember the boast of the Castlemans—that there was
-never a man in our family who broke his word, nor a woman with a stain
-upon her name!”
-
-That had been in Sylvia’s childhood. But now she was a young lady, about
-to start for the metropolis, and the family judged that the time had
-come for her to be instructed in some of these delicate matters. There
-had been consultations between her mother and aunts, in which the former
-had been prodded on to the performing of one of the most difficult of
-all maternal duties. Sylvia remembered the occasion vividly, for her
-mother’s agitation was painful to witness; she led the girl solemnly
-into a darkened room, and casting down her eyes, as if she were
-confessing a crime, she said:
-
-“My child, you will probably hear evil-minded girls talking of things of
-which my little daughter has never heard. When these things are
-discussed, I want you to withdraw quietly from the company. You should
-remain away until vulgar topics have been dismissed from the
-conversation. I want your promise to do this, my daughter.”
-
-Her mother’s sense of shame had communicated itself to Sylvia. At first
-she had been staring wonderingly, but now she cast down her own eyes.
-She gave the desired promise; and that was all the education concerning
-sex that she had during her girlhood. This experience determined her
-attitude for many years—a mingling of shame and fear. The time had come
-for her to face the facts of her own physical development, and she did
-so with agony of soul, and in her ignorance came near to injuring her
-bodily health.
-
-Also, the talk had another consequence, over which Mrs. Castleman would
-have been sorely distressed had she known it. Though the girl tried her
-best, it was impossible for her to avoid hearing some of the “vulgar”
-conversation of the very sophisticated young ladies at the “finishing
-school.” In spite of herself, she learned something of what sex and
-marriage meant—enough to make her flesh creep and her cheeks burn with
-horror and disgust. It seemed to her that she could no longer bear to
-meet and talk to men. When she came home for the Christmas holidays and
-discovered that her mother was expecting a child, the thought of what
-this meant filled her with shame for both her parents; she wondered how
-they could expect a pure-minded girl to love them, when they had so
-degraded themselves. So intense was this impression that it continued
-over the Easter vacation, when she returned to find the house in
-possession of the new heir of all the might, majesty and dominion of the
-Lysles.
-
-
- § 6
-
-Miss Abercrombie’s “finishing school” was located on Fifth Avenue,
-immediately opposite—so the catalogue informed you—to the mansions of
-the oldest Knickerbocker families. It was Miss Abercrombie’s boast that
-she had married more than half her young ladies to millionaires, and she
-took occasion to drop allusions to the subject to all whom it might
-interest. She ran her establishment upon an ingenious plan, about half
-her pupils being the daughters of Western buccaneers, who paid high
-prices, and the other half being the daughters of Southern aristocrats,
-accepted at reduced rates. So the young ladies from the West got the
-“real thing” in refinement, and the young ladies from the South made
-acquaintances whose brothers were “eligible.”
-
-Sylvia had always had everything that she wanted, and was under the
-impression that immense sums of money had been spent upon her
-upbringing. But among these new associates she found herself in the
-class of the poorest. She had never owned a dress which they would
-consider expensive, whereas the dresses of these girls were trimmed with
-real lace, and cost several hundreds of dollars each. It was a startling
-experience to many of them to discover that a girl who had so few jewels
-as Sylvia could be so haughty and self-possessed; which was, of course,
-just what they had come for—to acquire that superiority to their wealth
-which is the apex of culture in millionairedom.
-
-So Sylvia became an uncrowned queen, and all the lumber princesses and
-copper duchesses and railroad countesses vied in entertaining her. They
-treated her to box-parties, where, duly chaperoned, they listened to
-possibly indecent musical comedies; and to midnight feasts where they
-imperiled their complexions with peanut butter and almond paste and
-chocolate creams and stuffed olives and anchovies and crackers and
-mustard pickles and fruit cake and sardines and plum pudding and sliced
-ham and salted almonds—and what other delicacies might come along in
-anybody’s boxes from home. To aid in the digestion of these “goodies”
-Sylvia was taken out twice daily, and marched in a little private parade
-up Fifth Avenue, wearing a hat so large that all her attention was
-required to keep it on in windy weather, and so heavy that it made her
-head ache if the air were still; a collar so high that she could not
-bend her head to balance the hat; high-heeled shoes upon which she
-toddled with her feet crowded down upon the toes; and a corset laced so
-tight that her lower ribs were bent out of shape and her liver
-endangered. About the highest testimony that I can give to the
-altogether superhuman wonderfulness of Sylvia is that she stayed for two
-years at Miss Abercrombie’s, and came home a picture of radiant health,
-eager, joyous—and lovely as the pearly tints of dawn.
-
-She came home to prepare for her _début_; and what an outfit she
-brought! You may picture her unfolding the treasures in her big bedroom,
-which had been freshly done over in pink silk; her mother and aunts and
-cousins bending over the trays, and the negro servants hovering in the
-doorway, breathless with excitement, while the “yard-man” came panting
-up the stairs with new trunks. Such an array of hats and gowns and
-_lingerie_, gloves and fans, ribbons and laces, silk hose and satin
-slippers, beads and buckles! The “yard-man,” a negro freshly promoted
-from the corn-fields, went down into the kitchen with shining eyes,
-exclaiming, “I allus said dis house was heaven, and now I knows it,
-’cause I seen dem ‘golden slippers’!”
-
-It was not a time for a girl to do much philosophizing; but Sylvia knew
-that these “creations” of Paris dressmakers had cost frightful sums of
-money, and she wondered vaguely why the family had insisted upon them.
-She had heard rumors of a poor crop last year, and of worries about some
-notes. Glad as the Major was to see her, she thought that he looked
-careworn and tired.
-
-“Papa,” she said, “I’ve been spending an awful lot of money.”
-
-“Yes, honey,” he answered.
-
-“I hope you don’t think I have been extravagant, Papa.”
-
-“No, no, honey.”
-
-“I tried to economize, but you’ve no idea how things cost in New York,
-and how those girls spend money. My clothes—Mamma and Aunt Nannie
-_would_ have me buy them——”
-
-“It’s all right, my child—you have only one springtime, you know.”
-
-Sylvia paused a moment. “I feel as if I ought to marry a very rich man,
-after all the money you’ve spent upon me.”
-
-Whereat the Major looked grave. “Sylvia,” he said, “I don’t want any
-daughter of mine to feel that she has to marry. I shall always be able
-to support my children, I hope.”
-
-This was noble, and Sylvia was grateful for it; but with that serene,
-observing mind of hers she could not help noting that if her father by
-any chance called her attention to some man of her acquaintance, it was
-invariably a “marriageable” man; and always there was added some detail
-as to the man’s possessions. “Billy Harding’s a fellow with a future
-before him,” he would remark. “He’s one of the cleverest business men I
-know.”
-
-Sylvia was also impressed with a comical phrase of her mother’s, which
-seemed to indicate that that good lady classified poverty with smallpox
-and diphtheria. The Major had suggested inviting to supper a young
-medical student who was honest but penniless; and “Miss Margaret”
-replied, “I really cannot see what we have to gain by exposing our
-daughters to an undesirable marriage.” Sylvia concluded that her family
-pinned its faith to the maxim of Tennyson’s “Northern Farmer”—
-
-“Doän’t thou marry for munny, but goä wheer munny is!”
-
-
- § 7
-
-You must have a glimpse of Castleman Hall as it was at the time of the
-_début_. The old house stands upon a hill, terraced on one side, and
-overlooking the river from a high bluff on the other. It is of red
-brick, originally square, with a two-storied portico and hanging balcony
-in front; later on there had been added two wings of white painted wood,
-for the library and conservatory—now nearly covered with red roses and
-Virginia creepers. On the afternoon of the great day there was a
-reception to all the married friends of the family. They came in
-conveyances of every kind, from family coaches to modern high-power
-limousines; they came in costumes varying from the latest Paris modes to
-the antebellum splendor of old Mrs. Tagliaferro, who hobbled cautiously
-over the polished hardwood floors, with the help of her gold-headed cane
-on one side, and her husband, the General, on the other. Once arrived,
-she laid her hands upon Sylvia’s, and told her how pretty she was, and
-how she must contribute a new stone to the archway through which the
-Castlemans had marched to fame for so many generations. There had been
-many famous Castleman beauties, quavered the old gentleman, in his turn,
-but none more beautiful than the present one—save only, perhaps, her
-mother. (This last as “Miss Margaret” appeared at his elbow, clad in
-ample folds of gray satin and tulle.) So one by one ladies and gentlemen
-came up and delivered gallant speeches and grave exhortations, until
-Sylvia was overwhelmed with the sense of responsibility involved in
-being a daughter of the Castlemans.
-
-And then came the evening, with the _début_ dance for the young people.
-Ten years later I saw Sylvia in the gown she wore: white chiffon over
-white messaline, with roses and a string of pearls. Wonderful she must
-have been that night, at the age of eighteen, the climax of her beauty;
-eager, glowing, a-quiver with excitement. I picture her standing before
-the mirror, childishly ravished by her own loveliness, her mother and
-aunts, scarcely less excited, putting the final touches to her toilette.
-I picture her girl friends in the dressing-room and the hall, gossiping,
-chattering, laughing; the buzz of excitement, then the hush when she
-appeared, the cries of congratulation and applause. I picture the
-downstairs rooms, decorated with lilies, magnolias and white ribbons,
-the furniture covered with white brocade, the chandeliers turned into
-great bells of lilies, the soft light from white-shaded candles flooding
-everything. I picture the swains, waiting eagerly at the foot of the
-staircase, each with a bouquet for his chosen one in his hand. I can
-hear the strains of the violins floating up the staircase, and see the
-shimmering form of Sylvia floating down, crowned with her dazzling glory
-of golden hair. There was no one in Castleman County who failed to
-realize that a belle was born that night!
-
-
- § 8
-
-It was just a week after these festivities that there occurred the death
-of Sylvia’s great-aunt. Nothing could have been more characteristic than
-the method of her departure. She left home and betook herself to an
-aristocratic boarding-house, kept by a “decayed gentlewoman” in New
-Orleans; she might be a long time a-dying, she said, and did not want
-anybody making a fuss over her. Also she did not care to have her nieces
-and nephews calling in to drop hints as to the disposition of her
-rosewood bedroom set, her miniature piano and her Queen Anne baby’s
-crib. She left a will in which she bequeathed her property to her
-grand-niece, Sylvia Castleman, to be held in trust for her until she was
-forty years of age. “Some man will take care of her while she is
-beautiful,” she wrote, “but later on she may find use for my pittance.”
-And finally the old lady put in a clause to the effect that the bequest
-was conditional upon her grand-niece’s obeying her injunction to wear no
-mourning for her. “It is impossible to make a woman with brown eyes look
-presentable in black,” she wrote. And this, you understand, in a
-document which had to be filed for probate! Most fortunate it was that
-all the editors of newspapers in the South are gentlemen, who can be
-relied upon not to print the news.
-
-Sylvia obeyed the instructions of this extraordinary document, and felt
-it a solemn duty to go to entertainments, even with tears in her eyes.
-So now began a bewildering succession of dinners, dances and receptions,
-balls and suppers, house parties, hunting parties, auto parties, theatre
-parties. It speaks marvels for her constitution that she was able to
-stand the strain. When the last light had been extinguished she would
-drag herself upstairs to bed, a limp train hung over her limp arm, her
-feet aching in the tiny slippers and her back aching in the cruel stays.
-The Governor saw fit to appoint her as his “sponsor” at the state
-militia encampment; and so for ten days she would rise every morning at
-daybreak, ride out with an “escort” to witness guard-mount, and remain
-in the midst of a rush of gaieties until three or four o’clock the next
-morning, when the nightly dance came to an end.
-
-Sylvia always refused to give photographs of herself to men. It was part
-of her feeling about them that she could not endure the thought of her
-image being in their rooms. But her enterprising Aunt Nannie, the
-Bishop’s wife, presented one to the editor of a metropolitan magazine,
-where it appeared under the heading of “A Reigning Beauty of the New
-South.” It was taken up and reproduced in Southern papers, and after
-that Sylvia found that her fame had preceded her—everywhere she went new
-worshippers joined her train, and came to her hometown to lay siege to
-her.
-
-You may perhaps know something about these Southern men. I had never
-dreamed of such, and I would listen spellbound for hours to Sylvia’s
-tales of them. Men who, as Lady Dee had phrased it, had nothing to do
-but make love to their women! There were times when the realization of
-this brought me a shudder. I would see, in a sudden vision, the torment
-of a race of creatures who were doomed to spend their whole existence in
-the chase of their females; and the females devoting their energies to
-stinging them to fresh frenzies!
-
-The men liked it; they liked nothing else in the world so much. “You may
-make me as unhappy as you please,” they would tell Sylvia—“if only you
-will let me love you!” And Sylvia, in the course of time, became
-reconciled to letting them love her. She learned to play the game—to
-play it with constantly increasing excitement, with a love of mischief
-and a thirst for triumph.
-
-She would show her latest victim twenty moods in one evening, alluring
-him, repelling him, stimulating him, scorning him, pitying him,
-bewildering him. When they met again, she would be completely absorbed
-in the conversation of another man. He would be reduced at last to
-begging for a chance to talk seriously with her; and she, pretending to
-be touched, might let him call, and show him her loveliest and most
-sympathetic self. So, before he realized it, he would be caught fast. If
-he happened to be especially conspicuous, or especially rich, or
-especially otherwise worth while, she might take the trouble to goad him
-to desperation. Then he would be ready to give proofs of his devotion—to
-go through West Point, or to be made a judge, if only she would promise
-to marry him. Each of these tasks she set to an unfortunate wretch, who
-went off and performed it—and came back and found her married!
-
-
- § 9
-
-Such were the customs of young ladies in Sylvia’s world; but I must not
-fail to mention that she had sometimes the courage to set her face
-against this “world.” For instance, she had a prejudice against
-drunkenness. She stood fast by the bold precedent that she would never
-permit an intoxicated person to dance with her; and terrible
-humiliations she put upon two or three who outraged her dignity. They
-hid in their rooms in an agony of remorse, and sent deputations of their
-friends to plead for pardon, and went away from home and stayed for
-months, until Sylvia consented to take them into her favor again.
-
-She took her place upon the icy heights of her maidenhood, and was not
-to be drawn therefrom. There were only two men in the world, outside of
-fathers and uncles and cousins, who could boast that they had ever
-kissed her. About both of these I shall tell you in the course of time.
-She was famous among other men for her reserve—they would make wagers
-and lay siege to her for months, but no one ever dared to claim that he
-had secured his kiss.
-
-With boyish frankness they would tell her of these things; they told her
-all they thought about her. I have never heard of men who dealt so
-frankly in personalities, who would discuss a woman and her various
-“points” so openly to her face. “Miss Sylvia, you look like all your
-roses to-night.”—“Miss Sylvia, I swear you’ve got the loveliest eyes in
-the world!”—“You’ll be fading soon now; you’d better marry while you’ve
-got a chance!”—“I came to see if you were as pretty as they say, Miss
-Castleman!”
-
-She would laugh merrily. “Are you disappointed? Don’t you find me
-ado’able?”
-
-So far I have made no attempt to give you an idea of Sylvia’s way of
-speaking English. It was a drawl so charming that Miss Abercrombie had
-given instructions not to mar it by rash corrections. I can only mention
-a few of her words—which is as if I gave you single hairs out of her
-golden glory. She always spoke of “cannles.” She could, of course, make
-nothing of the letter r, and said “funnichuh” and “que-ah” and “befo-ah
-mawnin’.” There had been an English heiress at Miss Abercrombie’s who
-had won the whole school over to “gel,” but when Sylvia arrived, she
-swept the floor with “go-il.” The most irresistible word of all I
-thought was “bug;” there is no way to indicate this by spelling—you must
-simply take three times as long to say it, lingering over the vowel
-sound, caressing it as if you thought that “bu-u-u-gs” were the most
-“ado’able” things in all the “wo’il.”
-
-Sylvia learned to apply with deadly effect the maxim of Lady Dee—that a
-woman’s sharpest weapon is her _naïveté_. “Beware of me!” she would warn
-her helpless victims. “Haven’t you heard that I’m a coquette? No, I’m
-not joking. It’s something I’m bitterly ashamed of, but I can’t help it;
-I’m a cold-hearted, selfish creature, a deliberate breaker of hearts.”
-And then, of course, the victim would thrill with excitement and
-exclaim, “See what you can do to me, Miss Sylvia! I’ll send you armfuls
-of roses if you can break my heart!” You may judge how these
-competitions ended from a chance remark which Sylvia made to me—“When I
-look back upon my life, it seems to me that I waded in a river of
-roses.”
-
-The only protection which nature has vouchsafed against these terrors is
-the fact that sooner or later such cold and cruel huntresses themselves
-get snared. In the simile of “Sterne’s starling,” they are lured up to a
-certain cage, and after much hopping about and hesitating, much
-advancing and retreating, much chattering and chirping, they adorn
-themselves in satin robes and lace veils and lilies-of-the-valley, and
-to the sound of sweet strains from “Lohengrin” they enter the golden
-cage. And then, snap! the door is shut and locked fast, and the
-proprietor of the cage mounts guard over it—in Sylvia’s part of the
-world with a shotgun in his hands.
-
-
- § 10
-
-So I come to the time when this haughty lady was humbled; that is to
-say, the time of her meeting with Frank Shirley. Because it was through
-Harriet Atkinson that she came to know him, I must first tell you in a
-few words about that active and pushing young lady.
-
-Harriet Atkinson was the one weak spot in the fortifications of
-respectability which Sylvia’s parents had built up about her. Harriet’s
-ancestors were Yankees, of the very most odious “carpet-bag” type. Her
-grandfather had been a pawnbroker in Boston, so fierce rumor declared;
-and her father was a street-railroad president, who purchased “red-neck”
-legislators for use in his business. Harriet herself was a brunette
-beauty, so highly colored that she looked artificial, no matter how hard
-she tried to look natural.
-
-But in spite of these appalling facts, Harriet Atkinson was the most
-intelligent girl whom Sylvia had met during her three years at the
-“college.” She had a wit that was irresistible, and also she understood
-people. You might spend weeks in her company and never be bored; whereas
-there were persons who could prove possession of the “very best blood in
-the South,” but who were capable of boring you most frightfully when
-they got you alone for half an hour.
-
-Sylvia was never allowed to go to Harriet’s home, nor was Harriet ever
-asked to Castleman Hall. But Sylvia refused to give up her friend, and
-for a year she intrigued incessantly to force Harriet upon her
-hostesses, and to persuade her own suitors to call at the Atkinson home.
-In the end she married her off to the scion of a great family—with
-consequences which are to be told at a later stage of my story. The
-point for the present is that things happened exactly as Sylvia’s aunts
-had predicted; through her intimacy with the undesirable Harriet
-Atkinson she was “exposed” to the acquaintance of several undesirable
-men, among them Frank Shirley.
-
-Sylvia had known about the Shirleys from earliest childhood. She had
-heard the topic talked about at the family dinner-table, and had seen
-tears in her father’s eyes when the final tragedy came. For the Shirleys
-were among the “best people,” and this was not the kind of thing which
-was allowed to happen to such.
-
-About twelve years previously the legislature had appropriated money for
-the building of a veterans’ home, and the funds had been entrusted to a
-committee, of which Robert Shirley was treasurer. The project had lapsed
-for a couple of years, and when the money was called for, Robert Shirley
-was unable to produce it. Rumors leaked out, and there came a demand in
-the legislature for an accounting.
-
-The Major was one of a committee of friends who were asked by the
-Governor to make a private investigation. They found that Shirley had
-deposited the money to his private bank account, after the
-unbusinesslike methods of a Southern gentleman. Checks had been drawn
-upon it; but there was evidence at the bank tending to show that the
-checks might not have been signed by Shirley himself. He had a younger
-brother, a spendthrift and gambler, whom he had indulged and protected
-all his life. Such were the hints which Sylvia had heard at home—when
-suddenly Robert Shirley proceeded to the state Capitol and requested the
-Governor to stop the investigation, declaring that he alone was to
-blame.
-
-It was a terrible thing. Shirley was besought to fly, he was told by the
-Governor’s own authority that he might live anywhere outside the state,
-and the search for him would be nominal. But he stood fast; the money
-was gone, and some one must pay the penalty. So the world saw the
-unprecedented spectacle of a man of “good family” standing trial, and
-receiving a sentence of five years in the penitentiary.
-
-He left a broken-hearted wife and four children. Sylvia remembered the
-horror with which her mother and her aunts had contemplated the fate of
-these latter. Two girls, soon to become young ladies, and cut off from
-all hope of a future! “But, Mamma,” Sylvia cried, “it isn’t _their_
-fault!” She recollected the very tone of her mother’s voice, the dying
-away to a horrified whisper at the end: “My child, their father _wore
-stripes_!”
-
-The Shirleys made no attempt to hold up their heads against the storm,
-but withdrew into strict seclusion on their plantation. Now, ten years
-later, Robert Shirley having died in prison, his widow was a pitiful
-shadow, his daughters were hopeless old maids, and his two sons were
-farmers, staying at home and acting as their own managers.
-
-Of these, Frank Shirley was the elder. I am handicapped in setting out
-to tell you about him by the fact that he sits in the next room, and
-will have to read what I write; he is not a man to stand for any
-nonsense about himself—nor yet one whose ridicule an amateur author
-would wish to face. I will content myself with stating simple facts,
-which he cannot deny; for example, that he is a man a trifle below the
-average height, but sturdily built and exceedingly powerful. He had in
-those days dark hair and eyes, and he would not claim to have been
-especially bad-looking. He is the most reserved man I have ever known,
-but his feelings are intense when they are roused, and on these rare
-occasions he is capable of being eloquent. He is, in general, a very
-solid and dependable kind of man; he does not ask anything of anybody,
-but he is willing to give, cautiously, after he has made sure that his
-motive will be understood. As I read that over, it seems to me a
-judicious and entirely unsentimental statement about him, which he will
-have to pass.
-
-He was, he tells me, a lively boy; but after the age of eleven he always
-had, as the most prominent fact in his consciousness, the knowledge that
-men set him apart as something different from themselves. And this, of
-course, made intercourse with them difficult; if they were indifferent
-to him, that was insult, and if they were cordial, then they were taking
-pity upon him. He always knew that the people who met him, however
-politely they greeted him, were repeating behind his back the inevitable
-whisper, “His father wore stripes!” So naturally he found it pleasanter
-not to meet people.
-
-Then, too, there were his mother and sisters; it was hard not to be
-bitter about them. He knew that the girls were gentle and lovely; and it
-rather made men seem cowardly, that it should be certain that no one in
-their own social world would ever ask them in marriage. There is so much
-asking in marriage in the South—it is really difficult for a gentlewoman
-to be passed over altogether. The Shirley girls could not discuss this,
-even in the bosom of their family; but Frank came to understand, and to
-brood over the thing in secret.
-
-
- § 11
-
-So you see Frank Shirley was a difficult man to get at—as much so as if
-he had been an emperor or an anchorite. I have been interested in the
-psychology of sex, and I wondered how much this aloofness had to do with
-what happened to Sylvia. There were so many men, and they were all so
-much alike, and they were all so easy! But here was a man who was
-different; a man whom one could not get at without humiliating efforts;
-a man of mystery, about whom one could imagine things! I asked Sylvia,
-who thought there might be something in this; but much more in a deeper
-fact, which is known to poets and tellers of love-tales, but has not
-been sufficiently heeded by scientists—that intuitive, commanding and
-sometimes terrifying revelation of sexual affinity, which we smile at
-and discredit under the name of “love at first sight.” The first time
-Sylvia met Frank she did not know who he was; she saw at first only his
-back; and yet she began at once to experience a thrill which she had
-never known in her life before. Absurd as they may sound, I will repeat
-her words: “There was something about the back of his neck that took my
-breath!”
-
-It had been some years since she had heard the Shirleys mentioned. They
-had quietly declined all invitations, and this made it easy for
-everybody to do with decency what everybody wanted to do—to cease
-sending invitations. The Shirley plantation was remotely located, some
-twenty miles away from Castleman Hall; and so little by little the
-family had been forgotten.
-
-But there was a certain Mrs. Venable, a young widow who owned a
-hunting-lodge near the Shirley place; and as fate would have it, she was
-one of the people whom Sylvia had persuaded to take up Harriet Atkinson.
-One day, as the latter was driving to the lodge in her automobile, she
-was “mired” in the midst of a terrific thunderstorm, when along came a
-gentleman on horseback, who politely insisted upon her taking his
-waterproof, and then mounting behind him and riding to his home up on
-the hill; by which romantic method the delighted Harriet found herself
-conveyed to an old and evidently aristocratic homestead, and welcomed by
-some altogether lovely people.
-
-Being younger than Sylvia, and not so much on the “inside” as to local
-history, Harriet had been obliged to get the story from Mrs. Venable. It
-had heightened her interest in the Shirleys—for Harriet’s great merit
-was that she was human and spontaneous where she should have been
-respectable. She went to call again on the family, and when she got home
-she made haste to tell Sylvia about it. “Sunny,” she said—that was her
-way of taking liberties with Sylvia’s complexion—“you ought to meet that
-man Frank Shirley.” She went on to tell how good-looking he was, how
-silent and mysterious, and what a fine voice he had. “And the sweetest,
-lazy smile!” she declared. “I’m sure he could be a lady-killer if he did
-not take life so seriously!” So, you see, Sylvia had something to start
-her imagination going, and a reason for accepting Mrs. Venable’s
-invitation to a hunting party.
-
-One sunshiny morning in the late fall she was taking part in a
-deer-hunt, carrying a rifle and looking as picturesque as possible. They
-put her on a “stand” with Charlie Peyton, who ought to have been at
-college, but was hanging round making a nuisance of himself by sighing
-and gazing. After waiting a half hour or so, off in the woods they heard
-a dog yelping. Charlie went off to investigate, thinking it might be a
-bear; and so Sylvia was left to her fate.
-
-She heard a sound in the bushes at one side, and thought it was a deer.
-The creature moved past her, hidden by a dense thicket, and passed a
-little way ahead, with a heavy trampling sound. She had half raised her
-gun, when suddenly the bushes parted, and with a leap over a fallen log
-there came into view—not a deer, but a horse with a rider upon his back.
-
-The girl lowered her gun. The dog yelped again and the man reined up his
-horse and stood listening. The horse was restive; as he drew rein upon
-it, it turned slightly, exhibiting the rider’s face. To the outward eye
-he was a not unusual figure, wearing the khaki shirt and knickerbockers
-affected by the younger generation of planters when on duty. The shirt
-was open, with a red bandana handkerchief tucked round at the throat.
-
-But Sylvia was not looking with the outward eye. Sylvia had been reading
-romances, and had a vague idea of a lover who would some day appear,
-being distinguished from the ordinary admirers of salons and ball-rooms
-by something knightly in his aspect. And this man seemed to have that
-something. His face was a face of power, yet not harsh, rather with a
-touch of melancholy.
-
-As a rule Sylvia was immediately observant of her own emotional states,
-especially where men were concerned; but this once she was too much
-interested to think what she was thinking. She was noting the man’s
-deeply-shadowed eyes and shiny black hair, his statue-like figure and
-his mastery of the horse. She wondered if he would look in her
-direction, and she waited, fascinated, for the moment when his glance
-would rest upon her.
-
-The moment came. He started slightly, and then quickly his hand went up
-to his hat. “I beg your pardon,” he said, politely.
-
-Sylvia noted his deep, full-toned voice; and with a sudden thrill she
-recollected Harriet’s adventure. “Can this be Frank Shirley?” she
-thought. She caught herself together and smiled. “It is for me to beg
-pardon,” she said. “I came near shooting at you.”
-
-“I deserved it,” he answered, smiling in turn. “I was trespassing on my
-neighbor’s land.”
-
-Sylvia had by now been “out” a full year, and it must be admitted that
-she was a sophisticated young lady. When she met a man, her thought was:
-“Could I love him? And how would it be if I married him?” Her
-imagination would leap ahead through a long series of scenes: the man’s
-home, his relatives and her own, his occupations, his amusements, his
-ideas. She would see herself traveling with him, driving with him,
-presiding at dinner-parties for him—perhaps helping to get him sober the
-next morning. As a drowning man is said to live over his whole past in a
-few seconds, so Sylvia might live her whole future during a figure at a
-“german.”
-
-But with this man it was different. She could not imagine him in any
-position in her world. He was an elemental creature, belonging in some
-wild place, where there was danger to be faced and deeds to be done.
-Sylvia had read “Paul and Virginia,” and “Robinson Crusoe,” and “Typee,”
-and in her mind was a vague idea of a primitive, close-to-nature life,
-which one yearned for when one was tightly laced, or was sent into the
-parlor to entertain an old friend of the family. She imagined this
-strange knight springing forward and lifting her upon his saddle-bow, to
-bear her away to such a world. She could feel his powerful arms about
-her, his whispered words in her ear; she could hear the clatter of his
-horse’s hoofs—away, away!
-
-She had to make another effort, and remember who she was. “You are not
-lost, I suppose?” he was asking.
-
-“Oh, no,” she said. “I am on a ‘stand.’”
-
-“Of course,” he replied; again there was a pause, and again Sylvia’s
-brain went whirling. It was absurd how the beating of her heart kept
-translating itself into the clatter of horse’s hoofs.
-
-The man turned for a moment to listen to the dog; and she stole another
-look at him. His eyes came back and caught her glance. She absolutely
-had to say something—instantly, to save the situation. “I—I am not
-alone,” she stammered. Oh, how dreadful—that she, Sylvia Castleman,
-should stumble over words!
-
-“My escort has gone to look for the dog,” she added. “He will be back in
-a moment.”
-
-“Oh,” he said; and Sylvia noted a sudden change in his expression—a set,
-repressed look. She saw the blood mounting slowly, until it colored his
-cheeks to a crimson.
-
-“I beg your pardon,” he said, coldly. “Good-morning.” He turned his
-horse and started on his way.
-
-He had taken her words as a dismissal. But that was the least part of
-the mistake. Sylvia read his mind in a flash—he was Frank Shirley, and
-he thought that she had recognized him, and was thinking of his father
-who had worn stripes! Yes, surely it must be that—for what right had he
-to be hurt otherwise—that she did not care to stand conversing with a
-strange man in a forest?
-
-The thought sent her into a panic. She thought of nothing but the
-cruelty of that idea. “No, no!” she cried, the tears almost starting
-into her eyes. “I did not mean to send you away at all!”
-
-He turned, startled by her vehemence. For a moment or two they stood
-staring at each other. The girl had this one swift thought: “How
-dreadful it must be to have such a thing in your mind, to have to be
-waiting for insults from people—or at best, for pity!”
-
-Then, in his quiet voice, he said, “I really think I had better go.”
-Again he turned his horse, and without another glance rode away, leaving
-Sylvia staring at his vanishing figure, with her hands tightly clutching
-her gun.
-
-
- § 12
-
-After that Sylvia felt that she had in common decency to meet Frank
-Shirley. She asked nothing more about her motives—she simply _had_ to
-meet him, to remove one thought from his mind. But for two days she was
-at her wit’s end, and went round bored to death by everything and
-everybody. She had a sudden whim to be let alone; and how difficult it
-is to be let alone at a house party! There was the everlasting Charlie
-Peyton, looking at her out of sickly blue eyes, and forever trying to
-get hold of her hand; there was Billy Aldrich, with his sybaritic silk
-socks, his shiny finger nails and talcum-powdered face; there was
-Malcolm McCallum, a dandy from Louisville, with his endless stream of
-impeccable suits and his caravan of trunks; there was Harvey Richards, a
-“steel-man” from Birmingham, who had thrown his business to the winds
-and settled down to the task of boring Sylvia. He was big and burly, and
-had become the special favorite of her family; he dandled the baby
-brother and made fudge with the sisters—but Sylvia declared viciously
-that his idea of love-making was to poke at her with his finger.
-
-She took to getting up very early in the morning, so that she could go
-riding alone. As there was but one road, it was not her fault if she
-passed near the Shirley place. And if by any remote chance he were to be
-out riding too——
-
-It was the third morning that she met him. He came round a turn, and it
-all happened in a flash, before she had time to think. He gave her the
-stiffest greeting that was consistent with good breeding; and then he
-was past. Of course she could not look back. It was ten chances to one
-that he would not do the same, but still he might, and that would be
-dreadful.
-
-She went on. She was angry with herself for her stupidity. That she
-should have met him thus, and had no better wit than to let him get by!
-Theoretically, of course, ladies cannot stop gentlemen to whom they have
-not been introduced; but there are always things that can happen, in
-cases of emergency like this. She thought of plans, and then she fell
-into a rage with herself for thus pursuing a man.
-
-The next morning when she went riding, she forced herself to turn the
-horse’s head in the other direction from the Shirley place. But her
-thoughts would come back to Frank, and presently she was making excuses
-for herself. This man was not as other men; if he avoided her, it was
-not because he did not want to know her, but because of his misfortune.
-It was wicked that a man should be tied up in such a net of
-misapprehension; to get him out of it would be, not unmaidenly, but
-heroic. When she had met him yesterday morning, she ought to have
-stopped her horse, and made him stay and talk with her. She was to leave
-in two days more!
-
-She turned her horse and went back; and when she was near the Shirley
-house—here he came!
-
-She saw him far down the road, and so had plenty of time to get her wits
-together. Had he, by any chance, come out in the hope of meeting her? Or
-would he be annoyed by her getting in his way? Suppose he were to snub
-her—how could she ever get over it?
-
-She took a diamond ring from her finger, and reached back and shoved it
-under the saddle-cloth. It was a “marquise” ring, with sharp points, and
-when she threw her weight upon it, the horse gave a jump. She repeated
-the action, and it began to prance. “Now then!” whispered Sylvia to
-herself.
-
-
- § 13
-
-He came near; and she reined up her chafing steed. “I beg pardon,” she
-said.
-
-He raised his hat, and holding it, looked at her inquiringly.
-
-“I think my horse must have a stone in his foot.”
-
-“Oh!” he said, and was off in a moment, throwing the reins of his mount
-over its head and handing them to her.
-
-“Which foot?” he asked.
-
-“I don’t know.”
-
-He bent down and examined one hoof, then another, and so on for all
-four, without a word. Then, straightening up, he said, “I don’t see
-anything.”
-
-He looked very serious and concerned. How “easy” he would be! “There
-really must be something,” she said. “He’s all in a lather.”
-
-“There might be something deep in,” he answered, making his
-investigation all over again. “But I don’t see any blood.” (What a fine
-back he has! thought Sylvia.)
-
-He stood up. “Let me see his mouth,” he said. “Are you sure you’ve not
-held him too tight?”
-
-“I am used to horses,” was her reply.
-
-“Some of them have peculiarities,” he remarked. “Possibly the saddle has
-rubbed——”
-
-“No, no,” answered Sylvia, in haste, as he made a move to lift the
-cloth.
-
-It was always hard for her to keep from laughing for long; and there was
-something so comical in his gravity. Then too, something desperate must
-be done, for presently he would mount and ride away. “There’s surely no
-stone in his foot,” he declared.
-
-Whereat Sylvia broke into one of her radiant smiles. “Perhaps,” she
-said, “it’s in _your_ horse’s foot!”
-
-He looked puzzled.
-
-“Don’t you see?” she laughed. “Something _must_ be wrong—or you couldn’t
-be here talking to me!”
-
-But he still looked bewildered. “Dear me, what a man!” thought she.
-
-A color was beginning to mount in his cheeks. Perhaps he was going to be
-offended! Clearly, with such a man one’s cue was frankness. So her tone
-changed suddenly. “Are you Mr. Shirley?” she asked.
-
-“Yes,” he said.
-
-“And do you know who I am?”
-
-“Yes, Miss Castleman.”
-
-“Our families are old friends, you know.”
-
-“Yes, I know it.”
-
-“And then, tell me—” She paused. “Honestly!”
-
-“Why—yes.”
-
-“I’ve been honest and told you—I’m not really worried about my horse.
-Now you be honest and say why you rode out this morning.”
-
-He waited before replying, studying her face—not boldly, but gravely. “I
-think, Miss Castleman, that it would be better if I did not.”
-
-Then it was Sylvia’s turn to study. Was it a rebuke? Had he not come out
-on her account at all? Or was it still the ghost of his father’s
-prison-suit?
-
-He did not help her with another word. (I can hear Frank’s laugh as he
-told me about this episode. “We silent fellows have such an advantage!
-We just wait and let people imagine things!”)
-
-Sylvia’s voice fell low. “Mr. Shirley, you have me at a great
-disadvantage.” And as she said this she gazed at him with the wonderful
-red-brown eyes, wide open, childlike. So far there had never been a man
-who could resist the spell of those eyes. Would this man be able? The
-busy little brain behind them was watching every sign.
-
-“I don’t understand,” he replied; and she took up the words:
-
-“It is _I_ who don’t understand. And I dare not ask you to explain!”
-
-She was terrified at this temerity; and yet she must press on—there was
-no other way. She saw gates opening before her—gates into wonderland!
-
-She leaned forward with a little gesture of abandonment. “Listen, Frank
-Shirley!” she said. (What a masterstroke was that!) “I have known about
-you since I was a little girl. And I understand the way things are now,
-because I am a friend of Miss Atkinson’s. She asked you to come over and
-meet me, and you didn’t. Now if the reason was that you have no interest
-in me—why then I’m annoying you, and I’m behaving outrageously, and I’m
-preparing humiliation for myself. But if the reason is that you think I
-wouldn’t meet you fairly—that I wouldn’t judge you as I would any other
-man—why, don’t you see, that would be cruel, that would be wicked! If
-you were afraid that I wanted to—to patronize you—to do good to you——”
-
-She stopped. Surely she had said enough!
-
-There was a long silence, while he gazed at her—reading her very soul,
-she feared. “Suppose, Miss Castleman,” he said, at last, “that I was
-afraid that you wanted to do _harm_ to me?”
-
-That was getting near to what she wanted! “Are you afraid?” she asked.
-
-“Possibly I am,” he replied. “It is easy for those who have never
-suffered to preach to those who have never done anything else.”
-
-Sylvia did not know quite how to meet that. It was so much more serious
-than she had been looking for, when she had slipped that ring under the
-saddle-cloth! “Oh,” she cried, “what shall I say to you?”
-
-“I will tell you exactly,” he said, “and then neither of us will be
-taking advantage of the other. You are offering me your friendship, are
-you not?”
-
-“Yes.”
-
-“Well, then, can you say to me that if I were to accept it, the shame of
-my family would never make any difference to you?”
-
-She cried instantly, “That is what I’ve been trying to tell you! Of
-course it would not.”
-
-“You can say that?” he persisted. “It would make no difference
-whatever?”
-
-She was about to answer again; but he stopped her. “Wait and think. You
-must know just what I mean. It is not a thing about which I could endure
-a mistake. Think of your family—your friends—your whole world! And think
-of everything that might arise between us!”
-
-She stared at him, startled. He was asking if he might make love to her!
-She had not meant it to go so far as that—but there it was. Her own
-recklessness, and his forthrightness, had brought it to that point. And
-what could she say?
-
-“Think!” he was saying. “And don’t try to evade—don’t lie to me. Answer
-me the truth!”
-
-His eyes held hers. She waited—thinking, as he forced her to. At last,
-when she spoke, it was with a slightly trembling voice. “It would make
-no difference,” she said.
-
-And then she tried to continue looking at him, but she could not. She
-was blushing; it was a dreadful habit she had!
-
-It was an absolutely intolerable situation, and she must do
-something—instantly. _He_ never would—the dreadful sphinx of a man! She
-looked up. “Now we’re friends?” she asked.
-
-“Yes,” he replied.
-
-“Then,” she said, laughing, “reach under the saddle-cloth and get out my
-ring. I might lose it.”
-
-Bewildered, he got the ring, and understanding at last, laughed with
-her. “And now,” cried Sylvia, in her friendliest tone of voice, “get on
-your horse again and behave like a man of enterprise! Come!” She touched
-her mount and went galloping; she heard him pounding away behind her,
-and she began to sing:
-
- “Waken, lords and ladies gay,
- On the mountain dawns the day,
- All the jolly chase is near
- With hawk and hound and hunting-spear!”
-
-
- § 14
-
-They were good comrades now; all their problems solved, and a
-stirrup-cup of happiness to quaff between them. Sylvia was amazed at
-herself—the surge of exultation which arose in her and swept her along
-upon its crest. Never in all her life had she been as full of verve and
-animation as she was throughout that ride. She laughed, she sang, she
-poured out a stream of fantasy; and all the while the clatter of the
-horses hoofs—romance blending itself with reality!
-
-But also she was studying the man. There was something in her which must
-always be studying people. Thank Heaven, he was a man who could forget
-himself, and laugh and be good fun! It was something to have got him out
-of his melancholy, and set him to galloping here—admiring her, marveling
-at her! She felt his admiration like a storm of wind pushing her along.
-
-At last she drew up, breathless. “Dear me,” she exclaimed, “what a lot
-of chattering I have done! And we must be—how many miles from home?”
-
-“Ten, I should say,” he replied.
-
-“And I’ve had no breakfast!” she said. “We really _must_ go back.”
-
-He made no objection, and they turned. “You must come and see me at the
-lodge,” she said. “I am going home to-morrow afternoon.”
-
-But he shook his head. “Don’t ask me,” he replied. “You know I don’t
-belong among smart people.”
-
-She started to protest; but then she thought of Billy Aldrich with his
-tight collars and fancy stick-pins—of Malcolm McCallum with his Japanese
-valet; no, there was no use pretending about such things. And besides,
-she did not want these people to know her secret.
-
-“But where can we meet?” she said. (How perfectly appalling was
-that—without any hint from him!)
-
-“Can’t we ride again to-morrow morning?” he asked, quite simply.
-
-And so they settled it. He left her at the place where the road turned
-in to the lodge. He tried to thank her for what she had taken the
-trouble to do; but she was frightened now—she dared not stay and listen
-any longer to his voice. She waved him a bright farewell, and rode off,
-feeling suddenly faint and bewildered.
-
-She had half a mile or so to ride alone, and in that ride it was exactly
-as if he were by her side. She still heard his horse’s hoofs, and felt
-how he would look if she were to turn. Once she thought of Lady Dee, and
-then she could not help laughing. What _would_ Lady Dee have said! How
-many of the rules of coquetry had she not broken in the space of two
-brief hours! But after a little more thought, she consoled herself.
-Possibly there were moves in this game which even Lady Dee had never
-heard of! “I don’t think I managed it so badly,” she was saying to
-herself, as she dismounted from her horse.
-
-And that was the view she took when she told Harriet about it. She had
-not meant to tell Harriet at all, but the secret would out—she had to
-have some one to talk to. “Oh, my dear,” she exclaimed, “he’s perfectly
-wonderful!”
-
-“Who? What do you mean?” asked Harriet.
-
-“Frank Shirley.”
-
-“What? You’ve met him?”
-
-“Met him? I’ve been riding with him the whole morning, and I’ve almost
-let him propose to me!”
-
-“Sylvia!” cried Harriet, aghast.
-
-The other stood looking before her, grown suddenly thoughtful. “Yes, I
-did. And what’s more, I believe that to-morrow morning I’m _going_ to
-let him propose to me.”
-
-“Sunny,” exclaimed her friend, “are you a woman, or one of Satan’s
-imps?”
-
-For answer Sylvia took her seat at the piano and began to sing—a song by
-which all her lovers set much store:
-
- “Who is Sylvia? What is she,
- That all our swains commend her?
- Holy, fair and wise is she—
- The heavens such grace did lend her
- That she might adored be!”
-
-
- § 15
-
-Sylvia did very little thinking that first day—she was too much
-possessed by feelings. Besides this she had to go through all the
-routine of a house party; to go to breakfast and make apologies for her
-singular desire to ride alone; to go quail-shooting and remind Charlie
-Peyton to fire off his gun now and then; to curl her hair and select a
-gown for dinner—and all the while in a glow of happiness so intense as
-to come close to the borderland of pain.
-
-It was not a definite emotion, but a vague, suffused ecstasy. She was
-like one who goes about hearing exquisite music; angels singing in the
-sky above her, little golden bells ringing in every part of her body.
-And then always, penetrating the mist of her feelings, was the memory of
-Frank Shirley. She could see his eyes, as they had looked up at her; she
-could hear the tones of his voice—its low intensity as he had said,
-“Think of everything that might happen between us!” She would find
-herself blushing crimson at the dinner-table, and would have to chatter
-to hide her confusion.
-
-When night came she went into a sleep that was a half swoon of
-happiness; and awoke in the early dawn, first bewildered, then
-horrified, because of what she had done—her boldness, her lack of
-dignity and reserve. She had thrown herself at a man’s head! And of
-course he would be disgusted and would flee from her. She drank her
-coffee and dressed a full half hour too early; and meanwhile she was
-planning how she would treat him that morning. But then, suppose he did
-not come that morning?
-
-She rode out in the light of a sunrise she did not see, amid the song of
-birds she did not hear. Suppose he did not come! When she saw him, far
-up the road, she wanted to turn and flee. Her heart pounded, her cheeks
-burned, there was a clashing as of cymbals in her ears. She reined up
-her horse and sat motionless, telling herself that she must be calm. She
-clenched her hands and bit a little hole in her tongue; and so, when he
-arrived, he found a young woman of the world awaiting him.
-
-She saw at once that something was wrong with him. He too had been
-having moods and agonies, and had come full of resolutions and
-reservations! He greeted her politely, and had almost nothing to say as
-they rode away together. Sylvia’s heart sank. He had come because he had
-promised; but he was regretting his indiscretions. Very well, she would
-show him that she, too, could be polite! Under the spur of her fierce
-pride, she could be a light-hearted child, utterly unaware of the
-existence of any sulking male.
-
-So they rode on. It was such a beautiful morning, the odor of the
-pine-forests was so refreshing and the song of the birds so free, that
-Sylvia was soon all that she had set out to pretend. She forgot her
-cavalier for several minutes, laughing and humming. When she realized
-him again, she had the boldness to tease him about himself—
-
- “Oh, what can ail thee, knight-at-arms,
- Alone, and palely loitering?”
-
-And when he had no poetry ready to reply, she grew tired of him
-altogether, and touched her horse and cantered quickly on. Let him
-follow her if he chose—what mattered it! Moreover, she rode well, and
-men always noticed it; she was bare-headed, and no man ever saw the
-golden glory of her hair in bright sunlight that his heart did not begin
-to quiver within him!
-
-After a while he spurred his horse and rode at her side, and without
-looking, she saw that he was watching her. She gave him just a little
-smile, absent-minded and barely polite. Resolving to punish him still
-more, she asked him the time. He gravely drew out his watch and replied
-to her question. “I will ride as far as the spring,” she said. “Then I
-must be going back.”
-
-But he did not make the expected protest. He was going to lose her, and
-he did not care! Oh, what a man!
-
-As they drew near the spring, Sylvia began to be uneasy again. She did
-not want him to lose her; she wanted him to care. She stopped to breathe
-her horse, and to look at the moss-ringed pool of water, and at the
-field of golden-rod beyond. “How lovely!” she said; and repeated, “How
-lovely!” He never said a word—and when he might so easily have said,
-“Let us stay a while!”
-
-She was growing desperate. Her horse had got its breath and had had some
-water—what else? “I must have some of that golden-rod!” she exclaimed,
-suddenly. What was the matter with him, staring into space in that
-fashion? Had he no manners at all? “I must have some golden-rod,” she
-repeated; and when he still made no move, she said, “Hold my horse,
-please,” and started to dismount.
-
-He sprang off, and took the reins of her horse, and those of his own in
-the same hand, giving his other hand to her. It was the first time he
-had touched her, and it sent a shock through her that sent her flying in
-a panic—out into the field of flowers, where she could hide her cheeks
-and her trembling!
-
-
- § 16
-
-He made the horses fast to the fence, carefully and deliberately; and
-meantime she was gathering golden-rod. She knew that she made a picture
-in the midst of flowers. She was very much occupied as he came to her
-side.
-
-A moment later she heard his voice: “Miss Castleman.”
-
-Panic seized her again, but she looked up, with her last flicker of
-courage. “Well?” she asked.
-
-“There is something I want to tell you,” he began. “I can’t play this
-game with you—I am no match for you at all.”
-
-“Why—what do you mean?” she managed to say.
-
-As usual, she knew just what he meant. “I am not a man who can play with
-his emotions,” he said. “You must understand this at the very outset—the
-thing is real to me, and I’ve got to know quickly whether or not it is
-real to you.”
-
-There he was! Like a storm of wind that threatened to sweep away her
-pretenses, the whole pitiful little structure of her coquetry. But she
-could not let the structure go; it was her only shelter, and she strove
-desperately to hold it in place. “Why should you assume that I play with
-my emotions?” she demanded.
-
-“You play, not with your own, but with other peoples’ emotions,” he
-replied. “I know; I’ve heard about you—long ago.”
-
-She drew herself up haughtily. “You do not approve of me, Mr. Shirley?
-I’m very sorry.”
-
-“You must know—” he began.
-
-But she went on, in a rush of defensive recklessness: “You think I’m
-hollow—a coquette—a trifler with hearts. Well, I am. It’s all I know.”
-She flung her head up, looking at him defiantly.
-
-“No, Miss Castleman,” he said, “it’s _not_ all you know!”
-
-But her recklessness was driving her—that spirit of the gambler that was
-in the blood of all her race. “It _is_ all I know.” She bent over and
-began strenuously to pluck sprays of golden-rod.
-
-“To break men’s hearts?” he asked.
-
-She laughed scornfully. “I had a great-aunt, Lady Dee—perhaps you’ve
-heard of her. She taught me—and I’ve found out through much experience
-that she was right.” She gazed at him boldly, over the armful of
-flowers. “‘Sylvia, never let yourself be sorry for men. Let them take
-care of themselves. They have all the advantage in the game. They are
-free to come and go, they pick us up and look us over and drop us when
-they feel like it. So we have to learn to manage them. And, believe me,
-my child, they like it—it’s what they’re made for!’”
-
-“And you believe such things as that?”
-
-She laughed, a superbly cynical laugh, and began to gather more flowers.
-“I used to think they were cruel—when I was young. But now I know that
-Aunt Lady was right. What else have men to do but to make love to us?
-Isn’t it better for them than getting drunk, or gambling, or breaking
-their necks hunting foxes? ‘It’s the thing that lifts them above the
-brute,’ she used to say. ‘Naturally, the more of them you lift, the
-better.’”
-
-“Did she teach you to deceive men deliberately?”
-
-“She told me that when she was ordering her wedding trousseau, she was
-engaged to a dozen; a cousin of hers was engaged to another dozen, and
-couldn’t make up her mind which to choose, so she sent notes to them all
-to say that she’d marry the man who got to her first.”
-
-He smiled—his slow, quiet smile. Sylvia did not know how he was taking
-these things; nor did his next remark enlighten her. “Did it not
-surprise you to be taught that men were the centre of creation?”
-
-“No. They taught me that God was a man.”
-
-He laughed, then became grave. “Why do you need so many men? You can’t
-marry but one.”
-
-“Not in the South. But when I am ready to marry that one, I want it to
-be the one I want; and the only way to be sure is to have a great many
-wanting _you_. When a man sees a girl so surrounded with suitors that he
-can’t get near her, he knows it’s the one girl in the world for him.
-Aunt Lady had a saying about it, full of wisdom.” And Sylvia looked very
-wise herself. “‘Men are sheep!’”
-
-“I see,” he said, somewhat grimly. “I fear, Miss Castleman, I cannot
-enter such a competition.”
-
-“Is it cowardice?”
-
-“Perhaps. It has been said that discretion is the better part of valor.
-You see, to me love is not a game, but a reality. It could never be that
-to you, I fear.”
-
-Poor Sylvia! She was trying desperately hard to remember and make use of
-her training. But the rules she had learned were, so to speak, for
-fresh-water sailing; no one had ever thought that her frail craft might
-be blown out upon a stormy ocean like this. Picture her as a terrified
-navigator, striving to steer with a broken rudder, and gazing up into a
-mountain-wave that comes roaring down upon her!
-
-He was a man who meant what he said. She had tried her foolish arts upon
-him and had only disgusted him. He was going away; and once he had left
-her, she would be powerless to get hold of him again!
-
-Love could never be a reality to her, he had said. With sudden tears in
-her voice she exclaimed, “It could! It could!”
-
-His whole aspect changed in a moment. A fire seemed to leap into his
-eyes. “You mean that?” he asked. And that was enough for her. As he
-moved towards her, she backed away a step or two. She thrust out the
-great bunch of golden-rod, filling his arms with that, and retreated
-farther into the yellow field.
-
-He stood for a moment, nonplussed, looking rather comical with his
-unexpected load. Then he turned away without a word, and went to where
-his horse was fastened, and began to tie the flowers to his saddle.
-
-She joined him before he had finished and mounted her own horse, saying
-casually, “It is late. We must return.” He mounted and rode beside her
-in silence.
-
-At last he remarked, “You are going away this afternoon?”
-
-“Yes,” she said.
-
-“Then where can I see you?”
-
-“You will have to come to my home.”
-
-There was a pause. “It will be a difficult experience,” he observed.
-“You will have to help me through it.”
-
-She answered, promptly, “You must come as any other man would come. You
-must learn to do that—you must simply not _know_ what other people are
-thinking.”
-
-At which he smiled sadly. “There is nothing in that. When everybody in
-the world is thinking one thing about you, you find there’s no use
-pretending not to know what it is.”
-
-There he was again—simple and direct. He had a vision of the hostility
-of her relatives, the horror of her friends; he went on to speak his
-thoughts quite baldly. Was she prepared to face these difficulties? She
-might have the courage, she might not; but at least she must be
-forewarned, and not encounter them blindly. She said, “My own people
-will be kind, I assure you.” And when he smiled dubiously, she added,
-“Leave it to me. I promise you I’ll manage them.”
-
-
- § 17
-
-Sylvia, as you know, had been taught to discuss the affairs of her heart
-in the language of military science. Continuing the custom, the fortress
-of her coquetry had withstood an onslaught which had brought dismay to
-the garrison, who had never before known what it was to be in real
-danger. In the hope of restoring confidence to the troops there was now
-undertaken a raid into the territory of perfectly innocent and
-defenseless neighbors.
-
-The first victim was Charlie Peyton. He had implored one last
-opportunity to prove his devotion—being unable to imagine how his
-devotion could be of no interest to Sylvia. So the guests of the house
-party were treated to the amazing spectacle of this dignified and
-self-conscious youth standing for two hours in the crotch of an
-apple-tree. Meanwhile Sylvia went off for a walk with Malcolm McCallum;
-and when at last Charlie’s time was up, and he set out in search of her,
-he found his rival occupied in crawling on his knees the length of a
-splintery dock which ran out into the lake. Sylvia sat by, absorbed in a
-book, and when Charlie questioned her as to the meaning of this strange
-phenomenon, she replied that Mr. McCallum (known to us previously as
-“the Louisville dandy”) was probably experimenting with the creases in
-his trousers.
-
-Dressing for luncheon and the trip home, Sylvia had a consultation with
-her friend Harriet. “Do you suppose I’m really in love?” was her
-question.
-
-“With whom?” asked Harriet.
-
-But Sylvia paid no heed to this feeble wit. “I don’t think he approves
-of me, Harriet. He thinks I’m shallow and vain—a trifler with hearts.”
-
-“What would you have him think?” persisted the other.
-
-“He isn’t like other men, Harriet. He makes me ashamed of myself. I
-think I ought to treat him differently.”
-
-Whereat her friend became suddenly serious. “Look here, Sunny, don’t you
-lose your nerve! You stick to your game!”
-
-“But suppose he won’t stand it?”
-
-“_Make_ him stand it! Take my advice, now, and don’t go trying
-experiments. You’ve learned one way, and you’re a wonder at it—don’t get
-yourself mixed up at the critical moment.”
-
-Sylvia was gazing at herself in the mirror, wondering at the look on her
-own face. “I don’t know what to do next!” she cried.
-
-“The Lord takes care of children and fools,” said Harriet. “I hope He’s
-on His job!” Then the luncheon gong sounded, and they went downstairs.
-
-There was a new man, who had arrived the night before. He was named
-Pendleton, and Sylvia found herself placed next to him. She suspected
-that he had arranged this, and was bored by the prospect, and purposely
-talked with Charlie Peyton on her other side. Towards the end of the
-meal a servant came in and whispered to the hostess, who rose suddenly
-with the exclamation, “Frank Shirley is here!” Amid the general silence
-that fell Sylvia began suddenly to eat with assiduity.
-
-The hostess went out, and returned after a minute or so with Frank at
-her heels. “Do sit down,” she was saying. “At least have some of this
-sherbet.”
-
-“I’ve had my luncheon,” he replied; “I supposed you’d have finished.”
-But he seated himself at the table, as requested. There was a general
-pause, everybody expecting some explanation; but he volunteered none.
-
-Opposite to Sylvia was Belle Johnston, an insipid young person who had a
-reputation for wit, for which she made other people pay. “Did you think
-it looked like rain, Mr. Shirley?” she inquired. Sylvia could have
-destroyed her.
-
-“The weather is very pleasant,” said Frank. No one could be sure whether
-he was imperturbable, or had missed the jest altogether.
-
-Harriet, seeing her friend’s alarming appetite and discomfort, stepped
-in now to save the situation. “I hope you brought me a message from your
-sister,” she remarked. “I am expecting one.”
-
-But Frank would have none of any such devices. “I’m sorry,” he said,
-“but I haven’t brought it.”
