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-THE FORLORN HOPE BY EDMUND YATES.
-
-IN TWO VOLUMES.
-VOL. I.
-
-
-
-
-
-
-THE FORLORN HOPE.
-A NOVEL.
-
-BY
-EDMUND YATES,
-AUTHOR OF "LAND AT LAST," "BROKEN TO HARNESS," ETC.
-
-
-_COPYRIGHT EDITION_.
-
-
-IN TWO VOLUMES.
-VOL. I.
-
-
-LEIPZIG
-
-BERNHARD TAUCHNITZ.
-
-1867.
-
-_The Right of Translation is reserved_.
-
-
-
-
-
-
-TO
-CHARLES FECHTER.
-
-
-
-
-
-
-CONTENTS
-OF VOLUME I.
-
-CHAPTER
- I. "Sound the Alarm."
- II. Master and Pupil.
- III. Watching and Waiting.
- IV. Mrs. Wilmot.
- V. A Resolve, and its Results.
- VI. At Kilsyth.
- VII. Brooding.
- VIII. Kith and Kin.
- IX. Ronald.
- X. Cross-examination.
- XI. Irreparable.
- XII. The Leaden Seal.
- XIII. A Turn of the Screw.
- XIV. His grateful Patient.
- XV. Family Relations.
- XVI. Giving up.
- XVII. Face to Face.
-
-
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-
-
-THE FORLORN HOPE.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER I.
-"Sound an Alarm."
-
-
-The half-hour dressing-bell rung out as Sir Duncan Forbes jumped from
-the hired carriage which had borne him the last stage of his journey
-to Kilsyth, and immediately followed his servant, who had put in a
-pantomimically abrupt appearance at the carriage-door, to his room.
-The steaming horses shook their sides, and rattled their harness
-dismally, in the dreary autumnal evening; but a host of gillies and
-understrappers had hurried out at the noise of the approaching wheels,
-and so quickly despoiled the carriage of its luggage, that within a
-very few minutes its driver--comforted by something over his fare, in
-addition to a stiff glass of the incomparable Kilsyth whisky--was
-slowly wending his way back, over a road which to any one but a
-Highlander would have seemed impassable in the fog that had begun to
-cloud the neighbouring mountains in an almost impenetrable shroud of
-misty gray. From the cold, chilly, damp mountain air, from the long
-solitary ride, for the last twenty miles of which he had not met a
-human creature, to the airy bedroom with its French paper, the
-bright wood-fire burning on its hearth, the wax candles on the
-dressing-table, the drawn chintz curtains, the neat writing-table, the
-little shelf of prettily-bound well-chosen books, was a transition
-indeed for Duncan Forbes. One glance around sufficed to show him all
-these things, and to show him in addition the steaming bath, the
-warmed linen, the other various arrangements for his comfort which the
-forethought of Dixon his servant had prepared for him. He was used to
-luxuries, and thoroughly accustomed to rough it; he was not an
-impressionable young man; but there are times, even if we be only
-eight-and-twenty, good-looking, and in the Household Brigade, when we
-feel a kind of sympathy with the working-man who declared that "life
-was not all beer and skittles," and are disposed to look rather more
-seriously than usual upon our own condition and our surroundings.
-The journey from Glenlaggan--it is, it must be confessed, an awful
-road--had had its effect on Duncan Forbes. Why he should have
-permitted himself to be worked upon either by a sense of solitude, or
-by an involuntary tribute to the wildness of the scenery, or perhaps
-by dyspepsia, arising a recent change of living, to fall temporarily
-into a low state of mind; to think about his duns, debts, and
-difficulties; to wonder why he was not at that moment staying with his
-mother in Norfolk, instead of plunging into the depths of the
-Highlands; to think of his cousin Ethel Spalding, and to clench his
-fists violently and mutter strong expressions as the image of a
-certain Dundas Adair, commonly called Lord Adair, rose before him
-simultaneously with that of his said cousin; why he then fell into a
-state which was half lachrymose and half morose, impelling him to
-refresh himself from a silver flask, and to make many mental
-resolutions as to his future life,--why he did all this is utterly
-immaterial to us, as Sir Duncan Forbes is by no manner of means our
-hero, in fact has very little to do with our story. But the journey
-had its effect upon him, and rendered the comfort and luxury of
-Kilsyth doubly precious in his eyes. So that when he had had his bath,
-and, well advanced in his dressing, was luxuriating in the comfort of
-cleanliness and fresh linen, and the prospect of an excellent dinner,
-he had sufficiently returned to his normal condition to ask Dixon--who
-had preceded him by a couple of days--whether the house was full, and
-who were there.
-
-"House quite full, sir," replied Dixon. "Colonel Jefferson, sir, of
-the First Life-guards; Capting Severn, sir, of the Second Life-guards,
-and his lady; Markis Towcester, as have jist jined the Blues; Honble
-Capting Shaddock, of the Eighteenth 'Ussars; Lord Roderick Douglas, of
-the Scots Fusiliers; and--"
-
-"Drop the Army List, Dixon," growled his master, at that moment
-performing heavily on his head with a pair of hair-brushes; "who else
-is here?"
-
-"There's the Danish Minister, sir--which I won't try to pronounce
-his name--and his lady; and there's the Dook and Duchess of
-Northallerton--which the Dook has the gout that bad, his man told
-me--used to be in our ridgment, Sir Duncan, and was bought out by his
-mother on his father's death--as to be past bearin' sometimes; and
-Lady Fairfax, sir; and Lady Dunkeld, as is Lady Muriel's cousin, sir;
-and a Mr. Pitcairn, as is a distant relation of the family's; and a
-Mr. Fletcher, as is, I'm told, a hartist, or something of that kind,
-sir--he hasn't brought a man here, sir; so I'm unable to say; but he
-seems to be well thought of, sir; quite at his ease, as they say,
-among the company, sir."
-
-"Dear me!" said Duncan Forbes, suspending the action of the
-hair-brushes for a moment, while he grinned grimly; "you seem to be a
-great observer, Dixon."
-
-"Well, sir, one can't keep one's hears shut entirely, nor one's eyes,
-and I noticed this gentleman took a kind of leading part in the talk
-at dinner, sir, yesterday. O, I forgot, sir; Miss Kilsyth have not
-been well for the last two or three days, sir; kep' her room, havin'
-caught cold returnin' from a luncheon-party up at what they call a
-shealing--kind of 'ut, sir, in the 'ills, where they put up when
-stalkin', as I make out, sir,--and her maid says is uncommon low and
-bad."
-
-"Ill, is she?--Miss Kilsyth? Jove, that's bad! Haven't they sent for a
-doctor, or that kind of thing?"
-
-"Yes, sir, they have sent for a doctor; and he's been, sir; leastways
-when I say doctor, sir, I mean to say the 'pothecary from the village,
-sir. Comes on a shady kind of a cob, sir, and I shouldn't say knew
-much about it. Beg your pardon, sir--dinner gong!"
-
-Sir Duncan Forbes' toilette is happily complete at the time of this
-announcement, and he sallies downstairs towards the drawing-room.
-Entering, he finds most of the company already assembled; and in the
-careless glance which he throws around as the door closes behind him,
-he recognises a bevy of London friends, looking, with perhaps the
-addition of a little bronze in the men, and a little plumpness in the
-ladies, exactly as he left them at the concluding ball of the season
-two months ago. Some he has not seen for a longer period, his host
-among them. Kilsyth of Kilsyth, keen sportsman, whether with rod or
-gun; landlord exercising influence over his tenants, not by his
-position alone, but by the real indubitable interest which he takes in
-their well-being; lord-lieutenant of his county, first patron and best
-judge at its agricultural meetings, chairman of the bench of
-magistrates, prime mover in the herring fishery,--what does Kilsyth of
-Kilsyth do in London? Little enough, truth to tell; gives a very
-perfunctory attendance at the House of Commons, meets old friends at
-Brookes's, dines at a few of the earlier meetings of the Fox Club, and
-does his utmost to keep out of the way of the Liberal whip, who dare
-not offend him, and yet grieves most lamentably over his shortcomings
-at St. Stephen's. See him now as he stands on the hearth-rug, with his
-back to the drawing-room fire, a hale hearty man, whose fifty years of
-life have never bent his form nor scarcely dimmed the fire in his
-bright blue eye. Life, indeed, has been pretty smooth and pleasant to
-Kilsyth since, when a younger son, he was gazetted to the 42d; and
-after a slight sojourn in that distinguished regiment, was sent for by
-his father to take the place of his elder brother, killed by the
-bursting of a gun when out on a stalk. A shadow--deep enough at the
-moment, but now mercifully lightened by Time, the grim yet kindly
-consoler--had fallen across his path when his wife, whom he loved so
-well, and whom he had taken from her quiet English home, where, a
-simple parson's daughter, she had captivated the young Highland
-officer, had died in giving birth to a second child. But he had
-survived the shock; and long afterwards, when he had succeeded to the
-family title and estates, and was, indeed, himself well on the way to
-middle age, had married again. Kilsyth's second wife was the sister of
-a Scottish earl of old family and small estate, a high-bred woman,
-much younger than her husband, who had borne him two children (little
-children at the time our story opens), and who, not merely in her
-Highland neighbourhood, but in the best society of London, in which
-she was ungrudgingly received, was looked upon as a pattern wife. With
-the name of Lady Muriel Kilsyth the most inveterate scandalmongers had
-never ventured to make free. The mere fact of her being more than
-twenty years younger than her husband had given them the greatest hope
-of onslaught when the marriage was first announced; but Lady Muriel
-had calmly faced her foes, and not the most observant of them had as
-yet espied the smallest flaw in her harness. Her behaviour to her
-husband, without being in the least degree gushing, was so thoroughly
-circumspect, they lived together on such excellent terms of something
-that was evidently more than amity, though it never pretended to
-devotion, that the scandalmongers were utterly defeated. Balked in one
-direction, they launched out in another; they could not degrade the
-husband by their pity, but they could mildly annoy the wife with
-reflections on her conduct to her step-children. "Poor little things,"
-they said, "with such an ambitious woman for stepmother, and children
-of her own to think of! Ronald may struggle on; but as for poor
-Madeleine--" and uplifted eyebrows and shrugged shoulders completed
-the sentence. It is needless to say that Kilsyth himself heard none of
-these idle babblings, or that if he had, he would have treated them
-with scorn. "My lady" was to him the incarnation of every thing that
-was right and proper, that was clever and far-seeing; he trusted her
-implicitly in every matter; he looked up to and respected her; he
-suffered himself to be ruled by her, and she ruled him very gently and
-with the greatest talent and tact in every matter of his life save
-one. Lady Muriel was all-powerful with her husband, except when, as he
-thought, her views were in the least harsh or despotic towards his
-daughter Madeleine; and then he quietly but calmly held his own way.
-Madeleine was his idol, and no one, not even his wife, could shake him
-in his adoration of her. As he stands on the hearth-rug, there is a
-shadow on his bright cheery face, for he has had bad news of his
-darling since he came in from shooting,--has been forbidden to go to
-her room lest he should disturb her; and at each opening of the door
-he looks anxiously in that direction, half wishing, half fearing Lady
-Muriel's advent with the doctor's latest verdict on the invalid.
-
-The thin slight wiry man talking to Kilsyth, and rattling on
-garrulously in spite of his friend's obvious preoccupation, is Captain
-Sèvern, perhaps the best steeple-chase rider in England, and
-untouchable at billiards by any amateur. He is a slangy, turfy,
-raffish person, hating ladies' society, and using a singular
-vocabulary full of _Bell's-Life_ idioms. He is, however, well
-connected, and has a charming wife, for whose sake he is tolerated; a
-lovely little fairy of a woman, whose heart is as big as her body; the
-merriest, most cheerful, best-tempered creature, trolling out her
-little French _chansons_ in a clear bird-like voice; acting in
-charades with infinite character and piquancy; and withal the idol of
-the poor in the neighbourhood of their hunting-box in Leicestershire;
-and the quickest, softest, and most attentive nurse in sickness, as a
-dozen of her friends could testify.
-
-That bald head which you can just see over the top of the _Morning
-Post_ belongs to the Duke of Northallerton, who has been all his
-life more or less engaged in politics; who has, when his party has
-been in office, held respectively the important positions of
-Postmaster-General and Privy Seal; and who was never so well described
-as by one of his private secretaries, who declared tersely that his
-grace was a "kind old pump." Outwardly he is a tall man of about
-fifty-five, with a high forehead, which has stood his friend through
-life, and obtained him credit for gifts which he never possessed, a
-boiled-gooseberry eye, a straight nose, and projecting buck-teeth. As
-becomes an old English gentleman, he wears a very high white cravat
-and a large white waistcoat; indeed it is only within the last few
-years that he has relinquished his blue coat and gold buttons, and
-very tight pantaloons. He is reading the paper airily through his
-double glasses, and uttering an occasional "Ha!" and "Dear me!" as he
-wades through the movements of the travelling aristocracy; but from
-time to time he removes the glasses from his nose, and looks up with a
-half-peevish glance at his neighbour, Colonel Jefferson. Charley
-Jefferson (no one ever called him any thing else) has a large
-photograph album before him, at which he is not looking in the least;
-on the contrary, his glance is directed straight in front of him; and
-as he stands six feet four, his eyes, when he is sitting, would be
-about on a level with a short man's head; and he is tugging at his
-great sweeping grizzled moustache, and fidgeting with his leg, and
-muttering between his clinched teeth at intervals short phrases, which
-sound like "Little brute! break his neck! beastly little cad!" and
-such-like.
-
-The individual thus objurgated by the Colonel is highly thought of by
-Sir Bernard Burke, and known to Debrett as John Ulick Delatribe,
-Marquis of Towcester, eldest son of the Duke of Plymouth, who has just
-been gazetted to the Blues, after some years at Eton and eighteen
-months' wandering on the Continent. Though he is barely twenty, a more
-depraved young person is rarely to be found; his tutor, the Rev.
-Merton Sandford, who devoted the last few years of his life to him,
-and who has retired to his well-earned preferment of the largest
-living in the duke's gift, lifts up his eyes and shakes his head when,
-over a quiet bottle of claret with an old college friend, he speaks of
-Lord Towcester. The boy's reputation had preceded him to London; a
-story from the Viennese Embassy, of which he was the hero, came across
-in a private note to Blatherwick of the F.O., enclosed in the official
-white sheep-skin despatch-bag, and before night was discussed in half
-the smoking-rooms in Pall-Mall. The youngsters laughed at the anecdote
-and envied its hero; but older men looked grave; and Charley
-Jefferson, standing in the middle of a knot of men on the steps of the
-Rag, said he was deuced glad that the lad wasn't coming into his
-regiment; for if that story were true, the service would be none the
-better for such an accession to it, as, if it were his business, he
-should take an early opportunity of pointing out; and the listeners,
-who knew that Colonel Jefferson was the best soldier and the strictest
-martinet throughout the household cavalry, and who marked the
-expression of his face as he pulled his moustache and strode away
-after delivering his dictum, thought that perhaps it was better for
-Towcester that his lot was cast in a different corps. You would not
-have thought there was much harm in the boy, though, from his
-appearance. Look at him now, as he bends over Lady Fairfax, until his
-face almost touches her soft glossy hair. It is a round, boyish,
-ingenuous face, though the eyes are rather deeply set, and there is
-something cruel about the mouth which the thin downy moustache utterly
-fails to hide. As Lady Fairfax turns her large dark eyes on her
-interlocutor, and looks up at him, her brilliant white teeth flashing
-in an irrepressible smile, the Colonel's growls become more frequent,
-and he tugs at his moustache more savagely than ever. Why? If you know
-any thing about these people, you will remember that ten years ago,
-when Emily Fairfax was Emily Ponsonby, and lived with her old aunt,
-Lady Mary, in the dull rambling old house at Kew, Charley Jefferson, a
-penniless cornet in what were then the 13th Light Dragoons, was
-quartered at Hounslow; danced, rode, and flirted with her; carried off
-a lock of her hair when the regiment was ordered to India; and far
-away up country, in utter ignorance of all that was happening in
-England, used to gaze at it and kiss it, long after Miss Ponsonby had
-married old Lord Fairfax, and had become the reigning belle of the
-London season. Old Lord Fairfax is dead now, and Charley Jefferson has
-come into his uncle's fortune; and there is no cause or impediment why
-these twain should not become one flesh, save that Emily is still
-coquettish, and Charley is horribly jealous; and so matters are still
-in the balance.
-
-The little old gentleman in the palpable flaxen wig and gold
-spectacles, who is poring over that case of Flaxman's cameos in
-genuine admiration, is Count Bulow, the Danish Ambassador; and the
-little old lady whose face is so wrinkled as to suggest an idea of
-gratitude that she is a lady, and consequently is not compelled to
-shave, is his wife. They are charming old people, childless
-themselves, but the cause of constant matchmaking in others. More
-flirtations come to a successful issue in the embassy at Eaton-place
-than in any other house in town; and the old couple, who have for
-years worthily represented their sovereign, are sponsors to half the
-children in Belgravia. They are both art-lovers, and their house is
-crammed with good things--pictures from Munich and Düsseldorf, choice
-bits of Thorwaldsen, big elk-horns, and quaint old Scandinavian
-drinking-cups. Old Lady Potiphar, who has the worst reputation and the
-bitterest tongue in London, says you meet "odd people" at the Bulows';
-said "odd people" being artists and authors, English and foreign. Mr.
-Fletcher, R. A., who is just now talking to the Countess, is one of
-the most favoured guests at the embassy, but he is not an "odd
-person," even to Lady Potiphar, for he goes into what she calls
-"sassiety," and has been "actially asked to Mar'bro' House"--where
-Lady Potiphar is not invited. A quiet, unpretending, gentlemanly,
-middle-aged man, Mr. Fletcher; wearing his artistic honours with easy
-dignity, and by no means oblivious of the early days when he gave
-drawing-lessons at per hour to many of the nobility who now call him
-their friend. There are three or four young ladies present, who need
-no particular description, and who are dividing the homage of Captain
-Shaddock; while Lord Roderick Douglas, a young nobleman to whom Nature
-has been more bountiful in nose than in forehead, and Mr. Pitcairn, a
-fresh-coloured, freckled, blue-eyed gentleman, lithe and active as a
-greyhound, are muttering in a corner, making arrangements for the next
-day's shooting.
-
-The entrance of Sir Duncan Forbes caused a slight commotion in the
-party; and every one had a look or a word of welcome for the new
-comer, for he was a general favourite. He moved easily from group to
-group, shaking hands and chatting pleasantly. Kilsyth, who was
-specially fond of him, grasped his hand warmly; the Duke laid aside
-the _Morning Post_ in the midst of a most interesting leader, in which
-Mr. Bright was depicted as a pleasant compound of Catiline and Judas
-Iscariot; Count Bulow gave up his cameos; and even grim Charley
-Jefferson relaxed in his feverish supervision of Lord Towcester.
-
-As for the ladies, they unanimously voted Duncan charming, quite
-charming, and could not make too much of him.
-
-"And where have you come from, Duncan?" asked Kilsyth, when the buzz
-consequent on his entrance had subsided.
-
-"Last, from Burnside," said Duncan.
-
-"Burnside!--where's Burnside?" asked Captain Severn shortly.
-
-"Burnside is on the Tay, the prettiest house in all Scotland, if I may
-venture to say so, being at Kilsyth; of course it don't pretend to any
-thing of this kind. It's a mere doll's-house of a place, nothing but a
-shooting-box; but in its way it's a perfect paradise."
-
-"Are you speaking by the card, Duncan?" said Count Bulow, with the
-slightest foreign accent; "or was there some Peri in this paradise
-that gave it such fascination in your eyes?"
-
-"Peri! No indeed, Count," replied. Duncan, laughing; "Burnside is a
-bachelor establishment,--rigidly proper, quite monastic, and all that
-kind of thing. It belongs to old Sir Saville Rowe, who was a swell
-doctor in London--O, ages ago!"
-
-"Sir Saville Rowe!" exclaimed the Duke; "I know him very well. He was
-physician to the late King, and was knighted just before his majesty's
-death. I haven't seen him for years, and thought he was dead."
-
-"He's any thing but that, Duke. A remarkably healthy old man, and as
-jolly as possible; capital company still, though he's long over
-seventy. And his place is really lovely; the worst of it is, it's such
-a tremendous distance from here. I've been travelling all day; and as
-it is I thought I was late for dinner. The gong sounded as I left my
-room."
-
-"You were late, Duncan; you always are," said Kilsyth, with a smile.
-"But the Duchess is keeping you in countenance tonight, and Lady
-Muriel has not shown yet. She is up with Madeleine, who is ill, poor
-child."
-
-"Ah, so I was sorry to hear. What is it? Nothing serious, I hope?"
-
-"No, please God, no. But she caught cold, and is a little feverish
-tonight: the doctor is with her now, and we shall soon have his
-report. Ah, here is the Duchess."
-
-The Duchess of Northallerton, a tall portly woman, with a heavy
-ruminating expression of face, like a sedate cow, entered as he spoke,
-and advancing said a few gracious nothings to Duncan Forbes. She was
-closely followed by a servant, who, addressing his master, said that
-Lady Muriel would be engaged for a few minutes longer with the doctor,
-and had ordered dinner to be served.
-
-The conversation at dinner, falling into its recent channel, was
-resumed by Lord Towcester, who said, "Who had you at this doctor's,
-Duncan? Queer sort of people, I suppose?"
-
-"Some of his patients, perhaps," said Lady Fairfax, showing all her
-teeth.
-
-"Black draught and that sort of thing to drink, and cold compresses on
-the sideboard," said Captain Severn, who was nothing if not
-objectionable.
-
-"I never had better living, and never met pleasanter people," said
-Duncan Forbes pointedly. "They wouldn't have suited you, perhaps,
-Severn, for they all talked sense; and none of them knew the odds on
-any thing--though that might have suited you perhaps, as you'd have
-been able to win their money."
-
-"Any of Sir Saville's profession?" cut in the Duke, diplomatically
-anxious to soften matters.
-
-"Only one--a Dr. Wilmot; the great man of the day, as I understand."
-
-"O, every body has heard of Wilmot," said half-a-dozen voices.
-
-"He's the great authority on fever, and that kind of thing," said
-Jefferson. "Saved Broadwater's boy in typhus last year when all the
-rest of them had given him up."
-
-"Dr. Wilmot remains there," said Duncan; "our party broke up
-yesterday, but Wilmot stays on. He and I had a tremendous chat last
-night, and I never met a more delightful fellow."
-
-At this moment Lady Muriel entered the room, and as she passed her
-husband's chair laid a small slip of paper on the table by his plate;
-then went up to Duncan Forbes, who had risen to receive her, and gave
-him a hearty welcome. Kilsyth took an opportunity of opening the
-paper, and the healthy colour left his cheeks as he read:
-
-"_M. is much worse tonight. Dr. Joyce now pronounces it undoubted
-scarlet-fever_."
-
-The old man rose from the table, asking permission to absent himself
-for a few moments; and as he moved, whispered to Duncan, who was
-sitting at his right-hand, "You said Dr. Wilmot was still at
-Burnside?"
-
-Receiving an answer in the affirmative, he hurried into the hall,
-wrote a few hasty lines, and gave them to the butler, saying, "Tell
-Donald to ride off at once to Acray, and telegraph this message. Tell
-him to gallop all the way."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER II.
-Master and Pupil.
-
-
-Duncan Forbes was given to exaggeration, as is the fashion of the day;
-but he had scarcely exaggerated the beauty of Burnside, even in the
-rapturous terms which he chose to employ in speaking of it. It was,
-indeed, a most lovely spot, standing on the summit of a high hill,
-wooded from base to crest, and with the silver Tay--now rushing over a
-hard pebbly bed, now softly flowing in a scarcely fathomable depth
-of still water through a deep ravine with towering rocks on either
-side--bubbling at its feet. From the higher windows--notably from the
-turret; and it was a queer rambling turreted house, without any
-preponderating style of architecture, but embracing, and that not
-unpicturesquely, a great many--you looked down upon the pretty little
-town of Dunkeld, with its broad bridge spanning the flood, and the
-gray old tower of its cathedral rearing itself aloft like a hoary
-giant athwart the horizon, and the trim lawn of the ducal residence in
-the distance--an oasis of culture in a desert of wildness, yet
-harmonising sufficiently with its surroundings. Sloping down the steep
-bank on which the house was placed, and overhanging the brawling river
-beneath, ran a broad gravel path, winding between the trees, which at
-certain points had been cut away to give the best views of the
-neighbouring scenery; and on this path, at an early hour on the
-morning succeeding the night on which Duncan Forbes had arrived at
-Kilsyth, two men were walking, engaged in earnest conversation. An old
-man one of them, but in the enjoyment of a vigorous old age: his back
-is bowed, and he uses a stick; but if you remark, he does not use it
-as a crutch, lifting it now and again to point his remark, or striking
-it on the ground to emphasize his decision. A tall old man, with long
-white hair flowing away from under the brim of his wideawake hat, with
-bright blue eyes and well-cut features, and a high forehead and white
-hands, with long lithe clever-looking fingers. Those eyes and fingers
-have done their work in their day, professionally and socially. Those
-eyes have looked into the eyes of youth and loveliness, and have read
-in them that in a few months their light would be quenched for ever;
-those fingers have clasped the beating pulses of seemingly full and
-vigorous manhood, and have recognised that the axe was laid at the
-root of the apparently tall and flourishing tree, and that in a little
-time it would topple headlong down. Those eyes "looked love to eyes
-that spake again;" those hands clasped hands that returned their
-clasp, and that trembled fondly and confidingly within them; that
-voice, professionally modulated to babble of sympathy, compassion, and
-hope, trembled with passion and whispered all its human aspirations
-into the trellised ear of beauty, once and once only. Looking at the
-old gentleman, so mild and gentle and benevolent, with his shirt-front
-sprinkled with snuff, and his old-fashioned black gaiters and his
-gouty shoes, you could hardly imagine that he was the hero of a
-scandal which five-and-thirty years before had rung through society,
-and given the _Satirist_, and other scurrilous publications of the
-time, matter for weeks and weeks of filthy comment. And yet it was so.
-Sir Saville Rowe (then Dr. Rowe), physician to one of the principal
-London hospitals, and even then a man of mark in his profession, was
-called in to attend a young lady who represented herself as a widow,
-and with whom, after a time, he fell desperately in love. For months
-he attended her through a trying illness, from which, under his care,
-she recovered. Then, when her recovery was complete, he confessed his
-passion, and they were engaged to be married. One night, within a very
-short time of the intended wedding, he called at her lodgings and
-found a man there, a coarse slangy blackguard, who, after a few words,
-abruptly proclaimed himself to be the lady's husband, and demanded
-compensation for his outraged honour. Words ensued; and more than
-words: the man--half-drunk, all bully--struck the doctor; and Rowe,
-who was a powerful man, and who was mad with rage at what he imagined
-was a conspiracy, returned the blows with interest. The police were
-summoned, and Rowe was hauled off to the station-house; but on the
-following day the prosecutor was not forthcoming, and the doctor was
-liberated. The scandal spread, and ruffians battened on it, as they
-ever will; but Dr. Rowe's courage and professional skill enabled him
-to live it down; and when, two years after, in going round a
-hospitalward with his pupils, he came upon his old love at the verge
-of death, his heart, which he thought had been sufficiently steeled,
-gave way within him, and once more he set himself to the task of
-curing her. He did all that could be done; had her removed to a quiet
-suburban cottage, tended by the most experienced nurses, never grudged
-one moment of his time to visit her constantly; but it was too late:
-hard living and brutal treatment had done their work; and Dr. Rowe's
-only love died in his arms, imploring Heaven's blessings on him. That
-wound in his life, deep as it was, has long since cicatrised and
-healed over, leaving a scar which was noticeable to very few long
-before he attained to the first rank in his profession and received
-the titular reward of his services to royalty. He has for some time
-retired from active practice, though he will still meet in
-consultation some old pupil or former colleague; but he takes life
-easily now, passing the season in London, the autumn in Scotland, and
-the winter at Torquay; in all of which places he finds old friends
-chattable and kindly, who help him to while away the pleasant autumn
-of his life.
-
-The other man is about eight-and-thirty, with keen bright brown eyes,
-a broad brow, straight nose, thin lips, and heavy jaw, indicative of
-firmness, not to say obstinacy; a tall man with stooping shoulders,
-and a look of quiet placid attention in his face; with a slim figure,
-a jerky walk, and a habit of clasping his hands behind his back, and
-leaning forward as though listening; a man likely to invite notice at
-first sight from his unmistakable earnestness and intellect, otherwise
-a quiet gentlemanly man, whose profession it was impossible to assign,
-yet who was obviously a man of mark in his way. This was Chudleigh
-Wilmot, who was looked upon by those who ought to know as _the_ coming
-man in the London medical profession; whose lectures were to be
-attended before those of any other professor at St. Vitus's Hospital;
-whose contributions on fever cases to the _Scalpel_ had given the
-_Times_ subject-matter for a leader, in which he had been most
-honourably mentioned; and who was commencing to reap the harvest of
-honour and profit which accrues to the fortunate few. He is an old
-pupil of Sir Saville Rowe's, and there is no one in whose company the
-old gentleman has greater delight.
-
-"Smoke, Chudleigh, smoke! Light up at once. I know you're dying to
-have your cigar, and daren't out of deference to me. Fancy I'm your
-master still, don't you?"
-
-"Not a bit of it, old friend. I've given up after-breakfast smoking as
-a rule, because, you see, that delightful bell in Charles-street
-begins to ring about a quarter to ten, and--"
-
-"So much the better. Let them ring. They were knockers in my day, and
-I recollect how delighted I used to be at every rap. But there's no
-one to ring or knock here; and so you may take your cigar quietly.
-I've been longing for this time; longing to have what the people about
-here call a 'crack' with you--impossible while those other men were
-here; but now I've got you all to myself."
-
-"Yes," said Wilmot, who by this time had lighted his cigar--"yes, and
-you'll have me all to yourself for the next four days; that is to say,
-if you will."
-
-"If I will! Is there any thing in the world could give me greater
-pleasure? I get young again, talking to you, Chudleigh. I mind me of
-the time when you used to come to lecture, a great raw boy, with, I
-should say, the dirtiest hands and the biggest note-book in the whole
-hospital." And the old gentleman chuckled at his reminiscence.
-
-"Well, I've managed to wash the first, and to profit by the manner in
-which I filled the second from your lectures," said Wilmot, not
-without a blush.
-
-"Not a bit, not a bit," interposed Sir Saville; "you would have done
-well enough without any lectures of mine, though I'm glad to think
-that in that celebrated question of anæsthetics you stuck by me, and
-enabled me triumphantly to defeat Macpherson of Edinburgh. That was a
-great triumph for us, that was! Dear me, when I think of the
-charlatans! Eh, well, never mind; I'm out of all that now. So, you
-have a few days more, you were saying, and you're going to give them
-up to me."
-
-"Nothing will please me so much. Because, you see, I shall make it a
-combination of pleasure and business. There are several things on
-which I want to consult you,--points which I have reserved from time
-to time, and on which I can get no such opinion as yours. I'm not due
-in town until the 3d of next month. Whittaker, who has taken my
-practice, doesn't leave until the 5th, which is a Sunday, and even
-then only goes as far as Guildford, to a place he's taken for some
-pheasant-shooting; a nice, close, handy place, where Mrs. Whittaker
-can accompany him. She thinks he's so fascinating, that she does not
-like to let him out of her sight."
-
-"Whittaker! Whittaker!" said Sir Saville; "is it a bald man with a
-cock-eye?--used to be at Bartholomew's."
-
-"That's the man! He's in first-rate practice now, and deservedly, for
-he's thoroughly clever and reliable; but his beauty has not improved
-by time. However, Mrs. Whittaker doesn't see that; and it's with the
-greatest difficulty he ever gets permission to attend a lady's case."
-
-"You must be thankful Mrs. Wilmot isn't like that."
-
-"O, I am indeed," replied Wilmot shortly. "By the way, I've never had
-an opportunity of talking to you about your marriage, and about your
-wife, Chudleigh. I got your wedding-cards, of course; but that's--ah,
-that must be three years ago."
-
-"Four."
-
-"Four! Is it indeed so long? Tut, tut! how time flies! I've called at
-your house in London, but your wife has not been at home; and as I
-don't entertain ladies, you see, of course I've missed an opportunity
-of cultivating her acquaintance."
-
-"Ye-es. I've heard Mrs. Wilmot say that she had seen your cards, and
-that she was very sorry to have been out when you called," said Dr.
-Wilmot with, in him, a most unnatural hesitation.
-
-"Yes, of course," said old Sir Saville, with a comical look out of the
-corners of his eyes, which fell unheeded on his companion. "Well, now,
-as I've never seen her, and as I'm not likely to see her now,--for
-I am an old man, and I've given up ceremony visits at my time of
-life,--tell me about your wife, Chudleigh; you know the interest I
-take in you; and that, perhaps, may excuse my asking about her. Does
-she suit you? Are you happy with her?"
-
-Wilmot looked hard for an instant at his friend with a sudden quick
-glance of suspicion, then relaxed his brows, and laughed outright.
-
-"Certainly, my dear Sir Saville, you are the most original of men.
-Who on earth else would have dreamt of asking a man such a home
-question? It's worse than the queries put in the proposal papers of
-insurance-offices. However, I'm glad to be able to give a satisfactory
-answer. I _am_ happy with my wife, and she _does_ suit me."
-
-"Yes; but what I mean is, are you in love with her?"
-
-"Am I what?"
-
-"In love with her. I mean, are you always thinking of her when you are
-away from her? Are you always longing to get back to her? Does her
-face come between you and the book you are reading? When you are
-thinking-out an intricate case, and puzzling your brains as to how you
-shall deal with it, do you sometimes let the whole subject slip out of
-your mind, to ponder over the last words she said to you, the last
-look she gave you?"
-
-"God bless your soul, my dear old friend! You might as well ask me if
-I didn't play leap-frog with the house-surgeon of St. Vitus's, or
-challenge any member of the College of Physicians to a single-wicket
-match. Those are the _délassements_ of youth, my dear sir, that you
-are talking about; of very much youth indeed."
-
-"I know one who wasn't 'very much youth' when he carried out the
-doctrine religiously," said the old gentleman in reply.
-
-"Ah, then perhaps the lady wasn't his wife," said Wilmot, without the
-smallest notion of the dangerous ground on which he was treading. "No,
-the fact is simply this: I am, as you know, a man absorbed in my
-profession. I have no leisure for nonsense of the kind you describe,
-nor for any other kind of nonsense. My wife recognises that perfectly;
-she does all the calling and visiting which society prescribes. I go
-to a few old friends' to dinner in the season, and sometimes show up
-for a few minutes at the house of a patient where Mrs. Wilmot thinks
-it necessary for me to be seen. We each fulfil our duties perfectly,
-and we are in the evening excellent friends."
-
-"Ye-es," said Sir Saville doubtfully; "that's all delightful, and--"
-
-"As to longing to get back to her, and face coming between you and
-your book, and always thinking, and that kind of thing," pursued
-Wilmot, not heeding him, "I recollect, when I was a dresser at the
-hospital, long before I passed the College, I had all those feelings
-for a little cousin of mine who was then living at Knightsbridge with
-her father, who was a clerk in the Bank of England. But then he died,
-and she married--not the barber, but another clerk in the Bank of
-England, and I never thought any more about it. Believe me, my dear
-friend, except to such perpetual evergreens as yourself, those ideas
-die off at twenty years of age."
-
-"Well, perhaps so, perhaps so," said the old gentleman; "and I daresay
-it's quite-right, only--well, never mind. Well, Chudleigh, it's a
-pleasant thing for me, remembering you, as I said, a great hulking lad
-when you first came to lecture, to see you now carrying away every
-thing before you. I don't know that you're quite wise in giving
-Whittaker your practice, for he's a deep designing dog; and you can
-tell as well as I do how a word dropped deftly here and there may
-steal away a patient before the doctor knows where he is, especially
-with old ladies and creatures of that sort. But, however, it's the
-slack time of year,--that's one thing to be said,--when everybody
-that's any body is safe to be out of town. Ah, by the way, that
-reminds me! I was glad to see by the _Morning Post_ that you had had
-some very good cases last season."
-
-"The _Morning Post!_--some very good cases! What do you mean?"
-
-"I mean, I saw your name as attending several of the nobility: 'His
-lordship's physician, Dr. Wilmot, of Charles Street,' et cetera; that
-kind of thing, you know."
-
-"O, do you congratulate me on those? I certainly pulled young Lord
-Coniston, Lord Broadwater's son, through a stiff attack of typhus; but
-as I would have done the same for his lordship's porter's child, I
-don't see the value of the paragraph. By the way, I shouldn't wonder
-if I were indebted to the porter for the paragraph."
-
-"Never mind, my dear Chudleigh, whence the paragraph comes, but be
-thankful you got it. 'Sweet,' as Shakespeare says,--'sweet are the
-uses of advertisement;' and our profession is almost the only one to
-which they are not open. The inferior members of it, to be sure, do a
-little in the way of the red lamp and the vaccination gratis; but when
-you arrive at any eminence you must not attempt any thing more glaring
-than galloping about town in your carriage, and getting your name
-announced in the best society."
-
-"The best society!" echoed Wilmot with an undisguised sneer. "My dear
-Sir Saville, you seem to have taken a craze for Youth, Beauty, and
-High Life, and to exalt them as gods for your idolatry."
-
-"For _my_ idolatry! No, my boy, for yours. I don't deny that when I
-was in the ring, I did my best to gain the approbation of all three,
-and that I succeeded I may say without vanity. But I'm out of it now,
-and I can only give counsel to my juniors. But that my counsel is good
-worldly wisdom, Chudleigh, you may take the word of an old man who
-has--well, who has, he flatters himself, made his mark in life."
-
-The old gentleman was so evidently sincere in this exposition of his
-philosophy, that Wilmot repressed the smile that was rising to his
-lips, and said:
-
-"We can all of us only judge by our own feelings, old friend; and
-mine, I must own, don't chime in with yours. As to Youth--well, I'm
-now old for my age, and I only look upon it as developing more
-available resources and more available material to work upon; as to
-Beauty, its influence died out with me when Maria Strutt married the
-clerk in the Bank of England; and as to High Life, I swear to you it
-would give me as much pleasure to save the life of one of your
-gillie's daughters, as it would to be able to patch up an old marquis,
-or to pull the heir to a dukedom through his teething convulsions."
-
-The old man looked at his friend for a moment and smiled sardonically,
-then said:
-
-"You're young yet, Chudleigh; very young--much younger than your years
-of London life should permit you to be. However, that's a malady that
-Time will cure you of. Saving lives of gillie's daughters is all very
-well in the abstract, and no one can value more than I do the power
-which Providence, under Him, has given to us; but--Well, what is it?"
-
-This last remark was addressed to a servant who was approaching them.
-
-"A telegram, sir, for Dr. Wilmot," said the man, handing an envelope
-to Wilmot as he spoke; "just arrived from the station."
-
-Wilmot tore open the envelope and read its enclosure--read it twice
-with frowning brow and sneering mouth; then handed it to his host,
-saying:
-
-"A little too strong, that, eh? Is one never to be free from such
-intrusions? Do these people imagine that because I am a professional
-man I am to be always at their beck and call? Who is this Mr. Kilsyth,
-I wonder, who hails me as though I were a cabman on the rank?"
-
-"_Mr._ Kilsyth, my dear fellow!" said Sir Saville, laughing; "I should
-like to see the face of any Highlander who heard you say that. Kilsyth
-of Kilsyth is the head of one of the oldest and most powerful clans in
-Aberdeenshire."
-
-"I suppose he won't be powerful enough to have me shot, or speared, or
-'hangit on a tree,' for putting his telegram into my pocket, and
-taking no further notice of it, for all that," said Wilmot.
-
-"Do you mean to say that you intend to refuse his request, Chudleigh?"
-
-"Most positively and decidedly, if request you call it. I confess it
-looks to me more like a command; and that's a style of thing I don't
-particularly affect, old friend."
-
-"But do you see the facts? Miss Kilsyth is down with scarlet-fever--"
-
-"Exactly. I'm very sorry, I'm sure, so far as one can be sorry for any
-one of whose existence one was a moment ago in ignorance; and I trust
-Miss Kilsyth will speedily recover; but it won't be through any aid of
-mine."
-
-"My dear Chudleigh," said the old man gently, "you are all wrong about
-this. It's not a pleasant thing for me, as your host, to bid you go
-away; more especially as I had been looking forward with such pleasure
-to these few days' quiet with you. But I know it is the right thing
-for you to do; and why you should refuse, I cannot conceive. You seem
-to have taken umbrage at the style of the message; but even if one
-could be polite in a telegram, a father whose pet daughter is
-dangerously ill seldom stops to pick his words."
-
-"But suppose I hadn't been here?"
-
-"My dear friend, I decline to suppose anything of the sort. Suppose I
-had not been in the way when Sir Astley advised his late Majesty to
-call me in; I should still have been a successful man, it's true; but
-I should not have had the honour or the position I have, nor the
-wealth which enables me now to enjoy my ease, instead of slaving away
-still like--like some whom we know. No, no; drop your radicalism, I
-beseech you. You would go miles to attend to a sick gillie or a
-shepherd's orphan. Do the same for a very charming young girl, as I'm
-told,--Forbes knows her very well,--and for one of the best men in
-Scotland."
-
-"Well, I suppose you're right, and I must go. It's an awful journey,
-isn't it?"
-
-"Horses to the break, Donald; and tell George to get ready to drive
-Dr. Wilmot.--I'll send you the first stage. Awful journey, you call
-it, through the loveliest scenery in the Highlands! I don't know what
-causes the notion, but I have an impression that this will be a
-memorable day in your career, Chudleigh."
-
-"Have you, old friend?" said Wilmot, with a shoulder-shrug. "One
-doesn't know how it may end, but, so far, it has been any thing but a
-pleasant one. Nor does a fifty-mile journey over hills inspire me with
-much pleasant anticipation. But, as you seem so determined about it
-being my duty, I'll go."
-
-"Depend on it, I am giving you good advice, as some day you shall
-acknowledge to me."
-
-And within half-an-hour Chudleigh Wilmot had started for Kilsyth, on a
-journey which was to influence the whole of his future life.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER III.
-WATCHING AND WAITING.
-
-
-The news which she had learned from Doctor Joyce, and had in her brief
-pencil-note communicated to her husband, was horribly annoying to Lady
-Muriel Kilsyth. To have her party broken up--and there was no doubt
-that, as soon as the actual condition of affairs was known, many would
-at once take to flight--was bad enough; but to have an infectious
-disorder in the house, and to be necessarily compelled to keep up a
-semblance of sympathy with the patient labouring under that disorder,
-even if she were not required to visit and tend her, was to Lady
-Muriel specially galling; more specially galling as she happened not
-to possess the smallest affection for the individual in question,
-indeed to regard her rather with dislike than otherwise. When Lady
-Muriel Inchgarvie married Kilsyth of Kilsyth,--the Inchgarvie estates
-being heavily involved, and her brother the Earl, who had recently
-succeeded to the title, strongly counselling the match,--she agreed to
-love, honour, and obey the doughty chieftain whom she espoused; but
-she by no means undertook any responsibilities with regard to the two
-children by his former marriage. The elder of these, Ronald, was just
-leaving Eton when his stepmother appeared upon the scene; and as he
-had since been at once gazetted to the Life-guards, and but rarely
-showed in his father's house, he had caused Lady Muriel very little
-anxiety. But it was a very different affair with Madeleine. She had
-the disadvantage of being perpetually _en évidence_; of being very
-pretty; of causing blundering new acquaintances to say, "Impossible,
-Lady Muriel, that this can be your daughter!" of riling her stepmother
-in every possible way--notably by her perfect high-breeding, her calm
-quiet ignoring of intended slights, her determinate persistence in
-keeping up the proper relations with her father, and her invariable
-politeness--nothing but politeness--to her stepmother. One is
-necessarily cautious of using strong terms in these days of persistent
-repression of all emotions; but it is scarcely too much to say that
-Lady Muriel hated her stepdaughter very cordially. They were too
-nearly of an age for the girl to look up to the matron, or for the
-matron to feel a maternal interest in the girl. They were too nearly
-of an age for the elder not to feel jealous of the younger--of her
-personal attractions, and of the influence which she undoubtedly
-exercised over her father. Not that Lady Muriel either laid herself
-out for attraction, or was so devotedly attached to her husband as to
-desire the monopoly of his affection. By nature she was hard, cold,
-self-contained, and very proud. Portionless as she had been, and
-desirable as it was that she should marry a rich man, she had refused
-several offers from men more coeval with her than the husband she at
-last accepted, simply because they were made by men who were wealthy,
-and nothing else. Either birth or talent would, in conjunction with
-wealth, have won her; but Mr. Burton, the great pale-ale brewer, and
-Sir Coke Only, the great railway carrier, proffered their suits in
-vain, and retired in the deepest confusion after Lady Muriel's very
-ladylike, but thoroughly unmistakable, rejection of their offers. She
-married Kilsyth because he was a man of ancient family, large income,
-warm heart, and good repute. At no period, either immediately before
-or after her marriage, had she professed herself to be what is called
-"in love" with the worthy Scottish gentleman. She respected, humoured,
-and ruled him. But not for one instant did she forget her duty, or
-give a chance for scandal-mongers to babble of her name over their
-five-o'clock tea. No woman married to a man considerably her senior
-need be at any loss for what, as Byron tells us, used to be called a
-_cicisbeo_, and was in his time called a _cortejo_, if she be the
-least attractive. And Lady Muriel Kilsyth was considerably more than
-that. She had a perfectly-formed, classical little head, round which
-her dark hair was always lightly bound, culminating in a thick knot
-behind, large deep liquid brown eyes, an impertinent _retroussé_ nose,
-a pretty mouth, an excellent complexion, and a ripe melting figure.