-
-Sylvia was furious. Had he no tact, no social sense at all—not even any
-common gratitude? He ought to have waited outside, where he would have
-been less conspicuous; instead of sitting there, dumb as an oyster,
-looking at her and obviously waiting for her! Sooner or later everyone
-must notice.
-
-With a sudden impulse she turned to the man at her side. “I am sorry you
-came so late,” she said.
-
-“I am more than sorry,” he replied, brightening instantly.
-
-“I really must go home this afternoon,” she said.
-
-He was encouraged by her tone of regret. “I think I will tell you
-something,” he said.
-
-“Well?”
-
-“I came here on purpose to meet you. I was visiting my friends, the
-Allens, at Thanksgiving, and all the men there were talking of you.”
-
-This, of course, was ancient history to Sylvia. “What were they saying?”
-she asked—and stole a glance at Frank.
-
-“They said you’d never let a man go without hurting him. At least, not
-if you thought him worth while.”
-
-“Dear me!” she exclaimed, astonished and flattered. “I wonder that you
-weren’t afraid to meet me!”
-
-“I was amused,” answered the other. “I thought to myself, I’d like to
-see her hurt me.”
-
-Sylvia lifted her delicate eyebrows and gave him a slow, quiet stare,
-four-fifths scorn and one-fifth challenge.
-
-“Gad!” he exclaimed. “You are interesting for a fact! When you look like
-that!”
-
-“Not otherwise?” she inquired, now wholly scornful.
-
-“Oh, you’re not the most beautiful woman I ever saw! Nor the cleverest!”
-
-“Do not challenge me like that.”
-
-“Why not?” he laughed.
-
-“You might regret it.”
-
-“It would be a good adventure—I’d be willing to pay the price to see the
-game. I admire a woman who knows her business.”
-
-So the banter continued; the man displaying his cleverness and Sylvia
-casting upon him glances of mockery, of contempt, half veiling curiosity
-and interest. He, of course, being secretly convinced of his own
-irresistibility, was noting these glances and speculating about them,
-thrilled by them without realizing it, persuading himself that the girl
-was really coming to admire him. This was a kind of encounter which had
-occurred, not once, but a hundred times in Sylvia’s career, and usually
-it meant nothing in particular to her. But now it brought a reckless
-joy, because of the shock it was giving to that other man—the terrible
-man who sat across the way, his eyes boring into her very soul!
-
-
- § 18
-
-When the luncheon was over, Sylvia made her way to Harriet Atkinson and
-caught her by the arm. “Harriet!” she exclaimed. “You must help me!”
-
-“What?” whispered the other.
-
-“I can’t see him!”
-
-“But why not?”
-
-“He wants to lecture me, and I won’t stand it! I’m going into the
-garden—take him somewhere else—you must!” Then, seeing Frank making
-toward her, she gave Harriet a vicious pinch, and fled from the room.
-There was a summer-house in the garden at the far end, and thither she
-went upon flying feet.
-
-I was never sure how it happened—whether, as Harriet always vowed, she
-tried to hold Frank and could not, or whether she turned traitor to her
-friend. At any rate Sylvia had been there not more than a minute, and
-had scarcely begun to get control of herself, when she heard a step, and
-looking up, saw Frank Shirley coming down the path.
-
-There was but one door to the summer-house—and he soon occupied that.
-“Go away!” she cried. “Go away!” (That was all that was left of her
-_savoir faire_!)
-
-He stopped. “Miss Castleman,” he said—and his voice was hard, “I came
-here to see you. But now I’m sorry I came.”
-
-The garrison rallied as to a trumpet-call. “That is too bad, Mr.
-Shirley,” she said, with appalling _hauteur_. “But you know you do not
-have to stay an instant.”
-
-He gazed at her in doubt for a moment. Her heart was pounding and the
-color flooding her face. “I don’t believe you know what you are doing!”
-he exclaimed.
-
-“Really!” she replied, witheringly. “Do you?”
-
-“No,” he went on, “I don’t understand you at all. But I simply _will_
-find out!”
-
-He strode towards her. She shrank into the seat, but he caught her
-hands. For a moment she resisted; but he held fast, and from his hands
-she felt a current as of fire, flowing through all her veins.
-
-Slowly he drew her to her feet. “Sylvia!” he whispered. “Sylvia! Look at
-me!”
-
-She obeyed him instinctively, and their eyes met. “You love me!” he
-exclaimed. She could hear his quick breathing. She felt herself sinking
-towards him. She felt his arms about her, his breath upon her cheek.
-
-“I love you!” he murmured. And she closed her eyes, and he kissed her
-again and again. In his kisses it seemed to her that she would melt
-away.
-
-She was exultant and happy. The testimony of his love was rapture to
-her. But then suddenly came a fear which they had inculcated in her. All
-the women who had ever talked to her on the problem of the
-male-creature—all agreed that nothing was so fatal as to allow the
-taking of “liberties.” Also there came sudden shame. She began to
-struggle. “You must not kiss me! It is not right!”
-
-“But, Sylvia!” he protested. “I love you!”
-
-“Oh, stop!” she pleaded. “Stop!”
-
-“You love me!” he whispered.
-
-“Please, please stop!”
-
-A gentle pressure would have held her, but she felt that he was
-releasing her—all but one hand. She sank down upon the seat, trembling.
-“Oh, you ought not to have done it!” she cried.
-
-He asked, “Why not?”
-
-“No man has ever done that to me before!” The thought of what he had
-done, the memory of his lips upon her cheek, sent the blood flying there
-in hot waves; she began to sob: “No, no! You should not have done it!”
-
-“Sylvia!” he pleaded, surprised by her vehemence. “Don’t you realize
-that you love me?”
-
-“I don’t know! I’m afraid! I must have time!” She was weeping
-convulsively now. “You will never respect me again!”
-
-“You must not say such a thing as that! It is not true!”
-
-“You will go away and remember it, and you will despise me!”
-
-His voice was calm and very soothing. “Sylvia,” he said, “I have told
-you that I love you. And I believe that you love me. If that is so, I
-had a perfect right to kiss you, and you had a perfect right to let me
-kiss you.”
-
-There he was, sensible as ever; Sylvia found the storm of her emotion
-dying away. She had time to recall one of the maxims of Lady Dee: “A
-woman should never let a man see her weeping. It makes her cheeks pale
-and her nose red.” She resolved that she would stay in the protecting
-shadows of the summer-house until after he had departed.
-
-
- § 19
-
-She went home; and at the dinner-table she was telling some of the
-adventures of the house party. “Oh, by the way,” she said, carelessly,
-“I met Frank Shirley.”
-
-“Really?” exclaimed Mrs. Castleman. “Those poor, unfortunate people!”
-
-“He must be quite a man now,” said Aunt Varina. “How old is he?”
-
-“About twenty-one,” said the mother. Sylvia was amazed; she had not
-thought definitely of his age, but he had seemed a mature man to her.
-
-“I see him now and then,” put in the Major. “He comes to town. Not a
-bad-looking chap.”
-
-“He asked if he might call,” said Sylvia. “I told him, Yes. Was that
-right, Papa?”
-
-“Why, certainly,” was the reply.
-
-“He seems a very shy, silent kind of man,” she added. “He wasn’t sure
-that he’d be welcome.”
-
-“Why, my dear,” exclaimed Mrs. Castleman. “I’m sure we’ve never made any
-difference in our treatment of the Shirleys!”
-
-“Bob Shirley’s children will always be welcome to my home, so long as
-they behave themselves,” declared the father.
-
-And so Sylvia left the matter, content with their attitude. Frank was
-wrong in his estimate of her family.
-
-Two days later there came a negro man, riding a mule and carrying a bag,
-with a note from Frank. He begged her to accept this present of quail,
-because she had lost so much of her hunting time, and Charlie Peyton’s
-aim had been so bad. Sylvia read the note, and got from it a painful
-shock. The handwriting was boyish and the manner of expression crude.
-She was used to leisure-class stationery, with her monogram in gold at
-the top, and this was written upon a piece of cheap paper. Somehow it
-made the whole matter seem unreal and incredible to her. She found
-herself trying to recall how he looked.
-
-So she went to sleep; and awakening early the next morning, waiting for
-the agreeable tinkle of the approaching coffee-cup—there suddenly he
-came to her! Just as real as he had been in the summer-house, with his
-breath upon her cheek! The delicious, blinding ecstasy possessed her
-again—and then fresh humiliation at the memory of his kisses! Oh, why
-did he not come to see her—instead of leaving her the prey of her fancy?
-She could not escape from the idea that she had lost his respect by
-flinging herself at his head—by permitting him to kiss her.
-
-The next morning came the negro again, this time with a great bunch of
-golden-rod. “What a present!” exclaimed the whole family; but Sylvia
-understood and was happy. “It’s because of my hair,” she told the
-others, laughing. It must be that he loved her, despite her
-indiscretions!
-
-He wrote that he was coming to see her that evening; and that because of
-the length of the ride, he would accept her invitation and come to
-dinner. So Sylvia braced herself for the ordeal.
-
-She dressed very simply, so as not to attract attention. Uncle
-Mandeville was there, and two girl cousins from Louisville, visiting the
-family, and two of the Bishop’s boys and one of Barry Chilton’s, who
-dropped in at the last moment to see them. That was the way at Castleman
-Hall—there were never less than a dozen people at any meal, and the cook
-allowed for twenty. To all this crowd Sylvia had to introduce her
-strange new conquest, ignoring their glances of inquiry and parrying
-their mischievous shafts.
-
-I must let you see this family at dinner. At the head of the table sits
-the Major, with gray hair and a gray imperial, wearing his black vest
-cut so low that he can plead it is evening dress; still adhering
-valiantly to the custom of his fathers, and carving the roast for his
-growing family, while the littlest girls, who come last, follow each
-portion with hungry eyes and count the number intervening. At the foot
-sits Mrs. Castleman, serving the salad and dessert, her ample figure
-robed in satin. “Miss Margaret” is just at that stage of her life, after
-the birth of the son and heir, when she has definitely abandoned the
-struggle with an expanding waistline. When I met her, some years later,
-she weighed two hundred and eighty pounds, and was the best-natured and
-most comically inefficient human soul I have ever encountered in my
-life.
-
-There is Aunt Varina Tuis, humble and inconspicuous, weary after a day
-of trotting up and down stairs after the housekeeper, to see that the
-embroidered napkins were counted before they went to the laundry, that
-the drawing-room furniture was dusted, the dead flowers taken out of the
-dining-room, the fleas in the servants’ quarters kept in subjection.
-Mrs. Tuis’ queer little voice is seldom heard at the dinner-table,
-unless she is appealed to in some matter of family history: whom this
-one married, whom that one had been engaged to, whether or not it was
-true that some neighbor’s grandfather had kept a grocery store, as
-rumored.
-
-Then there is Uncle Mandeville, home to recuperate from a spree in New
-Orleans; enormous in every direction, rosy-faced and prosperous, with a
-resounding laugh and an endless flow of fun. Beside him sits Celeste,
-the next daughter, presenting a curious contrast to Sylvia, with her
-restless black eyes, her positive manner and worldly viewpoint. There
-are the two cousins from Louisville, healthy and radiant, and the two
-Chilton boys, Clive and Harley, and Barry’s boy, who is a giant like
-Uncle Mandeville, and whenever he laughs, makes the cut glass to rattle
-on the buffet.
-
-All this family hunts in one pack. They know all each other’s affairs,
-and take an interest in them, and stand together against the rest of the
-world. They are a noisy crew, good-humored, careless, but with hot
-tempers and little control of them—so that when their interests clash
-and they get on one another’s toes, they quarrel as violently as before
-they loved. Their conversation is apt to be bewildering to a stranger,
-for they seldom talk about general questions, having a whole arcanum of
-family allusions not easily understood. At this meal, for example, they
-are merry for half an hour over the latest tales of the doings of an
-older brother of Clive and Harley, who has married a girl with rich
-parents, but is too proud to take a dollar from them, and is forcing his
-bride to play at decent poverty. When the provisions run out they visit
-the Bishop, or the Major, or Uncle Barry, as may be most convenient, and
-go off with an automobile-load of hams and sausage-puddings and pickles
-and preserves. How many jokes there are, and what gales of merriment go
-round the table! The Bishop’s son the first kleptomaniac in the family!
-Barry’s young giant declaring that a single smile from the bride cost
-his father a cow and calf! The little girls, Peggy and Maria, chiming in
-with their tale of how the predatory couple found a lone chicken
-foraging in the rose-garden, confiscated it, carried it off under
-Basil’s coat, tied it by the leg under the piazza at the back of their
-house in town—and then forgot it and let it starve to death!
-
-Sylvia sat watching this tableful of care-free, rollicking people—the
-men handsome, finely built, well-fed and well-groomed, the women
-delicate, soft-skinned and exquisitely gowned—representing the best type
-their civilization could produce. A pleasant scene it was, with snowy
-damask cloth and bouquets of roses, precious old silver and quaint
-hand-painted china, with a background of mahogany furniture and paneled
-walls. She watched Frank in the midst of it, thinking of his home as
-Harriet had pictured it—the people subdued and sombre, the stamp of
-poverty upon everything. She was glad to see that he was able to fit
-himself into the mood of this company, enjoying the sallies of fun and
-pleasing those he talked to.
-
-The house being full of young couples who wanted to be alone, Sylvia
-took Frank into the library. She liked this room, with its red leather
-furniture and cozy fireplace, and queer old book-cases with
-diamond-shaped panes of glass. She liked it because the lights were on
-the table, and no woman looks beautiful when lighted from over her head.
-This may seem a small matter to you, but Sylvia had learned how much
-depends upon detail. She remembered one of the maxims of Lady Dee: “Get
-a man on your home-ground, where you can have things as you want them;
-and then place your chair to show the best side of your face.”
-
-These things I set down as Sylvia told them to me—a long time
-afterwards, when we could laugh over them. It was a fact about her all
-the way through, that whatever she did, good or bad, she knew why she
-was doing it. In this she differed from a good many other women, who are
-not honest, even with themselves, and who feel that things become vulgar
-only when they are mentioned. The study of her own person and its charms
-was of course the very essence of her rôle as a “belle.” At every stage
-of her life she had been drilled and coached—how to dance, how to enter
-a drawing-room, how to receive a compliment, how to toy with a suitor.
-At Miss Abercrombie’s, the young ladies had an etiquette teacher who
-gave them instructions in the most minute details of their deportment;
-not to bend your body too much, but mainly your knees, when you sat
-down; not to let your hands lie flat at your sides, but to turn your
-little fingers gracefully out; never to hesitate or think of yourself
-when entering a room, but to fix your thoughts upon some person, and
-move towards that person with decision. Sylvia had needed this last
-instruction especially, for in the beginning she had had a terrible time
-entering rooms. It should be a comfort to some would-be belles to know
-that Sylvia Castleman, who attained in the end to such eminence in her
-profession, was at the outset a terrified child with shaking knees and
-chattering teeth, who never would have gone anywhere of her own choice!
-
-
- § 20
-
-Now she was ready to try out all these instructions upon Frank. The
-scene was set and lighted, the curtain rose—but somehow there was a
-hitch in the performance. Frank was moody again. He sat staring before
-him, frowning somberly; and she looked at him in a confusion of
-anxieties. He did not love her after all—she had simply seized upon him
-and compelled his attention, and now he was longing to extricate
-himself! Even if this were not true, it would soon come to that, for she
-could think of nothing interesting to say, and he would be bored.
-
-She racked her wits. What could she talk about to a man who knew none of
-her “set,” who never went to balls or dinners, who could not conceivably
-care about polite gossip? Why didn’t _he_ say something—the silent man!
-What manners to take into company!
-
-“I must make him look at me,” she resolved. So without saying a word,
-she began taking a rose from her corsage and adjusting it in her hair.
-The motion distracted him, and she saw that he was watching. She had
-him!
-
-“Is that in right?” she asked. Of course a _la France_ rose in perfectly
-arranged hair is always “in right,” and Sylvia knew it. Her little
-device failed abjectly, for Frank answered simply “Yes,” and began
-staring into space again.
-
-She tried once more, contenting herself with the barest necessities of
-conversation. “Did you shoot those quail yourself?”
-
-Then he turned. “Miss Sylvia, I have something I must say to you. I’ve
-had time to think things over.” He paused.
-
-Ah, now it was coming! He had had time to think things over—and he
-called her “_Miss_ Sylvia!” Something cried out in her to make haste and
-release him before he asked it. But she could not speak—she was as if
-pinned by a lance.
-
-He went on. “Miss Sylvia, I had made up my mind that love was not for
-me. I knew that to women of my own class I was a man with a tainted
-name—a convict’s son; and I would rather die than marry beneath me. So I
-shut up my heart, and when I met a woman, I turned and went away—as I
-tried to do with you. But you would not have it, and I could not resist
-you. I’ve been amazed at the intensity of my own feelings; it’s
-something I could not have dreamed of—and unless I’m mistaken, it’s been
-the same with you.”
-
-It was a bold man who could use words such as those to Sylvia. To what
-merciless teasing he laid himself open! But she only drew a deep sigh of
-relief. He still loved her!
-
-“I forced myself to stay away,” he continued, without waiting for her to
-answer. “I said, ‘I must not go near her again. I must run away
-somewhere and get over it.’ And then again I said, ‘I can make her
-happy—I will marry her.’ I said that, but I’m not going to do it.”
-
-He paused. Oh, what a voice he had! Sylvia felt the blood ebbing and
-flowing in her cheeks, pounding in her ears. She could not hear his
-words very well—but he loved her!
-
-“Sylvia,” he was saying, earnestly—as if half to convince himself—“we
-must both of us wait. You must have time to consider what loving me
-would mean. You have all these people—happy people; and I have nothing
-like that in my life. You have this beautiful home, expensive
-clothes—every luxury. But I am a poor man. I have only a mortgaged
-plantation, with a mother and a brother and two sisters to share it. I
-have no career—I have not even an education. All your uncles, your
-cousins, your suitors, are college men, and I am a plain farmer. So I
-face what seems to me the worst temptation a man could have. I see you,
-and you are everything in the world that is desirable; and I believe
-that I could win you and carry you away from here. My whole being cries
-out, ‘Go and take her! She loves you! She wants you to!’ But instead, I
-have to come here and say, ‘Think it over. Make sure of your feelings;
-that it’s not simply a flush of excitement.’ You being the kind of
-tenderhearted thing you are, it might so easily be a romantic imagining
-about a man who’s apart from other men—one you feel sorry for and would
-like to help! You see what I mean? It isn’t easy for me to say it, but
-I’d be a coward if I didn’t say it—and mean it—and stand by it.”
-
-There was a long pause. Sylvia was thinking. How different it was from
-other men’s love-making! There was Malcolm McCallum, who had taken her
-driving yesterday, and had said what they all said: “Never mind if you
-don’t love me—marry me, and let me teach you to love me.” In other
-words, “Stake your life’s happiness upon a blind chance, at the command
-of my desire.” Of course they would surround her with all the external
-things of life, build her a great house and furnish it richly, deck her
-with silks and jewels and supply her with servants. All the world would
-come to admire her, and then she would be so grateful to her generous
-lord that she could not but love him.
-
-Her voice was low as she answered, “A woman does not really care about
-the outside things. She wants love most. She wants to be sure of her
-heart—but of the man’s heart too.”
-
-“As to that,” he said, “I will not trust myself to speak. You are the
-loveliest vision that has ever come to me. You are——”
-
-“I know,” she interrupted. “But that, too, is mostly surface. I am
-luxurious, I am artificial and shallow—a kind of butterfly.” This was
-what she said to men when she wished to be most deadly. But now she
-really meant it; there was a mist of tears in her eyes.
-
-“That is nothing,” he answered. “I am not such a fool that I can’t see
-all that. There are two people in you, as in all of us. The question is,
-which do you want to be?”
-
-“How can I say?” she murmured. “It would be a question of whether you
-loved me——”
-
-“Ah, Sylvia!” he cried, in a voice of pain that startled her. And
-suddenly he rose and began to pace the room. “I cannot talk about my
-feeling for you,” he said. “I made up my mind before I came here that I
-would not woo you—not if I had to bite off my tongue to prevent it. I
-said, ‘I will explain to her, and then I will go away and give her
-time.’ I want to play fair. I want to _know_ that I have played fair.”
-
-As he stood there, she could see the knotted tendons in his hands, she
-could see the agitation of his whole being. And suddenly a great current
-took her and bore her to him. She put her hands upon his shoulders,
-whispering, “Frank!”
-
-He stood stiff and silent.
-
-“I love you!” she said. “I love you!” She gave a little sob of
-happiness; and he caught her in his arms and pressed her to his bosom,
-crushing all her roses, and stifling her words with his kisses. And so,
-a few minutes later, Sylvia was lying back in her favorite chair, with
-the satisfaction of knowing at last that he was looking at her. A couple
-of hours later, when he went away, it was as her plighted lover.
-
-
- § 21
-
-Frank came again two days later; and then Mrs. Castleman made her first
-remark. “Sylvia,” she said, “you mustn’t flirt with that man.”
-
-“Why not, Mother?”
-
-“Because he’d probably take it seriously. And he’s had a hard time, you
-know. We can’t treat the Shirleys quite as we do other people.”
-
-“All right,” said Sylvia. “I’ll be careful.”
-
-Frank wanted the engagement made known at once—at least to the family.
-Such was his direct way. But Sylvia had an instinct against telling; she
-wanted a little time to watch and study and plan.
-
-It was hard, however; she was absolutely shining with happiness—there
-seemed to be a kind of soul-electricity that came from her and affected
-everyone she met. It gathered the men about her thicker than ever—and at
-the very time that she wanted to be alone with Frank and the thought of
-Frank!
-
-One evening when the Young Matrons’ Club gave its monthly cotillion,
-Frank, knowing nothing about this event, called unexpectedly. A visit
-meant to him forty miles on horseback; and so, to the general
-consternation, Sylvia refused to attend the dance. All evening the
-telephone rang and the protests poured in. “We won’t stand for it!” the
-men declared; and the women asked, “Who is it?” She had been to a
-bridge-party that afternoon, and everyone knew she was not sick. But
-what man could it be, when all the men were at the cotillion?
-
-So the gossip began; and a week later another incident gave it wings. It
-was a great occasion, the semi-annual ball of the Country Club, and
-Frank had been warned that Sylvia would not be at home. But he wanted to
-see her in her glory, and he galloped his twenty miles in darkness and
-rain, and turned up at the club-house at midnight, and stood in the
-doorway to watch. Sylvia, seeing him and realizing what his presence
-meant, was seized with a sudden impulse to acknowledge him. She stopped
-dancing, and sent her partner away, and stood talking to Frank. Oh, what
-a staring, what a wagging of tongues! Frank Shirley! Of all people in
-the world, Frank Shirley!
-
-Of course, the news came to the Hall. Early in the morning, Aunt Nannie
-called up, announcing a visit, and there followed a family conclave with
-Mrs. Castleman, Aunt Varina and Sylvia.
-
-“Sylvia,” said Mrs. Chilton, trying her best to look casual, “I
-understand that Frank Shirley was at the ball.”
-
-“Yes, Aunt Nannie.”
-
-There was a pause. “What was he doing there?” asked “Miss Margaret,”
-evidently having been coached.
-
-“Why, I’m sure, Mother, I don’t know.”
-
-“Did you invite him?”
-
-“Indeed, I did not.”
-
-“He isn’t a member of the Club, is he?”
-
-“No; but he knows lots of other people who are.”
-
-“Everybody is saying he came to see you,” broke in Aunt Nannie. “They
-say you stopped dancing to talk with him.”
-
-“I can’t help what they say, Aunt Nannie.”
-
-“Do you think,” inquired the Bishop’s wife, “that it was altogether wise
-to get your name associated with his?”
-
-“Isn’t he a gentleman?” asked Sylvia.
-
-“That’s all right, my dear, but you’ve got to remember that you live in
-the world, and must consider other people’s point of view.”
-
-“Do you mean, Aunt Nannie, that Frank Shirley’s to be excluded from
-society because of his father’s misfortune?”
-
-“Not excluded, Sylvia. There are shades to such things. The point is
-that a young girl—a girl conspicuous, like you——”
-
-“But, Aunt Nannie, I asked mother and father, and they were willing to
-receive him. Isn’t that true, Mother?”
-
-“Why, yes, Sylvia,” said “Miss Margaret,” weakly, “but I didn’t mean——”
-
-“It was all right for him to come here, once or twice,” interrupted Aunt
-Nannie. “But at a Club ball——”
-
-“The point is, Sylvia dear,” quavered Mrs. Tuis, “you will get yourself
-a reputation for singularity.”
-
-And the mother added, “You surely don’t have to do that to attract
-attention!”
-
-So there it was. All that fine sentiment about the unhappy Shirleys went
-like a film of mist before a single breath of the world’s opinion! They
-would not say it brutally—“He’s a convict’s son, and you can’t afford to
-know him too well.” It was not the Southern fashion—at least among the
-older generation—to be outspoken in worldliness. They had generous
-ideals, and made their boast of “chivalry;” but here, when it came to a
-test, they were all in accord with Aunt Nannie, who was said to “talk
-like a cold-blooded Northern woman.”
-
-Sylvia decided at once that some one must be told; so she went back to
-lunch with her aunt, and afterwards sought out the Bishop in his study.
-The walls of this room were lined with ancient theological treatises and
-sermons in faded greenish-black bindings: an array which never failed to
-appal the soul of Sylvia, who realized that she had consigned to the
-scrap-heap all this mass of learning—and had not yet apologized for her
-temerity.
-
-“Uncle Basil,” she began, “I have something very, very important to tell
-you.” The Bishop turned from his desk and gazed at her. “I am engaged to
-be married,” she said.
-
-“Why, Sylvia!” he exclaimed.
-
-“And I—I’m very much in love.”
-
-“Who is the man, my dear?”
-
-“It is Frank Shirley.”
-
-Sylvia was used to watching people and reading their thoughts quickly.
-She saw that her uncle’s first emotion was one of dismay. “Frank
-Shirley!”
-
-“Yes, Uncle Basil.”
-
-Then she saw him gather himself together. He was going to try to be
-fair—the dear soul! But she could not forget that his first emotion had
-been dismay. “Tell me about it, my child,” he said.
-
-“I met him at the Venable’s,” she replied, “only a couple of weeks ago.
-He’s an unusual sort of man, lonely and unhappy, very reserved and hard
-to get at. He fell in love with me—very much in love; but he didn’t want
-me to know it. He did tell me at last.”
-
-The Bishop was silent. “I love him,” she added.
-
-“Are you sure?”
-
-“As I’ve never loved anybody—as I never dreamed I could love.”
-
-There was a pause. “Uncle Basil—he’s a good man,” she said. “That is why
-I love him.”
-
-Again there was a pause. “Have you told your father and mother?” asked
-the Bishop.
-
-“Not yet.”
-
-“You must tell them at once, Sylvia.”
-
-“I know they will make objections, and I want you to meet Frank and talk
-with him. You see, Uncle Basil, I’m going to marry him—and I want your
-help.”
-
-The Bishop was silent again, weighing his next words. “Of course, my
-dear,” he said, “from a worldly point of view it is not a good match,
-and I fear your parents will regard it as a calamity. But, as you know,
-I think of nothing but the happiness of my darling Sylvia. I won’t say
-anything at all until I have met the man. Send him to see me, little
-girl, and then I will give you the best counsel I can.”
-
-
- § 22
-
-Frank went to pay his call the next day, and then came back to Sylvia.
-“He’s a dear old man,” he said. “And he wants what is best for you.”
-
-“What does he want?” demanded Sylvia.
-
-“He says we should not marry now—that I ought to be better able to take
-care of you. And of course he’s right.”
-
-There was a pause; then suddenly Frank exclaimed, “Sylvia, I can’t be
-just a farmer if I’m going to marry you.”
-
-“What can you be, Frank?”
-
-“I’m going to go to college.”
-
-“But that would take four years!”
-
-“No, it needn’t. I could dig in and get into the Sophomore class this
-winter. I’ve been through a military academy, and I was going to
-Harvard, where my father and my grandfather went, but I thought it was
-my duty to come home and see to the place. But now my brother has grown
-up, and he has a good head for business.”
-
-“What would you do ultimately?”
-
-“I’ve always wanted to study law, and I think now I ought to. Nobody is
-going to be willing for us to marry at once; and they’re much less apt
-to object to me if I’m seriously going to make something of myself.”
-
-Sylvia went over the next morning to get her uncle’s blessing. The good
-Bishop gave it to her—together with some exhortations which he judged
-she needed. They were summed up in one sentence which he pronounced:
-“There is nothing more unhappy in this world than a serious-minded man
-with a worldly-minded wife.” Poor old Uncle Basil, with his snow-white
-hair and his patient, saintly face, worn with care—how much of his own
-soul he put into that utterance! Sylvia laid her head upon his shoulder,
-and let the tears run down upon his coat.
-
-After a while, he remarked, “Sylvia, your aunt saw Frank come here.”
-
-“What!” exclaimed Sylvia. “You don’t mean that she’ll guess!”
-
-“She’s very clever at guessing, my child.” So Sylvia, as she rode home,
-realized that she had no more time to lose. When she got to the Hall,
-she set to work at once to carry out her plans.
-
-She found her Aunt Varina in her room with a headache. On her
-dressing-table was a picture of the late-lamented Mr. Tuis, which Sylvia
-picked up. By manifesting a little interest in it, she quickly got her
-aunt to talking on the subject of matrimony.
-
-Mrs. Tuis was the youngest of the Major’s sisters. In the face of the
-protests of her relatives she had married a comparatively “common” man,
-who was poor and had turned out to be a drunkard, and after leading Aunt
-Varina a dog’s life, had taken chloral. So Mrs. Tuis had come back to
-eat the bread of charity—which, though it was liberally sweetened with
-affection, had also a slightly bitter taste of compassion.
-
-Her ill-fated romance was a poor thing, perhaps—but her own. As she told
-it her bosom fluttered and the tears trickled down her cheeks; and when
-she had got to a state of complete deliquescence, her niece whispered:
-“Oh, Aunt Varina, I’m so glad you believe in love! Aunt Varina, will you
-keep a solemn secret if I tell it to you?”
-
-And so came the story of the amazing engagement. Mrs. Tuis listened with
-wide-open, startled eyes, every now and then whispering, “Sylvia!
-Sylvia!” Of course she was thrilled to the deeps of her soul by it; and
-of course, in the mood that she had been caught, she could not possibly
-refuse her sympathy. “You must help me with the others,” said the girl.
-“I’m going to tell mother next.”
-
-
- § 23
-
-The first thing that struck you about “Miss Margaret” was her appalling
-incompetence. But underneath it lay the most exclusively maternal soul
-imaginable. She had nursed her children when they were almost two years
-old, great healthy calves running about the place and standing up to
-suck; she had rocked them to sleep in her arms when they were big enough
-to be reading Virgil; she had shed as many tears over a broken finger as
-most mothers shed over a funeral. She wanted her daughters to be happy,
-and to this end she would give them anything that civilization provided;
-she would even be willing that one of them should marry a man whose
-father “wore stripes”—so far as she was concerned, and so long as she
-remained alone with the daughter. You must picture her, clasping Sylvia
-in her arms and weeping from general agitation; moved to pity by the
-tale of Frank’s loneliness, moved to awe by the tale of his goodness—but
-then suddenly smitten as by a thunderbolt with the thought: “What will
-people say! What will your Aunt Nannie say!”
-
-While Sylvia was bent upon having her way, you must not imagine that she
-did not feel any of these emotions. Although she was mostly Lady Lysle,
-her far-off ancestress, she was also a little of “Miss Margaret,” and
-was almost capsized in these gales of emotion. She remembered a hundred
-scenes of tenderness and devotion; she clasped the great girl-mother in
-her arms, and mingled their tears and vowed that she would never do
-anything to make her unhappy. It was a lachrymal lane—this pathway of
-Sylvia’s engagement!
-
-With her father she took a different line. She got the Major alone in
-his office and talked to him solemnly, not about love and romance, but
-about Frank Shirley’s character. She knew that the Major was disturbed
-by the wildness of the young men of the world about him; she had heard
-him discuss the pace at which Aunt Nannie’s boys were traveling. And
-here was a man who had sowed no wild oats, and had learned the lesson of
-self-control.
-
-She was surprised at the way the Major took it. He clutched the arms of
-his chair and went white when he caught the import of her discourse; but
-he heard her to the end, and then sat for a long while in silence.
-Finally, he inquired, “Sylvia, did anybody ever tell you why your Uncle
-Laurence killed himself?”
-
-“No,” she replied.
-
-“He was engaged to a girl, and her parents made her break off the match.
-I never knew why; but it ruined the girl’s life, as well as his, and it
-made a terrible impression on me. So I made a vow—and now, I suppose, is
-the time I have to keep it. I said I would never interfere in a
-love-affair of one of my children!”
-
-Sylvia was deeply affected, not only by his words, but by the intense
-agitation which she saw he was repressing. “Papa, does it seem so very
-dreadful to you?” she asked.
-
-Again there was a long wait before he answered. “It is something quite
-different from what I had expected,” he said. “It will make a difference
-in your whole life—to an extent which I fear you cannot realize.”
-
-“But if I really love him, Papa?”
-
-“If you really love him, my dear, then I will not try to oppose you. But
-oh, Sylvia, be sure that you love him! You must promise me to wait until
-I can be sure you are not mistaken about that.”
-
-“I expect to wait, Papa,” she said. “There will be no mistake.”
-
-They talked for half an hour or so, and then Sylvia went to her room.
-Half an hour later “Aunt Sarah,” the cook, came flying to her in great
-agitation. “Miss Sylvia, what’s de matter wid yo’ papa?”
-
-“What?” cried Sylvia, springing up.
-
-“He’s sittin’ on a log out beyan’ de garden, cryin’ fo’ to break his
-heart!”
-
-Sylvia fled to the spot, and fell upon her knees by him and flung her
-arms about him, crying, “Papa, Papa!” He was still sobbing; she had
-never seen him exhibit such emotion in her life before, and she was
-terrified. “Papa, what is it?”
-
-She felt him shudder and control himself. “Nothing, Sylvia. I can’t tell
-you.”
-
-“Papa,” she whispered, “do you object to Frank Shirley as much as that?”
-
-“No, my dear—it isn’t that. It’s that the whole thing has knocked me off
-my feet. My little girl is going away from me—and I didn’t know she was
-grown up yet. It made me feel so old!”
-
-He looked at her, trying to smile and feeling a little ashamed of his
-tears. She looked into the dear face, and it seemed withered and
-wrinkled all of a sudden. She realized with a pang how much he really
-had aged. He was working so hard—she would see him at his accounts late
-at night, when she was leaving for a ball, and would feel ashamed for
-her joys that he had to pay for. “Oh, Papa, Papa!” she cried, “I ought
-to marry a rich man!”
-
-“My child,” he exclaimed, “don’t let me hear you say a thing like that!”
-
-Poor, poor Major! He said it and he meant it; he was, I think, the most
-_naïve_ of all the members of his family. He was a “Southern gentleman,”
-not a business man; he hated money with his whole soul—hated it, even
-while he spent it and enjoyed what it brought him. He was like a chip of
-wood caught in a powerful current; swept through rapids and over
-cataracts, to his own boundless bewilderment and dismay.
-
-
- § 24
-
-“He is without any pride of family.” That had been the verdict upon the
-Major pronounced by his mother, who had been a grand lady in her own
-day. She would turn to her eldest daughter and say, “Look after him,
-Nannie! Make him keep his shoes shined!” And so now, towards the end of
-their conference, Sylvia and her father found themselves looking at each
-other and saying, “What will Aunt Nannie say?” Sylvia was laughing, but
-all the same she had not the nerve to face her aunt, and ’phoned the
-Bishop to ask him to break the news.
-
-Half an hour later the energetic lady’s automobile was heard at the
-door. And now behold, a grand council, with the Major and his wife, Mrs.
-Chilton, Mrs. Tuis, Mr. Mandeville Castleman, Sylvia and Celeste—the
-last having learned that something startling had happened, and being
-determined to find out about it.
-
-“Now,” began Aunt Nannie, “what is this that Basil has been trying to
-tell me?”
-
-There was no reply.
-
-“Mandeville,” she demanded, “have you heard this news?”
-
-“No,” said Uncle Mandeville.
-
-“That Sylvia has engaged herself to Frank Shirley!”
-
-“Good God!” said Uncle Mandeville.
-
-“Sylvia!” exclaimed Celeste, in horror.
-
-“Is it true?” demanded Aunt Nannie—in a tone which said that she
-declined to comment until official confirmation had been received.
-
-“It is true,” said Sylvia.
-
-“And what have you to say about it?” inquired Aunt Nannie. She looked
-first at the Major, then at his wife, and then at Mrs. Tuis; but no one
-had anything to say.
-
-“I can’t quite believe that you’re in your right senses,” continued the
-speaker. “Or that I have heard you say the words. What _can_ have got
-into you?”
-
-“Nannie,” said the Major, clearing his throat, “Sylvia doesn’t want to
-marry him for a long time.”
-
-“But she proposes to be engaged to him, I understand!”
-
-“Yes,” admitted the other.
-
-“And this engagement is to be announced?”
-
-“Why—er—I suppose——”
-
-“Certainly,” put in Sylvia.
-
-“And when, may I ask?”
-
-“At once.”
-
-“And is there nobody here who has thought of the consequences? Possibly
-you have overlooked the fact that one of my daughters has planned to
-marry Ridgely Peyton next month. That is to be called off?”
-
-“What do you mean, Aunt Nannie?”
-
-“Can you be childish enough to imagine that the Peytons will consent to
-marry into a family with a convict’s son in it?”
-
-“Nannie!” protested the Major.
-
-“I know!” replied Mrs. Chilton. “Sylvia doesn’t like the words. But if
-she proposes to marry a convict’s son, she may as well get used to them
-now as later. It’s the thing that people will be saying about her for
-the balance of her days; the thing they’ll be saying about all of us
-everywhere. Look at Celeste there—just ready to come out! How much
-chance she’ll have—with such a start! Her sister engaged to Frank
-Shirley!”
-
-Sylvia turned to Celeste, and the eyes of these two met. Celeste turned
-pale, and her look was eloquent of dismay.
-
-“Nannie,” put in the Major, protestingly, “Frank Shirley is a fine,
-straight fellow——”
-
-“I’ve nothing to say against Frank Shirley,” exclaimed the other. “I
-know nothing about him, and never expect to know anything about him. But
-I know the story of his family, and I know that he’s no right in ours.
-And what’s more, he knows it too—if he were a man with any conscience or
-self-respect, he’d not consent to ruin Sylvia’s life!”
-
-“Aunt Nannie,” broke in the girl, “is one to think of nothing in
-marriage but worldly pride?”
-
-“Worldly pride!” ejaculated the other. “You call it worldly
-pride—because you, who have been the favorite child of the Castlemans,
-who have been given every luxury, every privilege, are asked not to
-trample your sisters and cousins! To give way to a blind passion, and
-put a stain upon our name that will last for generations! Where do you
-suppose you’d have been to-day if your forefathers had acted in such
-fashion? Do you imagine that you’d have been the belle of Castleman
-Hall, the most sought-after girl in the state?”
-
-That was the argument. For some minutes Mrs. Chilton went on to pour it
-forth. And angry as she was, Sylvia could not but feel the force of it,
-and realize the effect it was producing on the other members of the
-council. It was not the voice of a woman speaking; it was the voice of
-something greater than any of them, or than all of them together—a thing
-that had come from dim-distant ages, and would continue into an
-impenetrable future. It was the voice of the Family! No light thing it
-was, in truth, to be the favorite daughter of the Castlemans! Not a
-responsibility one could evade, an honor one could decline!
-
-“You are where you are to-day,” proclaimed the speaker, “because other
-women thought of you when they chose their husbands. And I have never
-observed in you any unwillingness to accept the advantages they have
-handed on to you, any contempt for admiration and success. You are only
-a girl, of course; you can’t be expected to realize all the meaning of
-your marriage to your family; but your mother and father know, and they
-ought to have impressed it on you, instead of leaving you to run wild
-and be trapped by the first unprincipled man that came along!”
-
-There was a pause. The Major and his wife sat in silence, with a guilty
-look upon their faces. “Worldly pride!” exclaimed Aunt Nannie, turning
-upon them. “Have you told her about your own marriage?”
-
-“What do you mean?” asked the Major.
-
-“You know very well,” was the reply, “that Margaret, when she married
-you, was head over heels in love with a nice, respectable, poor young
-preacher. And that she married you, not because she was in love with
-you, but because she knew that you were a noble-minded gentleman, the
-head of the oldest and best family in the county.” And then Aunt Nannie
-turned upon Sylvia. “Suppose,” she demanded, “that your mother had been
-sentimental and silly, and had run away with the preacher—have you any
-idea where you’d be now?”
-
-Sylvia was hardly to be blamed for having no answer to this question,
-which might have been too much for the most learned scientist. There was
-silence in the council.
-
-“Or take Mandeville,” pursued the Voice of the Family.
-
-“Nannie!” protested Mandeville.
-
-“You don’t want it talked about, I know,” said the other, “but this is a
-time for truth-telling. Your Uncle Mandeville was madly in love with a
-girl—a girl who had position, and money too; but he would not marry her
-because she had a sister who was ‘fast,’ and he would not bring such
-blood into the family.”
-
-There was a pause. Uncle Mandeville’s head was bowed.
-
-“And do you remember,” persisted Aunt Nannie, “that when the question
-was being discussed, your brother here asked that his growing daughters
-be spared having to hear about a scandal? Do you remember that?”
-
-“Yes,” said Mandeville, “I remember that.”
-
-“And how much nobler was such conduct than that of your Uncle Tom.
-Think——”
-
-One could feel a sudden thrill go through the assembly. “Oh!” cried Miss
-Margaret, protestingly; and Mrs. Tuis exclaimed, “Nannie!”
-
-“Think of what happened to Tom’s wife!” the other was proceeding; but
-here she was stopped by a firm word from the Major. “We will not discuss
-that, sister!”
-
-There was a solemn pause, during which Sylvia and Celeste stared at each
-other. They knew that Uncle Tom Harley, their mother’s brother, was an
-army officer stationed in the far West; but they had never heard before
-that he had a wife, and were amazed and a little frightened by the
-revelation. It is in moments such as these, when the tempers of men and
-women strike sparks, that one gets glimpses of the skeletons that are
-hidden far back in the corners of family closets!
-
-
- § 25
-
-There was a phrase which Sylvia had heard a thousand times in the
-discussions of her relatives; it was “bad blood.” “Bad blood” was a
-thing which possessed and terrified the Castleman imagination. Sylvia
-had but the vaguest ideas of heredity. She had heard it stated that
-tuberculosis and insanity were transmissible, and that one must never
-marry into a family where these disorders appeared; but apparently,
-also, the family considered that poverty and obscurity were
-transmissible—besides the general tendency to do things of which your
-neighbors disapproved. And you were warned that these evils often
-skipped a generation and reappeared. You might pick out a most excellent
-young man for a husband, and then see your children return to the
-criminal ways of his ancestors.
-
-That was Aunt Nannie’s argument now. When Sylvia cried, “What has Frank
-Shirley done?” the reply was, “It’s not what he did, but what his father
-did.”
-
-“But,” cried the girl, “his father was innocent! I’ve heard Papa say it
-a hundred times!”
-
-“Then his uncle was guilty,” was Aunt Nannie’s response. “Somebody took
-the money and gambled it away.”
-
-“But is gambling such a terrible offence? It seems to me I’ve heard of
-some Castlemans gambling.”
-
-“If they do,” was the reply, “they gamble with their own money.”
-
-At which Sylvia cried, “Nothing of the kind! They have gambled, and then
-come to Uncle Mandeville to get him to pay their debts!”
-
-Now that was a body-blow; for it was Aunt Nannie’s own boys who had
-adopted this custom, which Sylvia had heard sternly reprehended in the
-family councils. Aunt Nannie flushed, and Uncle Mandeville made haste to
-interpose—“Sylvia, you should not speak so to your aunt.”
-
-“I don’t see why not,” declared the girl. “I am saying nothing but what
-is true; and I have been attacked in the thing that is most precious in
-life to me.”
-
-Here the Major felt it his duty to enter the debate. “Sylvia,” he said,
-“I don’t think you quite realize your aunt’s feelings. It is no selfish
-motive that leads her to make these objections.”
-
-“Not selfish?” asked the girl. “She’s admitted it’s her fear for her own
-daughters, Papa——”
-
-“It’s just exactly as much for your own sister, Sylvia.” It was the
-voice of Celeste, entering the discussion for the first time. Sylvia
-stared at her, astonished, and saw her eyes alight, her face as set and
-hard as Aunt Nannie’s. Sylvia realized all at once that she had an enemy
-in her own house.
-
-She was trembling violently as she made reply. “Then, Celeste, I have to
-give up everything that means happiness in life to me, because I might
-frighten away rich suitors from my sister?”
-
-“Sylvia,” put in the Major, gravely, before Celeste could speak, “you
-must not say things like that. It is not because Frank Shirley is poor
-that we are objecting. The pride of the Castlemans is not simply a pride
-of worldly power.”
-
-“She degrades us and degrades herself when she implies it!” exclaimed
-Aunt Nannie.
-
-“It is a high and great pride,” continued the Major. “The pride of a
-race of men and women who have scorned ignoble conduct and held
-themselves above all dishonor. That is no weak or shallow thing, Sylvia.
-It is a thing which sustains and upholds us at every moment of our
-lives: that we are living, not merely for our individual selves, but for
-all the generations that are to be. It may seem a cruel thing that the
-sins of the fathers should be visited upon the children, but it is a law
-of God. It was something that Bob Shirley himself said to me, with tears
-in his eyes—that his children and his children’s children would have to
-pay for what had been done.”
-
-“But, Papa!” cried Sylvia. “They don’t have to pay it, except that we
-make them pay it!”
-
-“You are mistaken, my child,” said the Major, quietly. “It’s not we
-alone. It was the whole of society that condemned him. We cannot
-possibly wipe out the blot on the Shirley escutcheon.”
-
-“We can only drag ourselves down with them!” exclaimed Aunt Nannie.
-
-“Why, it’s just as if we said that going to prison was nothing!” cried
-Celeste.
-
-“You must remember how many people there are looking up to us, Sylvia,”
-put in Uncle Mandeville, solemnly.
-
-There they were, all in chorus; Sylvia gazed in anguish from one to
-another. She gazed at her mother, just at the moment that that good lady
-was preparing to express her opinion. For the particular thing which
-held the imagination of “Miss Margaret” in thrall was this vision of the
-Castlemans living their life as it were upon a stage, with the lower
-orders in the pit looking on, imbibing instruction and inspiration from
-the action of the lofty drama.
-
-Sylvia had heard it all before, and she could not bear to listen to it
-now. The tears, which had long been in her eyes, suddenly began to roll
-down her cheeks; she sprang up, exclaiming passionately, “You are all
-against me! Everyone of you!”
-
-“Sylvia,” said her father, in distress, “that is not true!”
-
-“We would wade through blood for you!” exclaimed Uncle Mandeville—who
-was always looking for a chance to shoot somebody for the honor of the
-Castleman name.
-
-“We are thinking of nothing but your own future,” said the Major. “You
-are only a child, Sylvia——”
-
-But Sylvia cried, “I can’t bear any more! You promised to stand by me,
-Papa—and now you let Aunt Nannie come here and persuade you—Mamma
-too—all of you! You will break my heart!” And so saying she fled from
-the room, leaving the family council to proceed as best it could without
-her.
-
-
- § 26
-
-Sylvia shut herself in her room and had a good, exhaustive cry. Then,
-with her soul atmosphere cleared, she set to work to think out her
-problem.
-
-She had to admit that the family had presented a strong case. There was
-the matter of heredity, for example. Just how much likelihood might
-there be, in the event of her marrying Frank, of her finding herself
-with children of evil tendencies? Just what truth might there be in Aunt
-Nannie’s point of view, that he was a selfish man, seeking to redeem his
-family fortunes by allying himself with the Castlemans? The question
-sounded cold-blooded, but then Sylvia always had to face the truth.
-
-Also there was the problem, to what extent a girl ought to sacrifice
-herself to her family. There was no denying that they had done much for
-her. She had been as their right eye to them; and what did she owe them
-in return? There was no one of them whom she did not love, sincerely,
-intensely; there was no one over whose sorrows she had not wept, whose
-burdens she had not borne. And now she faced the fact that if she
-married Frank Shirley, she would cause them unhappiness. She might argue
-that they had no right to be unhappy; but that did not alter the
-fact—they would be unhappy. Sylvia’s life so far had been a process of
-bringing other people joy; and now, suddenly, she found herself in a
-dilemma where it was necessary for her to cause pain. Upon whom ought it
-to fall—upon her mother and father, her uncles and aunts—or upon Frank
-Shirley and herself?
-
-Of all the arguments which produced an effect upon her, the most
-powerful was that embodied in Aunt Nannie’s phrase, “a blind passion.”
-Sylvia had been taught to think of “passion” as something low and
-shameful; she did not like the vision of herself as a weak, infatuated
-creature, throwing away all that other people had striven to give her.
-Many were the phrases whereby all her life she had heard such conduct
-scorned; there was a phrase from the Bible that was often
-cited—something about “inordinate affection.” Just what was the
-difference between ordinate and inordinate affection? And how was she to
-decide in which category to place her love for Frank Shirley?
-
-For the greater part of two days and two nights Sylvia debated these
-problems; and then she went to her father. The color was gone from her
-cheeks, and she was visibly thinner; but her mind was made up.
-
-She told the Major all the doubts that had beset her and all the
-arguments she had considered. She set forth his contention that the
-pride of the Castlemans was not a “worldly pride;” and then she
-announced her conclusion, which was that he was permitting himself to be
-carried along, against his own better judgment, by the vanity of the
-women of his family.
-
-Needless to say, the Major was startled by this pronouncement, delivered
-with all the solemnity of a pontiff _ex cathedra_. But Sylvia was ready
-with her proofs. There was Aunt Nannie, scheming and plotting day and
-night to make great marriages for her children. Spending her husband’s
-money in ways he disapproved, and getting—what? Was there a single one
-of her children that was happy? Was there a single couple—for all the
-rich marriages—that wasn’t living beyond its income, and jealous of
-other people who were able to spend more? Harley, grumbling because he
-couldn’t have a motor of his own—Clive, because he couldn’t afford to
-marry the girl he loved! And both of them drinking and gambling, and
-forcing Uncle Mandeville to pay their debts.
-
-“Sylvia, you know I have protested to your Aunt Nannie.”
-
-“Yes, Papa—but meantime you’re ruining your own health and fortune to
-enable your daughters to run the same race. Here’s Celeste, like a hound
-in the leash, eager to have her chance—just Aunt Nannie all over again!
-I know, Papa—it’s terrible, and I can’t bear to hurt you with it, but I
-have to tell you what my own decision is. I love Frank Shirley; I think
-my love for him is a true love, and I can’t for a moment think of giving
-it up. I’m sorry to have to break faith with the Family; I can only
-plead that I didn’t understand the bargain when I made it, and that I
-shall take care not to make my debt any greater.”
-
-“What do you mean, Sylvia?”
-
-“I mean that I want to give up the social game. I want to stop spending
-fortunes on clothes and travel and luxuries; I want to stop being
-paraded round and exhibited to men I’m not interested in. I want you to
-give me a little money—just what I need to live—and let me go to New
-York to study music for a year or two more, until I am able to teach and
-earn my own living.”
-
-“Earn your own living! _Sylvia!_”
-
-“Precisely, Papa. And meantime, Frank can go through college and law
-school, and when we can take care of ourselves, we’ll marry. That’s my
-plan, and I’m serious about it—I want you to let me do it this year.”
-
-And there sat the poor Major, staring at her, his face a study of
-unutterable emotions, whispering to himself, “My God! My God!”
-
-When Sylvia told me about this scene I reminded her of her experience
-with the young clergyman who had come to convert her from heresy. “Don’t
-you see now,” I asked, “why he called you the most dangerous woman in
-Castleman County?”
-
-
- § 27
-
-This procedure of Sylvia’s was a beautiful illustration of what the
-military strategists call an “offensive defence.” By the simple
-suggestion of earning her own living, she got everything else in the
-world that she wanted. It was agreed that she might make known her
-engagement to Frank Shirley. It was agreed that she need have no more
-money spent upon clothes and parties. Most important of all, it was
-agreed that Aunt Nannie was to be informed that Sylvia’s course was
-approved by her parents, and that Frank Shirley was to be welcomed to
-Castleman Hall.
-
-But of course she was not to be allowed to earn money. Her father made
-it clear that the bare suggestion of this caused him more unhappiness
-than she could endure to inflict. When she protested, “I want to learn
-something useful!” the dear old Major was ready with the proposition
-that they learn something useful together; and forthwith unlocked the
-diamond-paned doors of the old mahogany book-cases, and dragged forth
-dust-covered sets of Grote’s “History of Greece,” and Hume’s “History of
-England,” and Jefferson Davis’ “Rise and Fall of the Confederate
-Government”—out of which ponderous volumes Sylvia read aloud to him for
-several hours each day thereafter.
-
-So from now on this is to be the story of a wholly reformed and
-chastened huntress of hearts. No more for her the tournaments of
-coquetry, no more the trumpets of the ball-room peal. No longer shall we
-behold her, clad in armor of chiffon and real lace, with breastplate of
-American beauty roses and helmet of gold and pearls. No longer shall we
-see the arrows of her red-brown eyes flying over the stricken field,
-deep-dyed with the heart’s blood of Masculinity. Instead of this the
-dusty tome and the midnight oil and the green eye-shade confront us; we
-behold the uncanny spectacle of the loveliest of created mortals clad in
-blue stockings and black-rimmed spectacles.—All this scintillating wit,
-I make haste to explain, is not mine, but something which Avery
-Crittenden, the town wag, dashed off in a moment of illumination, and
-which appeared in the Castleman County _Register_ (no names, if you
-please!) a couple of weeks after the news of Sylvia’s reformation had
-stunned the world.
-
-I wish that space were less limited, so that I could tell you how
-Castleman County received the tidings, and some few of the comical
-episodes in the long war which it waged to break down her resolution of
-withdrawal. It was the light of their eyes going out, and they could not
-and would not be reconciled to it. They wrote letters, they sent
-telegrams; they would come and literally besiege the house—sit in the
-parlor and condole with “Miss Margaret,” no longer because Sylvia
-refused to marry them, but merely because she refused to lead the german
-with them! They would come with bands of music, with negro singers to
-serenade her. One spring night a whole fancy-dress ball adjourned by
-unanimous consent, and stormed the terraces of Castleman Hall and held
-its revels under the windows; and so of course Sylvia had to stop trying
-to read about Walpole’s ministry and invite them in and give them wine
-and cake. On the evening of one of the club dances there was an
-organized conspiracy; seventeen of her old sweethearts sent her roses,
-and when in spite of this she did not come, the next day came seventeen
-messengers, bearing seventeen packages, each containing a little cupid
-wrapped in cotton-wool—but with his wings broken!
-
-Such was the pressure from outside; and within—there would be a new gown
-sent by Uncle Mandeville, who was on another spree in New Orleans; a
-gown that was really a dream of beauty and a crime not to wear. Or there
-would be talk at the table about Dolly Witherspoon, Sylvia’s chief
-rival, and the triumph she had won at the cotillion last night; how
-Stanley Pendleton was “rushing” her, and how Cousin Harley had been
-snubbed by her. And then some one gave a ball, and Charlie Peyton rang
-up to say that he was getting drunk and going to the devil unless Sylvia
-would come and dance with him! And when this device succeeded, and the
-rumor of it spread—how many of the nicest boys in the county took to
-getting drunk and going to the devil, because Sylvia would not come and
-dance with them!
-
-I mention these things in order that you may understand that, sincere as
-Sylvia was in her effort to withdraw from “society,” she was not
-entirely successful. She still met “eligible” men, and she was still an
-object of family concern. A few days after the council, she had been
-surprised by a visit from Aunt Nannie, who came to apologize and make
-peace. “I want you to know, Sylvia dear,” she declared, “that what I
-said to you was said with no thought of anything but your own good.”
-There was a reconciliation, with tears in the eyes of both of them—and a
-renewal of the activities of Aunt Nannie. How often it happened to
-Sylvia, when at some dance she fell into the clutches of an undesirable
-man, that Aunt Nannie found a pretext for joining them—and presently,
-without quite realizing how, Sylvia found that the man was gone, and
-that she was settled for a _tête-à-tête_ with a more suitable companion!
-Once she stopped to luncheon with the Bishop, and found herself being
-shown a new album of photographs. There among English cathedrals and
-Rhenish castles she stumbled upon a picture of the “Mansion House,” the
-home of the wealthy Peytons. “What a lovely old place!” she exclaimed;
-and her aunt remarked, “Charlie will inherit that, lucky boy!”
-
-She remembered also the case of Ned Scott, the young West Pointer who
-came home on furlough, setting all the girls’ hearts aflutter with his
-gray and gold gorgeousness. “My, what a handsome fellow!” exclaimed Aunt
-Nannie. “It makes me happy just to watch him walk!”
-
-“An army man always has a good social position,” remarked “Miss
-Margaret,” casually.
-
-“And an assured income,” added Aunt Varina, timidly.
-
-“He has a mole on his nose,” observed Sylvia.
-
-
- § 28
-
-Frank Shirley had passed the midwinter examinations at Harvard, and was
-settled in the dormitory of his fathers; and so for a while the acute
-agitation subsided. It began again in the summer, however—when Sylvia
-proposed staying at the Hall, instead of going with the family to the
-summer-place in the mountains of North Carolina. It was obvious that
-this was in order to be near her lover; and so the whole battle had to
-be fought over again. Aunt Nannie was unable to understand how Sylvia
-could be willing to “publish her infatuation to the world.”
-
-“But I have only the summer when I can see him,” the girl argued.
-
-“But even so, my dear—to give up everything else, to change all your
-plans, the plans of your whole family!”
-
-“Nobody need change, Aunt Nannie. Aunt Varina will stay with me gladly.”
-
-“Others have to stay, if it’s only to hide what you are doing. It’s not
-decent, Sylvia! Believe me, you will lose the man’s own respect if you
-behave so. No man can permanently respect a woman who betrays her
-feelings so openly.”
-
-“My dear Aunt Nannie,” said Sylvia, quietly, “I am quite sure that I
-know Frank Shirley better than you do.”
-
-“Poor, deluded child,” was Mrs. Chilton’s comment. “You’ll find to your
-sorrow some day that men are all alike!”
-
-But the girl was obdurate. The family had to proceed to desperate
-measures. First her mother declared that she would stay also—she must
-remain to protect her unfortunate child. And then, of course, the Major
-decided that it was his duty to remain. There came the question of
-Celeste, who had planned a house party, and foresaw the spoiling of her
-fun by the selfishness of her sister. There was also the baby—the
-precious, ineffable baby, the heir of all the might, majesty and
-dominion of the Lysles. The family physician intervened—the child must
-positively have the mountain air. Also the Major’s liver trouble was
-serious, he was sleeping badly and working too hard, and was in
-desperate need of a change. Prompted by Aunt Nannie, the doctor said
-this in Sylvia’s hearing—and settled the matter.
-
-It had been Frank’s idea to remain at Cambridge and study during the
-summer, so as to make up some “conditions;” but when he learned that
-Sylvia intended to remain at the Hall, he decided to stand the expense
-of coming home. He arrived there to find that she had suddenly changed
-her mind and was going—and offering but slight explanation of her
-change. Sylvia was intensely humiliated because of the attitude of her
-family, and was trying to spare Frank the pain of knowing about it.
-
-So came the beginning of unhappiness between them. Frank was acutely
-conscious of his inferiority to her in all worldly ways. And he knew
-that her relatives were trying to break down her resolution. He could
-not believe that they would succeed; and yet, there was a bitter and
-disillusioned man within him who could not believe that they would fail.
-In his soul there were always thorns of doubt, which festered, and now
-and then would cause him pangs of agony. But he was as proud as any
-savage, and would have died before he would ask for mercy. When he
-learned that she was going away from him, for no better reason than her
-relatives’ objections, he felt that she did not care enough for him. And
-then, when he did not protest, it was Sylvia’s turn to worry. So it
-really did not matter to him whether she stayed or not! It might be that
-Aunt Nannie was right after all, that a man ceased to love a woman who
-gave herself too freely.
-
-
- § 29
-
-The matter was complicated by the episode of Beauregard Dabney, about
-which I have to tell.
-
-You have heard, perhaps, of the Dabneys of Charleston; the names of
-three of them—Beauregard’s grandfather and two great-uncles—may be read
-upon the memorial tablets in the stately old church which is the city’s
-pride. In Charleston they have a real aristocracy—gentlemen so poor that
-they wear their cuffs all ragged, yet are received with homage in the
-proudest homes in the South. The Dabneys had a city mansion with front
-steps crumbling away, and a country house which would not keep out the
-rain; and yet when Beauregard, the young scion of the house, fell prey
-to the charm and animation of Harriet Atkinson, whose father’s street
-railroad was equal to a mint, the family regarded it as the greatest
-calamity since Appomattox.
-
-He had followed Harriet to Castleman County; and when the news got out,
-a detachment of uncles and aunts came flying, and captured the poor boy,
-and were on the point of shipping him home, when Harriet called Sylvia
-to the rescue. Sylvia could impress even the Dabneys; and if only she
-would have Beauregard and one of the aunts invited to Castleman Hall, it
-might yet be possible to save the situation.
-
-Sylvia had met young Dabney once, when visiting in Charleston. She
-remembered him as an effeminate-mannered youth, with what would have
-been a doll-baby face but for the fact that the nose caved in in the
-middle in a disturbing way. “Tell me, Harriet,” she asked, when she met
-her friend—“are you in love with him?”
-
-“I don’t know,” said Harriet. “I’m afraid I’m not—at least, not very
-much.”
-
-“But why do you want to marry a man you don’t love?”
-
-Harriet was driving, and she grasped the reins tightly and gave the
-horse a flick with the whip. “Sunny,” she said, “you might as well face
-the fact—I could never fall in love as you have. I don’t believe in it.
-I wouldn’t want to. I’d never let myself trust a man that much.”
-
-“But then, why marry?”
-
-“I have to marry. What can I do? I’m tired of being chaperoned, and I
-don’t want to be an old maid.”
-
-Sylvia pondered for a moment. “Suppose,” she said, “that you should
-marry him, and then meet a man you loved?”
-
-“I’ve already answered that—it won’t happen. I’m too selfish.” She
-paused, and then added, “It’s all right, Sunny. I’ve figured over it,
-and I’m not making any mistake. He’s a good fellow, and I like him. He’s
-a gentleman—he does not offend me. Also, he’s very much in love with me,
-which is the best way; I’ll always be the boss in my own home. He’s
-respected, and I’ll help out my poor struggling family if I marry him.
-You know how it is, Sunny—I vowed I’d never be a climber, but it’s hard
-to pull back when your people are eager for the heights. And then, too,
-it’s always a temptation to want to go where you’re told you can’t go.”
-
-“Yes, I know that,” said Sylvia. “But that’s a joke, and marrying’s a
-serious matter.”
-
-“It’s only that because we make it so,” retorted the other. “I find
-myself bored to death, and here’s something that rouses my fighting
-blood. They say I sha’n’t have him—and so I want him. I’m going to break
-into that family, and then I’m going to shake the rats out of the hair
-of some of those old maid aunts of his!”
-
-She laughed savagely and drove on for a while. “Sunny,” she resumed at
-last, “you’re all right. You know it, but I tell you so anyway. You
-never were a snob that I know—but I’m cynical enough to say that it’s
-only because you are too proud. Can you imagine how you’d feel if
-anybody tried to patronize you? Can you imagine how you’d feel if
-everybody did it? I’m tired of it—don’t you see? And Beauregard is my
-way of escape. I’m going to marry him if I possibly can; my mind is made
-up to it. I’ve got the whole plan of campaign laid out—your part
-included.”
-
-“What’s my part, Harriet?”
-
-“It’s very simple. I want you to let Beauregard fall in love with you.”
-
-“With _me_!”
-
-“Yes. I want you to give him the worst punishment you ever gave a man in
-your life.”
-
-“But what’s that for?”
-
-“He’s in love with me—he wants me—and he’s too much of a coward to marry
-me. And I want to see him suffer for it—as only you can make him. I want
-you to take him and maul him, I want you to bray him and pound him in
-your mortar, I want you to roll him and toss him about, to walk on him
-and stamp on him, to beat him to a jelly and grind him to a powder! I
-want you to keep it up till he’s thoroughly reduced—and then you can
-turn him over to me.”
-
-“And then you will heal him?” inquired Sylvia—who had not been alarmed
-by this bloodthirsty discourse.
-
-“Perhaps I will and perhaps I won’t,” said the other. “What is there in
-the maxims of Lady Dee about a broken heart?”
-
-“The best way to catch a man,” quoted Sylvia, “is on the rebound!”
-
-
- § 30
-
-I don’t know how this adventure will seem to you. To me it was
-atrocious; but Sylvia undertook it with a child’s delight.
-
-“I had on a white hat with pink roses,” she said, when she told me about
-it; “and I could always do anything to a man when I had pink roses on.
-Beauregard was waiting for Harriet to go driving when I first saw him;
-she was upstairs, late on purpose. He said something about my looking
-like a rose myself—he was the most obvious of human creatures. And when
-he asked me to get in and sit by him, I said, ‘Harriet will be jealous.’
-Of course he was charmed at the idea of Harriet’s being jealous. So he
-asked me to take a little drive with him, and we stayed out an hour—and
-by the time we got back, I had him!”
-
-Two days later he was on his knees begging Sylvia to marry him. At
-which, of course, she was horrified. “Why, you’re supposed to be in love
-with my best friend!”
-
-He was frank about it, poor soul. “Of course, Miss Sylvia,” he
-explained, “I was in love with Harriet; and Harriet’s a fine girl, all
-right. It’s bad about her family, but I thought we could go away where
-nobody knew her, and people would accept her as my wife, and they’d soon
-forget. She’s jolly and interesting, and all that. But you understand,
-surely, Miss Sylvia—no man would marry Harriet Atkinson if he could get
-you. You—you’re quite different, Miss Sylvia. You’re one of us!”
-
-He made Sylvia furious by his matter-of-fact snobbery; and so she was
-lovely to him. She told him that she, too, had been in love, but her
-family was opposed to the man, and now she was very unhappy. She told
-him that she was not worthy of the love of such a man as he. Poor
-Beauregard tried his best to reassure her, and followed her about day
-and night for ten days, and was a most dreadful nuisance.
-
-Each day she would report to Harriet the stage of infatuation to which
-he had come; until at last Harriet’s thirst for blood was satisfied.
-Then, dressed all in snow-white muslin and lace, Sylvia took her devoted
-suitor off to a seat in a distant grape-arbor, and there administered
-the dose she had prepared for him. “Mr. Dabney,” she said, “this joke
-has got to be such a bore that I can’t stand it.”
-
-“What joke?” asked Beauregard, innocently.
-
-“You know that I have called myself a friend of Harriet Atkinson’s. When
-you came to me and told me that you loved her, but wanted to marry me
-because my family was better than hers—did it never occur to you how it
-would strike her friend? Evidently not. Well, let me tell you then—I
-could think that it was the stupidest joke I had ever heard, or else
-that you were the most arrogant jack that ever walked on two legs. I
-said that I would punish you—and I’ve been doing it. You must understand
-that I never felt the least particle of interest in you; I never met a
-man who’d be less apt to attract me, and I can’t see how you managed to
-interest Harriet. I assure you you’ve no reason for holding the
-extravagant opinion of yourself which you do.”
-
-The poor youth sat staring at her, unable to believe his ears. And so,
-of course, Sylvia began to feel sorry for him. “I can see,” she said,
-“that there might be something in you to like—if only you had the
-courage to be yourself. But you’re so terrorized by your aunts and
-uncles, you’ve let them make you into such a dreadful snob——”
-
-She paused. “You really think I am a snob?” he cried.
-
-“The worst I ever met. I couldn’t bring myself to discuss it with you.
-Let me give you this one piece of advice, though; if you think you’re
-too good to marry a girl, pray find it out before you tell her that you
-love her. Of course, I’m not sorry that it happened this time, for you
-won’t break Harriet’s heart, and she’s a thousand times too good for
-you. So I’m not sorry that you’ve lost her.”
-
-“You—you think that I’ve lost her, Miss Sylvia?” gasped the other.
-
-“Lost her?” echoed Sylvia. “Why, you don’t mean—” But then she stopped.
-She must not make it impossible for him to think of Harriet again.
-“You’ve lost her, unless she’s a great deal more generous than I’d ever
-be.”
-
-Beauregard took his drubbing very well. He persuaded Sylvia to discuss
-his snobbery with him, and confessed the offence, and got up quite a
-fire of indignation against his banded relatives. Also he admitted that
-Harriet was too good for him, and that he had treated her like a cad.
-His speeches grew shorter and his manner more anxious, and Sylvia could
-see that his main thought was to get back and find out if he’d really
-lost Harriet.
-
-So she called her friend up on the ’phone and announced, “He’s coming.
-Get on your prettiest dress without delay!” And then Sylvia went away
-and had a cry—first, because she had said such cruel things, and second,
-because her mother and father would be unhappy when they learned that
-Beauregard had escaped her.
-
-An hour later Harriet called up to say that it was all over. “Did you
-accept him?” asked Sylvia.
-
-To which the other answered, “You may trust me now, Sunny! You have made
-him into a soft dough, and I’ll knead him.” And sure enough, the new
-Beauregard Dabney sent his aunts and uncles flying, and followed Harriet
-to her summer home on the Gulf, and was hardly to be induced to wait for
-a conventional wedding—so eager was he to prove to himself and to Sylvia
-Castleman that he was really not a coward and a snob!
-
-
- § 31
-
-It was in the midst of these adventures that Frank Shirley made his
-unexpected return from the North. On the day when he came to see her
-first, she naturally forgot about the existence of Beauregard
-Dabney—until Beauregard suddenly appeared and flew into a fit of
-jealousy. Then the imp of mischievousness got hold of Sylvia; she found
-herself wondering, “Would it be possible for Frank to be jealous of
-Beauregard? And if he was, how would he behave?”
-
-“I knew it was dreadful then,” she told me, “but I couldn’t have helped
-it if I’d been risking my life. I had to see what Frank would do when he
-was jealous. I simply _had_ to! It was a kind of insanity!”
-
-So she tried it, and did not get much fun out of the experience. Frank
-was like an Indian in captivity; he could not be made to cry out under
-torture. He saw Beauregard’s position, and the unconcealed delight of
-the family; but he set his lips together and never gave a sign. Sylvia
-was going away for the summer, and Beauregard was talking about
-following her. There would be other suitors following her, no doubt—and
-new ones on the ground. Frank went home, and Sylvia did not hear from
-him for several days.
-
-The Beauregard episode came to its appointed end, and then, in a letter
-to Frank, Sylvia mentioned that she had accomplished her purpose—the
-youth was engaged to Harriet. She thought this was explaining things.
-But how could Frank imagine the complications of the art of
-man-catching? Was Sylvia jesting with him, or trying to blind him, or
-apologizing to him, or what?
-
-Sylvia kept putting off her start to the mountains—she could not bear to
-go while things were in such a state between them. But, while she was
-still hesitating, to her consternation she received a note from him
-saying that he was starting for Colorado. He had received a telegram
-that an aunt was dead; there were business matters to be attended
-to—some property which for his sisters’ sake could not be neglected. It
-was a cold, business-like note, with not a word of sorrow at parting;
-and Sylvia shed tears over it. Such is the irrationality of those in
-love, she had forgotten all about young Dabney or any other cause for
-doubt and unhappiness she might have given Frank. She thought that he,
-and he alone, had been unkind. And meantime, Frank had made up his mind
-that she was repenting of her engagement, and that it was his duty to
-make it easy for her to withdraw.
-
-So the two spent an unhappy summer. Sylvia let herself be taken about to
-parties, but she grew more weary every hour of the social game. “I’ve
-smiled until I’ve got the lockjaw,” she would say. She was losing weight
-and growing pale, in spite of the mountain air.
-
-September came, and Harriet’s wedding was set for the next month, and
-likewise Frank’s return to Harvard. He came back from the West, and
-Sylvia wrote asking him to come and visit her for a week. But to her
-consternation there came in reply a polite refusal from Frank. There was
-so much that needed his attention on the plantation, and some studying
-that must be done if he was to make good. For three days Sylvia
-struggled with herself, the last stand of that barbarian pride of hers;
-then she gave way completely and sent him a telegram: “Please come at
-once.”
-
-She would have recalled it an hour afterwards, but it was too late; and
-that evening she received an answer, to the effect that he would arrive
-in the morning. She spent a sleepless night imagining his coming, and a
-score of different ways in which she would meet him. She would throw
-herself at his feet and beg him not to torture her; she would array
-herself in her newest gown and fascinate him in the good old way; she
-would climb once more upon the pinnacle of her pride and compel him to
-humble himself before her.
-
-In the morning she drove to meet him, together with a cousin who had
-come on the same train. She never stood a worse social ordeal than that
-drive and the luncheon with the family. But at last they were alone
-together, and sat gazing at each other with eyes full of bewilderment
-and pain.
-
-“Sylvia,” said Frank, finally, “you do not look happy.”
-
-“Why should I be happy?” she asked.
-
-There was a pause. “Listen,” he said. “Can we not deal honestly with
-each other—openly and sincerely, for once. Surely that is the best way,
-Sylvia—no matter how much it hurts.”
-
-“I am ready to do it,” she replied.
-
-“You don’t have to spare my feelings,” he went on. “I know all you have
-to contend with, and I sha’n’t blame you. The one thing I can’t bear is
-to be played with, to be lured by false hopes, to drag on and on,
-tormented by uncertainty.”
-
-She was gazing at him, bewildered. “Why do you say all that, Frank?” she
-cried.
-
-“Why should I not say it?” he asked; and again they stared at each
-other.
-
-Suddenly she broke out, in a voice full of anguish, “Frank, this is what
-I want to know—answer me this! Do you love me?”
-
-“Do I love you?” he echoed.
-
-“Yes,”—and with greater intensity, “I want you to be honest about it!”
-
-“Honey!” he said, his voice trembling, “it’s the question of whether I’m
-allowed to love you. It’s so terrible to me—I can’t stand the
-uncertainty.”
-
-She cried again, “But do you _want_ to love me?”
-
-She heard his voice break, she saw the emotion that was shaking him, and
-with a sudden sob she was in his arms. “Oh, Frank, Frank!” she
-exclaimed. “What _have_ we been doing to each other?”
-
-And so at last the fog of misunderstanding was lifted. “Sweetheart,” he
-exclaimed, “what could you have been thinking?”
-
-“I thought you had stopped loving me because I had been too bold,
-because I had been unwomanly.”
-
-“Why, Sylvia, you must be mad! Have I not been hungry for your love?”
-
-“Oh, tell me that I can love you!” she wailed. “Tell me that you won’t
-grow tired of me if I love you!”
-
-He clasped her in his arms and covered her lips with kisses; he soothed
-her like a frightened child. She was free now to sob out her grief, to
-tell him what she had felt throughout all these months of misery. “Oh,
-why didn’t you come to me like this before?” she asked.
-
-“But, Sylvia,” he answered, “how could I know? I saw you letting another
-man make love to you——”
-
-“But, Frank, that was only a joke!”
-
-“But how could I know that?”
-
-“How could you imagine anything else? That I could prefer Beauregard
-Dabney to you!”
-
-“That’s easy to say,” he replied. “But there was your family—I knew what
-they’d prefer, and I saw how they were struggling to keep us apart. And
-what was I to think—why should you be giving him your time, unless you
-wanted to let me know——”
-
-“Ah, don’t say that! Don’t say that!” she cried, quickly. “It’s wicked
-that such a thing should have happened.”
-
-“We must learn to talk things out frankly,” he said. “For one thing you
-must not let your family come between us again. You must free me from
-this dreadful fear that they are going to take you from me.”
-
-And suddenly Sylvia blazed up. All the misunderstanding had come from
-the opposition of her family, and her unwillingness to talk to Frank
-about it. “I never saw it so clearly before,” she exclaimed. “Frank, I
-can never make them see things my way. And they’ll always have this
-dreadful power over me—because I love them so!”
-
-“What can you do then?” he asked.
-
-“I’m going to betray them to you!” she cried. And as he looked puzzled,
-she went on, “I’m going to tell you about them! I’m going to tell you
-everything they’ve said and done, and everything they may say and do in
-the future!”
-
-“And that,” said Frank to me, “was the most loving thing she ever said!”
-Such was the power, in Sylvia’s world, of the ideal of the Family!
-
-
-
-
- BOOK II
- _Sylvia Lingers_
-
-
- § 1
-
-At the railroad station in Boston, on an afternoon in May, Sylvia
-Castleman and Mrs. Tuis were arriving from New York. You must picture
-Sylvia in a pale grey cloak, with a pale blue blouse; also a grey hat
-with broad brim and “bluets” on top. You can imagine, perhaps, how her
-colors shone from under it. She was meeting Frank for the first time in
-eight months.
-
-The host of the occasion was Cousin Harley Chilton, now also a student
-at Harvard. It was mid-afternoon, and he had borrowed a motor-car to
-show her something of Cambridge. Their bags were sent to their hotel in
-the city, and Frank took his place by Sylvia’s side. They had to talk
-about commonplaces, but he could feel her delight and eagerness like an
-electric radiance. As they flew over the long bridge, he wrapped a robe
-about her. What a thrill went through him as he touched her! “Oh, I’m so
-happy! so happy!” she exclaimed, her eyes shining into his. He had given
-her a new name in his letters, and he whispered it now into her ear:
-“Lady Sunshine! Lady Sunshine!”
-
-They came to a vista of dark stone buildings, buried in the foliage of
-enormous elms. “Here are the grounds,” he said; and Sylvia cried, “Oh
-Harley, go slowly. I want to see them.” Her cousin complied, and Frank
-began pointing out the various buildings by name.
-
-But suddenly the car drew in by the curb and stopped. Harley leaned
-forward, remarking, “Spark-plug loose, I think.”
-
-Now the sparking seemed to be all right, so far as Frank could judge,
-but he did not know very much about automobiles. In general he was a
-guileless nature, and did not understand that this was the beginning of
-Sylvia’s social career at Harvard. But Sylvia, who knew about
-automobiles, and still more about human nature, saw two men strolling in
-her direction, and now about twenty yards away—upper-classmen, clad in
-white flannel trousers, blue coats, huge straw hats like baskets, and
-ties knotted with that elaborately studied carelessness which means that
-the wearer has spent fifteen minutes before the mirror prior to emerging
-from his room.
-
-Naturally Sylvia looked at them, for they were interesting figures; and
-naturally they looked back, for Sylvia was an interesting figure too.
-One could not hear, but could almost see them exclaiming: “By Jove! Who
-is she?” They went by—almost, but not quite. They stopped, half turned
-and stood hesitating.
-
-Harley looked up from his spark-plugs, a frown of annoyance on his face.
-He glanced toward the two men. “Hello, Harmon,” he said.
-
-“Hello, Chilton,” was the reply. “Something wrong?”
-
-“Yes,” said Harley. “Can’t make it out.”
-
-The two approached, lifting their hats, the one who had spoken a trifle
-in advance. “Can I help?” he asked, solicitously.
-
-“I think I can manage it,” answered Harley; but the men did not move on.
-“Whose car?” asked the one called Harmon.
-
-“Bert Wilson’s,” said Harley. “I don’t know its tricks.”
-
-The other’s eyes swept the car, and of course rested on Sylvia, who was
-in the seat nearest the curb. That made an awkward moment—as he intended
-it should. “Mr. Harmon,” said Harley, “let me present you to my cousin,
-Miss Castleman.”
-
-The man brightened instantly and made a bow. “I am delighted to meet
-you, Miss Castleman,” he said, and introduced his companion. “You have
-just arrived?” he inquired.
-
-“Yes,” said Sylvia.
-
-“But you’ve been here before?”
-
-“Never befo-ah,” said Sylvia; whereupon he knew from what part of the
-world she had come. There began an animated conversation—Harley and his
-spark-plugs being forgotten entirely.
-
-All this Frank watched, sitting back in his seat in silence. He knew
-these men to be Seniors, high and mighty swells from the “Gold Coast;”
-but he had never been introduced to them, and so he was technically as
-much a stranger to them as if he had just arrived from the far South
-himself. Sylvia, who was new to the social customs of Harvard, never
-dreamed of this situation, and so left him to watch the comedy
-undisturbed.
-
-There came along a couple of Freshmen; classmates of Harley’s and
-members of his set. He was buried in his labors, but they were not to be
-put off. “What’s the matter, old man?” they asked; and when he answered,
-“Don’t know,” they stood, and waited for him to find out, stealing
-meantime fascinated glances at the vision in the car.
-
-Next came two street-boys; and of course street-boys always stop and
-stare when there is a car out of order. Then came an old gentleman, who
-paused, smiling benevolently, as he might have paused to survey a
-florist’s window. So there was Sylvia, quite by accident, and in perfect
-innocence, holding a levee on the sidewalk, with two men whose ties
-proclaimed them members of an ineffable and awe-inspiring “final” club
-doing homage to her.
-
-“My cousin’s a Freshman,” she was saying. “So I’ll have three years more
-to come here.”
-
-“Oh, but think of us!” exclaimed the basket-hats together. “We go out
-next month!”
-
-“Can’t you manage to fail in your exams?” she inquired. “Or is that
-impossible at Harvard?” She looked from one to another, and in the laugh
-that followed even the street-boys and the benevolent old gentleman
-joined.
-
-By that time the gathering was assuming the proportions of a scandal.
-Men were coming from the “Yard” to see what was the matter.
-
-“Hello, Frank Shirley,” called a voice. “Anybody hurt?” And Sylvia
-answered in a low voice, “Yes, several.” She looked straight into
-Harmon’s eyes, and she got his answer—that she had not spoken too
-rashly.
-
-The _séance_ came to a sudden end, because Harley realized that he was
-subjecting club-men to an ordeal on the street. He straightened up from
-his spark-plug. “I think she’s all right now,” he said—and to one of the
-street-boys, “Crank her up, there.”
-
-“Where are you stopping?” asked Harmon.
-
-Harley named the hotel, but did not take the hint—which was presumptuous
-in a Freshman.
-
-“Good-bye, Miss Castleman,” said the Senior, wistfully; and the crowd
-parted and the car went on.
-
-After which Sylvia sank back in her seat and looked at Frank and
-laughed. “Isn’t it wonderful,” she exclaimed, “what a woman can do with
-her eyes!”
-
-
- § 2
-
-They returned to the hotel, where there were engagements—a whole world
-waiting to be conquered. But Sylvia delivered an ultimatum; she would
-pay no attention to anyone until she had an hour alone with Frank. When
-Aunt Varina had meekly left her, she first flew into Frank’s arms and
-permitted him to kiss her; and then, seated decorously in a separate
-chair, she proceeded to explain to him the mystery of her presence
-there.
-
-She had come to New York to buy clothes for herself and the rest of the
-family; that much Frank had known. He had begged her to run up to
-Cambridge, but the family had refused permission. Celeste was going to
-have a house party, the baby had been having more convulsions—these were
-only two of a dozen reasons why she must return. Frank had been
-intending to go down to New York to see her—when suddenly had come a
-telegram, saying that she would arrive the next afternoon.
-
-“It was my scheme,” she said, “and I expect you to be proud of me when
-you hear it. If you scold me about it, Frank——!” She said this with the
-tone of voice that she used when it was necessary to disarm some one.
-
-It was difficult for Frank to imagine himself objecting to any device
-which had brought her there. “Go ahead, honey,” said he.
-
-“It has to do with Harley,” she explained. “Mother sent me one of his
-letters, telling about the terrible time he’s been having here. You see,
-he’s scared to death for fear he won’t make the ‘Dickey’—or that he
-won’t be among the earlier tens. So they were all upset, and they’ve
-been scurrying round getting letters of introduction for him, moving
-heaven and earth to get him in with the right people. I read his letter,
-and then suddenly the thought flashed over me, ‘There’s my chance!’
-Don’t you see?”
-
-“No,” said Frank, and shook his head—“I don’t see at all.”
-
-“Sometimes,” said the girl, “when I think about you, I get frightened,
-because—if you knew how wicked I really am—! Well, anyhow, I sat down
-and wrote to Harley that he was a goose, and that if he had sense enough
-to get me to Harvard, he’d make the ‘Dickey,’ and one of the ‘final’
-clubs as well. I told him to write Aunt Nannie at once; and sure enough,
-just about the time they got Harley’s letter, there came a telegram
-saying I might come!”
-
-It was impossible for Frank not to laugh—if it were only because Sylvia
-was so happy. “So,” he said, “you’ve come to be a social puller-in for
-Harley!”
-
-“Now, Frank, don’t be horrid! I saw it this way—and it’s obvious
-arithmetic: If I do this, I’ll see Frank part of every day for a couple
-of weeks; if I don’t, I’ll only see him for a day when he comes to New
-York. There’s only one trouble—you must promise not to mind.”
-
-“What is it?”
-
-“We must not tell anybody that we’re engaged. If people knew that, I
-couldn’t do much with them.”
-
-“But I’ve told some people.”
-
-“Whom?”
-
-“Well, my room-mate.”
-
-“He’s not a club man, so that won’t matter. It doesn’t really matter, if
-we simply don’t announce it. You must promise not to mind, Frank—be
-good, and let me have my fun in my foolish way, and you sit by and
-smile, as you did in the car.”
-
-Frank’s answer was that he expected to sit by and smile all his life; a
-statement which led to a discussion between them, for Sylvia made
-objection to his desire to shrink from the world, and declared that she
-meant to fight for him, and manage him, and make something out of him.
-When these discussions arose he would laugh, in his quiet, good-natured
-way, and picture himself as a diplomat at St. James’, wearing
-knee-breeches and winning new empires by means of the smiles of “Lady
-Sunshine.” “But, you forget one thing,” he said—“that I came to Harvard
-to learn something.”
-
-“When you go out into the world,” propounded Sylvia, “you’ll realize
-that the things one knows aren’t half so important as the people one
-knows.”
-
-Frank laughed. “That wouldn’t be such a bad motto for our Alma Mater,”
-he said; then, thinking it over, “They might put it up as an
-inscription, where Freshmen with social ambitions could learn it. A
-motto for all college climbers—‘Not the things one knows, but the people
-one knows!’”
-
-Sylvia was looking at him, a trifle worried. “Frank,” she said, “suppose
-you go through life finding fault with everything in that fashion?”
-
-“I don’t know,” he replied. “But I shall always fight a wrong when I see
-one. Wait till you’ve been here a while, and you’ll see about this!”
-
-“I ought to have come before,” she said; “I could have solved so many
-problems for you. It’s the same everywhere in life—those who are out
-rail at those who are in, but when you hear both sides, you see the
-matter differently. I’ve a grudge against you, Frank—you misrepresented
-things. You told me they had abolished the Fraternity system here, and I
-didn’t know about the clubs, and so I permitted you to be a ‘goat.’”
-
-“They call it a ‘rough-neck’ here,” he corrected.
-
-“Well, a ‘rough-neck.’ Anyway, I let you take a back seat. And just as
-if you didn’t have ability——”
-
-“Ability!” Frank exclaimed. Then, checking himself, he went on gently to
-explain the social system he had found at Harvard. In the Southern
-colleges, ability and good breeding might still get a poor man
-recognition. But the clubs here were run by a little group of Boston and
-New York society men, who had been kept in a “set” from the day they
-were born. They went to kindergarten together, to dancing school
-together—their sisters had private sewing circles, instead of those at
-church. They had their semi-private dormitories on Auburn Street—one
-might come with a string of automobiles and a stud of polo ponies, but
-he would find that his money would not rent one of those places unless
-the crowd had given its O. K. They roomed apart, they ate and drank
-apart, and the men in their own class never even met them.
-
-Sylvia listened in bewilderment. “Surely, Frank,” she exclaimed, “there
-must be some friendliness——”
-
-He smiled. “Just as I said, honey—you’re judging by the South. We’ve
-snobbery enough there, God knows—but some of us are kind-hearted. You
-can’t imagine things up here—how cold and formal people are. They have
-their millions of dollars and the social position this gives them; they
-are jealous of those who have more and suspicious of those who have
-less—and they’ve been that way for so long that every plain human
-feeling is dead in them. Take a man like Douglas van Tuiver, for
-example. You’ve heard of him, I suppose?”
-
-“I’ve heard of the van Tuivers, of course.”
-
-“Well, Douglas is our bright particular social star just now. He’s
-inherited from three estates already—the Lord only knows how many tens
-of millions in his own right. He’s gone the ‘Gold Coast’ crowd one
-better—has his own private house here in Cambridge, and an apartment in
-Boston also, I’m told. He entered society there at the same time that he
-entered college; and he doesn’t think much of our social life—except the
-little set he’d already met in Boston and New York. He’s stiff and
-serious as a chief justice—self-conscious, condescending——”
-
-“Do you know him?” asked Sylvia.
-
-“I never met him, of course; but I see him all the time, because he’s in
-some of my sections.”
-
-“In some of your sections!” cried Sylvia. “And you never met him?”
-
-The other laughed. “You see, honey,” he said, “how little you are able
-to imagine life at Harvard! Douglas, my dear, has been yachting with
-English peers; he has Scotch earls for ancestors, and an accent that he
-has acquired in their honor. He sets more store by them, I suppose, than
-he does by his old Knickerbocker ancestors, who left him several farms
-between Fifth and Madison Avenues.”
-
-“Is he a club man?” asked Sylvia.
-
-“He lives to set the social standards for our clubs; a sort of _arbiter
-elegantiarum_. It’s one of the sayings they attribute to him, that he
-came to Harvard because American university life was in need of ‘tone.’”
-
-“Oh, dear me!” exclaimed Sylvia; and again, in a lower voice, “Oh, dear
-me!” She pondered, and then with sudden interest inquired, “He’d be a
-good man for Harley to meet, wouldn’t he?”
-
-“None better,” smiled Frank, “if he wants to make the ‘Dickey.’”
-
-“Then,” said Sylvia, “he’s the man I’d best go after.”
-
-The other laughed. “All right, honey. But you’ll find him hard to
-interest, I warn you. His career has all been planned—he’s to marry
-Dorothy Cortlandt, who’ll bring him ten or twenty millions more.”
-
-And Sylvia set her lips in a dangerous expression. “He can marry Dorothy
-Cortlandt,” she said, “but not until I’ve got through with him!”
-
-
- § 3
-
-That evening was reserved for a performance of the “Glee Club;” and just
-before dinner Harley came in, bubbling over with delight, to say that
-Harmon had called up and invited him to bring his cousin and share his
-box.
-
-And so behold Sylvia, clad in pale blue silk, with touches of gold
-embroidery and a gold band across one shoulder, swimming like a new
-planet into the ken of the watchers of these brilliantly lighted skies.
-There were few acquaintances of “Bob” Harmon who did not come to the
-door of the box to get a closer view of the phenomenon; while the
-delighted cousin found himself besieged. Sedate upper-classmen put their
-arms across his shoulders, tremendous club-men got him by the coat
-sleeve in the lobby. “Let us in on that, Chilton!” “Now don’t be a hog,
-old man!”—“You know me, Chilton!” Yes, Harley knew them all, and
-calculated to keep knowing them for some time to come.
-
-The next morning he came early, and took Sylvia for a drive, to lay
-before her the whole situation, and coach her for the part she was to
-play; for this was the enemy’s country, and there were many pitfalls to
-be avoided.
-
-It ought perhaps to be explained at the outset how it happened that Aunt
-Nannie, whose time was spent in erecting monuments to Southern heroes,
-had sent one of her sons to the headquarters of those who had slain
-them. It had come about through the seductions of a young lady named
-Edith Winthrop, whose father was building a railroad through half a
-dozen of the Southern states. He had brought a private-train party upon
-an inspection trip, and the Major and Harley, happening to be at the
-capital, had met them at a luncheon given by the Governor. Everybody
-knows, of course, that the Winthrops live in Boston; and everybody in
-Boston knows of Mrs. Isabel Winthrop, that charming matron whose home
-has been as the axle of the Hub for the past twenty years. At Cambridge
-it was at first a scandal, and later a tradition, how the lovely lady
-was strolling in the “Yard” one spring evening, and a group of Seniors
-broke into the merry chorus of a popular musical-comedy air—
-
- “Isabella, Isabella,
- Is a queen of good society!
- Isabella, Isabella,
- Is the dandy queen of Spain!”
-
-And now Harley had come to Cambridge to lay siege to the princess of
-this line. They had invited him to tea, where he had felt himself an
-obscure and humiliated Freshman. In his pride he had gone away, vowing
-that he would not return until he had made the “Dickey,” and made it
-without any social aid from the lady of his adoration. But, alas, Harley
-had found this a task of undreamed-of difficulty. There were so many
-Edith Winthrops in Boston, New York, Philadelphia and other centers of
-good breeding; and there were so many obscure Freshmen trying to make
-the “Dickey” in order to shine before them!
-
-“You can’t imagine how it is, Sylvia,” he said. “They don’t know us
-here—we’re nobodies. I’ve met all the Southern men who amount to
-anything, but it’s Eastern men who run the worth-while clubs. And it’s
-almost impossible to meet them—I’d be ashamed to tell you how I’ve had
-to toady.”
-
-“Harley!” exclaimed the girl.
-
-“I’ll tell you the facts,” he answered—“you’ll have to face them—just as
-I did.”
-
-“But how could you stay?”
-
-He laughed. “I stayed,” he said, “because I wanted Edith.”
-
-He paused, then continued: “First I thought I’d try football; but you
-see I haven’t weight enough—I only made the Freshman ‘scrub.’ I joined
-the Shooting Club—and I certainly can shoot, you know; but that hasn’t
-seemed to help very much. I went in for the Banjo Club, and I’ve worked
-my fingers off, and I expect to make the Board, but I don’t think that
-will be enough. You see, ability really doesn’t count at all.”
-
-“That’s what Frank said,” remarked Sylvia, sympathetically. “What is it
-that counts? Learning?”
-
-“Rot—no!” exclaimed Harley.
-
-“Then what is it?”
-
-“It’s knowing the right people. But you can’t manage that here—it has to
-be done before you get to college. The crowd doesn’t need you, they
-don’t care what you think about them—and I tell you, they know how to
-give you the cold shoulder!”
-
-Sylvia was indignant in spite of herself. “You, a Castleman!” she
-exclaimed. “Why, your ancestors were governors of this place while
-theirs were tavern-keepers and blacksmiths!”
-
-“I know,” said the other—“but it isn’t ancestors that count here—it’s
-being on the ground and holding on to what you’ve got.”
-
-“They’re all rich men, I suppose?”
-
-“Perfectly rotten! You’re simply out of it from the start. I heard of a
-man last year who spent fifty thousand dollars trying to make the
-‘Dickey,’ and then only got in the seventh ten! You’ve no idea of the
-lengths men go to; they pull every sort of wire, social and business and
-financial and political—they bring on their fathers and brothers to help
-them——”
-
-“And their cousins,” said Sylvia, and brought the discussion to an end
-with a laugh. “Now come, Harley,” she said, after a pause. “Let’s get
-down to business. You want me to meet the right men, and to make them
-aware of the existence of my Freshman cousin. Have you got a list of the
-men? Or am I to know by their ties?”
-
-Harley named and described several she would meet. Through them she
-would, of course, meet others; she must feel her way step by step, being
-guided by circumstances. There was another matter, which was delicate,
-but must be broached. “I don’t want to seem like a cad,” said he, “but
-you see, Frank Shirley isn’t a club man—he hasn’t tried to be—”
-
-“I understand,” said Sylvia, with a smile.
-
-“Of course, the fact that you come from his home town, that’s excuse
-enough for his knowing you. But if you make it too conspicuous—that is—”
-
-Harley stopped. “It’s all right, Harley,” smiled Sylvia; “you may be
-sure that Frank Shirley has too much of a sense of humor to want to get
-in our way.”
-
-The other hesitated over the remark. It looked like deep water, and he
-decided not to venture in. “It’s not only that,” he went on—“there’s
-Frank’s crowd. They’re all outsiders, and one or two of them especially
-are impossible.”
-
-“In what way?”
-
-“Well, there’s Jack Colton, Frank’s room-mate. He’s gone out of his way
-to make himself obnoxious to everybody. He’s done it deliberately, and I
-suppose he has his reasons for it. I only hope he has sense enough not
-to want to ‘queer’ you.”
-
-“What’s he done?”
-
-“He’s a Western chap—from Wyoming, I think. Seems to have more money
-than he knows how to spend decently. He insisted on smoking a pipe in
-his Freshman year, and when they tried to haze him, he fought. He’s wild
-as anything, they say—goes off on a spree every month or two—”
-
-“How does Frank come to be rooming with such a man?” asked Sylvia, in
-surprise.
-
-“Met him traveling, I understand. They were in a train-wreck.”
-
-“Oh, that’s the man! But Frank didn’t tell me he was wild.”
-
-“Well,” said the other, “Frank would naturally stand up for him. I
-suppose he’s trying to keep him straight.”
-
-There was a silence. Then suddenly Sylvia asked, “Harley, did you ever
-meet Douglas van Tuiver?”
-
-“No!” replied Harley. “Why do you ask?”
-
-“Nothing—only I heard of him, and I was thinking perhaps he’d be a good
-man to help you.”
-
-“Small doubt of that,” said the boy, with a laugh. “But it might be
-difficult to meet him.”
-
-“Why?”
-
-“Well, he picks the people he meets. And he doesn’t come to public
-affairs.”
-
-“Stop and think a minute. Is there nobody who might know him?”
-
-“Why—there’s Mrs. Winthrop.”
-
-“He goes there?”
-
-“They’re great chums, I understand. I could get her to invite you.”
-
-But Sylvia, after a moment’s thought, shook her head. “No,” she said, “I
-think I’ll let him take me to her.”
-
-“By Jove!” laughed Harley. “That’s cool!” And then he asked, curiously,
-“What makes you pick him out?”
-
-“I don’t know,” said Sylvia. “I find myself thinking about him. You see,
-I meet men like Mr. Harmon and the others last night—they’re all
-obvious. I’ve known them by the dozen before, and I can always tell what
-they’ll say. But this man sounds as if he might be different.
-
-“Humph!” said Harley. “I wish you could get a chance! But I fear you’d
-find him a difficult proposition. Girls must be forever throwing
-themselves at his head—”
-
-“Yes,” said Sylvia. “But I wouldn’t make that mistake.” Then, after a
-pause, she added, “I think it might be good for him, too. I might make a
-man of him!”
-
-
- § 4
-
-There was a Senior named Thurlow, whom Sylvia had met at the “Glee Club”
-affair, and who, after judicious approach through Harley and Aunt
-Varina, had secured her promise to come to tea in his rooms. So she saw
-one of the dormitories on Auburn Street, having such modern conveniences
-as “buttons,” a squash court, and a white marble swimming pool—with a
-lounging room at one end, and easy chairs from which to watch one’s
-fellow mermen at play.
-
-Thurlow showed her about his own apartments, equipped with that kind
-of simplicity that is so notoriously expensive. He showed her his
-tennis cups and rowing trophies, talking most interestingly about the
-wonderful modern art, the pulling of an oar—in which there are no less
-than seventy errors a man can commit in the “catch,” and a
-hundred-and-seventy in the “stroke.” Thurlow, it appeared, must have
-committed several in last year’s race, for he had snapped his oar, and
-only saved the day by jumping overboard, being picked up in a state of
-collapse, and reported as drowned in the first newspaper extras.
-
-There came others of his set: Jackson, the coxswain of the crew, known
-as “Little Billee,” a wizened up and drolly cynical personage; also
-Bates, his room-mate, who was called “Tubby,” and was hard put to it
-when the ladies asked him why, because he could not explain that he was
-“a tub of guts.” The vats declared that he weighed two hundred and
-twenty when he was in training for the fat man’s race; he had been
-elected the official funny man of his class, and whenever he made a joke
-he led off with a queer little cackle of high-pitched laughter, which
-never failed to carry the company with him. There came Arlow Bynner, the
-famous quarter-back, and Tom, his twin brother, so much like him that
-when he had first come to college the Sophomores had dyed his hair.
-There came Shackleford, millionaire man of fashion, who had been picked
-for president of the new Senior Class, and who looked so immaculate that
-Sylvia thought of magazine advertisements of leisure-class brands of
-tobacco.
-
-There were six men in the room, and only two women—of which one was Aunt
-Varina, the chaperone. You can imagine that it was an ordeal for the
-other woman! It is easy enough for a girl to make out when she is
-looking at memorial inscriptions and historic elm trees, at smoking
-outfits and rowing sculls; but it’s another matter to be cornered by six
-fastidious upper-classmen, their looks saying plainer than words: “We’ve
-been hearing about you, but we’re from Missouri—now bring out your bag
-of tricks!”
-
-Poor Sylvia—she began, as usual, by having a fright. She could think of
-nothing to say to all these men. She chose this moment to recollect some
-warnings which had been given by Harriet, before she left home, as to
-the exactingness and blaséness of Northern college men; also some
-half-ventured hints of her cousin, that possibly her arrows might be too
-light in the shaft for the social heavyweights of this intellectual
-center. She gazed from one to another in agony; she bit her tongue until
-she tasted blood, scolding and exhorting herself like a football coach
-driving a “scrub” team.
-
-It was “Bob” Harmon whose coming saved her. The very sight of him
-brought her inspiration. She had managed him, had she not? Where was the
-man she had ever failed to manage? She recollected how she had looked at
-him, and what she had said to him in the auto; there came suddenly the
-trumpet-call in her soul, in the far deeps of her the trampling and
-trembling, the fluttering of banners and murmuring of voices—signs of
-the arrival of that rescuing host which came to her always in
-emergencies, and constituted the miracle of Sylvia. Her friend Harriet
-Atkinson, herself no dullard in company, would sit by and watch the
-phenomenon in awe. “Sunny,” she would say, “I can see it coming! I can
-see it beginning to bubble! The light comes into your eyes, and I
-whisper to myself, ‘Now, now! She’s going to make a killing!’”
-
-What is it—who can say? That awakening in the soul of man, that sense of
-uplift, of new power arriving, of mastery conscious and exultant! To
-some it is known as genius, and to others as God. To have possessed it
-in some great crisis is to have made history; and most strange have been
-the courses to which men have been lured by the dream of keeping it
-continuously—to stand upon a pillar and be devoured by worms, to hide in
-desert caves and lash one’s flesh to strips—or to wear tight stays and
-high-heeled shoes, and venture into a den of Harvard club-men!
-
-
- § 5
-
-Half an hour or so later, when they were passing tea and cake, the flame
-of her fun burned less brightly for a few minutes, and she had time to
-remember a purpose which was stored away in the back of her mind. All
-her faculties now became centered upon it; and those who wish may follow
-the winding serpent of her cunning.
-
-She had been telling them about the negro boy who had bitten a piece out
-of the baby. Thurlow remarked, “Yours must be an interesting part of the
-world.”
-
-“We love it,” she said. “But you wouldn’t.”
-
-“Why not?”
-
-“You’d miss too many things you are used to. Our college boys have no
-such luxury as this.” She looked about her.
-
-“You think this so very luxurious?”
-
-“I do indeed. I’m not sure that I think it’s good taste for young
-fellows.”
-
-“But why not?”
-
-“It gets you out of touch with life,” replied Sylvia, with charming
-gravity. (“Don’t play too long on one string!” had been a maxim of Lady
-Dee.) “I think it’s demoralizing. This place might be a sanatorium
-instead of a dormitory—if only you had elevators to take the invalids
-upstairs.”
-
-Somebody remarked, “We have elevators in many of the dormitories.”
-
-“Is that really so?” asked Sylvia. “I don’t see how you can go beyond
-that—unless some of you take to having private houses.”
-
-There was a laugh. “We’ve come to that, too,” said Bates.
-
-“What?” cried the girl. “Surely not!”
-
-“Douglas van Tuiver has a house,” replied Bates.
-
-“Surely you are jesting!”
-
-“No! I’ll show it to you, Miss Castleman.”
-
-“Who is Douglas van Tuiver?”
-
-The men glanced at one another. “Haven’t you ever heard of the van
-Tuivers?” asked one.
-
-“Who are they?” countered Sylvia, who never lied when she could avoid
-it.
-
-“They are one of our oldest families,” said Shackleford—who came from
-New York. “Also one of the best known.”
-
-“Well,” said Sylvia, duly rebuked, “you see how very provincial I am.”
-
-“He’s a nephew of Mrs. Harold Cliveden,” ventured Harmon.
-
-“Cliveden?” repeated Sylvia. “I think I’ve heard that name.” She kept a
-straight face—though the lady was the reigning queen of Newport, and a
-theme of the society gossip of all American newspapers. Then, not to
-embarrass her friends by too great ignorance, she hurried on, “But you
-surely don’t mean that this man has a house all to himself?”
-
-“He has,” said Thurlow.
-
-“He has more than that,” said Jackson. “He has a castle in Scotland.”
-
-“I don’t mind castles so much. One can inherit them——”
-
-“No, he bought this one.”
-
-“Well, even so—castles are romantic and interesting. One might have a
-dream of founding a family. But for a man to come to college and occupy
-a whole house—what motive could he have but ostentation?”
-
-No one answered—though she waited for an answer. At last, with a grave
-face, she pronounced the judgment, “I would expect to find such a man a
-degenerate.”
-
-They were evidently shocked, but covered it by laughing. “Lord!” said
-Bates, “I’d like to have van Tuiver hear that!”
-
-“Probably it would be good for him,” replied Sylvia, coldly.
-
-Everybody grinned. “Wish you’d tell him!” said the man.
-
-“I’d be delighted.”
-
-“Would you really?”
-
-“Why certainly.”
-
-“By Jove, I believe you’d do it!” declared Bates.
-
-“But why shouldn’t I do it?”
-
-“I don’t know. When people meet van Tuiver they sometimes lose their
-nerve.”
-
-“Is he so very terrible?”
-
-“Well, he’s rather imposing.”
-
-Then Sylvia took a new line. “Of course,” she said, hesitatingly, “I
-wouldn’t want to be irreverent——”
-
-“May I go and bring him here?” inquired Bates, eagerly.
-
-To which she replied, “Perhaps one owes more deference to Royalty.
-Shouldn’t you take me to him?”
-
-“We’ll keep you on a throne of your own,” said Thurlow—“at least, while
-you are here.” (It was quite as if he had been a Southern man.)
-
-But Bates was not to be diverted from his idea. “Won’t you let me go and
-get him?” he inquired.
-
-“Does he visit in dormitories?”
-
-“Really, Miss Castleman, I’m not joking. Wouldn’t you like to meet him?”
-
-“Why should I?”
-
-“Because—we’d all like to see what would happen.”
-
-“From what you say about him,” remarked Sylvia, “he sounds to me like a
-bore. Or at any rate, a young man who is in need of chastening.”
-
-“Exactly!” cried Bates. “And we’d like to see you attend to it!”
-
-The time had come, Sylvia thought, to play upon a new string. She looked
-about her with a slightly _distrait_ air. “Don’t you think,” she
-inquired, “that we are giving him too large a portion of this charming
-afternoon?”
-
-The men appreciated the compliment; but the other theme still enticed
-them. Said Jackson, “We can’t give up the idea of the chastening, Miss
-Castleman.”
-
-“Of course, if you are afraid of him—” added Bates, slyly.
-
-There was a momentary flash in Sylvia’s eyes. But then she laughed—“You
-can’t play a game like that on me!”
-
-“We would _so_ like,” said Jackson, “to see van Tuiver get a drubbing!”
-
-“Please, Miss Castleman!” added Harmon, “give him a drubbing!”
-
-But the girl only held out her white-gloved hands. “Look at these,” she
-said, “how pure and spotless!”
-
-Said “Tubby”: “I hereby register a vow, I will never partake of food
-again until you two have met!”
-
-Sylvia rose, looking bored. “I’m going to run away,” she said, “if you
-don’t find something interesting to talk about.” And strolling towards a
-cabinet, “Mr. Thurlow, come and introduce me to this charming little
-Billikin!”
-
-
- § 6
-
-Sylvia had promised to go with Frank the next day to a luncheon in his
-rooms. She found herself looking forward with relief to meeting his
-“crowd.” “Oh, Frank,” she said, when they had set out together, “you’ve
-no idea how glad I am to see you. I have such a craving for something
-home-like. You can’t understand, perhaps——”
-
-“Perhaps I can,” said Frank, smiling. “I can’t say that I’ve been in
-Boston society, but I’ve been on the outskirts.”
-
-“Frank,” she exclaimed, “you don’t ever worry about me, do you? Truly,
-the more I see of other people, the more I love you. And all I want is
-to be alone with you. I’m tired of the game. Everybody expects me to be
-pert and saucy; and I can be it, you know——”
-
-She stopped, and he smiled. “Yes, I know.”
-
-“But since I’ve met you, I get sorry, sometimes even ashamed. You see
-what you’ve done to me!”
-
-“What in the world have you been doing?” he asked.
-
-“Oh, some day I’ll tell you—don’t ask me now. It’s just that I’m tired
-of society—I wasn’t cut out for the life.”
-
-“Why, it was only a few days ago that you were talking about bringing me
-out!”
-
-“I know, Frank. I try to play the game, but deep down in my soul I hate
-it. I’m successful now, but it’s the truth that in the beginning I never
-took a step that I wasn’t driven. When I went into a ball-room, my teeth
-would chatter with fright, and I’d want to hide in a corner. Aunt Nannie
-would get hold of me, and take me into the dressing-room, and scold me
-and stir me up. I can hear her now. ‘You! Sylvia Castleman, my niece, a
-wallflower! Have you forgotten who you are?’ So then, of course, I’d
-have to think of my ancestors and be worthy of them. She’d pinch my
-cheeks until they were red, and wipe the wet corners of my eyes, and put
-a fresh dab of powder on my nose, and stick in a strand of hair, and
-twist a curl, and shift a bow of ribbon to the other shoulder—and then
-out I’d go to be stared at.”
-
-“You’ve got the job pretty well in hand by now,” smiled Frank.
-
-“Yes, I know, but I don’t really like it—not with my real self. I’m
-always thinking what fun it would be to be natural! I wonder what I’d
-turn into! And whether you’d like me!”
-
-“I’d take my chances.”
-
-“Would you really, Frank? Just suppose I stopped dressing, for instance?
-Suppose I never wore high heels and stiff collars? Suppose I dispensed
-with my _modiste_, and you discovered that I had no figure.”
-
-“I’d take my chances,” he laughed again.
-
-“You look at me, and you like what you see. But you’ve no idea what a
-work of art I am, nor how much I cost—thousands and thousands of
-dollars! And so many people to watch me and scold me—so much work to be
-done on me, day after day! Suppose my hair wasn’t curled, for instance!
-Or suppose my nose were shiny!”
-
-“I don’t mind shiny so much, Sylvia——”
-
-“Ah! But if it was red! That’s what they’re always hammering into
-me—whenever I forget my veil. Or look at these lovely soft hands of
-mine—such beautiful nails. Do you realize that I have to keep them in
-glycerine gloves all night—and ugh! how clammy and nasty they are when
-it’s cold! And the time it takes to keep the nails polished!”
-
-“You see,” she went on, after a pause, “you don’t take my wickedness
-seriously. But you should ask Harriet Atkinson about some of the things
-we’ve done. She’ll come and say, ‘There’s a new man coming to-night.
-Teach me a “spiel”!’ She’ll tell me all about him, where he comes from
-and what he likes, and I’ll tell her what to say and what to pretend to
-be. And I’ve done it myself—hundreds of times.”
-
-“Did you do it for me?” asked Frank, innocently.
-
-Sylvia paused. “I tried to,” she said. “Sometimes I did, but then again
-I couldn’t.” She put her hand upon his arm, and he felt a pressure,
-thrilling him with a swift delight.
-
-But they had come now to the dormitory, so her outburst had to end. She
-took her hand from his arm, saying, “Frank, I don’t want you to kiss me
-any more until we’re married. I’m going to stop doing everything that
-makes me ashamed!”
-
-
- § 7
-
-Behold now a new “Lady Sunshine,” in a clean white apron which her hosts
-had provided for the occasion, stirring mushrooms in cream and
-superintending stewed chicken, while Frank washed salad in the bathroom,
-and Jack Colton was half way up to his elbows in mayonnaise. This was
-the first time that Sylvia had met Frank’s room-mate, with whom she had
-intended to be very stern, because of his “wildness.” Although she was
-used to wild boys, and had helped to tame a number of them, she did not
-approve of such qualities in a companion of her lover.
-
-Jack, however, was a boy with what the Irish call “a way with him.” He
-had curly brown hair and a winning countenance, and such a laugh that it
-was not easy to disagree with him. Moreover a halo of romance hung about
-him, owing to the fact that Frank had first met him after a railroad
-wreck, sitting in the snow and holding in his lap a baby whose mother
-had been killed. Jack had engaged a nurse and sent the child all the way
-out to his own mother in Wyoming; and how could any girl object to a
-friendship begun under such auspices? If his mother was indulgent and
-sent him more pocket money than he could decently spend, might not one
-regard that as the boy’s misfortune rather than his fault?
-
-There was Dennis Dulanty, a fair-haired young Irishman who wrote poems,
-and was Sylvia’s slave from the first moment she entered the room. There
-was Tom Firmin, a heavily built man with a huge head made bigger by
-thick, black hair. Firmin was working his way through college and had no
-time for luncheon parties, but he had come this once to meet Sylvia. The
-girl listened to him with some awe, because Frank had said he had the
-best mind in the class. Finally there was Jack’s married sister, who
-lived in Boston, and was chaperone.
-
-There were four little tables with four chafing dishes, and two study
-tables put together and covered with a spread of linen and silver. There
-were strawberries which Dulanty had dropped upon the floor; there were
-sandwiches which Tom Firmin had tried in vain to cut thin, and wine
-about which Jack Colton talked far too wisely, for one so young. Jack
-had been round the world, and had tasted the vintage of many countries,
-and told such interesting adventures that one forgot one’s disapproval.
-
-Sylvia found herself happy here, and decided that Frank’s crowd was far
-more interesting than Thurlow’s. All these men were outsiders, holding
-themselves aloof from the social life of the University and resentful of
-the conditions they had found there. After awhile it occurred to Sylvia
-that it would be entertaining to hear what these men would have to say
-upon a subject which had been occupying her mind; so, by a few deft
-touches, she brought the conversation to a point where some one else was
-moved to mention the name of Douglas van Tuiver.