-You might have searched the drawing-rooms of London through and
-through without finding a woman better calculated to fascinate every
-body save the youngest boys, and there were many even of them who
-would gladly have boasted of a kind look or word from Lady Muriel.
-When her marriage was announced, they discussed it at the clubs, as
-they will discuss such things, the dear genial old prosers, the
-bibulous captains, the lip-smacking Bardolphs of St. James'-street;
-and they prophesied all kinds of unhappiness and woe to Kilsyth. But
-that topic of conversation had long since died out for want of fuel to
-feed it. Lady Muriel had visited London during the season; had gone
-every where; had been reported as perfectly adoring her two little
-children; and had no man's name invidiously coupled with hers. Peace
-reigned at Kilsyth, and the intimates of the house vied with each
-other in attention and courtesy to its new mistress; while the gossips
-of the outside world had never a word to say against her. I don't say
-that Lady Muriel Kilsyth was thoroughly happy, any more than that
-Kilsyth himself was in that beatific state; because I simply don't
-believe that such a state of things is compatible with the ordinary
-conditions of human life. It is not because the old stories of our
-none of us being better than we should be, of our all having some
-skeleton in our cupboards, and some ulcerated sores beneath our
-flannel waistcoats, have been so much harped upon, that I am going to
-throw my little pebble on the great cairn, and add my testimony to the
-doctrine of _vanitas vanitatum_. It would be very strange indeed, if,
-as life is nowadays constituted, we had not our skeleton, and a time
-when we could confront him; when we could calmly untwist the button on
-the door and let him out, and pat his skull, and look at his
-articulated ribs, and notice how deftly his wire-hooked thigh-bones
-jointed on to the rest of his carcass; and see whether there were no
-means of ridding ourselves of him,--say by flinging him out of window,
-when the police would find him, or of stowing him away in the
-dust-bin, when he would be noticed by the contractor; and of
-finally putting him back, and acknowledging ourselves compelled
-to suffer him even unto the end. I do not say that in the
-broad-shouldered, kind-hearted, jovial sportsman Lady Muriel had found
-exactly what she dreamed upon when, in the terraced garden at
-Inchgarvie, she used to read Walter Scott, and, looking over the
-flashing stream that wound through her father's domain, fancy herself
-the Lady of the Lake, and await the arrival of Fitzjames. I do not say
-that Kilsyth himself might not, in the few moments of his daily life
-which he ever spared to reflection, and which were generally when he
-was shaving himself in the morning,--I do not say that Kilsyth himself
-might not have occasionally thought that his elegant and stately wife
-might have been a little kinder to Madeleine, a little more
-recognisant of the girl's charms, a little more thoughtful of her
-wants, and a little more tender towards her girlish vagaries. But
-neither of them, however they may have thought the other suspected
-them, ever spoke of their secret thoughts; and to the outer world
-there was no more well-assorted couple than the Kilsyths. It was a
-great thing for the comfort of the entire party that Lady Muriel was a
-woman of nerve, and that Kilsyth took his cue from her, backed up by
-the fact that it was his darling Madeleine who was ill, and that any
-inconvenience that might accrue to any of the party in consequence of
-her illness would be set down to her account. Lady Muriel gave a good
-general answer, delivered with a glance round the table, and was
-inclusive of every body, so as to prevent any further questioning.
-Dr. Joyce had said that Madeleine was not so well that night;
-but that was to be expected; her cold was very bad, she was slightly
-feverish: any one--and Lady Muriel turned deftly to the Duchess of
-Northallerton--who knew any thing, would have expected that, would
-they not? The Duchess, who knew nothing, but who didn't like to say
-so, declared that of course they would; and then Lady Muriel, feeling
-it necessary _that_ conversation should be balked, turned to Sir
-Duncan Forbes, and began to ask him questions as to his doings since
-the end of the season. Forbes replied briskly,--there was no better
-man in London to follow a lead, whether in talk or at cards,--and so
-turned the talk that most of those present were immediately
-interested. The names which Duncan Forbes mentioned were known to all
-present; all were interested in their movements; all had something to
-say about them; so that the conversation speedily became general, and
-so remained until the ladies quitted the table. When they had retired,
-Kilsyth ordered in the tumblers; and it was nearly eleven o'clock
-before the gentlemen appeared in the drawing-room. Then Lady Fairfax,
-with one single wave of her fan, beckoned Charley Jefferson into an
-empty seat on the ottoman by her side,--a seat which little Lord
-Towcester, immediately on entering the door, had surveyed with vinous
-eyes,--and, while one of the anonymous young ladies was playing
-endless variations on the "Harmonious Blacksmith," commenced and
-continued a most vivid one-sided, conversation, to all of which the
-infatuated Colonel only replied by shrugs of his shoulders, and tugs
-at his heavy moustache. Then the Duchess pursued the Duke into a
-corner; and rescuing from him the _Morning Post_, which his grace had
-pounced upon on entering the room with the hope of further identifying
-Mr. Bright with Judas Iscariot, began addressing him in a low
-monotone, like the moaning of the sea; now rising into a little hum,
-now falling into a long sweeping hiss, but in each variety evidently
-confounding the Duke, who pulled at his cravat and rubbed his right
-ear in the height of nervous dubiety. In the behaviour of the other
-guests there was nothing pronounced, save occasional and unwonted
-restlessness. The Danish Minister and his wife played their usual game
-at backgammon; and the customary talk, music, and flirtation were
-carried on by the remainder of the company; but Lady Muriel knew that
-some suspicion of the actual truth had leaked out, and determined on
-her plan of action.
-
-So that night, when the men had gone to the smoking-room, and the
-ladies were some of them talking in each other's bedrooms, and others
-digesting and thinking over, as is the feminine manner, under the
-influence of hair-brush, the events of the day; when Kilsyth had made
-a tip-toe visit to his darling's chamber, and had shaken his head
-sadly over a whispered statement from her little German maid that she
-was "_bien malade_," and had returned to his room and dismissed his
-man, and was kicking nervously at the logs on the hearth, and mixing
-his "tumbler preparatory to taking his narcotic instalment of
-_Blackwood_,--he heard a tap at his door, and Lady Muriel, in a most
-becoming dressing-gown of rose-coloured flannel, entered the room. The
-tumbler was put down, the _Blackwood_ was thrown, aside, and in a
-minute Kilsyth had wheeled an easy-chair round to the hearth, and
-handed his wife to it.
-
-"You're tired, Alick, I know, and I wouldn't have disturbed you now
-had there not been sufficient reason--"
-
-"Madeleine's not worse, Muriel? I was there this minute, and Gretchen
-said that--"
-
-"O no, she's no worse! I was in her room too just now,--though I think
-it is a little absurd my going,--and there does not seem to be much
-change in her since I saw her, just before dinner. She is asleep just
-now."
-
-"Thank God for that!" said Kilsyth heartily. "After all, it may be a
-fright this doctor is giving us. I don't think so very much of his
-opinion and--"
-
-"I could not say that. Joyce is very highly thought of at Glasgow, and
-was selected from among all the competitors to take charge of this
-district, and that, in these days of competition, is no ordinary
-distinction. And it is on this very point I came to speak to you. You
-got my pencil-note at dinner? Very well. Just now you contented
-yourself with asking a question of Gretchen--"
-
-"She said Madeleine was asleep, and would not let me into the room."
-
-"And quite rightly; but I went in to the bedside. Madeleine is asleep
-certainly; but her sleep is restless, broken, and decidedly feverish.
-There is not the smallest doubt that Dr. Joyce is right in his
-opinion, and that she is attacked with scarlet-fever."
-
-"You think so, Muriel?" said Kilsyth anxiously. "I mean not blindly
-following Joyce's opinion; but do you think so yourself?"
-
-"I do; and not I alone, but half the house thinks so too. How do they
-know it? Heaven knows how these things ever get known, but they get
-wind somehow; and you will see that by to-morrow there will be a
-general flight. It is on this point that I have come to speak to you,
-if you will give me five minutes."
-
-"Of course, Muriel; of course, my lady. But I think I've done the best
-that could be done; at all events, the first thing that occurred to me
-after you wrote me that note. Duncan Forbes had been saying in the
-drawing-room before dinner, before you came in, that the great London
-fever-physician, Dr. Wilmot, was staying at Burnside, away from here
-about fifty miles, with old Sir Saville Rowe, whom I recollect when I
-was a boy. Duncan had left him this morning, and he was going to stay
-at Burnside just a day or two longer; and I sent one of the men with a
-telegram to the station, to ask Dr. Wilmot to come over at once, and
-see Maddy."
-
-Lady Muriel was so astonished at this evidence of prompt action on her
-husband's part that she remained silent for a minute. Then she said,
-
-"That was quite right, quite right so far as Madeleine was concerned;
-but my visit related rather to other people. You see, so soon as it is
-actually known that there is an infectious disorder in the house, the
-house will be deserted. Now my question is this: will it not be better
-to announce it to our guests, making the best and the lightest of it,
-as of course one naturally would, rather than let them--"
-
-"Ye-es, I see what you mean, my lady," said Kilsyth slowly; "and of
-course it would not do to keep people here under false pretences, and
-when we knew there was actual danger. Still I think as this story of
-scarlet-fever is only Joyce's opinion, and as I have telegraphed for
-Dr. Wilmot, who will be here to-morrow; and as it seems strange, you
-know, to think that poor darling Maddy should be the cause of any
-one's leaving Kilsyth, perhaps, eh? one might put off making the
-announcement until Joyce's opinion were corroborated by Dr. Wilmot."
-
-"I am afraid the mischief is already done, Alick, and that its results
-will be apparent long before Dr. Wilmot can reach here," said Lady
-Muriel. "However, let us sleep upon it. I am sure to hear whether the
-news has spread in the house long before breakfast, and we can consult
-again." And Lady Muriel took leave of her husband, and retired to her
-room.
-
-Trust a woman for observation. Lady Muriel was perfectly right. The
-nods and shoulder-shrugs and whisperings which she had observed in the
-drawing-room had already borne fruit. On her return to her own room
-she saw a little note lying on her table--a little note which, as she
-learned from Pinner, her attendant, had just been brought by Lady
-Fairfax's maid. It ran thus:
-
-
-"DEAREST LADY MURIEL,--A _frightful_ attack of neuralgia (_my_
-neuralgia)--which, as you know, is so _awful_--has been hanging over
-me for the last three days, and now has come upon me in its _fullest
-force_. I am quite out of my mind with it. I have striven--O, how I
-have striven!--to keep up and try to forget it, when surrounded by
-your pleasant circle, and when looking at your _dear self_. But it is
-all in vain. I am in _agonies_. The torture of the rack itself can be
-_nothing_ to what I am suffering tonight.
-
-"Poor dear Sir Benjamin Brodie used to say that I should never be well
-in a _northern_ climate. I fear he was right. I fear that the air of
-this darling Kilsyth, earthly Paradise though it is--and I am sure
-that I have found it so during three weeks of bliss; O, such
-_happiness!_--is too bracing, too invigorating for poor me. But I
-should _loathe_ myself if I were to make this an _open_ confession. So
-I will steal away, dearest Lady Muriel, without making any formal
-adieux. When all your dear friends assemble at breakfast to-morrow, I
-shall be on my _sorrowing_ way south, and only regret that my wretched
-health prevents me longer remaining where I have been so entirely
-happy.
-
-"With kindest regards to your dear husband, I am, dearest Lady Muriel,
-ever your loving
-
-"EMILY FAIRFAX.
-
-"P.S.--I have told my maid to beg some of your people to get me horses
-from the Kilsyth Arms; so that I shall _speed_ away early in the
-morning without disturbing any one. I hope dear Madeleine will soon be
-_quite herself_ again."
-
-
-Lady Muriel read this letter through twice with great calmness, though
-a very scornful smile curled her lip during its perusal. She then
-twisted the note up into a wisp, and was about to burn it in the flame
-of the candle, when she heard a short solemn tap at her chamber-door.
-She turned round, bade Pinner open the door, and looked with more
-displeasure than astonishment at the Duchess of Northallerton, who
-appeared in the entrance. The Duchess had the credit in society of
-being a "haughty-looking woman." Her stronghold in life, beyond the
-fact of her being a duchess, had been in her Roman nose and arched
-eyebrows. But, somehow, haughty looks become wonderfully modified in
-_déshabillé_, and Roman noses and arched eyebrows lose a good deal of
-their potency when taken in conjunction with two tight little curls
-twisted up in hairpins, and a headdress which, however much fluted and
-gauffered, is unmistakably a nightcap. The Duchess's nocturnal
-adornments were unmistakably of this homely character, and her white
-wrapper was of a hue, which, if she had not been a duchess, would have
-been pronounced dingy. But her step was undoubtedly tragic, and the
-expression of her face solemn to a degree. Lady Muriel received her
-with uplifted eyebrows, and motioned her to a chair. The Duchess
-dropped stiffly into the appointed haven of rest; but arched her
-eyebrows at Pinner with great significance.
-
-"You can go, Pinner. I shall not require you any more," said Lady
-Muriel; adding, "I presume that was what you wished, Duchess?" as the
-maid left the room.
-
-"Precisely, dear Muriel; but you always were so wonderfully ready to
-interpret one's thoughts. I remember your dear mother used to say--but
-I won't worry you with my stories. I came to speak to you about dear
-Madeleine."
-
-"Ye-es," said Lady Muriel quietly, finding the Duchess paused.
-
-"Well, now, she's worse than any of them suspect. Ah, I can see it by
-your face. And I know what is the matter with her. Don't start; I
-won't even ask you; I won't let you commit yourself in any way; but I
-know that it's measles."
-
-Lady Muriel kept her countenance admirably while the Duchess
-proceeded. "I know it by a sort of instinct. When Madeleine first
-complained of her head, I looked narrowly at her, and I said to
-myself, 'Measles! undoubtedly measles!' Now, you know, Muriel, though
-there is nothing dangerous in measles to a young person like
-Madeleine,--and she will shake them off easily, and be all the better
-afterwards,--they are very dangerous when taken by a person of mature
-age. And the fact is, the Duke has never had them--never. When
-Errington was laid up with them, I recollect the Duke wouldn't remain
-in the house, but went off to the Star and Garter, and stayed there
-until all trace of the infection was gone. And he's horribly afraid of
-them. You know what cowards men are in such matters; and he said just
-now he thought there was a rash on his neck. Such nonsense! Only where
-his collar had rubbed him, as I told him. But he's dreadfully
-frightened; and he has suggested that instead of waiting till the end
-of the week, as we had intended, we had better go to-morrow."
-
-"I think that perhaps under all circumstances it would be the best
-course," said Lady Muriel, quite calmly.
-
-"I knew your good sense would see it in the right light, my dear
-Muriel," said the Duchess, who had been nervously anticipating quite a
-different answer, and who was overjoyed. "I was perfectly certain of
-your coincidence in our plan. Now, of course, we shall not say a word
-as to the real reason of our departure--the Duke, I know, would not
-have that for the world. We shall not mention it at Redlands either;
-merely say we--O, I shall find some good excuse, for Mrs. Murgatroyd
-is a chattering little woman, as you know, Muriel. And now I won't
-keep you up any longer, dear. You'll kindly tell some one to get us
-horses to be ready by--say twelve to-morrow. Stay to luncheon? No,
-dear. I think we had better go before luncheon. The Duke, you see, is
-so absurd about his ridiculous rash. _Good_night, dear." And the
-Duchess stalked off to tell the Duke, who was not the least
-frightened, and whose rash was entirely fictitious, how well she had
-sped on her mission.
-
-
-Lady Muriel accurately obeyed the requests made to her in Lady
-Fairfax's letter, and verbally by the Duchess; and each of them found
-their horses ready at the appointed time. Lady Emily departed
-mysteriously before breakfast; but as the Duchess's horses were not
-ordered till twelve, and as the post came in at eleven, her grace had
-time to receive a letter from Mrs. Murgatroyd, of Redlands, whither
-they were next bound, requesting them to postpone their arrival for a
-day or two, as a German prince, who had by accident shot a stag, had
-been so elated by the feat, that he had implored to be allowed to stay
-on, with the chance of repeating it; and as he occupied the rooms
-intended for the Duke and Duchess, it was impossible to receive them
-until he left. After reading this letter, the Duchess went to Lady
-Muriel, and expressed her opinion that she had been too precipitate;
-that, after all, nothing positive had been pronounced; that there were
-no symptoms of the Duke's rash that morning, which had been
-undoubtedly caused, as she had said last night, by his collar, and
-which was no rash at all; and that perhaps, after all, their real duty
-was to stay and help their dear Muriel to nurse her dear invalid. But
-they had miscalculated the possibility of deceiving their dear Muriel.
-Lady Muriel at once replied that it was impossible that they could
-remain at Kilsyth; that immediately on the Duchess's quitting her on
-the previous night she had made arrangements as to the future
-disposition of the rooms which they occupied; that she would not for
-the world take upon herself the responsibility which would necessarily
-accrue to her if any of them caught the disease; and that she knew the
-Duchess's own feelings would tell her that she, Lady Muriel, however
-ungracious it might seem, was in the right in advising their immediate
-departure. The Duchess tried to argue the point, but in vain; and so
-she and the Duke, and their servants and baggage, departed, and passed
-the next three days at a third-rate roadside inn between Kilsyth and
-Redlands, where the Duke got lumbago, and the Duchess got bored; and
-where they passed their time alternately wishing that they had not
-left Kilsyth, or that the people at Redlands were ready to receive
-them.
-
-Very little difference was made by the other guests at Kilsyth in the
-disposition of their day. If they were surprised at the sudden
-defection of the Northallertons and Lady Fairfax, they were too
-well-bred to show it. Charley Jefferson mooned about the house and
-grounds, a thought more disconsolate than ever; but he was the only
-member of the party who at all bemoaned the departure of the departed.
-Lady Dunkeld congratulated her cousin Muriel on being rid of "those
-awful wet blankets," the Northallertons. Captain Severn, in whispered
-colloquy with his wife, "hoped to heaven Charley Jefferson would see
-what a stuck-up selfish brute that Emily Fairfax was." Lord Roderick
-Douglas and Mr. Pitcairn went out for their stalk; and all the rest of
-the company betook themselves to their usual occupations.
-
-
-"Where's her ladyship?"
-
-"In the boudoir, sir, waiting for the doctor."
-
-"What doctor? Dr. Joyce?"
-
-"And the strange gentleman, sir. They're both together in Miss
-Madeleine's room."
-
-"Ah, Muriel! So Dr. Wilmot has arrived?"
-
-"Yes, and gone off straight with Joyce to Madeleine. You see I was
-right in recommending you to go out as usual. Your fine London
-physician never asked for you, never mentioned your name."
-
-"Well, perhaps you were right. I should have worried myself into a
-fever here; not that I've done any good out--missed every shot. What's
-he like?"
-
-"He! Who? Dr. Wilmot? I had scarcely an opportunity of observing, but
-I should say _brusque_ and self-sufficient. He and Joyce went off at
-once. I thanked him for coming, and welcomed him in your name and my
-own; but he did not seem much impressed."
-
-"Full of his case, no doubt; these men never think of anything
-but--Ah, here he is!--Dr. Wilmot, a thousand thanks for this prompt
-reply to my hasty summons. Seeing the urgency, you'll forgive the
-apparent freedom of my telegraphing to you."
-
-"My dear sir," said Wilmot, "I am only too happy to be here; not that,
-if you could have engrossed the attention of this gentleman, there
-would have been any necessity for the summons. Dr. Joyce has done
-every thing that could possibly be done for Miss Kilsyth up to this
-point."
-
-"_A laudato viro laudari_," murmured
-
-Dr. Joyce. "But, fortunately or unfortunately, as I learn from him, a
-district of thirty miles in circumference looks to him for its health.
-Now I am, for the next few days at least, a free man, and at liberty
-to devote myself to Miss Kilsyth."
-
-"And you will do so?"
-
-"With the very greatest pleasure. In two words let me corroborate the
-opinion already given. I understand by my friend here Miss Kilsyth has
-an attack, more or less serious, of scarlet-fever. She must be kept
-completely isolated from every one, and must be watched with
-unremitting attention. Dr. Joyce will send to Aberdeen for a skilled
-nurse, upon whom he can depend; until her arrival I will take up my
-position in the sick-room."
-
-"Ten thousand thanks; but--is there any danger?"
-
-"So far all is progressing favourably. We must look to Providence and
-our own unremitting attention for the result."
-
-
-"I'm so hot and so thirsty, and these pillows are so uncomfortable!
-Thanks! Ah, is that you, Dr. Wilmot? I was afraid you had gone. You
-won't leave me--at least not just yet--will you?"
-
-"Not I, my dear. There--that's better, isn't it? The pillow is cooler,
-and the lemonade--"
-
-"Ah, so many thanks! I'm very weak tonight; but your voice is so kind,
-and your manner, and--"
-
-"There; now try and sleep.--Good heavens, how lovely she is! What a
-mass of golden hair falling over her pillow, and what a soft,
-innocent, childish manner! And to think that only this morning I--ah,
-you must never hear the details of this case, my dear old master. When
-I get back to town I will tell you the result: but the details--never."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IV.
-Mrs. Wilmot.
-
-
-"I wonder what sort of woman Chudleigh Wilmot's wife is," was a phrase
-very often used by his acquaintances; and the sentiment it expressed
-was not unnatural or inexcusable. There are some men concerning whom
-people instinctively feel that there is something peculiar in their
-domestic history, that their everyday life is not like the everyday
-life of other people. Sometimes this impression is positive and
-defined; it takes the shape of certain conviction that things are
-wrong in that quarter; that So-and-so's marriage is a mistake, a
-misfortune, or a calamity, just as the grade of the blunder makes
-itself felt by his manner, or even by the expression of the
-countenance. Sometimes the impression is quite vague, and the
-questioner is conscious only that there must be something of interest
-to be known. The man's wife may be dear to him, with a special
-dearness and nearness, too sacred, too much a part of his inmost being
-to be betrayed to even the friendliest eyes; or there may be an
-estrangement, which pride and rectitude combine to conceal. At all
-events--and whichever of these may be the true condition of affairs,
-or whatever modification of them may be true--the man's acquaintance
-feel that there is something in his domestic story different from that
-of other men, and they regard him with a livelier curiosity, if he be
-a man of social or intellectual mark, in consequence.
-
-It was in the vaguest form that the question, "What sort of a woman is
-Chudleigh Wilmot's wife?" suggested itself to his acquaintances.
-Naturally, and necessarily, the greater number of those to whom the
-rising man became known knew him only in his professional capacity;
-but that capacity involved a good deal of knowledge, and not a little
-social intercourse; and there was hardly one among their number who
-did not say, sooner or later, to himself, or to other people, "I
-wonder what sort of woman Chudleigh Wilmot's wife is?" This question
-had been asked mentally, and of each other, by several of the inmates
-of the old mansion of Kilsyth; while the grave, preoccupied, and
-absorbed physician dwelt within its walls, devoting all his energies
-of mind and body to the battle with disease, in which he was resolved
-to conquer. But no one who was there, or likely to be there, could
-have answered the question, strange to say--not even Wilmot himself.
-
-Chudleigh Wilmot's marriage had come about after a fashion in which
-there was nothing very novel, remarkable, or interesting. Mabel
-Darlington was a pretty girl, who came of a good family, with which
-Wilmot's mother had been connected; had a small fortune, which was
-very acceptable to the young man just starting in his arduous
-profession; and was as attractive to him as any woman could have been
-at that stage of his life. Partly inclination, partly convenience, and
-in some measure persuasion, were the promoters of the match. Wilmot
-knew that a medical man had a better chance of success as a married
-than as a single man; and as this was a fixed, active, and predominant
-idea among his relatives and friends--in fact, an article of faith,
-and a perpetual text of continual discourses--he had everything to
-encourage him in the design which had formed itself, though somewhat
-faintly, in his mind, when he renewed his acquaintance with Miss
-Darlington, on the occasion of her appearance at his mother's house in
-the character of a "come out" young lady. He had often seen her as a
-child and a little girl, being himself at the time a somewhat older
-child and a much bigger boy; but he had never entertained for her that
-disinterested, ardent, wretchedness-producing passion known as "calf
-love;" so that the impression she made upon him at a later period owed
-nothing to earlier recollection. His mother liked the girl, and
-praised her eloquently and persistently to Chudleigh; so eloquently
-and persistently indeed, that if he had not happened to be of her
-opinion from the beginning, she would probably have inspired him with
-a powerful dislike to Miss Darlington, by placing that young lady in
-his catalogue of bores. He was not by any means the sort of man to
-marry a woman for whom he did not care at all, to please his mother,
-or secure his own prosperity; but he was just the sort of man to care
-all the more for a girl because his mother liked her, and to make up
-his mind to marry her, if she would have him, the more quickly on that
-account.
-
-The courtship was a short one; and even in its brief duration
-Chudleigh Wilmot never felt, never tried to persuade himself, that
-Mabel was his first object in life. He knew that his profession had
-his heart, his brain, his ambition in its grasp; that he loved it, and
-thought of it, and lived for it in a way, and to a degree, which no
-other object could ever compete with. It never occurred to him for a
-moment that there was any injustice to Mabel in this. He would be an
-affectionate and faithful husband; but he was a practical man--not an
-enthusiast, not a dreamer. If he succeeded--and he was determined to
-succeed--she would share his success, the realisation of his ambition,
-and would secure all its advantages to herself. A man to do real
-work in the world, and to do it as a man ought--as alone he could
-feel the answer of a good conscience in doing anything he should
-undertake--must put his work above and before every thing. He would
-do this; he would be an eminent physician, a celebrated and rich man;
-a good husband too; and his wife should never have reason to find
-fault with him, or to envy the wives of other men--men who might
-indeed be more sentimental and demonstrative, but who could not have a
-stronger sense of duty than he. Thus thought, thus resolved Mabel
-Darlington's lover; and very good thoughts, very admirable resolves
-his were. They had only one defect; but he never suspected its
-existence. It was a rather radical defect too, being this: that they
-were not those of a lover at all.
-
-They were married, and all went very well with the modest and
-exemplary household. At first the Wilmot _ménage_ was not so
-fashionably located as afterwards; but Mrs. Wilmot's house was always
-a model of neatness, propriety, and the precise degree of elegance
-which the rising man's income justified at each level which he
-attained. Wilmot's mother continued to like her daughter-in-law, and
-to regard her son's marriage as most propitious, though she had
-sometimes a doubt whether she really did understand his wife quite so
-thoroughly as she had understood Mabel Darlington. But Wilmot's mother
-had now been dead some years. Mrs. Wilmot had no near relatives, and
-she was a woman of few intimacies; her life was placid, prosperous,
-conventional. She had, at the period with which this story deals, a
-handsome house, a good income, an agreeable and eminently respectable
-social circle; a handsome, irreproachable husband, rapidly rising into
-distinction; one intimate friend, and--a broken heart.
-
-Chudleigh Wilmot's wife was young; if not beautiful, at least very
-attractive, accomplished, ladylike, and "amiable," in the generally
-accepted interpretation of that unsatisfactory word. What better or
-what worse description could possibly be given? It describes a
-thousand women in a breath, and it designates not one in particular.
-There was only one person in existence who could have given a more
-clear, intelligible, and distinct description of Mrs. Wilmot than this
-stereotyped one. This person was her friend Mrs. Prendergast--a lady
-somewhat older than herself, and whose natural and remarkable
-quickness and penetration were aided in this instance by close
-acquaintance and sleepless jealousy. If Mrs. Prendergast had been an
-ordinary woman, as silly as her sisterhood and no sillier, the fact
-that she was extremely jealous of Mrs. Wilmot would have so obscured
-and perverted her judgment, that her opinion would not have been worth
-having. But Mrs. Prendergast was very unlike her sisterhood. Not only
-was she negatively less silly, but she was positively clever; and
-being severe, suspicious, and implacable as well, if not precisely a
-pleasant, she was at least a remarkable woman. Nothing obscured or
-perverted Mrs. Prendergast's judgment; neither did anything touch her
-heart. She had mind, and a good deal of it; she had experience and
-tact, insight, foresight, and caution. She was a woman who might
-possibly be a very valuable friend, but who could not fail to be a
-very dangerous enemy. In such a nature the power of enmity would
-probably be greater than the power of friendship, and the one would be
-likely to crush the other if ever they came into collision. Mrs.
-Prendergast was Mrs. Wilmot's friend. Whether she was the friend of
-Mrs. Wilmot's husband remains to be seen. If she had been asked to say
-what manner of woman the rising man's wife was, and had thought proper
-to satisfy the inquirer, her portraiture might have been relied upon
-as implicitly for its truthfulness as that of the most impartial
-observer, which is saying at once that Mrs. Prendergast was a woman of
-exceptional mental qualities, and of a temperament rare among those
-charming creatures to whom injustice is easy and natural.
-
-The two women were habitually much together. Mrs. Prendergast was a
-childless widow. Mrs. Wilmot was a childless wife. Neither had
-absorbing domestic occupations to employ her,--each had a good deal of
-time at the other's disposal; hence it happened that few days passed
-without their meeting, and enjoying that desultory kind of
-companionship which is so puzzling to the male observer of the habits
-and manners of womankind. Their respective abodes were within easy
-distance of each other. Mrs. Prendergast lived in Cadogan-place, and
-Mrs. Wilmot lived in Charles-street, St. James's. When they did not
-see one another, they exchanged notes; and in short they kept up all
-the ceremonial of warm feminine friendship; and each really did like
-the other better than any one else in the world, with one exception.
-In Mrs. Wilmot's case the exception was her husband; in Mrs.
-Prendergast's, the exception was herself. There was a good deal of
-sincerity and warmth in their friendship, but on one point there was a
-decided inequality. Mrs. Prendergast understood Mrs. Wilmot
-thoroughly; she read her through and through, she knew her off by
-heart; but Mrs. Wilmot knew very little of her friend--only just as
-much as her friend chose she should know. Which was a convenient state
-of things, and tended to preserve their pleasant and salutary
-relations unbroken. Mrs. Prendergast had played Eleanor Galligaí to
-Mrs. Wilmot's Marie de' Medicis for a considerable time, and with
-uninterrupted success, when Chudleigh Wilmot was sent for, in the
-perplexity and distress at Kilsyth; and as a matter of course she had
-heard from his wife about his prolonged visit to Sir Saville Rowe,
-whom she was well aware Mrs. Wilmot disliked with the quiet, rooted,
-persistent aversion so frequently inspired in the breasts of even the
-very best and most conscientious of women by their husbands' intimate
-friends. Wilmot was utterly unconscious that his wife entertained any
-such feeling; and Sir Saville Rowe himself would have been hardly more
-astonished than Wilmot, if it had been revealed to him that the
-confidence and regard which existed between the former master and
-pupil were counted a grievance, and Wilmot's visit to Burnside
-resented, silently indeed, in grief rather than in anger, as an
-injury.
-
-In this fact may be found the key-note to Mrs. Wilmot's character; a
-key-note often struck by her friend's hand, and never with an erring,
-a faltering, or a rough touch.
-
-There was not much of the tragic element in Henrietta Prendergast's
-jealousy of Mabel Wilmot, but there was a great deal of the mean. When
-Mabel was a young girl, Henrietta was a not much older widow. She was
-Mabel's cousin; had married, when very young, a man who had survived
-their marriage only one year. She had more money than Mabel; their
-connections were the same; she had as much education, and even better
-manners. She met Chudleigh Wilmot on the occasion of his renewing his
-acquaintance with Mabel Darlington, and she was as much, though
-differently, fascinated with him as Mabel herself. She compared her
-qualifications with those of her cousin; and she arrived at the not
-unnatural conclusion that their charms were equal, supposing him
-incapable of discerning how much cleverer a woman than Mabel she
-was,--and hers very superior, should he prove capable of understanding
-and appreciating her intellectual superiority. She forgot one simple
-element in the calculation, and it made all the difference--she forgot
-Mabel's prettiness. Henrietta Prendergast made very few mistakes, but
-she did constantly make one blunder; she forgot her plain face, she
-under-estimated the power of beauty. Perhaps no plain woman ever does
-understand that power, ever does make sufficient allowance for it,
-when arrayed against her in any kind of combat; it is certain that
-Henrietta did not in this instance. It is certain that though
-Chudleigh Wilmot thought of marrying Mabel Darlington without being
-very much in love with her, he never thought of marrying Henrietta
-Prendergast at all.
-
-And now, when she had come to the conclusion that Chudleigh Wilmot
-had not loved Mabel Darlington, and did not love his wife,--was, in
-short, a man to whom love was unknown, by whom it was unvalued,
-undesired,--she was still steadily, sleeplessly jealous of Mabel
-Wilmot. "I would have made him love _me_," she would say to herself,
-as she read the thoughts of her friend; "I would have been as
-ambitious for him as he is for himself; I would have shown him that
-his aim was the highest and the worthiest. I would have loved him, and
-sympathised with him too. She only loves him; she does not understand
-him. Why did she come in between him and me?" For this very clever
-woman had actually deluded herself into the belief that, but for
-Mabel, Chudleigh Wilmot would have loved, or at least have married
-her. She would have made him love her afterwards, as she said. So for
-a long time she disliked her cousin, and hankered after her cousin's
-husband, and believed that she would have been the best, the most
-suitable, and the happiest of wives to the man who evidently had not a
-wife of that pattern in Mabel, but who somehow did not seem to
-perceive the fact. That time had come to an end long before people at
-Kilsyth asked themselves and each other what sort of woman Chudleigh
-Wilmot's wife was. But though Mrs. Prendergast no longer hankered
-after her cousin's husband, though the love, in which her active
-imagination had a large share, had given place to a much more real and
-genuine hatred, she was jealous of Mabel still. This woman's brain was
-larger than her heart; her intellectual was higher than her moral
-nature; and a lofty feeling would be more transient than a low one.
-She pitied Mabel Wilmot too, however contradictory such an assertion
-may seem to shallow perceptions, which do not recognise in life that
-nothing is so reasonably to be expected, so invariably to be found, as
-contradictions in character. She liked her, she understood her, but
-she was jealous of her--jealous because Mabel had the position she had
-vainly desired. If she had had her husband's love, Mrs. Prendergast
-would have been still more jealous of her, and would not have liked,
-because she could not have pitied her. But she knew she had not that;
-she had made the discovery as soon as Mabel, who had made it fatally
-soon.
-
-What had the girl's ideal been? was a question none could answer, and
-which it is certain her husband never asked. He was very kind to her;
-she had every comfort, every luxury that he could give her; but she
-lived in a world of which he knew nothing, and he in and for his
-profession. He could not have been brought to recognise the
-possibility of over devotion to the business of his life. He would not
-have listened to the advance of any claims upon his time, attention,
-or interest, beyond those which he fulfilled with enthusiasm in the
-interests of his work, and the courteous observance which he never
-denied to the rules of his well-regulated household. Chudleigh Wilmot
-was a clever man in many ways beside that one way in which he was
-eminently so; but one study had long lain near his hand, and he had
-never given time or thought to it; one book was close to him, and he
-had never turned its leaves--the study of his wife's character, the
-book of his wife's heart.
-
-Mabel Wilmot was inveterately, incurably shy, extremely reserved and
-reticent by nature, and rather sullen. The latter fault of temper had
-made itself apparent to her husband very early in their married life;
-and having rebuked it without effect, he made the great mistake of
-treating it with disregard. He never noticed it now; the symptoms
-escaped him, the disease did not interest him, and it grew and grew.
-Proud, cold in manner, distant; scrupulously deferential and dutiful
-in externals; silent, except where speech was necessary to the
-management of such affairs as lay within her sphere; calmly
-indifferent, to all appearance, to all that did not absolutely concern
-her individually in the course of their life, her shyness and her
-sullenness were not perceptible to others now--never to him. He did
-not know that it was so much the worse; he did not understand that it
-had been better to know and feel her faults than to be ignorant of her
-and them, unconscious of their growth, or their yielding, or their
-transformation into others, uglier, worse, harder of eradication, more
-hopeless of cure. He did not love her. The whole story was in that one
-sentence.
-
-And she? She loved him; certainly not wisely, all things considered,
-and much too well for her own peace. She had outgrown her girlhood
-since her marriage; and her character had hardened, darkened,
-deepened, everything but strengthened, with her advance into
-womanhood. The girl Chudleigh Wilmot had married, and the graceful
-languid woman who appeared barely conscious of, and not at all
-interested in, the fact of his existence, were widely different
-beings. Mabel had shrunk from the knowledge of the thraldom in which
-her love for her husband--her calm, cold, generous, irreproachable
-husband--held her when she had first realised its strength, when the
-growth of her own love had revealed to her that his was but a puny
-changeling, with all the sensitiveness of a shy, sullen, and reticent
-nature. She could not deny, but she could conceal the bondage in which
-it held her. The qualities of her heart and the defects of her temper
-had a fight for the mastery, and temper won. Chudleigh Wilmot, if he
-had been obliged to think about the matter, would have unhesitatingly
-declared that his wife's temper had improved considerably since the
-early days of their marriage: the truth was, it had only lost
-impulsiveness, and acquired sulk and secretiveness.
-
-All this, and the terrible pain at the young woman's unsatisfied
-heart,--the pain which devoured her the more ruthlessly as success
-waited more closely upon the devotion to his profession of the man
-she loved, and in whose life she had but a nominal share,--was well
-known to Henrietta Prendergast. It had been long in coming, that burst
-of agonised confidence, which had made her friend officially aware of
-all that her acute mind had long believed; but it had come, and like
-all the confidences of very shy people, it had been complete and
-expansive. All restraint was over. Mabel might yield to any mood now
-in Henrietta's presence; she might talk of him with pride, with love,
-with anger, with questioning wonder, with despair; she, whose armour
-of pride and silence no other hand, not even the hand of the husband
-she loved, had ever pierced, was defenceless, unarmed, at the mercy of
-her friend, who fancied she had supplanted her, who was jealous of
-her.
-
-Chudleigh Wilmot had been nearly a week at Kilsyth, when Mrs.
-Prendergast, entering her cousin's drawing-room rather earlier than
-usual, found her agitated, and in a state of perplexity.
-
-"I am so glad you have come, Henrietta," said Mrs. Wilmot, as she
-kissed her visitor. "I have been in such anxiety to see you. A message
-was sent early this morning from Mr. Foljambe--you know Wilmot's
-friend, Mr. Foljambe the banker, of Portland-place--requesting that he
-would go to him at once. The poor old man has the gout again very
-badly. Since then a note has come; written by himself too, and hardly
-legible. Poor creature! I'm sure he is in horrid pain. Here it is. You
-see he says, 'the enemy is advancing on the citadel'--he means his
-heart or his stomach, I suppose--and he entreats Wilmot to go to him
-at once. What ought I to do, Henrietta?"
-
-"You must tell him, of course, that Mr. Wilmot is out of town. I
-should not say he was so far away as Scotland; I think the mere idea
-is enough to terrify a nervous old man with a superstition in favour
-of a particular doctor."
-
-"Yes, yes, you are right; so it is. But about Wilmot. Of course he
-will not like to leave Sir Saville's friends. He thinks more of Sir
-Saville than of any one in the world, I do believe."
-
-"Hardly more, Mabel, than of his reputation and Mr. Foljambe, I should
-think. Why, this Mr. Foljambe is the oldest friend he has in the
-world--his godfather, his father's friend,--a childless old man,
-without kith or kin in the world, who may leave him a fortune any day,
-and is certain to leave him something very handsome! He would never be
-so mad or so ungrateful--is he of an ungrateful disposition, Mabel?"
-
-"I don't know exactly," said Mrs. Wilmot, as her colour deepened, and
-tears rose to her dark gray eyes. "If he _has_ any feeling, it is
-certainly for his friends--at least he wastes none of it on _me_."
-
-"You are always brooding over that, Mabel," said her cousin, "and it
-is labour and sorrow wasted. No man is worth being miserable about,
-dear, and Wilmot is no more worth it than his neighbours. Besides,
-this is a matter of business, you know, and we must look at it so. You
-had better telegraph at once, I think. Put on your bonnet, and come to
-the office; don't trust to a servant, and don't lose time. The message
-will take some time to reach him, at the quickest. I fancy Kilsyth is
-a long way from any station."
-
-Her practical tone had a beneficial effect on Mabel. Besides, she
-brightened at the hope, the expectation of Wilmot's return before the
-appointed time. The two ladies drove to Charing-cross, and Mabel
-telegraphed to Wilmot:
-
-"_Mr. Foljambe is dangerously ill. Come at once_."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER V.
-A Resolve, and its Results.
-
-
-The illness of Madeleine Kilsyth engrossed the attention and engaged
-the sympathy of her father so completely, and so entirely blinded him
-to other considerations, that when he chanced to encounter a servant
-on his way to Wilmot's room, in whose hand he recognised the ominous
-yellow cover which indicated a telegraphic despatch, he immediately
-accompanied the man to the door. He then hardly gave his guest time to
-peruse the message before he said impetuously:
-
-"Nothing to take you away from us, I trust. Pray tell me?" and the
-otherwise polite gentleman did his best to peer at the pencilled
-characters on the flimsy sheet of paper which Wilmot held in his hand.
-For a moment his eager question remained unanswered, and his guest
-stood frowning and uncertain. The next, though the frown remained, the
-look of uncertainty passed away, and then Wilmot turned frankly to the
-impatient questioner and said:
-
-"This is a message from an old friend and patient of mine. He wants me
-very much, and asks me to return at once."
-
-"And--and what will you do? _Must_ you go?" asked the distressed
-father in a tone of the keenest anxiety.
-
-"I shall stay here, sir, until your daughter is out of danger. There
-are many who can replace me in London in Foljambe's case; there is no
-one who can replace me here in Miss Kilsyth's."
-
-"You are very good, Wilmot. I really can't thank you sufficiently,"
-said Kilsyth, immensely relieved.
-
-"No need to thank me at all, my dear sir," said Wilmot. "And now I
-will make my report to you, which no doubt you were coming to hear."
-
-The two gentlemen had rather a long talk, and on its completion Wilmot
-returned to his room to write letters; and Kilsyth went to tell Lady
-Muriel that they had had a narrow escape of losing Wilmot, but he had
-determined to disregard the message, and stay by Madeleine. Did she
-not think Wilmot a very fine fellow? Had she not perfect confidence in
-his skill? and was not the interest he was taking in Madeleine's case
-extraordinary? To all these queries the Lady Muriel made answer in the
-affirmative, with heightened colour and brightened eyes, which, if
-Kilsyth had happened to notice those phenomena at all, he would have
-ascribed to an increase of feeling towards Madeleine; to be hailed, on
-his part, with much gratitude and delight. But Kilsyth did not happen
-to notice them at all.
-
-Chudleigh Wilmot was a man accustomed to act promptly on a resolution;
-and perhaps, like many more of similar temperament, likely to act all
-the more promptly when the motives of that resolution were not quite
-clear or quite justifiable before his own judgment. In the present
-instance he certainly did not act with perfect candour towards
-himself. He made very much to himself of his apprehensions concerning
-the result of Madeleine's illness, and his absolute want of confidence
-in the skill of Mr. Joyce. He resolutely shut his eyes to the long and
-substantial claims of Mr. Foljambe to paramount consideration on his
-part, and he determined to "see this matter out," as he phrased it, in
-his one-sided mental cogitation, by which he meant that he was
-determined to invest the temptation in his way with the specious name
-of duty, and to try to persuade himself that he had the assent of his
-conscience in pursuing a course opposed to his judgment. In pursuance
-of this determination, Chudleigh Wilmot wrote to his wife the
-following letter. To anyone familiar with the man's habits, it
-would have been suggestive, that when he had written "Kilsyth," and
-the date, he paused for several minutes, fidgeted with a stick of
-sealing-wax, got up and walked about the room, and, finally, began to
-write with unusual haste:
-
-
-"MY DEAR MABEL,--Your telegram came all right; but my leaving this is
-quite impossible for the present. You must tell Foljambe how I am
-circumstanced. Poor old fellow! I am sorry for him; but he will pull
-through, as usual; and there is nothing to be done for him which
-anyone else cannot do just as well as myself. He had better see
-Whittaker; or, if he does not like him for any reason--and the dear
-old boy _is_ whimsical--let him see Perkins: tell him I recommend
-either confidently. You had better go and see him, if your cold is all
-right again, and cheer him up. As for me, I am effectually imprisoned
-here until this case decides itself one way or the other. Miss Kilsyth
-could not possibly be left to the care of the country doctor here; and
-there is no one within any _possible_ distance but Sir Saville, who
-would not _stay_, supposing he would _come_, which is doubtful. The
-same answer must be given in all cases for the next week or so. There
-is no use in anyone telegraphing for me. The country about here is
-beautiful; but of course I don't see much of it. The Kilsyths are
-pleasant people in their way, and full of gratitude to me. Lady Muriel
-talks of making your acquaintance when they come to town. Nothing of
-consequence at home, I suppose? Tell Whittaker to look after Foljambe
-very zealously, if he will have him.--Yours affectionately,
-C. WILMOT.
-
-"P. S. The case is malignant scarlet-fever, and my patient and I are
-in quarantine. Kilsyth is in great trouble--devoted to his daughter."