-
-Immediately she discovered that she had touched a live wire. There was
-Tom Firmin, frowning under his thick black eyebrows. “For my part, I
-have just one thing to say: a man who has any pretense at self-respect
-cannot even know him.”
-
-“Is he as bad as all that?” Sylvia asked.
-
-“It’s not a question of personality—it’s a question of the amount of his
-wealth.”
-
-Sylvia would have appreciated this if it had been a jest. But apparently
-the speaker was serious, and so she gazed at him in perplexity. “Is a
-very rich man to have no friends?” she asked.
-
-“Never fear,” laughed Jack, “there are plenty of tuft-hunters who will
-keep him company.”
-
-“But why should you sentence him to the company of tuft-hunters, just
-because he happens to be born with a lot of money?”
-
-“It isn’t I that sentence him,” said Firmin—“it’s the nature of things.”
-
-“But,” exclaimed the girl, “I’ve had millionaires for friends—and I hope
-I’m not the dreadful thing you say.”
-
-The other smiled for the first time. “Frank Shirley insists that there
-are angels upon earth,” he said. “But if you don’t mind, Miss Castleman,
-I’d prefer to illustrate this argument by every-day mortals like myself.
-I’m willing to admit, as a theoretical proposition, that there might be
-a disinterested friendship between a poor man and a multimillionaire;
-but only if the poor man is a Diogenes and stays in his tub. I mean, if
-he has no business affairs of any sort, and takes no part in social
-life; if he never lets the multimillionaire take him automobiling or
-invite him to dinner; if he has no marriageable sisters, and the
-multimillionaire has none either. But all these, you must admit, make a
-difficult collection of circumstances.”
-
-“Miss Castleman,” said Jack, “you can see why we call Tom Firmin our
-Anarchist.”
-
-But Sylvia was not to be diverted. She had never heard such ideas as
-this, and she wanted to understand them. “You must think hardly of human
-nature!” she objected.
-
-“As I said before, it has nothing whatever to do with personality, it’s
-the automatic effect of a huge sum of money. Take my own case, for
-example—so I can talk brutally and not hurt anyone. I want to be a
-lawyer, but meanwhile I have to earn my living. I love a girl, but I’ve
-no hope of marrying, because I’m poor and she’s poor. If I struggle
-along in the usual way, it’ll be five years—maybe ten years—before we
-can marry. But here I am in college, and here’s Douglas van Tuiver; if
-by any device of any sort I can manage to penetrate his consciousness—if
-I can make him think me a wit or a scholar, a boon companion or a great
-soul, the best halfback in college or an amusing old bull in the social
-china shop—why, then right away things are easier for me. You’ve heard
-what Thackeray said about walking down Piccadilly with a duke on each
-arm? If I can walk across the Yard with Douglas van Tuiver, then a lot
-of important men suddenly realize that I exist; the first thing you know
-I make a club, and so when I come out of college I’m the chum of some of
-the men who are running the country, and I have a salary of five
-thousand a year at the start, and ten thousand in a year or two, a
-hundred thousand before I’m forty, and a go at a rich marriage into the
-bargain. Do you think there are many would-be lawyers to whom all that
-would be no temptation? Let me tell you, it’s the temptation which has
-turned many a man in this college into a boot-licker!”
-
-“But, Mr. Firmin!” cried Sylvia, in dismay. “What is your idea? Would
-you forbid rich men coming to college?”
-
-To which the other replied, “I’d go much farther back than that, Miss
-Castleman—I’d forbid rich men existing.”
-
-Sylvia was genuinely shocked. She had never heard such words even in
-jest, and she thought Tom Firmin a terrifying person. “You see,” laughed
-Jack, “he really _is_ an Anarchist!” And Sylvia believed him, and
-resolved to remonstrate with Frank about having such friends. But
-nevertheless she went out from that breakfast party with something new
-to think about in connection with Douglas van Tuiver—and with her mind
-made up that Mr. “Tubby” Bates would have to die of starvation!
-
-
- § 8
-
-That afternoon Sylvia was invited to one of the club teas. These were
-very exclusive affairs, and Jackson, who asked her, mentioned that among
-those who poured tea would be Mrs. Isabel Winthrop; also that Mrs.
-Winthrop had expressed a particular desire to meet her.
-
-This would mark a new stage in Sylvia’s campaign for her cousin; but
-quite apart from that, she was curious to meet this _belle ideal_ of
-Auburn Street. Sylvia had listened attentively to what the denizens of
-the “Gold Coast” had to say about “Queen Isabella,” and had found
-herself rather awe-stricken. When one spoke of a favorite hostess in the
-South, one gave her credit for tact, for charm, perhaps even for
-brilliance. But apparently Mrs. Winthrop was the possessor of a much
-more difficult and perplexing attribute—a rare and lofty soul. She was a
-woman of real intellect, they said—she had written a book upon theories
-of æsthetics, and had taken a degree in philosophy at the older
-Cambridge across the seas. Such things were quite unknown in Southern
-society, where a girl was rather taught to hide her superfluous
-education, for fear of scaring the men away.
-
-So Sylvia found herself in a state of considerable apprehension. If it
-had been a man, she would have taken her chances; when she had attended
-Commencement at her State University, there were professors who would
-call and talk about Assyrian bricks, and the relation between ions and
-corpuscles—yet by listening closely, and putting in a deft touch now and
-then to make them talk about themselves, Sylvia had managed to impress
-them as an intellectual young lady. But now she had to deal with that
-natural enemy of a woman—another woman. How was the ordeal to be faced?
-
-Lady Dee had handed down the formula: “When in difficulty, look the
-person in the eyes, and remember who you are.” This was the counsel
-which came to Sylvia’s rescue at the moment of the dread encounter. She
-knew Mrs. Winthrop as soon as she caught sight of her; she looked a
-woman of thirty-five—instead of forty-five, which she really was—tall
-and slender, undoubtedly beautiful, undoubtedly proud, and yet with a
-kind of _naïve_ sincerity. They met in the dressing-room by accident,
-and the lady, recognizing Sylvia, took her hand and gazed into her face;
-and Sylvia gazed back, with those wide, clear eyes of hers, steadily,
-unflinching, without a motion or a sound. At last Mrs. Winthrop, putting
-her other hand upon the girl’s, clasped it and whispered intensely, “We
-met a thousand years ago!”
-
-Sylvia had no information as to any such event, and she had not expected
-at all that kind of welcome. So she continued to gaze—steadily,
-steadily. And the spell communicated itself to Mrs. Winthrop. “I heard
-that you were lovely,” she murmured, in a strange, low voice, “but I
-really had no idea! Sylvia Castleman, you are like a snow-storm of pear
-blossoms! You are a Corot symphony of spring time!”
-
-Now Sylvia had seen some of Corot’s paintings, but she had not learned
-to mix the metaphors of the arts, and so she had no idea what Mrs.
-Winthrop meant. She contented herself with saying something about the
-pleasure she felt at this meeting.
-
-But the other was not to be brought down to mundane speech. “Dryad!” she
-murmured. She had a manner and voice all her own, sybilline, oracular;
-you felt that she was speaking, not to you, but to some disembodied
-spirit. It was very disconcerting at first.
-
-“You bring back lost youth to the world,” she said. “I want to talk to
-you, Sylvia—to find out more about you. You aren’t vain, I know. You are
-proud!”
-
-“Why—I’m not sure,” said Sylvia, at a loss for a moment.
-
-“Oh, don’t be vain!” said the lady. “Remember—I was like you once.”
-
-Which gave Sylvia an opportunity of the sort she understood. “I will
-look forward,” she said, “to the prospect of being like you.”
-
-The radiant lady pressed her hand. “Very pretty, my child,” she said.
-“Quite Southern, too! But I must take you in and give the others some of
-this joy.”
-
-Such was the beginning of the acquaintance so utterly different from all
-possible beginnings, as Sylvia had imagined them. She found in Edith
-Winthrop, whom she met a few minutes later, a person much nearer to what
-she had expected in the mother. Miss Edith had her mother’s beauty and
-her mother’s pride, but no trace of her mother’s sybilline qualities. A
-badly spoiled young lady, was Sylvia’s first verdict upon this New
-England _belle_; a verdict which she delivered promptly to her
-infatuated cousin, and which she never found occasion to revise.
-
-The friendship thus begun progressed rapidly. Mrs. Winthrop asked if she
-might call, and coming the next day, discovered in Aunt Varina the
-perfect type of the Southern gentlewoman. So the three were soon
-absorbed in talking genealogy. At Miss Abercrombie’s Sylvia had been
-surprised to learn that it was bad form to talk about one’s ancestors;
-but apparently it was still permissible in Boston—as it assuredly was in
-the South.
-
-Mrs. Winthrop invited Sylvia to a party she was giving; and when Sylvia
-spoke of having to leave Boston, “Oh, stay,” said the great lady. “Come
-and stay with me—always!” Finally Sylvia said that she would come to the
-party.
-
-“I’ll invite your cousin for the extra man,” said the other. “It is to
-be a new kind of party—you know how desperately one has to struggle to
-keep one’s guests from being bored. I got this idea from a Southern man,
-so perhaps it’s an old story to you—a ‘Progressive Love’ party?”
-
-“Oh, yes, we often have them,” replied Sylvia. She had not supposed that
-these intellectual people would condescend to such play—having pictured
-Boston society as occupied in translating Meredith and Henry James.
-
-“People have to be amused the world over,” said Mrs. Winthrop. And when
-Sylvia looked surprised to have her thought read, the other gave her a
-long look, and smiled a deep smile. “Sylvia,” she propounded, “you and I
-understand each other. We are made of exactly the same material.”
-
-
- § 9
-
-There followed after this meeting a trying time for the girl. She went
-to a theatre in the evening, and when she came back to the hotel she
-found her aunt suffering acutely, with symptoms of appendicitis.
-Although there was a doctor and a nurse, she spent the entire night and
-half the next day by her aunt’s bedside. Sylvia’s love for her family
-appeared at a time like this a sort of frenzy; she would have died a
-thousand deaths to save them from suffering, and there was no getting
-her to spare herself in any way.
-
-Her sympathy for Aunt Varina was the greater, because this poor little
-lady was so patient and unselfish. Whenever there was anything the
-matter with her, she would make no trouble for anyone, but crawl away
-and endure by herself. She was one of those devoted souls, of which
-there is one to be found in every big family, who do not have a life of
-their own, but are ground up daily, as it were, to make oil to keep the
-great machine running smoothly. Sylvia, who had in herself the making of
-such a family lubricant, was irresistibly drawn to this gentle soul in
-distress.
-
-All night she helped the nurse with hot “stoups;” and even when the
-danger was passed she could not be persuaded to rest, but sat by the
-bedside, applying various kinds of smelling salts and lavender water,
-trying to be so cheerful that the patient would forget her pain. She
-smoothed the white forehead, noticing as she did so how thin the gray
-hairs were getting. She could look back to childhood days, when Aunt
-Varina had been bright and young-looking—there were even pictures of her
-as a girlish beauty; but now her neck was scrawny and her cheeks were
-wan, and most of her hair lay upon her dressing-table.
-
-The day passed, and then Sylvia was reminded that she had promised to go
-to a college entertainment with Harley. She ought to have gone to bed,
-but she did not like to disappoint her cousin, so she drank a cup or two
-of strong coffee, and was ready for anything that might come along.
-
-I used to say that I never knew a person who could _disappear_ so
-rapidly as Sylvia; who could literally eat up the flesh off her bones by
-nervous excitement. After a night and a day like this she was another
-woman—that strange arresting creature who made men start when they saw
-her, and set poets to dreaming about angels and stars. She wore a soft
-white muslin dress and a hat with a white plume in it—not intending to
-be ethereal, but because an instinct always guided her hand towards the
-color that was right.
-
-The entertainment being not very interesting, and the hall being close,
-after an hour or so she asked her cousin to take her out. It was a
-perfect night, and she drank in the soft breeze and strolled along,
-happy to watch the lights through the trees and to hear singing in the
-distance. But suddenly she discovered that she had lost a medallion
-which she had worn about her neck. “We must find it!” she exclaimed.
-“It’s the one with the picture of Aunt Lady!”
-
-“Are you sure you had it?”
-
-“I remember perfectly having it in the hall. We’ll find it if we’re
-quick. Hurry! I can’t, with these heels on my shoes.” So Harley started
-back, and Sylvia began to walk slowly, looking on the sidewalk.
-
-Five or ten minutes passed thus; when, hearing steps behind her, she
-glanced up, and saw a man attired in evening dress. There was a light
-near by, shining into her face, and she saw that he looked at her; also,
-with her woman’s intuition, she realized that he had been startled.
-
-He stopped. “Have you lost something?” he asked, hesitatingly.
-
-“Yes,” she said.
-
-“Could I be of any help?”
-
-“Thank you,” said Sylvia. “My cousin has gone back to look. He will be
-here soon.”
-
-That was all. Sylvia resumed her search. But the man’s way was the same
-as hers, and he did not go as fast as before. She was really worried
-about her loss, and barely thought of him. His voice was that of a
-gentleman, so his nearness did not disturb her.
-
-“Was it something valuable?” he asked, at last.
-
-“It was a medallion with a picture that I prize.”
-
-She stopped at a corner, uncertain of the street by which she and Harley
-had come. He stopped also. “I would be very glad to help,” he said, “if
-you would permit me.”
-
-“Thank you,” she said, “but I really think that my cousin will find it.
-We had not come far.”
-
-Again there was a pause. As she went on, he was near her, looking
-diligently. After a while she began to find the silence awkward, but she
-did not like to send him away, and she did not like to speak again. So
-it was with real relief that, looking down the street, she saw Harley
-coming. “There’s my cousin!” she said. “Oh, I _do_ hope he’s found it.”
-
-“He doesn’t act as if he had,” remarked the other; and Sylvia’s heart
-sank, for she saw that Harley walked slowly, and with his eyes on the
-ground.
-
-When he was near enough she asked, “You haven’t found it?”
-
-“No,” he answered. “It’s gone, I fear.”
-
-“Oh, too bad! too bad! What can we do?”
-
-Harley had come near. Sylvia saw that he looked at the man she was with,
-but there was no recognition between them. Evidently they did not know
-each other. Then, without offering to stop, Harley passed them, saying,
-“I’ll look back this way.”
-
-“I don’t think that’s worth while,” said the girl. “I’ve searched
-carefully there.”
-
-“I’d better look,” replied the other, who had quickened his pace and was
-already some distance off.
-
-“But wait, Harley!” she called. She wanted to explain to him how
-thoroughly she had searched; and, more important yet, she wanted to get
-decently rid of the stranger.
-
-But Harley went on, paying no attention to her. She called him again,
-with some annoyance, but he did not stop, and in a moment more had
-turned a corner. She was perplexed and angered by his conduct—more and
-more so as she thought of it. How preposterous for him to brush past in
-that fashion, and leave her with a man she did not know! “What in the
-world can he mean?” she exclaimed. “There’s no need to search back there
-any more!”
-
-She stood, staring into the half-darkness. When after a moment he did
-not reappear, she repeated, helplessly, “What did he mean? What did he
-mean?”
-
-She looked at her companion, and saw an amused smile upon his face. Her
-eyes questioned him, and he said, “I suspect he saw you were with _me_.”
-
-For a moment Sylvia continued to stare at him. Then, realizing that here
-was a serious matter, she looked down at the ground—something which the
-search for the medallion gave her the pretext for doing.
-
-“He saw you were with _me_.” The more she pondered the words, the more
-incredible they seemed to her. Taken as they had come, with the tone and
-the accent and the smile, there was only one thing they could mean. A
-week ago Sylvia would have been incapable of comprehending that meaning;
-but now she had seen so much of social climbing that she had developed a
-new sensitiveness. She understood—and yet she could not believe that she
-understood. This man did not know Harley, but Harley knew him, and knew
-him to be somebody of importance—of such importance that he had
-deliberately gone on and left her standing there, so that she might pick
-up an acquaintance with him on the street! And the man had watched the
-little comedy, and knowing his own importance, was chuckling with
-amusement.
-
-As the realization of this forced itself upon Sylvia, the blood mounted
-to the very roots of her hair. She was seized by a perfect fury of shame
-and indignation; it was all that she could do to keep from turning upon
-the man and telling him what a cad and a puppy she thought him. But then
-came a second thought—wasn’t it true, what he believed? What other
-explanation could there be of Harley’s conduct? It was her cousin who
-was the puppy and the cad; she wanted to run after him and tell him in
-the man’s hearing. But then again her anger turned upon the stranger. If
-he had been a gentleman, would he ever have let her know what he
-thought? Would he have stood there now, grinning like a pot-boy?
-
-Sylvia finished her meditations, and lifted her eyes from the ground.
-She was clear as to what she would do—she would punish this man, as
-never in her life had she punished a man before. She would punish him,
-even though to do it she had to walk on the proprieties with the sharp
-heels of her white suede slippers.
-
-“I beg your pardon,” she said, gently. “I hope I don’t presume——”
-
-“What is it?” he asked, and she looked him over. He was a tall man, with
-a pale, lean face, prominent features, and a large mouth which drooped
-at the corners with heavy lines. He was evidently a serious person,
-mature looking for a student.
-
-“Are you by any chance an instructor in the University?” she asked.
-
-“No, no,” he said, surprised.
-
-“But then—are you a public official of some sort?”
-
-“No,” he said, still more surprised. “Why should you think that?”
-
-“Well, my cousin seemed to know you, and yet not to know you. He seemed
-willing to leave me with you, so I thought you might be—possibly a city
-detective——”
-
-She saw him wince, and she feigned quick embarrassment. “I hope you’ll
-excuse me!” she said. “You see, my position is difficult.” Then, with
-one of her shining smiles, “Or have I perchance met Sir Galahad—or some
-other comforter of distressed damsels—St. George, or Don Quixote?”
-
-When an outrage is offered to you by one of the loveliest beings that
-you have ever beheld, with the face of a higher order of angels, and a
-look straight into your eyes, so eloquent of simplicity and
-trustfulness—what more can you do than to look uncomfortable?
-
-And Sylvia, of course, did not help him. She just continued to gaze and
-smile. He got his breath and stammered, “Really—I think—if you will
-permit me——” He paused, and then drew himself up. “I think that I had
-best introduce myself.”
-
-“I am willing to accept the rebuke,” said Sylvia, “without putting you
-to that trouble.”
-
-She saw that he did not even understand. He went on—his manner that of a
-man laboring with a very serious purpose. “I really think that I should
-introduce myself.”
-
-“Are we not having a pleasant time without it?” she countered.
-
-This, of course, was a complete blockade. He stood at a loss; and
-meantime Sylvia waited, with every weapon ready and every sense alert.
-“I beg pardon,” he said, at last, “but may I ask you something? I’ve a
-feeling as if I had met you before.”
-
-“I am sure that you have not,” she said, promptly.
-
-“You are from the South, are you not? I have been in the South several
-times.”
-
-But still she would not give an inch; and he became desperate. “Pardon
-me,” he said, “if I tell you my name. I am Douglas van Tuiver.”
-
-Now if there was ever a moment in her life when Sylvia needed her social
-training, it was then. He was looking into her face, watching for the
-effect of his announcement. But he never saw so much as the flicker of
-an eyelid. Sylvia said, quietly, “Thank you,” and waited to load her
-batteries. She had meant harm to him before. Imagine what she meant now!
-
-“It is an unusual name,” she observed, casually. “German, I presume?”
-
-“Dutch,” said he.
-
-“Ah, Dutch. But then—you speak English perfectly.”
-
-“My ancestors,” he said, “came to this country in sixteen hundred and
-forty.”
-
-“Ah!” exclaimed Sylvia. “How curious! Mine came the same year. Perhaps
-that was where we met—in a previous incarnation.” Then, after a pause,
-“Van Tuivel, did you say?”
-
-She could feel his start, and she waited breathlessly to see what he
-would do. But there were the soft, red-brown eyes and the look of utter
-innocence—how _could_ he gaze into them and doubt? “Van Tuiver,” he
-said, gravely. “Douglas van Tuiver.”
-
-“Oh, I beg your pardon,” Sylvia responded. “Van Tuiver. I have it now.”
-
-She waited, feeling sure that he could not bear to leave it there. And
-so it proved. “The name is well known in New York,” he remarked.
-
-“Ah,” she said, “but then—there are so _many_ people in New York!”
-
-Again there was a pause, while he took thought. Sylvia remarked,
-helpfully, “In the South, you see, everybody knows everybody else.”
-
-“I am not at all sure,” said he, stiffly, “that I should find that a
-desirable state of affairs.”
-
-“Neither should I,” said she—“in New York.”
-
-Now perhaps you think that this kind of thing is no particular strain
-upon the nerves of a young girl; but Sylvia was seeking a way of escape.
-Where was the villain Harley, and how much longer did he mean to keep
-her on the rack? At this moment she saw a taxicab coming down the
-street, and she recognized her chance.
-
-“Please call it!” she exclaimed.
-
-Instinctively her companion raised his hand. Equally instinctive was his
-exclamation: “Are you going?”
-
-Her answer was her action; as the vehicle drew up by the curb, she
-opened the door herself, and stepped in. “To Boston,” she said; and the
-cab moved on. “Good-bye, Mr. van Tuiver,” she called to her surprised
-companion. “Good-bye, until the next incarnation!”
-
-
- § 10
-
-News spread rapidly in Cambridge, Sylvia found. The next afternoon she
-received a call from Mr. “Tubby” Bates, and one glimpse of his features
-told her that he was moved by some compelling impulse.
-
-“May I sit down, Miss Castleman?” he asked. “I’ve something to ask you
-about. But I’m not sure, Miss Castleman—that is—whether I’ve a right to
-talk about it. You may think that I’m gossiping——”
-
-“Oh, but I adore gossiping,” put in the girl; whereat the other stopped
-stammering and beamed with relief. He was more like a Southern man than
-anyone Sylvia had met here; she knew just how to deal with him.
-
-“Thank you ever so much!” he exclaimed. “It’s really very good of you.”
-He drew his chair an inch or two nearer, and in a confidential voice
-began, “It’s about Douglas van Tuiver.”
-
-“Yes, I supposed so,” said Sylvia, with a smile.
-
-“Oh, then something _did_ happen!”
-
-“Now, Mr. Bates,” she laughed, “tell your story.”
-
-“This noon,” he said, “van Tuiver called me on the ’phone—or at least
-his secretary did—and asked me if I’d lunch at the club. When we sat
-down, there were two other chaps, both wondering what was up. Pretty
-soon he got to a subject—” Bates stopped uneasily. “I’m afraid that
-perhaps I won’t express myself in the right way, Miss Castleman—that I
-may say something you don’t like——”
-
-“Go on,” smiled Sylvia. “I’m possessed by curiosity.”
-
-“Well, it came out that he’d had an adventure. He was walking last
-evening, and he met a lady. She was tall and rather pale, he said—a
-Southern girl. She was dressed in white and had golden hair. ‘Have any
-of you met such a girl?’ he asked. I kept silent and let the rest do the
-answering. They hadn’t. ‘It was a lady in distress,’ van Tuiver went on,
-‘and I offered my assistance and she accepted’——”
-
-“Oh, I did _not_!” cried Sylvia.
-
-“Oho!” exclaimed Bates, “I knew it! Tell me, what did you do?”
-
-“This is your story,” she laughed.
-
-“Well, he said it was a novel rôle for him—that of Sir Galahad, or St.
-George, or Don Quixote. He found it embarrassing. I said, ‘Was it the
-novelty of the rôle—or perhaps the novelty of the lady?’ ‘Well,’ said
-van Tuiver, ‘that’s just it. She was one of the most bewildering people
-I ever met. She talked’—you won’t mind my telling this, Miss Castleman?”
-
-“Not a bit—go on.”
-
-“Some of it isn’t very complimentary——”
-
-“I’m wild with suspense, Mr. Bates!”
-
-“‘Well,’ he said, ‘she looked like a lady, but she talked like an
-actress in a comedy. I never heard anybody rattle so—I never knew a girl
-so pert. She talked just—_amazingly_.’ That was his word. I asked him
-just what he meant, but that was all I could get him to say. Finally he
-asked, ‘Do you know the lady?’ and of course I had to answer that I
-thought I did; I could be sure if he’d give me a sample of her
-conversation. ‘She has a cousin named Harley,’ he said, and I said,
-‘Yes—he’s Chilton, a Freshman. Her name is Miss Castleman.’ Then he
-wanted to know all about you. I said, ‘I met her at a tea at Thurlow’s,
-and about all I know of her is that she talks amazingly.’ I thought that
-was paying him back.”
-
-“And then?” laughed Sylvia.
-
-“Well, he wanted to know what I thought of you; and I said I thought you
-were the loveliest, and the cleverest, and the sweetest person that I’d
-ever met in my life. I really think that, you know. And then van Tuiver
-said—” But here Bates stopped himself suddenly. “That’s all,” he said.
-
-“No, surely not, Mr. Bates!”
-
-“But really it is. You see, we were interrupted——”
-
-“But not until Mr. van Tuiver had said that he thought I was horrid, and
-he thought I was shallow, and he thought I was vain.”
-
-The other flushed slightly. Sylvia went on, “I don’t mind it, because
-the truth is, I’d been thinking it myself. You see, I really _was_ mean
-to him, Mr. Bates. I said things to hurt him, without his knowing I
-meant them; but after he went off, he must have understood. Why should
-we want to hurt people?”
-
-“I don’t know,” said Tubby, bewildered by this unexpected new turn. He
-wanted Sylvia to tell him the story of what had happened that evening;
-but she refused. Then he went on to a new proposition—he wished to bring
-van Tuiver to call. But she refused again and begged him not to think
-about the matter any further. He pleaded with her, in semi-comic
-distress; he was so anxious to see what would happen—everyone was
-anxious to see what would happen! He implored her, in the name of good
-society; it was cruel, wicked of her to refuse! But Sylvia was obdurate,
-and in the end he took his departure lamenting, but vowing that he would
-not give up.
-
-Just as he was leaving, Harley arrived. He came to get his scolding for
-his conduct of the previous night. But the scolding was more serious
-than he had expected. To his dismay Sylvia declared that she was sincere
-in her refusal to meet van Tuiver again.
-
-“The truth is,” she said, “I’ve changed my mind about the whole matter.
-I don’t care to have anything to do with the man.”
-
-“But why not?” asked Harley, in amazement.
-
-“Because—I don’t think that poor people like us have any right to. We
-can’t meet him and keep our self-respect.”
-
-“Great God, girl! Aren’t we van Tuiver’s social equals.”
-
-“We think we are, but he doesn’t; and his view prevails. When you came
-up here and fell in love with a girl in his set, you found that his view
-prevailed. And look what you did last night! Don’t you see the
-degradation—simply to be near such a man?”
-
-“That’s all very well,” objected Harley, “but can I keep van Tuiver from
-coming to Harvard?”
-
-“No, you can’t; but you can help to keep him from having his way after
-he has got here. You can stand out against him and all that he
-represents.”
-
-There was a pause. Harley had nothing to say to that. Sylvia stood with
-her brows knitted in thought. “I’ve made up my mind,” she said, “there’s
-something very wrong about it all. The man has too much money. He has no
-right to have so much—certainly not unless he’s earned it.”
-
-Whereat her cousin exclaimed, “For God’s sake, Sylvia, you talk like an
-Anarchist!”
-
-
- § 11
-
-A couple of days later came Mrs. Winthrop’s “Progressive Love” party. At
-this party there were twenty-four guests, twelve men and twelve women,
-appearing in purple silk dominoes and golden silk masks supplied by the
-hostess. Twelve short dances were followed by intermissions, during
-which the guests retired to cosy corners, and the men made ardent love
-to their unknown partners. “Tubby” Bates, of whom there was too much to
-be concealed by any domino, was appointed door-keeper, and it was his
-business to select the couples, so that each would have a new partner
-for every dance. At the end, every person voted for the most successful
-“lover” and also the worst, and there were prizes and “booby” prizes.
-
-Love-making, more or less disguised, being the principal occupation of
-men and women in the South, Sylvia counted herself an expert at this
-game. She had learned to assume a different personality, disguising her
-voice, and doing it quite naturally—not by the crude method of putting a
-button under her tongue. She took her seat after the first dance,
-perfectly mistress of herself and pleasantly thrilled with curiosity.
-All of the “younger set” at home had made love to her in earnest, and
-their methods were an oft-told tale. But how would these strange men of
-Harvard play the game?
-
-The tall domino at her side was in no hurry to begin. He sat very stiff
-and straight upon the velvet cushions; and finally it came to Sylvia
-that he was suffering from embarrassment. She leaned towards him, so as
-to display “a more coming-on disposition.” “Sir,” she whispered, “faint
-heart ne’er won fair lady.”
-
-The tall domino considered this in silence. “You’ll have to excuse me,”
-he said, “I never played this game before.”
-
-“It is the most wonderful game in the world!” said Sylvia, fervently.
-
-“Perhaps,” was the reply. “To me it seems a very foolish game, and I
-think it was poor taste on Mrs. Winthrop’s part.”
-
-“Dear me!” thought the girl, “what kind of a fish have I caught here?”
-There was something strangely familiar about the voice, but she could
-not place it. She had met so many men in the last week or two.
-
-“Sir,” she said, “I fear me that you lack a little of that holiday glee
-which is necessary to such occasion as this. I would that I could sing a
-song to cheer your moping spirit—”
-
- ‘Nymphs and shepherds come away,
- For this is Flora’s holiday!’
-
-Then, leaning a little nearer yet, “Come, sir, you must make an effort.”
-
-“What shall I do?”
-
-“You must manage to throw yourself into a state of rapture. You must
-tell me that you adore me. You must say that my blue eyes make dim the
-vault of heaven——”
-
-“But I can hardly see your eyes.”
-
-“You should not expect to see them. Have you not been told that Love is
-blind?”
-
-So she tried to drive this tall domino to play; but it was sorry
-frisking that he did. “You must fall down upon your knees before me,”
-she said; but he protested that he could really not do that. And when
-she insisted, “You must!” he got down, with such deliberation that the
-girl was half convulsed with laughter.
-
-“Sir,” she chided, “that will not do. When you stop to ease each
-trouser-knee, how can I believe that you are overcome with the ardor of
-your feelings? You must get up and try again.” And actually she made him
-get up and plump down suddenly upon his knees; and was so mischievous
-and so merry about it that she got even him to laughing in the end.
-
-She was sure by this time that she had met the man before, and she found
-herself running over the list of her acquaintances, trying to imagine
-which one could be capable of making love in such a fashion. But she
-could not think of one. She fell to studying the domino and the mask
-before her, wondering what feelings could be behind them. Was it
-timidity and lack of imagination? Or could it be that the man was sulky
-and uncivil as he seemed? When the bell rang and she rose, she breathed
-to herself the prayer that she might be spared running into another
-“stick” like that.
-
-The next partner was Harmon, as she recognized before he had said a
-dozen sentences. Harmon did not know her, but being in love, he knew how
-to behave. He poured out to Sylvia all the things which she had known
-for the past week he was longing to say to her; and Sylvia said in reply
-everything which she had no intention of saying in reality. So the
-episode passed pleasantly, and the girl thought somewhat better of Mrs.
-Winthrop’s talents as a hostess.
-
-Number Three was again a tall domino. He seated himself, and there was a
-long pause. “Well, sir,” said Sylvia, inquiringly.
-
-The domino delayed again. “You’ll have to excuse me,” he said, at last;
-“I never played this game before.”
-
-And Sylvia realized in a flash of dismay that it was the first man
-again! The same voice—even the same words! “Sir,” she said, coldly, “you
-are mistaken. You played the same game with me not twenty minutes ago.”
-
-The tall domino expressed bewilderment. “I beg your pardon—there has
-been some mistake.”
-
-“There has indeed,” said Sylvia. “The door-keeper has evidently got our
-numbers mixed.” She pondered for a moment. Should she go and tell Mr.
-Bates?
-
-But she realized that it was too late. The couples were all settled and
-the game proceeding. It was the kind of blunder that was always being
-made at these parties—either because the door-keeper was stupid, or was
-bribed by some man who wanted to make love in earnest. It spoiled the
-game—but then, as Sylvia had just said, Love is blind.
-
-“What shall we do—wait?” she asked; to which the man replied, “I don’t
-mind.”
-
-“Thank you,” she said, graciously. “We’ll have to make the best of it.
-Don’t you think you can manage to do a little better than the last
-time?”
-
-“I’ll try,” he replied. “It’s beastly stupid, I think.”
-
-Sylvia considered. “No,” she declared, “I believe it’s the game of all
-games for you.”
-
-“How so?”
-
-“Go down into the deeps of you. Haven’t you something there that is
-real—something primitive and untamed, that chafes against propriety, and
-wishes it had not been born in Boston?”
-
-“I was not born in Boston,” said he.
-
-“Perhaps not in your body,” said Sylvia, “but your soul is a Boston
-soul. And now think of this opportunity to fling loose, to be just as
-bad as you want to be—and quite without danger of detection, of having
-your reputation damaged! Surely, sir, there could be no game more
-adapted to the New England conscience!”
-
-“By Jove!” exclaimed the man; and actually there was warmth in his tone.
-Sylvia’s heart leaped, and she caught him by the hand. “Quick! Quick!”
-she cried. “Gather ye rosebuds while ye may—old time is still a-flying!”
-
-“By Jove!” exclaimed the man again; and Sylvia, kindling with mischief,
-pressed his hand more tightly and brought him upon his knees before her.
-“Make haste! You have but one life—one chance to be yourself—to vent
-your emotions! I’ve no idea who you are, I can’t possibly tell on
-you—and so you may utter those things which you keep hidden even from
-yourself!”
-
-“By Jove!” he exclaimed for the third time. “Really, if I had you to
-make love to——”
-
-“But you have me! You have me! For several precious minutes—alone and
-undisturbed! You are not a Boston Brahmin in a domino—you are a faun in
-the forests of Arcady. Come, Mr. Faun!” And Sylvia began to sing in a
-low, caressing manner:
-
- “Oh, come, my love, to Arcady!
- A dream path leads us, dear.
- One hour of love in Arcady
- Is worth a lifetime here!”
-
-There was a pause. She could feel the man’s hand trembling. “I am
-waiting!” she whispered; to which he answered, “I wish _you_ would talk!
-You make love so much better than I!”
-
-Sylvia broke into one of her merry laughs. “A leap-year party!” she
-cried.
-
-But the other was in earnest. “I like to listen to you,” he said.
-“Please go on!”
-
-Sylvia was laughing so that she felt tears in her eyes, and she wanted
-to wipe them away under her mask. Her handkerchief was gone, and she
-looked for it—in her lap, beside her on the seat, and then on the floor.
-This led to a curious and unexpected turn in the adventure—her
-recognition of this New England faun. Seeing what she was doing, he
-said, “I beg pardon. Have you lost something?”
-
-It was like an explosion in Sylvia’s mind. Not merely the same words—but
-the same manner, the same accent, the same personality!
-
-The search for the handkerchief gave her the chance to recover her
-breath. The Lord had delivered him into her hands again!
-
-“Sir,” she said. “I resume. You have overwhelmed me with the torrent of
-your ardor. I feel myself swept away in a flood which my feeble will
-cannot resist. You come to me like a royal wooer—like some god out of
-the skies, stunning the senses of a mere mortal maiden! Who can this
-be—I ask myself. From what source can such superhuman eloquence and
-fervor spring? Can I endure it? I cry—or shall I be burned up and
-destroyed, like Danaï in the legend? It is just so that he descends upon
-me—like Jupiter, in a shower of gold!”
-
-Sylvia could feel the tall domino stiffen and rear himself. She had
-meant to go on, but she stopped, so great was her curiosity. How would
-he take it?
-
-At last came the voice from under the mask. “I see,” it said, “that you
-have the advantage of me. You _do_ know who I am.”
-
-Sylvia was almost transported—by a combination of amazement and
-amusement. “Know who you are?” she cried. “How could I fail to know who
-you are? You, my divinity! You, to whom all the world bends the knee!
-Sire, receive my homage—I bow in adoration before the Golden Calf!”
-
-And she sunk down upon one knee before the tall domino!
-
-It was putting herself into his hands. She was fully prepared to see him
-rise and stalk away—but so possessed was she that she would have enjoyed
-even that! Fortunately, however, at this moment the bell rang, saving
-her. She sprang to her feet, and caught the hand of her divinity in one
-quick clasp of parting. “Good-bye, Mr. van Tuiver!” she exclaimed.
-“Good-bye—until the next incarnation!”
-
-
- § 12
-
-For the next dance Sylvia’s partner was a youth whom she could not
-identify. He had evidently been reading the poets, for his declarations
-of devotion were lacking in naught but rhyme. Sylvia accepted him
-politely, hardly hearing his words—so busy was she with the thought of
-van Tuiver. Had it been accident, or a trick? She would soon know.
-
-There came another dance—and again a tall domino. Sylvia suspected, but
-was not sure, until they were in their seats, when the domino sat stiff
-and straight, and she was certain. “Is that you?” she asked; and the
-answer came, “It is.”
-
-“It is evident that some one is amusing himself at our expense,” said
-Sylvia, coldly. “I really think we shall have to stop it.”
-
-“Miss Castleman,” broke in the other. “I hope you will believe me that I
-have had absolutely nothing to do with this.”
-
-She answered, consolingly, “I assure you, Mr. van Tuiver, your
-unpreparedness has been quite evident.”
-
-There was a pause, while he considered that. “What shall we do?” he
-asked.
-
-“I think that you had best see Mr. Bates, and make clear to him that we
-have had enough.”
-
-He hesitated. “Is—is that really necessary?”
-
-“What else can we do—spend the evening together?”
-
-“I really wish we could, Miss Castleman!”
-
-“What—and you making love as you have been?”
-
-“I can do better now. I really am quite charmed with the game. I’d like
-to make love to you—for a long time.”
-
-“Most flattering, Mr. van Tuiver—but how about me? We’ve conversed a lot
-already, and you haven’t said one interesting thing.”
-
-“Miss Castleman!”
-
-“Not one—excepting one or two that have been insolent.”
-
-There was a pause. “Really,” he pleaded, “that is a hard thing to say!”
-
-“Do you mean,” she inquired, coldly, “that you have not realized the
-meaning of what you said to me when we met on the street?”
-
-“I don’t know just what you refer to,” he replied, “but you must admit
-that you had me at a great disadvantage that evening.”
-
-“What disadvantage, Mr. van Tuiver? The fact that I did not know who you
-were?”
-
-She could feel him wince. She was prepared for a retort—but not so
-severe as the one which came. “The disadvantage,” he said, “that you
-_pretended_ not to know who I was.”
-
-“Why,” she exclaimed, “what do you mean?”
-
-He answered. “If we are going to fight, it ought to be upon a fair
-field. You pretended that evening that you had never heard my name. But
-I learned since that only a day or two before you had had a quite
-elaborate conversation about me.”
-
-Sylvia’s first impulse was to inquire sarcastically what right he had to
-assume that his illustrious name would stay in her memory. But she
-realized that that was a poor retort; and then her sense of fair play
-came in. After all, he was right—the joke was on her, and she rather
-admired his nerve.
-
-So she began to laugh. “Mr. van Tuiver,” she said, “you have annoyed me
-so that I won’t even take the trouble to think up new lies to tell you.
-Realize, if you can, the impression you managed to make upon a young
-girl—you and your reputation together—that she should be moved to use
-such weapons against you!”
-
-He forgot his anger at this. “That’s just it, Miss Castleman! I don’t
-understand it at all! What have I done that you should take such an
-attitude towards me?”
-
-Sylvia pondered. “I fear,” she said, “that you would not thank me for
-telling you.”
-
-“You are mistaken!” he exclaimed. “I really would like to know.”
-
-“I could not bring myself to do it.”
-
-“But why not?”
-
-“I know it could not do any good.”
-
-“But how can you say that—when I assure you I am in earnest? I have a
-very sincere admiration for you—truly. You are one of the most—one of
-the most amazing young women I ever met. I don’t say that in a bad
-sense, you understand——”
-
-“I understand,” said Sylvia, smiling. “I have tried my best to be
-amazing.”
-
-“It is evident that you dislike me intensely,” he went on. “I ask you to
-tell me why. What have I done?”
-
-“It isn’t so much what you have done—it is what you _are_.”
-
-“And what _am_ I, Miss Castleman?”
-
-“I don’t know just how to put it into words. You are some sort of
-monstrosity; something that when I see it, fills me with a blind rage,
-so that I want to fly at its throat. And then I realize that even in
-attacking it I am putting myself upon a level with it—and so I want to
-turn and flee for my life—or rather for my self-respect. I want to flee
-from it, Mr. van Tuiver, and never see it, never hear its voice, never
-even know of its existence! Do you see?”
-
-“I see,” said the man, in a voice so faint as to be hardly audible; and
-then suddenly came the sound of the bell, and Sylvia sprang up.
-
-“I flee!” she said.
-
-
- § 13
-
-There came a new dance, the sixth, and a new partner, who was short, and
-was speedily discovered to be Jackson. Then came the seventh dance, and
-Sylvia expected that it would be her Faun again, but was disappointed.
-It was a man unknown, and she wondered if Bates had lost his nerve. But
-with Number Eight came the inevitable return.
-
-Van Tuiver was so anxious this time that he asked before he began to
-dance, “Is that you?” And when Sylvia answered “Yes,” she could hear his
-sigh of relief. All through the dance she could feel his excitement.
-Once or twice he tried to talk, but she whispered to him to keep the
-rules.
-
-The moment they were seated he said, “Miss Castleman, you must explain
-to me what you mean.”
-
-“I knew I’d have to explain,” she responded. “I’ve been thinking how I
-could make you understand. You see, I’m a comparative stranger to this
-world of yours, and things might shock me which would seem to you quite
-a matter of course. I suppose I’m what you’d call a country girl, and
-have a provincial outlook.”
-
-“Please go on,” he said.
-
-“Well, Mr. van Tuiver, you have an enormous amount of money. Twenty or
-thirty million dollars—forty or fifty million dollars—the authorities
-don’t seem to agree about it. As well as I can put the matter, you have
-so much that it has displaced _you_; it isn’t you who think, it isn’t
-you who speak—it’s your money. You seem to be a sort of quivering,
-uneasy consciousness of uncounted millions of dollars; and the only
-thing that comes back to you from your surroundings is an echo of that
-quivering consciousness.”
-
-“Do I really seem like that to you?”
-
-“It’s the impression you’ve made upon everyone who knows you.”
-
-“Oh, surely not!” he cried.
-
-“Quite literally that,” said Sylvia. “I hated you before I ever laid
-eyes on you—because of the way you’d impressed your friends.”
-
-There was a pause; when van Tuiver spoke again it was in a low and
-uncertain voice. “Miss Castleman,” he said, “has it ever occurred to you
-to think what might be the difficulties of my situation?”
-
-“No, I haven’t had time for that.”
-
-“Well, take this one fact. You say that I have made a certain impression
-upon everyone who knows me. But you are the first person in my whole
-lifetime who’s ever told me.”
-
-Sylvia gave an exclamation of incredulity.
-
-“Don’t you see?” pressed on the other, eagerly. “What is a man to do? I
-have a great deal of money. I can’t help that. And I can’t help the fact
-that it gives me a great deal of power. I can’t help having a sense of
-responsibility.”
-
-“The sense of responsibility has been too much for you,” said Sylvia.
-
-This was too subtle for him. He hurried on: “Maybe it’s right, maybe
-it’s wrong—but circumstances have given me a certain position, and I
-have to maintain it. I have certain duties which I must fulfill, which I
-can’t possibly get away from.”
-
-There was a pause. He seemed to feel that the situation was not
-satisfactory, and started again. “It’s all very well for you, who don’t
-realize my position, the responsibilities I have—it’s all very well for
-you to talk about my consciousness of money. But how can I get away from
-it? People know about my money, they think about it—they expect certain
-things of me. They put me in a certain position, whether I will or not.”
-
-He stopped again. He was so greatly agitated that Sylvia was beginning
-to feel pity. “Do you have to be what people expect you to be?” she
-said.
-
-“But,” he argued, “I have the money, and I have to make use of it—to
-invest it—to protect it——”
-
-“Ah, but all that is in the business world. What I’m talking about is in
-a separate sphere—your social relations.”
-
-“But, Miss Castleman, that’s just it—_is_ it separate? It ought to be,
-you’ll say—but _is_ it? I tell you, you simply don’t know, that’s all.
-People profess friendship for me, but they want something, and by and by
-I find out what it is they want. You say that’s monstrous; I know, I
-used to think it was, myself. You say, I ought not to know it; but I
-can’t _help_ knowing it; it’s forced upon me by all the circumstances of
-my life. Sometimes I think I’ve never had a disinterested friend since I
-was born!”
-
-Sylvia perceived the intensity behind his words, and was silent for a
-minute. “But surely,” she said, “here—in the democracy of college
-life——”
-
-“It’s exactly the same here as anywhere else. Here are clubs, social
-cabals, everybody pushing and intriguing, exactly as in New York
-society. Take that fact you spoke of—that all the fellows dislike me,
-and yet not one of them has dared to tell me so!”
-
-“_Dared?_” repeated Sylvia.
-
-“Oh, well, perhaps they dared—the point is, they didn’t. The ones who
-had to make their own way were busy making it; and the others, who had
-got in of right—well, they believe in money. They’d all shrug their
-shoulders and say, ‘What’s the use of antagonizing such a man?’”
-
-“I see,” said Sylvia, fascinated.
-
-“Whatever the reason is, they never call me down—not a man of them. And
-then, as for the women——”
-
-Sylvia had not made any sound, but somehow he felt her sudden interest.
-He said, with signs of agitation, “Please, Miss Castleman, don’t be
-offended. You asked me to talk about it.”
-
-“Go on,” she said. “I’m really most curious. I suppose all the women
-want to marry you?”
-
-“It isn’t only that. They want anything. They just want to be seen with
-me. Of course, when they start to make love to me—” He paused.
-
-“You stop them, I hope,” said Sylvia, modestly.
-
-“I do when I know it. But, you see——”
-
-He paused again; it was evidently a difficult topic. “Pray don’t mind,”
-said Sylvia, laughing. “They’re subtle creatures, I know. Do many of
-them make love to you?”
-
-“I know you’re laughing at me, Miss Castleman. But believe me, it’s no
-joke. If you’d see some of the letters I get!”
-
-“Oh, they write you love letters?”
-
-“Not only love letters. I don’t mind them—but the letters from women in
-distress, the most terrible stories you can imagine. Once I was foolish
-enough—didn’t anybody tell you the scrape I got into?”
-
-“No.”
-
-“That’s curious—they generally like to tell it. I was weak enough to let
-one woman get into my house in Cambridge. She had a tragedy to rehearse,
-and I listened to her, and finally she wanted ten thousand dollars. I
-didn’t know if her story was true, and I said No, and then she began to
-scream for help. The servants came running, and she said—well, you can
-imagine, how I’d insulted her, and all that. I told my man to throw her
-out, but she said she’d scratch his eyes out, she’d scream from the
-window, she’d stand on the street outside and denounce me till the
-police came, she’d give the newspapers the whole story of the way I’d
-abused her. And so finally I had to give her all the money I happened to
-have on me.”
-
-“Great Heavens!” exclaimed Sylvia, who had not thought of anything so
-serious as that.
-
-“You see how it is. For the most part I’ve escaped that kind of thing,
-because I was taught. My Great-uncle Douglas, who died recently—he was
-my guardian, and he taught me all about women when I was very young—not
-more than ten. He had charge of my upbringing, and he wouldn’t allow a
-woman in my household.”
-
-“Dear me,” said Sylvia, “what a cynic he must have been!”
-
-“He died a bachelor,” said the other, “and left me a great deal of
-money. So you see—that is——”
-
-“He’d _had_ to be a cynic!” laughed the girl. And van Tuiver laughed
-with her—more humanly than she had ever thought possible.
-
-She considered for a moment, and then suddenly asked, “Mr. van Tuiver,
-has it never occurred to you that _I_ might be making love to you?”
-
-She could not see his face, but she knew that he was staring at her in
-dismay. “Oh, surely not, Miss Castleman!” he exclaimed.
-
-“But how can you be sure?” she asked. “Where is your training?”
-
-“Miss Castleman,” he said, “please take me seriously.”
-
-“I’m quite serious. In fact, I think I ought to tell you, I _have_ been
-making love to you.”
-
-“Surely not!” he said.
-
-“I mean it, quite literally. I’ve been doing it from the first moment I
-met you—doing it in spite of all my resolutions to the contrary!”
-
-“But why?”
-
-“Well, because I hated you, and also because I pitied you. I said, I’ll
-get him in my power and punish him—and at the same time teach him.”
-
-“Oh!” exclaimed van Tuiver; and she thought that she detected a note of
-relief in the word.
-
-“You are glad I don’t mean to marry you,” she said; and when he started
-to protest, she cut him short with, “You’re not applying the wisdom of
-your great-uncle! I say I don’t want to marry you, but most likely
-that’s a device to disarm you, to make you want to marry _me_.”
-
-In spite of his evident distress, she was incorrigible. “You ought to be
-up and away,” she declared—“scared out of your wits. I tell you I’m the
-most dangerous woman you’ve ever met. And I mean it literally. I’ll
-wager that if your great-uncle had ever met my great-aunt, he would not
-have died a bachelor! Take my advice, and fall ill and leave this party
-at once.”
-
-“Why should I be afraid of you?” he demanded. “Why shouldn’t I marry you
-if I want to?”
-
-“What! a poor girl like me?”
-
-“Well, I don’t know. I can afford to marry a poor girl if I feel like
-it.”
-
-“But—think of the ignominy of being trapped!”
-
-He considered this. “I’m not afraid of that either,” he said. “If you’ve
-had the wit to do it—and none of the others had——”
-
-“Oh!” she laughed. “Then you’re willing to be hunted!”
-
-“Miss Castleman,” he protested, “you are unkind. I’ve thought seriously.
-You really are a most beautiful woman, and at the same time a most
-amazingly clever woman. You would be an ornament in my life—I’d always
-be proud of you—”
-
-He paused. “Mr. van Tuiver,” she demanded, “am I to understand that this
-is a serious proposal?”
-
-She could feel his quiver of fear. “Why,” he stammered—“really——”
-
-“Don’t you see how dangerous it is!” she exclaimed. “You were almost
-caught! Make your escape, Mr. van Tuiver!”
-
-And then came the sound of the bell. She started up. “Go and tell Mr.
-Bates!” she cried. “Don’t let him do this again—if you do, you are lost
-forever!”
-
-
- § 14
-
-The next partner was Harley. It was a nuisance having to entertain your
-own cousin, but Sylvia amused herself by keeping Harley from recognizing
-her. And in the meantime she was wondering what her Victim would do
-next.
-
-She knew his very style of dancing by now, and needed to make no
-inquiries of Number Ten. “You did not take my advice,” she remarked,
-when they were seated.
-
-“No,” he said. “On the contrary, I told Bates to put us together the
-rest of the time.”
-
-“Oh, no!” she protested.
-
-“I want to talk to you,” he declared. “I _must_ talk to you.”
-
-“But you had no right! He will tell, and everybody will be talking about
-it.”
-
-“I don’t care if they do.”
-
-“But _I_ care, Mr. van Tuiver—you should not have taken such a liberty.”
-
-“Please, Miss Castleman,” he hurried on, “please listen to me. I’ve been
-thinking about it, and it interests me keenly. I believe that in you I
-might really have a friend—if only you would. A real friend, I
-mean—who’d tell me the truth—who’d be absolutely disinterested——”
-
-The fun of it was too much for Sylvia. “Haven’t I explained to you that
-I mightn’t be disinterested?”
-
-“I’ll trust you.”
-
-“Of course,” she went on, gravely. “I might give you my word of honor
-that I wouldn’t marry you.”
-
-“Yes,” he agreed, “I suppose so——”
-
-The girl was convulsed with laughter. “Mr. van Tuiver,” she remarked, “I
-see you are an earnest man; I really ought to stop teasing you. Don’t
-you think I ought?”
-
-“Yes,” he replied, dubiously. “At least—I never liked to be teased
-before.”
-
-“Well, I will tell you this for your comfort. There’s no remotest
-possibility of my ever marrying you, so you can feel quite safe.”
-
-Somehow he did not seem sure whether he was pleased at this pledge.
-After a pause he went on: “What I mean is that I think a man in my
-position ought to have somebody to tell him the truth.”
-
-“Something like the court-jesters in old days,” said Sylvia.
-
-But he was not interested in mediæval customs. He was interested in his
-own need, and she had to promise that she would admit him to the arcanum
-of her friendship, and that she would always tell him exactly what she
-thought about him—his actions, his ideas, even his manners. In
-fulfilment of which promise she spent the rest of that _séance_, and the
-two that followed, in listening to him talk about himself and his life.
-
-It was really most curious—an inside glimpse into a kind of life of
-which one heard, but with no idea of ever encountering it; just as one
-read of train-robbers and safe-blowers, but never expected to sit and
-chat with them. Douglas van Tuiver had achieved notoriety before he had
-cut a single tooth; his mother and father having been killed in a
-railroad accident when he was two months old, the courts had appointed
-trustees and guardians, and the newspapers had undertaken a kind of
-unofficial supervision. The precious infant had been brought up by a
-staff of tutors, with majordomos and lackeys in the background, and two
-private detectives and a great-uncle and Mrs. Harold Cliveden to oversee
-the whole. It did not need much questioning to get the details of this
-life—the lonely palace on Fifth Avenue, the monumental “cottage” at
-Newport, the “camp” in the Adirondacks, the yacht in the West Indies;
-the costly toys, the “blooded” pets, the gold plate, the tedious,
-suffocating solemnity. If Sylvia had been furious with van Tuiver
-before, she was ready now to go to the opposite extreme and weep over
-him. A child brought up wholly by employees, with no brothers and
-sisters to kick and scratch him into decency, no cousins, no playmates
-even—unless he was first togged out in an Eton suit and escorted by a
-tutor to the birthday party of some other little togged-out aristocrat!
-
-Yes, assuredly this unhappy man needed someone to tell him the truth!
-Sylvia resolved that she would fill the rôle. She would be quite unmoved
-by his Royalty (the word by which she had come to sum up to herself the
-whole phenomenon of van Tuiverness). She would persist in regarding him
-as any other human being, saying to him what she felt like, pretending
-to him, and even to herself, that he really was not Royalty at all!
-
-But alas, she soon found what a task she had undertaken! The last dance
-had been danced, and amid much merriment the guests unmasked—and still
-van Tuiver wanted to stay and talk to his one friend. He escorted her to
-supper, in spite of the fact that Mrs. Winthrop had other arrangements
-for him. And even if he had behaved himself, there was the tale which
-“Tubby” Bates had been diligently spreading. The girl realized all at
-once that she had achieved a new and startling kind of prominence; all
-the guests, men and women, were watching her, whispering about her,
-envying her. She felt a wicked thrill of triumph and pleasure. She, a
-stranger, an obscure girl from the provinces, who would ordinarily have
-been an object of suspicion and investigation—she had leaped at one
-moment into supremacy! She had become the favorite of the King!
-
-Pretty soon came Harley, a-tremble with delight. “Gee whiz, old girl,
-you sure have scored to-night! For God’s sake, how did you manage it?”
-Sylvia felt herself hot with sudden shame.
-
-And then came Bates. She tried to scold him, but he would simply not
-have it. “Now, Miss Castleman! Now, Miss Castleman!”—that was all he
-would say. What it meant was: “It is all right for you to pretend, of
-course; but you can’t persuade me that you are really angry!”
-
-“Please go away,” she said at last; but he wanted to tell her what
-different people said, and would not be shaken off. While he was still
-teasing, there swept past them a girl to whom Sylvia had not been
-introduced—a solid-looking young Amazon with a freckled snub nose. She
-gave Sylvia what appeared to be a haughty look, and Bates whispered, “Do
-you know who that is? That’s Dorothy Cortlandt!—the girl van Tuiver is
-to marry.”
-
-“Really!” exclaimed Sylvia, who was cross with all the world. “How did
-her nose get broken?”
-
-And the other answered with a grin, “You ought to know—you did it!” And
-so, as Sylvia could not help laughing, Bates counted himself forgiven.
-
-A little later came the encounter with Edith Winthrop. It was after
-supper, and the two found themselves face to face. “What a charming
-party it has been!” said Sylvia, and the other gave her what was meant
-to be a freezing stare. It was so rude that Sylvia thought she must have
-been misunderstood. “The party’s been a success,” she ventured. “Don’t
-you think so?”
-
-“Ideas of success differ,” remarked the other, coldly, and turned her
-back and began an animated conversation with someone else.
-
-“Dear me,” thought Sylvia, as she moved on, “What have I done?” She saw
-in another part of the room her hostess talking to van Tuiver, and made
-up her mind at once that she would find out if the beautiful
-soul-friendship was shattered also. She moved over towards the two,
-resisting an effort on the part of Harmon to draw her into a
-_tête-à-tête_.
-
-“Mrs. Winthrop,” she said, “I’m so glad I stayed over.”
-
-“Queen Isabella” turned the mystical eyes upon her, one of the deep,
-inscrutable gazes. Sylvia waited, knowing that it might mean anything
-from reverie to murder. “My dear Sylvia,” she said at last, “you are
-pale to-night.”
-
-This, in the presence of van Tuiver, probably meant war. “Am I?” asked
-the girl.
-
-“Yes, my dear, don’t dissipate too much! Women of your type fade
-quickly.”
-
-“What?” laughed the other, gaily. “With my red eyes and red hair? A
-century could not extinguish me!”
-
-She passed on, and discovered that van Tuiver was following her. “You
-aren’t going, are you, Miss Castleman?” he asked; and while he was
-begging her to stay, Sylvia saw her hostess move across the room to
-Dorothy Cortlandt. These two stood conversing earnestly, and one glance
-was enough to tell Sylvia what they were conversing about.
-
-All this was a sore temptation, but Sylvia was in a virtuous mood. “Mr.
-van Tuiver,” she said, “there is something I want to say to you. I’ve
-thought it over, and made up my mind that it is impossible for me to be
-the friend you want.”
-
-“Why, Miss Castleman!” he exclaimed, in distress. “What is the matter?”
-
-“I can’t explain——”
-
-“But what have I _done_?”
-
-“It’s nothing that you’ve done. It’s simply that I couldn’t stand the
-world you live in. Oh, I’d be a dreadful woman if I stayed very long!”
-
-“Please, listen—” he implored.
-
-But she cut him short. “I am sorry to give you pain, but I have made up
-my mind absolutely. There is no possible way I can help you. I am not
-willing to see you again, and you must positively not ask it.” After
-which speech she went to look for her cousin, leaving van Tuiver such a
-picture of agitation that everyone in the room observed it. Could the
-King’s nose be broken too?
-
-
- § 15
-
-The next morning came a note from van Tuiver. He was sure that Miss
-Castleman must have reconsidered her cruel decision, and he begged her
-to grant him one brief interview. Might he take her riding in his car
-that morning? The bearer would wait for an answer. Sylvia replied that
-her decision was unchanged and unchangeable—she was sorry to hurt his
-feelings, but she must ask him to give up all thought of her.
-
-A couple of hours later came van Tuiver himself, and sent up his card
-and with a line scribbled on it, “What have I done to anger you?” She
-wrote back, “I am not angry, but I cannot see you.” After which an hour
-more elapsed and there came a telephone-call from “Tubby” Bates, who
-begged the honor of a few minutes talk.
-
-“I ought to refuse to speak to you again,” said Sylvia. But in the end
-she gave way and told him he might call.
-
-He had come as an emissary, of course. The young millionaire was in a
-dreadful state, he explained, being convinced that he had committed some
-unmentionable offence.
-
-“I don’t care to talk about the matter,” said Sylvia.
-
-“But,” persisted Bates, “he declares that I got him into the
-predicament, and now I’m honor-bound to get him out.”
-
-So she had to set to work to explain her point of view. Mr. Bates, who
-himself owed no particular allegiance to Royalty, should be able to
-understand; he must realize that her annoyance was not personal, but
-was, so to speak, an affair of State. This had been her first experience
-at Court, she said; and the atmosphere had proven bad for her—had made
-her pale, and would soon turn her into a faded old woman.
-
-Evidently “Tubby” had heard that part of the story also; first he
-grinned, and then in his rôle of diplomat set to work to smooth away her
-objections. “You surely don’t mind a little thing like that,” he
-pleaded. “Haven’t you any jealous ladies down South?”
-
-“If we are going to discuss this question, Mr. Bates, I must speak
-frankly. Our hostesses are polite to their guests.”
-
-The other began suddenly to laugh. “Even when the guests steal?”
-
-“When they steal?”
-
-“Jewels!” exclaimed the other. “Bright, particular, conspicuous
-jewels—crown-jewels, precious beyond replacing! Think, Miss Castleman,
-you trust a guest, you admit him to your castle—and suddenly you find
-that the great ruby of your diadem is gone!”
-
-“Is it that Mrs. Winthrop hopes to marry van Tuiver to her daughter?”
-asked Sylvia, crossly.
-
-“Oh, no,” said Bates. “He is to marry Dorothy Cortlandt—that was
-arranged when they were babies, and Mrs. Winthrop wouldn’t dream of
-cutting in on it.”
-
-“But then, if I haven’t robbed Edith——”
-
-“My dear Miss Castleman,” said the other, “you’ve robbed Mrs. Winthrop
-herself.”
-
-“But I don’t understand,” said the girl.
-
-“Please don’t _mis_understand,” said Bates. “It’s all perfectly proper
-and noble, you know—and all that. I’ve nothing to say against Mrs.
-Winthrop—she’s a charming woman, and has a right to be admired by
-everybody. But being a queen, you see, she has to have a court, with a
-lot of distinguished courtiers. She reads poetry to them, and they write
-it to her, and they sit at her feet and dream wonderful dreams, and she
-gazes at them. I know a dozen fellows who’ve been that way all through
-college; and I suppose it does them good—they tell me I haven’t any soul
-and can’t understand these things. What I’ve always said is, ‘Maybe
-you’re right, and maybe I’m a brute, but it looks to me like the same
-old game.’”
-
-“The same old game,” repeated Sylvia, wonderingly. She found herself
-thinking suddenly of one of the maxims of Lady Dee—one which she had
-been too young to understand, but had been made to learn nevertheless:
-“The young girl’s deadliest enemy is the married flirt!” Could it be
-that Mrs. Winthrop was anything so desperate as that?
-
-“Mr. van Tuiver is one of these poets?” she asked, finally.
-
-“I don’t think van Tuiver goes in for poetry; but he’s strong on manners
-and things like that, and he says that Mrs. Winthrop is the only hostess
-in America who has the old-world charm. Of course that ravished her, and
-they’ve been great chums.”
-
-“And I came and spoiled it all!” exclaimed the girl.
-
-“You came and spoiled it all!” said Bates.
-
-Sylvia sat for a while in thought. “You know, Mr. Bates,” she remarked,
-“it rather puzzles me that people consider Mr. van Tuiver as having
-distinguished manners. I really haven’t been impressed that way.”
-
-The other laughed. “My dear Miss Castleman, don’t you know that van
-Tuiver’s in love with you!”
-
-“No! Surely not!”
-
-“Perfectly head over heels in love with you. He’s been that way since
-the first moment he laid eyes on you. And the way you’ve treated him—you
-know you are rather high-handed. Anyhow, it’s rattled him so, he simply
-doesn’t know whether he’s on his head or his feet.”
-
-“Did he tell you that, Mr. Bates?”
-
-“Not in words—but by everything about him. I never saw a man so changed.
-Honestly, you don’t know him at all, as we’ve known him. You’d not
-believe it if I described him.”
-
-“Tell me what you mean?”
-
-“Well, in the first place, he’s always dignified—stately, even. When he
-speaks, it’s he speaking, and his Yea is Yea and his Nay is Nay. Then
-he’s very precise—he never does anything upon impulse, but always
-considers whether it’s the right thing for Douglas van Tuiver to do. You
-see, he has an acute consciousness of his social task—I mean, being a
-model to all the little people in the world. You wouldn’t understand his
-manners unless you realized that they’re imported from England. In
-England—have you ever been there?”
-
-“No,” said Sylvia.
-
-“Well, you’re walking along a country road, and you’re lost, and you see
-a gentleman coming the other way. You stop and begin, ‘I beg pardon’—and
-he goes by you with his eyes to the front, military fashion. You see,
-you’re not supposed to exist.”
-
-“How perfectly dreadful!”
-
-“I remember once I was walking in the country, and there came a carriage
-with two ladies in it. It stopped as I passed, and so I stopped. ‘Can
-you tell me where such and such a house is?’ she asked, and I replied
-that it was in such and such a direction. And then, without even a look,
-she sank back in her cushions, and the coachman drove on. She was a
-lady, and she thought it was a grand carelessness.”
-
-“Oh, but surely she must have belonged to the ‘_nouveaux riches_’!”
-exclaimed Sylvia.
-
-“On the contrary, she may have had the best blood in England. You see,
-that’s their system. They have a ruling caste, whose rudeness is their
-religion.”
-
-“We have our family pride in the South,” said Sylvia, “but it’s supposed
-to show itself in a superior courtesy. In fact, if a person’s rude to
-his inferiors, we’re sure there must be plebeian blood somewhere.”
-
-“Exactly, Miss Castleman—that’s what I’ve always been taught.” There was
-a pause; then suddenly Bates began to laugh. “They tell such a funny
-story about van Tuiver,” he went on. “It was a club-tea, and there were
-two ladies whom everybody knew to be social rivals. Van Tuiver was
-talking to Mrs. A. and suddenly, without any warning, he walked over and
-began to talk to Mrs. B. Afterwards somebody said to him, ‘Why did you
-leave Mrs. A. and go directly to Mrs. B.? You know they hate each
-other—did you want to make it worse?’ ‘No, I never thought of it,’ he
-said. ‘The point was, there was a fireplace at my back, and I don’t like
-a fireplace at my back.’ ‘But did you tell that to Mrs. A?’ asked the
-friend. ‘No,’ said van Tuiver—‘I told it to Mrs. B.’”
-
-“Oh, dear me!” cried Sylvia.
-
-“And you must understand that he saw nothing funny in it. And the
-significant thing is that he gets away with that pose!”
-
-“In other words, he has introduced the English system into America,”
-said Sylvia.
-
-“That’s what it comes to, Miss Castleman.”
-
-“You have a king at Harvard!”
-
-The man hesitated, and then a smile spread over his face. “Of course you
-realize,” he said, “that it’s a game we’re playing.”
-
-“A game?” she repeated.
-
-“Do you know they had a queen in New York, Miss Castleman—until she
-died, just recently? You came to the city, you intrigued and pulled
-wires, and perhaps she condescended to receive you—seated upon a regular
-throne of state, painted and covered with jewels like a Hindoo idol.
-Everybody agreed she was the queen, and nobody could go anywhere or do
-anything unless she said so. Only, of course, ninety-nine people out of
-a hundred paid no attention to her, and went ahead and lived their lives
-just as if she weren’t queen. And it’s the same way here.”
-
-“Tubby” paused for encouragement; this was unusual eloquence for him.
-
-“As to our king,” he continued, “one-eighth of the college pays him
-homage, and another eighth rebels against him—and the other
-three-quarters don’t know that he’s here. They’re busy cramming for
-exams, or training for the boat-race, or having a good time spending
-papa’s money. In other words, Miss Castleman, van Tuiver is our king
-when we are snobs; and some of us are snobs all the time, and others of
-us only when we go calling on the ladies. Do you understand?”
-
-“I understand,” said Sylvia, intensely amused. “I suspect that you are
-one of the rebellious subjects. You are certainly a frank ambassador,
-Mr. Bates!”
-
-It was his turn to laugh. “The truth is, van Tuiver’s been three years
-posing in a certain rôle, and he can’t turn round now and play a
-different one for you. I thought it over as I was coming here, and I
-said to myself, ‘I’ll ask her to see him, but I’ll be damned’—pardon me,
-but that’s what I said—‘I’ll be damned if I’ll help him to deceive her.’
-You see, Miss Castleman—I hope I don’t presume—but I know van Tuiver’s
-in love with you, and I thought—well—I——”
-
-The genial “Tubby” had turned several shades redder, and now he fell
-silent. “You may feel quite at ease, Mr. Bates,” smiled Sylvia. “The
-danger you fear does not exist at all.”
-
-“Not by any possibility, Miss Castleman?”
-
-“Not by any possibility, Mr. Bates.”
-
-“He—he has an enormous lot of money!”
-
-“After all our conversation! There are surely a few things in America
-which are not for sale.”
-
-“Tubby” drew a deep breath of relief. “I was scared,” he said—“honest.”
-
-“How lovely of you!” said Sylvia. She suddenly felt like a mother to
-this big fat boy who was said to have no soul.
-
-“I said to myself,” he continued, “‘I’ll tell her the truth about van
-Tuiver, even if she never forgives me for it.’ You see, Miss Castleman,
-I see the real man—as you’d never be allowed to, not in a thousand
-years. And you must take my word and be careful, for van Tuiver’s a man
-who has never had to do without anything in his whole lifetime. No
-matter what it’s been that he’s wanted, he’s had it—always, _always_!
-I’ve seen one or two times when it looked as if he mightn’t get it—and I
-can tell you that he’s cunning, and that he persists and persists—he’s a
-perfect demon when he’s got his mind fixed on something he wants and
-hasn’t got.”
-
-“Dear me!” said Sylvia. “That _is_ a new view of him!”
-
-“Well, I said I’d warn you. I hope you don’t mind.”
-
-Sylvia smiled. “I thought you had set out to persuade me to see him
-again!”
-
-Bates watched her. “I don’t know,” he said, “maybe mine was the best way
-to persuade you.”
-
-“Why, how charming!” she exclaimed, with a laugh. “You are really
-subtle.”
-
-“We want to fight the introduction of the English system, Miss
-Castleman! I don’t mind an aristocracy, because I’m one of ’em; but I
-don’t want any kings in America! It’s a patriotic duty to pull them off
-their thrones and keep them off.”
-
-Sylvia pondered. It was a most entertaining view. “And the queens too?”
-she laughed.
-
-“Yes, and the queens too!”
-
-There was a pause, while she thought. Then she said, “Yes, I think
-you’re right, Mr. Bates. You may tell His Majesty that I’ll see him—once
-more!”
-
-
- § 16
-
-Sylvia had said that she would go motoring with van Tuiver the following
-afternoon. He came in a cab, explaining that he had been to dinner in
-Cambridge, and that his car had run out of fuel. “I’ve a chauffeur who
-is troubled with absent-mindedness,” he remarked, with what Sylvia soon
-realized was enforced good-nature. For the car was longer in coming than
-he expected, and when at last it arrived, she was given an exhibition of
-his system of manners as applied to servants.
-
-The chauffeur tried to make some explanation. There had been an
-accident, which he wanted to tell of; but the other would not give him a
-chance. “I’ve not the least desire to listen to you,” he said. “I do not
-employ you to make excuses. I told you when you came to me that I
-required promptness from my servants. You have had your opportunity, and
-you are not equal to it. You may consider yourself under notice.”
-
-“Very good, sir,” said the man; and Sylvia stepped into the car and sat
-thinking, not hearing what van Tuiver said to her.
-
-It was not the words he had used; he had a right to give his chauffeur
-notice, she told herself. It was his tone which had struck her like a
-knife—a tone of insolence, of deliberate provocativeness. Yet he,
-apparently, had no idea that she would notice it; doubtless he would
-think it meant a lack of breeding in her to notice it.
-
-She wished to do justice to him; and she knew that it was partly her
-Southern shrinking from the idea of white servants. She was used to
-negroes, about whose feelings one did not bother.
-
-If Aunt Nannie discovered one of the chambermaids trying on her
-mistress’ ball-gown, it would be, “Get out of here, you bob-tailed
-monkey!” Or if Uncle Mandeville’s boy forgot to feed a favorite horse,
-the rascal would be dragged out by one ear and soundly caned—and would
-expect it, knowing that if it was never done the horse would never be
-fed. But to talk so to a white man—and not in a blaze of anger, but with
-cold and concentrated malevolence!
-
-The purpose of this ride was a definite one—that van Tuiver might find
-out the meaning of Sylvia’s change of mind at the dance. He propounded
-the question very soon; and the girl had to try to explain the state of
-mind in which she found herself. She would begin, she said, with the
-situation she had found at Harvard. Here were two groups of men, working
-for different ends, one desiring democracy in college life, and the
-other wishing to preserve the old spirit of caste. The conflict between
-them had become intense, and Sylvia’s sympathies were with van Tuiver’s
-opponents.
-
-“Tell me,” she said, “what has Harvard meant to you? What has it given
-you that you couldn’t have got elsewhere? Here are men from all over
-America, but you’ve only met one little set. All the others—whom you’re
-probably too refined to call ‘rough-necks’—could none of them have
-taught you anything?”
-
-“Perhaps they could,” he answered, “but it’s not easy to know them. If I
-met people promiscuously, they’d presume upon the acquaintance. I’d have
-no time to myself, no privacy——”
-
-He saw the scorn in Sylvia’s face. “That’s all very well,” he cried,
-“but you simply don’t realize! Take your own case—do _you_ meet anybody
-who comes along?”
-
-“I am a girl,” said Sylvia. “People seem to think it’s necessary to
-protect girls. But even so, I remember experiences that you might profit
-by. I went last year to our State University, where one of my cousins
-was graduating. At one of the dances I was accidentally introduced to a
-man, a decent fellow, whom I liked. ‘I won’t ask you to dance with me,
-Miss Castleman,’ he said. I asked, ‘Why not?’ and he said, ‘I’m a
-“goat”.’ I said, ‘I’ll dance with a goat, if he’s a good dancer,’ and so
-we danced. And then came my cousin. ‘Sylvia, don’t you know who the man
-is you were dancing with? He’s a “goat”!’ ‘I like him,’ I said, ‘and he
-dances as well as any of you. I shall dance with him.’ ‘But, Miss
-Castleman,’ they all said, ‘you’ll break up the fraternity system in the
-college.’ ‘What strange fraternity!’ I answered. ‘I think it needs
-breaking up. I’ll dance with him, and if anybody doesn’t like it, I
-won’t dance with _him_.’ So I had my way.”
-
-“That’s all right,” said the other. “If a pretty girl chooses to have
-her whim, everybody can allow for it. But if you set to work to run a
-college on that basis, you’d abolish social life there. Men of a certain
-class would simply not go where they had undesirable companionship
-forced upon them. Is that what you want to bring about?”
-
-Sylvia thought for a moment, and then countered, “Is the only way you
-can think of to avoid undesirable companionship to have a private
-house?”
-
-“A house?” replied van Tuiver. “Lots of people live in houses. Doesn’t
-your father?”
-
-“My father has a family,” said Sylvia. “You have no one but yourself—and
-you don’t have the house because you need it, but simply for
-ostentation.”
-
-He was very patient. “My dear Miss Castleman,” he said, “it happens that
-I was raised in a house, and I’m used to it. And I happen to have the
-money—why shouldn’t I spend it?”
-
-“You might spend it for the good of others.”
-
-“You mean in charity? Haven’t you learned that charity never does any
-good?”
-
-“Sometimes I wish that I were a man, so that I could understand these
-things,” exclaimed Sylvia. “But surely you might find some way of doing
-good with your money, instead of only harm, as at present.”
-
-“Only harm, Miss Castleman?”
-
-“You are spending your money setting up false ideals in your college.
-You are doing all in your power to make everyone who meets you, or sees
-you, or even knows of you, a toady or else an Anarchist. And at the same
-time you are killing the best things in the college.”
-
-“What, for instance?”
-
-“There is Memorial Hall—a building that stands for something. I can see
-that, even if all my people were on the other side in the war. There you
-find the democracy of the college, the spirit of real comradeship. But
-did you ever eat a meal in Memorial Hall?”
-
-“No,” said he, “I never did.”
-
-Sylvia thought for a moment. “Do ladies eat there?” she asked; and when
-he answered in the negative, she laughed. “Of course, that was only a
-‘pretty girl’s whim’—as you call it. But if you, Douglas van Tuiver,
-would go there, as a matter of course—right along, I mean——”
-
-“Eat at Memorial Hall!” he exclaimed. “My dear Miss Castleman, I
-wouldn’t eat—I’d be eaten!”
-
-“In other words,” said she, coldly, “you admit that you can’t take care
-of yourself as a man among men.”
-
-It was amusing to perceive his dismay over her idea. He came back to it,
-after a minute. He wanted to know if that was the sort of thing he’d
-have to do to win her regard; and he repeated the phrase with a sort of
-fascinated horror. “Eat at Memorial Hall!”
-
-Until at last Sylvia declared with asperity, “Mr. van Tuiver, I don’t
-care whether you eat at all, until you’ve found something better to do
-with your life.”
-
-
- § 17
-
-He took these rages of hers very humbly. He was becoming extraordinarily
-tame. “I suppose you find me exasperating,” he said, “but you must
-realize that I’m trying my best to understand you. You want me to make
-my life all over, and it isn’t easy for me to see the necessity of it.
-What harm do I do here, just by keeping to myself?”
-
-Sylvia was touched by his tone, and she tried again to explain. “It
-isn’t that you keep to yourself,” she said. “You cultivate a contempt
-for your classmates, and they reply with hatred and envy, and so you
-break up college life. It’s true, isn’t it, that there’s a struggle
-going on now?”
-
-“The class elections, you mean?”
-
-“Yes, that’s what I mean. So much bitterness and intriguing, because you
-keep to yourself! Why do you come to college at all? Surely you won’t
-say it’s the professors and the studies!”
-
-“No,” said he, smiling in spite of himself.
-
-“You come, and you make yourself into a kind of idol. Excuse me, if it
-isn’t polite, but what I said the other night is the truth—the Golden
-Calf! And what I say is, try the other plan a while. Stop thinking about
-yourself, and what they are thinking about you—above all, what they are
-thinking about your money. They won’t all be thinking about your money.”
-
-He did not answer promptly. “Apparently,” she said, “you don’t feel
-quite sure. If you can’t, I know several real men that I could introduce
-you to—men right in your own class.”
-
-“Who are they?”
-
-She hesitated. She was about to say Frank Shirley, but concluded not to.
-“I met one the other day—he doesn’t belong to a club, yet he’s the most
-interesting person I’ve encountered here. He talked about you, and he
-wasn’t complimentary; but if you sought him out in the right way, and
-made it clear you weren’t trying to patronize him, I’m sure he’d be a
-friend.”
-
-“What’s his name?”
-
-“Mr. Firmin.”
-
-“Oh!” said van Tuiver, and looked annoyed.
-
-“You know him?”
-
-“By sight. He has a bitter tongue.”
-
-“No more bitter than you need, Mr. van Tuiver—if you are going to hear
-the truth about yourself.”
-
-The other hesitated. “I really do want to win your regard—” he began.
-
-“I don’t want you to do anything to win my regard! If you do these
-things, it must be because you want to do them. At present you’re just
-your money, your position—your Royalty, as I’ve come to call it. But I’m
-not the least bit concerned about your Royalty; your houses and your
-servants and your automobiles are a bore to me—worse than that, they’re
-wicked, for no man has a right to spend so much money on himself, to
-have a whole house to himself——.”
-
-“Please,” he pleaded, “stop scolding about my house. I couldn’t change
-now, for it’s only a couple of weeks to Commencement.”
-
-“It would have all the more effect,” she declared, “if you moved into a
-dormitory now. Here are the class elections, and your class split up——”
-
-“You don’t realize my position,” he interrupted. “It’s not merely a
-question of what I want. There’s Ridgely Shackleford, our candidate for
-class president; if I deserted him and went over to the ‘Yard,’ they’d
-say I was a traitor, a coward—worse than that, they’d say I was a fool!
-I wouldn’t have a friend left in the college.”
-
-“You really think it would be so bad?”
-
-“It would be worse. I haven’t told you half. When the story got about,
-I’d become a booby in society; I’d have to give up my clubs, I’d be a
-complete outcast. I tell you, you simply can’t break down the barriers
-of your class.”
-
-Sylvia sat in silence, pondering his words. Suddenly she became aware
-that he was gazing at her eagerly. “Miss Castleman,” he began, his voice
-trembling slightly, “what I want above all else is your friendship. I’d
-do anything to win it—I’d give up anything in the world. I have a regard
-for you—a most intense admiration. If I knew it would make me mean
-something to you—why then, I’d be willing to go to any extreme, to defy
-everybody else. But suppose I do this, and I’m left all alone——”
-
-“If you did this you’d have new friends—real friends.”
-
-“But the friend I want is _you_!”
-
-Sylvia answered, “If you did what was right because it was right, if you
-showed yourself willing to dare something for the sake of principle—why
-then, right away you’d become worth while. You’d not have to ask for my
-friendship.”
-
-He hesitated. “Suppose—suppose that I should find that I wanted _more_
-than friendship——”
-
-She had been prepared for that—and she stopped him instantly.
-“Friendship comes first,” she said.
-
-“But,” he pleaded, “give me some idea. Could I not expect——”
-
-“You asked me to be a friend to you, to help you by telling you the
-truth. That is what we have been discussing. Pray let there be no
-mistake about it. Friendship comes first.”
-
-Why did Sylvia take such a course with him? You would have a false idea
-of her character if you did not realize that it was the first time she
-had ever done such a thing—and that it was a hard thing for her to do.
-To refuse to let a man propose to her! To forbear to draw him on, to
-investigate him, to see what he would reply to various baffling remarks!
-
-It was not because she was engaged to Frank Shirley. Under the code
-which Lady Dee had taught her that made simply no difference whatever.
-Under that code it was her duty to secure every man who came into her
-reach; she might remain uncertain in her own mind, she might continue to
-explore and experiment up to the very moment when the wedding ring was
-slipped upon her finger. Sylvia had never forgotten Aunt Lady’s vivid
-image: “Stand them up in a line, my child, and when you get ready, walk
-down the line and pick the one you want!”
-
-She had set up a barrier before van Tuiver, and he pushed against it.
-The more firm she made it, the more he was moved to push. But suppose
-she gave way the least little bit, suppose he felt the barrier
-breaking—then would he not stop pushing, would he not shrink away? What
-fun to try him, to watch him hesitating, advancing and retreating,
-trembling with desire and with terror! To analyze the mixture of his
-longing and his caution, to add a little to the one or the other, and
-then see the result. Sylvia with a new man was like a chemist’s
-assistant, mixing strange liquids in a test-tube, possessed with a craze
-to know whether the precipitate would be red or green or yellow—and
-quite undeterred by the possibility of being blown through the skylight.
-
-But tempting as was the game, she could not play it with Douglas van
-Tuiver. It was as if an angel stood between them with a flaming sword.
-Douglas van Tuiver was no subject for joke, he was not a man as other
-men—he was Royalty. With Royalty one must be stern and unfaltering.
-“Friendship comes first,” she had said; and though before that ride was
-over he had come again and again to the barrier, he never broke past it,
-nor felt any sign of its yielding to his touch.
-
-
- § 18
-
-Sylvia was making her plans to leave in a couple of days. It was close
-to Commencement, and she would have liked to stay, but there had come a
-disturbing letter from home—the Major was not well, and there had been
-an overflow, entailing serious damage to the crops and still more
-serious cares. At such a time the family reached out blindly to
-Sylvia—no matter what was going wrong, they were sure it would go right
-if she were present.
-
-And besides, her work at Harvard was done. This was duly certified to by
-Harley, who came to see her the next morning, in such a state of bliss
-as is not often vouchsafed to Freshmen. “It’s all right, old girl,” he
-said, “you can go whenever you get ready. You surely are a witch,
-Sylvia!”
-
-“What has happened?” she asked.
-
-“I had a call from Douglas van Tuiver last night.”
-
-“You don’t mean it, Harley!”
-
-“Yes. Did you ask him to do it?”
-
-“I should think I did _not_!”
-
-“Well, whatever the reason was, he was as nice as could be. Said he was
-interested in me, and that he’d back me for one of the earlier tens.”
-
-“How perfectly contemptible of him!” exclaimed Sylvia.
-
-Needless to say, this was a turn not expected by Harley. “See here,” he
-protested, “it seems to me you’re taking a little too high a line with
-van Tuiver. There’s really no need to go so far——”
-
-“Now please,” said Sylvia, “don’t concern yourself with that. I came up
-here to help you, and I’ve done it, and that’s all you can ask.”
-
-“Oh, very well,” he said, and there was a sulky pause. Finally, however,
-the sun of his delight broke through the clouds again. “Say, Sylvia!” he
-exclaimed. “Do you know, the whole college is talking about what
-happened at that dance. Tell me, honestly—did you know anything about
-what they meant to do?”
-
-“I think that’s a question you’d know better than to ask, Harley.”
-
-“I was ready to knock a fellow down because he hinted it. But Bates is
-square—he takes it all on himself. They say Mrs. Winthrop will never
-forgive him.”
-
-Sylvia pondered. “Won’t it make Edith angry with you?” she asked.
-
-“I’ll keep away from her for a few days,” laughed Harley. “If I get my
-social position established, she’ll get over her anger, never fear. By
-the way, would you like to know what Edith thinks about you?”
-
-“Why—did she tell you?”
-
-“No, but there’s a chap in my class who knows her. He told me what she
-said—only of course one can’t be sure.”
-
-“Tell me what it was,” said Sylvia, “and I’ll know if she said it.”
-
-“That you were shallow; that with the arts you used any woman could
-snare a man. But she would scorn to use them.”
-
-“Yes,” laughed the other, “she said it.”
-
-“Are you really as bad as that?” asked Harley. “What arts does she
-mean?”
-
-“This is a woman’s affair, Harley. What else did she say?”
-
-“She said her mother was disappointed in you. She thought you had a
-beautiful soul, but you’d let it be spoiled by flattery. She said you
-had no real understanding of a character like van Tuiver, or the
-responsibilities of his position.”
-
-Sylvia said nothing, but sat considering the matter. She had no
-philosophy about these affairs; she was following her instincts, and
-sometimes she was assailed by doubts and troubled by new points of view.
-She was surprised to realize how very revolutionary a standpoint she had
-come to take in the matter of Mrs. Winthrop’s favorite. Why should she,
-Sylvia Castleman, a descendant of Lady Lysle, be trying to pull down the
-pillars of the social temple?
-
-That was still her mood when, after Harley’s departure, the telephone
-rang and she found herself voice to voice with “Queen Isabella.” “Won’t
-you come and have luncheon with me, Sylvia?” asked the latter. “I’ve
-sent Edith away, so that we can be to ourselves. I want to have a long
-talk with you.” And Sylvia, in a penitent state, answered that she would
-come.
-
-
- § 19
-
-She chose for this visit one of her simplest costumes—a white muslin,
-with pale green sprigs in it, and a pale green toque of a most
-alluringly Quakerish effect. A poet had designed it for her—one of her
-victims at the State University—and had specified that she must never
-wear it without a prayer-book in her hand. In this costume she sat in
-Mrs. Winthrop’s sombre paneled dining-room, with generations of sombre
-Puritan governors staring down from the walls at her; while the strange
-white servants stole noiselessly about on the velvet carpets, she gazed
-with wide, innocent eyes, and listened to her hostess’ delicately-worded
-sermon.
-
-Mrs. Winthrop appreciated the symbolism of the costume, and used it in
-making a cautious approach to her subject. She said that Sylvia had
-wonderful gifts of beauty—not merely of the person, but of taste and
-understanding. Women so favored owed a great debt to life, and must
-needs feel keenly the desire to make recompense for their privileges.
-That, said Mrs. Winthrop, was something always present in her own
-thoughts. How could she pay for her existence? It was fatally easy to
-fall into the point of view of those who rebelled against social
-conditions, and justified the discontent of the poor. “You know, we have
-such people even in Boston,” she explained, “and they win a good deal of
-sympathy. But there is a deeper and saner view, it seems to me. Life
-must have its graces, its embellishments; there must be those who embody
-a higher ideal than mere animal comfort. I think we should take our
-stand there—we should justify ourselves, having the consciousness of a
-mission in preserving the allurements and amenities of life. People talk
-about the poor shop-girls, and how hard they have to work; they seem to
-desire that one should give up one’s ease, one’s culture, and go and
-join the shop-girls. But I say, No, I am not to be seduced by such
-arguments. I am something in the lives of those shop-girls, something
-definite, something vital; I am to them an uplifting vision, an ideal of
-grace and dignity. When one goes among the lower classes and sees the
-brutality, the sordid animalism of their lives—oh, it is terrifying! One
-flies back to the world of refinement and serenity as to a city of
-refuge.”
-
-Mrs. Winthrop paused. Her beautiful eyes had talked with her; they had
-gazed terrified into social abysses, and now they came back to regions
-of brooding calm. Sylvia was under their spell, and was not conscious of
-any extravagance in the lady’s next utterance: “Speaking with a deep
-conviction, I say that I am something necessary to life, that the world
-could not get on without me. I say, I am Beauty, I am Art! Have you ever
-felt that, Sylvia?”
-
-“I have thought a good deal about such things, Mrs. Winthrop. But as a
-rule, I only manage to bewilder myself and make myself unhappy. There is
-so much terrible suffering in the world!”
-
-“Yes,” said the other. “How many times I find myself asking, with tears
-in my eyes, ‘How can you be happy, while all around you the world is
-dying? Go, bow your head with shame, because you have been happy!’” And
-sure enough, Mrs. Winthrop bowed her head, and two glistening, pearly
-tears trickled slowly from her eyes. “It is a faith I have had to fight
-for,” she continued, “something I feel most earnestly about. For we live
-in times when, as it seems to me, civilization is threatened by the
-terrible forces of materialism—by the blind greed of the masses
-especially. And I think that we who have the task of keeping alive the
-flame of beauty ought to be aware of our mission, and to support one
-another.”
-
-Sylvia thought that this was the point of approach to the real subject;
-but she said nothing, and Mrs. Winthrop veered off again. “I have always
-been especially interested in University life,” she said. “My father was
-a University professor, and I was brought up in a University town. After
-I was married and found that I had leisure and opportunity, I said to
-myself that it would be my task in life to do what I could to influence
-young men during their student years, by teaching them generous ideals,
-and above all by giving them a model of a dignified and gracious social
-life. It is in these years, you see, that the tastes of young men are
-formed; afterwards they go out to set an example to the rest of the
-world. More than any university, I think, Harvard is our source of
-culture and idealism; our crude Western colleges look to its graduates
-for teachers, and to its standards for their models. So you see it is
-really no little thing to feel that you are helping to guide and shape
-the social life of Harvard.”
-
-“I can understand that,” said Sylvia, much impressed.
-
-“You come from another part of our country,” continued Mrs. Winthrop—“a
-part which has its own lovely culture. Whether you have ever realized it
-consciously or not, I am sure that ideas such as these must have been
-often impressed upon you by your family.”
-
-“Yes,” said Sylvia, “my mother often talks of such things.”
-
-“I felt that, Sylvia, when I saw you. I said, ‘Here is an ally.’ You
-see, I must have help from the young people—especially from the girls,
-if I am to do anything with the men.”
-
-There was a solemn pause. “I hope I haven’t disappointed you too much,”
-said Sylvia at last.
-
-Mrs. Winthrop fixed upon her one of those intense gazes. “I’ve been
-perplexed,” she said. “You must understand, I can’t help hearing what’s
-going on. People come to ask me for advice, and I must give it. And I’ve
-felt that what I’ve learned made it really necessary for me to talk to
-you. I hope that you won’t mind, or think that I’m presuming.”
-
-“My dear Mrs. Winthrop,” said Sylvia, “please don’t apologize. I am glad
-to have your advice.”
-
-“I will speak frankly, then. As well as I can read the situation, you
-seem to have taken offense at the social system we have at Harvard. Is
-that true?”
-
-Sylvia thought. “Yes,” she said—“some parts of it have offended me.”
-
-“Can you explain, Sylvia?”
-
-“I don’t know that I can. It’s a thing that one feels. I have had a
-sense of something cruel about it.”
-
-“Something cruel? But can’t one feel that about any social system?
-Haven’t you classes at home? Don’t your people hold themselves above
-some others?”
-
-“Yes, but I don’t think they are so hard about it—so deliberate, so
-matter of fact.”
-
-“Ah,” said Mrs. Winthrop, “that is something I have often talked about
-with Southern people. The reason is that in the South you have a social
-class which is definitely separated by color, and which never thinks of
-crossing the line. But in the North, my dear, our servants look like us,
-and it’s not quite so simple drawing the line.”
-
-“Oh, but I’m not talking of servants, Mrs. Winthrop. I mean here, within
-the boundaries of a college class. Your servants do not go to college.”
-
-The other laughed. “But they do,” she said.
-
-“Oh, surely not!”
-
-“It costs a hundred and fifty dollars a year to go to Harvard. Any man
-can come, black or white, who can borrow the money. He may come, and
-earn his living while he’s here by tending furnaces. As a matter of
-fact, there’s a man in the class with Douglas van Tuiver whose father is
-a butler.”
-
-“You don’t mean it!” exclaimed Sylvia.
-
-“A man,” said Mrs. Winthrop, “named Firmin.”
-
-Sylvia was aghast. “Tom Firmin!”
-
-“Yes. Have you heard of him before?”
-
-She answered in a faint voice, “Yes,” and then was silent.
-
-“You see, my dear,” said the other, gently, “why we are conscious of our
-class lines in the North!”
-
-
- § 20
-
-Sylvia judged that it was about time for the cat to come out of the bag.
-And now she observed him emerging—with a grave and stately tread, as
-became a feline of New England traditions. Said Mrs. Winthrop: “I have
-just had a talk with Douglas van Tuiver. Of course, you must know,
-Sylvia, that he has conceived an intense admiration for you. And you
-must know that when a man so intensely admires a woman, she has a great
-influence upon him—an influence which she can use either for good or for
-evil.”
-
-“Yes, Mrs. Winthrop,” said Sylvia.
-
-“I gather that his admiration for you is—is not entirely reciprocated,
-Sylvia.”
-
-“Er—no,” said the girl, “not entirely.”
-
-“He has come to me in great distress. You have criticized him, and he
-has felt your disapproval keenly. I won’t need to repeat what he said—no
-doubt you understand. The point is that you have brought Douglas to a
-state of distraction; he wants to please you, and he doesn’t know how to
-do it. You have put ideas into his head—really, Sylvia, you will ruin
-the man—you will utterly destroy him. I cannot but feel that you have
-acted without fully realizing the gravity of the situation—the full
-import of the demands you have made upon him.”
-
-“Really,” protested Sylvia, “I have made no demands upon him.”
-
-“Not formally, perhaps. But you must understand, the man is beside
-himself, and he takes them as demands.”
-
-There was an awkward silence. “I have tried earnestly to avoid Mr. van
-Tuiver,” said Sylvia. “I would prefer never to see him again.”
-
-“But that is not what I want. You can’t help seeing him—he is determined
-to see _you_. My point is that your advice to him should take another
-form—you should realize the peculiar position of a man like Douglas, the
-immense responsibilities he carries, and which he cannot lay aside. If
-you could sympathize with him——”
-
-There was again a pause. “I hope you won’t think it obstinate of me,”
-said the girl, “but I know that I could never change my attitude—that
-unless Mr. van Tuiver changed his way of life, he could never be a
-friend of mine.”
-
-“But, Sylvia dear,” remonstrated the other, gently, “he has been a
-friend of _mine_.”
-
-And so the real battle was on. There have been defences of the Divine
-Right of Kings, composed by eminent and learned men; there have been
-treatises composed upon the upbringing of statesmen and princes—from
-Machiavelli and Castiglione on; Sylvia was ignorant of their very
-existence, and so she was in no way a match for a scholarly person like
-Mrs. Winthrop. But one thing she knew, and knew it with overwhelming
-certainty, and repeated it with immovable obstinacy—she did not like van
-Tuiver as he was, she could not tolerate him as he was. Mrs. Winthrop
-argued and pleaded, apologized and philosophized, interpreting most
-eloquently the privileges and immunities incidental to the possession of
-fifty millions of dollars. But Sylvia did not like van Tuiver, she could
-not tolerate van Tuiver.
-
-At last Mrs. Winthrop stopped, the edges of her temper somewhat frayed.
-She gazed at Sylvia intently. “May I ask you one thing?” she said.
-
-“What is it?” inquired the girl.
-
-“Has Douglas asked you to marry him?”
-
-“No, he has not.”
-
-“Do you think that he will ask you?”
-
-“I really don’t know; but I can assure you that he will not if I can
-prevent it.”
-
-There was a long pause, while the other weighed this utterance.
-“Sylvia,” she said, at last, “he has a great deal of money.”
-
-“I have heard that fact mentioned,” responded the girl.
-
-“But have you realized, my dear, how _much_ money he has?”
-
-To which Sylvia answered, “We are not taught to think so deliberately
-about money in the South.”
-
-Again there was a silence. She divined that Mrs. Winthrop was struggling
-desperately to be noble. “Do I understand you to mean, Sylvia, that you
-would really refuse to marry him if he asked you?”
-
-“I most certainly mean it,” was her reply—and it was given convincingly.
-
-The other drew a breath of relief. She had found the struggle
-exhausting. “My dear child,” she said, “I appreciate your fineness of
-character.” She paused. “But tell me this—if you do not intend to marry
-Douglas, ought you to permit him to compromise himself for you?”
-
-“Compromise himself, Mrs. Winthrop? I don’t understand you.”
-
-“I mean, Sylvia, that he is exposing himself to the ridicule of his
-friends—he is making a spectacle of himself to the whole University. And
-then, after he has done this, you propose to cap the climax of his
-humiliation by refusing to marry him!”
-
-Sylvia had so far been most decorous; but at this point her sense of fun
-was too much for her, and merriment broke out upon her countenance.
-“Mrs. Winthrop,” she declared, “there is but one way out—you must keep
-Mr. van Tuiver from proposing to me!”
-
-The other’s pose became haughty and full of rebuke; but Sylvia was not
-to be frightened. “See the dilemma I am in!” she exclaimed. “If I refuse
-him, I humiliate him and compromise him. But if I marry him—what becomes
-of my fineness of character?” She paused for a moment, then added, “You
-must do this, Mrs. Winthrop; you must take the responsibility of
-forbidding me to see him again. You must make it so emphatic that I’ll
-simply have to obey you.”
-
-“Queen Isabella’s” feelings were approaching a state of turmoil; but the
-girl urged her proposition seriously, finding a quite devilish amusement
-in plaguing her hostess with it. The other protested that she would not,
-she could not, she _dared_ not take the responsibility of interfering
-with Mr. van Tuiver’s love affairs; and all without having the least
-idea of the abysses of malice which were hidden within the circumference
-of the pale green Quaker bonnet in front of her!
-
-
- § 21
-
-Frank Shirley came to call that afternoon, and revealed the fact that
-the gossip had reached even him. “Sylvia, you witch,” he exclaimed, and
-pinched her ear—“what in the world have you been doing to Douglas van
-Tuiver?”
-
-She caught his hand and held it in both hers. “What has happened,
-Frank?”
-
-“A miracle, my dear—simply a miracle! Van Tuiver has been to call on Tom
-Firmin!”
-
-“Oh, how interesting!” cried Sylvia. “How was he received?”
-
-“Tell me first—did you suggest it to him?”
-
-“I’m a woman—my curiosity is much less endurable than yours. Tell me
-instantly.”
-
-“Oh, he came—very much subdued and ill at ease. Said he’d realized the
-split in the class, and how very unfortunate it was, and he wanted to
-help mend matters.”
-
-“What did Mr. Firmin say?”
-
-“He asked why van Tuiver had begun with him. ‘Because I’d heard you
-didn’t like me,’ said van Tuiver, ‘and I wanted to try to put matters on
-a better footing. I’d like to be a friend of yours if I might.’ Tom—you
-know him—said that friendship wasn’t to be had for the asking—he’d have
-to look van Tuiver over and see how he panned out. First of all, they
-must understand each other on one point—that he, Tom, wouldn’t be
-patronized, and that anybody who tried it would be ordered out.” Frank
-paused, and laughed his slow, good-natured laugh. “Poor van Tuiver!” he
-said. “I feel sorry for him. Imagine him having to say he’d be willing
-to take the risk! It’s about the funniest thing I ever heard of. What I
-want to know is, is it true that you did it?”
-
-“Would you be very angry if I said ‘Yes’?”
-
-“Why, no,” he answered—“only I suppose you know you’re getting a lot of
-publicity?”
-
-Sylvia paused for a while. “I suppose it was a mistake all through,” she
-said, “but I was ignorant when I started, and since then I’ve been
-dragged along. Mr. van Tuiver has kept at me to tell him why I didn’t
-like him—and I’ve told him, that’s about all. I thought that your friend
-Mr. Firmin was one who’d do the same.”
-
-“He’s that, all right,” laughed Frank.
-
-There was a pause, then suddenly Sylvia exclaimed, “By the way, there’s
-something I meant to ask you. Is it true that Mr. Firmin’s father is a
-butler?”
-
-“It is, Sylvia.”
-
-“And did you know that when you introduced him to me?”
-
-It was Frank’s turn to counter. “Would you be very angry if I said I
-did?”
-
-“Why—not angry, Frank. But you must realize that it was a new
-experience.”
-
-“Did you find him ill-bred?”
-
-“Why, no—not that; but——”
-
-“I thought you might as well see all sides of college life. I knew you’d
-meet the club-men. And there’s a particular reason why you’ll have to be
-nice to Tom—he wants to make me president of the class just now.”
-
-“President of the class!”
-
-“Yes. Politics, you see!”
-
-“But,” she exclaimed, “why haven’t you told me about it?”
-
-“I didn’t know until yesterday. Things have been shaping themselves. You
-see, the feeling in the ‘Yard’ has grown more bitter, and yesterday a
-committee came to me and asked if I’d stand against Shackleford, who’s
-been picked by the Auburn Street crowd, and was expected to go in
-without opposition. I said I’d have to think it over. I might accept the
-position if I was elected, but of course, I wouldn’t do any
-wire-pulling—wouldn’t seek any man’s vote. They said that was all they
-wanted. But I don’t know; it’s a difficult question for me.”
-
-“But why?”
-
-“Well, you see, they’ll rake up the story of my father.”
-
-Sylvia gave a cry of horror. “Frank!”
-
-“If there’s a contest, it’ll be war and no quarter.”
-
-“But would they do such a thing as that?”
-
-“They would do it,” said Frank, grimly. “So my first impulse was to
-refuse. But I rather thought you’d want me to run. For you see, I’ll
-have that old scandal all my life, whatever I try to do; and I suppose
-you won’t let me keep out of everything.”
-
-“But, Frank, how will they know about your father?”
-
-“Lord, Sylvia, don’t you suppose with all the social climbing there is
-in this place, they’ve had that morsel long ago? There are fellows here
-from the South—your cousin, for one. It doesn’t matter, as long as I’m a
-nobody; but if I set out to beat the ‘Gold Coast crowd’—then you’d see!”
-
-It was amusing to Frank to see how her eyes blazed. “Oh, I ought to stay
-to help you!” she exclaimed. “If it only weren’t for father!”
-
-“Don’t worry, Sylvia. I wouldn’t let you stay for anything. I don’t want
-you mixed up in such affairs.”
-
-“But, Frank, think what it would mean! What a blow to the system you
-hate! And I could pull you through—you needn’t laugh, I really could!
-There are so many men I could manage!”
-
-But Frank went on laughing. “Honey,” he said, “you’ve done quite
-enough—too much—already. How are you going to pay van Tuiver for what
-he’s done?”
-
-“Pay him, Frank?”
-
-“Of course. Do you imagine, dear, that van Tuiver’s a man to do anything
-without being paid? He’ll hand in his bill for services rendered, and
-he’ll put a high value on his services! And what will you do?”
-
-She sat, deep in thought. “Frank,” she exclaimed, “you’ve been so
-good—not to worry about me and that man!”
-
-He smiled. “Don’t I know what a proud lady you are?”
-
-“What’s that got to do with it?”
-
-“Honey, if I had been afraid about van Tuiver, do you suppose I’d have
-dared let you know it?”
-
-She looked at him, her eyes shining. “How nicely you put it!” she said.
-“You’re the dearest fellow in the world, a regular haven of refuge to
-fly to!” Then suddenly her mood became grave, and she said, “Let me tell
-you the truth; I’m glad I’m going away from the man and his money! It
-isn’t that it’s a temptation—I don’t know how to say it, but it’s a
-nightmare, a load on my mind. I think, ‘Oh, how much good I could do
-with that money!’ I think, ‘So much power, and he hasn’t an idea how to
-use it!’ It’s monstrous that a man should have so much, and no ideas to
-go with it. It’s all very well to turn your back on it, to say that you
-despise it—but still it’s there, it’s working all the time, day and
-night—and working for evil! Isn’t that true?”
-
-He was watching her with a quizzical smile. “You’re talking just like
-Tom!” he said. “They’ll call _you_ an Anarchist at home!”
-
-She was interested in the idea of being an Anarchist, and would have got
-Frank started upon a lecture on economics. But there came an
-interruption in the form of a knock on the door and a boy with a card.
-Sylvia glanced at it, and then, without a word, passed it to Frank. He
-read it and they looked at each other.
-
-“Well?” he asked. “Are you going to see him?”
-
-“I don’t know,” she said. “What do you say?”
-
-“I can stand it if you can,” laughed Frank; and so Sylvia ordered Mr.
-van Tuiver shown up.
-
-
- § 22
-
-He stood in the doorway, clad in his faultless afternoon attire. Somehow
-he had recovered the hard brilliance, the look of the man of the world,
-which Sylvia had noticed the first evening. He gazed at Frank, not
-hiding very well his annoyance at finding a third party.
-
-“Mr. van Tuiver, Mr. Shirley,” said Sylvia. “You do not know each other,
-I believe.”
-
-“I know Mr. Shirley by sight,” said van Tuiver, graciously. He seated
-himself on a spindle-legged Louis Quinze chair—so stiffly that Sylvia
-thought of a purple domino. She beamed from one to the other, and then
-remarked, “What a curious commentary on the Harvard system! Two men
-studying side by side for three years, and not knowing each other!”
-
-She was aware that this remark was not of the most tactful order. She
-made it on purpose, thinking to force the two into a discussion. But van
-Tuiver was not minded that way. “Er—yes,” he said, and relapsed into
-silence.
-
-“Miss Castleman’s notions of courtesy are derived from a pastoral
-civilization,” said Frank, by way of filling in the breach. “You don’t
-realize the size of Harvard classes, Sylvia.”
-
-The girl was watching the other man, and she saw that he had instantly
-noted Frank’s form of address. He looked sharply, first at his rival,
-and then at her. “Mr. Shirley is also from the South?” he asked.
-
-“Yes,” said Sylvia, “we are near neighbors.”
-
-“Oh, I see,” said van Tuiver. “Old friends, then, I presume.”
-
-“Quite,” said Sylvia, and again there was a pause. She was willing to
-let the two men worry through without help, finding it fascinating to
-watch them and study them. What a curious contrast they made! She found
-herself wondering how far van Tuiver would have got in college life if
-he had had the handicaps of her lover!
-
-Frank was talking about the prospects of the baseball team. He was
-pleasant and friendly, and of course quite unmoved by the presence of
-Royalty. He seemed to be wholly unaware of the tension in the air, the
-restlessness and impatience of the man he was talking to. But Sylvia
-knew and was thrilled.
-
-It was a moment full of possibilities of drama. She asked some question
-of Frank, and he answered, casually, “Of course, honey.” He went on,
-unconcerned and unperceiving; but Sylvia saw the other man wince as if
-he had been touched by something red hot. He looked at her, but found
-that she was looking away. She stole a glance at him again, and saw that
-he was watching his rival with strained attention, his countenance
-several shades paler in hue.
-
-That was the end of conversation, so far as van Tuiver was concerned. He
-answered in monosyllables, and his eyes went from Frank to Sylvia like
-those of a hunted animal in a corner. The girl got a new and sharp
-realization of his condition. She had gone into this affair as a joke,
-but now, for a moment, she was frightened. The man was terrible; every
-minute, as he watched Frank, his brow grew darker, he was like a
-thundercloud in the room. And this the _arbiter_ of Harvard’s best
-society!
-
-At last, she took pity on him. It was really preposterous of Frank to go
-on gossiping about the prospects of a truce with the Princeton “tiger,”
-and the resumption of football contests. So, smiling cheerfully at him,
-she remarked, “You’ll be missing the lecture, won’t you?” And Frank,
-realizing that he was a third party, made his excuses and withdrew.
-
-Van Tuiver barely waited until Frank had closed the door. Then, with a
-poor effort at nonchalance, he remarked, “You know Mr. Shirley quite
-intimately.”
-
-“Oh, yes,” said Sylvia.
-
-“You—you like him very much, Miss Castleman?”
-
-“He’s a splendid fellow,” she replied. “He’s one of the men you ought to
-have been cultivating.”
-
-But the other would not be diverted for a moment. “I—I wish—pardon me,
-Miss Castleman, but I want you to tell me—what is your relation to him?”
-
-“Why, really, Mr. van Tuiver——”
-
-“I know I’ve no right—but I’m desperate!”
-
-“But—suppose I don’t care to discuss the matter?” She was decided in her
-tone, for she saw that stern measures were necessary if he was to be
-checked.
-
-But nothing could stop him—he was beyond mere convention. “Miss
-Castleman,” he rushed on, “I must tell you—I’ve tried my best, but I
-can’t help it! I love you—as I’ve never dreamed that a man could love. I
-want to marry you!”
-
-He stopped, breathing hard; and Sylvia, off her guard, exclaimed, “No!”
-
-“I mean it!” he declared. “I’m in earnest—I want to marry you!”
-
-She caught herself together. She had not meant this to happen. She
-answered, with a tone of _hauteur_, “Mr. van Tuiver, you have no right
-to say that to me.”
-
-“But why not? I am making you an offer of marriage. You must understand.
-I mean it.”
-
-“I am able to believe that you mean it; but that is not the point. You
-have no right to ask me to marry you, when I have refused you my
-friendship.”
-
-There was a pause. He sat staring at her in pitiful bewilderment. “I
-thought,” he said, “this was more serious.” And then he stopped, reading
-in her face that something was wrong. “Isn’t an offer of marriage more
-serious than one of friendship?” he inquired.
-
-“More serious?” repeated Sylvia. “More important, you mean?”
-
-“Exactly.”
-
-“More attractive, that is?” she suggested.
-
-“Why—yes.”
-
-“In other words, Mr. van Tuiver, you thought that a man with so much
-money might be accepted as a husband when he’d been rejected as a
-friend?”
-
-“Why—not exactly that, Miss Castleman——”
-
-But Sylvia hardly heard his denial. A wave of annoyance, of disgust, had
-swept over her. She rose to her feet. “You have justified my worst
-opinion of you!” she exclaimed.
-
-“What have I done?” he cried, miserably.
-
-“It isn’t what you’ve done, as I’ve told you before—it’s what you are,
-Mr. van Tuiver. You are utterly, utterly impossible, and I’m furious
-with myself for having heard what you have just said to me.”
-
-“Miss Castleman! I beseech you——”
-
-But she would not hear him further. She could not endure his presence.
-“There is no use saying another word,” she declared. “I will not talk to
-you. I will not know you!”
-
-The madness of love was upon him; he held out his hands imploringly. But
-she repelled him with blazing eyes. “You must go!” she said. “Go at
-once! I will not see you again—I positively forbid you to come near me.”
-
-He tried twice to speak, but each time she stopped him, crying, “Go, Mr.
-van Tuiver!” And so at last he went, almost crying with humiliation and
-distress, in his agitation forgetting his hat and gloves. So furious was
-Sylvia that she shut the door, and fell on the sofa weeping.
-
-When she came to look back on it, she was amazed by her vehemence. It
-could not have been the manner of the proposal, for he had been
-insufferable many times before, and she had managed to take a humorous
-view of it. Had it perhaps been seeing him in opposition to Frank which
-had fired the powder mine of her rage? Was it that jealousy of his
-power, of which she had spoken? Or was it the protective instinct with
-which Nature had endowed her maidenhood—that she could jest with him
-while he was seeking her friendship, but was convulsed with anger when
-he spoke to her of love?
-
-
- § 23
-
-That evening there was an entertainment of the “Hasty Pudding” Club, and
-the next afternoon Sylvia was to take her departure. All the morning she
-held an informal levee of those who came to bid her good-bye, and to
-make their comments on the amazing events which were transpiring. For
-one thing, the candidacy of Frank Shirley for class-president was
-formally announced; and for another, Douglas van Tuiver had declared his
-intention to move from his house into one of the cheaper dormitories,
-and to take his seat at the common dining-tables in Memorial Hall.
-
-Earliest of all came Harley, in a terrible state. “What can have got
-into you? You’ve ruined everything—you’ve undone all the good you did
-for me!”
-
-“As bad as that, Harley?” she asked. She was gentle with him, realizing
-suddenly how completely she had overlooked him and his interests in the
-last few crowded days.
-
-“What does it all mean?” he went on. “What has made you want to smash
-things like this?”
-
-She knew, of course, that there was no use trying to explain to him. She
-contented herself with saying that things could not be as bad as he
-thought.
-
-“They couldn’t be worse!” he exclaimed. “Van Tuiver’s gone over to the
-‘Yard,’ bag and baggage, and the club-men are simply furious. They’re
-denouncing you, because you made him do it, and when they can’t get at
-you, they’ll take it out on me. Sooner or later they are bound to learn
-that you’re engaged to Frank Shirley; and then they’ll say you did it
-all to help him—that you fooled van Tuiver and made a cat’s paw of him
-for the sake of Frank.”
-
-That was a new aspect of the matter, and a serious one; but Sylvia
-realized that there was no remedying it now. She was glad when other
-callers arrived, so that she might send her cousin away.
-
-There came Thurlow, who, as a chum of Shackleford, wished to protest to
-Sylvia against the harm she was doing to the latter’s candidacy, and to
-all that was best in Harvard’s social life. There came Jackson, who, as
-van Tuiver’s best friend, painted a distressful picture of the collapse
-of his prestige. There came Harmon, also pledged to plead the cause of
-“Auburn Street,” but proving a poor ambassador on account of his selfish
-weakness. He spoke of van Tuiver’s pitiful state, but a very little
-contriving on Sylvia’s part sufficed to bring him to his knees,
-beseeching her to make him the happiest man in the world.
-
-Sylvia rather liked Harmon; she was grateful to him for having been the
-first man at Harvard to fall in love with her, thus helping her over a
-time of great self-distrust. He made his offer with more eloquence than
-one would have expected from a reserved upper-class club man; and Sylvia
-gently parried his advances, and wiped away one or two tears of genuine
-sympathy, and promised to be a sister to him in the most orthodox old
-Southern style.