-
-
-When he had sealed this letter, and left it on the table for the post,
-Wilmot once more went to his patient's room. The suffering girl had
-fallen into an uneasy slumber; her face, with the disfiguring flush
-invading its fairness, was turned towards the door, the heavy eyes
-were closed, and the parched red lips were open. With a skilful
-noiseless touch, Wilmot lifted the restless head to an easier attitude
-upon the pillow, and moistened the dry mouth. The girl's golden hair
-had slipped out of the silken net which had confined it, and a
-quantity of its thick tresses was caught in one hot hand. Wilmot
-released the tangled hair, laid the hand upon the smooth coverlet,
-looked long at the young face, and then, stepping gently to the window
-where the nurse was sitting, asked how long the patient had been
-sleeping. Ever since he had left her, it seemed. Lady Muriel had been
-there, "leastways at the dressing-room door," the nurse added, and had
-wanted to see him particularly, she (the nurse) thought, about sending
-the children out of the way of infection. Lady Muriel also asked
-whether they were not going to cut off Miss Kilsyth's hair.
-
-"Which it does seem a pity, poor dear!" said the nurse, speaking in
-the skilful whisper which does not disturb the patient, and is the
-most difficult of _tones_ to acquire; and throwing a motherly glance
-at the sleeping girl, who just then moaned painfully.
-
-"Cut off her hair!" said Wilmot,--as if the mere notion were a horrid
-barbarism, which he could not contemplate as a possibility; "certainly
-not--it is entirely unnecessary."
-
-"Well, sir," said the nurse, "it's mostly done in fevers. Wherever
-I've nursed, I've always done it, first thing."
-
-Wilmot turned red and hot. Why should he shrink from sanctioning or
-ordering the sacrifice in this case, as he had done in a thousand
-others without a thought of hesitation or regret, just like any other
-detail? Why, indeed? if not because those were the _thousand_ cases,
-while this was the _one_. But he did not face the question; he turned
-aside from it--turned aside, with his eyes piercing the gloom of the
-shaded room, in search of the gleam of the golden locks. "No, no," he
-thought, "the 'little head sunning over with curls' shall 'shine on,'
-if I can manage it." So he told the nurse that was a matter for after
-consideration, and that she was to have him called when Miss Kilsyth
-should wake; and he went out for a solitary walk.
-
-Lady Muriel was most grateful to Dr. Wilmot for the care and skill
-which he exercised in Madeleine's case. Scarcely Kilsyth himself was
-more unremitting in his inquiries after the patient, more anxious as
-to the result. But husband and wife were actuated by totally different
-motives. The man feared lest the hope of his life should be quenched,
-the woman lest the object of her ambition should be frustrated; the
-man dreaded the loss of his darling, the woman the confusion of her
-scheme. For Lady Muriel had a scheme in connection with Madeleine
-Kilsyth, which it may be as well at once to declare.
-
-It is Mr. Longfellow who informs us that no one is so accursed by
-fate, no one so utterly desolate, but some heart, though unknown,
-responds unto his own. When Lady Muriel Inchgarvie was running her
-career of two London seasons, waiting for the arrival of the man whom
-she could persuade herself into marrying, and whom she could persuade
-into marrying her; while Mr. Burton and Sir Coke Only were fluttering
-like moths round her brilliant light,--the world, which thinks it
-marks everything, and which hugs itself in appreciation of its
-wonderful sagacity and perspicacity, and which had already supremely
-settled that Lady Muriel had no heart to lose, little knew that its
-sentence was a just one--simply because Lady Muriel had lost her
-heart. There was a connection of the house of Inchgarvie, a tall thin
-Scotchman, named Stewart Caird, a barrister of Lincoln's-inn, who had
-been a long time settled in London, and who, in virtue of his
-aristocratic connections, his perfect gentlemanliness, and his utter
-harmlessness--for everyone knew that poor Stewart merely lived from
-hand to mouth, by the exercise of his profession, and by writing in
-the law magazines and reviews--was asked into a good deal of society.
-He was a languid, consumptive-looking man, with a high hectic colour,
-and deep-violet eyes, and a soft tremulous voice; and after he had
-claimed kinship with Lady Muriel, and had his claim allowed, he found
-plenty of opportunities of meeting her constantly, and on every
-occasion he was to be found by her side. This was the one chance which
-fortune had bestowed on Muriel Inchgarvie of loving and being
-simultaneously beloved; and it is but fair to say that she availed
-herself of it. Not for one instant did either of them think of the
-hopelessness of their passion. Lady Muriel well knew that a marriage
-with Stewart Caird was simply impossible; and Stewart Caird knew it
-too, possessing at the same time the additional knowledge, that even
-if family affairs could have been squared by his coming into the
-immediate heritage of fabulous wealth, there was yet a slight drawback
-in the fact that his lungs could not possibly hold out beyond six
-months. And yet they went on loving and fooling: to her the mere fact
-that there could never be any ties between them was, as it always has
-been, an incentive to a quasi-romantic attachment; to him, with the
-perfect conviction that he was a doomed man, the love of a pretty
-high-bred woman softened the terrors of death, and prevented him from
-dwelling on his fate. So they went on; the world taking little heed of
-them, and they ignoring the world; he growing weaker and weaker, but
-always disguising his weakness, until one night in the height of the
-season, when Lady Muriel, dressed for a ball, received a short
-pencil-note, feebly scrawled: "If you would see me before I die, come
-at once.--S.C. You know me well enough to be certain that this is no
-romantic figure of speech." The writing, feeble throughout, trailed
-off at last into scarcely legible characters. Lady Muriel wrote one
-hasty line to the lady who was to be her chaperon, pleading illness as
-her excuse for not fetching her, threw a thick cloak and hood over her
-ball-dress and her ivy-wreathed hair, and told the coachman, who was
-devoted to her, to drive her to Old-square, Lincoln's-inn. There,
-propped up by pillows, and attended by a hired nurse, who was by no
-means reluctant to take a hint, and, accompanied by a spirit-bottle,
-to betake herself to a further room, she found poor Stewart Caird,
-with large bistre rings round his eyes and two flaming red spots on
-his hollow cheeks. Between the attacks of a racking cough, he told her
-that his end was nigh; that he had long foreseen it, but that he could
-not deny himself the privilege of winning her love. He acknowledged
-the selfishness of the act; but trusted she would pardon him, when he
-assured her that the knowledge that she cared for him had
-inexpressibly lightened the last few months of his earthly career, and
-that he should die more happily, knowing that he left one regretful
-heart behind him. He said this in a voice which was tolerably firm at
-first, but which, touched by her sobs, grew more and more tremulous,
-and finally broke down, when, in an access of emotion, she flung her
-arms round him, and clasped him to her heart. How long they remained
-thus tranced in love and grief neither ever knew; it was the first,
-the last wild access of passion that ever was to accrue to either. The
-future, so imminent to one of them at least, was unthought of, and
-they lived but in the then present fleeting moment, But before they
-parted Stewart spoke to Muriel of his younger brother Ramsay, who had
-been left to his care, and whom he was now leaving to the mercy of the
-world. For Muriel there was, he said he was persuaded, a career in
-life. When it fell to her, when she was enjoying it, would she, for
-the sake of him who had loved her--ah, so deeply and so dearly!--whose
-life she had cheered, and who with his dying breath would call upon
-and bless her name--would she watch over and provide for Ramsay Caird?
-With the dying man's hand in hers, with her arm round his neck, with
-her eyes looking into his, even then glazed and wandering, Muriel
-swore to fulfil his wishes, and to undertake this charge. Within
-forty-eight hours Stewart Caird was dead; within six weeks after his
-death Muriel Inchgarvie was the pledged wife of Kilsyth; and within a
-fortnight of her betrothal she had hit upon a plan for the future of
-her dead lover's brother.
-
-Ramsay Caird's future career in life was, as Lady Muriel decided, to
-be one with Madeleine Kilsyth's, and his fortune was to come to him
-through his wife. Madeleine's godfather, a childless, rich, old
-Highland proprietor, an old friend and neighbour of Kilsyth's, had at
-his death left her twenty thousand pounds, to be hers on her coming of
-age, or on her marrying with her father's consent. A pleasant
-competence in itself, but a princely fortune for a young man of small
-ideas like Ramsay Caird, who was earning a very precarious salary,
-given to him more from kindness than from any deserts of his, in the
-office of the Edinburgh agent to several large estates. Soon after her
-marriage Lady Muriel sent for the young man to Kilsyth, found him
-gentlemanly and unassuming, sufficiently shrewd to comprehend the
-extremely delicate hints which she gave him as to the course which she
-wished him to adopt, and sufficiently delicate to prevent his at once
-plunging _in medias res_. Since then he had been frequently at
-Kilsyth, and had done his best to make himself agreeable to Madeleine.
-He was a good-looking, gentlemanly, quiet young man, without very much
-to say for himself, beyond the ordinary society talk, in which he was
-fairly glib; he had the names of all the members of all the families
-for whom his principal was agent at his tongue's end; had seen many of
-them personally,--even knew the appearance of the rest by photograph;
-kept himself well posted in their movements, through the medium of the
-fashionable journals; and so could fairly hold his own in the
-conversation of the people he was thrown amongst. Lady Muriel, who was
-as clever as she was proud and ambitious, reckoned Ramsay Caird up to
-a nicety; saw exactly how far he was suitable for her plans, and
-thought there was little doubt of Madeleine's being captivated by the
-handsome glib young man who paid her such respectful homage. But for
-once in her life Lady Muriel was wrong. It is but fair to say that
-Ramsay Caird never neglected one of the opportunities so frequently
-thrown in his way; that he never once committed himself in any
-possible manner; that he did not on every occasion seek to recommend
-himself to the girl's favour; but it is certain that he failed in
-making the smallest impression on her. Lady Muriel, watching the
-progress of affairs with the greatest interest, soon felt this, and
-was at first dispirited; afterwards consoling herself by the thought
-that the girl was passionless and devoid of feeling, but so docile
-withal, that it would be only necessary for her father to suggest her
-acceptance of Mr. Caird for her at once to fall into the idea.
-Thoroughly comforted by this notion, Lady Muriel had of late given
-herself no uneasiness in the matter; contenting herself by asking
-Ramsay Caird to spend a week or two now and then at Kilsyth, by
-throwing him frequently into Madeleine's society when there, and by
-keeping up a perpetual gently flowing perennial stream of laudation of
-her young _protégé_ to her husband.
-
-On Wilmot's return to the house, he inquired whether it would be
-convenient to Lady Muriel to receive him.
-
-"My lady" was in her own sitting-room, and would be very happy to see
-Dr. Wilmot. So, he went thither, and found the mistress of the mansion
-alone, and looking to very great advantage in the midst of all the
-luxuries and refinements with which wealth--in this instance aided by
-good taste--adorns life. Her rich and simple dress, her finished
-graceful ease of manner, her sunny beauty, and the perfect propriety
-with which she expressed interest and anxiety concerning her
-stepdaughter, made her a very attractive object to Wilmot. He had not
-yet discovered that she did not in the least experience the sentiments
-which she glibly expressed in phrases of irreproachable _tournure_; he
-did not suspect her of insincerity or want of feeling, or in fact of
-any fault. Everything and everybody at Kilsyth wore the best and
-fairest of aspects in the eyes of Chudleigh Wilmot, who was,
-nevertheless, a very far-seeing and an eminently practical man. Thus,
-he only furnished another proof of the often-proven truth, that his
-most distinguishing qualities are the first to fail a man, when
-judgment is superseded by passion. That is a strong word to use in
-such a case as Chudleigh Wilmot's, at least to use so soon; but the
-boundary between the feeling which he entertained knowingly, and the
-passion which was growing out of it unconsciously, was very slight,
-and was destined so soon to be destroyed that the word may pass
-unblamed.
-
-The earlier portion of Lady Muriel Kilsyth's conversation with Wilmot
-was naturally devoted to Madeleine. She thanked him, with all her own
-peculiar grace and fluency, for his attention, his "priceless care,"
-for his resolution, which Kilsyth had communicated to her, to remain
-with them in this great trouble. She asked him to tell her his "real
-opinion;" and he told it. He told her Madeleine was in danger; but
-that he hoped, and thought, and believed, her life would be saved. He
-spoke with earnestness and feeling; and as he dwelt upon the youth,
-the beauty, and the sufferings of the girl, upon her exceeding
-preciousness to her father (and gave Lady Muriel credit for sharing
-her husband's feelings far beyond what she deserved), the soft dark
-eyes fixed themselves upon him with much interest and curiosity. Deep
-feeling on any subject was unfamiliar to Lady Muriel; it was not the
-habit of her society, or included in the scheme of her own
-organisation, and she liked it for its strangeness. Their
-conversation lasted long; for when Wilmot was summoned to see his
-patient, Lady Muriel invited him to come again to her sitting-room;
-and he did so. The question of sending her children away was speedily
-decided in the negative; and then the talk rambled on over a great
-variety of subjects, and Lady Muriel regarded Wilmot with increasing
-interest and surprise, as she discovered more and more of his
-originality and fertility of mind. She was not a remarkably clever
-woman; but she had more brains and more cultivation than were at all
-common among her "set;" and she did occasionally grow very weary of
-the well-bred vapid talk, which was the only form of social
-intercourse assumed in her circle. She had sometimes wondered whether
-something better was not to be found in the limits within which it
-would be proper for her to seek for it; but she had stopped at
-wonderment; she had not followed it up by effort; and now the very
-thing she had wished for had come to her, in the most unexpected form,
-and through the most unlikely channel. A doctor, a man whose name she
-had merely casually heard, an outsider, one whom in the ordinary
-course of events she would have never met, is called in to attend her
-stepdaughter in fever, and all at once a new world opens upon Lady
-Muriel Kilsyth.
-
-She was quick to receive impressions; and she felt at once that this
-day marked an epoch in her life. As this fine-looking, keen,
-intelligent man, in whose deep-set eyes, on whose massive forehead
-power was enthroned, bent those dark steady eyes upon her, seeming to
-read her soul, the frivolity of her life fell away from her, like a
-flimsy garment discarded, and she felt, she recognised the charm of
-superiority of intellect and strength of character. She drew him out
-on the subjects which had the deepest interest for him, as a woman
-can, who has tact and perfect manners, even when her intellectual
-powers are in no way remarkable; and he enjoyed the happy sociable
-hours of the long, uninterrupted afternoon as much, or nearly as much,
-as she did. Lady Muriel was too quick and too true an observer to fail
-in discerning, before they had strayed very far into the pleasant
-paths of their desultory discourse, that there was very little
-sentimentality in Chudleigh Wilmot. A practical man, full of action,
-of ambition, of love of knowledge, and resolve to win the highest
-prizes it could bring him, he yet spoke and looked like a man whose
-feelings had been but little tried, and who would be slow to try them.
-Lady Muriel knew that Chudleigh Wilmot was a married man. The
-circumstance had been mentioned among the people in the house when he
-had first been talked of; and she was the first at Kilsyth to ask of
-herself, for she had no other to whom to address it, that frequent
-question, "What sort of woman is Chudleigh Wilmot's wife?" She could
-not have explained, but she did not question, the instinct which led
-her to say, as she went to her dressing-room, when their long colloquy
-at length came to a conclusion, "I am sure he does not care for her. I
-am sure it was not a love-match. I feel convinced he never was in love
-in his life, not in any real sense." And then, Lady Muriel Kilsyth
-sighed. Life was not yet an old story for either Lady Muriel or
-hudleigh.
-
-That evening Wilmot devoted himself to the patient, whose state was
-highly precarious; and though he sent reassuring messages to Kilsyth
-from time to time, he expressed far more hopefulness than he actually
-felt. He was conscious too of a strange sort of relief--a
-consciousness which should have shown him how he had deceived
-himself--as the conviction that his presence was indeed in the highest
-degree beneficial was confirmed by every passing hour. The girl's
-eyes--now bright and wandering, now dark and weary--turned in search
-of him, in every phase of the fever that was gaining on her, with such
-innocent trust and belief as touched him keenly to his conscious
-heart. In the stillness of the night, when the very nurse slept, the
-physician bent down over the flushed face, and hushed the murmuring
-incoherent voice with the tenderest words, and soothed the sick
-girl--little more than a child she looked in her hopelessness and
-unrest--with all a woman's gentleness. What did he feel for the pretty
-young creature thus thrown on his skill, his kindness, his mercy! What
-revolution was the silent flight of time, during the hours of that
-night, working in Chudleigh Wilmot's life? He was learning the reality
-of that in which he had never believed; he was learning the truth of
-love. Now, when it was too late, when every barrier of honour, of
-honesty, of duty, and of principle stood between him and the object of
-the long-deferred, but terribly real, passion which took possession of
-him.
-
-When the dawn was stealing into the sick girl's room, the change, the
-chill, which come with that ghastly hour to sickness and to health
-alike, in wakefulness, came to Madeleine, and she called in a high
-querulous tone for her father. The nurse, then beside her, tried to
-soothe the girl; but vainly. She refused to lie down; she must, she
-would see her father. Wilmot, who knew that she was quite sensible,
-quite coherent, and who had feared to startle her by letting her see
-him, now came forward, and gently laid her back upon her pillow.
-
-"You shall see your father in the morning," he said. "I am sure you
-would not have him disturbed now, my dear; would you?"
-
-"No," she said, with a painful smile; "I would not--certainly not. I
-only wanted to know something; and you will tell me."
-
-Her large blue eyes were fixed upon him; her small hand was stretched
-out to him with the frankness of a child.
-
-"Of course, if I can, I will tell you."
-
-"Sit down, then," she said, in the thick difficult voice peculiar to
-the disease which had hold of her.
-
-He did not sit down, but knelt upon the floor by the bedside, and
-raised the pillows on his arm. Her innocent face was close to his.
-
-"Speak as low as you like; I can hear you," said Chudleigh Wilmot.
-
-"I will," she whispered. "I thank you. I only wanted to ask my
-father--and I would rather ask you--if--if I am going to die."
-
-Her lips were trembling. His sight grew dim as he answered:
-
-"No, my dear. You are very ill; but you are not going to die. You are
-going to get well--not immediately, but before long. You must be
-patient, you know; and you must do everything you are desired to do."
-
-"I will when I am sensible," she said; "but I am not always sensible,
-you know."
-
-"I know. You are quite sensible now, and the best patient I ever had.
-A great deal depends on yourself. I don't mean about not dying; I mean
-about getting well sooner. Will you try now how long, being quite
-sensible, you can keep quiet?"
-
-"I will," she answered, looking at him with the strange solemn gaze we
-see so often in the eyes of a child in mortal sickness. "I am so glad,
-Dr. Wilmot, you are sure I am not going to die."
-
-Not a shade of doubt of him; perfect trust in him, entire calm and
-serenity in the unruffled feeble voice. Her hand lay loosely in his,
-undisturbed except by an occasional feverish twitch; her head was
-supported by his arm, which held the pillows; his serious eyes scanned
-her face. So he knelt and so she lay as the dawn came; so he knelt and
-so she lay as the first rays of the sun came glancing in through the
-closed window-curtains; but they found the patient sleeping, and the
-steady watch of the physician umrelaxed.
-
-
-So time passed, and Madeleine's illness took its course, and was met
-and fought and beaten at every turn by the skill and judgment, the
-coolness and the experience of the "rising man." So unwearied a
-watcher had never been seen in a sick-room; so cheerful a counsellor
-and consoler had rarely been sent to friends and relatives in anxiety
-and suspense. He was appreciated at his worth at Kilsyth. As for
-Kilsyth himself, he reverenced, he esteemed, he next to worshipped
-Wilmot, holding him as almost superhuman. The nurse "had never seen
-such a doctor as him in all her born days, never; and not severe
-neither; but knowing as the best and wakefullest must have their
-little bit of rest at times." He won golden opinions from all within
-the old walls of Kilsyth, and more than all from its mistress.
-
-On the whole, and despite his close and devoted attendance on his
-patient, Chudleigh Wilmot saw a great deal of Lady Muriel, and an
-infinite number of topics were discussed between them. Each day
-brought more extended, more appreciative comprehension of her guest to
-the by no means dull intellect of Lady Muriel; and each day quickened
-her womanly perception and kindled her already keen and ready
-jealousy. When many days had gone by, and Lady Muriel would no longer
-have dreamed of denying to herself how much she admired Wilmot,--how
-utterly different he was from any other man whom she had ever known;
-how much more interesting, how much more engrossing, a man to be
-looked up to and respected; a man to suffice to all a woman's need of
-reverence and deference,--she would still have been far from
-acknowledging that she loved him; but her acknowledgment or her denial
-would have made no difference in the fact. She did love him, in a
-lofty and reserved kind of way, in which no slur upon her honour,
-according to the world's code, which takes cognisance only of the
-letter of the law and ignores its spirit, was implied; but with all
-her heart she loved him.
-
-So now the situation was this. Chudleigh Wilmot loved one woman within
-the walls of the old mansion of Kilsyth; and another woman, their
-inmate, loved him. Would she--the other, the older, the more
-experienced woman--discover his secret, and overwhelm him with its
-disgrace? Time alone could tell that--time, of which there was not
-much to run; for Wilmot had been a fortnight at Kilsyth before he
-could give its master the joyful intelligence that the fever had
-relaxed its grip of his child, and--barring the always present danger
-in scarlet-fever of relapse, or what is technically called
-"dregs"--Madeleine was safe.
-
-Mabel Wilmot had written to her husband occasionally during the
-fortnight which had witnessed the rise and the crisis of Miss
-Kilsyth's illness. In her letters, which were few and sparing of
-details, she never alluded to the cause of her husband's unprecedented
-absence; Wilmot did not notice the omission. She gave him few details
-concerning herself; Wilmot did not observe their paucity. The glamour
-was over him; the enchanted land held him.
-
-"I am not feeling much better," said Mabel in one of her letters; "but
-I daresay--indeed I have no doubt--the weather is against me;
-Whittaker thinks so too. I enclose his report. There is nothing new
-here, or of importance."
-
-Chudleigh Wilmot accepted his wife's account of the state of things at
-home, and replied to her letters in his usual strain. He had failed to
-notice that she never alluded to Miss Kilsyth; or he would hardly have
-dealt with so much emphasis, or at such length, on the details of a
-case to which the recipient of his letters manifested such complete
-indifference.
-
-Dr. Whittaker continued to report upon the cases to which he had been
-called in; and no more telegrams interrupted the concentration of
-Chudleigh Wilmot's attention upon the illness and convalescence of
-Madeleine Kilsyth.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VI.
-At Kilsyth.
-
-
-The routine of illness and anxiety, the dull monotony of an absorbing
-care, had rapidly settled down upon Kilsyth, immensely alleviated, of
-course, by the confidence imposed by Wilmot's presence. The influence
-of his skill, the insensible support of his calmness and
-self-reliance, were felt all through the household by those members of
-it to whom the life or death of Madeleine was a matter of infinite
-importance, and by those who felt a decent amount of interest, but
-could have commanded their feelings readily enough. As for Wilmot
-himself, he would have found it difficult to account for the
-absorption of feeling and interest with which he watched the case, had
-he been called upon to render any account of it to others. In his own
-mind he shirked the question, and simply devoted himself day and night
-to his patient, leaving the house only once a day for a brief time,
-during which he would stride up and down the terrace in front of the
-house, gulping in all the fresh air he could inhale; and then his
-place in the sick-chamber was taken by an old woman, who had years
-before been Madeleine's nurse, and who was now married and settled on
-the estate. Not since the old days of his house-surgeonship at St.
-Vitus's had Chudleigh Wilmot had such a spell of duty as this: the
-fact of his giving up his time in this manner to a girl with whom he
-had not exchanged twenty words, with whose friends he had no previous
-acquaintance, in whom he could have no possible interest, came upon
-him frequently in his enforced exercise on the terrace, in his long
-weary vigils in the sick-room; and each time that he thought it over,
-he felt or pronounced it to himself to be more and more inexplicable.
-In London he made it an inexorable rule never to leave his bed at
-night, unless the person sending for him were a regular patient, no
-matter what might be their position in life, or the exigency of their
-case; and even among his own connection he kept strictly to
-consultation and prescription; he undertook no practical work, there
-were apothecaries and nurses for that sort of thing. He had a list of
-both, whom he could recommend, but he himself never paid any attention
-to such matters. And here he was acting as a combination of physician,
-apothecary, and nurse, dispensing the necessary medicines from the
-family medicine-chest, sitting up all night, concocting soothing
-drinks, and smoothing hot and uneasy pillows.
-
-Why? Chudleigh Wilmot had asked himself that question a thousand
-times, and had not yet found the answer to it. Beauty in distress--and
-this girl, for all her mass of golden hair and her bright complexion
-and her blue eyes, could only be called pretty--beauty in distress was
-no more strange to Chudleigh Wilmot than to the hero of nautical
-melodrama at a transpontine theatre. He was constantly being called in
-to cases where he saw girls as young and as pretty as Madeleine
-Kilsyth "hove down in the bay of sickness," as the said nautical
-dramatic hero forcibly expresses it. Scarcely a day passed that he was
-not for some few minutes by the couch of some woman of far superior
-attractions to this young girl, and yet of whom he had never thought
-in any but the most thoroughly professional manner, listening to her
-complaints, marking her symptoms, prescribing his remedies, and
-entering up the visit in his note-book, as he whirled away in his
-carriage, as methodically as a City accountant. But he had never felt
-in his life as he felt one bright afternoon when the wild delirium had
-spent its rage and died away, and the doctor sat by the girl's
-bedside, and held her hand, no longer dry and parched with fever, and
-bent over her to catch the low faint accents of her voice.
-
-"You don't know me, Miss Kilsyth," said he gently, as he saw her dazed
-by looking up into his face.
-
-"O yes," said Madeleine, in ever so low a voice,--"O yes; you are
-Doctor--Doctor--I cannot recollect your name; but I know you were sent
-for, and I saw you before--before I was--"
-
-"Before you were so ill; quite right, my dear young lady. I am Dr.
-Wilmot, and you have been very ill; but you are better now,
-and--please God--will soon be well."
-
-"Dr. Wilmot! O yes, I recollect. But, please, don't think because I
-could not recall your name that I did not know you. I have known you
-all through this--this attack. I have had an indefinable sense of your
-presence about me; always kind and thoughtful and attentive, always
-soothing, and--"
-
-"Hush, my dear child, hush! you must not talk and excite yourself just
-yet. You have had, as you probably know, a very sharp attack of
-illness; and you must keep thoroughly quiet, to enable us to perfect
-your recovery."
-
-"Then I'll only ask one question and say one thing. The question
-first--How is papa?"
-
-"Horribly nervous about you, but very well. Constant in his tappings
-at this door, unremitting in his desire to be admitted; to which
-requests I have been obdurate. However, when he hears the turn things
-have taken, he will be reassured."
-
-"That's delightful! Now, then, all I have to say is to thank you, and
-pray God to bless you for your kindness to me. I've known it, though
-you mayn't think so, and--and I'm very weak now; but--"
-
-He had his strong arm round her, and managed to lay her back quietly
-on her pillow, or she would have fainted. As it was, when the bright
-blue eyes withdrew from his, the light died out of them, and the lids
-dropped over them, and Madeleine lay thoroughly exhausted after her
-excitement.
-
-What _was_ the reminiscence thus aroused? What ghost with folded hands
-came stealing out of the dim regions of the past at the sound of this
-girl's voice, at the glance of this girl's eyes? What bygone memories,
-so apart from everything else, rose before him as he listened and as
-he looked? He had not hit the trail yet, but he was close upon it.
-
-The news that the extremity of danger was past was received with great
-delight by the guests at Kilsyth. With most of them Madeleine was a
-personal favourite, and all of them felt that a death in the house
-would have been a serious personal inconvenience. The Northallertons,
-Lady Fairfax, and Lord Towcester, were the only seceders; the others
-either had arranged for later visits elsewhere, or found their present
-quarters far too comfortable to be given up on the mere chance of
-catching an infectious disorder. Some of them had had it, and laughed
-securely; others feared that from the mere fact of their having been
-in the house when the attack took place, they were so "compromised" as
-to prevent their being received elsewhere; and one or two actually had
-the charity to think of their host and hostess, and stayed to keep
-them company, and to be of any service in case they might be required.
-Charley Jefferson belonged to this last class. Emily Fairfax little
-knew that by her selfish flight from Kilsyth she had entirely thrown
-away all her hold over the great honest heart that had so long held
-her image enshrined as its divinity. She never gave a thought to the
-fact that when the big Guardsman used to hum in a deep baritone voice
-the refrain of a little song of hers--
-
-
- "Loyal je serai
- Durant ma vie"--
-
-
-he was expressing one of the guiding sentiments of his life. Colonel
-Jefferson was essentially loyal; to shrink from a friend who was in a
-difficulty, to shuffle out of supporting in purse, person, or any way
-in which it might be requisite, a comrade who had a claim of old
-acquaintance or strong intimacy, was in his eyes worse than the
-majority of crimes for which people stand at the dock of the Old
-Bailey. In this matter he never swerved for an instant. He never gave
-the question of infection a thought; he had had scarlet-fever at Eton,
-and jungle-fever out in India, and he was as case-hardened, he said,
-as a rhinoceros. He took no credit to himself for being fearless of
-infection, or indeed for anything else, this brave simple-minded good
-fellow; but if anyone had been able to see the working of his heart,
-they would have known what credit he deserved for holding to his grand
-old creed of loyalty to his friend, and for ignoring the whispers of
-the siren, even when she was as fascinating and potential as Emily
-Fairfax. When some one asked if he were going, he laughed a great
-sardonic guffaw, and affected to treat the question as a joke. When
-the disease was pronounced to be unmistakably infectious, he at once
-constituted himself as a means of communication between Dr. Wilmot and
-the outer world; and his honour and loyalty enabled him to face the
-fact that probably little Lord Towcester had followed Lady Fairfax to
-her next visiting place, and was there administering consolation to
-her with great equanimity. When Dr. Wilmot came out for his
-half-hour's stride up and down the terrace, he generally found the
-Colonel and Duncan Forbes waiting for him; and these three would pace
-away together, the two _militaires_ chatting gaily on light subjects
-calculated to relieve the tedium of the doctor, and to turn his
-thoughts into pleasanter channels, until it was time for him to go
-back to his duty. And when the worst was over, and Chudleigh Wilmot
-could have longer and more frequent intervals of absence from the
-sick-room, it was Charley Jefferson who proposed that they should
-establish a kind of mess in the smoking-room, where the Doctor, who
-necessarily debarred himself from communion with the others at the
-dinner-table, might yet enjoy the social converse of such as were
-not afraid of infection. So a dinner-table was organised in the
-smoking-room, and Jefferson and Duncan Forbes invited themselves to
-dine with the Doctor. They were the next day joined by Mrs. Severn,
-who had all along wished to devote herself to the invalid, and had
-with the greatest difficulty been restrained from establishing herself
-_en permanence_ as nurse in Madeleine's chamber; and Mr. Pitcairn
-asked for and obtained permission to join the party, and proved to
-have such a talent for imitation and such a stock of quaint Scotch
-stories as made him a very valuable addition to it. So the "Condemned
-Cell," as its denizens called it, prospered immensely; and by no means
-the least enjoyment in the house emanated from it.
-
-Lady Muriel, seeing more and more of Wilmot, as the closeness of his
-attendance on his patient became relaxed by her advance towards
-convalescence, and studying him with increased attention, learned to
-regard him with feelings such as no man of her numerous and varied
-acquaintance had ever before inspired her with. The impression he had
-made upon her in the first interview was not removed or weakened, and
-he presented himself to her mind--which was naturally inquiring, and
-possessed considerably more intelligence than she had occasion to use,
-in a general way, in her easy-going, prosperous, and conventional
-life--in the light of an interesting and remunerative study.
-
-Lady Muriel's faultlessly good manners precluded the indulgence of any
-perceptible absence of mind; and she possessed the enviable faculty
-which some women of the world exhibit in such perfection, of carrying,
-or rather helping, on a conversation to which she was not in reality
-giving attention, and in which she did not feel the smallest particle
-of interest. The gallant _militaires_, the dashing sportsmen, the
-_grands seigneurs_, and the ladies of distinction who were among her
-associates, and the gentlemen, at least of the number of her admirers,
-were accustomed to regard Lady Muriel's powers of conversation as
-something quite out of the common way; and so indeed they were--only
-these simpleminded and ingenuous individuals did not quite understand
-the direction taken by their uncommonness. It never occurred to them
-to calculate how much of her talking Lady Muriel did by means of
-intelligent acquiescent looks, graceful little bows, sprightly
-exclamations, a judicious expression of intense interest in the
-subject under discussion when it chanced to be personal to the other
-party to the discourse, and sundry other skilful and effective
-feminine devices. It never dawned upon them that one half the time she
-did not hear, and during the whole time she did not care, what was
-said; that her graceful manner was merely manner, and her real state
-of mind one of complete indifference to themselves and almost everyone
-besides. Not that Lady Muriel was an unhappy woman. Far from it. She
-was too sensible to be unhappy without just cause; and she certainly
-had not that. She perfectly appreciated her remarkably comfortable lot
-in life; she estimated wealth, station, domestic tranquillity and
-respect, and the unbounded power which she exercised in her household
-domain, quite as highly as they deserved to be estimated; and though
-as free from vulgarity of mind as from vulgarity of manner, she was
-not in the least likely to affect any sentimental humility or mistake
-about her own social advantages. She could as easily have bragged
-about them as forgotten them; but just because she held them for what
-they were worth, and did not exaggerate or depreciate them, Lady
-Muriel was given to absence of mind; and though neither unhappy, nor
-imagining herself so, she was occasionally bored, and acknowledged it.
-Only to herself though. Lady Muriel Kilsyth had no confidantes, no
-intimacies. Hers was the equable kind of prosperous life which did not
-require any; and she was the last woman in the world to acknowledge a
-weakness which her truly admirable manners gave her power most
-successfully to conceal.
-
-The touch of sorrow or anxiety is a sovereign remedy for _ennui_. It
-will succeed when all the resources to which the victims of that fell
-disease are accustomed to have recourse fail ignominiously. If Lady
-Muriel had loved Madeleine Kilsyth, the girl's illness would have put
-boredom to flight, with the first flush or shiver of fever, the first
-dimness of the eyes, the first tone of complaint in the clear young
-voice. But Lady Muriel did not love Madeleine, and did not pretend to
-herself that she loved her. Indeed Lady Muriel never pretended to
-herself. She had seen and understood that to deceive oneself is at
-once much easier and more dangerous than to deceive other people, and
-she avoided doing so on principle--on the worldly-wise principle, that
-is, by which she so admirably regulated her life--and reaped a rich
-harvest of popularity. She did not dislike the girl at all, and she
-would have been very sorry if she had died, partly for the sake of
-Kilsyth, whom she really liked and admired, and who would have broken
-his stout simple heart for his daughter--"much sooner and more surely
-than for me," Lady Muriel thought; "but that is quite natural, and as
-it should be. She is the child of his first love, and I am his second
-wife, and he is quite as fond of me as I want him to be;"--for she was
-a thoroughly sensible woman, and would much rather not have had more
-love than she could reciprocate. But she was perfectly equable and
-composed. Throughout Madeleine's illness it did not cause her sorrow,
-though her manner conveyed precisely the proper degree of stepmotherly
-concern which was called for under the circumstances; and she did not
-suffer from anxiety, being rationally satisfied that all the skill,
-care, and indulgence demanded by the exigencies of the case were
-liberally bestowed on Madeleine. Anxiety was quite uncalled for, and
-therefore did not chase away the brooding spirit of _ennui_ from Lady
-Muriel.
-
-The first thing that struck her particularly with regard to Chudleigh
-Wilmot was that she did not experience any sense of boredom in his
-presence. In fact it dissipated that ordinarily prevailing malady; she
-was really interested in everything he talked about, really charmed by
-the manner in which he talked, and had no need whatever to draw on the
-ever-ready resources of her manner and _savoir faire_.
-
-When Wilmot began to make his appearance freely among the small party
-at Kilsyth, and, after the usual inquiries--in which the serious and
-impressive tone at first observed was gradually discarded--to enter
-into general conversation, and to exercise all the very considerable
-powers which he possessed of making himself agreeable, Lady Muriel
-found out and admitted that this was the pleasantest time of the day.
-The interval between this discovery and her finding herself longing
-for the arrival of that time--dwelling upon all its incidents when she
-was alone, making it a central point in her life, in fact--was very
-brief.
-
-With this new feeling came all the keen perception, the close
-observation, and the nascent suspicion which could not fail to
-accompany it, in such a "thorough" organisation as that of Lady
-Muriel. She began to take notice of everything concerning Wilmot, to
-observe all his ways, and to watch with jealous scrutiny the degree of
-interest he displayed in all his surroundings at Kilsyth.
-
-As Madeleine progressed in her recovery, Lady Muriel looked for some
-decline in the physician's absorption in the interest of her case. He
-would be less punctual, less constant in his attendance upon her; he
-would be more susceptible to influences from the outside world: he
-would be anxious to get away perhaps--at least he would no longer be
-indifferent to professional duties elsewhere; he would begin to weigh
-their respective claims, and would recognise the preponderance of
-those at a distance over that which he had already satisfied more than
-fully, more than conscientiously, with a fulness and expansion of
-sympathy and devotion rare indeed.
-
-Wilmot was extremely popular among the little company at Kilsyth.
-Wonderfully popular, considering how much he was the intellectual
-superior of every man there; but then he was one of those clever men
-who never make their talents obnoxious, and are not bent on forcing a
-perpetual recognition of their superiority from their associates. He
-allowed the people he was with to enjoy all the originality, wit,
-knowledge, and good fellowship that was in him, and did not administer
-the least alloy of mortification to their pride with it. When Lady
-Muriel forcibly acknowledged to herself, and would as frankly have
-acknowledged to any one else, if any one else would have asked her a
-question on the subject, that she held Dr. Wilmot to be the cleverest
-and most agreeable man she had ever met, she did but echo a sentiment
-which had found general expression among the party assembled at
-Kilsyth.
-
-As the days went by, Lady Muriel began to feel certain misgivings
-relative to Wilmot. She did not quite like his look, his manner, when
-he spoke of Madeleine. She did not consider it altogether natural that
-he should never weary of Kilsyth's garrulity on the subject of his
-darling daughter. The physician, taking rest from his long and anxious
-watch, might well be excused if he had tired a little of questions and
-replies about every symptom, every variation, and of endless stories
-of the girl's childhood, and laudation of her beauty, her virtues, and
-her filial love and duty. But Dr. Wilmot never tired of these things;
-he would, on the contrary, bring back the discourse to them, if it
-strayed away, as it would do under Lady Muriel's direction; and
-moreover she noticed, that no circumstances, no social temptation had
-power to detain him a moment from his patient, when the time he had
-set for his return to her side had arrived.
-
-Taking all these things into consideration, and combining them with
-certain indications which she had noticed about Madeleine herself,
-Lady Muriel began to think the return of Dr. Wilmot to London
-advisable, and to perceive in its being deferred very serious risk to
-her scheme for the endowment of her young kinsman with the hand and
-fortune of her stepdaughter. She was not altogether comfortable about
-its success, to begin with. Ramsay Caird had not as yet made
-satisfactory progress in Madeleine's favour. It was not because the
-girl had no power of loving in her that she had listened without the
-smallest shadow of emotion to Mr. Ramsay Caird, but simply because Mr.
-Ramsay Caird had not had the tact, or the talent, or the requisite
-qualifications, or the good fortune to arouse the power of loving him
-in her. Lady Muriel was far too quick an observer, far too learned a
-student of human nature, not to read at a glance all that her
-stepdaughter's looks revealed; and her knowledge of life at once
-informed her of the danger to her scheme. What was to be done? Wilmot
-must be got rid of, must be sent away without loss of time. His
-business was over, and he must go. That must be treated as a matter of
-course. He was called in as a professional man to exercise his
-profession; and the necessity of any further exercise of it having
-terminated, his visit was necessarily at an end. No possible suspicion
-of her real reason for wishing to get rid of him could arise. A
-married man, of excellent reputation, accustomed to being brought into
-the closest contact with women of all ages in the exercise of his
-profession--why, people would shout with laughter at the idea of her
-bringing forward any idea of his flirtation with a girl like
-Madeleine! And Kilsyth himself--nothing, not even the influence which
-she possessed over him, would induce him for an instant to believe any
-such story. It was very ridiculous; it must be her own imagination;
-and yet--No; there was no mistaking it, that girl's look; she could
-see it even then. Even if Ramsay Caird were not in question, it was a
-matter which, for Madeleine's own sake, must be quietly but firmly put
-an end to. Immensely gratified by this last idea--for there is nothing
-which so pleases us as the notion that we can gratify our own
-inclinations and simultaneously do our duty, possibly because the
-opportunities so rarely arise--Lady Muriel sought her husband, and
-found him busily inspecting a new rifle which had just arrived from
-London. After praising his purchase, and talking over a few ordinary
-matters, Lady Muriel said shortly:
-
-"By the way, Alick, how much longer are we to be honoured by the
-company of Dr. Wilmot?"
-
-The inquiry seemed to take Kilsyth aback, more from the tone in which
-it was uttered than its purport, and he said hesitatingly,
-
-"Dr. Wilmot! Why, my dear? He must stay as long as Madeleine--I
-mean--but have you any objection to his being here?"
-
-"Il Not the least in the world; only he seems to me to be in an
-anomalous position. Very likely his social talents are very great, but
-we get no advantage of them; and as for his professional skill--for
-which, I suppose, he was called here--there is no longer any need of
-that. Madeleine is out of all danger, and is on the fair way to
-health."
-
-"You think so?"
-
-"I'm sure of it. But, at all events, any doubt on that point could be
-dissipated by asking the Doctor himself."
-
-"My dearest Muriel, wouldn't that be a little _brusque_, eh?"
-
-"My dear Alick, you don't seem to see that very probably this
-gentleman is wishing himself far away, but does not exactly know how
-to make his adieux. A man in a practice like Dr. Wilmot's, however we
-may remunerate him for his visit here, and however agreeable it may be
-to him" (Lady Muriel could not resist giving way in this little bit),
-"must lose largely while attending on us. He is a gentleman, and
-consequently too delicate to touch on such a point; but it is one, I
-think, which should be taken into consideration."
-
-Lady Muriel had had too long experience of her husband not to know the
-points of his armour. The last thrust was a sure one, and went home.
-
-"I should be very sorry," said Kilsyth, with a little additional
-colour in his bronzed cheeks, "to think that I was the cause of
-preventing Dr. Wilmot's earning more money, or advancing himself in
-his profession. We owe him a deep debt of gratitude for what he has
-done; but perhaps now, as you say, Madeleine is out of danger; and may
-be safely left to the care of Dr. Joyce. I'll speak to Dr. Wilmot, my
-dear Muriel, and make it all right on that point."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VII.
-Brooding.
-
-
-The effect of her husband's letter on Mrs. Wilmot's mind, strengthened
-by the view taken of its contents by Henrietta Prendergast, was of the
-most serious and injurious nature. Hitherto the unhappiness which had
-possessed her had been negative--had been literally unhappiness, the
-absence of joy; but from the hour she read Wilmot's letter, and talked
-over it with her friend, all that was negative in her state of mind
-changed to the positive. Hitherto she had been jealous--jealous as
-only a woman of a thoroughly proud, sensitive, secretive, and sullen
-nature can be--of an abstraction. Her husband's profession was the
-_bête noir_ of her existence, was the barrier between her and the
-happiness for which she vainly longed and pined. She had looked around
-her, and seen other women whose husbands were also working bees in the
-world's great hive; but their work did not absorb them to the
-exclusion of home interests, and the deadening of the sweet and
-blessed sympathies which lent happiness all its glow, and robbed
-sorrow of half its gloom. Her husband had never spoken an unkind word
-to her in his life, had never refused her a request, or denied her a
-pleasure; but he had never spoken a word to her which told her that
-the first place in his life was hers; he had never cared to anticipate
-a request or to share a pleasure. To a woman like Mabel Wilmot, in
-whose character there was a strong though wholly unsuspected element
-of romance, there was an inexhaustible source of suffering in these
-facts, combined with her husband's proverbial devotion to his
-profession. Not a clever woman, thoroughly conventional in all her
-ideas, without a notion of the possibility of altering the routine of
-her life to any pattern which might take her fancy, a dreamer, and
-incurably shy, especially with him, who never discerned that there was
-anything beneath the surface of her placid, equable, rather cold
-manner to be understood, she had ample materials within herself for
-misery; and she had always made the most of them.
-
-An incalculable addition had been made to her store by Wilmot's
-letter, and Henrietta Prendergast's comments. Mabel wrote to Mr.
-Foljambe, under the observation and by the dictation of her friend,
-merely repeating the words of her husband's letter; and during that
-performance, and the ensuing conversation, she had felt sufficiently
-black and bitter to have satisfied any fiend who might have been
-waiting about for the chance of gratifying his malignity by the coming
-to grief of human affairs. But it was when she was left alone, when
-her friend had gone away, and she was in her solitary room--all the
-trivial occupations of the day at an end, and only the long hours of
-the night, often sleepless hours to her, to be faced--that she gave
-way to the intensity of the bitterness of her spirit; that she looked
-into and sounded the darkness and the depth of the gulf of sorrow
-which had opened before her feet.
-
-That her husband sought and found all his happiness in the duties of
-his profession; that he had no consciousness, comprehension, or care
-for the disappointed feelings which occupied her wholly, had been hard
-enough to bear--how hard, the lonely woman who had borne the burden
-knew; but such a state of things, the state from which only a few
-hours divided her, was happy in comparison with that which now opened
-suddenly before her. He had neglected her for the profession he
-preferred; he was going to neglect his own interests, to depart from
-his accustomed law of life, to throw the best friend he had in the
-world over--for a woman: yes, a woman, a sick girl had done what she
-had failed to do: she had never swayed his judgment, or turned him
-aside from a purpose for a moment; and now he was changed by the touch
-of a more potent hand than hers, and there was an end of the old
-settled melancholy peacefulness of her life; active wretchedness had
-come in, and the repose, dear-bought in its deadness of disappointment
-and blight, was all gone.
-
-Mabel Wilmot sat opposite the long glass in her room that night, and
-turned the branch-candles so as to throw a full light upon her face,
-at which she gazed steadily and long, frowning as she did so. It was a
-fair face, and the fresh bloom of youth was still upon it. It was a
-face in which a skilful observer might have read strange matters; but
-there were none curious to read the story in the face of the pretty
-wife of the prosperous rising man. Her eyes were soft and dark, well
-shaded by long lashes, and marked by finely-arched eyebrows; and there
-were none to see that there was frequent gloom and brooding in their
-darkness--a shadow from the gloominess of the soul within. She was
-fair rather than pale, and had abundant dark hair; and as she sat and
-gazed in the glass, she let its dusky masses loose, and caught them in
-her hands. The fair face was not pleasant to look upon; and so she
-seemed to think, for she muttered:
-
-"She is very pretty, I suppose, and a great deal younger than I am;
-never looks sullen, and has no cause. And yet he's not a man I should
-have thought to have been beguiled by any woman. _I_ never beguiled
-him, and I was pretty in my time, ay, and _new_ too! And I have lived
-in his sight all these years, and he has never sacrificed an hour of
-time or thought to me. And now he leaves me without hesitation, though
-I am ill. I have not talked about it, to be sure; but what is his
-skill worth, if he did not see it in my face and hear it in my voice
-without being told! I was not a _case_--I was only his wife; and he
-never thought of looking, never thought of caring whether I was ill or
-well. I appear at breakfast, and I go out every day; that's quite
-enough for him. I wonder if he knew what I suspect, what I should once
-have said _I hope_, is the cause; but that is a long time ago. Would
-it have made any difference? I don't mean now; of course it would not
-now; nothing makes any difference to a man when once his heart is
-turned aside, and quite filled by another. I don't think I ever
-touched his heart; I know only too well I never filled it."
-
-Mabel Wilmot was right. She had never filled her husband's heart. She
-had touched it though, for a time and after a light holiday kind of
-fashion, which had subsided when life began in earnest for them, and
-which he had laid aside and forgotten, as a boy might have abandoned
-and lost sight of the toys with which he had amused himself during a
-school vacation. And the girl had been deceived; had built silently in
-the inveterately undemonstrative recesses of her heart and fancy a
-fairy palace, destined to stand for ever empty. It had been swept and
-garnished; but the prince had never come to dwell there: he with busy
-feet had passed by on the other side, and she had nothing to do but to
-sit and mourn in the empty chambers. She had borne her grief valiantly
-until now; she had only known the passive side of it. But that was all
-over for ever; and the day that dawned after Wilmot's wife had
-received his letter found her a different woman from what she had
-been.
-
-"Are you sure you are not ill, Mabel?" asked Mrs. Prendergast the day
-after their colloquy over the letter. "You are so black under the
-eyes, and your face is so pinched, I fancy you must be ill."
-
-"Not more so than usual," said Mrs. Wilmot shortly.
-
-"Than usual, my dear! What _do_ you mean? Have you been feeling ill
-lately?"
-
-"Yes, Henrietta, very ill."
-
-"And have you been doing nothing for yourself? Have you not had
-advice?"
-
-"You know I have not. You have seen me very nearly every day, and you
-know I have done nothing without your knowledge."
-
-"But Wilmot?" said Mrs. Prendergast.
-
-"O Wilmot! Much he knows and much he cares about me! Don't talk
-nonsense, Henrietta. If I were dying, he would not see it while I
-could keep on my feet, which, I certainly should do as long as I
-could."
-
-"My dear Mabel," remonstrated Henrietta, "do you mean to tell me that,
-feeling very ill, you have actually suffered your husband to leave
-you? Is that right, Mabel? Is it right to yourself or fair to him?"
-
-"Fair to _him!_" returned Mrs. Wilmot with a scornful emphasis. "The
-idea of anything I do being fair or unfair to _him_. I am so important
-to him, am I not? His life is so largely influenced by me? Really,
-Henrietta, I don't understand you."
-
-"O yes, you do," said her friend; and she seated herself beside her,
-and took her feverish hands firmly in hers; "you understand me
-perfectly. What is the illness, Mabel? How do you suffer, and why are
-you concealing it?"
-
-"I suffer always, and in all ways," said Mabel, twitching her hands
-impatiently from her friend's grasp, and averting her face, down which
-tears began slowly to trickle. "I have not been well for a long time;
-and would not one think that _he_ might have seen it? He can be full
-of skill and perception in everyone's case but mine."
-
-Henrietta Prendergast was troubled. She was a woman with an odd kind
-of conscience. So long as a fact did not come too forcibly before her,
-so long as a duty did not imperatively confront her, she would ignore
-it; but she would not do the absolutely, the undeniably wrong, nor
-leave the obviously and pressingly right undone. Here was a dilemma.
-She believed that Wilmot's ignorance of his wife's state of health was
-solely the result of her own studious avoidance of complaint, or of
-letting him see, during the short periods of every day that they were
-together, that she was suffering in any way. Any man whose perceptions
-were not quickened by the inspiration of love would be naturally
-deceived by the calm tranquillity of Mrs. Wilmot's manner, which, if
-occasionally sullen, was apparently influenced in that direction by
-trivial causes,--household annoyances, and so forth. And though
-Henrietta Prendergast had a grudge against Chudleigh Wilmot, which was
-all the stronger and the more lasting that it was utterly
-unreasonable, she could not turn a deaf ear to the promptings of her
-conscience, which told her she must speak the truth on his behalf now.
-
-"I must say, Mabel," she began, "that I think it is your own fault that
-Wilmot has not perceived your state of health. You have carefully
-concealed it from him, and now you are angry at your own success. You
-must not continue to act thus, Mabel; you will destroy his happiness
-and your own."
-
-"_His_ happiness!" repeated Mrs. Wilmot with indescribable bitterness;
-"_his_ happiness _and_ mine! I know nothing about his happiness, or
-what he has found it in hitherto, and may find it in for the future. I
-only know that it has nothing to do with mine; and that I have no
-happiness, and never can have any now."
-
-The sullen conviction in Mabel Wilmot's voice impressed her friend
-painfully, and kept her silent for a while. Then she said:
-
-"You are unjust, Mabel. You have concealed your suffering and illness
-from me as effectually as from him."
-
-"Do you attempt to compare the cases?" said Mrs. Wilmot with a degree
-of passion extremely unusual to her. "I deny that they admit of
-comparison. However, there is an end of the subject; let us talk of
-something else. If I am not better in a day or so, I can do as Mr.
-Foljambe has had to do: I can call in Whittaker, or somebody else. It
-does not matter. Let us turn to some more agreeable topic." And the
-friends talked of something else. They lunched together, and they went
-out driving; they did some very consolatory shopping, and paid a
-number of afternoon calls. But Henrietta Prendergast watched her
-friend closely and unremittingly; and came to the conclusion that she
-was really ill, and also that it was imperatively right her husband
-should be informed of the fact. Henrietta dined at Charles-street;
-and when the two women were alone in the evening, and the
-confidence-producing tea-tray had been removed, she tried to introduce
-the interdicted subject. Ordinarily she was anything but a timid
-woman, anything but likely to be turned from her purpose; but there
-was something new in Mabel's manner, a sad intensity and abstraction,
-which puzzled and distressed her, and she had never in her life felt
-it so hard to say the things she had determined to say.
-
-Argument and persuasion Mrs. Wilmot took very ill; and at length her
-friend told her, in an accent of resolution, that she had made up her
-mind as to her own course of action.
-
-"It is wrong to leave Wilmot in ignorance, Mabel," she said; "wrong to
-him and wrong to you. If only a little of all you have acknowledged to
-me were the matter with you, it would still be wrong to conceal it
-from him. If you _will_ not tell him, I _will_. If you will not
-promise me to write to him tonight, I will write to him to-morrow.
-Mind, Mabel, I mean what I say; and I will keep my word."
-
-Mrs. Wilmot had been leaning, almost lying, back in a deep
-easy-chair, when her friend spoke. She raised herself slowly while she
-was speaking, her dark eyes fixed upon her, and when she had finished,
-caught her by the wrist.
-
-"If you do this thing, Henrietta, I most solemnly declare to you that
-I will never speak to you or see you again. In this, in all that
-concerns my husband and myself, I claim, I insist upon perfect freedom
-of action. No human being--on my side at least--shall come between him
-and me. I am thoroughly in earnest in this, Henrietta. Now choose
-between him and me."
-
-"Choose between him and _you!_ What _can_ you mean, Mabel?"
-
-"I know what I mean, Henrietta, and I am determined in this. When you
-know all, you will see that only I can speak to him; and that I must
-speak, not write."
-
-"Then you _will_ speak?"
-
-"Yes, I will speak. I suppose he will return in a few days; and then I
-will speak."
-
-Then Mabel Wilmot told her friend intelligence which surprised her
-very much, and they stayed together until late; and when they parted
-Mrs. Prendergast looked very thoughtful and serious.
-
-"This will make things either better or worse," she said to herself
-that night. "If he returns soon, and receives the news well, all may
-go on well afterwards; but if he stays away for this girl's sake much
-longer, I don't think even the child will do any good."
-
-Many times within the next few days, in thinking of her friend, Mrs.
-Prendergast said, "There's a desperation about her that I never saw
-before, and that I don't like."
-
-
-The days passed over, and Wilmot's patients were obliged either to
-content themselves with the attendance of the insinuating Whittaker,
-or to exercise their own judgment and call in some other physician of
-their own choice. There was no doubt that the delay was injuring
-Wilmot. He might have had his week's holiday, and passed it with Sir
-Saville Rowe, and welcome; but he was not at Sir Saville's, and the
-week had long been over. As for Mr. Foljambe, his indignation was
-extreme.
-
-"Hang it!" he observed, "if Chudleigh can't come back when he might,
-why does he pretend to keep up a London practice? And to send me
-Whittaker too; a fellow I hate like--like colchicum. I suppose I can
-choose my doctor for myself, can't I?"
-
-Thus the worthy and irascible old gentleman, who was more attached to
-Chudleigh Wilmot than to any other living being, would discourse to
-droppers-in concerning his absent favourite; and as the droppers-in to
-the invalid room of the rich banker were numerous, and of the class to
-whom Wilmot was especially well known, the old gentleman's talk led to
-somewhat wide and varied speculation on the causes and inducements of
-his absence. Mr. Foljambe had ascertained all the particulars which
-Wilmot had given his wife; and Kilsyth of Kilsyth was soon a familiar
-phrase in connection with the rising man. Everybody knew where he was,
-and "all about it;" and when the unctuous and deprecating Whittaker
-talked of the "specially interesting case" which was detaining Wilmot,
-glances of unequivocal intelligence, but of somewhat equivocal
-meaning, were interchanged among his hearers; and guesses were made
-that Miss Kilsyth was a "doosed nice" girl, or her stepmother Lady
-Muriel,--"young enough to be Kilsyth's daughter, you know, and never
-lets him forget it, by Jove,"--was a "doosed fine" woman. "The
-Kilsyths" began to be famous among Wilmot's clientèle and the old
-banker's familiars; the _Peerage_, lying on his bookshelves, and
-hitherto serenely undisturbed, with its covering of dust, was
-frequently in demand; and young Lothbury, of Lombard, Lothbury, & Co.,
-made quite a sensation when he informed a select circle of Mr.
-Foljambe's visitors that he knew Ronald Kilsyth very well--was in his
-club in fact.
-
-"Old Kilsyth's son," he explained; "a very good fellow in his way, and
-quite the gentleman, as he ought to be of course, but a queer-tempered
-one, and a bit of a prig."
-
-
-"Have you written to your husband, Mabel?" said Mrs. Prendergast with
-solemn anxiety, when the third week of Wilmot's absence was drawing to
-a close, and his wife's illness had increased day by day, so that now
-it was a common topic of conversation among their acquaintance.
-
-"No," returned Mabel, "I have not. I have told you I will not write,
-but speak to him; and I am resolved."
-
-"But Whittaker? Surely he does not know your husband is ignorant of
-your state?"
-
-"O, dear no," returned Mrs. Wilmot, with a smile by no means pleasant
-to see. "He is the jolliest and simplest of men in all matters of this
-kind. Mrs. Whittaker wouldn't, in fact couldn't, have a finger ache
-unknown to him; and he never suspects that things are different with
-me."
-
-"Mabel," said her friend, "you do very, very wrong; but I will not
-interfere or argue with you. Only, remember, I believe much will
-depend on your reception of him."
-
-"Don't be alarmed, Henrietta," said Mabel Wilmot. "I promise you,
-unhesitatingly, that Wilmot will not be dissatisfied with the
-reception he shall have from me."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER VIII.
-Kith and Kin.
-
-
-It was a good thing for Kilsyth that he had a soft, sweet,
-affectionate being like Madeleine on whom he could vent the fund of
-affection stored in his warm heart, and who could appreciate and
-return it. In the autumn of life, when the sad strange feeling first
-comes upon us, that we have seen the best of our allotted time, and
-that the remainder of our pilgrimage must be existence rather than
-life; when the ears which tingled at the faintest whisper of love know
-that they will never again hear the soft liquid language once so
-marvellously sweet to them; when the heart which bounded at the merest
-promptings of ambition beats with unmoved placidity even as we
-recognise the victories of our juniors in the race; when we see the
-hopes and cares and wishes which we have so long cherished one by one
-losing their sap and strength and verdure, one by one losing their
-hold on our being, and borne whirling away, lifeless and shrivelled,
-on the sighing wind of time,--we need be grateful indeed if we have
-anything so cheering and promiseful as a daughter's affection. It is
-the old excitement that has given a zest to life for so many years;
-administered in a very mild form indeed, but still there. The boys are
-well enough, fine gentlemanly fellows, making their way in the world,
-well spoken of, well esteemed, doing credit to the parent stock, and
-taking--ay, there's the deuce of it!--taking the place which we have
-vacated, and making us feel that we have vacated it. Their mere
-presence in the world brings to us the consciousness which arose dimly
-years ago, but which is very bright and impossible to blink now, that
-we no longer belong to the present, to the generation by which the
-levers of the world are grasped and moved; that we are tolerated
-gently and genially indeed, with outward respect and with a certain
-amount of real affection; but that we are in effect _rococo_ and
-bygone, and that our old-world notions are to be kindly listened to,
-not warmly adopted. Ulysses is all very well; in fact, was a noted
-chieftain in his day, went through his wanderings with great pluck and
-spirit, had his adventures, dear old boy. You recollect that story
-about the Gräfin von Calypso, and that scandalous story which was
-published in the Ogygian _Satirist_? But it is Telemachus who is the
-cynosure of Ithaca nowadays, whom we watch, and on whom we wait. But
-with a girl it is a very different matter. To her her father--until he
-is supplanted by her husband--still stands on the old heroic pedestal
-where, through her mother's interpretation, she saw him long since in
-the early days of her childhood; in her eyes "age has not withered
-him, nor custom staled his infinite variety;" all his fine qualities,
-which she was taught to love,--and how easily she learned the
-lesson!--have but mellowed and improved with years. Her brothers, much
-as she may love them, are but faint copies of that great original;
-their virtues and good qualities are but reflected lights of his--his
-the be-all and end-all of her existence; and the love between him and
-her is of the purest and most touching kind. No tinge of jealousy at
-being supplanted by her sullies that great love with which he regards
-her, and which is free from every taint of earthiness; towards her
-arises a chastened remembrance of the old love felt towards her
-mother, with the thousand softened influences which the old memories
-invest it with, combined with that other utterly indescribable
-affection of parent to child, which is one of the happiest and holiest
-mysteries of life.
-
-So the love between Kilsyth and his girl was the happiness of his
-existence, the one gentle bond of union between him and the outer
-world. For so large-hearted a man, he had few intimate relations with
-life; looking on at it benevolently, rather than taking part even in
-what it had to offer of gentleness and affection. This was perhaps
-because he was so thoroughly, what is called "old-fashioned." Lady
-Muriel he honoured, respected, and gloried in. On the few occasions
-when he was compelled to show himself in London society, he went
-through his duty as though enjoying it as much as the most foppish
-Osric at the court; supported chiefly by the universal admiration
-which his wife excited, and not a little by the remembrance that
-another month would see him freed from all this confounded nonsense,
-and up to his waist in a salmon stream. There could be no terms of
-praise too warm for "my lady," who was in his eyes equally a miracle
-of talent and loveliness, to whom he always deferred in the largest as
-in the smallest matters of life; but it was Madeleine
-
-
- "who had power
- To soothe the sportsman in his softer hour."
-
-
-It was Madeleine who had his deepest, fondest love--a love without
-alloy; pure, selfless, and eternal.
-
-These feelings understood, it may be imagined Kilsyth had the warmest
-feelings of gratitude and regard towards Dr. Wilmot for having, as
-everyone in the house believed, and as was really the fact, saved the
-girl's life, partly by his skill, principally by his untiring
-watchfulness and devotion to her at the most critical period of her
-illness. In such a man as Kilsyth these feelings could not remain long
-unexpressed; so that within a couple of days of the interview between
-Lady Muriel and Dr. Wilmot, Kilsyth took an opportunity of meeting the
-doctor as he was taking his usual stretch on the terrace, and
-accosting him.
-
-"Good-morning, Dr. Wilmot; still keeping to the terrace as strictly as
-though you were on parole?"
-
-"Good-morning to you. I'm a sanitarian, and get as much fresh air as I
-can with as little labour. This terrace seems to me the only level
-walking ground within eyeshot; and there's no more preposterous
-mistake than overdoing exercise. Too much muscularity and gymnastics
-are amongst the besetting evils of the present day, depend upon it."
-
-"Very likely; but I'm not of the present day, and therefore not likely
-to overdo it myself, or to tempt you into overdoing it. But still I
-want you to extend your constitutional this morning round to the left;
-there's a path that skirts the craig--a made path in the rock itself,
-merely broad enough for two of us to walk, and which has the double
-advantage that it gives us peeps of some of the best scenery
-hereabouts; and it is so little frequented, that it will give us every
-chance of uninterrupted conversation. And I want to talk to you about
-Madeleine."
-
-Whatever might have been Chudleigh Wilmot's previous notions as to the
-pleasure derivable from an extended walk with the old gentleman, the
-last word decided him; and they started off at once.
-
-"I won't pretend to conceal from you, Dr. Wilmot," said Kilsyth, after
-they had proceeded some quarter of a mile, talking on indifferent
-subjects, and stopping now and then to admire some point in the
-scenery,--"I won't pretend to conceal from you, that ever since your
-arrival here I have had misgivings as to the manner in which you were
-first summoned. I--"
-
-"Pray don't think of that, sir."
-
-"I don't--any more than, I am sure, you do. My Madeleine, who is
-dearer to me than life, was, I knew, in danger. I heard of your being
-in what one might almost call the vicinity from Duncan Forbes; and
-without thought or hesitation I at once telegraphed to you to come on
-here."
-
-"Thereby giving me the pleasantest holiday I ever enjoyed in my life,
-and enabling me to start away, as I was on the point of doing, with
-the agreeable reflection that I have been of some comfort to some most
-kind and charming people."
-
-"I am delighted to hear you say those friendly words, Dr. Wilmot; but
-I am not convinced even now. So far as--as the honorarium is
-concerned, I hope you will allow me to make that up to you; so that
-you shall have no reminder in your banker's book that you have not
-been in full London practice; and as to the feeling beyond the
-honorarium, I can only say that you have earned my life-long
-gratitude, and that I should be only too glad for any manner of
-showing it."
-
-Wilmot waited a minute before he said, "My dear sir, if there is
-anything I hate, it is conventionality; and I am horribly afraid of
-being betrayed into a set speech just now. With regard to the latter
-part of your remarks your gratitude for any service I may have been to
-you cannot be surpassed by mine for my introduction to my charming
-patient and your delightful family circle. With regard to what you
-were pleased to say about the honorarium, you must be good enough to
-do as I shall do--forget you ever touched upon the subject. You don't
-know our professional etiquette, my dear sir--that when a man is on a
-holiday he does no work. Nothing on earth would induce me to take a
-fee from you. You must look upon anything I have done as a labour of
-love on my part; and I should lose all the pleasure of my visit if I
-thought that that visit had not been paid as a friend rather than as a
-professional man."
-
-Kilsyth must have changed a great deal from his former self if these
-words had not touched his warm generous heart. Tears stood in his
-bright blue eyes as he wrung Chudleigh Wilmot's hand, and said,
-"You're a fine fellow, Doctor; a great fellow altogether. I'm an old
-man now, and may say this to you without offence. Be it as you will.
-God knows, no man ever left this house carrying with him so deep a
-debt of its owner's gratitude as will hang round you. Now as to
-Madeleine. You're off, you say, and I can't gainsay your departure;
-for I know you've been detained here far too long for the pursuance of
-your own proper practice, which is awaiting you in London; and I feel
-certain you would not go if you felt that by your going you would
-expose her to any danger of a relapse. But I confess I should like to
-hear from your own lips just your own candid opinion about her."
-
-Now or never, Chudleigh Wilmot! No excuse of miscomprehension! You
-have examined yourself, probed the inmost depths of your conscience in
-how many midnight vigils, in how many solitary walks! You know exactly
-the state of your feelings towards this young girl; and it is for you
-to determine whether you will renounce her for ever, or continue to
-tread that pleasant path of companionship--so bright and alluring in
-its present, so dark and hopeless in its future--along which you have
-recently been straying. Professional and humanitarian considerations?
-Are you influenced by them alone, when you reply--
-
-"My dear sir, you ask me rather a difficult question. Were I speaking
-of your daughter's recovery from the disease under which she has been
-labouring, I should say with the utmost candour that she has so far
-recovered as to be comparatively well. But I should not be discharging
-my professional duty--above all, I should not be worthy of that trust
-which you have reposed in my professional skill, and of the friendship
-with which you have been so good as to honour me--if I disguised from
-you that during my constant attendance on Miss Kilsyth, and during the
-examinations which I have from time to time made of her system, I have
-discovered that--that she has another point of weakness totally
-disconnected from that for which I have been treating her."
-
-He was looking straight into the old man's eyes as he said this--eyes
-which dropped at the utterance of the words, then raised themselves
-again, dull, heavy-lidded, with all the normal light and life
-extinguished in them.
-
-"I heard something of this from Muriel, from Lady Muriel, from my
-wife," muttered Kilsyth; "but I should like to know from you the exact
-meaning of your words. Don't be afraid of distressing me, Doctor," he
-added, after a short pause; "I have had in my time to listen to a
-sentence as hard--almost as hard"--his voice faltered here--"as any
-you could pronounce; and I have borne up against it with tolerable
-courage. So speak."
-
-"I have no hard, at least no absolute, sentence to pronounce, my dear
-sir; nothing that does not admit of much mitigation, properly taken
-and properly treated. Miss Kilsyth is not a hoyden, you know; not one
-of those buxom young women who, according to French notions, are to be
-found in every English family--"
-
-"No, no!" interrupted the old gentleman a little querulously.
-
-"On the contrary, Miss Kilsyth's frame is delicate, and her
-constitution not particularly strong. Indeed, in the course of my
-investigation during her recent illness, I discovered that her left
-lung was not quite so healthy as it might be."
-
-"Her lungs! Ah, good heavens! I always feared that would be the weak
-spot."
-
-"Are any of her family so predisposed?"
-
-"One brother died of rapid consumption."
-
-"Ay, indeed! Well, well, there's nothing of that kind to be
-apprehended here,--at least there are no urgent symptoms. But it is
-only due to you and to myself to tell you that the lungs are Miss
-Kilsyth's weak point, and that every care should be exercised to ward
-off the disease which at present, I am happy to say, is only looming
-in the distance."
-
-"And what should be the first step, Dr. Wilmot?"
-
-"Removal to a softer climate. You have a London house, I know; when do
-you generally make a move south?"
-
-"Lady Muriel and the children usually go south in October,--about five
-weeks from hence,--and I go down to an old friend in Yorkshire for a
-month's cover-shooting. But this is an exceptional year, and anything
-you advise shall be done."
-
-"My advice is very simple; it is, that you so far make an alteration
-in your usual programme as to put Miss Kilsyth into a more congenial
-climate at once. This air is beginning now to be moist and raw in the
-mornings and evenings, and at its best is now unfit for anyone with
-delicate lungs."
-
-"Would London do?"
-
-"London would be a great improvement on Kilsyth--though of course it's
-treason to say so."
-
-"Then to London she shall go at once; and I hope you will allow me the
-pleasure of anticipating that my daughter, when there, will have the
-advantage of your constant supervision."
-
-"Anything I can do for Miss Kilsyth shall be done, you may depend on
-it, my dear sir. And now I want to say good-bye to you, and to you
-alone. I have a perfect horror of adieux, and dare not face them with
-women. So you will make my farewell to Lady Muriel, thanking her
-for all the kindness and hospitality; and--and you will tell Miss
-Kilsyth--that I shall hope to see her soon in London; and--so God
-bless you, my dear sir, _au revoir_ on the flags of Pall-Mall."
-
-Half an hour afterwards he was gone. He had made all his arrangements,
-ordered his horses, and slipped away while all the party was engaged,
-and almost before his absence from the luncheon-table was remarked. He
-knew that the road by which he would be driven was not overlooked by
-the dining-room where the _convives_ would be assembled; but he knew
-well enough that it was commanded by one particular window, and to
-that window he looked up with flashing eyes and beating heart. He
-caught a momentary glimpse of a pale face surrounded by a nimbus of
-golden hair; a pale face on which was an expression of sorrowful
-surprise, and which, as he raised his hat, shrunk back out of sight,
-without having given him the smallest sign of recognition. That look
-haunted Chudleigh Wilmot for days and days; and while at first it
-distressed him, on reflection brought him no little comfort, thinking,
-as he did, that had Madeleine had no interest in him, her expression
-of face would have been simply conventional, and she would have nodded
-and bowed as to any ordinary acquaintance. So he fed his mind on that
-look, and on certain kindly little speeches which she had made to him
-from time to time during her illness; and when he wanted a more
-tangible reminiscence of her, he took from his pocketbook a blue
-ribbon with which she had knotted her hair during the earlier days of
-her convalescence, and which, when she fell asleep, he had picked from
-the ground and carefully preserved.
-
-Bad symptoms these, Chudleigh Wilmot; very bad symptoms indeed! Bad
-and easily read; for there shall be no gawky lad of seventeen years of
-age, fresh from the country, to join your class at St. Vitus's, who,
-hearing them described, shall not be able to name the virulent disease
-from which you are suffering.
-
-
-
-When Lady Muriel heard the result of her husband's colloquy with the
-Doctor, she was variously affected. She had anticipated that Chudleigh
-Wilmot would take the first opportunity of making his escape from
-Kilsyth, where his presence was no longer professionally needed, while
-his patients in London were urgent for his return. Nor was she
-surprised when her husband told her that Dr. Wilmot had, when
-interrogated, declared that the air of Kilsyth was far too sharp for
-Madeleine in her then condition, and that it was peremptorily
-necessary that she should be moved south, say to London, at once. Only
-one remark did she make on this point: "Did Madeleine's removal to
-London--I mean did the selection of London spring from you, Alick, or
-Dr. Wilmot?"
-
-"From me, dear--at least I asked whether London would do; and he
-said, at all events London would be infinitely preferable to Kilsyth;
-and so knowing that we should have the advantage of his taking charge
-of Madeleine, I thought it would be best for us to get away to
-Rutland-gate as soon as possible."
-
-To which Lady Muriel replied, "You were quite right; but it will take
-at least a week before all our preparations will be complete for
-leaving this place and starting south."
-
-Lady Muriel Kilsyth did not join any of the expeditions which were
-made up after luncheon that day; the rest of the company went away to
-roaring linns or to heather-covered mountains; walked, rode, drove;
-made the purple hills resound with laughter excited by London stories,
-and flirted with additional vigour, though perhaps without the
-subtlety imparted by the experience of the season. But Lady Muriel
-went away to her own room, and gave herself up to thought. She had
-great belief in the efficacy of "thinking out" anything that might be
-on her mind, and she resorted to the practice on this occasion. Her
-course was by no means clear or straightforward, but a little thorough
-application to the subject would soon show her the way. Let her look
-at it in all its bearings, and slur over no salient point. This man,
-this Dr. Wilmot--well, he was wondrously fascinating, that she must
-allow! His eyes, his earnestness of manner, his gravity, and the way
-in which he slid from grave to gay topics, as his face lit up, and his
-voice--ah, that voice, so mellow, so rich, so clear, and yet so soft,
-and capable of such exquisite modulation! The remembrance of that
-face, only so recently known, has stopped the current of Lady Muriel's
-thoughts: she sits there in the low-backed chair, her chin resting on
-her breast, her hands clasped idly before her, her eyes vaguely
-looking on the fitfully flaming logs upon the hearth. Wondrously
-fascinating; in his mere earnestness so different from the men, young
-and old, amongst whom her life was passed; by whom, if thought were
-possible to them, it was held as something to be ashamed of, while
-frivolity resulting in vice ruled their lives, and frivolity garnished
-with slang governed their conversation. Wondrously fascinating; in the
-modesty with which he exercised the great talent he possessed, and the
-possession of which alone would have turned the head of a weaker man;
-in his brilliant energy and calm strength; in his unwitting
-superiority to all around him, and the manner in which, apparently
-unconsciously and without the smallest display, he took his place in
-the front rank, and, no matter who might be present, drew rapt
-attention and listening ears to himself. So much for him. Now for
-herself. And Lady Muriel rose from the soft snuggery of her cushioned
-chair, and folded her arms across her breast, and began pacing the
-room with hurried steps. This man had established an influence over
-her? Agreed. What was worse, established his influence without
-intending it, without absolutely wishing it? Agreed again. Lady Muriel
-was far too clever a woman to shirk any item or gloss over any replies
-to her cross-examination of herself. And was she, who had hitherto
-steered her way through life, avoiding all the rocks and shoals and
-quicksands on which she had seen so much happiness wrecked, so much
-hope ingulfed--was she now to drift on for the same perilous voyage,
-without rudder or compass, without even a knowledge whether the haven
-would be open to her? Not she. For her husband's, for her own sake,
-for her own and her children's credit, she would hold the course she
-had held, and play the part she had played. A shudder ran through her
-as she pictured to herself the delight with which the thousand-and-one
-tongues of London scandal would whisper and chuckle over the merest
-hint that their prophecy of years since was beginning to be
-fulfilled--how the faintest breath of suspicion with which a name
-could be coupled would fly over the five miles of territory where
-Fashion reigns. She stopped before the glass, put her hand to her
-heart, and saw herself pale and trembling at the mere idea.
-
-And yet to be loved! Only for once in her life to know that she loved
-and was loved again, not by a man whom she could tolerate, but by one
-whom she could look up to and worship. Not reverence--that was not the
-word; she reverenced Kilsyth--but whose intellect she could respect,
-whose self she could worship. O, only for once in her life to
-experience that feeling which she had read so much about and heard so
-much of; to feel that she was loved heart and soul and body; loved
-with wild passion and calm devotion--for such a man as this was
-capable of both feelings simultaneously--loved for herself alone,
-independently of all advantages of state and position; loved by the
-most lovable man in the world; Loved! the word itself was tabooed
-amongst the women with whom she lived, as being too strong and
-expressive. They 'liked' certain men in a calm, easy, _laissez-aller_
-kind of way at the height of their passion; then married them, with
-proper amount of bishop, bridesmaid, and wedding present, all duly
-celebrated in the fashionable journal; and then "gave up to parties
-what was meant for mankind." Ah, the difference between such an
-existence and that passed as this man's wife! cheering him in his
-work, taking part in his worries, lightening his difficulties,
-always ready with a smiling face and bright eyes to welcome him home,
-and--Jealous? Not she! there would be no such feeling with her in such
-a case. Jealous! And as the thought rose in her mind, simultaneously
-appeared the blue eyes and the golden hair of her stepdaughter.
-
-That must be nipped in the bud at once! There was nothing on Dr.
-Wilmot's part--probably there might be nothing on either side; but
-sentimental friendship of that kind generally had atrociously bad
-results; and Madeleine was a very impressionable girl, and now, as
-Kilsyth had determined, was to be constantly thrown with Wilmot, to be
-under his charge during her stay in London, and therefore likely to
-have all her thoughts and actions influenced by him. Such a
-combination of circumstances would be necessary hazardous, and might
-be fatal, if prompt measures were not taken for disposing of Madeleine
-previously. This could only be done by making Ramsay Caird declare
-himself. Why that young man had never prospered in his suit was
-inexplicable to Lady Muriel; he was not so good-looking as poor
-Stewart certainly--not one-tenth part so intense--having an excellent
-constitution, and looking at life through glasses of the most roseate
-hue; but Madeleine was young and inexperienced and docile--at least
-comparatively docile even to Lady Muriel, who, as she knew perfectly
-well, possessed very little of the girl's love; and it was through her
-affection that she must be touched. Who could touch her? Not her
-father: he was too much devoted to her to enter into the matter; at
-least in the proper spirit. Who else then? Ah, Lady Muriel smiled
-as a happy thought passed through her mind. Ronald, Madeleine's
-brother,--he was the person to exercise influence in a right and
-proper way over his sister; and to him she would write at once.
-
-That night the butler took two letters from the post-box in Lady
-Muriel's hand-writing; one of them was addressed to Ramsay Caird, in
-George-street, Edinburgh, and ran thus:
-
-
-"Kilsyth."
-
-
-"My DEAR RAMSAY,--For reasons which I have already sufficiently
-explained to you, you will, I think, be disposed to admit that my
-interest in you and your career is unquestionable, and you will be
-ready to take any step which I may strongly urge upon you. In this
-conviction, I feel sure that you will unhesitatingly adopt the
-suggestion which I now make, and start for London at the very earliest
-opportunity. You will be surprised at this recommendation, and at the
-manner in which I press it; but, believe me, I do not act without much
-reflection, and without thorough conviction of the step I am taking,
-and which I am desirous you should take. I have so often talked the
-matter over with you, that there is no necessity for me to enter upon
-it now, even if there were no danger in my so doing. It will be
-sufficient to say that we all go to London in a week's time, and that
-it is specially desirable that you should be there at the same time;
-otherwise you may find the ground mined beneath your feet. When you
-arrive in town, I wish you to call upon Captain Kilsyth at
-Knightsbridge Barracks. You will find him particularly clear-headed,
-and thoroughly conversant with the ways of the world; and I should
-advise you to be guided by him in everything, but specially in _the_
-matter in question. Let me have a line to say you are on the point of
-starting; and believe me
-
- "Your sincere friend,
-
- "MURIEL KILSYTH."
-
-
-The other letter was addressed to "Captain Kilsyth; First Life-guards,
-Knightsbridge Barracks, London."
-
-"(_Confidential_.)
- Kilsyth.
-
-"My dear Ronald,--You have heard from your father of Madeleine's
-illness and convalescence. She is rapidly recovering her strength, and
-will be her old self _physically_ very shortly.
-
-"You smile as you see that the word 'physically' is underlined; but
-this is not, believe me, one of those 'unmeaning woman's dashes' which
-I have so often heard you unequivocally condemn. I underlined the word
-specially, because I think that Madeleine's recovery will be, so far
-as she is concerned, physical, and physical only.
-
-"Not that I mean in the least that her reason has been affected,
-otherwise than it always is most transiently in the access of fever;
-but that I think that the occasion which you and I have so often
-talked of has come, and come in a most undeniable manner. In a word,
-Madeleine has lost her heart, if I am not much mistaken, and lost it
-in a quarter where she herself, poor child, can hope for no return of
-her affection, and where, even if such return were possible, it would
-only bring misery on her, _and him_, and degradation to us all.
-
-"We are coming to London at once, and therein lies simultaneously the
-danger to Madeleine and my hope of rescuing her from it, principally
-through your aid. You will see that it is impossible to enter upon
-this subject at length in a letter; but I could not let you be in
-ignorance of what I know will possess an acute and painful interest
-for you. Of course I have not hinted a word of this to your father, so
-that you will be equally reticent in any of your communications with
-him. You shall hear the day we expect to arrive in town, and I hope to
-see you in Brookstreet on the next morning.
-
-"You will recollect all I said to you about Ramsay Caird. He will
-probably call on you very shortly after you receive this letter. Bear
-in mind the cue I gave you, when we last parted, about this young man,
-and act up to it: he is a little weak, a little hesitating; but I am
-more convinced than ever of the advisability of pursuing the course I
-then indicated. God bless you!
-
- "Your affectionate
-
- "M.K."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER IX.
-Ronald.
-
-
-When Ronald Kilsyth was little more than four years old his nurses
-said he was "so odd;" a phrase which stuck by him through life. As a
-child his oddity consisted in his curious gravity and preoccupation,
-his insensibility to amusement, his dislike of companionship, his love
-of solitude, his old-fashioned thoughts and manner and habits. He had
-a dogged honesty which prevented him from using the smallest deception
-in any way, which prevented him from ever prevaricating or telling
-those small fibs which are made so much of in the child, but to which
-he looks back as trivial sins indeed when compared with the duplicity
-of his after-life,--which rendered him obnoxious even to the children
-whom he met as playfellows in the square-garden, and who found it
-impossible to get on with young Kilsyth on account of the rigidity of
-his morals, displeasing to them even at their tender years. When a
-delicious _guetapens_, made of string stretched from tree to tree, had
-been, with great consumption of time and trouble, prepared for the
-downfall of the old gardener; and when the youthful conspirators were
-all laid up in ambush behind the Portugal laurels, waiting to see the
-old man, plodding round with rake and leaf-basket in the early dusk of
-the autumnal evening, fall headlong over the snare,--it was provoking
-to see little Ronald Kilsyth, in his gray kilt, step out and go up to
-the old man and show him the pitfall, and assist him in removing it.
-The conspirators were highly incensed at this treachery, as they
-called it, and would have sent Ronald then and there to Coventry,--not
-that that would have distressed him much,--had it not been for his
-magnanimity in refusing, even when under pressure, to give up the
-names of those in the plot. But as in this, so in everything else; and
-the little frequenters of the square soon found Ronald Kilsyth "too
-good" for them, and were by no means anxious to secure his
-companionship in their sports.
-
-At Eton, whither he was sent so soon as he arrived at the proper age,
-he very shortly obtained the same character. Pursuing the strict path
-of duty,--industrious, punctual, and regular, with very fair
-abilities, and scrupulously making the most of them,--he never lost an
-opportunity and never made a friend. All that was good of him his
-masters always said; but they stopped there; they never said anything
-that was kind. In school they could not help respecting him; out of
-school they would as soon have thought of making Ronald Kilsyth their
-companion as of taking _Hind's Algebra_ for pleasant reading. And it
-was the same with his schoolfellows. They talked of his steadiness and
-of his hard-working with pride, as reflecting on themselves and the
-whole school. They speculated as to what he would do in the future,
-and how he would show that the stories that had been told about Eton
-were all lies, don't you know? and how Kilsyth would go up to
-Cambridge, and show them what the best public school--the only school
-for English gentlemen, you know--could do; and _Floreat Etona_, and
-all that kind of thing, old fellow. But Ronald Kilsyth, during the
-whole of his Eton pupilage, never had a chum--never knew what it was
-to share a confidence, add to a pleasure, or lighten a grief. Did he
-feel this? Perhaps more acutely than could have been imagined; but
-being, as he was, proud, shy, sensitive, and above all queer, he took
-care that no one knew what his feelings were, or whether he had any at
-all on the subject.
-
-Queer! that was the word by which they called him at Eton, and
-which, after all, expressed his disposition better than any other.
-Strong-minded, clear-headed, generous, and brave, with an outer coating
-of pride, shyness, reserve, and a mixture of all which passed current
-for _hauteur_. With a strong contempt for nearly everything in which
-his contemporaries found pleasure,--save in the excess of exercise, as
-that he thoroughly understood and appreciated,--and with a wearying
-desire to find pleasure for himself; with an impulse to exertion and
-work, accountable to himself only on the score of duty, but having no
-definite end or aim; with a restless longing to make his escape from
-the thraldom of conventionality, and rush off and do something
-somewhere far away from the haunts of men. With all the morbidness of
-the hero of _Locksley Hall_, without the excuse of having been jilted,
-and without any of the experience of that sweetly modulated cynic,
-Ronald Kilsyth, obeying his father's wish, and thereby again following
-the paths of duty, was gazetted to the Life-Guards--the exact position
-for a young gentleman in his condition.
-
-The donning of a scarlet tunic instead of a round jacket, and the
-substitution of a helmet for a pot-hat, made very little difference in
-Ronald. Several of his brother officers had known him personally at
-Eton, so that the character he had obtained there preceded him,
-inspiring a wholesome awe of him before he appeared on the scene; and
-he had not been two days in barracks before he was voted a prig and a
-bore. There was no sympathy between the dry, pedantic, rough young
-Scotsman and those jolly genial youths. His hard, dry, handsome
-clean-cut face, with its cold gray eyes, thin aquiline nose, and tight
-lips, cast a gloom over the cheery mess-table around which they sat;
-their jovial beaming smiles, and curling moustaches, and glittering
-shirt-studs reflected in the silver _épergne_, with its outposts of
-mounted sentries and its pleasant mingling of feasting and frays at the
-Temple of Mars and the London Tavern. His grim presence robbed many a
-pleasant story of its point, which indeed, in deference to him, had to
-be softened down or given with bated breath. The young fellows--no
-younger than him in years, but with, O, such an enormous gulf between
-them as regards the real elasticity and charm of youth--were afraid of
-him, and from fear sprung dislike. They had not much fear of their
-elders, these youths of ingenuous countenance and ingenuous modesty.
-They had a wholesome awe, tempering their hearty love, of Colonel
-Jefferson; but less on account of the strictness of his discipline and
-of a certain _noli-me-tangere_ expression towards those whom he did
-not specially favour, than on account of his age; and as for the
-jolly old Major, who had been in the regiment for ever so many
-years,--for him they had neither fear nor respect; and when he was in
-command--which befell him during the cheerful interval between July and
-December--the lads did as they liked.
-
-But they could not get on with Ronald Kilsyth; and though they
-tolerated him quietly for the sake of his people, they never could be
-induced to regard him with anything like the fraternal good fellowship
-which they entertained towards each other. As it had been at Eton, so
-it was at Knightsbridge, at Windsor, in Albany-street, in all those
-charming quarters where the Household Cavalry spend their time for
-their own and their country's advantage. Ronald Kilsyth was respected
-by all, loved by none. Charley Jefferson himself, fascinated as he was
-by Ronald's devotion to the mysteries of drill and by all the young
-man's unswerving attention to his regimental duties--qualities which
-weighed immensely with the martinet Colonel--had been heard to
-confess, with a prolonged twirl at his grizzled moustache, that
-"Kilsyth was a d--d hard nut to crack,"--an enigmatic remark which,
-from so plain a speaker as the Colonel, meant volumes. The Major, whom
-Ronald, under strong provocation, had once designated a "tipsy old
-atheist," had, in the absence of his enemy and under the influence of
-two-thirds of a bottle of brandy, retorted in terms which were held to
-justify both Ronald's epithets; and the men had a very low opinion of
-him, who at the time of writing was senior lieutenant of the regiment.
-He had no sympathy with the men, no care for them; he would have liked
-to have made them more domestic, less inclined for the public-house
-and the music-hall; he would have subscribed to reading-rooms, to
-institutes, to anything for their mental improvement; but he never
-thought of giving them a kind word or an encouraging speech; and they
-much preferred Cornet Bosky--who cursed them roundly for their
-talking, for their silence, for their going too fast, for their going
-too slow, for their anything in fact, on those horrible mornings when
-he happened to be in charge of them exercising their horses, but who
-off duty always had a kindly word, an open purse at their service--to
-the senior Lieutenant, who never used a bad expression, and who, as
-they confessed, was, after the Colonel, the best soldier in the
-regiment.
-
-It was like going into a different world to leave the smoky
-atmosphere, the wild disorder and reckless confusion of most of the
-other rooms in barracks, and go into Ronald Kilsyth's trim orderly
-apartment. Instead of tables ringed with stains of long-since-emptied
-tumblers, and littered with yellow-paper-covered French novels, torn
-playbills, old gloves, letters, unpaid bills, opera-glasses, pipes,
-shreds of tobacco, heaps of cigar-ash, rolls of comic songs, trophies
-from knock'em-downs at race-courses, empty soda-water bottles,
-scattered packs of cards, and suchlike examples of free living--to
-find perfect order and decorum; the walls covered with movable
-bookcases filled with valuable books, Raphael Morghen prints, proofs
-before letters after the best modern artists, and charming bits of
-water-colour sketches, instead of coloured daubs of French _écuyères_
-and _lionnes_ of the Quartier Breda, photographs of Roman temple or
-Pompeian excavation, and Venetian glass and delicate eggshell china,
-and Chinese carving, and Indian beadwork. They used to look round at
-these things in wonder, the other young fellows of the regiment, when
-they penetrated into Ronald's room, and point to the pictures and ask
-who "that queer old party was," and depreciate the furniture by
-inquiring "what was that old rubbish?" They could not understand his
-friends either; men asked to the mess by them or seen in their rooms
-were generally well known in the Household Brigade, other officers in
-the Blues or the Foot Regiments, or idlers and dawdlers with nothing
-to do, men in the Treasury or Foreign Office, people whom they were
-safe to meet in society at least every other night in the season. But
-Ronald Kilsyth's guests were of a different stamp. Sometimes he
-brought Wrencher the novelist or Scumble the Royal Academician to
-dinner; and the fellows who knew the works of both made much of the
-guests and did them due honour; but when occasionally they had to
-receive Jack Flokes the journalist, who looked on washing as an
-original sin, or Dick Tinto the painter, who regarded a dirty brown
-velvet shooting-coat as the proper costume for the evening, or
-Klavierspieler the pianist, a fat dirty German in spectacles, who made
-a perfect Indian juggler of himself in trying to swallow his knife
-during dinner--they were scarcely so much gratified. Innate
-gentlemanliness and entire good-breeding made them receive the
-gentlemen with every outward sign of hospitality; but afterwards,
-round the solemn council fire in the little mess-room and midst deep
-clouds of tobacco-smoke, they delivered a verdict anything but
-complimentary either to guest or host.