-
-And then came “Tubby” Bates. “Tubby” did not ask her to marry him, but
-he made her several speeches which were even more pleasant to hear. She
-had finished her packing, and had on her gray traveling dress when he
-called. He stood in the middle of the floor, gazing at her approvingly,
-his round face beaming and his eyes twinkling with fun. “Oh, what a stir
-in the frog-pond we’ve made!” he exclaimed. “And now you’re running off
-and leaving me to face the racket alone!”
-
-“What in the world have _you_ to do with it?” she asked.
-
-“Me? Doesn’t everybody know that it was I who set you on van Tuiver?
-Didn’t I bring you together at that fatal dance? And now all the big
-guns in the college are aiming murder at me!”
-
-The other laughed. “Surely, Mr. Bates, your social position can stand a
-strain!”
-
-He laughed in return, but suddenly became serious. He said: “I wouldn’t
-care anyhow. Honest to God, Miss Castleman! There’s something I wanted
-to say to you—I have to thank you for teaching me a lesson.”
-
-“A lesson?”
-
-“You know, we don’t live in such a lovely world—and I’m afraid I’ve got
-to be cynical. But you’ve made me ashamed of myself, and I want to tell
-you. It’s something I shall never forget; it may sound melodramatic—but
-I shall always think better of women for what you’ve done.”
-
-She looked at him and grew serious. “Tell me, just what have I done that
-seems so extraordinary to you? I haven’t felt a bit heroic.”
-
-“I’ll answer you straight. You turned down van Tuiver and his money!”
-
-“And does that really surprise you so?” she asked.
-
-“I can only tell you that I didn’t believe there was a woman in America
-who’d do it. I can tell you also that van Tuiver didn’t believe it!”
-
-Sylvia could not help laughing. “But, really, Mr. Bates, how could you
-expect so badly of me—that I’d sell my soul for luxury?”
-
-“It isn’t luxury, Miss Castleman. That’s nothing. You can buy a whole
-lot of luxury with no more money than I’ve got. But with van Tuiver it
-would be something else—something that not one woman in a million has
-offered to her. It’s power, its supremacy—it’s really what you called
-Royalty.”
-
-“And you thought that would buy me?”
-
-He sat watching her intently; he did not answer.
-
-“Tell me truly,” she said. “I won’t mind.”
-
-“No,” he said, “there’s something beyond that. I’ve read you, Miss
-Castleman, and I thought he’d get you this way—you’d think of all that
-could be done with his money. How many people you knew that you could
-help! How much good you could do in the world! You’d think of starving
-children to be fed, of sick children to be healed. You’d say, ‘I could
-make him do good with that money, and nobody else in the world could!’
-That’s the way he’d get you, Miss Castleman!”
-
-Sylvia was gazing at him, fascinated. He saw a strange look in her eyes,
-and he felt, rather than saw, that she drew a long breath. “You see!” he
-said. “You _did_ have to be heroic!”
-
-So, when “Tubby” Bates took his departure, he held her hand longer than
-any of her other callers had been permitted to. “Dear Miss Castleman,”
-he said, “I’ll never forget you; and if you need a friend, count on me!”
-
-He went away, and Sylvia sat in her chair, gazing before her, deep in
-thought. There came a knock, and a note was brought in. She frowned
-before she looked at it—she had come to know where these notes came
-from.
-
-“My dear Miss Castleman,” it read, “I have just learned that you are
-going away. I implore you to give me one word. I stand ready to do all
-that you have asked me, and I throw myself on your mercy. I must see you
-once again.”
-
-For a moment Sylvia was frightened, wondering if she had a madman to
-deal with. Then she crumpled the paper in her hand, and going to the
-desk, seized a pen and wrote, with the swiftness of one enraged:
-
-“Mr. van Tuiver, I have asked you to do nothing. I wish you to do
-nothing. All you can accomplish is to inflict disagreeable notoriety
-upon me. I demand that you give up all thought of me. I am engaged to
-marry another man, and I will under no circumstances consent to see you
-again.”
-
-This note she sent down by the boy, and when Frank came for her with a
-motor-car, she kept him in the room and sent Aunt Varina down into the
-lobby to make sure that van Tuiver was not waiting there. Some instinct
-made her feel that she must not let the two men meet again.
-
-Also this gave her a little interval with Frank. She put her hands in
-his, exclaiming, “I’m so glad I’ve got you, Frank! Hurry up—get through
-with this place and come home!”
-
-“You didn’t like it here?” he smiled.
-
-“I’m glad I came,” she answered. “It’ll be good for me—I’ll be happier
-at home with you!”
-
-He took her gently in his arms, and she let him kiss her. “You really do
-love me!” he whispered. “I can’t understand it, but you really do!”
-
-And she looked at him with her shining eyes. “I love you,” she
-said—“even more than I did when I came. The happiest moment of my life
-will be when I can walk out of the church with you, and have nothing
-more to do with the world!”
-
-“Good-bye, Lady Sunshine!” he said. “Good-bye, Lady Sunshine!”
-
-
-
-
- BOOK III
- _Sylvia Loses_
-
-
- § 1
-
-Sylvia returned to New York, where she had some shopping to attend to,
-and where also Celeste was waiting for her, expecting to be taken to
-theatres, and treated to a new hat and some false curls and boxes of
-candy. Celeste had heard all about van Tuiver, it appeared, and was
-“thrilled to death”—her own phrase. There was no repressing her
-questions—“Is he nice, Sylvia?”—“What does he look like?”—and so on. Nor
-was there any concealing her surprise at Sylvia’s reticence and lack of
-interest in this subject.
-
-The elder sister got a sudden realization of the extent to which she had
-changed during this last couple of weeks. “They will call you an
-Anarchist at home,” Frank had predicted; and now how worldly and hard
-seemed Celeste to her—how shameful and cruel her absorption in all the
-snobbery of Miss Abercrombie’s! Could it be that she, Sylvia, had ever
-been so “thrilled to death” over millionaire beaux and millionairess’
-millinery? Her sister had grown so in the few months that Sylvia hardly
-knew her; she had grown, not merely in body but in mind. So serene she
-was, so self-possessed, so perfectly certain about herself and her life!
-Such energy she had, such determination—how her sharp, black eyes
-sparkled with delight in the glories of this world! Sylvia found herself
-stealing glances at her during the matinee, and wondering if this could
-be “Little Sister”?
-
-Sylvia had dismissed her multimillionaire from her mind; but she was not
-to get rid of him as easily as that. (“He persists and persists,” Bates
-had said.) One afternoon, feeling tired, she sent her aunt forth to
-attend to some of the family commissions; when to her amazement there
-was sent up a note, written upon the hotel stationery, in the familiar
-square English handwriting.
-
-“My dear Miss Castleman,” it ran. “I know that you will be angry when
-you see I have followed you to New York. I can only plead with you to
-have pity upon me. You have put upon me a burden of contempt which I can
-simply not bear; if I cannot somehow manage to win your respect, I
-cannot live. I ask only for your respect, and will promise never to ask
-for anything else, nor to think of anything else. However bad I may be,
-surely you cannot deny me the hope of becoming better!”
-
-You see, it would have been hard for Sylvia to refuse the request. He
-struck the right chord when he asked for her pity, for she pitied all
-things that suffered—whether they deserved it or not.
-
-She pitied him when she saw him, for his face was drawn and his look
-haunted. He, the man of fashion, the exemplar of good taste, stood
-before her like a whipped schoolboy, afraid to lift his eyes to hers.
-
-He began, in a low voice, “It is kind of you to see me. There is
-something I wish to try to explain to you. I want you to know that I
-have thought over what you have said to me. I have hardly thought of
-anything else. I have tried to see things from your point of view, Miss
-Castleman. I know I have seemed to you monstrously egotistical—selfish,
-and all that. I have felt your scorn of me, like something burning me. I
-can’t bear it. I simply must show you that I am really not as bad as I
-have seemed. I want you to realize my side of it—I mean, how much I’ve
-had against me, how hard it was for me to be anything but what I am.”
-
-He paused. He had his hat in his hands, and Sylvia observed to her
-dismay that he was twisting it, for all the world like a nervous
-schoolboy.
-
-“I want to be understood,” he said, “but I don’t know if you are
-willing—if I bore you——”
-
-“Pray go on, Mr. van Tuiver,” she said, in a gentler tone of voice than
-she had ever used to him before.
-
-“This is the point!” he burst out. “You simply can’t know what it’s
-meant to be brought up as I was! I’ve come to realize why you hate me;
-but you must know that you’re the first who ever showed me any other
-viewpoint than that of money. There have been some who seemed to have
-other viewpoints, but they were only pretending, they always came round
-to the money viewpoint, they gave the money reaction. If you try things
-by a certain measure, and they fit it, you come to think that’s the
-measure they were made by. And that’s been my experience; since I was a
-little child, as far back as I can remember—men and women and even
-children, everybody I met was the same—until I met you.”
-
-He stopped, waiting for her to give some sign. Her eyes caught his and
-held them. “How was I able to convince you?” she asked.
-
-“You—” he said—and then hesitated. “You’ll be angry with me.”
-
-“No,” she said, “go on. Let us talk frankly.”
-
-“You refused to marry me, Miss Castleman.”
-
-“That was the supreme test?” He shrank, but she pursued him. “You hadn’t
-thought that any woman would really refuse to marry you?”
-
-He replied in a low voice: “I hadn’t.”
-
-Sylvia sat, absorbed in thought. “What a world!” she whispered, half to
-herself; and then to him: “Tell me—is Mrs. Winthrop like that?”
-
-Again he hesitated. “I—I don’t know,” he replied. “I never thought about
-her in that way. She already has her money.”
-
-“If she still had to get it, then you don’t know what she’d be?”
-
-She saw a quick look of fear. “You’re angry with me again?” he
-questioned. By things such as this she realized how thoroughly she had
-him cowed.
-
-“No” she said, gently, “I’m really interested. I do see your side
-better. I have blamed you for being what you are, but you’re really only
-part of a world, and it’s this world that I hate.”
-
-“Yes,” he exclaimed, with a sudden light of hope in his eyes. “Yes,
-that’s it exactly! And I want you to help me get out of that world—to be
-something better, so that you won’t have to despise me. I only ask you
-to be interested in me, to help me and advise me. I won’t even ask you
-to be my friend—you can decide that for yourself. I know I’m not worthy
-of you. Truly, I blush with shame when I think that I asked you to marry
-me!”
-
-“You shouldn’t say that,” she smiled. “It was only so that you really
-came to trust me!”
-
-But he would not jest. He had come there in one last forlorn effort, and
-he poured himself out in self-abasement, so that it hurt Sylvia merely
-to listen to him. She made haste to tell him that his boon was
-granted—she would think of him in a kindlier way, and would let him
-write to her of his struggles and his hopes. Some day, perhaps, she
-might even see him again and be his friend.
-
-While they were still talking there came an interruption—a bell-boy with
-a telegram addressed to Sylvia. She glanced at it, tore it open and read
-it; and then van Tuiver saw her go white. “Oh!” she cried, as if in
-sudden pain. “Oh!”
-
-She started to her feet, and the man did the same. “What is it?” he
-asked; but she did not seem to hear him. She stood with her hands
-clenched, staring before her, whispering, “Papa! Papa!”
-
-She looked about her, distracted. “Aunt Varina’s gone!” she cried. “And
-I don’t know where she is! We’ll be delayed for hours!” She began to
-wring her hands with grief and distress.
-
-Van Tuiver asked again, more urgently, “What is it?”
-
-She put the telegram into his hands, and he read the message: “Come home
-at once. Take first train. Let nothing delay. Father.”
-
-“He’s ill!” she cried. “I know he’s ill—maybe dead, and I’ll never see
-him again! Oh, Papa!” So she went on, quite oblivious to the presence of
-the man.
-
-“But listen!” he protested. “I don’t understand. This telegram is signed
-by your father.”
-
-“I know!” she cried. “But they’d do that—they’d sign his name, even if
-he were dead, so that I wouldn’t know. They’d want me home to break the
-news to me!”
-
-“But,” he asked, “have you reason to think——”
-
-“He was ill. I didn’t know just how ill, but that’s why I was going
-home. He must be dying, or they’d never telegraph me like that.” She
-gazed about her, wildly. “And don’t you see? Aunt Varina’s out. I’m
-helpless!”
-
-“We’ll have to find her, Miss Castleman.”
-
-“But I’ve no idea where she’s gone—she just said she would be shopping.
-So we’ll miss the four o’clock train, and then there’s none till eight,
-and that delays us nearly a whole day, because we have to lie over. Oh,
-God—I must do something. I can’t wait all that time!”
-
-She sank on a chair by the table and buried her face in her hands,
-sobbing like one distracted. The man by her side was frightened, never
-having seen such grief.
-
-“Miss Castleman,” he pleaded, “pray control yourself—surely it can’t be
-so bad. There are so many reasons why they might have telegraphed you.”
-
-“No!” she exclaimed, “no, you don’t understand them. They’d never send
-me such a message unless something terrible had happened! And now I’ll
-miss the train.”
-
-“Listen,” he said, quickly, “don’t think anything more about that—let me
-solve that problem for you. You can have a special, that will start the
-moment you are ready and will take you home directly.”
-
-“A special?” she repeated.
-
-“A private car. I’d put my own at your disposal, but it would have to be
-sent around by ferry, and that would take too long. I can order another
-in a few minutes, though.”
-
-“But Mr. van Tuiver, I can’t let you——”
-
-“Pray, don’t say that! Surely in an emergency like this one need not
-stand on ceremony. The cost will be nothing to speak of, and it will
-give me the greatest pleasure.”
-
-He took her bewildered silence for consent, and stepped to the ’phone.
-While he was communicating with the railroad and giving the necessary
-orders, she sat, choking back her sobs, and trying to think. What could
-the message mean? Could it mean anything but death?
-
-She came back to the man; she realized vaguely that he was a great help,
-cool, efficient and decisive. He phoned for a messenger, and wrote a
-check and an order for the train and sent it off. He had a couple of
-maids sent up by the hotel to do the packing. “Now,” he said, “do not
-give another thought to these matters—the moment your aunt comes you can
-step into a taxi, and the train will take you.”
-
-“Thank you, thank you!” she said. She had a moment of wonder at his
-masterfulness; a special train was a luxury of which she would never
-have thought. She realized another of the practical aspects of
-Royalty—he would of course use a private car.
-
-But then she began to pace the room again, her features working with
-distress. “Oh, Papa! Papa!” she kept crying.
-
-“You really ought not to suffer like this, when it may be only a
-mistake,” he pleaded. “Give me the address and I will telegraph for
-further particulars. You can get the answer on your train, you know. And
-meantime I’ll try, and see if we can get your home on the long-distance
-’phone.”
-
-“Can we talk at this distance?” she asked.
-
-“I don’t know, but at least we can relay a message.” So again she let
-him manage her affairs, grateful for his prompt decisiveness, which set
-all the machinery of civilization at work in her behalf.
-
-“Now try to be calm,” he said, “until we can get some more definite
-information. People are sometimes ill without dying.”
-
-“I’ve always known that I was going to lose my father suddenly!” she
-broke out. “I don’t know why—he has tragedy in his very face. If you
-could only see it—his dear, dear face! I love him so, I can’t tell you.
-I wake up in the night, sometimes, and the thought comes to me: ‘Papa
-has to die! Some day I’ll have to part from him.’ And then the most
-dreadful terror seizes me—I don’t know how I can bear it! Papa, oh,
-Papa!”
-
-She began to sob again; in his sympathy he came and stood by her.
-“Please, please,” he murmured.
-
-“I’ve no right to inflict this upon you,” she exclaimed.
-
-“Don’t think of that. If I could only help you—if I could suggest
-anything.”
-
-“It’s one of those cases,” she said, “where nothing can be done.
-Whatever it is, I’ll have to endure it, somehow. If he’ll only live
-until I get there, so that I can see him, speak with him again, hear his
-voice. I’ve never really been able to tell him how much I love him. All
-that he’s done for me—you see, I’ve been his favorite child, we’ve been
-like two playmates. I’ve tended him when he was ill, I’ve read to
-him—everything. So he always thinks about me. He wants me to be happy,
-and so he hides his troubles from me. He hides them from everybody; and
-you know how it is—that makes people lean on him and take advantage of
-him. He’s a kind of family drudge—everybody comes to him, his brothers
-and sisters, his nephews and nieces—anybody that needs help or advice or
-money. He’s so generous—too generous, and so he gets into difficulties.
-I’ve seen his light burning till two or three o’clock in the morning,
-when he was working over his accounts; and then he looks pale and
-haggard, and still he smiles and won’t let me know. But I always know,
-because he stays close to me, like a child. And now there’s been an
-overflow, and maybe this year’s whole crop is ruined, and that’s a
-terrible misfortune, and he’s been worrying about it——”
-
-Suddenly she stopped. This was Douglas van Tuiver she was talking
-to—telling him her family affairs! She had a sudden thrill of fear about
-it—she ought not to have let him know that her father was in
-difficulties as to money!
-
-It was only for a moment, however; she could not think very long of
-anything but her father. What floods of memories came sweeping over her!
-“He was always so proud of me,” she continued. “When I came out, two
-years ago—dear old Daddy, he wore his wedding-suit, that he’d had put
-away in a cedar chest in the attic. He stood beside mother, under the
-lilies and the bright lights, and both of them would look at me and
-beam.”
-
-She had risen to her feet, and was pacing the room, talking brokenly,
-but eagerly, as if it were important to make her listener realize how
-very lovable her father was. “Just think!” she said. “He had an old
-purse in his hand—one that my mother had given him on their wedding
-journey. In it was an orange-blossom from their bridal-bouquet, and some
-rose leaves that she had bitten off and let fall at his feet, once when
-he was courting her. He had treasured them for twenty years; and now
-some one brushed against his hand and knocked the dead leaves to the
-floor, and they broke and went all to dust, and he got down on his knees
-and searched for them with tears in his eyes. I remember how mother
-scolded him for making a spectacle of himself, and he got up and went
-off by himself, to grieve because his bridal-flowers had turned to
-dust.”
-
-Van Tuiver had listened in silence. When he spoke, his voice held a
-strange note. “Never mind,” he said, “you will make it up to him. You
-will give him flowers from your bridal wreath.”
-
-Again Sylvia found herself uncomfortable. But they were interrupted by
-the telephone—the connections with her home had been established. She
-flew to the booth downstairs, but she could hear nothing but a buzzing
-noise, and so there were some torturing minutes while her questions were
-relayed—she talking with “Washington,” and “Washington” with “Atlanta,”
-and so on. What she finally got was this: No one was ill or dead, but
-she must come at once—nothing must delay her. They could not explain
-until she arrived. And of course that availed her simply nothing. She
-was convinced that they were hiding the truth until she was home.
-
-When she went back to her room, she found that Aunt Varina had come.
-Their trunks were ready, and so they set off for the station, van Tuiver
-with them. He saw them settled in their car, and the girl perceived that
-at so much as a word from her he would have taken the long journey with
-her. She shook hands with him and thanked him—so gratefully that he was
-quite transported. As the car started and he hurried to the door and
-leaped off, he was a happier-looking van Tuiver than Sylvia had ever
-expected to see.
-
-
- § 2
-
-By the time that Sylvia’s train reached home, she had gotten herself
-together. Although still anxious, she no longer showed it. Whatever the
-tragedy might be, she was ready to face it, not asking for help, but
-giving help to others. It was surely for that that they had summoned
-her.
-
-She was on the car platform as the train slowed up; and there before her
-eyes stood her father. He was haggard, and gray, and old-looking—but
-alive, thank God!
-
-She flew to his arms. “Papa! What’s the matter?”
-
-“Nothing, my child,” he answered.
-
-“But who is ill?”
-
-“Nobody is ill, Sylvia.”
-
-“Tell me the truth!”
-
-“No one,” he insisted.
-
-“But then, why did you send for me?”
-
-“We wanted you home.”
-
-“But, Papa! In this fashion—surely you wouldn’t—” She stopped, and the
-Major turned to greet his sister.
-
-Sylvia got into the motor, and they started. “Is Mamma well?” she asked.
-
-“Yes,” he replied.
-
-“And the baby?”
-
-“Everybody is well.”
-
-“And you, Papa?”
-
-“I have not been so very fine, but I am better now.” Sylvia suspected he
-had got up from his sick-bed to come and meet her, and so her sense of
-dread increased. But she put no more questions—she knew she would have
-to wait. The Major had begun to talk about the state of the crops.
-
-The car reached home; and there on the steps were her mother, and the
-baby shouting a lusty welcome, and Peggy and Maria dancing with glee—to
-say nothing of troops of servants, inside the house and out, grinning
-and waiting to be noticed. There was noise and excitement, so much that
-for several minutes Sylvia forgot her anxiety. Then everybody wanted to
-know if she had brought them presents; she had to stop and think what
-she had purchased, and what she had delayed to purchase, and what she
-had left behind in the rush of departure. Aunt Varina said something
-about the special train, and there were questions about that, and about
-Douglas van Tuiver, who had provided it. And still not a word about the
-mystery.
-
-“But, Mamma,” cried Sylvia, at last, “why did you bring me home like
-this?”
-
-“Hush, dear,” said “Miss Margaret.” “Not now.”
-
-And so more delay. Aunt Nannie was expected shortly—she had said she
-would run over to greet the returning voyagers. Sylvia scented trouble
-in this, and would no longer be put off, but took her mother aside.
-“Mamma,” she pleaded, “please tell me what’s the matter!”
-
-The other colored. “It isn’t time now, my child.”
-
-“But why _not_, Mamma?”
-
-“Wait, Sylvia, please. It is nothing——”
-
-“But, Mamma, did you send me such a telegram for nothing? Don’t you
-realize that I have been almost beside myself? I was sure that somebody
-was dead.”
-
-“Sylvia, dear,” pleaded “Miss Margaret,” “please wait—I will tell you by
-and by. There are people here now——”
-
-“But there’ll always be people here. Come into the library with me.”
-
-“I beg you to calm yourself——”
-
-“But, Mamma, I want to _know_! Why should I be tormented with delay?
-Can’t I see by the manner of all of you that something is wrong? What is
-it?” She dragged her mother off to the library, and shut the door. “Now,
-Mamma, tell me!”
-
-The other looked towards the door, as if she wished to make her escape.
-Something about her attitude reminded Sylvia of that “talk” she had had
-before her departure for school. “My dear Sylvia,” began the mother, “it
-is something—it is very difficult——”
-
-“For heaven’s sake, go on!”
-
-“My child, you are going to be dreadfully distressed, I fear. I wish
-that I could help you—oh, Sylvia, dear, I’d rather die than have to tell
-you this!”
-
-Sylvia clutched her hands to her bosom in sudden fear. Her mother
-stretched out her arms to her. “Oh, my child,” she exclaimed, “you must
-believe that we love you, and you must let our love help! We tried to
-save you from this—from this——”
-
-“Tell me!” cried the girl. “Tell me!”
-
-“Oh, my poor child!” wailed “Miss Margaret” again, “Why did you have to
-love him? We were sure he would turn out to be bad! We——”
-
-Sylvia sprang towards her and shook her by the arm.
-
-“Mamma, answer me! What is it?”
-
-“Miss Margaret” began searching in the bosom of her dress. She drew out
-a crumpled piece of paper—a telegram. Sylvia took it with trembling
-fingers, and spreading it out, read these words:
-
-“Frank Shirley arrested in disorderly house in Boston, held to await
-result of assault on another student. Possibly fatal. Get Sylvia home at
-once. Harley.”
-
-She stood perfectly rigid, staring at her mother. She could not realize
-the words, they swam before her in a maze. The paper fluttered from her
-fingers. “It’s false!” she cried. “Do you expect me to believe that?
-It’s a plot! It’s some trick they’ve played on Frank!”
-
-Her mother, frightened by the pallor of her face, put her arms around
-her. “My daughter—” she began.
-
-“What have you done about this? I mean—to find out if it is true?”
-
-“We telegraphed Harley to write us full particulars.”
-
-“Oh, why did you send for me?” the girl exclaimed, passionately. “If
-Frank is arrested, I ought to be there!”
-
-“Sylvia!” cried her mother, aghast. “Have you read the message? Don’t
-you see _where_ he was arrested?”
-
-Yes, Sylvia had read, but what could she make of it? In her mind was a
-medley of emotions: horror at what Frank had done, disbelief that he had
-done it, shame of a subject of which she had been taught not to think,
-anxiety for her lover in trouble—all these contended within her.
-
-“The wretch!” exclaimed “Miss Margaret.” “To drag my child’s name in the
-mire!”
-
-“Hush!” cried Sylvia, between her teeth. “It is not true! It’s somebody
-trying to ruin him! It’s a horrible, horrible lie!”
-
-“But, Sylvia! The telegram came from your cousin!”
-
-“I don’t care! It’s some tale they’ve told to Harley!”
-
-“But—he says Frank is arrested!”
-
-“Oh, I ought to go to him! I ought to find out the truth! Frank is not
-that kind of man!”
-
-“My child,” ventured “Miss Margaret,” “how much do you know about men?”
-
-Sylvia stared at her mother. Vague questions trembled on her lips; but
-she saw there was no help in that quarter. “I have always kept my
-daughter innocent!” the other was saying. “He ought to be killed for
-coming into our home and dragging you into such shame!”
-
-Sylvia stood silent, utterly bewildered. She knew that there were
-dreadful things in the world, of which she had gathered only the vaguest
-hints. “A disorderly house!” She had heard the name—she had heard other
-such names; she knew that these were unmentionable places, where wicked
-women lived and vile things were done; also she knew that men went
-there—but surely not the men she knew, surely not gentlemen, not those
-who ventured to ask for her love!
-
-But why should she torment herself with such thoughts now? This charge
-against Frank could not be true! “How long will it be,” she demanded,
-“before we can have the letter from Harley?”
-
-“At least another day, your father says.”
-
-“And there is nothing else we can do?” She tried to think. “We might
-telephone to Harley.”
-
-“Your Aunt Nannie suggested that, but your father would not have such a
-matter talked about over the ’phone.”
-
-Sylvia racked her brains, but there was no other plan she could suggest.
-She saw that she had at least one day of torment and suspense before
-her. “Very well, Mamma,” she said. “Let me go to my room now. I’ll try
-to be calm. But don’t let anybody come, please—I want to be alone.”
-
-She could hardly endure to go out into the hall, because of her shame,
-and the fear of meeting some member of the family. But there was no need
-of that—they all knew what was happening, and went about on tiptoe, as
-in a house of mourning. Everyone kept out of her way, and she went up to
-her room and shut herself in and locked the door. There passed
-twenty-four hours of agony, during which she by turns paced the floor,
-or lay upon the bed and wept, or sat in a chair, staring into space with
-unseeing eyes. They brought her food, but she would not touch it; they
-tempted her with wine, with coffee, but for nothing would she open the
-door. “Bring me Harley’s letter when it comes,” was all she would say.
-
-
- § 3
-
-On the morning of the next day her mother came to her. “Has the letter
-come?” asked Sylvia.
-
-The mother hesitated, and so Sylvia knew that it had come. “Give it to
-me!” she cried.
-
-“It was addressed to your father, Sylvia——”
-
-“Where is Papa?”
-
-She started to the door. But “Miss Margaret” stood in her way. “Your
-father, my child, has asked your Uncle Basil to come over.” And then, as
-Sylvia persisted, “Sylvia, you can’t talk of such things to your father.
-He thinks it is a matter which your Uncle Basil ought to attend to.
-Please spare your father, Sylvia—he has been ill, and this has been such
-a dreadful blow to him!”
-
-“But for God’s sake, Mamma, what is in the letter?”
-
-“It justifies our worst fears, my child. But you must be patient—it is
-not a thing that a young girl can deal with. Where is your modesty,
-Sylvia? Your father will lose respect for you if you do not calm
-yourself. You ought to be hating the man who has so disgraced you—who
-cares no more for you—”
-
-“Hush!” cried Sylvia. “You must not say it! You don’t know that it is
-true!”
-
-“But it is true! You will see that it is true. And you ought to be
-ashamed of yourself, to cling to a man who has been willing to—to—oh,
-what a shameful thing it is! Sylvia, get yourself together, I implore
-you—do not let your father and your uncle see you in such a state about
-a man—an unworthy man!”
-
-So there was another hour of distracted waiting, until the Bishop came
-up, his gentle face a picture of grief. “Miss Margaret” fled, and Sylvia
-shut and locked the door, and turned upon her uncle. “Now, Uncle Basil,
-let me see the letter.”
-
-He put it into her hands without a word. There was also a
-newspaper-clipping, and she glanced first at that, and went sick with
-horror. There was Frank’s picture, and that of another man, with the
-label: “Harvard student who may die as a result of injuries received in
-a brawl.” Sylvia’s eyes sped over the reading matter which went with the
-pictures; it was from one of the sensational papers, the kind which
-revel in personal details, and so she had the whole story. Frank had got
-into a fight with a man in a “resort,” and had knocked him down; in
-falling, the man had struck his head against a piece of furniture, and
-the doctors had not yet determined whether his skull was fractured. In
-the meantime, Frank was held in three thousand dollars bail. The account
-went on to say that the arrested man had been prominently mentioned as
-candidate for class-president, on behalf of the “Yard” against the “Gold
-Coast;” also that he was the son of Robert Shirley, who had died in
-State’s prison under sentence for embezzlement.
-
-It seemed hardly necessary to read any more; but Sylvia turned to
-Harley’s letter, which gave various additional details, and some
-comments. There was one point in particular which etched itself upon her
-mind: “There need be no doubt as to the character of the place. It is
-one of the two or three high-class houses of prostitution in Boston
-which are especially patronized by college men. This is not mentioned in
-the newspaper accounts, of course, but I know a man who was present and
-saw the row, so there can be no question as to that part of the matter.”
-
-Sylvia let the letter fall, and sinking down upon the bed, buried her
-face in her arms. The Bishop could see her form racked and shuddering.
-He came and sat by her, and put his hand upon her shoulder, waiting in
-silence. “My poor child!” he began in a whisper, at last. “My poor, poor
-child!”
-
-He dared not let her suffer too long without trying to help her. “My
-dear,” he pleaded, “let me talk to you. Make an effort, hear me. Sylvia,
-you have to bear it. My heart bleeds for you, but there’s no help—it has
-to be borne. Won’t you listen to the advice of an old man, who’s had to
-endure terrible grief, and shame—agony almost as great as yours?”
-
-“Well?” she demanded, suddenly. Her voice sounded strange and hard to
-him.
-
-“Sylvia, dear, I tried to prove God’s words to you by logic, and I could
-not. God was never proved by logic, my child—men don’t believe in Him
-for that reason. They believe because at some awful moment they could
-not face life alone—because suffering and grief had broken their hearts,
-and they were forced to pray. Sylvia, there is only one way of help for
-you—and that is through prayer.”
-
-He waited to know what effect his words were having. Suddenly he heard
-the strange, hard voice again. “Uncle Basil.”
-
-“Well, my child.”
-
-“I want you to tell me one thing. I have to understand this, but I
-can’t—I can’t ask anybody.”
-
-“What is it, Sylvia?”
-
-“I want to know—do men do such things?”
-
-The Bishop answered, in a low tone, “Yes, my child, I am sorry to
-say—many of them do.”
-
-“Oh, I hate them!” she cried, with sudden fierceness. “I hate them! I
-hate life! It’s a shameful, hideous world, and I wish that I could die!”
-
-“Ah, don’t say that, my child!” he pleaded. “I beg you not to take it
-that way. If we let affliction harden us, instead of chastening and
-humbling us, then we miss all the purpose for which it is sent. Who
-knows, Sylvia—perhaps this is a punishment which God in His wisdom has
-adjudged you?”
-
-“Punishment, Uncle Basil? What have _I_ done?”
-
-“You have denied His word, my child. You have presumed to set your own
-feeble mind against His will and doctrine. And now——”
-
-“Oh, Uncle Basil, stop!” she exclaimed. “Your words have no meaning to
-me whatever!” She buried her face in the pillow, and terrible sobbing
-shook her, burst after burst of it, as a tempest shakes a tree. “Oh, I
-loved him so! I loved him so!”
-
-The old man had tried speaking as a Bishop; now he thought that the time
-had come for him to speak as a Castleman. His voice became suddenly
-stern. “Sylvia,” he said, “the man was not worthy of your affection, and
-you must manage to put him from your thoughts. You are the child of a
-proud race, Sylvia—the daughter of pure women! You must bear this
-trouble with character, and with the consciousness of your purity.”
-
-“Uncle Basil,” she answered, “please go. I can’t bear to talk to anyone
-now. I must be alone for a while.”
-
-He rose and stood hesitating. “There’s no way I can help you?” he asked.
-
-“Nobody can help me,” she answered. “Thank you, Uncle Basil, but please
-go.”
-
-
- § 4
-
-And so began the second stage of Sylvia’s ordeal. For days she roamed
-the house like a guilt-haunted ghost. She could hardly be got to speak
-to any one—she avoided even people’s eyes, so great was her shame. She
-would not eat, and she could not sleep—at least, not until she had
-managed to bring herself to the point of utter exhaustion. Knowing this,
-she would pace the room until she sank upon the bed almost fainting. In
-their terror they sent for the doctors, but these could do nothing for
-her. The Major came several times a day, and made timid efforts to talk
-to her about her roses and the new plants he had got for her. But she
-could think about nothing but Frank, and sent him away. Once after
-midnight he crept to her room and found that she was gone, and
-discovered her in the rose-garden, pacing back and forth distractedly,
-bare-footed and clad only in her nightgown. He led her in, and found
-that her feet were cut and full of gravel and thorns; but she did not
-mind this, she said—the pain was good, it was the only way to distract
-her mind.
-
-What made the thing so cruel to her was that element of obscenity in it,
-which was like an extinguisher clapped down upon her mind, making it
-impossible for her to talk of it, even to think of it. Sylvia had never
-discussed such things, and now she hated Frank for having forced them
-upon her. She felt herself degraded—made vile to the whole world, and to
-her own soul. She knew that everybody she met was thinking one dreadful
-thing; she felt that she could never face the world again, could never
-lift up her head again. She had given her heart to a man to keep, and he
-had taken it to a “high-class house of prostitution!”
-
-On the third day the Major came to her room and knocked. He had a
-painful duty to perform, he explained. (He did not add that there had
-been a family council for nearly an hour past, and that he had been
-assigned to execute the collective decision.) There had come a letter—a
-letter addressed to Sylvia from Frank Shirley.
-
-The girl sprang to her feet. “Give it to me!”
-
-“My daughter!” exclaimed the Major, with a shocked face.
-
-She waited, looking at him with wondering eyes. “What do you mean,
-Papa?”
-
-He took the missive from his pocket, and held it in his hand as he
-spoke. “Do you think,” he asked, “that it would be consistent with my
-daughter’s dignity to read such a letter? My child, this man has dragged
-your name in the mire; do you think that you ought to continue in any
-sort of relationship with him? Is he to be able to boast that he had you
-so under his thumb, that even after such an outrage as he had inflicted
-upon you——”
-
-The Major stopped, words failing him. “Papa,” pleaded Sylvia, “might
-there not be some explanation?”
-
-“Explanation!” cried the other. “What explanation—that my daughter could
-read?” His voice fell low. “That is the point—I do not wish my
-daughter’s mind to be soiled with explanations of this subject. Sylvia,
-you cannot know about it!”
-
-There was a silence. “What do you want me to do, Papa?”
-
-“There is but one thing a proud woman can do, Sylvia. Send back this
-letter, with a note saying that you cannot receive communications from
-Mr. Shirley.”
-
-There was a long silence. Sylvia sank down upon the bed, and he heard
-her sobbing softly to herself. “Sylvia!” he exclaimed, “this man had
-your affection—he kissed your pure young lips!” He saw her wince, and
-followed up his advantage—“He kissed you when you were in Boston, did he
-not?”
-
-She could hardly bring herself to answer. “Yes, Papa.”
-
-“And do you realize that two or three days later he had gone to
-this—this place?” He paused, while the words sank into her soul. “My
-daughter,” he cried, “where is your pride?”
-
-There was something commanding in his voice. She looked up at him; his
-face was white, his eyes blazing. “Sylvia,” he exclaimed, “you are a
-Castleman! You have wept enough! Rise up, my daughter!”
-
-She rose, like one under a spell. Yes, it was something to be a
-Castleman. It meant to be capable of bearing any torture for the sake of
-pride, of facing any danger for the sake of honor. How many tales she
-had heard of that Castleman honor! Had not the man who stood before her,
-the captain of a regiment when only a half-grown youth, marched and
-fought with a broken shoulder-blade, and slept in mud and rain without
-shelter or even a blanket, living for weeks upon an allowance of six
-grains of corn a day?
-
-She drew herself up, and her face became cold and set. “Very well,
-Papa,” she said, “he deserves my scorn.”
-
-“Then write as I say.” And he stood by her desk and dictated:
-
-“Mr. Shirley: I have received the enclosed letter, but do not care to
-read it. All relationship between us is at an end. Sylvia Castleman.”
-
-And to such a height of resolution had she been lifted by her Castleman
-pride, that she addressed an envelope, and took Frank’s letter, and
-folded it and put it inside, and sealed and stamped the envelope, and
-gave it to her father. Nor did she give a sign of pain or grief until
-after she had dismissed him, and closed and locked the door.
-
-
- § 5
-
-In the days that followed, Sylvia’s longing for her sweetheart overcame
-her pride many times; she paced her room, tearing at the neck of her
-gown like one suffocating, flinging out her arms in abandonment of
-grief, crying under her breath (for she must not let others know that
-she was suffering), “Oh, Frank, Frank! How _could_ you?” Anger would
-come; she hated him—she hated all men! But again the memory of his slow
-smile, his straight-forward gaze, his voice of sincerity. She would find
-herself whispering, incoherently, “My love! My love!”
-
-For the sake of her family, she labored to repress her feelings. But she
-would have nightmares, and would toss and moan in her sleep, sometimes
-screaming aloud. Once she awakened, bathed in tears, and hearing faint
-sobbing, put out her hand, and found her mother, crouching in the
-darkness, watching, weeping.
-
-They besought her to let her mind be diverted by others. For many days
-there was a regular watch kept, with family consultations daily, and
-some one always deputed to be with her—or at least to be near her door.
-Little by little, as she yielded to their persuasions, Sylvia got the
-views of the various members of her family upon what had occurred.
-
-Aunt Varina put her arms about her and wept with her. “Oh, it is
-horrible, Sylvia,” she said—“but think how much better that you should
-find it out before it’s too late! Oh, dear girl, it is so awful to find
-it out when it’s too late.” Thus the voice of Aunt Varina’s wasted life!
-
-Aunt Nannie came later, as tactful as could have been expected. She did
-not say, “I told you so,” but she managed to leave with Sylvia the idea
-that the outcome was within the limits of human understanding. It was a
-matter of “bad blood;” and “bad blood” was like murder—it would always
-out. Also Aunt Nannie ventured to hint that it might be that Sylvia had
-allowed Frank Shirley to “take liberties” with her; and this, of course,
-made its impression upon the girl, who persuaded herself that she must
-be partly to blame for her own disgrace.
-
-She became bitter against men; she did not see how she could ever
-tolerate the presence of one. Her mother, discussing the subject,
-remarked, “The reason I married your father was that he was the one good
-man I knew.”
-
-“How did you know that he was good?” demanded the girl.
-
-“Sylvia!” exclaimed her mother, in horror.
-
-“But how? Because he told you so?”
-
-“Miss Margaret” answered hesitatingly, choosing her words for a
-difficult subject. “I had heard things. Your Aunt Lady told me—how the
-young men in your father’s set had tried to get him to—to live the
-wicked life they lived. They made fun of him—called him ‘Miss Nancy’—.”
-She broke off suddenly. “I cannot talk about such things to my
-daughter!”
-
-Even from “Aunt Mandy,” the old “black mammy” who had been the first
-person to hold Sylvia in her arms, the girl now received counsel. “Aunt
-Mandy” served the coffee in the early morning, and stood in the bedrooms
-and grinned while the ladies of the family gossiped; she often took part
-in the conversation, having gathered stores of family wisdom in her
-sixty-odd years. “Honey, I’se had my cross to bear,” she said to Sylvia,
-and went on to discuss the depravity of the male animal. “I’se had to
-beat my old man wid a flatiron, when I ketched him lookin’ roun’ too
-much—an’ even dat didn’t help much, honey. Now I got dem boys o’ mine,
-what’s allus up in cou’t, makin’ de Major come to pay jail-fines. But
-how kin I be cross wid ’em, when I knows it’s my own fault?”
-
-“Your fault, Mammy?” said Sylvia. “Why, you are as good a mother——”
-
-“I know, honey, I’se tried to be good; I’se prayed to de Lord—yes, I’se
-took dem boys to de foot o’ de cross. But de Lord done tole me it’s my
-fault. ‘Mandy,’ he says, ‘Mandy—look at de daddy you give dem niggers!’
-Oh, honey, take dis from yo’ ole mammy, ef you’se gwine ter bring any
-chillun into de worl’—be careful what kind of a daddy you gives ’em!”
-
-The family had gathered in a solid phalanx about Sylvia. Uncle Barry,
-whose plantation was a hundred miles away, and who was a most
-hard-working and domestic giant, left his overseers and his family and
-came to beg her to let him give her a hunting party. Uncle Mandeville
-came from New Orleans to urge her to go to a house party he would give
-her. Uncle Mandeville it was who had assured Sylvia as a little girl
-that he would protect her honor with his life; and now he caused it to
-be known throughout Castleman County that if ever Frank Shirley returned
-and attempted to see his niece, he, Frank Shirley, would be “shot like a
-dog.” And this was not merely because Uncle Mandeville was drunk, but
-was something that he soberly meant, and that everybody who heard him
-understood and approved.
-
-Just how tight was the cordon around her, Sylvia learned when Harriet
-Atkinson arrived, fresh from a honeymoon-voyage to the Mediterranean and
-the Nile.
-
-“Why, Sunny, what’s this?” she demanded. “Why wouldn’t you see me?”
-
-“See you?” echoed Sylvia. “What do you mean. I haven’t refused to see
-you.” It transpired that Harriet had been writing and ’phoning and
-calling for a week, being put off in a fashion which would have
-discouraged anyone but the daughter of a self-made Yankee. “I suppose,”
-she said, “they thought maybe I’d come from Frank Shirley.”
-
-Sylvia’s face clouded, but Harriet went on—“My dear, you look like a
-perfect ghost! Really, this is horrible!” So she set to work to console
-her friend and drag her out of her depression. “You take it too
-seriously, Sunny. Beauregard says you make a lot more fuss about the
-thing than it deserves. If you knew men better——”
-
-“Oh don’t, Harriet!” cried the other. “I can’t listen to such things!”
-
-“I know,” said Harriet, “there you are—the thing I’ve always scolded you
-for! You’ll never be happy, Sunny, while you persist in demanding more
-than life will give. You say what you want men to be—and paying no
-attention at all to what they really are.”
-
-“Are you happy?” asked Sylvia, trying to change the subject.
-
-“About as I expected to be,” said the other. “I knew what I was
-marrying. The only trouble is that I haven’t been very well. I suppose
-it’s too much rambling about. I’ll be glad to settle down in my home.”
-She was going to Charleston to live in the old Dabney Mansion, she
-explained; at present she was paying a flying visit to her people.
-
-“Well, Sunny,” she remarked, “you are going to give him up?”
-
-“How can I do otherwise, Harriet?”
-
-“I suppose you couldn’t—with that adamantine pride of yours. And of
-course it _was_ awkward that he had to get into the papers. But Beau
-says these things blow over sooner than one would expect. Nobody thinks
-it’s half as bad as they all pretend to think it.” (Harriet, you must
-understand, felt rather sorry for Frank, and thought that she was
-pleading his cause. She did not understand that her few words would do
-more to damn him than all that the family had been able to say.)
-
-But she perceived that Sylvia did not want to talk about the subject.
-“Well, Sunny,” she said, after a pause, “I see you’ve got a substitute
-ready.”
-
-“How do you mean?” asked Sylvia, dully.
-
-“I mean your Dutch friend.”
-
-“My Dutch friend? Oh—you are talking about Mr. van Tuiver?”
-
-“You are most penetrating, Sylvia!”
-
-“You’ve heard about him?” said the other, without heeding her friend’s
-humor.
-
-“Heard about him! For heaven’s sake, what else can one hear about in
-Castleman County just now?”
-
-Sylvia said nothing for a while. “I suppose,” she remarked, at last,
-“it’s because I came in a special train.”
-
-“My dear,” said the other, “it’s because _he_ came in a special train.”
-
-“_He_ came?” repeated Sylvia, puzzled.
-
-And her friend stared at her. “Good Lord,” she said, “I believe you
-really don’t know that Mr. van Tuiver’s in town!”
-
-Sylvia started as if she had been struck. “Mr. van Tuiver _in town_!”
-she gasped.
-
-“Why, surely, honey—he’s been here three or four days. How they must be
-taking care of you!”
-
-Sylvia sprang to her feet. “How perfectly outrageous!” she cried.
-
-“What, Sunny? That you haven’t seen him?”
-
-“Harriet, stop joking with me!”
-
-“But I’m not joking with you,” said Harriet, bewildered. “What in the
-world is the matter?”
-
-Sylvia’s face was pale with anger. “I won’t see him! I won’t see him! He
-has no right to come here!”
-
-“But Sunny—what’s the matter? What’s the man done?”
-
-“He wants to marry me, Harriet, and he’s come here—oh, how shameful! how
-insulting! At such a time as this!”
-
-“But I should think this was just the time for him to come!” said
-Harriet, laughing in spite of herself. “Surely, Sylvia, if you haven’t
-gone formally into mourning——”
-
-“I won’t see him!” cried the other, passionately. “He must be made to
-understand it at once—he’ll gain nothing by coming here!”
-
-“But, Sunny,” suggested her friend, “hadn’t you better wait until he
-_tries_ to see you?”
-
-“Where is he, Harriet?”
-
-“He’s staying with Mrs. Chilton.”
-
-“With Aunt Nannie!” Sylvia stood, staring at Harriet with sudden fear in
-her face. She saw now why van Tuiver had made no attempt to see her, why
-nothing had been said to her as yet! She clenched her hands tightly and
-exclaimed, “I won’t marry him! They sha’n’t sell me to him—they sha’n’t,
-they sha’n’t!”
-
-Her friend was gazing at her in wonder, not unmixed with alarm. “Good
-God, Sunny,” she exclaimed, “can he be so bad that you’d refuse to marry
-him?”
-
-
- § 6
-
-All this while, you must understand, there was Sylvia’s “world” outside,
-looking on at the drama—pitying, wondering, gossiping, speculating.
-Frank arrested, Frank out on bail! Frank let off with a fine, because
-the man did not die! Frank leaving college and coming back to his
-plantation! Would he try to see Sylvia, and what would Sylvia do about
-it? Would Mandeville Castleman carry out his threat to shoot him? How
-was Sylvia taking it, anyway? Would she be seen at the next club-dance?
-And then—interest piled upon interest—Douglas van Tuiver had come! Was
-it true that the Yankee Crœsus wanted to marry Sylvia? Was it true that
-he had already asked her? Could it be that she had actually refused to
-see him? And what would the family do about that?—All this, you
-understand, most decorously, most discreetly—and yet with such thrills,
-such sensations!
-
-When the audience is stirred, the actors know it; and people so
-sensitive and proud as the Castlemans could not fail to be aware that
-the world’s attention was focussed upon them. So Sylvia was not left for
-long to indulge her grief. As soon as her relatives had made sure of her
-breach with Frank, they turned their energies to persuading her to
-present a smiling front to “society.” “You must not let people see that
-you are eating your heart out over a man!”—such was their cry. There
-were few things worse that could happen to a woman than to have it known
-that she was grieving about a man. Just as a savage laughs at his
-enemies while they are torturing him, so must a woman wear a smile upon
-her face while her heart was breaking.
-
-From the first moment, of course, her old suitors rallied to protect
-her—a kind of outer phalanx, auxiliary to the family. They wrote to her,
-they sent flowers, they called and lingered in the hope that she might
-see them. When the time for the club-dance came, the siege of the
-suitors became a general assault. A dozen times a day came her mother or
-Aunt Varina to plead with her, to scold her. “I don’t want to dance—I
-couldn’t dance!” she wailed; but it would be, “Here’s Charlie Peyton on
-the ’phone—he begs you to speak to him just a moment. Go, Sylvia,
-please—_don’t_ let people think you are so weak!”
-
-At last she told one man that he might call. Malcolm McCallum it was—the
-same who had crawled upon his knees to prove his devotion to her. She
-had long ago convinced him that his suit was hopeless, so now he was
-able to plead with her without offense. Her friends wanted so to help
-her—would she not give them a chance? They were indignant because of the
-way a scoundrel had treated her; they wanted somehow to show her their
-loyalty, their devotion. If only she would come—such a tribute as she
-would receive! And surely she was not going to give up her whole life,
-because of one such fellow! She had so many true friends—would she
-punish them all for the act of one? No, they would not have it! No, not
-if they had to raid the house and carry her away! The belle of Castleman
-Hall should not wither up and be an old maid!
-
-Sylvia promised to think it over; and then came Aunt Nannie, to protest
-in the name of all her cousins against her inflicting further notoriety
-upon the family. For Sylvia to be exhibiting such unseemly grief over
-Frank Shirley was almost as bad as to be engaged to him. She must
-positively take up her normal life again; she must go to this dance!
-
-Sylvia, perceiving that it would be necessary to have the matter out
-sooner or later, inquired, “Is Mr. van Tuiver to be there?”
-
-She was surprised at the answer, “He is not.”
-
-“Where is he?” she asked; and learned that the visitor had gone with two
-of the boys on a fishing-trip. Sylvia and her aunt exchanged looks—as
-two swordsmen might, while their weapons are being measured and the
-ground laid out for their duel. The girl could imagine what had
-happened, almost as well as if she had been present. Van Tuiver, with
-his usual crude egotism, had come post-haste to Castleman Hall; it was
-Aunt Nannie who had persuaded him to wait, and let her handle the affair
-with tact. Sylvia must first be drawn out into social life, and then it
-would be less easy for her to avoid van Tuiver. But although Sylvia felt
-sure of this, she could not say so. When she hinted the charge, her aunt
-had a shrewd retort ready: “I have daughters of my own—and may I not
-have plans of my own for so eligible a young man as Douglas van Tuiver?”
-
-
- § 7
-
-Sylvia said that she would go to the dance; and great was the
-excitement, both at home and abroad. All day long, between fits of
-weeping, she labored to steel herself to the ordeal. When night came,
-she let herself be arrayed in rosy chiffon, and then went all to pieces,
-and fell upon the bed in a paroxysm, declaring that she could not, could
-not go. One by one came “Miss Margaret,” Aunt Varina, and Celeste,
-scolding her, beseeching her—but all in vain; until at last they sent
-for the Major, who, wiser than all of them, arrayed himself in his own
-evening finery, and put a white rosebud in his button-hole, and then
-went with cheerful face and breaking heart to Sylvia’s room.
-
-“Come, little girl,” he said. “Daddy’s all ready.”
-
-Sylvia sat up and stared at him through her tears. “You!” she exclaimed.
-
-“Why, of course, honey,” he smiled. “Didn’t you know your old Papa was
-going with you?”
-
-Sylvia had not known it, nor had anybody else known it up to a few
-minutes before. Her surprise (for the Major almost never went to dances)
-was sufficiently great to check her tears; and then came “Miss Margaret”
-with a glassful of steaming “hot toddy.” “My child,” she said, “drink
-this. You’ve had no nourishment—that’s why you go to pieces.”
-
-So they washed her face again, and powdered it up; they straightened her
-hair and smoothed out the wrinkles in her dress, and got her bows and
-ribbons in order, and took her down stairs to where Aunt Nannie was
-waiting, grim and resolute—a double force of chaperones for this
-emergency!
-
-You can imagine, perhaps, the excitement when they reached the
-club-house; how the whisper went round, and the swains crowded in the
-doorway to wait for her. The younger ones cheered when she entered—“Hi,
-yi! Whoop la! Miss Sylvia.” They came jumping and capering across the
-ball-room floor—one of them tearing a great palmetto-leaf from the
-decorations on the wall, and performing a wonderful, sprawling salaam
-before her. “I’m the King of the Cannibal Islands!” he proclaimed. “Will
-you be my Queen, Miss Sylvia?” Several others locked arms and executed a
-cake-walk, by way of manifesting their delight. The dance of the
-country-club was turned into a reception in her honor. They worshipped
-her for having come—it took nerve, by George, and nerve was the thing
-they admired. And then how lovely she was—how perfectly, unutterably
-lovely! Just a little more suffering like this, and she would be ready
-to be carried up in a chariot of fire and set among the seraphim!
-
-Of course, in the face of such a welcome, it was unthinkable that she
-should not carry the thing through triumphantly. In the refreshment-room
-were egg-nog and champagne-punch, and she drank enough to keep her in a
-glow, to carry her along upon wings of excitement. One by one her old
-sweethearts came to claim a dance with her, and one by one they caused
-her to understand that hope was springing eternal in their breasts. She
-found herself so busy keeping them in order that life seemed quite as it
-had always been in Castleman County.
-
-Save for one important circumstance. There had come a new element into
-its atmosphere—something marvellously stimulating, transcending and
-overshadowing all that had been before. Sylvia found out about it little
-by little; the first hint coming from old Mrs. Tagliaferro—the General’s
-wife, you may remember. She had come to Sylvia’s _début_ party, hobbling
-with a gold-headed cane; but now, the General having died, she had
-thrown away her cane, and chaperoned her great-grandchildren at dances,
-because otherwise people would think she was getting old. She shook a
-sprightly finger at the belle of the evening, and demanded, “What’s this
-I hear, my child, about your latest conquest? I always knew you’d be
-satisfied with nothing less than a duke!” Sylvia’s face clouded, and the
-other went on her way with a knowing cackle. “Oh, you can’t fool me with
-your haughty looks!”
-
-And then came Mabel Taylor, a girl who had been a hopeless wallflower in
-her early days, and had been saved because Sylvia took pity upon her,
-and compelled men to ask her to dance. Now she was Sylvia’s jealous
-rival; and greeting her in the dressing-room she whispered, “Sylvia, is
-he really in love with you?”
-
-“When Sylvia asked, “Who?” the other replied, “Oh, it’s a secret, is
-it!”
-
-The girl perceived that she must take some line at once. “Are you really
-going to marry him?” asked Charlie Peyton, with despair in his voice.
-“We can’t stand that sort of competition!” protested Harvey Richards.
-“We shall have to have a protective tariff, Miss Sylvia!” (Harvey, as
-you may recall, was a steel manufacturer.)
-
-The thing had got upon Sylvia’s nerves. “Are you so completely awed by
-that man?” she demanded, in a voice of intense irritation.
-
-“Awed by him?” echoed Harvey.
-
-“Why don’t you at least mention his name? You are the fourth person
-who’s talked to me about him to-night and hasn’t dared to utter his
-name. I believe it’s not customary for Kings to use their family names,
-but they have Christian names, at least.”
-
-“Why, Miss Sylvia!” exclaimed the other.
-
-“Let us give him a title,” she pursued, savagely. “King Douglas the
-First, let us say!” And imagine the seven pairs of swift wings which
-that saying took unto itself! She called him a King! King Douglas the
-First! She referred to him as Royalty—she made fun of him as openly and
-recklessly as that! “What sublimity!” exclaimed her admirers. “What a
-pose!” retorted her rivals.
-
-But even so, they could not but envy her the pose, and the consistency
-with which she adhered to it. She could not be brought to discuss the
-King—whether he was in love with her, whether he had asked her to marry
-him, whether he had come South on her account; nor did she show any
-particular signs of being impressed by him—as if she really did not
-consider him imposing, or especially elegant, or in any way unusual. Oh,
-but they were a haughty lot, those Castlemans—and Sylvia was the
-haughtiest of them all! The country-club began to revise its estimates
-of Knickerbocker culture, and to remember that, after all, the only real
-blood in America was in the South.
-
-
- § 8
-
-The next afternoon came Harriet Atkinson, to bid Sylvia farewell, and
-incidentally to congratulate her upon her triumph. After they had
-chatted for a while, she put her hand upon her friend’s, and remarked in
-a serious tone, “Sunny, I’ve had a letter from Frank Shirley.”
-
-She felt the hand quiver in hers, and she pressed it more firmly. “He
-wanted to explain things to me,” she said.
-
-“What did he say?” asked Sylvia, in a faint voice.
-
-But Harriet did not answer. “I wrote to him,” she continued, “that I
-declined to have anything to do with the matter.” Seeing her friend’s
-lip beginning to tremble, she added, “Sunny, I did it for your own
-good—believe me. I don’t want you to open up things with that man
-again.”
-
-“Why not, Harriet?”
-
-“After what’s happened, you ought to know that your people would never
-stand for it—there’d surely be some kind of a shooting-scrape. And even
-supposing that you got away with him—what sort of an existence would you
-have? Frank Shirley is no money-maker, and somehow I don’t seem to feel
-that you were cut out for cottage-life.”
-
-She stopped and fixed her gaze upon her friend. “Sunny,” she said, “I
-want you to marry the other man.” Then, as Sylvia started—“Don’t ask me
-what other man. I’m no Mabel Taylor.”