-
-What possessed him? That was what they could not understand. Nicest
-people in the world, sir! father, dear delightful jolly old fellow,
-give you his heart's blood if you wanted it--but you don't want
-it, so gives the best glass ofessed claret in London; and at home--at
-Kilsyth--'gad, you can't conceive it; no country-house to be named in
-the same breath with it. Perfect shooting and all that kind of thing,
-and thoroughly your own master, by Jove! do just as you like, I mean
-to say, and have everything you want, don't you know! Lady Muriel
-quite charming; holding her own, don't you know, with all the younger
-women in point of attractiveness and that sort of thing, and yet
-respected and looked up to, and the best mistress of a house possible.
-And Miss Kilsyth, Madeleine, deuced nice little girl; very pretty, and
-no nonsense about her; meant for some big fish! Well, yes, suppose so;
-but meantime extremely pleasant and chatty, and sings nice little
-songs and _valses_ splendidly, and all that kind of thing. That was
-what they said of the Kilsyth _ménage_ in the Household Brigade, in
-which pleasant joyous assemblage of gallant freethinkers it would have
-been difficult to point out one who would not have been delighted at
-an autumn visit to Kilsyth. Ah! what we believe and that we know! The
-humorous articles of the comic writers, the humorous sketches of the
-comic artists, lead us to think that the gentlemen officers of the
-regiments specially accredited for London service are, in the main,
-good-looking, handsome dolts, who pull their moustaches, eliminate the
-"r's" from their speech, and are but the nearest removes from the
-inmates of Hanwell Asylum. But a very small experience will serve to
-remove this impression, and will lead one to know that the reading and
-appreciation of character is nowhere more aptly read and more shrewdly
-hit upon than in the barrack-rooms of Knightsbridge or the Regent's
-Park.
-
-People who knew, or thought they knew, Ronald Kilsyth, declared
-that he was solitary and oysterlike, self-contained, and caring for no
-one but himself. They were wrong. Ronald had strong home affections.
-He loved and reverenced his father more than any one in the world. He
-saw plainly enough the few shortcomings--the want of modern education,
-the excessive love of sport, the natural indolence of his disposition,
-and the intense desire to shirk all the responsibilities of his
-position, and to shift the discharge of them on to some one else. But
-equally he saw his father's warm-heartedness, honour, and chivalry;
-his unselfishness, his disposition to look upon the bright side of all
-that happened, his cheery _bonhomie_, and his unfailing good temper.
-Lady Muriel he regarded with feelings of the highest respect--respect
-which he had often tried to turn into affection, but had tried in
-vain. With a woman's quickness, Lady Muriel had seen at a glance, on
-her first entering the Kilsyth family, thamotivst her hardest task would be
-to win over her stepson, and she had laid herself out for that victory
-with really far more care and pains than she had taken to captivate
-his father. With great natural shrewdness, quickened by worldly
-experience, Lady Muriel very shortly made herself mistress of Ronald
-Kilsyth's character, and laid her plans accordingly. Never was shaft
-more truly shot, never was mine more ingeniously laid. Ronald Kilsyth,
-boy as he was at the time of his father's second marriage, had
-scarcely had three interviews with his stepmother before she found a
-corroboration of the fact which had so often whispered itself in his
-own bosom, that he, and he alone, was the guiding spirit of the
-family; that he had knowledge and experience beyond his years; and
-that if she, Lady Muriel, only got him, Ronald, to cooperate with
-her, everything would be smooth, and between them the felicity and
-well-being of all would be assured. It was a deft compliment, and it
-succeeded. From that time forth Ronald Kilsyth was Lady Muriel's most
-pliant instrument and doughtiest champion. In the circles in which
-during the earlier phases of his succeeding life he found himself,
-there were plenty to carp at his stepmother's conduct, to impugn her
-motives,--worst of all, to drop side hints of her integrity; but to
-all of these Ronald Kilsyth gave instant and immediate battle, never
-allowing the smallest insinuation which reflected upon her to pass
-unrebuked. He thought he knew his stepmother thoroughly: whether he
-did or not time must show; but at all events he thought highly enough
-of her to permit himself to be guided by her in some of the most
-important steps in his career.
-
-And what were his feelings with regard to Madeleine? If you wanted to
-find the key to Ronald Kilsyth's character, it was there that you
-should have looked for it. Ronald loved Madeleine with all the love
-which such a heart as his was capable of feeling; but he watched over
-her with a strictness such as no duenna ever yet dreamed of Years ago,
-when they were very little children, there occurred an episode which
-Miss O'Grady--who was then Kilsyth's governess, and now happily
-married to Herr Ohm, a wine-merchant at Heidelberg--to this day
-narrates with the greatest delight. It was in Hamilton Gardens, where
-the Kilsyth children and a number of others were playing at _Les
-Graces_--a pleasing diversion then popular with youth--and little Lord
-Claud Barrington, in picking up and restoring her hoop to Madeleine,
-had taken advantage of the opportunity to kiss her hand. Ronald
-noticed the gallantry, and at once resented it, asking the youthful
-libertine how he dared to take such a liberty. "Well, but she liketh
-it!" said Lord Claud, ingenuously pointing to Madeleine, who was
-sucking and biting the end of her hoop-stick, by no means ill-pleased.
-"Very likely," said Ronald; "but these girls know nothing of such
-matters. _I_ am my sister's guardian, and call upon you to apologise."
-Lord Claud, humiliated, said he was "wewy thorry;" and the three,--he,
-Ronald, and Madeleine,--had some bath-pipe and some cough-lozenges as
-a banquet in honour of the reconciliation.
-
-This odd watchfulness, never slumbering, always vigilant, perpetually
-unjust, and generally _exigeant_, characterised Ronald's relations
-with his sister up to the time of our story. When she first came out,
-his mental torture was extraordinary; he, so long banished from
-ball-rooms, accepted every invitation, and though he never danced,
-would invariably remain in the dancing-room, ensconced behind a
-pillar, lounging in a doorway, always in some position whence he could
-command his sister's movements, and throughout the evening never
-taking his eyes from her. His friends, or rather his acquaintances,
-who at first watched his rapt attention without having the smallest
-idea of its object, used to chaff him upon his devotion, and
-interrogate him as to whether it was the tall person with the teeth,
-the stout virgin with the shells in her hair, or the interesting party
-with the shoulders, who had won his young affection. Ronald stood this
-chaff well, confident in the fact that hitherto his sister had
-performed her part in that grand and ludicrous mystery termed
-"Society," and had escaped heart-whole. He began to realise the truth
-of the axiom about the constant dropping of water. So long as
-Madeleine had had sense to comprehend, he had instilled into her the
-absolute necessity of consulting him before she even permitted herself
-to have the smallest liking for any man. During the first two months
-of her first season she had confessed to him twice: once in the case
-of a middle-aged, well-preserved peer; and again when a thin,
-black-bearded _attaché_ of the Brazilian embassy was in question.
-Ronald's immediate and unmistakable veto had been sufficient in both
-cases; and he was flattering himself that the rest of the season had
-passed without any further call on his self-assumed judicial
-functions.
-
-Imagine, then, his state of mind at the receipt of Lady Muriel's
-letter! The assault had been made, the mine had been sprung, the enemy
-was in the citadel, and, worst of all, the enemy was masked and
-disguised, and the guardian of the fortress did not know who was his
-assailant, or what measures he should take to repel him!
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER X.
-Cross-Examination.
-
-
-The hall-porter at Barnes's Club in St. James's-street, whose views of
-life during the last two months had been remarkably gloomy and
-desponding, began to revive and to feel himself again as the end of
-October drew on apace. He had had a dull time of it, that hall-porter,
-during August and September, sitting in his glazed box, cutting the
-newspapers which no one came to read, and staring at the hat-pegs
-which no one used. He had his manuscript book before him, but he did
-not inscribe ten names in it during the day; for nearly everybody was
-out of town; and the few members who per force remained,--gentlemen in
-the Whitehall offices, or officers in the Household Brigade,--found
-scaffolding and ladders in the hall of Barnes's, and the morning-room
-in the hands of the whitewashers, and the coffee-room closed, and the
-smokers relegated to the card-room, and such a general state of
-discomfort, that they shunned Barnes's, and went off to the other
-clubs to which they belonged. But with the end of October came a
-change. The men who had been shooting in the North, the men who had
-been travelling on the Continent, the men who had been yachting, and
-the men who had been lounging on the sea-coast, all came through town
-on their way to their other engagements; those who had no other
-engagements, and who had spent all their available money, settled down
-into their old way of life; all paid at least a flying visit to the
-club to see who was in town, and to learn any news that might be
-afloat.
-
-It is a sharp bright afternoon, and the morning-room at Barnes's is
-so full that you might actually fancy it the season. Sir Coke Only's
-gray cab horse is, as usual, champing his bit just outside the
-door, and Lord Sumph's brougham is there, and Tommy Toshington's
-chestnut cob with the white face is being led up and down by the
-red-jacketed lad, who has probably been out of town too, as he has not
-been seen since Parliament broke up, and yet is there and to the fore
-directly he is wanted. Tommy Toshington himself, an apple-faced little
-man, who might be any age between sixteen and sixty, but who is
-considerably nearer the latter than the former, gathers his letters
-from the porter as he passes, looks through them quickly, shaking his
-head the while at two or three written on very blue paper and
-addressed in very formal writing, and proceeds to the morning-room.
-Everybody there, everybody knowing Tommy, universal chorus of welcome
-from all save three old gentlemen reading evening papers, two of whom
-don't know Tommy, and all of whom hate him.
-
-"And where have you come from, Tommy?" says Lord Sumph, who is a
-charming nobleman, labouring under the slight eccentricity of
-occasionally imagining that he is a steam-engine, when he whistles and
-shrieks and puffs, and has to be secluded from observation until the
-fit is over.
-
-"Last from East Standling, my lord," says Tommy; "and very pleasant it
-was."
-
-"Must have been doosid pleasant, by all I hear," says Sir Thomas
-Buffem, K.C.B., and late of the Madras army. "Dook had the gout,
-hadn't he? and we all know how pleasant he is then!"
-
-"That feller was there of course--what's his name?--Bawlindor the
-barrister," says Sir Coke Only. "Can't bear that feller, dev'lish
-low-bred feller, was a dancin'-master or something of that sort--can't
-bear low-bred fellers;" and Sir Coke, whose paternal grandfather had
-been a pedlar, and who himself combined the intellect of an Esquimaux
-with the manners of a Whitechapel butcher on a Saturday night, cleared
-his throat, and thumped his stick, and looked ferocious.
-
-"Yes, Mr. Bawlindor was there," says Tommy Toshington, looking round
-with a queer twinkle in his little gray eyes; "and he was very
-pleasant, very pleasant indeed. I hardly know how the duchess would
-have got on without him. He said some doosid smart things, did Mr.
-Bawlindor."
-
-"I hate a feller who says smart things," said Sir Coke Only; "making a
-buffoon of himself."
-
-"Ha, ha!" said Duncan Forbes, joining the group--"the carrier is
-jealous of the tumbler; it's a mere question of pigeons."
-
-"What do you mean, Sir Duncan? I don't understand you," said Sir Coke
-angrily.
-
-"Don't suppose you do--never gave you credit for anything of the
-sort.--How are you, all you fellows? What were the smart things that
-Bawlindor said, Tommy?"
-
-"Well, I don't know; perhaps you wouldn't think 'em smart, Duncan,
-because you're a devilish clever chap yourself, and--"
-
-"Yes, yes, we know all about that; but tell us some smart things that
-Bawlindor said--tell us one."
-
-"Well, you know Tottenham? you know he gives awful heavy dinners? He
-was bragging about them one day at luncheon at East Standling, and
-Bawlindor said, 'There's one thing, my lord, I always envy when I'm
-dining with you.' 'What's that?' says Tottenham. "I envy your gas,'
-says Bawlindor, 'and it _escapes_.'"
-
-"Ye-es! that was not bad for Bawlindor. I hate the brute though; I
-daresay he stole it from somebody else. Well, how are you all, and
-what's the news?"
-
-"You ought to be able to tell us that," said Lord Sumph. "We're only
-just back in town, and you've been here all the time, haven't you, in
-the Tower or somewhere?"
-
-"Not I; I'm only just back too."
-
-"And where have you come from?"
-
-"Last from Kilsyth."
-
-"Devil you have!" growled Sir Thomas Buffem, edging away. "They've had
-jungle-fever--not jungle, scarlet-fever there, haven't they?"
-
-"O, ah, Duncan," said Clement Walkinshaw of the Foreign Office, "tell
-us all about that! It was awful, wasn't it? Towcester cut and run,
-didn't he? Mrs. Severn said he turned pea-green, and sent such a
-stunning caricature of him to her sister, who was staying at
-Claverton! We stuck it up in the smoking-room, and had no end fun
-about it."
-
-"I'm glad you were so much amused. It wasn't no end fun for Miss
-Kilsyth, however, as she was nearly losing her life."
-
-"Was she, by Jove!" said Walkinshaw, who was a "beauty boy," examining
-himself in the glass, and smoothing his little moustaches,--"was she,
-by Jove! What! our dear little Maddy?"
-
-"Our dear little Maddy," said Duncan Forbes calmly, "if you are on
-sufficient terms of intimacy with the young lady to speak of her in
-that manner in a public room. _I_ call her Miss Kilsyth; but then we
-were only brought up together as children, whereas you had the
-advantage of having been introduced to her last season, I think,
-Walkinshaw."
-
-"That was a hot 'un for that d--d little despatch-box!" said Sir
-Thomas Buffem, as Walkinshaw walked off discomfited. "Serve him quite
-right--conceited little brute!"
-
-"Well, but what was it, Duncan?" asked Lord Sumph. "It wasn't only the
-gal, heaps of people were down with it, eh?--regular hospital, and
-that kind of thing? I saw the Northallertons on their way south, and
-the duchess said it was awfully bad up there."
-
-"The duchess is a--very nice person," said Forbes, checking himself,
-"and, like Sir Thomas here, an old soldier."
-
-"But it was a great go, though, Duncan,--infection and all that, eh?"
-asked Captain Hetherington, who had joined the talkers. "There's no
-such thing as getting Poole's people to make you a coat; the whole
-resources of the establishment are concentrated on building a new
-rig-out for Towcester, who has sacrificed his entire get-up, and had
-his hair cut close, and taken no end of Turkish baths, for fear of
-being refused admittance at places where he was going to stay."
-
-"All I can say is, then--is, that it's a capital thing for Towcester's
-man, or whoever gets his wardrobe," said Forbes; "Charley Jefferson
-might have made a good thing by buying his tunics, only there's a
-slight difference in their size--_he_ wouldn't have feared the
-infection."
-
-"No, not in that way perhaps," said Hetherington. "Charley's like the
-Yankee in Dickens's book, 'fever-proof and likewise ague;' but he
-_can_ be got at, we all know. How about the widow? She bolted too,
-didn't she?"
-
-"She did--more shame for her. No! the fact was, that at Kilsyth----"
-
-"_Cave canem!_" said Tommy Toshington, holding up a monitory
-finger--"_Cave canem_, as we used to say at school. Here's Ronald
-Kilsyth just come into the room and making towards us!"
-
-You can get a good view of Ronald Kilsyth now as he advances up the
-room. Rather under than over the middle height, with very broad
-shoulders betokening great muscular strength, and square limbs. His
-head is large, and his thick brown hair is brushed off his broad
-forehead, and hangs almost to his coat-collar. He has a well-moulded
-but rather a stern face, with bushy eyebrows, piercing gray eyes, and
-close thin lips. He is dressed plainly but in good taste, and his
-whole appearance is perfectly gentlemanlike. It would have been as
-hard to have mistaken Ronald for a snob as to have passed him by
-without notice; and there was something about him that infallibly
-attracted attention, and made those who saw him for the first time
-wonder who he was. It would have been quite impossible to divine his
-profession from his appearance; neither in look or bearing was there
-the smallest trace of the plunger. He might have been taken for a
-deep-thinking Chancery barrister, had it not been for his moustache;
-or, more likely still, a shrewd long-headed engineer, a man of facts
-and figures and calculation; but never a dragoon. He had been the
-innocent cause of extreme disappointment to many young ladies in
-various parts of the country where he had stayed--quiet
-unsophisticated girls, whose visits to London had been very rare, and
-who knew nothing of its society, and who hearing that a Life-Guards'
-officer was coming to dinner, expected to see a gigantic creature, all
-cuirass and jack-boots, an enlarged and ornamental edition of the
-sentries in front of the Horse-Guards. Ronald Kilsyth in his plain
-evening dress was a great blow to them; in byegone days his moustache
-would have been some consolation; but now the young farmers in the
-neighbourhood, the sporting surgeon, and all the volunteers wore
-moustaches; and though in subsequent conversation they found Ronald
-very pleasant, he neither drawled, nor lisped, nor made love to them;
-all of which proceedings they had believed to be necessary attributes
-of his branch of the military profession.
-
-And many persons who were not young ladies in the country were
-disappointed in Ronald Kilsyth, more especially old friends of his
-father, who expected to find his son resembling him. Ronald inherited
-his father's love of honour, truth, and candour, his keen sense of
-right and wrong, his manliness and his courage; but there the likeness
-between the men ceased. Kilsyth's warmth of heart, warmth of temper,
-and largeness of soul were not reflected by Ronald, who never lost his
-self-control, who never gave anybody credit for more than they
-deserved, and who--save perhaps for his sister Madeleine, and his love
-for her was of a very stern and Spartan character--had never
-entertained any particularly warm feelings for any human being.
-
-Ronald Kilsyth is not popular at Barnes's, being decidedly an
-unclubbable man. The members, if ever they speak of him at all, want
-to know what he joined for. He belonged to the Rag, didn't he, and
-some other club, where he could sit mumchance over his mutton, or
-stare at the lads from Aldershott drinking five-guinea Heidzeck
-champagne. What did he want among this sociable set? He always looked
-straight down his nose when Guffoon came up with a sad story, and he
-never cared about any scandal that was foreign. But he was not
-disliked, at least openly. It was considered that he was a doosid
-clever fellow, with a doosid sharp tongue of his own; and at Barnes's,
-as at other clubs, they are generally polite to fellows with doosid
-sharp tongues. And his father was a very good fellow, and gave very
-good dinners during the season, and Kilsyth was a very pleasant house
-to stop at in the autumn; so that, for these various reasons, Ronald
-Kilsyth, albeit in himself unpopular at Barnes's, was never suffered
-to hear of his unpopularity.
-
-Not that if he had, it would have troubled him one jot. No man in the
-world was more careless of what people thought of him, so long as he
-had the approval of his own conscience; and by dint of a long
-course of self-schooling and the presence of a certain amount of
-self-satisfaction, he could generally count upon that. He could not
-tell himself why he had joined Barnes's Club, unless it was that
-Duncan Forbes was a member, and had asked him to join; and he liked
-Duncan Forbes in his way, and wanted some place where he could be
-pretty certain of finding him when in town. There were few points of
-resemblance between Ronald Kilsyth and Duncan Forbes; but perhaps
-their very dissimilarity was the bond of the union, such as it was,
-that existed between them. Ronald knew Duncan to be weak, but believed
-him, and rightly, to be thorough. Duncan Forbes would assume a languid
-haw-hawism, an almost idiotic rapidity, a freezing _hauteur_ to any
-one he did not know and did not care for, for the merest caprice;
-but he would stand or fall by a friend, and not Charley Jefferson
-himself would be firmer and truer under trial. Ronald knew this; and
-knowing it, was not disposed to be hard on his friend's less stable
-qualities--was rather amused indeed "by Duncan's nonsense," as he
-phrased it, and showed more inclination for his society than that of
-any other of his acquaintance.
-
-The group of talkers in the window opened as Ronald approached, and he
-shook hands with its various members; Tommy Toshington, who always had
-something pleasant to say to anybody out of whom there was any
-possibility of his ever getting anything, complimenting him on his
-appearance.
-
-"Look as fresh as paint, Ronald, my boy--fresh as paint, by Jove!
-Where have you been to pick up such a colour and to get yourself into
-such focus, eh?"
-
-"The marine breezes of Knightsbridge have contributed to my
-complexion, Toshington, and the vigorous exercise of walking four
-miles a day on the London flags has brought me into my present
-splendid condition."
-
-"What! not been away from town at all?" asked Sir Coke Only, who would
-almost as soon have acknowledged his poor relations as confessed to
-having been in London in September.
-
-"Not at all. In the first place, I was on duty, and could not get
-away; not that I think I should have moved under any circumstances.
-London is always good enough for me."
-
-"But not when it's quite empty," said Lord Sumph.
-
-"It can't be quite empty with two millions and a half of people in it,
-Sumph," said Ronald.
-
-"O, ah, cads and tradesmen, and all that sort of thing,--devilish
-worthy people in their way, of course; but I mean people that one
-knows."
-
-"_I_ know several of those 'devilish worthy people,' Sumph," said
-Ronald, with a smile; "and besides, country-house life is not much in
-my way."
-
-"Don't meet those d?-d radical fellows that he thinks so much of,
-there," growled Sir Thomas Buffem to Sir Coke Only.
-
-"No, nor those painters and people that my boy says this chap's always
-bringing to mess," replied Sir Coke.
-
-"There, he's gone away with Duncan now," said Toshington, "and they'll
-be happy. They're too clever, those two are, for us old fellows! Not
-that you're an old fellow, Sumph, my boy."
-
-"You're old enough for several, ain't you, Tommy?" said Lord Sumph;
-"and I'm old enough to play you a game of billiards before dinner, and
-give you fifteen; so come along."
-
-Meanwhile Ronald Kilsyth and Duncan Forbes had walked away to the far
-end of the room, which happened to be deserted at the time; and
-seating themselves on an ottoman, were soon engaged in earnest
-conversation.
-
-"What on earth made you remain in town, Ronald?" asked Duncan. "I
-heard what you said to those fellows; but I know well enough that you
-could have got leave if you had wished. Why did you not come up to
-Kilsyth?"
-
-"Principally because there was no particular inducement for me to do
-so, Duncan."
-
-"You always were polite, Ronald--"
-
-"Ah, you were there! No, no; you know perfectly well what I mean,
-Duncan. With you and the governor and Madeleine I'm always perfectly
-happy; and her ladyship is very friendly, and we get on very well
-together. But then I like you all quietly and by yourselves; I'm
-selfish enough to want the entire enjoyment of your society. And the
-life at Kilsyth would not have suited me at all."
-
-"Well, I don't know; it was very jolly--"
-
-"Yes, of course it was, and--By the way, Duncan, tell me all about it;
-who were there, and what you did."
-
-"O, heaps of people there--the Northallertons, and the Thurlows,
-and--"
-
-"Yes, yes; but what men--younger men, I mean?"
-
-"Let me see; there was Towcester--"
-
-"No, not he; her ladyship would not have thought him objectionable,
-whatever I might."
-
-"What? what the deuce are you muttering, Ronald?"
-
-"I beg your pardon, Duncan--thinking aloud only; it's a horrible habit
-I've fallen into. Well, who besides Towcester?"
-
-"O, Severn, and Roderick Douglas, and Charley Jefferson--"
-
-"Ah, Charley Jefferson; he's just the same, of course?"
-
-"O yes, he's as jolly as ever."
-
-"Yes; but I mean, is he as devoted as he was to Lady Fairfax?"
-
-"O, worse; most desperate case of--no, by the way, though, I forgot; I
-think he has cooled off--"
-
-"Cooled off! since when?"
-
-"Since your sister's illness."
-
-"Since my sister's illness! Why, what could that have to do with
-them?"
-
-"Well, you see, some of the people in the house got frightened at the
-notion of infection and that kind of thing, and bolted off. Lady
-Fairfax was one of the first to rush away; and Charley, who is loyalty
-itself in everything, as you know, was deucedly annoyed about it. My
-lady had been leading him a pretty dance for a few days previously,
-playing off little Towcester against him, and--"
-
-"Ah, yes. No doubt Charley was right, quite right. And that was all
-about him, eh? And so the people were frightened at poor Madeleine's
-illness, were they?"
-
-"Gad, they were, and not without reason too. The poor child was
-awfully bad; and indeed, if it had not been for Wilmot, I much doubt
-whether she would have pulled through."
-
-"Hadn't been for Wilmot? Wilmot! O, yes, the London doctor who was
-staying somewhere, near, and who was telegraphed for. Tell me about
-Dr. Wilmot--a clever man, isn't he?"
-
-"Clever! He's wonderful! Keen, clear-headed fellow; sees his way
-through a brick wall in a minute. Not that at Kilsyth he did not do as
-much by his devotion to his patient as by his skill."
-
-"Devotion? O, he was devoted to his patient, eh?" said Ronald, biting
-his nails.
-
-"Never saw such a thing in all your life. Went in a regular perisher,"
-said Duncan Forbes, dropping his hands to emphasise his words. "Put
-himself in regular quarantine; cut himself off from all communication
-with anybody else, and shut himself up in the room with his patient
-for days together. It's the sort of thing you read of in poems, and
-that kind of thing, don't you know, but very seldom meet with in real
-life. If Wilmot had been a young man, and your sister had had any
-chance of making him like her, I should have said it was a case of
-smite. But Wilmot is an old married man; and these doctors don't
-indulge much in being captivated, specially by patients in fevers, I
-should think!"
-
-"No; of course not, of course not. Now, this Wilmot--what's he like?"
-
-"Well, he's rather a striking-looking man; looks very earnest, and
-speaks with a very effectively modulated voice."
-
-"Ah! And he's gentlemanly, eh?"
-
-"O, perfectly gentlemanly. No mistake in that."
-
-"And he was wonderfully devoted to Madeleine, eh? Very kind of him,
-I'm sure. Shut himself up in her room, and--What did Lady Muriel think
-of him, by the way?"
-
-"I scarcely know. I never heard her say; and yet I gathered somehow
-that Lady Muriel was not so much impressed in the doctor's favour as
-the rest of us."
-
-"That's curious, for there are few keener readers of character than
-Lady Muriel. And the doctor was not a favourite of hers?"
-
-"Well, no; I should say not. But the rest of the party were so
-strongly in his favour that we looked with some suspicion on all who
-did not shout as loudly as ourselves."
-
-"And Madeleine, was she equally enthusiastic?"
-
-"Poor Miss Kilsyth, she was not well enough to have much enthusiasm on
-any subject, even on her doctor. Gratitude is, I imagine, the
-strongest sentiment one is capable of after a long and severe
-illness."
-
-"Exactly--yes--I should suppose so. And what aged man is Dr. Wilmot?"
-
-"O, what we should have called some years ago very old, but what we
-now look upon as the commencement of middle age--just approaching
-forty, I should think."
-
-"He is married, you say?"
-
-"Yes; so we all understood. O yes, I heard him once mention his wife
-to Lady Muriel.--I say, Ronald, what an unconscionable lot of
-questions you are asking about Wilmot; one would think that--"
-
-"Gentleman waiting to speak to you, sir," said a servant, handing a
-card to Ronald; "says he won't detain you a moment, sir."
-
-Ronald took the card, and read on it "DR. WILMOT."
-
-"I will come to the gentleman at once," said he; and the servant went
-away.
-
-"Who is it? Anyone I know?" asked Duncan Forbes.
-
-"He is a stranger to me," said Ronald, blinking the question.
-
-
-He found Dr. Wilmot in that wretched little waiting-room about the
-size of a warm bath, and having for its furniture a chair, a table,
-and a map of England, which is dedicated at Barnes's to the reception
-of "strangers." The gas was low, and the Doctor was heavily wrapped
-up, and had a shawl round the lower part of his face; but Ronald made
-him out to be a gentlemanly-looking man, and specially noticed his
-keen flashing eyes. The Doctor was sorry to disturb Captain Kilsyth,
-but his father had sent up to him just before he started a parcel
-which he wished delivered personally to the Captain; so he had brought
-it on his way from the Great Northern, by which he had just arrived.
-It was some law-deed, about the safety of which Kilsyth was a little
-particular. It would have been delivered two days since, but, passing
-through Edinburgh, the Doctor had found his old friend Sir Saville
-Rowe staying at the same hotel, and had suffered himself to be
-persuaded to accompany him to see the new experiments in anaesthetics
-which Simpson had just made, and which-- Ah! but the Captain did not
-care for medical details. The Captain was very sorry that he had not a
-better room to ask the Doctor into; but the regulations at Barnes's
-about strangers were antediluvian and absurd. He should take an early
-opportunity of thanking Dr. Wilmot for his exceeding kindness in going
-to Kilsyth, and for the skill and attention which he had bestowed on
-Miss Kilsyth. The Doctor apparently to Ronald, even in the dull
-gas-light, with a heightened colour disclaimed everything, asserting
-that he had merely done his duty. Exchange of bows and of very cold
-hand-shakes, the Doctor jumping into the cab at the door, Ronald
-turning back into the hall, muttering, "That's the man! Taking
-what Duncan Forbes said, and that fellow's look when I named
-Madeleine--taking them together, that's the man that Lady Muriel meant.
-That's the man, for a thousand pounds!"
-
-In the cab Dr. Wilmot is thinking about Ronald. A blunt rough customer
-rather, but with a wonderful look of his sister about him; not
-traceable to any feature in particular, but in the general expression.
-His sister!--now a memory and a dream--with the bit of blue ribbon as
-the sole tangible reminiscence of her. She is among her friends now;
-and probably at this moment some one is sitting close by her, close as
-he used to sit, and he is forgotten already, or but thought of as--Not
-a pleasant manner, Captain Kilsyth's. Studiously polite, no doubt, but
-with an undercurrent of badly-veiled suspicion and reserve. What could
-that mean? Dr. Wilmot knew that his conduct towards the Kilsyth
-family, so far at least as its outward expression was concerned, had
-merited nothing but gratitude from every member of it. Why, then, was
-the young man embarrassed and suspicious? Could he--pshaw! how could
-he by any possible means have become aware of the Doctor's secret
-feelings towards Miss Kilsyth--feelings so secret that they had never
-been breathed in words to mortal? Perfectly absurd! It is conscience
-that makes cowards of us all; and the Doctor decides that it is
-conscience which has made him pervert Captain Kilsyth's naturally cold
-manner so ridiculously.
-
-Well, it is all over now! He is just back again at his old life, and
-he must give up the day-dreams of the past month and fall back into
-his professional habits. Looking out of the cab window at the long
-monotonous row of dirty-brown houses, at the sloppy street, at the
-pushing crowds on the foot-pavement, listening to the never-ceasing
-roar of wheels, he can hardly believe that he has only just returned
-from mountain, and heather, and distance, and fresh air, and
-comparative solitude! Back again! The reception at home from "ten till
-one," the old ladies' pulses and the old gentlemen's tongues, the
-wearied listening to the symptoms, the stethoscopical examination and
-the prescription-writing; then the afternoon visits, with the
-repetition of all the morning's details; the hospital lecture; the
-dull cold formal dinner with Mabel; and the evening's reading and
-writing,--without one bright spot in the entire daily round, without
-one cheering hope, one--
-
-A smell of tan!--the street in front of his door strewed with tan!
-Some one ill close by. What is this strange sickness that comes over
-him--this sinking at his heart--this clamminess of his brow and hands?
-The cab has scarcely stopped before he has jumped out, and has knocked
-at the door. Not his usual sharp decisive knock, but feebly and
-hesitatingly. He notices this himself, and is wondering about it, when
-the door opens, and his servant, always solemn, but now
-preternaturally grave, appears.
-
-"Glad to see you at last, sir," says the man, "though you're too
-late!"
-
-"Too late!" echoes Wilmot vacantly; "too late!--what for?"
-
-"For God's sake, sir," says the man, startled out of his ordinary
-quietude; "you got the telegram?"
-
-"Telegram! no--what telegram? What did it say? What has happened?"
-
-"Mrs. Wilmot, sir!--she's gone, sir!--died yesterday morning at eight
-o'clock!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XI.
-Irreparable.
-
-
-Chudleigh Wilmot was a strong man, and he possessed much of the pride
-and reticence which ordinarily accompany strength of character.
-Hitherto he can hardly be said to have suffered much in his life.
-Affliction had come to him, as it comes to every man born of woman;
-but it had come in the ordinary course of human life, unattended by
-exceptional circumstances, above all not intensified, not warped from
-its wholesome purposes by self-reproach. His life had been commonplace
-in its joys and in its griefs alike, and he had never suffered from
-any cause which was not as palpable, as apparent, to all who knew
-him as to himself. His had been the sorrows, chiefly his parents'
-death, which are rather gravely acknowledged and respected, than
-whispered about in corners with dubious head-shaking and suggestive
-shoulder-shrugging. So far the experience of the rising man had in it
-nothing distinctive, nothing peculiarly painful.
-
-But there was an end of this now. A new phase of life had begun for
-Chudleigh Wilmot, when he recoiled, like one who has received a deadly
-thrust, and whose life-blood rushes forth in answer to it, from the
-announcement made to him by his servant. He realised the truth of the
-man's statement as the words passed his lips; he was not a man whose
-brain was ever slow to take any impression, and he knew in an instant
-and thoroughly understood that his wife was dead. A very few minutes
-more sufficed to show him all that was implied by that tremendous
-truth. His wife was dead; not of a sudden illness assailing the
-fortress of life and carrying it by one blow, but of an illness that
-had had time in which to do its deadly work. His wife was dead; had
-died alone, in the care of hirelings, while he had been away in
-attendance upon a stranger, one out of his own sphere, not even a
-regular patient, one for whom he had already neglected pressing
-duties--not so sacred indeed as that which he could now never fulfil
-or recall, but binding enough to have brought severe reflections upon
-him for their neglect. The thought of all this surged up within him,
-and overwhelmed him in a sea of trouble, while yet his face had not
-subsided from the look of horror with which he had heard his servant's
-awful announcement.
-
-He turned abruptly into his consulting-room and shut the door between
-him and the man, who had attempted to follow him, but who now turned
-his attention to dismissing the cab and getting in his master's
-luggage, during which process he informed cabby of the state of
-affairs.
-
-"I thought there were something up," remarked that individual, "when I
-see the two-pair front with the windows open and the blinds down, and
-all the house shut up; but _he_ didn't notice it." An observation
-which the servant commented upon later, and drew certain conclusions
-from, considerably nearer the truth than Wilmot would have liked, had
-he had heart or leisure for any minor considerations. Presently Wilmot
-called the man; who entered the consulting-room, and found his master
-almost as pale as the corpse upstairs in "the two-pair front," where
-the windows were open and the blinds were down, but perfectly calm and
-quiet.
-
-"Is there a nurse in the house?"
-
-"Yes, sir; a nurse has been here since this day week, sir."
-
-"Send her here--stay--has Dr. Whittaker been here to-day?"
-
-"No, sir; he were here last night, a half an hour after my missus
-departed, sir; but he ain't been here since. He said he would come at
-one, sir, to see your answer to the telegraft, sir."
-
-"Very well; send the nurse to me;" and Wilmot strode towards the
-darkened window, and leaned against the wire-blind which covered the
-lower compartment. He had not to wait long. Presently the man
-returned.
-
-"If you please, sir, the nurse has gone home to fetch some clothes,
-and Susan is a-watchin' the body."
-
-Chudleigh Wilmot started, and ground his teeth. It was perfectly true;
-the proper phrase had been used by this poor churl, who had no notion
-of fine susceptibilities and no intention of wounding them, who would
-not have remained away from his own wife if she had been ill, not to
-say dying, for the highest wages and the best perquisites to be had in
-any house in London, but to whom a corpse was a corpse, and that was
-all about it. The phrase did not make the dreadful truth a bit more
-dreadful or more true, but it made Wilmot wince and quiver.
-
-"Is there no one else--upstairs?" he asked.
-
-"No, sir. Mrs. Prendergast were here all night, sir, and she is coming
-again to meet Dr. Whittaker; but there's no one but Susan a-watchin'
-now, sir. We was waiting for orders from you."
-
-Wilmot turned away from the man, and spoke without permitting him to
-see his face.
-
-"Tell Susan to leave the room, if you please; I am going upstairs."
-
-The man went away, and returned in a few minutes with a key, which he
-laid upon the table, and then silently withdrew. His master was still
-standing by the window, his face turned away. A considerable interval
-elapsed before the silent group of listeners, comprising all the
-servants of the establishment, upon the kitchen-stairs, heard the
-widower's slow and heavy step ascending the front staircase.
-
-The sight which Chudleigh Wilmot had to see, the strife of feeling
-which he had to encounter, were none the less terrible to him that
-death was familiar to him in every shape, in every preliminary of
-anguish and fear, in all that distorts its repose and renders its
-features terrible. It is an error surely to suppose that the
-familiarity of the physician with suffering and death, with all the
-ills that render the pilgrimage of life burdensome and the earthy
-vesture repulsive, makes the experience of these things when brought
-home to him easier to bear. The sickness that defies his skill, the
-life that eludes his grasp, is as dark an enigma, as terrible a defeat
-to him as to the man who knows nothing about the dissolving frame but
-that it holds the being he loves and is doomed to lose.
-
-If Chudleigh Wilmot had had a deadly, vindictive, and relentless
-enemy,--one of those creatures of romance, but incredible in real
-life, who gloat over the misery of a hated object, and would increase
-it by every fiendish device within their ingenuity and power,--that
-fabulous being might have been satisfied with the mental torture which
-he endured when he found himself within the room, so formally
-arranged, so faultlessly orderly, so terribly suggestive of the
-cessation of life, in which his dead wife lay. As he turned the key in
-the lock, for the first time a sense of unreality, of impossibility
-came over him, with a swift bewildering remembrance--rather a vision
-than a recollection--of the last time he had seen her. He saw her
-standing in the hall, in the low light of the autumn evening, her
-pretty fresh dinner-dress lifted daintily out of the way of the
-servant carrying his portmanteau to the cab; her head, with its
-coronet of dark hair, held up to receive her husband's careless kiss,
-as he followed the man to the door. He remembered how carelessly he
-had kissed her, and how--he had never thought of it before--she had
-not returned the caress. When had she kissed him last? This was a
-trifling thing, that he had never thought about till now--a question
-he could not answer, and had never asked till now; and in another
-moment he would be looking at her dead face!
-
-The window-blinds fluttered in the faint autumn wind as Wilmot opened
-the door, then quickly closed and locked it; and the rustling sound
-added to the impressiveness of the great human silence. The hands of
-the stern woman who loved her had ordered all the surroundings of the
-dead tenderly and gracefully; and the tranquil form lay in its deep
-rest very fair and solemn, and not terrible to look upon, if that can
-ever be said of death, in its garments of linen and lace. The head was
-a little bent, the face turned gently to one side, and the long dark
-eyelashes lay on the cheek, which was hardly at all sunken, as if they
-might be lifted up again and the light of life seen under them. Death
-was indeed there, but the sign and the seal were not impressed upon
-the face yet for a little while. Wilmot looked upon the dead tearless
-and still for some minutes, and then a quick short shudder ran through
-him, and he replaced the covering which had concealed the features,
-and sat down by the bedside, hiding his face with his hands.
-
-Who could put on paper the thoughts that swept over him then, and
-swept his mind away in their turmoil, and tossed him to and fro in a
-tempest of anguish which even the majestic tranquillity of death in
-presence was powerless to quell? Who could measure the punishment, the
-tremendous retribution of those hours, in which, if the world could
-have known anything about them, the world would have seen only the
-natural, the praiseworthy grief of bereavement? Who shall say through
-what purifying fires of self-knowledge and self-abasement the nature
-of the erring man passed in that dreadful vigil? And yet he did not
-know the truth. His conscience had been rudely awakened, but his
-comprehension had not yet been enlightened. He did not yet know the
-terrible depths of meaning which he had still to explore in the words
-which were the only articulate sounds that had formed themselves amid
-the chaos of his grief--"Too late; too late!" The failure in duty, the
-poverty, the niggardliness in love, the negligence, the dallying with
-right, in so far as his wife had been concerned, were all there,
-keeping him ghastly company, as he sat by the side of the dead; but
-the grimmest and the ghastliest phantoms which were to swarm around
-him were not yet evoked.
-
-To do Chudleigh Wilmot justice, he had no notion that his wife had
-been unhappy. That he had never rightly understood her character or
-read her heart, was the soundest proof that he had not loved her; but
-he had never taken himself to task on that point, and had been quite
-satisfied to impute such symptoms of discontent as he could not fail
-to notice to her sullenness of temper, of which he considered himself
-wonderfully tolerant. So little did this wise, rising man understand
-women, that he actually believed that indifference to his wife's moods
-was a good-humoured sort of kindness she could not fail to appreciate.
-She had appreciated it only too truly. The source of much of the
-remorse and self-condemnation which tortured him now was to be traced
-to his own newly-awakened feelings, to the fresh and novel
-susceptibility which the experience of the past few weeks had aroused,
-and in which lay the germs of some terrible lessons for the man whose
-studies in all but the lore of the human heart had been so deep, whose
-knowledge of that had been so strangely shallow. And now no knowledge
-could avail. The harm, the wrong, the cruel ill that had been done,
-was gone before him to the judgment; and he must live to learn its
-extent, to feel its bitterness with every day of life, which could
-never avail to lessen or repair it.
-
-When Dr. Whittaker arrived, he found Wilmot in his consulting-room,
-quite calm and steady, and prepared to receive his professional
-account of the "melancholy occurrence," on which he condoled with the
-bereaved husband after the most approved models. He did not attempt to
-disguise from Wilmot that he had been disagreeably surprised by his
-non-return under the circumstances. "Also," he added, "by your not
-sending me any instructions, though indeed at that stage nothing could
-have availed, I am convinced."
-
-Wilmot received these observations with such unmistakable surprise
-that an explanation ensued, which elicited the fact that he had never
-received any letter from Dr. Whittaker, and indeed had had no
-intimation of his wife's illness, beyond that conveyed in a letter
-from herself a fortnight previous to her death, and in which she
-treated it as quite a trifling matter.
-
-"Very extraordinary indeed," said Dr. Whittaker in a dry and
-unsatisfactory tone. "I can only repeat that I sent you the fullest
-possible report, and entreated you to return at once. I was
-particularly anxious, as Mrs. Wilmot confessed to me that you were
-unaware of her situation."
-
-"I never had the letter," said Wilmot; "I never heard of or from you,
-beyond the memoranda enclosed in my wife's letters."
-
-"Very extraordinary," repeated Dr. Whittaker still more drily than
-before. "She took the letter at her own particular request, saying she
-would direct it, that the sight of her hand-writing on the envelope,
-she being unable to write more, might reassure you."
-
-Wilmot coloured deeply and angrily under his brother physician's
-searching gaze. He had not looked for his wife's infrequent letters
-with any anxiety; he had had no quick, love-inspired apprehension to
-be assuaged by her womanly considerateness. He felt an uneasy sort of
-gladness that she had thought he had had such apprehension--better so,
-even now, when all mistakes were doomed to be everlasting,--or when
-they were quite cleared up. Which was it? He did not know; he did not
-like to think. All was over; all was too late.
-
-"I never received any such letter," he said again; "and I am
-astonished you did not write again when you got no answer."
-
-"I did not write again, because Mrs. Wilmot gave me so very decidedly
-to understand that you had told her you could not, under any
-circumstances, leave Kilsyth; and danger was not imminent until
-Monday, when I telegraphed, just too late to catch you."
-
-No more was said upon the point; but on Wilmot's mind was left a
-painful and disagreeable impression that Dr. Whittaker had received
-his explanation with distrust. The colloquy between the two physicians
-lasted long; and Wilmot was further engaged for a long time in giving
-the necessary attention to the distressing details which claim a
-hearing just at the time when they most disturb and jar with the tone
-of feeling. A sense of shock and hurry--a difficulty of realising the
-event which had occurred, quite other than the stunned feeling of
-conviction which had come with the first reception of the
-intelligence--beset him, while the nameless evidences of death were
-constantly pressed upon his attention. He sat in his consulting-room,
-receiving messages and communications of every kind, hearing the
-subdued voices of the servants as they replied to inquiries, feeling
-as though he were living through a terrible feverish dream, conscious
-of all around him, and yet strangely, awfully conscious too of the
-dead white face upstairs growing, as he knew, more stiff and stark and
-awful as the hours, so crowded yet so lonely, so busy yet so dreary,
-flew, no, dragged--which was it?--along.
-
-Many times that day, as Chudleigh Wilmot sat cold and grave, and,
-although deeply sad, more composed, more like himself than most men
-would have been in similar circumstances--a vision rose before his
-mind. It was a vision such as has come to many a mourner--a vision of
-what might have been. For it was not only his wife's death that the
-new-made widower had learned that day; he had learned that which had
-made her death doubly sad, far more untimely. The vision Chudleigh saw
-in his day-dream was of a fair young mother and her child, a
-happy wife in the summer-time of her beauty and her pride of
-motherhood--this was what might have been. What was, was a dead white
-face upstairs upon the bed, waiting for the coffin and the grave, and
-a blighted hope, a promise never to be fulfilled, which had never even
-been whispered between the living and the dead.
-
-
-Mrs. Prendergast had been in the darkened house for many hours of that
-long day. Wilmot knew she was there; but she had sent him no message,
-and he had made no attempt to see her. He shrank from seeing her; and
-yet he wished to know all that she, and she alone, could tell him. If
-he had ever loved his wife sufficiently to be jealous of any other
-sharing or even usurping her confidence, to have resented that any
-other should have a more intimate knowledge of Mabel's sentiments and
-tastes, should have occupied her time and her attention more fully
-than he, Henrietta Prendergast's intimacy with her might have elicited
-such feeling. But Chudleigh Wilmot had not loved his wife enough for
-jealousy of the nobler, and was too much of a gentleman for jealousy
-of the baser kind. No such insidious element of ill ever had a place
-in his nature; and, except that he did not like Mrs. Prendergast,
-whom he considered a clever woman of a type more objectionable than
-common--and Wilmot was not an admirer of clever women generally--he
-never resented, or indeed noticed, the exceptional place she occupied
-among the number of his wife's friends. But there was something lurking
-in his thoughts to-day; there was some unfaced, some unquestioned
-misery at work within him, something beyond the tremendous shock he had
-received, the deep natural grief and calamity which enshrouded him,
-that made him shrink from seeing Henrietta until he should have had
-more time to get accustomed to the truth.
-
-When the night had fallen, he heard the light tread of women's feet in
-the hall and a gentle whispering. Then the street-door was softly
-shut, and carriage-wheels rolled away. The gas had been lighted in
-Wilmot's room, but he had turned it almost out, and was sitting in the
-dim light, when a knock at the door aroused his attention. The
-intruder was the "Susan" already mentioned. Mrs. Wilmot had not
-boasted an "own maid;" but this girl, one of the housemaids, had been
-in fact her personal attendant. She came timidly towards her master,
-her eyes red and her face pale with grief and watching.
-
-"Well, what is it now?" said Wilmot impatiently. He was weary of
-disturbance; he wanted to be securely alone, and to think it out.
-
-"Mrs. Prendergast desired me to give you this, sir," the girl replied,
-handing him a small packet, "and to say she wants to see you, sir,
-tomorrow--respecting some messages from missus."
-
-He took the parcel from her, and Susan left the room. Before she
-reached the stairs, her master called her back. "Susan," he said,
-"where's the seal-ring your mistress always wore? This parcel contains
-her keys and her wedding-ring; where is the seal-ring? Has it been
-left on her hand?"
-
-"No, sir," said Susan; "and I can't think where it can have got to.
-Missus hasn't wore it, sir, not this fortnight; and I have looked
-everywhere for it. You'll find all her things quite right, sir, except
-that ring; and Mrs. Prendergast, she knows nothing about it neither;
-for I called her my own self to take off missus's wedding-ring,
-as it was missus's own wish as she should do it, and she missed the
-seal-ring there and then, sir, and couldn't account for it no more
-than me."
-
-"Very well, Susan, it can't be helped," replied Wilmot; and Susan
-again left him.
-
-He sat long, looking at the golden circlet as it lay in the broad palm
-of his hand. It had never meant so much to him before; and even yet he
-was far from knowing all it had meant to her from whose dead hand it
-had been taken. At last, and with some difficulty, he placed the ring
-upon the little finger of his left hand, saying as he did so, "I must
-find the other, and always wear them both."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XII.
-The Leaden Seal.
-
-
-When Chudleigh Wilmot arose on the following morning, with the
-semi-stupefied feeling of a man on whom a great calamity has just
-fallen, not the least painful portion of the task, not the least
-difficult part of the endurance that lay before him was the inevitable
-interview with his dead wife's friend. Mrs. Prendergast had requested
-that he would receive her early. This he learned from the servant who
-answered his bell; and he had directed that she should be admitted as
-soon as she arrived. He loitered about his room; he dallied with the
-time; he dared not face the cold silent house, the servants, who
-looked at him with natural curiosity, and, as he thought, avoidance.
-If the case had not been his own, Wilmot would have remembered that
-the spectacle of a new-made widow or widower always has attractions
-for the curiosity of the vulgar: strong, if the grief in the case be
-very violent; and stronger, if it be mild or non-existent. Wilmot was
-awfully shocked by his wife's death, terribly remorseful for his own
-absence, and perhaps for another reason--at which, however, he had not
-yet had the hardihood to look--almost stunned by the terrible sense,
-the conviction of the irrevocable ill of the past, the utterly
-irreparable nature of the wrong that had been done. But all these
-warring feelings did not constitute grief. Its supreme agony, its
-utter sadness, its unspeakable weariness were wanting in the strife
-which shook and rent him. The thought of the dead face had terror and
-regret for him; but not the dreadful yearning of separation, not the
-mysterious wrenching asunder of body and spirit, almost as powerful as
-that of death itself, which comes with the sentence of parting, which
-makes the possibility of living on so incomprehensible and so cruel to
-the true mourner. Not the fact itself, so much as the attendant
-circumstances, caused Wilmot to suffer, as he undoubtedly did suffer.
-He knew in his heart that had there been no self-reproach involved in
-this calamity, he would not have felt it as he felt it now; and in the
-knowledge there was denial of the reality of grief.
-
-No such thought as "How am I to live without her?" the natural
-utterance of bereavement, arose in Wilmot's heart; though neither did
-he profane his wife's memory or do dishonour to his own higher nature
-by even the most passing reference to the object which had so fatally
-engrossed him. The strong hand of death had curbed that passion for
-the present, and his thoughts turned to Kilsyth only with remorse and
-regret. But the wife who had had no absorbing share in his life could
-not by her death make a blank in it of wide extent or long duration.
-
-He was still lingering in his room, when he was told that Mrs.
-Prendergast had arrived and was in the drawing-room. The closely-drawn
-blinds rendered the room so dark that he could not distinguish
-Henrietta's features, still further obscured by a heavy black veil.
-She did not rise, and she made no attempt to take his hand, which he
-extended to her in silence, the result of agitation. She bowed to him
-formally, and was the first to speak. Her voice was low and her words
-were hurried, though she tried hard to be calm.
-
-"I was with your wife during her illness and at her death, Dr.
-Wilmot," she said; "and I am here now not to offer you ill-timed
-condolences, but to fulfil a trust."
-
-Her tone surprised Wilmot, and affected him disagreeably. There had
-never been any disagreement between himself and Mrs. Prendergast; he
-was not a man likely to interfere or quarrel with his wife's friends;
-and as he was wholly unconscious of the projects she had entertained
-towards him, he had not any suspicion of hidden malice on her part.
-Emotion he was prepared for--would indeed have welcomed; he was ready
-also for blame and reproaches, in which he would have joined heartily,
-against himself; but the calm, cold, rooted anger in this woman's
-voice he was not prepared for. If such a thing had been possible--the
-thought flashed lightning-like across his mind before she had
-concluded her sentence--he might have had in her an enemy, biding her
-time, and now at length finding it.
-
-He did not speak, and she continued:
-
-"I presume you have heard from Dr. Whittaker the particulars of
-Mabel's illness, its cause, and the means used to avert--what has not
-been averted?--"
-
-"I have," briefly replied the listener.
-
-"Then I need not enter into that--beyond this: a portion of my trust
-is to tell you that Dr. Whittaker is not to blame."
-
-"I have not blamed him, Mrs. Prendergast."
-
-"That is well. When Mabel knew, or thought, I fear hoped, that her
-life was in danger, her strongest desire was that you should be kept
-in ignorance of the fact."
-
-"Good God! why?" exclaimed Wilmot.
-
-"I think you must know why better than I can tell you," replied
-Henrietta pitilessly. "But, at all events, such was the case. Dr.
-Whittaker wrote to you, but she suppressed the letter. She gave it to
-me on the night she died. Here it is."
-
-Chudleigh Wilmot took the letter from her hand silently. Astonishment
-and distress overwhelmed him.
-
-"She bade me tell you that she laid her life down gladly; that she had
-nothing to leave, nothing to regret; that she was glad she had
-succeeded in keeping you in ignorance of her danger--for she knew, for
-the sake of your reputation, you would have left even Miss Kilsyth to
-be here at her death. But she preferred your absence; she distinctly
-bade me tell you so. She left no dying charge to you but this, that
-you should allow me to see her coffin closed on the second day after
-her death, and that you should wear her wedding-ring. I sent it to you
-last night, Dr. Wilmot. I hope you got it safely."
-
-"I did; it is here on my finger," answered Wilmot; "but, for God's
-sake, Mrs. Prendergast, tell me what all this means. Why did my wife
-charge you with such a message for me; how have I deserved it? Why did
-she, how should she, so young, and to all appearance not unhappy, wish
-to die, and to die in my absence? Did she persevere in that wish, or
-was it only a whim of her illness, which, had there been any one to
-remonstrate with her, would have yielded later?"
-
-"It was no whim, Dr. Wilmot. A wretched truth, I grant you, but a
-truth, and persisted in. So long as consciousness remained, she never
-changed in that."
-
-A dark and angry look came into Wilmot's face, and he raised his voice
-as he asked the next question:
-
-"Do you mean to explain this extraordinary circumstance, Mrs.
-Prendergast? Are you going to give me the clue to this mystery? My
-wife and I always lived on good terms; we parted on the same. No man
-or woman living can say with truth that I ever was unkind to her, or
-that she had cause given her _by me_ to wish her life at an end, to
-welcome death. I believe the communication you have just made to me is
-utterly without example. I never heard, I don't believe anyone ever
-heard of such a thing. I ask you to explain it, if you can."
-
-"You speak as though you asked, or desired me to _account_ for it
-too," said Henrietta, in a cold and cutting tone, which rebuked the
-vehemence of his manner, and revealed the intense, unsleeping egotism
-of her disposition. "I could do so, I daresay; but I cannot see the
-profitableness of such a discussion between you and me. It is too late
-now; nothing can undo the wrong, no matter what it was, or how far it
-extended. It is all over, and I have nothing more to do than to carry
-out the last wishes of my dear friend. Have I your permission to do
-so?" she asked, in the most formal possible tone, as she rose and
-stood opposite him.
-
-Wilmot put his hands up to his face, and walked hurriedly about the
-room. Then he came suddenly towards Henrietta, and said with intense
-feeling:
-
-"I beg your pardon; I did not mean to speak roughly: but I am
-bewildered by all this. I am sure you must feel for me; you must
-understand how utterly I am unable to comprehend what has occurred. To
-come home and receive such a shock as the news of my wife's death, was
-surely enough in itself to try me severely. And now to hear what you
-tell me, and tell me too so calmly, as if you did not understand what
-it means, and what it must be to me to hear it! You were with her, her
-chosen friend. I think you knew her better than anyone in the world."
-
-"And if I did," said Henrietta,--all her assumed calm gone, and her
-manner now as vehement as his own,--"if I did, is not that an answer
-to all you ask me? If I am to explain her motives, to lay bare her
-thoughts, to tell her sorrows, _to you_, her husband, is _that_ not
-your answer? Surely you have it in that fact! They are not true
-husband and true wife who have closer friends. You never loved her,
-and you never knew or cared what her life was; and so, when she was
-leaving it, she kept you aloof from her."
-
-Wilmot made no sound in reply. He stood quite still, and looked at
-her. His eyes had grown accustomed to the gloom, and she had raised
-her veil. He could see her face now. Her pale cheeks, paler than usual
-in her grief and passion, her deep angry sorrowful eyes, and her
-trembling lips, made her look almost terrible, as she stood there and
-told him out the truth.
-
-"No," she went on, "you did not know her, and you were satisfied not
-to know her; you went complacently on your way, and never thought
-whether hers was lonely and wearisome. You never were unkind to her,
-you say; no, I daresay you never were. She had all the advantages to
-which your wife was entitled, and she did you and them due honour.
-Why, even I, who did, as you say, know her best, had suspected
-only recently, and learned fully only since her illness began, all
-she suffered; no, not all--_that_ one heart can never pour into
-another--but I have only read the story of her life lately, and you
-have never read it at all. You were a physician, and you did not see
-that your own wife, a dweller under your own roof, whose life was lived
-in your sight, had a mortal disease."
-
-"What do you mean?" he said; "she had no such thing."
-
-"_She had!_" Henrietta repeated impetuously; "she had a broken heart.
-You never ill-treated her--true; you never neglected her--true,--until
-she was dying, that is to say;--but did you ever love her, Dr. Wilmot?
-Did you ever consider her as other or more than an appendage of your
-position, an ornament in your house, a condition of your social
-success and respectability? What were her thoughts, her hopes, her
-disappointments to you? Did you ever make her your real companion, the
-true sharer of your life? Did you ever return the love, the worship
-which she gave you? Did you ever pity her jealous nature; did you ever
-interpret it by any love or sensitiveness of your own, and abstain
-from wounding it? Did you know, did you care, whether she suffered
-when you shut yourself up in your devotion to a pursuit in which she
-had no share? All women have to bear that, no doubt, and are fools if
-they quarrel with the bread-winner's devotion to his work. Yes; but
-all women have not her silent, brooding, jealous, sullen nature; all
-women are not so little frivolous as she was; all women, Dr. Wilmot,
-do not love their husbands as Mabel loved you."
-
-She paused in the torrent of her words, and then he spoke.
-
-"All this is new and terrible to me; as new as it is terrible. Mrs.
-Prendergast, do me the justice to believe that."
-
-"It is not for me to do you justice or injustice," she made answer;
-"your punishment must come from your own heart, or you must go
-unpunished."
-
-"But"--he almost pleaded with her--"Mabel never blamed me, never tried
-to keep me more with her; rarely indeed expressed a wish of any kind.
-I declare, before God, I never dreamed, it never occurred to me to
-suspect that she was unhappy."
-
-"No," she said; "and Mabel knew that. She interested you so little,
-you cared so little for her, that you never looked below the surface
-of her life; and her pride kept that surface fair and smooth. She
-would have died before she would have complained,--she has died, in
-fact, and made no sign."
-
-"Yes," said Wilmot suddenly and bitterly; "but she has left me this
-legacy, brought me by your hands, of miserable regret and vain
-repentance. She has insured the destruction of my peace of mind; she
-has taken care that mine shall be no ordinary grief, sent by God and
-to be dispelled by time; she has added bitterness to the bitter, and
-put me utterly in the wrong by her unwarrantable concealment and
-reticence."
-
-"How truly manlike your feelings are, Dr. Wilmot! She has hurt your
-pride, and you can't forgive her even in death! She has put _you_ in
-the wrong,--and all her own wrongs, so silently borne, sink into
-nothing in comparison!"
-
-"I deny it!" Wilmot said vehemently; "she _had_ no wrongs,--no woman
-of her acquaintance had a better husband. What did I ever deny her?"
-
-"Only your love, only a wife's true place in your life, only all she
-longed for, only all she died for lack of."
-
-"All this is absurd," he said. "If she really had these romantic
-notions, why did she conceal them? Have _I_ nothing to complain of in
-this? Was she just to me, or candid with me?"
-
-"What encouragement did you give her? Do you think a proud, shy,
-silent woman like Mabel was likely to lay her heart open to so cold
-and careless a glance as yours? No; she loved you as few women can
-love; but if she had much love, so she had much pride and jealousy;
-and all three had power with her."
-
-"Jealousy!" said Wilmot in an angry tone; "in God's name, of whom did
-she contrive to be jealous."
-
-"Her jealousy was not of a mean kind," said Henrietta. "Ever since
-your marriage it had nourished itself, so far as I understood the
-matter, upon your devotion to your profession, upon the complacent
-ease with which you set _her_ claims aside for those which so
-thoroughly engrossed you, that you had no heart, no eyes, no attention
-for her. Of late--" she paused.
-
-"Well?" said Wilmot;--"of late?"
-
-"Of late," repeated Henrietta, speaking now with some more reserve of
-manner, "she believed you devoted--to a degree which conquered your
-devotion to your profession and to the interests of your own
-advancement--to the patient who detained you at Kilsyth."
-
-"What madness! what utter folly!" said Wilmot; but his face turned
-deeply red, and he felt in his heart that the arrow had struck home.
-
-"Perhaps so," said Henrietta, and her voice resumed the cutting tone
-from which all through this painful interview Wilmot had shrunk. "But
-Mabel was not more reasonable or less so than other jealous women. You
-had never neglected your business for _her_, remember, or been turned
-aside by any sentimental attraction from your course of professional
-duty. Friendship, gratitude, and interest alike required you to attend
-to Mr. Foljambe's summons. You did not come, and people talked. Mr.
-Foljambe himself spoke of the attractions of Kilsyth, and joked, after
-his inconsiderate manner."
-
-"In _her_ presence?" said Wilmot incautiously.
-
-"Yes, in _her_ presence," said Henrietta, who perfectly appreciated
-the slip he had made. "She knew some people who knew the Kilsyths, and
-she heard the remarks that were made. I daresay she imagined more than
-she heard. No matter. Nothing matters any more. She was not sorry to
-die when her time came; she would not have you troubled,--that is all.
-And now I will leave you. I am going to her."
-
-The last sentence had a dreadful effect on Wilmot. In the agitation,
-the surprise, the pain of this interview, he had almost forgotten
-time; the present reality had nearly escaped him. He had been rapt
-away into a world of feeling, of passion; he had been absorbed in the
-sense of a discovery, and of something which seemed like an impossible
-injustice. With Henrietta's words it all vanished, and he remembered,
-with a start, that his wife lay dead upstairs. They were not talking
-of a life long extinguished, which in former years might have been
-made happier by him, but of one which had ended only a few hours ago;
-a life whose forsaken tenement was still untouched by "decay's
-effacing fingers." With all this new knowledge fresh upon him, with
-all this bewildering conviction of irreparable wrong, he might look
-upon the calm young face again. Not as he had looked upon it
-yesterday; not with the deep sorrow and the irresistible though
-unjustified compassion with which death in youth is always regarded,
-but with an exceeding and heart-rending bitterness, in comparison with
-which even that repentant grief was mild and merciful. The fixedness,
-the blank, the silence, would be far more dreadful, far more
-reproachful now, when he knew that he had never understood, never
-appreciated her--had unwittingly tortured her; now when he knew that,
-in all her youth and beauty, she had been glad to die. Glad to die!
-The words had a tremendous, an unbearable meaning for him. If even the
-last month could have been unlived! If only he had not had _that_ to
-reproach himself with, to justify _her!_ In vain, in vain. In that one
-moment of unspeakable suffering Wilmot felt that his punishment,
-however grave his offence, was greater than he could bear.
-
-He turned away from Henrietta with the air of a man to whom another
-word would be intolerable, and sat down wearily. She stood still,
-looking at him, as if awaiting an answer or a dismissal.
-
-At length she said, "Have you forgotten, Dr. Wilmot, that I asked your
-permission to carry out Mabel's wish?"
-
-"No," he said drearily, "I remember. Of course do as you like; I
-should say, as she directed. I suppose the object of her request was,
-that I should see her no more, in death either. Well, well--it is
-fortunate that did not succeed too." He spoke in a patient, broken
-tone, which touched Henrietta's heart. But her perverted notion of
-truth and loyalty to the dead held her back from showing any sign of
-softening. Just as she was leaving the room he said:
-
-"Such a course is very unusual, is it not?"
-
-"I believe so," she replied; "but the servants know it was her
-desire."
-
-Then Henrietta Prendergast went away; and presently he heard a slight
-sound in that awful room overhead, and he knew she had taken her place
-beside the dead. He felt, as he sat for hours of that day quite alone,
-like a banished man. His wife was doubly dead to him now. All his
-married life had grown on a sudden unreal; and when he thought of the
-still white face which he was to see once, and only once more, for
-ever, it was with a strange sense of dread and avoidance, and not with
-the tender sorrow which, even amid the shock and self-reproach of
-yesterday, had come to his relief.
-
-Somehow, he could not have told how, with the inevitable
-interruptions, the wretched necessary business of such a time, the
-hours of that day passed over Chudleigh Wilmot's head, and the night
-came. He had looked his last upon his wife, had taken his solemn leave
-of the death-chamber. She lay now in her coffin, sealed, hidden from
-sight for evermore, and there was nothing now but the long dreary
-waiting. In its turn that too passed, and in due time the funeral day;
-and Chudleigh Wilmot was quite alone in his silent house, and had only
-to look back into the past. Forward into the future he did not dare,
-he had not heart to look. A kind of blank, the reaction from intense
-excitement, had set in with him, and for the first time in his life
-his physical strength flagged. The claims of his business began to
-press upon him; people sent for him, respectfully and hesitatingly,
-but with some confidence that he would come, nevertheless. And Wilmot
-went; and was received with condoling looks, which he affected not to
-see, and compassionating tones, of which he took no notice.
-
-He had no more to do with the past--he had buried it; his sole desire
-was that others should aid him in this apparent oblivion; how far from
-real it was, he alone could have told. He had written to Kilsyth a few
-indispensable lines, and had had a formal report of Madeleine's
-health, which he had conscientiously tried to range with other
-professional documents, and lay by with them. It was certainly a dark
-and dreary time, endless in length, and so hopeless, so final, that it
-seemed to have no outlet; a time than which Chudleigh Wilmot believed
-life could never bring him a darker. But trouble was new to him. He
-learned more about it later on in his day.
-
-When a fortnight had elapsed after Wilmot's return to London, and the
-tumult of his mind had subsided, though the bitterness of his feelings
-was not yet allayed, he chanced one morning to require a paper, which
-he knew was to be found in a certain cabinet which filled a niche in
-the wall of his consulting-room. The cabinet in question was one he
-rarely opened; and the moment he attempted to turn the key, he felt
-confident that the lock had been tampered with. The conviction was
-singularly unpleasant; for the cabinet was a repository of private
-papers, deeds, letters, and professional notes. It also contained
-several poisons, which Wilmot kept there in what he supposed to be
-inviolable security. Closer inspection confirmed his suspicions. The
-lock had been opened by the simple process of breaking it; and the
-doors, merely laid together, had caught on a jagged piece of metal,
-and thus presented the slight obstacle they had offered. With a mere
-shake they unclosed.
-
-This circumstance puzzled Wilmot exceedingly. He made a careful
-examination of the contents of the cabinet. All was precisely as he
-had left it; not a paper missing or disturbed.
-
-"Who can have been at the cabinet?" he thought, "and with what
-motive?--Nothing has been taken; nothing, so far as I can discover,
-has been touched. Mere curiosity would hardly tempt anyone to run such
-a risk; and no one knew that there was anything of value here. Stay,"
-he reflected; "one person knew it. _She_ knew it; she knew that I kept
-private papers here. No doubt it was she who opened the cabinet. But
-with what motive? What can she possibly have wanted which she could
-have hoped to find here?"
-
-No answer to this query presented itself to Wilmot's mind. He thought
-and thought over it, painfully recurring to all Mrs. Prendergast had
-told him, and trying to help himself to a solution of this mystery by
-the aid of those which had preceded it. For some time he thought in
-vain; at length the idea struck him that the jealous woman, restless
-and miserable in her unhappy curiosity--he could understand _now_ what
-she had felt, he could pity her _now_--had opened the cabinet to seek
-for letters from some fancied rival in his affections. Nothing but his
-belief in the perversion of mind which comes of the indulgence of such
-a passion as jealousy could have led Wilmot to suspect his wife of
-such an act for a moment. But he was a wise man, now that it was too
-late, in that lore which he had never studied while he might have read
-the book, and he recognised the transforming power of jealousy. Yes,
-that was it doubtless; she had sought here for the material wherewith
-to feed the flame that had tortured her.
-
-Chudleigh Wilmot took the paper he wanted from the place where
-it had lain, and was about to close the doors of the cabinet once
-more--restoring them, until he could have the lock repaired, to their
-deceptive appearance of security--when his attention was caught by a
-dark-coloured spot, about the size of a shilling, upon the topmost
-sheet of a packet of papers which lay beside a small mahogany case
-containing the before-mentioned poisons. He took the packet out and
-examined it. The spot was there, and extended to every paper in the
-packet. A sudden flush and expression of vague alarm crossed Wilmot's
-face. He took up the case and examined the exterior. A dark mark, the
-stain of some glutinous fluid, ran down the side of the box next which
-the papers had lain. For a moment he held the case in his hands, and
-literally dared not open it. Then in sickening fear he did so, and
-found its contents apparently undisturbed. The box was divided into
-ten little compartments, in each of which stood a tiny bottle,
-glass-stoppered and covered with a leaden capsule. To the neck of each
-was appended a little leaden seal, the mark of the French chemist from
-whom Wilmot had purchased the deadly drugs. He took the bottles out
-one by one, examined their seals, and held them up to the light. All
-safe for nine out of the number; but as he touched the tenth, the
-capsule with the leaden seal attached to it fell off, and Wilmot
-discovered, with ineffable horror, that the bottle, which had
-contained one of the deadliest poisons known to science, was half
-empty.
-
-He set down the case, and reeled against the corner of the mantelshelf
-near him, like a drunken man. He could not face the idea that had
-taken possession of him; he could not collect his thoughts. He gasped
-as though water were surging round him. Once more he took up the
-bottle and looked at it. It was only too true; one half the contents
-was missing. He closed the case, and pushed it back into its place. It
-struck against something on the shelf of the cabinet. He felt for the
-object, and drew out _his wife's seal-ring!_
-
-And now Chudleigh Wilmot knew what was the terror that had seized him.
-It was no longer vague; it stood before him clear, defined,
-unconquerable; and he groaned:
-
-"My God! she destroyed herself!"
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIII.
-A Turn of the Screw.
-
-
-Chudleigh Wilmot had not seen Mrs. Prendergast since the day on which
-his wife's funeral had taken place; and it was with equal surprise and
-satisfaction that she received a brief but kindly-worded note from
-him, requesting her to permit him to call upon her.
-
-"I wonder what it's all about," she thought, as she wrote with
-deliberation and care a gracious answer in the affirmative. Mrs.
-Prendergast had been thinking too since her friend's death, and her
-cogitations had had some practical results. It was true that Mabel
-Darlington had not been happy with Wilmot; but Mrs. Prendergast,
-thinking it all over, was not indisposed to the opinion that it was a
-good deal her own fault, and to entertain the very natural feminine
-conviction that things would have been quite otherwise had she been in
-Mabel's place. Why should she not--of course in due time, and with a
-proper observance of all the social decencies--hope to fill that place
-now? She was a practical, not a sentimental woman; but when the idea
-occurred to her very strongly, she certainly did find pleasure in
-remembering that Mabel Wilmot had been very much attached to her, and
-would perhaps have liked the notion of her being her successor as well
-as any woman ever really likes any suggestion of the kind, that is to
-say, resignedly, and with an "it-might-be-worse" reservation.
-
-Henrietta Prendergast had cherished a very sound dislike to Chudleigh
-Wilmot for some time; but it was, though quite real--while the fact
-that he had chosen another than herself, though she had been so ready
-and willing to be chosen, was constantly impressed upon her
-remembrance--not of a lasting nature. Besides, she had had the
-satisfaction of making him understand very distinctly that the choice
-he had made had not been a wise one; and ever since her feelings
-towards him had been undergoing a considerable modification.
-
-How much ground had Mabel had for her jealously of Miss Kilsyth? What
-truth was there in the suspicions they had both entertained respecting
-the influence which his young patient had exercised over Wilmot?'. She
-had no means of determining these questions. It would have been
-impossible for her, had she been a woman capable of such a meanness,
-to have watched Wilmot during the interval which had elapsed since his
-wife's death. His numerous professional duties, the constant demands
-upon his time, all rendered her attaining any distinct knowledge of
-his proceedings impossible; and beyond the announcement in the
-_Morning Post_ that Kilsyth of Kilsyth and his family had arrived in
-town, she knew nothing whatever concerning them. Henrietta Prendergast
-had, on the whole, been considerably occupied with the idea of
-Chudleigh Wilmot when his note reached her, and she prepared to
-receive him with feelings which resembled those of long-past days
-rather than those which had actuated her of late.
-
-It was late in the afternoon when the expected visitor made his
-appearance, and Henrietta had already begun to feel piqued and angry
-at the delay. His note indicated a pressing wish to see her--she had
-answered it promptly. What had made him so dilatory about availing
-himself of her permission?
-
-The first look she caught of Wilmot's face convinced her that the
-motive of his visit was a grave one. He was pale and sedate, even to a
-fixed seriousness far beyond that which had fallen upon him after the
-shock of Mabel's death, and a painful devouring anxiety might be read
-in the troubled haggard expression of his deep-set dark eyes. He
-entered at once upon the matter which had induced him to ask Mrs.
-Prendergast for an interview; and though her manner was emphatically
-gracious, and designed to show him that she desired to maintain their
-former relations intact, he took no notice of her courtesy. This was a
-mistake. All women are quick to take cognisance of a slight, and
-Henrietta was no slower than the rest of her sex. He showed her much
-too plainly that he had an object in seeking her presence entirely
-unconnected with herself. It was not wise; but the shock of the
-discovery which he had made had shaken Wilmot's nerves and overthrown
-his judgment for the time. He briefly informed Mrs. Prendergast that
-he came for the purpose of asking her to recapitulate all the
-circumstances of his wife's illness and death; to entreat her to tax
-her memory to the utmost, to recall everything, however trivial,
-bearing upon the progress of the malady, and in particular every
-detail bearing upon her state of mind.
-
-Henrietta listened to him with profound astonishment. Previously he
-had shunned all such details. When she had met him, prepared to supply
-them, he had asked her no questions; he had been apparently satisfied
-with the medical report made to him by Dr. Whittaker; he had been
-almost indifferent to such minor facts as she had stated; and the
-painful revelation which she had made to him had not been followed up
-by any close questioning on his part. And now, when all was at an end,
-when the grave had closed over the sad domestic story, as over all
-the tragedies of human life, hidden or displayed, the grave must
-close,--now he came to her with this preoccupied brooding face and
-manner to ask her these vain and painful questions. Thus she was newly
-associated with dark and dismal images in his mind, and this was
-precisely what Henrietta had no desire to be. She answered him,
-therefore, in her coldest tone (and no woman knew how to ice her
-answers better than she did), that the subject was extremely painful
-to her for many reasons. Was it absolutely necessary to revive it?
-Wilmot said it was, and expressed no consideration for her feelings
-nor regret for the necessity of wounding them.
-
-"Well, then, Dr. Wilmot," said Henrietta, "as I presume you wish to
-question me in some particular direction, though I am quite at a loss
-to understand why, you are at liberty to do so."
-
-Wilmot then commenced an interrogatory, which, as it proceeded, filled
-Henrietta with amazement. Had he any theory of his wife's illness and
-death incompatible with the facts as she had seen and understood them?
-Did he suspect Dr. Whittaker of ignorance and mismanagement in the
-case? Even supposing he did, what would it avail him now to convince
-himself that such suspicion was well founded? All was inevitable, all
-was irreparable now. While these thoughts were busy in her brain, she
-was answering question after question put to her by Wilmot in a cold
-voice, and with her steady neutral-tinted eyes fixed in pitiless
-scrutiny upon him. He asked her in particular about the period at
-which Mabel had suppressed Dr. Whittaker's letter to him. Had she been
-particularly unhappy just then; had the "unfortunate notion she had
-conceived about--about Miss Kilsyth, been in her mind before, or just
-at that time?"
-
-This question Mrs. Prendergast could not, or would not, answer very
-distinctly. She did not remember exactly when Mabel had heard so much
-about Miss Kilsyth; she did not know what day it was on which Dr.
-Whittaker had written. Wilmot produced the letter, and pointed out the
-date. Still Mrs. Prendergast's memory refused to aid her reliably. She
-really did not know; she could not answer this. Could she remember
-whether Mabel had ever left her room after that letter had been
-written? or whether she had been confined to her room when she had
-received his (Wilmot's) letter from Kilsyth; the letter which Mrs.
-Prendergast had said had distressed her so much, had brought about the
-confidence between Mabel and herself relative to the feelings of the
-former, and had led Mabel to say that she had no desire to live?
-Wilmot awaited the reply to these questions in a state of suspense not
-far removed from agony. He could not indeed permit himself to cherish
-a hope that the dreadful idea he entertained was unfounded; but in the
-answer awful confirmation or the germ of hope must lie.
-
-Henrietta replied, after a few moments' thoughtful silence. She could
-remember the circumstances, though not the precise date. Mabel had
-left her room on the day on which she had received Wilmot's letter;
-she had been in the drawing-rooms, and even in the consulting-room on
-that day. It was on the night that she had told Mrs. Prendergast all,
-and had expressed her desire to die, her conviction that she could not
-recover. Henrietta was not certain whether that day was the same as
-that on which Dr. Whittaker's letter was written, but she was
-perfectly clear on the point on which Wilmot appeared to lay so much
-stress; she knew it was the day after his last letter from Kilsyth had
-reached her.
-
-The intense suffering displayed in every line of Wilmot's face as she
-made this statement touched Henrietta as much as it puzzled her. Had
-she mistaken this man? Had he really deep feelings, strong
-susceptibilities? Had the shock of his wife's death been far otherwise
-felt than she had believed, and was he now groping after every detail,
-in order to feed the vain flame of love and memory? Such a supposition
-accorded very ill with all she knew and all she imagined of Chudleigh
-Wilmot; but she could find no other within her not infertile brain.
-
-"What became of my letter to her?" Wilmot asked her abruptly.
-
-"It is in her coffin, together with every other you ever wrote her. I
-placed them there at her own request. She had them tied up in a
-packet,--the others I mean; but she gave me that one separately."
-
-"Why?" asked Wilmot in a hoarse whisper.
-
-"Why!" repeated Henrietta. "I don't know. It was only a few hours
-before she died. She hardly spoke at all after, but she told me quite
-distinctly then that I was to give you her wedding-ring, and to place
-those letters in her coffin. 'I could not destroy those,' she said,
-touching the packet in my hand; 'and this,' she drew it from under her
-pillow as she spoke, 'I want to be placed with me too. It is my
-justification.'"
-
-"My justification!" repeated Wilmot. "What did she mean? What did you
-understand that she meant by that?"
-
-"I did not think much about it. The poor thing was near her end then,
-and I thought little of it; though of course I did what she desired."
-
-"Yes, yes, I understand," said Wilmot. "But her
-justification--justification in what--for what?"
-
-"In her gloomy and miserable ideas of course, and, above all, in her
-desire to die. She believed that your letter contained the proof of
-all she feared and suffered from, and so justified her longing to
-escape from further neglect and sorrow."
-
-"You did not suspect that it had any further meaning?"
-
-Henrietta stared at him in silence. "I beg your pardon," he said; "my
-mind is confused by anxiety. I am afraid, Mrs. Prendergast, there may
-have been features in this case not rightly understood. Could it be
-that Whittaker was deceived?"
-
-"I think not--I cannot believe that there was any error. Dr. Whittaker
-never expressed any anxiety on _that_ point, any uncertainty, any wish
-to divide the responsibility, except with yourself. I understood him
-to say that he had gone into the case very fully with you, and that
-you were satisfied everything had been done within the resources of
-medicine."
-
-"Yes, he did. I don't blame him; I don't blame anyone but myself. But,
-Mrs. Prendergast, that is not the point. What I want to get at is
-this: did she--my wife I mean--did she hide anything from Whittaker's
-knowledge?"
-
-"Anything? In her physical state do you mean? Of her mental sufferings
-no one but myself ever had the smallest indication. Will you wrong her
-dead as well as living?" said Henrietta angrily.
-
-"No," he answered, "I will not,--I trust I will not, and do not. I
-meant, did she tell Whittaker all about her illness? Did she conceal
-any symptoms from him? Did she suffer more or otherwise than he knew
-of?"
-
-"Frankly, I think she did, Dr. Wilmot. She was extremely, almost
-painfully patient; I would much rather have seen her less so. She
-answered his questions and mine, but she said nothing except in answer
-to questioning. She suffered, I am convinced, infinitely more than she
-allowed to appear; and especially on the night of her death, just
-before the stupor set in, she was in great agony."
-
-"Yes," said Wilmot hurriedly. "Was Whittaker there? Did he know it?"
-
-"He was not there; he had been sent for a little while before, when
-she was tranquil; and she was quite insensible when he returned in
-about three hours. He told you, of course, that we had had good hope
-of her during the day,--in fact, up to the evening?"
-
-"Yes, he said there had been a rally, but it had not lasted. Did she
-know that there was hope?"
-
-"She did," said Henrietta slowly and reluctantly. "You ask me very
-painful questions, Dr. Wilmot,--painful to me in the extreme; and I am
-sure my answers must be acutely distressing to you. I cannot
-understand your motive."
-
-"No," he said, "I am sure you cannot; neither can I explain it. But
-indeed I am compelled to put these questions; I cannot spare either
-you or myself. You say she knew there was hope of her recovery on the
-day before her death; and yet while the rally lasted,--before the
-suffering of which you speak set in,--she gave you those solemn
-charges which you fulfilled?"
-
-"Yes," said Henrietta--and her voice was soft now and her eyes were
-full of tears--"she did. She did not trust the rally. She told me,
-with such a dreadful smile, that it would not avail to keep her from
-her rest. She was right. From the moment she grew worse the progress
-of death was awfully rapid."
-
-"What medicine did you give her during the brief improvement?"
-
-"Only some restorative drops. Dr. Whittaker gave them to her himself
-several times, and when he left I gave them to her."
-
-"Did she ever take this medicine of her own accord? Was she strong
-enough in the interval of improvement to take medicine, or to move
-without assistance?"
-
-Again Henrietta looked at him for a little while before she replied:
-
-"If you are afraid, Dr. Wilmot, that any mistake was made about the
-medicine, dismiss such a fear. There was no other medicine in the room
-but the bottle containing the drops; and now your strange question
-reminds me that she did take them once unassisted."
-
-Wilmot rose and came towards her. "How? when?" he said eagerly. "How
-could she do so in her weak state?"
-
-"The bottle was on the table, close by her bed. Only one dose was
-left. She had asked me to raise the window-blind; and I was doing so,
-when she stretched out her arm and took the bottle off the table. When
-I turned round she was drinking the last drops, and the next moment
-she dropped the bottle on the floor, and it was broken."
-
-"Was she fainting, then?"
-
-"O no," said Henrietta, "she was quite sensible, until the pain came
-on. Indeed I remember that she told me to keep away from the bed until
-the broken glass had been swept up."
-
-"Was that done?"
-
-"Yes, I did it myself at once."
-
-"One more question, Mrs. Prendergast," said Wilmot, who had put a
-strong constraint upon himself, and spoke calmly now. "When did she
-charge you to have her coffin closed within two days of her death? Was
-it within the interval during which her recovery seemed possible?"
-
-"It was," answered Henrietta,--"it was when she told me that the rally
-was deceitful, and was not to keep her from her rest. Then I undertook
-to carry out her wish."
-
-"Did she give any reason for having formed it?"
-
-"She did--the reason you surmised when I first told you of it. I need
-not repeat it."
-
-"I would wish you to do so--pray let me hear the exact words she
-said."
-
-"Well, then, they were these. 'You will promise me to see it done,
-Henrietta. He cannot get home, even supposing he could leave at once,
-when he hears that I am dead, until late on the second day.' I told
-her it was an awful thing that she should wish you not to see her
-again, and she said, 'No, no, it is not. If he thinks of my face at
-all, I want him to see it in his memory as it was when I thought he
-liked to look at it. I could not bear him to remember it black and
-disfigured.' Those were her exact words, Dr. Wilmot; and like all the
-rest she said, they proved to me how much she loved you."
-
-Wilmot made no answer, and neither spoke for some minutes. Then Wilmot
-extended his hand, which Henrietta took with some cordiality, and
-said, "I thank you very much, Mrs. Prendergast, for the patience with
-which you have heard me and answered me. I have no explanation to give
-you. I shall never forget your kindness to my wife, and I hope we
-shall always be good friends."
-
-He pressed her hand warmly as he spoke; and before Henrietta could
-reply, he left her to cogitations as vain and unsatisfactory as they
-were absorbing and unceasing.
-
-Chudleigh Wilmot went direct to his own house after his interview with
-Henrietta, and gave himself up to the emotions which possessed him.
-Not a shadow of doubt did he now entertain that his wife had destroyed
-herself. In the skill and ingenuity with which he invested the act, in
-his active fancy, which had read the story from the unconscious
-narrative of Henrietta, he recognised a touch of insanity, which his
-experience taught him was not very rare in cases similar to that of
-his wife. To a certain extent he was relieved by the conviction that
-when she had done the irrevocable deed she was not in her right mind.
-But what had led to it? what had been the predisposing causes? His
-conscience, awakened too late, his heart, softened too late, gave him
-a stern and searching answer. Her life had been unhappy, and she had
-made her escape from it. He was as much to blame as if he had
-voluntarily and actively made her wretched. He saw this now by the
-light of that keener susceptibility, that higher understanding, which
-had been kindled within him. It had been kindled by the magic touch of
-love. Another woman had made him see into his wife's heart, and
-understand her life. What was he to do now? how was it to be with him
-in the future? He hardly dared to think. Sometimes his mind dwelt on
-the possibility that it might not be as he believed it was, and the
-only means of resolving his doubts suggested itself. He might have
-Mabel's body exhumed, and then the truth would be known. But he shrank
-with horror from the thought, as from a dishonour to her memory. If he
-took such a step, it must be accounted for; and could he, would he
-dare to cast such a slur upon the woman who, if she had done this
-deed, had resorted to it because, as his wife, she was miserable? Had
-he any right, supposing it was all a dreadful delusion that she had
-meddled with his poisons for some trivial motive, however
-inexplicable,--had he any right to solve his own doubts at such a
-price as their exposure to cold official eyes? No--a resolute negative
-was the reply of his heart to these questions; and he made up his mind
-that his punishment must be lifelong irremediable doubt, to be borne
-with such courage as he could summon, but never to be escaped from or
-left behind.
-
-Utter sickness of heart fell upon him and a great weariness. From the
-past he turned away with vain terrible regret; to the future he dared
-not look. The present he loathed. He must leave that house, he thought
-impatiently--he could not bear the sight of it. It had none of the
-dear and sorrowful sacredness which makes one cling to the home of the
-loved and lost; it was hateful to him; for there the life his
-indifference, his want of comprehension had blighted, had been
-terminated--he shuddered as he thought by what means. And then he
-thought he would leave England; he could not see Madeleine Kilsyth
-again; or if he had to do so, he could not see her often. To think of
-her, in her innocent youth and beauty, as one to be loved, or wooed,
-or won--if even in his most distant dreams such a possibility were
-approached by a man whose life had such a story in it, such a dreadful
-truth, setting him apart from other men--was almost sacrilegious. No,
-he would go away. Fate had dealt him a tremendous blow; he could not
-stand against it; he must yield to it for the present, at all events.
-Under the influence of the terrible truth which he was forced to
-confront, all his ambition, all his energy seemed suddenly to have
-deserted the rising man.
-
-
-* * * * *
-
-
-"But, my dear fellow, I can't bring myself to believe that you are
-serious; I can't indeed, just as the ball is at your foot too. I
-protest I expected you to distance them all in another year. Everybody
-talks of you; and what is infinitely better, everyone is ready to call
-you in if they require your services, or fancy they require them. Why,
-there's Kilsyth of Kilsyth--ah, Wilmot, you threw me over in that
-direction, but I don't bear malice--he swears by you. The fine old
-fellow came to the bank yesterday; I met him in the hall, and he got
-into my brougham, and came home with me, for no other reason on earth
-than to talk about you. Wilmot's skill and Wilmot's coolness, Wilmot's
-kindness and Wilmot's care--nothing but Wilmot. I should have been
-bored to death by so much talking all about one man, if it had been
-any man but yourself. And now to tell me that you are going away,
-going to make a gap in your life, going to give up the running, and
-forfeit such prospects as yours--because you must remember, my dear
-fellow, you must not calculate on resuming exactly where you have left
-off, in any sort of game of life; to do such a thing as this because
-you have met with a loss which thousands of men have to bear, and work
-on just as usual notwithstanding! Impossible, my dear Wilmot; you are
-not in earnest--you have not considered the thing!"
-
-Thus emphatically spoke Mr. Foljambe to Chudleigh Wilmot, all the more
-emphatically because his friend's resolution had astonished as much as
-it had displeased and disquieted him. Mr. Foljambe had never looked
-upon Wilmot at all in the light of a particularly devoted husband; and
-when he alluded to the loss of a wife being one which he had to bear
-in common with many other sufferers, he had done so with a shrewd
-conviction that Wilmot must be trusted to find all the fortitude
-necessary for the occasion.
-
-Mr. Foljambe, of Portland-place, was a very rich and influential
-banker; gouty enough to bear out the tradition of his wealth, and
-courteous and wise enough to do credit to his calling. He was not
-describable as a City man, however, but was, on the contrary, a
-pleasure and fashion-loving old gentleman, who was perfectly versed in
-the ways of society, _au courant_ of all the gossip of "town," very
-popular in the gayest and in the most select circles, an authority
-upon horses, though he never rode, learned in wines, though he
-consumed them in great moderation, believed not to possess a relative
-in the world, and more attached to Chudleigh Wilmot than to any human
-being alive, at his present and advanced period of existence. The old
-gentleman and Chudleigh Wilmot's father had been chums in boyhood and
-friends in manhood; and the friendship he felt for the younger man was
-somewhat hereditary, though Wilmot's qualities were precisely of a
-nature to have won Mr. Foljambe's regard on their own merits. He had
-watched Wilmot's course with the utmost interest, pride, and pleasure.