-
-Sylvia perceived that her words were being cherished these days.
-“Harriet,” she exclaimed in an agitated voice, “I can’t endure Douglas
-van Tuiver.”
-
-“Now, Sunny, I want you to listen to me. This may be the last chance
-I’ll have to talk to you—I’m going off to-morrow, to settle down to
-domestic virtue. I want to give it to you straight—to take the place of
-your Aunt Lady in this crisis. You fall in love at first sight, and it
-brings you wonderful thrills, and you marry on the strength of it—and
-then in a year or two the thrills are gone, and where are you? Take my
-advice, Sunny, there’s a whole lot more in life than this young-love
-business. Try to look ahead a little and realize the truth about
-yourself. If ever there was a creature born to be a sky-lark, it’s you;
-and here’s a man who could take you out and give you a chance to spread
-your wings. For God’s sake, Sunny, don’t throw the chance away, and
-settle down to be a barnyard fowl here in Castleman County.”
-
-“Harriet!” cried Sylvia, frantically, “I tell you I can’t endure the
-man!”
-
-“I know, Sunny—but that’s just nonsense. You’re in love with one man,
-and of course it sets you wild to think of another. But women can get
-used to things; and one doesn’t have to be too intimate with one’s
-husband. The man is dead in love with you, and so you’d always be able
-to manage him. I told you that about Beau—and I can assure you I’ve
-found it a convenient arrangement. From what I can make out, Mr. van
-Tuiver isn’t a bad sort at all—he seems to have charmed everybody down
-here. He’s not bad-looking, and he certainly has wonderful manners. He
-can go anywhere in the world, and if he had you to manage him and do
-things with him—really, Sunny, I can’t see what more you could want!
-Certainly it’s what your family wants—and after all, you’ll find it’s
-nice to be able to please your people when you marry. I know how you
-despise money, and all that—but, Sylvia, there aren’t many fortunes made
-out of cotton planting these days, and if you could hear poor Beau tell
-about what his folks have been through, you’d understand that family
-pride without cash is like mustard without meat!”
-
-So Harriet went on. She was a sprightly young lady, and generally able
-to hold her audience; but after several minutes of this exhortation, she
-stopped and asked, “Sunny, what are you thinking about?”
-
-And Sylvia, her face grown suddenly old with grief, caught her by the
-hand. “Oh, Harriet,” she whispered, “tell me the truth—do you think I
-ought to hear his explanation?”
-
-
- § 9
-
-There were more dances and entertainments; and each time, of course, it
-was harder for Sylvia to escape. She had been to one, and so people
-would expect her at the next. There was always somebody who would be
-hurt if she refused, and there was always that dreadful phenomenon
-called “people”—it would say that the task had been too much for her,
-that she was still under the spell of the man who had flaunted her. So
-evening after evening Sylvia would choke back her tears, and drink more
-coffee, and go forth and pretend to be happy.
-
-It was at the third of these entertainments that she met Douglas van
-Tuiver. No one had told her of his return—she had no warning until she
-saw him enter the room. She had to get herself together and choose her
-course of action, with the eyes of the whole company upon her. For this
-was the meeting about which Castleman County had been gossiping and
-speculating for weeks—the rising of the curtain upon the second act of
-the thrilling drama!
-
-He was his usual precise and formal self; unimpeachably correct, and yet
-set apart by a something—a reserve, a dignity. This extended even to his
-costume, which tolerated no casual wrinkle, no presumptuous speck. There
-was always just a slight difference between van Tuiver’s attire and that
-of other men—and somehow you knew that this was the difference between
-the best and the average.
-
-It seemed strange to Sylvia to see him here, in her old environment;
-strange to compare him with her own people. She realized that she would
-have to treat him differently now, for he was a stranger, a guest. She
-discovered also a difference in him. He may have been touched by the
-change he saw in her; at any rate he was very gentle, and very cautious.
-He asked for a dance, and promised that he would not ask for more. To
-her great surprise he kept the promise.
-
-“Miss Sylvia,” he said, when they strolled out after the dance, “may I
-call you Miss Sylvia, as they all seem to here? I want to explain
-something, if you will let me. I’m afraid that my being here will seem
-to you an impertinence. I hope you will accept my apology. When I got
-back to Cambridge I learned from your cousin what—what the news would
-mean to you; and I came because I thought perhaps I might help. It was
-absurd, I suppose—but I didn’t know. Then, when I got here, I did not
-dare to ask to see you. I don’t know now if you will send me away——”
-
-He stopped. “I am sure, Mr. van Tuiver,” she said, quietly, “you have a
-perfect right to stay here if you wish.”
-
-“No right, Miss Sylvia, but the right you give me!” he exclaimed. “I
-won’t take refuge in quibbles. I thought that if I promised not to
-bother you, and really kept the promise—if I never asked to see you
-unless you desired it——”
-
-It was not easy to send him away upon those terms. She did not see what
-good it would do him to stay, but she refrained from asking the
-question. He paused—perhaps to make sure that she would not ask. “Miss
-Sylvia,” he continued, finally, “I am afraid you will laugh at me—but I
-want to be near you, I don’t want to be anywhere else. I want to see the
-world you belong in; I want to know your relatives and your friends—your
-home, the places you go to—everything. I want to hear people talk about
-you. And at the same time I’m uncomfortable, because I know you dislike
-me, and I’m afraid I’ll anger you, just by being here. But if you send
-me away—you see, I don’t know where to go——”
-
-He stopped, and there was a long silence. “You are missing your
-examinations,” she said, at last.
-
-“I don’t care anything about Harvard,” he replied. “I’ve lost all
-interest—I shall never go back.”
-
-“But how about the reforms you were going to work for? Have you lost
-interest in them?”
-
-He hesitated. “They’ve all—don’t you see?” He stopped, embarrassed. “The
-movement’s gone to pieces.”
-
-“Oh!” said Sylvia, and felt a slow fire of shame mounting in her cheeks.
-It had not occurred to her to think of the plight of the would-be
-revolutionists of the “Yard” after their candidate had landed himself in
-jail.
-
-They turned to go in, and van Tuiver asked, timidly, “You won’t send me
-away, Miss Sylvia?”
-
-“I wish,” she answered, “that you would not put the burden of any such
-decision upon me.” And so the matter rested, van Tuiver apparently
-content with what he had gained. Sylvia’s next partner claimed her, and
-she did not see “King Douglas the First” again; a circumstance which,
-needless to say, was duly noted by Castleman County, to its great
-mystification. Could it be that rumor was mistaken—that he was not
-really after Sylvia at all? Could it be that her flouting of “Royalty”
-was a common case of “sour grapes”?
-
-
- § 10
-
-Sylvia would not be content to drift and suffer indefinitely. It was not
-her nature to give up and acknowledge failure, but to make the best of
-things. Her thoughts turned to those in her own home, and how she could
-help them.
-
-All through the tragedy she had been aware of her father, moving about
-the house like a ghost, silent, wrung with grief; her heart bled for the
-suffering she had caused him. Her chief thought was to make it up to
-him, to be cheerful and busy for his sake—to put him into the place in
-her heart which Frank Shirley had left empty. After all, he was the one
-man she could really trust—the one who was good and true and generous.
-
-She sought him out one night, while the light was burning in his office.
-She drew up a chair and sat close to him, so that she could look into
-his eyes. “Papa,” she said, “I’ve been thinking hard—and I want to tell
-you, I’m going to try to be good.”
-
-“You are always good, my child,” he declared.
-
-“I have been selfish and heedless. But now I’m going to think about
-other people—about you most of all. I want to do the things I used to be
-happy doing with you. Let us begin to-morrow and take care of our roses,
-and have beautiful flowers again. Won’t that be nice, Daddy?”
-
-There were tears in his eyes. “Yes, dear,” he said.
-
-“And then I must begin and read to you. I know you are using your eyes
-too much, and mine are young. And Papa—this is the principal thing—I
-want you to let me help you with the accounts, to learn to be of some
-use to you in business ways. No, you must not put me off, because I
-know—truly I know.”
-
-“What do you know, dear?” he asked, smiling.
-
-“I know you work too hard, and that you have things to worry you, and
-that you try to hide them from me. I know how many bills there are, and
-how everybody wastes money, and never thinks of you. I’ve done it
-myself, and now it’s Celeste’s turn—she must have everything, and be
-spared every care, and write checks whenever she pleases. Papa, if it’s
-true that this year’s crop is ruined, you’ll have to borrow money—”
-
-“My child!” he began, protestingly.
-
-“I know—you don’t want me to ask. But see, Papa—if I married, I’d have
-to know about my husband’s affairs, and help him, wouldn’t I? And now
-that I shall never marry—yes, I mean that, Papa. I want you not to try
-to marry me off any more, but to let me stay at home and be a help to
-you and Mamma.”
-
-The other was shrewd enough to humor her. They would get to work at the
-roses in the morning, and they would take up Alexander H. Stephens’
-Confederate History without delay; also Sylvia might take the bills as
-they came in each month, and find out who had ordered what, and prevent
-the tradesmen from charging for the same thing twice over. But of
-course, he did not tell her any of his real worries, nor let her see his
-bank-books and accounts; nor could he quite see his way to promise that
-Aunt Nannie should let her alone while she settled into old-maidenhood.
-
-Aunt Nannie came round the next morning, as it happened. Sylvia did not
-see her, being up to the wrists in black loam in the rose-garden; but
-she learned the purpose of the visit at lunchtime. “Sylvia,” said her
-mother, “do you think it’s decent for us to go much longer without
-inviting Mr. van Tuiver over here?”
-
-“Do you think he wants to come?” asked Sylvia, with a touch of her old
-mischief.
-
-“Your Aunt Nannie seems to think so,” was the reply—given quite naïvely.
-“I wrote to ask him to dinner. I hope you won’t mind.”
-
-Sylvia said that she would find some way to make the occasion tolerable.
-And she found a quite unique way. It was one of her times for
-bitterness, when she hated the world, and especially the male animals
-upon it, and herself for a fool for not having known about them. It
-chanced to be the same day of the week that she had prepared for Frank’s
-coming, and had introduced him to the family with so many tremblings and
-agonies of soul. So now, when she came to dress, she picked out the gown
-she had worn that evening, and had them bring her a bunch of the same
-kind of roses: which seemed to her a perfectly diabolical piece of
-cynicism—like to the celebrating of a “black mass”!
-
-She descended, radiant and lovely, in a mood of somewhat terrible
-gaiety. She laughed and all but sang at the dinner-table; she joked with
-van Tuiver, and flouted him outrageously—and in the next breath charmed
-and delighted him, to the bewilderment of the family, who knew nothing
-about her adventures with Royalty, and the various strange moods to
-which its presence drove her.
-
-In the course of that meal she told him a story—one of the wildest and
-most wonderful of her stories. So at least it seemed to me, who for
-years have been longing for a poet to take it up and make a ballad of
-it—a real American ballad! It is curious, but I can hear the very rhyme
-and rhythm of that ballad, which I cannot write. I wonder if I may not
-awaken in some grey dawn, and find it all complete, singing itself in my
-mind!
-
-The story of the burning of “Rose Briar,” it was. “Rose Briar” was the
-old home of one of the Peytons, which had stood for three generations on
-a high bluff on the river-bank a mile or so from Sylvia’s home. It had
-the largest and most beautiful ball-room in the county, and was a centre
-of continuous hospitality. One night had come a telephone-message to the
-effect that it was on fire, and the neighbors gathered from miles
-around; on a wild night, with a gale blowing and the whole roof and
-upper part of the house in flames, they saw that the place was doomed.
-
-And there was the splendid ball-room, in which they and their fathers
-and their grandfathers had celebrated so many festivities! “One last
-dance!” cried the young folks, and in they trooped. The servants were
-trying to get the piano out, but the master of the house himself stopped
-them—what was a piano in comparison to a romantic thrill? So one played,
-and the rest danced—danced while the fire roared deafeningly in the
-stories above them, and creeping veils of smoke gathered about their
-heads. They danced like mad creatures, laughing, singing in chorus.
-Eddying gusts of flame poured in at the windows, and still they sang—
-
- “When you hear dem bells go ting-a-ling-a-ling,
- All join hands and sweetly we will sing—
- There’ll be a hot time in the old town to-night!”
-
-And so on, until there came a crashing of rafters above them, and
-showers of cinders and burning wood through the windows. Then they fled,
-and gathered in a group upon the lawn, and watched the roof of their
-pleasure-house fall in, sending a burst of flame and sparks to the sky.
-
-And here, thought Sylvia, was the roof of her pleasure-house falling in!
-There was something terrifying in the symbol; the house of civilization
-was falling in, and people were dancing, dancing! “Don’t you feel that,
-Mr. van Tuiver?” she asked. “It seems to me sometimes that I can see the
-world going to destruction before my eyes, and people don’t know about
-it, they don’t care about it. They are dancing, drunk with dancing! On
-with the dance!”
-
-She laughed, a trifle hysterically, for her nerves were near the
-breaking point. Then she happened to look towards her sister Celeste,
-and caught a strange look in her eyes. She took in the meaning of it in
-an instant—Celeste was conscious of the presence of Royalty, and shocked
-by this display of levity upon a solemn occasion! “Sister, how _dare_
-you?” the look seemed to say; and the message gave a new fillip to the
-mad steeds of Sylvia’s fancy. “Never mind, Chicken!” she laughed.
-(“Chicken” was a childhood nickname, which, needless to say, was
-infuriating to a young lady soon to make her _début_.) “Never mind,
-Chicken! The roof will last till you’ve had your dance!”
-
-And then, the meal at an end, Sylvia took her guest into the library.
-She put him in the same chair that Frank had occupied, and turned on the
-same lights upon her loveliness; she took her seat, and looked at him
-once, and smiled alluringly—and then suddenly looked away, and bit her
-lip until it bled, and sprang up and fled from the room, and rushed
-upstairs and flung herself upon her bed, sobbing, choking with her
-grief.
-
-
- § 11
-
-There were ups and downs like this. The next day, of course, Sylvia was
-ashamed of her behavior; she had promised to be happy, and not to
-distress her people—and this was the way she kept her promise. She began
-to make new resolutions, and to think of ways of atoning. She took her
-father out into the garden, and pretended deep interest in the new
-cinnamon-roses. She spent a couple of hours going over his old
-check-stubs and receipted bills, and with evidence thus discovered went
-into town and made a row with a tradesman, and saved her father a couple
-of hundred dollars.
-
-Then, after lunch, she took him for a drive behind the new pony which
-Uncle Mandeville had given her. She got him out into the country, and
-then opened up on him in unexpected fashion. “Papa, it isn’t possible
-for people like us to economize, is it?”
-
-“Not very much, my child,” he answered smiling. “Why?”
-
-“I’ve been thinking,” she said. “It’s all wrong—but I don’t know what to
-do about it. You spent so much money on me; I didn’t want it, but I
-didn’t realize it till it was too late. And now comes Celeste’s turn,
-and you have to spend as much on her, or she’ll be jealous and angry.
-And Peggy and Maria will see what Celeste gets, and they will demand
-their turn. And the Baby—he’s smashing his toys now, and in a few years
-he’ll be smashing windows, and in a few more he’ll be gambling like
-Clive and Harley. And you can’t do anything about any of it!”
-
-“My child,” he said, “I don’t want you to worry about such things——”
-
-“No, you want to do all the worrying yourself. But, Papa, I have to make
-my life of some use. Since I can’t earn money, I’ve been thinking that
-perhaps the most sensible thing would be for me to marry some rich man,
-and then help all my family and friends.”
-
-“Sylvia,” protested the Major, “I don’t like one of my daughters to have
-such thoughts in her mind. I don’t want a child of mine to marry for
-money—there is no need of it, there never will be!”
-
-“Not while you can sit up all night and worry over accounts. But some
-day you won’t be able to, Papa. I can see that you’re under a strain,
-and yet I can’t get you to let me help you. If you make sacrifices for
-me, why shouldn’t I make them for you?”
-
-“Not that kind of a sacrifice, my child. It’s a terrible thing for a
-woman to marry for money.”
-
-“Do you really think so, Papa? So many women do it. Are they all bad,
-and are they all unhappy?”
-
-Thus Sylvia—trying to do her duty, and keep her mind occupied. They got
-back home, and she found new diversions—Castleman Lysle had been feeding
-himself in the kitchen, and had been picked up black in the face with
-convulsions. This, you understand, was one of the features of life at
-Castleman Hall; one baby had been lost that way, since which time “Miss
-Margaret” always fainted when it occurred. As poor Aunt Varina had not
-the physical strength for such emergencies, Sylvia had to get a tub of
-hot water, and hold the child in it—while some one else held a spoon in
-his mouth, in order that he might not chew his tongue to pieces!
-
-Thus the afternoon passed busily, and in the evening was the spring
-dance of the Young Matrons’ Cotillion Club. Sylvia absolutely had to go
-to that, in order to dance with Douglas van Tuiver and atone for her
-rudeness. She had promised it by way of pacifying Aunt Nannie; and also
-her father had made plans to accompany her again.
-
-So she put on a new “cloth of silver” gown which she had bought in New
-York, and drank a “toddy” of the Major’s mixing, and sallied forth upon
-his arm. There were lights and music, happy faces, cheery greetings—so
-she was uplifted, dreaming of happiness again. And then came the most
-dreadful collapse of all.
-
-She had strolled out upon the veranda with Stanley Pendleton. Feeling
-chilly, she sent her partner in for a wrap; and then suddenly came a
-voice—_his_ voice!
-
-If it had been his ghost, Sylvia could not have been more startled. She
-whirled about and stared, and saw him—standing in the semidarkness of
-the garden, close to the railing of the veranda. It had rained that day,
-and the roads were deep in mire, and he had ridden far. His clothing was
-splashed and his hair in disarray; as for his face—never had Sylvia seen
-such grief on a human countenance.
-
-“Sylvia!” he whispered. “Sylvia!” She could only gaze at him, dumb.
-“Sylvia, give me one minute! I have come here to tell you——”
-
-He stopped, his voice breaking with intensity of feeling. “Oh!” she
-gasped. “You ought not to be here!”
-
-“I had to see you!” he exclaimed. “There was no other way——”
-
-But he got no farther. There was a step behind Sylvia, and she turned,
-and at the same moment heard the terrible voice of her father—“What does
-this mean?”
-
-She sprang to him with a quick cry. “Papa!” She caught his arm with her
-hands, trying to stop what she feared he might do. “No, Papa, _no_!” For
-one moment the Major stood staring at the apparition in the darkness.
-
-She could feel him trembling with fury. “Sir, how dare you approach my
-daughter?”
-
-“Papa, _no_!” exclaimed Sylvia, again.
-
-“Sir, do you wish to make it necessary for me to shoot you?”
-
-Then Frank answered, his voice low and vibrant with pain. “Major
-Castleman, I would be grateful to you.”
-
-The other glared at him for a moment; then he said, “If you wish to die,
-sir, choose some way that will not drag my daughter to disgrace.”
-
-Frank’s gaze had turned to the girl. “Sylvia,” he exclaimed, “I tell you
-that I went to that place——”
-
-“Stop!” almost shouted the Major.
-
-“Major Castleman,” said Frank, “Allow me to speak to your daughter. It
-has been——”
-
-Sylvia was clutching her father in terror. She knew that he had a
-weapon, and was on the point of using it; she knew also that she had not
-the physical force to prevent him. She cried hysterically, “Go! Go
-away!”
-
-And Frank looked at her—a last look, that she never forgot all the days
-of her life. “You mean it, Sylvia?” he asked, his voice breaking.
-
-“I mean it!” she answered.
-
-“Forever?”
-
-For the smallest part of a second she hesitated. “Forever!” commanded
-her father; and she echoed, “Forever!” Frank turned, without another
-word, and was gone in the darkness; and Sylvia fell into her father’s
-arms, convulsed with an agony that shook her frame.
-
-
- § 12
-
-They got her home, where her first action, in spite of her exhaustion,
-was to insist upon seeing her Uncle Mandeville. So determined, so
-vehement she was, that it was necessary to rout the worthy gentleman out
-from a poker-game at two o’clock in the morning. There had been other
-witnesses of what Frank had done, and Sylvia knew that her uncle must
-hear; so she told him herself, with her arms about him, clinging to him
-in frenzy, and beseeching him to give her his word of honor that he
-would not carry out his threat against Frank Shirley.
-
-It was not an easy word to get; she would probably have failed, had it
-not been for the Major. He could see the force in her argument that a
-shooting-affair would only serve to publish the matter to the world, and
-make it seem more serious. After all, from the family’s point of view,
-the one thing to be desired was to make certain that there would be no
-further communication between the two. And Sylvia was willing to assure
-them of that, she declared. She rushed to her desk, and with trembling
-fingers wrote a note to “Mr. Frank Shirley,” informing him that the
-scene which had just occurred had been intolerable to her, and
-requesting him to perform her one last service—to write a note to her
-father to the effect that he would make no further attempt to
-communicate with her. The Major, after some discussion, decided that he
-would accept this as a settlement; and he being the elder brother, his
-word was law with Mandeville—at least so long as Mandeville was sober.
-
-I remember Sylvia’s account of the state of exhaustion in which she
-found herself after this ordeal; how for two days she had the sensation
-that her mind was breaking up. Yet—a circumstance worth noting—at no
-time did she blame those who had put her through this ordeal. She could
-not blame the men of her family; if any one were at fault, it was
-herself, for being at the mercy of her emotions, and capable of a secret
-longing to have parleyings with a man who had dragged her name in the
-mire. You see, Sylvia believed in her heritage. She was proud of the
-Castlemans—and apparently you could not have rare, aristocratic virtues
-without also having terrifying vices. If one’s men-folk got drunk and
-shot people, one’s consolation was that at least they did it in a bold
-and striking and “high-spirited” way.
-
-You will perhaps find yourself impatient with the girl at this stage of
-her story. I recall my own frantic protests while I listened. What a
-cruel, needless tragedy! I cried out for the evidence of some gleam of
-sense on the part of any one person concerned. Surely Sylvia, knowing
-Frank, must have come to doubt that he could have been unfaithful to
-her! Surely, with the hints she got at that meeting, she must have
-realized that there was something more to be said! Surely he, on his
-part, would have found some way of getting an interview with her, or at
-least of sending an explanation by some friend! Surely he would never
-have given up until he had done that!
-
-I have claimed for Sylvia the possession of clear-sightedness. She
-displayed it when it was a question of revising her religion, she
-displayed it when it was a question of managing her family, and
-obtaining permission to be engaged to a convict’s son. But, if you look
-to see her display anything of that sort in the present emergency, you
-will look in vain. Sylvia could be bold in a matter of theology, she
-could be bold in a matter of love, but she could not possibly be bold in
-a matter of a house of prostitution. If I were to give you illustrations
-of the completeness of her ignorance upon the subject of sex, you would
-simply not be able to believe what I told; and not only was she
-ignorant, she could not conceive that it was possible for her to be
-other than ignorant. She could not conceive that it was possible for a
-pure-minded girl to talk about such a subject with any human being, man
-or woman.
-
-I doubt very much, if it had come to an actual test, whether Sylvia
-would have been capable of marrying against her family’s will. She had
-opposed them vehemently, but this was because she knew that she was
-right, and that they, in their inmost hearts, knew it also. The Major
-and “Miss Margaret” were good and generous-hearted people, and they
-could not sincerely condemn Frank Shirley for his father’s offense. But
-how different it was now! In the present matter she faced the phalanx of
-the family, not on an open field where she could manœuvre and outwit
-them—but in a place of darkness and terror, where she dared not stir a
-foot alone.
-
-And let me tell you also that you mistake Frank Shirley if you count
-upon the mere physical fact that he could have got an explanation to
-Sylvia. It was not easy for him to explain about such matters to the
-woman he loved; and if you think it was easy, you are a modern,
-matter-of-fact person, not understanding the notions of an old-fashioned
-Southerner. The simple fact was that when Frank wrote to Harriet
-Atkinson, to ask her to hear his plea, he felt that he was doing
-something desperate and unprecedented; and when Harriet wrote, coldly
-refusing to have anything to do with the matter, he felt that she had
-rebuked him for his boldness. As for the last effort he had made to see
-Sylvia, it was the act of a man driven frantic by love—a man willing to
-sacrifice his life, and even his self-respect. I have portrayed Frank
-poorly if I have not made you realize that from the first hour he
-approached Sylvia with a sense of inferiority and of guilt; that he had
-remained her lover against the incessant protests of his pride. People
-are making money rapidly these days in the South, and so becoming like
-us “Yankees”; yet it will be a long time, I think, before a Southerner
-without money will make love to a rich woman without feeling in his
-heart that he is acting the knave.
-
-
- § 13
-
-There came another long struggle for Sylvia, another climb out of the
-pit. For the sake of her father, she could not delay; as soon as she was
-able to move about, she was out among her roses again, and reading
-Alexander Stephens in the evenings. Within a week she had been to a
-card-party and a picnic, and also had received a call from Douglas van
-Tuiver.
-
-Never before had Sylvia worn such an ethereal aspect; he was gentle,
-even reverent, in his manner to her. He had a particular reason for
-calling to see her, he said. He owned a yacht, considered quite a
-beautiful vessel; it was now in commission, but idle, and he had taken
-the liberty of ordering it to the Southern coast, and wished to beg her
-to use it to bring the color back into her cheeks. She might take her
-Aunt Varina, her sister—a whole party, if she chose—and cruise up the
-coast, to Maine and the St. Lawrence, or over in the North Sea—wherever
-her fancy suggested. He would go with her and take charge, if she would
-permit—or he would stay behind, and be happy in the knowledge that she
-was recovering her health.
-
-Of course, Sylvia could not accept such a favor; she insisted that it
-was impossible, in spite of all his arguments and urgings. She thanked
-him so cordially, however, that he went away quite happy.
-
-Then came Mrs. Chilton, and there was a conclave of the ladies. Why
-should she not accept the offer? It was the very thing she needed to
-divert her mind, and get her out of this disgraceful state.
-
-“Aunt Nannie,” cried the girl, “how can you think of wanting me to
-accept such a gift from a comparative stranger? It must cost hundreds of
-dollars a month to run such a yacht!”
-
-“About five thousand dollars a month, my dear,” said the other, quietly.
-
-Sylvia was aghast; once in a while even a fiery revolutionist like
-herself was awe-stricken by the actuality of Royalty. “I don’t want
-things like that,” she said, at last. “I want to stay quietly at home
-and help Papa.”
-
-“You need a change,” declared the other. “So long as you are here you
-are never safe from that evil man; and anyway you are surrounded by
-reminders of him. A yachting-trip would force you to put your mind on
-other things. The sea-air would do you good; and if you took Celeste
-with you—think what a treat for her!”
-
-“Oh, Sylvia, please do!” cried Celeste.
-
-Sylvia looked at her sister. “You’d like to go?”
-
-“Oh, how can you ask?” she replied. “It would be heaven!”
-
-Sylvia said that she would think it over. But in reality she wanted to
-think about something else. She waited until they left her alone with
-her sister, and then she said, “You like Mr. van Tuiver, don’t you?”
-
-“How could I fail to like him?” asked Celeste.
-
-The other tried to draw her out. Why did she like him? He had such
-beautiful manners, such dignity—there were no loose ends about him. He
-had been everywhere, met everybody of consequence; compared with him the
-men at home seemed like country-fellows. It was that indescribable thing
-called elegance, said Celeste, gravely. She could not understand her
-sister’s attitude at all; she thought Sylvia treated van Tuiver
-outrageously, and her eyes flashed a danger-signal as she said it. It
-was a woman’s right to reject a man’s advances if she chose to; but she
-ought not to humiliate him, when his only offense was admiring her to
-excess.
-
-“I only wish it was you he admired,” said Sylvia, who was in a gentle
-mood.
-
-“No chance of that,” remarked the other, with a touch of bitterness in
-her voice. “He has no eyes or ears for anybody else when you are about.”
-
-“I’m going to try to lend him eyes and ears,” responded Sylvia. For that
-was the idea that had occurred to her—van Tuiver must be persuaded to
-transfer his interest to Celeste! Celeste would marry him; she would
-marry him without the least hesitation or distress; and then the elder
-sister might settle down with her family and her rose-gardens and her
-Confederate History!
-
-
- § 14
-
-Sylvia became quite excited over this scheme. When van Tuiver asked
-permission to call again, she was glad to say yes; but she kept Celeste
-with her, guiding the conversation so as to show off her best qualities.
-But alas, “Little Sister” had no qualities to be shown off when van
-Tuiver was about! She was so much impressed by him that she trembled
-with stage fright. Usually a bright and vivacious girl, although
-somewhat hard and shallow, she was now dumb, abject, a booby! Sylvia
-raged at her inwardly, and when van Tuiver had taken his departure, she
-said, “Celeste, how can you expect to impress a man if you let him see
-you are afraid to breathe in his presence?”
-
-Tears of humiliation came into her sister’s eyes. “What’s the use of
-talking about my impressing him? Can’t you see that he pays no more
-attention to me than if I were a doll?”
-
-“_Make_ him pay attention to you!” cried the other. “Shock him, hurt
-him, make him angry—do anything but put yourself under his feet!” She
-went on to give a lecture on that awe-inspiring phenomenon, the Harvard
-manner; trying to prove to her sister that it was an idol with feet of
-clay, which would topple if one attacked it resolutely. She told the
-story of her own meeting with King Douglas the First, and how she had
-been able to subdue him with cheap effrontery. But she soon discovered
-that her arguments were thrown away upon Celeste, who was simply shocked
-by her story, and had no more the desire than she had the power to
-subdue van Tuiver. At first Sylvia had thought it was mere awe of his
-millions, but gradually she realized that it was something far more
-serious—something quite tragic. Celeste had fallen in love with Royalty!
-
-But still Sylvia could not give up the struggle. It would have been such
-a marvelous solution of her problem! She let van Tuiver call as often as
-he wanted to; but she became, all at once, a phenomenon of sisterly
-affection. She took Celeste horseback riding with them—and Celeste rode
-well. If van Tuiver asked to go automobiling, she found shrewd excuses
-for having Celeste go also. But in the end she had to give up—because of
-the “English system.” Van Tuiver did not want Celeste, and was so
-brutally unaware of her existence that Celeste came home with tears of
-humiliation in her eyes. Sylvia went off by herself and shed tears also;
-she hated van Tuiver and his damnable manners!
-
-She realized suddenly to what extent he was boring her. He came the next
-day, and spent the better part of an hour talking to her about his
-experiences among the elect in various parts of the world. He had been
-shooting last fall upon the estates of the Duke of Something in
-Scotland. You went out in an automobile, and took a seat in an
-arm-chair, and had several score “beaters” drive tame pheasants towards
-you; you had two men to load your guns, and you shot the birds as they
-rose; but you could not shoot more than so many hundred of a morning,
-because the recoil of the gun gave you a headache. The Duke had a couple
-of guns which were something special—he valued them at a thousand
-guineas the pair.
-
-“Mr. van Tuiver,” said the girl, suddenly, “there is something I want to
-say to you. I have been meaning to say it for some time. I think you
-ought not to stay here any longer.”
-
-His face lost suddenly its expression of complacency. “Why, Miss
-Sylvia!” he exclaimed.
-
-“I want to deal with you frankly. If you are here for any reason not
-connected with me, why all right; but if you are here on my account, I
-ought not to leave you under any misapprehension.”
-
-He tried hard to recover his poise. “I had begun to hope”—he began.
-“You—are you sure it is true?”
-
-“I am sure. You realize of course—it’s been obvious from the outset that
-my Aunt Nannie has entered into a sort of partnership with you, to help
-you persuade me to marry you. And of course there are others of my
-friends—even members of my family, perhaps—who would be glad to have me
-do it. Also, you must know that I’ve been trying to persuade myself.”
-Sylvia lowered her eyes; she could not look at him as she said this. “I
-thought perhaps it was my duty—the only useful thing I could do with my
-life—to marry a rich man, and use his money to help the people I love.
-So I tried to persuade myself. But it’s impossible—I could not, _could_
-not do it!”
-
-She paused. “Miss Sylvia,” he ventured, “can you be sure—perhaps if you
-married me, you might——”
-
-“No!” she cried. “Please don’t say any more. I know you ought not to
-stay! I could never marry you, and you are throwing away your time here.
-You ought to go!”
-
-There was a silence. “Miss Sylvia,” he began, finally, “this is like a
-death-sentence to me.”
-
-“I know,” she said, “and I’m sorry. But there’s no help for it. Putting
-off only makes it worse for you.”
-
-“Don’t think about me,” he said. “I’ve no place to go, and nothing
-better I can be doing. If you’ll let me stay, and try to be of some
-service”—
-
-“No,” she declared, “you can be of no service. I want to be alone, with
-my father and the people I love; and it is only distressing to me to see
-you.”
-
-He rose, and stood looking at her, crestfallen. “That is all you have to
-say to me, Miss Sylvia?”
-
-“That is all. If you wish to show your regard for me, you will go away
-and never think of me again.”
-
-
- § 15
-
-Van Tuiver went away; but within a week he was back, writing Sylvia
-notes to say that he must see her, that he only sought her friendship.
-And then came Aunt Nannie, and there was a family conference—ending not
-altogether to Sylvia’s advantage. Aunt Nannie took the same view as Mrs.
-Winthrop, that one had no right to humiliate a man who carried such vast
-responsibilities upon his shoulders. Sylvia recurred to her old phrase
-“Royalty”—and was taken aback when her aunt wanted to know just what
-were her objections to Royalty. Had she not often heard her Uncle
-Mandeville say that there ought to be a king in America to counteract
-the influence of Yankee demagogs? That rather took the wind out of
-Sylvia’s sails; for she had a great respect for the political wisdom of
-her uncles, and really could give no reason why a king might not be a
-beneficent phenomenon. All she could reply was that she did not like
-this particular king, and would not see him. When Aunt Nannie insisted
-that van Tuiver had been a guest under her roof, and that Sylvia’s
-action had been an unheard of discourtesy, the girl said that she was
-willing to apologize, either to her aunt or to van Tuiver—but that
-nothing could induce her to let him call again.
-
-King Douglas went off to Newport, where the family of Dorothy Cortlandt
-had its granite cottage; and so for two months Sylvia enjoyed peace. She
-read to her father, and played cards with him, and took him driving,
-exercising her social graces to keep him from drinking too many toddies.
-I could wish there were space to recite some of the comical little
-dramas that were played round the good Major’s efforts to cheat himself
-and his daughter, and exceed the number of toddies which his physician
-allowed to him!
-
-Aunt Nannie being away at the coast, it was easier for the girl to avoid
-social engagements, especially with the excuse that her father’s health
-was poor, and his plantation duties engrossing. There had been an
-overflow in the early spring, just at planting-time, and so there was no
-cotton that year. Fences had been swept away, cattle drowned, and
-negro-cabins borne off to parts unknown. The Major had three large
-plantations, whose negroes must be kept over the year, just as if they
-were working. Also there were small farms, rented to negro tenants who
-had lost everything; they had to be taken care of—one must “hold on to
-one’s niggers.” “Why don’t you let them raise corn?” van Tuiver had
-inquired; to which the Major answered, “My negroes could no more raise
-corn than they could raise ostriches.”
-
-So there was much money to be borrowed, and money was “tight.” Everybody
-wanted it from the local banks, and as this was the second bad year, the
-local banks were in an ungenerous mood. Worse than that, there were
-troubles vaguely rumored from “Wall Street.” What this meant to Sylvia
-was that her father sat up at night and worried over his books, and
-could not be got to talk of his affairs.
-
-But what distressed her most was that there was no sign of any effort to
-curtail the family’s expenditure. Aunt Varina and the children were at
-the summer home in the mountains, and so there were two establishments
-to be kept going. Also Celeste was giving house parties, and ordering
-new things from New York, in spite of the fact that she had come home
-from school with several trunkloads of splendor. The Major’s family all
-signed his name to checks, and all these checks were like chickens which
-came home to roost in the pigeon-holes in the office-desk.
-
-In the fall the Major’s health weakened under the strain, and the doctor
-insisted that he must go away at all hazards. Uncle Mandeville had taken
-a place at one of the Gulf Coast resorts, and Sylvia and her father were
-urged to come there—just in time for the yachting regatta, wrote the
-host. They came; and about two weeks later a great ocean-going yacht
-steamed majestically into the harbor, and the dismayed Sylvia read in
-the next morning’s paper that Mr. Douglas van Tuiver, who had been
-cruising in the Gulf with a party of friends, had come to attend the
-races!
-
-“I won’t see him!” she declared; and Uncle Mandeville, who was in
-command here, backed her up, and offered to shoot the fellow if he
-molested her. This, of course, was in fun, but Uncle Mandeville was
-serious in his support of his niece, maintaining that the Castlemans
-needed no Yankee princeling to buttress their fortunes.
-
-She fully meant not to see him. But he had brought allies to make sure
-of her. That afternoon an automobile drew up at the door, and Sylvia,
-who was on the gallery, saw a lady descending, waving a hand to her. She
-stared, dumb-founded. It was Mrs. Winthrop!
-
-Mrs. Winthrop—clad in spotless white from hat to shoetips, looking
-sunburned and picturesque, and surprisingly festive. No one was in sight
-but Sylvia, and so she had a free field for her wizardry. She came
-slowly up the gallery-steps, and took the outstretched hands in hers,
-and gazed. How much she read in the pale, thin face—and what deeps of
-feeling welled up in her!
-
-“Oh, let me help you!” she murmured. And nothing more.
-
-“Thank you!” said Sylvia at last.
-
-“My dryad!” Quick tears of sympathy started in the great lady’s eyes,
-and came running down her sunburned cheeks, and had to be brushed away
-with a tiny Irish lace handkerchief.
-
-“Believe me, Sylvia, I too have known grief!” she began, after a minute.
-Sylvia was deeply touched; for what grief could be more fascinating than
-that which lurked in the dream-laden eyes before her? She found herself
-suddenly recalling an irreverent phrase of “Tubby” Bates’: “The
-beautiful unhappy wife of a railroad-builder!”
-
-They sat down. “Sylvia,” said Mrs. Winthrop, “you need diversion. Come
-out on the yacht!”
-
-“No,” she replied, “I don’t want to meet Mr. van Tuiver again.”
-
-“I appreciate your motives,” said the other. “But you may surely trust
-to my discretion, Sylvia. Mr. van Tuiver has recovered himself, and
-there is no longer any need for you to avoid him.”
-
-He was a much changed man, went on “Queen Isabella”; so chastened that
-his best friends hardly knew him. He had become a most fascinating
-figure, a sort of superior Werther; his melancholy became him. He had
-been really admirable in his behavior, and Sylvia owed it to him to give
-him a chance to show her that he could control himself, to show his
-friends that she had not dismissed him with contempt. There was a
-charming party on board the yacht; it included van Tuiver’s aunt, Mrs.
-Harold Cliveden, of whom Sylvia had surely heard; also her niece, Miss
-Vaillant, and Lord Howard Annersley, who was engaged to her. Sylvia had
-probably not seen the accounts of this affair, but it was most romantic.
-The girl pleaded that her father was ill and needed her. But he might
-come too, said Mrs. Winthrop; the diversion would benefit him. So at
-last Sylvia consented to go to lunch.
-
-
- § 16
-
-Van Tuiver came to fetch them on the following day. He looked his new
-rôle of a leisure-class Werther, and acted up to it quite touchingly. He
-was perfect in his attitude toward his guests, carefully omitting all
-reference to personal matters, and confining his conversation to the
-yachting-trip and the party on board—especially to Lord Howard. Sylvia
-said that she had never met a Lord before, and it would seem like a
-fairy-story to her. The other was careful to explain that Lord Howard
-was not a fortune-hunter, but a friend of his. So Sylvia furbished up
-her weapons—but put most of them away when she got on board, and found
-out what a very commonplace young man his lordship was.
-
-It was necessary to extend a return invitation, so Uncle Mandeville took
-the party automobiling along the coast, and spread a sumptuous
-picnic-luncheon. Then the next day Sylvia let herself be inveigled on a
-moonlight sailing-trip; and so it came about that she was cornered in
-the bow of the boat, with van Tuiver at her side, declaring in trembling
-accents that he had tried to forget her, that he could not live without
-her, that if she did not give him some hope he would take his life.
-
-She was intensely annoyed, and answered him in monosyllables, and took
-refuge with Lord Howard, who showed signs of forgetting that he was
-already in the midst of a romance. She vowed that she would accept no
-more invitations, and that van Tuiver would never deceive her in that
-way again. This last with angry emphasis to Mrs. Winthrop, who,
-perceiving that something had gone wrong, took her aside as the party
-was breaking up.
-
-“Queen Isabella’s” lovely face showed intense distress. “Oh, these men!”
-she cried. “Sylvia, what can we do with them?” And when Sylvia, taken
-aback by this appeal, was silent, the other continued, pleadingly, “You
-must be loyal to your sex, and help me! We all have to manage men!”
-
-“But what do you want me to do?” asked the girl. “Marry him?”
-
-She meant this for the extreme of sarcasm; and great was her surprise
-when Mrs. Winthrop caught her hand and exclaimed, “My dear, I want you
-to do just that!”
-
-“But then—what becomes of my fineness of spirit?” cried Sylvia, with
-still more withering sarcasm.
-
-Said “Queen Isabella,” “The man loves you.”
-
-“I know—but I don’t love him.”
-
-“He loves you deeply, Sylvia. I think you will really have to marry
-him.”
-
-“In spite of the fact that I don’t love him in the least?”
-
-The other smiled her gentlest smile. “I want you to let me come and talk
-to you about these matters.”
-
-“But, Mrs. Winthrop, I don’t want to be talked to about marrying Mr. van
-Tuiver!”
-
-“I want to explain things to you, Sylvia. You must grant me that
-favor—please!” In the hurry of departure, Sylvia gave no reply, and the
-other took silence for consent.
-
-By what device van Tuiver could have reconciled Mrs. Winthrop, Sylvia
-could not imagine; but when the great lady called, the next afternoon,
-she was as ardent on the one side as she had formerly been on the other.
-She painted glowing pictures of the splendors which awaited the future
-Mrs. Douglas van Tuiver. The courts of Europe would be open to her, her
-life would be one triumphal pageant. Also, taking a leaf out of “Tubby”
-Bates’ note-book, “Queen Isabella” discoursed upon the good that Sylvia
-would be able to do with her husband’s wealth.
-
-This interview with Mrs. Winthrop was important for another reason; it
-was the means of setting at rest what doubts were lurking in Sylvia’s
-mind as to her treatment of Frank Shirley. The other evidently had the
-matter in mind, for Sylvia needed only to allude to it, whereupon Mrs.
-Winthrop proceeded, with the utmost tact and understanding, to give her
-exactly the information she was craving. The dreadful story was surely
-true—everybody at Harvard knew it. All that one heard in defense was
-that it was a shame the story had been spread abroad; for there were
-men, said Mrs. Winthrop, who did these shameful things in secret, and
-had no remorse save when they were found out. Without saying it in plain
-words, she caused Sylvia to have the impression that such evils were to
-be found among men of low origin and ignominious destinies: a suggestion
-which started in Sylvia a brand-new train of thought. Could it be that
-_this_ was the basis of social discrimination—the secret reason why her
-parents were so careful what men she met? It threw quite a new light
-upon the question of college snobbery, if one pictured the club-men as
-selected and set apart because of their chaste lives. It made quite a
-difference in one’s attitude towards the “exclusiveness” of van
-Tuiver—if one might think of him, as Mrs. Winthrop apparently did think
-of him, as having been guarded from contamination, from the kind of
-commonness to which Frank Shirley had permitted himself to stoop.
-
-
- § 17
-
-Van Tuiver of course wrote letters of apology; but Sylvia would not
-answer them nor see him. As the yacht still lingered in the harbor, she
-became restless, and was glad when the Major decided to return home to
-the rose-gardens and Alexander Stephens. Soon afterwards she learned
-that the yachting-party had returned to New York; but in a couple of
-weeks “King Douglas” was at Aunt Nannie’s again, annoying her with his
-letters and his importunities.
-
-By this time everybody in Castleman County knew the situation; it had
-become a sort of State romance—or perhaps it would be better to say a
-State scandal. Sylvia became aware of a new force, vaguer, but more
-compelling even than that of the family—the power of public opinion. It
-was all very well for a girl to have whims and to indulge them; to be
-coquettish and wayward—naturally. But to keep it up for so long a time,
-to carry the joke so far—well, it was unusual, and in somewhat
-questionable taste. It was a fact that every person in Castleman County
-shone by the reflected glory of Sylvia’s great opportunity; and
-everybody felt himself—or more especially herself—cheated of this glory
-by the girl’s eccentricity. You may take this for a joke, but let me
-tell you that public opinion is a terrible agent, which has driven
-mighty princes to madness, and captains of predatory finance to suicide.
-
-All this time Sylvia was thinking—thinking. Wherever she went, whatever
-she did, she was debating one problem in her soul. As I don’t want
-anyone to misunderstand her or despise her, I must try to tell, briefly
-and simply, what were her thoughts.
-
-She had come to hate life. Everything that had ever been sweet to her
-seemed to have turned to ashes in her mouth. The social game, for which
-she had been trained with so much care and at so great expense, upon
-which she had entered with such zest three years before—the game had
-become a sordid mockery to her. It was a chase after men, an elaboration
-of devices to gain and hold their attention. To be decked out and sent
-forth to perform tricks—no, it was an utterly intolerable thing.
-
-Her whole being was one cry to stay at home with the people she loved.
-Here were her true friends, who would always stand by her, who would be
-a bulwark against the ugliness of life. A wonderful thing it was, after
-all, the family; a kind of army of mutual defense against a hostile,
-predatory world. “Life is a case of dog eat dog,” had been the words of
-Uncle Mandeville. “You have to eat or be eaten.” And Uncle Mandeville
-had seen so much of life!
-
-So the one high duty that Sylvia could see was to stand by and maintain
-the family. And there were increasing signs that this family was in
-peril. More and more plainly was worry to be read in the face of the
-Major; there were even signs that his worry had infected others.
-Curious, incredible as it might seem, “Miss Margaret” was trying to
-economize! She wandered over her exquisite velvet carpets in a faded
-last year’s gown, and a pair of rusty last year’s slippers; nor could
-she be persuaded to purchase new—until the Major himself sent off an
-order to her costumer in New Orleans!
-
-Also Aunt Varina had taken to fretting over the housekeeping
-extravagances. So many idle negroes eating their heads off in the
-kitchen! Such grocery and laundry bills, beyond all reason and sense!
-The echoes of her protest reached even to the tradesmen in the town, who
-heard with dismay that at Castleman Hall they were counting the
-supplies, and going over the bills, and refusing to pay for goods which
-had not been sent, or had been stolen by the negroes employed to deliver
-them!
-
-“Aunt Mandy,” the black cook, had once been heard to declare that
-Castleman Hall was not a home, but “a free hotel.” A hotel with great
-airy rooms, huge four-poster beds, and quaint old “dressers” and
-“armours” of hand-carved mahogany! No wonder the guests came trooping!
-“We ought to move into one of the smaller houses on the plantation!”
-declared Aunt Varina; and what a horror to have such an idea mentioned
-in the family. Fear assailed “Miss Margaret”—what if the neighbors were
-to hear of it? Everybody knew that there had been droughts and floods,
-and somebody might suspect that these had touched the Castlemans! Mrs.
-Castleman decided forthwith that it would be necessary to give a big
-reception; and the moment this was announced came a cry from
-Celeste—why, if her mother could give a reception, could she not have
-the little “electric” for which she had begged all summer?
-
-Celeste was going back to Miss Abercrombie’s in a week or two. Going
-back to Fifth Avenue and its shops—to open accounts at any of them she
-chose, and sign her father’s name to checks, just as Sylvia had done. It
-would have been a painful matter to curtail this privilege, for Sylvia
-was the favorite daughter, and Celeste knew it, and was bitterly
-resentful of every sign of favoritism. And yet the privilege was more
-dangerous in the case of Celeste, who was careless to the point of
-wickedness. You might see her step out of an expensive ball-gown at
-night, and leave it a crumpled ring upon the floor until the maid hung
-it up in the morning; you might see her kick off her tight, high-heeled
-slippers, and walk about the room for hours in her stockinged feet—thus
-wearing out a pair of new silk hose that had cost five dollars, and
-kicking them to one side to be carried off by the negroes. Celeste would
-permit nothing but silk upon her exquisite person, and was given to
-lounging about in oriental luxuriance, while Peggy and Maria gazed at
-her awe-stricken, as at some princess in a fairy-story book. Sylvia saw
-with bewilderment that everywhere about her it was the evil example
-which seemed to be prevailing.
-
-
- § 18
-
-Sylvia could not plan to stay at home and share in this plundering of
-her father. She must marry; yet when it came to the question of
-marrying, the one positive fact in her consciousness was that she could
-never love any man. No matter how long she might wait, no matter how
-much energy she might expend in hesitating and agonizing, sooner or
-later she would give herself in marriage to some man whom she did not
-love. And after all, there was very little choice among them, so far as
-she could see. Some were more entertaining than others; but it was true
-of everyone that if he touched her hand in token of desire, she shrunk
-from him with repugnance.
-
-The time came when to her cool reason this shrinking wore the aspect of
-a weakness. When so much happiness for all those she loved depended upon
-the conquering of it, what folly not to conquer it! Here was the obverse
-of that distrust of “blind passion” which they had taught her. Whether
-it was an emotion towards or away from a man, was it a thing which
-should dominate a woman’s life? Was it not rather a thing for her to
-beat into whatever shape her good sense directed?
-
-Seated one day in her mother’s room, Sylvia asked, quite casually,
-“Mamma, how often do women marry the men they love?”
-
-“Why, what makes you ask that?” inquired the other.
-
-“I don’t know, Mamma. I was just thinking.”
-
-“Miss Margaret” considered. “Not often, my child; certainly not, if you
-mean their first love.” Then, after a pause, she added, “I think perhaps
-it’s well they don’t. Most all those I know who married their first love
-are unhappy now.”
-
-“Why is that, Mamma?”
-
-“They don’t seem able to judge wisely when they’re young and blinded by
-passion.” “Miss Margaret” drifted into reminiscences—beginning with the
-case of Aunt Varina, who was in the next room.
-
-“It seems such a terrible thing,” said Sylvia. “Love is—well, it makes
-you want to trust it.”
-
-“Something generally happens,” replied the other. “A woman has to wait,
-and in the end she marries for quite other reasons.”
-
-“And yet they manage to make out!” said the girl, half to herself.
-
-“Children come, dear. Children take their time, and they forget. I
-remember so well your Uncle Barry’s wife—she visited us in her courtship
-days, and she used to wake up in the middle of the night, and whisper to
-me in a trembling voice, ‘Margaret, tell me—_shall_ I marry him?’ I
-think she went to the altar without really having her mind made up; and
-yet, you see, she’s one of the happiest women I know—they are perfectly
-devoted to each other.”
-
-Sylvia went away to ponder these things. The next day Aunt Varina
-happened to talk about her life-tragedy, and told Sylvia of the death of
-her young love; and later on came Uncle Barry’s wife, traveling a
-hundred miles for the sake of a casual conversation upon the state of
-happiness vouchsafed to those who chose their husbands in accordance
-with reason. All of which was managed with such delicacy and tact that
-no one but an utterly depraved person like Sylvia would ever have
-suspected that it was planned.
-
-There was one person from whom the girl hoped for an unworldly opinion;
-that was the Bishop. She went to see him one day, and casually brought
-up the subject of van Tuiver—a thing which was easy enough to do, since
-the man was a guest in the house.
-
-“Sylvia,” said her uncle, at once, “why don’t you marry him?”
-
-The girl was astounded. “Why, Uncle Basil!” she exclaimed. “Would you
-advise me to?”
-
-“Nothing would make me happier than the news that you had so decided.”
-
-Sylvia was at a loss for words. She had thought that here was one person
-who would surely not be influenced by Royalty. “Tell me why,” she said.
-
-“Because, my child,” the Bishop answered, “he’s a Christian gentleman.”
-
-“Oh! So it’s that!”
-
-“Yes, Sylvia. You don’t know how often I have prayed that you might have
-a religious man for a husband.”
-
-Sylvia said no more. Her thoughts flew back to Boston, to an incident
-which had caused her amusement at the time. She had told “Tubby” Bates
-that she would go motoring with van Tuiver on a Sunday morning; and the
-answer was that on Sunday mornings van Tuiver passed the
-collection-plate in a Very High Church. Bates went on to explain—in his
-irreverent fashion—that van Tuiver’s great-uncle had been of the opinion
-that the only hope for a young man with so much money was to turn him
-over to the Lord; so for his grand-nephew’s head-tutor he had engaged a
-clergyman recommended by an English bishop. And now here was another
-bishop recommending van Tuiver as an instrument for the converting of
-his wayward niece!
-
-Sylvia went away, and spent more time in doubting and fearing. But there
-was a limit to the time she could take, because the man was practically
-in her home, moving heaven and earth to get a chance to see her, to urge
-his suit, to implore her for mercy, if for nothing more. And truly he
-was a pitiable object; if a woman wanted a husband whom she could twist
-round her finger, of whom she could be absolute mistress all her days,
-here surely was the husband at hand! The voice of old Lady Dee called
-out to her from the land of ghosts that her victory and her crown were
-here.
-
-The end came suddenly, being due to a far-off cause. There was a panic
-in “Wall Street”; an event of which Sylvia heard vaguely, but without
-paying heed, not dreaming that so remote an event could concern her. One
-can consult the financial year-books, and learn how many business men
-went into bankruptcy as a result of that panic, what properties had to
-be sold as a result of it; but it has apparently not occurred to any
-compiler of statistics to record the number of daughters—daughters of
-poor men and daughters of rich men—who had to be sold as a result of it.
-
-The Major came home one afternoon and shut himself in his study, and did
-not come to dinner. Sylvia knew, by that subtle sixth sense whereby
-things are known in families, that something serious had happened. But
-she was not allowed to see her father that day or night; and when she
-finally did see him, she was dumb with horror. He looked so yellow and
-ill—his hands trembled as if palsied, and she knew by the cigar-stumps
-scattered about the office, and the decanter of brandy on top of the
-desk, that he had been up the entire night at his books.
-
-He would not tell her what was the matter; he insisted, as usual, that
-it was “nothing.” But evidently he had told his wife, for the poor
-lady’s eyes were red with weeping. Later on in the day Sylvia, chancing
-to answer the telephone, received a message from Uncle Mandeville in New
-Orleans, to the effect that he was “short,” and powerless to help. Then
-she took her mother aside and dragged the story from her. The local bank
-was in trouble, and had called some of the Major’s loans. The blow had
-almost killed him, and they were in terror as to what he might do to
-himself.
-
-Mrs. Castleman saw her daughter go white, and added, “Oh, if only you
-were not under the spell of that dreadful man!”
-
-“But what in the world has that to do with it?” demanded the girl.
-
-“I curse the day that you met him!” wailed the other; and then, as
-Sylvia repeated her question—“What else is it that keeps you from loving
-a good man, and being a help to your father in this dreadful crisis?”
-
-“Mamma!” exclaimed Sylvia. She had never expected to hear anything like
-this from the gentle “Miss Margaret.” “Mamma, I couldn’t stop the
-panic!”
-
-“You could stop it so far as your father is concerned,” was the answer.
-
-Sylvia said no more at this time. But later on, when Aunt Nannie came
-over, she heard the remark that there were a few fortunate persons who
-were not affected by panics; it had been the maxim of van Tuiver’s
-ancestors to invest in nothing but New York City real estate, and to
-live upon their incomes. It was possible to do this, even in New York,
-declared Mrs. Chilton, if one’s income was several millions a year.
-
-“Aunt Nannie,” said the girl, gravely, “if I promised to marry Mr. van
-Tuiver, could I ask him to lend Papa money?”
-
-Whereat the other laughed. “My dear niece, I assure you that to be the
-father of the future Mrs. Douglas van Tuiver would be an asset in the
-money market—an asset quite as good as a plantation.”
-
-
- § 19
-
-Sylvia made up her mind that day; and as usual, she was both
-clear-sighted and honest about it. She would not deceive herself, and
-she would not deceive van Tuiver. She sent for the young millionaire,
-and taking him into another room than the library, shut the door. “Mr.
-van Tuiver,” she began, in a voice she tried hard to keep firm, “you
-have been begging me to marry you. You must know that I have been trying
-to make up my mind.”
-
-“Yes, Miss Sylvia?” he said, eagerly.
-
-“I loved Frank Shirley,” she continued. “Now I can never love again. But
-I know I shall have to marry. My people would be unhappy if I didn’t—so
-unhappy that I know I couldn’t bear it. You see, the person I really
-love is my father.”
-
-She hesitated again. “Yes, Miss Sylvia,” he repeated. She saw that his
-hands were trembling, and that he was gazing at her with feverish
-excitement.
-
-“I would do anything to make my father happy,” she said. “And now—he’s
-in trouble—money-trouble. Of course I know that if I married you, I
-could help him. I’ve tried to bring myself to do it. To-day I said, ‘I
-will!’ But then, there is your side to be thought of.”
-
-“My side, Miss Sylvia?”
-
-“I have to be honest with you. I can’t pretend to be what I am not, or
-to feel what I don’t feel. If I were to marry you, I should try to do my
-duty as a wife; I should do everything in my power, honestly and
-sincerely. But I don’t love you, and I don’t see how I ever could love
-you.”
-
-“But—Miss Sylvia—” he exclaimed, hardly able to speak for his agitation.