-His unflagging industry, his determined energy commanded his sympathy;
-and he anticipated a triumphant career of professional success and
-renown for his favourite. The intelligence that he had determined, if
-not to relinquish, at least to suspend his professional labours, gave
-the kind old gentleman sincere concern. He did not understand it, he
-repeated over and over again; he could not make it out; it was not
-like Wilmot. Of course he could not say distinctly to him that he had
-never supposed his wife to be so dear to him that her death must needs
-revolutionise his life. But if he did not say this, Wilmot discerned
-it in his manner; but still he offered no explanation. He could not
-remain in England; he must go. His health, his mind would give way, if
-he did not get away into another scene, into new associations. All
-remonstrance, all argument proved unavailing; and when Wilmot bade his
-old friend farewell, he left him half angry and half mistrustful, as
-well as altogether depressed and sorrowful.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XIV.
-His Grateful Patient.
-
-
-She has destroyed herself! That was the keynote to all his thoughts.
-Destroyed herself, made away with herself! Destroyed herself! He was
-not much of a reading man--had not time for it in all his occupations;
-but what were those two lines which would keep surging up into his
-beating brain, and from time to time finding expression on his
-trembling tongue--
-
-
- "Rashly importunate,
- Gone to her death!"
-
-
-Gone to her death! He repeated the words a thousand times. Dead now;
-gone to her last account, as Shakespeare says, "with all her
-imperfections on her head." Gone, without chance or power of recall;
-gone without a word of explanation between them, without a word of
-sympathy, without a word of forgiveness on either side. He had often
-pictured their parting, he dying, she dying, and had imagined the
-scene; how, whichever of them found life ebbing away, would say that
-they had misunderstood the other perhaps, and that perhaps life might
-have been made more to each, had they been more suitable; but that
-they had been faithful, and so on; and perhaps hereafter they might,
-&c. He had thought of this often; but the end had come now, and his
-ideas had not been realised. There had been no parting, no mutual
-forgiveness, no last words of tenderness and hope. He had not been
-there to soothe her dying hour; to tell her how he acknowledged all
-her goodness, and how, though perhaps he had not made much outward
-manifestation, he had always thoroughly appreciated the discharge of
-her wifely duties to him. He had not been present to have one
-whispered explanation of how each had misunderstood the other, and how
-both had been in the wrong; to share in one common prayer for
-forgiveness, and one common hope of future meeting. There had been no
-explanation, no forgiveness; he had parted from her almost as he might
-from any everyday acquaintance; he had written to her such a letter as
-he might have written to Whittaker, who had taken his practice
-temporarily; and now he returned to find her dead! Worse than dead!
-Dead probably by her own act, by her own hand!
-
-Stay! He was losing his head now; his pulse was at fever-heat, his
-skin dry and hot. Why had this terrible supposition taken such fast
-hold upon him? There was the evidence of the ring and of the leaden
-seal. Certainly practical evidence; but the motive--where was the
-motive? Suppose now--and a horrible shudder ran through him as the
-supposition crossed his mind--suppose now that this had become a
-matter for legal inquiry? suppose--Heaven knows how--suppose that the
-servants had suspected, and had talked, and--and the law had
-interfered--what motive would have been put forward for Mabel's
-self-destruction? He and she had never had a word of contention since
-their marriage; no one could prove that there had ever been the
-smallest disagreement between them; her home had been such as befitted
-her station; no word could be breathed against her husband's
-character; and yet--
-
-
- "Anywhere, anywhere,
- Out of the world!"
-
-
-that was another couplet from the same poem that was fixed in his
-brain, and that he found himself constantly quoting, when he was
-trying to assign reasons for his wife's suicide. Was Henrietta
-Prendergast right, after all? Had his whole married life been a
-mistake, a Dead-Sea apple without even the gorgeous external, a hollow
-sham, a delusion, and a mockery culminating in the semblance of a
-crime? "Anywhere out of the world," eh? And "out of the world" had
-meant at first, in the early days, when the first faint dawnings of
-discontent rose in her mind,--then "anywhere out of the world" was a
-poor dejected cry of repining at her want of power to influence her
-husband, to make herself the successful rival of his profession, to
-wean him from the constant pursuit of science to the exclusion of all
-domestic bliss, and to render him her companion and her lover. But if
-Henrietta Prendergast were right, that must have been a mere fancy,
-which, compared to the wild despair that prompted the heart-broken
-shriek of "anywhere out of the world" at the last, and which,
-according to that authority, meant--anywhere for rest and peace and
-quiet, anywhere where I may stifle the love which I bear him, may be
-no longer a fetter and a clog to him, and might have to suffer the
-knowledge that though bound to me, he loves Madeleine Kilsyth.
-
-He loves Madeleine Kilsyth! As the thought rose in his mind, he found
-himself audibly repeating the sentence. His dead wife thought that;
-and in that thought found life insupportable to her, and destroyed
-herself! His dead wife! Straightway his thoughts flew back through a
-series of years, and he saw himself first married,--young, earnest,
-and striving. Not in love with his wife--that he never had been, he
-reflected with something like self-excuse--not in love with Mabel, but
-actually proud of her. When he first commenced his connection, and
-earned the gratitude of the great railway contractor's wife at
-Clapham, and that great dame, who was the ruling star in her own
-circle, intimated her intention of calling on Mrs. Wilmot, Wilmot
-remembered how he had thanked his stars that while some of his
-fellow-students had married barmaids of London taverns, or awkward
-hoydens from their provincial pasture, he had had the good luck to
-espouse a girl than whom the great Mrs. Sleepers herself was not more
-thoroughly presentable, more perfectly well-mannered. He recollected
-the first interview at his little, modest, badly-furnished house, with
-the dingy maid-servant decorated with one of Mabel's cast-off gowns
-(not cast off until every scrap of bloom had been ruthlessly worn off
-it), and the arrival of the great lady in her banging, swinging
-barouche, with her tawdry ill-got-up footman, and her evident
-astonishment at the way in which everything was made the most of, and
-at the taste which characterised the rooms, and her open-mouthed wonder
-at Mabel herself, in her turned black-silk dress and her neat linen
-cuffs and collar, and her impossibility to patronise, and her
-declaration delivered to him the next day, that his wife was "the
-nicest little woman in the world, and a real lady!"
-
-Out of the gloom of long-since vanished days came a thousand little
-reminiscences, each "garlanded with its peculiar flower," each
-touchingly remindful of something pleasant connected with the dead
-woman whom he had lost. Long dreary nights which he had passed in
-reading and working, and which she had spent in vaguely wondering what
-was to be the purport and result of all his labour. No sympathy! that
-had been his cry! Good God!--as though he had not been demented in
-fancying that a young woman could have had sympathy with his dry
-studies, his physiological experiments. No sympathy! what sympathy had
-he shown to her? The mere physical struggle in the race, the hope of
-winning, the dawning of success, had irradiated his life, had softened
-the stony path, and pushed aside the briers, and tempered the
-difficulties in his career; but how had she benefited? In sharing
-them? But had he permitted her to share them? had he ever made her a
-portion of himself? had he not laughed aside the notion of her
-entering into the vital affairs of his career, and told her that any
-assistance from her was an impossibility? That she was self-contained
-and unsympathetic, he had said to himself a thousand times. Now, for
-the first time, he asked himself who had made her so;--and the answer
-was anything but consoling to him in his then desolate frame of mind.
-
-These thoughts were constantly present to him; he found it impossible
-to shake them off; in the few minutes' interval between the exit of
-one patient and the entrance of another, in his driving from house to
-house, his mind instantly gave up the case with which it had recently
-been occupied, and turned back to the dead woman. He would sit,
-apparently looking vacantly before him, but in reality trying to
-recall the looks, words, ways of his dead wife. He tried--O, how
-hard!--to recall one look of content, of happiness, of thorough trust
-and love; but he tried in vain. A general expression of quiet
-suffering, which had become calm through continuance, varied by an
-occasional glance of querulous impatience when he might have been
-betrayed into dilating on the importance of some case in which
-he happened to be engaged and the interest with which it filled
-him,--these were his only recollections of Mabel's looks. Nor did his
-remembrance of her words and ways afford him any more comfort. True
-she had never said, certainly had never said to him, that her life was
-anything but a happy one; but she had looked it often. Even he felt
-that now, reading her looks by the light of memory, and wondered that
-the truth had never struck him at the time. He remembered how he would
-look up off his work and see her, her hands lying listlessly in her
-lap, her eyes staring vacantly before, so entranced, so rapt in her
-own thoughts, that she would start violently when he spoke to her. She
-always had the same answer for his questions at those times. What
-was the matter with her? Nothing! What should be the matter with
-her?--What was she thinking of? Nothing, at least nothing that could
-possibly interest him. Did her presence there annoy him, because she
-would go away willingly if it did? And the voice in which this was
-said--the cold, hard, dry, unsympathising voice! Good God! if he had
-not been sufficiently mindful of her, if he had not bestowed such
-attention and affection as is due from a husband to his wife, surely
-there was some small excuse for him in the manner in which his clumsy
-approaches had been received!
-
-At times he felt a wild inexplicable desire to have her back again
-with him, and fell into a long train of thought as to what he should
-do supposing all the events of the past three months were to turn out
-to have been a dream--as indeed he often fancied they would; and on
-his return he were to go up into the drawing-room, whither he had
-never penetrated since his return, and were to find Mabel sitting
-there, prim and orderly, among the prim and orderly furniture. Should
-he alter his method of life, and endeavour to make it more acceptable
-to her? How was it to be done? It would be impossible for him now to
-give up his confirmed ways; impossible for him to give up his reading
-and his work, and fritter away his evenings in taking his wife to the
-gaieties to which they were invited. Perkins might do that--did it,
-and found it answer; but the profession knew that Perkins was a
-charlatan, and he--What wild nonsense was he thinking of? It was
-done--it was over; he should never find his wife waiting for him again
-when he returned: she was dead; she had destroyed herself!
-
-As this horrible thought burst upon him again with tenfold its
-original horror, he buried his face in his hands, and bowed his head
-upon the writing table in front of him in an agony of despair. He
-could bear it no longer; it was driving him mad. If he only knew--and
-yet he dared not inquire more closely; the presumptive evidence was
-horribly strong, was thoroughly sufficient to rob him of his peace of
-mind, of his clearness of intellect. Then the terrible consequences of
-the discovery, the awful duty which it imposed upon him, flashed upon
-his labouring consciousness. He dared not inquire more closely? No,
-not he. As a physician, he knew perfectly well what the result of any
-such inquiry would be. He knew perfectly well that in any other case,
-where he was merely professionally and not personally interested, his
-first idea for the solution of such doubts as then oppressed him, had
-they existed in anyone else, would have been to suggest the exhumation
-of the body, and its rigid examination. He knew perfectly well that,
-harbouring such doubts as were then racking and torturing his
-distracted mind, it was clearly his duty to insist on such steps being
-taken. He was no squeamish woman, no nervous man, to be alarmed at the
-sight of death's dread handiwork; that was familiar to him from
-constant experience, from old hospital custom, from his education and
-his studies. Should this dread idea of Mabel's self-destruction, now
-ever haunting him, ever present to his mind--should it cross the
-thoughts of anyone else, would not the necessity for exhumation be the
-first notion that would present itself? Suppose he were to suggest it?
-Suppose he were to profess himself dissatisfied with the accounts of
-Mabel's illness given him by Whittaker, and were to insist upon
-positive proof, professionally satisfactory to him, of his wife's
-disease? Of course he would make a deadly enemy of Whittaker; but that
-he thought but little of: his name stood high enough to bear any slur
-that might be thrown upon it from that quarter, and his reputation
-would stand higher than ever from the mere fact of his boldly
-determining to face a disagreeable inquiry, rather than allow such a
-case to be slurred over. And the inquiry made, and Whittaker's
-statement proved to be generally correct, at best it would be thought
-that Dr. Wilmot was somewhat morbidly anxious as to the cause of his
-wife's death; an anxiety which would be anything but prejudicial to
-him in the minds of many of his friends, while the relief to his own
-overcharged mind would be immediate and complete. Relief! Ah, once
-more to feel relief would be worth all the responsibility. He would
-see about it at once; he would give the necessary information,
-and--But suppose the result did not turn out as he would hope to see
-it? suppose all the information given, the coroner's warrant obtained,
-the exhumation made, the examination complete, and the result--that
-Mabel had destroyed herself? The first step taken in such a matter
-would be an immediate challenge to public attention; the press would
-bear the whole matter broadcast on its wings; Dr. Wilmot and his
-domestic affairs would become a subject for gossip throughout the
-land; and if it proved that Mabel had destroyed herself, her memory
-would, at his instance, remain ever crime-tainted. Even if the best
-happened; if Whittaker's judgment were indorsed, would not people ask
-whether it was not odd that a suspicion of foul play should have
-crossed the husband's mind, whether Mrs. Wilmot in her lifetime may
-not have used such a threat; and if so, might not the circumstances
-which led to the supposed use of the threat be inquired into, the
-motives questioned, the home-life discussed? Hour after hour he
-revolved this in his mind, purposeless, wavering. Finally he decided
-that he would leave matters as they were, saying to himself that such
-a course was merely justice to his dead wife, on whose memory, were
-she guilty of self-slaughter, he should be the last to bring obloquy,
-or even suspicion. He felt more comfortable after having come to this
-decision--more comfortable in persuading himself that he was guided by
-a tender feeling towards the dead woman. He said "Poor Mabel!" to
-himself several times in thinking over it, and shook his head
-dolefully; and actually felt that if she had been prompted by his
-neglect to take this step, his omitting to call public attention to it
-was in itself some _amende_ for his neglect. But even to himself he
-would not allow this soul-guiding influence in the matter. He blinked
-it, and shut his eyes to it; refused to listen to it, and--was led by
-it all the same. Chudleigh Wilmot tried to persuade himself, did
-persuade himself that he was acting solely in deference to his dead
-wife's memory; but what really influenced his conduct was the
-knowledge that the arousal of the smallest suspicion as to the cause
-of his wife's death, the smallest scandal about himself, would
-inevitably separate him hopelessly, and for ever, from Madeleine
-Kilsyth. The great question as to whether Mabel had destroyed herself
-still remained unanswered. He was powerless to shake off the
-impression, and under the impression he was useless; he could do
-justice neither to himself nor his patients. He must get away; give up
-practice at least for a time, and go abroad; go somewhere where he
-knew no one, and where he himself was quite unknown--somewhere where
-he could have rest and quiet and surcease of brainwork; where he could
-face this dreadful incubus, and either get rid of it, or school
-himself to bear it without its present dire effect on his life.
-
-He would do that, and do it at once. The death of his wife would
-afford him sufficient excuse to the world, which knew him as a highly
-nervous and easily impressible man, and which would readily understand
-that he had been shattered by the suddenness of the blow. As to his
-practice, he was well content to give that up for a short time: he
-knew his own value without being in the least conceited--knew that he
-could pick it up again just where he left it, and that his patients
-would be only too glad to see him. He had felt that when he was at
-Kilsyth.
-
-At Kilsyth! The word jarred upon him at once. To give up his practice
-even for a time meant a temporary estrangement from Madeleine; meant a
-shutting out, so far as he was concerned, of sun and warmth and light
-and life, at the very time when his way was darkest and his path most
-beset. His mind had been so fully occupied since his return, that he
-had only been able to give a few fleeting thoughts to Madeleine. He
-felt a kind of horror at permitting her even in his thoughts to be
-connected with the dreadful subject which filled them. But now when
-the question of departure was being considered by him, he naturally
-turned to Madeleine.
-
-To leave London now would be to throw away for ever his chance with
-Madeleine Kilsyth. His chance with her? Yes, his chance of winning
-her! He was a free man now--free to take his place among her suitors,
-and try his chance of winning her for himself. How wonderful that
-seemed to him, to be unfettered, to be free to woo where he liked! Last
-time he had drifted into marriage carelessly and without purpose--it
-should be very different the next time. But to leave London now
-would be throwing away for ever his chance with Madeleine. He knew
-that; he knew that he had established a claim of gratitude on the
-family, which Kilsyth himself, at all events, would gladly allow, and
-which Lady Muriel would probably not be prepared to deny. As for
-Madeleine herself, he knew that she was deeply grateful to him, and
-thoroughly disposed to confide in him. This was all he had dared to
-hope hitherto; but now he was in a position to try and awaken a warmer
-feeling. Gratitude was not a bad basis to begin on, and he hoped, he
-did not know it was so long since the days of Maria Strutt--and
-thinking it over, he looked blankly in the glass at the crows'-feet
-round his eyes and the streaks of silver in his dark hair; but he
-thought then that he had the art of pleasing women, unfortunate as was
-the result of that particular case. But if he were to go away, the
-advantageous position he had so luckily gained would be lost, the
-ground would be cut away from under his feet, and on his return he
-would have great difficulty in being received on a footing of intimacy
-by the family; while it would probably be impossible for him to regain
-the confidence and esteem he then enjoyed from all of them.
-
-Was, then, Madeleine Kilsyth a necessary ingredient in his future
-happiness? That was a new subject for consideration. Hitherto, while
-that--that barrier existed, he had looked upon the whole affair merely
-as a strange sort of romance, in which ideas and feelings of which he
-had never had much experience, and that experience long ago, had
-suddenly revived within him. Pleasantly enough; for it was pleasant to
-know that his heart had not yet been enough trodden down and hardened
-by the years which had gone over it to prevent it receiving seed and
-bearing fruit;--pleasantly enough; for an exchange of the stern
-reality of his work, a dry world with the bevy of cares which are
-ready waiting for you as you emerge from your morning's tub, and which
-only disappear--to change into nightmares--as you extinguish your
-bedroom gas--an exchange of this for a little of that glamour of love
-which he thought never to meet with again, could not fail to be
-pleasant. But the affair was altered now; the occurrence which had
-made him free had at the same time rendered it necessary that he
-should use his freedom to a certain end. Under former circumstances he
-could have been frequently in Madeleine's company,--happy as he never
-had been save when with her,--and the world would have asked no
-question, have lifted no eyebrow, have shrugged no shoulder. Dr.
-Wilmot was a married man, and his professional position warranted his
-visiting Miss Kilsyth, who was his patient, as often as he thought
-necessary. But now it was a very different matter. Here was a
-man, still young, at least quite young enough to marry again; and
-if it were said, as it would be, that he was "constantly at the
-house," people---those confounded anonymous persons, the on who do
-such an enormous amount of mischief in the world--would begin to talk
-and whisper and hint; and the girl's name might be compromised through
-him, and that would never do.
-
-Did he love her? did he want to marry her? As he asked himself the
-question, his thoughts wandered back to Kilsyth. He saw her lying
-flushed and fevered, her long golden hair tossing over her pillow, a
-bright light in her blue eyes, her hot hands clasped behind her
-burning head--or, better still, in her convalescence, when she lay
-still and tranquil, and looked up at him timidly and softly, and
-thanked him in the fullest and most liquid tones for all his kindness
-to her. And he remembered how, gazing at her, listening to her, the
-remembrance of what Love really was had come to him out of the faraway
-regions of the Past, and had moved his heart within him in the same
-manner, but much more potently than it had been moved in the days of
-his youth. Yes; the question that he had put to himself admitted but
-of one answer. He did love Madeleine Kilsyth; he did want to marry
-her! To that end he would employ all his energies; to secure that he
-would defer everything. What nonsense had he been talking about giving
-up his practice and going away? He would remain where he was, and
-marry Madeleine!
-
-And Henrietta Prendergast? The thought of that woman struck him like a
-whip. If he were to marry Madeleine Kilsyth, would not that woman,
-Henrietta Prendergast, Mabel's intimate and only friend--would not she
-proclaim to the world all that she knew of the jealousy in which the
-dead woman held the young girl? Would not his marriage be a
-confirmation of her story? Might it not be possible that the existence
-of such a talk might create other talk; that the manner of her death
-might be discussed; that it might be suspected that, driven to it by
-jealousy--that is how they would put it--Mrs. Wilmot had destroyed
-herself? And if "they" put it so, it would be in vain to deny it. The
-mere fact of his having been successful in his profession had created
-hosts of enemies, who would take advantage of the first adverse wind,
-and do their best to blast his renown and bring him down from the
-pedestal to which he had been elevated. Then bit by bit the scandal
-would grow--would permeate his practice--would become general
-town-talk. He would see the whispers and the shoulder-shrugs and the
-uplifted eyebrows, and perhaps the cool manner or the possible cut.
-Could he stand that? Could a man of his sensibility endure such talk?
-could he bear to feel that his domesticity was being laid bare before
-the world for the comment of each idler who might choose to wile away
-his time in discussing the story? Impossible! No; sooner keep in his
-present dreary, hopeless, isolated position, sooner give up all
-chances of winning Madeleine, sooner even retrograde. He had no
-children to provide for, and could always have enough to support him
-in a sufficient manner. He would give it all up; he would go away; he
-would banish for ever that day-dream which he had permitted himself to
-enjoy, and he would--
-
-A letter was brought in by his servant--an oblong note, sealed with
-black wax, in an unfamiliar handwriting. He turned it over two or
-three times, then opened it, and read as follows:
-
-
-"_Brook-street, Thursday_.
-
-"DEAR DR. WILMOT,--We have heard with very great regret of your sad
-loss, and we all, Lady Muriel, papa, and myself, beg you to receive
-our sincere condolence. I know how difficult it is at such a time to
-attempt to offer consolation without an appearance of intrusion; but I
-think I may say that we are especially concerned for you, as it was
-your attendance on me which kept you from returning home at the time
-you had originally intended. I can assure you I have thought of this
-very often, and it has given me a great deal of uneasiness. Pray
-understand that we can none of us ever thank you sufficiently for your
-kindness to us at Kilsyth. With united kind regards, dear Dr. Wilmot,
-your grateful patient,
-
- "MADELEINE KILSYTH.
-
-"P.S. I have a rather troublesome cough, which worries me at night.
-You recollect telling me that you knew about this?"
-
-
-So the Kilsyths were in town. His grateful patient! He could fancy the
-half-smile on her lips as she traced the words. No; he would give up
-his notion of going away--at least for the present!
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XV.
-Family Relations.
-
-
-When the Kilsyths were in London, which, according to their general
-practice, was only from February until June, they lived in a big
-square house in Brook-street,--an old-fashioned house, with a
-multiplicity of rooms, necessary for their establishment, which
-demanded besides the ordinary number of what were known in the
-house-agent's catalogue as "reception rooms," a sitting-room for
-Kilsyth, where he could be quiet and uninterrupted by visitors, and
-read the _Times_, and Scrope's _Salmon Fishing_, and Colonel Hawker on
-_Shooting_, and _Cyril Thornton_, and Gleig's _Subaltern_, and
-Napier's _History of the Peninsular War_, and one or two other books
-which formed his library; where he could smoke his cigar, and pass in
-review his guns and his gaiters and his waterproofs, and hold colloquy
-with his man, Sandy MacCollop, as to what sport they had had the past
-year, and what they expected to have the next--without fear of
-interruption. This sanctuary of Kilsyth's lay far at the back of the
-house, at the end of a passage never penetrated by ordinary visitors,
-who indeed never inquired for the master of the house. Special guests
-were admitted there occasionally; and perhaps two or three times in
-the season there was a council-fire, to which some of the keenest
-sportsmen, who knew Kilsyth, and were about to visit it in the autumn,
-were admitted,--round which the smoke hung thick, and the conversation
-generally ran in monosyllables.
-
-Lady Muriel's boudoir--another of the extraneous rooms, which the
-house-agent's catalogue wotteth not of--led off the principal
-staircase through a narrow passage; and, so far as extravagance and
-good taste could combine in luxury, was the room of the house. When
-you are not an appraiser's apprentice, it is difficult to describe a
-room of this kind; it is best perhaps to follow little Lord
-Towcester's description, who, when the subject was being discussed at
-mess, offered to back Lady Muriel's room for good taste against any in
-London; and when asked to describe it, said,
-
-"Lots of flowers; lots of cushions; lots of soft things to sit down
-upon, and nice things to smell; and jolly books--to look at, don't you
-know: needn't say I haven't read any of 'em; and forty hundred clocks,
-with charming chimin' bells; and china monkeys, you know; and fellows
-with women's heads and no bodies, and that kind of thing; and those
-round tables, that are always sticking out their confounded third leg
-and tripping a fellow up. Most charmin' place, give you my word."
-
-Lord Towcester's description was not a bad one, though to the
-initiated in his peculiar phraseology it scarcely did justice to the
-room, which was in rose-coloured silk and walnut-wood; which had
-_étagères_, and what-nots, and all the frivolousness of upholstery,
-covered with all the most expensive and useless china; which opened
-into a little conservatory, always full of sweet-smelling plants, and
-where a little fountain played, and little gold-fish swam, and the
-gas-jets were cunningly hidden behind swinging baskets on pendent
-branches. There was a lovely little desk in one corner of the room,
-with a paper-stand on it always full of note-paper and envelopes
-radiant with Lady Muriel's cipher and monogram worked in all kinds of
-expensive ways, and with a series of drawers, which were full of
-letters and sketches and albums, and were always innocently open to
-everybody; and one drawer, which was not open to everybody,--which was
-closed indeed by a patent Bramah lock, and which, had it been
-inspected, would have been found to contain a lock of Stewart Caird's
-hair (cut from his head after death), a packet of letters from him of
-the most trivial character, and a copy of Owen Meredith's _Wanderer_,
-which Lady Muriel had been reading at the time of her first and only
-passion, and in which all the passages that she considered were
-applicable to or bearing on her own situation were thickly
-pencil-scored. But it never was inspected, that drawer, and was
-understood by any who had ever had the hardihood to inquire about it,
-to contain household accounts. Lady Muriel Kilsyth in connection with
-a lock of a dead man's hair, a bundle of a dead man's letters, a
-pencil-marked copy of a sentimental poet! The idea was too absurd. Ah,
-how extraordinarily wise the world is, and in what a wonderful manner
-our power of reading character has developed!
-
-Madeleine's rooms--by her stepmother's grace she had two, a
-sitting-room and a bedroom--are upstairs. Small rooms, but very
-pretty, and arranged with all the simple taste of a well-bred,
-right-thinking girl. Her hanging book-shelves are well filled with
-their row of poets, their row of "useful" works, their _Thomas à
-Kempis_, their Longfellow's _Hyperion_, their _Pilgrim's Progress_,
-their _Scenes of Clerical Life_--with all the Amos Barton bits
-dreadfully underscored--their _Christmas Carol_, and their _Esmond_.
-The neat little writing-table, with its gilt mortar inkstand, and its
-pretty costly nicknacks--birthday presents from her fond father--stood
-in the window; and above it hung the cage of her pet canary. There
-were but few pictures on the walls: a water-colour drawing of Kilsyth,
-bad enough, with impossible perspective, and a very coppery sunset
-over very spotty blue hills, but dear to the girl as the work of the
-mother whom she had scarcely known; a portrait of her father in his
-youth, showing how gently time had dealt with the brave old
-boy; a print from Grant's portrait of Lady Muriel; and a photograph
-of Ronald in his uniform, looking very grim and stern and
-Puritan-like. There is a small cottage-piano too, and a well-filled
-music-stand,--well-filled, that is to say, according to its owner's
-ideas, but calculated to fill the souls of musical enthusiasts with
-horror or pity; for there is very little of the severe and the
-classical about Madeleine even in her musical tastes: Gluck's _Orfeo_,
-some of Mendelssohn's _Lieder ohne Worte_, and a few selections from
-Mozart, quite satisfied her; and the rest of the music-stand was
-filled with Bellini, Donizetti, Rossini, and Verdi, English ballads,
-and even dance music. Upon all the room was the impress and evidence
-of womanly taste and neatness; nothing was prim, but everything was
-properly arranged; above all, neither in books, pictures, music, nor
-on the dressing-table or in the wardrobe in the bedroom, was there the
-smallest sign of fastness or slanginess, that almost omnipresent
-drawback to the charms of the young ladies of the present day.
-
-Nigh to Madeleine's rooms was a big airy chamber with a shower-bath,
-an iron bedstead, a painted chest of drawers, and a couple of common
-chairs, for its sole furniture. This was the room devoted to Captain
-Kilsyth whenever he stayed with his relatives, and had been furnished
-according to his exact injunctions. It was like Roland himself, grim
-and stern, and was regarded as a kind of Blue Chamber of Horrors by
-Lady Muriel's little children, who used to hurry past its door, and
-accredited it as a perfect stronghold of bogies. This feeling was but
-a reflection of that with which the little girls Ethel and Maud
-regarded their elder brother. His visits to their schoolroom,
-periodically made, were always looked forward to with intense fright
-both by them and by their governess Miss Blathers--a worthy woman,
-untouchable in Mangnall, devoted to the backboard, with a fair
-proficiency in music and French, but with an unconquerable tendency
-towards sentimentality of the most snivelling kind. Miss Blathers'
-sentiment was of the G.P.R. James's school; she was always on the
-look-out for that knight who was to come and deliver her from the
-bonds of governesshood, who was to fling his arm over her, as Count
-Gismond flung his round Mr. Browning's anonymous heroine, and lead her
-off to some land, where Ollendorf was unknown, and Levizac had never
-been heard of. A thoroughly worthy creature, Miss Blathers, but
-horribly frightened of Ronald, who would come into the schoolroom,
-make his bow, pull his moustache, and go off at once into the
-questions, pulling his moustache a great deal more, and shrugging his
-shoulders at the answers he received.
-
-It was not often, however, that Ronald came to Brook-street, at all
-events for any length of time. When he was on duty, he was of course
-with his regiment in barracks; and when he had opportunities of
-devoting himself to his own peculiar studies and subjects, he
-generally took advantage of those opportunities with his own
-particular cronies. He would ride with Madeleine sometimes, in a
-morning, occasionally in the Row, but oftener for a long stretch round
-the pretty suburbs; and he would dine with his father now and then;
-and perhaps twice in the season would put in an appearance in Lady
-Muriel's opera-box, and once at a reception given by her. But, except
-perhaps by Madeleine, who always loved to see him, he was not much
-missed in Brook-street, where, indeed, plenty of people came.
-
-Plenty of people and of all kinds. Constituents up from Scotland on
-business, or friends of constituents with letters of introduction from
-their friends to Kilsyth; to whom also came old boys from the clubs,
-who had nothing else to do, and liked to smoke a morning cigar or
-drink a before-luncheon glass of sherry with the hospitable laird; old
-boys who never penetrated beyond the ground-floor, save perhaps on one
-night in the season, which Lady Muriel set apart for the reception of
-"the House" and "the House" wives and daughters, when they would make
-their way upstairs and cling round the lintels of the drawing-room,
-and obstruct all circulation, and eat a very good supper, and for
-three or four days afterwards wag their heads at each other in the
-bow-windows of Brookes's or Barnes's, and inform each other with great
-solemnity that Lady Muriel was a "day-vilish fine woman," and that
-"the thing had been doosid well done at Kilsyth's the other night,
-eh?" Other visitors, nominally to Kilsyth, but in reality after their
-reception by him relegated to Lady Muriel, keen-looking, clear-eyed,
-high-cheek-boned men, wonderfully "canny"-looking, thoroughly Scotch,
-only wanting the pinch of snuff between their fingers, and the kilt
-round their legs, to have fitted them for taking their station at the
-tobacconists' doors,--factors from different portions of the estate,
-whom Lady Muriel took in hand, and with them went carefully through
-every item of their accounts, leaving them marvellously impressed with
-her qualities as a woman of business.
-
-No very special visitors to Lady Muriel. Plenty of carriages with
-women, young and old, elegant and dowdy, aristocratic and plebeian, on
-the front seat, and the _Court Guide_ in all its majesty on the back.
-Plenty of raps, preposterous in their potency, delivered with unerring
-aim by ambrosial mercuries, who disengaged quite a cloud of powder in
-the operation; packs of cards, delivered like conjuring tricks into
-the hands of the hall-porter, over whose sleek head appeared a
-charming perspective of other serving-men; kind regards, tender
-inquiries, congratulations, condolence, P.P.C.'s, all the whole
-formula duly gone through between the ambrosial creatures who have
-descended from the monkey-board and the plethoric giant who has
-extricated himself from the leathern bee-hive--one of the principals
-in the mummery stolidly looking on from the carriage, the other
-sitting calmly upstairs, neither taking the smallest part, or caring
-the least about it. The lady visitors did not come in, as a rule, but
-the men did, almost without exception. The men arrived from half-past
-four till half-past six, and, during the season, came in great
-numbers. Why? Well, Lady Muriel was very pleasant, and Miss Kilsyth
-was "charmin', quite charmin'." They said this parrotwise; there are
-no such parrots as your modern young men; they repeat whatever they
-have learnt constantly but between their got-by-rote sentences they
-are fatally and mysteriously dumb.
-
-"Were you at the Duchess's last night, Lady Muriel?"
-
-"Yes! You were not there, I think?"
-
-"No; couldn't go--was on duty."
-
-_Pause. Dead silence. Five clocks ticking loudly and running races
-with each other_.
-
-"Yes, by the way, knew you were there."
-
-"Did you--who told you?"
-
-"Saw it in the paper, 'mongst the comp'ny, don't you know, and that
-kind of thing."
-
-_Awful pause. Clocks take up the running. Lady Muriel looks on the
-carpet. Visitor calmly scrutinises furniture round the room, at length
-he receives inspiration from lengthened contemplation of his
-hat-lining_.
-
-"Seen Clement Penruddock lately?"
-
-"Yes, he was here on--when was it?--quite lately--O, the day before
-yesterday."
-
-"Poor old Clem! Going to marry Lady Violet Dumanoir, they say. Pity
-Lady Vi don't leave off putting that stuff on her face and shoulders,
-isn't it?"
-
-"How ridiculous you are!"
-
-"No, but really! she does!"
-
-"How can you be so silly!"
-
-_Grand and final pause of ten minutes, broken by the visitor's saying
-quietly_, "Well, good-bye," _and lounging off to repeat the
-invigorating conversation elsewhere_.
-
-Who? Youth of all kinds. The junior portion of the Household Brigade,
-horse and foot, solemn plungers and dapper little guardsmen; youth
-from the Whitehall offices, specially diplomatic and erudite, and
-disposed to chaff the military as ignorant of most things, and
-specially of spelling; idlers _purs et simples_, who had been last
-year in Norway, and would be the next in Canada, and who suffered
-socially from their perpetual motion, never being able to retain the
-good graces which they had gained or to recover those they had lost;
-foreign _attachés_; junior representatives of the plutocracy, who went
-into society into which their fathers might never have dreamed of
-penetrating, but who found the "almighty dollar," or its equivalent,
-when judiciously used, have all the open-sesame power; an occasional
-Scotch connection on a passing visit to London, and--Mrs. M'Diarmid.
-
-Who was Mrs. M'Diarmid? That was the first question everyone asked on
-their introduction to her; the second, on their revisiting the house
-where the introduction had taken place, being, "Where is Mrs.
-M'Diarmid?" Mrs. M'Diarmid was originally Miss Whiffin, daughter of
-Mrs. Whiffin of Salisbury-street in the Strand, who let lodgings, and
-in whose parlours George M'Diarmid, second cousin to the present
-Kilsyth, lived when he first came to London, and enrolled himself as a
-student in the Inner Temple. A pleasant fellow George M'Diarmid, with
-a taste for pleasure, and very little money, and an impossibility to
-keep out of debt. A good-looking fellow, with a bright blue eye, and
-big red whiskers (beards were not in fashion then, or George would
-have grown a very Birnam-Wood of hair), and broad shoulders, and a
-genial jovial manner with "the sex." Deep into Mrs. Whiffin's books
-went George, and simultaneously deep into her daughter's heart; and
-finally, when Kilsyth had done his best for his scapegrace kinsman,
-and could do no more, and nobody else would do anything, George wiped
-off his score by marrying Miss Whiffin, and, as she expressed it to
-her select circle of friends, "making a lady of her." It was out of
-his power to do that. Nothing on earth would have made Hannah Whiffin
-a lady, any more than anything on earth could have destroyed her
-kindness of heart, her devotion to her husband, her hard-working,
-honest striving to do her duty as his wife. Kilsyth would not have
-been the large-souled glorious fellow that he was if he had failed
-to see this, or seeing, had failed to appreciate and recognise it.
-George M'Diarmid hemmed and hawed when told to bring his wife to
-Brook-street, and blushed and stuttered when he brought her; but
-Kilsyth and Lady Muriel set the poor shy little woman at her ease in
-an instant, and seeing all her good qualities, remained her kind and
-true friends. After two years or so George M'Diarmid died in his
-wife's arms, blessing and thanking her; and after his death, to the
-astonishment of all who knew anything about it, his widow was as
-constant a visitor to Brook-street as ever. Why? No one could exactly
-tell, save that she was a shrewd, clever woman, with an extraordinary
-amount of real affection for every member of the family. There was no
-mistake about that. She had been tried in times of sickness and of
-trouble, and had always come out splendidly. A vulgar old lady, with
-curious blunt manners and odd phrases of speech, which had at first
-been dreadfully trying; but by degrees the regular visitors to the
-house began to comprehend her, to make allowance for her _gaucheries_
-and her quaint sayings--in fact to take the greatest delight in them.
-So Mrs. M'Diarmid was constantly in Brook-street; and the frequenters
-of the five-o'clock tea-table professed to be personally hurt if she
-absented herself.
-
-A shrewd little woman too, with a special care for Madeleine; with a
-queer old-world notion that she, being herself childless, should look
-after the motherless girl. For Lady Muriel Mrs. M'Diarmid had the
-highest respect; but Lady Muriel had children of her own, and,
-naturally enough, was concerned about, or as Mrs. M'Diarmid expressed
-it, "wropped up" in them, and Madeleine had no one to protect and
-guide her--poor soul! So this worthy little old woman devoted herself
-to the motherless girl, and watched over her with duenna-like care and
-almost maternal fidelity.
-
-Five o'clock in the evening, two days after Wilmot had received
-Madeleine's little note; the shutters were shut in Lady Muriel's
-boudoir, the curtains were drawn, a bright fire burned on the hearth,
-and the tea-equipage was ready set on the little round table close by
-the hostess. Not many people there. Not Kilsyth, of course, who was
-reading the evening papers and chatting at Brookes's,--not Ronald, who
-scarcely ever showed at that time. Madeleine, looking very lovely in a
-tight-fitting high violet-velvet dress, a thought pale still, but with
-her blue eyes bright, and her golden hair taken off her face, and
-gathered into a great knot at the back of her pretty little head. Near
-her, on an ottoman, Clement Penruddock, half-entranced at the
-appearance of his own red stockings, half in wondering why he does not
-go off to see Lady Violet Dumanoir, his _fiancée_. Clem is always
-wondering about this, and never seems to arrive at a satisfactory
-result. Next to him, and vainly endeavouring to think of something to
-say, the Hon. Robert Brettles, familiarly known as "Bristles," from
-the eccentric state of his hair, who is supposed to be madly in love
-with Madeleine Kilsyth, and who has never yet made greater approaches
-in conversation with her than meteorological observations in regard to
-the weather, and blushing demands for her hand in the dance. By Lady
-Muriel, Lord Roderick Douglas, who still finds his nose too large for
-the rest of his face, and strokes it thoughtfully in the palm of his
-hand, as though he could thereby quietly reduce its dimensions. Frank
-Only, Sir Coke's eldest son, but recently gazetted to the Body Guards,
-an ingenuous youth, dressed more like a tailor's dummy than anything
-else, especially about his feet, which are very small and very shiny;
-and Tommy Toshington, who has dropped in on the chance of hearing
-something which, cleverly manipulated and well told at the club, may
-gain him a dinner. In the immediate background sits Mrs. M'Diarmid,
-knitting.
-
-Lady Muriel has poured out the tea; the gentlemen have handed the
-ladies their cups, and are taking their own; and the usual blank
-dulness has fallen on the company. Nobody says a word for full three
-minutes, when the silence is broken by Tommy Toshington, who begins to
-find his visit unremunerative, as hitherto he has not gleaned one atom
-of gossip. So he asks Lady Muriel whether she has seen anything of
-Colonel Jefferson.
-
-"No, indeed," Lady Muriel replies; "Colonel Jefferson has not been to
-see us since our return."
-
-"Didn't know you were in town, perhaps," suggests the peace-loving
-Tommy.
-
-"Must know that, Toshington," says Lord Roderick Douglas, who has no
-great love for Charley Jefferson, associating that stern commander
-with various causes of heavy field-days and refusals of leave.
-
-"I don't see that," says Tommy, who has never been Lord Roderick's
-guest at mess or anywhere else, and who does not see a chance of
-hospitality in that quarter; consequently is by no means reticent,--"I
-don't see that; how was he to know it?"
-
-"Same way that everybody else did--through the _Post_."
-
-"Tommy can't read it," said Clement Penruddock; "they didn't teach
-spellin' ever so long ago, when Tommy was a boy."
-
-"They taught manners," growled Tommy, "at all events; but they seem to
-have given that up."
-
-"Charley Jefferson isn't in town," said "Bristles," cutting in
-quickly to stop the discussion; "he's down at Torquay. Had a letter
-from him yesterday, my lady; last man in the world, Charley, to be
-rude--specially to you or Miss Kilsyth."
-
-"I am sure of that, Mr. Brettles," said Lady Muriel; "I fancied
-Colonel Jefferson must be away, or we should have seen him."
-
-"People go away most strangelike," observed Mrs. M'Diarmid from the
-far distance. "The facilities of the road, the river, and the rail, as
-I've seen it somewhere expressed, is such, that one's here today, Lord
-bless you, and next week in the Sydney Isles or thereabouts." By "the
-Sydney Isles or thereabouts."
-
-Mrs. M'Diarmid's friends had by long experience ascertained that she
-meant Australia.
-
-"Scarcely so far as that in so short a time, Aunt Hannah," said
-Madeleine with a smile.
-
-"Well, my dear, far enough to fare worse, as the expression is. I
-don't hold with such wanderings, thinking home to be home, be it ever
-so homely."
-
-"You would not like to go far away yourself, would you, Mrs.
-M'Diarmid?" asked Lord Roderick.
-
-"Not I, my lord; Regent-street for me is quite very, and beyond that I
-have no inspiration."
-
-"You've never been able to get Mrs. M'Diarmid even so far as Kilsyth,
-have you, Lady Muriel?" said Clement.
-
-"No; she has always refused to come to us. I think she imagines we're
-utter barbarians at Kilsyth."
-
-"Not at all, my dear, not at all," said the old lady; "but everybody
-has their fancies, and knows what they can do, and where they're
-useful; and fancy me at my time of life tossing my cabers, or doing my
-Tullochgorums, or whatever they're called, between two crossed swords
-on the top of a mountain! Scarcely respectable, I think."
-
-"You're quite right, Mrs. Mac, and I honour your sentiments," said
-Clem with a half-grin.
-
-"Not but that I would have gone through all that and a good deal more,
-my darling," said the old lady, putting down her work, crossing the
-room, and taking Madeleine's pale face between her own fat little
-hands, "to have been with you in your illness, and to have nursed you.
-Duchesses indeed!" cried Mrs. Mac, with a sniff of defiance at the
-remembrance of the Northallerton defection--"I'd have duchessed 'em,
-if I'd had my way!"
-
-"You would have been the dearest and best nurse in the world, I know,
-Aunt Hannah," said Madeleine; then added, with a half sigh, "though I
-could not have been better attended to than I was, I think."
-
-Lady Muriel marked the half sigh instantly, and looked across at her
-stepdaughter. Reassured at the perfect calm of Madeleine's face, on
-which there was no blush, no tremor, she said, "You wrote that note,
-Madeleine, according to your father's wish?"
-
-"Two days ago, mamma."
-
-"Two days ago! I should have thought that--"
-
-"Perhaps he is very much engaged, mamma, and knew that there was no
-pressing need of his services. Dr. Wilmot told me that--" and the girl
-hesitated, and stopped.
-
-"Is that Dr. Wilmot of Charles-street, close by the Junior? Are you
-talking of him?" said Penruddock. "Doosid clever feller they say he
-is. He's been attending my cousin Cranbrook--you know him, Lady
-Muriel; been awfully bad poor Cranbrook has; head shaved, and holloing
-out, and all that kind of thing--frightful; and this doctor has pulled
-him through like a bird--splendidly, by Jove!"
-
-"He drives an awful pair of screws," said "Bristles," who was horsey
-in his tastes; "saw 'em standing at Cranbrook's door. To look at
-'em, you wouldn't think they could drag that thundering big heavy
-brougham--C springs, don't you know, Clem?--and yet when they start
-they nip along stunningly."
-
-"Ah, those poor doctors!", said Mrs. M'Diarmid; "I often wonder how
-they live, for they take no exercise now all the streets are M'Adam
-and wood and all sorts of nonsense! When there was good sound stone
-pavement, one was bumped about in your carriage like riding a
-trotting-horse, and that was all the exercise the poor doctors got.
-Now they don't get that."
-
-"And Dr. Wilmot attended Lord Cranbrook, did he, Clem?" asked
-Madeleine softly, "and brought him safely through his illness. I'm
-glad of that; I'm glad--"
-
-"Dr. Wilmot, my lady!" said the groom of the chambers.
-
-"What a bore that doctor coming," said Clement Penruddock, looking
-round, "just as I was going to have a pleasant talk with Maddy!"
-
-"You leave Maddy alone," said Mrs. M'Diarmid with a grunt, "and go off
-to your financier!"
-
-"My financier, Aunt Hannah?" said Clem in astonishment; "I haven't
-one; I wish to Heaven I had."
-
-"Haven't one?" retorted the old lady. "Pray, what do you call Lady
-Vi?"
-
-And then Clement Penruddock understood that Mrs. M'Diarmid meant his
-_fiancée_.
-
-Dr. Wilmot and Madeleine went, at Lady Muriel's request, into the
-drawing-room.
-
-He was with her once again; looked in her eyes, heard her voice
-murmuring thanks to him for all his past kindness, touched her
-hand--no longer hot with fever, but tremblingly dropping into his--saw
-the sweet smile which had come upon her with the earliest dawn of
-convalescence. At the same time Wilmot remarked a faint flush on her
-cheek and a baleful light in her eyes, which recalled to him the
-discovery which he had made at Kilsyth, and which he had mentioned to
-her father. His diagnosis had been short then and hurried, but it had
-been true: the seeds of the disease were in her, and, unchecked, were
-likely to bear fatal fruit. Could he leave her thus? could he absent
-himself, bearing about with him the knowledge that she whom he loved
-better than anything on earth might derive benefit from his
-assistance--might indeed owe her life and her earthly salvation to his
-ministering care? He knew well enough that though her father had given
-him his thorough trust and confidence, his friendship and his warm
-gratitude, yet there were others about her who had no share in these
-feelings, by whom he was looked upon with doubt and suspicion, and who
-would be only too glad to relegate him to his position of the
-professional man who had fulfilled what was required of him, and had
-been discharged--not to be taken up again until another case of
-necessity arose. There was no doubt that his diagnosis had been
-correct, and that her life required constant watching, perpetual care.
-Well, should she not have it? Was not he then close at hand? Had his
-talent ever been engaged in a case in which he took so deep, so vital
-an interest? Had he not often given up his every thought, his day's
-study, his night's repose, for the mere professional excitement of
-battling the insidious advances of Disease--of checking him here, and
-counterchecking him there, and finally cutting off his supplies, and
-routing him utterly? and would he not do this in the present instance,
-where such an interest as he had never yet felt, such an inducement as
-had never yet been held out to him, urged him on to victory?
-
-Ah, yes; "his grateful patient" should have greater claims on his
-gratitude than she herself imagined. He had seen her safely through a
-comparatively trifling illness; he would be by her side in the
-struggle that threatened her life. Come what might, win or lose, he
-should be there, able, as he thought, to help her in danger, whatever
-might be the result to himself of his efforts.
-
-He has her hand in his now, and is looking into her eyes--momentarily
-only; for the soft blue orbs droop beneath his glance, and the bright
-red flush leaps into the pale cheek. Still he retains her hand, and
-asks her, in a voice which vainly strives to keep its professional
-tone, such professional questions as admit of the least professional
-putting. She replies in a low voice, when suddenly a shadow falls upon
-them standing together; and looking up, they see Ronald Kilsyth. Dr.
-Wilmot utters the intruder's name; Madeleine is silent.
-
-"Yes, Madeleine," says Ronald, addressing her as though she had
-spoken; "I have come to fetch you to Lady Muriel.--I was not aware,
-sir," he added, turning to Wilmot, "that you were any longer in
-attendance on this young lady. I thought that her illness was over,
-and that your services had been dispensed with."
-
-Constitutionally pale, Ronald now, under the influence of strong
-excitement, was almost livid; but he had not one whit more colour than
-Chudleigh Wilmot, as he replied: "You were right, Captain Kilsyth: my
-professional visits are at an end; it is as a friend that I am now
-visiting your sister."
-
-Ronald drew himself up as he said, "I have yet to learn, Dr. Wilmot,
-that you are on such terms with the family as to justify you in paying
-these friendly visits.--Madeleine, come with me."
-
-The girl hesitated for an instant; but Ronald placed her arm in his,
-and walked off with her to the door, leaving Chudleigh Wilmot
-immovable with astonishment and rage.
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVI.
-Giving up.
-
-
-Rage was quite a novel passion for Chudleigh Wilmot, and one which,
-like most new passions, obtained for the time complete mastery over
-him. In his previous career he had been so steeped in study, so
-overwhelmed by practice--had had every hour of his time so completely
-and unceasingly occupied, that he had had no leisure to get into a
-rage, even if he had had the slightest occasion. But the truth is, the
-occasion had been wanting also. During the time he had been at the
-hospital he had had various tricks played upon him,--such tricks as
-the idle always will play upon the industrious,--but he had not paid
-the least attention to them; and when the perpetrators of the
-practical jokes found they were disregarded, they turned the tide of
-their humour upon some one else less pachydermatous. Ever since then
-his life had flowed in an even stream, which never turned aside into a
-whirlpool of passion or a cataract of rage, but continued its calm
-course without the smallest check or shoal. In the old days, when
-driven nearly to madness by the calm way in which her husband took
-every event in life, undisturbed by public news or private worry,
-finding the be-all and the end-all of life in the prosecution of his
-studies, the correctness of his diagnoses, and the number of
-profitable visits daily entered up in his diary, Mabel Wilmot would
-have given anything if he had now and then broken out into a fit of
-rage, no matter for what cause, and thus cleared the dull heavy
-atmosphere of tranquil domesticity for ever impending over them. But
-he never did break out; and the atmosphere, as we have seen, was never
-cleared.
-
-But Chudleigh Wilmot was in a rage at last. By nature he was anything
-but a coward, was endowed with a keen sensitiveness, and scrupulously
-honourable. His abstraction, his studiousness, his simple unworldly
-ways--for there were few more unworldly men than the rising
-fashionable physician--all prevented his easily recognising that he
-was a butt for intentional ribaldry or insult; but when, as in this
-case, he did see it, it touched him to the quick. As a boy he could
-laugh at the practical jokes of his fellow-students; as a man he
-writhed under and rebelled against the first slight that since his
-manhood he had received. What was to be done? This young man, this
-Captain Kilsyth, her brother, had studiously and purposely insulted
-him, and insulted him before her. As this thought rushed through
-Wilmot's mind, as he stood as though rooted to the spot where they had
-left him in the drawing-room in Brook-street, his first feeling was to
-rush after Ronald and strike him to the ground as the penalty of his
-presumption. His fingers itched to do it, clenched themselves
-involuntarily, as his teeth set and his nostrils dilated
-involuntarily. What good would that do? None. Come of it what might,
-Madeleine's name would be mixed up with it, and--Ah, good God! he saw
-it all; saw the newspaper paragraph with the sensation-heading,
-"Fracas in private life between a gallant Officer and a distinguished
-Physician;" he saw the blanks and asterisks under which Madeleine's
-name would be concealed; he guessed the club scandal which--No, that
-would never do. He must give up all thoughts of avenging himself in
-that manner, for her sake. Better bear what he had borne, better bear
-slight and insult worse a thousandfold, than have her mixed up in a
-newspaper paragraph, or given over to the genial talk of society.
-
-He must bear it, put up with the insult, swallow his disgust, forego
-his revenge. There was not enough of the Christian element in
-Chudleigh Wilmot's composition to render this line of conduct at all
-palatable to him; but it was necessary, and should be pursued. He had
-gone through all this in his thought, and arrived at this
-determination before he moved from the drawing-room. Then he walked
-quietly down to Lady Muriel's boudoir, entered, chatted with her
-ladyship for five minutes on indifferent topics, and took his leave,
-perfectly cool without, raging hot within.
-
-As he had correctly thought, his long absence from London had by no
-means injured his practice; if anything, had improved it. In every
-class of life there is such a thing as making yourself too cheap, and
-the healthy and wealthy hypochondriacs, who form six-sevenths of a
-fashionable physician's _clientèle_, are rather incited and stimulated
-when they find the doctor unable or unwilling to attend their every
-summons. So Wilmot's practice was immense. He had a very large number
-of visits to pay that day, and he paid them all with thorough
-scrupulousness. Never had his manner been more _suave_ and bland;
-never had he listened more attentively to his patients' narratives of
-their complaints; never had his eyebrow-upliftings been more telling,
-the noddings of his head thrown in more _apropos_. The old ladies, who
-worshipped him, thought him more delightful than ever; the men were
-more and more convinced of his talent; but the truth is, that having
-no really serious case on hand, Dr. Wilmot permitted himself the
-luxury of thought; and while he was clasping Lady Cawdor's pulse, or
-peering down General Donaldbain's throat, he was all the time
-wondering what line of conduct he could best pursue towards Ronald and
-Madeleine Kilsyth. In the course of his afternoon drive he passed the
-carriages of scores of his brother practitioners, with whom he
-exchanged hurried bows and nods, all of whom returned to the perusal of
-the _Lancet_ or of their diaries, as the case might be, with envy at
-their hearts, and jealousy of the successful man who succeeded in
-everything, and who, if they had only known it, was quivering under
-the slight and insult which he had just received.
-
-His visits over, he went home and dined quietly. The romantic feelings
-connected with an "empty chair" troubled Chudleigh Wilmot very little.
-He had never paid very much attention to the person by whom the chair
-had been filled; indeed very frequently during Mabel's lifetime he had
-done what he always had done since her death, taken a book, and read
-during his dinner. But he could not read on this occasion. He tried,
-and failed dismally; the print swam before his eyes; he could not keep
-his attention for a moment on the book; he pushed it away, and gave up
-his mind to the subject with which it was preoccupied.
-
-Fair, impartial, and judicial self-examination--that was what he
-wanted, what he must have. Captain Kilsyth had insulted him, purposely
-no doubt; why? Not for an instant did Wilmot attempt to disguise from
-himself that it was on Madeleine's account; but how could Captain
-Kilsyth know anything of his (Wilmot's) feelings in regard to
-Madeleine; and if he did know of them, why should he now object?
-Captain Kilsyth might be standing out on the question of family; but
-that would never lead him to behave in so _brusque_ and ungentlemanly
-a manner; he might object to the alliance--to the alliance!--good God!
-here was he giving another man credit for speculating on matters which
-had only dimly arisen even in his own brain!
-
-Still there remained the fact of Captain Kilsyth's conduct having been
-as it had been, and still remained the question--why? To no creature
-on earth had he, Chudleigh Wilmot, confided his love for this girl;
-and so far as he knew--and he searched his memory carefully--he had
-never in his manner betrayed his secret in the remotest degree. Had
-his wife been alive, Ronald Kilsyth might have objected to finding him
-in close converse with his sister; yet in the fact of his having a
-wife lay--
-
-It flashed across him in an instant, and sent the blood rushing to his
-heart. The manner of his wife's death--was that known? The causes
-which, as Henrietta Prendergast had hinted to him, had led Mabel to
-the vial with the leaden seal--had they leaked out? had they reached
-the ears of this young man? Did he suspect that jealousy--no matter
-whether with or without foundation--of his sister had led Mrs. Wilmot
-to lay violent hands upon herself? And if he suspected it, why not a
-hundred others? The story would fly from mouth to mouth. This Captain
-Kilsyth--no; he would not lend his aid to its promulgation; he could
-not for his sister's sake; but--And yet, with or against Captain
-Kilsyth's wish, it must come out. When his visits ceased in
-Brook-street, as they must cease--he had determined on that; when he no
-longer saw Madeleine, who, as he perfectly well knew, had been brought
-to London with the view of being under his care, would not old Kilsyth
-make inquiries as to the change in the intended programme, and would
-not his son have to tell him all he had heard? It was too horrible to
-think of. With such a rumour in existence--granting that it was a
-rumour merely, and all unproved--it would be impossible for Kilsyth,
-however eagerly he might wish it, to befriend him--at least in the
-manner in which he could best befriend him, by encouraging his
-addresses to Madeleine. Lady Muriel would not listen to it; Ronald
-would not listen to it, even if those two were in some way--he could
-not think how, but there might be a way of getting round those two and
-winning them to his side--even if that were done, while that horrible
-story or suspicion was current--and it was impossible to set it at
-rest without the chance of establishing it firmly for ever--Kilsyth
-would never consent to his marriage with Madeleine.
-
-He must at once free himself from the chance of any story of this kind
-being promulgated. The more he thought the matter over, the more he
-saw the impossibility of again going to Brook-street, after what had
-occurred; the impossibility of his absence passing without remark and
-inquiry by Kilsyth; the impossibility of Ronald's withholding his
-statement of his own conduct in the matter, and his reasons for that
-conduct. For an instant a ray of hope shot through Chudleigh Wilmot's
-soul, as he thought that perhaps the reasons might be infinitely less
-serious and less damaging than he had depicted them to himself; but it
-died out again at once, and he acknowledged to himself the
-hopelessness of his situation. He had been indulging in a day-dream
-from which he had been rudely and ruthlessly waked, and his action
-must now be prompt and decisive. There was an end to it all; it was
-Kismet, and he must accept his fate. No combined future for Madeleine
-and him; their paths lay separate, and must be trodden separately at
-once; her brother was right, his own dead wife was right--it is not to
-be!
-
-There must be no blinking or shuffling with the question now, he
-thought. To remain in London without visiting in Brook-street would
-evoke immediate and peculiar attention; and it was plain that Ronald
-Kilsyth had determined that Dr. Wilmot's visits to Brook-street were
-not to be renewed. He must leave London, must leave England at once.
-He must go abroad for six months, for a year; must give up his
-practice, and seek change and repose in fresh scenes. He would spoil
-his future by so doing, blow up and shatter the fabric which he had
-reared with such industry and patience and self-denial; but what of
-that? He should ascribe his forced expatriation and retreat to loss of
-health, and he should at least reap pity and condolence; whereas now
-every moment that he remained upon the scene he ran the chance of
-being overwhelmed with obloquy and scorn. He could imagine, vividly
-enough, how the patients whom he had refused to flatter, whose
-self-imagined maladies he had laughed at and ridiculed, would turn
-upon him; how his brother practitioners, who had always hated him for
-his success, would point to the fulfilment of their never-delivered
-prophecies, and make much of their own idleness and incompetency; how
-the medical journals which he had riddled and scathed would issue
-fierce diatribes over his fall, or, worse than all, sympathise with
-the profession on--he could almost see the words in print before
-him--"the breach of that confidence which is the necessary and sacred
-bond between the physician and the patient."
-
-Anything better than that; and he must take the decisive step at once!
-He must give up his practice. Whittaker should have it, so far at
-least as his recommendation could serve him. He should have that,
-and must rely upon himself for the rest. Many of his patients
-knew Whittaker now, had become accustomed to him during the time
-of Wilmot's absence at Kilsyth, and Whittaker had not behaved
-badly during that--that horrible affair of Mabel's last illness.
-Moreover, if Whittaker suspected the cause of Mabel's death--and
-Wilmot shuddered as the mere thought crossed his mind--the practice
-would be a sop to him to induce him to hold his tongue in the matter.
-And he, Wilmot, would go away--and be forgotten. Better that, bitter
-as the thought might be--and how bitter it was none but those who have
-been compelled, for conscience' sake, for honour's sake, for
-expediency's sake even, to give up in the moment of success, to haul
-down the flag, and sheath the sword when they knew victory was in
-their grasp, could ever tell;--better that than to remain, with the
-chance of exposure to himself, of compromise to her. The mental
-overthrow, the physical suffering consequent upon the sudden death of
-his wife, would be sufficient excuse for this step to the world; and
-there were none to know the real cause of its being taken. He had
-saved sufficient money to enable him to live as comfortably as he
-should care to live, even if he never returned to work again; and once
-free from the torturing doubt which oppressed him, or rather from the
-possibility of all which that torturing doubt meant to his fevered
-mind, he should be himself again.
-
-Beyond his position, so hardly struggled for, so recently attained, he
-had nothing to leave behind him which he should particularly regret.
-He had been so self-contained, from the very means necessary for
-attaining that position, had been so circumscribed in the pleasures of
-his life, that his opportunities for the cultivation even of
-friendship had been very rare. He should miss the quaint caustic
-conversation, the earnest hearty liking so undeniably existing, even
-under its slight veneer of eccentricity, of old Foljambe; he should
-miss what he used laughingly to call his "dissipation" of attending a
-few professional and scientific gatherings held in the winter, where
-the talk was all "shop," dry and uninteresting to the uninitiated, but
-full of delight to the listeners, and specially to the talkers; he
-should miss the excitement of the lecture-theatre, where perhaps more
-than anywhere else he thoroughly enjoyed himself, and where he shone
-at his very brightest, and--that was all. No! Madeleine! this last and
-keenest source of enjoyment in his life, this pure spring of freshness
-and vigour, this revivification of early hopes and boyish dreams, this
-young girl, the merest acquaintance with whom had softened and
-purified his heart, had given aim and end to his career, had shown him
-how dull and heartless, how unloved, unloving, and unlovely had been
-his byegone time, and had aroused in him such dreams of uncensurable
-ambition for the future,--she must be given up, must become a "portion
-and parcel of the dreadful past," and be dead to him for ever! She
-must be given up! He repeated the words mechanically, and they rang in
-his ears like a knell. She must be given up! She was given up, even
-then, if he carried out his intention. He should never see her again,
-should never see the loving light in those blue eyes--ah, how well he
-minded him of the time when he first saw it in the earliest days of
-her convalescence at Kilsyth, and of all the undefined associations
-which it awakened in him!--should never hear the grateful accents of
-her soft sweet voice, should never touch her pretty hand again. For
-all the years of his life, as it appeared to him, he had held his eyes
-fixed upon the ground, and had raised them at the rustle of an angel's
-wings, only to see her float far beyond his reach. For all the years
-of his life he had toiled wearily on through the parching desert; and
-at length, on meeting the green oasis, where the fresh well sparkled
-so cheerily, had had the cup shattered from his trembling hand.
-
-She must be given up! She should be; that was the very keystone of the
-arrangement. He had looked the whole question fairly in the face; and
-what he had proposed to himself and had determined on abiding by, he
-would not shrink from now. But it was hard, very hard. And then he lay
-back in his chair, and in his mind retraced all the circumstances of
-his acquaintance with her; last of all, coming upon their final
-interview of that morning in the drawing-room at Brook-street. He was
-sufficiently calm now to eliminate Ronald and his truculence from the
-scene, and to think only of Madeleine; and that brought to his
-remembrance the reason of their having gone into the drawing-room
-together, to consult on her illness, the weakness of the lungs which
-he had detected at Kilsyth.
-
-That was a new phase of the subject, which had not occurred to him
-before. Not merely must he give her up and absent himself from her,
-but he must leave her at a time when his care and attention might be
-of vital importance to her. Like most leading men in his profession,
-Chudleigh Wilmot, with a full reliance on himself, combined a
-wholesome distrust of and disbelief in most of his brother
-practitioners. There were few--half a dozen at the most, perhaps--in
-whose hands Madeleine might be safely left, if they had some special
-interest, such as he had, in her case. Such as he had! Wilmot could
-not avoid a grim smile as he thought of old Dr. Blenkiron, with his
-snuff-dusted shirt-frill, or little Dr. Prater, with his gold-rimmed
-spectacles, feeling similar interest to his in this sweet girl. But
-unless they had special interest--unless they could have given up a
-certain amount of their time regularly to attending to her--it would
-have been of little use, as her symptoms were for ever varying, and
-wanted constant watching. And as for the general run of the
-profession, even men so well thought of as Whittaker or Perkins,
-he--stay, a good thought--old Sir Saville Rowe would probably be coming
-to town for the winter; and the old gentleman, though he had retired
-from active practice, would, Wilmot made sure, look after Madeleine for
-him as a special case. Sir Saville's brain was as clear as ever; and
-though his strength was insufficient to enable him to continue his
-practice, this one case would be an amusement rather than a trouble to
-him. Yes, that was the best way of meeting this part of the
-difficulty. Wilmot could go away at least without the additional
-anxiety of his darling's being without competent advice. So much of
-his burden could be lightened by Sir Saville; and he would sit down at
-once and write to the old gentleman, asking him to undertake the
-charge.
-
-He moved to his writing-table and sat down at it. He had arranged the
-paper before him and taken up his pen, when he suddenly stopped, threw
-aside the pen, and flung himself back in his chair. What excuse was he
-about to make to his old master for his leaving London at so critical
-a period in his career? He had not sufficiently considered that. He
-had intended saying that Mrs. Wilmot's sudden death had had such an
-effect upon him physically and mentally, that he felt compelled to
-relinquish practice, at least for the present, and to seek abroad for
-that rest and change of scene which was absolutely necessary for him.
-He had turned the phrases very neatly in his mind, but he had
-forgotten one thing. He had forgotten his conversation with the old
-gentleman on the garden walk overhanging the brawling Tay on the
-morning when he received the telegram from Kilsyth. He had forgotten
-how he had laughed in derision when Sir Saville had asked him whether
-he was in love with his wife; how he had curtly hinted that Mabel was
-all very well in her way, but holding a decidedly inferior position in
-his estimation to his practice and his work. He remembered all this
-now, and he saw how utterly futile it would be to attempt to put off
-his old friend with such a story. What, then, should be the excuse?
-That his own health had given way under pressure of work? Sir Saville
-knew well how highly Wilmot appreciated his professional opinion; and
-had he believed the story--which was very unlikely--would have been
-hurt at his old pupil's rushing away without consulting him. In any
-case he must not see Sir Saville, who would undoubtedly cross-question
-him in detail about Mrs. Wilmot's illness. He must write to the old
-gentleman, giving a very general statement and avoiding all
-particulars, and requesting him to take Madeleine under his charge.
-
-He did so. He wrote fully and affectionately to his old friend. He
-touched very slightly on the death of his wife, beyond hinting that
-that occurrence had necessitated his departing at once for the
-Continent on some law-business concerning property, by which he might
-probably be detained for some time. He went on to say that he had made
-arrangements for the transfer of his practice to Whittaker, who had
-had it, as Sir Saville would remember, during Chudleigh's absence in
-Scotland; but there was one special case, which he could only leave in
-the hands of Sir Saville himself: this was Miss Kilsyth. Sir Saville
-would remember his (Wilmot's) disinclination to accede to the request
-contained in the telegram on that eventful morning; and indeed it
-seemed curious to himself now, when he thought of the interest which
-he took in all that household. Kilsyth himself was the most charming
-&c., and the best specimen of an &c.; Lady Muriel was also, and her
-little girls were angels. Miss Kilsyth was mentioned last of all the
-family in Wilmot's letter, and was merely described as "an
-interesting, amiable girl." This portion of the letter was principally
-occupied with details of her threatened disease; and on reperusing it
-before sending it away, Wilmot was greatly struck by, as it seemed to
-him, the capital manner in which he had made his interest throughout
-assume a purely professional form. But, whether professionally or not,
-the interest was very earnestly put; and the desire that the old
-gentleman should break through his retirement and attend to this
-particular case was very strongly expressed. In conclusion, Wilmot
-said that he should send his address to his old friend, and that he
-hoped to be kept acquainted with Miss Kilsyth's state.
-
-Dr. Wilmot did not send his letter to the post that night. He read it
-over the next morning after seeing his home patients, and when the
-carriage was at the door to take him off on his rounds. He was quite
-satisfied with the tone of the letter, which he placed in an envelope
-and was just about to seal, when his servant entered and announced
-"Captain Kilsyth."
-
-
-
-
-CHAPTER XVII.
-Face to Face.
-
-
-"Captain Kilsyth!" No time for Chudleigh Wilmot to deny himself, if even he
-had so wished; no time to recover himself from the excitement which
-the announcement had aroused. He saw the broad dark outline of his
-visitor behind the servant.
-
-"Show Captain Kilsyth in."
-
-Captain Kilsyth came in. Wilmot noticed that he was very pale and
-stern-looking, but that there was no trace of yesterday's excitement
-about him. It had become second nature to Wilmot to notice these
-things; and he found himself critically examining Ronald's external
-appearance, as he would that of a patient who had sought his advice.
-
-The men bowed to each other, and Ronald spoke first. "You will be
-surprised to see me here, Dr. Wilmot," he said; "but be assured that
-it is business of importance that brings me."
-
-Wilmot bowed again. He was fast recovering from his agitation, but
-scarcely dared trust himself to speak just yet.
-
-"I see your carriage is at the door, and I will detain you but a very
-few moments. You can give me, say, ten minutes?"
-
-Wilmot muttered that his time was at Captain Kilsyth's disposal; an
-avowal which apparently annoyed his visitor, for he said testily,
-"You, and I should be above exchanging the polite trash of society,
-Dr. Wilmot. I am come here to speak on a matter which concerns me
-deeply, and those very near and dear to me even more deeply still. Are
-you prepared to hear me?"
-
-Those very near and dear to him! O yes; Wilmot was prepared to hear
-him fully and said as much. Would Captain Kilsyth be seated?
-
-"I have come to talk to you, Dr. Wilmot, as a friend," commenced
-Ronald, dropping into a chair. "I daresay you are scarcely prepared
-for that avowal, considering my conduct at our interview yesterday in
-Brook-street. Then I was hasty and inconsiderate; and for my conduct
-then I beg to tender my apologies frankly and freely. I trust they
-will be received?" There was an odd square blunt honesty even in the
-manner in which he said this that prepossessed Wilmot.
-
-"As frankly and freely as they are offered," he replied.
-
-"So far agreed," said Ronald. "Now, look here. I am a very bad hand at
-beating about the bush; and I have come here to say things the mere
-fact of saying which is, where men of honour are not concerned,
-compromising to one of the person spoken of I have every belief that
-you are a man of honour, and therefore I speak."
-
-Dr. Wilmot bowed again, and said that Captain Kilsyth complimented
-him.
-
-"No. I think too highly of you to do that. I simply speak what I
-believe to be true, from all I have heard of your doings at Kilsyth."
-
-Of his doings at Kilsyth? A man of honour, from his doings at Kilsyth?
-Though perfectly conscious that Ronald was watching him, narrowly,
-Chudleigh Wilmot's cheeks coloured deeply at this point, and he was
-silent.
-
-"Now, Dr. Wilmot, I must begin by talking to you a little about
-myself--an unprofitable subject, but one necessary to be touched upon
-in this discourse between us. The men who are supposed to know me
-intimately--my own brother officers, I mean--will tell you that I am
-an oddity, an extraordinary fellow, and that they know nothing about
-me. Nothing is known of my likes or dislikes. I am believed not to
-have any of either. Now this is an exaggerated view of the question. I
-don't know that I dislike anyone in particular; but I have my
-affections. I am very fond of my father; I adore my sister Madeleine."
-
-He spoke with such earnestness and warmth, that Wilmot looked up at
-him, half in pleasure, half in wonder. Ronald noticed the glance, and
-said, "If you have heard me mentioned at all, Dr. Wilmot, you have
-probably heard it said that I am a man with a stone instead of a
-heart, with the _Cavalry Officer's Instructions_ instead of a Bible;
-and therefore I cannot wonder at your look of astonishment. But what I
-have stated to you is pure and simple fact. I love these two
-infinitely better than my life."
-
-Wilmot bowed again. He felt ashamed of his reiterated acquiescence,
-but had nothing more satisfactory to proffer.
-
-"Now, I don't see much of my family," pursued Ronald. "Their ways of
-life are different from mine; and except when they happen to be in
-London we are seldom thrown together. This may be to be regretted, or
-it may not; at all events the fact is so. But whether I see them or
-not, my interest in them never slackens. There are people, I
-know--most people, I believe--to whom propinquity is a necessary
-ingredient for affection. They must be near those they love--must be
-brought into constant communication, personal communication with them,
-or their love dies out. That is affection of a type which I cannot
-understand; it is a great deal too spaniel-or ivy-like for my
-comprehension. I could go on for years without seeing those I love,
-and love them all the same. Consequently, although when the eight or
-nine weeks' whirl which my family calls the London season is at an
-end, and I scarcely see them until it begins again, I do not take less
-interest in their proceedings, nor is my keen affection for those I
-love one whit diminished. You follow me?"
-
-"So far, perfectly."
-
-"I was detained here on duty in London during last August and
-September; and even if I had been free, I doubt whether I should have
-been with my people at Kilsyth. As I have just said, their ways of
-life, their amusements and pursuits are different from mine, and I
-should probably have been following my own fancies somewhere else. But
-I always hear from some of them with the greatest regularity; and I
-heard, of course, of my sister's illness, and of your being called in
-to attend upon her. Your name was thoroughly familiar to me. What my
-friends call my 'odd ways' have made me personally acquainted with
-several of the leading members of your profession; and directly I
-heard that you had arrived at Kilsyth, I knew that Madeleine could not
-possibly be in better hands."
-
-To anyone else Wilmot would have said that she could not have been
-under the charge of anyone who would have taken greater interest in
-her case; but he had not forgotten the interview of yesterday, and he
-forbore.
-
-"I was delighted to hear of your arrival at Kilsyth," continued
-Ronald, "and I was deeply grateful to you for the unceasing care and
-anxiety which, as reported to me, you bestowed upon my sister. The
-accounts which I received vied with each other in doing justice to
-your skill and your constant attention; and I believe, as I know all
-at Kilsyth believed, that, under Providence, we owe Madeleine's life
-to you."
-
-"You will pardon my interrupting you, Captain Kilsyth," said Wilmot,
-speaking almost for the first time; "but you give me more credit than
-I deserve. Miss Kilsyth was very ill; but what she required most was
-constant attention and watching. The excellent doctor of the
-district--I forget his name, I'm ashamed to say--Joyce, Dr. Joyce,
-would have been thoroughly efficient, and would have doubtless
-restored Miss Kilsyth to health as speedily as I did; only
-unfortunately others had a claim upon him, and he could not devote his
-time to her."
-
-"Exactly what I was saying. I presume it will not be doubted that Dr.
-Wilmot, of Charles-street, St. James's--in his own line the principal
-physician of London--had as many calls upon his time even as the
-excellent doctor of the district, and yet he sacrificed all others to
-attend on Miss Kilsyth."
-
-"Dr. Wilmot was away from his patients on a holiday, and no one had a
-claim upon his time."
-
-"And he made the most of his holiday by spending a great portion of it
-in the sick-room of a fever-stricken patient! No, no, Dr. Wilmot; you
-made a great sacrifice undoubtedly. Now, why did you make it?"
-
-He turned suddenly upon Wilmot as he spoke, and looked him straight in
-the face. Wilmot's colour came again; he moved restlessly in his
-chair, pressed his hands nervously together, but said nothing.
-
-"I told you, Dr. Wilmot, that I was about to speak of things the mere
-mention of which, were we not men of honour, would be compromising to
-some of the persons spoken of. I ask you why you made that sacrifice
-of your professional time. I ask you not for information, because I
-know the reason. Before you left Kilsyth, I heard that my sister was
-receiving attention from a most undesirable quarter--from a quarter
-whence it was impossible that any good could arise. My sister is, as I
-have told you, dearer to me than my life, and the news distressed me
-beyond measure. I turned it over and over in my mind; I made every
-possible kind of inquiry. At length, on the evening on which you
-arrived in London and called on me at my club, I knew that you were
-the man alluded to by my informant."
-
-No change in Chudleigh Wilmot. His cheek is still flushed, his eyes
-still cast down; still he moves restlessly in his chair, still his
-hands pluck nervously at each other.
-
-"I knew it, and yet I hardly could believe it. I knew that men of your
-profession, specially men of such eminence in your profession, were in
-the habit of being received and treated with the utmost confidence;
-which confidence was never abused. I knew that bystanders and
-lookers-on, unaccustomed to illness, might very easily misconstrue the
-attention which a physician would pay to a young lady whose case had
-excited his strong professional interest. I--well, constrained to take
-the worst view of it--I knew that you were a married man, and I
-thought that you might have admired Miss Kilsyth, and that--that when
-you left her--there--there would be an end of the feeling."
-
-No change in Chudleigh Wilmot. His cheek is still flushed, his eyes
-still cast down; still he moves restlessly in his chair, still his
-hands pluck nervously at each other. Something in his appearance
-seemed to touch Ronald Kilsyth as he looked at him earnestly, for he
-said:
-
-"I wish to God I could think so now, Dr. Wilmot! I wish to God I could
-think so now! But though I don't pretend to be versed in these
-matters, I have a certain amount of insight; and when I saw you
-standing by my sister's side in the drawing-room in Brook-street
-yesterday, I knew that the information I had received was correct." He
-paused for an instant, and passed his hand across his forehead, then
-resumed. "I am a blunt man, Dr. Wilmot, but I trust neither coarse nor
-unsympathetic. I want to convey to you as quietly as possible that you
-have made a mistake; that for everyone's sake--ours, Madeleine's, your
-own--this thing cannot, must not be."
-
-A change in Chudleigh Wilmot now. He does not look up; he covers his
-brow with his left hand; but he says in a deep husky voice:
-
-"There is--as you are aware--a change in my circumstances: I am--I am
-free now; and perhaps--in the future--"
-
-"In no future, Dr. Wilmot," interrupted Ronald gravely, but not
-unkindly. "Listen to me. If, as I half suspected you would, you had
-flung yourself into a rage,--denied, stormed, protested,--I should
-simply have said my say, and left you to make the best or the worst of
-it. But you have not done this, and--and I pity you most sincerely.
-You are, as you say, free now. You think probably there is no reason
-why, at some future time, you should not ask my sister to become your
-wife. You would probably urge your claims upon her gratitude--claims
-which you think she might possibly be brought to allow. It can never
-be, Dr. Wilmot. I, who am anything but, in this sense, a worldly man,
-even I know that your presence at Kilsyth, your long stay there, to
-the detriment of your home interests, your devotion to my sister, have
-already given matter for talk to the gossips of society, and received
-the usual amount of malicious comment. And if you have real regard for
-Madeleine, you would give up anything to shield her from that,
-indorsed as would be the imputation and intensified as would be the
-malice, if your relations with her were to be on any other footing
-than--they ought to have been."
-
-Quite silent now, Chudleigh Wilmot; his hand still covering his brow,
-his head sunk upon his breast.
-
-"I said I pitied you; and I do," continued Ronald. "And here,
-understand me, and let me explain one point in our position, Dr.
-Wilmot. What I have to say, though it may pain you in one way, will, I
-think, be satisfactory to you in another. You may think that Madeleine
-may be destined by her family for some--I speak without the least
-offence--some higher destiny; that her family would wish for her a
-husband higher in social rank. I give you my honour that, as far as I
-am concerned, I could not, from all I have heard of you, wish my
-sister's future confided to a more honourable man. Social rank and
-dignity weigh very little with me. My life is passed generally with
-those who have won their spurs, rather than inherited their titles;
-and I would infinitely sooner see my sister married to a man whose
-successful position in life was due to himself than to one who merely
-wore the reflected glory of his ancestors. So far you would have been
-a suitor entirely acceptable to me, had there not been the other
-unfortunate element in the matter."
-
-Ronald ceased speaking, and for some minutes there was a dead silence.
-Then Chudleigh Wilmot raised his head, rose from his chair, and
-commenced pacing the room with long strides; Ronald, perfectly
-understanding his emotion, remaining passively seated. At length
-Wilmot stopped by Ronald's chair, and said:
-
-"When you entered this room, you told me you had come here to speak to
-me as a friend. I am bound to say that you have perfectly fulfilled
-that implicit promise. No one could have been more frank, more candid,
-and, I may say, more tender than you have been with me. My
-profession," said Wilmot with a dreary smile,--"my profession teaches
-us to touch wounds tenderly, and you seem to be thoroughly imbued with
-the precept. You will do me the justice to allow that I have listened
-to you patiently; that I have heard without flinching almost,
-certainly without complaint."
-
-Ronald bowed his head in acquiescence.
-
-"Now, then, I must ask you to listen to me. What I have to say to you
-is as sacred as what you have said to me, and will not, could not be
-mentioned by me to another living soul. When I received your father's
-telegram summoning me to your sister's bedside, there was no more
-heart-whole man in Britain than myself. When I use the word
-'heart-whole,' I do not intend it to convey the expression of a
-perfect content in the affections I possessed, as you, knowing I was
-married and settled, might understand it. I was heart-whole in the
-sense that, while I was thoroughly skilled in the physical state of my
-heart, its mental condition never gave me a thought. I had, as long as
-I could recollect, been a very hard-working man. I had married, when I
-first established myself in practice, principally, I believe, because
-I thought it the most prudent thing for a young physician to do; but
-certainly not from any feeling that ever caused my heart one extra
-pulsation. You must not be shocked at this plain speaking. Recollect
-that you are listening to an anatomical lecture, and go through with
-it. All the years of my married life passed without any such feeling
-being called into existence. My--my wife was a woman of quiet domestic
-temperament, who pursued her way quietly through life; and I,
-thoroughly engrossed in my professional pursuits, never thought that
-life had anything better to engage in than ambition, better to offer
-than success. I went to Kilsyth, and for weeks was engaged in
-constant, unremitting attendance upon your sister. I saw her under
-circumstances which must to a certain extent have invested the most
-uninteresting woman in the world with interest; I saw her deserted and
-shunned, by everyone else, and left entirely to my care; I saw her in
-her access of delirium, and afterwards, when prostrate and weak, she
-was dependent on me for everything she wanted. And while she and I
-were thus together--I now combating the disease which assailed her,
-now watching the sweet womanly patience, the more than womanly
-courage, with which she supported its attacks--I, witnessing how pure
-and good she was, how soft and gentle, and utterly unlike anything I
-had ever seen, save perhaps in years long past, began to comprehend
-that there was, after all, something to live for beyond the attainment
-of success and the accumulation of fees."
-
-Wilmot stopped here, and looked at his companion; but Ronald's head
-was turned away, and he made no movement; so Wilmot proceeded.
-
-I--I scarcely know how to go on here; but I determined to tell you
-all, and I will go through with it. You cannot tell, you cannot have
-the smallest idea of what I have suffered. You were pleased to call me
-a man of honour: God alone knows how I struggled to deserve that title
-from you, from every member of Miss Kilsyth's family. I succeeded so
-well, that until I noticed the expression of your face yesterday, I
-believed no one on earth knew of the state of my feelings towards that
-young lady. At Kilsyth, when I first felt the fascination creeping
-over me; when I found that there was another, a better and a brighter
-be-all and end-all for human existence than I had previously imagined;
-when I found that the whole of my career had hitherto lacked, and
-under then existent circumstances was likely to lack, all that could
-make it worth running after, the want had been discovered; I did my
-best to shut my eyes to what might have been, and to content myself
-with what was. I knew that though my--my wife and I had never
-professed any extravagant affection for each other; that though we had
-never been lovers, in the common acceptation of the word, she had
-discharged her duty most faithfully to me, and that I should be a
-scoundrel to be untrue to her in thought--in word, of course, from
-other considerations, it was impossible. I did my best, and my best
-availed. I succeeded so far, that I left your father's house with the
-knowledge that my secret was locked in my own breast, and that I had
-never made the slightest tentative advance to your sister, to see if
-she were even aware of its existence. More than this. During my
-attendance on Miss Kilsyth, I had discovered that she was suffering
-from a threatening of what the world calls consumption. I felt it my
-duty to mention this to your father, and he requested me to attend her
-professionally when the family returned to London. I agreed--to him;
-but I had long reflection on the subject during my return journey, and
-had almost decided to decline, on some pretext or another.
-
-"Hear me but a little longer. I need not dwell to you upon the event
-which has occurred since I left Scotland, and which has left me a free
-man--free to enjoy legitimately that happiness, a dream of which
-dawned upon me at Kilsyth, and which I shut out and put aside because
-it was then wrong, and almost unattainable. Circumstances are now so
-altered, that it is certainly not the former, and it is yet to be
-proved whether, so far as the young lady is concerned, it is the
-latter. In my desire to do right, even with the feeling of relief and
-release which I had, even with the hope which I do not scruple to
-confess I have nourished, I kept from Brook-street until a line from
-Miss Kilsyth summoned me thither. When you met me yesterday, I was
-there in obedience to her summons. You know that, I suppose, Captain
-Kilsyth?'"
-
-"I made inquiries yesterday, and heard so. I said at the outset, Dr.
-Wilmot, that you were a man of honour. Your conduct since your return,
-and since the return of my family, weighed with me in the utterance of
-that opinion."
-
-"I did not go to Brook-street--not that I did not fully comprehend the
-change in the nature of my position since I had last seen Miss
-Kilsyth, not that I had not a certain half-latent feeling of hope that
-I might, now I had the legitimate chance, be enabled to rouse an
-interest in her, but because I thought it was perhaps better to stay
-away. If I did not see her again, I preposterously attempted to argue
-to myself, the feeling that I had for her might die out. I have seen
-her again. I have heard from you that my feelings towards your sister
-are known--at least to you; and now I ask you whether you still think
-that, under existing circumstances, it is impossible for me to ask
-Miss Kilsyth to be my wife at some future date?"
-
-As Chudleigh Wilmot stopped speaking, he bent over the back of the
-chair by which he had been standing during the latter part of his
-speech, and looked long and earnestly at Ronald. It was very seldom
-that Captain Kilsyth dropped his eyes before anyone's gaze; but on
-this occasion he passed his hand hastily across them, and kept them
-for some minutes fixed upon the ground. A very hard struggle was going
-on in Ronald Kilsyth's mind. He was firmly persuaded that the decision
-he had originally taken, and which he had come to Charles-street for
-the purpose of insisting on with Wilmot, was the right one. And yet
-Wilmot's story, in itself so touching, had been so plainly and
-earnestly told, there was such evident honesty and candour in the man,
-that Ronald's heart ached to be compelled to destroy the hopes which
-he felt certain that his companion had recently cherished. Moreover,
-in saying that in considering Madeleine's future, his aspirations for
-her marriage took no heed of rank or wealth, Ronald simply spoke the
-truth. He had a slight tendency to hero-worship; and a man of Wilmot's
-talent, and, as he now found, of Wilmot's integrity and gentlemanly
-feeling, was just the person of whose friendship and alliance he would
-have been proud. Madeleine too? In his own heart Ronald felt perfectly
-certain that Madeleine was already gratefully fond of her preserver,
-and would soon become as passionately attached to him as the mildness
-of her nature would admit; while he knew that she would not feel that
-she was descending from her social position--that she was "marrying
-beneath her," to use the ordinarily accepted phrase, in the smallest
-degree. And yet--no, it was impossible! He, Ronald Kilsyth, the last
-man in the world to care for the talk of "_on_," "they," "everybody,"
-the social scandal, and the club chatter, while it concerned himself,
-shrunk from it most sensitively when it threatened anyone dear to
-him. Physicians were all very well--everyone knew them of course,
-necessarily; but their wives--Ronald was trying to recollect how many
-physicians' wives he had ever met in society, when he recollected that
-it was Madeleine, who would of course hold her own position; and--and
-then came a thought of Lady Muriel, and the influence which she had
-over his father when they were both tolerably agreed upon the subject.
-It was impossible; and he must say so.
-
-He looked up straightforwardly and honestly at his companion, and
-said, "I wish to God that I could give you a different answer, Dr.
-Wilmot; but I cannot. I still think it is impossible."
-
-"I think so too," said Wilmot sadly. "I have looked at it, as you may
-imagine, from the most hopeful aspect; and even then I am compelled to
-confess that you are right. But, see here, Captain Kilsyth; whatever I
-make up my mind to I can go through with,--all save slow torture. My
-doom must be short and sharp--no lingering death. What I mean to say
-is," he continued, striving to repress the knot rising in his
-throat,--"what I mean to say is, that as I am to give up this hope of
-my life, I must quench it utterly and at once, not suffer it to
-smoulder and die out. You tell me--no!" he added, as Ronald put out
-his hand. "I do not mean you personally, believe me. I am told that I
-must abandon any idea of asking Miss Kilsyth to be my wife, and--and I
-agree. But--I must never see Miss Kilsyth again. I could not risk the
-chance of meeting her here, there, and everywhere. I would not run the
-chance of being thrown with her again. I should do my best to hold to
-the line of conduct I have marked out for myself; but I am but mortal,
-and, as such, liable to err."
-
-"Then, in heaven's name, what do you intend to do with yourself?"
-asked Ronald, with one hand plucking at his moustache, and the other
-hooked round the back of the chair.
-
-"To do with myself!" echoed Wilmot. "To fly from temptation. The thing
-that every sensible man does when he really means to win. It is only
-your braggarts who stop and vaunt the excellence of their virtue, and
-give in after all. Read that letter, Captain Kilsyth, and you will see
-that I have anticipated the object of your visit."
-
-Ronald took the letter to Sir Saville Rowe which Wilmot handed to him,
-and read it through carefully. The tears stood in his eyes as he
-handed it back.
-
-"You're a noble fellow, Dr. Wilmot," said he; "such a gentleman as one
-seldom meets with. But this will never do. You must never think of
-giving up your practice."
-
-"For a time at least; it is the only way. I must cure myself of a
-disease that has laid firm hold upon me before I can be of any use to
-my patients, I fancy."
-
-"When do you purpose going?"
-
-"At once, or within the week."
-
-"And where?"
-
-"I don't know. Through Germany--to Vienna, I imagine. Vienna is a
-great stronghold of the _savans_ of our profession; and I should give
-out that I was bound thither on a professional mission."
-
-"I feel as though there is nothing I would not give to dissuade you
-from carrying out what only half an hour since my heart was so
-earnestly set upon. But is it absolutely necessary that you should
-thus exile yourself? Could you not--"
-
-"I can take no half measures," said Wilmot decisively. "I go, or I
-stay; and we have both decided what I had better do."
-
-
-Five minutes more and Ronald was gone, after a short and earnest
-speech of gratitude and thanks to Wilmot, in which he had said that it
-would be impossible ever to forget his manly chivalry, and that he
-hoped they would soon meet under happier auspices. He wrung Wilmot's
-hand at parting, and left, sensibly affected.
-
-Wilmot's servant heard the hall-door shut behind the departing
-visitor, and wondered he had not been rung for. Five minutes more
-elapsed, ten minutes, and then the man, thinking that his master had
-overlooked the fact that the carriage was waiting for him, went up to
-the room to make the announcement. When he entered the room, he found
-his master with his head upon the table in front of him clasped in his
-hands. He looked up at the sound of the man's voice and murmured
-something unintelligible, seized his hat and gloves from the
-hall-table, and jumped into his brougham.
-
-"He was ghastly pale when he first looked up," said the man to the
-female circle downstairs, "and had great red lines round his eyes.
-Sometimes I think he's gone off his 'ead! He's never been the same man
-since missus's death."
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