-“You mean that you would marry me?”
-
-“I didn’t know if you would want to marry me—when I had told you that.”
-
-He was leaning forward, clenching and unclenching his hands nervously.
-“I wouldn’t mind—really!” he said.
-
-“Even if you knew—” she began.
-
-“Miss Sylvia,” he cried, “I love you! Don’t you understand how I love
-you?”
-
-“Yes, but—if I couldn’t—if I didn’t love you?”
-
-“I would take what you could give me! I love you so much, nothing would
-matter. I believe that you would come to love me! If you would only give
-me a chance, Miss Sylvia—”
-
-“But suppose!” she protested. “Suppose you found that I never did!
-Suppose—”
-
-But he was in no mood for troublesome suppositions. Any way would do, he
-said. He began stammering out his happiness, he fell upon his knees
-before her and caught her hand, and sought to kiss it. At first she made
-a move to withdraw it; but then, with an inward effort, she let him have
-it, and sat staring before her, a mantle of scarlet stealing over her
-throat and cheeks and forehead.
-
-His hands were hot and moist, and quite horrible to her. Once she looked
-at him, and an image of him was stamped upon her mind indelibly. It was
-an image quite different from his ordinary rigid and sober mask; it was
-the face of the man who had always got everything he wanted. Sylvia did
-not formulate to herself just what it was that frightened her so—except
-for one phrase. She said it seemed to her that he licked his lips!
-
-He could hardly believe that the long siege was ended, that the guerdon
-of victory was his. She had to tell him several times that she would
-marry him—that she was serious about it—that would give him her word and
-would not take it back. And then she had to prove it to him. He was not
-content to clasp her hand, but sought to embrace her; and when she found
-that she could not stand it, she had to plead that it was not the
-Southern custom. “You must give me a little time to get used to the
-idea. I only made up my mind to-day.”
-
-“But you will change your mind!” he exclaimed.
-
-“No, no, I won’t do that. That would be wicked of me. I’ve decided what
-is right, and I mean to do it. But you must be patient with me at the
-beginning.”
-
-“When will you marry me?” he asked—evidently none too confident in her
-resolution.
-
-“I don’t know. It ought to be soon. I must talk with my parents about
-it.”
-
-“And where will it be?”
-
-“That’s something I meant to speak of. It can’t be here.” She hesitated.
-“I must tell you the truth. There would be too much to remind me. I
-couldn’t endure it. This may seem sentimental to you, but I’m quite
-determined. But I’ll have a hard time persuading my people—for you see,
-they’re proud, and they’ll say the world would expect you to marry me
-here. You must stand by me in this.”
-
-“Very well,” he said. “I will urge them to have the wedding in New
-York.”
-
-There was a pause, then Sylvia added: “Another thing, you must not
-breathe a word to anyone of what I’ve told you—about the state of my
-feelings—my reasons for deciding—”
-
-He smiled. “I’d hardly boast about that!”
-
-“No, but I mean you mustn’t tell your dearest friend—not Aunt Nannie,
-not Mrs. Winthrop. You see, I have to make my people believe that I’m
-quite sure of my own mind. If my father had any idea that I was thinking
-of him, then he’d surely forbid it. If he ever found out afterwards,
-he’d be wretched—and I’d have failed in what I tried to do.”
-
-“I understand,” said van Tuiver, humbly.
-
-“It’s not going to be easy for me,” she added. “I shall have to make
-everybody think I’m happy. You must sympathize with me and help me—and
-not mind if I seem unreasonable and full of whims.”
-
-He said again that he understood, and would do his best. He took her
-hand, very gently, and held it in his; he started to kiss it, but when
-he saw that she had no pleasure in the ceremony he released it, parting
-from her with a formal little speech of thanks. And such was the manner
-of Sylvia’s second betrothal.
-
-
- § 20
-
-The engagement was announced at once, the wedding to take place six
-weeks later in New York. Just as Sylvia had anticipated, the family made
-a great to-do over the place of the ceremony; but finding that both she
-and van Tuiver were immovable, they cast about for some pretext to make
-a New York wedding seem plausible to a suspicious world. They bethought
-themselves of an almost forgotten relative of the family, a step-sister
-of Lady Dee’s, who had lived in haughty poverty for half a century in
-the metropolis, and was now discovered in a boarding-house in Harlem,
-and transported to a suite of apartments in the Palace Hotel, to become
-responsible for Sylvia’s desertion of Castleman County. She had nothing
-to do but be the hostess of her “dear niece”—since Mrs. Harold Cliveden
-had kindly offered to see to the practical details of the ceremonial.
-
-The thrilling news of the betrothal spread, quite literally with the
-speed of lightning; the next day all America read of the romance. Since
-the story of van Tuiver’s infatuation, his treason to the “Gold Coast”
-and his forsaking of college, has been the gossip of New York and Boston
-clubs for months, there was a delightful story for the “yellows,” of
-which they did not fail to make use. Of course there was nothing of that
-kind in the Southern papers, but they had their own way of responding to
-the general excitement, of gratifying the general curiosity.
-
-Sylvia was really startled by the furore she had raised; she was as if
-caught up and whirled away by a hurricane. Such floods of
-congratulations as poured in! So many letters, from people whose names
-she could barely remember! Was there a single person in the county who
-had a right to call, who did not call to wish her joy? Even Celeste
-wrote from Miss Abercrombie’s—a letter which brought the tears to her
-sister’s eyes.
-
-Through all these events Sylvia played her rôle; she played it day and
-night—not even in the presence of her negro maid did she lay it aside!
-The rôle of the blushing bride-to-be, the ten-times-over happy heroine
-of a romance in high-life! She must be smiling, radiant with animation
-decorously repressed; she must go about with the lucky bridegroom-to-be,
-and receive the congratulations of those she knew, and be unaware—yet
-not ungraciously unaware—of the interest and the stares of those she did
-not know. More difficult yet, she had to look the Major in the eyes, and
-say to him that she had come to realize that she was fond of “Mr. van
-Tuiver,” and that she honestly believed she would be happy with him.
-Since her mother and Aunt Varina were dear sentimental Southern ladies,
-incapable of taking a cold-blooded look at a fact, she had to pretend
-even to them that she was cradled in bliss.
-
-At first van Tuiver was with her all the time, pouring out the torrents
-of his happiness and gratitude. But Aunt Nannie soon came to the rescue
-here; Sylvia must not have the inconveniences of matrimony until the
-knot had actually been tied. Van Tuiver was ordered off to New York,
-until Sylvia should come for the buying of her wedding trousseau.
-
-The dear old Major had suspected nothing when his friend, the president
-of the bank, had suddenly discovered that he could “carry” the
-troublesome notes. So now he was completely free from care, and his
-daughter had a week of bliss in his company. She read history to him,
-and drove with him, and tended his flowers in the conservatory, and was
-hardly apart from him an hour in the day.
-
-Sylvia had set out some months ago at the task of democratizing van
-Tuiver; even in becoming engaged she had kept some lingering hope of
-accomplishing this. But alas, how quickly the idea vanished before the
-reality of her situation! She remembered with a smile how glibly she had
-advised the young millionaire to step away from his shadow; and how he
-had labored to make plain to her that he could not help being a King.
-Now suddenly she found that she could sympathize with him—she who was
-about to be a Queen!
-
-There were a thousand little ways in which she felt the difference. Even
-the manner of her friends was changed. She could not go anywhere that
-she was not conscious of people staring at her. It was found necessary
-to appoint a negro to guard the grounds, because of the number of
-strangers who came in the hope of getting a glimpse of her. Her mail
-became suddenly a flood: letters from inventors who wished to make her
-another fortune; letters from distressed women who implored her to save
-them; letters from convicts languishing in prison for crimes of which
-they were innocent; letters from poets with immortal, unrecognized
-blank-verse dramas; letters from lonely farmers’ wives who thrilled over
-her romance, and poured out their souls in ill-spelled blessings;
-letters from prophets of the class-war who frightened her with warnings
-of the wrath to come!
-
-On the second day after the engagement was announced, Sylvia went out,
-all unsuspecting, for a horseback-ride, and had hardly mounted when a
-man with a black box stepped from behind a tree, and proceeded calmly to
-snap-shot the fair equestrienne. Sylvia cried out in indignation, and
-springing from the horse, rushed in to tell the Major what had happened;
-whereupon the Major sallied out with a cane, and there was a
-cross-country gallop after the intruder, ending in a violent collision
-between the camera and the cane. The funniest part of the matter was
-that the photographer spent the better part of a day trying to get a
-warrant for his assailant—imagining that it was possible to arrest a
-Castleman in Castleman County! By way of revenge he telegraphed the
-story to New York, where it appeared, duly worked up—with the old
-photograph of the “reigning beauty of the New South,” in place of the
-one which had died in the camera!
-
-
- § 21
-
-Sylvia came up to New York in due course; and by the time that she had
-been there one day, she was able to understand the fondness of the great
-for traveling “incog.” She was “snapped” when she descended from the
-train—and this time there was no one to assault the photographer. Coming
-out of her hotel with van Tuiver she found a battery of cameras waiting;
-and being ungracious enough to put up her hand before her face, she
-beheld her picture the next morning with the hand held up, and beside it
-the “reigning beauty” picture—with the caption, “What is behind the
-hand!”
-
-Van Tuiver was of course known in all the places which were patronized
-by the people of his sort; and Sylvia had but to be seen with him once
-in order to be equally known. Thereafter when she passed through a
-hotel-lobby, or into a tea-room, she would become aware of a sudden
-hush, and would know that every eye was following her. Needless to say,
-she could count upon the attention of all the “buttons” who caught sight
-of her; she lived with a vague consciousness of swarms of blue-uniformed
-gnomes with constantly-changing faces, who flitted about her, all but
-falling over one another in their zeal, and making her least action,
-such as sitting in a chair or passing through a doorway, into a
-ceremonial observance.
-
-The most curious thing of all was to go shopping; she simply dared not
-order anything sent home. There would be the clerk, with pad and poised
-pencil—“Name, please?” She would say, “Miss Sylvia Castleman,” and the
-pencil would begin to write mechanically—and then stop, struck with a
-sudden paralysis. She would see the fingers trembling, she would be
-aware of a swift, wonder-stricken glance. Sometimes she would pretend to
-be unconscious, and the business would go on—“Palace Hotel. To be
-delivered this afternoon. Yes, certainly, Miss Castleman.” But sometimes
-human feeling would break through all routine. A young soul, hungry for
-life, for beauty—and confronting suddenly the greatest moment of its
-whole existence, touching the hem of the star-sewn garment of Romance! A
-young girl—possibly even a man—flushing scarlet, trembling, stammering,
-“Oh—why—!” Once or twice Sylvia read in the face before her something so
-pitiful that she was moved to put her hand upon that of her devotee; and
-if you are learned in the lore of ancient times, you know what miracles
-are wrought by the touch of Royalty!
-
-What attitude was she to take to this new power of hers? It was
-impossible to pretend to be unaware of it—she had too keen a sense of
-humor. But was she to spend her whole life in shrinking, and feeling
-shame for other people’s folly? Or should she learn somehow to accept
-the homage as her due? She saw that the latter was what van Tuiver
-expected. He had chosen her among millions because she was the one
-supremely fitted to go through life at his side; and if she kept her
-promise and tried to be a faithful wife to him, she would have to take
-her rôle seriously, and learn to enjoy the performances.
-
-Meantime, you ask, What of her soul? She was trying her best to forget
-it—in excitements and distractions, in meeting new people, going to new
-places, buying thousands of dollars worth of new costumes. She would
-stay late at dances and supper-parties, trying to get weary enough to
-sleep; but then she would have nightmares, and would waken moaning and
-sobbing. Always her dream was one thing, in a thousand forms; she was
-somewhere in captivity, and some person or creature was telling her that
-she could not escape, that it was forever, forever, forever. Her room
-had been made into a bower of roses, but she had to send them away,
-because one horrible night when she got up and walked about, they made
-her think of the gardens at home, and the pacing back and forth in her
-nightgown, and the thorns and gravel in her feet.
-
-As a child Sylvia had read a story of a circus-clown, who had played his
-part when ill and almost dying, because of his wife and child at home.
-Always thereafter a circus-clown had been to her the symbol of the irony
-of human life. But now she knew another figure, equally tragic, equally
-terrible to be—the heroine of a State romance. To be photographed and
-written about, to see people staring at you, to have to smile and look
-like one hearing celestial music—and all the while to have a breaking
-heart!
-
-
- § 22
-
-Sylvia fought long battles with herself. “Oh, I can’t do it!” she would
-cry. “I can’t do it!” And then “You’ve promised to do it!” she would say
-to herself. And every day she spent more money, and met more of van
-Tuiver’s friends, and read more articles about her Romance.
-
-Then one morning came a hall-boy with a card. She looked at it, and had
-a painful start. “Tubby” Bates!
-
-He came in, cheerful, jolly, reminding her of so many things—such happy
-things! She had had a bad night, and now she simply could not talk; her
-words choked her, and she sat staring at him, her eyes suddenly filling
-with tears.
-
-“Why, Miss Castleman!” he exclaimed—and saw such a look upon that lovely
-face that his voice died away to a whisper—“You aren’t happy!”
-
-Still for a while she could not answer. He asked her what was the
-matter; and then, again, in greater distress, “Why did you do it?” She
-responded, in a faint voice, “I did it on my father’s account.”
-
-There was a long silence. Then with sudden energy she began, “Mr. Bates,
-there is something I want to talk to you about. It’s something
-difficult—almost impossible for me to speak of. And yet—I seem to get
-more and more desperate about it. I can never be happy in my life until
-I’ve talked to some one about it.”
-
-“What is it, Miss Castleman?”
-
-“It’s about Frank Shirley.”
-
-“Oh!” he said, in surprise.
-
-“You know that I was engaged to him, Mr. Bates?”
-
-“Yes, I was told that.”
-
-“And you can guess, perhaps, how I have suffered. I know only what the
-newspapers printed—nothing more. And now—you are a man, and you were at
-Harvard—you must know. Is it true that Frank—that he did something that
-would make it wrong for me ever to see him again?”
-
-The blood had pressed into Sylvia’s face, but still she did not lower
-her eyes. She was gazing intensely at her friend. She must know the
-truth! The whole truth!
-
-He considered, and then said, gravely, “No, Miss Castleman, I don’t
-think he did that.”
-
-There was a pause. “But—it was a place——” she could go no further.
-
-“I know,” he said. “But you see, Shirley had a room-mate—Jack Colton.
-And he was always trying to help him—to keep him out of trouble and get
-him home sober——”
-
-“Oh, then _that_ was it!” The words came in a tone that frightened Bates
-by their burden of anguish.
-
-“Yes, Miss Castleman,” he said. “And as to the row—Shirley saw a woman
-mistreated, and he interfered, and knocked a man down. I know the man,
-and he’s the sort one has to knock down. The only trouble was that he
-hit his head as he fell.”
-
-“I see!” whispered Sylvia.
-
-“But even so, there wouldn’t have been any publicity, except that some
-of the ‘Auburn Street crowd’ were there. They saw their chance to put
-the candidate of the ‘Yard’ out of the running; and they did it. It was
-a rotten shame, because everybody knew that Frank Shirley was not that
-kind of man——”
-
-Bates stopped again. He could not bear the look he saw on Sylvia’s face.
-She bowed her head in her arms, and silent sobbing shook her. Then she
-got up and began to pace back and forth distractedly. He knew very well
-what was going on in her thoughts.
-
-Suddenly she turned upon him. “Mr. Bates,” she exclaimed, “you must help
-me! You must stay here and help me!”
-
-“Certainly, Miss Castleman. What can I do?”
-
-“In the first place, you must not breathe a word of this to anyone. You
-understand?”
-
-“Of course.”
-
-“Have you any idea where Frank Shirley is?”
-
-“I heard that he had gone out to Wyoming with Jack Colton.”
-
-“Then you must telegraph to Mr. Colton; and also you must telegraph to
-Frank Shirley’s home. You must say that Frank is to come to you in New
-York at once. He mustn’t lose an hour, you understand; my father will be
-here next week. Then, too, Frank will have heard of my engagement, and
-you can’t tell what he might do.”
-
-Bates stared at her. “Do you know what you are doing, Miss Castleman?”
-he asked.
-
-“I do,” she answered.
-
-“Very well, then,” he said, “I will do what you ask.”
-
-“Go, do it now,” she cried, and he went—carrying with him for the rest
-of his life the memory of her face of agony. He sent the telegrams, and
-in due course received replies—which he did not dare to bring to Sylvia
-himself, but sent by messenger. The first, from Frank’s home, was to the
-effect that his whereabouts were unknown; and the second, from Jack
-Colton, was to the effect that Frank had gone away a couple of weeks
-before, saying that he would never return.
-
-
- § 23
-
-Sylvia wrestled this problem out with her own soul. The only person who
-ever knew about it was Aunt Varina, and she knew only because she
-happened to awaken in the small hours of the morning and hear signs of a
-fit of hysteria which the girl was trying to repress. She went into
-Sylvia’s room and found her huddled upon the bed; when she asked what
-was the matter, the other sobbed without lifting her face—“Oh, I can’t
-marry him! I can’t marry him!”
-
-Mrs. Tuis stared at her in consternation. “Why, Sylvia!” she gasped.
-
-“Oh, Aunt Varina,” moaned Sylvia, “I’m so unhappy! It’s so horrible!”
-
-“But, my child! You are out of your senses! What has happened?”
-
-“I’ve come to realize the mistake I’ve made! I’d rather die than do it!”
-
-Poor Aunt Varina was dumb with dismay. Sylvia had played her part so
-well that no one had had a suspicion. Now, between her bursts of
-weeping, she stammered out what she had learned. Frank was innocent. He
-had gone away forever—perhaps he had killed himself. At any rate, his
-life was ruined, and Sylvia had done it.
-
-“But, my child,” protested the other, “you couldn’t help it. How could
-you know?”
-
-“I should have found out! I should have trusted Frank; I should have
-known that he could not do what they accused him of. I have been
-faithless to him—faithless to our love. And now what will become of
-him?”
-
-Aunt Varina sat gazing at her, tears of sympathy running down her
-cheeks. “Sylvia,” she whispered, “what will you do?”
-
-“Oh, I love Frank Shirley!” moaned the girl. “I never loved anybody
-else—I never will love anybody else! And I know—what I didn’t know at
-first—that it’s wicked, wicked to marry without love!”
-
-“But what will you do?” repeated the other, who was dazed with horror.
-
-For a long time there was no sound but Sylvia’s weeping. “Sylvia dear,”
-began Aunt Varina, at last, “you must control yourself. You must not let
-these thoughts get possession of you. You will destroy yourself if you
-do.”
-
-“I can’t marry him!” sobbed the girl.
-
-“I can’t let you go on talking that way!” exclaimed the other, wildly.
-“Do you realize what you are saying? Look at me, child, look at me!”
-
-Sylvia looked at her, wondering a little—for never had she seen such
-vehemence exhibited by this gentle and submissive “poor relation.”
-“Listen!” Mrs. Tuis rushed on. “How can you know that what you have
-heard is true? You say that Frank was innocent—but your Cousin Harley
-investigated, and he declared he was guilty. Mrs. Winthrop told you the
-same—she said everybody knew. And yet you take the word of one man! And
-you told me at Harvard that Mr. Bates was distressed at the idea of your
-marrying Mr. van Tuiver. You told me he warned you against him! Isn’t
-that so, Sylvia?”
-
-“Yes, Aunt Varina, but—”
-
-“He does not like Mr. van Tuiver, and he comes here at a time like this,
-and puts such ideas into your thoughts. Don’t you see that was not an
-honorable thing to do—when you were on the verge of being married and
-couldn’t get out of it! When you know that your father would be utterly
-ruined—that your whole family would be wrecked by it!”
-
-“Surely it can’t be so bad, Aunt Varina!”
-
-“Think how your father has gone into debt on your account! All the
-clothes you have bought—the bills at this hotel—the expenses of the
-wedding! Thousands and thousands of dollars!”
-
-“Oh, I didn’t want all that!” wailed Sylvia.
-
-“But you did! You insisted on coming here to New York, where a wedding
-would cost several times as much as at home! You have come out before
-all the world as Mr. van Tuiver’s fiancée—and think of the scandal and
-the disgrace, if you were to break it off! And poor Mr. van Tuiver—what
-a figure he’d cut! And when he loves you so!”
-
-Sylvia’s sobbing had ceased during this outburst. When she spoke again,
-her voice was hard. “He does not love me,” she said.
-
-“Why, what in the world do you mean by that?”
-
-“I mean just what I say. He doesn’t love me—not as Frank loves me. He
-isn’t capable of it.”
-
-“But then—why—for what other reason should he be marrying you?”
-
-“I’m beautiful, and he wants me. But it’s mainly because I offended his
-vanity—yes, just that! I turned him down, I ridiculed him and insulted
-him. I was something he couldn’t get; and the more he couldn’t get me,
-the more the thought of me rankled in his mind.”
-
-“Sylvia! How _can_ you be so cynical!”
-
-“I’m not cynical at all. I just won’t gild things over, as other women
-do. I won’t make pretences, I won’t cover myself and my whole life with
-a cloak of shams. I know right now that I’m being sold, just as much as
-if I were led out to an auction-block with chains about my ankles! I’m
-being sold to a man—and I was meant to be sold to a man from the very
-beginning of my life!”
-
-There was a silence; for Aunt Varina was paralyzed by these amazing
-words. She had never heard such an utterance in her life before.
-“Sylvia!” she cried. “What do you mean? _Who_ is driving you?”
-
-“I don’t know! But something is!”
-
-“How can you say it? Can you imagine that your good, kind parents—”
-
-“Oh, no!” interrupted Sylvia, passionately. “At least—they don’t know
-it!”
-
-Mrs. Tuis sat dumfounded. “Sylvia,” she quavered, at last, “let me
-implore you to get yourself together before your father arrives in New
-York. If he should hear what you have said to me to-night, he would
-never get over it—truly, it would kill him!”
-
-
- § 24
-
-An event to which Sylvia looked forward with considerable interest was a
-meeting with Mrs. Beauregard Dabney, who was coming to New York for a
-visit. Harriet, as her letters showed, was not unappreciative of the
-glory which had descended upon her friend, and would enjoy having some
-of it reflected upon herself. Thus Sylvia might be shown what emotions
-she ought to be feeling; possibly she might even be made to feel some of
-them. At any rate, she knew that Harriet would help to keep her courage
-screwed up.
-
-But Sylvia’s pleasure in the visit was marred by a peculiar
-circumstance, which she had failed to prepare for, in spite of warnings
-duly given. “You must not be surprised when you see me,” Harriet wrote.
-“I have been ill, and I’m terribly changed.” Her reason for coming
-North, it appeared, was to consult specialists about a mysterious
-ailment which had baffled the doctors at home.
-
-Sylvia was quite horrified when she saw her friend. Never could she have
-imagined such a change in anyone in six months’ time. Harriet lifted her
-veil, and there was an old woman with wrinkled, yellow skin. “Why,
-Harriet!” gasped Sylvia, unable to control herself.
-
-“I know, Sunny,” said the other. “Isn’t it dreadful?”
-
-“But for heaven’s sake, what is the matter?”
-
-“That’s what I’ve come to find out. Nobody knows.”
-
-“Why, I never heard of such a thing!” Sylvia exclaimed. “What are you
-doing?”
-
-“I’m having all sorts of things done. The doctors give me medicine, but
-nothing seems to do any good. I’m really in despair about myself.”
-
-“How did it begin, Harriet?”
-
-“I don’t really know. There were so many things, and I didn’t put them
-together. I began having headaches a great deal; and then pains that the
-doctors called neuralgia. I had a bad sore throat over in Europe; I
-thought the climate disagreed with me, but I’ve had it again at home.
-And now eruptions break out; the doctors treat them with things, and
-they go away, but then they come back. All my hair is falling out, and
-I’ve got to wear a wig.”
-
-“Why, how perfectly horrible!” cried Sylvia.
-
-She started to embrace her friend, but was repelled. “I mustn’t kiss
-anyone,” said Harriet. “You see, it might be contagious—one can’t be
-sure.”
-
-“But what are you going to do, Harriet?”
-
-“I’ve almost given up hoping. I haven’t really cared so much, since the
-doctors told me I can never have another baby. You know, Sunny, it’s
-curious—I never cared about children, I thought they were nuisances. But
-when mine came, I cared—oh, so horribly! I wanted to have a real one.”
-
-“A real one?” echoed Sylvia.
-
-“Yes. I didn’t write you about it, and perhaps I oughtn’t to tell you
-just at this time. But you know, Sunny, he didn’t seem like a human
-being at all; he was a little gray mummy.”
-
-“Harriet!”
-
-“Just like that—a regular skeleton, his skin all loose, so that you
-could lift it up in folds. He was a kind of earthy color, and had no
-hair, and no finger nails——”
-
-Sylvia broke out with a cry of horror, and her friend stopped. “I
-haven’t talked to anyone about it,” she said—“I guess I oughtn’t to,
-even to you.”
-
-“How long did he live?”
-
-“About six weeks. Nobody knew what he died of—he just seemed to fade
-away. You can’t imagine it, perhaps—but, Sunny, I wanted him to
-stay—even him! He was all I could ever have, and it seemed so cruel!”
-Suddenly the girl hid her face in her hands and began to sob—the first
-time that Sylvia had ever seen her do it in all her life.
-
-So it was not the cheering visit that Sylvia had anticipated. It left
-her with much to think about, and to talk about with other people. Later
-on, speaking to Aunt Varina, she happened to mention something that van
-Tuiver had said about the matter; whereupon her aunt exclaimed, “You
-didn’t talk about it with Mr. van Tuiver!”
-
-“But why not, Auntie?”
-
-“You mustn’t do that, dear! You can’t tell.”
-
-“Can’t tell what?”
-
-“I mean, dear, that Harriet might have some disease that you oughtn’t to
-talk to Mr. van Tuiver about.” Aunt Varina hesitated, then added, in a
-whisper, “Some ‘bad disease’.”
-
-Whereat Sylvia started in sudden dismay. So _that_ was it! A “bad
-disease”!
-
-You must understand how it happened that Sylvia had ideas on this
-subject. There was a foreign writer of plays, whose name she had heard.
-She had never seen his books, and would not have opened one, upon peril
-of her soul; but once, in a magazine picked up in a train, she had read
-a casual reference to an Ibsen play, which dealt with a nameless and
-dreadful malady. From the context it was made clear that this malady was
-a price men paid for evil living—and a price which was often collected
-from their innocent wives and children. Now and then the women of
-Sylvia’s family spoke in awe-stricken whispers of this mysterious taint,
-using the phrase “a bad disease.” Now, apparently, she was beholding the
-horror before her eyes!
-
-
- § 25
-
-The problem occupied Sylvia’s mind for several days, to the exclusion of
-everything else. It lent a new dread to the thought of marriage. How
-could a woman be safe from such a thing? Beauregard Dabney was not the
-most perfect specimen of manhood that one could have selected, but there
-was nothing especial the matter with him that could be observed. Yet see
-what had happened to his wife and child!
-
-Harriet came again, and this time her husband was with her. He was just
-as much in love with her as ever—in fact, Sylvia thought that she noted
-a new and pathetic clinging on his part. They had been to see a great
-specialist, and still there was nothing definite to be learned about the
-malady; the doctor, hearing that the couple had journeyed up the Nile,
-suggested that possibly it might be an African fever, and promised to
-look up the mysterious symptoms in his books. Wasn’t it extraordinary,
-exclaimed Harriet; but Sylvia, who could not be deceived for very long,
-noticed that Beauregard was not so much excited about the African theory
-as his wife. Suddenly the thought came to her, Could it be that the
-doctors really knew what the disease was, and would not tell Harriet?
-Could it be that Beauregard knew, and was helping in the deception?
-Then—horror of horrors—could it be that he had known all along, and had
-upon his conscience the crime of having brought the woman he loved into
-this state?
-
-Sylvia’s relentless mind, once having got hold of this problem, clung to
-it like a bull-dog to the throat of an enemy. Of course such a disease
-was a loathsome thing; a woman could not very well ask questions about
-it—yet, what was she to do? Apparently she was dependent upon the man’s
-honor; and could it be that a man’s notion of honor permitted him, when
-he was desperately in love, to take such chances with a woman’s life?
-Sylvia remembered suddenly that Beauregard had made love to _her_. More
-than once she had actually permitted him to hold and fondle her hand.
-The mere thought made her shrink with horror.
-
-And then came another idea. (How quickly she was putting things
-together!) Men got this disease by evil living. Then Beauregard must
-have done the sort of thing that Frank Shirley had been accused of
-doing! Also Jack Colton had done the same! Also—had not Bates said that
-there were some of the “Auburn Street crowd” in that place? Club-men,
-gentlemen, the aristocracy of Harvard! There came back to her the phrase
-from Harley’s letter: “one of the two or three high-class houses of
-prostitution which are especially frequented by college men!” How much
-Sylvia knew about this forbidden subject, when she came to put her mind
-to it! More, apparently, than her own parents—for had they not shown
-themselves willing for her to fall in love with Beauregard Dabney? More,
-also, than Mrs. Winthrop—for had not that lady implied that it was only
-low and obscure men who permitted themselves such baseness?
-
-As you may believe, it was not long before Sylvia’s thoughts came to her
-own intended husband. What had been _his_ life? What might be the
-chances of her being brought to such a fate as Harriet’s? Apparently
-nobody had any thought about it. They had been quick to avail themselves
-of the appearance of evil on the part of Frank Shirley; but what had
-they done to make sure that van Tuiver had been any better?
-
-For three days Sylvia debated this problem; and then her mind was made
-up—she would do something about it. She would talk to someone. But to
-whom?
-
-She began with her faithful chaperone, mentioning the African fever
-theory, and so bringing up the subject of “bad diseases.” Just how much
-did Aunt Varina know about these diseases? Not very much, it appeared.
-Was there any way to find out about them? There was no way that Aunt
-Varina could conceive—it was not a subject concerning which a young girl
-ought to inquire.
-
-“But,” protested Sylvia, “a girl has to marry. And think of taking such
-chances! Suppose, for instance, that Mr. van Tuiver—”
-
-“Ssh!” Aunt Varina almost leaped at her niece in her access of horror.
-“Sylvia! how can you suggest such a thing?”
-
-“But, Auntie, how can I be sure?”
-
-“You surely know that the man to whom you have given your heart is a
-gentleman!”
-
-“Yes, Auntie, but then I knew that Beauregard Dabney was a gentleman—and
-so did you. And see what has happened!”
-
-“But, Sylvia dear! You don’t know that it’s _that_!”
-
-“I very nearly know it. And if Beauregard was willing to marry when he—”
-
-“But _he_ may not have known it, Sylvia!”
-
-“Well, don’t you see, Aunt Varina? That makes it all the more serious!
-If Mr. van Tuiver himself can be ignorant, how can I feel safe?”
-
-“But, Sylvia, what could you do?”
-
-“Why, I should think he ought to go to some one who knows—a doctor—and
-make sure.”
-
-The poor old lady was almost speechless with horror. What was the world
-coming to? “How can you say such a thing?” she exclaimed. “You, a pure
-girl! Who could suggest such a thing to Mr. van Tuiver?”
-
-“Couldn’t Papa do it?”
-
-“And pray, who is to suggest it to your father? Surely _you_ couldn’t!”
-
-“Why no,” said Sylvia, “perhaps not. But couldn’t Mamma?”
-
-“Your mother would _die_ first!” And Sylvia, remembering her “talk” with
-“Miss Margaret,” had to admit that this was probably true.
-
-But still she could not give up her idea that something ought to be
-done. She took a couple of days more to think, and then made up her mind
-to write to her Uncle Basil. The family had sent him to talk with her
-about Frank’s misconduct, thus apparently indicating him as her proper
-adviser in delicate matters.
-
-So she wrote, at some length—using most carefully veiled language, and
-tearing up many pages which contained words she could not endure seeing
-on paper. But she made her meaning clear—that she thought someone should
-approach her future husband on the subject.
-
-Sylvia waited the necessary period for the Bishop’s reply, and read it
-with trembling fingers and flaming cheeks—although its language was even
-more carefully veiled than her own. The substance of it was that van
-Tuiver was a Christian gentleman, and this must be Sylvia’s guarantee
-that he would not bring any harm to the woman he so deeply revered.
-Surely, if Sylvia respected him enough to marry him, she could trust him
-in a matter like this! To approach him upon it would be to offer him a
-deadly insult.
-
-Whereupon Sylvia took several days more to worry and wonder. She was not
-satisfied at all, and finally summoned her courage and wrote to the
-Bishop again. It was not merely a question of honor; if that were true,
-she would have to say that Beauregard Dabney was a scoundrel and she did
-not believe that. Might it not possibly be _knowledge_ that was lacking?
-She begged her uncle to do her the favor of his life by writing to van
-Tuiver; and she intimated further that if he would not do it, she would
-have to put the matter before her father.
-
-So there was another wait, and then came a letter from the Bishop,
-saying that he was writing as requested. Then, after a third wait, a
-letter with van Tuiver’s reply. He had taken the inquiry very
-magnanimously; he could understand, he said, how Sylvia had been upset
-by the sight of her friend’s illness. As to her own case, she might rest
-assured that there could be no such possibility. And so at last Sylvia’s
-fears were allayed, and she was free to be unhappy about other matters.
-
-
- § 26
-
-You must not imagine that Sylvia was spending these days in moping; all
-her thinking had to be done in the odd moments of a strenuous career.
-Day and night she had to meet new people, and new people were always an
-irresistible stimulus to her curiosity. Not all of them were hall-boys
-and shop-clerks, falling instant victims to her charms; on the contrary,
-they were Knickerbocker “society”—people not infrequently as wealthy as
-her future husband, and having an equally great notion of their own
-importance. The tidings that Douglas van Tuiver had picked up a country
-girl had not thrilled them with sympathetic emotions. The details of the
-newspaper romance inspired them only with contempt. There had to be many
-a flash of Sylvia’s rapier-wit, and many a flash of Sylvia’s red-brown
-eyes, before these patrician plutocrats had been brought to acknowledge
-her an equal.
-
-A few of these acquaintances were kindly people, whom she could imagine
-making into friends, if only there had been time. But she wondered how
-anybody ever found time for friendship in this restless and expensive
-and highly ornamental life. Such a whirl of dinner-parties and
-supper-parties, dances and luncheons and teas! Such august and imposing
-splendor, such dignified and even sombre dissipation! The Major had
-provided abundant credit for this last splurge; and van Tuiver’s aunt
-was also on hand, conspiring with her nephew to smother Sylvia under
-loads of gifts. The girl wondered sometimes, was it that van Tuiver had
-suspicions of her wavering, and sought to bind her by forcing these
-luxuries upon her? Or would she be expected always to live this kind of
-Arabian Nights’ existence?
-
-There came old friends, to bask in the sunlight of her success. Miss
-Abercrombie came, effulgent with delight, assured of a lifetime’s
-prosperity by this demonstration of her system. With her came Celeste,
-playing her difficult part with bitter pride. Harley Chilton ran down
-from Boston, bringing the tidings that he had made the “Dickey” and saw
-his way clear to the top of the Harvard pyramid. Last of all, two or
-three days before the wedding came “Queen Isabella,” distributing her
-largess of blessings to all concerned.
-
-First she met “Miss Margaret” and the Major, and addressed them with
-such mystical eloquence that the agitated pair had not a dry eye between
-them. After which she sought the prospective bride and bridegroom; and
-not even the most reverend millionaire bishop who was to perform the
-ceremony could have been more pontifical and impressive than our great
-lady in this solemn hour. We live in a cynical world, which affords but
-poor soil for the nurture of the finer flowers of the spirit. But Mrs.
-Winthrop was one really capable of experiencing the more exalted
-emotions, and of giving them ungrudging utterance. She was thrilled now
-by the vistas which she saw unfolding; not since the day of her espousal
-of the celebrated railroad-builder had the wings of the seraphim rustled
-so loudly about her head. She might have been compared to a creative
-artist who labors for long in solitude, and who at last, when he reveals
-his masterpiece, is startled by the clamor of the world’s applause.
-
-“Sylvia,” she said, and put both her hands upon the girl’s—“Sylvia, you
-have before you a great career, a career of service. You will be happy—I
-know you must be happy, dear, when once you have come to realize what an
-inspiration you are to others. Such fortune as yours falls but rarely to
-a woman, but you will be worthy of it—I believe you will be worthy of
-everything that has come to you.”
-
-“I hope so, Mrs. Winthrop,” answered Sylvia, humbly.
-
-And then, as van Tuiver discreetly moved away, the other went on, in a
-low and deeply-moved voice: “Don’t imagine, dear girl, that I fail to
-realize all your doubts and perplexities. I know just how you feel, for
-I had to go through with it myself. Every woman does—but believe me,
-such tremors are as nothing compared to all the rest of one’s life. We
-learn to subordinate our personal feelings, our personal preferences.
-That is one of the duties of those who have greatness as their lot—who
-have to live what one might call public lives.”
-
-Now, Sylvia might have her doubts as to the soundness of this doctrine,
-but she had none as to the genuineness of the speaker’s feelings; so she
-was a trifle shocked when Mrs. Winthrop went away, and she discovered
-that her future husband was laughing.
-
-“What is it?” she asked.
-
-“Nothing,” he said, “it’s all right—only when you are Mrs. Douglas van
-Tuiver, you will receive Isabella’s ecstasies with a trifle more
-reserve. You will realize that she has her own axes to grind.”
-
-“Axes—what do you mean?”
-
-“Social axes. You’ll understand my world bye-and-bye, Sylvia. Isabella’s
-trying to make an impression beyond her income, and she’s seeking
-alliances. What you must remember is that the need is on her side.”
-
-There was a pause, while Sylvia sat thinking. “Tell me,” she said, at
-last, “why did Mrs. Winthrop change so suddenly, and begin urging me to
-marry you?”
-
-“It’s the same thing,” he answered. “She couldn’t afford to displease
-me. When she found that I was determined to have my way, she tried to
-make it seem her work. Naturally, she’d want as much of the prestige of
-this wedding as she could get.”
-
-Again Sylvia pondered. “Hasn’t Mrs. Winthrop’s husband enough money?”
-she asked.
-
-“He has enough, but he won’t spend it. The tragedy of Isabella’s life is
-that her husband is really interested in railroads.”
-
-“But I thought he adored her!” Sylvia remembered a pathetic stout
-gentleman she had seen wandering about on the outskirts of a throng of
-the great lady’s admirers.
-
-“Oh, yes,” replied van Tuiver, with laughter. “I never saw a woman who
-had a man more completely bluffed. But the trouble is that he offers
-himself, and what she wants is his money.”
-
-There followed a long silence. Van Tuiver had pleasant things to
-meditate upon; but suddenly he chanced to look at Sylvia, and exclaimed,
-“Why, what’s the matter?”
-
-“Nothing,” she said, and turned away her head to conceal the tears she
-had failed to repress.
-
-“But what is it?” he demanded, not without a touch of annoyance.
-
-“There’s no use talking about it,” was Sylvia’s reply. “It’s just that
-you promised you would try not to think so much about money. Sometimes I
-can’t help being frightened, when I realize that you don’t ever believe
-in people—but only in money.”
-
-She saw the old worried look come back to his face. “You know that I
-believe in _you_!” he exclaimed.
-
-“You told me,” she answered, “that the only way I was able to make an
-impression upon you was by refusing to marry you. And now I have given
-up that prestige—so aren’t you afraid that you may come to feel about me
-as you do about Mrs. Winthrop?”
-
-
- § 27
-
-Major and Mrs. Castleman arrived next morning, and after that there were
-busy times for Sylvia. There was the wedding-gown to be shown, and the
-trousseau and the presents; there were plans for the future to be told
-of, and many blessings to be received. “Miss Margaret” was in a “state”
-most of the time—tears of joy and tears of sorrow pursuing each other
-down her generous cheeks. “Sylvia,” she exclaimed, in one breath, “I
-_know_ you will be happy!” And then, in the next breath, “Sylvia, I
-_hope_ you will be happy!” And then, in a third breath, “Sylvia, how
-will we ever get on without you? Who will dare to spank the baby?”
-
-It was with her father that she had the really trying ordeal; her father
-took her into a room alone, and held her hands in his and tried to read
-her soul. “Tell me, my child, are you going to be happy?”
-
-“I think so, Papa,” she answered; and had to make herself look into his
-eyes.
-
-“I want you to understand me, dear Sylvia—even now, at this last hour,
-don’t take the step unless you believe with your best judgment that you
-will be happy.”
-
-There was a moment of madness, when she had the impulse to fling herself
-into his arms and cry, “I love Frank Shirley!” But instead of that she
-hurried on, “I believe he loves me deeply, Papa.”
-
-Said the Major, in a trembling voice, “There is no more solemn moment in
-a father’s life than when he sees his dearly loved daughter taking this
-irrevocable step. I want you to know, my darling, that I have prayed
-earnestly, I have done my best to judge what is right for you.”
-
-“Yes, Papa,” she said, “I know that.”
-
-“I want you to know that if ever I have seemed to be stern, it has been
-because I believed my daughter’s welfare required it.”
-
-“Yes, Papa,” she said, again.
-
-“I am sure, this man loves you, Sylvia; and I believe he’s a good man—he
-ought to make you happy. But I want you to know that if by any chance my
-prayers are denied—if you find that you are not happy—then your father’s
-home will always be open to you, his arms will always be stretched wide
-to clasp you.”
-
-“Dear old Daddy!” whispered the girl. She felt the arms about her now,
-and she began to sob softly, with a mixture of emotions. Oh, if only she
-might stay for the balance of her life in the shelter of those arms,
-that were so strong and so dependable! If only there were not the
-dreadful thing called marriage—which drove her out into another pair of
-arms, from which she shrunk with such unconquerable aversion!
-
-This was the heart of her difficulty—her inability to conquer her
-physical shrinking from the man to whom she was betrothed. Here she was,
-upon the very eve of her wedding, and she had made no progress whatever.
-Mentally and spiritually she had probed him, and felt that she knew him
-intimately; but physically he was still an utter stranger to her—as much
-so as any man she might have met upon the street. She would sit talking
-with him, trying to forget herself and her fears for a while; and
-gradually she would be conscious of his gaze upon her, his eyes
-traveling over her form, devouring her in thought, longing for her. Then
-she would go almost beside herself—she would have to spring up and break
-the chain of his thoughts. It seemed to her that she was like the prey
-of some wild beast—or a beast that was just tame enough to wait
-patiently, knowing that at a certain time the prey would be in its
-grasp.
-
-On the evening before the wedding van Tuiver was to attend a
-“stag-dinner” with his friends; but he called in to see her for a few
-minutes, and the family discreetly left them alone. In a sudden access
-of longing, he clasped her in his arms, and she forced herself to
-submit. Then he began to kiss her, to press passionate kisses upon her
-cheek and throat. His breath was hot, and utterly horrible to her; she
-could not endure it, and cried out to him to stop, and struggled and
-pushed him away. Still holding her, and gazing at her with desire
-blazing in his eyes, he whispered, “Not yet?”
-
-“Oh, how could you?” she cried.
-
-“Is it not time you were beginning to learn?” he demanded; and then,
-wholly beside himself, “Sylvia, how much longer am I to endure this?
-Can’t you understand what you make me suffer? I love you—I love you to
-distraction, and I get nothing from you—nothing! I dare not even tell
-you that I love you!”
-
-The passion in his voice made her shudder; and yet, too, she pitied him.
-She was ashamed of herself for the way she treated him. “What can I do?”
-she cried. “I can’t help it—as God is my witness, I can’t control my
-feelings. I ask myself, ought I to marry you so?”
-
-“It seems to me it’s rather late to bring up that question,” he
-responded.
-
-“I know, I know! I have nothing to say for myself—except that I didn’t
-know, I couldn’t realize. It’s something I must tell you—how I have come
-to feel—that I ought not to marry you, that you ought not to want me to
-marry you, while things are like this. You must know this, so that if I
-marry you, the responsibility will be yours!”
-
-“And you think that is fair of you?” he demanded, his voice grown
-suddenly hard.
-
-He meant to rebuke her, and she felt that he had a right to rebuke her;
-but the wave of emotion which swept her along was not to be controlled
-by her reason. “Oh, you are going to be angry about it!” she cried. “How
-horrible of you!”
-
-He exclaimed, “Sylvia! Can you expect me not to be hurt?”
-
-“I told you that I couldn’t help it! I told you in the very beginning
-that you would have to take me as I was, and be satisfied if I did my
-best! I told you that again and again—that I loved another man, that I
-love him still—”
-
-She stopped. A spasm of pain crossed his face—followed by a look of
-fear. He hesitated, and then, his voice low and trembling, he began,
-“Sylvia, forgive me. I know that you are right—that you are trying to do
-your best. I will be patient. You must be patient with me also.”
-
-She stood, her head bowed, ashamed of what she had said. Yet—she felt
-that he ought to have heard it. “I hate to seem unfair,” she whispered,
-her voice almost breaking. “I don’t want to give you pain, but I can’t
-help these feelings, and I know it’s my duty to tell you of them. I
-don’t see how you can go on—I should think you would be afraid to marry
-me!”
-
-For answer he caught her hands, exclaiming, “I will take my chances! I
-love you, and I will never rest until you love me!”
-
-
- § 28
-
-So far I have put together this story from the memories of Sylvia and
-Frank Shirley. But now I have come to the point where you may watch the
-events through my own eyes. I will take a paragraph or two to give you
-an idea of the quality of these eyes, and then proceed without further
-delay.
-
-Mary Abbott, the teller of this tale, was at the age of forty a crude
-farmer’s wife upon a lonely pioneer homestead in Manitoba. In winter in
-that part of the world it begins to grow dark at three o’clock in the
-afternoon, and it is not fully light until nine o’clock in the morning.
-We were a mile from the nearest neighbor, and had often three feet of
-snow upon the ground, with fifty degrees below zero and a sweeping wind.
-I had a husband whom I feared and despised, and for whom I cooked and
-washed and sewed, whether I was well or ill. Under these circumstances I
-had raised three children to maturity. I had moved to town and seen them
-through high-school; and now, the girl being married, and the two boys
-in college, I found myself suddenly free to see the world.
-
-You must not think of me as altogether ignorant. I had fought
-desperately for books, and had grown up with my children. Discovering in
-the town the perpetual miracle of a circulating library, I had read
-wildly, acquiring a strange assortment of new ideas. But that, I am
-ashamed to say, made very little difference when I reached the East. It
-is one thing to read up in the theory of Socialism, and say that you
-have freed yourself from _bourgeois_ ideals; it is quite another to come
-from a raw pioneer community, and be suddenly hit between the eyes by
-all the marvels of the great New Nineveh!
-
-I forgot my principles; I wandered about, breathless with excitement.
-Everything that I had ever read about, in Sunday supplements and cheap
-magazines—here it was before my eyes! I got myself a hall-room in a
-“Greenwich Village” boarding-house, and for days I went, thrusting my
-inquisitive country face into everything that was cheap enough. The huge
-shops with their amazing treasures of silks and jewels; the great hotels
-with their gold and stucco splendors; the dizzy, tower-like
-office-buildings; the newspaper offices with their whirling presses; the
-theatres, the museums, the parks; the Brooklyn Bridge and the Statue of
-Liberty, Grant’s Tomb and the Bowery—I was the very soul of that thing
-which the New Yorker derisively calls the “rubber-neck wagon!” I took my
-place in one of these moving grand-stands, and listened to all that came
-out of the megaphone. Here was the home of the steel-king, which had
-cost three millions of dollars! Here was the home where a fifty thousand
-dollar chef was employed! Here was the old van Tuiver mansion, where the
-millionaire-baby had been brought up! Here was the Palace Hotel, where
-Miss Sylvia Castleman was staying!
-
-It was the day before the wedding; and I, like all the rest of the city,
-was thrilling over the Romance, knowing more about the preparations than
-the bride herself. I had read all the papers—morning papers and
-afternoon papers; I had read descriptions of the wedding-gown, the
-trousseau, the rooms full of gift-treasures with detectives on guard. I
-had stared at the outside of the church, and imagined the inside. Last
-of all, I had wandered up to the Palace Hotel and peered about in the
-lobby, amusing myself by imagining that each gorgeous female creature
-who floated by and disappeared into a motor-car might possibly be the
-Princess herself!
-
-At the boarding-house we discussed the possibility of seeing the
-wedding-cortege, and everybody said that I could not come within a block
-of the church. “I’ll fight my way,” I declared; to which the reply was
-that I would find out something about New York policemen that would cure
-me of my fighting impulses. The result of the discussion was that I set
-out immediately after breakfast, fired with the spirit of the
-discoverers of Pike’s Peak.
-
-I must get at least a glimpse, I told myself. What a tale to be able to
-tell at the Women’s Club receptions at home! To say: “I saw her! She was
-the loveliest thing! And oh, her dress! It was cream-white satin, with
-four graduated flounces of exquisite point-lace!” Of course I could have
-got all that from the newspapers; but I wanted to be able to say it
-truly.
-
-The wedding-hour was noon, but at nine there was already a respectable
-crowd. I established myself upon the steps of a nearby house, with a
-newspaper to sit on and a pair of borrowed opera-glasses in my hand-bag.
-In the meantime I entertained myself talking with the other watchers,
-who were a new type to me, well-dressed women, kept in luxury, whether
-legal or otherwise, who fed their empty minds upon fashion sheets and
-“society notes,” and had no idea in the world beyond the decking of
-their persons and the playing of their little part in the great game of
-Splurge. We talked about the van Tuiver family, its history and its
-present status; we talked with awe about the bride; we talked about the
-presents, the decorations, the costumes—there was so much to talk about!
-
-Shortly after ten o’clock a calamity befell us—the police began to clear
-the steps, driving the crowd far back from the church-entrance. What
-agonies, what expostulations! How outrageous—when we had waited there an
-hour already! Sometimes the steps were our own steps, sometimes they
-were the steps of friends; but even that made no difference. “I’m sorry,
-lady, the orders are to clear everything.” They were as gentle about it
-as they could be, but that was none too gentle; we had the butt-ends of
-clubs, pressing into our stomachs, and back we went, arguing, scolding,
-threatening, sometimes weeping or fainting.
-
-I was tremendously disappointed. To have to go back to the
-boarding-house, and admit defeat to the milliner’s assistant who sat
-next to me at meals! To hear “I told you so” from the “floor-walker” who
-sat across the way! “I won’t do it!” I said to myself.
-
-And then suddenly came my chance. Behind me there was a commotion, angry
-protests—“Officer, let us through here! We have cards!” Cards—how our
-souls thrilled as we heard the word! Here, right close to us, were some
-of the chosen ones! Let us see them at least—a bit of Royalty at second
-hand!
-
-They pushed their way through—three women and two men. As they neared
-me, I saw the engraved invitations in their hands, and it flashed over
-me that in my hand-bag was a milliner’s advertisement of nearly the same
-size and shape. I dived in, and fished it out with trembling fingers,
-and fell in behind the party, and pushed through the crowd past the line
-of police. There before me was the open space in front of the church!
-
-I had acted on impulse, with no idea what to do next. I could scarcely
-hope to get in to the wedding on a milliner’s card. But fortunately my
-problem solved itself, for there were always the guests pushing into the
-entrance, and everybody was perfectly willing to push ahead of me. All I
-had to do was to “mark time,” and I was free to stay, inhaling delicious
-perfumes and feasting my ears upon scraps of the conversation of the
-_élite_. I foresaw that the banner of the great Northwest would wave
-triumphantly in “Greenwich Village” that night!
-
-
- § 29
-
-I will not stop to detail the separate thrills of this adventure.
-Carriage after carriage, motor after motor drew up, and released new
-revelations of grace and elegance. The time for the ceremony drew near,
-and from the stir in the throng about me I knew that the guests from the
-wedding-breakfast were passing. How I longed to talk to someone—to ask
-who was this and that and the other one! Then I might have been able to
-tell you how “Miss Margaret” wept, and how Aunt Varina trembled, and
-what “Queen Isabella” was wearing! But the only persons I could be sure
-of were the five lovely bridesmaids, and the bride, leaning upon the arm
-of a stately old white-haired gentleman. How we craned our necks, and
-what rapture transported us! We heard the thunder of the organ and the
-orchestra within, and it corresponded to the state of our souls.
-
-There was still quite a throng at either side of the entrance—newspaper
-reporters, people who had come out of houses nearby, people who, like
-myself, had got by the police-lines upon one pretext or another. Down
-the street we could see a solid line of bluecoats, and behind them
-people crowded upon steps, leaning out of windows, clinging to railings
-and lamp-posts. We were in fear lest at any time we might be ordered to
-join this throng, so we stayed silent and very decorous, careful not to
-crowd or to make ourselves conspicuous.
-
-You might have expected, perhaps, that when all the protagonists of the
-drama had entered the church, the crowd would have dispersed; but not a
-soul went. We stood, listening to the faint music, and imagining the
-glories that were hid from our eyes. We pictured the procession up the
-aisle, with the guests standing on the seats in order to get a glimpse
-of it. We pictured the sacred ceremony. (There were some who had
-prayer-books in their hands, the better to aid their imaginations.) We
-pictured the bride, kneeling upon a white silk cushion embroidered with
-gold, receiving the blessings of the millionaire bishop. We heard the
-wild burst of chimes which told us that the two were made one, and our
-pulses leaped with excitement.
-
-All this took perhaps half an hour; and I think that about half that
-time had passed when I first noticed Claire. I never knew how she got
-there; but fate, or providence, or what you will, had set her next to
-me, and that strange intuition which sometimes comes to me, and puts me
-inside the soul of another person in less time than it takes for my eye
-to look them over, gave me the warning of danger from her presence.
-
-She was a tall and striking woman, beautifully gowned, with high color
-and bold black eyes—a woman you would have noticed in any gathering. You
-would have thought at once that she was a foreigner, but you might have
-been puzzled as to her country, for she had none of the characteristic
-French traits, and her English was quite perfect. I glanced at her once,
-and thereafter I forgot everything else—the crowd, the ceremony, all.
-What was the matter with this woman?
-
-What first made me turn was a quick motion, as of a nervous spasm. Then
-I saw that her hands were clenched tightly, and drawn up in front of her
-as if she were struggling with someone. Her lips were moving, yet I
-heard no sound; she was staring in front of her fixedly, but at nothing.
-
-I must explain that it did not occur to me that she had been drinking.
-My country imagination was not equal to that flight. To be sure, since
-my arrival I had learned that the women of the New Nineveh did drink; I
-had peered into the “orange room,” and the “palm room,” and several
-other strange rooms, and had seen gorgeous peacock-creatures with little
-glasses of highly-colored liquids before them. But I had not got so far
-as to imagine any consequences; I had never thought of connecting the
-high color in women’s cheeks, the sparkle in women’s eyes, the animation
-of women’s chatter with the little glasses of highly-colored liquids.
-They had so many other reasons for being animated, these fortunate,
-victorious ones!
-
-No, I only knew that this woman was excited; and I began forthwith to
-imagine most desperate and romantic things. You must remember what I
-said when I was first telling about Sylvia—that my ideas of the _grand
-monde_ had been derived from cheap fiction in “Farm” and “Home” and
-“Fireside” publications. You all know the old story of the beautiful
-heroine who marries the dissolute duke; how the duke’s cast-off mistress
-attends the wedding, and does something melodramatic and
-thrilling—perhaps shoots at the duke, perhaps throws vitriol at the
-bride, perhaps hands her a letter which is worse than vitriol to her
-innocent young soul. I smile when I think how instantly I understood
-this situation, and with what desperate seriousness I made ready to play
-my part—watching the woman like a cat, ready to spring and seize her at
-the first hostile move. And yet, after all, it was no joke, for Claire
-was really quite capable of a murderous impulse when she was in her
-present condition.
-
-Other people had begun to notice her peculiar behavior; I saw one or two
-women edging away from her, but I stayed all the closer. The time came
-when we heard the music of the Mendelssohn March, and the excitement in
-the crowd told us what was coming. Suddenly the doors of the church
-swung open—and there, in her radiant loveliness—the bride!
-
-Her veil was thrown back, but her eyes were cast down, and she clung to
-the arm of her husband. Oh, what a vision she was, and what a thrill
-went about! For myself, however, I scarcely saw her. My eyes were on the
-strange woman.
-
-She looked like a mad creature; quivering in every nerve, her fingers
-twisting and untwisting themselves like writhing snakes. She had
-crouched, as if ready to spring; and I had my hands within a foot of
-hers, ready to stop her. The procession moved through the passage kept
-clear by the police, and I literally held my breath while they
-passed—held it until the bride had stepped into a limousine, and the
-bridegroom had followed, and the door had slammed. Then suddenly the
-strange woman drew herself up and turned upon me, her face glaring into
-mine. I saw her wild eyes—and also I got a whiff of her breath. She
-laughed, a hysterical, hateful laugh, and muttered: “She’ll pay for what
-she gets!”
-
-I whispered “Hush!” But the woman cried again, so that several people
-heard her: “She’ll pay for everything she gets from him!” She added a
-phrase in French, the meaning and import of which I learned to
-understand long afterwards—“_Le cadeau de noce que la maitresse laisse
-dans la corbeille de la jeune fille!_” Then suddenly I saw her sway, and
-I caught her and steadied her, as I know how to steady people with my
-big strong arms.
-
-And that, reader, was the strange way of my coming into the life of
-Sylvia Castleman!
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